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TO THE MOST EXCELlent Prince , Prince CHARLES . Most Excellent Prince , I Haue had three Births ; One , Naturall , when I came into the World ; One Supernatural , when I entred into the Ministery ; and now , a preter-naturall Birth , in returning to Life , from this Sicknes . In my second Birth , your Highnesse Royall Father vouchsafed mee his Hand , no● onely to sustaine me● in it , but to lead mee to it . In this last Birth , I my selfe am borne a Father : This Child of mine , this Booke , comes into the world , from mee , and with mee . And therefore , I presume ( as I did the Father to the Father ) to present the Sonne to the Sonne ; This Image of my Humiliation , to the liuely Image of his Maiesty , your Highnesse . It might bee enough , that God hath seene my Deuotions : But Examples of Good Kings are Commandements ; And Ezechiah writt the Meditations of his Sicknesse , after his Sicknesse . Besides , as I haue liu'd to see , ( not as a Witnesse onely , but as a Partaker ) the happinesses of a part of your Royal Fathers time , so shall I liue , ( in my way ) to see the happpinesses of the times of you● Highnesse too , if this Child of mine , inanimated by your gracious Acceptation , may so long preserue aliue the Memory of Your Highnesse Humblest and Deuo●edst IOHN DONNE . Stationes , siue Periodi in Morbo , ad quas referuntur Meditationes sequentes . 1 INsultus Morbi primus ; 2 Post , Actio loesa ; 3 Decubitus sequitur tandē ; 4 Medicusque vocatur ; 5 Solus adest ; 6 Metuit ; 7 Socios sibi iungier instat ; 8 Et Rex ipse suum mittit ; 9 Medicamina scribunt ; 10 Lentè & Serpenti sata●unt occurrere Morbo . 11 Nobilibusque trahunt , a cincto corde , venenum , Succis , & Gemmis ; & quae Generosa , ministrant Ars , & Natura , instillant ; 12 Spirante Columbâ , Suppositâ pedibus , reuocantur ad ima vapores ; 13 Atque Malum Genium , numeroso stigmate , fassus● Pellitur ad pectus , Morbique Suburbia , Morbus : 14 Idque notant Criticis , Medici , euenisse diebus . 15 Inter●a insomnes Nocte● ego duco , Diesque : 16 Et properare meum , clamant , e turre propinqua Obstreperae Campanae , aliorum in funere , funus . 17 Nunc lento sonitu dicunt● Morieris ; 18 At inde● Mortuus es , sonitu celeri , pulsuque agitato . 19 Oceano tandem emenso , aspicienda resurgit Terra ; vident , iustis , Medici , iam cocta mederi Se posse , indicijs ; 20 Id agunt ; 21 Atque an●uit Ille , Qui per eos clamat , linquas iam Lazare lectum ; 22 Sit Morbi Fomes tibi Cura ; 23 Metusque Relabi . Erra●a . Pag. 40. pro 2.3 . Meditat. Pag. 43. vlt. pasture , posture . Pag. 96. lin . penult . flesh . God , Pag. 158. in Marg. Buxdor . Pag. 173. li. 13. add , hast . Pag. 184. in marg . Augustin . Pag. 185. lin . 17. blow . flow . DEVOTIONS . 1. Insultus Morbi primus ; The first alteration , The first grudging of the sicknesse . 1. MEDITATION . VAriable , and therfore miserable condition of Man ; this minute I was well , and am ill , this minute . I am surpriz'd with a sodaine change , & alteration to worse , and can impute it to no cause , nor call it by any name . We study Health , and we deliberate vpon our meats , and drink , and Ayre , and exercises , and we hew , and wee polish euery stone , that goes to that building ; and so our Health is a long & a regular work ; But in a minute a Canon batters all , ouerthrowes all , demolishes all ; a Sicknes vnpreuented for all our diligence , vnsuspected for all our curiosi●ie ; nay , vndeserued , if we consider only disorder , summons vs , seizes vs , possesses vs , destroyes vs in an instant . O miserable condition of Man , which was not imprinted by God ; who as hee is immortall himselfe , had put a coale , a beame of Immortalitie into vs , which we might haue blowen into a flame , but blew it ou● , by our first sinne ; wee beggard our selues by hearkning after false riches , and infatuated our selues by hearkning after false knowledge . So that now , we doe not onely die , but die vpon the Rack , die by the torment of sicknesse ; nor that onely , but are pre-afflicted , super-afflicted with these ielousies and suspitions , and apprehensions of Sicknes , before we can cal it a sicknes ; we are not sure we are ill ; one hand askes the other by the pulse , and our eye askes our own vrine , how we do . O multiplied misery we die , and cannot enioy death , because wee die in this torment of sicknes ; we are tormented with sicknes , & cannot stay till the torment come , but pre-apprehēsions and presages , prophecy those torments , which induce that death before either come● and our dissolution is conceiued in these first changes , quickned in the sicknes it selfe , and borne in death , which be●res date from these first changes . Is this the honour which Man hath by being a litle world , That he hath these earthquakes in him selfe , sodaine shakings ; these lightnings , sodaine flashes ; these thunders , sodaine noises ; these E●clypses , sodain offuscations , & darknings of his senses ; these blazing stars sodaine fiery exhalations ; these riuers of blood , sodaine red waters ? Is he a world to himselfe onely therefore , that he ha●h inough in himself , not only to destroy , and execute himselfe , but to presage that execution vpon himselfe ; to as●ist the sicknes , to antidate the sicknes , to make the sicknes the more irremediable , by sad apprehensions , and as if hee would make a fire the more vehement , by sprinkling water vpon the coales , so to wrap a hote feuer in cold Melancholy , least the feuer alone shold not destroy fast enough , without this contribution , nor perfit the work ( which is destruction ) except we ioynd an artificiall sicknes , of our owne melancholy , to our natural , our vnnaturall feuer . O perplex'd discomposition , O ridling distemper , O miserable condition of Man. 1. EXPOSTVLATION . IF I were but meere dust & ashes , I might speak vnto the Lord , for the Lordes hand made me of this dust , and the Lords hand shall recollect these ashes ; the Lords hand was the wheele , vpon which this vessell of ●lay was framed , and the Lordes hand is the Vrne , in which these ashes shall be preseru'd . I am the dust , & the ashes of the Temple of the H. Ghost ; and what Marble is so precious ? But I am more then dust & ashes ; I am my best part , I am my soule . And being so , the breath of God , I may breath back these pious expostulations to my God. My God , my God , why is not my soule , as fensible as my body ? Why hath not my soule these apprehensions , these presages , these changes , those antidates , those iealousies , those suspitions of a sinne ● as well as my body of a sicknes ? why is there not alwayes a pulse in my Soule , to beat at the approch of a tentation to sinne ? why are there not alwayes waters in mine eyes , to testifie my spiritual sicknes ? I stand in the way of tentations , ( naturally , necessarily , all men doe so : for there is a Snake in euery path , tentations in euery vocation ) but I go , I run , I flie into the wayes of tētation , which I might shun ; nay , I breake into houses , wher the plague is ; I presse into places of tentation , and tempt the deuill himselfe , and solicite & importune them , who had rather be left vnsolicited by me . I fall sick of Sin , and am bedded and bedrid , buried and putrified in the practise of Sin , and all this while ha●e no presage , no pulse , no sense of my sicknesse ; O heighth , O depth of misery , where the first Symptome of the sicknes is Hell , & where I neuer fee the feuer of lust , of enuy , of ambition , by any other light , then the darknesse and horror of Hell it selfe ● & where the first Messenger that speaks to me doth not say● Thou mayst die , no , nor Thou must die , but Thou art dead : and where the first notice , that my Soule hath of her sicknes , is irrecouerablenes , irremediablenes : but , O my God , Iob did not charge thee foolishly , in his temporall afflictions , nor may I in my spirituall . Thou hast imprinted a pulse in our Soule , but we do not examine it ; a voice in our conscience , but wee doe not hearken vnto it . We talk it out , we iest it out , we drinke it out , we sleepe it out ; and when wee wake , we doe not say with Iacob , Surely the Lord is in this place , and I knew it not : but though we might know it , we do not , we wil not . But will God pretend to make a Watch , and leaue out the springe ? to make so many various wheels in the faculties of the Soule , and in the organs of the body , and leaue out Grace , that should moue them ? or wil God make a springe , and not wind it vp ? Infuse his first grace , & not second it with more , without which , we can no more vse his first grace , when we haue it , then wee could dispose our selues by Nature , to haue it ? But alas , that is not our case ; we are all prodigall sonnes , and not disinherited ; wee haue receiued our portion , and mis-spent it , not bin denied it . We are Gods tenants heere , and yet here , he , our Land-lord payes vs Rents ; not yearely , nor quarterly , but hourely , and quarterly ; Euery minute he renewes his mercy , but wee will not vnderstand , least that we should be conuerted , and he should heale vs. 1. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most gracious God , who considered in thy selfe , art a Circle , first and last , and altogether ; but considered in thy working vpon vs , art a direct line , and leadest vs from our beginning , through all our wayes , to our end , enable me by thy grace , to looke forward to mine end , and to looke backward to , to the cōsiderations of thy mercies afforded mee from the beginning ; that so by that practise of considering thy mercy , in my beginning in this world , when thou plātedst me in the Christian Church , and thy mercy in the beginning in the other world , whē thou writest me in the Booke of life , in my Election , I may come to a holy consideration of thy mercy , in the beginning of all my actions here● That in all the begin●nings , in all the accesses and approches of spiri●tuall sicknesses of Sinn , may heare and hearke● to that voice , O thou Ma● of God , there is death in th● pot , and so refraine from that , which I was so hungerly , so greedily flying to . A faithfull Am●bassador is health , says thy wise seruant Solomon ● Thy voice receiued , in the beginning of a sicknesse , of a sinne , is true health . If I can see that light betimes , and heare that voyce early , Then shall my light breake forth as the morning , and my health shall spriug foorth speedily . Deliuer mee therefore , O my God , from these vaine imaginations ; that it is an ouercurious thing , a dangerous thing , to come to that tendernesse , that rawnesse , that scrupulousnesse , to feare euery concupiscence , euery offer of Sin , that this suspicious , & iealous diligence will turne to an inordinate deiection of spirit , and a diffidence in thy care & prouidence ; bu● keep me still establish'd , both in a constant assurance , that thou wil● speake to me at the beginning of euery such sicknes , at the approach of euery such Sinne ; and that , if I take knowledg of that voice then , an● flye to thee , thou wil● preserue mee from falling , or raise me againe when by naturall infirmitie● I am fallen : do● this , O Lord , for his sake who knowes our naturall infirmities , for he had them ; and knowes the weight of our sinns , for he paid a deare price for them , thy Sonne , our Sauiour , Chr : Iesus , Amen . 2. Actio Laesa . The strength , and the functiō of the Senses , & other faculties change and faile . 2. MEDITATION . THe Heauens are not the lesse constant , because they moue continually , because they moue continually one and the same way . The Earth is not the more constant , because it lyes stil continually , because continually it changes , and melts in al the parts thereof . Man , who is the noblest part of the Earth , melts so away , as if he were a statue , not of Earth , but of Snowe . We see his owne Enuie melts him , hee growes leane with that ; he will say , anothers beautie melts him ; but he feeles that a Feuer doth not melt him like snow , but powr him out like lead , like yron , like brasse melted in a furnace : It doth not only melt him , but Calcine him , reduce him to Atomes , and to ashes ; not to water , but to lime . And how quickly ? Sooner then thou canst receiue an answer , sooner then thou canst conceiue the question ; Earth is the center of my body , Heauen is the center of my Soule ; these two are the naturall place of these two ; but tho● goe not to these two , i● an equall place : My b●●dy falls downe withou● pushing , my Soule do●● not go vp without pu●ling : Ascension is m● Soules pace & measur● but precipitation my b●dies : And , euen Angell● whose home is Heaue● and who are winge● too , yet had a Ladder 〈◊〉 goe to Heauen , by step● The Sunne who goes 〈◊〉 many miles in a minu●● The Starres of the Fi●●mament , which go so very many more , goe not so fast , as my body to the earth . In the same instant that I feele the first attempt of the disease , I feele the victory ; In the twinckling of an eye , I can scarse see ; instantly the tast is insipid , and fatuous ; instantly the appetite is dull and desirelesse● instantly the knees are sinking and strengthlesse ; and in an instant , sleepe , which is the picture , the copy of death , is taken away , that the Originall , Death it selfe may succeed , and that so I might haue death to the life . It was part of Adams punishment , In the sweat of thy browes thou shalt eate thy bread ● it is multiplied to me , I haue earned bread in the sweat of my browes , in the labor of my calling , and I haue it● and I sweat againe , & againe , from the brow● to the sole of the foot● but I eat no bread , I tast no sustenance : Miserable distribution of Mankind , where one halfe lackes meat , and the other stomacke . 2. EXPOSTVLATION . DAuid professes himself a dead dog , to his king Saul , & so doth Mephibosheth to his king Dauid : & yet Dauid speaks to Saul , and Mephibosheth to Dauid . No man is so little , in respect of the greatest man , as the greatest in respect of God ; for here , in that , wee haue not so much as a measure to try it by ; proportiō is no measure for infinitie . He that hath no more of this world but a graue , hee that hath his graue but lent him , til a better man , or another man , must bee buried in the same graue , he that hath no graue , but a dung-hill , hee that hath no more earth , but that which he carries , but that which hee is , hee that hath not that earth , which hee is , but euen in that , is anothers slaue , hath as much proportion to God , as if all Dauids Worthies , and all the worlds Monarchs , and all imaginations Gyants were kneaded and incorporated into one , and as though that one were the suruiuor of all the sonnes of men , to whom God had giuen the world . And therefore how little soeuer I bee , as God calls things that are not , as though they were , I , who am as though I were not , may call vpon God , and say , My God , my God , why comes thine anger so fast vpon me ? Why dost thou melt me , scatter me , powre me like water vpon the ground so instantly ? Thou staidst for the first world , in Noahs time , 120 yeres ; thou staidst for a rebellious generation in the wildernesse 40 yeares , wilt thou stay no minute for me ? Wilt thou make thy Processe , and thy Decree , thy Citation , and thy Iudgement but one act ? Thy Summons , thy Battell , thy Victorie , thy Triumph , all but one act ; & lead me captiue , nay deliuer me captiue to death , assoon as thou declarest mee to be enemy , and so cut me off euen with the drawing of thy sword out of the scabberd , and for that question , How long was he sicke ? leaue no other answere , but that the hand of death pressed vpon him from the first minute ? My God , my God , thou wast not wont to come in whirlwinds , but in soft and gentle ayre . Thy first breath breathed a Soule into mee , and shall thy breath blow it out ? Thy breath in the Congregation , thy Word in the Church , breathes communion , and consolation here , and consummation heereaf●er ; shall thy breath in this Chamber breathe dissolution , and destruction , diuorce , and separation ? Surely it is not thou ; it is not thy hand . The deuouring sword , the consuming fire , the winds from the wildernes , the diseases of the body , all that afflicted Iob , were from the hand of Satan ; it is not thou . It is thou ; Thou my God , who hast led mee so continually with thy hand , from the hand of my Nurce , as that I know , thou wilt not correct mee , but with thine own hand . My parents would not giue mee ouer to a Seruants correction , nor my God , to Satans . I am fallen into the handes of God with Dauid , and with Dauid I see that his Mercies are great . For by that mercy , I consider in my present state , not the haste , & the dispatch of the disease , in dissoluing this body● so much , as the much more hast , & dispatch , which my God shal vse , in recollecting● and reuniting this dust againe at the Resurrection . Then I shall heare his Angels proclaime the Surgite M●rtui● Rise yee dead . Though I be dead I shall heare the voice the spunding of the voice , and the working of the voice shall be all one ; and all shall rise there in a lesse Minute , then any one dies here . 2. Prayer . O Most gracious God , who pursuest and perfitest thine own purposes , and dost not only remember mee by the first accesses of this sicknes , that I must die , but informe me by this further proceeding therin , that I may die now , who hast not only waked mee with the first , but cald me vp , by casting me further downe , and clothd me with thy selfe , by stripping me of my selfe , and by dulling my bodily senses , to the meats , and eases of this world , hast whet , and sharpned my spirituall senses , to the apprehension of thee , by what steps & degrees soeuer it shal please thee to go , in the dissolution of this body , hasten O Lord that pace , and multiply O my God those degrees , in the exaltation of my Soule , toward thee now , & to thee then . My tast is not gone away , but gone vp to sit at Dauids table , To tast , & see , that the Lord is good : My stomach is not gone , but gone vp , so far vpwards toward the Supper of the Lamb , with thy Saints in heauen , as to the Table , to the Cōmunion of thy Saints heere in earth : my knees are weak but weak therfore that I should easily fall to , and fix my selfe long vpon my deuotions to thee . A sound heart is the life of the flesh ; & a heart visited by thee , and directed to thee , by that visitation is a sound hart . There is no soundnesse in my flesh , because of thin● anger . Interpret thin● owne worke , and call this sicknes , correction and not anger , & there is soundnes in my flesh● There is no rest in my bones , because of my sinne ; transfer●e my sinnes , with which thou ar● so displeased , vpon him , with whome thou art so well pleased , Christ Iesus , and there will be rest in my bones : And , O my God , who madest thy selfe a Light in a Bush , in the middest of these brambles , & thornes of a sharpe sicknesse , appeare vnto me so , that I may see thee , and know thee to be my God , applying thy selfe to me , euen in these sharp , and thorny passages . Doe this , O Lord , for his sake , who was not the lesse , the King o● Heauen , for thy suffering him to be crowned with thornes , in this world . 3. Decubitus sequitur tandem . The Patient takes his bed . 2. MEDITATION . WEe attribute bu● one priuiledge , and aduantage to Mans body , aboue other mouing creatures , that he is not as others , groueling● but of an erect , of an vpright form , naturally built , & disposed to the contemplation of Heauen . Indeed it is a thankfull forme , and recompences that soule , which giues it , with carrying that soule so many foot higher , towards heauen . Other creatures look to the earth ; and euen that is no vnfit obiect , no vnfit contemplation for Man ; for thither hee must come ; but because , Man is not to stay there , as other creatures are , Man in his naturall forme , is carried to th● contemplation of tha● place , which is his hom● Heauen . This is Man prerogatiue ; but wha● state hath he in this di●●nitie ? A feuer ca● filli● him downe , a feuer ca● depose him ; a feuer ca● bring that head , whic● yesterday caried a crou● of gold , fiue foot to●wards a crown of glory as low as his own foo● to day . When God cam● to breath into Man th● breath of life , he foun● him flat vpō the groū● when hee comes to withdraw that breath from him againe , hee prepares him to it , by laying him flat vpon his bed . Scarse any prison so close , that affords not the prisoner two , or ●hree steps . The Anchorites that barqu'd themselues vp in hollowe trees , & immur'd themselues in hollow walls ; That peruerse man , that barrell'd himselfe in a Tubb , all could stand , or sit , and enioy some change of pasture . A sicke bed , is a graue , an● all that the patient saie● there , is but a varying o● his owne Epitaph . Eue●ry nights bed is a Typ● of the graue : At nigh● wee tell our seruants a● what houre wee wil● rise ; here we cannot tel● our selues , at what day what week , what mo●neth . Here the head lie● as low as the foot ; th● Head of the people , a●lowe as they , whom those feete trod vpon And that hande tha● signed Pardons , is to● weake to begge his owne , if hee might haue it for lifting vp that hand : Strange fetters to the feete , strange Manacles to the hands , vvhen the feete , and handes are bound so much the faster , by how much the coards are slacker ; So much the lesse able to doe their Offices , by how much more the Sinnewes and Ligaments are the looser . In the Graue I may speak thorough the stones , in the voice of my friends , an● in the accents of thos● wordes , which thei● loue may afford my me●mory ; Here I am min● owne Ghost , and rathe● affright my beholders then instruct them ; the● conceiue the worst o● me now , and yet fea●● worse ; they giue me fo● dead now , & yet won●der how I doe , whe● they wake a● midnight and aske how I doe , ●●●morrow . Miserable and , ( though common to all ) in human postu● where I must practise ●y lying in the graue , by ●ying still , and not practise my Resurrection , by ●ising any more . 3. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , and my Iesus , my Lord , and my Christ , my Strength , and my Saluatiō , I heare thee , and I hearken to thee , whē thou rebukest thy Disciples , for rebuking ●hem , who brought ●hildren to thee ; Suffer little children to come t● mee , saiest thou . Is ther● a verier child then I a● now ? I cannot say wit● thy seruant Ieremy , Lor● I am a child , and cann● speake ; but , O Lord , I a● a sucking childe , an● cannot eat , a creepin● childe , and cannot go●● how shall I come t● thee ? Whither shall 〈◊〉 come to thee ? To thi● bed ? I haue this weake and childish froward●nes too , I cannot sit vp● and yet am loth to go t● bed ; shall I find thee 〈◊〉 bed ? Oh , haue I alwaies done so ? The bed is not ordinarily thy Scene , thy Climate : Lord , dost tho● not accuse me , dost thou not reproach to mee , my former sinns , when thou layest mee vpon this bed ? Is not this to hang a man at his owne dore , to lay him sicke in his owne bed of wantonnesse ? When thou chidest vs by thy Prophet for lying in beds of Iuory , is not thine anger vented ; not till thou changest our bedds of Iuory , into bebs of Ebony Dauid sweares vnto thee , that hee will not go● vp into his bed , till he ha● built thee a House . To go● vp into the bed , denote● strength , and promi●e● ease ; But when tho● saiest , That thou wilt ca● Iesubel into a bed , tho● mak'st thine own com●ment vpon that , Tho● callest the bed Tribul●●tion , great Tribulation ● How shal they come t● thee , whom thou ha●● nayled to their bed● Thou art in the Congr●●gation , & I in a solitude : when the Centurions seruant lay sicke at home , his Master was faine to come to Christ ; ●he sicke man could not . Their friend lay sicke of the Palsey , and the four charitable men were faine to bring him to Christ ; he could not come . Peters wiues mother lay sicke of a feuer , & Christ came to her ; shee could not come to him . My friends may carrie mee home to thee , in their prayers in the Congregation ; Thou must com● home to me in the visi●tation of thy Spirit , an● in the seale of thy Sacra●ment : But when I a● cast into this bedd , m● slacke sinewes are yro● fetters , and those thi● sheets , yron dores vpo● me ; And , Lord , I haue lo●ued the habitation of th● house , and the place whe● thine honour dwelleth : lye here , and say , Blesse are they ; that dwell in th● house ; but I cannot say I will come into thy hous● I may say , In thy fea● will I worship towards thy ●oly Temple , but I cannot ●ay in thy holy Temple● : And , Lord , the zeale of thy House , eats me vp , as fast as my feuer ; It is not a Recusancie , for I would come , but it is an Excōmunication , I must not . But Lord , thou art Lord of Hosts , & louest Action ; Why callest thou me from my calling ? In the● graue no man shall praise thee ; In the doore of the graue , this sicke bed , no Man shal heare mee praise thee : Thou hast not opned my lips that my mouth migh● shew thee thy praise , bu● that my mouth migh● shew foorth thy praise But thine Apostles fear● takes hold of mee , th●● when I haue preached to ●●thers , I my selfe should be cast-way ; and therefo●● am I cast downe , that might not be cast awa● ● Thou couldst take m● by the head , as tho● didst Abacuc , and carr●● mee so ; By a Chariot , 〈◊〉 thou didst Eliah , & ca●●rie me so ; but thou ca●●riest me thine own priuate way , the way by which thou carryedst thy Sonne , who first lay vpon the earth , & praid , and then had his Exaltation , as himselfe calls his Crucifying , and first descended into hell , and then had his Ascension . There is another Station ( indeed neither are stations but prostrations ) lower then this bed ; To morrow I may be laid one Story lower , vpon the Floore , the face of the earth , and next day another Story , in the graue , the wombe of the Earth : As yet God suspends mee betweene Heauen and Earth , as a Meteor ; and I am not in Heauen , because an earthly bodie clogges me , and I am not in the Earth , because a heauenly Soule sustaines mee● And it is thine owne Law , O God , that if a man bee smitten so by ano●ther , as that hee keepe hi● bed , though he dye not , hee that hurt him , must take care of his healing , and recompence him . Th● hand strikes mee into this bed ; and therefore if I rise againe , thou wilt bee my recompence , all the dayes of my life , in making the memory of this sicknes beneficiall to me , and if my body fall yet lower , thou wilt take my soule out of this bath , & present it to thy Father , washed againe , and againe , and again , in thine own teares , in thine owne sweat , in thine owne blood . 3. PRAYER . O Most mightie an● most merciful God who though thou hau● taken me off of my feet hast not taken me off o● my foundation , whic● is thy selfe , who thoug● thou haue remoued m● frō that vpright forme , in which I could stand and see thy throne , th● Heauens , yet hast not remoued from mee tha● light , by which I can li●● and see thy selfe , who though thou haue weakened my bodily knees , that they cannot bow to thee , hast yet left mee the knees of my heart , which are bowed vnto thee euermore ; As thou hast made this bed , thine Altar , make me thy Sacrifice ; and as thou makest thy Sonne Christ Iesus the Priest , so make me his Deacon , to minister to him in a chereful surrender of my body , & soule to thy pleasure , by his hands . I come vnto thee , O God , my God , I come vnto thee , so as I can come , I come to thee , by imbracing thy comming to me ) I come in the confidence , & in the application of thy seruant Dauids promise , That thou wilt make all my bed in my sicknesse ; All my bedd ; That which way soeuer I turne , I may turne to thee ; And as I feele thy hand vpon all my body , so I may find it vpon all my bedde , and see all my corrections , and all my refreshings to flow from one , and ●he same , and all from thy hand . As 〈◊〉 hast made these feather●●●hornes , in the sharpnes of this sicknes , so , Lord , make these thornes , feathers , againe , feathers of thy Do●e , in the peace of Conscience , and in a holy recourse to thine Arke , to the Instruments of true comfort , in thy Institutions , and in the Ordinances of thy Church . Forget my bed , O Lord , as it hath beene a bedde of sloth , and worse then sloth , Take mee not , O Lord , at this aduantage , to te●●rifie my soule , with say●ing , now I haue me thee there , where tho● hast so often departe from me ; but hauin● burnt vp that bed , b● these vehement heate and washed that bed i● these abundant sweat● make my bed againe , Lord , and enable me a●●cording to thy co●●mand , to commune wi●● mine owne heart vpon 〈◊〉 bed , and be still . To pr●●uide a bed for all m● former sinnes , whilest I lie vpon this bed , and a graue for my sins , before I come to my graue ; and when I haue deposed them in the wounds of thy Sonn , to rest in that assurance , that my Conscience is discharged frō further anxietie , and my soule from farther danger , and my Memory from further calumny . Doe this , O Lord , for his sake , who did , and suffered so much , that thou mightest , as well in thy Iustice , as in thy Mercy , doe it for me , thy Sonne our Sauiour , Christ Iesus ● 4. Medicusque vocatur . The Phisician is sent fo●● 4. MEDITATION . IT is too little to cal● Man a little World ● Except God , Man is diminutiue to nothing Man consistes of mor● pieces , more parts , the●●he world ; then the world doeth , nay then the world is . And if those pieces were extended , and stretched out in Man , as they are in the world , Man would bee the Gyant , and the world the Dwarfe , the world but the Map , and the man the World. If all the Veines in our bodies , were extented to Riuers , and all the Sinewes , to vaines of Mines , and all the Muscles , that lye vpon one another , to Hilles , and all the Bones to Quarries of stones , and all the ●●ther pieces , to the pr●●portion of those whic● correspond to them i● the world , the aire wou●● be too litle for this Or●● of Man to moue in , t●● firmament would b● but enough for this sta●● for , as the whole wor●● hath nothing , to whic● something in man do●● not answere , so ha●● man many pieces , 〈◊〉 which the whol wor●● ha●h no representatio● Inlarge this Meditatio● vpon this great worl● Man , so farr , as to consider the immensitie of ●he creatures this world produces ; our creatures are our thoughts ; creatures that are borne Gyants : that reach from East to West , from earth to Heauen , that doe not onely bestride all the Sea , and Land , but span the Sunn and Firmament at once ; My thoughts reach all , comprehend all . Inexplicable mistery ; I their Creator am in a close prison , in a sicke bed , any where , and any one of my Creatures , m● thoughts , is with t●● Sunne , and beyond t●● Sunne , ouertakes t●● Sunne , and ouergoes t●● Sunne in one pace , o● steppe , euery wher●● And then as the oth●● world produces Serpen● and Vipers , malignan● & venimous creature● and Wormes , and Cate●●pillars , that endeauo●● to deuoure that worl● which produces the● and Monsters compile● and complicated of d●●uers parents , & kinds , 〈◊〉 this world , our selues , produces all these in vs , 〈◊〉 producing diseases , & ●●cknesses , of all those ●orts ; venimous , and infectious diseases , feeding & consuming diseases , and manifold , and entāgled diseases , made vp of many seueral ones . And can the other world name so many venimous , so many consuming , so many monstro●s crea●ures , as we can diseases , of all these kindes ? O miserable abūdance , O ●eggarly riches● how much doe wee lacke 〈◊〉 hauing remedies for eu●●rie disease , when as y●● we haue not names f●● them ? But wee hau● Hercules against the● Gyants , these Monster● that is , the Phisician ; 〈◊〉 musters vp al the for●● of the other world , ● succour this ; all Natu●● to relieue Man. We ha●● the Phisician , but we 〈◊〉 not the Phisician . Hee we shrinke in our p●●●portion , sink in our d●●●●nitie , in respect of ve●● meane creatures , w●●● ●re Phisicians to them●elues . The Hart that is ●ursued and wounded , they say , knowes an Herbe , which being ea●en , throwes off the arrow : A strange kind of vomit . The dog that pursues it , though hee bee subiect to sicknes , euen prouerbially , knowes his grasse that recouers him . And it may be true , that the Drugger is as neere to Man , as to other creatures , it may be that obuious and present Simples , easie to bee had , would cure him ; b●● the Apothecary is not 〈◊〉 neere him , nor the P●●●sician so neere him , 〈◊〉 they two are to oth●● creatures ; Man hath n●● that innate instinct , to a●●ply those naturall me●●●cines to his present da●●ger , as those inferio●● creatures haue ; he is n●● his owne Apothecary , h●● owne Phisician , as th●● are . Call back therefo●● thy Meditations agai●●● and bring it down●● what 's become of ma●● gre●t extent & propo●●●tion , when himselfe shrinkes himselfe , and consumes himselfe to ● handfull of dust ; what 's become of his soaring thoughts , his compassing thoughts , when himselfe brings himselfe to the ignoranc● , ●o the thoughtlesness● of the Graue ? His diseases are his owne , but the Phisician is not ; hee hath them at home , but ●ee must send for the Phisician . 4. EXPOSTVLATION● I Haue not the right●ousnesse of Iob , but haue the desire of 〈◊〉 I would speake to the ● mighty● and I would reas●● with God. My God , 〈◊〉 God , how soone wou●●dest thou haue me go●● to the Phisician , & ho●● far wouldest thou ha●● me go with the Phisi●●●an ? I know thou h●● made the Matter , a●● the Man , and the 〈◊〉 and I goe not from th●● when I go to the Phisician . Thou didst not make clothes before ther was a shame of the nakednes of the body ; but thou didst make Phisick before there was any grudging of any sicknes ; for thou didst imprint a medicinall vertue in many Simples , euen frō the beginning ; didst thou meane that wee should be sicke , whē thou didst so ? when thou madest them ? No more then thou didst meane , that we should sinne , when thou madest vs : tho● fore-sawest both , bu● causedst neither . Tho● Lord , promisest hee● trees , whose fruit shall b●● for meat , and their lea●● for Medicine . It is th● voyce of thy Sonn , W●● thou bee made whole That drawes from th●● patient a cōfession tha● hee was ill , and coul● not make hims●lfe w●● And it is thine own● voyce , Is there no Phisi●cian ? That inclines vs disposes vs to accep● thine Ordinance . An● ●t is the voyce of the Wise man , both for the matter , phisicke it selfe , The Lorde hath created Medicines out of the Earth , and hee that is wise , shall not abhorre them , And for the Arte , and the Person , The Phisician cutteth off a long disease . In all these voyces , thou sendest vs to those helpes , which thou hast afforded vs in that . But wilt not thou auowe that voyce too , Hee that hath sinned against his Maker , let him fall into th● hands of the Phisician ; an● wilt not thou affoor● me an vnderstanding o● those wordes ? Tho● who sendest vs for ● blessing to the Phisic●●an , doest not make it ● curse to vs , to go , whe● thou sendest . Is not th● curse rather in this , th●● onely hee falls into th● hands of the Phisician that casts himself who●ly , intirely vpon the Phi●sician , confides in him relies vpon him , attend all from him , and neg●lects that spirituall phi●icke ; which thou also hast instituted in thy Church ● so to fall into the ●ands of the Phisician ; is a sinne , and a punishment of ●ormer sinnes ; so , as Asa●fell , who in his disease , sought not to the Lord , but●●o the Phisician . Reueale therefore to me thy me●hod , O Lord , & see , whether I haue followed it ; ●hat thou mayest haue glory , if I haue , and I pardon , if I haue not , & helpe that I may . Thy Method is , In time of thy sicknesse , be not negligent ● VVherein wilt thou haue my diligence expressed ? Pray vnto th● Lord , and hee will mak● thee whole . O Lord , ● doe ; I pray , and pray thy Seruaunt Dauid● prayer , Haue mercy vp●on mee , O Lord , for I a● weake ; Heale mee , O Lord , for my bones ar● vexed : I knowe , that euen my weakenesse is a reason , a mot●ue , to induce thy mercie , and my sicknes an occasion of thy sending health When art thou so readie , when is it so seasonable to thee , to commiserate , as in miserie ? But is Prayer for health in season , as soone as I am sicke ? Thy Method goes further ; Leaue off from sinne , and order thy handes aright , and cleanse thy heart from all wickednesse ; Haue I , O Lord , done so ? O Lord , I haue ; by thy grace , I am come to a holy detestation of my former sin ; Is there any more ? In thy Methode there is more ; Giue a sweet sauor● and a memoriall of fin● flower , and make a fat of●fering , as not being . And Lord , by thy grace , I haue done that , sacrificed ● little , of that litle whic● thou lentst me , to them for whō thou lentst it and now in thy metho● and by thy steps , I am come to that , Then gi●● place to the Phisician , fo● the Lord hath created him let him not goe from the● for thou hast need of him I send for the Phisicia● but I will heare him en●ter with those wordes of Peter , Iesus Christ maketh thee whole ; I long for his presence , but I look● that the power of the Lord , should bee present to heale mee . 4. PRAYER . O Most mightie , and most merciful God , who art so the God of health , & strength , as that without thee , all health is but the fuell , and all strēgth , but the bellows of sinne ; Behold me● vnder the vehemenc● of two diseases , and vn●der the nece●sity of tw● Phisiciās , authorized b● thee , the bodily , and th● spiritual Phisician . I com● to both , as to thine Ordi●nance , & blesse , and glo●rifie thy Name , that i● both cases , thou hast af●forded help to Man by the Ministery of man● Euen in the new Ierusa●lem , in Heauen it selfe , i● hath pleased thee to discouer a Tree , which i● a Tree of life there , bu● the leaues thereof are for the healing of the Nations ; Life it selfe is with thee there , for thou art life ; and all kinds of Health , wrought vpon vs here , by thine Instruments , descend from thence . Thou wouldest haue healed Babylon , but she is not healed ; Take from mee , O Lord , her peruersenesse , her wilfulnesse , her refractarinesse , and heare thy Spirit saying in my Soule , Heale mee , O Lord , for I would bee healed . Ephraim saw his sickenesse , and Iudah his wound ; then went Ephraim to the Assyrian , and sent to King Iareb , yet could no● hee heale you , nor cure you of your wound . Keepe me back O Lord , from them who mis-professe artes of healing the Soule , or of the Body , by meanes not imprinted by thee in the Church , for the soule , or not in nature for the body ; There is no spirituall health to be had by superstition , nor bodily by witchcraft ● thou Lord , and onely thou art Lord of both . Thou in thy selfe art Lord of both , and thou in thy Son art the Phisician , the applyer of both . With his stripes wee are healed , sayes the Prophet there ; there , before hee was scourged , wee were healed with his stripes ; how much more shall I bee healed now , now , when that which he hath already suffred actually , is actually , and effectually applied to me ? Is there any thing incurable , vpon which that Balme dropps ? Any vaine 〈◊〉 emptie , as that that blo●● cannot fil it ? Thou pro●misest to heale the ear●● but it is when the i●●habitants of the eart● pray that thou woulde●● heale it . Thou promi●sest to heale their W●●ters , but their miery pl●●ces , and standing waters ● thou sayest there , Tho● wilt not heale : My retu●●n●ng to any sinne , if should returne to the a●bilitie of sinning ouer all my sins againe , thou wouldest not pardon● ●eale this earth , O my ●od , by repentant tears , ●nd heale these waters , ●hese teares from all bit●●rnes , frō all diffidence , ●rom all deiection , by e●●ablishing my irremo●able assurance in thee . ●hy Sonn went about hea●●ng all manner of sicke●esses . ( No disease incu●able , none difficult ; he ●ealed them in passing ) ●ertue went out of him , ●nd he healed all , all the ●ultitude ( no person in●urable ) he healed them ●uery whit , ( as himselfe speaks ) he left no relike of the disease ; and wi●● this vniuersall Phisici●● passe by this Hospital and not visit mee ? no● heale me ? not heale m● wholy ? Lord , I look● not that thou shoulde● say by thy Messenger t● mee , as to Ezechias , B●●hold , I will heale thee , an● on the third day thou sha●● goe vp to the house of th● Lord. I looke not th●● thou shouldst say to m●● as to Moses in Miriam● behalfe , when Mos●● would haue had he●● heald presently , If her ●ather had but spit in her ●ace , should she not been ashamed seuen dayes ? Let her be shut vp seuen daies , ●nd then returne ; but if ●hou be pleased to multiply seuen dayes , ( and seuen is in●inite ) by the number of my sinnes , ( and that is more infinite ) if this day must remoue me , till dayes shall ●ee no more , seale to me , my spirituall health in affording me the Seales of thy Church , & for my ●emporall health , prosper thine ordinance , i● their hands who sha●● assist in this sicknes , i● that manner , and in th● measure , as may mo●● glorifie thee , aud mo●● edifie those , who ob●serue the issues of th● seruants , to their own● spirituall benefit . 5. Solus adest . The Phisician comes . 5. MEDITATION . AS Sicknesse is th● greatest misery . s● the greatest misery o● ●icknes is solitude ; when ●he infectiousnes of the disease deterrs thē who ●hould assist , from cō●ing ; Euen the Phisici●n dares scarse come . So●itude is a tormēt , which is not threatned in hell it selfe . Meere vacuitie , the first Agent , God , the first instrument of God , Nature , will not admit ; Nothing can be vtterly ●nptie , but so neere a ●egree towards Vacutie , as Solitude , to bee ●ut one , they loue not . When I am dead , & my body might infect , the● haue a remedy , th●● may bury me ; but w●● I am but sick , and mig●● infect , they haue no ●●●medy , but their absen●● and my solitude . It is ●● excuse to them that a ●● great , and pre●end , & y●● are loth to come ; it is ●● inhibition to those w●● would truly come , b●cause they may be ma●● instruments , and pe●●ducts , to the infectiō●● others , by their cōmin●● And it is an Outlawry , 〈◊〉 Excommunication vpo● ●he patient , and seperats ●im from all offices not onely of Ciuilitie , but of ●orking Charitie . A long ●icknesse will w●ary ●●i●nds a● last , but a pe●tilentiall sicknes auerts them from the begin●ing . God himself wold ●dmit a fig●●e of Society , ●s there is a plurality of ●ersons in God , though ●here bee but one God ; & all his exte●nall actions testifie a loue of So●i●tie and communion . In Heauen ther● are Ordens of Angels , and Armies of Martyrs , & in that hou●● many mansions ; in Ear●● Families , Cities , Church● Colleges , all plurall thing● and lest either of th● should not be compa●● enough alone , there 〈◊〉 an association of bo●● a Communion of Sain●● which makes the M●●●tant , and Triumpha●● Church , one Parish ; 〈◊〉 that Christ , was not o● of his Dioces , when h● was vpon the Earth , n●● out of his Temple , wh●● he was in our flesh G●● who sawe that all th●● ●ee made , was good , ●ame not so neer seeing 〈◊〉 defect in any of his works , as when he saw ●hat it was not good , ●or man to bee alone , ●herefore h●e made him 〈◊〉 helper ; and one that ●hould helpe him so , as ●o increase the number , ●nd giue him her owne , ●●d more societie . Angels , ●ho do not propagate , ●or multiply , were ●ade at first in an abū●ant number ; and so ●ere starres : But for ●he things of this world , their blessing was , Encrease ; for I think , I nee● not aske leaue to think that there is no Phenix nothing singular , no●thing alone : Men tha● in here vpon Nature on●ly , are so far from think●ing , that there is an●●thing singular in th●● world , as that they wi●● scarce thinke , that th●● world it selfe is singula● but that euery Plane● and euery Starre , is an●other World like this They finde reason t● conceiue , not onely● pluralitie in euery Species in the world , but a pluralitie of worlds ; so that the abho●rers of Solitude , are not solitary ; for God , and Nature , and Reason concurre against it . Now , a man may counterfeyt the Plague in a vowe , and mistake a Disease for Religion ; by such a re●iring , and recluding of ●imselfe from all men , 〈◊〉 to doe good to no ●an , to conuerse with ●o man. God hath two ●estamēts , two Wils ; but this is a Scedule , and no● of his , a Codicill , and no● of his , not in the body o● his Testaments , but interlind , and postscrib'd by o●thers , that the way t● the Communion of Saint● should be by such a sol●●tude , as excludes all do●ing of good here . Th●● is a disease of the mind ● the height of an inf●●ctious disease of the bo●dy , is solitude , to be left ●●lone : for this makes 〈◊〉 infectious bed , equa●● nay worse then a gra●● that thogh in both 〈◊〉 equally alone , in my bed I know it , and feele it , and shall not in my graue : and this too , that in my bedd , my soule is still in an infectious body , and shall not in my graue bee so . 5. EXPOSTVLATION . O God , my God , thy Son tooke it not ill at Marthaes handes , that when he said vnto her , Thy brother Lazarus shall rise againe , she expostulated it so far with him , as to reply , I know that h● shal rise againe in the Resurrection , at the last day ● for shee was miserable by wanting him then● Take it not ill , O my God , frō me , that thogh thou haue o●dained i● for a blessing , and for ● dignitie to thy people , That they should dwell alone , and not bee reckoned among the Nations , ( because they should be aboue them ) & that they should dwell in safetie alone , ( free from the infestation of enemies ) yet I ●ake thy leaue to remēber thee , that thou hast sa●d to , Two are better then one ; And Woe be vnto him that is alone when he falleth ● and so , when he is fallen , and laid in the bedde of sicknesse too . Righteousnesse is immortall ; I know thy wisdome hath said so ; but no Man , though couered with the righteousnes of thy Sonne , is immor●all so , as not to die ; for he who was righteousnes it selfe , did die . I know that the Son of righteous●nes , thy Son , refused no● nay affected solitariness● lonenesse , many , man● times ; but at all time● he was able to cōman● more then twelue legions 〈◊〉 Angels to his seruice ; an● when he did not so , 〈◊〉 was farre from being ●●lone ; for , I am not alon● saies he , but I , and the F●●ther that sent me . I canno● feare , but that I shall a●●waies be with thee , an● him ; but whether thi● disease may not alien , 〈◊〉 remooue my friends , 〈◊〉 ●hat they stand aloofe frō●ny sore , and my kinsmen stād afar off , I cannot tel . ● cannot feare , but that thou wilt reckon with me from this minute , in which , by thy grace , I see thee● whe●her this vnderstanding , & this will , and this memory , may not decay , to the discouragement , and the ill interpretation of thē , that see that heauy change in me , I cānot tell . It was for thy blessed , thy powerfull Sonne alone , to tread the wine-presse alone , and none of the people with him ; am not able to passe thi● agony alone ; not alon● without thee ; Thou a●● thy spirit ; not alone wi●●●out thine ; spirituall an● temporall Phisicians , a●● thine ; not alone witho●● mine ; Those whom th● bands of blood , or frien●●ship ● hath made mine ● a●● mine ; And if thou , o● thine , or mine , abando●● me , I am alone , and w● vnto me if I bee alone● Elias himselfe fainte● vnder that apprehēsion● Loe , I am left alone ; an● Martha murmured at that , and said to Christ , Lord , doest not thou care , that my sister hath left me to serue alone ? Neither could Ieremiah enter into his Lamētations , from a higher groūd , then to say , How doth the citie sit solitary , that was full of people . O my God , it is the Leper , that thou hast cōdemned to liue alone ; Haue ● such a Leprosie in my Soule , that I must die alone ; alone without thee ? Shall this come to such a Le●rosie in my body , that I must die ●●lone ? Alone witho●● them that should assi●● that shold comfort m●● But comes not this E●●postulation too neere murmuring ? Must I b●● cōcluded with that , th●● Moses was commaunded 〈◊〉 come neere the Lord alon●● That solitarines , & d●●reliction , and abando●ning of others , dispose● vs best for God , who ac●cōpanies vs most alon●● May I not remember & apply to ; that thogh● God come not to Iacob till he found him alone , ●et when he found him alone , hee wrestled with him , and lamed him ? That when in the dereliction and forsaking of friends and Phisicians , a man is left alone to God , God may so wrestle with this Iacob , with this Conscience , as to put it out of ioynt , & so appeare to him , as that he dares not looke vpon him face to face , when as by way of reflection , in the consolation of his temporall or spirituall seruants , and ordinances hee durst , 〈◊〉 they were there ? But ● faithfull friend is the phisicke of life , and they th● feare the Lord , shall find him . Therefore hath th● Lord afforded me bo●● in one person , that Ph●●sician , who is my faith●full friend . 5. PRAYER . O Eternall , and mo●● gracious God , wh●● calledst down fire from Heauen vpon the sinfu●● Cities , but once , and op●●nedst the Earth to swallow the Murmurers , but once ● and threwst down the Tower of Siloe vpon sinners , but once , but for thy workes of mercie repeatest them often , & still workest by thine owne paternes , as thou broghtest Man into this world , by giuing him a helper fit for him here , ●o whether it bee thy will to continue mee ●ong thus , or to dismisse me by death , be pleased to afford me the helpes fit for both conditions , either for my weak sta● here , or my finall tran●●migration from hence● And if thou mayest r●●ceiue glory by that wa●● ( and , by all wayes tho●● maist receiue glory ) gl●●rifie thy selfe in preser●uing this body from suc● infections , as migh● withhold those , wh● would come , or in da●●ger thē who doe come● and preserue this soule 〈◊〉 the faculties thereof , fr●● all such distempers , 〈◊〉 might shake the assu●rance which my selfe & others haue had , that because thou hast loued me , thou wouldst loue me to my end , and at my end . Open none of my dores , not of my hart , not of mine eares , not of my house , to any supplanter that would enter to vndermine me in my Religion to thee , in the time of my weaknesse , or to defame me , & magnifie himselfe , with false rumors of such a victory , & surprisall of me , after I am dead ; Be my saluation , and plead my saluation ; work it , and decla●● it ; and as thy triumpha●● shall be , so let the M●●tant Church bee assure● that thou wast my 〈◊〉 and I thy seruant , to , an● in my consummatio● Blesse thou the learning and the labours of th●● Man , whō thou sende●● to assist me ; and sinc● thou takest mee by th● hand , & puttest me int● his hands ( for I come t● him in thy name , who in thy name comes t● me ) since I clog not m● hopes in him , no nor my ●●ayers to thee , with any ●●mited conditions , but ●wrap all in those two ●etitions , Thy kingdome ●●me , thy will be done , pro●er him , and relieue ●●e , in thy way , in thy ●●me , and in thy mea●●re . Amen . 6. Metuit . The Phisician is afraid . 6. MEDITATION . ● Obserue the Phisician , with the same ●iligence , as hee the dis●ase ; I see hee feares , ●nd I feare with him : I ouertake him , I ouem him in his feare , an● go the faster , because● makes his pace slow● feare the more , beca●●● he disguises his fear , 〈◊〉 I see it with the mo●● sharpnesse , because 〈◊〉 would not haue me 〈◊〉 it . He knowes that 〈◊〉 feare shall not disord●●● the practise , and exerci●●● of his Art , but he kno●● that my fear may diso●●der the e●fect , and wo●●king of his practise . 〈◊〉 the ill affections of 〈◊〉 spleene , complicate , an● ●ingle themselus with ●●ery infirmitie of the ●●dy , so doth feare insi●●at it ●elf in euery acti●● or passion of the mind ; ●nd as wind in the body ●ill counterfet any dis●ase , and seem the Stone , & ●eem the Gout , so feare will counterfet any dis●ase of the Mind ; It shall ●eeme loue , a loue of hauing , and it is but a fear , a iealous , and suspitious ●eare of loosing ; It shall ●eem valor in despising , and vnderualuing danger , and it is but feare , in an ouer-valuing of ●●●●nion , and estimation , and feare of loosing that man that is not afraid● a Lion , is afraid of a 〈◊〉 not afraid of starui●● & yet is afraid of so●● ioynt of meat at the tab●● presented to feed hi● not afraid of the so●●● of Drummes , and Tru●●pets , and Shot , and tho●● which they seeke 〈◊〉 drowne , the last cries o● men , and is afraid 〈◊〉 some particular harm●●nious instrument ● so muc● afraid , as that with an● of these the enemy might ●riue this mā , otherwise ●aliant enough , out of ●●e field . I know not , what fear is , nor I know ●ot what it is that I fear ●ow ; I feare not the hastening of my death , and yet I do fear the increase ●f the disease ; I should ●elie Nature , if I should deny that I feard this , & ●f I should say that I fea●ed death , I should belye God ; My weaknesse is ●rom Nature , who hath ●ut her Measure , my ●trength is from God , who possesses , & distri●butes infinitely . As the euery cold ayre , is no● dampe , euery shiuering not a stupefaction , so eue●ry feare , is not a feare●●●nes , euery declination● not a running away , ●●uery debating is not resoluing , euery wis● that it were not thus , ● not a murmuring , no● deiection though it b●● thus ; but as my Phisici●● fear puts not him fro● his practise , neither do●● mine put me , from r●●ceiuing from God , an● Man , and my selfe , spiritu●ll , and ciuill , and morall ●ssistances , and conso●ations . 6. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , I find in thy Booke , that ●eare is a stifling spirit , a spirit of suffocation ; That ●●shbosheth could not speak , not reply in his own defence ●o Abner , because hee was ●fraid . It was thy seruāt ●obs case too , who before hee could say any ●hing to thee , saies of thee , Let him take his rod awa● frō me , and let not his fear● terrifie mee , then would speake with him , and 〈◊〉 feare him ; but it is not ●● with mee . Shall a feare 〈◊〉 thee , take away my d●●uotiō to thee ? Dost tho● command me to spea●● to thee , and commaun● me to feare thee , and d●● these destroy one ano●ther ? There is no per●●plexity in thee , my God ; 〈◊〉 inextricablenes in the● my light , & my clearn●● my Sun , and my Moon● that directest me as 〈◊〉 in the night of aduersity and fear , as in my day of prosperity & confidēce . I must thē speak to thee , at all times , but when must I feare thee ? At all times to . Whē didst thou rebuke any petitioner , with the name of Importunate ? Thou hast propo●d to vs a parable of a Iudge that did Iustice at last , because the client was Importunate , and troubled him ; But thou hast told vs plainely , that thy vse in that parable , was not , that thou wast troubled with our importunities , but ( as thou saye●● there ) That wee should a●●wayes pray . And to th●● same purpose thou pro●posest another , that Is●● presse my friend , when he●● is in bed , at midnight , 〈◊〉 lend mee bread , though h●● will not rise because I a● his friend , yet because● mine importunitie , he wil●● God will do this , when●soeuer thon askest , an● neuer call it importunit●e Pray in thy bed at mid●night , and God wil n●● say , I will heare thee t● mo●row vpon thy knees , at thy bed side ; pray vpon thy knees there , then , & God will not say , I will heare thee on Sunday , at Church ; God is no dilatory God , no froward God ; Praier is neuer vnseasonable , God is neuer asleep nor absent . But , O my God , can I doe this , and feare thee ; come to thee , and speak to thee , in all places , at all houres , and feare thee ? Dare I aske this question ? There is more boldnesse in the question , then in the comming : I may doe it● though I feare thee ; ● cannot doe it , except feare thee . So well has● thou prouided , that w● should alwayes fea●● thee , as that thou ha●● prouided , that we shol● fear no person but the● nothing but thee ; n● men ? No. Whom ? Th● Lord is my helpe , and m● saluation , whome shall feare ? Great enemies : no● great enemies ; for no ●●nemies are great to them that feare thee● Feare not the people of th● l●●d , for they are Bread to you ; They shall not on●y not eat vs , not eat our bread , but they shall bee our Bread ; Why should , we feare them ? But for all this Metaphoricall Bread , victory ouer enemies , that thought to deuoure vs , may we not feare , that we may lack bread literally ? And feare famine , though we feare not enemies ? Young Lyons do lacke , and suffer Hunger , but they that seeke the Lord , shall not want any good thing . Neuer ? Though it be● well with them at on● time , may they not fea● that it may be worse● Wherfore should I feare 〈◊〉 the dayes of euill , saies th● seruant Dauid ? Thoug● his own sins had mad● them euill , he feared th●● not● No ? not if this euil● determin in death ? No● though in a death● no● though in a death infli●ct●d by violence by ma●lice , by our own des●●● feare not the sentence 〈◊〉 death , if thou feare God Thou art , O my God , so far from admitting vs , that feare thee , to feare others , as that thou makest others to feare vs ; As Herod feared Iohn , because hee was a holy , and a iust man , & obserued him How fully then O my abundant God , how gently , O my sweet , my easie God doest thou vnentangle m●e , in any scruple arising out of the consideration of this thy feare ? Is not this that which thou intendest , when thou sayst , The secret of the Lord is with them , that feare him ; The secret , th● mistery of the right v●● of feare . Dost thou no● meane this , when tho● sayest , Wee shall vnde●●stand the feare of the Lord● Haue it , and haue benef●● by it ; haue it , and stan● vnder it ; be directed b● it , and not bee deiecte● with it . And dost tho● not propose that Chur●● for our example , whe● thou sayest , The Churc● of Iudea , walked in t●● feare of God ; they ha● it , but did not sit dow● lazily , nor fall down● weakly , nor sinke vnder it . There is a feare which weakens men in the seruice of God : Adam was afrayde , because hee was naked . They who haue put off thee , are a prey to all . They may feare , for thou wilt laugh , when their feare comes vpon them , as thou hast tolde them , more then once ; And thou wilt make them feare , where no cause of feare is , as thou hast told them more then once too . There is a feare that is a punishment o● former wickednesses , & induces more : Thoug● some said of thy Sonne , Christ Iesus , that hee wa● a good Man , yet no M●● spake openly , for feare 〈◊〉 the Iewes : Ioseph was h●● Disciple ; but secretly , fo● for feare of the Iewes : Th● Disciples kept som● meetings , but with dores shut , for feare of the Iewes . O my God , thou giuest vs feare for ballast to cary vs stedily in all weathers . But thou wouldst ballast vs , wit● such sand , as should haue gold in it , with that feare which is thy feare ; for tke feare of the Lord is his treasure . Hee that hath that , lacks nothing that Man can haue , nothing that God does giue . Timorous men thou rebukest ; Why are yee fearfull , O yee of little faith ? Such thou dismissest from thy Seruice , with scorne , though of them there went from Gideons Army , 22000. and remained but 10. Such thou sendest farther then so ; thithe● from whence they n●●uer returne , The fearefu●● and the vnbeleeuing , i●●● that burning lake , which 〈◊〉 the second death . There 〈◊〉 a feare , & there is a hope which are equall abo●minations to thee ; fo● they were confounded , b●●cause they hoped , saies th● seruant Iob : because they had mis-placed , mis-ce●tred their hopes ; they hoped , and not in thee , an● such shall feare , and no● feare thee . Bu● in th● feare , my God , and my feare , my God , and my hope , is hope , and loue , & confidence , and peace , and euery limbe , and ingredient of Happinesse enwrapped ; for Ioy includes all ; and feare , and ioy consist together ; nay , constitute one another ; The women d●parted from the sepulchre , the women who were made supernumerary Apostles , Apostles to the Apostles ; Mothers of the Church , and of the Fathers , Grandfathers of the Church , the Apostles themselues , t●e women , Angels of the Resurrec●●●on , went from the sep●●●chre , with feare and i● they ran , sayes the 〈◊〉 and they ran vpon tho●● two legs , feare , & ioy ; 〈◊〉 both was the right leg● they ioy in thee O Lor● that feare thee , and fear● thee only , who feele th●● ioy in thee . Nay , thy fear●● and thy loue , are in●eperable ; still we are called vpon , in infinite places , to feare God ; yet th● Commandement , which 〈◊〉 the roote of all , is , Tho● shalt loue the Lord thy God ● Hee doeth neither , that doth not both ; hee omits neither , that does one . Therfore when thy seruant Dauid had said , that the feare of the Lord is the beginning of wisedome , And his Sonne had repeated it againe , Hee that collects both , calls this feare , the root of wisdome ; And that it may embrace all , hee ca●ls it wisedome it selfe . A wise man therefore is neuer without it , neuer without the exercise of it : Therefore thou sent●st Moses to thy people That they might learne● feare thee all the dayes ● their liues : not in he●●uy , and calamitous , bu● in good , and cheerf●● dayes too : for , No●● who had assurance 〈◊〉 his deliuerance , yet m●●ued with feare , prepar● an Arke , for the sauing● his house . A wise man 〈◊〉 feare in euery thing . An● th●refore though I pr●●tend , to no other degre● of wisedome , I am a●bundantly rich in thi● that I lye heere posse●● with that feare , which ●s thy feare , both that ●his sicknesse is thy immediate correction , and ●ot meerely a naturall ●ccident , and therefore ●earefull , because it is a ●earefull thing to fall into ●hy hands , and th●t this ●eare preserues me from all inordinate feare , arising out of the infirmi●ie of Nature , because ●hy hand being vpon me , thou wilt neuer let me fall out of thy hand . 6. PRAYER . O Most mightie God 〈◊〉 mercifull God , 〈◊〉 God of all true sorrow , 〈◊〉 true ioy to , of all feare , ● of al hope to , as thou ha●● giuen me a Repentan●● not to be repented of , 〈◊〉 giue me , O Lord , a fea●● of which I may not b● afraid . Giue me tende● and supple , and confo●●mable affections , that 〈◊〉 I ioy with them that i●● and mourne with them that mourne , so I ma● feare with them that feare . And since thou hast vouchsafed to discouer to me , in his feare whom thou hast admit●ed to be my assistance , ●n this sickenesse , that ●here is danger therein , ●et me not , O Lord , go a●out to ouercome the sense of that fear , so far , as to pretermit the fitting , and preparing of my selfe , for the worst ●hat may bee feard , the passage out of this life . Many of thy blessed Martyrs , haue passed out of this life , without a●● showe of feare ; But th● most blessed Sonne him●selfe did not so . T●● Martys were known● be but men , and therfo●● it pleased thee , to fill t●● with thy Spirit , and th● power , in that they d●● more then Men ; Thy S●● was declard by thee , 〈◊〉 by himselfe to be G●● and it was requisite , th●● he should declare him●selfe to be Man also , i● the weaknesses of ma●● Let mee not therefo●● O my God , bee ashame● of these feares , but let me feele them to determine , where his feare ●id , in a present submit●ing of all to thy will. And when thou shalt ●aue inflamd , & thawd my former coldnesses , ●nd indeuotions , with ●hese heats , and quench●d my former heates , with these sweats , and ●nundations , and rectified my former pre●umptions , and negligences with these fears , ●ee pleased , O Lord , as one , made so by thee , to thinke me fit for th●● And whether it be th● pleasure , to dispose 〈◊〉 this body , this garme●● so , a● to put it to a fa●●ther wearing in th● world , or to lay it vp i● the common wardrope , th● graue , for the next , glo●rifie thy selfe in th● choyce now , & glorif●● it then , with that glory which thy Son , our S●●uiour Christ Iesus hat● purchased for them whome thou make● partakers of his Resu●●rection . Amen . 7. Socios sibi iungier instat . The Phisician desires to haue others ioyned with him . 7. MEDITATION . THere is more feare , therefore more cause . If the Phisician desire help , the burden grows great : There is a grouth of the Disease then ; But ●here must bee an Au●umne to ; But whether an Autumne of the disease or mee , it is not my pa●● to choose : but if it bee of me , it is of both ; My disease cannot suruiu● mee , I may ouer liue i● Howsoeuer , his desiring of others , argues his ca●●dor , and his ingenuitie ; 〈◊〉 the danger be great , he● iustifies his proceeding● & he disguises nothing that calls in witnesses ● And if the danger be not great , hee is not a●●bitious , that is so read● to diuide the thankes and the honour of th● work , which he beg●● alone , with others . It diminishes not the dignitie of a Monarch , that hee deriue part of his care vpon others ; God hath not made many Suns , but he hath made many bodies , that receiue , and giue light . The Romanes began with one King ; they came to two Consuls ; they returned in extremities , to one Dictator ● whether in one , or many , the soueraigntie is the same , in all States , and the danger is not the more , and the prouidence is the more , whe● there are more Phisicians ; as the State is the happier , where businesses are carried by more counsels , then can be in one breast , how large soeuer , Dise●ses themselues hold Consultations , and conspire how they may multiply , and ioyn with one another , & exalt one anothers force so ; and shal we not cal● Phisicians , to consultations ? Death is in an old mans dore , he appeare● and tels him so , & dea●● is at a yong mans backe , and saies nothing● Age is a sicknesse , and Youth is an ambush , and we need so many Phisicians , as may make vp a Watch , and spie euery inconuenience . There is scarce any thing , that hath not killed some body ; a haire , a feather hath done it● Nay , that which is our best Antidote against it , hath donn it ; the best Cordiall hath bene deadly poyson ; Men haue dyed of Ioy , and allmost forbidden their friends to weep for thē , whē they haue seen thē dye laughing . Euen that Tiran Dy●●nisius ( I thinke the same● that suffered so much a●●ter ) who could not d●● of that sorrow , of tha● high fal , from a King t● a wretched priuate ma● ● dyed of so poore a Ioy , as to be declard by the peo●ple at a Theater , that he● was a good Poet. We sa● oftē th●t a Man may li●● of a litle ; but , alas , o● how much lesse may a Man dye ? And therfore the more assistants , th● better ; who comes to a day of hearing , in a caus of any importāce , with one Aduocate ? In our Funerals , we our selfs haue no interest ; there wee cannot aduise , we cannot direct : And though some Nations , ( the Egiptians in particular ) built thēselues better Tombs , then houses , because they were to dwell longer in them ; yet , amongst our selues , the greatest Man of Stile , whom we hane had , The Conqueror , was lest , as soone as his soule left him , not only without persons to assist at his graue , but without a graue . Who will keepe vs then , we know not● As long as we can , l●t vs admit as much helpe as wee can ; Another , and another Phisician , is not another , and another Indication , and Symptom of death , but an other● and another Assistant , and Proctor of life : No● doe they so much feed the imagination with apprehension of danger , as the vnderstanding with comfort ; Let not one bring Learning , another Diligence , another Religion , but euery one bring all , and , as many Ingredients enter into a Receit , so may many men make the Receit . But why doe I exercise my Meditation so long vpon this , of hauing plentifull helpe in time of need ? Is not my Meditation rather to be enclined another way , to condole , and commiserate their distresse , who haue none ? How many are sicker ( perchance ) then I , and laid in their wofull straw at home ( if that co●ner be a home ) and haue no more hope of helpe , though they die , then of preferment , though they liue ? Nor doe no more expect to see a Phisician then , then to bee an Officer after ; of whome , the first that takes knowledge , is th● Sexten that buries them● who buries them in obliuio● too ? For the● doe but fill vp the number of the dead in the Bill , but we shall neuer heare their Names , till wee reade them in the Booke of life , with our owne . How many are sicker ( perchance ) then I , and thrown into Hospitals , where , ( as a fish left vpon the Sand , must stay the tide ) they must stay the Phisicians houre of visiting , and then can bee but visited ? How many are sicker ( perchaunce ) then all we , and haue not this Hospitall to couer them , not this straw , to lie in , to die in , but haue thei● Graue-stone vnder them and breathe out thei● soules in the eares , and in the eies of passengers , harder then their bed , the flint of the stre●t● That taste of no part of our Phisick , but a sparing dyet ; to whom ordinary porridge would bee Iulip enough , the refuse of our seruants , Bezar enough , and the off scou●ing of our Kitchin tables , Cordiall enough . O my soule , when thou art not enough awake , to blesse thy God enough for his plentifull mercy , in affoording thee many Helpers , rememb●r how many lacke them , and helpe them to them , or to those other things , which they lacke as much as them . 7. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , thy blessed Seruant Augustine begg'd of thee , that Moses might come and tell him what he● meant by some place of Genesis : May I ha●● leaue to aske of th● Spirit , that writ th● Booke , why when D●●uid expected newes fi●● Ioabs armie , and that th● Watchman tolde him that hee sawe a man ru●●ning alone , Dauid conclu●ded out of that circumstance , That if hee ca●● alone , hee brought 〈◊〉 newes ? I see the Gra●●mar , the word signifie so , and is so euer accep●ted , Good newes ; but I see not the Logique , nor the Rhetorique , how Dauid would prooue , or perswade that his newes was good , because hee was alone , except a greater cōpany might haue made great impressions of danger , by imploring , and importuning present supplies . Howsoeuer that bee , I am sure , that that which thy Apostle sayes to Timothy , Onely Luke is with me , Luke , and no body but Luke ● hath a taste of cōplaint , & sorrow in it● Though Luke want no testimony of abilitie , o● forwardnes , of constancie , & perseuerance , in assisting that great building which S. Paul laboured in , yet S. Paul is affected with that , that ther was none but Luke , to assist● We take S. Luke to haue bin a Phisician , & it admits the application the better , that in the presence of one good Phisician , we may bee glad of more . It was not only a ciuill spirit of policy , or order that moued Moses father in law , to perswade him to diuide ●he burden of Gouernmēt , & Iudicature , with others , & take others to his assistance , but it was ●lso thy immediat spirit O my God , that mou'd Moses to present vnto ●hee 70 of the Elders of Israel , to receiue of that spirit , which was vpon Moses onely before , such ● portion as might ease ●im in the gouernmēt of that people ; though Moses alone had indowments aboue all thou gauest him othe● assistants . I consider th● plentifull goodnesse , 〈◊〉 my God , in employing Angels , more then on● in so many of thy remarkable workes . O● thy Sonne , thou saist , I● all the Angels of God w●●●ship him ; If that bee i● Heauen , vpon Earth , h●● sayes that hee could co●●maund twelue legions 〈◊〉 Angels ; And when H●●uen , and Earth shall b● all one , at the last day● Thy Sonne , O God , the S●● of Man , shall come in his glory , and all the holy Angels with him . The Angels that celebrated his birth to the Shepheards , the Angels that celebrated his second birth , his Resurrection to the Maries , were in the plurall , Angells associated with Angels . In Iacobs ladder , they which ascended and descended , & maintain'd the trade between Heauen and Earth , between thee and vs , they who haue the Commission , and charge to guide vs in all our wayes , they wh●● hastned Lot , and in him● vs , from places of danger , and tentation , the● who are appoynted to instruct & gouerne vs in th● Church heere , they who are sent to punish the disobedient and refractar●● , they that are to be the Mowers , and haruest me● , after we are growne ●p in one field , the church , 〈◊〉 the day of Iudgmēt , they that are to carrie o●● soules whither they ca●●●ed Lazarus , they who attend at the seueral gate● of the new Ierusalem , to admit vs there ; all these , who administer to thy seruants , from the first , to their last , are Angels , Angels in the plurall , in euery seruice , Angels associated with Angells . The power of a single Angell wee see in that one , who in one night destroyed almost 200. thousand in Sennacheribs army , yet thou often imployest many ; as we know the power of saluation is abundantly in any one Euangelist , and yet thou hast afforded vs foure . Thy Sonne pro●claimes of himselfe , th● thy Spirit , hath annoynte● him to preach the Gospel● ● yet he hath giuen othe●s for the perfiting of the S. in the worke of the Mi●●●stery . Thou hast made him Bishop of our soules , but there are others Bi●shops too . Hee gaue the holy Ghost , & others gaue it also . Thy way , O m● God , ( and , O my God , tho● louest to walk in thine own waies , for they are large ) thy way from th● beginning , is multiplication of thy helps ; and therfore it were a degree of ingratitude , not to accept this mercy of affording me many helpes for my bodily health , as a type and earnest of thy gracious purpose now , and euer , to affoord mee the same assistances . That for thy great Helpe , thy Word , I may seeke that , not frō corners , nor Conuenticles , nor schismatical singularities , but frō the assotiation , & communion of thy Catholique Church , and those persons , whom thou has● alwayes furnished th● Church withall : And that I may associate th● Word , with thy Sacr●●ment , thy Seale with thy Patent ; and in that S●●cramēt associate the sig●● with the thing signified , the Bread with the Bod● of thy Sonne , so , as I ma● be sure to haue receiu●● both , and to bee ma●● thereby , ( as thy blesse● seruant Augustine sayes ) the Arke , and the Mon●●ment , & the Tombe of th● most blessed Sonne , that hee , and all the merits of his death , may , by that receiuing , bee buried in me , to my quickning in thi● world , and my immortall establishing in the next . 7. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most gracious God , who gauest to thy seruants in the wildernes , thy Man●a , bread so conditiond , qualified so , as that , to euery man , Manna tasted like that , which that man liked best , I humbly beseech thee , to make this correction , which I acknowledg to be part of my daily bread , to tast so to me , not as I would , but as thou wouldest haue it taste , and to conform my tast , and make it agreeable to thy will● Thou wouldst haue th● corrections tast of hum●●liation , but thou wouldest haue them tast ● consolation too ; taste o● danger , but tast of ass●●rance too . As therefore thou hast imprinted in all thine Elements , of which our bodies consist , two manifest qualities , so that , as thy fire dries , so it heats too ; and as thy water moysts , so it cooles too , so , O Lord , in these corrections , which are the elements of our regeneration , by which our soules are made thine , imprint thy two qualities , those two operations , that as they scourge vs , they may scourge vs into the way to thee : that when they haue shewed vs , that we are nothing in our selues , they may also shew vs , that thou art all things vnto vs. When therfore in this particular circūstance , O Lord ( but none of thy iudgements are circumstances ; they are all of the substance of thy good purpose vpon vs● whē in this particular , that he , whō thou has● sent to assist me , desires assistants to him , thou hast let mee see , in how few houres thou cans● throw me beyond the helpe of man , let me by the same light see , that no vehimence of sicknes , no tentation of Satan , no guiltines of sin , no prison of death , not this first , this sicke bed , not the other prison , the close and dark graue , can remooue me from the determined , and good purpose , which tho● sealed concerning mee . Let me think no degree of this thy correction , casuall , or without signification ; but yet when I haue read it in that language , as it is a correction , let me translate it into another , and read it as a mercy ; and which of these is the Originall , and which is the Translation , whether thy Mercy , or thy Correction , wer● thy primary , and original intētion in this sicknes , I cannot conclude , though death conclud● me ; for as it must necessarily appeare to bee ● correction , so I can hau● no greater argument o● thy mercy , then to die i● thee , and by that death , to bee vnited to him , who died for me . 8. Et Rex ipse suum mittit . The King sends his owne Phisician . 8. MEDITATION . STil when we return to that Meditation , that Man , is a World , we find new discoueries . Let him be a world , and him self will be the land , and misery the sea . His misery , ( for misery is his , his own ; of the happinesses euen of this world , h●e is but tenant , but of misery the free-holder ; of happines hee is but the farmer , but the vsufructuary but of misery , the Lord , the proprietary ) his misery , as the sea , swells aboue all the hilles , and reaches to the remotest parts of this earth , Man ; who of himselfe is bu● dust , and coagula●ed and kneaded into earth ; by teares , his ma●te● is ●arth , his forme , misery . In this world , that is Mankinde , the highest ground , the eminētest hils , are kings ; and haue they line , and lead enough to fadome this sea , and say , My misery is but this deepe ? Scarce any misery equal to sicknesse ; and they are subiect to that equally , with their lowest subiect . A glasse is not the lesse brittle , because a Kings face is represented in it , nor a King the lesse brittle , because God is represented in him . They haue Phisicians continually about them , & therfore sicknesses , or the worst of sicknesses , continuall feare of it . Are they gods ? He that calld them so , cannot flatter . They are Gods , but sick● gods ; and God is presented to vs vnder many human affections , as fa● as infirmities ; God is called angry , and sorry , and weary , and heauy ; bu● neuer a sicke God : for then hee might die like men , as our gods do . The worst that they could say in reproch , & scorn● of the gods of the Heathē , was , that perchance they were asleepe ; but Gods that are so sicke , as that they cannot sleepe ; are in an infirmer condition . A God , and need a Phisician ? A Iupiter & need an Aesulapius ? that must haue Rh●ubarbe to purge his Choller , lest he be too angry , and Agarick to purge his s●●gme , lest he be too drowsie ; that as Tertullian saies of the Aegyptian gods , plants and herbes , That God was beholden to Man , for growing in his garden , so wee must say of these gods● Their eternity , ( an eternity of threescore & ten yeares ) is in the Apothecaryes shop , and not in the Metaphoricall Deity . But their Deitye is betten expressed in their humility , then in their ●eighth ; when abounding and ouerflowing , as God , in means of doing good , they descend , as God , to a communication of their abundāces with men , according to their necessities , then they are Gods. No man is well , that vnderstands not , that values not his being well ; that hath not a cheerefulnesse , and a ioy in it ; and whosoeuer hath this Ioy , hath a desire to communicate , to propagate that , which occasions his happinesse , and his Ioy , to others ; for euery man loues witnesses of his happinesse ; and the best witnesses , are experimentall witnesses ; they who haue tasted of that in themselues , which makes vs happie : It consummate● therefore , it perfits the happinesse of Kings , to confer , to transfer , honor , and riches , and ( as they can ) health , vpon those that need them . .8 EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , may God , I haue a warning from the Wise man , tha● when a rich man speaketh , euery man holdeth his tong● and looke what hee saith , they extoll it to the clouds ; but if a poore man speake , they say , what fellowe is this ? And if hee stumble , they will help to ouerthrow him . Therefore may my words be vnderualued , and my errors aggrauated , if I offer to speak of Kings ; but not by thee , O my God , because I speak of them as they are in thee , & of thee , as thou art in them . Certainly those men prepare a way of speaking negligently , or irreuerently of thee , that giue themselues that liberty , in speaking of thy Vice-gerents , Kings : for thou who gauest Augustus the Empire , gauest it to Nero to , and as Vespasian had it from thee , so had Iulian ; Though Kings deface in themselues thy first image , in their owne soule , thou giuest no man leaue to deface thy second Image , imprinted indelibly in their power . But thou knowest , O God , that if I should be slacke in celebrating thy mercies to mee exhibited by that royall Instrument● my Sou●raigne , to many other faults , that touch vpon Allegiance , I should add the worst of all , Ingratitude ; which consti●utes an il man , & faults which are defects in any particular sunction , are not so great , as those that destroy our humanitie ● It is not so ill , to bee an ill subiect , as to be an ill man ● for he hath an vniuersall illnesse , ready to blow● and powre out it selfe into any mold , any form , and to spend it selfe in any function . As therfore thy Son did vpon the Coyne , I look vpon the King , and I ask● whose image , & whose inscription hee hath ; and he hath thine ; And I giue vnto thee , that which i● thine , I recommend his happines to thee , in al● my sacrifices of thanks , for that which hee enioyes , and in al my praiers , for the continuance and inlargement of thē But let me stop , my G●d , and consider ; will no● this look like a piece of art , & cunning , to conuey into the world an opinion , that I were more particularly in his care , then other men ? And that heerein , in a a shew of humilitie , and thankefulnesse , I magnifie my selfe more then there is cause ? But let not that iealousie stopp mee , O God , but let me go forward in celebrating thy mercy exhibited by him . This which hee doth now , in assisting so my bodily health , I know is common to me with many ? Many , many● haue tasted of that expression of his gracio●snes . Where hee ●an giue health by his owne hands , hee doth● and to more then any of his predecessors haue done : Therefore hath God reserued one diseas● for him , that hee onely might cure it , though perchance not onely by one Title , and Interest , nor only as one king . To those that need it not , in that kind , and so cannot haue it by his owne hand , he sends a donatiue of health , in sending his Phisician : The holy King S. Lewis in France , & our Maud is celebrated for that , that persōally they visited Hospitals , & assisted in the Cure , euen of loathsome Diseases . And when that religious Empress Placilla , the wife of Theodosius was told , that she diminished her ●elfe to much in those personal assistances , & might doe enough in sending ●eliefe , shee said , Shee would send in that capacitie , as Empresse , but shee would go to , in that capacitie , as a Christian , as a fellow member of the body o● thy Son , with them . So thy seruāt Dauid applies him selfe to his people , so he incorporates himselfe in his people , by calling them his brethren , his bones , his flesh ; and when they fel vnder thy hand , euen to the pretermitting of himselfe , he presses vpon thee , by praye● for them ; I haue si●●ned , but these sheepe what haue they donne ? let thine hand I pray thee be against me and against my fathers house . It is kingly to giue ; whē Araumah gaue that great , & free present to Dauid , that place , those instrumēts for sacrifice , and the sacrifices themselues , it is said there , by thy Spirit , Al these things did Araumah giue , as a King , to the King. To giue is an approaching to the Condition of Kings , but to giue health , an approching to the King , of Kings , to thee . But this his assisting to my bodily health , thou knowest O God , and so doe some others of thine Honorable seruants know , is bu● the twy-light , of that day , wherein thou● thorow him , hast shind vpon mee before ; but the Eccho of that voyce , whereby thou , through him , hast spoke to mee before ; Then , when he , first of any man conceiu'd a hope , that I might be of some vse in thy Church , and descended to an intimation , to a perswasiō , almost to a solicitatiō , that I would embrace that calling . And thou who hadst put that desire into his heart , didst also put into mine , an obedience to it ; and I who was sicke before , of a vertiginous giddines , and irresolution , and almost spent all my time in consulting how I should spend it , was by this man of God , and God of men , put into the poole , and recouerd : when I asked , perchāce , a stone , he gaue me bread , when I asked , perchāce , a Scorpion , he gaue me a fish ; whē I asked a temporall office , hee denied not , refused not that , but let mee see , that hee had rather I took this . These things , thou O God , who forgettest nothing , hast not forgot , though perchance , he , because they were benefits , hath ; but I am not only a witnesse , but an instance , that ou● Iehosophat hath a care to ordaine Priests , as well as Iudges : and not only to send Phisicians fo● temporall , but to bee the Phisician for spirituall health . 8. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who though thou haue reserued thy tresure of perfit ioy , and perfit glory , to be giuen by thine own hands then , whē by seeing thee , as thou art in thy selfe , and knowing thee , as we are known , wee shall possesse in an instant , and possesse for euer , all that can any way cōduce to our happinesses , yet here also in this world , giuest vs such earnests of that full payment , as by the value of the earnest , we may giue some estimat of the tresure , humbly , and thākfully I acknowledge , that thy blessed spirit instructs mee , to make a differēce of thy blessings in this world , by that difference of the Instruments , by which it hath pleased thee to deriue them vnto me . As we see thee heere in a glasse , so we receiue frō thee here by reflexion , & by instruments . Euen casual things come from thee ; and that which we call Fortune here , hath another name aboue . Nature reaches out her hand , and giues vs corne , and wine , and oyle , and milk , but thou fillest her hand before , and thou openest her hand , that she may rain down her showres vpon vs. Industry reaches out her hand to vs , and giues vs fruits of our labor , for our selues , & our posteritie ; but thy hand guides that hand , when it sowes , and when it waters , and the increase is from thee . Friends reach out their hands , & prefer vs , but thy hand supports that hād , that supports vs. Of all these thy instruments haue I receiued thy blessing , O God , but bless thy name most for the greatest ; that as a member of the publike , and as a partaker of priuate fauours too , by thy right hand , thy powerfull hand set , ouer vs , I haue had my portion , not only in the hearing , but in the preaching of thy Gospel . Humbly beseeching thee , that as thou continuest thy wonted goodnes vpon the whol world , by the wonted meanes , & instruments , the same Sun , and Moon , the same Nature , and Industry , so to continue the same blessings vpon this State , and this Church by the same hand , so long , as that thy Son when he comes in the clouds , may find him , or his Son , or his sonnes sonnes ready to giue an account , & able to stand in that iudgmēt , for their faithfull Stewardship , and dispensation of thy talēts so abūdantly cōmitted to them ; & be to him , O God , in all distēpers of his body , in all anxieties of spirit , in all holy sadnesses of soule , such a Phisician in thy proportion , who art the greatest in heauen , as hee hath bin in soule , & body to me , in his proportiō , who is the greatst vpon earth . 9. Medicamina scribūt . Vpon their Consultation , they prescribe . 9. MEDITATION . THey haue seene me , and heard mee , arraign'd mee in these fetters , and receiu'd the euidence ; I haue cut vp mine own Anatomy , diffected my selfe , and they are gon to read vpon me . O how manifold , and perplexed a thing , nay , how wanton and various a thing is ruine and destruction ? God presented to Dauid three kinds , War , Famine , and Pestilence ; Satan left out these , and brought in , fires frō heauen , and windes from the wildernes . If there were no ruine but sicknes , wee see , the Masters of that Art , can scarce nūber , not name all sicknesses ; euery thing that disorders a faculty , & the function of that is a sicknesse : The names wil not serue thē which are giuen frō the place affected , the Pluris●● is so ; nor from the effect which it works , the falling sicknes is so ; they cānot haue names ynow , from what it does , nor where it is , but they must extort names frō what it is like , what it resembles , & b●t in some one thing , or els they would lack names ; for the Wolf , and the Canker , and the Polypus are so ; and that question , whether there be more names or things , is as perplexd in sicknesses , as in any thing else ; except it be easily resolud vpon that side , that there are more sicknesses thē names . If ruine were reduc'd to that one way , that Man could perish noway but by sicknes , yet his danger were infinit ; and if sicknes were reduc'd to that one way , that there were no sicknes but a feuer , yet the way were infinite still ; for it would ouerlode , & oppress any naturall , disorder and discompose any artificiall Mem●ry , to deliuer the names of seuerall Feuers ; how intricate a worke then haue they , who ar● gone to consult , which of these sicknesses mine is , and then which of these feuers , and then what it would do , and thē how it may be countermind . But euen in ill , it is a degree of good , whē the euil wil admit consultation . In many diseases , that which is but an accident , but a symptom of the main disease , is so violēt , that the phisician must attend the cure of that , though hee pretermi● ( so far as to intermi● ) the cure of the disease it self . Is it not so in States too ? somtimes the insolēcy of those that are great , put the people into commotions ; the great disease , & the greatest danger to the Head , is the insolency of the great ones ; & yet , they execute Martial law , they come to present executions vpō the people , whose commotion was indeed but a simptom , but an accident of the maine disease ; but this symptom , grown so violent , wold allow no time for a consultatiō . Is it not so in the accidents of the diseases of our mind too ? Is it not euidently so in our affections , in our passions ? If a cholerick man be ready to strike , must I goe about to purge his choler , or to breake the blow ? But where there is room for consultatiō , things are not desperate . They consult ; so there is nothing rashly , incōsideratly done ; and then they prescribe , the● write , so there is nothing couertly , disguisedly , vnavowedly done . In bodily diseases it is not alwaies so ; sometimes , assoon as the Phisicians foote is in the chamber , his knife is in the patients arme ; the disease would not allow a minutes forbearing of blood , nor prescribing of other remedies . In States & matter of gouernmēt it is so too ; they are somtimes surprizd with such accidēts , as that the Magistrat asks not what may be done by law , but does that , which must necessarily be don in that case But it is a degree of good , in euill , a degree that ca●ies hope & cōfort in it , when we may haue r●●course to that which is written , and that the proceedings may bee apert , and ingenuous , and candid , and auowable , for that giues satisfaction , and acquiescence . They who haue receiued my Anatomy of my selfe , consult , and end their consultatiō in prescribing , and in prescribing Phisick ; proper and conuenient remedy : for if they shold come in again , and chide mee , for some disorder , that had occasion'd , and inducd , or that had hastned and exalted this sicknes , or if they should begin to write now rules for my dyet , and exercise when I were well , this were to antidate , or to postdate their Consultation , not to giue phisick . It were rather a vexation , then a reliefe , to tell a condemnd prisoner , you might haue liu'd if you had done this ; & if you can get your pardon , you shal do wel , to take this , or this course hereafter . I am glad they know ( I haue hid nothing from them ) glad they consult , ( they hide nothing frō one another ) glad they write ( they hide nothing frō the world ) glad that they write and prescribe Phisick , that there are remedies for the present case . 9. EXPOSTVLATION . My God , my God , allow me a iust indignation , a holy detestation of the insolēcy of that Man , who because he was of that high rāke , of whō thou hast said , They are gods , thought himselfe more then equall to thee ; That king of Aragon Alfonsus , so perfit in the motions of the heauenly bodies , as that hee aduentured to say , That if he had bin of councell with thee , in the making of the heauens , the the heauens should haue bin disposed in a better order , then they are . The king Amasiah would not indure thy prophet to reprehend him , but asked him in anger , Art thou made of the kings councell● When thy Prophet Esaias askes that questiō who hath directed the spirit of the Lord , or being his councellor hath tought him . It is after hee had setled and determined that office , vpon thy sonne , and him onely , whē he ioyns with those great Titles , The mighty God , and the prince of peace , this also , the Councellor ; and after he had setled vpon him , the spirit of might , and of councell . So that thē , thou O God , thogh thou haue no councell from Man , yet doest nothing vpon man , without councell ; In the making of Man there was a consultation ; let vs make man. In the preseruing of Man , O thou great preseruer 〈◊〉 men , thou proceededst by councell ; for all thy externall workes , are the workes of the whole Trinity , and their hand is to euery action . How much more must I apprehend , that al you bles●sed , & glorious persons of the Trinitie are in Consultation now , what you wil do with this in firm body , with this leprous Soule , that attends , guiltily , but yet comfortably , your determination vpō it . I offer not to counsell them , who meet in consultatiō for my body now , but I open my in●●rmities , I anatomise my body to them . So I do my soule to thee , O my God , in an hūble confession , That there is no veine in mee , that is not full of the bloud of thy Son , whō I haue crucified , & Crucified againe , by multiplying many , and often repeating the same sinnes that there is no Artery in me , that hath not the spirit of error , the spirit of lust , the spirit of giddines in it● no bone in me that is not hardned with the custo●e of sin , and nourished , and soupled with the marrow of sinn ; no sinews , no ligamēts , that do not tie , & chain sin and sin together . Yet , O blessed and glorious Trinity , O holy , & whole Colledge , and yet but one Phisician , if you take this confession into a consult●●●on , my case is not desp●rate my destructiō is not decreed ; If your consultation determin in writing , if you refer mee to that which is written , you intend my recouery : for al the way , O my God , ( euer constant to thine owne wayes ) thou hast proceeded opēly , intellig●bly , manifestly , by the book . From thy first book , the book of life , neue● shut to thee , but neuer throughly open to vs ; frō thy second book , the booke of Nature , wher though subobscurely , and in shadows , thou hast expressed thine own Image ; frō thy third booke ; the Scriptures , where thou hadst writtē all in the Old , and then lightedst vs a cādle to read it by , in the New Testament ; To these thou hadst added the booke of iust , and vsefull Lawes , established by them , to whom thou hast committed thy people ; To those , the Manualls , the pocket , the bosome books of our own Consciences , To ●hose thy partcular books of all our particular sins ; and to those , the Booke with seuen seales , which only the Lamb which was slaine , was found worthy to opē ; which , I hope , it shall not disagree with the meaning of thy blessed Spirit , to interpre●e , the promulgation of their pardon , and righteousnes , who are washed in the blood of that Lambe ; And if thou refer me to these Bookes , to a new reading , a new triall by these bookes ● this feuer may be but a burning in the hand , and I may be saued , thogh not by my book , mine own conscience , nor by thy other books , yet by thy first , the book of life , thy decree for my election , and by thy last , the book of the Lamb , and the shedding of his blood vpon me ; If I be stil vnder cōsultation , I am not cōdemned yet ; if I be sent to these books I shall not be condem'd at all : for , though there be somthing written in some of those books ( particularly in the Scriptur● ) which some men turne to poyson , yet vpon these consultations ( these confessions , these takings of our particular cases , into thy consideration ) thou intendest all for phisick , & euen from those Sentences , from which a too●late Repenter will sucke desperation , he that seeks thee early , shall receiue thy morning dew , thy seasonable mercy , thy forward consolation . 9. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who art of so pure eyes , as that thou canst not look vpon sinn , and we of so vnpure constitutions , as that wee can present no obiect but sin , and therfore might iustly ●eare , that thou wouldst turn thine eyes for euer from vs , as , though we cannot indure afflictions in our selues , yet in thee we can● so thogh thou canst not indure sinne in vs , yet in ●hy Sonn thou canst , and he hath taken vpon him se●fe , and presented to thee , al those sins , which might displease thee in vs. There is an Eye in Nature , that kills , assoon as it sees , the eye of a Serpent ; no eye in Nature , that nourishes vs by looking vpon vs ; But thine Eye , O Lord , does so . Looke therefore vpon me , O Lord , in this distresse , and that will recall mee from the borders of this bodily death ; Look vpon me , and that wil raise me again from that spirituall death , in which my parents buried me , when they begot mee in sinne , and in which I haue pierced euen to the lawes of hell , by multiplying such heaps of actuall sins , vpon that foundation , that root of originall sinn . Yet take me again , into your Consultation , O blessed and glorious Trinitie ; & thogh the Father know , that I haue defaced his Image receiued in my Creation ; though the Son know , I haue neglected mine interest in the Redemption , yet , O blessed spirit , as thou art to my Consciēce , so be to them a witnes , that at this minute , I accept that which I haue so often , so often , so rebelliously refused , thy blessed inspirations ; be thou my witnes to them , that at more poores then this slacke body sweates teares , this sad soule weeps blood ; and more for the displeasure of my God , then for the stripes of his displeasure . Take me then , O blessed , & glorious Trinitie , into a Recōsultation , and prescribe me any phisick ; If it bee a long , & painful holding of this soule in sicknes , it is phisick , if I may discern thy hand to giue it , & it is phisick , if it be a speedy departing of this Soule , if I may discerne thy hand to receiue it . 10. Lentè & Serpenti satagunt occurrere Morbo . They find the Disease to steale on insensibly , and endeauour to meet with it so . 10. MEDITATION . THis is Natures nest of Boxes ; The Heauens containe the Earth , the Earth , Cities , Cities , Men. And all these are Concentrique ; the common center to them all , is decay , ruine ; only that is Ecoentrique , which was neuer made , only that place , or garment rather , which we can imagine , but not demonstrate , That light , which is the very emanation of the light of God , in which the Saints shall dwell , with which the Saints shall be appareld , only that bends not to this Center , to Ruine ; that which was not made of Nothing , is not threatned with this annihilation . All other things are ; euen A●gels , euē our soules ; they moue vpon the same poles , they bend to the same Center ; and if they were not made immortall by preseruation , their Nature could not keepe them from sinking to this center , Annihilation . In all these ( the frame of the heuens , the States vpō earth , & Men in them , comprehend all ) Those are the greatest mischifs , which are least discerned ; the most insensible in their wayes come to bee the most sensible in their ends . The Heauens haue had their Dropsie , they drownd the world , and they shall haue their Feuer , and burn the world . Of the dropsie , the flood , the world had a foreknowledge 120 yeares before it came ; and so some made prouision against it , and were sau●d● the feuer shall break out in an instant , & consume all ; The dropsie did no harm to the heauens , frō whence it fell , it did not put out those lights , it did not quench those heates ; but the feuer , the fire shall burne the furnace it selfe , annihilate those heauens , that b●eath it out ; Though the Dog-Starre haue a pestilent breath , an infectious exhalation , yet because we know when it wil rise , we clo●he our selues , & wee die● our selues , and wee shadow our selues to a sufficient preuētion ; but Comets and blazing starres , whose effects , or significations no man can interrupt or frustrat , no man foresaw : no Almanack tells vs , when a blazing starre will bre●k out , the matter is carried vp in secret ; no Astrologer tels vs when the effects wil be accomplishd , for that 's a secret of a higher spheare , then the other ; and that which is most secret , is most dangerous . It is so also here in the societies of men , in States , & Commōwealths . Twentie rebellious drums make not so dāgerous a noise , as a few whisperers , and secret plotters in corners . The Canon doth not so much hurt against a wal , as a Myne vnder the wall ; nor a thousand enemies that threaten , so much as a few that take an oath to say nothing . God knew many heauy sins of the people , in the wildernes and after , but still he charges thē with that one , with Murmuring , murmuring in their hearts , secret disobediences , secre● repugn●nces against his declar'd wil ; and th●se are the most deadly , the most pernicious . And it is so to , with the diseases of the body ; and that is my case . The pulse , the vrine , the sweat , all haue sworn to say nothing , to giue no Indication of any dangerous sicknesse . My forces are not enfeebled , I find no decay in my strength ; my prouisions are not cut off , I find no abhorring in mine appetite ; my counsels are not corrupted nor infatuated , I find no false apprehēsions , to work vpon mine vnderstāding● and yet they see , that inuisibly , & I feele , that insensibly the disease preuailes . The disease hath established a Kingdome , an Empire in mee , and will haue certaine Arcana Imperij , secrets of State , by which it will proceed , & not be boūd to declare ●hem . But yet against those secret conspiracies in the State , the Magistrate hath the ra●k ● and against these insensible diseases , Phisicians haue their examiners ; and those these imploy now . 10. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , I haue bin told , and told by relation , by her own brother , that did it , by thy seruant Nazianzen , that his Sister in the vehemēcy of her prayer , did vse to threaten thee , with a holy importunitie , with a pious impudencie . I dare not doe so , O● God ; but as thy seruant Augustin , wisht that Adam had not sinned , therefore that Christ might not haue died , may I not to this one purpose wish , That if the Serpent before the tentation of Eue , did goe vpright , and speake , that he did so still , because I should the sooner heare him , if he spoke , the sooner see him , if he went vpright ? In his curse , I am cursed too ; his creeping vndoes mee : for howsoeuer hee begin at the heele , and doe but bruise that ; yet he , and Death in him is come into our windowes ; into our Eyes , and Eares , the entrāces , & inlets of our soule . He works vpon vs in secret , & we doe not discerne him ; And one great work of his vpon vs , is to make vs so like himselfe , as to sin in secret , that others may not see vs ; But his Master-piece is , to make vs sin in secret so , as that we may not see our selus sin . For the first , the hiding of our sins from other men , hee hath induo'd that , which was his off-spring from the beginning , A lye : for man , is in Nature , yet , in posses●ion of some such sparkes of ingenuitie , & noblenesse , as that , but to disguise Euill , hee would not lye . The bodie , the sinne , is the Serpents , and the garment that couers it , the lye , is his too . These are his ; but the hiding of sinne from our selues , is Hee himselfe : when we haue the sting of the Serpent in vs , and doe not sting our selues , the venim of sin , and no remorse for sinn , then , as thy blessed Sonne said of Iudas , Hee is a deuill , not that he had one , but was one , so we are become deuils to our selues , and we haue not only a Serpent in our bosome , but we our selues , are to our selues that Serpent . How farre did thy seruant Dauid presse vpon thy pardon , in that petition , Clense thou me from secret sinns ? can any sin bee secret ? for , a great part of our sinnes , though , sayes thy Prophet , we conceiue them in the darke , vpon ou● bed , yet sayes he , We doe them in the light ; there are many sins , which we glorie in doing , and would not doe , if no body should know thē . Thy blessed seruant August confesses , that hee was ashamed of his shamefastnes , and tendernesse of Conscience , and that he often be lied himself with sinnes , which he neuer did , lest he should be vnacceptable to his sinfull companions . But if we would conceale them , ( thy Pr●phet found such a desire , and such a practise in some , whē he said , Thou hast trusted in thy wickedkednes , and thou hast sayd , None shall see me ) yet can we conceale thē ? Thou O God , canst heare of them by others ; The voice of Abels blood , will tell thee of Cains murder ; the Heauens themselues will tell thee Heauē shal reueale his iniquity ; a smal creature alone , shall doe it , A bird of the ayre shall carry the voice , and tell the matter : Thou wilt trouble no Informer , thou thy selfe reuealedst Adams sin , to thy selfe ; And the manifestation of sin is so ful to thee , as that thou shalt reueale all to all , Thou shalt bring euery worke to Iudgement , with euery secret thing , and there is nothing couered , that shall not bee reuealed : But , O my God , there is another way of knowing my sins , which thou louest better then any of these ; To know them by my Confession . As Phisicke works so , it drawes the peccant humour to it selfe , that when it is gathered together , the weight of it selfe may carry that humour away , so thy Spirit returns to my Memory my former sinnes , that being so recollected , they may powre out them●elues by Confession . When I kept silence , sayes thy seruant Dauid , day , and night , thy hand was heauy vpon mee , But when I said , I wil confesse my transgressions vnto the Lord , thou forgauest the iniquitie of my sinne . Thou interpretest the very pu●pose of Confession so well , as that thou scarce leauest any new Mercy for the action it selfe . This Mercy thou leauest , that thou armest vs thereupon , against relapses into the sinnes which wee haue confessed . And that mercy , which thy seruant Augustine apprehends , when he sayes to thee , Thou hast forgiuē me those sinnes which I haue done , and those sinnes which only by thy grace I haue not done : they were done in our inclination to them , and euen that inclination needs thy mercy , and that Mercy he calls a Pardon . And these are most truly secret sinnes , because they were neuer done , and because no other man , nor I my selfe , but onely thou knowest , how many and how great sinnes I haue scaped by thy grace , which without that , I should haue multiplied against thee . 10. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most gracious God , who as thy Sonne Christ Iesus , though hee knew all things , yet said hee knew not the day of Iudgement , because he knew it not so , as that he might tell it vs ; so though thou knowest all my sins , yet thou knowest them not to my comfort , except thou know them by my telling them to th●e , how shall I bring to thy knowledg by that way , those sinns , which I my selfe know not ? If I accuse my selfe of Originall sin , wilt thou ask me if I know what originall sin is ? I know not enough of it to satisfie others , but I know enough to condemne my self , & to solicit thee . If I confesse to thee the sinnes of my youth , wilt thou aske me , if I know what those sins were ? I know them not so well , as to name them all , nor am sure to liue houres enough to name them al , ( for I did thē then , faster then I can speak them now , when euery thing that I did , conduc'd to some sinne ) but I know thē so well , as to know , that nothing but thy mercy is so infinite as they . If the naming of Sinnes , of Thought , Word , and Deed , of sinns of Omission , and of Action , of sins against thee , against my neighbour , and against my self , of sinns vnrepented , and sinnes relapsed into after Repentance , of sinnes of Ignorance , and sinnes against the testimonie of my Conscience , of sinnes against thy Commaundements , sinnes against thy Sonnes Prayer , and sinns against our owne Creed , of sins against the laws of that Church , & sinnes against the lawes of that State , in which thou hast giuen mee my station , If the naming o● these sinnes reach not home to all mine , I know what will ; O Lord pardon me , me , all those sinnes , which thy Sonne Christ Iesus suffered for , who suffered for all the sinnes of all the world ; for there is no sinne amongst all those which had not been my sinne , if thou hadst not beene my God , and antidated me a pardon in thy preuenting grace . And since sinne in the nature of it , retaines still so much of the author of it , that it is a Serpent , insensibly insinuating it selfe , into my Soule , let thy brazen Serpent , ( the contemplation of thy Sonne crucified for me ) be euermore present to me , for my recouery against the sting of the first Serpent ; That so , as I haue a Lyon against a Lyon , The Lyon of the Tribe of Iudah , against that Lyon , that seekes whom hee may deuoure , so I may haue a Serpent against a Serpent , the Wisedome of the Serpent , against the Malice of the Serpent , And , both against that Lyon , and Serpent , forcible , and subtill tentations , Thy Doue with thy Oliue , in thy Arke , Humilitie , and Peace , and Reconciliation to thee , by the ordinances of thy Church● Amen . 11. Nobilibusque trahunt , a cincto Corde , venenum , Succis & Gemmis , & quae generosa , Ministrant Ars , et Natura , instillant . They vse Cordials , to keep the venim and Malignitie of the disease from the Heart . 11. MEDITATION . WHence can wee take a better argument , a clearer d●monstration , that all the Greatnes of this world , is built vpon opinion of others , and hath in it self no reall being , nor power of subsistence , then from the heart of man ? It is alwayes in Action , and motion , still busie , still pretending to doe all , to furnish all the powers , and faculties with all that they haue ; But if an ●nemy dare rise vp against it , it is the soonest endangered , the soonest defeated of any part . The Braine will hold out longer then it , and the Liuer longer then that ; They will endure a Siege ; but an vnnatural heat , a rebellious heat , will blow vp the heart , like a Myne , in a minute . But howsoeuer , since the Heart hath the birth-right , and Primogeniture , and that it is Natures eldest Sonne in vs , the part which is first borne to life in man , and that the other parts , as younger brethren , and seruants in this family , haue a dependance vpon it , it is reason that the principall care bee had of it , though it bee not the strongest part ; as the eldest is oftentimes not the strongest of the family . And since the Braine , and Liuer , and Heart , hold not a Triumuirate in Man , a Soueraigntie equally shed vpon them all , for his well-being , as the foure Elements doe , for his very being , but the Heart alone is in the Principalitie , and in the Throne , as King , the rest as Subiects , though in eminent Place , and Office , must contribute to that , as Children to their Parents , as all persons to all kindes of Superiours , though oftētimes , those Parents , or those Superiours , bee not of stronger parts , then themselues , that serue and obey them that are weaker ; Neither doth this Obligation fall vpon vs , by second Dictates of Nature , by Consequences , and Conclusions arising out of Nature , or deriu'd from Nature , by Discourse , ( as many things binde vs , euen by the Law of Nature , and yet not by the primarie Law of Nature ; as all Lawes of Proprietie in that which we possesse , are of the Law of Nature , which law is , To giue euery one his owne , and yet in the primarie law of Nature , there was no Proprietie , no Meum & Tuum , but an vniuersall Communitie ouer all ; So the obedience of Superiours , is of the law of Nature , and yet in the primarie law of Nature , there was no Superioritie , no Magistracie ; ) but this contribution of assistance of all to the Soueraigne , of all parts to the Heart , is from the very first dictates of Nature ; which is in the first place , to haue care of our owne Preseruation , to looke first to our selues ; for therefore doth the Phisician intermit the present care of Braine , or Liuer , because there is a possibilitie , that they may subsist , though there bee not a present and a particular care had of them , but there is no possibilitie that they can subsist , if the Heart perish : and so , when we seeme to begin with others , in such assistances , indeed wee doe beginne with our selues , and wee our selues are principally in our contemplation ; and so all these officious , and mutuall assistances , are but complements towards others , and our true end is our selues . And this is the reward of the paines of Kings ; sometimes they neede the power of law , to be obeyd ; and when they seeme to be obey'd voluntarily , they who doe it , doe it for their owne sakes . O how little a thing is all the greatnes of man , and through how false glasses doth he make shift to multiply it , and magnifie it to himselfe ? And yet this is also another misery of this King of man , the Heart , which is also applyable to the Kings of this world , great men , that the venime & poy●on of euery pestilentiall disease directs it selfe to the heart , affects that , ( pernicious affection , ) and the malignity of ill men , is also directed vpon the greatest , and the best ; and not only greatnesse , but goodnesse looses the vigour of beeing an Antidote , or Cordiall against it . And as the noblest , and most generous Cordialls that Nature or Art afford , or can prepare , if they be often taken , and made familiar , become no Cordialls , nor haue any extraordinary operation , so the greatest Cordiall of the Heart , patience , if it bee much exercis'd , exalts the venim and the malignity of the Enemy , and the more we suffer , the more wee are insulted vpon . When God had made this Earth of nothing , it was but a little helpe , that he had , to make other things of this Earth : nothing can be neerer nothing , then this Earth ; and yet how little of this Earth , is the greatest Man ? Hee thinkes he treads vpon the Earth , that all is vnder his fe●te , and the Braine that thinkes so , is but Earth ; his highest Region , the flesh that couers that , is but earth ; and euen the toppe of that , that , wherein so many Absolons take so much pride , is but a bush growing vpon that Turfe of Earth . How litle of the world is the Earth ? And yet that is all , that Man hath , or is . How little of a Man is the Heart ; and yet it is all , by which he is : and this continually subiect , not onely to forraine poysons , conueyed b● others , but to intestine poysons bred in our selues by pestilentiall sicknesses . O who , if before hee had a beeing , he could haue sense of this miserie , would buy a being here vpon these conditions ? 11. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , all that thou askest of mee , is my Heart , My Sonne , giue mee thy heart ; Am I thy sonne , as long as I haue but my heart ? VVilt thou giue mee an Inheritance , a Filiation , any thing for my heart ? O thou , who saydst to Satan , Hast thou considered my seruant Iob , that there is none like him vpon the earth , shall my feare , shall my zeale , shall my iealousie haue leaue to say to thee , Hast thou considered my Heart , that there is not so peruerse a Heart vpon ea●th ; and wouldest thou haue that ; and shall I be thy Sonne , thy eternall Sonnes Coheire , for giuing that ? The Heart is deceitfull , aboue all things , and desperately wicked ; who can know it ? Hee that askes that question , makes the answere , I the Lord search the Heart . When didst thou search mine ? Dost thou thinke to finde it , as thou madest it in Adam ? Thou hast searched since , and found all these gradations in the ill of our Hearts , That euery imagination , of the thoughts of our hearts , is onely euill continually . Doest thou remember this , and wouldest thou haue my Heart ? O God of all light , I know thou knowest all ; and it is Thou , that declarest vnto man , what is his Heart . VVithout thee , O Soueraigne goodnesse , I could not know , how ill my heart were . Thou hast declared vnto mee , in thy Word , That for all this deluge of euill , that hath surrunded all Hearts , yet thou soughtest and foundest a man after thine owne heart , That thou couldest and wouldest giue thy people Pastours according to thine owne heart ; And I can gather out of thy Word , so good testimony of the hearts of men , as to finde single hearts , docile , and apprehensiue hearts ; Hearts that can , Hearts that haue learnt ; wise hearts , in one place , and in another , in a great degree , wise , perfit hearts ; straight hearts , no peruersnesse without , and cleane hearts , no foulenesse within ; such hearts I can find in thy Word ; and if my heart were such a heart , I would giue thee my Heart . But I find stonie hearts too , and I haue made mine such : I haue found Hearts , that are snares ; and I haue conuersed with such ; hearts that burne like Ouens ; and the fuell of Lust , and Enuie , and Ambition , hath inflamed mine ; Hearts in which their Masters trust , And hee that trusteth in his owne heart , is a foole ; His confidence in his owne morall Constancie , and ciuill fortitude , will betray him , when thou shalt cast a spirituall dampe , a heauinesse , and dei●ction of spirit vpon him . I haue found these Hearts , and a worse then these , a Heart into the which the Deuill himselfe is entred , Iudas heart . The first kind of heart , alas , my God , I haue not ; The last are not Hearts to bee giuen to thee ; What shall I do ? Without that present I cannot bee thy Sonne , and I haue it not . To those of the first kinde , thou giuest ioyfulnes of heart , and I haue not that ; To those of the other kinde , thou giuest faintnesse of heart : And blessed bee thou , O God , for that forbearance , I haue not that yet . There is then a middle kinde of Hearts , not so pe●fit , as to bee giuen , but that the very giuing , mends them : Not so desperate , as not to bee accepted , but that the very accepting dignifies them . This is a melting heart , and a troubled heart ; and a wounded heart , and a broken heart , and a contrite heart ; and by the powerfull working of thy piercing spirit , such a Heart I haue ; Thy Samuel spake vnto all the house of thy Israel , and sayd , If you returne to the Lord with all your hearts , prepare your hearts vnto the Lord. If my heart bee prepared , it is a returning heart ; And if thou see it vpon the way , thou wilt carrie it ●ome ; Nay , the preparation is thine too ; this melting , this wounding , this breaking , this contrition , which I haue now , is thy Way , to thy Ende ; And those discomforts , are for all that , The earnest of thy Spirit in my heart ; and where thou giuest earnest , thou wilt performe the bargaine . Naball was confident vpon his wine , but in the morning his heart dyed within him ; Thou , O Lord , hast giuen mee Wormewood , and I haue had some diffidence vpon that ; and thon hast cleared a Morning to mee againe , and my heart is aliue . Danids heart smote him , when hee cut off the skirt from Saul ; and his heart smote him , when hee had numbred his people : My heart hath strucke mee , when I come to number my sinnes ; but that blowe is not to death , because those sinnes are not to death , but my heart liues in thee . But yet as long as I remaine in this great Hospitall , this sicke , this diseasefull world , as long as I remaine in this leprous house , this flesh of mine , this Heart , though thus prepared for thee , prepared by thee , will still be subiect to the inuasion of maligne and pestilent vapours . But I haue my Cordialls in thy promise ; when I shall know the plague of my heart , and pray vnto thee , in thy house , thou wilt preserue that heart , from all mortall force , of that infection : And the Peace of God , which passeth all vnderstanding , shall keepe my Heart and Minde through Christ Iesus . 11. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most gracious God , who in thy vpper house , the Heauens , though there bee many Mansions , yet art alike , and equally in euery Mansion , but heere in thy lower house , though thou fillest all , yet art otherwise in some roomes thereof , then in others , otherwise in thy Church , then in my Chamber , and otherwise in thy Sacraments , then in my Prayers , so though thou bee alwayes present , and alwayes working in euery roome of this thy House , my body , yet I humbly beseech thee to manifest alwayes a more effectuall presence in my heart , then in the other Offices . Into the house of thine Annoynted , disloyall persons , Traitors will come ; Into thy House , the Church , Hypocrites , and Idolatrers will come ; Into some Roomes of this thy House , my Body , Tentations will come , Infections will come , but bee my Heart , thy Bed-chamber , O my God , and thither let them not enter . Iob made a Couenant with his Eyes , but not his making of that Couenant , but thy dwelling in his heart , enabled him to keepe that Couenaunt . Thy Sonne himselfe had a sadnesse in his Soule to death , and hee had a reluctation , a deprecation of death , in the approaches thereof ; but hee had his Cordiall too , Yet not my will , but thine bee done . And as thou hast not deliuered vs , thine adopted sonnes , from these infectious tentations , so neither hast thou deliuered vs ouer to them , nor withheld thy Cordialls from vs. I was baptized in thy Cordiall water , against Originall sinne , and I haue drunke of thy Cordiall Blood , for my recouerie , from actuall , and habituall sinne in the other Sacrament . Thou , O Lord , who hast imprinted all medicinall vertues , which are in all creatures , and hast made euen the flesh of Vipers , to assist in Cordialls , art able to make this present sicknesse , euerlasting health , this weaknes , euerlasting strēgth , and this very deiection , and faintnesse of heart , a powerfull Cordiall . When thy blessed Sonne cryed out to thee , My God , my God , why hast thou forsaken mee , thou diddest reach out thy hand to him ; but not to deliuer his sad soule , but to receiue his holy soule ; Neither did hee longer desire to hold it of thee , but to recommend it to thee . I see thine hand vpon mee now , O Lord , and I aske not why it comes , what it intends : whether thou wilt bidde it stay still in this Body , for some time , or bidd it meet thee this day in Paradise , I aske not , not in a wish , not in a thought : Infirmitie of Nature , Curiositie of Minde , are tentations that offer ; but a silent , and absolute obedience , to thy will , euen before I know it , is my Cordiall . Preserue that to mee , O my God , and that will preserue mee to thee ; that when thou hast Catechised mee with affliction here , I may take a greater degree , and serue thee in a higher place , in thy kingdome of ioy , and glory . Amen . 12. — Spirante Columbâ Suppositâ pedibus , Reuocantur ad ima vapores . They apply Pidgeons , to draw the vapors from the Head. 12. MEDITATION . VVHat will not kill a man , if a vapor will ? how great an Elephant , how small a Mouse destroyes ? to dye by a bullet is the Souldiers dayly bread ; but few men dye by haile-shot : A man is more worth , then to bee sold for single money ; a life to be valued aboue a trifle . If this were a violent shaking of the Ayre by Thunder , or by Canon , in that case the Ayre is condensed aboue the thicknesse of water , of water baked into Ice , almost petrified , almost made stone , and no wonder that that kills ; but that that which is but a vapor , and a vapor not forced , but breathed , should kill , that our Nourse should ouerlay vs , and Ayre , that nourishes vs , should destroy vs , but that it is a halfe Atheisme to murmure against Nature , who is Gods immediate Commissioner , who would not think himselfe miserable to bee put into the hands of Nature , who does not only set him vp for a marke for others to shoote at , but delights her selfe to blow him vp like a glasse , till shee see him breake , euen with her owne breath ? nay if this infectious vapor were sought for , or trauail'd to , as Plinie hunted after the vapor of Aetna and dard , and challenged Death in the forme of a vapor to doe his worst , and felt the worst , he dyed ; or if this vapor were met withall in an ambush , and we surprized with it , out of a long shut● Well , or out of a new opened Myne , who wold lament , who would accuse , when we had nothing to accuse , none to lament against , but Fortune , who is lesse then a vapour : But when our selues are the Well , that breaths out this exhalation , the Ouen that spits out this fiery smoke , the Myne that spues out this suffocating , and strangling dampe , who can euer after this , aggrauate his sorrow , by this Circumstance , That it was his Neighbor , his familiar friend , his brother that destroyed him , and destroyed him with a whispering , & a calumniating breath , when wee our selues doe it to our selues by the same meanes , kill our selues with our owne vapors ? Or if these occasions of this selfe-destruction , had any contribution from our owne wils , any assistance from our owne intentions , nay frō our owne errors , wee might diuide the rebuke , & chide our selues as much as them . Feuers vpon wilful distempers of drinke , and surfets , Consumptions vpon intēperances , & licentiousnes , Madnes vpon misplacing , or ouer-bending our naturall faculties , proceed from our selues , and so , as that our selues are in the plot , and wee are not onely passiue , but actiue too , to our owne destruction ; But what haue I done , either to breed , or to breath these vapors ? They tell me it is my Melancholy ; Did I infuse , did I drinke in Melancholly into my selfe ? It is my thoughtfulnesse ; was I not made to thinke ? It is my study ; doth not my Calling call for that● I haue don nothing , wilfully , peruersly toward it , yet must suffer in it , die by it ; There are too many Examples of men , that haue bin their own executioners , and that haue made hard shift to bee so ; some haue alwayes had poyson about them , in a hollow ring vpō their finger , and some in their Pen that they vsed to write with : some haue beat out their braines at the wal of their prison , and some haue eate the fire out of their chimneys : and one is said to haue come neerer our case then so , to haue strāgled himself , though his hands were bound , by crushing his throat between his knees ; But I doe nothing vpon my selfe , and yet am mine owne Executioner . And we haue heard of death , vpon small occasions , and by scornefull instruments ; a pinne , a combe , a haire , pulled , hath gangred , & killd ; But when I haue said , a vapour , if I were asked again , what is a vapour , I could not tell , it is so insensible a thing ; so neere nothing is that that red●ces vs to nothing . But extend this vapour , rarifie it ; from so narow a roome , as our Naturall bodies , to any Politike body , to a State. That which is fume in vs , is in a State , Rumor , and these vapours in vs , which wee consider here pestilent , and infectious fumes , are in a State infectious rumors , detracting and dishonourable Calumnies , Libels . The Heart in that body is the King ; and the Braine , his Councell ; and the whole Magistracie , that ties all toge●her , is the Sinewes , which proceed from thence ; and the life of all is Honour , and iust respect , and due reuerence ; and therfore , when these vapors , these venimous rumors , are directed against these Noble parts , the whole body suf●ers . But yet for all their priuiledges , they are not priuiledged from our misery ; that as the vapours most pernitious to vs , arise in our owne bodies , so doe the most dishonorable rumours , and those that wound a State most , arise at home . What ill ayre , that I could haue met in the street , what channell , what shambles , what dunghill , what vault , could haue hurt mee so much , as these home-bredd vapours ? What fugitiue , what Almes-man of any forraine State , can doe so much harme , as a Detracter , a Libeller , a scornefull Iester at home ? For , as they that write of Poysons , and of creatures naturally disposed to the ruine of Man , do as well mention the Flea , as the Viper , because the Flea , though hee kill none , hee does all the harme hee can , so euen these libellous and licentious Iesters , vtter the venim they haue , though sometimes vertue , and alwaies power , be a good Pigeon to draw this vapor from the Head , and from doing any deadly harme there . 12. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , as thy seruant Iames , when he asks that questiō , what is your life , prouides me my answere , It is euen a vapor , that appeareth for a little time , & then vanisheth away , so if he did aske me what is your death , I am prouided of my answere , It is a vapor too ; And why should it not be all one to mee , whether I liue , or die , if life , and death be all one , both a vapor . Thou ha●t made vapor so indifferent a thing , as that thy Blessings , and thy Iudgements are equally expressed by it , and is made by thee the Hierogliphique of both . Why should not that bee alwaies good , by which thou hast declared thy plentifull goodnes to vs ? A vapor went vp from the Earth , and watred the whole face of the ground , And that by which thou hast imputed a goodnes to vs , and wherein thou hast accepted our seruice to thee , sacrifices ; for Sacrifices , were vapors , And in th●m it is said , that a thicke cloude of inc●nce went vp to thee . So it is of that , wherein thou comst to vs , the dew of Heauen , And of that wherein we come to thee● both are vapors ; And hee , in whom we haue , and are all that we are or haue , tēporally , or spiritually , thy blessed Son , in the persō of wisedome , is called so to ; she is ( that is he is ) the vapor of the power of God , and the pure influence frō the glory of the Almighty . Hast thou , Thou , O my God , perfumed vapor , with thine own breath , with so many sweet acceptations , in thine own word , and shall this vapor receiue an ill , and infectious sense ? It must ; for , since we haue displeased thee , with that which is but vapor , ( for what is sinne , but a vapor , but a smoke , though such a smoke , as takes away our sight , and disables vs from seeing our danger ) it is iust , that thou punish vs with vapo●s to For so thou dost , as the Wiseman tels vs , Thou canst punish vs by those things , wherein wee offend thee ; as he hath expressed it there , B● beasts newly created , breathing vapors . Therefore that Commination of ●hine , by thy Prophet , I will shew wonders in the heauen , and in the Earth , bloud and fire , and pillars of smoke ● thine Apostle , who knewe thy meaning best , calls vapors of smoke . One Prophe● presents thee in thy terriblenesse , so , There went out a smoke at his Nostrils , and another , the effect of thine anger so , The house was filled with smoake ; And hee that continues his Prophesie , as long as the world can continue , describes the miseries of the latter times so , Out of the bottomlesse pit arose a smoke , that darkened the Sunne , and out of that smoke came Locusts , who had the power of Scorpions . Now all smokes begin in fire , & all these will end so too : The smoke of sin , and of thy wrath , will end in the fire of hell . But hast thou afforded vs no means to euaporate these smokes , to withdraw these vapors ? When thine Angels fell from heauen , thou tookst into thy care , the reparatiō of that place , & didst it , by assuming , by drawing vs thither● when we fel from thee here , in this world , thou tookst into thy care the reparation of this place too , and didst it by assuming vs another way , by descending down to assume our nature , in thy Son. So that though our last act be an ascending to glory , ( we shall ascend to the place of Angels ) yet our first act is to goe the way of thy Sonn , descending , and the way of thy blessed spirit too , who descended in the Doue . Therefore hast thou bin pleased to afford vs this remedy in Nature , by this application of a Doue , to our lower parts , to make these vapors in our bodies , to descend , and to make that a type to vs , that by the visitation of thy Spirit , the vapors o● sin shall descend , & we tread them vnder our feet . At the baptisme of thy Son , the Doue descended , & at the exalting of thine Apostles to preach , the same spirit descēded . Let vs draw down the vapors of our own pride , our own wits , our own wils , our own inuētions , to the simplicitie of thy Sacraments , & the obedience of thy word , and these Doues , thus applied , shall make vs liue . 12. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who though thou haue suffred vs to destroy our selues , & hast not giuen vs the power of reparation in our s●lues , hast yet afforded vs such meanes of reparation , as may easily , and familiarly be compassed by vs , prosper I humbly beseech thee this means of bodily assistance in this thy ordinary creature , and prosper thy meanes of spirituall assistance in thy holy ordinances . And as thou hast caried this thy creature the Doue , through all thy wayes , through Nature , and made it naturally proper to conduce medicinally to our bodily health , Through the law , and made it a sacrifice for sinne there , and through the Gospel , and made it , & thy spirit in it , a witnes of thy sonnes baptisme there , so carry it , and the qualities of it home to my soule , and imprint there that simplici●y , that mildnesse , that harmelesnesse , which thou hast imprinted by Nature in this Creature . That so all vapours of all disobedience to thee , being subdued vnder my feete , I may in the power , and triumphe of thy sonne , treade victoriously vpon my graue , and trample vpon the Lyon , and Dragon , that lye vnder it , to deuoure me . Thou O Lord by the Prophet callest the Doue , the Doue of the Valleys , but promisest that the Doue of the Valleyes shall bee vpon the Mountaine : As thou hast layed mee low , in this Valley of sickenesse , so low , as that I am made fit for that question , asked in the field of bones , Sonne of Man , can these bones liue , so , in thy good time , carry me vp to these Mountaynes , of which , euen in this Valley , thou affordest mee a prospect , the Mountain where thou dwellest , the holy Hill , vnto which none can ascend but hee that hath cleane hands , which none can haue , but by that one and that strong way , of making them cleane , in the blood of thy Sonne Christ Iesus . Amen . 13. Ingeniumque malum , numeroso stigmate , fassus Pellitur ad pectus , Morbique Suburbia , Morbus . The Sicknes declares the infection●●nd malignity thereof 〈…〉 . 13. MEDITATION . WEe say , that the world is made of sea , & land , as though they were equal ; but we know that ther is more sea in the Western , thē in the Eastern Hemisphere ● We say that the Firmament is full of starres ; as though it were equally full ; but we know , that there are more stars vnder the Northerne , then vnder the Southern Pole. Wee say , the Elements of man are misery , and happinesse , as though he had an equal proportion of both , and the dayes of man vicissitudinary , as though he had as many good daies , as ill , and that he liud vnder a perpetuall Equinoctial , night , and day equall , good and ill fortune in the same measure . But it is far frō that ; hee drinkes misery , & he tastes happinesse ; he mowes misery , and hee gleanes happinesse ; hee iournies in misery , he does but walke in happinesse ; and which is worst , his misery is positiue , and dogmaticall , his happinesse is but disputable , and problematicall ; All men call Misery , Misery , but Happinesse changes the name , by the taste of man. In this accident that befalls m●e now , that this sicknesse declares it selfe by Spots , to be a malignant , and pestilentiall disease , if there be a comfort in the declaration , that therby the Phisicians see more cleerely what to doe , there m●y bee as much discomfort in this , That the malignitie may bee so great , as that all that they can doe , shall doe nothing ; That an enemy declares himselfe , then , when he is able to subsist , and to pursue , and to atchiue his ends , is no great comfort . In intestine Conspiracies , voluntary Confessions doe more good , then confessions vpon the Rack ; In these Infections , when Nature her selfe confesses , and cries out by these outward declarations , which she is able to put forth of her selfe , they minister comfort ; but when all is by the strength of Cordials , it is but a Confession vpon the Racke , by which though wee come to knowe the malice of that man , yet wee doe not knowe , whether there bee not as much malice in his heart then , as before his confession ; we are sure of his Treason , but not of of his Repentance ; sure of him , but not of his Complices . It is a faint comfort to know the worst , when the worst is remedilesse ; and a weaker then that , to know much ill , & not to know , that that is the worst . A woman is comforted with the birth of her Son , her body is eased of a burthen ; but if shee could prophetically read his History , how ill a man , perchance how ill a sonne , he would proue , shee should receiue a greater burthē into her Mind . Scarce any purchase that is not cloggd with secret encumbrāces ; scarce any happines , that hath not in it so much of the nature of false and base money , as that the Allay is more then the Mettall . Nay is it not so , ( at least much towards it ) euen in the exercise of Vertues ? I must bee poore , and want , before I can exercise the vertue of Gratitude ; miserable , and in torment , before I can exercise the vertue of patience ; How deepe do we dig , and for how course gold ? And what other Touch-stone haue we of our gold , but comparison ? Whether we be as happy , as others , or as our selus at other times ; O poore stepp toward being well , when these spots do only tell vs , that we are worse , then we were sure of before . 13. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , thou hast made this sick bed thine Altar , and I haue no other Sacrifice to offer , but my ●elf ; and wilt thou accept no ●potted sacrifice ? Doeth ●hy Son dwel bodily in this flesh , that thou shouldst looke for an vnspottednes here ? Or is the Holy Ghost , the soule of this body , as he is of thy Spouse , who is therfore all faire , and no spot in her ? or hath thy Son himself no spots , who hath al our stains , & deformities in him ? Or hath thy Spouse , thy Church , no spots , when euery particular limbe of that faire , & spotles body , euery p●rticular soule in that Church is full of staines , and spots ? Thou bidst vs hate the garment , that is spotted with the flesh . The flesh it selfe is the garment , and it spotteth it selfe , with it self . And if I wash my selfe with snow water ; mine own clothes shall make me abominable ; and yet no man yet euer hated his owne flesh : Lord , if thou looke for a spotlesnesse , whom wilt thou looke vpon ? Thy mercy may goe a great way in my soule , & yet not leaue me without spots ; Thy corrections may go far , & burn deepe , and yet not leaue me spotles : thy children apprehended that , whē they said , From our former iniquitie wee are not cleansed , vntill this day , though there was a plague in the Congregation of the Lord ; Thou r●in●st vpon vs , and yet doest not alwaies mollifie all our hardnesse ; Thou kindlest thy fires in vs , and yet doest not alwayes burne vp all our drosse ; Thou healst our woūds , and yet leauest scarres ; Thou purgest the blood , and yet leauest spots . But the spots that thou hatest , are the spotts that we hide . The Caruers of Images couer spotts , sayes the Wise man ; When we hide our spotts , wee become Idolatrers of our owne staines , of our own foulenesses . But if my spots come forth , by what meanes soeuer , whether by the strēgth of Nature , by voluntary confessiō , ( for Grace is the Nature of a Regenerate man , and the power of Grace is the strength of Nature ) or by the vertue of Cordialls , ( for euē thy Corrections are Cordials ) if they come forth either way , thou receiuest that Confession with a gracious Interpretation . When thy seruant Iacob practised an Inuention to procure spotts in his sheepe , thou diddest prosper his Rodds ; and thou dost prosper thine owne Rodds , when corrections procure the discouery of our spotts , the humble manifestation of our sinns to thee ; Till then thou maist iustly say , The whole need not the Phisician ; Till wee tell thee in our sicknes , wee think our selues whole , till we shew our spotts , thou appliest no medicine . But since I do that , shall I not , Lord , lift vp my face without spot , and be stedfast , and not feare . Euen my spotts belong to thy Sonnes body , and are part of that , which he came downe to this earth , to fetch , and challenge , and assume to himselfe . When I open my spotts , I doe but present him with that which is His , and till I do so , I detaine , & withhold his right . VVhen therfore thou seest them vpon me , as His , and seest them by this way of Confession , they shall not appear to me , as the pinches of death , to decline my feare to Hell ; ( for thou hast not left th● holy one in Hell , thy Sonne is not there ) but these spotts vpon my Breast , and vpon my Soule , shal appeare to mee as the Constellations of the Firmament , to direct my Contemplation to that place , where thy Son is , thy right hand . 13. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most g●atious God , who as thou giuest all for nothing , if we consider any precedent Merit in vs , so giu'st Nothing , for Nothing , if we consider the acknowledgement , & thankefullnesse , which thou lookest for , after , accept my humble thankes , both for thy Mercy , and for this particular Mercie , that in thy Iudgement I can discerne thy Mercie , and find comfort in thy corrections . I know , O Lord , the ordinary discomfort that accompanies that phrase , That the house is visited , And that , that thy markes , and thy tokens are vpon the patient ; But what a wretched , and disconsolate Hermitage is that House , which is not visited by thee , and what a Wayue , and Stray is that Man , that hath not thy Markes vpon him ? These hea●es , O Lord , which thou hast broght vpon this body , are but thy chafing of the wax , that thou mightest seale me to thee ; These spots are but the letters ; in which thou hast written thine owne Name , and conueyed thy selfe to mee ; whether for a present possession , by taking me now , or for a future renersion , by glorifying thy selfe in my stay here , I limit not , ● condi●ion not , I choose not , I wish not , no more then the house , or land that passeth by any Ciuill conueyance . Onely be thou euer present to me , O my God , and this bed-chamber , & thy bed-chamber shal be all one roome , and the closing of these bodily Eyes here , and the opening of the Eyes of my Soule , there , all one Act. 14. Idque notant Criticis , Medici euenisse Diebus . The Phisicians obserue these accidents to haue fallen vpon the criticall dayes . 14. MEDITATION . I Would not make Man worse then hee is , Nor his Condition more miserable then it is . But could I though I would ? As a Man cannot flatter God , nor oue● prayse him , so a Man cannot iniure Man , no● vnderualue him . Thus much must necessarily be presented to his remembrance , that those false Happinesses , which he hath in this World , haue their times , & their seasons , and their Critical d●yes , & they are Iudged , and Denominated according to the times , when they befall vs. What poore Elements are our happinesses made off , if Tyme , Tyme which wee can scarce consider to be any thing , be an ess●ntial part of our h●pines ? All things are done in some place ; but if we consider place to be no more , but the next hollow Superficies of the Ayre , Alas , how thinne , & fluid a thing is Ayre , and how thinne a filme is a Superficies , and a Superficies of Ayre ? All things are done in time too ; but if we consider Tyme to be but the Measure of Motion , and howsoeuer it may seeme to haue three stations , past , present , and future , yet the first and last of these are not ( one is not , now , & the other is not yet ) And that which you call present , is not now the same that it wa● , when you began to call it so in this Line , ( before you sound that word , present , or that Monosyllable , now , the present , & the Now is past , ) if this Imaginary halfe-nothing , Tyme be of the Essence of our Happinesses , how can they be thought durable ? Tyme is not so ; How can they bee thought to be ? Tyme is not so ; not so , considered in any of the parts thereof . If we consider Eternity , into that , Tyme neuer Entred ; Eternity is not an euerlasting flux of Tyme ; but Tyme is as a short parenthesis in a longe period ; and Eternity had bin the same , as it is , though time had neuer beene ; If we consider , not Eternity , bu● Perpetuity , not that which had no tyme to beginne in , but whic● shall out-liue Tyme an● be , when Tyme shall be● no more , wh●t A Minu●● is the life of the Durablest Creature , compare● to that ? And what ● Minute is Mans life i● respect of the Sunnes , o● of a tree ? and yet how little of our life is Occasion● opportunity to receyu● good in ; and how litle of that occasion , doe wee apprehend , and lay hold of ? How busie , and perplexed a Cobweb , is the Happinesse of Man here , that must bee made vp with a Watchfulnesse , to lay hold vpon Occasion , which is but a little peece of that , which is Nothing , Tyme ? And yet the best things are Nothing without that . Honors , Pleasures , Possessions , presented to vs , out of time , in our decrepit , and distasted , & vnapprehensiue Age , loose their office , & loose their Name ; They are not Honors to vs , that shall neuer appeare , nor come abroad into the Eyes of the people , to receiue Honor , from them who giue it : Nor pleasures to vs , who haue lost our sense to taste them● nor possessions to vs , who are departing from the possession of them . Youth is their Criticall Day ; that Iudges them , that Denominates them , that inanimates , and informes them , and makes them Honors , and pleasures , and possessions , & when they come in an vnapprehensiue Age , they come as a Cordiall when the bell rings out , as a Pardon , when the Head is off . We reioyce in the Comfort of fire , but does any Man cleaue to it at Midsomer ; Wee are glad of the freshnesse , & coolenes of a Vault , but does any Man keepe his Christmas there ; or are the pleasures of the Spring acceptable in Autumne ? If happinesse be in the season , or in the Clymate , how much happier then are Birdes then Men , who can change the Climate , and accompanie , and enioy the same season euer . 14. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God wouldest thou cal thy selfe the Ancient of dayes , if we were not to call our selues to an account for our dayes ? wouldest thou chide vs for standing idle heere all the day , if we were sure to haue more dayes , to make vp our haru●st ? When thou biddest vs take no thought for tomorrow ; for sufficient vnto the day ( to euery day ) is the euill thereof , is this truely , absolutely , to put of all that concernes the present life ? When thou reprehendest the Galatians by thy Message to them , That they obserued dayes , and Moneths , and Tymes , and Yeares , when thou sendest by the same Messenger , to forbid the Colossians all Criticall dayes , Indicatory dayes , Let no Man Iudge you , in respect of a holy-day , or of a new Moone , or of a Saboth , doest thou take away all Consideration , all destinction of dayes ? Though thou remoue them from being of the Essence of our Saluation , thou leauest them for assistances , and for the Exaltation of our Deuotion , to fix our selues , at certaine periodicall , & stationary times , vpon the consideration of those things , which thou hast done for vs , and the Crisis , the triall , the iudgment , how those things haue wrought vpon vs , and disposed vs to a spirituall recouery , and conualescence . For there is to euery man a day of saluation , Now is the accepted time , now is the day of saluation , And there is a great day of thy wrath , which no man shal be able to stand in ; And there are euill dayes before , and therfore thou warnest vs , and armest vs , Take vnto you the whole armor of God , that you may be able to stand in the euill day . So far thē our daies must be criticall to vs , as that by consideration of them , we may make a Iudgment of our spiritual health ; for that is the crisis of our bodily health ; Thy beloued seruant S. Ioh. wishes to Gaius , that he may prosper in his health so as his soule prospers ; ●or if the Soule be leane , the marrow of the Body is but water ; if the Soule wither , the verdure and the good estate of the body , is but an i●lusion , & the goodliest man , a fearefull ghost . Shall wee , O my God , determine our thoughts , & shal we neuer determin our disputations vpon our Climaclericall yeares , for particular men , and periodical yeres , for the life of states and kingdoms , and neuer cōsider these in our long life , & our interest in the euerlasting kingdome ? We haue exercisd our curiosity in obseruing that Adam ● the eldest of the eldest world , died in his climactericall yere , & Sem the eldest son of the next world , in his ; Abrahā the father of the faithfull , in his , & the blessed Virgin Mary , the garden , where the root of faith grew , in hers . But they whose Climacteriques wee obserue , imployd their obseruation vpon their critical dayes , the working of thy promise of a Messias vpō them . And shall we , O my God , make lesse vse of those dayes , who haue more of thē ? We● who haue not only the day of the Prophets , the first dayes , but the last daies , in which thou hast spoken vnto vs , by thy Son ? We are the children of the day , for thou hast shind in as ful a Noone , vpon vs , as vpon the Thessaloniās ; They who were of the night , ( a Night , which they had superinduc'd vpon thēselues ) the Pharises ; pretended , That if they had bin in their Fathers daies , ( those indicatory , and iudicatory , those Criticall dayes ) they would not haue been partakers of the bloud of the Prophets ; And shal we who are in the day , these Daies , not of the Prophets , but of the Son , stone those Prophets againe , and crucifie that Son againe , for all those euident Indications , and critical Iudicatures which are afforded vs ? Those opposd aduersaries of thy Son , the pharises with the Herodiās , watch'd a Critical day ; Then whē the State was incensd against him , they came to tempt him in the dāgerous question of Tribute . They left him , & that day was the Critical day to the Saduces , The same day , saies thy Spirit , in thy word , the Saduces came to him to question him about the Resurrection ; and them hee silenc'd ; They left him ; & this was the Criticall day for the Scribe , expert in the Law , who thoght himselfe learneder then the Herodian , the Pharise or Saduce ; and he tēpted him about the great Commādement ; & him● Christ left without power of replying . When all was done , & that they wēt about to begin their circle of vexation , and tentation again , Christ silēces them so , that , as they had taken their Criticall dayes , to come , in That , and in that day , so Christ imposes a Criticall day vpon them , From that day forth , saies thy Spirit , no man durst aske him any more questions . This , O my God , my most blessed God , is a fearefull Crisis , a fearefull Indication , when we will study , and seeke , and finde , what dayes are fittest to forsake thee in ; To say , Now , Religion is in a Neutralitie in the world , and this is my day , the day of libertie ; Now I may make new friends by changing my old religiō , and this is my day , the day of aduancement . But O my God , with thy seruāt Iacobs holy boldnes , who though thou lamedst him , would not let thee goe , till thou hadst giuen him a blessing , Though thou haue laid me vpon my hearse , yet thou shalt not depart from mee , from this bed , till thou haue giuen me a Crisis , a Iudgment vpon my selfe this day . Since a day is as a thousand yeres with thee , Let , O Lord , a day , be as a weeke to me ; and in this one , let me cōsider seuen daies , seuen critical daies , and iudge my selfe , that I be not iudged by thee . First , this is the day of thy visitatiō , thy comming to me ; and would I looke to be welcome to thee , and not entertaine thee ●n thy comming to me ? We measure not the visitations of great persons , by their apparel , by their equipage , by the solemnity of their cōming , but by their very cōming ; and therefore , howsoeuer thou come , it is a Crisis to me , that thou wouldest not loose me , who seekst me by any means . This leads me from my first day , thy visitation by sicknes , to a secōd , to th● light , and testimony of my Conscience . There I haue an euening , & a morning ; a sad guiltinesse in my soule , but yet a cheerfull rising of thy Son to● Thy Euenings and Mornings made dayes in the Creation , and there is no mention of Nights ; My sadnesses for sins are euenings , but they determin not in night , but deliuer me ouer to the day , the day of a Conscience deiected , but then rectified , accused , but then ●cquitted , by thee , by him , who speaks thy word , & who is thy word , thy Son. From this day , the Crisis and examinatiō of my Cōscience , breaks out my third day , my day of preparing , & fitting my selfe for a more especial receiuing of thy Sonne , in his institutiō of the Sacrament : In which day though th●re be many dark passages , & slippry steps , to them who wil entangle , and endanger themselues , in vnnecessary disputations , yet there are light houres inough , for any man , ●o goe his whole iourney intended by thee ; to know , that that Bread and Wine , is not more really assimilated to my body , & to my blood , then the Body and blood of thy Sonne , is communicated to me in that action , and participation of that bread , and that wine . And hauing , O my God , walkd with thee these three dayes , The day of thy visitation , the day of my Conscience , The day of preparing for this seale of Reconciliation , I am the lesse afraid of the clouds or storms of my fourth day , the day of my dissolution & trāsmigratiō frō hence . Nothing deserues the name of happines , that makes the remēbrāce of death bitter ; And O death 〈◊〉 bitter is the remēbrance of thee , to a man that liues at rest , in his possessions , the Man that hath Nothing to vexe him , yea vnto him , that is able to receiue meat ? Therefore hast thou , O my God , made this sicknes , in which I am not able to receiue meate , my fasting day , my Eue , to this great festiual , my dissolution . And this day of death shall deliuer me ouer to my fift day , the day of my Resurrection ; for how long a day soeuer thou make that day in the graue , yet there is no day between that , and the Resurrection . Then wee shall all bee inuested , reapparelled in our owne bodies ; but they who haue made iust vse of their former dayes , be super-inuested with glorie , wheras the others , condemned to their olde clothes , their sinfull bodies , shall haue Nothing added , but immortalitie to torment . And this day of awaking me , and reinuesting my Soule , in my body , and my body in the body of Christ , shall present mee , Bodie , and Soule , to my sixt day , The day of Iudgement ; which is truely , and most literally , the Critical , the Decretory day ; both because all Iudgement shall bee manifested to me then , and I shall assist in iudging the world then● and because then , that Iudgement shall declare to me , and possesse mee of my Seuenth day , my Euerlasting Saboth in thy rest , th● glory , thy ioy , thy sight , thy s●lfe ; and where I shall liue as long , without reckning any more Dayes after , as thy Sonne , and thy Holy Spirit liued with thee , before you three made any Dayes in the Creation . 14. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who though thou didst permit darknesse to be before light in the Creation , yet in the making of light , didst so multiplie that light , as that it enlightned not the day only , but the night too , though thou haue suffered some dimnesse , some clouds of sadnesse & disconsolatenesse to shed themselues vpon my soule , I humbly blesse and thankfully glorifie thy holy name , that thou hast afforded mee the light of thy spirit , against which the prince of darkenesse cannot preuaile , nor hinder his illumination of our darkest nights , of our saddest thoughts . Euen the visitation of thy most blessed Spirit , vpon the blessed Virgin , is called an ouershadowing : There wa● the presence of the Holy Ghost , the fountaine of all light , and yet an ouershadowing ; Nay except there were some light , there could bee no shadow . Let thy mercifull prouidence so gouerne all in this sicknesse , that I neuer fall into vtter darknesse , ignorance of thee , or inconsideration of my selfe ; and let those shadowes which doe fall vpon mee , faintnesses of Spirit , and condemnations of my selfe , bee ouercome by the power of thine irresistible light , the God of consolation ; that when those shadowes haue done their office vpon mee , to let me see , that of my selfe I should fall into irrecouerable darknesse , thy spirit may doe his office vpon those shadowes , and disperse them , and establish mee in so bright a day here , as may bee a Criticall day to me , a day wherein , and whereby I may giue thy Iudgement vpon my selfe , and that the words of thy sonne , spoken to his Apostles , may reflect vpon me , B●hold , I am with you alwaies , euen to the end of the world . Intereà insomnes noctes Ego duco , Diesque . I sleepe not day nor night . 15. MEDITATION . NAturall Men haue cōceiued a two fold vse of sleepe ; That it is a refreshing of the body in this life ; That it is a preparing of the soule for the next ; That it is a feast , and it is the Grace at that feast ; That it is our recreation , and cheeres vs , and it is our Catechisme , and instructs vs ; wee lie downe in a hope , that wee shall rise the stronger ; and we lie downe in a knowledge , that wee may rise no more . Sleepe is an Opiate which giues vs rest , but such an Opiate , as perchance , being vnder it , we shall wake no more . But though naturall men , who haue induced secondary and figuratiue considerations , haue found out this second , this emblematicall vse of sleepe , that it should be a representation of death , God , who wrought and perfected his worke , before Nature began , ( for Nature was but his apprentice , to learne in the first seuen daies , and now is his foreman , and works next vnder him ) God , I say , intended sleepe onely for the refreshing of man by bodily rest , and not for a figure of death , for he intended not death it selfe then . But Man hauing induced death vpon himselfe , God hath taken Mans Creature , death , into his hand , and mended it ; and whereas it hath in it selfe a fearefull forme and aspect , so that Man is afraid of his own Creature , God presents it to him , in a familiar , in an assiduous , in an agreeable , and acceptable forme , in sleepe , that so when hee awakes from sleepe , and saies to himselfe , shall I bee no otherwise when I am dead , than I was euen now , when I was asleep , hee may bee ashamed of his waking dreames , and of his Melancholique fancying out a hor●id and an affrightfull figure of that death which is so like sleepe . As then wee need sleepe to liue out our threescore and ten yeeres , so we need death , to liue that life which we cannot out-liue . And as death being our enemie , God allowes vs to defend our selues against it ( for wee victuall ou● selues against death , twice euery day , as often as we eat ) so God hauing so sweetned death vnto vs , as hee hath in sleepe , wee put our selues into our Enemies hands once euery day ; so farre , as sleepe is death ; and sleepe is as much death , as meat is life . This then is the misery of my sicknesse , That death as it is produced from mee , and is mine owne Creature , is now before mine Eies , but in that forme , in which God hath mollified it to vs , and made it acceptable , in sleepe , I cannot see it : how many prisoners , who haue euen hollowed themselues their graues vpon that Earth , on which they haue lion long vnder heauie fetters , yet at this houre are ●sleepe , though they bee yet working vpon their owne graues , by their owne waight ? hee that hath seene his friend die to day , or knowes hee shall see it to morrow , yet will sinke into a sleepe betweene . I cannot ; and oh , if I be entring now into Eternitie , where there shall bee no more distinction of houres , why is it al my businesse now to tell Clocks ? why is none of the heauinesse of my heart , dispensed into mine Eie-lids , ●hat they might fall as my heart doth ? And why , since I haue lo●t my delight in all obiects , cannot I discontinue t●e facultie of seeing them , by closing mine Ei●s in sleepe ? But why rather being entring into that presence , where I shall wake continually and neuer sleepe more , doe I not interpret my continuall waking here , to bee a p●rasceue , and a preparation to that ? 15. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , I know , ( for thou hast said it ) That he that keepeth Israel , shall neither slumber , nor sleepe : But shall not that Israel , ouer whom thou watchest , sleepe ? I know , ( for thou hast said it ) that there are Men , whose damnation sleepeth not ; but shall not they to whom thou art Saluation , sleepe ? or wilt thou take from them that euidence , and that testimony , that they are thy Israel , or thou their saluation ? Thou giuest thy beloued sleepe . Shall I lacke that seale of thy loue ? You shall lie downe , and none shall make you afraid ; shal I bee outlawd from that protection ? Ionas slept in one dangerous storme , and thy blessed Sonne in another . Shall I haue no vse , no benefit , no application of those great Examples ? Lord , if hee sleepe , he shall doe well , say thy Sonnes Disciples to him , of Lazarus ; And shall there bee no roome , for that Argument in me ? or shall I bee open to the contrary ? If I sleepe not , shall I not bee well , in their sense ? Let me not , O my God , take this too precisely , too literally : There is that neither day nor night seeth sleepe with his eies , saies thy wise seruant Solomon ; and whether hee speake that of worldly Men , or of Men that seeke wisdome , whether in iustification or condemnation of their watchfulnesse , we can not tell : wee can t●ll , That there are men , that cannot sleepe , till they haue done mischiefe , and ●hen they can ; and wee can tell that the rich man cannot sleepe , because his abundance will not let him . The tares were sowen when the husbandmen were asleepe ; And the elders thought it a probable excuse , a credible lie , that the wa●chmen which kept the Sepulchre , should say , that the bodie of thy son was stolne away , when they were asleepe : Since thy blessed Sonne rebuked his Disciples for sleeping , shall I murmure because I doe not sleepe ? If Samson had slept any longer in Gaza , he had beene taken ; And when he did sleepe longer with Delilah , he was taken . Sleepe is as often taken for naturall death in thy Scriptures , as for naturall rest . Nay sometimes sleepe ha●h so heauy a sense , as to bee taken for sinne it selfe , as well as for the punishment of sinne , Death . Much comfort is not in much sleepe , when the most fearefull and most irreuocable Malediction is presen●ed by thee , in a perpetuall sleepe . I will make their feasts , and I will make them drunke , and they shall sleepe a perpetuall sleepe , and not wake . I must therefore , O my God , looke farther , than into the very act of sleeping , before I mis-interpret my waking : for since I finde thy whole hand light , shall any finger of that hand seeme heauy ? since the whole sicknesse is thy Physicke , shall any accident in it , bee my poison , by my murmuring ? The name of Watchmen belongs to our profession ; Thy Prophets are not onely seers , indued with a power of seeing , able to see , but Watchmen , euermore in the Act of seeing . And therefore giue me leaue , O my blessed God , to inuert the words of thy Sonnes Spouse ; she said , I sleepe , but my heart waketh ; I say , I wake , but my heart sleepeth ; My body is in a sicke wearinesse , but my soule in a peacefull rest with thee ; and as our eies , in our health , see not the Aire , that is next them , nor the fire , nor the spheares , nor stop vpon any thing , till they come to starres , so my eies , that are open , see nothing of this world , but passe through all that , and fix themselues vpon thy peace , and ioy , and glory aboue . Almost as soone as thy Apostle had said , Let vs not sleepe , lest we should be too much discomforted , if we did , he saies againe , whether we wake or sleepe , let vs liue together with Christ. Though then this absence of sleepe , may argue the presence of death ( the Originall may exclude the Copie , the life , the picture ) yet this gentle sleepe , and rest of my soule betroths mee to thee , to whom I shall bee married indissolubly , though by this way of dissolution . 15. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who art able to make , and dost make the sicke bed of thy seruants , Chappels of ease to them , and the dreames of thy seruants , Prayers , and Meditations vpon thee , let not this continuall watch●ulnes of mine , this inabilitie to sleepe , which thou hast laid vpon mee , bee any disquiet , or discomfort to me , but rather an argument , that thou wouldest not haue me sleepe in thy presence . What it may indicate or signifie , concerning the state of my body , let them consider to whom that consideration belongs ; doe thou , who onely art the Physitian of my soule , tell her , that thou wilt afford her such defensatiues as that shee shall wake euer towards thee , and yet euer sleepe in thee ; & that through all this sicknesse , thou wilt either preserue mine vnderstanding , from all decaies and distractions , which these watchings might occasion , or that thou wilt reckon , and account with me , from before those violencies , and not call any peece of my sicknesse , a sinne . It ●s a heauy , and indelible sinne , that I brought into the world wi●h me● It is a heauy and innu●merable multitude of sins , which I haue heaped vp since ; I haue sinned behind thy backe ( if that can be done ) by wilfull absteining from thy Congregations , and omitting thy seruice , and I haue sinned before thy face , in my hypocrisies in Prayer , in my ostentation , and the mingling a respect of my selfe , in preaching thy Word ; I haue sinned in my fasting by repining , when a penurious fortune hath kept mee low ; And I haue sinned euen in that fulnesse , when I haue been at thy table , by a negligent examination , by a wilfull preuarication , in receiuing that heauenly food and Physicke . But , as I know , O my gracious God , that for all those sinnes committed since , yet thou wilt consider me , as I was in thy purpose , when thou wrotest my name in the booke of Life , in mine Election : so into what deuiations so●uer I stray , and wander , by occasion of this sicknes , O God , returne thou to that Minute , wherein thou wast pleased with me , and consider me in that condition . 16. Et properare meum clamant , è Turre propinqua , Obstreperae Campanae aliorum in funere , funus . From the bels of the church adioyning , I am daily remembred of my buriall in the funeralls of others . 16. MEDITATION . WE haue a Conuenient Author , who writ a Discourse of Bells when hee was Prisoner in Turky . How would hee haue enlarged himselfe , if he had beene my fellow Prisoner in this sicke bed , so neere to that steeple , which neuer ceases , no more than the harmony of the spheres , but is more heard . When the Turkes tooke Constantinople , they melted the Bells into Ordnance ; I haue heard both Bells and Ordnance , but neuer been so much affected with those , as with these Bells . I haue lien neere a steeple , in which there are said to be more than thirty Bels ; And neere another , where there is one so bigge , as that the Clapper is said to weigh more than six hundred pound ● yet neuer so affected as here . Here the Bells can scarse solemnise the funerall of any person , but that I knew him , or knew that hee was my Neighbour : we dwelt in houses neere to one another before , but now hee is gone into that house , into which I must follow him . There is a way of correcting the Children of great persons , that other Children are corrected in their behalfe , and in their names , and this workes vpon them , who indeed had more des●rued it . And when these Bells tell me , that now one , and now another is buried , must not I acknowledge , that they haue the correction due to me , and paid the debt that I owe ? There is a story of a Bell in a Monastery , which , when any of the house was sicke to death , rung alwaies voluntarily , and they knew the ineuitablenesse of the danger by that . It rung once , when no man was sick ; but the next day one of the house , fell from the steeple , and died , and the Bell held the reputation of a Prophet still . If these Bells that warne to a Funerall now , were appropriated to none , may not I , by the houre of the funerall , supply ? How many men that stand at an execution , if they would aske , for what dies that Man , should heare their owne faults condemned , and see themselues executed , by Atturney ? We scarce heare of any man preferred , but wee thinke of our selues , that wee might very well haue beene that Man ; Why might not I haue beene that Man , that is carried to his graue now ? Could I ●it my selfe , to stand , or sit in any Mans place , & not to lie in any mans graue ? I may lacke much of the good parts of the meanest , but I l●cke nothing of the mortality of the weakest ; Th●y may haue acquired better abilities than I , but I was borne to as many infirmities as they . To be an incumbent by lying down in a graue , to be a Doctor by teaching Morti●ication by Example , by dying , though I may haue seniors , others may be elder than I , yet I haue proceeded apace in a good Vniuersity , and gone a great way in a little time by the furtherance of a vehement feuer ; and whomsoeuer these Bells bring to the ground to day , if hee and I had beene compared yesterday , perchance I should haue been thought likelier to come to this preferment , then , than he . God hath kept the power of death in his owne hands , lest any Man should bribe death . If man knew the gaine of death , the ease of death , he would solicite , he would prouoke death to assist him , by any ●and , which he might vse . But as when men see many of their owne professions preferd , it ministers a hope that that may light vpon them ; so when these hourely Bells tell me of so many funerals of men like me , it presents , if not a desire that it may , yet a comfort whensoeuer mine shall come . 16. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , I doe not expostulate with thee , but with them , who dare doe that : Who dare expostulate with thee , when in the voice of thy Church , thou giuest allowance , to this Ceremony of Bells at funeralls . Is it enough to refuse it , because it was in vse amongst the Gentiles ? so were funeralls too . Is it because some abuses may haue crept in , amongst Christians ? Is that enough , that their ringing hath been said to driue away euill spirits ? Truly , that is so farre true , as that the euill spirit is vehemently vexed in their ringing , therefore , because that action brings the Congregation together , and vnites God and his people , to the destruction of that Kingdome , which the euill spirit vsurps . In the first institution of thy Church , in this world , in the foundation of thy Militant Church , amongst the Iewes , thou didst appoint the calling of the assembly in , to bee by Trumpet , and when they were in , then thou gauest them the sound of Bells , in the garment of thy Priest ● In the Triumphant Church , thou imploiest both too , but in an inuerted Order , we enter into the Triumphant Church by the sound of Bells , ( for we enter when we die ; ) And then we receiue our further edification , or consummation , by the sound of Trumpets , at the Resurrection . The sound of thy Trumpets thou didst impart to secular a●d ciuill vses too , but the sound of Bells onely to sacred ; Lord let not vs breake the Communion of Saints , in that which was intended for the aduancement of it ; let not that pull vs asunder frō one another , which was intended for the assembling of vs , in the Militant , and associating of vs to the Triumphant Church . But he for whose funerall these Bells ring now , was at home , at his iournies end , yesterday ; why ring they now ? A Man , that is a world , is all the things in the world ; Hee is an Army , and when an Army marches , the Vaunt may lodge to night , where the Reare comes not till to morrow . A man extends to his Act and to his example ; to that which he does , and that which he teaches ; so doe those things that concerne him , so doe these bells ; That which rung yesterday , was to conuay him out of the world , in his vaunt , in his soule● that which rung to day , was to bring him in his Reare , in his body , to the Church ; And this continuing of ringing after his entring , is to bring him to mee in the application . Where I lie , I could heare the Psalme , and did ioine with the Congregation in it ; but I could not heare the Sermon , and these latter bells are a repetition Sermon to mee . But , O my God , my God , doe I , that haue this feauer , need other remembrances of my Mortalitie ? Is not mine owne hollow voice , voice enough to pronounce that to me ? Need I looke vpon a Deaths-head in a Ring , that haue one in my face ? or goe for death to my Neighbours house , that haue him in my bosome ? We cannot , wee cannot , O my God , take in too many helps for religious duties ; I know I cannot haue any better Image of thee , than thy Sonne , nor any better Image of him , than his Gospell : yet must not I , with thanks confesse to thee , that some historicall pictures of his , haue sometimes put mee vpon better Meditations than otherwise I should haue fallen vpon ? I know thy Church needed not to haue taken in from Iew or Gentile , any supplies for the exaltation of thy glory , or our deuotion ; of absolute necessitie I know ●hee needed not ; But yet wee owe thee our thanks , that thou hast giuen her leaue to doe so , and that as in making vs Christians , thou diddest not destroy that which wee were before , naturall men , so in the exalting of our religious deuotions no● we are Christians , thou hast beene pleased to continue to vs those assistances which did worke vpon the affections of naturall men before : for thou louest a good man , as thou louest a good Christian : and though Grace bee meerely from thee , yet thou doest not plant Grace but in good natures . 16. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who hauing consecrated our liuing bodies , to thine owne Spirit , and made vs Temples of the holy Ghost , doest also requir● a respect to bee giuen to these Temples , euen when the Priest is gone out of them , To these bodies , when the soule is departed from them ; I blesse , and glorifie thy Name , that as thou takest care in our life , of euery haire of our head , so doest thou also of euery graine of ashes after our death . Neither doest thou only doe good to vs all , in life and death , but also wouldest haue vs doe good to one another , as in a holy life , so in those things which accompanie our death : In that Contemplation I make account that I heare this dead brother of ours , who is now carried out to his buriall , to speake to mee , and to preach my funerall Sermon , in the voice of these Bells . In him , O God , thou hast accomplished to mee , euen the request of Diues to Abraham ; Thou hast sent one from the dead to speake vnto mee . He speakes to mee aloud from that steeple ; hee whispers to mee at these Curtaines , and hee speaks thy words ; Blessed are the dead which die in the Lord , from henceforth . Let this praier therfore , O my God , be as my last gaspe , my expiring , my dying in thee ; That if this bee the houre of my transmigration , I may die the death of a sinner , drowned in my sinnes , in the bloud of thy Sonne ; And if I liue longer , yet I may now die the death of the righteous , die to sinne ; which death is a resurrection to a new life . Thou killest and thou giuest life : which soeuer comes , it comes from thee ; which way soeuer it comes , let mee come to thee . 17. Nunc lento sonitu dicunt , Morieris . Now , this Bell tolling softly for another , saies to me , Thou must die . 17. MEDITATION . PErchance hee for whom this Bell tolls , may bee so ill , as that he knowes not it tolls for him ; And perchance I may thinke my selfe so much better than I am , as that they who are about mee , and see my state , may haue caused it to toll for mee , and I know not that . The Church is Catholike , vniuersall , so are all her Actions , All that she does , belongs to all . When she baptizes a child , that action concernes mee ; for that child is thereby connected to that Head which is my Head too , and engraffe● into that body , whereof I am a member . And when she buries a Man , that action concernes me ; All mankinde is of one Author ; and is one volume ; when one Man dies , one Chapter is not torne out of the booke , but translated into a better language ; and euery Chapter must be so translated ; God emploies seuerall translators ; some peeces are translated by Age , some by sicknesse , some by warre , some by iustice ; but Gods hand is in euery translation ; and his hand shall binde vp all our scattered leaues againe , for that Librarie where euery booke shall lie open to one another : As therefore the Bell that rings to a Sermon , calls not vpon the Preacher onely , but vpon the Congregation to come ; so this Bell calls vs all : but how much more mee , who am brought so neere the doore by this sicknesse . There was a contention as farre as a suite , ( in which both pietie and dignitie , religion , and estimation , were mingl●d ) which of the religious Orders should ring to praiers first in the Morning ; and it was determined , that they should ring first that rose earliest . If we vnderstand aright the dignitie of this Bell , that rolls for our euening prayer , wee would bee glad to make it ours , by rising early , in that application , that it might bee ours , as wel as his , whose indeed it is . The Bell doth toll for him that thinkes it doth ; and though it intermit againe , yet from that minute , that that occasion wrought vpon him , hee is vnited to God. Who casts not vp his Eie to the Sunne when it rises ? but who takes off his Eie from a Com●t , when that breakes out ? who bends not his eare to any bell , which vpon any occasion rings ? but who can remoue it from that bell , which is passing a peece of himselfe out of this world ? No Man is an Iland , intire of it selfe ; euery man is a peece of the Continent , a part of the maine ; if a Clod bee washed away by the Sea , Europe is the l●sse , as well as if a Promontorie were , as well as if a Mannor of thy friends , or of thine owne were ; Any Mans death diminishes me , because I am inuolued in Mankinde ; And therefore neuer send to know for whom the bell tolls ; It tolls for thee . Neither can we call this a begging of Miserie or a borrowing of Miserie , as though we were not miserable enough of our selues , but must fe●ch in more from the next house , in taking vpon vs the Miserie of our Neighbours . Truly it were an excusable couetousnesse if wee did ; for affliction is a treasure , and ●carce any Man hath enough of it . No Man hath affliction enough , that is not matured , and ripened by it , and mad●●it for God by that affliction . If a Man carry treasure in bullion , or in a wedge of gold , and haue none coined into currant Monies , his treasure will not defray him as he trauells . Tribulation is Treasure in the nature of it , but it is not currant money in the vse of it , except wee get nearer and nearer our home , heauen , by it . Another Man may be sicke too , and sicke to death , and this af●liction may lie in his bowels , as gold in a Mine , and be of no vse to him● but this bell that tels mee of his af●liction , digs out , and applies that gold to mee ● if by this consideration of anothers danger , I take min● owne into Contemplation , and so secure my selfe , by making my recourse to my God , who is our onely securitie . 17. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , Is this one of thy waies , of drawing light out of darknesse , To make him for whom this bell tolls , now in this dimnesse of his sight , to become a superintendent , an ouerseer , a Bishop , to as many as heare his voice , in this bell , and to giue vs a confirmation in this action ? Is this one of thy waies to raise strength out of weaknesse , to make him who cannot rise from his bed , nor stirre in his bed , come home to me , and in this sound , giue mee the strength of healthy and vigorous instructions ? O my God , my God , what Thunder is not a well-tuned Cymball , what hoarsenesse , what harshnesse is not a cleare Organ , if thou bee pleased to set thy voice to it ? and what Organ is not well plaied on , if thy hand bee vpon it ? Thy voice , thy hand is in this sound , and in this one sound , I heare this whole Consort . I heare thy Iaacob call vnto his sonnes , and ●ay ; Gather your selues together , that I may tell you what shall befall you in the last daies : He saies , That which I am now , you must bee then . I heare thy Moses telling mee , and all within the compasse of this sound , This is the blessing wherewith I blesse you before my death ; This , that before your death , you would consider your owne in mine . I heare thy Prophet saying to Ezechias , Set thy house in order , for thou shalt die , and not liue ; Hee makes vs of his familie , and calls this a setting of his house in order , to compose vs to the meditation of death . I heare thy Apostle saying , I thinke it meet to put ●ou in remembrance , knowing that shortly I must goe out of this Tabernacle . This is the publishing of his will , & this bell is our legacie , the applying of his present condition to our vse . I heare that which makes al sounds musique , and all musique perfit ; I heare thy Sonne himselfe ●aying , Let not your hearts be troubled ● Only I heare this change , that whereas thy Sonne saies there , I goe to prepare a place for you , this man in thi● sound saies , I send to prepare you for a place , for a graue . But , O my God , my God , since heauen is glory and ioy , why doe not glorious and ioyfull things leade vs , induce vs to heauen ? Thy legacies in thy first will , in thy old Testament were plentie and victorie ; Wine and Oile , Milke and Honie , alliances of friends , ruine of enemies , peacefull hearts , & cheerefull countenances , and by these galleries thou broughtest them into thy bed-chamber , by these glories and ioies , to the ioies and glories of heauen . Why hast thou changed thine old way , and carried vs , by the waies of discipline and mortification , by the waies of mourning and lamentation , by the waies of miserable ends , and miserable anticipations of those miseries , in appropriating the exemplar miseries of others to our selues , and vsurping vpon their miseries , as our owne , to our owne preiudice ? Is the glory of heauen no perfecter in it selfe , but that it needs a foile of depression and ingloriousnesse in this world , to set it off ? Is the ioy of heauen no perfecter in it selfe , but that it needs the sourenesse of this life to giue it a taste ? Is that ioy and that glory but a comparatiue glory and a comparatiue ioy ? not such in it selfe , but such in comparison of the ioilesnesse and the ingloriousnesse of this world ? I know , my God , it is farre , farre otherwise . As thou thy selfe , who art all , art made of no substances , so the ioyes & glory which are with thee , are made of none of these circumstances ; Essentiall ioy , and glory Essentiall . But why then , my God , wilt thou not beginne them here ? pardon O God , this vnthankfull rashnesse ; I that aske why thou doest not , finde euen now in my selfe , that thou doest ; such ioy , such glory , as that I conclude vpon my selfe , vpon all , They that finde not ioy in their sorrowes , glory in their deiections in this world , are in a fearefull danger of missing both in the next . 17. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who hast beene pleased to speake to vs , not onely in the voice of Nature , who speakes in our hearts , and of thy word , which speakes to our eares , but in the speech of speechlesse Creatures , in Balaams Asse , in the speech of vnbeleeuing men , in the confession of Pilate , in the speech of the Deuill himselfe , in the recognition and attestation of thy Sonne , I humbly accept thy voice , in the sound of this sad and funerall bell . And first , I blessethy glorious name , that in this sound and voice , I can heare thy instructions , in another mans to consider mine owne condition ; and to know , that this bell which tolls for another , before it come to ring out , may take in me too . As death is the wages of sinne , it is due to me● ; As death is the end of sicknesse , it belongs to mee ; And though so disobedient a seruant as I , may be afraid to die , yet to so mercifull a Master as thou , I cannot be afraid to come ; And therefore , into thy hands , O my God , I commend my spirit ; A surrender , which I know thou wilt accept , whether I liue or die ; for thy seruant Dauid made it , when he put himselfe into thy protection for his life ; and thy blessed Sonne made it , when hee deliuered vp his soule at his death ; declare thou thy will vpon mee , O Lord , for life or death , in thy time ; receiue my surrender of my selfe now , Into thy hands , O Lord , I commend my spirit . And being thus , O my God , prepared by thy correction , mellowed by thy chastisement , and conformed to thy will , by thy Spirit , hauing receiued thy pardon for my soule , and asking no reprieue for my body , I am bold , O Lord , to bend my prayers to thee , for his assistance , the voice of whose bell hath called mee to this deuotion . Lay hold vpon his soule , O God , till that soule haue throughly considered his account , and how few minutes soeuer it haue to remaine in that body , let the power of thy Spirit recompence the shortnesse of time , and perfect his account , before he passe away : present his sinnes so to him , as that he may know what thou forgiuest , & not doubt of thy forgiuenesse ; let him stop vpon the infinitenesse of those sinnes , but dwell vpon the infinitenesse of thy Mercy : let him discerne his owne demerits , but wrap himselfe vp in the merits of thy Sonne , Christ Iesus : Breath inward comforts to his heart , and affoord him the power of giuing such outward testimonies thereof , as all that are about him may deriue comforts from thence , and haue this edification , euen in this dissolution , that though the body be going the way o● all flesh , yet that soule is going the way of all Saints . When thy Sonne cried out vpon the Crosse , My God , my God , Why hast thou forsaken me ? he spake not so much in his owne Person , as in the person of the Church , and of his afflicted members , who in deep distresses might feare thy forsaking . This patient , O most blessed God , is one of them ; In his behalfe , and in his name , heare thy Sonne crying to thee , My God , my God , Why hast thou forsaken me ? and forsake him not ; but with thy left hand lay his body in the graue , ( if that bee ●hy determination vpon him ) and with thy right hand receiue his soule into thy Kingdome , and vnite him & vs in one Cōmunion of Saints . Amen . 18. — At inde Mortuus es , Sonitu celeri , pulsuque agitato . The bell rings out , and tells me in him , that I am dead . 18. MEDITATION . THe Bell rings out ; the pulse thereof is changed ; the tolling was a faint , and intermitting pulse , vpon one side ; this stronger , and argues more and better life . Hi● soule is gone out ; and as a Man who had a lease of 1000. yeeres after the expiration of a short one , or an inheritance after the life of a Man in a Consumption , he is now entred into the possession of his better estate . His soule is gone ; whither ? Who saw it come in , or who saw it goe out ? No body ; yet euery body is sure , he had one , and hath none . If I will aske meere Philosophers , what the soule is , I shall finde amongst them , that will tell me , it is nothing , but the temperament and harmony , and iust and equall composition of the Elements in the body , which produces all those faculties which we ascribe to the soule ; and so , in it selfe is nothing , no seperable substance , that ouer-liues the body . They see the soule is nothing else in other Creatures , and they affect an impious humilitie , to think as low of Man. But if my soule were no more than the soule of a beast , I could not thinke so ; that soule that can reflect vpon it selfe , consider it selfe , is more than so . If I will aske , not meere Philosophers , but mixt Men , Philosophicall Diuines , how the soule , being a separate substance , enters into Man , I shall finde some that will tell me , that it is by generation , & procreation from parents , because they thinke it hard , to charge th● soule with the guiltinesse of Originall sinne , if the soule were infused into a body , in which it must necessarily grow foule , and contract originall sinne , whether it will or no ; and I shall finde some that will tell mee , that it is by immediate infusion from God , because they think it hard , to maintaine an immortality in such a soule , as should be begotten , and deriued with the body frō Mortall parents . If I will aske , not a few men , but almost whole bodies , whole Churches , what becomes of the soules of the righteous , at the departing thereof from the body , I shall bee told by some , That they attend an expiation , a purification in a place of torment ; By some , that they attend the fruition of the sight of God , in a place of rest ; but yet , but of expectation ; By some , that they passe to an immediate possession of the presence of God. S. Augustine studied the Nature of the soule , as much as any thing , but the saluation of the soule ; and he sent an expresse Messenger to Saint Hierome , to consult of some things concerning the soule : But he satisfies himselfe with this : Let the departure of my soule to saluation be euident to my faith , and I care the lesse , how darke the entrance of my soule , into my body , bee to my reason . It is the going out , more than the comming in , that concernes vs. This soule , this Bell tells me is gone out ; Whither ? Who shall tell mee that ? I know not who it is ; much lesse what he was ; The condition of the Man , and the course of his life , which should tell mee whither hee is gone , I know not . I was not there , in his sicknesse , nor at his death ; I saw not his way , nor his end , nor can a●ke them● who did , thereby to conclude , or argue , whither he is gone . But yet I haue one neerer mee than all these ; mine owne Charity ; I aske that ; & that tels me , He is gone to euerlasting rest , and ioy , and glory : I owe him a good opinion ; it is but thankfull charity in mee , because I receiued benefit and instruction from him when his Bell told : and I , being made the fitter to pray , by that disposition , wherein I was assisted by his occasion , did pray for him ; and I pray not without faith ; so I doe charitably , so I do faithfully beleeue , that that soule is gone to euerlasting rest , and ioy , and glory . But for the body , How poore a wretched thing is that ? wee cannot expresse it so fast , as it growes worse and worse . That body which scarce three minutes since was such a house , as that that soule , which made but one step from thence to Heauen , was scarse thorowly content , to leaue that for Heauen : that body hath lost the name of a dwelling house , because none dwels in it , and is making haste to lose the name of a body , and dissolue to putrefaction . Who would not bee affected to see a cleere & sweet Riuer in the Morning , grow a kennell of muddy land water by noone , and condemned to the saltnesse of the Sea by night ? And how lame a Picture , how faint a representation , is that , of the precipitatiō of mans body to dissolution ? Now all the parts built vp , and knit by a louely soule , now but a statue of clay , and now , these limbs melted off , as if that clay were but snow ● and now , the whole house is but a handfull of sand , so much dust , and but a pecke of Rubbidge , so much bone . If he , who , as this Bell tells mee , is gone now , were some excellent Arti●icer , who comes to him for a clocke , or for a garment now ? or for counsaile , if hee were a Lawyer ? If a Magistrate , for iustice ? Man before hee hath his immortall soule , hath a soule of sense , and a soule of vegitation before that : This immortall soule did not forbid other soules , to be in vs before , but when this soule departs , it carries all with it ; no more vegetation , no more sense : such a Mother in law is the Earth ● in respect of our naturall Mother ; in her wombe we grew ; and when she was deliuered of vs , wee were planted in some place , in some calling in the world ; In the wombe of the Earth , wee diminish , and when shee is deliuered of vs , our graue opened for another , wee are not transplanted , but transported , our dust blowne away with prophane dust , with euery wind . 18. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , if Expostulation bee too bold a word , doe thou mollifie it with another ; le● it be wonder in my selfe ; let it bee but probleme to others ; but let me aske , why wouldest thou not suffer those , that serue thee in holy seruices , to doe any office about the dead , nor assist at their funerall ? Thou hadst no Counsellor , thou needest none ; thou hast no Controller , thou admittest none Why doe I aske ? in Ceremoniall things ( as that was ) any conuenient reason is enough ; who can bee sure to propose that reason , that moued thee in the institution thereof ? I satisfie my selfe with this ; that in those times , the Gentiles were ouerfull , of an ouer-reuerent respect to the memory of the dead : a great part of the Idolatry of the Nations , flowed from that ; an ouer-amorous deuotion , an ouer-zealous celebrating , and ouer-studious preseruing of the memories , and the Pictures of some dead persons : And by the vaine glory of men , they entred into the world ; and their statues , and pictures contracted an opinion of diuinity , by age : that which was at first , but a picture of a friend , grew a God in time , as the wise man notes , They called them Gods , which were the worke of an ancient hand . And some haue assigned a certaine time , when a picture should come out of Minority , and bee at age , to bee a God , in 60. yeeres after it is made . Those Images of Men , that had life , and some Idols of other things , which neuer had any being , are by one common name , called promiscuously , dead , and for that the wise man reprehends the Idolatrer ; for health he praies to that which is weake , and for life he praies to that which is dead . Should we doe so , saies thy Prophet ; should we goe from the liuing to the dead ? So much ill then , being occasioned , by so much religious cōplement exhibited to the dead ; thou ô God , ( I think ) wouldest therefore inhibit thy principall holy seruants , from contributing any thing at all to this dangerous intimation of Idolatry ; and that the people might say , surely those dead men , are not so much to bee magnified , as men mistake , since God will not suffer his holy officers , so much as to touch them , not to see them . But those dangers being remoued , thou , O my God , dost certainly allow , that we should doe offices of piety to the dead , and that we should draw instructions to piety , from the dead . Is not this , O my God , a holy kinde of raising vp ●eed to my dead brother , if I , by the meditation of his death , produce a better life in my selfe ? It is the blessing vpon Reuben , Let Reuben liue , & not die , and let not his men be few ; let him propagate many . And it is a Malediction , That that dieth , let it die ; let it doe no good in dying : for Trees without fruit , thou by thy Apostle callst , twice dead . It is a second death , if none liue the better , by me , after my death , by the manner of my death . Therefore may I iustly thinke , that thou madest that a way to conuay to the Aegyptians , a feare of thee , and a feare of death , that there was not a house , where there was not one dead ; for therupon the Aegyptians said , we are all dea● men ; the death of others , should catechise vs● to death . Thy Sonne Christ Iesus is the first begotten of the dead ; he rises first , the eldest brother , and he is my Master in this science of death : but yet , for mee , I am a younger brother too , to this Man , who died now , and to euery man whom I see , or heare to die before mee , and all they are vshers to mee in this schoole of death . I take therefore that which thy seruant Dauids wife said to him , to bee said to me ; If thou saue not thy life to night , to morrow thou shalt bee slaine . If the death of this man worke not vpon mee now , I shall die worse , than if thou hadst not afforded me this helpe : for thou hast sent him in this bell to mee , as tho● didst send to the Angel● of Sardis , with commission to strengthen the things that remaine , and that are ready to die ; that in this weaknes of body , I migh● receiue spiritual streng●h , by these occasions . This is my strength , that whether thou say to mee , as thine Angell said to Gedeon ; Peace bee vnto thee , feare not , thou shalt not die , or whether thou say , as vnto Aaron , Thou shalt die there ; yet thou wil● preserue that which is ready to die , my soule , from the worst death , that of sinne . Zimrie died for his sinnes , saies thy Spirit , which he sinned in doing euill ; and in his sinne , which he did to make Israel sinne . For his sinnes , his many sinnes ; and then in his sinne , his particular sinne : for my sinnes I shall die , whensoeuer I die , for death is the wages of sinne ; but I shall die in my sinne , in that particular sinne of resisting thy spirit , if I apply not thy assistances . Doth it not call vs to a particular consideration , That thy blessed Sonne varies his forme of Commination , and aggrauates it in the variation , when hee saies to the Iewes , ( because they refused the light offered ) you shall die in your sinne ; And then when they proceeded to farther disputations , and vexations , and tentations , hee addes , you shall die in your sinnes ; he multiplies the former expressing , ●o a plurall . In this sinne ● and in all your sinnes ; doth not the resisting of thy particular helps at last , draw vpon vs the guiltinesse of all our former sinnes ? May not the neglecting of this sound ministred to mee in this mans death , bring mee to that miserie , as that I , whom the Lord of life loued so , as to die for me , shall die , and a Creature of mine owne shall be immortall ● that I shall die , and the worme of mine owne conscience shall neuer die ? 18. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , I haue a new occasion of thanks , and a new occasion of prayer to thee , from the ringing of this bell . Thou toldst me in the other voice , that I was mortall , and approaching to death ; In this I may heare thee say , that I am dead , in an irremediable , in an irrecouerable state for bodily health . If that bee thy language in this voice , how infinitely am I bound to thy heauenly Maiestie , for speaking so plainly vnto mee ? for euen that voice , that I must die now , is not the voice of a Iudge , that speaks by way of condemnation , but of a Physitian , that presents health in that : Thou presentest mee death as the cure of my disease , not as the exaltation of it ; if I mistake thy voice herein , if I ouer-runne thy pace , and preuent thy hand , and imagine death more instant vpon mee than thou hast bid him bee , yet the voice belongs to me ; I am dead , I was borne dead , and from the first laying of these mud-walls in my conception , they haue moldred away , and the whole course of life is but an actiue death . Whether this voice instruct mee , that I am a dead man now , or remember me , that I haue been a dead man all this while , I humbly thanke thee for speaking in this voice to my soule , and I hum●ly beseech thee also , to ●ccept my prayers in his behalfe , by whose occasion this voice , this sound is come to mee . ●or though hee bee by death transplanted to thee , and so in possession of inexpressible happinesse there , yet here vpon earth thou hast giuen vs such a portion of heauen , as that though men dispute , whether thy Saints in heauen doe know what we in earth in particular doe stand in need of , yet without all disputation , wee vpon earth doe know what thy Saints in heauen lacke yet , for the consummation of their happinesse ; and therefore thou hast affoorded vs the dignitie , that wee may pray for them . That therefore this soule now newly departed to thy Kingdome , may quickly returne to a io●full reunion to that body which it hath left , and that wee with it , may soone enioy the full consummation of all , in body and soule , I humbly beg at thy hand , O our most mercifull God , for thy Sonne Christ Iesus sake . That that blessed Sonne of thine , may haue the comsummation of his dignitie , by entring into his last office , the office of a Iudge , and may haue societie of humane bodies in heauen , as well as hee hath had euer of soules● And that as thou hatest sinne it selfe , thy hate to sinne may bee expressed in the abolishing of all instruments of sinne , The allurements of this world , and the world it selfe ; and all the temporarie r●uenges of sinne , the stings of sicknesse and of death ; and all the castles , and prisons , and monuments of sinne , in the graue . That time may bee swallowed vp in Eternitie , and hope swallowed in possession , and ends swallowed in infinitenesse , and all men ordained to saluation , in body and soule , b● one intire and euerlasting sacrifice to thee , where thou mayest receiue delight from them , and they glorie from thee , for euermore . Amen . 19. Oceano tandem emenso , aspicienda resurgit Terra ; vident , iustis , medici , iam cocta mederi se posse , indicijs . At last , the Physitians , after a long and stormie voyage , see land ; They haue so good signes of the con●oction of the disease , as that they may safely proceed to purge . 19. MEDITATION . ALl this while the Physitians themselues haue beene patients , patiently attending when they should see any land in this Sea , any earth , any cloud , any indication of concoction in these waters . Any disorder of mine , any pretermission of theirs , exalts the d●sease , accelerates the rages of it ; no diligence accelerates the concoction , the maturitie of the disease ; they must stay till the season of the sicknesse come , and till it be ripened of it selfe , and then they may put to their hand , to gather it , before it fall off , but they cannot hasten the ripening . Why should wee looke for it in a disease , which is the disorder , the discord , the irregularitie , the commotion , and rebellion of the body ? It were scarce a disease , if it could bee ordered , and made obedient to our times . Why should wee looke for that in disorder , in a disease , when we cannot haue it in Nature , who is so regular , and so pregnant , so forward to bring her worke to perfection , and to light ? yet we cannot awake the Iuly-flowers in Ianuarie , nor retard the flowers of the spring to Autumne . We cannot bid the fruits come in May , nor the leaues to sticke on in December . A woman that is weake , cannot put off her ninth moneth to a tenth , for her deliuerie , and say shee will stay till shee bee stronger ; nor a Queene cannot hasten it to a seuenth , that shee may bee ready for some other pleasure . Nature ( if w● looke for durable and vigorous effects ) will not admit preuentions , nor anticipations , nor obligations vpon her ; for they are precontracts , and she will bee left to her libertie . Nature would not be spurred , nor forced to mend her pace ; nor power , the power of man ; greatnesse lou●s not that kinde of violence neither● There are of them that will giue ● that will doe iustice , that will pardon , but they haue their owne seasons for al these , and h● that knowes not them , shall starue before that gift come , and ruine , before the Iustice , and dye before the pardon saue him : some tree beares no fruit , except much dung be laid about it , and Iustice comes not from some , till they bee richly manured : some trees require much visiting , much watring , much labour ; and some men giue not their fruits but vpon importunitie ; some trees require incision , and pruning , and lopping ; some men must bee intimidated and syndicated with Commissions , before they will deliuer the fruits of Iustice ; some trees require the early and the often accesse of the Sunne ; some men open not , but vpon the fauours and letters of Court mediation ; some trees must bee ●ousd and kept within doores ; some men locke vp , not onley their liber●litie , but their Iustice , and their compassion , till the sollicitation of a wife , or a sonne , or a friend , or a seruant turne the key . Reward is the season of one man , and importunitie of another ; feare the season of one man , and fauour of another ; friendship the season of one man , ●nd naturall affection of ●nother ; and hee that knowes not their seasons , nor cannot stay ●hem , must lose the ●ruits ; As Nature will not , so power and greatnesse will not bee put to change their seasons ; and shall wee looke for this Indulgence in a disease , or thinke to shake it off before it bee ripe ? All this while therefore , we are but vpon a defen●iue warre , and that is but a doubtfull state : Especially where they who are besieged doe know the best of their defences , and doe not know the worst of their enemies power ; when they cannot mend their works within , and the enemie can increase his numbers without ● O how many farre more miserable , and farre more wor●hy to be lesse miserable than I , are besieged with this sicknesse , and lacke their Sentinels , their Physitians to watch , and lacke their munition , their cordials to d●f●nd , and perish before ●●e ●nemies weaknesse might inuite them to sally , before the disease shew any declination , or admit any way of working vpon it selfe ? In me the siege is ●o farre slackned , as that we may come to fight , and so die in the field , if I die , and not in a prison . 19. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , Thou a●t a direct God , may I not say , a literall God , a God that wouldest bee vnderstood literally , and according to the plaine sense of all that thou saiest ? But thou art also ( Lord I intend it to thy glory , and let no prophane mis-interpreter abuse it to thy diminution ) thou art a figuratiue , a metaphoricall God too : A God in whose words there is such a height of figures , such voyages , such peregrinations to ●e●ch remo●e and precious metaphors , such extentions , such spreadings , such Curtaines of Allegories , such third Heauens of Hyperboles , so harmonious eloquutions , so retired and so reserued expressions , so commanding perswasions , so perswading commandements , such sinewes euen in thy milke , and such things in thy words , as all prophane Authors , seeme of the seed of the Serpent , that creepes , thou art the doue , that flies . O , what words but thine , can expresse the inexpressible texture , and composition of thy word ; in which , to one Man , that argument that binds his faith to beleeue that to bee the Word of God , is the reuerent simplicity of the Word , and to another , the maiesty of the Word ; and in which two men , equally pious , may meet , and one wonder , that all should not vnderstand it , and the other , as much , that any man should . So , Lord , thou giuest vs the same Earth , to labour on , and to lie in ; a house , and a graue , of the same earth ; so Lord , thou giuest vs the same Word for our satisfaction , and for our Inquisition , for our instruction , and for our Admiration too ; for there are places , that thy seruants Hierom and Augustine would scarce beleeue ( when they grew warm by mutual letters ) of one another , that they vnderstood them , and yet both Hierome and Augustine call vpon persons , whom they knew to bee farre weaker , than they thought one another ( old women & young maids ) to read thy Scriptures , without con●ining them , to these or those places . Neither art thou thus a figuratiue , a Metaphoricall God , in thy word only , but in thy workes too . The stile of thy works , the phrase of thine Actions , is Metaphoricall ● The institution of thy whole worship in the old Law , was a cōtinuall Allegory ; types & figures ouerspread all ; and figure● flowed into figures , and powred themselues ou● into farther ●igures ; Circumcision carried a fig●●● of Baptisme , & Baptis●● carries a figure of that purity , which we shall haue in perfection in the new Ierusalem . Neither didst thou speake , and worke in this language , onely in the time of thy Prophets ; but since thou spokest in thy Son , it is so too . How often , how much more often doth thy Sonne call himsel●e a way , and a light , and a gate , and a Vine , and bread , than the Sonne of God , or of Man ? How much oftner doth he exhibit a Metaphoricall Christ , than a reall , a literall ? This hath occasioned thine ancient seruants , whose delight it was to write after thy Copie , to proceede the same way in their expositions of the Scriptures , and in their composing both of publike liturgies , and of priuate prayers to thee , to make their accesses to thee in such a kind of language , as thou wast pleased to speake to them , in a figuratiue , in a Metaphoricall language ; in which manner I am bold to call the comfort which I receiue now in this sicknesse , in ●he indication of the concoction and maturity therof , in certaine clouds , and residēces , which the Physitians obserue , a discouering of land frō Sea , after a long , and tempestuous voyage . But wherefore , O my God , hast thou presented to vs , the afflictiōs and calamities of this life , in the name of waters ? so often in the name of waters , and deepe waters , and Seas of waters ? must we looke to bee drowned ? are they bottomlesse , are they boundles ? That 's not the dialect of thy langauge ; thou hast giuen a Remedy against the deepest water , by water ; against the inundation of sinne , by Baptisme ; and the first life , that thou gauest to any Creatures , was in waters , therefore ●hou do●●t not ●hr●●ten v● , wi●h an irrem●diablenesse , when our affliction is a Sea. It is so , if we consider our selues ; so thou callest Gennezareth , which was but a lake , and not salt , a Sea ; so thou callest the Mediterranean Sea , still the great Sea ; because the inhabitants saw no other Sea ; they that dwelt there , thought a Lake , a Sea , and the others thought a little Sea , the greatest , and wee that know not the afflictions of others , call our owne the heauiest . But , O my God , that is truly great , that ouerflowes the chan●ell ; that is really a great affliction , which is aboue my strength , but , thou , O God , art my strength , and then what can bee aboue it ? Mountaines shake with the swelling of thy Sea , secular , Mountaines , men strong in power , spirituall mountaines , men strong in grace , are shaked with afflictions ; but thou laiest vp thy sea in store-houses ; euen thy corrections are of thy treasure , and thou wilt not waste thy corrections ; when they haue done their seruice , to humble thy patient , thou wilt call them in againe ; for , thou giuest the Sea thy decree , that the waters should not passe thy Commandement . All our waters shal run into Iordan , & thy seruants passed Iordan dry foot ; they shall run into the red Sea ( the Sea of thy Sons bloud ) & the red Sea , that red Sea , drownes none of thine . But , they that saile in the Sea , tell of the danger thereof ; I that am yet in this affliction , owe thee the glory of speaking of it ; But , as the wise man bids me , I say , I may speak much , and come short ; wherefore in summe , thou art all . Since thou art so , O my God , and affliction is a Sea , too deepe for vs , what is our refuge ? thine Arke , thy ship . In all other Seas , in all other afflictions , those meanes which thou hast ordained ; In this Sea , in Sicknesse , thy Ship is thy Physitian . Thou hast made a way in the Sea , and a safe path in the waters , shewing that thou canst saue from all dangers ; yea , though a man went to Sea without art ; yet where I finde all that , I finde this added , Neuerthelesse thou woul●est not , that the worke of thy wisdome should be idle . Thou canst saue without meanes ; but thou hast told no man that thou wilt : Thou hast told euery man , that thou wilt not . When the Centurion beleeued the Master of the ship more than Saint Paul , they were all opened to a great danger ; this was a preferring of thy meanes , before thee , the Author of the meanes ; but , my God , though thou beest euery where , I haue no promise of appearing to me , but in thy ship : Thy blessed Sonne preached out of a Ship : The meanes is preaching , he did that ; and the Ship was a type of the Church ; hee did it there● Thou gauest S. Paul the liues of all them , that saild with him ; If they had not beene in the Ship with him , the gift had not extended to them . As soone as thy Son was come out of the ship , immediatly there met him out of the tombes , a man with an vncleane spirit , and no man could hold him , no not with chaines . Thy Sonne needed no vse of meanes ; yet there wee apprehend the danger to vs ; if we leaue the ship , the meanes ; in this case , the Physitian . But as they are Ships to vs in those Seas , so is there a Ship to them too , in which they are to stay . Giue mee leaue , O my God , to assist my selfe with such a construction of these words of thy seruant Paul , to the Centurion , when the Mariners would haue left the Ship , Except these abide in the Ship , you cannot bee safe ; Except they who are our ships , the Physitians , abide in that which is theirs , and our ship , the truth , and the sincere and religious worship of thee , and thy Gospell , we cannot promise our selues , so good safety ; for though we haue our ship , the Physitian , he hath not his ship , Religion ; And meanes are not meanes , but in their concatenation , as they depend , and are chained together . The ships are great , saies thy Apostle , but a helme turnes them ; the men are learned , but their religion turnes their labours to good : And therefore it was a heauy ●●●se , when the third part o● the ships perished : It is a heauy case , where either all Religion , or true Religion should forsake many of these ships , whom thou hast sent to conuey vs ouer these Seas . But , O my God , my God , since I haue my ship , and they theirs , I haue them , and they haue thee , why are we yet no neerer land ? As soone as thy Sonnes Disciple had taken him into the ship , immediatly the ship was at the land , whither they went. Why haue nor they and I this dispatch ? Euery thing is immediatly done , which is done when thou wouldst haue it done . Thy purpose terminates euery action , and what was done before that , is vndone yet . Shall that slacken my hope ? Thy Prophet from thee , hath forbid it . It is good that a man should both hope , and quietly wait for the saluation of the Lord. Thou puttest off many iudgements , till the last day , many passe this life without any ; and shall not I endure the putting off thy mercy for a day ? and yet , O my God , thou puttest me not to that ; for , the assurance of future mercy , ●s present mercy . But what is my assurance now ? What is my seale ? It is but a cloud ; that which my Physitians call a cloud , in that , which giues them their Indication . But a Cloud ? Thy great Seale to all the world , the raine-bow , that ●ecured the world for euer , from drowning , was but a reflexion vpon a cloud . A cloud it selfe was a pillar which guided the church , and the glory of God , not only was , but appeared in a cloud . Let me returne , O my God , to the consideration of thy seruant Eliahs proceeding , in a time of desperate drought ; he bids them look towards the Sea ; They looke , and ●ee nothing . He bids thē againe and againe , seuen times : and at the seuenth time , they saw a little cloud rising out of the Sea ; and presently they had their desire of raine . Seuen dayes , O my God , haue we looked for this cloud , and now we haue it ; none of thy Indications are friuolous ; thou makest thy signes , seales ; and thy Seales , effects ; and thy effects , consolation , and restitution , whersoeuer thou maiest receiue glory by that way . 19. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who though thou passedst ouer infinite millions of generations , before thou camest to a Creation of this world , yet when thou beganst , didst neuer intermit that worke , but continuedst day to day , till thou hadst perfited all the worke , and deposed it in the hands and rest of a Sabbath , though thou haue beene pleased to glorifie thy selfe in a long exercise of my patience , with an expectation of thy declaration of thy selfe in this my sicknesse , yet since thou hast now of thy goodnesse afforded that , which affords vs some hope , if that bee still the way of thy glory , proceed in that way , and perfit that worke , and establish me in a Sabbath , and rest in thee , by this thy seale of bodily restitution . Thy Priests came vp to thee , by steps in the Temple ; Thy Angels came downe to Iaacob , by steps vpon the ladder ; we finde no staire , by which thou thy selfe camest to Adam in Paradise , nor to Sodome in thine anger ; for thou , and thou o●ely art able to doe all at once . But , O Lord , I am not wearie of thy pace , nor wearie of mine owne patience . I prouoke ●he● not with a praier , not with a wish , not with a ●ope , to more haste than consists with thy purpose , nor looke that any other thing should haue entred into thy purpose , but thy glory . To heare thy ●steps comming towards mee , is the same comfort , as to see thy face present with mee ; whether thou doe the worke of a thousand yeere in a day , or extend the worke of a day , to a thousand yeere , as long as thou workest , it is light , and comfort . Heauen it selfe is but an extention of the same ioy ; and an extention of this mercie , to proceed at thy leisure , in the way of restitution , is a manifestation of heauen to me here vpon earth . From that people , to whom thou appearedst in signes , and in Types , the Iewes , thou art departed , because they trusted in them ; but from thy Church , to whom thou hast appeared in thy selfe , in thy Sonne , thou wilt neuer depart ; because we cannot trust too much in him . Though thou haue afforded me these signes of restitution , yet if I confide in them , and beginne to say , all was but a Na●urall accident , and nature begins to discharge her selfe , and sh●e will perfit the whole worke , my hope shall vanish because it is not in thee . If thou shouldest take thy hand vtterly from me , and haue nothing to doe with me , Nature alone were able to destroy mee ; but if thou withdraw thy helping hand , alas how friuolous are the helps of Nature , how impotent the assistances of Art ? As therefore the morning dew , is a pawne of the euening fatnesse , so , O Lord , let this daies comfort be the earnest of to morrowes , so f●rre as may conforme me entirely to thee , to what end , and by what way so●uer thy mercie haue appointed mee . 20. Id●agunt . Vpon these Indications of digested matter , they proceed to purge . 10. MEDITATION . THoug● counsel seeme rather to consist of spirituall parts , than action , yet action is the spirit and the soule of counsell . Counsels are not alwaies determined in Resolutions ; wee cannot alwaies say , this was concluded ; actions are alwaies determined in effects ; wee can say this was done . Then haue Lawes their reuerence , and their maiestie , when wee see the Iudge vpon the Bench executing them . Then haue counsels of warre their impressions , and their operations , when we see the seale of an Armie set to them . It was an ancient way of celebrating the memorie of such as deserued well of the State , to afford them that kinde of statuarie representation , which was then called Hermes ; which was , the head and shoulders of a man , standing vpon a Cube , but those shoulders without armes and hands . All together it figured a constant supporter of the state , by his counsell : But in this Hierogliphique , which they made without hands , they passe their consideration no farther , but that the Counsellor should bee without hands , so farre , as not to reach out his hand to forraigne tentations of bribes , in matters of Counsell , and , that it was not necessary , that the head should employ his owne hand ; that the same men should serue in the execution , which assisted in the Counsell ; but that there should not belong hands to euery head , action to euery counsell , was neuer intended , so much as in figure , and representation . For , as matrimonie is scarce to bee called matrimonie , where there is a resolution against the fruits of matrimonie , against the hauing of Children , so counsels are not counsels , but illusions , where there is from the beginning no purpose to execute ●he determina●ions of ●hose counsels . The arts and sciences are most properly referred to the head ; that is their proper Element and Spheare ; But yet the art of prouing , Logique ; and the Art of perswading , Rhetorique , are deduced to the hand , and that expressed by a hand contracted into a sist , and this by a hand enlarged , and expanded ; and euermore the power of man , and the power of God himselfe is expressed so● All things are in hi● hand ● neither is God so often presented ●o vs , by names that carry our consideratiō vpon counsell , as vpon execution of counsell , he is oftner called the Lord of Hosts , ●han by all other names , that may be referred to the other signification● Hereby● therefore wee take into our meditation , the slipperie condition of man , whose happinesse , in any kinde , the defect of any one thing , conducing to that happinesse , may ruine ; but i● must haue all the peeces to make it vp . Without counsell , I had not got thus farre● withou● action and practise , I should goe no farther towards health ? But what is ●he present nec●ssary action ? purging : A withdrawing , a violating of Nature , a farther weakening : O deare price , & O strange way of addition , to doe it by substraction ; of restoring Nature , to violate Nature ; of prouiding strength , by increasing weaknesse . Was I not sicke before ? And is it a question of comfort to be asked now , Did your Physicke make you sicke ? Was that it that my Physicke promised , to make me sicke ? This is another step , vpon which we may stand , and see farther into the miserie of man , the time , the season of his Miserie ; It must bee done now : O ouer-●●nning , ouer-watchfull , ouer-diligent , and ouer-sociable misery of man , that seldome comes alone , but then when it may accompanie other miseries , and so put one another into the higher exaltation , and better ●eart . I am ground euen to an attenuation , and must proceed to euacuation , all waies to exinani●ion and annihilation . 20. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , the God of Order , but yet not of Ambition , who assignest place to euery one , but not contention for place , when shall it be thy pleasure to put an end to all these quarrels , for spirituall precedences ? when shall men leaue their vncharitable disputations , which is to take place , faith or repentance , and which , when we consider faith , and works ? The head and the hand too , are required to a perfit naturall man ; Counsell and action too , to a perfit ciuill man ; saith and works too , to him that is perfi●ly spirituall . But because it is easily said , I beleeue , and because it doth not easily lie in proofe , nor is easily demonstrable by any euidence taken from my heart , ( for who sees th●● , who f●●rches those Rolls● ) whether I doe beleeue , or no , is it not therefore , O my God , that thou dost so frequently , so earnestly , referre vs to the hand , to the obseruation of actions ? There is a little suspition , a little imputation laid vpon ouer-tedious and dilatorie counsels . Many good occasions slip away in long consultations ; and it may be a degree of sloth , to be too long in mending nets , though that must bee done . He that obserueth the wind , shall not saw , and he that regardeth the ●●ouds , shall not reape ; that is , he that is too dilatorie , too superstitious ●n these obseruations , and ●tudies but the excuse of his owne idlenesse in ●hem ; But , that which ●he same wise and royall seruant of thine , saies in ●n other place , all accept , ●nd aske no comment vpon it , He becommeth poore , that dealeth with a slacke hand● but the hand of the diligent maketh rich ; All euill imputed to the absence , all good attributed to the presence of the ●and . I know , my God , ( and I blesse thy name for knowing it● for all good knowledge is from thee ) that thou considerest the heart ; but thou takest not off thine eie , till thou come to the hand . Nay , my God , doth not thy spirit intimate , that thou beginnest where wee beginne , ( at least , that thou allowest vs to beginne there ) when thou orderest thine owne answer to thine owne question , Who shall ascend into the hill of the Lord ? Thus , he that hath cleane hands , and a pure heart ? Doest ●●ou not ( at least ) send 〈◊〉 , first to the hand ? ●nd is not the worke of ●heir hands , that decla●●tion of their holy zeale , 〈◊〉 the present execution ●f manifest Idolatrers , ●●lled a consecration of ●●emselues , by thy holy ●pirit ? Their hands are ●alled all themselues : for , ●uen counsell it selfe goes ●nder that name , in thy word , who knowest best ●ow to giue right names : ●ecause the counsell of the ●riests assisted Dauid , Saul saies , the hand of the Priest is with Dauid● And that which is often said by Moses , is very often repeated by thy other Prophets , These and these things , the Lord spake , and the Lord said , and the Lord commanmanded , not by the counsels , not by the voice , but by the hand of Moses , and by the hand of the Prophets : Euermore we are referred for our Euidence , of others , and of our selues , to the hand , to action , to works . There is something before it , beleeuing ; and there is some thing after it , suffering ; but in the most eminent , and obuious , and conspicuous place , stands doing . Why then , O my God , my bl●ss●d God , in the waies of my ●pirituall strength , come ●l so slow to action ? I was whipped by thy rod , before I came to consultation , to consider my state , and shall I go● no farther ? As hee that would describe a circle in paper , if hee haue brought that circle within one inch of finishing yet if he remoue his compasse , he cannot make i● vp a perfit circle , excep● he fall to worke againe to finde out the sam● center ● so , though setting that foot of my compass● vpon thee , I haue gon● so farre , as to the consideration of my selfe , yet i● I depart from thee , my center , all is vnperfit● This proceeding to action therefore , is a returning to thee , and a working vpon my selfe by thy Physicke , by thy purgatiue physicke , a free and entire euacuation of my soule by confession . The working of purgatiue physicke , is violent and contrary to Nature . O Lord , I decline not this potion of confession , how euer it may bee contrary to a naturall man. To take phys●cke , and not according to the right method , is dangerous . O Lord , I decline not that method in this physicke , in things that burthen my conscience , to make my confession to him , into whose hands thou hast put th● power of absolution . ● know that Physicke may be made so pleasant , as tha● it may easily be taken ; bu● not so pleasant as the ver●tue and nature of the me●dicine bee extinguished I know , I am not sub●mitted to such a confession as is a racke and tor●ture of the Conscience but I know I am not exempt from all . If it were meerely problematicall left meerely indifferent whether we should tak● this Physicke , vse thi● confession , or no , a great Physitian acknowledges this to haue beene his practise , To minister many things , which hee was not sure would doe good but neuer any other thing , but such as hee was sure would doe no harme . The vse of this spirituall Physicke can certainly doe no harme ; and the Church hath alwaies thought that it might , and doubtlesse , many humble soules haue found , that it hath done them good . I will therefore take the cup of Saluation , and call vpon thy Name ; I will fill this Cup of compunction , as full as I haue formerly filled the Cups of wo●ldly confections , that so I may scape the cup of Malediction , and irrecouerable destruction that depends vpon that . And since thy blessed and glorious Sonne , being offered in the way to his Execution , a Cup of Su●pefaction , to take away the sense of his paine , ( a charity afforded to condemned persons ordinarily in those places , and times ) refused that ease , and embraced the whole torment , I take not this Cup , but this vessell of mine owne sinnes , into my contemplation , and I powre them out here according to the Motions of thy holy Spirit , and any where , according to the ordinances of thy holy Church . 20. PRAYER . O Eternall , and most gracious God , who hauing married Man , and Woman together , and made them one flesh , wouldest haue them also , to become one soule so , as that they might maintaine a simpathy in their affections , and haue a conformity to one another , in the accidents of this world , good or bad , so hauing married this soule and this body in me , I humbly beseech thee , that my soule may looke , and make her vse of thy mercifull proceedings towards my bodily restitution , & goe the same way to a spirituall . I am come by thy goodnesse , to the vse of thine ordinary meanes for my body , to wash away those peccant humors , that endangered it . I haue , O Lord , a Riuer in my body , but a Sea in my soule , and a Sea swoln into the depth of a Deluge , aboue the Sea. Thou hast raised vp certaine hils in me heretofore , by which I might haue stood safe , from these inundations of sin . Euen our Naturall faculties are a hill , and might preserue vs from some sinne . Education , study , obseruation , example , are hills too , and might preserue vs from some . Thy Church , and thy Word , and thy Sacraments , and thine Ordinances , are hills , aboue these ; thy Spirit of remorse , and compunction , & repentance for former sin , are hills too ; and to the ●op of all these hils , thou hast brought mee heretofore ; but this Deluge , this inundation , is got aboue all my Hills ; and I haue sinned and sinned , and multiplied sinne to sinne , after all these thy assistances against sinne , and where is there water enough to wash away this Deluge ? There is a red Sea , greater than this Ocean ; and there is a little spring , through which this Ocean , may powre it selfe into that red Sea. Let thy Spirit of true contrition , and sorrow passe all my sinnes through these eies , into the wounds of thy Sonne , and I shall be cleane , and my soule so much better purged than my body , as it is ordained for a better , and a longer life . 21 — Atque annuit Ille , Qui , per eos , clamat , Linquas iam , Lazare , lectum . God prospers their practise , and he , by them , calls Lazarus out of his tombe , mee out of my bed . 21. MEDITATION . IF man had beene left alone in this world , at first , shall I thinke , that he would not haue fallen ? If there had beene no Woman , would not Man haue serued , to haue beene his owne Tempter ? When I see him now , subiect to infinite weakenesses , fall into infinite sinne , without any forraine tentations , shall I thinke , hee would haue had none , if hee had beene alone ? GOD saw that Man needed a Helper , if hee should bee well ; but to make Woman ill , the Deuill saw , that there needed no third . When God , and wee were alone , in Adam , that was not enough ; when the Deuill and wee were alone , in Eue , it was enough● O what a Giant is Man , when hee fights against himselfe , and what a dwarfe , when hee needs , or exercises his owne assistance for himselfe ? I cannot rise out of my bed , till the Physitian enable mee , nay I cannot tel , that I am able to rise , till hee tell me so . I doe nothing , I know nothing of my selfe : how little , and how impotent a pe●ce of the world , is any Man alone ? and how much lesse a peece of himselfe is that Man ? So little , as that when it falls out , ( as it falls out in some cases ) that more misery , and more oppression , would bee an ease to a man , he cannot giue himselfe that miserable addition , of more misery ● A man that is pressed to death , and might be eased by more weights , cannot lay those more weights vpon himselfe : Hee can sinne alone , and suffer alone , but not repent , not bee absolued , without another . Another tels mee , I may rise ; and I doe so . But is euery raising a preferment ? or is euery present preferment a station ? I am readier to fall to the Earth now I am vp , than I was wh●n I lay in the bed : O peruerse way , irregular motion of Man ; euen rising it selfe is the way to Ruine . How many men are raised , and then doe not fill the place they are raised to ? No corner of any place can bee empty ; there can be no vacuity ; If that Man doe not fill the place , other men will ; complaints of his insufficiency will fill it ; Nay , such an abhorring is there in Nature , of vacuity , that if there be but an imagination of not filling , in any man , that which is but imagination neither , will ●ill it , that is , rumor and voice , and it will be giuen ●ut , ( vpon no ground , but Imagination , and no man knowes , whose imagination ) that hee is corrupt in his place , or insufficient in his place , and another prepared to succeed him in his place . A man rises , sometimes , and stands not , because hee doth not , or is not beleeued to fill his place ; and sometimes he stands not , because hee ouer-fills his place : Hee may bring so much vertue , so much Iustice , so much integrity to the place , as shall spoile the place , burthen the place ; his integrity may bee a Libell vpon his Predecessor , and cast an infamy vpon him , and a burden vpon his successor , to proceede by example , and to bring the place it selfe , to an vnder-value , and the market to an vncertainty . I am vp , and I seeme to stand , and I goe round ; and I am a new Argument of the new Philosophie , That the Earth ●oues round ; why may ● not beleeue , that the ●hole earth moues in a round motion , though that seeme to mee to stand , when as I seeme ●o stand to my Compa●y , and yet am carried , in a giddy , and circular motion , as I stand ? Man hath no center , but misery ; there and onely there , hee is fixt , and sure to finde himselfe . How little soeuer he bee raised , he moues , and moues in a circle , giddily ; and as in the Heauens , there are bu● a few Circles , th●t goe about the whole world , but many Epicicles , and other lesser Circles , but yet Circles , so of those men , which are raised , and put into Circles , few of them moue from place to place , and passe through many and beneficiall places , but fall into lit●le Circles , and within a step or two , are at their end , and not so well , as they were in ●he Center , from which ●hey were raised . Eue●y thing serues to exem●lifie , to illustrate mans ●isery ; But I need goe ●o farther , than my selfe ; ●or a long time , I was not ●ble to rise ; At last , I ●ust bee raised by o●hers ; and now I am vp , I am ready to sinke lower than before . ●1 . EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , how large a glasse of the next World is this ? As wee haue an Art , to cast from on● glasse to another , and so to carry the Species a great way off , so hast thou , that way , much more ; wee shall haue a Resurrection in Heauen ; the knowledge of that thou castest by another glasse vpon vs here ; we feele that wee haue a Resurrection from sinne ; and that by another glasse too ; wee see wee haue a Resurrection of the body , from the mise●ies and calamities of ●his life . This Resurre●tion of my body , shewes me the Resurrection of ●ny soule ; and both ●ere seuerally , of both ●ogether hereafter . Since ●hy Martyrs vnder the Altar , presse thee with ●heir solicitation for the Resurrection of the body to glory , thou wouldest pardon mee , if I should presse thee by Prayer , for the accomplishing of this Resurrection , which thou hast begunne in me to blessed and glorious Tr●●nity , was none to heare but you three , and yo● easily heare one ano●ther , because you sa● the same things . Bu● when thy Sonne cam● to the worke of Re●demption , thou spokest and they that heard it tooke it for Thunder and thy Sonne himself● cried with a loud voice ● vpon the Crosse , twice● as hee , who was to prepare his comming● Iohn Baptist , was th● voice of a cryer , and ●ot of a Whisperer . Still , ●f it be thy voice , it is a loud voice ; These words , ●aies thy Moses , Thou ●okest with a great voice , ●nd thou addest no more , ●aies hee there ; That which thou hast said , is ●uident , and it is euident , ●hat none can speake so ●oud ; none can binde vs ●o heare him , as wee ●ust thee . The most high vttered his voice : what was his voice ? The Lord ●●undred from heauen , it might bee heard ; But ●his voice , thy voice , is also a mightie voice ; not onely mightie in power , it may be heard , nor mightie in obligation , it shoul● be heard , but mightie in operation , it will be● heard ; and therefore has● thou bestowed a whol● Psalme vpon vs , to lead● vs to the consideration of thy voice . It is such a voice , as that thy Sonne saies , the dead shall hear● it ; and that 's my state ● And why , O God , doest thou not speake to me● in that effectuall loudnesse ? Saint Iohn heard a voice , ●●d hee turned about to see ●he voice : sometimes we ●●e too curious of the ●●strument , by what man ●od speakes ; but thou ●peakest loudest , when ●hou speakest to the ●eart . There was silence , ●nd I heard a voice , saies ●ne , to thy seruant Iob. I ●earken after thy voice , 〈◊〉 thine Ordinances , and ● seeke not a whispering ●n Conuenticles ; but yet , O my God , speake louder , ●hat so , though I doe ●eare thee now , then I may heare nothing but thee . My sinnes crie aloud ; Cains murther di● so ; my afflictions cri● aloud ; The flouds hau● lifted vp their voice , ( an● waters are afflictions ) bu●●hou , O Lord , art migh●tier than the voice o● many waters ; than ma●ny temporall , many spi●rituall afflictions ; tha● any of either kinde ; and why doest thou no● speak to me in that voice ? What is man , and whereto serueth he ? what is hi● good , and what is his euill ? My bed of sinne is no● ●uill , not desperatly euill , for thou doest call mee out of it ; but my rising out of it is not good , ( not perfitly good ) if thou call not louder , and hold me now I am vp . O my God , I am afraid of a fearefull application of ●hose words , when a man ●ath done , then hee begin●eth ; when his body is vnable to sinne , his sinfull memory sinnes ouer his old sinnes againe ; and that which thou wouldest haue vs to remember for cōpunction , wee remember with delight . Bring him to me in his bed , that I may kill him , saies Saul of Dauid ; Thou hast not said so , that is not thy voice . Ioasb his owne seruants slew him , when hee was sicke in his bed ; Thou hast not ●uffered that , that my seruants should so much as neglect mee , or be wearie of mee , in my sicknesse . Thou threatnest , that as a shepheard takes out of the mouth of the Lion , two legs , or a peec● of an eare , so shall the children of Israel , that ●well in Samaria , in the corner of a bed , and in Da●ascus , in a couch bee ta●en away . That euen they that are secure from danger , shall perish ; How much more might I , who was in the bed of death , die ? But thou hast not dealt so with mee . As they brought out sicke persons in beds , that thy seruant Peters shadow might ouer-shadow them ; Thou hast , O my God , ouer-shadowed mee , refreshed mee : But when wilt thou doe more ? when wilt thou doe all ? when wilt thou speake in thy loud voice ? when wilt thou bid mee take vp my bed and walke ? As my bed is my affections , when shall I beare them so as to subdue them ? As my bed is my afflictions , when shall I beare them so , as not to murmure at them ? When shall I take vp my bed and walke ? not lie downe vpon it , as it is my pleasure , not sinke vnder it , as it is my correction ? But , O my God , my God , the God of all flesh , and of all spirit too , let me bee content with that in my ●ainting spirit , which thou declarest in this decaied flesh , that as this body is content to sit still , that it may learne to stand , and to learne by standing to walke , and by walking to trauell , so my soule by obeying this thy voice of rising , may by a farther and farther growth of ●hy grace , proceed so , and bee so established , as may remoue all suspitions , all iealousies betweene thee and mee , and may speake and heare in such a voice , as that still I may bee acceptable to thee , and satisfied from thee . 21. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who hast made little things to signifie great , and conuaid the infinite merits of thy Sonne in the water of Baptisme , and in the Bread and Wine of thy other Sacrament , vnto vs , receiue the sacrifice of my humble ●hanks , that ●hou hast not onely af●orded mee , the abilitie ●o rise out of this bed of wearinesse & discom●ort , ●ut hast also made this bodily rising , by thy grace , an earnest of a second resurrection from sinne , and of a third , to euerlasting glory . Thy Sonne himselfe , alwaies infinite in himselfe , & incapable ●f addition , was yet pleased to grow in the Virgi●s wombe , & to grow in stature , in the sight of men . Thy good pu●poses vpon mee , I ●now , haue their determination and perfection , in thy holy will vpon mee ; there thy grace is , and there I am altogether ; but manifest thē●o vnto me in thy seasons , and in thy measures and degrees , that I may not onely haue that comfort of knowing thee to be infinitely good , but that also of finding thee to bee euery day better and better to mee : and that as ●hou gauest Saint Paul , ●he Messenger of Satan , to humble him , so for my ●umiliation , thou maiest giue me thy selfe , in this ●nowledge , that what ●race soeuer thou af●ord mee to day , yet I ●hould perish to morrow , if I had not to morrowes grace too . Therefore I begge of thee , my daily bread ; and as thou gauest mee the bread of sorrow for many daies , and since the bread of hope for some , and this day the bread of possessing , in rising by that strength , which thou the God of all strength , hast infused into me , so , O Lord , continue to mee the bread of life ; the spirituall bread of life , in a faithfull assurance in thee ; the sacramentall bread of life , in a worthy receiuing of thee ; and the more reall bread of life , in an euerlasting vnion to thee . I know , O Lord , that when thou hadst created Angels , and they saw thee produce fowle , and fish , and beasts , and wormes , they did not importune thee , and say , shall wee haue no better ●reatures than these , no better companions than these ; but staid thy leisure , and then had man deliuered ouer to them , not much inferiour in nature to themselues . No more doe I , O God , now that by thy first mercie , I am able to rise , importune thee for present confirmation of ●ealth ; nor now , tha● by thy mercie , I am brought to see , that thy correction hath wrought medicinally vpon mee , presume I vpon that spirituall strength I haue ; but as I acknowledge , that my bodily strength is subiect to euery pu●●e of wind , so is my spirituall strength to euery blast of vanitie . Keepe me therefore still , O my gracious God , in such a proportion of both strengths , as I may still h●●e something to thanke thee for , which I haue receiued , & still something to pray for , and aske at thy hand . ●● . Si● morbi fomes tibi cura ; ●he Physitians consider the root and occasion , the embers , and coales , and fuell of the disease , and seeke to purge or correct that . ●2 . MEDITATION . HOw ruinous a farme hath man taken , in ●aking himselfe ? how ●eady is the house eue●y day to fall downe , and how is all the groun● ouer-spread with weeds ● all the body with diseases ? where not onely euery turfe , but euery stone ● beares weeds ; not onely euery muscle of the flesh , but euery bone of the body , hath some infirmitie ● euery little flint vpon the face of this soile , hath some infectious weede , euery tooth in our head , such a paine , as a constant man is afraid of , and yet ashamed of that feare , of that sense of the paine . How deare , and how of●●n a rent doth Man ●ay for this farme ? hee ●ies twice a day , in ●ouble meales , and how ●●tle time he hath to raise 〈◊〉 rent ? How many ho●● daies to call him from ●s labour ? Euery day is ●alfe-holy day , halfe spent ●n sleepe . What repara●ions , and subsidies , and ●ontributions he is put to , ●esides his rent ? What ●edicines , besides his di●● ? and what Inmates ●e is faine to take in , besides ●is owne familie , what infectious diseases , from other men . Adam might haue had Paradise for dressing and keeping it ; and then his ren● was not improued to such a labour , as would haue made his brow sweat ; and yet he gaue it ouer ; how farre greater a rent doe wee pay for this farme , this body , who pay our selues , who pay the farme it selfe , and cannot liue vpon it ? Neither is our labour at an end , when wee haue cut downe some weed , as soone as it sprung vp , corrected some violent ●nd dangerous accident of a disease , which would ●aue destroied speedily ; ●or when wee haue pulled vp that weed , from the very root , recouered ●ntirely and soundly , from that particular disease ; but the whole ground is of an ill na●ure , the whole soile ill disposed ; there are ●nclinations , there is a propensnesse to diseases in the body , out of which without any other disorder , diseases will grow , and so wee are put to a continuall labour vpon this farme , to a continuall studie of the whole complexion and constitution of our body . In the distempers and diseases of soiles , sourenesse , drinesse , weeping , any kinde of barrennesse , the remedy and the physicke , is , for a great part , sometimes in themselues ; sometime the very situation releeues them , the hanger of a hill , will purge and vent his owne malignant moisture ; and the burning of the vpper ●urfe of some ground ( as ●ealth from cauterizing ) ●uts a new and a vigorous youth into that soile , ●nd there rises a kinde of Phoenix out of the ashes , ● fruitfulnesse out of that which was barren before , and by that , which is the barrennest of all , ashes . And where the ground cannot giue it ●elfe physicke , yet it receiues Physicke from other grounds , from other soiles , which are not the worse , for hauing contributed that helpe to them , fro● Marle in other hils , o● from slimie sand in othe● shoares : grounds help themselues , or hurt no other grounds , fro● whence they receiu● helpe . But I haue take● a farme at this hard rent and vpon those heau●● couenants , that it can afford it selfe no helpe ; ( no part of my body , if it were cut off , would cure another part ; in som● ca●es it might preserue a sound part , but in no case recouer an infected ) ●nd , if my body may haue ●ny Physicke , any Medi●ine from another body , one Man from the flesh of another Man ( as by Mummy , or any such composition , ) it must ●ee from a man that is dead , and not , as in other soiles , which are neuer the worse for contributing their Marle , or their fat slime to my ground . There is nothing in the same man , to helpe man , nothing in mankind to helpe one another , ( in this sort , by way of Physicke ) but that hee who ministers the helpe , is in as ill case , as he that receiues it would haue beene , if he had not had it ; for hee , from whose body the Physicke comes , is dead . When therefore I tooke this farme , vndertooke this body , I vndertooke to draine , not a marish , but a moat , where there was , not water mingled to offend , but all was water ; I vndertooke to perfume dung , where no one part , but all was equally vnsauory ; I vndertooke to make such a thing wholsome , as was not poison by any manifest quality , intense heat , or cold , but poison in the whole substance , and in the specifique forme of it . To cure the s●arpe accidents of diseases , is a great worke ; to cure the disease it selfe , is a greater ; but to cure the body , the root , the occasion of diseases , is a worke reserued for the great Physitian , which he doth ne●er any other way , but by glorifying these bodies in the next world . 22. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , what am I put to , when I am put to consider , and put off , the root , the fuell , the occasion of my sicknesse ? What Hypocrates , what Galen , could shew mee that in my body ? It lies deeper than so ; it lies in my soule : And deeper than so ; for we may wel consider the body , before the soule came , before inanimation , to bee without sinne ; and the soule b●fore it come to the body , before that infection , to be without sinne ; sinne is the root , and the fuell of all sicknesse , and yet that which destroies body & soule , is in neither , but in both together ; It is in the vnion ● of the body and soule ; and , O my God , could I preuent that , or can I dissolue that ? The root , and the fuell of my sicknesse , is my sinne , my actuall sinne ; but euen that sinne hath another root , another fuell , originall sinne ; and can I deuest that ? Wilt thou bid me to separate the leuen , that a lumpe of Dowe hath receiued , or the salt , that the water hath contracted , from the Sea ? Dost thou looke , that I should so looke to the fuell , or embers of sinne , that I neuer take fire ? The whole world is a pile of fagots , vpō which w●e are laid , and ( as though there were no other ) we are the bellowes . Ignorance blowes the fire , He that touched any vncleane thing , though he knew it not , became vncleane , and a sacrifice was required , ( therefore a sin imputed ) though it were done in ignorance . Ignorance blowes this Coale ; but thē knowledge much more ; for , there are that know thy iudgements , and yet not onely doe , but haue pleasure in others , that doe against them . Nature blowes this Coale ; By nature wee are the children of wrath : And the Law blowes it , thy Apostle , Saint Paul , ●ound , That sinne tooke occasion by the Law , that therefore because it is forbidden , we do some things . If wee breake the Law , wee sinne ; Sinne is the transgression of the Law ; And sinne it selfe becomes a Law in our members . Our fathers haue imprinted the seed , infused a spring of sinne in vs : As a fountaine casteth out her waters , wee cast out our wickednesse ; but we haue done worse than our fathers . We are open to infinite tentations , and yet , as though we lacked , we are tempted of our owne lusts . And not satisfied with that , as though we wer● not powerfull enough , or cunning enough , to demolish , or vndermine our selues , when wee our selues haue no pleasure in the sinne , we sinne for others sakes . When Adam sinned for Eues sake , and Salomon to gratifie his wiues , it was an vxorious sinne : When the Iudges sinned for Iezabels sake , and Ioab to obey Dauid , it was an ambitious sinne : When Pilat sinned to humor the people , and Herod to giue farther contentment to the Iewes , it was a popular sinne : Any thing serues , to occasion sin , at home , in my bosome , or abroad , in my Marke , and aime ; that which I am , and that which I am not , that which I would be , proues coales , and embers , and fuell , and bellowes to sin ; and dost thou put me , O my God , to discharge my selfe , of my selfe , before I can be well ? When ●hou bidst me to put off ●he old Man , doest thou meane , not onely my old habits of actuall sin , but the oldest of all , originall sinne ? When thou biddest me purge out the ●euen , dost thou meane , not only the sowrenesse of mine owne ill contracted customes , but the innate tincture of sin , imprinted by Nature ? How shall I doe that which thou requirest , and not falsifie that which thou hast said , that sin is gone ouer all ? But , O my God , I presse thee not , with thine owne text , without thine owne comment ; I know that in the state of my body , which is more discernible , than that of my soule , thou dost effigiate my Soule to me . And though no Anatomist can say , in dissecting a body , here lay the coale , the fuell , the occasion of all bodily diseases , but yet a man may haue such a knowledge of his owne constitution , and bodily inclination to diseases , as that he may preuent his danger in a great part : so though wee cannot assigne the place of originall sinne , nor the Nature of it , so exactly , as of actuall , or by any diligence deuest it , yet hauing washed it in the water of thy Baptisme , wee haue not onely so cleansed it , that wee may the better look vpon it , and discerne it , but so weakned it , that howsoeuer it may retaine the former nature , it doth not retaine the former force , and though it may haue the same name , it hath not the same venome . 22. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , the God of securitie , and the enemie of securitie too , who wouldest haue vs alwaies sure of thy loue , and yet wouldest haue vs alwaies doing something for it , let mee alwaies so apprehend thee , as present with me , and yet so follow after thee , as though I had not apprehended thee . Thou enlargedst Ezechias lease for fifteene yeeres ; Thou renewedst Lazarus his lease , for a time , which we know not : But thou didst neuer so put out any of these fires , as that thou didst not rake vp the embers , and wrap vp a future mortalitie , in that body , which thou hadst then so reprieued . Thou proceedest no otherwise in our soules , O our good , but fearefull God : Thou pardonest no sinne so , as that that sinner can sinne no more ; thou makest no man so acceptable , as that thou mak●st him impeccable . Though therefore it were a diminution of the largenesse , and derogatorie to the fulnesse of thy mercie , to looke backe vpon those sinnes which in a true repentance ● I haue buried in the wounds of ●hy Sonne , with a iealous or suspicious eie , as though they were now my sinnes , when I had so ●ransferred them vpon ●hy Sonne , as though ●hey could now bee raised to life againe , to condemne mee to death , when they are dead in ●im , who is the fountaine of life , yet were it an irregular anticipation , and an insolent presumption , to think● that thy present mercie extended to all my future sinnes , or that there were no embers , no coales of future sinnes left in mee . Temper therefore thy mercie so to my soule , O my God , that I may neither decline to any faintnesse of spirit , in suspecting thy mercie now , to bee lesse hearty , lesse sincere , than it vses to be , to those who are perfitly reconciled to thee , nor presume so of it , as either to thinke this present mercie an antidote against all poisons , and so expose my selfe to tentations , vpon confidence that this thy mercie shall preserue mee , or that when I doe cast my selfe into new sinnes , I may haue new mercie at any time , because thou didst so easily afford mee this . 23. — Metusque , Relabi They warne mee of the fearefull danger of relapsing . 23. MEDITATION . IT is not in mans body , as it is in the Citie , that when the Bell hath rung , to couer your fire , and ●ake vp the embers , you may lie downe , and sleepe without feare . Though you haue by ●●ysicke and diet , raked vp the embers of your ●isease , stil there is a feare of a relapse ; and the greater danger is in that . ●uen in pleasures , and in ●●ines , there is a propriety , ● Meum & Tuum ; and a man is most affected with that pleasure which is his , his by former en●oying and experience , and most intimidated with those paines which are his , his by a wofull ●ense of them , in former ●fflictions . A couetous ●erson , who hath preoccupated all his senses , filled all his capacities , with the delight of gathering , wonders how any man can haue any taste of any pleasure in any opennesse , or liberalitie ; So also in bodily paines , in a fit of the stone , th● patient wonders why any man should call the Gout a paine : And hee that hath felt neither , but the tooth-ach , is as much afraid of a ●it of that , as either of the other , of either of the other . Diseases , which we ●euer felt in our selues , ●ome but to a compassi●● of others that haue ●ndured them ; Nay , ●ompassion it selfe , comes ●o no great degree , if wee ●aue not felt , in some ●roportion , in our selues , ●hat which wee lament ●nd condole in another . But when wee haue had ●hose torments in their ●●altation , our selues , wee ●emble at a relapse . ●hen wee must pant ●hrough all those fierie ●eats , and saile thorow ●ll those ouerflowing sweats , when wee must watch through all those long nights , and mourne through all those long daies , ( daies and nights , so long , as that Nature her selfe shall seeme to be peruerted , and to hau● put the longest day , and the longest night , which should bee six moneths asunder , into one naturall , vnnaturall day ) when wee must stand at the same barre , expect the returne of Physitians from ●heir consultations , and not bee sure of the s●me verdict , in any good Indications , when we must goe the same way ouer againe , and not see the same issue , this is a state , a condition , a calamitie , in respect of which , any other sicknesse were a ●onualescence , and any greater , lesse . It addes to the affliction , that relapses are , ( and for the most part iustly ) imputed to our selues , as occasioned by some disorder in vs ; and so we are not onely passiue , but actiue , in our owne ruine ; we doe not onely stand vnder a falling house , but pull it downe vpon vs ; and wee are not onely executed , ( that implies guiltinesse ) but wee are executioners , ( that implies dishonor ; ) and executioners of our selues , ( and that implies impietie . ) And wee fall from that comfort which wee might haue in our first sicknesse , from that meditation , Alas , how generally miserable is Man , and how subiect to diseases , ( for in that it is some degree of comfort , that wee are but in the sta●e common to all ) we fall , I say , to this discomfort , and selfe accusing , & selfe condemning ; Alas , how vnprouident , and in that , how vnthankfull to God and his instruments am I , in making so ill vse of so great benefits , in destroying so soone , so long a worke , in relapsing , by my disorder , to that from which they had deliuered mee ; and so my meditation is fearefully transferred from the body to the minde , and from the consideration of the sicknesse , to that sinne , that sinfull carelesnesse , by which I haue occasioned my relapse . And amongst the many weights that aggrauate a relapse , this also is one , that a relapse proceeds with a more violent dispatch , and more irremediably , because it finds the Countrie weakned , and depopulated before . Vpon a sicknesse , which as yet appeares not , wee can scarce fix a feare , because wee know not what to feare ; but as feare is the busiest and irksomest affection , so is a relapse ( which is still ready to come ) into that , which is but newly gone , the nearest obiect , the most immediate exercise of that affection of fear● . 23. EXPOSTVLATION . MY God , my God , my God , thou mightie Father , who hast beene my Physitian ; Thou glorious Sonne , who hast beene my physicke ; Thou blessed Spirit , who hast prepared and applied all to mee , shall I alone bee able to ouerthrow the worke of all you , and relapse into those spirituall sicknesses , from which your infinite mercies haue withdrawne me ? Though thou , O my God , h●ue filled my measure with mercie , yet my measure was not so large , as that of thy whole people , the Nation , the numerous and glorious nation of Israel ; and yet how often , how often did they fall into relapses ? And then , where is my assurance ? how easily thou passedst ouer many other sinnes in them , and how vehemently thou insistedst in those , into which they so often relapsed ; Those were their murmurings against thee , in thine Instruments , and Ministers , and their turnings vpon other gods , and embracing the Idolatries of their neighbours . O my God , how slipperie a way , to how irrecouerable a bottome , is murmuring ? and how neere thy selfe hee comes , that murmures at him , who comes from thee ? The Magistrate is the garment in which thou apparellest thy selfe ; and hee that shoots at the cloathes , cannot say , hee meant no ill to the man : Thy people were feareful examples of that ; for , how often did their murmuring against thy Ministers , end in a departing from thee ? when they would haue other officers , they would haue other gods ; and still to daies murmuring , was to morrowes Idolatrie ; As their murmuring induced Idolatrie , and they relapsed often into both , I haue found in my selfe , O my God , ( O my God , thou hast found it in me , and thy finding it , hath shewed it to me ) such a transmigration of sinne , as makes mee afraid of relapsing too . The soule of sinne , ( for wee haue made sinne immortall , and it must haue a soule ) The soule of sinne , is disobedience to thee ; and when one sinne hath beene dead in mee , that soule hath passed into another sinne . Our youth dies , and the sinnes of our youth with it ; some sinnes die a violent death , and some a naturall ; pouertie , penurie , imprisonment , banishment , kill some sinnes in vs , and some die of age ; many waies wee become vnable to doe that sinne ; but still the soule liues , and passes into another sinne ; and that , that was licentiousnesse , growes ambition , and that comes to indeuotion , and spirituall coldnesse ; wee haue three liues , in our state of sinne ; and where the sinnes o● youth expire , those of our middle yeeres enter ; and those of our age after them . This transmigration of sinne , found in my selfe , makes me afraid , O my God , of a Relapse : but the occasion of my feare , is more pregnant ●han so ; for , I haue had , I haue multiplied Relapses already . Why , O my God , is a relapse so odious to thee ? Not so much their murmuring , and their Idolatry , as their relapsing into those sinnes , seemes to affect thee , in thy disobedient people . They limited the holy one of Israel , as ●hou complainest of them : That was a murmuring ; but before thou chargest them with the fault it selfe , in the same place , thou chargest them , with the iterating , the redoubling of ●hat fault , before the fault was named ; How oft did they prouoke mee in the Wildernesse ; and grieue me in the Desart ? That which brings thee to that exasperation against them , as to say , that thou wouldest breake thine owne oath , rather than leaue them vnpunished , ( They shall not see the land , which I sware vnto their fathers ) was because they had tempted thee ten times , infinitely ; vpon that , thou threatnest with that vehemencie , if ye do in any wise goe backe , know for a certainty , God will no more driue out any of these Nations from before you ; but they shall be snares , and traps vnto you , and scourges in your sides , and thornes in your eies , till ye perish . No tongue , but thine owne , O my GOD , can expresse thine indignation , against a Nation relapsing to Idolatry . Idolatry in any Nation is deadly ; but when the disease is complicated with a relapse ( a knowledge and a profession of a former recouerie ) it is desperate : And thine anger workes , not onely where the euidence is pregnant , and without exception , ( so thou saiest , when it is said , That certaine men in a Citie , haue withdrawne others to Idolatrie , and that inquirie is made , and it is found true , the Citie , and the inhabitants , and the Cattell are to bee destroied ) but where there is but a suspicion , a rumor , of such a relapse to Idolatrie , thine anger is awakened , and thine indignation stirred . In the gouernment of thy seruant Iosua , there was a voice , that Reuben and Gad , with those of Manasseh , had built a new altar . Israel doth not send one to enquire ; but the whole congregation gathered to goe vp to warre against them ; and there went a Prince of euery Tribe : And they obiect to them , not so much their present declination to Idolatry , as their Relapse ; is the iniquity of Peor too little for vs ? An idolatry formerly committed , and punished with the slaughter of twenty foure thousand delinquents . At last Reuben , and Gad satisfie them , that that Altar was not built for Idolatry , but built as a patterne of theirs , that they might thereby professe themselues to bee of the same profession , that they were ; and so the Army returned without bloud . Euen where it comes not so farre , as to an actuall Relapse into Idolatry , Thou , O my GOD , becommest sensible of it ; though thou , who seest the heart all the way , preuentest all dangerous effects , where there was no ill meaning , how euer there were occasion of suspicious rumours , giuen to thine Israel , of relapsing . So odious to thee , & so aggrauating a weight vpon sinne , is a relapse . But , O my God , why is it so ? so odious ? It must bee so , because hee that hath sinned , and then repented , hath weighed God and the Deuill in a ballance ; hee hath heard God and the Deuill plead ; and after hearing , giuen Iudgement on that side , to which he adheres , by his subsequent practise ; if he returne to his sinne , hee decrees for Satan ; he prefers sinne before grace , and Satan before God ; and in contempt of God , declares the precedency for his aduersary : And a contempt wounds deeper than an iniury ; a relapse deeper , than a blasphemy . And when thou hast told me , that a relapse is more odious to thee , neede I aske why it is more dangerous , more pernitious to me ? Is there any other measure of the greatnesse of my danger , than the greatnesse of thy displeasure ? How fitly , and how fearefully hast thou expressed my case , in a storm ●t Sea , if I relapse ? ( They mount vp to Heauen , and they goe downe againe to the depth : ) My sicknesse brought mee to thee in repentance , and my relapse hath cast mee farther from thee : The end of that man shall be worse than the beginning , saies thy Word , thy Sonne ; My beginning was sicknesse , punishment for sin ; but a worse thing may follow , saies he also , if I sin againe : not onely death , which is an ●nd , worse than sicknesse , which was the beginning , but Hell , which is a beginning worse than that end . Thy great seruant denied thy Sonne , and he denied him againe ; but all before Repentance ; here was no relapse . O , if thou haddest euer re-admitted Adam into Paradise , how abstinently would hee haue walked by that tree ? and would not the Angels , that fell , haue fixed themselues vpon thee , if thou hadst once re-admitted them to thy sight ? They neuer relapsed ; If I doe , must not my case be as desperate ? Not so desperate , for , as thy Maiestie , so is thy Mercie , both infinite : and thou who hast commanded me to pardon my brother seuenty seuen times , hast limited thy selfe to no Number . If death were ill in it selfe , thou wouldest neuer haue raised any dead Man , to life againe , because that man must necessarily die againe . If thy Mercy , in pardoning , did so farre aggrauate a Relapse , as that there were no more mercy after it , our case were the worse for that former Mercy ; for who is not vnder , euen a necessity of sinning , whilst hee is here , if wee place this necssity in our own infirmity , and not in thy Decree ? But I speak not this , O my God , as preparing a way to my Relapse out of presumption , but to preclude all accesses of desperation , though out of infirmity , I should Relapse . 23. PRAYER . O Eternall and most gracious God , who though thou beest euer infinite , yet enlargest thy selfe , by the Number of our prayers , and takest our often petitions to thee , to be an addition to thy glory , and thy greatnesse , as euer vpon all occa●ions , so now , O my God , I come to thy Maiestie with two Prayers , two Supplications . I haue Meditated vpon the Ielouzie , which thou h●st of thine owne honour ; and considered , that Nothing can come neerer a violating of that h●nor , neerer to the Nature of a scorne to thee , then to sue out thy P●rdon , and receiue the Seal●s of Reconciliation to thee , and then returne to th●t sinne , for which I needed , and had thy pardon before . I know that this comes to neare , to a making thy holy Ordinances , thy Word , thy Sacraments , thy Seales , thy Grace , instruments of my Spirituall Fornications . Since therefore thy Correction hath brought mee to such a participation of thy selfe ( thy selfe , O my God , cannot bee parted ) to such an intire possession of thee , as that I durst deliuer my selfe ouer to thee this Minute , If this Minute thou wouldst accept my dissolution , preserue me , O my God the God of constancie , and perseuerance , in this state , from all relapses into those sinnes , which haue induc'd thy former Iudgements vpon me . But because , by too lamentable Experience , I I know how slippery my customs of sinne , haue made my wayes of sinne , I presume to adde this petition too , That if my infirmitie ouertake mee , thou forsake mee not . Say to my Soule , My Sonne , thou hast sinned , doe so no more ; but say also , that though I doe , thy Spirit of Remorce , and Compunction shall neuer depart from mee . Thy Holy Apostle , Saint Paul , was shipwrackd thrice ; & yet stil saued . Though the rockes , and the sands , the heights , and the shallowes , the prosperitie , and the aduersitie of this world do diuersly threaten mee , though mine owne leakes endanger mee , yet , O God , let mee neuer put my selfe aboard with Hymeneus , nor make shipwracke of faith , and a good Conscience , and then thy long-liud , thy euerlasting Mercy , will visit me , though that , which I most earnestly pray against , should fall vpon mee , a relapse into those sinnes , which I haue truely repented , and thou hast fully pardoned . FINIS . Notes, typically marginal, from the original text Notes for div A20631-e1510 Gen. 28.16 . Mat. 13● 16. 2 Reg. 4.40 . Prou. 13.17 . Esa. 58.8 1 Sam. 24 15. 2 Sam. 9.8 . 2 Sam. 24.14 . Psa. 34.8 Prou. 14.30 . Psa. 38.3 Ibid. Mat. 19.13 . Amos 6 4. Psal. 132 3. Apoc. 2.22 . Mat. 8.6 8.4 . 8.14 . Psa. 26.8 . 84.4 . 5.8 . 69.10 . 1 Cor. 9.27 . 2. Reg. 2.11 . Exod. 21 18. Psa. 41.3 Psal. 4.4 . Iob 13.3 . Ez●c . 47.12 . Ioh. 5.6 Ier. 8.22 Ecclus. 38.4 Ecclus. 38.15 . 1. Chro. 16.12 . Ecclus ●8 . 9 Ps. 6.2 : v. 10. v , 12. Act. 9. ●4 . Luc. 5.17 . Apo. 22 . 2● . Ier. 51.9 . Ose : 5.13 . Esa. 2 Ch●o : 7.14 . Ezech : 47.11 . Mat. 4.23 . Luc. 6.19 . Io : 7.23 . 2. Reg. 20. ● . Num : 12.14 . Io : 13.23 . Num ; 23.9 Deu : 33.28 . Eccles. 4.10 . Sap. 1.9 . Mat. 14.23 . Mat. 26.13 . Io. 8.16 . Psa. 38.11 . Esa. 63.3 . 1. reg● ●4 . 14 . Luc. 10.40 . Ier. 1.1 . Leu : 13.46 . Exo : 14.2 . Gen. 32.24 . Ecclus. 6.16 . 2 Sam : 3.11 9.34 . Iob 9.34 . Luc : 18.1 . Luc. 11.5 . Psa. 27.1 . Num : 14.9 . Ps : 35.70 . 46.5 Ecclus 41 3. Mar. 6.20 . Psa : 25.14 . Pro : 2.5 . Act. 9.31 . Gen. 3.10 . Pro : 1.26 : 10.24 . Ps : 14.5 . 53 6. Io : 7.13 . 19.38 . 29.19 . Esai : 33.6 . Mat. 8.26 . Iud : 7.3 . Apo : 21.8 . Iob. 6.20 . Mat. 28.8 . Ps : 111.10 . Pro. 1.7 . Ecclus. 1.20.27 . Deu : 4.10 , Heb : 11.7 . Ecclus : 18.27 . 2 Sam. 18 25. So al , but our Translation takes it . Euen Burcdorf . & Schindler . 2.4.11 . Exod. 18 13. Num. 11 16. Heb. 1.6 Mat. 26.53 . Mat. 25.31 . Luc. 21.15 . Io. 20.12 . Gen. 28.12 . Psa. 91.13 . Gen. 19.15 . Apo. 1.20 . Apo. 8.2 . Mat. 13.39 . Luc. 16.22 . Apoc. 21.12 . 1. Reg. 19.35 . Luc. 4.18 . Eph. 4.11 . 1. Pet 2.25 . Io. 20.22 . Ecclus. 13.23 . Augustus , 2 Sam. 19.12 . 2 Sam. 24. ●● . v. 17. 2 Chro. 14.8 . 2. Chro. 25.16 . 42.13 . 9.6 . 11.2 . Gen. 1.26 . Iob. 1. Tim. 4.1 . Ose. 4.12 Esa. 19.14 . Apoc. 7.1 . Iosephus . Iere. 9.21 Io. 8.44 . Ioh. 6.70 Ps. 19.12 Esay 47.10 . Gen. 4.10 . Ier. 20.27 . Eccle. 10.20 . Gen. 3.8 . Eccles. 12.14 . Mat. 10.26 . Psal. 32.34 . 8.5 . Prou. 23.26 . Iob. 1.8 Ier. 17 9 Gen. 6.5 Amos 4.14 . 1 Sam. 13 14. Ier. 3.15 . Ezech. 11 19. Eccles. 7.26 . Prou. 28.26 . Io. 13.2 . Ecclus. 50.23 . Leuit. 26 36. Ios. 2.11 . 1 Sam. 7.3 . 2. Cor. 1.22 . 1. Sam. 25.37 . 24.5 . 1. Sam. 24.10 . 1. Reg. 8.38 . Phil. 4.7 Coma , latro . in Val. Max. Ardionus . 4.14 . Gen. 2.6 . Leuit. 16 23. Ezech. 8.11 . Sap. 7.24 . Sap. 11.18 . Ioel. 2.30 . Act. 2.19 . Psa. 78.8 . Esa. 6.4 . Apo. 9.2 . Psa. 91.13 . Eze. 7.16 37.3 . Can. 4.7 . Iud. 23. Iob 9.30 . Ephes. 5.29 . Iosua 22.17 . Sap. 13.14 . Gen. 30.33 . Mat. 9.12 . Iob 11.15 . Dan. 7 , 9. Mat. 20.6 . 6●34 . 4.10 . 2 . 16● 2. Cor. 6.2 . Apoc. 6.17 . Eph. 6.1 . 3. Ioh. v. 2. Heb. 1.2 . 2. Thes. 5.8 . Mat. 23 . 30● Mat. 22.15 : V. 23. V. 34. V. 46. Gen. 32.26 . 2 Pet. 3.8 Ecclus. 41.1 . Mat. 28.20 . Psa. 121.1 . 2 Pet. 2.3 . Psa. 127 1. Leu. 26.6 . Ion. 1.5 . Mat. 8.24 . Io. 11.12 . Eccles. 8.16 . Pro. 4.16 . Eccles. 5.12 . Mat. 13.25.28.13 . 26.40 . Iud. 16.3 . vers . 19. Eph. 5.14 . 1 Thes. 5.6 . Ier. 51.59 . Can. 5.8 1 Thes. 5.6 . vers . 10. Magius . Antwerp Roan . Roccha . Num. 10 1. Exo. 18. Apoc. 14 13. Gen. 49.1 . Deut. 33 1. 2 Reg. 20.1 . 2 Pet. 2.13 . Ioh. 14.1 . Psal. 31.5 . Leuit. 21 1. Sap. 14.14 . Sap. 13.9 . Sap. 13.18 . Esay 8.14 . Deu. 33.6 . Zechar. 11.9 . Iud. 12. Exo. 12.30 . Apo. 1.5 . 1 Sam. 19.11 . Apoc. 3 . 2● Iud. 6.23 Num. 20.26 . 1 Reg. 16 18. Ioh. 8.21 Vers. 24. Esay 66.14 . Psal. 46.3 . Psa. 33.7 Psa. 8.29 Ios. 3.17 Ecelus . 43.24 . vers . 27. Sap. 14.3 . Act. 17.11 . Luc. 5.3 . Act. 27.24 . Mar. 5.2 . Act. 27.31 . Iac. 3.4 . Apo. 8.9 . Io. 6.21 . Lam. 3.26 . Exo. 13.21 . 16.10 . 1 Reg. 19.43 . August . Eccles. 11.4 . Prou. 10 4. Psal. 24.3 . Exod. 31.29 . 1 Sam. 22.17 . Leuit. 8.36 . Gal●n . Galen . Galen . Psa. 106 12. Mar. 15 23. Io. 12.28 . Mat. 27 46.50 . Deut. 5.22 . 2 Sam. 22.14 . Psal. 68 33. Psal. 29. Io. 5.25 . Apo. 1.12 . Iob. 4.16 Psa. 93.3.4 . Ecclus. 8.8 . Ibid. v. 7. 1 Sam. 19.15 . 2 Chro. 24.25 . Amos 3.12 . Act. 5.15 . Mat. 96 Leu. 5.2 Num. 15 22. Rom. 1.32 . Eph. 2.3 . 1 ●o . 3.4 . Rom. 7.23 . Ier. 6.7 . 7.26 . Iacob . 1.14 . Gen. 3.6 . 1 Reg. 1● . 3 . 1 Reg. 21 1 Par. 22 3. Lu● . 23.23 . Act. 12.3 . Eph. 4.22 . 1 Cor. 5.7 . Psal. 78.41 . Num. 14 22. Ios. 23.12 . Deut. 13 12. I●s . 22.11 . 1.12 . Num. 25 4. Tertull. Psa. 107 26. Mat. 12.45 . Io. 8.14 . Mar. 14 70. Ecclus. 2.18 . Ecclus. 21.1 . 2. Cor. 11.25 . Timo. 1.19 .