and revised by joseph e. loewenstein, m.d. note: project gutenberg also has an html version of this file which includes the illustrations by george housman thomas from the first edition (smith, elder and co., ). see -h.htm or -h.zip: (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h/ -h.htm) or (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h.zip) the last chronicle of barset by anthony trollope first published in monthly installments from december , , to july , , and in book form in [illustration: mr. crawley before the magistrates. (frontispiece)] contents i. how did he get it? ii. by heavens he had better not! iii. the archdeacon's threat iv. the clergyman's house at hogglestock v. what the world thought about it vi. grace crawley vii. miss prettyman's private room viii. mr. crawley is taken to silverbridge ix. grace crawley goes to allington x. dinner at framley court xi. the bishop sends his inhibition xii. mr. crawley seeks for sympathy xiii. the bishop's angel xiv. major grantly consults a friend xv. up in london xvi. down at allington xvii. mr. crawley is summoned to barchester xviii. the bishop of barchester is crushed xix. where did it come from? xx. what mr. walker thought about it xxi. mr. robarts on his embassy xxii. major grantly at home xxiii. miss lily dale's resolution xxiv. mrs. dobbs broughton's dinner-party xxv. miss madalina demolines xxvi. the picture xxvii. a hero at home xxviii. showing how major grantly took a walk xxix. miss lily dale's logic xxx. showing what major grantly did after his walk xxxi. showing how major grantly returned to guestwick xxxii. mr. toogood xxxiii. the plumstead foxes xxxiv. mrs. proudie sends for her lawyer xxxv. lily dale writes two words in her book xxxvi. grace crawley returns home xxxvii. hook court xxxviii. jael xxxix. a new flirtation xl. mr. toogood's ideas about society xli. grace crawley at home xlii. mr. toogood travels professionally xliii. mr. crosbie goes into the city xliv. "i suppose i must let you have it" xlv. lily dale goes to london xlvi. the bayswater romance xlvii. dr. tempest at the palace xlviii. the softness of sir raffle buffle xlix. near the close l. lady lufton's proposition li. mrs. dobbs broughton piles her fagots lii. why don't you have an "it" for yourself? liii. rotten row liv. the clerical commission lv. framley parsonage lvi. the archdeacon goes to framley lvii. a double pledge lviii. the cross-grainedness of men lix. a lady presents her compliments to miss l. d. lx. the end of jael and sisera lxi. "it's dogged as does it" lxii. mr. crawley's letter to the dean lxiii. two visitors to hogglestock lxiv. the tragedy in hook court lxv. miss van siever makes her choice lxvi. requiescat in pace lxvii. in memoriam lxviii. the obstinacy of mr. crawley lxix. mr. crawley's last appearance in his own pulpit lxx. mrs. arabin is caught lxxi. mr. toogood at silverbridge lxxii. mr. toogood at "the dragon of wantly" lxxiii. there is comfort at plumstead lxxiv. the crawleys are informed lxxv. madalina's heart is bleeding lxxvi. i think he is light of heart lxxvii. the shattered tree lxxviii. the arabins return to barchester lxxix. mr. crawley speaks of his coat lxxx. miss demolines desires to become a finger-post lxxxi. barchester cloisters lxxxii. the last scene at hogglestock lxxxiii. mr. crawley is conquered lxxxiv. conclusion titled illustrations mr. crawley before the magistrates. frontispiece mr. and mrs. crawley. chapter i "i love you as though you were my own," said the schoolmistress. chapter vi "a convicted thief," repeated mrs. proudie. chapter xi "speak out, dan." chapter xii grace crawley is introduced to squire dale. chapter xvi farmer mangle and mr. crawley. chapter xvii "she's more like eleanor than any one else." chapter xxii "i am very glad to have the opportunity of shaking hands with you." chapter xxiv "what do you think of it, mrs. broughton?" chapter xxvi squire dale and major grantly. chapter xxviii "never mind mr. henry." chapter xxxiii lily wishes that they might swear to be brother and sister. chapter xxxv she read the beginning--"dearest grace." chapter xxxvi "mamma, i've got something to tell you." chapter xli mr. toogood and the old waiter. chapter xlii they pronounced her to be very much like a lady. chapter xlv "as right as a trivet, uncle." chapter xlviii posy and her grandpapa. chapter xlix mrs. dobbs broughton piles her fagots. chapter li "because of papa's disgrace." chapter lv "but it will never pass away," said grace. chapter lvii "honour thy father,--that thy days may be long in the land." chapter lviii "it's dogged as does it." chapter lxi mrs. proudie's emissary. chapter lxiii "you do not know what starving is, my dear." chapter lxv "they will come to hear a ruined man declare his own ruin." chapter lxix "no sale after all?" chapter lxxi "these are the young hogglestockians, are they?" chapter lxxiv the last denial. chapter lxxvii "what is it that i behold?" chapter lxxx "peradventure he signifies his consent." chapter lxxxii chapter i. how did he get it? [illustration] "i can never bring myself to believe it, john," said mary walker, the pretty daughter of mr. george walker, attorney of silverbridge. walker and winthrop was the name of the firm, and they were respectable people, who did all the solicitors' business that had to be done in that part of barsetshire on behalf of the crown, were employed on the local business of the duke of omnium who is great in those parts, and altogether held their heads up high, as provincial lawyers often do. they,--the walkers,--lived in a great brick house in the middle of the town, gave dinners, to which the county gentlemen not unfrequently condescended to come, and in a mild way led the fashion in silverbridge. "i can never bring myself to believe it, john," said miss walker. "you'll have to bring yourself to believe it," said john, without taking his eyes from his book. "a clergyman,--and such a clergyman too!" "i don't see that that has anything to do with it." and as he now spoke, john did take his eyes off his book. "why should not a clergyman turn thief as well as anybody else? you girls always seem to forget that clergymen are only men after all." "their conduct is likely to be better than that of other men, i think." "i deny it utterly," said john walker. "i'll undertake to say that at this moment there are more clergymen in debt in barsetshire than there are either lawyers or doctors. this man has always been in debt. since he has been in the county i don't think he has ever been able to show his face in the high street of silverbridge." "john, that is saying more than you have a right to say," said mrs. walker. "why, mother, this very cheque was given to a butcher who had threatened a few days before to post bills all about the county, giving an account of the debt that was due to him, if the money was not paid at once." "more shame for mr. fletcher," said mary. "he has made a fortune as butcher in silverbridge." "what has that to do with it? of course a man likes to have his money. he had written three times to the bishop, and he had sent a man over to hogglestock to get his little bill settled six days running. you see he got it at last. of course, a tradesman must look for his money." "mamma, do you think that mr. crawley stole the cheque?" mary, as she asked the question, came and stood over her mother, looking at her with anxious eyes. "i would rather give no opinion, my dear." "but you must think something when everybody is talking about it, mamma." "of course my mother thinks he did," said john, going back to his book. "it is impossible that she should think otherwise." "that is not fair, john," said mrs. walker; "and i won't have you fabricate thoughts for me, or put the expression of them into my mouth. the whole affair is very painful, and as your father is engaged in the inquiry, i think that the less said about the matter in this house the better. i am sure that that would be your father's feeling." "of course i should say nothing about it before him," said mary. "i know that papa does not wish to have it talked about. but how is one to help thinking about such a thing? it would be so terrible for all of us who belong to the church." "i do not see that at all," said john. "mr. crawley is not more than any other man just because he's a clergyman. i hate all that kind of clap-trap. there are a lot of people here in silverbridge who think the matter shouldn't be followed up, just because the man is in a position which makes the crime more criminal in him than it would be in another." "but i feel sure that mr. crawley has committed no crime at all," said mary. "my dear," said mrs. walker, "i have just said that i would rather you would not talk about it. papa will be in directly." "i won't, mamma;--only--" "only! yes; just only!" said john. "she'd go on till dinner if any one would stay to hear her." "you've said twice as much as i have, john." but john had left the room before his sister's last words could reach him. "you know, mamma, it is quite impossible not to help thinking of it," said mary. "i dare say it is, my dear." "and when one knows the people it does make it so dreadful." "but do you know them? i never spoke to mr. crawley in my life, and i do not think i ever saw her." "i knew grace very well,--when she used to come first to miss prettyman's school." "poor girl. i pity her." "pity her! pity is no word for it, mamma. my heart bleeds for them. and yet i do not believe for a moment that he stole the cheque. how can it be possible? for though he may have been in debt because they have been so very, very poor; yet we all know that he has been an excellent clergyman. when the robartses were dining here last, i heard mrs. robarts say that for piety and devotion to his duties she had hardly ever seen any one equal to him. and the robartses know more of them than anybody." "they say that the dean is his great friend." "what a pity it is that the arabins should be away just now when he is in such trouble." and in this way the mother and daughter went on discussing the question of the clergyman's guilt in spite of mrs. walker's previously expressed desire that nothing more might be said about it. but mrs. walker, like many other mothers, was apt to be more free in converse with her daughter than she was with her son. while they were thus talking the father came in from his office, and then the subject was dropped. he was a man between fifty and sixty years of age, with grey hair, rather short, and somewhat corpulent, but still gifted with that amount of personal comeliness which comfortable position and the respect of others will generally seem to give. a man rarely carries himself meanly, whom the world holds high in esteem. "i am very tired, my dear," said mr. walker. "you look tired. come and sit down for a few minutes before you dress. mary, get your father's slippers." mary instantly ran to the door. "thanks, my darling," said the father. and then he whispered to his wife, as soon as mary was out of hearing, "i fear that unfortunate man is guilty. i fear he is! i fear he is!" "oh, heavens! what will become of them?" "what indeed? she has been with me to-day." "has she? and what could you say to her?" "i told her at first that i could not see her, and begged her not to speak to me about it. i tried to make her understand that she should go to some one else. but it was of no use." "and how did it end?" "i asked her to go in to you, but she declined. she said you could do nothing for her." "and does she think her husband guilty?" "no, indeed. she think him guilty! nothing on earth,--or from heaven either, as i take it, would make her suppose it to be possible. she came to me simply to tell me how good he was." "i love her for that," said mrs. walker. "so did i. but what is the good of loving her? thank you, dearest. i'll get your slippers for you some day, perhaps." the whole county was astir in this matter of this alleged guilt of the reverend josiah crawley,--the whole county, almost as keenly as the family of mr. walker, of silverbridge. the crime laid to his charge was the theft of a cheque for twenty pounds, which he was said to have stolen out of a pocket-book left or dropped in his house, and to have passed as money into the hands of one fletcher, a butcher of silverbridge, to whom he was indebted. mr. crawley was in those days the perpetual curate of hogglestock, a parish in the northern extremity of east barsetshire; a man known by all who knew anything of him to be very poor,--an unhappy, moody, disappointed man, upon whom the troubles of the world always seemed to come with a double weight. but he had ever been respected as a clergyman, since his old friend mr. arabin, the dean of barchester, had given him the small incumbency which he now held. though moody, unhappy, and disappointed, he was a hard-working, conscientious pastor among the poor people with whom his lot was cast; for in the parish of hogglestock there resided only a few farmers higher in degree than field labourers, brickmakers, and such like. mr. crawley had now passed some ten years of his life at hogglestock; and during those years he had worked very hard to do his duty, struggling to teach the people around him perhaps too much of the mystery, but something also of the comfort, of religion. that he had become popular in his parish cannot be said of him. he was not a man to make himself popular in any position. i have said that he was moody and disappointed. he was even worse than this; he was morose, sometimes almost to insanity. there had been days in which even his wife had found it impossible to deal with him otherwise than as with an acknowledged lunatic. and this was known among the farmers, who talked about their clergyman among themselves as though he were a madman. but among the very poor, among the brickmakers of hoggle end,--a lawless, drunken, terribly rough lot of humanity,--he was held in high respect; for they knew that he lived hardly, as they lived; that he worked hard, as they worked; and that the outside world was hard to him, as it was to them; and there had been an apparent sincerity of godliness about the man, and a manifest struggle to do his duty in spite of the world's ill-usage, which had won its way even with the rough; so that mr. crawley's name had stood high with many in his parish, in spite of the unfortunate peculiarity of his disposition. this was the man who was now accused of stealing a cheque for twenty pounds. but before the circumstances of the alleged theft are stated, a word or two must be said as to mr. crawley's family. it is declared that a good wife is a crown to her husband, but mrs. crawley had been much more than a crown to him. as had regarded all the inner life of the man,--all that portion of his life which had not been passed in the pulpit or in pastoral teaching,--she had been crown, throne, and sceptre all in one. that she had endured with him and on his behalf the miseries of poverty, and the troubles of a life which had known no smiles, is perhaps not to be alleged as much to her honour. she had joined herself to him for better or worse, and it was her manifest duty to bear such things; wives always have to bear them, knowing when they marry that they must take their chance. mr. crawley might have been a bishop, and mrs. crawley, when she married him, perhaps thought it probable that such would be his fortune. instead of that he was now, just as he was approaching his fiftieth year, a perpetual curate, with an income of one hundred and thirty pounds per annum,--and a family. that had been mrs. crawley's luck in life, and of course she bore it. but she had also done much more than this. she had striven hard to be contented, or, rather, to appear to be contented, when he had been most wretched and most moody. she had struggled to conceal from him her own conviction as to his half-insanity, treating him at the same time with the respect due to an honoured father of a family, and with the careful measured indulgence fit for a sick and wayward child. in all the terrible troubles of their life her courage had been higher than his. the metal of which she was made had been tempered to a steel which was very rare and fine, but the rareness and fineness of which he had failed to appreciate. he had often told her that she was without pride, because she had stooped to receive from others, on his behalf and on behalf of her children, things which were very needful, but which she could not buy. he had told her that she was a beggar, and that it was better to starve than to beg. she had borne the rebuke without a word in reply, and had then begged again for him, and had endured the starvation herself. nothing in their poverty had, for years past, been a shame to her; but every accident of their poverty was still, and ever had been, a living disgrace to him. [illustration: mr. and mrs. crawley.] they had had many children, and three were still alive. of the eldest, grace crawley, we shall hear much in the coming story. she was at this time nineteen years old, and there were those who said that, in spite of her poverty, her shabby outward apparel, and a certain thin, unfledged, unrounded form of person, a want of fulness in the lines of her figure, she was the prettiest girl in that part of the world. she was living now at a school in silverbridge, where for the last year she had been a teacher; and there were many in silverbridge who declared that very bright prospects were opening to her,--that young major grantly of cosby lodge, who, though a widower with a young child, was the cynosure of all female eyes in and round silverbridge, had found beauty in her thin face, and that grace crawley's fortune was made in the teeth, as it were, of the prevailing ill-fortune of her family. bob crawley, who was two years younger, was now at marlbro' school, from whence it was intended that he should proceed to cambridge, and be educated there at the expense of his godfather, dean arabin. in this also the world saw a stroke of good luck. but then nothing was lucky to mr. crawley. bob, indeed, who had done very well at school, might do well at cambridge,--might do great things there. but mr. crawley would almost have preferred that the boy should work in the fields, than that he should be educated in a manner so manifestly eleemosynary. and then his clothes! how was he to be provided with clothes fit either for school or for college? but the dean and mrs. crawley between them managed this, leaving mr. crawley very much in the dark, as mrs. crawley was in the habit of leaving him. then there was a younger daughter, jane, still at home, who passed her life between her mother's work-table and her father's greek, mending linen and learning to scan iambics,--for mr. crawley in his early days had been a ripe scholar. and now there had come upon them all this terribly-crushing disaster. that poor mr. crawley had gradually got himself into a mess of debt at silverbridge, from which he was quite unable to extricate himself, was generally known by all the world both of silverbridge and hogglestock. to a great many it was known that dean arabin had paid money for him, very much contrary to his own consent, and that he had quarrelled, or attempted to quarrel, with the dean in consequence,--had so attempted, although the money had in part passed through his own hands. there had been one creditor, fletcher, the butcher of silverbridge, who had of late been specially hard upon poor crawley. this man, who had not been without good nature in his dealings, had heard stories of the dean's good-will and such like, and had loudly expressed his opinion that the perpetual curate of hogglestock would show a higher pride in allowing himself to be indebted to a rich brother clergyman, than in remaining under thrall to a butcher. and thus a rumour had grown up. and then the butcher had written repeated letters to the bishop,--to bishop proudie of barchester, who had at first caused his chaplain to answer them, and had told mr. crawley somewhat roundly what was his opinion of a clergyman who eat meat and did not pay for it. but nothing that the bishop could say or do enabled mr. crawley to pay the butcher. it was very grievous to such a man as mr. crawley to receive these letters from such a man as bishop proudie; but the letters came, and made festering wounds, but then there was an end of them. and at last there had come forth from the butcher's shop a threat that if the money were not paid by a certain date, printed bills should be posted about the county. all who heard of this in silverbridge were very angry with mr. fletcher, for no one there had ever known a tradesman to take such a step before; but fletcher swore that he would persevere, and defended himself by showing that six or seven months since, in the spring of the year, mr. crawley had been paying money in silverbridge, but had paid none to him,--to him who had been not only his earliest, but his most enduring creditor. "he got money from the dean in march," said mr. fletcher to mr. walker, "and he paid twelve pounds ten to green, and seventeen pounds to grobury, the baker." it was that seventeen pounds to grobury, the baker, for flour, which made the butcher so fixedly determined to smite the poor clergyman hip and thigh. "and he paid money to hall, and to mrs. holt, and to a deal more; but he never came near my shop. if he had even shown himself, i would not have said so much about it." and then a day before the date named, mrs. crawley had come to silverbridge, and had paid the butcher twenty pounds in four five-pound notes. so far fletcher the butcher had been successful. some six weeks after this, inquiry began to be made as to a certain cheque for twenty pounds drawn by lord lufton on his bankers in london, which cheque had been lost early in the spring by mr. soames, lord lufton's man of business in barsetshire, together with a pocket-book in which it had been folded. this pocket-book soames had believed himself to have left at mr. crawley's house, and had gone so far, even at the time of the loss, as to express his absolute conviction that he had so left it. he was in the habit of paying a rentcharge to mr. crawley on behalf of lord lufton, amounting to twenty pounds four shillings, every half-year. lord lufton held the large tithes of hogglestock, and paid annually a sum of forty pounds eight shillings to the incumbent. this amount was, as a rule, remitted punctually by mr. soames through the post. on the occasion now spoken of, he had had some reason for visiting hogglestock, and had paid the money personally to mr. crawley. of so much there was no doubt. but he had paid it by a cheque drawn by himself on his own bankers at barchester, and that cheque had been cashed in the ordinary way on the next morning. on returning to his own house in barchester he had missed his pocket-book, and had written to mr. crawley to make inquiry. there had been no money in it, beyond the cheque drawn by lord lufton for twenty pounds. mr. crawley had answered this letter by another, saying that no pocket-book had been found in his house. all this had happened in march. in october, mrs. crawley paid the twenty pounds to fletcher, the butcher, and in november lord lufton's cheque was traced back through the barchester bank to mr. crawley's hands. a brickmaker of hoggle end, much favoured by mr. crawley, had asked for change over the counter of this barchester bank,--not, as will be understood, the bank on which the cheque was drawn--and had received it. the accommodation had been refused to the man at first, but when he presented the cheque the second day, bearing mr. crawley's name on the back of it, together with a note from mr. crawley himself, the money had been given for it; and the identical notes so paid had been given to fletcher, the butcher, on the next day by mrs. crawley. when inquiry was made, mr. crawley stated that the cheque had been paid to him by mr. soames, on behalf of the rentcharge due to him by lord lufton. but the error of this statement was at once made manifest. there was the cheque, signed by mr. soames himself, for the exact amount,--twenty pounds four shillings. as he himself declared, he had never in his life paid money on behalf of lord lufton by a cheque drawn by his lordship. the cheque given by lord lufton, and which had been lost, had been a private matter between them. his lordship had simply wanted change in his pocket, and his agent had given it to him. mr. crawley was speedily shown to be altogether wrong in the statement made to account for possession of the cheque. then he became very moody and would say nothing further. but his wife, who had known nothing of his first statement when made, came forward and declared that she believed the cheque for twenty pounds to be a part of a present given by dean arabin to her husband in april last. there had been, she said, great heartburnings about this gift, and she had hardly dared to speak to her husband on the subject. an execution had been threatened in the house by grobury, the baker, of which the dean had heard. then there had been some scenes at the deanery between her husband and the dean and mrs. arabin, as to which she had subsequently heard much from mrs. arabin. mrs. arabin had told her that money had been given,--and at last taken. indeed, so much had been very apparent, as bills had been paid to the amount of at least fifty pounds. when the threat made by the butcher had reached her husband's ears, the effect upon him had been very grievous. all this was the story told by mrs. crawley to mr. walker, the lawyer, when he was pushing his inquiries. she, poor woman, at any rate told all that she knew. her husband had told her one morning, when the butcher's threat was weighing heavily on his mind, speaking to her in such a humour that she found it impossible to cross-question him, that he had still money left, though it was money which he had hoped that he would not be driven to use; and he had given her the four five-pound notes, and had told her to go to silverbridge and satisfy the man who was so eager for his money. she had done so, and had felt no doubt that the money so forthcoming had been given by the dean. that was the story as told by mrs. crawley. but how could she explain her husband's statement as to the cheque, which had been shown to be altogether false? all this passed between mr. walker and mrs. crawley, and the lawyer was very gentle with her. in the first stages of the inquiry he had simply desired to learn the truth, and place the clergyman above suspicion. latterly, being bound as he was to follow the matter up officially, he would not have seen mrs. crawley, had he been able to escape that lady's importunity. "mr. walker," she had said, at last, "you do not know my husband. no one knows him but i. it is hard to have to tell you of all our troubles." "if i can lessen them, trust me that i will do so," said the lawyer. "no one, i think, can lessen them in this world," said the lady. "the truth is, sir, that my husband often knows not what he says. when he declared that the money had been paid to him by mr. soames, most certainly he thought so. there are times when in his misery he knows not what he says,--when he forgets everything." up to this period mr. walker had not suspected mr. crawley of anything dishonest, nor did he suspect him as yet. the poor man had probably received the money from the dean, and had told the lie about it, not choosing to own that he had taken money from his rich friend, and thinking that there would be no further inquiry. he had been very foolish, and that would be the end of it. mr. soames was by no means so good-natured in his belief. "how should my pocket-book have got into dean arabin's hands?" said mr. soames, almost triumphantly. "and then i felt sure at the time that i had left it at crawley's house!" mr. walker wrote a letter to the dean, who at that moment was in florence, on his way to rome, from whence he was going on to the holy land. there came back a letter from mr. arabin, saying that on the th of march he had given to mr. crawley a sum of fifty pounds, and that the payment had been made with five bank of england notes of ten pounds each, which had been handed by him to his friend in the library at the deanery. the letter was very short, and may, perhaps, be described as having been almost curt. mr. walker, in his anxiety to do the best he could for mr. crawley, had simply asked a question as to the nature of the transaction between the two gentlemen, saying that no doubt the dean's answer would clear up a little mystery which existed at present respecting a cheque for twenty pounds. the dean in answer simply stated the fact as it has been given above; but he wrote to mr. crawley begging to know what was in truth this new difficulty, and offering any assistance in his power. he explained all the circumstances of the money, as he remembered them. the sum advanced had certainly consisted of fifty pounds, and there had certainly been five bank of england notes. he had put the notes into an envelope, which he had not closed, but had addressed to mr. crawley, and had placed this envelope in his friend's hands. he went on to say that mrs. arabin would have written, but that she was in paris with her son. mrs. arabin was to remain in paris during his absence in the holy land, and meet him in italy on his return. as she was so much nearer at hand, the dean expressed a hope that mrs. crawley would apply to her if there was any trouble. the letter to mr. walker was conclusive as to the dean's money. mr. crawley had not received lord lufton's cheque from the dean. then whence had he received it? the poor wife was left by the lawyer to obtain further information from her husband. ah, who can tell how terrible were the scenes between that poor pair of wretches, as the wife endeavoured to learn the truth from her miserable, half-maddened husband! that her husband had been honest throughout, she had not any shadow of doubt. she did not doubt that to her at least he endeavoured to tell the truth, as far as his poor racked imperfect memory would allow him to remember what was true and what was not true. the upshot of it all was that the husband declared that he still believed that the money had come to him from the dean. he had kept it by him, not wishing to use it if he could help it. he had forgotten it,--so he said at times,--having understood from arabin that he was to have fifty pounds, and having received more. if it had not come to him from the dean, then it had been sent to him by the prince of evil for his utter undoing; and there were times in which he seemed to think that such had been the manner in which the fatal cheque had reached him. in all that he said he was terribly confused, contradictory, unintelligible,--speaking almost as a madman might speak,--ending always by declaring that the cruelty of the world had been too much for him, that the waters were meeting over his head, and praying for god's mercy to remove him from the world. it need hardly be said that his poor wife in these days had a burden on her shoulders that was more than enough to crush any woman. she at last acknowledged to mr. walker that she could not account for the twenty pounds. she herself would write again to the dean about it, but she hardly hoped for any further assistance there. "the dean's answer is very plain," said mr. walker. "he says that he gave mr. crawley five ten-pound notes, and those five notes we have traced to mr. crawley's hands." then mrs. crawley could say nothing further beyond making protestations of her husband's innocence. chapter ii. by heavens he had better not! i must ask the reader to make the acquaintance of major grantly of cosby lodge, before he is introduced to the family of mr. crawley, at their parsonage in hogglestock. it has been said that major grantly had thrown a favourable eye on grace crawley,--by which report occasion was given to all men and women in those parts to hint that the crawleys, with all their piety and humility, were very cunning, and that one of the grantlys was,--to say the least of it,--very soft, admitted as it was throughout the county of barsetshire, that there was no family therein more widely awake to the affairs generally of this world and the next combined, than the family of which archdeacon grantly was the respected head and patriarch. mrs. walker, the most good-natured woman in silverbridge, had acknowledged to her daughter that she could not understand it,--that she could not see anything at all in grace crawley. mr. walker had shrugged his shoulders and expressed a confident belief that major grantly had not a shilling of his own beyond his half-pay and his late wife's fortune, which was only six thousand pounds. others, who were ill-natured, had declared that grace crawley was little better than a beggar, and that she could not possibly have acquired the manners of a gentlewoman. fletcher the butcher had wondered whether the major would pay his future father-in-law's debts; and dr. tempest, the old rector of silverbridge, whose four daughters were all as yet unmarried, had turned up his old nose, and had hinted that half-pay majors did not get caught in marriage so easily as that. such and such like had been the expressions of the opinion of men and women in silverbridge. but the matter had been discussed further afield than at silverbridge, and had been allowed to intrude itself as a most unwelcome subject into the family conclave of the archdeacon's rectory. to those who have not as yet learned the fact from the public character and well-appreciated reputation of the man, let it be known that archdeacon grantly was at this time, as he had been for many years previously, archdeacon of barchester and rector of plumstead episcopi. a rich and prosperous man he had ever been,--though he also had had his sore troubles, as we all have,--his having arisen chiefly from want of that higher ecclesiastical promotion which his soul had coveted, and for which the whole tenour of his life had especially fitted him. now, in his green old age, he had ceased to covet, but had not ceased to repine. he had ceased to covet aught for himself, but still coveted much for his children; and for him such a marriage as this which was now suggested for his son was encompassed almost with the bitterness of death. "i think it would kill me," he had said to his wife; "by heavens, i think it would be my death!" a daughter of the archdeacon had made a splendid matrimonial alliance,--so splendid that its history was at the time known to all the aristocracy of the county, and had not been altogether forgotten by any of those who keep themselves well instructed in the details of the peerage. griselda grantly had married lord dumbello, the eldest son of the marquis of hartletop,--than whom no english nobleman was more puissant, if broad acres, many castles, high title, and stars and ribbons are any signs of puissance,--and she was now, herself, marchioness of hartletop, with a little lord dumbello of her own. the daughter's visits to the parsonage of her father were of necessity rare, such necessity having come from her own altered sphere of life. a marchioness of hartletop has special duties which will hardly permit her to devote herself frequently to the humdrum society of a clerical father and mother. that it would be so, father and mother had understood when they sent the fortunate girl forth to a higher world. but, now and again, since her august marriage, she had laid her coroneted head upon one of the old rectory pillows for a night or so, and on such occasions all the plumsteadians had been loud in praise of her condescension. now it happened that when this second and more aggravated blast of the evil wind reached the rectory,--the renewed waft of the tidings as to major grantly's infatuation regarding miss grace crawley, which, on its renewal, seemed to bring with it something of confirmation,--it chanced, i say, that at that moment griselda, marchioness of hartletop, was gracing the paternal mansion. it need hardly be said that the father was not slow to invoke such a daughter's counsel, and such a sister's aid. i am not quite sure that the mother would have been equally quick to ask her daughter's advice, had she been left in the matter entirely to her own propensities. mrs. grantly had ever loved her daughter dearly, and had been very proud of that great success in life which griselda had achieved; but in late years, the child had become, as a woman, separate from the mother, and there had arisen, not unnaturally, a break of that close confidence which in early years had existed between them. griselda, marchioness of hartletop, was more than ever a daughter to the archdeacon, even though he might never see her. nothing could rob him of the honour of such a progeny,--nothing, even though there had been actual estrangement between them. but it was not so with mrs. grantly. griselda had done very well, and mrs. grantly had rejoiced; but she had lost her child. now the major, who had done well also, though in a much lesser degree, was still her child, moving in the same sphere of life with her, still dependent in a great degree upon his father's bounty, a neighbour in the county, a frequent visitor at the parsonage, and a visitor who could be received without any of that trouble which attended the unfrequent comings of griselda, the marchioness, to the home of her youth. and for this reason mrs. grantly, terribly put out as she was at the idea of a marriage between her son and one standing so poorly in the world's esteem as grace crawley, would not have brought forward the matter before her daughter, had she been left to her own desires. a marchioness in one's family is a tower of strength, no doubt; but there are counsellors so strong that we do not wish to trust them, lest in the trusting we ourselves be overwhelmed by their strength. now mrs. grantly was by no means willing to throw her influence into the hands of her titled daughter. but the titled daughter was consulted and gave her advice. on the occasion of the present visit to plumstead she had consented to lay her head for two nights on the parsonage pillows, and on the second evening her brother the major was to come over from cosby lodge to meet her. before his coming the affair of grace crawley was discussed. "it would break my heart, griselda," said the archdeacon, piteously--"and your mother's." "there is nothing against the girl's character," said mrs. grantly, "and the father and mother are gentlefolks by birth; but such a marriage for henry would be very unseemly." "to make it worse, there is this terrible story about him," said the archdeacon. "i don't suppose there is much in that," said mrs. grantly. "i can't say. there is no knowing. they told me to-day in barchester that soames is pressing the case against him." "who is soames, papa?" asked the marchioness. "he is lord lufton's man of business, my dear." "oh, lord lufton's man of business!" there was something of a sneer in the tone of the lady's voice as she mentioned lord lufton's name. "i am told," continued the archdeacon, "that soames declares the cheque was taken from a pocket-book which he left by accident in crawley's house." "you don't mean to say, archdeacon, that you think that mr. crawley--a clergyman--stole it!" said mrs. grantly. "i don't say anything of the kind, my dear. but supposing mr. crawley to be as honest as the sun, you wouldn't wish henry to marry his daughter." "certainly not," said the mother. "it would be an unfitting marriage. the poor girl has had no advantages." "he is not able even to pay his baker's bill. i always thought arabin was very wrong to place such a man in such a parish as hogglestock. of course the family could not live there." the arabin here spoken of was dr. arabin, dean of barchester. the dean and the archdeacon had married sisters, and there was much intimacy between the families. "after all it is only a rumour as yet," said mrs. grantly. "fothergill told me only yesterday, that he sees her almost every day," said the father. "what are we to do, griselda? you know how headstrong henry is." the marchioness sat quite still, looking at the fire, and made no immediate answer to this address. "there is nothing for it, but that you should tell him what you think," said the mother. "if his sister were to speak to him, it might do much," said the archdeacon. to this mrs. grantly said nothing; but mrs. grantly's daughter understood very well that her mother's confidence in her was not equal to her father's. lady hartletop said nothing, but still sat, with impassive face, and eyes fixed upon the fire. "i think that if you were to speak to him, griselda, and tell him that he would disgrace his family, he would be ashamed to go on with such a marriage," said the father. "he would feel, connected as he is with lord hartletop--" "i don't think he would feel anything about that," said mrs. grantly. "i dare say not," said lady hartletop. "i am sure he ought to feel it," said the father. they were all silent, and sat looking at the fire. "i suppose, papa, you allow henry an income," said lady hartletop, after a while. "indeed i do,--eight hundred a year." "then i think i should tell him that that must depend upon his conduct. mamma, if you won't mind ringing the bell, i will send for cecile, and go upstairs and dress." then the marchioness went upstairs to dress, and in about an hour the major arrived in his dog-cart. he also was allowed to go upstairs to dress before anything was said to him about his great offence. "griselda is right," said the archdeacon, speaking to his wife out of his dressing-room. "she always was right. i never knew a young woman with more sense than griselda." "but you do not mean to say that in any event you would stop henry's income?" mrs. grantly also was dressing, and made reply out of her bedroom. "upon my word, i don't know. as a father i would do anything to prevent such a marriage as that." "but if he did marry her in spite of the threat? and he would if he had once said so." "is a father's word, then, to go for nothing; and a father who allows his son eight hundred a year? if he told the girl that he would be ruined she couldn't hold him to it." "my dear, they'd know as well as i do, that you would give way after three months." "but why should i give way? good heavens--!" "of course you'd give way, and of course we should have the young woman here, and of course we should make the best of it." the idea of having grace crawley as a daughter at the plumstead rectory was too much for the archdeacon, and he resented it by additional vehemence in the tone of his voice, and a nearer personal approach to the wife of his bosom. all unaccoutred as he was, he stood in the doorway between the two rooms, and thence fulminated at his wife his assurances that he would never allow himself to be immersed in such a depth of humility as that she had suggested. "i can tell you this, then, that if ever she comes here, i shall take care to be away. i will never receive her here. you can do as you please." "that is just what i cannot do. if i could do as i pleased, i would put a stop to it at once." "it seems to me that you want to encourage him. a child about sixteen years of age!" "i am told she is nineteen." "what does it matter if she was fifty-nine? think of what her bringing up has been. think what it would be to have all the crawleys in our house for ever, and all their debts, and all their disgrace!" "i do not know that they have ever been disgraced." "you'll see. the whole county has heard of the affair of this twenty pounds. look at that dear girl upstairs, who has been such a comfort to us. do you think it would be fit that she and her husband should meet such a one as grace crawley at our table?" "i don't think it would do them a bit of harm," said mrs. grantly. "but there would be no chance of that, seeing that griselda's husband never comes to us." "he was here the year before last." "and i never was so tired of a man in all my life." "then you prefer the crawleys, i suppose. this is what you get from eleanor's teaching." eleanor was the dean's wife, and mrs. grantly's younger sister. "it has always been a sorrow to me that i ever brought arabin into the diocese." "i never asked you to bring him, archdeacon. but nobody was so glad as you when he proposed to eleanor." "well, the long and the short of it is this, i shall tell henry to-night that if he makes a fool of himself with this girl, he must not look to me any longer for an income. he has about six hundred a year of his own, and if he chooses to throw himself away, he had better go and live in the south of france, or in canada, or where he pleases. he shan't come here." "i hope he won't marry the girl, with all my heart," said mrs. grantly. "he had better not. by heavens, he had better not!" "but if he does, you'll be the first to forgive him." on hearing this the archdeacon slammed the door, and retired to his washing apparatus. at the present moment he was very angry with his wife, but then he was so accustomed to such anger, and was so well aware that it in truth meant nothing, that it did not make him unhappy. the archdeacon and mrs. grantly had now been man and wife for more than a quarter of a century, and had never in truth quarrelled. he had the most profound respect for her judgment, and the most implicit reliance on her conduct. she had never yet offended him, or caused him to repent the hour in which he had made her mrs. grantly. but she had come to understand that she might use a woman's privilege with her tongue; and she used it,--not altogether to his comfort. on the present occasion he was the more annoyed because he felt that she might be right. "it would be a positive disgrace, and i never would see him again," he said to himself. and yet as he said it, he knew that he would not have the strength of character to carry him through a prolonged quarrel with his son. "i never would see her,--never, never!" he said to himself. "and then such an opening as he might have at his sister's house." major grantly had been a successful man in life,--with the one exception of having lost the mother of his child within a twelvemonth of his marriage and within a few hours of that child's birth. he had served in india as a very young man, and had been decorated with the victoria cross. then he had married a lady with some money, and had left the active service of the army, with the concurring advice of his own family and that of his wife. he had taken a small place in his father's county, but the wife for whose comfort he had taken it had died before she was permitted to see it. nevertheless he had gone to reside there, hunting a good deal and farming a little, making himself popular in the district, and keeping up the good name of grantly in a successful way, till--alas,--it had seemed good to him to throw those favouring eyes on poor grace crawley. his wife had now been dead just two years, and as he was still under thirty, no one could deny it would be right that he should marry again. no one did deny it. his father had hinted that he ought to do so, and had generously whispered that if some little increase to the major's present income were needed, he might possibly be able to do something. "what is the good of keeping it?" the archdeacon had said in liberal after-dinner warmth; "i only want it for your brother and yourself." the brother was a clergyman. and the major's mother had strongly advised him to marry again without loss of time. "my dear henry," she had said, "you'll never be younger, and youth does go for something. as for dear little edith, being a girl, she is almost no impediment. do you know those two girls at chaldicotes?" "what, mrs. thorne's nieces?" "no; they are not her nieces but her cousins. emily dunstable is very handsome;--and as for money--!" "but what about birth, mother?" "one can't have everything, my dear." "as far as i am concerned, i should like to have everything or nothing," the major had said laughing. now for him to think of grace crawley after that,--of grace crawley who had no money, and no particular birth, and not even beauty itself,--so at least mrs. grantly said,--who had not even enjoyed the ordinary education of a lady, was too bad. nothing had been wanting to emily dunstable's education, and it was calculated that she would have at least twenty thousand pounds on the day of her marriage. the disappointment to the mother would be the more sore because she had gone to work upon her little scheme with reference to miss emily dunstable, and had at first, as she thought, seen her way to success,--to success in spite of the disparaging words which her son had spoken to her. mrs. thorne's house at chaldicotes,--or dr. thorne's house as it should, perhaps, be more properly called, for dr. thorne was the husband of mrs. thorne,--was in these days the pleasantest house in barsetshire. no one saw so much company as the thornes, or spent so much money in so pleasant a way. the great county families, the pallisers and the de courcys, the luftons and the greshams, were no doubt grander, and some of them were perhaps richer than the chaldicote thornes,--as they were called to distinguish them from the thornes of ullathorne; but none of these people were so pleasant in their ways, so free in their hospitality, or so easy in their modes of living, as the doctor and his wife. when first chaldicotes, a very old country seat, had by the chances of war fallen into their hands and been newly furnished, and newly decorated, and newly gardened, and newly greenhoused and hot-watered by them, many of the county people had turned up their noses at them. dear old lady lufton had done so, and had been greatly grieved,--saying nothing, however, of her grief, when her son and daughter-in-law had broken away from her, and submitted themselves to the blandishments of the doctor's wife. and the grantlys had stood aloof, partly influenced, no doubt, by their dear and intimate old friend miss monica thorne of ullathorne, a lady of the very old school, who, though good as gold and kind as charity, could not endure that an interloping mrs. thorne, who never had a grandfather, should come to honour and glory in the county, simply because of her riches. miss monica thorne stood out, but mrs. grantly gave way, and having once given way found that dr. thorne, and mrs. thorne, and emily dunstable, and chaldicote house together, were very charming. and the major had been once there with her, and had made himself very pleasant, and there had certainly been some little passage of incipient love between him and miss dunstable, as to which mrs. thorne, who managed everything, seemed to be well pleased. this had been after the first mention made by mrs. grantly to her son of emily dunstable's name, but before she had heard any faintest whispers of his fancy for grace crawley; and she had therefore been justified in hoping,--almost in expecting, that emily dunstable would be her daughter-in-law, and was therefore the more aggrieved when this terrible crawley peril first opened itself before her eyes. chapter iii. the archdeacon's threat. the dinner-party at the rectory comprised none but the grantly family. the marchioness had written to say that she preferred to have it so. the father had suggested that the thornes of ullathorne, very old friends, might be asked, and the greshams from boxall hill, and had even promised to endeavour to get old lady lufton over to the rectory, lady lufton having in former years been griselda's warm friend. but lady hartletop had preferred to see her dear father and mother in privacy. her brother henry she would be glad to meet, and hoped to make some arrangement with him for a short visit to hartlebury, her husband's place in shropshire,--as to which latter hint, it may, however, be at once said, that nothing further was spoken after the crawley alliance had been suggested. and there had been a very sore point mooted by the daughter in a request made by her to her father that she might not be called upon to meet her grandfather, her mother's father, mr. harding, a clergyman of barchester, who was now stricken in years.--"papa would not have come," said mrs. grantly, "but i think,--i do think--" then she stopped herself. "your father has odd ways sometimes, my dear. you know how fond i am of having him here myself." "it does not signify," said mrs. grantly. "do not let us say anything more about it. of course we cannot have everything. i am told the child does her duty in her sphere of life, and i suppose we ought to be contented." then mrs. grantly went up to her own room, and there she cried. nothing was said to the major on the unpleasant subject of the crawleys before dinner. he met his sister in the drawing-room, and was allowed to kiss her noble cheek. "i hope edith is well, henry," said the sister. "quite well; and little dumbello is the same, i hope?" "thank you, yes; quite well." then there seemed to be nothing more to be said between the two. the major never made inquiries after the august family, or would allow it to appear that he was conscious of being shone upon by the wife of a marquis. any adulation which griselda received of that kind came from her father, and, therefore, unconsciously she had learned to think that her father was better bred than the other members of her family, and more fitted by nature to move in that sacred circle to which she herself had been exalted. we need not dwell upon the dinner, which was but a dull affair. mrs. grantly strove to carry on the family party exactly as it would have been carried on had her daughter married the son of some neighbouring squire; but she herself was conscious of the struggle, and the fact of there being a struggle produced failure. the rector's servants treated the daughter of the house with special awe, and the marchioness herself moved, and spoke, and ate, and drank with a cold magnificence, which i think had become a second nature with her, but which was not on that account the less oppressive. even the archdeacon, who enjoyed something in that which was so disagreeable to his wife, felt a relief when he was left alone after dinner with his son. he felt relieved as his son got up to open the door for his mother and sister, but was aware at the same time that he had before him a most difficult and possibly a most disastrous task. his dear son henry was not a man to be talked smoothly out of, or into, any propriety. he had a will of his own, and having hitherto been a successful man, who in youth had fallen into few youthful troubles,--who had never justified his father in using stern parental authority,--was not now inclined to bend his neck. "henry," said the archdeacon, "what are you drinking? that's ' port, but it's not just what it should be. shall i send for another bottle?" "it will do for me, sir. i shall only take a glass." "i shall drink two or three glasses of claret. but you young fellows have become so desperately temperate." "we take our wine at dinner, sir." "by-the-by, how well griselda is looking." "yes, she is. it's always easy for women to look well when they're rich." how would grace crawley look, then, who was poor as poverty itself, and who should remain poor, if his son was fool enough to marry her? that was the train of thought which ran through the archdeacon's mind. "i do not think much of riches," said he, "but it is always well that a gentleman's wife or a gentleman's daughter should have a sufficiency to maintain her position in life." "you may say the same, sir, of everybody's wife and everybody's daughter." "you know what i mean, henry." "i am not quite sure that i do, sir." "perhaps i had better speak out at once. a rumour has reached your mother and me, which we don't believe for a moment, but which, nevertheless, makes us unhappy even as a report. they say that there is a young woman living in silverbridge to whom you are becoming attached." "is there any reason why i should not become attached to a young woman in silverbridge?--though i hope any young woman to whom i may become attached will be worthy at any rate of being called a young lady." "i hope so, henry; i hope so. i do hope so." "so much i will promise, sir; but i will promise nothing more." the archdeacon looked across into his son's face, and his heart sank within him. his son's voice and his son's eyes seemed to tell him two things. they seemed to tell him, firstly, that the rumour about grace crawley was true; and, secondly, that the major was resolved not to be talked out of his folly. "but you are not engaged to any one, are you?" said the archdeacon. the son did not at first make any answer, and then the father repeated the question. "considering our mutual positions, henry, i think you ought to tell me if you are engaged." "i am not engaged. had i become so, i should have taken the first opportunity of telling either you or my mother." "thank god. now, my dear boy, i can speak out more plainly. the young woman whose name i have heard is daughter to that mr. crawley who is perpetual curate at hogglestock. i knew that there could be nothing in it." "but there is something in it, sir." "what is there in it? do not keep me in suspense, henry. what is it you mean?" "it is rather hard to be cross-questioned in this way on such a subject. when you express yourself as thankful that there is nothing in the rumour, i am forced to stop you, as otherwise it is possible that hereafter you may say that i have deceived you." "but you don't mean to marry her?" "i certainly do not mean to pledge myself not to do so." "do you mean to tell me, henry, that you are in love with miss crawley?" then there was another pause, during which the archdeacon sat looking for an answer; but the major said never a word. "am i to suppose that you intend to lower yourself by marrying a young woman who cannot possibly have enjoyed any of the advantages of a lady's education? i say nothing of the imprudence of the thing; nothing of her own want of fortune; nothing of your having to maintain a whole family steeped in poverty; nothing of the debts and character of the father, upon whom, as i understand, at this moment there rests a very grave suspicion of--of--of--what i'm afraid i must call downright theft." "downright theft, certainly, if he were guilty." "i say nothing of all that; but looking at the young woman herself--" "she is simply the best educated girl whom it has ever been my lot to meet." "henry, i have a right to expect that you will be honest with me." "i am honest with you." "do you mean to ask this girl to marry you?" "i do not think that you have any right to ask me that question, sir." "i have a right at any rate to tell you this, that if you so far disgrace yourself and me, i shall consider myself bound to withdraw from you all the sanction which would be conveyed by my--my--my continued assistance." "do you intend me to understand that you will stop my income?" "certainly i should." "then, sir, i think you would behave to me most cruelly. you advised me to give up my profession." "not in order that you might marry grace crawley." "i claim the privilege of a man of my age to do as i please in such a matter as marriage. miss crawley is a lady. her father is a clergyman, as is mine. her father's oldest friend is my uncle. there is nothing on earth against her except her poverty. i do not think i ever heard of such cruelty on a father's part." "very well, henry." "i have endeavoured to do my duty by you, sir, always; and by my mother. you can treat me in this way, if you please, but it will not have any effect on my conduct. you can stop my allowance to-morrow, if you like it. i had not as yet made up my mind to make an offer to miss crawley, but i shall now do so to-morrow morning." this was very bad indeed, and the archdeacon was extremely unhappy. he was by no means at heart a cruel man. he loved his children dearly. if this disagreeable marriage were to take place, he would doubtless do exactly as his wife had predicted. he would not stop his son's income for a single quarter; and, though he went on telling himself that he would stop it, he knew in his own heart that any such severity was beyond his power. he was a generous man in money matters,--having a dislike for poverty which was not generous,--and for his own sake could not have endured to see a son of his in want. but he was terribly anxious to exercise the power which the use of the threat might give him. "henry," he said, "you are treating me badly, very badly. my anxiety has always been for the welfare of my children. do you think that miss crawley would be a fitting sister-in-law for that dear girl upstairs?" "certainly i do, or for any other dear girl in the world; excepting that griselda, who is not clever, would hardly be able to appreciate miss crawley, who is clever." "griselda not clever! good heavens!" then there was another pause, and as the major said nothing, the father continued his entreaties. "pray, pray think of what my wishes are, and your mother's. you are not committed as yet. pray think of us while there is time. i would rather double your income if i saw you marry any one that we could name here." "i have enough as it is, if i may only be allowed to know that it will not be capriciously withdrawn." the archdeacon filled his glass unconsciously, and sipped his wine, while he thought what further he might say. perhaps it might be better that he should say nothing further at the present moment. the major, however, was indiscreet, and pushed the question. "may i understand, sir, that your threat is withdrawn, and that my income is secure?" "what, if you marry this girl?" "yes, sir; will my income be continued to me if i marry miss crawley?" "no, it will not." then the father got up hastily, pushed the decanter back angrily from his hand, and without saying another word walked away into the drawing-room. that evening at the rectory was very gloomy. the archdeacon now and again said a word or two to his daughter, and his daughter answered him in monosyllables. the major sat apart moodily, and spoke to no one. mrs. grantly, understanding well what had passed, knew that nothing could be done at the present moment to restore family comfort; so she sat by the fire and knitted. exactly at ten they all went to bed. "dear henry," said the mother to her son the next morning; "think much of yourself, and of your child, and of us, before you take any great step in life." "i will, mother," said he. then he went out and put on his wrapper, and got into his dog-cart, and drove himself off to silverbridge. he had not spoken to his father since they were in the dining-room on the previous evening. when he started, the marchioness had not yet come downstairs; but at eleven she breakfasted, and at twelve she also was taken away. poor mrs. grantly had not had much comfort from her children's visits. chapter iv. the clergyman's house at hogglestock. [illustration] mrs. crawley had walked from hogglestock to silverbridge on the occasion of her visit to mr. walker, the attorney, and had been kindly sent back by that gentleman in his wife's little open carriage. the tidings she brought home with her to her husband were very grievous. the magistrates would sit on the next thursday,--it was then friday,--and mr. crawley had better appear before them to answer the charge made by mr. soames. he would be served with a summons, which he could obey of his own accord. there had been many points very closely discussed between walker and mrs. crawley, as to which there had been great difficulty in the choice of words which should be tender enough in regard to the feelings of the poor lady, and yet strong enough to convey to her the very facts as they stood. would mr. crawley come, or must a policeman be sent to fetch him? the magistrates had already issued a warrant for his apprehension. such in truth was the fact, but they had agreed with mr. walker, that as there was no reasonable ground for anticipating any attempt at escape on the part of the reverend gentleman, the lawyer might use what gentle means he could for ensuring the clergyman's attendance. could mrs. crawley undertake to say that he would appear? mrs. crawley did undertake either that her husband should appear on the thursday, or else that she would send over in the early part of the week and declare her inability to ensure his appearance. in that case it was understood the policeman must come. then mr. walker had suggested that mr. crawley had better employ a lawyer. upon this mrs. crawley had looked beseechingly up into mr. walker's face, and had asked him to undertake the duty. he was of course obliged to explain that he was already employed on the other side. mr. soames had secured his services, and though he was willing to do all in his power to mitigate the sufferings of the family, he could not abandon the duty he had undertaken. he named another attorney, however, and then sent the poor woman home in his wife's carriage. "i fear that unfortunate man is guilty. i fear he is," mr. walker had said to his wife within ten minutes of the departure of the visitor. mrs. crawley would not allow herself to be driven up to the garden gate before her own house, but had left the carriage some three hundred yards off down the road, and from thence she walked home. it was now quite dark. it was nearly six in the evening on a wet december night, and although cloaks and shawls had been supplied to her, she was wet and cold when she reached her home. but at such a moment, anxious as she was to prevent the additional evil which would come to them all from illness to herself, she could not pass through to her room till she had spoken to her husband. he was sitting in the one sitting-room on the left side of the passage as the house was entered, and with him was their daughter jane, a girl now nearly sixteen years of age. there was no light in the room, and hardly more than a spark of fire showed itself in the grate. the father was sitting on one side of the hearth, in an old arm-chair, and there he had sat for the last hour without speaking. his daughter had been in and out of the room, and had endeavoured to gain his attention now and again by a word, but he had never answered her, and had not even noticed her presence. at the moment when mrs. crawley's step was heard upon the gravel which led to the door, jane was kneeling before the fire with a hand upon her father's arm. she had tried to get her hand into his, but he had either been unaware of the attempt, or had rejected it. "here is mamma, at last," said jane, rising to her feet as her mother entered the house. "are you all in the dark?" said mrs. crawley, striving to speak in a voice that should not be sorrowful. "yes, mamma; we are in the dark. papa is here. oh, mamma, how wet you are!" "yes, dear. it is raining. get a light out of the kitchen, jane, and i will go upstairs in two minutes." then, when jane was gone, the wife made her way in the dark over to her husband's side, and spoke a word to him. "josiah," she said, "will you not speak to me?" "what should i speak about? where have you been?" "i have been to silverbridge. i have been to mr. walker. he, at any rate, is very kind." "i don't want his kindness. i want no man's kindness. mr. walker is the attorney, i believe. kind, indeed!" "i mean considerate. josiah, let us do the best we can in this trouble. we have had others as heavy before." "but none to crush me as this will crush me. well; what am i to do? am i to go to prison--to-night?" at this moment his daughter returned with a candle, and the mother could not make her answer at once. it was a wretched, poverty-stricken room. by degrees the carpet had disappeared, which had been laid down some nine or ten years since, when they had first come to hogglestock, and which even then had not been new. now nothing but a poor fragment of it remained in front of the fire-place. in the middle of the room there was a table which had once been large; but one flap of it was gone altogether, and the other flap sloped grievously towards the floor, the weakness of old age having fallen into its legs. there were two or three smaller tables about, but they stood propped against walls, thence obtaining a security which their own strength would not give them. at the further end of the room there was an ancient piece of furniture, which was always called "papa's secretary," at which mr. crawley customarily sat and wrote his sermons, and did all work that was done by him within his house. the man who had made it, some time in the last century, had intended it to be a locked guardian for domestic documents, and the receptacle for all that was most private in the house of some paterfamilias. but beneath the hands of mr. crawley it always stood open; and with the exception of the small space at which he wrote, was covered with dog's-eared books, from nearly all of which the covers had disappeared. there were there two odd volumes of euripides, a greek testament, an odyssey, a duodecimo pindar, and a miniature anacreon. there was half a horace,--the two first books of the odes at the beginning, and the de arte poetica at the end having disappeared. there was a little bit of a volume of cicero, and there were cæsar's commentaries, in two volumes, so stoutly bound that they had defied the combined ill-usage of time and the crawley family. all these were piled upon the secretary, with many others,--odd volumes of sermons and the like; but the greek and latin lay at the top, and showed signs of most frequent use. there was one arm-chair in the room,--a windsor-chair, as such used to be called, made soft by an old cushion in the back, in which mr. crawley sat when both he and his wife were in the room, and mrs. crawley when he was absent. and there was an old horsehair sofa,--now almost denuded of its horsehair,--but that, like the tables, required the assistance of a friendly wall. then there was half a dozen of other chairs,--all of different sorts,--and they completed the furniture of the room. it was not such a room as one would wish to see inhabited by a beneficed clergyman of the church of england; but they who know what money will do and what it will not, will understand how easily a man with a family, and with a hundred and thirty pounds a year, may be brought to the need of inhabiting such a chamber. when it is remembered that three pounds of meat a day, at ninepence a pound, will cost over forty pounds a year, there need be no difficulty in understanding that it may be so. bread for such a family must cost at least twenty-five pounds. clothes for five persons, of whom one must at any rate wear the raiment of a gentleman, can hardly be found for less than ten pounds a year a head. then there remains fifteen pounds for tea, sugar, beer, wages, education, amusements, and the like. in such circumstances a gentleman can hardly pay much for the renewal of his furniture! mrs. crawley could not answer her husband's question before her daughter, and was therefore obliged to make another excuse for again sending her out of the room. "jane, dear," she said, "bring my things down to the kitchen and i will change them by the fire. i will be there in two minutes, when i have had a word with your papa." the girl went immediately and then mrs. crawley answered her husband's question. "no, my dear; there is no question of your going to prison." "but there will be." "i have undertaken that you shall attend before the magistrates at silverbridge on thursday next, at twelve o'clock. you will do that?" "do it! you mean, i suppose, to say that i must go there. is anybody to come and fetch me?" "nobody will come. only you must promise that you will be there. i have promised for you. you will go; will you not?" she stood leaning over him, half embracing him, waiting for an answer; but for a while he gave none. "you will tell me that you will do what i have undertaken for you, josiah?" "i think i would rather that they fetched me. i think that i will not go myself." "and have policemen come for you into the parish! mr. walker has promised that he will send over his phaeton. he sent me home in it to-day." "i want nobody's phaeton. if i go i will walk. if it were ten times the distance, and though i had not a shoe left to my feet i would walk. if i go there at all, of my own accord, i will walk there." "but you will go?" "what do i care for the parish? what matters it who sees me now? i cannot be degraded worse than i am. everybody knows it." "there is no disgrace without guilt," said his wife. "everybody thinks me guilty. i see it in their eyes. the children know of it, and i hear their whispers in the school, 'mr. crawley has taken some money.' i heard the girl say it myself." "what matters what the girl says?" "and yet you would have me go in a fine carriage to silverbridge, as though to a wedding. if i am wanted there let them take me as they would another. i shall be here for them,--unless i am dead." at this moment jane reappeared, pressing her mother to take off her wet clothes, and mrs. crawley went with her daughter to the kitchen. the one red-armed young girl who was their only servant was sent away, and then the mother and child discussed how best they might prevail with the head of the family. "but, mamma, it must come right; must it not?" "i trust it will. i think it will. but i cannot see my way as yet." "papa cannot have done anything wrong." "no, my dear; he has done nothing wrong. he has made great mistakes, and it is hard to make people understand that he has not intentionally spoken untruths. he is ever thinking of other things, about the school, and his sermons, and he does not remember." "and about how poor we are, mamma." "he has much to occupy his mind, and he forgets things which dwell in the memory with other people. he said that he had got this money from mr. soames, and of course he thought that it was so." "and where did he get it, mamma?" "ah,--i wish i knew. i should have said that i had seen every shilling that came into the house; but i know nothing of this cheque,--whence it came." "but will not papa tell you?" "he would tell me if he knew. he thinks it came from the dean." "and are you sure it did not?" "yes; quite sure; as sure as i can be of anything. the dean told me he would give him fifty pounds, and the fifty pounds came. i had them in my own hands. and he has written to say that it was so." "but couldn't this be part of the fifty pounds?" "no, dear, no." "then where did papa get it? perhaps he picked it up, and has forgotten?" to this mrs. crawley made no reply. the idea that the cheque had been found by her husband,--had been picked up as jane had said,--had occurred also to jane's mother. mr. soames was confident that he had dropped the pocket-book at the parsonage. mrs. crawley had always disliked mr. soames, thinking him to be hard, cruel, and vulgar. she would not have hesitated to believe him guilty of a falsehood, or even of direct dishonesty, if by so believing she could in her own mind have found the means of reconciling her husband's possession of the cheque with absolute truth on his part. but she could not do so. even though soames had, with devilish premeditated malice, slipped the cheque into her husband's pocket, his having done so would not account for her husband's having used the cheque when he found it there. she was driven to make excuses for him which, valid as they might be with herself, could not be valid with others. he had said that mr. soames had paid the cheque to him. that was clearly a mistake. he had said that the cheque had been given to him by the dean. that was clearly another mistake. she knew, or thought she knew, that he, being such as he was, might make such blunders as these, and yet be true. she believed that such statements might be blunders and not falsehoods,--so convinced was she that her husband's mind would not act at all times as do the minds of other men. but having such a conviction she was driven to believe also that almost anything might be possible. soames may have been right, or he might have dropped, not the book, but the cheque. she had no difficulty in presuming soames to be wrong in any detail, if by so supposing she could make the exculpation of her husband easier to herself. if villany on the part of soames was needful to her theory, soames would become to her a villain at once,--of the blackest dye. might it not be possible that the cheque having thus fallen into her husband's hands, he had come, after a while, to think that it had been sent to him by his friend, the dean? and if it were so, would it be possible to make others so believe? that there was some mistake which would be easily explained were her husband's mind lucid at all points, but which she could not explain because of the darkness of his mind, she was thoroughly convinced. but were she herself to put forward such a defence on her husband's part, she would in doing so be driven to say that he was a lunatic,--that he was incapable of managing the affairs of himself or his family. it seemed to her that she would be compelled to have him proved to be either a thief or a madman. and yet she knew that he was neither. that he was not a thief was as clear to her as the sun at noonday. could she have lain on the man's bosom for twenty years, and not yet have learned the secrets of the heart beneath? the whole mind of the man was, as she told herself, within her grasp. he might have taken the twenty pounds; he might have taken it and spent it, though it was not his own; but yet he was no thief. nor was he a madman. no man more sane in preaching the gospel of his lord, in making intelligible to the ignorant the promises of his saviour, ever got into a parish pulpit, or taught in a parish school. the intellect of the man was as clear as running water in all things not appertaining to his daily life and its difficulties. he could be logical with a vengeance,--so logical as to cause infinite trouble to his wife, who, with all her good sense, was not logical. and he had greek at his fingers' ends,--as his daughter knew very well. and even to this day he would sometimes recite to them english poetry, lines after lines, stanzas upon stanzas, in a sweet low melancholy voice, on long winter evenings when occasionally the burden of his troubles would be lighter to him than was usual. books in latin and in french he read with as much ease as in english, and took delight in such as came to him, when he would condescend to accept such loans from the deanery. and there was at times a lightness of heart about the man. in the course of the last winter he had translated into greek irregular verse the very noble ballad of lord bateman, maintaining the rhythm and the rhyme, and had repeated it with uncouth glee till his daughter knew it all by heart. and when there had come to him a five-pound note from some admiring magazine editor as the price of the same,--still through the dean's hands,--he had brightened up his heart and had thought for an hour or two that even yet the world would smile upon him. his wife knew well that he was not mad; but yet she knew that there were dark moments with him, in which his mind was so much astray that he could not justly be called to account as to what he might remember and what he might forget. how would it be possible to explain all this to a judge and jury, so that they might neither say that he was dishonest, nor yet that he was mad? "perhaps he picked it up, and had forgotten," her daughter said to her. perhaps it was so, but she might not as yet admit as much even to her child. "it is a mystery, dear, as yet, which, with god's aid, will be unravelled. of one thing we at least may be sure; that your papa has not wilfully done anything wrong." "of course we are sure of that, mamma." mrs. crawley had many troubles during the next four or five days, of which the worst, perhaps, had reference to the services of the sunday which intervened between the day of her visit to silverbridge, and the sitting of the magistrates. on the saturday it was necessary that he should prepare his sermons, of which he preached two on every sunday, though his congregation consisted only of farmers, brickmakers, and agricultural labourers, who would willingly have dispensed with the second. mrs. crawley proposed to send over to mr. robarts, a neighbouring clergyman, for the loan of a curate. mr. robarts was a warm friend to the crawleys, and in such an emergency would probably have come himself; but mr. crawley would not hear of it. the discussion took place early on the saturday morning, before it was as yet daylight, for the poor woman was thinking day and night of her husband's troubles, and it had this good effect, that immediately after breakfast he seated himself at his desk, and worked at his task as though he had forgotten all else in the world. and on the sunday morning he went into his school before the hour of the church service, as had been his wont, and taught there as though everything with him was as usual. some of the children were absent, having heard of their teacher's tribulation, and having been told probably that he would remit his work; and for these absent ones he sent in great anger. the poor bairns came creeping in, for he was a man who by his manners had been able to secure their obedience in spite of his poverty. and he preached to the people of his parish on that sunday, as he had always preached; eagerly, clearly, with an eloquence fitted for the hearts of such an audience. no one would have guessed from his tones and gestures and appearance on that occasion, that there was aught wrong with him,--unless there had been there some observer keen enough to perceive that the greater care which he used, and the special eagerness of his words, denoted a special frame of mind. after that, after those church services were over, he sank again and never roused himself till the dreaded day had come. chapter v. what the world thought about it. opinion in silverbridge, at barchester, and throughout the county, was very much divided as to the guilt or innocence of mr. crawley. up to the time of mrs. crawley's visit to silverbridge, the affair had not been much discussed. to give mr. soames his due, he had been by no means anxious to press the matter against the clergyman; but he had been forced to go on with it. while the first cheque was missing, lord lufton had sent him a second cheque for the money, and the loss had thus fallen upon his lordship. the cheque had of course been traced, and inquiry had of course been made as to mr. crawley's possession of it. when that gentleman declared that he had received it from mr. soames, mr. soames had been forced to contradict and to resent such an assertion. when mr. crawley had afterwards said that the money had come to him from the dean, and when the dean had shown that this also was untrue, mr. soames, confident as he was that he had dropped the pocket-book at mr. crawley's house, could not but continue the investigation. he had done so with as much silence as the nature of the work admitted. but by the day of the magistrates' meeting at silverbridge the subject had become common through the county, and men's minds were very much divided. all hogglestock believed their parson to be innocent; but then all hogglestock believed him to be mad. at silverbridge the tradesmen with whom he had dealt, and to whom he had owed, and still owed, money, all declared him to be innocent. they knew something of the man personally, and could not believe him to be a thief. all the ladies in silverbridge, too, were sure of his innocence. it was to them impossible that such a man should have stolen twenty pounds. "my dear," said the eldest miss prettyman to poor grace crawley, "in england, where the laws are good, no gentleman is ever made out to be guilty when he is innocent; and your papa, of course, is innocent. therefore you should not trouble yourself." "it will break papa's heart," grace had said, and she did trouble herself. but the gentlemen in silverbridge were made of sterner stuff, and believed the man to be guilty, clergyman and gentleman though he was. mr. walker, who among the lights in silverbridge was the leading light, would not speak a word upon the subject to anybody; and then everybody, who was anybody, knew that mr. walker was convinced of the man's guilt. had mr. walker believed him to be innocent, his tongue would have been ready enough. john walker, who was in the habit of laughing at his father's good nature, had no doubt upon the subject. mr. winthrop, mr. walker's partner, shook his head. people did not think much of mr. winthrop, excepting certain unmarried ladies; for mr. winthrop was a bachelor, and had plenty of money. people did not think much of mr. winthrop; but still on this subject he might know something, and when he shook his head he manifestly intended to indicate guilt. and dr. tempest, the rector of silverbridge, did not hesitate to declare his belief in the guilt of the incumbent of hogglestock. no man reverences a clergyman, as a clergyman, so slightly as a brother clergyman. to dr. tempest it appeared to be neither very strange nor very terrible that mr. crawley should have stolen twenty pounds. "what is a man to do," he said, "when he sees his children starving? he should not have married on such a preferment as that." mr. crawley had married, however, long before he got the living of hogglestock. there were two lady luftons,--mother-in-law and daughter-in-law,--who at this time were living together at framley hall, lord lufton's seat in the county of barset, and they were both thoroughly convinced of mr. crawley's innocence. the elder lady had lived much among clergymen, and could hardly, i think, by any means have been brought to believe in the guilt of any man who had taken upon himself the orders of the church of england. she had also known mr. crawley personally for some years, and was one of those who could not admit to herself that any one was vile who had been near to herself. she believed intensely in the wickedness of the outside world, of the world which was far away from herself, and of which she never saw anything; but they who were near to her, and who had even become dear to her, or who even had been respected by her, were made, as it were, saints in her imagination. they were brought into the inner circle, and could hardly be expelled. she was an old woman who thought all evil of those she did not know, and all good of those whom she did know; and as she did know mr. crawley, she was quite sure he had not stolen mr. soames's twenty pounds. she did know mr. soames also; and thus there was a mystery for the unravelling of which she was very anxious. and the young lady lufton was equally sure, and perhaps with better reason for such certainty. she had, in truth, known more of mr. crawley personally, than had any one in the county, unless it was the dean. the younger lady lufton, the present lord lufton's wife, had sojourned at one time in mr. crawley's house, amidst the crawley poverty, living as they lived, and nursing mrs. crawley through an illness which had well nigh been fatal to her; and the younger lady lufton believed in mr. crawley,--as mr. crawley also believed in her. "it is quite impossible, my dear," the old woman said to her daughter-in-law. "quite impossible, my lady." the dowager was always called "my lady," both by her own daughter and by her son's wife, except in the presence of their children, when she was addressed as "grandmamma." "think how well i knew him. it's no use talking of evidence. no evidence would make me believe it." "nor me; and i think it a great shame that such a report should be spread about." "i suppose mr. soames could not help himself?" said the younger lady, who was not herself very fond of mr. soames. "ludovic says that he has only done what he was obliged to do." the ludovic spoken of was lord lufton. this took place in the morning, but in the evening the affair was again discussed at framley hall. indeed, for some days, there was hardly any other subject held to be worthy of discussion in the county. mr. robarts, the clergyman of the parish and the brother of the younger lady lufton, was dining at the hall with his wife, and the three ladies had together expressed their perfect conviction of the falseness of the accusation. but when lord lufton and mr. robarts were together after the ladies had left them there was much less of this certainty expressed. "by jove," said lord lufton, "i don't know what to think of it. i wish with all my heart that soames had said nothing about it, and that the cheque had passed without remark." "that was impossible. when the banker sent to soames, he was obliged to take the matter up." "of course he was. but i'm sorry that it was so. for the life of me i can't conceive how the cheque got into crawley's hands." "i imagine that it had been lying in the house, and that crawley had come to think that it was his own." "but, my dear mark," said lord lufton, "excuse me if i say that that's nonsense. what do we do when a poor man has come to think that another man's property is his own? we send him to prison for making the mistake." "i hope they won't send crawley to prison." "i hope so too; but what is a jury to do?" "you think it will go to a jury, then?" "i do," said lord lufton. "i don't see how the magistrates can save themselves from committing him. it is one of those cases in which every one concerned would wish to drop it if it were only possible. but it is not possible. on the evidence, as one sees it at present, one is bound to say that it is a case for a jury." "i believe that he is mad," said the brother parson. "he always was, as far as i could learn," said the lord. "i never knew him, myself. you do, i think?" "oh, yes. i know him." and the vicar of framley became silent and thoughtful as the memory of a certain interview between himself and mr. crawley came back upon his mind. at that time the waters had nearly closed over his head and mr. crawley had given him some assistance. when the gentlemen had again found the ladies, they kept their own doubts to themselves; for at framley hall, as at present tenanted, female voices and female influences predominated over those which came from the other sex. at barchester, the cathedral city of the county in which the crawleys lived, opinion was violently against mr. crawley. in the city mrs. proudie, the wife of the bishop, was the leader of opinion in general, and she was very strong in her belief of the man's guilt. she had known much of clergymen all her life, as it behoved a bishop's wife to do, and she had none of that mingled weakness and ignorance which taught so many ladies in barsetshire to suppose that an ordained clergyman could not become a thief. she hated old lady lufton with all her heart, and old lady lufton hated her as warmly. mrs. proudie would say frequently that lady lufton was a conceited old idiot, and lady lufton would declare as frequently that mrs. proudie was a vulgar virago. it was known at the palace in barchester, that kindness had been shown to the crawleys by the family at framley hall, and this alone would have been sufficient to make mrs. proudie believe that mr. crawley could have been guilty of any crime. and as mrs. proudie believed, so did the bishop believe. "it is a terrible disgrace to the diocese," said the bishop, shaking his head, and patting his apron as he sat by his study fire. "fiddlestick!" said mrs. proudie. "but, my dear,--a beneficed clergyman!" "you must get rid of him; that's all. you must be firm whether he be acquitted or convicted." "but if he be acquitted, i cannot get rid of him, my dear." "yes, you can, if you are firm. and you must be firm. is it not true that he has been disgracefully involved in debt ever since he has been there; that you have been pestered by letters from unfortunate tradesmen who cannot get their money from him?" "that is true, my dear, certainly." "and is that kind of thing to go on? he cannot come to the palace as all clergymen should do, because he has got no clothes to come in. i saw him once about the lanes, and i never set my eyes on such an object in my life! i would not believe that the man was a clergyman till john told me. he is a disgrace to the diocese, and he must be got rid of. i feel sure of his guilt, and i hope he will be convicted. one is bound to hope that a guilty man should be convicted. but if he escape conviction, you must sequestrate the living because of the debts. the income is enough to get an excellent curate. it would just do for thumble." to all of which the bishop made no further reply, but simply nodded his head and patted his apron. he knew that he could not do exactly what his wife required of him; but if it should so turn out that poor crawley was found to be guilty, then the matter would be comparatively easy. "it should be an example to us, that we should look to our own steps, my dear," said the bishop. "that's all very well," said mrs. proudie, "but it has become your duty, and mine too, to look to the steps of other people; and that duty we must do." "of course, my dear; of course." that was the tone in which the question of mr. crawley's alleged guilt was discussed at the palace. we have already heard what was said on the subject at the house of archdeacon grantly. as the days passed by, and as other tidings came in, confirmatory of those which had before reached him, the archdeacon felt himself unable not to believe in the man's guilt. and the fear which he entertained as to his son's intended marriage with grace crawley, tended to increase the strength of his belief. dr. grantly had been a very successful man in the world, and on all ordinary occasions had been able to show that bold front with which success endows a man. but he still had his moments of weakness, and feared greatly lest anything of misfortune should touch him, and mar the comely roundness of his prosperity. he was very wealthy. the wife of his bosom had been to him all that a wife should be. his reputation in the clerical world stood very high. he had lived all his life on terms of equality with the best of the gentry around him. his only daughter had made a splendid marriage. his two sons had hitherto done well in the world, not only as regarded their happiness, but as to marriage also, and as to social standing. but how great would be the fall if his son should at last marry the daughter of a convicted thief! how would the proudies rejoice over him,--the proudies who had been crushed to the ground by the success of the hartletop alliance; and how would the low-church curates who swarmed in barsetshire, gather together and scream in delight over his dismay! "but why should we say that he is guilty?" said mrs. grantly. "it hardly matters as far as we are concerned, whether they find him guilty or not," said the archdeacon; "if henry marries that girl my heart will be broken." but perhaps to no one except to the crawleys themselves had the matter caused so much terrible anxiety as to the archdeacon's son. he had told his father that he had made no offer of marriage to grace crawley, and he had told the truth. but there are perhaps few men who make such offers in direct terms without having already said and done that which make such offers simply necessary as the final closing of an accepted bargain. it was so at any rate between major grantly and miss crawley, and major grantly acknowledged to himself that it was so. he acknowledged also to himself that as regarded grace herself he had no wish to go back from his implied intentions. nothing that either his father or mother might say would shake him in that. but could it be his duty to bind himself to the family of a convicted thief? could it be right that he should disgrace his father and his mother and his sister and his one child by such a connection? he had a man's heart, and the poverty of the crawleys caused him no solicitude. but he shrank from the contamination of a prison. chapter vi. grace crawley. it has already been said that grace crawley was at this time living with the two miss prettymans, who kept a girls' school at silverbridge. two more benignant ladies than the miss prettymans never presided over such an establishment. the younger was fat, and fresh, and fair, and seemed to be always running over with the milk of human kindness. the other was very thin and very small, and somewhat afflicted with bad health;--was weak, too, in the eyes, and subject to racking headaches, so that it was considered generally that she was unable to take much active part in the education of the pupils. but it was considered as generally that she did all the thinking, that she knew more than any other woman in barsetshire, and that all the prettyman schemes for education emanated from her mind. it was said, too, by those who knew them best, that her sister's good-nature was as nothing to hers; that she was the most charitable, the most loving, and the most conscientious of schoolmistresses. this was miss annabella prettyman, the elder; and perhaps it may be inferred that some portion of her great character for virtue may have been due to the fact that nobody ever saw her out of her own house. she could not even go to church, because the open air brought on neuralgia. she was therefore perhaps taken to be magnificent, partly because she was unknown. miss anne prettyman, the younger, went about frequently to tea-parties,--would go, indeed, to any party to which she might be invited; and was known to have a pleasant taste for pound-cake and sweet-meats. being seen so much in the outer world, she became common, and her character did not stand so high as did that of her sister. some people were ill-natured enough to say that she wanted to marry mr. winthrop; but of what maiden lady that goes out into the world are not such stories told? and all such stories in silverbridge were told with special reference to mr. winthrop. miss crawley, at present, lived with the miss prettymans, and assisted them in the school. this arrangement had been going on for the last twelve months, since the time in which grace would have left the school in the natural course of things. there had been no bargain made, and no intention that grace should stay. she had been invited to fill the place of an absent superintendent, first for one month, then for another, and then for two more months; and when the assistant came back, the miss prettymans thought there were reasons why grace should be asked to remain a little longer. but they took great care to let the fashionable world of silverbridge know that grace crawley was a visitor with them, and not a teacher. "we pay her no salary, or anything of that kind," said miss anne prettyman; a statement, however, which was by no means true, for during those four months the regular stipend had been paid to her; and twice since then, miss annabella prettyman, who managed all the money matters, had called grace into her little room, and had made a little speech, and had put a little bit of paper into her hand. "i know i ought not to take it," grace had said to her friend anne. "if i was not here, there would be no one in my place." "nonsense, my dear," anne prettyman had said; "it is the greatest comfort to us in the world. and you should make yourself nice, you know, for his sake. all the gentlemen like it." then grace had been very angry, and had sworn that she would give the money back again. nevertheless, i think she did make herself as nice as she knew how to do. and from all this it may be seen that the miss prettymans had hitherto quite approved of major grantly's attentions. but when this terrible affair came on about the cheque which had been lost and found and traced to mr. crawley's hands, miss anne prettyman said nothing further to grace crawley about major grantly. it was not that she thought that mr. crawley was guilty, but she knew enough of the world to be aware that suspicion of such guilt might compel such a man as major grantly to change his mind. "if he had only popped," anne said to her sister, "it would have been all right. he would never have gone back from his word." "my dear," said annabella, "i wish you would not talk about popping. it is a terrible word." "i shouldn't, to any one except you," said anne. there had come to silverbridge some few months since, on a visit to mrs. walker, a young lady from allington, in the neighbouring county, between whom and grace crawley there had grown up from circumstances a warm friendship. grace had a cousin in london,--a clerk high up and well-to-do in a public office, a nephew of her mother's,--and this cousin was, and for years had been, violently smitten in love for this young lady. but the young lady's tale had been sad, and though she acknowledged feelings of most affectionate friendship for the cousin, she could not bring herself to acknowledge more. grace crawley had met the young lady at silverbridge, and words had been spoken about the cousin; and though the young lady from allington was some years older than grace, there had grown up to be a friendship, and, as is not uncommon between young ladies, there had been an agreement that they would correspond. the name of the lady was miss lily dale, and the name of the well-to-do cousin in london was mr. john eames. at the present moment miss dale was at home with her mother at allington, and grace crawley in her terrible sorrow wrote to her friend, pouring out her whole heart. as grace's letter and miss dale's answer will assist us in our story, i will venture to give them both. silverbridge, -- december, --. dearest lily, i hardly know how to tell you what has happened, it is so very terrible. but perhaps you will have heard it already, as everybody is talking of it here. it has got into the newspapers, and therefore it cannot be kept secret. not that i should keep anything from you; only this is so very dreadful that i hardly know how to write it. somebody says,--a mr. soames, i believe it is,--that papa has taken some money that does not belong to him, and he is to be brought before the magistrates and tried. of course, papa has done nothing wrong. i do think he would be the last man in the world to take a penny that did not belong to him. you know how poor he is; what a life he has had! but i think he would almost sooner see mamma starving;--i am sure he would rather be starved himself, than even borrow a shilling which he could not pay. to suppose that he would take money [she had tried to write the word "steal," but she could not bring her pen to form the letters] is monstrous. but, somehow, the circumstances have been made to look bad against him, and they say that he must come over here to the magistrates. i often think that of all men in the world papa is the most unfortunate. everything seems to go against him, and yet he is so good! poor mamma has been over here, and she is distracted. i never saw her so wretched before. she had been to your friend, mr. walker, and came to me afterwards for a minute. mr. walker has got something to do with it, though mamma says she thinks he is quite friendly to papa. i wonder whether you could find out, through mr. walker, what he thinks about it. of course, mamma knows that papa has done nothing wrong; but she says that the whole thing is most mysterious, and that she does not know how to account for the money. papa, you know, is not like other people. he forgets things; and is always thinking, thinking, thinking of his great misfortunes. poor papa! my heart bleeds so when i remember all his sorrows, that i hate myself for thinking about myself. when mamma left me,--and it was then i first knew that papa would really have to be tried,--i went to miss annabella, and told her that i would go home. she asked me why, and i said i would not disgrace her house by staying in it. she got up and took me in her arms, and there came a tear out of both her dear old eyes, and she said that if anything evil came to papa,--which she would not believe, as she knew him to be a good man,--there should be a home in her house not only for me, but for mamma and jane. isn't she a wonderful woman? when i think of her, i sometimes think that she must be an angel already. then she became very serious,--for just before, through her tears, she had tried to smile,--and she told me to remember that all people could not be like her, who had nobody to look to but herself and her sister; and that at present i must task myself not to think of that which i had been thinking of before. she did not mention anybody's name, but of course i understood very well what she meant; and i suppose she is right. i said nothing in answer to her, for i could not speak. she was holding my hand, and i took hers up and kissed it, to show her, if i could, that i knew that she was right; but i could not have spoken about it for all the world. it was not ten days since that she herself, with all her prudence, told me that she thought i ought to make up my mind what answer i would give him. and then i did not say anything; but of course she knew. and after that miss anne spoke quite freely about it, so that i had to beg her to be silent even before the girls. you know how imprudent she is. but it is all over now. of course miss annabella is right. he has got a great many people to think of; his father and mother, and his darling little edith, whom he brought here twice, and left her with us once for two days, so that she got to know me quite well; and i took such a love for her, that i could not bear to part with her. but i think sometimes that all our family are born to be unfortunate, and then i tell myself that i will never hope for anything again. pray write to me soon. i feel as though nothing on earth could comfort me, and yet i shall like to have your letter. dear, dear lily, i am not even yet so wretched but what i shall rejoice to be told good news of you. if it only could be as john wishes it! and why should it not? it seems to me that nobody has a right or a reason to be unhappy except us. good-by, dearest lily, your affectionate friend, grace crawley. p.s.--i think i have made up my mind that i will go back to hogglestock at once if the magistrates decide against papa. i think i should be doing the school harm if i were to stay here. the answer to this letter did not reach miss crawley till after the magistrates' meeting on the thursday, but it will be better for our story that it should be given here than postponed until the result of that meeting shall have been told. miss dale's answer was as follows:-- allington, -- december, --. dear grace, your letter has made me very unhappy. if it can at all comfort you to know that mamma and i sympathize with you altogether, in that you may at any rate be sure. but in such troubles nothing will give comfort. they must be borne, till the fire of misfortune burns itself out. i had heard about the affair a day or two before i got your note. our clergyman, mr. boyce, told us of it. of course we all know that the charge must be altogether unfounded, and mamma says that the truth will be sure to show itself at last. but that conviction does not cure the evil, and i can well understand that your father should suffer grievously; and i pity your mother quite as much as i do him. as for major grantly, if he be such a man as i took him to be from the little i saw of him, all this would make no difference to him. i am sure that it ought to make none. whether it should not make a difference in you is another question. i think it should; and i think your answer to him should be that you could not even consider any such proposition while your father was in so great trouble. i am so much older than you, and seem to have had so much experience, that i do not scruple, as you will see, to come down upon you with all the weight of my wisdom. about that other subject i had rather say nothing. i have known your cousin all my life, almost; and i regard no one more kindly than i do him. when i think of my friends, he is always one of the dearest. but when one thinks of going beyond friendship, even if one tries to do so, there are so many barriers! your affectionate friend, lily dale. mamma bids me say that she would be delighted to have you here whenever it might suit you to come; and i add to this message my entreaty that you will come at once. you say that you think you ought to leave miss prettyman's for a while. i can well understand your feeling; but as your sister is with your mother, surely you had better come to us,--i mean quite at once. i will not scruple to tell you what mamma says, because i know your good sense. she says that as the interest of the school may possibly be concerned, and as you have no regular engagement, she thinks you ought to leave silverbridge; but she says that it will be better that you come to us than that you should go home. if you went home, people might say that you had left in some sort of disgrace. come to us, and when all this has been put right, then you go back to silverbridge; and then, if a certain person speaks again, you can make a different answer. mamma quite understands that you are to come; so you have only got to ask your own mamma, and come at once. this letter, as the reader will understand, did not reach grace crawley till after the all-important thursday; but before that day had come round, grace had told miss prettyman,--had told both the miss prettymans--that she was resolved to leave them. she had done this without even consulting her mother, driven to it by various motives. she knew that her father's conduct was being discussed by the girls in the school, and that things were said of him which it could not but be for the disadvantage of miss prettyman that any one should say of a teacher in her establishment. she felt, too, that she could not hold up her head in silverbridge in these days, as it would become her to do if she retained her position. she did struggle gallantly, and succeeded much more nearly than she was herself aware. she was all but able to carry herself as though no terrible accusation was being made against her father. of the struggle, however, she was not herself the less conscious, and she told herself that on that account also she must go. and then she must go also because of major grantly. whether he was minded to come and speak to her that one other needed word, or whether he was not so minded, it would be better that she should be away from silverbridge. if he spoke it she could only answer him by a negative; and if he were minded not to speak it, would it not be better that she should leave herself the power of thinking that his silence had been caused by her absence, and not by his coldness or indifference? she asked, therefore, for an interview with miss prettyman, and was shown into the elder sister's room, at eleven o'clock on the tuesday morning. the elder miss prettyman never came into the school herself till twelve, but was in the habit of having interviews with the young ladies,--which were sometimes very awful in their nature,--for the two previous hours. during these interviews an immense amount of business was done, and the fortunes in life of some girls were said to have been there made or marred; as when, for instance, miss crimpton had been advised to stay at home with her uncle in england, instead of going out with her sisters to india, both of which sisters were married within three months of their landing at bombay. the way in which she gave her counsel on such occasions was very efficacious. no one knew better than miss prettyman that a cock can crow most effectively in his own farmyard, and therefore all crowing intended to be effective was done by her within the shrine of her own peculiar room. "well, my dear, what is it?" she said to grace. "sit in the arm-chair, my dear, and we can then talk comfortably." the teachers, when they were closeted with miss prettyman, were always asked to sit in the arm-chair, whereas a small, straight-backed, uneasy chair was kept for the use of the young ladies. and there was, too, a stool of repentance, out against the wall, very uncomfortable indeed for young ladies who had not behaved themselves so prettily as young ladies generally do. grace seated herself, and then began her speech very quickly. "miss prettyman," she said, "i have made up my mind that i will go home, if you please." "and why should you go home, grace? did i not tell you that you should have a home here?" miss prettyman had weak eyes, and was very small, and had never possessed any claim to be called good-looking. and she assumed nothing of majestical awe from any adornment or studied amplification of the outward woman by means of impressive trappings. the possessor of an unobservant eye might have called her a mean-looking, little old woman. and certainly there would have been nothing awful in her to any one who came across her otherwise than as a lady having authority in her own school. but within her own precincts, she did know how to surround herself with a dignity which all felt who approached her there. grace crawley, as she heard the simple question which miss prettyman had asked, unconsciously acknowledged the strength of the woman's manner. she already stood rebuked for having proposed a plan so ungracious, so unnecessary, and so unwise. "i think i ought to be with mamma at present," said grace. "your mother has your sister with her." "yes, miss prettyman; jane is there." "if there be no other reason, i cannot think that that can be held to be a reason now. of course your mother would like to have you always; unless you should be married,--but then there are reasons why this should not be so." "of course there are." "i do not think,--that is, if i know all that there is to be known,--i do not think, i say, that there can be any good ground for your leaving us now,--just now." then grace sat silent for a moment, gathering her courage, and collecting her words; and after that she spoke. "it is because of papa, and because of this charge--" "but, grace--" "i know what you are going to say, miss prettyman;--that is, i think i know." "if you will hear me, you may be sure that you know." "but i want you to hear me for one moment first. i beg your pardon, miss prettyman; i do indeed, but i want to say this before you go on. i must go home, and i know i ought. we are all disgraced, and i won't stop here to disgrace the school. i know papa has done nothing wrong; but nevertheless we are disgraced. the police are to bring him in here on thursday, and everybody in silverbridge will know it. it cannot be right that i should be here teaching in the school, while it is all going on;--and i won't. and, miss prettyman, i couldn't do it,--indeed i couldn't. i can't bring myself to think of anything i am doing. indeed i can't; and then, miss prettyman, there are other reasons." by the time that she had proceeded thus far, grace crawley's words were nearly choked by her tears. "and what are the other reasons, grace?" "i don't know," said grace, struggling to speak through her tears. "but i know," said miss prettyman. "i know them all. i know all your reasons, and i tell you that in my opinion you ought to remain where you are, and not go away. the very reasons which to you are reasons for your going, to me are reasons for your remaining here." "i can't remain. i am determined to go. i don't mind you and miss anne, but i can't bear to have the girls looking at me,--and the servants." then miss prettyman paused awhile, thinking what words of wisdom would be most appropriate in the present conjuncture. but words of wisdom did not seem to come easily to her, having for the moment been banished by tenderness of heart. "come here, my love," she said at last. "come here, grace." slowly grace got up from her seat and came round, and stood by miss prettyman's elbow. miss prettyman pushed her chair a little back, and pushed herself a little forward, and stretching out one hand, placed her arm round grace's waist, and with the other took hold of grace's hand, and thus drew her down and kissed the girl's forehead and lips. and then grace found herself kneeling at her friend's feet. "grace," she said, "do you not know that i love you? do you not know that i love you dearly?" in answer to this, grace kissed the withered hand she held in hers, while the warm tears trickled down upon miss prettyman's knuckles. "i love you as though you were my own," exclaimed the schoolmistress; "and will you not trust me, that i know what is best for you?" [illustration: "i love you as though you were my own," said the schoolmistress.] "i must go home," said grace. "of course you shall, if you think it right at last; but let us talk of it. no one in this house, you know, has the slightest suspicion that your father has done anything that is in the least dishonourable." "i know that you have not." "no, nor has anne." miss prettyman said this as though no one in that house beyond herself and her sister had a right to have any opinion on any subject. "i know that," said grace. "well, my dear. if we think so--" "but the servants, miss prettyman?" "if any servant in this house says a word to offend you, i'll--i'll--" "they don't say anything, miss prettyman, but they look. indeed i'd better go home. indeed i had!" "do not you think your mother has cares enough upon her, and burden enough, without having another mouth to feed, and another head to shelter? you haven't thought of that, grace!" "yes, i have." "and as for the work, whilst you are not quite well you shall not be troubled with teaching. i have some old papers that want copying and settling, and you shall sit here and do that just for an employment. anne knows that i've long wanted to have it done, and i'll tell her that you've kindly promised to do it for me." "no; no; no," said grace; "i must go home." she was still kneeling at miss prettyman's knee, and still holding miss prettyman's hand. and then, at that moment, there came a tap at the door, gentle but yet not humble, a tap which acknowledged, on the part of the tapper, the supremacy in that room of the lady who was sitting there, but which still claimed admittance almost as a right. the tap was well known by both of them to be the tap of miss anne. grace immediately jumped up, and miss prettyman settled herself in her chair with a motion which almost seemed to indicate some feeling of shame as to her late position. "i suppose i may come in?" said miss anne, opening the door and inserting her head. "yes, you may come in,--if you have anything to say," said miss prettyman, with an air which seemed to be intended to assert her supremacy. but, in truth, she was simply collecting the wisdom and dignity which had been somewhat dissipated by her tenderness. "i did not know that grace crawley was here," said miss anne. "grace crawley is here," said miss prettyman. "what is the matter, grace?" said miss anne, seeing the tears. "never mind now," said miss prettyman. "poor dear, i'm sure i'm sorry as though she were my own sister," said anne. "but, annabella, i want to speak to you especially." "to me, in private?" "yes, to you; in private, if grace won't mind?" then grace prepared to go. but as she was going, miss anne, upon whose brow a heavy burden of thought was lying, stopped her suddenly. "grace, my dear," she said, "go upstairs into your room, will you?--not across the hall to the school." "and why shouldn't she go to the school?" said miss prettyman. miss anne paused a moment, and then answered,--unwillingly, as though driven to make a reply which she knew to be indiscreet. "because there is somebody in the hall." "go to your room, dear," said miss prettyman. and grace went to her room, never turning an eye down towards the hall. "who is it?" said miss prettyman. "major grantly is here, asking to see you," said miss anne. chapter vii. miss prettyman's private room. [illustration] major grantly, when threatened by his father with pecuniary punishment, should he demean himself by such a marriage as that he had proposed to himself, had declared that he would offer his hand to miss crawley on the next morning. this, however, he had not done. he had not done it, partly because he did not quite believe his father's threat, and partly because he felt that that threat was almost justified,--for the present moment,--by the circumstances in which grace crawley's father had placed himself. henry grantly acknowledged, as he drove himself home on the morning after his dinner at the rectory, that in this matter of his marriage he did owe much to his family. should he marry at all, he owed it to them to marry a lady. and grace crawley,--so he told himself,--was a lady. and he owed it to them to bring among them as his wife a woman who should not disgrace him or them by her education, manners, or even by her personal appearance. in all these respects grace crawley was, in his judgment, quite as good as they had a right to expect her to be, and in some respects a great deal superior to that type of womanhood with which they had been most generally conversant. "if everybody had her due, my sister isn't fit to hold a candle to her," he said to himself. it must be acknowledged, therefore, that he was really in love with grace crawley; and he declared to himself, over and over again, that his family had no right to demand that he should marry a woman with money. the archdeacon's son by no means despised money. how could he, having come forth as a bird fledged from such a nest as the rectory at plumstead episcopi? before he had been brought by his better nature and true judgment to see that grace crawley was the greater woman of the two, he had nearly submitted himself to the twenty thousand pounds of miss emily dunstable,--to that, and her good-humour and rosy freshness combined. but he regarded himself as the well-to-do son of a very rich father. his only child was amply provided for; and he felt that, as regarded money, he had a right to do as he pleased. he felt this with double strength after his father's threat. but he had no right to make a marriage by which his family would be disgraced. whether he was right or wrong in supposing that he would disgrace his family were he to marry the daughter of a convicted thief, it is hardly necessary to discuss here. he told himself that it would be so,--telling himself also that, by the stern laws of the world, the son and the daughter must pay for the offence of the father and the mother. even among the poor, who would willingly marry the child of a man who had been hanged? but he carried the argument beyond this, thinking much of the matter, and endeavouring to think of it not only justly, but generously. if the accusation against crawley were false,--if the man were being injured by an unjust charge,--even if he, grantly, could make himself think that the girl's father had not stolen the money, then he would dare everything and go on. i do not know that his argument was good, or that his mind was logical in the matter. he ought to have felt that his own judgment as to the man's guilt was less likely to be correct than that of those whose duty it was and would be to form and to express a judgment on the matter; and as to grace herself, she was equally innocent whether her father were guilty or not guilty. if he were to be debarred from asking her for her hand by his feelings for her father and mother, he should hardly have trusted to his own skill in ascertaining the real truth as to the alleged theft. but he was not logical, and thus, meaning to be generous, he became unjust. he found that among those in silverbridge whom he presumed to be best informed on such matters, there was a growing opinion that mr. crawley had stolen the money. he was intimate with all the walkers, and was able to find out that mrs. walker knew that her husband believed in the clergyman's guilt. he was by no means alone in his willingness to accept mr. walker's opinion as the true opinion. silverbridge, generally, was endeavouring to dress itself in mr. walker's glass, and to believe as mr. walker believed. the ladies of silverbridge, including the miss prettymans, were aware that mr. walker had been very kind both to mr. and mrs. crawley, and argued from this that mr. walker must think the man to be innocent. but henry grantly, who did not dare to ask a direct question of the solicitor, went cunningly to work, and closeted himself with mrs. walker,--with mrs. walker, who knew well of the good fortune which was hovering over grace's head and was so nearly settling itself upon her shoulders. she would have given a finger to be able to whitewash mr. crawley in the major's estimation. nor must it be supposed that she told the major in plain words that her husband had convinced himself of the man's guilt. in plain words no question was asked between them, and in plain words no opinion was expressed. but there was the look of sorrow in the woman's eye, there was the absence of reference to her husband's assurance that the man was innocent, there was the air of settled grief which told of her own conviction; and the major left her, convinced that mrs. walker believed mr. crawley to be guilty. then he went to barchester; not open-mouthed with inquiry, but rather with open ears, and it seemed to him that all men in barchester were of one mind. there was a county-club in barchester, and at this county-club nine men out of every ten were talking about mr. crawley. it was by no means necessary that a man should ask questions on the subject. opinion was expressed so freely that no such asking was required; and opinion in barchester,--at any rate in the county-club,--seemed now to be all of one mind. there had been every disposition at first to believe mr. crawley to be innocent. he had been believed to be innocent, even after he had said wrongly that the cheque had been paid to him by mr. soames; but he had since stated that he had received it from dean arabin, and that statement was also shown to be false. a man who has a cheque changed on his own behalf is bound at least to show where he got the cheque. mr. crawley had not only failed to do this, but had given two false excuses. henry grantly, as he drove home to silverbridge on the sunday afternoon, summed up all the evidence in his own mind, and brought in a verdict of guilty against the father of the girl whom he loved. on the following morning he walked into silverbridge and called at miss prettyman's house. as he went along his heart was warmer towards grace than it had ever been before. he had told himself that he was now bound to abstain, for his father's sake, from doing that which he had told his father that he would certainly do. but he knew also, that he had said that which, though it did not bind him to miss crawley, gave her a right to expect that he would so bind himself. and miss prettyman could not but be aware of what his intention had been, and could not but expect that he should now be explicit. had he been a wise man altogether, he would probably have abstained from saying anything at the present moment,--a wise man, that is, in the ways and feelings of the world in such matters. but, as there are men who will allow themselves all imaginable latitude in their treatment of women, believing that the world will condone any amount of fault of that nature, so are there other men, and a class of men which on the whole is the more numerous of the two, who are tremblingly alive to the danger of censure on this head,--and to the danger of censure not only from others, but from themselves also. major grantly had done that which made him think it imperative upon him to do something further, and to do that something at once. therefore he started off on the monday morning after breakfast and walked to silverbridge, and as he walked he built various castles in the air. why should he not marry grace,--if she would have him,--and take her away beyond the reach of her father's calamity? why should he not throw over his own people altogether, money, position, society, and all, and give himself up to love? were he to do so, men might say that he was foolish, but no one could hint that he was dishonourable. his spirit was high enough to teach him to think that such conduct on his part would have in it something of magnificence; but, yet, such was not his purpose. in going to miss prettyman it was his intention to apologize for not doing this magnificent thing. his mind was quite made up. nevertheless he built those castles in the air. it so happened that he encountered the younger miss prettyman in the hall. it would not at all have suited him to reveal to her the purport of his visit, or ask her either to assist his suit or to receive his apologies. miss anne prettyman was too common a personage in the silverbridge world to be fit for such employment. miss anne prettyman was, indeed, herself submissive to him, and treated him with the courtesy which is due to a superior being. he therefore simply asked her whether he could be allowed to see her sister. "surely, major grantly;--that is, i think so. it is a little early, but i think she can receive you." "it is early, i know; but as i want to say a word or two on business--" "oh, on business. i am sure she will see you on business; she will only be too proud. if you will be kind enough to step in here for two minutes." then miss anne, having deposited the major in the little parlour, ran upstairs with her message to her sister. "of course it's about grace crawley," she said to herself as she went. "it can't be about anything else. i wonder what it is he's going to say. if he's going to pop, and the father in all this trouble, he's the finest fellow that ever trod." such were her thoughts as she tapped at the door and announced in the presence of grace that there was somebody in the hall. "it's major grantly," whispered anne, as soon as grace had shut the door behind her. "so i supposed by your telling her not to go into the hall. what has he come to say?" "how on earth can i tell you that, annabella? but i suppose he can have only one thing to say after all that has come and gone. he can only have come with one object." "he wouldn't have come to me for that. he would have asked to see herself." "but she never goes out now, and he can't see her." "or he would have gone to them over at hogglestock," said miss prettyman. "but of course he must come up now he is here. would you mind telling him? or shall i ring the bell?" "i'll tell him. we need not make more fuss than necessary, with the servants, you know. i suppose i'd better not come back with him?" there was a tone of supplication in the younger sister's voice as she made the last suggestion, which ought to have melted the heart of the elder; but it was unavailing. "as he has asked to see me, i think you had better not," said annabella. miss anne prettyman bore her cross meekly, offered no argument on the subject, and returning to the little parlour where she had left the major, brought him upstairs and ushered him into her sister's room without even entering it again, herself. major grantly was as intimately acquainted with miss anne prettyman as a man under thirty may well be with a lady nearer fifty than forty, who is not specially connected with him by any family tie; but of miss prettyman he knew personally very much less. miss prettyman, as has before been said, did not go out, and was therefore not common to the eyes of the silverbridgians. she did occasionally see her friends in her own house, and grace crawley's lover, as the major had come to be called, had been there on more than one occasion; but of real personal intimacy between them there had hitherto existed none. he might have spoken, perhaps, a dozen words to her in his life. he had now more than a dozen to speak to her, but he hardly knew how to commence them. she had got up and curtseyed, and had then taken his hand and asked him to sit down. "my sister tells me that you want to see me," she said, in her softest, mildest voice. "i do, miss prettyman. i want to speak to you about a matter that troubles me very much,--very much indeed." "anything that i can do, major grantly--" "thank you, yes. i know that you are very good, or i should not have ventured to come to you. indeed i shouldn't trouble you now, of course, if it was only about myself. i know very well what a great friend you are to miss crawley." "yes, i am. we love grace dearly here." "so do i," said the major, bluntly; "i love her dearly, too." then he paused, as though he thought that miss prettyman ought to take up the speech. but miss prettyman seemed to think differently, and he was obliged to go on. "i don't know whether you have ever heard about it, or noticed it, or--or--or--" he felt that he was very awkward, and he blushed. major as he was, he blushed as he sat before the old woman, trying to tell his story, but not knowing how to tell it. "the truth is, miss prettyman, i have done all but ask her to be my wife, and now has come this terrible affair about her father." "it is a terrible affair, major grantly; very terrible." "by jove, you may say that!" "of course mr. crawley is as innocent in the matter as you or i are." "you think so, miss prettyman?" "think so! i feel quite sure of it. what; a clergyman of the church of england, a pious, hard-working country clergyman, whom we have known among us by his good works for years, suddenly turn thief, and pilfer a few pounds! it is not possible, major grantly. and the father of such a daughter, too! it is not possible. it may do for men of business to think so, lawyers and such like, who are obliged to think in accordance with the evidence, as they call it; but to my mind the idea is monstrous. i don't know how he got it, and i don't care; but i'm quite sure he did not steal it. whoever heard of anybody becoming so base as that all at once?" the major was startled by her eloquence, and by the indignant tone of voice in which it was expressed. it seemed to tell him that she would give him no sympathy in that which he had come to say to her, and to upbraid him already in that he was not prepared to do the magnificent thing of which he had thought when he had been building his castles in the air. why should he not do the magnificent thing? miss prettyman's eloquence was so strong that it half convinced him that the barchester club and mr. walker had come to a wrong conclusion after all. "and how does miss crawley bear it?" he asked, desirous of postponing for a while any declaration of his own purpose. "she is very unhappy, of course. not that she thinks evil of her father." "of course she does not think him guilty." "nobody thinks him so in this house, major grantly," said the little woman, very imperiously. "but grace is, naturally enough, very sad;--very sad indeed. i do not think i can ask you to see her to-day." "i was not thinking of it," said the major. "poor, dear girl! it is a great trial for her. do you wish me to give her any message, major grantly?" the moment had now come in which he must say that which he had come to say. the little woman waited for an answer, and as he was there, within her power as it were, he must speak. i fear that what he said will not be approved by any strong-minded reader. i fear that our lover will henceforth be considered by such a one as being but a weak, wishy-washy man, who had hardly any mind of his own to speak of;--that he was a man of no account, as the poor people say. "miss prettyman, what message ought i to send to her?" he said. "nay, major grantly, how can i tell you that? how can i put words into your mouth?" "it isn't the words," he said; "but the feelings." "and how can i tell the feelings of your heart?" "oh, as for that, i know what my feelings are. i do love her with all my heart;--i do, indeed. a fortnight ago i was only thinking whether she would accept me when i asked her,--wondering whether i was too old for her, and whether she would mind having edith to take care of." "she is very fond of edith,--very fond indeed." "is she?" said the major, more distracted than ever. why should he not do the magnificent thing after all? "but it is a great charge for a young girl when she marries." "it is a great charge;--a very great charge. it is for you to think whether you should entrust so great a charge to one so young." "i have no fear about that at all." "nor should i have any,--as you ask me. we have known grace well, thoroughly, and are quite sure that she will do her duty in that state of life to which it may please god to call her." the major was aware when this was said to him that he had not come to miss prettyman for a character of the girl he loved; and yet he was not angry at receiving it. he was neither angry, nor even indifferent. he accepted the character almost gratefully, though he felt that he was being led away from his purpose. he consoled himself for this, however, by remembering that the path by which miss prettyman was now leading him, led to the magnificent, and to those pleasant castles in the air which he had been building as he walked into silverbridge. "i am quite sure that she is all that you say," he replied. "indeed i had made up my mind about that long ago." "and what can i do for you, major grantly?" "you think i ought not to see her?" "i will ask herself, if you please. i have such trust in her judgment that i should leave her altogether to her own discretion." the magnificent thing must be done, and the major made up his mind accordingly. something of regret came over his spirit as he thought of a father-in-law disgraced and degraded, and of his own father broken-hearted. but now there was hardly an alternative left to him. and was it not the manly thing for him to do? he had loved the girl before this trouble had come upon her, and was he not bound to accept the burden which his love had brought with it? "i will see her," he said, "at once, if you will let me, and ask her to be my wife. but i must see her alone." then miss prettyman paused. hitherto she had undoubtedly been playing her fish cautiously, or rather her young friend's fish,--perhaps i may say cunningly. she had descended to artifice on behalf of the girl whom she loved, admired, and pitied. she had seen some way into the man's mind, and had been partly aware of his purpose,--of his infirmity of purpose, of his double purpose. she had perceived that a word from her might help grace's chance, and had led the man on till he had committed himself, at any rate to her. in doing this she had been actuated by friendship rather than by abstract principle. but now, when the moment had come in which she must decide upon some action, she paused. was it right, for the sake of either of them, that an offer of marriage should be made at such a moment as this? it might be very well, in regard to some future time, that the major should have so committed himself. she saw something of the man's spirit, and believed that, having gone so far,--having so far told his love, he would return to his love hereafter, let the result of the crawley trial be what it might. but,--but, this could be no proper time for love-making. though grace loved the man, as miss prettyman knew well,--though grace loved the child, having allowed herself to long to call it her own, though such a marriage would be the making of grace's fortune as those who loved her could hardly have hoped that it should ever have been made, she would certainly refuse the man, if he were to propose to her now. she would refuse him, and then the man would be free;--free to change his mind if he thought fit. considering all these things, craftily in the exercise of her friendship, too cunningly, i fear, to satisfy the claims of a high morality, she resolved that the major had better not see miss crawley at the present moment. miss prettyman paused before she replied, and, when she did speak, major grantly had risen from his chair and was standing with his back to the fire. "major grantly," she said, "you shall see her if you please, and if she pleases; but i doubt whether her answer at such a moment as this would be that which you would wish to receive." "you think she would refuse me?" "i do not think that she would accept you now. she would feel,--i am sure she would feel, that these hours of her father's sorrow are not hours in which love should be either offered or accepted. you shall, however, see her if you please." the major allowed himself a moment for thought; and as he thought he sighed. grace crawley became more beautiful in his eyes than ever, was endowed by these words from miss prettyman with new charms and brighter virtues than he had seen before. let come what might he would ask her to be his wife on some future day, if he did not so ask her now. for the present, perhaps, he had better be guided by miss prettyman. "then i will not see her," he said. "i think that will be the wiser course." "of course you knew before this that i--loved her?" "i thought so, major grantly." "and that i intended to ask her to be my wife?" "well; since you put the question to me so plainly, i must confess that as grace's friend i should not quite have let things go on as they have gone,--though i am not at all disposed to interfere with any girl whom i believe to be pure and good as i know her to be,--but still i should hardly have been justified in letting things go as they have gone, if i had not believed that such was your purpose." "i wanted to set myself right with you, miss prettyman." "you are right with me,--quite right;" and she got up and gave him her hand. "you are a fine, noble-hearted gentleman, and i hope that our grace may live to be your happy wife, and the mother of your darling child, and the mother of other children. i do not see how a woman could have a happier lot in life." "and will you give grace my love?" "i will tell her at any rate that you have been here, and that you have inquired after her with the greatest kindness. she will understand what that means without any word of love." "can i do anything for her,--or for her father; i mean in the way of--money? i don't mind mentioning it to you, miss prettyman." "i will tell her that you are ready to do it, if anything can be done. for myself i feel no doubt that the mystery will be cleared up at last; and then, if you will come here, we shall be so glad to see you.--i shall, at least." then the major went, and miss prettyman herself actually descended with him into the hall, and bade him farewell most affectionately before her sister and two of the maids who came out to open the door. miss anne prettyman, when she saw the great friendship with which the major was dismissed, could not contain herself, but asked most impudent questions, in a whisper indeed, but in such a whisper that any sharp-eared maid-servant could hear and understand them. "is it settled," she asked when her sister had ascended only the first flight of stairs;--"has he popped?" the look with which the elder sister punished and dismayed the younger, i would not have borne for twenty pounds. she simply looked, and said nothing, but passed on. when she had regained her room she rang the bell, and desired the servant to ask miss crawley to be good enough to step to her. poor miss anne retired discomforted into the solitude of one of the lower rooms, and sat for some minutes all alone, recovering from the shock of her sister's anger. "at any rate, he hasn't popped," she said to herself, as she made her way back to the school. after that miss prettyman and miss crawley were closeted together for about an hour. what passed between them need not be repeated here word for word; but it may be understood that miss prettyman said no more than she ought to have said, and that grace understood all that she ought to have understood. "no man ever behaved with more considerate friendship, or more like a gentleman," said miss prettyman. "i am sure he is very good, and i am so glad he did not ask to see me," said grace. then grace went away, and miss prettyman sat awhile in thought, considering what she had done, not without some stings of conscience. major grantly, as he walked home, was not altogether satisfied with himself, though he gave himself credit for some diplomacy which i do not think he deserved. he felt that miss prettyman and the world in general, should the world in general ever hear anything about it, would give him credit for having behaved well; and that he had obtained this credit without committing himself to the necessity of marrying the daughter of a thief, should things turn out badly in regard to the father. but,--and this but robbed him of all the pleasure which comes from real success,--but he had not treated grace crawley with the perfect generosity which love owes, and he was in some degree ashamed of himself. he felt, however, that he might probably have grace, should he choose to ask for her when this trouble should have passed by. "and i will," he said to himself, as he entered the gate of his own paddock, and saw his child in her perambulator before the nurse. "and i will ask her, sooner or later, let things go as they may." then he took the perambulator under his own charge for half-an-hour, to the satisfaction of the nurse, of the child, and of himself. chapter viii. mr. crawley is taken to silverbridge. it had become necessary on the monday morning that mrs. crawley should obtain from her husband an undertaking that he would present himself before the magistrates at silverbridge on the thursday. she had been made to understand that the magistrates were sinning against the strict rule of the law in not issuing a warrant at once for mr. crawley's apprehension; and that they were so sinning at the instance of mr. walker,--at whose instance they would have committed almost any sin practicable by a board of english magistrates, so great was their faith in him; and she knew that she was bound to answer her engagement. she had also another task to perform--that, namely, of persuading him to employ an attorney for his defence; and she was prepared with the name of an attorney, one mr. mason, also of silverbridge, who had been recommended to her by mr. walker. but when she came to the performance of these two tasks on the monday morning, she found that she was unable to accomplish either of them. mr. crawley first declared that he would have nothing to do with any attorney. as to that he seemed to have made up his mind beforehand, and she saw at once that she had no hope of shaking him. but when she found that he was equally obstinate in the other matter, and that he declared that he would not go before the magistrates unless he were made to do so,--unless the policemen came and fetched him, then she almost sank beneath the burden of her troubles, and for a while was disposed to let things go as they would. how could she strive to bear a load that was so manifestly too heavy for her shoulders? on the sunday the poor man had exerted himself to get through his sunday duties, and he had succeeded. he had succeeded so well that his wife had thought that things might yet come right with him, that he would remember, before it was too late, the true history of that unhappy bit of paper, and that he was rising above that half madness which for months past had afflicted him. on the sunday evening, when he was tired with his work, she thought it best to say nothing to him about the magistrates and the business of thursday. but on the monday morning she commenced her task, feeling that she owed it to mr. walker to lose no more time. he was very decided in his manners and made her understand that he would employ no lawyer on his own behalf. "why should i want a lawyer? i have done nothing wrong," he said. then she tried to make him understand that many who may have done nothing wrong require a lawyer's aid. "and who is to pay him?" he asked. to this she replied, unfortunately, that there would be no need of thinking of that at once. "and i am to get further into debt!" he said. "i am to put myself right before the world by incurring debts which i know i can never pay? when it has been a question of food for the children i have been weak, but i will not be weak in such a matter as this. i will have no lawyer." she did not regard this denial on his part as very material, though she would fain have followed mr. walker's advice had she been able; but when, later in the day, he declared that the police should fetch him, then her spirit gave way. early in the morning he had seemed to assent to the expediency of going into silverbridge on the thursday, and it was not till after he had worked himself into a rage about the proposed attorney, that he utterly refused to make the journey. during the whole day, however, his state was such as almost to break his wife's heart. he would do nothing. he would not go to the school, nor even stir beyond the house-door. he would not open a book. he would not eat, nor would he even sit at table or say the accustomed grace when the scanty mid-day meal was placed upon the table. "nothing is blessed to me," he said, when his wife pressed him to say the words for their child's sake. "shall i say that i thank god when my heart is thankless? shall i serve my child by a lie?" then for hours he sat in the same position, in the old arm-chair, hanging over the fire speechless, sleepless, thinking ever, as she well knew, of the injustice of the world. she hardly dared to speak to him, so great was the bitterness of his words when he was goaded to reply. at last, late in the evening, feeling that it would be her duty to send in to mr. walker early on the following morning, she laid her hand gently on his shoulder and asked him for his promise. "i may tell mr. walker that you will be there on thursday?" "no," he said, shouting at her. "no. i will have no such message sent." she started back, trembling. not that she was accustomed to tremble at his ways, or to show that she feared him in his paroxysms, but that his voice had been louder than she had before known it. "i will hold no intercourse with them at silverbridge in this matter. do you hear me, mary?" "i hear you, josiah; but i must keep my word to mr. walker. i promised that i would send to him." "tell him, then, that i will not stir a foot out of this house on thursday, of my own accord. on thursday i shall be here; and here i will remain all day,--unless they take me hence by force." "but, josiah--" "will you obey me, or i shall walk into silverbridge myself and tell the man that i will not come to him." then he arose from his chair and stretched forth his hand to his hat as though he were going forth immediately, on his way to silverbridge. the night was now pitch dark, and the rain was falling, and abroad he would encounter all the severity of the pitiless winter. still it might have been better that he should have gone. the exercise and the fresh air, even the wet and the mud, would have served to bring back his mind to reason. but his wife thought of the misery of the journey, of his scanty clothing, of his worn boots, of the need there was to preserve the raiment which he wore; and she remembered that he was fasting,--that he had eaten nothing since the morning, and that he was not fit to be alone. she stopped him, therefore, before he could reach the door. "your bidding shall be done," she said,--"of course." "tell them, then, that they must seek me here if they want me." "but, josiah, think of the parish,--of the people who respect you,--for their sakes let it not be said that you were taken away by policemen." "was st. paul not bound in prison? did he think of what the people might see?" "if it were necessary, i would encourage you to bear it without a murmur." "it is necessary, whether you murmur, or do not murmur. murmur, indeed! why does not your voice ascend to heaven with one loud wail against the cruelty of man?" then he went forth from the room into an empty chamber on the other side of the passage; and his wife, when she followed him there after a few minutes, found him on his knees, with his forehead against the floor, and with his hands clutching at the scanty hairs of his head. often before had she seen him so, on the same spot, half grovelling, half prostrate in prayer, reviling in his agony all things around him,--nay, nearly all things above him,--and yet striving to reconcile himself to his creator by the humiliation of confession. it might be better with him now, if only he could bring himself to some softness of heart. softly she closed the door, and placing the candle on the mantel-shelf, softly she knelt beside him, and softly touched his hand with hers. he did not stir nor utter a word, but seemed to clutch at his thin locks more violently than before. then she kneeling there, aloud, but with low voice, with her thin hands clasped, uttered a prayer in which she asked her god to remove from her husband the bitterness of that hour. he listened till she had finished, and then he rose slowly to his feet. "it is in vain," said he. "it is all in vain. it is all in vain." then he returned back to the parlour, and seating himself again in the arm-chair, remained there without speaking till past midnight. at last, when she told him that she herself was very cold, and reminded him that for the last hour there had been no fire, still speechless, he went up with her to their bed. early on the following morning she contrived to let him know that she was about to send a neighbour's son over with a note to mr. walker, fearing to urge him further to change his mind; but hoping that he might express his purpose of doing so when he heard that the letter was to be sent; but he took no notice whatever of her words. at this moment he was reading greek with his daughter, or rather rebuking her because she could not be induced to read greek. "oh, papa," the poor girl said, "don't scold me now. i am so unhappy because of all this." "and am not i unhappy?" he said, as he closed the book. "my god, what have i done against thee, that my lines should be cast in such terrible places?" the letter was sent to mr. walker. "he knows himself to be innocent," said the poor wife, writing what best excuse she knew how to make, "and thinks that he should take no step himself in such a matter. he will not employ a lawyer, and he says that he should prefer that he should be sent for, if the law requires his presence at silverbridge on thursday." all this she wrote, as though she felt that she ought to employ a high tone in defending her husband's purpose; but she broke down altogether in the few words of the postscript. "indeed, indeed i have done what i could!" mr. walker understood it all, both the high tone and the subsequent fall. on the thursday morning, at about ten o'clock, a fly stopped at the gate of the hogglestock parsonage, and out of it there came two men. one was dressed in ordinary black clothes, and seemed from his bearing to be a respectable man of the middle class of life. he was, however, the superintendent of police for the silverbridge district. the other man was a policeman, pure and simple, with the helmet-looking hat which has lately become common, and all the ordinary half-military and wholly disagreeable outward adjuncts of the profession. "wilkins," said the superintendent, "likely enough i shall want you, for they tell me the gent is uncommon strange. but if i don't call you when i come out, just open the door like a servant, and mount up on the box when we're in. and don't speak nor say nothing." then the senior policeman entered the house. he found mrs. crawley sitting in the parlour with her bonnet and shawl on, and mr. crawley in the arm-chair, leaning over the fire. "i suppose we had better go with you," said mrs. crawley directly the door was opened; for of course she had seen the arrival of the fly from the window. "the gentleman had better come with us if he'll be so kind," said thompson. "i've brought a close carriage for him." "but i may go with him?" said the wife, with frightened voice. "i may accompany my husband. he is not well, sir, and wants assistance." thompson thought about it for a moment before he spoke. there was room in the fly for only two, or if for three, still he knew his place better than to thrust himself inside together with his prisoner and his prisoner's wife. he had been specially asked by mr. walker to be very civil. only one could sit on the box with the driver, and if the request was conceded the poor policeman must walk back. the walk, however, would not kill the policeman. "all right, ma'am," said thompson;--"that is, if the gentleman will just pass his word not to get out till i ask him." "he will not! he will not!" said mrs. crawley. "i will pass my word for nothing," said mr. crawley. upon hearing this, thompson assumed a very long face, and shook his head as he turned his eyes first towards the husband and then towards the wife, and shrugged his shoulders, and compressing his lips, blew out his breath, as though in this way he might blow off some of the mingled sorrow and indignation with which the gentleman's words afflicted him. mrs. crawley rose and came close to him. "you may take my word for it, he will not stir. you may indeed. he thinks it incumbent on him not to give any undertaking himself, because he feels himself to be so harshly used." "i don't know about harshness," said thompson, brindling up. "a close carriage brought, and--" "i will walk. if i am made to go, i will walk," shouted mr. crawley. "i did not allude to you,--or to mr. walker," said the poor wife. "i know you have been most kind. i meant the harshness of the circumstances. of course he is innocent, and you must feel for him." "yes, i feel for him, and for you too, ma'am." "that is all i meant. he knows his own innocence, and therefore he is unwilling to give way in anything." "of course he knows hisself, that's certain. but he'd better come in the carriage, if only because of the dirt and slush." "he will go in the carriage; and i will go with him. there will be room there for you, sir." thompson looked up at the rain, and told himself that it was very cold. then he remembered mr. walker's injunction, and bethought himself that mrs. crawley, in spite of her poverty, was a lady. he conceived even unconsciously the idea that something was due to her because of her poverty. "i'll go with the driver," said he, "but he'll only give hisself a deal of trouble if he attempts to get out." "he won't; he won't," said mrs. crawley. "and i thank you with all my heart." "come along, then," said thompson. she went up to her husband, hat in hand, and looking round to see that she was not watched, put the hat on his head, and then lifted him as it were from his chair. he did not refuse to be led, and allowed her to throw round his shoulders the old cloak which was hanging in the passage, and then he passed out, and was the first to seat himself in the silverbridge fly. his wife followed him, and did not hear the blandishments with which thompson instructed his myrmidon to follow through the mud on foot. slowly they made their way through the lanes, and it was nearly twelve when the fly was driven into the yard of the "george and vulture" at silverbridge. silverbridge, though it was blessed with a mayor and corporation, and was blessed also with a member of parliament all to itself, was not blessed with any court-house. the magistrates were therefore compelled to sit in the big room at the "george and vulture," in which the county balls were celebrated, and the meeting of the west barsetshire freemasons was held. that part of the country was, no doubt, very much ashamed of its backwardness in this respect, but as yet nothing had been done to remedy the evil. thompson and his fly were therefore driven into the yard of the inn, and mr. and mrs. crawley were ushered by him up into a little bed-chamber close adjoining to the big room in which the magistrates were already assembled. "there's a bit of fire here," said thompson, "and you can make yourselves a little warm." he himself was shivering with the cold. "when the gents is ready in there, i'll just come and fetch you." "i may go in with him?" said mrs. crawley. "i'll have a chair for you at the end of the table, just nigh to him," said thompson. "you can slip into it and say nothing to nobody." then he left them and went away to the magistrates. mr. crawley had not spoken a word since he had entered the vehicle. nor had she said much to him, but had sat with him holding his hand in hers. now he spoke to her,--"where is it that we are?" he asked. "at silverbridge, dearest." "but what is this chamber? and why are we here?" "we are to wait here till the magistrates are ready. they are in the next room." "but this is the inn?" "yes, dear, it is the inn." "and i see crowds of people about." there were crowds of people about. there had been men in the yard, and others standing about on the stairs, and the public room was full of men who were curious to see the clergyman who had stolen twenty pounds, and to hear what would be the result of the case before the magistrates. he must be committed; so, at least, said everybody; but then there would be the question of bail. would the magistrates let him out on bail, and who would be the bailsmen? "why are the people here?" said mr. crawley. "i suppose it is the custom when the magistrates are sitting," said his wife. "they have come to see the degradation of a clergyman," said he;--"and they will not be disappointed." "nothing can degrade but guilt," said his wife. "yes,--misfortune can degrade, and poverty. a man is degraded when the cares of the world press so heavily upon him that he cannot rouse himself. they have come to look at me as though i were a hunted beast." "it is but their custom always on such days." "they have not always a clergyman before them as a criminal." then he was silent for a while, while she was chafing his cold hands. "would that i were dead, before they had brought me to this! would that i were dead!" "is it not right, dear, that we should all bear what he sends us?" "would that i were dead!" he repeated. "the load is too heavy for me to bear, and i would that i were dead!" the time seemed to be very long before thompson returned and asked them to accompany him into the big room. when he did so, mr. crawley grasped hold of his chair as though he had resolved that he would not go. but his wife whispered a word to him, and he obeyed her. "he will follow me," she said to the policeman. and in that way they went from the small room into the large one. thompson went first; mrs. crawley with her veil down came next; and the wretched man followed his wife, with his eyes fixed upon the ground and his hands clasped together upon his breast. he could at first have seen nothing, and could hardly have known where he was when they placed him in a chair. she, with a better courage, contrived to look round through her veil, and saw that there was a long board or table covered with green cloth, and that six or seven gentlemen were sitting at one end of it, while there seemed to be a crowd standing along the sides and about the room. her husband was seated at the other end of the table, near the corner, and round the corner,--so that she might be close to him,--her chair had been placed. on the other side of him there was another chair, now empty, intended for any professional gentleman whom he might choose to employ. there were five magistrates sitting there. lord lufton, from framley, was in the chair;--a handsome man, still young, who was very popular in the county. the cheque which had been cashed had borne his signature, and he had consequently expressed his intention of not sitting at the board; but mr. walker, desirous of having him there, had overruled him, showing him that the loss was not his loss. the cheque, if stolen, had not been stolen from him. he was not the prosecutor. "no, by jove," said lord lufton, "if i could quash the whole thing, i'd do it at once!" "you can't do that, my lord, but you may help us at the board," said mr. walker. then there was the hon. george de courcy, lord de courcy's brother, from castle courcy. lord de courcy did not live in the county, but his brother did so, and endeavoured to maintain the glory of the family by the discretion of his conduct. he was not, perhaps, among the wisest of men, but he did very well as a country magistrate, holding his tongue, keeping his eyes open, and, on such occasions as this, obeying mr. walker in all things. dr. tempest was also there, the rector of the parish, he being both magistrate and clergyman. there were many in silverbridge who declared that dr. tempest would have done far better to stay away when a brother clergyman was thus to be brought before the bench; but it had been long since dr. tempest had cared what was said about him in silverbridge. he had become so accustomed to the life he led as to like to be disliked, and to be enamoured of unpopularity. so when mr. walker had ventured to suggest to him that, perhaps, he might not choose to be there, he had laughed mr. walker to scorn. "of course i shall be there," he said. "i am interested in the case,--very much interested. of course i shall be there." and had not lord lufton been present he would have made himself more conspicuous by taking the chair. mr. fothergill was the fourth. mr. fothergill was man of business to the duke of omnium, who was the great owner of property in and about silverbridge, and he was the most active magistrate in that part of the county. he was a sharp man, and not at all likely to have any predisposition in favour of a clergyman. the fifth was dr. thorne, of chaldicotes, a gentleman whose name has been already mentioned in these pages. he had been for many years a medical man practising in a little village in the further end of the county; but it had come to be his fate, late in life, to marry a great heiress, with whose money the ancient house and domain of chaldicotes had been purchased from the sowerbys. since then dr. thorne had done his duty well as a country gentleman,--not, however, without some little want of smoothness between him and the duke's people. chaldicotes lay next to the duke's territory, and the duke had wished to buy chaldicotes. when chaldicotes slipped through the duke's fingers and went into the hands of dr. thorne,--or of dr. thorne's wife,--the duke had been very angry with mr. fothergill. hence it had come to pass that there had not always been smoothness between the duke's people and the chaldicotes people. it was now rumoured that dr. thorne intended to stand for the county on the next vacancy, and that did not tend to make things smoother. on the right hand of lord lufton sat lord george and mr. fothergill, and beyond mr. fothergill sat mr. walker, and beyond mr. walker sat mr. walker's clerk. on the left hand of the chairman were dr. tempest and dr. thorne, and a little lower down was mr. zachary winthrop, who held the situation of clerk to the magistrates. many people in silverbridge said that this was all wrong, as mr. winthrop was partner with mr. walker, who was always employed before the magistrates if there was any employment going for an attorney. for this, however, mr. walker cared very little. he had so much of his own way in silverbridge, that he was supposed to care nothing for anybody. there were many other gentlemen in the room, and some who knew mr. crawley with more or less intimacy. he, however, took notice of no one, and when one friend, who had really known him well, came up behind and spoke to him gently leaning over his chair, the poor man hardly recognized his friend. "i'm sure your husband won't forget me," said mr. robarts, the clergyman of framley, as he gave his hand to that lady across the back of mr. crawley's chair. "no, mr. robarts, he does not forget you. but you must excuse him if at this moment he is not quite himself. it is a trying situation for a clergyman." "i can understand all that; but i'll tell you why i have come. i suppose this inquiry will finish the whole affair, and clear up whatever may be the difficulty. but should it not do so, it may be just possible, mrs. crawley, that something may be said about bail. i don't understand much about it, and i daresay you do not either; but if there should be anything of that sort, let mr. crawley name me. a brother clergyman will be best, and i'll have some other gentleman with me." then he left her, not waiting for any answer. at the same time there was a conversation going on between mr. walker and another attorney standing behind him, mr. mason. "i'll go to him," said walker, "and try to arrange it." so mr. walker seated himself in the empty chair beside mr. crawley, and endeavoured to explain to the wretched man, that he would do well to allow mr. mason to assist him. mr. crawley seemed to listen to all that was said, and then turned upon the speaker sharply: "i will have no one to assist me," he said so loudly that every one in the room heard the words. "i am innocent. why should i want assistance? nor have i money to pay for it." mr. mason made a quick movement forward, intending to explain that that consideration need offer no impediment, but was stopped by further speech from mr. crawley. "i will have no one to help me," said he, standing upright, and for the first time removing his hat from his head. "go on, and do what it is you have to do." after that he did not sit down till the proceedings were nearly over, though he was invited more than once by lord lufton to do so. we need not go through all the evidence that was brought to bear upon the question. it was proved that money for the cheque was paid to mr. crawley's messenger, and that this money was given to mr. crawley. when there occurred some little delay in the chain of evidence necessary to show that mr. crawley had signed and sent the cheque and got the money, he became impatient. "why do you trouble the man?" he said. "i had the cheque, and i sent him; i got the money. has any one denied it, that you should strive to drive a poor man like that beyond his wits?" then mr. soames and the manager of the bank showed what inquiry had been made as soon as the cheque came back from the london bank; how at first they had both thought that mr. crawley could of course explain the matter, and how he had explained it by a statement which was manifestly untrue. then there was evidence to prove that the cheque could not have been paid to him by mr. soames, and as this was given, mr. crawley shook his head and again became impatient. "i erred in that," he exclaimed. "of course i erred. in my haste i thought it was so, and in my haste i said so. i am not good at reckoning money and remembering sums; but i saw that i had been wrong when my error was shown to me, and i acknowledged at once that i had been wrong." up to this point he had behaved not only with so much spirit, but with so much reason, that his wife began to hope that the importance of the occasion had brought back the clearness of his mind, and that he would, even now, be able to place himself right as the inquiry went on. then it was explained that mr. crawley had stated that the cheque had been given to him by dean arabin, as soon as it was shown that it could not have been given to him by mr. soames. in reference to this, mr. walker was obliged to explain that application had been made to the dean, who was abroad, and that the dean had stated that he had given fifty pounds to his friend. mr. walker explained also that the very notes of which this fifty pounds had consisted had been traced back to mr. crawley, and that they had had no connection with the cheque or with the money which had been given for the cheque at the bank. mr. soames stated that he had lost the cheque with a pocket-book; that he had certainly lost it on the day on which he had called on mr. crawley at hogglestock; and that he missed his pocket-book on his journey back from hogglestock to barchester. at the moment of missing it he remembered that he had taken the book out from his pocket in mr. crawley's room, and, at that moment, he had not doubted but that he had left it in mr. crawley's house. he had written and sent to mr. crawley to inquire, but had been assured that nothing had been found. there had been no other property of value in the pocket-book,--nothing but a few visiting cards and a memorandum, and he had therefore stopped the cheque at the london bank, and thought no more about it. mr. crawley was then asked to explain in what way he came possessed of the cheque. the question was first put by lord lufton; but it soon fell into mr. walker's hands, who certainly asked it with all the kindness with which such an inquiry could be made. could mr. crawley at all remember by what means that bit of paper had come into his possession, or how long he had had it? he answered the last question first. "it had been with him for months." and why had he kept it? he looked round the room sternly, almost savagely, before he answered, fixing his eyes for a moment upon almost every face around him as he did so. then he spoke. "i was driven by shame to keep it,--and then by shame to use it." that this statement was true, no one in the room doubted. and then the other question was pressed upon him; and he lifted up his hands, and raised his voice, and swore by the saviour in whom he trusted, that he knew not from whence the money had come to him. why then had he said that it had come from the dean? he had thought so. the dean had given him money, covered up, in an enclosure, "so that the touch of the coin might not add to my disgrace in taking his alms," said the wretched man, thus speaking openly and freely in his agony of the shame which he had striven so persistently to hide. he had not seen the dean's monies as they had been given, and he had thought that the cheque had been with them. beyond that he could tell them nothing. then there was a conference between the magistrates and mr. walker, in which mr. walker submitted that the magistrates had no alternative but to commit the gentleman. to this lord lufton demurred, and with him dr. thorne. "i believe, as i am sitting here," said lord lufton, "that he has told the truth, and that he does not know any more than i do from whence the cheque came." "i am quite sure he does not," said dr. thorne. lord george remarked that it was the "queerest go he had ever come across." dr. tempest merely shook his head. mr. fothergill pointed out that even supposing the gentleman's statement to be true, it by no means went towards establishing the gentleman's innocence. the cheque had been traced to the gentleman's hands, and the gentleman was bound to show how it had come into his possession. even supposing that the gentleman had found the cheque in his house, which was likely enough, he was not thereby justified in changing it, and applying the proceeds to his own purposes. mr. walker told them that mr. fothergill was right, and that the only excuse to be made for mr. crawley was that he was out of his senses. "i don't see it," said lord lufton. "i might have a lot of paper money by me, and not know from adam where i got it." "but you would have to show where you got it, my lord, when inquiry was made," said mr. fothergill. lord lufton, who was not particularly fond of mr. fothergill, and was very unwilling to be instructed by him in any of the duties of a magistrate, turned his back at once upon the duke's agent; but within three minutes afterwards he had submitted to the same instructions from mr. walker. mr. crawley had again seated himself, and during this period of the affair was leaning over the table with his face buried on his arms. mrs. crawley sat by his side, utterly impotent as to any assistance, just touching him with her hand, and waiting behind her veil till she should be made to understand what was the decision of the magistrates. this was at last communicated to her,--and to him,--in a whisper by mr. walker. mr. crawley must understand that he was committed to take his trial at barchester, at the next assizes, which would be held in april, but that bail would be taken;--his own bail in five hundred pounds, and that of two others in two hundred and fifty pounds each. and mr. walker explained further that he and the bailmen were ready, and that the bail-bond was prepared. the bailmen were to be the rev. mr. robarts, and major grantly. in five minutes the bond was signed and mr. crawley was at liberty to go away, a free man,--till the barchester assizes should come round in april. of all that was going on at this time mr. crawley knew little or nothing, and mrs. crawley did not know much. she did say a word of thanks to mr. robarts, and begged that the same might be said to--the other gentleman. if she had heard the major's name she did not remember it. then they were led out back into the bed-room, where mrs. walker was found, anxious to do something, if she only knew what, to comfort the wretched husband and the wretched wife. but what comfort or consolation could there be within their reach? there was tea made ready for them, and sandwiches cut from the inn larder. and there was sherry in the inn decanter. but no such comfort as that was possible for either of them. they were taken home again in the fly, returning without the escort of mr. thompson, and as they went some few words were spoken by mrs. crawley. "josiah," she said, "there will be a way out of this, even yet, if you will only hold up your head and trust." "there is a way out of it," he said. "there is a way. there is but one way." when he had so spoken she said no more, but resolved that her eye should never be off him, no,--not for a moment. then, when she had gotten him once more into that front parlour, she threw her arms round him and kissed him. chapter ix. grace crawley goes to allington. [illustration] the tidings of what had been done by the magistrates at their petty sessions was communicated the same night to grace crawley by miss prettyman. miss anne prettyman had heard the news within five minutes of the execution of the bail-bond, and had rushed to her sister with information as to the event. "they have found him guilty; they have, indeed. they have convicted him,--or whatever it is, because he couldn't say where he got it." "you do not mean that they have sent him to prison?" "no;--not to prison; not as yet, that is. i don't understand it altogether; but he's to be tried again at the assizes. in the meantime he's to be out on bail. major grantly is to be the bail,--he and mr. robarts. that, i think, was very nice of him." it was undoubtedly the fact that miss anne prettyman had received an accession of pleasurable emotion when she learned that mr. crawley had not been sent away scathless, but had been condemned, as it were, to a public trial at the assizes. and yet she would have done anything in her power to save grace crawley, or even to save her father. and it must be explained that miss anne prettyman was supposed to be specially efficient in teaching roman history to her pupils, although she was so manifestly ignorant of the course of law in the country in which she lived. "committed him," said miss prettyman, correcting her sister with scorn. "they have not convicted him. had they convicted him, there could be no question of bail." "i don't know how all that is, annabella, but at any rate major grantly is to be the bailsman, and there is to be another trial at barchester." "there cannot be more than one trial in a criminal case," said miss prettyman, "unless the jury should disagree, or something of that kind. i suppose he has been committed, and that the trial will take place at the assizes." "exactly,--that's just it." had lord lufton appeared as lictor, and had thompson carried the fasces, miss anne would have known more about it. the sad tidings were not told to grace till the evening. mrs. crawley, when the inquiry was over before the magistrates, would fain have had herself driven to the miss prettymans' school, that she might see her daughter; but she felt that to be impossible while her husband was in her charge. the father would of course have gone to his child, had the visit been suggested to him; but that would have caused another terrible scene; and the mother, considering it all in her mind, thought it better to abstain. miss prettyman did her best to make poor grace think that the affair had gone so far favourably,--did her best, that is, without saying anything which her conscience told her to be false. "it is to be settled at the assizes in april," she said. "and in the meantime what will become of papa?" "your papa will be at home, just as usual. he must have some one to advise him. i dare say it would have been all over now if he would have employed an attorney." "but it seems so hard that an attorney should be wanted." "my dear grace, things in this world are hard." "but they are always harder for papa and mamma than for anybody else." in answer to this, miss prettyman made some remarks intended to be wise and kind at the same time. grace, whose eyes were laden with tears, made no immediate reply to this, but reverted to her former statement, that she must go home. "i cannot remain, miss prettyman; i am so unhappy." "will you be more happy at home?" "i can bear it better there." the poor girl soon learned from the intended consolations of those around her, from the ill-considered kindnesses of the pupils, and from words which fell from the servants, that her father had in fact been judged to be guilty, as far as judgment had as yet gone. "they do say, miss, it's only because he hadn't a lawyer," said the housekeeper. and if men so kind as lord lufton and mr. walker had made him out to be guilty, what could be expected from a stern judge down from london, who would know nothing about her poor father and his peculiarities, and from twelve jurymen who would be shopkeepers out of barchester. it would kill her father, and then it would kill her mother; and after that it would kill her also. and there was no money in the house at home. she knew it well. she had been paid three pounds a month for her services at the school, and the money for the last two months had been sent to her mother. yet, badly as she wanted anything that she might be able to earn, she knew that she could not go on teaching. it had come to be acknowledged by both the miss prettymans that any teaching on her part for the present was impossible. she would go home and perish with the rest of them. there was no room left for hope to her, or to any of her family. they had accused her father of being a common thief,--her father whom she knew to be so nobly honest, her father whom she believed to be among the most devoted of god's servants. he was accused of a paltry theft, and the magistrates and lawyers and policemen among them had decided that the accusation was true! how could she look the girls in the face after that, or attempt to hold her own among the teachers! on the next morning there came the letter from miss lily dale, and with that in her hand she again went to miss prettyman. she must go home, she said. she must at any rate see her mother. could miss prettyman be kind enough to send her home. "i haven't sixpence to pay for anything," she said, bursting out into tears; "and i haven't a right to ask for it." then the statements which miss prettyman made in her eagerness to cover this latter misfortune were decidedly false. there was so much money owing to grace, she said; money for this, money for that, money for anything or nothing! ten pounds would hardly clear the account. "nobody owes me anything; but if you'll lend me five shillings!" said grace, in her agony. miss prettyman, as she made her way through this difficulty, thought of major grantly and his love. it would have been of no use, she knew. had she brought them together on that monday, grace would have said nothing to him. indeed such a meeting at such a time would have been improper. but, regarding major grantly, as she did, in the light of a millionaire,--for the wealth of the archdeacon was notorious,--she could not but think it a pity that poor grace should be begging for five shillings. "you need not at any rate trouble yourself about money, grace," said miss prettyman. "what is a pound or two more or less between you and me? it is almost unkind of you to think about it. is that letter in your hand anything for me to see, my dear?" then grace explained that she did not wish to show miss dale's letter, but that miss dale had asked her to go to allington. "and you will go," said miss prettyman. "it will be the best thing for you, and the best thing for your mother." it was at last decided that grace should go to her friend at allington, and to allington she went. she returned home for a day or two, and was persuaded by her mother to accept the invitation that had been given her. at hogglestock, while she was there, new troubles came up, of which something shall shortly be told; but they were troubles in which grace could give no assistance to her mother, and which, indeed, though they were in truth troubles, as will be seen, were so far beneficent that they stirred her father up to a certain action which was in itself salutary. "i think it will be better that you should be away, dearest," said the mother, who now, for the first time, heard plainly all that poor grace had to tell about major grantly;--grace having, heretofore, barely spoken, in most ambiguous words, of major grantly as a gentleman whom she had met at framley, and whom she had described as being "very nice." in old days, long ago, lucy robarts, the present lady lufton, sister of the rev. mark robarts, the parson of framley, had sojourned for a while under mr. crawley's roof at hogglestock. peculiar circumstances, which need not, perhaps, be told here, had given occasion for this visit. she had then resolved,--for her future destiny had been known to her before she left mrs. crawley's house,--that she would in coming days do much to befriend the family of her friend; but the doing of much had been very difficult. and the doing of anything had come to be very difficult through a certain indiscretion on lord lufton's part. lord lufton had offered assistance, pecuniary assistance, to mr. crawley, which mr. crawley had rejected with outspoken anger. what was lord lufton to him that his lordship should dare to come to him with his paltry money in his hand? but after a while, lady lufton, exercising some cunning in the operations of her friendship, had persuaded her sister-in-law at the framley parsonage to have grace crawley over there as a visitor,--and there she had been during the summer holidays previous to the commencement of our story. and there, at framley, she had become acquainted with major grantly, who was staying with lord lufton at framley court. she had then said something to her mother about major grantly, something ambiguous, something about his being "very nice," and the mother had thought how great was the pity that her daughter, who was "nice" too in her estimation, should have so few of those adjuncts to assist her which come from full pockets. she had thought no more about it then; but now she felt herself constrained to think more. "i don't quite understand why he should have come to miss prettyman on monday," said grace, "because he hardly knows her at all." "i suppose it was on business," said mrs. crawley. "no, mamma, it was not on business." "how can you tell, dear?" "because miss prettyman said it was,--it was--to ask after me. oh, mamma, i must tell you. i know he did like me." "did he ever say so to you, dearest?" "yes, mamma." "and what did you tell him?" "i told him nothing, mamma." "and did he ask to see you on monday?" "no, mamma; i don't think he did. i think he understood it all too well, for i could not have spoken to him then." mrs. crawley pursued the cross-examination no further, but made up her mind that it would be better that her girl should be away from her wretched home during this period of her life. if it were written in the book of fate that one of her children should be exempted from the series of misfortunes which seemed to fall, one after another, almost as a matter of course, upon her husband, upon her, and upon her family; if so great good fortune were in store for her grace as such a marriage as this which seemed to be so nearly offered to her, it might probably be well that grace should be as little at home as possible. mrs. crawley had heard nothing but good of major grantly; but she knew that the grantlys were proud rich people,--who lived with their heads high up in the county,--and it could hardly be that a son of the archdeacon would like to take his bride direct from hogglestock parsonage. it was settled that grace should go to allington as soon as a letter could be received from miss dale in return to grace's note, and on the third morning after her arrival at home she started. none but they who have themselves been poor gentry,--gentry so poor as not to know how to raise a shilling,--can understand the peculiar bitterness of the trials which such poverty produces. the poverty of the normal poor does not approach it; or, rather, the pangs arising from such poverty are altogether of a different sort. to be hungry and have no food, to be cold and have no fuel, to be threatened with distraint for one's few chairs and tables, and with the loss of the roof over one's head,--all these miseries, which, if they do not positively reach, are so frequently near to reaching the normal poor, are, no doubt, the severest of the trials to which humanity is subjected. they threaten life,--or, if not life, then liberty,--reducing the abject one to a choice between captivity and starvation. by hook or crook, the poor gentleman or poor lady,--let the one or the other be ever so poor,--does not often come to the last extremity of the workhouse. there are such cases, but they are exceptional. mrs. crawley, through all her sufferings, had never yet found her cupboard to be absolutely bare, or the bread-pan to be actually empty. but there are pangs to which, at the time, starvation itself would seem to be preferable. the angry eyes of unpaid tradesmen, savage with an anger which one knows to be justifiable; the taunt of the poor servant who wants her wages; the gradual relinquishment of habits which the soft nurture of earlier, kinder years had made second nature; the wan cheeks of the wife whose malady demands wine; the rags of the husband whose outward occupations demand decency; the neglected children, who are learning not to be the children of gentlefolk; and, worse than all, the alms and doles of half-generous friends, the waning pride, the pride that will not wane, the growing doubt whether it be not better to bow the head, and acknowledge to all the world that nothing of the pride of station is left,--that the hand is open to receive and ready to touch the cap, that the fall from the upper to the lower level has been accomplished,--these are the pangs of poverty which drive the crawleys of the world to the frequent entertaining of that idea of the bare bodkin. it was settled that grace should go to allington;--but how about her clothes? and then, whence was to come the price of her journey? "i don't think they'll mind about my being shabby at allington. they live very quietly there." "but you say that miss dale is so very nice in all her ways." "lily is very nice, mamma; but i shan't mind her so much as her mother, because she knows it all. i have told her everything." "but you have given me all your money, dearest." "miss prettyman told me i was to come to her," said grace, who had already taken some small sum from the schoolmistress, which at once had gone into her mother's pocket, and into household purposes. "she said i should be sure to go to allington, and that of course i should go to her, as i must pass through silverbridge." "i hope papa will not ask about it," said mrs. crawley. luckily papa did not ask about it, being at the moment occupied much with other thoughts and other troubles, and grace was allowed to return by silverbridge, and to take what was needed from miss prettyman. who can tell of the mending and patching, of the weary wearing midnight hours of needlework which were accomplished before the poor girl went, so that she might not reach her friend's house in actual rags? and when the work was ended, what was there to show for it? i do not think that the idea of the bare bodkin, as regarded herself, ever flitted across mrs. crawley's brain,--she being one of those who are very strong to endure; but it must have occurred to her very often that the repose of the grave is sweet, and that there cometh after death a levelling and making even of things, which would at last cure all her evils. grace no doubt looked forward to a levelling and making even of things,--or perhaps even to something more prosperous than that, which should come to her relief on this side of the grave. she could not but have high hopes in regard to her future destiny. although, as has been said, she understood no more than she ought to have understood from miss prettyman's account of the conversation with major grantly, still, innocent as she was, she had understood much. she knew that the man loved her, and she knew also that she loved the man. she thoroughly comprehended that the present could be to her no time for listening to speeches of love, or for giving kind answers; but still i think that she did look for relief on this side of the grave. "tut, tut," said miss prettyman as grace in vain tried to conceal her tears up in the private sanctum. "you ought to know me by this time, and to have learned that i can understand things." the tears had flown in return not only for the five gold sovereigns which miss prettyman had pressed into her hand, but on account of the prettiest, soft, grey merino frock that ever charmed a girl's eye. "i should like to know how many girls i have given dresses to, when they have been going out visiting. law, my dear; they take them, many of them, from us old maids, almost as if we were only paying our debts in giving them." and then miss anne gave her a cloth cloak, very warm, with pretty buttons and gimp trimmings,--just such a cloak as any girl might like to wear who thought that she would be seen out walking by her major grantly on a christmas morning. grace crawley did not expect to be seen out walking by her major grantly, but nevertheless she liked the cloak. by the power of her practical will, and by her true sympathy, the elder miss prettyman had for a while conquered the annoyance which, on grace's part, was attached to the receiving of gifts, by the consciousness of her poverty; and when miss anne, with some pride in the tone of her voice, expressed a hope that grace would think the cloak pretty, grace put her arms pleasantly round her friend's neck, and declared that it was very pretty,--the prettiest cloak in all the world! grace was met at the guestwick railway-station by her friend lilian dale, and was driven over to allington in a pony carriage belonging to lilian's uncle, the squire of the parish. i think she will be excused in having put on her new cloak, not so much because of the cold as with a view of making the best of herself before mrs. dale. and yet she knew that mrs. dale would know all the circumstances of her poverty, and was very glad that it should be so. "i am so glad that you have come, dear," said lily. "it will be such a comfort." "i am sure you are very good," said grace. "and mamma is so glad. from the moment that we both talked ourselves into eagerness about it,--while i was writing my letter, you know, we resolved that it must be so." "i'm afraid i shall be a great trouble to mrs. dale." "a trouble to mamma! indeed you will not. you shall be a trouble to no one but me. i will have all the trouble myself, and the labour i delight in shall physic my pain." grace crawley could not during the journey be at home and at ease even with her friend lily. she was going to a strange house under strange circumstances. her father had not indeed been tried and found guilty of theft, but the charge of theft had been made against him, and the magistrates before whom it had been made had thought that the charge was true. grace knew that all the local newspapers had told the story, and was of course aware that mrs. dale would have heard it. her own mind was full of it, and though she dreaded to speak of it, yet she could not be silent. miss dale, who understood much of this, endeavoured to talk her friend into easiness; but she feared to begin upon the one subject, and before the drive was over they were, both of them, too cold for much conversation. "there's mamma," said miss dale as they drove up, turning out of the street of the village to the door of mrs. dale's house. "she always knows, by instinct, when i am coming. you must understand now that you are among us, that mamma and i are not mother and daughter, but two loving old ladies, living together in peace and harmony. we do have our quarrels,--whether the chicken shall be roast or boiled, but never anything beyond that. mamma, here is grace, starved to death; and she says if you don't give her some tea she will go back at once." "i will give her some tea," said mrs. dale. "and i am worse than she is, because i've been driving. it's all up with bernard and mr. green for the next week at least. it is freezing as hard as it can freeze, and they might as well try to hunt in lapland as here." "they'll console themselves with skating," said mrs. dale. "have you ever observed, grace," said miss dale, "how much amusement gentlemen require, and how imperative it is that some other game should be provided when one game fails?" "not particularly," said grace. "oh, but it is so. now, with women, it is supposed that they can amuse themselves or live without amusement. once or twice in a year, perhaps something is done for them. there is an arrow-shooting party, or a ball, or a picnic. but the catering for men's sport is never-ending, and is always paramount to everything else. and yet the pet game of the day never goes off properly. in partridge time, the partridges are wild, and won't come to be killed. in hunting time the foxes won't run straight,--the wretches. they show no spirit, and will take to ground to save their brushes. then comes a nipping frost, and skating is proclaimed; but the ice is always rough, and the woodcocks have deserted the country. and as for salmon,--when the summer comes round i do really believe that they suffer a great deal about the salmon. i'm sure they never catch any. so they go back to their clubs and their cards, and their billiards, and abuse their cooks and blackball their friends. that's about it, mamma; is it not?" "you know more about it than i do, my dear." "because i have to listen to bernard, as you never will do. we've got such a mr. green down here, grace. he's such a duck of a man,--such top-boots and all the rest of it. and yet they whisper to me that he doesn't ride always to hounds. and to see him play billiards is beautiful, only he never can make a stroke. i hope you play billiards, grace, because uncle christopher has just had a new table put up." "i never saw a billiard-table yet," said grace. "then mr. green shall teach you. he'll do anything that you ask him. if you don't approve the colour of the ball, he'll go to london to get you another one. only you must be very careful about saying that you like anything before him, as he'll be sure to have it for you the next day. mamma happened to say that she wanted a four-penny postage-stamp, and he walked off to guestwick to get it for her instantly, although it was lunch-time." "he did nothing of the kind, lily," said her mother. "he was going to guestwick, and was very good-natured, and brought me back a postage-stamp that i wanted." "of course he's good-natured, i know that. and there's my cousin bernard. he's captain dale, you know. but he prefers to be called mr. dale, because he has left the army, and has set up as junior squire of the parish. uncle christopher is the real squire; only bernard does all the work. and now you know all about us. i'm afraid you'll find us dull enough,--unless you can take a fancy to mr. green." "does mr. green live here?" asked grace. "no; he does not live here. i never heard of his living anywhere. he was something once, but i don't know what; and i don't think he's anything now in particular. but he's bernard's friend, and like most men, as one sees them, he never has much to do. does major grantly ever go forth to fight his country's battles?" this last question she asked in a low whisper, so that the words did not reach her mother. grace blushed up to her eyes, however, as she answered,-- "i think that major grantly has left the army." "we shall get her round in a day or two, mamma," said lily dale to her mother that night. "i'm sure it will be the best thing to force her to talk of her troubles." "i would not use too much force, my dear." "things are better when they're talked about. i'm sure they are. and it will be good to make her accustomed to speak of major grantly. from what mary walker tells me, he certainly means it. and if so, she should be ready for it when it comes." "do not make her ready for what may never come." "no, mamma; but she is at present such a child that she knows nothing of her own powers. she should be made to understand that it is possible that even a major grantly may think himself fortunate in being allowed to love her." "i should leave all that to nature, if i were you," said mrs. dale. chapter x. dinner at framley court. lord lufton, as he drove home to framley after the meeting of the magistrates at silverbridge, discussed the matter with his brother-in-law, mark robarts, the clergyman. lord lufton was driving a dog-cart, and went along the road at the rate of twelve miles an hour. "i'll tell you what it is, mark," he said, "that man is innocent; but if he won't employ lawyers at his trial, the jury will find him guilty." "i don't know what to think about it," said the clergyman. "were you in the room when he protested so vehemently that he didn't know where he got the money?" "i was in the room all the time." "and did you not believe him when he said that?" "yes,--i think i did." "anybody must have believed him,--except old tempest, who never believes anybody, and fothergill, who always suspects everybody. the truth is, that he had found the cheque and put it by, and did not remember anything about it." "but, lufton, surely that would amount to stealing it." "yes, if it wasn't that he is such a poor, cracked, crazy creature, with his mind all abroad. i think soames did drop his book in his house. i'm sure soames would not say so unless he was quite confident. somebody has picked it up, and in some way the cheque has got into crawley's hand. then he has locked it up and has forgotten all about it; and when that butcher threatened him, he has put his hand upon it, and he has thought, or believed, that it had come from soames or from the dean, or from heaven, if you will. when a man is so crazy as that, you can't judge of him as you do of others." "but a jury must judge of him as it would of others." "and therefore there should be a lawyer to tell the jury what to do. they should have somebody up out of the parish to show that he is beside himself half his time. his wife would be the best person, only it would be hard lines on her." "very hard. and after all he would only escape by being shown to be mad." "and he is mad." "mrs. proudie would come upon him in such a case as that, and sequester his living." "and what will mrs. proudie do when he's a convicted thief? simply unfrock him, and take away his living altogether. nothing on earth should induce me to find him guilty if i were on a jury." "but you have committed him." "yes,--i've been one, at least, in doing so. i simply did that which walker told us we must do. a magistrate is not left to himself as a juryman is. i'd eat the biggest pair of boots in barchester before i found him guilty. i say, mark, you must talk it over with the women, and see what can be done for them. lucy tells me that they're so poor, that if they have bread to eat, it's as much as they have." on this evening archdeacon grantly and his wife dined and slept at framley court, there having been a very long family friendship between old lady lufton and the grantlys, and dr. thorne with his wife, from chaldicotes, also dined at framley. there was also there another clergyman from barchester, mr. champion, one of the prebends of the cathedral. there were only three now who had houses in the city since the retrenchments of the ecclesiastical commission had come into full force. and this mr. champion was dear to the dowager lady lufton, because he carried on worthily the clerical war against the bishop which had raged in barsetshire ever since dr. proudie had come there,--which war old lady lufton, good and pious and charitable as she was, considered that she was bound to keep up, even to the knife, till dr. proudie and all his satellites should have been banished into outer darkness. as the light of the proudies still shone brightly, it was probable that poor old lady lufton might die before her battle was accomplished. she often said that it would be so, but when so saying, always expressed a wish that the fight might be carried on after her death. "i shall never, never rest in my grave," she had once said to the archdeacon, "while that woman sits in your father's palace." for the archdeacon's father had been bishop of barchester before dr. proudie. what mode of getting rid of the bishop or his wife lady lufton proposed to herself, i am unable to say; but i think she lived in hopes that in some way it might be done. if only the bishop could have been found to have stolen a cheque for twenty pounds instead of poor mr. crawley, lady lufton would, i think, have been satisfied. in the course of these battles framley court would sometimes assume a clerical aspect,--have a prevailing hue, as it were, of black coats, which was not altogether to the taste of lord lufton, and as to which he would make complaint to his wife, and to mark robarts, himself a clergyman. "there's more of this than i can stand," he'd say to the latter. "there's a deuced deal more of it than you like yourself, i know." "it's not for me to like or dislike. it's a great thing having your mother in the parish." "that's all very well; and of course she'll do as she likes. she may ask whom she pleases here, and i shan't interfere. it's the same as though it was her own house. but i shall take lucy to lufton." now lord lufton had been building his house at lufton for the last seven years, and it was not yet finished,--or nearly finished, if all that his wife and mother said was true. and if they could have their way, it never would be finished. and so, in order that lord lufton might not be actually driven away by the turmoils of ecclesiastical contest, the younger lady lufton would endeavour to moderate both the wrath and the zeal of the elder one, and would struggle against the coming clergymen. on this day, however, three sat at the board at framley, and lady lufton, in her justification to her son, swore that the invitation had been given by her daughter-in-law. "you know, my dear," the dowager said to lord lufton, "something must be done for these poor crawleys; and as the dean is away, lucy wants to speak to the archdeacon about them." "and the archdeacon could not subscribe his ten-pound note without having mr. champion to back him?" "my dear ludovic, you do put it in such a way." "never mind, mother. i've no special dislike to champion; only as you are not paid five thousand a year for your trouble, it is rather hard that you should have to do all the work of opposition bishop in the diocese." it was felt by them all,--including lord lufton himself, who became so interested in the matter as to forgive the black coats before the evening was over,--that this matter of mr. crawley's committal was very serious, and demanded the full energies of their party. it was known to them all that the feeling at the palace was inimical to mr. crawley. "that she-beelzebub hates him for his poverty, and because arabin brought him into the diocese," said the archdeacon, permitting himself to use very strong language in his allusion to the bishop's wife. it must be recorded on his behalf that he used the phrase in the presence only of the gentlemen of the party. i think he might have whispered the word into the ear of his confidential friend old lady lufton, and perhaps have given no offence; but he would not have ventured to use such words aloud in the presence of ladies. "you forget, archdeacon," said dr. thorne, laughing, "that the she-beelzebub is my wife's particular friend." "not a bit of it," said the archdeacon. "your wife knows better than that. you tell her what i call her, and if she complains of the name, i'll unsay it." it may therefore be supposed that dr. thorne, and mrs. thorne, and the archdeacon, knew each other intimately, and understood each other's feelings on these matters. it was quite true that the palace party was inimical to mr. crawley. mr. crawley undoubtedly was poor, and had not been so submissive to episcopal authority as it behoves any clergyman to be whose loaves and fishes are scanty. he had raised his back more than once against orders emanating from the palace in a manner that had made the hairs on the head of the bishop's wife to stand almost on end, and had taken as much upon himself as though his living had been worth twelve hundred a year. mrs. proudie, almost as energetic in her language as the archdeacon, had called him a beggarly perpetual curate. "we must have perpetual curates, my dear," the bishop had said. "they should know their places then. but what can you expect of a creature from the deanery? all that ought to be altered. the dean should have no patronage in the diocese. no dean should have any patronage. it is an abuse from the beginning to the end. dean arabin, if he had any conscience, would be doing the duty at hogglestock himself." how the bishop strove to teach his wife, with mildest words, what really ought to be a dean's duty, and how the wife rejoined by teaching her husband, not in the mildest words, what ought to be a bishop's duty, we will not further inquire here. the fact that such dialogues took place at the palace is recorded simply to show that the palatial feeling in barchester ran counter to mr. crawley. and this was cause enough, if no other cause existed, for partiality to mr. crawley at framley court. but, as has been partly explained, there existed, if possible, even stronger ground than this for adherence to the crawley cause. the younger lady lufton had known the crawleys intimately, and the elder lady lufton had reckoned them among the neighbouring clerical families of her acquaintance. both these ladies were therefore staunch in their defence of mr. crawley. the archdeacon himself had his own reasons,--reasons which for the present he kept altogether within his own bosom,--for wishing that mr. crawley had never entered the diocese. whether the perpetual curate should or should not be declared to be a thief, it would be terrible to him to have to call the child of that perpetual curate his daughter-in-law. but not the less on this occasion was he true to his order, true to his side in the diocese, true to his hatred of the palace. "i don't believe it for a moment," he said, as he took his place on the rug before the fire in the drawing-room when the gentlemen came in from their wine. the ladies understood at once what it was that he couldn't believe. mr. crawley had for the moment so usurped the county that nobody thought of talking of anything else. "how is it, then," said mrs. thorne, "that lord lufton, and my husband, and the other wiseacres at silverbridge, have committed him for trial?" "because we were told to do so by the lawyer," said dr. thorne. "ladies will never understand that magistrates must act in accordance with the law," said lord lufton. "but you all say he's not guilty," said mrs. robarts. "the fact is, that the magistrates cannot try the question," said the archdeacon; "they only hear the primary evidence. in this case i don't believe crawley would ever have been committed if he had employed an attorney, instead of speaking for himself." "why didn't somebody make him have an attorney?" said lady lufton. "i don't think any attorney in the world could have spoken for him better than he spoke for himself," said dr. thorne. "and yet you committed him," said his wife. "what can we do for him? can't we pay the bail, and send him off to america?" "a jury will never find him guilty," said lord lufton. "and what is the truth of it?" asked the younger lady lufton. then the whole matter was discussed again, and it was settled among them all that mr. crawley had undoubtedly appropriated the cheque through temporary obliquity of judgment,--obliquity of judgment and forgetfulness as to the source from whence the cheque had come to him. "he has picked it up about the house, and then has thought that it was his own," said lord lufton. had they come to the conclusion that such an appropriation of money had been made by one of the clergy of the palace, by one of the proudeian party, they would doubtless have been very loud and very bitter as to the iniquity of the offender. they would have said much as to the weakness of the bishop and the wickedness of the bishop's wife, and would have declared the appropriator to have been as very a thief as ever picked a pocket or opened a till;--but they were unanimous in their acquittal of mr. crawley. it had not been his intention, they said, to be a thief, and a man should be judged only by his intention. it must now be their object to induce a barchester jury to look at the matter in the same light. "when they come to understand how the land lies," said the archdeacon, "they will be all right. there's not a tradesman in the city who does not hate that woman as though she were--" "archdeacon," said his wife, cautioning him to repress his energy. "their bills are all paid by this new chaplain they've got, and he is made to claim discount on every leg of mutton," said the archdeacon. arguing from which fact,--or from which assertion, he came to the conclusion that no barchester jury would find mr. crawley guilty. but it was agreed on all sides that it would not be well to trust to the unassisted friendship of the barchester tradesmen. mr. crawley must be provided with legal assistance, and this must be furnished to him whether he should be willing or unwilling to receive it. that there would be a difficulty was acknowledged. mr. crawley was known to be a man not easy of persuasion, with a will of his own, with a great energy of obstinacy on points which he chose to take up as being of importance to his calling, or to his own professional status. he had pleaded his own cause before the magistrates, and it might be that he would insist on doing the same thing before the judge. at last mr. robarts, the clergyman of framley, was deputed from the knot of crawleian advocates assembled in lady lufton's drawing-room, to undertake the duty of seeing mr. crawley, and of explaining to him that his proper defence was regarded as a matter appertaining to the clergy and gentry generally of that part of the country, and that for the sake of the clergy and gentry the defence must of course be properly conducted. in such circumstances the expense of the defence would of course be borne by the clergy and gentry concerned. it was thought that mr. robarts could put the matter to mr. crawley with such a mixture of the strength of manly friendship and the softness of clerical persuasion, as to overcome the recognized difficulties of the task. chapter xi. the bishop sends his inhibition. tidings of mr. crawley's fate reached the palace at barchester on the afternoon of the day on which the magistrates had committed him. all such tidings travel very quickly, conveyed by imperceptible wires, and distributed by indefatigable message boys whom rumour seems to supply for the purpose. barchester is twenty miles from silverbridge by road, and more than forty by railway. i doubt whether any one was commissioned to send the news along the actual telegraph, and yet mrs. proudie knew it before four o'clock. but she did not know it quite accurately. "bishop," she said, standing at her husband's study door. "they have committed that man to gaol. there was no help for them unless they had forsworn themselves." "not forsworn themselves, my dear," said the bishop, striving, as was usual with him, by some meek and ineffectual word to teach his wife that she was occasionally led by her energy into error. he never persisted in the lessons when he found, as was usual, that they were taken amiss. "i say forsworn themselves!" said mrs. proudie; "and now what do you mean to do? this is thursday, and of course the man must not be allowed to desecrate the church of hogglestock by performing the sunday services." "if he has been committed, my dear, and is in prison,--" "i said nothing about prison, bishop." "gaol, my dear." "i say they have committed him to gaol. so my informant tells me. but of course all the plumstead and framley set will move heaven and earth to get him out, so that he may be there as a disgrace to the diocese. i wonder how the dean will feel when he hears of it! i do, indeed. for the dean, though he is an idle, useless man, with no church principles, and no real piety, still he has a conscience. i think he has a conscience." "i'm sure he has, my dear." "well;--let us hope so. and if he has a conscience, what must be his feelings when he hears that this creature whom he brought into the diocese has been committed to gaol along with common felons." "not with felons, my dear; at least, i should think not." "i say with common felons! a downright robbery of twenty pounds, just as though he had broken into the bank! and so he did, with sly artifice, which is worse in such hands than a crowbar. and now what are we to do? here is thursday, and something must be done before sunday for the souls of those poor benighted creatures at hogglestock." mrs. proudie was ready for the battle, and was even now sniffing the blood afar-off. "i believe it's a hundred and thirty pounds a year," she said, before the bishop had collected his thoughts sufficiently for a reply. "i think we must find out, first of all, whether he is really to be shut up in prison," said the bishop. "and suppose he is not to be shut up. suppose they have been weak, or untrue to their duty--and from what we know of the magistrates of barsetshire, there is too much reason to suppose that they will have been so; suppose they have let him out, is he to go about like a roaring lion--among the souls of the people?" the bishop shook in his shoes. when mrs. proudie began to talk of the souls of the people he always shook in his shoes. she had an eloquent way of raising her voice over the word souls that was qualified to make any ordinary man shake in his shoes. the bishop was a conscientious man, and well knew that poor mr. crawley, even though he might have become a thief under terrible temptation, would not roar at hogglestock to the injury of any man's soul. he was aware that this poor clergyman had done his duty laboriously and efficiently, and he was also aware that though he might have been committed by the magistrates, and then let out upon bail, he should not be regarded now, in these days before his trial, as a convicted thief. but to explain all this to mrs. proudie was beyond his power. he knew well that she would not hear a word in mitigation of mr. crawley's presumed offence. mr. crawley belonged to the other party, and mrs. proudie was a thorough-going partisan. i know a man,--an excellent fellow, who, being himself a strong politician, constantly expresses a belief that all politicians opposed to him are thieves, child-murderers, parricides, lovers of incest, demons upon the earth. he is a strong partisan, but not, i think, so strong as mrs. proudie. he says that he believes all evil of his opponents; but she really believed the evil. the archdeacon had called mrs. proudie a she-beelzebub; but that was a simple ebullition of mortal hatred. he believed her to be simply a vulgar, interfering, brazen-faced virago. mrs. proudie in truth believed that the archdeacon was an actual emanation from satan, sent to those parts to devour souls,--as she would call it,--and that she herself was an emanation of another sort, sent from another source expressly to barchester, to prevent such devouring, as far as it might possibly be prevented by a mortal agency. the bishop knew it all,--understood it all. he regarded the archdeacon as a clergyman belonging to a party opposed to his party, and he disliked the man. he knew that from his first coming into the diocese he had been encountered with enmity by the archdeacon and the archdeacon's friends. if left to himself he could feel and to a certain extent could resent such enmity. but he had no faith in his wife's doctrine of emanations. he had no faith in many things which she believed religiously;--and yet what could he do? if he attempted to explain, she would stop him before he had got through the first half of his first sentence. "if he is out on bail--," commenced the bishop. "of course he will be out on bail." "then i think he should feel--" "feel! such men never feel! what feeling can one expect from a convicted thief?" "not convicted as yet, my dear," said the bishop. "a convicted thief," repeated mrs. proudie; and she vociferated the words in such a tone that the bishop resolved that he would for the future let the word convicted pass without notice. after all she was only using the phrase in a peculiar sense given to it by herself. [illustration: "a convicted thief," repeated mrs. proudie.] "it won't be proper, certainly, that he should do the services," suggested the bishop. "proper! it would be a scandal to the whole diocese. how could he raise his head as he pronounced the eighth commandment? that must be at least prevented." the bishop, who was seated, fretted himself in his chair, moving about with little movements. he knew that there was a misery coming upon him; and, as far as he could see, it might become a great misery,--a huge blistering sore upon him. when miseries came to him, as they did not unfrequently, he would unconsciously endeavour to fathom them and weigh them, and then, with some gallantry, resolve to bear them, if he could find that their depth and weight were not too great for his powers of endurance. he would let the cold wind whistle by him, putting up the collar of his coat, and would encounter the winter weather without complaint. and he would be patient under the hot sun, knowing well that tranquillity is best for those who have to bear tropical heat. but when the storm threatened to knock him off his legs, when the earth beneath him became too hot for his poor tender feet,--what could he do then? there had been with him such periods of misery, during which he had wailed inwardly and had confessed to himself that the wife of his bosom was too much for him. now the storm seemed to be coming very roughly. it would be demanded of him that he should exercise certain episcopal authority which he knew did not belong to him. now, episcopal authority admits of being stretched or contracted according to the character of the bishop who uses it. it is not always easy for a bishop himself to know what he may do, and what he may not do. he may certainly give advice to any clergyman in his diocese, and he may give it in such form that it will have in it something of authority. such advice coming from a dominant bishop to a clergyman with a submissive mind, has in it very much of authority. but bishop proudie knew that mr. crawley was not a clergyman with a submissive mind, and he feared that he himself, as regarded from mr. crawley's point of view, was not a dominant bishop. and yet he could only act by advice. "i will write to him," said the bishop, "and will explain to him that as he is circumstanced he should not appear in the reading desk." "of course he must not appear in the reading desk. that scandal must at any rate be inhibited." now the bishop did not at all like the use of the word inhibited, understanding well that mrs. proudie intended it to be understood as implying some episcopal command against which there should be no appeal;--but he let it pass. "i will write to him, my dear, to-night." "and mr. thumble can go over with the letter the first thing in the morning." "will not the post be better?" "no, bishop; certainly not." "he would get it sooner, if i write to-night, my dear." "in either case he will get it to-morrow morning. an hour or two will not signify, and if mr. thumble takes it himself we shall know how it is received. it will be well that thumble should be there in person as he will want to look for lodgings in the parish." "but, my dear--" "well, bishop?" "about lodgings? i hardly think that mr. thumble, if we decide that mr. thumble shall undertake the duty--" "we have decided that mr. thumble should undertake the duty. that is decided." "but i do not think he should trouble himself to look for lodgings at hogglestock. he can go over on the sundays." "and who is to do the parish work? would you have that man, a convicted thief, to look after the schools, and visit the sick, and perhaps attend the dying?" "there will be a great difficulty; there will indeed," said the bishop, becoming very unhappy, and feeling that he was driven by circumstances either to assert his own knowledge or teach his wife something of the law with reference to his position as a bishop. "who is to pay mr. thumble?" "the income of the parish must be sequestrated, and he must be paid out of that. of course he must have the income while he does the work." "but, my dear, i cannot sequestrate the man's income." "i don't believe it, bishop. if the bishop cannot sequestrate, who can? but you are always timid in exercising the authority put into your hands for wise purposes. not sequestrate the income of a man who has been proved to be a thief! you leave that to us, and we will manage it." the "us" here named comprised mrs. proudie and the bishop's managing chaplain. then the bishop was left alone for an hour to write the letter which mr. thumble was to carry over to mr. crawley,--and after a while he did write it. before he commenced the task, however, he sat for some moments in his arm-chair close by the fire-side, asking himself whether it might not be possible for him to overcome his enemy in this matter. how would it go with him suppose he were to leave the letter unwritten, and send in a message by his chaplain to mrs. proudie, saying that as mr. crawley was out on bail, the parish might be left for the present without episcopal interference? she could not make him interfere. she could not force him to write the letter. so, at least, he said to himself. but as he said it, he almost thought that she could do these things. in the last thirty years, or more, she had ever contrived by some power latent in her to have her will effected. but what would happen if now, even now, he were to rebel? that he would personally become very uncomfortable, he was well aware, but he thought that he could bear that. the food would become bad,--mere ashes between his teeth, the daily modicum of wine would lose its flavour, the chimneys would all smoke, the wind would come from the east, and the servants would not answer the bell. little miseries of that kind would crowd upon him. he had arrived at a time of life in which such miseries make such men very miserable; but yet he thought that he could endure them. and what other wretchedness would come to him? she would scold him,--frightfully, loudly, scornfully, and worse than all, continually. but of this he had so much habitually, that anything added might be borne also;--if only he could be sure that the scoldings should go on in private, that the world of the palace should not be allowed to hear the revilings to which he would be subjected. but to be scolded publicly was the great evil which he dreaded beyond all evils. he was well aware that the palace would know his misfortune, that it was known, and freely discussed by all, from the examining chaplain down to the palace boot-boy;--nay, that it was known to all the diocese; but yet he could smile upon those around him, and look as though he held his own like other men,--unless when open violence was displayed. but when that voice was heard aloud along the corridors of the palace, and when he was summoned imperiously by the woman, calling for her bishop, so that all barchester heard it, and when he was compelled to creep forth from his study, at the sound of that summons, with distressed face, and shaking hands, and short hurrying steps,--a being to be pitied even by a deacon,--not venturing to assume an air of masterdom should he chance to meet a housemaid on the stairs,--then, at such moments as that, he would feel that any submission was better than the misery which he suffered. and he well knew that should he now rebel, the whole house would be in a turmoil. he would be bishoped here, and bishoped there, before the eyes of all palatial men and women, till life would be a burden to him. so he got up from his seat over the fire, and went to his desk and wrote the letter. the letter was as follows:-- the palace, barchester, -- december, --. reverend sir,--[he left out the dear, because he knew that if he inserted it he would be compelled to write the letter over again] i have heard to-day with the greatest trouble of spirit, that you have been taken before a bench of magistrates assembled at silverbridge, having been previously arrested by the police in your parsonage house at hogglestock, and that the magistrates of silverbridge have committed you to take your trial at the next assizes at barchester, on a charge of theft. far be it from me to prejudge the case. you will understand, reverend sir, that i express no opinion whatever as to your guilt or innocence in this matter. if you have been guilty, may the lord give you grace to repent of your great sin and to make such amends as may come from immediate acknowledgment and confession. if you are innocent, may he protect you, and make your innocence to shine before all men. in either case may the lord be with you and keep your feet from further stumbling. but i write to you now as your bishop, to explain to you that circumstanced as you are, you cannot with decency perform the church services of your parish. i have that confidence in you that i doubt not you will agree with me in this, and will be grateful to me for relieving you so far from the immediate perplexities of your position. i have, therefore, appointed the rev. caleb thumble to perform the duties of incumbent of hogglestock till such time as a jury shall have decided upon your case at barchester; and in order that you may at once become acquainted with mr. thumble, as will be most convenient that you should do, i will commission him to deliver this letter into your hand personally to-morrow, trusting that you will receive him with that brotherly spirit in which he is sent upon this painful mission. touching the remuneration to which mr. thumble will become entitled for his temporary ministrations in the parish of hogglestock, i do not at present lay down any strict injunction. he must, at any rate, be paid at a rate not less than that ordinarily afforded for a curate. i will once again express my fervent hope that the lord may bring you to see the true state of your own soul, and that he may fill you with the grace of repentance, so that the bitter waters of the present hour may not pass over your head and destroy you. i have the honour to be, reverend sir, your faithful servant in christ, t. barnum.* *baronum castrum having been the old roman name from which the modern barchester is derived, the bishops of the diocese have always signed themselves barnum. the bishop had hardly finished his letter when mrs. proudie returned to the study, followed by the rev. caleb thumble. mr. thumble was a little man, about forty years of age, who had a wife and children living in barchester, and who existed on such chance clerical crumbs as might fall from the table of the bishop's patronage. people in barchester said that mrs. thumble was a cousin of mrs. proudie's; but as mrs. proudie stoutly denied the connection, it may be supposed that the people of barchester were wrong. and, had mr. thumble's wife in truth been a cousin, mrs. proudie would surely have provided for him during the many years in which the diocese had been in her hands. no such provision had been made, and mr. thumble, who had now been living in the diocese for three years, had received nothing else from the bishop than such chance employment as this which he was now to undertake at hogglestock. he was a humble, mild-voiced man, when within the palace precincts, and had so far succeeded in making his way among his brethren in the cathedral city as to be employed not unfrequently for absent minor canons in chanting the week-day services, being remunerated for his work at the rate of about two shillings and sixpence a service. the bishop handed his letter to his wife, observing in an off-hand kind of way that she might as well see what he said. "of course i shall read it," said mrs. proudie. and the bishop winced visibly, because mr. thumble was present. "quite right," said mrs. proudie, "quite right to let him know that you knew that he had been arrested,--actually arrested by the police." "i thought it proper to mention that, because of the scandal," said the bishop. "oh, it has been terrible in the city," said mr. thumble. "never mind, mr. thumble," said mrs. proudie. "never mind that at present." then she continued to read the letter. "what's this? confession! that must come out, bishop. it will never do that you should recommend confession to anybody, under any circumstances." "but, my dear--" "it must come out, bishop." "my lord has not meant auricular confession," suggested mr. thumble. then mrs. proudie turned round and looked at mr. thumble, and mr. thumble nearly sank amidst the tables and chairs. "i beg your pardon, mrs. proudie," he said. "i didn't mean to intrude." "the word must come out, bishop," repeated mrs. proudie. "there should be no stumbling-blocks prepared for feet that are only too ready to fall." and the word did come out. "now, mr. thumble," said the lady, as she gave the letter to her satellite, "the bishop and i wish you to be at hogglestock early to-morrow. you should be there not later than ten, certainly." then she paused until mr. thumble had given the required promise. "and we request that you will be very firm in the mission which is confided to you, a mission which, as of course you see, is of a very delicate and important nature. you must be firm." "i will endeavour," said mr. thumble. "the bishop and i both feel that this most unfortunate man must not under any circumstances be allowed to perform the services of the church while this charge is hanging over him,--a charge as to the truth of which no sane man can entertain a doubt." "i'm afraid not, mrs. proudie," said mr. thumble. "the bishop and i therefore are most anxious that you should make mr. crawley understand at once,--at once," and the lady, as she spoke, lifted up her left hand with an eloquent violence which had its effect upon mr. thumble, "that he is inhibited,"--the bishop shook in his shoes,--"inhibited from the performance of any of his sacred duties." thereupon, mr. thumble promised obedience and went his way. chapter xii. mr. crawley seeks for sympathy. [illustration] matters went very badly indeed in the parsonage house at hogglestock. on the friday morning, the morning of the day after his committal, mr. crawley got up very early, long before the daylight, and dressing himself in the dark, groped his way downstairs. his wife having vainly striven to persuade him to remain where he was, followed him into the cold room below with a lighted candle. she found him standing with his hat on and with his old cloak, as though he were prepared to go out. "why do you do this?" she said. "you will make yourself ill with the cold and the night air; and then you, and i too, will be worse than we now are." "we cannot be worse. you cannot be worse, and for me it does not signify. let me pass." "i will not let you pass, josiah. be a man and bear it. ask god for strength, instead of seeking it in an over-indulgence of your own sorrow." "indulgence!" "yes, love;--indulgence. it is indulgence. you will allow your mind to dwell on nothing for a moment but your own wrongs." "what else have i that i can think of? is not all the world against me?" "am i against you?" "sometimes i think you are. when you accuse me of self-indulgence you are against me,--me, who for myself have desired nothing but to be allowed to do my duty, and to have bread enough to keep me alive, and clothes enough to make me decent." "is it not self-indulgence, this giving way to grief? who would know so well as you how to teach the lesson of endurance to others? come, love. lay down your hat. it cannot be fitting that you should go out into the wet and cold of the raw morning." for a moment he hesitated, but as she raised her hand to take his cloak from him he drew back from her, and would not permit it. "i shall find those up whom i want to see," he said. "i must visit my flock, and i dare not go through the parish by daylight lest they hoot after me as a thief." "not one in hogglestock would say a word to insult you." "would they not? the very children in the school whisper at me. let me pass, i say. it has not as yet come to that, that i should be stopped in my egress and ingress. they have--bailed me; and while their bail lasts, i may go where i will." "oh, josiah, what words to me! have i ever stopped your liberty? would i not give my life to secure it?" "let me go, then, now. i tell you that i have business in hand." "but i will go with you? i will be ready in an instant." "you go! why should you go? are there not the children for you to mind?" "there is only jane." "stay with her, then. why should you go about the parish?" she still held him by the cloak, and looked anxiously up into his face. "woman," he said, raising his voice, "what is it that you dread? i command you to tell me what is it that you fear?" he had now taken hold of her by the shoulder, slightly thrusting her from him, so that he might see her face by the dim light of the single candle. "speak, i say. what is that you think that i shall do?" "dearest, i know that you will be better at home, better with me, than you can be on such a morning as this out in the cold damp air." "and is that all?" he looked hard at her, while she returned his gaze with beseeching loving eyes. "is there nothing behind, that you will not tell me?" she paused for a moment before she replied. she had never lied to him. she could not lie to him. "i wish you knew my heart towards you," she said, "with all and everything in it." "i know your heart well, but i want to know your mind. why would you persuade me not to go out among my poor?" "because it will be bad for you to be out alone in the dark lanes, in the mud and wet, thinking of your sorrow. you will brood over it till you will lose your senses through the intensity of your grief. you will stand out in the cold air, forgetful of everything around you, till your limbs will be numbed, and your blood chilled,--" "and then--?" "oh, josiah, do not hold me like that, and look at me so angrily." "and even then i will bear my burden till the lord in his mercy shall see fit to relieve me. even then i will endure, though a bare bodkin or a leaf of hemlock would put an end to it. let me pass on; you need fear nothing." she did let him pass without another word, and he went out of the house, shutting the door after him noiselessly, and closing the wicket-gate of the garden. for a while she sat herself down on the nearest chair, and tried to make up her mind how she might best treat him in his present state of mind. as regarded the present morning her heart was at ease. she knew that he would do now nothing of that which she had apprehended. she could trust him not to be false in his word to her, though she could not before have trusted him not to commit so much heavier a sin. if he would really employ himself from morning till night among the poor, he would be better so,--his trouble would be easier of endurance,--than with any other employment which he could adopt. what she most dreaded was that he should sit idle over the fire and do nothing. when he was so seated she could read his mind, as though it was open to her as a book. she had been quite right when she had accused him of over-indulgence in his grief. he did give way to it till it became a luxury to him,--a luxury which she would not have had the heart to deny him, had she not felt it to be of all luxuries the most pernicious. during these long hours, in which he would sit speechless, doing nothing, he was telling himself from minute to minute that of all god's creatures he was the most heavily afflicted, and was revelling in the sense of the injustice done to him. he was recalling all the facts of his life, his education, which had been costly, and, as regarded knowledge, successful; his vocation to the church, when in his youth he had determined to devote himself to the service of his saviour, disregarding promotion or the favour of men; the short, sweet days of his early love, in which he had devoted himself again,--thinking nothing of self, but everything of her; his diligent working, in which he had ever done his very utmost for the parish in which he was placed, and always his best for the poorest; the success of other men who had been his compeers, and, as he too often told himself, intellectually his inferiors; then of his children, who had been carried off from his love to the churchyard,--over whose graves he himself had stood, reading out the pathetic words of the funeral service with unswerving voice and a bleeding heart; and then of his children still living, who loved their mother so much better than they loved him. and he would recall all the circumstances of his poverty,--how he had been driven to accept alms, to fly from creditors, to hide himself, to see his chairs and tables seized before the eyes of those over whom he had been set as their spiritual pastor. and in it all, i think, there was nothing so bitter to the man as the derogation from the spiritual grandeur of his position as priest among men, which came as one necessary result from his poverty. st. paul could go forth without money in his purse or shoes to his feet or two suits to his back, and his poverty never stood in the way of his preaching, or hindered the veneration of the faithful. st. paul, indeed, was called upon to bear stripes, was flung into prison, encountered terrible dangers. but mr. crawley,--so he told himself,--could have encountered all that without flinching. the stripes and scorn of the unfaithful would have been nothing to him, if only the faithful would have believed in him, poor as he was, as they would have believed in him had he been rich! even they whom he had most loved treated him almost with derision, because he was now different from them. dean arabin had laughed at him because he had persisted in walking ten miles through the mud instead of being conveyed in the dean's carriage; and yet, after that, he had been driven to accept the dean's charity! no one respected him. no one! his very wife thought that he was a lunatic. and now he had been publicly branded as a thief; and in all likelihood would end his days in a gaol! such were always his thoughts as he sat idle, silent, moody, over the fire; and his wife well knew their currents. it would certainly be better that he should drive himself to some employment, if any employment could be found possible to him. when she had been alone for a few minutes, mrs. crawley got up from her chair, and going into the kitchen, lighted the fire there, and put the kettle over it, and began to prepare such breakfast for her husband as the means in the house afforded. then she called the sleeping servant-girl, who was little more than a child, and went into her own girl's room, and then she got into bed with her daughter. "i have been up with your papa, dear, and i am cold." "oh, mamma, poor mamma! why is papa up so early?" "he has gone out to visit some of the brickmakers before they go to their work. it is better for him to be employed." "but, mamma, it is pitch dark." "yes, dear, it is still dark. sleep again for a while, and i will sleep too. i think grace will be here to-night, and then there will be no room for me here." mr. crawley went forth and made his way with rapid steps to a portion of his parish nearly two miles distant from his house, through which was carried a canal, affording water communication in some intricate way both to london and bristol. and on the brink of this canal there had sprung up a colony of brickmakers, the nature of the earth in those parts combining with the canal to make brickmaking a suitable trade. the workmen there assembled were not, for the most part, native-born hogglestockians, or folk descended from hogglestockian parents. they had come thither from unknown regions, as labourers of that class do come when they are needed. some young men from that and neighbouring parishes had joined themselves to the colony, allured by wages, and disregarding the menaces of the neighbouring farmers; but they were all in appearance and manners nearer akin to the race of navvies than to ordinary rural labourers. they had a bad name in the country; but it may be that their name was worse than their deserts. the farmers hated them, and consequently they hated the farmers. they had a beershop, and a grocer's shop, and a huxter's shop for their own accommodation, and were consequently vilified by the small old-established tradesmen around them. they got drunk occasionally, but i doubt whether they drank more than did the farmers themselves on market-day. they fought among themselves sometimes, but they forgave each other freely, and seemed to have no objection to black eyes. i fear that they were not always good to their wives, nor were their wives always good to them; but it should be remembered that among the poor, especially when they live in clusters, such misfortunes cannot be hidden as they may be amidst the decent belongings of more wealthy people. that they worked very hard was certain; and it was certain also that very few of their number ever came upon the poor rates. what became of the old brickmakers no one knew. who ever sees a worn-out aged navvie? mr. crawley, ever since his first coming into hogglestock, had been very busy among these brickmakers, and by no means without success. indeed the farmers had quarrelled with him because the brickmakers had so crowded the narrow parish church, as to leave but scant room for decent people. "doo they folk pay tithes? that's what i want 'un to tell me?" argued one farmer,--not altogether unnaturally, believing as he did that mr. crawley was paid by tithes out of his own pocket. but mr. crawley had done his best to make the brickmakers welcome at the church, scandalizing the farmers by causing them to sit or stand in any portion of the church which was hitherto unappropriated. he had been constant in his personal visits to them, and had felt himself to be more a st. paul with them than with any other of his neighbours around him. it was a cold morning, but the rain of the preceding evening had given way to frost, and the air, though sharp, was dry. the ground under the feet was crisp, having felt the wind and frost, and was no longer clogged with mud. in his present state of mind the walk was good for our poor pastor, and exhilarated him; but still, as he went, he thought always of his injuries. his own wife believed that he was about to commit suicide, and for so believing he was very angry with her; and yet, as he well knew, the idea of making away with himself had flitted through his own mind a dozen times. not from his own wife could he get real sympathy. he would see what he could do with a certain brickmaker of his acquaintance. "are you here, dan?" he said, knocking at the door of a cottage which stood alone, close to the towing-path of the canal, and close also to a forlorn corner of the muddy, watery, ugly, disordered brickfield. it was now just past six o'clock, and the men would be rising, as in midwinter they commenced their work at seven. the cottage was an unalluring, straight brick-built tenement, seeming as though intended to be one of a row which had never progressed beyond number one. a voice answered from the interior, inquiring who was the visitor, to which mr. crawley replied by giving his name. then the key was turned in the lock, and dan morris, the brickmaker, appeared with a candle in his hand. he had been engaged in lighting the fire, with a view to his own breakfast. "where is your wife, dan?" asked mr. crawley. the man answered by pointing with a short poker, which he held in his hand, to the bed, which was half screened from the room by a ragged curtain, which hung from the ceiling half-way down to the floor. "and are the darvels here?" asked mr. crawley. then morris, again using the poker, pointed upwards, showing that the darvels were still in their own allotted abode upstairs. "you're early out, muster crawley," said morris, and then he went on with his fire. "drat the sticks, if they bean't as wet as the old 'un hisself. get up, old woman, and do you do it, for i can't. they wun't kindle for me, nohow." but the old woman, having well noted the presence of mr. crawley, thought it better to remain where she was. mr. crawley sat himself down by the obstinate fire, and began to arrange the sticks. "dan, dan," said a voice from the bed, "sure you wouldn't let his reverence trouble himself with the fire." "how be i to keep him from it, if he chooses? i didn't ax him." then morris stood by and watched, and after a while mr. crawley succeeded in his attempt. "how could it burn when you had not given the small spark a current of air to help it?" said mr. crawley. "in course not," said the woman, "but he be such a stupid." the husband said no word in acknowledgment of this compliment, nor did he thank mr. crawley for what he had done, nor appear as though he intended to take any notice of him. he was going on with his work when mr. crawley again interrupted him. "how did you get back from silverbridge yesterday, dan?" "footed it,--all the blessed way." "it's only eight miles." "and i footed it there, and that's sixteen. and i paid one-and-sixpence for beer and grub;--s'help me, i did." "dan!" said the voice from the bed, rebuking him for the impropriety of his language. "well; i beg pardon, but i did. and they guv' me two bob;--just two plain shillings, by ----" "dan!" "and i'd 've arned three-and-six here at brickmaking easy; that's what i would. how's a poor man to live that way? they'll not cotch me at barchester 'sizes at that price; they may be sure of that. look there,--that's what i've got for my day." and he put his hand into his breeches'-pocket and fetched out a sixpence. "how's a man to fill his belly out of that? damnation!" "dan!" "well, what did i say? hold your jaw, will you, and not be halloaing at me that way? i know what i'm a saying of, and what i'm a doing of." "i wish they'd given you something more with all my heart," said crawley. "we knows that," said the woman from the bed. "we is sure of that, your reverence." "sixpence!" said the man, scornfully. "if they'd have guv me nothing at all but the run of my teeth at the public-house, i'd 've taken it better. but sixpence!" then there was a pause. "and what have they given to me?" said mr. crawley, when the man's ill-humour about his sixpence had so far subsided as to allow of his busying himself again about the premises. "yes, indeed;--yes, indeed," said the woman. "yes, yes, we feel that; we do indeed, mr. crawley." "i tell you what, sir; for another sixpence i'd 've sworn you'd never guv' me the paper at all; and so i will now, if it bean't too late;--sixpence or no sixpence. what do i care? d---- them." "dan!" "and why shouldn't i? they hain't got brains enough among them to winny the truth from the lies,--not among the lot of 'em. i'll swear afore the judge that you didn't give it me at all, if that'll do any good." "man, do you think i would have you perjure yourself, even if that would do me a service? and do you think that any man was ever served by a lie?" "faix, among them chaps it don't do to tell them too much of the truth. look at that!" and he brought out the sixpence again from his breeches'-pocket. "and look at your reverence. only that they've let you out for a while, they've been nigh as hard on you as though you were one of us." "if they think that i stole it, they have been right," said mr. crawley. "it's been along of that chap, soames," said the woman. "the lord would 've paid the money out of his own pocket and never said not a word." "if they think that i've been a thief, they've done right," repeated mr. crawley. "but how can they think so? how can they think so? have i lived like a thief among them?" "for the matter o' that, if a man ain't paid for his work by them as is his employers, he must pay hisself. them's my notions. look at that!" whereupon he again pulled out the sixpence, and held it forth in the palm of his hand. "you believe, then," said mr. crawley, speaking very slowly, "that i did steal the money. speak out, dan; i shall not be angry. as you go you are honest men, and i want to know what such of you think about it." "he don't think nothing of the kind," said the woman, almost getting out of bed in her energy. "if he'd athought the like o' that in his head, i'd read 'un such a lesson he'd never think again the longest day he had to live." "speak out, dan," said the clergyman, not attending to the woman. "you can understand that no good can come of a lie." dan morris scratched his head. "speak out, man, when i tell you," said crawley. [illustration: "speak out, dan."] "drat it all," said dan, "where's the use of so much jaw about it?" "say you know his reverence is as innocent as the babe as isn't born," said the woman. "no; i won't,--say nothing of the kind," said dan. "speak out the truth," said crawley. "they do say, among 'em," said dan, "that you picked it up, and then got a woolgathering in your head till you didn't rightly know where it come from." then he paused. "and after a bit you guv' it me to get the money. didn't you, now?" "i did." "and they do say if a poor man had done it, it'd been stealing, for sartain." "and i'm a poor man,--the poorest in all hogglestock; and, therefore, of course, it is stealing. of course i am a thief. yes; of course i am a thief. when did not the world believe the worst of the poor?" having so spoken, mr. crawley rose from his chair and hurried out of the cottage, waiting no further reply from dan morris or his wife. and as he made his way slowly home, not going there by the direct road, but by a long circuit, he told himself that there could be no sympathy for him anywhere. even dan morris, the brickmaker, thought that he was a thief. "and am i a thief?" he said to himself, standing in the middle of the road, with his hands up to his forehead. chapter xiii. the bishop's angel. it was nearly nine before mr. crawley got back to his house, and found his wife and daughter waiting breakfast for him. "i should not wonder if grace were over here to-day," said mrs. crawley. "she'd better remain where she is," said he. after this the meal passed almost without a word. when it was over, jane, at a sign from her mother, went up to her father and asked him whether she should read with him. "not now," he said, "not just now. i must rest my brain before it will be fit for any work." then he got into the chair over the fire, and his wife began to fear that he would remain there all the day. but the morning was not far advanced, when there came a visitor who disturbed him, and by disturbing him did him real service. just at ten there arrived at the little gate before the house a man on a pony, whom jane espied, standing there by the pony's head and looking about for some one to relieve him from the charge of his steed. this was mr. thumble, who had ridden over to hogglestock on a poor spavined brute belonging to the bishop's stable, and which had once been the bishop's cob. now it was the vehicle by which mrs. proudie's episcopal messages were sent backwards and forwards through a twelve-miles ride round barchester; and so many were the lady's requirements, that the poor animal by no means eat the hay of idleness. mr. thumble had suggested to mrs. proudie, after their interview with the bishop and the giving up of the letter to the clerical messenger's charge, that before hiring a gig from the "dragon of wantley," he should be glad to know,--looking as he always did to "mary anne and the children,"--whence the price of the gig was to be returned to him. mrs. proudie had frowned at him,--not with all the austerity of frowning which she could use when really angered, but simply with a frown which gave her some little time for thought, and would enable her to continue the rebuke if, after thinking, she should find that rebuke was needed. but mature consideration showed her that mr. thumble's caution was not without reason. were the bishop energetic,--or even the bishop's managing chaplain as energetic as he should be, mr. crawley might, as mrs. proudie felt assured, be made in some way to pay for a conveyance for mr. thumble. but the energy was lacking, and the price of the gig, if the gig were ordered, would certainly fall ultimately upon the bishop's shoulders. this was very sad. mrs. proudie had often grieved over the necessary expenditure of episcopal surveillance, and had been heard to declare her opinion that a liberal allowance for secret service should be made in every diocese. what better could the ecclesiastical commissioners do with all those rich revenues which they had stolen from the bishops? but there was no such liberal allowance at present, and, therefore, mrs. proudie, after having frowned at mr. thumble for some seconds, desired him to take the grey cob. now, mr. thumble had ridden the grey cob before, and would much have preferred a gig. but even the grey cob was better than a gig at his own cost. "mamma, there's a man at the gate wanting to come in," said jane. "i think he's a clergyman." mr. crawley immediately raised his head, though he did not at once leave his chair. mrs. crawley went to the window, and recognized the reverend visitor. "my dear, it is that mr. thumble, who is so much with the bishop." "what does mr. thumble want with me?" "nay, my dear; he will tell you that himself." but mrs. crawley, though she answered him with a voice intended to be cheerful, greatly feared the coming of this messenger from the palace. she perceived at once that the bishop was about to interfere with her husband in consequence of that which the magistrates had done yesterday. "mamma, he doesn't know what to do with his pony," said jane. "tell him to tie it to the rail," said mr. crawley. "if he has expected to find menials here, as he has them at the palace, he will be wrong. if he wants to come in here, let him tie the beast to the rail." so jane went out and sent a message to mr. thumble by the girl, and mr. thumble did tie the pony to the rail, and followed the girl into the house. jane in the meantime had retired out by the back door to the school, but mrs. crawley kept her ground. she kept her ground although she almost believed that her husband would prefer to have the field to himself. as mr. thumble did not at once enter the room, mr. crawley stalked to the door, and stood with it open in his hand. though he knew mr. thumble's person, he was not acquainted with him, and therefore he simply bowed to the visitor, bowing more than once or twice with a cold courtesy, which did not put mr. thumble altogether at his ease. "my name is mr. thumble," said the visitor,--"the reverend caleb thumble," and he held the bishop's letter in his hand. mr. crawley seemed to take no notice of the letter, but motioned mr. thumble with his hand into the room. "i suppose you have come over from barchester this morning?" said mrs. crawley. "yes, madam,--from the palace." mr. thumble, though a humble man in positions in which he felt that humility would become him,--a humble man to his betters, as he himself would have expressed it,--had still about him something of that pride which naturally belonged to those clergymen who were closely attached to the palace at barchester. had he been sent on a message to plumstead,--could any such message from barchester palace have been possible, he would have been properly humble in his demeanour to the archdeacon, or to mrs. grantly had he been admitted to the august presence of that lady; but he was aware that humility would not become him on his present mission; he had been expressly ordered to be firm by mrs. proudie, and firm he meant to be; and therefore, in communicating to mrs. crawley the fact that he had come from the palace, he did load the tone of his voice with something of dignity which mr. crawley might perhaps be excused for regarding as arrogance. "and what does the 'palace' want with me?" said mr. crawley. mrs. crawley knew at once that there was to be a battle. nay, the battle had begun. nor was she altogether sorry; for though she could not trust her husband to sit alone all day in his arm-chair over the fire, she could trust him to carry on a disputation with any other clergyman on any subject whatever. "what does the palace want with me?" and as mr. crawley asked the question he stood erect, and looked mr. thumble full in the face. mr. thumble called to mind the fact, that mr. crawley was a very poor man indeed,--so poor that he owed money all round the country to butchers and bakers, and the other fact, that he, mr. thumble himself, did not owe any money to any one, his wife luckily having a little income of her own; and, strengthened by these remembrances, he endeavoured to bear mr. crawley's attack with gallantry. "of course, mr. crawley, you are aware that this unfortunate affair at silverbridge--" "i am not prepared, sir, to discuss the unfortunate affair at silverbridge with a stranger. if you are the bearer of any message to me from the bishop of barchester, perhaps you will deliver it." "i have brought a letter," said mr. thumble. then mr. crawley stretched out his hand without a word, and taking the letter with him to the window, read it very slowly. when he had made himself master of its contents, he refolded the letter, placed it again in the envelope, and returned to the spot where mr. thumble was standing. "i will answer the bishop's letter," he said; "i will answer it of course, as it is fitting that i should do. shall i ask you to wait for my reply, or shall i send it by course of post?" "i think, mr. crawley, as the bishop wishes me to undertake the duty--" "you will not undertake the duty, mr. thumble. you need not trouble yourself, for i shall not surrender my pulpit to you." "but the bishop--" "i care nothing for the bishop in this matter." so much he spoke in anger, and then he corrected himself. "i crave the bishop's pardon, and yours as his messenger, if in the heat occasioned by my strong feelings i have said aught which may savour of irreverence towards his lordship's office. i respect his lordship's high position as bishop of this diocese, and i bow to his commands in all things lawful. but i must not bow to him in things unlawful, nor must i abandon my duty before god at his bidding, unless his bidding be given in accordance with the canons of the church and the laws of the land. it will be my duty, on the coming sunday, to lead the prayers of my people in the church of my parish, and to preach to them from my pulpit; and that duty, with god's assistance, i will perform. nor will i allow any clergyman to interfere with me in the performance of those sacred offices,--no, not though the bishop himself should be present with the object of enforcing his illegal command." mr. crawley spoke these words without hesitation, even with eloquence, standing upright, and with something of a noble anger gleaming over his poor wan face; and, i think, that while speaking them, he was happier than he had been for many a long day. mr. thumble listened to him patiently, standing with one foot a little in advance of the other, with one hand folded over the other, with his head rather on one side, and with his eyes fixed on the corner where the wall and ceiling joined each other. he had been told to be firm, and he was considering how he might best display firmness. he thought that he remembered some story of two parsons fighting for one pulpit, and he thought also that he should not himself like to incur the scandal of such a proceeding in the diocese. as to the law in the matter he knew nothing himself; but he presumed that a bishop would probably know the law better than a perpetual curate. that mrs. proudie was intemperate and imperious, he was aware. had the message come from her alone, he might have felt that even for her sake he had better give way. but as the despotic arrogance of the lady had been in this case backed by the timid presence and hesitating words of her lord, mr. thumble thought that he must have the law on his side. "i think you will find, mr. crawley," said he, "that the bishop's inhibition is strictly legal." he had picked up the powerful word from mrs. proudie and flattered himself that it might be of use to him in carrying his purpose. "it is illegal," said mr. crawley, speaking somewhat louder than before, "and will be absolutely futile. as you pleaded to me that you yourself and your own personal convenience were concerned in this matter, i have made known my intentions to you, which otherwise i should have made known only to the bishop. if you please, we will discuss the subject no further." "am i to understand, mr. crawley, that you refuse to obey the bishop?" "the bishop has written to me, sir; and i will make known my intention to the bishop by a written answer. as you have been the bearer of the bishop's letter to me, i am bound to ask you whether i shall be indebted to you for carrying back my reply, or whether i shall send it by course of post?" mr. thumble considered for a moment, and then made up his mind that he had better wait, and carry back the epistle. this was friday, and the letter could not be delivered by post till the saturday morning. mrs. proudie might be angry with him if he should be the cause of loss of time. he did not, however, at all like waiting, having perceived that mr. crawley, though with language courteously worded, had spoken of him as a mere messenger. "i think," he said, "that i may, perhaps, best further the object which we must all have in view, that namely of providing properly for the sunday services of the church of hogglestock, by taking your reply personally to the bishop." "that provision is my care and need trouble no one else," said mr. crawley, in a loud voice. then, before seating himself at his old desk, he stood awhile, pondering, with his back turned to his visitor. "i have to ask your pardon, sir," said he, looking round for a moment, "because, by reason of the extreme poverty of this house, my wife is unable to offer to you that hospitality which is especially due from one clergyman to another." "oh, don't mention it," said mr. thumble. "if you will allow me, sir, i would prefer that it should be mentioned." then he seated himself at his desk, and commenced his letter. mr. thumble felt himself to be awkwardly placed. had there been no third person in the room he could have sat down in mr. crawley's arm-chair, and waited patiently till the letter should be finished. but mrs. crawley was there, and of course he was bound to speak to her. in what strain could he do so? even he, little as he was given to indulge in sentiment, had been touched by the man's appeal to his own poverty, and he felt, moreover, that mrs. crawley must have been deeply moved by her husband's position with reference to the bishop's order. it was quite out of the question that he should speak of that, as mr. crawley would, he was well aware, immediately turn upon him. at last he thought of a subject, and spoke with a voice intended to be pleasant. "that was the school-house i passed, probably, just as i came here?" mrs. crawley told him that it was the school-house. "ah, yes, i thought so. have you a certified teacher here?" mrs. crawley explained that no government aid had ever reached hogglestock. besides themselves, they had only a young woman whom they themselves had instructed. "ah, that is a pity," said mr. thumble. "i,--i am the certified teacher," said mr. crawley, turning round upon him from his chair. "oh, ah, yes," said mr. thumble; and after that mr. thumble asked no more questions about the hogglestock school. soon afterwards mrs. crawley left the room, seeing the difficulty under which mr. thumble was labouring, and feeling sure that her presence would not now be necessary. mr. crawley's letter was written quickly, though every now and then he would sit for a moment with his pen poised in the air, searching his memory for a word. but the words came to him easily, and before an hour was over he had handed his letter to mr. thumble. the letter was as follows:-- the parsonage, hogglestock, dec. --. right reverend lord, i have received the letter of yesterday's date which your lordship has done me the honour of sending to me by the hands of the reverend mr. thumble, and i avail myself of that gentleman's kindness to return to you an answer by the same means, moved thus to use his patience chiefly by the consideration that in this way my reply to your lordship's injunctions may be in your hands with less delay than would attend the regular course of the mail-post. it is with deep regret that i feel myself constrained to inform your lordship that i cannot obey the command which you have laid upon me with reference to the services of my church in this parish. i cannot permit mr. thumble, or any other delegate from your lordship, to usurp my place in my pulpit. i would not have you to think, if i can possibly dispel such thoughts from your mind, that i disregard your high office, or that i am deficient in that respectful obedience to the bishop set over me, which is due to the authority of the crown as the head of the church in these realms; but in this, as in all questions of obedience, he who is required to obey must examine the extent of the authority exercised by him who demands obedience. your lordship might possibly call upon me, using your voice as bishop of the diocese, to abandon altogether the freehold rights which are now mine in this perpetual curacy. the judge of assize, before whom i shall soon stand for my trial, might command me to retire to prison without a verdict given by the jury. the magistrates who committed me so lately as yesterday, upon whose decision in that respect your lordship has taken action against me so quickly, might have equally strained their authority. but in no case, in this land, is he that is subject bound to obey, further than where the law gives authority and exacts obedience. it is not in the power of the crown itself to inhibit me from the performance of my ordinary duties in this parish by any such missive as that sent to me by your lordship. if your lordship think it right to stop my mouth as a clergyman in your diocese, you must proceed to do so in an ecclesiastical court in accordance with the laws, and will succeed in your object, or fail, in accordance with the evidences as to ministerial fitness or unfitness, which may be produced respecting me before the proper tribunal. i will allow that much attention is due from a clergyman to pastoral advice given to him by his bishop. on that head i must first express to your lordship my full understanding that your letter has not been intended to convey advice, but an order;--an inhibition, as your messenger, the reverend mr. thumble, has expressed it. there might be a case certainly in which i should submit myself to counsel, though i should resist command. no counsel, however, has been given,--except indeed that i should receive your messenger in a proper spirit, which i hope i have done. no other advice has been given me, and therefore there is now no such case as that i have imagined. but in this matter, my lord, i could not have accepted advice from living man, no, not though the hands of the apostles themselves had made him bishop who tendered it to me, and had set him over me for my guidance. i am in a terrible strait. trouble, and sorrow, and danger are upon me and mine. it may well be, as your lordship says, that the bitter waters of the present hour may pass over my head and destroy me. i thank your lordship for telling me whither i am to look for assistance. truly i know not whether there is any to be found for me on earth. but the deeper my troubles, the greater my sorrow, the more pressing my danger, the stronger is my need that i should carry myself in these days with that outward respect of self which will teach those around me to know that, let who will condemn me, i have not condemned myself. were i to abandon my pulpit, unless forced to do so by legal means, i should in doing so be putting a plea of guilty against myself upon the record. this, my lord, i will not do. i have the honour to be, my lord, your lordship's most obedient servant, josiah crawley. when he had finished writing his letter he read it over slowly, and then handed it to mr. thumble. the act of writing, and the current of the thoughts through his brain, and the feeling that in every word written he was getting the better of the bishop,--all this joined to a certain manly delight in warfare against authority, lighted up the man's face and gave to his eyes an expression which had been long wanting to them. his wife at that moment came into the room and he looked at her with an air of triumph as he handed the letter to mr. thumble. "if you will give that to his lordship with an assurance of my duty to his lordship in all things proper, i will thank you kindly, craving your pardon for the great delay to which you have been subjected." "as to the delay, that is nothing," said mr. thumble. "it has been much; but you as a clergyman will feel that it has been incumbent on me to speak my mind fully." "oh, yes; of course." mr. crawley was standing up, as also was mrs. crawley. it was evident to mr. thumble that they both expected that he should go. but he had been specially enjoined to be firm, and he doubted whether hitherto he had been firm enough. as far as this morning's work had as yet gone, it seemed to him that mr. crawley had had the play all to himself, and that he, mr. thumble, had not had his innings. he, from the palace, had been, as it were, cowed by this man, who had been forced to plead his own poverty. it was certainly incumbent upon him, before he went, to speak up, not only for the bishop, but for himself also. "mr. crawley," he said, "hitherto i have listened to you patiently." "nay," said mr. crawley, smiling, "you have indeed been patient, and i thank you; but my words have been written, not spoken." "you have told me that you intend to disobey the bishop's inhibition." "i have told the bishop so certainly." "may i ask you now to listen to me for a few minutes?" mr. crawley, still smiling, still having in his eyes the unwonted triumph which had lighted them up, paused a moment, and then answered him. "reverend sir, you must excuse me if i say no,--not on this subject." "you will not let me speak?" "no; not on this matter, which is very private to me. what should you think if i went into your house and inquired of you as to those things which were particularly near to you?" "but the bishop sent me." "though ten bishops had sent me,--a council of archbishops if you will!" mr. thumble started back, appalled at the energy of the words used to him. "shall a man have nothing of his own;--no sorrow in his heart, no care in his family, no thought in his breast so private and special to him, but that, if he happen to be a clergyman, the bishop may touch it with his thumb?" "i am not the bishop's thumb," said mr. thumble, drawing himself up. "i intended not to hint anything personally objectionable to yourself. i will regard you as one of the angels of the church." mr. thumble, when he heard this, began to be sure that mr. crawley was mad; he knew of no angels that could ride about the barsetshire lanes on grey ponies. "and as such i will respect you; but i cannot discuss with you the matter of the bishop's message." "oh, very well. i will tell his lordship." "i will pray you to do so." "and his lordship, should he so decide, will arm me with such power on my next coming as will enable me to carry out his lordship's wishes." "his lordship will abide by the law, as will you also." in speaking these last words he stood with the door in his hand, and mr. thumble, not knowing how to increase or even to maintain his firmness, thought it best to pass out, and mount his grey pony and ride away. "the poor man thought that you were laughing at him when you called him an angel of the church," said mrs. crawley, coming up to him and smiling on him. "had i told him he was simply a messenger, he would have taken it worse;--poor fool! when they have rid themselves of me they may put him here, in my church; but not yet,--not yet. where is jane? tell her that i am ready to commence the seven against thebes with her." then jane was immediately sent for out of the school, and the seven against thebes was commenced with great energy. often during the next hour and a half mrs. crawley from the kitchen would hear him reading out, or rather saying by rote, with sonorous, rolling voice, great passages from some chorus, and she was very thankful to the bishop who had sent over to them a message and a messenger which had been so salutary in their effect upon her husband. "in truth an angel of the church," she said to herself as she chopped up the onions for the mutton-broth; and ever afterwards she regarded mr. thumble as an "angel." chapter xiv. major grantly consults a friend. grace crawley passed through silverbridge on her way to allington on the monday, and on the tuesday morning major grantly received a very short note from miss prettyman, telling him that she had done so. "dear sir,--i think you will be glad to learn that our friend miss crawley went from us yesterday on a visit to her friend, miss dale, at allington.--yours truly, annabella prettyman." the note said no more than that. major grantly was glad to get it, obtaining from it that satisfaction which a man always feels when he is presumed to be concerned in the affairs of the lady with whom he is in love. and he regarded miss prettyman with favourable eyes,--as a discreet and friendly woman. nevertheless, he was not altogether happy. the very fact that miss prettyman should write to him on such a subject made him feel that he was bound to grace crawley. he knew enough of himself to be sure that he could not give her up without making himself miserable. and yet, as regarded her father, things were going from bad to worse. everybody now said that the evidence was so strong against mr. crawley as to leave hardly a doubt of his guilt. even the ladies in silverbridge were beginning to give up his cause, acknowledging that the money could not have come rightfully into his hands, and excusing him on the plea of partial insanity. "he has picked it up and put it by for months, and then thought that it was his own." the ladies of silverbridge could find nothing better to say for him than that; and when young mr. walker remarked that such little mistakes were the customary causes of men being taken to prison, the ladies of silverbridge did not know how to answer him. it had come to be their opinion that mr. crawley was affected with a partial lunacy, which ought to be forgiven in one to whom the world had been so cruel; and when young mr. walker endeavoured to explain to them that a man must be sane altogether or mad altogether, and that mr. crawley must, if sane, be locked up as a thief, and if mad, locked up as a madman, they sighed, and were convinced that until the world should have been improved by a new infusion of romance, and a stronger feeling of poetic justice, mr. john walker was right. and the result of this general opinion made its way out to major grantly, and made its way, also, to the archdeacon at plumstead. as to the major, in giving him his due, it must be explained that the more certain he became of the father's guilt, the more certain also he became of the daughter's merits. it was very hard. the whole thing was cruelly hard. it was cruelly hard upon him that he should be brought into this trouble, and be forced to take upon himself the armour of a knight-errant for the redress of the wrong on the part of the young lady. but when alone in his house, or with his child, he declared to himself that he would do so. it might well be that he could not live in barsetshire after he had married mr. crawley's daughter. he had inherited from his father enough of that longing for ascendancy among those around him to make him feel that in such circumstances he would be wretched. but he would be made more wretched by the self-knowledge that he had behaved badly to the girl he loved; and the world beyond barsetshire was open to him. he would take her with him to canada, to new zealand, or to some other far-away country, and there begin his life again. should his father choose to punish him for so doing by disinheriting him, they would be poor enough; but, in his present frame of mind, the major was able to regard such poverty as honourable and not altogether disagreeable. he had been out shooting all day at chaldicotes, with dr. thorne and a party who were staying in the house there, and had been talking about mr. crawley, first with one man and then with another. lord lufton had been there, and young gresham from greshamsbury, and mr. robarts the clergyman, and news had come among them of the attempt made by the bishop to stop mr. crawley from preaching. mr. robarts had been of opinion that mr. crawley should have given way; and lord lufton, who shared his mother's intense dislike of everything that came from the palace, had sworn that he was right to resist. the sympathy of the whole party had been with mr. crawley; but they had all agreed that he had stolen the money. "i fear he'll have to give way to the bishop at last," lord lufton had said. "and what on earth will become of his children?" said the doctor. "think of the fate of that pretty girl; for she is a very pretty girl. it will be ruin to her. no man will allow himself to fall in love with her when her father shall have been found guilty of stealing a cheque for twenty pounds." "we must do something for the whole family," said the lord. "i say, thorne, you haven't half the game here that there used to be in poor old sowerby's time." "haven't i?" said the doctor. "you see sowerby had been at it all his days, and never did anything else. i only began late in life." the major had intended to stay and dine at chaldicotes, but when he heard what was said about grace, his heart became sad, and he made some excuse as to his child, and returned home. dr. thorne had declared that no man could allow himself to fall in love with her. but what if a man had fallen in love with her beforehand? what if a man had not only fallen in love, but spoken of his love? had he been alone with the doctor, he would, i think, have told him the whole of his trouble; for in all the county there was no man whom he would sooner have trusted with his secret. this dr. thorne was known far and wide for his soft heart, his open hand, and his well-sustained indifference to the world's opinions on most of those social matters with which the world meddles; and therefore the words which he had spoken had more weight with major grantly than they would have had from other lips. as he drove home he almost made up his mind that he would consult dr. thorne upon the matter. there were many younger men with whom he was very intimate,--frank gresham, for instance, and lord lufton himself; but this was an affair which he hardly knew how to discuss with a young man. to dr. thorne he thought that he could bring himself to tell the whole story. in the evening there came to him a messenger from plumstead, with a letter from his father and some present for the child. he knew at once that the present had been thus sent as an excuse for the letter. his father might have written by the post, of course; but that would have given to his letter a certain air and tone which he had not wished it to bear. after some message from the major's mother, and some allusion to edith, the archdeacon struck off upon the matter that was near his heart. "i fear it is all up with that unfortunate man at hogglestock," he said. "from what i hear of the evidence which came out before the magistrates, there can, i think, be no doubt as to his guilt. have you heard that the bishop sent over on the following day to stop him from preaching? he did so, and sent again on the sunday. but crawley would not give way, and so far i respect the man; for, as a matter of course, whatever the bishop did, or attempted to do, he would do with an extreme of bad taste, probably with gross ignorance as to his own duty and as to the duty of the man under him. i am told that on the first day crawley turned out of his house the messenger sent to him,--some stray clergyman whom mrs. proudie keeps about the house; and that on the sunday the stairs to the reading-desk and pulpit were occupied by a lot of brickmakers, among whom the parson from barchester did not venture to attempt to make his way, although he was fortified by the presence of one of the cathedral vergers and by one of the palace footmen. i can hardly believe about the verger and the footman. as for the rest, i have no doubt it is all true. i pity crawley from my heart. poor, unfortunate man! the general opinion seems to be that he is not in truth responsible for what he has done. as for his victory over the bishop, nothing on earth could be better. "your mother particularly wishes you to come over to us before the end of the week, and to bring edith. your grandfather will be here, and he is becoming so infirm that he will never come to us for another christmas. of course you will stay over the new year." though the letter was full of mr. crawley and his affairs there was not a word in it about grace. this, however, was quite natural. major grantly perfectly well understood his father's anxiety to carry his point without seeming to allude to the disagreeable subject. "my father is very clever," he said to himself, "very clever. but he isn't so clever but one can see how clever he is." on the next day he went into silverbridge, intending to call on miss prettyman. he had not quite made up his mind what he would say to miss prettyman; nor was he called upon to do so, as he never got as far as that lady's house. while walking up the high street he saw mrs. thorne in her carriage, and, as a matter of course, he stopped to speak to her. he knew mrs. thorne quite as intimately as he did her husband, and liked her quite as well. "major grantly," she said, speaking out loud to him, half across the street; "i was very angry with you yesterday. why did you not come up to dinner? we had a room ready for you and everything." "i was not quite well, mrs. thorne." "fiddlestick. don't tell me of not being well. there was emily breaking her heart about you." "i'm sure miss dunstable--" "to tell you the truth, i think she'll get over it. it won't be mortal with her. but do tell me, major grantly, what are we to think about this poor mr. crawley? it was so good of you to be one of his bailsmen." "he would have found twenty in silverbridge, if he had wanted them." "and do you hear that he has defied the bishop? i do so like him for that. not but what poor mrs. proudie is the dearest friend i have in the world, and i'm always fighting a battle with old lady lufton on her behalf. but one likes to see one's friends worsted sometimes, you know." "i don't quite understand what did happen at hogglestock on sunday," said the major. "some say he had the bishop's chaplain put under the pump. i don't believe that; but there is no doubt that when the poor fellow tried to get into the pulpit, they took him and carried him neck and heels out of the church. but, tell me, major grantly, what is to become of the family?" "heaven knows!" "is it not sad? and that eldest girl is so nice! they tell me that she is perfect,--not only in beauty, but in manners and accomplishments. everybody says that she talks greek just as well as she does english, and that she understands philosophy from the top to the bottom." "at any rate, she is so good and so lovely that one cannot but pity her now," said the major. "you know her, then, major grantly? by-the-by, of course you do, as you were staying with her at framley." "yes, i know her." "what is to become of her? i'm going your way. you might as well get into the carriage, and i'll drive you home. if he is sent to prison,--and they say he must be sent to prison,--what is to become of them?" then major grantly did get into the carriage, and, before he got out again, he had told mrs. thorne the whole story of his love. she listened to him with the closest attention; only interrupting him now and then with little words, intended to signify her approval. he, as he told his tale, did not look her in the face, but sat with his eyes fixed upon her muff. "and now," he said, glancing up at her almost for the first time as he finished his speech, "and now, mrs. thorne, what am i to do?" "marry her, of course," said she, raising her hand aloft and bringing it down heavily upon his knee as she gave her decisive reply. "h--sh--h," he exclaimed, looking back in dismay towards the servants. "oh, they never hear anything up there. they're thinking about the last pot of porter they had, or the next they're to get. deary me, i am so glad! of course you'll marry her." "you forget my father." "no, i don't. what has a father to do with it? you're old enough to please yourself without asking your father. besides, lord bless me, the archdeacon isn't the man to bear malice. he'll storm and threaten and stop the supplies for a month or so. then he'll double them, and take your wife to his bosom, and kiss her and bless her, and all that kind of thing. we all know what parental wrath means in such cases as that." "but my sister--" "as for your sister, don't talk to me about her. i don't care two straws about your sister. you must excuse me, major grantly, but lady hartletop is really too big for my powers of vision." "and edith,--of course, mrs. thorne, i can't be blind to the fact that in many ways such a marriage would be injurious to her. no man wishes to be connected with a convicted thief." "no, major grantly; but a man does wish to marry the girl that he loves. at least, i suppose so. and what man ever was able to give a more touching proof of his affection than you can do now? if i were you, i'd be at allington before twelve o'clock to-morrow,--i would indeed. what does it matter about the trumpery cheque? everybody knows it was a mistake, if he did take it. and surely you would not punish her for that." "no,--no; but i don't suppose she'd think it a punishment." "you go and ask her, then. and i'll tell you what. if she hasn't a house of her own to be married from, she shall be married from chaldicotes. we'll have such a breakfast! and i'll make as much of her as if she were the daughter of my old friend, the bishop himself,--i will indeed." this was mrs. thorne's advice. before it was completed, major grantly had been carried half-way to chaldicotes. when he left his impetuous friend he was too prudent to make any promise, but he declared that what she had said should have much weight with him. "you won't mention it to anybody?" said the major. "certainly not, without your leave," said mrs. thorne. "don't you know that i'm the soul of honour?" chapter xv. up in london. [illustration] some kind and attentive reader may perhaps remember that miss grace crawley, in a letter written by her to her friend miss lily dale, said a word or two of a certain john. "if it can only be as john wishes it!" and the same reader, if there be one so kind and attentive, may also remember that miss lily dale had declared, in reply, that "about that other subject she would rather say nothing,"--and then she had added, "when one thinks of going beyond friendship,--even if one tries to do so,--there are so many barriers!" from which words the kind and attentive reader, if such reader be in such matters intelligent as well as kind and attentive, may have learned a great deal with reference to miss lily dale. we will now pay a visit to the john in question,--a certain mr. john eames, living in london, a bachelor, as the intelligent reader will certainly have discovered, and cousin to miss grace crawley. mr. john eames at the time of our story was a young man, some seven or eight and twenty years of age, living in london, where he was supposed by his friends in the country to have made his mark, and to be something a little out of the common way. but i do not know that he was very much out of the common way, except in the fact that he had had some few thousand pounds left him by an old nobleman, who had been in no way related to him, but who had regarded him with great affection, and who had died some two years since. before this, john eames had not been a very poor man, as he filled the comfortable official position of private secretary to the chief commissioner of the income-tax board, and drew a salary of three hundred and fifty pounds a year from the resources of his country; but when, in addition to this source of official wealth, he became known as the undoubted possessor of a hundred and twenty-eight shares in one of the most prosperous joint-stock banks in the metropolis, which property had been left to him free of legacy duty by the lamented nobleman above named, then mr. john eames rose very high indeed as a young man in the estimation of those who knew him, and was supposed to be something a good deal out of the common way. his mother, who lived in the country, was obedient to his slightest word, never venturing to impose upon him any sign of parental authority; and to his sister, mary eames, who lived with her mother, he was almost a god upon earth. to sisters who have nothing of their own,--not even some special god for their own individual worship,--generous, affectionate, unmarried brothers, with sufficient incomes, are gods upon earth. and even up in london mr. john eames was somebody. he was so especially at his office; although, indeed, it was remembered by many a man how raw a lad he had been when he first came there, not so very many years ago; and how they had laughed at him and played him tricks; and how he had customarily been known to be without a shilling for the last week before pay-day, during which period he would borrow sixpence here and a shilling there with great energy, from men who now felt themselves to be honoured when he smiled upon them. little stories of his former days would often be told of him behind his back; but they were not told with ill-nature, because he was very constant in referring to the same matters himself. and it was acknowledged by every one at the office, that neither the friendship of the nobleman, nor the fact of the private secretaryship, nor the acquisition of his wealth, had made him proud to his old companions or forgetful of old friendships. to the young men, lads who had lately been appointed, he was perhaps a little cold; but then it was only reasonable to conceive that such a one as mr. john eames was now could not be expected to make an intimate acquaintance with every new clerk that might be brought into the office. since competitive examinations had come into vogue, there was no knowing who might be introduced; and it was understood generally through the establishment,--and i may almost say by the civil service at large, so wide was his fame,--that mr. eames was very averse to the whole theory of competition. the "devil take the hindmost" scheme, he called it; and would then go on to explain that hindmost candidates were often the best gentlemen, and that, in this way, the devil got the pick of the flock. and he was respected the more for this opinion, because it was known that on this subject he had fought some hard battles with the chief commissioner. the chief commissioner was a great believer in competition, wrote papers about it, which he read aloud to various bodies of the civil service,--not at all to their delight,--which he got to be printed here and there, and which he sent by post all over the kingdom. more than once this chief commissioner had told his private secretary that they must part company, unless the private secretary could see fit to alter his view, or could, at least, keep his views to himself. but the private secretary would do neither; and, nevertheless, there he was, still private secretary. "it's because johnny has got money," said one of the young clerks, who was discussing this singular state of things with his brethren at the office. "when a chap has got money, he may do what he likes. johnny has got lots of money, you know." the young clerk in question was by no means on intimate terms with mr. eames, but there had grown up in the office a way of calling him johnny behind his back, which had probably come down from the early days of his scrapes and his poverty. now the entire life of mr. john eames was pervaded by a great secret; and although he never, in those days, alluded to the subject in conversation with any man belonging to the office, yet the secret was known to them all. it had been historical for the last four or five years, and was now regarded as a thing of course. mr. john eames was in love, and his love was not happy. he was in love, and had long been in love, and the lady of his love was not kind to him. the little history had grown to be very touching and pathetic, having received, no doubt, some embellishments from the imaginations of the gentlemen of the income-tax office. it was said of him that he had been in love from his early boyhood, that at sixteen he had been engaged, under the sanction of the nobleman now deceased and of the young lady's parents, that contracts of betrothals had been drawn up, and things done very unusual in private families in these days, and that then there had come a stranger into the neighbourhood just as the young lady was beginning to reflect whether she had a heart of her own or not, and that she had thrown her parents, and the noble lord, and the contract, and poor johnny eames to the winds, and had-- here the story took different directions, as told by different men. some said the lady had gone off with the stranger, and that there had been a clandestine marriage, which afterwards turned out to be no marriage at all; others, that the stranger suddenly took himself off, and was no more seen by the young lady; others that he owned at last to having another wife,--and so on. the stranger was very well known to be one mr. crosbie, belonging to another public office; and there were circumstances in his life, only half known, which gave rise to these various rumours. but there was one thing certain, one point as to which no clerk in the income-tax office had a doubt, one fact which had conduced much to the high position which mr. john eames now held in the estimation of his brother clerks,--he had given this mr. crosbie such a thrashing that no man had ever received such treatment before and had lived through it. wonderful stories were told about that thrashing, so that it was believed, even by the least enthusiastic in such matters, that the poor victim had only dragged on a crippled existence since the encounter. "for nine weeks he never said a word or eat a mouthful," said one young clerk to a younger clerk who was just entering the office; "and even now he can't speak above a whisper, and has to take all his food in pap." it will be seen, therefore, that mr. john eames had about him much of the heroic. that he was still in love, and in love with the same lady, was known to every one in the office. when it was declared of him that in the way of amatory expressions he had never in his life opened his mouth to another woman, there were those in the office who knew that this was an exaggeration. mr. cradell, for instance, who in his early years had been very intimate with john eames, and who still kept up the old friendship,--although, being a domestic man, with a wife and six young children, and living on a small income, he did not go much out among his friends,--could have told a very different story; for mrs. cradell herself had, in days before cradell had made good his claim upon her, been not unadmired by cradell's fellow-clerk. but the constancy of mr. eames's present love was doubted by none who knew him. it was not that he went about with his stockings ungartered, or any of the old acknowledged signs of unrequited affection. in his manner he was rather jovial than otherwise, and seemed to live a happy, somewhat luxurious life, well contented with himself and the world around him. but still he had this passion within his bosom, and i am inclined to think that he was a little proud of his own constancy. it might be presumed that when miss dale wrote to her friend grace crawley about going beyond friendship, pleading that there were so many "barriers," she had probably seen her way over most of them. but this was not so; nor did john eames himself at all believe that the barriers were in a way to be overcome. i will not say that he had given the whole thing up as a bad job, because it was the law of his life that the thing never should be abandoned as long as hope was possible. unless miss dale should become the wife of somebody else, he would always regard himself as affianced to her. he had so declared to miss dale herself and to miss dale's mother, and to all the dale people who had ever been interested in the matter. and there was an old lady living in miss dale's neighbourhood, the sister of the lord who had left johnny eames the bank shares, who always fought his battles for him, and kept a close look-out, fully resolved that john eames should be rewarded at last. this old lady was connected with the dales by family ties, and therefore had means of close observation. she was in constant correspondence with john eames, and never failed to acquaint him when any of the barriers were, in her judgment, giving way. the nature of some of the barriers may possibly be made intelligible to my readers by the following letter from lady julia de guest to her young friend. guestwick cottage, -- december, --. my dear john,-- i am much obliged to you for going to jones's. i send stamps for two shillings and fourpence, which is what i owe you. it used only to be two shillings and twopence, but they say everything has got to be dearer now, and i suppose pills as well as other things. only think of pritchard coming to me, and saying she wanted her wages raised, after living with me for twenty years! i was _very_ angry, and scolded her roundly; but as she acknowledged she had been wrong, and cried and begged my pardon, i did give her two guineas a year more. i saw dear lily just for a moment on sunday, and upon my word i think she grows prettier every year. she had a young friend with her,--a miss crawley,--who, i believe, is the cousin i have heard you speak of. what is this sad story about her father, the clergyman? mind you tell me all about it. it is quite true what i told you about the de courcys. old lady de courcy is in london, and mr. crosbie is going to law with her about his wife's money. he has been at it in one way or the other ever since poor lady alexandrina died. i wish she had lived, with all my heart. for though i feel sure that our lily will never willingly see him again, yet the tidings of her death disturbed her, and set her thinking of things that were fading from her mind. i rated her soundly, not mentioning your name, however; but she only kissed me, and told me in her quiet drolling way that i didn't mean a word of what i said. you can come here whenever you please after the tenth of january. but if you come early in january you must go to your mother first, and come to me for the last week of your holiday. go to blackie's in regent street, and bring me down all the colours in wool that i ordered. i said you would call. and tell them at dolland's the last spectacles don't suit at all, and i won't keep them. they had better send me down, by you, one or two more pairs to try. and you had better see smithers and smith, in lincoln's inn fields, no. --but you have been there before,--and beg them to let me know how my poor dear brother's matters are to be settled at last. as far as i can see i shall be dead before i shall know what income i have got to spend. as to my cousins at the manor, i never see them; and as to talking to them about business, i should not dream of it. she hasn't come to me since she first called, and she may be _quite sure_ i shan't go to her till she does. indeed i think we shall like each other apart quite as much as we should together. so let me know when you're coming, and _pray_ don't forget to call at blackie's; nor yet at dolland's, which is much more important than the wool, because of my eyes getting so weak. but what i want you specially to remember is about smithers and smith. how is a woman to live if she doesn't know how much she has got to spend? believe me to be, my dear john, your most sincere friend, julia de guest. lady julia always directed her letters for her young friend to his office, and there he received the one now given to the reader. when he had read it he made a memorandum as to the commissions, and then threw himself back in his arm-chair to think over the tidings communicated to him. all the facts stated he had known before; that lady de courcy was in london, and that her son-in-law, mr. crosbie, whose wife,--lady alexandrina,--had died some twelve months since at baden baden, was at variance with her respecting money which he supposed to be due to him. but there was that in lady julia's letter which was wormwood to him. lily dale was again thinking of this man, whom she had loved in old days, and who had treated her with monstrous perfidy! it was all very well for lady julia to be sure that lily dale would never desire to see mr. crosbie again; but john eames was by no means equally certain that it would be so. "the tidings of her death disturbed her!" said johnny, repeating to himself certain words out of the old lady's letter. "i know they disturbed me. i wish she could have lived for ever. if he ever ventures to show himself within ten miles of allington, i'll see if i cannot do better than i did the last time i met him!" then there came a knock at the door, and the private secretary, finding himself to be somewhat annoyed by the disturbance at such a moment, bade the intruder enter in angry voice. "oh, it's you, cradell, is it? what can i do for you?" mr. cradell, who now entered, and who, as before said, was an old ally of john eames, was a clerk of longer standing in the department than his friend. in age he looked to be much older, and he had left with him none of that appearance of the gloss of youth which will stick for many years to men who are fortunate in their worldly affairs. indeed it may be said that mr. cradell was almost shabby in his outward appearance, and his brow seemed to be laden with care, and his eyes were dull and heavy. "i thought i'd just come in and ask you how you are," said cradell. "i'm pretty well, thank you; and how are you?" "oh, i'm pretty well,--in health, that is. you see one has so many things to think of when one has a large family. upon my word, johnny, i think you've been lucky to keep out of it." "i have kept out of it, at any rate; haven't i?" "of course; living with you as much as i used to do, i know the whole story of what has kept you single." "don't mind about that, cradell; what is it you want?" "i mustn't let you suppose, johnny, that i'm grumbling about my lot. nobody knows better than you what a trump i got in my wife." "of course you did;--an excellent woman." "and if i cut you out a little there, i'm sure you never felt malice against me for that." "never for a moment, old fellow." "we all have our luck, you know." "your luck has been a wife and family. my luck has been to be a bachelor." "you may say a family," said cradell. "i'm sure that amelia does the best she can; but we are desperately pushed some times,--desperately pushed. i never was so bad, johnny, as i am now." "so you said the last time." "did i? i don't remember it. i didn't think i was so bad then. but, johnny, if you can let me have one more fiver now i have made arrangements with amelia how i'm to pay you off by thirty shillings a month,--as i get my salary. indeed i have. ask her else." "i'll be shot if i do." "don't say that, johnny." "it's no good your johnnying me, for i won't be johnnyed out of another shilling. it comes too often, and there's no reason why i should do it. and what's more, i can't afford it. i've people of my own to help." "but oh, johnny, we all know how comfortable you are. and i'm sure no one rejoiced as i did when the money was left to you. if it had been myself i could hardly have thought more of it. upon my solemn word and honour if you'll let me have it this time, it shall be the last." "upon my word and honour then, i won't. there must be an end to everything." although mr. cradell would probably, if pressed, have admitted the truth of this last assertion, he did not seem to think that the end had as yet come to his friend's benevolence. it certainly had not come to his own importunity. "don't say that, johnny; pray don't." "but i do say it." "when i told amelia yesterday evening that i didn't like to go to you again, because of course a man has feelings, she told me to mention her name. 'i'm sure he'd do it for my sake,' she said." "i don't believe she said anything of the kind." "upon my word she did. you ask her." "and if she did, she oughtn't to have said it." "oh, johnny, don't speak in that way of her. she's my wife, and you know what your own feelings were once. but look here,--we are in that state at home at this moment, that i must get money somewhere before i go home. i must, indeed. if you'll let me have three pounds this once, i'll never ask you again. i'll give you a written promise if you like, and i'll pledge myself to pay it back by thirty shillings a time out of the two next months' salary. i will, indeed." and then mr. cradell began to cry. but when johnny at last took out his cheque-book and wrote a cheque for three pounds, mr. cradell's eyes glistened with joy. "upon my word i am so much obliged to you! you are the best fellow that ever lived. and amelia will say the same when she hears of it." "i don't believe she'll say anything of the kind, cradell. if i remember anything of her, she has a stouter heart than that." cradell admitted that his wife had a stouter heart than himself, and then made his way back to his own part of the office. this little interruption to the current of mr. eames's thoughts was, i think, for the good of the service, as, immediately on his friend's departure, he went to his work; whereas, had not he been thus called away from his reflections about miss dale, he would have sat thinking about her affairs probably for the rest of the morning. as it was, he really did write a dozen notes in answer to as many private letters addressed to his chief, sir raffle buffle, in all of which he made excellently-worded false excuses for the non-performance of various requests made to sir raffle by the writers. "he's about the best hand at it that i know," said sir raffle, one day, to the secretary; "otherwise you may be sure i shouldn't keep him there." "i will allow that he is clever," said the secretary. "it isn't cleverness, so much as tact. it's what i call tact. i hadn't been long in the service before i mastered it myself; and now that i've been at the trouble to teach him i don't want to have the trouble to teach another. but upon my word he must mind his _p_'s and _q_'s; upon my word he must; and you had better tell him so." "the fact is, mr. kissing," said the private secretary the next day to the secretary,--mr. kissing was at that time secretary to the board of commissioners for the receipt of income tax--"the fact is, mr. kissing, sir raffle should never attempt to write a letter himself. he doesn't know how to do it. he always says twice too much, and yet not half enough. i wish you'd tell him so. he won't believe me." from which it will be seen mr. eames was proud of his special accomplishment, but did not feel any gratitude to the master who assumed to himself the glory of having taught him. on the present occasion john eames wrote all his letters before he thought again of lily dale, and was able to write them without interruption, as the chairman was absent for the day at the treasury,--or perhaps at his club. then, when he had finished, he rang his bell, and ordered some sherry and soda-water, and stretched himself before the fire,--as though his exertions in the public service had been very great,--and seated himself comfortably in his arm-chair, and lit a cigar, and again took out lady julia's letter. as regarded the cigar, it may be said that both sir raffle and mr. kissing had given orders that on no account should cigars be lit within the precincts of the income-tax office. mr. eames had taken upon himself to understand that such orders did not apply to a private secretary, and was well aware that sir raffle knew his habit. to mr. kissing, i regret to say, he put himself in opposition whenever and wherever opposition was possible; so that men in the office said that one of the two must go at last. "but johnny can do anything, you know, because he has got money." that was too frequently the opinion finally expressed among the men. so john eames sat down, and drank his soda-water, and smoked his cigar, and read his letter; or rather, simply that paragraph of the letter which referred to miss dale. "the tidings of her death have disturbed her, and set her thinking again of things that were fading from her mind." he understood it all. and yet how could it possibly be so? how could it be that she should not despise a man,--despise him if she did not hate him,--who had behaved as this man had behaved to her? it was now four years since this crosbie had been engaged to miss dale, and had jilted her so heartlessly as to incur the disgust of every man in london who had heard the story. he had married an earl's daughter, who had left him within a few months of their marriage, and now mr. crosbie's noble wife was dead. the wife was dead, and simply because the man was free again, he, john eames, was to be told that miss dale's mind was "disturbed," and that her thoughts were going back to things which had faded from her memory, and which should have been long since banished altogether from such holy ground. if lily dale were now to marry mr. crosbie, anything so perversely cruel as the fate of john eames would never yet have been told in romance. that was his own idea on the matter as he sat smoking his cigar. i have said that he was proud of his constancy, and yet, in some sort, he was also ashamed of it. he acknowledged the fact of his love, and believed himself to have out-jacobed jacob; but he felt that it was hard for a man who had risen in the world as he had done to be made a plaything of by a foolish passion. it was now four years ago,--that affair of crosbie,--and miss dale should have accepted him long since. half-a-dozen times he had made up his mind to be very stern to her; and he had written somewhat sternly,--but the first moment that he saw her he was conquered again. "and now that brute will reappear, and everything will be wrong again," he said to himself. if the brute did reappear, something should happen of which the world should hear the tidings. so he lit another cigar, and began to think what that something should be. as he did so he heard a loud noise, as of harsh, rattling winds in the next room, and he knew that sir raffle had come back from the treasury. there was a creaking of boots, and a knocking of chairs, and a ringing of bells, and then a loud angry voice,--a voice that was very harsh, and on this occasion very angry. why had not his twelve-o'clock letters been sent up to him to the west end? why not? mr. eames knew all about it. why did mr. eames know all about it? why had not mr. eames sent them up? where was mr. eames? let mr. eames be sent to him. all which mr. eames heard standing with the cigar in his mouth and his back to the fire. "somebody has been bullying old buffle, i suppose. after all he has been at the treasury to-day," said eames to himself. but he did not stir till the messenger had been to him, nor even then, at once. "all right, rafferty," he said; "i'll go in just now." then he took half-a-dozen more whiffs from the cigar, threw the remainder into the fire, and opened the door which communicated between his room and sir raffle's. the great man was standing with two unopened epistles in his hand. "eames," said he, "here are letters--" then he stopped himself, and began upon another subject. "did i not give express orders that i would have no smoking in the office?" "i think mr. kissing said something about it, sir." "mr. kissing! it was not mr. kissing at all. it was i. i gave the order myself." "you'll find it began with mr. kissing." "it did not begin with mr. kissing; it began and ended with me. what are you going to do, sir?" john eames had stepped towards the bell, and his hand was already on the bell-pull. "i was going to ring for the papers, sir." "and who told you to ring for the papers? i don't want the papers. the papers won't show anything. i suppose my word may be taken without the papers. since you're so fond of mr. kissing--" "i'm not fond of mr. kissing at all." "you'll have to go back to him, and let somebody come here who will not be too independent to obey my orders. here are two most important letters have been lying here all day, instead of being sent up to me at the treasury." "of course they have been lying there. i thought you were at the club." "i told you i should go to the treasury. i have been there all the morning with the chancellor,"--when sir raffle spoke officially of the chancellor he was not supposed to mean the lord chancellor--"and here i find letters which i particularly wanted lying upon my desk now. i must put an end to this kind of thing. i must, indeed. if you like the outer office better say so at once, and you can go." "i'll think about it, sir raffle." "think about it! what do you mean by thinking about it? but i can't talk about that now. i'm very busy, and shall be here till past seven. i suppose you can stay?" "all night, if you wish it, sir." "very well. that will do for the present.--i wouldn't have had these letters delayed for twenty pounds." "i don't suppose it would have mattered one straw if both of them remained unopened till next week." this last little speech, however, was not made aloud to sir raffle, but by johnny to himself in the solitude of his own room. very soon after that he went away, sir raffle having discovered that one of the letters in question required his immediate return to the west end. "i've changed my mind about staying. i shan't stay now. i should have done if these letters had reached me as they ought." "then i suppose i can go?" "you can do as you like about that," said sir raffle. eames did do as he liked, and went home, or to his club; and as he went he resolved that he would put an end, and at once, to the present trouble of his life. lily dale should accept him or reject him; and, taking either the one or the other alternative, she should hear a bit of his mind plainly spoken. chapter xvi. down at allington. it was christmas-time down at allington, and at three o'clock on christmas eve, just as the darkness of the early winter evening was coming on, lily dale and grace crawley were seated together, one above the other, on the steps leading up to the pulpit in allington church. they had been working all day at the decorations of the church, and they were now looking round them at the result of their handiwork. to an eye unused to the gloom the place would have been nearly dark; but they could see every corner turned by the ivy sprigs, and every line on which the holly-leaves were shining. and the greeneries of the winter had not been stuck up in the old-fashioned, idle way, a bough just fastened up here and a twig inserted there; but everything had been done with some meaning, with some thought towards the original architecture of the building. the gothic lines had been followed, and all the lower arches which it had been possible to reach with an ordinary ladder had been turned as truly with the laurel cuttings as they had been turned originally with the stone. "i wouldn't tie another twig," said the elder girl, "for all the christmas pudding that was ever boiled." "it's lucky then that there isn't another twig to tie." "i don't know about that. i see a score of places where the work has been scamped. this is the sixth time i have done the church, and i don't think i'll ever do it again. when we first began it, bell and i, you know,--before bell was married,--mrs. boyce, and the boycian establishment generally, used to come and help. or rather we used to help her. now she hardly ever looks after it at all." "she is older, i suppose." "she's a little older, and a deal idler. how idle people do get! look at him. since he has had a curate he hardly ever stirs round the parish. and he is getting so fat that-- h--sh! here she is herself,--come to give her judgment upon us." then a stout lady, the wife of the vicar, walked slowly up the aisle. "well, girls," she said, "you have worked hard, and i am sure mr. boyce will be very much obliged to you." "mr. boyce, indeed!" said lily dale. "we shall expect the whole parish to rise from their seats and thank us. why didn't jane and bessy come and help us?" "they were so tired when they came in from the coal club. besides, they don't care for this kind of thing,--not as you do." "jane is utilitarian to the backbone, i know," said lily, "and bessy doesn't like getting up ladders." "as for ladders," said mrs. boyce, defending her daughter, "i am not quite sure that bessy isn't right. you don't mean to say that you did all those in the capitals yourself?" "every twig, with hopkins to hold the ladder and cut the sticks; and as hopkins is just a hundred and one years old, we could have done it pretty nearly as well alone." "i do not think that," said grace. "he has been grumbling all the time," said lily, "and swears he never will have the laurels so robbed again. five or six years ago he used to declare that death would certainly save him from the pain of such another desecration before the next christmas; but he has given up that foolish notion now, and talks as though he meant to protect the allington shrubs at any rate to the end of this century." "i am sure we gave our share from the parsonage," said mrs. boyce, who never understood a joke. "all the best came from the parsonage, as of course they ought," said lily. "but hopkins had to make up the deficiency. and as my uncle told him to take the haycart for them instead of the hand-barrow, he is broken-hearted." "i am sure he was very good-natured," said grace. "nevertheless he is broken-hearted; and i am very good-natured too, and i am broken-backed. who is going to preach to-morrow morning, mrs. boyce?" "mr. swanton will preach in the morning." "tell him not to be long, because of the children's pudding. tell mr. boyce if he is long, we won't any of us come next sunday." "my dear, how can you say such wicked things! i shall not tell him anything of the kind." "that's not wicked, mrs. boyce. if i were to say i had eaten so much lunch that i didn't want any dinner, you'd understand that. if mr. swanton will preach for three-quarters of an hour--" "he only preached for three-quarters of an hour once, lily." "he has been over the half-hour every sunday since he has been here. his average is over forty minutes, and i say it's a shame." "it is not a shame at all, lily," said mrs. boyce, becoming very serious. "look at my uncle; he doesn't like to go to sleep, and he has to suffer a purgatory in keeping himself awake." "if your uncle is heavy, how can mr. swanton help it? if mr. dale's mind were on the subject he would not sleep." "come, mrs. boyce; there's somebody else sleeps sometimes besides my uncle. when mr. boyce puts up his finger and just touches his nose, i know as well as possible why he does it." "lily dale, you have no business to say so. it is not true. i don't know how you can bring yourself to talk in that way of your own clergyman. if i were to tell your mamma she would be shocked." "you won't be so ill-natured, mrs. boyce,--after all that i've done for the church." "if you'd think more about the clergyman, lily, and less about the church," said mrs. boyce very sententiously, "more about the matter and less about the manner, more of the reality and less of the form, i think you'd find that your religion would go further with you. miss crawley is the daughter of a clergyman, and i'm sure she'll agree with me." "if she agrees with anybody in scolding me i'll quarrel with her." "i didn't mean to scold you, lily." "i don't mind it from you, mrs. boyce. indeed, i rather like it. it is a sort of pastoral visitation; and as mr. boyce never scolds me himself, of course i take it as coming from him by attorney." then there was silence for a minute or two, during which mrs. boyce was endeavouring to discover whether miss dale was laughing at her or not. as she was not quite certain, she thought at last that she would let the suspected fault pass unobserved. "don't wait for us, mrs. boyce," said lily. "we must remain till hopkins has sent gregory to sweep the church out and take away the rubbish. we'll see that the key is left at mrs. giles's." "thank you, my dear. then i may as well go. i thought i'd come in and see that it was all right. i'm sure mr. boyce will be very much obliged to you and miss crawley. good-night, my dear." "good-night, mrs. boyce; and be sure you don't let mr. swanton be long to-morrow." to this parting shot mrs. boyce made no rejoinder; but she hurried out of the church somewhat the quicker for it, and closed the door after her with something of a slam. of all persons clergymen are the most irreverent in the handling of things supposed to be sacred, and next to them clergymen's wives, and after them those other ladies, old or young, who take upon themselves semi-clerical duties. and it is natural that it should be so; for is it not said that familiarity does breed contempt? when a parson takes his lay friend over his church on a week day, how much less of the spirit of genuflexion and head-uncovering the clergyman will display than the layman! the parson pulls about the woodwork and knocks about the stonework, as though it were mere wood and stone; and talks aloud in the aisle, and treats even the reading-desk as a common thing; whereas the visitor whispers gently, and carries himself as though even in looking at a church he was bound to regard himself as performing some service that was half divine. now lily dale and grace crawley were both accustomed to churches, and had been so long at work in this church for the last two days, that the building had lost to them much of its sacredness, and they were almost as irreverent as though they were two curates. "i am so glad she has gone," said lily. "we shall have to stop here for the next hour, as gregory won't know what to take away and what to leave. i was so afraid she was going to stop and see us off the premises." "i don't know why you should dislike her." "i don't dislike her. i like her very well," said lily dale. "but don't you feel that there are people whom one knows very intimately, who are really friends,--for whom if they were dying one would grieve, whom if they were in misfortune one would go far to help, but with whom for all that one can have no sympathy. and yet they are so near to one that they know all the events of one's life, and are justified by unquestioned friendship in talking about things which should never be mentioned except where sympathy exists." "yes; i understand that." "everybody understands it who has been unhappy. that woman sometimes says things to me that make me wish,--wish that they'd make him bishop of patagonia. and yet she does it all in friendship, and mamma says that she is quite right." "i liked her for standing up for her husband." "but he does go to sleep,--and then he scratches his nose to show that he's awake. i shouldn't have said it, only she is always hinting at uncle christopher. uncle christopher certainly does go to sleep when mr. boyce preaches, and he hasn't studied any scientific little movements during his slumbers to make the people believe that he's all alive. i gave him a hint one day, and he got so angry with me!" "i shouldn't have thought he could have been angry with you. it seems to me from what you say that you may do whatever you please with him." "he is very good to me. if you knew it all,--if you could understand how good he has been! i'll try and tell you some day. it is not what he has done that makes me love him so,--but what he has thoroughly understood, and what, so understanding, he has not done, and what he has not said. it is a case of sympathy. if ever there was a gentleman uncle christopher is one. and i used to dislike him so, at one time!" "and why?" "chiefly because he would make me wear brown frocks when i wanted to have them pink or green. and he kept me for six months from having them long, and up to this day he scolds me if there is half an inch on the ground for him to tread upon." "i shouldn't mind that if i were you." "i don't,--not now. but it used to be serious when i was a young girl. and we thought, bell and i, that he was cross to mamma. he and mamma didn't agree at first, you know, as they do now. it is quite true that he did dislike mamma when we first came here." "i can't think how anybody could ever dislike mrs. dale." "but he did. and then he wanted to make up a marriage between bell and my cousin bernard. but neither of them cared a bit for the other, and then he used to scold them,--and then,--and then,--and then--oh, he was so good to me! here's gregory at last. gregory, we've been waiting this hour and a half." "it ain't ten minutes since hopkins let me come with the barrows, miss." "then hopkins is a traitor. never mind. you'd better begin now,--up there at the steps. it'll be quite dark in a few minutes. here's mrs. giles with her broom. come, mrs. giles; we shall have to pass the night here if you don't make haste. are you cold, grace?" "no; i'm not cold. i'm thinking what they are doing now in the church at hogglestock." "the hogglestock church is not pretty;--like this?" "oh, no. it is a very plain brick building, with something like a pigeon-house for a belfry. and the pulpit is over the reading-desk, and the reading-desk over the clerk, so that papa, when he preaches, is nearly up to the ceiling. and the whole place is divided into pews, in which the farmers hide themselves when they come to church." "so that nobody can see whether they go to sleep or no. oh, mrs. giles, you mustn't pull that down. that's what we have been putting up all day." "but it be in the way, miss; so that the minister can't budge in or out o' the door." "never mind. then he must stay one side or the other. that would be too much after all our trouble!" and miss dale hurried across the chancel to save some prettily arching boughs, which, in the judgment of mrs. giles, encroached too much on the vestry door. "as if it signified which side he was," she said in a whisper to grace. "i don't suppose they'll have anything in the church at home," said grace. "somebody will stick up a wreath or two, i daresay." "nobody will. there never is anybody at hogglestock to stick up wreaths, or to do anything for the prettinesses of life. and now there will be less done than ever. how can mamma look after holly-leaves in her present state? and yet she will miss them, too. poor mamma sees very little that is pretty; but she has not forgotten how pleasant pretty things are." "i wish i knew your mother, grace." "i think it would be impossible for any one to know mamma now,--for any one who had not known her before. she never makes even a new acquaintance. she seems to think that there is nothing left for her in the world but to try and keep papa out of misery. and she does not succeed in that. poor papa!" "is he very unhappy about this wicked accusation?" "yes; he is very unhappy. but, lily, i don't know about its being wicked." "but you know that it is untrue." "of course i know that papa did not mean to take anything that was not his own. but, you see, nobody knows where it came from; and nobody except mamma and jane and i understand how very absent papa can be. i'm sure he doesn't know the least in the world how he came by it himself, or he would tell mamma. do you know, lily, i think i have been wrong to come away." "don't say that, dear. remember how anxious mrs. crawley was that you should come." "but i cannot bear to be comfortable here while they are so wretched at home. it seems such a mockery. every time i find myself smiling at what you say to me, i think i must be the most heartless creature in the world." "is it so very bad with them, grace?" "indeed it is bad. i don't think you can imagine what mamma has to go through. she has to cook all that is eaten in the house, and then, very often, there is no money in the house to buy anything. if you were to see the clothes she wears, even that would make your heart bleed. i who have been used to being poor all my life,--even i, when i am at home, am dismayed by what she has to endure." "what can we do for her, grace?" "you can do nothing, lily. but when things are like that at home you can understand what i feel in being here." mrs. giles and gregory had now completed their task, or had so nearly done so as to make miss dale think that she might safely leave the church. "we will go in now," she said; "for it is dark and cold, and what i call creepy. do you ever fancy that perhaps you will see a ghost some day?" "i don't think i shall ever see a ghost; but all the same i should be half afraid to be here alone in the dark." "i am often here alone in the dark, but i am beginning to think i shall never see a ghost now. i am losing all my romance, and getting to be an old woman. do you know, grace, i do so hate myself for being such an old maid." "but who says you're an old maid, lily?" "i see it in people's eyes, and hear it in their voices. and they all talk to me as if i were very steady, and altogether removed from anything like fun and frolic. it seems to be admitted that if a girl does not want to fall in love, she ought not to care for any other fun in the world. if anybody made out a list of the old ladies in these parts, they'd put down lady julia, and mamma, and mrs. boyce, and me, and old mrs. hearne. the very children have an awful respect for me, and give over playing directly they see me. well, mamma, we've done at last, and i have had such a scolding from mrs. boyce." "i daresay you deserved it, my dear." "no, i did not, mamma. ask grace if i did." "was she not saucy to mrs. boyce, miss crawley?" "she said that mr. boyce scratches his nose in church," said grace. "so he does; and goes to sleep, too." "if you told mrs. boyce that, lily, i think she was quite right to scold you." such was miss lily dale, with whom grace crawley was staying;--lily dale with whom mr. john eames, of the income-tax office, had been so long and so steadily in love, that he was regarded among his fellow-clerks as a miracle of constancy,--who had, herself, in former days been so unfortunate in love as to have been regarded among her friends in the country as the most ill-used of women. as john eames had been able to be comfortable in life,--that is to say, not utterly a wretch,--in spite of his love, so had she managed to hold up her head, and live as other young women live, in spite of her misfortune. but as it may be said also that his constancy was true constancy, although he knew how to enjoy the good things of the world, so also had her misfortune been a true misfortune, although she had been able to bear it without much outer show of shipwreck. for a few days,--for a week or two, when the blow first struck her, she had been knocked down, and the friends who were nearest to her had thought that she would never again stand erect upon her feet. but she had been very strong, stout at heart, of a fixed purpose, and capable of resistance against oppression. even her own mother had been astonished, and sometimes almost dismayed, by the strength of her will. her mother knew well how it was with her now; but they who saw her frequently, and who did not know her as her mother knew her,--the mrs. boyces of her acquaintance,--whispered among themselves that lily dale was not so soft of heart as people used to think. on the next day, christmas day, as the reader will remember, grace crawley was taken up to dine at the big house with the old squire. mrs. dale's eldest daughter, with her husband, dr. crofts, was to be there; and also lily's old friend, who was also especially the old friend of johnny eames, lady julia de guest. grace had endeavoured to be excused from the party, pleading many pleas. but the upshot of all her pleas was this,--that while her father's position was so painful she ought not to go out anywhere. in answer to this, lily dale, corroborated by her mother, assured her that for her father's sake she ought not to exhibit any such feeling; that in doing so, she would seem to express a doubt as to her father's innocence. then she allowed herself to be persuaded, telling her friend, however, that she knew the day would be very miserable to her. "it will be very humdrum, if you please," said lily. "nothing can be more humdrum than christmas at the great house. nevertheless, you must go." coming out of church, grace was introduced to the old squire. he was a thin, old man, with grey hair, and the smallest possible grey whiskers, with a dry, solemn face; not carrying in his outward gait much of the customary jollity of christmas. he took his hat off to grace, and said some word to her as to hoping to have the pleasure of seeing her at dinner. it sounded very cold to her, and she became at once afraid of him. "i wish i was not going," she said to lily, again. "i know he thinks i ought not to go. i shall be so thankful if you will but let me stay." [illustration: grace crawley is introduced to squire dale.] "don't be foolish, grace. it all comes from your not knowing him, or understanding him. and how should you understand him? i give you my word that i would tell you if i did not know that he wishes you to go." she had to go. "of course i haven't a dress fit. how should i?" she said to lily. "how wrong it is of me to put myself up to such a thing as this." "your dress is beautiful, child. we are none of us going in evening dresses. pray believe that i will not make you do wrong. if you won't trust me, can't you trust mamma?" of course she went. when the three ladies entered the drawing-room of the great house they found that lady julia had arrived just before them. lady julia immediately took hold of lily, and led her apart, having a word or two to say about the clerk in the income-tax office. i am not sure but what the dear old woman sometimes said a few more words than were expedient, with a view to the object which she had so closely at heart. "john is to be with us the first week in february," she said. "i suppose you'll see him before that, as he'll probably be with his mother a few days before he comes to me." "i daresay we shall see him quite in time, lady julia," said lily. "now, lily, don't be ill-natured." "i'm the most good-natured young woman alive, lady julia, and as for johnny, he is always made as welcome at the small house as violets in march. mamma purrs about him when he comes, asking all manner of flattering questions as though he were a cabinet minister at least, and i always admire some little knicknack that he has got, a new ring, or a stud, or a button. there isn't another man in all the world whose buttons i'd look at." "it isn't his buttons, lily." "ah, that's just it. i can go as far as his buttons. but come, lady julia, this is christmas-time, and christmas should be a holiday." in the meantime mrs. dale was occupied with her married daughter and her son-in-law, and the squire had attached himself to poor grace. "you have never been in this part of the country before, miss crawley," he said. "no, sir." "it is rather pretty just about here, and guestwick manor is a fine place in its way, but we have not so much natural beauty as you have in barsetshire. chaldicote chase is, i think, as pretty as anything in england." "i never saw chaldicote chase, sir. it isn't pretty at all at hogglestock, where we live." "ah, i forgot. no; it is not very pretty at hogglestock. that's where the bricks come from." "papa is clergyman at hogglestock." "yes, yes; i remember. your father is a great scholar. i have often heard of him. i am so sorry he should be distressed by this charge they have made. but it will all come right at the assizes. they always get at the truth there. i used to be intimate with a clergyman in barsetshire of the name of grantly;"--grace felt that her ears were tingling, and that her face was red;--"archdeacon grantly. his father was bishop of the diocese." "yes, sir. archdeacon grantly lives at plumstead." "i was staying once with an old friend of mine, mr. thorne of ullathorne, who lives close to plumstead, and saw a good deal of them. i remember thinking henry grantly was a very nice lad. he married afterwards." "yes, sir; but his wife is dead now, and he has got a little girl,--edith grantly." "is there no other child?" "no, sir; only edith." "you know him, then?" "yes, sir; i know major grantly,--and edith. i never saw archdeacon grantly." "then, my dear, you never saw a very famous pillar of the church. i remember when people used to talk a great deal about archdeacon grantly; but when his time came to be made a bishop, he was not sufficiently new-fangled; and so he got passed by. he is much better off as he is, i should say. bishops have to work very hard, my dear." "do they, sir?" "so they tell me. and the archdeacon is a wealthy man. so henry grantly has got an only daughter? i hope she is a nice child, for i remember liking him well." "she is a very nice child, indeed, mr. dale. she could not be nicer. and she is so lovely." then mr. dale looked into his young companion's face, struck by the sudden animation of her words, and perceived for the first time that she was very pretty. after this grace became accustomed to the strangeness of the faces round her, and managed to eat her dinner without much perturbation of spirit. when after dinner the squire proposed to her that they should drink the health of her papa and mamma, she was almost reduced to tears, and yet she liked him for doing it. it was terrible to her to have them mentioned, knowing as she did that every one who mentioned them must be aware of their misery,--for the misfortune of her father had become notorious in the country; but it was almost more terrible to her that no allusion should be made to them; for then she would be driven to think that her father was regarded as a man whom the world could not afford to mention. "papa and mamma," she just murmured, raising her glass to her lips. "grace, dear," said lily from across the table, "here's papa and mamma, and the young man at marlborough who is carrying everything before him." "yes; we won't forget the young man at marlborough," said the squire. grace felt this to be good-natured, because her brother at marlborough was the one bright spot in her family,--and she was comforted. "and we will drink the health of my friend, john eames," said lady julia. "john eames' health," said the squire, in a low voice. "johnny's health," said mrs. dale; but mrs. dale's voice was not very brisk. "john's health," said dr. crofts and mrs. crofts in a breath. "here's the health of johnny eames," said lily; and her voice was the clearest and the boldest of them all. but she made up her mind that if lady julia could not be induced to spare her for the future, she and lady julia must quarrel. "no one can understand," she said to her mother that evening, "how dreadful it is,--this being constantly told before one's family and friends that one ought to marry a certain young man." "she didn't say that, my dear." "i should much prefer that she should, for then i could get up on my legs and answer her off the reel." of course everybody there understood what she meant,--including old john bates, who stood at the sideboard and coolly drank the toast himself. "he always does that to all the family toasts on christmas day. your uncle likes it." "that wasn't a family toast, and john bates had no right to drink it." after dinner they all played cards,--a round game,--and the squire put in the stakes. "now, grace," said lily, "you are the visitor and you must win, or else uncle christopher won't be happy. he always likes a young lady visitor to win." "but i never played a game of cards in my life." "go and sit next to him and he'll teach you. uncle christopher, won't you teach grace crawley? she never saw a pope joan board in her life before." "come here, my dear, and sit next to me. dear, dear, dear; fancy henry grantly having a little girl. what a handsome lad he was. and it seems only yesterday." if it was so that lily had said a word to her uncle about grace and the major, the old squire had become on a sudden very sly. be that as it may, grace crawley thought that he was a pleasant old man; and though, while talking to him about edith, she persisted in not learning to play pope joan, so that he could not contrive that she should win, nevertheless the squire took to her very kindly, and told her to come up with lily and see him sometimes while she was staying at the small house. the squire in speaking of his sister-in-law's cottage always called it the small house. "only think of my winning," said lady julia, drawing together her wealth. "well, i'm sure i want it bad enough, for i don't at all know whether i've got any income of my own. it's all john eames' fault, my dear, for he won't go and make those people settle it in lincoln's inn fields." poor lily, who was standing on the hearth-rug, touched her mother's arm. she knew that johnny's name was lugged in with reference to lady julia's money altogether for her benefit. "i wonder whether she ever had a johnny of her own," she said to her mother, "and, if so, whether she liked it when her friends sent the town-crier round to talk about him." "she means to be good-natured," said mrs. dale. "of course she does. but it is such a pity when people won't understand." "my uncle didn't bite you after all, grace," said lily to her friend as they were going home at night, by the pathway which led from the garden of one house to the garden of the other. "i like mr. dale very much," said grace. "he was very kind to me." "there is some queer-looking animal of whom they say that he is better than he looks, and i always think of that saying when i think of my uncle." "for shame, lily," said her mother. "your uncle, for his age, is as good a looking man as i know. and he always looks like just what he is,--an english gentleman." "i didn't mean to say a word against his dear old face and figure, mamma; but his heart, and mind, and general disposition, as they come out in experience and days of trial, are so much better than the samples of them which he puts out on the counter for men and women to judge by. he wears well, and he washes well,--if you know what i mean, grace." "yes; i think i know what you mean." "the apollos of the world,--i don't mean in outward looks, mamma,--but the apollos in heart, the men,--and the women too,--who are so full of feeling, so soft-natured, so kind, who never say a cross word, who never get out of bed on the wrong side in the morning,--it so often turns out that they won't wash." such was the expression of miss lily dale's experience. chapter xvii. mr. crawley is summoned to barchester. [illustration] the scene which occurred in hogglestock church on the sunday after mr. thumble's first visit to that parish had not been described with absolute accuracy either by the archdeacon in his letter to his son, or by mrs. thorne. there had been no footman from the palace in attendance on mr. thumble, nor had there been a battle with the brickmakers; neither had mr. thumble been put under the pump. but mr. thumble had gone over, taking his gown and surplice with him, on the sunday morning, and had intimated to mr. crawley his intention of performing the service. mr. crawley, in answer to this, had assured mr. thumble that he would not be allowed to open his mouth in the church; and mr. thumble, not seeing his way to any further successful action, had contented himself with attending the services in his surplice, making thereby a silent protest that he, and not mr. crawley, ought to have been in the reading-desk and the pulpit. when mr. thumble reported himself and his failure at the palace, he strove hard to avoid seeing mrs. proudie, but not successfully. he knew something of the palace habits, and did manage to reach the bishop alone on the sunday evening, justifying himself to his lordship for such an interview by the remarkable circumstances of the case and the importance of his late mission. mrs. proudie always went to church on sunday evenings, making a point of hearing three services and three sermons every sunday of her life. on week-days she seldom heard any, having an idea that week-day services were an invention of the high church enemy, and that they should therefore be vehemently discouraged. services on saints' days she regarded as rank papacy, and had been known to accuse a clergyman's wife, to her face, of idolatry, because the poor lady had dated a letter, st. john's eve. mr. thumble, on this sunday evening, was successful in finding the bishop at home, and alone, but he was not lucky enough to get away before mrs. proudie returned. the bishop, perhaps, thought that the story of the failure had better reach his wife's ears from mr. thumble's lips than from his own. "well, mr. thumble?" said mrs. proudie, walking into the study, armed in her full sunday-evening winter panoply, in which she had just descended from her carriage. the church which mrs. proudie attended in the evening was nearly half a mile from the palace, and the coachman and groom never got a holiday on sunday night. she was gorgeous in a dark brown silk dress of awful stiffness and terrible dimensions; and on her shoulders she wore a short cloak of velvet and fur, very handsome withal, but so swelling in its proportions on all sides as necessarily to create more of dismay than of admiration in the mind of any ordinary man. and her bonnet was a monstrous helmet with the beaver up, displaying the awful face of the warrior, always ready for combat, and careless to guard itself from attack. the large contorted bows which she bore were as a grisly crest upon her casque, beautiful, doubtless, but majestic and fear-compelling. in her hand she carried her armour all complete, a prayer-book, a bible, and a book of hymns. these the footman had brought for her to the study door, but she had thought fit to enter her husband's room with them in her own custody. "well, mr. thumble!" she said. mr. thumble did not answer at once, thinking, probably, that the bishop might choose to explain the circumstances. but, neither did the bishop say any thing. "well, mr. thumble?" she said again; and then she stood looking at the man who had failed so disastrously. "i have explained to the bishop," said he. "mr. crawley has been contumacious,--very contumacious indeed." "but you preached at hogglestock?" "no, indeed, mrs. proudie. nor would it have been possible, unless i had had the police to assist me." "then you should have had the police. i never heard of anything so mismanaged in all my life,--never in all my life." and she put her books down on the study table, and turned herself round from mr. thumble towards the bishop. "if things go on like this, my lord," she said, "your authority in the diocese will very soon be worth nothing at all." it was not often that mrs. proudie called her husband my lord, but when she did do so, it was a sign that terrible times had come;--times so terrible that the bishop would know that he must either fight or fly. he would almost endure anything rather than descend into the arena for the purpose of doing battle with his wife, but occasions would come now and again when even the alternative of flight was hardly left to him. "but, my dear,--" began the bishop. "am i to understand that this man has professed himself to be altogether indifferent to the bishop's prohibition?" said mrs. proudie, interrupting her husband and addressing mr. thumble. "quite so. he seemed to think that the bishop had no lawful power in the matter at all," said mr. thumble. "do you hear that, my lord?" said mrs. proudie. "nor have i any," said the bishop, almost weeping as he spoke. "no authority in your own diocese!" "none to silence a man merely by my own judgment. i thought, and still think, that it was for this gentleman's own interest, as well as for the credit of the church, that some provision should be made for his duties during his present,--present--difficulties." "difficulties indeed! everybody knows that the man has been a thief." "no, my dear; i do not know it." "you never know anything, bishop." "i mean to say that i do not know it officially. of course i have heard the sad story; and, though i hope it may not be the--" "there is no doubt about its truth. all the world knows it. he has stolen twenty pounds, and yet he is to be allowed to desecrate the church, and imperil the souls of the people!" the bishop got up from his chair and began to walk backwards and forwards through the room with short quick steps. "it only wants five days to christmas day," continued mrs. proudie, "and something must be done at once. i say nothing as to the propriety or impropriety of his being out on bail, as it is no affair of ours. when i heard that he had been bailed by a beneficed clergyman of this diocese, of course i knew where to look for the man who would act with so much impropriety. of course i was not surprised when i found that that person belonged to framley. but, as i have said before, that is no business of ours. i hope, mr. thumble, that the bishop will never be found interfering with the ordinary laws of the land. i am very sure that he will never do so by my advice. but when there comes a question of inhibiting a clergyman who has committed himself as this clergyman unfortunately has done, then i say that that clergyman ought to be inhibited." the bishop walked up and down the room throughout the whole of this speech, but gradually his steps became quicker, and his turns became shorter. "and now here is christmas day upon us, and what is to be done?" with these words mrs. proudie finished her speech. "mr. thumble," said the bishop, "perhaps you had better now retire. i am very sorry that you should have had so thankless and so disagreeable a task." "why should mr. thumble retire?" asked mrs. proudie. "i think it better," said the bishop. "mr. thumble, good night." then mr. thumble did retire, and mrs. proudie stood forth in her full panoply of armour, silent and awful, with her helmet erect, and vouchsafed no recognition whatever of the parting salutation with which mr. thumble greeted her. "my dear, the truth is, you do not understand the matter," said the bishop as soon as the door was closed. "you do not know how limited is my power." "bishop, i understand it a great deal better than some people; and i understand also what is due to myself and the manner in which i ought to be treated by you in the presence of the subordinate clergy of the diocese. i shall not, however, remain here to be insulted either in the presence or in the absence of any one." then the conquered amazon collected together the weapons which she had laid upon the table, and took her departure with majestic step, and not without the clang of arms. the bishop, when he was left alone, enjoyed for a few moments the triumph of his victory. but then he was left so very much alone! when he looked round about him upon his solitude after the departure of his wife, and remembered that he should not see her again till he should encounter her on ground that was all her own, he regretted his own success, and was tempted to follow her and to apologize. he was unable to do anything alone. he would not even know how to get his tea, as the very servants would ask questions, if he were to do so unaccustomed a thing as to order it to be brought up to him in his solitude. they would tell him that mrs. proudie was having tea in her little sitting-room upstairs, or else that the things were laid in the drawing-room. he did wander forth to the latter apartment, hoping that he might find his wife there; but the drawing-room was dark and deserted, and so he wandered back again. it was a grand thing certainly to have triumphed over his wife, and there was a crumb of comfort in the thought that he had vindicated himself before mr. thumble; but the general result was not comforting, and he knew from of old how short-lived his triumph would be. but wretched as he was during that evening he did employ himself with some energy. after much thought he resolved that he would again write to mr. crawley, and summon him to appear at the palace. in doing this he would at any rate be doing something. there would be action. and though mr. crawley would, as he thought, decline to obey the order, something would be gained even by that disobedience. so he wrote his summons,--sitting very comfortless and all alone on that sunday evening,--dating his letter, however, for the following day:-- palace, december , --. reverend sir, i have just heard from mr. thumble that you have declined to accede to the advice which i thought it my duty to tender to you as the bishop who has been set over you by the church, and that you yesterday insisted on what you believed to be your right, to administer the services in the parish church of hogglestock. this has occasioned me the deepest regret. it is, i think, unavailing that i should further write to you my mind upon the subject, as i possess such strong evidence that my written word will not be respected by you. i have, therefore, no alternative now but to invite you to come to me here; and this i do, hoping that i may induce you to listen to that authority which i cannot but suppose you acknowledge to be vested in the office which i hold. i shall be glad to see you on to-morrow, tuesday, as near the hour of two as you can make it convenient to yourself to be here, and i will take care to order that refreshment shall be provided for yourself and your horse. i am, reverend sir, &c. &c. &c., thos. barnum. "my dear," he said, when he did again encounter his wife that night, "i have written to mr. crawley, and i thought i might as well bring up the copy of my letter." "i wash my hands of the whole affair," said mrs. proudie--"of the whole affair!" "but you will look at the letter?" "certainly not. why should i look at the letter? my word goes for nothing. i have done what i could, but in vain. now let us see how you will manage it yourself." the bishop did not pass a comfortable night; but in the morning his wife did read his letter, and after that things went a little smoother with him. she was pleased to say that, considering all things; seeing, as she could not help seeing, that the matter had been dreadfully mismanaged, and that great weakness had been displayed;--seeing that these faults had already been committed, perhaps no better step could now be taken than that proposed in the letter. "i suppose he will not come," said the bishop. "i think he will," said mrs. proudie, "and i trust that we may be able to convince him that obedience will be his best course. he will be more humble-minded here than at hogglestock." in saying this the lady showed some knowledge of the general nature of clergymen and of the world at large. she understood how much louder a cock can crow in its own farmyard than elsewhere, and knew that episcopal authority, backed by all the solemn awe of palatial grandeur, goes much further than it will do when sent under the folds of an ordinary envelope. but though she understood ordinary human nature, it may be that she did not understand mr. crawley's nature. but she was at any rate right in her idea as to mr. crawley's immediate reply. the palace groom who rode over to hogglestock returned with an immediate answer. "my lord"--said mr. crawley. i will obey your lordship's summons, and, unless impediments should arise, i will wait upon your lordship at the hour you name to-morrow. i will not trespass on your hospitality. for myself, i rarely break bread in any house but my own; and as to the horse, i have none. i have the honour to be, my lord, &c. &c., josiah crawley. "of course i shall go," he had said to his wife as soon as he had had time to read the letter, and make known to her the contents. "i shall go if it be possible for me to get there. i think that i am bound to comply with the bishop's wishes in so much as that." "but how will you get there, josiah?" "i will walk,--with the lord's aid." now hogglestock was fifteen miles from barchester, and mr. crawley was, as his wife well knew, by no means fitted in his present state for great physical exertion. but from the tone in which he had replied to her, she well knew that it would not avail for her to remonstrate at the moment. he had walked more than thirty miles in a day since they had been living at hogglestock, and she did not doubt but that it might be possible for him to do it again. any scheme, which she might be able to devise for saving him from so terrible a journey in the middle of winter, must be pondered over silently, and brought to bear, if not slyly, at least deftly, and without discussion. she made no reply therefore when he declared that on the following day he would walk to barchester and back,--with the lord's aid; nor did she see, or ask to see the note which he sent to the bishop. when the messenger was gone, mr. crawley was all alert, looking forward with evident glee to his encounter with the bishop,--snorting like a racehorse at the expected triumph of the coming struggle. and he read much greek with jane on that afternoon, pouring into her young ears, almost with joyous rapture, his appreciation of the glory and the pathos and the humanity, as also of the awful tragedy, of the story of oedipus. his very soul was on fire at the idea of clutching the weak bishop in his hand, and crushing him with his strong grasp. in the afternoon mrs. crawley slipped out to a neighbouring farmer's wife, and returned in an hour's time with a little story which she did not tell with any appearance of eager satisfaction. she had learned well what were the little tricks necessary to the carrying of such a matter as that which she had now in hand. mr. mangle, the farmer, as it happened, was going to-morrow morning in his tax-cart as far as framley mill, and would be delighted if mr. crawley would take a seat. he must remain at framley the best part of the afternoon, and hoped that mr. crawley would take a seat back again. now framley mill was only half a mile off the direct road to barchester, and was almost half way from hogglestock parsonage to the city. this would, at any rate, bring the walk within a practicable distance. mr. crawley was instantly placed upon his guard, like an animal that sees the bait and suspects the trap. had he been told that farmer mangle was going all the way to barchester, nothing would have induced him to get into the cart. he would have felt sure that farmer mangle had been persuaded to pity him in his poverty and his strait, and he would sooner have started to walk to london than have put a foot upon the step of the cart. but this lift half way did look to him as though it were really fortuitous. his wife could hardly have been cunning enough to persuade the farmer to go to framley, conscious that the trap would have been suspected had the bait been made more full. but i fear,--i fear the dear good woman had been thus cunning,--had understood how far the trap might be baited, and had thus succeeded in catching her prey. on the following morning he consented to get into farmer mangle's cart, and was driven as far as framley mill. "i wouldn't think nowt, your reverence, of running you over into barchester,--that i wouldn't. the powny is so mortial good," said farmer mangle in his foolish good-nature. [illustration: farmer mangle and mr. crawley.] "and how about your business here?" said mr. crawley. the farmer scratched his head, remembering all mrs. crawley's injunctions, and awkwardly acknowledged that to be sure his own business with the miller was very pressing. then mr. crawley descended, terribly suspicious, and went on his journey. "anyways, your reverence will call for me coming back?" said farmer mangle. but mr. crawley would make no promise. he bade the farmer not wait for him. if they chanced to meet together on the road he might get up again. if the man really had business at framley, how could he have offered to go on to barchester? were they deceiving him? the wife of his bosom had deceived him in such matters before now. but his trouble in this respect was soon dissipated by the pride of his anticipated triumph over the bishop. he took great glory from the thought that he would go before the bishop with dirty boots,--with boots necessarily dirty,--with rusty pantaloons, that he would be hot and mud-stained with his walk, hungry, and an object to be wondered at by all who should see him, because of the misfortunes which had been unworthily heaped upon his head; whereas the bishop would be sleek and clean and well-fed,--pretty with all the prettinesses that are becoming to a bishop's outward man. and he, mr. crawley, would be humble, whereas the bishop would be very proud. and the bishop would be in his own arm-chair,--the cock in his own farmyard, while he, mr. crawley, would be seated afar off, in the cold extremity of the room, with nothing of outward circumstances to assist him,--a man called thither to undergo censure. and yet he would take the bishop in his grasp and crush him,--crush him,--crush him! as he thought of this he walked quickly through the mud, and put out his long arm and his great hand, far before him out into the air, and, there and then, he crushed the bishop in his imagination. yes, indeed! he thought it very doubtful whether the bishop would ever send for him a second time. as all this passed through his mind, he forgot his wife's cunning, and farmer mangle's sin, and for the moment he was happy. as he turned a corner round by lord lufton's park paling, who should he meet but his old friend mr. robarts, the parson of framley,--the parson who had committed the sin of being bail for him,--the sin, that is, according to mrs. proudie's view of the matter. he was walking with his hand still stretched out,--still crushing the bishop, when mr. robarts was close upon him. "what, crawley! upon my word i am very glad to see you; you are coming up to me, of course?" "thank you, mr. robarts; no, not to-day. the bishop has summoned me to his presence, and i am on my road to barchester." "but how are you going?" "i shall walk." "walk to barchester. impossible!" "i hope not quite impossible, mr. robarts. i trust i shall get as far before two o'clock; but to do so i must be on my road." then he showed signs of a desire to go on upon his way without further parley. "but, crawley, do let me send you over. there is the horse and gig doing nothing." "thank you, mr. robarts; no. i should prefer the walk to-day." "and you have walked from hogglestock?" "no;--not so. a neighbour coming hither, who happened to have business at your mill,--he brought me so far in his cart. the walk home will be nothing,--nothing. i shall enjoy it. good morning, mr. robarts." but mr. robarts thought of the dirty road, and of the bishop's presence, and of his own ideas of what would be becoming for a clergyman,--and persevered. "you will find the lanes so very muddy; and our bishop, you know, is apt to notice such things. do be persuaded." "notice what things?" demanded mr. crawley, in an indignant tone. "he, or perhaps she rather, will say how dirty your shoes were when you came to the palace." "if he, or she, can find nothing unclean about me but my shoes, let them say their worst. i shall be very indifferent. i have long ceased, mr. robarts, to care much what any man or woman may say about my shoes. good morning." then he stalked on, clutching and crushing in his hand the bishop, and the bishop's wife, and the whole diocese,--and all the church of england. dirty shoes, indeed! whose was the fault that there were in the church so many feet soiled by unmerited poverty, and so many hands soiled by undeserved wealth? if the bishop did not like his shoes, let the bishop dare to tell him so! so he walked on through the thick of the mud, by no means picking his way. he walked fast, and he found himself in the close half an hour before the time named by the bishop. but on no account would he have rung the palace bell one minute before two o'clock. so he walked up and down under the towers of the cathedral, and cooled himself, and looked up at the pleasant plate-glass in the windows of the house of his friend the dean, and told himself how, in their college days, he and the dean had been quite equal,--quite equal, except that by the voices of all qualified judges in the university, he, mr. crawley, had been acknowledged to be the riper scholar. and now the mr. arabin of those days was dean of barchester,--travelling abroad luxuriously at this moment for his delight, while he, crawley, was perpetual curate at hogglestock, and had now walked into barchester at the command of the bishop, because he was suspected of having stolen twenty pounds! when he had fully imbued his mind with the injustice of all this, his time was up, and he walked boldly to the bishop's gate, and boldly rang the bishop's bell. chapter xviii. the bishop of barchester is crushed. who inquires why it is that a little greased flour rubbed in among the hair on a footman's head,--just one dab here and another there,--gives such a tone of high life to the family? and seeing that the thing is so easily done, why do not more people attempt it? the tax on hair-powder is but thirteen shillings a year. it may, indeed, be that the slightest dab in the world justifies the wearer in demanding hot meat three times a day, and wine at any rate on sundays. i think, however, that a bishop's wife may enjoy the privilege without such heavy attendant expense; otherwise the man who opened the bishop's door to mr. crawley would hardly have been so ornamented. the man asked for a card. "my name is mr. crawley," said our friend. "the bishop has desired me to come to him at this hour. will you be pleased to tell him that i am here." the man again asked for a card. "i am not bound to carry with me my name printed on a ticket," said mr. crawley. "if you cannot remember it, give me pen and paper, and i will write it." the servant, somewhat awed by the stranger's manner, brought the pen and paper, and mr. crawley wrote his name:-- the rev. josiah crawley, m.a., _perpetual curate of hogglestock._ he was then ushered into a waiting-room, but, to his disappointment, was not kept there waiting long. within three minutes he was ushered into the bishop's study, and into the presence of the two great luminaries of the diocese. he was at first somewhat disconcerted by finding mrs. proudie in the room. in the imaginary conversation with the bishop which he had been preparing on the road, he had conceived that the bishop would be attended by a chaplain, and he had suited his words to the joint discomfiture of the bishop and of the lower clergyman;--but now the line of his battle must be altered. this was no doubt an injury, but he trusted to his courage and readiness to enable him to surmount it. he had left his hat behind him in the waiting-room, but he kept his old short cloak still upon his shoulders; and when he entered the bishop's room his hands and arms were hid beneath it. there was something lowly in this constrained gait. it showed at least that he had no idea of being asked to shake hands with the august persons he might meet. and his head was somewhat bowed, though his great, bald, broad forehead showed itself so prominent, that neither the bishop nor mrs. proudie could drop it from their sight during the whole interview. he was a man who when seen could hardly be forgotten. the deep angry remonstrant eyes, the shaggy eyebrows, telling tales of frequent anger,--of anger frequent but generally silent,--the repressed indignation of the habitual frown, the long nose and large powerful mouth, the deep furrows on the cheek, and the general look of thought and suffering, all combined to make the appearance of the man remarkable, and to describe to the beholders at once his true character. no one ever on seeing mr. crawley took him to be a happy man, or a weak man, or an ignorant man, or a wise man. "you are very punctual, mr. crawley," said the bishop. mr. crawley simply bowed his head, still keeping his hands beneath his cloak. "will you not take a chair nearer to the fire?" mr. crawley had not seated himself, but had placed himself in front of a chair at the extreme end of the room,--resolved that he would not use it unless he were duly asked. "thank you, my lord," he said, "i am warm with walking, and, if you please, will avoid the fire." "you have not walked, mr. crawley?" "yes, my lord. i have been walking." "not from hogglestock!" now this was a matter which mr. crawley certainly did not mean to discuss with the bishop. it might be well for the bishop to demand his presence in the palace, but it could be no part of the bishop's duty to inquire how he got there. "that, my lord, is a matter of no moment," said he. "i am glad at any rate that i have been enabled to obey your lordship's order in coming hither on this morning." hitherto mrs. proudie had not said a word. she stood back in the room, near the fire,--more backward a good deal than she was accustomed to do when clergymen made their ordinary visits. on such occasions she would come forward and shake hands with them graciously,--graciously even, if proudly; but she had felt that she must do nothing of that kind now; there must be no shaking hands with a man who had stolen a cheque for twenty pounds! it might probably be necessary to keep mr. crawley at a distance, and therefore she had remained in the background. but mr. crawley seemed to be disposed to keep himself in the background, and therefore she could speak. "i hope your wife and children are well, mr. crawley," she said. "thank you, madam, my children are well, and mrs. crawley suffers no special ailment at present." "that is much to be thankful for, mr. crawley." whether he were or were not thankful for such mercies as these was no business of the bishop or of the bishop's wife. that was between him and his god. so he would not even bow to this civility, but sat with his head erect, and with a great frown on his heavy brow. then the bishop rose from his chair to speak, intending to take up a position on the rug. but as he did so mr. crawley, who had seated himself on an intimation that he was expected to sit down, rose also, and the bishop found that he would thus lose his expected vantage. "will you not be seated, mr. crawley?" said the bishop. mr. crawley smiled, but stood his ground. then the bishop returned to his arm-chair, and mr. crawley also sat down again. "mr. crawley," began the bishop, "this matter which came the other day before the magistrates at silverbridge has been a most unfortunate affair. it has given me, i can assure you, the most sincere pain." mr. crawley had made up his mind how far the bishop should be allowed to go without a rebuke. he had told himself that it would only be natural, and would not be unbecoming, that the bishop should allude to the meeting of the magistrates and to the alleged theft, and that therefore such allusion should be endured with patient humility. and, moreover, the more rope he gave the bishop, the more likely the bishop would be to entangle himself. it certainly was mr. crawley's wish that the bishop should entangle himself. he, therefore, replied very meekly, "it has been most unfortunate, my lord." "i have felt for mrs. crawley very deeply," said mrs. proudie. mr. crawley had now made up his mind that as long as it was possible he would ignore the presence of mrs. proudie altogether; and, therefore, he made no sign that he had heard the latter remark. "it has been most unfortunate," continued the bishop. "i have never before had a clergyman in my diocese placed in so distressing a position." "that is a matter of opinion, my lord," said mr. crawley, who at that moment thought of a crisis which had come in the life of another clergyman in the diocese of barchester, with the circumstances of which he had by chance been made acquainted. "exactly," said the bishop. "and i am expressing my opinion." mr. crawley, who understood fighting, did not think that the time had yet come for striking a blow, so he simply bowed again. "a most unfortunate position, mr. crawley," continued the bishop. "far be it from me to express an opinion upon the matter, which will have to come before a jury of your countrymen. it is enough for me to know that the magistrates assembled at silverbridge, gentlemen to whom no doubt you must be known, as most of them live in your neighbourhood, have heard evidence upon the subject--" "most convincing evidence," said mrs. proudie, interrupting her husband. mr. crawley's black brow became a little blacker as he heard the word, but still he ignored the woman. he not only did not speak, but did not turn his eye upon her. "they have heard the evidence on the subject," continued the bishop, "and they have thought it proper to refer the decision as to your innocence or your guilt to a jury of your countrymen." "and they were right," said mr. crawley. "very possibly. i don't deny it. probably," said the bishop, whose eloquence was somewhat disturbed by mr. crawley's ready acquiescence. "of course they were right," said mrs. proudie. "at any rate it is so," said the bishop. "you are in the position of a man amenable to the criminal laws of the land." "there are no criminal laws, my lord," said mr. crawley; "but to such laws as there are we are all amenable,--your lordship and i alike." "but you are so in a very particular way. i do not wish to remind you what might be your condition now, but for the interposition of private friends." "i should be in the condition of a man not guilty before the law;--guiltless, as far as the law goes,--but kept in durance, not for faults of his own, but because otherwise, by reason of laches in the police, his presence at the assizes might not be ensured. in such a position a man's reputation is made to hang for awhile on the trust which some friends or neighbours may have in it. i do not say that the test is a good one." "you would have been put in prison, mr. crawley, because the magistrates were of opinion that you had taken mr. soames's cheque," said mrs. proudie. on this occasion he did look at her. he turned one glance upon her from under his eyebrows, but he did not speak. "with all that i have nothing to do," said the bishop. "nothing whatever, my lord," said mr. crawley. "but, bishop, i think that you have," said mrs. proudie. "the judgment formed by the magistrates as to the conduct of one of your clergymen makes it imperative upon you to act in the matter." "yes, my dear, yes; i am coming to that. what mrs. proudie says is perfectly true. i have been constrained most unwillingly to take action in this matter. it is undoubtedly the fact that you must at the next assizes surrender yourself at the court-house yonder, to be tried for this offence against the laws." "that is true. if i be alive, my lord, and have strength sufficient, i shall be there." "you must be there," said mrs. proudie. "the police will look to that, mr. crawley." she was becoming very angry in that the man would not answer her a word. on this occasion again he did not even look at her. "yes; you will be there," said the bishop. "now that is, to say the least of it, an unseemly position for a beneficed clergyman." "you said before, my lord, that it was an unfortunate position, and the word, methinks, was better chosen." "it is very unseemly, very unseemly indeed," said mrs. proudie; "nothing could possibly be more unseemly. the bishop might very properly have used a much stronger word." "under these circumstances," continued the bishop, "looking to the welfare of your parish, to the welfare of the diocese, and allow me to say, mr. crawley, to the welfare of yourself also--" "and especially to the souls of the people," said mrs. proudie. the bishop shook his head. it is hard to be impressively eloquent when one is interrupted at every best turned period, even by a supporting voice. "yes;--and looking of course to the religious interests of your people, mr. crawley, i came to the conclusion that it would be expedient that you should cease your ministrations for awhile." the bishop paused, and mr. crawley bowed his head. "i, therefore, sent over to you a gentleman with whom i am well acquainted, mr. thumble, with a letter from myself, in which i endeavoured to impress upon you, without the use of any severe language, what my convictions were." "severe words are often the best mercy," said mrs. proudie. mr. crawley had raised his hand, with his finger out, preparatory to answering the bishop. but as mrs. proudie had spoken he dropped his finger and was silent. "mr. thumble brought me back your written reply," continued the bishop, "by which i was grieved to find that you were not willing to submit yourself to my counsel in the matter." "i was most unwilling, my lord. submission to authority is at times a duty;--and at times opposition to authority is a duty also." "opposition to just authority cannot be a duty, mr. crawley." "opposition to usurped authority is an imperative duty," said mr. crawley. "and who is to be the judge?" demanded mrs. proudie. then there was silence for a while; when, as mr. crawley made no reply, the lady repeated her question. "will you be pleased to answer my question, sir? who, in such a case, is to be the judge?" but mr. crawley did not please to answer her question. "the man is obstinate," said mrs. proudie. "i had better proceed," said the bishop. "mr. thumble brought me back your reply, which grieved me greatly." "it was contumacious and indecent," said mrs. proudie. the bishop again shook his head and looked so unutterably miserable that a smile came across mr. crawley's face. after all, others besides himself had their troubles and trials. mrs. proudie saw and understood the smile, and became more angry than ever. she drew her chair close to the table, and began to fidget with her fingers among the papers. she had never before encountered a clergyman so contumacious, so indecent, so unreverend,--so upsetting. she had had to do with men difficult to manage;--the archdeacon for instance; but the archdeacon had never been so impertinent to her as this man. she had quarrelled once openly with a chaplain of her husband's, a clergyman whom she herself had introduced to her husband, and who had treated her very badly;--but not so badly, not with such unscrupulous violence, as she was now encountering from this ill-clothed beggarly man, this perpetual curate, with his dirty broken boots, this already half-convicted thief! such was her idea of mr. crawley's conduct to her, while she was fingering the papers,--simply because mr. crawley would not speak to her. "i forget where i was," said the bishop. "oh. mr. thumble came back, and i received your letter;--of course i received it. and i was surprised to learn from that, that in spite of what had occurred at silverbridge, you were still anxious to continue the usual sunday ministrations in your church." "i was determined that i would do my duty at hogglestock, as long as i might be left there to do it," said mr. crawley. "duty!" said mrs. proudie. "just a moment, my dear," said the bishop. "when sunday came, i had no alternative but to send mr. thumble over again to hogglestock. it occurred to us,--to me and mrs. proudie,--" "i will tell mr. crawley just now what has occurred to me," said mrs. proudie. "yes;--just so. and i am sure that he will take it in good part. it occurred to me, mr. crawley, that your first letter might have been written in haste." "it was written in haste, my lord; your messenger was waiting." "yes;--just so. well; so i sent him again, hoping that he might be accepted as a messenger of peace. it was a most disagreeable mission for any gentleman, mr. crawley." "most disagreeable, my lord." "and you refused him permission to obey the instructions which i had given him! you would not let him read from your desk, or preach from your pulpit." "had i been mr. thumble," said mrs. proudie, "i would have read from that desk and i would have preached from that pulpit." mr. crawley waited a moment, thinking that the bishop might perhaps speak again; but as he did not, but sat expectant as though he had finished his discourse, and now expected a reply, mr. crawley got up from his seat and drew near to the table. "my lord," he began, "it has all been just as you have said. i did answer your first letter in haste." "the more shame for you," said mrs. proudie. "and therefore, for aught i know, my letter to your lordship may be so worded as to need some apology." "of course it needs an apology," said mrs. proudie. "but for the matter of it, my lord, no apology can be made, nor is any needed. i did refuse to your messenger permission to perform the services of my church, and if you send twenty more, i shall refuse them all,--till the time may come when it will be your lordship's duty, in accordance with the laws of the church,--as borne out and backed by the laws of the land, to provide during my constrained absence for the spiritual wants of those poor people at hogglestock." "poor people, indeed," said mrs. proudie. "poor wretches!" "and, my lord, it may well be, that it shall soon be your lordship's duty to take due and legal steps for depriving me of my benefice at hogglestock;--nay, probably, for silencing me altogether as to the exercise of my sacred profession!" "of course it will, sir. your gown will be taken from you," said mrs. proudie. the bishop was looking with all his eyes up at the great forehead and great eyebrows of the man, and was so fascinated by the power that was exercised over him by the other man's strength that he hardly now noticed his wife. "it may well be so," continued mr. crawley. "the circumstances are strong against me; and, though your lordship has altogether misunderstood the nature of the duty performed by the magistrates in sending my case for trial,--although, as it seems to me, you have come to conclusions in this matter in ignorance of the very theory of our laws,--" "sir!" said mrs. proudie. "yet i can foresee the probability that a jury may discover me to have been guilty of theft." "of course the jury will do so," said mrs. proudie. "should such verdict be given, then, my lord, your interference will be legal, proper, and necessary. and you will find that, even if it be within my power to oppose obstacles to your lordship's authority, i will oppose no such obstacle. there is, i believe, no appeal in criminal cases." "none at all," said mrs. proudie. "there is no appeal against your bishop. you should have learned that before." "but till that time shall come, my lord, i shall hold my own at hogglestock as you hold your own here at barchester. nor have you more power to turn me out of my pulpit by your mere voice, than i have to turn you out of your throne by mine. if you doubt me, my lord, your lordship's ecclesiastical court is open to you. try it there." "you defy us, then?" said mrs. proudie. "my lord, i grant your authority as bishop to be great, but even a bishop can only act as the law allows him." "god forbid that i should do more," said the bishop. "sir, you will find that your wicked threats will fall back upon your own head," said mrs. proudie. "peace, woman," mr. crawley said, addressing her at last. the bishop jumped out of his chair at hearing the wife of his bosom called a woman. but he jumped rather in admiration than in anger. he had already begun to perceive that mr. crawley was a man who had better be left to take care of the souls at hogglestock, at any rate till the trial should come on. "woman!" said mrs. proudie, rising to her feet as though she really intended some personal encounter. "madam," said mr. crawley, "you should not interfere in these matters. you simply debase your husband's high office. the distaff were more fitting for you. my lord, good morning." and before either of them could speak again, he was out of the room, and through the hall, and beyond the gate, and standing beneath the towers of the cathedral. yes, he had, he thought, in truth crushed the bishop. he had succeeded in crumpling the bishop up within the clutch of his fist. he started in a spirit of triumph to walk back on his road towards hogglestock. he did not think of the long distance before him for the first hour of his journey. he had had his victory, and the remembrance of that braced his nerves and gave elasticity to his sinews, and he went stalking along the road with rapid strides, muttering to himself from time to time as he went along some word about mrs. proudie and her distaff. mr. thumble would not, he thought, come to him again,--not, at any rate, till the assizes were drawing near. and he had resolved what he would do then. when the day of his trial was near, he would himself write to the bishop, and beg that provision might be made for his church, in the event of the verdict going against him. his friend, dean arabin, was to be home before that time, and the idea had occurred to him of asking the dean to see to this; but now the other would be the more independent course, and the better. and there was a matter as to which he was not altogether well pleased with the dean, although he was so conscious of his own peculiarities as to know that he could hardly trust himself for a judgment. but, at any rate, he would apply to the bishop,--to the bishop whom he had just left prostrate in his palace,--when the time of his trial should be close at hand. full of such thoughts as these he went along almost gaily, nor felt the fatigue of the road till he had covered the first five miles out of barchester. it was nearly four o'clock, and the thick gloom of the winter evening was making itself felt. and then he began to be fatigued. he had not as yet eaten since he had left his home in the morning, and he now pulled a crust out of his pocket and leaned against a gate as he crunched it. there were still ten miles before him, and he knew that such an addition to the work he had already done would task him very severely. farmer mangle had told him that he would not leave framley mill till five, and he had got time to reach framley mill by that time. but he had said that he would not return to framley mill, and he remembered his suspicion that his wife and farmer mangle between them had cozened him. no; he would persevere and walk,--walk, though he should drop upon the road. he was now nearer fifty than forty years of age, and hardships as well as time had told upon him. he knew that though his strength was good for the commencement of a hard day's work, it would not hold out for him as it used to do. he knew that the last four miles in the dark night would be very sad with him. but still he persevered, endeavouring, as he went, to cherish himself with the remembrance of his triumph. he passed the turning going down to framley with courage, but when he came to the further turning, by which the cart would return from framley to the hogglestock road, he looked wistfully down the road for farmer mangle. but farmer mangle was still at the mill, waiting in expectation that mr. crawley might come to him. but the poor traveller paused here barely for a minute, and then went on, stumbling through the mud, striking his ill-covered feet against the rough stones in the dark, sweating in his weakness, almost tottering at times, and calculating whether his remaining strength would serve to carry him home. he had almost forgotten the bishop and his wife before at last he grasped the wicket gate leading to his own door. "oh, mamma, here is papa!" "but where is the cart? i did not hear the wheels," said mrs. crawley. "oh, mamma, i think papa is ill." then the wife took her drooping husband by both arms and strove to look him in the face. "he has walked all the way, and he is ill," said jane. "no, my dear, i am very tired, but not ill. let me sit down, and give me some bread and tea, and i shall recover myself." then mrs. crawley, from some secret hoard, got him a small modicum of spirits, and gave him meat and tea, and he was docile; and, obeying her behests, allowed himself to be taken to his bed. "i do not think the bishop will send for me again," he said, as she tucked the clothes around him. chapter xix. where did it come from? when christmas morning came no emissary from the bishop appeared at hogglestock to interfere with the ordinary performance of the day's services. "i think we need fear no further disturbance," mr. crawley said to his wife,--and there was no further disturbance. on the day after his walk from framley to barchester, and from barchester back to hogglestock, mr. crawley had risen not much the worse for his labour, and had gradually given to his wife a full account of what had taken place. "a poor weak man," he said, speaking of the bishop. "a poor weak creature, and much to be pitied." "i have always heard that she is a violent woman." "very violent, and very ignorant; and most intrusive withal." "and you did not answer her a word?" "at last my forbearance with her broke down, and i bade her mind her distaff." "what;--really? did you say those words to her?" "nay; as for my exact words i cannot remember them. i was thinking more of the words with which it might be fitting that i should answer the bishop. but i certainly told her that she had better mind her distaff." "and how did she behave then?" "i did not wait to see. the bishop had spoken, and i had replied; and why should i tarry to behold the woman's violence? i had told him that he was wrong in law, and that i at least would not submit to usurped authority. there was nothing to keep me longer, and so i went without much ceremony of leave-taking. there had been little ceremony of greeting on their part, and there was less in the making of adieux on mine. they had told me that i was a thief--" "no, josiah,--surely not so? they did not use that very word?" "i say they did;--they did use the very word. but stop. i am wrong. i wrong his lordship, and i crave pardon for having done so. if my memory serve me, no expression so harsh escaped from the bishop's mouth. he gave me, indeed, to understand more than once that the action taken by the magistrates was tantamount to a conviction, and that i must be guilty because they had decided that there was evidence sufficient to justify a trial. but all that arose from my lord's ignorance of the administration of the laws of his country. he was very ignorant,--puzzle-pated, as you may call it,--led by the nose by his wife, weak as water, timid, and vacillating. but he did not wish, i think, to be insolent. it was mrs. proudie who told me to my face that i was a--thief." "may she be punished for the cruel word!" said mrs. crawley. "may the remembrance that she has spoken it come, some day, heavily upon her heart!" "'vengeance is mine. i will repay,' saith the lord," answered mr. crawley. "we may safely leave all that alone, and rid our minds of such wishes, if it be possible. it is well, i think, that violent offences, when committed, should be met by instant rebuke. to turn the other cheek instantly to the smiter can hardly be suitable in these days, when the hands of so many are raised to strike. but the return blow should be given only while the smart remains. she hurt me then; but what is it to me now, that she called me a thief to my face? do i not know that, all the country round, men and women are calling me the same behind my back?" "no, josiah, you do not know that. they say that the thing is very strange,--so strange that it requires a trial; but no one thinks you have taken that which was not your own." "i think i did. i myself think i took that which was not my own. my poor head suffers so;--so many grievous thoughts distract me, that i am like a child, and know not what i do." as he spoke thus he put both hands up to his head, leaning forward as though in anxious thought,--as though he were striving to bring his mind to bear with accuracy upon past events. "it could not have been mine, and yet--" then he sat silent, and made no effort to continue his speech. "and yet?"--said his wife, encouraging him to proceed. if she could only learn the real truth, she thought that she might perhaps yet save him, with assistance from their friends. "when i said that i had gotten it from that man i must have been mad." "from which man, love?" "from the man soames,--he who accuses me. and yet, as the lord hears me, i thought so then. the truth is, that there are times when i am not--sane. i am not a thief,--not before god; but i am--mad at times." these last words he spoke very slowly, in a whisper,--without any excitement,--indeed with a composure which was horrible to witness. and what he said was the more terrible because she was so well convinced of the truth of his words. of course he was no thief. she wanted no one to tell her that. as he himself had expressed it, he was no thief before god, however the money might have come into his possession. that there were times when his reason, once so fine and clear, could not act, could not be trusted to guide him right, she had gradually come to know with fear and trembling. but he himself had never before hinted his own consciousness of this calamity. indeed he had been so unwilling to speak of himself and of his own state, that she had been unable even to ask him a question about the money,--lest he should suspect that she suspected him. now he was speaking,--but speaking with such heartrending sadness that she could hardly urge him to go on. "you have sometimes been ill, josiah, as any of us may be," she said, "and that has been the cause." "there are different kinds of sickness. there is sickness of the body, and sickness of the heart, and sickness of the spirit;--and then there is sickness of the mind, the worst of all." "with you, josiah, it has chiefly been the first." "with me, mary, it has been all of them,--every one! my spirit is broken, and my mind has not been able to keep its even tenour amidst the ruins. but i will strive. i will strive. i will strive still. and if god helps me, i will prevail." then he took up his hat and cloak, and went forth among the lanes; and on this occasion his wife was glad that he should go alone. this occurred a day or two before christmas, and mrs. crawley during those days said nothing more to her husband on the subject which he had so unexpectedly discussed. she asked him no questions about the money, or as to the possibility of his exercising his memory, nor did she counsel him to plead that the false excuses given by him for his possession of the cheque had been occasioned by the sad slip to which sorrow had in those days subjected his memory and his intellect. but the matter had always been on her mind. might it not be her paramount duty to do something of this at the present moment? might it not be that his acquittal or conviction would depend on what she might now learn from him? it was clear to her that he was brighter in spirit since his encounter with the proudies than he had ever been since the accusation had been first made against him. and she knew well that his present mood would not be of long continuance. he would fall again into his moody silent ways, and then the chance of learning aught from him would be past, and perhaps, for ever. he performed the christmas services with nothing of special despondency in his tone or manner, and his wife thought that she had never heard him give the sacrament with more impressive dignity. after the service he stood awhile at the churchyard gate, and exchanged a word of courtesy as to the season with such of the families of the farmers as had stayed for the lord's supper. "i waited at framley for your reverence till arter six,--so i did," said farmer mangle. "i kept the road, and walked the whole way," said mr. crawley. "i think i told you that i should not return to the mill. but i am not the less obliged by your great kindness." "say nowt o' that," said the farmer. "no doubt i had business at the mill,--lots to do at the mill." nor did he think that the fib he was telling was at all incompatible with the holy sacrament in which he had just taken a part. the christmas dinner at the parsonage was not a repast that did much honour to the season, but it was a better dinner than the inhabitants of that house usually saw on the board before them. there was roast pork and mince-pies, and a bottle of wine. as mrs. crawley with her own hand put the meat upon the table, and then, as was her custom in their house, proceeded to cut it up, she looked at her husband's face to see whether he was scrutinizing the food with painful eye. it was better that she should tell the truth at once than that she should be made to tell it, in answer to a question. everything on the table, except the bread and potatoes, had come in a basket from framley court. pork had been sent instead of beef, because people in the country, when they kill their pigs, do sometimes give each other pork,--but do not exchange joints of beef, when they slay their oxen. all this was understood by mrs. crawley, but she almost wished that beef had been sent, because beef would have attracted less attention. he said, however, nothing to the meat; but when his wife proposed to him that he should eat a mince-pie he resented it. "the bare food," said he, "is bitter enough, coming as it does; but that would choke me." she did not press it, but eat one herself, as otherwise her girl would have been forced also to refuse the dainty. that evening, as soon as jane was in bed, she resolved to ask him some further questions. "you will have a lawyer, josiah,--will you not?" she said. "why should i have a lawyer?" "because he will know what questions to ask, and how questions on the other side should be answered." "i have no questions to ask, and there is only one way in which questions should be answered. i have no money to pay a lawyer." "but, josiah, in such a case as this, where your honour, and our very life depend upon it--" "depend on what?" "on your acquittal." "i shall not be acquitted. it is as well to look it in the face at once. lawyer, or no lawyer, they will say that i took the money. were i upon the jury, trying the case myself, knowing all that i know now,"--and as he said this he struck forth with his hands into the air,--"i think that i should say so myself. a lawyer will do no good. it is here. it is here." and again he put his hands up to his head. so far she had been successful. at this moment it had in truth been her object to induce him to speak of his own memory, and not of the aid that a lawyer might give. the proposition of the lawyer had been brought in to introduce the subject. "but, josiah,--" "well?" it was very hard for her to speak. she could not bear to torment him by any allusion to his own deficiencies. she could not endure to make him think that she suspected him of any frailty either in intellect or thought. wifelike, she desired to worship him, and that he should know that she worshipped him. but if a word might save him! "josiah, where did it come from?" "yes," said he; "yes; that is the question. where did it come from?"--and he turned sharp upon her, looking at her with all the power of his eyes. "it is because i cannot tell you where it came from that i ought to be,--either in bedlam, as a madman, or in the county gaol as a thief." the words were so dreadful to her that she could not utter at the moment another syllable. "how is a man--to think himself--fit--for a man's work, when he cannot answer his wife such a plain question as that?" then he paused again. "they should take me to bedlam at once,--at once,--at once. that would not disgrace the children as the gaol will do." mrs. crawley could ask no further questions on that evening. chapter xx. what mr. walker thought about it. [illustration] it had been suggested to mr. robarts, the parson of framley, that he should endeavour to induce his old acquaintance, mr. crawley, to employ a lawyer to defend him at his trial, and mr. robarts had not forgotten the commission which he had undertaken. but there were difficulties in the matter of which he was well aware. in the first place mr. crawley was a man whom it had not at any time been easy to advise on matters private to himself; and, in the next place, this was a matter on which it was very hard to speak to the man implicated, let him be who he would. mr. robarts had come round to the generally accepted idea that mr. crawley had obtained possession of the cheque illegally,--acquitting his friend in his own mind of theft, simply by supposing that he was wool-gathering when the cheque came in his way. but in speaking to mr. crawley, it would be necessary,--so he thought,--to pretend a conviction that mr. crawley was as innocent in fact as in intention. he had almost made up his mind to dash at the subject when he met mr. crawley walking through framley to barchester, but he had abstained, chiefly because mr. crawley had been too quick for him, and had got away. after that he resolved that it would be almost useless for him to go to work unless he should be provided with a lawyer ready and willing to undertake the task; and as he was not so provided at present, he made up his mind that he would go into silverbridge, and see mr. walker, the attorney there. mr. walker always advised everybody in those parts about everything, and would be sure to know what would be the proper thing to be done in this case. so mr. robarts got into his gig, and drove himself into silverbridge, passing very close to mr. crawley's house on his road. he drove at once to mr. walker's office, and on arriving there found that the attorney was not at that moment within. but mr. winthrop was within. would mr. robarts see mr. winthrop? now, seeing mr. winthrop was a very different thing from seeing mr. walker, although the two gentlemen were partners. but still mr. robarts said that he would see mr. winthrop. perhaps mr. walker might return while he was there. "is there anything i can do for you, mr. robarts?" asked mr. winthrop. mr. robarts said that he had wished to see mr. walker about that poor fellow crawley. "ah, yes; very sad case! so much sadder being a clergyman, mr. robarts. we are really quite sorry for him;--we are indeed. we wouldn't have touched the case ourselves if we could have helped ourselves. we wouldn't indeed. but we are obliged to take all that business here. at any rate he'll get nothing but fair usage from us." "i am sure of that. you don't know whether he has employed any lawyer as yet to defend him?" "i can't say. we don't know, you know. i should say he had,--probably some barchester attorney. borleys and bonstock in barchester are very good people,--very good people indeed;--for that sort of business i mean, mr. robarts. i don't suppose they have much county property in their hands." mr. robarts knew that mr. winthrop was a fool, and that he could get no useful advice from him. so he suggested that he would take his gig down to the inn, and call back again before long. "you'll find that walker knows no more than i do about it," said mr. winthrop, "but of course he'll be glad to see you if he happens to come in." so mr. robarts went to the inn, put up his horse, and then, as he sauntered back up the street, met mr. walker coming out of the private door of his house. "i've been at home all the morning," he said, "but i've had a stiff job of work on hand, and told them to say in the office that i was not in. seen winthrop, have you? i don't suppose he did know that i was here. the clerks often know more than the partners. about mr. crawley is it? come into my dining-room, mr. robarts, where we shall be alone. yes;--it is a bad case; a very bad case. the pity is that anybody should ever have said anything about it. lord bless me, if i'd been soames i'd have let him have the twenty pounds. lord lufton would never have allowed soames to lose it." "but soames wanted to find out the truth." "yes;--that was just it. soames couldn't bear to think that he should be left in the dark, and then, when the poor man said that soames had paid the cheque to him in the way of business,--it was not odd that soames' back should have been up, was it? but, mr. robarts, i should have thought a deal about it before i should have brought such a man as mr. crawley before a bench of magistrates on that charge." "but between you and me, mr. walker, did he steal the money?" "well, mr. robarts, you know how i'm placed." "mr. crawley is my friend, and of course i want to assist him. i was under a great obligation to mr. crawley once, and i wish to befriend him, whether he took the money or not. but i could act so much better if i felt sure one way or the other." "if you ask me, i think he did take it." "what!--stole it?" "i think he knew it was not his own when he took it. you see i don't think he meant to use it when he took it. he perhaps had some queer idea that soames had been hard on him, or his lordship, and that the money was fairly his due. then he kept the cheque by him till he was absolutely badgered out of his life by the butcher up the street there. that was about the long and the short of it, mr. robarts." "i suppose so. and now what had he better do?" "well; if you ask me,-- he is in very bad health, isn't he?" "no; i should say not. he walked to barchester and back the other day." "did he? but he's very queer, isn't he?" "very odd-mannered indeed." "and does and says all manner of odd things?" "i think you'd find the bishop would say so after that interview." "well; if it would do any good, you might have the bishop examined." "examined for what, mr. walker?" "if you could show, you know, that crawley has got a bee in his bonnet; that the mens sana is not there, in short;--i think you might manage to have the trial postponed." "but then somebody must take charge of his living." "you parsons could manage that among you;--you and the dean and the archdeacon. the archdeacon has always got half-a-dozen curates about somewhere. and then,--after the assizes, mr. crawley might come to his senses; and i think,--mind it's only an idea,--but i think the committal might be quashed. it would have been temporary insanity, and, though mind i don't give my word for it, i think he might go on and keep his living. i think so, mr. robarts." "that has never occurred to me." "no;--i daresay not. you see the difficulty is this. he's so stiff-necked,--will do nothing himself. well, that will do for one proof of temporary insanity. the real truth is, mr. robarts, he is as mad as a hatter." "upon my word i've often thought so." "and you wouldn't mind saying so in evidence,--would you? well, you see, there is no helping such a man in any other way. he won't even employ a lawyer to defend him." "that was what i had come to you about." "i'm told he won't. now a man must be mad who won't employ a lawyer when he wants one. you see, the point we should gain would be this,--if we tried to get him through as being a little touched in the upper story,--whatever we could do for him, we could do against his own will. the more he opposed us the stronger our case would be. he would swear he was not mad at all, and we should say that that was the greatest sign of his madness. but when i say we, of course i mean you. i must not appear in it." "i wish you could, mr. walker." "of course i can't; but that won't make any difference." "i suppose he must have a lawyer?" "yes, he must have a lawyer;--or rather his friends must." "and who should employ him, ostensibly?" "ah;--there's the difficulty. his wife wouldn't do it, i suppose? she couldn't do him a better turn." "he would never forgive her. and she would never consent to act against him." "could you interfere?" "if necessary, i will;--but i hardly know him well enough." "has he no father or mother, or uncles or aunts? he must have somebody belonging to him," said mr. walker. then it occurred to mr. robarts that dean arabin would be the proper person to interfere. dean arabin and mr. crawley had been intimate friends in early life, and dean arabin knew more of him than did any man, at least in those parts. all this mr. robarts explained to mr. walker, and mr. walker agreed with him that the services of dean arabin should if possible be obtained. mr. robarts would at once write to dean arabin and explain at length all the circumstances of the case. "the worst of it is, he will hardly be home in time," said mr. walker. "perhaps he would come a little sooner if you were to press it?" "but we could act in his name in his absence, i suppose?--of course with his authority?" "i wish he could be here a month before the assizes, mr. robarts. it would be better." "and in the meantime shall i say anything to mr. crawley, myself, about employing a lawyer?" "i think i would. if he turns upon you, as like enough he may, and abuses you, that will help us in one way. if he should consent, and perhaps he may, that would help us in the other way. i'm told he's been over and upset the whole coach at the palace." "i shouldn't think the bishop got much out of him," said the parson. "i don't like crawley the less for speaking his mind free to the bishop," said the attorney, laughing. "and he'll speak it free to you too, mr. robarts." "he won't break any of my bones. tell me, mr. walker, what lawyer shall i name to him?" "you can't have a better man than mr. mason, up the street there." "winthrop proposed borleys at barchester." "no, no, no. borleys and bonstock are capital people to push a fellow through on a charge of horse-stealing, or to squeeze a man for a little money; but they are not the people for mr. crawley in such a case as this. mason is a better man; and then mason and i know each other." in saying which mr. walker winked. there was then a discussion between them whether mr. robarts should go at once to mr. mason; but it was decided at last that he should see mr. crawley and also write to the dean before he did so. the dean might wish to employ his own lawyer, and if so the double expense should be avoided. "always remember, mr. robarts, that when you go into an attorney's office door, you will have to pay for it, first or last. in here, you see, the dingy old mahogany, bare as it is, makes you safe. or else it's the salt-cellar, which will not allow itself to be polluted by six-and-eightpenny considerations. but there is the other kind of tax to be paid. you must go up and see mrs. walker, or you won't have her help in this matter." mr. walker returned to his work, either to some private den within his house, or to his office, and mr. robarts was taken upstairs to the drawing-room. there he found mrs. walker and her daughter, and miss anne prettyman, who had just looked in, full of the story of mr. crawley's walk to barchester. mr. thumble had seen one of dr. tempest's curates, and had told the whole story--he, mr. thumble, having heard mrs. proudie's version of what had occurred, and having, of course, drawn his own deductions from her premises. and it seemed that mr. crawley had been watched as he passed through the close out of barchester. a minor canon had seen him, and had declared that he was going at the rate of a hunt, swinging his arms on high and speaking very loud, though,--as the minor canon said with regret,--the words were hardly audible. but there had been no doubt as to the man. mr. crawley's old hat, and short rusty cloak, and dirty boots, had been duly observed and chronicled by the minor canon; and mr. thumble had been enabled to put together a not altogether false picture of what had occurred. as soon as the greetings between mr. robarts and the ladies had been made, miss anne prettyman broke out again, just where she had left off when mr. robarts came in. "they say that mrs. proudie declared that she will have him sent to botany bay!" "luckily mrs. proudie won't have much to do in the matter," said miss walker, who ranged herself, as to church matters, in ranks altogether opposed to those commanded by mrs. proudie. "she will have nothing to do with it, my dear," said mrs. walker; "and i daresay mrs. proudie was not foolish enough to say anything of the kind." "mamma, she would be fool enough to say anything. would she not, mr. robarts?" "you forget, miss walker, that mrs. proudie is in authority over me." "so she is, for the matter of that," said the young lady; "but i know very well what you all think of her, and say of her too, at framley. your friend, lady lufton, loves her dearly. i wish i could have been hidden behind a curtain in the palace, to hear what mr. crawley said to her." "mr. smillie declares," said miss anne prettyman, "that the bishop has been ill ever since. mr. smillie went over to his mother's at barchester for christmas, and took part of the cathedral duty, and we had mr. spooner over here in his place. so mr. smillie of course heard all about it. only fancy, poor mr. crawley walking all the way from hogglestock to barchester and back;--and i am told he hardly had a shoe to his foot! is it not a shame, mr. robarts?" "i don't think it was quite so bad as you say, miss prettyman; but, upon the whole, i do think it is a shame. but what can we do?" "i suppose there are tithes at hogglestock. why are they not given up to the church, as they ought to be?" "my dear miss prettyman, that is a very large subject, and i am afraid it cannot be settled in time to relieve our poor friend from his distress." then mr. robarts escaped from the ladies in mr. walker's house, who, as it seemed to him, were touching upon dangerous ground, and went back to the yard of the george inn for his gig,--the george and vulture it was properly called, and was the house in which the magistrates had sat when they committed mr. crawley for trial. "footed it every inch of the way, blowed if he didn't," the ostler was saying to a gentleman's groom, whom mr. robarts recognized to be the servant of his friend, major grantly; and mr. robarts knew that they also were talking about mr. crawley. everybody in the county was talking about mr. crawley. at home, at framley, there was no other subject of discourse. lady lufton, the dowager, was full of it, being firmly convinced that mr. crawley was innocent, because the bishop was supposed to regard him as guilty. there had been a family conclave held at framley court over that basket of provisions which had been sent for the christmas cheer of the hogglestock parsonage, each of the three ladies, the two lady luftons and mrs. robarts, having special views of their own. how the pork had been substituted for the beef by old lady lufton, young lady lufton thinking that after all the beef would be less dangerous, and how a small turkey had been rashly suggested by mrs. robarts, and how certain small articles had been inserted in the bottom of the basket which mrs. crawley had never shewn to her husband, need not here be told at length. but mr. robarts, as he heard the two grooms talking about mr. crawley, began to feel that mr. crawley had achieved at least celebrity. the groom touched his hat as mr. robarts walked up. "has the major returned home yet?" mr. robarts asked. the groom said that his master was still at plumstead, and that he was to go over to plumstead to fetch the major and miss edith in a day or two. then mr. robarts got into his gig, and as he drove out of the yard he heard the words of the men as they returned to the same subject. "footed it all the way," said one. "and yet he's a gen'leman, too," said the other. mr. robarts thought of this as he drove on, intending to call at hogglestock on that very day on his way home. it was undoubtedly the fact that mr. crawley was recognized to be a gentleman by all who knew him, high or low, rich or poor, by those who thought well of him and by those who thought ill. these grooms, who had been telling each other that this parson, who was to be tried as a thief, had been constrained to walk from hogglestock to barchester and back, because he could not afford to travel in any other way, and that his boots were cracked and his clothes ragged, had still known him to be a gentleman! nobody doubted it; not even they who thought he had stolen the money. mr. robarts himself was certain of it, and told himself that he knew it by evidences which his own education made clear to him. but how was it that the grooms knew it? for my part i think that there are no better judges of the article than the grooms. thinking still of all which he had heard, mr. robarts found himself at mr. crawley's gate at hogglestock. chapter xxi. mr. robarts on his embassy. mr. robarts was not altogether easy in his mind as he approached mr. crawley's house. he was aware that the task before him was a very difficult one, and he had not confidence in himself,--that he was exactly the man fitted for the performance of such a task. he was a little afraid of mr. crawley, acknowledging tacitly to himself that the man had a power of ascendancy with which he would hardly be able to cope successfully. in old days he had once been rebuked by mr. crawley, and had been cowed by the rebuke; and though there was no touch of rancour in his heart on this account, no slightest remaining venom,--but rather increased respect and friendship,--still he was unable to overcome the remembrance of the scene in which the perpetual curate of hogglestock had undoubtedly had the mastery of him. so, when two dogs have fought and one has conquered, the conquered dog will always show an unconscious submission to the conqueror. he hailed a boy on the road as he drew near to the house, knowing that he would find no one at the parsonage to hold his horse for him, and was thus able without delay to walk through the garden and knock at the door. "papa was not at home," jane said. "papa was at the school. but papa could certainly be summoned. she herself would run across to the school if mr. robarts would come in." so mr. robarts entered, and found mrs. crawley in the sitting-room. mr. crawley would be in directly, she said. and then, hurrying on to the subject with confused haste, in order that a word or two might be spoken before her husband came back, she expressed her thanks and his for the good things which had been sent to them at christmas-tide. "it's old lady lufton's doings," said mr. robarts, trying to laugh the matter over. "i knew that it came from framley, mr. robarts, and i know how good you all are there. i have not written to thank lady lufton. i thought it better not to write. your sister will understand why, if no one else does. but you will tell them from me, i am sure, that it was, as they intended, a comfort to us. your sister knows too much of us for me to suppose that our great poverty can be secret from her. and, as far as i am concerned, i do not now much care who knows it." "there is no disgrace in not being rich," said mr. robarts. "no; and the feeling of disgrace which does attach itself to being so poor as we are is deadened by the actual suffering which such poverty brings with it. at least it has become so with me. i am not ashamed to say that i am very grateful for what you all have done for us at framley. but you must not say anything to him about that." "of course i will not, mrs. crawley." "his spirit is higher than mine, i think, and he suffers more from the natural disinclination which we all have to receiving alms. are you going to speak to him about this affair of the--cheque, mr. robarts?" "i am going to ask him to put his case into some lawyer's hands." "oh! i wish he would!" "and will he not?" "it is very kind of you, your coming to ask him, but--" "has he so strong an objection?" "he will tell you that he has no money to pay a lawyer." "but, surely, if he were convinced that it was absolutely necessary for the vindication of his innocence, he would submit to charge himself with an expense so necessary, not only for himself, but for his family?" "he will say it ought not to be necessary. you know, mr. robarts, that in some respects he is not like other men. you will not let what i say of him set you against him?" "indeed, no." "it is most kind of you to make the attempt. he will be here directly, and when he comes i will leave you together." while she was yet speaking his step was heard along the gravel-path, and he hurried into the room with quick steps. "i crave your pardon, mr. robarts," he said, "that i should keep you waiting." now mr. robarts had not been there ten minutes, and any such asking of pardon was hardly necessary. and, even in his own house, mr. crawley affected a mock humility, as though, either through his own debasement, or because of the superior station of the other clergyman, he were not entitled to put himself on an equal footing with his visitor. he would not have shaken hands with mr. robarts,--intending to indicate that he did not presume to do so while the present accusation was hanging over him,--had not the action been forced upon him. and then there was something of a protest in his manner, as though remonstrating against a thing that was unbecoming to him. mr. robarts, without analysing it, understood it all, and knew that behind the humility there was a crushing pride,--a pride which, in all probability, would rise up and crush him before he could get himself out of the room again. it was, perhaps, after all, a question whether the man was not served rightly by the extremities to which he was reduced. there was something radically wrong within him, which had put him into antagonism with all the world, and which produced these never-dying grievances. there were many clergymen in the country with incomes as small as that which had fallen to the lot of mr. crawley, but they managed to get on without displaying their sores as mr. crawley displayed his. they did not wear their old rusty cloaks with all that ostentatious bitterness of poverty which seemed to belong to that garment when displayed on mr. crawley's shoulders. such, for a moment, were mr. robarts' thoughts, and he almost repented himself of his present mission. but then he thought of mrs. crawley, and remembering that her sufferings were at any rate undeserved, determined that he would persevere. mrs. crawley disappeared almost as soon as her husband appeared, and mr. robarts found himself standing in front of his friend, who remained fixed on the spot, with his hands folded over each other and his neck slightly bent forward, in token also of humility. "i regret," he said, "that your horse should be left there, exposed to the inclemency of the weather; but--" "the horse won't mind it a bit," said mr. robarts. "a parson's horse is like a butcher's, and knows that he mustn't be particular about waiting in the cold." "i never have had one myself," said mr. crawley. now mr. robarts had had more horses than one before now, and had been thought by some to have incurred greater expense than was befitting in his stable comforts. the subject, therefore, was a sore one, and he was worried a little. "i just wanted to say a few words to you, crawley," he said, "and if i am not occupying too much of your time--" "my time is altogether at your disposal. will you be seated?" then mr. robarts sat down, and, swinging his hat between his legs, bethought himself how he should begin his work. "we had the archdeacon over at framley the other day," he said. "of course you know the archdeacon?" "i never had the advantage of any acquaintance with dr. grantly. of course i know him well by name, and also personally,--that is, by sight." "and by character?" "nay; i can hardly say so much as that. but i am aware that his name stands high with many of his order." "exactly; that is what i mean. you know that his judgment is thought more of in clerical matters than that of any other clergyman in the county." "by a certain party, mr. robarts." "well, yes. they don't think much of him, i suppose, at the palace. but that won't lower him in your estimation." "i by no means wish to derogate from dr. grantly's high position in his own archdeaconry,--to which, as you are aware, i am not attached,--nor to criticize his conduct in any respect. it would be unbecoming in me to do so. but i cannot accept it as a point in a clergyman's favour, that he should be opposed to his bishop." now this was too much for mr. robarts. after all that he had heard of the visit paid by mr. crawley to the palace,--of the venom displayed by mrs. proudie on that occasion, and of the absolute want of subordination to episcopal authority which mr. crawley himself was supposed to have shown,--mr. robarts did feel it hard that his friend the archdeacon should be snubbed in this way because he was deficient in reverence for his bishop! "i thought, crawley," he said, "that you yourself were inclined to dispute orders coming to you from the palace. the world at least says as much concerning you." "what the world says of me i have learned to disregard very much, mr. robarts. but i hope that i shall never disobey the authority of the church when properly and legally exercised." "i hope with all my heart you never will; nor i either. and the archdeacon, who knows, to the breadth of a hair, what a bishop ought to do and what he ought not, and what he may do and what he may not, will, i should say, be the last man in england to sin in that way." "very probably. i am far from contradicting you there. pray understand, mr. robarts, that i bring no accusation against the archdeacon. why should i?" "i didn't mean to discuss him at all." "nor did i, mr. robarts." "i only mentioned his name, because, as i said, he was over with us the other day at framley, and we were all talking about your affair." "my affair!" said mr. crawley. and then came a frown upon his brow, and a gleam of fire into his eyes, which effectually banished that look of extreme humility which he had assumed. "and may i ask why the archdeacon was discussing--my affair?" "simply from the kindness which he bears to you." "i am grateful for the archdeacon's kindness, as a man is bound to be for any kindness, whether displayed wisely or unwisely. but it seems to me that my affair, as you call it, mr. robarts, is of that nature that they who wish well to me will better further their wishes by silence than by any discussion." "then i cannot agree with you." mr. crawley shrugged his shoulders, opened his hands a little and then closed them, and bowed his head. he could not have declared more clearly by any words that he differed altogether from mr. robarts, and that as the subject was one so peculiarly his own he had a right to expect that his opinion should be allowed to prevail against that of any other person. "if you come to that, you know, how is anybody's tongue to be stopped?" "that vain tongues cannot be stopped, i am well aware. i do not expect that people's tongues should be stopped. i am not saying what men will do, but what good wishes should dictate." "well, perhaps you'll hear me out for a minute." mr. crawley again bowed his head. "whether we were wise or unwise, we were discussing this affair." "whether i stole mr. soames's money?" "no; nobody supposed for a moment you had stolen it." "i cannot understand how they should suppose anything else, knowing, as they do, that the magistrates have committed me for the theft. this took place at framley, you say, and probably in lord lufton's presence." "exactly." "and lord lufton was chairman at the sitting of the magistrates at which i was committed. how can it be that he should think otherwise?" "i am sure he has not an idea that you were guilty. nor yet has dr. thorne, who was also one of the magistrates. i don't suppose one of them then thought so." "then their action, to say the least of it, was very strange." "it was all because you had nobody to manage it for you. i thoroughly believe that if you had placed the matter in the hands of a good lawyer, you would never have heard a word more about it. that seems to be the opinion of everybody i speak to on the subject." "then in this country a man is to be punished or not, according to his ability to fee a lawyer!" "i am not talking about punishment." "and presuming an innocent man to have the ability and not the will to do so, he is to be punished, to be ruined root and branch, self and family, character and pocket, simply because, knowing his own innocence, he does not choose to depend on the mercenary skill of a man whose trade he abhors for the establishment of that which should be clear as the sun at noon-day! you say i am innocent, and yet you tell me i am to be condemned as a guilty man, have my gown taken from me, be torn from my wife and children, be disgraced before the eyes of all men, and be made a byword and a thing horrible to be mentioned, because i will not fee an attorney to fee another man to come and lie on my behalf, to browbeat witnesses, to make false appeals, and perhaps shed false tears in defending me. you have come to me asking me to do this, if i understand you, telling me that the archdeacon would so advise me." "that is my object." mr. crawley, as he had spoken, had in his vehemence risen from his seat, and mr. robarts was also standing. "then tell the archdeacon," said mr. crawley, "that i will have none of his advice. i will have no one there paid by me to obstruct the course of justice or to hoodwink a jury. i have been in courts of law, and know what is the work for which these gentlemen are hired. i will have none of it, and i will thank you to tell the archdeacon so, with my respectful acknowledgments of his consideration and condescension. i say nothing as to my own innocence, or my own guilt. but i do say that if i am dragged before that tribunal, an innocent man, and am falsely declared to be guilty, because i lack money to bribe a lawyer to speak for me, then the laws of this country deserve but little of that reverence which we are accustomed to pay to them. and if i be guilty--" "nobody supposes you to be guilty." "and if i be guilty," continued mr. crawley, altogether ignoring the interruption, except by the repetition of his words, and a slight raising of his voice, "i will not add to my guilt by hiring any one to prove a falsehood or to disprove a truth." "i'm sorry that you should say so, mr. crawley." "i speak according to what light i have, mr. robarts; and if i have been over-warm with you,--and i am conscious that i have been in fault in that direction,--i must pray you to remember that i am somewhat hardly tried. my sorrows and troubles are so great that they rise against me and disturb me, and drive me on,--whither i would not be driven." "but, my friend, is not that just the reason why you should trust in this matter to some one who can be more calm than yourself?" "i cannot trust to any one,--in a matter of conscience. to do as you would have me is to me wrong. shall i do wrong because i am unhappy?" "you should cease to think it wrong when so advised by persons you can trust." "i can trust no one with my own conscience;--not even the archdeacon, great as he is." "the archdeacon has meant only well to you." "i will presume so. i will believe so. i do think so. tell the archdeacon from me that i humbly thank him;--that, in a matter of church question, i might probably submit my judgment to his; even though he might have no authority over me, knowing as i do that in such matters his experience has been great. tell him also, that though i would fain that this unfortunate affair might burden the tongue of none among my neighbours,--at least till i shall have stood before the judge to receive the verdict of the jury, and, if needful, his lordship's sentence--still i am convinced that in what he has spoken, as also in what he has done, he has not yielded to the idleness of gossip, but has exercised his judgment with intended kindness." "he has certainly intended to do you a service; and as for its not being talked about, that is out of the question." "and for yourself, mr. robarts, whom i have ever regarded as a friend since circumstances brought me into your neighbourhood,--for you, whose sister i love tenderly in memory of past kindness, though now she is removed so far above my sphere, as to make it unfit that i should call her my friend--" "she does not think so at all." "for yourself, as i was saying, pray believe me that though from the roughness of my manner, being now unused to social intercourse, i seem to be ungracious and forbidding, i am grateful and mindful, and that in the tablets of my heart i have written you down as one in whom i could trust,--were it given to me to trust in men and women." then he turned round with his face to the wall and his back to his visitor, and so remained till mr. robarts had left him. "at any rate i wish you well through your trouble," said robarts; and as he spoke he found that his own words were nearly choked by a sob that was rising in his throat. he went away without another word, and got out to his gig without seeing mrs. crawley. during one period of the interview he had been very angry with the man,--so angry as to make him almost declare to himself that he would take no more trouble on his behalf. then he had been brought to acknowledge that mr. walker was right, and that crawley was certainly mad. he was so mad, so far removed from the dominion of sound sense, that no jury could say that he was guilty and that he ought to be punished for his guilt. and, as he so resolved, he could not but ask himself the question, whether the charge of the parish ought to be left in the hands of such a man? but at last, just before he went, these feelings and these convictions gave way to pity, and he remembered simply the troubles which seemed to have been heaped on the head of this poor victim to misfortune. as he drove home he resolved that there was nothing left for him to do, but to write to the dean. it was known to all who knew them both, that the dean and mr. crawley had lived together on the closest intimacy at college, and that that friendship had been maintained through life;--though, from the peculiarity of mr. crawley's character, the two had not been much together of late years. seeing how things were going now, and hearing how pitiful was the plight in which mr. crawley was placed, the dean would, no doubt, feel it to be his duty to hasten his return to england. he was believed to be at this moment in jerusalem, and it would be long before a letter could reach him; but there still wanted three months to the assizes, and his return might be probably effected before the end of february. "i never was so distressed in my life," mark robarts said to his wife. "and you think you have done no good?" "only this, that i have convinced myself that the poor man is not responsible for what he does, and that for her sake as well as for his own, some person should be enabled to interfere for his protection." then he told mrs. robarts what mr. walker had said; also the message which mr. crawley had sent to the archdeacon. but they both agreed that that message need not be sent on any further. chapter xxii. major grantly at home. mrs. thorne had spoken very plainly in the advice which she had given to major grantly. "if i were you, i'd be at allington before twelve o'clock to-morrow." that had been mrs. thorne's advice; and though major grantly had no idea of making the journey so rapidly as the lady had proposed, still he thought that he would make it before long, and follow the advice in spirit if not to the letter. mrs. thorne had asked him if it was fair that the girl should be punished because of the father's fault; and the idea had been sweet to him that the infliction or non-infliction of such punishment should be in his hands. "you go and ask her," mrs. thorne had said. well;--he would go and ask her. if it should turn out at last that he had married the daughter of a thief, and that he was disinherited for doing so,--an arrangement of circumstances which he had to teach himself to regard as very probable,--he would not love grace the less on that account, or allow himself for one moment to repent what he had done. as he thought of all this he became somewhat in love with a small income, and imagined to himself what honours would be done to him by the mrs. thornes of the county, when they should come to know in what way he had sacrificed himself to his love. yes;--they would go and live at pau. he thought pau would do. he would have enough of income for that;--and edith would get lessons cheaply, and would learn to talk french fluently. he certainly would do it. he would go down to allington, and ask grace to be his wife; and bid her understand that if she loved him she could not be justified in refusing him by the circumstances of her father's position. but he must go to plumstead before he could go to allington. he was engaged to spend his christmas there, and must go now at once. there was not time for the journey to allington before he was due at plumstead. and, moreover, though he could not bring himself to resolve that he would tell his father what he was going to do;--"it would seem as though i were asking his leave!" he said to himself;--he thought that he would make a clean breast of it to his mother. it made him sad to think that he should cut the rope which fastened his own boat among the other boats in the home harbour at plumstead, and that he should go out all alone into strange waters,--turned adrift altogether, as it were, from the grantly fleet. if he could only get the promise of his mother's sympathy for grace it would be something. he understood,--no one better than he,--the tendency of all his family to an uprising in the world, which tendency was almost as strong in his mother as in his father. and he had been by no means without a similar ambition himself, though with him the ambition had been only fitful, not enduring. he had a brother, a clergyman, a busy, stirring, eloquent london preacher, who got churches built, and was heard of far and wide as a rising man, who had married a certain lady anne, the daughter of an earl, and who was already mentioned as a candidate for high places. how his sister was the wife of a marquis, and a leader in the fashionable world, the reader already knows. the archdeacon himself was a rich man, so powerful that he could afford to look down upon a bishop; and mrs. grantly, though there was left about her something of an old softness of nature, a touch of the former life which had been hers before the stream of her days had run gold, yet she, too, had taken kindly to wealth and high standing, and was by no means one of those who construe literally that passage of scripture which tells us of the camel and the needle's eye. our henry grantly, our major, knew himself to be his mother's favourite child,--knew himself to have become so since something of coolness had grown up between her and her august daughter. the augustness of the daughter had done much to reproduce the old freshness of which i have spoken in the mother's heart, and had specially endeared to her the son who, of all her children, was the least subject to the family failing. the clergyman, charles grantly,--he who had married the lady anne,--was his father's darling in these days. the old archdeacon would go up to london and be quite happy in his son's house. he met there the men whom he loved to meet, and heard the talk which he loved to hear. it was very fine, having the marquis of hartletop for his son-in-law, but he had never cared to be much at lady hartletop's house. indeed, the archdeacon cared to be in no house in which those around him were supposed to be bigger than himself. such was the little family fleet from out of which henry grantly was now proposing to sail alone with his little boat,--taking grace crawley with him at the helm. "my father is a just man at the bottom," he said to himself, "and though he may not forgive me, he will not punish edith." but there was still left one of the family,--not a grantly, indeed, but one so nearly allied to them as to have his boat moored in the same harbour,--who, as the major well knew, would thoroughly sympathize with him. this was old mr. harding, his mother's father,--the father of his mother and of his aunt mrs. arabin,--whose home was now at the deanery. he was also to be at plumstead during this christmas, and he at any rate would give a ready assent to such a marriage as that which the major was proposing for himself. but then poor old mr. harding had been thoroughly deficient in that ambition which had served to aggrandize the family into which his daughter had married. he was a poor old man who, in spite of good friends,--for the late bishop of the diocese had been his dearest friend,--had never risen high in his profession, and had fallen even from the moderate altitude which he had attained. but he was a man whom all loved who knew him; and it was much to the credit of his son-in-law, the archdeacon, that, with all his tendencies to love rising suns, he had ever been true to mr. harding. major grantly took his daughter with him, and on his arrival at plumstead she of course was the first object of attention. mrs. grantly declared that she had grown immensely. the archdeacon complimented her red cheeks, and said that cosby lodge was as healthy a place as any in the county, while mr. harding, edith's great-grandfather, drew slowly from his pocket sundry treasures with which he had come prepared for the delight of the little girl. charles grantly and lady anne had no children, and the heir of all the hartletops was too august to have been trusted to the embraces of her mother's grandfather. edith, therefore, was all that he had in that generation, and of edith he was prepared to be as indulgent as he had been, in their time, of his grandchildren the grantlys, and still was of his grandchildren the arabins, and had been before that of his own daughters. "she's more like eleanor than any one else," said the old man in a plaintive tone. now eleanor was mrs. arabin, the dean's wife, and was at this time,--if i were to say over forty i do not think i should be uncharitable. no one else saw the special likeness, but no one else remembered, as mr. harding did, what eleanor had been when she was three years old. [illustration: "she's more like eleanor than any one else."] "aunt nelly is in france," said the child. "yes, my darling, aunt nelly is in france, and i wish she were at home. aunt nelly has been away a long time." "i suppose she'll stay till the dean picks her up on his way home?" said mrs. grantly. "so she says in her letters. i heard from her yesterday, and i brought the letter, as i thought you'd like to see it." mrs. grantly took the letter and read it, while her father still played with the child. the archdeacon and the major were standing together on the rug discussing the shooting at chaldicotes, as to which the archdeacon had a strong opinion. "i'm quite sure that a man with a place like that does more good by preserving than by leaving it alone. the better head of game he has the richer the county will be generally. it is just the same with pheasants as it is with sheep and bullocks. a pheasant doesn't cost more than he's worth any more than a barn-door fowl. besides, a man who preserves is always respected by the poachers, and the man who doesn't is not." "there's something in that, sir, certainly," said the major. "more than you think for, perhaps. look at poor sowerby, who went on there for years without a shilling. how he was respected, because he lived as the people around him expected a gentleman to live. thorne will have a bad time of it, if he tries to change things." "only think," exclaimed mrs. grantly, "when eleanor wrote she had not heard of that affair of poor mr. crawley's." "does she say anything about him?" asked the major. "i'll read what she says. 'i see in galignani that a clergyman in barsetshire has been committed for theft. pray tell me who it is. not the bishop, i hope, for the credit of the diocese?'" "i wish it were," said the archdeacon. "for shame, my dear," said his wife. "no shame at all. if we are to have a thief among us, i'd sooner find him in a bad man than a good one. besides we should have a change at the palace, which would be a great thing." "but is it not odd that eleanor should have heard nothing of it?" said mrs. grantly. "it's odd that you should not have mentioned it yourself." "i did not, certainly; nor you, papa, i suppose?" mr. harding acknowledged that he had not spoken of it, and then they calculated that perhaps she might not have received any letter from her husband written since the news had reached him. "besides, why should he have mentioned it?" said the major. "he only knows as yet of the inquiry about the cheque, and can have heard nothing of what was done by the magistrates." "still it seems so odd that eleanor should not have known of it, seeing that we have been talking of nothing else for the last week," said mrs. grantly. for two days the major said not a word of grace crawley to any one. nothing could be more courteous and complaisant than was his father's conduct to him. anything that he wanted for edith was to be done. for himself there was no trouble which would not be taken. his hunting, and his shooting, and his fishing seemed to have become matters of paramount consideration to his father. and then the archdeacon became very confidential about money matters,--not offering anything to his son, which, as he well knew, would have been seen through as palpable bribery and corruption,--but telling him of this little scheme and of that, of one investment and of another;--how he contemplated buying a small property here, and spending a few thousands on building there. "of course it is all for you and your brother," said the archdeacon, with that benevolent sadness which is used habitually by fathers on such occasions; "and i like you to know what it is that i am doing. i told charles about the london property the last time i was up," said the archdeacon, "and there shall be no difference between him and you, if all goes well." this was very good-natured on the archdeacon's part, and was not strictly necessary, as charles was the eldest son; but the major understood it perfectly. "there shall be an elysium opened to you, if only you will not do that terrible thing of which you spoke when last here." the archdeacon uttered no such words as these, and did not even allude to grace crawley; but the words were as good as spoken, and had they been spoken ever so plainly the major could not have understood them more clearly. he was quite awake to the loveliness of the elysium opened before him. he had had his moment of anxiety, whether his father would or would not make an elder son of his brother charles. the whole thing was now put before him plainly. give up grace crawley, and you shall share alike with your brother. disgrace yourself by marrying her, and your brother shall have everything. there was the choice, and it was still open to him to take which side he pleased. were he never to go near grace crawley again no one would blame him, unless it were miss prettyman or mrs. thorne. "fill your glass, henry," said the archdeacon. "you'd better, i tell you, for there is no more of it left." then the major filled his glass and sipped the wine, and swore to himself that he would go down to allington at once. what! did his father think to bribe him by giving him ' port? he would certainly go down to allington, and he would tell his mother to-morrow morning, or certainly on the next day, what he was going to do. "pity it should be all gone; isn't it, sir?" said the archdeacon to his father-in-law. "it has lasted my time," said mr. harding, "and i'm very much obliged to it. dear, dear; how well i remember your father giving the order for it! there were two pipes, and somebody said it was a heady wine. 'if the prebendaries and rectors can't drink it,' said your father, 'the curates will.'" "curates indeed!" said the archdeacon. "it's too good for a bishop, unless one of the right sort." "your father used to say those things, but with him the poorer the guest the better the cheer. when he had a few clergymen round him, how he loved to make them happy!" "never talked shop to them,--did he?" said the archdeacon. "not after dinner, at any rate. goodness gracious, when one thinks of it! do you remember how we used to play cards?" "every night regularly;--threepenny points, and sixpence on the rubber," said the archdeacon. "dear, dear! how things are changed! and i remember when the clergymen did more of the dancing in barchester than all the other young men in the city put together." "and a good set they were;--gentlemen every one of them. it's well that some of them don't dance now;--that is, for the girls' sake." "i sometimes sit and wonder," said mr. harding, "whether your father's spirit ever comes back to the old house and sees the changes,--and if so whether he approves them." "approves them!" said the archdeacon. "well;--yes. i think he would, upon the whole. i'm sure of this: he would not disapprove, because the new ways are changed from his ways. he never thought himself infallible. and do you know, my dear, i am not sure that it isn't all for the best. i sometimes think that some of us were very idle when we were young. i was, i know." "i worked hard enough," said the archdeacon. "ah, yes; you. but most of us took it very easily. dear, dear! when i think of it, and see how hard they work now, and remember what pleasant times we used to have,--i don't feel sometimes quite sure." "i believe the work was done a great deal better than it is now," said the archdeacon. "there wasn't so much fuss, but there was more reality. and men were men, and clergymen were gentlemen." "yes;--they were gentlemen." "such a creature as that old woman at the palace couldn't have held his head up among us. that's what has come from reform. a reformed house of commons makes lord brock prime minister, and then your prime minister makes dr. proudie a bishop! well;--it will last my time, i suppose." "it has lasted mine,--like the wine," said mr. harding. "there's one glass more, and you shall have it, sir." then mr. harding drank the last glass of the port, and they went into the drawing-room. on the next morning after breakfast the major went out for a walk by himself. his father had suggested to him that he should go over to shoot at framley, and had offered him the use of everything the archdeaconry possessed in the way of horses, dogs, guns and carriages. but the major would have none of these things. he would go out and walk by himself. "he's not thinking of her; is he?" said the archdeacon to his wife, in a whisper. "i don't know. i think he is," said mrs. grantly. "it will be so much the better for charles, if he does," said the archdeacon grimly; and the look of his face as he spoke was by no means pleasant. "you will do nothing unjust, archdeacon," said his wife. "i will do as i like with my own," said he. and then he also went out and took a walk by himself. that evening after dinner, there was no port, and no recollections of old days. they were rather dull, the three of them, as they sat together,--and dulness is always more unendurable than sadness. old mr. harding went to sleep and the archdeacon was cross. "henry," he said, "you haven't a word to throw to a dog." "i've got rather a headache this evening, sir," said the major. the archdeacon drank two glasses of wine, one after another, quickly. then he woke his father-in-law gently, and went off. "is there anything the matter?" asked the old man. "nothing particular. my father seems to be a little cross." "ah! i've been to sleep and i oughtn't. it's my fault. we'll go in and smooth him down." but the archdeacon wouldn't be smoothed down on that occasion. he would let his son see the difference between a father pleased, and a father displeased,--or rather between a father pleasant, and a father unpleasant. "he hasn't said anything to you, has he?" said the archdeacon that night to his wife. "not a word;--as yet." "if he does it without the courage to tell us, i shall think him a cur," said the archdeacon. "but he did tell you," said mrs. grantly, standing up for her favourite son; "and, for the matter of that, he has courage enough for anything. if he does it, i shall always say that he has been driven to it by your threats." "that's sheer nonsense," said the archdeacon. "it's not nonsense at all," said mrs. grantly. "then i suppose i was to hold my tongue and say nothing?" said the archdeacon; and as he spoke he banged the door between his dressing-room and mrs. grantly's bedroom. on the first day of the new year major grantly spoke his mind to his mother. the archdeacon had gone into barchester, having in vain attempted to induce his son to go with him. mr. harding was in the library reading a little and sleeping a little, and dreaming of old days and old friends, and perhaps, sometimes, of the old wine. mrs. grantly was alone in a small sitting-room which she frequented upstairs, when suddenly her son entered the room. "mother," he said, "i think it better to tell you that i am going to allington." "to allington, henry?" she knew very well who was at allington, and what must be the business which would take him there. "yes, mother. miss crawley is there, and there are circumstances which make it incumbent on me to see her without delay." "what circumstances, henry?" "as i intend to ask her to be my wife, i think it best to do so now. i owe it to her and to myself that she should not think that i am deterred by her father's position." "but would it not be reasonable that you should be deterred by her father's position?" "no, i think not. i think it would be dishonest as well as ungenerous. i cannot bring myself to brook such delay. of course i am alive to the misfortune which has fallen upon her,--upon her and me, too, should she ever become my wife. but it is one of those burdens which a man should have shoulders broad enough to bear." "quite so, if she were your wife, or even if you were engaged to her. then honour would require it of you, as well as affection. as it is, your honour does not require it, and i think you should hesitate, for all our sakes, and especially for edith's." "it will do edith no harm; and, mother, if you alone were concerned, i think you would feel that it would not hurt you." "i was not thinking of myself, henry." "as for my father, the very threats which he has used make me conscious that i have only to measure the price. he has told me that he will stop my allowance." "but that may not be the worst. think how you are situated. you are the younger son of a man who will be held to be justified in making an elder son, if he thinks fit to do so." "i can only hope that he will be fair to edith. if you will tell him that from me, it is all that i will ask you to do." "but you will see him yourself?" "no, mother; not till i have been to allington. then i will see him again or not, just as he pleases. i shall stop at guestwick, and will write to you a line from thence. if my father decides on doing anything, let me know at once, as it will be necessary that i should get rid of the lease of my house." "oh, henry!" "i have thought a great deal about it, mother, and i believe i am right. whether i am right or wrong, i shall do it. i will not ask you now for any promise or pledge; but should miss crawley become my wife, i hope that you at least will not refuse to see her as your daughter." having so spoken, he kissed his mother, and was about to leave the room; but she held him by his arm, and he saw that her eyes were full of tears. "dearest mother, if i grieve you i am sorry indeed." "not me, not me, not me," she said. "for my father, i cannot help it. had he not threatened me i should have told him also. as he has done so, you must tell him. but give him my kindest love." "oh, henry; you will be ruined. you will, indeed. can you not wait? remember how headstrong your father is, and yet how good;--and how he loves you! think of all that he has done for you. when did he refuse you anything?" "he has been good to me, but in this i cannot obey him. he should not ask me." "you are wrong. you are indeed. he has a right to expect that you will not bring disgrace upon the family." "nor will i;--except such disgrace as may attend upon poverty. good-by, mother. i wish you could have said one kind word to me." "have i not said a kind word?" "not as yet, mother." "i would not for worlds speak unkindly to you. if it were not for your father i would bid you bring whom you pleased home to me as your wife; and i would be as a mother to her. and if this girl should become your wife--" "it shall not be my fault if she does not." "i will try to love her--some day." then the major went, leaving edith at the rectory, as requested by his mother. his own dog-cart and his servant were at plumstead, and he drove himself home to cosby lodge. when the archdeacon returned the news was told to him at once. "henry has gone to allington to propose to miss crawley," said mrs. grantly. "gone,--without speaking to me!" "he left his love, and said that it was useless his remaining, as he knew he should only offend you." "he has made his bed, and he must lie upon it," said the archdeacon. and then there was not another word said about grace crawley on that occasion. chapter xxiii. miss lily dale's resolution. [illustration] the ladies at the small house at allington breakfasted always at nine,--a liberal nine; and the postman whose duty it was to deliver letters in that village at half-past eight, being also liberal in his ideas as to time, always arrived punctually in the middle of breakfast, so that mrs. dale expected her letters, and lily hers, just before their second cup of tea, as though the letters formed a part of the morning meal. jane, the maid-servant, always brought them in, and handed them to mrs. dale,--for lily had in these days come to preside at the breakfast-table; and then there would be an examination of the outsides before the envelopes were violated, and as each knew pretty well all the circumstances of the correspondence of the other, there would be some guessing as to what this or that epistle might contain; and after that a reading out loud of passages, and not unfrequently of the entire letter. but now, at the time of which i am speaking, grace crawley was at the small house, and therefore the common practice was somewhat in abeyance. on one of the first days of the new year jane brought in the letters as usual, and handed them to mrs. dale. lily was at the time occupied with the teapot, but still she saw the letters, and had not her hands so full as to be debarred from the expression of her usual anxiety. "mamma, i'm sure i see two there for me," she said. "only one for you, lily," said mrs. dale. lily instantly knew from the tone of the voice that some letter had come, which by the very aspect of the handwriting had disturbed her mother. "there is one for you, my dear," said mrs. dale, throwing a letter across the table to grace. "and one for you, lily, from bell. the others are for me." "and whom are yours from, mamma?" asked lily. "one is from mrs. jones; the other, i think, is a letter on business." then lily said nothing further, but she observed that her mother only opened one of her letters at the breakfast-table. lily was very patient;--not by nature, i think, but by exercise and practice. she had, once in her life, been too much in a hurry; and having then burned herself grievously, she now feared the fire. she did not therefore follow her mother after breakfast, but sat with grace over the fire, hemming diligently at certain articles of clothing which were intended for use in the hogglestock parsonage. the two girls were making a set of new shirts for mr. crawley. "but i know he will ask where they come from," said grace; "and then mamma will be scolded." "but i hope he'll wear them," said lily. "sooner or later he will," said grace; "because mamma manages generally to have her way at last." then they went on for an hour or so, talking about the home affairs at hogglestock. but during the whole time lily's mind was intent upon her mother's letter. nothing was said about it at lunch, and nothing when they walked out after lunch, for lily was very patient. but during the walk mrs. dale became aware that her daughter was uneasy. these two watched each other unconsciously with a closeness which hardly allowed a glance of the eye, certainly not a tone of the voice, to pass unobserved. to mrs. dale it was everything in the world that her daughter should be, if not happy at heart, at least tranquil; and to lily, who knew that her mother was always thinking of her, and of her alone, her mother was the only human divinity now worthy of adoration. but nothing was said about the letter during the walk. when they came home it was nearly dusk, and it was their habit to sit up for a while without candles, talking, till the evening had in truth set in and the unmistakable and enforced idleness of remaining without candles was apparent. during this time, lily, demanding patience of herself all the while, was thinking what she would do, or rather what she would say, about the letter. that nothing could be done or said in the presence of grace crawley was a matter of course, nor would she do or say anything to get rid of grace. she would be very patient; but she would, at last, ask her mother about the letter. and then, as luck would have it, grace crawley got up and left the room. lily still waited for a few minutes, and, in order that her patience might be thoroughly exercised, she said a word or two about her sister bell; how the eldest child's whooping-cough was nearly well, and how the baby was doing wonderful things with its first tooth. but as mrs. dale had already seen bell's letter, all this was not intensely interesting. at last lily came to the point and asked her question. "mamma, from whom was that other letter which you got this morning?" our story will perhaps be best told by communicating the letter to the reader before it was discussed with lily. the letter was as follows:-- general committee office, -- january, --. i should have said that mrs. dale had not opened the letter till she had found herself in the solitude of her own bedroom; and that then, before doing so, she had examined the handwriting with anxious eyes. when she first received it she thought she knew the writer, but was not sure. then she had glanced at the impression over the fastening, and had known at once from whom the letter had come. it was from mr. crosbie, the man who had brought so much trouble into her house, who had jilted her daughter; the only man in the world whom she had a right to regard as a positive enemy to herself. she had no doubt about it, as she tore the envelope open; and yet, when the address given made her quite sure, a new feeling of shivering came upon her, and she asked herself whether it might not be better that she should send his letter back to him without reading it. but she read it. "madam," the letter began,-- you will be very much surprised to hear from me, and i am quite aware that i am not entitled to the ordinary courtesy of an acknowledgment from you, should you be pleased to throw my letter on one side as unworthy of your notice. but i cannot refrain from addressing you, and must leave it to you to reply to me or not, as you may think fit. i will only refer to that episode of my life with which you are acquainted, for the sake of acknowledging my great fault and of assuring you that i did not go unpunished. it would be useless for me now to attempt to explain to you the circumstances which led me into that difficulty which ended in so great a blunder; but i will ask you to believe that my folly was greater than my sin. but i will come to my point at once. you are, no doubt, aware that i married a daughter of lord de courcy, and that i was separated from my wife a few weeks after our unfortunate marriage. it is now something over twelve months since she died at baden-baden in her mother's house. i never saw her since the day we first parted. i have not a word to say against her. the fault was mine in marrying a woman whom i did not love and had never loved. when i married lady alexandrina i loved, not her, but your daughter. i believe i may venture to say to you that your daughter once loved me. from the day on which i last wrote to you that terrible letter which told you of my fate, i have never mentioned the name of lily dale to human ears. it has been too sacred for my mouth,--too sacred for the intercourse of any friendship with which i have been blessed. i now use it for the first time to you, in order that i may ask whether it be possible that her old love should ever live again. mine has lived always,--has never faded for an hour, making me miserable during the years that have passed since i saw her, but capable of making me very happy, if i may be allowed to see her again. you will understand my purpose now as well as though i were to write pages. i have no scheme formed in my head for seeing your daughter again. how can i dare to form a scheme, when i am aware that the chance of success must be so strong against me? but if you will tell me that there can be a gleam of hope, i will obey any commands that you can put upon me in any way that you may point out. i am free again,--and she is free. i love her with all my heart, and seem to long for nothing in the world but that she should become my wife. whether any of her old love may still abide with her, you will know. if it do, it may even yet prompt her to forgive one who, in spite of falseness of conduct, has yet been true to her in heart. i have the honour to be, madam, your most obedient servant, adolphus crosbie. this was the letter which mrs. dale had received, and as to which she had not as yet said a word to lily, or even made up her mind whether she would say a word or not. dearly as the mother and daughter loved each other, thorough as was the confidence between them, yet the name of adolphus crosbie had not been mentioned between them oftener, perhaps, than half-a-dozen times since the blow had been struck. mrs. dale knew that their feelings about the man were altogether different. she, herself, not only condemned him for what he had done, believing it to be impossible that any shadow of excuse could be urged for his offence, thinking that the fault had shown the man to be mean beyond redemption,--but she had allowed herself actually to hate him. he had in one sense murdered her daughter, and she believed that she could never forgive him. but lily, as her mother well knew, had forgiven this man altogether, had made excuses for him which cleansed his sin of all its blackness in her own eyes, and was to this day anxious as ever for his welfare and his happiness. mrs. dale feared that lily did in truth love him still. if it was so, was she not bound to show her this letter? lily was old enough to judge for herself,--old enough, and wise enough too. mrs. dale told herself half-a-score of times that morning that she could not be justified in keeping the letter from her daughter. but yet she much wished that the letter had never been written, and would have given very much to be able to put it out of the way without injustice to lily. to her thinking it would be impossible that lily should be happy in marrying such a man. such a marriage now would be, as mrs. dale thought, a degradation to her daughter. a terrible injury had been done to her; but such reparation as this would, in mrs. dale's eyes, only make the injury deeper. and yet lily loved the man; and, loving him, how could she resist the temptation of his offer? "mamma, from whom was that letter which you got this morning?" lily asked. for a few moments mrs. dale remained silent. "mamma," continued lily, "i think i know whom it was from. if you tell me to ask nothing further, of course i will not." "no, lily; i cannot tell you that." "then, mamma, out with it at once. what is the use of shivering on the brink?" "it was from mr. crosbie." "i knew it. i cannot tell you why, but i knew it. and now, mamma;--am i to read it?" "you shall do as you please, lily." "then i please to read it." "listen to me a moment first. for myself, i wish that the letter had never been written. it tells badly for the man, as i think of it. i cannot understand how any man could have brought himself to address either you or me, after having acted as he acted." "but, mamma, we differ about all that, you know." "now he has written, and there is the letter,--if you choose to read it." lily had it in her hand, but she still sat motionless, holding it. "you think, mamma, i ought not to read it?" "you must judge for yourself, dearest." "and if i do not read it, what shall you do, mamma?" "i shall do nothing;--or, perhaps, i should in such a case acknowledge it, and tell him that we have nothing more to say to him." "that would be very stern." "he has done that which makes some sternness necessary." then lily was again silent, and still she sat motionless, with the letter in her hand. "mamma," she said, at last, "if you tell me not to read it, i will give it you back unread. if you bid me exercise my own judgment, i shall take it upstairs and read it." "you must exercise your own judgment," said mrs. dale. then lily got up from her chair and walked slowly out of the room, and went to her mother's chamber. the thoughts which passed through mrs. dale's mind while her daughter was reading the letter were very sad. she could find no comfort anywhere. lily, she told herself, would surely give way to this man's renewed expressions of affection, and she, mrs. dale herself, would be called upon to give her child to a man whom she could neither love nor respect;--whom, for aught she knew, she could never cease to hate. and she could not bring herself to believe that lily would be happy with such a man. as for her own life, desolate as it would be,--she cared little for that. mothers know that their daughters will leave them. even widowed mothers, mothers with but one child left,--such a one as was this mother,--are aware that they will be left alone, and they can bring themselves to welcome the sacrifice of themselves with something of satisfaction. mrs. dale and lily had, indeed, of late become bound together especially, so that the mother had been justified in regarding the link which joined them as being firmer than that by which most daughters are bound to their mothers;--but in all that she would have found no regret. even now, in these very days, she was hoping that lily might yet be brought to give herself to john eames. but she could not, after all that was come and gone, be happy in thinking that lily should be given to adolphus crosbie. when mrs. dale went upstairs to her own room before dinner lily was not there; nor were they alone together again that evening, except for a moment, when lily, as was usual, went into her mother's room when she was undressing. but neither of them then said a word about the letter. lily during dinner and throughout the evening had borne herself well, giving no sign of special emotion, keeping to herself entirely her own thoughts about the proposition made to her. and afterwards she had progressed diligently with the fabrication of mr. crawley's shirts, as though she had no such letter in her pocket. and yet there was not a moment in which she was not thinking of it. to grace, just before she went to bed, she did say one word. "i wonder whether it can ever come to a person to be so placed that there can be no doing right, let what will be done;--that, do or not do, as you may, it must be wrong?" "i hope you are not in such a condition," said grace. "i am something near it," said lily, "but perhaps if i look long enough i shall see the light." "i hope it will be a happy light at last," said grace, who thought that lily was referring only to john eames. at noon on the next day lily had still said nothing to her mother about the letter; and then what she said was very little. "when must you answer mr. crosbie, mamma?" "when, my dear?" "i mean how long may you take? it need not be to-day." "no;--certainly not to-day." "then i will talk over it with you to-morrow. it wants some thinking;--does it not, mamma?" "it would not want much with me, lily." "but then, mamma, you are not i. believing as i believe, feeling as i feel, it wants some thinking. that's what i mean." "i wish i could help you, my dear." "you shall help me,--to-morrow." the morrow came and lily was still very patient; but she had prepared herself, and had prepared the time also, so that in the hour of the gloaming she was alone with her mother, and sure that she might remain alone with her for an hour or so. "mamma, sit there," she said; "i will sit down here, and then i can lean against you and be comfortable. you can bear as much of me as that,--can't you, mamma?" then mrs. dale put her arm over lily's shoulder, and embraced her daughter. "and now, mamma, we will talk about this wonderful letter." "i do not know, dear, that i have anything to say about it." "but you must have something to say about it, mamma. you must bring yourself to have something to say,--to have a great deal to say." "you know what i think as well as though i talked for a week." "that won't do, mamma. come, you must not be hard with me." "hard, lily!" "i don't mean that you will hurt me, or not give me any food,--or that you will not go on caring about me more than anything else in the whole world ten times over;--" and lily as she spoke tightened the embrace of her mother's arm round her neck. "i'm not afraid you'll be hard in that way. but you must soften your heart so as to be able to mention his name and talk about him, and tell me what i ought to do. you must see with my eyes, and hear with my ears, and feel with my heart;--and then, when i know that you have done that, i must judge with your judgment." "i wish you to use your own." "yes;--because you won't see with my eyes and hear with my ears. that's what i call being hard. though you should feed me with blood from your breast, i should call you a hard pelican, unless you could give me also the sympathy which i demand from you. you see, mamma, we have never allowed ourselves to speak of this man." "what need has there been, dearest?" "only because we have been thinking of him. out of the full heart the mouth speaketh;--that is, the mouth does so when the full heart is allowed to have its own way comfortably." "there are things which should be forgotten." "forgotten, mamma!" "the memory of which should not be fostered by much talking." "i have never blamed you, mamma; never, even in my heart. i have known how good and gracious and sweet you have been. but i have often accused myself of cowardice because i have not allowed his name to cross my lips either to you or to bell. to talk of forgetting such an accident as that is a farce. and as for fostering the memory of it--! do you think that i have ever spent a night from that time to this without thinking of him? do you imagine that i have ever crossed our own lawn, or gone down through the garden-path there, without thinking of the times when he and i walked there together? there needs no fostering for such memories as those. they are weeds which will grow rank and strong though nothing be done to foster them. there is the earth and the rain, and that is enough for them. you cannot kill them if you would, and they certainly will not die because you are careful not to hoe and rake the ground." "lily, you forget how short the time has been as yet." "i have thought it very long; but the truth is, mamma, that this non-fostering of memories, as you call it, has not been the real cause of our silence. we have not spoken of mr. crosbie because we have not thought alike about him. had you spoken you would have spoken with anger, and i could not endure to hear him abused. that has been it." "partly so, lily." "now you must talk of him, and you must not abuse him. we must talk of him, because something must be done about his letter. even if it be left unanswered, it cannot be so left without discussion. and yet you must say no evil of him." "am i to think that he behaved well?" "no, mamma; you are not to think that; but you are to look upon his fault as a fault that has been forgiven." "it cannot be forgotten, dear." "but, mamma, when you go to heaven--" "my dear!" "but you will go to heaven, mamma, and why should i not speak of it? you will go to heaven, and yet i suppose you have been very wicked, because we are all very wicked. but you won't be told of your wickedness there. you won't be hated there, because you were this or that when you were here." "i hope not, lily; but isn't your argument almost profane?" "no; i don't think so. we ask to be forgiven just as we forgive. that is the way in which we hope to be forgiven, and therefore it is the way in which we ought to forgive. when you say that prayer at night, mamma, do you ever ask yourself whether you have forgiven him?" "i forgive him as far as humanity can forgive. i would do him no injury." "but if you and i are forgiven only after that fashion we shall never get to heaven." lily paused for some further answer from her mother, but as mrs. dale was silent she allowed that portion of the subject to pass as completed. "and now, mamma, what answer do you think we ought to send to his letter?" "my dear, how am i to say? you know i have said already that if i could act on my own judgment, i would send none." "but that was said in the bitterness of gall." "come, lily, say what you think yourself. we shall get on better when you have brought yourself to speak. do you think that you wish to see him again?" "i don't know, mamma. upon the whole, i think not." "then in heaven's name let me write and tell him so." "stop a moment, mamma. there are two persons here to be considered,--or rather, three." "i would not have you think of me in such a question." "i know you would not; but never mind, and let me go on. the three of us are concerned, at any rate; you, and he, and i. i am thinking of him now. we have all suffered, but i do believe that hitherto he has had the worst of it." "and who has deserved the worst?" "mamma, how can you go back in that way? we have agreed that that should be regarded as done and gone. he has been very unhappy, and now we see what remedy he proposes to himself for his misery. do i flatter myself if i allow myself to look at it in that way?" "perhaps he thinks he is offering a remedy for your misery." as this was said lily turned round slowly and looked up into her mother's face. "mamma," she said, "that is very cruel. i did not think you could be so cruel. how can you, who believe him to be so selfish, think that?" "it is very hard to judge of men's motives. i have never supposed him to be so black that he would not wish to make atonement for the evil he has done." "if i thought that there certainly could be but one answer." "who can look into a man's heart and judge all the sources of his actions? there are mixed feelings there, no doubt. remorse for what he has done; regret for what he has lost;--something, perhaps, of the purity of love." "yes, something,--i hope something,--for his sake." "but when a horse kicks and bites, you know his nature and do not go near him. when a man has cheated you once, you think he will cheat you again, and you do not deal with him. you do not look to gather grapes from thistles, after you have found that they are thistles." "i still go for the roses though i have often torn my hand with thorns in looking for them." "but you do not pluck those that have become cankered in the blowing." "because he was once at fault, will he be cankered always?" "i would not trust him." "now, mamma, see how different we are; or, rather, how different it is when one judges for oneself or for another. if it were simply myself, and my own future fate in life, i would trust him with it all to-morrow, without a word. i should go to him as a gambler goes to the gambling-table, knowing that if i lost everything i could hardly be poorer than i was before. but i should have a better hope than the gambler is justified in having. that, however, is not my difficulty. and when i think of him i can see a prospect of success for the gambler. i think so well of myself that, loving him, as i do;--yes, mamma, do not be uneasy;--loving him, as i do, i believe i could be a comfort to him. i think that he might be better with me than without me. that is, he would be so, if he could teach himself to look back upon the past as i can do, and to judge of me as i can judge of him." "he has nothing, at least, for which to condemn you." "but he would have, were i to marry him now. he would condemn me because i had forgiven him. he would condemn me because i had borne what he had done to me, and had still loved him--loved him through it all. he would feel and know the weakness;--and there is weakness. i have been weak in not being able to rid myself of him altogether. he would recognize this after awhile, and would despise me for it. but he would not see what there is of devotion to him in my being able to bear the taunts of the world in going back to him, and your taunts, and my own taunts. i should have to bear his also,--not spoken aloud, but to be seen in his face and heard in his voice,--and that i could not endure. if he despised me, and he would, that would make us both unhappy. therefore, mamma, tell him not to come; tell him that he can never come; but, if it be possible, tell him this tenderly." then she got up and walked away, as though she were going out of the room; but her mother had caught her before the door was opened. "lily," she said, "if you think you can be happy with him, he shall come." "no, mamma, no. i have been looking for the light ever since i read his letter, and i think i see it. and now, mamma, i will make a clean breast of it. from the moment in which i heard that that poor woman was dead, i have been in a state of flutter. it has been weak of me, and silly, and contemptible. but i could not help it. i kept on asking myself whether he would ever think of me now. well; he has answered the question; and has so done it that he has forced upon me the necessity of a resolution. i have resolved, and i believe that i shall be the better for it." the letter which mrs. dale wrote to mr. crosbie, was as follows:-- "mrs. dale presents her compliments to mr. crosbie, and begs to assure him that it will not now be possible that he should renew the relations which were broken off three years ago, between him and mrs. dale's family." it was very short, certainly, and it did not by any means satisfy mrs. dale. but she did not know how to say more without saying too much. the object of her letter was to save him the trouble of a futile perseverance, and them from the annoyance of persecution; and this she wished to do without mentioning her daughter's name. and she was determined that no word should escape her in which there was any touch of severity, any hint of an accusation. so much she owed to lily in return for all that lily was prepared to abandon. "there is my note," she said at last, offering it to her daughter. "i did not mean to see it," said lily, "and, mamma, i will not read it now. let it go. i know you have been good and have not scolded him." "i have not scolded him, certainly," said mrs. dale. and then the letter was sent. chapter xxiv. mrs. dobbs broughton's dinner-party. mr. john eames, of the income-tax office, had in these days risen so high in the world that people in the west-end of town, and very respectable people too,--people living in south kensington, in neighbourhoods not far from belgravia, and in very handsome houses round bayswater,--were glad to ask him out to dinner. money had been left to him by an earl, and rumour had of course magnified that money. he was a private secretary, which is in itself a great advance on being a mere clerk. and he had become the particularly intimate friend of an artist who had pushed himself into high fashion during the last year or two,--one conway dalrymple, whom the rich english world was beginning to pet and pelt with gilt sugar-plums, and who seemed to take very kindly to petting and gilt sugar-plums. i don't know whether the friendship of conway dalrymple had not done as much to secure john eames his position at the bayswater dinner-tables, as had either the private secretaryship, or the earl's money; and yet, when they had first known each other, now only two or three years ago, conway dalrymple had been the poorer man of the two. some chance had brought them together, and they had lived in the same rooms for nearly two years. this arrangement had been broken up, and the conway dalrymple of these days had a studio of his own, somewhere near kensington palace, where he painted portraits of young countesses, and in which he had even painted a young duchess. it was the peculiar merit of his pictures,--so at least said the art-loving world,--that though the likeness was always good, the stiffness of the modern portrait was never there. there was also ever some story told in dalrymple's pictures over and above the story of the portraiture. this countess was drawn as a fairy with wings, that countess as a goddess with a helmet. the thing took for a time, and conway dalrymple was picking up his gilt sugar-plums with considerable rapidity. on a certain day he and john eames were to dine out together at a certain house in that bayswater district. it was a large mansion, if not made of stone yet looking very stony, with thirty windows at least, all of them with cut-stone frames, requiring, let me say, at least four thousand a year for its maintenance. and its owner, dobbs broughton, a man very well known both in the city and over the grass in northamptonshire, was supposed to have a good deal more than four thousand a year. mrs. dobbs broughton, a very beautiful woman, who certainly was not yet thirty-five, let her worst enemies say what they might, had been painted by conway dalrymple as a grace. there were, of course, three graces in the picture, but each grace was mrs. dobbs broughton repeated. we all know how graces stand sometimes; two graces looking one way, and one the other. in this picture, mrs. dobbs broughton as centre grace looked you full in the face. the same lady looked away from you, displaying her left shoulder as one side grace, and displaying her right shoulder as the other side grace. for this pretty toy mr. conway dalrymple had picked up a gilt sugar-plum to the tune of six hundred pounds, and had, moreover, won the heart both of mr. and mrs. dobbs broughton. "upon my word, johnny," dalrymple had said to his friend, "he's a deuced good fellow, has really a good glass of claret,--which is getting rarer and rarer every day,--and will mount you for a day, whenever you please, down at market harboro'. come and dine with them." johnny eames condescended, and did go and dine with mr. dobbs broughton. i wonder whether he remembered, when conway dalrymple was talking of the rarity of good claret, how much beer the young painter used to drink when they were out together in the country, as they used to be occasionally, three years ago; and how the painter had then been used to complain that bitter beer cost threepence a glass, instead of twopence, which had hitherto been the recognized price of the article. in those days the sugar-plums had not been gilt, and had been much rarer. johnny eames and his friend went together to the house of mr. dobbs broughton. as dalrymple lived close to the broughtons, eames picked him up in a cab. "filthy things, these cabs are," said dalrymple, as he got into the hansom. "i don't know about that," said johnny. "they're pretty good, i think." "foul things," said conway. "don't you feel what a draught comes in here because the glass is cracked. i'd have one of my own, only i should never know what to do with it." "the greatest nuisance on earth, i should think," said johnny. "if you could always have it standing ready round the corner," said the artist, "it would be delightful. but one would want half a dozen horses, and two or three men for that." "i think the stands are the best," said johnny. they were a little late,--a little later than they should have been had they considered that eames was to be introduced to his new acquaintances. but he had already lived long enough before the world to be quite at his ease in such circumstances, and he entered mrs. broughton's drawing-room with his pleasantest smile upon his face. but as he entered he saw a sight which made him look serious in spite of his efforts to the contrary. mr. adolphus crosbie, secretary to the board at the general committee office, was standing on the rug before the fire. "who will be there?" eames had asked of his friend, when the suggestion to go and dine with dobbs broughton had been made to him. "impossible to say," conway had replied. "a certain horrible fellow of the name of musselboro, will almost certainly be there. he always is when they have anything of a swell dinner-party. he is a sort of partner of broughton's in the city. he wears a lot of chains, and has elaborate whiskers, and an elaborate waistcoat, which is worse; and he doesn't wash his hands as often as he ought to do." "an objectionable party, rather, i should say," said eames. "well, yes; musselboro is objectionable. he's very good-humoured you know, and good-looking in a sort of way, and goes everywhere; that is among people of this sort. of course he's not hand-and-glove with lord derby; and i wish he could be made to wash his hands. they haven't any other standing dish, and you may meet anybody. they always have a member of parliament; they generally manage to catch a baronet; and i have met a peer there. on that august occasion musselboro was absent." so instructed, eames, on entering the room, looked round at once for mr. musselboro. "if i don't see the whiskers and chain," he had said, "i shall know there's a peer." mr. musselboro was in the room, but eames had descried mr. crosbie long before he had seen mr. musselboro. there was no reason for confusion on his part in meeting crosbie. they had both loved lily dale. crosbie might have been successful, but for his own fault. eames had on one occasion been thrown into contact with him, and on that occasion had quarrelled with him and had beaten him, giving him a black eye, and in this way obtaining some mastery over him. there was no reason why he should be ashamed of meeting crosbie; and yet, when he saw him, the blood mounted all over his face, and he forgot to make any further search for mr. musselboro. "i am so much obliged to mr. dalrymple for bringing you," said mrs. dobbs broughton very sweetly, "only he ought to have come sooner. naughty man! i know it was his fault. will you take miss demolines down? miss demolines,--mr. eames." mr. dobbs broughton was somewhat sulky and had not welcomed our hero very cordially. he was beginning to think that conway dalrymple gave himself airs and did not sufficiently understand that a man who had horses at market harboro' and ' lafitte was at any rate as good as a painter who was pelted with gilt sugar-plums for painting countesses. but he was a man whose ill-humour never lasted long, and he was soon pressing his wine on johnny eames as though he loved him dearly. but there was yet a few minutes before they went down to dinner, and johnny eames, as he endeavoured to find something to say to miss demolines,--which was difficult, as he did not in the least know miss demolines' line of conversation,--was aware that his efforts were impeded by thoughts of mr. crosbie. the man looked older than when he had last seen him,--so much older that eames was astonished. he was bald, or becoming bald; and his whiskers were grey, or were becoming grey, and he was much fatter. johnny eames, who was always thinking of lily dale, could not now keep himself from thinking of adolphus crosbie. he saw at a glance that the man was in mourning, though there was nothing but his shirt-studs by which to tell it; and he knew that he was in mourning for his wife. "i wish she might have lived for ever," johnny said to himself. he had not yet been definitely called upon by the entrance of the servant to offer his arm to miss demolines, when crosbie walked across to him from the rug and addressed him. "mr. eames," said he, "it is some time since we met." and he offered his hand to johnny. "yes, it is," said johnny, accepting the proffered salutation. "i don't know exactly how long, but ever so long." "i am very glad to have the opportunity of shaking hands with you," said crosbie; and then he retired, as it had become his duty to wait with his arm ready for mrs. dobbs broughton. having married an earl's daughter he was selected for that honour. there was a barrister in the room, and mrs. dobbs broughton ought to have known better. as she professed to be guided in such matters by the rules laid down by the recognized authorities, she ought to have been aware that a man takes no rank from his wife. but she was entitled i think to merciful consideration for her error. a woman situated as was mrs. dobbs broughton cannot altogether ignore these terrible rules. she cannot let her guests draw lots for precedence. she must select some one for the honour of her own arm. and amidst the intricacies of rank how is it possible for a woman to learn and to remember everything? if providence would only send mrs. dobbs broughton a peer for every dinner-party, the thing would go more easily; but what woman will tell me, off-hand, which should go out of a room first: a c.b., an admiral of the blue, the dean of barchester, or the dean of arches? who is to know who was everybody's father? how am i to remember that young thompson's progenitor was made a baronet and not a knight when he was lord mayor? perhaps mrs. dobbs broughton ought to have known that mr. crosbie could have gained nothing by his wife's rank, and the barrister may be considered to have been not immoderately severe when he simply spoke of her afterwards as the silliest and most ignorant old woman he had ever met in his life. eames with the lovely miss demolines on his arm was the last to move before the hostess. mr. dobbs broughton had led the way energetically with old lady demolines. there was no doubt about lady demolines,--as his wife had told him, because her title marked her. her husband had been a physician in paris, and had been knighted in consequence of some benefit supposed to have been done to some french scion of royalty,--when such scions in france were royal and not imperial. lady demolines' rank was not much, certainly; but it served to mark her, and was beneficial. [illustration: "i am very glad to have the opportunity of shaking hands with you."] as he went downstairs eames was still thinking of his meeting with crosbie, and had as yet hardly said a word to his neighbour, and his neighbour had not said a word to him. now johnny understood dinners quite well enough to know that in a party of twelve, among whom six are ladies, everything depends on your next neighbour, and generally on the next neighbour who specially belongs to you; and as he took his seat he was a little alarmed as to his prospect for the next two hours. on his other hand sat mrs. ponsonby, the barrister's wife, and he did not much like the look of mrs. ponsonby. she was fat, heavy, and good-looking; with a broad space between her eyes, and light smooth hair;--a youthful british matron every inch of her, of whom any barrister with a young family of children might be proud. now miss demolines, though she was hardly to be called beautiful, was at any rate remarkable. she had large, dark, well-shaped eyes, and very dark hair, which she wore tangled about in an extraordinary manner, and she had an expressive face,--a face made expressive by the owner's will. such power of expression is often attained by dint of labour,--though it never reaches to the expression of anything in particular. she was almost sufficiently good-looking to be justified in considering herself to be a beauty. but miss demolines, though she had said nothing as yet, knew her game very well. a lady cannot begin conversation to any good purpose in the drawing-room, when she is seated and the man is standing;--nor can she know then how the table may subsequently arrange itself. powder may be wasted, and often is wasted, and the spirit rebels against the necessity of commencing a second enterprise. but miss demolines, when she found herself seated, and perceived that on the other side of her was mr. ponsonby, a married man, commenced her enterprise at once, and our friend john eames was immediately aware that he would have no difficulty as to conversation. "don't you like winter dinner-parties?" began miss demolines. this was said just as johnny was taking his seat, and he had time to declare that he liked dinner-parties at all periods of the year if the dinner was good and the people pleasant before the host had muttered something which was intended to be understood to be a grace. "but i mean especially in winter," continued miss demolines. "i don't think daylight should ever be admitted at a dinner-table; and though you may shut out the daylight, you can't shut out the heat. and then there are always so many other things to go to in may and june and july. dinners should be stopped by act of parliament for those three months. i don't care what people do afterwards, because we always fly away on the first of august. "that is good-natured on your part." "i'm sure what i say would be for the good of society;--but at this time of the year a dinner is warm and comfortable." "very comfortable, i think." "and people get to know each other;"--in saying which miss demolines looked very pleasantly up into johnny's face. "there is a great deal in that," said he. "i wonder whether you and i will get to know each other?" "of course we shall;--that is, if i'm worth knowing." "there can be no doubt about that, i should say." "time alone can tell. but, mr. eames, i see that mr. crosbie is a friend of yours." "hardly a friend." "i know very well that men are friends when they step up and shake hands with each other. it is the same as when women kiss." "when i see women kiss, i always think that there is deep hatred at the bottom of it." "and there may be deep hatred between you and mr. crosbie for anything i know to the contrary," said miss demolines. "the very deepest," said johnny, pretending to look grave. "ah; then i know he is your bosom friend, and that you will tell him anything i say. what a strange history that was of his marriage!" "so i have heard;--but he is not quite bosom friend enough with me to have told me all the particulars. i know that his wife is dead." "dead; oh, yes; she has been dead these two years i should say." "not so long as that, i should think." "well,--perhaps not. but it's ever so long ago;--quite long enough for him to be married again. did you know her?" "i never saw her in my life." "i knew her,--not well indeed; but i am intimate with her sister, lady amelia gazebee, and i have met her there. none of that family have married what you may call well. and now, mr. eames, pray look at the menu and tell me what i am to eat. arrange for me a little dinner of my own, out of the great bill of fare provided. i always expect some gentleman to do that for me. mr. crosbie, you know, only lived with his wife for one month." "so i've been told." "and a terrible month they had of it. i used to hear of it. he doesn't look that sort of man, does he?" "well;--no. i don't think he does. but what sort of man do you mean?" "why, such a regular bluebeard! of course you know how he treated another girl before he married lady alexandrina. she died of it,--with a broken heart; absolutely died; and there he is, indifferent as possible;--and would treat me in the same way to-morrow if i would let him." johnny eames, finding it impossible to talk to miss demolines about lily dale, took up the card of the dinner and went to work in earnest, recommending his neighbour what to eat and what to pass by. "but you've skipped the pâté," she said, with energy. "allow me to ask you to choose mine for me instead. you are much more fit to do it." and she did choose his dinner for him. they were sitting at a round table, and in order that the ladies and gentlemen should alternate themselves properly, mr. musselboro was opposite to the host. next to him on his right was old mrs. van siever, the widow of a dutch merchant, who was very rich. she was a ghastly thing to look at, as well from the quantity as from the nature of the wiggeries which she wore. she had not only a false front, but long false curls, as to which it cannot be conceived that she would suppose that any one would be ignorant as to their falseness. she was very thin, too, and very small, and putting aside her wiggeries, you would think her to be all eyes. she was a ghastly old woman to the sight, and not altogether pleasant in her mode of talking. she seemed to know mr. musselboro very well, for she called him by his name without any prefix. he had, indeed, begun life as a clerk in her husband's office. "why doesn't what's-his-name have real silver forks?" she said to him. now mrs. what's-his-name,--mrs. dobbs broughton we will call her,--was sitting on the other side of mr. musselboro, between him and mr. crosbie; and, so placed, mr. musselboro found it rather hard to answer the question, more especially as he was probably aware that other questions would follow. "what's the use?" said mr. musselboro. "everybody has these plated things now. what's the use of a lot of capital lying dead?" "everybody doesn't. i don't. you know as well as i do, musselboro, that the appearance of the thing goes for a great deal. capital isn't lying dead as long as people know that you've got it." before answering this mr. musselboro was driven to reflect that mrs. dobbs broughton would probably hear his reply. "you won't find that there is any doubt on that head in the city as to broughton," he said. "i shan't ask in the city, and if i did, i should not believe what people told me. i think there are sillier folks in the city than anywhere else. what did he give for that picture upstairs which the young man painted?" "what, mrs. dobbs broughton's portrait?" "you don't call that a portrait, do you? i mean the one with the three naked women?" mr. musselboro glanced round with one eye, and felt sure that mrs. dobbs broughton had heard the question. but the old woman was determined to have an answer. "how much did he give for it, musselboro?" "six hundred pounds, i believe," said mr. musselboro, looking straight before him as he answered, and pretending to treat the subject with perfect indifference. "did he indeed, now? six hundred pounds! and yet he hasn't got silver spoons. how things are changed! tell me, musselboro, who was that young man who came in with the painter?" mr. musselboro turned round and asked mrs. broughton. "a mr. john eames, mrs. van siever," said mrs. broughton, whispering across the front of mr. musselboro. "he is private secretary to lord--lord--lord--i forget who. some one of the ministers, i know. and he had a great fortune left him the other day by lord--lord--lord somebody else." "all among the lords, i see," said mrs. van siever. then mrs. dobbs broughton drew herself back, remembering some little attack which had been made on her by mrs. van siever when she herself had had the real lord to dine with her. there was a miss van siever there also, sitting between crosbie and conway dalrymple. conway dalrymple had been specially brought there to sit next to miss van siever. "there's no knowing how much she'll have," said mrs. dobbs broughton, in the warmth of her friendship. "but it's all real. it is, indeed. the mother is awfully rich." "but she's awful in another way, too," said dalrymple. "indeed she is, conway." mrs. dobbs broughton had got into a way of calling her young friend by his christian name. "all the world calls him conway," she had said to her husband once when her husband caught her doing so. "she is awful. her husband made the business in the city, when things were very different from what they are now, and i can't help having her. she has transactions of business with dobbs. but there's no mistake about the money." "she needn't leave it to her daughter, i suppose?" "but why shouldn't she? she has nobody else. you might offer to paint her, you know. she'd make an excellent picture. so much character. you come and see her." conway dalrymple had expressed his willingness to meet miss van siever, saying something, however, as to his present position being one which did not admit of any matrimonial speculation. then mrs. dobbs broughton had told him, with much seriousness, that he was altogether wrong, and that were he to forget himself, or commit himself, or misbehave himself, there must be an end to their pleasant intimacy. in answer to which, mr. dalrymple had said that his grace was surely of all graces the least gracious. and now he had come to meet miss van siever, and was seated next to her at table. miss van siever, who at this time had perhaps reached her twenty-fifth year, was certainly a handsome young woman. she was fair and large, bearing no likeness whatever to her mother. her features were regular, and her full, clear eyes had a brilliance of their own, looking at you always stedfastly and boldly, though very seldom pleasantly. her mouth would have been beautiful had it not been too strong for feminine beauty. her teeth were perfect,--too perfect,--looking like miniature walls of carved ivory. she knew the fault of this perfection, and shewed her teeth as little as she could. her nose and chin were finely chiselled, and her head stood well upon her shoulders. but there was something hard about it all which repelled you. dalrymple, when he saw her, recoiled from her, not outwardly, but inwardly. yes, she was handsome, as may be a horse or a tiger; but there was about her nothing of feminine softness. he could not bring himself to think of taking clara van siever as the model that was to sit before him for the rest of his life. he certainly could make a picture of her, as had been suggested by his friend, mrs. broughton, but it must be as judith with the dissevered head, or as jael using her hammer over the temple of sisera. yes,--he thought she would do as jael; and if mrs. van siever would throw him a sugar-plum,--for he would want the sugar-plum, seeing that any other result was out of the question,--the thing might be done. such was the idea of mr. conway dalrymple respecting miss van siever,--before he led her down to dinner. at first he found it hard to talk to her. she answered him, and not with monosyllables. but she answered him without sympathy, or apparent pleasure in talking. now the young artist was in the habit of being flattered by ladies, and expected to have his small talk made very easy for him. he liked to give himself little airs, and was not generally disposed to labour very hard at the task of making himself agreeable. "were you ever painted yet?" he asked her after they had both been sitting silent for two or three minutes. "was i ever--ever painted? in what way?" "i don't mean rouged, or enamelled, or got up by madame rachel; but have you ever had your portrait taken?" "i have been photographed,--of course." "that's why i asked you if you had been painted,--so as to make some little distinction between the two. i am a painter by profession, and do portraits." "so mrs. broughton told me." "i am not asking for a job, you know." "i am quite sure of that." "but i should have thought you would have been sure to have sat to somebody." "i never did. i never thought of doing so. one does those things at the instigation of one's intimate friends,--fathers, mothers, uncles, and aunts, and the like." "or husbands, perhaps,--or lovers?" "well, yes; my intimate friend is my mother, and she would never dream of such a thing. she hates pictures." "hates pictures!" "and especially portraits. and i'm afraid, mr. dalrymple, she hates artists." "good heavens; how cruel! i suppose there is some story attached to it. there has been some fatal likeness,--some terrible picture,--something in her early days?" "nothing of the kind, mr. dalrymple. it is merely the fact that her sympathies are with ugly things, rather than with pretty things. i think she loves the mahogany dinner-table better than anything else in the house; and she likes to have everything dark, and plain, and solid." "and good?" "good of its kind, certainly." "if everybody was like your mother, how would the artists live?" "there would be none." "and the world, you think, would be none the poorer?" "i did not speak of myself. i think the world would be very much the poorer. i am very fond of the ancient masters, though i do not suppose that i understand them." "they are easier understood than the modern, i can tell you. perhaps you don't care for modern pictures?" "not in comparison, certainly. if that is uncivil, you have brought it on yourself. but i do not in truth mean anything derogatory to the painters of the day. when their pictures are old, they,--that is the good ones among them,--will be nice also." "pictures are like wine, and want age, you think?" "yes, and statues too, and buildings above all things. the colours of new paintings are so glaring, and the faces are so bright and self-conscious, that they look to me when i go to the exhibition like coloured prints in a child's new picture-book. it is the same thing with buildings. one sees all the points, and nothing is left to the imagination." "i find i have come across a real critic." "i hope, at any rate, i am not a sham one;" and miss van siever as she said this looked very savage. "i shouldn't take you to be a sham in anything." "ah, that would be saying a great deal for myself. who can undertake to say that he is not a sham in anything?" as she said this the ladies were getting up. so miss van siever also got up, and left mr. conway dalrymple to consider whether he could say or could think of himself that he was not a sham in anything. as regarded miss clara van siever, he began to think that he should not object to paint her portrait, even though there might be no sugar-plum. he would certainly do it as jael; and he would, if he dared, insert dimly in the background some idea of the face of the mother, half-appearing, half-vanishing, as the spirit of the sacrifice. he was composing his picture, while mr. dobbs broughton was arranging himself and his bottles. "musselboro," he said, "i'll come up between you and crosbie. mr. eames, though i run away from you, the claret shall remain; or, rather, it shall flow backwards and forwards as rapidly as you will." "i'll keep it moving," said johnny. "do; there's a good fellow. it's a nice glass of wine, isn't it? old ramsby, who keeps as good a stock of stuff as any wine-merchant in london, gave me a hint, three or four years ago, that he'd a lot of tidy bordeaux. it's ' , you know. he had ninety dozen, and i took it all." "what was the figure, broughton?" said crosbie, asking the question which he knew was expected. "well, i only gave one hundred and four for it then; it's worth a hundred and twenty now. i wouldn't sell a bottle of it for any money. come, dalrymple, pass it round; but fill your glass first." "thank you, no; i don't like it. i'll drink sherry." "don't like it!" said dobbs broughton. "it's strange, isn't it? but i don't." "i thought you particularly told me to drink his claret?" said johnny to his friend afterwards. "so i did," said conway; "and wonderfully good wine it is. but i make it a rule never to eat or drink anything in a man's house when he praises it himself and tells me the price of it." "and i make it a rule never to cut the nose off my own face," said johnny. before they went, johnny eames had been specially invited to call on lady demolines, and had said that he would do so. "we live in porchester gardens," said miss demolines. "upon my word, i believe that the farther london stretches in that direction, the farther mamma will go. she thinks the air so much better. i know it's a long way." "distance is nothing to me," said johnny; "i can always set off over night." conway dalrymple did not get invited to call on mrs. van siever, but before he left the house he did say a word or two more to his friend mrs. broughton as to clara van siever. "she is a fine young woman," he said; "she is indeed." "you have found it out, have you?" "yes, i have found it out. i do not doubt that some day she'll murder her husband or her mother, or startle the world by some newly-invented crime; but that only makes her the more interesting." "and when you add to that all the old woman's money," said mrs. dobbs broughton, "you think that she might do?" "for a picture, certainly. i'm speaking of her simply as a model. could we not manage it? get her once here, without her mother knowing it, or broughton, or any one. i've got the subject,--jael and sisera, you know. i should like to put musselboro in as sisera, with the nail half driven in." mrs. dobbs broughton declared that the scheme was a great deal too wicked for her participation, but at last she promised to think of it. "you might as well come up and have a cigar," dalrymple said, as he and his friend left mr. broughton's house. johnny said that he would go up and have a cigar or two. "and now tell me what you think of mrs. dobbs broughton and her set," said conway. "well; i'll tell you what i think of them. i think they stink of money, as the people say; but i'm not sure that they've got any all the same." "i should suppose he makes a large income." "very likely, and perhaps spends more than he makes. a good deal of it looked to me like make-believe. there's no doubt about the claret, but the champagne was execrable. a man is a criminal to have such stuff handed round to his guests. and there isn't the ring of real gold about the house." "i hate the ring of the gold, as you call it," said the artist. "so do i,--i hate it like poison; but if it is there, i like it to be true. there is a sort of persons going now,--and one meets them out here and there every day of one's life,--who are downright brummagem to the ear and to the touch and to the sight, and we recognize them as such at the very first moment. my honoured lord and master, sir raffle, is one such. there is no mistaking him. clap him down upon the counter, and he rings dull and untrue at once. pardon me, my dear conway, if i say the same of your excellent friend mr. dobbs broughton." "i think you go a little too far, but i don't deny it. what you mean is, that he's not a gentleman." "i mean a great deal more than that. bless you, when you come to talk of a gentleman, who is to define the word? how do i know whether or no i'm a gentleman myself? when i used to be in burton crescent, i was hardly a gentleman then,--sitting at the same table with mrs. roper and the lupexes;--do you remember them, and the lovely amelia?" "i suppose you were a gentleman, then, as well as now." "you, if you had been painting duchesses then, with a studio in kensington gardens, would not have said so, if you had happened to come across me. i can't define a gentleman, even in my own mind;--but i can define the sort of man with whom i think i can live pleasantly." "and poor dobbs doesn't come within the line?" "n--o, not quite; a very nice fellow, i'm quite sure, and i'm very much obliged to you for taking me there." "i never will take you to any house again. and what did you think of his wife?" "that's a horse of another colour altogether. a pretty woman with such a figure as hers has got a right to be anything she pleases. i see you are a great favourite." "no, i'm not;--not especially. i do like her. she wants to make up a match between me and that miss van siever. miss van is to have gold by the ingot, and jewels by the bushel, and a hatful of bank shares, and a whole mine in cornwall, for her fortune." "and is very handsome into the bargain." "yes; she's handsome." "so is her mother," said johnny. "if you take the daughter, i'll take the mother, and see if i can't do you out of a mine or two. good-night, old fellow. i'm only joking about old dobbs. i'll go and dine there again to-morrow, if you like it." chapter xxv. miss madalina demolines. [illustration] "i don't think you care two straws about her," conway dalrymple said to his friend john eames, two days after the dinner-party at mrs. dobbs broughton's. the painter was at work in his studio, and the private secretary from the income-tax office, who was no doubt engaged on some special mission to the west end on the part of sir raffle buffle, was sitting in a lounging-chair and smoking a cigar. "because i don't go about with my stockings cross-gartered, and do that kind of business?" "well, yes; because you don't do that kind of business, more or less." "it isn't in my line, my dear fellow. i know what you mean, very well. i daresay, artistically speaking,--" "don't be an ass, johnny." "well then, poetically, or romantically, if you like that better,-- i daresay that poetically or romantically i am deficient. i eat my dinner very well, and i don't suppose i ought to do that; and, if you'll believe me, i find myself laughing sometimes." "i never knew a man who laughed so much. you're always laughing." "and that, you think, is a bad sign?" "i don't believe you really care about her. i think you are aware that you have got a love-affair on hand, and that you hang on to it rather persistently, having in some way come to a resolution that you would be persistent. but there isn't much heart in it. i daresay there was once." "and that is your opinion?" "you are just like some of those men who for years past have been going to write a book on some new subject. the intention has been sincere at first, and it never altogether dies away. but the would-be author, though he still talks of his work, knows that it will never be executed, and is very patient under the disappointment. all enthusiasm about the thing is gone, but he is still known as the man who is going to do it some day. you are the man who means to marry miss dale in five, ten, or twenty years' time." "now, conway, all that is thoroughly unfair. the would-be author talks of his would-be book to everybody. i have never talked of miss dale to any one but you, and one or two very old family friends. and from year to year, and from month to month, i have done all that has been in my power to win her. i don't think i shall ever succeed, and yet i am as determined about it as i was when i first began it,--or rather much more so. if i do not marry lily, i shall never marry at all, and if anybody were to tell me to-morrow that she had made up her mind to have me, i should well nigh go mad for joy. but i am not going to give up all my life for love. indeed the less i can bring myself to give up for it, the better i shall think of myself. now i'll go away and call on old lady demolines. "and flirt with her daughter." "yes;--flirt with her daughter, if i get the opportunity. why shouldn't i flirt with her daughter?" "why not, if you like it?" "i don't like it,--not particularly, that is; because the young lady is not very pretty, nor yet very graceful, nor yet very wise." "she is pretty after a fashion," said the artist, "and if not wise, she is at any rate clever." "nevertheless, i do not like her," said john eames. "then why do you go there?" "one has to be civil to people though they are neither pretty nor wise. i don't mean to insinuate that miss demolines is particularly bad, or indeed that she is worse than young ladies in general. i only abused her because there was an insinuation in what you said, that i was going to amuse myself with miss demolines in the absence of miss dale. the one thing has nothing to do with the other thing. nothing that i shall say to miss demolines will at all militate against my loyalty to lily." "all right, old fellow;--i didn't mean to put you on your purgation. i want you to look at that sketch. do you know for whom it is intended?" johnny took up a scrap of paper, and having scrutinized it for a minute or two declared that he had not the slightest idea who was represented. "you know the subject,--the story that is intended to be told?" said dalrymple. "upon my word i don't. there's some old fellow seems to be catching it over the head; but it's all so confused i can't make much of it. the woman seems to be uncommon angry." "do you ever read your bible?" "ah, dear! not as often as i ought to do. ah, i see; it's sisera. i never could quite believe that story. jael might have killed captain sisera in his sleep,--for which, by-the-by, she ought to have been hung, and she might possibly have done it with a hammer and a nail. but she could not have driven it through, and staked him to the ground." "i've warrant enough for putting it into a picture, at any rate. my jael there is intended for miss van siever." "miss van siever! well, it is like her. has she sat for it?" "o dear, no; not yet. i mean to get her to do so. there's a strength about her, which would make her sit the part admirably. and i fancy she would like to be driving a nail into a fellow's head. i think i shall take musselboro for a sisera." "you're not in earnest?" "he would just do for it. but of course i shan't ask him to sit, as my jael would not like it. she would not consent to operate on so base a subject. so you really are going down to guestwick?" "yes; i start to-morrow. good-by, old fellow. i'll come and sit for sisera if you'll let me;--only miss van jael shall have a blunted nail, if you please." then johnny left the artist's room and walked across from kensington to lady demolines' house. as he went he partly accused himself, and partly excused himself in that matter of his love for lily dale. there were moments of his life in which he felt that he would willingly die for her,--that life was not worth having without her,--in which he went about inwardly reproaching fortune for having treated him so cruelly. why should she not be his? he half believed that she loved him. she had almost told him so. she could not surely still love that other man who had treated her with such vile falsehood? as he considered the question in all its bearings he assured himself over and over again that there would be now no fear of that rival;--and yet he had such fears, and hated crosbie almost as much as ever. it was a thousand pities, certainly, that the man should have been made free by the death of his wife. but it could hardly be that he should seek lily again, or that lily, if so sought, should even listen to him. but yet there he was, free once more,--an odious being, whom johnny was determined to sacrifice to his vengeance, if cause for such sacrifice should occur. and thus thinking of the real truth of his love, he endeavoured to excuse himself to himself from that charge of vagueness and laxness which his friend conway dalrymple had brought against him. and then again he accused himself of the same sin. if he had been positively in earnest, with downright manly earnestness, would he have allowed the thing to drag itself on with a weak uncertain life, as it had done for the last two or three years? lily dale had been a dream to him in his boyhood; and he had made a reality of his dream as soon as he had become a man. but before he had been able, as a man, to tell his love to the girl whom he had loved as a child, another man had intervened, and his prize had been taken from him. then the wretched victor had thrown his treasure away, and he, john eames, had been content to stoop to pick it up,--was content to do so now. but there was something which he felt to be unmanly in the constant stooping. dalrymple had told him that he was like a man who is ever writing a book and yet never writes it. he would make another attempt to get his book written,--an attempt into which he would throw all his strength and all his heart. he would do his very best to make lily his own. but if he failed now, he would have done with it. it seemed to him to be below his dignity as a man to be always coveting a thing which he could not obtain. johnny was informed by the boy in buttons, who opened the door for him at lady demolines', that the ladies were at home, and he was shown up into the drawing-room. here he was allowed full ten minutes to explore the knicknacks on the table, and open the photograph book, and examine the furniture, before miss demolines made her appearance. when she did come, her hair was tangled more marvellously even than when he saw her at the dinner-party, and her eyes were darker, and her cheeks thinner. "i'm afraid mamma won't be able to come down," said miss demolines. "she will be so sorry; but she is not quite well to-day. the wind is in the east, she says, and when she says the wind is in the east she always refuses to be well." "then i should tell her it was in the west." "but it is in the east." "ah, there i can't help you, miss demolines. i never know which is east, and which west; and if i did, i shouldn't know from which point the wind blew." "at any rate mamma can't come downstairs, and you must excuse her. what a very nice woman mrs. dobbs broughton is." johnny acknowledged that mrs. dobbs broughton was charming. "and mr. broughton is so good-natured!" johnny again assented. "i like him of all things," said miss demolines. "so do i," said johnny;--"i never liked anybody so much in my life. i suppose one is bound to say that kind of thing." "oh, you ill-natured man," said miss demolines. "i suppose you think that poor mr. broughton is a little--just a little,--you know what i mean." "not exactly," said johnny. "yes, you do; you know very well what i mean. and of course he is. how can he help it?" "poor fellow,--no. i don't suppose he can help it, or he would;--wouldn't he?" "of course mr. broughton had not the advantage of birth or much early education. all his friends know that, and make allowance accordingly. when she married him, she was aware of his deficiency, and made up her mind to put up with it." "it was very kind of her; don't you think so?" "i knew maria clutterbuck for years before she was married. of course she was very much my senior, but, nevertheless, we were friends. i think i was hardly more than twelve years old when i first began to correspond with maria. she was then past twenty. so you see, mr. eames, i make no secret of my age." "why should you?" "but never mind that. everybody knows that maria clutterbuck was very much admired. of course i'm not going to tell you or any other gentleman all her history." "i was in hopes you were." "then certainly your hopes will be frustrated, mr. eames. but undoubtedly when she told us that she was going to take dobbs broughton, we were a little disappointed. maria clutterbuck had been used to a better kind of life. you understand what i mean, mr. eames?" "oh, exactly;--and yet it's not a bad kind of life, either." "no, no; that is true. it has its attractions. she keeps her carriage, sees a good deal of company, has an excellent house, and goes abroad for six weeks every year. but you know, mr. eames, there is, perhaps, a little uncertainty about it." "life is always uncertain, miss demolines." "you're quizzing now, i know. but don't you feel now, really, that city money is always very chancy? it comes and goes so quick." "as regards the going, i think that's the same with all money," said johnny. "not with land, or the funds. mamma has every shilling laid out in a first-class mortgage on land at four per cent. that does make one feel so secure! the land can't run away." "but you think poor broughton's money may?" "it's all speculation, you know. i don't believe she minds it; i don't, indeed. she lives that kind of fevered life now that she likes excitement. of course we all know that mr. dobbs broughton is not what we can call an educated gentleman. his manners are against him, and he is very ignorant. even dear maria would admit that." "one would perhaps let that pass without asking her opinion at all." "she has acknowledged it to me, twenty times. but he is very good-natured, and lets her do pretty nearly anything that she likes. i only hope she won't trespass on his good-nature. i do, indeed." "you mean, spend too much money?" "no; i didn't mean that exactly. of course she ought to be moderate, and i hope she is. to that kind of fevered existence profuse expenditure is perhaps necessary. but i was thinking of something else. i fear she is a little giddy." "dear me! i should have thought she was too--too--too--" "you mean too old for anything of that kind. maria broughton must be thirty-three if she's a day." "that would make you just twenty-five," said johnny, feeling perfectly sure as he said so that the lady whom he was addressing was at any rate past thirty! "never mind my age, mr. eames; whether i am twenty-five, or a hundred-and-five, has nothing to do with poor maria clutterbuck. but now i'll tell you why i mention all this to you. you must have seen how foolish she is about your friend mr. dalrymple?" "upon my word, i haven't." "nonsense, mr. eames; you have. if she were your wife, would you like her to call a man conway? of course you would not. i don't mean to say that there's anything in it. i know maria's principles too well to suspect that. it's merely because she's flighty and fevered." "that fevered existence accounts for it all," said johnny. "no doubt it does," said miss demolines, with a nod of her head, which was intended to show that she was willing to give her friend the full benefit of any excuse which could be offered for her. "but don't you think you could do something, mr. eames?" "i do something?" "yes, you. you and mr. dalrymple are such friends! if you were just to point out to him you know--" "point out what? tell him that he oughtn't to be called conway? because, after all, i suppose that's the worst of it. if you mean to say that dalrymple is in love with mrs. broughton, you never made a greater mistake in your life." "oh, no; not in love. that would be terrible, you know." and miss demolines shook her head sadly. "but there may be so much mischief done without anything of that kind! thoughtlessness, you know, mr. eames,--pure thoughtlessness! think of what i have said, and if you can speak a word to your friend, do. and now i want to ask you something else. i'm so glad you are come, because circumstances have seemed to make it necessary that you and i should know each other. we may be of so much use if we put our heads together." johnny bowed when he heard this, but made no immediate reply. "have you heard anything about a certain picture that is being planned?" johnny did not wish to answer this question, but miss demolines paused so long, and looked so earnestly into his face, that he found himself forced to say something. "what picture?" "a certain picture that is--, or, perhaps, that is not to be, painted by mr. dalrymple?" "i hear so much about dalrymple's pictures! you don't mean the portrait of lady glencora palliser? that is nearly finished, and will be in the exhibition this year." "i don't mean that at all. i mean a picture that has not yet been begun." "a portrait, i suppose?" "as to that i cannot quite say. it is at any rate to be a likeness. i am sure you have heard of it. come, mr. eames; it would be better that we should be candid with each other. you remember miss van siever, of course?" "i remember that she dined at the broughtons'." "and you have heard of jael, i suppose, and sisera?" "yes; in a general way,--in the bible." "and now will you tell me whether you have not heard the names of jael and miss van siever coupled together? i see you know all about it." "i have heard of it, certainly." "of course you have. so have i, as you perceive. now, mr. eames,"--and miss demolines' voice became tremulously eager as she addressed him,--"it is your duty, and it is my duty, to take care that that picture shall never be painted." "but why should it not be painted?" "you don't know miss van siever, yet." "not in the least." "nor mrs. van siever." "i never spoke a word to her." "i do. i know them both,--well." there was something almost grandly tragic in miss demolines' voice as she thus spoke. "yes, mr. eames, i know them well. if that scheme be continued, it will work terrible mischief. you and i must prevent it." "but i don't see what harm it will do." "think of conway dalrymple passing so many hours in maria's sitting-room upstairs! the picture is to be painted there, you know." "but miss van siever will be present. won't that make it all right? what is there wrong about miss van siever?" "i won't deny that clara van siever has a certain beauty of her own. to me she is certainly the most unattractive woman that i ever came near. she is simply repulsive!" hereupon miss demolines held up her hand as though she were banishing miss van siever for ever from her sight, and shuddered slightly. "men think her handsome, and she is handsome. but she is false, covetous, malicious, cruel, and dishonest." "what a fiend in petticoats!" "you may say that, mr. eames. and then her mother! her mother is not so bad. her mother is very different. but the mother is an odious woman, too. it was an evil day for maria clutterbuck when she first saw either the mother or the daughter. i tell you that in confidence." "but what can i do?" said johnny, who began to be startled and almost interested by the eagerness of the woman. "i'll tell you what you can do. don't let your friend go to mr. broughton's house to paint the picture. if he does do it, there will mischief come of it. of course you can prevent him." "i should not think of trying to prevent him unless i knew why." "she's a nasty proud minx, and it would set her up ever so high,--to think that she was being painted by mr. dalrymple! but that isn't the reason. maria would get into terrible trouble about it, and there would be no end of mischief. i must not tell you more now, and if you do not believe me, i cannot help it. surely, mr. eames, my word may be taken as going for something? and when i ask you to help me in this, i do expect that you will not refuse me." by this time miss demolines was sitting close to him, and had more than once put her hand upon his arm in the energy of her eloquence. then as he remembered that he had never seen miss demolines till the other day, or miss van siever, or even mrs. dobbs broughton, he bethought himself that it was all very droll. nevertheless he had no objection to miss demolines putting her hand upon his arm. "i never like to interfere in anything that does not seem to be my own business," said johnny. "is not your friend's business your own business? what does friendship mean if it is not so? and when i tell you that it is my business, mine of right, does that go for nothing with you? i thought i might depend upon you, mr. eames; i did indeed." then again she put her hand upon his arm, and as he looked into her eyes he began to think that after all she was good-looking in a certain way. at any rate she had fine eyes, and there was something picturesque about the entanglement of her hair. "think of it, and then come back and talk to me again," said miss demolines. "but i am going out of town to-morrow." "for how long?" "for ten days." "nothing can be done during that time. clara van siever is going away in a day, and will not be back for three weeks. i happen to know that; so we have plenty of time for working. it would be very desirable that she should never even hear of it; but that cannot be hoped, as maria has such a tongue! couldn't you see mr. dalrymple to-night?" "well, no; i don't think i could." "mind, at least, that you come to me as soon as ever you return." before he got out of the house, which he did after a most affectionate farewell, johnny felt himself compelled to promise that he would come to miss demolines again as soon as he got back to town; and as the door was closed behind him by the boy in buttons, he made up his mind that he certainly would call as soon as he returned to london. "it's as good as a play," he said to himself. not that he cared in the least for miss demolines, or that he would take any steps with the intention of preventing the painting of the picture. miss demolines had some battle to fight, and he would leave her to fight it with her own weapons. if his friend chose to paint a picture of jael, and take miss van siever as a model, it was no business of his. nevertheless he would certainly go and see miss demolines again, because, as he said, she was as good as a play. chapter xxvi. the picture. on that same afternoon conway dalrymple rolled up his sketch of jael and sisera, put it into his pocket, dressed himself with some considerable care, putting on a velvet coat which he was in the habit of wearing out of doors when he did not intend to wander beyond kensington gardens and the neighbourhood and which was supposed to become him well, yellow gloves, and a certain spanish hat of which he was fond, and slowly sauntered across to the house of his friend mrs. dobbs broughton. when the door was opened to him he did not ask if the lady were at home, but muttering some word to the servant, made his way through the hall, upstairs, to a certain small sitting-room looking to the north, which was much used by the mistress of the house. it was quite clear that conway dalrymple had arranged his visit beforehand, and that he was expected. he opened the door without knocking, and, though the servant had followed him, he entered without being announced. "i'm afraid i'm late," he said, as he gave his hand to mrs. broughton; "but for the life i could not get away sooner." "you are quite in time," said the lady, "for any good that you are likely to do." "what does that mean?" "it means this, my friend, that you had better give the idea up. i have been thinking of it all day, and i do not approve of it." "what nonsense!" "of course you will say so, conway. i have observed of late that whatever i say to you is called nonsense. i suppose it is the new fashion that gentlemen should so express themselves, but i am not quite sure that i like it." "you know what i mean. i am very anxious about this picture, and i shall be much disappointed if it cannot be done now. it was you put it into my head first." "i regret it very much, i can assure you; but it will not be generous in you to urge that against me." "but why shouldn't it succeed?" "there are many reasons,--some personal to myself." "i do not know what they can be. you hinted at something which i only took as having been said in joke." "if you mean about miss van siever and yourself, i was quite in earnest, conway. i do not think you could do better, and i should be glad to see it of all things. nothing would please me more than to bring miss van siever and you together." "and nothing would please me less." "but why so?" "because,--because--. i can do nothing but tell you the truth, carina; because my heart is not free to present itself at miss van siever's feet." "it ought to be free, conway, and you must make it free. it will be well that you should be married, and well for others besides yourself. i tell you so as your friend, and you have no truer friend. sit where you are, if you please. you can say anything you have to say without stalking about the room." "i was not going to stalk,--as you call it." "you will be safer and quieter while you are sitting. i heard a knock at the door, and i do not doubt that it is clara. she said she would be here." "and you have told her of the picture?" "yes; i have told her. she said that it would be impossible, and that her mother would not allow it. here she is." then miss van siever was shown into the room, and dalrymple perceived that she was a girl the peculiarity of whose complexion bore daylight better even than candlelight. there was something in her countenance which seemed to declare that she could bear any light to which it might be subjected without flinching from it. and her bonnet, which was very plain, and her simple brown morning gown, suited her well. she was one who required none of the circumstances of studied dress to carry off aught in her own appearance. she could look her best when other women look their worst, and could dare to be seen at all times. dalrymple, with an artist's eye, saw this at once, and immediately confessed to himself that there was something great about her. he could not deny her beauty. but there was ever present to him that look of hardness which had struck him when he first saw her. he could not but fancy that though at times she might be playful, and allow the fur of her coat to be stroked with good-humour,--she would be a dangerous plaything, using her claws unpleasantly when the good-humour should have passed away. but not the less was she beautiful, and--beyond that and better than that, for his purpose,--she was picturesque. "clara," said mrs. broughton, "here is this mad painter, and he says that he will have you on his canvas, either with your will or without it." "even if he could do that, i am sure he would not," said miss van siever. "to prove to you that i can, i think i need only show you the sketch," said dalrymple, taking the drawing out of his pocket. "as regards the face, i know it so well by heart already, that i feel certain i could produce a likeness without even a sitting. what do you think of it, mrs. broughton?" [illustration: "what do you think of it, mrs. broughton?"] "it is clever," said she, looking at it with all that enthusiasm which women are able to throw into their eyes on such occasions; "very clever. the subject would just suit her. i have never doubted that." "eames says that it is confused," said the artist. "i don't see that at all," said mrs. broughton. "of course a sketch must be rough. this one has been rubbed about and altered,--but i think there is something in it." "an immense deal," said mrs. broughton. "don't you think so, clara?" "i am not a judge." "but you can see the woman's fixed purpose; and her stealthiness as well;--and the man sleeps like a log. what is that dim outline?" "nothing in particular," said dalrymple. but the dim outline was intended to represent mrs. van siever. "it is very good,--unquestionably good," said mrs. dobbs broughton. "i do not for a moment doubt that you would make a great picture of it. it is just the subject for you, conway; so much imagination, and yet such a scope for portraiture. it would be full of action, and yet such perfect repose. and the lights and shadows would be exactly in your line. i can see at a glance how you would manage the light in the tent, and bring it down just on the nail. and then the pose of the woman would be so good, so much strength, and yet such grace! you should have the bowl he drank the milk out of, so as to tell the whole story. no painter living tells a story so well as you do, conway." conway dalrymple knew that the woman was talking nonsense to him, and yet he liked it, and liked her for talking it. "but mr. dalrymple can paint his sisera without making me a jael," said miss van siever. "of course he can," said mrs. broughton. "but i never will," said the artist. "i conceived the subject as connected with you, and i will never disjoin the two ideas." "i think it no compliment, i can assure you," said miss van siever. "and none was intended. but you may observe that artists in all ages have sought for higher types of models in painting women who have been violent or criminal, than have sufficed for them in their portraitures of gentleness and virtue. look at all the judiths, and the lucretias, and the charlotte cordays; how much finer the women are than the madonnas and the saint cecilias." "after that, clara, you need not scruple to be a jael," said mrs. broughton. "but i do scruple,--very much; so strongly that i know i never shall do it. in the first place i don't know why mr. dalrymple wants it." "want it!" said conway. "i want to paint a striking picture." "but you can do that without putting me into it." "no;--not this picture. and why should you object? it is the commonest thing in the world for ladies to sit to artists in that manner." "people would know it." "nobody would know it, so that you need care about it. what would it matter if everybody knew it? we are not proposing anything improper;--are we, mrs. broughton?" "she shall not be pressed if she does not like it," said mrs. broughton. "you know i told you before clara came in, that i was afraid it could not be done." "and i don't like it," said miss van siever, with some little hesitation in her voice. "i don't see anything improper in it, if you mean that," said mrs. broughton. "but, mamma!" "well, yes; that is the difficulty, no doubt. the only question is, whether your mother is not so very singular, as to make it impossible that you should comply with her in everything." "i am afraid that i do not comply with her in very much," said miss van siever in her gentlest voice. "oh, clara!" "you drive me to say so, as otherwise i should be a hypocrite. of course i ought not to have said it before mr. dalrymple." "you and mr. dalrymple will understand all about that, i daresay, before the picture is finished," said mrs. broughton. it did not take much persuasion on the part of conway dalrymple to get the consent of the younger lady to be painted, or of the elder to allow the sitting to go on in her room. when the question of easels and other apparatus came to be considered mrs. broughton was rather flustered, and again declared with energy that the whole thing must fall to the ground; but a few more words from the painter restored her, and at last the arrangements were made. as mrs. dobbs broughton's dear friend, madalina demolines had said, mrs. dobbs broughton liked a fevered existence. "what will dobbs say?" she exclaimed more than once. and it was decided at last that dobbs should know nothing about it as long as it could be kept from him. "of course he shall be told at last," said his wife. "i wouldn't keep anything from the dear fellow for all the world. but if he knew it at first it would be sure to get through musselboro to your mother." "i certainly shall beg that mr. broughton may not be taken into confidence if mr. musselboro is to follow," said clara. "and it must be understood that i must cease to sit immediately, whatever may be the inconvenience, should mamma speak to me about it." this stipulation was made and conceded, and then miss van siever went away, leaving the artist with mrs. dobbs broughton. "and now, if you please, conway, you had better go too," said the lady, as soon as there had been time for miss van siever to get downstairs and out of the hall-door. "of course you are in a hurry to get rid of me." "yes, i am." "a little while ago i improperly said that some suggestion of yours was nonsense and you rebuked me for my blunt incivility. might not i rebuke you now with equal justice?" "do so, if you will;--but leave me. i tell you, conway, that in these matters you must either be guided by me, or you and i must cease to see each other. it does not do that you should remain here with me longer than the time usually allowed for a morning call. clara has come and gone, and you also must go. i am sorry to disturb you, for you seem to be so very comfortable in that chair." "i am comfortable,--and i can look at you. come;--there can be no harm in saying that, if i say nothing else. well;--there, now i am gone." whereupon he got up from his arm-chair. "but you are not gone while you stand there." "and you would really wish me to marry that girl?" "i do,--if you can love her." "and what about her love?" "you must win it, of course. she is to be won, like any other woman. the fruit won't fall into your mouth merely because you open your lips. you must climb the tree." "still climbing trees in the hesperides," said conway. "love does that, you know; but it is hard to climb the trees without the love. it seems to me that i have done my climbing,--have clomb as high as i knew how, and that the boughs are breaking with me, and that i am likely to get a fall. do you understand me?" "i would rather not understand you." "that is no answer to my question. do you understand that at this moment i am getting a fall which will break every bone in my skin and put any other climbing out of the question as far as i am concerned? do you understand that?" "no; i do not," said mrs. broughton, in a tremulous voice. "then i'll go and make love at once to clara van siever. there's enough of pluck left in me to ask her to marry me, and i suppose i could manage to go through the ceremony if she accepted me." "but i want you to love her," said mrs. dobbs broughton. "i daresay i should love her well enough after a bit;--that is, if she didn't break my head or comb my hair. i suppose there will be no objection to my saying that you sent me when i ask her?" "conway, you will of course not mention my name to her. i have suggested to you a marriage which i think would tend to make you happy, and would give you a stability in life which you want. it is perhaps better that i should be explicit at once. as an unmarried man i cannot continue to know you. you have said words of late which have driven me to this conclusion. i have thought about it much,--too much, perhaps, and i know that i am right. miss van siever has beauty and wealth and intellect, and i think that she would appreciate the love of such a man as you are. now go." and mrs. dobbs broughton, standing upright, pointed to the door. conway dalrymple slowly took his spanish hat from off the marble slab on which he had laid it, and left the room without saying a word. the interview had been quite long enough, and there was nothing else which he knew how to say with effect. croquet is a pretty game out of doors, and chess is delightful in a drawing-room. battledoor and shuttlecock and hunt-the-slipper have also their attractions. proverbs are good, and cross questions with crooked answers may be made very amusing. but none of these games are equal to the game of love-making,--providing that the players can be quite sure that there shall be no heart in the matter. any touch of heart not only destroys the pleasure of the game, but makes the player awkward and incapable and robs him of his skill. and thus it is that there are many people who cannot play the game at all. a deficiency of some needed internal physical strength prevents the owners of the heart from keeping a proper control over its valves, and thus emotion sets in, and the pulses are accelerated, and feeling supervenes. for such a one to attempt a game of love-making, is as though your friend with the gout should insist on playing croquet. a sense of the ridiculous, if nothing else, should in either case deter the afflicted one from the attempt. there was no such absurdity with our friend mrs. dobbs broughton and conway dalrymple. their valves and pulses were all right. they could play the game without the slightest danger of any inconvenient result;--of any inconvenient result, that is, as regarded their own feelings. blind people cannot see and stupid people cannot understand,--and it might be that mr. dobbs broughton, being both blind and stupid in such matters, might perceive something of the playing of the game and not know that it was only a game of skill. when i say that as regarded these two lovers there was nothing of love between them, and that the game was therefore so far innocent, i would not be understood as asserting that these people had no hearts within their bosoms. mrs. dobbs broughton probably loved her husband in a sensible, humdrum way, feeling him to be a bore, knowing him to be vulgar, aware that he often took a good deal more wine than was good for him, and that he was almost as uneducated as a hog. yet she loved him, and showed her love by taking care that he should have things for dinner which he liked to eat. but in this alone there were to be found none of the charms of a fevered existence, and therefore mrs. dobbs broughton, requiring those charms for her comfort, played her little game with conway dalrymple. and as regarded the artist himself, let no reader presume him to have been heartless because he flirted with mrs. dobbs broughton. doubtless he will marry some day, will have a large family for which he will work hard, and will make a good husband to some stout lady who will be careful in looking after his linen. but on the present occasion he fell into some slight trouble in spite of the innocence of his game. as he quitted his friend's room he heard the hall-door slammed heavily; then there was a quick step on the stairs, and on the landing-place above the first flight he met the master of the house, somewhat flurried, as it seemed, and not looking comfortable, either as regarded his person or his temper. "by george, he's been drinking!" conway said to himself, after the first glance. now it certainly was the case that poor dobbs broughton would sometimes drink at improper hours. "what the devil are you doing here?" said dobbs broughton to his friend the artist. "you're always here. you're here a doosed sight more than i like." husbands when they have been drinking are very apt to make mistakes as to the purport of the game. "why, dobbs," said the painter, "there's something wrong with you." "no, there ain't. there's nothing wrong; and if there was, what's that to you? i shan't ask you to pay anything for me, i suppose." "well;--i hope not." "i won't have you here, and let that be an end of it. it's all very well when i choose to have a few friends to dinner, but my wife can do very well without your fal-lalling here all day. will you remember that, if you please?" conway dalrymple, knowing that he had better not argue any question with a drunken man, took himself out of the house, shrugging his shoulders as he thought of the misery which his poor dear playfellow would now be called upon to endure. chapter xxvii. a hero at home. on the morning after his visit to miss demolines john eames found himself at the paddington station asking for a ticket for guestwick, and as he picked up his change another gentleman also demanded a ticket for the same place. had guestwick been as liverpool or manchester, eames would have thought nothing about it. it is a matter of course that men should always be going from london to liverpool and manchester; but it seemed odd to him that two men should want first-class tickets for so small a place as guestwick at the same moment. and when, afterwards, he was placed by the guard in the same carriage with this other traveller, he could not but feel some little curiosity. the man was four or five years johnny's senior, a good-looking fellow, with a pleasant face, and the outward appurtenances of a gentleman. the intelligent reader will no doubt be aware that the stranger was major grantly; but the intelligent reader has in this respect had much advantage over john eames, who up to this time had never even heard of his cousin grace crawley's lover. "i think you were asking for a ticket for guestwick," said johnny;--whereupon the major owned that such was the case. "i lived at guestwick the greater part of my life," said johnny, "and it's the dullest, dearest little town in all england." "i never was there before," said the major, "and indeed i can hardly say i am going there now. i shall only pass through it." then he got out his newspaper, and johnny also got out his, and for a time there was no conversation between them. john remembered how holy was the errand upon which he was intent, and gathered his thoughts together, resolving that having so great a matter on his mind he would think about nothing else and speak about nothing at all. he was going down to allington to ask lily dale for the last time whether she would be his wife; to ascertain whether he was to be successful or unsuccessful in the one great wish of his life; and, as such was the case with him,--as he had in hand a thing so vital, it could be nothing to him whether the chance companion of his voyage was an agreeable or a disagreeable person. he himself, in any of the ordinary circumstances of life, was prone enough to talk with any one he might meet. he could have travelled for twelve hours together with an old lady, and could listen to her or make her listen to him without half an hour's interruption. but this journey was made on no ordinary occasion, and it behoved him to think of lily. therefore, after the first little almost necessary effort at civility, he fell back into gloomy silence. he was going to do his best to win lily dale, and this doing of his best would require all his thought and all his energy. and probably major grantly's mind was bent in the same direction. he, too, had this work before him, and could not look upon his work as a thing that was altogether pleasant. he might probably get that which he was intent upon obtaining. he knew,--he almost knew,--that he had won the heart of the girl whom he was seeking. there had been that between him and her which justified him in supposing that he was dear to her, although no expression of affection had ever passed from her lips to his ears. men may know all that they require to know on that subject without any plainly spoken words. grace crawley had spoken no word, and yet he had known,--at any rate had not doubted, that he could have the place in her heart of which he desired to be the master. she would never surrender herself altogether till she had taught herself to be sure of him to whom she gave herself. but she had listened to him with silence that had not rebuked him, and he had told himself that he might venture, without fear of that rebuke as to which the minds of some men are sensitive to a degree which other men cannot even understand. but for all this major grantly could not be altogether happy as to his mission. he would ask grace crawley to be his wife; but he would be ruined by his own success. and the remembrance that he would be severed from all his own family by the thing that he was doing, was very bitter to him. in generosity he might be silent about this to grace, but who can endure to be silent on such a subject to the woman who is to be his wife? and then it would not be possible for him to abstain from explanation. he was now following her down to allington, a step which he certainly would not have taken but for the misfortune which had befallen her father, and he must explain to her in some sort why he did so. he must say to her,--if not in so many words, still almost as plainly as words could speak,--i am here now to ask you to be my wife, because you specially require the protection and countenance of the man who loves you, in the present circumstances of your father's affairs. he knew that he was doing right;--perhaps had some idea that he was doing nobly; but this very appreciation of his own good qualities made the task before him the more difficult. major grantly had the times, and john eames had the daily news, and they exchanged papers. one had the last saturday, and the other the last spectator, and they exchanged those also. both had the pall mall gazette, of which enterprising periodical they gradually came to discuss the merits and demerits, thus falling into conversation at last, in spite of the weight of the mission on which each of them was intent. then, at last, when they were within half-an-hour of the end of their journey, major grantly asked his companion what was the best inn at guestwick. he had at first been minded to go on to allington at once,--to go on to allington and get his work done, and then return home or remain there, or find the nearest inn with a decent bed, as circumstances might direct him. but on reconsideration, as he drew nearer to the scene of his future operations, he thought that it might be well for him to remain that night at guestwick. he did not quite know how far allington was from guestwick, but he did know that it was still mid-winter, and that the days were very short. "the magpie" was the best inn, johnny said. having lived at guestwick all his life, and having a mother living there now, he had never himself put up at "the magpie," but he believed it to be a good country inn. they kept post-horses there, he knew. he did not tell the stranger that his late old friend, lord de guest, and his present old friend, lady julia, always hired post-horses from "the magpie," but he grounded his ready assertion on the remembrance of that fact. "i think i shall stay there to-night," said the major. "you'll find it pretty comfortable, i don't doubt," said johnny. "though, indeed, it always seems to me that a man alone at an inn has a very bad time of it. reading is all very well, but one gets tired of it at last. and then i hate horse-hair chairs." "it isn't very delightful," said the major, "but beggars mustn't be choosers." then there was a pause, after which the major spoke again. "you don't happen to know which way allington lies?" "allington!" said johnny. "yes, allington. is there not a village called allington?" "there is a village called allington, certainly. it lies over there." and johnny pointed with his finger through the window. "as you do not know the country you can see nothing, but i can see the allington trees at this moment." "i suppose there is no inn at allington?" "there's a public-house, with a very nice clean bedroom. it is called the 'red lion.' mrs. forrard keeps it. i would quite as soon stay there as at 'the magpie.' only if they don't expect you, they wouldn't have much for dinner." "then you know the village of allington?" "yes, i know the village of allington very well. i have friends living there. indeed, i may say i know everybody in allington." "do you know mrs. dale?" "mrs. dale?" said johnny. "yes, i know mrs. dale. i have known mrs. dale pretty nearly all my life." who could this man be who was going down to see mrs. dale,--mrs. dale, and consequently, lily dale? he thought that he knew mrs. dale so well, that she could have no visitor of whom he would not be entitled to have some knowledge. but major grantly had nothing more to say at the moment about mrs. dale. he had never seen mrs. dale in his life, and was now going to her house, not to see her, but a friend of hers. he found that he could not very well explain this to a stranger, and therefore at the moment he said nothing further. but johnny would not allow the subject to be dropped. "have you known mrs. dale long?" he asked. "i have not the pleasure of knowing her at all," said the major. "i thought, perhaps, by your asking after her--" "i intend to call upon her, that is all. i suppose they will have an omnibus here from 'the magpie?'" eames said that there no doubt would be an omnibus from "the magpie," and then they were at their journey's end. for the present we will follow john eames, who went at once to his mother's house. it was his intention to remain there for two or three days, and then go over to the house, or rather to the cottage, of his great ally lady julia, which lay just beyond guestwick manor, and somewhat nearer to allington than to the town of guestwick. he had made up his mind that he would not himself go over to allington till he could do so from guestwick cottage, as it was called, feeling that, under certain untoward circumstances,--should untoward circumstances arise,--lady julia's sympathy might be more endurable than that of his mother. but he would take care that it should be known at allington that he was in the neighbourhood. he understood the necessary strategy of his campaign too well to suppose that he could startle lily into acquiescence. with his own mother and sister, john eames was in these days quite a hero. he was a hero with them now, because in his early boyish days there had been so little about him that was heroic. then there had been a doubt whether he would ever earn his daily bread, and he had been a very heavy burden on the slight family resources in the matter of jackets and trousers. the pride taken in our johnny had not been great, though the love felt for him had been warm. but gradually things had changed, and john eames had become heroic in his mother's eyes. a chance circumstance had endeared him to earl de guest, and from that moment things had gone well with him. the earl had given him a watch and had left him a fortune, and sir raffle buffle had made him a private secretary. in the old days, when johnny's love for lily dale was first discussed by his mother and sister, they had thought it impossible that lily should ever bring herself to regard with affection so humble a suitor;--for the dales have ever held their heads up in the world. but now there is no misgiving on that score with mrs. eames and her daughter. their wonder is that lily dale should be such a fool as to decline the love of such a man. so johnny was received with the respect due to a hero, as well as with the affection belonging to a son;--by which i mean it to be inferred that mrs. eames had got a little bit of fish for dinner as well as a leg of mutton. "a man came down in the train with me who says he is going over to allington," said johnny. "i wonder who he can be. he is staying at 'the magpie.'" "a friend of captain dale's, probably," said mary. captain dale was the squire's nephew and his heir. "but this man was not going to the squire's. he was going to the small house." "is he going to stay there?" "i suppose not, as he asked about the inn." then johnny reflected that the man might probably be a friend of crosbie's, and became melancholy in consequence. crosbie might have thought it expedient to send an ambassador down to prepare the ground for him before he should venture again upon the scene himself. if it were so, would it not be well that he, john eames, should get over to lily as soon as possible, and not wait till he should be staying with lady julia? it was at any rate incumbent upon him to call upon lady julia the next morning, because of his commission. the berlin wool might remain in his portmanteau till his portmanteau should go with him to the cottage; but he would take the spectacles at once, and he must explain to lady julia what the lawyers had told him about the income. so he hired a saddle-horse from "the magpie" and started after breakfast on the morning after his arrival. in his unheroic days he would have walked,--as he had done, scores of times, over the whole distance from guestwick to allington. but now, in these grander days, he thought about his boots and the mud, and the formal appearance of the thing. "ah dear," he said, to himself, as the nag walked slowly out of the town, "it used to be better with me in the old days. i hardly hoped that she would ever accept me, but at least she had never refused me. and then that brute had not as yet made his way down to allington!" he did not go very fast. after leaving the town he trotted on for a mile or so. but when he got to the palings of guestwick manor he let the animal walk again, and his mind ran back over the incidents of his life which were connected with the place. he remembered a certain long ramble which he had taken in those woods after lily had refused him. that had been subsequent to the crosbie episode in his life, and johnny had been led to hope by certain of his friends,--especially by lord de guest and his sister,--that he might then be successful. but he had been unsuccessful, and had passed the bitterest hour of his life wandering about in those woods. since that he had been unsuccessful again and again; but the bitterness of failure had not been so strong with him as on that first occasion. he would try again now, and if he failed, he would fail for the last time. as he was thinking of all this, a gig overtook him on the road, and on looking round he saw that the occupant of the gig was the man who had travelled with him on the previous day in the train. major grantly was alone in the gig, and as he recognized john eames he stopped his horse. "are you also going to allington?" he asked. john eames, with something of scorn in his voice, replied that he had no intention of going to allington on that day. he still thought that this man might be an emissary from crosbie, and therefore resolved that but scant courtesy was due to him. "i am on my way there now," said grantly, "and am going to the house of your friend. may i tell her that i travelled with you yesterday?" "yes, sir," said johnny. "you may tell her that you came down with john eames." "and are you john eames?" asked the major. "if you have no objection," said johnny. "but i can hardly suppose you have ever heard my name before?" "it is familiar to me, because i have the pleasure of knowing a cousin of yours, miss grace crawley." "my cousin is at present staying at allington with mrs. dale," said johnny. "just so," said the major, who now began to reflect that he had been indiscreet in mentioning grace crawley's name. no doubt every one connected with the family, all the crawleys, all the dales, and all the eameses, would soon know the business which had brought him down to allington; but he need not have taken the trouble of beginning the story against himself. john eames, in truth, had never even heard major grantly's name, and was quite unaware of the fortune which awaited his cousin. even after what he had now been told, he still suspected the stranger of being an emissary from his enemy; but the major, not giving him credit for his ignorance, was annoyed with himself for having told so much of his own history. "i will tell the ladies that i had the pleasure of meeting you," he said; "that is, if i am lucky enough to see them." and then he drove on. "i know i should hate that fellow if i were to meet him anywhere again," said johnny to himself as he rode on. "when i take an aversion to a fellow at first sight, i always stick to it. it's instinct, i suppose." and he was still giving himself credit for the strength of his instincts when he reached lady julia's cottage. he rode at once into the stable-yard, with the privilege of an accustomed friend of the house, and having given up his horse, entered the cottage by the back door. "is my lady at home, jemima?" he said to the maid. "yes, mr. john; she is in the drawing-room, and friends of yours are with her." then he was announced, and found himself in the presence of lady julia, lily dale, and grace crawley. he was very warmly received. lady julia really loved him dearly, and would have done anything in her power to bring about a match between him and lily. grace was his cousin, and though she had not seen him often, she was prepared to love him dearly as lily's lover. and lily,--lily loved him dearly too,--if only she could have brought herself to love him as he wished to be loved! to all of them johnny eames was something of a hero. at any rate in the eyes of all of them he possessed those virtues which seemed to them to justify them in petting him and making much of him. "i am so glad you've come,--that is, if you've brought my spectacles," said lady julia. "my pockets are crammed with spectacles," said johnny. "and when are you coming to me?" "i was thinking of tuesday." "no; don't come till wednesday. but i mean monday. no; monday won't do. come on tuesday,--early, and drive me out. and now tell us the news." johnny swore that there was no news. he made a brave attempt to be gay and easy before lily; but he failed, and he knew that he failed,--and he knew that she knew that he failed. "mamma will be so glad to see you," said lily. "i suppose you haven't seen bell yet?" "i only got to guestwick yesterday afternoon," said he. "and it will be so nice our having grace at the small house;--won't it? uncle christopher has quite taken a passion for grace,--so that i am hardly anybody now in the allington world." "by-the-by," said johnny, "i came down here with a friend of yours, grace." "a friend of mine?" said grace. "so he says, and he is at allington at this moment. he passed me in a gig going there." "and what was his name?" lily asked. "i have not the remotest idea," said johnny. "he is a man about my own age, very good-looking, and apparently very well able to take care of himself. he is short-sighted, and holds a glass in one eye when he looks out of a carriage-window. that's all that i know about him." grace crawley's face had become suffused with blushes at the first mention of the friend and the gig; but then grace blushed very easily. lily knew all about it at once;--at once divined who must be the friend in the gig, and was almost beside herself with joy. lady julia, who had heard no more of the major than had johnny, was still clever enough to perceive that the friend must be a particular friend,--for she had noticed miss crawley's blushes. and grace herself had no doubt as to the man. the picture of her lover, with the glass in his eye as he looked out of the window, had been too perfect to admit of a doubt. in her distress she put out her hand and took hold of lily's dress. "and you say he is at allington now?" said lily. "i have no doubt he is at the small house at this moment," said johnny. chapter xxviii. showing how major grantly took a walk. [illustration] major grantly drove his gig into the yard of the "red lion" at allington, and from thence walked away at once to mrs. dale's house. when he reached the village he had hardly made up his mind as to the way in which he would begin his attack; but now, as he went down the street, he resolved that he would first ask for mrs. dale. most probably he would find himself in the presence of mrs. dale and her daughter, and of grace also, at his first entrance; and if so, his position would be awkward enough. he almost regretted now that he had not written to mrs. dale, and asked for an interview. his task would be very difficult if he should find all the ladies together. but he was strong in the feeling that when his purpose was told it would meet the approval at any rate of mrs. dale; and he walked boldly on, and bravely knocked at the door of the small house, as he had already learned that mrs. dale's residence was called by all the neighbourhood. nobody was at home, the servant said; and then, when the visitor began to make further inquiry, the girl explained that the two young ladies had walked as far as guestwick cottage, and that mrs. dale was at this moment at the great house with the squire. she had gone across soon after the young ladies had started. the maid, however, was interrupted before she had finished telling all this to the major, by finding her mistress behind her in the passage. mrs. dale had returned, and had entered the house from the lawn. "i am here now, jane," said mrs. dale, "if the gentleman wishes to see me." then the major announced himself. "my name is major grantly," said he; and he was blundering on with some words about his own intrusion, when mrs. dale begged him to follow her into the drawing-room. he had muttered something to the effect that mrs. dale would not know who he was; but mrs. dale knew all about him, and had heard the whole of grace's story from lily. she and lily had often discussed the question whether, under existing circumstances, major grantly should feel himself bound to offer his hand to grace, and the mother and daughter had differed somewhat on the matter. mrs. dale had held that he was not so bound, urging that the unfortunate position in which mr. crawley was placed was so calamitous to all connected with him, as to justify any man, not absolutely engaged, in abandoning the thoughts of such a marriage. mrs. dale had spoken of major grantly's father and mother and brother and sister, and had declared her opinion that they were entitled to consideration. but lily had opposed this idea very stoutly, asserting that in an affair of love a man should think neither of father or brother or mother or sister. "if he is worth anything," lily had said, "he will come to her now,--now in her trouble; and will tell her that she at least has got a friend who will be true to her. if he does that, then i shall think that there is something of the poetry and nobleness of love left." in answer to this mrs. dale had replied that women had no right to expect from men such self-denying nobility as that. "i don't expect it, mamma," said lily. "and i am sure that grace does not. indeed i am quite sure that grace does not expect even to see him ever again. she never says so, but i know that she has made up her mind about it. still i think he ought to come." "it can hardly be that a man is bound to do a thing, the doing of which, as you confess, would be almost more than noble," said mrs. dale. and so the matter had been discussed between them. but now, as it seemed to mrs. dale, the man had come to do this noble thing. at any rate he was there in her drawing-room, and before either of them had sat down he had contrived to mention grace. "you may not probably have heard my name," he said, "but i am acquainted with your friend, miss crawley." "i know your name very well, major grantly. my brother-in-law who lives over yonder, mr. dale, knows your father very well,--or he did some years ago. and i have heard him say that he remembers you." "i recollect. he used to be staying at ullathorne. but that is a long time ago. is he at home now?" "mr. dale is almost always at home. he very rarely goes away, and i am sure would be glad to see you." then there was a little pause in the conversation. they had managed to seat themselves, and mrs. dale had said enough to put her visitor fairly at his ease. if he had anything special to say to her, he must say it,--any request or proposition to make as to grace crawley, he must make it. and he did make it at once. "my object in coming to allington," he said, "was to see miss crawley." "she and my daughter have taken a long walk to call on a friend, and i am afraid they will stay for lunch; but they will certainly be home between three and four, if that is not too long for you to remain at allington." "o dear, no," said he. "it will not hurt me to wait." "it certainly will not hurt me, major grantly. perhaps you will lunch with me?" "i'll tell you what, mrs. dale; if you'll permit me, i'll explain to you why i have come here. indeed, i have intended to do so all through, and i can only ask you to keep my secret, if after all it should require to be kept." "i will certainly keep any secret that you may ask me to keep," said mrs. dale, taking off her bonnet. "i hope there may be no need of one," said major grantly. "the truth is, mrs. dale, that i have known miss crawley for some time,--nearly for two years now, and--i may as well speak it out at once,--i have made up my mind to ask her to be my wife. that is why i am here." considering the nature of the statement, which must have been embarrassing, i think that it was made with fluency and simplicity. "of course, major grantly, you know that i have no authority with our young friend," said mrs. dale. "i mean that she is not connected with us by family ties. she has a father and mother, living, as i believe, in the same county with yourself." "i know that, mrs. dale." "and you may, perhaps, understand that, as miss crawley is now staying with me, i owe it in a measure to her friends to ask you whether they are aware of your intention." "they are not aware of it." "i know that at the present moment they are in great trouble." mrs. dale was going on, but she was interrupted by major grantly. "that is just it," he said. "there are circumstances at present which make it almost impossible that i should go to mr. crawley and ask his permission to address his daughter. i do not know whether you have heard the whole story?" "as much, i believe, as grace could tell me." "he is, i believe, in such a state of mental distress as to be hardly capable of giving me a considerate answer. and i should not know how to speak to him, or how not to speak to him, about this unfortunate affair. but, mrs. dale, you will, i think, perceive that the same circumstances make it imperative upon me to be explicit to miss crawley. i think i am the last man to boast of a woman's regard, but i had learned to think that i was not indifferent to grace. if that be so, what must she think of me if i stay away from her now?" "she understands too well the weight of the misfortune which has fallen upon her father, to suppose that any one not connected with her can be bound to share it." "that is just it. she will think that i am silent for that reason. i have determined that that shall not keep me silent, and, therefore, i have come here. i may, perhaps, be able to bring comfort to her in her trouble. as regards my worldly position,--though, indeed, it will not be very good,--as hers is not good either, you will not think yourself bound to forbid me to see her on that head." "certainly not. i need hardly say that i fully understand that, as regards money, you are offering everything where you can get nothing." "and you understand my feeling?" "indeed, i do,--and appreciate the great nobility of your love for grace. you shall see her here, if you wish it,--and to-day, if you choose to wait." major grantly said that he would wait and would see grace on that afternoon. mrs. dale again suggested that he should lunch with her, but this he declined. she then proposed that he should go across and call upon the squire, and thus consume his time. but to this he also objected. he was not exactly in the humour, he said, to renew so old and so slight an acquaintance at that time. mr. dale would probably have forgotten him, and would be sure to ask what had brought him to allington. he would go and take a walk, he said, and come again exactly at half-past three. mrs. dale again expressed her certainty that the young ladies would be back by that time, and major grantly left the house. mrs. dale when she was left alone could not but compare the good fortune which was awaiting grace, with the evil fortune which had fallen on her own child. here was a man who was at all points a gentleman. such, at least, was the character which mrs. dale at once conceded to him. and grace had chanced to come across this man, and to please his eye, and satisfy his taste, and be loved by him. and the result of that chance would be that grace would have everything given to her that the world has to give worth acceptance. she would have a companion for her life whom she could trust, admire, love, and of whom she could be infinitely proud. mrs. dale was not at all aware whether major grantly might have five hundred a year to spend, or five thousand,--or what sum intermediate between the two,--nor did she give much of her thoughts at the moment to that side of the subject. she knew without thinking of it,--or fancied that she knew, that there were means sufficient for comfortable living. it was solely the nature and character of the man that was in her mind, and the sufficiency that was to be found in them for a wife's happiness. but her daughter, her lily, had come across a man who was a scoundrel, and, as the consequence of that meeting, all her life was marred! could any credit be given to grace for her success, or any blame attached to lily for her failure? surely not the latter! how was her girl to have guarded herself from a love so unfortunate, or have avoided the rock on which her vessel had been shipwrecked? then many bitter thoughts passed through mrs. dale's mind, and she almost envied grace crawley her lover. lily was contented to remain as she was, but lily's mother could not bring herself to be satisfied that her child should fill a lower place in the world than other girls. it had ever been her idea,--an idea probably never absolutely uttered even to herself, but not the less practically conceived,--that it is the business of a woman to be married. that her lily should have been won and not worn, had been, and would be, a trouble to her for ever. major grantly went back to the inn and saw his horse fed, and smoked a cigar, and then, finding that it was still only just one o'clock, he started for a walk. he was careful not to go out of allington by the road he had entered it, as he had no wish to encounter grace and her friend on their return into the village; so he crossed a little brook which runs at the bottom of the hill on which the chief street of allington is built, and turned into a field-path to the left as soon as he had got beyond the houses. not knowing the geography of the place he did not understand that by taking that path he was making his way back to the squire's house; but it was so; and after sauntering on for about a mile and crossing back again over the stream, of which he took no notice, he found himself leaning across a gate, and looking into a paddock on the other side of which was the high wall of a gentleman's garden. to avoid this he went on a little further and found himself on a farm road, and before he could retrace his steps so as not to be seen, he met a gentleman whom he presumed to be the owner of the house. it was the squire surveying his home farm, as was his daily custom; but major grantly had not perceived that the house must of necessity be allington house, having been aware that he had passed the entrance to the place, as he entered the village on the other side. "i'm afraid i'm intruding," he said, lifting his hat. "i came up the path yonder, not knowing that it would lead me so close to a gentleman's house." "there is a right of way through the fields on to the guestwick road," said the squire, "and therefore you are not trespassing in any sense; but we are not particular about such things down here, and you would be very welcome if there were no right of way. if you are a stranger, perhaps you would like to see the outside of the old house. people think it picturesque." then major grantly became aware that this must be the squire, and he was annoyed with himself for his own awkwardness in having thus come upon the house. he would have wished to keep himself altogether unseen if it had been possible,--and especially unseen by this old gentleman, to whom, now that he had met him, he was almost bound to introduce himself. but he was not absolutely bound to do so, and he determined that he would still keep his peace. even if the squire should afterwards hear of his having been there, what would it matter? but to proclaim himself at the present moment would be disagreeable to him. he permitted the squire, however, to lead him to the front of the house, and in a few moments was standing on the terrace hearing an account of the architecture of the mansion. [illustration: squire dale and major grantly.] "you can see the date still in the brickwork of one of the chimneys,--that is, if your eyes are very good you can see it,-- . it was completed in that year, and very little has been done to it since. we think the chimneys are pretty." "they are very pretty," said the major. "indeed, the house altogether is as graceful as it can be." "those trees are old, too," said the squire, pointing to two cedars which stood at the side of the house. "they say they are older than the house, but i don't feel sure of it. there was a mansion here before, very nearly, though not quite, on the same spot." "your own ancestors were living here before that, i suppose?" said grantly, meaning to be civil. "well, yes; two or three hundred years before it, i suppose. if you don't mind coming down to the churchyard, you'll get an excellent view of the house;--by far the best that there is. by-the-by, would you like to step in and take a glass of wine?" "i'm very much obliged," said the major, "but indeed i'd rather not." then he followed the squire down to the churchyard, and was shown the church as well as the view of the house, and the vicarage, and a view over to allington woods from the vicarage gate, of which the squire was very fond, and in this way he was taken back on to the guestwick side of the village, and even down on to the road by which he had entered it, without in the least knowing where he was. he looked at his watch and saw that it was past two. "i'm very much obliged to you, sir," he said, again taking off his hat to the squire, "and if i shall not be intruding i'll make my way back to the village." "what village?" said the squire. "to allington," said grantly. "this is allington," said the squire; and as he spoke, lily dale and grace crawley turned a corner from the guestwick road and came close upon them. "well, girls, i did not expect to see you," said the squire; "your mamma told me you wouldn't be back till it was nearly dark, lily." "we have come back earlier than we intended," said lily. she of course had seen the stranger with her uncle, and knowing the ways of the squire in such matters had expected to be introduced to him. but the reader will be aware that no introduction was possible. it never occurred to lily that this man could be the major grantly of whom she and grace had been talking during the whole length of the walk home. but grace and her lover had of course known each other at once, and grantly, though he was abashed and almost dismayed by the meeting, of course came forward and gave his hand to his friend. grace in taking it did not utter a word. "perhaps i ought to have introduced myself to you as major grantly?" said he, turning to the squire. "major grantly! dear me! i had no idea that you were expected in these parts." "i have come without being expected." "you are very welcome, i'm sure. i hope your father is well? i used to know him some years ago, and i daresay he has not forgotten me." then, while the girls stood by in silence, and while grantly was endeavouring to escape, the squire invited him very warmly to send his portmanteau up to the house. "we'll have the ladies up from the house below, and make it as little dull for you as possible." but this would not have suited grantly,--at any rate would not suit him till he should know what answer he was to have. he excused himself therefore, pleading a positive necessity to be at guestwick that evening, and then, explaining that he had already seen mrs. dale, he expressed his intention of going back to the small house in company with the ladies, if they would allow him. the squire, who did not as yet quite understand it all, bade him a formal adieu, and lily led the way home down behind the churchyard wall and through the bottom of the gardens belonging to the great house. she of course knew now who the stranger was, and did all in her power to relieve grace of her embarrassment. grace had hitherto not spoken a single word since she had seen her lover, nor did she say a word to him in their walk to the house. and, in truth, he was not much more communicative than grace. lily did all the talking, and with wonderful female skill contrived to have some words ready for use till they all found themselves together in mrs. dale's drawing-room. "i have caught a major, mamma, and landed him," said lily laughing, "but i'm afraid, from what i hear, that you had caught him first." chapter xxix. miss lily dale's logic. lady julia de guest always lunched at one exactly, and it was not much past twelve when john eames made his appearance at the cottage. he was of course told to stay, and of course said that he would stay. it had been his purpose to lunch with lady julia; but then he had not expected to find lily dale at the cottage. lily herself would have been quite at her ease, protected by lady julia, and somewhat protected also by her own powers of fence, had it not been that grace was there also. but grace crawley, from the moment that she had heard the description of the gentleman who looked out of the window with his glass in his eye, had by no means been at her ease. lily saw at once that she could not be brought to join in any conversation, and both john and lady julia, in their ignorance of the matter in hand, made matters worse. "so that was major grantly?" said john. "i have heard of him before, i think. he is a son of the old archdeacon, is he not?" "i don't know about old archdeacon," said lady julia. "the archdeacon is the son of the old bishop, whom i remember very well. and it is not so very long since the bishop died, either." "i wonder what he's doing at allington?" said johnny. "i think he knows my uncle," said lily. "but he's going to call on your mother," he said. then johnny remembered that the major had said something as to knowing miss crawley, and for the moment he was silent. "i remember when they talked of making the son a bishop also," said lady julia. "what;--this same man who is now a major?" said johnny. "no, you goose. he is not the son; he is the grandson. they were going to make the archdeacon a bishop, and i remember hearing that he was terribly disappointed. he is getting to be an old man now, i suppose; and yet, dear me, how well i remember his father." "he didn't look like a bishop's son," said johnny. "how does a bishop's son look?" lily asked. "i suppose he ought to have some sort of clerical tinge about him; but this fellow had nothing of that kind." "but then this fellow, as you call him," said lily, "is only the son of an archdeacon." "that accounts for it, i suppose," said johnny. but during all this time grace did not say a word, and lily perceived it. then she bethought herself as to what she had better do. grace, she knew, could not be comfortable where she was. nor, indeed, was it probable that grace would be very comfortable in returning home. there could not be much ease for grace till the coming meeting between her and major grantly should be over. but it would be better that grace should go back to allington at once; and better also, perhaps, for major grantly that it should be so. "lady julia," she said, "i don't think we'll mind stopping for lunch to-day." "nonsense, my dear; you promised." "i think we must break our promise; i do indeed. you mustn't be angry with us." and lily looked at lady julia, as though there were something which lady julia ought to understand, which she, lily, could not quite explain. i fear that lily was false, and intended her old friend to believe that she was running away because john eames had come there. "but you will be famished," said lady julia. "we shall live through it," said lily. "it is out of the question that i should let you walk all the way here from allington and all the way back without taking something." "we shall just be home in time for lunch if we go now," said lily. "will not that be best, grace?" grace hardly knew what would be best. she only knew that major grantly was at allington, and that he had come thither to see her. the idea of hurrying back after him was unpleasant to her, and yet she was so flurried that she felt thankful to lily for taking her away from the cottage. the matter was compromised at last. they remained for half an hour, and ate some biscuits and pretended to drink a glass of wine, and then they started. john eames, who in truth believed that lily dale was running away from him, was by no means well pleased, and when the girls were gone, did not make himself so agreeable to his old friend as he should have done. "what a fool i am to come here at all," he said, throwing himself into an arm-chair as soon as the front door was closed. "that's very civil to me, john!" "you know what i mean, lady julia. i am a fool to come near her, until i can do so without thinking more of her than i do of any other girl in the county." "i don't think you have anything to complain of as yet," said lady julia, who had in some sort perceived that lily's retreat had been on grace's account, and not on her own. "it seems to me that lily was very glad to see you, and when i told her that you were coming to stay here, and would be near them for some days, she seemed to be quite pleased;--she did indeed." "then why did she run away the moment i came in?" said johnny. "i think it was something you said about that man who has gone to allington." "what difference can the man make to her? the truth is, i despise myself;--i do indeed, lady julia. only think of my meeting crosbie at dinner the other day, and his having the impertinence to come up and shake hands with me." "i suppose he didn't say anything about what happened at the paddington station?" "no; he didn't speak about that. i wish i knew whether she cares for him still. if i thought she did, i would never speak another word to her,--i mean about myself. of course i am not going to quarrel with them. i am not such a fool as that." then lady julia tried to comfort him, and succeeded so far that he was induced to eat the mince veal that had been intended for the comfort and support of the two young ladies who had run away. "do you think it is he?" were the first words which grace said when they were fairly on their way back together. "i should think it must be. what other man can there be, of that sort, who would be likely to come to allington to see you?" "his coming is not likely. i cannot understand that he should come. he let me leave silverbridge without seeing me,--and i thought that he was quite right." "and i think he is quite right to come here. i am very glad he has come. it shows that he has really something like a heart inside him. had he not come, or sent, or written, or taken some step before the trial comes on, to make you know that he was thinking of you, i should have said that he was as hard,--as hard as any other man that i ever heard of. men are so hard! but i don't think he is, now. i am beginning to regard him as the one chevalier sans peur et sans reproche, and to fancy that you ought to go down on your knees before him, and kiss his highness's shoebuckle. in judging of men one's mind vacillates so quickly between the scorn which is due to a false man and the worship which is due to a true man." then she was silent for a moment, but grace said nothing, and lily continued, "i tell you fairly, grace, that i shall expect very much from you now." "much in what way, lily?" "in the way of worship. i shall not be content that you should merely love him. if he has come here, as he must have done, to say that the moment of the world's reproach is the moment he has chosen to ask you to be his wife, i think that you will owe him more than love." "i shall owe him more than love, and i will pay him more than love," said grace. there was something in the tone of her voice as she spoke which made lily stop her and look up into her face. there was a smile there which lily had never seen before, and which gave a beauty to her which was wonderful to lily's eyes. surely this lover of grace's must have seen her smile like that, and therefore had loved her and was giving such wonderful proof of his love. "yes," continued grace, standing and looking at her friend, "you may stare at me, lily, but you may be sure that i will do for major grantly all the good that i can do for him." "what do you mean, grace?" "never mind what i mean. you are very imperious in managing your own affairs, and you must let me be so equally in mine." "but i tell you everything." "do you suppose that if--if--if in real truth it can possibly be the case that major grantly shall have come here to offer me his hand when we are all ground down into the dust, as we are, do you think that i will let him sacrifice himself? would you?" "certainly. why not? there will be no sacrifice. he will be asking for that which he wishes to get; and you will be bound to give it to him." "if he wants it, where is his nobility? if it be as you say, he will have shown himself noble, and his nobility will have consisted in this, that he has been willing to take that which he does not want, in order that he may succour one whom he loves. i also will succour one whom i love, as best i know how." then she walked on quickly before her friend, and lily stood for a moment thinking before she followed her. they were now on a field-path, by which they were enabled to escape the road back to allington for the greater part of the distance, and grace had reached a stile, and had clambered over it before lily had caught her. "you must not go away by yourself," said lily. "i don't wish to go away by myself." "i want you to stop a moment and listen to me. i am sure you are wrong in this,--wrong for both your sakes. you believe that he loves you?" "i thought he did once; and if he has come here to see me, i suppose he does still." "if that be the case, and if you also love him--" "i do. i make no mystery about that to you. i do love him with all my heart. i love him to-day, now that i believe him to be here, and that i suppose i shall see him, perhaps this very afternoon. and i loved him yesterday, when i thought that i should never see him again. i do love him. i do. i love him so well that i will never do him an injury." "that being so, if he makes you an offer you are bound to accept it. i do not think that you have an alternative." "i have an alternative, and i shall use it. why don't you take my cousin john?" "because i like somebody else better. if you have got as good a reason i won't say another word to you." "and why don't you take that other person?" "because i cannot trust his love; that is why. it is not very kind of you, opening my sores afresh, when i am trying to heal yours." "oh, lily, am i unkind,--unkind to you, who have been so generous to me?" "i'll forgive you all that and a deal more if you will only listen to me and try to take my advice. because this major of yours does a generous thing, which is for the good of you both,--the infinite good of both of you,--you are to emulate his generosity by doing a thing which will be for the good of neither of you. that is about it. yes, it is, grace. you cannot doubt that he has been meaning this for some time past; and of course, if he looks upon you as his own,--and i daresay, if the whole truth is to be told, he does--" "but i am not his own." "yes, you are, in one sense; you have just said so with a great deal of energy. and if it is so,--let me see, where was i?" "oh, lily, you need not mind where you were." "but i do mind, and i hate to be interrupted in my arguments. yes, just that. if he saw his cow sick, he'd try to doctor the cow in her sickness. he sees that you are sick, and of course he comes to your relief." "i am not major grantly's cow." "yes, you are." "nor his dog, nor his ox, nor his ass, nor anything that is his, except--except, lily, the dearest friend that he has on the face of the earth. he cannot have a friend that will go further for him than i will. he will never know how far i will go to serve him. you don't know his people. nor do i know them. but i know what they are. his sister is married to a marquis." "what has that to do with it?" said lily, sharply. "if she were married to an archduke, what difference would that make?" "and they are proud people--all of them--and rich; and they live with high persons in the world." "i didn't care though they lived with the royal family, and had the prince of wales for their bosom friend. it only shows how much better he is than they are." "but think what my family is,--how we are situated. when my father was simply poor i did not care about it, because he has been born and bred a gentleman. but now he is disgraced. yes, lily, he is. i am bound to say so, at any rate to myself, when i am thinking of major grantly; and i will not carry that disgrace into a family which would feel it so keenly as they would do." lily, however, went on with her arguments, and was still arguing when they turned the corner of the lane, and came upon lily's uncle and the major himself. chapter xxx. showing what major grantly did after his walk. in going down from the church to the small house lily dale had all the conversation to herself. during some portion of the way the path was only broad enough for two persons, and here major grantly walked by lily's side, while grace followed them. then they found their way into the house, and lily made her little speech to her mother about catching the major. "yes, my dear, i have seen major grantly before," said mrs. dale. "i suppose he has met you on the road. but i did not expect that any of you would have returned so soon." some little explanation followed as to the squire, and as to major grantly's walk, and after that the great thing was to leave the two lovers alone. "you will dine here, of course, major grantly," mrs. dale said. but this he declined. he had learned, he said, that there was a night-train up to london, and he thought that he would return to town by that. he had intended, when he left london, to get back as soon as possible. then mrs. dale, having hesitated for two or three seconds, got up and left the room, and lily followed. "it seems very odd and abrupt," said mrs. dale to her daughter, "but i suppose it is best." "of course it is best, mamma. do as one would be done by,--that's the only rule. it will be much better for her that she should have it over." grace was seated on a sofa, and major grantly got up from his chair, and came and stood opposite to her. "grace," he said, "i hope you are not angry with me for coming down to see you here." "no, i am not angry," she said. "i have thought a great deal about it, and your friend, miss prettyman, knew that i was coming. she quite approves of my coming." "she has written to me, but did not tell me of it," said grace, not knowing what other answer to make. "no,--she could not have done that. she had no authority. i only mention her name because it will have weight with you, and because i have not done that which, under other circumstances, perhaps, i should have been bound to do. i have not seen your father." "poor papa," said grace. "i have felt that at the present moment i could not do so with any success. it has not come of any want of respect either for him or for you. of course, grace, you know why i am here?" he paused, and then remembering that he had no right to expect an answer to such a question, he continued, "i have come here, dearest grace, to ask you to be my wife, and to be a mother to edith. i know that you love edith." "i do indeed." "and i have hoped sometimes,--though i suppose i ought not to say so,--but i have hoped and almost thought sometimes, that you have been willing to--to love me, too. it is better to tell the truth simply, is it not?" "i suppose so," said grace. "and therefore, and because i love you dearly myself, i have come to ask you to be my wife." saying which he opened out his hand, and held it to her. but she did not take it. "there is my hand, grace. if your heart is as i would have it you can give me yours, and i shall want nothing else to make me happy." but still she made no motion towards granting him his request. "if i have been too sudden," he said, "you must forgive me for that. i have been sudden and abrupt, but as things are, no other way has been open to me. can you not bring yourself to give me some answer, grace?" his hand had now fallen again to his side, but he was still standing before her. she had said no word to him as yet, except that one in which she had acknowledged her love for his child, and had expressed no surprise, even in her countenance, at his proposal. and yet the idea that he should do such a thing, since the idea that he certainly would do it had become clear to her, had filled her with a world of surprise. no girl ever lived with any beauty belonging to her who had a smaller knowledge of her own possession than grace crawley. nor had she the slightest pride in her own acquirements. that she had been taught in many things more than had been taught to other girls, had come of her poverty and of the desolation of her home. she had learned to read greek and italian because there had been nothing else for her to do in that sad house. and, subsequently, accuracy of knowledge had been necessary for the earning of her bread. i think that grace had at times been weak enough to envy the idleness and almost to envy the ignorance of other girls. her figure was light, perfect in symmetry, full of grace at all points; but she had thought nothing of her figure, remembering only the poverty of her dress, but remembering also with a brave resolution that she would never be ashamed of it. and as her acquaintance with major grantly had begun and had grown, and as she had learned to feel unconsciously that his company was pleasanter to her than that of any other person she knew, she had still told herself that anything like love must be out of the question. but then words had been spoken, and there had been glances in his eye, and a tone in his voice, and a touch upon his fingers, of which she could not altogether refuse to accept the meaning. and others had spoken to her of it, the two miss prettymans and her friend lily. yet she would not admit to herself that it could be so, and she would not allow herself to confess to herself that she loved him. then had come the last killing misery to which her father had been subjected. he had been accused of stealing money, and had been committed to be tried for the theft. from that moment, at any rate, any hope, if there had been a hope, must be crushed. but she swore to herself bravely that there had been no such hope. and she assured herself also that nothing had passed which had entitled her to expect anything beyond ordinary friendship from the man of whom she certainly had thought much. even if those touches and those tones and those glances had meant anything, all such meaning must be annihilated by this disgrace which had come upon her. she might know that her father was innocent; she might be sure, at any rate, that he had been innocent in intention; but the world thought differently, and she, her brother and sister, and her mother and her poor father, must bend to the world's opinion. if those dangerous joys had meant anything, they must be taken as meaning nothing more. thus she had argued with herself, and, fortified by such self-teachings, she had come down to allington. since she had been with her friends there had come upon her from day to day a clear conviction that her arguments had been undoubtedly true,--a clear conviction which had been very cold to her heart in spite of all her courage. she had expected nothing, hoped for nothing, and yet when nothing came she was sad. she thought of one special half-hour in which he had said almost all that he might have said,--more than he ought to have said;--of a moment during which her hand had remained in his; of a certain pressure with which he had put her shawl upon her shoulders. if he had only written to her one word to tell her that he believed her father was innocent! but no; she had no right to expect anything from him. and then lily had ceased to talk of him, and she did expect nothing. now he was there before her, asking her to come to him and be his wife. yes; she would kiss his shoebuckles, only that the kissing of his shoebuckles would bring upon him that injury which he should never suffer from her hands! he had been generous, and her self-pride was satisfied. but her other pride was touched, and she also would be generous. "can you not bring yourself to give me some answer?" he had said to her. of course she must give him an answer, but how should she give it? "you are very kind," she said. "i would be more than kind." "so you are. kind is a cold word when used to such a friend at such a time." "i would be everything on earth to you that a man can be to a woman." "i know i ought to thank you if i knew how. my heart is full of thanks; it is, indeed." "and is there no room for love there?" "there is no room for love in our house, major grantly. you have not seen papa." "no; but, if you wish it, i will do so at once." "it would do no good,--none. i only asked you because you can hardly know how sad is our state at home." "but i cannot see that that need deter you, if you can love me." "can you not? if you saw him, and the house, and my mother, you would not say so. in the bible it is said of some season that it is not a time for marrying, or for giving in marriage. and so it is with us." "i am not pressing you as to a day. i only ask you to say that you will be engaged to me,--so that i may tell my own people, and let it be known." "i understand all that. i know how good you are. but, major grantly, you must understand me also when i assure you that it cannot be so." "do you mean that you refuse me altogether?" "yes; altogether." "and why?" "must i answer that question? ought i to be made to answer it? but i will tell you fairly, without touching on anything else, that i feel that we are all disgraced, and that i will not take disgrace into another family." "grace, do you love me?" "i love no one now,--that is, as you mean. i can love no one. i have no room for any feeling except for my father and mother, and for us all. i should not be here now but that i save my mother the bread that i should eat at home." "is it as bad as that?" "yes, it is as bad as that. it is much worse than that, if you knew it all. you cannot conceive how low we have fallen. and now they tell me that my father will be found guilty, and will be sent to prison. putting ourselves out of the question, what would you think of a girl who could engage herself to any man under such circumstances? what would you think of a girl who would allow herself to be in love in such a position? had i been ten times engaged to you i would have broken it off." then she got up to leave him. but he stopped her, holding her by the arm. "what you have said will make me say what i certainly should never have said without it. i declare that we are engaged." "no, we are not," said grace. "you have told me that you loved me." "i never told you so." "there are other ways of speaking than the voice; and i will boast to you, though to no one else, that you have told me so. i believe you love me. i shall hold myself as engaged to you, and i shall think you false if i hear that you listen to another man. now, good-by, grace;--my own grace." "no, i am not your own," she said, through her tears. "you are my own, my very own. god bless you, dear, dear, dearest grace. you shall hear from me in a day or two, and shall see me as soon as this horrid trial is over." then he took her in his arms before she could escape from him, and kissed her forehead and her lips, while she struggled in his arms. after that he left the room and the house as quickly as he could, and was seen no more of the dales upon that occasion. chapter xxxi. showing how major grantly returned to guestwick. grace, when she was left alone, threw herself upon the sofa, and hid her face in her hands. she was weeping almost hysterically, and had been utterly dismayed and frightened by her lover's impetuosity. things had gone after a fashion which her imagination had not painted to her as possible. surely she had the power to refuse the man if she pleased. and yet she felt as she lay there weeping that she did in truth belong to him as part of his goods, and that her generosity had been foiled. she had especially resolved that she would not confess to any love for him. she had made no such confession. she had guarded herself against doing so with all the care which she knew how to use. but he had assumed the fact, and she had been unable to deny it. could she have lied to him, and have sworn that she did not love him? could she have so perjured herself, even in support of her generosity? yes, she would have done so,--so she told herself,--if a moment had been given to her for thought. she ought to have done so, and she blamed herself for being so little prepared for the occasion. the lie would be useless now. indeed, she would have no opportunity for telling it; for of course she would not answer,--would not even read his letter. though he might know that she loved him, yet she would not be his wife. he had forced her secret from her, but he could not force her to marry him. she did love him, but he should never be disgraced by her love. after a while she was able to think of his conduct, and she believed that she ought to be very angry with him. he had taken her roughly in his arms, and had insulted her. he had forced a kiss from her. she had felt his arms warm and close and strong about her, and had not known whether she was in paradise or in purgatory. she was very angry with him. she would send back his letter to him without reading it,--without opening it, if that might be possible. he had done that to her which nothing could justify. but yet,--yet,--yet how dearly she loved him! was he not a prince of men? he had behaved badly, of course; but had any man ever behaved so badly before in so divine a way? was it not a thousand pities that she should be driven to deny anything to a lover who so richly deserved everything that could be given to him? he had kissed her hand as he let her go, and now, not knowing what she did, she kissed the spot on which she had felt his lips. his arm had been round her waist, and the old frock which she wore should be kept by her for ever, because it had been so graced. what was she now to say to lily and to lily's mother? of one thing there was no doubt. she would never tell them of her lover's wicked audacity. that was a secret never to be imparted to any ears. she would keep her resentment to herself, and not ask the protection of any vicarious wrath. he could never so sin again, that was certain; and she would keep all knowledge and memory of the sin for her own purposes. but how could it be that such a man as that, one so good though so sinful, so glorious though so great a trespasser, should have come to such a girl as her and have asked for her love? then she thought of her father's poverty and the misery of her own condition, and declared to herself that it was very wonderful. lily was the first to enter the room, and she, before she did so, learned from the servant that major grantly had left the house. "i heard the door, miss, and then i saw the top of his hat out of the pantry window." armed with this certain information lily entered the drawing-room, and found grace in the act of rising from the sofa. "am i disturbing you?" said lily. "no; not at all. i am glad you have come. kiss me, and be good to me." and she twined her arms about lily and embraced her. "am i not always good to you, you simpleton? has he been good?" "i don't know what you mean?" "and have you been good to him?" "as good as i knew how, lily." "and where is he?" "he has gone away. i shall never see him any more, lily." then she hid her face upon her friend's shoulder and broke forth again into hysterical tears. "but tell me, grace, what he said;--that is, if you mean to tell me!" "i will tell you everything;--that is, everything i can." and grace blushed as she thought of the one secret which she certainly would not tell. "has he,--has he done what i said he would do? come, speak out boldly. has he asked you to be his wife?" "yes," said grace, barely whispering the word. "and you have accepted him?" "no, lily, i have not. indeed, i have not. i did not know how to speak, because i was surprised;--and he, of course, could say what he liked. but i told him as well as i could, that i would not marry him." "and why;--did you tell him why?" "yes; because of papa!" "then, if he is the man i take him to be, that answer will go for nothing. of course he knew all that before he came here. he did not think you were an heiress with forty thousand pounds. if he is in earnest, that will go for nothing. and i think he is in earnest." "and so was i in earnest." "well, grace;--we shall see." "i suppose i may have a will of my own, lily." "do not be so sure of that. women are not allowed to have wills of their own on all occasions. some man comes in a girl's way, and she gets to be fond of him, just because he does come in her way. well; when that has taken place, she has no alternative but to be taken if he chooses to take her; or to be left, if he chooses to leave her." "lily, don't say that." "but i do say it. a man may assure himself that he will find for himself a wife who shall be learned, or beautiful, or six feet high, if he wishes it, or who has red hair, or red eyes, or red cheeks,--just what he pleases; and he may go about till he finds it, as you can go about and match your worsteds. you are a fool if you buy a colour you don't want. but we can never match our worsteds for that other piece of work, but are obliged to take any colour that comes,--and, therefore, it is that we make such a jumble of it! here's mamma. we must not be philosophical before her. mamma, major grantly has--skedaddled." "oh, lily, what a word!" "but, oh, mamma, what a thing! fancy his going away and not saying a word to anybody!" "if he had anything to say to grace, i suppose he said it." "he asked her to marry him, of course. we none of us had any doubt about that. he swore to her that she and none but she should be his wife,--and all that kind of thing. but he seems to have done it in the most prosaic way;--and now he has gone away without saying a word to any of us. i shall never speak to him again,--unless grace asks me." "grace, my dear, may i congratulate you?" said mrs. dale. grace did not answer, as lily was too quick for her. "oh, she has refused him, of course. but major grantly is a man of too much sense to expect that he should succeed the first time. let me see; this is the fourteenth. these clocks run fourteen days, and, therefore, you may expect him again about the twenty-eighth. for myself, i think you are giving him an immense deal of unnecessary trouble, and that if he left you in the lurch it would only serve you right; but you have the world with you, i'm told. a girl is supposed to tell a man two fibs before she may tell him one truth." "i told him no fib, lily. i told him that i would not marry him, and i will not." "but why not, dear grace?" said mrs. dale. "because the people say that papa is a thief!" having said this, grace walked slowly out of the room, and neither mrs. dale nor lily attempted to follow her. "she's as good as gold," said lily, when the door was closed. "and he;--what of him?" "i think he is good, too; but she has told me nothing yet of what he has said to her. he must be good, or he would not have come down here after her. but i don't wonder at his coming, because she is so beautiful! once or twice as we were walking back to-day, i thought her face was the most lovely that i had ever seen. and did you see her just now, as she spoke of her father?" "oh, yes;--i saw her." "think what she will be in two or three years' time, when she becomes a woman. she talks french, and italian, and hebrew for anything that i know; and she is perfectly beautiful. i never saw a more lovely figure;--and she has spirit enough for a goddess. i don't think that major grantly is such a fool after all." "i never took him for a fool." "i have no doubt all his own people do;--or they will, when they hear of it. but, mamma, she will grow to be big enough to walk atop of all the lady hartletops in england. it will all come right at last." "you think it will?" "oh, yes. why should it not? if he is worth having, it will;--and i think he is worth having. he must wait till this horrid trial is over. it is clear to me that grace thinks that her father will be convicted." "but he cannot have taken the money." "i think he took it, and i think it wasn't his. but i don't think he stole it. i don't know whether you can understand the difference." "i am afraid a jury won't understand it." "a jury of men will not. i wish they could put you and me on it, mamma. i would take my best boots and eat them down to the heels, for grace's sake, and for major grantly's. what a good-looking man he is!" "yes, he is." "and so like a gentleman! i'll tell you what, mamma; we won't say anything to her about him for the present. her heart will be so full she will be driven to talk, and we can comfort her better in that way." the mother and daughter agreed to act upon these tactics, and nothing more was said to grace about her lover on that evening. major grantly walked from mrs. dale's house to the inn and ordered his gig, and drove himself out of allington, almost without remembering where he was or whither he was going. he was thinking solely of what had just occurred, and of what, on his part, should follow as the result of that meeting. half at least of the noble deeds done in this world are due to emulation, rather than to the native nobility of the actors. a young man leads a forlorn hope because another young man has offered to do so. jones in the hunting-field rides at an impracticable fence because he is told that smith took it three years ago. and walker puts his name down for ten guineas at a charitable dinner, when he hears thompson's read out for five. and in this case the generosity and self-denial shown by grace warmed and cherished similar virtues within her lover's breast. some few weeks ago major grantly had been in doubt as to what his duty required of him in reference to grace crawley; but he had no doubt whatsoever now. in the fervour of his admiration he would have gone straight to the archdeacon, had it been possible, and have told him what he had done and what he intended to do. nothing now should stop him;--no consideration, that is, either as regarded money or position. he had pledged himself solemnly, and he was very glad that he had pledged himself. he would write to grace and explain to her that he trusted altogether in her father's honour and innocence, but that no consideration as to that ought to influence either him or her in any way. if, independently of her father, she could bring herself to come to him and be his wife, she was bound to do so now, let the position of her father be what it might. and thus, as he drove his gig back towards guestwick, he composed a very pretty letter to the lady of his love. and as he went, at the corner of the lane which led from the main road up to guestwick cottage, he again came upon john eames, who was also returning to guestwick. there had been a few words spoken between lady julia and johnny respecting major grantly after the girls had left the cottage, and johnny had been persuaded that the strange visitor to allington could have no connection with his arch-enemy. "and why has he gone to allington?" john demanded, somewhat sternly, of his hostess. "well; if you ask me, i think he has gone there to see your cousin, grace crawley." "he told me that he knew grace," said john, looking as though he were conscious of his own ingenuity in putting two and two together very cleverly. "your cousin grace is a very pretty girl," said lady julia. "it's a long time since i've seen her," said johnny. "why, you saw her just this minute," said lady julia. "i didn't look at her," said johnny. therefore, when he again met major grantly, having continued to put two and two together with great ingenuity, he felt quite sure that the man had nothing to do with the arch-enemy, and he determined to be gracious. "did you find them at home at allington?" he said, raising his hat. "how do you do again?" said the major. "yes, i found your friend mrs. dale at home." "but not her daughter, or my cousin? they were up there;--where i've come from. but, perhaps, they had got back before you left." "i saw them both. they found me on the road with mr. dale." "what,--the squire? then you have seen everybody?" "everybody i wished to see at allington." "but you wouldn't stay at the 'red lion?'" "well, no. i remembered that i wanted to get back to london; and as i had seen my friends, i thought i might as well hurry away." "you knew mrs. dale before, then?" "no, i didn't. i never saw her in my life before. but i knew the old squire when i was a boy. however, i should have said friend. i went to see one friend, and i saw her." john eames perceived that his companion put a strong emphasis on the word "her," as though he were determined to declare boldly that he had gone to allington solely to see grace crawley. he had not the slightest objection to recognizing in major grantly a suitor for his cousin's hand. he could only reflect what an unusually fortunate girl grace must be if such a thing could be true. of those poor crawleys he had only heard from time to time that their misfortunes were as numerous as the sands on the sea-shore, and as unsusceptible of any fixed and permanent arrangement. but, as regarded grace, here would be a very permanent arrangement. tidings had reached him that grace was a great scholar, but he had never heard much of her beauty. it must probably be the case that major grantly was fond of greek. there was, he reminded himself, no accounting for tastes; but as nothing could be more respectable than such an alliance, he thought that it would become him to be civil to the major. "i hope you found her quite well. i had barely time to speak to her myself." "yes, she was very well. this is a sad thing about her father." "very sad," said johnny. perhaps the major had heard about the accusation for the first time to-day, and was going to find an escape on that plea. if such was the case, it would not be so well to be particularly civil. "i believe mr. crawley is a cousin of yours?" said the major. "his wife is my mother's first-cousin. their mothers were sisters." "she is an excellent woman." "i believe so. i don't know much about them myself,--that is, personally. of course i have heard of this charge that has been made against him. it seems to me to be a great shame." "well, i can't exactly say that it is a shame. i do not know that there has been anything done with a feeling of persecution or of cruelty. it is a great mystery, and we must have it cleared up if we can." "i don't suppose he can have been guilty," said johnny. "certainly not in the ordinary sense of the word. i heard all the evidence against him." "oh, you did?" "yes," said the major. "i live near them in barsetshire, and i am one of his bailsmen." "then you are an old friend, i suppose?" "not exactly that; but circumstances make me very much interested about them. i fancy that the cheque was left in his house by accident, and that it got into his hands he didn't know how, and that when he used it he thought it was his." "that's queer," said johnny. "he is very odd, you know." "but it's a kind of oddity that they don't like at the assizes." "the great cruelty is," said the major, "that whatever may be the result, the punishment will fall so heavily upon his wife and daughters. i think the whole county ought to come forward and take them by the hand. well, good-by. i'll drive on, as i'm a little in a hurry." "good-by," said johnny. "i'm very glad to have had the pleasure of meeting you." "he's a good sort of a fellow after all," he said to himself when the gig had passed on. "he wouldn't have talked in that way if he had meant to hang back." chapter xxxii. mr. toogood. [illustration] mr. crawley had declared to mr. robarts, that he would summon no legal aid to his assistance at the coming trial. the reader may, perhaps, remember the impetuosity with which he rejected the advice on this subject which was conveyed to him by mr. robarts with all the authority of archdeacon grantly's name. "tell the archdeacon," he had said, "that i will have none of his advice." and then mr. robarts had left him, fully convinced that any further interference on his part could be of no avail. nevertheless, the words which had then been spoken were not without effect. this coming trial was ever present to mr. crawley's mind, and though, when driven to discuss the subject, he would speak of it with high spirit, as he had done both to the bishop and to mr. robarts, yet in his long hours of privacy, or when alone with his wife, his spirit was anything but high. "it will kill me," he would say to her. "i shall get salvation thus. death will relieve me, and i shall never be called upon to stand before those cruel eager eyes." then would she try to say words of comfort, sometimes soothing him as though he were a child, and at others bidding him be a man, and remember that as a man he should have sufficient endurance to bear the eyes of any crowd that might be there to look at him. "i think i will go up to london," he said to her one evening, very soon after the day of mr. robarts's visit. "go up to london, josiah!" mr. crawley had not been up to london once since they had been settled at hogglestock, and this sudden resolution on his part frightened his wife. "go up to london, dearest! and why?" "i will tell you why. they all say that i should speak to some man of the law whom i may trust about this coming trial. i trust no one in these parts. not, mark you, that i say that they are untrustworthy. god forbid that i should so speak or even so think of men whom i know not. but the matter has become so common in men's mouths at barchester and at silverbridge, that i cannot endure to go among them and to talk of it. i will go up to london, and i will see your cousin, mr. john toogood, of gray's inn." now in this scheme there was an amount of everyday prudence which startled mrs. crawley almost as much as did the prospect of the difficulties to be overcome if the journey were to be made. her husband, in the first place, had never once seen mr. john toogood; and in days very long back, when he and she were making their first gallant struggle,--for in those days it had been gallant,--down in their cornish curacy, he had reprobated certain toogood civilities,--professional civilities,--which had been proffered, perhaps, with too plain an intimation that on the score of relationship the professional work should be done without payment. the mr. toogood of those days, who had been mrs. crawley's uncle, and the father of mrs. eames and grandfather of our friend johnny eames, had been much angered by some correspondence which had grown up between him and mr. crawley, and from that day there had been a cessation of all intercourse between the families. since those days that toogood had been gathered to the ancient toogoods of old, and the son reigned on the family throne in raymond's buildings. the present toogood was therefore first-cousin to mrs. crawley. but there had been no intimacy between them. mrs. crawley had not seen her cousin since her marriage,--as indeed she had seen none of her relations, having been estranged from them by the singular bearing of her husband. she knew that her cousin stood high in his profession, the firm of toogood and crump,--crump and toogood it should have been properly called in these days,--having always held its head up high above all dirty work; and she felt that her husband could look for advice from no better source. but how would such a one as he manage to tell his story to a stranger? nay, how would he find his way alone into the lawyer's room, to tell his story at all,--so strange was he to the world? and then the expense! "if you do not wish me to apply to your cousin, say so, and there shall be an end of it," said mr. crawley in an angry tone. "of course i would wish it. i believe him to be an excellent man, and a good lawyer." "then why should i not go to his chambers? in formâ pauperis i must go to him, and must tell him so. i cannot pay him for the labour of his counsel, nor for such minutes of his time as i shall use." "oh, josiah, you need not speak of that." "but i must speak of it. can i go to a professional man, who keeps as it were his shop open for those who may think fit to come, and purchase of him, and take of his goods, and afterwards, when the goods have been used, tell him that i have not the price in my hand? i will not do that, mary. you think that i am mad, that i know not what i do. yes,--i see it in your eyes; and you are sometimes partly right. but i am not so mad but that i know what is honest. i will tell your cousin that i am sore straitened, and brought down into the very dust by misfortune. and i will beseech him, for what of ancient feeling of family he may bear to you, to listen to me for a while. and i will be very short, and, if need be, will bide his time patiently, and perhaps he may say a word to me that may be of use." there was certainly very much in this to provoke mrs. crawley. it was not only that she knew well that her cousin would give ample and immediate attention, and lend himself thoroughly to the matter without any idea of payment,--but that she could not quite believe that her husband's humility was true humility. she strove to believe it, but knew that she failed. after all it was only a feeling on her part. there was no argument within herself about it. an unpleasant taste came across the palate of her mind, as such a savour will sometimes, from some unexpected source, come across the palate of the mouth. well; she could only gulp at it, and swallow it and excuse it. among the salad that comes from your garden a bitter leaf will now and then make its way into your salad-bowl. alas, there were so many bitter leaves ever making their way into her bowl! "what i mean is, josiah, that no long explanation will be needed. i think, from what i remember of him, that he would do for us anything that he could do." "then i will go to the man, and will humble myself before him. even that, hard as it is to me, may be a duty that i owe." mr. crawley as he said this was remembering the fact that he was a clergyman of the church of england, and that he had a rank of his own in the country, which, did he ever do such a thing as go out to dinner in company, would establish for him a certain right of precedence; whereas this attorney, of whom he was speaking, was, so to say, nobody in the eyes of the world. "there need be no humbling, josiah, other than that which is due from man to man in all circumstances. but never mind; we will not talk about that. if it seems good to you, go to mr. toogood. i think that it is good. may i write to him and say that you will go?" "i will write myself; it will be more seemly." then the wife paused before she asked the next question,--paused for some minute or two, and then asked it with anxious doubt,--"and may i go with you, josiah?" "why should two go when one can do the work?" he answered sharply. "have we money so much at command?" "indeed, no." "you should go and do it all, for you are wiser in these things than i am, were it not that i may not dare to show--that i submit myself to my wife." "nay, my dear!" "but it is ay, my dear. it is so. this is a thing such as men do; not such as women do, unless they be forlorn and unaided of men. i know that i am weak where you are strong; that i am crazed where you are clear-witted." "i meant not that, josiah. it was of your health that i thought." "nevertheless it is as i say; but, for all that, it may not be that you should do my work. there are those watching me who would say, 'lo! he confesses himself incapable.' and then some one would whisper something of a madhouse. mary, i fear that worse than a prison." "may god in his mercy forbid such cruelty!" "but i must look to it, my dear. do you think that that woman, who sits there at barchester in high places, disgracing herself and that puny ecclesiastical lord who is her husband,--do you think that she would not immure me if she could? she is a she-wolf,--only less reasonable than the dumb brute as she sharpens her teeth in malice coming from anger, and not in malice coming from hunger as do the outer wolves of the forest. i tell you, mary, that if she had a colourable ground for her action, she would swear to-morrow that i am mad." "you shall go alone to london." "yes, i will go alone. they shall not say that i cannot yet do my own work as a man should do it. i stood up before him, the puny man who is called a bishop, and before her who makes herself great by his littleness, and i scorned them both to their faces. though the shoes which i had on were all broken, as i myself could not but see when i stood, yet i was greater than they were with all their purple and fine linen." "but, josiah, my cousin will not be harsh to you." "well,--and if he be not?" "ill-usage you can bear; and violent ill-usage, such as that which mrs. proudie allowed herself to exhibit, you can repay with interest; but kindness seems to be too heavy a burden for you." "i will struggle. i will endeavour. i will speak but little, and, if possible, i will listen much. now, my dear, i will write to this man, and you shall give me the address that is proper for him." then he wrote the letter, not accepting a word in the way of dictation from his wife, but "craving the great kindness of a short interview, for which he ventured to become a solicitor, urged thereto by his wife's assurance that one with whom he was connected by family ties would do as much as this for the possible preservation of the honour of the family." in answer to this, mr. toogood wrote back as follows:--"dear mr. crawley, i will be at my office all thursday morning next from ten to two, and will take care that you shan't be kept waiting for me above ten minutes. you parsons never like waiting. but hadn't you better come and breakfast with me and maria at nine? then we'd have a talk as we walk to the office. yours always, thomas toogood." and the letter was dated from the attorney's private house in tavistock square. "i am sure he means to be kind," said mrs. crawley. "doubtless he means to be kind. but his kindness is rough;--i will not say unmannerly, as the word would be harsh. i have never even seen the lady whom he calls maria." "she is his wife!" "so i would venture to suppose; but she is unknown to me. i will write again, and thank him, and say that i will be with him at ten to the moment." there were still many things to be settled before the journey could be made. mr. crawley, in his first plan, proposed that he should go up by night mail train, travelling in the third class, having walked over to silverbridge to meet it; that he should then walk about london from a.m. to a.m., and afterwards come down by an afternoon train to which a third class was also attached. but at last his wife persuaded him that such a task as that, performed in the middle of the winter, would be enough to kill any man, and that, if attempted, it would certainly kill him; and he consented at last to sleep the night in town,--being specially moved thereto by discovering that he could, in conformity with this scheme, get in and out of the train at a station considerably nearer to him than silverbridge, and that he could get a return-ticket at a third-class fare. the whole journey, he found, could be done for a pound, allowing him seven shillings for his night's expenses in london; and out of the resources of the family there were produced two sovereigns, so that in the event of accident he would not utterly be a castaway from want of funds. so he started on his journey after an early dinner, almost hopeful through the new excitement of a journey to london, and his wife walked with him nearly as far as the station. "do not reject my cousin's kindness," were the last words she spoke. "for his professional kindness, if he will extend it to me, i will be most thankful," he replied. she did not dare to say more; nor had she dared to write privately to her cousin, asking for any special help, lest by doing so she should seem to impugn the sufficiency and stability of her husband's judgment. he got up to town late at night, and having made inquiry of one of the porters, he hired a bed for himself in the neighbourhood of the railway station. here he had a cup of tea and a morsel of bread-and-butter, and in the morning he breakfasted again on the same fare. "no, i have no luggage," he had said to the girl at the public-house, who had asked him as to his travelling gear. "if luggage be needed as a certificate of respectability, i will pass on elsewhere," said he. the girl stared, and assured him that she did not doubt his respectability. "i am a clergyman of the church of england," he had said, "but my circumstances prevent me from seeking a more expensive lodging." they did their best to make him comfortable, and, i think, almost disappointed him in not heaping further misfortunes on his head. he was in raymond's buildings at half-past nine, and for half an hour walked up and down the umbrageous pavement,--it used to be umbrageous, but perhaps the trees have gone now,--before the doors of the various chambers. he could hear the clock strike from gray's inn; and the moment that it had struck he was turning in, but was encountered in the passage by mr. toogood, who was equally punctual with himself. strange stories about mr. crawley had reached mr. toogood's household, and that maria, the mention of whose christian name had been so offensive to the clergyman, had begged her husband not to be a moment late. poor mr. toogood, who on ordinary days did perhaps take a few minutes' grace, was thus hurried away almost with his breakfast in his throat, and, as we have seen, just saved himself. "perhaps, sir, you are mr. crawley?" he said, in a good-humoured, cheery voice. he was a good-humoured, cheery-looking man, about fifty years of age, with grizzled hair and sunburnt face, and large whiskers. nobody would have taken him to be a partner in any of those great houses of which we have read in history,--the quirk, gammon and snaps of the profession, or the dodson and foggs, who are immortal. "that is my name, sir," said mr. crawley, taking off his hat and bowing low, "and i am here by appointment to meet mr. toogood, the solicitor, whose name i see affixed upon the door-post." "i am mr. toogood, the solicitor, and i hope i see you quite well, mr. crawley." then the attorney shook hands with the clergyman and preceded him upstairs to the front room on the first floor. "here we are, mr. crawley, and pray take a chair. i wish you could have made it convenient to come and see us at home. we are rather long, as my wife says,--long in family, she means, and therefore are not very well off for spare beds--" "oh, sir." "i've twelve of 'em living, mr. crawley,--from eighteen years, the eldest,--a girl, down to eighteen months the youngest,--a boy, and they go in and out, boy and girl, boy and girl, like the cogs of a wheel. they ain't such far away distant cousins from your own young ones--only first, once, as we call it." "i am aware that there is a family tie, or i should not have ventured to trouble you." "blood is thicker than water; isn't it? i often say that. i heard of one of your girls only yesterday. she is staying somewhere down in the country, not far from where my sister lives--mrs. eames, the widow of poor john eames, who never did any good in this world. i daresay you've heard of her?" "the name is familiar to me, mr. toogood." "of course it is. i've a nephew down there just now, and he saw your girl the other day;--very highly he spoke of her too. let me see;--how many is it you have?" "three living, mr. toogood." "i've just four times three;--that's the difference. but i comfort myself with the text about the quiver you know; and i tell them that when they've eat up all the butter, they'll have to take their bread dry." "i trust the young people take your teaching in a proper spirit." "i don't know much about spirit. there's spirit enough. my second girl, lucy, told me that if i came home to-day without tickets for the pantomime i shouldn't have any dinner allowed me. that's the way they treat me. but we understand each other at home. we're all pretty good friends there, thank god. and there isn't a sick chick among the boiling." "you have many mercies for which you should indeed be thankful," said mr. crawley, gravely. "yes, yes, yes; that's true. i think of that sometimes, though perhaps not so much as i ought to do. but the best way to be thankful is to use the goods the gods provide you. 'the lovely thais sits beside you. take the goods the gods provide you.' i often say that to my wife, till the children have got to calling her thais. the children have it pretty much their own way with us, mr. crawley." by this time mr. crawley was almost beside himself, and was altogether at a loss how to bring in the matter on which he wished to speak. he had expected to find a man who in the hurry of london business might perhaps just manage to spare him five minutes,--who would grapple instantly with the subject that was to be discussed between them, would speak to him half-a-dozen hard words of wisdom, and would then dismiss him and turn on the instant to other matters of important business;--but here was an easy familiar fellow, who seemed to have nothing on earth to do, and who at this first meeting had taken advantage of a distant family connexion to tell him everything about the affairs of his own household. and then how peculiar were the domestic traits which he told! what was mr. crawley to say to a man who had taught his own children to call their mother thais? of thais mr. crawley did know something, and he forgot to remember that perhaps mr. toogood knew less. he felt it, however, to be very difficult to submit the details of his case to a gentleman who talked in such a strain about his own wife and children. but something must be done. mr. crawley, in his present frame of mind, could not sit and talk about thais all day. "sir," he said, "the picture of your home is very pleasant, and i presume that plenty abounds there." "well, you know, pretty toll-loll for that. with twelve of 'em, mr. crawley, i needn't tell you they are not all going to have castles and parks of their own, unless they can get 'em off their own bats. but i pay upwards of a hundred a year each for my eldest three boys' schooling, and i've been paying eighty for the girls. put that and that together and see what it comes to. educate, educate, educate; that's my word." "no better word can be spoken, sir." "i don't think there's a girl in tavistock square that can beat polly,--she's the eldest, called after her mother, you know;--that can beat her at the piano. and lucy has read lord byron and tom moore all through, every word of 'em. by jove, i believe she knows most of tom moore by heart. and the young uns are coming on just as well." "perhaps, sir, as your time is, no doubt, precious--" "just at this time of the day we don't care so much about it, mr. crawley; and one doesn't catch a new cousin every day, you know." "however, if you will allow me,--" "we'll tackle to? very well; so be it. now, mr. crawley, let me hear what it is that i can do for you." of a sudden, as mr. toogood spoke these last words, the whole tone of his voice seemed to change, and even the position of his body became so much altered as to indicate a different kind of man. "you just tell your story in your own way, and i won't interrupt you till you've done. that's always the best." "i must first crave your attention to an unfortunate preliminary," said mr. crawley. "and what is that?" "i come before you in formâ pauperis." here mr. crawley paused and stood up before the attorney with his hands crossed one upon the other, bending low, as though calling attention to the poorness of his raiment. "i know that i have no justification for my conduct. i have nothing of reason to offer why i should trespass upon your time. i am a poor man, and cannot pay you for your services." "oh, bother!" said mr. toogood, jumping up out of his chair. "i do not know whether your charity will grant me that which i ask--" "don't let's have any more of this," said the attorney. "we none of us like this kind of thing at all. if i can be of any service to you, you're as welcome to it as flowers in may; and as for billing my first-cousin, which your wife is, i should as soon think of sending in an account to my own." "but, mr. toogood,--" "do you go on now with your story; i'll put the rest all right." "i was bound to be explicit, mr. toogood." "very well; now you have been explicit with a vengeance, and you may heave a-head. let's hear the story, and if i can help you i will. when i've said that, you may be sure i mean it. i've heard something of it before; but let me hear it all from you." then mr. crawley began and told the story. mr. toogood was actually true to his promise and let the narrator go on with his narrative without interruption. when mr. crawley came to his own statement that the cheque had been paid to him by mr. soames, and went on to say that that statement had been false,--"i told him that, but i told him so wrongly," and then paused, thinking that the lawyer would ask some question, mr. toogood simply said, "go on; go on. i'll come back to all that when you've done." and he merely nodded his head when mr. crawley spoke of his second statement, that the money had come from the dean. "we had been bound together by close ties of early familiarity," said mr. crawley, "and in former years our estates in life were the same. but he has prospered and i have failed. and when creditors were importunate, i consented to accept relief in money which had previously been often offered. and i must acknowledge, mr. toogood, while saying this, that i have known,--have known with heartfelt agony,--that at former times my wife has taken that from my friend mr. arabin, with hand half-hidden from me, which i have refused. whether it be better to eat--the bread of charity,--or not to eat bread at all, i, for myself, have no doubt," he said; "but when the want strikes one's wife and children, and the charity strikes only oneself, then there is a doubt." when he spoke thus, mr. toogood got up, and thrusting his hands into his waistcoat pockets walked about the room, exclaiming, "by george, by george, by george!" but he still let the man go on with his story, and heard him out at last to the end. "and they committed you for trial at the next barchester assizes?" said the lawyer. "they did." "and you employed no lawyer before the magistrates?" "none;--i refused to employ any one." "you were wrong there, mr. crawley. i must be allowed to say that you were wrong there." "i may possibly have been so from your point of view, mr. toogood; but permit me to explain. i--" "it's no good explaining now. of course you must employ a lawyer for your defence,--an attorney who will put the case into the hands of counsel." "but that i cannot do, mr. toogood." "you must do it. if you don't do it, your friends should do it for you. if you don't do it, everybody will say you're mad. there isn't a single solicitor you could find within half a mile of you at this moment who wouldn't give you the same advice,--not a single man, either, who has got a head on his shoulders worth a turnip." when mr. crawley was told that madness would be laid to his charge if he did not do as he was bid, his face became very black, and assumed something of that look of determined obstinacy which it had worn when he was standing in the presence of the bishop and mrs. proudie. "it may be so," he said. "it may be as you say, mr. toogood. but these neighbours of yours, as to whose collected wisdom you speak with so much certainty, would hardly recommend me to indulge in a luxury for which i have no means of paying." "who thinks about paying under such circumstances as these?" "i do, mr. toogood." "the wretchedest costermonger that comes to grief has a barrister in a wig and gown to give him his chance of escape." "but i am not a costermonger, mr. toogood,--though more wretched perhaps than any costermonger now in existence. it is my lot to have to endure the sufferings of poverty, and at the same time not to be exempt from those feelings of honour to which poverty is seldom subject. i cannot afford to call in legal assistance for which i cannot pay,--and i will not do it." "i'll carry the case through for you. it certainly is not just my line of business,--but i'll see it carried through for you." "out of your own pocket?" "never mind; when i say i'll do a thing, i'll do it." "no, mr. toogood; this thing you can not do. but do not suppose i am the less grateful." "what is it i can do then? why do you come to me if you won't take my advice?" after this the conversation went on for a considerable time without touching on any point which need be brought palpably before the reader's eye. the attorney continued to beg the clergyman to have his case managed in the usual way, and went so far as to tell him that he would be ill-treating his wife and family if he continued to be obstinate. but the clergyman was not shaken from his resolve, and was at last able to ask mr. toogood what he had better do,--how he had better attempt to defend himself,--on the understanding that no legal aid was to be employed. when this question was at last asked in such a way as to demand an answer, mr. toogood sat for a moment or two in silence. he felt that an answer was not only demanded, but almost enforced; and yet there might be much difficulty in giving it. "mr. toogood," said mr. crawley, seeing the attorney's hesitation, "i declare to you before god, that my only object will be to enable the jury to know about this sad matter all that i know myself. if i could open my breast to them i should be satisfied. but then a prisoner can say nothing; and what he does say is ever accounted false." "that is why you should have legal assistance." "we had already come to a conclusion on that matter, as i thought," said mr. crawley. mr. toogood paused for another moment or two, and then dashed at his answer; or rather, dashed at a counter question. "mr. crawley, where did you get the cheque? you must pardon me, you know; or, if you wish it, i will not press the question. but so much hangs on that, you know." "every thing would hang on it,--if i only knew." "you mean that you forget?" "absolutely; totally. i wish, mr. toogood, i could explain to you the toilsome perseverance with which i have cudgelled my poor brains, endeavouring to extract from them some scintilla of memory that would aid me." "could you have picked it up in the house?" "no;--no; that i did not do. dull as i am, i know so much. it was mine of right, from whatever source it came to me. i know myself as no one else can know me, in spite of the wise man's motto. had i picked up a cheque in my house, or on the road, i should not have slept till i had taken steps to restore it to the seeming owner. so much i can say. but, otherwise, i am in such matters so shandy-pated, that i can trust myself to be sure of nothing. i thought;--i certainly thought--" "you thought what?" "i thought that it had been given to me by my friend the dean. i remember well that i was in his library at barchester, and i was somewhat provoked in spirit. there were lying on the floor hundreds of volumes, all glittering with gold, and reeking with new leather from the binders. he asked me to look at his toys. why should i look at them? there was a time, but the other day it seemed, when he had been glad to borrow from me such treasures as i had. and it seemed to me that he was heartless in showing me these things. well; i need not trouble you with all that." "go on;--go on. let me hear it all, and i shall learn something." "i know now how vain, how vile i was. i always know afterwards how low the spirit has grovelled. i had gone to him then because i had resolved to humble myself, and, for my wife's sake, to ask my friend--for money. with words which were very awkward,--which no doubt were ungracious--i had asked him, and he had bid me follow him from his hall into his library. there he left me awhile, and on returning told me with a smile that he had sent for money,--and, if i can remember, the sum he named was fifty pounds." "but it has turned out, as you say, that you have paid fifty pounds with his money,--besides the cheque." "that is true;--that is quite true. there is no doubt of that. but as i was saying,--then he fell to talking about the books, and i was angered. i was very sore in my heart. from the moment in which the words of beggary had passed from my lips, i had repented. and he had laughed and had taken it gaily. i turned upon him and told him that i had changed my mind. i was grateful, but i would not have his money. and so i prepared to go. but he argued with me, and would not let me go,--telling me of my wife and of my children, and while he argued there came a knock at the door, and something was handed in, and i knew that it was the hand of his wife." "it was the money, i suppose?" "yes, mr. toogood; it was the money. and i became the more uneasy, because she herself is rich. i liked it the less because it seemed to come from her hand. but i took it. what could i do when he reminded me that i could not keep my parish unless certain sums were paid? he gave me a little parcel in a cover, and i took it,--and left him sorrowing. i had never before come quite to that;--though, indeed, it had in fact been often so before. what was the difference whether the alms were given into my hands or into my wife's?" "you are too touchy about it all, mr. crawley." "of course i am. do you try it, and see whether you will be touchy. you have worked hard at your profession, i daresay." "well, yes; pretty well. to tell the truth, i have worked hard. by george, yes! it's not so bad now as it used to be." "but you have always earned your bread; bread for yourself, and bread for your wife and little ones. you can buy tickets for the play." "i couldn't always buy tickets, mind you." "i have worked as hard, and yet i cannot get bread. i am older than you, and i cannot earn my bare bread. look at my clothes. if you had to go and beg from mr. crump, would not you be touchy?" "as it happens, crump isn't so well off as i am." "never mind. but i took it, and went home, and for two days i did not look at it. and then there came an illness upon me, and i know not what passed. but two men who had been hard on me came to the house when i was out, and my wife was in a terrible state; and i gave her the money, and she went into silverbridge and paid them." "and this cheque was with what you gave her?" "no; i gave her money in notes,--just fifty pounds. when i gave it her, i thought i gave it all; and yet afterwards i thought i remembered that in my illness i had found the cheque with the dean's money. but it was not so." "you are sure of that?" "he has said that he put five notes of £ each into the cover, and such notes i certainly gave to my wife." "where then did you get the cheque?" mr. crawley again paused before he answered. "surely, if you will exert your mind, you will remember," said the lawyer. "where did you get the cheque?" "i do not know." mr. toogood threw himself back in his chair, took his knee up into his lap to nurse it, and began to think of it. he sat thinking of it for some minutes without a word,--perhaps for five minutes, though the time seemed to be much longer to mr. crawley, who was, however, determined that he would not interrupt him. and mr. toogood's thoughts were at variance with mr. toogood's former words. perhaps, after all, this scheme of mr. crawley's,--or rather the mode of defence on which he had resolved without any scheme,--might be the best of which the case admitted. it might be well that he should go into court without a lawyer. "he has convinced me of his innocence," mr. toogood said to himself, "and why should he not convince a jury? he has convinced me, not because i am specially soft, or because i love the man,--for as to that i dislike him rather than otherwise;--but because there is either real truth in his words, or else so well-feigned a show of truth that no jury can tell the difference. i think it is true. by george, i think he did get the twenty pounds honestly, and that he does not this moment know where he got it. he may have put his finger into my eye; but, if so, why not also into the eyes of a jury?" then he released his leg, and spoke something of his thoughts aloud. "it's a sad story," he said; "a very sad story." "well, yes, it's sad enough. if you could see my house, you'd say so." "i haven't a doubt but what you're as innocent as i am." mr. toogood, as he said this, felt a little twinge of conscience. he did believe mr. crawley to be innocent, but he was not so sure of it as his words would seem to imply. nevertheless he repeated the words again;--"as innocent as i am." "i don't know," said mr. crawley. "i don't know. i think i am; but i don't know." "i believe you are. but you see the case is a very distressing one. a jury has a right to say that the man in possession of a cheque for twenty pounds should account for his possession of it. if i understand the story aright, mr. soames will be able to prove that he brought the cheque into your house, and, as far as he knows, never took it out again." "i suppose so; all the same, if he brought it in, then did he also take it out again." "i am saying what he will prove,--or, in other words, what he will state upon oath. you can't contradict him. you can't get into the box to do it,--even if that would be of any avail; and i am glad that you cannot, as it would be of no avail. and you can put no one else into the box who can do so." "no; no." "that is to say, we think you cannot do so. people can do so many things that they don't think they can do; and can't do so many things that they think that they can do! when will the dean be home?" "i don't know." "before the trial?" "i don't know. i have no idea." "it's almost a toss-up whether he'd do more harm or good if he were there." "i wish he might be there if he has anything to say, whether it might be for harm or good." "and mrs. arabin;--she is with him?" "they tell me she is not. she is in europe. he is in palestine." "in palestine, is he?" "so they tell me. a dean can go where he likes. he has no cure of souls to stand in the way of his pleasures." "he hasn't,--hasn't he? i wish i were a dean; that is, if i were not a lawyer. might i write a line to the dean,--and to mrs. dean, if it seemed fit? you wouldn't mind that? as you have come to see your cousin at last,--and very glad i am that you have,--you must leave him a little discretion. i won't say anything i oughtn't to say." mr. crawley opposed this scheme for some time, but at last consented to the proposition. "and i'll tell you what, mr. crawley; i am very fond of cathedrals, i am indeed; and i have long wanted to see barchester. there's a very fine what-you-may-call-em; isn't there? well; i'll just run down at the assizes. we have nothing to do in london when the judges are in the country,--of course." mr. toogood looked into mr. crawley's eyes as he said this, to see if his iniquity were detected, but the perpetual curate was altogether innocent in these matters. "yes; i'll just run down for a mouthful of fresh air. of course i shan't open my mouth in court. but i might say one word to the dean, if he's there;--and one word to mr. soames. who is conducting the prosecution?" mr. crawley said that mr. walker was doing so. "walker, walker, walker? oh,--yes; walker and winthrop, isn't it? a decent sort of man, i suppose?" "i have heard nothing to his discredit, mr. toogood." "and that's saying a great deal for a lawyer. well, mr. crawley, if nothing else comes out between this and that,--nothing, that is, that shall clear your memory about that unfortunate bit of paper, you must simply tell your story to the jury as you've told it to me. i don't think any twelve men in england would convict you;--i don't indeed." "you think they would not?" "of course i've only heard one side, mr. crawley." "no,--no,--no, that is true." "but judging as well as i can judge from one side, i don't think a jury can convict you. at any rate i'll see you at barchester, and i'll write a line or two before the trial, just to find out anything that can be found out. and you're sure you won't come and take a bit of mutton with us in the square? the girls would be delighted to see you, and so would maria." mr. crawley said that he was quite sure he could not do that, and then having tendered reiterated thanks to his new friend in words which were touching in spite of their old-fashioned gravity, he took his leave, and walked back again to the public-house at paddington. he returned home to hogglestock on the same afternoon, reaching that place at nine in the evening. during the whole of the day after leaving raymond's buildings he was thinking of the lawyer, and of the words which the lawyer had spoken. although he had been disposed to quarrel with mr. toogood on many points, although he had been more than once disgusted by the attorney's bad taste, shocked by his low morality, and almost insulted by his easy familiarity, still, when the interview was over, he liked the attorney. when first mr. toogood had begun to talk, he regretted very much that he had subjected himself to the necessity of discussing his private affairs with such a windbag of a man; but when he left the chamber he trusted mr. toogood altogether, and was very glad that he had sought his aid. he was tired and exhausted when he reached home, as he had eaten nothing but a biscuit or two since his breakfast; but his wife got him food and tea, and then asked him as to his success. "was my cousin kind to you?" "very kind,--more than kind,--perhaps somewhat too pressing in his kindness. but i find no fault. god forbid that i should. he is, i think, a good man, and certainly has been good to me." "and what is to be done?" "he will write to the dean." "i am glad of that." "and he will be at barchester." "thank god for that." "but not as my lawyer." "nevertheless, i thank god that some one will be there who will know how to give you assistance and advice." chapter xxxiii. the plumstead foxes. the letters had been brought into the breakfast-parlour at plumstead rectory one morning, and the archdeacon had inspected them all, and then thrown over to his wife her share of the spoil,--as was the custom of the house. as to most of mrs. grantly's letters, he never made any further inquiry. to letters from her sister, the dean's wife, he was profoundly indifferent, and rarely made any inquiry as to those which were directed in writing with which he was not familiar. but there were others as to which, as mrs. grantly knew, he would be sure to ask her questions if she did not show them. no note ever reached her from lady hartletop as to which he was not curious, and yet lady hartletop's notes very seldom contained much that was of interest. now, on this morning, there came a letter which, as a matter of course, mrs. grantly read at breakfast, and which, she knew, would not be allowed to disappear without inquiry. nor, indeed, did she wish to keep the letter from her husband. it was too important to be so treated. but she would have been glad to gain time to think in what spirit she would discuss the contents of the letter,--if only such time might be allowed to her. but the archdeacon would allow her no time. "what does henry say, my dear?" he asked, before the breakfast things had been taken away. "what does he say? well; he says--. i'll give you his letter to read by-and-by." "and why not now?" "i thought i'd read it again myself, first." "but if you have read it, i suppose you know what's in it?" "not very clearly, as yet. however, there it is." she knew very well that when she had once been asked for it, no peace would be allowed to her till he had seen it. and, alas! there was not much probability of peace in the house for some time after he should see it. the archdeacon read the three or four first lines in silence,--and then he burst out. "he has, has he? then, by heavens--" "stop, dearest; stop," said his wife, rising from her chair and coming over to him; "do not say words which you will surely repent." "i will say words which shall make him repent. he shall never have from me a son's portion." "do not make threats in anger. do not! you know that it is wrong. if he has offended you, say nothing about it,--even to yourself,--as to threatened punishments, till you can judge of the offence in cool blood." "i am cool," said the archdeacon. "no, my dear; no; you are angry. and you have not even read his letter through." "i will read his letter." "you will see that the marriage is not imminent. it may be that even yet it will never take place. the young lady has refused him." "psha!" "you will see that she has done so. he tells us so himself. and she has behaved very properly." "why has she refused him?" "there can be no doubt about the reason. she feels that, with this charge hanging over her father, she is not in a position to become the wife of any gentleman. you cannot but respect her for that." then the archdeacon finished his son's letter, uttering sundry interjections and ejaculations as he did so. "of course; i knew it. i understood it all," he said at last. "i've nothing to do with the girl. i don't care whether she be good or bad." "oh, my dear!" "i care not at all,--with reference to my own concerns. of course i would wish that the daughter of a neighbouring clergyman,--that the daughter of any neighbour,--that the daughter of any one whatsoever,--should be good rather than bad. but as regards henry and me, and our mutual relation, her goodness can make no difference. let her be another grizel, and still such a marriage must estrange him from me, and me from him." "but she has refused him." "yes; and what does he say?--that he has told her that he will not accept her refusal. of course we know what it all means. the girl i am not judging. the girl i will not judge. but my own son, to whom i have ever done a father's duty with a father's affectionate indulgence,--him i will judge. i have warned him, and he declares himself to be careless of my warning. i shall take no notice of this letter. i shall neither write to him about it, or speak to him about it. but i charge you to write to him, and tell him that if he does this thing he shall not have a child's portion from me. it is not that i will shorten that which would have been his; but he shall have--nothing!" then, having spoken these words with a solemnity which for the moment silenced his wife, he got up and left the room. he left the room and closed the door, but, before he had gone half the length of the hall towards his own study, he returned and addressed his wife again. "you understand my instructions, i hope?" "what instructions?" "that you write to henry and tell him what i say." "i will speak again to you about it by-and-by." "i will speak no more about it,--not a word more. let there be not a word more said, but oblige me by doing as i ask you." then he was again about to leave the room, but she stopped him. "wait a moment, my dear." "why should i wait?" "that you may listen to me. surely you will do that, when i ask you. i will write to henry, of course, if you bid me; and i will give him your message, whatever it may be; but not to-day, my dear." "why not to-day?" "because the sun shall go down upon your wrath before i become its messenger. if you choose to write to-day yourself, i cannot help it. i cannot hinder you. if i am to write to him on your behalf i will take my instructions from you to-morrow morning. when to-morrow morning comes you will not be angry with me because of the delay." the archdeacon was by no means satisfied; but he knew his wife too well, and himself too well, and the world too well, to insist on the immediate gratification of his passion. over his bosom's mistress he did exercise a certain marital control,--which was, for instance, quite sufficiently fixed to enable him to look down with thorough contempt on such a one as bishop proudie; but he was not a despot who could exact a passive obedience to every fantasy. his wife would not have written the letter for him on that day, and he knew very well that she would not do so. he knew also that she was right;--and yet he regretted his want of power. his anger at the present moment was very hot,--so hot that he wished to wreak it. he knew that it would cool before the morrow;--and, no doubt, knew also theoretically, that it would be most fitting that it should cool. but not the less was it a matter of regret to him that so much good hot anger should be wasted, and that he could not have his will of his disobedient son while it lasted. he might, no doubt, have written himself, but to have done so would not have suited him. even in his anger he could not have written to his son without using the ordinary terms of affection, and in his anger he could not bring himself to use those terms. "you will find that i shall be of the same mind to-morrow,--exactly," he said to his wife. "i have resolved about it long since; and it is not likely that i shall change in a day." then he went out, about his parish, intending to continue to think of his son's iniquity, so that he might keep his anger hot,--red hot. then he remembered that the evening would come, and that he would say his prayers; and he shook his head in regret,--in a regret of which he was only half conscious, though it was very keen, and which he did not attempt to analyze,--as he reflected that his rage would hardly be able to survive that ordeal. how common with us it is to repine that the devil is not stronger over us than he is. the archdeacon, who was a very wealthy man, had purchased a property in plumstead, contiguous to the glebe-land, and had thus come to exercise in the parish the double duty of rector and squire. and of this estate in barsetshire, which extended beyond the confines of plumstead into the neighbouring parish of eiderdown, and which comprised also an outlying farm in the parish of stogpingum,--stoke pinguium would have been the proper name had not barbarous saxon tongues clipped it of its proper proportions,--he had always intended that his son henry should enjoy the inheritance. there was other property, both in land and in money, for his elder son, and other again for the maintenance of his wife,--for the archdeacon's father had been for many years bishop of barchester, and such a bishopric as that of barchester had been in those days was worth money. of his intention in this respect he had never spoken in plain language to either of his sons; but the major had for the last year or two enjoyed the shooting of the barsetshire covers, giving what orders he pleased about the game; and the father had encouraged him to take something like the management of the property into his hands. there might be some fifteen hundred acres of it altogether, and the archdeacon had rejoiced over it with his wife scores of times, saying that there was many a squire in the county whose elder son would never find himself half so well placed as would his own younger son. now there was a string of narrow woods called plumstead coppices which ran from a point near the church right across the parish, dividing the archdeacon's land from the ullathorne estate, and these coppices, or belts of woodland, belonged to the archdeacon. on the morning of which we are speaking, the archdeacon, mounted on his cob, still thinking of his son's iniquity and of his own fixed resolve to punish him as he had said that he would punish him, opened with his whip a woodland gate, from which a green muddy lane led through the trees up to the house of his gamekeeper. the man's wife was ill, and in his ordinary way of business the archdeacon was about to call and ask after her health. at the door of the cottage he found the man, who was woodman as well as gamekeeper, and was responsible for fences and faggots, as well as for foxes and pheasants' eggs. "how's martha, flurry?" said the archdeacon. "thanking your reverence, she be a deal improved since the mistress was here,--last tuesday it was, i think." "i'm glad of that. it was only rheumatism, i suppose?" "just a tich of fever with it, your reverence, the doctor said." "tell her i was asking after it. i won't mind getting down to-day, as i am rather busy. she has had what she wanted from the house?" "the mistress has been very good in that way. she always is, god bless her!" "good-day to you, flurry. i'll ask mr. sims to come and read to her a bit this afternoon, or to-morrow morning." the archdeacon kept two curates, and mr. sims was one of them. "she'll take it very kindly, your reverence. but while you are here, sir, there's just a word i'd like to say. i didn't happen to catch mr. henry when he was here the other day." "never mind mr. henry; what is it you have to say?" [illustration: "never mind mr. henry."] "i do think, i do indeed, sir, that mr. thorne's man ain't dealing fairly along of the foxes. i wouldn't say a word about it, only that mr. henry is so particular." "what about the foxes? what is he doing with the foxes?" "well, sir, he's a trapping on 'em. he is, indeed, your reverence. i wouldn't speak if i warn't well nigh mortial sure." now the archdeacon had never been a hunting man, though in his early days many a clergyman had been in the habit of hunting without losing his clerical character by doing so; but he had lived all his life among gentlemen in a hunting county, and had his own very strong ideas about the trapping of foxes. foxes first, and pheasants afterwards, had always been the rule with him as to any land of which he himself had had the management. and no man understood better than he did how to deal with keepers as to this matter of fox-preserving, or knew better that keepers will in truth obey not the words of their employers, but their sympathies. "wish them to have foxes, and pay them, and they will have them," mr. sowerby of chaldicotes used to say, and he in his day was reckoned to be the best preserver of foxes in barsetshire. "tell them to have them, and don't wish it, and pay them well, and you won't have a fox to interfere with your game. i don't care what a man says to me, i can read it all like a book when i see his covers drawn." that was what poor mr. sowerby of chaldicotes used to say, and the archdeacon had heard him say it a score of times, and had learned the lesson. but now his heart was not with the foxes,--and especially not with the foxes on behalf of his son henry. "i can't have any meddling with mr. thorne," he said; "i can't, and i won't." "but i don't suppose it can be mr. thorne's order, your reverence; and mr. henry is so particular." "of course it isn't mr. thorne's order. mr. thorne has been a hunting man all his life." "but he have guv' up now, your reverence. he ain't a hunted these two years." "i'm sure he wouldn't have the foxes trapped." "not if he knowed it, he wouldn't, your reverence. a gentleman of the likes of him, who's been a hunting over fifty year, wouldn't do the likes of that; but the foxes is trapped, and mr. henry 'll be a putting it on me if i don't speak out. they is plumstead foxes, too; and a vixen was trapped just across the field yonder, in goshall springs, no later than yesterday morning." flurry was now thoroughly in earnest; and, indeed, the trapping of a vixen in february is a serious thing. "goshall springs don't belong to me," said the archdeacon. "no, your reverence; they're on the ullathorne property. but a word from your reverence would do it. mr. henry thinks more of the foxes than anything. the last word he told me was that it would break his heart if he saw the coppices drawn blank." "then he must break his heart." the words were pronounced, but the archdeacon had so much command over himself as to speak them in such a voice that the man should not hear them. but it was incumbent on him to say something that the man should hear. "i will have no meddling in the matter, flurry. whether there are foxes or whether there are not, is matter of no great moment. i will not have a word said to annoy mr. thorne." then he rode away, back through the wood and out on to the road, and the horse walked with him leisurely on, whither the archdeacon hardly knew,--for he was thinking, thinking, thinking. "well;--if that ain't the darn'dest thing that ever was," said flurry; "but i'll tell the squire about thorne's man,--darned if i don't." now "the squire" was young squire gresham, the master of the east barsetshire hounds. but the archdeacon went on thinking, thinking, thinking. he could have heard nothing of his son to stir him more in his favour than this strong evidence of his partiality for foxes. i do not mean it to be understood that the archdeacon regarded foxes as better than active charity, or a contented mind, or a meek spirit, or than self-denying temperance. no doubt all these virtues did hold in his mind their proper places, altogether beyond contamination of foxes. but he had prided himself on thinking that his son should be a country gentleman, and, probably nothing doubting as to the major's active charity and other virtues, was delighted to receive evidence of those tastes which he had ever wished to encourage in his son's character. or rather, such evidence would have delighted him at any other time than the present. now it only added more gall to his cup. "why should he teach himself to care for such things, when he has not the spirit to enjoy them," said the archdeacon to himself. "he is a fool,--a fool. a man that has been married once, to go crazy after a little girl, that has hardly a dress to her back, and who never was in a drawing-room in her life! charles is the eldest, and he shall be the eldest. it will be better to keep it together. it is the way in which the country has become what it is." he was out nearly all day, and did not see his wife till dinner-time. her father, mr. harding, was still with them, but had breakfasted in his own room. not a word, therefore, was said about henry grantly between the father and mother on that evening. mrs. grantly was determined that, unless provoked, she would say nothing to him till the following morning. he should sleep upon his wrath before she spoke to him again. and he was equally unwilling to recur to the subject. had she permitted it, the next morning would have passed away, and no word would have been spoken. but this would not have suited her. she had his orders to write, and she had undertaken to obey these orders,--with the delay of one day. were she not to write at all,--or in writing to send no message from the father, there would be cause for further anger. and yet this, i think, was what the archdeacon wished. "archdeacon," she said, "i shall write to henry to-day." "very well." "and what am i to say from you?" "i told you yesterday what are my intentions." "i am not asking about that now. we hope there will be years and years to come, in which you may change them, and shape them as you will. what shall i tell him now from you?" "i have nothing to say to him,--nothing; not a word. he knows what he has to expect from me, for i have told him. he is acting with his eyes open, and so am i. if he marries miss crawley, he must live on his own means. i told him that myself so plainly, that he can want no further intimation." then mrs. grantly knew that she was absolved from the burden of yesterday's message, and she plumed herself on the prudence of her conduct. on the same morning the archdeacon wrote the following note:-- dear thorne,-- my man tells me that foxes have been trapped on darvell's farm, just outside the coppices. i know nothing of it myself, but i am sure you'll look to it. yours always, t. grantly. chapter xxxiv. mrs. proudie sends for her lawyer. [illustration] there was great dismay in barchester palace after the visit paid to the bishop and mrs. proudie by that terrible clerical offender, mr. crawley. it will be remembered, perhaps, how he had defied the bishop with spoken words, and how he had defied the bishop's wife by speaking no words to her. for the moment, no doubt, mr. crawley had the best of it. mrs. proudie acknowledged to herself that this was the case; but as she was a woman who had never yet succumbed to an enemy, who had never,--if on such an occasion i may be allowed to use a schoolboy's slang,--taken a licking from any one, it was not likely that mr. crawley would be long allowed to enjoy his triumph in peace. it would be odd if all the weight of the palace would not be able to silence a wretch of a perpetual curate who had already been committed to take his trial for thieving;--and mrs. proudie was determined that all the weight of the palace should be used. as for the bishop, though he was not as angry as his wife, he was quite as unhappy, and therefore quite as hostile to mr. crawley; and was fully conscious that there could be no peace for him now until mr. crawley should be crushed. if only the assizes would come at once, and get him condemned out of the way, what a blessed thing it would be! but unluckily it still wanted three months to the assizes, and during those three months mr. crawley would be at large and subject only to episcopal authority. during that time he could not be silenced by the arm of the civil law. his wife was not long in expressing her opinion after mr. crawley had left the palace. "you must proceed against him in the court of arches,--and that at once," said mrs. proudie. "you can do that, of course? i know that it will be expensive. of course it will be expensive. i suppose it may cost us some hundreds of pounds; but duty is duty, my lord, and in such a case as this your duty as a bishop is paramount." the poor bishop knew that it was useless to explain to her the various mistakes which she made,--which she was ever making,--as to the extent of his powers and the modes of procedure which were open to him. when he would do so she would only rail at him for being lukewarm in his office, poor in spirit, and afraid of dealing roundly with those below him. on the present occasion he did say a word, but she would not even hear him to the end. "don't tell me about rural deans, as if i didn't know. the rural dean has nothing to do with such a case. the man has been committed for trial. send for mr. chadwick at once, and let steps be taken before you are an hour older." "but, my dear, mr. chadwick can do nothing." "then i will see mr. chadwick." and in her anger she did sit down and write a note to mr. chadwick, begging him to come over to her at the palace. mr. chadwick was a lawyer, living in barchester, who earned his bread from ecclesiastical business. his father, and his uncle, and his grandfather and granduncles, had all been concerned in the affairs of the diocese of barchester. his uncle had been bailiff to the episcopal estates, or steward as he had been called, in bishop grantly's time, and still contrived to draw his income in some shape from the property of the see. the nephew had also been the legal assistant of the bishop in his latter days, and had been continued in that position by bishop proudie, not from love, but from expediency. mr. john chadwick was one of those gentlemen, two or three of whom are to be seen in connection with every see,--who seem to be hybrids--half-lay, half-cleric. they dress like clergymen, and affect that mixture of clerical solemnity and clerical waggishness which is generally to be found among minor canons and vicar chorals of a cathedral. they live, or at least have their offices, half in the close and half out of it,--dwelling as it were just on the borders of holy orders. they always wear white neck-handkerchiefs and black gloves; and would be altogether clerical in their appearance, were it not that as regards the outward man they impinge somewhat on the characteristics of the undertaker. they savour of the church, but the savour is of the church's exterior. any stranger thrown into chance contact with one of them would, from instinct, begin to talk of things ecclesiastical without any reference to things theological or things religious. they are always most worthy men, much respected in the society of the close, and i never heard of one of them whose wife was not comfortable or whose children were left without provision. such a one was mr. john chadwick, and as it was a portion of his duties to accompany the bishop to consecrations and ordinations, he knew dr. proudie very well. having been brought up, as it were, under the very wing of bishop grantly, it could not well be that he should love bishop grantly's successor. the old bishop and the new bishop had been so different that no man could like, or even esteem, them both. but mr. chadwick was a prudent man, who knew well the source from which he earned his bread, and he had never quarrelled with bishop proudie. he knew mrs. proudie also,--of necessity,--and when i say of him that he had hitherto avoided any open quarrel with her, it will i think be allowed that he was a man of prudence and sagacity. but he had sometimes been sorely tried, and he felt when he got her note that he was now about to encounter a very sore trial. he muttered something which might have been taken for an oath, were it not that the outward signs of the man gave warranty that no oath could proceed from such a one. then he wrote a short note presenting his compliments to mrs. proudie, and saying that he would call at the palace at eleven o'clock on the following morning. but, in the meantime, mrs. proudie, who could not be silent on the subject for a moment, did learn something of the truth from her husband. the information did not come to her in the way of instruction, but was teased out of the unfortunate man. "i know that you can proceed against him in the court of arches, under the 'church discipline act,'" she said. "no, my dear; no;" said the bishop, shaking his head in his misery. "or in the consistorial court. it's all the same thing." "there must be an inquiry first,--by his brother clergy. there must indeed. it's the only way of proceeding." "but there has been an inquiry, and he has been committed." "that doesn't signify, my dear. that's the civil law." "and if the civil law condemns him, and locks him up in prison;--as it most certainly will do?" "but it hasn't done so yet, my dear. i really think that as it has gone so far, it will be best to leave it as it is till he has taken his trial." "what; leave him there after what occurred this morning in this palace?" the palace with mrs. proudie was always a palace, and never a house. "no; no; ten thousand times, no. are you not aware that he insulted you, and grossly, most grossly insulted me? i was never treated with such insolence by any clergyman before, since i first came to this palace;--never, never. and we know the man to be a thief;--we absolutely know it. think, my lord, of the souls of his people!" "oh, dear; oh, dear; oh, dear," said the bishop. "why do you fret yourself in that way?" "because you will get me into trouble. i tell you the only thing to be done is to issue a commission with the rural dean at the head of it." "then issue a commission." "and they will take three months." "why should they take three months? why should they take more than three days,--or three hours? it is all plain sailing." "these things are never plain sailing, my dear. when a bishop has to oppose any of his clergy, it is always made as difficult as possible." "more shame for them who make it so." "but it is so. if i were to take legal proceedings against him, it would cost,--oh, dear,--more than a thousand pounds, i should say." "if it costs two, you must do it." mrs. proudie's anger was still very hot, or she would not have spoken of an unremunerative outlay of money in such language as that. in this manner she did come to understand, before the arrival of mr. chadwick, that her husband could take no legal steps towards silencing mr. crawley until a commission of clergymen had been appointed to inquire into the matter, and that that commission should be headed by the rural dean within the limits of whose rural deanery the parish of hogglestock was situated, or by some beneficed parochial clergyman of repute in the neighbourhood. now the rural dean was dr. tempest of silverbridge,--who had held that position before the coming of dr. proudie to the diocese; and there had grown up in the bosom of mrs. proudie a strong feeling that undue mercy had been shown to mr. crawley by the magistrates of silverbridge, of whom dr. tempest had been one. "these magistrates had taken bail for his appearance at the assizes, instead of committing him to prison at once,--as they were bound to do, when such an offence as that had been committed by a clergyman. but, no;--even though there was a clergyman among them, they had thought nothing of the souls of the poor people!" in such language mrs. proudie had spoken of the affair at silverbridge, and having once committed herself to such an opinion, of course she thought that dr. tempest would go through fire and water,--would omit no stretch of what little judicial power might be committed to his hands,--with the view of opposing his bishop and maintaining the culprit in his position. "in such a case as this, can not you name an acting rural dean yourself? dr. tempest, you know, is very old." "no, my dear; no; i cannot." "you can ask mr. chadwick, at any rate, and then you could name mr. thumble." "but mr. thumble doesn't even hold a living in the diocese. oh, dear; oh, dear; oh, dear!" and so the matter rested until mr. chadwick came. mrs. proudie had no doubt intended to have mr. chadwick all to herself,--at any rate so to encounter him in the first instance. but having been at length convinced that the inquiry by the rural dean was really necessary as a preliminary, and having also slept upon the question of expenditure, she gave directions that the lawyer should be shown into the bishop's study, and she took care to be absent at the moment of his arrival. of course she did not intend that mr. chadwick should leave the palace without having heard what she had to say, but she thought that it would be well that he should be made to conceive that though the summons had been written by her, it had really been intended on the part of the bishop. "mr. chadwick will be with you at eleven, bishop," she said, as she got up from the breakfast-table, at which she left his lordship with two of his daughters and with a married son-in-law, a clergyman who was staying in the house. "very well, my dear," said the bishop, with a smile,--for he was anxious not to betray any vexation at his wife's interference before his daughters or the rev. mr. tickler. but he understood it all. mr. chadwick had been sent for with reference to mr. crawley, and he was driven,--absolutely driven, to propose to his lawyer that this commission of inquiry should be issued. punctually at eleven mr. chadwick came, wearing a very long face as he entered the palace door,--for he felt that he would in all probability be now compelled to quarrel with mrs. proudie. much he could bear, but there was a limit to his endurance. she had never absolutely sent for him before, though she had often interfered with him. "i shall have to tell her a bit of my mind," he said, as he stepped across the close, habited in his best suit of black, with most exact white cravat, and yet looking not quite like a clergyman,--with some touch of the undertaker in his gait. when he found that he was shown into the bishop's room, and that the bishop was there,--and the bishop only,--his mind was relieved. it would have been better that the bishop should have written himself, or that the chaplain should have written in his lordship's name; that, however, was a trifle. but the bishop did not know what to say to him. if he intended to direct an inquiry to be made by the rural dean, it would be by no means becoming that he should consult mr. chadwick as to doing so. it might be well, or if not well at any rate not improper, that he should make the application to dr. tempest through mr. chadwick; but in that case he must give the order at once, and he still wished to avoid it if it were possible. since he had been in the diocese no case so grave as this had been pushed upon him. the intervention of the rural dean in an ordinary way he had used,--had been made to use,--more than once, by his wife. a vicar had been absent a little too long from one parish, and there had been rumours about brandy-and-water in another. once he had been very nearly in deep water because mrs. proudie had taken it in dudgeon that a certain young rector, who had been left a widower, had a very pretty governess for his children; and there had been that case, sadly notorious in the diocese at the time, of our excellent friend mr. robarts of framley, when the bailiffs were in his house because he couldn't pay his debts,--or rather, the debts of his friend for whom he had signed bills. but in all these cases some good fortune had intervened, and he had been saved from the terrible necessity of any ulterior process. but now,--now he was being driven beyond himself, and all to no purpose. if mrs. proudie would only wait three months the civil law would do it all for him. but here was mr. chadwick in the room, and he knew that it would be useless for him to attempt to talk to mr. chadwick about other matters, and so dismiss him. the wife of his bosom would be down upon them before chadwick could be out of the room. "h--m--ha. how d'ye do, mr. chadwick--won't you sit down?" mr. chadwick thanked his lordship, and sat down. "it's very cold, isn't it, mr. chadwick?" "a hard frost, my lord, but a beautiful day." "won't you come near the fire?" the bishop knew that mrs. proudie was on the road, and had an eye to the proper strategical position of his forces. mrs. proudie would certainly take up her position in a certain chair from whence the light enabled her to rake her husband thoroughly. what advantage she might have from this he could not prevent;--but he could so place mr. chadwick, that the lawyer should be more within the reach of his eye than that of his wife. so the bishop pointed to an arm-chair opposite to himself and near the fire, and mr. chadwick seated himself accordingly. "this is a very sad affair about mr. crawley," said the bishop. "very sad indeed," said the lawyer. "i never pitied a man so much in my life, my lord." this was not exactly the line which the bishop was desirous of taking. "of course he is to be pitied;--of course he is. but from all i hear, mr. chadwick, i am afraid,--i am afraid we must not acquit him." "as to that, my lord, he has to stand his trial, of course." "but, you see, mr. chadwick, regarding him as a beneficed clergyman,--with a cure of souls,--the question is whether i should be justified in leaving him where he is till his trial shall come on." "of course your lordship knows best about that, but--" "i know there is a difficulty. i know that. but i am inclined to think that in the interests of the parish i am bound to issue a commission of inquiry." "i believe your lordship has attempted to silence him, and that he has refused to comply." "i thought it better for everybody's sake,--especially for his own, that he should for a while be relieved from his duties; but he is an obstinate man, a very obstinate man. i made the attempt with all consideration for his feelings." "he is hard put to it, my lord. i know the man and his pride. the dean has spoken of him to me more than once, and nobody knows him so well as the dean. if i might venture to offer an opinion--" "good morning, mr. chadwick," said mrs. proudie, coming into the room and taking her accustomed seat. "no thank you, no; i will stay away from the fire, if you please. his lordship has spoken to you no doubt about this unfortunate, wretched man?" "we are speaking of him now, my dear." "something must of course be done to put a stop to the crying disgrace of having such a man preaching from a pulpit in this diocese. when i think of the souls of the people in that poor village, my hair literally stands on end. and then he is disobedient!" "that is the worst of it," said the bishop. "it would have been so much better for himself if he would have allowed me to provide quietly for the services till the trial be over." "i could have told you, my lord, that he would not do that, from what i knew of him," said mr. chadwick. "but he must do it," said mrs. proudie. "he must be made to do it." "his lordship will find it difficult," said mr. chadwick. "i can issue a commission, you know, to the rural dean," said the bishop mildly. "yes, you can do that. and dr. tempest in two months' time will have named his assessors--" "dr. tempest must not name them; the bishop must name them," said mrs. proudie. "it is customary to leave that to the rural dean," said mr. chadwick. "the bishop no doubt can object to any one named." "and can specially select any clergyman he pleases from the archdeaconry," said the bishop. "i have known it done." "the rural dean in such case has probably been an old man, and not active," said the lawyer. "and dr. tempest is a very old man," said mrs. proudie, "and in such a matter not at all trustworthy. he was one of the magistrates who took bail." "his lordship could hardly set him aside," said the lawyer. "at any rate i would not recommend him to try. i think you might suggest a commission of five, and propose two of the number yourself. i do not think that in such a case dr. tempest would raise any question." at last it was settled in this way. mr. chadwick was to prepare a letter to dr. tempest, for the bishop's signature, in which the doctor should be requested, as the rural dean to whom mr. crawley was subject, to hold a commission of five to inquire into mr. crawley's conduct. the letter was to explain to dr. tempest that the bishop, moved by his solicitude for the souls of the people of hogglestock, had endeavoured, "in a friendly way," to induce mr. crawley to desist from his ministrations; but that having failed through mr. crawley's obstinacy, he had no alternative but to proceed in this way. "you had better say that his lordship, as bishop of the diocese, can take no heed of the coming trial," said mrs. proudie. "i think his lordship had better say nothing at all about the trial," said mr. chadwick. "i think that will be best," said the bishop. "but if they report against him," said mr. chadwick, "you can only then proceed in the ecclesiastical court,--at your own expense." "he'll hardly be so obstinate as that," said the bishop. "i'm afraid you don't know him, my lord," said the lawyer. the bishop, thinking of the scene which had taken place in that very room only yesterday, felt that he did know mr. crawley, and felt also that the hope which he had just expressed was one in which he himself put no trust. but something might turn up; and it was devoutly to be hoped that dr. tempest would take a long time over his inquiry. the assizes might come on as soon as it was terminated, or very shortly afterwards; and then everything might be well. "you won't find dr. tempest very ready at it," said mr. chadwick. the bishop in his heart was comforted by the words. "but he must be made to be ready to do his duty," said mrs. proudie, imperiously. mr. chadwick shrugged his shoulders, then got up, spoke his farewell little speeches, and left the palace. chapter xxxv. lily dale writes two words in her book. john eames saw nothing more of lily dale till he packed up his portmanteau, left his mother's house, and went to stay for a few days with his old friend lady julia; and this did not happen till he had been above a week at guestwick. mrs. dale repeatedly said that it was odd that johnny did not come to see them; and grace, speaking of him to lily, asked why he did not come. lily, in her funny way, declared that he would come soon enough. but even while she was joking there was something of half-expressed consciousness in her words,--as though she felt it to be foolish to speak of his coming as she might of that of any other young man, before people who knew her whole story. "he'll come quick enough. he knows, and i know, that his coming will do no good. of course i shall be glad to see him. why shouldn't i be glad to see him? i've known him and liked him all my life. i liked him when there did not seem to be much about him to like, and now that he is clever, and agreeable, and good-looking,--which he never was as a lad,--why shouldn't i go on liking him? he's more like a brother to me than anybody else i've got. james,"--james was her brother-in-law, dr. crofts,--"thinks of nothing but his patients and his babies, and my cousin bernard is much too grand a person for me to take the liberty of loving him. i shall be very glad to see johnny eames." from all which mrs. dale was led to believe that johnny's case was still hopeless. and how should it not be hopeless? had lily not confessed within the last week or two that she still loved adolphus crosbie? mrs. eames also, and mary, were surprised that john did not go over to allington. "you haven't seen mrs. dale yet, or the squire?" said his mother. "i shall see them when i am at the cottage." "yes;--no doubt. but it seems strange that you should be here so long without going to them." "there's time enough," said he. "i shall have nothing else to do when i'm at the cottage." then, when mary had spoken to him again in private, expressing a hope that there was "nothing wrong," he had been very angry with his sister. "what do you mean by wrong? what rubbish you girls talk! and you never have any delicacy of feeling to make you silent." "oh, john, don't say such hard things as that of me!" "but i do say them. you'll make me swear among you some day that i will never see lily dale again. as it is, i wish i never had seen her,--simply because i am so dunned about it." in all of which i think that johnny was manifestly wrong. when the humour was on him he was fond enough of talking about lily dale. had he not taught her to do so, i doubt whether his sister would ever have mentioned lily's name to him. "i did not mean to dun you, john," said mary, meekly. but at last he went to lady julia's, and was no sooner there than he was ready to start for allington. when lady julia spoke to him about lily, he did not venture to snub her. indeed, of all his friends, lady julia was the one with whom on this subject he allowed himself the most unrestricted confidence. he came over one day, just before dinner, and declared his intention of walking over to allington immediately after breakfast on the following morning. "it's the last time, lady julia," he said. "so you say, johnny." "and so i mean it! what's the good of a man frittering away his life? what's the good of wishing for what you can't get?" "jacob was not in such a hurry when he wished for rachel." "that was all very well for an old patriarch who had seven or eight hundred years to live." "my dear john, you forget your bible. jacob did not live half as long as that." "he lived long enough, and slowly enough, to be able to wait fourteen years;--and then he had something to comfort him in the meantime. and after all, lady julia, it's more than seven years since i first thought lily was the prettiest girl i ever saw." "how old are you now?" "twenty-seven,--and she's twenty-four." "you've time enough yet, if you'll only be patient." "i'll be patient for to-morrow, lady julia, but never again. not that i mean to quarrel with her. i'm not such a fool as to quarrel with a girl because she can't like me. i know how it all is. if that scoundrel had not come across my path just when he did,--in that very nick of time, all might have been right betwixt her and me. i couldn't have offered to marry her before, when i hadn't as much income as would have found her in bread-and-butter. and then, just as better times came to me, he stepped in! i wonder whether it will be expected of me that i should forgive him?" "as far as that goes, you have no right to be angry with him." "but i am,--all the same." "and so was i,--but not for stepping in, as you call it." "you and i are different, lady julia. i was angry with him for stepping in; but i couldn't show it. then he stepped out, and i did manage to show it. and now i shouldn't wonder if he doesn't step in again. after all, why should he have such a power? it was simply the nick of time which gave it to him." that john eames should be able to find some consolation in this consideration is devoutly to be hoped by us all. there was nothing said about lily dale the next morning at breakfast. lady julia observed that john was dressed a little more neatly than usual;--though the change was not such as to have called for her special observation, had she not known the business on which he was intent. "you have nothing to send to the dales?" he said, as he got up from the table. "nothing but my love, johnny." "no worsted or embroidery work,--or a pot of special jam for the squire?" "no, sir, nothing; though i should like to make you carry a pair of panniers, if i could." "they would become me well," said johnny, "for i am going on an ass's errand." then, without waiting for the word of affection which was on the old woman's lips, he got himself out of the room, and started on his journey. the walk was only three miles and the weather was dry and frosty, and he had come to the turn leading up to the church and the squire's house almost before he remembered that he was near allington. here he paused for a moment to think. if he continued his way down by the "red lion" and through allington street, he must knock at mrs. dale's door, and ask for admission by means of the servant,--as would be done by any ordinary visitor. but he could make his way on to the lawn by going up beyond the wall of the churchyard and through the squire's garden. he knew the path well,--very well; and he thought that he might take so much liberty as that, both with the squire and with mrs. dale, although his visits to allington were not so frequent now as they used to be in the days of his boyhood. he did not wish to be admitted by the servant, and therefore he went through the gardens. luckily he did not see the squire, who would have detained him, and he escaped from hopkins, the old gardener, with little more than a word. "i'm going down to see the ladies, hopkins; i suppose i shall find them?" and then, while hopkins was arranging his spade so that he might lean upon it for a little chat, johnny was gone and had made his way into the other garden. he had thought it possible that he might meet lily out among the walks by herself, and such a meeting as this would have suited him better than any other. and as he crossed the little bridge which separated the gardens he thought of more than one such meeting,--of one especial occasion on which he had first ventured to tell her in plain words that he loved her. but before that day crosbie had come there, and at the moment in which he was speaking of his love she regarded crosbie as an angel of light upon the earth. what hope could there have been for him then? what use was there in his telling such a tale of love at that time? when he told it, he knew that crosbie had been before him. he knew that crosbie was at that moment the angel of light. but as he had never before been able to speak of his love, so was he then unable not to speak of it. he had spoken, and of course had been simply rebuked. since that day crosbie had ceased to be an angel of light, and he, john eames, had spoken often. but he had spoken in vain, and now he would speak once again. he went through the garden and over the lawn belonging to the small house and saw no one. he forgot, i think, that ladies do not come out to pick roses when the ground is frozen, and that croquet is not often in progress with the hoar-frost on the grass. so he walked up to the little terrace before the drawing-room, and looking in saw mrs. dale, and lily, and grace at their morning work. lily was drawing, and mrs. dale was writing, and grace had her needle in her hand. as it happened, no one at first perceived him, and he had time to feel that after all he would have managed better if he had been announced in the usual way. as, however, it was now necessary that he should announce himself, he knocked at the window, and they all immediately looked up and saw him. "it's my cousin john," said grace. "oh, johnny, how are you at last?" said mrs. dale. but it was lily who, without speaking, opened the window for him, who was the first to give him her hand, and who led him through into the room. "it's a great shame my coming in this way," said john, "and letting all the cold air in upon you." "we shall survive it," said mrs. dale. "i suppose you have just come down from my brother-in-law?" "no; i have not seen the squire as yet. i will do so before i go back, of course. but it seemed such a commonplace sort of thing to go round by the village." "we are very glad to see you, by whatever way you come;--are we not, mamma?" said lily. "i'm not so sure of that. we were only saying yesterday that as you had been in the country a fortnight without coming to us, we did not think we would be at home when you did come." "but i have caught you, you see," said johnny. and so they went on, chatting of old times and of mutual friends very comfortably for full an hour. and there was some serious conversation about grace's father and his affairs, and john declared his opinion that mr. crawley ought to go to his uncle, thomas toogood, not at all knowing at that time that mr. crawley himself had come to the same opinion. and john gave them an elaborate description of sir raffle buffle, standing up with his back to the fire with his hat on his head, and speaking with a loud harsh voice, to show them the way in which he declared that that gentleman received his inferiors; and then bowing and scraping and rubbing his hands together and simpering with would-be softness,--declaring that after that fashion sir raffle received his superiors. and they were very merry,--so that no one would have thought that johnny was a despondent lover, now bent on throwing the dice for his last stake; or that lily was aware that she was in the presence of one lover, and that she was like to fall to the ground between two stools,--having two lovers, neither of whom could serve her turn. "how can you consent to serve him if he's such a man as that?" said lily, speaking of sir raffle. "i do not serve him. i serve the queen,--or rather the public. i don't take his wages, and he does not play his tricks with me. he knows that he can't. he has tried it, and has failed. and he only keeps me where i am because i've had some money left me. he thinks it fine to have a private secretary with a fortune. i know that he tells people all manner of lies about it, making it out to be five times as much as it is. dear old huffle snuffle. he is such an ass; and yet he's had wit enough to get to the top of the tree, and to keep himself there. he began the world without a penny. now he has got a handle to his name, and he'll live in clover all his life. it's very odd, isn't it, mrs. dale?" "i suppose he does his work?" "when men get so high as that, there's no knowing whether they work or whether they don't. there isn't much for them to do, as far as i can see. they have to look beautiful, and frighten the young ones." "and does sir raffle look beautiful?" lily asked. "after a fashion, he does. there is something imposing about such a man till you're used to it, and can see through it. of course it's all padding. there are men who work, no doubt. but among the bigwigs, and bishops and cabinet ministers, i fancy that the looking beautiful is the chief part of it. dear me, you don't mean to say it's luncheon time?" but it was luncheon time, and not only had he not as yet said a word of all that which he had come to say, but had not as yet made any move towards getting it said. how was he to arrange that lily should be left alone with him? lady julia had said that she should not expect him back till dinner-time, and he had answered her lackadaisically, "i don't suppose i shall be there above ten minutes. ten minutes will say all i've got to say, and do all i've got to do. and then i suppose i shall go and cut names about upon bridges,--eh, lady julia?" lady julia understood his words; for once, upon a former occasion, she had found him cutting lily's name on the rail of a wooden bridge in her brother's grounds. but he had now been a couple of hours at the small house, and had not said a word of that which he had come to say. "are you going to walk out with us after lunch?" said lily. "he will have had walking enough," said mrs. dale. "we'll convoy him back part of the way," said lily. "i'm not going yet," said johnny, "unless you turn me out." "but we must have our walk before it is dark," said lily. "you might go up with him to your uncle," said mrs. dale. "indeed, i promised to go up myself, and so did you, grace, to see the microscope. i heard mr. dale give orders that one of those long-legged reptiles should be caught on purpose for your inspection." mrs. dale's little scheme for bringing the two together was very transparent, but it was not the less wise on that account. schemes will often be successful, let them be ever so transparent. little intrigues become necessary, not to conquer unwilling people, but people who are willing enough, who, nevertheless, cannot give way except under the machinations of an intrigue. "i don't think i'll mind looking at the long-legged creature to-day," said johnny. "i must go, of course," said grace. lily said nothing at the moment, either about the long-legged creature or the walk. that which must be, must be. she knew well why john eames had come there. she knew that the visits to his mother and to lady julia would never have been made, but that he might have this interview. and he had a right to demand, at any rate, as much as that. that which must be, must be. and therefore when both mrs. dale and grace stoutly maintained their purpose of going up to the squire, lily neither attempted to persuade john to accompany them, nor said that she would do so herself. "i will convoy you home myself," she said, "and grace, when she has done with the beetle, shall come and meet me. won't you, grace?" "certainly." "we are not helpless young ladies in these parts, nor yet timorous," continued lily. "we can walk about without being afraid of ghosts, robbers, wild bulls, young men, or gipsies. come the field path, grace. i will go as far as the big oak with him, and then i shall turn back, and i shall come in by the stile opposite the church gate, and through the garden. so you can't miss me." "i daresay he'll come back with you," said grace. "no, he won't. he will do nothing of the kind. he'll have to go on and open lady julia's bottle of port wine for his own drinking." all this was very good on lily's part, and very good also on the part of mrs. dale; and john was of course very much obliged to them. but there was a lack of romance in it all, which did not seem to him to argue well as to his success. he did not think much about it, but he felt that lily would not have been so ready to arrange their walk had she intended to yield to his entreaty. no doubt in these latter days plain good sense had become the prevailing mark of her character,--perhaps, as johnny thought, a little too strongly prevailing; but even with all her plain good sense and determination to dispense with the absurdities of romance in the affairs of her life, she would not have proposed herself as his companion for a walk across the fields merely that she might have an opportunity of accepting his hand. he did not say all this to himself, but he instinctively felt that it was so. and he felt also that it should have been his duty to arrange the walk, or the proper opportunity for the scene that was to come. she had done it instead,--she and her mother between them, thereby forcing upon him a painful conviction that he himself had not been equal to the occasion. "i always make a mull of it," he said to himself, when the girls went up to get their hats. they went down together through the garden, and parted where the paths led away, one to the great house and the other towards the church. "i'll certainly come and call upon the squire before i go back to london," said johnny. "we'll tell him so," said mrs. dale. "he would be sure to hear that you had been with us, even if we said nothing about it." "of course he would," said lily; "hopkins has seen him." then they separated, and lily and john eames were together. hardly a word was said, perhaps not a word, till they had crossed the road and got into the field opposite to the church. and in this first field there was more than one path, and the children of the village were often there, and it had about it something of a public nature. john eames felt that it was by no means a fitting field to say that which he had to say. in crossing it, therefore, he merely remarked that the day was very fine for walking. then he added one special word, "and it is so good of you, lily, to come with me." "i am very glad to come with you. i would do more than that, john, to show how glad i am to see you." then they had come to the second little gate, and beyond that the fields were really fields, and there were stiles instead of wicket-gates, and the business of the day must be begun. "lily, whenever i come here you say you are glad to see me?" "and so i am,--very glad. only you would take it as meaning what it does not mean, i would tell you, that of all my friends living away from the reach of my daily life, you are the one whose coming is ever the most pleasant to me." "oh, lily!" "it was, i think, only yesterday that i was telling grace that you are more like a brother to me than any one else. i wish it might be so. i wish we might swear to be brother and sister. i'd do more for you then than walk across the fields with you to guestwick cottage. your prosperity would then be the thing in the world for which i should be most anxious. and if you should marry--" [illustration: lily wishes that they might swear to be brother and sister.] "it can never be like that between us," said johnny. "can it not? i think it can. perhaps not this year, or next year; perhaps not in the next five years. but i make myself happy with thinking that it may be so some day. i shall wait for it patiently, very patiently, even though you should rebuff me again and again,--as you have done now." "i have not rebuffed you." "not maliciously, or injuriously, or offensively. i will be very patient, and take little rebuffs without complaining. this is the worst stile of all. when grace and i are here together we can never manage it without tearing ourselves all to pieces. it is much nicer to have you to help me." "let me help you always," he said, keeping her hands in his after he had aided her to jump from the stile to the ground. "yes, as my brother." "that is nonsense, lily." "is it nonsense? nonsense is a hard word." "it is nonsense as coming from you to me. lily, i sometimes think that i am persecuting you, writing to you, coming after you, as i am doing now,--telling the same whining story,--asking, asking, and asking for that which you say you will never give me. and then i feel ashamed of myself, and swear that i will do it no more." "do not be ashamed of yourself; but yet do it no more." "and then," he continued, without minding her words, "at other times i feel that it must be my own fault; that if i only persevered with sufficient energy i must be successful. at such times i swear that i will never give it up." "oh, john, if you could only know how little worthy of such pursuit it is." "leave me to judge of that, dear. when a man has taken a month, or perhaps only a week, or perhaps not more than half an hour, to make up his mind, it may be very well to tell him that he doesn't know what he is about. i've been in the office now for over seven years, and the first day i went i put an oath into a book that i would come back and get you for my wife when i had got enough to live upon." "did you, john?" "yes. i can show it you. i used to come and hover about the place in the old days, before i went to london, when i was such a fool that i couldn't speak to you if i met you. i am speaking of a time long before,--before that man came down here." "do not speak of him, johnny." "i must speak of him. a man isn't to hold his tongue when everything he has in the world is at stake. i suppose he loved you after a fashion, once." "pray, pray do not speak ill of him." "i am not going to abuse him. you can judge of him by his deeds. i cannot say anything worse of him than what they say. i suppose he loved you; but he certainly did not love you as i have done. i have at any rate been true to you. yes, lily, i have been true to you. i am true to you. he did not know what he was about. i do. i am justified in saying that i do. i want you to be my wife. it is no use your talking about it as though i only half wanted it." "i did not say that." "is not a man to have any reward? of course if you had married him there would have been an end of it. he had come in between me and my happiness, and i must have borne it, as other men bear such sorrows. but you have not married him; and, of course, i cannot but feel that i may yet have a chance. lily, answer me this. do you believe that i love you?" but she did not answer him. "you can at any rate tell me that. do you think that i am in earnest?" "yes, i think you are in earnest." "and do you believe that i love you with all my heart and all my strength and all my soul?" "oh, john!" "but do you?" "i think you love me." "think! what am i to say or to do to make you understand that my only idea of happiness is the idea that sooner or later i may get you to be my wife? lily, will you say that it shall be so? speak, lily. there is no one that will not be glad. your uncle will consent,--has consented. your mother wishes it. bell wishes it. my mother wishes it. lady julia wishes it. you would be doing what everybody about you wants you to do. and why should you not do it? it isn't that you dislike me. you wouldn't talk about being my sister, if you had not some sort of regard for me." "i have a regard for you." "then why will you not be my wife? oh, lily, say the word now, here, at once. say the word, and you'll make me the happiest fellow in all england." as he spoke he took her by both arms, and held her fast. she did not struggle to get away from him, but stood quite still, looking into his face, while the first sparkle of a salt tear formed itself in each eye. "lily, one little word will do it,--half a word, a nod, a smile. just touch my arm with your hand and i will take it for a yes." i think that she almost tried to touch him; that the word was in her throat, and that she almost strove to speak it. but there was no syllable spoken, and her fingers did not loose themselves to fall upon his sleeve. "lily, lily, what can i say to you?" "i wish i could," she whispered;--but the whisper was so hoarse that he hardly recognized the voice. "and why can you not? what is there to hinder you? there is nothing to hinder you, lily." "yes, john; there is that which must hinder me." "and what is it?" "i will tell you. you are so good and so true, and so excellent,--such a dear, dear, dear friend, that i will tell you everything, so that you may read my heart. i will tell you as i tell mamma,--you and her and no one else;--for you are the choice friend of my heart. i cannot be your wife because of the love i bear for another man." "and that man is he,--he who came here?" "of course it is he. i think, johnny, you and i are alike in this, that when we have loved we cannot bring ourselves to change. you will not change, though it would be so much better you should do so." "no; i will never change." "nor can i. when i sleep i dream of him. when i am alone i cannot banish him from my thoughts. i cannot define what it is to love him. i want nothing from him,--nothing, nothing. but i move about through my little world thinking of him, and i shall do so to the end. i used to feel proud of my love, though it made me so wretched that i thought it would kill me. i am not proud of it any longer. it is a foolish poor-spirited weakness,--as though my heart had been only half formed in the making. do you be stronger, john. a man should be stronger than a woman." "i have none of that sort of strength." "nor have i. what can we do but pity each other, and swear that we will be friends,--dear friends. there is the oak-tree and i have got to turn back. we have said everything that we can say,--unless you will tell me that you will be my brother." "no; i will not tell you that." "good-by, then, johnny." he paused, holding her by the hand and thinking of another question which he longed to put to her,--considering whether he would ask her that question or not. he hardly knew whether he were entitled to ask it;--whether or no the asking of it would be ungenerous. she had said that she would tell him everything,--as she had told everything to her mother. "of course," he said, "i have no right to expect to know anything of your future intentions?" "you may know them all,--as far as i know them myself. i have said that you should read my heart." "if this man, whose name i cannot bear to mention, should come again--" "if he were to come again he would come in vain, john." she did not say that he had come again. she could tell her own secret, but not that of another person. "you would not marry him, now that he is free?" she stood and thought a while before she answered him. "no, i should not marry him now. i think not." then she paused again. "nay, i am sure i would not. after what has passed i could not trust myself to do it. there is my hand on it. i will not." "no, lily, i do not want that." "but i insist. i will not marry mr. crosbie. but you must not misunderstand me, john. there;--all that is over for me now. all those dreams about love, and marriage, and of a house of my own, and children,--and a cross husband, and a wedding-ring growing always tighter as i grow fatter and older. i have dreamed of such things as other girls do,--more perhaps than other girls, more than i should have done. and now i accept the thing as finished. you wrote something in your book, you dear john,--something that could not be made to come true. dear john, i wish for your sake it was otherwise. i will go home and i will write in my book, this very day, lilian dale, old maid. if ever i make that false, do you come and ask me for the page." "let it remain there till i am allowed to tear it out." "i will write it, and it shall never be torn out. you i cannot marry. him i will not marry. you may believe me, johnny, when i say there can never be a third." "and is that to be the end of it?" "yes;--that is to be the end of it. not the end of our friendship. old maids have friends." "it shall not be the end of it. there shall be no end of it with me." "but, john--" "do not suppose that i will trouble you again,--at any rate not for a while. in five years time perhaps,--" "now, johnny, you are laughing at me. and of course it is the best way. if there is not grace, and she has caught me before i have turned back. good-by, dear, dear john. god bless you. i think you the finest fellow there is in the world. i do, and so does mamma. remember always that there is a temple at allington in which your worship is never forgotten." then she pressed his hand and turned away from him to meet grace crawley. john did not stop to speak a word to his cousin, but pursued his way alone. "that cousin of yours," said lily, "is simply the dearest, warmest-hearted, finest creature that ever was seen in the shape of a man." "have you told him that you think him so?" said grace. "indeed, i have," said lily. "but have you told this finest, warmest, dearest creature that he shall be rewarded with the prize he covets?" "no, grace. i have told him nothing of the kind. i think he understands it all now. if he does not, it is not for the want of my telling him. i don't suppose any lady was ever more open-spoken to a gentleman than i have been to him." "and why have you sent him away disappointed? you know you love him." "you see, my dear," said lily, "you allow yourself, for the sake of your argument, to use a word in a double sense, and you attempt to confound me by doing so. but i am a great deal too clever for you, and have thought too much about it, to be taken in in that way. i certainly love your cousin john; and so i do love mr. boyce, the vicar." "you love johnny much better than you do mr. boyce." "true; very much better; but it is the same sort of love. however, it is a great deal too deep for you to understand. you're too young, and i shan't try to explain it. but the long and the short of it is,--i am not going to marry your cousin." "i wish you were," said grace, "with all my heart." john eames as he returned to the cottage was by no means able to fall back upon those resolutions as to his future life, which he had formed for himself and communicated to his friend dalrymple, and which he had intended to bring at once into force in the event of his being again rejected by lily dale. "i will cleanse my mind of it altogether," he had said, "and though i may not forget her, i will live as though she were forgotten. if she declines my proposal again, i will accept her word as final. i will not go about the world any longer as a stricken deer,--to be pitied or else bullied by the rest of the herd." on his way down to guestwick he had sworn twenty times that it should be so. he would make one more effort, and then he would give it up. but now, after his interview with lily, he was as little disposed to give it up as ever. he sat upon a gate in a paddock through which there was a back entrance into lady julia's garden, and there swore a thousand oaths that he would never give her up. he was, at any rate, sure that she would never become the wife of any one else. he was equally sure that he would never become the husband of any other wife. he could trust her. yes; he was sure of that. but could he trust himself? communing with himself, he told himself that after all he was but a poor creature. circumstances had been very good to him, but he had done nothing for himself. he was vain, and foolish, and unsteady. so he told himself while sitting upon the gate. but he had, at any rate, been constant to lily, and constant he would remain. he would never more mention her name to any one,--unless it were to lady julia to-night. to dalrymple he would not open his mouth about her, but would plainly ask his friend to be silent on that subject if her name should be mentioned by him. but morning and evening he would pray for her, and in his prayers he would always think of her as his wife. he would never speak to another girl without remembering that he was bound to lily. he would go nowhere into society without recalling to mind the fact that he was bound by the chains of a solemn engagement. if he knew himself he would be constant to lily. and then he considered in what manner it would be best and most becoming that he should still prosecute his endeavour and repeat his offer. he thought that he would write to her every year, on the same day of the year, year after year, it might be for the next twenty years. and his letters should be very simple. sitting there on the gate he planned the wording of his letters;--of his first letter, and of his second, and of his third. they should be very like to each other,--should hardly be more than a repetition of the same words. "if now you are ready for me, then, lily, am i, as ever, still ready for you." and then "if now" again, and again "if now;--and still if now." when his hair should be grey, and the wrinkles on his cheeks,--ay, though they should be on hers, he would still continue to tell her from year to year that he was ready to take her. surely some day that "if now" would prevail. and should it never prevail, the merit of his constancy should be its own reward. such letters as those she would surely keep. then he looked forward, down into the valley of coming years, and fancied her as she might sit reading them in the twilight of some long evening,--letters which had been written all in vain. he thought that he could look forward with some satisfaction towards the close of his own career, in having been the hero of such a love-story. at any rate, if such a story were to be his story, the melancholy attached to it should arise from no fault of his own. he would still press her to be his wife. and then as he remembered that he was only twenty-seven and that she was twenty-four, he began to marvel at the feeling of grey old age which had come upon him, and tried to make himself believe that he would have her yet before the bloom was off her cheek. he went into the cottage and made his way at once into the room in which lady julia was sitting. she did not speak at first, but looked anxiously into his face. and he did not speak, but turned to a table near the window and took up a book,--though the room was too dark for him to see to read the words. "john," at last said lady julia. "well, my lady?" "have you nothing to tell me, john?" "nothing on earth,--except the same old story, which has now become a matter of course." "but, john, will you not tell me what she has said?" "lady julia, she has said no; simply no. it is a very easy word to say, and she has said it so often that it seems to come from her quite naturally." then he got a candle and sat down over the fire with a volume of a novel. it was not yet past five, and lady julia did not go upstairs to dress till six, and therefore there was an hour during which they were together. john had at first been rather grand to his old friend, and very uncommunicative. but before the dressing bell had rung he had been coaxed into a confidential strain and had told everything. "i suppose it is wrong and selfish," he said. "i suppose i am a dog in a manger. but i do own that there is a consolation to me in the assurance that she will never be the wife of that scoundrel." "i could never forgive her if she were to marry him now," said lady julia. "i could never forgive him. but she has said that she will not, and i know that she will not forswear herself. i shall go on with it, lady julia. i have made up my mind to that. i suppose it will never come to anything, but i shall stick to it. i can live an old bachelor as well as another man. at any rate i shall stick to it." then the good silly old woman comforted him and applauded him as though he were a hero among men, and did reward him, as lily had predicted, by one of those now rare bottles of superexcellent port which had come to her from her brother's cellar. john eames stayed out his time at the cottage, and went over more than once again to allington, and called on the squire, on one occasion dining with him and meeting the three ladies from the small house; and he walked with the girls, comporting himself like any ordinary man. but he was not again alone with lily dale, nor did he learn whether she had in truth written those two words in her book. but the reader may know that she did write them there on the evening of the day on which the promise was made. "lilian dale,--old maid." and when john's holiday was over, he returned to his duties at the elbow of sir raffle buffle. chapter xxxvi. grace crawley returns home. [illustration] about this time grace crawley received two letters, the first of them reaching her while john eames was still at the cottage, and the other immediately after his return to london. they both help to tell our story, and our reader shall, therefore, read them if he so please,--or, rather, he shall read the first and as much of the second as is necessary for him. grace's answer to the first letter he shall see also. her answer to the second will be told in a very few words. the first was from major grantly, and the task of answering that was by no means easy to grace. cosby lodge, -- february, --. dearest grace, i told you when i parted from you, that i should write to you, and i think it best to do so at once, in order that you may fully understand me. spoken words are soon forgotten,-- "i shall never forget his words," grace said to herself as she read this;-- and are not always as plain as they might be. dear grace, i suppose i ought not to say so, but i fancied when i parted from you at allington, that i had succeeded in making myself dear to you. i believe you to be so true in spirit, that you were unable to conceal from me the fact that you love me. i shall believe that this is so, till i am deliberately and solemnly assured by yourself that it is not so;--and i conjure you to think what is due both to yourself and to myself, before you allow yourself to think of making such an assurance unless it be strictly true. i have already told my own friends that i have asked you to be my wife. i tell you this, in order that you may know how little effect your answer to me has had towards inducing me to give you up. what you said about your father and your family has no weight with me, and ought ultimately to have none with you. this business of your father's is a great misfortune,--so great that, probably, had we not known each other before it happened, it might have prevented our becoming intimate when we chanced to meet. but we had met before it happened, and before it happened i had determined to ask you to be my wife. what should i have to think of myself if i allowed my heart to be altered by such a cause as that? i have only further to say that i love you better than any one in the world, and that it is my best hope that you will be my wife. i will not press you till this affair of your father's has been settled; but when that is over i shall look for my reward without reference to its result. not that i doubt the result if there be anything like justice in england; but that your debt to me, if you owe me any debt, will be altogether irrespective of that. if, as i suppose, you will remain at allington for some time longer, i shall not see you till after the trial is over. as soon as that is done, i will come to you wherever you are. in the meantime i shall look for an answer to this; and if it be true that you love me, dear, dear grace, pray have the courage to tell me so. most affectionately your own, henry grantly. when the letter was given to grace across the breakfast-table, both mrs. dale and lily suspected that it came from major grantly, but not a word was spoken about it. when grace with hesitating hand broke the envelope, neither of her friends looked at her. lily had a letter of her own, and mrs. dale opened the newspaper. but still it was impossible not to perceive that her face became red with blushes, and then they knew that the letter must be from major grantly. grace herself could not read it, though her eye ran down over the two pages catching a word here and a word there. she had looked at the name at once, and had seen the manner of his signature. "most affectionately your own!" what was she to say to him? twice, thrice, as she sat at the breakfast-table she turned the page of the letter, and at each turning she read the signature. and she read the beginning, "dearest grace." more than that she did not really read till she had got the letter away with her into the seclusion of her own room. [illustration: she read the beginning--"dearest grace."] not a word was said about the letter at breakfast. poor grace went on eating or pretending to eat, but could not bring herself to utter a word. mrs. dale and lily spoke of various matters, which were quite indifferent to them; but even with them the conversation was so difficult that grace felt it to be forced, and was conscious that they were thinking about her and her lover. as soon as she could make an excuse she left the room, and hurrying upstairs took the letter from her pocket and read it in earnest. "that was from major grantly, mamma," said lily. "i daresay it was, my dear." "and what had we better do; or what had we better say?" "nothing,--i should say. let him fight his own battle. if we interfere, we may probably only make her more stubborn in clinging to her old idea." "i think she will cling to it." "for a time she will, i daresay. and it will be best that she should. he himself will respect her for it afterwards." thus it was agreed between them that they should say nothing to grace about the letter unless grace should first speak to them. grace read her letter over and over again. it was the first love-letter she had ever had;--the first letter she had ever received from any man except her father and brother,--the first, almost, that had ever been written to her by any other than her own old special friends. the words of it were very strange to her ear. he had told her when he left her that he would write to her, and therefore she had looked forward to the event which had now come; but she had thought that it would be much more distant,--and she had tried to make herself believe that when it did come it would be very different from this letter which she now possessed. "he will tell me that he has altered his mind. he ought to do so. it is not proper that he should still think of me when we are in such disgrace." but now the letter had come, and she acknowledged the truth of his saying that written words were clearer in their expression than those simply spoken. "not that i could ever forget a syllable that he said." yet, as she held the letter in her hand she felt that it was a possession. it was a thing at which she could look in coming years, when he and she might be far apart,--a thing at which she could look with pride in remembering that he had thought her worthy of it. neither on that day nor on the next did she think of her answer, nor on the third or the fourth with any steady thinking. she knew that an answer would have to be written, and she felt that the sooner it was written the easier might be the writing; but she felt also that it should not be written too quickly. a week should first elapse, she thought, and therefore a week was allowed to elapse, and then the day for writing her answer came. she had spoken no word about it either to mrs. dale or to lily. she had longed to do so, but had feared. even though she should speak to lily she could not be led by lily's advice. her letter, whatever it might be, must be her own letter. she would admit of no dictation. she must say her own say, let her say it ever so badly. as to the manner of saying it, lily's aid would have been invaluable; but she feared that she could not secure that aid without compromising her own power of action,--her own individuality; and therefore she said no word about the letter either to lily or to lily's mother. on a certain morning she fixed herself at her desk to write her letter. she had known that the task would be difficult, but she had little known how difficult it would be. on that day of her first attempt she did not get it written at all. how was she to begin? he had called her "dearest grace;" and this mode of beginning seemed as easy as it was sweet. "it is very easy for a gentleman," she said to herself, "because he may say just what he pleases." she wrote the words, "dearest henry," on a scrap of paper, and immediately tore it into fragments as though she were ashamed of having written them. she knew that she would not dare to send away a letter beginning with such words. she would not even have dared to let such words in her own handwriting remain within the recesses of her own little desk. "dear major grantly," she began at length. it seemed to her to be very ugly, but after much consideration she believed it to be correct. on the second day the letter was written as follows:-- allington, thursday. my dear major grantly,-- i do not know how i ought to answer your kind letter, but i must tell you that i am very much flattered by your great goodness to me. i cannot understand why you should think so much of me, but i suppose it is because you have felt for all our misfortunes. i will not say anything about what might have happened, if it had not been for papa's sorrow and disgrace; and as far as i can help it, i will not think of it; but i am sure that i ought not to think about loving any one, that is, in the way you mean, while we are in such trouble at home. i should not dare to meet any of your great friends, knowing that i had brought nothing with me but disgrace. and i should feel that i was doing an injury to _dear_ edith, which would be worse to me than anything. pray believe that i am quite in earnest about this. i know that a gentleman ought not to marry any girl to do himself and his family an injury by it; and i know that if i were to make such a marriage i should be unhappy ever afterwards, even though i loved the man ever so dearly, with all my heart. these last words she had underscored at first, but the doing so had been the unconscious expression of her own affection, and had been done with no desire on her part to convey that expression to him. but on reading the words she discovered their latent meaning, and wrote it all again. therefore i know that it will be best that i should wish you good-by, and i do so, thanking you again and again for your goodness to me. believe me to be, yours very sincerely, grace crawley. the letter when it was written was hateful to her; but she had tried her hand at it again and again, and had found that she could do nothing better. there was much in his letter that she had not attempted to answer. he had implored her to tell him whether or no she did in truth love him. of course she loved him. he knew that well enough. why should she answer any such question? there was a way of answering it indeed which might serve her turn,--or rather serve his, of which she was thinking more than of her own. she might say that she did not love him. it would be a lie, and he would know that it would be a lie. but still it might serve the turn. she did not like the idea of writing such a lie as that, but nevertheless she considered the matter. it would be very wicked; but still, if it would serve the turn, might it not be well to write it? but at last she reflected that, after all, the doing of the thing was in her own hands. she could refuse to marry this man without burdening her conscience with any lie about it. it only required that she should be firm. she abstained, therefore, from the falsehood, and left her lover's question unanswered. so she put up her letter and directed it, and carried it herself to the village post-office. on the day after this she got the second letter, and that she showed immediately to mrs. dale. it was from her mother, and was written to tell her that her father was seriously ill. "he went up to london to see a lawyer about this weary work of the trial," said mrs. crawley. "the fatigue was very great, and on the next day he was so weak that he could not leave his bed. dr. turner, who has been very kind, says that we need not frighten ourselves, but he thinks it must be some time before he can leave the house. he has a low fever on him, and wants nourishment. his mind has wandered once or twice, and he has asked for you, and i think it will be best, love, that you should come home. i know you will not mind it when i say that i think he would like to have you here. dr. turner says that the illness is chiefly owing to his not having proper food." of course she would go at once. "dear mrs. dale," she said, "i must go home. can you send me to the station?" then mrs. dale read the letter. of course they would send her. would she go on that day, or on the next? might it not be better to write first, and say that she was going? but grace would go at once. "i know it will be a comfort to mamma; and i know that he is worse than mamma says." of course there was no more to be said, and she was despatched to the station. before she went mrs. dale asked after her purse. "if there is any trouble about money,--for your journey, or anything, you will not scruple to come to me as to an old friend." but grace assured her that there was no trouble about money--for her journey. then lily took her aside and produced two clean new five-pound notes. "grace, dear, you won't be ill-natured. you know i have a little fortune of my own. you know i can give them without missing them." grace threw herself into her friend's arms and wept, but would have none of her money. "buy a present from me for your mother,--whom i love though i do not know her." "i will give her your love," grace said, "but nothing else." and then she went. chapter xxxvii. hook court. mr. dobbs broughton and mr. musselboro were sitting together on a certain morning at their office in the city, discussing the affairs of their joint business. the city office was a very poor place indeed, in comparison with the fine house which mr. dobbs occupied at the west end; but then city offices are poor places, and there are certain city occupations which seem to enjoy the greater credit the poorer are the material circumstances by which they are surrounded. turning out of a lane which turns out of lombard street, there is a desolate, forlorn-looking, dark alley, which is called hook court. the entrance to this alley is beneath the first-floor of one of the houses in the lane, and in passing under this covered way the visitor to the place finds himself in a small paved square court, at the two further corners of which there are two open doors; for in hook court there are only two houses. there is no. , hook court, and no. , hook court. the entire premises indicated by no. , are occupied by a firm of wine and spirit merchants, in connexion with whose trade one side and two angles of the court are always lumbered with crates, hampers, and wooden cases. and nearly in the middle of the court, though somewhat more to the wine-merchants' side than to the other, there is always gaping open a trap-door, leading down to vaults below; and over the trap there is a great board with a bright advertisement in very large letters:-- burton and bangles. himalaya wines, _s._ _d._ per dozen. and this notice is so bright and so large, and the trap-door is so conspicuous in the court, that no visitor, even to no. , ever afterwards can quite divest his memory of those names, burton and bangles, himalaya wines. it may therefore be acknowledged that burton and bangles have achieved their object in putting up the notice. the house no. , small as it seems to be, standing in the jamb of a corner, is divided among different occupiers, whose names are painted in small letters upon the very dirty posts of the doorway. nothing can be more remarkable than the contrast between burton and bangles and these other city gentlemen in the method taken by them in declaring their presence to visitors in the court. the names of dobbs broughton and of a. musselboro,--the christian name of mr. musselboro was augustus,--were on one of those dirty posts, not joined together by any visible "and," so as to declare boldly that they were partners; but in close vicinity,--showing at least that the two gentlemen would be found in apartments very near to each other. and on the first-floor of this house dobbs broughton and his friend did occupy three rooms,--or rather two rooms and a closet--between them. the larger and front room was tenanted by an old clerk, who sat within a rail in one corner of it. and there was a broad, short counter which jutted out from the wall into the middle of the room, intended for the use of such of the public as might come to transact miscellaneous business with dobbs broughton or augustus musselboro. but any one accustomed to the look of offices might have seen with half an eye that very little business was ever done on that counter. behind this large room was a smaller one, belonging to dobbs broughton, in the furnishing and arrangement of which some regard had been paid to comfort. the room was carpeted, and there was a sofa in it, though a very old one, and two arm-chairs and a mahogany office-table, and a cellaret, which was generally well supplied with wine which dobbs broughton did not get out of the vaults of his neighbours, burton and bangles. behind this again, but with a separate entrance from the passage, was the closet; and this closet was specially devoted to the use of mr. musselboro. closet as it was,--or cupboard as it might almost have been called,--it contained a table and two chairs; and it had a window of its own, which opened out upon a blank wall which was distant from it not above four feet. as the house to which this wall belonged was four stories high, it would sometimes happen that mr. musselboro's cupboard was rather dark. but this mattered the less as in these days mr. musselboro seldom used it. mr. musselboro, who was very constant at his place of business,--much more constant than his friend, dobbs broughton,--was generally to be found in his friend's room. only on some special occasions, on which it was thought expedient that the commercial world should be made to understand that mr. augustus musselboro had an individual existence of his own, did that gentleman really seat himself in the dark closet. mr. dobbs broughton, had he been asked what was his trade, would have said that he was a stockbroker; and he would have answered truly, for he was a stockbroker. a man may be a stockbroker though he never sells any stock; as he may be a barrister though he has no practice at the bar. i do not say that mr. broughton never sold any stock; but the buying and selling of stock for other people was certainly not his chief business. and had mr. musselboro been asked what was his trade, he would have probably given an evasive answer. at any rate in the city, and among people who understood city matters, he would not have said that he was a stockbroker. both mr. broughton and mr. musselboro bought and sold a good deal, but it was chiefly on account. the shares which were bought and sold very generally did not pass from hand to hand; but the difference in the price of the shares did do so. and then they had another little business between them. they lent money on interest. and in this business there was a third partner, whose name did not appear on the dirty door-post. that third partner was mrs. van siever, the mother of clara van siever whom mr. conway dalrymple intended to portray as jael driving a nail into sisera's head. on a certain morning mr. broughton and mr. musselboro were sitting together in the office which has been described. they were in mr. broughton's room, and occupied each an arm-chair on the different sides of the fire. mr. musselboro was sitting close to the table, on which a ledger was open before him, and he had a pen and ink before him, as though he had been at work. dobbs broughton had a small betting-book in his hand, and was seated with his feet up against the side of the fireplace. both men wore their hats, and the aspect of the room was not the aspect of a place of business. they had been silent for some minutes when broughton took his cigar-case out of his pocket, and nibbled off the end of a cigar, preparatory to lighting it. "you had better not smoke here this morning, dobbs," said musselboro. "why shouldn't i smoke in my own room?" "because she'll be here just now." "what do i care? if you think i'm going to be afraid of mother van, you're mistaken. let come what may, i'm not going to live under her thumb." so he lighted his cigar. "all right," said musselboro, and he took up his pen and went to work at his book. "what is she coming here for this morning?" asked broughton. "to look after her money. what should she come for?" "she gets her interest. i don't suppose there's better paid money in the city." "she hasn't got what was coming to her at christmas yet." "and this is february. what would she have? she had better put her dirty money into the three per cents., if she is frightened at having to wait a week or two." "can she have it to-day?" "what, the whole of it? of course she can't. you know that as well as i do. she can have four hundred pounds, if she wants it. but seeing all she gets out of the concern, she has no right to press for it in that way. she is the ---- old usurer i ever came across in my life." "of course she likes her money." "likes her money! by george she does; her own and anybody else's that she can get hold of. for a downright leech, recommend me always to a woman. when a woman does go in for it, she is much more thorough than any man." then broughton turned over the little pages of his book, and musselboro pondered over the big pages of his book, and there was silence for a quarter of an hour. "there's something about nine hundred and fifteen pounds due to her," said musselboro. "i daresay there is." "it would be a very good thing to let her have it if you've got it. the whole of it this morning, i mean." "if! yes, if!" said broughton. "i know there's more than that at the bank." "and i'm to draw out every shilling that there is! i'll see mother van--further first. she can have £ if she likes it,--and the rest in a fortnight. or she can have my note-of-hand for it all at fourteen days." "she won't like that at all," said musselboro. "then she must lump it. i'm not going to bother myself about her. i've pretty nearly as much money in it as she has, and we're in a boat together. if she comes here bothering, you'd better tell her so." "you'll see her yourself?" "not unless she comes within the next ten minutes. i must go down to the court. i said i'd be there by twelve. i've got somebody i want to see." "i'd stay if i were you." "why should i stay for her? if she thinks that i'm going to make myself her clerk, she's mistaken. it may be all very well for you, mussy, but it won't do for me. i'm not dependent on her, and i don't want to marry her daughter." "it will simply end in her demanding to have her money back again." "and how will she get it?" said dobbs broughton. "i haven't a doubt in life but she'd take it to-morrow if she could put her hands upon it. and then, after a bit, when she began to find that she didn't like four per cent., she'd bring it back again. but nobody can do business after such a fashion as that. for the last three years she's drawn close upon two thousand a year for less than eighteen thousand pounds. when a woman wants to do that, she can't have her money in her pocket every monday morning." "but you've done better than that yourself, dobbs." "of course i have. and who has made the connexion; and who has done the work? i suppose she doesn't think that i'm to have all the sweat and that she is to have all the profit." "if you talk of work, dobbs, it is i that have done the most of it." this mr. musselboro said in a very serious voice, and with a look of much reproach. "and you've been paid for what you've done. come, mussy, you'd better not turn against me. you'll never get your change out of that. even if you marry the daughter, that won't give you the mother's money. she'll stick to every shilling of it till she dies; and she'd take it with her then, if she knew how." having said this, he got up from his chair, put his little book into his pocket, and walked out of the office. he pushed his way across the court, which was more than ordinarily crowded with the implements of burton and bangles' trade, and as he passed under the covered way he encountered at the entrance an old woman getting out of a cab. the old woman was, of course, mother van, as her partner, mr. dobbs broughton, irreverently called her. "mrs. van siever, how d'ye do? let me give you a hand. fare from south kensington? i always give the fellows three shillings." "you don't mean to tell me it's six miles!" and she tendered a florin to the man. "can't take that, ma'am," said the cabman. "can't take it! but you must take it. broughton, just get a policeman, will you?" dobbs broughton satisfied the driver out of his own pocket, and the cab was driven away. "what did you give him?" said mrs. van siever. "just another sixpence. there never is a policeman anywhere about here." "it'll be out of your own pocket, then," said mrs. van. "but you're not going away?" "i must be at capel court by half-past twelve;--i must, indeed. if it wasn't real business, i'd stay." "i told musselboro i should be here." "he's up there, and he knows all about the business just as well as i do. when i found that i couldn't stay for you, i went through the account with him, and it's all settled. good morning. i'll see you at the west end in a day or two." then he made his way out into lombard street, and mrs. van siever picked her steps across the yard, and mounted the stairs, and made her way into the room in which mr. musselboro was sitting. "somebody's been smoking, gus," she said, almost as soon as she had entered the room. "that's nothing new here," he replied, as he got up from his chair. "there's no good being done when men sit and smoke over their work. is it you, or he, or both of you?" "well;--it was broughton was smoking just now. i don't smoke of a morning myself." "what made him get up and run away when i came?" "how can i tell, mrs. van siever," said musselboro, laughing. "if he did run away when you came, i suppose it was because he didn't want to see you." "and why shouldn't he want to see me? gus, i expect the truth from you. how are things going on here?" to this question mr. musselboro made no immediate answer; but tilted himself back in his chair and took his hat off, and put his thumbs into the arm-holes of his waistcoat, and looked his patroness full in the face. "gus," she said again, "i do expect the truth from you. how are things going on here?" "there'd be a good business,--if he'd only keep things together." "but he's idle. isn't he idle?" "confoundedly idle," said musselboro. "and he drinks;--don't he drink in the day?" "like the mischief,--some days. but that isn't the worst of it." "and what is the worst of it?" "newmarket;--that's the rock he's going to pieces on." "you don't mean to say he takes the money out of the business for that?" and mrs. van siever's face, as she asked the question, expressed almost a tragic horror. "if i thought that i wouldn't give him an hour's mercy." "when a man bets he doesn't well know what money he uses. i can't say that he takes money that is not his own. situated as i am, i don't know what is his own and what isn't. if your money was in my name i could keep a hand on it;--but as it is not i can do nothing. i can see that what is put out is put out fairly well; and when i think of it, mrs. van siever, it is quite wonderful that we've lost so little. it has been next to nothing. that has been my doing;--and that's about all that i can do." "you must know whether he has used my money for his own purposes or not." "if you ask me, i think he has," said mr. musselboro. "then i'll go into it, and i'll find it out, and if it is so, as sure as my name's van siever, i'll sew him up." having uttered which terrible threat, the old woman drew a chair to the table and seated herself fairly down, as though she were determined to go through all the books of the office before she quitted that room. mrs. van siever in her present habiliments was not a thing so terrible to look at as she had been in her wiggeries at mrs. dobbs broughton's dinner-table. her curls were laid aside altogether, and she wore simply a front beneath her close bonnet,--and a very old front, too, which was not loudly offensive because it told no lies. her eyes were as bright, and her little wizen face was as sharp, as ever; but the wizen face and the bright eyes were not so much amiss as seen together with the old dark brown silk dress which she now wore, as they had been with the wiggeries and the evening finery. even now, in her morning costume, in her work-a-day business dress, as we may call it, she looked to be very old,--so old that nobody could guess her age. people attempting to guess would say that she must be at least over eighty. and yet she was wiry, and strong, and nimble. it was not because she was feeble that she was thought to be so old. they who so judged of her were led to their opinion by the extreme thinness of her face, and by the brightness of her eyes, joined to the depth of the hollows in which they lay, and the red margin by which they were surrounded. it was not really the fact that mrs. van siever was so very aged, for she had still some years to live before she would reach eighty, but that she was such a weird old woman, so small, so ghastly, and so ugly! "i'll sew him up, if he's been robbing me," she said. "i will, indeed." and she stretched out her hand to grab at the ledger which musselboro had been using. "you won't understand anything from that," said he, pushing the book over to her. "you can explain it to me." "that's all straight sailing, that is." "and where does he keep the figures that ain't straight sailing? that's the book i want to see." "there is no such book." "look here, gus,--if i find you deceiving me i'll throw you overboard as sure as i'm a living woman. i will indeed. i'll have no mercy. i've stuck to you, and made a man of you, and i expect you to stick to me." "not much of a man," said musselboro, with a touch of scorn in his voice. "you've never had a shilling yet but what i gave you." "yes; i have. i've had what i've worked for,--and worked confounded hard too." "look here, musselboro; if you're going to throw me over, just tell me so, and let us begin fair." "i'm not going to throw you over. i've always been on the square with you. why don't you trust me out and out, and then i could do a deal better for you. you ask me now about your money. i don't know about your money, mrs. van siever. how am i to know anything about your money, mrs. van siever? you don't give me any power of keeping a hand upon dobbs broughton. i suppose you have security from dobbs broughton, but i don't know what security you have, mrs. van siever. he owes you now £ _s._ _d._ on last year's account!" "why doesn't he give me a cheque for the money?" "he says he can't spare it. you may have £ , and the rest when he can give it you. or he'll give you his note-of-hand at fourteen days for the whole." "bother his note-of-hand. why should i take his note-of-hand?" "do as you like, mrs. van siever." "it's the interest on my own money. why don't he give it me? i suppose he has had it." "you must ask him that, mrs. van siever. you're in partnership with him, and he can tell you. nobody else knows anything about it. if you were in partnership with me, then of course i could tell you. but you're not. you've never trusted me, mrs. van siever." the lady remained there closeted with mr. musselboro for an hour after that, and did, i think, at length learn something more as to the details of her partner's business, than her faithful servant mr. musselboro had at first found himself able to give to her. and at last they came to friendly and confidential terms, in the midst of which the personal welfare of mr. dobbs broughton was, i fear, somewhat forgotten. not that mr. musselboro palpably and plainly threw his friend overboard. he took his friend's part,--alleging excuses for him, and pleading some facts. "of course, you know, a man like that is fond of pleasure, mrs. van siever. he's been at it more or less all his life. i don't suppose he ever missed a derby or an oaks, or the cup at ascot, or the goodwood in his life." "he'll have to miss them before long, i'm thinking," said mrs. van siever. "and as to not cashing up, you must remember, mrs. van siever, that ten per cent. won't come in quite as regularly as four or five. when you go for high interest, there must be hitches here and there. there must, indeed, mrs. van siever." "i know all about it," said mrs. van siever. "if he gave it me as soon as he got it himself, i shouldn't complain. never mind. he's only got to give me my little bit of money out of the business, and then he and i will be all square. you come and see clara this evening, gus." then mr. musselboro put mrs. van siever into another cab, and went out upon 'change,--hanging about the bank, and standing in threadneedle street, talking to other men just like himself. when he saw dobbs broughton he told that gentleman that mrs. van siever had been in her tantrums, but that he had managed to pacify her before she left hook court. "i'm to take her the cheque for the five hundred to-night," he said. chapter xxxviii. jael. on the first of march, conway dalrymple's easel was put up in mrs. dobbs broughton's boudoir upstairs, the canvas was placed upon it on which the outlines of jael and sisera had been already drawn, and mrs. broughton and clara van siever and conway dalrymple were assembled with the view of steady art-work. but before we see how they began their work together, we will go back for a moment to john eames on his return to his london lodgings. the first thing every man does when he returns home after an absence, is to look at his letters, and john eames looked at his. there were not very many. there was a note marked immediate, from sir raffle buffle, in which sir r. had scrawled in four lines a notification that he should be driven to an extremity of inconvenience if eames were not at his post at half-past nine on the following morning. "i think i see myself there at that hour," said john. there was a notification of a house dinner, which he was asked to join, at his club, and a card for an evening gathering at lady glencora palliser's,--procured for him by his friend conway,--and an invitation to dinner at the house of his uncle, mr. toogood; and there was a scented note in the handwriting of a lady, which he did not recognize. "my nearest and dearest friend, m. d. m.," he said, as he opened the note and looked at the signature. then he read the letter from miss demolines. my dear mr. eames, pray come to me at once. i know that you are to be back to-morrow. do not lose an hour if you can help it. i shall be at home at half-past five. i fear what you know of has been begun. but it certainly shall not go on. in one way or another it must be prevented. i won't say another word till i see you, but pray come at once. yours always, m. d. m. thursday. poor mamma isn't very well, so you had better ask for me. "beautiful!" said johnny, as he read the note. "there's nothing i like so much as a mystery,--especially if it's about nothing. i wonder why she is so desperately anxious that the picture should not be painted. i'd ask dalrymple, only i should spoil the mystery." then he sat himself down, and began to think of lily. there could be no treason to lily in his amusing himself with the freaks of such a woman as miss demolines. at eleven o'clock on the morning of the st of march,--the day following that on which miss demolines had written her note,--the easel was put up and the canvas was placed on it in mrs. broughton's room. mrs. broughton and clara were both there, and when they had seen the outlines as far as it had been drawn, they proceeded to make arrangements for their future operations. the period of work was to begin always at eleven, and was to be continued for an hour and a half or for two hours on the days on which they met. i fear that there was a little improper scheming in this against the two persons whom the ladies were bound to obey. mr. dobbs broughton invariably left his house soon after ten in the morning. it would sometimes happen, though not frequently, that he returned home early in the day,--at four perhaps, or even before that; and should he chance to do so while the picture was going on, he would catch them at their work if the work were postponed till after luncheon. and then again, mrs. van siever would often go out in the morning, and when she did so, would always go without her daughter. on such occasions she went into the city, or to other resorts of business, at which, in some manner quite unintelligible to her daughter, she looked after her money. but when she did not go out in the morning, she did go out in the afternoon, and she would then require her daughter's company. there was some place to which she always went of a friday morning, and at which she stayed for two or three hours. friday therefore was a fitting day on which to begin the work at mrs. broughton's house. all this was explained between the three conspirators. mrs. dobbs broughton declared that if she entertained the slightest idea that her husband would object to the painting of the picture in her room, nothing on earth would induce her to lend her countenance to it; but yet it might be well not to tell him just at first, perhaps not till the sittings were over,--perhaps not till the picture was finished; as, otherwise, tidings of the picture might get round to ears which were not intended to hear it. "poor dear dobbs is so careless with a secret." miss van siever explained her motives in a very different way. "i know mamma would not let me do it if she knew it; and therefore i shall not tell her." "my dear clara," said mrs. broughton with a smile, "you are so outspoken!" "and why not?" said miss van siever. "i am old enough to judge for myself. if mamma does not want to be deceived, she ought not to treat me like a child. of course she'll find it out sooner or later; but i don't care about that." conway dalrymple said nothing as the two ladies were thus excusing themselves. "how delightful it must be not to have a master," said mrs. broughton, addressing him. "but then a man has to work for his own bread," said he. "i suppose it comes about equal in the long run." very little drawing or painting was done on that day. in the first place it was necessary that the question of costume should be settled, and both mrs. broughton and the artist had much to say on the subject. it was considered proper that jael should be dressed as a jewess, and there came to be much question how jewesses dressed themselves in those very early days. mrs. broughton had prepared her jewels and raiment of many colours, but the painter declared that the wife of heber the kenite would have no jewels. but when mrs. broughton discovered from her bible that heber had been connected by family ties with moses, she was more than ever sure that heber's wife would have in her tent much of the spoilings of the egyptians. and when clara van siever suggested that at any rate she would not have worn them in a time of confusion when soldiers were loose, flying about the country, mrs. broughton was quite confident that she would have put them on before she invited the captain of the enemy's host into her tent. the artist at last took the matter into his own hand by declaring that miss van siever would sit the subject much better without jewels, and therefore all mrs. broughton's gewgaws were put back into their boxes. and then on four different times the two ladies had to retire into mrs. broughton's room in order that jael might be arrayed in various costumes,--and in each costume she had to kneel down, taking the hammer in her hand, and holding the pointed stick which had been prepared to do duty as the nail, upon the forehead of a dummy sisera. at last it was decided that her raiment should be altogether white, and that she should wear, twisted round her head and falling over her shoulder, a roman silk scarf of various colours. "where jael could have gotten it i don't know," said clara. "you may be sure that there were lots of such things among the egyptians," said mrs. broughton, "and that moses brought away all the best for his own family." "and who is to be sisera?" asked mrs. broughton in one of the pauses in their work. "i'm thinking of asking my friend john eames to sit." "of course we cannot sit together," said miss van siever. "there's no reason why you should," said dalrymple. "i can do the second figure in my own room." then there was a bargain made that sisera should not be a portrait. "it would never do," said mrs. broughton, shaking her head very gravely. though there was really very little done to the picture on that day, the work was commenced; and mrs. broughton, who had at first objected strongly to the idea, and who had said twenty times that it was quite out of the question that it should be done in her house, became very eager in her delight about it. nobody should know anything of the picture till it should be exhibited. that would be best. and it should be the picture of the year! she was a little heart-broken when dalrymple assured her that it could not possibly be finished for exhibition in that may; but she came to again when he declared that he meant to put out all his strength upon it. "there will be five or six months' work in it," he said. "will there, indeed? and how much work was there in 'the graces'?" "the graces," as will perhaps be remembered, was the triple portrait of mrs. dobbs broughton herself. this question the artist did not answer with absolute accuracy, but contented himself with declaring that with such a model as mrs. broughton the picture had been comparatively easy. mrs. broughton, having no doubt that ultimate object of which she had spoken to her friend conway steadily in view, took occasion before the sitting was over to leave the room, so that the artist might have an opportunity of speaking a word in private to his model,--if he had any such word to speak. and mrs. broughton, as she did this, felt that she was doing her duty as a wife, a friend, and a christian. she was doing her duty as a wife, because she was giving the clearest proof in the world,--the clearest at any rate to herself,--that the intimacy between herself and her friend conway had in it nothing that was improper. and she was doing her duty as a friend, because clara van siever, with her large expectations, would be an eligible wife. and she was doing her duty as a christian, because the whole thing was intended to be moral. miss demolines had declared that her friend maria clutterbuck,--as miss demolines delighted to call mrs. broughton, in memory of dear old innocent days,--had high principles; and the reader will see that she was justified in her declaration. "it will be better so," said mrs. broughton, as she sat upon her bed and wiped a tear from the corner of her eye. "yes; it will be better so. there is a pang. of course there's a pang. but it will be better so." acting upon this high principle, she allowed conway dalrymple five minutes to say what he had to say to clara van siever. then she allowed herself to indulge in some very savage feelings in reference to her husband,--accusing her husband in her thoughts of great cruelty,--nay, of brutality, because of certain sharp words that he had said as to conway dalrymple. "but of course he can't understand," said mrs. broughton to herself. "how is it to be expected that he should understand?" but she allowed her friend on this occasion only five minutes, thinking probably that so much time might suffice. a woman, when she is jealous, is apt to attribute to the other woman with whom her jealousy is concerned, both weakness and timidity, and to the man both audacity and strength. a woman who has herself taken perhaps twelve months in the winning, will think that another woman is to be won in five minutes. it is not to be supposed that mrs. dobbs broughton had ever been won by any one except by mr. dobbs broughton. at least, let it not be supposed that she had ever acknowledged a spark of love for conway dalrymple. but nevertheless there was enough of jealousy in her present mood to make her think poorly of miss van siever's capacity for standing a siege against the artist's eloquence. otherwise, having left the two together with the object which she had acknowledged to herself, she would hardly have returned to them after so very short an interval. "i hope you won't dislike the trouble of all this?" said dalrymple to his model, as soon as mrs. broughton was gone. "i cannot say that i like it very much," said miss van siever. "i'm afraid it will be a bore;--but i hope you'll go through with it." "i shall if i am not prevented," said miss van siever. "when i've said that i'll do a thing, i like to do it." there was a pause in the conversation which took up a considerable portion of the five minutes. miss van siever was not holding her nail during these moments, but was sitting in a commonplace way on her chair, while dalrymple was scraping his palette. "i wonder what it was that first induced you to sit?" said he. "oh, i don't know. i took a fancy for it." "i'm very glad you did take the fancy. you'll make an excellent model. if you won't mind posing again for a few minutes--i will not weary you to-day. your right arm a little more forward." "but i should tumble down." "not if you lean well on to the nail." "but that would have woken sisera before she had struck a blow." "never mind that. let us try it." then mrs. broughton returned, with that pleasant feeling in her bosom of having done her duty as a wife, a friend, and a christian. "mrs. broughton," continued the painter, "just steady miss van siever's shoulder with your hand; and now bring the arm and the elbow a little more forward." "but jael did not have a friend to help her in that way," said miss van siever. at the end of an hour and a half the two ladies retired, and jael disrobed herself, and miss van siever put on her customary raiment. it was agreed among them that they had commenced their work auspiciously, and that they would meet again on the following monday. the artist begged to be allowed an hour to go on with his work in mrs. broughton's room, and the hour was conceded to him. it was understood that he could not take the canvas backwards and forwards with him to his own house, and he pointed out that no progress whatever could be made, unless he were occasionally allowed some such grace as this. mrs. broughton doubted and hesitated, made difficulties, and lifted up her hands in despair. "it is easy for you to say, why not? but i know very well why not." but at last she gave way. "honi soit qui mal y pense," she said; "that must be my protection." so she followed miss van siever downstairs, leaving mr. dalrymple in possession of her boudoir. "i shall give you just one hour," she said, "and then i shall come and turn you out." so she went down, and, as miss van siever would not stay to lunch with her, she ate her lunch by herself, sending a glass of sherry and a biscuit up to the poor painter at his work. exactly at the end of the hour she returned to him. "now, conway, you must go," she said. "but why in such a hurry?" "because i say that it must be so. when i say so, pray let that be sufficient." but still dalrymple went on working. "conway," she said, "how can you treat me with so much disdain?" "disdain, mrs. broughton!" "yes, disdain. have i not begged you to understand that i cannot allow you to remain here, and yet you pay no attention to my wishes." "i have done now;" and he began to put his brushes and paints together. "i suppose all these things may remain here?" "yes; they may remain. they must do so, of course. there; if you will put the easel in the corner, with the canvas behind it, they will not be seen if he should chance to come into the room." "he would not be angry, i suppose, if he saw them?" "there is no knowing. men are so unreasonable. all men are, i think. all those are whom i have had the fortune to know. women generally say that men are selfish. i do not complain so much that they are selfish as that they are thoughtless. they are headstrong and do not look forward to results. now you,--i do not think you would willingly do me an injury?" "i do not think i would." "i am sure you would not;--but yet you would forget to save me from one." "what injury?" "oh, never mind. i am not thinking of anything in particular. from myself, for instance. but we will not talk about that. that way madness lies. tell me, conway;--what do you think of clara van siever?" "she is very handsome, certainly." "and clever?" "decidedly clever. i should think she has a temper of her own." "what woman is there worth a straw that has not? if clara van siever were ill-used, she would resent it. i do not doubt that for a moment. i should not like to be the man who would do it." "nor i, either," said conway. "but there is plenty of feminine softness in that character, if she were treated with love and kindness. conway, if you will take my advice you will ask clara van siever to be your wife. but perhaps you have already." "who; i?" "yes; you." "i have not done it yet, certainly, mrs. broughton." "and why should you not do it?" "there are two or three reasons;--but perhaps none of any great importance. do you know of none, mrs. broughton?" "i know of none," said mrs. broughton in a very serious,--in almost a tragic tone;--"of none that should weigh for a moment. as far as i am concerned, nothing would give me more pleasure." "that is so kind of you!" "i mean to be kind. i do, indeed, conway. i know it will be better for you that you should be settled,--very much better. and it will be better for me. i do not mind admitting that;--though in saying so i trust greatly to your generosity to interpret my words properly." "i shall not flatter myself, if you mean that." "there is no question of flattery, conway. the question is simply of truth and prudence. do you not know that it would be better that you should be married?" "not unless a certain gentleman were to die first," said conway dalrymple, as he deposited the last of his painting paraphernalia in the recess which had been prepared for them by mrs. broughton. "conway, how can you speak in that wicked, wicked way!" "i can assure you i do not wish the gentleman in question the slightest harm in the world. if his welfare depended on me, he should be as safe as the bank of england." "and you will not take my advice?" "what advice?" "about clara?" "mrs. broughton, matrimony is a very important thing." "indeed, it is;--oh, who can say how important! there was a time, conway, when i thought you had given your heart to madalina demolines." "heaven forbid!" "and i grieved, because i thought that she was not worthy of you." "there was never anything in that, mrs. broughton." "she thought that there was. at any rate, she said so. i know that for certain. she told me so herself. but let that pass. clara van siever is in every respect very different from madalina. clara, i think, is worthy of you. and conway,--of course it is not for me to dictate to you; but this i must tell you--" then she paused, as though she did not know how to finish her sentence. "what must you tell me?" "i will tell you nothing more. if you cannot understand what i have said, you must be more dull of comprehension than i believe you to be. now go. why are you not gone this half-hour?" "how could i go while you were giving me all this good advice?" "i have not asked you to stay. go now, at any rate. and, remember, conway, if this picture is to go on, i will not have you remaining here after the work is done. will you remember that?" and she held him by the hand while he declared that he would remember it. mrs. dobbs broughton was no more in love with conway dalrymple than she was in love with king charles on horseback at charing cross. and, over and beyond the protection which came to her in the course of nature from unimpassioned feelings in this special phase of her life,--and indeed, i may say, in every phase of her life,--it must be acknowledged on her behalf that she did enjoy that protection which comes from what we call principle,--though the principle was not perhaps very high of its kind. madalina demolines had been right when she talked of her friend maria's principles. dobbs broughton had been so far lucky in that jump in the dark which he had made in taking a wife to himself, that he had not fallen upon a really vicious woman, or upon a woman of strong feeling. if it had come to be the lot of mrs. dobbs broughton to have six hours' work to do every day of her life, i think that the work would have been done badly, but that it would have kept her free from all danger. as it was she had nothing to do. she had no child. she was not given to much reading. she could not sit with a needle in her hand all day. she had no aptitude for may meetings, or the excitement of charitable good works. life with her was very dull, and she found no amusement within her reach so easy and so pleasant as the amusement of pretending to be in love. if all that she did and all that she said could only have been taken for its worth and for nothing more, by the different persons concerned, there was very little in it to flatter mr. dalrymple or to give cause for tribulation to mr. broughton. she probably cared but little for either of them. she was one of those women to whom it is not given by nature to care very much for anybody. but, of the two, she certainly cared the most for mr. dobbs broughton,--because mr. dobbs broughton belonged to her. as to leaving mr. dobbs broughton's house, and putting herself into the hands of another man,--no imogen of a wife was ever less likely to take a step so wicked, so dangerous, and so generally disagreeable to all the parties concerned. but conway dalrymple,--though now and again he had got a side glance at her true character with clear-seeing eyes,--did allow himself to be flattered and deceived. he knew that she was foolish and ignorant, and that she often talked wonderful nonsense. he knew also that she was continually contradicting herself,--as when she would strenuously beg him to leave her, while she would continue to talk to him in a strain that prevented the possibility of his going. but, nevertheless, he was flattered, and he did believe that she loved him. as to his love for her,--he knew very well that it amounted to nothing. now and again, perhaps twice a week, if he saw her as often, he would say something which would imply a declaration of affection. he felt that as much as that was expected from him, and that he ought not to hope to get off cheaper. and now that this little play was going on about miss van siever, he did think that mrs. dobbs broughton was doing her very best to overcome an unfortunate attachment. it is so gratifying to a young man's feelings to suppose that another man's wife has conceived an unfortunate attachment for him! conway dalrymple ought not to have been fooled by such a woman; but i fear that he was fooled by her. as he returned home to-day from mrs. broughton's house to his own lodgings he rambled out for a while into kensington gardens, and thought of his position seriously. "i don't see why i should not marry her," he said to himself, thinking of course of miss van siever. "if maria is not in earnest it is not my fault. and it would be my wish that she should be in earnest. if i suppose her to be so, and take her at her word, she can have no right to quarrel with me. poor maria! at any rate it will be better for her, for no good can come of this kind of thing. and, by heavens, with a woman like that, of strong feelings, one never knows what may happen." and then he thought of the condition he would be in, if he were to find her some fine day in his own rooms, and if she were to tell him that she could not go home again, and that she meant to remain with him! in the meantime mrs. dobbs broughton had gone down into her own drawing-room, had tucked herself up on the sofa, and had fallen fast asleep. chapter xxxix. a new flirtation. [illustration] john eames sat at his office on the day after his return to london, and answered the various letters which he had found waiting for him at his lodgings on the previous evening. to miss demolines he had already written from his club,--a single line, which he considered to be appropriate to the mysterious necessities of the occasion. "i will be with you at a quarter to six to-morrow.--j. e. just returned." there was not another word; and as he scrawled it at one of the club tables while two or three men were talking to him, he felt rather proud of his correspondence. "it was capital fun," he said; "and after all,"--the "all" on this occasion being lily dale, and the sadness of his disappointment at allington,--"after all, let a fellow be ever so down in the mouth, a little amusement should do him good." and he reflected further that the more a fellow be "down in the mouth," the more good the amusement would do him. he sent off his note, therefore, with some little inward rejoicing,--and a word or two also of spoken rejoicing. "what fun women are sometimes," he said to one of his friends,--a friend with whom he was very intimate, calling him always fred, and slapping his back, but whom he never by any chance saw out of his club. "what's up now, johnny? some good fortune?" "good fortune; no. i never have good fortunes of that kind. but i've got hold of a young woman,--or rather a young woman has got hold of me, who insists on having a mystery with me. in the mystery itself there is not the slightest interest. but the mysteriousness of it is charming. i have just written to her three words to settle an appointment for to-morrow. we don't sign our names lest the postmaster-general should find out all about it." "is she pretty?" "well;--she isn't ugly. she has just enough of good looks to make the sort of thing pass off pleasantly. a mystery with a downright ugly young woman would be unpleasant." after this fashion the note from miss demolines had been received, and answered at once, but the other letters remained in his pocket till he reached his office on the following morning. sir raffle had begged him to be there at half-past nine. this he had sworn he would not do; but he did seat himself in his room at ten minutes before ten, finding of course the whole building untenanted at that early hour,--that unearthly hour, as johnny called it himself. "i shouldn't wonder if he really is here this morning," johnny said, as he entered the building, "just that he may have an opportunity of jumping on me." but sir raffle was not there, and then johnny began to abuse sir raffle. "if ever i come here early to meet him again, because he says he means to be here himself, i hope i may be ---- blessed." on that especial morning it was twelve before sir raffle made his appearance, and johnny avenged himself,--i regret to have to tell it,--by a fib. that sir raffle fibbed first, was no valid excuse whatever for eames. "i've been at it ever since six o'clock," said sir raffle. "at what?" said johnny. "work, to be sure;--and very hard work too. i believe the chancellor of the exchequer thinks that he can call upon me to any extent that he pleases;--just any extent that he pleases. he doesn't give me credit for a desire to have a single hour to myself." "what would he do, sir raffle, if you were to get ill, or wear yourself out?" "he knows i'm not one of the wearing-out sort. you got my note last night?" "yes; i got your note." "i'm sorry that i troubled you; but i couldn't help it. i didn't expect to get a box full of papers at eleven o'clock last night." "you didn't put me out, sir raffle; i happened to have business of my own which prevented the possibility of my being here early." this was the way in which john eames avenged himself. sir raffle turned his face upon his private secretary, and his face was very black. johnny bore the gaze without dropping an eyelid. "i'm not going to stand it, and he may as well know that at once," johnny said to one of his friends in the office afterwards. "if he ever wants any thing really done, i'll do it;--though it should take me twelve hours at a stretch. but i'm not going to pretend to believe all the lies he tells me about the chancellor of the exchequer. if that is to be part of the private secretary's business, he had better get somebody else." but now sir raffle was very angry, and his countenance was full of wrath as he looked down upon his subordinate minister. "if i had come here, mr. eames, and had found you absent, i should have been very much annoyed, very much annoyed indeed, after having written as i did." "you would have found me absent at the hour you named. as i wasn't here then, i think it's only fair to say so." "i'm afraid you begrudge your time to the service, mr. eames." "i do begrudge it when the service doesn't want it." "at your age, mr. eames, that's not for you to judge. if i had acted in that way when i was young i should never have filled the position i now hold. i always remembered in those days that as i was the hand and not the head, i was bound to hold myself in readiness whether work might be required from me or not." "if i'm wanted as hand now, sir raffle, i'm ready." "that's all very well;--but why were you not here at the hour i named?" "well, sir raffle, i cannot say that the chancellor of the exchequer detained me;--but there was business. as i've been here for the last two hours, i am happy to think that in this instance the public service will not have suffered from my disobedience." sir raffle was still standing with his hat on, and with his back to the fire, and his countenance was full of wrath. it was on his tongue to tell johnny that he had better return to his former work in the outer office. he greatly wanted the comfort of a private secretary who would believe in him--or at least pretend to believe in him. there are men who, though they have not sense enough to be true, have nevertheless sense enough to know that they cannot expect to be really believed in by those who are near enough to them to know them. sir raffle buffle was such a one. he would have greatly delighted in the services of some one who would trust him implicitly,--of some young man who would really believe all that he said of himself and of the chancellor of the exchequer; but he was wise enough to perceive that no such young man was to be had; or that any such young man,--could such a one be found,--would be absolutely useless for any purposes of work. he knew himself to be a liar whom nobody trusted. and he knew himself also to be a bully,--though he could not think so low of himself as to believe that he was a bully whom nobody feared. a private secretary was at the least bound to pretend to believe in him. there is a decency in such things, and that decency john eames did not observe. he thought that he must get rid of john eames, in spite of certain attractions which belonged to johnny's appearance and general manners, and social standing, and reputed wealth. but it would not be wise to punish a man on the spot for breaking an appointment which he himself had not kept, and therefore he would wait for another opportunity. "you had better go to your own room now," he said. "i am engaged on a matter connected with the treasury, in which i will not ask for your assistance." he knew that eames would not believe a word as to what he said about the treasury,--not even some very trifling base of truth which did exist; but the boast gave him an opportunity of putting an end to the interview after his own fashion. then john eames went to his own room and answered the letters which he had in his pocket. to the club dinner he would not go. "what's the use of paying two guineas for a dinner with fellows you see every day of your life?" he said. to lady glencora's he would go, and he wrote a line to his friend dalrymple proposing that they should go together. and he would dine with his cousin toogood in tavistock square. "one meets the queerest people in the world there," he said; "but tommy toogood is such a good fellow himself!" after that he had his lunch. then he read the paper, and before he went away he wrote a dozen or two of private notes, presenting sir raffle's compliments right and left, and giving in no one note a single word of information that could be of any use to any person. having thus earned his salary by half-past four o'clock he got into a hansom cab and had himself driven to porchester terrace. miss demolines was at home, of course, and he soon found himself closeted with that interesting young woman. "i thought you never would have come." these were the first words she spoke. "my dear miss demolines, you must not forget that i have my bread to earn." "fiddlestick--bread! as if i didn't know that you can get away from your office when you choose." "but, indeed, i cannot." "what is there to prevent you, mr. eames?" "i'm not tied up like a dog, certainly; but who do you suppose will do my work if i do not do it myself? it is a fact, though the world does not believe it, that men in public offices have got something to do." "now you are laughing at me, i know; but you are welcome, if you like it. it's the way of the world just at present that ladies should submit to that sort of thing from gentlemen." "what sort of thing, miss demolines?" "chaff,--as you call it. courtesy is out of fashion, and gallantry has come to signify quite a different kind of thing from what it used to do." "the sir charles grandison business is done and gone. that's what you mean, i suppose? don't you think we should find it very heavy if we tried to get it back again?" "i'm not going to ask you to be a sir charles grandison, mr. eames. but never mind all that now. do you know that that girl has absolutely had her first sitting for the picture?" "has she, indeed?" "she has. you may take my word for it. i know it as a fact. what a fool that young man is!" "which young man?" "which young man! conway dalrymple to be sure. artists are always weak. of all men in the world they are the most subject to flattery from women; and we all know that conway dalrymple is very vain." "upon my word i didn't know it," said johnny. "yes, you do. you must know it. when a man goes about in a purple velvet coat of course he is vain." "i certainly cannot defend a purple velvet coat." "that is what he wore when this girl sat to him this morning." "this morning was it?" "yes; this morning. they little think that they can do nothing without my knowing it. he was there for nearly four hours, and she was dressed up in a white robe as jael, with a turban on her head. jael, indeed! i call it very improper, and i am quite astonished that maria clutterbuck should have lent herself to such a piece of work. that maria was never very wise, of course we all know; but i thought that she had principle enough to have kept her from this kind of thing." "it's her fevered existence," said johnny. "that is just it. she must have excitement. it is like dram-drinking. and then, you know, they are always living in the crater of a volcano." "who are living in the crater of a volcano?" "the dobbs broughtons are. of course they are. there is no saying what day a smash may come. these city people get so used to it that they enjoy it. the risk is every thing to them." "they like to have a little certainty behind the risk, i fancy." "i'm afraid there is very little that's certain with dobbs broughton. but about this picture, mr. eames. i look to you to assist me there. it must be put a stop to. as to that i am determined. it must be--put a--stop to." and as miss demolines repeated these last words with tremendous emphasis she leant with both her elbows on a little table that stood between her and her visitor, and looked with all her eyes into his face. "i do hope that you agree with me in that," said she. "upon my word i do not see the harm of the picture," said he. "you do not?" "indeed, no. why should not dalrymple paint miss van siever as well as any other lady? it is his special business to paint ladies." "look here, mr. eames.--" and now miss demolines, as she spoke, drew her own seat closer to that of her companion and pushed away the little table. "do you suppose that conway dalrymple, in the usual way of his business, paints pictures of young ladies, of which their mothers know nothing? do you suppose that he paints them in ladies' rooms without their husbands' knowledge? and in the common way of his business does he not expect to be paid for his pictures?" "but what is all that to you and me, miss demolines?" "is the welfare of your friend nothing to you? would you like to see him become the victim of the artifice of such a girl as clara van siever?" "upon my word i think he is very well able to take care of himself." "and would you wish to see that poor creature's domestic hearth ruined and broken up?" "which poor creature?" "dobbs broughton, to be sure." "i can't pretend that i care very much for dobbs broughton," said john eames; "and you see i know so little about his domestic hearth." "oh, mr. eames!" "besides, her principles will pull her through. you told me yourself that mrs. broughton has high principles." "god forbid that i should say a word against maria clutterbuck," said miss demolines, fervently. "maria clutterbuck was my early friend, and though words have been spoken which never should have been spoken, and though things have been done which never should have been even dreamed of, still i will not desert maria clutterbuck in her hour of need. no, never!" "i'm sure you're what one may call a trump to your friends, miss demolines." "i have always endeavoured to be so, and always shall. you will find me so;--that is if you and i ever become intimate enough to feel that sort of friendship." "there's nothing on earth i should like better," said johnny. as soon as the words were out of his mouth he felt ashamed of himself. he knew that he did not in truth desire the friendship of miss demolines, and that any friendship with such a one would mean something different from friendship,--something that would be an injury to lily dale. a week had hardly passed since he had sworn a life's constancy to lily dale,--had sworn it, not to her only, but to himself; and now he was giving way to a flirtation with this woman, not because he liked it himself, but because he was too weak to keep out of it. "if that is true--," said miss demolines. "oh, yes; it's quite true," said johnny. "then you must earn my friendship by doing what i ask of you. that picture must not be painted. you must tell conway dalrymple as his friend that he must cease to carry on such an intrigue in another man's house." "you would hardly call painting a picture an intrigue; would you?" "certainly i would when it's kept a secret from the husband by the wife,--and from the mother by the daughter. if it cannot be stopped in any other way, i must tell mrs. van siever;--i must, indeed. i have such an abhorrence of the old woman, that i could not bring myself to speak to her,--but i should write to her. that's what i should do." "but what's the reason? you might as well tell me the real reason." had miss demolines been christened mary, or fanny, or jane, i think that john eames would now have called her by either of those names; but madalina was such a mouthful that he could not bring himself to use it at once. he had heard that among her intimates she was called maddy. he had an idea that he had heard dalrymple in old times talk of her as maddy mullins, and just at this moment the idea was not pleasant to him; at any rate he could not call her maddy as yet. "how am i to help you," he said, "unless i know all about it?" "i hate that girl like poison!" said miss demolines, confidentially, drawing herself very near to johnny as she spoke. "but what has she done?" "what has she done? i can't tell you what she has done. i could not demean myself by repeating it. of course we all know what she wants. she wants to catch conway dalrymple. that's as plain as anything can be. not that i care about that." "of course not," said johnny. "not in the least. it's nothing to me. i have known mr. dalrymple, no doubt, for a year or two, and i should be sorry to see a young man who has his good points sacrificed in that sort of way. but it is mere acquaintance between mr. dalrymple and me, and of course i cannot interfere." "she'll have a lot of money, you know." "he thinks so; does he? i suppose that is what maria has told him. oh, mr. eames, you don't know the meanness of women; you don't, indeed. men are so much more noble." "are they, do you think?" "than some women. i see women doing things that really disgust me; i do, indeed;--things that i wouldn't do myself, were it ever so;--striving to catch men in every possible way, and for such purposes! i wouldn't have believed it of maria clutterbuck. i wouldn't indeed. however, i will never say a word against her, because she has been my friend. nothing shall ever induce me." john eames before he left porchester terrace, had at last succeeded in calling his fair friend madalina, and had promised that he would endeavour to open the artist's eyes to the folly of painting his picture in broughton's house without broughton's knowledge. chapter xl. mr. toogood's ideas about society. a day or two after the interview which was described in the last chapter john eames dined with his uncle mr. thomas toogood, in tavistock square. he was in the habit of doing this about once a month, and was a great favourite both with his cousins and with their mother. mr. toogood did not give dinner-parties; always begging those whom he asked to enjoy his hospitality, to take pot luck, and telling young men whom he could treat with familiarity,--such as his nephew,--that if they wanted to be regaled à la russe they must not come to number , tavistock square. "a leg of mutton and trimmings; that will be about the outside of it," he would say; but he would add in a whisper,--"and a glass of port such as you don't get every day of your life." polly and lucy toogood were pretty girls, and merry withal, and certain young men were well contented to accept the attorney's invitations,--whether attracted by the promised leg of mutton, or the port wine, or the young ladies, i will not attempt to say. but it had so happened that one young man, a clerk from john eames' office, had partaken so often of the pot luck and port wine that polly toogood had conquered him by her charms, and he was now a slave, waiting an appropriate time for matrimonial sacrifice. william summerkin was the young man's name; and as it was known that mr. summerkin was to inherit a fortune amounting to five thousand pounds from his maiden aunt, it was considered that polly toogood was not doing amiss. "i'll give you three hundred pounds, my boy, just to put a few sheets on the beds," said toogood the father, "and when the old birds are both dead she'll have a thousand pounds out of the nest. that's the extent of polly's fortune;--so now you know." summerkin was, however, quite contented to have his own money settled on his darling polly, and the whole thing was looked at with pleasant and propitious eyes by the toogood connection. when john eames entered the drawing-room summerkin and polly were already there. summerkin blushed up to his eyes, of course, but polly sat as demurely as though she had been accustomed to having lovers all her life. "mamma will be down almost immediately, john," said polly as soon as the first greetings were over, "and papa has come in, i know." "summerkin," said johnny, "i'm afraid you left the office before four o'clock." "no, i did not," said summerkin. "i deny it." "polly," said her cousin, "you should keep him in better order. he will certainly come to grief if he goes on like this. i suppose you could do without him for half an hour." "i don't want him, i can assure you," said polly. "i have only been here just five minutes," said summerkin, "and i came because mrs. toogood asked me to do a commission." "that's civil to you, polly," said john. "it's quite as civil as i wish him to be," said polly. "and as for you, john, everybody knows that you're a goose, and that you always were a goose. isn't he always doing foolish things at the office, william?" but as john eames was rather a great man at the income-tax office, summerkin would not fall into his sweetheart's joke on this subject, finding it easier and perhaps safer to twiddle the bodkins in polly's work-basket. then toogood and mrs. toogood entered the room together, and the lovers were able to be alone again during the general greeting with which johnny was welcomed. "you don't know the silverbridge people,--do you?" asked mr. toogood. eames said that he did not. he had been at silverbridge more than once, but did not know very much of the silverbridgians. "because walker is coming to dine here. walker is the leading man in silverbridge." "and what is walker;--besides being leading man in silverbridge?" "he's a lawyer. walker and winthrop. everybody knows walker in barsetshire. i've been down at barchester since i saw you." "have you indeed?" said johnny. "and i'll tell you what i've been about. you know mr. crawley; don't you?" "the hogglestock clergyman that has come to grief? i don't know him personally. he's a sort of cousin by marriage, you know." "of course he is," said mr. toogood. "his wife is my first-cousin, and your mother's first-cousin. he came here to me the other day;--or rather to the shop. i had never seen the man before in my life, and a very queer fellow he is too. he came to me about this trouble of his, and of course i must do what i can for him. i got myself introduced to walker, who has the management of the prosecution, and i asked him to come here and dine to-day." "and what sort of fellow did you find crawley, uncle tom?" "such a queer fish;--so unlike anybody else in the world!" "but i suppose he did take the money?" said johnny. "i don't know what to say about it. i don't indeed. if he took it he didn't mean to steal it. i'm as sure that man didn't mean to steal twenty pounds as i ever could be of anything. perhaps i shall get something about it out of walker after dinner." then mr. walker entered the room. "this is very kind of you, mr. walker; very indeed. i take it quite as a compliment, your coming in in this sort of way. it's just pot luck, you know, and nothing else." mr. walker of course assured his host that he was delighted. "just a leg of mutton and a bottle of old port, mr. walker," continued toogood. "we never get beyond that in the way of dinner-giving; do we, maria?" but maria was at this moment descanting on the good luck of the family to her nephew,--and on one special piece of good luck which had just occurred. mr. summerkin's maiden aunt had declared her intention of giving up the fortune to the young people at once. she had enough to live upon, she said, and would therefore make two lovers happy. "and they're to be married on the first of may," said lucy,--that lucy of whom her father had boasted to mr. crawley that she knew byron by heart,--"and won't that be jolly? mamma is going out to look for a house for them to-morrow. fancy polly with a house of her own! won't it be stunning? i wish you were going to be married too, johnny." "don't be a fool, lucy." "of course i know that you are in love. i hope you are not going to give over being in love, johnny, because it is such fun." "wait till you're caught yourself, my girl." "i don't mean to be caught till some great swell comes this way. and as great swells never do come into tavistock square i shan't have a chance. i'll tell you what i would like; i'd like to have a corsair,--or else a giaour;--i think a giaour would be nicest. only a giaour wouldn't be a giaour here, you know. fancy a lover 'who thundering comes on blackest steed, with slackened bit and hoof of speed.' were not those the days to live in! but all that is over now, you know, and young people take houses in woburn place, instead of being locked up, or drowned, or married to a hideous monster behind a veil. i suppose it's better as it is, for some reasons." "i think it must be more jolly, as you call it, lucy." "i'm not quite sure. i know i'd go back and be medora, if i could. mamma is always telling polly that she must be careful about william's dinner. but conrad didn't care for his dinner. 'light toil! to cull and dress thy frugal fare! see, i have plucked the fruit that promised best.'" "and how often do you think conrad got drunk?" "i don't think he got drunk at all. there is no reason why he should, any more than william. come along, and take me down to dinner. after all, papa's leg of mutton is better than medora's apples, when one is as hungry as i am." the leg of mutton on this occasion consisted of soup, fish, and a bit of roast beef, and a couple of boiled fowls. "if i had only two children instead of twelve, mr. walker," said the host, "i'd give you a dinner à la russe." "i don't begrudge mrs. toogood a single arrow in her quiver on that score," said mr. walker. "people are getting to be so luxurious that one can't live up to them at all," said mrs. toogood. "we dined out here with some new comers in the square only last week. we had asked them before, and they came quite in a quiet way,--just like this; and when we got there we found they'd four kinds of ices after dinner!" "and not a morsel of food on the table fit to eat," said toogood. "i never was so poisoned in my life. as for soup,--it was just the washings of the pastrycook's kettle next door." "and how is one to live with such people, mr. walker?" continued mrs. toogood. "of course we can't ask them back again. we can't give them four kinds of ices." "but would that be necessary? perhaps they haven't got twelve children." "they haven't got any," said toogood, triumphing; "not a chick belonging to them. but you see one must do as other people do. i hate anything grand. i wouldn't want more than this for myself, if bank-notes were as plenty as curl-papers." "nobody has any curl-papers now, papa," said lucy. "but i can't bear to be outdone," said mr. toogood. "i think it's very unpleasant,--people living in that sort of way. it's all very well telling me that i needn't live so too;--and of course i don't. i can't afford to have four men in from the confectioner's, dressed a sight better than myself, at ten shillings a head. i can't afford it, and i don't do it. but the worst of it is that i suffer because other people do it. it stands to reason that i must either be driven along with the crowd, or else be left behind. now, i don't like either. and what's the end of it? why, i'm half carried away and half left behind." "upon my word, papa, i don't think you're carried away at all," said lucy. "yes, i am; and i'm ashamed of myself. mr. walker, i don't dare to ask you to drink a glass of wine with me in my own house,--that's what i don't,--because it's the proper thing for you to wait till somebody brings it you, and then to drink it by yourself. there is no knowing whether i mightn't offend you." and mr. toogood as he spoke grasped the decanter at his elbow. mr. walker grasped another at his elbow, and the two attorneys took their glass of wine together. "a very queer case this is of my cousin crawley's," said toogood to walker, when the ladies had left the dining-room. "a most distressing case. i never knew anything so much talked of in our part of the country." "he can't have been a popular man, i should say?" "no; not popular,--not in the ordinary way;--anything but that. nobody knew him personally before this matter came up." "but a good clergyman, probably? i'm interested in the case, of course, as his wife is my first-cousin. you will understand, however, that i know nothing of him. my father tried to be civil to him once, but crawley wouldn't have it at all. we all thought he was mad then. i suppose he has done his duty in his parish?" "he has quarrelled with the bishop, you know,--out and out." "has he, indeed? but i'm not sure that i think so very much about bishops, mr. walker." "that depends very much on the particular bishop. some people say ours isn't all that a bishop ought to be, while others are very fond of him." "and mr. crawley belongs to the former set; that's all?" said mr. toogood. "no, mr. toogood; that isn't all. the worst of your cousin is that he has an aptitude to quarrel with everybody. he is one of those men who always think themselves to be ill-used. now our dean, dr. arabin, has been his very old friend,--and as far as i can learn, a very good friend; but it seems that mr. crawley has done his best to quarrel with him too." "he spoke of the dean in the highest terms to me." "he may do that,--and yet quarrel with him. he'd quarrel with his own right hand, if he had nothing else to quarrel with. that makes the difficulty, you see. he'll take nobody's advice. he thinks that we're all against him." "i suppose the world has been heavy on him, mr. walker?" "the world has been very heavy on him," said john eames, who had now been left free to join the conversation, mr. summerkin having gone away to his lady-love. "you must not judge him as you do other men." "that is just it," said mr. walker. "and to what result will that bring us?" "that we ought to stretch a point in his favour," said toogood. "but why?" asked the attorney from silverbridge. "what do we mean when we say that one man isn't to be trusted as another? we simply imply that he is not what we call responsible." "and i don't think mr. crawley is responsible," said johnny. "then how can he be fit to have charge of a parish?" said mr. walker. "you see where the difficulty is. how it embarrasses one all round. the amount of evidence as to the cheque is, i think, sufficient to get a verdict in an ordinary case, and the crown has no alternative but so to treat it. then his friends come forward,--and from sympathy with his sufferings, i desire to be ranked among the number,--and say, 'ah, but you should spare this man, because he is not responsible.' were he one who filled no position requiring special responsibility, that might be very well. his friends might undertake to look after him, and the prosecution might perhaps be smothered. but mr. crawley holds a living, and if he escape he will be triumphant,--especially triumphant over the bishop. now, if he has really taken this money, and if his only excuse be that he did not know when he took it whether he was stealing or whether he was not,--for the sake of justice that ought not to be allowed." so spoke mr. walker. "you think he certainly did steal the money?" said johnny. "you have heard the evidence, no doubt?" said mr. walker. "i don't feel quite sure about it, yet," said mr. toogood. "quite sure of what?" said mr. walker. "that the cheque was dropped in his house." "it was at any rate traced to his hands." "i have no doubt about that," said toogood. "and he can't account for it," said walker. "a man isn't bound to show where he got his money," said johnny. "suppose that sovereign is marked," and johnny produced a coin from his pocket, "and i don't know but what it is; and suppose it is proved to have belonged to some one who lost it, and then to be traced to my hands,--how am i to say where i got it? if i were asked, i should simply decline to answer." "but a cheque is not a sovereign, mr. eames," said walker. "it is presumed that a man can account for the possession of a cheque. it may be that a man should have a cheque in his possession and not be able to account for it, and should yet be open to no grave suspicion. in such a case a jury has to judge. here is the fact: that mr. crawley has the cheque, and brings it into use some considerable time after it is drawn; and the additional fact that the drawer of the cheque had lost it, as he thought, in mr. crawley's house, and had looked for it there, soon after it was drawn, and long before it was paid. a jury must judge; but, as a lawyer, i should say that the burden of disproof lies with mr. crawley." "did you find out anything, mr. walker," said toogood, "about the man who drove mr. soames that day?" "no,--nothing." "the trap was from 'the dragon' at barchester, i think?" "yes,--from 'the dragon of wantly.'" "a respectable sort of house?" "pretty well for that, i believe. i've heard that the people are poor," said mr. walker. "somebody told me that they'd had a queer lot about the house, and that three or four of them left just then. i think i heard that two or three men from the place went to new zealand together. it just came out in conversation while i was in the inn-yard." "i have never heard anything of it," said mr. walker. "i don't say that it can help us." "i don't see that it can," said mr. walker. after that there was a pause, and mr. toogood pushed about the old port, and made some very stinging remarks as to the claret-drinking propensities of the age. "gladstone claret the most of it is, i fancy," said mr. toogood. "i find that port wine which my father bought in the wood five-and-twenty years ago is good enough for me." mr. walker said that it was quite good enough for him, almost too good, and that he thought that he had had enough of it. the host threatened another bottle, and was up to draw the cork,--rather to the satisfaction of john eames, who liked his uncle's port,--but mr. walker stopped him. "not a drop more for me," he said. "you are quite sure?" "quite sure." and mr. walker moved towards the door. "it's a great pity, mr. walker," said toogood, going back to the old subject, "that this dean and his wife should be away." "i understand that they will both be home before the trial," said mr. walker. "yes,--but you know how very important it is to learn beforehand exactly what your witnesses can prove and what they can't prove. and moreover, though neither the dean nor his wife might perhaps be able to tell us anything themselves, they might help to put us on the proper scent. i think i'll send somebody after them. i think i will." "it would be a heavy expense, mr. toogood." "yes," said toogood, mournfully, thinking of the twelve children; "it would be a heavy expense. but i never like to stick at a thing when it ought to be done. i think i shall send a fellow after them." "i'll go," said johnny. "how can you go?" "i'll make old snuffle give me leave." "but will that lessen the expense?" said mr. walker. "well, yes, i think it will," said john, modestly. "my nephew is a rich man, mr. walker," said toogood. "that alters the case," said mr. walker. and thus, before they left the dining-room, it was settled that john eames should be taught his lesson and should seek both mrs. arabin and dr. arabin on their travels. chapter xli. grace crawley at home. on the morning after his return from london mr. crawley showed symptoms of great fatigue, and his wife implored him to remain in bed. but this he would not do. he would get up, and go out down to the brickfields. he had specially bound himself,--he said, to see that the duties of the parish did not suffer by being left in his hands. the bishop had endeavoured to place them in other hands, but he had persisted in retaining them. as he had done so he could allow no weariness of his own to interfere,--and especially no weariness induced by labours undertaken on his own behalf. the day in the week had come round on which it was his wont to visit the brickmakers, and he would visit them. so he dragged himself out of his bed and went forth amidst the cold storm of a harsh wet march morning. his wife well knew when she heard his first word on that morning that one of those terrible moods had come upon him which made her doubt whether she ought to allow him to go anywhere alone. latterly there had been some improvement in his mental health. since the day of his encounter with the bishop and mrs. proudie, though he had been as stubborn as ever, he had been less apparently unhappy, less depressed in spirits. and the journey to london had done him good. his wife had congratulated herself on finding him able to set about his work like another man, and he himself had experienced a renewal, if not of hope, at any rate, of courage, which had given him a comfort which he had recognized. his common-sense had not been very striking in his interview with mr. toogood, but yet he had talked more rationally then and had given a better account of the matter in hand than could have been expected from him for some weeks previously. but now that the labour was over, a reaction had come upon him, and he went away from his house having hardly spoken a word to his wife after the speech which he made about his duty to his parish. i think that at this time nobody saw clearly the working of his mind,--not even his wife, who studied it very closely, who gave him credit for all his high qualities, and who had gradually learned to acknowledge to herself that she must distrust his judgment in many things. she knew that he was good and yet weak, that he was afflicted by false pride and supported by true pride, that his intellect was still very bright, yet so dismally obscured on many sides as almost to justify people in saying that he was mad. she knew that he was almost a saint, and yet almost a castaway through vanity and hatred of those above him. but she did not know that he knew all this of himself also. she did not comprehend that he should be hourly telling himself that people were calling him mad and were so calling him with truth. it did not occur to her that he could see her insight into him. she doubted as to the way in which he had got the cheque,--never imagining, however, that he had wilfully stolen it;--thinking that his mind had been so much astray as to admit of his finding it and using it without wilful guilt,--thinking also, alas, that a man who could so act was hardly fit for such duties as those which were entrusted to him. but she did not dream that this was precisely his own idea of his own state and of his own position;--that he was always inquiring of himself whether he was not mad; whether, if mad, he was not bound to lay down his office; that he was ever taxing himself with improper hostility to the bishop,--never forgetting for a moment his wrath against the bishop and the bishop's wife, still comforting himself with his triumph over the bishop and the bishop's wife,--but, for all that, accusing himself of a heavy sin and proposing to himself to go to the palace and there humbly to relinquish his clerical authority. such a course of action he was proposing to himself, but not with any realized idea that he would so act. he was as a man who walks along a river's bank thinking of suicide, calculating how best he might kill himself,--whether the river does not offer an opportunity too good to be neglected, telling himself that for many reasons he had better do so, suggesting to himself that the water is pleasant and cool, and that his ears would soon be deaf to the harsh noises of the world,--but yet knowing, or thinking that he knows, that he never will kill himself. so it was with mr. crawley. though his imagination pictured to himself the whole scene,--how he would humble himself to the ground as he acknowledged his unfitness, how he would endure the small-voiced triumph of the little bishop, how, from the abjectness of his own humility, even from the ground on which he would be crouching, he would rebuke the loud-mouthed triumph of the bishop's wife; though there was no touch wanting to the picture which he thus drew,--he did not really propose to himself to commit this professional suicide. his wife, too, had considered whether it might be in truth becoming that he should give up his clerical duties, at any rate for a while; but she had never thought that the idea was present to his mind also. mr. toogood had told him that people would say that he was mad; and mr. toogood had looked at him, when he declared for the second time that he had no knowledge whence the cheque had come to him, as though his words were to be regarded as the words of some sick child. "mad!" he said to himself, as he walked home from the station that night. "well; yes; and what if i am mad? when i think of all that i have endured my wonder is that i should not have been mad sooner." and then he prayed,--yes, prayed, that in his madness the devil might not be too strong for him, and that he might be preserved from some terrible sin of murder or violence. what, if the idea should come to him in his madness that it would be well for him to slay his wife and his children? only that was wanting to make him of all men the most unfortunate. he went down among the brickmakers on the following morning, leaving the house almost without a morsel of food, and he remained at hoggle end for the greater part of the day. there were sick persons there with whom he prayed, and then he sat talking with rough men while they ate their dinners, and he read passages from the bible to women while they washed their husbands' clothes. and for a while he sat with a little girl in his lap teaching the child her alphabet. if it were possible for him he would do his duty. he would spare himself in nothing, though he might suffer even to fainting. and on this occasion he did suffer,--almost to fainting, for as he returned home in the afternoon he was forced to lean from time to time against the banks on the road-side, while the cold sweat of weakness trickled down his face, in order that he might recover strength to go on a few yards. but he would persevere. if god would but leave to him mind enough for his work, he would go on. no personal suffering should deter him. he told himself that there had been men in the world whose sufferings were sharper even than his own. of what sort had been the life of the man who had stood for years on the top of a pillar? but then the man on the pillar had been honoured by all around him. and thus, though he had thought of the man on the pillar to encourage himself by remembering how lamentable had been that man's suffering, he came to reflect that after all his own sufferings were perhaps keener than those of the man on the pillar. when he reached home, he was very ill. there was no doubt about it then. he staggered to his arm-chair, and stared at his wife first, then smiled at her with a ghastly smile. he trembled all over, and when food was brought to him he could not eat it. early on the next morning the doctor was by his bedside, and before that evening came he was delirious. he had been at intervals in this state for nearly two days, when mrs. crawley wrote to grace, and though she had restrained herself from telling everything, she had written with sufficient strength to bring grace at once to her father's bedside. he was not so ill when grace arrived but that he knew her, and he seemed to receive some comfort from her coming. before she had been in the house an hour she was reading greek to him, and there was no wandering in his mind as to the due emphasis to be given to the plaints of the injured heroines, or as to the proper meaning of the choruses. and as he lay with his head half buried in the pillows, he shouted out long passages, lines from tragic plays by the score, and for a while seemed to have all the enjoyment of a dear old pleasure placed newly within his reach. but he tired of this after a while, and then, having looked round to see that his wife was not in the room, he began to talk of himself. "so you have been at allington, my dear?" "yes, papa." "is it a pretty place?" "yes, papa;--very pretty." "and they were good to you?" "yes, papa;--very good." "had they heard anything there about--me; of this trial that is to come on?" "yes, papa; they had heard of it." "and what did they say? you need not think that you will shock me by telling me. they cannot say worse there than people have said here,--or think worse." "they don't think at all badly of you at allington, papa." "but they must think badly of me if the magistrates were right?" "they suppose that there has been a mistake;--as we all think." "they do not try men at the assizes for mistakes." "that you have been mistaken, i mean;--and the magistrates mistaken." "both cannot have been mistaken, grace." "i don't know how to explain myself, papa; but we all know that it is very sad, and are quite sure that you have never meant for one moment to do anything that was wrong." "but people when they are,--you know what i mean, grace; when they are not themselves,--do things that are wrong without meaning it." then he paused, while she remained standing by him with her hand on the back of his. she was looking at his face, which had been turned towards her while they were reading together, but which now was so far moved that she knew that his eyes could not be fixed upon hers. "of course if the bishop orders it, it shall be so," he said. "it is quite enough for me that he is the bishop." "what has the bishop ordered, papa?" "nothing at all. it is she who does it. he has given no opinion about it. of course not. he has none to give. it is the woman. you go and tell her from me that in such a matter i will not obey the word of any woman living. go at once, when i tell you." then she knew that her father's mind was wandering, and she knelt down by the bedside, still holding his hand. "grace," he said. "yes, papa, i am here." "why do you not do what i tell you?" and he sat upright in his bed. "i suppose you are afraid of the woman?" "i should be afraid of her, dear papa." "i was not afraid of her. when she spoke to me, i would have nothing to say to her;--not a word; not a word;--not a word." as he said this he waved his hands about. "but as for him,--if it must be, it must. i know i'm not fit for it. of course i am not. who is? but what has he ever done that he should be a dean? i beat him at everything; almost at everything. he got the newdegate, and that was about all. upon my word i think that was all." "but dr. arabin loves you truly, dear papa." "love me! psha! does he ever come here to tea, as he used to do? no! i remember buttering toast for him down on my knees before the fire, because he liked it,--and keeping all the cream for him. he should have had my heart's blood if he wanted it. but now;--look at his books, grace. it's the outside of them he cares about. they are all gilt, but i doubt if he ever reads. as for her,--i will not allow any woman to tell me my duty. no;--by my maker; not even your mother, who is the best of women. and as for her, with her little husband dangling at her apron-strings, as a call-whistle to be blown into when she pleases,--that she should dare to teach me my duty! no! the men in the jury-box may decide it how they will. if they can believe a plain story, let them! if not,--let them do as they please. i am ready to bear it all." "dear papa, you are tired. will you not try to sleep?" "tell mrs. proudie what i say; and as for arabin's money, i took it. i know i took it. what would you have had me do? shall i--see them--all--starve?" then he fell back upon his bed and did sleep. the next day he was better, and insisted upon getting out of bed, and on sitting in his old arm-chair over the fire. and the greek books were again had out; and grace, not at all unwillingly, was put through her facings. "if you don't take care, my dear," he said, "jane will beat you yet. she understands the force of the verbs better than you do." "i am very glad that she is doing so well, papa. i am sure i shall not begrudge her her superiority." "ah, but you should begrudge it her!" jane was sitting by at the time, and the two sisters were holding each other by the hand. "always to be best;--always to be in advance of others. that should be your motto." "but we can't both be best, papa," said jane. "you can both strive to be best. but grace has the better voice. i remember when i knew the whole of the antigone by heart. you girls should see which can learn it first." "it would take such a long time," said jane. "you are young, and what can you do better with your leisure hours? fie, jane! i did not expect that from you. when i was learning it i had eight or nine pupils, and read an hour a day with each of them. but i think that nobody works now as they used to work then. where is your mamma? tell her i think i could get out as far as mrs. cox's, if she would help me to dress." soon after this he was in bed again, and his head was wandering; but still they knew that he was better than he had been. "you are more of a comfort to your papa than i can be," said mrs. crawley to her eldest daughter that night as they sat together, when everybody else was in bed. "do not say that, mamma. papa does not think so." "i cannot read greek plays to him as you can do. i can only nurse him in his illness and endeavour to do my duty. do you know, grace, that i am beginning to fear that he half doubts me?" "oh, mamma!" "that he half doubts me, and is half afraid of me. he does not think as he used to do, that i am altogether, heart and soul, on his side. i can see it in his eye as he watches me. he thinks that i am tired of him,--tired of his sufferings, tired of his poverty, tired of the evil which men say of him. i am not sure but what he thinks that i suspect him." "of what, mamma?" "of general unfitness for the work he has to do. the feeling is not strong as yet, but i fear that he will teach himself to think that he has an enemy at his hearth,--not a friend. it will be the saddest mistake he ever made." "he told me to-day that you were the best of women. those were his very words." "were they, my dear? i am glad at least that he should say so to you. he has been better since you came;--a great deal better. for one day i was frightened; but i am sorry now that i sent for you." "i am so glad, mamma; so very glad." "you were happy there,--and comfortable. and if they were glad to have you, why should i have brought you away?" "but i was not happy;--even though they were very good to me. how could i be happy there when i was thinking of you and papa and jane here at home? whatever there is here, i would sooner share it with you than be anywhere else,--while this trouble lasts." "my darling!--it is a great comfort to see you again." "only that i knew that one less in the house would be a saving to you i should not have gone. when there is unhappiness, people should stay together;--shouldn't they, mamma?" they were sitting quite close to each other, on an old sofa in a small upstairs room, from which a door opened into the larger chamber in which mr. crawley was lying. it had been arranged between them that on this night mrs. crawley should remain with her husband, and that grace should go to her bed. it was now past one o'clock, but she was still there, clinging to her mother's side, with her mother's arm drawn round her. "mamma," she said, when they had both been silent for some ten minutes, "i have got something to tell you." [illustration: "mamma, i've got something to tell you."] "to-night?" "yes, mamma; to-night, if you will let me." "but you promised that you would go to bed. you were up all last night." "i am not sleepy, mamma." "of course you shall tell me what you please, dearest. is it a secret? is it something i am not to repeat?" "you must say how that ought to be, mamma. i shall not tell it to any one else." "well, dear?" "sit comfortably, mamma;--there; like that, and let me have your hand. it's a terrible story to have to tell." "a terrible story, grace?" "i mean that you must not draw away from me. i shall want to feel that you are quite close to me. mamma, while i was at allington, major grantly came there." "did he, my dear?" "yes, mamma." "did he know them before?" "no, mamma; not at the small house. but he came there--to see me. he asked me--to be his wife. don't move, mamma." "my darling child! i won't move, dearest. well; and what did you say to him? god bless him, at any rate. may god bless him, because he has seen with a true eye, and felt with a noble instinct. it is something, grace, to have been wooed by such a man at such a time." "mamma, it did make me feel proud; it did." "you had known him well before,--of course? i knew that you and he were friends, grace." "yes, we were friends. i always liked him. i used not to know what to think about him. miss anne prettyman told me that it would be so; and once before i thought so myself." "and had you made up your mind what to say to him?" "yes, i had then. but i did not say it." "did not say what you had made up your mind to say?" "that was before all this had happened to papa." "i understand you, dearest." "when miss anne prettyman told me that i should be ready with my answer, and when i saw that miss prettyman herself used to let him come to the house and seemed to wish that i should see him when he came, and when he once was--so very gentle and kind, and when he said that he wanted me to love edith,-- oh, mamma!" "yes, darling, i know. of course you loved him." "yes, mamma. and i do love him. how could one not love him?" "i love him,--for loving you." "but, mamma, one is bound not to do a harm to any one that one loves. so when he came to allington i told him that i could not be his wife." "did you, my dear?" "yes; i did. was i not right? ought i to go to him to bring a disgrace upon all the family, just because he is so good that he asks me? shall i injure him because he wants to do me a service?" "if he loves you, grace, the service he will require will be your love in return." "that is all very well, mamma,--in books; but i do not believe it in reality. being in love is very nice, and in poetry they make it out to be everything. but i do not think i should make major grantly happy if when i became his wife his own father and mother would not see him. i know i should be so wretched, myself, that i could not live." "but would it be so?" "yes;--i think it would. and the archdeacon is very rich, and can leave all his money away from major grantly if he pleases. think what i should feel if i were the cause of edith losing her fortune!" "but why do you suppose these terrible things?" "i have a reason for supposing them. this must be a secret. miss anne prettyman wrote to me." "i wish miss anne prettyman's hand had been in the fire." "no, mamma; no; she was right. would not i have wished, do you think, to have learned all the truth about the matter before i answered him? besides, it made no difference. i could have made no other answer while papa is under such a terrible ban. it is no time for us to think of being in love. we have got to love each other. isn't it so, mamma?" the mother did not answer in words, but slipping down on her knees before her child threw her arms round her girl's body in a close embrace. "dear mamma; dearest mamma; this is what i wanted;--that you should love me!" "love you, my angel!" "and trust me;--and that we should understand each other, and stand close by each other. we can do so much to comfort one another;--but we cannot comfort other people." "he must know that best himself, grace;--but what did he say more to you?" "i don't think he said anything more." "he just left you then?" "he said one thing more." "and what was that?" "he said;--but he had no right to say it." "what was it, dear?" "that he knew i loved him, and that therefore-- but, mamma, do not think of that. i will never be his wife,--never, in opposition to his family." "but he did not take your answer?" "he must take it, mamma. he shall take it. if he can be stubborn, so can i. if he knows how to think of me more than himself, i can think of him and edith more than of myself. that is not quite all, mamma. then he wrote to me. there is his letter." mrs. crawley read the letter. "i suppose you answered it?" "yes, i answered it. it was very bad, my letter. i should think after that he will never want to have anything more to say to me. i tried for two days, but i could not write a nice letter." "but what did you say?" "i don't in the least remember. it does not in the least signify now, but it was such a bad letter." "i daresay it was very nice." "it was terribly stiff, and all about a gentleman." "all about a gentleman! what do you mean, my dear?" "gentleman is such a frightful word to have to use to a gentleman; but i did not know what else to say. mamma, if you please, we won't talk about it;--not about the letter i mean. as for him, i'll talk about him for ever if you like it. i don't mean to be a bit broken-hearted." "it seems to me that he is a gentleman." "yes, mamma, that he is; and it is that which makes me so proud. when i think of it, i can hardly hold myself. but now i've told you everything, and i'll go away, and go to bed." chapter xlii. mr. toogood travels professionally. [illustration] mr. toogood paid another visit to barsetshire, in order that he might get a little further information which he thought would be necessary before despatching his nephew upon the traces of dean arabin and his wife. he went down to barchester after his work was over by an evening train, and put himself up at "the dragon of wantly," intending to have the whole of the next day for his work. mr. walker had asked him to come and take a return pot-luck dinner with mrs. walker at silverbridge; and this he had said that he would do. after having "rummaged about for tidings" in barchester, as he called it, he would take the train for silverbridge, and would get back to town in time for business on the third day. "one day won't be much, you know," he said to his partner, as he made half an apology for absenting himself on business which was not to be in any degree remunerative. "that sort of thing is very well when one does it without any expense," said crump. "so it is," said toogood; "and the expense won't make it any worse." he had made up his mind, and it was not probable that anything mr. crump might say would deter him. he saw john eames before he started. "you'll be ready this day week, will you?" john eames promised that he would. "it will cost you some forty pounds, i should say. by george,--if you have to go on to jerusalem, it will cost you more." in answer to this, johnny pleaded that it would be as good as any other tour to him. he would see the world. "i'll tell you what," said toogood; "i'll pay half. only you mustn't tell crump. and it will be quite as well not to tell maria." but johnny would hear nothing of this scheme. he would pay the entire cost of his own journey. he had lots of money, he said, and would like nothing better. "then i'll run down," said toogood, "and rummage up what tidings i can. as for writing to the dean, what's the good of writing to a man when you don't know where he is? business letters always lie at hotels for two months, and then come back with double postage. from all i can hear, you'll stumble on her before you find him. if we do nothing else but bring him back, it will be a great thing to have the support of such a friend in the court. a barchester jury won't like to find a man guilty who is hand-and-glove with the dean." mr. toogood reached the "dragon" about eleven o'clock, and allowed the boots to give him a pair of slippers and a candlestick. but he would not go to bed just at that moment. he would go into the coffee-room first, and have a glass of hot brandy-and-water. so the hot brandy-and-water was brought to him, and a cigar, and as he smoked and drank he conversed with the waiter. the man was a waiter of the ancient class, a gray-haired waiter, with seedy clothes, and a dirty towel under his arm; not a dapper waiter, with black shiny hair, and dressed like a guest for a dinner-party. there are two distinct classes of waiters, and as far as i have been able to perceive, the special status of the waiter in question cannot be decided by observation of the class of waiter to which he belongs. in such a town as barchester you may find the old waiter with the dirty towel in the head inn, or in the second-class inn, and so you may the dapper waiter. or you may find both in each, and not know which is senior waiter and which junior waiter. but for service i always prefer the old waiter with the dirty towel, and i find it more easy to satisfy him in the matter of sixpences when my relations with the inn come to an end. "have you been here long, john?" said mr. toogood. "a goodish many years, sir." "so i thought, by the look of you. one can see that you belong in a way to the place. you do a good deal of business here, i suppose, at this time of the year?" "well, sir, pretty fair. the house ain't what it used to be, sir." "times are bad at barchester,--are they?" "i don't know much about the times. it's the people is worse than the times, i think. they used to like to have a little bit of dinner now and again at a hotel;--and a drop of something to drink after it." "and don't they like it now?" "i think they like it well enough, but they don't do it. i suppose it's their wives as don't let 'em come out and enjoy theirselves. there used to be the goose and glee club;--that was once a month. they've gone and clean done away with themselves,--that club has. there's old bumpter in the high street,--he's the last of the old geese. they died off, you see, and when mr. biddle died they wouldn't choose another president. a club for having dinner, sir, ain't nothing without a president." "i suppose not." "and there's the freemasons. they must meet, you know, sir, in course, because of the dooties. but if you'll believe me, sir, they don't so much as wet their whistles. they don't indeed. it always used to be a supper, and that was once a month. now they pays a rent for the use of the room! who is to get a living out of that, sir?--not in the way of a waiter, that is." "if that's the way things are going on i suppose the servants leave their places pretty often?" "i don't know about that, sir. a man may do a deal worse than 'the dragon of wantly.' them as goes away to better themselves, often worses themselves, as i call it. i've seen a good deal of that." "and you stick to the old shop?" "yes, sir; i've been here fifteen year, i think it is. there's a many goes away, as doesn't go out of their own heads, you know, sir." "they get the sack, you mean?" "there's words between them and master,--or more likely, missus. that's where it is. servants is so foolish. i often tell 'em how wrong folks are to say that soft words butter no parsnips, and hard words break no bones." "i think you've lost some of the old hands here since this time last year, john?" "you knows the house then, sir?" "well;--i've been here before." "there was four of them went, i think it's just about twelve months back, sir." "there was a man in the yard i used to know, and last time i was down here, i found that he was gone." "there was one of 'em out of the yard, and two out of the house. master and them had got to very high words. there was poor scuttle, who had been post-boy at 'the compasses' before he came here." "he went away to new zealand, didn't he?" "b'leve he did, sir; or to some foreign parts. and anne, as was under-chambermaid here; she went with him, fool as she was. they got theirselves married and went off, and he was well nigh as old as me. but seems he'd saved a little money, and that goes a long way with any girl." "was he the man who drove mr. soames that day the cheque was lost?" mr. toogood asked this question perhaps a little too abruptly. at any rate he obtained no answer to it. the waiter said he knew nothing about mr. soames, or the cheque, and the lawyer suspecting that the waiter was suspecting him, finished his brandy-and-water and went to bed. [illustration: mr. toogood and the old waiter.] early on the following morning he observed that he was specially regarded by a shabby-looking man, dressed in black, but in a black suit that was very old, with a red nose, whom he had seen in the hotel on the preceding day; and he learned that this man was a cousin of the landlord,--one dan stringer,--who acted as a clerk in the hotel bar. he took an opportunity also of saying a word to mr. stringer the landlord,--whom he found to be a somewhat forlorn and gouty individual, seated on cushions in a little parlour behind the bar. after breakfast he went out, and having twice walked round the cathedral close and inspected the front of the palace and looked up at the windows of the prebendaries' houses, he knocked at the door of the deanery. the dean and mrs. arabin were on the continent, he was told. then he asked for mr. harding, having learned that mr. harding was mrs. arabin's father, and that he lived at the deanery. mr. harding was at home, but was not very well, the servant said. mr. toogood, however, persevered, sending up his card, and saying that he wished to have a few minutes' conversation with mr. harding on very particular business. he wrote a word upon his card before giving it to the servant,--"about mr. crawley." in a few minutes he was shown into the library, and had hardly time, while looking at the shelves, to remember what mr. crawley had said of his anger at the beautiful bindings, before an old man, very thin and very pale, shuffled into the room. he stooped a good deal, and his black clothes were very loose about his shrunken limbs. he was not decrepit, nor did he seem to be one who had advanced to extreme old age; but yet he shuffled rather than walked, hardly raising his feet from the ground. mr. toogood, as he came forward to meet him, thought that he had never seen a sweeter face. there was very much of melancholy in it, of that soft sadness of age which seems to acknowledge, and in some sort to regret, the waning oil of life; but the regret to be read in such faces has in it nothing of the bitterness of grief; there is no repining that the end has come, but simply a touch of sorrow that so much that is dear must be left behind. mr. harding shook hands with his visitor, and invited him to sit down, and then seated himself, folding his hands together over his knees, and he said a few words in a very low voice as to the absence of his daughter and of the dean. "i hope you will excuse my troubling you," said mr. toogood. "it is no trouble at all,--if i could be of any use. i don't know whether it is proper, but may i ask whether you call as,--as,--as a friend of mr. crawley's?" "altogether as a friend, mr. harding." "i'm glad of that; though of course i am well aware that the gentlemen engaged on the prosecution must do their duty. still,--i don't know,--somehow i would rather not hear them speak of this poor gentleman before the trial." "you know mr. crawley, then?" "very slightly,--very slightly indeed. he is a gentleman not much given to social habits, and has been but seldom here. but he is an old friend whom my son-in-law loves dearly." "i'm glad to hear you say that, mr. harding. perhaps before i go any further i ought to tell you that mrs. crawley and i are first-cousins." "oh, indeed. then you are a friend." "i never saw him in my life till a few days ago. he is very queer you know,--very queer indeed. i'm a lawyer, mr. harding, practising in london;--an attorney, that is." at each separate announcement mr. harding bowed, and when toogood named his special branch of his profession mr. harding bowed lower than before, as though desirous of showing that he had great respect for attorneys. "and of course i'm anxious, if only out of respect for the family, that my wife's cousin should pull through this little difficulty, if possible." "and for the sake of the poor man himself too, and for his wife, and his children;--and for the sake of the cloth." "exactly; taking it all together it's such a pity, you know. i think, mr. harding, he can hardly have intended to steal the money." "i'm sure he did not." "it's very hard to be sure of anybody, mr. harding;--very hard." "i feel quite sure that he did not. he has been a most pious, hard-working clergyman. i cannot bring myself to think that he is guilty. what does the latin proverb say? 'no one of a sudden becomes most base.'" "but the temptation, mr. harding, was very strong. he was awfully badgered about his debts. that butcher in silverbridge was playing the mischief with him." "all the butchers in barsetshire could not make an honest man steal money, and i think that mr. crawley is an honest man. you'll excuse me for being a little hot about one of my own order." "why; he's my cousin,--or rather, my wife's. but the fact is, mr. harding, we must get hold of the dean as soon as possible; and i'm going to send a gentleman after him." "to send a gentleman after him?" said mr. harding, almost in dismay. "yes; i think that will be best." "i'm afraid he'll have to go a long way, mr. toogood." "the dean, i'm told, is in jerusalem." "i'm afraid he is,--or on his journey there. he's to be there for the easter week, and sunday week will be easter sunday. but why should the gentleman want to go to jerusalem after the dean?" then mr. toogood explained as well as he was able that the dean might have something to say on the subject which would serve mr. crawley's defence. "we shouldn't leave any stone unturned," said mr. toogood. "as far as i can judge, crawley still thinks,--or half thinks,--that he got the cheque from your son-in-law." mr. harding shook his head sorrowfully. "i'm not saying he did, you know," continued mr. toogood. "i can't see myself how it is possible;--but still, we ought not to leave any stone unturned. and mrs. arabin,--can you tell me at all where we shall find her?" "has she anything to do with it, mr. toogood?" "i can't quite say that she has, but it's just possible. as i said before, mr. harding, we mustn't leave a stone unturned. they're not expected here till the end of april?" "about the th or th, i think." "and the assizes are the th. the judges come into the city on that day. it will be too late to wait till then. we must have our defence ready you know. can you say where my friend will find mrs. arabin?" mr. harding began nursing his knee, patting it and being very tender to it, as he sat meditating with his head on one side,--meditating not so much as to the nature of his answer as to that of the question. could it be necessary that any emissary from a lawyer's office should be sent after his daughter? he did not like the idea of his eleanor being disturbed by questions as to a theft. though she had been twice married and had a son who was now nearly a man, still she was his eleanor. but if it was necessary on mr. crawley's behalf, of course it must be done. "her last address was at paris, sir; but i think she has gone on to florence. she has friends there, and she purposes to meet the dean at venice on his return." then mr. harding turned the table and wrote on a card his daughter's address. "i suppose mrs. arabin must have heard of the affair?" said mr. toogood. "she had not done so when she last wrote. i mentioned it to her the other day, before i knew that she had left paris. if my letters and her sister's letters have been sent on to her, she must know it now." then mr. toogood got up to take his leave. "you will excuse me for troubling you, i hope, mr. harding." "oh, sir, pray do not mention that. it is no trouble, if one could only be of any service." "one can always try to be of service. in these affairs so much is to be done by rummaging about, as i always call it. there have been many theatrical managers, you know, mr. harding, who have usually made up their pieces according to the dresses they have happened to have in their wardrobes." "have there, indeed, now? i never should have thought of that." "and we lawyers have to do the same thing." "not with your clothes, mr. toogood?" "not exactly with our clothes;--but with our information." "i do not quite understand you, mr. toogood." "in preparing a defence we have to rummage about and get up what we can. if we can't find anything that suits us exactly, we are obliged to use what we do find as well as we can. i remember, when i was a young man, an ostler was to be tried for stealing some oats in the borough; and he did steal them too, and sold them at a rag-shop regularly. the evidence against him was as plain as a pike-staff. all i could find out was that on a certain day a horse had trod on the fellow's foot. so we put it to the jury whether the man could walk as far as the rag-shop with a bag of oats when he was dead lame;--and we got him off." "did you though?" said mr. harding. "yes, we did." "and he was guilty?" "he had been at it regularly for months." "dear, dear, dear! wouldn't it have been better to have had him punished for the fault,--gently; so as to warn him of the consequences of such doings?" "our business was to get him off,--and we got him off. it's my business to get my cousin's husband off, if i can, and we must do it, by hook or crook. it's a very difficult piece of work, because he won't let us employ a barrister. however, i shall have one in the court and say nothing to him about it at all. good-by, mr. harding. as you say, it would be a thousand pities that a clergyman should be convicted of a theft;--and one so well connected too." mr. harding, when he was left alone, began to turn the matter over in his mind and to reflect whether the thousand pities of which mr. toogood had spoken appertained to the conviction of the criminal, or the doing of the crime. "if he did steal the money i suppose he ought to be punished, let him be ever so much a clergyman," said mr. harding to himself. but yet,--how terrible it would be! of clergymen convicted of fraud in london he had often heard; but nothing of the kind had ever disgraced the diocese to which he belonged since he had known it. he could not teach himself to hope that mr. crawley should be acquitted if mr. crawley were guilty;--but he could teach himself to believe that mr. crawley was innocent. something of a doubt had crept across his mind as he talked to the lawyer. mr. toogood, though mrs. crawley was his cousin, seemed to believe that the money had been stolen; and mr. toogood as a lawyer ought to understand such matters better than an old secluded clergyman in barchester. but, nevertheless, mr. toogood might be wrong; and mr. harding succeeded in satisfying himself at last that he could not be doing harm in thinking that mr. toogood was wrong. when he had made up his mind on this matter he sat down and wrote the following letter, which he addressed to his daughter at the post-office in florence:-- deanery, march --, --. dearest nelly,-- when i wrote on tuesday i told you about poor mr. crawley, that he was the clergyman in barsetshire of whose misfortune you read an account in galignani's messenger,--and i think susan must have written about it also, because everybody here is talking of nothing else, and because, of course, we know how strong a regard the dean has for mr. crawley. but since that something has occurred which makes me write to you again,--at once. a gentleman has just been here, and has indeed only this moment left me, who tells me that he is an attorney in london, and that he is nearly related to mrs. crawley. he seems to be a very good-natured man, and i daresay he understands his business as a lawyer. his name is toogood, and he has come down as he says to get evidence to help the poor gentleman on his trial. i cannot understand how this should be necessary, because it seems to me that the evidence should all be wanted on the other side. i cannot for a moment suppose that a clergyman and a gentleman such as mr. crawley should have stolen money, and if he is innocent i cannot understand why all this trouble should be necessary to prevent a jury finding him guilty. mr. toogood came here because he wanted to see the dean,--and you also. he did not explain, as far as i can remember, why he wanted to see you; but he said it would be necessary, and that he was going to send off a messenger to find you first, and the dean afterwards. it has something to do with the money which was given to mr. crawley last year, and which, if i remember right, was your present. but of course mr. toogood could not have known anything about that. however, i gave him the address,--poste restante, florence,--and i daresay that somebody will make you out before long, if you are still stopping at florence. i did not like letting him go without telling you about it, as i thought that a lawyer's coming to you would startle you. the bairns are quite well, as i told you in my other letter, and miss jones says that little elly is as good as gold. they are with me every morning and evening, and behave like darling angels, as they are. posy is my own little jewel always. you may be quite sure i do nothing to spoil them. god bless you, dearest nelly, your most affectionate father, septimus harding. after this he wrote another letter to his other daughter, mrs. grantly, telling her also of mr. toogood's visit; and then he spent the remainder of the day thinking over the gravity of the occurrence. how terrible would it be if a beneficed clergyman in the diocese should really be found guilty of theft by a jury from the city! and then he had always heard so high a character of this man from his son-in-law. no,--it was impossible to believe that mr. crawley had in truth stolen a cheque for twenty pounds! mr. toogood could get no other information in barchester, and went on to silverbridge early in the afternoon. he was half disposed to go by hogglestock and look up his cousin, whom he had never seen, and his cousin's husband, upon whose business he was now intent; but on reflection he feared that he might do more harm than good. he had quite appreciated the fact that mr. crawley was not like other men. "the man's not above half-saved," he had said to his wife,--meaning thereby to insinuate that the poor clergyman was not in full possession of his wits. and, to tell the truth of mr. toogood, he was a little afraid of his relative. there was a something in mr. crawley's manner, in spite of his declared poverty, and in spite also of his extreme humility, which seemed to announce that he expected to be obeyed when he spoke on any point with authority. mr. toogood had not forgotten the tone in which mr. crawley had said to him, "sir, this thing you cannot do." and he thought that, upon the whole, he had better not go to hogglestock on this occasion. when at silverbridge, he began at once to "rummage about." his chief rummaging was to be done at mr. walker's table; but before dinner he had time to call upon the magistrate's clerk, and ask a few questions as to the proceedings at the sitting from which mr. crawley was committed. he found a very taciturn old man, who was nearly as difficult to deal with in any rummaging process as a porcupine. but, nevertheless, at last he reached a state of conversation which was not absolutely hostile. mr. toogood pleaded that he was the poor man's cousin,--pleaded that, as the family lawyer, he was naturally the poor man's protector at such a time as the present,--pleaded also that as the poor man was so very poor, no one else could come forward on his behalf,--and in this way somewhat softened the hard sharpness of the old porcupine's quills. but after all this, there was very little to be learned from the old porcupine. "there was not a magistrate on the bench," he said, "who had any doubt that the evidence was sufficient to justify them in sending the case to the assizes. they had all regretted,"--the porcupine said in his softest moment,--"that the gentleman had come there without a legal adviser." "ah, that's been the mischief of it all!" said mr. toogood, dashing his hand against the porcupine's mahogany table. "but the facts were so strong, mr. toogood!" "nobody there to soften 'em down, you know," said mr. toogood, shaking his head. very little more than this was learned from the porcupine; and then mr. toogood went away, and prepared for mr. walker's dinner. mr. walker had invited dr. tempest and miss anne prettyman and major grantly to meet mr. toogood, and had explained, in a manner intended to be half earnest and half jocose, that though mr. toogood was an attorney, like himself, and was at this moment engaged in a noble way on behalf of his cousin's husband, without any idea of receiving back even the money which he would be out of pocket; still he wasn't quite,--not quite, you know--"not quite so much of a gentleman as i am,"--mr. walker would have said, had he spoken out freely that which he insinuated. but he contented himself with the emphasis he put upon the "not quite," which expressed his meaning fully. and mr. walker was correct in his opinion of mr. toogood. as regards the two attorneys i will not venture to say that either of them was not a "perfect gentleman." a perfect gentleman is a thing which i cannot define. but undoubtedly mr. walker was a bigger man in his way than was mr. toogood in his, and did habitually consort in the county of barsetshire with men of higher standing than those with whom mr. toogood associated in london. it seemed to be understood that mr. crawley was to be the general subject of conversation, and no one attempted to talk about anything else. indeed, at this time, very little else was talked about in that part of the county;--not only because of the interest naturally attaching to the question of the suspected guilt of a parish clergyman, but because much had become lately known of mr. crawley's character, and because it was known also that an internecine feud had arisen between him and the bishop. it had undoubtedly become the general opinion that mr. crawley had picked up and used a cheque which was not his own;--that he had, in fact, stolen it; but there was, in spite of that belief, a general wish that he might be acquitted and left in his living. and when the tidings of mr. crawley's victory over the bishop at the palace had become bruited about, popular sympathy went with the victor. the theft was, as it were, condoned, and people made excuses which were not always rational, but which were founded on the instincts of true humanity. and now the tidings of another stage in the battle, as fought against mr. crawley by the bishop, had gone forth through the county, and men had heard that the rural dean was to be instructed to make inquiries which should be preliminary to proceedings against mr. crawley in an ecclesiastical court. dr. tempest, who was now about to meet mr. toogood at mr. walker's, was the rural dean to whom mr. crawley would have to submit himself in any such inquiry; but dr. tempest had not as yet received from the bishop any official order on the subject. "we are so delighted to think that you have taken up your cousin's case," said mrs. walker to mr. toogood, almost in a whisper. "he is not just my cousin, himself," said mr. toogood, "but of course it's all the same thing. and as to taking up his case, you see, my dear madam, he won't let me take it up." "i thought you had. i thought you were down here about it?" "only on the sly, mrs. walker. he has such queer ideas that he will not allow a lawyer to be properly employed; and you can't conceive how hard that makes it. do you know him, mrs. walker?" "we know his daughter grace." and then mrs. walker whispered something further, which we may presume to have been an intimation that the gentleman opposite,--major grantly,--was supposed by some people to be very fond of miss grace crawley. "quite a child, isn't she?" said toogood, whose own daughter, now about to be married, was three or four years older than grace. "she's beyond being a child, i think. of course she is young." "but i suppose this affair will knock all that on the head," said the lawyer. "i do not know how that may be; but they do say he is very much attached to her. the major is a man of family, and of course it would be very disagreeable if mr. crawley were found guilty." "very disagreeable, indeed; but, upon my word, mrs. walker, i don't know what to say about it." "you think it will go against him, mr. toogood?" mr. toogood shook his head, and on seeing this, mrs. walker sighed deeply. "i can only say that i have heard nothing from the bishop as yet," said dr. tempest, after the ladies had left the room. "of course, if he thinks well to order it, the inquiry must be made." "but how long would it take?" asked mr. walker. "three months, i should think,--or perhaps more. of course crawley would do all that he could to delay us, and i am not at all sure that we should be in any very great hurry ourselves." "who are the 'we,' doctor?" said mr. walker. "i cannot make such an inquiry by myself, you know. i suppose the bishop would ask me to select two or four other clergymen to act with me. that's the usual way of doing it. but you may be quite sure of this, walker; the assizes will be over, and the jury have found their verdict long before we have settled our preliminaries." "and what will be the good of your going on after that?" "only this good:--if the unfortunate man be convicted--" "which he won't," said mr. toogood, who thought it expedient to put on a bolder front in talking of the matter to the rural dean, than he had assumed in his whispered conversation with mrs. walker. "i hope not, with all my heart," said the doctor. "but, perhaps, for the sake of the argument, the supposition may be allowed to pass." "certainly, sir," said mr. toogood. "for the sake of the argument, it may pass." "if he be convicted, then, i suppose, there will be an end of the question. he would be sentenced for not less, i should say, than twelve months; and after that--" "and would be as good a parson of hogglestock when he came out of prison as when he went in," said mr. walker. "the conviction and judgment in a civil court would not touch his temporality." "certainly not," said mr. toogood. "of course not," said the doctor. "we all know that; and in the event of mr. crawley coming back to his parish it would be open to the bishop to raise the question as to his fitness for the duties." "why shouldn't he be as fit as any one else?" said mr. toogood. "simply because he would have been found to be a thief," said the doctor. "you must excuse me, mr. toogood, but it's only for the sake of the argument." "i don't see what that has to do with it," said mr. toogood. "he would have undergone his penalty." "it is preferable that a man who preaches from a pulpit should not have undergone such a penalty," said the doctor. "but in practice, under such circumstances,--which we none of us anticipate, mr. toogood,--the living should no doubt be vacated. mr. crawley would probably hardly wish to come back. the jury will do their work before we can do ours,--will do it on a much better base than any we can have; and, when they have done it, the thing ought to be finished. if the jury acquit him, the bishop cannot proceed any further. if he be found guilty i think that the resignation of the living must follow." "it is all spite, then, on the bishop's part?" said the major. "not at all," said the doctor. "the poor man is weak; that is all. he is driven to persecute because he cannot escape persecution himself. but it may really be a question whether his present proceeding is not right. if i were bishop i should wait till the trial was over; that is all." from this and from much more that was said during the evening on the same subject mr. toogood gradually learned the position which mr. crawley and the question of mr. crawley's guilt really held in the county, and he returned to town resolved to go on with the case. "i'll have a barrister down express, and i'll defend him in his own teeth," he said to his wife. "there'll be a scene in court, i daresay, and the man will call upon his own counsel to hold his tongue and shut up his brief; and, as far as i can see, counsel in such a case would have no alternative. but there would come an explanation,--how crawley was too honourable to employ a man whom he could not pay, and there would be a romance, and it would all go down with the jury. one wants sympathy in such a case as that--not evidence." "and how much will it cost, tom?" said maria, dolefully. "only a trifle. we won't think of that yet. there's john eames is going all the way to jerusalem, out of his pocket." "but johnny hasn't got twelve children, tom." "one doesn't have a cousin in trouble every day," said toogood. "and then you see there's something very pretty in the case. it's quite a pleasure getting it up." chapter xliii. mr. crosbie goes into the city. "i've known the city now for more than ten years, mr. crosbie, and i never knew money to be so tight as it is at this moment. the best commercial bills going can't be done under nine, and any other kind of paper can't so much as get itself looked at." thus spoke mr. musselboro. he was seated in dobbs broughton's arm-chair in dobbs broughton's room in hook court, on the hind legs of which he was balancing himself comfortably; and he was communicating his experience in city matters to our old friend, adolphus crosbie,--of whom we may surmise that he would not have been there, at that moment, in hook court, if things had been going well with him. it was now past eleven o'clock, and he should have been at his office at the west end. his position in his office was no doubt high enough to place him beyond the reach of any special inquiry as to such absences; but it is generally felt that when the crosbies of the west end have calls into the city about noon, things in the world are not going well with them. the man who goes into the city to look for money is generally one who does not know where to get money when he wants it. mr. musselboro on this occasion kept his hat on his head, and there was something in the way in which he balanced his chair which was in itself an offence to mr. crosbie's personal dignity. it was hardly as yet two months since mr. dobbs broughton had assured him in that very room that there need not be the slightest anxiety about his bill. of course it could be renewed,--the commission being duly paid. as mr. dobbs broughton explained on that occasion, that was his business. there was nothing he liked so much as renewing bills for such customers as mr. crosbie; and he was very candid at that meeting, explaining how he did this branch of his business, raising money on his own credit at four or five per cent., and lending it on his own judgment at eight or nine. mr. crosbie did not feel himself then called upon to exclaim that what he was called upon to pay was about twelve, perfectly understanding the comfort and grace of euphony; but he had turned it over in his mind, considering whether twelve per cent. was not more than he ought to be mulcted for the accommodation he wanted. now, at the moment, he would have been glad to get it from mr. musselboro, without further words, for twenty. things had much changed with adolphus crosbie when he was driven to make morning visits to such a one as mr. musselboro with the view of having a bill renewed for two hundred and fifty pounds. in his early life he had always had the merit of being a careful man as to money. in some other respects he had gone astray very foolishly,--as has been partly explained in our earlier chapters; but up to the date of his marriage with lady alexandrina de courcy he had never had dealings in hook court or in any such locality. money troubles had then come upon him. lady alexandrina, being the daughter of a countess, had high ideas; and when, very shortly after his marriage, he had submitted to a separation from his noble wife, he had found himself and his income to be tied up inextricably in the hands of one mr. mortimer gazebee, a lawyer who had married one of his wife's sisters. it was not that mr. gazebee was dishonest; nor did crosbie suspect him of dishonesty; but the lawyer was so wedded to the interest of the noble family with which he was connected, that he worked for them all as an inferior spider might be supposed to work, which, from the infirmity of its nature, was compelled by its instincts to be catching flies always for superior spiders. mr. mortimer gazebee had in this way entangled mr. crosbie in his web on behalf of those noble spiders, the de courcys, and our poor friend, in his endeavour to fight his way through the web, had fallen into the hands of the hook court firm of mrs. van siever, dobbs broughton, and musselboro. "mr. broughton told me when i was last here," said crosbie, "that there would be no difficulty about it." "and it was renewed then; wasn't it?" "of course it was,--for two months. but he was speaking of a continuation of renewal." "i'm afraid we can't do it, mr. crosbie. i'm afraid we can't, indeed. money is so awful tight." "of course i must pay what you choose to charge me." "it isn't that, mr. crosbie. the bill is out for collection, and must be collected. in times like these we must draw ourselves in a little, you know. two hundred and fifty pounds isn't a great deal of money, you will say; but every little helps, you know; and, besides, of course we go upon a system. business is business, and must not be made pleasure of. i should have had a great deal of pleasure in doing this for you, but it can't be done in the way of business." "when will broughton be here?" "he may be in at any time;--i can't say when. i suppose he's down at the court now." "what court?" "capel court." "i suppose i can see him there?" said crosbie. "if you catch him you can see him, of course. but what good will that do you, mr. crosbie? i tell you that we can't do it for you. if broughton was here this moment it couldn't make the slightest difference." now mr. crosbie had an idea that mr. musselboro, though he sat in dobbs broughton's seat and kept on his hat, and balanced his chair on two legs, was in truth nothing more than a clerk. he did not quite understand the manner in which the affairs of the establishment were worked, though he had been informed that mrs. van siever was one of the partners. that dobbs broughton was the managing man, who really did the business, he was convinced; and he did not therefore like to be answered peremptorily by such a one as musselboro. "i should wish to see mr. broughton," he said. "you can call again,--or you can go down to the court if you like it. but you may take this as an answer from me that the bill can't be renewed by us." at this moment the door of the room was opened, and dobbs broughton himself came into it. his face was not at all pleasant, and any one might have seen with half an eye that the money-market was a great deal tighter than he liked it to be. "here is mr. crosbie here,--about that bill," said musselboro. "mr. crosbie must take up his bill; that's all," said dobbs broughton. "but it doesn't suit me to take it up," said crosbie. "then you must take it up without suiting you," said dobbs broughton. it might have been seen, i said, with half an eye, that mr. broughton did not like the state of the money-market; and it might also be seen with the other half that he had been endeavouring to mitigate the bitterness of his dislike by alcoholic aid. musselboro at once perceived that his patron and partner was half drunk, and crosbie was aware that he had been drinking. but, nevertheless, it was necessary that something more should be said. the bill would be due to-morrow,--was payable at crosbie's bankers; and, as mr. crosbie too well knew, there were no funds there for the purpose. and there were other purposes, very needful, for which mr. crosbie's funds were at the present moment unfortunately by no means sufficient. he stood for a few moments thinking what he would do;--whether he would leave the drunken man and his office and let the bill take its chance, or whether he would make one more effort for an arrangement. he did not for a moment believe that broughton himself was subject to any pecuniary difficulty. broughton lived in a big house, as rich men live, and had a name for commercial success. it never occurred to crosbie that it was a matter of great moment to dobbs broughton himself that the bill should be taken up. crosbie still thought that musselboro was his special enemy, and that broughton had joined musselboro in his hostility simply because he was too drunk to know better. "you might, at any rate, answer me civilly, mr. broughton," he said. "i know nothing about civility with things as they are at present," said broughton. "civil by ----! there's nothing so civil as paying money when you owe it. musselboro, reach me down the decanter and some glasses. perhaps mr. crosbie will wet his whistle." "he don't want any wine,--nor you either," said musselboro. "what's up now?" said broughton, staggering across the room towards a cupboard, in which it was his custom to keep a provision of that comfort which he needed at the present moment. "i suppose i may stand a glass of wine to a fellow in my own room, if i like it." "i will take no wine, thank you," said crosbie. "then you can do the other thing. when i ask a gentleman to take a glass of wine, there is no compulsion. but about the bill there is compulsion. do you understand that? you may drink, or let it alone; but pay you must. why, mussy, what d'ye think?--there's carter, ricketts and carter;--i'm blessed if carter just now didn't beg for two months, as though two months would be all the world to him, and that for a trumpery five hundred pounds. i never saw money like it is now; never." to this appeal, musselboro made no reply, not caring, perhaps, at the present moment to sustain his partner. he still balanced himself in his chair, and still kept his hat on his head. even mr. crosbie began to perceive that mr. musselboro's genius was in the ascendant in hook court. "i can hardly believe," said crosbie, "that things can be so bad that i cannot have a bill for two hundred and fifty pounds renewed when i am willing to pay for the accommodation. i have not done much in the way of bills, but i never had one dishonoured yet." "don't let this be the first," said dobbs broughton. "not if i can prevent it," said crosbie. "but, to tell you the truth, mr. broughton, my bill will be dishonoured unless i can have it renewed. if it does not suit you to do it, i suppose you can recommend me to some one who can make it convenient." "why don't you go to your bankers?" said musselboro. "i never did ask my bankers for anything of the kind." "then you should try what your credit with them is worth," said broughton. "it isn't worth much here, as you can perceive. ha, ha, ha!" crosbie, when he heard this, became very angry; and musselboro, perceiving this, got out of his chair, so that he might be in readiness to prevent any violence, if violence were attempted. "it really is no good your staying here," he said. "you see that broughton has been drinking. there's no knowing what he may say or do." "you be blowed," said broughton, who had taken the arm-chair as soon as musselboro had left it. "but you may believe me in the way of business," continued musselboro, "when i tell you that it really does not suit us to renew the bill. we're pressed ourselves, and we must press others." "and who will do it for me?" said crosbie, almost in despair. "there are burton and bangles there, the wine-merchants down in the yard; perhaps they may accommodate you. it's all in their line; but i'm told they charge uncommon dear." "i don't know messrs. burton and bangles," said crosbie. "that needn't stand in your way. you tell them where you come from, and they'll make inquiry. if they think it's about right, they'll give you the money; and if they don't, they won't." mr. crosbie then left the office without exchanging another word with dobbs broughton, and went down into hook court. as he descended the stairs he turned over in his mind the propriety of going to messrs. burton and bangles with the view of relieving himself from his present difficulty. he knew that it was ruinous. dealings even with such men as dobbs broughton and musselboro, whom he presumed to be milder in their greed than burton and bangles, were, all of them, steps on the road to ruin. but what was he to do? if his bill were dishonoured, the fact would certainly become known at his office, and he might even ultimately be arrested. in the doorway at the bottom of the stairs he stood for some moments, looking over at burton and bangles', and he did not at all like the aspect of the establishment. inside the office he could see a man standing with a cigar in his mouth, very resplendent with a new hat,--with a hat remarkable for the bold upward curve of its rim, and this man was copiously decorated with a chain and seals hanging about widely over his waistcoat. he was leaning with his back against the counter, and was talking to some one on the other side of it. there was something in the man's look and manner that was utterly repulsive to crosbie. he was more vulgar to the eye even than musselboro, and his voice, which crosbie could hear as he stood in the other doorway, was almost as detestable as that of dobbs broughton in his drunkenness. crosbie did not doubt that this was either burton or bangles, and that the man standing inside was either bangles or burton. he could not bring himself to accost these men and tell them of his necessities, and propose to them that they should relieve him. in spite of what musselboro had just said to him, he could not believe it possible that he should succeed, were he to do so without some introduction. so he left hook court and went out into the lane, hearing as he went the loud voice of the man with the turned-up hat and the chain. but what was he to do? at the outset of his pecuniary troubles, when he first found it necessary to litigate some question with the de courcy people, and withstand the web which mortimer gazebee wove so assiduously, his own attorney had introduced him to dobbs broughton, and the assistance which he had needed had come to him, at any rate, without trouble. he did not especially like mr. broughton; and when mr. broughton first invited him to come and eat a little bit of dinner, he had told himself with painful remorse that in his early days he had been accustomed to eat his little bits of dinner with people of a different kind. but there had been nothing really painful in this. since his marriage with a daughter of the de courcys,--by which marriage he had intended to climb to the highest pinnacle of social eating and drinking,--he had gradually found himself to be falling in the scale of such matters, and could bring himself to dine with a dobbs broughton without any violent pain. but now he had fallen so low that dobbs broughton had insulted him, and he was in such distress that he did not know where to turn for ten pounds. mr. gazebee had beaten him at litigation, and his own lawyer had advised him that it would be foolish to try the matter further. in his marriage with the noble daughter of the de courcys he had allowed the framers of the de courcy settlement to tie him up in such a way that now, even when chance had done so much for him in freeing him from his wife, he was still bound to the de courcy faction. money had been paid away,--on his behalf, as alleged by mr. gazebee,--like running water; money for furniture, money for the lease of a house, money when he had been separated from his wife, money while she was living abroad. it had seemed to him that he had been made to pay for the entire support of the female moiety of the de courcy family which had settled itself at baden-baden, from the day, and in some respects from before the day, on which his wife had joined that moiety. he had done all in his power to struggle against these payments, but every such struggle had only cost him more money. mr. gazebee had written to him the civilest notes; but every note seemed to cost him money,--every word of each note seemed to find its way into some bill. his wife had died and her body had been brought back, with all the pomp befitting the body of an earl's daughter, that it might be laid with the old de courcy dust,--at his expense. the embalming of her dear remains had cost a wondrous sum, and was a terrible blow upon him. all these items were showered upon him by mr. gazebee with the most courteously worded demands for settlement as soon as convenient. and then, when he applied that lady alexandrina's small fortune should be made over to him,--according to a certain agreement under which he had made over all his possessions to his wife, should she have survived him,--mr. gazebee expressed a mild opinion that he was wrong in his law, and blandly recommended an amicable lawsuit. the amicable lawsuit was carried on. his own lawyer seemed to throw him over. mr. gazebee was successful in everything. no money came to him. money was demanded from him on old scores and on new scores,--and all that he received to console him for what he had lost was a mourning ring with his wife's hair,--for which, with sundry other mourning rings, he had to pay,--and an introduction to mr. dobbs broughton. to mr. dobbs broughton he owed five hundred pounds; and as regarded a bill for the one-half of that sum which was due to-morrow, mr. dobbs broughton had refused to grant him renewal for a single month! i know no more uncomfortable walking than that which falls to the lot of men who go into the city to look for money, and who find none. of all the lost steps trodden by men, surely the steps lost after that fashion are the most melancholy. it is not only that they are so vain, but that they are accompanied by so killing a sense of shame! to wait about in dingy rooms, which look on to bare walls, and are approached through some hook court; or to keep appointments at a low coffee-house, to which trystings the money-lender will not trouble himself to come unless it pleases him; to be civil, almost suppliant, to a cunning knave whom the borrower loathes; to be refused thrice, and then cheated with his eyes open on the fourth attempt; to submit himself to vulgarity of the foulest kind, and to have to seem to like it; to be badgered, reviled, and at last accused of want of honesty by the most fraudulent of mankind; and at the same time to be clearly conscious of the ruin that is coming,--this is the fate of him who goes into the city to find money, not knowing where it is to be found! crosbie went along the lane into lombard street, and then he stood still for a moment to think. though he knew a good deal of affairs in general, he did not quite know what would happen to him if his bill should be dishonoured. that somebody would bring it to him noted, and require him instantly to put his hand into his pocket and bring out the amount of the bill, plus the amount of certain expenses, he thought that he did know. and he knew that were he in trade he would become a bankrupt; and he was well aware that such an occurrence would prove him to be insolvent. but he did not know what his creditors would immediately have the power of doing. that the fact of the bill having been dishonoured would reach the board under which he served,--and, therefore, also the fact that he had had recourse to such bill transactions,--this alone was enough to fill him with dismay. in early life he had carried his head so high, he had been so much more than a mere government clerk, that the idea of the coming disgrace almost killed him. would it not be well that he should put an end to himself, and thus escape? what was there in the world now for which it was worth his while to live? lily, whom he had once gained, and by that gain had placed himself high in all hopes of happiness and riches,--whom he had then thrown away from him, and who had again seemed to be almost within his reach,--lily had so refused him that he knew not how to approach her with a further prayer. and, had she not refused him, how could he have told her of his load of debt? as he stood at the corner where the lane runs into lombard street, he came for a while to think almost more of lily than of his rejected bill. then, as he thought of both his misfortunes together, he asked himself whether a pistol would not conveniently put an end to them together. at that moment a loud, harsh voice greeted his ear. "hallo, crosbie, what brings you so far east? one does not often see you in the city." it was the voice of sir raffle buffle, which in former days had been very odious to crosbie's ears;--for sir raffle buffle had once been the presiding genius of the office to which crosbie still belonged. "no, indeed, not very often," said crosbie, smiling. who can tell, who has not felt it, the pain that goes to the forcing of such smiles? but sir raffle was not an acutely observant person, and did not see that anything was wrong. "i suppose you're doing a little business?" said sir raffle. "if a man has kept a trifle of money by him, this certainly is the time for turning it. you have always been wide awake about such things." "no, indeed," said crosbie. if he could only make up his mind that he would shoot himself, would it not be a pleasant thing to inflict some condign punishment on this odious man before he left the world? but crosbie knew that he was not going to shoot himself, and he knew also that he had no power of inflicting condign punishment on sir raffle buffle. he could only hate the man, and curse him inwardly. "ah, ha!" said sir raffle. "you wouldn't be here unless you knew where a good thing is to be picked up. but i must be off. i'm on the rocky mountain canal company directory. i'm not above taking my two guineas a day. good-by, my boy. remember me to old optimist." and so sir raffle passed on, leaving crosbie still standing at the corner of the lane. what was he to do? this interruption had at least seemed to drive lily from his mind, and to send his ideas back to the consideration of his pecuniary difficulties. he thought of his own bank, a west-end establishment at which he was personally known to many of the clerks, and where he had been heretofore treated with great consideration. but of late his balances had been very low, and more than once he had been reminded that he had overdrawn his account. he knew well that the distinguished firm of bounce, bounce, and bounce would not cash a bill for him or lend him money without security. he did not even dare to ask them to do so. on a sudden he jumped into a cab, and was driven back to his office. a thought had come upon him. he would throw himself upon the kindness of a friend there. hitherto he had contrived to hold his head so high above the clerks below him, so high before the commissioners who were above him, that none there suspected him to be a man in difficulty. it not seldom happens that a man's character stands too high for his interest,--so high that it cannot be maintained, and so high that any fall will be dangerous. and so it was with crosbie and his character at the general committee office. the man to whom he was now thinking of applying as his friend, was a certain mr. butterwell, who had been his predecessor in the secretary's chair, and who now filled the less onerous but more dignified position of a commissioner. mr. crosbie had somewhat despised mr. butterwell, and had of late years not been averse to showing that he did so. he had snubbed mr. butterwell, and mr. butterwell, driven to his wits' ends, had tried a fall or two with him. in all these struggles crosbie had had the best of it, and butterwell had gone to the wall. nevertheless, for the sake of official decency, and from certain wise remembrances of the sources of official comfort and official discomfort, mr. butterwell had always maintained a show of outward friendship with the secretary. they smiled and were gracious, called each other butterwell and crosbie, and abstained from all cat-and-dog absurdities. nevertheless, it was the frequently expressed opinion of every clerk in the office that mr. butterwell hated mr. crosbie like poison. this was the man to whom crosbie suddenly made up his mind that he would have recourse. as he was driven back to his office he resolved that he would make a plunge at once at the difficulty. he knew that butterwell was fairly rich, and he knew also that he was good-natured,--with that sort of sleepy good-nature which is not active for philanthropic purposes, but which dislikes to incur the pain of refusing. and then mr. butterwell was nervous, and if the thing was managed well, he might be cheated out of an assent, before time had been given him in which to pluck up courage for refusing. but crosbie doubted his own courage also,--fearing that if he gave himself time for hesitation he would hesitate, and that, hesitating, he would feel the terrible disgrace of the thing and not do it. so, without going to his own desk, or ridding himself of his hat, he went at once to butterwell's room. when he opened the door, he found mr. butterwell alone, reading the times. "butterwell," said he, beginning to speak before he had even closed the door, "i have come to you in great distress. i wonder whether you can help me; i want you to lend me five hundred pounds? it must be for not less than three months." mr. butterwell dropped the paper from his hands, and stared at the secretary over his spectacles. chapter xliv. "i suppose i must let you have it." [illustration] crosbie had been preparing the exact words with which he assailed mr. butterwell for the last quarter of an hour, before they were uttered. there is always a difficulty in the choice, not only of the words with which money should be borrowed, but of the fashion after which they should be spoken. there is the slow deliberate manner, in using which the borrower attempts to carry the wished-for lender along with him by force of argument, and to prove that the desire to borrow shows no imprudence on his own part, and that a tendency to lend will show none on the part of the intended lender. it may be said that this mode fails oftener than any other. there is the piteous manner,--the plea for commiseration. "my dear fellow, unless you will see me through now, upon my word i shall be very badly off." and this manner may be divided again into two. there is the plea piteous with a lie, and the plea piteous with a truth. "you shall have it again in two months as sure as the sun rises." that is generally the plea piteous with a lie. or it may be as follows: "it is only fair to say that i don't quite know when i can pay it back." this is the plea piteous with a truth, and upon the whole i think that this is generally the most successful mode of borrowing. and there is the assured demand,--which betokens a close intimacy. "old fellow, can you let me have thirty pounds? no? just put your name, then, on the back of this, and i'll get it done in the city." the worst of that manner is, that the bill so often does not get itself done in the city. then there is the sudden attack,--that being the manner to which crosbie had recourse in the present instance. that there are other modes of borrowing by means of which youth becomes indebted to age, and love to respect, and ignorance to experience, is a matter of course. it will be understood that i am here speaking only of borrowing and lending between the butterwells and crosbies of the world. "i have come to you in great distress," said crosbie. "i wonder whether you can help me. i want you to lend me five hundred pounds." mr. butterwell, when he heard the words, dropped the paper which he was reading from his hand, and stared at crosbie over his spectacles. "five hundred pounds," he said. "dear me, crosbie; that's a large sum of money." "yes, it is,--a very large sum. half that is what i want at once; but i shall want the other half in a month." "i thought that you were always so much above the world in money matters. gracious me;--nothing that i have heard for a long time has astonished me more. i don't know why, but i always thought that you had your things so very snug." crosbie was aware that he had made one very great step towards success. the idea had been presented to mr. butterwell's mind, and had not been instantly rejected as a scandalously iniquitous idea, as an idea to which no reception could be given for a moment. crosbie had not been treated as was the needy knife-grinder, and had ground to stand upon while he urged his request. "i have been so pressed since my marriage," he said, "that it has been impossible for me to keep things straight." "but lady alexandrina--" "yes; of course; i know. i do not like to trouble you with my private affairs;--there is nothing, i think, so bad as washing one's dirty linen in public;--but the truth is, that i am only now free from the rapacity of the de courcys. you would hardly believe me if i told you what i've had to pay. what do you think of two hundred and forty-five pounds for bringing her body over here, and burying it at de courcy?" "i'd have left it where it was." "and so would i. you don't suppose i ordered it to be done. poor dear thing. if it could do her any good, god knows i would not begrudge it. we had a bad time of it when we were together, but i would have spared nothing for her, alive or dead, that was reasonable. but to make me pay for bringing the body over here, when i never had a shilling with her! by george, it was too bad. and that oaf john de courcy,--i had to pay his travelling bill too." "he didn't come to be buried;--did he?" "it's too disgusting to talk of, butterwell; it is indeed. and when i asked for her money that was settled upon me,--it was only two thousand pounds,--they made me go to law, and it seems there was no two thousand pounds to settle. if i like, i can have another lawsuit with the sisters, when the mother is dead. oh, butterwell, i have made such a fool of myself. i have come to such shipwreck! oh, butterwell, if you could but know it all." "are you free from the de courcys now?" "i owe gazebee, the man who married the other woman, over a thousand pounds. but i pay that off at two hundred a year, and he has a policy on my life." "what do you owe that for?" "don't ask me. not that i mind telling you;--furniture, and the lease of a house, and his bill for the marriage settlement,--d---- him." "god bless me. they seem to have been very hard upon you." "a man doesn't marry an earl's daughter for nothing, butterwell. and then to think what i lost! it can't be helped now, you know. as a man makes his bed he must lie on it. i am sometimes so mad with myself when i think over it all,--that i should like to blow my brains out." "you must not talk in that way, crosbie. i hate to hear a man talk like that." "i don't mean that i shall. i'm too much of a coward, i fancy." a man who desires to soften another man's heart, should always abuse himself. in softening a woman's heart, he should abuse her. "but life has been so bitter with me for the last three years! i haven't had an hour of comfort;--not an hour. i don't know why i should trouble you with all this, butterwell. oh,--about the money; yes; that's just how i stand. i owed gazebee something over a thousand pounds, which is arranged as i have told you. then there were debts, due by my wife,--at least some of them were, i suppose,--and that horrid, ghastly funeral,--and debts, i don't doubt, due by the cursed old countess. at any rate, to get myself clear i raised something over four hundred pounds, and now i owe five which must be paid, part to-morrow, and the remainder this day month." "and you've no security?" "not a rag, not a shred, not a line, not an acre. there's my salary, and after paying gazebee what comes due to him, i can manage to let you have the money within twelve months,--that is, if you can lend it me. i can just do that and live; and if you will assist me with the money, i will do so. that's what i've brought myself to by my own folly." "five hundred pounds is such a large sum of money." "indeed it is." "and without any security!" "i know, butterwell, that i've no right to ask for it. i feel that. of course i should pay you what interest you please." "money's about seven now," said butterwell. "i've not the slightest objection to seven per cent.," said crosbie. "but that's on security," said butterwell. "you can name your own terms," said crosbie. mr. butterwell got out of his chair, and walked about the room with his hands in his pockets. he was thinking at that moment what mrs. butterwell would say to him. "will an answer do to-morrow morning?" he said. "i would much rather have it to-day," said crosbie. then mr. butterwell took another turn about the room. "i suppose i must let you have it," he said. "butterwell," said crosbie, "i'm eternally obliged to you. it's hardly too much to say that you've saved me from ruin." "of course i was joking about interest," said butterwell. "five per cent. is the proper thing. you'd better let me have a little acknowledgment. i'll give you the first half to-morrow." they were genuine tears which filled crosbie's eyes, as he seized hold of the senior's hands. "butterwell," he said, "what am i to say to you?" "nothing at all,--nothing at all." "your kindness makes me feel that i ought not to have come to you." "oh, nonsense. by-the-by, would you mind telling thompson to bring those papers to me which i gave him yesterday? i promised optimist i would read them before three, and it's past two now." so saying he sat himself down at his table, and crosbie felt that he was bound to leave the room. mr. butterwell, when he was left alone, did not read the papers which thompson brought him; but sat, instead, thinking of his five hundred pounds. "just put them down," he said to thompson. so the papers were put down, and there they lay all that day and all the next. then thompson took them away again, and it is to be hoped that somebody read them. five hundred pounds! it was a large sum of money, and crosbie was a man for whom mr. butterwell in truth felt no very strong affection. "of course he must have it now," he said to himself. "but where should i be if anything happened to him?" and then he remembered that mrs. butterwell especially disliked mr. crosbie,--disliked him because she knew that he snubbed her husband. "but it's hard to refuse, when one man has known another for more than ten years." then he comforted himself somewhat with the reflection, that crosbie would no doubt make himself more pleasant for the future than he had done lately, and with a second reflection, that crosbie's life was a good life,--and with a third, as to his own great goodness, in assisting a brother officer. nevertheless, as he sat looking out of the omnibus-window, on his journey home to putney, he was not altogether comfortable in his mind. mrs. butterwell was a very prudent woman. but crosbie was very comfortable in his mind on that afternoon. he had hardly dared to hope for success, but he had been successful. he had not even thought of butterwell as a possible fountain of supply, till his mind had been brought back to the affairs of his office, by the voice of sir raffle buffle at the corner of the street. the idea that his bill would be dishonoured, and that tidings of his insolvency would be conveyed to the commissioners at his board, had been dreadful to him. the way in which he had been treated by musselboro and dobbs broughton had made him hate city men, and what he supposed to be city ways. now there had come to him a relief which suddenly made everything feel light. he could almost think of mr. mortimer gazebee without disgust. perhaps after all there might be some happiness yet in store for him. might it not be possible that lily would yet accept him in spite of the chilling letter,--the freezing letter which he had received from lily's mother? of one thing he was quite certain. if ever he had an opportunity of pleading his own cause with her, he certainly would tell her everything respecting his own money difficulties. in that last resolve i think we may say that he was right. if lily would ever listen to him again at all, she certainly would not be deterred from marrying him by his own story of his debts. chapter xlv. lily dale goes to london. one morning towards the end of march the squire rapped at the window of the drawing-room of the small house, in which mrs. dale and her daughter were sitting. he had a letter in his hand, and both lily and her mother knew that he had come down to speak about the contents of the letter. it was always a sign of good-humour on the squire's part, this rapping at the window. when it became necessary to him in his gloomy moods to see his sister-in-law, he would write a note to her, and she would go across to him at the great house. at other times, if, as lily would say, he was just then neither sweet nor bitter, he would go round to the front door and knock, and be admitted after the manner of ordinary people; but when he was minded to make himself thoroughly pleasant he would come and rap at the drawing-room window, as he was doing now. "i'll let you in, uncle; wait a moment," said lily, as she unbolted the window which opened out upon the lawn. "it's dreadfully cold, so come in as fast as you can." "it's not cold at all," said the squire. "it's more like spring than any morning we've had yet. i've been sitting without a fire." "you won't catch us without one for the next two months; will he, mamma? you have got a letter, uncle. is it for us to see?" "well,--yes; i've brought it down to show you. mary, what do you think is going to happen?" a terrible idea occurred to mrs. dale at that moment, but she was much too wise to give it expression. could it be possible that the squire was going to make a fool of himself and get married? "i am very bad at guessing," said mrs. dale. "you had better tell us." "bernard is going to be married," said lily. "how did you know?" said the squire. "i didn't know. i only guessed." "then you've guessed right," said the squire, a little annoyed at having his news thus taken out of his mouth. "i am so glad," said mrs. dale; "and i know from your manner that you like the match." "well,--yes. i don't know the young lady, but i think that upon the whole i do like it. it's quite time, you know, that he got married." "he's not thirty yet," said mrs. dale. "he will be, in a month or two." "and who is it, uncle?" "well;--as you're so good at guessing, i suppose you can guess that?" "it's not that miss partridge he used to talk about?" "no; it's not miss partridge,--i'm glad to say. i don't believe that the partridges have a shilling among them." "then i suppose it's an heiress?" said mrs. dale. "no; not an heiress; but she will have some money of her own. and she has connexions in barsetshire, which makes it pleasant." "connexions in barsetshire! who can it be?" said lily. "her name is emily dunstable," said the squire, "and she is the niece of that miss dunstable who married dr. thorne and who lives at chaldicotes." "she was the woman who had millions upon millions," said lily, "all got by selling ointment." "never mind how it was got," said the squire, angrily. "miss dunstable married most respectably, and has always made a most excellent use of her money." "and will bernard's wife have all her fortune?" asked lily. "she will have twenty thousand pounds the day she marries, and i suppose that will be all." "and quite enough, too," said mrs. dale. "it seems that old dr. dunstable, as he was called, who, as lily says, sold the ointment, quarrelled with his son or with his son's widow, and left nothing either to her or her child. the mother is dead, and the aunt, dr. thorne's wife, has always provided for the child. that's how it is, and bernard is going to marry her. they are to be married at chaldicotes in may." "i am delighted to hear it," said mrs. dale. "i've known dr. thorne for the last forty years;" and the squire now spoke in a low melancholy tone. "i've written to him to say that the young people shall have the old place up there to themselves if they like it." "what! and turn you out?" said mrs. dale. "that would not matter," said the squire. "you'd have to come and live with us," said lily, taking him by the hand. "it doesn't matter much now where i live," said the squire. "bernard will never consent to that," said mrs. dale. "i wonder whether she'll ask me to be a bridesmaid?" said lily. "they say that chaldicotes is such a pretty place, and i should see all the barsetshire people that i've been hearing about from grace. poor grace! i know that the grantlys and the thornes are very intimate. fancy bernard having twenty thousand pounds from the making of ointment!" "what does it matter to you where it comes from?" said the squire, half in anger. "not in the least; only it sounds so odd. i do hope she's a nice girl." then the squire produced a photograph of emily dunstable which his nephew had sent to him, and they all pronounced her to be very pretty, to be very much like a lady, and to be very good-humoured. the squire was evidently pleased with the match, and therefore the ladies were pleased also. bernard dale was the heir to the estate, and his marriage was of course a matter of moment; and as on such properties as that of allington money is always wanted, the squire may be forgiven for the great importance which he attached to the young lady's fortune. "bernard could hardly have married prudently without any money," he said,--"unless he had chosen to wait till i am gone." [illustration: they pronounced her to be very much like a lady.] "and then he would have been too old to marry at all," said lily. but the squire's budget of news had not yet been emptied. he told them soon afterwards that he himself had been summoned up to london. bernard had written to him, begging him to come and see the young lady; and the family lawyer had written also, saying that his presence in town would be very desirable. "it is very troublesome, of course; but i shall go," said the squire. "it will do you all the good in the world," said mrs. dale; "and of course you ought to know her personally before the marriage." and then the squire made a clean breast of it and declared his full purpose. "i was thinking that, perhaps, lily would not object to go up to london with me." "oh, uncle christopher, i should so like it," said lily. "if your mamma does not object." "mamma never objects to anything. i should like to see her objecting to that!" and lily shook her head at her mother. "bernard says that miss dunstable particularly wants to see you." "does she, indeed? and i particularly want to see miss dunstable. how nice! mamma, i don't think i've ever been in london since i wore short frocks. do you remember taking us to the pantomime? only think how many years ago that is. i'm quite sure it's time that bernard should get married. uncle, i hope you're prepared to take me to the play." "we must see about that!" "and the opera, and madame tussaud, and the horticultural gardens, and the new conjuror who makes a woman lie upon nothing. the idea of my going to london! and then i suppose i shall be one of the bridesmaids. i declare a new vista of life is opening out to me! mamma, you mustn't be dull while i'm away. it won't be very long, i suppose, uncle?" "about a month, probably," said the squire. "oh, mamma; what will you do?" "never mind me, lily." "you must get bell and the children to come. but i cannot imagine living away from home a month. i was never away from home a month in my life." and lily did go up to town with her uncle, two days only having been allowed to her for her preparations. there was very much for her to think of in such a journey. it was not only that she would see emily dunstable who was to be her cousin's wife, and that she would go to the play and visit the new conjuror's entertainment, but that she would be in the same city both with adolphus crosbie and with john eames. not having personal experience of the wideness of london, and of the wilderness which it is;--of the distance which is set there between persons who are not purposely brought together--it seemed to her fancy as though for this month of her absence from home she would be brought into close contiguity with both her lovers. she had hitherto felt herself to be at any rate safe in her fortress at allington. when crosbie had written to her mother, making a renewed offer which had been rejected, lily had felt that she certainly need not see him unless it pleased her to do so. he could hardly force himself upon her at allington. and as to john eames, though he would, of course, be welcome at allington as often as he pleased to show himself, still there was a security in the place. she was so much at home there that she could always be mistress of the occasion. she knew that she could talk to him at allington as though from ground higher than that on which he stood himself; but she felt that this would hardly be the case if she should chance to meet him in london. crosbie probably would not come in her way. crosbie she thought,--and she blushed for the man she loved, as the idea came across her mind,--would be afraid of meeting her uncle. but john eames would certainly find her; and she was led by the experience of latter days to imagine that john would never cross her path without renewing his attempts. but she said no word of all this, even to her mother. she was contented to confine her outspoken expectations to emily dunstable, and the play, and the conjuror. "the chances are ten to one against my liking her, mamma," she said. "i don't see that, my dear." "i feel to be too old to think that i shall ever like any more new people. three years ago i should have been quite sure that i should love a new cousin. it would have been like having a new dress. but i've come to think that an old dress is the most comfortable, and an old cousin certainly the best." the squire had had taken for them a gloomy lodging in sackville street. lodgings in london are always gloomy. gloomy colours wear better than bright ones for curtains and carpets, and the keepers of lodgings in london seem to think that a certain dinginess of appearance is respectable. i never saw a london lodging in which any attempt at cheerfulness had been made, and i do not think that any such attempt, if made, would pay. the lodging-seeker would be frightened and dismayed, and would unconsciously be led to fancy that something was wrong. ideas of burglars and improper persons would present themselves. this is so certainly the case that i doubt whether any well-conditioned lodging-house matron could be induced to show rooms that were prettily draped or pleasantly coloured. the big drawing-room and two large bedrooms which the squire took, were all that was proper, and were as brown, and as gloomy, and as ill-suited for the comforts of ordinary life as though they had been prepared for two prisoners. but lily was not so ignorant as to expect cheerful lodgings in london, and was satisfied. "and what are we to do now?" said lily, as soon as they found themselves settled. it was still march, and whatever may have been the nature of the weather at allington, it was very cold in london. they reached sackville street about five in the evening, and an hour was taken up in unpacking their trunks and making themselves as comfortable as their circumstances allowed. "and now what are we to do?" said lily. "i told them to have dinner for us at half-past six." "and what after that? won't bernard come to us to-night? i expected him to be standing on the door-steps waiting for us with his bride in his hand." "i don't suppose bernard will be here to-night," said the squire. "he did not say that he would, and as for miss dunstable, i promised to take you to her aunt's house to-morrow." "but i wanted to see her to-night. well;--of course bridesmaids must wait upon brides. and ladies with twenty thousand pounds can't be expected to run about like common people. as for bernard,--but bernard never was in a hurry." then they dined, and when the squire had very nearly fallen asleep over a bottle of port wine which had been sent in for him from some neighbouring public-house, lily began to feel that it was very dull. and she looked round the room, and she thought that it was very ugly. and she calculated that thirty evenings so spent would seem to be very long. and she reflected that the hours were probably going much more quickly with emily dunstable, who, no doubt, at this moment had bernard dale by her side. and then she told herself that the hours were not tedious with her at home, while sitting with her mother, with all her daily occupations within her reach. but in so telling herself she took herself to task, inquiring of herself whether such an assurance was altogether true. were not the hours sometimes tedious even at home? and in this way her mind wandered off to thoughts upon life in general, and she repeated to herself over and over again the two words which she had told john eames that she would write in her journal. the reader will remember those two words;--old maid. and she had written them in her book, making each letter a capital, and round them she had drawn a scroll, ornamented after her own fashion, and she had added the date in quaintly formed figures,--for in such matters lily had some little skill and a dash of fun to direct it; and she had inscribed below it an italian motto,--"who goes softly, goes safely;" and above her work of art she had put a heading--"as arranged by fate for l. d." now she thought of all this, and reflected whether emily dunstable was in truth very happy. presently the tears came into her eyes, and she got up and went to the window, as though she were afraid that her uncle might wake and see them. and as she looked out on the blank street, she muttered a word or two--"dear mother! dearest mother!" then the door was opened, and her cousin bernard announced himself. she had not heard his knock at the door as she had been thinking of the two words in her book. "what; bernard!--ah, yes, of course," said the squire, rubbing his eyes as he strove to wake himself. "i wasn't sure you would come, but i'm delighted to see you. i wish you joy with all my heart,--with all my heart." "of course, i should come," said bernard. "dear lily, this is so good of you. emily is so delighted." then lily spoke her congratulations warmly, and there was no trace of a tear in her eyes, and she was thoroughly happy as she sat by her cousin's side and listened to his raptures about emily dunstable. "and you will be so fond of her aunt," he said. "but is she not awfully rich?" said lily. "frightfully rich," said bernard; "but really you would hardly find it out if nobody told you. of course she lives in a big house, and has a heap of servants; but she can't help that." "i hate a heap of servants," said lily. then there came another knock at the door, and who should enter the room but john eames. lily for a moment was taken aback, but it was only for a moment. she had been thinking so much of him that his presence disturbed her for an instant. "he probably will not know that i am here," she had said to herself; but she had not yet been three hours in london, and he was already with her! at first he hardly spoke to her, addressing himself to the squire. "lady julia told me you were to be here, and as i start for the continent early to-morrow morning, i thought you would let me come and see you before i went." "i'm always glad to see you, john," said the squire,--"very glad. and so you're going abroad, are you?" then johnny congratulated his old acquaintance, bernard dale, as to his coming marriage, and explained to them how lady julia in one of her letters had told him all about it, and had even given him the number in sackville street. "i suppose she learned it from you, lily," said the squire. "yes, uncle, she did." and then there came questions as to john's projected journey to the continent, and he explained that he was going on law-business, on behalf of mr. crawley, to catch the dean and mrs. arabin, if it might be possible. "you see, sir, mr. toogood, who is mr. crawley's cousin, and also his lawyer, is my cousin, too; and that's why i'm going." and still there had been hardly a word spoken between him and lily. "but you're not a lawyer, john; are you?" said the squire. "no. i'm not a lawyer myself." "nor a lawyer's clerk?" "certainly not a lawyer's clerk," said johnny, laughing. "then why should you go?" asked bernard dale. then johnny had to explain; and in doing so he became very eloquent as to the hardships of mr. crawley's case. "you see, sir, nobody can possibly believe that such a man as that stole twenty pounds." "i do not for one," said lily. "god forbid that i should say he did," said the squire. "i'm quite sure he didn't," said johnny, warming to his subject. "it couldn't be that such a man as that should become a thief all at once. it's not human nature, sir; is it?" "it is very hard to know what is human nature," said the squire. "it's the general opinion down in barsetshire that he did steal it," said bernard. "dr. thorne was one of the magistrates who committed him, and i know he thinks so." "i don't blame the magistrates in the least," said johnny. "that's kind of you," said the squire. "of course you'll laugh at me, sir; but you'll see that we shall come out right. there's some mystery in it of which we haven't got at the bottom as yet; and if there is anybody that can help us it's the dean." "if the dean knows anything, why has he not written and told what he knows?" said the squire. "that's what i can't say. the dean has not had an opportunity of writing since he heard,--even if he has yet heard,--that mr. crawley is to be tried. and then he and mrs. arabin are not together. it's a long story, and i will not trouble you with it all; but at any rate i'm going off to-morrow. lily, can i do anything for you in florence?" "in florence?" said lily; "and are you really going to florence? how i envy you." "and who pays your expenses?" said the squire. "well;--as to my expenses, they are to be paid by a person who won't raise any unpleasant questions about the amount." "i don't know what you mean," said the squire. "he means himself," said lily. "is he going to do it out of his own pocket?" "he is," said lily, looking at her lover. "i'm going to have a trip for my own fun," said johnny, "and i shall pick up evidence on the road, as i'm going;--that's all." then lily began to take an active part in the conversation, and a great deal was said about mr. crawley, and about grace, and lily declared that she would be very anxious to hear any news which john eames might be able to send. "you know, john, how fond we are of your cousin grace, at allington? are we not, uncle?" "yes, indeed," said the squire. "i thought her a very nice girl." "if you should be able to learn anything that may be of use, john, how happy you will be." "yes, i shall," said johnny. "and i think it so good of you to go, john. but it is just like you. you were always generous." soon after that he got up and went. it was very clear to him that he would have no moment in which to say a word alone to lily; and if he could find such a moment, what good would such a word do him? it was as yet but a few weeks since she had positively refused him. and he too remembered very well those two words which she had told him that she would write in her book. as he had been coming to the house he had told himself that his coming would be,--could be of no use. and yet he was disappointed with the result of his visit, although she had spoken to him so sweetly. "i suppose you'll be gone when i come back?" he said. "we shall be here a month," said the squire. "i shall be back long before that, i hope," said johnny. "good-by, sir. good-by, dale. good-by, lily." and he put out his hand to her. "good-by, john." and then she added, almost in a whisper, "i think you are very, very right to go." how could he fail after that to hope as he walked home that she might still relent. and she also thought much of him, but her thoughts of him made her cling more firmly than ever to the two words. she could not bring herself to marry him; but, at least, she would not break his heart by becoming the wife of any one else. soon after this bernard dale went also. i am not sure that he had been well pleased at seeing john eames become suddenly the hero of the hour. when a young man is going to perform so important an act as that of marriage, he is apt to think that he ought to be the hero of the hour himself--at any rate among his own family. early on the next morning lily was taken by her uncle to call upon mrs. thorne, and to see emily dunstable. bernard was to meet them there, but it had been arranged that they should reach the house first. "there is nothing so absurd as these introductions," bernard had said. "you go and look at her, and when you've had time to look at her, then i'll come!" so the squire and lily went off to look at emily dunstable. "you don't mean to say that she lives in that house?" said lily, when the cab was stopped before an enormous mansion in one of the most fashionable of the london squares. "i believe she does," said the squire. "i never shall be able to speak to anybody living in such a house as that," said lily. "a duke couldn't have anything grander." "mrs. thorne is richer than half the dukes," said the squire. then the door was opened by a porter, and lily found herself within the hall. everything was very great, and very magnificent, and, as she thought, very uncomfortable. presently she heard a loud jovial voice on the stairs. "mr. dale, i'm delighted to see you. and this is your niece lily. come up, my dear. there is a young woman upstairs, dying to embrace you. never mind the umbrella. put it down anywhere. i want to have a look at you, because bernard swears that you're so pretty." this was mrs. thorne, once miss dunstable, the richest woman in england, and the aunt of bernard's bride. the reader may perhaps remember the advice which she once gave to major grantly, and her enthusiasm on that occasion. "there she is, mr. dale; what do you think of her?" said mrs. thorne, as she opened the door of a small sitting-room wedged in between two large saloons, in which emily dunstable was sitting. "aunt martha, how can you be so ridiculous?" said the young lady. "i suppose it is ridiculous to ask the question to which one really wants to have an answer," said mrs. thorne. "but mr. dale has, in truth, come to inspect you, and to form an opinion; and, in honest truth, i shall be very anxious to know what he thinks,--though, of course, he won't tell me." the old man took the girl in his arms, and kissed her on both cheeks. "i have no doubt you'll find out what i think," he said, "though i should never tell you." "i generally do find out what people think," she said. "and so you're lily dale?" "yes, i'm lily dale." "i have so often heard of you, particularly of late; for you must know that a certain major grantly is a friend of mine. we must take care that that affair comes off all right, must we not?" "i hope it will." then lily turned to emily dunstable, and, taking her hand, went up and sat beside her, while mrs. thorne and the squire talked of the coming marriage. "how long have you been engaged?" said lily. "really engaged, about three weeks. i think it is not more than three weeks ago." "how very discreet bernard has been. he never told us a word about it while it was going on." "men never do tell, i suppose," said emily dunstable. "of course you love him very dearly?" said lily, not knowing what else to say. "of course i do." "so do we. you know he's almost a brother to us; that is, to me and my sister. we never had a brother of our own." and so the morning was passed till lily was told by her uncle to come away, and was told also by mrs. thorne that she was to dine with them in the square on that day. "you must not be surprised that my husband is not here," she said. "he is a very odd sort of man, and he never comes to london if he can help it." chapter xlvi. the bayswater romance. eames had by no means done his work for that evening when he left mr. dale and lily at their lodgings. he had other business on hand to which he had promised to give attention, and another person to see who would welcome his coming quite as warmly, though by no means as pleasantly, as lily dale. it was then just nine o'clock, and as he had told miss demolines,--madalina we may as well call her now,--that he would be in porchester terrace by nine at the latest, it was incumbent on him to make haste. he got into a cab, and bid the cabman drive hard, and lighting a cigar, began to inquire of himself whether it was well for him to hurry away from the presence of lily dale to that of madalina demolines. he felt that he was half-ashamed of what he was doing. though he declared to himself over and over again that he never had said a word, and never intended to say a word, to madalina, which all the world might not hear, yet he knew that he was doing amiss. he was doing amiss, and half repented it, and yet he was half proud of it. he was most anxious to be able to give himself credit for his constancy to lily dale; to be able to feel that he was steadfast in his passion; and yet he liked the idea of amusing himself with his bayswater romance, as he would call it, and was not without something of conceit as he thought of the progress he had made in it. "love is one thing and amusement is another," he said to himself as he puffed the cigar-smoke out of his mouth; and in his heart he was proud of his own capacity for enjoyment. he thought it a fine thing, although at the same moment he knew it to be an evil thing--this hurrying away from the young lady whom he really loved to another as to whom he thought it very likely that he should be called upon to pretend to love her. and he sang a little song as he went, "if she be not fair for me, what care i how fair she be." that was intended to apply to lily, and was used as an excuse for his fickleness in going to miss demolines. and he was, perhaps, too, a little conceited as to his mission to the continent. lily had told him that she was very glad that he was going; that she thought him very right to go. the words had been pleasant to his ears, and lily had never looked prettier in his eyes than when she had spoken them. johnny, therefore, was rather proud of himself as he sat in the cab smoking his cigar. he had, moreover, beaten his old enemy sir raffle buffle in another contest, and he felt that the world was smiling on him;--that the world was smiling on him in spite of his cruel fate in the matter of his real lovesuit. there was a mystery about the bayswater romance which was not without its allurement, and a portion of the mystery was connected with madalina's mother. lady demolines was very rarely seen, and john eames could not quite understand what was the manner of life of that unfortunate lady. her daughter usually spoke of her with affectionate regret as being unable to appear on that particular occasion on account of some passing malady. she was suffering from a nervous headache, or was afflicted with bronchitis, or had been touched with rheumatism, so that she was seldom on the scene when johnny was passing his time at porchester terrace. and yet he heard of her dining out, and going to plays and operas; and when he did chance to see her, he found that she was a sprightly old woman enough. i will not venture to say that he much regretted the absence of lady demolines, or that he was keenly alive to the impropriety of being left alone with the gentle madalina; but the customary absence of the elder lady was an incident in the romance which did not fail to strike him. madalina was alone when he was shown up into the drawing-room on the evening of which we are speaking. "mr. eames," she said, "will you kindly look at that watch which is lying on the table." she looked full at him with her great eyes wide open, and the tone of her voice was intended to show him that she was aggrieved. "yes, i see it," said john, looking down on miss demolines' little gold geneva watch, with which he had already made sufficient acquaintance to know that it was worth nothing. "shall i give it you?" "no, mr. eames; let it remain there, that it may remind me, if it does not remind you, by how long a time you have broken your word." "upon my word i couldn't help it;--upon my honour i couldn't." "upon your honour, mr. eames!" "i was obliged to go and see a friend who has just come to town from my part of the country." "that is the friend, i suppose, of whom i have heard from maria." it is to be feared that conway dalrymple had not been so guarded as he should have been in some of his conversations with mrs. dobbs broughton, and that a word or two had escaped from him as to the love of john eames for lily dale. "i don't know what you may have heard," said johnny, "but i was obliged to see these people before i left town. there is going to be a marriage and all that sort of thing." "who is going to be married?" "one captain dale is going to be married to one miss dunstable." "oh! and as to one miss lily dale,--is she to be married to anybody?" "not that i have heard of," said johnny. "she is not going to become the wife of one mr. john eames?" he did not wish to talk to miss demolines about lily dale. he did not choose to disown the imputation, or to acknowledge its truth. "silence gives consent," she said. "if it be so, i congratulate you. i have no doubt she is a most charming young woman. it is about seven years, i believe, since that little affair with mr. crosbie, and therefore that, i suppose, may be considered as forgotten." "it is only three years," said johnny, angrily. "besides, i don't know what that has to do with it." "you need not be ashamed," said madalina. "i have heard how well you behaved on that occasion. you were quite the preux chevalier; and if any gentleman ever deserved well of a lady you deserved well of her. i wonder how mr. crosbie felt when he met you the other day at maria's. i had not heard anything about it then, or i should have been much more interested in watching your meeting." "i really can't say how he felt." "i daresay not; but i saw him shake hands with you. and so lily dale has come to town?" "yes,--miss dale is here with her uncle." "and you are going away to-morrow?" "yes,--and i am going away to-morrow." after that there was a pause in the conversation. eames was sick of it, and was very anxious to change the conversation. miss demolines was sitting in the shadow, away from the light, with her face half hidden by her hands. at last she jumped up, and came round and stood opposite to him. "i charge you to tell me truly, john eames," she said, "whether miss lilian dale is engaged to you as your future wife?" he looked up into her face, but made no immediate answer. then she repeated her demand. "i ask you whether you are engaged to marry miss lilian dale, and i expect a reply." "what makes you ask me such a question as that?" "what makes me ask you? do you deny my right to feel so much interest in you as to desire to know whether you are about to be married? of course you can decline to tell me if you choose." "and if i were to decline?" "i should know then that it was true, and i should think that you were a coward." "i don't see any cowardice in the matter. one does not talk about that kind of thing to everybody." "upon my word, mr. eames, you are complimentary;--indeed you are. to everybody! i am everybody,--am i? that is your idea of--friendship! you may be sure that after that i shall ask no further questions." "i didn't mean it in the way you've taken it, madalina." "in what way did you mean it, sir? everybody! mr. eames, you must excuse me if i say that i am not well enough this evening to bear the company of--everybody. i think you had better leave me. i think that you had better go." "are you angry with me?" "yes, i am,--very angry. because i have condescended to feel an interest in your welfare, and have asked you a question which i thought that our intimacy justified, you tell me that that is a kind of thing that you will not talk about to--everybody. i beg you to understand that i will not be your everybody. mr. eames, there is the door." things had now become very serious. hitherto johnny had been seated comfortably in the corner of a sofa, and had not found himself bound to move, though miss demolines was standing before him. but now it was absolutely necessary that he should do something. he must either go, or else he must make entreaty to be allowed to remain. would it not be expedient that he should take the lady at her word and escape? she was still pointing to the door, and the way was open to him. if he were to walk out now of course he would never return, and there would be the end of the bayswater romance. if he remained it might be that the romance would become troublesome. he got up from his seat, and had almost resolved that he would go. had she not somewhat relaxed the majesty of her anger as he rose, had the fire of her eye not been somewhat quenched and the lines of her mouth softened, i think that he would have gone. the romance would have been over, and he would have felt that it had come to an inglorious end; but it would have been well for him that he should have gone. though the fire was somewhat quenched and the lines were somewhat softened, she was still pointing to the door. "do you mean it?" he said. "i do mean it,--certainly." "and this is to be the end of everything?" "i do not know what you mean by everything. it is a very little everything to you, i should say. i do not quite understand your everything and your everybody." "i will go, if you wish me to go, of course." "i do wish it." "but before i go, you must permit me to excuse myself. i did not intend to offend you. i merely meant--" "you merely meant! give me an honest answer to a downright question. are you engaged to miss lilian dale?" "no;--i am not." "upon your honour?" "do you think that i would tell you a falsehood about it? what i meant was that it is a kind of thing one doesn't like talking about, merely because stories are bandied about. people are so fond of saying that this man is engaged to that woman, and of making up tales; and it seems to be so foolish to contradict such things." "but you know that you used to be very fond of her?" he had taken up his hat when he had risen from the sofa, and was still standing with it ready in his hand. he was even now half-minded to escape; and the name of lily dale in miss demolines' mouth was so distasteful to him that he would have done so,--he would have gone in sheer disgust, had she not stood in his way, so that he could not escape without moving her, or going round behind the sofa. she did not stir to make way for him, and it may be that she understood that he was her prisoner, in spite of her late command to him to go. it may be, also, that she understood his vexation and the cause of it, and that she saw the expediency of leaving lily dale alone for the present. at any rate, she pressed him no more upon the matter. "are we to be friends again?" she said. "i hope so," replied johnny. "there is my hand, then." so johnny took her hand and pressed it, and held it a little while,--just long enough to seem to give a meaning to the action. "you will get to understand me some day," she said, "and will learn that i do not like to be reckoned among the everybodies by those for whom i really--really--really have a regard. when i am angry, i am angry." "you were very angry just now, when you showed me the way to the door." "and i meant it too,--for the minute. only think,--supposing you had gone! we should never have seen each other again;--never, never! what a change one word may make!" "one word often does make a change." "does it not? just a little 'yes,' or 'no.' a 'no' is said when a 'yes' is meant, and then there comes no second chance, and what a change that may be from bright hopes to desolation! or, worse again, a 'yes' is said when a 'no' should be said,--when the speaker knows that it should be 'no.' what a difference that 'no' makes! when one thinks of it, one wonders that a woman should ever say anything but 'no.'" "they never did say anything else to me," said johnny. "i don't believe it. i daresay the truth is, you never asked anybody." "did anybody ever ask you?" "what would you give to know? but i will tell you frankly;--yes. and once,--once i thought that my answer would not have been a 'no.'" "but you changed your mind?" "when the moment came i could not bring myself to say the word that should rob me of my liberty for ever. i had said 'no' to him often enough before,--poor fellow; and on this occasion he told me that he asked for the last time. 'i shall not give myself another chance,' he said, 'for i shall be on board ship within a week.' i merely bade him good-by. it was the only answer i gave him. he understood me, and since that day his foot has never pressed his native soil." "and was it all because you are so fond of your liberty?" said johnny. "perhaps,--i did not--love him," said miss demolines, thoughtfully. she was now again seated in her chair, and john eames had gone back to his corner of the sofa. "if i had really loved him i suppose it would have been otherwise. he was a gallant fellow, and had two thousand a year of his own, in india stock and other securities." "dear me! and he has not married yet?" "he wrote me word to say that he would never marry till i was married,--but that on the day that he should hear of my wedding, he would go to the first single woman near him and propose. it was a droll thing to say; was it not?" "the single woman ought to feel herself flattered." "he would find plenty to accept him. besides being so well off he was a very handsome fellow, and is connected with people of title. he had everything to recommend him." "and yet you refused him so often?" "yes. you think i was foolish;--do you not?" "i don't think you were at all foolish if you didn't care for him." "it was my destiny, i suppose; i daresay i was wrong. other girls marry without violent love, and do very well afterwards. look at maria clutterbuck." the name of maria clutterbuck had become odious to john eames. as long as miss demolines would continue to talk about herself he could listen with some amount of gratification. conversation on that subject was the natural progress of the bayswater romance. and if madalina would only call her friend by her present name, he had no strong objection to an occasional mention of the lady; but the combined names of maria clutterbuck had come to be absolutely distasteful to him. he did not believe in the maria clutterbuck friendship,--either in its past or present existence, as described by madalina. indeed, he did not put strong faith in anything that madalina said to him. in the handsome gentleman with two thousand a year, he did not believe at all. but the handsome gentleman had only been mentioned once in the course of his acquaintance with miss demolines, whereas maria clutterbuck had come up so often! "upon my word i must wish you good-by," he said. "it is going on for eleven o'clock, and i have to start to-morrow at seven." "what difference does that make?" "a fellow wants to get a little sleep, you know." "go then;--go and get your sleep. what a sleepy-headed generation it is." johnny longed to ask her whether the last generation was less sleepy-headed, and whether the gentleman with two thousand a year had sat up talking all night before he pressed his foot for the last time on his native soil; but he did not dare. as he said to himself afterwards, "it would not do to bring the bayswater romance too suddenly to its termination!" "but before you go," she continued, "i must say the word to you about that picture. did you speak to mr. dalrymple?" "i did not. i have been so busy with different things that i have not seen him." "and now you are going?" "well,--to tell the truth, i think i shall see him to-night, in spite of my being so sleepy-headed. i wrote him a line that i would look in and smoke a cigar with him if he chanced to be at home!" "and that is why you want to go. a gentleman cannot live without his cigar now." "it is especially at your bidding that i am going to see him." "go, then,--and make your friend understand that if he continues this picture of his, he will bring himself to great trouble, and will probably ruin the woman for whom he professes, i presume, to feel something like friendship. you may tell him that mrs. van siever has already heard of it." "who told her?" demanded johnny. "never mind. you need not look at me like that. it was not i. do you suppose that secrets can be kept when so many people know them? every servant in maria's house knows all about it." "as for that, i don't suppose mrs. broughton makes any great secret of it." "do you think she has told mr. broughton? i am sure she has not. i may say i know she has not. maria clutterbuck is infatuated. there is no other excuse to be made for her." "good-by," said johnny, hurriedly. "and you really are going?" "well,--yes. i suppose so." "go then. i have nothing more to say to you." "i shall come and call directly i return," said johnny. "you may do as you please about that, sir." "do you mean that you won't be glad to see me again?" "i am not going to flatter you, mr. eames. mamma will be well by that time, i hope, and i do not mind telling you that you are a favourite with her." johnny thought that this was particularly kind, as he had seen so very little of the old lady. "if you choose to call upon her," said madalina, "of course she will be glad to see you." "but i was speaking of yourself, you know?" and johnny permitted himself for a moment to look tenderly at her. "then from myself pray understand that i will say nothing to flatter your self-love." "i thought you would be kinder just when i was going away." "i think i have been quite kind enough. as you observed yourself just now, it is nearly eleven o'clock, and i must ask you to go away. bon voyage, and a happy return to you." "and you will be glad to see me when i am back? tell me that you will be glad to see me." "i will tell you nothing of the kind. mr. eames, if you do, i will be very angry with you." and then he went. on his way back to his own lodgings he did call on conway dalrymple, and in spite of his need for early rising, sat smoking with the artist for an hour. "if you don't take care, young man," said his friend, "you will find yourself in a scrape with your madalina." "what sort of a scrape?" "as you walk away from porchester terrace some fine day, you will have to congratulate yourself on having made a successful overture towards matrimony." "you don't think i am such a fool as that comes to?" "other men as wise as you have done the same sort of thing. miss demolines is very clever, and i daresay you find it amusing." "it isn't so much that she's clever, and i can hardly say that it is amusing. one gets awfully tired of it, you know. but a fellow must have something to do, and that is as good as anything else." "i suppose you have not heard that one young man levanted last year to save himself from a breach of promise case?" "i wonder whether he had any money in indian securities?" "what makes you ask that?" "nothing particular." "whatever little he had he chose to save, and i think i heard that he went to canada. his name was shorter; and they say that, on the eve of his going, madalina sent him word that she had no objection to the colonies, and that, under the pressing emergency of his expatriation, she was willing to become mrs. shorter with more expedition than usually attends fashionable weddings. shorter, however, escaped, and has never been seen back again." eames declared that he did not believe a word of it. nevertheless, as he walked home he came to the conclusion that mr. shorter must have been the handsome gentleman with indian securities, to whom "no" had been said once too often. while sitting with conway dalrymple, he had forgotten to say a word about jael and sisera. chapter xlvii. dr. tempest at the palace. [illustration] intimation had been sent from the palace to dr. tempest of silverbridge of the bishop's intention that a commission should be held by him, as rural dean, with other neighbouring clergymen, as assessors with him, that inquiry might be made on the part of the church into the question of mr. crawley's guilt. it must be understood that by this time the opinion had become very general that mr. crawley had been guilty,--that he had found the cheque in his house, and that he had, after holding it for many months, succumbed to temptation, and applied it to his own purposes. but various excuses were made for him by those who so believed. in the first place it was felt by all who really knew anything of the man's character, that the very fact of his committing such a crime proved him to be hardly responsible for his actions. he must have known, had not all judgment in such matters been taken from him, that the cheque would certainly be traced back to his hands. no attempt had been made in the disposing of it to dispose of it in such a way that the trace should be obliterated. he had simply given it to a neighbour with a direction to have it cashed, and had written his own name on the back of it. and therefore, though there could be no doubt as to the theft in the mind of those who supposed that he had found the cheque in his own house, yet the guilt of the theft seemed to be almost annihilated by the folly of the thief. and then his poverty, and his struggles, and the sufferings of his wife, were remembered; and stories were told from mouth to mouth of his industry in his profession, of his great zeal among those brickmakers of hoggle end, of acts of charity done by him which startled the people of the district into admiration;--how he had worked with his own hands for the sick poor to whom he could not give relief in money, turning a woman's mangle for a couple of hours, and carrying a boy's load along the lanes. dr. tempest and others declared that he had derogated from the dignity of his position as an english parish clergyman by such acts; but, nevertheless, the stories of these deeds acted strongly on the minds of both men and women, creating an admiration for mr. crawley which was much stronger than the condemnation of his guilt. even mrs. walker and her daughter, and the miss prettymans, had so far given way that they had ceased to asseverate their belief in mr. crawley's innocence. they contented themselves now with simply expressing a hope that he would be acquitted by a jury, and that when he should be so acquitted the thing might be allowed to rest. if he had sinned, no doubt he had repented. and then there were serious debates whether he might not have stolen the money without much sin, being mad or half-mad,--touched with madness when he took it; and whether he might not, in spite of such temporary touch of madness, be well fitted for his parish duties. sorrow had afflicted him grievously; but that sorrow, though it had incapacitated him for the management of his own affairs, had not rendered him unfit for the ministrations of his parish. such were the arguments now used in his favour by the women around him; and the men were not keen to contradict them. the wish that he should be acquitted and allowed to remain in his parsonage was very general. when therefore it became known that the bishop had decided to put on foot another investigation, with the view of bringing mr. crawley's conduct under ecclesiastical condemnation, almost everybody accused the bishop of persecution. the world of the diocese declared that mrs. proudie was at work, and that the bishop himself was no better than a puppet. it was in vain that certain clear-headed men among the clergy, of whom dr. tempest himself was one, pointed out that the bishop after all might perhaps be right;--that if mr. crawley were guilty, and if he should be found to have been so by a jury, it might be absolutely necessary that an ecclesiastical court should take some cognizance of the crime beyond that taken by the civil law. "the jury," said dr. tempest, discussing the case with mr. robarts and other clerical neighbours,--"the jury may probably find him guilty and recommend him to mercy. the judge will have heard his character, and will have been made acquainted with his manner of life, and will deal as lightly with the case as the law will allow him. for aught i know he may be imprisoned for a month. i wish it might be for no more than a day,--or an hour. but when he comes out from his month's imprisonment,--how then? surely it should be a case for ecclesiastical inquiry, whether a clergyman who has committed a theft should be allowed to go into his pulpit directly he comes out of prison?" but the answer to this was that mr. crawley always had been a good clergyman, was a good clergyman at this moment, and would be a good clergyman when he did come out of prison. but dr. tempest, though he had argued in this way, was by no means eager for the commencement of the commission over which he was to be called upon to preside. in spite of such arguments as the above, which came from the man's head when his head was brought to bear upon the matter, there was a thorough desire within his heart to oppose the bishop. he had no strong sympathy with mr. crawley, as had others. he would have had mr. crawley silenced without regret, presuming mr. crawley to have been guilty. but he had a much stronger feeling with regard to the bishop. had there been any question of silencing the bishop,--could it have been possible to take any steps in that direction,--he would have been very active. it may therefore be understood that in spite of his defence of the bishop's present proceedings as to the commission, he was anxious that the bishop should fail, and anxious to put impediments in the bishop's way, should it appear to him that he could do so with justice. dr. tempest was well known among his parishioners to be hard and unsympathetic, some said unfeeling also, and cruel; but it was admitted by those who disliked him the most that he was both practical and just, and that he cared for the welfare of many, though he was rarely touched by the misery of one. such was the man who was rector of silverbridge and rural dean in the district, and who was now called upon by the bishop to assist him in making further inquiry as to this wretched cheque for twenty pounds. once at this period archdeacon grantly and dr. tempest met each other and discussed the question of mr. crawley's guilt. both these men were inimical to the present bishop of the diocese, and both had perhaps respected the old bishop beyond all other men. but they were different in this, that the archdeacon hated dr. proudie as a partisan,--whereas dr. tempest opposed the bishop on certain principles which he endeavoured to make clear, at any rate to himself. "wrong!" said the archdeacon, speaking of the bishop's intention of issuing a commission--"of course he is wrong. how could anything right come from him or from her? i should be sorry to have to do his bidding." "i think you are a little hard upon bishop proudie," said dr. tempest. "one cannot be hard upon him," said the archdeacon. "he is so scandalously weak, and she is so radically vicious, that they cannot but be wrong together. the very fact that such a man should be a bishop among us is to me terribly strong evidence of evil days coming." "you are more impulsive than i am," said dr. tempest. "in this case i am sorry for the poor man, who is, i am sure, honest in the main. but i believe that in such a case your father would have done just what the present bishop is doing;--that he could have done nothing else; and as i think that dr. proudie is right i shall do all that i can to assist him in the commission." the bishop's secretary had written to dr. tempest, telling him of the bishop's purpose; and now, in one of the last days of march, the bishop himself wrote to dr. tempest, asking him to come over to the palace. the letter was worded most courteously, and expressed very feelingly the great regret which the writer felt at being obliged to take these proceedings against a clergyman in his diocese. bishop proudie knew how to write such a letter. by the writing of such letters, and by the making of speeches in the same strain, he had become bishop of barchester. now, in this letter, he begged dr. tempest to come over to him, saying how delighted mrs. proudie would be to see him at the palace. then he went on to explain the great difficulty which he felt, and great sorrow also, in dealing with this matter of mr. crawley. he looked, therefore, confidently for dr. tempest's assistance. thinking to do the best for mr. crawley, and anxious to enable mr. crawley to remain in quiet retirement till the trial should be over, he had sent a clergyman over to hogglestock, who would have relieved mr. crawley from the burden of the church-services;--but mr. crawley would have none of this relief. mr. crawley had been obstinate and overbearing, and had persisted in claiming his right to his own pulpit. therefore was the bishop obliged to interfere legally, and therefore was he under the necessity of asking dr. tempest to assist him. would dr. tempest come over on the monday, and stay till the wednesday? the letter was a very good letter, and dr. tempest was obliged to do as he was asked. he so far modified the bishop's proposition that he reduced the sojourn at the palace by one night. he wrote to say that he would have the pleasure of dining with the bishop and mrs. proudie on the monday, but would return home on the tuesday, as soon as the business in hand would permit him. "i shall get on very well with him," he said to his wife before he started; "but i am afraid of the woman. if she interferes, there will be a row." "then, my dear," said his wife, "there will be a row, for i am told that she always interferes." on reaching the palace about half-an-hour before dinner-time, dr. tempest found that other guests were expected, and on descending to the great yellow drawing-room, which was used only on state occasions, he encountered mrs. proudie and two of her daughters arrayed in a full panoply of female armour. she received him with her sweetest smiles, and if there had been any former enmity between silverbridge and the palace, it was now all forgotten. she regretted greatly that mrs. tempest had not accompanied the doctor;--for mrs. tempest also had been invited. but mrs. tempest was not quite as well as she might have been, the doctor had said, and very rarely slept away from home. and then the bishop came in and greeted his guest with his pleasantest good-humour. it was quite a sorrow to him that silverbridge was so distant, and that he saw so little of dr. tempest; but he hoped that that might be somewhat mended now, and that leisure might be found for social delights;--to all which dr. tempest said but little, bowing to the bishop at each separate expression of his lordship's kindness. there were guests there that evening who did not often sit at the bishop's table. the archdeacon and mrs. grantly had been summoned from plumstead, and had obeyed the summons. great as was the enmity between the bishop and the archdeacon, it had never quite taken the form of open palpable hostility. each, therefore, asked the other to dinner perhaps once every year; and each went to the other, perhaps, once in two years. and dr. thorne from chaldicotes was there, but without his wife, who in these days was up in london. mrs. proudie always expressed a warm friendship for mrs. thorne, and on this occasion loudly regretted her absence. "you must tell her, dr. thorne, how exceedingly much we miss her." dr. thorne, who was accustomed to hear his wife speak of her dear friend mrs. proudie with almost unmeasured ridicule, promised that he would do so. "we are so sorry the luftons couldn't come to us," said mrs. proudie,--not alluding to the dowager, of whom it was well known that no earthly inducement would have sufficed to make her put her foot within mrs. proudie's room;--"but one of the children is ill, and she could not leave him." but the greshams were there from boxall hill, and the thornes from ullathorne, and, with the exception of a single chaplain, who pretended to carve, dr. tempest and the archdeacon were the only clerical guests at the table. from all which dr. tempest knew that the bishop was anxious to treat him with special consideration on the present occasion. the dinner was rather long and ponderous, and occasionally almost dull. the archdeacon talked a good deal, but a bystander with an acute ear might have understood from the tone of his voice that he was not talking as he would have talked among friends. mrs. proudie felt this, and understood it, and was angry. she could never find herself in the presence of the archdeacon without becoming angry. her accurate ear would always appreciate the defiance of episcopal authority, as now existing in barchester, which was concealed, or only half concealed, by all the archdeacon's words. but the bishop was not so keen, nor so easily roused to wrath; and though the presence of his enemy did to a certain degree cow him, he strove to fight against the feeling with renewed good-humour. "you have improved so upon the old days," said the archdeacon, speaking of some small matter with reference to the cathedral, "that one hardly knows the old place." "i hope we have not fallen off," said the bishop, with a smile. "we have improved, dr. grantly," said mrs. proudie, with great emphasis on her words. "what you say is true. we have improved." "not a doubt about that," said the archdeacon. then mrs. grantly interposed, strove to change the subject, and threw oil upon the waters. "talking of improvements," said mrs. grantly, "what an excellent row of houses they have built at the bottom of high street. i wonder who is to live in them?" "i remember when that was the very worst part of the town," said dr. thorne. "and now they're asking seventy pounds apiece for houses which did not cost above six hundred each to build," said mr. thorne of ullathorne, with that seeming dislike of modern success which is evinced by most of the elders of the world. "and who is to live in them?" asked mrs. grantly. "two of them have been already taken by clergymen," said the bishop, in a tone of triumph. "yes," said the archdeacon, "and the houses in the close which used to be the residences of the prebendaries have been leased out to tallow-chandlers and retired brewers. that comes of the working of the ecclesiastical commission." "and why not?" demanded mrs. proudie. "why not, indeed, if you like to have tallow-chandlers next door to you?" said the archdeacon. "in the old days, we would sooner have had our brethren near to us." "there is nothing, dr. grantly, so objectionable in a cathedral town as a lot of idle clergymen," said mrs. proudie. "it is beginning to be a question to me," said the archdeacon, "whether there is any use in clergymen at all for the present generation." "dr. grantly, those cannot be your real sentiments," said mrs. proudie. then mrs. grantly, working hard in her vocation as a peacemaker, changed the conversation again, and began to talk of the american war. but even that was made matter of discord on church matters,--the archdeacon professing an opinion that the southerners were christian gentlemen, and the northerners infidel snobs; whereas mrs. proudie had an idea that the gospel was preached with genuine zeal in the northern states. and at each such outbreak the poor bishop would laugh uneasily, and say a word or two to which no one paid much attention. and so the dinner went on, not always in the most pleasant manner for those who preferred continued social good-humour to the occasional excitement of a half-suppressed battle. not a word was said about mr. crawley. when mrs. proudie and the ladies had left the dining-room, the bishop strove to get up a little lay conversation. he spoke to mr. thorne about his game, and to dr. thorne about his timber, and even to mr. gresham about his hounds. "it is not so very many years, mr. gresham," said he, "since the bishop of barchester was expected to keep hounds himself," and the bishop laughed at his own joke. "your lordship shall have them back at the palace next season," said young frank gresham, "if you will promise to do the county justice." "ha, ha, ha!" laughed the bishop. "what do you say, mr. tozer?" mr. tozer was the chaplain on duty. "i have not the least objection in the world, my lord," said mr. tozer, "to act as second whip." "i'm afraid you'll find them an expensive adjunct to the episcopate," said the archdeacon. and then the joke was over; for there had been a rumour, now for some years prevalent in barchester, that bishop proudie was not liberal in his expenditure. as mr. thorne said afterwards to his cousin the doctor, the archdeacon might have spared that sneer. "the archdeacon will never spare the man who sits in his father's seat," said the doctor. "the pity of it is that men who are so thoroughly different in all their sympathies should ever be brought into contact." "dear, dear," said the archdeacon, as he stood afterwards on the rug before the drawing-room fire, "how many rubbers of whist i have seen played in this room." "i sincerely hope that you will never see another played here," said mrs. proudie. "i'm quite sure that i shall not," said the archdeacon. for this last sally his wife scolded him bitterly on their way home. "you know very well," she said, "that the times are changed, and that if you were bishop of barchester yourself you would not have whist played in the palace." "i only know," said he, "that when we had the whist we had some true religion along with it, and some good sense and good feeling also." "you cannot be right to sneer at others for doing what you would do yourself," said his wife. then the archdeacon threw himself sulkily into the corner of his carriage, and nothing more was said between him and his wife about the bishop's dinner-party. not a word was spoken that night at the palace about mr. crawley; and when that obnoxious guest from plumstead was gone, mrs. proudie resumed her good-humour towards dr. tempest. so intent was she on conciliating him that she refrained even from abusing the archdeacon, whom she knew to have been intimate for very many years with the rector of silverbridge. in her accustomed moods she would have broken forth in loud anger, caring nothing for old friendships; but at present she was thoughtful of the morrow, and desirous that dr. tempest should, if possible, meet her in a friendly humour when the great discussion as to hogglestock should be opened between them. but dr. tempest understood her bearing, and as he pulled on his nightcap made certain resolutions of his own as to the morrow's proceedings. "i don't suppose she will dare to interfere," he had said to his wife; "but if she does, i shall certainly tell the bishop that i cannot speak on the subject in her presence." at breakfast on the following morning there was no one present but the bishop, mrs. proudie, and dr. tempest. very little was said at the meal. mr. crawley's name was not mentioned, but there seemed to be a general feeling among them that there was a task hanging over them which prevented any general conversation. the eggs were eaten and the coffee was drunk, but the eggs and the coffee disappeared almost in silence. when these ceremonies had been altogether completed, and it was clearly necessary that something further should be done, the bishop spoke: "dr. tempest," he said, "perhaps you will join me in my study at eleven. we can then say a few words to each other about the unfortunate matter on which i shall have to trouble you." dr. tempest said he would be punctual to his appointment, and then the bishop withdrew, muttering something as to the necessity of looking at his letters. dr. tempest took a newspaper in his hand, which had been brought in by a servant, but mrs. proudie did not allow him to read it. "dr. tempest," she said, "this is a matter of most vital importance. i am quite sure that you feel that it is so." "what matter, madam?" said the doctor. "this terrible affair of mr. crawley's. if something be not done the whole diocese will be disgraced." then she waited for an answer, but receiving none she was obliged to continue. "of the poor man's guilt there can, i fear, be no doubt." then there was another pause, but still the doctor made no answer. "and if he be guilty," said mrs. proudie, resolving that she would ask a question that must bring forth some reply, "can any experienced clergyman think that he can be fit to preach from the pulpit of a parish church? i am sure that you must agree with me, dr. tempest? consider the souls of the people!" "mrs. proudie," said he, "i think that we had better not discuss the matter." "not discuss it?" "i think that we had better not do so. if i understand the bishop aright, he wishes that i should take some step in the matter." "of course he does." "and therefore i must decline to make it a matter of common conversation." "common conversation, dr. tempest! i should be the last person in the world to make it a matter of common conversation. i regard this as by no means a common conversation. god forbid that it should be a common conversation. i am speaking now very seriously with reference to the interests of the church, which i think will be endangered by having among her active servants a man who has been guilty of so base a crime as theft. think of it, dr. tempest. theft! stealing money! appropriating to his own use a cheque for twenty pounds which did not belong to him! and then telling such terrible falsehoods about it! can anything be worse, anything more scandalous, anything more dangerous? indeed, dr. tempest, i do not regard this as any common conversation." the whole of this speech was not made at once, fluently, or without a break. from stop to stop mrs. proudie paused, waiting for her companion's words; but as he would not speak she was obliged to continue. "i am sure that you cannot but agree with me, dr. tempest?" she said. "i am quite sure that i shall not discuss it with you," said the doctor, very brusquely. "and why not? are you not here to discuss it?" "not with you, mrs. proudie. you must excuse me for saying so, but i am not here to discuss any such matter with you. were i to do so, i should be guilty of a very great impropriety." "all these things are in common between me and the bishop," said mrs. proudie, with an air that was intended to be dignified, but which nevertheless displayed her rising anger. "as to that i know nothing, but they cannot be in common between you and me. it grieves me much that i should have to speak to you in such a strain, but my duty allows me no alternative. i think, if you will permit me, i will take a turn round the garden before i keep my appointment with his lordship." and so saying he escaped from the lady without hearing her further remonstrance. it still wanted nearly an hour to the time named by the bishop, and dr. tempest used it in preparing for his withdrawal from the palace as soon as his interview with the bishop should be over. after what had passed he thought that he would be justified in taking his departure without bidding adieu formally to mrs. proudie. he would say a word or two, explaining his haste, to the bishop; and then, if he could get out of the house at once, it might be that he would never see mrs. proudie again. he was rather proud of his success in their late battle, but he felt that, having been so completely victorious, it would be foolish in him to risk his laurels in the chance of another encounter. he would say not a word of what had happened to the bishop, and he thought it probable that neither would mrs. proudie speak of it,--at any rate till after he was gone. generals who are beaten out of the field are not quick to talk of their own repulses. he, indeed, had not beaten mrs. proudie out of the field. he had, in fact, himself run away. but he had left his foe silenced; and with such a foe, and in such a contest, that was everything. he put up his portmanteau, therefore, and prepared for his final retreat. then he rang his bell and desired the servant to show him to the bishop's study. the servant did so, and when he entered the room the first thing he saw was mrs. proudie sitting in an arm-chair near the window. the bishop was also in the room, sitting with his arms upon the writing-table, and his head upon his hands. it was very evident that mrs. proudie did not consider herself to have been beaten, and that she was prepared to fight another battle. "will you sit down, dr. tempest?" she said, motioning him with her hand to a chair opposite to that occupied by the bishop. dr. tempest sat down. he felt that at the moment he had nothing else to do, and that he must restrain any remonstrance that he might make till mr. crawley's name should be mentioned. he was almost lost in admiration of the woman. he had left her, as he thought, utterly vanquished and prostrated by his determined but uncourteous usage of her; and here she was, present again upon the field of battle as though she had never been even wounded. he could see that there had been words between her and the bishop, and that she had carried a point on which the bishop had been very anxious to have his own way. he could perceive at once that the bishop had begged her to absent herself and was greatly chagrined that he should not have prevailed with her. there she was,--and as dr. tempest was resolved that he would neither give advice nor receive instructions respecting mr. crawley in her presence, he could only draw upon his courage and his strategy for the coming warfare. for a few moments no one said a word. the bishop felt that if dr. tempest would only begin, the work on hand might be got through, even in his wife's presence. mrs. proudie was aware that her husband should begin. if he would do so, and if dr. tempest would listen and then reply, she might gradually make her way into the conversation; and if her words were once accepted then she could say all that she desired to say; then she could play her part and become somebody in the episcopal work. when once she should have been allowed liberty of speech, the enemy would be powerless to stop her. but all this dr. tempest understood quite as well as she understood it, and had they waited till night he would not have been the first to mention mr. crawley's name. the bishop sighed aloud. the sigh might be taken as expressing grief over the sin of the erring brother whose conduct they were then to discuss, and was not amiss. but when the sigh with its attendant murmurs had passed away it was necessary that some initiative step should be taken. "dr. tempest," said the bishop, "what are we to do about this poor stiff-necked gentleman?" still dr. tempest did not speak. "there is no clergyman in the diocese," continued the bishop, "in whose prudence and wisdom i have more confidence than in yours. and i know, too, that you are by no means disposed to severity where severe measures are not necessary. what ought we to do? if he has been guilty, he should not surely return to his pulpit after the expiration of such punishment as the law of his country may award to him." dr. tempest looked at mrs. proudie, thinking that she might perhaps say a word now; but mrs. proudie knew her part better and was silent. angry as she was, she contrived to hold her peace. let the debate once begin and she would be able to creep into it, and then to lead it,--and so she would hold her own. but she had met a foe as wary as herself. "my lord," said the doctor, "it will perhaps be well that you should communicate your wishes to me in writing. if it be possible for me to comply with them i will do so." "yes;--exactly; no doubt;--but i thought that perhaps we might better understand each other if we had a few words of quiet conversation upon the subject. i believe you know the steps that i have--" but here the bishop was interrupted. dr. tempest rose from his chair, and advancing to the table put both his hands upon it. "my lord," he said, "i feel myself compelled to say that which i would very much rather leave unsaid, were it possible. i feel the difficulty, and i may say delicacy, of my position; but i should be untrue to my conscience and to my feeling of what is right in such matters, if i were to take any part in a discussion on this matter in the presence of--a lady." "dr. tempest, what is your objection?" said mrs. proudie, rising from her chair, and coming also to the table, so that from thence she might confront her opponent; and as she stood opposite to dr. tempest she also put both her hands upon the table. "my dear, perhaps you will leave us for a few moments," said the bishop. poor bishop! poor weak bishop! as the words came from his mouth he knew that they would be spoken in vain, and that, if so, it would have been better for him to have left them unspoken. "why should i be dismissed from your room without a reason?" said mrs. proudie. "cannot dr. tempest understand that a wife may share her husband's counsels,--as she must share his troubles? if he cannot, i pity him very much as to his own household." "dr. tempest," said the bishop, "mrs. proudie takes the greatest possible interest in everything concerning the diocese." "i am sure, my lord," said the doctor, "that you will see how unseemly it would be that i should interfere in any way between you and mrs. proudie. i certainly will not do so. i can only say again that if you will communicate to me your wishes in writing, i will attend to them,--if it be possible." "you mean to be stubborn," said mrs. proudie, whose prudence was beginning to give way under the great provocation to which her temper was being subjected. "yes, madam; if it is to be called stubbornness, i must be stubborn. my lord, mrs. proudie spoke to me on this subject in the breakfast-room after you had left it, and i then ventured to explain to her that in accordance with such light as i have on the matter, i could not discuss it in her presence. i greatly grieve that i failed to make myself understood by her,--as, otherwise, this unpleasantness might have been spared." "i understood you very well, dr. tempest, and i think you to be a most unreasonable man. indeed, i might use a much harsher word." "you may use any word you please, mrs. proudie," said the doctor. "my dear, i really think you had better leave us for a few minutes," said the bishop. "no, my lord,--no," said mrs. proudie, turning round upon her husband. "not so. it would be most unbecoming that i should be turned out of a room in this palace by an uncourteous word from a parish clergyman. it would be unseemly. if dr. tempest forgets his duty, i will not forget mine. there are other clergymen in the diocese besides dr. tempest who can undertake the very easy task of this commission. as for his having been appointed rural dean i don't know how many years ago, it is a matter of no consequence whatever. in such a preliminary inquiry any three clergymen will suffice. it need not be done by the rural dean at all." "my dear!" "i will not be turned out of this room by dr. tempest;--and that is enough." "my lord," said the doctor, "you had better write to me as i proposed to you just now." "his lordship will not write. his lordship will do nothing of the kind," said mrs. proudie. "my dear!" said the bishop, driven in his perplexity beyond all carefulness of reticence. "my dear, i do wish you wouldn't,--i do indeed. if you would only go away!" "i will not go away, my lord," said mrs. proudie. "but i will," said dr. tempest, feeling true compassion for the unfortunate man whom he saw writhing in agony before him. "it will manifestly be for the best that i should retire. my lord, i wish you good morning. mrs. proudie, good morning." and so he left the room. "a most stubborn and a most ungentlemanlike man," said mrs. proudie, as soon as the door was closed behind the retreating rural dean. "i do not think that in the whole course of my life i ever met with any one so insubordinate and so ill-mannered. he is worse than the archdeacon." as she uttered these words she paced about the room. the bishop said nothing; and when she herself had been silent for a few minutes she turned upon him. "bishop," she said, "i hope that you agree with me. i expect that you will agree with me in a matter that is of so much moment to my comfort, and i may say to my position generally in the diocese. bishop, why do you not speak?" "you have behaved in such a way that i do not know that i shall ever speak again," said the bishop. "what is this that you say?" "i say that i do not know how i shall ever speak again. you have disgraced me." "disgraced you! i disgrace you! it is you that disgrace yourself by saying such words." "very well. let it be so. perhaps you will go away now and leave me to myself. i have got a bad headache, and i can't talk any more. oh dear, oh dear, what will he think of it!" "and you mean to tell me that i have been wrong!" "yes, you have been wrong,--very wrong. why didn't you go away when i asked you? you are always being wrong. i wish i had never come to barchester. in any other position i should not have felt it so much. as it is i do not know how i can ever show my face again." "not have felt what so much, mr. proudie?" said the wife, going back in the excitement of her anger to the nomenclature of old days. "and this is to be my return for all my care in your behalf! allow me to tell you, sir, that in any position in which you may be placed i know what is due to you, and that your dignity will never lose anything in my hands. i wish that you were as well able to take care of it yourself." then she stalked out of the room, and left the poor man alone. bishop proudie sat alone in his study throughout the whole day. once or twice in the course of the morning his chaplain came to him on some matter of business, and was answered with a smile,--the peculiar softness of which the chaplain did not fail to attribute to the right cause. for it was soon known throughout the household that there had been a quarrel. could he quite have made up his mind to do so,--could he have resolved that it would be altogether better to quarrel with his wife,--the bishop would have appealed to the chaplain, and have asked at any rate for sympathy. but even yet he could not bring himself to confess his misery, and to own himself to another to be the wretch that he was. then during the long hours of the day he sat thinking of it all. how happy could he be if it were only possible for him to go away, and become even a curate in a parish, without his wife! would there ever come to him a time of freedom? would she ever die? he was older than she, and of course he would die first. would it not be a fine thing if he could die at once, and thus escape from his misery? what could he do, even supposing himself strong enough to fight the battle? he could not lock her up. he could not even very well lock her out of his room. she was his wife, and must have the run of his house. he could not altogether debar her from the society of the diocesan clergymen. he had, on this very morning, taken strong measures with her. more than once or twice he had desired her to leave the room. what was there to be done with a woman who would not obey her husband,--who would not even leave him to the performance of his own work? what a blessed thing it would be if a bishop could go away from his home to his work every day like a clerk in a public office,--as a stone-mason does! but there was no such escape for him. he could not go away. and how was he to meet her again on this very day? and then for hours he thought of dr. tempest and mr. crawley, considering what he had better do to repair the shipwreck of the morning. at last he resolved that he would write to the doctor; and before he had again seen his wife, he did write his letter, and he sent it off. in this letter he made no direct allusion to the occurrence of the morning, but wrote as though there had not been any fixed intention of a personal discussion between them. "i think it will be better that there should be a commission," he said, "and i would suggest that you should have four other clergymen with you. perhaps you will select two yourself out of your rural deanery; and, if you do not object, i will name as the other two mr. thumble and mr. quiverful, who are both resident in the city." as he wrote these two names he felt ashamed of himself, knowing that he had chosen the two men as being special friends of his wife, and feeling that he should have been brave enough to throw aside all considerations of his wife's favour,--especially at this moment, in which he was putting on his armour to do battle against her. "it is not probable," he continued to say in his letter, "that you will be able to make your report until after the trial of this unfortunate gentleman shall have taken place, and a verdict shall have been given. should he be acquitted, that, i imagine, should end the matter. there can be no reason why we should attempt to go beyond the verdict of a jury. but should he be found guilty, i think we ought to be ready with such steps as it will be becoming for us to take at the expiration of any sentence which may be pronounced. it will be, at any rate, expedient that in such case the matter should be brought before an ecclesiastical court." he knew well as he wrote this, that he was proposing something much milder than the course intended by his wife when she had instigated him to take proceedings in the matter; but he did not much regard that now. though he had been weak enough to name certain clergymen as assessors with the rural dean, because he thought that by doing so he would to a certain degree conciliate his wife,--though he had been so far a coward, yet he was resolved that he would not sacrifice to her his own judgment and his own conscience in his manner of proceeding. he kept no copy of his letter, so that he might be unable to show her his very words when she should ask to see them. of course he would tell her what he had done; but in telling her he would keep to himself what he had said as to the result of an acquittal in a civil court. she need not yet be told that he had promised to take such a verdict as sufficing also for an ecclesiastical acquittal. in this spirit his letter was written and sent off before he again saw his wife. he did not meet her till they came together in the drawing-room before dinner. in explaining the whole truth as to circumstances as they existed at the palace at that moment, it must be acknowledged that mrs. proudie herself, great as was her courage, and wide as were the resources which she possessed within herself, was somewhat appalled by the position of affairs. i fear that it may now be too late for me to excite much sympathy in the mind of any reader on behalf of mrs. proudie. i shall never be able to make her virtues popular. but she had virtues, and their existence now made her unhappy. she did regard the dignity of her husband, and she felt at the present moment that she had almost compromised it. she did also regard the welfare of the clergymen around her, thinking of course in a general way that certain of them who agreed with her were the clergymen whose welfare should be studied, and that certain of them who disagreed with her were the clergymen whose welfare should be postponed. but now an idea made its way into her bosom that she was not perhaps doing the best for the welfare of the diocese generally. what if it should come to pass that all the clergymen of the diocese should refuse to open their mouths in her presence on ecclesiastical subjects, as dr. tempest had done? this special day was not one on which she was well contented with herself, though by no means on that account was her anger mitigated against the offending rural dean. during dinner she struggled to say a word or two to her husband, as though there had been no quarrel between them. with him the matter had gone so deep that he could not answer her in the same spirit. there were sundry members of the family present,--daughters, and a son-in-law, and a daughter's friend who was staying with them; but even in the hope of appearing to be serene before them he could not struggle through his deep despondence. he was very silent, and to his wife's words he answered hardly anything. he was courteous and gentle with them all, but he spoke as little as was possible, and during the evening he sat alone, with his head leaning on his hand,--not pretending even to read. he was aware that it was too late to make even an attempt to conceal his misery and his disgrace from his own family. his wife came to him that night in his dressing-room in a spirit of feminine softness that was very unusual with her. "my dear," said she, "let us forget what occurred this morning. if there has been any anger we are bound as christians to forget it." she stood over him as she spoke, and put her hand upon his shoulder almost caressingly. "when a man's heart is broken, he cannot forget it," was his reply. she still stood by him, and still kept her hand upon him; but she could think of no other words of comfort to say. "i will go to bed," he said. "it is the best place for me." then she left him, and he went to bed. chapter xlviii. the softness of sir raffle buffle. we have seen that john eames was prepared to start on his journey in search of the arabins, and have seen him after he had taken farewell of his office and of his master there, previous to his departure; but that matter of his departure had not been arranged altogether with comfort as far as his official interests were concerned. he had been perhaps a little abrupt in his mode of informing sir raffle buffle that there was a pressing cause for his official absence, and sir raffle had replied to him that no private pressure could be allowed to interfere with his public duties. "i must go, sir raffle, at any rate," johnny had said; "it is a matter affecting my family, and must not be neglected." "if you intend to go without leave," said sir raffle, "i presume you will first put your resignation into the hands of mr. kissing." now, mr. kissing was the secretary to the board. this had been serious undoubtedly. john eames was not specially anxious to keep his present position as private secretary to sir raffle, but he certainly had no desire to give up his profession altogether. he said nothing more to the great man on that occasion, but before he left the office he wrote a private note to the chairman expressing the extreme importance of his business, and begging that he might have leave of absence. on the next morning he received it back with a very few words written across it. "it can't be done," were the very few words which sir raffle buffle had written across the note from his private secretary. here was a difficulty which johnny had not anticipated, and which seemed to be insuperable. sir raffle would not have answered him in that strain if he had not been very much in earnest. "i should send him a medical certificate," said cradell, his friend of old. "nonsense," said eames. "i don't see that it's nonsense at all. they can't get over a medical certificate from a respectable man; and everybody has got something the matter with him of some kind." "i should go and let him do his worst," said fisher, who was another clerk. "it wouldn't be more than putting you down a place or two. as to losing your present berth you don't mind that, and they would never think of dismissing you." "but i do mind being put down a place or two," said johnny, who could not forget that were he so put down his friend fisher would gain the step which he would lose. "i should give him a barrel of oysters, and talk to him about the chancellor of the exchequer," said fitzhoward, who had been private secretary to sir raffle before eames, and might therefore be supposed to know the man. "that might have done very well if i had not asked him and been refused first," said john eames. "i'll tell you what i'll do, i'll write a long letter on a sheet of foolscap paper, with a regular margin, so that it must come before the board, and perhaps that will frighten him." when he mentioned his difficulty on that evening to mr. toogood, the lawyer begged him to give up the journey. "it will only be sending a clerk, and it won't cost so very much after all," said toogood. but johnny's pride could not allow him to give way. "i'm not going to be done about it," said he. "i'm not going to resign, but i will go even though they may dismiss me. i don't think it will come to that, but if it does it must." his uncle begged of him not to think of such an alternative; but this discussion took place after dinner, and away from the office, and eames would not submit to bow his neck to authority. "if it comes to that," said he, "a fellow might as well be a slave at once. and what is the use of a fellow having a little money if it does not make him independent? you may be sure of one thing, i shall go; and that on the day fixed." on the next morning john eames was very silent when he went into sir raffle's room at the office. there was now only this day and another before that fixed for his departure, and it was of course very necessary that matters should be arranged. but he said nothing to sir raffle during the morning. the great man himself was condescending and endeavoured to be kind. he knew that his stern refusal had greatly irritated his private secretary, and was anxious to show that, though in the cause of public duty he was obliged to be stern, he was quite willing to forget his sternness when the necessity for it had passed away. on this morning, therefore, he was very cheery. but to all his cheery good-humour john eames would make no response. late in the afternoon, when most of the men had left the office, johnny appeared before the chairman for the last time that day with a very long face. he was dressed in black, and had changed his ordinary morning coat for a frock, which gave him an appearance altogether unlike that which was customary to him. and he spoke almost in a whisper, very slowly; and when sir raffle joked,--and sir raffle often would joke,--he not only did not laugh, but he absolutely sighed. "is there anything the matter with you, eames?" asked sir raffle. "i am in great trouble," said john eames. "and what is your trouble?" "it is essential for the honour of one of my family that i should be at florence by this day week. i cannot make up my mind what i ought to do. i do not wish to lose my position in the public service, to which, as you know, i am warmly attached; but i cannot submit to see the honour of my family sacrificed!" "eames," said sir raffle, "that must be nonsense;--that must be nonsense. there can be no reason why you should always expect to have your own way in everything." "of course if i go without leave i shall be dismissed." "of course you will. it is out of the question that a young man should take the bit between his teeth in that way." "as for taking the bit between his teeth, sir raffle, i do not think that any man was ever more obedient, perhaps i should say more submissive, than i have been. but there must be a limit to everything." "what do you mean by that, mr. eames?" said sir raffle, turning in anger upon his private secretary. but johnny disregarded his anger. johnny, indeed, had made up his mind that sir raffle should be very angry. "what do you mean, mr. eames, by saying that there must be a limit? i know nothing about limits. one would suppose that you intended to make an accusation against me." "so i do. i think, sir raffle, that you are treating me with great cruelty. i have explained to you that family circumstances--" "you have explained nothing, mr. eames." "yes, i have, sir raffle. i have explained to you that matters relating to my family, which materially affect the honour of a certain one of its members, demand that i should go at once to florence. you tell me that if i go i shall be dismissed." "of course you must not go without leave. i never heard of such a thing in all my life." and sir raffle lifted up his hands towards heaven, almost in dismay. "so i have drawn up a short statement of the circumstances, which i hope may be read at the board when the question of my dismissal comes before it." "you mean to go, then?" "yes, sir raffle; i must go. the honour of a certain branch of my family demands that i should do so. as i have for some time been so especially under you, i thought it would be proper to show you what i have said before i send my letter in, and therefore i have brought it with me. here it is." and johnny handed to sir raffle an official document of large dimensions. sir raffle began to be uncomfortable. he had acquired a character for tyranny in the public service of which he was aware, though he thought that he knew well that he had never deserved it. some official big-wig,--perhaps that chancellor of the exchequer of whom he was so fond,--had on one occasion hinted to him that a little softness of usage would be compatible with the prejudices of the age. softness was impossible to sir raffle; but his temper was sufficiently under his control to enable him to encounter the rebuke, and to pull himself up from time to time when he found himself tempted to speak loud and to take things with a high hand. he knew that a clerk should not be dismissed for leaving his office, who could show that his absence had been caused by some matter really affecting the interest of his family; and that were he to drive eames to go on this occasion without leave, eames would be simply called in to state what was this matter of moment which had taken him away. probably he had stated that matter of moment in this very document which sir raffle was holding in his hand. but sir raffle was not willing to be conquered by the document. if it was necessary that he should give way, he would much prefer to give way,--out of his own good-nature, let us say,--without looking at the document at all. "i must, under the circumstances, decline to read this," said he, "unless it should come before me officially," and he handed back the paper. "i thought it best to let you see it if you pleased," said john eames. then he turned round as though he were going to leave the room; but suddenly he turned back again. "i don't like to leave you, sir raffle, without saying good-by. i do not suppose we shall meet again. of course you must do your duty, and i do not wish you to think that i have any personal ill-will against you." so saying, he put out his hand to sir raffle as though to take a final farewell. sir raffle looked at him in amazement. he was dressed, as has been said, in black, and did not look like the john eames of every day to whom sir raffle was accustomed. "i don't understand this at all," said sir raffle. "i was afraid that it was only too plain," said john eames. "and you must go?" "oh, yes;--that's certain. i have pledged myself to go." "of course i don't know anything of this matter that is so important to your family." "no; you do not," said johnny. "can't you explain it to me, then? so that i may have some reason,--if there is any reason." then john told the story of mr. crawley,--a considerable portion of the story; and in his telling of it, i think it probable that he put more weight upon the necessity of his mission to italy than it could have fairly been made to bear. in the course of the narration sir raffle did once contrive to suggest that a lawyer by going to florence might do the business at any rate as well as john eames. but johnny denied this. "no, sir raffle, it is impossible; quite impossible," he said. "if you saw the lawyer who is acting in the matter, mr. toogood, who is also my uncle, he would tell you the same." sir raffle had already heard something of the story of mr. crawley, and was now willing to accept the sad tragedy of that case as an excuse for his private secretary's somewhat insubordinate conduct. "under the circumstances, eames, i suppose you must go; but i think you should have told me all about it before." "i did not like to trouble you, sir raffle, with private business." "it is always best to tell the whole of a story," said sir raffle. johnny being quite content with the upshot of the negotiations accepted this gentle rebuke in silence, and withdrew. on the next day he appeared again at the office in his ordinary costume, and an idea crossed sir raffle's brain that he had been partly "done" by the affectation of a costume. "i'll be even with him some day yet," said sir raffle to himself. "i've got my leave, boys," said eames when he went out into the room in which his three friends sat. "no!" said cradell. "but i have," said johnny. "you don't mean that old huffle scuffle has given it out of his own head?" said fisher. "indeed he has," said johnny; "and bade god bless me into the bargain." "and you didn't give him the oysters?" said fitzhoward. "not a shell," said johnny. "i'm blessed if you don't beat cock-fighting," said cradell, lost in admiration at his friend's adroitness. we know how john passed his evening after that. he went first to see lily dale at her uncle's lodgings in sackville street, from thence he was taken to the presence of the charming madalina in porchester terrace, and then wound up the night with his friend conway dalrymple. when he got to his bed he felt himself to have been triumphant, but in spite of his triumph he was ashamed of himself. why had he left lily to go to madalina? as he thought of this he quoted to himself against himself hamlet's often-quoted appeal to the two portraits. how could he not despise himself in that he could find any pleasure with madalina, having a lily dale to fill his thoughts? "but she is not fair for me," he said to himself,--thinking thus to comfort himself. but he did not comfort himself. on the next morning early his uncle, mr. toogood, met him at the dover railway station. "upon my word, johnny, you're a clever fellow," said he. "i never thought that you'd make it all right with sir raffle." "as right as a trivet, uncle. there are some people, if you can only get to learn the length of their feet, you can always fit them with shoes afterwards." [illustration: "as right as a trivet, uncle."] "you'll go on direct to florence, johnny?" "yes; i think so. from what we have heard, mrs. arabin must be either there or at venice, and i don't suppose i could learn from any one at paris at which town she is staying at this moment." "her address is florence;--poste restante, florence. you will be sure to find out at any of the hotels where she is staying, or where she has been staying." "but when i have found her, i don't suppose she can tell me anything," said johnny. "who can tell? she may or she may not. my belief is that the money was her present altogether, and not his. it seems that they don't mix their moneys. he has always had some scruple about it because of her son by a former marriage, and they always have different accounts at their bankers'. i found that out when i was at barchester." "but crawley was his friend." "yes, crawley was his friend; but i don't know that fifty-pound notes have always been so very plentiful with him. deans' incomes ain't what they were, you know." "i don't know anything about that," said johnny. "well; they are not. and he has nothing of his own, as far as i can learn. it would be just the thing for her to do,--to give the money to his friend. at any rate she will tell you whether it was so or not." "and then i will go on to jerusalem, after him." "should you find it necessary. he will probably be on his way back, and she will know where you can hit him on the road. you must make him understand that it is essential that he should be here some little time before the trial. you can understand, johnny,"--and as he spoke mr. toogood lowered his voice to a whisper, though they were walking together on the platform of the railway station, and could not possibly have been overheard by any one. "you can understand that it may be necessary to prove that he is not exactly compos mentis, and if so it will be essential that he should have some influential friend near him. otherwise that bishop will trample him into dust." if mr. toogood could have seen the bishop at this time and have read the troubles of the poor man's heart, he would hardly have spoken of him as being so terrible a tyrant. "i understand all that," said johnny. "so that, in fact, i shall expect to see you both together," said toogood. "i hope the dean is a good fellow." "they tell me he is a very good fellow." "i never did see much of bishops or deans as yet," said johnny, "and i should feel rather awe-struck travelling with one." "i should fancy that a dean is very much like anybody else." "but the man's hat would cow me." "i daresay you'll find him walking about jerusalem with a wide-awake on, and a big stick in his hand, probably smoking a cigar. deans contrive to get out of their armour sometimes, as the knights of old used to do. bishops, i fancy, find it more difficult. well;--good-by, old fellow. i'm very much obliged to you for going,--i am, indeed. i don't doubt but what we shall pull through, somehow." then mr. toogood went home to breakfast, and from his own house he proceeded to his office. when he had been there an hour or two, there came to him a messenger from the income-tax office, with an official note addressed to himself by sir raffle buffle,--a note which looked to be very official. sir raffle buffle presented his compliments to mr. toogood, and could mr. toogood favour sir r. b. with the present address of mr. john eames. "old fox," said mr. toogood;--"but then such a stupid old fox! as if it was likely that i should have peached on johnny if anything was wrong." so mr. toogood sent his compliments to sir raffle buffle, and begged to inform sir r. b. that mr. john eames was away on very particular family business, which would take him in the first instance to florence;--but that from florence he would probably have to go on to jerusalem without the loss of an hour. "stupid old fool!" said mr. toogood, as he sent off his reply by the messenger. chapter xlix. near the close. [illustration] i wonder whether any one will read these pages who has never known anything of the bitterness of a family quarrel? if so, i shall have a reader very fortunate, or else very cold-blooded. it would be wrong to say that love produces quarrels; but love does produce those intimate relations of which quarrelling is too often one of the consequences,--one of the consequences which frequently seem to be so natural, and sometimes seem to be unavoidable. one brother rebukes the other,--and what brothers ever lived together between whom there was no such rebuking?--then some warm word is misunderstood and hotter words follow and there is a quarrel. the husband tyrannizes, knowing that it is his duty to direct, and the wife disobeys, or only partially obeys, thinking that a little independence will become her,--and so there is a quarrel. the father, anxious only for his son's good, looks into that son's future with other eyes than those of his son himself,--and so there is a quarrel. they come very easily, these quarrels, but the quittance from them is sometimes terribly difficult. much of thought is necessary before the angry man can remember that he too in part may have been wrong; and any attempt at such thinking is almost beyond the power of him who is carefully nursing his wrath, lest it cool! but the nursing of such quarrelling kills all happiness. the very man who is nursing his wrath, lest it cool,--his wrath against one whom he loves perhaps the best of all whom it has been given him to love,--is himself wretched as long as it lasts. his anger poisons every pleasure of his life. he is sullen at his meals, and cannot understand his book as he turns its pages. his work, let it be what it may, is ill done. he is full of his quarrel,--nursing it. he is telling himself how much he has loved that wicked one, how many have been his sacrifices for that wicked one, and that now that wicked one is repaying him simply with wickedness! and yet the wicked one is at that very moment dearer to him than ever. if that wicked one could only be forgiven how sweet would the world be again! and yet he nurses his wrath. so it was in these days with archdeacon grantly. he was very angry with his son. it is hardly too much to say that in every moment of his life, whether waking or sleeping, he was thinking of the injury that his son was doing him. he had almost come to forget the fact that his anger had first been roused by the feeling that his son was about to do himself an injury,--to cut his own throat. various other considerations had now added themselves to that, and filled not only his mind but his daily conversation with his wife. how terrible would be the disgrace to lord hartletop, how incurable the injury to griselda, the marchioness, should the brother-in-law of the one, and the brother of the other, marry the daughter of a convicted thief! "of himself he would say nothing." so he declared constantly, though of himself he did say a great deal. "of himself he would say nothing, though of course such a marriage would ruin him in the county." "my dear," said his wife, "that is nonsense. that really is nonsense. i feel sure there is not a single person in the county who would think of the marriage in such a light." then the archdeacon would have quarrelled with his wife too, had she not been too wise to admit such a quarrel. mrs. grantly was very wise and knew that it took two persons to make a quarrel. he told her over and over again that she was in league with her son,--that she was encouraging her son to marry grace crawley. "i believe that in your heart you wish it," he once said to her. "no, my dear, i do not wish it. i do not think it a becoming marriage. but if he does marry her, i should wish to receive his wife in my house, and certainly should not quarrel with him." "i will never receive her," the archdeacon had replied; "and as for him, i can only say that in such case i will make no provision for his family." it will be remembered that the archdeacon had on a former occasion instructed his wife to write to their son and tell him of his father's determination. mrs. grantly had so manoeuvred that a little time had been gained, and that those instructions had not been insisted upon in all their bitterness. since that time major grantly had renewed his assurance that he would marry grace crawley if grace crawley would accept him,--writing on this occasion direct to his father,--and had asked his father whether, in such case, he was to look forward to be disinherited. "it is essential that i should know," the major had said, "because in such case i must take immediate measures for leaving this place." his father had sent him back his letter, writing a few words at the bottom of it. "if you do as you propose above, you must expect nothing from me." the words were written in large round handwriting, very hurriedly, and the son when he received them perfectly understood the mood of his father's mind when he wrote them. then there came tidings, addressed on this occasion to mrs. grantly, that cosby lodge was to be given up. lady-day had come, and the notice, necessarily to be given at that period, was so given. "i know this will grieve you," major grantly had said, "but my father has driven me to it." this, in itself, was a cause of great sorrow, both to the archdeacon and to mrs. grantly, as there were circumstances connected with cosby lodge which made them think that it was a very desirable residence for their son. "i shall sell everything about the place and go abroad at once," he said in a subsequent letter. "my present idea is that i shall settle myself at pau, as my income will suffice for me to live there, and education for edith will be cheap. at any rate i will not continue in england. i could never be happy here in circumstances so altered. of course i should not have left my profession, unless i had understood from my father that the income arising from it would not be necessary to me. i do not, however, mean to complain, but simply tell you that i shall go." there were many letters between the mother and son in those days. "i shall stay till after the trial," he said. "if she will then go with me, well and good; but whether she will or not, i shall not remain here." all this seemed to mrs. grantly to be peculiarly unfortunate, for, had he not resolved to go, things might even yet have righted themselves. from what she could now understand of the character of miss crawley, whom she did not know personally, she thought it probable that grace, in the event of her father being found guilty by the jury, would absolutely and persistently refuse the offer made to her. she would be too good, as mrs. grantly put it to herself, to bring misery and disgrace into another family. but should mr. crawley be acquitted, and should the marriage then take place, the archdeacon himself might probably be got to forgive it. in either case there would be no necessity for breaking up the house at cosby lodge. but her dear son henry, her best beloved, was obstinate and stiff-necked, and would take no advice. "he is even worse than his father," she said, in her short-lived anger, to her own father, to whom alone at this time she could unburden her griefs, seeking consolation and encouragement. it was her habit to go over to the deanery at any rate twice a week at this time, and on the occasion of one of the visits so made, she expressed very strongly her distress at the family quarrel which had come among them. the old man took his grandson's part through and through. "i do not at all see why he should not marry the young lady if he likes her. as for money, there ought to be enough without his having to look for a wife with a fortune." "it is not a question of money, papa." "and as to rank," continued mr. harding, "henry will not at any rate be going lower than his father did when he married you;--not so low indeed, for at that time i was only a minor canon, and mr. crawley is in possession of a benefice." "papa, all that is nonsense. it is, indeed." "very likely, my dear." "it is not because mr. crawley is only perpetual curate of hogglestock, that the archdeacon objects to the marriage. it has nothing to do with that at all. at the present moment he is in disgrace." "under a cloud, my dear. let us pray that it may be only a passing cloud." "all the world thinks that he was guilty. and then he is such a man:--so singular, so unlike anybody else! you know, papa, that i don't think very much of money, merely as money." "i hope not, my dear. money is worth thinking of, but it is not worth very much thought." "but it does give advantages, and the absence of such advantages must be very much felt in the education of a girl. you would hardly wish henry to marry a young woman who, from want of money, had not been brought up among ladies. it is not miss crawley's fault, but such has been her lot. we cannot ignore these deficiencies, papa." "certainly not, my dear." "you would not, for instance, wish that henry should marry a kitchen-maid." "but is miss crawley a kitchen-maid, susan?" "i don't quite say that." "i am told that she has been educated infinitely better than most of the young ladies in the neighbourhood," said mr. harding. "i believe that her father has taught her greek; and i suppose she has learned something of french at that school at silverbridge." "then the kitchen-maid theory is sufficiently disposed of," said mr. harding, with mild triumph. "you know what i mean, papa. but the fact is, that it is impossible to deal with men. they will never be reasonable. a marriage such as this would be injurious to henry; but it will not be ruinous; and as to disinheriting him for it, that would be downright wicked." "i think so," said mr. harding. "but the archdeacon will look at it as though it would destroy henry and edith altogether, while you speak of it as though it were the best thing in the world." "if the young people love each other, i think it would be the best thing in the world," said mr. harding. "but, papa, you cannot but think that his father's wish should go for something," said mrs. grantly, who, desirous as she was on the one side to support her son, could not bear that her husband should, on the other side, be declared to be altogether in the wrong. "i do not know, my dear," said mr. harding; "but i do think, that if the two young people are fond of each other, and if there is anything for them to live upon, it cannot be right to keep them apart. you know, my dear, she is the daughter of a gentleman." mrs. grantly upon this left her father almost brusquely, without speaking another word on the subject; for, though she was opposed to the vehement anger of her husband, she could not endure the proposition now made by her father. mr. harding was at this time living all alone in the deanery. for some few years the deanery had been his home, and as his youngest daughter was the dean's wife, there could be no more comfortable resting-place for the evening of his life. during the last month or two the days had gone tediously with him; for he had had the large house all to himself, and he was a man who did not love solitude. it is hard to conceive that the old, whose thoughts have been all thought out, should ever love to live alone. solitude is surely for the young, who have time before them for the execution of schemes, and who can, therefore, take delight in thinking. in these days the poor old man would wander about the rooms, shambling from one chamber to another, and would feel ashamed when the servants met him ever on the move. he would make little apologies for his uneasiness, which they would accept graciously, understanding, after a fashion, why it was that he was uneasy. "he ain't got nothing to do," said the housemaid to the cook, "and as for reading, they say that some of the young ones can read all day sometimes, and all night too; but, bless you, when you're nigh eighty, reading don't go for much." the housemaid was right as to mr. harding's reading. he was not one who had read so much in his earlier days as to enable him to make reading go far with him now that he was near eighty. so he wandered about the room, and sat here for a few minutes, and there for a few minutes, and though he did not sleep much, he made the hours of the night as many as was possible. every morning he shambled across from the deanery to the cathedral, and attended the morning service, sitting in the stall which he had occupied for fifty years. the distance was very short, not exceeding, indeed, a hundred yards from a side-door in the deanery to another side-door into the cathedral; but short as it was there had come to be a question whether he should be allowed to go alone. it had been feared that he might fall on his passage and hurt himself; for there was a step here, and a step there, and the light was not very good in the purlieus of the old cathedral. a word or two had been said once, and the offer of an arm to help him had been made; but he had rejected the proffered assistance,--softly, indeed, but still firmly,--and every day he tottered off by himself, hardly lifting his feet as he went, and aiding himself on his journey by a hand upon the wall when he thought that nobody was looking at him. but many did see him, and they who knew him,--ladies generally of the city,--would offer him a hand. nobody was milder in his dislikings than mr. harding; but there were ladies in barchester upon whose arm he would always decline to lean, bowing courteously as he did so, and saying a word or two of constrained civility. there were others whom he would allow to accompany him home to the door of the deanery, with whom he delighted to linger and chat if the morning was warm, and to whom he would tell little stories of his own doings in the cathedral services in the old days, when bishop grantly had ruled in the diocese. never a word did he say against bishop proudie, or against bishop proudie's wife; but the many words which he did say in praise of bishop grantly,--who, by his showing, was surely one of the best of churchmen who ever walked through this vale of sorrow,--were as eloquent in dispraise of the existing prelate as could have been any more clearly-pointed phrases. this daily visit to the cathedral, where he would say his prayers as he had said them for so many years, and listen to the organ, of which he knew all the power and every blemish as though he himself had made the stops and fixed the pipes, was the chief occupation of his life. it was a pity that it could not have been made to cover a larger portion of the day. it was sometimes sad enough to watch him as he sat alone. he would have a book near him, and for a while would keep it in his hands. it would generally be some volume of good old standard theology with which he had been, or supposed himself to have been, conversant from his youth. but the book would soon be laid aside, and gradually he would move himself away from it, and he would stand about in the room, looking now out of a window from which he would fancy that he could not be seen, or gazing up at some print which he had known for years; and then he would sit down for a while in one chair, and for a while in another, while his mind was wandering back into old days, thinking of old troubles and remembering his old joys. and he had a habit, when he was sure that he was not watched, of creeping up to a great black wooden case, which always stood in one corner of the sitting-room which he occupied in the deanery. mr. harding, when he was younger, had been a performer on the violoncello, and in this case there was still the instrument from which he had been wont to extract the sounds which he had so dearly loved. now in these latter days he never made any attempt to play. soon after he had come to the deanery there had fallen upon him an illness, and after that he had never again asked for his bow. they who were around him,--his daughter chiefly and her husband,--had given the matter much thought, arguing with themselves whether or no it would be better to invite him to resume the task he had so loved; for of all the works of his life this playing on the violoncello had been the sweetest to him; but even before that illness his hand had greatly failed him, and the dean and mrs. arabin had agreed that it would be better to let the matter pass without a word. he had never asked to be allowed to play. he had expressed no regrets. when he himself would propose that his daughter should "give them a little music,"--and he would make such a proposition on every evening that was suitable,--he would never say a word of those former performances at which he himself had taken a part. but it had become known to mrs. arabin, through the servants, that he had once dragged the instrument forth from its case when he had thought the house to be nearly deserted; and a wail of sounds had been heard, very low, very short-lived, recurring now and again at fitful intervals. he had at those times attempted to play, as though with a muffled bow,--so that none should know of his vanity and folly. then there had been further consultations at the deanery, and it had been again agreed that it would be best to say nothing to him of his music. in these latter days of which i am now speaking he would never draw the instrument out of its case. indeed he was aware that it was too heavy for him to handle without assistance. but he would open the prison door, and gaze upon the thing that he loved, and he would pass his fingers among the broad strings, and ever and anon he would produce from one of them a low, melancholy, almost unearthly sound. and then he would pause, never daring to produce two such notes in succession,--one close upon the other. and these last sad moans of the old fiddle were now known through the household. they were the ghosts of the melody of days long past. he imagined that his visits to the box were unsuspected,--that none knew of the folly of his old fingers which could not keep themselves from touching the wires; but the voice of the violoncello had been recognized by the servants and by his daughter, and when that low wail was heard through the house,--like the last dying note of a dirge,--they would all know that mr. harding was visiting his ancient friend. when the dean and mrs. arabin had first talked of going abroad for a long visit, it had been understood that mr. harding should pass the period of their absence with his other daughter at plumstead; but when the time came he begged of mrs. arabin to be allowed to remain in his old rooms. "of course i shall go backwards and forwards," he had said. "there is nothing i like so much as a change now and then." the result had been that he had gone once to plumstead during the dean's absence. when he had thus remonstrated, begging to be allowed to remain in barchester, mrs. arabin had declared her intention of giving up her tour. in telling her father of this she had not said that her altered purpose had arisen from her disinclination to leave him alone;--but he had perceived that it was so, and had then consented to be taken over to plumstead. there was nothing, he said, which he would like so much as going over to plumstead for four or five months. it had ended in his having his own way altogether. the arabins had gone upon their tour, and he was left in possession of the deanery. "i should not like to die out of barchester," he said to himself in excuse to himself for his disinclination to sojourn long under the archdeacon's roof. but, in truth, the archdeacon, who loved him well and who, after a fashion, had always been good to him,--who had always spoken of the connexion which had bound the two families together as the great blessing of his life,--was too rough in his greetings for the old man. mr. harding had ever mixed something of fear with his warm affection for his elder son-in-law, and now in these closing hours of his life he could not avoid a certain amount of shrinking from that loud voice,--a certain inaptitude to be quite at ease in that commanding presence. the dean, his second son-in-law, had been a modern friend in comparison with the archdeacon; but the dean was more gentle with him; and then the dean's wife had ever been the dearest to him of human beings. it may be a doubt whether one of the dean's children was not now almost more dear, and whether in these days he did not have more free communication with that little girl than with any other human being. her name was susan, but he had always called her posy, having himself invented for her that soubriquet. when it had been proposed to him to pass the winter and spring at plumstead, the suggestion had been made alluring by a promise that posy also should be taken to mrs. grantly's house. but he, as we have seen, had remained at the deanery, and posy had remained with him. posy was now five years old, and could talk well, and had her own ideas of things. posy's eyes,--hers, and no others besides her own,--were allowed to see the inhabitant of the big black case; and now that the deanery was so nearly deserted, posy's fingers had touched the strings, and had produced an infantine moan. "grandpa, let me do it again." twang! it was not, however, in truth, a twang, but a sound as of a prolonged dull, almost deadly, hum-m-m-m-m! on this occasion the moan was not entirely infantine,--posy's fingers having been something too strong,--and the case was closed and locked, and grandpapa shook his head. "but mrs. baxter won't be angry," said posy. mrs. baxter was the housekeeper in the deanery, and had mr. harding under her especial charge. "no, my darling; mrs. baxter will not be angry, but we mustn't disturb the house." "no," said posy, with much of important awe in her tone; "we mustn't disturb the house; must we, grandpapa?" and so she gave in her adhesion to the closing of the case. but posy could play cat's-cradle, and as cat's-cradle did not disturb the house at all, there was a good deal of cat's-cradle played in these days. posy's fingers were so soft and pretty, so small and deft, that the dear old man delighted in taking the strings from them, and in having them taken from his own by those tender little digits. [illustration: posy and her grandpapa.] on the afternoon after the conversation respecting grace crawley which is recorded in the early part of this chapter, a messenger from barchester went over to plumstead, and a part of his mission consisted of a note from mrs. baxter to mrs. grantly, beginning, "honoured madam," and informing mrs. grantly, among other things, that her "respected papa," as mrs. baxter called him, was not quite so well as usual; not that mrs. baxter thought there was much the matter. mr. harding had been to the cathedral service, as was usual with him, but had come home leaning on a lady's arm, who had thought it well to stay with him at the door till it had been opened for him. after that "miss posy" had found him asleep, and had been unable,--or if not unable, unwilling, to wake him. "miss posy" had come down to mrs. baxter somewhat in a fright, and hence this letter had been written. mrs. baxter thought that there was nothing "to fright" mrs. grantly, and she wasn't sure that she should have written at all only that dick was bound to go over to plumstead with the wool; but as dick was going, mrs. baxter thought it proper to send her duty, and to say that to her humble way of thinking perhaps it might be best that mr. harding shouldn't go alone to the cathedral every morning. "if the dear reverend gentleman was to get a tumble, ma'am," said the letter, "it would be awkward." then mrs. grantly remembered that she had left her father almost without a greeting on the previous day, and she resolved that she would go over very early on the following morning,--so early that she would be at the deanery before her father should have gone to the cathedral. "he ought to have come over here, and not stayed there by himself," said the archdeacon, when his wife told him of her intention. "it is too late to think of that now, my dear; and one can understand, i think, that he should not like leaving the cathedral as long as he can attend it. the truth is he does not like being out of barchester." "he would be much better here," said the archdeacon. "of course you can have the carriage and go over. we can breakfast at eight; and if you can bring him back with you, do. i should tell him that he ought to come." mrs. grantly made no answer to this, knowing very well that she could not bring herself to go beyond the gentlest persuasion with her father, and on the next morning she was at the deanery by ten o'clock. half-past ten was the hour at which the service began. mrs. baxter contrived to meet her before she saw her father, and begged her not to let it be known that any special tidings of mr. harding's failing strength had been sent from the deanery to plumstead. "and how is my father?" asked mrs. grantly. "well, then, ma'am," said baxter, "in one sense he's finely. he took a morsel of early lamb to his dinner yesterday, and relished it ever so well,--only he gave miss posy the best part of it. and then he sat with miss posy quite happy for an hour or so. and then he slept in his chair; and you know, ma'am, we never wakes him. and after that old skulpit toddled up from the hospital,"--this was hiram's hospital, of which establishment, in the city of barchester, mr. harding had once been the warden and kind master, as has been told in former chronicles of the city,--"and your papa has said, ma'am, you know, that he is always to see any of the old men when they come up. and skulpit is sly, and no better than he should be, and got money from your father, ma'am, i know. and then he had just a drop of tea, and after that i took him his glass of port wine with my own hands. and it touched me, ma'am, so it did, when he said, 'oh, mrs. baxter, how good you are; you know well what it is i like.' and then he went to bed. i listened hard,--not from idle cur'osity, ma'am, as you, who know me, will believe, but just because it's becoming to know what he's about, as there might be an accident, you know, ma'am." "you are very good, mrs. baxter, very good." "thank ye, ma'am, for saying so. and so i listened hard; but he didn't go to his music, poor gentleman; and i think he had a quiet night. he doesn't sleep much at nights, poor gentleman, but he's very quiet; leastwise he was last night." this was the bulletin which mrs. baxter gave to mrs. grantly on that morning before mrs. grantly saw her father. she found him preparing himself for his visit to the cathedral. some year or two,--but no more,--before the date of which we are speaking, he had still taken some small part in the service; and while he had done so he had of course worn his surplice. living so close to the cathedral,--so close that he could almost walk out of the house into the transept,--he had kept his surplice in his own room, and had gone down in his vestment. it had been a bitter day to him when he had first found himself constrained to abandon the white garment which he loved. he had encountered some failure in the performance of the slight clerical task allotted to him, and the dean had tenderly advised him to desist. he did not utter one word of remonstrance. "it will perhaps be better," the dean had said. "yes,--it will be better," mr. harding had replied. "few have had accorded to them the high privilege of serving their master in his house for so many years,--though few more humbly, or with lower gifts." but on the following morning, and for nearly a week afterwards, he had been unable to face the minor canon and the vergers, and the old women who knew him so well, in his ordinary black garments. at last he went down with the dean, and occupied a stall close to the dean's seat,--far away from that in which he had sat for so many years,--and in this seat he had said his prayers ever since that day. and now his surplices were washed and ironed and folded and put away; but there were moments in which he would stealthily visit them, as he also stealthily visited his friend in the black wooden case. this was very melancholy, and the sadness of it was felt by all those who lived with him; but he never alluded himself to any of those bereavements which age brought upon him. whatever might be his regrets, he kept them ever within his own breast. posy was with him when mrs. grantly went up into his room, holding for him his hat and stick while he was engaged in brushing a suspicion of dust from his black gaiters. "grandpapa, here is aunt susan," said posy. the old man looked up with something,--with some slightest sign of that habitual fear which was always aroused within his bosom by visitations from plumstead. had mrs. arabin thoroughly understood the difference in her father's feeling toward herself and toward her sister, i think she would hardly have gone forth upon any tour while he remained with her in the deanery. it is very hard sometimes to know how intensely we are loved, and of what value our presence is to those who love us! mrs. grantly saw the look,--did not analyse it, did not quite understand it,--but felt, as she had so often felt before, that it was not altogether laden with welcome. but all this had nothing to do with the duty on which she had come; nor did it, in the slightest degree, militate against her own affection. "papa," she said, kissing him, "you are surprised to see me so early?" "well, my dear, yes;--but very glad all the same. i hope everybody is well at plumstead?" "everybody, thank you, papa." "that is well. posy and i are getting ready for church. are we not, posy?" "grandpapa is getting ready. mrs. baxter won't let me go." "no, my dear, no;--not yet, posy. when posy is a great girl she can go to cathedral every day. only then, perhaps, posy won't want to go." "i thought that, perhaps, papa, you would sit with me a little while this morning, instead of going to morning prayers." "certainly, my dear,--certainly. only i do not like not going;--for who can say how often i may be able to go again? there is so little left, susan,--so very little left." after that she had not the heart to ask him to stay, and therefore she went with him. as they passed down the stairs and out of the doors she was astonished to find how weak were his footsteps,--how powerless he was against the slightest misadventure. on this very day he would have tripped at the upward step at the cathedral door had she not been with him. "oh, papa," she said, "indeed, indeed, you should not come here alone." then he apologized for his little stumble with many words and much shame, assuring her that anybody might trip on an occasion. it was purely an accident; and though it was a comfort to him to have had her arm, he was sure that he should have recovered himself even had he been alone. he always, he said, kept quite close to the wall, so that there might be no mistake,--no possibility of an accident. all this he said volubly, but with confused words, in the covered stone passage leading into the transept. and, as he thus spoke, mrs. grantly made up her mind that her father should never again go to the cathedral alone. he never did go again to the cathedral,--alone. when they returned to the deanery, mr. harding was fluttered, weary, and unwell. when his daughter left him for a few minutes he told mrs. baxter, in confidence, the story of his accident, and his great grief that his daughter should have seen it. "laws amercy, sir, it was a blessing she was with you," said mrs. baxter; "it was, indeed, mr. harding." then mr. harding had been angry, and spoke almost crossly to mrs. baxter; but, before she left the room, he found an opportunity of begging her pardon,--not in a set speech to that effect, but by a little word of gentle kindness, which she had understood perfectly. "papa," said mrs. grantly to him as soon as she had succeeded in getting both posy and mrs. baxter out of the room,--against the doing of which, mr. harding had manoeuvred with all his little impotent skill,--"papa, you must promise me that you will not go to the cathedral again alone, till eleanor comes home." when he heard the sentence he looked at her with blank misery in his eyes. he made no attempt at remonstrance. he begged for no respite. the word had gone forth, and he knew that it must be obeyed. though he would have hidden the signs of his weakness had he been able, he would not condescend to plead that he was strong. "if you think it wrong, my dear, i will not go alone," he said. "papa, i do; indeed, i do. dear papa, i would not hurt you by saying it if i did not know that i am right." he was sitting with his hand upon the table, and, as she spoke to him, she put her hand upon his, caressing it. "my dear," he said, "you are always right." she then left him again for awhile, having some business out in the city, and he was alone in his room for an hour. what was there left to him now in the world? old as he was, and in some things almost childish, nevertheless, he thought of this keenly, and some half-realized remembrance of "the lean and slippered pantaloon" flitted across his mind, causing him a pang. what was there left to him now in the world? posy and cat's-cradle! then, in the midst of his regrets, as he sat with his back bent in his old easy-chair, with one arm over the shoulder of the chair, and the other hanging loose by his side, on a sudden there came across his face a smile as sweet as ever brightened the face of man or woman. he had been able to tell himself that he had no ground for complaint,--great ground rather for rejoicing and gratitude. had not the world and all in it been good to him; had he not children who loved him, who had done him honour, who had been to him always a crown of glory, never a mark for reproach; had not his lines fallen to him in very pleasant places; was it not his happy fate to go and leave it all amidst the good words and kind loving cares of devoted friends? whose latter days had ever been more blessed than his? and for the future--? it was as he thought of this that that smile came across his face,--as though it were already the face of an angel. and then he muttered to himself a word or two. "lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace. lord, now lettest thou thy servant depart in peace." when mrs. grantly returned she found him in jocund spirits. and yet she perceived that he was so weak that when he left his chair he could barely get across the room without assistance. mrs. baxter, indeed, had not sent to her too soon, and it was well that the prohibition had come in time to prevent some terrible accident. "papa," she said, "i think you had better go with me to plumstead. the carriage is here, and i can take you home so comfortably." but he would not allow himself to be taken on this occasion to plumstead. he smiled and thanked her, and put his hand into hers, and repeated his promise that he would not leave the house on any occasion without assistance, and declared himself specially thankful to her for coming to him on that special morning;--but he would not be taken to plumstead. "when the summer comes," he said, "then, if you will have me for a few days!" he meant no deceit, and yet he had told himself within the last hour that he should never see another summer. he could not tell even his daughter that after such a life as this, after more than fifty years spent in the ministrations of his darling cathedral, it specially behoved him to die,--as he had lived,--at barchester. he could not say this to his eldest daughter; but had his eleanor been at home, he could have said it to her. he thought he might yet live to see his eleanor once again. if this could be given to him he would ask for nothing more. on the afternoon of the next day, mrs. baxter wrote another letter, in which she told mrs. grantly that her father had declared, at his usual hour of rising that morning, that as he was not going to the cathedral he would, he thought, lie in bed a little longer. and then he had lain in bed the whole day. "and, perhaps, honoured madam, looking at all things, it's best as he should," said mrs. baxter. chapter l. lady lufton's proposition. it was now known throughout barchester that a commission was to be held by the bishop's orders, at which inquiry would be made,--that is, ecclesiastical inquiry,--as to the guilt imputed to mr. crawley in the matter of mr. soames's cheque. sundry rumours had gone abroad as to quarrels which had taken place on the subject among certain clergymen high in office; but these were simply rumours, and nothing was in truth known. there was no more discreet clergyman in all the diocese than dr. tempest, and not a word had escaped from him as to the stormy nature of that meeting in the bishop's palace, at which he had attended with the bishop,--and at which mrs. proudie had attended also. when it is said that the fact of this coming commission was known to all barsetshire, allusion is of course made to that portion of the inhabitants of barsetshire to which clerical matters were dear;--and as such matters were specially dear to the inhabitants of the parish of framley, the commission was discussed very eagerly in that parish, and was specially discussed by the dowager lady lufton. and there was a double interest attached to the commission in the parish of framley by the fact that mr. robarts, the vicar, had been invited by dr. tempest to be one of the clergymen who were to assist in making the inquiry. "i also propose to ask mr. oriel of greshamsbury to join us," said dr. tempest. "the bishop wishes to appoint the other two, and has already named mr. thumble and mr. quiverful, who are both residents in the city. perhaps his lordship may be right in thinking it better that the matter should not be left altogether in the hands of clergymen who hold livings in the diocese. you are no doubt aware that neither mr. thumble nor mr. quiverful do hold any benefice." mr. robarts felt,--as everybody else did feel who knew anything of the matter,--that bishop proudie was singularly ignorant in his knowledge of men, and that he showed his ignorance on this special occasion. "if he intended to name two such men he should at any rate have named three," said dr. thorne. "mr. thumble and mr. quiverful will simply be outvoted on the first day, and after that will give in their adhesion to the majority." "mr. thumble, indeed!" lady lufton had said, with much scorn in her voice. to her thinking, it was absurd in the highest degree that such men as dr. tempest and her mr. robarts should be asked to meet mr. thumble and mr. quiverful on a matter of ecclesiastical business. outvoted! of course they would be outvoted. of course they would be so paralyzed by fear at finding themselves in the presence of real gentlemen, that they would hardly be able to vote at all. old lady lufton did not in fact utter words so harsh as these; but thoughts as harsh passed through her mind. the reader therefore will understand that much interest was felt on the subject at framley court, where lady lufton lived with her son and her daughter-in-law. "they tell me," said lady lufton, "that both the archdeacon and dr. tempest think it right that a commission should be held. if so, i have no doubt that it is right." "mark says that the bishop could hardly do anything else," rejoined mrs. robarts. "i daresay not, my dear. i suppose the bishop has somebody near him to tell him what he may do, and what he may not do. it would be terrible to think of, if it were not so. but yet, when i hear that he has named such men as mr. thumble and mr. quiverful, i cannot but feel that the whole diocese is disgraced." "oh, lady lufton, that is such a strong word," said mrs. robarts. "it may be strong, but it is not the less true," said lady lufton. and from talking on the subject of the crawleys, lady lufton soon advanced, first to a desire for some action, and then to acting. "i think, my dear, i will go over and see mrs. crawley," said lady lufton the elder to lady lufton the younger. lady lufton the younger had nothing to urge against this; but she did not offer to accompany the elder lady. i attempted to explain in the early part of this story that there still existed a certain understanding between mrs. crawley and lord lufton's wife, and that kindnesses occasionally passed from framley court to hogglestock parsonage; but on this occasion young lady lufton,--the lucy robarts who had once passed certain days of her life with the crawleys at hogglestock,--did not choose to accompany her mother-in-law; and therefore mrs. robarts was invited to do so. "i think it may comfort her to know that she has our sympathy," the elder woman said to the younger as they made their journey together. when the carriage stopped before the little wicket-gate, from whence a path led through a ragged garden from the road to mr. crawley's house, lady lufton hardly knew how to proceed. the servant came to the door of the carriage, and asked for her orders. "h--m--m, ha, yes; i think i'll send in my card;--and say that i hope mrs. crawley will be able to see me. won't that be best; eh, fanny?" fanny, otherwise mrs. robarts, said that she thought that would be best; and the card and message were carried in. it was happily the case that mr. crawley was not at home. mr. crawley was away at hoggle end, reading to the brickmakers, or turning the mangles of their wives, or teaching them theology, or politics, or history, after his fashion. in these days he spent, perhaps, the happiest hours of his life down at hoggle end. i say that his absence was a happy chance, because, had he been at home, he would certainly have said something, or done something, to offend lady lufton. he would either have refused to see her, or when seeing her he would have bade her hold her peace and not interfere with matters which did not concern her, or,--more probable still,--he would have sat still and sullen, and have spoken not at all. but he was away, and mrs. crawley sent out word by the servant that she would be most proud to see her ladyship, if her ladyship would be pleased to alight. her ladyship did alight, and walked into the parsonage, followed by mrs. robarts. grace was with her mother. indeed jane had been there also when the message was brought in, but she fled into back regions, overcome by shame as to her frock. grace, i think, would have fled too, had she not been bound in honour to support her mother. lady lufton, as she entered, was very gracious, struggling with all the power of her womanhood so to carry herself that there should be no outwardly visible sign of her rank or her wealth,--but not altogether succeeding. mrs. robarts, on her first entrance, said only a word or two of greeting to mrs. crawley, and kissed grace, whom she had known intimately in early years. "lady lufton," said mrs. crawley, "i am afraid this is a very poor place for you to come to; but you have known that of old, and therefore i need hardly apologize." "sometimes i like poor places best," said lady lufton. then there was a pause, after which lady lufton addressed herself to grace, seeking some subject for immediate conversation. "you have been down at allington, my dear, have you not?" grace, in a whisper, said that she had. "staying with the dales, i believe? i know the dales well by name, and i have always heard that they are charming people." "i like them very much," said grace. and then there was another pause. "i hope your husband is pretty well, mrs. crawley?" said lady lufton. "he is pretty well,--not quite strong. i daresay you know, lady lufton, that he has things to vex him?" mrs. crawley felt that it was the need of the moment that the only possible subject of conversation in that house should be introduced; and therefore she brought it in at once, not loving the subject, but being strongly conscious of the necessity. lady lufton meant to be good-natured, and therefore mrs. crawley would do all in her power to make lady lufton's mission easy to her. "indeed yes," said her ladyship; "we do know that." "we feel so much for you and mr. crawley," said mrs. robarts; "and are so sure that your sufferings are unmerited." this was not discreet on the part of mrs. robarts, as she was the wife of one of the clergymen who had been selected to form the commission of inquiry; and so lady lufton told her on their way home. "you are very kind," said mrs. crawley. "we must only bear it with such fortitude as god will give us. we are told that he tempers the wind to the shorn lamb." "and so he does, my dear," said the old lady, very solemnly. "so he does. surely you have felt that it is so?" "i struggle not to complain," said mrs. crawley. "i know that you struggle bravely. i hear of you, and i admire you for it, and i love you." it was still the old lady who was speaking, and now she had at last been roused out of her difficulty as to words, and had risen from her chair, and was standing before mrs. crawley. "it is because you do not complain, because you are so great and so good, because your character is so high, and your spirit so firm, that i could not resist the temptation of coming to you. mrs. crawley, if you will let me be your friend, i shall be proud of your friendship." "your ladyship is too good," said mrs. crawley. "do not talk to me after that fashion," said lady lufton. "if you do i shall be disappointed, and feel myself thrown back. you know what i mean." she paused for an answer; but mrs. crawley had no answer to make. she simply shook her head, not knowing why she did so. but we may know. we can understand that she had felt that the friendship offered to her by lady lufton was an impossibility. she had decided within her own breast that it was so, though she did not know that she had come to such decision. "i wish you to take me at my word, mrs. crawley," continued lady lufton. "what can we do for you? we know that you are distressed." "yes,--we are distressed." "and we know how cruel circumstances have been to you. will you not forgive me for being plain?" "i have nothing to forgive," said mrs. crawley. "lady lufton means," said mrs. robarts, "that in asking you to talk openly to her of your affairs, she wishes you to remember that-- i think you know what we mean," said mrs. robarts, knowing very well herself what she did mean, but not knowing at all how to express herself. "lady lufton is very kind," said mrs. crawley, "and so are you, mrs. robarts. i know how good you both are, and for how much it behoves me to be grateful." these words were very cold, and the voice in which they were spoken was very cold. they made lady lufton feel that it was beyond her power to proceed with the work of her mission in its intended spirit. it is ever so much easier to proffer kindness graciously than to receive it with grace. lady lufton had intended to say, "let us be women together;--women bound by humanity, and not separated by rank, and let us open our hearts freely. let us see how we may be of comfort to each other." and could she have succeeded in this, she would have spread out her little plans of succour with so loving a hand that she would have conquered the woman before her. but the suffering spirit cannot descend from its dignity of reticence. it has a nobility of its own, made sacred by many tears, by the flowing of streams of blood from unseen wounds, which cannot descend from its daïs to receive pity and kindness. a consciousness of undeserved woe produces a grandeur of its own, with which the high-souled sufferer will not easily part. baskets full of eggs, pounds of eleemosynary butter, quarters of given pork, even second-hand clothing from the wardrobe of some richer sister,--even money, unsophisticated money, she could accept. she had learned to know that it was a portion of her allotted misery to take such things,--for the sake of her children and her husband,--and to be thankful for them. she did take them, and was thankful; and in the taking she submitted herself to the rod of cruel circumstances; but she could not even yet bring herself to accept spoken pity from a stranger, and to kiss the speaker. "can we not do something to help you?" said mrs. robarts. she would not have spoken but that she perceived that lady lufton had completed her appeal, and that mrs. crawley did not seem prepared to answer it. "you have done much to help us," said mrs. crawley. "the things you have sent to us have been very serviceable." "but we mean something more than that," said lady lufton. "i do not know what there is more," said mrs. crawley. "a bit to eat and something to wear;--that seems to be all that we have to care for now." "but we were afraid that this coming trial must cause you so much anxiety." "of course it causes anxiety;--but what can we do? it must be so. it cannot be put off, or avoided. we have made up our minds to it now, and almost wish that it would come quicker. if it were once over i think that he would be better whatever the result might be." then there was another lull in the conversation, and lady lufton began to be afraid that her visit would be a failure. she thought that perhaps she might get on better if grace were not in the room, and she turned over in her mind various schemes for sending her away. and perhaps her task would be easier if mrs. robarts also could be banished for a time. "fanny, my dear," she said at last, boldly, "i know you have a little plan to arrange with miss crawley. perhaps you will be more likely to be successful if you can take a turn with her alone." there was not much subtlety in her ladyship's scheme; but it answered the proposed purpose, and the two elder ladies were soon left face to face, so that lady lufton had a fair pretext for making another attempt. "dear mrs. crawley," she said, "i do so long to say a word to you, but i fear that i may be thought to interfere." "oh, no, lady lufton; i have no feeling of that kind." "i have asked your daughter and mrs. robarts to go out because i can speak more easily to you alone. i wish i could teach you to trust me." "i do trust you." "as a friend, i mean;--as a real friend. if it should be the case, mrs. crawley, that a jury should give a verdict against your husband,--what will you do then? perhaps i ought not to suppose that it is possible." "of course we know that is possible," said mrs. crawley. her voice was stern, and there was in it a tone almost of offence. as she spoke she did not look at her visitor, but sat with her face averted and her arms akimbo on the table. "yes;--it is possible," said lady lufton. "i suppose there is not one in the county who does not truly wish that it may not be so. but it is right to be prepared for all alternatives. in such case have you thought what you will do?" "i do not know what they would do to him," said she. "i suppose that for some time he would be--" "put in prison," said mrs. crawley, speaking very quickly, bringing out the words with a sharp eagerness that was quite unusual to her. "they will send him to gaol. is it not so, lady lufton?" "i suppose it would be so; not for long i should hope; but i presume that such would be the sentence for some short period." "and i might not go with him?" "no; that would be impossible." "and the house, and the living; would they let him have them again when he came out?" "ah; that i cannot say. that will depend much, probably, on what these clergymen will report. i hope he will not put himself in opposition to them." "i do not know. i cannot say. it is probable that he may do so. it is not easy for a man so injured as he has been, and one at the same time so great in intelligence, to submit himself gently to such inquiries. when ill is being done to himself or others he is very prone to oppose it." "but these gentlemen do not wish to do him ill, mrs. crawley." "i cannot say. i do not know. when i think of it i see that there is nothing but ruin on every side. what is the use of talking of it? do not be angry, lady lufton, if i say that it is of no use." "but i desire to be of use,--of real use. if it should be the case, mrs. crawley, that your husband should be--detained at barchester--" "you mean imprisoned, lady lufton." "yes, i mean imprisoned. if it should be so, then do you bring yourself and your children,--all of them,--over to framley, and i will find a home for you while he is lost to you." "oh, lady lufton; i could not do that." "yes, you can. you have not heard me yet. it would not be a comfort to you in such a home as that to sit at table with people who are partly strangers to you. but there is a cottage nearly adjoining to the house, which you shall have all to yourself. the bailiff lived in it once, and others have lived in it who belong to the place; but it is empty now and it shall be made comfortable." the tears were now running down mrs. crawley's face, so that she could not answer a word. "of course it is my son's property, and not mine, but he has commissioned me to say that it is most heartily at your service. he begs that in such case you will occupy it. and i beg the same. and your old friend lucy has desired me also to ask you in her name." "lady lufton, i could not do that," said mrs. crawley through her tears. "you must think better of it, my dear. i do not scruple to advise you, because i am older than you, and have experience of the world." this, i think, taken in the ordinary sense of the words, was a boast on the part of lady lufton, for which but little true pretence existed. lady lufton's experience of the world at large was not perhaps extensive. nevertheless she knew what one woman might offer to another, and what one woman might receive from another. "you would be better over with me, my dear, than you could be elsewhere. you will not misunderstand me if i say that, under such circumstances, it would do your husband good that you and your children should be under our protection during his period of temporary seclusion. we stand well in the county. perhaps i ought not to say so, but i do not know how otherwise to explain myself; and when it is known, by the bishop and others, that you have come to us during that sad time, it will be understood that we think well of mr. crawley, in spite of anything that a jury may say of him. do you see that, my dear? and we do think well of him. i have known of your husband for many years, though i have not personally had the pleasure of much acquaintance with him. he was over at framley once at my request, and i had great occasion then to respect him. i do respect him; and i shall feel grateful to him if he will allow you to put yourself and your children under my wing, as being an old woman, should this misfortune fall upon him. we hope that it will not fall upon him; but it is always well to be provided for the worst." in this way lady lufton at last made her speech and opened out the proposal with which she had come laden to hogglestock. while she was speaking mrs. crawley's shoulder was still turned to her; but the speaker could see that the quick tears were pouring themselves down the cheeks of the woman whom she addressed. there was a downright honesty of thorough-going well-wishing charity about the proposition which overcame mrs. crawley altogether. she did not feel for a moment that it would be possible for her to go to framley in such circumstances as those which had been suggested. as she thought of it all at the present moment, it seemed to her that her only appropriate home during the terrible period which was coming upon her, would be under the walls of the prison in which her husband would be incarcerated. but she fully appreciated the kindness which had suggested a measure, which, if carried into execution, would make the outside world feel that her husband was respected in the county, despite the degradation to which he was subjected. she felt all this, but her heart was too full to speak. "say that it shall be so, my dear," continued lady lufton. "just give me one nod of assent, and the cottage shall be ready for you should it so chance that you should require it." but mrs. crawley did not give the nod of assent. with her face still averted, while the tears were still running down her cheeks, she muttered but a word or two. "i could not do that, lady lufton; i could not do that." "you know at any rate what my wishes are, and as you become calmer you will think of it. there is quite time enough, and i am speaking of an alternative which may never happen. my dear friend mrs. robarts, who is now with your daughter, wishes miss crawley to go over to framley parsonage while this inquiry among the clergymen is going on. they all say it is the most ridiculous thing in all the world,--this inquiry. but the bishop you know is so silly! we all think that if miss crawley would go for a week or so to framley parsonage, that it will show how happy we all are to receive her. it should be while mr. robarts is employed in his part of the work. what do you say, mrs. crawley? we at framley are all clearly of opinion that it will be best that it should be known that the people in the county uphold your husband. miss crawley would be back, you know, before the trial comes on. i hope you will let her come, mrs. crawley?" but even to this proposition mrs. crawley could give no assent, though she expressed no direct dissent. as regarded her own feelings, she would much have preferred to have been left to live through her misery alone; but she could not but appreciate the kindness which endeavoured to throw over her and hers in their trouble the ægis of first-rate county respectability. she was saved from the necessity of giving a direct answer to this suggestion by the return of mrs. robarts and grace herself. the door was opened slowly, and they crept into the room as though they were aware that their presence would be hardly welcomed. "is the carriage there, fanny?" said lady lufton. "it is almost time for us to think of returning home." mrs. robarts said that the carriage was standing within twenty yards of the door. "then i think we will make a start," said lady lufton. "have you succeeded in persuading miss crawley to come over to framley in april?" mrs. robarts made no answer to this, but looked at grace; and grace looked down upon the ground. "i have spoken to mrs. crawley," said lady lufton, "and they will think of it." then the two ladies took their leave, and walked out to their carriage. "what does she say about your plan?" mrs. robarts asked. "she is too broken-hearted to say anything," lady lufton answered. "should it happen that he is convicted, we must come over and take her. she will have no power then to resist us in anything." chapter li. mrs. dobbs broughton piles her fagots. [illustration] the picture still progressed up in mrs. dobbs broughton's room, and the secret was still kept, or supposed to be kept. miss van siever was, at any rate, certain that her mother had heard nothing of it, and mrs. broughton reported from day to day that her husband had not as yet interfered. nevertheless, there was in these days a great gloom upon the dobbs broughton household, so much so that conway dalrymple had more than once suggested to mrs. broughton that the work should be discontinued. but the mistress of the house would not consent to this. in answer to these offers, she was wont to declare in somewhat mysterious language, that any misery coming upon herself was matter of moment to nobody,--hardly even to herself, as she was quite prepared to encounter moral and social death without delay, if not an absolute physical demise; as to which latter alternative, she seemed to think that even that might not be so far distant as some people chose to believe. what was the cause of the gloom over the house neither conway dalrymple nor miss van siever understood, and to speak the truth mrs. broughton did not quite understand the cause herself. she knew well enough, no doubt, that her husband came home always sullen, and sometimes tipsy, and that things were not going well in the city. she had never understood much about the city, being satisfied with an assurance that had come to her in early days from her friends, that there was a mine of wealth in hook court, from whence would always come for her use, house and furniture, a carriage and horses, dresses and jewels, which latter, if not quite real, should be manufactured of the best sham substitute known. soon after her brilliant marriage with mr. dobbs broughton, she had discovered that the carriage and horses, and the sham jewels, did not lift her so completely into a terrestrial paradise as she had taught herself to expect that they would do. her brilliant drawing-room, with dobbs broughton for a companion, was not an elysium. but though she had found out early in her married life that something was still wanting to her, she had by no means confessed to herself that the carriage and horses and sham jewels were bad, and it can hardly be said that she had repented. she had endeavoured to patch up matters with a little romance, and then had fallen upon conway dalrymple,--meaning no harm. indeed, love with her, as it never could have meant much good, was not likely to mean much harm. that somebody should pretend to love her, to which pretence she might reply by a pretence of friendship,--this was the little excitement which she craved, and by which she had once flattered herself that something of an elysium might yet be created for her. mr. dobbs broughton had unreasonably expressed a dislike to this innocent amusement,--very unreasonably, knowing, as he ought to have known, that he himself did so very little towards providing the necessary elysium by any qualities of his own. for a few weeks this interference from her husband had enhanced the amusement, giving an additional excitement to the game. she felt herself to be a woman misunderstood and ill-used; and to some women there is nothing so charming as a little mild ill-usage, which does not interfere with their creature comforts, with their clothes, or their carriage, or their sham jewels; but suffices to afford them the indulgence of a grievance. of late, however, mr. dobbs broughton had become a little too rough in his language, and things had gone uncomfortably. she suspected that conway dalrymple was not the only cause of all this. she had an idea that mr. musselboro and mrs. van siever had it in their power to make themselves unpleasant, and that they were exercising this power. of his business in the city her husband never spoke to her, nor she to him. her own fortune had been very small, some couple of thousand pounds or so, and she conceived that she had no pretext on which she could, unasked, interrogate him about his money. she had no knowledge that marriage of itself had given her the right to such interference; and had such knowledge been hers she would have had no desire to interfere. she hoped that the carriage and sham jewels would be continued to her; but she did not know how to frame any question on the subject. touching the other difficulty,--the conway dalrymple difficulty,--she had her ideas. the tenderness of her friendship had been trodden upon and outraged by the rough foot of an overbearing husband, and she was ill-used. she would obey. it was becoming to her as a wife that she should submit. she would give up conway dalrymple, and would induce him,--in spite of his violent attachment to herself,--to take a wife. she herself would choose a wife for him. she herself would, with suicidal hands, destroy the romance of her own life, since an overbearing, brutal husband demanded that it should be destroyed. she would sacrifice her own feelings, and do all in her power to bring conway dalrymple and clara van siever together. if, after that, some poet did not immortalize her friendship in byronic verse, she certainly would not get her due. perhaps conway dalrymple would himself become a poet in order that this might be done properly. for it must be understood that, though she expected conway dalrymple to marry, she expected also that he should be byronically wretched after his marriage on account of his love for herself. but there was certainly something wrong over and beyond the dalrymple difficulty. the servants were not as civil as they used to be, and her husband, when she suggested to him a little dinner-party, snubbed her most unmercifully. the giving of dinner-parties had been his glory, and she had made the suggestion simply with the view of pleasing him. "if the world were going round the wrong way, a woman would still want a party," he had said, sneering at her. "it was of you i was thinking, dobbs," she replied; "not of myself. i care little for such gatherings." after that she retired to her own room with a romantic tear in each eye, and told herself that, had chance thrown conway dalrymple into her way before she had seen dobbs broughton, she would have been the happiest woman in the world. she sat for a while looking into vacancy, and thinking that it would be very nice to break her heart. how should she set about it? should she take to her bed and grow thin? she would begin by eating no dinner for ever so many days together. at lunch her husband was never present, and therefore the broken heart could be displayed at dinner without much positive suffering. in the meantime she would implore conway dalrymple to get himself married with as little delay as possible, and she would lay upon him her positive order to restrain himself from any word of affection addressed to herself. she, at any rate, would be pure, high-minded, and self-sacrificing,--although romantic and poetic also, as was her nature. the picture was progressing, and so also, as it had come about, was the love-affair between the artist and his model. conway dalrymple had begun to think that he might, after all, do worse than make clara van siever his wife. clara van siever was handsome, and undoubtedly clever, and clara van siever's mother was certainly rich. and, in addition to this, the young lady herself began to like the man into whose society she was thrown. the affair seemed to flourish, and mrs. dobbs broughton should have been delighted. she told clara, with a very serious air, that she was delighted, bidding clara, at the same time, to be very cautious, as men were so fickle, and as conway, though the best fellow in the world, was not, perhaps, altogether free from that common vice of men. indeed, it might have been surmised, from a word or two which mrs. broughton allowed to escape, that she considered poor conway to be more than ordinarily afflicted in that way. miss van siever at first only pouted, and said that there was nothing in it. "there is something in it, my dear, certainly," said mrs. dobbs broughton; "and there can be no earthly reason why there should not be a great deal in it." "there is nothing in it," said miss van siever, impetuously; "and if you will continue to speak of mr. dalrymple in that way, i must give up the picture." "as for that," said mrs. broughton, "i conceive that we are both of us bound to the young man now, seeing that he has given so much time to the work." "i am not bound to him at all," said miss van siever. mrs. broughton also told conway dalrymple that she was delighted,--oh, so much delighted! he had obtained permission to come in one morning before the time of sitting, so that he might work at his canvas independently of his model. as was his custom, he made his own way upstairs and commenced his work alone,--having been expressly told by mrs. broughton that she would not come to him till she brought clara with her. but she did go up to the room in which the artist was painting, without waiting for miss van siever. indeed, she was at this time so anxious as to the future welfare of her two young friends that she could not restrain herself from speaking either to the one or to the other, whenever any opportunity for such speech came round. to have left conway dalrymple at work upstairs without going to him was impossible to her. so she went, and then took the opportunity of expressing to her friend her ideas as to his past and future conduct. "yes, it is very good; very good, indeed," she said, standing before the easel, and looking at the half-completed work. "i do not know that you ever did anything better." "i never can tell myself till a picture is finished whether it is going to be good or not," said dalrymple, thinking really of his picture and of nothing else. "i am sure this will be good," she said, "and i suppose it is because you have thrown so much heart into it. it is not mere industry that will produce good work, nor yet skill, nor even genius: more than this is required. the heart of the artist must be thrust with all its gushing tides into the performance." by this time he knew all the tones of her voice and their various meanings, and immediately became aware that at the present moment she was intent upon something beyond the picture. she was preparing for a little scene, and was going to give him some advice. he understood it all, but as he was really desirous of working at his canvas, and was rather averse to having a scene at that moment, he made a little attempt to disconcert her. "it is the heart that gives success," she said, while he was considering how he might best put an extinguisher upon her romance for the occasion. "not at all, mrs. broughton; success depends on elbow-grease." "on what, conway?" "on elbow-grease,--hard work, that is,--and i must work hard now if i mean to take advantage of to-day's sitting. the truth is, i don't give enough hours of work to it." and he leaned upon his stick, and daubed away briskly at the background, and then stood for a moment looking at his canvas with his head a little on one side, as though he could not withdraw his attention for a moment from the thing he was doing. "you mean to say, conway, that you would rather that i should not speak to you." "oh, no, mrs. broughton, i did not mean that at all." "i won't interrupt you at your work. what i have to say is perhaps of no great moment. indeed, words between you and me never can have much importance now. can they, conway?" "i don't see that at all," said he, still working away with his brush. "do you not? i do. they should never amount to more,--they can never amount to more than the common, ordinary courtesies of life; what i call the greetings and good-byings of conversation." she said this in a low, melancholy tone of voice, not intending to be in any degree jocose. "how seldom is it that conversation between ordinary friends goes beyond that." "don't you think it does?" said conway, stepping back and taking another look at his picture. "i find myself talking to all manner of people about all manner of things." "you are different from me. i cannot talk to all manner of people." "politics, you know, and art, and a little scandal, and the wars, with a dozen other things, make talking easy enough, i think. i grant you this, that it is very often a great bore. hardly a day passes that i don't wish to cut out somebody's tongue." "do you wish to cut out my tongue, conway?" he began to perceive that she was determined to talk about herself, and that there was no remedy. he dreaded it, not because he did not like the woman, but from a conviction that she was going to make some comparison between herself and clara van siever. in his ordinary humour he liked a little pretence at romance, and was rather good at that sort of love-making which in truth means anything but love. but just now he was really thinking of matrimony, and had on this very morning acknowledged to himself that he had become sufficiently attached to clara van siever to justify him in asking her to be his wife. in his present mood he was not anxious for one of those tilts with blunted swords and half-severed lances in the lists of cupid of which mrs. dobbs broughton was so fond. nevertheless, if she insisted that he should now descend into the arena and go through the paraphernalia of a mock tournament, he must obey her. it is the hardship of men that when called upon by women for romance, they are bound to be romantic, whether the opportunity serves them or does not. a man must produce romance, or at least submit to it, when duly summoned, even though he should have a sore-throat or a headache. he is a brute if he decline such an encounter,--and feels that, should he so decline persistently, he will ever after be treated as a brute. there are many potiphar's wives who never dream of any mischief, and josephs who are very anxious to escape, though they are asked to return only whisper for whisper. mrs. dobbs broughton had asked him whether he wished that her tongue should be cut out, and he had of course replied that her words had always been a joy to him,--never a trouble. it occurred to him as he made his little speech that it would only have served her right if he had answered her quite in another strain; but she was a woman, and was young and pretty, and was entitled to flattery. "they have always been a joy to me," he said, repeating his last words as he strove to continue his work. "a deadly joy," she replied, not quite knowing what she herself meant. "a deadly joy, conway. i wish with all my heart that we had never known each other." "i do not. i will never wish away the happiness of my life, even should it be followed by misery." "you are a man, and if trouble comes upon you, you can bear it on your own shoulders. a woman suffers more, just because another's shoulders may have to bear the burden." "when she has got a husband, you mean?" "yes,--when she has a husband." "it's the same with a man when he has a wife." hitherto the conversation had had so much of milk-and-water in its composition, that dalrymple found himself able to keep it up and go on with his background at the same time. if she could only be kept in the same dim cloud of sentiment, if the hot rays of the sun of romance could be kept from breaking through the mist till miss van siever should come, it might still be well. he had known her to wander about within the clouds for an hour together, without being able to find her way into the light. "it's all the same with a man when he has got a wife," he said. "of course one has to suffer for two, when one, so to say, is two." "and what happens when one has to suffer for three?" she asked. "you mean when a woman has children?" "i mean nothing of the kind, conway; and you must know that i do not, unless your feelings are indeed blunted. but worldly success has, i suppose, blunted them." "i rather fancy not," he said. "i think they are pretty nearly as sharp as ever." "i know mine are. oh, how i wish i could rid myself of them! but it cannot be done. age will not blunt them,--i am sure of that," said mrs. broughton. "i wish it would." he had determined not to talk about herself if the subject could be in any way avoided; but now he felt that he was driven up into a corner;--now he was forced to speak to her of her own personality. "you have no experience yet as to that. how can you say what age will do?" "age does not go by years," said mrs. dobbs broughton. "we all know that. 'his hair was grey, but not with years.' look here, conway," and she moved back her tresses from off her temples to show him that there were gray hairs behind. he did not see them; and had they been very visible she might not perhaps have been so ready to exhibit them. "no one can say that length of years has blanched them. i have no secrets from you about my age. one should not be grey before one has reached thirty." "i did not see a changed hair." "'twas the fault of your eyes, then, for there are plenty of them. and what is it has made them grey?" "they say that hot rooms will do it." "hot rooms! no, conway, it does not come from heated atmosphere. it comes from a cold heart, a chilled heart, a frozen heart, a heart that is all ice." she was getting out of the cloud into the heat now, and he could only hope that miss van siever would come soon. "the world is beginning with you, conway, and yet you are as old as i am. it is ending with me, and yet i am as young as you are. but i do not know why i talk of all this. it is simply folly,--utter folly. i had not meant to speak of myself; but i did wish to say a few words to you of your own future. i suppose i may still speak to you as a friend?" "i hope you will always do that." "nay,--i will make no such promise. that i will always have a friend's feeling for you, a friend's interest in your welfare, a friend's triumph in your success,--that i will promise. but friendly words, conway, are sometimes misunderstood." "never by me," said he. "no, not by you,--certainly not by you. i did not mean that. i did not expect that you should misinterpret them." then she laughed hysterically,--a little low, gurgling, hysterical laugh; and after that she wiped her eyes, and then she smiled, and then she put her hand very gently upon his shoulder. "thank god, conway, we are quite safe there,--are we not?" he had made a blunder, and it was necessary that he should correct it. his watch was lying in the trough of his easel, and he looked at it and wondered why miss van siever was not there. he had tripped, and he must make a little struggle and recover his step. "as i said before, it shall never be misunderstood by me. i have never been vain enough to suppose for a moment that there was any other feeling,--not for a moment. you women can be so careful, while we men are always off our guard! a man loves because he cannot help it; but a woman has been careful, and answers him--with friendship. perhaps i am wrong to say that i never thought of winning anything more; but i never think of winning more now." why the mischief didn't miss van siever come! in another five minutes, despite himself, he would be on his knees, making a mock declaration, and she would be pouring forth the vial of her mock wrath, or giving him mock counsel as to the restraint of his passion. he had gone through it all before, and was tired of it; but for his life he did not know how to help himself. "conway," said she, gravely, "how dare you address me in such language?" "of course it is very wrong; i know that." "i'm not speaking of myself, now. i have learned to think so little of myself, as even to be indifferent to the feeling of the injury you are doing me. my life is a blank, and i almost think that nothing can hurt me further. i have not heart left enough to break; no, not enough to be broken. it is not of myself that i am thinking, when i ask you how you dare to address me in such language. do you not know that it is an injury to another?" "to what other?" asked conway dalrymple, whose mind was becoming rather confused, and who was not quite sure whether the other one was mr. dobbs broughton, or somebody else. "to that poor girl who is coming here now, who is devoted to you, and to whom, i do not doubt, you have uttered words which ought to have made it impossible for you to speak to me as you spoke not a moment since." things were becoming very grave and difficult. they would have been very grave, indeed, had not some god saved him by sending miss van siever to his rescue at this moment. he was beginning to think what he would say in answer to the accusation now made, when his eager ear caught the sound of her step upon the stairs; and before the pause in the conversation which the circumstances admitted had given place to the necessity for further speech, miss van siever had knocked at the door and had entered the room. he was rejoiced, and i think that mrs. broughton did not regret the interference. it is always well that these little dangerous scenes should be brought to sudden ends. the last details of such romances, if drawn out to their natural conclusions, are apt to be uncomfortable, if not dull. she did not want him to go down on his knees, knowing that the getting up again is always awkward. "clara, i began to think you were never coming," said mrs. broughton, with her sweetest smile. "i began to think so myself also," said clara. "and i believe this must be the last sitting, or, at any rate, the last but one." "is anything the matter at home?" said mrs. broughton, clasping her hands together. "nothing very much; mamma asked me a question or two this morning, and i said i was coming here. had she asked me why, i should have told her." "but what did she ask? what did she say?" "she does not always make herself very intelligible. she complains without telling you what she complains of. but she muttered something about artists which was not complimentary, and i suppose, therefore, that she has a suspicion. she stayed ever so late this morning, and we left the house together. she will ask some direct question to-night, or before long, and then there will be an end of it." "let us make the best of our time then," said dalrymple; and the sitting was arranged; miss van siever went down on her knees with her hammer in her hand, and the work began. mrs. broughton had twisted a turban round clara's head, as she always did on these occasions, and assisted to arrange the drapery. she used to tell herself as she did so, that she was like isaac, piling the fagots for her own sacrifice. only isaac had piled them in ignorance, and she piled them conscious of the sacrificial flames. and isaac had been saved; whereas it was impossible that the catching of any ram in any thicket could save her. but, nevertheless, she arranged the drapery with all her skill, piling the fagots ever so high for her own pyre. in the meantime conway dalrymple painted away, thinking more of his picture than he did of one woman or of the other. [illustration: mrs. dobbs broughton piles her fagots.] after a while, when mrs. broughton had piled the fagots as high as she could pile them, she got up from her seat and prepared to leave the room. much of the piling consisted, of course, in her own absence during a portion of these sittings. "conway," she said, as she went, "if this is to be the last sitting, or the last but one, you should make the most of it." then she threw upon him a very peculiar glance over the head of the kneeling jael, and withdrew. jael, who in those moments would be thinking more of the fatigue of her position than of anything else, did not at all take home to herself the peculiar meaning of her friend's words. conway dalrymple understood them thoroughly, and thought that he might as well take the advice given to him. he had made up his mind to propose to miss van siever, and why should he not do so now? he went on with his brush for a couple of minutes without saying a word, working as well as he could work, and then resolved that he would at once begin the other task. "miss van siever," he said, "i'm afraid you are tired?" "not more than usually tired. it is fatiguing to be slaying sisera by the hour together. i do get to hate this block." the block was the dummy by which the form of sisera was supposed to be typified. "another sitting will about finish it," said he, "so that you need not positively distress yourself now. will you rest yourself for a minute or two?" he had already perceived that the attitude in which clara was posed before him was not one in which an offer of marriage could be received and replied to with advantage. "thank you, i am not tired yet," said clara, not changing the fixed glance of national wrath with which she regarded her wooden sisera as she held her hammer on high. "but i am. there; we will rest for a moment." dalrymple was aware that mrs. dobbs broughton, though she was very assiduous in piling her fagots, never piled them for long together. if he did not make haste she would be back upon them before he could get his word spoken. when he put down his brush, and got up from his chair, and stretched out his arm as a man does when he ceases for a moment from his work, clara of course got up also, and seated herself. she was used to her turban and her drapery, and therefore thought not of it at all; and he also was used to it, seeing her in it two or three times a week; but now that he intended to accomplish a special purpose, the turban and the drapery seemed to be in the way. "i do so hope you will like the picture," he said, as he was thinking of this. "i don't think i shall. but you will understand that it is natural that a girl should not like herself in such a portraiture as that." "i don't know why. i can understand that you specially should not like the picture; but i think that most women in london in your place would at any rate say that they did." "are you angry with me?" "what; for telling the truth? no, indeed." he was standing opposite to his easel, looking at the canvas, shifting his head about so as to change the lights, and observing critically this blemish and that; and yet he was all the while thinking how he had best carry out his purpose. "it will have been a prosperous picture to me," he said at last, "if it leads to the success of which i am ambitious." "i am told that all you do is successful now,--merely because you do it. that is the worst of success." "what is the worst of success?" "that when won by merit it leads to further success, for the gaining of which no merit is necessary." "i hope it may be so in my case. if it is not i shall have a very poor chance. clara, i think you must know that i am not talking about my pictures." "i thought you were." "indeed i am not. as for success in my profession, far as i am from thinking i merit it, i feel tolerably certain that i shall obtain it." "you have obtained it." "i am in the way to do so. perhaps one out of ten struggling artists is successful, and for him the profession is very charming. it is certainly a sad feeling that there is so much of chance in the distribution of the prizes. it is a lottery. but one cannot complain of that when one has drawn the prize." dalrymple was not a man without self-possession, nor was he readily abashed, but he found it easier to talk of his possession than to make his offer. the turban was his difficulty. he had told himself over and over again within the last five minutes, that he would have long since said what he had to say had it not been for the turban. he had been painting all his life from living models,--from women dressed up in this or that costume, to suit the necessities of his picture,--but he had never made love to any of them. they had been simply models to him, and now he found that there was a difficulty. "of that prize," he said, "i have made myself tolerably sure; but as to the other prize, i do not know. i wonder whether i am to have that." of course miss van siever understood well what was the prize of which he was speaking; and as she was a young woman with a will and purpose of her own, no doubt she was already prepared with an answer. but it was necessary that the question should be put to her in properly distinct terms. conway dalrymple certainly had not put his question in properly distinct terms at present. she did not choose to make any answer to his last words; and therefore simply suggested that as time was pressing he had better go on with his work. "i am quite ready now," said she. "stop half a moment. how much more you are thinking of the picture than i am! i do not care twopence for the picture. i will slit the canvas from top to bottom without a groan,--without a single inner groan,--if you will let me." "for heaven's sake do nothing of the kind! why should you?" "just to show you that it is not for the sake of the picture that i come here. clara--" then the door was opened, and isaac appeared, very weary, having been piling fagots with assiduity, till human nature could pile no more. conway dalrymple, who had made his way almost up to clara's seat, turned round sharply towards his easel, in anger at having been disturbed. he should have been more grateful for all that his isaac had done for him, and have recognized the fact that the fault had been with himself. mrs. broughton had been twelve minutes out of the room. she had counted them to be fifteen,--having no doubt made a mistake as to three,--and had told herself that with such a one as conway dalrymple, with so much of the work ready done to his hand for him, fifteen minutes should have been amply sufficient. when we reflect what her own thoughts must have been during the interval,--what it is to have to pile up such fagots as those, how she was, as it were, giving away a fresh morsel of her own heart during each minute that she allowed clara and conway dalrymple to remain together, it cannot surprise us that her eyes should have become dizzy, and that she should not have counted the minutes with accurate correctness. dalrymple turned to his picture angrily, but miss van siever kept her seat and did not show the slightest emotion. "my friends," said mrs. broughton, "this will not do. this is not working; this is not sitting." "mr. dalrymple has been explaining to me the precarious nature of an artist's profession," said clara. "it is not precarious with him," said mrs. dobbs broughton, sententiously. "not in a general way, perhaps; but to prove the truth of his words he was going to treat jael worse than jael treats sisera." "i was going to slit the picture from the top to the bottom." "and why?" said mrs. broughton, putting up her hands to heaven in tragic horror. "just to show miss van siever how little i care about it." "and how little you care about her, too," said mrs. broughton. "she might take that as she liked." after this there was another genuine sitting, and the real work went on as though there had been no episode. jael fixed her face, and held her hammer as though her mind and heart were solely bent on seeming to be slaying sisera. dalrymple turned his eyes from the canvas to the model, and from the model to the canvas, working with his hand all the while, as though that last pathetic "clara" had never been uttered; and mrs. dobbs broughton reclined on a sofa, looking at them and thinking of her own singularly romantic position, till her mind was filled with a poetic frenzy. in one moment she resolved that she would hate clara as woman was never hated by woman; and then there were daggers, and poison-cups, and strangling cords in her eye. in the next she was as firmly determined that she would love mrs. conway dalrymple as woman never was loved by woman; and then she saw herself kneeling by a cradle, and tenderly nursing a baby, of which conway was to be the father and clara the mother. and so she went to sleep. for some time dalrymple did not observe this; but at last there was a little sound,--even the ill-nature of miss demolines could hardly have called it a snore,--and he became aware that for practical purposes he and miss van siever were again alone together. "clara," he said, in a whisper. mrs. broughton instantly aroused herself from her slumbers, and rubbed her eyes. "dear, dear, dear," she said, "i declare it's past one. i'm afraid i must turn you both out. one more sitting, i suppose, will finish it, conway?" "yes, one more," said he. it was always understood that he and clara should not leave the house together, and therefore he remained painting when she left the room. "and now, conway," said mrs. broughton, "i suppose that all is over?" "i don't know what you mean by all being over." "no,--of course not. you look at it in another light, no doubt. everything is beginning for you. but you must pardon me, for my heart is distracted,--distracted,--distracted!" then she sat down upon the floor, and burst into tears. what was he to do? he thought that the woman should either give him up altogether, or not give him up. all this fuss about it was irrational! he would not have made love to clara van siever in her room if she had not told him to do so! "maria," he said, in a very grave voice, "any sacrifice that is required on my part on your behalf i am ready to make." "no, sir; the sacrifices shall all be made by me. it is the part of a woman to be ever sacrificial!" poor mrs. dobbs broughton! "you shall give up nothing. the world is at your feet, and you shall have everything,--youth, beauty, wealth, station, love,--love; and friendship also, if you will accept it from one so poor, so broken, so secluded as i shall be." at each of the last words there had been a desperate sob; and as she was still crouching in the middle of the room, looking up into dalrymple's face while he stood over her, the scene was one which had much in it that transcended the doings of everyday life, much that would be ever memorable, and much, i have no doubt, that was thoroughly enjoyed by the principal actor. as for conway dalrymple, he was so second-rate a personage in the whole thing, that it mattered little whether he enjoyed it or not. i don't think he did enjoy it. "and now, conway," she said, "i will give you some advice. and when in after-days you shall remember this interview, and reflect how that advice was given you,--with what solemnity,"--here she clasped both her hands together,--"i think that you will follow it. clara van siever will now become your wife." "i do not know that at all," said dalrymple. "clara van siever will now become your wife," repeated mrs. broughton in a louder voice, impatient of opposition. "love her. cleave to her. make her flesh of your flesh and bone of your bone. but rule her! yes, rule her! let her be your second self, but not your first self. rule her. love her. cleave to her. do not leave her alone, to feed on her own thoughts as i have done,--as i have been forced to do. now go. no, conway, not a word; i will not hear a word. you must go, or i must." then she rose quickly from her lowly attitude, and prepared herself for a dart at the door. it was better by far that he should go, and so he went. an american when he has spent a pleasant day will tell you that he has had "a good time." i think that mrs. dobbs broughton, if she had ever spoken the truth of that day's employment, would have acknowledged that she had had "a good time." i think that she enjoyed her morning's work. but as for conway dalrymple, i doubt whether he did enjoy his morning's work. "a man may have too much of this sort of thing, and then he becomes very sick of his cake." such was the nature of his thoughts as he returned to his own abode. chapter lii. why don't you have an "it" for yourself? of course it came to pass that lily dale and emily dunstable were soon very intimate, and that they saw each other every day. indeed, before long they would have been living together in the same house had it not been that the squire had felt reluctant to abandon the independence of his own lodgings. when mrs. thorne had pressed her invitation for the second, and then for the third time, asking them both to come to her large house, he had begged his niece to go and leave him alone. "you need not regard me," he had said, speaking not with the whining voice of complaint, but with that thin tinge of melancholy which was usual to him. "i am so much alone down at allington, that you need not mind leaving me." but lily would not go on those terms, and therefore they still lived together in the lodgings. nevertheless lily was every day at mrs. thorne's house, and thus a great intimacy grew up between the girls. emily dunstable had neither brother nor sister, and lily's nearest male relative in her own degree was now miss dunstable's betrothed husband. it was natural therefore that they should at any rate try to like each other. it afterwards came to pass that lily did go to mrs. thorne's house, and she stayed there for awhile; but when that occurred the squire had gone back to allington. among other generous kindnesses mrs. thorne insisted that bernard should hire a horse for his cousin lily. emily dunstable rode daily, and of course captain dale rode with her;--and now lily joined the party. almost before she knew what was being done she found herself provided with hat and habit and horse and whip. it was a way with mrs. thorne that they who came within the influence of her immediate sphere should be made to feel that the comforts and luxuries arising from her wealth belonged to a common stock, and were the joint property of them all. things were not offered and taken and talked about, but they made their appearance, and were used as a matter of course. if you go to stay at a gentleman's house you understand that, as a matter of course, you will be provided with meat and drink. some hosts furnish you also with cigars. a small number give you stabling and forage for your horse; and a very select few mount you on hunting days, and send you out with a groom and a second horse. mrs. thorne went beyond all others in this open-handed hospitality. she had enormous wealth at her command, and had but few of those all-absorbing drains upon wealth which in this country make so many rich men poor. she had no family property,--no place to keep up in which she did not live. she had no retainers to be maintained because they were retainers. she had neither sons nor daughters. consequently she was able to be lavish in her generosity; and as her heart was very lavish, she would have given her friends gold to eat had gold been good for eating. indeed there was no measure in her giving,--unless when the idea came upon her that the recipient of her favours was trading on them. then she could hold her hand very stoutly. lily dale had not liked the idea of being fitted out thus expensively. a box at the opera was all very well, as it was not procured especially for her. and tickets for other theatres did not seem to come unnaturally for a night or two. but her spirit had militated against the hat and the habit and the horse. the whip was a little present from emily dunstable, and that of course was accepted with a good grace. then there came the horse,--as though from the heavens; there seemed to be ten horses, twenty horses, if anybody needed them. all these things seemed to flow naturally into mrs. thorne's establishment, like air through the windows. it was very pleasant, but lily hesitated when she was told that a habit was to be given to her. "my dear old aunt insists," said emily dunstable. "nobody ever thinks of refusing anything from her. if you only knew what some people will take, and some people will even ask, who have nothing to do with her at all!" "but i have nothing to do with her,--in that way i mean," said lily. "oh, yes, you have," said emily. "you and bernard are as good as brother and sister, and bernard and i are as good as man and wife, and my aunt and i are as good as mother and daughter. so you see, in a sort of a way you are a child of the house." so lily accepted the habit; but made a stand at the hat, and paid for that out of her own pocket. when the squire had seen lily on horseback he asked her questions about it. "it was a hired horse, i suppose?" he said. "i think it came direct from heaven," said lily. "what do you mean, lily?" said the squire, angrily. "i mean that when people are so rich and good-natured as mrs. thorne it is no good inquiring where things come from. all that i know is that the horses come out of potts' livery-stable. they talk of potts as if he were a good-natured man who provides horses for the world without troubling anybody." then the squire spoke to bernard about it, saying that he should insist on defraying his niece's expenses. but bernard swore that he could give his uncle no assistance. "i would not speak to her about such a thing for all the world," said bernard. "then i shall," said the squire. in those days lily thought much of johnny eames,--gave to him perhaps more of that thought which leads to love than she had ever given him before. she still heard the crawley question discussed every day. mrs. thorne, as we all know, was at this time a barsetshire personage, and was of course interested in barsetshire subjects; and she was specially anxious in the matter, having strong hopes with reference to the marriage of major grantly and grace, and strong hopes also that grace's father might escape the fangs of justice. the crawley case was constantly in lily's ears, and as constantly she heard high praise awarded to johnny for his kindness in going after the arabins. "he must be a fine young fellow," said mrs. thorne, "and we'll have him down at chaldicotes some day. old lord de guest found him out and made a friend of him, and old lord de guest was no fool." lily was not altogether free from a suspicion that mrs. thorne knew the story of johnny's love and was trying to serve johnny,--as other people had tried to do, very ineffectually. when this suspicion came upon her she would shut her heart against her lover's praises, and swear that she would stand by those two letters which she had written in her book at home. but the suspicion would not be always there, and there did come upon her a conviction that her lover was more esteemed among men and women than she had been accustomed to believe. her cousin, bernard dale, who certainly was regarded in the world as somebody, spoke of him as his equal; whereas in former days bernard had always regarded johnny eames as standing low in the world's regard. then lily, when alone, would remember a certain comparison which she once made between adolphus crosbie and john eames, when neither of the men had as yet pleaded his cause to her, and which had been very much in favour of the former. she had then declared that johnny was a "mere clerk." she had a higher opinion of him now,--a much higher opinion, even though he could never be more to her than a friend. in these days lily's new ally, emily dunstable, seemed to lily to be so happy! there was in emily a complete realization of that idea of ante-nuptial blessedness of which lily had often thought so much. whatever emily did she did for bernard; and, to give captain dale his due, he received all the sweets which were showered upon him with becoming signs of gratitude. i suppose it is always the case at such times that the girl has the best of it, and on this occasion emily dunstable certainly made the most of her happiness. "i do envy you," lily said one day. the acknowledgment seemed to have been extorted from her involuntarily. she did not laugh as she spoke, or follow up what she had said with other words intended to take away the joke of what she had uttered,--had it been a joke; but she sat silent, looking at the girl who was re-arranging flowers which bernard had brought to her. "i can't give him up to you, you know," said emily. "i don't envy you him, but 'it,'" said lily. "then go and get an 'it' for yourself. why don't you have an 'it' for yourself? you can have an 'it' to-morrow, if you like,--or two or three, if all that i hear is true." "no, i can't," said lily. "things have gone wrong with me. don't ask me anything more about it. pray don't. i shan't speak of it if you do." "of course i will not if you tell me i must not." "i do tell you so. i have been a fool to say anything about it. however, i have got over my envy now, and am ready to go out with your aunt. here she is." "things have gone wrong with me." she repeated the same words to herself over and over again. with all the efforts which she had made she could not quite reconcile herself to the two letters which she had written in the book. this coming up to london, and riding in the park, and going to the theatres, seemed to unsettle her. at home she had schooled herself down into quiescence, and made herself think that she believed that she was satisfied with the prospects of her life. but now she was all astray again, doubting about herself, hankering after something over and beyond that which seemed to be allotted to her,--but, nevertheless, assuring herself that she never would accept of anything else. i must not, if i can help it, let the reader suppose that she was softening her heart to john eames because john eames was spoken well of in the world. but with all of us, in the opinion which we form of those around us, we take unconsciously the opinion of others. a woman is handsome because the world says so. music is charming to us because it charms others. we drink our wines with other men's palates, and look at our pictures with other men's eyes. when lily heard john eames praised by all around her, it could not be but that she should praise him too,--not out loud, as others did, but in the silence of her heart. and then his constancy to her had been so perfect! if that other one had never come! if it could be that she might begin again, and that she might be spared that episode in her life which had brought him and her together! "when is mr. eames going to be back?" mrs. thorne said at dinner one day. on this occasion the squire was dining at mrs. thorne's house; and there were three or four others there,--among them a mr. harold smith, who was in parliament, and his wife, and john eames's especial friend, sir raffle buffle. the question was addressed to the squire, but the squire was slow to answer, and it was taken up by sir raffle buffle. "he'll be back on the th," said the knight, "unless he means to play truant. i hope he won't do that, as his absence has been a terrible inconvenience to me." then sir raffle explained that john eames was his private secretary, and that johnny's journey to the continent had been made with, and could not have been made without, his sanction. "when i came to hear the story, of course i told him that he must go. 'eames,' i said, 'take the advice of a man who knows the world. circumstanced as you are, you are bound to go.' and he went." "upon my word that was very good-natured of you," said mrs. thorne. "i never keep a fellow to his desk who has really got important business elsewhere," said sir raffle. "the country, i say, can afford to do as much as that for her servants. but then i like to know that the business is business. one doesn't choose to be humbugged." "i daresay you are humbugged, as you call it, very often," said harold smith. "perhaps so; perhaps i am; perhaps that is the opinion which they have of me at the treasury. but you were hardly long enough there, smith, to have learned much about it, i should say." "i don't suppose i should have known much about it, as you call it, if i had stayed till doomsday." "i daresay not; i daresay not. men who begin as late as you did never know what official life really means. now i've been at it all my life, and i think i do understand it." "it's not a profession i should like unless where it's joined with politics," said harold smith. "but then it's apt to be so short," said sir raffle buffle. now it had happened once in the life of mr. harold smith that he had been in a ministry, but, unfortunately, that ministry had gone out almost within a week of the time of mr. smith's adhesion. sir raffle and mr. smith had known each other for many years, and were accustomed to make civil little speeches to each other in society. "i'd sooner be a horse in a mill than have to go to an office every day," said mrs. smith, coming to her husband's assistance. "you, sir raffle, have kept yourself fresh and pleasant through it all; but who besides you ever did?" "i hope i am fresh," said sir raffle; "and as for pleasantness, i will leave that for you to determine." "there can be but one opinion," said mrs. thorne. the conversation had strayed away from john eames, and lily was disappointed. it was a pleasure to her when people talked of him in her hearing, and as a question or two had been asked about him, making him the hero of the moment, it seemed to her that he was being robbed of his due when the little amenities between mr. and mrs. harold smith and sir raffle banished his name from the circle. nothing more, however, was said of him at dinner, and i fear that he would have been altogether forgotten throughout the evening, had not lily herself referred,--not to him, which she could not possibly have been induced to do,--but to the subject of his journey. "i wonder whether poor mr. crawley will be found guilty?" she said to sir raffle up in the drawing-room. "i am afraid he will; i am afraid he will," said sir raffle; "and i fear, my dear miss dale, that i must go further than that. i fear i must express an opinion that he is guilty." "nothing will ever make me think so," said lily. "ladies are always tender-hearted," said sir raffle, "and especially young ladies,--and especially pretty young ladies. i do not wonder that such should be your opinion. but you see, miss dale, a man of business has to look at these things in a business light. what i want to know is, where did he get the cheque? he is bound to be explicit in answering that before anybody can acquit him." "that is just what mr. eames has gone abroad to learn." "it is very well for eames to go abroad,--though, upon my word, i don't know whether i should not have given him different advice if i had known how much i was to be tormented by his absence. the thing couldn't have happened at a more unfortunate time;--the ministry going out, and everything. but, as i was saying, it is all very well for him to do what he can. he is related to them, and is bound to save the honour of his relations if it be possible. i like him for going. i always liked him. as i said to my friend de guest, 'that young man will make his way.' and i rather fancy that the chance word which i spoke then to my valued old friend was not thrown away in eames's favour. but, my dear miss dale, where did mr. crawley get that cheque? that's what i want to know. if you can tell me that, then i can tell you whether or no he will be acquitted." lily did not feel a strong prepossession in favour of sir raffle, in spite of his praise of john eames. the harsh voice of the man annoyed her, and his egotism offended her. when, much later in the evening, his character came on for discussion between herself and mrs. thorne and emily dunstable, she had not a word to say in his favour. but still she had been pleased to meet him, because he was the man with whom johnny's life was most specially concerned. i think that a portion of her dislike to him arose from the fact that in continuing the conversation he did not revert to his private secretary, but preferred to regale her with stories of his own doings in wonderful cases which had partaken of interest similar to that which now attached itself to mr. crawley's case. he had known a man who had stolen a hundred pounds, and had never been found out; and another man who had been arrested for stealing two-and-sixpence which was found afterwards sticking to a bit of butter at the bottom of a plate. mrs. thorne had heard all this, and had answered him, "dear me, sir raffle," she had said, "what a great many thieves you have had among your acquaintance!" this had rather disconcerted him, and then there had been no more talking about mr. crawley. it had been arranged on this morning that mr. dale should return to allington and leave lily with mrs. thorne. some special need of his presence at home, real or assumed, had arisen, and he had declared that he must shorten his stay in london by about half the intended period. the need would not have been so pressing, probably, had he not felt that lily would be more comfortable with mrs. thorne than in his lodgings in sackville street. lily had at first declared that she would return with him, but everybody had protested against this. emily dunstable had protested against it very stoutly; mrs. dale herself had protested against it by letter; and mrs. thorne's protest had been quite imperious in its nature. "indeed, my dear, you'll do nothing of the kind. i'm sure your mother wouldn't wish it. i look upon it as quite essential that you and emily should learn to know each other." "but we do know each other; don't we, emily?" said lily. "not quite well yet," said emily. then lily had laughed, and so the matter was settled. and now, on this present occasion, mr. dale was at mrs. thorne's house for the last time. his conscience had been perplexed about lily's horse, and if anything was to be said it must be said now. the subject was very disagreeable to him, and he was angry with bernard because bernard had declined to manage it for him after his own fashion. but he had told himself so often that anything was better than a pecuniary obligation, that he was determined to speak his mind to mrs. thorne, and to beg her to allow him to have his way. so he waited till the harold smiths were gone, and sir raffle buffle, and then, when lily was apart with emily,--for bernard dale had left them,--he found himself at last alone with mrs. thorne. "i can't be too much obliged to you," he said, "for your kindness to my girl." "oh, laws, that's nothing," said mrs. thorne. "we look on her as one of us now." "i'm sure she is grateful,--very grateful; and so am i. she and bernard have been brought up so much together that it is very desirable that she should be not unknown to bernard's wife." "exactly,--that's just what i mean. blood's thicker than water; isn't it? emily's child, if she has one, will be lily's cousin." "her first-cousin once removed," said the squire, who was accurate in these matters. then he drew himself up in his seat and compressed his lips together, and prepared himself for his task. it was very disagreeable. nothing, he thought, could be more disagreeable. "i have a little thing to speak about," he said at last, "which i hope will not offend you." "about lily?" "yes; about lily." "i'm not very easily offended, and i don't know how i could possibly be offended about her." "i'm an old-fashioned man, mrs. thorne, and don't know much about the ways of the world. i have always been down in the country, and maybe i have prejudices. you won't refuse to humour one of them, i hope?" "you're beginning to frighten me, mr. dale; what is it?" "about lily's horse." "lily's horse! what about her horse? i hope he's not vicious?" "she is riding every day with your niece," said the squire, thinking it best to stick to his own point. "it will do her all the good in the world," said mrs. thorne. "very likely. i don't doubt it. i do not in the least disapprove her riding. but--" "but what, mr. dale?" "i should be so much obliged if i might be allowed to pay the livery-stable keeper's bill." "oh, laws a' mercy." "i daresay it may sound odd, but as i have a fancy about it, i'm sure you'll gratify me." "of course i will. i'll remember it. i'll make it all right with bernard. bernard and i have no end of accounts,--or shall have before long,--and we'll make an item of it. then you can arrange with bernard afterwards." mr. dale as he got up to go away felt that he was beaten, but he did not know how to carry the battle any further on that occasion. he could not take out his purse and put down the cost of the horse on the table. "i will then speak to my nephew about it," he said, very gravely, as he went away. and he did speak to his nephew about it, and even wrote to him more than once. but it was all to no purpose. mr. potts could not be induced to give a separate bill, and,--so said bernard,--swore at last that he would furnish no account to anybody for horses that went to mrs. thorne's door except to mrs. thorne herself. that night lily took leave of her uncle and remained at mrs. thorne's house. as things were now arranged she would, no doubt, be in london when john eames returned. if he should find her in town--and she told herself that if she was in town he certainly would find her,--he would, doubtless, repeat to her the offer he had so often made before. she never ventured to tell herself that she doubted as to the answer to be made to him. the two letters were written in the book, and must remain there. but she felt that she would have had more courage for persistency down at allington than she would be able to summon to her assistance up in london. she knew she would be weak, should she be found by him alone in mrs. thorne's drawing-room. it would be better for her to make some excuse and go home. she was resolved that she would not become his wife. she could not extricate herself from the dominion of a feeling which she believed to be love for another man. she had given a solemn promise both to her mother and to john eames that she would not marry that other man; but in doing so she had made a solemn promise to herself that she would not marry john eames. she had sworn it and would keep her oath. and yet she regretted it! in writing home to her mother the next day, she told mrs. dale that all the world was speaking well of john eames,--that john had won for himself a reputation of his own, and was known far and wide to be a noble fellow. she could not keep herself from praising john eames, though she knew that such praise might, and would, be used against her at some future time. "though i cannot love him i will give him his due," she said to herself. "i wish you would make up your mind to have an 'it' for yourself," emily dunstable said to her again that night; "a nice 'it,' so that i could make a friend, perhaps a brother, of him." "i shall never have an 'it,' if i live to be a hundred," said lily dale. chapter liii. rotten row. [illustration] lily had heard nothing as to the difficulty about her horse, and could therefore enjoy her exercise without the drawback of feeling that her uncle was subjected to an annoyance. she was in the habit of going out every day with bernard and emily dunstable, and their party was generally joined by others who would meet them at mrs. thorne's house. for mrs. thorne was a very hospitable woman, and there were many who liked well enough to go to her house. late in the afternoon there would be a great congregation of horses before the door,--sometimes as many as a dozen; and then the cavalcade would go off into the park, and there it would become scattered. as neither bernard nor miss dunstable were unconscionable lovers, lily in these scatterings did not often find herself neglected or lost. her cousin would generally remain with her, and as in those days she had no "it" of her own she was well pleased that he should do so. but it so happened that on a certain afternoon she found herself riding in rotten row alone with a certain stout gentleman whom she constantly met at mrs. thorne's house. his name was onesiphorus dunn, and he was usually called siph by his intimate friends. it had seemed to lily that everybody was an intimate friend of mr. dunn's, and she was in daily fear lest she should make a mistake and call him siph herself. had she done so it would not have mattered in the least. mr. dunn, had he observed it at all, would neither have been flattered nor angry. a great many young ladies about london did call him siph, and to him it was quite natural that they should do so. he was an irishman, living on the best of everything in the world, with apparently no fortune of his own, and certainly never earning anything. everybody liked him, and it was admitted on all sides that there was no safer friend in the world, either for young ladies or young men, than mr. onesiphorus dunn. he did not borrow money, and he did not encroach. he did like being asked out to dinner, and he did think that they to whom he gave the light of his countenance in town owed him the return of a week's run in the country. he neither shot, nor hunted nor fished, nor read, and yet he was never in the way in any house. he did play billiards, and whist, and croquet--very badly. he was a good judge of wine, and would occasionally condescend to look after the bottling of it on behalf of some very intimate friend. he was a great friend of mrs. thorne's, with whom he always spent ten days in the autumn at chaldicotes. bernard and emily were not insatiable lovers, but, nevertheless, mrs. thorne had thought it proper to provide a fourth in the riding-parties, and had put mr. dunn upon this duty. "don't bother yourself about it, siph," she had said; "only if those lovers should go off philandering out of sight, our little country lassie might find herself to be nowhere in the park." siph had promised to make himself useful, and had done so. there had generally been so large a number in their party that the work imposed on mr. dunn had been very light. lily had never found out that he had been especially consigned to her as her own cavalier, but had seen quite enough of him to be aware that he was a pleasant companion. to her, thinking, as she ever was thinking, about johnny eames, siph was much more agreeable than might have been a younger man who would have endeavoured to make her think about himself. thus when she found herself riding alone in rotten row with siph dunn, she was neither disconcerted nor displeased. he had been talking to her about lord de guest, whom he had known,--for siph knew everybody,--and lily had begun to wonder whether he knew john eames. she would have liked to hear the opinion of such a man about john eames. she was making up her mind that she would say something about the crawley matter,--not intending of course to mention john eames's name,--when suddenly her tongue was paralyzed and she could not speak. at that moment they were standing near a corner, where a turning path made an angle in the iron rails, mr. dunn having proposed that they should wait there for a few minutes before they returned home, as it was probable that bernard and miss dunstable might come up. they had been there for some five or ten minutes, and lily had asked her first question about the crawleys,--inquiring of mr. dunn whether he had heard of a terrible accusation which had been made against a clergyman in barsetshire,--when on a sudden her tongue was paralyzed. as they were standing, lily's horse was turned towards the diverging path, whereas mr. dunn was looking the other way, towards achilles and apsley house. mr. dunn was nearer to the railings, but though they were thus looking different ways they were so placed that each could see the face of the other. then, on a sudden, coming slowly towards her along the diverging path and leaning on the arm of another man, she saw,--adolphus crosbie. she had never seen him since a day on which she had parted from him with many kisses,--with warm, pressing, eager kisses,--of which she had been nowhat ashamed. he had then been to her almost as her husband. she had trusted him entirely, and had thrown herself into his arms with a full reliance. there is often much of reticence on the part of a woman towards a man to whom she is engaged, something also of shamefacedness occasionally. there exists a shadow of doubt, at least of that hesitation which shows that in spite of vows the woman knows that a change may come, and that provision for such possible steps backward should always be within her reach. but lily had cast all such caution to the winds. she had given herself to the man entirely, and had determined that she would sink or swim, stand or fall, live or die, by him and by his truth. he had been as false as hell. she had been in his arms, clinging to him, kissing him, swearing that her only pleasure in the world was to be with him,--with him her treasure, her promised husband; and within a month, a week, he had been false to her. there had come upon her crushing tidings, and she had for days wondered at herself that they had not killed her. but she had lived, and had forgiven him. she had still loved him, and had received new offers from him, which had been answered as the reader knows. but she had never seen him since the day on which she had parted from him at allington, without a doubt as to his faith. now he was before her, walking on the footpath, almost within reach of her whip. he did not recognize her, but as he passed on he did recognize mr. onesiphorus dunn, and stopped to speak to him. or it might have been that crosbie's friend fowler pratt stopped with this special object,--for siph dunn was an intimate friend of fowler pratt's. crosbie and siph were also acquainted, but in those days crosbie did not care much for stopping his friends in the park or elsewhere. he had become moody and discontented, and was generally seen going about the world alone. on this special occasion he was having a little special conversation about money with his very old friend fowler pratt. "what, siph, is this you? you're always on horseback now," said fowler pratt. "well, yes; i have gone in a good deal for cavalry work this last month. i've been lucky enough to have a young lady to ride with me." this he said in a whisper, which the distance of lily justified. "how d'ye do, crosbie? one doesn't often see you on horseback, or on foot either." "i've something to do besides going to look or to be looked at," said crosbie. then he raised his eyes and saw lily's side-face, and recognized her. had he seen her before he had been stopped on his way i think he would have passed on, endeavouring to escape observation. but as it was, his feet had been arrested before he knew of her close vicinity, and now it would seem that he was afraid of her, and was flying from her, were he at once to walk off, leaving his friend behind him. and he knew that she had seen him, and had recognized him, and was now suffering from his presence. he could not but perceive that it was so from the fixedness of her face, and from the constrained manner in which she gazed before her. his friend fowler pratt had never seen miss dale, though he knew very much of her history. siph dunn knew nothing of the history of crosbie and his love, and was unaware that he and lily had ever seen each other. there was thus no help near her to extricate her from her difficulty. "when a man has any work to do in the world," said siph, "he always boasts of it to his acquaintance, and curses his luck to himself. i have nothing to do and can go about to see and to be seen;--and i must own that i like it." "especially the being seen,--eh, siph?" said fowler pratt. "i also have nothing on earth to do, and i come here every day because it is as easy to do that as to go anywhere else." crosbie was still looking at lily. he could not help himself. he could not take his eyes from off her. he could see that she was as pretty as ever, that she was but very little altered. she was, in truth, somewhat stouter than in the old days, but of that he took no special notice. should he speak to her? should he try to catch her eye, and then raise his hat? should he go up to her horse's head boldly, and ask her to let bygones be bygones? he had an idea that of all courses which he could pursue that was the one which she would approve the best,--which would be most efficacious for him, if with her anything from him might have any efficacy. but he could not do it. he did not know what words he might best use. would it become him humbly to sue to her for pardon? or should he strive to express his unaltered love by some tone of his voice? or should he simply ask her after her health? he made one step towards her, and he saw that the face became more rigid and more fixed than before, and then he desisted. he told himself that he was simply hateful to her. he thought that he could perceive that there was no tenderness mixed with her unabated anger. at this moment bernard dale and emily came close upon him, and bernard saw him at once. it was through bernard that lily and crosbie had come to know each other. he and bernard dale had been fast friends in old times, and had, of course, been bitter enemies since the day of crosbie's treachery. they had never spoken since, though they had often seen each other, and dale was not at all disposed to speak to him now. the moment that he recognized crosbie he looked across to his cousin. for an instant, an idea had flashed across him that he was there by her permission,--with her assent; but it required no second glance to show him that this was not the case. "dunn," he said, "i think we will ride on," and he put his horse into a trot. siph, whose ear was very accurate, and who knew at once that something was wrong, trotted on with him, and lily, of course, was not left behind. "is there anything the matter?" said emily to her lover. "nothing specially the matter," he replied; "but you were standing in company with the greatest blackguard that ever lived, and i thought we had better change our ground." "bernard!" said lily, flashing on him with all the fire which her eyes could command. then she remembered that she could not reprimand him for the offence of such abuse in such a company; so she reined in her horse and fell a-weeping. siph dunn, with his wicked cleverness, knew the whole story at once, remembering that he had once heard something of crosbie having behaved very ill to some one before he married lady alexandrina de courcy. he stopped his horse also, falling a little behind lily, so that he might not be supposed to have seen her tears, and began to hum a tune. emily also, though not wickedly clever, understood something of it. "if bernard says anything to make you angry, i will scold him," she said. then the two girls rode on together in front, while bernard fell back with siph dunn. "pratt," said crosbie, putting his hand on his friend's shoulder as soon as the party had ridden out of hearing, "do you see that girl there in the dark blue habit?" "what, the one nearest to the path?" "yes; the one nearest to the path. that is lily dale." "lily dale!" said fowler pratt. "yes; that is lily dale." "did you speak to her?" pratt asked. "no; she gave me no chance. she was there but a moment. but it was herself. it seems so odd to me that i should have been thus so near her again." if there was any man to whom crosbie could have spoken freely about lily dale it was this man, fowler pratt. pratt was the oldest friend he had in the world, and it had happened that when he first woke to the misery that he had prepared for himself in throwing over lily and betrothing himself to his late wife, pratt had been the first person to whom he had communicated his sorrow. not that he had ever been really open in his communications. it is not given to such men as crosbie to speak openly of themselves to their friends. nor, indeed, was fowler pratt one who was fond of listening to such tales. he had no such tales to tell of himself, and he thought that men and women should go through the world quietly, not subjecting themselves or their acquaintances to anxieties and emotions from peculiar conduct. but he was conscientious, and courageous also as well as prudent, and he had dared to tell crosbie that he was behaving very badly. he had spoken his mind plainly, and had then given all the assistance in his power. he paused a moment before he replied, weighing, like a prudent man, the force of the words he was about to utter. "it is much better as it is," he said. "it is much better that you should be as strangers for the future." "i do not see that at all," said crosbie. they were both leaning on the rails, and so they remained for the next twenty minutes. "i do not see that at all." "i feel sure of it. what could come of any renewed intercourse,--even if she would allow it?" "i might make her my wife." "and do you think that you would be happy with her, or she with you, after what has passed?" "i do think so." "i do not. it might be possible that she should bring herself to marry you. women delight to forgive injuries. they like the excitement of generosity. but she could never forget that you had had a former wife, or the circumstances under which you were married. and as for yourself, you would regret it after the first month. how could you ever speak to her of your love without speaking also of your shame? if a man does marry he should at least be able to hold up his head before his wife." this was very severe, but crosbie showed no anger. "i think i should do so," he said,--"after a while." "and then, about money? of course you would have to tell her everything." "everything--of course." "it is like enough that she might not regard that,--except that she would feel that if you could not afford to marry her when you were unembarrassed, you can hardly afford to do so when you are over head and ears in debt." "she has money now." "after all that has come and gone you would hardly seek lily dale because you want to marry a fortune." "you are too hard on me, pratt. you know that my only reason for seeking her is that i love her." "i do not mean to be hard. but i have a very strong opinion that the quarrels of lovers, when they are of so very serious a nature, are a bad basis for the renewal of love. come, let us go and dress for dinner. i am going to dine with mrs. thorne, the millionaire, who married a country doctor, and who used to be called miss dunstable." "i never dine out anywhere now," said crosbie. and then they walked out of the park together. neither of them, of course, knew that lily dale was staying at the house at which fowler pratt was going to dine. lily, as she rode home, did not speak a word. she would have given worlds to be able to talk, but she could not even make a beginning. she heard bernard and siph dunn chatting behind her, and hoped that they would continue to do so till she was safe within the house. they all used her well, for no one tried to draw her into conversation. once emily said to her, "shall we trot a little, lily?" and then they had moved on quickly, and the misery was soon over. as soon as she was upstairs in the house, she got emily by herself, and explained all the mystery in a word or two. "i fear i have made a fool of myself. that was the man to whom i was once engaged." "what, mr. crosbie?" said emily, who had heard the whole story from bernard. "yes, mr. crosbie; pray, do not say a word of it to anybody,--not even to your aunt. i am better now, but i was such a fool. no, dear; i won't go into the drawing-room. i'll go upstairs, and come down ready for dinner." when she was alone she sat down in her habit, and declared to herself that she certainly would never become the wife of mr. crosbie. i do not know why she should make such a declaration. she had promised her mother and john eames that she would not do so, and that promise would certainly have bound her without any further resolutions on her own part. but, to tell the truth, the vision of the man had disenchanted her. when last she had seen him he had been as it were a god to her; and though, since that day, his conduct to her had been as ungodlike as it well might be, still the memory of the outward signs of his divinity had remained with her. it is difficult to explain how it had come to pass that the glimpse which she had had of him should have altered so much within her mind;--why she should so suddenly have come to regard him in an altered light. it was not simply that he looked to be older, and because his face was careworn. it was not only that he had lost that look of an apollo which lily had once in her mirth attributed to him. i think it was chiefly that she herself was older, and could no longer see a god in such a man. she had never regarded john eames as being gifted with divinity, and had therefore always been making comparisons to his discredit. any such comparison now would tend quite the other way. nevertheless she would adhere to the two letters in her book. since she had seen mr. crosbie she was altogether out of love with the prospect of matrimony. she was in the room when mr. pratt was announced, and she at once recognized him as the man who had been with crosbie. and when, some minutes afterwards, siph dunn came into the room, she could see that in their greeting allusion was made to the scene in the park. but still it was probable that this man would not recognize her, and, if he did so, what would it matter? there were twenty people to sit down to dinner, and the chances were that she would not be called upon to exchange a word with mr. pratt. she had now recovered herself, and could speak freely to her friend siph, and when siph came and stood near her she thanked him graciously for his escort in the park. "if it wasn't for you, mr. dunn, i really think i should not get any riding at all. bernard and miss dunstable have only one thing to think about, and certainly i am not that one thing." she thought it probable that if she could keep siph close to her, mrs. thorne, who always managed those things herself, might apportion her out to be led to dinner by her good-natured friend. but the fates were averse. the time had now come, and lily was waiting her turn. "mr. fowler pratt, let me introduce you to miss lily dale," said mrs. thorne. lily could perceive that mr. pratt was startled. the sign he gave was the least possible sign in the world; but still it sufficed for lily to perceive it. she put her hand upon his arm, and walked down with him to the dining-room without giving him the slightest cause to suppose that she knew who he was. "i think i saw you in the park riding?" he said. "yes, i was there; we go nearly every day." "i never ride; i was walking." "it seems to me that the people don't go there to walk, but to stand still," said lily. "i cannot understand how so many people can bear to loiter about in that way--leaning on the rails and doing nothing." "it is about as good as the riding, and costs less money. that is all that can be said for it. do you live chiefly in town?" "o dear, no; i live altogether in the country. i'm only up here because a cousin is going to be married." "captain dale you mean--to miss dunstable?" said fowler pratt. "when they have been joined together in holy matrimony, i shall go down to the country, and never, i suppose, come up to london again." "you do not like london?" "not as a residence, i think," said lily. "but of course one's likings and dislikings on such a matter depend on circumstances. i live with my mother, and all my relatives live near us. of course i like the country best, because they are there." "young ladies so often have a different way of looking at this subject. i shouldn't wonder if miss dunstable's views about it were altogether of another sort. young ladies generally expect to be taken away from their fathers and mothers, and uncles and aunts." "but you see i expect to be left with mine," said lily. after that she turned as much away from mr. fowler pratt as she could, having taken an aversion to him. what business had he to talk to her about being taken away from her uncles and aunts? she had seen him with mr. crosbie, and it might be possible that they were intimate friends. it might be that mr. pratt was asking questions in mr. crosbie's interest. let that be as it might, she would answer no more questions from him further than ordinary good breeding should require of her. "she is a nice girl, certainly," said fowler pratt to himself, as he walked home, "and i have no doubt would make a good, ordinary, everyday wife. but she is not such a paragon that a man should condescend to grovel in the dirt for her." that night lily told emily dunstable the whole of mr. crosbie's history as far as she knew it, and also explained her new aversion to mr. fowler pratt. "they are very great friends," said emily. "bernard has told me so; and you may be sure that mr. pratt knew the whole history before he came here. i am so sorry that my aunt asked him." "it does not signify in the least," said lily. "even if i were to meet mr. crosbie i don't think i should make such a fool of myself again. as it is, i can only hope he did not see it." "i am sure he did not." then there was a pause, during which lily sat with her face resting on both her hands. "it is wonderful how much he is altered," she said at last. "think how much he has suffered." "i suppose i am altered as much, only i do not see it in myself." "i don't know what you were, but i don't think you can have changed much. you no doubt have suffered too, but not as he has done." "oh, as for that, i have done very well. i think i'll go to bed now. the riding makes me so sleepy." chapter liv. the clerical commission. it was at last arranged that the five clergymen selected should meet at dr. tempest's house in silverbridge to make inquiry and report to the bishop whether the circumstances connected with the cheque for twenty pounds were of such a nature as to make it incumbent on him to institute proceedings against mr. crawley in the court of arches. dr. tempest had acted upon the letter which he had received from the bishop, exactly as though there had been no meeting at the palace, no quarrel to the death between him and mrs. proudie. he was a prudent man, gifted with the great power of holding his tongue, and had not spoken a word, even to his wife, of what had occurred. after such a victory our old friend the archdeacon would have blown his own trumpet loudly among his friends. plumstead would have heard of it instantly, and the pæan would have been sung out in the neighbouring parishes of eiderdown, stogpingum, and st. ewolds. the high-street of barchester would have known of it, and the very bedesmen in hiram's hospital would have told among themselves the terrible discomfiture of the bishop and his lady. but dr. tempest spoke no word of it to anybody. he wrote letters to the two clergymen named by the bishop, and himself selected two others out of his own rural deanery, and suggested to them all a day at which a preliminary meeting should be held at his own house. the two who were invited by him were mr. oriel, the rector of greshamsbury, and mr. robarts, the vicar of framley. they all assented to the proposition, and on the day named assembled themselves at silverbridge. it was now april, and the judges were to come into barchester before the end of the month. what then could be the use of this ecclesiastical inquiry exactly at the same time? men and women declared that it was a double prosecution, and that a double prosecution for the same offence was a course of action opposed to the feelings and traditions of the country. miss anne prettyman went so far as to say that it was unconstitutional, and mary walker declared that no human being except mrs. proudie would ever have been guilty of such cruelty. "don't tell me about the bishop, john," she said; "the bishop is a cypher." "you may be sure dr. tempest would not have a hand in it if it were not right," said john walker. "my dear mr. john," said miss anne prettyman, "dr. tempest is as hard as a bar of iron, and always was. but i am surprised that mr. robarts should take a part in it." in the meantime, at the palace, mrs. proudie had been reduced to learn what was going on from mr. thumble. the bishop had never spoken a word to her respecting mr. crawley since that terrible day on which dr. tempest had witnessed his imbecility,--having absolutely declined to answer when his wife had mentioned the subject. "you won't speak to me about it, my dear?" she had said to him, when he had thus declined, remonstrating more in sorrow than in anger. "no; i won't," the bishop had replied; "there has been a great deal too much talking about it. it has broken my heart already, i know." these were very bad days in the palace. mrs. proudie affected to be satisfied with what was being done. she talked to mr. thumble about mr. crawley and the cheque, as though everything were arranged quite to her satisfaction,--as though everything, indeed, had been arranged by herself. but everybody about the house could see that the manner of the woman was altogether altered. she was milder than usual with the servants and was almost too gentle in her usage of her husband. it seemed as though something had happened to frighten her and break her spirit, and it was whispered about through the palace that she was afraid that the bishop was dying. as for him, he hardly left his own sitting-room in these days, except when he joined the family at breakfast and at dinner. and in his study he did little or nothing. he would smile when his chaplain went to him, and give some trifling verbal directions; but for days he scarcely ever took a pen in his hands, and though he took up many books he read hardly a page. how often he told his wife in those days that he was broken-hearted, no one but his wife ever knew. "what has happened that you should speak like that?" she said to him once. "what has broken your heart?" "you," he replied. "you; you have done it." "oh, tom," she said, going back into the memory of very far distant days in her nomenclature, "how can you speak to me so cruelly as that! that it should come to that between you and me, after all!" "why did you not go away and leave me that day when i told you?" "did you ever know a woman who liked to be turned out of a room in her own house?" said mrs. proudie. when mrs. proudie had condescended so far as this, it must be admitted that in those days there was great trouble in the palace. mr. thumble, on the day before he went to silverbridge, asked for an audience with the bishop in order that he might receive instructions. he had been strictly desired to do this by mrs. proudie, and had not dared to disobey her injunctions,--thinking, however, himself, that his doing so was inexpedient. "i have got nothing to say to you about it; not a word," said the bishop crossly. "i thought that perhaps you might like to see me before i started," pleaded mr. thumble very humbly. "i don't want to see you at all," said the bishop; "you are going there to exercise your own judgment,--if you have got any; and you ought not to come to me." after that mr. thumble began to think that mrs. proudie was right, and that the bishop was near his dissolution. mr. thumble and mr. quiverful went over to silverbridge together in a gig, hired from the "dragon of wantly"--as to the cost of which there arose among them a not unnatural apprehension which amounted at last almost to dismay. "i don't mind it so much for once," said mr. quiverful, "but if many such meetings are necessary, i for one can't afford it, and i won't do it. a man with my family can't allow himself to be money out of pocket in that way." "it is hard," said mr. thumble. "she ought to pay it herself, out of her own pocket," said mr. quiverful. he had had concerns with the palace when mrs. proudie was in the full swing of her dominion, and had not as yet begun to suspect that there might possibly be a change. mr. oriel and mr. robarts were already sitting with dr. tempest when the other two clergymen were shown into the room. when the first greetings were over luncheon was announced, and while they were eating not a word was said about mr. crawley. the ladies of the family were not present, and the five clergymen sat round the table alone. it would have been difficult to have got together five gentlemen less likely to act with one mind and one spirit;--and perhaps it was all the better for mr. crawley that it should be so. dr. tempest himself was a man peculiarly capable of exercising the functions of a judge in such a matter, had he sat alone as a judge; but he was one who would be almost sure to differ from others who sat as equal assessors with him. mr. oriel was a gentleman at all points; but he was very shy, very reticent, and altogether uninstructed in the ordinary daily intercourse of man with man. any one knowing him might have predicted of him that he would be sure on such an occasion as this to be found floundering in a sea of doubts. mr. quiverful was the father of a large family, whose whole life had been devoted to fighting a cruel world on behalf of his wife and children. that fight he had fought bravely; but it had left him no energy for any other business. mr. thumble was a poor creature,--so poor a creature that, in spite of a small restless ambition to be doing something, he was almost cowed by the hard lines of dr. tempest's brow. the rev. mark robarts was a man of the world, and a clever fellow, and did not stand in awe of anybody,--unless it might be, in a very moderate degree, of his patrons the luftons, whom he was bound to respect; but his cleverness was not the cleverness needed by a judge. he was essentially a partisan, and would be sure to vote against the bishop in such a matter as this now before him. there was a palace faction in the diocese, and an anti-palace faction. mr. thumble and mr. quiverful belonged to one, and mr. oriel and mr. robarts to the other. mr. thumble was too weak to stick to his faction against the strength of such a man as dr. tempest. mr. quiverful would be too indifferent to do so,--unless his interest were concerned. mr. oriel would be too conscientious to regard his own side on such an occasion as this. but mark robarts would be sure to support his friends and oppose his enemies, let the case be what it might. "now, gentlemen, if you please, we will go into the other room," said dr. tempest. they went into the other room, and there they found five chairs arranged for them round the table. not a word had as yet been said about mr. crawley, and no one of the four strangers knew whether mr. crawley was to appear before them on that day or not. "gentlemen," said dr. tempest, seating himself at once in an arm-chair placed at the middle of the table, "i think it will be well to explain to you at first what, as i regard the matter, is the extent of the work which we are called upon to perform. it is of its nature very disagreeable. it cannot but be so, let it be ever so limited. here is a brother clergyman and a gentleman, living among us, and doing his duty, as we are told, in a most exemplary manner; and suddenly we hear that he is accused of a theft. the matter is brought before the magistrates, of whom i myself was one, and he was committed for trial. there is therefore primâ facie evidence of his guilt. but i do not think that we need go into the question of his guilt at all." when he said this, the other four all looked up at him in astonishment. "i thought that we had been summoned here for that purpose," said mr. robarts. "not at all, as i take it," said the doctor. "were we to commence any such inquiry, the jury would have given their verdict before we could come to any conclusion; and it would be impossible for us to oppose that verdict, whether it declares this unfortunate gentleman to be innocent or to be guilty. if the jury shall say that he is innocent, there is an end of the matter altogether. he would go back to his parish amidst the sympathy and congratulations of his friends. that is what we should all wish." "of course it is," said mr. robarts. they all declared that was their desire, as a matter of course; and mr. thumble said it louder than any one else. "but if he be found guilty, then will come that difficulty to the bishop, in which we are bound to give him any assistance within our power." "of course we are," said mr. thumble, who, having heard his own voice once, and having liked the sound, thought that he might creep into a little importance by using it on any occasion that opened itself for him. "if you will allow me, sir, i will venture to state my views as shortly as i can," said dr. tempest. "that may perhaps be the most expeditious course for us all in the end." "oh, certainly," said mr. thumble. "i didn't mean to interrupt." "in the case of his being found guilty," continued the doctor, "there will arise the question whether the punishment awarded to him by the judge should suffice for ecclesiastical purposes. suppose, for instance, that he should be imprisoned for two months, should he be allowed to return to his living at the expiration of that term?" "i think he ought," said mr. robarts;--"considering all things." "i don't see why he shouldn't," said mr. quiverful. mr. oriel sat listening patiently, and mr. thumble looked up to the doctor, expecting to hear some opinion expressed by him with which he might coincide. "there certainly are reasons why he should not," said dr. tempest; "though i by no means say that those reasons are conclusive in the present case. in the first place, a man who has stolen money can hardly be a fitting person to teach others not to steal." "you must look to the circumstances," said robarts. "yes, that is true; but just bear with me a moment. it cannot, at any rate, be thought that a clergyman should come out of prison and go to his living without any notice from his bishop, simply because he has already been punished under the common law. if this were so, a clergyman might be fined ten days running for being drunk in the street,--five shillings each time,--and at the end of that time might set his bishop at defiance. when a clergyman has shown himself to be utterly unfit for clerical duties, he must not be held to be protected from ecclesiastical censure or from deprivation by the action of the common law." "but mr. crawley has not shown himself to be unfit," said robarts. "that is begging the question, robarts," said the doctor. "just so," said mr. thumble. then mr. robarts gave a look at mr. thumble, and mr. thumble retired into his shoes. "that is the question as to which we are called upon to advise the bishop," continued dr. tempest. "and i must say that i think the bishop is right. if he were to allow the matter to pass by without notice,--that is to say, in the event of mr. crawley being pronounced to be guilty by a jury,--he would, i think, neglect his duty. now, i have been informed that the bishop has recommended mr. crawley to desist from his duties till the trial be over, and that mr. crawley has declined to take the bishop's advice." "that is true," said mr. thumble. "he altogether disregarded the bishop." "i cannot say that i think he was wrong," said dr. tempest. "i think he was quite right," said mr. robarts. "a bishop in almost all cases is entitled to the obedience of his clergy," said mr. oriel. "i must say that i agree with you, sir," said mr. thumble. "the income is not large, and i suppose that it would have gone with the duties," said mr. quiverful. "it is very hard for a man with a family to live when his income has been stopped." "be that as it may," continued the doctor, "the bishop feels that it may be his duty to oppose the return of mr. crawley to his pulpit, and that he can oppose it in no other way than by proceeding against mr. crawley under the clerical offences act. i propose, therefore, that we should invite mr. crawley to attend here--" "mr. crawley is not coming here to-day, then?" said mr. robarts. "i thought it useless to ask for his attendance until we had settled on our course of action," said dr. tempest. "if we are all agreed, i will beg him to come here on this day week, when we will meet again. and we will then ask him whether he will submit himself to the bishop's decision, in the event of the jury finding him guilty. if he should decline to do so, we can only then form our opinion as to what will be the bishop's duty by reference to the facts as they are elicited at the trial. if mr. crawley should choose to make to us any statement as to his own case, of course we shall be willing to receive it. that is my idea of what had better be done; and now, if any gentleman has any other proposition to make, of course we shall be pleased to hear him." dr. tempest, as he said this, looked round upon his companions, as though his pleasure, under the circumstances suggested by himself, would be very doubtful. "i don't suppose we can do anything better," said mr. robarts. "i think it a pity, however, that any steps should have been taken by the bishop before the trial." "the bishop has been placed in a very delicate position," said mr. thumble, pleading for his patron. "i don't know the meaning of the word 'delicate,'" said robarts. "i think his duty was very clear, to avoid interference whilst the matter is, so to say, before the judge." "nobody has anything else to propose?" said dr. tempest. "then i will write to mr. crawley, and you, gentlemen, will perhaps do me the honour of meeting me here at one o'clock on this day week." then the meeting was over, and the four clergymen having shaken hands with dr. tempest in the hall, all promised that they would return on that day week. so far, dr. tempest had carried his point exactly as he might have done had the four gentlemen been represented by the chairs on which they had sat. "i shan't come again, all the same, unless i know where i'm to get my expenses," said mr. quiverful, as he got into the gig. "i shall come," said mr. thumble, "because i think it a duty. of course it is a hardship." mr. thumble liked the idea of being joined with such men as dr. tempest, and mr. oriel, and mr. robarts, and would any day have paid the expense of a gig from barchester to silverbridge out of his own pocket, for the sake of sitting with such benchfellows on any clerical inquiry. "one's first duty is to one's own wife and family," said mr. quiverful. "well, yes; in a way, of course, that is quite true, mr. quiverful; and when we know how very inadequate are the incomes of the working clergy, we cannot but feel ourselves to be, if i may so say, put upon, when we have to defray the expenses incidental to special duties out of our own pockets. i think, you know,--i don't mind saying this to you,--that the palace should have provided us with a chaise and pair." this was ungrateful on the part of mr. thumble, who had been permitted to ride miles upon miles to various outlying clerical duties upon the bishop's worn-out cob. "you see," continued mr. thumble, "you and i go specially to represent the palace, and the palace ought to remember that. i think there ought to have been a chaise and pair; i do indeed." "i don't care much what the conveyance is," said mr. quiverful; "but i certainly shall pay nothing more out of my own pocket;--certainly i shall not." "the result will be that the palace will be thrown over if they don't take care," said mr. thumble. "tempest, however, seems to be pretty steady. tempest, i think, is steady. you see he is getting tired of parish work, and would like to go into the close. that's what he is looking out for. did you ever see such a fellow as that robarts,--just look at him;--quite indecent, wasn't he? he thinks he can have his own way in everything, just because his sister married a lord. i do hate to see all that meanness." mark robarts and caleb oriel left silverbridge in another gig by the same road, and soon passed their brethren, as mr. robarts was in the habit of driving a large, quick-stepping horse. the last remarks were being made as the dust from the vicar of framley's wheels saluted the faces of the two slower clergymen. mr. oriel had promised to dine and sleep at framley, and therefore returned in mr. robarts' gig. "quite unnecessary, all this fuss; don't you think so?" said mr. robarts. "i am not quite sure," said mr. oriel. "i can understand that the bishop may have found a difficulty." "the bishop, indeed! the bishop doesn't care two straws about it. it's mrs. proudie! she has put her finger on the poor man's neck because he has not put his neck beneath her feet; and now she thinks she can crush him,--as she would crush you or me, if it were in her power. that's about the long and the short of the bishop's solicitude." "you are very hard on him," said mr. oriel. "i know him;--and am not at all hard on him. she is hard upon him if you like. tempest is fair. he is very fair, and as long as no one meddles with him he won't do amiss. i can't hold my tongue always, but i often know that it is better that i should." dr. tempest said not a word to any one on the subject, not even in his own defence. and yet he was sorely tempted. on the very day of the meeting he dined at mr. walker's in silverbridge, and there submitted to be talked at by all the ladies and most of the gentlemen present, without saying a word in his own defence. and yet a word or two would have been so easy and so conclusive. "oh, dr. tempest," said mary walker, "i am so sorry that you have joined the bishop." "are you, my dear?" said he. "it is generally thought well that a parish clergyman should agree with his bishop." "but you know, dr. tempest, that you don't agree with your bishop generally." "then it is the more fortunate that i shall be able to agree with him on this occasion." major grantly was present at the dinner, and ventured to ask the doctor in the course of the evening what he thought would be done. "i should not venture to ask such a question, dr. tempest," he said, "unless i had the strongest possible reason to justify my anxiety." "i don't know that i can tell you anything, major grantly," said the doctor. "we did not even see mr. crawley to-day. but the real truth is that he must stand or fall as the jury shall find him guilty or not guilty. it would be the same in any profession. could a captain in the army hold up his head in his regiment after he had been tried and found guilty of stealing twenty pounds?" "i don't think he could," said the major. "neither can a clergyman," said the doctor. "the bishop can neither make him nor mar him. it is the jury that must do it." chapter lv. framley parsonage. at this time grace crawley was at framley parsonage. old lady lufton's strategy had been quite intelligible, but some people said that in point of etiquette and judgment and moral conduct, it was indefensible. her vicar, mr. robarts, had been selected to be one of the clergymen who was to sit in ecclesiastical judgment upon mr. crawley, and while he was so sitting mr. crawley's daughter was staying in mr. robarts' house as a visitor with his wife! it might be that there was no harm in this. lady lufton, when the apparent impropriety was pointed out to her by no less a person than archdeacon grantly, ridiculed the idea. "my dear archdeacon," lady lufton had said, "we all know the bishop to be such a fool and the bishop's wife to be such a knave, that we cannot allow ourselves to be governed in this matter by ordinary rules. do you not think that it is expedient to show how utterly we disregard his judgment and her malice?" the archdeacon had hesitated much before he spoke to lady lufton, whether he should address himself to her or to mr. robarts,--or indeed to mrs. robarts. but he had become aware that the proposition as to the visit had originated with lady lufton, and he had therefore decided on speaking to her. he had not condescended to say a word as to his son, nor would he so condescend. nor could he go from lady lufton to mr. robarts, having once failed with her ladyship. indeed, in giving him his due, we must acknowledge that his disapprobation of lady lufton's strategy arose rather from his true conviction as to its impropriety, than from any fear lest this attention paid to miss crawley should tend to bring about her marriage with his son. by this time he hated the very name of crawley. he hated it the more because in hating it he had to put himself for the time on the same side with mrs. proudie. but for all that he would not condescend to any unworthy mode of fighting. he thought it wrong that the young lady should be invited to framley parsonage at this moment, and he said so to the person who had, as he thought, in truth, given the invitation; but he would not allow his own personal motives to induce him to carry on the argument with lady lufton. "the bishop is a fool," he said, "and the bishop's wife is a knave. nevertheless i would not have had the young lady over to framley at this moment. if, however, you think it right and robarts thinks it right, there is an end of it." "upon my word we do," said lady lufton. i am induced to think that mr. robarts was not quite confident of the expediency of what he was doing by the way in which he mentioned to mr. oriel the fact of miss crawley's presence at the parsonage as he drove that gentleman home in his gig. they had been talking about mr. crawley when he suddenly turned himself round, so that he could look at his companion, and said, "miss crawley is staying with us at the parsonage at the present moment." "what! mr. crawley's daughter?" said mr. oriel, showing plainly by his voice that the tidings had much surprised him. "yes; mr. crawley's daughter." "oh, indeed. i did not know that you were on those terms with the family." "we have known them for the last seven or eight years," said mark; "and though i should be giving you a false notion if i were to say that i myself have known them intimately,--for crawley is a man whom it is quite impossible to know intimately,--yet the womankind at framley have known them. my sister stayed with them over at hogglestock for some time." "what; lady lufton?" "yes; my sister lucy. it was just before her marriage. there was a lot of trouble, and the crawleys were all ill, and she went to nurse them. and then the old lady took them up, and altogether there came to be a sort of feeling that they were to be regarded as friends. they are always in trouble, and now in this special trouble the women between them have thought it best to have the girl over at framley. of course i had a kind of feeling about this commission; but as i knew that it would make no difference with me i did not think it necessary to put my veto upon the visit." mr. oriel said nothing further, but mark robarts was aware that mr. oriel did not quite approve of the visit. that morning old lady lufton herself had come across to the parsonage with the express view of bidding all the parsonage party to come across to the hall to dine. "you can tell mr. oriel, fanny, with lucy's compliments, how delighted she will be to see him." old lady lufton always spoke of her daughter-in-law as the mistress of the house. "if you think he is particular, you know, we will send a note across." mrs. robarts said that she supposed mr. oriel would not be particular, but, looking at grace, made some faint excuse. "you must come, my dear," said lady lufton. "lucy wishes it particularly." mrs. robarts did not know how to say that she would not come; and so the matter stood,--when mrs. robarts was called upon to leave the room for a moment, and lady lufton and grace were left alone. "dear lady lufton," said grace, getting up suddenly from her chair; "will you do me a favour,--a great favour?" she spoke with an energy which quite surprised the old lady, and caused her almost to start from her seat. "i don't like making promises," said lady lufton; "but anything i can do with propriety i will." "you can do this. pray let me stay here to-day. you don't understand how i feel about going out while papa is in this way. i know how kind and how good you all are; and when dear mrs. robarts asked me here, and mamma said that i had better come, i could not refuse. but indeed, indeed, i had rather not go out to a dinner-party." "it is not a party, my dear girl," said lady lufton, with the kindest voice which she knew how to assume. "and you must remember that my daughter-in-law regards you as so very old a friend! you remember, of course, when she was staying over at hogglestock?" "indeed i do. i remember it well." "and therefore you should not regard it as going out. there will be nobody there but ourselves and the people from this house." "but it will be going out, lady lufton; and i do hope you will let me stay here. you cannot think how i feel it. of course i cannot go without something like dressing, and--and--and-- in poor papa's state i feel that i ought not to do anything that looks like gaiety. i ought never to forget it;--not for a moment." there was a tear in lady lufton's eye as she said,--"my dear, you shan't come. you and fanny shall stop and dine here by yourselves. the gentlemen shall come." "do let mrs. robarts go, please," said grace. "i won't do anything of the kind," said lady lufton. then, when mrs. robarts returned to the room, her ladyship explained it all in two words. "whilst you have been away, my dear, grace has begged off, and therefore we have decided that mr. oriel and mr. robarts shall come without you." "i am so sorry, mrs. robarts," said grace. "pooh, pooh," said lady lufton. "fanny and i have known each other quite long enough not to stand on any compliments,--haven't we, my dear? i must get home now, as all the morning has gone by. fanny my dear, i want to speak to you." then she expressed her opinion of grace crawley as she walked across the parsonage garden with mrs. robarts. "she is a very nice girl, and a very good girl, i am sure; and she shows excellent feeling. whatever happens we must take care of her. and, fanny, have you observed how handsome she is?" "we think her very pretty." "she is more than pretty when she has a little fire in her eyes. she is downright handsome,--or will be when she fills out a little. i tell you what, my dear; she'll make havoc with somebody yet; you see if she doesn't. by--by. tell the two gentlemen to be up by seven punctually." and then lady lufton went home. grace so contrived that mr. oriel came and went without seeing her. there was a separate nursery breakfast at the parsonage, and by special permission grace was allowed to have her tea and bread-and-butter on the next morning with the children. "i thought you told me miss crawley was here," said mr. oriel, as the two clergymen stood waiting for the gig that was to take the visitor away to barchester. "so she is," said robarts; "but she likes to hide herself, because of her father's trouble. you can't blame her." "no, indeed," said mr. oriel. "poor girl. if you knew her you would not only pity her, but like her." "is she,--what you call--?" "you mean, is she a lady?" "of course she is by birth, and all that," said mr. oriel, apologizing for his inquiry. "i don't think there is another girl in the county so well educated," said mr. robarts. "indeed! i had no idea of that." "and we think her a great beauty. as for manners, i never saw a girl with a prettier way of her own." "dear me," said mr. oriel. "i wish she had come down to breakfast." it will have been perceived that old lady lufton had heard nothing of major grantly's offence; that she had no knowledge that grace had already made havoc, as she had called it,--had, in truth, made very sad havoc, at plumstead. she did not, therefore, think much about it when her son told her upon her return home from the parsonage on that afternoon that major grantly had come over from cosby lodge, and that he was going to dine and sleep at framley court. some slight idea of thankfulness came across her mind that she had not betrayed grace crawley into a meeting with a stranger. "i asked him to come some day before we went up to town," said his lordship; "and i am glad he has come to-day, as two clergymen to one's self are, at any rate, one too many." so major grantly dined and slept at the court. but mrs. robarts was in a great flurry when she was told of this by her husband on his return from the dinner. mrs. crawley had found an opportunity of telling the story of major grantly's love to mrs. robarts before she had sent her daughter to framley, knowing that the families were intimate, and thinking it right that there should be some precaution. "i wonder whether he will come up here," mrs. robarts had said. "probably not," said the vicar. "he said he was going home early." "i hope he will not come--for grace's sake," said mrs. robarts. she hesitated whether she should tell her husband. she always did tell him everything. but on this occasion she thought she had no right to do so, and she kept the secret. "don't do anything to bring him up, dear." "you needn't be afraid. he won't come," said the vicar. on the following morning, as soon as mr. oriel was gone, mr. robarts went out,--about his parish he would probably have called it; but in half an hour he might have been seen strolling about the court stable-yard with lord lufton. "where is grantly?" asked the vicar. "i don't know where he is," said his lordship. "he has sloped off somewhere." the major had sloped off to the parsonage, well knowing in what nest his dove was lying hid; and he and the vicar had passed each other. the major had gone out at the front gate, and the vicar had gone in at the stable entrance. the two clergymen had hardly taken their departure when major grantly knocked at the parsonage door. he had come so early that mrs. robarts had taken no precautions,--even had there been any precautions which she would have thought it right to take. grace was in the act of coming down the stairs, not having heard the knock at the door, and thus she found her lover in the hall. he had asked, of course, for mrs. robarts, and thus they two entered the drawing-room together. they had not had time to speak when the servant opened the drawing-room door to announce the visitor. there had been no word spoken between mrs. robarts and grace about major grantly, but the mother had told the daughter of what she had said to mrs. robarts. "grace," said the major, "i am so glad to find you!" then he turned to mrs. robarts with his open hand. "you won't take it uncivil of me if i say that my visit is not entirely to yourself? i think i may take upon myself to say that i and miss crawley are old friends. may i not?" grace could not answer a word. "mrs. crawley told me that you had known her at silverbridge," said mrs. robarts, driven to say something, but feeling that she was blundering. "i came over to framley yesterday because i heard that she was here. am i wrong to come up here to see her?" "i think she must answer that for herself, major grantly." "am i wrong, grace?" grace thought that he was the finest gentleman and the noblest lover that had ever shown his devotion to a woman, and was stirred by a mighty resolve that if it ever should be in her power to reward him after any fashion, she would pour out the reward with a very full hand indeed. but what was she to say on the present moment? "am i wrong, grace?" he said, repeating his question with so much emphasis, that she was positively driven to answer it. "i do not think you are wrong at all. how can i say you are wrong when you are so good? if i could be your servant i would serve you. but i can be nothing to you, because of papa's disgrace. dear mrs. robarts, i cannot stay. you must answer him for me." and having thus made her speech she escaped from the room. [illustration: "because of papa's disgrace."] it may suffice to say further now that the major did not see grace again during that visit at framley. chapter lvi. the archdeacon goes to framley. [illustration] by some of those unseen telegraphic wires which carry news about the country and make no charge for the conveyance, archdeacon grantly heard that his son the major was at framley. now in that itself there would have been nothing singular. there had been for years much intimacy between the lufton family and the grantly family,--so much that an alliance between the two houses had once been planned, the elders having considered it expedient that the young lord should marry that griselda who had since mounted higher in the world even than the elders had then projected for her. there had come no such alliance; but the intimacy had not ceased, and there was nothing in itself surprising in the fact that major grantly should be staying at framley court. but the archdeacon, when he heard the news, bethought him at once of grace crawley. could it be possible that his old friend lady lufton,--lady lufton whom he had known and trusted all his life, whom he had ever regarded as a pillar of the church in barsetshire,--should now be untrue to him in a matter so closely affecting his interests? men when they are worried by fears and teased by adverse circumstances become suspicious of those on whom suspicion should never rest. it was hardly possible, the archdeacon thought, that lady lufton should treat him so unworthily,--but the circumstances were strong against his friend. lady lufton had induced miss crawley to go to framley, much against his advice, at a time when such a visit seemed to him to be very improper; and it now appeared that his son was to be there at the same time,--a fact of which lady lufton had made no mention to him whatever. why had not lady lufton told him that henry grantly was coming to framley court? the reader, whose interest in the matter will be less keen than was the archdeacon's, will know very well why lady lufton had said nothing about the major's visit. the reader will remember that lady lufton, when she saw the archdeacon, was as ignorant as to the intended visit as was the archdeacon himself. but the archdeacon was uneasy, troubled, and suspicious;--and he suspected his old friend unworthily. he spoke to his wife about it within a very few hours of the arrival of the tidings by those invisible wires. he had already told her that miss crawley was to go to framley parsonage, and that he thought that mrs. robarts was wrong to receive her at such a time. "it is only intended for good-nature," mrs. grantly had said. "it is misplaced good-nature at the present moment," the archdeacon had replied. mrs. grantly had not thought it worth her while to undertake at the moment any strong defence of the framley people. she knew well how odious was the name of crawley in her husband's ears, and she felt that the less that was said at present about the crawleys the better for the peace of the rectory at plumstead. she had therefore allowed the expression of his disapproval to pass unchallenged. but now he came upon her with a more bitter grievance, and she was obliged to argue the matter with him. "what do you think?" said he; "henry is at framley." "he can hardly be staying there," said mrs. grantly, "because i know that he is so very busy at home." the business at home of which the major's mother was speaking was his projected moving from cosby lodge, a subject which was also very odious to the archdeacon. he did not wish his son to move from cosby lodge. he could not endure the idea that his son should be known throughout the county to be giving up a residence because he could not afford to keep it. the archdeacon could have afforded to keep up two cosby lodges for his son, and would have been well pleased to do so, if only his son would not misbehave against him so shamefully! he could not bear that his son should be punished, openly, before the eyes of all barsetshire. indeed he did not wish that his son should be punished at all. he simply desired that his son should recognize his father's power to inflict punishment. it would be henbane to archdeacon grantly to have a poor son,--a son living at pau,--among frenchmen!--because he could not afford to live in england. why had the archdeacon been careful of his money, adding house to house and field to field? he himself was contented,--so he told himself,--to die as he had lived in a country parsonage, working with the collar round his neck up to the day of his death, if god would allow him so to do. he was ambitious of no grandeur for himself. so he would tell himself,--being partly oblivious of certain episodes in his own life. all his wealth had been got together for his children. he desired that his sons should be fitting brothers for their august sister. and now the son who was nearest to him, whom he was bent upon making a squire in his own county, wanted to marry the daughter of a man who had stolen twenty pounds, and when objection was made to so discreditable a connexion, replied by packing up all his things and saying that he would go and live--at pau! the archdeacon therefore did not like to hear of his son being very busy at home. "i don't know whether he's busy or not," said the archdeacon, "but i tell you he is staying at framley." "from whom have you heard it?" "what matter does that make if it is so? i heard it from flurry." "flurry may have been mistaken," said mrs. grantly. "it is not at all likely. those people always know about such things. he heard it from the framley keeper. i don't doubt but it's true, and i think that it's a great shame." "a great shame that henry should be at framley! he has been there two or three times every year since he has lived in the county." "it is a great shame that he should be had over there just at the time when that girl is there also. it is impossible to believe that such a thing is an accident." "but, archdeacon, you do not mean to say that you think that lady lufton has arranged it?" "i don't know who has arranged it. somebody has arranged it. if it is robarts, that is almost worse. one could forgive a woman in such a matter better than one could a man." "psha!" mrs. grantly's temper was never bitter, but at this moment it was not sweetened by her husband's very uncivil reference to her sex. "the whole idea is nonsense, and you should get it out of your head." "am i to get it out of my head that henry wants to make this girl his wife, and that the two are at this moment at framley together?" in this the archdeacon was wrong as to his facts. major grantly had left framley on the previous day, having stayed there only one night. "it is coming to that that one can trust no one--no one--literally no one." mrs. grantly perfectly understood that the archdeacon, in the agony of the moment, intended to exclude even herself from his confidence by that "no one;" but to this she was indifferent, understanding accurately when his words should be accepted as expressing his thoughts, and when they should be supposed to express only his anger. "the probability is that no one at lufton knew anything about henry's partiality for miss crawley," said mrs. grantly. "i tell you i think they are both at framley together." "and i tell you that if they are, which i doubt, they are there simply by an accident. besides, what does it matter? if they choose to marry each other, you and i cannot prevent them. they don't want any assistance from lady lufton, or anybody else. they have simply got to make up their own minds, and then no one can hinder them." "and, therefore, you would like to see them brought together?" "i say nothing about that, archdeacon; but i do say that we must take these things as they come. what can we do? henry may go and stay with lady lufton if he pleases. you and i cannot prevent him." after this the archdeacon walked away, and would not argue the matter any further with his wife at that moment. he knew very well that he could not get the better of her, and was apt at such moments to think that she took an unfair advantage of him by keeping her temper. but he could not get out of his head the idea that perhaps on this very day things were being arranged between his son and grace crawley at framley; and he resolved that he himself would go over and see what might be done. he would, at any rate, tell all his trouble to lady lufton, and beg his old friend to assist him. he could not think that such a one as he had always known lady lufton to be would approve of a marriage between henry grantly and grace crawley. at any rate, he would learn the truth. he had once been told that grace crawley had herself refused to marry his son, feeling that she would do wrong to inflict so great an injury upon any gentleman. he had not believed in so great a virtue. he could not believe in it now,--now, when he heard that miss crawley and his son were staying together in the same parish. somebody must be doing him an injury. it could hardly be chance. but his presence at framley might even yet have a good effect, and he would at least learn the truth. so he had himself driven to barchester, and from barchester he took post-horses to framley. as he came near to the village, he grew to be somewhat ashamed of himself, or, at least, nervous as to the mode in which he would proceed. the driver, turning round to him, had suggested that he supposed he was to drive to "my lady's." this injustice to lord lufton, to whom the house belonged, and with whom his mother lived as a guest, was very common in the county; for old lady lufton had lived at framley court through her son's long minority, and had kept the house there till his marriage; and even since his marriage she had been recognized as its presiding genius. it certainly was not the fault of old lady lufton, as she always spoke of everything as belonging either to her son or to her daughter-in-law. the archdeacon had been in doubt whether he would go to the court or to the parsonage. could he have done exactly as he wished, he would have left the chaise and walked to the parsonage, so as to reach it without the noise and fuss incidental to a postilion's arrival. but that was impossible. he could not drop into framley as though he had come from the clouds, and, therefore, he told the man to do as he had suggested. "to my lady's?" said the postilion. the archdeacon assented, and the man, with loud cracks of his whip, and with a spasmodic gallop along the short avenue, took the archdeacon up to the door of lord lufton's house. he asked for lord lufton first, putting on his pleasantest smile, so that the servant should not suspect the purpose, of which he was somewhat ashamed. was lord lufton at home? lord lufton was not at home. lord lufton had gone up to london that morning, intending to return the day after to-morrow; but both my ladies were at home. so the archdeacon was shown into the room where both my ladies were sitting,--and with them he found mrs. robarts. any one who had become acquainted with the habits of the framley ladies would have known that this might very probably be the case. the archdeacon himself was as well aware as any one of the modes of life at framley. the lord's wife was the parson's sister, and the parson's wife had from her infancy been the petted friend of the old lady. of course they all lived very much together. of course mrs. robarts was as much at home in the drawing-room of framley court as she was in her own drawing-room at the parsonage. nevertheless, the archdeacon thought himself to be hardly used when he found that mrs. robarts was at the house. "my dear archdeacon, who ever expected to see you?" said old lady lufton. then the two younger women greeted him. and they all smiled on him pleasantly, and seemed overjoyed to see him. he was, in truth, a great favourite at framley, and each of the three was glad to welcome him. they believed in the archdeacon at framley, and felt for him that sort of love which ladies in the country do feel for their elderly male friends. there was not one of the three who would not have taken much trouble to get anything for the archdeacon which they had thought the archdeacon would like. even old lady lufton remembered what was his favourite soup, and always took care that he should have it when he dined at the court. young lady lufton would bring his tea to him as he sat in his chair. he was petted in the house, was allowed to poke the fire if he pleased, and called the servants by their names as though he were at home. he was compelled, therefore, to smile and to seem pleased; and it was not till after he had eaten his lunch, and had declared that he must return home to dinner, that the dowager gave him an opportunity of having the private conversation which he desired. "can i have a few minutes' talk with you?" he said to her, whispering into her ear as they left the drawing-room together. so she led the way into her own sitting-room, telling him, as she asked him to be seated, that she had supposed that something special must have brought him over to framley. "i should have asked you to come up here, even if you had not spoken," she said. "then perhaps you know what has brought me over?" said the archdeacon. "not in the least," said lady lufton. "i have not an idea. but i did not flatter myself that you would come so far on a morning call, merely to see us three ladies. i hope you did not want to see ludovic, because he will not be back till to-morrow?" "i wanted to see you, lady lufton." "that is lucky, as here i am. you may be pretty sure to find me here any day in the year." after this there was a little pause. the archdeacon hardly knew how to begin his story. in the first place he was in doubt whether lady lufton had ever heard of the preposterous match which his son had proposed to himself to make. in his anger at plumstead he had felt sure that she knew all about it, and that she was assisting his son. but this belief had dwindled as his anger had dwindled; and as the chaise had entered the parish of framley he had told himself that it was quite impossible that she should know anything about it. her manner had certainly been altogether in her favour since he had been in her house. there had been nothing of the consciousness of guilt in her demeanour. but, nevertheless, there was the coincidence! how had it come to pass that grace crawley and his son should be at framley together? it might, indeed, be just possible that flurry might have been wrong, and that his son had not been there at all. "i suppose miss crawley is at the parsonage?" he said at last. "oh, yes; she is still there, and will remain there i should think for the next ten days." "oh; i did not know," said the archdeacon very coldly. it seemed to lady lufton, who was as innocent as an unborn babe in the matter of the projected marriage, that her old friend the archdeacon was in a mind to persecute the crawleys. he had on a former occasion taken upon himself to advise that grace crawley should not be entertained at framley, and now it seemed that he had come all the way from plumstead to say something further in the same strain. lady lufton, if he had anything further to say of that kind, would listen to him as a matter of course. she would listen to him and reply to him without temper. but she did not approve of it. she told herself silently that she could not approve of persecution or of interference. she therefore drew herself up, and pursed her mouth, and put on something of that look of severity which she could assume very visibly, if it so pleased her. "yes; she is still there, and i think that her visit will do her a great deal of good," said lady lufton. "when we talk of doing good to people," said the archdeacon, "we often make terrible mistakes. it so often happens that we don't know when we are doing good and when we are doing harm." "that is true, of course, dr. grantly, and must be so necessarily, as our wisdom here below is so very limited. but i should think,--as far as i can see, that is,--that the kindness which my friend mrs. robarts is showing to this young lady must be beneficial. you know, archdeacon, i explained to you before that i could not quite agree with you in what you said as to leaving these people alone till after the trial. i thought that help was necessary to them at once." the archdeacon sighed deeply. he ought to have been somewhat renovated in spirit by the tone in which lady lufton spoke to him, as it conveyed to him almost an absolute conviction that his first suspicion was incorrect. but any comfort which might have come to him from this source was marred by the feeling that he must announce his own disgrace. at any rate he must do so, unless he were contented to go back to plumstead without having learned anything by his journey. he changed the tone of his voice, however, and asked a question,--as it might be altogether on a different subject. "i heard yesterday," he said, "that henry was over here." "he was here yesterday. he came the evening before, and dined and slept here, and went home yesterday morning." "was miss crawley with you that evening?" "miss crawley? no; she would not come. she thinks it best not to go out while her father is in his present unfortunate position; and she is right." "she is quite right in that," said the archdeacon; and then he paused again. he thought that it would be best for him to make a clean breast of it, and to trust to lady lufton's sympathy. "did henry go up to the parsonage?" he asked. but still lady lufton did not suspect the truth. "i think he did," she replied, with an air of surprise. "i think i heard that he went up there to call on mrs. robarts after breakfast." "no, lady lufton, he did not go up there to call on mrs. robarts. he went up there because he is making a fool of himself about that miss crawley. that is the truth. now you understand it all. i hope that mrs. robarts does not know it. i do hope for her own sake that mrs. robarts does not know it." the archdeacon certainly had no longer any doubt as to lady lufton's innocence when he looked at her face as she heard these tidings. she had predicted that grace crawley would "make havoc," and could not, therefore, be altogether surprised at the idea that some gentleman should have fallen in love with her; but she had never supposed that the havoc might be made so early in her days, or on so great a quarry. "you don't mean to tell me that henry grantly is in love with grace crawley?" she replied. "i mean to say that he says he is." "dear, dear, dear! i'm sure, archdeacon, that you will believe me when i say that i knew nothing about it." "i am quite sure of that," said the archdeacon dolefully. "or i certainly should not have been glad to see him here. but the house, you know, is not mine, dr. grantly. i could have done nothing if i had known it. but only to think--; well, to be sure. she has not lost time, at any rate." now this was not at all the light in which the archdeacon wished that the matter should be regarded. he had been desirous that lady lufton should be horror-stricken by the tidings, but it seemed to him that she regarded the iniquity almost as a good joke. what did it matter how young or how old the girl might be? she came of poor people,--of people who had no friends,--of disgraced people; and lady lufton ought to feel that such a marriage would be a terrible misfortune and a terrible crime. "i need hardly tell you, lady lufton," said the archdeacon, "that i shall set my face against it as far as it is in my power to do so." "if they both be resolved i suppose you can hardly prevent it." "of course i cannot prevent it. of course i cannot prevent it. if he will break my heart and his mother's,--and his sister's,--of course i cannot prevent it. if he will ruin himself, he must have his own way." "ruin himself, dr. grantly!" "they will have enough to live upon,--somewhere in spain or france." the scorn expressed in the archdeacon's voice as he spoke of pau as being "somewhere in spain or france," should have been heard to be understood. "no doubt they will have enough to live upon." "do you mean to say that it will make a difference as to your own property, dr. grantly?" "certainly it will, lady lufton. i told henry when i first heard of the thing,--before he had definitely made any offer to the girl,--that i should withdraw from him altogether the allowance that i now make him, if he married her. and i told him also, that if he persisted in his folly i should think it my duty to alter my will." "i am sorry for that, dr. grantly." "sorry! and am not i sorry? sorrow is no sufficient word. i am broken-hearted. lady lufton, it is killing me. it is indeed. i love him; i love him;--i love him as you have loved your son. but what is the use? what can he be to me when he shall have married the daughter of such a man as that?" lady lufton sat for a while silent, thinking of a certain episode in her own life. there had been a time when her son was desirous of making a marriage which she had thought would break her heart. she had for a time moved heaven and earth,--as far as she knew how to move them,--to prevent the marriage. but at last she had yielded,--not from lack of power, for the circumstances had been such that at the moment of yielding she had still the power in her hand of staying the marriage,--but she had yielded because she had perceived that her son was in earnest. she had yielded, and had kissed the dust; but from the moment in which her lips had so touched the ground, she had taken great joy in the new daughter whom her son had brought into the house. since that she had learned to think that young people might perhaps be right, and that old people might perhaps be wrong. this trouble of her friend the archdeacon's was very like her own old trouble. "and he is engaged to her now?" she said, when those thoughts had passed through her mind. "yes;--that is, no. i am not sure. i do not know how to make myself sure." "i am sure major grantly will tell you all the truth as it exists." "yes; he'll tell me the truth,--as far as he knows it. i do not see that there is much anxiety to spare me in the matter. he is desirous rather of making me understand that i have no power of saving him from his own folly. of course i have no power of saving him." "but is he engaged to her?" "he says that she has refused him. but of course that means nothing." again the archdeacon's position was very like lady lufton's position, as it had existed before her son's marriage. in that case also the young lady, who was now lady lufton's own daughter and dearest friend, had refused the lover who proposed to her, although the marriage was so much to her advantage,--loving him, too, the while, with her whole heart, as it was natural to suppose that grace crawley might so love her lover. the more she thought of the similarity of the stories, the stronger were her sympathies on the side of poor grace. nevertheless, she would comfort her old friend if she knew how; and of course she could not but admit to herself that the match was one which must be a cause of real sorrow to him. "i don't know why her refusal should mean nothing," said lady lufton. "of course a girl refuses at first,--a girl, i mean, in such circumstances as hers. she can't but feel that more is offered to her than she ought to take, and that she is bound to go through the ceremony of declining. but my anger is not with her, lady lufton." "i do not see how it can be." "no; it is not with her. if she becomes his wife i trust that i may never see her." "oh, dr. grantly!" "i do; i do. how can it be otherwise with me? but i shall have no quarrel with her. with him i must quarrel." "i do not see why," said lady lufton. "you do not? does he not set me at defiance?" "at his age surely a son has a right to marry as he pleases." "if he took her out of the streets, then it would be the same?" said the archdeacon with bitter anger. "no;--for such a one would herself be bad." "or if she were the daughter of a huxter out of the city?" "no again;--for in that case her want of education would probably unfit her for your society." "her father's disgrace, then, should be a matter of indifference to me, lady lufton?" "i did not say so. in the first place, her father is not disgraced,--not as yet; and we do not know whether he may ever be disgraced. you will hardly be disposed to say that persecution from the palace disgraces a clergyman in barsetshire." "all the same, i believe that the man was guilty," said the archdeacon. "wait and see, my friend, before you condemn him altogether. but, be that as it may, i acknowledge that the marriage is one which must naturally be distasteful to you." "oh, lady lufton! if you only knew! if you only knew!" "i do know; and i feel for you. but i think that your son has a right to expect that you should not show the same repugnance to such a marriage as this as you would have had a right to show had he suggested to himself such a wife as those at which you just now hinted. of course you can advise him, and make him understand your feelings; but i cannot think you will be justified in quarrelling with him, or in changing your views towards him as regards money, seeing that miss crawley is an educated lady, who has done nothing to forfeit your respect." a heavy cloud came upon the archdeacon's brow as he heard these words, but he did not make any immediate answer. "of course, my friend," continued lady lufton, "i should not have ventured to say so much to you, had you not come to me, as it were, for my opinion." "i came here because i thought henry was here," said the archdeacon. "if i have said too much i beg your pardon." "no; you have not said too much. it is not that. you and i are such old friends that either may say almost anything to the other." "yes;--just so. and therefore i have ventured to speak my mind," said lady lufton. "of course;--and i am obliged to you. but, lady lufton, you do not understand yet how this hits me. everything in life that i have done, i have done for my children. i am wealthy, but i have not used my wealth for myself, because i have desired that they should be able to hold their heads high in the world. all my ambition has been for them, and all the pleasure which i have anticipated for myself in my old age is that which i have hoped to receive from their credit. as for henry, he might have had anything he wanted from me in the way of money. he expressed a wish, a few months since, to go into parliament, and i promised to help him as far as ever i could go. i have kept up the game altogether for him. he, the younger son of a working parish parson, has had everything that could be given to the eldest son of a country gentleman,--more than is given to the eldest son of many a peer. i have hoped that he would marry again, but i have never cared that he should marry for money. i have been willing to do anything for him myself. but, lady lufton, a father does feel that he should have some return for all this. no one can imagine that henry ever supposed that a bride from that wretched place at hogglestock could be welcomed among us. he knew that he would break our hearts, and he did not care for it. that is what i feel. of course he has the power to do as he likes;--and of course i have the power to do as i like also with what is my own." lady lufton was a very good woman, devoted to her duties, affectionate and just to those about her, truly religious, and charitable from her nature; but i doubt whether the thorough worldliness of the archdeacon's appeal struck her as it will strike the reader. people are so much more worldly in practice than they are in theory, so much keener after their own gratification in detail than they are in the abstract, that the narrative of many an adventure would shock us, though the same adventure would not shock us in the action. one girl tells another how she has changed her mind in love; and the friend sympathizes with the friend, and perhaps applauds. had the story been told in print, the friend who had listened with equanimity would have read of such vacillation with indignation. she who vacillated herself would have hated her own performance when brought before her judgment as a matter in which she had no personal interest. very fine things are written every day about honesty and truth, and men read them with a sort of external conviction that a man, if he be anything of a man at all, is of course honest and true. but when the internal convictions are brought out between two or three who are personally interested together,--between two or three who feel that their little gathering is, so to say, "tiled,"--those internal convictions differ very much from the external convictions. this man, in his confidences, asserts broadly that he does not mean to be thrown over, and that man has a project for throwing over somebody else; and the intention of each is that scruples are not to stand in the way of his success. the "ruat coelum, fiat justitia," was said, no doubt, from an outside balcony to a crowd, and the speaker knew that he was talking buncombe. the "rem, si possis recte, si non, quocunque modo," was whispered into the ear in a club smoking-room, and the whisperer intended that his words should prevail. lady lufton had often heard her friend the archdeacon preach, and she knew well the high tone which he could take as to the necessity of trusting to our hopes for the future for all our true happiness; and yet she sympathized with him when he told her that he was broken-hearted because his son would take a step which might possibly interfere with his worldly prosperity. had the archdeacon been preaching about matrimony, he would have recommended young men, in taking wives to themselves, especially to look for young women who feared the lord. but in talking about his own son's wife, no word as to her eligibility or non-eligibility in this respect escaped his lips. had he talked on the subject till nightfall no such word would have been spoken. had any friend of his own, man or woman, in discussing such a matter with him and asking his advice upon it, alluded to the fear of the lord, the allusion would have been distasteful to him and would have smacked to his palate of hypocrisy. lady lufton, who understood as well as any woman what it was to be "tiled" with a friend, took all this in good part. the archdeacon had spoken out of his heart what was in his heart. one of his children had married a marquis. another might probably become a bishop,--perhaps an archbishop. the third might be a county squire,--high among county squires. but he could only so become by walking warily;--and now he was bent on marrying the penniless daughter of an impoverished half-mad country curate, who was about to be tried for stealing twenty pounds! lady lufton, in spite of all her arguments, could not refuse her sympathy to her old friend. "after all, from what you say, i suppose they are not engaged." "i do not know," said the archdeacon. "i cannot tell!" "and what do you wish me to do?" "oh,--nothing. i came over, as i said before, because i thought he was here. i think it right, before he has absolutely committed himself, to take every means in my power to make him understand that i shall withdraw from him all pecuniary assistance,--now and for the future." "my friend, that threat seems to me to be so terrible." "it is the only power i have left to me." "but you, who are so affectionate by nature, would never adhere to it." "i will try. i will do my best to be firm. i will at once put everything beyond my control after my death." the archdeacon, as he uttered these terrible words,--words which were awful to lady lufton's ears,--resolved that he would endeavour to nurse his own wrath; but, at the same time, almost hated himself for his own pusillanimity, because he feared that his wrath would die away before he should have availed himself of its heat. "i would do nothing rash of that kind," said lady lufton. "your object is to prevent the marriage,--not to punish him for it when once he has made it." "he is not to have his own way in everything, lady lufton." "but you should first try to prevent it." "what can i do to prevent it?" lady lufton paused for a couple of minutes before she replied. she had a scheme in her head, but it seemed to her to savour of cruelty. and yet at present it was her chief duty to assist her old friend, if any assistance could be given. there could hardly be a doubt that such a marriage as this, of which they were speaking, was in itself an evil. in her case, the case of her son, there had been no question of a trial, of money stolen, of aught that was in truth disgraceful. "i think if i were you, dr. grantly," she said, "that i would see the young lady while i was here." "see her myself?" said the archdeacon. the idea of seeing grace crawley himself had, up to this moment, never entered his head. "i think i would do so." "i think i will," said the archdeacon, after a pause. then he got up from his chair. "if i am to do it, i had better do it at once." "be gentle with her, my friend." the archdeacon paused again. he certainly had entertained the idea of encountering miss crawley with severity rather than gentleness. lady lufton rose from her seat, and coming up to him, took one of his hands between her own two. "be gentle to her," she said. "you have owned that she has done nothing wrong." the archdeacon bowed his head in token of assent and left the room. poor grace crawley! chapter lvii. a double pledge. the archdeacon, as he walked across from the court to the parsonage, was very thoughtful and his steps were very slow. this idea of seeing miss crawley herself had been suggested to him suddenly, and he had to determine how he would bear himself towards her, and what he would say to her. lady lufton had beseeched him to be gentle with her. was the mission one in which gentleness would be possible? must it not be his object to make this young lady understand that she could not be right in desiring to come into his family and share in all his good things when she had got no good things of her own,--nothing but evil things to bring with her? and how could this be properly explained to the young lady in gentle terms? must he not be round with her, and give her to understand in plain words,--the plainest which he could use,--that she would not get his good things, though she would most certainly impose the burden of all her evil things on the man whom she was proposing to herself as a husband. he remembered very well as he went, that he had been told that miss crawley had herself refused the offer, feeling herself to be unfit for the honour tendered to her; but he suspected the sincerity of such a refusal. calculating in his own mind the unreasonably great advantages which would be conferred on such a young lady as miss crawley by a marriage with his son, he declared to himself that any girl must be very wicked indeed who should expect, or even accept, so much more than was her due;--but nevertheless he could not bring himself to believe that any girl, when so tempted, would, in sincerity, decline to commit this great wickedness. if he was to do any good by seeing miss crawley, must it not consist in a proper explanation to her of the selfishness, abomination, and altogether damnable blackness of such wickedness as this on the part of a young woman in her circumstances? "heaven and earth!" he must say, "here are you, without a penny in your pocket, with hardly decent raiment on your back, with a thief for your father, and you think that you are to come and share in all the wealth that the grantlys have amassed, that you are to have a husband with broad acres, a big house, and game preserves, and become one of a family whose name has never been touched by a single accusation,--no, not by a suspicion? no;--injustice such as that shall never be done betwixt you and me. you may wring my heart, and you may ruin my son; but the broad acres and the big house, and the game preserves, and the rest of it, shall never be your reward for doing so." how was all that to be told effectively to a young woman in gentle words? and then how was a man in the archdeacon's position to be desirous of gentle words,--gentle words which would not be efficient,--when he knew well in his heart of hearts that he had nothing but his threats on which to depend. he had no more power of disinheriting his own son for such an offence as that contemplated than he had of blowing out his own brains, and he knew that it was so. he was a man incapable of such persistency of wrath against one whom he loved. he was neither cruel enough nor strong enough to do such a thing. he could only threaten to do it, and make what best use he might of threats, whilst threats might be of avail. in spite of all that he had said to his wife, to lady lufton, and to himself, he knew very well that if his son did sin in this way he, the father, would forgive the sin of the son. in going across from the front gate of the court to the parsonage there was a place where three roads met, and on this spot there stood a finger-post. round this finger-post there was now pasted a placard, which at once arrested the archdeacon's eye:--"cosby lodge--sale of furniture--growing crops to be sold on the grounds. three hunters. a brown gelding warranted for saddle or harness!"--the archdeacon himself had given the brown gelding to his son, as a great treasure.--"three alderney cows, two cow-calves, a low phaeton, a gig, two ricks of hay." in this fashion were proclaimed in odious details all those comfortable additions to a gentleman's house in the country, with which the archdeacon was so well acquainted. only last november he had recommended his son to buy a certain new-invented clod-crusher, and the clod-crusher had of course been bought. the bright blue paint upon it had not as yet given way to the stains of the ordinary farmyard muck and mire;--and here was the clod-crusher advertised for sale! the archdeacon did not want his son to leave cosby lodge. he knew well enough that his son need not leave cosby lodge. why had the foolish fellow been in such a hurry with his hideous ill-conditioned advertisements? gentle! how was he in such circumstances to be gentle? he raised his umbrella and poked angrily at the disgusting notice. the iron ferule caught the paper at a chink in the post, and tore it from the top to the bottom. but what was the use? a horrid ugly bill lying torn in such a spot would attract only more attention than one fixed to a post. he could not condescend, however, to give to it further attention, but passed on up to the parsonage. gentle, indeed! nevertheless archdeacon grantly was a gentleman, and never yet had dealt more harshly with any woman than we have sometimes seen him do with his wife,--when he would say to her an angry word or two with a good deal of marital authority. his wife, who knew well what his angry words were worth, never even suggested to herself that she had cause for complaint on that head. had she known that the archdeacon was about to undertake such a mission as this which he had now in hand, she would not have warned him to be gentle. she, indeed, would have strongly advised him not to undertake the mission, cautioning him that the young lady would probably get the better of him. "grace, my dear," said mrs. robarts, coming up into the nursery in which miss crawley was sitting with the children, "come out here a moment, will you?" then grace left the children and went out into the passage. "my dear, there is a gentleman in the drawing-room who asks to see you." "a gentleman, mrs. robarts! what gentleman?" but grace, though she asked the question, conceived that the gentleman must be henry grantly. her mind did not suggest to her the possibility of any other gentleman coming to see her. "you must not be surprised, or allow yourself to be frightened." "oh, mrs. robarts, who is it?" "it is major grantly's father." "the archdeacon?" "yes, dear; archdeacon grantly. he is in the drawing-room." "must i see him, mrs. robarts?" "well, grace,--i think you must. i hardly know how you can refuse. he is an intimate friend of everybody here at framley." "what will he say to me?" "nay; that i cannot tell. i suppose you know--" "he has come, no doubt, to bid me have nothing to say to his son. he need not have troubled himself. but he may say what he likes. i am not a coward, and i will go to him." "stop a moment, grace. come into my room for an instant. the children have pulled your hair about." but grace, though she followed mrs. robarts into the bedroom, would have nothing done to her hair. she was too proud for that,--and we may say, also, too little confident in any good which such resources might effect on her behalf. "never mind about that," she said. "what am i to say to him?" mrs. robarts paused before she replied, feeling that the matter was one which required some deliberation. "tell me what i must say to him?" said grace, repeating her question. "i hardly know what your own feelings are, my dear." "yes, you do. you do know. if i had all the world to give, i would give it all to major grantly." "tell him that, then." "no, i will not tell him that. never mind about my frock, mrs. robarts. i do not care for that. i will tell him that i love his son and his granddaughter too well to injure them. i will tell him nothing else. i might as well go now." mrs. robarts, as she looked at grace, was astonished at the serenity of her face. and yet when her hand was on the drawing-room door grace hesitated, looked back, and trembled. mrs. robarts blew a kiss to her from the stairs; and then the door was opened, and the girl found herself in the presence of the archdeacon. he was standing on the rug, with his back to the fire, and his heavy ecclesiastical hat was placed on the middle of the round table. the hat caught grace's eye at the moment of her entrance, and she felt that all the thunders of the church were contained within it. and then the archdeacon himself was so big and so clerical, and so imposing! her father's aspect was severe, but the severity of her father's face was essentially different from that expressed by the archdeacon. whatever impression came from her father came from the man himself. there was no outward adornment there; there was, so to say, no wig about mr. crawley. now the archdeacon was not exactly adorned; but he was so thoroughly imbued with high clerical belongings and sacerdotal fitnesses as to appear always as a walking, sitting, or standing impersonation of parsondom. to poor grace, as she entered the room, he appeared to be an impersonation of parsondom in its severest aspect. "miss crawley, i believe?" said he. "yes, sir," said she, curtseying ever so slightly, as she stood before him at some considerable distance. his first idea was that his son must be indeed a fool if he was going to give up cosby lodge and all barsetshire, and retire to pau, for so slight and unattractive a creature as he now saw before him. but this idea stayed with him only for a moment. as he continued to gaze at her during the interview he came to perceive that there was very much more than he had perceived at the first glance, and that his son, after all, had had eyes to see, though perhaps not a heart to understand. "will you not take a chair?" he said. then grace sat down, still at a distance from the archdeacon, and he kept his place upon the rug. he felt that there would be a difficulty in making her feel the full force of his eloquence all across the room; and yet he did not know how to bring himself nearer to her. she became suddenly very important in his eyes, and he was to some extent afraid of her. she was so slight, so meek, so young; and yet there was about her something so beautifully feminine,--and, withal, so like a lady,--that he felt instinctively that he could not attack her with harsh words. had her lips been full, and her colour high, and had her eyes rolled, had she put forth against him any of that ordinary artillery with which youthful feminine batteries are charged, he would have been ready to rush to the combat. but this girl, about whom his son had gone mad, sat there as passively as though she were conscious of the possession of no artillery. there was not a single gun fired from beneath her eyelids. he knew not why, but he respected his son now more than he had respected him for the last two months;--more, perhaps, than he had ever respected him before. he was as eager as ever against the marriage;--but in thinking of his son in what he said and did after these few first moments of the interview, he ceased to think of him with contempt. the creature before him was a woman who grew in his opinion till he began to feel that she was in truth fit to be the wife of his son--if only she were not a pauper, and the daughter of a mad curate, and, alas! too probably, of a thief. though his feeling towards the girl was changed, his duty to himself, his family, and his son, was the same as ever, and therefore he began his task. "perhaps you had not expected to see me?" he said. "no, indeed, sir." "nor had i intended when i came over here to call on my old friend, lady lufton, to come up to this house. but as i knew that you were here, miss crawley, i thought that upon the whole it would be better that i should see you." then he paused as though he expected that grace would say something; but grace had nothing to say. "of course you must understand, miss crawley, that i should not venture to speak to you on this subject unless i myself were very closely interested in it." he had not yet said what was the subject, and it was not probable that grace should give him any assistance by affecting to understand this without direct explanation from him. she sat quite motionless, and did not even aid him by showing by her altered colour that she understood his purpose. "my son has told me," said he, "that he has professed an attachment for you, miss crawley." then there was another pause, and grace felt that she was compelled to say something. "major grantly has been very good to me," she said, and then she hated herself for having uttered words which were so tame and unwomanly in their spirit. of course her lover's father would despise her for having so spoken. after all it did not much signify. if he would only despise her and go away, it would perhaps be for the best. "i do not know about being good," said the archdeacon. "i think he is good. i think he means to be good." "i am sure he is good," said grace, warmly. "you know he has a daughter, miss crawley?" "oh, yes; i know edith well." "of course his first duty is to her. is it not? and he owes much to his family. do you not feel that?" "of course i feel it, sir." the poor girl had always heard dr. grantly spoken of as the archdeacon, but she did not in the least know what she ought to call him. "now, miss crawley, pray listen to me; i will speak to you very openly. i must speak to you openly, because it is my duty on my son's behalf--but i will endeavour to speak to you kindly also. of yourself i have heard nothing but what is favourable, and there is no reason as yet why i should not respect and esteem you." grace told herself that she would do nothing which ought to forfeit his respect and esteem, but that she did not care two straws whether his respect and esteem were bestowed on her or not. she was striving after something very different from that. "if my son were to marry you, he would greatly injure himself, and would very greatly injure his child." again he paused. he had told her to listen, and she was resolved that she would listen,--unless he should say something which might make a word from her necessary at the moment. "i do not know whether there does at present exist any engagement between you?" "there is no engagement, sir." "i am glad of that,--very glad of it. i do not know whether you are aware that my son is dependent upon me for the greater part of his income. it is so, and as i am so circumstanced with my son, of course i feel the closest possible concern in his future prospects." the archdeacon did not know how to explain clearly why the fact of his making a son an annual allowance should give him a warmer interest in his son's affairs than he might have had had the major been altogether independent of him; but he trusted that grace would understand this by her own natural lights. "now, miss crawley, of course i cannot wish to say a word that shall hurt your feelings. but there are reasons--" "i know," said she, interrupting him. "papa is accused of stealing money. he did not steal it, but people think he did. and then we are so very poor." "you do understand me then,--and i feel grateful; i do indeed." "i don't think our being poor ought to signify a bit," said grace. "papa is a gentleman and a clergyman, and mamma is a lady." "but, my dear--" "i know i ought not to be your son's wife as long as people think that papa stole the money. if he had stolen it, i ought never to be major grantly's wife,--or anybody's wife. i know that very well. and as for edith,--i would sooner die than do anything that would be bad to her." the archdeacon had now left the rug, and advanced till he was almost close to the chair on which grace was sitting. "my dear," he said, "what you say does you very much honour,--very much honour indeed." now that he was close to her, he could look into her eyes, and he could see the exact form of her features, and could understand,--could not help understanding,--the character of her countenance. it was a noble face, having in it nothing that was poor, nothing that was mean, nothing that was shapeless. it was a face that promised infinite beauty, with a promise that was on the very verge of fulfilment. there was a play about her mouth as she spoke, and a curl in her nostril as the eager words came from her, which almost made the selfish father give way. why had they not told him that she was such a one as this? why had not henry himself spoken of the speciality of her beauty? no man in england knew better than the archdeacon the difference between beauty of one kind and beauty of another kind in a woman's face,--the one beauty, which comes from health and youth and animal spirits, and which belongs to the miller's daughter, and the other beauty, which shows itself in fine lines and a noble spirit,--the beauty which comes from breeding. "what you say does you very much honour indeed," said the archdeacon. "i should not mind at all about being poor," said grace. "no; no; no," said the archdeacon. "poor as we are,--and no clergyman, i think, ever was so poor,--i should have done as your son asked me at once, if it had been only that,--because i love him." "if you love him you will not wish to injure him." "i will not injure him. sir, there is my promise." and now as she spoke she rose from her chair, and standing close to the archdeacon, laid her hand very lightly on the sleeve of his coat. "there is my promise. as long as people say that papa stole the money, i will never marry your son. there." the archdeacon was still looking down at her, and feeling the slight touch of her fingers, raised his arm a little as though to welcome the pressure. he looked into her eyes, which were turned eagerly towards his, and when doing so was quite sure that the promise would be kept. it would have been sacrilege,--he felt that it would have been sacrilege,--to doubt such a promise. he almost relented. his soft heart, which was never very well under his own control, gave way so far that he was nearly moved to tell her that, on his son's behalf, he acquitted her of the promise. what could any man's son do better than have such a woman for his wife? it would have been of no avail had he made her such offer. the pledge she had given had not been wrung from her by his influence, nor could his influence have availed aught with her towards the alteration of her purpose. it was not the archdeacon who had taught her that it would not be her duty to take disgrace into the house of the man she loved. as he looked down upon her face two tears formed themselves in his eyes, and gradually trickled down his old nose. "my dear," he said, "if this cloud passes away from you, you shall come to us and be my daughter." and thus he also pledged himself. there was a dash of generosity about the man, in spite of his selfishness, which always made him desirous of giving largely to those who gave largely to him. he would fain that his gifts should be the bigger, if it were possible. he longed at this moment to tell her that the dirty cheque should go for nothing. he would have done it, i think, but that it was impossible for him so to speak in her presence of that which moved her so greatly. he had contrived that her hand should fall from his arm into his grasp, and now for a moment he held it. "you are a good girl," he said--"a dear, dear, good girl. when this cloud has passed away, you shall come to us and be our daughter." "but it will never pass away," said grace. [illustration: "but it will never pass away," said grace.] "let us hope that it may. let us hope that it may." then he stooped over her and kissed her, and leaving the room, got out into the hall and thence into the garden, and so away, without saying a word of adieu to mrs. robarts. as he walked across to the court, whither he was obliged to go, because of his chaise, he was lost in surprise at what had occurred. he had gone to the parsonage, hating the girl, and despising his son. now, as he retraced his steps, his feelings were altogether changed. he admired the girl,--and as for his son, even his anger was for the moment altogether gone. he would write to his son at once and implore him to stop the sale. he would tell his son all that had occurred, or rather would make mrs. grantly do so. in respect to his son he was quite safe. he thought at that moment that he was safe. there would be no use in hurling further threats at him. if crawley were found guilty of stealing the money, there was the girl's promise. if he were acquitted, there was his own pledge. he remembered perfectly well that the girl had said more than this,--that she had not confined her assurance to the verdict of a jury, that she had protested that she would not accept major grantly's hand as long as people thought that her father had stolen the cheque; but the archdeacon felt that it would be ignoble to hold her closely to her words. the event, according to his ideas of the compact, was to depend upon the verdict of the jury. if the jury should find mr. crawley not guilty, all objection on his part to the marriage was to be withdrawn. and he would keep his word! in such case it should be withdrawn. when he came to the rags of the auctioneer's bill, which he had before torn down with his umbrella, he stopped a moment to consider how he would act at once. in the first place he would tell his son that his threats were withdrawn, and would ask him to remain at cosby lodge. he would write the letter as he passed through barchester, on his way home, so that his son might receive it on the following morning; and he would refer the major to his mother for a full explanation of the circumstances. those odious bills must be removed from every barn-door and wall in the county. at the present moment his anger against his son was chiefly directed against his ill-judged haste in having put up those ill-omened posters. then he paused to consider what must be his wish as to the verdict of the jury. he had pledged himself to abide by the verdict, and he could not but have a wish on the subject. could he desire in his heart that mr. crawley should be found guilty? he stood still for a moment thinking of this, and then he walked on, shaking his head. if it might be possible he would have no wish on the subject whatsoever. "well!" said lady lufton, stopping him in the passage,--"have you seen her?" "yes; i have seen her." "well?" "she is a good girl,--a very good girl. i am in a great hurry, and hardly know how to tell you more now." "you say that she is a good girl?" "i say that she is a very good girl. an angel could not have behaved better. i will tell you all some day, lady lufton, but i can hardly tell you now." when the archdeacon was gone old lady lufton confided to young lady lufton her very strong opinion that many months would not be gone by before grace crawley would be the mistress of cosby lodge. "it will be great promotion," said the old lady, with a little toss of her head. when grace was interrogated afterwards by mrs. robarts as to what had passed between her and the archdeacon she had very little to say as to the interview. "no, he did not scold me," she replied to an inquiry from her friend. "but he spoke about your engagement?" said mrs. robarts. "there is no engagement," said grace. "but i suppose you acknowledged, my dear, that a future engagement is quite possible?" "i told him, mrs. robarts," grace answered, after hesitating for a moment, "that i would never marry his son as long as papa was suspected by any one in the world of being a thief. and i will keep my word." but she said nothing to mrs. robarts of the pledge which the archdeacon had made to her. chapter lviii. the cross-grainedness of men. [illustration] by the time that the archdeacon reached plumstead his enthusiasm in favour of grace crawley had somewhat cooled itself; and the language which from time to time he prepared for conveying his impressions to his wife, became less fervid as he approached his home. there was his pledge, and by that he would abide;--and so much he would make both his wife and his son understand. but any idea which he might have entertained for a moment of extending the promise he had given and relaxing that given to him was gone before he saw his own chimneys. indeed, i fear he had by that time begun to feel that the only salvation now open to him must come from the jury's verdict. if the jury should declare mr. crawley to be guilty, then--; he would not say even to himself that in such case all would be right, but he did feel that much as he might regret the fate of the poor crawleys, and of the girl whom in his warmth he had declared to be almost an angel, nevertheless to him personally such a verdict would bring consolatory comfort. "i have seen miss crawley," he said to his wife, as soon as he had closed the door of his study, before he had been two minutes out of the chaise. he had determined that he would dash at the subject at once, and he thus carried his resolution into effect. "you have seen grace crawley?" "yes; i went up to the parsonage and called upon her. lady lufton advised me to do so." "and henry?" "oh, henry has gone. he was only there one night. i suppose he saw her, but i am not sure." "would not miss crawley tell you?" "i forgot to ask her." mrs. grantly, at hearing this, expressed her surprise by opening wide her eyes. he had gone all the way over to framley on purpose to look after his son, and learn what were his doings, and when there he had forgotten to ask the person who could have given him better information than any one else! "but it does not signify," continued the archdeacon; "she said enough to me to make that of no importance." "and what did she say?" "she said that she would never consent to marry henry as long as there was any suspicion abroad as to her father's guilt." "and you believe her promise?" "certainly i do; i do not doubt it in the least. i put implicit confidence in her. and i have promised her that if her father is acquitted,--i will withdraw my opposition." "no!" "but i have. and you would have done the same had you been there." "i doubt that, my dear. i am not so impulsive as you are." "you could not have helped yourself. you would have felt yourself obliged to be equally generous with her. she came up to me and she put her hand upon me--" "psha!" said mrs. grantly. "but she did, my dear; and then she said, 'i promise you that i will not become your son's wife while people think that papa stole this money.' what else could i do?" "and is she pretty?" "very pretty; very beautiful." "and like a lady?" "quite like a lady. there is no mistake about that." "and she behaved well?" "admirably," said the archdeacon, who was in a measure compelled to justify the generosity into which he had been betrayed by his feelings. "then she is a paragon," said mrs. grantly. "i don't know what you may call a paragon, my dear. i say that she is a lady, and that she is extremely good-looking, and that she behaved very well. i cannot say less in her favour. i am sure you would not say less yourself, if you had been present." "she must be a wonderful young woman." "i don't know anything about her being wonderful." "she must be wonderful when she has succeeded both with the son and with the father." "i wish you had been there instead of me," said the archdeacon, angrily. mrs. grantly very probably wished so also, feeling that in that case a more serene mode of business would have been adopted. how keenly susceptible the archdeacon still was to the influences of feminine charms, no one knew better than mrs. grantly, and whenever she became aware that he had been in this way seduced from the wisdom of his cooler judgment she always felt something akin to indignation against the seducer. as for her husband, she probably told herself at such moments that he was an old goose. "if you had been there, and henry with you, you would have made a great deal worse job of it than i have done," said the archdeacon. "i don't say you have made a bad job of it, my dear," said mrs. grantly. "but it's past eight, and you must be terribly in want of your dinner. had you not better go up and dress?" in the evening the plan of the future campaign was arranged between them. the archdeacon would not write to his son at all. in passing through barchester he had abandoned his idea of despatching a note from the hotel, feeling that such a note as would be required was not easily written in a hurry. mrs. grantly would now write to her son, telling him that circumstances had changed, that it would be altogether unnecessary for him to sell his furniture, and begging him to come over and see his father without a day's delay. she wrote her letter that night, and read to the archdeacon all that she had written,--with the exception of the postscript:--"you may be quite sure that there will be no unpleasantness with your father." that was the postscript which was not communicated to the archdeacon. on the third day after that henry grantly did come over to plumstead. his mother in her letter to him had not explained how it had come to pass that the sale of his furniture would be unnecessary. his father had given him to understand distinctly that his income would be withdrawn from him unless he would express his intention of giving up miss crawley; and it had been admitted among them all that cosby lodge must be abandoned if this were done. he certainly would not give up grace crawley. sooner than that, he would give up every stick in his possession, and go and live in new zealand if it were necessary. not only had grace's conduct to him made him thus firm, but the natural bent of his own disposition had tended that way also. his father had attempted to dictate to him, and sooner than submit to that he would sell the coat off his back. had his father confined his opposition to advice, and had miss crawley been less firm in her view of her duty, the major might have been less firm also. but things had so gone that he was determined to be fixed as granite. if others would not be moved from their resolves, neither would he. such being the state of his mind, he could not understand why he was thus summoned to plumstead. he had already written over to pau about his house, and it was well that he should, at any rate, see his mother before he started. he was willing, therefore, to go to plumstead, but he took no steps as to the withdrawal of those auctioneer's bills to which the archdeacon so strongly objected. when he drove into the rectory yard, his father was standing there before him. "henry," he said, "i am very glad to see you. i am very much obliged to you for coming." then henry got out of his cart and shook hands with his father, and the archdeacon began to talk about the weather. "your mother has gone into barchester to see your grandfather," said the archdeacon. "if you are not tired, we might as well take a walk. i want to go up as far as flurry's cottage." the major of course declared that he was not at all tired, and that he should be delighted of all things to go up and see old flurry, and thus they started. young grantly had not even been into the house before he left the yard with his father. of course, he was thinking of the coming sale at cosby lodge, and of his future life at pau, and of his injured position in the world. there would be no longer any occasion for him to be solicitous as to the plumstead foxes. of course these things were in his mind; but he could not begin to speak of them till his father did so. "i'm afraid your grandfather is not very strong," said the archdeacon, shaking his head. "i fear he won't be with us very long." "is it so bad as that, sir?" "well, you know, he is an old man, henry; and he was always somewhat old for his age. he will be eighty, if he lives two years longer, i think. but he'll never reach eighty;--never. you must go and see him before you go back home; you must indeed." the major, of course, promised that he would see his grandfather, and the archdeacon told his son how nearly the old man had fallen in the passage between the cathedral and the deanery. in this way they had nearly made their way up to the gamekeeper's cottage without a word of reference to any subject that touched upon the matter of which each of them was of course thinking. whether the major intended to remain at home or to live at pau, the subject of mr. harding's health was a natural topic for conversation between him and his father; but when his father stopped suddenly, and began to tell him how a fox had been trapped on darvell's farm,--"and of course it was a plumstead fox,--there can be no doubt that flurry is right about that;"--when the archdeacon spoke of this iniquity with much warmth, and told his son how he had at once written off to mr. thorne of ullathorne, and how mr. thorne had declared that he didn't believe a word of it, and how flurry had produced the pad of the fox, with the marks of the trap on the skin,--then the son began to feel that the ground was becoming very warm, and that he could not go on much longer without rushing into details about grace crawley. "i've no more doubt that it was one of our foxes than that i stand here," said the archdeacon. "it doesn't matter where the fox was bred. it shouldn't have been trapped," said the major. "of course not," said the archdeacon, indignantly. i wonder whether he would have been so keen had a romanist priest come into his parish, and turned one of his protestants into a papist? then flurry came up, and produced the identical pad out of his pocket. "i don't suppose it was intended," said the major, looking at the interesting relic with scrutinizing eyes. "i suppose it was caught in a rabbit-trap,--eh, flurry?" "i don't see what right a man has with traps at all, when gentlemen is particular about their foxes," said flurry. "of course they'd call it rabbits." "i never liked that man on darvell's farm," said the archdeacon. "nor i either," said flurry. "no farmer ought to be on that land who don't have a horse of his own. and if i war squire thorne, i wouldn't have no farmer there who didn't keep no horse. when a farmer has a horse of his own, and follies the hounds, there ain't no rabbit-traps;--never. how does that come about, mr. henry? rabbits! i know very well what rabbits is!" mr. henry shook his head, and turned away, and the archdeacon followed him. there was an hypocrisy about this pretended care for the foxes which displeased the major. he could not, of course, tell his father that the foxes were no longer anything to him; but yet he must make it understood that such was his conviction. his mother had written to him, saying that the sale of furniture need not take place. it might be all very well for his mother to say that, or for his father; but, after what had taken place, he could consent to remain in england on no other understanding than that his income should be made permanent to him. such permanence must not be any longer dependent on his father's caprice. in these days he had come to be somewhat in love with poverty and pau, and had been feeding on the luxury of his grievance. there is, perhaps, nothing so pleasant as the preparation for self-sacrifice. to give up cosby lodge and the foxes, to marry a penniless wife, and go and live at pau on six or seven hundred a year, seemed just now to major grantly to be a fine thing, and he did not intend to abandon this fine thing without receiving a very clear reason for doing so. "i can't quite understand thorne," said the archdeacon. "he used to be so particular about the foxes, and i don't suppose that a country gentleman will change his ideas because he has given up hunting himself." "mr. thorne never thought much of flurry," said henry grantly, with his mind intent upon pau and his grievance. "he might take my word at any rate," said the archdeacon. it was a known fact that the archdeacon's solicitude about the plumstead covers was wholly on behalf of his son the major. the major himself knew this thoroughly, and felt that his father's present special anxiety was intended as a corroboration of the tidings conveyed in his mother's letter. every word so uttered was meant to have reference to his son's future residence in the country. "father," he said, turning round shortly, and standing before the archdeacon in the pathway, "i think you are quite right about the covers. i feel sure that every gentleman who preserves a fox does good to the country. i am sorry that i shall not have a closer interest in the matter myself." "why shouldn't you have a closer interest in it?" said the archdeacon. "because i shall be living abroad." "you got your mother's letter?" "yes; i got my mother's letter." "did she not tell you that you can stay where you are?" "yes, she said so. but, to tell you the truth, sir, i do not like the risk of living beyond my assured income." "but if i justify it?" "i do not wish to complain, sir, but you have made me understand that you can, and that in certain circumstances you will, at a moment, withdraw what you give me. since this was said to me, i have felt myself to be unsafe in such a house as cosby lodge." the archdeacon did not know how to explain. he had intended that the real explanation should be given by mrs. grantly, and had been anxious to return to his old relations with his son without any exact terms on his own part. but his son was, as he thought, awkward, and would drive him to some speech that was unnecessary. "you need not be unsafe there at all," he said, half angrily. "i must be unsafe if i am not sure of my income." "your income is not in any danger. but you had better speak to your mother about it. for myself, i think i may say that i have never yet behaved to any of you with harshness. a son should, at any rate, not be offended because a father thinks that he is entitled to some consideration for what he does." "there are some points on which a son cannot give way even to his father, sir." "you had better speak to your mother, henry. she will explain to you what has taken place. look at that plantation. you don't remember it, but every tree there was planted since you were born. i bought that farm from old mr. thorne, when he was purchasing st. ewold's downs, and it was the first bit of land i ever had of my own." "that is not in plumstead, i think?" "no: this is plumstead, where we stand, but that's in eiderdown. the parishes run in and out here. i never bought any other land as cheap as i bought that." "and did old thorne make a good purchase at st. ewold's?" "yes, i fancy he did. it gave him the whole of the parish, which was a great thing. it is astonishing how land has risen in value since that, and yet rents are not so very much higher. they who buy land now can't have above two-and-a-half for their money." "i wonder people are so fond of land," said the major. "it is a comfortable feeling to know that you stand on your own ground. land is about the only thing that can't fly away. and then, you see, land gives so much more than the rent. it gives position and influence and political power, to say nothing about the game. we'll go back now. i daresay your mother will be at home by this time." the archdeacon was striving to teach a great lesson to his son when he thus spoke of the pleasure which a man feels when he stands upon his own ground. he was bidding his son to understand how great was the position of an heir to a landed property, and how small the position of a man depending on what dr. grantly himself would have called a scratch income,--an income made up of a few odds and ends, a share or two in this company and a share or two in that, a slight venture in foreign stocks, a small mortgage and such like convenient but uninfluential driblets. a man, no doubt, may live at pau on driblets; may pay his way and drink his bottle of cheap wine, and enjoy life after a fashion while reading galignani and looking at the mountains. but,--as it seemed to the archdeacon,--when there was a choice between this kind of thing, and fox-covers at plumstead, and a seat among the magistrates of barsetshire, and an establishment full of horses, beeves, swine, carriages, and hayricks, a man brought up as his son had been brought up ought not to be very long in choosing. it never entered into the archdeacon's mind that he was tempting his son; but henry grantly felt that he was having the good things of the world shown to him, and that he was being told that they should be his--for a consideration. the major, in his present mood, looked at the matter from his own point of view, and determined that the consideration was too high. he was pledged not to give up grace crawley, and he would not yield on that point, though he might be tempted by all the fox-covers in barsetshire. at this moment he did not know how far his father was prepared to yield, or how far it was expected that he should yield himself. he was told that he had to speak to his mother. he would speak to his mother, but, in the meantime, he could not bring himself to make a comfortable answer to his father's eloquent praise of landed property. he could not allow himself to be enthusiastic on the matter till he knew what was expected of him if he chose to submit to be made a british squire. at present galignani and the mountains had their charms for him. there was, therefore, but little conversation between the father and the son as they walked back to the rectory. late that night the major heard the whole story from his mother. gradually, and as though unintentionally, mrs. grantly told him all she knew of the archdeacon's visit to framley. mrs. grantly was quite as anxious as was her husband to keep her son at home, and therefore she omitted in her story those little sneers against grace which she herself had been tempted to make by the archdeacon's fervour in the girl's favour. the major said as little as was possible while he was being told of his father's adventure, and expressed neither anger nor satisfaction till he had been made thoroughly to understand that grace had pledged herself not to marry him as long as any suspicion should rest upon her father's name. "your father is quite satisfied with her," said mrs. grantly. "he thinks that she is behaving very well." "my father had no right to exact such a pledge." "but she made it of her own accord. she was the first to speak about mr. crawley's supposed guilt. your father never mentioned it." "he must have led to it; and i think he had no right to do so. he had no right to go to her at all." "now don't be foolish, henry." "i don't see that i am foolish." "yes, you are. a man is foolish if he won't take what he wants without asking exactly how he is to come by it. that your father should be anxious is the most natural thing in the world. you know how high he has always held his own head, and how much he thinks about the characters and position of clergymen. it is not surprising that he should dislike the idea of such a marriage." "grace crawley would disgrace no family," said the lover. "that's all very well for you to say, and i'll take your word that it is so;--that is as far as the young lady goes herself. and there's your father almost as much in love with her as you are. i don't know what you would have?" "i would be left alone." "but what harm has been done you? from what you yourself have told me, i know that miss crawley has said the same thing to you that she has said to your father. you can't but admire her for the feeling." "i admire her for everything." "very well. we don't say anything against that." "and i don't mean to give her up." "very well again. let us hope that mr. crawley will be acquitted, and then all will be right. your father never goes back from his promise. he is always better than his word. you'll find that if mr. crawley is acquitted, or if he escapes in any way, your father will only be happy of an excuse to make much of the young lady. you should not be hard on him, henry. don't you see that it is his one great desire to keep you near to him? the sight of those odious bills nearly broke his heart." "then why did he threaten me?" "henry, you are obstinate." "i am not obstinate, mother." "yes, you are. you remember nothing, and you forget nothing. you expect everything to be made smooth for you, and will do nothing towards making things smooth for anybody else. you ought to promise to give up the sale. if the worst came to the worst, your father would not let you suffer in pocket for yielding to him in so much." "if the worst comes to the worst, i wish to take nothing from my father." "you won't put off the sale, then?" the son paused a moment before he answered his mother, thinking over all the circumstances of his position. "i cannot do so as long as i am subject to my father's threat," he said at last. "what took place between my father and miss crawley can go for nothing with me. he has told me that his allowance to me is to be withdrawn. let him tell me that he has reconsidered the matter." "but he has not withdrawn it. the last quarter was paid to your account only the other day. he does not mean to withdraw it." "let him tell me so; let him tell me that my power of living at cosby lodge does not depend on my marriage,--that my income will be continued to me whether i marry or no, and i'll arrange matters with the auctioneer to-morrow. you can't suppose that i should prefer to live in france." "henry, you are too hard on your father." "i think, mother, he has been too hard upon me." "it is you that are to blame now. i tell you plainly that that is my opinion. if evil comes of it, it will be your own fault." "if evil come of it i must bear it." "a son ought to give up something to his father;--especially to a father so indulgent as yours." but it was of no use. and mrs. grantly when she went to her bed could only lament in her own mind over what, in discussing the matter afterwards with her sister, she called the cross-grainedness of men. "they are as like each other as two peas," she said, "and though each of them wished to be generous, neither of them would condescend to be just." early on the following morning there was, no doubt, much said on the subject between the archdeacon and his wife before they met their son at breakfast; but neither at breakfast nor afterwards was there a word said between the father and son that had the slightest reference to the subject in dispute between them. the archdeacon made no more speeches in favour of land, nor did he revert to the foxes. he was very civil to his son;--too civil by half, as mrs. grantly continued to say to herself. and then the major drove himself away in his cart, going through barchester, so that he might see his grandfather. when he wished his father good-by, the archdeacon shook hands with him, and said something about the chance of rain. had he not better take the big umbrella? the major thanked him courteously, and said that he did not think it would rain. then he was gone. "upon his own head be it," said the archdeacon when his son's step was heard in the passage leading to the back-yard. then mrs. grantly got up quietly and followed her son. she found him settling himself in his dog-cart, while the servant who was to accompany him was still at the horse's head. she went up close to him, and, standing by the wheel of the gig, whispered a word or two into his ear. "if you love me, henry, you will postpone the sale. do it for my sake." there came across his face a look of great pain, but he answered her not a word. the archdeacon was walking about the room striking one hand open with the other closed, clearly in a tumult of anger, when his wife returned to him. "i have done all that i can," he said,--"all that i can; more, indeed, than was becoming for me. upon his own head be it. upon his own head be it!" "what is it that you fear?" she asked. "i fear nothing. but if he chooses to sell his things at cosby lodge he must abide the consequences. they shall not be replaced with my money." "what will it matter if he does sell them?" "matter! do you think there is a single person in the county who will not know that his doing so is a sign that he has quarrelled with me?" "but he has not quarrelled with you." "i can tell you then, that in that case i shall have quarrelled with him! i have not been a hard father, but there are some things which a man cannot bear. of course you will take his part." "i am taking no part. i only want to see peace between you." "peace!--yes; peace indeed. i am to yield in everything. i am to be nobody. look here;--as sure as ever an auctioneer's hammer is raised at cosby lodge, i will alter the settlement of the property. every acre shall belong to charles. there is my word for it." the poor woman had nothing more to say;--nothing more to say at that moment. she thought that at the present conjuncture her husband was less in the wrong than her son, but she could not tell him so lest she should strengthen him in his wrath. henry grantly found his grandfather in bed, with posy seated on the bed beside him. "my father told me that you were not quite well, and i thought that i would look in," said the major. "thank you, my dear;--it is very good of you. there is not much the matter with me, but i am not quite so strong as i was once." and the old man smiled as he held his grandson's hand. "and how is cousin posy?" said the major. "posy is quite well;--isn't she, my darling?" said the old man. "grandpa doesn't go to the cathedral now," said posy; "so i come in to talk to him. don't i, grandpa?" "and to play cat's-cradle;--only we have not had any cat's-cradle this morning,--have we, posy?" "mrs. baxter told me not to play this morning, because it's cold for grandpa to sit up in bed," said posy. when the major had been there about twenty minutes he was preparing to take his leave,--but mr. harding, bidding posy to go out of the room, told his grandson that he had a word to say to him. "i don't like to interfere, henry," he said, "but i am afraid that things are not quite smooth at plumstead." "there is nothing wrong between me and my mother," said the major. "god forbid that there should be; but, my dear boy, don't let there be anything wrong between you and your father. he is a good man, and the time will come when you will be proud of his memory." "i am proud of him now." "then be gentle with him,--and submit yourself. i am an old man now,--very fast going away from all those i love here. but i am happy in leaving my children because they have ever been gentle to me and kind. if i am permitted to remember them whither i am going, my thoughts of them will all be pleasant. should it not be much to them that they have made my death-bed happy?" the major could not but tell himself that mr. harding had been a man easy to please, easy to satisfy, and, in that respect, very different from his father. but of course he said nothing of this. "i will do my best," he replied. "do, my boy. honour thy father,--that thy days may be long in the land." [illustration: "honour thy father,--that thy days may be long in the land."] it seemed to the major as he drove away from barchester that everybody was against him; and yet he was sure that he himself was right. he could not give up grace crawley; and unless he were to do so he could not live at cosby lodge. chapter lix. a lady presents her compliments to miss l. d. one morning, while lily dale was staying with mrs. thorne in london, there was brought up to her room, as she was dressing for dinner, a letter which the postman had just left for her. the address was written with a feminine hand, and lily was at once aware that she did not know the writing. the angles were very acute, and the lines were very straight, and the vowels looked to be cruel and false, with their sharp points and their open eyes. lily at once knew that it was the performance of a woman who had been taught to write at school, and not at home, and she became prejudiced against the writer before she opened the letter. when she had opened the letter and read it, her feelings towards the writer were not of a kindly nature. it was as follows:-- "a lady presents her compliments to miss l. d., and earnestly implores miss l. d. to give her an answer to the following question. is miss l. d. engaged to marry mr. j. e.? the lady in question pledges herself not to interfere with miss l. d. in any way, should the answer be in the affirmative. the lady earnestly requests that a reply to this question may be sent to m. d., post-office, edgware road. in order that l. d. may not doubt that m. d. has an interest in j. e., m. d. encloses the last note she received from him before he started for the continent." then there was a scrap, which lily well knew to be in the handwriting of john eames, and the scrap was as follows:--"dearest m.--punctually at . . ever and always your unalterable j. e." lily, as she read this, did not comprehend that john's note to m. d. had been in itself a joke. lily dale had heard of anonymous letters before, but had never received one, or even seen one. now that she had one in her hand, it seemed to her that there could be nothing more abominable than the writing of such a letter. she let it drop from her, as though the receiving, and opening, and reading it had been a stain to her. as it lay on the ground at her feet, she trod upon it. of what sort could a woman be who would write such a letter as that? answer it! of course she would not answer it. it never occurred to her for a moment that it could become her to answer it. had she been at home or with her mother, she would have called her mother to her, and mrs. dale would have taken it from the ground, and have read it, and then destroyed it. as it was, she must pick it up herself. she did so, and declared to herself that there should be an end to it. it might be right that somebody should see it, and therefore she would show it to emily dunstable. after that it should be destroyed. of course the letter could have no effect upon her. so she told herself. but it did have a very strong effect, and probably the exact effect which the writer had intended that it should have. j. e. was, of course, john eames. there was no doubt about that. what a fool the writer must have been to talk of l. d. in the letter, when the outside cover was plainly addressed to miss lilian dale! but there are some people for whom the pretended mystery of initial letters has a charm, and who love the darkness of anonymous letters. as lily thought of this, she stamped on the letter again. who was the m. d. to whom she was required to send an answer--with whom john eames corresponded in the most affectionate terms? she had resolved that she would not even ask herself a question about m. d., and yet she could not divert her mind from the inquiry. it was, at any rate, a fact that there must be some woman designated by the letters,--some woman who had, at any rate, chosen to call herself m. d. and john eames had called her m. there must, at any rate, be such a woman. this female, be she who she might, had thought it worth her while to make this inquiry about john eames, and had manifestly learned something of lily's own history. and the woman had pledged herself not to interfere with john eames, if l. d. would only condescend to say that she was engaged to him! as lily thought of the proposition, she trod upon the letter for the third time. then she picked it up, and having no place of custody under lock and key ready to her hand, she put it in her pocket. at night, before she went to bed, she showed the letter to emily dunstable. "is it not surprising that any woman could bring herself to write such a letter?" said lily. but miss dunstable hardly saw it in the same light. "if anybody were to write me such a letter about bernard," said she, "i should show it to him as a good joke." "that would be very different. you and bernard, of course, understand each other." "and so will you and mr. eames--some day, i hope." "never more than we do now, dear. the thing that annoys me is that such a woman as that should have even heard my name at all." "as long as people have got ears and tongues, people will hear other people's names." lily paused a moment, and then spoke again, asking another question. "i suppose this woman does know him? she must know him, because he has written to her." "she knows something about him, no doubt, and has some reason for wishing that you should quarrel with him. if i were you, i should take care not to gratify her. as for mr. eames's note, it is a joke." "it is nothing to me," said lily. "i suppose," continued emily, "that most gentlemen become acquainted with some people that they would not wish all their friends to know that they knew. they go about so much more than we do, and meet people of all sorts." "no gentleman should become intimately acquainted with a woman who could write such a letter as that," said lily. and as she spoke she remembered a certain episode to john eames's early life, which had reached her from a source which she had not doubted, and which had given her pain and offended her. she had believed that john eames had in that case behaved cruelly to a young woman, and had thought that her offence had come simply from that feeling. "but of course it is nothing to me," she said. "mr. eames can choose his friends as he likes. i only wish that my name might not be mentioned to them." "it is not from him that she has heard it." "perhaps not. as i said before, of course it does not signify; only there is something very disagreeable in the whole thing. the idea is so hateful! of course this woman means me to understand that she considers herself to have a claim upon mr. eames, and that i stand in her way." "and why should you not stand in her way?" "i will stand in nobody's way. mr. eames has a right to give his hand to any one that he pleases. i, at any rate, can have no cause of offence against him. the only thing is that i do wish that my name could be left alone." lily, when she was in her own room again, did destroy the letter; but before she did so she read it again, and it became so indelibly impressed on her memory that she could not forget even the words of it. the lady who wrote had pledged herself, under certain conditions, "not to interfere with miss l. d." "interfere with me!" lily said to herself; "nobody can interfere with me; nobody has power to do so." as she turned it over in her mind, her heart became hard against john eames. no woman would have troubled herself to write such a letter without some cause for the writing. that the writer was vulgar, false, and unfeminine, lily thought that she could perceive from the letter itself; but no doubt the woman knew john eames, had some interest in the question of his marriage, and was entitled to some answer to her question;--only was not entitled to such answer from lily dale. for some weeks past now, up to the hour at which this anonymous letter had reached her hands, lily's heart had been growing soft and still softer towards john eames; and now again it had become hardened. i think that the appearance of adolphus crosbie in the park, that momentary vision of the real man by which the divinity of the imaginary apollo had been dashed to the ground, had done a service to the cause of the other lover; of the lover who had never been a god, but who of late years had at any rate grown into the full dimensions of a man. unfortunately for the latter, he had commenced his love-making when he was but little more than a boy. lily, as she had thought of the two together, in the days of her solitude, after she had been deserted by crosbie, had ever pictured to herself the lover whom she had preferred as having something godlike in his favour, as being far the superior in wit, in manner, in acquirement, and in personal advantage. there had been good nature and true hearty love on the side of the other man; but circumstances had seemed to show that his good-nature was equal to all, and that he was able to share even his hearty love among two or three. a man of such a character, known by a girl from his boyhood as john eames had been known by lily dale, was likely to find more favour as a friend than as a lover. so it had been between john eames and lily. while the untrue memory of what crosbie was, or ever had been, was present to her, she could hardly bring herself to accept in her mind the idea of a lover who was less noble in his manhood than the false picture which that untrue memory was ever painting for her. then had come before her eyes the actual man; and though he had been seen but for a moment, the false image had been broken into shivers. lily had discovered that she had been deceived, and that her forgiveness had been asked, not by a god, but by an ordinary human being. as regarded the ungodlike man himself, this could make no difference. having thought upon the matter deeply, she had resolved that she would not marry mr. crosbie, and had pledged herself to that effect to friends who never could have brought themselves to feel affection for him, even had she married him. but the shattering of the false image might have done john eames a good turn. lily knew that she had at any rate full permission from all her friends to throw in her lot with his,--if she could persuade herself to do so. mother, uncle, sister, brother-in-law, cousin,--and now this new cousin's bride that was to be,--together with lady julia and a whole crowd of allington and guestwick friends, were in favour of such a marriage. there had been nothing against it but the fact that the other man had been dearer to her; and that other fact that poor johnny lacked something,--something of earnestness, something of manliness, something of that phoebus divinity with which crosbie had contrived to invest his own image. but, as i have said above, john had gradually grown, if not into divinity, at least into manliness; and the shattering of the false image had done him yeoman's service. now had come this accursed letter, and lily, despite herself, despite her better judgment, could not sweep it away from her mind and make the letter as nothing to her. m. d. had promised not to interfere with her! there was no room for such interference, no possibility that such interference should take place. she hoped earnestly,--so she told herself,--that her old friend john eames might have nothing to do with a woman so impudent and vulgar as must be this m. d.; but except as regarded old friendship, m. d. and john eames, apart or together, could be as nothing to her. therefore, i say that the letter had had the effect which the writer of it had desired. all london was new to lily dale, and mrs. thorne was very anxious to show her everything that could be seen. she was to return to allington before the flowers of may would have come, and the crowd and the glare and the fashion and the art of the academy's great exhibition must therefore remain unknown to her; but she was taken to see many pictures, and among others she was taken to see the pictures belonging to a certain nobleman who, with that munificence which is so amply enjoyed and so little recognized in england, keeps open house for the world to see the treasures which the wealth of his family has collected. the necessary order was procured, and on a certain brilliant april afternoon mrs. thorne and her party found themselves in this nobleman's drawing-room. lily was with her, of course, and emily dunstable was there, and bernard dale, and mrs. thorne's dear friend mrs. harold smith, and mrs. thorne's constant and useful attendant, siph dunn. they had nearly completed their delightful but wearying task of gazing at pictures, and mrs. harold smith had declared that she would not look at another painting till the exhibition was open; three of the ladies were seated in the drawing-room, and siph dunn was standing before them, lecturing about art as though he had been brought up on the ancient masters; emily and bernard were lingering behind, and the others were simply delaying their departure till the truant lovers should have caught them. at this moment two gentlemen entered the room from the gallery, and the two gentlemen were fowler pratt and adolphus crosbie. all the party except mrs. thorne knew crosbie personally, and all of them except mrs. harold smith knew something of the story of what had occurred between crosbie and lily. siph dunn had learned it all since the meeting in the park, having nearly learned it all from what he had seen there with his eyes. but mrs. thorne, who knew lily's story, did not know crosbie's appearance. but there was his friend fowler pratt, who, as will be remembered, had dined with her but the other day; and she, with that outspoken and somewhat loud impulse which was natural to her, addressed him at once across the room, calling him by name. had she not done so, the two men might probably have escaped through the room, in which case they would have met bernard dale and emily dunstable in the doorway. fowler pratt would have endeavoured so to escape, and to carry crosbie with him, as he was quite alive to the expedience of saving lily from such a meeting. but, as things turned out, escape from mrs. thorne was impossible. "there's fowler pratt," she had said when they first entered, quite loud enough for fowler pratt to hear her. "mr. pratt, come here. how d'ye do? you dined with me last tuesday, and you've never been to call." "i never recognize that obligation till after the middle of may," said mr. pratt, shaking hands with mrs. thorne and mrs. smith, and bowing to miss dale. "i don't see the justice of that at all," said mrs. thorne. "it seems to me that a good dinner is as much entitled to a morsel of pasteboard in april as at any other time. you won't have another till you have called,--unless you're specially wanted." crosbie would have gone on, but that in his attempt to do so he passed close by the chair on which mrs. harold smith was sitting, and that he was accosted by her. "mr. crosbie," she said, "i haven't seen you for an age. has it come to pass that you have buried yourself entirely?" he did not know how to extricate himself so as to move on at once. he paused, and hesitated, and then stopped, and made an attempt to talk to mrs. smith as though he were at his ease. the attempt was anything but successful; but having once stopped, he did not know how to put himself in motion again, so that he might escape. at this moment bernard dale and emily dunstable came up and joined the group; but neither of them had discovered who crosbie was till they were close upon him. lily was seated between mrs. thorne and mrs. smith, and siph dunn had been standing immediately opposite to them. fowler pratt, who had been drawn into the circle against his will, was now standing close to dunn, almost between him and lily,--and crosbie was standing within two yards of lily, on the other side of dunn. emily and bernard had gone behind pratt and crosbie to mrs. thorne's side before they had recognized the two men;--and in this way lily was completely surrounded. mrs. thorne, who, in spite of her eager, impetuous ways, was as thoughtful of others as any woman could be, as soon as she heard crosbie's name understood it all, and knew that it would be well that she should withdraw lily from her plight. crosbie, in his attempt to talk to mrs. smith, had smiled and simpered,--and had then felt that to smile and simper before lily dale, with a pretended indifference to her presence, was false on his part, and would seem to be mean. he would have avoided lily for both their sakes, had it been possible; but it was no longer possible, and he could not keep his eyes from her face. hardly knowing what he did, he bowed to her, lifted his hat, and uttered some word of greeting. lily, from the moment that she had perceived his presence, had looked straight before her, with something almost of fierceness in her eyes. both pratt and siph dunn had observed her narrowly. it had seemed as though crosbie had been altogether outside the ken of her eyes, or the notice of her ears, and yet she had seen every motion of his body, and had heard every word which had fallen from his lips. now, when he saluted her, she turned her face full upon him, and bowed to him. then she rose from her seat, and made her way, between siph dunn and pratt, out of the circle. the blood had mounted to her face and suffused it all, and her whole manner was such that it could escape the observation of none who stood there. even mrs. harold smith had seen it, and had read the story. as soon as she was on her feet, bernard had dropped emily's hand, and offered his arm to his cousin. "lily," he had said out loud, "you had better let me take you away. it is a misfortune that you have been subjected to the insult of such a greeting." bernard and crosbie had been early friends, and bernard had been the unfortunate means of bringing crosbie and lily together. up to this day, bernard had never had his revenge for the ill-treatment which his cousin had received. some morsel of that revenge came to him now. lily almost hated her cousin for what he said; but she took his arm, and walked with him from the room. it must be acknowledged in excuse for bernard dale, and as an apology for the apparent indiscretion of his words, that all the circumstances of the meeting had become apparent to every one there. the misfortune of the encounter had become too plain to admit of its being hidden under any of the ordinary veils of society. crosbie's salutation had been made before the eyes of them all, and in the midst of absolute silence, and lily had risen with so queen-like a demeanour, and had moved with so stately a step, that it was impossible that any one concerned should pretend to ignore the facts of the scene that had occurred. crosbie was still standing close to mrs. harold smith, mrs. thorne had risen from her seat, and the words which bernard dale had uttered were still sounding in the ears of them all. "shall i see after the carriage?" said siph dunn. "do," said mrs. thorne; "or, stay a moment; the carriage will of course be there, and we will go together. good-morning, mr. pratt. i expect that, at any rate, you will send me your card by post." then they all passed on, and crosbie and fowler pratt were left among the pictures. "i think you will agree with me now that you had better give her up," said fowler pratt. "i will never give her up," said crosbie, "till i shall hear that she has married some one else." "you may take my word for it, that she will never marry you after what has just now occurred." "very likely not; but still the attempt, even the idea of the attempt, will be a comfort to me. i shall be endeavouring to do that which i ought to have done." "what you have got to think of, i should suppose, is her comfort,--not your own." crosbie stood for a while silent, looking at a portrait which was hung just within the doorway of a smaller room into which they had passed, as though his attention were entirely riveted by the picture. but he was thinking of the picture not at all, and did not even know what kind of painting was on the canvas before him. "pratt," he said at last, "you are always hard to me." "i will say nothing more to you on the subject, if you wish me to be silent." "i do wish you to be silent about that." "that shall be enough," said pratt. "you do not quite understand me. you do not know how thoroughly i have repented of the evil that i have done, or how far i would go to make retribution, if retribution were possible!" fowler pratt, having been told to hold his tongue as regarded that subject, made no reply to this, and began to talk about the pictures. lily, leaning on her cousin's arm, was out in the courtyard in front of the house before mrs. thorne or siph dunn. it was but for a minute, but still there was a minute in which bernard felt that he ought to say a word to her. "i hope you are not angry with me, lily, for having spoken." "i wish, of course, that you had not spoken; but i am not angry. i have no right to be angry. i made the misfortune for myself. do not say anything more about it, dear bernard;--that is all." they had walked to the picture-gallery; but, by agreement, two carriages had come to take them away,--mrs. thorne's and mrs. harold smith's. mrs. thorne easily managed to send emily dunstable and bernard away with her friend, and to tell siph dunn that he must manage for himself. in this way it was contrived that no one but mrs. thorne should be with lily dale. "my dear," said mrs. thorne, "it seemed to me that you were a little put out, and so i thought it best to send them all away." "it was very kind." "he ought to have passed on and not to have stood an instant when he saw you," said mrs. thorne, with indignation. "there are moments when it is a man's duty simply to vanish, to melt into the air, or to sink into the ground,--in which he is bound to overcome the difficulties of such sudden self-removal, or must ever after be accounted poor and mean." "i did not want him to vanish;--if only he had not spoken to me." "he should have vanished. a man is sometimes bound in honour to do so, even when he himself has done nothing wrong;--when the sin has been all with the woman. her femininity has still a right to expect that so much shall be done in its behalf. but when the sin has been all his own, as it was in this case,--and such damning sin too,--" "pray do not go on, mrs. thorne." "he ought to go out and hang himself simply for having allowed himself to be seen. i thought bernard behaved very well, and i shall tell him so." "i wish you could manage to forget it all, and say no word more about it." "i won't trouble you with it, my dear; i will promise you that. but, lily, i can hardly understand you. this man who must have been and must ever be a brute,--" "mrs. thorne, you promised me this instant that you would not talk of him." "after this i will not; but you must let me have my way now for one moment. i have so often longed to speak to you, but have not done so from fear of offending you. now the matter has come up by chance, and it was impossible that what has occurred should pass by without a word. i cannot conceive why the memory of that bad man should be allowed to destroy your whole life." "my life is not destroyed. my life is anything but destroyed. it is a very happy life." "but, my dear, if all that i hear is true, there is a most estimable young man, whom everybody likes, and particularly all your own family, and whom you like very much yourself; and you will have nothing to say to him, though his constancy is like the constancy of an old paladin,--and all because of this wretch who just now came in your way." "mrs. thorne, it is impossible to explain it all." "i do not want you to explain it all. of course i would not ask any young woman to marry a man whom she did not love. such marriages are abominable to me. but i think that a young woman ought to get married if the thing fairly comes in her way, and if her friends approve, and if she is fond of the man who is fond of her. it may be that some memory of what has gone before is allowed to stand in your way, and that it should not be so allowed. it sometimes happens that a morbid sentiment will destroy a life. excuse me, then, lily, if i say too much to you in my hope that you may not suffer after this fashion." "i know how kind you are, mrs. thorne." "here we are at home, and perhaps you would like to go in. i have some calls which i must make." then the conversation was ended, and lily was alone. as if she had not thought of it all before! as if there was anything new in this counsel which mrs. thorne had given her! she had received the same advice from her mother, from her sister, from her uncle, and from lady julia, till she was sick of it. how had it come to pass that matters which with others are so private, should with her have become the public property of so large a circle? any other girl would receive advice on such a subject from her mother alone, and there the secret would rest. but her secret had been published, as it were, by the town-crier in the high street! everybody knew that she had been jilted by adolphus crosbie, and that it was intended that she should be consoled by john eames. and people seemed to think that they had a right to rebuke her if she expressed an unwillingness to carry out this intention which the public had so kindly arranged for her. morbid sentiment! why should she be accused of morbid sentiment because she was unable to transfer her affections to the man who had been fixed on as her future husband by the large circle of acquaintance who had interested themselves in her affairs? there was nothing morbid in either her desires or her regrets. so she assured herself, with something very like anger at the accusation made against her. she had been contented, and was contented, to live at home as her mother lived, asking for no excitement beyond that given by the daily routine of her duties. there could be nothing morbid in that. she would go back to allington as soon as might be, and have done with this london life, which only made her wretched. this seeing of crosbie had been terrible to her. she did not tell herself that his image had been shattered. her idea was that all her misery had come from the untowardness of the meeting. but there was the fact that she had seen the man and heard his voice, and that the seeing him and hearing him had made her miserable. she certainly desired that it might never be her lot either to see him or to hear him again. and as for john eames,--in those bitter moments of her reflection she almost wished the same in regard to him. if he would only cease to be her lover, he might be very well; but he was not very well to her as long as his pretensions were dinned into her ear by everybody who knew her. and then she told herself that john would have had a better chance if he had been content to plead for himself. in this, i think, she was hard upon her lover. he had pleaded for himself as well as he knew how, and as often as the occasion had been given to him. it had hardly been his fault that his case had been taken in hand by other advocates. he had given no commission to mrs. thorne to plead for him. poor johnny. he had stood in much better favour before the lady had presented her compliments to miss l. d. it was that odious letter, and the thoughts which it had forced upon lily's mind, which were now most inimical to his interests. whether lily loved him or not, she did not love him well enough not to be jealous of him. had any such letter reached her respecting crosbie in the happy days of her young love, she would simply have laughed at it. it would have been nothing to her. but now she was sore and unhappy, and any trifle was powerful enough to irritate her. "is miss l. d. engaged to marry mr. j. e.?" "no," said lily, out loud. "lily dale is not engaged to marry john eames, and never will be so engaged." she was almost tempted to sit down and write the required answer to miss m. d. though the letter had been destroyed, she well remembered the number of the post-office in the edgware road. poor john eames! that evening she told emily dunstable that she thought she would like to return to allington before the day that had been appointed for her. "but why," said emily, "should you be worse than your word?" "i daresay it will seem silly, but the fact is i am homesick. i'm not accustomed to be away from mamma for so long." "i hope it is not what occurred to-day at the picture-gallery." "i won't deny that it is that in part." "that was a strange accident, you know, that might never occur again." "it has occurred twice already, emily." "i don't call the affair in the park anything. anybody may see anybody else in the park, of course. he was not brought so near you that he could annoy you there. you ought certainly to wait till mr. eames has come back from italy." then lily declared that she must and would go back to allington on the next monday, and she actually did write a letter to her mother that night to say that such was her intention. but on the morrow her heart was less sore, and the letter was not sent. chapter lx. the end of jael and sisera. [illustration] there was to be one more sitting for the picture, as the reader will remember, and the day for that sitting had arrived. conway dalrymple had in the meantime called at mrs. van siever's house, hoping that he might be able to see clara, and make his offer to her there. but he had failed in his attempt to reach her. he had found it impossible to say all that he had to say in the painting-room, during the very short intervals which mrs. broughton left to him. a man should be allowed to be alone more than fifteen minutes with a young lady on the occasion in which he offers to her his hand and his heart; but hitherto he had never had more than fifteen minutes at his command; and then there had been the turban! he had also in the meantime called on mrs. broughton, with the intention of explaining to her that if she really intended to favour his views in respect to miss van siever, she ought to give him a little more liberty for expressing himself. on this occasion he had seen his friend, but had not been able to go as minutely as he had wished into the matter that was so important to himself. mrs. broughton had found it necessary during this meeting to talk almost exclusively about herself and her own affairs. "conway," she had said, directly she saw him, "i am so glad you have come. i think i should have gone mad if i had not seen some one who cares for me." this was early in the morning, not much after eleven, and mrs. broughton, hearing first his knock at the door, and then his voice, had met him in the hall and taken him into the dining-room. "is anything the matter?" he asked. "oh, conway!" "what is it? has anything gone wrong with dobbs?" "everything has gone wrong with him. he is ruined." "heaven and earth! what do you mean?" "simply what i say. but you must not speak a word of it. i do not know it from himself." "how do you know it?" "wait a moment. sit down there, will you?--and i will sit by you. no, conway; do not take my hand. it is not right. there;--so. yesterday mrs. van siever was here. i need not tell you all that she said to me, even if i could. she was very harsh and cruel, saying all manner of things about dobbs. how can i help it, if he drinks? i have not encouraged him. and as for expensive living, i have been as ignorant as a child. i have never asked for anything. when we were married somebody told me how much we should have to spend. it was either two thousand, or three thousand, or four thousand, or something like that. you know, conway, how ignorant i am about money;--that i am like a child. is it not true?" she waited for an answer and dalrymple was obliged to acknowledge that it was true. and yet he had known the times in which his dear friend had been very sharp in her memory with reference to a few pounds. "and now she says that dobbs owes her money which he cannot pay her, and that everything must be sold. she says that musselboro must have the business, and that dobbs must shift for himself elsewhere." "do you believe that she has the power to decide that things shall go this way or that,--as she pleases?" "how am i to know? she says so, and she says it is because he drinks. he does drink. that at least is true; but how can i help it? oh, conway, what am i to do? dobbs did not come home at all last night, but sent for his things,--saying that he must stay in the city. what am i to do if they come and take the house, and sell the furniture, and turn me out into the street?" then the poor creature began to cry in earnest, and dalrymple had to console her as best he might. "how i wish i had known you first," she said. to this dalrymple was able to make no direct answer. he was wise enough to know that a direct answer might possibly lead him into terrible trouble. he was by no means anxious to find himself "protecting" mrs. dobbs broughton from the ruin which her husband had brought upon her. before he left her she had told him a long story, partly of matters of which he had known something before, and partly made up of that which she had heard from the old woman. it was settled, mrs. broughton said, that mr. musselboro was to marry clara van siever. but it appeared, as far as dalrymple could learn, that this was a settlement made simply between mrs. van siever and musselboro. clara, as he thought, was not a girl likely to fall into such a settlement without having an opinion of her own. musselboro was to have the business, and dobbs broughton was to be "sold up," and then look for employment in the city. from her husband the wife had not heard a word on this matter, and the above story was simply what had been told to mrs. broughton by mrs. van siever. "for myself it seems that there can be but one fate," said mrs. broughton. dalrymple, in his tenderest voice, asked what that one fate must be. "never mind," said mrs. broughton. "there are some things which one cannot tell even to such a friend as you." he was sitting near her and had all but got his arm behind her waist. he was, however, able to be prudent. "maria," he said, getting up on his feet, "if it should really come about that you should want anything, you will send to me. you will promise me that, at any rate?" she rubbed a tear from her eye and said that she did not know. "there are moments in which a man must speak plainly," said conway dalrymple;--"in which it would be unmanly not to do so, however prosaic it may seem. i need hardly tell you that my purse shall be yours if you want it." but just at that moment she did not want his purse, nor must it be supposed that she wanted to run away with him and to leave her husband to fight the battle alone with mrs. van siever. the truth was that she did not know what she wanted, over and beyond an assurance from conway dalrymple that she was the most ill-used, the most interesting, and the most beautiful woman ever heard of, either in history or romance. had he proposed to her to pack up a bundle and go off with him in a cab to the london, chatham, and dover railway station, en route for boulogne, i do not for a moment think that she would have packed up her bundle. she would have received intense gratification from the offer,--so much so that she would have been almost consoled for her husband's ruin; but she would have scolded her lover, and would have explained to him the great iniquity of which he was guilty. it was clear to him that at this present time he could not make any special terms with her as to clara van siever. at such a moment as this he could hardly ask her to keep out of the way, in order that he might have his opportunity. but when he suggested that probably it might be better, in the present emergency, to give up the idea of any further sitting in her room, and proposed to send for his canvas, colour-box, and easel, she told him that, as far as she was concerned, he was welcome to have that one other sitting for which they had all bargained. "you had better come to-morrow, as we had agreed," she said; "and unless i shall have been turned out into the street by the creditors, you may have the room as you did before. and you must remember, conway, that though mrs. van says that musselboro is to have clara, it doesn't follow that clara should give way." when we consider everything, we must acknowledge that this was, at any rate, good-natured. then there was a tender parting, with many tears, and conway dalrymple escaped from the house. he did not for a moment doubt the truth of the story which mrs. broughton had told, as far, at least, as it referred to the ruin of dobbs broughton. he had heard something of this before, and for some weeks had expected that a crash was coming. broughton's rise had been very sudden, and dalrymple had never regarded his friend as firmly placed in the commercial world. dobbs was one of those men who seem born to surprise the world by a spurt of prosperity, and might, perhaps, have had a second spurt, or even a third, could he have kept himself from drinking in the morning. but dalrymple, though he was hardly astonished by the story, as it regarded broughton, was put out by that part of it which had reference to musselboro. he had known that musselboro had been introduced to broughton by mrs. van siever, but, nevertheless, he had regarded the man as being no more than broughton's clerk. and now he was told that musselboro was to marry clara van siever, and have all mrs. van siever's money. he resolved, at last, that he would run his risk about the money, and take clara either with or without it, if she would have him. and as for that difficulty in asking her, if mrs. broughton would give him no opportunity of putting the question behind her back, he would put it before her face. he had not much leisure for consideration on these points, as the next day was the day for the last sitting. on the following morning he found miss van siever already seated in mrs. broughton's room when he reached it. and at the moment mrs. broughton was not there. as he took clara's hand, he could not prevent himself from asking her whether she had heard anything? "heard what?" said clara. "then you have not," said he. "never mind now, as mrs. broughton is here." then mrs. broughton had entered the room. she seemed to be quite cheerful, but dalrymple perfectly understood, from a special glance which she gave to him, that he was to perceive that her cheerfulness was assumed for clara's benefit. mrs. broughton was showing how great a heroine she could be on behalf of her friends. "now, my dear," she said, "do remember that this is the last day. it may be all very well, conway, and, of course, you know best; but as far as i can see, you have not made half as much progress as you ought to have done." "we shall do excellently well," said dalrymple. "so much the better," said mrs. broughton; "and now, clara, i'll place you." and so clara was placed on her knees, with the turban on her head. dalrymple began his work assiduously, knowing that mrs. broughton would not leave the room for some minutes. it was certain that she would remain for a quarter of an hour, and it might be as well that he should really use that time on his picture. the peculiar position in which he was placed probably made his work difficult to him. there was something perplexing in the necessity which bound him to look upon the young lady before him both as jael and as the future mrs. conway dalrymple, knowing as he did that she was at present simply clara van siever. a double personification was not difficult to him. he had encountered it with every model that had sat to him, and with every young lady he had attempted to win,--if he had ever made such an attempt with one before. but the triple character, joined to the necessity of the double work, was distressing to him. "the hand a little further back, if you don't mind," he said, "and the wrist more turned towards me. that is just it. lean a little more over him. there--that will do exactly." if mrs. broughton did not go very quickly, he must begin to address his model on a totally different subject, even while she was in the act of slaying sisera. "have you made up your mind who is to be sisera?" asked mrs. broughton. "i think i shall put in my own face," said dalrymple; "if miss van siever does not object." "not in the least," said clara, speaking without moving her face--almost without moving her lips. "that will be excellent," said mrs. broughton. she was still quite cheerful, and really laughed as she spoke. "shall you like the idea, clara, of striking the nail right through his head?" "oh, yes; as well his head as another's. i shall seem to be having my revenge for all the trouble he has given me." there was a slight pause, and then dalrymple spoke. "you have had that already, in striking me right through the heart." "what a very pretty speech! was it not, my dear?" said mrs. broughton. and then mrs. broughton laughed. there was something slightly hysterical in her laugh which grated on dalrymple's ears,--something which seemed to tell him that at the present moment his dear friend was not going to assist him honestly in his effort. "only that i should put him out, i would get up and make a curtsey," said clara. no young lady could ever talk of making a curtsey for such a speech if she supposed it to have been made in earnestness. and clara, no doubt, understood that a man might make a hundred such speeches in the presence of a third person without any danger that they would be taken as meaning anything. all this dalrymple knew, and began to think that he had better put down his palette and brush, and do the work which he had before him in the most prosaic language that he could use. he could, at any rate, succeed in making clara acknowledge his intention in this way. he waited still for a minute or two, and it seemed to him that mrs. broughton had no intention of piling her fagots on the present occasion. it might be that the remembrance of her husband's ruin prevented her from sacrificing herself in the other direction also. "i am not very good at pretty speeches, but i am good at telling the truth," said dalrymple. "ha, ha, ha!" laughed mrs. broughton, still with a touch of hysterical action in her throat. "upon my word, conway, you know how to praise yourself." "he dispraises himself most unnecessarily in denying the prettiness of his language," said clara. as she spoke she hardly moved her lips, and dalrymple went on painting from the model. it was clear that miss van siever understood that the painting, and not the pretty speeches, was the important business on hand. mrs. broughton had now tucked her feet up on the sofa, and was gazing at the artist as he stood at his work. dalrymple, remembering how he had offered her his purse,--an offer which, in the existing crisis of her affairs, might mean a great deal,--felt that she was ill-natured. had she intended to do him a good turn, she would have gone now; but there she lay, with her feet tucked up, clearly purposing to be present through the whole of that morning's sitting. his anger against her added something to his spirit, and made him determine that he would carry out his purpose. suddenly, therefore, he prepared himself for action. he was in the habit of working with a turkish cap on his head, and with a short apron tied round him. there was something picturesque about the cap, which might not have been incongruous with love-making. it is easy to suppose that juan wore a turkish cap when he sat with haidee in lambro's island. but we may be quite sure that he did not wear an apron. now dalrymple had thought of all this, and had made up his mind to work to-day without his apron; but when arranging his easel and his brushes, he had put it on from force of habit, and was now disgusted with himself as he remembered it. he put down his brush, divested his thumb of his palette, then took off his cap, and after that untied the apron. "conway, what are you going to do?" said mrs. broughton. "i am going to ask clara van siever to be my wife," said dalrymple. at that moment the door was opened, and mrs. van siever entered the room. clara had not risen from her kneeling posture when dalrymple began to put off his trappings. she had not seen what he was doing as plainly as mrs. broughton had done, having her attention naturally drawn towards her sisera; and, besides this, she understood that she was to remain as she was placed till orders to move were given to her. dalrymple would occasionally step aside from his easel to look at her in some altered light, and on such occasions she would simply hold her hammer somewhat more tightly than before. when, therefore, mrs. van siever entered the room clara was still slaying sisera, in spite of the artist's speech. the speech, indeed, and her mother both seemed to come to her at the same time. the old woman stood for a moment holding the open door in her hand. "you fool!" she said, "what are you doing there, dressed up in that way like a guy?" then clara got up from her feet and stood before her mother in jael's dress and jael's turban. dalrymple thought that the dress and turban did not become her badly. mrs. van siever apparently thought otherwise. "will you have the goodness to tell me, miss, why you are dressed up after that mad bess of bedlam fashion?" the reader will no doubt bear in mind that clara had other words of which to think besides those which were addressed to her by her mother. dalrymple had asked her to be his wife in the plainest possible language, and she thought that the very plainness of the language became him well. the very taking off of his apron, almost as he said the words, though to himself the action had been so distressing as almost to overcome his purpose, had in it something to her of direct simple determination which pleased her. when he had spoken of having had a nail driven by her right through his heart, she had not been in the least gratified; but the taking off of the apron, and the putting down of the palette, and the downright way in which he had called her clara van siever,--attempting to be neither sentimental with clara, nor polite with miss van siever,--did please her. she had often said to herself that she would never give a plain answer to a man who did not ask her a plain question;--to a man who, in asking this question, did not say plainly to her, "clara van siever, will you become mrs. jones?"--or mrs. smith, or mrs. tomkins, as the case might be. now conway dalrymple had asked her to become mrs. dalrymple very much after this fashion. in spite of the apparition of her mother, all this had passed through her mind. not the less, however, was she obliged to answer her mother, before she could give any reply to the other questioner. in the meantime mrs. dobbs broughton had untucked her feet. "mamma," said clara, "who ever expected to see you here?" "i daresay nobody did," said mrs. van siever; "but here i am, nevertheless." "madam," said mrs. dobbs broughton, "you might at any rate have gone through the ceremony of having yourself announced by the servant." "madam," said the old woman, attempting to mimic the tone of the other, "i thought that on such a very particular occasion as this i might be allowed to announce myself. you tomfool, you, why don't you take that turban off?" then clara, with slow and graceful motion, unwound the turban. if dalrymple really meant what he had said, and would stick to it, she need not mind being called a tomfool by her mother. "conway, i am afraid that our last sitting is disturbed," said mrs. broughton, with her little laugh. "conway's last sitting certainly is disturbed," said mrs. van siever, and then she mimicked the laugh. "and you'll all be disturbed,--i can tell you that. what an ass you must be to go on with this kind of thing, after what i said to you yesterday! do you know that he got beastly drunk in the city last night, and that he is drunk now, while you are going on with your tomfooleries?" upon hearing this, mrs. dobbs broughton fainted into dalrymple's arms. hitherto the artist had not said a word, and had hardly known what part it would best become him now to play. if he intended to marry clara,--and he certainly did intend to marry her if she would have him,--it might be as well not to quarrel with mrs. van siever. at any rate there was nothing in mrs. van siever's intrusion, disagreeable as it was, which need make him take up his sword to do battle with her. but now, as he held mrs. broughton in his arms, and as the horrid words which the old woman had spoken rung in his ears, he could not refrain himself from uttering reproach. "you ought not to have told her in this way, before other people, even if it be true," said conway. "leave me to be my own judge of what i ought to do, if you please, sir. if she had any feeling at all, what i told her yesterday would have kept her from all this. but some people have no feeling, and will go on being tomfools though the house is on fire." as these words were spoken, mrs. broughton fainted more persistently than ever,--so that dalrymple was convinced that whether she felt or not, at any rate she heard. he had now dragged her across the room, and laid her upon the sofa, and clara had come to her assistance. "i daresay you think me very hard because i speak plainly, but there are things much harder than plain speaking. how much do you expect to be paid, sir, for this picture of my girl?" "i do not expect to be paid for it at all," said dalrymple. "and who is it to belong to?" "it belongs to me at present." "then, sir, it mustn't belong to you any longer. it won't do for you to have a picture of my girl to hang up in your painting-room for all your friends to come and make their jokes about, nor yet to make a show of it in any of your exhibitions. my daughter has been a fool, and i can't help it. if you'll tell me what's the cost, i'll pay you; then i'll have the picture home, and i'll treat it as it deserves." dalrymple thought for a moment about his picture and about mrs. van siever. what had he better do? he wanted to behave well, and he felt that the old woman had something of justice on her side. "madam," he said, "i will not sell this picture; but it shall be destroyed, if you wish it." "i certainly do wish it, but i won't trust to you. if it's not sent to my house at once you'll hear from me through my lawyers." then dalrymple deliberately opened his penknife and slit the canvas across, through the middle of the picture each way. clara, as she saw him do it, felt that in truth she loved him. "there, mrs. van siever," he said; "now you can take the bits home with you in your basket if you wish it." at this moment, as the rent canvas fell and fluttered upon the stretcher, there came a loud voice of lamentation from the sofa, a groan of despair and a shriek of wrath. "very fine indeed," said mrs. van siever. "when ladies faint they always ought to have their eyes about them. i see that mrs. broughton understands that." "take her away, conway--for god's sake take her away," said mrs. broughton. "i shall take myself away very shortly," said mrs. van siever, "so you needn't trouble mr. conway about that. not but what i thought the gentleman's name was mr. something else." "my name is conway dalrymple," said the artist. "then i suppose you must be her brother, or her cousin, or something of that sort?" said mrs. van siever. "take her away," screamed mrs. dobbs broughton. "wait a moment, madam. as you've chopped up your handiwork there, mr. conway dalrymple, and as i suppose my daughter has been more to blame than anybody else--" "she has not been to blame at all," said dalrymple. "that's my affair, and not yours," said mrs. van siever, very sharply. "but as you've been at all this trouble, and have now chopped it up, i don't mind paying you for your time and paints; only i shall be glad to know how much it will come to?" "there will be nothing to pay, mrs. van siever." "how long has he been at it, clara?" "mamma, indeed you had better not say anything about paying him." "i shall say whatever i please, miss. will ten pounds do it, sir?" "if you choose to buy the picture, the price will be seven hundred and fifty," said dalrymple, with a smile, pointing to the fragments. "seven hundred and fifty pounds?" said the old woman. "but i strongly advise you not to make the purchase," said dalrymple. "seven hundred and fifty pounds! i certainly shall not give you seven hundred and fifty pounds, sir." "i certainly think you could invest your money better, mrs. van siever. but if the thing is to be sold at all, that is my price. i've thought that there was some justice in your demand that it should be destroyed,--and therefore i have destroyed it." mrs. van siever had been standing on the same spot ever since she had entered the room, and now she turned round to leave the room. "if you have any demand to make, i beg that you will send in your account for work done to mr. musselboro. he is my man of business. clara, are you ready to come home? the cab is waiting at the door,--at sixpence the quarter of an hour, if you will be pleased to remember." "mrs. broughton," said clara, thoughtful of her raiment, and remembering that it might not be well that she should return home, even in a cab, dressed as jael; "if you will allow me, i will go into your room for a minute or two." "certainly, clara," said mrs. broughton, preparing to accompany her. "but before you go, mrs. broughton," said mrs. van siever, "it may be as well that i should tell you that my daughter is going to become the wife of mr. musselboro. it may simplify matters that you should know this." and mrs. van siever, as she spoke, looked hard at conway dalrymple. "mamma!" exclaimed clara. "my dear," said mrs. van siever, "you had better change your dress and come away with me." "not till i have protested against what you have said, mamma." "you had better leave your protesting alone, i can tell you." "mrs. broughton," continued clara, "i must beg you to understand that mamma has not the slightest right in the world to tell you what she just now said about me. nothing on earth would induce me to become the wife of mr. broughton's partner." there was something which made clara unwilling even to name the man whom her mother had publicly proposed as her future husband. "he isn't mr. broughton's partner," said mrs. van siever. "mr. broughton has not got a partner. mr. musselboro is the head of the firm. and as to your marrying him, of course, i can't make you." "no, mamma; you cannot." "mrs. broughton understands that, no doubt;--and so, probably, does mr. dalrymple. i only tell them what are my ideas. if you choose to marry the sweep at the crossing, i can't help it. only i don't see what good you would do the sweep, when he would have to sweep for himself and you too. at any rate, i suppose you mean to go home with me now?" then mrs. broughton and clara left the room, and mrs. van siever was left with conway dalrymple. "mr. dalrymple," said mrs. van siever, "do not deceive yourself. what i told you just now will certainly come to pass." "it seems to me that that must depend on the young lady," said dalrymple. "i'll tell you what certainly will not depend on the young lady," said mrs. van siever, "and that is whether the man who marries her will have more with her than the clothes she stands up in. you will understand that argument, i suppose?" "i'm not quite sure that i do," said dalrymple. "then you'd better try to understand it. good-morning, sir. i'm sorry you've had to slit your picture." then she curtseyed low, and walked out on to the landing-place. "clara," she cried, "i'm waiting for you--sixpence a quarter of an hour,--remember that." in a minute or two clara came out to her, and then mrs. van siever and miss van siever took their departure. "oh, conway, what am i to do? what am i to do?" said mrs. dobbs broughton. dalrymple stood perplexed for a few minutes, and could not tell her what she was to do. she was in such a position that it was very hard to tell her what to do. "do you believe, conway, that he is really ruined?" "what am i to say? how am i to know?" "i see that you believe it," said the wretched woman. "i cannot but believe that there is something of truth in what this woman says. why else should she come here with such a story?" then there was a pause, during which mrs. broughton was burying her face on the arm of the sofa. "i'll tell you what i'll do," continued he. "i'll go into the city, and make inquiry. it can hardly be but what i shall learn the truth there." then there was another pause, at the end of which mrs. broughton got up from the sofa. "tell me," said she;--"what do you mean to do about that girl?" "you heard me ask her to be my wife?" "i did. i did!" "is it not what you intended?" "do not ask me. my mind is bewildered. my brain is on fire! oh, conway!" "shall i go into the city as i proposed?" said dalrymple, who felt that he might at any rate improve the position of circumstances by leaving the house. "yes;--yes; go into the city! go anywhere. go. but stay! oh, conway!" there was a sudden change in her voice as she spoke. "hark,--there he is, as sure as life." then conway listened, and heard a footstep on the stairs, as to which he had then but little doubt that it was the footstep of dobbs broughton. "o heavens! he is tipsy!" exclaimed mrs. broughton; "and what shall we do?" then dalrymple took her hand and pressed it, and left the room, so that he might meet the husband on the stairs. in the one moment that he had for reflection he thought it was better that there should be no concealment. chapter lxi. "it's dogged as does it." in accordance with the resolution to which the clerical commission had come on the first day of their sitting, dr. tempest wrote the following letter to mr. crawley:-- rectory, silverbridge, april , --. dear sir,-- i have been given to understand that you have been informed that the bishop of barchester has appointed a commission of clergymen of the diocese to make inquiry respecting certain accusations which, to the great regret of us all, have been made against you, in respect to a cheque for twenty pounds which was passed by you to a tradesman in this town. the clergymen appointed to form this commission are mr. oriel, the rector of greshamsbury, mr. robarts, the vicar of framley, mr. quiverful, the warden of hiram's hospital at barchester, mr. thumble, a clergyman established in that city, and myself. we held our first meeting on last monday, and i now write to you in compliance with a resolution to which we then came. before taking any other steps we thought it best to ask you to attend us here on next monday, at two o'clock, and i beg that you will accept this letter as an invitation to that effect. we are, of course, aware that you are about to stand your trial at the next assizes for the offence in question. i beg you to understand that i do not express any opinion as to your guilt. but i think it right to point out to you that in the event of a jury finding an adverse verdict, the bishop might be placed in great difficulty unless he were fortified with the opinion of a commission formed from your fellow clerical labourers in the diocese. should such adverse verdict unfortunately be given, the bishop would hardly be justified in allowing a clergyman placed as you then would be placed, to return to his cure after the expiration of such punishment as the judge might award, without a further decision from an ecclesiastical court. this decision he could only obtain by proceeding against you under the act in reference to clerical offences, which empowers him as bishop of the diocese to bring you before the court of arches,--unless you would think well to submit yourself entirely to his judgment. you will, i think, understand what i mean. the judge at assizes might find it his duty to imprison a clergyman for a month,--regarding that clergyman simply as he would regard any other person found guilty by a jury and thus made subject to his judgment,--and might do this for an offence which the ecclesiastical judge would find himself obliged to visit with the severer sentence of prolonged suspension, or even with deprivation. we are, however, clearly of opinion that should the jury find themselves able to acquit you, no further action whatsoever should be taken. in such case we think that the bishop may regard your innocence to be fully established, and in such case we shall recommend his lordship to look upon the matter as altogether at an end. i can assure you that in such case i shall so regard it myself. you will perceive that, as a consequence of this resolution, to which we have already come, we are not minded to make any inquiries ourselves into the circumstances of your alleged guilt, till the verdict of the jury shall be given. if you are acquitted, our course will be clear. but should you be convicted, we must in that case advise the bishop to take the proceedings to which i have alluded, or to abstain from taking them. we wish to ask you whether, now that our opinion has been conveyed to you, you will be willing to submit to the bishop's decision, in the event of an adverse verdict being given by the jury; and we think that it will be better for us all that you should meet us here at the hour i have named on monday next, the th instant. it is not our intention to make any report to the bishop until the trial shall be over. i have the honour to be, my dear sir, your very obedient servant, mortimer tempest. the rev. josiah crawley, hogglestock. in the same envelope dr. tempest sent a short private note, in which he said that he should be very happy to see mr. crawley at half-past one on the monday named, that luncheon would be ready at that hour, and that, as mr. crawley's attendance was required on public grounds, he would take care that a carriage was provided for the day. mr. crawley received this letter in his wife's presence, and read it in silence. mrs. crawley saw that he paid close attention to it, and was sure,--she felt that she was sure,--that it referred in some way to the terrible subject of the cheque for twenty pounds. indeed, everything that came into the house, almost every word spoken there, and every thought that came into the breasts of any of the family, had more or less reference to the coming trial. how could it be otherwise? there was ruin coming on them all,--ruin and complete disgrace coming on father, mother, and children! to have been accused itself was very bad; but now it seemed to be the opinion of every one that the verdict must be against the man. mrs. crawley herself, who was perfectly sure of her husband's innocence before god, believed that the jury would find him guilty,--and believed also that he had become possessed of the money in some manner that would have been dishonest, had he not been so different from other people as to be entitled to be considered innocent where another man would have been plainly guilty. she was full of the cheque for twenty pounds, and of its results. when, therefore, he had read the letter through a second time, and even then had spoken no word about it, of course she could not refrain from questioning him. "my love," she said, "what is the letter?" "it is on business," he answered. she was silent for a moment before she spoke again. "may i not know the business?" "no," said he; "not at present." "is it from the bishop?" "have i not answered you? have i not given you to understand that, for a while at least, i would prefer to keep the contents of this epistle to myself?" then he looked at her very sternly, and afterwards turned his eyes upon the fireplace and gazed at the fire, as though he were striving to read there something of his future fate. she did not much regard the severity of his speech. that, too, like the taking of the cheque itself, was to be forgiven him, because he was different from other men. his black mood had come upon him, and everything was to be forgiven him now. he was as a child when cutting his teeth. let the poor wayward sufferer be ever so petulant, the mother simply pities and loves him, and is never angry. "i beg your pardon, josiah," she said, "but i thought it would comfort you to speak to me about it." "it will not comfort me," he said. "nothing comforts me. nothing can comfort me. jane, give me my hat and my stick." his daughter brought to him his hat and stick, and without another word he went out and left them. as a matter of course he turned his steps towards hoggle end. when he desired to be long absent from the house, he always went among the brickmakers. his wife, as she stood at the window and watched the direction in which he went, knew that he might be away for hours. the only friends out of his own family with whom he ever spoke freely were some of these rough parishioners. but he was not thinking of the brickmakers when he started. he was simply desirous of again reading dr. tempest's letter, and of considering it, in some spot where no eye could see him. he walked away with long steps, regarding nothing,--neither the ruts in the dirty lane, nor the young primroses which were fast showing themselves on the banks, nor the gathering clouds which might have told him of the coming rain. he went on for a couple of miles, till he had nearly reached the outskirts of the colony of hoggle end, and then he sat himself down upon a gate. he had not been there a minute before a few slow large drops began to fall, but he was altogether too much wrapped up in his thoughts to regard the rain. what answer should he make to this letter from the man at silverbridge? the position of his own mind in reference to his own guilt or his own innocence was very singular. it was simply the truth that he did not know how the cheque had come to him. he did know that he had blundered about it most egregiously, especially when he had averred that this cheque for twenty pounds had been identical with a cheque for another sum which had been given to him by mr. soames. he had blundered since, in saying that the dean had given it to him. there could be no doubt as to this, for the dean had denied that he had done so. and he had come to think it very possible that he had indeed picked the cheque up, and had afterwards used it, having deposited it by some strange accident,--not knowing then what he was doing, or what was the nature of the bit of paper in his hand,--with the notes which he had accepted from the dean with so much reluctance, with such an agony of spirit. in all these thoughts of his own about his own doings, and his own position, he almost admitted to himself his own insanity, his inability to manage his own affairs with that degree of rational sequence which is taken for granted as belonging to a man when he is made subject to criminal laws. as he puzzled his brain in his efforts to create a memory as to the cheque, and succeeded in bringing to his mind a recollection that he had once known something about the cheque,--that the cheque had at one time been the subject of a thought and of a resolution,--he admitted to himself that in accordance with all law and all reason he must be regarded as a thief. he had taken and used and spent that which he ought to have known was not his own;--which he would have known not to be his own but for some terrible incapacity with which god had afflicted him. what then must be the result? his mind was clear enough about this. if the jury could see everything and know everything,--as he would wish that they should do; and if this bishop's commission, and the bishop himself, and the court of arches with its judge, could see and know everything; and if so seeing and so knowing they could act with clear honesty and perfect wisdom,--what would they do? they would declare of him that he was not a thief, only because he was so muddy-minded, so addle-pated as not to know the difference between meum and tuum! there could be no other end to it, let all the lawyers and all the clergymen in england put their wits to it. though he knew himself to be muddy-minded and addle-pated, he could see that. and could any one say of such a man that he was fit to be the acting clergyman of a parish,--to have a freehold possession in a parish as curer of men's souls! the bishop was in the right of it, let him be ten times as mean a fellow as he was. and yet as he sat there on the gate, while the rain came down heavily upon him, even when admitting the justice of the bishop, and the truth of the verdict which the jury would no doubt give, and the propriety of the action which that cold, reasonable, prosperous man at silverbridge would take, he pitied himself with a tenderness of commiseration which knew no bounds. as for those belonging to him, his wife and children, his pity for them was of a different kind. he would have suffered any increase of suffering, could he by such agony have released them. dearly as he loved them, he would have severed himself from them, had it been possible. terrible thoughts as to their fate had come into his mind in the worst moments of his moodiness,--thoughts which he had had sufficient strength and manliness to put away from him with a strong hand, lest they should drive him to crime indeed; and these had come from the great pity which he had felt for them. but the commiseration which he had felt for himself had been different from this, and had mostly visited him at times when that other pity was for the moment in abeyance. what though he had taken the cheque, and spent the money though it was not his? he might be guilty before the law, but he was not guilty before god. there had never been a thought of theft in his mind, or a desire to steal in his heart. he knew that well enough. no jury could make him guilty of theft before god. and what though this mixture of guilt and innocence had come from madness,--from madness which these courts must recognize if they chose to find him innocent of the crime? in spite of his aberrations of intellect, if there were any such, his ministrations in his parish were good. had he not preached fervently and well,--preaching the true gospel? had he not been very diligent among his people, striving with all his might to lessen the ignorance of the ignorant, and to gild with godliness the learning of the instructed? had he not been patient, enduring, instant, and in all things amenable to the laws and regulations laid down by the church for his guidance in his duties as a parish clergyman? who could point out in what he had been astray, or where he had gone amiss? but for the work which he had done with so much zeal the church which he served had paid him so miserable a pittance that, though life and soul had been kept together, the reason, or a fragment of the reason, had at moments escaped from his keeping in the scramble. hence it was that this terrible calamity had fallen upon him! who had been tried as he had been tried, and had gone through such fire with less loss of intellectual power than he had done? he was still a scholar, though no brother scholar ever came near him, and would make greek iambics as he walked along the lanes. his memory was stored with poetry, though no book ever came to his hands, except those shorn and tattered volumes which lay upon his table. old problems in trigonometry were the pleasing relaxations of his mind, and complications of figures were a delight to him. there was not one of those prosperous clergymen around him, and who scorned him, whom he could not have instructed in hebrew. it was always a gratification to him to remember that his old friend the dean was weak in his hebrew. he, with these acquirements, with these fitnesses, had been thrust down to the ground,--to the very granite,--and because in that harsh heartless thrusting his intellect had for moments wavered as to common things, cleaving still to all its grander, nobler possessions, he was now to be rent in pieces and scattered to the winds, as being altogether vile, worthless, and worse than worthless. it was thus that he thought of himself, pitying himself, as he sat upon the gate, while the rain fell ruthlessly on his shoulders. he pitied himself with a commiseration that was sickly in spite of its truth. it was the fault of the man that he was imbued too strongly with self-consciousness. he could do a great thing or two. he could keep up his courage in positions which would wash all courage out of most men. he could tell the truth though truth should ruin him. he could sacrifice all that he had to duty. he could do justice though the heaven should fall. but he could not forget to pay a tribute to himself for the greatness of his own actions; nor, when accepting with an effort of meekness the small payment made by the world to him, in return for his great works, could he forget the great payments made to others for small work. it was not sufficient for him to remember that he knew hebrew, but he must remember also that the dean did not. nevertheless, as he sat there under the rain, he made up his mind with a clearness that certainly had in it nothing of that muddiness of mind of which he had often accused himself. indeed, the intellect of this man was essentially clear. it was simply his memory that would play him tricks,--his memory as to things which at the moment were not important to him. the fact that the dean had given him money was very important, and he remembered it well. but the amount of the money, and its form, at a moment in which he had flattered himself that he might have strength to leave it unused, had not been important to him. now, he resolved that he would go to dr. tempest, and that he would tell dr. tempest that there was no occasion for any further inquiry. he would submit to the bishop, let the bishop's decision be what it might. things were different since the day on which he had refused mr. thumble admission to his pulpit. at that time people believed him to be innocent, and he so believed of himself. now, people believed him to be guilty, and it could not be right that a man held in such slight esteem should exercise the functions of a parish priest, let his own opinion of himself be what it might. he would submit himself, and go anywhere,--to the galleys or the workhouse, if they wished it. as for his wife and children, they would, he said to himself, be better without him than with him. the world would never be so hard to a woman or to children as it had been to him. he was sitting saturated with rain,--saturated also with thinking,--and quite unobservant of anything around him, when he was accosted by an old man from hoggle end, with whom he was well acquainted. "thee be wat, master crawley," said the old man. "wet!" said crawley, recalled suddenly back to the realities of life. "well,--yes. i am wet. that's because it's raining." "thee be teeming o' wat. hadn't thee better go whome?" "and are not you wet also?" said mr. crawley, looking at the old man, who had been at work in the brickfield, and who was soaked with mire, and from whom there seemed to come a steam of muddy mist. "is it me, yer reverence? i'm wat in course. the loikes of us is always wat,--that is barring the insides of us. it comes to us natural to have the rheumatics. how is one of us to help hisself against having on 'em? but there ain't no call for the loikes of you to have the rheumatics." "my friend," said crawley, who was now standing on the road,--and as he spoke he put out his arm and took the brickmaker by the hand, "there is a worse complaint than rheumatism,--there is, indeed." "there's what they calls the collerer," said giles hoggett, looking up into mr. crawley's face. "that ain't a got a hold of yer?" "ay, and worse than the cholera. a man is killed all over when he is struck in his pride;--and yet he lives." "maybe that's bad enough too," said giles, with his hand still held by the other. "it is bad enough," said mr. crawley, striking his breast with his left hand. "it is bad enough." "tell 'ee what, master crawley;--and yer reverence mustn't think as i means to be preaching; there ain't nowt a man can't bear if he'll only be dogged. you go whome, master crawley, and think o' that, and maybe it'll do ye a good yet. it's dogged as does it. it ain't thinking about it." then giles hoggett withdrew his hand from the clergyman's, and walked away towards his home at hoggle end. mr. crawley also turned homewards, and as he made his way through the lanes, he repeated to himself giles hoggett's words. "it's dogged as does it. it's not thinking about it." [illustration: "it's dogged as does it."] he did not say a word to his wife on that afternoon about dr. tempest; and she was so much taken up with his outward condition when he returned, as almost to have forgotten the letter. he allowed himself, but barely allowed himself, to be made dry, and then for the remainder of the day applied himself to learn the lesson which hoggett had endeavoured to teach him. but the learning of it was not easy, and hardly became more easy when he had worked the problem out in his own mind, and discovered that the brickmaker's doggedness simply meant self-abnegation;--that a man should force himself to endure anything that might be sent upon him, not only without outward grumbling, but also without grumbling inwardly. early on the next morning, he told his wife that he was going into silverbridge. "it is that letter,--the letter which i got yesterday that calls me," he said. and then he handed her the letter as to which he had refused to speak to her on the preceding day. "but this speaks of your going next monday, josiah," said mrs. crawley. "i find it to be more suitable that i should go to-day," said he. "some duty i do owe in this matter, both to the bishop, and to dr. tempest, who, after a fashion, is, as regards my present business, the bishop's representative. but i do not perceive that i owe it as a duty to either to obey implicitly their injunctions, and i will not submit myself to the cross-questionings of the man thumble. as i am purposed at present i shall express my willingness to give up the parish." "give up the parish altogether?" "yes, altogether." as he spoke he clasped both his hands together, and having held them for a moment on high, allowed them to fall thus clasped before him. "i cannot give it up in part; i cannot abandon the duties and reserve the honorarium. nor would i if i could." "i did not mean that, josiah. but pray think of it before you speak." "i have thought of it, and i will think of it. farewell, my dear." then he came up to her and kissed her, and started on his journey on foot to silverbridge. it was about noon when he reached silverbridge, and he was told that doctor tempest was at home. the servant asked him for a card. "i have no card," said mr. crawley, "but i will write my name for your behoof if your master's hospitality will allow me paper and pencil." the name was written, and as crawley waited in the drawing-room he spent his time in hating dr. tempest because the door had been opened by a man-servant dressed in black. had the man been in livery he would have hated dr. tempest all the same. and he would have hated him a little had the door been opened even by a smart maid. "your letter came to hand yesterday morning, dr. tempest," said mr. crawley, still standing, though the doctor had pointed to a chair for him after shaking hands with him; "and having given yesterday to the consideration of it, with what judgment i have been able to exercise, i have felt it to be incumbent upon me to wait upon you without further delay, as by doing so i may perhaps assist your views and save labour to those gentlemen who are joined with you in this commission of which you have spoken. to some of them it may possibly be troublesome that they should be brought together here on next monday." dr. tempest had been looking at him during this speech, and could see by his shoes and trowsers that he had walked from hogglestock to silverbridge. "mr. crawley, will you not sit down?" said he, and then he rang his bell. mr. crawley sat down, not on the chair indicated, but on one further removed and at the other side of the table. when the servant came,--the objectionable butler in black clothes that were so much smarter than mr. crawley's own,--his master's orders were communicated without any audible word, and the man returned with a decanter and wine-glasses. "after your walk, mr. crawley," said dr. tempest, getting up from his seat to pour out the wine. "none, i thank you." "pray let me persuade you. i know the length of the miles so well." "i will take none, if you please, sir," said mr. crawley. "now, mr. crawley," said dr. tempest, "do let me speak to you as a friend. you have walked eight miles, and are going to talk to me on a subject which is of vital importance to yourself. i won't discuss it unless you'll take a glass of wine and a biscuit." "dr. tempest!" "i'm quite in earnest. i won't. if you do as i ask you, you shall talk to me till dinner-time, if you like it. there. now you may begin." mr. crawley did eat the biscuit and did drink the wine, and as he did so, he acknowledged to himself that dr. tempest was right. he felt that the wine made him stronger to speak. "i hardly know why you have preferred to-day to next monday," said dr. tempest; "but if anything can be done by your presence here to-day, your time shall not be thrown away." "i have preferred to-day to monday," said crawley, "partly because i would sooner talk to one man than to five." "there is something in that, certainly," said dr. tempest. "and as i have made up my mind as to the course of action which it is my duty to take in the matter to which your letter of the th of this month refers, there can be no reason why i should postpone the declaration of my purpose. dr. tempest, i have determined to resign my preferment at hogglestock, and shall write to-day to the dean of barchester, who is the patron, acquainting him of my purpose." "you mean in the event--in the event--" "i mean, sir, to do this without reference to any event that is future. the bishop, dr. tempest, when i shall have been proved to be a thief, shall have no trouble either in causing my suspension or my deprivation. the name and fame of a parish clergyman should be unstained. mine have become foul with infamy. i will not wait to be deprived by any court, by any bishop, or by any commission. i will bow my head to that public opinion which has reached me, and i will deprive myself." he had got up from his chair, and was standing as he pronounced the final sentence against himself. dr. tempest still remained seated in his chair, looking at him, and for a few moments there was silence. "you must not do that, mr. crawley," dr. tempest said at last. "but i shall do it." "then the dean must not take your resignation. speaking to you frankly, i tell you that there is no prevailing opinion as to the verdict which the jury may give." "my decision has nothing to do with the jury's verdict. my decision--" "stop a moment, mr. crawley. it is possible that you might say that which should not be said." "there is nothing to be said,--nothing which i could say, which i would not say at the town cross if it were possible. as to this money, i do not know whether i stole it or whether i did not." "that is just what i have thought." "it is so." "then you did not steal it. there can be no doubt about that." "thank you, dr. tempest. i thank you heartily for saying so much. but, sir, you are not the jury. nor, if you were, could you whitewash me from the infamy which has been cast on me. against the opinion expressed at the beginning of these proceedings by the bishop of the diocese,--or rather against that expressed by his wife,--i did venture to make a stand. neither the opinion which came from the palace, nor the vehicle by which it was expressed, commanded my respect. since that, others have spoken to whom i feel myself bound to yield;--yourself not the least among them, dr. tempest;--and to them i shall yield. you may tell the bishop of barchester that i shall at once resign the perpetual curacy of hogglestock into the hands of the dean of barchester, by whom i was appointed." "no, mr. crawley; i shall not do that. i cannot control you, but thinking you to be wrong, i shall not make that communication to the bishop." "then i shall do so myself." "and your wife, mr. crawley, and your children?" at that moment mr. crawley called to mind the advice of his friend giles hoggett. "it's dogged as does it." he certainly wanted something very strong to sustain him in his difficulty. he found that this reference to his wife and children required him to be dogged in a very marked manner. "i can only trust that the wind may be tempered to them," he said. "they will, indeed, be shorn lambs." dr. tempest got up from his chair, and took a couple of turns about the room before he spoke again. "man," he said, addressing mr. crawley with all his energy, "if you do this thing, you will then at least be very wicked. if the jury find a verdict in your favour you are safe, and the chances are that the verdict will be in your favour." "i care nothing now for the verdict," said mr. crawley. "and you will turn your wife into the poorhouse for an idea!" "it's dogged as does it," said mr. crawley to himself. "i have thought of that," he said aloud. "that my wife is dear to me, and that my children are dear, i will not deny. she was softly nurtured, dr. tempest, and came from a house in which want was never known. since she has shared my board she has had some experience of that nature. that i should have brought her to all this is very terrible to me,--so terrible, that i often wonder how it is that i live. but, sir, you will agree with me, that my duty as a clergyman is above everything. i do not dare, even for their sake, to remain in the parish. good morning, dr. tempest." dr. tempest, finding that he could not prevail with him, bade him adieu, feeling that any service to the crawleys within his power might be best done by intercession with the bishop and with the dean. then mr. crawley walked back to hogglestock, repeating to himself giles hoggett's words, "it's dogged as does it." chapter lxii. mr. crawley's letter to the dean. [illustration] mr. crawley, when he got home after his walk to silverbridge, denied that he was at all tired. "the man at silverbridge, whom i went to see administered refreshment to me;--nay, he administered it with salutary violence," he said, affecting even to laugh. "and i am bound to speak well of him on behalf of mercies over and beyond that exhibited by the persistent tender of some wine. that i should find him judicious i had expected. what little i have known of him taught me so to think of him. but i found with him also a softness of heart for which i had not looked." "and you will not give up the living, josiah?" "most certainly i will. a duty, when it is clear before a man, should never be made less so by any tenderness in others." he was still thinking of giles hoggett. "it's dogged as does it." the poor woman could not answer him. she knew well that it was vain to argue with him. she could only hope that in the event of his being acquitted at the trial, the dean, whose friendship she did not doubt, might re-endow him with the small benefice which was their only source of bread. on the following morning there came by post a short note from dr. tempest. "my dear mr. crawley," the note ran, i implore you, if there be yet time, to do nothing rashly. and even although you should have written to the bishop or to the dean, your letters need have no effect, if you will allow me to make them inoperative. permit me to say that i am a man much older than you, and one who has mixed much both with clergymen and with the world at large. i tell you with absolute confidence, that it is not your duty in your present position to give up your living. should your conduct ever be called in question on this matter you will be at perfect liberty to say that you were guided by my advice. you should take no step till after the trial. then, if the verdict be against you, you should submit to the bishop's judgment. if the verdict be in your favour, the bishop's interference will be over. and you must remember that if it is not your duty as a clergyman to give up your living, you can have no right, seeing that you have a wife and family, to throw it away as an indulgence to your pride. consult any other friend you please;--mr. robarts, or the dean himself. i am quite sure that any friend who knows as many of the circumstances as i know will advise you to hold the living, at any rate till after the trial. you can refer any such friend to me. believe me to be, yours very truly, mortimer tempest. mr. crawley walked about again with this letter in his pocket, but on this occasion he did not go in the direction of hoggle end. from hoggle end he could hardly hope to pick up further lessons of wisdom. what could any giles hoggett say to him beyond what he had said to him already? if he were to read the doctor's letter to hoggett, and to succeed in making hoggett understand it all, hoggett could only caution him to be dogged. but it seemed to him that hoggett and his new friend at silverbridge did not agree in their doctrines, and it might be well that he should endeavour to find out which of them had most of justice on his side. he was quite sure that hoggett would advise him to adhere to his project of giving up the living,--if only hoggett could be made to understand the circumstances. he had written, but had not as yet sent away his letter to the dean. his letter to the bishop would be but a note, and he had postponed the writing of that till the other should be copied and made complete. he had sat up late into the night composing and altering his letter to his old friend, and now that the composition was finished he was loth to throw it away. early in this morning, before the postman had brought to him dr. tempest's urgent remonstrance, he had shown to his wife the draught of his letter to the dean. "i cannot say that it is not true," she had said. "it is certainly true." "but i wish, dear, you would not send it. why should you take any step till the trial be over?" "i shall assuredly send it," he had replied. "if you will peruse it again, you will see that the epistle would be futile were it kept till i shall have been proved to be a thief." "oh, josiah, such words kill me." "they are not pleasant, but it will be well that you should become used to them. as for the letter, i have taken some trouble to express myself with perspicuity, and i trust that i may have succeeded." at that time hoggett was altogether in the ascendant; but now, as he started on his walk, his mind was somewhat perturbed by the contrary advice of one, who after all, might be as wise as hoggett. there would be nothing dogged in the conduct recommended to him by dr. tempest. were he to follow the doctor's advice, he would be trimming his sails, so as to catch any slant of a breeze that might be favourable to him. there could be no doggedness in a character that would submit to such trimming. the postman came to hogglestock but once in a day, so that he could not despatch his letter till the next morning,--unless, indeed, he chose to send it a distance of four miles to the nearest post-office. as there was nothing to justify this, there was another night for the copying of his letter,--should he at last determine to send it. he had declared to dr. tempest that he would send it. he had sworn to his wife that it should go. he had taken much trouble with it. he believed in hoggett. but, nevertheless, this incumbency of hogglestock was his all in the world. it might be that he could still hold it, and have bread at least for his wife to eat. dr. tempest had told him that he would be probably acquitted. dr. tempest knew as much of all the circumstances as did he himself, and had told him that he was not guilty. after all dr. tempest knew more about it than hoggett knew. if he resigned the living, what would become of him,--of him,--of him and of his wife? whither would they first go when they turned their back upon the door inside which there had at any rate been shelter for them for many years? he calculated everything that he had, and found that at the end of april, even when he should have received his rent-charge, there would not be five pounds in hand among them. as for his furniture, he still owed enough to make it impossible that he should get anything out of that. and these thoughts all had reference to his position if he should be acquitted. what would become of his wife if he should be convicted? and as for himself, whither should he go when he came out of prison? he had completely realized the idea that hoggett's counsel was opposed to that given to him by dr. tempest; but then it might certainly be the case that hoggett had not known all the facts. a man should, no doubt, be dogged when the evils of life are insuperable; but need he be so when the evils can be overcome? would not hoggett himself undergo any treatment which he believed to be specific for rheumatism? yes; hoggett would undergo any treatment that was not in itself opposed to his duty. the best treatment for rheumatism might be to stay away from the brick-field on a rainy day; but if so, there would be no money to keep the pot boiling, and hoggett would certainly go to the brick-field, rheumatism and all, as long as his limbs would carry him there. yes; he would send his letter. it was his duty, and he would do it. men looked askance at him, and pointed at him as a thief. he would send the letter, in spite of dr. tempest. let justice be done, though the heaven may fall. he had heard of lady lufton's offer to his wife. the offers of the lady luftons of the world had been sorely distressing to his spirit, since it had first come to pass that such offers had reached him in consequence of his poverty. but now there was something almost of relief to him in the thought that the lady luftons would, after some fashion, save his wife and children from starvation;--would save his wife from the poorhouse, and enable his children to have a start in the world. for one of his children a brilliant marriage might be provided,--if only he himself were out of the way. how could he take himself out of the way? it had been whispered to him that he might be imprisoned for two months,--or for two years. would it not be a grand thing if the judge would condemn him to be imprisoned for life? was there ever a man whose existence was so purposeless, so useless, so deleterious, as his own? and yet he knew hebrew well, whereas the dean knew but very little hebrew. he could make greek iambics, and doubted whether the bishop knew the difference between an iambus and a trochee. he could disport himself with trigonometry, feeling confident that dr. tempest had forgotten his way over the asses' bridge. he knew "lycidas" by heart; and as for thumble, he felt quite sure that thumble was incompetent of understanding a single allusion in that divine poem. nevertheless, though all this wealth of acquirement was his, it would be better for himself, better for those who belonged to him, better for the world at large, that he should be put an end to. a sentence of penal servitude for life, without any trial, would be of all things the most desirable. then there would be ample room for the practice of that virtue which hoggett had taught him. when he returned home the hoggethan doctrine prevailed, and he prepared to copy his letter. but before he commenced his task, he sat down with his youngest daughter, and read,--or made her read to him,--a passage out of a greek poem, in which are described the troubles and agonies of a blind giant. no giant would have been more powerful,--only that he was blind, and could not see to avenge himself on those who had injured him. "the same story is always coming up," he said, stopping the girl in her reading. "we have it in various versions, because it is so true to life. ask for this great deliverer now, and find him eyeless in gaza, at the mill with slaves. it is the same story. great power reduced to impotence, great glory to misery, by the hand of fate,--necessity, as the greeks called her; the goddess that will not be shunned! at the mill with slaves! people, when they read it, do not appreciate the horror of the picture. go on, my dear. it may be a question whether polyphemus had mind enough to suffer; but, from the description of his power, i should think that he had. 'at the mill with slaves!' can any picture be more dreadful than that? go on, my dear. of course you remember milton's samson agonistes. agonistes indeed!" his wife was sitting stitching at the other side of the room; but she heard his words,--heard and understood them; and before jane could again get herself into the swing of the greek verse, she was over at her husband's side, with her arms round his neck. "my love!" she said. "my love!" he turned to her, and smiled as he spoke to her. "these are old thoughts with me. polyphemus and belisarius, and samson and milton, have always been pets of mine. the mind of the strong blind creature must be so sensible of the injury that has been done to him! the impotency, combined with his strength, or rather the impotency with the memory of former strength and former aspirations, is so essentially tragic!" she looked into his eyes as he spoke, and there was something of the flash of old days, when the world was young to them, and when he would tell her of his hopes, and repeat to her long passages of poetry, and would criticize for her advantage the works of old writers. "thank god," she said, "that you are not blind. it may yet be all right with you." "yes,--it may be," he said. "and you shall not be at the mill with slaves." "or, at any rate, not eyeless in gaza, if the lord is good to me. come, jane, we will go on." then he took up the passage himself, and read it on with clear, sonorous voice, every now and then explaining some passage or expressing his own ideas upon it, as though he were really happy with his poetry. it was late in the evening before he got out his small stock of best letter-paper, and sat down to work at his letter. he first addressed himself to the bishop; and what he wrote to the bishop was as follows:-- hogglestock parsonage, april llth, --. my lord bishop, i have been in communication with dr. tempest, of silverbridge, from whom i have learned that your lordship has been pleased to appoint a commission of inquiry,--of which commission he is the chairman,--with reference to the proceedings which it may be necessary that you should take, as bishop of this diocese, after my forthcoming trial at the approaching barchester assizes. my lord, i think it right to inform you, partly with a view to the comfort of the gentlemen named on that commission, and partly with the purport of giving you that information which i think that a bishop should possess in regard to the clerical affairs of his own diocese, that i have by this post resigned my preferment at hogglestock into the hands of the dean of barchester, by whom it was given to me. in these circumstances, it will, i suppose, be unnecessary for you to continue the commission which you have set in force; but as to that, your lordship will, of course, be the only judge. i have the honour to be, my lord bishop, your most obedient and very humble servant, josiah crawley, perpetual curate of hogglestock the right reverend the bishop of barchester, &c. &c. &c. the palace, barchester. but the letter which was of real importance,--which was intended to say something,--was that to the dean, and that also shall be given to the reader. mr. crawley had been for a while in doubt how he should address his old friend in commencing this letter, understanding that its tone throughout must, in a great degree, be made conformable with its first words. he would fain, in his pride, have begun "sir." the question was between that and "my dear arabin." it had once between them always been "dear frank" and "dear joe;" but the occasions for "dear frank" and "dear joe" between them had long been past. crawley would have been very angry had he now been called joe by the dean, and would have bitten his tongue out before he would have called the dean frank. his better nature, however, now prevailed, and he began his letter, and completed it as follows:-- my dear arabin, circumstances, of which you have probably heard something, compel me to write to you, as i fear, at some length. i am sorry that the trouble of such a letter should be forced upon you during your holidays;-- mr. crawley, as he wrote this, did not forget to remind himself that he never had any holidays; --but i think you will admit, if you will bear with me to the end, that i have no alternative. i have been accused of stealing a cheque for twenty pounds, which cheque was drawn by my lord lufton on his london bankers, and was lost out of his pocket by mr. soames, his lordship's agent, and was so lost, as mr. soames states,--not with an absolute assertion,--during a visit which he made to my parsonage here at hogglestock. of the fact that i paid the cheque to a tradesman in silverbridge there is no doubt. when questioned about it, i first gave an answer which was so manifestly incorrect that it has seemed odd to me that i should not have had credit for a mistake from those who must have seen that detection was so evident. the blunder was undoubtedly stupid, and it now bears heavy on me. i then, as i have learned, made another error,--of which i am aware that you have been informed. i said that the cheque had come to me from you, and in saying so, i thought that it had formed a portion of that alms which your open-handed benevolence bestowed upon me when i attended on you, not long before your departure, in your library. i have striven to remember the facts. it may be,--nay, it probably is the case,--that such struggles to catch some accurate glimpse of bygone things do not trouble you. your mind is, no doubt, clearer and stronger than mine, having been kept to its proper tune by greater and fitter work. with me, memory is all but gone, and the power of thinking is on the wane! i struggled to remember, and i thought that the cheque had been in the envelope which you handed to me,--and i said so. i have since learned, from tidings received, as i am told, direct from yourself, that i was as wrong in the second statement as i had been in the first. the double blunder has, of course, been very heavy on me. i was taken before the magistrates at silverbridge, and was by them committed to stand my trial at the assizes to be holden in barchester on the th of this month. without doubt, the magistrates had no alternative but to commit me, and i am indebted to them that they have allowed me my present liberty upon bail. that my sufferings in all this should have been grievous, you will understand. but on that head i should not touch, were it not that i am bound to explain to you that my troubles in reference to this parish of hogglestock, to which i was appointed by you, have not been the slightest of those sufferings. i felt at first, believing then that the world around me would think it unlikely that such a one as i had wilfully stolen a sum of money, that it was my duty to maintain myself in my church. i did so maintain myself against an attack made upon me by the bishop, who sent over to hogglestock one mr. thumble, a gentleman doubtless in holy orders, though i know nothing and can learn nothing of the place of his cure, to dispossess me of my pulpit and to remove me from my ministrations among my people. to mr. thumble i turned a deaf ear, and would not let him so much as open his mouth inside the porch of my church. up to this time i myself have read the services, and have preached to the people, and have continued, as best i could, my visits to the poor and my labours in the school, though i know,--no one knows as well,--how unfitted i am for such work by the grief which has fallen upon me. then the bishop sent for me, and i thought it becoming on my part to go to him. i presented myself to his lordship at his palace, and was minded to be much governed in my conduct by what he might say to me, remembering that i am bound to respect the office, even though i may not approve the man; and i humbled myself before his lordship, waiting patiently for any directions which he in his discretion might think it proper to bestow on me. but there arose up between us that very pestilent woman, his wife,--to his dismay, seemingly, as much as to mine,--and she would let there be place for no speech but her own. if there be aught clear to me in ecclesiastical matters, it is this,--that no authority can be delegated to a female. the special laws of this and of some other countries do allow that women shall sit upon the temporal thrones of the earth, but on the lowest step of the throne of the church no woman has been allowed to sit as bearing authority, the romantic tale of the woman pope notwithstanding. thereupon, i left the palace in wrath, feeling myself aggrieved that a woman should have attempted to dictate to me, and finding it hopeless to get a clear instruction from his lordship,--the woman taking up the word whenever i put a question to my lord the bishop. nothing, therefore, came of that interview but fruitless labour to myself, and anger, of which i have since been ashamed. since that time i have continued in my parish,--working, not without zeal, though in truth, almost without hope,--and learning even from day to day that the opinions of men around me have declared me to be guilty of the crime imputed to me. and now the bishop has issued a commission as preparatory to proceeding against me under the act for the punishment of clerical offences. in doing this, i cannot say that the bishop has been ill-advised, even though the advice may have come from that evil-tongued lady, his wife. and i hold that a woman may be called on for advice, with most salutary effect, in affairs as to which any show of female authority would be equally false and pernicious. with me it has ever been so, and i have had a counsellor by me as wise as she has been devoted. it must be noticed that in the draught copy of his letter which mr. crawley gave to his wife to read this last sentence was not inserted. intending that she should read his letter, he omitted it till he made the fair copy. over this commission his lordship has appointed dr. tempest of silverbridge to preside, and with him i have been in communication. i trust that the labours of the gentlemen of whom it is composed may be brought to a speedy close; and, having regard to their trouble, which in such a matter is, i fear, left without remuneration, i have informed dr. tempest that i should write this letter to you with the intent and assured purpose of resigning the perpetual curacy of hogglestock into your hands. you will be good enough, therefore, to understand that i do so resign the living, and that i shall continue to administer the services of the church only till some clergyman, certified to me as coming from you or from the bishop, may present himself in the parish, and shall declare himself prepared to undertake the cure. should it be so that mr. thumble be sent hither again, i will sit under him, endeavouring to catch improvement from his teaching, and striving to overcome the contempt which i felt for him when he before visited this parish. i annex beneath my signature a copy of the letter which i have written to the bishop on this subject. and now it behoves me, as the guardianship of the souls of those around me was placed in my hands by you, to explain to you as shortly as may be possible the reasons which have induced me to abandon my work. one or two whose judgment i do not discredit,--and i am allowed to name dr. tempest of silverbridge as one,--have suggested to me that i should take no step myself till after my trial. they think that i should have regard to the chance of the verdict, so that the preferment may still be mine should i be acquitted; and they say, that should i be acquitted, the bishop's action against me must of necessity cease. that they are right in these facts i do not doubt; but in giving such advice they look only to facts, having no regard to the conscience. i do not blame them. i should give such advice myself, knowing that a friend may give counsel as to outer things, but that a man must satisfy his inner conscience by his own perceptions of what is right and what is wrong. i find myself to be ill-spoken of, to be regarded with hard eyes by those around me, my people thinking that i have stolen this money. two farmers in this parish have, as i am aware, expressed opinions that no jury could acquit me honestly, and neither of these men have appeared in my church since the expression of that opinion. i doubt whether they have gone to other churches; and if not they have been deterred from all public worship by my presence. if this be so, how can i with a clear conscience remain among these men? shall i take from their hands wages for those administrations, which their deliberately formed opinions will not allow them to accept from my hands? and yet, though he thus pleaded against himself, he knew that the two men of whom he was speaking were thick-headed dolts who were always tipsy on saturday nights, and who came to church perhaps once in three weeks. your kind heart will doubtless prompt you to tell me that no clergyman could be safe in his parish if he were to allow the opinion of chance parishioners to prevail against him; and you would probably lay down for my guidance that grand old doctrine, "nil conscire sibi, nullâ pallescere culpâ." presuming that you may do so, i will acknowledge such guidance to be good. if my mind were clear in this matter, i would not budge an inch for any farmer,--no, nor for any bishop, further than he might by law compel me! but my mind is not clear. i do grow pale, and my hair stands on end with horror, as i confess to myself that i do not know whether i stole this money or no! such is the fact. in all sincerity i tell you that i know not whether i be guilty or innocent. it may be that i picked up the cheque from the floor of my room, and afterwards took it out and used it, not knowing whence it had come to me. if it be so, i stole it, and am guilty before the laws of my country. if it be so, i am not fit to administer the lord's sacraments to these people. when the cup was last in my hand and i was blessing them, i felt that i was not fit, and i almost dropped the chalice. that god will know my weakness and pardon me the perplexity of my mind,--that is between him and his creature. as i read my letter over to myself i feel how weak are my words, and how inefficient to explain to you the exact position in which i stand; but they will suffice to convince you that i am assuredly purposed to resign this parish of hogglestock, and that it is therefore incumbent on you, as patron of the living, to nominate my successor to the benefice. i have only further to ask your pardon for this long letter, and to thank you again for the many and great marks of friendship which you have conferred on me. alas, could you have foreseen in those old days how barren of all good would have been the life of him you then esteemed, you might perhaps have escaped the disgrace of being called the friend of one whom no one now regards with esteem. nevertheless, i may still say that i am, with all affection, yours truly, josiah crawley. the last paragraph of the letter was also added since his wife had read it. when he had first composed his letter, he had been somewhat proud of his words, thinking that he had clearly told his story. but when, sitting alone at his desk, he read it again, filling his mind as he went on with ideas which he would fain have expressed to his old friend, were it not that he feared to indulge himself with too many words, he began to tell himself that his story was anything but well told. there was no expression there of the hoggethan doctrine. in answer to such a letter as that the dean might well say, "think again of it. try yet to save yourself. never mind the two farmers, or mr. thumble, or the bishop. stick to the ship while there is a plank above the water." whereas it had been his desire to use words that should make the dean clearly understand that the thing was decided. he had failed,--as he had failed in everything throughout his life; but nevertheless the letter must go. were he to begin again he would not do it better. so he added to what he had written a copy of his note to the bishop, and the letter was fastened and sent. mrs. crawley might probably have been more instant in her efforts to stop the letter, had she not felt that it would not decide everything. in the first place it was not improbable that the letter might not reach the dean till after his return home,--and mrs. crawley had long since made up her mind that she would see the dean as soon as possible after his return. she had heard from lady lufton that it was not doubted in barchester that he would be back at any rate before the judges came into the city. and then, in the next place, was it probable that the dean would act upon such a letter by filling up the vacancy, even if he did get it? she trusted in the dean, and knew that he would help them, if any help were possible. should the verdict go against her husband, then indeed it might be that no help would be possible. in such case she thought that the bishop with his commission might prevail. but she still believed that the verdict would be favourable,--if not with an assured belief, still with a hope that was sufficient to stand in lieu of a belief. no single man, let alone no twelve men, could think that her husband had intended to appropriate that money dishonestly. that he had taken it improperly,--without real possession,--she herself believed; but he had not taken it as a thief, and could not merit a thief's punishment. after two days he got a reply from the bishop's chaplain, in which the chaplain expressed the bishop's commendation of mr. crawley's present conduct. "mr. thumble shall proceed from hence to hogglestock on next sunday," said the chaplain, "and shall relieve you for the present from the burden of your duties. as to the future status of the parish, it will perhaps be best that nothing shall be done till the dean returns,--or perhaps till the assizes shall be over. this is the bishop's opinion." it need hardly be explained that the promised visit of mr. thumble to hogglestock was gall and wormwood to mr. crawley. he had told the dean that should mr. thumble come, he would endeavour to learn something even from him. but it may be doubted whether mr. crawley in his present mood could learn anything useful from mr. thumble. giles hoggett was a much more effective teacher. "i will endure even that," he said to his wife, as she handed to him back the letter from the bishop's chaplain. chapter lxiii. two visitors to hogglestock. the cross-grainedness of men is so great that things will often be forced to go wrong, even when they have the strongest possible natural tendency of their own to go right. it was so now in these affairs between the archdeacon and his son. the original difficulty was solved by the good feeling of the young lady,--by that and by the real kindness of the archdeacon's nature. they had come to terms which were satisfactory to both of them, and those terms admitted of perfect reconciliation between the father and his son. whether the major did marry the lady or whether he did not, his allowance was to be continued to him, the archdeacon being perfectly willing to trust himself in the matter to the pledge which he had received from miss crawley. all that he required from his son was simply this,--that he should pull down the bills advertising the sale of his effects. was any desire ever more rational? the sale had been advertised for a day just one week in advance of the assizes, and the time must have been selected,--so thought the archdeacon,--with a malicious intention. why, at any rate, should the things be sold before any one knew whether the father of the young lady was or was not to be regarded as a thief? and why should the things be sold at all, when the archdeacon had tacitly withdrawn his threats,--when he had given his son to understand that the allowance would still be paid quarterly with the customary archidiaconal regularity, and that no alteration was intended in those settlements under which the plumstead foxes would, in the ripeness of time, become the property of the major himself. it was thus that the archdeacon looked at it, and as he did so, he thought that his son was the most cross-grained of men. but the major had his own way of looking at the matter. he had, he flattered himself, dealt very fairly with his father. when he had first made up his mind to make miss crawley his wife, he had told his father of his intention. the archdeacon had declared that, if he did so, such and such results would follow,--results which, as was apparent to every one, would make it indispensable that the major should leave cosby lodge. the major had never complained. so he told himself. he had simply said to his father,--"i shall do as i have said. you can do as you have said. therefore, i shall prepare to leave cosby lodge." he had so prepared; and as a part of that preparation, the auctioneer's bills had been stuck up on the posts and walls. then the archdeacon had gone to work surreptitiously with the lady,--the reader will understand that we are still following the workings of the major's mind,--and having succeeded in obtaining a pledge which he had been wrong to demand, came forward very graciously to withdraw his threats. he withdrew his threats because he had succeeded in his object by other means. the major knew nothing of the kiss that had been given, of the two tears that had trickled down his father's nose, of the generous epithets which the archdeacon had applied to grace. he did not guess how nearly his father had yielded altogether beneath the pressure of grace's charms,--how willing he was to yield altogether at the first decent opportunity. his father had obtained a pledge from grace that she would not marry in certain circumstances,--as to which circumstances the major was strongly resolved that they should form no bar to his marriage,--and then came forward with his eager demand that the sale should be stopped! the major could not submit to so much indignity. he had resolved that his father should have nothing to do with his marriage one way or the other. he would not accept anything from his father on the understanding that his father had any such right. his father had asserted such right with threats, and he, the major, taking such threats as meaning something, had seen that he must leave cosby lodge. let his father come forward, and say that they meant nothing, that he abandoned all right to any interference as to his son's marriage, and then the son--would dutifully consent to accept his father's bounty! they were both cross-grained, as mrs. grantly declared; but i think that the major was the most cross-grained of the two. something of the truth made its way into henry grantly's mind as he drove himself home from barchester after seeing his grandfather. it was not that he began to think that his father was right, but that he almost perceived that it might be becoming in him to forgive some fault in his father. he had been implored to honour his father, and he was willing to do so, understanding that such honour must, to a certain degree, imply obedience,--if it could be done at no more than a moderate expense to his feelings. the threatened auctioneer was the cause of offence to his father, and he might see whether it would not be possible to have the sale postponed. there would, of course, be a pecuniary loss, and that in his diminished circumstances,--he would still talk to himself of his diminished circumstances,--might be inconvenient. but so much he thought himself bound to endure on his father's behalf. at any rate, he would consult the auctioneer at silverbridge. but he would not make any pause in the measures which he had proposed to himself as likely to be conducive to his marriage. as for grace's pledge, such pledges from young ladies never went for anything. it was out of the question that she should be sacrificed, even though her father had taken the money. and, moreover, the very gist of the major's generosity was to consist in his marrying her whether the father were guilty or innocent. he understood that perfectly, and understood also that it was his duty to make his purpose in this respect known to grace's family. he determined, therefore, that he would go over to hogglestock, and see mr. crawley before he saw the auctioneer. hitherto major grantly had never even spoken to mr. crawley. it may be remembered that the major was at the present moment one of the bailsmen for the due appearance of mr. crawley before the judge, and that he had been present when the magistrates sat at the inn in silverbridge. he therefore knew the man's presence, but except on that occasion he had never even seen his intended future father-in-law. from the moment when he had first allowed himself to think of grace, he had desired, yet almost feared, to make acquaintance with the father; but had been debarred from doing so by the peculiar position in which mr. crawley was placed. he had felt that it would be impossible to speak to the father of his affection for the daughter without any allusion to the coming trial; and he did not know how such allusion could be made. thinking of this, he had at different times almost resolved not to call at hogglestock till the trial should be over. then he would go there, let the result of the trial have been what it might. but it had now become necessary for him to go on at once. his father had precipitated matters by his appeal to grace. he would appeal to grace's father, and reach grace through his influence. he drove over to hogglestock, feeling himself to be anything but comfortable as he came near to the house. and when he did reach the spot he was somewhat disconcerted to find that another visitor was in the house before him. he presumed this to be the case, because there stood a little pony horse,--an animal which did not strongly recommend itself to his instructed eye,--attached by its rein to the palings. it was a poor humble-looking beast, whose knees had very lately become acquainted with the hard and sharp stones of a newly-mended highway. the blood was even now red upon the wounds. "he'll never be much good again," said the major to his servant. "that he won't, sir," said the man. "but i don't think he's been very much good for some time back." "i shouldn't like to have to ride him into silverbridge," said the major, descending from the gig, and instructing his servant to move the horse and gig about as long as he might remain within the house. then he walked across the little garden and knocked at the door. the door was immediately opened, and in the passage he found mr. crawley, and another clergyman whom the reader will recognize as mr. thumble. mr. thumble had come over to make arrangements as to the sunday services and the parochial work, and had been very urgent in impressing on mr. crawley that the duties were to be left entirely to himself. hence had come some bitter words, in which mr. crawley, though no doubt he said the sharper things of the two, had not been able to vanquish his enemy so completely as he had done on former occasions. "there must be no interference, my dear sir,--none whatever, if you please," mr. thumble had said. "there shall be none of which the bishop shall have reason to complain," mr. crawley had replied. "there must be none at all, mr. crawley, if you please. it is only on that understanding that i have consented to take the parish temporarily into my hands. mrs. crawley, i hope that there may be no mistake about the schools. it must be exactly as though i were residing on the spot." "sir," said mr. crawley, very irate at this appeal to his wife, and speaking in a loud voice, "do you misdoubt my word; or do you think that if i were minded to be false to you, that i should be corrected in my falsehood by the firmer faith of my wife?" "i meant nothing about falsehood, mr. crawley." "having resigned this benefice for certain reasons of my own, with which i shall not trouble you, and acknowledging as i do,--and have done in writing under my hand to the bishop,--the propriety of his lordship's interference in providing for the services of the parish till my successor shall have been instituted, i shall, with what feelings of regret i need not say, leave you to the performance of your temporary duties." "that is all that i require, mr. crawley." "but it is wholly unnecessary that you should instruct me in mine." "the bishop especially desires--" began mr. thumble. but mr. crawley interrupted him instantly.-- "if the bishop has directed you to give me such instruction, the bishop has been much in error. i will submit to receive none from him through you, sir. if you please, sir, let there be an end of it;" and mr. crawley waved his hand. i hope that the reader will conceive the tone of mr. crawley's voice, and will appreciate the aspect of his face, and will see the motion of his hand, as he spoke these latter words. mr. thumble felt the power of the man so sensibly that he was unable to carry on the contest. though mr. crawley was now but a broken reed, and was beneath his feet, yet mr. thumble acknowledged to himself that he could not hold his own in debate with this broken reed. but the words had been spoken, and the tone of the voice had died away, and the fire in the eyes had burned itself out before the moment of the major's arrival. mr. thumble was now returning to his horse, and having enjoyed,--if he did enjoy,--his little triumph about the parish, was becoming unhappy at the future dangers that awaited him. perhaps he was the more unhappy because it had been proposed to him by authorities at the palace that he should repeatedly ride on the same animal from barchester to hogglestock and back. mr. crawley was in the act of replying to lamentations on this subject, with his hand on the latch, when the major arrived--"i regret to say, sir, that i cannot assist you by supplying any other steed." then the major had knocked, and mr. crawley had at once opened the door. "you probably do not remember me, mr. crawley?" said the major. "i am major grantly." mrs. crawley, who heard these words inside the room, sprang up from her chair, and could hardly resist the temptation to rush into the passage. she too had barely seen major grantly; and now the only bright gleam which appeared on her horizon depended on his constancy under circumstances which would have justified his inconstancy. but had he meant to be inconstant, surely he would never have come to hogglestock! "i remember you well, sir," said mr. crawley. "i am under no common obligation to you. you are at present one of my bailsmen." "there's nothing in that," said the major. mr. thumble, who had caught the name of grantly, took off his hat, which he had put on his head. he had not been particular in keeping off his hat before mr. crawley. but he knew very well that archdeacon grantly was a big man in the diocese; and though the grantlys and the proudies were opposed to each other, still it might be well to take off his hat before any one who had to do with the big ones of the diocese. "i hope your respected father is well, sir?" said mr. thumble. "pretty well, i thank you." the major stood close up against the wall of the passage, so as to allow room for mr. thumble to pass out. his business was one on which he could hardly begin to speak until the other visitor should have gone. mr. crawley was standing with the door wide open in his hand. he also was anxious to be rid of mr. thumble,--and was perhaps not so solicitous as a brother clergyman should have been touching the future fate of mr. thumble in the matter of the bishop's old cob. "really i don't know what to do as to getting upon him again," said mr. thumble. "if you will allow him to progress slowly," said mr. crawley, "he will probably travel with the greater safety." "i don't know what you call slow, mr. crawley. i was ever so much over two hours coming here from barchester. he stumbled almost at every step." "did he fall while you were on him?" asked the major. "indeed he did, sir. you never saw such a thing, major grantly. look here." then mr. thumble, turning round, showed that the rear portion of his clothes had not escaped without injury. "it was well he was not going fast, or you would have come on to your head," said grantly. "it was a mercy," said thumble. "but, sir, as it was, i came to the ground with much violence. it was on spigglewick hill, where the road is covered with loose stones. i see, sir, you have a gig and horse here, with a servant. perhaps, as the circumstances are so very peculiar,--" then mr. thumble stopped, and looked up into the major's face with imploring eyes. but the major had no tenderness for such sufferings. "i'm sorry to say that i am going quite the other way," he said. "i am returning to silverbridge." mr. thumble hesitated, and then made a renewed request. "if you would not mind taking me to silverbridge, i could get home from thence by railway; and perhaps you would allow your servant to take the horse to barchester." major grantly was for a moment dumfounded. "the request is most unreasonable, sir," said mr. crawley. "that is as major grantly pleases to look at it," said mr. thumble. "i am sorry to say that it is quite out of my power," said the major. "you can surely walk, leading the beast, if you fear to mount him," said mr. crawley. [illustration: mrs. proudie's emissary.] "i shall do as i please about that," said mr. thumble. "and, mr. crawley, if you will have the kindness to leave things in the parish just as they are,--just as they are, i will be obliged to you. it is the bishop's wish that you should touch nothing." mr. thumble was by this time on the step, and mr. crawley instantly slammed the door. "the gentleman is a clergyman from barchester," said mr. crawley, modestly folding his hands upon his breast, "whom the bishop has sent over here to take upon himself temporarily the services of the church, and, as it appears, the duties also of the parish. i refrain from animadverting upon his lordship's choice." "and are you leaving hogglestock?" "when i have found a shelter for my wife and children i shall do so; nay, peradventure, i must do so before any such shelter can be found. i shall proceed in that matter as i am bid. i am one who can regard myself as no longer possessing the privilege of free action in anything. but while i have a room at your service, permit me to ask you to enter it." then mr. crawley motioned him in with his hand, and major grantly found himself in the presence of mrs. crawley and her younger daughter. he looked at them both for a moment, and could trace much of the lines of that face which he loved so well. but the troubles of life had almost robbed the elder lady of her beauty; and with the younger, the awkward thinness of the last years of feminine childhood had not yet given place to the fulfilment of feminine grace. but the likeness in each was quite enough to make him feel that he ought to be at home in that room. he thought that he could love the woman as his mother, and the girl as his sister. he found it very difficult to begin any conversation in their presence, and yet it seemed to be his duty to begin. mr. crawley had marshalled him into the room, and having done so, stood aside near the door. mrs. crawley had received him very graciously, and having done so, seemed to be ashamed of her own hospitality. poor jane had shrunk back into a distant corner, near the open standing desk at which she was accustomed to read greek to her father, and, of course, could not be expected to speak. if major grantly could have found himself alone with any one of the three,--nay, if he could have been there with any two, he could have opened his budget at once; but, before all the family, he felt the difficulty of his situation. "mrs. crawley," said he, "i have been most anxious to make your acquaintance, and i trust you will excuse the liberty i have taken in calling." "i feel grateful to you, as i am sure does also my husband." so much she said, and then felt angry with herself for saying so much. was she not expressing her strong hope that he might stand fast by her child, whereby the whole crawley family would gain so much,--and the grantly family lose much, in the same proportion? "sir," said mr. crawley, "i owe you thanks, still unexpressed, in that you came forward, together with mr. robarts of framley, to satisfy the not unnatural requisition of the magistrates before whom i was called upon to appear in the early winter. i know not why any one should have ventured into such jeopardy on my account." "there was no jeopardy, mr. crawley. any one in the county would have done it." "i know not that; nor can i see that there was no jeopardy. i trust that i may assure you that there is no danger;--none, i mean, to you. the danger to myself and those belonging to me is, alas, very urgent. the facts of my position are pressing close upon me. methinks i suffer more from the visit of the gentleman who has just departed from me than from anything that has yet happened to me. and yet he is in his right;--he is altogether in his right." "no, papa; he is not," said jane, from her standing ground near the upright desk. "my dear," said her father, "you should be silent on such a subject. it is a matter hard to be understood in all its bearings,--even by those who are most conversant with them. but as to this we need not trouble major grantly." after that there was silence among them, and for a while it seemed as though there could be no approach to the subject on which grantly had come thither to express himself. mrs. crawley, in her despair, said something about the weather; and the major, trying to draw near the special subject, became bold enough to remark "that he had had the pleasure of seeing miss crawley at framley." "mrs. robarts has been very kind," said mrs. crawley, "very kind indeed. you can understand, major grantly, that this must be a very sad house for any young person." "i don't think it is at all sad," said jane, still standing in the corner by the upright desk. then major grantly rose from his seat and walked across to the girl and took her hand. "you are so like your sister," said he. "your sister is a great friend of mine. she has often spoken to me of you. i hope we shall be friends some day." but jane could make no answer to this, though she had been able to vindicate the general character of the house while she was left in her corner by herself. "i wonder whether you would be angry with me," continued the major, "if i told you that i wanted to speak a word to your father and mother alone?" to this jane made no reply, but was out of the room almost before the words had reached the ears of her father and mother. though she was only sixteen, and had as yet read nothing but latin and greek,--unless we are to count the twelve books of euclid and wood's algebra, and sundry smaller exercises of the same description,--she understood, as well as any one then present, the reason why her absence was required. as she closed the door the major paused for a moment, expecting, or perhaps hoping, that the father or the mother would say a word. but neither of them had a word to say. they sat silent, and as though conscience-stricken. here was a rich man come, of whom they had heard that he might probably wish to wed their daughter. it was manifest enough to both of them that no man could marry into their family without subjecting himself to a heavy portion of that reproach and disgrace which was attached to them. but how was it possible that they should not care more for their daughter,--for their own flesh and blood, than for the incidental welfare of this rich man? as regarded the man himself they had heard everything that was good. such a marriage was like the opening of paradise to their child. "nil conscire sibi," said the father to himself, as he buckled on his armour for the fight. when he had waited for a moment or two the major began. "mrs. crawley," he said, addressing himself to the mother, "i do not quite know how far you may be aware that i,--that i have for some time been,--been acquainted with your eldest daughter." "i have heard from her that she is acquainted with you," said mrs. crawley, almost panting with anxiety. "i may as well make a clean breast of it at once," said the major, smiling, "and say outright that i have come here to request your permission and her father's to ask her to be my wife." then he was silent, and for a few moments neither mr. nor mrs. crawley replied to him. she looked at her husband, and he gazed at the fire, and the smile died away from the major's face, as he watched the solemnity of them both. there was something almost forbidding in the peculiar gravity of mr. crawley's countenance when, as at present, something operated within him to cause him to express dissent from any proposition that was made to him. "i do not know how far this may be altogether new to you, mrs. crawley," said the major, waiting for a reply. "it is not new to us," said mrs. crawley. "may i hope, then, that you will not disapprove?" "sir," said mr. crawley, "i am so placed by the untoward circumstances of my life that i can hardly claim to exercise over my own daughter that authority which should belong to a parent." "my dear, do not say that," exclaimed mrs. crawley. "but i do say it. within three weeks of this time i may be a prisoner, subject to the criminal laws of my country. at this moment i am without the power of earning bread for myself, or for my wife, or for my children. major grantly, you have even now seen the departure of the gentleman who has been sent here to take my place in this parish. i am, as it were, an outlaw here, and entitled neither to obedience nor respect from those who under other circumstances would be bound to give me both." "major grantly," said the poor woman, "no husband or father in the county is more closely obeyed or more thoroughly respected and loved." "i am sure of it," said the major. "all this, however, matters nothing," continued mr. crawley, "and all speech on such homely matters would amount to an impertinence before you, sir, were it not that you have hinted at a purpose of connecting yourself at some future time with this unfortunate family." "i meant to be plain-spoken, mr. crawley." "i did not mean to insinuate, sir, that there was aught of reticence in your words, so contrived that you might fall back upon the vagueness of your expression for protection, should you hereafter see fit to change your purpose. i should have wronged you much by such a suggestion. i rather was minded to make known to you that i,--or, i should rather say, we," and mr. crawley pointed to his wife,--"shall not accept your plainness of speech as betokening aught beyond a conceived idea in furtherance of which you have thought it expedient to make certain inquiries." "i don't quite follow you," said the major. "but what i want you to do is to give me your consent to visit your daughter; and i want mrs. crawley to write to grace and tell her that it's all right." mrs. crawley was quite sure that it was all right, and was ready to sit down and write the letter that moment, if her husband would permit her to do so. "i am sorry that i have not been explicit," said mr. crawley, "but i will endeavour to make myself more plainly intelligible. my daughter, sir, is so circumstanced in reference to her father, that i, as her father and as a gentleman, cannot encourage any man to make a tender to her of his hand." "but i have made up my mind about all that." "and i, sir, have made up mine. i dare not tell my girl that i think she will do well to place her hand in yours. a lady, when she does that, should feel at least that her hand is clean." "it is the cleanest and the sweetest and the fairest hand in barsetshire," said the major. mrs. crawley could not restrain herself, but running up to him, took his hand in hers and kissed it. "there is unfortunately a stain, which is vicarial," began mr. crawley, sustaining up to that point his voice with roman fortitude,--with a fortitude which would have been roman had it not at that moment broken down under the pressure of human feeling. he could keep it up no longer, but continued his speech with broken sobs, and with a voice altogether changed in its tone,--rapid now, whereas it had before been slow,--natural, whereas it had hitherto been affected,--human, whereas it had hitherto been roman. "major grantly," he said, "i am sore beset; but what can i say to you? my darling is as pure as the light of day,--only that she is soiled with my impurity. she is fit to grace the house of the best gentleman in england, had i not made her unfit." "she shall grace mine," said the major. "by god, she shall!--to-morrow, if she'll have me." mrs. crawley, who was standing beside him, again raised his hand and kissed it. "it may not be so. as i began by saying,--or rather strove to say, for i have been overtaken by weakness, and cannot speak my mind,--i cannot claim authority over my child as would another man. how can i exercise authority from between a prison's bars?" "she would obey your slightest wish," said mrs. crawley. "i could express no wish," said he. "but i know my girl, and i am sure that she will not consent to take infamy with her into the house of the man who loves her." "there will be no infamy," said the major. "infamy! i tell you that i shall be proud of the connexion." "you, sir, are generous in your prosperity. we will strive to be at least just in our adversity. my wife and children are to be pitied,--because of the husband and the father." "no!" said mrs. crawley. "i will not hear that said without denying it." "but they must take their lot as it has been given to them," continued he. "such a position in life as that which you have proposed to bestow upon my child would be to her, as regards human affairs, great elevation. and from what i have heard,--i may be permitted to add also from what i now learn by personal experience,--such a marriage would be laden with fair promise of future happiness. but if you ask my mind, i think that my child is not free to make it. you, sir, have many relatives, who are not in love, as you are, all of whom would be affected by the stain of my disgrace. you have a daughter, to whom all your solicitude is due. no one should go to your house as your second wife who cannot feel that she will serve your child. my daughter would feel that she was bringing an injury upon the babe. i cannot bid her do this,--and i will not. nor do i believe that she would do so if i bade her." then he turned his chair round, and sat with his face to the wall, wiping away the tears with a tattered handkerchief. mrs. crawley led the major away to the further window, and there stood looking up into his face. it need hardly be said that they also were crying. whose eyes could have been dry after such a scene,--upon hearing such words? "you had better go," said mrs. crawley. "i know him so well. you had better go." "mrs. crawley," he said, whispering to her, "if i ever desert her, may all that i love desert me! but you will help me?" "you would want no help, were it not for this trouble." "but you will help me?" then she paused a moment. "i can do nothing," she said, "but what he bids me." "you will trust me, at any rate?" said the major. "i do trust you," she replied. then he went without saying a word further to mr. crawley. as soon as he was gone, the wife went over to her husband, and put her arm gently round his neck as he was sitting. for a while the husband took no notice of his wife's caress, but sat motionless, with his face still turned to the wall. then she spoke to him a word or two, telling him that their visitor was gone. "my child!" he said. "my poor child! my darling! she has found grace in this man's sight; but even of that has her father robbed her! the lord has visited upon the children the sins of the father, and will do so to the third and fourth generation." chapter lxiv. the tragedy in hook court. [illustration] conway dalrymple had hurried out of the room in mrs. broughton's house in which he had been painting jael and sisera, thinking that it would be better to meet an angry and perhaps tipsy husband on the stairs, than it would be either to wait for him till he should make his way into his wife's room, or to hide away from him with the view of escaping altogether from so disagreeable an encounter. he had no fear of the man. he did not think that there would be any violence,--nor, as regarded himself, did he much care if there was to be violence. but he felt that he was bound, as far as it might be possible, to screen the poor woman from the ill effects of her husband's temper and condition. he was, therefore, prepared to stop broughton on the stairs, and to use some force in arresting him on his way, should he find the man to be really intoxicated. but he had not descended above a stair or two before he was aware that the man below him, whose step had been heard in the hall, was not intoxicated, and that he was not dobbs broughton. it was mr. musselboro. "it is you, is it?" said conway. "i thought it was broughton." then he looked into the man's face and saw that he was ashy pale. all that appearance of low-bred jauntiness which used to belong to him seemed to have been washed out of him. his hair had forgotten to curl, his gloves had been thrown aside, and even his trinkets were out of sight. "what has happened?" said conway. "what is the matter? something is wrong." then it occurred to him that musselboro had been sent to the house to tell the wife of the husband's ruin. "the servant told me that i should find you upstairs," said musselboro. "yes; i have been painting here. for some time past i have been doing a picture of miss van siever. mrs. van siever has been here to-day." conway thought that this information would produce some strong effect on clara's proposed husband; but he did not seem to regard the matter of the picture nor the mention of miss van siever's name. "she knows nothing of it?" said he. "she doesn't know yet?" "know what?" asked conway. "she knows that her husband has lost money." "dobbs has--destroyed himself." "what!" "blew his brains out this morning just inside the entrance at hook court. the horror of drink was on him, and he stood just in the pathway and shot himself. bangles was standing at the top of their vaults and saw him do it. i don't think bangles will ever be a man again. o lord! i shall never get over it myself. the body was there when i went in." then musselboro sank back against the wall of the staircase, and stared at dalrymple as though he still saw before him the terrible sight of which he had just spoken. dalrymple seated himself on the stairs and strove to bring his mind to bear on the tale which he had just heard. what was he to do, and how was that poor woman upstairs to be informed? "you came here intending to tell her," he said, in a whisper. he feared every moment that mrs. broughton would appear on the stairs, and learn from a word or two what had happened without any hint to prepare her for the catastrophe. "i thought you would be here. i knew you were doing the picture. he knew it. he'd had a letter to say so,--one of those anonymous ones." "but that didn't influence him?" "i don't think it was that," said musselboro. "he meant to have had it out with her; but it wasn't that as brought this about. perhaps you didn't know that he was clean ruined?" "she had told me." "then she knew it?" "oh, yes; she knew that. mrs. van siever had told her. poor creature! how are we to break this to her?" "you and she are very thick," said musselboro. "i suppose you'll do it best." by this time they were in the drawing-room, and the door was closed. dalrymple had put his hand on the other man's arm, and had led him downstairs, out of reach of hearing from the room above. "you'll tell her,--won't you?" said musselboro. then dalrymple tried to think what loving female friend there was who could break the news to the unfortunate woman. he knew of the van sievers, and he knew of the demolines, and he almost knew that there was no other woman within reach whom he was entitled to regard as closely connected with mrs. broughton. he was well aware that the anonymous letter of which musselboro had just spoken had come from miss demolines, and he could not go there for sympathy and assistance. nor could he apply to mrs. van siever after what had passed this morning. to clara van siever he would have applied, but that it was impossible he should reach clara except through her mother. "i suppose i had better go to her," he said, after a while. and then he went, leaving musselboro in the drawing-room. "i'm so bad with it," said musselboro, "that i really don't know how i shall ever go up that court again." conway dalrymple made his way up the stairs with very slow steps, and as he did so he could not but think seriously of the nature of his friendship with this woman, and could not but condemn himself heartily for the folly and iniquity of his own conduct. scores of times he had professed his love to her with half-expressed words, intended to mean nothing, as he said to himself when he tried to excuse himself, but enough to turn her head, even if they did not reach her heart. now, this woman was a widow, and it came to be his duty to tell her that she was so. what if she should claim from him now the love which he had so often proffered to her! it was not that he feared that she would claim anything from him at this moment,--neither now, nor to-morrow, nor the next day,--but the agony of the present meeting would produce others in which there would be some tenderness mixed with the agony; and so from one meeting to another the thing would progress. dalrymple knew well enough how such things might progress. but in this danger before him, it was not of himself that he was thinking, but of her. how could he assist her at such a time without doing her more injury than benefit? and, if he did not assist her, who would do so? he knew her to be heartless; but even heartless people have hearts which can be touched and almost broken by certain sorrows. her heart would not be broken by her husband's death, but it would become very sore if she were utterly neglected. he was now at the door, with his hand on the lock, and was wondering why she should remain so long within without making herself heard. then he opened it, and found her seated in a lounging-chair, with her back to the door, and he could see that she had a volume of a novel in her hand. he understood it all. she was pretending to be indifferent to her husband's return. he walked up to her, thinking that she would recognize his step; but she made no sign of turning towards him. he saw the motion of her hair over the back of the chair as she affected to make herself luxuriously comfortable. she was striving to let her husband see that she cared nothing for him, or for his condition, or for his jealousy, if he were jealous,--or even for his ruin. "mrs. broughton," he said, when he was close to her. then she jumped up quickly, and turned round, facing him. "where is dobbs?" she said. "where is broughton?" "he is not here." "he is in the house, for i heard him. why have you come back?" dalrymple's eye fell on the tattered canvas, and he thought of the doings of the past month. he thought of the picture of three graces, which was hanging in the room below, and he thoroughly wished that he had never been introduced to the broughton establishment. how was he to get through his present difficulty? "no," said he, "broughton did not come. it was mr. musselboro whose steps you heard below." "what is he here for? what is he doing here? where is dobbs? conway, there is something the matter. he has gone off!" "yes;--he has gone off." "the coward!" "no; he was not a coward;--not in that way." the use of the past tense, unintentional as it had been, told the story to the woman at once. "he is dead," she said. then he took both her hands in his and looked into her face without speaking a word. and she gazed at him with fixed eyes, and rigid mouth, while the quick coming breath just moved the curl of her nostrils. it occurred to him at the moment that he had never before seen her so wholly unaffected, and had never before observed that she was so totally deficient in all the elements of real beauty. she was the first to speak again. "conway," she said, "tell it me all. why do you not speak to me?" "there is nothing further to tell," said he. then she dropped his hands and walked away from him to the window,--and stood there looking out upon the stuccoed turret of a huge house that stood opposite. as she did so she was employing herself in counting the windows. her mind was paralysed by the blow, and she knew not how to make any exertion with it for any purpose. everything was changed with her,--and was changed in such a way that she could make no guess as to her future mode of life. she was suddenly a widow, a pauper, and utterly desolate,--while the only person in the whole world that she really liked was standing close to her. but in the midst of it all she counted the windows of the house opposite. had it been possible for her she would have put her mind altogether to sleep. he let her stand for a few minutes and then joined her at the window. "my friend," he said, "what shall i do for you?" "do?" she said. "what do you mean by--doing?" "come and sit down and let me talk to you," he replied. then he led her to the sofa, and as she seated herself i doubt whether she had not almost forgotten that her husband was dead. "what a pity it was to cut it up," she said, pointing to the rags of jael and sisera. "never mind the picture now. dreadful as it is, you must allow yourself to think of him for a few minutes." "think of what! o god! yes. conway, you must tell me what to do. was everything gone? it isn't about myself. i don't mind about myself. i wish it was me instead of him. i do. i do." "no wishing is of any avail." "but, conway, how did it happen? do you think it is true? that man would say anything to gain his object. is he here now?" "i believe he is here still." "i won't see him. remember that. nothing on earth shall make me see him." "it may be necessary, but i do not think it will be;--at any rate not yet." "i will never see him. i believe that he has murdered my husband. i do. i feel sure of it. now i think of it i am quite sure of it. and he will murder you too;--about that girl. he will. i tell you i know the man." dalrymple simply shook his head, smiling sadly. "very well! you will see. but, conway, how do you know that it is true? do you believe it yourself?" "i do believe it." "and how did it happen?" "he could not bear the ruin that he had brought upon himself and you." "then;--then--" she went no further in her speech; but dalrymple assented by a slight motion of his head, and she had been informed sufficiently that her husband had perished by his own hand. "what am i to do?" she said. "oh, conway;--you must tell me. was there ever so miserable a woman! was it--poison?" he got up and walked quickly across the room and back again to the place where she was sitting. "never mind about that now. you shall know all that in time. do not ask any questions about that. if i were you i think i would go to bed. you will be better there than up, and this shock will make you sleep." "no," she said. "i will not go to bed. how should i know that that man would not come to me and kill me? i believe he murdered dobbs;--i do. you are not going to leave me, conway?" "i think i had better, for a while. there are things which should be done. shall i send one of the women to you?" "there is not one of them that cares for me in the least. oh, conway, do not go; not yet. i will not be left alone in the house with him. you will be very cruel if you go and leave me now,--when you have so often said that you,--that you,--that you were my friend." and now, at last, she began to weep. "i think it will be best," he said, "that i should go to mrs. van siever. if i can manage it i will get clara to come to you." "i do not want her," said mrs. broughton. "she is a heartless cold creature, and i do not want to have her near me. my poor husband was ruined among them;--yes, ruined among them. it has all been done that she may marry that horrid man and live here in this house. i have known ever so long that he has not been safe among them." "you need fear nothing from clara," said dalrymple, with some touch of anger in his voice. "of course you will say so. i can understand that very well. and it is natural that you should wish to be with her. pray go." then he sat beside her, and took her hand, and endeavoured to speak to her so seriously, that she herself might become serious, and if it might be possible, in some degree contemplative. he told her how necessary it was that she should have some woman near her in her trouble, and explained to her that as far as he knew her female friends, there would be no one who would be so considerate with her as clara van siever. she at one time mentioned the name of miss demolines; but dalrymple altogether opposed the notion of sending for that lady,--expressing his opinion that the amiable madalina had done all in her power to create quarrels both between mrs. broughton and her husband and between dobbs broughton and mrs. van siever. and he spoke his opinion very fully about miss demolines. "and yet you liked her once," said mrs. broughton. "i never liked her," said dalrymple with energy. "but all that matters nothing now. of course you can send for her if you please; but i do not think her trustworthy, and i will not willingly come in contact with her." then mrs. broughton gave him to understand that of course she must give way, but that in giving way she felt herself to be submitting to that ill-usage which is the ordinary lot of women, and to which she, among women, had been specially subjected. she did not exactly say as much, fearing that if she did he would leave her altogether; but that was the gist of her plaints and wails, and final acquiescence. "and you are going?" she said, catching hold of his arm. "i will employ myself altogether and only about your affairs, till i see you again." "but i want you to stay." "it would be madness. look here;--lie down till clara comes or till i return. do not go beyond this room and your own. if she cannot come this evening i will return. good-by now. i will see the servants as i go out, and tell them what ought to be told." "oh, conway," she said, clutching hold of him again, "i know that you despise me." "i do not despise you, and i will be as good a friend to you as i can. god bless you." then he went, and as he descended the stairs he could not refrain from telling himself that he did in truth despise her. his first object was to find musselboro, and to dismiss that gentleman from the house. for though he himself did not attribute to mrs. van siever's favourite any of those terrible crimes and potentialities for crime, with which mrs. dobbs broughton had invested him, still he thought it reasonable that the poor woman upstairs should not be subjected to the necessity of either seeing him or hearing him. but musselboro had gone, and dalrymple could not learn from the head woman-servant whom he saw, whether before going he had told to any one in the house the tale of the catastrophe which had happened in the city. servants are wonderful actors, looking often as though they knew nothing when they know everything,--as though they understood nothing, when they understand all. dalrymple made known all that was necessary, and the discreet upper servant listened to the tale with a proper amount of awe and horror and commiseration. "shot hisself in the city;--laws! you'll excuse me, sir, but we all know'd as master was coming to no good." but she promised to do her best with her mistress,--and kept her promise. it is seldom that servants are not good in such straits as that. from mrs. broughton's house dalrymple went directly to mrs. van siever's, and learned that musselboro had been there about half an hour before, and had then gone off in a cab with mrs. van siever. it was now nearly four o'clock in the afternoon, and no one in the house knew when mrs. van siever would be back. miss van siever was out, and had been out when mr. musselboro had called, but was expected in every minute. conway therefore said that he would call again, and on returning found clara alone. she had not then heard a word of the fate of dobbs broughton. of course she would go at once to mrs. broughton, and if necessary stay with her during the night. she wrote a line at once to her mother, saying where she was, and went across to mrs. broughton leaning on dalrymple's arm. "be good to her," said conway, as he left her at the door. "i will," said clara. "i will be as kind as my nature will allow me." "and remember," said conway, whispering into her ear as he pressed her hand at leaving her, "that you are all the world to me." it was perhaps not a proper time for an expression of love, but clara van siever forgave the impropriety. chapter lxv. miss van siever makes her choice. clara van siever did stay all that night with mrs. broughton. in the course of the evening she received a note from her mother, in which she was told to come home to breakfast. "you can go back to her afterwards," said mrs. van siever; "and i will see her myself in the course of the day, if she will let me." the note was written on a scrap of paper, and had neither beginning nor end; but this was after the manner of mrs. van siever, and clara was not in the least hurt or surprised. "my mother will come to see you after breakfast," said clara, as she was taking her leave. "oh, goodness! and what shall i say to her?" "you will have to say very little. she will speak to you." "i suppose everything belongs to her now," said mrs. broughton. "i know nothing about that. i never do know anything of mamma's money matters." "of course she'll turn me out. i do not mind a bit about that,--only i hope she'll let me have some mourning." then she made clara promise that she would return as soon as possible, having in clara's presence overcome all that feeling of dislike which she had expressed to conway dalrymple. mrs. broughton was generally affectionate to those who were near to her. had musselboro forced himself into her presence, she would have become quite confidential with him before he left her. "mr. musselboro will be here directly," said mrs. van siever, as she was starting for mrs. broughton's house. "you had better tell him to come to me there; or, stop,--perhaps you had better keep him here till i come back. tell him to be sure and wait for me." "very well, mamma. i suppose he can wait below?" "why should he wait below?" said mrs. van siever, very angrily. clara had made the uncourteous proposition to her mother with the express intention of making it understood that she would have nothing to say to him. "he can come upstairs if he likes it," said clara; "and i will go up to my room." "if you fight shy of him, miss, you may remember this,--that you will fight shy of me at the same time." "i am sorry for that, mamma, for i shall certainly fight shy of mr. musselboro." "you can do as you please. i can't force you, and i shan't try. but i can make your life a burden to you,--and i will. what's the matter with the man that he isn't good enough for you? he's as good as any of your own people ever was. i hate your new-fangled airs,--with pictures painted on the sly, and all the rest of it. i hate such ways. see what they have brought that wretched man to, and the poor fool his wife. if you go and marry that painter, some of these days you'll be very much like what she is. only i doubt whether he has got courage enough to blow his brains out." with these comfortable words, the old woman took herself off, leaving clara to entertain her lover as best she might choose. mr. musselboro was not long in coming, and, in accordance with mrs. van siever's implied directions to her daughter, was shown up into the drawing-room. clara gave him her mother's message in a very few words. "i was expressly told, sir, to ask you to stop, if it is not inconvenient, as she very much wants to see you." mr. musselboro declared that of course he would stop. he was only too happy to have an opportunity of remaining in such delightful society. as clara answered nothing to this, he went on to say that he hoped that the melancholy occasion of mrs. van siever's visit to mrs. broughton might make a long absence necessary,--he did not, indeed, care how long it might be. he had recovered now from that paleness, and that want of gloves and jewellery which had befallen him on the previous day immediately after the sight he had seen in the city. clara made no answer to the last speech, but, putting some things together in her work-basket, prepared to leave the room. "i hope you are not going to leave me?" he said, in a voice that was intended to convey much of love, and something of melancholy. "i am so shocked by what has happened, mr. musselboro, that i am altogether unfit for conversation. i was with poor mrs. broughton last night, and i shall return to her when mamma comes home." "it is sad, certainly; but what was there to be expected? if you'd only seen how he used to go on." to this clara made no answer. "don't go yet," said he; "there is something that i want to say to you. there is, indeed." clara van siever was a young woman whose presence of mind rarely deserted her. it occurred to her now that she must undergo on some occasion the nuisance of a direct offer from this man, and that she could have no better opportunity of answering him after her own fashion than the present. her mother was absent, and the field was her own. and, moreover, it was a point in her favour that the tragedy which had so lately occurred, and to which she had just now alluded, would give her a fair excuse for additional severity. at such a moment no man could, she told herself, be justified in making an offer of his love, and therefore she might rebuke him with the less remorse. i wonder whether the last words which conway dalrymple had spoken to her stung her conscience as she thought of this! she had now reached the door, and was standing close to it. as mr. musselboro did not at once begin, she encouraged him. "if you have anything special to tell me, of course i will hear you," she said. "miss clara," he began, rising from his chair, and coming into the middle of the room, "i think you know what my wishes are." then he put his hand upon his heart. "and your respected mother is the same way of thinking. it's that that emboldens me to be so sudden. not but what my heart has been yours and yours only all along, before the old lady so much as mentioned it." clara would give him no assistance, not even the aid of a negative, but stood there quite passive, with her hand on the door. "since i first had the pleasure of seeing you i have always said to myself, 'augustus musselboro, that is the woman for you, if you can only win her.' but then there was so much against me,--wasn't there?" she would not even take advantage of this by assuring him that there certainly always had been much against him, but allowed him to go on till he should run out all the length of his tether. "i mean, of course, in the way of money," he continued. "i hadn't much that i could call my own when your respected mamma first allowed me to become acquainted with you. but it's different now; and i think i may say that i'm all right in that respect. poor broughton's going in this way will make it a deal smoother to me; and i may say that i and your mamma will be all in all to each other now about money." then he stopped. "i don't quite understand what you mean by all this," said clara. "i mean that there isn't a more devoted fellow in all london than what i am to you." then he was about to go down on one knee, but it occurred to him that it would not be convenient to kneel to a lady who would stand quite close to the door. "one and one, if they're put together well, will often make more than two, and so they shall with us," said musselboro, who began to feel that it might be expedient to throw a little spirit into his words. "if you have done," said clara, "you may as well hear me for a minute. and i hope you will have sense to understand that i really mean what i say." "i hope you will remember what are your mamma's wishes." "mamma's wishes have no influence whatsoever with me in such matters as this. mamma's arrangements with you are for her own convenience, and i am not a party to them. i do not know anything about mamma's money, and i do not want to know. but under no possible circumstances will i consent to become your wife. nothing that mamma could say or do would induce me even to think of it. i hope you will be man enough to take this for an answer, and say nothing more about it." "but, miss clara--" "it's no good your miss claraing me, sir. what i have said you may be sure i mean. good-morning, sir." then she opened the door, and left him. "by jove, she is a tartar," said musselboro to himself, when he was alone. "they're both tartars, but the younger is the worse." then he began to speculate whether fortune was not doing the best for him in so arranging that he might have the use of the tartar-mother's money without binding himself to endure for life the tartar qualities of the daughter. it had been understood that clara was to wait at home till her mother should return before she again went across to mrs. broughton. at about eleven mrs. van siever came in, and her daughter intercepted her at the dining-room door before she had made her way upstairs to mr. musselboro. "how is she, mamma?" said clara with something of hypocrisy in her assumed interest for mrs. broughton. "she is an idiot," said mrs. van siever. "she has had a terrible misfortune!" "that is no reason why she should be an idiot; and she is heartless too. she never cared a bit for him;--not a bit." "he was a man whom it was impossible to care for much. i will go to her now, mamma." "where is musselboro?" "he is upstairs." "well?" "mamma, that is quite out of the question. quite. i would not marry him to save myself from starving." "you do not know what starving is yet, my dear. tell me the truth at once. are you engaged to that painter?" clara paused a moment before she answered, not hesitating as to the expediency of telling her mother any truth on the matter in question, but doubting what the truth might really be. could she say that she was engaged to mr. dalrymple, or could she say that she was not? "if you tell me a lie, miss, i'll have you put out of the house." [illustration: "you do not know what starving is, my dear."] "i certainly shall not tell you a lie. mr. dalrymple has asked me to be his wife, and i have made him no answer. if he asks me again i shall accept him." "then i order you not to leave this house," said mrs. van siever. "surely i may go to mrs. broughton?" "i order you not to leave this house," said mrs. van siever again,--and thereupon she stalked out of the dining-room and went upstairs. clara had been standing with her bonnet on, ready dressed to go out, and the mother made no attempt to send the daughter up to her room. that she did not expect to be obeyed in her order may be inferred from the first words which she spoke to mr. musselboro. "she has gone off to that man now. you are no good, musselboro, at this kind of work." "you see, mrs. van, he had the start of me so much. and then being at the west end, and all that, gives a man such a standing with a girl!" "bother!" said mrs. van siever, as her quick ear caught the sound of the closing hall-door. clara had stood a minute or two to consider, and then had resolved that she would disobey her mother. she tried to excuse her own conduct to her own satisfaction as she went. "there are some things," she said, "which even a daughter cannot hear from her mother. if she chooses to close the door against me, she must do so." she found mrs. broughton still in bed, and could not but agree with her mother that the woman was both silly and heartless. "your mother says that everything must be sold up," said mrs. broughton. "at any rate you would hardly choose to remain here," said clara. "but i hope she'll let me have my own things. a great many of them are altogether my own. i know there's a law that a woman may have her own things, even though her husband has,--done what poor dobbs did. and i think she was hard upon me about the mourning. they never do mind giving credit for such things as that, and though there is a bill due to mrs. morell now, she has had a deal of dobbs's money." clara promised her that she should have mourning to her heart's content. "i will see to that myself," she said. presently there was a knock at the door, and the discreet head-servant beckoned clara out of the room. "you are not going away," said mrs. broughton. clara promised her that she would not go without coming back again. "he will be here soon, i suppose, and perhaps you had better see him; though, for the matter of that, perhaps you had better not, because he is so much cut up about poor dobbs." the servant had come up to tell clara that the "he" in question was at the present moment waiting for her below stairs. the first words which passed between dalrymple and clara had reference to the widow. he told her what he had learned in the city,--that broughton's property had never been great, and that his personal liabilities at the time of his death were supposed to be small. but he had fallen lately altogether into the hands of musselboro, who, though penniless himself in the way of capital, was backed by the money of mrs. van siever. there was no doubt that broughton had destroyed himself in the manner told by musselboro, but the opinion in the city was that he had done so rather through the effects of drink than because of his losses. as to the widow, dalrymple thought that mrs. van siever, or nominally, perhaps, musselboro, might be induced to settle an annuity on her, if she would give up everything quietly. "i doubt whether your mother is not responsible for everything broughton owed when he died,--for everything, that is, in the way of business; and if so, mrs. broughton will certainly have a claim upon the estate." it occurred to dalrymple once or twice that he was talking to clara about mrs. van siever as though he and clara were more closely bound together than were clara and her mother; but clara seemed to take this in good part, and was as solicitous as was he himself in the matter of mrs. broughton's interest. then the discreet head-servant knocked and told them that mrs. broughton was very anxious to see mr. dalrymple, but that miss van siever was on no account to go away. she was up, and in her dressing-gown, and had gone into the sitting-room. "i will come directly," said dalrymple, and the discreet head-servant retired. "clara," said conway, "i do not know when i may have another chance of asking for an answer to my question. you heard my question?" "yes, i heard it." "and will you answer it?" "if you wish it, i will." "of course i wish it. you understood what i said upon the doorstep yesterday?" "i don't think much of that; men say those things so often. what you said before was serious, i suppose?" "serious! heavens! do you think that i am joking?" "mamma wants me to marry mr. musselboro." "he is a vulgar brute. it would be impossible." "it is impossible; but mamma is very obstinate. i have no fortune of my own,--not a shilling. she told me to-day that she would turn me into the street. she forbade me to come here, thinking i should meet you; but i came, because i had promised mrs. broughton. i am sure that she will never give me one shilling." dalrymple paused for a moment. it was certainly true that he had regarded clara van siever as an heiress, and had at first been attracted to her because he thought it expedient to marry an heiress. but there had since come something beyond that, and there was perhaps less of regret than most men would have felt as he gave up his golden hopes. he took her into his arms and kissed her, and called her his own. "now we understand each other," he said. "if you wish it to be so." "i do wish it." "and i shall tell my mother to-day that i am engaged to you,--unless she refuses to see me. go to mrs. broughton now. i feel that we are almost cruel to be thinking of ourselves in this house at such a time." upon this dalrymple went, and clara van siever was left to her reflections. she had never before had a lover. she had never had even a friend whom she loved and trusted. her life had been passed at school till she was nearly twenty, and since then she had been vainly endeavouring to accommodate herself and her feelings to her mother. now she was about to throw herself into the absolute power of a man who was nearly a stranger to her! but she did love him, as she had never loved any one else;--and then, on the other side, there was mr. musselboro! dalrymple was upstairs for an hour, and clara did not see him again before he left the house. it was clear to her, from mrs. broughton's first words, that conway had told her what had passed. "of course i shall never see anything more of either of you now?" said mrs. broughton. "i should say that probably you will see a great deal of us both." "there are some people," said mrs. broughton, "who can do well for their friends, but can never do well for themselves. i am one of them. i saw at once how great a thing it would be for both of you to bring you two together,--especially for you, clara; and therefore i did it. i may say that i never had it out of my mind for months past. poor dobbs misunderstood what i was doing. god knows how far that may have brought about what has happened." "oh, mrs. broughton!" "of course he could not be blind to one thing;--nor was i. i mention it now because it is right, but i shall never, never allude to it again. of course he saw, and i saw, that conway--was attached to me. poor conway meant no harm. i was aware of that. but there was the terrible fact. i knew at once that the only cure for him was a marriage with some girl that he could respect. admiring you as i do, i immediately resolved on bringing you two together. my dear, i have been successful, and i heartily trust that you may be happier than maria broughton." miss van siever knew the woman, understood all the facts, and pitying the condition of the wretched creature, bore all this without a word of rebuke. she scorned to put out her strength against one who was in truth so weak. chapter lxvi. requiescat in pace. things were very gloomy at the palace. it has been already said that for many days after dr. tempest's visit to barchester the intercourse between the bishop and mrs. proudie had not been of a pleasant nature. he had become so silent, so sullen, and so solitary in his ways, that even her courage had been almost cowed, and for a while she had condescended to use gentler measures, with the hope that she might thus bring her lord round to his usual state of active submission; or perhaps, if we strive to do her full justice, we may say of her that her effort was made conscientiously, with the idea of inducing him to do his duty with proper activity. for she was a woman not without a conscience, and by no means indifferent to the real service which her husband, as bishop of the diocese, was bound to render to the affairs of the church around her. of her own struggles after personal dominion she was herself unconscious; and no doubt they gave her, when recognized and acknowledged by herself, many stabs to her inner self, of which no single being in the world knew anything. and now, as after a while she failed in producing any amelioration in the bishop's mood, her temper also gave way, and things were becoming very gloomy and very unpleasant. the bishop and his wife were at present alone in the palace. their married daughter and her husband had left them, and their unmarried daughter was also away. how far the bishop's mood may have produced this solitude in the vast house i will not say. probably mrs. proudie's state of mind may have prevented her from having other guests in the place of those who were gone. she felt herself to be almost disgraced in the eyes of all those around her by her husband's long absence from the common rooms of the house and by his dogged silence at meals. it was better, she thought, that they two should be alone in the palace. her own efforts to bring him back to something like life, to some activity of mind if not of body, were made constantly; and when she failed, as she did fail day after day, she would go slowly to her own room, and lock her door, and look back in her solitude at all the days of her life. she had agonies in these minutes of which no one near her knew anything. she would seize with her arm the part of the bed near which she would stand, and hold by it, grasping it, as though she were afraid to fall; and then, when it was at the worst with her, she would go to her closet,--a closet that no eyes ever saw unlocked but her own,--and fill for herself and swallow some draught; and then she would sit down with the bible before her, and read it sedulously. she spent hours every day with her bible before her, repeating to herself whole chapters, which she almost knew by heart. it cannot be said that she was a bad woman, though she had in her time done an indescribable amount of evil. she had endeavoured to do good, failing partly by ignorance and partly from the effects of an unbridled, ambitious temper. and now, even amidst her keenest sufferings, her ambition was by no means dead. she still longed to rule the diocese by means of her husband,--but was made to pause and hesitate by the unwonted mood that had fallen upon him. before this, on more than one occasion, and on one very memorable occasion, he had endeavoured to combat her. he had fought with her, striving to put her down. he had failed, and given up the hope of any escape for himself in that direction. on those occasions her courage had never quailed for a moment. while he openly struggled to be master, she could openly struggle to be mistress,--and could enjoy the struggle. but nothing like this moodiness had ever come upon him before. she had yielded to it for many days, striving to coax him by little softnesses of which she herself had been ashamed as she practised them. they had served her nothing, and at last she determined that something else must be done. if only for his sake, to keep some life in him, something else must be done. were he to continue as he was now, he must give up his diocese, or, at any rate, declare himself too ill to keep the working of it in his own hands. how she hated mr. crawley for all the sorrow that he had brought upon her and her house! and it was still the affair of mr. crawley which urged her on to further action. when the bishop received mr. crawley's letter he said nothing of it to her; but he handed it over to his chaplain. the chaplain, fearing to act upon it himself, handed it to mr. thumble, whom he knew to be one of the bishop's commission, and mr. thumble, equally fearing responsibility in the present state of affairs at the palace, found himself obliged to consult mrs. proudie. mrs. proudie had no doubt as to what should be done. the man had abdicated his living, and of course some provision must be made for the services. she would again make an attempt upon her husband, and therefore she went into his room holding mr. crawley's letter in her hand. "my dear," she said, "here is mr. crawley's letter. i suppose you have read it?" "yes," said the bishop; "i have read it." "and what will you do about it? something must be done." "i don't know," said he. he did not even look at her as he spoke. he had not turned his eyes upon her since she had entered the room. "but, bishop, it is a letter that requires to be acted upon at once. we cannot doubt that the man is doing right at last. he is submitting himself where his submission is due; but his submission will be of no avail unless you take some action upon his letter. do you not think that mr. thumble had better go over?" "no, i don't. i think mr. thumble had better stay where he is," said the irritated bishop. "what, then, would you wish to have done?" "never mind," said he. "but, bishop, that is nonsense," said mrs. proudie, adding something of severity to the tone of her voice. "no, it isn't nonsense," said he. still he did not look at her, nor had he done so for a moment since she had entered the room. mrs. proudie could not bear this, and as her anger became strong within her breast, she told herself that she would be wrong to bear it. she had tried what gentleness would do, and she had failed. it was now imperatively necessary that she should resort to sterner measures. she must make him understand that he must give her authority to send mr. thumble to hogglestock. "why do you not turn round and speak to me properly?" she said. "i do not want to speak to you at all," the bishop answered. this was very bad;--almost anything would be better than this. he was sitting now over the fire, with his elbows on his knees, and his face buried in his hands. she had gone round the room so as to face him, and was now standing almost over him, but still she could not see his countenance. "this will not do at all," she said. "my dear, do you know that you are forgetting yourself altogether?" "i wish i could forget myself." "that might be all very well if you were in a position in which you owed no service to any one; or, rather, it would not be well then, but the evil would not be so manifest. you cannot do your duty in the diocese if you continue to sit there doing nothing, with your head upon your hands. why do you not rally, and get to your work like a man?" "i wish you would go away and leave me," he said. "no, bishop, i will not go away and leave you. you have brought yourself to such a condition that it is my duty as your wife to stay by you; and if you neglect your duty, i will not neglect mine." "it was you that brought me to it." "no, sir, that is not true. i did not bring you to it." "it is the truth." and now he got up and looked at her. for a moment he stood upon his legs, and then again he sat down with his face turned towards her. "it is the truth. you have brought on me such disgrace that i cannot hold up my head. you have ruined me. i wish i were dead; and it is all through you that i am driven to wish it." of all that she had suffered in her life this was the worst. she clasped both her hands to her side as she listened to him, and for a minute or two she made no reply. when he ceased from speaking he again put his elbows on his knees and again buried his face in his hands. what had she better do, or how was it expedient that she should treat him? at this crisis the whole thing was so important to her that she would have postponed her own ambition and would have curbed her temper had she thought that by doing so she might in any degree have benefited him. but it seemed to her that she could not rouse him by conciliation. neither could she leave him as he was. something must be done. "bishop," she said, "the words that you speak are sinful, very sinful." "you have made them sinful," he replied. "i will not hear that from you. i will not indeed. i have endeavoured to do my duty by you, and i do not deserve it. i am endeavouring to do my duty now, and you must know that it would ill become me to remain quiescent while you are in such a state. the world around you is observing you, and knows that you are not doing your work. all i want of you is that you should arouse yourself, and go to your work." "i could do my work very well," he said, "if you were not here." "i suppose, then, you wish that i were dead?" said mrs. proudie. to this he made no reply, nor did he stir himself. how could flesh and blood bear this,--female flesh and blood,--mrs. proudie's flesh and blood? now, at last, her temper once more got the better of her judgment, probably much to her immediate satisfaction, and she spoke out. "i'll tell you what it is, my lord; if you are imbecile, i must be active. it is very sad that i should have to assume your authority--" "i will not allow you to assume my authority." "i must do so, or must else obtain a medical certificate as to your incapacity, and beg that some neighbouring bishop may administer the diocese. things shall not go on as they are now. i, at any rate, will do my duty. i shall tell mr. thumble that he must go over to hogglestock, and arrange for the duties of the parish." "i desire that you will do no such thing," said the bishop, now again looking up at her. "you may be sure that i shall," said mrs. proudie, and then she left the room. he did not even yet suppose that she would go about this work at once. the condition of his mind was in truth bad, and was becoming worse, probably, from day to day; but still he did make his calculations about things, and now reflected that it would be sufficient if he spoke to his chaplain to-morrow about mr. crawley's letter. since the terrible scene that dr. tempest had witnessed, he had never been able to make up his mind as to what great step he would take, but he had made up his mind that some great step was necessary. there were moments in which he thought that he would resign his bishopric. for such resignation, without acknowledged incompetence on the score of infirmity, the precedents were very few; but even if there were no precedents, it would be better to do that than to remain where he was. of course there would be disgrace. but then it would be disgrace from which he could hide himself. now there was equal disgrace; and he could not hide himself. and then such a measure as that would bring punishment where punishment was due. it would bring his wife to the ground,--her who had brought him to the ground. the suffering should not be all his own. when she found that her income, and her palace, and her position were all gone, then perhaps she might repent the evil that she had done him. now, when he was left alone, his mind went back to this, and he did not think of taking immediate measures,--measures on that very day,--to prevent the action of mr. thumble. but mrs. proudie did take immediate steps. mr. thumble was at this moment in the palace waiting for instructions. it was he who had brought mr. crawley's letter to mrs. proudie, and she now returned to him with that letter in her hand. the reader will know what was the result. mr. thumble was sent off to hogglestock at once on the bishop's old cob, and,--as will be remembered,--fell into trouble on the road. late in the afternoon he entered the palace yard, having led the cob by the bridle the whole way home from hogglestock. some hour or two before mr. thumble's return mrs. proudie returned to her husband, thinking it better to let him know what she had done. she resolved to be very firm with him, but at the same time she determined not to use harsh language if it could be avoided. "my dear," she said, "i have arranged with mr. thumble." she found him on this occasion sitting at his desk with papers before him, with a pen in his hand; and she could see at a glance that nothing had been written on the paper. what would she have thought had she known that when he placed the sheet before him he was proposing to consult the archbishop as to the propriety of his resignation! he had not, however, progressed so far as to write even the date of his letter. "you have done what?" said he, throwing down the pen. "i have arranged with mr. thumble as to going out to hogglestock," said she firmly. "indeed he has gone already." then the bishop jumped up from his seat, and rang the bell with violence. "what are you going to do?" said mrs. proudie. "i am going to depart from here," said he. "i will not stay here to be the mark of scorn for all men's fingers. i will resign the diocese." "you cannot do that," said his wife. "i can try, at any rate," said he. then the servant entered. "john," said he, addressing the man, "let mr. thumble know the moment he returns to the palace that i wish to see him here. perhaps he may not come to the palace. in that case let word be sent to his house." mrs. proudie allowed the man to go before she addressed her husband again. "what do you mean to say to mr. thumble when you see him?" "that is nothing to you." she came up to him and put her hand upon his shoulder, and spoke to him very gently. "tom," she said, "is that the way in which you speak to your wife?" "yes, it is. you have driven me to it. why have you taken upon yourself to send that man to hogglestock?" "because it was right to do so. i came to you for instructions, and you would give none." "i should have given what instructions i pleased in proper time. thumble shall not go to hogglestock next sunday." "who shall go, then?" "never mind. nobody. it does not matter to you. if you will leave me now i shall be obliged to you. there will be an end of all this very soon,--very soon." mrs. proudie after this stood for a while thinking what she would say; but she left the room without uttering another word. as she looked at him a hundred different thoughts came into her mind. she had loved him dearly, and she loved him still; but she knew now,--at this moment felt absolutely sure,--that by him she was hated! in spite of all her roughness and temper, mrs. proudie was in this like other women,--that she would fain have been loved had it been possible. she had always meant to serve him. she was conscious of that; conscious also in a way that, although she had been industrious, although she had been faithful, although she was clever, yet she had failed. at the bottom of her heart she knew that she had been a bad wife. and yet she had meant to be a pattern wife! she had meant to be a good christian; but she had so exercised her christianity that not a soul in the world loved her, or would endure her presence if it could be avoided! she had sufficient insight to the minds and feelings of those around her to be aware of this. and now her husband had told her that her tyranny to him was so overbearing that he must throw up his great position, and retire to an obscurity that would be exceptionally disgraceful to them both, because he could no longer endure the public disgrace which her conduct brought upon him in his high place before the world! her heart was too full for speech; and she left him, very quietly closing the door behind her. she was preparing to go up to her chamber, with her hand on the banisters and with her foot on the stairs, when she saw the servant who had answered the bishop's bell. "john," she said, "when mr. thumble comes to the palace, let me see him before he goes to my lord." "yes, ma'am," said john, who well understood the nature of these quarrels between his master and his mistress. but the commands of the mistress were still paramount among the servants, and john proceeded on his mission with the view of accomplishing mrs. proudie's behests. then mrs. proudie went upstairs to her chamber, and locked her door. mr. thumble returned to barchester that day, leading the broken-down cob; and a dreadful walk he had. he was not good at walking, and before he came near barchester had come to entertain a violent hatred for the beast he was leading. the leading of a horse that is tired, or in pain, or lame, or even stiff in his limbs, is not pleasant work. the brute will not accommodate his paces to the man, and will contrive to make his head very heavy on the bridle. and he will not walk on the part of the road which the man intends for him, but will lean against the man, and will make himself altogether very disagreeable. it may be understood, therefore, that mr. thumble was not in a good humour when he entered the palace yard. nor was he altogether quiet in his mind as to the injury which he had done to the animal. "it was the brute's fault," said mr. thumble. "it comes generally of not knowing how to ride 'em," said the groom. for mr. thumble, though he often had a horse out of the episcopal stables, was not ready with his shillings to the man who waited upon him with the steed. he had not, however, come to any satisfactory understanding respecting the broken knees when the footman from the palace told him he was wanted. it was in vain that mr. thumble pleaded that he was nearly dead with fatigue, that he had walked all the way from hogglestock and must go home to change his clothes. john was peremptory with him, insisting that he must wait first upon mrs. proudie and then upon the bishop. mr. thumble might perhaps have turned a deaf ear to the latter command, but the former was one which he felt himself bound to obey. so he entered the palace, rather cross, very much soiled as to his outer man; and in this condition went up a certain small staircase which was familiar to him, to a small parlour which adjoined mrs. proudie's room, and there awaited the arrival of the lady. that he should be required to wait some quarter of an hour was not surprising to him; but when half an hour was gone, and he remembered himself of his own wife at home, and of the dinner which he had not yet eaten, he ventured to ring the bell. mrs. proudie's own maid, mrs. draper by name, came to him and said that she had knocked twice at mrs. proudie's door and would knock again. two minutes after that she returned, running into the room with her arms extended, and exclaiming, "oh, heavens, sir; mistress is dead!" mr. thumble, hardly knowing what he was about, followed the woman into the bedroom, and there he found himself standing awestruck before the corpse of her who had so lately been the presiding spirit of the palace. the body was still resting on its legs, leaning against the end of the side of the bed, while one of the arms was close clasped round the bed-post. the mouth was rigidly closed, but the eyes were open as though staring at him. nevertheless there could be no doubt from the first glance that the woman was dead. he went up close to it, but did not dare to touch it. there was no one as yet there but he and mrs. draper;--no one else knew what had happened. "it's her heart," said mrs. draper. "did she suffer from heart complaint?" he asked. "we suspected it, sir, though nobody knew it. she was very shy of talking about herself." "we must send for the doctor at once," said mr. thumble. "we had better touch nothing till he is here." then they retreated and the door was locked. in ten minutes everybody in the house knew it except the bishop; and in twenty minutes the nearest apothecary with his assistant were in the room, and the body had been properly laid upon the bed. even then the husband had not been told,--did not know either his relief or his loss. it was now past seven, which was the usual hour for dinner at the palace, and it was probable that he would come out of his room among the servants, if he were not summoned. when it was proposed to mr. thumble that he should go in to him and tell him, he positively declined, saying that the sight which he had just seen and the exertions of the day together, had so unnerved him, that he had not physical strength for the task. the apothecary, who had been summoned in a hurry, had escaped, probably being equally unwilling to be the bearer of such a communication. the duty therefore fell to mrs. draper, and under the pressing instance of the other servants she descended to her master's room. had it not been that the hour of dinner had come, so that the bishop could not have been left much longer to himself, the evil time would have been still postponed. she went very slowly along the passage, and was just going to pause ere she reached the room, when the door was opened and the bishop stood close before her. it was easy to be seen that he was cross. his hands and face were unwashed and his face was haggard. in these days he would not even go through the ceremony of dressing himself before dinner. "mrs. draper," he said, "why don't they tell me that dinner is ready? are they going to give me any dinner?" she stood a moment without answering him, while the tears streamed down her face. "what is the matter?" said he. "has your mistress sent you here?" "oh, laws!" said mrs. draper,--and she put out her hands to support him if such support should be necessary. "what is the matter?" he demanded angrily. "oh, my lord;--bear it like a christian. mistress isn't no more." he leaned back against the door-post, and she took hold of him by the arm. "it was the heart, my lord. dr. filgrave hisself has not been yet; but that's what it was." the bishop did not say a word, but walked back to his chair before the fire. chapter lxvii. in memoriam. [illustration] the bishop when he had heard the tidings of his wife's death walked back to his seat over the fire, and mrs. draper, the housekeeper, came and stood over him without speaking. thus she stood for ten minutes looking down at him and listening. but there was no sound; not a word, nor a moan, nor a sob. it was as though he also were dead, but that a slight irregular movement of his fingers on the top of his bald head, told her that his mind and body were still active. "my lord," she said at last, "would you wish to see the doctor when he comes?" she spoke very low and he did not answer her. then, after another minute of silence, she asked the same question again. "what doctor?" he said. "dr. filgrave. we sent for him. perhaps he is here now. shall i go and see, my lord?" mrs. draper found that her position there was weary and she wished to escape. anything on his behalf requiring trouble or work she would have done willingly; but she could not stand there for ever watching the motion of his fingers. "i suppose i must see him," said the bishop. mrs. draper took this as an order for her departure and crept silently out of the room, closing the door behind her with the long protracted elaborate click which is always produced by an attempt at silence on such occasions. he did not care for noise or for silence. had she slammed the door he would not have regarded it. a wonderful silence had come upon him which for the time almost crushed him. he would never hear that well-known voice again! he was free now. even in his misery,--for he was very miserable,--he could not refrain from telling himself that. no one could now press uncalled-for into his study, contradict him in the presence of those before whom he was bound to be authoritative, and rob him of all his dignity. there was no one else of whom he was afraid. she had at least kept him out of the hands of other tyrants. he was now his own master, and there was a feeling,--i may not call it of relief, for as yet there was more of pain in it than of satisfaction,--a feeling as though he had escaped from an old trouble at a terrible cost of which he could not as yet calculate the amount. he knew that he might now give up all idea of writing to the archbishop. she had in some ways, and at certain periods of his life, been very good to him. she had kept his money for him and made things go straight, when they had been poor. his interests had always been her interests. without her he would never have been a bishop. so, at least, he told himself now, and so told himself probably with truth. she had been very careful of his children. she had never been idle. she had never been fond of pleasure. she had neglected no acknowledged duty. he did not doubt that she was now on her way to heaven. he took his hands down from his head, and clasping them together, said a little prayer. it may be doubted whether he quite knew for what he was praying. the idea of praying for her soul, now that she was dead, would have scandalized him. he certainly was not praying for his own soul. i think he was praying that god might save him from being glad that his wife was dead. but she was dead;--and, as it were, in a moment! he had not stirred out of that room since she had been there with him. then there had been angry words between them,--perhaps more determined enmity on his part than ever had before existed; and they had parted for the last time with bitter animosity. but he told himself that he had certainly been right in what he had done then. he thought he had been right then. and so his mind went back to the crawley and thumble question, and he tried to alleviate the misery which that last interview with his wife now created by assuring himself that he at least had been justified in what he had done. but yet his thoughts were very tender to her. nothing reopens the springs of love so fully as absence, and no absence so thoroughly as that which must needs be endless. we want that which we have not; and especially that which we can never have. she had told him in the very last moments of her presence with him that he was wishing that she were dead, and he had made her no reply. at the moment he had felt, with savage anger, that such was his wish. her words had now come to pass, and he was a widower,--and he assured himself that he would give all that he possessed in the world to bring her back again. yes, he was a widower, and he might do as he pleased. the tyrant was gone, and he was free. the tyrant was gone, and the tyranny had doubtless been very oppressive. who had suffered as he had done? but in thus being left without his tyrant he was wretchedly desolate. might it not be that the tyranny had been good for him?--that the lord had known best what wife was fit for him? then he thought of a story which he had read,--and had well marked as he was reading,--of some man who had been terribly afflicted by his wife, whose wife had starved him and beaten him and reviled him; and yet this man had been able to thank his god for having thus mortified him in the flesh. might it not be that the mortification which he himself had doubtless suffered in his flesh had been intended for his welfare, and had been very good for him? but if this were so, it might be that the mortification was now removed because the lord knew that his servant had been sufficiently mortified. he had not been starved or beaten, but the mortification had been certainly severe. then there came words--into his mind, not into his mouth--"the lord sent the thorn, and the lord has taken it away. blessed be the name of the lord." after that he was very angry with himself, and tried to pray that he might be forgiven. while he was so striving there came a low knock at the door, and mrs. draper again entered the room. "dr. filgrave, my lord, was not at home," said mrs. draper; "but he will be sent the very moment he arrives." "very well, mrs. draper." "but, my lord, will you not come to your dinner? a little soup, or a morsel of something to eat, and a glass of wine, will enable your lordship to bear it better." he allowed mrs. draper to persuade him, and followed her into the dining-room. "do not go, mrs. draper," he said; "i would rather that you should stay with me." so mrs. draper stayed with him, and administered to his wants. he was desirous of being seen by as few eyes as possible in these the first moments of his freedom. he saw dr. filgrave twice, both before and after the doctor had been upstairs. there was no doubt, dr. filgrave said, that it was as mrs. draper had surmised. the poor lady was suffering, and had for years been suffering, from heart-complaint. to her husband she had never said a word on the subject. to mrs. draper a word had been said now and again,--a word when some moment of fear would come, when some sharp stroke of agony would tell of danger. but mrs. draper had kept the secret of her mistress, and none of the family had known that there was aught to be feared. dr. filgrave, indeed, did tell the bishop that he had dreaded all along exactly that which had happened. he had said the same to mr. rerechild, the surgeon, when they two had had a consultation together at the palace on the occasion of a somewhat alarming birth of a grandchild. but he mixed up this information with so much medical latin, and was so pompous over it, and the bishop was so anxious to be rid of him, that his words did not have much effect. what did it all matter? the thorn was gone, and the wife was dead, and the widower must balance his gain and loss as best he might. he slept well, but when he woke in the morning the dreariness of his loneliness was very strong on him. he must do something, and must see somebody, but he felt that he did not know how to bear himself in his new position. he must send of course for his chaplain, and tell his chaplain to open all letters and to answer them for a week. then he remembered how many of his letters in days of yore had been opened and been answered by the helpmate who had just gone from him. since dr. tempest's visit he had insisted that the palace letter-bag should always be brought in the first instance to him;--and this had been done, greatly to the annoyance of his wife. in order that it might be done the bishop had been up every morning an hour before his usual time; and everybody in the household had known why it was so. he thought of this now as the bag was brought to him on the first morning of his freedom. he could have it where he pleased now;--either in his bedroom or left for him untouched on the breakfast-table till he should go to it. "blessed be the name of the lord," he said as he thought of all this; but he did not stop to analyse what he was saying. on this morning he would not enjoy his liberty, but desired that the letter-bag might be taken to mr. snapper, the chaplain. the news of mrs. proudie's death had spread all over barchester on the evening of its occurrence, and had been received with that feeling of distant awe which is always accompanied by some degree of pleasurable sensation. there was no one in barchester to lament a mother, or a sister, or a friend who was really loved. there were those, doubtless, who regretted the woman's death,--and even some who regretted it without any feeling of personal damage done to themselves. there had come to be around mrs. proudie a party who thought as she thought on church matters, and such people had lost their head, and thereby their strength. and she had been staunch to her own party, preferring bad tea from a low-church grocer, to good tea from a grocer who went to the ritualistic church or to no church at all. and it is due to her to say that she did not forget those who were true to her,--looking after them mindfully where looking after might be profitable, and fighting their battles where fighting might be more serviceable. i do not think that the appetite for breakfast of any man or woman in barchester was disturbed by the news of mrs. proudie's death, but there were some who felt that a trouble had fallen on them. tidings of the catastrophe reached hiram's hospital on the evening of its occurrence,--hiram's hospital, where dwelt mr. and mrs. quiverful with all their children. now mrs. quiverful owed a debt of gratitude to mrs. proudie, having been placed in her present comfortable home by that lady's patronage. mrs. quiverful perhaps understood the character of the deceased woman, and expressed her opinion respecting it, as graphically as did any one in barchester. there was the natural surprise felt at the warden's lodge in the hospital when the tidings were first received there, and the quiverful family was at first too full of dismay, regrets and surmises, to be able to give themselves impartially to criticism. but on the following morning, conversation at the breakfast-table naturally referring to the great loss which the bishop had sustained, mrs. quiverful thus pronounced her opinion of her friend's character: "you'll find that he'll feel it, q.," she said to her husband, in answer to some sarcastic remark made by him as to the removal of the thorn. "he'll feel it, though she was almost too many for him while she was alive." "i daresay he'll feel it at first," said quiverful; "but i think he'll be more comfortable than he has been." "of course he'll feel it, and go on feeling it till he dies, if he's the man i take him to be. you're not to think that there has been no love because there used to be some words, that he'll find himself the happier because he can do things more as he pleases. she was a great help to him, and he must have known that she was, in spite of the sharpness of her tongue. no doubt she was sharp. no doubt she was upsetting. and she could make herself a fool too in her struggles to have everything her own way. but, q., there were worse women than mrs. proudie. she was never one of your idle ones, and i'm quite sure that no man or woman ever heard her say a word against her husband behind his back." "all the same, she gave him a terribly bad life of it, if all is true that we hear." "there are men who must have what you call a terribly bad life of it, whatever way it goes with them. the bishop is weak, and he wants somebody near to him to be strong. she was strong,--perhaps too strong; but he had his advantage out of it. after all i don't know that his life has been so terribly bad. i daresay he's had everything very comfortable about him. and a man ought to be grateful for that, though very few men ever are." mr. quiverful's predecessor at the hospital, old mr. harding, whose halcyon days in barchester had been passed before the coming of the proudies, was in bed playing cat's-cradle with posy seated on the counterpane, when the tidings of mrs. proudie's death were brought to him by mrs. baxter. "oh, sir," said mrs. baxter, seating herself on a chair by the bed-side. mr. harding liked mrs. baxter to sit down, because he was almost sure on such occasions to have the advantage of a prolonged conversation. "what is it, mrs. baxter?" "oh, sir!" "is anything the matter?" and the old man attempted to raise himself in his bed. "you mustn't frighten grandpa," said posy. "no, my dear; and there isn't nothing to frighten him. there isn't indeed, mr. harding. they're all well at plumstead, and when i heard from the missus at venice, everything was going on well." "but what is it, mrs. baxter?" "god forgive her all her sins--mrs. proudie ain't no more." now there had been a terrible feud between the palace and the deanery for years, in carrying on which the persons of the opposed households were wont to express themselves with eager animosity. mrs. baxter and mrs. draper never spoke to each other. the two coachmen each longed for an opportunity to take the other before a magistrate for some breach of the law of the road in driving. the footmen abused each other, and the grooms occasionally fought. the masters and mistresses contented themselves with simple hatred. therefore it was not surprising that mrs. baxter, in speaking of the death of mrs. proudie, should remember first her sins. "mrs. proudie dead!" said the old man. "indeed she is, mr. harding," said mrs. baxter, putting both her hands together piously. "we're just grass, ain't we, sir! and dust and clay and flowers of the field?" whether mrs. proudie had most partaken of the clayey nature or of the flowery nature, mrs. baxter did not stop to consider. "mrs. proudie dead!" said posy, with a solemnity that was all her own. "then she won't scold the poor bishop any more." "no, my dear; she won't scold anybody any more; and it will be a blessing for some, i must say. everybody is always so considerate in this house, miss posy, that we none of us know nothing about what that is." "dead!" said mr. harding again. "i think, if you please, mrs. baxter, you shall leave me for a little time, and take miss posy with you." he had been in the city of barchester some fifty years, and here was one who might have been his daughter, who had come there scarcely ten years since, and who now had gone before him! he had never loved mrs. proudie. perhaps he had gone as near to disliking mrs. proudie as he had ever gone to disliking any person. mrs. proudie had wounded him in every part that was most sensitive. it would be long to tell, nor need it be told now, how she had ridiculed his cathedral work, how she had made nothing of him, how she had despised him, always manifesting her contempt plainly. he had been even driven to rebuke her, and it had perhaps been the only personal rebuke which he had ever uttered in barchester. but now she was gone; and he thought of her simply as an active pious woman, who had been taken away from her work before her time. and for the bishop, no idea ever entered mr. harding's mind as to the removal of a thorn. the man had lost his life's companion at that time of life when such a companion is most needed; and mr. harding grieved for him with sincerity. the news went out to plumstead episcopi by the postman, and happened to reach the archdeacon as he was talking to his sexton at the little gate leading into the churchyard. "mrs. proudie dead!" he almost shouted, as the postman notified the fact to him. "impossible!" "it be so for zartain, yer reverence," said the postman, who was proud of his news. "heavens!" ejaculated the archdeacon, and then hurried in to his wife. "my dear," he said--and as he spoke he could hardly deliver himself of his words, so eager was he to speak them--"who do you think is dead? gracious heavens! mrs. proudie is dead!" mrs. grantly dropped from her hand the teaspoonful of tea that was just going into the pot, and repeated her husband's words. "mrs. proudie dead?" there was a pause, during which they looked into each other's faces. "my dear, i don't believe it," said mrs. grantly. but she did believe it very shortly. there were no prayers at plumstead rectory that morning. the archdeacon immediately went out into the village, and soon obtained sufficient evidence of the truth of that which the postman had told him. then he rushed back to his wife. "it's true," he said. "it's quite true. she's dead. there's no doubt about that. she's dead. it was last night about seven. that was when they found her, at least, and she may have died about an hour before. filgrave says not more than an hour." "and how did she die?" "heart-complaint. she was standing up, taking hold of the bedstead, and so they found her." then there was a pause, during which the archdeacon sat down to his breakfast. "i wonder how he felt when he heard it?" "of course he was terribly shocked." "i've no doubt he was shocked. any man would be shocked. but when you come to think of it, what a relief!" "how can you speak of it in that way?" said mrs. grantly. "how am i to speak of it in any other way?" said the archdeacon. "of course i shouldn't go and say it out in the street." "i don't think you ought to say it anywhere," said mrs. grantly. "the poor man no doubt feels about his wife in the same way that anybody else would." "and if any other poor man has got such a wife as she was, you may be quite sure that he would be glad to be rid of her. i don't say that he wished her to die, or that he would have done anything to contrive her death--" "gracious, archdeacon; do, pray, hold your tongue." "but it stands to reason that her going will be a great relief to him. what has she done for him? she has made him contemptible to everybody in the diocese by her interference, and his life has been a burden to him through her violence." "is that the way you carry out your proverb of de mortuis?" said mrs. grantly. "the proverb of de mortuis is founded on humbug. humbug out of doors is necessary. it would not do for you and me to go into the high street just now and say what we think about mrs. proudie; but i don't suppose that kind of thing need be kept up in here, between you and me. she was an uncomfortable woman,--so uncomfortable that i cannot believe that any one will regret her. dear me! only to think that she has gone! you may as well give me my tea." i do not think that mrs. grantly's opinion differed much from that expressed by her husband, or that she was, in truth, the least offended by the archdeacon's plain speech. but it must be remembered that there was probably no house in the diocese in which mrs. proudie had been so thoroughly hated as she had been at the plumstead rectory. there had been hatred at the deanery; but the hatred at the deanery had been mild in comparison with the hatred at plumstead. the archdeacon was a sound friend; but he was also a sound enemy. from the very first arrival of the proudies at barchester, mrs. proudie had thrown down her gauntlet to him, and he had not been slow in picking it up. the war had been internecine, and each had given the other terrible wounds. it had been understood that there should be no quarter, and there had been none. his enemy was now dead, and the archdeacon could not bring himself to adopt before his wife the namby-pamby every-day decency of speaking well of one of whom he had ever thought ill, or of expressing regret when no regret could be felt. "may all her sins be forgiven her," said mrs. grantly. "amen," said the archdeacon. there was something in the tone of his amen which thoroughly implied that it was uttered only on the understanding that her departure from the existing world was to be regarded as an unmitigated good, and that she should, at any rate, never come back again to barchester. when lady lufton heard the tidings, she was not so bold in speaking of it as was her friend the archdeacon. "mrs. proudie dead!" she said to her daughter-in-law. this was some hours after the news had reached the house, and when the fact of the poor lady's death had been fully recognized. "what will he do without her?" "the same as other men do," said young lady lufton. "but, my dear, he is not the same as other men. he is not at all like other men. he is so weak that he cannot walk without a stick to lean upon. no doubt she was a virago, a woman who could not control her temper for a moment! no doubt she had led him a terrible life! i have often pitied him with all my heart. but, nevertheless, she was useful to him. i suppose she was useful to him. i can hardly believe that mrs. proudie is dead. had he gone, it would have seemed so much more natural. poor woman. i daresay she had her good points." the reader will be pleased to remember that the luftons had ever been strong partisans on the side of the grantlys. the news made its way even to hogglestock on the same day. mrs. crawley, when she heard it, went out after her husband, who was in the school. "dead!" said he, in answer to her whisper. "do you tell me that the woman is dead?" then mrs. crawley explained that the tidings were credible. "may god forgive her all her sins," said mr. crawley. "she was a violent woman, certainly, and i think that she misunderstood her duties; but i do not say that she was a bad woman. i am inclined to think that she was earnest in her endeavours to do good." it never occurred to mr. crawley that he and his affair had, in truth, been the cause of her death. it was thus that she was spoken of for a few days; and then men and women ceased to speak much of her, and began to talk of the bishop instead. a month had not passed before it was surmised that a man so long accustomed to the comforts of married life would marry again; and even then one lady connected with low-church clergymen in and around the city was named as a probable successor to the great lady who was gone. for myself, i am inclined to think that the bishop will for the future be content to lean upon his chaplain. the monument that was put up to our old friend's memory in one of the side aisles of the choir of the cathedral was supposed to be designed and executed in good taste. there was a broken column, and on the column simply the words, "my beloved wife!" then there was a slab by the column, bearing mrs. proudie's name, with the date of her life and death. beneath this was the common inscription,-- "_requiescat in pace._" chapter lxviii. the obstinacy of mr. crawley. dr. tempest, when he heard the news, sent immediately to mr. robarts, begging him to come over to silverbridge. but this message was not occasioned solely by the death of mrs. proudie. dr. tempest had also heard that mr. crawley had submitted himself to the bishop, that instant advantage,--and as dr. tempest thought, unfair advantage,--had been taken of mr. crawley's submission, and that the pernicious thumble had been at once sent over to hogglestock. had these palace doings with reference to mr. crawley been unaccompanied by the catastrophe which had happened, the doctor, much as he might have regretted them, would probably have felt that there was nothing to be done. he could not in such case have prevented thumble's journey to hogglestock on the next sunday, and certainly he could not have softened the heart of the presiding genius at the palace. but things were very different now. the presiding genius was gone. everybody at the palace would for a while be weak and vacillating. thumble would be then thoroughly cowed; and it might at any rate be possible to make some movement in mr. crawley's favour. dr. tempest, therefore, sent for mr. robarts. "i'm giving you a great deal of trouble, robarts," said the doctor; "but then you are so much younger than i am, and i've an idea that you would do more for this poor man than any one else in the diocese." mr. robarts of course declared that he did not begrudge his trouble, and that he would do anything in his power for the poor man. "i think that you should see him again, and that you should then see thumble also. i don't know whether you can condescend to be civil to thumble. i could not." "i am not quite sure that incivility would not be more efficacious," said mr. robarts. "very likely. there are men who are deaf as adders to courtesy, but who are compelled to obedience at once by ill-usage. very likely thumble is one of them; but of that you will be the best judge yourself. i would see crawley first, and get his consent." "that's the difficulty." "then i should go on without his consent, and i would see thumble and the bishop's chaplain, snapper. i think you might manage just at this moment, when they will all be a little abashed and perplexed by this woman's death, to arrange that simply nothing shall be done. the great thing will be that crawley should go on with the duty till the assizes. if it should then happen that he goes into barchester, is acquitted, and comes back again, the whole thing will be over, and there will be no further interference in the parish. if i were you, i think i would try it." mr. robarts said that he would try it. "i daresay mr. crawley will be a little stiff-necked with you." "he will be very stiff-necked with me," said mr. robarts. "but i can hardly think that he will throw away the only means he has of supporting his wife and children, when he finds that there can be no occasion for his doing so. i do not suppose that any person wishes him to throw up his work now that that poor woman has gone." mr. crawley had been almost in good spirits since the last visit which mr. thumble had made to him. it seemed as though the loss of everything in the world was in some way satisfactory to him. he had now given up his living by his own doing, and had after a fashion acknowledged his guilt by this act. he had proclaimed to all around him that he did not think himself to be any longer fit to perform the sacred functions of his office. he spoke of his trial as though a verdict against him must be the result. he knew that in going into prison he would leave his wife and children dependent on the charity of their friends,--on charity which they must condescend to accept, though he could not condescend to ask it. and yet he was able to carry himself now with a greater show of fortitude than had been within his power when the extent of his calamity was more doubtful. i must not ask the reader to suppose that he was cheerful. to have been cheerful under such circumstances would have been inhuman. but he carried his head on high, and walked firmly, and gave his orders at home with a clear voice. his wife, who was necessarily more despondent than ever, wondered at him,--but wondered in silence. it certainly seemed as though the very extremity of ill-fortune was good for him. and he was very diligent with his school, passing the greater part of the morning with the children. mr. thumble had told him that he would come on sunday, and that he would then take charge of the parish. up to the coming of mr. thumble he would do everything in the parish that could be done by a clergyman with a clear spirit and a free heart. mr. thumble should not find that spiritual weeds had grown rank in the parish because of his misfortunes. mrs. proudie had died on the tuesday,--that having been the day of mr. thumble's visit to hogglestock,--and mr. robarts had gone over to silverbridge, in answer to dr. tempest's invitation, on the thursday. he had not, therefore, the command of much time, it being his express object to prevent the appearance of mr. thumble at hogglestock on the next sunday. he had gone to silverbridge by railway, and had, therefore, been obliged to postpone his visit to mr. crawley till the next day; but early on the friday morning he rode over to hogglestock. that he did not arrive there with a broken-knee'd horse, the reader may be quite sure. in all matters of that sort, mr. robarts was ever above reproach. he rode a good horse, and drove a neat gig, and was always well dressed. on this account mr. crawley, though he really liked mr. robarts, and was thankful to him for many kindnesses, could never bear his presence with perfect equanimity. robarts was no scholar, was not a great preacher, had obtained no celebrity as a churchman,--had, in fact, done nothing to merit great reward; and yet everything had been given to him with an abundant hand. within the last twelvemonth his wife had inherited mr. crawley did not care to know how many thousand pounds. and yet mr. robarts had won all that he possessed by being a clergyman. was it possible that mr. crawley should regard such a man with equanimity? robarts rode over with a groom behind him,--really taking the groom because he knew that mr. crawley would have no one to hold his horse for him;--and the groom was the source of great offence. he came upon mr. crawley standing at the school door, and stopping at once, jumped off his nag. there was something in the way in which he sprang out of the saddle and threw the reins to the man, which was not clerical in mr. crawley's eyes. no man could be so quick in the matter of a horse who spent as many hours with the poor and with the children as should be spent by a parish clergyman. it might be probable that mr. robarts had never stolen twenty pounds,--might never be accused of so disgraceful a crime,--but, nevertheless, mr. crawley had his own ideas, and made his own comparisons. "crawley," said robarts, "i am so glad to find you at home." "i am generally to be found in the parish," said the perpetual curate of hogglestock. "i know you are," said robarts, who knew the man well, and cared nothing for his friend's peculiarities when he felt his own withers to be unwrung. "but you might have been down at hoggle end with the brickmakers, and then i should have had to go after you." "i should have grieved--," began crawley; but robarts interrupted him at once. "let us go for a walk, and i'll leave the man with the horses. i've something special to say to you, and i can say it better out here than in the house. grace is quite well, and sends her love. she is growing to look so beautiful!" "i hope she may grow in grace with god," said mr. crawley. "she's as good a girl as i ever knew. by-the-by, you had henry grantly over here the other day?" "major grantly, whom i cannot name without expressing my esteem for him, did do us the honour of calling upon us not very long since. if it be with reference to him that you have taken this trouble--" "no, no; not at all. i'll allow him and the ladies to fight out that battle. i've not the least doubt in the world how that will go. when i'm told that she made a complete conquest of the archdeacon, there cannot be a doubt about that." "a conquest of the archdeacon!" but mr. robarts did not wish to have to explain anything further about the archdeacon. "were you not terribly shocked, crawley," he asked, "when you heard of the death of mrs. proudie?" "it was sudden and very awful," said mr. crawley. "such deaths are always shocking. not more so, perhaps, as regards the wife of a bishop, than with any other woman." "only we happened to know her." "no doubt the finite and meagre nature of our feelings does prevent us from extending our sympathies to those whom we have not seen in the flesh. it should not be so, and would not with one who had nurtured his heart with proper care. and we are prone to permit an evil worse than that to canker our regards and to foster and to mar our solicitudes. those who are high in station strike us more by their joys and sorrows than do the poor and lowly. were some young duke's wife, wedded but the other day, to die, all england would put on some show of mourning,--nay, would feel some true gleam of pity; but nobody cares for the widowed brickmaker seated with his starving infant on his cold hearth." "of course we hear more of the big people," said robarts. "ay; and think more of them. but do not suppose, sir, that i complain of this man or that woman because his sympathies, or hers, run out of that course which my reason tells me they should hold. the man with whom it would not be so would simply be a god among men. it is in his perfection as a man that we recognize the divinity of christ. it is in the imperfection of men that we recognize our necessity for a christ. yes, sir, the death of the poor lady at barchester was very sudden. i hope that my lord the bishop bears with becoming fortitude the heavy misfortune. they say that he was a man much beholden to his wife,--prone to lean upon her in his goings out and comings in. for such a man such a loss is more dreadful perhaps than for another." "they say she led him a terrible life, you know." "i am not prone, sir, to believe much of what i hear about the domesticities of other men, knowing how little any other man can know of my own. and i have, methinks, observed a proneness in the world to ridicule that dependence on a woman which every married man should acknowledge in regard to the wife of his bosom, if he can trust her as well as love her. when i hear jocose proverbs spoken as to men, such as that in this house the gray mare is the better horse, or that in that house the wife wears that garment which is supposed to denote virile command, knowing that the joke is easy, and that meekness in a man is more truly noble than a habit of stern authority, i do not allow them to go far with me in influencing my judgment." so spoke mr. crawley, who never permitted the slightest interference with his own word in his own family, and who had himself been a witness of one of those scenes between the bishop and his wife in which the poor bishop had been so cruelly misused. but to mr. crawley the thing which he himself had seen under such circumstances was as sacred as though it had come to him under the seal of confession. in speaking of the bishop and mrs. proudie,--nay, as far as was possible in thinking of them,--he was bound to speak and to think as though he had not witnessed that scene in the palace study. "i don't suppose that there is much doubt about her real character," said robarts. "but you and i need not discuss that." "by no means. such discussion would be both useless and unseemly." "and just at present there is something else that i specially want to say to you. indeed, i went to silverbridge on the same subject yesterday, and have come here expressly to have a little conversation with you." "if it be about affairs of mine, mr. robarts, i am indeed troubled in spirit that so great labour should have fallen upon you." "never mind my labour. indeed your saying that is a nuisance to me, because i hoped that by this time you would have understood that i regard you as a friend, and that i think nothing any trouble that i do for a friend. your position just now is so peculiar that it requires a great deal of care." "no care can be of any avail to me." "there i disagree with you. you must excuse me, but i do; and so does dr. tempest. we think that you have been a little too much in a hurry since he communicated to you the result of our first meeting." "as how, sir?" "it is, perhaps, hardly worth while for us to go into the whole question; but that man, thumble, must not come here on next sunday." "i cannot say, mr. robarts, that the reverend mr. thumble has recommended himself to me strongly either by his outward symbols of manhood or by such manifestation of his inward mental gifts as i have succeeded in obtaining. but my knowledge of him has been so slight, and has been acquired in a manner so likely to bias me prejudicially against him, that i am inclined to think my opinion should go for nothing. it is, however, the fact that the bishop has nominated him to this duty; and that, as i have myself simply notified my desire to be relieved from the care of the parish, on account of certain unfitness of my own, i am the last man who should interfere with the bishop in the choice of my temporary successor." "it was her choice, not his." "excuse me, mr. robarts, but i cannot allow that assertion to pass unquestioned. i must say that i have adequate cause for believing that he came here by his lordship's authority." "no doubt he did. will you just listen to me for a moment? ever since this unfortunate affair of the cheque became known, mrs. proudie has been anxious to get you out of this parish. she was a violent woman, and chose to take this matter up violently. pray hear me out before you interrupt me. there would have been no commission at all but for her." "the commission is right and proper and just," said mr. crawley, who could not keep himself silent. "very well. let it be so. but mr. thumble's coming over here is not proper or right; and you may be sure the bishop does not wish it." "let him send any other clergyman whom he may think more fitting," said mr. crawley. "but we do not want him to send anybody." "somebody must be sent, mr. robarts." "no, not so. let me go over and see thumble and snapper,--snapper, you know, is the domestic chaplain; and all that you need do is to go on with your services on sunday. if necessary, i will see the bishop. i think you may be sure that i can manage it. if not, i will come back to you." mr. robarts paused for an answer, but it seemed for awhile that all mr. crawley's impatient desire to speak was over. he walked on silently along the lane by his visitor's side, and when, after some five or six minutes, robarts stood still in the road, mr. crawley even then said nothing. "it cannot be but that you should be anxious to keep the income of the parish for your wife and children," said mark robarts. "of course, i am anxious for my wife and children," crawley answered. "then let me do as i say. why should you throw away a chance, even if it be a bad one? but here the chance is all in your favour. let me manage it for you at barchester." "of course i am anxious for my wife and children," said crawley, repeating his words; "how anxious, i fancy no man can conceive who has not been near enough to absolute want to know how terrible is its approach when it threatens those who are weak and who are very dear! but, mr. robarts, you spoke just now of the chance of the thing,--the chance of your arranging on my behalf that i should for a while longer be left in the enjoyment of the freehold of my parish. it seemeth to me that there should be no chance on such a subject; that in the adjustment of so momentous a matter there should be a consideration of right and wrong, and no consideration of aught beside. i have been growing to feel, for some weeks past, that circumstances,--whether through my own fault or not is an outside question as to which i will not further delay you by offering even an opinion,--that unfortunate circumstances have made me unfit to remain here as guardian of the souls of the people of this parish. then there came to me the letter from dr. tempest,--for which i am greatly beholden to him,--strengthening me altogether in this view. what could i do then, mr. robarts? could i allow myself to think of my wife and my children when such a question as that was before me for self-discussion?" "i would,--certainly," said robarts. "no, sir! excuse the bluntness of my contradiction, but i feel assured that in such emergency you would look solely to duty,--as by god's help, i will endeavour to do. mr. robarts, there are many of us who in many things, are much worse than we believe ourselves to be. but in other matters, and perhaps of larger moment, we can rise to ideas of duty as the need for such ideas comes upon us. i say not this at all as praising myself. i speak of men as i believe that they will be found to be;--of yourself, of myself, and of others who strive to live with clean hands and a clear conscience. i do not for a moment think that you would retain your benefice at framley if there had come upon you, after much thought, an assured conviction that you could not retain it without grievous injury to the souls of others and grievous sin to your own. wife and children, dear as they are to you and to me,--as dear to me as to you,--fade from the sight when the time comes for judgment on such a matter as that!" they were standing quite still now, facing each other, and crawley, as he spoke with a low voice, looked straight into his friend's eyes, and kept his hand firmly fixed on his friend's arm. "i cannot interfere further," said robarts. "no,--you cannot interfere further." robarts, when he told the story of the interview to his wife that evening, declared that he had never heard a voice so plaintively touching as was the voice of mr. crawley when he uttered those last words. they returned back to the servant and the house almost without a word, and robarts mounted without offering to see mrs. crawley. nor did mr. crawley ask him to do so. it was better now that robarts should go. "may god send you through all your troubles," said mr. robarts. "mr. robarts, i thank you warmly, for your friendship," said mr. crawley. and then they parted. in about half an hour mr. crawley returned to the house. "now for pindar, jane," he said, seating himself at his old desk. chapter lxix. mr. crawley's last appearance in his own pulpit. no word or message from mr. crawley reached barchester throughout the week, and on the sunday morning mr. thumble was under a positive engagement to go out to hogglestock, and perform the services of the church. dr. tempest had been quite right in saying that mr. thumble would be awed by the death of his patroness. such was altogether the case, and he was very anxious to escape from the task he had undertaken at her instance, if it were possible. in the first place, he had never been a favourite with the bishop himself, and had now, therefore, nothing to expect in the diocese. the crusts from bits of loaves and the morsels of broken fishes which had come in his way had all come from the bounty of mrs. proudie. and then, as regarded this special hogglestock job, how was he to get paid for it? whence, indeed, was he to seek repayment for the actual money which he would be out of pocket in finding his way to hogglestock and back again? but he could not get to speak to the bishop, nor could he induce any one who had access to his lordship to touch upon the subject. mr. snapper avoided him as much as possible; and mr. snapper, when he was caught and interrogated, declared that he regarded the matter as settled. nothing could be in worse taste, mr. snapper thought, than to undo, immediately after the poor lady's death, work in the diocese which had been arranged and done by her. mr. snapper expressed his opinion that mr. thumble was bound to go out to hogglestock; and, when mr. thumble declared petulantly that he would not stir a step out of barchester, mr. snapper protested that mr. thumble would have to answer for it in this world and in the next if there were no services at hogglestock on that sunday. on the saturday evening mr. thumble made a desperate attempt to see the bishop, but was told by mrs. draper that the bishop had positively declined to see him. the bishop himself probably felt unwilling to interfere with his wife's doings so soon after her death! so mr. thumble, with a heavy heart, went across to "the dragon of wantly," and ordered a gig, resolving that the bill should be sent in to the palace. he was not going to trust himself again upon the bishop's cob! up to saturday evening mr. crawley did the work of his parish, and on the saturday evening he made an address to his parishioners from his pulpit. he had given notice among the brickmakers and labourers that he wished to say a few words to them in the school-room; but the farmers also heard of this and came with their wives and daughters, and all the brickmakers came, and most of the labourers were there, so that there was no room for them in the school-house. the congregation was much larger than was customary even in the church. "they will come," he said to his wife, "to hear a ruined man declare his own ruin, but they will not come to hear the word of god." when it was found that the persons assembled were too many for the school-room, the meeting was adjourned to the church, and mr. crawley was forced to get into his pulpit. he said a short prayer, and then he began his story. [illustration: "they will come to hear a ruined man declare his own ruin."] his story as he told it then shall not be repeated now, as the same story has been told too often already in these pages. surely it was a singular story for a parish clergyman to tell of himself in so solemn a manner. that he had applied the cheque to his own purposes, and was unable to account for the possession of it, was certain. he did not know when or how he had got it. speaking to them then in god's house he told them that. he was to be tried by a jury, and all he could do was to tell the jury the same. he would not expect the jury to believe him. the jury would, of course, believe only that which was proved to them. but he did expect his old friends at hogglestock, who had known him so long, to take his word as true. that there was no sufficient excuse for his conduct, even in his own sight, this, his voluntary resignation of his parish, was, he said, sufficient evidence. then he explained to them, as clearly as he was able, what the bishop had done, what the commission had done, and what he had done himself. that he spoke no word of mrs. proudie to that audience need hardly be mentioned here. "and now, dearest friends, i leave you," he said, with that weighty solemnity which was so peculiar to the man, and which he was able to make singularly impressive even on such a congregation as that of hogglestock, "and i trust that the heavy but pleasing burden of the charge which i have had over you may fall into hands better fitted than mine have been for such work. i have always known my own unfitness, by reason of the worldly cares with which i have been laden. poverty makes the spirit poor, and the hands weak, and the heart sore,--and too often makes the conscience dull. may the latter never be the case with any of you." then he uttered another short prayer, and, stepping down from the pulpit, walked out of the church, with his weeping wife hanging on his arm, and his daughter following them, almost dissolved in tears. he never again entered that church as the pastor of the congregation. there was an old lame man from hoggle end leaning on his stick near the door as mr. crawley went out, and with him was his old lame wife. "he'll pull through yet," said the old man to his wife; "you'll see else. he'll pull through because he's so dogged. it's dogged as does it." on that night the position of the members of mr. crawley's household seemed to have been changed. there was something almost of elation in his mode of speaking, and he said soft loving words, striving to comfort his wife. she, on the other hand, could say nothing to comfort him. she had been averse to the step he was taking, but had been unable to press her objection in opposition to his great argument as to duty. since he had spoken to her in that strain which he had used with robarts, she also had felt that she must be silent. but she could not even feign to feel the pride which comes from the performance of a duty. "what will he do when he comes out?" she said to her daughter. the coming out spoken of by her was the coming out of prison. it was natural enough that she should feel no elation. the breakfast on sunday morning was to her, perhaps, the saddest scene of her life. they sat down, the three together, at the usual hour,--nine o'clock,--but the morning had not been passed as was customary on sundays. it had been mr. crawley's practice to go into the school from eight to nine; but on this sunday he felt, as he told his wife, that his presence would be an intrusion there. but he requested jane to go and perform her usual task. "if mr. thumble should come," he said to her, "be submissive to him in all things." then he stood at his door, watching to see at what hour mr. thumble would reach the school. but mr. thumble did not attend the school on that morning. "and yet he was very express to me in his desire that i would not myself meddle with the duties," said mr. crawley to his wife as he stood at the door,--"unnecessarily urgent, as i must say i thought at the time." if mrs. crawley could have spoken out her thoughts about mr. thumble at that moment, her words would, i think, have surprised her husband. at breakfast there was hardly a word spoken. mr. crawley took his crust and eat it mournfully,--almost ostentatiously. jane tried and failed, and tried to hide her failure, failing in that also. mrs. crawley made no attempt. she sat behind her old teapot, with her hands clasped and her eyes fixed. it was as though some last day had come upon her,--this, the first sunday of her husband's degradation. "mary," he said to her, "why do you not eat?" "i cannot," she replied, speaking not in a whisper, but in words which would hardly get themselves articulated. "i cannot. do not ask me." "for the honour of the lord you will want the strength which bread alone can give you," he said, intimating to her that he wished her to attend the service. "do not ask me to be there, josiah. i cannot. it is too much for me." "nay; i will not press it," he said. "i can go alone." he uttered no word expressive of a wish that his daughter should attend the church; but when the moment came, jane accompanied him. "what shall i do, mamma," she said, "if i find i cannot bear it?" "try to bear it," the mother said. "try, for his sake. you are stronger now than i am." the tinkle of the church bell was heard at the usual time, and mr. crawley, hat in hand, stood ready to go forth. he had heard nothing of mr. thumble, but had made up his mind that mr. thumble would not trouble him. he had taken the precaution to request his churchwarden to be early at the church, so that mr. thumble might encounter no difficulty. the church was very near to the house, and any vehicle arriving might have been seen had mr. crawley watched closely. but no one had cared to watch mr. thumble's arrival at the church. he did not doubt that mr. thumble would be at the church. with reference to the school, he had had some doubt. but just as he was about to start he heard the clatter of a gig. up came mr. thumble to the door of the parsonage, and having come down from his gig was about to enter the house as though it were his own. mr. crawley greeted him in the pathway, raising his hat from his head, and expressing a wish that mr. thumble might not feel himself fatigued with his drive. "i will not ask you into my poor house," he said, standing in the middle of the pathway; "for that my wife is ill." "nothing catching, i hope?" said mr. thumble. "her malady is of the spirit rather than of the flesh," said mr. crawley. "shall we go on to the church?" "certainly,--by all means. how about the surplice?" "you will find, i trust, that the churchwarden has everything in readiness. i have notified to him expressly your coming, with the purport that it may be so." "you'll take a part in the service, i suppose?" said mr. thumble. "no part,--no part whatever," said mr. crawley, standing still for a moment as he spoke, and showing plainly by the tone of his voice how dismayed he was, how indignant he had been made, by so indecent a proposition. was he giving up his pulpit to a stranger for any reason less cogent than one which made it absolutely imperative on him to be silent in that church which had so long been his own? "just as you please," said mr. thumble. "only it's rather hard lines to have to do it all myself after coming all the way from barchester this morning." to this mr. crawley condescended to make no reply whatever. in the porch of the church, which was the only entrance, mr. crawley introduced mr. thumble to the churchwarden, simply by a wave of the hand, and then passed on with his daughter to a seat which opened upon the aisle. jane was going on to that which she had hitherto always occupied with her mother in the little chancel; but mr. crawley would not allow this. neither to him nor to any of his family was there attached any longer the privilege of using the chancel of the church of hogglestock. mr. thumble scrambled into the reading-desk some ten minutes after the proper time, and went through the morning service under, what must be admitted to be, serious difficulties. there were the eyes of mr. crawley fixed upon him throughout the work, and a feeling pervaded him that everybody there regarded him as an intruder. at first this was so strong upon him that mr. crawley pitied him, and would have encouraged him had it been possible. but as the work progressed, and as custom and the sound of his own voice emboldened him, there came to the man some touches of the arrogance which so generally accompanies cowardice, and mr. crawley's acute ear detected the moment when it was so. an observer might have seen that the motion of his hands was altered as they were lifted in prayer. though he was praying, even in prayer he could not forget the man who was occupying his desk. then came the sermon, preached very often before, lasting exactly half-an-hour, and then mr. thumble's work was done. itinerant clergymen, who preach now here and now there, as it had been the lot of mr. thumble to do, have at any rate this relief,--that they can preach their sermons often. from the communion-table mr. thumble had stated that, in the present peculiar circumstances of the parish, there would be no second service at hogglestock for the present; and this was all he said or did peculiar to the occasion. the moment the service was over he got into his gig, and was driven back to barchester. "mamma," said jane, as they sat at their dinner, "such a sermon i am sure was never heard in hogglestock before. indeed, you can hardly call it a sermon. it was downright nonsense." "my dear," said mr. crawley, energetically, "keep your criticisms for matters that are profane; then, though they be childish and silly, they may at least be innocent. be critical on euripides, if you must be critical." but when jane kissed her father after dinner, she, knowing his humour well, felt assured that her remarks had not been taken altogether in ill part. mr. thumble was neither seen nor heard of again in the parish during the entire week. chapter lxx. mrs. arabin is caught. [illustration] one morning about the middle of april mr. toogood received a telegram from venice which caused him instantly to leave his business in bedford row and take the first train for silverbridge. "it seems to me that this job will be a deal of time and very little money," said his partner to him, when toogood on the spur of the moment was making arrangements for his sudden departure and uncertain period of absence. "that's about it," said toogood. "a deal of time, some expense, and no returns. it's not the kind of business a man can live upon; is it?" the partner growled, and toogood went. but as we must go with mr. toogood down to silverbridge, and as we cannot make the journey in this chapter, we will just indicate his departure and then go back to john eames, who, as will be remembered, was just starting for florence when we last saw him. our dear old friend johnny had been rather proud of himself as he started from london. he had gotten an absolute victory over sir raffle buffle, and that alone was gratifying to his feelings. he liked the excitement of a journey, and especially of a journey to italy; and the importance of the cause of his journey was satisfactory to him. but above all things he was delighted at having found that lily dale was pleased at his going. he had seen clearly that she was much pleased, and that she made something of a hero of him because of his alacrity in the cause of his cousin. he had partially understood,--had understood in a dim sort of way,--that his want of favour in lily's eyes had come from some deficiency of his own in this respect. she had not found him to be a hero. she had known him first as a boy, with boyish belongings around him, and she had seen him from time to time as he became a man, almost with too much intimacy for the creation of that love with which he wished to fill her heart. his rival had come before her eyes for the first time with all the glories of pall mall heroism about him, and lily in her weakness had been conquered by them. since that she had learned how weak she had been,--how silly, how childish, she would say to herself when she allowed her memory to go back to the details of her own story; but not the less on that account did she feel the want of something heroic in a man before she could teach herself to look upon him as more worthy of her regard than other men. she had still unconsciously hoped in regard to crosbie, but now that hope had been dispelled as unconsciously, simply by his appearance. there had been moments in which john eames had almost risen to the necessary point,--had almost made good his footing on the top of some moderate, but still sufficient mountain. but there had still been a succession of little tumbles,--unfortunate slips for which he himself should not always have been held responsible; and he had never quite stood upright on his pinnacle, visible to lily's eyes as being really excelsior. of all this john eames himself had an inkling which had often made him very uncomfortable. what the mischief was it she wanted of him; and what was he to do? the days for plucking glory from the nettle danger were clean gone by. he was well dressed. he knew a good many of the right sort of people. he was not in debt. he had saved an old nobleman's life once upon a time, and had been a good deal talked about on that score. he had even thrashed the man who had ill-treated her. his constancy had been as the constancy of a jacob! what was it that she wanted of him? but in a certain way he did know what was wanted; and now, as he started for florence, intending to stop nowhere till he reached that city, he hoped that by this chivalrous journey he might even yet achieve the thing necessary. but on reaching paris he heard tidings of mrs. arabin which induced him to change his plans and make for venice instead of for florence. a banker at paris, to whom he brought a letter, told him that mrs. arabin would now be found at venice. this did not perplex him at all. it would have been delightful to see florence,--but was more delightful still to see venice. his journey was the same as far as turin; but from turin he proceeded through milan to venice, instead of going by bologna to florence. he had fortunately come armed with an austrian passport,--as was necessary in those bygone days of venetia's thraldom. he was almost proud of himself, as though he had done something great, when he tumbled in to his inn at venice, without having been in a bed since he left london. but he was barely allowed to swim in a gondola, for on reaching venice he found that mrs. arabin had gone back to florence. he had been directed to the hotel which mrs. arabin had used, and was there told that she had started the day before. she had received some letter, from her husband as the landlord thought, and had done so. that was all the landlord knew. johnny was vexed, but became a little prouder than before as he felt it to be his duty to go on to florence before he went to bed. there would be another night in a railway carriage, but he would live through it. there was just time to have a tub and a breakfast, to swim in a gondola, to look at the outside of the doge's palace, and to walk up and down the piazza before he started again. it was hard work, but i think he would have been pleased had he heard that mrs. arabin had retreated from florence to rome. had such been the case, he would have folded his cloak around him, and have gone on,--regardless of brigands,--thinking of lily, and wondering whether anybody else had ever done so much before without going to bed. as it was, he found that mrs. arabin was at the hotel in florence,--still in bed, as he had arrived early in the morning. so he had another tub, another breakfast, and sent up his card. "mr. john eames,"--and across the top of it he wrote, "has come from england about mr. crawley." then he threw himself on to a sofa in the hotel reading-room, and went fast to sleep. john had found an opportunity of talking to a young lady in the breakfast-room, and had told her of his deeds. "i only left london on tuesday night, and i have come here taking venice on the road." "then you have travelled fast," said the young lady. "i haven't seen a bed, of course," said john. the young lady immediately afterwards told her father. "i suppose he must be one of those foreign office messengers," said the young lady. "anything but that," said the gentleman. "people never talk about their own trades. he's probably a clerk with a fortnight's leave of absence, seeing how many towns he can do in the time. it's the usual way of travelling now-a-days. when i was young and there were no railways, i remember going from paris to vienna without sleeping." luckily for his present happiness, john did not hear this. he was still fast asleep when a servant came to him from mrs. arabin to say that she would see him at once. "yes, yes; i'm quite ready to go on," said johnny, jumping up, and thinking of the journey to rome. but there was no journey to rome before him. mrs. arabin was almost in the next room, and there he found her. the reader will understand that they had never met before, and hitherto knew nothing of each other. mrs. arabin had never heard the name of john eames till john's card was put into her hands, and would not have known his business with her had he not written those few words upon it. "you have come about mr. crawley?" she said to him, eagerly. "i have heard from my father that somebody was coming." "yes, mrs. arabin; as hard as i could travel. i had expected to find you at venice." "have you been at venice?" "i have just arrived from venice. they told me at paris i should find you there. however, that does not matter, as i have found you here. i wonder whether you can help us?" "do you know mr. crawley? are you a friend of his?" "i never saw him in my life; but he married my cousin." "i gave him the cheque, you know," said mrs. arabin. "what!" exclaimed eames, literally almost knocked backwards by the easiness of the words which contained a solution for so terrible a difficulty. the crawley case had assumed such magnitude, and the troubles of the crawley family had been so terrible, that it seemed to him to be almost sacrilegious that words so simply uttered should suffice to cure everything. he had hardly hoped,--had at least barely hoped,--that mrs. arabin might be able to suggest something which would put them all on a track towards discovery of the truth. but he found that she had the clue in her hand, and that the clue was one which required no further delicacy of investigation. there would be nothing more to unravel; no journey to jerusalem would be necessary! "yes," said mrs. arabin, "i gave it to him. they have been writing to my husband about it, and never wrote to me; and till i received a letter about it from my father, and another from my sister, at venice the day before yesterday, i knew nothing of the particulars of mr. crawley's trouble." "had you not heard that he had been taken before the magistrates?" "no; not so much even as that. i had seen in 'galignani' something about a clergyman, but i did not know what clergyman; and i heard that there was something wrong about mr. crawley's money, but there has always been something wrong about money with poor mr. crawley; and as i knew that my husband had been written to also, i did not interfere, further than to ask the particulars. my letters have followed me about, and i only learned at venice, just before i came here, what was the nature of the case." "and did you do anything?" "i telegraphed at once to mr. toogood, who i understand is acting as mr. crawley's solicitor. my sister sent me his address." "he is my uncle." "i telegraphed to him, telling him that i had given mr. crawley the cheque, and then i wrote to archdeacon grantly giving him the whole history. i was obliged to come here before i could return home, but i intended to start this evening." "and what is the whole history?" asked john eames. the history of the gift of the cheque was very simple. it has been told how mr. crawley in his dire distress had called upon his old friend at the deanery asking for pecuniary assistance. this he had done with so much reluctance that his spirit had given way while he was waiting in the dean's library, and he had wished to depart without accepting what the dean was quite willing to bestow upon him. from this cause it had come to pass there had been no time for explanatory words, even between the dean and his wife,--from whose private funds had in truth come the money which had been given to mr. crawley. for the private wealth of the family belonged to mrs. arabin, and not to the dean; and was left entirely in mrs. arabin's hands, to be disposed of as she might please. previously to mr. crawley's arrival at the deanery this matter had been discussed between the dean and his wife, and it had been agreed between them that a sum of fifty pounds should be given. it should be given by mrs. arabin, but it was thought that the gift would come with more comfort to the recipient from the hands of his old friend than from those of his wife. there had been much discussion between them as to the mode in which this might be done with least offence to the man's feelings,--for they knew mr. crawley and his peculiarities well. at last it was agreed that the notes should be put into an envelope, which envelope the dean should have ready with him. but when the moment came the dean did not have the envelope ready, and was obliged to leave the room to seek his wife. and mrs. arabin explained to john eames that even she had not had it ready, and had been forced to go to her own desk to fetch it. then, at the last moment, with the desire of increasing the good to be done to people who were so terribly in want, she put the cheque for twenty pounds, which was in her possession as money of her own, along with the notes, and in this way the cheque had been given by the dean to mr. crawley. "i shall never forgive myself for not telling the dean," she said. "had i done that all this trouble would have been saved!" "but where did you get the cheque?" eames asked with natural curiosity. "exactly," said mrs. arabin. "i have got to show now that i did not steal it,--have i not? mr. soames will indict me now. and, indeed, i have had some trouble to refresh my memory as to all the particulars, for you see it is more than a year past." but mrs. arabin's mind was clearer on such matters than mr. crawley's, and she was able to explain that she had taken the cheque as part of the rent due to her from the landlord of "the dragon of wantly," which inn was her property, having been the property of her first husband. for some years past there had been a difficulty about the rent, things not having gone at "the dragon of wantly" as smoothly as they had used to go. at one time the money had been paid half-yearly by the landlord's cheque on the bank at barchester. for the last year-and-a-half this had not been done, and the money had come into mrs. arabin's hands at irregular periods and in irregular sums. there was at this moment rent due for twelve months, and mrs. arabin expressed her doubt whether she would get it on her return to barchester. on the occasion to which she was now alluding, the money had been paid into her own hands, in the deanery breakfast-parlour, by a man she knew very well,--not the landlord himself, but one bearing the landlord's name, whom she believed to be the landlord's brother, or at least his cousin. the man in question was named daniel stringer, and he had been employed in "the dragon of wantly," as a sort of clerk or managing man, as long as she had known it. the rent had been paid to her by daniel stringer quite as often as by daniel's brother or cousin, john stringer, who was, in truth, the landlord of the hotel. when questioned by john respecting the persons employed at the inn, she said that she did believe that there had been rumours of something wrong. the house had been in the hands of the stringers for many years,--before the property had been purchased by her husband's father,--and therefore there had been an unwillingness to move them; but gradually, so she said, there had come upon her and her husband a feeling that the house must be put into other hands. "but did you say nothing about the cheque?" john asked. "yes, i said a good deal about it. i asked why a cheque of mr. soames's was brought to me, instead of being taken to the bank for money; and stringer explained to me that they were not very fond of going to the bank, as they owed money there, but that i could pay it into my account. only i kept my account at the other bank." "you might have paid it in there?" said johnny. "i suppose i might, but i didn't. i gave it to poor mr. crawley instead,--like a fool, as i know now that i was. and so i have brought all this trouble on him and on her; and now i must rush home, without waiting for the dean, as fast as the trains will carry me." eames offered to accompany her, and this offer was accepted. "it is hard upon you, though," she said; "you will see nothing of florence. three hours in venice, and six in florence, and no hours at all anywhere else, will be a hard fate to you on your first trip to italy." but johnny said "excelsior" to himself once more, and thought of lily dale, who was still in london, hoping that she might hear of his exertions; and he felt, perhaps, also, that it would be pleasant to return with a dean's wife, and never hesitated. nor would it do, he thought, for him to be absent in the excitement caused by the news of mr. crawley's innocence and injuries. "i don't care a bit about that," he said. "of course, i should like to see florence, and, of course, i should like to go to bed; but i will live in hopes that i may do both some day." and so there grew to be a friendship between him and mrs. arabin even before they had started. he was driven once through florence; he saw the venus de' medici, and he saw the seggiola; he looked up from the side of the duomo to the top of the campanile, and he walked round the back of the cathedral itself; he tried to inspect the doors of the baptistery, and declared that the "david" was very fine. then he went back to the hotel, dined with mrs. arabin, and started for england. the dean was to have joined his wife at venice, and then they were to have returned together, coming round by florence. mrs. arabin had not, therefore, taken her things away from florence when she left it, and had been obliged to return to pick them up on her journey homewards. he,--the dean,--had been delayed in his eastern travels. neither syria nor constantinople had got themselves done as quickly as he had expected, and he had, consequently, twice written to his wife, begging her to pardon the transgression of his absence for even yet a few days longer. "everything, therefore," as mrs. arabin said, "has conspired to perpetuate this mystery, which a word from me would have solved. i owe more to mr. crawley than i can ever pay him." "he will be very well paid, i think," said john, "when he hears the truth. if you could see inside his mind at this moment, i'm sure you'd find that he thinks he stole the cheque." "he cannot think that, mr. eames. besides, at this moment i hope he has heard the truth." "that may be, but he did think so. i do believe that he had not the slightest notion where he got it; and, which is more, not a single person in the whole county had a notion. people thought that he had picked it up, and used it in his despair. and the bishop has been so hard upon him." "oh, mr. eames, that is the worst of all." "so i am told. the bishop has a wife, i believe." "yes, he has a wife, certainly," said mrs. arabin. "and people say that she is not very good-natured." "there are some of us at barchester who do not love her very dearly. i cannot say that she is one of my own especial friends." "i believe she has been hard to mr. crawley," said john eames. "i should not be in the least surprised," said mrs. arabin. then they reached turin, and there, taking up "galignani's messenger" in the reading-room of trompetta's hotel, john eames saw that mrs. proudie was dead. "look at that," said he, taking the paragraph to mrs. arabin; "mrs. proudie is dead!" "mrs. proudie dead!" she exclaimed. "poor woman! then there will be peace at barchester!" "i never knew her very intimately," she afterwards said to her companion, "and i do not know that i have a right to say that she ever did me an injury. but i remember well her first coming into barchester. my sister's father-in-law, the late bishop, was just dead. he was a mild, kind, dear old man, whom my father loved beyond all the world, except his own children. you may suppose we were all a little sad. i was not specially connected with the cathedral then, except through my father,"--and mrs. arabin, as she told all this, remembered that in the days of which she was speaking she was a young mourning widow,--"but i think i can never forget the sort of harsh-toned pæan of low-church trumpets with which that poor woman made her entry into the city. she might have been more lenient, as we had never sinned by being very high. she might, at any rate, have been more gentle with us at first. i think we had never attempted much beyond decency, good-will and comfort. our comfort she utterly destroyed. good-will was not to her taste. and as for decency, when i remember some things, i must say that when the comfort and good-will went, the decency went along with them. and now she is dead! i wonder how the bishop will get on without her." "like a house on fire, i should think," said johnny. "fie, mr. eames; you shouldn't speak in such a way on such a subject." mrs. arabin and johnny became fast friends as they journeyed home. there was a sweetness in his character which endeared him readily to women; though, as we have seen, there was a want of something to make one woman cling to him. he could be soft and pleasant-mannered. he was fond of making himself useful, and was a perfect master of all those little caressing modes of behaviour in which the caress is quite impalpable, and of which most women know the value and appreciate the comfort. by the time that they had reached paris john had told mrs. arabin the whole story of lily dale and crosbie, and mrs. arabin had promised to assist him, if any assistance might be in her power. "of course i have heard of miss dale," she said, "because we know the de courcys." then she turned away her face, almost blushing, as she remembered the first time that she had seen that lady alexandrina de courcy whom mr. crosbie had married. it had been at mr. thorne's house at ullathorne, and on that day she had done a thing which she had never since remembered without blushing. but it was an old story now, and a story of which her companion knew nothing,--of which he never could know anything. that day at ullathorne mrs. arabin, the wife of the dean of barchester, than whom there was no more discreet clerical matron in the diocese, had--boxed a clergyman's ears! "yes," said john, speaking of crosbie, "he was a wise fellow; he knew what he was about; he married an earl's daughter." "and now i remember hearing that somebody gave him a terrible beating. perhaps it was you?" "it wasn't terrible at all," said johnny. "then it was you?" "oh, yes; it was i." "then it was you who saved poor old lord de guest from the bull?" "go on, mrs. arabin. there is no end of the grand things i've done." "you're quite a hero of romance." he bit his lip as he told himself that he was not enough of a hero. "i don't know about that," said johnny. "i think what a man ought to do in these days is to seem not to care what he eats and drinks, and to have his linen very well got up. then he'll be a hero." but that was hard upon lily. "is that what miss dale requires?" said mrs. arabin. "i was not thinking about her particularly," said johnny, lying. they slept a night in paris, as they had done also at turin,--mrs. arabin not finding herself able to accomplish such marvels in the way of travelling as her companion had achieved--and then arrived in london in the evening. she was taken to a certain quiet clerical hotel at the top of suffolk street, much patronized by bishops and deans of the better sort, expecting to find a message there from her husband. and there was the message--just arrived. the dean had reached florence three days after her departure; and as he would do the journey home in twenty-four hours less than she had taken, he would be there, at the hotel, on the day after to-morrow. "i suppose i may wait for him, mr. eames?" said mrs. arabin. "i will see mr. toogood to-night, and i will call here to-morrow, whether i see him or not. at what hour will you be in?" "don't trouble yourself to do that. you must take care of sir raffle buffle, you know." "i shan't go near sir raffle buffle to-morrow, nor yet the next day. you mustn't suppose that i am afraid of sir raffle buffle." "you are only afraid of lily dale." from all which it may be seen that mrs. arabin and john eames had become very intimate on their way home. it was then arranged that he should call on mr. toogood that same night or early the next morning, and that he should come to the hotel at twelve o'clock on the next day. going along one of the passages he passed two gentlemen in shovel-hats, with very black new coats, and knee-breeches; and johnny could not but hear a few words which one clerical gentleman said to the other. "she was a woman of great energy, of wonderful spirit, but a firebrand, my lord,--a complete firebrand!" then johnny knew that the dean of a. was talking to the bishop of b. about the late mrs. proudie. chapter lxxi. mr. toogood at silverbridge. we will now go back to mr. toogood as he started for silverbridge, on the receipt of mrs. arabin's telegram from venice. "i gave cheque to mr. crawley. it was part of a sum of money. will write to archdeacon grantly to-day, and return home at once." that was the telegram which mr. toogood received at his office, and on receiving which he resolved that he must start to barchester immediately. "it isn't certainly what you may call a paying business," he said to his partner, who continued to grumble; "but it must be done all the same. if it don't get into the ledger in one way it will in another." so mr. toogood started for silverbridge, having sent to his house in tavistock square for a small bag, a clean shirt, and a toothbrush. and as he went down in the railway-carriage, before he went to sleep, he turned it all over in his mind. "poor devil! i wonder whether any man ever suffered so much before. and as for that woman,--it's ten thousand pities that she should have died before she heard it. talk of heart-complaint; she'd have had a touch of heart-complaint if she had known this!" then, as he was speculating how mrs. arabin could have become possessed of the cheque, he went to sleep. he made up his mind that the first person to be seen was mr. walker, and after that he would, if possible, go to archdeacon grantly. he was at first minded to go at once out to hogglestock; but when he remembered how very strange mr. crawley was in all his ways, and told himself professionally that telegrams were but bad sources of evidence on which to depend for details, he thought that it would be safer if he were first to see mr. walker. there would be very little delay. in a day or two the archdeacon would receive his letter, and in a day or two after that mrs. arabin would probably be at home. it was late in the evening before mr. toogood reached the house of the silverbridge solicitor, having the telegram carefully folded in his pocket; and he was shown into the dining-room while the servant took his name up to mr. walker. the clerks were gone, and the office was closed; and persons coming on business at such times,--as they often did come to that house,--were always shown into the parlour. "i don't know whether master can see you to-night," said the girl; "but if he can, he'll come down." when the card was brought up to mr. walker he was sitting alone with his wife. "it's toogood," said he; "poor crawley's cousin." "i wonder whether he has found anything out," said mrs. walker. "may he not come up here?" then mr. toogood was summoned into the drawing-room, to the maid's astonishment; for mr. toogood had made no toilet sacrifices to the goddess or grace who presides over evening society in provincial towns,--and presented himself with the telegram in his hand. "we have found out all about poor crawley's cheque," he said, before the maid-servant had closed the door. "look at that," and he handed the telegram to mr. walker. the poor girl was obliged to go, though she would have given one of her ears to know the exact contents of that bit of paper. "walker, what is it?" said his wife, before walker had had time to make the contents of the document his own. "he got it from mrs. arabin," said toogood. "no!" said mrs. walker. "i thought that was it all along." "it's a pity you didn't say so before," said mr. walker. "so i did; but a lawyer thinks that nobody can ever see anything but himself;--begging your pardon, mr. toogood, but i forgot you were one of us. but, walker, do read it." then the telegram was read. "i gave cheque to mr. crawley. it was part of a sum of money,"--with the rest of it. "i knew it would come out," said mrs. walker. "i was quite sure of it." "but why the mischief didn't he say so?" said walker. "he did say that he got it from the dean," said toogood. "but he didn't get it from the dean; and the dean clearly knew nothing about it." "i'll tell you what it is," said mrs. walker; "it has been some private transaction between mr. crawley and mrs. arabin, which the dean was to know nothing about; and so he wouldn't tell. i must say i honour him." "i don't think it has been that," said walker. "had he known all through that it had come from mrs. arabin, he would never have said that mr. soames gave it to him, and then that the dean gave it him." "the truth has been that he has known nothing about it," said toogood; "and we shall have to tell him." at that moment mary walker came into the room, and mrs. walker could not constrain herself. "mary, mr. crawley is all right. he didn't steal the cheque. mrs. arabin gave it to him." "who says so? how do you know? oh, dear; i am so happy, if it's true." then she saw mr. toogood, and curtseyed. "it is quite true, my dear," said mr. walker. "mr. toogood has had a message by the wires from mrs. arabin at venice. she is coming home at once, and no doubt everything will be put right. in the meantime, it may be a question whether we should not hold our tongues. mr. crawley himself, i suppose, knows nothing of it yet?" "not a word," said toogood. "papa, i must tell miss prettyman," said mary. "i should think that probably all silverbridge knows it by this time," said mrs. walker, "because jane was in the room when the announcement was made. you may be sure that every servant in the house has been told." mary walker, not waiting for any further command from her father, hurried out of the room to convey the secret to her special circle of friends. it was known throughout silverbridge that night, and indeed it made so much commotion that it kept many people for an hour out of their beds. ladies who were not in the habit of going out late at night without the fly from the "george and vulture," tied their heads up in their handkerchiefs, and hurried up and down the street to tell each other that the great secret had been discovered, and that in truth mr. crawley had not stolen the cheque. the solution of the mystery was not known to all,--was known on that night only to the very select portion of the aristocracy of silverbridge to whom it was communicated by mary walker or miss anne prettyman. for mary walker, when earnestly entreated by jane, the parlour-maid, to tell her something more of the great news, had so far respected her father's caution as to say not a word about mrs. arabin. "is it true, miss mary, that he didn't steal it?" jane asked imploringly. "it is true. he did not steal it." "and who did, miss mary? indeed i won't tell anybody." "nobody. but don't ask any more questions, for i won't answer them. get me my hat at once, for i want to go up to miss prettyman's." then jane got miss walker's hat, and immediately afterwards scampered into the kitchen with the news. "oh, law, cook, it's all come out! mr. crawley's as innocent as the unborn babe. the gentleman upstairs what's just come, and was here once before,--for i know'd him immediate,--i heard him say so. and master said so too." "did master say so his own self?" asked the cook. "indeed he did; and miss mary told me the same this moment." "if master said so, then there ain't a doubt as they'll find him innocent. and who took'd it, jane?" "miss mary says as nobody didn't steal it." "that's nonsense, jane. it stands to reason as somebody had it as hadn't ought to have had it. but i'm as glad as anything as how that poor reverend gent 'll come off;--i am. they tells me it's weeks sometimes before a bit of butcher's meat finds its way into his house." then the groom and the housemaid and the cook, one after another, took occasion to slip out of the back-door, and poor jane, who had really been the owner of the news, was left alone to answer the bell. miss walker found the two miss prettymans sitting together over their accounts in the elder miss prettyman's private room. and she could see at once by signs which were not unfamiliar to her that miss anne prettyman was being scolded. it often happened that miss anne prettyman was scolded, especially when the accounts were brought out upon the table. "sister, they are illegible," mary walker heard, as the servant opened the door for her. "i don't think it's quite so bad as that," said miss anne, unable to restrain her defence. then, as mary entered the room, miss prettyman the elder laid her hands down on certain books and papers as though to hide them from profane eyes. "i am glad to see you, mary," said miss prettyman, gravely. "i've brought such a piece of news," said mary. "i knew you'd be glad to hear it, so i ventured to disturb you." "is it good news?" said anne prettyman. "very good news. mr. crawley is innocent." both the ladies sprung on to their legs. even miss prettyman herself jumped up on to her legs. "no!" said anne. "your father has discovered it?" said miss prettyman. "not exactly that. mr. toogood has come down from london to tell him. mr. toogood, you know, is mr. crawley's cousin; and he is a lawyer, like papa." it may be observed that ladies belonging to the families of solicitors always talk about lawyers, and never about attorneys or barristers. "and does mr. toogood say that mr. crawley is innocent?" asked miss prettyman. "he has heard it by a message from mrs. arabin. but you mustn't mention this. you won't, please, because papa has asked me not. i told him that i should tell you." then, for the first time, the frown passed away entirely from miss prettyman's face, and the papers and account-books were pushed aside, as being of no moment. the news had been momentous enough to satisfy her. mary continued her story almost in a whisper. "it was mrs. arabin who sent the cheque to mr. crawley. she says so herself. so that makes mr. crawley quite innocent. i am so glad." "but isn't it odd he didn't say so?" said miss prettyman. "nevertheless, it's true," said mary. "perhaps he forgot," said anne prettyman. "men don't forget such things as that," said the elder sister. "i really do think mr. crawley could forget anything," said the younger sister. "you may be sure it's true," said mary walker, "because papa said so." "if he said so, it must be true," said miss prettyman; "and i am rejoiced. i really am rejoiced. poor man! poor ill-used man! and nobody has ever believed that he has really been guilty, even though they may have thought that he spent the money without any proper right to it. and now he will get off. but dear me, mary, mr. smithe told me yesterday that he had already given up his living, and that mr. spooner, the minor canon, was trying to get it from the dean. but that was because mr. spooner and mrs. proudie had quarrelled; and as mrs. proudie is gone, mr. spooner very likely won't want to move now." "they'll never go and put anybody into hogglestock, annabella, over mr. crawley's head," said anne. "i didn't say that they would. surely i may be allowed to repeat what i hear, like another person, without being snapped up." "i didn't mean to snap you up, annabella." "you're always snapping me up. but if this is true, i cannot say how glad i am. my poor grace! now, i suppose, there will be no difficulty, and grace will become a great lady." then they discussed very minutely the chances of grace crawley's promotion. john walker, mr. winthrop, and several others of the chosen spirits of silverbridge, were playing whist at a provincial club, which had established itself in the town, when the news was brought to them. though mr. winthrop was the partner of the great walker, and though john walker was the great man's son, i fear that the news reached their ears in but an underhand sort of way. as for the great man himself, he never went near the club, preferring his slippers and tea at home. the walkerian groom, rushing up the street to the "george and vulture," paused a moment to tell his tidings to the club porter; from the club porter it was whispered respectfully to the silverbridge apothecary, who, by special grace, was a member of the club;--and was by him repeated with much cautious solemnity over the card-table. "who told you that, balsam?" said john walker, throwing down his cards. "i've just heard it," said balsam. "i don't believe it," said john. "i shouldn't wonder if it's true," said winthrop. "i always said that something would turn up." "will you bet three to one he is not found guilty?" said john walker. "done," said winthrop; "in pounds." that morning the odds in the club against the event had been only two to one. but as the matter was discussed, the men in the club began to believe the tidings, and before he went home, john walker would have been glad to hedge his bet on any terms. after he had spoken to his father, he gave his money up for lost. but mr. walker,--the great walker,--had more to do that night before his son came home from the club. he and mr. toogood agreed that it would be right that they should see dr. tempest at once, and they went over together to the rectory. it was past ten at this time, and they found the doctor almost in the act of putting out the candles for the night. "i could not but come to you, doctor," said mr. walker, "with the news my friend has brought. mrs. arabin gave the cheque to crawley. here is a telegram from her saying so." and the telegram was handed to the doctor. he stood perfectly silent for a few minutes, reading it over and over again. "i see it all," he said, when he spoke at last. "i see it all now; and i must own i was never before so much puzzled in my life." "i own i can't see why she should have given him mr. soames's cheque," said mr. walker. "i can't say where she got it, and i own i don't much care," said dr. tempest. "but i don't doubt but what she gave it him without telling the dean, and that crawley thought it came from the dean. i'm very glad. i am, indeed, very glad. i do not know that i ever pitied a man so much in my life as i have pitied mr. crawley." "it must have been a hard case when it has moved him," said mr. walker to mr. toogood as they left the clergyman's house; and then the silverbridge attorney saw the attorney from london home to his inn. it was the general opinion at silverbridge that the news from venice ought to be communicated to the crawleys by major grantly. mary walker had expressed this opinion very strongly, and her mother had agreed with her. miss prettyman also felt that poetical justice, or, at least, the romance of justice, demanded this; and, as she told her sister anne after mary walker left her, she was of opinion that such an arrangement might tend to make things safe. "i do think he is an honest man and a fine fellow," said miss prettyman; "but, my dear, you know what the proverb says, 'there's many a slip 'twixt the cup and the lip.'" miss prettyman thought that anything which might be done to prevent a slip ought to be done. the idea that the pleasant task of taking the news out to hogglestock ought to be confided to major grantly was very general; but then mr. walker was of opinion that the news ought not to be taken to hogglestock at all till something more certain than the telegram had reached them. early on the following morning the two lawyers again met, and it was arranged between them that the london lawyer should go over at once to barchester, and that the silverbridge lawyer should see major grantly. mr. toogood was still of opinion that with due diligence something might yet be learned as to the cheque, by inquiry among the denizens of "the dragon of wantly;" and his opinion to this effect was stronger than ever when he learned from mr. walker that "the dragon of wantly" belonged to mrs. arabin. mr. walker, after breakfast, had himself driven up in his open carriage to cosby lodge, and, as he entered the gates, observed that the auctioneer's bills as to the sale had been pulled down. the mr. walkers of the world know everything, and our mr. walker had quite understood that the major was leaving cosby lodge because of some misunderstanding with his father. the exact nature of the misunderstanding he did not know, even though he was mr. walker, but had little doubt that it referred in some way to grace crawley. if the archdeacon's objection to grace arose from the imputation against the father, that objection would now be removed, but the abolition of the posters could not as yet have been owing to any such cause as that. mr. walker found the major at the gate of the farmyard attached to cosby lodge, and perceived that at that very moment he was engaged in superintending the abolition of sundry other auctioneer's bills from sundry other posts. "what is all this about?" said mr. walker, greeting the major. "is there to be no sale after all?" [illustration: "no sale after all?"] "it has been postponed," said the major. "postponed for good, i hope? bill to be read again this day six months!" said mr. walker. "i rather think not. but circumstances have induced me to have it put off." mr. walker had got out of the carriage and had taken major grantly aside. "just come a little further," he said; "i've something special to tell you. news reached me last night which will clear mr. crawley altogether. we know now where he got the cheque." "you don't tell me so!" "yes, i do. and though the news has reached us in such a way that we cannot act upon it till it's confirmed, i do not in the least doubt it." "and how did he get it?" "you cannot guess?" "not in the least," said the major; "unless, after all, soames gave it to him." "soames did not give it to him, but mrs. arabin did." "mrs. arabin?" "yes, mrs. arabin." "not the dean?" "no, not the dean. what we know is this, that your aunt has telegraphed to crawley's cousin, toogood, to say that she gave crawley that cheque, and that she has written to your father about it at length. we do not like to tell crawley till that letter has been received. it is so easy, you know, to misunderstand a telegram, and the wrong copying of a word may make such a mistake!" "when was it received?" "toogood received it in london only yesterday morning. your father will not get his letter, as i calculate, till the day after to-morrow. but, perhaps, you had better go over and see him, and prepare him for it. toogood has gone to barchester this morning." to this proposition grantly made no immediate answer. he could not but remember the terms on which he had left his father; and though he had, most unwillingly, pulled down the auctioneer's bills, in compliance with his mother's last prayer to him,--and, indeed, had angrily told the auctioneer to send him in his bill when the auctioneer had demurred to these proceedings,--nevertheless he was hardly prepared to discuss the matter of mr. crawley with his father in pleasant words,--in words which should be full of rejoicing. it was a great thing for him, henry grantly, that mr. crawley should be innocent, and he did rejoice; but he had intended his father to understand that he meant to persevere, whether mr. crawley were innocent or guilty, and thus he would now lose an opportunity for exhibiting his obstinacy,--an opportunity which had not been without a charm for him. he must console himself as best he might with the returning prospect of assured prosperity, and with his renewed hopes as to the plumstead foxes! "we think, major, that when the time comes you ought to be the bearer of the news to hogglestock," said mr. walker. then the major did undertake to convey the news to hogglestock, but he made no promise as to going over to plumstead. chapter lxxii. mr. toogood at "the dragon of wantly." in accordance with his arrangement with mr. walker, mr. toogood went over to barchester early in the morning and put himself up at "the dragon of wantly." he now knew the following facts: that mr. soames, when he lost his cheque, had had with him one of the servants from that inn,--that the man who had been with mr. soames had gone to new zealand,--that the cheque had found its way into the hands of mrs. arabin, and that mrs. arabin was the owner of the inn in question. so much he believed to be within his knowledge, and if his knowledge should prove to be correct, his work would be done as far as mr. crawley was concerned. if mr. crawley had not stolen the cheque, and if that could be proved, it would be a question of no great moment to mr. toogood who had stolen it. but he was a sportsman in his own line who liked to account for his own fox. as he was down at barchester, he thought that he might as well learn how the cheque had got into mrs. arabin's hands. no doubt that for her own personal possession of it she would be able to account on her return. probably such account would be given in her first letter home. but it might be well that he should be prepared with any small circumstantial details which he might be able to pick up at the inn. he reached barchester before breakfast, and in ordering his tea and toast, reminded the old waiter with the dirty towel of his former acquaintance with him. "i remember you, sir," said the old waiter. "i remember you very well. you was asking questions about the cheque which mr. soames lost afore christmas." mr. toogood certainly had asked one question on the subject. he had inquired whether a certain man who had gone to new zealand had been the post-boy who accompanied mr. soames when the cheque was lost; and the waiter had professed to know nothing about mr. soames or the cheque. he now perceived at once that the gist of the question had remained on the old man's mind, and that he was recognized as being in some way connected with the lost money. "did i? ah, yes; i think i did. and i think you told me that he was the man?" "no, sir; i never told you that." "then you told me that he wasn't." "nor i didn't tell you that neither," said the waiter angrily. "then what the devil did you tell me?" to this further question the waiter sulkily declined to give any answer, and soon afterwards left the room. toogood, as soon as he had done his breakfast, rang the bell, and the same man appeared. "will you tell mr. stringer that i should be glad to see him if he's disengaged," said mr. toogood. "i know he's bad with the gout, and therefore if he'll allow me, i'll go to him instead of his coming to me." mr. stringer was the landlord of the inn. the waiter hesitated a moment, and then declared that to the best of his belief his master was not down. he would go and see. toogood, however, would not wait for that; but rising quickly and passing the waiter, crossed the hall from the coffee-room, and entered what was called the bar. the bar was a small room connected with the hall by a large open window, at which orders for rooms were given and cash was paid, and glasses of beer were consumed,--and a good deal of miscellaneous conversation was carried on. the barmaid was here at the window, and there was also, in a corner of the room, a man at a desk with a red nose. toogood knew that the man at the desk with the red nose was mr. stringer's clerk. so much he had learned in his former rummaging about the inn. and he also remembered at this moment that he had observed the man with the red nose standing under a narrow archway in the close as he was coming out of the deanery, on the occasion of his visit to mr. harding. it had not occurred to him then that the man with the red nose was watching him, but it did occur to him now that the man with the red nose had been there, under the arch, with the express purpose of watching him on that occasion. mr. toogood passed quickly through the bar into an inner parlour, in which was sitting mr. stringer, the landlord, propped among his cushions. toogood, as he had entered the hotel, had seen mr. stringer so placed, through the two doors, which at that moment had both happened to be open. he knew therefore that his old friend the waiter had not been quite true to him in suggesting that his master was not as yet down. as toogood cast a glance of his eye on the man with the red nose, he told himself the old story of the apparition under the archway. "mr. stringer," said mr. toogood to the landlord, "i hope i'm not intruding." "o dear, no, sir," said the forlorn man. "nobody ever intrudes coming in here. i'm always happy to see gentlemen,--only, mostly, i'm so bad with the gout." "have you got a sharp touch of it just now, mr. stringer?" "not just to-day, sir. i've been a little easier since saturday. the worst of this burst is over. but lord bless you, sir, it don't leave me,--not for a fortnight at a time, now; it don't. and it ain't what i drink, nor it ain't what i eat." "constitutional, i suppose?" said toogood. "look here, sir;" and mr. stringer shewed his visitor the chalk stones in all his knuckles. "they say i'm all a mass of chalk. i sometimes think they'll break me up to mark the scores behind my own door with." and mr. stringer laughed at his own wit. mr. toogood laughed too. he laughed loud and cheerily. and then he asked a sudden question, keeping his eye as he did so upon a little square open window, which communicated between the landlord's private room and the bar. through this small aperture he could see as he stood a portion of the hat worn by the man with the red nose. since he had been in the room with the landlord, the man with the red nose had moved his head twice, on each occasion drawing himself closer into his corner; but mr. toogood, by moving also, had still contrived to keep a morsel of the hat in sight. he laughed cheerily at the landlord's joke, and then he asked a sudden question,--looking well at the morsel of the hat as he did so. "mr. stringer," said he, "how do you pay your rent, and to whom do you pay it?" there was immediately a jerk in the hat, and then it disappeared. toogood, stepping to the open door, saw that the red-nosed clerk had taken his hat off and was very busy at his accounts. "how do i pay my rent?" said mr. stringer, the landlord. "well, sir, since this cursed gout has been so bad, it's hard enough to pay it at all sometimes. you ain't sent here to look for it, sir, are you?" "not i," said toogood. "it was only a chance question." he felt that he had nothing more to do with mr. stringer, the landlord. mr. stringer, the landlord, knew nothing about mr. soames's cheque. "what's the name of your clerk?" said he. "the name of my clerk?" said mr. stringer. "why do you want to know the name of my clerk?" "does he ever pay your rent for you?" "well, yes; he does, at times. he pays it into the bank for the lady as owns the house. is there any reason for your asking these questions, sir? it isn't usual, you know, for a stranger, sir." toogood during the whole of this time was standing with his eye upon the red-nosed man, and the red-nosed man could not move. the red-nosed man heard all the questions and the landlord's answers, and could not even pretend that he did not hear them. "i am my cousin's clerk," said he, putting on his hat, and coming up to mr. toogood with a swagger. "my name is dan stringer, and i'm mr. john stringer's cousin. i've lived with mr. john stringer for twelve year and more, and i'm a'most as well known in barchester as himself. have you anything to say to me, sir?" "well, yes; i have," said toogood. "i believe you're one of them attorneys from london?" said mr. dan stringer. "that's true. i am an attorney from london." "i hope there's nothing wrong?" said the gouty man, trying to get off his chair, but not succeeding. "if there is anything wronger than usual, dan, do tell me. is there anything wrong, sir?" and the landlord appealed piteously to mr. toogood. "never you mind, john," said dan. "you keep yourself quiet, and don't answer none of his questions. he's one of them low sort, he is. i know him. i knowed him for what he is directly i saw him. ferreting about,--that's his game; to see if there's anything to be got." "but what is he ferreting here for?" said mr. john stringer. "i'm ferreting for mr. soames's cheque for twenty pounds," said mr. toogood. "that's the cheque that the parson stole," said dan stringer. "he's to be tried for it at the 'sizes." "you've heard about mr. soames and his cheque, and about mr. crawley, i daresay?" said toogood. "i've heard a deal about them," said the landlord. "and so, i daresay, have you?" said toogood, turning to dan stringer. but dan stringer did not seem inclined to carry on the conversation any further. when he was hardly pressed, he declared that he just had heard that there was some parson in trouble about a sum of money; but that he knew no more about it than that. he didn't know whether it was a cheque or a note that the parson had taken, and had never been sufficiently interested in the matter to make any inquiry. "but you've just said that mr. soames's cheque was the cheque the parson stole," said the astonished landlord, turning with open eyes upon his cousin. "you be blowed," said dan stringer, the clerk, to mr. john stringer, the landlord; and then walked out of the room back to the bar. "i understand nothing about it,--nothing at all," said the gouty man. "i understand pretty nearly all about it," said mr. toogood, following the red-nosed clerk. there was no necessity that he should trouble the landlord any further. he left the room, and went through the bar, and as he passed out along the hall, he found dan stringer with his hat on talking to the waiter. the waiter immediately pulled himself up, and adjusted his dirty napkin under his arm, after the fashion of waiters, and showed that he intended to be civil to the customers of the house. but he of the red nose cocked his hat, and looked with insolence at mr. toogood, and defied him. "there's nothing i do hate so much as them low-bred old bailey attorneys," said mr. dan stringer to the waiter, in a voice intended to reach mr. toogood's ears. then mr. toogood told himself that dan stringer was not the thief himself, and that it might be very difficult to prove that dan had even been the receiver of stolen goods. he had, however, no doubt in his own mind but that such was the case. he first went to the police office, and there explained his business. nobody at the police office pretended to forget mr. soames's cheque, or mr. crawley's position. the constable went so far as to swear that there wasn't a man, woman, or child in all barchester who was not talking of mr. crawley at that very moment. then mr. toogood went with the constable to the private house of the mayor, and had a little conversation with the mayor. "not guilty!" said the mayor, with incredulity, when he first heard the news about crawley. but when he heard mr. toogood's story, or as much of it as it was necessary that he should hear, he yielded reluctantly. "dear, dear!" he said. "i'd have bet anything 'twas he who stole it." and after that the mayor was quite sad. only let us think what a comfortable excitement it would create throughout england if it was surmised that an archbishop had forged a deed; and how much england would lose when it was discovered that the archbishop was innocent! as the archbishop and his forgery would be to england, so was mr. crawley and the cheque for twenty pounds to barchester and its mayor. nevertheless, the mayor promised his assistance to mr. toogood. mr. toogood, still neglecting his red-nosed friend, went next to the deanery, hoping that he might again see mr. harding. mr. harding was, he was told, too ill to be seen. mr. harding, mrs. baxter said, could never be seen now by strangers, nor yet by friends, unless they were very old friends. "there's been a deal of change since you were here last, sir. i remember your coming, sir. you were talking to mr. harding about the poor clergyman as is to be tried." he did not stop to tell mrs. baxter the whole story of mr. crawley's innocence; but having learned that a message had been received to say that mrs. arabin would be home on the next tuesday,--this being friday,--he took his leave of mrs. baxter. his next visit was to mr. soames, who lived three miles out in the country. he found it very difficult to convince mr. soames. mr. soames was more staunch in his belief of mr. crawley's guilt than any one whom toogood had yet encountered. "i never took the cheque out of his house," said mr. soames. "but you have not stated that on oath," said mr. toogood. "no," rejoined the other; "and i never will. i can't swear to it; but yet i'm sure of it." he acknowledged that he had been driven by a man named scuttle, and that scuttle might have picked up the cheque, if it had been dropped in the gig. but the cheque had not been dropped in the gig. the cheque had been dropped in mr. crawley's house. "why did he say then that i paid it to him?" said mr. soames, when mr. toogood spoke confidently of crawley's innocence. "ah, why indeed?" answered toogood. "if he had not been fool enough to do that, we should have been saved all this trouble. all the same, he did not steal your money, mr. soames; and jem scuttle did steal it. unfortunately, jem scuttle is in new zealand by this time." "of course, it is possible," said mr. soames, as he bowed mr. toogood out. mr. soames did not like mr. toogood. that evening a gentleman with a red nose asked at the barchester station for a second-class ticket for london by the up night-mail train. he was well known at the station, and the station-master made some little inquiry. "all the way to london to-night, mr. stringer?" he said. "yes,--all the way," said the red-nosed man, sulkily. "i don't think you'd better go to london to-night, mr. stringer," said a tall man, stepping out of the door of the booking-office. "i think you'd better come back with me to barchester. i do indeed." there was some little argument on the occasion; but the stranger, who was a detective policeman, carried his point, and mr. dan stringer did return to barchester. chapter lxxiii. there is comfort at plumstead. [illustration] henry grantly had written the following short letter to mrs. grantly when he made up his mind to pull down the auctioneer's bills. dear mother,-- i have postponed the sale, not liking to refuse you anything. as far as i can see, i shall still be forced to leave cosby lodge, as i certainly shall do all i can to make grace crawley my wife. i say this that there may be no misunderstanding with my father. the auctioneer has promised to have the bills removed. your affectionate son, henry grantly. this had been written by the major on the friday before mr. walker had brought up to him the tidings of mr. toogood and mrs. arabin's solution of the crawley difficulty; but it did not reach plumstead till the following morning. mrs. grantly immediately took the good news about the sale to her husband,--not of course showing him the letter, being far too wise for that, and giving him credit for being too wise to ask for it. "henry has arranged with the auctioneer," she said joyfully; "and the bills have been all pulled down." "how do you know?" "i've just heard from him. he has told me so. come, my dear, let me have the pleasure of hearing you say that things shall be pleasant again between you and him. he has yielded." "i don't see much yielding in it." "he has done what you wanted. what more can he do?" "i want him to come over here, and take an interest in things, and not treat me as though i were nobody." within an hour of this the major had arrived at plumstead, laden with the story of mrs. arabin and the cheque, and of mr. crawley's innocence,--laden not only with such tidings as he had received from mr. walker, but also with further details, which he had received from mr. toogood. for he had come through barchester, and had seen mr. toogood on his way. this was on the saturday morning, and he had breakfasted with mr. toogood at "the dragon of wantly." mr. toogood had told him of his suspicions,--how the red-nosed man had been stopped, and had been summoned as a witness for mr. crawley's trial,--and how he was now under the surveillance of the police. grantly had not cared very much about the red-nosed man, confining his present solicitude to the question whether grace crawley's father would certainly be shown to have been innocent of the theft. "there's not a doubt about it, major," said mr. toogood; "not a doubt on earth. but we'd better be a little quiet till your aunt comes home,--just a little quiet. she'll be here in a day or two, and i won't budge till she comes." in spite of his desire for quiescence mr. toogood consented to a revelation being at once made to the archdeacon and mrs. grantly. "and i'll tell you what, major; as soon as ever mrs. arabin is here, and has given us her own word to act on, you and i will go over to hogglestock and astonish them. i should like to go myself, because, you see, mrs. crawley is my cousin, and we have taken a little trouble about this matter." to this the major assented; but he altogether declined to assist in mr. toogood's speculations respecting the unfortunate dan stringer. it was agreed between them that for the present no visit should be made to the palace, as it was thought that mr. thumble had better be allowed to do the hogglestock duties on the next sunday. as matters went, however, mr. thumble did not do so. he had paid his last visit to hogglestock. it may be as well to explain here that the unfortunate mr. snapper was constrained to go out to hogglestock on the sunday which was now approaching,--which fell out as follows. it might be all very well for mr. toogood to arrange that he would not tell this person or that person of the news which he had brought down from london; but as he had told various people in silverbridge, as he had told mr. soames, and as he had told the police at barchester, of course the tale found its way to the palace. mr. thumble heard it, and having come by this time thoroughly to hate hogglestock and all that belonged to it, he pleaded to mr. snapper that this report afforded ample reason why he need not again visit that detestable parish. mr. snapper did not see it in the same light. "you may be sure mr. crawley will not get into the pulpit after his resignation, mr. thumble," said he. "his resignation means nothing," said thumble. "it means a great deal," said snapper; "and the duties must be provided for." "i won't provide for them," said thumble; "and so you may tell the bishop." in these days mr. thumble was very angry with the bishop, for the bishop had not yet seen him since the death of mrs. proudie. mr. snapper had no alternative but to go to the bishop. the bishop in these days was very mild to those whom he saw, given but to few words, and a little astray,--as though he had had one of his limbs cut off,--as mr. snapper expressed it to mrs. snapper. "i shouldn't wonder if he felt as though all his limbs were cut off," said mrs. snapper; "you must give him time, and he'll come round by-and-by." i am inclined to think that mrs. snapper's opinion of the bishop's feelings and condition was correct. in his difficulty respecting hogglestock and mr. thumble mr. snapper went to the bishop, and spoke perhaps a little harshly of mr. thumble. "i think, upon the whole, snapper, that you had better go yourself," said the bishop. "do you think so, my lord?" said snapper. "it will be inconvenient." "everything is inconvenient; but you'd better go. and look here, snapper, if i were you, i wouldn't say anything out at hogglestock about the cheque. we don't know what it may come to yet." mr. snapper, with a heavy heart, left his patron, not at all liking the task that was before him. but his wife encouraged him to be obedient. he was the owner of a one-horse carriage, and the work was not, therefore, so hard to him as it would have been and had been to poor mr. thumble. and, moreover, his wife promised to go with him. mr. snapper and mrs. snapper did go over to hogglestock, and the duty was done. mrs. snapper spoke a word or two to mrs. crawley, and mr. snapper spoke a word or two to mr. crawley; but not a word was said about the new news as to mr. soames's cheque, which were now almost current in barchester. indeed, no whisper about it had as yet reached hogglestock. "one word with you, reverend sir," said mr. crawley to the chaplain, as the latter was coming out of the church, "as to the parish work, sir, during the week;--i should be glad if you would favour me with your opinion." "about what, mr. crawley?" "whether you think that i may be allowed, without scandal, to visit the sick,--and to give instruction in the school." "surely;--surely, mr. crawley. why not?" "mr. thumble gave me to understand that the bishop was very urgent that i should interfere in no way in the ministrations of the parish. twice did he enjoin on me that i should not interfere,--unnecessarily, as it seemed to me." "quite unnecessary," said mr. snapper. "and the bishop will be obliged to you, mr. crawley, if you'll just see that the things go on all straight." "i wish it were possible to know with accuracy what his idea of straightness is," said mr. crawley to his wife. "it may be that things are straight to him when they are buried as it were out of sight, and put away without trouble. i hope it be not so with the bishop." when he went into his school and remembered,--as he did remember through every minute of his teaching--that he was to receive no portion of the poor stipend which was allotted for the clerical duties of the parish, he told himself that there was gross injustice in the way in which things were being made straight at hogglestock. but we must go back to the major and to the archdeacon at plumstead,--in which comfortable parish things were generally made straight more easily than at hogglestock. henry grantly went over from barchester to plumstead in a gig from the "dragon," and made his way at once into his father's study. the archdeacon was seated there with sundry manuscripts before him, and with one half-finished manuscript,--as was his wont on every saturday morning. "halloo, harry," he said. "i didn't expect you in the least." it was barely an hour since he had told mrs. grantly that his complaint against his son was that he wouldn't come and make himself comfortable at the rectory. "father," said he, giving the archdeacon his hand, "you have heard nothing yet about mr. crawley?" "no," said the archdeacon jumping up; "nothing new;--what is it?" many ideas about mr. crawley at that moment flitted across the archdeacon's mind. could it be that the unfortunate man had committed suicide, overcome by his troubles? "it has all come out. he got the cheque from my aunt." "from your aunt eleanor?" "yes; from my aunt eleanor. she has telegraphed over from venice to say that she gave the identical cheque to crawley. that is all we know at present,--except that she has written an account of the matter to you, and that she will be here herself as quick as she can come." "who got the message, henry?" "crawley's lawyer,--a fellow named toogood, a cousin of his wife's;--a very decent fellow," added the major, remembering how necessary it was that he should reconcile his father to all the crawley belongings. "he's to be over here on monday, and then will arrange what is to be done." "done in what way, henry?" "there's a great deal to be done yet. crawley does not know himself at this moment how the cheque got into his hands. he must be told, and something must be settled about the living. they've taken the living away from him among them. and then the indictment must be quashed, or something of that kind done. toogood has got hold of the scoundrel at barchester who really stole the cheque from soames;--or thinks that he has. it's that dan stringer." "he's got hold of a regular scamp then. i never knew any good of dan stringer," said the archdeacon. then mrs. grantly was told, and the whole story was repeated again, with many expressions of commiseration in reference to all the crawleys. the archdeacon did not join in these at first, being rather shy on that head. it was very hard for him to have to speak to his son about the crawleys as though they were people in all respects estimable and well-conducted, and satisfactory. mrs. grantly understood this so well, that every now and then she said some half-laughing word respecting mr. crawley's peculiarities, feeling that in this way she might ease her husband's difficulties. "he must be the oddest man that ever lived," said mrs. grantly, "not to have known where he got the cheque." the archdeacon shook his head, and rubbed his hands as he walked about the room. "i suppose too much learning has upset him," said the archdeacon. "they say he's not very good at talking english, but put him on in greek and he never stops." the archdeacon was perfectly aware that he had to admit mr. crawley to his goodwill, and that as for grace crawley,--it was essentially necessary that she should be admitted to his heart of hearts. he had promised as much. it must be acknowledged that archdeacon grantly always kept his promises, and especially such promises as these. and indeed it was the nature of the man that when he had been very angry with those he loved, he should be unhappy until he had found some escape from his anger. he could not endure to have to own himself to have been in the wrong, but he could be content with a very incomplete recognition of his having been in the right. the posters had been pulled down and mr. crawley, as he was now told, had not stolen the cheque. that was sufficient. if his son would only drink a glass or two of wine with him comfortably, and talk dutifully about the plumstead foxes, all should be held to be right, and grace crawley should be received with lavish paternal embraces. the archdeacon had kissed grace once, and felt that he could do so again without an unpleasant strain upon his feelings. "say something to your father about the property after dinner," said mrs. grantly to her son when they were alone together. "about what property?" "about this property, or any property; you know what i mean;--something to show that you are interested about his affairs. he is doing the best he can to make things right." after dinner, over the claret, mr. thorne's terrible sin in reference to the trapping of foxes was accordingly again brought up, and the archdeacon became beautifully irate, and expressed his animosity,--which he did not in the least feel,--against an old friend with an energy which would have delighted his wife, if she could have heard him. "i shall tell thorne my mind, certainly. he and i are very old friends; we have known each other all our lives; but i cannot put up with this kind of thing,--and i will not. it's all because he's afraid of his own gamekeeper." and yet the archdeacon had never ridden after a fox in his life, and never meant to do so. nor had he in truth been always so very anxious that foxes should be found in his covers. that fox which had been so fortunately trapped just outside the plumstead property afforded a most pleasant escape for the steam of his anger. when he began to talk to his wife that evening about mr. thorne's wicked gamekeeper, she was so sure that all was right, that she said a word of her extreme desire to see grace crawley. "if he is to marry her, we might as well have her over here," said the archdeacon. "that's just what i was thinking," said mrs. grantly. and thus things at the rectory got themselves arranged. on the sunday morning the expected letter from venice came to hand, and was read on that morning very anxiously, not only by mrs. grantly and the major, but by the archdeacon also, in spite of the sanctity of the day. indeed the archdeacon had been very stoutly anti-sabbatarial when the question of stopping the sunday post to plumstead had been mooted in the village, giving those who on that occasion were the special friends of the postman to understand that he considered them to be numskulls, and little better than idiots. the postman, finding the parson to be against him, had seen that there was no chance for him, and had allowed the matter to drop. mrs. arabin's letter was long and eager, and full of repetitions, but it did explain clearly to them the exact manner in which the cheque had found its way into mr. crawley's hand. "francis came up to me," she said in her letter,--francis being her husband, the dean,--"and asked me for the money, which i had promised to make up in a packet. the packet was not ready, and he would not wait, declaring that mr. crawley was in such a flurry that he did not like to leave him. i was therefore to bring it down to the door. i went to my desk, and thinking that i could spare the twenty pounds as well as the fifty, i put the cheque into the envelope, together with the notes, and handed the packet to francis at the door. i think i told francis afterwards that i put seventy pounds into the envelope, instead of fifty, but of this i will not be sure. _at any rate, mr. crawley got mr. soames's cheque from me._" these last words she underscored, and then went on to explain how the cheque had been paid to her a short time before by dan stringer. "then toogood has been right about the fellow," said the archdeacon. "i hope they'll hang him," said mrs. grantly. "he must have known all the time what dreadful misery he was bringing upon this unfortunate family." "i don't suppose dan stringer cared much about that," said the major. "not a straw," said the archdeacon, and then all hurried off to church; and the archdeacon preached the sermon in the fabrication of which he had been interrupted by his son, and which therefore barely enabled him to turn the quarter of an hour from the giving out of his text. it was his constant practice to preach for full twenty minutes. as barchester lay on the direct road from plumstead to hogglestock, it was thought well that word should be sent to mr. toogood, desiring him not to come out to plumstead on the monday morning. major grantly proposed to call for him at "the dragon," and to take him on from thence to hogglestock. "you had better take your mother's horses all through," said the archdeacon. the distance was very nearly twenty miles, and it was felt both by the mother and the son, that the archdeacon must be in a good humour when he made such a proposition as that. it was not often that the rectory carriage-horses were allowed to make long journeys. a run into barchester and back, which altogether was under ten miles, was generally the extent of their work. "i meant to have posted from barchester," said the major. "you may as well take the horses through," said the archdeacon. "your mother will not want them. and i suppose you might as well bring your friend toogood back to dinner. we'll give him a bed." "he must be a good sort of man," said mrs. grantly; "for i suppose he has done all this for love?" "yes; and spent a lot of money out of his own pocket too!" said the major enthusiastically. "and the joke of it is, that he has been defending crawley in crawley's teeth. mr. crawley had refused to employ counsel; but toogood had made up his mind to have a barrister, on purpose that there might be a fuss about it in court. he thought that it would tell with the jury in crawley's favour." "bring him here, and we'll hear all about that from himself," said the archdeacon. the major, before he started, told his mother that he should call at framley parsonage on his way back; but he said nothing on this subject to his father. "i'll write to her in a day or two," said mrs. grantly, "and we'll have things settled pleasantly." chapter lxxiv. the crawleys are informed. major grantly made an early start, knowing that he had a long day's work before him. he had written over-night to mr. toogood, naming the hour at which he would reach "the dragon," and was there punctual to the moment. when the attorney came out and got into the open carriage, while the groom held the steps for him, it was plain to be seen that the respect in which he was held at "the dragon" was greatly increased. it was already known that he was going to plumstead that night, and it was partly understood that he was engaged with the grantly and arabin faction in defending mr. crawley the clergyman against the proudie faction. dan stringer, who was still at the inn, as he saw his enemy get into the plumstead carriage, felt himself to be one of the palace party, and felt that if mrs. proudie had only lived till after the assizes all this heavy trouble would not have befallen him. the waiter with the dirty napkin stood at the door and bowed, thinking perhaps that as the proudie party was going down in barchester, it might be as well to be civil to mr. toogood. the days of the stringers were probably drawing to a close at "the dragon of wantly," and there was no knowing who might be the new landlord. henry grantly and the lawyer found very little to say to each other on their long way out to hogglestock. they were thinking, probably, much of the coming interview, and hardly knew how to express their thoughts to each other. "i will not take the carriage up to the house," said the major, as they were entering the parish of hogglestock; "particularly as the man must feed the horses." so they got out at a farmhouse about half a mile from the church, where the offence of the carriage and livery-servant would be well out of mr. crawley's sight, and from thence walked towards the parsonage. the church, and the school close to it, lay on their way, and as they passed by the school door they heard voices within. "i'll bet twopence he's there," said toogood. "they tell me he's always either in one shop or the other. i'll slip in and bring him out." mr. toogood had assumed a comfortable air, as though the day's work was to be good pastime, and even made occasional attempts at drollery. he had had his jokes about dan stringer, and had attempted to describe the absurdities of mr. crawley's visit to bedford row. all this would have angered the major, had he not seen that it was assumed to cover something below of which mr. toogood was a little ashamed, but of which, as the major thought, mr. toogood had no cause to be ashamed. when, therefore, toogood proposed to go into the school and bring mr. crawley out, as though the telling of their story would be the easiest thing in the world, the major did not stop him. indeed he had no plan of his own ready. his mind was too intent on the tragedy which had occurred, and which was now to be brought to a close, to enable him to form any plan as to the best way of getting up the last scene. so mr. toogood, with quick and easy steps, entered the school, leaving the major still standing in the road. mr. crawley was in the school;--as was also jane crawley. "so here you are," said toogood. "that's fortunate. i hope i find you pretty well?" "if i am not mistaken in the identity, my wife's relative, mr. toogood?" said mr. crawley, stepping down from his humble desk. "just so, my friend," said toogood, with his hand extended, "just so; and there's another gentleman outside who wants to have a word with you also. perhaps you won't mind stepping out. these are the young hogglestockians; are they?" [illustration: "these are the young hogglestockians, are they?"] the young hogglestockians stared at him, and so did jane. jane, who had before heard of him, did not like him at first sight, seeing that her father was clearly displeased by the tone of the visitor's address. mr. crawley was displeased. there was a familiarity about mr. toogood which made him sore, as having been exhibited before his pupils. "if you will be pleased to step out, sir, i will follow you," he said, waving his hand towards the door. "jane, my dear, if you will remain with the children, i will return to you presently. bobby studge has failed in saying his belief. you had better set him on again from the beginning. now, mr. toogood." and again he waved with his hand towards the door. "so that's my young cousin, is it?" said toogood, stretching over and just managing to touch jane's fingers,--of which act of touching jane was very chary. then he went forth, and mr. crawley followed him. there was the major standing in the road, and toogood was anxious to be the first to communicate the good news. it was the only reward he had proposed to himself for the money he had expended and the time he had lost and the trouble he had taken. "it's all right, old fellow," he said, clapping his hand on crawley's shoulder. "we've got the right sow by the ear at last. we know all about it." mr. crawley could hardly remember the time when he had been called an old fellow last, and now he did not like it; nor, in the confusion of his mind, could he understand the allusion to the right sow. he supposed that mr. toogood had come to him about his trial, but it did not occur to him that the lawyer might be bringing him news which might make the trial altogether unnecessary. "if my eyes are not mistaken, there is my friend, major grantly," said mr. crawley. "there he is, as large as life," said toogood. "but stop a moment before you go to him, and give me your hand. i must have the first shake of it." hereupon crawley extended his hand. "that's right. and now let me tell you we know all about the cheque,--soames's cheque. we know where you got it. we know who stole it. we know how it came to the person who gave it to you. it's all very well talking, but when you're in trouble always go to a lawyer." by this time mr. crawley was looking full into mr. toogood's face, and seeing that his cousin's eyes were streaming with tears, began to get some insight into the man's character, and also some very dim insight into the facts which the man intended to communicate to himself. "i do not as yet fully understand you, sir," said he, "being perhaps in such matters somewhat dull of intellect, but it seemeth to me that you are a messenger of glad tidings, whose feet are beautiful upon the mountains." "beautiful!" said toogood. "by george, i should think they are beautiful! don't you hear me tell you that we have found out all about the cheque, and that you're as right as a trivet?" they were still on the little causeway leading from the school up to the road, and henry grantly was waiting for them at the small wicket-gate. "mr. crawley," said the major, "i congratulate you with all my heart. i could not but accompany my friend, mr. toogood, when he brought you this good news." "i do not even yet altogether comprehend what has been told to me," said crawley, now standing out on the road between the other two men. "i am doubtless dull,--very dull. may i beg some clearer word of explanation before i ask you to go with me to my wife?" "the cheque was given to you by my aunt eleanor." "your aunt eleanor!" said crawley, now altogether in the clouds. who was the major's aunt eleanor? though he had, no doubt, at different times heard all the circumstances of the connection, he had never realized the fact that his daughter's lover was the nephew of his old friend, arabin. "yes; by my aunt, mrs. arabin." "she put it into the envelope with the notes," said toogood;--"slipped it in without saying a word to any one. i never heard of a woman doing such a mad thing in my life before. if she had died, or if we hadn't caught her, where should we all have been? not but what i think i should have run dan stringer to ground too, and worked it out of him." "then, after all, it was given to me by the dean?" said crawley, drawing himself up. "it was in the envelope, but the dean did not know it," said the major. "gentlemen," said mr. crawley, "i was sure of it. i knew it. weak as my mind may be,--and at times it is very weak,--i was certain that i could not have erred in such a matter. the more i struggled with my memory, the more fixed with me became the fact,--which i had forgotten but for a moment,--that the document had formed a part of that small packet handed to me by the dean. but look you, sirs,--bear with me yet for a moment. i said that it was so, and the dean denied it." "the dean did not know it, man," said toogood, almost in a passion. "bear with me yet awhile. so far have i been from misdoubting the dean,--whom i have long known to be in all things a true and honest gentleman,--that i postponed the elaborated result of my own memory to his word. and i felt myself the more constrained to do this, because, in a moment of forgetfulness, in the wantonness of inconsiderate haste, with wicked thoughtlessness, i had allowed myself to make a false statement,--unwittingly false, indeed, nathless very false, unpardonably false. i had declared, without thinking, that the money had come to me from the hands of mr. soames, thereby seeming to cast a reflection upon that gentleman. when i had been guilty of so great a blunder, of so gross a violation of that ordinary care which should govern all words between man and man, especially when any question of money may be in doubt,--how could i expect that any one should accept my statement when contravened by that made by the dean? how, in such an embarrassment, could i believe my own memory? gentlemen, i did not believe my own memory. though all the little circumstances of that envelope, with its rich but perilous freightage, came back upon me from time to time with an exactness that has appeared to me to be almost marvellous, yet i have told myself that it was not so! gentlemen, if you please, we will go into the house; my wife is there, and should no longer be left in suspense." they passed on in silence for a few steps, till crawley spoke again. "perhaps you will allow me the privilege to be alone with her for one minute,--but for a minute. her thanks shall not be delayed, where thanks are so richly due." "of course," said toogood, wiping his eyes with a large red bandana handkerchief. "by all means. we'll take a little walk. come along, major." the major had turned his face away, and he also was weeping. "by george! i never heard such a thing in all my life," said toogood. "i wouldn't have believed it if i hadn't seen it. i wouldn't, indeed. if i were to tell that up in london, nobody would believe me." "i call that man a hero," said grantly. "i don't know about being a hero. i never quite knew what makes a hero, if it isn't having three or four girls dying in love for you at once. but to find a man who was going to let everything in the world go against him, because he believed another fellow better than himself! there's many a chap thinks another man is wool-gathering; but this man has thought he was wool-gathering himself! it's not natural; and the world wouldn't go on if there were many like that. he's beckoning, and we had better go in." mr. toogood went first, and the major followed him. when they entered the front door they saw the skirt of a woman's dress flitting away through the door at the end of the passage, and on entering the room to the left they found mr. crawley alone. "she has fled, as though from an enemy," he said, with a little attempt at a laugh; "but i will pursue her, and bring her back." "no, crawley, no," said the lawyer. "she's a little upset, and all that kind of thing. we know what women are. let her alone." "nay, mr. toogood; but then she would be angered with herself afterwards, and would lack the comfort of having spoken a word of gratitude. pardon me, major grantly; but i would not have you leave us till she has seen you. it is as her cousin says. she is somewhat over-excited. but still it will be best that she should see you. gentlemen, you will excuse me." then he went out to fetch his wife, and while he was away not a word was spoken. the major looked out of one window and mr. toogood out of the other, and they waited patiently till they heard the coming steps of the husband and wife. when the door was opened, mr. crawley appeared, leading his wife by the hand. "my dear," he said, "you know major grantly. this is your cousin, mr. toogood. it is well that you know him too, and remember his great kindness to us." but mrs. crawley could not speak. she could only sink on the sofa, and hide her face, while she strove in vain to repress her sobs. she had been very strong through all her husband's troubles,--very strong in bearing for him what he could not bear for himself, and in fighting on his behalf battles in which he was altogether unable to couch a lance; but the endurance of so many troubles, and the great overwhelming sorrow at last, had so nearly overpowered her, that she could not sustain the shock of this turn in their fortunes. "she was never like this, sirs, when ill news came to us," said mr. crawley, standing somewhat apart from her. the major sat himself by her side, and put his hand upon hers, and whispered some word to her about her daughter. upon this she threw her arms around him, and kissed his face, and then his hands, and then looked up into his face through her tears. she murmured some few words, or attempted to do so. i doubt whether the major understood their meaning, but he knew very well what was in her heart. "and now i think we might as well be moving," said mr. toogood. "i'll see about having the indictment quashed. i'll arrange all that with walker. it may be necessary that you should go into barchester the first day the judges sit; and if so, i'll come and fetch you. you may be sure i won't leave the place till it's all square." as they were going, grantly,--speaking now altogether with indifference as to toogood's presence,--asked mr. crawley's leave to be the bearer of these tidings to his daughter. "she can hear it in no tones that can be more grateful to her," said mr. crawley. "i shall ask her for nothing for myself now," said grantly. "it would be ungenerous. but hereafter,--in a few days,--when she shall be more at ease, may i then use your permission--?" "major grantly," said mr. crawley, solemnly, "i respect you so highly, and esteem you so thoroughly, that i give willingly that which you ask. if my daughter can bring herself to regard you, as a woman should regard her husband, with the love that can worship and cling and be constant, she will, i think, have a fair promise of worldly happiness. and for you, sir, in giving to you my girl,--if so it be that she is given to you,--i shall bestow upon you a great treasure." had grace been a king's daughter, with a queen's dowry, the permission to address her could not have been imparted to her lover with a more thorough appreciation of the value of the privilege conferred. "he is a rum 'un," said mr. toogood, as they got into the carriage together; "but they say he's a very good 'un to go." after their departure jane was sent for, that she might hear the family news; and when she expressed some feeling not altogether in favour of mr. toogood, mr. crawley thus strove to correct her views. "he is a man, my dear, who conceals a warm heart, and an active spirit, and healthy sympathies, under an affected jocularity of manner, and almost with a touch of assumed vulgarity. but when the jewel itself is good, any fault in the casket may be forgiven." "then, papa, the next time i see him i'll like him,--if i can," said jane. the village of framley lies slightly off the road from hogglestock to barchester,--so much so as to add perhaps a mile to the journey if the traveller goes by the parsonage gate. on their route to hogglestock our two travellers had passed framley without visiting the village, but on the return journey the major asked mr. toogood's permission to make the deviation. "i'm not in a hurry," said toogood. "i never was more comfortable in my life. i'll just light a cigar while you go in and see your friends." toogood lit his cigar, and the major, getting down from the carriage, entered the parsonage. it was his fortune to find grace alone. robarts was in barchester, and mrs. robarts was across the road, at lufton court. "miss crawley was certainly in," the servant told him, and he soon found himself in miss crawley's presence. "i have only called to tell you the news about your father," said he. "what news?" "we have just come from hogglestock,--your cousin, mr. toogood, that is, and myself. they have found out all about the cheque. my aunt, mrs. arabin, the dean's wife, you know,--she gave it to your father." "oh, major grantly!" "it seems so easily settled, does it not?" "and is it settled?" "yes; everything. everything about that." now he had hold of her hand as if he were going. "good-by. i told your father that i would just call and tell you." "it seems almost more than i can believe." "you may believe it; indeed you may." he still held her hand. "you will write to your mother i daresay to-night. tell her i was here. good-by now." "good-by," she said. her hand was still in his, as she looked up into his face. "dear, dear, dearest grace! my darling grace!" then he took her into his arms and kissed her, and went his way without another word, feeling that he had kept his word to her father like a gentleman. grace, when she was left alone, thought that she was the happiest girl in christendom. if she could only get to her mother, and tell everything, and be told everything! she had no idea of any promise that her lover might have made to her father, nor did she make inquiry of her own thoughts as to his reasons for staying with her so short a time; but looking back at it all she thought his conduct had been perfect. in the meantime the major, with mr. toogood, was driven home to dinner at plumstead. chapter lxxv. madalina's heart is bleeding. john eames, as soon as he had left mrs. arabin at the hotel and had taken his travelling-bag to his own lodgings, started off for his uncle toogood's house. there he found mrs. toogood, not in the most serene state of mind as to her husband's absence. mr. toogood had now been at barchester for the best part of a week,--spending a good deal of money at the inn. mrs. toogood was quite sure that he must be doing that. indeed, how could he help himself? johnny remarked that he did not see how in such circumstances his uncle was to help himself. and then mr. toogood had only written one short scrap of a letter,--just three words, and they were written in triumph. "crawley is all right, and i think i've got the real simon pure by the heels." "it's all very well, john," mrs. toogood said; "and of course it would be a terrible thing to the family if anybody connected with it were made out to be a thief." "it would be quite dreadful," said johnny. "not that i ever looked upon the crawleys as connections of ours. but, however, let that pass. i'm sure i'm very glad that your uncle should have been able to be of service to them. but there's reason in the roasting of eggs, and i can tell you that money is not so plenty in this house, that your uncle can afford to throw it into the barchester gutters. think what twelve children are, john. it might be all very well if toogood were a bachelor, and if some lord had left him a fortune." john eames did not stay very long in tavistock square. his cousins polly and lucy were gone to the play with mr. summerkin, and his aunt was not in one of her best humours. he took his uncle's part as well as he could, and then left mrs. toogood. the little allusion to lord de guest's generosity had not been pleasant to him. it seemed to rob him of all his own merit. he had been rather proud of his journey to italy, having contrived to spend nearly forty pounds in ten days. he had done everything in the most expensive way, feeling that every napoleon wasted had been laid out on behalf of mr. crawley. but, as mrs. toogood had just told him, all this was nothing to what toogood was doing. toogood with twelve children was living at his own charges at barchester, and was neglecting his business besides. "there's mr. crump," said mrs. toogood. "of course he doesn't like it, and what can i say to him when he comes to me?" this was not quite fair on the part of mrs. toogood, as mr. crump had not troubled her even once as yet since her husband's departure. what was johnny to do, when he left tavistock square? his club was open to him. should he go to his club, play a game of billiards, and have some supper? when he asked himself the question he knew that he would not go to his club, and yet he pretended to doubt about it, as he made his way to a cabstand in tottenham court road. it would be slow, he told himself, to go to his club. he would have gone to see lily dale, only that his intimacy with mrs. thorne was not sufficient to justify his calling at her house between nine and ten o'clock at night. but, as he must go somewhere,--and as his intimacy with lady demolines was, he thought, sufficient to justify almost anything,--he would go to bayswater. i regret to say that he had written a mysterious note from paris to madalina demolines, saying that he should be in london on this very night, and that it was just on the cards that he might make his way up to porchester terrace before he went to bed. the note was mysterious, because it had neither beginning nor ending. it did not contain even initials. it was written like a telegraph message, and was about as long. it was the kind of thing miss demolines liked, johnny thought; and there could be no reason why he should not gratify her. it was her favourite game. some people like whist, some like croquet, and some like intrigue. madalina would probably have called it romance,--because by nature she was romantic. john, who was made of sterner stuff, laughed at this. he knew that there was no romance in it. he knew that he was only amusing himself, and gratifying her at the same time, by a little innocent pretence. he told himself that it was his nature to prefer the society of women to that of men. he would have liked the society of lily dale, no doubt, much better than that of miss demolines; but as the society of lily dale was not to be had at that moment, the society of miss demolines was the best substitute within his reach. so he got into a cab and had himself driven to porchester terrace. "is lady demolines at home?" he said to the servant. he always asked for lady demolines. but the page who was accustomed to open the door for him was less false, being young, and would now tell him, without any further fiction, that miss madalina was in the drawing-room. such was the answer he got from the page on this evening. what madalina did with her mother on these occasions he had never yet discovered. there used to be some little excuses given about lady demolines' state of health, but latterly madalina had discontinued her references to her mother's headaches. she was standing in the centre of the drawing-room when he entered it, with both her hands raised, and an almost terrible expression of mystery in her face. her hair, however, had been very carefully arranged so as to fall with copious carelessness down her shoulders, and altogether she was looking her best. "oh, john," she said. she called him john by accident in the tumult of the moment. "have you heard what has happened? but of course you have heard it." "heard what? i have heard nothing," said johnny, arrested almost in the doorway by the nature of the question,--and partly also, no doubt, by the tumult of the moment. he had no idea how terrible a tragedy was in truth in store for him; but he perceived that the moment was to be tumultuous, and that he must carry himself accordingly. "come in, and close the door," she said. he came in and closed the door. "do you mean to say that you haven't heard what has happened in hook court?" "no;--what has happened in hook court?" miss demolines threw herself back into an arm-chair, closed her eyes, and clasped both her hands upon her forehead. "what has happened in hook court?" said johnny, walking up to her. "i do not think i can bring myself to tell you," she answered. then he took one of her hands down from her forehead and held it in his,--which she allowed passively. she was thinking, no doubt, of something far different from that. "i never saw you looking better in my life," said johnny. "don't," said she. "how can you talk in that way, when my heart is bleeding,--bleeding." then she pulled away her hand, and again clasped it with the other upon her forehead. "but why is your heart bleeding? what has happened in hook court?" still she answered nothing, but she sobbed violently and the heaving of her bosom showed how tumultuous was the tumult within it. "you don't mean to say that dobbs broughton has come to grief;--that he's to be sold out?" "man," said madalina, jumping from her chair, standing at her full height, and stretching out both her arms, "he has destroyed himself!" the revelation was at last made with so much tragic propriety, in so excellent a tone, and with such an absence of all the customary redundances of commonplace relation, that i think that she must have rehearsed the scene,--either with her mother or with the page. then there was a minute's silence, during which she did not move even an eyelid. she held her outstretched hands without dropping a finger half an inch. her face was thrust forward, her chin projecting, with tragic horror; but there was no vacillation even in her chin. she did not wink an eye, or alter to the breadth of a hair the aperture of her lips. surely she was a great genius if she did it all without previous rehearsal. then, before he had thought of words in which to answer her, she let her hands fall by her side, she closed her eyes, and shook her head, and fell back again into her chair. "it is too horrible to be spoken of,--to be thought about," she said. "i could not have brought myself to tell the tale to a living being,--except to you." this would naturally have been flattering to johnny had it not been that he was in truth absorbed by the story which he had heard. "do you mean to tell me," he said, "that broughton has--committed suicide?" she could not speak of it again, but nodded her head at him thrice, while her eyes were still closed. "and how was the manner of it?" said he, asking the question in a low voice. he could not even as yet quite bring himself to believe it. madalina was so fond of a little playful intrigue, that even this story might have something in it of the nature of fiction. he was not quite sure of the facts, and yet he was shocked by what he had heard. "would you have me repeat to you all the bloody details of that terrible scene?" she said. "it is impossible. go to your friend dalrymple. he will tell you. he knows it all. he has been with maria all through. i wish,--i wish it had not been so." but nevertheless she did bring herself to narrate all the details with something more of circumstance than eames desired. she soon succeeded in making him understand that the tragedy of hook court was a reality, and that poor dobbs broughton had brought his career to an untimely end. she had heard everything,--having indeed gone to musselboro in the city, and having penetrated even to the sanctum of mr. bangles. to mr. bangles she had explained that she was bosom-friend of the widow of the unfortunate man, and that it was her miserable duty to make herself the mistress of all the circumstances. mr. bangles,--the reader may remember him, burton and bangles, who kept the stores for himalaya wines at _s._ _d._ the dozen, in hook court,--was a bachelor, and rather liked the visit, and told miss demolines very freely all he had seen. and when she suggested that it might be expedient for the sake of the family that she should come back to mr. bangles for further information at a subsequent period, he very politely assured her that she would "do him proud," whenever she might please to call in hook court. and then he saw her into lombard street, and put her into an omnibus. she was therefore well qualified to tell johnny all the particulars of the tragedy,--and she did so far overcome her horror as to tell them all. she told her tale somewhat after the manner of Ã�neas, not forgetting the "quorum pars magna fui." "i feel that it almost makes an old woman of me," said she, when she had finished. "no," said johnny, remonstrating;--"not that." "but it does. to have been concerned in so terrible a tragedy takes more of life out of one than years of tranquil existence." as she had told him nothing of her intercourse with bangles,--with bangles who had literally picked the poor wretch up,--he did not see how she herself had been concerned in the matter; but he said nothing about that, knowing the character of his madalina. "i shall see--that--body, floating before my eyes while i live," she said, "and the gory wound, and,--and--" "don't," said johnny, recoiling in truth from the picture, by which he was revolted. "never again," she said; "never again! but you forced it from me, and now i shall not close my eyes for a week." she then became very comfortably confidential, and discussed the affairs of poor mrs. dobbs broughton with a great deal of satisfaction. "i went to see her, of course, but she sent me down word to say that the shock would be too much for her. i do not wonder that she should not see me. poor maria! she came to me for advice, you know, when dobbs broughton first proposed to her; and i was obliged to tell her what i really thought. i knew her character so well! 'dear maria,' i said, 'if you think that you can love him, take him!' 'i think i can,' she replied. 'but,' said i, 'make yourself quite sure about the business.' and how has it turned out? she never loved him. what heart she has she has given to that wretched dalrymple." "i don't see that he is particularly wretched," said johnny, pleading for his friend. "he is wretched, and so you'll find. she gave him her heart after giving her hand to poor dobbs; and as for the business, there isn't as much left as will pay for her mourning. i don't wonder that she could not bring herself to see me." "and what has become of the business?" "it belongs to mrs. van siever,--to her and musselboro. poor broughton had some little money, and it has gone among them. musselboro, who never had a penny, will be a rich man. of course you know that he is going to marry clara?" "nonsense!" "i always told you that it would be so. and now you may perhaps acknowledge that conway dalrymple's prospects are not very brilliant. i hope he likes being cut out by mr. musselboro! of course he will have to marry maria. i do not see how he can escape. indeed, she is too good for him;--only after such a marriage as that, there would be an end to all his prospects as an artist. the best thing for them would be to go to new zealand." john eames certainly liked these evenings with miss demolines. he sat at his ease in a comfortable chair, and amused himself by watching her different little plots. and then she had bright eyes, and she flattered him, and allowed him to scold her occasionally. and now and again there might be some more potent attraction, when she would admit him to take her hand,--or the like. it was better than to sit smoking with men at the club. but he could not sit all night even with madalina demolines, and at eleven he got up to take his leave. "when shall you see miss dale?" she asked him suddenly. "i do not know," he answered, frowning at her. he always frowned at her when she spoke to him of miss dale. "i do not in the least care for your frowns," she said playfully, putting up her hands to smooth his brows. "i think i know you intimately enough to name your goddess to you." "she isn't my goddess." "a very cold goddess, i should think, from what i hear. i wish to ask you for a promise respecting her." "what promise?" "will you grant it me?" "how can i tell till i hear?" "you must promise me not to speak of me to her when you see her." "but why must i promise that?" "promise me." "not unless you tell me why." johnny had already assured himself that nothing could be more improbable than that he should mention the name of miss demolines to lily dale. "very well, sir. then you may go. and i must say that unless you can comply with so slight a request as that, i shall not care to see you here again. mr. eames, why should you want to speak evil of me to miss dale?" "i do not want to speak evil of you." "i know that you could not speak of me to her without at least ridicule. come, promise me. you shall come here on thursday evening, and i will tell you why i have asked you." "tell me now." she hesitated a moment, and then shook her head. "no. i cannot tell you now. my heart is still bleeding with the memory of that poor man's fate. i will not tell you now. and yet it is now that you must give me the promise. will you not trust me so far as that?" "i will not speak of you to miss dale." "there is my own friend! and now, john, mind you are here at half-past eight on thursday. punctually at half-past eight. there is a thing i have to tell you, which i will tell you then if you will come. i had thought to have told you to-day." "and why not now?" "i cannot. my feelings are too many for me. i should never go through with it after all that has passed between us about poor broughton. i should break down; indeed i should. go now, for i am tired." then, having probably taken a momentary advantage of that more potent attraction to which we have before alluded, he left the room very suddenly. he left the room very suddenly because madalina's movements had been so sudden, and her words so full of impulse. he had become aware that in this little game which he was playing in porchester terrace everything ought to be done after some unaccustomed and special fashion. so,--having clasped madalina for one moment in his arms,--he made a rush at the room door, and was out on the landing in a second. he was a little too quick for old lady demolines, the skirt of whose night-dress,--as it seemed to johnny,--he saw whisking away, in at another door. it was nothing, however, to him if old lady demolines, who was always too ill to be seen, chose to roam about her own house in her night-dress. when he found himself alone in the street, his mind reverted to dobbs broughton and the fate of the wretched man, and he sauntered slowly down palace gardens, that he might look at the house in which he had dined with a man who had destroyed himself by his own hands. he stood for a moment looking up at the windows, in which there was now no light, thinking of the poor woman whom he had seen in the midst of luxury, and who was now left a widow in such miserable circumstances! as for the suggestion that his friend conway would marry her, he did not believe it for a moment. he knew too well what the suggestions of his madalina were worth, and the motives from which they sprung. but he thought it might be true that mrs. van siever had absorbed all there was of property, and possibly, also, that musselboro was to marry her daughter. at any rate, he would go to dalrymple's rooms, and if he could find him, would learn the truth. he knew enough of dalrymple's ways of life, and of the ways of his friend's chambers and studio, to care nothing for the lateness of the hour, and in a very few minutes he was sitting in dalrymple's arm-chair. he found siph dunn there, smoking in unperturbed tranquillity, and as long as that lasted he could ask no questions about mrs. broughton. he told them, therefore, of his adventures abroad, and of crawley's escape. but at last, having finished his third pipe, siph dunn took his leave. "tell me," said john, as soon as dunn had closed the door, "what is this i hear about dobbs broughton?" "he has blown his brains out. that is all." "how terribly shocking!" "yes; it shocked us all at first. we are used to it now." "and the business?" "that had gone to the dogs. they say at least that his share of it had done so." "and he was ruined?" "they say so. that is, musselboro says so, and mrs. van siever." "and what do you say, conway?" "the less i say the better. i have my hopes,--only you're such a talkative fellow, one can't trust you." "i never told any secret of yours, old fellow." "well;--the fact is, i have an idea that something may be saved for the poor woman. i think that they are wronging her. of course all i can do is to put the matter into a lawyer's hands, and pay the lawyer's bill. so i went to your cousin, and he has taken the case up. i hope he won't ruin me." "then i suppose you are quarrelling with mrs. van?" "that doesn't matter. she has quarrelled with me." "and what about jael, conway? they tell me that jael is going to become mrs. musselboro." "who has told you that?" "a bird." "yes; i know who the bird is. i don't think that jael will become mrs. musselboro. i don't think that jael would become mrs. musselboro, if jael were the only woman, and musselboro the only man in london. to tell you a little bit of secret, johnny, i think that jael will become the wife of one conway dalrymple. that is my opinion; and as far as i can judge, it is the opinion of jael also." "but not the opinion of mrs. van. the bird told me another thing, conway." "what was the other thing?" "the bird hinted that all this would end in your marrying the widow of that poor wretch who destroyed himself." "johnny, my boy," said the artist, after a moment's silence, "if i give you a bit of advice, will you profit by it?" "i'll try, if it's not disagreeable." "whether you profit by it, or whether you do not, keep it to yourself. i know the bird better than you do, and i strongly caution you to beware of the bird. the bird is a bird of prey, and altogether an unclean bird. the bird wants a mate and doesn't much care how she finds one. and the bird wants money, and doesn't much care how she gets it. the bird is a decidedly bad bird, and not at all fit to take the place of domestic hen in a decent farmyard. in plain english, johnny, you'll find some day, if you go over too often to porchester terrace, either that you are going to marry the bird, or else that you are employing your cousin toogood for your defence in an action for breach of promise, brought against you by that venerable old bird, the bird's mamma." "if it's to be either, it will be the latter," said johnny as he took up his hat to go away. chapter lxxvi. i think he is light of heart. [illustration] mrs. arabin remained one day in town. mr. toogood, in spite of his asseveration that he would not budge from barchester till he had seen mr. crawley through all his troubles, did run up to london as soon as the news reached him that john eames had returned. he came up and took mrs. arabin's deposition, which he sent down to mr. walker. it might still be necessary, mrs. arabin was told, that she should go into court, and there state on oath that she had given the cheque to mr. crawley; but mr. walker was of opinion that the circumstances would enable the judge to call upon the grand jury not to find a true bill against mr. crawley, and that the whole affair, as far as mr. crawley was concerned, would thus be brought to an end. toogood was still very anxious to place dan stringer in the dock, but mr. walker declared that they would fail if they made the attempt. dan had been examined before the magistrates at barchester, and had persisted in his statement that he had heard nothing about mr. crawley and the cheque. this he said in the teeth of the words which had fallen from him unawares in the presence of mr. toogood. but they could not punish him for a lie,--not even for such a lie as that! he was not upon oath, and they could not make him responsible to the law because he had held his tongue upon a matter as to which it was manifest to them all that he had known the whole history during the entire period of mr. crawley's persecution. they could only call upon him to account for his possession of the cheque, and this he did by saying it had been paid to him by jem scuttle, who received all moneys appertaining to the hotel stables, and accounted for them once a week. jem scuttle had simply told him that he had taken the cheque from mr. soames, and jem had since gone to new zealand. it was quite true that jem's departure had followed suspiciously close upon the payment of the rent to mrs. arabin, and that jem had been in close amity with dan stringer up to the moment of his departure. that dan stringer had not become honestly possessed of the cheque, everybody knew; but, nevertheless, the magistrates were of opinion, mr. walker coinciding with them, that there was no evidence against him sufficient to secure a conviction. the story, however, of mr. crawley's injuries was so well known in barchester, and the feeling against the man who had permitted him to be thus injured was so strong, that dan stringer did not altogether escape without punishment. some rough spirits in barchester called one night at "the dragon of wantly," and begged that mr. dan stringer would be kind enough to come out and take a walk with them that evening; and when it was intimated to them that dan stringer had not just then any desire for such exercise, they requested to be allowed to go into the back parlour and make an evening with dan stringer in that recess. there was a terrible row at "the dragon of wantly" that night, and dan with difficulty was rescued by the police. on the following morning he was smuggled out of barchester by an early train, and has never more been seen in that city. rumours of him, however, were soon heard, from which it appeared that he had made himself acquainted with the casual ward of more than one workhouse in london. his cousin john left the inn almost immediately,--as, indeed, he must have done had there been no question of mr. soames's cheque,--and then there was nothing more heard of the stringers in barchester. mrs. arabin remained in town one day, and would have remained longer, waiting for her husband, had not a letter from her sister impressed upon her that it might be as well that she should be with their father as soon as possible. "i don't mean to make you think that there is any immediate danger," mrs. grantly said, "and, indeed, we cannot say that he is ill; but it seems that the extremity of old age has come upon him almost suddenly, and that he is as weak as a child. his only delight is with the children, especially with posy, whose gravity in her management of him is wonderful. he has not left his room now for more than a week, and he eats very little. it may be that he will live yet for years; but i should be deceiving you if i did not let you know that both the archdeacon and i think that the time of his departure from us is near at hand." after reading this letter, mrs. arabin could not wait in town for her husband, even though he was expected in two days, and though she had been told that her presence at barchester was not immediately required on behalf of mr. crawley. but during that one day she kept her promise to john eames by going to lily dale. mrs. arabin had become very fond of johnny, and felt that he deserved the prize which he had been so long trying to win. the reader, perhaps, may not agree with mrs. arabin. the reader, who may have caught a closer insight into johnny's character than mrs. arabin had obtained, may, perhaps, think that a young man who could amuse himself with miss demolines was unworthy of lily dale. if so, i may declare for myself that i and the reader are not in accord about john eames. it is hard to measure worth and worthlessness in such matters, as there is no standard for such measurement. my old friend john was certainly no hero,--was very unheroic in many phases of his life; but then, if all the girls are to wait for heroes, i fear that the difficulties in the way of matrimonial arrangements, great as they are at present, will be very seriously enhanced. johnny was not ecstatic, nor heroic, nor transcendental, nor very beautiful in his manliness; he was not a man to break his heart for love, or to have his story written in an epic; but he was an affectionate, kindly, honest young man; and i think most girls might have done worse than take him. whether he was wise to ask assistance in his love-making so often as he had done, that may be another question. mrs. arabin was intimately acquainted with mrs. thorne, and therefore there was nothing odd in her going to mrs. thorne's house. mrs. thorne was very glad to see her, and told her all the barsetshire news,--much more than mrs. arabin would have learned in a week at the deanery; for mrs. thorne had a marvellous gift of picking up news. she had already heard the whole story of mr. soames's cheque, and expressed her conviction that the least that could be done in amends to mr. crawley was to make him a bishop. "and you see the palace is vacant," said mrs. thorne. "the palace vacant!" said mrs. arabin. "it is just as good. now that mrs. proudie has gone i don't suppose the poor bishop will count for much. i can assure you, mrs. arabin, i felt that poor woman's death so much! she used to regard me as one of the staunchest of the proudieites! she once whispered to me such a delightfully wicked story about the dean and the archdeacon. when i told her that they were my particular friends, she put on a look of horror. but i don't think she believed me." then emily dunstable entered the room, and with her came lily dale. mrs. arabin had never before seen lily, and of course they were introduced. "i am sorry to say miss dale is going home to allington to-morrow," said emily. "but she is coming to chaldicotes in may," said mrs. thorne. "of course, mrs. arabin, you know what gala doings we are going to have in may?" then there were various civil little speeches made on each side, and mrs. arabin expressed a wish that she might meet miss dale again in barsetshire. but all this did not bring her at all nearer to her object. "i particularly wish to say a word to miss dale,--here to-day, if she will allow me," said mrs. arabin. "i'm sure she will,--twenty words; won't you, lily?" said mrs. thorne, preparing to leave the room. then mrs. arabin apologized, and mrs. thorne, bustling up, said that it did not signify, and lily, remaining quite still on the sofa, wondered what it was all about,--and in two minutes lily and mrs. arabin were alone together. lily had just time to surmise that mrs. arabin's visit must have some reference to mr. crosbie,--remembering that crosbie had married his wife out of barsetshire, and forgetting altogether that mrs. arabin had been just brought home from italy by john eames. "i am afraid, miss dale, you will think me very impertinent," said mrs. arabin. "i am sure i shall not think that," said lily. "i believe you knew, before mr. eames started, that he was going to italy to find me and my husband?" said mrs. arabin. then lily put mr. crosbie altogether out of her head, and became aware that he was not to be the subject of the coming conversation. she was almost sorry that it was so. there was no doubt in her mind as to what she would have said to any one who might have taken up crosbie's cause. on that matter she could now have given a very decisive answer in a few words. but on that other matter she was much more in doubt. she remembered, however, every word of the note she had received from m. d. she remembered also the words of john's note to that young woman. and her heart was still hard against him. "yes," she said; "mr. eames came here one night and told us why he was going. i was very glad that he was going, because i thought it was right." "you know, of course, how successful he has been? it was i who gave the cheque to mr. crawley." "so mrs. thorne has heard. dr. thorne has written to tell her the whole story." "and now i've come to look for mr. eames's reward." "his reward, mrs. arabin?" "yes; or rather to plead for him. you will not, i hope, be angry with him because he has told me much of his history while we were travelling home alone together." "oh, no," said lily, smiling. "how could he have chosen a better friend in whom to trust?" "he could certainly have chosen none who would take his part more sincerely. he is so good and so amiable! he is so pleasant in his ways, and so fitted to make a woman happy! and then, miss dale, he is also so devoted!" "he is an old friend of ours, mrs. arabin." "so he has told me." "and we all of us love him dearly. mamma is very much attached to him." "unless he flatters himself, there is no one belonging to you who would not wish that he should be nearer and dearer still." "it may be so. i do not say that it is not so. mamma and my uncle are both fond of him." "and does not that go a long way?" said mrs. arabin. "it ought not to do so," said lily. "it ought not to go any way at all." "ought it not? it seems to me that i could never have brought myself to marry any one whom my old friends had not liked." "ah! that is another thing." "but is it not a recommendation to a man that he has been so successful with your friends as to make them all feel that you might trust yourself to him with perfect safety?" to this lily made no answer, and mrs. arabin went on to plead her friend's cause with all the eloquence she could use, insisting on all his virtues, his good temper, his kindness, his constancy,--and not forgetting the fact that the world was inclined to use him very well. still lily made no answer. she had promised mrs. arabin that she would not regard her interference as impertinent, and therefore she refrained from any word that might seem to show offence. nor did she feel offence. it was something gained by john eames in lily's estimation that he should have such a friend as mrs. arabin to take an interest in his welfare. but there was a self-dependence, perhaps one may call it an obstinacy about lily dale, which made her determined that she would not be driven hither or thither by any pressure from without. why had john eames, at the very moment when he should have been doing his best to drive from her breast the memory of past follies,--when he would have striven to do so had he really been earnest in his suit,--why at such a moment had he allowed himself to correspond in terms of affection with such a woman as this m. d.? while mrs. arabin was pleading for john eames, lily was repeating to herself certain words which john had written to the woman--"ever and always yours unalterably." such were not the exact words, but such was the form in which lily, dishonestly, chose to repeat them to herself. and why was it so with her? in the old days she would have forgiven crosbie any offence at a word or a look,--any possible letter to any m. d., let her have been ever so abominable! nay,--had she not even forgiven him the offence of deserting herself altogether on behalf of a woman as detestable as could be any m. d. of johnny's choosing;--a woman whose only recommendation had been her title? and yet she would not forgive john eames, though the evidence against him was of so flimsy a nature,--but rather strove to turn the flimsiness of that evidence into strength! why was it so? unheroic as he might be, john eames was surely a better man and a bigger man than adolphus crosbie. it was simply this;--she had fallen in love with the one, and had never fallen in love with the other! she had fallen in love with the one man, though in her simple way she had made a struggle against such feeling; and she had not come to love the other man, though she had told herself that it would be well that she should do so if it were possible. again and again she had half declared to herself that she would take him as her husband and leave the love to come afterwards; but when the moment came for doing so, she could not do it. "may i not say a word of comfort to him?" said mrs. arabin. "he will be very comfortable without any such word," said lily, laughing. "but he is not comfortable; of that you may be very sure." "yours ever and unalterably, j. e.," said lily to herself. "you do not doubt his affection?" continued mrs. arabin. "i neither doubt it nor credit it." "then i think you wrong him. and the reason why i have ventured to come to you is that you may know the impression which he has made upon one who was but the other day a stranger to him. i am sure that he loves you." "i think he is light of heart." "oh, no, miss dale." "and how am i to become his wife unless i love him well enough myself? mrs. arabin, i have made up my mind about it. i shall never become any man's wife. mamma and i are all in all together, and we shall remain together." as soon as these words were out of her mouth, she hated herself for having spoken them. there was a maudlin, missish, namby-mamby sentimentality about them which disgusted her. she specially desired to be straightforward, resolute of purpose, honest-spoken, and free from all touch of affectation. and yet she had excused herself from marrying john eames after the fashion of a sick schoolgirl. "it is no good talking about it any more," she said, getting up from her chair quickly. "you are not angry with me;--or at any rate you will forgive me?" "i'm quite sure you have meant to be very good, and i am not a bit angry." "and you will see him before you go?" "oh, yes; that is if he likes to come to-day, or early to-morrow. i go home to-morrow. i cannot refuse him, because he is such an old friend,--almost like a brother. but it is of no use, mrs. arabin." then mrs. arabin kissed her and left her, telling her that mr. eames would come to her that afternoon at half-past five. lily promised that she would be at home to receive him. "won't you ride with us for the last time?" said emily dunstable when lily gave notice that she would not want the horse on that afternoon. "no; not to-day." "you'll never have another opportunity of riding with emily dunstable," said the bride elect;--"at least i hope not." "even under those circumstances i must refuse, though i would give a guinea to be with you. john eames is coming here to say good-by." "oh; then indeed you must not come with us. lily, what will you say to him?" "nothing." "oh, lily, think of it." "i have thought of it. i have thought of nothing else. i am tired of thinking of it. it is not good to think of anything so much. what does it matter?" "it is very good to have some one to love one better than all the world besides." "i have some one," said lily, thinking of her mother, but not caring to descend again to the mawkish weakness of talking about her. "yes; but some one to be always with you, to do everything for you, to be your very own." "it is all very well for you," said lily, "and i think that bernard is the luckiest fellow in the world; but it will not do for me. i know in what college i'll take my degree, and i wish they'd let me write the letters after my name as the men do." "what letters, lily?" "o.m., for old maid. i don't see why it shouldn't be as good as b.a. for bachelor of arts. it would mean a great deal more." chapter lxxvii. the shattered tree. when mrs. arabin saw johnny in the middle of that day, she could hardly give him much encouragement. and yet she felt by no means sure that he might not succeed even yet. lily had been very positive in her answers, and yet there had been something, either in her words or in the tone of her voice, which had made mrs. arabin feel that even lily was not quite sure of herself. there was still room for relenting. nothing, however, had been said which could justify her in bidding john eames simply "to go in and win." "i think he is light of heart," lily had said. those were the words which, of all that had been spoken, most impressed themselves on mrs. arabin's memory. she would not repeat them to her friend, but she would graft upon them such advice as she had to give him. and this she did, telling him that she thought that perhaps lily doubted his actual earnestness. "i would marry her this moment," said johnny. but that was not enough, as mrs. arabin knew, to prove his earnestness. many men, fickle as weathercocks, are ready to marry at the moment,--are ready to marry at the moment, because they are fickle, and think so little about it. "but she hears, perhaps, of your liking other people," said mrs. arabin. "i don't care a straw for any other person," said johnny. "i wonder whether if i was to shut myself up in a cage for six months, it would do any good?" "if she had the keeping of the cage, perhaps it might," said mrs. arabin. she had nothing more to say to him on that subject, but to tell him that miss dale would expect him that afternoon at half-past five. "i told her that you would come to wish her good-by, and she promised to see you." "i wish she'd say she wouldn't see me. then there would be some chance," said johnny. between him and mrs. arabin the parting was very affectionate. she told him how thankful she was for his kindness in coming to her, and how grateful she would ever be,--and the dean also,--for his attention to her. "remember, mr. eames, that you will always be most welcome at the deanery of barchester. and i do hope that before long you may be there with your wife." and so they parted. he left her at about two, and went to mr. toogood's office in bedford row. he found his uncle, and the two went out to lunch together in holborn. between them there was no word said about lily dale, and john was glad to have some other subject in his mind for half an hour. toogood was full of his triumph about mr. crawley and of his successes in barsetshire. he gave john a long account of his visit to plumstead, and expressed his opinion that if all clergymen were like the archdeacon there would not be so much room for dissenters. "i've seen a good many parsons in my time," said toogood; "but i don't think i ever saw such a one as him. you know he is a clergyman somehow, and he never lets you forget it; but that's about all. most of 'em are never contented without choking you with their white cravats all the time you're with 'em. as for crawley himself," mr. toogood continued, "he's not like anybody else that ever was born, saint or sinner, parson or layman. i never heard of such a man in all my experience. though he knew where he got the cheque as well as i know it now, he wouldn't say so, because the dean had said it wasn't so. somebody ought to write a book about it,--indeed they ought." then he told the whole story of dan stringer, and how he had found dan out, looking at the top of dan's hat through the little aperture in the wall of the inn parlour. "when i saw the twitch in his hat, john, i knew he had handled the cheque himself. i don't mean to say that i'm sharper than another man, and i don't think so; but i do mean to say that when you are in any difficulty of that sort, you ought to go to a lawyer. it's his business, and a man does what is his business with patience and perseverance. it's a pity, though, that that scoundrel should get off." then eames gave his uncle an account of his italian trip, to and fro, and was congratulated also upon his success. john's great triumph lay in the fact that he had been only two nights in bed, and that he would not have so far condescended on those occasions but for the feminine weakness of his fellow-traveller. "we shan't forget it all in a hurry,--shall we, john?" said mr. toogood, in a pleasant voice, as they parted at the door of the luncheon-house in holborn. toogood was returning to his office, and john eames was to prepare himself for his last attempt. he went home to his lodgings, intending at first to change his dress,--to make himself smart for the work before him,--but after standing for a moment or two leaning on the chest of drawers in his bed-room, he gave up this idea. "after all that's come and gone," he said to himself, "if i cannot win her as i am now, i cannot win her at all." and then he swore to himself a solemn oath, resolving that he would repeat the purport of it to lily herself,--that this should be the last attempt. "what's the use of it? everybody ridicules me. and i am ridiculous. i am an ass. it's all very well wanting to be prime minister; but if you can't be prime minister, you must do without being prime minister." then he attempted to sing the old song--"shall i, sighing in despair, die because a woman's fair? if she be not fair for me, what care i how fair she be?" but he did care, and he told himself that the song did him no good. as it was not time for him as yet to go to lily, he threw himself on the sofa, and strove to read a book. then all the weary nights of his journey prevailed over him, and he fell asleep. when he awoke it wanted a quarter to six. he sprang up, and rushing out, jumped into a cab. "berkeley square,--as hard as you can go," he said. "number --." he thought of rosalind, and her counsels to lovers as to the keeping of time, and reflected that in such an emergency as his, he might really have ruined himself by that unfortunate slumber. when he got to mrs. thorne's door he knocked hurriedly, and bustled up to the drawing-room as though everything depended on his saving a minute. "i'm afraid i'm ever so much behind my time," he said. "it does not matter in the least," said lily. "as mrs. arabin said that perhaps you might call, i would not be out of the way. i supposed that sir raffle was keeping you and that you wouldn't come." "sir raffle was not keeping me. i fell asleep. that is the truth of it." "i am so sorry that you should have been disturbed!" "do not laugh at me, lily,--to-day. i had been travelling a good deal, and i suppose i was tired." "i won't laugh at you," she said, and of a sudden her eyes became full of tears,--she did not know why. but there they were, and she was ashamed to put up her handkerchief, and she could not bring herself to turn away her face, and she had no resource but that he should see them. "lily!" he said. "what a paladin you have been, john, rushing all about europe on your friend's behalf!" "don't talk about that." "and such a successful paladin too! why am i not to talk about it? i am going home to-morrow, and i mean to talk about nothing else for a week. i am so very, very, very glad that you have saved your cousin." then she did put up her handkerchief, making believe that her tears had been due to mr. crawley. but john eames knew better than that. "lily," he said, "i've come for the last time. it sounds as though i meant to threaten you; but you won't take it in that way. i think you will know what i mean. i have come for the last time--to ask you to be my wife." she had got up to greet him when he entered, and they were both still standing. she did not answer him at once, but turning away from him walked towards the window. "you knew why i was coming to-day, lily?" "mrs. arabin told me. i could not be away when you were coming, but perhaps it would have been better." "is it so? must it be so? must you say that to me, lily? think of it for a moment, dear." "i have thought of it." "one word from you, yes or no, spoken now is to be everything to me for always. lily, cannot you say yes?" she did not answer him, but walked further away from him to another window. "try to say yes. look round at me with one look that may only half mean it;--that may tell me that it shall not positively be no for ever." i think that she almost tried to turn her face to him; but be that as it may, she kept her eyes steadily fixed upon the window-pane. "lily," he said, "it is not that you are hard-hearted,--perhaps not altogether that you do not like me. i think that you believe things against me that are not true." as she heard this she moved her foot angrily upon the carpet. she had almost forgotten m. d., but now he had reminded her of the note. she assured herself that she had never believed anything against him except on evidence that was incontrovertible. but she was not going to speak to him on such a matter as that! it would not become her to accuse him. "mrs. arabin tells me that you doubt whether i am in earnest," he said. upon hearing this she flashed round upon him almost angrily. "i never said that." "if you will ask me for any token of earnestness, i will give it you." "i want no token." "the best sign of earnestness a man can give generally in such a matter, is to show how ready he is to be married." "i never said anything about earnestness." "at the risk of making you angry i will go on, lily. of course when you tell me that you will have nothing to say to me, i try to amuse myself"--"yes; by writing love-letters to m. d.," said lily to herself.--"what is a poor fellow to do? i tell you fairly that when i leave you i swear to myself that i will make love to the first girl i can see who will listen to me--to twenty, if twenty will let me. i feel i have failed, and it is so i punish myself for my failure." there was something in this which softened her brow, though she did not intend that it should be so; and she turned away again, that he might not see that her brow was softened. "but, lily, the hope ever comes back again, and then neither the one nor the twenty are of avail,--even to punish me. when i look forward and see what it might be if you were with me, how green it all looks and how lovely, in spite of all the vows i have made, i cannot help coming back again." she was now again near the window, and he had not followed her. as she neither turned towards him nor answered him, he moved from the table near which he was standing on to the rug before the fire, and leaned with both his elbows on the mantelpiece. he could still watch her in the mirror over the fireplace, and could see that she was still seeming to gaze out upon the street. and had he not moved her? i think he had so far moved her now, that she had ceased to think of the woman who had written to her,--that she had ceased to reject him in her heart on the score of such levities as that! if there were m. d.'s, like sunken rocks, in his course, whose fault was it? he was ready enough to steer his bark into the tranquil blue waters, if only she would aid him. i think that all his sins on that score were at this moment forgiven him. he had told her now what to him would be green and beautiful, and she did not find herself able to disbelieve him. she had banished m. d. out of her mind, but in doing so she admitted other reminiscences into it. and then,--was she in a moment to be talked out of the resolution of years; and was she to give up herself, not because she loved, but because the man who talked to her talked so well that he deserved a reward? was she now to be as light, as foolish, as easy, as in those former days from which she had learned her wisdom? a picture of green lovely things could be delicious to her eyes as to his; but even for such a picture as that the price might be too dear! of all living men,--of all men living in their present lives,--she loved best this man who was now waiting for some word of answer to his words, and she did love him dearly; she would have tended him if sick, have supplied him if in want, have mourned for him if dead, with the bitter grief of true affection;--but she could not say to herself that he should be her lord and master, the head of her house, the owner of herself, the ruler of her life. the shipwreck to which she had once come, and the fierce regrets which had thence arisen, had forced her to think too much of these things. "lily," he said, still facing towards the mirror, "will you not come to me and speak to me?" she turned round, and stood a moment looking at him, and then, having again resolved that it could not be as he wished, she drew near to him. "certainly i will speak to you, john. here i am." and she came close to him. [illustration: the last denial.] he took both her hands, and looked into her eyes. "lily, will you be mine?" "no, dear; it cannot be so." "why not, lily?" "because of that other man." "and is that to be a bar for ever?" "yes; for ever." "do you still love him?" "no; no, no!" "then why should this be so?" "i cannot tell, dear. it is so. if you take a young tree and split it, it still lives, perhaps. but it isn't a tree. it is only a fragment." "then be my fragment." "so i will, if it can serve you to give standing ground to such a fragment in some corner of your garden. but i will not have myself planted out in the middle, for people to look at. what there is left would die soon." he still held her hands, and she did not attempt to draw them away. "john," she said, "next to mamma, i love you better than all the world. indeed i do. i can't be your wife, but you need never be afraid that i shall be more to another than i am to you." "that will not serve me," he said, grasping both her hands till he almost hurt them, but not knowing that he did so. "that is no good." "it is all the good that i can do you. indeed i can do you,--can do no one any good. the trees that the storms have splintered are never of use." "and is this to be the end of all, lily?" "not of our loving friendship." "friendship! i hate the word. i hear some one's step, and i had better leave you. good-by." "good-by, john. be kinder than that to me as you are going." he turned back for a moment, took her hand, and held it tight against his heart, and then he left her. in the hall he met mrs. thorne, but, as she said afterwards, he had been too much knocked about to be able to throw a word to a dog. to mrs. thorne lily said hardly a word about john eames, and when her cousin bernard questioned her about him she was dumb. and in these days she could assume a manner, and express herself with her eyes as well as with her voice, after a fashion, which was apt to silence unwelcome questioners, even though they were as intimate with her as was her cousin bernard. she had described her feelings more plainly to her lover than she had ever done to any one,--even to her mother; and having done so she meant to be silent on that subject for evermore. but of her settled purpose she did say some word to emily dunstable that night. "i do feel," she said, "that i have got the thing settled at last." "and you have settled it, as you call it, in opposition to the wishes of all your friends?" "that is true; and yet i have settled it rightly, and i would not for worlds have it unsettled again. there are matters on which friends should not have wishes, or at any rate should not express them." "is that meant to be severe to me?" "no; not to you. i was thinking about mamma, and bell, and my uncle, and bernard, who all seem to think that i am to be looked upon as a regular castaway because i am not likely to have a husband of my own. of course you, in your position, must think a girl a castaway who isn't going to be married?" "i think that a girl who is going to be married has the best of it." "and i think a girl who isn't going to be married has the best of it;--that's all. but i feel that the thing is done now, and i am contented. for the last six or eight months there has come up, i know not how, a state of doubt which has made me so wretched that i have done literally nothing. i haven't been able to finish old mrs. heard's tippet, literally because people would talk to me about that dearest of all dear fellows, john eames. and yet all along i have known how it would be,--as well as i do now." "i cannot understand you, lily; i can't indeed." "i can understand myself. i love him so well,--with that intimate, close, familiar affection,--that i could wash his clothes for him to-morrow, out of pure personal regard, and think it no shame. he could not ask me to do a single thing for him,--except the one thing,--that i would refuse. and i'll go further. i would sooner marry him than any man in the world i ever saw, or, as i believe, that i ever shall see. and yet i am very glad that it is settled." on the next day lily dale went down to the small house of allington, and so she passes out of our sight. i can only ask the reader to believe that she was in earnest, and express my own opinion, in this last word that i shall ever write respecting her, that she will live and die as lily dale. chapter lxxvii. the arabins return to barchester. in these days mr. harding was keeping his bed at the deanery, and most of those who saw him declared that he would never again leave it. the archdeacon had been slow to believe so, because he had still found his father-in-law able to talk to him;--not indeed with energy, but then mr. harding had never been energetic on ordinary matters,--but with the same soft cordial interest in things which had ever been customary with him. he had latterly been much interested about mr. crawley, and would make both the archdeacon and mrs. grantly tell him all that they heard, and what they thought of the case. this of course had been before the all-important news had been received from mrs. arabin. mr. harding was very anxious, "firstly," as he said, "for the welfare of the poor man, of whom i cannot bring myself to think ill; and then for the honour of the cloth in barchester." "we are as liable to have black sheep here as elsewhere," the archdeacon replied. "but, my dear, i do not think that the sheep is black; and we never have had black sheep in barchester." "haven't we though?" said the archdeacon, thinking, however, of sheep who were black with a different kind of blackness from this which was now attributed to poor mr. crawley,--of a blackness which was not absolute blackness to mr. harding's milder eyes. the archdeacon, when he heard his father-in-law talk after this fashion, expressed his opinion that he might live yet for years. he was just the man to linger on, living in bed,--as indeed he had lingered all his life out of bed. but the doctor who attended him thought otherwise, as did also mrs. grantly, and as did mrs. baxter, and as also did posy. "grandpa won't get up any more, will he?" posy said to mrs. baxter. "i hope he will, my dear; and that very soon." "i don't think he will," said posy, "because he said he would never see the big fiddle again." "that comes of his being a little melancholy like, my dear," said mrs. baxter. mrs. grantly at this time went into barchester almost every day, and the archdeacon, who was very often in the city, never went there without passing half-an-hour with the old man. these two clergymen, essentially different in their characters and in every detail of conduct, had been so much thrown together by circumstances that the life of each had almost become a part of the life of the other. although the fact of mr. harding's residence at the deanery had of late years thrown him oftener into the society of the dean than that of his other son-in-law, yet his intimacy with the archdeacon had been so much earlier, and his memories of the archdeacon were so much clearer, that he depended almost more upon the rector of plumstead, who was absent, than he did upon the dean, whom he customarily saw every day. it was not so with his daughters. his nelly, as he had used to call her, had ever been his favourite, and the circumstances of their joint lives had been such, that they had never been further separated than from one street of barchester to another,--and that only for the very short period of the married life of mrs. arabin's first husband. for all that was soft and tender therefore,--which with mr. harding was all in the world that was charming to him,--he looked to his youngest daughter; but for authority and guidance and wisdom, and for information as to what was going on in the world, he had still turned to his son-in-law the archdeacon,--as he had done for nearly forty years. for so long had the archdeacon been potent as a clergyman in the diocese, and throughout the whole duration of such potency his word had been law to mr. harding in most of the affairs of life,--a law generally to be obeyed, and if sometimes to be broken, still a law. and now, when all was so nearly over, he would become unhappy if the archdeacon's visits were far between. dr. grantly, when he found that this was so, would not allow that they should be far between. "he puts me so much in mind of my father," the archdeacon said to his wife one day. "he is not so old as your father was when he died, by many years," said mrs. grantly, "and i think one sees that difference." "yes;--and therefore i say that he may still live for years. my father, when he took to his bed at last, was manifestly near his death. the wonder with him was that he continued to live so long. do you not remember how the london doctor was put out because his prophecies were not fulfilled?" "i remember it well;--as if it were yesterday." "and in that way there is a great difference. my father, who was physically a much stronger man, did not succumb so easily. but the likeness is in their characters. there is the same mild sweetness, becoming milder and sweeter as they increased in age;--a sweetness that never could believe much evil, but that could believe less, and still less, as the weakness of age came on them. no amount of evidence would induce your father to think that mr. crawley stole that money." this was said of course before the telegram had come from venice. "as far as that goes i agree with him," said mrs. grantly, who had her own reasons for choosing to believe mr. crawley to be innocent. "if your son, my dear, is to marry a man's daughter, it will be as well that you should at least be able to say that you do not believe that man to be a thief." "that is neither here nor there," said the archdeacon. "a jury must decide it." "no jury in barsetshire shall decide it for me," said mrs. grantly. "i'm sick of mr. crawley, and i'm sorry i spoke of him," said the archdeacon. "but look at mrs. proudie. you'll agree that she was not the most charming woman in the world." "she certainly was not," said mrs. grantly, who was anxious to encourage her husband, if she could do so without admitting anything which might injure herself afterwards. "and she was at one time violently insolent to your father. and even the bishop thought to trample upon him. do you remember the bishop's preaching against your father's chaunting? if i ever forget it!" and the archdeacon slapped his closed fist against his open hand. "don't, dear; don't. what is the good of being violent now?" "paltry little fool! it will be long enough before such a chaunt as that is heard in any english cathedral again." then mrs. grantly got up and kissed her husband, but he, somewhat negligent of the kiss, went on with his speech. "but your father remembers nothing of it, and if there was a single human being who shed a tear in barchester for that woman, i believe it was your father. and it was the same with mine. it came to that at last, that i could not bear to speak to him of any shortcoming as to one of his own clergymen. i might as well have pricked him with a penknife. and yet they say men become heartless and unfeeling as they grow old!" "some do, i suppose." "yes; the heartless and unfeeling do. as the bodily strength fails and the power of control becomes lessened, the natural aptitude of the man pronounces itself more clearly. i take it that that is it. had mrs. proudie lived to be a hundred and fifty, she would have spoken spiteful lies on her deathbed." then mrs. grantly told herself that her husband, should he live to be a hundred and fifty, would still be expressing his horror of mrs. proudie,--even on his deathbed. as soon as the letter from mrs. arabin had reached plumstead, the archdeacon and his wife arranged that they would both go together to the deanery. there were the double tidings to be told,--those of mr. crawley's assured innocence, and those also of mrs. arabin's instant return. and as they went together various ideas were passing through their minds in reference to the marriage of their son with grace crawley. they were both now reconciled to it. mrs. grantly had long ceased to feel any opposition to it, even though she had not seen grace; and the archdeacon was prepared to give way. had he not promised that in a certain case he would give way, and had not that case now come to pass? he had no wish to go back from his word. but he had a difficulty in this,--that he liked to make all the affairs of his life matter for enjoyment, almost for triumph; but how was he to be triumphant over this marriage, or how even was he to enjoy it, seeing that he had opposed it so bitterly? those posters, though they were now pulled down, had been up on all barn ends and walls, patent--alas, too patent--to all the world of barsetshire! "what will mr. crawley do now, do you suppose?" said mrs. grantly. "what will he do?" "yes; must he go on at hogglestock?" "what else?" said the archdeacon. "it is a pity something could not be done for him after all he has undergone. how on earth can he be expected to live there with a wife and family, and no private means?" to this the archdeacon made no answer. mrs. grantly had spoken almost immediately upon their quitting plumstead, and the silence was continued till the carriage had entered the suburbs of the city. then mrs. grantly spoke again, asking a question, with some internal trepidation, which, however, she managed to hide from her husband. "when poor papa does go, what shall you do about st. ewold's?" now, st. ewold's was a rural parish lying about two miles out of barchester, the living of which was in the gift of the archdeacon, and to which the archdeacon had presented his father-in-law, under certain circumstances, which need not be repeated in this last chronicle of barsetshire. have they not been written in other chronicles? "when poor papa does go, what will you do about st. ewold's?" said mrs. grantly, trembling inwardly. a word too much might, as she well knew, settle the question against mr. crawley for ever. but were she to postpone the word till too late, the question would be settled as fatally. "i haven't thought about it," he said sharply. "i don't like thinking of such things while the incumbent is still living." oh, archdeacon, archdeacon! unless that other chronicle be a false chronicle, how hast thou forgotten thyself and thy past life! "particularly not, when that incumbent is your father," said the archdeacon. mrs. grantly said nothing more about st. ewold's. she would have said as much as she had intended to say if she had succeeded in making the archdeacon understand that st. ewold's would be a very nice refuge for mr. crawley after all the miseries which he had endured at hogglestock. they learned as they entered the deanery that mrs. baxter had already heard of mrs. arabin's return. "o yes, ma'am. mr. harding got a letter hisself, and i got another,--separate; both from venice, ma'am. but when master is to come, nobody seems to know." mrs. baxter knew that the dean had gone to jerusalem, and was inclined to think that from such distant bournes there was no return for any traveller. the east is always further than the west in the estimation of the mrs. baxters of the world. had the dean gone to canada, she would have thought that he might come back to-morrow. but still there was the news to be told of mr. crawley, and there was also joy to be expressed at the sudden coming back of the much-wished-for mistress of the deanery. "it's so good of you to come both together," said mr. harding. "we thought we should be too many for you," said the archdeacon. "too many! o dear, no. i like to have people by me; and as for voices, and noise, and all that, the more the better. but i am weak. i'm weak in my legs. i don't think i shall ever stand again." "yes, you will," said the archdeacon. "we have brought you good news," said mrs. grantly. "is it not good news that nelly will be home this week? you can't understand what a joy it is to me. i used to think sometimes, at night, that i should never see her again. that she would come back in time was all i have had to wish for." he was lying on his back, and as he spoke he pressed his withered hands together above the bedclothes. they could not begin immediately to tell him of mr. crawley, but as soon as his mind had turned itself away from the thoughts of his absent daughter, mrs. grantly again reverted to her news. "we have come to tell you about mr. crawley, papa." "what about him?" "he is quite innocent." "i knew it, my dear. i always said so. did i not always say so, archdeacon?" "indeed you did. i'll give you that credit." "and is it all found out?" asked mr. harding. "as far as he is concerned, everything is found out," said mrs. grantly. "eleanor gave him the cheque herself." "nelly gave it to him?" "yes, papa. the dean meant her to give him fifty pounds. but it seems she got to be soft of heart and made it seventy. she had the cheque by her, and put it into the envelope with the notes." "some of stringer's people seem to have stolen the cheque from mr. soames," said the archdeacon. "o dear; i hope not." "somebody must have stolen it, papa." "i had hoped not, susan," said mr. harding. both the archdeacon and mrs. grantly knew that it was useless to argue with him on such a point, and so they let that go. then they came to discuss mr. crawley's present position, and mr. harding ventured to ask a question or two as to grace's chance of marriage. he did not often interfere in the family arrangements of his son-in-law,--and never did so when those family arrangements were concerned with high matters. he had hardly opened his mouth in reference to the marriage of that august lady who was now the marchioness of hartletop. and of the lady anne, the wife of the rev. charles grantly, who was always prodigiously civil to him, speaking to him very loud, as though he were deaf because he was old, and bringing him cheap presents from london of which he did not take much heed,--of her he rarely said a word, or of her children, to either of his daughters. but now his grandson, henry grantly, was going to marry a girl of whom he felt that he might speak without impropriety. "i suppose it will be a match; won't it, my dears?" "not a doubt about it," said mrs. grantly. mr. harding looked at his son-in-law, but his son-in-law said nothing. the archdeacon did not even frown,--but only moved himself a little uneasily in his chair. "dear, dear! what a comfort that must be," said the old man. "i have not seen her yet," said mrs. grantly; "but the archdeacon declares that she is all the graces rolled into one." "i never said anything half so absurd," replied the archdeacon. "but he really is quite in love with her, papa," said mrs. grantly. "he confessed to me that he gave her a kiss, and he only saw her once for five minutes." "i should like to give her a kiss," said mr. harding. "so you shall, papa, and i'll bring her here on purpose. as soon as ever the thing is settled, we mean to ask her to plumstead." "do you though? how nice! how happy henry will be!" "and if she comes--and of course she will--i'll lose no time in bringing her over to you. nelly must see her of course." as they were leaving the room mr. harding called the archdeacon back, and taking him by the hand, spoke one word to him in a whisper. "i don't like to interfere," he said; "but might not mr. crawley have st. ewold's?" the archdeacon took up the old man's hand and kissed it. then he followed his wife out of the room, without making any answer to mr. harding's question. three days after this mrs. arabin reached the deanery, and the joy at her return was very great. "my dear, i have been sick for you," said mr. harding. "oh, papa, i ought not to have gone." "nay, my dear; do not say that. would it make me happy that you should be a prisoner here for ever? it was only when i seemed to get so weak that i thought about it. i felt that it must be near when they bade me not to go to the cathedral any more." "if i had been here, i could have gone with you, papa." "it is better as it is. i know now that i was not fit for it. when your sister came to me, i never thought of remonstrating. i knew then that i had seen it for the last time." "we need not say that yet, papa." "i did think that when you came home we might crawl there together some warm morning. i did think of that for a time. but it will never be so, dear. i shall never see anything now that i do not see from here,--and not that for long. do not cry, nelly. i have nothing to regret, nothing to make me unhappy. i know how poor and weak has been my life; but i know how rich and strong is that other life. do not cry, nelly,--not till i am gone; and then not beyond measure. why should any one weep for those who go away full of years,--and full of hope?" on the day but one following the dean also reached his home. the final arrangements of his tour, as well as those of his wife, had been made to depend on mr. crawley's trial; for he also had been hurried back by john eames's visit to florence. "i should have come at once," he said to his wife, "when they wrote to ask me whether crawley had taken the cheque from me, had anybody then told me that he was in actual trouble; but i had no idea then that they were charging him with theft." "as far as i can learn, they never really suspected him until after your answer had come. they had been quite sure that your answer would be in the affirmative." "what he must have endured it is impossible to conceive. i shall go out to him to-morrow." "would he not come to us?" said mrs. arabin. "i doubt it. i will ask him, of course. i will ask them all here. this about henry and the girl may make a difference. he has resigned the living, and some of the palace people are doing the duty." "but he can have it again?" "oh, yes; he can have it again. for the matter of that, i need simply give him back his letter. only he is so odd,--so unlike other people! and he has tried to live there, and has failed; and is now in debt. i wonder whether grantly would give him st. ewold's?" "i wish he would. but you must ask him. i should not dare." as to the matter of the cheque, the dean acknowledged to his wife at last that he had some recollection of her having told him that she had made the sum of money up to seventy pounds. "i don't feel certain of it now; but i think you may have done so." "i am quite sure i could not have done it without telling you," she replied. "at any rate you said nothing of the cheque," pleaded the dean. "i don't suppose i did," said mrs. arabin. "i thought that cheques were like any other money; but i shall know better for the future." on the following morning the dean rode over to hogglestock, and as he drew near to the house of his old friend, his spirits flagged,--for to tell the truth, he dreaded the meeting. since the day on which he had brought mr. crawley from a curacy in cornwall into the diocese of barchester, his friend had been a trouble to him rather than a joy. the trouble had been a trouble of spirit altogether,--not at all of pocket. he would willingly have picked the crawleys out from the pecuniary mud into which they were ever falling, time after time, had it been possible. for, though the dean was hardly to be called a rich man, his lines had fallen to him not only in pleasant places, but in easy circumstances;--and mr. crawley's embarrassments, though overwhelming to him, were not so great as to have been heavy to the dean. but in striving to do this he had always failed, had always suffered, and had generally been rebuked. crawley would attempt to argue with him as to the improper allotment of church endowments,--declaring that he did not do so with any reference to his own circumstances, but simply because the subject was one naturally interesting to clergymen. and this he would do, as he was waving off with his hand offers of immediate assistance which were indispensable. then there had been scenes between the dean and mrs. crawley,--terribly painful,--and which had taken place in direct disobedience to the husband's positive injunctions. "sir," he had once said to the dean, "i request that nothing may pass from your hands to the hands of my wife." "tush, tush," the dean had answered. "i will have no tushing or pshawing on such a matter. a man's wife is his very own, the breath of his nostril, the blood of his heart, the rib from his body. it is for me to rule my wife, and i tell you that i will not have it." after that the gifts had come from the hands of mrs. arabin;--and then again, after that, in the direst hour of his need, crawley had himself come and taken money from the dean's hands! the interview had been so painful that arabin would hardly have been able to count the money or to know of what it had consisted, had he taken the notes and cheque out of the envelope in which his wife had put them. since that day the two had not met each other, and since that day these new troubles had come. arabin as yet knew but little of the manner in which they had been borne, except that crawley had felt himself compelled to resign the living of hogglestock. he knew nothing of mrs. proudie's persecution, except what he gathered from the fact of the clerical commission of which he had been informed; but he could imagine that mrs. proudie would not lie easy on her bed while a clergyman was doing duty almost under her nose, who was guilty of the double offence of being accused of a theft, and of having been put into his living by the dean. the dean, therefore, as he rode on, pictured to himself his old friend in a terrible condition. and it might be that even now that condition would hardly have been improved. he was no longer suspected of being a thief; but he could have no money in his pocket; and it might well be that his sufferings would have made him almost mad. the dean also got down and left his horse at a farm-yard,--as grantly had done with his carriage; and walked on first to the school. he heard voices inside, but could not distinguish from them whether mr. crawley was there or not. slowly he opened the door, and looking round saw that jane crawley was in the ascendant. jane did not know him at once, but told him when he had introduced himself that her father had gone down to hoggle end. he had started two hours ago, but it was impossible to say when he might be back. "he sometimes stays all day long with the brickmakers," said jane. her mother was at home, and she would take the dean into the house. as she said this she told him that her father was sometimes better and sometimes worse. "but he has never been so very, very bad, since henry grantly and mamma's cousin came and told us about the cheque." that word henry grantly made the dean understand that there might yet be a ray of sunshine among the crawleys. "there is papa," said jane, as they got to the gate. then they waited for a few minutes till mr. crawley came up, very hot, wiping the sweat from his forehead. "crawley," said the dean, "i cannot tell you how glad i am to see you, and how rejoiced i am that this accusation has fallen off from you." "verily the news came in time, arabin," said the other; "but it was a narrow pinch--a narrow pinch. will you not enter, and see my wife?" chapter lxxix. mr. crawley speaks of his coat. [illustration] at this time grace had returned home from framley. as long as the terrible tragedy of the forthcoming trial was dragging itself on she had been content to stay away, at her mother's bidding. it has not been possible in these pages to tell of all the advice that had been given to the ladies of the crawley family in their great difficulty, and of all the assistance that had been offered. the elder lady lufton and the younger, and mrs. robarts had continually been in consultation on the subject; mrs. grantly's opinion had been asked and given; and even the miss prettymans and mrs. walker had found means of expressing themselves. the communications to mrs. crawley had been very frequent,--though they had not of course been allowed to reach the ears of mr. crawley. what was to be done when the living should be gone and mr. crawley should be in prison? some said that he might be there for six weeks, and some for two years. old lady lufton made anxious inquiries about judge medlicote, before whom it was said that the trial would be taken. judge medlicote was a dissenter, and old lady lufton was in despair. when she was assured by some liberally-disposed friend that this would certainly make no difference, she shook her head woefully. "i don't know why we are to have dissenters at all," she said, "to try people who belong to the established church." when she heard that judge medlicote would certainly be the judge, she made up her mind that two years would be the least of it. she would not have minded it, she said, if he had been a roman catholic. and whether the punishment might be for six weeks or for two years, what should be done with the family? where should they be housed? how should they be fed? what should be done with the poor man when he came out of prison? it was a case in which the generous, soft-hearted old lady lufton was almost beside herself. "as for grace," said young lady lufton, "it will be a great deal better that we should keep her amongst us. of course she will become mrs. grantly, and it will be nicer for her that it should be so." in those days the posters had been seen, and the flitting to pau had been talked of, and the framley opinion was that grace had better remain at framley till she should be carried off to pau. there were schemes, too, about jane. but what was to be done for the wife? and what was to be done for mr. crawley? then came the news from mrs. arabin, and all interest in judge medlicote was at an end. but even now, after this great escape, what was to be done? as to grace, she had felt the absolute necessity of being obedient to her friends,--with the consent of course of her mother,--during the great tribulation of her family. things were so bad that she had not the heart to make them worse by giving any unnecessary trouble as to herself. having resolved,--and having made her mother so understand,--that on one point she would guide herself by her own feelings, she was contented to go hither and thither as she was told, and to do as she was bid. her hope was that miss prettyman would allow her to go back to her teaching, but it had come to be understood among them all that nothing was to be said on that subject till the trial should be over. till that time she would be passive. but then, as i have said, had come the news from mrs. arabin, and grace, with all the others, understood that there would be no trial. when this was known and acknowledged, she declared her purpose of going back to hogglestock. she would go back at once. when asked both by lady lufton and by mrs. robarts why she was in so great a haste, she merely said that it must be so. she was, as it were, absolved from her passive obedience to framley authorities by the diminution of the family misfortunes. mrs. robarts understood the feeling by which grace was hurried away. "do you know why she is so obstinate?" lady lufton asked. "i think i do," said mrs. robarts. "and what is it?" "should major grantly renew his offer to her she is under a pledge to accept him now." "of course he will renew it, and of course she will accept him." "just so. but she prefers that he should come for her to her own house,--because of its poverty. if he chooses to seek her there, i don't think she will make much difficulty." lady lufton demurred to this, not however with anger, and expressed a certain amount of mild displeasure. she did not quite see why major grantly should not be allowed to come and do his love-making comfortably, where there was a decent dinner for him to eat, and chairs and tables and sofas and carpets. she said that she thought that something was due to major grantly. she was in truth a little disappointed that she was not allowed to have her own way, and to arrange the marriage at framley under her own eye. but, through it all, she appreciated grace; and they who knew her well and heard what she said upon the occasion, understood that her favour was not to be withdrawn. all young women were divided by old lady lufton into sheep and goats,--very white sheep and very black goats;--and grace was to be a sheep. thus it came to pass that grace crawley was at home when the dean visited hogglestock. "mamma," she said, looking out of the window, "there is the dean with papa at the gate." "it was a narrow squeak--a very narrow squeak," mr. crawley had said when his friend congratulated him on his escape. the dean felt at the moment that not for many years had he heard the incumbent of hogglestock speak either of himself or of anything else with so manifest an attempt at jocularity. arabin had expected to find the man broken down by the weight of his sorrows, and lo! at the first moment of their first interview he himself began to ridicule them! crawley having thus alluded to the narrow squeak had asked his visitor to enter the house and see his wife. "of course i will," said arabin, "but i will speak just a word to you first." jane, who had accompanied the dean from the school, now left them, and went into the house to her mother. "my wife cannot forgive herself about the cheque," continued he. "there is nothing to be forgiven," said mr. crawley; "nothing." "she feels that what she did was awkward and foolish. she ought never to have paid a cheque away in such a manner. she knows that now." "it was given,--not paid," said crawley; and as he spoke something of the black cloud came back upon his face. "and i am well aware how hard mrs. arabin strove to take away from the alms she bestowed the bitterness of the sting of eleemosynary aid. if you please, arabin, we will not talk any more of that. i can never forget that i have been a beggar, but i need not make my beggary the matter of conversation. i hope the holy land has fulfilled your expectation?" "it has more than done so," said the dean, bewildered by the sudden change. "for myself, it is, of course, impossible that i should ever visit any scenes except those to which my immediate work may call me,--never in this world. the new jerusalem is still within my reach,--if it be not forfeited by pride and obstinacy; but the old jerusalem i can never behold. methinks, because it is so, i would sooner stand with my foot on mount olivet, or drink a cup of water in the village of bethany, than visit any other spot within the traveller's compass. the sources of the nile, of which men now talk so much,--i see it in the papers and reviews which the ladies at framley are so good as to send to my wife,--do not interest me much. i have no ambition to climb mont blanc or the matterhorn; rome makes my mouth water but little, nor even athens much. i can realize without seeing all that athens could show me, and can fancy that the existing truth would destroy more than it would build up. but to have stood on calvary!" "we don't know where calvary was," said the dean. "i fancy that i should know,--should know enough," said the illogical and unreasonable mr. crawley. "is it true that you can look over from the spot on which he stood as he came across the brow of the hill, and see the huge stones of the temple placed there by solomon's men,--as he saw them;--right across the brook cedron, is it not?" "it is all there, crawley,--just as your knowledge of it tells you." "in the privilege of seeing those places i can almost envy a man his--money." the last word he uttered after a pause. he had been about to say that under such temptation he could almost envy a man his promotion; but he bethought himself that on such an occasion as this it would be better that he should spare the dean. "and now, if you wish it, we will go in. i fancy that i see my wife at the window, as though she were waiting for us." so saying, he strode on along the little path, and the dean was fain to follow him, even though he had said so little of all that he had intended to say. as soon as he was with mrs. crawley he repeated his apology about the cheque, and found himself better able to explain himself than he could do when alone with her husband. "of course, it has been our fault," he said. "oh, no," said mrs. crawley, "how can you have been in fault when your only object was to do us good?" but, nevertheless, the dean took the blame upon his own shoulders, or, rather upon those of his wife, and declared himself to be responsible for all the trouble about the cheque. "let it go," said crawley, after sitting for awhile in silence; "let it pass." "you cannot wonder, crawley," said the dean, "that i should have felt myself obliged to speak of it." "for the future it will be well that it should be forgotten," said crawley; "or, if not forgotten, treated as though forgotten. and now, dean, what must i do about the living?" "just resume it, as though nothing had happened." "but that may hardly be done without the bishop's authority. i speak, of course, with deference to your higher and better information on such subjects. my experience in the taking up and laying down of livings has not been extended. but it seemeth to me that though it may certainly be in your power to nominate me again to the perpetual curacy of this parish,--presuming your patronage to be unlimited and not to reach you in rotation only,--yet the bishop may demand to institute again, and must so demand, unless he pleases to permit that my letter to him shall be revoked and cancelled." "of course he will do anything of that kind. he must know the circumstances as well as you and i do." "at present they tell me that he is much afflicted by the death of his wife, and, therefore, can hardly be expected to take immediate action. there came here on the last sunday one mr. snapper, his lordship's chaplain." "we all know snapper," said the dean. "snapper is not a bad little fellow." "i say nothing of his being bad, my friend, but merely mention the fact that on sunday morning last he performed the service in our church. on the sunday previous, one mr. thumble was here." "we all know thumble, too," said the dean; "or, at least, know something about him." "he has been a thorn in our sides," said mrs. crawley, unable to restrain the expression of her dislike when mr. thumble's name was mentioned. "nay, my dear, nay;--do not allow yourself the use of language so strong against a brother. our flesh at that time was somewhat prone to fester, and little thorns made us very sore." "he is a horrible man," said jane, almost in a whisper; but the words were distinctly audible by the dean. "they need not come any more," said arabin. "that is where i fear we differ. i think they must come,--or some others in their place,--till the bishop shall have expressed his pleasure to the contrary. i have submitted myself to his lordship, and, having done so, feel that i cannot again go up into my pulpit till he shall have authorized me to do so. for a time, arabin, i combated the bishop, believing,--then and now,--that he put forth his hand against me after a fashion which the law had not sanctioned. and i made bold to stand in his presence and to tell him that i would not obey him, except in things legal. but afterwards, when he proceeded formally, through the action of a commission, i submitted myself. and i regard myself still as being under submission." it was impossible to shake him. arabin remained there for more than an hour, trying to pass on to another subject, but being constantly brought back by mr. crawley himself to the fact of his own dependent position. nor would he condescend to supplicate the bishop. it was, he surmised, the duty of dr. tempest, together with the other four clergymen, to report to the bishop on the question of the alleged theft; and then doubtless the bishop, when he had duly considered the report, and,--as mr. crawley seemed to think was essentially necessary,--had sufficiently recovered from the grief at his wife's death, would, at his leisure, communicate his decision to mr. crawley. nothing could be more complete than mr. crawley's humility in reference to the bishop; and he never seemed to be tired of declaring that he had submitted himself! and then the dean, finding it to be vain to expect to be left alone with mr. crawley for a moment,--in vain also to wait for a proper opening for that which he had to say,--rushed violently at his other subject. "and now, mrs. crawley," he said, "mrs. arabin wishes you all to come over to the deanery for a while and stay with us." "mrs. arabin is too kind," said mrs. crawley, looking across at her husband. "we should like it of all things," said the dean, with perhaps more of good nature than of truth. "of course you must have been knocked about a good deal." "indeed we have," said mrs. crawley. "and till you are somewhat settled again, i think that the change of scene would be good for all of you. come, crawley, i'll talk to you every evening about jerusalem for as long as you please;--and then there will perhaps come back to us something of the pleasantness of old days." as she heard this mrs. crawley's eyes became full of tears, and she could not altogether hide them. what she had endured during the last four months had almost broken her spirit. the burden had at last been too heavy for her strength. "you cannot fancy, crawley, how often i have thought of the old days and wished that they might return. i have found it very hard to get an opportunity of saying so much to you; but i will say it now." "it may hardly be as you say," said crawley, grimly. "you mean that the old days can never be brought back?" "assuredly they cannot. but it was not that that i meant. it may not be that i and mine should transfer ourselves to your roof and sojourn there." "why should you not?" "the reasons are many, and on the face of things. the reason, perhaps, the most on the face is to be found in my wife's gown, and in my coat." this mr. crawley said very gravely, looking neither to the right nor to the left, nor at the face of any of them, nor at his own garment, nor at hers, but straight before him; and when he had so spoken he said not a word further,--not going on to dilate on his poverty as the dean expected that he would do. "at such a time such reasons should stand for nothing," said the dean. "and why not now as they always do, and always must till the power of tailors shall have waned, and the daughters of eve shall toil and spin no more? like to like is true, and should be held to be true, of all societies and of all compacts for co-operation and mutual living. here, where, if i may venture to say so, you and i are like to like;--for the new gloss of your coat,"--the dean, as it happened, had on at the moment a very old coat, his oldest coat, selected perhaps with some view to this special visit,--"does not obtrude itself in my household, as would the threadbare texture of mine in yours;--i can open my mouth to you and converse with you at my ease; you are now to me that frank arabin who has so often comforted me and so often confuted me; whom i may perhaps on an occasion have confuted--and perhaps have comforted. but were i sitting with you in your library in barchester, my threadbare coat would be too much for me. i should be silent, if not sullen. i should feel the weight of all my poverty, and the greater weight of all your wealth. for my children, let them go. i have come to know that they will be better away from me." "papa!" said jane. "papa does not mean it," said grace, coming up to him and standing close to him. there was silence amongst them for a few moments, and then the master of the house shook himself,--literally shook himself, till he had shaken off the cloud. he had taken grace by the hand, and thrusting out the other arm had got it round jane's waist. "when a man has girls, arabin," he said, "as you have, but not big girls yet like grace here, of course he knows that they will fly away." "i shall not fly away," said jane. "i don't know what papa means," said grace. upon the whole the dean thought it the pleasantest visit he had ever made to hogglestock, and when he got home he told his wife that he believed that the accusation made against mr. crawley had done him good. "i could not say a word in private to her," he said, "but i did promise that you would go and see her." on the very next day mrs. arabin went over, and i think that the visit was a comfort to mrs. crawley. chapter lxxx. miss demolines desires to become a finger-post. john eames had passed mrs. thorne in the hall of her own house almost without noticing her as he took his departure from lily dale. she had told him as plainly as words could speak that she could not bring herself to be his wife,--and he had believed her. he had sworn to himself that if he did not succeed now he would never ask her again. "it would be foolish and unmanly to do so," he said to himself as he rushed along the street towards his club. no! that romance was over. at last there had come an end to it! "it has taken a good bit out of me," he said, arresting his steps suddenly that he might stand still and think of it all. "by george, yes! a man doesn't go through that kind of thing without losing some of the caloric. i couldn't do it again if an angel came in my way." he went to his club, and tried to be jolly. he ordered a good dinner, and got some man to come and dine with him. for an hour or so he held himself up, and did appear to be jolly. but as he walked home at night, and gave himself time to think over what had taken place with deliberation, he stopped in the gloom of a deserted street and leaning against the rails burst into tears. he had really loved her and she was never to be his. he had wanted her,--and it is so painful a thing to miss what you want when you have done your very best to obtain it! to struggle in vain always hurts the pride; but the wound made by the vain struggle for a woman is sorer than any other wound so made. he gnashed his teeth, and struck the iron railings with his stick;--and then he hurried home, swearing that he would never give another thought to lily dale. in the dead of the night, thinking of it still, he asked himself whether it would not be a fine thing to wait another ten years, and then go to her again. in such a way would he not make himself immortal as a lover beyond any jacob or any leander? the next day he went to his office and was very grave. when sir raffle complimented him on being back before his time, he simply said that when he had accomplished that for which he had gone, he had, of course, come back. sir raffle could not get a word out from him about mr. crawley. he was very grave, and intent upon his work. indeed he was so serious that he quite afflicted sir raffle,--whose mock activity felt itself to be confounded by the official zeal of his private secretary. during the whole of that day johnny was resolving that there could be no cure for his malady but hard work. he would not only work hard at the office if he remained there, but he would take to heavy reading. he rather thought that he would go deep into greek and do a translation, or take up the exact sciences and make a name for himself that way. but as he had enough for the life of a secluded literary man without his salary, he rather thought that he would give up his office altogether. he had a mutton chop at home that evening, and spent his time in endeavouring to read out loud to himself certain passages from the iliad;--for he had bought a homer as he returned from his office. at nine o'clock he went, half-price, to the strand theatre. how he met there his old friend boulger and went afterwards to "the cock" and had a supper need not here be told with more accurate detail. on the evening of the next day he was bound by his appointment to go to porchester terrace. in the moments of his enthusiasm about homer he had declared to himself that he would never go near miss demolines again. why should he? all that kind of thing was nothing to him now. he would simply send her his compliments and say that he was prevented by business from keeping his engagement. she, of course, would go on writing to him for a time, but he would simply leave her letters unanswered, and the thing, of course, would come to an end at last. he afterwards said something to boulger about miss demolines,--but that was during the jollity of their supper,--and he then declared that he would follow out that little game. "i don't see why a fellow isn't to amuse himself, eh, boulger, old boy?" boulger winked and grinned, and said that some amusements were dangerous. "i don't think that there is any danger there," said johnny. "i don't believe she is thinking of that kind of thing herself;--not with me at least. what she likes is the pretence of a mystery; and as it is amusing i don't see why a fellow shouldn't indulge her." but that determination was pronounced after two mutton chops at "the cock," between one and two o'clock in the morning. on the next day he was cooler and wiser. greek he thought might be tedious as he discovered that he would have to begin again from the very alphabet. he would therefore abandon that idea. greek was not the thing for him, but he would take up the sanitary condition of the poor in london. a fellow could be of some use in that way. in the meantime he would keep his appointment with miss demolines, simply because it was an appointment. a gentleman should always keep his word to a lady! he did keep his appointment with miss demolines, and was with her almost precisely at the hour she had named. she received him with a mysterious tranquillity which almost perplexed him. he remembered, however, that the way to enjoy the society of miss demolines was to take her in all her moods with perfect seriousness, and was therefore very tranquil himself. on the present occasion she did not rise as he entered the room, and hardly spoke as she tendered to him the tips of her fingers to be touched. as she said almost nothing, he said nothing at all, but sank into a chair and stretched his legs out comfortably before him. it had been always understood between them that she was to bear the burden of the conversation. "you'll have a cup of tea?" she said. "yes;--if you do." then the page brought the tea, and john eames amused himself with swallowing three slices of very thin bread and butter. "none for me,--thanks," said madalina. "i rarely eat after dinner, and not often much then. i fancy that i should best like a world in which there was no eating." "a good dinner is a very good thing," said john. and then there was again silence. he was aware that some great secret was to be told to him during this evening, but he was much too discreet to show any curiosity upon that subject. he sipped his tea to the end, and then, having got up to put his cup down, stood on the rug with his back to the fire. "have you been out to-day?" he asked. "indeed i have." "and you are tired?" "very tired!" "then perhaps i had better not keep you up." "your remaining will make no difference in that respect. i don't suppose that i shall be in bed for the next four hours. but do as you like about going." "i am in no hurry," said johnny. then he sat down again, stretched out his legs and made himself comfortable. "i have been to see that woman," said madalina after a pause. "what woman?" "maria clutterbuck,--as i must always call her; for i cannot bring myself to pronounce the name of that poor wretch who was done to death." "he blew his brains out in delirium tremens," said johnny. "and what made him drink?" said madalina with emphasis. "never mind. i decline altogether to speak of it. such a scene as i have had! i was driven at last to tell her what i thought of her. anything so callous, so heartless, so selfish, so stone-cold, and so childish, i never saw before! that maria was childish and selfish i always knew;--but i thought there was some heart,--a vestige of heart. i found to-day that there was none,--none. if you please we won't speak of her any more." "certainly not," said johnny. "you need not wonder that i am tired and feverish." "that sort of thing is fatiguing, i dare say. i don't know whether we do not lose more than we gain by those strong emotions." "i would rather die and go beneath the sod at once, than live without them," said madalina. "it's a matter of taste," said johnny. "it is there that that poor wretch is so deficient. she is thinking now, this moment, of nothing but her creature comforts. that tragedy has not even stirred her pulses." "if her pulses were stirred ever so, that would not make her happy." "happy! who is happy? are you happy?" johnny thought of lily dale and paused before he answered. no; certainly he was not happy. but he was not going to talk about his unhappiness to miss demolines! "of course i am;--as jolly as a sandboy," he said. "mr. eames," said madalina raising herself on her sofa, "if you can not express yourself in language more suitable to the occasion and to the scene than that, i think that you had better--" "hold my tongue." "just so;--though i should not have chosen myself to use words so abruptly discourteous." "what did i say;--jolly as a sandboy? there is nothing wrong in that. what i meant was, that i think that this world is a very good sort of world, and that a man can get along in it very well, if he minds his _p_'s and _q_'s." "but suppose it's a woman?" "easier still." "and suppose she does not mind her _p_'s and _q_'s?" "women always do." "do they? your knowledge of women goes as far as that, does it? tell me fairly;--do you think you know anything about women?" madalina as she asked the question, looked full into his face, and shook her locks and smiled. when she shook her locks and smiled, there was a certain attraction about her of which john eames was fully sensible. she could throw a special brightness into her eyes, which, though it probably betokened nothing truly beyond ill-natured mischief, seemed to convey a promise of wit and intellect. "i don't mean to make any boast about it," said johnny. "i doubt whether you know anything. the pretty simplicity of your excellent lily dale has sufficed for you." "never mind about her," said johnny impatiently. "i do not mind about her in the least. but an insight into that sort of simplicity will not teach you the character of a real woman. you cannot learn the flavour of wines by sipping sherry and water. for myself i do not think that i am simple. i own it fairly. if you must have simplicity, i cannot be to your taste." "nobody likes partridge always," said johnny laughing. "i understand you, sir. and though what you say is not complimentary, i am willing to forgive that fault for its truth. i don't consider myself to be always partridge, i can assure you. i am as changeable as the moon." "and as fickle?" "i say nothing about that, sir. i leave you to find that out. it is a man's business to discover that for himself. if you really do know aught of women--" "i did not say that i did." "but if you do, you will perhaps have discovered that a woman may be as changeable as the moon, and yet as true as the sun;--that she may flit from flower to flower, quite unheeding while no passion exists, but that a passion fixes her at once. do you believe me?" now she looked into his eyes again, but did not smile and did not shake her locks. "oh yes;--that's true enough. and when they have a lot of children, then they become steady as milestones." "children!" said madalina, getting up and walking about the room. "they do have them you know," said johnny. "do you mean to say, sir, that i should be a milestone?" "a finger-post," said johnny, "to show a fellow the way he ought to go." she walked twice across the room without speaking. then she came and stood opposite to him, still without speaking,--and then she walked about again. "what could a woman better be, than a finger-post, as you call it, with such a purpose?" "nothing better, of course;--though a milestone to tell a fellow his distances, is very good." "psha!" "you don't like the idea of being a milestone." "no!" "then you can make up your mind to be a finger-post." "john, shall i be a finger-post for you?" she stood and looked at him for a moment or two, with her eyes full of love, as though she were going to throw herself into his arms. and she would have done so, no doubt, instantly, had he risen to his legs. as it was, after having gazed at him for the moment with her love-laden eyes, she flung herself on the sofa, and hid her face among the cushions. he had felt that it was coming for the last quarter of an hour,--and he had felt, also, that he was quite unable to help himself. he did not believe that he should ever be reduced to marrying miss demolines, but he did see plainly enough that he was getting into trouble; and yet, for his life, he could not help himself. the moth who flutters round the light knows that he is being burned, and yet he cannot fly away from it. when madalina had begun to talk to him about women in general, and then about herself, and had told him that such a woman as herself,--even one so liable to the disturbance of violent emotions,--might yet be as true and honest as the sun, he knew that he ought to get up and make his escape. he did not exactly know how the catastrophe would come, but he was quite sure that if he remained there he would be called upon in some way for a declaration of his sentiments,--and that the call would be one which all his wit would not enable him to answer with any comfort. it was very well jesting about milestones, but every jest brought him nearer to the precipice. he perceived that however ludicrous might be the image which his words produced, she was clever enough in some way to turn that image to her own purpose. he had called a woman a finger-post, and forthwith she had offered to come to him and be finger-post to him for life! what was he to say to her? it was clear that he must say something. as at this moment she was sobbing violently, he could not pass the offer by as a joke. women will say that his answer should have been very simple, and his escape very easy. but men will understand that it is not easy to reject even a miss demolines when she offers herself for matrimony. and, moreover,--as johnny bethought himself at this crisis of his fate,--lady demolines was no doubt at the other side of the drawing-room door, ready to stop him, should he attempt to run away. in the meantime the sobs on the sofa became violent, and still more violent. he had not even yet made up his mind what to do, when madalina, springing to her feet, stood before him, with her curls wildly waving and her arms extended. "let it be as though it were unsaid," she exclaimed. john eames had not the slightest objection; but, nevertheless, there was a difficulty even in this. were he simply to assent to this latter proposition, it could not be but that the feminine nature of miss demolines would be outraged by so uncomplimentary an acquiescence. he felt that he ought at least to hesitate a little,--to make some pretence at closing upon the rich offer that had been made to him; only that were he to show any such pretence the rich offer would, no doubt, be repeated. his madalina had twitted him in the earlier part of their interview with knowing nothing of the nature of women. he did know enough to feel assured that any false step on his part now would lead him into very serious difficulties. "let it be as though it were unsaid! why, oh, why, have i betrayed myself?" exclaimed madalina. john now had risen from his chair, and coming up to her took her by the arm and spoke a word. "compose yourself," he said. he spoke in his most affectionate voice, and he stood very close to her. "how easy it is to bid me do that," said madalina. "tell the sea to compose itself when it rages!" "madalina!" said he. "well,--what of madalina? madalina has lost her own respect,--for ever." "do not say that." "oh, john,--why did you ever come here? why? why did we meet at that fatal woman's house? or, meeting so, why did we not part as strangers? sir, why have you come here to my mother's house day after day, evening after evening, if--. oh, heavens, what am i saying? i wonder whether you will scorn me always?" "i will never scorn you." "and you will pardon me?" "madalina, there is nothing to pardon." "and--you will love me?" then, without waiting for any more encouraging reply,--unable, probably, to wait a moment longer, she sunk upon his bosom. he caught her, of course,--and at that moment the drawing-room door was opened, and lady demolines entered the chamber. john eames detected at a glance the skirt of the old white dressing gown which he had seen whisking away on the occasion of his last visit at porchester terrace. but on the present occasion lady demolines wore over it a short red opera cloak, and the cap on her head was ornamented with coloured ribbons. "what is this," she said, "and why am i thus disturbed?" madalina lay motionless in johnny's arms, while the old woman glowered at him from under the coloured ribbons. "mr. eames, what is it that i behold?" she said. [illustration: "what is it that i behold?"] "your daughter, madam, seems to be a little unwell," said johnny. madalina kept her feet firm upon the ground, but did not for a moment lose her purchase against johnny's waistcoat. her respirations came very strong, but they came a good deal stronger when he mentioned the fact that she was not so well as she might be. "unwell!" said lady demolines. and john was stricken at the moment with a conviction that her ladyship must have passed the early years of her life upon the stage. "you would trifle with me, sir. beware that you do not trifle with her,--with madalina!" "my mother," said madalina; but still she did not give up her purchase, and the voice seemed to come half from her and half from johnny. "come to me, my mother." then lady demolines hastened to her daughter, and madalina between them was gradually laid at her length upon the sofa. the work of laying her out, however, was left almost entirely to the stronger arm of mr. john eames. "thanks, mother," said madalina; but she had not as yet opened her eyes, even for an instant. "perhaps i had better go now," said johnny. the old woman looked at him with eyes which asked him whether "he didn't wish he might get it" as plainly as though the words had been pronounced. "of course i'll wait if i can be of any service," said johnny. "i must know more of this, sir, before you leave the house," said lady demolines. he saw that between them both there might probably be a very bad quarter of an hour in store for him; but he swore to himself that no union of dragon and tigress should extract from him a word that could be taken as a promise of marriage. the old woman was now kneeling by the head of the sofa, and johnny was standing close by her side. suddenly madalina opened her eyes,--opened them very wide and gazed around her. then slowly she raised herself on the sofa, and turned her face first upon her mother and then upon johnny. "you here, mamma!" she said. "dearest one, i am near you. be not afraid," said her ladyship. "afraid! why should i be afraid? john! my own john! mamma, he is my own." and she put out her arms to him, as though calling to him to come to her. things were now very bad with john eames,--so bad that he would have given a considerable lump out of lord de guest's legacy to be able to escape at once into the street. the power of a woman, when she chooses to use it recklessly, is, for the moment, almost unbounded. "i hope you find yourself a little better," said john, struggling to speak, as though he were not utterly crushed by the occasion. lady demolines slowly raised herself from her knees, helping herself with her hands against the shoulder of the sofa,--for though still very clever, she was old and stiff,--and then offered both her hands to johnny. johnny cautiously took one of them, finding himself unable to decline them both. "my son!" she exclaimed; and before he knew where he was the old woman had succeeded in kissing his nose and his whiskers. "my son!" she said again. now the time had come for facing the dragon and the tigress in their wrath. if they were to be faced at all, the time for facing them had certainly arrived. i fear that john's heart sank low in his bosom at that moment. "i don't quite understand," he said, almost in a whisper. madalina put out one arm towards him, and the fingers trembled. her lips were opened, and the white row of interior ivory might be seen plainly; but at the present conjuncture of affairs she spoke not a word. she spoke not a word; but her arm remained stretched out towards him, and her fingers did not cease to tremble. "you do not understand!" said lady demolines, drawing herself back, and looking, in her short open cloak, like a knight who has donned his cuirass, but has forgotten to put on his leg-gear. and she shook the bright ribbons of her cap, as a knight in his wrath shakes the crest of his helmet. "you do not understand, mr. eames! what is it, sir, that you do not understand?" "there is some misconception, i mean," said johnny. "mother!" said madalina, turning her eyes from her recreant lover to her tender parent; trembling all over, but still keeping her hand extended. "mother!" "my darling! but leave him to me, dearest. compose yourself." "'twas the word that he said--this moment; before he pressed me to his heart." "i thought you were fainting," said johnny. "sir!" and lady demolines, as she spoke, shook her crest, and glared at him, and almost flew at him in her armour. "it may be that nature has given way with me, and that i have been in a dream," said madalina. "that which mine eyes saw was no dream," said lady demolines. "mr. eames, i have given to you the sweetest name that can fall from an old woman's lips. i have called you my son." "yes, you did, i know. but, as i said before, there is some mistake. i know how proud i ought to be, and how happy, and all that kind of thing. but--" then there came a screech from madalina, which would have awakened the dead, had there been any dead in that house. the page and the cook, however, took no notice of it, whether they were awakened or not. and having screeched, madalina stood erect upon the floor, and she also glared upon her recreant lover. the dragon and the tiger were there before him now, and he knew that it behoved him to look to himself. as he had a battle to fight, might it not be best to put a bold face upon it? "the truth is," said he, "that i don't understand this kind of thing at all." "not understand it, sir?" said the dragon. "leave him to me, mother," said the tigress, shaking her head again, but with a kind of shake differing from that which she had used before. "this is my business, and i'll have it out for myself. if he thinks i'm going to put up with his nonsense he's mistaken. i've been straightforward and above board with you, mr. eames, and i expect to be treated in the same way in return. do you mean to tell my mother that you deny that we are engaged?" "well; yes; i do. i'm very sorry, you know, if i seem to be uncivil--" "it's because i've no brother," said the tigress. "he thinks that i have no man near me to protect me. but he shall find that i can protect myself. john eames, why are you treating me like this?" "i shall consult my cousin the serjeant to-morrow," said the dragon. "in the meantime he must remain in this house. i shall not allow the front door to be unlocked for him." this, i think, was the bitterest moment of all to johnny. to be confined all night in lady demolines' drawing-room would, of itself, be an intolerable nuisance. and then the absurdity of the thing, and the story that would go abroad! and what should he say to the dragon's cousin the serjeant, if the serjeant should be brought upon the field before he was able to escape from it? he did not know what a serjeant might not do to him in such circumstances. there was one thing no serjeant should do, and no dragon! between them all they should never force him to marry the tigress. at this moment johnny heard a tramp along the pavement, and he rushed to the window. before the dragon or even the tigress could arrest him, he had thrown up the sash, and had appealed in his difficulty to the guardian of the night. "i say, old fellow," said johnny, "don't you stir from that till i tell you." the policeman turned his bull's-eye upon the window, and stood perfectly motionless. "now, if you please, i'll say good-night," said johnny. but, as he spoke, he still held the open window in his hand. "what means this violence in my house?" said the dragon. "mamma, you had better let him go," said the tigress. "we shall know where to find him." "you will certainly be able to find me," said johnny. "go," said the dragon, shaking her crest,--shaking all her armour at him, "dastard, go!" "policeman," shouted johnny, while he still held the open window in his hand, "mind you don't stir till i come out." the bull's-eye was shifted a little, but the policeman spoke never a word. "i wish you good-night, lady demolines," said johnny. "good-night, miss demolines." then he left the window and made a run for the door. but the dragon was there before him. "let him go, mamma," said the tigress as she closed the window. "we shall only have a rumpus." "that will be all," said johnny. "there isn't the slightest use in your trying to keep me here." "and are we never to see you again?" said the tigress, almost languishing again with one eye. "well; no. what would be the use? no man likes to be shut in, you know." "go then," said the tigress; "but if you think that this is to be the end of it, you'll find yourself wonderfully mistaken. you poor false, drivelling creature! lily dale won't touch you with a pair of tongs. it's no use your going to her." "go away, sir, this moment, and don't contaminate my room an instant longer by your presence," said the dragon, who had observed through the window that the bull's-eye was still in full force before the house. then john eames withdrew, and descending into the hall made his way in the dark to the front door. for aught he knew there might still be treachery in regard to the lock; but his heart was comforted as he heard the footfall of the policeman on the door-step. with much fumbling he succeeded at last in turning the key and drawing the bolt, and then he found himself at liberty in the street. before he even spoke a word to the policeman he went out into the road and looked up at the window. he could just see the figure of the dragon's helmet as she was closing the shutters. it was the last he ever saw of lady demolines or of her daughter. "what was it all about?" said the policeman. "i don't know that i can just tell you," said johnny, searching in his pocket-book for half a sovereign which he tendered to the man. "there was a little difficulty, and i'm obliged to you for waiting." "there ain't nothing wrong?" said the man suspiciously, hesitating for a moment before he accepted the coin. "nothing on earth. i'll wait with you, while you have the house opened and inquire, if you wish it. the truth is somebody inside refused to have the door opened, and i didn't want to stay there all night." "they're a rummy couple, if what i hear is true." "they are a rummy couple," said johnny. "i suppose it's all right," said the policeman, taking the money. and then john walked off home by himself, turning in his mind all the circumstances of his connection with miss demolines. taking his own conduct as a whole, he was rather proud of it; but he acknowledged to himself that it would be well that he should keep himself free from the society of madalinas for the future. chapter lxxxi. barchester cloisters. on the morning of the sunday after the dean's return mr. harding was lying in his bed, and posy was sitting on the bed beside him. it was manifest to all now that he became feebler and feebler from day to day, and that he would never leave his bed again. even the archdeacon had shaken his head, and had acknowledged to his wife that the last day for her father was near at hand. it would very soon be necessary that he should select another vicar for st. ewolds. "grandpa won't play cat's-cradle," said posy, as mrs. arabin entered the room. "no, darling,--not this morning," said the old man. he himself knew well enough that he would never play cat's-cradle again. even that was over for him now. "she teases you, papa," said mrs. arabin. "no, indeed," said he. "posy never teases me;" and he slowly moved his withered hand down outside the bed, so as to hold the child by her frock. "let her stay with me, my dear." "dr. filgrave is downstairs, papa. you will see him, if he comes up?" now dr. filgrave was the leading physician of barchester, and nobody of note in the city,--or for the matter of that in the eastern division of the county,--was allowed to start upon the last great journey without some assistance from him as the hour of going drew nigh. i do not know that he had much reputation for prolonging life, but he was supposed to add a grace to the hour of departure. mr. harding had expressed no wish to see the doctor,--had rather declared his conviction that dr. filgrave could be of no possible service to him. but he was not a man to persevere in his objection in opposition to the wishes of the friends around him; and as soon as the archdeacon had spoken a word on the subject he assented. "of course, my dear, i will see him." "and posy shall come back when he has gone," said mrs. arabin. "posy will do me more good than dr. filgrave i am quite sure;--but posy shall go now." so posy scrambled off the bed, and the doctor was ushered into the room. "a day or two will see the end of it, mr. archdeacon;--i should say a day or two," said the doctor, as he met dr. grantly in the hall. "i should say that a day or two would see the end of it. indeed i will not undertake that twenty-four hours may not see the close of his earthly troubles. he has no suffering, no pain, no disturbing cause. nature simply retires to rest." dr. filgrave, as he said this, made a slow falling motion with his hands, which alone on various occasions had been thought to be worth all the money paid for his attendance. "perhaps you would wish that i should step in in the evening, mr. dean? as it happens, i shall be at liberty." the dean of course said that he would take it as an additional favour. neither the dean nor the archdeacon had the slightest belief in dr. filgrave, and yet they would hardly have been contented that their father-in-law should have departed without him. "look at that man, now," said the archdeacon, when the doctor had gone, "who talks so glibly about nature going to rest. i've known him all my life. he's an older man by some months than our dear old friend upstairs. and he looks as if he were going to attend death-beds in barchester for ever." "i suppose he is right in what he tells us now?" said the dean. "no doubt he is; but my belief doesn't come from his saying it." then there was a pause as the two church dignitaries sat together, doing nothing, feeling that the solemnity of the moment was such that it would be hardly becoming that they should even attempt to read. "his going will make an old man of me," said the archdeacon. "it will be different with you." "it will make an old woman of eleanor, i fear." "i seem to have known him all my life," said the archdeacon. "i have known him ever since i left college; and i have known him as one man seldom knows another. there is nothing that he has done,--as i believe, nothing that he has thought,--with which i have not been cognizant. i feel sure that he never had an impure fancy in his mind, or a faulty wish in his heart. his tenderness has surpassed the tenderness of woman; and yet, when an occasion came for showing it, he had all the spirit of a hero. i shall never forget his resignation of the hospital, and all that i did and said to make him keep it." "but he was right?" "as septimus harding he was, i think, right; but it would have been wrong in any other man. and he was right, too, about the deanery." for promotion had once come in mr. harding's way, and he, too, might have been dean of barchester. "the fact is, he never was wrong. he couldn't go wrong. he lacked guile, and he feared god,--and a man who does both will never go far astray. i don't think he ever coveted aught in his life,--except a new case for his violoncello and somebody to listen to him when he played it." then the archdeacon got up, and walked about the room in his enthusiasm; and, perhaps, as he walked some thoughts as to the sterner ambition of his own life passed through his mind. what things had he coveted? had he lacked guile? he told himself that he had feared god,--but he was not sure that he was telling himself true even in that. during the whole of the morning mrs. arabin and mrs. grantly were with their father, and during the greater part of the day there was absolute silence in the room. he seemed to sleep; and they, though they knew that in truth he was not sleeping, feared to disturb him by a word. about two mrs. baxter brought him his dinner, and he did rouse himself, and swallowed a spoonful or two of soup and half a glass of wine. at this time posy came to him, and stood at the bedside, looking at him with her great wide eyes. she seemed to be aware that life had now gone so far with her dear old friend that she must not be allowed to sit upon his bed again. but he put his hand out to her, and she held it, standing quite still and silent. when mrs. baxter came to take away the tray, posy's mother got up, and whispered a word to the child. then posy went away, and her eyes never beheld the old man again. that was a day which posy will never forget,--not though she should live to be much older than her grandfather was when she thus left him. "it is so sweet to have you both here," he said, when he had been lying silent for nearly an hour after the child had gone. then they got up, and came and stood close to him. "there is nothing left for me to wish, my dears;--nothing." not long after that he expressed a desire that the two husbands,--his two sons-in-law,--should come to him; and mrs. arabin went to them, and brought them to the room. as he took their hands he merely repeated the same words again. "there is nothing left for me to wish, my dears;--nothing." he never spoke again above his breath; but ever and anon his daughters, who watched him, could see that he was praying. the two men did not stay with him long, but returned to the gloom of the library. the gloom had almost become the darkness of night, and they were still sitting there without any light, when mrs. baxter entered the room. "the dear gentleman is no more," said mrs. baxter; and it seemed to the archdeacon that the very moment of his father's death had repeated itself. when dr. filgrave called he was told that his services could be of no further use. "dear, dear!" said the doctor. "we are all dust, mrs. baxter; are we not?" there were people in barchester who pretended to know how often the doctor had repeated this little formula during the last thirty years. there was no violence of sorrow in the house that night; but there were aching hearts, and one heart so sore that it seemed that no cure for its anguish could ever reach it. "he has always been with me," mrs. arabin said to her husband, as he strove to console her. "it was not that i loved him better than susan, but i have felt so much more of his loving tenderness. the sweetness of his voice has been in my ears almost daily since i was born." they buried him in the cathedral which he had loved so well, and in which nearly all the work of his life had been done; and all barchester was there to see him laid in his grave within the cloisters. there was no procession of coaches, no hearse, nor was there any attempt at funereal pomp. from the dean's side door, across the vaulted passage, and into the transept,--over the little step upon which he had so nearly fallen when last he made his way out of the building,--the coffin was carried on men's shoulders. it was but a short journey from his bedroom to his grave. but the bell had been tolling sadly all the morning, and the nave and the aisles and the transepts, close up to the door leading from the transept into the cloister, were crowded with those who had known the name and the figure and the voice of mr. harding as long as they had known anything. up to this day no one would have said specially that mr. harding was a favourite in the town. he had never been forward enough in anything to become the acknowledged possessor of popularity. but, now that he was gone, men and women told each other how good he had been. they remembered the sweetness of his smile, and talked of loving little words which he had spoken to them,--either years ago or the other day, for his words had always been loving. the dean and the archdeacon came first, shoulder to shoulder, and after them came their wives. i do not know that it was the proper order for mourning, but it was a touching sight to be seen, and was long remembered in barchester. painful as it was for them, the two women would be there, and the two sisters would walk together;--nor would they go before their husbands. then there were the archdeacon's two sons,--for the rev. charles grantly had come to plumstead on the occasion. and in the vaulted passage which runs between the deanery and the end of the transept all the chapter, with the choir, the prebendaries, with the fat old chancellor, the precentor, and the minor canons down to the little choristers,--they all were there, and followed in at the transept door, two by two. and in the transept they were joined by another clergyman whom no one had expected to see that day. the bishop was there, looking old and worn,--almost as though he were unconscious of what he was doing. since his wife's death no one had seen him out of the palace or of the palace grounds till that day. but there he was,--and they made way for him into the procession behind the two ladies,--and the archdeacon, when he saw it, resolved that there should be peace in his heart, if peace might be possible. they made their way into the cloisters where the grave had been dug,--as many as might be allowed to follow. the place indeed was open to all who chose to come; but they who had only slightly known the man, refrained from pressing upon those who had a right to stand around his coffin. but there was one other there whom the faithful chronicler of barchester should mention. before any other one had reached the spot, the sexton and the verger between them had led in between them, among the graves beneath the cloisters, a blind man, very old, with a wondrous stoop, but who must have owned a grand stature before extreme old age had bent him, and they placed him sitting on a stone in the corner of the archway. but as soon as the shuffling of steps reached his ears, he raised himself with the aid of his stick, and stood during the service leaning against the pillar. the blind man was so old that he might almost have been mr. harding's father. this was john bunce, a bedesman from hiram's hospital,--and none perhaps there had known mr. harding better than he had known him. when the earth had been thrown on to the coffin, and the service was over, and they were about to disperse, mrs. arabin went up to the old man, and taking his hand between hers whispered a word into his ear. "oh, miss eleanor," he said. "oh, miss eleanor!" within a fortnight he also was lying within the cathedral precincts. and so they buried mr. septimus harding, formerly warden of hiram's hospital in the city of barchester, of whom the chronicler may say that that city never knew a sweeter gentleman or a better christian. chapter lxxxii. the last scene at hogglestock. [illustration] the fortnight following mr. harding's death was passed very quietly at hogglestock, for during that time no visitor made an appearance in the parish except mr. snapper on the sundays. mr. snapper, when he had completed the service on the first of these sundays, intimated to mr. crawley his opinion that probably that gentleman might himself wish to resume the duties on the following sabbath. mr. crawley, however, courteously declined to do anything of the kind. he said that it was quite out of the question that he should do so without a direct communication made to him from the bishop, or by the bishop's order. the assizes had, of course, gone by, and all question of the trial was over. nevertheless,--as mr. snapper said,--the bishop had not, as yet, given any order. mr. snapper was of opinion that the bishop in these days was not quite himself. he had spoken to the bishop about it and the bishop had told him peevishly--"i must say quite peevishly," mr. snapper had said,--that nothing was to be done at present. mr. snapper was not the less clearly of opinion that mr. crawley might resume his duties. to this, however, mr. crawley would not assent. but even during the fortnight mr. crawley had not remained altogether neglected. two days after mr. harding's death he had received a note from the dean in which he was advised not to resume the duties at hogglestock for the present. "of course you can understand that we have a sad house here at present," the dean had said. "but as soon as ever we are able to move in the matter we will arrange things for you as comfortably as we can. i will see the bishop myself." mr. crawley had no ambitious idea of any comfort which might accrue to him beyond that of an honourable return to his humble preferment at hogglestock; but, nevertheless, he was in this case minded to do as the dean counselled him. he had submitted himself to the bishop, and he would wait till the bishop absolved him from his submission. on the day after the funeral, the bishop had sent his compliments to the dean with the expression of a wish that the dean would call upon him on any early day that might be convenient with reference to the position of mr. crawley of hogglestock. the note was in the bishop's own handwriting and was as mild and civil as a bishop's note could be. of course the dean named an early day for the interview; but it was necessary before he went to the bishop that he should discuss the matter with the archdeacon. if st. ewolds might be given to mr. crawley, the hogglestock difficulties would all be brought to an end. the archdeacon, after the funeral, had returned to plumstead, and thither the dean went to him before he saw the bishop. he did succeed,--he and mrs. grantly between them,--but with very great difficulty, in obtaining a conditional promise. they had both thought that when the archdeacon became fully aware that grace was to be his daughter-in-law, he would at once have been delighted to have an opportunity of extricating from his poverty a clergyman with whom it was his fate to be so closely connected. but he fought the matter on twenty different points. he declared at first that as it was his primary duty to give to the people of st. ewolds the best clergyman he could select for them he could not give the preferment to mr. crawley, because mr. crawley, in spite of all his zeal and piety, was a man so quaint in his manners and so eccentric in his mode of speech as not to be the best clergyman whom he could select. "what is my old friend thorne to do with a man in his parish who won't drink a glass of wine with him?" for ullathorne, the seat of that mr. wilfred thorne who had been so guilty in the matter of the foxes, was situated in the parish of st. ewolds. when mrs. grantly proposed that mr. thorne's consent should be asked, the archdeacon became very angry. he had never heard so unecclesiastical a proposition in his life. it was his special duty to do the best he could for mr. thorne, but it was specially his duty to do so without consulting mr. thorne about it. as the archdeacon's objection had been argued simply on the point of the glass of wine, both the dean and mrs. grantly thought that he was unreasonable. but they had their point to gain, and therefore they only flattered him. they were sure that mr. thorne would like to have a clergyman in the parish who would himself be closely connected with the archdeacon. then dr. grantly alleged that he might find himself in a trap. what if he conferred the living of st. ewolds on mr. crawley and after all there should be no marriage between his son and grace? "of course they'll be married," said mrs. grantly. "it's all very well for you to say that, my dear; but the whole family are so queer that there is no knowing what the girl may do. she may take up some other fad now, and refuse him point blank." "she has never taken up any fad," said mrs. grantly, who now mounted almost to wrath in defence of her future daughter-in-law, "and you are wrong to say that she has. she has behaved beautifully;--as nobody knows better than you do." then the archdeacon gave way so far as to promise that st. ewolds should be offered to mr. crawley as soon as grace crawley was in truth engaged to harry grantly. after that, the dean went to the palace. there had never been any quarrelling between the bishop and the dean, either direct or indirect;--nor, indeed, had the dean ever quarrelled even with mrs. proudie. but he had belonged to the anti-proudie faction. he had been brought into the diocese by the grantly interest; and therefore, during mrs. proudie's life-time, he had always been accounted among the enemies. there had never been any real intimacy between the houses. each house had been always asked to dine with the other house once a year; but it had been understood that such dinings were ecclesiastico-official, and not friendly. there had been the same outside diocesan civility between even the palace and plumstead. but now, when the great chieftain of the palace was no more, and the strength of the palace faction was gone, peace, or perhaps something more than peace,--amity, perhaps, might be more easily arranged with the dean than with the archdeacon. in preparation for such arrangements the bishop had gone to mr. harding's funeral. and now the dean went to the palace at the bishop's behest. he found his lordship alone, and was received with almost reverential courtesy. he thought that the bishop was looking wonderfully aged since he last saw him, but did not perhaps take into account the absence of clerical sleekness which was incidental to the bishop's private life in his private room, and perhaps in a certain measure to his recent great affliction. the dean had been in the habit of regarding dr. proudie as a man almost young for his age,--having been in the habit of seeing him at his best, clothed in authority, redolent of the throne, conspicuous as regarded his apron and outward signs of episcopality. much of all this was now absent. the bishop, as he rose to greet the dean, shuffled with his old slippers, and his hair was not brushed so becomingly as used to be the case when mrs. proudie was always near him. it was necessary that a word should be said by each as to the loss which the other had suffered. "mr. dean," said his lordship, "allow me to offer you my condolements in regard to the death of that very excellent clergyman and most worthy gentleman, your father-in-law." "thank you, my lord. he was excellent and worthy. i do not suppose that i shall live to see any man who was more so. you also have a great,--a terrible loss." "o, mr. dean, yes; yes, indeed, mr. dean. that was a loss." "and hardly past the prime of life!" "ah, yes;--just fifty-six,--and so strong! was she not? at least everybody thought so. and yet she was gone in a minute;--gone in a minute. i haven't held up my head since, mr. dean." "it was a great loss, my lord; but you must struggle to bear it." "i do struggle. i am struggling. but it makes one feel so lonely in this great house. ah, me! i often wish, mr. dean, that it had pleased providence to have left me in some humble parsonage, where duty would have been easier than it is here. but i will not trouble you with all that. what are we to do, mr. dean, about this poor mr. crawley?" "mr. crawley is a very old friend of mine, and a very dear friend." "is he? ah! a very worthy man, i am sure, and one who has been much tried by undeserved adversities." "most severely tried, my lord." "sitting among the potsherds, like job; has he not, mr. dean? well; let us hope that all that is over. when this accusation about the robbery was brought against him, i found myself bound to interfere." "he has no complaint to make on that score." "i hope not. i have not wished to be harsh, but what could i do, mr. dean? they told me that the civil authorities found the evidence so strong against him that it could not be withstood." "it was very strong." "and we thought that he should at least be relieved, and we sent for dr. tempest, who is his rural dean." then the bishop, remembering all the circumstances of that interview with dr. tempest,--as to which he had ever felt assured that one of the results of it was the death of his wife, whereby there was no longer any "we" left in the palace of barchester,--sighed piteously, looking up at the dean with hopeless face. "nobody doubts, my lord, that you acted for the best." "i hope we did. i think we did. and now what shall we do? he has resigned his living, both to you and to me, as i hear,--you being the patron. it will simply be necessary, i think, that he should ask to have the letters cancelled. then, as i take it, there need be no reinstitution. you cannot think, mr. dean, how much i have thought about it all." then the dean unfolded his budget, and explained to the bishop how he hoped that the living of st. ewolds, which was, after some ecclesiastical fashion, attached to the rectory of plumstead, and which was now vacant by the demise of mr. harding, might be conferred by the archdeacon upon mr. crawley. it was necessary to explain also that this could not be done quite immediately, and in doing this the dean encountered some little difficulty. the archdeacon, he said, wished to be allowed another week to think about it; and therefore perhaps provision for the duties at hogglestock might yet be made for a few sundays. the bishop, the dean said, might easily understand that, after what had occurred, mr. crawley would hardly wish to go again into that pulpit, unless he did so as resuming duties which would necessarily be permanent with him. to all this the bishop assented, but he was apparently struck with much wonder at the choice made by the archdeacon. "i should have thought, mr. dean," he said, "that mr. crawley was the last man to have suited the archdeacon's choice." "the archdeacon and i married sisters, my lord." "oh, ah! yes. and he puts the nomination of st. ewolds at your disposition. i am sure i shall be delighted to institute so worthy a gentleman as mr. crawley." then the dean took his leave of the bishop,--as will we also. poor dear bishop! i am inclined to think that he was right in his regrets as to the little parsonage. not that his failure at barchester, and his present consciousness of lonely incompetence, were mainly due to any positive inefficiency on his own part. he might have been a sufficiently good bishop, had it not been that mrs. proudie was so much more than a sufficiently good bishop's wife. we will now say farewell to him, with a hope that the lopped tree may yet become green again, and to some extent fruitful, although all its beautiful head and richness of waving foliage have been taken from it. about a week after this henry grantly rode over from cosby lodge to hogglestock. it has been just said that though the assizes had passed by and though all question of mr. crawley's guilt was now set aside, no visitor had of late made his way over to hogglestock. i fancy that grace crawley forgot, in the fulness of her memory as to other things, that mr. harding, of whose death she heard, had been her lover's grandfather,--and that therefore there might possibly be some delay. had there been much said between the mother and the daughter about the lover, no doubt all this would have been explained; but grace was very reticent, and there were other matters in the hogglestock household which in those days occupied mrs. crawley's mind. how were they again to begin life? for, in very truth, life as it had existed with them before, had been brought to an end. but grace remembered well the sort of compact which existed between her and her lover;--the compact which had been made in very words between herself and her lover's father. complete in her estimation as had been the heaven opened to her by henry grantly's offer, she had refused it all,--lest she should bring disgrace upon him. but the disgrace was not certain; and if her father should be made free from it, then,--then,--then henry grantly ought to come to her and be at her feet with all the expedition possible to him. that was her reading of the compact. she had once declared, when speaking of the possible disgrace which might attach itself to her family and to her name, that her poverty did not "signify a bit." she was not ashamed of her father,--only of the accusation against her father. therefore she had hurried home when that accusation was withdrawn, desirous that her lover should tell her of his love,--if he chose to repeat such telling,--amidst all the poor things of hogglestock, and not among the chairs and tables and good dinners of luxurious framley. mrs. robarts had given a true interpretation to lady lufton of the haste which grace had displayed. but she need not have been in so great a hurry. she had been at home already above a fortnight, and as yet he had made no sign. at last she said a word to her mother. "might i not ask to go back to miss prettyman's now, mamma?" "i think, dear, you had better wait till things are a little settled. papa is to hear again from the dean very soon. you see they are all in a great sorrow at barchester about poor mr. harding's death." "grace!" said jane, rushing into the house almost speechless, at that moment, "here he is!--on horseback." i do not know why jane should have talked about major grantly as simply "he." there had been no conversation among the sisters to justify her in such a mode of speech. grace had not a moment to put two and two together, so that she might realize the meaning of what her mother had said; but nevertheless, she felt at the moment that the man, coming as he had done now, had come with all commendable speed. how foolish had she been with her wretched impatience! there he was certainly, tying his horse up to the railing. "mamma, what am i to say to him?" "nay, dear; he is your own friend,--of your own making. you must say what you think fit." "you are not going?" "i think we had better, dear." then she went, and jane with her, and jane opened the door for major grantly. mr. crawley himself was away, at hoggle end, and did not return till after major grantly had left the parsonage. jane, as she greeted the grand gentleman, whom she had seen and no more than seen, hardly knew what to say to him. when, after a minute's hesitation, she told him that grace was in there,--pointing to the sitting-room door, she felt that she had been very awkward. henry grantly, however, did not, i think, feel her awkwardness, being conscious of some small difficulties of his own. when, however, he found that grace was alone, the task before him at once lost half its difficulties. "grace," he said, "am i right to come to you now?" "i do not know," she said. "i cannot tell." "dearest grace, there is no reason on earth now why you should not be my wife." "is there not?" "i know of none,--if you can love me. you saw my father?" "yes, i saw him." "and you heard what he said?" "i hardly remember what he said;--but he kissed me, and i thought he was very kind." what little attempt henry grantly then made, thinking that he could not do better than follow closely the example of so excellent a father, need not be explained with minuteness. but i think that his first effort was not successful. grace was embarrassed and retreated, and it was not till she had been compelled to give a direct answer to a direct question that she submitted to allow his arm round her waist. but when she had answered that question she was almost more humble than becomes a maiden who has just been wooed and won. a maiden who has been wooed and won, generally thinks that it is she who has conquered, and chooses to be triumphant accordingly. but grace was even mean enough to thank her lover. "i do not know why you should be so good to me," she said. "because i love you," said he, "better than all the world." "but why should you be so good to me as that? why should you love me? i am such a poor thing for a man like you to love." "i have had the wit to see that you are not a poor thing, grace; and it is thus that i have earned my treasure. some girls are poor things, and some are rich treasures." "if love can make me a treasure, i will be your treasure. and if love can make me rich, i will be rich for you." after that i think he had no difficulty in following in his father's footsteps. after a while mrs. crawley came in, and there was much pleasant talking among them, while henry grantly sat happily with his love, as though waiting for mr. crawley's return. but though he was there nearly all the morning mr. crawley did not return. "i think he likes the brickmakers better than anybody in all the world, except ourselves," said grace. "i don't know how he will manage to get on without his friends." before grace had said this, major grantly had told all his story, and had produced a letter from his father, addressed to mr. crawley, of which the reader shall have a copy, although at this time the letter had not been opened. the letter was as follows:-- plumstead rectory, -- may, --. my dear sir, you will no doubt have heard that mr. harding, the vicar of st. ewolds, who was the father of my wife and of mrs. arabin, has been taken from us. the loss to us of so excellent and so dear a man has been very great. i have conferred with my friend the dean of barchester as to a new nomination, and i venture to request your acceptance of the preferment, if it should suit you to move from hogglestock to st. ewolds. it may be as well that i should state plainly my reasons for making this offer to a gentleman with whom i am not personally acquainted. mr. harding, on his deathbed, himself suggested it, moved thereto by what he had heard of the cruel and undeserved persecution to which you have lately been subjected; as also,--on which point he was very urgent in what he said,--by the character which you bear in the diocese for zeal and piety. i may also add, that the close connection which, as i understand, is likely to take place between your family and mine has been an additional reason for my taking this step, and the long friendship which has existed between you and my wife's brother-in-law, the dean of barchester, is a third. st. ewolds is worth £ per annum, besides the house, which is sufficiently commodious for a moderate family. the population is about twelve hundred, of which more than a half consists of persons dwelling in an outskirt of the city,--for the parish runs almost into barchester. i shall be glad to have your reply with as little delay as may suit your convenience, and in the event of your accepting the offer,--which i sincerely trust you may be enabled to do,--i shall hope to have an early opportunity of seeing you, with reference to your institution to the parish. allow me also to say to you and to mrs. crawley that, if we have been correctly informed as to that other event to which i have alluded, we both hope that we may have an early opportunity of making ourselves personally acquainted with the parents of a young lady who is to be so dear to us. as i have met your daughter, i may perhaps be allowed to send her my kindest love. if, as my daughter-in-law, she comes up to the impression which she gave me at our first meeting, i, at any rate, shall be satisfied. i have the honour to be, my dear sir, your most faithful servant, theophilus grantly. this letter the archdeacon had shown to his wife, by whom it had not been very warmly approved. nothing, mrs. grantly had said, could be prettier than what the archdeacon had said about grace. mrs. crawley, no doubt, would be satisfied with that. but mr. crawley was such a strange man! "he will be stranger than i take him to be if he does not accept st. ewolds," said the archdeacon. "but in offering it," said mrs. grantly, "you have not said a word of your own high opinion of his merits." "i have not a very high opinion of them," said the archdeacon. "your father had, and i have said so. and as i have the most profound respect for your father's opinion in such a matter, i have permitted that to overcome my own hesitation." this was pretty from the husband to the wife as it regarded her father, who had now gone from them; and, therefore, mrs. grantly accepted it without further argument. the reader may probably feel assured that the archdeacon had never, during their joint lives, acted in any church matter upon the advice given to him by mr. harding; and it was probably the case also that the living would have been offered to mr. crawley, if nothing had been said by mr. harding on the subject; but it did not become mrs. grantly even to think of all this. the archdeacon, having made his gracious speech about her father, was not again asked to alter his letter. "i suppose he will accept it," said mrs. grantly. "i should think that he probably may," said the archdeacon. so grace, knowing what was the purport of the letter, sat with it between her fingers, while her lover sat beside her, full of various plans for the future. this was his first lover's present to her;--and what a present it was! comfort, and happiness, and a pleasant home for all her family. "st. ewolds isn't the best house in the world," said the major, "because it is old, and what i call piecemeal; but it is very pretty, and certainly nice." "that is just the sort of parsonage that i dream about," said jane. "and the garden is pleasant with old trees," said the major. "i always dream about old trees," said jane, "only i'm afraid i'm too old myself to be let to climb up them now." mrs. crawley said very little, but sat by with her eyes full of tears. was it possible that, at last, before the world had closed upon her, she was to enjoy something again of the comforts which she had known in her early years, and to be again surrounded by those decencies of life which of late had been almost banished from her home by poverty! their various plans for the future,--for the immediate future,--were very startling. grace was to go over at once to plumstead, whither edith had been already transferred from cosby lodge. that was all very well; there was nothing very startling or impracticable in that. the framley ladies, having none of those doubts as to what was coming which had for a while perplexed grace herself, had taken little liberties with her wardrobe, which enabled such a visit to be made without overwhelming difficulties. but the major was equally eager,--or at any rate equally imperious,--in his requisition for a visit from mr. and mrs. crawley themselves to plumstead rectory. mrs. crawley did not dare to put forward the plain unadorned reasons against it, as mr. crawley had done when discussing the subject of a visit to the deanery. nor could she quite venture to explain that she feared that the archdeacon and her husband would hardly mix well together in society. with whom, indeed, was it possible that her husband should mix well, after his long and hardly-tried seclusion? she could only plead that both her husband and herself were so little used to going out that she feared,--she feared,--she feared she knew not what. "we'll get over all that," said the major, almost contemptuously. "it is only the first plunge that is disagreeable." perhaps the major did not know how very disagreeable a first plunge may be! at two o'clock henry grantly got up to go. "i should very much like to have seen him, but i fear i cannot wait longer. as it is, the patience of my horse has been surprising." then grace walked out with him to the gate, and put her hand upon his bridle as he mounted, and thought how wonderful was the power of fortune, that the goddess should have sent so gallant a gentleman to be her lord and her lover. "i declare i don't quite believe it even yet," she said, in the letter which she wrote to lily dale that night. it was four before mr. crawley returned to his house, and then he was very weary. there were many sick in these days at hoggle end, and he had gone from cottage to cottage through the day. giles hoggett was almost unable to work from rheumatism, but still was of opinion that doggedness might carry him on. "it's been a deal o' service to you, muster crawley," he said. "we hears about it all. if you hadn't a been dogged, where'd you a been now?" with giles hoggett and others he had remained all the day, and now he came home weary and beaten. "you'll tell him first," grace had said, "and then i'll give him the letter." the wife was the first to tell him of the good fortune that was coming. he flung himself into the old chair as soon as he entered, and asked for some bread and tea. "jane has already gone for it, dear," said his wife. "we have had a visitor here, josiah." "a visitor,--what visitor?" "grace's own friend,--henry grantly." "grace, come here, that i may kiss you and bless you," he said, very solemnly. "it would seem that the world is going to be very good to you." "papa, you must read this letter first." "before i kiss my own darling?" then she knelt at his feet. "i see," he said, taking the letter; "it is from your lover's father. peradventure he signifies his consent, which would be surely needful before such a marriage would be seemly." [illustration: "peradventure he signifies his consent."] "it isn't about me, papa, at all." "not about you? if so, that would be most unpromising. but, in any case, you are my best darling." then he kissed her and blessed her, and slowly opened the letter. his wife had now come close to him, and was standing over him, touching him, so that she also could read the archdeacon's letter. grace, who was still in front of him, could see the working of his face as he read it; but even she could not tell whether he was gratified, or offended, or dismayed. when he had got as far as the first offer of the presentation, he ceased reading for a while, and looked round about the room as though lost in thought. "let me see what further he writes to me," he then said; and after that he continued the letter slowly to the end. "nay, my child, you were in error in saying that he wrote not about you. 'tis in writing of you he has put some real heart into his words. he writes as though his home would be welcome to you." "and does he not make st. ewolds welcome to you, papa?" "he makes me welcome to accept it,--if i may use the word after the ordinary and somewhat faulty parlance of mankind." "and you will accept it,--of course?" "i know not that, my dear. the acceptance of a cure of souls is a thing not to be decided on in a moment,--as is the colour of a garment or the shape of a toy. nor would i condescend to take this thing from the archdeacon's hands, if i thought that he bestowed it simply that the father of his daughter-in-law might no longer be accounted poor." "does he say that, papa?" "he gives it as a collateral reason, basing his offer first on the kindly expressed judgment of one who is now no more. then he refers to the friendship of the dean. if he believed that the judgment of his late father-in-law in so weighty a matter were the best to be relied upon of all that were at his command, then he would have done well to trust to it. but in such case he should have bolstered up a good ground for action with no collateral supports which are weak,--and worse than weak. however, it shall have my best consideration, whereunto i hope that wisdom will be given me where only such wisdom can be had." "josiah," said his wife to him, when they were alone, "you will not refuse it?" "not willingly,--not if it may be accepted. alas! you need not urge me, when the temptation is so strong!" chapter lxxxiii. mr. crawley is conquered. it was more than a week before the archdeacon received a reply from mr. crawley, during which time the dean had been over at hogglestock more than once, as had also mrs. arabin and lady lufton the younger,--and there had been letters written without end, and the archdeacon had been nearly beside himself. "a man who pretends to conscientious scruples of that kind is not fit to have a parish," he had said to his wife. his wife understood what he meant, and i trust that the reader may also understand it. in the ordinary cutting of blocks a very fine razor is not an appropriate instrument. the archdeacon, moreover, loved the temporalities of the church as temporalities. the church was beautiful to him because one man by interest might have a thousand a year, while another man equally good, but without interest, could only have a hundred. and he liked the men who had the interest a great deal better than the men who had it not. he had been willing to admit this poor perpetual curate, who had so long been kept out in the cold, within the pleasant circle which was warm with ecclesiastical good things, and the man hesitated,--because of scruples, as the dean told him! "i always button up my pocket when i hear of scruples," the archdeacon said. but at last mr. crawley condescended to accept st. ewolds. "reverend and dear sir," he said in his letter. for the personal benevolence of the offer made to me in your letter of the ---- instant, i beg to tender you my most grateful thanks; as also for your generous kindness to me, in telling me of the high praise bestowed upon me by a gentleman who is now no more,--whose character i have esteemed and whose good opinion i value. there is, methinks, something inexpressibly dear to me in the recorded praise of the dead. for the further instance of the friendship of the dean of barchester, i am also thankful. since the receipt of your letter i have doubted much as to my fitness for the work you have proposed to entrust to me,--not from any feeling that the parish of st. ewolds may be beyond my intellectual power, but because the latter circumstances of my life have been of a nature so strange and perplexing, that they have left me somewhat in doubt as to my own aptitude for going about among men without giving offence and becoming a stumbling-block. nevertheless, reverend and dear sir, if after this confession on my part of a certain faulty demeanour with which i know well that i am afflicted, you are still willing to put the parish into my hands, i will accept the charge,--instigated to do so by the advice of all whom i have consulted on the subject; and in thus accepting it, i hereby pledge myself to vacate it at a month's warning, should i be called upon by you to do so at any period within the next two years. should i be so far successful during those twenty-four months as to have satisfied both yourself and myself, i may then perhaps venture to regard the preferment as my own in perpetuity for life. i have the honour to be, reverend and dear sir, your most humble and faithful servant, josiah crawley. "psha!" said the archdeacon, who professed that he did not at all like the letter. "i wonder what he would say if i sent him a month's notice at next michaelmas?" "i'm sure he would go," said mrs. grantly. "the more fool he," said the archdeacon. at this time grace was at the parsonage in a seventh heaven of happiness. the archdeacon was never rough to her, nor did he make any of his harsh remarks about her father in her presence. before her st. ewolds was spoken of as the home that was to belong to the crawleys for the next twenty years. mrs. grantly was very loving with her, lavishing upon her pretty presents, and words that were prettier than the presents. grace's life had hitherto been so destitute of those prettinesses and softnesses, which can hardly be had without money though money alone will not purchase them, that it seemed to her now that the heavens rained graciousness upon her. it was not that the archdeacon's watch, or her lover's chain, or mrs. grantly's locket, or the little toy from italy which mrs. arabin brought to her from the treasures of the deanery, filled her heart with undue exultation. it was not that she revelled in her new delights of silver and gold and shining gems: but that the silver and gold and shining gems were constant indications to her that things had changed, not only for her, but for her father and mother, and brother and sister. she felt now more sure than ever that she could not have enjoyed her love had she accepted her lover while the disgrace of the accusation against her father remained. but now,--having waited till that had passed away, everything was a new happiness to her. at last it was settled that mr. and mrs. crawley were to come to plumstead,--and they came. it would be too long to tell now how gradually had come about that changed state of things which made such a visit possible. mr. crawley had at first declared that such a thing was quite out of the question. if st. ewolds was to depend upon it st. ewolds must be given up. and i think that it would have been impossible for him to go direct from hogglestock to plumstead. but it fell out after this wise. mr. harding's curate at st. ewolds was nominated to hogglestock, and the dean urged upon his friend crawley the expediency of giving up the house as quickly as he could do so. gradually at this time mr. crawley had been forced into a certain amount of intimacy with the haunts of men. he had been twice or thrice at barchester, and had lunched with the dean. he had been at framley for an hour or two, and had been forced into some communication with old mr. thorne, the squire of his new parish. the end of this had been that he had at last consented to transfer himself and wife and daughter to the deanery for a fortnight. he had preached one farewell sermon at hogglestock,--not, as he told his audience, as their pastor, which he had ceased to be now for some two or three months,--but as their old and loving friend, to whom the use of his former pulpit had been lent, that he might express himself thus among them for the last time. his sermon was very short, and was preached without book or notes,--but he never once paused for a word or halted in the string or rhythm of his discourse. the dean was there and declared to him afterwards that he had not given him credit for such powers of utterance. "any man can utter out of a full heart," crawley had answered. "in this trumpery affair about myself, my heart is full! if we could only have our hearts full in other matters, our utterances thereanent would receive more attention." to all of which the dean made no reply. on the day after this the crawleys took their final departure from hogglestock, all the brickmakers from hoggle end having assembled on the occasion, with a purse containing seventeen pounds seven shillings and sixpence, which they insisted on presenting to mr. crawley, and as to which there was a little difficulty. and at the deanery they remained for a fortnight. how mrs. crawley, under the guidance of mrs. arabin, had there so far trenched upon the revenues of st. ewolds as to provide for her husband and herself raiment fitting for the worldly splendour of plumstead, need not here be told in detail. suffice to say, the raiment was forthcoming, and mr. crawley found himself to be the perplexed possessor of a black dress coat, in addition to the long frock, coming nearly to his feet, which was provided for his daily wear. touching this garment, there had been some discussion between the dean and the new vicar. the dean had desired that it should be curtailed in length. the vicar had remonstrated,--but still with something of the weakness of compliance in his eye. then the dean had persisted. "surely the price of the cloth wanted to perfect the comeliness of the garment cannot be much," said the vicar, almost woefully. after that, the dean relented, and the comeliness of the coat was made perfect. the new black long frock, i think mr. crawley liked; but the dress coat, with the suit complete, perplexed him sorely. with his new coats, and something, also, of new manners, he and his wife went over to plumstead, leaving jane at the deanery with mrs. arabin. the dean also went to plumstead. they arrived there not much before dinner, and as grace was there before them the first moments were not so bad. before mr. crawley had had time to feel himself lost in the drawing-room, he was summoned away to prepare himself for dinner,--for dinner, and for the coat, which at the deanery he had been allowed to leave unworn. "i would with all my heart that i might retire to rest," he said to his wife, when the ceremony had been perfected. "do not say so. go down and take your place with them, and speak your mind with them,--as you so well know how. who among them can do it so well?" "i have been told," said mr. crawley, "that you shall take a cock which is lord of the farmyard,--the cock of all that walk,--and when you have daubed his feathers with mud, he shall be thrashed by every dunghill coward. i say not that i was ever the cock of the walk, but i know that they have daubed my feathers." then he went down among the other poultry into the farmyard. at dinner he was very silent, answering, however, with a sort of graceful stateliness any word that mrs. grantly addressed to him. mr. thorne, from ullathorne, was there also to meet his new vicar, as was also mr. thorne's very old sister, miss monica thorne. and lady anne grantly was there,--she having come with the expressed intention that the wives of the two brothers should know each other,--but with a warmer desire, i think, of seeing mr. crawley, of whom the clerical world had been talking much since some notice of the accusation against him had become general. there were, therefore, ten or twelve at the dinner-table, and mr. crawley had not made one at such a board certainly since his marriage. all went fairly smooth with him till the ladies left the room; for though lady anne, who sat at his left hand, had perplexed him somewhat with clerical questions, he had found that he was not called upon for much more than monosyllabic responses. but in his heart he feared the archdeacon, and he felt that when the ladies were gone the archdeacon would not leave him alone in his silence. as soon as the door was closed, the first subject mooted was that of the plumstead fox, which had been so basely murdered on mr. thorne's ground. mr. thorne had confessed the iniquity, had dismissed the murderous keeper, and all was serene. but the greater on that account was the feasibility of discussing the question, and the archdeacon had a good deal to say about it. then mr. thorne turned to the new vicar, and asked him whether foxes abounded in hogglestock. had he been asked as to the rats or the moles, he would have known more about it. "indeed, sir, i know not whether or no there be any foxes in the parish of hogglestock. i do not remember me that i ever saw one. it is an animal whose habits i have not watched." "there is an earth at hoggle bushes," said the major; "and i never knew it without a litter." "i think i know the domestic whereabouts of every fox in plumstead," said the archdeacon, with an ill-natured intention of astonishing mr. crawley. "of foxes with two legs our friend is speaking, without doubt," said the vicar of st. ewolds, with an attempt at grim pleasantry. "of them we have none at plumstead. no,--i was speaking of the dear old fellow with the brush. pass the bottle, mr. crawley. won't you fill your glass?" mr. crawley passed the bottle, but would not fill his glass. then the dean, looking up slily, saw the vexation written in the archdeacon's face. the parson whom the archdeacon feared most of all parsons was the parson who wouldn't fill his glass. then the subject was changed. "i'm told that the bishop has at last made his reappearance on his throne," said the archdeacon. "he was in the cathedral last sunday," said the dean. "does he ever mean to preach again?" "he never did preach very often," said the dean. "a great deal too often, from all that people say," said the archdeacon. "i never heard him myself, and never shall, i dare say. you have heard him, mr. crawley?" "i have never had that good fortune, mr. archdeacon. but living as i shall now do, so near to the city, i may perhaps be enabled to attend the cathedral service on some holyday of the church, which may not require prayers in my own rural parish. i think that the clergy of the diocese should be acquainted with the opinions, and with the voice, and with the very manner and words of their bishop. as things are now done, this is not possible. i could wish that there were occasions on which a bishop might assemble his clergy, and preach to them sermons adapted to their use." "what do you call a bishop's charge, then?" "it is usually in the printed form that i have received it," said mr. crawley. "i think we have quite enough of that kind of thing," said the archdeacon. "he is a man whose conversation is not pleasing to me," mr. crawley said to his wife that night. "do not judge of him too quickly, josiah," his wife said. "there is so much of good in him! he is kind, and generous, and i think affectionate." "but he is of the earth, earthy. when you and the other ladies had retired, the conversation at first fell on the habits and value of--foxes. i have been informed that in these parts the fox is greatly prized, as without a fox to run before the dogs, that scampering over the country which is called hunting, and which delights by the quickness and perhaps by the peril of the exercise, is not relished by the riders. of the wisdom or taste herein displayed by the hunters of the day i say nothing. but it seemed to me that in talking of foxes dr. grantly was master of his subject. thence the topic glided to the duties of a bishop and to questions of preaching, as to which dr. grantly was not slow in offering his opinion. but i thought that i would rather have heard him talk about the foxes for a week together." she said nothing more to him, knowing well how useless it was to attempt to turn him by any argument. to her thinking the kindness of the archdeacon to them personally demanded some indulgence in the expression, and even in the formation, of an opinion, respecting his clerical peculiarities. on the next day, however, mr. crawley, having been summoned by the archdeacon into the library for a little private conversation, found that he got on better with him. how the archdeacon conquered him may perhaps be best described by a further narration of what mr. crawley said to his wife. "i told him that in regard to money matters, as he called them, i had nothing to say. i only trusted that his son was aware that my daughter had no money, and never would have any. 'my dear crawley,' the archdeacon said,--for of late there seems to have grown up in the world a habit of greater familiarity than that which i think did prevail when last i moved much among men;--'my dear crawley, i have enough for both.' 'i would we stood on more equal grounds,' i said. then as he answered me, he rose from his chair. 'we stand,' said he, 'on the only perfect level on which such men can meet each other. we are both gentlemen.' 'sir,' i said, rising also, 'from the bottom of my heart i agree with you. i could not have spoken such words; but coming from you who are rich to me who am poor, they are honourable to the one and comfortable to the other.'" "and after that?" "he took down from the shelves a volume of sermons which his father published many years ago, and presented it to me. i have it now under my arm. it hath the old bishop's manuscript notes, which i will study carefully." and thus the archdeacon had hit his bird on both wings. chapter lxxxiv. conclusion. it now only remains for me to gather together a few loose strings, and tie them together in a knot, so that my work may not become untwisted. early in july, henry grantly and grace crawley were married in the parish church of plumstead,--a great impropriety, as to which neither archdeacon grantly nor mr. crawley could be got to assent for a long time, but which was at last carried, not simply by a union of mrs. grantly and mrs. crawley, nor even by the assistance of mrs. arabin, but by the strong intervention of old lady lufton herself. "of course miss crawley ought to be married from st. ewolds vicarage; but when the furniture has only half been got in, how is it possible?" when lady lufton thus spoke, the archdeacon gave way, and mr. crawley hadn't a leg to stand upon. henry grantly had not an opinion upon the matter. he told his father that he expected that they would marry him among them, and that that would be enough for him. as for grace, nobody even thought of asking her; and i doubt whether she would have heard anything about the contest, had not some tidings of it reached her from her lover. married they were at plumstead,--and the breakfast was given with all that luxuriance of plenty which was so dear to the archdeacon's mind. mr. crawley was the officiating priest. with his hands dropping before him, folded humbly, he told the archdeacon,--when that plumstead question had been finally settled in opposition to his wishes,--that he would fain himself perform the ceremony by which his dearest daughter would be bound to her marriage duties. "and who else should?" said the archdeacon. mr. crawley muttered that he had not known how far his reverend brother might have been willing to waive his rights. but the archdeacon, who was in high good humour,--having just bestowed a little pony carriage on his new daughter-in-law,--only laughed at him; and, if the rumour which was handed about the families be true, the archdeacon, before the interview was over, had poked mr. crawley in the ribs. mr. crawley married them; but the archdeacon assisted,--and the dean gave away the bride. the rev. charles grantly was there also; and as there was, as a matter of course, a cloud of curates floating in the distance, henry grantly was perhaps to be excused for declaring to his wife, when the pair had escaped, that surely no couple had ever been so tightly buckled since marriage had first become a church ceremony. soon after that, mr. and mrs. crawley became quiet at st. ewolds, and, as i think, contented. her happiness began very quickly. though she had been greatly broken by her troubles, the first sight she had of her husband in his new long frock-coat went far to restore her, and while he was declaring himself to be a cock so daubed with mud as to be incapable of crowing, she was congratulating herself on seeing her husband once more clothed as became his position. and they were lucky, too, as regarded the squire's house; for mr. thorne was old, and quiet, and old-fashioned; and miss thorne was older, and though she was not exactly quiet, she was very old-fashioned indeed. so that there grew to be a pleasant friendship between miss thorne and mrs. crawley. johnny eames, when last i heard of him, was still a bachelor, and, as i think, likely to remain so. at last he had utterly thrown over sir raffle buffle, declaring to his friends that the special duties of private secretaryship were not exactly to his taste. "you get so sick at the thirteenth private note," he said, "that you find yourself unable to carry on the humbug any farther." but he did not leave his office. "i'm the head of a room, you know," he told lady julia de guest; "and there's nothing to trouble me,--and a fellow, you know, ought to have something to do." lady julia told him, with a great deal of energy, that she would never forgive him if he gave up his office. after that eventful night when he escaped ignominiously from the house of lady demolines under the protection of the policeman's lantern, he did hear more than once from porchester terrace, and from allies employed by the enemy who was there resident. "my cousin, the serjeant," proved to be a myth. johnny found out all about that serjeant runter, who was distantly connected, indeed, with the late husband of lady demolines, but had always persistently declined to have any intercourse whatever with her ladyship. for the serjeant was a rising man, and lady demolines was not exactly progressing in the world. johnny heard nothing from the serjeant; but from madalina he got letter after letter. in the first she asked him not to think too much of the little joke that had occurred. in her second she described the vehemence of her love. in her third the bitterness of her wrath. her fourth she simply invited him to come and dine in porchester terrace. her fifth was the outpouring of injured innocence. and then came letters from an attorney. johnny answered not a word to any of them, and gradually the letters were discontinued. within six months of the receipt of the last, he was delighted by reading among the marriages in the newspapers a notice that peter bangles, esq., of the firm of burton and bangles, wine merchants, of hook court, had been united to madalina, daughter of the late sir confucius demolines, at the church of peter the martyr. "most appropriate," said johnny, as he read the notice to conway dalrymple, who was then back from his wedding tour; "for most assuredly there will be now another peter the martyr." "i'm not so sure of that," said conway, who had heard something of mr. peter bangles. "there are men who have strong wills of their own, and strong hands of their own." "poor madalina!" said johnny. "if he does beat her, i hope he will do it tenderly. it may be that a little of it will suit her fevered temperament." before the summer was over conway dalrymple had been married to clara van siever, and by a singular arrangement of circumstances had married her with the full approval of old mrs. van. mr. musselboro,--whose name i hope has not been altogether forgotten, though the part played by him has been subordinate,--had opposed dalrymple in the efforts made by the artist to get something out of broughton's estate for the benefit of the widow. from circumstances of which dalrymple learned the particulars with the aid of an attorney, it seemed to him that certain facts were wilfully kept in the dark by musselboro, and he went with his complaint to mrs. van siever, declaring that he would bring the whole affair into court, unless all the workings of the firm were made clear to him. mrs. van was very insolent to him,--and even turned him out of the house. but, nevertheless, she did not allow mr. musselboro to escape. whoever was to be left in the dark she did not wish to be there herself;--and it began to dawn upon her that her dear musselboro was deceiving her. then she sent for dalrymple, and without a word of apology for her former conduct, put him upon the right track. as he was pushing his inquiries, and working heaven and earth for the unfortunate widow,--as to whom he swore daily that when this matter was settled he would never see her again, so terrible was she to him with her mock affection and pretended hysterics, and false moralities,--he was told one day that she had gone off with mr. musselboro! mr. musselboro, finding that this was the surest plan of obtaining for himself the little business in hook court, married the widow of his late partner, and is at this moment probably carrying on a law-suit with mrs. van. for the law-suit conway dalrymple cared nothing. when the quarrel had become hot between mrs. van and her late myrmidon, clara fell into conway's hands without opposition; and, let the law-suit go as it may, there will be enough left of mrs. van's money to make the house of mr. and mrs. conway dalrymple very comfortable. the picture of jael and sisera was stitched up without any difficulty, and i daresay most of my readers will remember it hanging on the walls of the exhibition. before i take my leave of the diocese of barchester for ever, which i purpose to do in the succeeding paragraph, i desire to be allowed to say one word of apology for myself, in answer to those who have accused me,--always without bitterness, and generally with tenderness,--of having forgotten, in writing of clergymen, the first and most prominent characteristic of the ordinary english clergyman's life. i have described many clergymen, they say, but have spoken of them all as though their professional duties, their high calling, their daily workings for the good of those around them, were matters of no moment, either to me, or, in my opinion, to themselves. i would plead, in answer to this, that my object has been to paint the social and not the professional lives of clergymen; and that i have been led to do so, firstly, by a feeling that as no men affect more strongly, by their own character, the society of those around than do country clergymen, so, therefore, their social habits have been worth the labour necessary for painting them; and secondly, by a feeling that though i, as a novelist, may feel myself entitled to write of clergymen out of their pulpits, as i may also write of lawyers and doctors, i have no such liberty to write of them in their pulpits. when i have done so, if i have done so, i have so far transgressed. there are those who have told me that i have made all my clergymen bad, and none good. i must venture to hint to such judges that they have taught their eyes to love a colouring higher than nature justifies. we are, most of us, apt to love raphael's madonnas better than rembrandt's matrons. but, though we do so, we know that rembrandt's matrons existed; but we have a strong belief that no such woman as raphael painted ever did exist. in that he painted, as he may be surmised to have done, for pious purposes,--at least for church purposes,--raphael was justified; but had he painted so for family portraiture he would have been false. had i written an epic about clergymen, i would have taken st. paul for my model; but describing, as i have endeavoured to do, such clergymen as i see around me, i could not venture to be transcendental. for myself i can only say that i shall always be happy to sit, when allowed to do so, at the table of archdeacon grantly, to walk through the high street of barchester arm in arm with mr. robarts of framley, and to stand alone and shed a tear beneath the modest black stone in the north transept of the cathedral on which is inscribed the name of septimus harding. and now, if the reader will allow me to seize him affectionately by the arm, we will together take our last farewell of barset and of the towers of barchester. i may not venture to say to him that, in this country, he and i together have wandered often through the country lanes, and have ridden together over the too-well wooded fields, or have stood together in the cathedral nave listening to the peals of the organ, or have together sat at good men's tables, or have confronted together the angry pride of men who were not good. i may not boast that any beside myself have so realized the place, and the people, and the facts, as to make such reminiscences possible as those which i should attempt to evoke by an appeal to perfect fellowship. but to me barset has been a real county, and its city a real city, and the spires and towers have been before my eyes, and the voices of the people are known to my ears, and the pavement of the city ways are familiar to my footsteps. to them all i now say farewell. that i have been induced to wander among them too long by my love of old friendships, and by the sweetness of old faces, is a fault for which i may perhaps be more readily forgiven, when i repeat, with some solemnity of assurance, the promise made in my title, that this shall be the last chronicle of barset. and revised by joseph e. loewenstein, m.d. editorial note: _framley parsonage_, the fourth of anthony trollope's barsetshire novels, was first published serially in the _cornhill magazine_ from january, , through april, , and in book form (three volumes) by smith, elder in . both the _cornhill_ serial and the smith, elder first edition had six full-page illustrations by john everett millais, and those are included in this e-book. these illustrations can be seen by viewing the html version of this file. see -h.htm or -h.zip: (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h/ -h.htm) or (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h.zip) framley parsonage by anthony trollope contents i. "omnes omnia bona dicere." ii. the framley set, and the chaldicotes set. iii. chaldicotes. iv. a matter of conscience. v. amantium irÆ amoris integratio. vi. mr. harold smith's lecture. vii. sunday morning. viii. gatherum castle. ix. the vicar's return. x. lucy robarts. xi. griselda grantly. xii. the little bill. xiii. delicate hints. xiv. mr. crawley of hogglestock. xv. lady lufton's ambassador. xvi. mrs. podgens' baby. xvii. mrs. proudie's conversazione. xviii. the new minister's patronage. xix. money dealings. xx. harold smith in the cabinet. xxi. why puck, the pony, was beaten. xxii. hogglestock parsonage. xxiii. the triumph of the giants. xxiv. magna est veritas. xxv. non-impulsive. xxvi. impulsive. xxvii. south audley street. xxviii. dr. thorne. xxix. miss dunstable at home. xxx. the grantly triumph. xxxi. salmon fishing in norway. xxxii. the goat and compasses. xxxiii. consolation. xxxiv. lady lufton is taken by surprise. xxxv. the story of king cophetua. xxxvi. kidnapping at hogglestock. xxxvii. mr. sowerby without company. xxxviii. is there cause or just impediment? xxxix. how to write a love letter. lx. internecine. lxi. don quixote. lxii. touching pitch. lxiii. is she not insignificant? lxiv. the philistines at the parsonage. lxv. palace blessings. lxvi. lady lufton's request. lxvii. nemesis. lxviii. how they were all married, had two children, and lived happy ever after. illustrations lord lufton and lucy robarts. chapter xi. "was it not a lie?" chapter xvi. the crawley family. chapter xxii. lady lufton and the duke of omnium. chapter xxix. mrs. gresham and miss dunstable. chapter xxxviii. "mark," she said, "the men are here." chapter xliv. chapter i. "omnes omnia bona dicere." when young mark robarts was leaving college, his father might well declare that all men began to say all good things to him, and to extol his fortune in that he had a son blessed with so excellent a disposition. this father was a physician living at exeter. he was a gentleman possessed of no private means, but enjoying a lucrative practice, which had enabled him to maintain and educate a family with all the advantages which money can give in this country. mark was his eldest son and second child; and the first page or two of this narrative must be consumed in giving a catalogue of the good things which chance and conduct together had heaped upon this young man's head. his first step forward in life had arisen from his having been sent, while still very young, as a private pupil to the house of a clergyman, who was an old friend and intimate friend of his father's. this clergyman had one other, and only one other, pupil--the young lord lufton; and between the two boys, there had sprung up a close alliance. while they were both so placed, lady lufton had visited her son, and then invited young robarts to pass his next holidays at framley court. this visit was made; and it ended in mark going back to exeter with a letter full of praise from the widowed peeress. she had been delighted, she said, in having such a companion for her son, and expressed a hope that the boys might remain together during the course of their education. dr. robarts was a man who thought much of the breath of peers and peeresses, and was by no means inclined to throw away any advantage which might arise to his child from such a friendship. when, therefore, the young lord was sent to harrow, mark robarts went there also. that the lord and his friend often quarrelled, and occasionally fought,--the fact even that for one period of three months they never spoke to each other--by no means interfered with the doctor's hopes. mark again and again stayed a fortnight at framley court, and lady lufton always wrote about him in the highest terms. and then the lads went together to oxford, and here mark's good fortune followed him, consisting rather in the highly respectable manner in which he lived, than in any wonderful career of collegiate success. his family was proud of him, and the doctor was always ready to talk of him to his patients; not because he was a prizeman, and had gotten medals and scholarships, but on account of the excellence of his general conduct. he lived with the best set--he incurred no debts--he was fond of society, but able to avoid low society--liked his glass of wine, but was never known to be drunk; and, above all things, was one of the most popular men in the university. then came the question of a profession for this young hyperion, and on this subject, dr. robarts was invited himself to go over to framley court to discuss the matter with lady lufton. dr. robarts returned with a very strong conception that the church was the profession best suited to his son. lady lufton had not sent for dr. robarts all the way from exeter for nothing. the living of framley was in the gift of the lufton family, and the next presentation would be in lady lufton's hands, if it should fall vacant before the young lord was twenty-five years of age, and in the young lord's hands if it should fall afterwards. but the mother and the heir consented to give a joint promise to dr. robarts. now, as the present incumbent was over seventy, and as the living was worth £ a year, there could be no doubt as to the eligibility of the clerical profession. and i must further say, that the dowager and the doctor were justified in their choice by the life and principles of the young man--as far as any father can be justified in choosing such a profession for his son, and as far as any lay impropriator can be justified in making such a promise. had lady lufton had a second son, that second son would probably have had the living, and no one would have thought it wrong;--certainly not if that second son had been such a one as mark robarts. lady lufton herself was a woman who thought much on religious matters, and would by no means have been disposed to place any one in a living, merely because such a one had been her son's friend. her tendencies were high church, and she was enabled to perceive that those of young mark robarts ran in the same direction. she was very desirous that her son should make an associate of his clergyman, and by this step she would insure, at any rate, that. she was anxious that the parish vicar should be one with whom she could herself fully co-operate, and was perhaps unconsciously wishful that he might in some measure be subject to her influence. should she appoint an elder man, this might probably not be the case to the same extent; and should her son have the gift, it might probably not be the case at all. and therefore it was resolved that the living should be given to young robarts. he took his degree--not with any brilliancy, but quite in the manner that his father desired; he then travelled for eight or ten months with lord lufton and a college don, and almost immediately after his return home was ordained. the living of framley is in the diocese of barchester; and, seeing what were mark's hopes with reference to that diocese, it was by no means difficult to get him a curacy within it. but this curacy he was not allowed long to fill. he had not been in it above a twelvemonth, when poor old dr. stopford, the then vicar of framley, was gathered to his fathers, and the full fruition of his rich hopes fell upon his shoulders. but even yet more must be told of his good fortune before we can come to the actual incidents of our story. lady lufton, who, as i have said, thought much of clerical matters, did not carry her high church principles so far as to advocate celibacy for the clergy. on the contrary, she had an idea that a man could not be a good parish parson without a wife. so, having given to her favourite a position in the world, and an income sufficient for a gentleman's wants, she set herself to work to find him a partner in those blessings. and here also, as in other matters, he fell in with the views of his patroness--not, however, that they were declared to him in that marked manner in which the affair of the living had been broached. lady lufton was much too highly gifted with woman's craft for that. she never told the young vicar that miss monsell accompanied her ladyship's married daughter to framley court expressly that he, mark, might fall in love with her; but such was in truth the case. lady lufton had but two children. the eldest, a daughter, had been married some four or five years to sir george meredith, and this miss monsell was a dear friend of hers. and now looms before me the novelist's great difficulty. miss monsell,--or, rather, mrs. mark robarts,--must be described. as miss monsell, our tale will have to take no prolonged note of her. and yet we will call her fanny monsell, when we declare that she was one of the pleasantest companions that could be brought near to a man, as the future partner of his home, and owner of his heart. and if high principles without asperity, female gentleness without weakness, a love of laughter without malice, and a true loving heart, can qualify a woman to be a parson's wife, then was fanny monsell qualified to fill that station. in person she was somewhat larger than common. her face would have been beautiful but that her mouth was large. her hair, which was copious, was of a bright brown; her eyes also were brown, and, being so, were the distinctive feature of her face, for brown eyes are not common. they were liquid, large, and full either of tenderness or of mirth. mark robarts still had his accustomed luck, when such a girl as this was brought to framley for his wooing. and he did woo her--and won her. for mark himself was a handsome fellow. at this time the vicar was about twenty-five years of age, and the future mrs. robarts was two or three years younger. nor did she come quite empty-handed to the vicarage. it cannot be said that fanny monsell was an heiress, but she had been left with a provision of some few thousand pounds. this was so settled, that the interest of his wife's money paid the heavy insurance on his life which young robarts effected, and there was left to him, over and above, sufficient to furnish his parsonage in the very best style of clerical comfort,--and to start him on the road of life rejoicing. so much did lady lufton do for her _protégé_, and it may well be imagined that the devonshire physician, sitting meditative over his parlour fire, looking back, as men will look back on the upshot of their life, was well contented with that upshot, as regarded his eldest offshoot, the rev. mark robarts, the vicar of framley. but little has as yet been said, personally, as to our hero himself, and perhaps it may not be necessary to say much. let us hope that by degrees he may come forth upon the canvas, showing to the beholder the nature of the man inwardly and outwardly. here it may suffice to say that he was no born heaven's cherub, neither was he a born fallen devil's spirit. such as his training made him, such he was. he had large capabilities for good--and aptitudes also for evil, quite enough: quite enough to make it needful that he should repel temptation as temptation only can be repelled. much had been done to spoil him, but in the ordinary acceptation of the word he was not spoiled. he had too much tact, too much common sense, to believe himself to be the paragon which his mother thought him. self-conceit was not, perhaps, his greatest danger. had he possessed more of it, he might have been a less agreeable man, but his course before him might on that account have been the safer. in person he was manly, tall, and fair-haired, with a square forehead, denoting intelligence rather than thought, with clear white hands, filbert nails, and a power of dressing himself in such a manner that no one should ever observe of him that his clothes were either good or bad, shabby or smart. such was mark robarts when at the age of twenty-five, or a little more, he married fanny monsell. the marriage was celebrated in his own church, for miss monsell had no home of her own, and had been staying for the last three months at framley court. she was given away by sir george meredith, and lady lufton herself saw that the wedding was what it should be, with almost as much care as she had bestowed on that of her own daughter. the deed of marrying, the absolute tying of the knot, was performed by the very reverend the dean of barchester, an esteemed friend of lady lufton's. and mrs. arabin, the dean's wife, was of the party, though the distance from barchester to framley is long, and the roads deep, and no railway lends its assistance. and lord lufton was there of course; and people protested that he would surely fall in love with one of the four beautiful bridesmaids, of whom blanche robarts, the vicar's second sister, was by common acknowledgment by far the most beautiful. and there was there another and a younger sister of mark's--who did not officiate at the ceremony, though she was present--and of whom no prediction was made, seeing that she was then only sixteen, but of whom mention is made here, as it will come to pass that my readers will know her hereafter. her name was lucy robarts. and then the vicar and his wife went off on their wedding tour, the old curate taking care of the framley souls the while. and in due time they returned; and after a further interval, in due course, a child was born to them; and then another; and after that came the period at which we will begin our story. but before doing so, may i not assert that all men were right in saying all manner of good things to the devonshire physician, and in praising his luck in having such a son? "you were up at the house to-day, i suppose?" said mark to his wife, as he sat stretching himself in an easy chair in the drawing-room, before the fire, previously to his dressing for dinner. it was a november evening, and he had been out all day, and on such occasions the aptitude for delay in dressing is very powerful. a strong-minded man goes direct from the hall-door to his chamber without encountering the temptation of the drawing-room fire. "no; but lady lufton was down here." "full of arguments in favour of sarah thompson?" "exactly so, mark." "and what did you say about sarah thompson?" "very little as coming from myself; but i did hint that you thought, or that i thought that you thought, that one of the regular trained schoolmistresses would be better." "but her ladyship did not agree?" "well, i won't exactly say that;--though i think that perhaps she did not." "i am sure she did not. when she has a point to carry, she is very fond of carrying it." "but then, mark, her points are generally so good." "but, you see, in this affair of the school she is thinking more of her _protégée_ than she does of the children." "tell her that, and i am sure she will give way." and then again they were both silent. and the vicar having thoroughly warmed himself, as far as this might be done by facing the fire, turned round and began the operation _à tergo_. "come, mark, it is twenty minutes past six. will you go and dress?" "i'll tell you what, fanny: she must have her way about sarah thompson. you can see her to-morrow and tell her so." "i am sure, mark, i would not give way, if i thought it wrong. nor would she expect it." "if i persist this time, i shall certainly have to yield the next; and then the next may probably be more important." "but if it's wrong, mark?" "i didn't say it was wrong. besides, if it is wrong, wrong in some infinitesimal degree, one must put up with it. sarah thompson is very respectable; the only question is whether she can teach." the young wife, though she did not say so, had some idea that her husband was in error. it is true that one must put up with wrong, with a great deal of wrong. but no one need put up with wrong that he can remedy. why should he, the vicar, consent to receive an incompetent teacher for the parish children, when he was able to procure one that was competent? in such a case,--so thought mrs. robarts to herself,--she would have fought the matter out with lady lufton. on the next morning, however, she did as she was bid, and signified to the dowager that all objection to sarah thompson would be withdrawn. "ah! i was sure he would agree with me," said her ladyship, "when he learned what sort of person she is. i know i had only to explain;"--and then she plumed her feathers, and was very gracious; for, to tell the truth, lady lufton did not like to be opposed in things which concerned the parish nearly. "and, fanny," said lady lufton, in her kindest manner, "you are not going anywhere on saturday, are you?" "no, i think not." "then you must come to us. justinia is to be here, you know"--lady meredith was named justinia--"and you and mr. robarts had better stay with us till monday. he can have the little book-room all to himself on sunday. the merediths go on monday; and justinia won't be happy if you are not with her." it would be unjust to say that lady lufton had determined not to invite the robartses if she were not allowed to have her own way about sarah thompson. but such would have been the result. as it was, however, she was all kindness; and when mrs. robarts made some little excuse, saying that she was afraid she must return home in the evening, because of the children, lady lufton declared that there was room enough at framley court for baby and nurse, and so settled the matter in her own way, with a couple of nods and three taps of her umbrella. this was on a tuesday morning, and on the same evening, before dinner, the vicar again seated himself in the same chair before the drawing-room fire, as soon as he had seen his horse led into the stable. "mark," said his wife, "the merediths are to be at framley on saturday and sunday; and i have promised that we will go up and stay over till monday." "you don't mean it! goodness gracious, how provoking!" "why? i thought you wouldn't mind it. and justinia would think it unkind if i were not there." "you can go, my dear, and of course will go. but as for me, it is impossible." "but why, love?" "why? just now, at the school-house, i answered a letter that was brought to me from chaldicotes. sowerby insists on my going over there for a week or so; and i have said that i would." "go to chaldicotes for a week, mark?" "i believe i have even consented to ten days." "and be away two sundays?" "no, fanny, only one. don't be so censorious." "don't call me censorious, mark; you know i am not so. but i am so sorry. it is just what lady lufton won't like. besides, you were away in scotland two sundays last month." "in september, fanny. and that is being censorious." "oh, but, mark, dear mark; don't say so. you know i don't mean it. but lady lufton does not like those chaldicotes people. you know lord lufton was with you the last time you were there; and how annoyed she was!" "lord lufton won't be with me now, for he is still in scotland. and the reason why i am going is this: harold smith and his wife will be there, and i am very anxious to know more of them. i have no doubt that harold smith will be in the government some day, and i cannot afford to neglect such a man's acquaintance." "but, mark, what do you want of any government?" "well, fanny, of course i am bound to say that i want nothing; neither in one sense do i; but nevertheless, i shall go and meet the harold smiths." "could you not be back before sunday?" "i have promised to preach at chaldicotes. harold smith is going to lecture at barchester, about the australasian archipelago, and i am to preach a charity sermon on the same subject. they want to send out more missionaries." "a charity sermon at chaldicotes!" "and why not? the house will be quite full, you know; and i dare say the arabins will be there." "i think not; mrs. arabin may get on with mrs. harold smith, though i doubt that; but i'm sure she's not fond of mrs. smith's brother. i don't think she would stay at chaldicotes." "and the bishop will probably be there for a day or two." "that is much more likely, mark. if the pleasure of meeting mrs. proudie is taking you to chaldicotes, i have not a word more to say." "i am not a bit more fond of mrs. proudie than you are, fanny," said the vicar, with something like vexation in the tone of his voice, for he thought that his wife was hard upon him. "but it is generally thought that a parish clergyman does well to meet his bishop now and then. and as i was invited there, especially to preach while all these people are staying at the place, i could not well refuse." and then he got up, and taking his candlestick, escaped to his dressing-room. "but what am i to say to lady lufton?" his wife said to him, in the course of the evening. "just write her a note, and tell her that you find i had promised to preach at chaldicotes next sunday. you'll go, of course?" "yes: but i know she'll be annoyed. you were away the last time she had people there." "it can't be helped. she must put it down against sarah thompson. she ought not to expect to win always." "i should not have minded it, if she had lost, as you call it, about sarah thompson. that was a case in which you ought to have had your own way." "and this other is a case in which i shall have it. it's a pity that there should be such a difference; isn't it?" then the wife perceived that, vexed as she was, it would be better that she should say nothing further; and before she went to bed, she wrote the note to lady lufton, as her husband recommended. chapter ii. the framley set, and the chaldicotes set. it will be necessary that i should say a word or two of some of the people named in the few preceding pages, and also of the localities in which they lived. of lady lufton herself enough, perhaps, has been written to introduce her to my readers. the framley property belonged to her son; but as lufton park--an ancient ramshackle place in another county--had heretofore been the family residence of the lufton family, framley court had been apportioned to her for her residence for life. lord lufton himself was still unmarried; and as he had no establishment at lufton park--which indeed had not been inhabited since his grandfather died--he lived with his mother when it suited him to live anywhere in that neighbourhood. the widow would fain have seen more of him than he allowed her to do. he had a shooting-lodge in scotland, and apartments in london, and a string of horses in leicestershire--much to the disgust of the county gentry around him, who held that their own hunting was as good as any that england could afford. his lordship, however, paid his subscription to the east barsetshire pack, and then thought himself at liberty to follow his own pleasure as to his own amusement. framley itself was a pleasant country place, having about it nothing of seignorial dignity or grandeur, but possessing everything necessary for the comfort of country life. the house was a low building of two stories, built at different periods, and devoid of all pretensions to any style of architecture; but the rooms, though not lofty, were warm and comfortable, and the gardens were trim and neat beyond all others in the county. indeed, it was for its gardens only that framley court was celebrated. village there was none, properly speaking. the high road went winding about through the framley paddocks, shrubberies, and wood-skirted home fields, for a mile and a half, not two hundred yards of which ran in a straight line; and there was a cross-road which passed down through the domain, whereby there came to be a locality called framley cross. here stood the "lufton arms," and here, at framley cross, the hounds occasionally would meet; for the framley woods were drawn in spite of the young lord's truant disposition; and then, at the cross also, lived the shoemaker, who kept the post-office. framley church was distant from this just a quarter of a mile, and stood immediately opposite to the chief entrance to framley court. it was but a mean, ugly building, having been erected about a hundred years since, when all churches then built were made to be mean and ugly; nor was it large enough for the congregation, some of whom were thus driven to the dissenting chapels, the sions and ebenezers, which had got themselves established on each side of the parish, in putting down which lady lufton thought that her pet parson was hardly as energetic as he might be. it was, therefore, a matter near to lady lufton's heart to see a new church built, and she was urgent in her eloquence, both with her son and with the vicar, to have this good work commenced. beyond the church, but close to it, were the boys' school and girls' school, two distinct buildings, which owed their erection to lady lufton's energy; then came a neat little grocer's shop, the neat grocer being the clerk and sexton, and the neat grocer's wife, the pew-opener in the church. podgens was their name, and they were great favourites with her ladyship, both having been servants up at the house. and here the road took a sudden turn to the left, turning, as it were, away from framley court; and just beyond the turn was the vicarage, so that there was a little garden path running from the back of the vicarage grounds into the churchyard, cutting the podgenses off into an isolated corner of their own;--from whence, to tell the truth, the vicar would have been glad to banish them and their cabbages, could he have had the power to do so. for has not the small vineyard of naboth been always an eyesore to neighbouring potentates? the potentate in this case had as little excuse as ahab, for nothing in the parsonage way could be more perfect than his parsonage. it had all the details requisite for the house of a moderate gentleman with moderate means, and none of those expensive superfluities which immoderate gentlemen demand, or which themselves demand--immoderate means. and then the gardens and paddocks were exactly suited to it; and everything was in good order;--not exactly new, so as to be raw and uncovered, and redolent of workmen; but just at that era of their existence in which newness gives way to comfortable homeliness. other village at framley there was none. at the back of the court, up one of those cross-roads, there was another small shop or two, and there was a very neat cottage residence, in which lived the widow of a former curate, another _protégé_ of lady lufton's; and there was a big, staring brick house, in which the present curate lived; but this was a full mile distant from the church, and farther from framley court, standing on that cross-road which runs from framley cross in a direction away from the mansion. this gentleman, the rev. evan jones, might, from his age, have been the vicar's father; but he had been for many years curate of framley; and though he was personally disliked by lady lufton, as being low church in his principles, and unsightly in his appearance, nevertheless, she would not urge his removal. he had two or three pupils in that large brick house, and if turned out from these and from his curacy, might find it difficult to establish himself elsewhere. on this account mercy was extended to the rev. e. jones, and, in spite of his red face and awkward big feet, he was invited to dine at framley court, with his plain daughter, once in every three months. over and above these, there was hardly a house in the parish of framley, outside the bounds of framley court, except those of farmers and farm labourers; and yet the parish was of large extent. framley is in the eastern division of the county of barsetshire, which, as all the world knows, is, politically speaking, as true blue a county as any in england. there have been backslidings even here, it is true; but then, in what county have there not been such backslidings? where, in these pinchbeck days, can we hope to find the old agricultural virtue in all its purity? but, among those backsliders, i regret to say, that men now reckon lord lufton. not that he is a violent whig, or perhaps that he is a whig at all. but he jeers and sneers at the old county doings; declares, when solicited on the subject, that, as far as he is concerned, mr. bright may sit for the county, if he pleases; and alleges, that being unfortunately a peer, he has no right even to interest himself in the question. all this is deeply regretted, for, in the old days, there was no portion of the county more decidedly true blue than that framley district; and, indeed, up to the present day, the dowager is able to give an occasional helping hand. chaldicotes is the seat of nathaniel sowerby, esq., who, at the moment supposed to be now present, is one of the members for the western division of barsetshire. but this western division can boast none of the fine political attributes which grace its twin brother. it is decidedly whig, and is almost governed in its politics by one or two great whig families. it has been said that mark robarts was about to pay a visit to chaldicotes, and it has been hinted that his wife would have been as well pleased had this not been the case. such was certainly the fact; for she, dear, prudent, excellent wife as she was, knew that mr. sowerby was not the most eligible friend in the world for a young clergyman, and knew, also, that there was but one other house in the whole county the name of which was so distasteful to lady lufton. the reasons for this were, i may say, manifold. in the first place, mr. sowerby was a whig, and was seated in parliament mainly by the interest of that great whig autocrat the duke of omnium, whose residence was more dangerous even than that of mr. sowerby, and whom lady lufton regarded as an impersonation of lucifer upon earth. mr. sowerby, too, was unmarried--as indeed, also, was lord lufton, much to his mother's grief. mr. sowerby, it is true, was fifty, whereas the young lord was as yet only twenty-six, but, nevertheless, her ladyship was becoming anxious on the subject. in her mind, every man was bound to marry as soon as he could maintain a wife; and she held an idea--a quite private tenet, of which she was herself but imperfectly conscious--that men in general were inclined to neglect this duty for their own selfish gratifications, that the wicked ones encouraged the more innocent in this neglect, and that many would not marry at all, were not an unseen coercion exercised against them by the other sex. the duke of omnium was the very head of all such sinners, and lady lufton greatly feared that her son might be made subject to the baneful omnium influence, by means of mr. sowerby and chaldicotes. and then mr. sowerby was known to be a very poor man, with a very large estate. he had wasted, men said, much on electioneering, and more in gambling. a considerable portion of his property had already gone into the hands of the duke, who, as a rule, bought up everything around him that was to be purchased. indeed it was said of him by his enemies, that so covetous was he of barsetshire property, that he would lead a young neighbour on to his ruin, in order that he might get his land. what--oh! what if he should come to be possessed in this way of any of the fair acres of framley court? what if he should become possessed of them all? it can hardly be wondered at that lady lufton should not like chaldicotes. the chaldicotes set, as lady lufton called them, were in every way opposed to what a set should be according to her ideas. she liked cheerful, quiet, well-to-do people, who loved their church, their country, and their queen, and who were not too anxious to make a noise in the world. she desired that all the farmers round her should be able to pay their rents without trouble, that all the old women should have warm flannel petticoats, that the working men should be saved from rheumatism by healthy food and dry houses, that they should all be obedient to their pastors and masters--temporal as well as spiritual. that was her idea of loving her country. she desired also that the copses should be full of pheasants, the stubble-field of partridges, and the gorse covers of foxes;--in that way, also, she loved her country. she had ardently longed, during that crimean war, that the russians might be beaten--but not by the french, to the exclusion of the english, as had seemed to her to be too much the case; and hardly by the english under the dictatorship of lord palmerston. indeed, she had had but little faith in that war after lord aberdeen had been expelled. if, indeed, lord derby could have come in! but now as to this chaldicotes set. after all, there was nothing so very dangerous about them; for it was in london, not in the country, that mr. sowerby indulged, if he did indulge, his bachelor mal-practices. speaking of them as a set, the chief offender was mr. harold smith, or perhaps his wife. he also was a member of parliament, and, as many thought, a rising man. his father had been for many years a debater in the house, and had held high office. harold, in early life, had intended himself for the cabinet; and if working hard at his trade could ensure success, he ought to obtain it sooner or later. he had already filled more than one subordinate station, had been at the treasury, and for a month or two at the admiralty, astonishing official mankind by his diligence. those last-named few months had been under lord aberdeen, with whom he had been forced to retire. he was a younger son, and not possessed of any large fortune. politics as a profession was therefore of importance to him. he had in early life married a sister of mr. sowerby; and as the lady was some six or seven years older than himself, and had brought with her but a scanty dowry, people thought that in this matter mr. harold smith had not been perspicacious. mr. harold smith was not personally a popular man with any party, though some judged him to be eminently useful. he was laborious, well-informed, and, on the whole, honest; but he was conceited, long-winded, and pompous. mrs. harold smith was the very opposite of her lord. she was a clever, bright woman, good-looking for her time of life--and she was now over forty--with a keen sense of the value of all worldly things, and a keen relish for all the world's pleasures. she was neither laborious, nor well-informed, nor perhaps altogether honest--what woman ever understood the necessity or recognized the advantage of political honesty?--but then she was neither dull nor pompous, and if she was conceited, she did not show it. she was a disappointed woman, as regards her husband; seeing that she had married him on the speculation that he would at once become politically important; and as yet mr. smith had not quite fulfilled the prophecies of his early life. and lady lufton, when she spoke of the chaldicotes set, distinctly included, in her own mind, the bishop of barchester, and his wife and daughter. seeing that bishop proudie was, of course, a man much addicted to religion and to religious thinking, and that mr. sowerby himself had no peculiar religious sentiments whatever, there would not at first sight appear to be ground for much intercourse, and perhaps there was not much of such intercourse; but mrs. proudie and mrs. harold smith were firm friends of four or five years' standing--ever since the proudies came into the diocese; and therefore the bishop was usually taken to chaldicotes whenever mrs. smith paid her brother a visit. now bishop proudie was by no means a high church dignitary, and lady lufton had never forgiven him for coming into that diocese. she had, instinctively, a high respect for the episcopal office; but of bishop proudie himself she hardly thought better than she did of mr. sowerby, or of that fabricator of evil, the duke of omnium. whenever mr. robarts would plead that in going anywhere he would have the benefit of meeting the bishop, lady lufton would slightly curl her upper lip. she could not say in words, that bishop proudie--bishop as he certainly must be called--was no better than he ought to be; but by that curl of her lip she did explain to those who knew her that such was the inner feeling of her heart. and then it was understood--mark robarts, at least, had so heard, and the information soon reached framley court--that mr. supplehouse was to make one of the chaldicotes party. now mr. supplehouse was a worse companion for a gentlemanlike, young, high church, conservative county parson than even harold smith. he also was in parliament, and had been extolled during the early days of that russian war by some portion of the metropolitan daily press, as the only man who could save the country. let him be in the ministry, the _jupiter_ had said, and there would be some hope of reform, some chance that england's ancient glory would not be allowed in these perilous times to go headlong to oblivion. and upon this the ministry, not anticipating much salvation from mr. supplehouse, but willing, as they usually are, to have the _jupiter_ at their back, did send for that gentleman, and gave him some footing among them. but how can a man born to save a nation, and to lead a people, be content to fill the chair of an under-secretary? supplehouse was not content, and soon gave it to be understood that his place was much higher than any yet tendered to him. the seals of high office, or war to the knife, was the alternative which he offered to a much-belaboured head of affairs--nothing doubting that the head of affairs would recognize the claimant's value, and would have before his eyes a wholesome fear of the _jupiter_. but the head of affairs, much belaboured as he was, knew that he might pay too high even for mr. supplehouse and the _jupiter_; and the saviour of the nation was told that he might swing his tomahawk. since that time he had been swinging his tomahawk, but not with so much effect as had been anticipated. he also was very intimate with mr. sowerby, and was decidedly one of the chaldicotes set. and there were many others included in the stigma whose sins were political or religious rather than moral. but they were gall and wormwood to lady lufton, who regarded them as children of the lost one, and who grieved with a mother's grief when she knew that her son was among them, and felt all a patron's anger when she heard that her clerical _protégé_ was about to seek such society. mrs. robarts might well say that lady lufton would be annoyed. "you won't call at the house before you go, will you?" the wife asked on the following morning. he was to start after lunch on that day, driving himself in his own gig, so as to reach chaldicotes, some twenty-four miles distant, before dinner. "no, i think not. what good should i do?" "well, i can't explain; but i think i should call: partly, perhaps, to show her that as i had determined to go, i was not afraid of telling her so." "afraid! that's nonsense, fanny. i'm not afraid of her. but i don't see why i should bring down upon myself the disagreeable things she will say. besides, i have not time. i must walk up and see jones about the duties; and then, what with getting ready, i shall have enough to do to get off in time." he paid his visit to mr. jones, the curate, feeling no qualms of conscience there, as he rather boasted of all the members of parliament he was going to meet, and of the bishop who would be with them. mr. evan jones was only his curate, and in speaking to him on the matter he could talk as though it were quite the proper thing for a vicar to meet his bishop at the house of a county member. and one would be inclined to say that it was proper: only why could he not talk of it in the same tone to lady lufton? and then, having kissed his wife and children, he drove off, well pleased with his prospect for the coming ten days, but already anticipating some discomfort on his return. on the three following days, mrs. robarts did not meet her ladyship. she did not exactly take any steps to avoid such a meeting, but she did not purposely go up to the big house. she went to her school as usual, and made one or two calls among the farmers' wives, but put no foot within the framley court grounds. she was braver than her husband, but even she did not wish to anticipate the evil day. on the saturday, just before it began to get dusk, when she was thinking of preparing for the fatal plunge, her friend, lady meredith, came to her. "so, fanny, we shall again be so unfortunate as to miss mr. robarts," said her ladyship. "yes. did you ever know anything so unlucky? but he had promised mr. sowerby before he heard that you were coming. pray do not think that he would have gone away had he known it." "we should have been sorry to keep him from so much more amusing a party." "now, justinia, you are unfair. you intend to imply that he has gone to chaldicotes, because he likes it better than framley court; but that is not the case. i hope lady lufton does not think that it is." lady meredith laughed as she put her arm round her friend's waist. "don't lose your eloquence in defending him to me," she said. "you'll want all that for my mother." "but is your mother angry?" asked mrs. robarts, showing by her countenance, how eager she was for true tidings on the subject. "well, fanny, you know her ladyship as well as i do. she thinks so very highly of the vicar of framley, that she does begrudge him to those politicians at chaldicotes." "but, justinia, the bishop is to be there, you know." "i don't think that that consideration will at all reconcile my mother to the gentleman's absence. he ought to be very proud, i know, to find that he is so much thought of. but come, fanny, i want you to walk back with me, and you can dress at the house. and now we'll go and look at the children." after that, as they walked together to framley court, mrs. robarts made her friend promise that she would stand by her if any serious attack were made on the absent clergyman. "are you going up to your room at once?" said the vicar's wife, as soon as they were inside the porch leading into the hall. lady meredith immediately knew what her friend meant, and decided that the evil day should not be postponed. "we had better go in and have it over," she said, "and then we shall be comfortable for the evening." so the drawing-room door was opened, and there was lady lufton alone upon the sofa. "now, mamma," said the daughter, "you mustn't scold fanny much about mr. robarts. he has gone to preach a charity sermon before the bishop, and under those circumstances, perhaps, he could not refuse." this was a stretch on the part of lady meredith--put in with much good nature, no doubt; but still a stretch; for no one had supposed that the bishop would remain at chaldicotes for the sunday. "how do you do, fanny?" said lady lufton, getting up. "i am not going to scold her; and i don't know how you can talk such nonsense, justinia. of course, we are very sorry not to have mr. robarts; more especially as he was not here the last sunday that sir george was with us. i do like to see mr. robarts in his own church, certainly; and i don't like any other clergyman there as well. if fanny takes that for scolding, why--" "oh! no, lady lufton; and it's so kind of you to say so. but mr. robarts was so sorry that he had accepted this invitation to chaldicotes, before he heard that sir george was coming, and--" "oh, i know that chaldicotes has great attractions which we cannot offer," said lady lufton. "indeed, it was not that. but he was asked to preach, you know; and mr. harold smith--" poor fanny was only making it worse. had she been worldly wise, she would have accepted the little compliment implied in lady lufton's first rebuke, and then have held her peace. "oh, yes; the harold smiths! they are irresistible, i know. how could any man refuse to join a party, graced both by mrs. harold smith and mrs. proudie--even though his duty should require him to stay away?" "now, mamma--" said justinia. "well, my dear, what am i to say? you would not wish me to tell a fib. i don't like mrs. harold smith--at least, what i hear of her; for it has not been my fortune to meet her since her marriage. it may be conceited; but to own the truth, i think that mr. robarts would be better off with us at framley than with the harold smiths at chaldicotes,--even though mrs. proudie be thrown into the bargain." it was nearly dark, and therefore the rising colour in the face of mrs. robarts could not be seen. she, however, was too good a wife to hear these things said without some anger within her bosom. she could blame her husband in her own mind; but it was intolerable to her that others should blame him in her hearing. "he would undoubtedly be better off," she said; "but then, lady lufton, people can't always go exactly where they will be best off. gentlemen sometimes must--" "well--well, my dear, that will do. he has not taken you, at any rate; and so we will forgive him." and lady lufton kissed her. "as it is,"--and she affected a low whisper between the two young wives--"as it is, we must e'en put up with poor old evan jones. he is to be here to-night, and we must go and dress to receive him." and so they went off. lady lufton was quite good enough at heart to like mrs. robarts all the better for standing up for her absent lord. chapter iii. chaldicotes. chaldicotes is a house of much more pretension than framley court. indeed, if one looks at the ancient marks about it, rather than at those of the present day, it is a place of very considerable pretension. there is an old forest, not altogether belonging to the property, but attached to it, called the chace of chaldicotes. a portion of this forest comes up close behind the mansion, and of itself gives a character and celebrity to the place. the chace of chaldicotes--the greater part of it, at least--is, as all the world knows, crown property, and now, in these utilitarian days, is to be disforested. in former times it was a great forest, stretching half across the country, almost as far as silverbridge; and there are bits of it, here and there, still to be seen at intervals throughout the whole distance; but the larger remaining portion, consisting of aged hollow oaks, centuries old, and wide-spreading withered beeches, stands in the two parishes of chaldicotes and uffley. people still come from afar to see the oaks of chaldicotes, and to hear their feet rustle among the thick autumn leaves. but they will soon come no longer. the giants of past ages are to give way to wheat and turnips; a ruthless chancellor of the exchequer, disregarding old associations and rural beauty, requires money returns from the lands; and the chace of chaldicotes is to vanish from the earth's surface. some part of it, however, is the private property of mr. sowerby, who hitherto, through all his pecuniary distresses, has managed to save from the axe and the auction-mart that portion of his paternal heritage. the house of chaldicotes is a large stone building, probably of the time of charles the second. it is approached on both fronts by a heavy double flight of stone steps. in the front of the house a long, solemn, straight avenue through a double row of lime-trees, leads away to lodge-gates, which stand in the centre of the village of chaldicotes; but to the rear the windows open upon four different vistas, which run down through the forest: four open green rides, which all converge together at a large iron gateway, the barrier which divides the private grounds from the chace. the sowerbys, for many generations, have been rangers of the chace of chaldicotes, thus having almost as wide an authority over the crown forest as over their own. but now all this is to cease, for the forest will be disforested. it was nearly dark as mark robarts drove up through the avenue of lime-trees to the hall-door; but it was easy to see that the house, which was dead and silent as the grave through nine months of the year, was now alive in all its parts. there were lights in many of the windows, and a noise of voices came from the stables, and servants were moving about, and dogs barked, and the dark gravel before the front steps was cut up with many a coach-wheel. "oh, be that you, sir, mr. robarts?" said a groom, taking the parson's horse by the head, and touching his own hat. "i hope i see your reverence well?" "quite well, bob, thank you. all well at chaldicotes?" "pretty bobbish, mr. robarts. deal of life going on here now, sir. the bishop and his lady came this morning." "oh--ah--yes! i understood they were to be here. any of the young ladies?" "one young lady. miss olivia, i think they call her, your reverence." "and how's mr. sowerby?" "very well, your reverence. he, and mr. harold smith, and mr. fothergill--that's the duke's man of business, you know--is getting off their horses now in the stable-yard there." "home from hunting--eh, bob?" "yes, sir, just home, this minute." and then mr. robarts walked into the house, his portmanteau following on a footboy's shoulder. it will be seen that our young vicar was very intimate at chaldicotes; so much so that the groom knew him, and talked to him about the people in the house. yes; he was intimate there: much more than he had given the framley people to understand. not that he had wilfully and overtly deceived any one; not that he had ever spoken a false word about chaldicotes. but he had never boasted at home that he and sowerby were near allies. neither had he told them there how often mr. sowerby and lord lufton were together in london. why trouble women with such matters? why annoy so excellent a woman as lady lufton? and then mr. sowerby was one whose intimacy few young men would wish to reject. he was fifty, and had lived, perhaps, not the most salutary life; but he dressed young, and usually looked well. he was bald, with a good forehead, and sparkling moist eyes. he was a clever man, and a pleasant companion, and always good-humoured when it so suited him. he was a gentleman, too, of high breeding and good birth, whose ancestors had been known in that county--longer, the farmers around would boast, than those of any other landowner in it, unless it be the thornes of ullathorne, or perhaps the greshams of greshamsbury--much longer than the de courcys at courcy castle. as for the duke of omnium, he, comparatively speaking, was a new man. and then he was a member of parliament, a friend of some men in power, and of others who might be there; a man who could talk about the world as one knowing the matter of which he talked. and moreover, whatever might be his ways of life at other times, when in the presence of a clergyman he rarely made himself offensive to clerical tastes. he neither swore, nor brought his vices on the carpet, nor sneered at the faith of the church. if he was no churchman himself, he at least knew how to live with those who were. how was it possible that such a one as our vicar should not relish the intimacy of mr. sowerby? it might be very well, he would say to himself, for a woman like lady lufton to turn up her nose at him--for lady lufton, who spent ten months of the year at framley court, and who during those ten months, and for the matter of that, during the two months also which she spent in london, saw no one out of her own set. women did not understand such things, the vicar said to himself; even his own wife--good, and nice, and sensible, and intelligent as she was--even she did not understand that a man in the world must meet all sorts of men; and that in these days it did not do for a clergyman to be a hermit. 'twas thus that mark robarts argued when he found himself called upon to defend himself before the bar of his own conscience for going to chaldicotes and increasing his intimacy with mr. sowerby. he did know that mr. sowerby was a dangerous man; he was aware that he was over head and ears in debt, and that he had already entangled young lord lufton in some pecuniary embarrassment; his conscience did tell him that it would be well for him, as one of christ's soldiers, to look out for companions of a different stamp. but nevertheless he went to chaldicotes, not satisfied with himself indeed, but repeating to himself a great many arguments why he should be so satisfied. he was shown into the drawing-room at once, and there he found mrs. harold smith, with mrs. and miss proudie, and a lady whom he had never before seen, and whose name he did not at first hear mentioned. "is that mr. robarts?" said mrs. harold smith, getting up to greet him, and screening her pretended ignorance under the veil of the darkness. "and have you really driven over four-and-twenty miles of barsetshire roads on such a day as this to assist us in our little difficulties? well, we can promise you gratitude at any rate." and then the vicar shook hands with mrs. proudie, in that deferential manner which is due from a vicar to his bishop's wife; and mrs. proudie returned the greeting with all that smiling condescension which a bishop's wife should show to a vicar. miss proudie was not quite so civil. had mr. robarts been still unmarried, she also could have smiled sweetly; but she had been exercising smiles on clergymen too long to waste them now on a married parish parson. "and what are the difficulties, mrs. smith, in which i am to assist you?" "we have six or seven gentlemen here, mr. robarts, and they always go out hunting before breakfast, and they never come back--i was going to say--till after dinner. i wish it were so, for then we should not have to wait for them." "excepting mr. supplehouse, you know," said the unknown lady, in a loud voice. "and he is generally shut up in the library, writing articles." "he'd be better employed if he were trying to break his neck like the others," said the unknown lady. "only he would never succeed," said mrs. harold smith. "but perhaps, mr. robarts, you are as bad as the rest; perhaps you, too, will be hunting to-morrow." "my dear mrs. smith!" said mrs. proudie, in a tone denoting slight reproach, and modified horror. "oh! i forgot. no, of course, you won't be hunting, mr. robarts; you'll only be wishing that you could." "why can't he?" said the lady with the loud voice. "my dear miss dunstable! a clergyman hunt, while he is staying in the same house with the bishop? think of the proprieties!" "oh--ah! the bishop wouldn't like it--wouldn't he? now, do tell me, sir, what would the bishop do to you if you did hunt?" "it would depend upon his mood at the time, madam," said mr. robarts. "if that were very stern, he might perhaps have me beheaded before the palace gates." mrs. proudie drew herself up in her chair, showing that she did not like the tone of the conversation; and miss proudie fixed her eyes vehemently on her book, showing that miss dunstable and her conversation were both beneath her notice. "if these gentlemen do not mean to break their necks to-night," said mrs. harold smith, "i wish they'd let us know it. it's half-past six already." and then mr. robarts gave them to understand that no such catastrophe could be looked for that day, as mr. sowerby and the other sportsmen were within the stable-yard when he entered the door. "then, ladies, we may as well dress," said mrs. harold smith. but as she moved towards the door, it opened, and a short gentleman, with a slow, quiet step, entered the room; but was not yet to be distinguished through the dusk by the eyes of mr. robarts. "oh! bishop, is that you?" said mrs. smith. "here is one of the luminaries of your diocese." and then the bishop, feeling through the dark, made his way up to the vicar and shook him cordially by the hand. "he was delighted to meet mr. robarts at chaldicotes," he said--"quite delighted. was he not going to preach on behalf of the papuan mission next sunday? ah! so he, the bishop, had heard. it was a good work, an excellent work." and then dr. proudie expressed himself as much grieved that he could not remain at chaldicotes, and hear the sermon. it was plain that his bishop thought no ill of him on account of his intimacy with mr. sowerby. but then he felt in his own heart that he did not much regard his bishop's opinion. "ah, robarts, i'm delighted to see you," said mr. sowerby, when they met on the drawing-room rug before dinner. "you know harold smith? yes, of course you do. well, who else is there? oh! supplehouse. mr. supplehouse, allow me to introduce to you my friend mr. robarts. it is he who will extract the five-pound note out of your pocket next sunday for these poor papuans whom we are going to christianize. that is, if harold smith does not finish the work out of hand at his saturday lecture. and, robarts, you have seen the bishop, of course:" this he said in a whisper. "a fine thing to be a bishop, isn't it? i wish i had half your chance. but, my dear fellow, i've made such a mistake; i haven't got a bachelor parson for miss proudie. you must help me out, and take her in to dinner." and then the great gong sounded, and off they went in pairs. at dinner mark found himself seated between miss proudie and the lady whom he had heard named as miss dunstable. of the former he was not very fond, and, in spite of his host's petition, was not inclined to play bachelor parson for her benefit. with the other lady he would willingly have chatted during the dinner, only that everybody else at table seemed to be intent on doing the same thing. she was neither young, nor beautiful, nor peculiarly ladylike; yet she seemed to enjoy a popularity which must have excited the envy of mr. supplehouse, and which certainly was not altogether to the taste of mrs. proudie--who, however, fêted her as much as did the others. so that our clergyman found himself unable to obtain more than an inconsiderable share of the lady's attention. "bishop," said she, speaking across the table, "we have missed you so all day! we have had no one on earth to say a word to us." "my dear miss dunstable, had i known that-- but i really was engaged on business of some importance." "i don't believe in business of importance; do you, mrs. smith?" "do i not?" said mrs. smith. "if you were married to mr. harold smith for one week, you'd believe in it." "should i, now? what a pity that i can't have that chance of improving my faith! but you are a man of business, also, mr. supplehouse; so they tell me." and she turned to her neighbour on her right hand. "i cannot compare myself to harold smith," said he. "but perhaps i may equal the bishop." "what does a man do, now, when he sits himself down to business? how does he set about it? what are his tools? a quire of blotting paper, i suppose, to begin with?" "that depends, i should say, on his trade. a shoemaker begins by waxing his thread." "and mr. harold smith--?" "by counting up his yesterday's figures, generally, i should say; or else by unrolling a ball of red tape. well-docketed papers and statistical facts are his forte." "and what does a bishop do? can you tell me that?" "he sends forth to his clergy either blessings or blowings-up, according to the state of his digestive organs. but mrs. proudie can explain all that to you with the greatest accuracy." "can she, now? i understand what you mean, but i don't believe a word of it. the bishop manages his own affairs himself, quite as much as you do, or mr. harold smith." "i, miss dunstable?" "yes, you." "but i, unluckily, have not a wife to manage them for me." "then you should not laugh at those who have, for you don't know what you may come to yourself, when you're married." mr. supplehouse began to make a pretty speech, saying that he would be delighted to incur any danger in that respect to which he might be subjected by the companionship of miss dunstable. but before he was half through it, she had turned her back upon him, and begun a conversation with mark robarts. "have you much work in your parish, mr. robarts?" she asked. now, mark was not aware that she knew his name, or the fact of his having a parish, and was rather surprised by the question. and he had not quite liked the tone in which she had seemed to speak of the bishop and his work. his desire for her further acquaintance was therefore somewhat moderated, and he was not prepared to answer her question with much zeal. "all parish clergymen have plenty of work, if they choose to do it." "ah, that is it; is it not, mr. robarts? if they choose to do it? a great many do--many that i know, do; and see what a result they have. but many neglect it--and see what a result _they_ have. i think it ought to be the happiest life that a man can lead, that of a parish clergyman, with a wife and family, and a sufficient income." "i think it is," said mark robarts, asking himself whether the contentment accruing to him from such blessings had made him satisfied at all points. he had all these things of which miss dunstable spoke, and yet he had told his wife, the other day, that he could not afford to neglect the acquaintance of a rising politician like harold smith. "what i find fault with is this," continued miss dunstable, "that we expect clergymen to do their duty, and don't give them a sufficient income--give them hardly any income at all. is it not a scandal, that an educated gentleman with a family should be made to work half his life, and perhaps the whole, for a pittance of seventy pounds a year?" mark said that it was a scandal, and thought of mr. evan jones and his daughter;--and thought also of his own worth, and his own house, and his own nine hundred a year. "and yet you clergymen are so proud--aristocratic would be the genteel word, i know--that you won't take the money of common, ordinary poor people. you must be paid from land and endowments, from tithe and church property. you can't bring yourself to work for what you earn, as lawyers and doctors do. it is better that curates should starve than undergo such ignominy as that." "it is a long subject, miss dunstable." "a very long one; and that means that i am not to say any more about it." "i did not mean that exactly." "oh! but you did though, mr. robarts. and i can take a hint of that kind when i get it. you clergymen like to keep those long subjects for your sermons, when no one can answer you. now if i have a longing heart's desire for anything at all in this world, it is to be able to get up into a pulpit, and preach a sermon." "you can't conceive how soon that appetite would pall upon you, after its first indulgence." "that would depend upon whether i could get people to listen to me. it does not pall upon mr. spurgeon, i suppose." then her attention was called away by some question from mr. sowerby, and mark robarts found himself bound to address his conversation to miss proudie. miss proudie, however, was not thankful, and gave him little but monosyllables for his pains. "of course you know harold smith is going to give us a lecture about these islanders," mr. sowerby said to him, as they sat round the fire over their wine after dinner. mark said that he had been so informed, and should be delighted to be one of the listeners. "you are bound to do that, as he is going to listen to you the day afterwards--or, at any rate, to pretend to do so, which is as much as you will do for him. it'll be a terrible bore--the lecture, i mean, not the sermon." and he spoke very low into his friend's ear. "fancy having to drive ten miles after dusk, and ten miles back, to hear harold smith talk for two hours about borneo! one must do it, you know." "i daresay it will be very interesting." "my dear fellow, you haven't undergone so many of these things as i have. but he's right to do it. it's his line of life; and when a man begins a thing he ought to go on with it. where's lufton all this time?" "in scotland, when i last heard from him; but he's probably at melton now." "it's deuced shabby of him, not hunting here in his own county. he escapes all the bore of going to lectures, and giving feeds to the neighbours; that's why he treats us so. he has no idea of his duty, has he?" "lady lufton does all that, you know." "i wish i'd a mrs. sowerby _mère_ to do it for me. but then lufton has no constituents to look after--lucky dog! by-the-by, has he spoken to you about selling that outlying bit of land of his in oxfordshire? it belongs to the lufton property, and yet it doesn't. in my mind it gives more trouble than it's worth." lord lufton had spoken to mark about this sale, and had explained to him that such a sacrifice was absolutely necessary, in consequence of certain pecuniary transactions between him, lord lufton, and mr. sowerby. but it was found impracticable to complete the business without lady lufton's knowledge, and her son had commissioned mr. robarts not only to inform her ladyship, but to talk her over, and to appease her wrath. this commission he had not yet attempted to execute, and it was probable that this visit to chaldicotes would not do much to facilitate the business. "they are the most magnificent islands under the sun," said harold smith to the bishop. "are they, indeed!" said the bishop, opening his eyes wide, and assuming a look of intense interest. "and the most intelligent people." "dear me!" said the bishop. "all they want is guidance, encouragement, instruction--" "and christianity," suggested the bishop. "and christianity, of course," said mr. smith, remembering that he was speaking to a dignitary of the church. it was well to humour such people, mr. smith thought. but the christianity was to be done in the sunday sermon, and was not part of his work. "and how do you intend to begin with them?" asked mr. supplehouse, the business of whose life it had been to suggest difficulties. "begin with them--oh--why--it's very easy to begin with them. the difficulty is to go on with them, after the money is all spent. we'll begin by explaining to them the benefits of civilization." "capital plan!" said mr. supplehouse. "but how do you set about it, smith?" "how do we set about it? how did we set about it with australia and america? it is very easy to criticize; but in such matters the great thing is to put one's shoulder to the wheel." "we sent our felons to australia," said supplehouse, "and they began the work for us. and as to america, we exterminated the people instead of civilizing them." "we did not exterminate the inhabitants of india," said harold smith, angrily. "nor have we attempted to christianize them, as the bishop so properly wishes to do with your islanders." "supplehouse, you are not fair," said mr. sowerby, "neither to harold smith nor to us;--you are making him rehearse his lecture, which is bad for him; and making us hear the rehearsal, which is bad for us." "supplehouse belongs to a clique which monopolizes the wisdom of england," said harold smith; "or, at any rate, thinks that it does. but the worst of them is that they are given to talk leading articles." "better that, than talk articles which are not leading," said mr. supplehouse. "some first-class official men do that." "shall i meet you at the duke's next week, mr. robarts?" said the bishop to him, soon after they had gone into the drawing-room. meet him at the duke's!--the established enemy of barsetshire mankind, as lady lufton regarded his grace! no idea of going to the duke's had ever entered our hero's mind; nor had he been aware that the duke was about to entertain any one. "no, my lord; i think not. indeed, i have no acquaintance with his grace." "oh--ah! i did not know. because mr. sowerby is going; and so are the harold smiths, and, i think, mr. supplehouse. an excellent man is the duke;--that is, as regards all the county interests," added the bishop, remembering that the moral character of his bachelor grace was not the very best in the world. and then his lordship began to ask some questions about the church affairs of framley, in which a little interest as to framley court was also mixed up, when he was interrupted by a rather sharp voice, to which he instantly attended. "bishop," said the rather sharp voice; and the bishop trotted across the room to the back of the sofa, on which his wife was sitting. "miss dunstable thinks that she will be able to come to us for a couple of days, after we leave the duke's." "i shall be delighted above all things," said the bishop, bowing low to the dominant lady of the day. for be it known to all men, that miss dunstable was the great heiress of that name. "mrs. proudie is so very kind as to say that she will take me in, with my poodle, parrot, and pet old woman." "i tell miss dunstable that we shall have quite room for any of her suite," said mrs. proudie. "and that it will give us no trouble." "'the labour we delight in physics pain,'" said the gallant bishop, bowing low, and putting his hand upon his heart. in the meantime, mr. fothergill had got hold of mark robarts. mr. fothergill was a gentleman, and a magistrate of the county, but he occupied the position of managing man on the duke of omnium's estates. he was not exactly his agent; that is to say, he did not receive his rents; but he "managed" for him, saw people, went about the county, wrote letters, supported the electioneering interest, did popularity when it was too much trouble for the duke to do it himself, and was, in fact, invaluable. people in west barsetshire would often say that they did not know what _on earth_ the duke would do, if it were not for mr. fothergill. indeed, mr. fothergill was useful to the duke. "mr. robarts," he said, "i am very happy to have the pleasure of meeting you--very happy, indeed. i have often heard of you from our friend sowerby." mark bowed, and said that he was delighted to have the honour of making mr. fothergill's acquaintance. "i am commissioned by the duke of omnium," continued mr. fothergill, "to say how glad he will be if you will join his grace's party at gatherum castle, next week. the bishop will be there, and indeed nearly the whole set who are here now. the duke would have written when he heard that you were to be at chaldicotes; but things were hardly quite arranged then, so his grace has left it for me to tell you how happy he will be to make your acquaintance in his own house. i have spoken to sowerby," continued mr. fothergill, "and he very much hopes that you will be able to join us." mark felt that his face became red when this proposition was made to him. the party in the county to which he properly belonged--he and his wife, and all that made him happy and respectable--looked upon the duke of omnium with horror and amazement; and now he had absolutely received an invitation to the duke's house! a proposition was made to him that he should be numbered among the duke's friends! and though in one sense he was sorry that the proposition was made to him, yet in another he was proud of it. it is not every young man, let his profession be what it may, who can receive overtures of friendship from dukes without some elation. mark, too, had risen in the world, as far as he had yet risen, by knowing great people; and he certainly had an ambition to rise higher. i will not degrade him by calling him a tuft-hunter; but he undoubtedly had a feeling that the paths most pleasant for a clergyman's feet were those which were trodden by the great ones of the earth. nevertheless, at the moment he declined the duke's invitation. he was very much flattered, he said, but the duties of his parish would require him to return direct from chaldicotes to framley. "you need not give me an answer to-night, you know," said mr. fothergill. "before the week is past, we will talk it over with sowerby and the bishop. it will be a thousand pities, mr. robarts, if you will allow me to say so, that you should neglect such an opportunity of knowing his grace." when mark went to bed, his mind was still set against going to the duke's; but, nevertheless, he did feel that it was a pity that he should not do so. after all, was it necessary that he should obey lady lufton in all things? chapter iv. a matter of conscience. it is no doubt very wrong to long after a naughty thing. but nevertheless we all do so. one may say that hankering after naughty things is the very essence of the evil into which we have been precipitated by adam's fall. when we confess that we are all sinners, we confess that we all long after naughty things. and ambition is a great vice--as mark antony told us a long time ago--a great vice, no doubt, if the ambition of the man be with reference to his own advancement, and not to the advancement of others. but then, how many of us are there who are not ambitious in this vicious manner? and there is nothing viler than the desire to know great people--people of great rank, i should say; nothing worse than the hunting of titles and worshipping of wealth. we all know this, and say it every day of our lives. but presuming that a way into the society of park lane was open to us, and a way also into that of bedford row, how many of us are there who would prefer bedford row because it is so vile to worship wealth and title? i am led into these rather trite remarks by the necessity of putting forward some sort of excuse for that frame of mind in which the rev. mark robarts awoke on the morning after his arrival at chaldicotes. and i trust that the fact of his being a clergyman will not be allowed to press against him unfairly. clergymen are subject to the same passions as other men; and, as far as i can see, give way to them, in one line or in another, almost as frequently. every clergyman should, by canonical rule, feel a personal disinclination to a bishopric; but yet we do not believe that such personal disinclination is generally very strong. mark's first thoughts when he woke on that morning flew back to mr. fothergill's invitation. the duke had sent a special message to say how peculiarly glad he, the duke, would be to make acquaintance with him, the parson! how much of this message had been of mr. fothergill's own manufacture, that mark robarts did not consider. he had obtained a living at an age when other young clergymen are beginning to think of a curacy, and he had obtained such a living as middle-aged parsons in their dreams regard as a possible paradise for their old years. of course he thought that all these good things had been the results of his own peculiar merits. of course he felt that he was different from other parsons,--more fitted by nature for intimacy with great persons, more urbane, more polished, and more richly endowed with modern clerical well-to-do aptitudes. he was grateful to lady lufton for what she had done for him; but perhaps not so grateful as he should have been. at any rate he was not lady lufton's servant, nor even her dependant. so much he had repeated to himself on many occasions, and had gone so far as to hint the same idea to his wife. in his career as parish priest he must in most things be the judge of his own actions--and in many also it was his duty to be the judge of those of his patroness. the fact of lady lufton having placed him in the living, could by no means make her the proper judge of his actions. this he often said to himself; and he said as often that lady lufton certainly had a hankering after such a judgment-seat. of whom generally did prime ministers and official bigwigs think it expedient to make bishops and deans? was it not, as a rule, of those clergymen who had shown themselves able to perform their clerical duties efficiently, and able also to take their place with ease in high society? he was very well off certainly at framley; but he could never hope for anything beyond framley, if he allowed himself to regard lady lufton as a bugbear. putting lady lufton and her prejudices out of the question, was there any reason why he ought not to accept the duke's invitation? he could not see that there was any such reason. if any one could be a better judge on such a subject than himself, it must be his bishop. and it was clear that the bishop wished him to go to gatherum castle. the matter was still left open to him. mr. fothergill had especially explained that; and therefore his ultimate decision was as yet within his own power. such a visit would cost him some money, for he knew that a man does not stay at great houses without expense; and then, in spite of his good income, he was not very flush of money. he had been down this year with lord lufton in scotland. perhaps it might be more prudent for him to return home. but then an idea came to him that it behoved him as a man and a priest to break through that framley thraldom under which he felt that he did to a certain extent exist. was it not the fact that he was about to decline this invitation from fear of lady lufton? and if so, was that a motive by which he ought to be actuated? it was incumbent on him to rid himself of that feeling. and in this spirit he got up and dressed. there was hunting again on that day; and as the hounds were to meet near chaldicotes, and to draw some coverts lying on the verge of the chace, the ladies were to go in carriages through the drives of the forest, and mr. robarts was to escort them on horseback. indeed it was one of those hunting-days got up rather for the ladies than for the sport. great nuisances they are to steady, middle-aged hunting men; but the young fellows like them because they have thereby an opportunity of showing off their sporting finery, and of doing a little flirtation on horseback. the bishop, also, had been minded to be of the party; so, at least, he had said on the previous evening; and a place in one of the carriages had been set apart for him: but since that, he and mrs. proudie had discussed the matter in private, and at breakfast his lordship declared that he had changed his mind. mr. sowerby was one of those men who are known to be very poor--as poor as debt can make a man--but who, nevertheless, enjoy all the luxuries which money can give. it was believed that he could not live in england out of jail but for his protection as a member of parliament; and yet it seemed that there was no end to his horses and carriages, his servants and retinue. he had been at this work for a great many years, and practice, they say, makes perfect. such companions are very dangerous. there is no cholera, no yellow-fever, no small-pox more contagious than debt. if one lives habitually among embarrassed men, one catches it to a certainty. no one had injured the community in this way more fatally than mr. sowerby. but still he carried on the game himself; and now on this morning carriages and horses thronged at his gate, as though he were as substantially rich as his friend the duke of omnium. "robarts, my dear fellow," said mr. sowerby, when they were well under way down one of the glades of the forest,--for the place where the hounds met was some four or five miles from the house of chaldicotes,--"ride on with me a moment. i want to speak to you; and if i stay behind we shall never get to the hounds." so mark, who had come expressly to escort the ladies, rode on alongside of mr. sowerby in his pink coat. "my dear fellow, fothergill tells me that you have some hesitation about going to gatherum castle." "well, i did decline, certainly. you know i am not a man of pleasure, as you are. i have some duties to attend to." "gammon!" said mr. sowerby; and as he said it he looked with a kind of derisive smile into the clergyman's face. "it is easy enough to say that, sowerby; and perhaps i have no right to expect that you should understand me." "ah, but i do understand you; and i say it is gammon. i would be the last man in the world to ridicule your scruples about duty, if this hesitation on your part arose from any such scruple. but answer me honestly, do you not know that such is not the case?" "i know nothing of the kind." "ah, but i think you do. if you persist in refusing this invitation will it not be because you are afraid of making lady lufton angry? i do not know what there can be in that woman that she is able to hold both you and lufton in leading-strings." robarts, of course, denied the charge and protested that he was not to be taken back to his own parsonage by any fear of lady lufton. but though he made such protest with warmth, he knew that he did so ineffectually. sowerby only smiled and said that the proof of the pudding was in the eating. "what is the good of a man keeping a curate if it be not to save him from that sort of drudgery?" he asked. "drudgery! if i were a drudge how could i be here to-day?" "well, robarts, look here. i am speaking now, perhaps, with more of the energy of an old friend than circumstances fully warrant; but i am an older man than you, and as i have a regard for you i do not like to see you throw up a good game when it is in your hands." "oh, as far as that goes, sowerby, i need hardly tell you that i appreciate your kindness." "if you are content," continued the man of the world, "to live at framley all your life, and to warm yourself in the sunshine of the dowager there, why, in such case, it may perhaps be useless for you to extend the circle of your friends; but if you have higher ideas than these, i think you will be very wrong to omit the present opportunity of going to the duke's. i never knew the duke go so much out of his way to be civil to a clergyman as he has done in this instance." "i am sure i am very much obliged to him." "the fact is, that you may, if you please, make yourself popular in the county; but you cannot do it by obeying all lady lufton's behests. she is a dear old woman, i am sure." "she is, sowerby; and you would say so, if you knew her." "i don't doubt it; but it would not do for you or me to live exactly according to her ideas. now, here, in this case, the bishop of the diocese is to be one of the party, and he has, i believe, already expressed a wish that you should be another." "he asked me if i were going." "exactly; and archdeacon grantly will be there." "will he?" asked mark. now, that would be a great point gained, for archdeacon grantly was a close friend of lady lufton. "so i understand from fothergill. indeed, it will be very wrong of you not to go, and i tell you so plainly; and what is more, when you talk about your duty--you having a curate as you have--why, it is gammon." these last words he spoke looking back over his shoulder as he stood up in his stirrups, for he had caught the eye of the huntsman, who was surrounded by his hounds, and was now trotting on to join him. during a great portion of the day, mark found himself riding by the side of mrs. proudie, as that lady leaned back in her carriage. and mrs. proudie smiled on him graciously, though her daughter would not do so. mrs. proudie was fond of having an attendant clergyman; and as it was evident that mr. robarts lived among nice people--titled dowagers, members of parliament, and people of that sort--she was quite willing to instal him as a sort of honorary chaplain _pro tem_. "i'll tell you what we have settled, mrs. harold smith and i," said mrs. proudie to him. "this lecture at barchester will be so late on saturday evening, that you had all better come and dine with us." mark bowed and thanked her, and declared that he should be very happy to make one of such a party. even lady lufton could not object to this, although she was not especially fond of mrs. proudie. "and then they are to sleep at the hotel. it will really be too late for ladies to think of going back so far at this time of the year. i told mrs. harold smith, and miss dunstable, too, that we could manage to make room at any rate for them. but they will not leave the other ladies; so they go to the hotel for that night. but, mr. robarts, the bishop will never allow you to stay at the inn, so of course you will take a bed at the palace." it immediately occurred to mark that as the lecture was to be given on saturday evening, the next morning would be sunday; and, on that sunday, he would have to preach at chaldicotes. "i thought they were all going to return the same night," said he. "well, they did intend it; but you see mrs. smith is afraid." "i should have to get back here on the sunday morning, mrs. proudie." "ah, yes, that is bad--very bad, indeed. no one dislikes any interference with the sabbath more than i do. indeed, if i am particular about anything it is about that. but some works are works of necessity, mr. robarts; are they not? now you must necessarily be back at chaldicotes on sunday morning!" and so the matter was settled. mrs. proudie was very firm in general in the matter of sabbath-day observances; but when she had to deal with such persons as mrs. harold smith, it was expedient that she should give way a little. "you can start as soon as it's daylight, you know, if you like it, mr. robarts," said mrs. proudie. there was not much to boast of as to the hunting, but it was a very pleasant day for the ladies. the men rode up and down the grass roads through the chace, sometimes in the greatest possible hurry as though they never could go quick enough; and then the coachmen would drive very fast also, though they did not know why, for a fast pace of movement is another of those contagious diseases. and then again the sportsmen would move at an undertaker's pace, when the fox had traversed and the hounds would be at a loss to know which was the hunt and which was the heel; and then the carriage also would go slowly, and the ladies would stand up and talk. and then the time for lunch came; and altogether the day went by pleasantly enough. "and so that's hunting, is it?" said miss dunstable. "yes, that's hunting," said mr. sowerby. "i did not see any gentleman do anything that i could not do myself, except there was one young man slipped off into the mud; and i shouldn't like that." "but there was no breaking of bones, was there, my dear?" said mrs. harold smith. "and nobody caught any foxes," said miss dunstable. "the fact is, mrs. smith, that i don't think much more of their sport than i do of their business. i shall take to hunting a pack of hounds myself after this." "do, my dear, and i'll be your whipper-in. i wonder whether mrs. proudie would join us." "i shall be writing to the duke to-night," said mr. fothergill to mark, as they were all riding up to the stable-yard together. "you will let me tell his grace that you will accept his invitation--will you not?" "upon my word, the duke is very kind," said mark. "he is very anxious to know you, i can assure you," said fothergill. what could a young flattered fool of a parson do, but say that he would go? mark did say that he would go; and in the course of the evening his friend mr. sowerby congratulated him, and the bishop joked with him and said that he knew that he would not give up good company so soon; and miss dunstable said she would make him her chaplain as soon as parliament would allow quack doctors to have such articles--an allusion which mark did not understand, till he learned that miss dunstable was herself the proprietress of the celebrated oil of lebanon, invented by her late respected father, and patented by him with such wonderful results in the way of accumulated fortune; and mrs. proudie made him quite one of their party, talking to him about all manner of church subjects; and then at last, even miss proudie smiled on him, when she learned that he had been thought worthy of a bed at a duke's castle. and all the world seemed to be open to him. but he could not make himself happy that evening. on the next morning he must write to his wife; and he could already see the look of painful sorrow which would fall upon his fanny's brow when she learned that her husband was going to be a guest at the duke of omnium's. and he must tell her to send him money, and money was scarce. and then, as to lady lufton, should he send her some message, or should he not? in either case he must declare war against her. and then did he not owe everything to lady lufton? and thus in spite of all his triumphs he could not get himself to bed in a happy frame of mind. on the next day, which was friday, he postponed the disagreeable task of writing. saturday would do as well; and on saturday morning, before they all started for barchester, he did write. and his letter ran as follows:-- chaldicotes, -- november, --. dearest love,--you will be astonished when i tell you how gay we all are here, and what further dissipations are in store for us. the arabins, as you supposed, are not of our party; but the proudies are,--as you supposed also. your suppositions are always right. and what will you think when i tell you that i am to sleep at the palace on saturday? you know that there is to be a lecture in barchester on that day. well; we must all go, of course, as harold smith, one of our set here, is to give it. and now it turns out that we cannot get back the same night because there is no moon; and mrs. bishop would not allow that my cloth should be contaminated by an hotel;--very kind and considerate, is it not? but i have a more astounding piece of news for you than this. there is to be a great party at gatherum castle next week, and they have talked me over into accepting an invitation which the duke sent expressly to me. i refused at first; but everybody here said that my doing so would be so strange; and then they all wanted to know my reason. when i came to render it, i did not know what reason i had to give. the bishop is going, and he thought it very odd that i should not go also, seeing that i was asked. i know what my own darling will think, and i know that she will not be pleased, and i must put off my defence till i return to her from this ogre-land,--if ever i do get back alive. but joking apart, fanny, i think that i should have been wrong to stand out, when so much was said about it. i should have been seeming to take upon myself to sit in judgment upon the duke. i doubt if there be a single clergyman in the diocese, under fifty years of age, who would have refused the invitation under such circumstances,--unless it be crawley, who is so mad on the subject that he thinks it almost wrong to take a walk out of his own parish. i must stay at gatherum castle over sunday week--indeed, we only go there on friday. i have written to jones about the duties. i can make it up to him, as i know he wishes to go into wales at christmas. my wanderings will all be over then, and he may go for a couple of months if he pleases. i suppose you will take my classes in the school on sunday, as well as your own; but pray make them have a good fire. if this is too much for you, make mrs. podgens take the boys. indeed i think that will be better. of course you will tell her ladyship of my whereabouts. tell her from me, that as regards the bishop, as well as regarding another great personage, the colour has been laid on perhaps a little too thickly. not that lady lufton would ever like him. make her understand that my going to the duke's has almost become a matter of conscience with me. i have not known how to make it appear that it would be right for me to refuse, without absolutely making a party matter of it. i saw that it would be said, that i, coming from lady lufton's parish, could not go to the duke of omnium's. this i did not choose. i find that i shall want a little more money before i leave here, five or ten pounds--say ten pounds. if you cannot spare it, get it from davis. he owes me more than that, a good deal. and now, god bless and preserve you, my own love. kiss my darling bairns for papa, and give them my blessing. always and ever your own, m. r. and then there was written, on an outside scrap which was folded round the full-written sheet of paper, "make it as smooth at framley court as possible." however strong, and reasonable, and unanswerable the body of mark's letter may have been, all his hesitation, weakness, doubt, and fear, were expressed in this short postscript. chapter v. amantium irÆ amoris integratio. and now, with my reader's consent, i will follow the postman with that letter to framley; not by its own circuitous route indeed, or by the same mode of conveyance; for that letter went into barchester by the courcy night mail-cart, which, on its road, passes through the villages of uffley and chaldicotes, reaching barchester in time for the up mail-train to london. by that train, the letter was sent towards the metropolis as far as the junction of the barset branch line, but there it was turned in its course, and came down again by the main line as far as silverbridge; at which place, between six and seven in the morning, it was shouldered by the framley footpost messenger, and in due course delivered at the framley parsonage exactly as mrs. robarts had finished reading prayers to the four servants. or, i should say rather, that such would in its usual course have been that letter's destiny. as it was, however, it reached silverbridge on sunday, and lay there till the monday, as the framley people have declined their sunday post. and then again, when the letter was delivered at the parsonage, on that wet monday morning, mrs. robarts was not at home. as we are all aware, she was staying with her ladyship at framley court. "oh, but it's mortial wet," said the shivering postman as he handed in that and the vicar's newspaper. the vicar was a man of the world, and took the _jupiter_. "come in, robin postman, and warm theeself awhile," said jemima the cook, pushing a stool a little to one side, but still well in front of the big kitchen fire. "well, i dudna jist know how it'll be. the wery 'edges 'as eyes and tells on me in silverbridge, if i so much as stops to pick a blackberry." "there bain't no hedges here, mon, nor yet no blackberries; so sit thee down and warm theeself. that's better nor blackberries i'm thinking," and she handed him a bowl of tea with a slice of buttered toast. robin postman took the proffered tea, put his dripping hat on the ground, and thanked jemima cook. "but i dudna jist know how it'll be," said he; "only it do pour so tarnation heavy." which among us, o my readers, could have withstood that temptation? such was the circuitous course of mark's letter; but as it left chaldicotes on saturday evening, and reached mrs. robarts on the following morning, or would have done, but for that intervening sunday, doing all its peregrinations during the night, it may be held that its course of transport was not inconveniently arranged. we, however, will travel by a much shorter route. robin, in the course of his daily travels, passed, first the post-office at framley, then the framley court back entrance, and then the vicar's house, so that on this wet morning jemima cook was not able to make use of his services in transporting this letter back to her mistress; for robin had got another village before him, expectant of its letters. "why didn't thee leave it, mon, with mr. applejohn at the court?" mr. applejohn was the butler who took the letter-bag. "thee know'st as how missus was there." and then robin, mindful of the tea and toast, explained to her courteously how the law made it imperative on him to bring the letter to the very house that was indicated, let the owner of the letter be where she might; and he laid down the law very satisfactorily with sundry long-worded quotations. not to much effect, however, for the housemaid called him an oaf; and robin would decidedly have had the worst of it had not the gardener come in and taken his part. "they women knows nothin', and understands nothin'," said the gardener. "give us hold of the letter. i'll take it up to the house. it's the master's fist." and then robin postman went on one way, and the gardener, he went the other. the gardener never disliked an excuse for going up to the court gardens, even on so wet a day as this. mrs. robarts was sitting over the drawing-room fire with lady meredith, when her husband's letter was brought to her. the framley court letter-bag had been discussed at breakfast; but that was now nearly an hour since, and lady lufton, as was her wont, was away in her own room writing her own letters, and looking after her own matters: for lady lufton was a person who dealt in figures herself, and understood business almost as well as harold smith. and on that morning she also had received a letter which had displeased her not a little. whence arose this displeasure neither mrs. robarts nor lady meredith knew; but her ladyship's brow had grown black at breakfast time; she had bundled up an ominous-looking epistle into her bag without speaking of it, and had left the room immediately that breakfast was over. "there's something wrong," said sir george. "mamma does fret herself so much about ludovic's money matters," said lady meredith. ludovic was lord lufton,--ludovic lufton, baron lufton of lufton, in the county of oxfordshire. "and yet i don't think lufton gets much astray," said sir george, as he sauntered out of the room. "well, justy; we'll put off going then till to-morrow; but remember, it must be the first train." lady meredith said she would remember, and then they went into the drawing-room, and there mrs. robarts received her letter. fanny, when she read it, hardly at first realized to herself the idea that her husband, the clergyman of framley, the family clerical friend of lady lufton's establishment, was going to stay with the duke of omnium. it was so thoroughly understood at framley court that the duke and all belonging to him was noxious and damnable. he was a whig, he was a bachelor, he was a gambler, he was immoral in every way, he was a man of no church principle, a corrupter of youth, a sworn foe of young wives, a swallower up of small men's patrimonies; a man whom mothers feared for their sons, and sisters for their brothers; and worse again, whom fathers had cause to fear for their daughters, and brothers for their sisters;--a man who, with his belongings, dwelt, and must dwell, poles asunder from lady lufton and her belongings! and it must be remembered that all these evil things were fully believed by mrs. robarts. could it really be that her husband was going to dwell in the halls of apollyon, to shelter himself beneath the wings of this very lucifer? a cloud of sorrow settled upon her face, and then she read the letter again very slowly, not omitting the tell-tale postscript. "oh, justinia!" at last she said. "what, have you got bad news, too?" "i hardly know how to tell you what has occurred. there; i suppose you had better read it;" and she handed her husband's epistle to lady meredith,--keeping back, however, the postscript. "what on earth will her ladyship say now?" said lady meredith, as she folded the paper, and replaced it in the envelope. "what had i better do, justinia? how had i better tell her?" and then the two ladies put their heads together, bethinking themselves how they might best deprecate the wrath of lady lufton. it had been arranged that mrs. robarts should go back to the parsonage after lunch, and she had persisted in her intention after it had been settled that the merediths were to stay over that evening. lady meredith now advised her friend to carry out this determination without saying anything about her husband's terrible iniquities, and then to send the letter up to lady lufton as soon as she reached the parsonage. "mamma will never know that you received it here," said lady meredith. but mrs. robarts would not consent to this. such a course seemed to her to be cowardly. she knew that her husband was doing wrong; she felt that he knew it himself; but still it was necessary that she should defend him. however terrible might be the storm, it must break upon her own head. so she at once went up and tapped at lady lufton's private door; and as she did so lady meredith followed her. "come in," said lady lufton, and the voice did not sound soft and pleasant. when they entered, they found her sitting at her little writing table, with her head resting on her arm, and that letter which she had received that morning was lying open on the table before her. indeed there were two letters now there, one from a london lawyer to herself, and the other from her son to that london lawyer. it needs only be explained that the subject of those letters was the immediate sale of that outlying portion of the lufton property in oxfordshire, as to which mr. sowerby once spoke. lord lufton had told the lawyer that the thing must be done at once, adding that his friend robarts would have explained the whole affair to his mother. and then the lawyer had written to lady lufton, as indeed was necessary; but unfortunately lady lufton had not hitherto heard a word of the matter. in her eyes the sale of family property was horrible; the fact that a young man with some fifteen or twenty thousand a year should require subsidiary money was horrible; that her own son should have not written to her himself was horrible; and it was also horrible that her own pet, the clergyman whom she had brought there to be her son's friend, should be mixed up in the matter,--should be cognizant of it while she was not cognizant,--should be employed in it as a go-between and agent in her son's bad courses. it was all horrible, and lady lufton was sitting there with a black brow and an uneasy heart. as regarded our poor parson, we may say that in this matter he was blameless, except that he had hitherto lacked the courage to execute his friend's commission. "what is it, fanny?" said lady lufton as soon as the door was opened; "i should have been down in half-an-hour, if you wanted me, justinia." "fanny has received a letter which makes her wish to speak to you at once," said lady meredith. "what letter, fanny?" poor fanny's heart was in her mouth; she held it in her hand, but had not yet quite made up her mind whether she would show it bodily to lady lufton. "from mr. robarts," she said. "well; i suppose he is going to stay another week at chaldicotes. for my part i should be as well pleased;" and lady lufton's voice was not friendly, for she was thinking of that farm in oxfordshire. the imprudence of the young is very sore to the prudence of their elders. no woman could be less covetous, less grasping than lady lufton; but the sale of a portion of the old family property was to her as the loss of her own heart's blood. "here is the letter, lady lufton; perhaps you had better read it;" and fanny handed it to her, again keeping back the postscript. she had read and re-read the letter downstairs, but could not make out whether her husband had intended her to show it. from the line of the argument she thought that he must have done so. at any rate he said for himself more than she could say for him, and so, probably, it was best that her ladyship should see it. lady lufton took it, and read it, and her face grew blacker and blacker. her mind was set against the writer before she began it, and every word in it tended to make her feel more estranged from him. "oh, he is going to the palace, is he?--well; he must choose his own friends. harold smith one of his party! it's a pity, my dear, he did not see miss proudie before he met you, he might have lived to be the bishop's chaplain. gatherum castle! you don't mean to tell me that he is going there? then i tell you fairly, fanny, that i have done with him." "oh, lady lufton, don't say that," said mrs. robarts, with tears in her eyes. "mamma, mamma, don't speak in that way," said lady meredith. "but my dear, what am i to say? i must speak in that way. you would not wish me to speak falsehoods, would you? a man must choose for himself, but he can't live with two different sets of people; at least, not if i belong to one and the duke of omnium to the other. the bishop going indeed! if there be anything that i hate it is hypocrisy." "there is no hypocrisy in that, lady lufton." "but i say there is, fanny. very strange, indeed! 'put off his defence!' why should a man need any defence to his wife if he acts in a straightforward way? his own language condemns him: 'wrong to stand out!' now, will either of you tell me that mr. robarts would really have thought it wrong to refuse that invitation? i say that that is hypocrisy. there is no other word for it." by this time the poor wife, who had been in tears, was wiping them away and preparing for action. lady lufton's extreme severity gave her courage. she knew that it behoved her to fight for her husband when he was thus attacked. had lady lufton been moderate in her remarks mrs. robarts would not have had a word to say. "my husband may have been ill-judged," she said, "but he is no hypocrite." "very well, my dear, i dare say you know better than i; but to me it looks extremely like hypocrisy: eh, justinia?" "oh, mamma, do be moderate." "moderate! that's all very well. how is one to moderate one's feelings when one has been betrayed?" "you do not mean that mr. robarts has betrayed you?" said the wife. "oh, no; of course not." and then she went on reading the letter: "'seem to have been standing in judgment upon the duke.' might he not use the same argument as to going into any house in the kingdom, however infamous? we must all stand in judgment one upon another in that sense. 'crawley!' yes; if he were a little more like mr. crawley it would be a good thing for me, and for the parish, and for you too, my dear. god forgive me for bringing him here; that's all." "lady lufton, i must say that you are very hard upon him--very hard. i did not expect it from such a friend." "my dear, you ought to know me well enough to be sure that i shall speak my mind. 'written to jones'--yes; it is easy enough to write to poor jones. he had better write to jones, and bid him do the whole duty. then he can go and be the duke's domestic chaplain." "i believe my husband does as much of his own duty as any clergyman in the whole diocese," said mrs. robarts, now again in tears. "and you are to take his work in the school; you and mrs. podgens. what with his curate and his wife and mrs. podgens, i don't see why he should come back at all." "oh, mamma," said justinia, "pray, pray don't be so harsh to her." "let me finish it, my dear;--oh, here i come. 'tell her ladyship my whereabouts.' he little thought you'd show me this letter." "didn't he?" said mrs. robarts, putting out her hand to get it back, but in vain. "i thought it was for the best; i did indeed." "i had better finish it now, if you please. what is this? how does he dare send his ribald jokes to me in such a matter? no, i do not suppose i ever shall like dr. proudie; i have never expected it. a matter of conscience with him! well--well, well. had i not read it myself, i could not have believed it of him. i would not positively have believed it. 'coming from my parish he could not go to the duke of omnium!' and it is what i would wish to have said. people fit for this parish should not be fit for the duke of omnium's house. and i had trusted that he would have this feeling more strongly than any one else in it. i have been deceived--that's all." "he has done nothing to deceive you, lady lufton." "i hope he will not have deceived you, my dear. 'more money;' yes, it is probable that he will want more money. there is your letter, fanny. i am very sorry for it. i can say nothing more." and she folded up the letter and gave it back to mrs. robarts. "i thought it right to show it you," said mrs. robarts. "it did not much matter whether you did or no; of course i must have been told." "he especially begs me to tell you." "why, yes; he could not very well have kept me in the dark in such a matter. he could not neglect his own work, and go and live with gamblers and adulterers at the duke of omnium's without my knowing it." and now fanny robarts's cup was full, full to the overflowing. when she heard these words she forgot all about lady lufton, all about lady meredith, and remembered only her husband,--that he was her husband, and, in spite of his faults, a good and loving husband;--and that other fact also she remembered, that she was his wife. "lady lufton," she said, "you forget yourself in speaking in that way of my husband." "what!" said her ladyship; "you are to show me such a letter as that, and i am not to tell you what i think?" "not if you think such hard things as that. even you are not justified in speaking to me in that way, and i will not hear it." "heighty-tighty!" said her ladyship. "whether or no he is right in going to the duke of omnium's, i will not pretend to judge. he is the judge of his own actions, and neither you nor i." "and when he leaves you with the butcher's bill unpaid and no money to buy shoes for the children, who will be the judge then?" "not you, lady lufton. if such bad days should ever come--and neither you nor i have a right to expect them--i will not come to you in my troubles; not after this." "very well, my dear. you may go to the duke of omnium if that suits you better." "fanny, come away," said lady meredith. "why should you try to anger my mother?" "i don't want to anger her; but i won't hear him abused in that way without speaking up for him. if i don't defend him, who will? lady lufton has said terrible things about him; and they are not true." "oh, fanny!" said justinia. "very well, very well!" said lady lufton. "this is the sort of return that one gets." "i don't know what you mean by return, lady lufton: but would you wish me to stand by quietly and hear such things said of my husband? he does not live with such people as you have named. he does not neglect his duties. if every clergyman were as much in his parish, it would be well for some of them. and in going to such a house as the duke of omnium's it does make a difference that he goes there in company with the bishop. i can't explain why, but i know that it does." "especially when the bishop is coupled up with the devil, as mr. robarts has done," said lady lufton; "he can join the duke with them and then they'll stand for the three graces, won't they, justinia?" and lady lufton laughed a bitter little laugh at her own wit. "i suppose i may go now, lady lufton." "oh, yes, certainly, my dear." "i am sorry if i have made you angry with me; but i will not allow any one to speak against mr. robarts without answering them. you have been very unjust to him; and even though i do anger you, i must say so." "come, fanny; this is too bad," said lady lufton. "you have been scolding me for the last half-hour because i would not congratulate you on this new friend that your husband has made, and now you are going to begin it all over again. that is more than i can stand. if you have nothing else particular to say, you might as well leave me." and lady lufton's face as she spoke was unbending, severe, and harsh. mrs. robarts had never before been so spoken to by her old friend; indeed she had never been so spoken to by any one, and she hardly knew how to bear herself. "very well, lady lufton," she said; "then i will go. good-bye." "good-bye," said lady lufton, and turning herself to her table she began to arrange her papers. fanny had never before left framley court to go back to her own parsonage without a warm embrace. now she was to do so without even having her hand taken. had it come to this, that there was absolutely to be a quarrel between them,--a quarrel for ever? "fanny is going, you know, mamma," said lady meredith. "she will be home before you are down again." "i cannot help it, my dear. fanny must do as she pleases. i am not to be the judge of her actions. she has just told me so." mrs. robarts had said nothing of the kind, but she was far too proud to point this out. so with a gentle step she retreated through the door, and then lady meredith, having tried what a conciliatory whisper with her mother would do, followed her. alas, the conciliatory whisper was altogether ineffectual! the two ladies said nothing as they descended the stairs, but when they had regained the drawing-room they looked with blank horror into each other's faces. what were they to do now? of such a tragedy as this they had had no remotest preconception. was it absolutely the case that fanny robarts was to walk out of lady lufton's house as a declared enemy,--she who, before her marriage as well as since, had been almost treated as an adopted daughter of the family? "oh, fanny, why did you answer my mother in that way?" said lady meredith. "you saw that she was vexed. she had other things to vex her besides this about mr. robarts." "and would not you answer any one who attacked sir george?" "no, not my own mother. i would let her say what she pleased, and leave sir george to fight his own battles." "ah, but it is different with you. you are her daughter, and sir george--she would not dare to speak in that way as to sir george's doings." "indeed she would, if it pleased her. i am sorry i let you go up to her." "it is as well that it should be over, justinia. as those are her thoughts about mr. robarts, it is quite as well that we should know them. even for all that i owe to her, and all the love i bear to you, i will not come to this house if i am to hear my husband abused;--not into any house." "my dearest fanny, we all know what happens when two angry people get together." "i was not angry when i went up to her; not in the least." "it is no good looking back. what are we to do now, fanny?" "i suppose i had better go home," said mrs. robarts. "i will go and put my things up, and then i will send james for them." "wait till after lunch, and then you will be able to kiss my mother before you leave us." "no, justinia; i cannot wait. i must answer mr. robarts by this post, and i must think what i have to say to him. i could not write that letter here, and the post goes at four." and mrs. robarts got up from her chair, preparatory to her final departure. "i shall come to you before dinner," said lady meredith; "and if i can bring you good tidings, i shall expect you to come back here with me. it is out of the question that i should go away from framley leaving you and my mother at enmity with each other." to this mrs. robarts made no answer; and in a very few minutes afterwards she was in her own nursery, kissing her children, and teaching the elder one to say something about papa. but, even as she taught him, the tears stood in her eyes, and the little fellow knew that everything was not right. and there she sat till about two, doing little odds and ends of things for the children, and allowing that occupation to stand as an excuse to her for not commencing her letter. but then there remained only two hours to her, and it might be that the letter would be difficult in the writing--would require thought and changes, and must needs be copied, perhaps more than once. as to the money, that she had in the house--as much, at least, as mark now wanted, though the sending of it would leave her nearly penniless. she could, however, in case of personal need, resort to davis as desired by him. so she got out her desk in the drawing-room and sat down and wrote her letter. it was difficult, though she found that it hardly took so long as she expected. it was difficult, for she felt bound to tell him the truth; and yet she was anxious not to spoil all his pleasure among his friends. she told him, however, that lady lufton was very angry, "unreasonably angry, i must say," she put in, in order to show that she had not sided against him. "and indeed we have quite quarrelled, and this has made me unhappy, as it will you, dearest; i know that. but we both know how good she is at heart, and justinia thinks that she had other things to trouble her; and i hope it will all be made up before you come home; only, dearest mark, pray do not be longer than you said in your last letter." and then there were three or four paragraphs about the babies and two about the schools, which i may as well omit. she had just finished her letter, and was carefully folding it for its envelope, with the two whole five-pound notes imprudently placed within it, when she heard a footstep on the gravel path which led up from a small wicket to the front-door. the path ran near the drawing-room window, and she was just in time to catch a glimpse of the last fold of a passing cloak. "it is justinia," she said to herself; and her heart became disturbed at the idea of again discussing the morning's adventure. "what am i to do," she had said to herself before, "if she wants me to beg her pardon? i will not own before her that he is in the wrong." and then the door opened--for the visitor made her entrance without the aid of any servant--and lady lufton herself stood before her. "fanny," she said at once, "i have come to beg your pardon." "oh, lady lufton!" "i was very much harassed when you came to me just now;--by more things than one, my dear. but, nevertheless, i should not have spoken to you of your husband as i did, and so i have come to beg your pardon." mrs. robarts was past answering by the time that this was said,--past answering at least in words; so she jumped up and, with her eyes full of tears, threw herself into her old friend's arms. "oh, lady lufton!" she sobbed forth again. "you will forgive me, won't you?" said her ladyship, as she returned her young friend's caress. "well, that's right. i have not been at all happy since you left my den this morning, and i don't suppose you have. but, fanny, dearest, we love each other too well and know each other too thoroughly, to have a long quarrel, don't we?" "oh, yes, lady lufton." "of course we do. friends are not to be picked up on the road-side every day; nor are they to be thrown away lightly. and now sit down, my love, and let us have a little talk. there, i must take my bonnet off. you have pulled the strings so that you have almost choked me." and lady lufton deposited her bonnet on the table and seated herself comfortably in the corner of the sofa. "my dear," she said, "there is no duty which any woman owes to any other human being at all equal to that which she owes to her husband, and, therefore, you were quite right to stand up for mr. robarts this morning." upon this mrs. robarts said nothing, but she got her hand within that of her ladyship and gave it a slight squeeze. "and i loved you for what you were doing all the time. i did, my dear; though you were a little fierce, you know. even justinia admits that, and she has been at me ever since you went away. and indeed, i did not know that it was in you to look in that way out of those pretty eyes of yours." "oh, lady lufton!" "but i looked fierce enough too myself, i dare say; so we'll say nothing more about that; will we? but now, about this good man of yours?" "dear lady lufton, you must forgive him." "well: as you ask me, i will. we'll have nothing more said about the duke, either now or when he comes back; not a word. let me see--he's to be back;--when is it?" "wednesday week, i think." "ah, wednesday. well, tell him to come and dine up at the house on wednesday. he'll be in time, i suppose, and there shan't be a word said about this horrid duke." "i am so much obliged to you, lady lufton." "but look here, my dear; believe me, he's better off without such friends." "oh, i know he is; much better off." "well, i'm glad you admit that, for i thought you seemed to be in favour of the duke." "oh, no, lady lufton." "that's right, then. and now, if you'll take my advice, you'll use your influence, as a good, dear sweet wife as you are, to prevent his going there any more. i'm an old woman and he is a young man, and it's very natural that he should think me behind the times. i'm not angry at that. but he'll find that it's better for him, better for him in every way, to stick to his old friends. it will be better for his peace of mind, better for his character as a clergyman, better for his pocket, better for his children and for you,--and better for his eternal welfare. the duke is not such a companion as he should seek;--nor if he is sought, should he allow himself to be led away." and then lady lufton ceased, and fanny robarts kneeling at her feet sobbed, with her face hidden on her friend's knees. she had not a word now to say as to her husband's capability of judging for himself. "and now i must be going again; but justinia has made me promise,--promise, mind you, most solemnly, that i would have you back to dinner to-night,--by force if necessary. it was the only way i could make my peace with her; so you must not leave me in the lurch." of course, fanny said that she would go and dine at framley court. "and you must not send that letter, by any means," said her ladyship as she was leaving the room, poking with her umbrella at the epistle, which lay directed on mrs. robarts's desk. "i can understand very well what it contains. you must alter it altogether, my dear." and then lady lufton went. mrs. robarts instantly rushed to her desk and tore open her letter. she looked at her watch and it was past four. she had hardly begun another when the postman came. "oh, mary," she said, "do make him wait. if he'll wait a quarter of an hour i'll give him a shilling." "there's no need of that, ma'am. let him have a glass of beer." "very well, mary; but don't give him too much, for fear he should drop the letters about. i'll be ready in ten minutes." and in five minutes she had scrawled a very different sort of a letter. but he might want the money immediately, so she would not delay it for a day. chapter vi. mr. harold smith's lecture. on the whole the party at chaldicotes was very pleasant, and the time passed away quickly enough. mr. robarts's chief friend there, independently of mr. sowerby, was miss dunstable, who seemed to take a great fancy to him, whereas she was not very accessible to the blandishments of mr. supplehouse, nor more specially courteous even to her host than good manners required of her. but then mr. supplehouse and mr. sowerby were both bachelors, while mark robarts was a married man. with mr. sowerby robarts had more than one communication respecting lord lufton and his affairs, which he would willingly have avoided had it been possible. sowerby was one of those men who are always mixing up business with pleasure, and who have usually some scheme in their mind which requires forwarding. men of this class have, as a rule, no daily work, no regular routine of labour; but it may be doubted whether they do not toil much more incessantly than those who have. "lufton is so dilatory," mr. sowerby said. "why did he not arrange this at once, when he promised it? and then he is so afraid of that old woman at framley court. well, my dear fellow, say what you will; she is an old woman and she'll never be younger. but do write to lufton and tell him that this delay is inconvenient to me; he'll do anything for you, i know." mark said that he would write, and, indeed, did do so; but he did not at first like the tone of the conversation into which he was dragged. it was very painful to him to hear lady lufton called an old woman, and hardly less so to discuss the propriety of lord lufton's parting with his property. this was irksome to him, till habit made it easy. but by degrees his feelings became less acute, and he accustomed himself to his friend sowerby's mode of talking. and then on the saturday afternoon they all went over to barchester. harold smith during the last forty-eight hours had become crammed to overflowing with sarawak, labuan, new guinea, and the salomon islands. as is the case with all men labouring under temporary specialities, he for the time had faith in nothing else, and was not content that any one near him should have any other faith. they called him viscount papua and baron borneo; and his wife, who headed the joke against him, insisted on having her title. miss dunstable swore that she would wed none but a south sea islander; and to mark was offered the income and duties of bishop of spices. nor did the proudie family set themselves against these little sarcastic quips with any overwhelming severity. it is sweet to unbend oneself at the proper opportunity, and this was the proper opportunity for mrs. proudie's unbending. no mortal can be seriously wise at all hours; and in these happy hours did that usually wise mortal, the bishop, lay aside for awhile his serious wisdom. "we think of dining at five to-morrow, my lady papua," said the facetious bishop; "will that suit his lordship and the affairs of state? he! he! he!" and the good prelate laughed at the fun. how pleasantly young men and women of fifty or thereabouts can joke and flirt and poke their fun about, laughing and holding their sides, dealing in little innuendoes and rejoicing in nicknames when they have no mentors of twenty-five or thirty near them to keep them in order. the vicar of framley might perhaps have been regarded as such a mentor, were it not for that capability of adapting himself to the company immediately around him on which he so much piqued himself. he therefore also talked to my lady papua, and was jocose about the baron,--not altogether to the satisfaction of mr. harold smith himself. for mr. harold smith was in earnest and did not quite relish these jocundities. he had an idea that he could in about three months talk the british world into civilizing new guinea, and that the world of barsetshire would be made to go with him by one night's efforts. he did not understand why others should be less serious, and was inclined to resent somewhat stiffly the amenities of our friend mark. "we must not keep the baron waiting," said mark, as they were preparing to start for barchester. "i don't know what you mean by the baron, sir," said harold smith. "but perhaps the joke will be against you, when you are getting up into your pulpit to-morrow and sending the hat round among the clodhoppers of chaldicotes." "those who live in glass houses shouldn't throw stones; eh, baron?" said miss dunstable. "mr. robarts's sermon will be too near akin to your lecture to allow of his laughing." "if we can do nothing towards instructing the outer world till it's done by the parsons," said harold smith, "the outer world will have to wait a long time, i fear." "nobody can do anything of that kind short of a member of parliament and a would-be minister," whispered mrs. harold. and so they were all very pleasant together, in spite of a little fencing with edge-tools; and at three o'clock the _cortége_ of carriages started for barchester, that of the bishop, of course, leading the way. his lordship, however, was not in it. "mrs. proudie, i'm sure you'll let me go with you," said miss dunstable, at the last moment, as she came down the big stone steps. "i want to hear the rest of that story about mr. slope." now this upset everything. the bishop was to have gone with his wife, mrs. smith, and mark robarts; and mr. sowerby had so arranged matters that he could have accompanied miss dunstable in his phaeton. but no one ever dreamed of denying miss dunstable anything. of course mark gave way; but it ended in the bishop declaring that he had no special predilection for his own carriage, which he did in compliance with a glance from his wife's eye. then other changes of course followed, and, at last, mr. sowerby and harold smith were the joint occupants of the phaeton. the poor lecturer, as he seated himself, made some remark such as those he had been making for the last two days--for out of a full heart the mouth speaketh. but he spoke to an impatient listener. "d---- the south sea islanders," said mr. sowerby. "you'll have it all your own way in a few minutes, like a bull in a china-shop; but for heaven's sake let us have a little peace till that time comes." it appeared that mr. sowerby's little plan of having miss dunstable for his companion was not quite insignificant; and, indeed, it may be said that but few of his little plans were so. at the present moment he flung himself back in the carriage and prepared for sleep. he could further no plan of his by a _tête-à-tête_ conversation with his brother-in-law. and then mrs. proudie began her story about mr. slope, or rather recommenced it. she was very fond of talking about this gentleman, who had once been her pet chaplain but was now her bitterest foe; and in telling the story, she had sometimes to whisper to miss dunstable, for there were one or two fie-fie little anecdotes about a married lady, not altogether fit for young mr. robarts's ears. but mrs. harold smith insisted on having them out loud, and miss dunstable would gratify that lady in spite of mrs. proudie's winks. "what, kissing her hand, and he a clergyman!" said miss dunstable. "i did not think they ever did such things, mr. robarts." "still waters run deepest," said mrs. harold smith. "hush-h-h," looked, rather than spoke, mrs. proudie. "the grief of spirit which that bad man caused me nearly broke my heart, and all the while, you know, he was courting--" and then mrs. proudie whispered a name. "what, the dean's wife!" shouted miss dunstable, in a voice which made the coachman of the next carriage give a chuck to his horses as he overheard her. "the archdeacon's sister-in-law!" screamed mrs. harold smith. "what might he not have attempted next?" said miss dunstable. "she wasn't the dean's wife then, you know," said mrs. proudie, explaining. "well, you've a gay set in the chapter, i must say," said miss dunstable. "you ought to make one of them in barchester, mr. robarts." "only perhaps mrs. robarts might not like it," said mrs. harold smith. "and then the schemes which he tried on with the bishop!" said mrs. proudie. "it's all fair in love and war, you know," said miss dunstable. "but he little knew whom he had to deal with when he began that," said mrs. proudie. "the bishop was too many for him," suggested mrs. harold smith, very maliciously. "if the bishop was not, somebody else was; and he was obliged to leave barchester in utter disgrace. he has since married the wife of some tallow-chandler." "the wife!" said miss dunstable. "what a man!" "widow, i mean; but it's all one to him." "the gentleman was clearly born when venus was in the ascendant," said mrs. smith. "you clergymen usually are, i believe, mr. robarts." so that mrs. proudie's carriage was by no means the dullest as they drove into barchester that day; and by degrees our friend mark became accustomed to his companions, and before they reached the palace he acknowledged to himself that miss dunstable was very good fun. we cannot linger over the bishop's dinner, though it was very good of its kind; and as mr. sowerby contrived to sit next to miss dunstable, thereby overturning a little scheme made by mr. supplehouse, he again shone forth in unclouded good humour. but mr. harold smith became impatient immediately on the withdrawal of the cloth. the lecture was to begin at seven, and according to his watch that hour had already come. he declared that sowerby and supplehouse were endeavouring to delay matters in order that the barchesterians might become vexed and impatient; and so the bishop was not allowed to exercise his hospitality in true episcopal fashion. "you forget, sowerby," said supplehouse, "that the world here for the last fortnight has been looking forward to nothing else." "the world shall be gratified at once," said mrs. harold, obeying a little nod from mrs. proudie. "come, my dear," and she took hold of miss dunstable's arm, "don't let us keep barchester waiting. we shall be ready in a quarter-of-an-hour, shall we not, mrs. proudie?" and so they sailed off. "and we shall have time for one glass of claret," said the bishop. "there; that's seven by the cathedral," said harold smith, jumping up from his chair as he heard the clock. "if the people have come it would not be right in me to keep them waiting, and i shall go." "just one glass of claret, mr. smith, and we'll be off," said the bishop. "those women will keep me an hour," said harold, filling his glass, and drinking it standing. "they do it on purpose." he was thinking of his wife, but it seemed to the bishop as though his guest were actually speaking of mrs. proudie. it was rather late when they all found themselves in the big room of the mechanics' institute; but i do not know whether this on the whole did them any harm. most of mr. smith's hearers, excepting the party from the palace, were barchester tradesmen with their wives and families; and they waited, not impatiently, for the big people. and then the lecture was gratis, a fact which is always borne in mind by an englishman when he comes to reckon up and calculate the way in which he is treated. when he pays his money, then he takes his choice; he may be impatient or not as he likes. his sense of justice teaches him so much, and in accordance with that sense he usually acts. so the people on the benches rose graciously when the palace party entered the room. seats for them had been kept in the front. there were three arm-chairs, which were filled, after some little hesitation, by the bishop, mrs. proudie, and miss dunstable--mrs. smith positively declining to take one of them; though, as she admitted, her rank as lady papua of the islands did give her some claim. and this remark, as it was made quite out loud, reached mr. smith's ears as he stood behind a little table on a small raised dais, holding his white kid gloves; and it annoyed him and rather put him out. he did not like that joke about lady papua. and then the others of the party sat upon a front bench covered with red cloth. "we shall find this very hard and very narrow about the second hour," said mr. sowerby, and mr. smith on his dais again overheard the words, and dashed his gloves down to the table. he felt that all the room would hear it. and there were one or two gentlemen on the second seat who shook hands with some of our party. there was mr. thorne of ullathorne, a good-natured old bachelor, whose residence was near enough to barchester to allow of his coming in without much personal inconvenience; and next to him was mr. harding, an old clergyman of the chapter, with whom mrs. proudie shook hands very graciously, making way for him to seat himself close behind her if he would so please. but mr. harding did not so please. having paid his respects to the bishop he returned quietly to the side of his old friend mr. thorne, thereby angering mrs. proudie, as might easily be seen by her face. and mr. chadwick also was there, the episcopal man of business for the diocese; but he also adhered to the two gentlemen above named. and now that the bishop and the ladies had taken their places, mr. harold smith relifted his gloves and again laid them down, hummed three times distinctly, and then began. "it was," he said, "the most peculiar characteristic of the present era in the british islands that those who were high placed before the world in rank, wealth, and education were willing to come forward and give their time and knowledge without fee or reward, for the advantage and amelioration of those who did not stand so high in the social scale." and then he paused for a moment, during which mrs. smith remarked to miss dunstable that that was pretty well for a beginning; and miss dunstable replied, "that as for herself she felt very grateful to rank, wealth, and education." mr. sowerby winked to mr. supplehouse, who opened his eyes very wide and shrugged his shoulders. but the barchesterians took it all in good part and gave the lecturer the applause of their hands and feet. and then, well pleased, he recommenced--"i do not make these remarks with reference to myself--" "i hope he's not going to be modest," said miss dunstable. "it will be quite new if he is," replied mrs. smith. "--so much as to many noble and talented lords and members of the lower house who have lately from time to time devoted themselves to this good work." and then he went through a long list of peers and members of parliament, beginning, of course, with lord boanerges, and ending with mr. green walker, a young gentleman who had lately been returned by his uncle's interest for the borough of crewe junction, and had immediately made his entrance into public life by giving a lecture on the grammarians of the latin language as exemplified at eton school. "on the present occasion," mr. smith continued, "our object is to learn something as to those grand and magnificent islands which lie far away, beyond the indies, in the southern ocean; the lands of which produce rich spices and glorious fruits, and whose seas are imbedded with pearls and corals,--papua and the philippines, borneo and the moluccas. my friends, you are familiar with your maps, and you know the track which the equator makes for itself through those distant oceans." and then many heads were turned down, and there was a rustle of leaves; for not a few of those "who stood not so high in the social scale" had brought their maps with them, and refreshed their memories as to the whereabouts of these wondrous islands. and then mr. smith also, with a map in his hand, and pointing occasionally to another large map which hung against the wall, went into the geography of the matter. "we might have found that out from our atlases, i think, without coming all the way to barchester," said that unsympathizing helpmate, mrs. harold, very cruelly--most illogically too, for there be so many things which we could find out ourselves by search, but which we never do find out unless they be specially told us; and why should not the latitude and longitude of labuan be one--or rather two of these things? and then, when he had duly marked the path of the line through borneo, celebes, and gilolo, through the macassar strait and the molucca passage, mr. harold smith rose to a higher flight. "but what," said he, "avails all that god can give to man, unless man will open his hand to receive the gift? and what is this opening of the hand but the process of civilization--yes, my friends, the process of civilization? these south sea islanders have all that a kind providence can bestow on them; but that all is as nothing without education. that education and that civilization it is for you to bestow upon them--yes, my friends, for you; for you, citizens of barchester as you are." and then he paused again, in order that the feet and hands might go to work. the feet and hands did go to work, during which mr. smith took a slight drink of water. he was now quite in his element and had got into the proper way of punching the table with his fists. a few words dropping from mr. sowerby did now and again find their way to his ears, but the sound of his own voice had brought with it the accustomed charm, and he ran on from platitude to truism, and from truism back to platitude, with an eloquence that was charming to himself. "civilization," he exclaimed, lifting up his eyes and hands to the ceiling. "oh, civilization--" "there will not be a chance for us now for the next hour and a half," said mr. supplehouse, groaning. harold smith cast one eye down at him, but it immediately flew back to the ceiling. "oh, civilization! thou that ennoblest mankind and makest him equal to the gods, what is like unto thee?" here mrs. proudie showed evident signs of disapprobation, which no doubt would have been shared by the bishop, had not that worthy prelate been asleep. but mr. smith continued unobservant; or, at any rate, regardless. "what is like unto thee? thou art the irrigating stream which makest fertile the barren plain. till thou comest all is dark and dreary; but at thy advent the noontide sun shines out, the earth gives forth her increase; the deep bowels of the rocks render up their tribute. forms which were dull and hideous become endowed with grace and beauty, and vegetable existence rises to the scale of celestial life. then, too, genius appears clad in a panoply of translucent armour, grasping in his hand the whole terrestrial surface, and making every rood of earth subservient to his purposes;--genius, the child of civilization, the mother of the arts!" the last little bit, taken from the pedigree of progress, had a great success, and all barchester went to work with its hands and feet;--all barchester, except that ill-natured aristocratic front-row together with the three arm-chairs at the corner of it. the aristocratic front-row felt itself to be too intimate with civilization to care much about it; and the three arm-chairs, or rather that special one which contained mrs. proudie, considered that there was a certain heathenness, a pagan sentimentality almost amounting to infidelity, contained in the lecturer's remarks, with which she, a pillar of the church, could not put up, seated as she was now in public conclave. "it is to civilization that we must look," continued mr. harold smith, descending from poetry to prose as a lecturer well knows how, and thereby showing the value of both--"for any material progress in these islands; and--" "and to christianity," shouted mrs. proudie, to the great amazement of the assembled people and to the thorough wakening of the bishop, who, jumping up in his chair at the sound of the well-known voice, exclaimed, "certainly, certainly." "hear, hear, hear," said those on the benches who particularly belonged to mrs. proudie's school of divinity in the city, and among the voices was distinctly heard that of a new verger in whose behalf she had greatly interested herself. "oh, yes, christianity of course," said harold smith, upon whom the interruption did not seem to operate favourably. "christianity and sabbath-day observance," exclaimed mrs. proudie, who, now that she had obtained the ear of the public, seemed well inclined to keep it. "let us never forget that these islanders can never prosper unless they keep the sabbath holy." poor mr. smith, having been so rudely dragged from his high horse, was never able to mount it again, and completed the lecture in a manner not at all comfortable to himself. he had there, on the table before him, a huge bundle of statistics with which he had meant to convince the reason of his hearers after he had taken full possession of their feelings. but they fell very dull and flat. and at the moment when he was interrupted he was about to explain that that material progress to which he had alluded could not be attained without money; and that it behoved them, the people of barchester before him, to come forward with their purses like men and brothers. he did also attempt this; but from the moment of that fatal onslaught from the arm-chair, it was clear to him and to every one else, that mrs. proudie was now the hero of the hour. his time had gone by, and the people of barchester did not care a straw for his appeal. from these causes the lecture was over full twenty minutes earlier than any one had expected, to the great delight of messrs. sowerby and supplehouse, who, on that evening, moved and carried a vote of thanks to mrs. proudie. for they had gay doings yet before they went to their beds. "robarts, here one moment," mr. sowerby said, as they were standing at the door of the mechanics' institute. "don't you go off with mr. and mrs. bishop. we are going to have a little supper at the dragon of wantly, and after what we have gone through upon my word we want it. you can tell one of the palace servants to let you in." mark considered the proposal wistfully. he would fain have joined the supper-party had he dared; but he, like many others of his cloth, had the fear of mrs. proudie before his eyes. and a very merry supper they had; but poor mr. harold smith was not the merriest of the party. chapter vii. sunday morning. it was, perhaps, quite as well on the whole for mark robarts, that he did not go to that supper party. it was eleven o'clock before they sat down, and nearly two before the gentlemen were in bed. it must be remembered that he had to preach, on the coming sunday morning, a charity sermon on behalf of a mission to mr. harold smith's islanders; and, to tell the truth, it was a task for which he had now very little inclination. when first invited to do this, he had regarded the task seriously enough, as he always did regard such work, and he completed his sermon for the occasion before he left framley; but, since that, an air of ridicule had been thrown over the whole affair, in which he had joined without much thinking of his own sermon, and this made him now heartily wish that he could choose a discourse upon any other subject. he knew well that the very points on which he had most insisted, were those which had drawn most mirth from miss dunstable and mrs. smith, and had oftenest provoked his own laughter; and how was he now to preach on those matters in a fitting mood, knowing, as he would know, that those two ladies would be looking at him, would endeavour to catch his eye, and would turn him into ridicule as they had already turned the lecturer? in this he did injustice to one of the ladies, unconsciously. miss dunstable, with all her aptitude for mirth, and we may almost fairly say for frolic, was in no way inclined to ridicule religion or anything which she thought to appertain to it. it may be presumed that among such things she did not include mrs. proudie, as she was willing enough to laugh at that lady; but mark, had he known her better, might have been sure that she would have sat out his sermon with perfect propriety. as it was, however, he did feel considerable uneasiness; and in the morning he got up early with the view of seeing what might be done in the way of emendation. he cut out those parts which referred most specially to the islands,--he rejected altogether those names over which they had all laughed together so heartily,--and he inserted a string of general remarks, very useful, no doubt, which he flattered himself would rob his sermon of all similarity to harold smith's lecture. he had, perhaps, hoped, when writing it, to create some little sensation; but now he would be quite satisfied if it passed without remark. but his troubles for that sunday were destined to be many. it had been arranged that the party at the hotel should breakfast at eight, and start at half-past eight punctually, so as to enable them to reach chaldicotes in ample time to arrange their dresses before they went to church. the church stood in the grounds, close to that long formal avenue of lime-trees, but within the front gates. their walk, therefore, after reaching mr. sowerby's house, would not be long. mrs. proudie, who was herself an early body, would not hear of her guest--and he a clergyman--going out to the inn for his breakfast on a sunday morning. as regarded that sabbath-day journey to chaldicotes, to that she had given her assent, no doubt with much uneasiness of mind; but let them have as little desecration as possible. it was, therefore, an understood thing that he was to return with his friends; but he should not go without the advantage of family prayers and family breakfast. and so mrs. proudie on retiring to rest gave the necessary orders, to the great annoyance of her household. to the great annoyance, at least, of her servants! the bishop himself did not make his appearance till a much later hour. he in all things now supported his wife's rule; in all things, now, i say; for there had been a moment, when in the first flush and pride of his episcopacy other ideas had filled his mind. now, however, he gave no opposition to that good woman with whom providence had blessed him; and in return for such conduct that good woman administered in all things to his little personal comforts. with what surprise did the bishop now look back upon that unholy war which he had once been tempted to wage against the wife of his bosom? nor did any of the miss proudies show themselves at that early hour. they, perhaps, were absent on a different ground. with them mrs. proudie had not been so successful as with the bishop. they had wills of their own which became stronger and stronger every day. of the three with whom mrs. proudie was blessed one was already in a position to exercise that will in a legitimate way over a very excellent young clergyman in the diocese, the rev. optimus grey; but the other two, having as yet no such opening for their powers of command, were perhaps a little too much inclined to keep themselves in practice at home. but at half-past seven punctually mrs. proudie was there, and so was the domestic chaplain; so was mr. robarts, and so were the household servants,--all excepting one lazy recreant. "where is thomas?" said she of the argus eyes, standing up with her book of family prayers in her hand. "so please you, ma'am, tummas be bad with the tooth-ache." "tooth-ache!" exclaimed mrs. proudie; but her eyes said more terrible things than that. "let thomas come to me before church." and then they proceeded to prayers. these were read by the chaplain, as it was proper and decent that they should be; but i cannot but think that mrs. proudie a little exceeded her office in taking upon herself to pronounce the blessing when the prayers were over. she did it, however, in a clear, sonorous voice, and perhaps with more personal dignity than was within the chaplain's compass. mrs. proudie was rather stern at breakfast, and the vicar of framley felt an unaccountable desire to get out of the house. in the first place she was not dressed with her usual punctilious attention to the proprieties of her high situation. it was evident that there was to be a further toilet before she sailed up the middle of the cathedral choir. she had on a large loose cap with no other strings than those which were wanted for tying it beneath her chin, a cap with which the household and the chaplain were well acquainted, but which seemed ungracious in the eyes of mr. robarts after all the well-dressed holiday doings of the last week. she wore also a large, loose, dark-coloured wrapper, which came well up round her neck, and which was not buoyed out, as were her dresses in general, with an under mechanism of petticoats. it clung to her closely, and added to the inflexibility of her general appearance. and then she had encased her feet in large carpet slippers, which no doubt were comfortable, but which struck her visitor as being strange and unsightly. "do you find a difficulty in getting your people together for early morning prayers?" she said, as she commenced her operations with the teapot. "i can't say that i do," said mark. "but then we are seldom so early as this." "parish clergymen should be early, i think," said she. "it sets a good example in the village." "i am thinking of having morning prayers in the church," said mr. robarts. "that's nonsense," said mrs. proudie, "and usually means worse than nonsense. i know what that comes to. if you have three services on sunday and domestic prayers at home, you do very well." and so saying she handed him his cup. "but i have not three services on sunday, mrs. proudie." "then i think you should have. where can the poor people be so well off on sundays as in church? the bishop intends to express a very strong opinion on this subject in his next charge; and then i am sure you will attend to his wishes." to this mark made no answer, but devoted himself to his egg. "i suppose you have not a very large establishment at framley?" asked mrs. proudie. "what, at the parsonage?" "yes; you live at the parsonage, don't you?" "certainly--well; not very large, mrs. proudie; just enough to do the work, make things comfortable, and look after the children." "it is a very fine living," said she; "very fine. i don't remember that we have anything so good ourselves,--except it is plumstead, the archdeacon's place. he has managed to butter his bread pretty well." "his father was bishop of barchester." "oh, yes, i know all about him. only for that he would barely have risen to be an archdeacon, i suspect. let me see; yours is £ , is it not, mr. robarts? and you such a young man! i suppose you have insured your life highly." "pretty well, mrs. proudie." "and then, too, your wife had some little fortune, had she not? we cannot all fall on our feet like that; can we, mr. white?" and mrs. proudie in her playful way appealed to the chaplain. mrs. proudie was an imperious woman; but then so also was lady lufton; and it may therefore be said that mr. robarts ought to have been accustomed to feminine domination; but as he sat there munching his toast he could not but make a comparison between the two. lady lufton in her little attempts sometimes angered him; but he certainly thought, comparing the lay lady and the clerical together, that the rule of the former was the lighter and the pleasanter. but then lady lufton had given him a living and a wife, and mrs. proudie had given him nothing. immediately after breakfast mr. robarts escaped to the dragon of wantly, partly because he had had enough of the matutinal mrs. proudie, and partly also in order that he might hurry his friends there. he was already becoming fidgety about the time, as harold smith had been on the preceding evening, and he did not give mrs. smith credit for much punctuality. when he arrived at the inn he asked if they had done breakfast, and was immediately told that not one of them was yet down. it was already half-past eight, and they ought to be now under weigh on the road. he immediately went to mr. sowerby's room, and found that gentleman shaving himself. "don't be a bit uneasy," said mr. sowerby. "you and smith shall have my phaeton, and those horses will take you there in an hour. not, however, but what we shall all be in time. we'll send round to the whole party and ferret them out." and then mr. sowerby, having evoked manifold aid with various peals of the bell, sent messengers, male and female, flying to all the different rooms. "i think i'll hire a gig and go over at once," said mark. "it would not do for me to be late, you know." "it won't do for any of us to be late; and it's all nonsense about hiring a gig. it would be just throwing a sovereign away, and we should pass you on the road. go down and see that the tea is made, and all that; and make them have the bill ready; and, robarts, you may pay it too, if you like it. but i believe we may as well leave that to baron borneo--eh?" and then mark did go down and make the tea, and he did order the bill; and then he walked about the room, looking at his watch, and nervously waiting for the footsteps of his friends. and as he was so employed, he bethought himself whether it was fit that he should be so doing on a sunday morning; whether it was good that he should be waiting there, in painful anxiety, to gallop over a dozen miles in order that he might not be too late with his sermon; whether his own snug room at home, with fanny opposite to him, and his bairns crawling on the floor, with his own preparations for his own quiet service, and the warm pressure of lady lufton's hand when that service should be over, was not better than all this. he could not afford not to know harold smith, and mr. sowerby, and the duke of omnium, he had said to himself. he had to look to rise in the world, as other men did. but what pleasure had come to him as yet from these intimacies? how much had he hitherto done towards his rising? to speak the truth he was not over well pleased with himself, as he made mrs. harold smith's tea and ordered mr. sowerby's mutton-chops on that sunday morning. at a little after nine they all assembled; but even then he could not make the ladies understand that there was any cause for hurry; at least mrs. smith, who was the leader of the party, would not understand it. when mark again talked of hiring a gig, miss dunstable indeed said that she would join him; and seemed to be so far earnest in the matter that mr. sowerby hurried through his second egg in order to prevent such a catastrophe. and then mark absolutely did order the gig; whereupon mrs. smith remarked that in such case she need not hurry herself; but the waiter brought up word that all the horses of the hotel were out, excepting one pair, neither of which could go in single harness. indeed, half of their stable establishment was already secured by mr. sowerby's own party. "then let me have the pair," said mark, almost frantic with delay. "nonsense, robarts; we are ready now. he won't want them, james. come, supplehouse, have you done?" "then i am to hurry myself, am i?" said mrs. harold smith. "what changeable creatures you men are! may i be allowed half a cup more tea, mr. robarts?" mark, who was now really angry, turned away to the window. there was no charity in these people, he said to himself. they knew the nature of his distress, and yet they only laughed at him. he did not, perhaps, reflect that he had assisted in the joke against harold smith on the previous evening. "james," said he, turning to the waiter, "let me have that pair of horses immediately, if you please." "yes, sir; round in fifteen minutes, sir: only ned, sir, the post-boy, sir; i fear he's at his breakfast, sir; but we'll have him here in less than no time, sir!" but before ned and the pair were there, mrs. smith had absolutely got her bonnet on, and at ten they started. mark did share the phaeton with harold smith, but the phaeton did not go any faster than the other carriages. they led the way, indeed, but that was all; and when the vicar's watch told him that it was eleven, they were still a mile from chaldicotes' gate, although the horses were in a lather of steam; and they had only just entered the village when the church bells ceased to be heard. "come, you are in time, after all," said harold smith. "better time than i was last night." robarts could not explain to him that the entry of a clergyman into church, of a clergyman who is going to assist in the service, should not be made at the last minute, that it should be staid and decorous, and not done in scrambling haste, with running feet and scant breath. "i suppose we'll stop here, sir," said the postilion, as he pulled up his horses short at the church-door, in the midst of the people who were congregated together ready for the service. but mark had not anticipated being so late, and said at first that it was necessary that he should go on to the house; then, when the horses had again begun to move, he remembered that he could send for his gown, and as he got out of the carriage he gave his orders accordingly. and now the other two carriages were there, and so there was a noise and confusion at the door--very unseemly, as mark felt it; and the gentlemen spoke in loud voices, and mrs. harold smith declared that she had no prayer-book, and was much too tired to go in at present;--she would go home and rest herself, she said. and two other ladies of the party did so also, leaving miss dunstable to go alone;--for which, however, she did not care one button. and then one of the party, who had a nasty habit of swearing, cursed at something as he walked in close to mark's elbow; and so they made their way up the church as the absolution was being read, and mark robarts felt thoroughly ashamed of himself. if his rising in the world brought him in contact with such things as these, would it not be better for him that he should do without rising? his sermon went off without any special notice. mrs. harold smith was not there, much to his satisfaction; and the others who were did not seem to pay any special attention to it. the subject had lost its novelty, except with the ordinary church congregation, the farmers and labourers of the parish; and the "quality" in the squire's great pew were content to show their sympathy by a moderate subscription. miss dunstable, however, gave a ten-pound note, which swelled up the sum total to a respectable amount--for such a place as chaldicotes. "and now i hope i may never hear another word about new guinea," said mr. sowerby, as they all clustered round the drawing-room fire after church. "that subject may be regarded as having been killed and buried; eh, harold?" "certainly murdered last night," said mrs. harold, "by that awful woman, mrs. proudie." "i wonder you did not make a dash at her and pull her out of the arm-chair," said miss dunstable. "i was expecting it, and thought that i should come to grief in the scrimmage." "i never knew a lady do such a brazen-faced thing before," said miss kerrigy, a travelling friend of miss dunstable's. "nor i--never; in a public place, too," said dr. easyman, a medical gentleman, who also often accompanied her. "as for brass," said mr. supplehouse, "she would never stop at anything for want of that. it is well that she has enough, for the poor bishop is but badly provided." "i hardly heard what it was she did say," said harold smith; "so i could not answer her, you know. something about sundays, i believe." "she hoped you would not put the south sea islanders up to sabbath travelling," said mr. sowerby. "and specially begged that you would establish lord's-day schools," said mrs. smith; and then they all went to work and picked mrs. proudie to pieces from the top ribbon of her cap down to the sole of her slipper. "and then she expects the poor parsons to fall in love with her daughters. that's the hardest thing of all," said miss dunstable. but, on the whole, when our vicar went to bed he did not feel that he had spent a profitable sunday. chapter viii. gatherum castle. on the tuesday morning mark did receive his wife's letter and the ten-pound note, whereby a strong proof was given of the honesty of the post-office people in barsetshire. that letter, written as it had been in a hurry, while robin post-boy was drinking a single mug of beer,--well, what of it if it was half filled a second time?--was nevertheless eloquent of his wife's love and of her great triumph. i have only half a moment to send you the money [she said], for the postman is here waiting. when i see you i'll explain why i am so hurried. let me know that you get it safe. it is all right now, and lady lufton was here not a minute ago. she did not quite like it; about gatherum castle i mean; but you'll hear _nothing about it_. only remember that _you must dine_ at framley court on wednesday week. _i have promised for you._ you will: won't you, dearest? i shall come and fetch you away if you attempt to stay longer than you have said. but i'm sure you won't. god bless you, my own one! mr. jones gave us the same sermon he preached the second sunday after easter. twice in the same year is too often. god bless you! the children _are quite well_. mark sends a big kiss.--your own f. robarts, as he read this letter and crumpled the note up into his pocket, felt that it was much more satisfactory than he deserved. he knew that there must have been a fight, and that his wife, fighting loyally on his behalf, had got the best of it; and he knew also that her victory had not been owing to the goodness of her cause. he frequently declared to himself that he would not be afraid of lady lufton; but nevertheless these tidings that no reproaches were to be made to him afforded him great relief. on the following friday they all went to the duke's, and found that the bishop and mrs. proudie were there before them; as were also sundry other people, mostly of some note, either in the estimation of the world at large or of that of west barsetshire. lord boanerges was there, an old man who would have his own way in everything, and who was regarded by all men--apparently even by the duke himself--as an intellectual king, by no means of the constitutional kind,--as an intellectual emperor, rather, who took upon himself to rule all questions of mind without the assistance of any ministers whatever. and baron brawl was of the party, one of her majesty's puisne judges, as jovial a guest as ever entered a country house; but given to be rather sharp withal in his jovialities. and there was mr. green walker, a young but rising man, the same who lectured not long since on a popular subject to his constituents at the crewe junction. mr. green walker was a nephew of the marchioness of hartletop, and the marchioness of hartletop was a friend of the duke of omnium's. mr. mark robarts was certainly elated when he ascertained who composed the company of which he had been so earnestly pressed to make a portion. would it have been wise in him to forego this on account of the prejudices of lady lufton? as the guests were so many and so great, the huge front portals of gatherum castle were thrown open, and the vast hall, adorned with trophies--with marble busts from italy and armour from wardour street,--was thronged with gentlemen and ladies, and gave forth unwonted echoes to many a footstep. his grace himself, when mark arrived there with sowerby and miss dunstable--for in this instance miss dunstable did travel in the phaeton while mark occupied a seat in the dicky--his grace himself was at this moment in the drawing-room, and nothing could exceed his urbanity. "oh, miss dunstable," he said, taking that lady by the hand, and leading her up to the fire, "now i feel for the first time that gatherum castle has not been built for nothing." "nobody ever supposed it was, your grace," said miss dunstable. "i am sure the architect did not think so when his bill was paid." and miss dunstable put her toes up on the fender to warm them with as much self-possession as though her father had been a duke also, instead of a quack doctor. "we have given the strictest orders about the parrot," said the duke-- "ah! but i have not brought him after all," said miss dunstable. --"and i have had an aviary built on purpose,--just such as parrots are used to in their own country. well, miss dunstable, i do call that unkind. is it too late to send for him?" "he and dr. easyman are travelling together. the truth was, i could not rob the doctor of his companion." "why? i have had another aviary built for him. i declare, miss dunstable, the honour you are doing me is shorn of half its glory. but the poodle--i still trust in the poodle." "and your grace's trust shall not in that respect be in vain. where is he, i wonder?" and miss dunstable looked round as though she expected that somebody would certainly have brought her dog in after her. "i declare i must go and look for him,--only think if they were to put him among your grace's dogs,--how his morals would be destroyed!" "miss dunstable, is that intended to be personal?" but the lady had turned away from the fire, and the duke was able to welcome his other guests. this he did with much courtesy. "sowerby," he said, "i am glad to find that you have survived the lecture. i can assure you i had fears for you." "i was brought back to life after considerable delay by the administration of tonics at the dragon of wantly. will your grace allow me to present to you mr. robarts, who on that occasion was not so fortunate. it was found necessary to carry him off to the palace, where he was obliged to undergo very vigorous treatment." and then the duke shook hands with mr. robarts, assuring him that he was most happy to make his acquaintance. he had often heard of him since he came into the county; and then he asked after lord lufton, regretting that he had been unable to induce his lordship to come to gatherum castle. "but you had a diversion at the lecture, i am told," continued the duke. "there was a second performer, was there not, who almost eclipsed poor harold smith?" and then mr. sowerby gave an amusing sketch of the little proudie episode. "it has, of course, ruined your brother-in-law for ever as a lecturer," said the duke, laughing. "if so, we shall feel ourselves under the deepest obligations to mrs. proudie," said mr. sowerby. and then harold smith himself came up and received the duke's sincere and hearty congratulations on the success of his enterprise at barchester. mark robarts had now turned away, and his attention was suddenly arrested by the loud voice of miss dunstable, who had stumbled across some very dear friends in her passage through the rooms, and who by no means hid from the public her delight upon the occasion. "well--well--well!" she exclaimed, and then she seized upon a very quiet-looking, well-dressed, attractive young woman who was walking towards her, in company with a gentleman. the gentleman and lady, as it turned out, were husband and wife. "well--well--well! i hardly hoped for this." and then she took hold of the lady and kissed her enthusiastically, and after that grasped both the gentleman's hands, shaking them stoutly. "and what a deal i shall have to say to you!" she went on. "you'll upset all my other plans. but, mary, my dear, how long are you going to stay here? i go--let me see--i forget when, but it's all put down in a book upstairs. but the next stage is at mrs. proudie's. i shan't meet you there, i suppose. and now, frank, how's the governor?" the gentleman called frank declared that the governor was all right--"mad about the hounds, of course, you know." "well, my dear, that's better than the hounds being mad about him, like the poor gentleman they've put into a statue. but talking of hounds, frank, how badly they manage their foxes at chaldicotes! i was out hunting all one day--" "you out hunting!" said the lady called mary. "and why shouldn't i go out hunting? i'll tell you what, mrs. proudie was out hunting, too. but they didn't catch a single fox; and, if you must have the truth, it seemed to me to be rather slow." "you were in the wrong division of the county," said the gentleman called frank. "of course i was. when i really want to practise hunting i'll go to greshamsbury; not a doubt about that." "or to boxall hill," said the lady; "you'll find quite as much zeal there as at greshamsbury." "and more discretion, you should add," said the gentleman. "ha! ha! ha!" laughed miss dunstable; "your discretion indeed! but you have not told me a word about lady arabella." "my mother is quite well," said the gentleman. "and the doctor? by-the-by, my dear, i've had such a letter from the doctor; only two days ago. i'll show it you upstairs to-morrow. but mind, it must be a positive secret. if he goes on in this way he'll get himself into the tower, or coventry, or a blue-book, or some dreadful place." "why; what has he said?" "never you mind, master frank: i don't mean to show you the letter, you may be sure of that. but if your wife will swear three times on a poker and tongs that she won't reveal, i'll show it to her. and so you are quite settled at boxall hill, are you?" "frank's horses are settled; and the dogs nearly so," said frank's wife; "but i can't boast much of anything else yet." "well, there's a good time coming. i must go and change my things now. but, mary, mind you get near me this evening; i have such a deal to say to you." and then miss dunstable marched out of the room. all this had been said in so loud a voice that it was, as a matter of course, overheard by mark robarts--that part of the conversation of course i mean which had come from miss dunstable. and then mark learned that this was young frank gresham of boxall hill, son of old mr. gresham of greshamsbury. frank had lately married a great heiress; a greater heiress, men said, even than miss dunstable; and as the marriage was hardly as yet more than six months old the barsetshire world was still full of it. "the two heiresses seem to be very loving, don't they?" said mr. supplehouse. "birds of a feather flock together, you know. but they did say some little time ago that young gresham was to have married miss dunstable himself." "miss dunstable! why she might almost be his mother," said mark. "that makes but little difference. he was obliged to marry money, and i believe there is no doubt that he did at one time propose to miss dunstable." "i have had a letter from lufton," mr. sowerby said to him the next morning. "he declares that the delay was all your fault. you were to have told lady lufton before he did anything, and he was waiting to write about it till he heard from you. it seems that you never said a word to her ladyship on the subject." "i never did, certainly. my commission from lufton was to break the matter to her when i found her in a proper humour for receiving it. if you knew lady lufton as well as i do, you would know that it is not every day that she would be in a humour for such tidings." "and so i was to be kept waiting indefinitely because you two between you were afraid of an old woman! however i have not a word to say against her, and the matter is settled now." "has the farm been sold?" "not a bit of it. the dowager could not bring her mind to suffer such profanation for the lufton acres, and so she sold five thousand pounds out of the funds and sent the money to lufton as a present;--sent it to him without saying a word, only hoping that it would suffice for his wants. i wish i had a mother, i know." mark found it impossible at the moment to make any remark upon what had been told him, but he felt a sudden qualm of conscience and a wish that he was at framley instead of at gatherum castle at the present moment. he knew a good deal respecting lady lufton's income and the manner in which it was spent. it was very handsome for a single lady, but then she lived in a free and open-handed style; her charities were noble; there was no reason why she should save money, and her annual income was usually spent within the year. mark knew this, and he knew also that nothing short of an impossibility to maintain them would induce her to lessen her charities. she had now given away a portion of her principal to save the property of her son--her son, who was so much more opulent than herself,--upon whose means, too, the world made fewer effectual claims. and mark knew, too, something of the purpose for which this money had gone. there had been unsettled gambling claims between sowerby and lord lufton, originating in affairs of the turf. it had now been going on for four years, almost from the period when lord lufton had become of age. he had before now spoken to robarts on the matter with much bitter anger, alleging that mr. sowerby was treating him unfairly, nay, dishonestly--that he was claiming money that was not due to him; and then he declared more than once that he would bring the matter before the jockey club. but mark, knowing that lord lufton was not clear-sighted in these matters, and believing it to be impossible that mr. sowerby should actually endeavour to defraud his friend, had smoothed down the young lord's anger, and recommended him to get the case referred to some private arbiter. all this had afterwards been discussed between robarts and mr. sowerby himself, and hence had originated their intimacy. the matter was so referred, mr. sowerby naming the referee; and lord lufton, when the matter was given against him, took it easily. his anger was over by that time. "i've been clean done among them," he said to mark, laughing; "but it does not signify; a man must pay for his experience. of course, sowerby thinks it all right; i am bound to suppose so." and then there had been some further delay as to the amount, and part of the money had been paid to a third person, and a bill had been given, and heaven and the jews only know how much money lord lufton had paid in all; and now it was ended by his handing over to some wretched villain of a money-dealer, on behalf of mr. sowerby, the enormous sum of five thousand pounds, which had been deducted from the means of his mother, lady lufton! mark, as he thought of all this, could not but feel a certain animosity against mr. sowerby--could not but suspect that he was a bad man. nay, must he not have known that he was very bad? and yet he continued walking with him through the duke's grounds, still talking about lord lufton's affairs, and still listening with interest to what sowerby told him of his own. "no man was ever robbed as i have been," said he. "but i shall win through yet, in spite of them all. but those jews, mark"--he had become very intimate with him in these latter days--"whatever you do, keep clear of them. why, i could paper a room with their signatures; and yet i never had a claim upon one of them, though they always have claims on me!" i have said above that this affair of lord lufton's was ended; but it now appeared to mark that it was not _quite_ ended. "tell lufton, you know," said sowerby, "that every bit of paper with his name has been taken up, except what that ruffian tozer has. tozer may have one bill, i believe,--something that was not given up when it was renewed. but i'll make my lawyer gumption get that up. it may cost ten pounds or twenty pounds, not more. you'll remember that when you see lufton, will you?" "you'll see lufton in all probability before i shall." "oh, did i not tell you? he's going to framley court at once; you'll find him there when you return." "find him at framley!" "yes; this little _cadeau_ from his mother has touched his filial heart. he is rushing home to framley to pay back the dowager's hard moidores in soft caresses. i wish i had a mother; i know that." and mark still felt that he feared mr. sowerby, but he could not make up his mind to break away from him. and there was much talk of politics just then at the castle. not that the duke joined in it with any enthusiasm. he was a whig--a huge mountain of a colossal whig--all the world knew that. no opponent would have dreamed of tampering with his whiggery, nor would any brother whig have dreamed of doubting it. but he was a whig who gave very little practical support to any set of men, and very little practical opposition to any other set. he was above troubling himself with such sublunar matters. at election time he supported, and always carried, whig candidates; and in return he had been appointed lord lieutenant of the county by one whig minister, and had received the garter from another. but these things were matters of course to a duke of omnium. he was born to be a lord lieutenant and a knight of the garter. but not the less on account of his apathy, or rather quiescence, was it thought that gatherum castle was a fitting place in which politicians might express to each other their present hopes and future aims, and concoct together little plots in a half-serious and half-mocking way. indeed it was hinted that mr. supplehouse and harold smith, with one or two others, were at gatherum for this express purpose. mr. fothergill, too, was a noted politician, and was supposed to know the duke's mind well; and mr. green walker, the nephew of the marchioness, was a young man whom the duke desired to have brought forward. mr. sowerby also was the duke's own member, and so the occasion suited well for the interchange of a few ideas. the then prime minister, angry as many men were with him, had not been altogether unsuccessful. he had brought the russian war to a close, which, if not glorious, was at any rate much more so than englishmen at one time had ventured to hope. and he had had wonderful luck in that indian mutiny. it is true that many of those even who voted with him would declare that this was in no way attributable to him. great men had risen in india and done all that. even his minister there, the governor whom he had sent out, was not allowed in those days any credit for the success which was achieved under his orders. there was great reason to doubt the man at the helm. but nevertheless he had been lucky. there is no merit in a public man like success! but now, when the evil days were well nigh over, came the question whether he had not been too successful. when a man has nailed fortune to his chariot-wheels he is apt to travel about in rather a proud fashion. there are servants who think that their masters cannot do without them; and the public also may occasionally have some such servant. what if this too successful minister were one of them! and then a discreet, commonplace, zealous member of the lower house does not like to be jeered at, when he does his duty by his constituents and asks a few questions. an all-successful minister who cannot keep his triumph to himself, but must needs drive about in a proud fashion, laughing at commonplace zealous members--laughing even occasionally at members who are by no means commonplace, which is outrageous!--may it not be as well to ostracize him for awhile? "had we not better throw in our shells against him?" says mr. harold smith. "let us throw in our shells, by all means," says mr. supplehouse, mindful as juno of his despised charms. and when mr. supplehouse declares himself an enemy, men know how much it means. they know that that much-belaboured head of affairs must succumb to the terrible blows which are now in store for him. "yes, we will throw in our shells." and mr. supplehouse rises from his chair with gleaming eyes. "has not greece as noble sons as him? ay, and much nobler, traitor that he is. we must judge a man by his friends," says mr. supplehouse; and he points away to the east, where our dear allies the french are supposed to live, and where our head of affairs is supposed to have too close an intimacy. they all understand this, even mr. green walker. "i don't know that he is any good to any of us at all, now," says the talented member for the crewe junction. "he's a great deal too uppish to suit my book; and i know a great many people that think so too. there's my uncle--" "he's the best fellow in the world," said mr. fothergill, who felt, perhaps, that that coming revelation about mr. green walker's uncle might not be of use to them; "but the fact is one gets tired of the same man always. one does not like partridge every day. as for me, i have nothing to do with it myself; but i would certainly like to change the dish." "if we're merely to do as we are bid, and have no voice of our own, i don't see what's the good of going to the shop at all," said mr. sowerby. "not the least use," said mr. supplehouse. "we are false to our constituents in submitting to such a dominion." "let's have a change, then," said mr. sowerby. "the matter's pretty much in our own hands." "altogether," said mr. green walker. "that's what my uncle always says." "the manchester men will only be too happy for the chance," said harold smith. "and as for the high and dry gentlemen," said mr. sowerby, "it's not very likely that they will object to pick up the fruit when we shake the tree." "as to picking up the fruit, that's as may be," said mr. supplehouse. was he not the man to save the nation; and if so, why should he not pick up the fruit himself? had not the greatest power in the country pointed him out as such a saviour? what though the country at the present moment needed no more saving, might there not, nevertheless, be a good time coming? were there not rumours of other wars still prevalent--if indeed the actual war then going on was being brought to a close without his assistance by some other species of salvation? he thought of that country to which he had pointed, and of that friend of his enemies, and remembered that there might be still work for a mighty saviour. the public mind was now awake, and understood what it was about. when a man gets into his head an idea that the public voice calls for him, it is astonishing how great becomes his trust in the wisdom of the public. _vox populi vox dei._ "has it not been so always?" he says to himself, as he gets up and as he goes to bed. and then mr. supplehouse felt that he was the master mind there at gatherum castle, and that those there were all puppets in his hand. it is such a pleasant thing to feel that one's friends are puppets, and that the strings are in one's own possession. but what if mr. supplehouse himself were a puppet? some months afterwards, when the much-belaboured head of affairs was in very truth made to retire, when unkind shells were thrown in against him in great numbers, when he exclaimed, "_et tu, brute!_" till the words were stereotyped upon his lips, all men in all places talked much about the great gatherum castle confederation. the duke of omnium, the world said, had taken into his high consideration the state of affairs, and seeing with his eagle's eye that the welfare of his countrymen at large required that some great step should be initiated, he had at once summoned to his mansion many members of the lower house, and some also of the house of lords,--mention was here especially made of the all-venerable and all-wise lord boanerges; and men went on to say that there, in deep conclave, he had made known to them his views. it was thus agreed that the head of affairs, whig as he was, must fall. the country required it, and the duke did his duty. this was the beginning, the world said, of that celebrated confederation, by which the ministry was overturned, and--as the _goody twoshoes_ added,--the country saved. but the _jupiter_ took all the credit to itself; and the _jupiter_ was not far wrong. all the credit was due to the _jupiter_--in that, as in everything else. in the meantime the duke of omnium entertained his guests in the quiet princely style, but did not condescend to have much conversation on politics either with mr. supplehouse or with mr. harold smith. and as for lord boanerges, he spent the morning on which the above-described conversation took place in teaching miss dunstable to blow soap-bubbles on scientific principles. "dear, dear!" said miss dunstable, as sparks of knowledge came flying in upon her mind. "i always thought that a soap-bubble was a soap-bubble, and i never asked the reason why. one doesn't, you know, my lord." "pardon me, miss dunstable," said the old lord, "one does; but nine hundred and ninety-nine do not." "and the nine hundred and ninety-nine have the best of it," said miss dunstable. "what pleasure can one have in a ghost after one has seen the phosphorus rubbed on?" "quite true, my dear lady. 'if ignorance be bliss, 'tis folly to be wise.' it all lies in the 'if.'" then miss dunstable began to sing:-- "'what tho' i trace each herb and flower that sips the morning dew--' --you know the rest, my lord." lord boanerges did know almost everything, but he did not know that; and so miss dunstable went on:-- "'did i not own jehovah's power how vain were all i knew.'" "exactly, exactly, miss dunstable," said his lordship; "but why not own the power and trace the flower as well? perhaps one might help the other." upon the whole i am afraid that lord boanerges got the best of it. but then that is his line. he has been getting the best of it all his life. it was observed by all that the duke was especially attentive to young mr. frank gresham, the gentleman on whom and on whose wife miss dunstable had seized so vehemently. this mr. gresham was the richest commoner in the county, and it was rumoured that at the next election he would be one of the members for the east riding. now the duke had little or nothing to do with the east riding, and it was well known that young gresham would be brought forward as a strong conservative. but, nevertheless, his acres were so extensive and his money so plentiful that he was worth a duke's notice. mr. sowerby also was almost more than civil to him, as was natural, seeing that this very young man by a mere scratch of his pen could turn a scrap of paper into a bank-note of almost fabulous value. "so you have the east barsetshire hounds at boxall hill; have you not?" said the duke. "the hounds are there," said frank. "but i am not the master." "oh! i understood--" "my father has them. but he finds boxall hill more centrical than greshamsbury. the dogs and horses have to go shorter distances." "boxall hill is very centrical." "oh, exactly!" "and your young gorse coverts are doing well?" "pretty well--gorse won't thrive everywhere, i find. i wish it would." "that's just what i say to fothergill; and then where there's much woodland you can't get the vermin to leave it." "but we haven't a tree at boxall hill," said mrs. gresham. "ah, yes; you're new there, certainly; you've enough of it at greshamsbury in all conscience. there's a larger extent of wood there than we have; isn't there, fothergill?" mr. fothergill said that the greshamsbury woods were very extensive, but that, perhaps, he thought-- "oh, ah! i know," said the duke. "the black forest in its old days was nothing to gatherum woods, according to fothergill. and then again, nothing in east barsetshire could be equal to anything in west barsetshire. isn't that it; eh, fothergill?" mr. fothergill professed that he had been brought up in that faith and intended to die in it. "your exotics at boxall hill are very fine, magnificent!" said mr. sowerby. "i'd sooner have one full-grown oak standing in its pride alone," said young gresham, rather grandiloquently, "than all the exotics in the world." "they'll come in due time," said the duke. "but the due time won't be in my days. and so they're going to cut down chaldicotes forest, are they, mr. sowerby?" "well, i can't tell you that. they are going to disforest it. i have been ranger since i was twenty-two, and i don't yet know whether that means cutting down." "not only cutting down, but rooting up," said mr. fothergill. "it's a murderous shame," said frank gresham; "and i will say one thing, i don't think any but a whig government would do it." "ha, ha, ha!" laughed his grace. "at any rate i'm sure of this," he said, "that if a conservative government did do so, the whigs would be just as indignant as you are now." "i'll tell you what you ought to do, mr. gresham," said sowerby: "put in an offer for the whole of the west barsetshire crown property; they will be very glad to sell it." "and we should be delighted to welcome you on this side of the border," said the duke. young gresham did feel rather flattered. there were not many men in the county to whom such an offer could be made without an absurdity. it might be doubted whether the duke himself could purchase the chace of chaldicotes with ready money; but that he, gresham, could do so--he and his wife between them--no man did doubt. and then mr. gresham thought of a former day when he had once been at gatherum castle. he had been poor enough then, and the duke had not treated him in the most courteous manner in the world. how hard it is for a rich man not to lean upon his riches! harder, indeed, than for a camel to go through the eye of a needle. all barsetshire knew--at any rate all west barsetshire--that miss dunstable had been brought down in those parts in order that mr. sowerby might marry her. it was not surmised that miss dunstable herself had had any previous notice of this arrangement, but it was supposed that the thing would turn out as a matter of course. mr. sowerby had no money, but then he was witty, clever, good-looking, and a member of parliament. he lived before the world, represented an old family, and had an old place. how could miss dunstable possibly do better? she was not so young now, and it was time that she should look about her. the suggestion as regarded mr. sowerby was certainly true, and was not the less so as regarded some of mr. sowerby's friends. his sister, mrs. harold smith, had devoted herself to the work, and with this view had run up a dear friendship with miss dunstable. the bishop had intimated, nodding his head knowingly, that it would be a very good thing. mrs. proudie had given in her adherence. mr. supplehouse had been made to understand that it must be a case of "paws off" with him, as long as he remained in that part of the world; and even the duke himself had desired fothergill to manage it. "he owes me an enormous sum of money," said the duke, who held all mr. sowerby's title-deeds, "and i doubt whether the security will be sufficient." "your grace will find the security quite sufficient," said mr. fothergill; "but nevertheless it would be a good match." "very good," said the duke. and then it became mr. fothergill's duty to see that mr. sowerby and miss dunstable became man and wife as speedily as possible. some of the party, who were more wide awake than others, declared that he had made the offer; others, that he was just going to do so; and one very knowing lady went so far at one time as to say that he was making it at that moment. bets also were laid as to the lady's answer, as to the terms of the settlement, and as to the period of the marriage,--of all which poor miss dunstable of course knew nothing. mr. sowerby, in spite of the publicity of his proceedings, proceeded in the matter very well. he said little about it to those who joked with him, but carried on the fight with what best knowledge he had in such matters. but so much it is given to us to declare with certainty, that he had not proposed on the evening previous to the morning fixed for the departure of mark robarts. during the last two days mr. sowerby's intimacy with mark had grown warmer and warmer. he had talked to the vicar confidentially about the doings of these bigwigs now present at the castle, as though there were no other guest there with whom he could speak in so free a manner. he confided, it seemed, much more in mark than in his brother-in-law, harold smith, or in any of his brother members of parliament, and had altogether opened his heart to him in this affair of his anticipated marriage. now mr. sowerby was a man of mark in the world, and all this flattered our young clergyman not a little. on that evening before robarts went away sowerby asked him to come up into his bedroom when the whole party was breaking up, and there got him into an easy-chair while he, sowerby, walked up and down the room. "you can hardly tell, my dear fellow," said he, "the state of nervous anxiety in which this puts me." "why don't you ask her and have done with it? she seems to me to be fond of your society." "ah, it is not that only; there are wheels within wheels;" and then he walked once or twice up and down the room, during which mark thought that he might as well go to bed. "not that i mind telling you everything," said sowerby. "i am infernally hard up for a little ready money just at the present moment. it may be, and indeed i think it will be, the case that i shall be ruined in this matter for the want of it." "could not harold smith give it you?" "ha, ha, ha! you don't know harold smith. did you ever hear of his lending a man a shilling in his life?" "or supplehouse?" "lord love you! you see me and supplehouse together here, and he comes and stays at my house, and all that; but supplehouse and i are no friends. look you here, mark--i would do more for your little finger than for his whole hand, including the pen which he holds in it. fothergill indeed might--but then i know fothergill is pressed himself at the present moment. it is deuced hard, isn't it? i must give up the whole game if i can't put my hand upon £ within the next two days." "ask her for it, herself." "what, the woman i wish to marry! no, mark, i'm not quite come to that. i would sooner lose her than that." mark sat silent, gazing at the fire and wishing that he was in his own bedroom. he had an idea that mr. sowerby wished him to produce this £ ; and he knew also that he had not £ in the world, and that if he had he would be acting very foolishly to give it to mr. sowerby. but nevertheless he felt half fascinated by the man, and half afraid of him. "lufton owes it to me to do more than this," continued mr. sowerby; "but then lufton is not here." "why, he has just paid five thousand pounds for you." "paid five thousand pounds for me! indeed he has done no such thing: not a sixpence of it came into my hands. believe me, mark, you don't know the whole of that yet. not that i mean to say a word against lufton. he is the soul of honour; though so deucedly dilatory in money matters. he thought he was right all through that affair, but no man was ever so confoundedly wrong. why, don't you remember that that was the very view you took of it yourself?" "i remember saying that i thought he was mistaken." "of course he was mistaken. and dearly the mistake cost me. i had to make good the money for two or three years. and my property is not like his--i wish it were." "marry miss dunstable, and that will set it all right for you." "ah! so i would if i had this money. at any rate i would bring it to the point. now, i tell you what, mark; if you'll assist me at this strait i'll never forget it. and the time will come round when i may be able to do something for you." "i have not got a hundred, no, not fifty pounds by me in the world." "of course you've not. men don't walk about the streets with £ in their pockets. i don't suppose there's a single man here in the house with such a sum at his bankers', unless it be the duke." "what is it you want then?" "why, your name, to be sure. believe me, my dear fellow, i would not ask you really to put your hand into your pocket to such a tune as that. allow me to draw on you for that amount at three months. long before that time i shall be flush enough." and then, before mark could answer, he had a bill stamp and pen and ink out on the table before him, and was filling in the bill as though his friend had already given his consent. "upon my word, sowerby, i had rather not do that." "why! what are you afraid of?"--mr. sowerby asked this very sharply. "did you ever hear of my having neglected to take up a bill when it fell due?" robarts thought that he had heard of such a thing; but in his confusion he was not exactly sure, and so he said nothing. "no, my boy; i have not come to that. look here: just you write, 'accepted, mark robarts,' across that, and then you shall never hear of the transaction again;--and you will have obliged me for ever." "as a clergyman it would be wrong of me," said robarts. "as a clergyman! come, mark! if you don't like to do as much as that for a friend, say so; but don't let us have that sort of humbug. if there be one class of men whose names would be found more frequent on the backs of bills in the provincial banks than another, clergymen are that class. come, old fellow, you won't throw me over when i am so hard pushed." mark robarts took the pen and signed the bill. it was the first time in his life that he had ever done such an act. sowerby then shook him cordially by the hand, and he walked off to his own bedroom a wretched man. chapter ix. the vicar's return. the next morning mr. robarts took leave of all his grand friends with a heavy heart. he had lain awake half the night thinking of what he had done and trying to reconcile himself to his position. he had not well left mr. sowerby's room before he felt certain that at the end of three months he would again be troubled about that £ . as he went along the passage all the man's known antecedents crowded upon him much quicker than he could remember them when seated in that arm-chair with the bill stamp before him, and the pen and ink ready to his hand. he remembered what lord lufton had told him--how he had complained of having been left in the lurch; he thought of all the stories current through the entire county as to the impossibility of getting money from chaldicotes; he brought to mind the known character of the man, and then he knew that he must prepare himself to make good a portion at least of that heavy payment. why had he come to this horrid place? had he not everything at home at framley which the heart of man could desire? no; the heart of man can desire deaneries--the heart, that is, of the man vicar; and the heart of the man dean can desire bishoprics; and before the eyes of the man bishop does there not loom the transcendental glory of lambeth? he had owned to himself that he was ambitious; but he had to own to himself now also that he had hitherto taken but a sorry path towards the object of his ambition. on the next morning at breakfast-time, before his horse and gig arrived for him, no one was so bright as his friend sowerby. "so you are off, are you?" said he. "yes, i shall go this morning." "say everything that's kind from me to lufton. i may possibly see him out hunting; otherwise we shan't meet till the spring. as to my going to framley, that's out of the question. her ladyship would look for my tail, and swear that she smelt brimstone. by-bye, old fellow!" the german student when he first made his bargain with the devil felt an indescribable attraction to his new friend; and such was the case now with robarts. he shook sowerby's hand very warmly, said that he hoped he should meet him soon somewhere, and professed himself specially anxious to hear how that affair with the lady came off. as he had made his bargain--as he had undertaken to pay nearly half-a-year's income for his dear friend--ought he not to have as much value as possible for his money? if the dear friendship of this flash member of parliament did not represent that value, what else did do so? but then he felt, or fancied that he felt, that mr. sowerby did not care for him so much this morning as he had done on the previous evening. "by-bye," said mr. sowerby, but he spoke no word as to such future meetings, nor did he even promise to write. mr. sowerby probably had many things on his mind; and it might be that it behoved him, having finished one piece of business, immediately to look to another. the sum for which robarts had made himself responsible--which he so much feared that he would be called upon to pay--was very nearly half-a-year's income; and as yet he had not put by one shilling since he had been married. when he found himself settled in his parsonage, he found also that all the world regarded him as a rich man. he had taken the dictum of all the world as true, and had set himself to work to live comfortably. he had no absolute need of a curate; but he could afford the £ --as lady lufton had said rather injudiciously; and by keeping jones in the parish he would be acting charitably to a brother clergyman, and would also place himself in a more independent position. lady lufton had wished to see her pet clergyman well-to-do and comfortable; but now, as matters had turned out, she much regretted this affair of the curate. mr. jones, she said to herself, more than once, must be made to depart from framley. he had given his wife a pony-carriage, and for himself he had a saddle-horse, and a second horse for his gig. a man in his position, well-to-do as he was, required as much as that. he had a footman also, and a gardener, and a groom. the two latter were absolutely necessary, but about the former there had been a question. his wife had been decidedly hostile to the footman; but, in all such matters as that, to doubt is to be lost. when the footman had been discussed for a week it became quite clear to the master that he also was a necessary. as he drove home that morning he pronounced to himself the doom of that footman, and the doom also of that saddle-horse. they at any rate should go. and then he would spend no more money in trips to scotland; and above all, he would keep out of the bedrooms of impoverished members of parliament at the witching hour of midnight. such resolves did he make to himself as he drove home; and bethought himself wearily how that £ might be made to be forthcoming. as to any assistance in the matter from sowerby,--of that he gave himself no promise. but he almost felt himself happy again as his wife came out into the porch to meet him, with a silk shawl over her head, and pretending to shiver as she watched him descending from his gig. "my dear old man," she said, as she led him into the warm drawing-room with all his wrappings still about him, "you must be starved." but mark during the whole drive had been thinking too much of that transaction in mr. sowerby's bedroom to remember that the air was cold. now he had his arm round his own dear fanny's waist; but was he to tell her of that transaction? at any rate he would not do it now, while his two boys were in his arms, rubbing the moisture from his whiskers with their kisses. after all, what is there equal to that coming home? "and so lufton is here. i say, frank, gently, old boy,"--frank was his eldest son--"you'll have baby into the fender." "let me take baby; it's impossible to hold the two of them, they are so strong," said the proud mother. "oh, yes, he came home early yesterday." "have you seen him?" "he was here yesterday, with her ladyship; and i lunched there to-day. the letter came, you know, in time to stop the merediths. they don't go till to-morrow, so you will meet them after all. sir george is wild about it, but lady lufton would have her way. you never saw her in such a state as she is." "good spirits, eh?" "i should think so. all lord lufton's horses are coming, and he's to be here till march." "till march!" "so her ladyship whispered to me. she could not conceal her triumph at his coming. he's going to give up leicestershire this year altogether. i wonder what has brought it all about?" mark knew very well what had brought it about; he had been made acquainted, as the reader has also, with the price at which lady lufton had purchased her son's visit. but no one had told mrs. robarts that the mother had made her son a present of five thousand pounds. "she's in a good humour about everything now," continued fanny; "so you need say nothing at all about gatherum castle." "but she was very angry when she first heard it; was she not?" "well, mark, to tell the truth, she was; and we had quite a scene there up in her own room up-stairs,--justinia and i. she had heard something else that she did not like at the same time; and then--but you know her way. she blazed up quite hot." "and said all manner of horrid things about me." "about the duke she did. you know she never did like the duke; and for the matter of that, neither do i. i tell you that fairly, master mark!" "the duke is not so bad as he's painted." "ah, that's what you say about another great person. however, he won't come here to trouble us, i suppose. and then i left her, not in the best temper in the world; for i blazed up too, you must know." "i am sure you did," said mark, pressing his arm round her waist. "and then we were going to have a dreadful war, i thought; and i came home and wrote such a doleful letter to you. but what should happen when i had just closed it, but in came her ladyship--all alone, and--. but i can't tell you what she did or said, only she behaved beautifully; just like herself too; so full of love and truth and honesty. there's nobody like her, mark; and she's better than all the dukes that ever wore--whatever dukes do wear." "horns and hoofs; that's their usual apparel, according to you and lady lufton," said he, remembering what mr. sowerby had said of himself. "you may say what you like about me, mark, but you shan't abuse lady lufton. and if horns and hoofs mean wickedness and dissipation, i believe it's not far wrong. but get off your big coat and make yourself comfortable." and that was all the scolding that mark robarts got from his wife on the occasion of his great iniquity. "i will certainly tell her about this bill transaction," he said to himself; "but not to-day; not till after i have seen lufton." that evening they dined at framley court, and there they met the young lord; they found also lady lufton still in high good-humour. lord lufton himself was a fine, bright-looking young man; not so tall as mark robarts, and with perhaps less intelligence marked on his face; but his features were finer, and there was in his countenance a thorough appearance of good-humour and sweet temper. it was, indeed, a pleasant face to look upon, and dearly lady lufton loved to gaze at it. "well, mark, so you have been among the philistines?" that was his lordship's first remark. robarts laughed as he took his friend's hands, and bethought himself how truly that was the case; that he was, in very truth, already "himself in bonds under philistian yoke." alas, alas, it is very hard to break asunder the bonds of the latter-day philistines. when a samson does now and then pull a temple down about their ears, is he not sure to be engulfed in the ruin with them? there is no horse-leech that sticks so fast as your latter-day philistine. "so you have caught sir george, after all," said lady lufton; and that was nearly all she did say in allusion to his absence. there was afterwards some conversation about the lecture, and from her ladyship's remarks, it certainly was apparent that she did not like the people among whom the vicar had been lately staying; but she said no word that was personal to him himself, or that could be taken as a reproach. the little episode of mrs. proudie's address in the lecture-room had already reached framley, and it was only to be expected that lady lufton should enjoy the joke. she would affect to believe that the body of the lecture had been given by the bishop's wife; and afterwards, when mark described her costume at that sunday morning breakfast-table, lady lufton would assume that such had been the dress in which she had exercised her faculties in public. "i would have given a five-pound note to have heard it," said sir george. "so would not i," said lady lufton. "when one hears of such things described so graphically as mr. robarts now tells it, one can hardly help laughing. but it would give me great pain to see the wife of one of our bishops place herself in such a situation. for he is a bishop after all." "well, upon my word, my lady, i agree with meredith," said lord lufton. "it must have been good fun. as it did happen, you know,--as the church was doomed to the disgrace, i should like to have heard it." "i know you would have been shocked, ludovic." "i should have got over that in time, mother. it would have been like a bull-fight i suppose--horrible to see no doubt, but extremely interesting. and harold smith, mark; what did he do all the while?" "it didn't take so very long, you know," said robarts. "and the poor bishop," said lady meredith; "how did he look? i really do pity him." "well, he was asleep, i think." "what, slept through it all?" said sir george. "it awakened him; and then he jumped up and said something." "what, out loud too?" "only one word or so." "what a disgraceful scene!" said lady lufton. "to those who remember the good old man who was in the diocese before him it is perfectly shocking. he confirmed you, ludovic, and you ought to remember him. it was over at barchester, and you went and lunched with him afterwards." "i do remember; and especially this, that i never ate such tarts in my life, before or since. the old man particularly called my attention to them, and seemed remarkably pleased that i concurred in his sentiments. there are no such tarts as those going in the palace now, i'll be bound." "mrs. proudie will be very happy to do her best for you if you will go and try," said sir george. "i beg that he will do no such thing," said lady lufton, and that was the only severe word she said about any of mark's visitings. as sir george meredith was there, robarts could say nothing then to lord lufton about mr. sowerby and mr. sowerby's money affairs; but he did make an appointment for a _tête-à-tête_ on the next morning. "you must come down and see my nags, mark; they came to-day. the merediths will be off at twelve, and then we can have an hour together." mark said he would, and then went home with his wife under his arm. "well, now, is not she kind?" said fanny, as soon as they were out on the gravel together. "she is kind; kinder than i can tell you just at present. but did you ever know anything so bitter as she is to the poor bishop? and really the bishop is not so bad." "yes; i know something much more bitter; and that is what she thinks of the bishop's wife. and you know, mark, it was so unladylike, her getting up in that way. what must the people of barchester think of her?" "as far as i could see the people of barchester liked it." "nonsense, mark; they could not. but never mind that now. i want you to own that she is good." and then mrs. robarts went on with another long eulogy on the dowager. since that affair of the pardon-begging at the parsonage mrs. robarts hardly knew how to think well enough of her friend. and the evening had been so pleasant after the dreadful storm and threatenings of hurricanes; her husband had been so well received after his lapse of judgment; the wounds that had looked so sore had been so thoroughly healed, and everything was so pleasant. how all of this would have been changed had she known of that little bill! at twelve the next morning the lord and the vicar were walking through the framley stables together. quite a commotion had been made there, for the larger portion of these buildings had of late years seldom been used. but now all was crowding and activity. seven or eight very precious animals had followed lord lufton from leicestershire, and all of them required dimensions that were thought to be rather excessive by the framley old-fashioned groom. my lord, however, had a head man of his own who took the matter quite into his own hands. mark, priest as he was, was quite worldly enough to be fond of a good horse; and for some little time allowed lord lufton to descant on the merit of this four-year-old filly, and that magnificent rattlebones colt, out of a mousetrap mare; but he had other things that lay heavy on his mind, and after bestowing half an hour on the stud, he contrived to get his friend away to the shrubbery walks. "so you have settled with sowerby," robarts began by saying. "settled with him; yes, but do you know the price?" "i believe that you have paid five thousand pounds." "yes, and about three before; and that in a matter in which i did not really owe one shilling. whatever i do in future, i'll keep out of sowerby's grip." "but you don't think he has been unfair to you." "mark, to tell you the truth i have banished the affair from my mind, and don't wish to take it up again. my mother has paid the money to save the property, and of course i must pay her back. but i think i may promise that i will not have any more money dealings with sowerby. i will not say that he is dishonest, but at any rate he is sharp." "well, lufton; what will you say when i tell you that i have put my name to a bill for him, for four hundred pounds?" "say; why i should say--; but you're joking; a man in your position would never do such a thing." "but i have done it." lord lufton gave a long low whistle. "he asked me the last night that i was there, making a great favour of it, and declaring that no bill of his had ever yet been dishonoured." lord lufton whistled again. "no bill of his dishonoured! why the pocket-books of the jews are stuffed full of his dishonoured papers! and you have really given him your name for four hundred pounds?" "i have certainly." "at what date?" "three months." "and have you thought where you are to get the money?" "i know very well that i can't get it; not at least by that time. the bankers must renew it for me, and i must pay it by degrees. that is, if sowerby really does not take it up." "it is just as likely that he will take up the national debt." robarts then told him about the projected marriage with miss dunstable, giving it as his opinion that the lady would probably accept the gentleman. "not at all improbable," said his lordship, "for sowerby is an agreeable fellow; and if it be so, he will have all that he wants for life. but his creditors will gain nothing. the duke, who has his title-deeds, will doubtless get his money, and the estate will in fact belong to the wife. but the small fry, such as you, will not get a shilling." poor mark! he had had an inkling of this before; but it had hardly presented itself to him in such certain terms. it was, then, a positive fact, that in punishment for his weakness in having signed that bill he would have to pay, not only four hundred pounds, but four hundred pounds with interest, and expenses of renewal, and commission, and bill stamps. yes; he had certainly got among the philistines during that visit of his to the duke. it began to appear to him pretty clearly that it would have been better for him to have relinquished altogether the glories of chaldicotes and gatherum castle. and now, how was he to tell his wife? chapter x. lucy robarts. and now how was he to tell his wife? that was the consideration heavy on mark robarts' mind when last we left him; and he turned the matter often in his thoughts before he could bring himself to a resolution. at last he did do so, and one may say that it was not altogether a bad one, if only he could carry it out. he would ascertain in what bank that bill of his had been discounted. he would ask sowerby, and if he could not learn from him, he would go to the three banks in barchester. that it had been taken to one of them he felt tolerably certain. he would explain to the manager his conviction that he would have to make good the amount, his inability to do so at the end of the three months, and the whole state of his income; and then the banker would explain to him how the matter might be arranged. he thought that he could pay £ every three months with interest. as soon as this should have been concerted with the banker, he would let his wife know all about it. were he to tell her at the present moment, while the matter was all unsettled, the intelligence would frighten her into illness. but on the next morning there came to him tidings by the hands of robin postman, which for a long while upset all his plans. the letter was from exeter. his father had been taken ill, and had very quickly been pronounced to be in danger. that evening--the evening on which his sister wrote--the old man was much worse, and it was desirable that mark should go off to exeter as quickly as possible. of course he went to exeter--again leaving the framley souls at the mercy of the welsh low churchman. framley is only four miles from silverbridge, and at silverbridge he was on the direct road to the west. he was therefore at exeter before nightfall on that day. but nevertheless he arrived there too late to see his father again alive. the old man's illness had been sudden and rapid, and he expired without again seeing his eldest son. mark arrived at the house of mourning just as they were learning to realize the full change in their position. the doctor's career had been on the whole successful, but nevertheless he did not leave behind him as much money as the world had given him credit for possessing. who ever does? dr. robarts had educated a large family, had always lived with every comfort, and had never possessed a shilling but what he had earned himself. a physician's fees come in, no doubt, with comfortable rapidity as soon as rich old gentlemen and middle-aged ladies begin to put their faith in him; but fees run out almost with equal rapidity when a wife and seven children are treated to everything that the world considers most desirable. mark, we have seen, had been educated at harrow and oxford, and it may be said, therefore, that he had received his patrimony early in life. for gerald robarts, the second brother, a commission had been bought in a crack regiment. he also had been lucky, having lived and become a captain in the crimea; and the purchase-money was lodged for his majority. and john robarts, the youngest, was a clerk in the petty bag office, and was already assistant private secretary to the lord petty bag himself--a place of considerable trust, if not hitherto of large emolument; and on his education money had been spent freely, for in these days a young man cannot get into the petty bag office without knowing at least three modern languages; and he must be well up in trigonometry too, in bible theology, or in one dead language--at his option. and the doctor had four daughters. the two elder were married, including that blanche with whom lord lufton was to have fallen in love at the vicar's wedding. a devonshire squire had done this in the lord's place; but on marrying her it was necessary that he should have a few thousand pounds, two or three perhaps, and the old doctor had managed that they should be forthcoming. the elder also had not been sent away from the paternal mansion quite empty-handed. there were, therefore, at the time of the doctor's death two children left at home, of whom one only, lucy, the younger, will come much across us in the course of our story. mark stayed for ten days at exeter, he and the devonshire squire having been named as executors in the will. in this document it was explained that the doctor trusted that provision had been made for most of his children. as for his dear son mark, he said, he was aware that he need be under no uneasiness. on hearing this read mark smiled sweetly, and looked very gracious; but, nevertheless, his heart did sink somewhat within him, for there had been a hope that a small windfall, coming now so opportunely, might enable him to rid himself at once of that dreadful sowerby incubus. and then the will went on to declare that mary, and gerald, and blanche, had also, by god's providence, been placed beyond want. and here, looking into the squire's face, one might have thought that his heart fell a little also; for he had not so full a command of his feelings as his brother-in-law, who had been so much more before the world. to john, the assistant private secretary, was left a legacy of a thousand pounds; and to jane and lucy certain sums in certain four per cents., which were quite sufficient to add an efficient value to the hands of those young ladies in the eyes of most prudent young would-be benedicts. over and beyond this there was nothing but the furniture, which he desired might be sold, and the proceeds divided among them all. it might come to sixty or seventy pounds a piece, and pay the expenses incidental on his death. and then all men and women there and thereabouts said that old dr. robarts had done well. his life had been good and prosperous, and his will was just. and mark, among others, so declared,--and was so convinced in spite of his own little disappointment. and on the third morning after the reading of the will squire crowdy, of creamclotted hall, altogether got over his grief, and said that it was all right. and then it was decided that jane should go home with him,--for there was a brother squire who, it was thought, might have an eye to jane;--and lucy, the younger, should be taken to framley parsonage. in a fortnight from the receipt of that letter mark arrived at his own house with his sister lucy under his wing. all this interfered greatly with mark's wise resolution as to the sowerby-bill incubus. in the first place he could not get to barchester as soon as he had intended, and then an idea came across him that possibly it might be well that he should borrow the money of his brother john, explaining the circumstances, of course, and paying him due interest. but he had not liked to broach the subject when they were there in exeter, standing, as it were, over their father's grave, and so the matter was postponed. there was still ample time for arrangement before the bill would come due, and he would not tell fanny till he had made up his mind what that arrangement would be. it would kill her, he said to himself over and over again, were he to tell her of it without being able to tell her also that the means of liquidating the debt were to be forthcoming. and now i must say a word about lucy robarts. if one might only go on without those descriptions, how pleasant it would all be! but lucy robarts has to play a forward part in this little drama, and those who care for such matters must be made to understand something of her form and likeness. when last we mentioned her as appearing, though not in any prominent position, at her brother's wedding, she was only sixteen; but now, at the time of her father's death, somewhat over two years having since elapsed, she was nearly nineteen. laying aside for the sake of clearness that indefinite term of girl--for girls are girls from the age of three up to forty-three, if not previously married--dropping that generic word, we may say that then, at that wedding of her brother, she was a child; and now, at the death of her father, she was a woman. nothing, perhaps, adds so much to womanhood, turns the child so quickly into a woman, as such death-bed scenes as these. hitherto but little had fallen to lucy to do in the way of woman's duties. of money transactions she had known nothing, beyond a jocose attempt to make her annual allowance of twenty-five pounds cover all her personal wants--an attempt which was made jocose by the loving bounty of her father. her sister, who was three years her elder--for john came in between them--had managed the house; that is, she had made the tea and talked to the housekeeper about the dinners. but lucy had sat at her father's elbow, had read to him of evenings when he went to sleep, had brought him his slippers and looked after the comforts of his easy-chair. all this she had done as a child; but when she stood at the coffin head, and knelt at the coffin side, then she was a woman. she was smaller in stature than either of her three sisters, to all of whom had been acceded the praise of being fine women--a eulogy which the people of exeter, looking back at the elder sisters, and the general remembrance of them which pervaded the city, were not willing to extend to lucy. "dear--dear!" had been said of her; "poor lucy is not like a robarts at all; is she, now, mrs. pole?"--for as the daughters had become fine women, so had the sons grown into stalwart men. and then mrs. pole had answered: "not a bit; is she, now? only think what blanche was at her age. but she has fine eyes, for all that; and they do say she is the cleverest of them all." and that, too, is so true a description of her, that i do not know that i can add much to it. she was not like blanche; for blanche had a bright complexion, and a fine neck, and a noble bust, _et vera incessu patuit dea_--a true goddess, that is, as far as the eye went. she had a grand idea, moreover, of an apple-pie, and had not reigned eighteen months at creamclotted hall before she knew all the mysteries of pigs and milk, and most of those appertaining to cider and green geese. lucy had no neck at all worth speaking of,--no neck, i mean, that ever produced eloquence; she was brown, too, and had addicted herself in nowise, as she undoubtedly should have done, to larder utility. in regard to the neck and colour, poor girl, she could not help herself; but in that other respect she must be held as having wasted her opportunities. but then what eyes she had! mrs. pole was right there. they flashed upon you--not always softly; indeed not often softly, if you were a stranger to her; but whether softly or savagely, with a brilliancy that dazzled you as you looked at them. and who shall say of what colour they were? green probably, for most eyes are green--green or grey, if green be thought uncomely for an eye-colour. but it was not their colour, but their fire, which struck one with such surprise. lucy robarts was thoroughly a brunette. sometimes the dark tint of her cheek was exquisitely rich and lovely, and the fringes of her eyes were long and soft, and her small teeth, which one so seldom saw, were white as pearls, and her hair, though short, was beautifully soft--by no means black, but yet of so dark a shade of brown. blanche, too, was noted for fine teeth. they were white and regular and lofty as a new row of houses in a french city. but then when she laughed she was all teeth; as she was all neck when she sat at the piano. but lucy's teeth!--it was only now and again, when in some sudden burst of wonder she would sit for a moment with her lips apart, that the fine finished lines and dainty pearl-white colour of that perfect set of ivory could be seen. mrs. pole would have said a word of her teeth also, but that to her they had never been made visible. "but they do say that she is the cleverest of them all," mrs. pole had added, very properly. the people of exeter had expressed such an opinion, and had been quite just in doing so. i do not know how it happens, but it always does happen, that everybody in every small town knows which is the brightest-witted in every family. in this respect mrs. pole had only expressed public opinion, and public opinion was right. lucy robarts was blessed with an intelligence keener than that of her brothers or sisters. "to tell the truth, mark, i admire lucy more than i do blanche." this had been said by mrs. robarts within a few hours of her having assumed that name. "she's not a beauty, i know, but yet i do." "my dearest fanny!" mark had answered in a tone of surprise. "i do then; of course people won't think so; but i never seem to care about regular beauties. perhaps i envy them too much." what mark said next need not be repeated, but everybody may be sure that it contained some gross flattery for his young bride. he remembered this, however, and had always called lucy his wife's pet. neither of the sisters had since that been at framley; and though fanny had spent a week at exeter on the occasion of blanche's marriage, it could hardly be said that she was very intimate with them. nevertheless, when it became expedient that one of them should go to framley, the remembrance of what his wife had said immediately induced mark to make the offer to lucy; and jane, who was of a kindred soul with blanche, was delighted to go to creamclotted hall. the acres of heavybed house, down in that fat totnes country, adjoined those of creamclotted hall, and heavybed house still wanted a mistress. fanny was delighted when the news reached her. it would of course be proper that one of his sisters should live with mark under their present circumstances, and she was happy to think that that quiet little bright-eyed creature was to come and nestle with her under the same roof. the children should so love her--only not quite so much as they loved mamma; and the snug little room that looks out over the porch, in which the chimney never smokes, should be made ready for her; and she should be allowed her share of driving the pony--which was a great sacrifice of self on the part of mrs. robarts--and lady lufton's best good-will should be bespoken. in fact, lucy was not unfortunate in the destination that was laid out for her. lady lufton had of course heard of the doctor's death, and had sent all manner of kind messages to mark, advising him not to hurry home by any means until everything was settled at exeter. and then she was told of the new-comer that was expected in the parish. when she heard that it was lucy, the younger, she also was satisfied; for blanche's charms, though indisputable, had not been altogether to her taste. if a second blanche were to arrive there what danger might there not be for young lord lufton! "quite right," said her ladyship, "just what he ought to do. i think i remember the young lady; rather small, is she not, and very retiring?" "rather small and very retiring. what a description!" said lord lufton. "never mind, ludovic; some young ladies must be small, and some at least ought to be retiring. we shall be delighted to make her acquaintance." "i remember your other sister-in-law very well," said lord lufton. "she was a beautiful woman." "i don't think you will consider lucy a beauty," said mrs. robarts. "small, retiring, and--" so far lord lufton had gone, when mrs. robarts finished by the word, "plain." she had liked lucy's face, but she had thought that others probably did not do so. "upon my word," said lady lufton, "you don't deserve to have a sister-in-law. i remember her very well, and can say that she is not plain. i was very much taken with her manner at your wedding, my dear; and thought more of her than i did of the beauty, i can tell you." "i must confess i do not remember her at all," said his lordship. and so the conversation ended. and then at the end of the fortnight mark arrived with his sister. they did not reach framley till long after dark--somewhere between six and seven--and by this time it was december. there was snow on the ground, and frost in the air, and no moon, and cautious men when they went on the roads had their horses' shoes cocked. such being the state of the weather mark's gig had been nearly filled with cloaks and shawls when it was sent over to silverbridge. and a cart was sent for lucy's luggage, and all manner of preparations had been made. three times had fanny gone herself to see that the fire burned brightly in the little room over the porch, and at the moment that the sound of the wheels was heard she was engaged in opening her son's mind as to the nature of an aunt. hitherto papa and mamma and lady lufton were all that he had known, excepting, of course, the satellites of the nursery. and then in three minutes lucy was standing by the fire. those three minutes had been taken up in embraces between the husband and the wife. let who would be brought as a visitor to the house, after a fortnight's absence, she would kiss him before she welcomed any one else. but then she turned to lucy, and began to assist her with her cloaks. "oh, thank you," said lucy; "i'm not cold,--not very at least. don't trouble yourself: i can do it." but here she had made a false boast, for her fingers had been so numbed that she could not do nor undo anything. they were all in black, of course; but the sombreness of lucy's clothes struck fanny much more than her own. they seemed to have swallowed her up in their blackness, and to have made her almost an emblem of death. she did not look up, but kept her face turned towards the fire, and seemed almost afraid of her position. "she may say what she likes, fanny," said mark, "but she is very cold. and so am i,--cold enough. you had better go up with her to her room. we won't do much in the dressing way to-night; eh, lucy?" in the bedroom lucy thawed a little, and fanny, as she kissed her, said to herself that she had been wrong as to that word "plain." lucy, at any rate, was not plain. "you will be used to us soon," said fanny, "and then i hope we shall make you comfortable." and she took her sister-in-law's hand and pressed it. lucy looked up at her, and her eyes then were tender enough. "i am sure i shall be happy here," she said, "with you. but--but--dear papa!" and then they got into each other's arms, and had a great bout of kissing and crying. "plain," said fanny to herself, as at last she got her guest's hair smoothed and the tears washed from her eyes--"plain! she has the loveliest countenance that i ever looked at in my life!" "your sister is quite beautiful," she said to mark, as they talked her over alone before they went to sleep that night. "no, she's not beautiful; but she's a very good girl, and clever enough too, in her sort of way." "i think her perfectly lovely. i never saw such eyes in my life before." "i'll leave her in your hands then; you shall get her a husband." "that mayn't be so easy. i don't think she'd marry anybody." "well, i hope not. but she seems to me to be exactly cut out for an old maid;--to be aunt lucy for ever and ever to your bairns." "and so she shall, with all my heart. but i don't think she will, very long. i have no doubt she will be hard to please; but if i were a man i should fall in love with her at once. did you ever observe her teeth, mark?" "i don't think i ever did." "you wouldn't know whether any one had a tooth in their head, i believe." "no one except you, my dear; and i know all yours by heart." "you are a goose." "and a very sleepy one; so, if you please, i'll go to roost." and thus there was nothing more said about lucy's beauty on that occasion. for the first two days mrs. robarts did not make much of her sister-in-law. lucy, indeed, was not demonstrative; and she was, moreover, one of those few persons--for they are very few--who are contented to go on with their existence without making themselves the centre of any special outward circle. to the ordinary run of minds it is impossible not to do this. a man's own dinner is to himself so important that he cannot bring himself to believe that it is a matter utterly indifferent to every one else. a lady's collection of baby-clothes, in early years, and of house linen and curtain-fringes in later life, is so very interesting to her own eyes, that she cannot believe but what other people will rejoice to behold it. i would not, however, be held as regarding this tendency as evil. it leads to conversation of some sort among people, and perhaps to a kind of sympathy. mrs. jones will look at mrs. white's linen-chest, hoping that mrs. white may be induced to look at hers. one can only pour out of a jug that which is in it. for the most of us, if we do not talk of ourselves, or at any rate of the individual circles of which we are the centres, we can talk of nothing. i cannot hold with those who wish to put down the insignificant chatter of the world. as for myself, i am always happy to look at mrs. jones's linen, and never omit an opportunity of giving her the details of my own dinners. but lucy robarts had not this gift. she had come there as a stranger into her sister-in-law's house, and at first seemed as though she would be contented in simply having her corner in the drawing-room and her place at the parlour-table. she did not seem to need the comforts of condolence and open-hearted talking. i do not mean to say that she was moody, that she did not answer when she was spoken to, or that she took no notice of the children; but she did not at once throw herself and all her hopes and sorrows into fanny's heart, as fanny would have had her do. mrs. robarts herself was what we call demonstrative. when she was angry with lady lufton she showed it. and as since that time her love and admiration for lady lufton had increased, she showed that also. when she was in any way displeased with her husband, she could not hide it, even though she tried to do so, and fancied herself successful;--no more than she could hide her warm, constant, overflowing woman's love. she could not walk through a room hanging on her husband's arm without seeming to proclaim to every one there that she thought him the best man in it. she was demonstrative, and therefore she was the more disappointed in that lucy did not rush at once with all her cares into her open heart. "she is so quiet," fanny said to her husband. "that's her nature," said mark. "she always was quiet as a child. while we were smashing everything, she would never crack a teacup." "i wish she would break something now," said fanny, "and then perhaps we should get to talk about it." but she did not on this account give over loving her sister-in-law. she probably valued her the more, unconsciously, for not having those aptitudes with which she herself was endowed. and then after two days lady lufton called; of course it may be supposed that fanny had said a good deal to her new inmate about lady lufton. a neighbour of that kind in the country exercises so large an influence upon the whole tenor of one's life, that to abstain from such talk is out of the question. mrs. robarts had been brought up almost under the dowager's wing, and of course she regarded her as being worthy of much talking. do not let persons on this account suppose that mrs. robarts was a tuft-hunter, or a toad-eater. if they do not see the difference they have yet got to study the earliest principles of human nature. lady lufton called, and lucy was struck dumb. fanny was particularly anxious that her ladyship's first impression should be favourable, and to effect this, she especially endeavoured to throw the two together during that visit. but in this she was unwise. lady lufton, however, had woman-craft enough not to be led into any egregious error by lucy's silence. "and what day will you come and dine with us?" said lady lufton, turning expressly to her old friend fanny. "oh, do you name the day. we never have many engagements, you know." "will thursday do, miss robarts? you will meet nobody you know, only my son; so you need not regard it as going out. fanny here will tell you that stepping over to framley court is no more going out, than when you go from one room to another in the parsonage. is it, fanny?" fanny laughed and said that that stepping over to framley court certainly was done so often that perhaps they did not think so much about it as they ought to do. "we consider ourselves a sort of happy family here, miss robarts, and are delighted to have the opportunity of including you in the ménage." lucy gave her ladyship one of her sweetest smiles, but what she said at that moment was inaudible. it was plain, however, that she could not bring herself even to go as far as framley court for her dinner just at present. "it was very kind of lady lufton," she said to fanny; "but it was so very soon, and--and--and if they would only go without her, she would be so happy." but as the object was to go with her--expressly to take her there--the dinner was adjourned for a short time--_sine die_. chapter xi. griselda grantly. it was nearly a month after this that lucy was first introduced to lord lufton, and then it was brought about only by accident. during that time lady lufton had been often at the parsonage, and had in a certain degree learned to know lucy; but the stranger in the parish had never yet plucked up courage to accept one of the numerous invitations that had reached her. mr. robarts and his wife had frequently been at framley court, but the dreaded day of lucy's initiation had not yet arrived. she had seen lord lufton in church, but hardly so as to know him, and beyond that she had not seen him at all. one day, however--or rather, one evening, for it was already dusk--he overtook her and mrs. robarts on the road walking towards the vicarage. he had his gun on his shoulder, three pointers were at his heels, and a gamekeeper followed a little in the rear. "how are you, mrs. robarts?" he said, almost before he had overtaken them. "i have been chasing you along the road for the last half mile. i never knew ladies walk so fast." "we should be frozen if we were to dawdle about as you gentlemen do," and then she stopped and shook hands with him. she forgot at the moment that lucy and he had not met, and therefore she did not introduce them. "won't you make me known to your sister-in-law?" said he, taking off his hat, and bowing to lucy. "i have never yet had the pleasure of meeting her, though we have been neighbours for a month and more." fanny made her excuses and introduced them, and then they went on till they came to framley gate, lord lufton talking to them both, and fanny answering for the two, and there they stopped for a moment. "i am surprised to see you alone," mrs. robarts had just said; "i thought that captain culpepper was with you." "the captain has left me for this one day. if you'll whisper i'll tell you where he has gone. i dare not speak it out loud, even to the woods." "to what terrible place can he have taken himself? i'll have no whisperings about such horrors." "he has gone to--to--but you'll promise not to tell my mother?" "not tell your mother! well, now you have excited my curiosity! where can he be?" "do you promise, then?" "oh, yes! i will promise, because i am sure lady lufton won't ask me as to captain culpepper's whereabouts. we won't tell; will we, lucy?" "he has gone to gatherum castle for a day's pheasant-shooting. now, mind, you must not betray us. her ladyship supposes that he is shut up in his room with a toothache. we did not dare to mention the name to her." and then it appeared that mrs. robarts had some engagement which made it necessary that she should go up and see lady lufton, whereas lucy was intending to walk on to the parsonage alone. "and i have promised to go to your husband," said lord lufton; "or rather to your husband's dog, ponto. and i will do two other good things--i will carry a brace of pheasants with me, and protect miss robarts from the evil spirits of the framley roads." and so mrs. robarts turned in at the gate, and lucy and his lordship walked off together. lord lufton, though he had never before spoken to miss robarts, had already found out that she was by no means plain. though he had hardly seen her except at church, he had already made himself certain that the owner of that face must be worth knowing, and was not sorry to have the present opportunity of speaking to her. "so you have an unknown damsel shut up in your castle," he had once said to mrs. robarts. "if she be kept a prisoner much longer, i shall find it my duty to come and release her by force of arms." he had been there twice with the object of seeing her, but on both occasions lucy had managed to escape. now we may say she was fairly caught, and lord lufton, taking a pair of pheasants from the gamekeeper, and swinging them over his shoulder, walked off with his prey. [illustration: lord lufton and lucy robarts.] "you have been here a long time," he said, "without our having had the pleasure of seeing you." "yes, my lord," said lucy. lords had not been frequent among her acquaintance hitherto. "i tell mrs. robarts that she has been confining you illegally, and that we shall release you by force or stratagem." "i--i--i have had a great sorrow lately." "yes, miss robarts; i know you have; and i am only joking, you know. but i do hope that now you will be able to come amongst us. my mother is so anxious that you should do so." "i am sure she is very kind, and you also--my lord." "i never knew my own father," said lord lufton, speaking gravely. "but i can well understand what a loss you have had." and then, after pausing a moment, he continued, "i remember dr. robarts well." "do you, indeed?" said lucy, turning sharply towards him, and speaking now with some animation in her voice. nobody had yet spoken to her about her father since she had been at framley. it had been as though the subject were a forbidden one. and how frequently is this the case! when those we love are dead, our friends dread to mention them, though to us who are bereaved no subject would be so pleasant as their names. but we rarely understand how to treat our own sorrow or those of others. there was once a people in some land--and they may be still there for what i know--who thought it sacrilegious to stay the course of a raging fire. if a house were being burned, burn it must, even though there were facilities for saving it. for who would dare to interfere with the course of the god? our idea of sorrow is much the same. we think it wicked, or at any rate heartless, to put it out. if a man's wife be dead, he should go about lugubrious, with long face, for at least two years, or perhaps with full length for eighteen months, decreasing gradually during the other six. if he be a man who can quench his sorrow--put out his fire as it were--in less time than that, let him at any rate not show his power! "yes: i remember him," continued lord lufton. "he came twice to framley while i was a boy, consulting with my mother about mark and myself,--whether the eton floggings were not more efficacious than those at harrow. he was very kind to me, foreboding all manner of good things on my behalf." "he was very kind to every one," said lucy. "i should think he would have been--a kind, good, genial man--just the man to be adored by his own family." "exactly; and so he was. i do not remember that i ever heard an unkind word from him. there was not a harsh tone in his voice. and he was generous as the day." lucy, we have said, was not generally demonstrative, but now, on this subject, and with this absolute stranger, she became almost eloquent. "i do not wonder that you should feel his loss, miss robarts." "oh, i do feel it. mark is the best of brothers, and, as for fanny, she is too kind and too good to me. but i had always been specially my father's friend. for the last year or two we had lived so much together!" "he was an old man when he died, was he not?" "just seventy, my lord." "ah, then he was old. my mother is only fifty, and we sometimes call her the old woman. do you think she looks older than that? we all say that she makes herself out to be so much more ancient than she need do." "lady lufton does not dress young." "that is it. she never has, in my memory. she always used to wear black when i first recollect her. she has given that up now; but she is still very sombre; is she not?" "i do not like ladies to dress very young, that is, ladies of--of--" "ladies of fifty, we will say?" "very well; ladies of fifty, if you like it." "then i am sure you will like my mother." they had now turned up through the parsonage wicket, a little gate that opened into the garden at a point on the road nearer than the chief entrance. "i suppose i shall find mark up at the house?" said he. "i daresay you will, my lord." "well, i'll go round this way, for my business is partly in the stable. you see i am quite at home here, though you never have seen me before. but, miss robarts, now that the ice is broken, i hope that we may be friends." he then put out his hand, and when she gave him hers he pressed it almost as an old friend might have done. and, indeed, lucy had talked to him almost as though he were an old friend. for a minute or two she had forgotten that he was a lord and a stranger--had forgotten also to be stiff and guarded as was her wont. lord lufton had spoken to her as though he had really cared to know her; and she, unconsciously, had been taken by the compliment. lord lufton, indeed, had not thought much about it--excepting as thus, that he liked the glance of a pair of bright eyes, as most other young men do like it. but, on this occasion, the evening had been so dark, that he had hardly seen lucy's eyes at all. "well, lucy, i hope you liked your companion," mrs. robarts said, as the three of them clustered round the drawing-room fire before dinner. "oh, yes; pretty well," said lucy. "that is not at all complimentary to his lordship." "i did not mean to be complimentary, fanny." "lucy is a great deal too matter-of-fact for compliments," said mark. "what i meant was, that i had no great opportunity for judging, seeing that i was only with lord lufton for about ten minutes." "ah! but there are girls here who would give their eyes for ten minutes of lord lufton to themselves. you do not know how he's valued. he has the character of being always able to make himself agreeable to ladies at half a minute's warning." "perhaps he had not the half-minute's warning in this case," said lucy,--hypocrite that she was. "poor lucy," said her brother; "he was coming up to see ponto's shoulder, and i am afraid he was thinking more about the dog than you." "very likely," said lucy; and then they went in to dinner. lucy had been a hypocrite, for she had confessed to herself, while dressing, that lord lufton had been very pleasant; but then it is allowed to young ladies to be hypocrites when the subject under discussion is the character of a young gentleman. soon after that, lucy did dine at framley court. captain culpepper, in spite of his enormity with reference to gatherum castle, was still staying there, as was also a clergyman from the neighbourhood of barchester with his wife and daughter. this was archdeacon grantly, a gentleman whom we have mentioned before, and who was as well known in the diocese as the bishop himself,--and more thought about by many clergymen than even that illustrious prelate. miss grantly was a young lady not much older than lucy robarts, and she also was quiet, and not given to much talking in open company. she was decidedly a beauty, but somewhat statuesque in her loveliness. her forehead was high and white, but perhaps too like marble to gratify the taste of those who are fond of flesh and blood. her eyes were large and exquisitely formed, but they seldom showed much emotion. she, indeed, was impassive herself, and betrayed but little of her feelings. her nose was nearly grecian, not coming absolutely in a straight line from her forehead, but doing so nearly enough to entitle it to be considered as classical. her mouth, too, was very fine--artists, at least, said so, and connoisseurs in beauty; but to me she always seemed as though she wanted fulness of lip. but the exquisite symmetry of her cheek and chin and lower face no man could deny. her hair was light, and being always dressed with considerable care, did not detract from her appearance; but it lacked that richness which gives such luxuriance to feminine loveliness. she was tall and slight, and very graceful in her movements; but there were those who thought that she wanted the ease and _abandon_ of youth. they said that she was too composed and stiff for her age, and that she gave but little to society beyond the beauty of her form and face. there can be no doubt, however, that she was considered by most men and women to be the beauty of barsetshire, and that gentlemen from neighbouring counties would come many miles through dirty roads on the mere hope of being able to dance with her. whatever attractions she may have lacked, she had at any rate created for herself a great reputation. she had spent two months of the last spring in london, and even there she had made a sensation; and people had said that lord dumbello, lady hartletop's eldest son, had been peculiarly struck with her. it may be imagined that the archdeacon was proud of her, and so indeed was mrs. grantly--more proud, perhaps, of her daughter's beauty, than so excellent a woman should have allowed herself to be of such an attribute. griselda--that was her name--was now an only daughter. one sister she had had, but that sister had died. there were two brothers also left, one in the church and the other in the army. that was the extent of the archdeacon's family, and as the archdeacon was a very rich man--he was the only child of his father, who had been bishop of barchester for a great many years; and in those years it had been worth a man's while to be bishop of barchester--it was supposed that miss grantly would have a large fortune. mrs. grantly, however, had been heard to say, that she was in no hurry to see her daughter established in the world;--ordinary young ladies are merely married, but those of real importance are established:--and this, if anything, added to the value of the prize. mothers sometimes depreciate their wares by an undue solicitude to dispose of them. but to tell the truth openly and at once--a virtue for which a novelist does not receive very much commendation--griselda grantly was, to a certain extent, already given away. not that she, griselda, knew anything about it, or that the thrice happy gentleman had been made aware of his good fortune; nor even had the archdeacon been told. but mrs. grantly and lady lufton had been closeted together more than once, and terms had been signed and sealed between them. not signed on parchment, and sealed with wax, as is the case with treaties made by kings and diplomats,--to be broken by the same; but signed with little words, and sealed with certain pressings of the hand,--a treaty which between two such contracting parties would be binding enough. and by the terms of this treaty griselda grantly was to become lady lufton. lady lufton had hitherto been fortunate in her matrimonial speculations. she had selected sir george for her daughter, and sir george, with the utmost good nature, had fallen in with her views. she had selected fanny monsell for mr. robarts, and fanny monsell had not rebelled against her for a moment. there was a prestige of success about her doings, and she felt almost confident that her dear son ludovic must fall in love with griselda. as to the lady herself, nothing, lady lufton thought, could be much better than such a match for her son. lady lufton, i have said, was a good churchwoman, and the archdeacon was the very type of that branch of the church which she venerated. the grantlys, too, were of a good family,--not noble, indeed; but in such matters lady lufton did not want everything. she was one of those persons who, in placing their hopes at a moderate pitch, may fairly trust to see them realized. she would fain that her son's wife should be handsome; this she wished for his sake, that he might be proud of his wife, and because men love to look on beauty. but she was afraid of vivacious beauty, of those soft, sparkling feminine charms which are spread out as lures for all the world, soft dimples, laughing eyes, luscious lips, conscious smiles, and easy whispers. what if her son should bring her home a rattling, rapid-spoken, painted piece of eve's flesh such as this? would not the glory and joy of her life be over, even though such child of their first mother should have come forth to the present day ennobled by the blood of two dozen successive british peers? and then, too, griselda's money would not be useless. lady lufton, with all her high-flown ideas, was not an imprudent woman. she knew that her son had been extravagant, though she did not believe that he had been reckless; and she was well content to think that some balsam from the old bishop's coffers should be made to cure the slight wounds which his early imprudence might have inflicted on the carcase of the family property. and thus, in this way, and for these reasons, griselda grantly had been chosen out from all the world to be the future lady lufton. lord lufton had met griselda more than once already; had met her before these high contracting parties had come to any terms whatsoever, and had evidently admired her. lord dumbello had remained silent one whole evening in london with ineffable disgust, because lord lufton had been rather particular in his attentions; but then lord dumbello's muteness was his most eloquent mode of expression. both lady hartletop and mrs. grantly, when they saw him, knew very well what he meant. but that match would not exactly have suited mrs. grantly's views. the hartletop people were not in her line. they belonged altogether to another set, being connected, as we have heard before, with the omnium interest--"those _horrid_ gatherum people," as lady lufton would say to her, raising her hands and eyebrows, and shaking her head. lady lufton probably thought that they ate babies in pies during their midnight orgies at gatherum castle; and that widows were kept in cells, and occasionally put on racks for the amusement of the duke's guests. when the robarts's party entered the drawing-room the grantlys were already there, and the archdeacon's voice sounded loud and imposing in lucy's ears, as she heard him speaking while she was yet on the threshold of the door. "my dear lady lufton, i would believe anything on earth about her--anything. there is nothing too outrageous for her. had she insisted on going there with the bishop's apron on, i should not have been surprised." and then they all knew that the archdeacon was talking about mrs. proudie, for mrs. proudie was his bugbear. lady lufton after receiving her guests introduced lucy to griselda grantly. miss grantly smiled graciously, bowed slightly, and then remarked in the lowest voice possible that it was exceedingly cold. a low voice, we know, is an excellent thing in woman. lucy, who thought that she was bound to speak, said that it was cold, but that she did not mind it when she was walking. and then griselda smiled again, somewhat less graciously than before, and so the conversation ended. miss grantly was the elder of the two, and having seen most of the world, should have been the best able to talk, but perhaps she was not very anxious for a conversation with miss robarts. "so, robarts, i hear that you have been preaching at chaldicotes," said the archdeacon, still rather loudly. "i saw sowerby the other day, and he told me that you gave them the fag end of mrs. proudie's lecture." "it was ill-natured of sowerby to say the fag end," said robarts. "we divided the matter into thirds. harold smith took the first part, i the last--" "and the lady the intervening portion. you have electrified the county between you; but i am told that she had the best of it." "i was so sorry that mr. robarts went there," said lady lufton, as she walked into the dining-room leaning on the archdeacon's arm. "i am inclined to think he could not very well have helped himself," said the archdeacon, who was never willing to lean heavily on a brother parson, unless on one who had utterly and irrevocably gone away from his side of the church. "do you think not, archdeacon?" "why, no: sowerby is a friend of lufton's--" "not particularly," said poor lady lufton, in a deprecating tone. "well, they have been intimate; and robarts, when he was asked to preach at chaldicotes, could not well refuse." "but then he went afterwards to gatherum castle. not that i am vexed with him at all now, you understand. but it is such a dangerous house, you know." "so it is.--but the very fact of the duke's wishing to have a clergyman there, should always be taken as a sign of grace, lady lufton. the air was impure, no doubt; but it was less impure with robarts there than it would have been without him. but, gracious heavens! what blasphemy have i been saying about impure air? why, the bishop was there!" "yes, the bishop was there," said lady lufton, and they both understood each other thoroughly. lord lufton took out mrs. grantly to dinner, and matters were so managed that miss grantly sat on his other side. there was no management apparent in this to anybody; but there she was, while lucy was placed between her brother and captain culpepper. captain culpepper was a man with an enormous moustache, and a great aptitude for slaughtering game; but as he had no other strong characteristics, it was not probable that he would make himself very agreeable to poor lucy. she had seen lord lufton once, for two minutes, since the day of that walk, and then he had addressed her quite like an old friend. it had been in the parsonage drawing-room, and fanny had been there. fanny now was so well accustomed to his lordship, that she thought but little of this, but to lucy it had been very pleasant. he was not forward or familiar, but kind, and gentle, and pleasant; and lucy did feel that she liked him. now, on this evening, he had hitherto hardly spoken to her; but then she knew that there were other people in the company to whom he was bound to speak. she was not exactly humble-minded in the usual sense of the word; but she did recognize the fact that her position was less important than that of other people there, and that therefore it was probable that to a certain extent she would be overlooked. but not the less would she have liked to occupy the seat to which miss grantly had found her way. she did not want to flirt with lord lufton; she was not such a fool as that; but she would have liked to have heard the sound of his voice close to her ear, instead of that of captain culpepper's knife and fork. this was the first occasion on which she had endeavoured to dress herself with care since her father had died; and now, sombre though she was in her deep mourning, she did look very well. "there is an expression about her forehead that is full of poetry," fanny had said to her husband. "don't you turn her head, fanny, and make her believe that she is a beauty," mark had answered. "i doubt it is not so easy to turn her head, mark. there is more in lucy than you imagine, and so you will find out before long." it was thus that mrs. robarts prophesied about her sister-in-law. had she been asked she might perhaps have said that lucy's presence would be dangerous to the grantly interest at framley court. lord lufton's voice was audible enough as he went on talking to miss grantly--his voice, but not his words. he talked in such a way that there was no appearance of whispering, and yet the person to whom he spoke, and she only, could hear what he said. mrs. grantly the while conversed constantly with lucy's brother, who sat at lucy's left hand. she never lacked for subjects on which to speak to a country clergyman of the right sort, and thus griselda was left quite uninterrupted. but lucy could not but observe that griselda herself seemed to have very little to say,--or at any rate to say very little. every now and then she did open her mouth, and some word or brace of words would fall from it. but for the most part she seemed to be content in the fact that lord lufton was paying her attention. she showed no animation, but sat there still and graceful, composed and classical, as she always was. lucy, who could not keep her ears from listening or her eyes from looking, thought that had she been there she would have endeavoured to take a more prominent part in the conversation. but then griselda grantly probably knew much better than lucy did how to comport herself in such a situation. perhaps it might be that young men, such as lord lufton, liked to hear the sound of their own voices. "immense deal of game about here," captain culpepper said to her towards the end of the dinner. it was the second attempt he had made; on the former he had asked her whether she knew any of the fellows of the th. "is there?" said lucy. "oh! i saw lord lufton the other day with a great armful of pheasants." "an armful! why we had seven cartloads the other day at gatherum." "seven carts full of pheasants!" said lucy, amazed. "that's not so much. we had eight guns, you know. eight guns will do a deal of work when the game has been well got together. they manage all that capitally at gatherum. been at the duke's, eh?" lucy had heard the framley report as to gatherum castle, and said with a sort of shudder that she had never been at that place. after this, captain culpepper troubled her no further. when the ladies had taken themselves to the drawing-room lucy found herself hardly better off than she had been at the dinner-table. lady lufton and mrs. grantly got themselves on to a sofa together, and there chatted confidentially into each other's ears. her ladyship had introduced lucy and miss grantly, and then she naturally thought that the young people might do very well together. mrs. robarts did attempt to bring about a joint conversation, which should include the three, and for ten minutes or so she worked hard at it. but it did not thrive. miss grantly was monosyllabic, smiling, however, at every monosyllable; and lucy found that nothing would occur to her at that moment worthy of being spoken. there she sat, still and motionless, afraid to take up a book, and thinking in her heart how much happier she would have been at home at the parsonage. she was not made for society; she felt sure of that; and another time she would let mark and fanny come to framley court by themselves. and then the gentlemen came in, and there was another stir in the room. lady lufton got up and bustled about; she poked the fire and shifted the candles, spoke a few words to dr. grantly, whispered something to her son, patted lucy on the cheek, told fanny, who was a musician, that they would have a little music, and ended by putting her two hands on griselda's shoulders and telling her that the fit of her frock was perfect. for lady lufton, though she did dress old herself, as lucy had said, delighted to see those around her neat and pretty, jaunty and graceful. "dear lady lufton!" said griselda, putting up her hand so as to press the end of her ladyship's fingers. it was the first piece of animation she had shown, and lucy robarts watched it all. and then there was music. lucy neither played nor sang; fanny did both, and for an amateur did both well. griselda did not sing, but she played; and did so in a manner that showed that neither her own labour nor her father's money had been spared in her instruction. lord lufton sang also, a little, and captain culpepper a very little; so that they got up a concert among them. in the meantime the doctor and mark stood talking together on the rug before the fire; the two mothers sat contented, watching the billings and the cooings of their offspring--and lucy sat alone, turning over the leaves of a book of pictures. she made up her mind fully, then and there, that she was quite unfitted by disposition for such work as this. she cared for no one, and no one cared for her. well, she must go through with it now; but another time she would know better. with her own book and a fireside she never felt herself to be miserable as she was now. she had turned her back to the music, for she was sick of seeing lord lufton watch the artistic motion of miss grantly's fingers, and was sitting at a small table as far away from the piano as a long room would permit, when she was suddenly roused from a reverie of self-reproach by a voice close behind her: "miss robarts," said the voice, "why have you cut us all?" and lucy felt that though she heard the words plainly, nobody else did. lord lufton was now speaking to her as he had before spoken to miss grantly. "i don't play, my lord," said lucy, "nor yet sing." "that would have made your company so much more valuable to us, for we are terribly badly off for listeners. perhaps you don't like music?" "i do like it,--sometimes very much." "and when are the sometimes? but we shall find it all out in time. we shall have unravelled all your mysteries, and read all your riddles, by--when shall i say?--by the end of the winter. shall we not?" "i do not know that i have got any mysteries." "oh, but you have! it is very mysterious in you to come and sit here, with your back to us all--" "oh, lord lufton; if i have done wrong--!" and poor lucy almost started from her chair, and a deep flush came across her dark cheek. "no--no; you have done no wrong. i was only joking. it is we who have done wrong in leaving you to yourself--you who are the greatest stranger among us." "i have been very well, thank you. i don't care about being left alone. i have always been used to it." "ah! but we must break you of the habit. we won't allow you to make a hermit of yourself. but the truth is, miss robarts, you don't know us yet, and therefore you are not quite happy among us." "oh! yes, i am; you are all very good to me." "you must let us be good to you. at any rate, you must let me be so. you know, don't you, that mark and i have been dear friends since we were seven years old. his wife has been my sister's dearest friend almost as long; and now that you are with them, you must be a dear friend too. you won't refuse the offer; will you?" "oh, no," she said, quite in a whisper; and, indeed, she could hardly raise her voice above a whisper, fearing that tears would fall from her tell-tale eyes. "dr. and mrs. grantly will have gone in a couple of days, and then we must get you down here. miss grantly is to remain for christmas, and you two must become bosom friends." lucy smiled, and tried to look pleased, but she felt that she and griselda grantly could never be bosom friends--could never have anything in common between them. she felt sure that griselda despised her, little, brown, plain, and unimportant as she was. she herself could not despise griselda in turn; indeed she could not but admire miss grantly's great beauty and dignity of demeanour; but she knew that she could never love her. it is hardly possible that the proud-hearted should love those who despise them; and lucy robarts was very proud-hearted. "don't you think she is very handsome?" said lord lufton. "oh, very," said lucy. "nobody can doubt that." "ludovic," said lady lufton--not quite approving of her son's remaining so long at the back of lucy's chair--"won't you give us another song? mrs. robarts and miss grantly are still at the piano." "i have sung away all that i knew, mother. there's culpepper has not had a chance yet. he has got to give us his dream--how he 'dreamt that he dwelt in marble halls!'" "i sang that an hour ago," said the captain, not over pleased. "but you certainly have not told us how 'your little lovers came!'" the captain, however, would not sing any more. and then the party was broken up, and the robartses went home to their parsonage. chapter xii. the little bill. lucy, during those last fifteen minutes of her sojourn in the framley court drawing-room, somewhat modified the very strong opinion she had before formed as to her unfitness for such society. it was very pleasant sitting there in that easy chair, while lord lufton stood at the back of it saying nice, soft, good-natured words to her. she was sure that in a little time she could feel a true friendship for him, and that she could do so without any risk of falling in love with him. but then she had a glimmering of an idea that such a friendship would be open to all manner of remarks, and would hardly be compatible with the world's ordinary ways. at any rate it would be pleasant to be at framley court, if he would come and occasionally notice her. but she did not admit to herself that such a visit would be intolerable if his whole time were devoted to griselda grantly. she neither admitted it, nor thought it; but nevertheless, in a strange unconscious way, such a feeling did find entrance in her bosom. and then the christmas holidays passed away. how much of this enjoyment fell to her share, and how much of this suffering she endured, we will not attempt accurately to describe. miss grantly remained at framley court up to twelfth night, and the robartses also spent most of the season at the house. lady lufton, no doubt, had hoped that everything might have been arranged on this occasion in accordance with her wishes, but such had not been the case. lord lufton had evidently admired miss grantly very much; indeed, he had said so to his mother half-a-dozen times; but it may almost be questioned whether the pleasure lady lufton derived from this was not more than neutralized by an opinion he once put forward that griselda grantly wanted some of the fire of lucy robarts. "surely, ludovic, you would never compare the two girls," said lady lufton. "of course not. they are the very antipodes to each other. miss grantly would probably be more to my taste; but then i am wise enough to know that it is so because my taste is a bad taste." "i know no man with a more accurate or refined taste in such matters," said lady lufton. beyond this she did not dare to go. she knew very well that her strategy would be vain should her son once learn that she had a strategy. to tell the truth, lady lufton was becoming somewhat indifferent to lucy robarts. she had been very kind to the little girl; but the little girl seemed hardly to appreciate the kindness as she should do--and then lord lufton would talk to lucy, "which was so unnecessary, you know;" and lucy had got into a way of talking quite freely with lord lufton, having completely dropped that short, spasmodic, ugly exclamation of "my lord." and so the christmas festivities were at an end, and january wore itself away. during the greater part of this month lord lufton did not remain at framley, but was nevertheless in the county, hunting with the hounds of both divisions, and staying at various houses. two or three nights he spent at chaldicotes; and one--let it only be told in an under voice--at gatherum castle! of this he said nothing to lady lufton. "why make her unhappy?" as he said to mark. but lady lufton knew it, though she said not a word to him--knew it, and was unhappy. "if he would only marry griselda, there would be an end of that danger," she said to herself. but now we must go back for a while to the vicar and his little bill. it will be remembered, that his first idea with reference to that trouble, after the reading of his father's will, was to borrow the money from his brother john. john was down at exeter at the time, and was to stay one night at the parsonage on his way to london. mark would broach the matter to him on the journey, painful though it would be to him to tell the story of his own folly to a brother so much younger than himself, and who had always looked up to him, clergyman and full-blown vicar as he was, with a deference greater than that which such difference in age required. the story was told, however; but was told all in vain, as mark found out before he reached framley. his brother john immediately declared that he would lend him the money, of course--eight hundred, if his brother wanted it. he, john, confessed that, as regarded the remaining two, he should like to feel the pleasure of immediate possession. as for interest, he would not take any--take interest from a brother! of course not. well, if mark made such a fuss about it, he supposed he must take it; but would rather not. mark should have his own way, and do just what he liked. this was all very well, and mark had fully made up his mind that his brother should not be kept long out of his money. but then arose the question, how was that money to be reached? he, mark, was executor, or one of the executors under his father's will, and, therefore, no doubt, could put his hand upon it; but his brother wanted five months of being of age, and could not therefore as yet be put legally in possession of the legacy. "that's a bore," said the assistant private secretary to the lord petty bag, thinking, perhaps, as much of his own immediate wish for ready cash as he did of his brother's necessities. mark felt that it was a bore, but there was nothing more to be done in that direction. he must now find out how far the bankers could assist him. some week or two after his return to framley he went over to barchester, and called there on a certain mr. forrest, the manager of one of the banks, with whom he was acquainted; and with many injunctions as to secrecy told this manager the whole of his story. at first he concealed the name of his friend sowerby, but it soon appeared that no such concealment was of any avail. "that's sowerby, of course," said mr. forrest. "i know you are intimate with him; and all his friends go through that, sooner or later." it seemed to mark as though mr. forrest made very light of the whole transaction. "i cannot possibly pay the bill when it falls due," said mark. "oh, no, of course not," said mr. forrest. "it's never very convenient to hand out four hundred pounds at a blow. nobody will expect you to pay it!" "but i suppose i shall have to do it sooner or later?" "well, that's as may be. it will depend partly on how you manage with sowerby, and partly on the hands it gets into. as the bill has your name on it, they'll have patience as long as the interest is paid, and the commissions on renewal. but no doubt it will have to be met some day by somebody." mr. forrest said that he was sure that the bill was not in barchester; mr. sowerby would not, he thought, have brought it to a barchester bank. the bill was probably in london, but doubtless would be sent to barchester for collection. "if it comes in my way," said mr. forrest, "i will give you plenty of time, so that you may manage about the renewal with sowerby. i suppose he'll pay the expense of doing that." mark's heart was somewhat lighter as he left the bank. mr. forrest had made so little of the whole transaction that he felt himself justified in making little of it also. "it may be as well," said he to himself, as he drove home, "not to tell fanny anything about it till the three months have run round. i must make some arrangement then." and in this way his mind was easier during the last of those three months than it had been during the two former. that feeling of over-due bills, of bills coming due, of accounts overdrawn, of tradesmen unpaid, of general money cares, is very dreadful at first; but it is astonishing how soon men get used to it. a load which would crush a man at first becomes, by habit, not only endurable, but easy and comfortable to the bearer. the habitual debtor goes along jaunty and with elastic step, almost enjoying the excitement of his embarrassments. there was mr. sowerby himself; who ever saw a cloud on his brow? it made one almost in love with ruin to be in his company. and even now, already, mark robarts was thinking to himself quite comfortably about this bill;--how very pleasantly those bankers managed these things. pay it! no; no one will be so unreasonable as to expect you to do that! and then mr. sowerby certainly was a pleasant fellow, and gave a man something in return for his money. it was still a question with mark whether lord lufton had not been too hard on sowerby. had that gentleman fallen across his clerical friend at the present moment, he might no doubt have gotten from him an acceptance for another four hundred pounds. one is almost inclined to believe that there is something pleasurable in the excitement of such embarrassments, as there is also in the excitement of drink. but then, at last, the time does come when the excitement is over, and when nothing but the misery is left. if there be an existence of wretchedness on earth it must be that of the elderly, worn-out _roué_, who has run this race of debt and bills of accommodation and acceptances,--of what, if we were not in these days somewhat afraid of good broad english, we might call lying and swindling, falsehood and fraud--and who, having ruined all whom he should have loved, having burnt up every one who would trust him much, and scorched all who would trust him a little, is at last left to finish his life with such bread and water as these men get, without one honest thought to strengthen his sinking heart, or one honest friend to hold his shivering hand! if a man could only think of that, as he puts his name to the first little bill, as to which he is so good-naturedly assured that it can easily be renewed! when the three months had nearly run out, it so happened that robarts met his friend sowerby. mark had once or twice ridden with lord lufton as far as the meet of the hounds, and may, perhaps, have gone a field or two farther on some occasions. the reader must not think that he had taken to hunting, as some parsons do; and it is singular enough that whenever they do so they always show a special aptitude for the pursuit, as though hunting were an employment peculiarly congenial with a cure of souls in the country. such a thought would do our vicar injustice. but when lord lufton would ask him what on earth could be the harm of riding along the roads to look at the hounds, he hardly knew what sensible answer to give his lordship. it would be absurd to say that his time would be better employed at home in clerical matters, for it was notorious that he had not clerical pursuits for the employment of half his time. in this way, therefore, he had got into a habit of looking at the hounds, and keeping up his acquaintance in the county, meeting lord dumbello, mr. green walker, harold smith, and other such like sinners; and on one such occasion, as the three months were nearly closing, he did meet mr. sowerby. "look here, sowerby; i want to speak to you for half a moment. what are you doing about that bill?" "bill--bill! what bill?--which bill? the whole bill, and nothing but the bill. that seems to be the conversation now-a-days of all men, morning, noon, and night." "don't you know the bill i signed for you for four hundred pounds?" "did you, though? was not that rather green of you?" this did seem strange to mark. could it really be the fact that mr. sowerby had so many bills flying about that he had absolutely forgotten that occurrence in the gatherum castle bedroom? and then to be called green by the very man whom he had obliged! "perhaps i was," said mark, in a tone that showed that he was somewhat piqued. "but all the same i should be glad to know how it will be taken up." "oh, mark, what a ruffian you are to spoil my day's sport in this way. any man but a parson would be too good a christian for such intense cruelty. but let me see--four hundred pounds? oh, yes--tozer has it." "and what will tozer do with it?" "make money of it; whatever way he may go to work he will do that." "but will tozer bring it to me on the th?" "oh, lord, no! upon my word, mark, you are deliciously green. a cat would as soon think of killing a mouse directly she got it into her claws. but, joking apart, you need not trouble yourself. maybe you will hear no more about it; or, perhaps, which no doubt is more probable, i may have to send it to you to be renewed. but you need do nothing till you hear from me or somebody else." "only do not let any one come down upon me for the money." "there is not the slightest fear of that. tally-ho, old fellow! he's away. tally-ho! right over by gossetts' barn. come along, and never mind tozer--'sufficient for the day is the evil thereof.'" and away they both went together, parson and member of parliament. and then again on that occasion mark went home with a sort of feeling that the bill did not matter. tozer would manage it somehow; and it was quite clear that it would not do to tell his wife of it just at present. on the st of that month of february, however, he did receive a reminder that the bill and all concerning it had not merely been a farce. this was a letter from mr. sowerby, dated from chaldicotes, though not bearing the barchester post-mark, in which that gentleman suggested a renewal--not exactly of the old bill, but of a new one. it seemed to mark that the letter had been posted in london. if i give it entire, i shall, perhaps, most quickly explain its purport: chaldicotes,-- th february, --. my dear mark,--"lend not thy name to the money-dealers, for the same is a destruction and a snare." if that be not in the proverbs, it ought to be. tozer has given me certain signs of his being alive and strong this cold weather. as we can neither of us take up that bill for £ at the moment, we must renew it, and pay him his commission and interest, with all the rest of his perquisites, and pickings, and stealings--from all which, i can assure you, tozer does not keep his hands as he should do. to cover this and some other little outstanding trifles, i have filled in the new bill for £ , making it due rd of may next. before that time, a certain accident will, i trust, have occurred to your impoverished friend. by-the-by, i never told you how she went off from gatherum castle, the morning after you left us, with the greshams. cart-ropes would not hold her, even though the duke held them; which he did, with all the strength of his ducal hands. she would go to meet some doctor of theirs, and so i was put off for that time; but i think that the matter stands in a good train. do not lose a post in sending back the bill accepted, as tozer may annoy you--nay, undoubtedly will, if the matter be not in his hand, duly signed by both of us, the day after to-morrow. he is an ungrateful brute; he has lived on me for these eight years, and would not let me off a single squeeze now to save my life. but i am specially anxious to save you from the annoyance and cost of lawyers' letters; and if delayed, it might get into the papers. put it under cover to me, at no. , duke street, st. james's. i shall be in town by that time. good-bye, old fellow. that was a decent brush we had the other day from cobbold's ashes. i wish i could get that brown horse from you. i would not mind going to a hundred and thirty. yours ever, n. sowerby. when mark had read it through he looked down on his table to see whether the old bill had fallen from the letter; but no, there was no enclosure, and had been no enclosure but the new bill. and then he read the letter through again, and found that there was no word about the old bill,--not a syllable, at least, as to its whereabouts. sowerby did not even say that it would remain in his own hands. mark did not in truth know much about such things. it might be that the very fact of his signing this second document would render that first document null and void; and from sowerby's silence on the subject, it might be argued that this was so well known to be the case, that he had not thought of explaining it. but yet mark could not see how this should be so. but what was he to do? that threat of cost and lawyers, and specially of the newspapers, did have its effect upon him--as no doubt it was intended to do. and then he was utterly dumfounded by sowerby's impudence in drawing on him for £ instead of £ , "covering," as sowerby so good-humouredly said, "sundry little outstanding trifles." but at last he did sign the bill, and sent it off, as sowerby had directed. what else was he to do? fool that he was. a man always can do right, even though he has done wrong before. but that previous wrong adds so much difficulty to the path--a difficulty which increases in tremendous ratio, till a man at last is choked in his struggling, and is drowned beneath the waters. and then he put away sowerby's letter carefully, locking it up from his wife's sight. it was a letter that no parish clergyman should have received. so much he acknowledged to himself. but nevertheless it was necessary that he should keep it. and now again for a few hours this affair made him very miserable. chapter xiii. delicate hints. lady lufton had been greatly rejoiced at that good deed which her son did in giving up his leicestershire hunting, and coming to reside for the winter at framley. it was proper, and becoming, and comfortable in the extreme. an english nobleman ought to hunt in the county where he himself owns the fields over which he rides; he ought to receive the respect and honour due to him from his own tenants; he ought to sleep under a roof of his own, and he ought also--so lady lufton thought--to fall in love with a young embryo bride of his own mother's choosing. and then it was so pleasant to have him there in the house. lady lufton was not a woman who allowed her life to be what people in common parlance call dull. she had too many duties, and thought too much of them, to allow of her suffering from tedium and _ennui_. but nevertheless the house was more joyous to her when he was there. there was a reason for some little gaiety, which would never have been attracted thither by herself, but which, nevertheless, she did enjoy when it was brought about by his presence. she was younger and brighter when he was there, thinking more of the future and less of the past. she could look at him, and that alone was happiness to her. and then he was pleasant-mannered with her; joking with her on her little old-world prejudices in a tone that was musical to her ear as coming from him; smiling on her, reminding her of those smiles which she had loved so dearly when as yet he was all her own, lying there in his little bed beside her chair. he was kind and gracious to her, behaving like a good son, at any rate while he was there in her presence. when we add, to this, her fears that he might not be so perfect in his conduct when absent, we may well imagine that lady lufton was pleased to have him there at framley court. she had hardly said a word to him as to that five thousand pounds. many a night, as she lay thinking on her pillow, she said to herself that no money had ever been better expended, since it had brought him back to his own house. he had thanked her for it in his own open way, declaring that he would pay it back to her during the coming year, and comforting her heart by his rejoicing that the property had not been sold. "i don't like the idea of parting with an acre of it," he had said. "of course not, ludovic. never let the estate decrease in your hands. it is only by such resolutions as that that english noblemen and english gentlemen can preserve their country. i cannot bear to see property changing hands." "well, i suppose it's a good thing to have land in the market sometimes, so that the millionnaires may know what to do with their money." "god forbid that yours should be there!" and the widow made a little mental prayer that her son's acres might be protected from the millionnaires and other philistines. "why, yes: i don't exactly want to see a jew tailor investing his earnings at lufton," said the lord. "heaven forbid!" said the widow. all this, as i have said, was very nice. it was manifest to her ladyship, from his lordship's way of talking, that no vital injury had as yet been done: he had no cares on his mind, and spoke freely about the property: but nevertheless there were clouds even now, at this period of bliss, which somewhat obscured the brilliancy of lady lufton's sky. why was ludovic so slow in that affair of griselda grantly? why so often in these latter winter days did he saunter over to the parsonage? and then that terrible visit to gatherum castle! what actually did happen at gatherum castle, she never knew. we, however, are more intrusive, less delicate in our inquiries, and we can say. he had a very bad day's sport with the west barsetshire. the county is altogether short of foxes, and some one who understands the matter must take that point up before they can do any good. and after that he had had rather a dull dinner with the duke. sowerby had been there, and in the evening he and sowerby had played billiards. sowerby had won a pound or two, and that had been the extent of the damage done. but those saunterings over to the parsonage might be more dangerous. not that it ever occurred to lady lufton as possible that her son should fall in love with lucy robarts. lucy's personal attractions were not of a nature to give ground for such a fear as that. but he might turn the girl's head with his chatter; she might be fool enough to fancy any folly; and, moreover, people would talk. why should he go to the parsonage now more frequently than he had ever done before lucy came there? and then her ladyship, in reference to the same trouble, hardly knew how to manage her invitations to the parsonage. these hitherto had been very frequent, and she had been in the habit of thinking that they could hardly be too much so; but now she was almost afraid to continue the custom. she could not ask the parson and his wife without lucy; and when lucy was there, her son would pass the greater part of the evening in talking to her, or playing chess with her. now this did disturb lady lufton not a little. and then lucy took it all so quietly. on her first arrival at framley she had been so shy, so silent, and so much awestruck by the grandeur of framley court, that lady lufton had sympathized with her and encouraged her. she had endeavoured to moderate the blaze of her own splendour, in order that lucy's unaccustomed eyes might not be dazzled. but all this was changed now. lucy could listen to the young lord's voice by the hour together--without being dazzled in the least. under these circumstances two things occurred to her. she would speak either to her son or to fanny robarts, and by a little diplomacy have this evil remedied. and then she had to determine on which step she would take. "nothing could be more reasonable than ludovic." so at least she said to herself over and over again. but then ludovic understood nothing about such matters; and he had, moreover, a habit, inherited from his father, of taking the bit between his teeth whenever he suspected interference. drive him gently without pulling his mouth about, and you might take him anywhere, almost at any pace; but a smart touch, let it be ever so slight, would bring him on his haunches, and then it might be a question whether you could get him another mile that day. so that on the whole lady lufton thought that the other plan would be the best. i have no doubt that lady lufton was right. she got fanny up into her own den one afternoon, and seated her discreetly in an easy arm-chair, making her guest take off her bonnet, and showing by various signs that the visit was regarded as one of great moment. "fanny," she said, "i want to speak to you about something that is important and necessary to mention, and yet it is a very delicate affair to speak of." fanny opened her eyes, and said that she hoped that nothing was wrong. "no, my dear, i think nothing is wrong: i hope so, and i think i may say i'm sure of it; but then it's always well to be on one's guard." "yes, it is," said fanny, who knew that something unpleasant was coming--something as to which she might probably be called upon to differ from her ladyship. mrs. robarts' own fears, however, were running entirely in the direction of her husband;--and, indeed, lady lufton had a word or two to say on that subject also, only not exactly now. a hunting parson was not at all to her taste; but that matter might be allowed to remain in abeyance for a few days. "now, fanny, you know that we have all liked your sister-in-law, lucy, very much." and then mrs. robarts' mind was immediately opened, and she knew the rest as well as though it had all been spoken. "i need hardly tell you that, for i am sure we have shown it." "you have, indeed, as you always do." "and you must not think that i am going to complain," continued lady lufton. "i hope there is nothing to complain of," said fanny, speaking by no means in a defiant tone, but humbly as it were, and deprecating her ladyship's wrath. fanny had gained one signal victory over lady lufton, and on that account, with a prudence equal to her generosity, felt that she could afford to be submissive. it might, perhaps, not be long before she would be equally anxious to conquer again. "well, no; i don't think there is," said lady lufton. "nothing to complain of; but a little chat between you and me may, perhaps, set matters right, which, otherwise, might become troublesome." "is it about lucy?" "yes, my dear--about lucy. she is a very nice, good girl, and a credit to her father--" "and a great comfort to us," said fanny. "i am sure she is: she must be a very pleasant companion to you, and so useful about the children; but--" and then lady lufton paused for a moment; for she, eloquent and discreet as she always was, felt herself rather at a loss for words to express her exact meaning. "i don't know what i should do without her," said fanny, speaking with the object of assisting her ladyship in her embarrassment. "but the truth is this: she and lord lufton are getting into the way of being too much together--of talking to each other too exclusively. i am sure you must have noticed it, fanny. it is not that i suspect any evil. i don't think that i am suspicious by nature." "oh! no," said fanny. "but they will each of them get wrong ideas about the other, and about themselves. lucy will, perhaps, think that ludovic means more than he does, and ludovic will--" but it was not quite so easy to say what ludovic might do or think; but lady lufton went on: "i am sure that you understand me, fanny, with your excellent sense and tact. lucy is clever, and amusing, and all that; and ludovic, like all young men, is perhaps ignorant that his attentions may be taken to mean more than he intends--" "you don't think that lucy is in love with him?" "oh dear, no--nothing of the kind. if i thought it had come to that, i should recommend that she should be sent away altogether. i am sure she is not so foolish as that." "i don't think there is anything in it at all, lady lufton." "i don't think there is, my dear, and therefore i would not for worlds make any suggestion about it to lord lufton. i would not let him suppose that i suspected lucy of being so imprudent. but still, it may be well that you should just say a word to her. a little management now and then, in such matters, is so useful." "but what shall i say to her?" "just explain to her that any young lady who talks so much to the same young gentleman will certainly be observed--that people will accuse her of setting her cap at lord lufton. not that i suspect her--i give her credit for too much proper feeling: i know her education has been good, and her principles are upright. but people will talk of her. you must understand that, fanny, as well as i do." fanny could not help meditating whether proper feeling, education, and upright principles did forbid lucy robarts to fall in love with lord lufton; but her doubts on this subject, if she held any, were not communicated to her ladyship. it had never entered into her mind that a match was possible between lord lufton and lucy robarts, nor had she the slightest wish to encourage it now that the idea was suggested to her. on such a matter she could sympathize with lady lufton, though she did not completely agree with her as to the expediency of any interference. nevertheless, she at once offered to speak to lucy. "i don't think that lucy has any idea in her head upon the subject," said mrs. robarts. "i dare say not--i don't suppose she has. but young ladies sometimes allow themselves to fall in love, and then to think themselves very ill-used, just because they have had no idea in their head." "i will put her on her guard if you wish it, lady lufton." "exactly, my dear; that is just it. put her on her guard--that is all that is necessary. she is a dear, good, clever girl, and it would be very sad if anything were to interrupt our comfortable way of getting on with her." mrs. robarts knew to a nicety the exact meaning of this threat. if lucy would persist in securing to herself so much of lord lufton's time and attention, her visits to framley court must become less frequent. lady lufton would do much, very much, indeed, for her friends at the parsonage; but not even for them could she permit her son's prospects in life to be endangered. there was nothing more said between them, and mrs. robarts got up to take her leave, having promised to speak to lucy. "you manage everything so perfectly," said lady lufton, as she pressed mrs. robarts' hand, "that i am quite at ease now that i find you will agree with me." mrs. robarts did not exactly agree with her ladyship, but she hardly thought it worth her while to say so. mrs. robarts immediately started off on her walk to her own home, and when she had got out of the grounds into the road, where it makes a turn towards the parsonage, nearly opposite to podgens' shop, she saw lord lufton on horseback, and lucy standing beside him. it was already nearly five o'clock, and it was getting dusk; but as she approached, or rather as she came suddenly within sight of them, she could see that they were in close conversation. lord lufton's face was towards her, and his horse was standing still; he was leaning over towards his companion, and the whip, which he held in his right hand, hung almost over her arm and down her back, as though his hand had touched and perhaps rested on her shoulder. she was standing by his side, looking up into his face, with one gloved hand resting on the horse's neck. mrs. robarts, as she saw them, could not but own that there might be cause for lady lufton's fears. but then lucy's manner, as mrs. robarts approached, was calculated to dissipate any such fears, and to prove that there was no ground for them. she did not move from her position, or allow her hand to drop, or show that she was in any way either confused or conscious. she stood her ground, and when her sister-in-law came up was smiling and at her ease. "lord lufton wants me to learn to ride," said she. "to learn to ride!" said fanny, not knowing what answer to make to such a proposition. "yes," said he. "this horse would carry her beautifully: he is as quiet as a lamb, and i made gregory go out with him yesterday with a sheet hanging over him like a lady's habit, and the man got up into a lady's saddle." "i think gregory would make a better hand of it than lucy." "the horse cantered with him as though he had carried a lady all his life, and his mouth is like velvet; indeed, that is his fault--he is too soft-mouthed." "i suppose that's the same sort of thing as a man being soft-hearted," said lucy. "exactly: you ought to ride them both with a very light hand. they are difficult cattle to manage, but very pleasant when you know how to do it." "but you see i don't know how to do it," said lucy. "as regards the horse, you will learn in two days, and i do hope you will try. don't you think it will be an excellent thing for her, mrs. robarts?" "lucy has got no habit," said mrs. robarts, making use of the excuse common on all such occasions. "there is one of justinia's in the house, i know. she always leaves one here, in order that she may be able to ride when she comes." "she would not think of taking such a liberty with lady meredith's things," said fanny, almost frightened at the proposal. "of course it is out of the question, fanny," said lucy, now speaking rather seriously. "in the first place, i would not take lord lufton's horse; in the second place, i would not take lady meredith's habit; in the third place, i should be a great deal too much frightened; and, lastly, it is quite out of the question for a great many other very good reasons." "nonsense," said lord lufton. "a great deal of nonsense," said lucy, laughing, "but all of it of lord lufton's talking. but we are getting cold--are we not, fanny?--so we will wish you good-night." and then the two ladies shook hands with him, and walked on towards the parsonage. that which astonished mrs. robarts the most in all this was the perfectly collected manner in which lucy spoke and conducted herself. this connected, as she could not but connect it, with the air of chagrin with which lord lufton received lucy's decision, made it manifest to mrs. robarts that lord lufton was annoyed because lucy would not consent to learn to ride; whereas she, lucy herself, had given her refusal in a firm and decided tone, as though resolved that nothing more should be said about it. they walked on in silence for a minute or two, till they reached the parsonage gate, and then lucy said, laughing, "can't you fancy me sitting on that great big horse? i wonder what lady lufton would say if she saw me there, and his lordship giving me my first lesson?" "i don't think she would like it," said fanny. "i'm sure she would not. but i will not try her temper in that respect. sometimes i fancy that she does not even like seeing lord lufton talking to me." "she does not like it, lucy, when she sees him flirting with you." this mrs. robarts said rather gravely, whereas lucy had been speaking in a half-bantering tone. as soon as even the word flirting was out of fanny's mouth, she was conscious that she had been guilty of an injustice in using it. she had wished to say something which would convey to her sister-in-law an idea of what lady lufton would dislike; but in doing so, she had unintentionally brought against her an accusation. "flirting, fanny!" said lucy, standing still in the path, and looking up into her companion's face with all her eyes. "do you mean to say that i have been flirting with lord lufton?" "i did not say that." "or that i have allowed him to flirt with me?" "i did not mean to shock you, lucy." "what did you mean, fanny?" "why, just this: that lady lufton would not be pleased if he paid you marked attentions, and if you received them;--just like that affair of the riding; it was better to decline it." "of course i declined it; of course i never dreamt of accepting such an offer. go riding about the country on his horses! what have i done, fanny, that you should suppose such a thing?" "you have done nothing, dearest." "then why did you speak as you did just now?" "because i wished to put you on your guard. you know, lucy, that i do not intend to find fault with you; but you may be sure, as a rule, that intimate friendships between young gentlemen and young ladies are dangerous things." they then walked up to the hall-door in silence. when they had reached it, lucy stood in the doorway instead of entering it, and said, "fanny, let us take another turn together, if you are not tired." "no, i'm not tired." "it will be better that i should understand you at once,"--and then they again moved away from the house. "tell me truly now, do you think that lord lufton and i have been flirting?" "i do think that he is a little inclined to flirt with you." "and lady lufton has been asking you to lecture me about it?" poor mrs. robarts hardly knew what to say. she thought well of all the persons concerned, and was very anxious to behave well by all of them;--was particularly anxious to create no ill feeling, and wished that everybody should be comfortable, and on good terms with everybody else. but yet the truth was forced out of her when this question was asked so suddenly. "not to lecture you, lucy," she said at last. "well, to preach to me, or to talk to me, or to give me a lesson; to say something that shall drive me to put my back up against lord lufton?" "to caution you, dearest. had you heard what she said, you would hardly have felt angry with lady lufton." "well, to caution me. it is such a pleasant thing for a girl to be cautioned against falling in love with a gentleman, especially when the gentleman is very rich, and a lord, and all that sort of thing!" "nobody for a moment attributes anything wrong to you, lucy." "anything wrong--no. i don't know whether it would be anything wrong, even if i were to fall in love with him. i wonder whether they cautioned griselda grantly when she was here? i suppose when young lords go about, all the girls are cautioned as a matter of course. why do they not label him 'dangerous'?" and then again they were silent for a moment, as mrs. robarts did not feel that she had anything further to say on the matter. "'poison' should be the word with any one so fatal as lord lufton; and he ought to be made up of some particular colour, for fear he should be swallowed in mistake." "you will be safe, you see," said fanny, laughing, "as you have been specially cautioned as to this individual bottle." "ah! but what's the use of that after i have had so many doses? it is no good telling me about it now, when the mischief is done,--after i have been taking it for i don't know how long. dear! dear! dear! and i regarded it as a mere commonplace powder, good for the complexion. i wonder whether it's too late, or whether there's any antidote?" mrs. robarts did not always quite understand her sister-in-law, and now she was a little at a loss. "i don't think there's much harm done yet on either side," she said, cheerily. "ah! you don't know, fanny. but i do think that if i die--as i shall--i feel i shall;--and if so, i do think it ought to go very hard with lady lufton. why didn't she label him 'dangerous' in time?" and then they went into the house and up to their own rooms. it was difficult for any one to understand lucy's state of mind at present, and it can hardly be said that she understood it herself. she felt that she had received a severe blow in having been thus made the subject of remark with reference to lord lufton. she knew that her pleasant evenings at framley court were now over, and that she could not again talk to him in an unrestrained tone and without embarrassment. she had felt the air of the whole place to be very cold before her intimacy with him, and now it must be cold again. two homes had been open to her, framley court and the parsonage; and now, as far as comfort was concerned, she must confine herself to the latter. she could not again be comfortable in lady lufton's drawing-room. but then she could not help asking herself whether lady lufton was not right. she had had courage enough, and presence of mind, to joke about the matter when her sister-in-law spoke to her, and yet she was quite aware that it was no joking matter. lord lufton had not absolutely made love to her, but he had latterly spoken to her in a manner which she knew was not compatible with that ordinary comfortable masculine friendship with the idea of which she had once satisfied herself. was not fanny right when she said that intimate friendships of that nature were dangerous things? yes, lucy, very dangerous. lucy, before she went to bed that night, had owned to herself that they were so; and lying there with sleepless eyes and a moist pillow, she was driven to confess that the label would in truth be now too late, that the caution had come to her after the poison had been swallowed. was there any antidote? that was all that was left for her to consider. but, nevertheless, on the following morning she could appear quite at her ease. and when mark had left the house after breakfast, she could still joke with fanny as to lady lufton's poison cupboard. chapter xiv. mr. crawley of hogglestock. and then there was that other trouble in lady lufton's mind, the sins, namely, of her selected parson. she had selected him, and she was by no means inclined to give him up, even though his sins against parsondom were grievous. indeed she was a woman not prone to give up anything, and of all things not prone to give up a _protégé_. the very fact that she herself had selected him was the strongest argument in his favour. but his sins against parsondom were becoming very grievous in her eyes, and she was at a loss to know what steps to take. she hardly dared to take him to task, him himself. were she to do so, and should he then tell her to mind her own business--as he probably might do, though not in those words--there would be a schism in the parish; and almost anything would be better than that. the whole work of her life would be upset, all the outlets of her energy would be impeded if not absolutely closed, if a state of things were to come to pass in which she and the parson of her parish should not be on good terms. but what was to be done? early in the winter he had gone to chaldicotes and to gatherum castle, consorting with gamblers, whigs, atheists, men of loose pleasure, and proudieites. that she had condoned; and now he was turning out a hunting parson on her hands. it was all very well for fanny to say that he merely looked at the hounds as he rode about his parish. fanny might be deceived. being his wife, it might be her duty not to see her husband's iniquities. but lady lufton could not be deceived. she knew very well in what part of the county cobbold's ashes lay. it was not in framley parish, nor in the next parish to it. it was half-way across to chaldicotes--in the western division; and she had heard of that run in which two horses had been killed, and in which parson robarts had won such immortal glory among west barsetshire sportsmen. it was not easy to keep lady lufton in the dark as to matters occurring in her own county. all these things she knew, but as yet had not noticed, grieving over them in her own heart the more on that account. spoken grief relieves itself; and when one can give counsel, one always hopes at least that that counsel will be effective. to her son she had said, more than once, that it was a pity that mr. robarts should follow the hounds.--"the world has agreed that it is unbecoming in a clergyman," she would urge, in her deprecatory tone. but her son would by no means give her any comfort. "he doesn't hunt, you know--not as i do," he would say. "and if he did, i really don't see the harm of it. a man must have some amusement, even if he be an archbishop." "he has amusement at home," lady lufton would answer. "what does his wife do--and his sister?" this allusion to lucy, however, was very soon dropped. lord lufton would in no wise help her. he would not even passively discourage the vicar, or refrain from offering to give him a seat in going to the meets. mark and lord lufton had been boys together, and his lordship knew that mark in his heart would enjoy a brush across the country quite as well as he himself; and then what was the harm of it? lady lufton's best aid had been in mark's own conscience. he had taken himself to task more than once, and had promised himself that he would not become a sporting parson. indeed, where would be his hopes of ulterior promotion, if he allowed himself to degenerate so far as that? it had been his intention, in reviewing what he considered to be the necessary proprieties of clerical life, in laying out his own future mode of living, to assume no peculiar sacerdotal strictness; he would not be known as a denouncer of dancing or of card-tables, of theatres or of novel-reading; he would take the world around him as he found it, endeavouring by precept and practice to lend a hand to the gradual amelioration which christianity is producing; but he would attempt no sudden or majestic reforms. cake and ale would still be popular, and ginger be hot in the mouth, let him preach ever so--let him be never so solemn a hermit; but a bright face, a true trusting heart, a strong arm, and an humble mind, might do much in teaching those around him that men may be gay and yet not profligate, that women may be devout and yet not dead to the world. such had been his ideas as to his own future life; and though many would think that as a clergyman he should have gone about his work with more serious devotion of thought, nevertheless there was some wisdom in them;--some folly also, undoubtedly, as appeared by the troubles into which they led him. "i will not affect to think that to be bad," said he to himself, "which in my heart of hearts does not seem to be bad." and thus he resolved that he might live without contamination among hunting squires. and then, being a man only too prone by nature to do as others did around him, he found by degrees that that could hardly be wrong for him which he admitted to be right for others. but still his conscience upbraided him, and he declared to himself more than once that after this year he would hunt no more. and then his own fanny would look at him on his return home on those days in a manner that cut him to the heart. she would say nothing to him. she never inquired in a sneering tone, and with angry eyes, whether he had enjoyed his day's sport; but when he spoke of it, she could not answer him with enthusiasm; and in other matters which concerned him she was always enthusiastic. after a while, too, he made matters worse, for about the end of march he did another very foolish thing. he almost consented to buy an expensive horse from sowerby--an animal which he by no means wanted, and which, if once possessed, would certainly lead him into further trouble. a gentleman, when he has a good horse in his stable, does not like to leave him there eating his head off. if he be a gig-horse, the owner of him will be keen to drive a gig; if a hunter, the happy possessor will wish to be with a pack of hounds. "mark," said sowerby to him one day, when they were out together, "this brute of mine is so fresh, i can hardly ride him; you are young and strong; change with me for an hour or so." and then they did change, and the horse on which robarts found himself mounted went away with him beautifully. "he's a splendid animal," said mark, when they again met. "yes, for a man of your weight. he's thrown away upon me;--too much of a horse for my purposes. i don't get along now quite as well as i used to do. he is a nice sort of hunter; just rising six, you know." how it came to pass that the price of the splendid animal was mentioned between them, i need not describe with exactness. but it did come to pass that mr. sowerby told the parson that the horse should be his for £ . "and i really wish you'd take him," said sowerby. "it would be the means of partially relieving my mind of a great weight." mark looked up into his friend's face with an air of surprise, for he did not at the moment understand how this should be the case. "i am afraid, you know, that you will have to put your hand into your pocket sooner or later about that accursed bill--" mark shrank as the profane word struck his ears--"and i should be glad to think that you had got something in hand in the way of value." "do you mean that i shall have to pay the whole sum of £ ?" "oh! dear, no; nothing of the kind. but something i dare say you will have to pay: if you like to take dandy for a hundred and thirty, you can be prepared for that amount when tozer comes to you. the horse is dog cheap, and you will have a long day for your money." mark at first declared, in a quiet, determined tone, that he did not want the horse; but it afterwards appeared to him that if it were so fated that he must pay a portion of mr. sowerby's debts, he might as well repay himself to any extent within his power. it would be as well perhaps that he should take the horse and sell him. it did not occur to him that by so doing he would put it in mr. sowerby's power to say that some valuable consideration had passed between them with reference to this bill, and that he would be aiding that gentleman in preparing an inextricable confusion of money-matters between them. mr. sowerby well knew the value of this. it would enable him to make a plausible story, as he had done in that other case of lord lufton. "are you going to have dandy?" sowerby said to him again. "i can't say that i will just at present," said the parson. "what should i want of him now the season's over?" "exactly, my dear fellow; and what do i want of him now the season's over? if it were the beginning of october instead of the end of march, dandy would be up at two hundred and thirty instead of one: in six months' time that horse will be worth anything you like to ask for him. look at his bone." the vicar did look at his bones, examining the brute in a very knowing and unclerical manner. he lifted the animal's four feet, one after another, handling the frogs, and measuring with his eye the proportion of the parts; he passed his hand up and down the legs, spanning the bones of the lower joint; he peered into his eyes, took into consideration the width of his chest, the dip of his back, the form of his ribs, the curve of his haunches, and his capabilities for breathing when pressed by work. and then he stood away a little, eyeing him from the side, and taking in a general idea of the form and make of the whole. "he seems to stand over a little, i think," said the parson. "it's the lie of the ground. move him about, bob. there now, let him stand there." "he's not perfect," said mark. "i don't quite like his heels; but no doubt he's a nicish cut of a horse." "i rather think he is. if he were perfect, as you say, he would not be going into your stables for a hundred and thirty. do you ever remember to have seen a perfect horse?" "your mare mrs. gamp was as nearly perfect as possible." "even mrs. gamp had her faults. in the first place she was a bad feeder. but one certainly doesn't often come across anything much better than mrs. gamp." and thus the matter was talked over between them with much stable conversation, all of which tended to make sowerby more and more oblivious of his friend's sacred profession, and perhaps to make the vicar himself too frequently oblivious of it also. but no: he was not oblivious of it. he was even mindful of it; but mindful of it in such a manner that his thoughts on the subject were nowadays always painful. there is a parish called hogglestock lying away quite in the northern extremity of the eastern division of the county--lying also on the borders of the western division. i almost fear that it will become necessary, before this history be completed, to provide a map of barsetshire for the due explanation of all these localities. framley is also in the northern portion of the county, but just to the south of the grand trunk line of railway from which the branch to barchester strikes off at a point some thirty miles nearer to london. the station for framley court is silverbridge, which is, however, in the western division of the county. hogglestock is to the north of the railway, the line of which, however, runs through a portion of the parish, and it adjoins framley, though the churches are as much as seven miles apart. barsetshire, taken altogether, is a pleasant green tree-becrowded county, with large bosky hedges, pretty damp deep lanes, and roads with broad grass margins running along them. such is the general nature of the county; but just up in its northern extremity this nature alters. there it is bleak and ugly, with low artificial hedges and without wood; not uncultivated, as it is all portioned out into new-looking large fields, bearing turnips and wheat and mangel, all in due course of agricultural rotation; but it has none of the special beauties of english cultivation. there is not a gentleman's house in the parish of hogglestock besides that of the clergyman; and this, though it is certainly the house of a gentleman, can hardly be said to be fit to be so. it is ugly, and straight, and small. there is a garden attached to the house, half in front of it and half behind; but this garden, like the rest of the parish, is by no means ornamental, though sufficiently useful. it produces cabbages, but no trees: potatoes of, i believe, an excellent description, but hardly any flowers, and nothing worthy of the name of a shrub. indeed the whole parish of hogglestock should have been in the adjoining county, which is by no means so attractive as barsetshire;--a fact well known to those few of my readers who are well acquainted with their own country. mr. crawley, whose name has been mentioned in these pages, was the incumbent of hogglestock. on what principle the remuneration of our parish clergymen was settled when the original settlement was made, no deepest, keenest lover of middle-aged ecclesiastical black-letter learning can, i take it, now say. that the priests were to be paid from tithes of the parish produce, out of which tithes certain other good things were to be bought and paid for, such as church repairs and education, of so much the most of us have an inkling. that a rector, being a big sort of parson, owned the tithes of his parish in full,--or at any rate that part of them intended for the clergyman,--and that a vicar was somebody's deputy, and therefore entitled only to little tithes, as being a little body: of so much we that are simple in such matters have a general idea. but one cannot conceive that even in this way any approximation could have been made, even in those old mediæval days, towards a fair proportioning of the pay to the work. at any rate, it is clear enough that there is no such approximation now. and what a screech would there not be among the clergy of the church, even in these reforming days, if any over-bold reformer were to suggest that such an approximation should be attempted? let those who know clergymen, and like them, and have lived with them, only fancy it! clergymen to be paid, not according to the temporalities of any living which they may have acquired either by merit or favour, but in accordance with the work to be done! o doddington! and o stanhope, think of this, if an idea so sacrilegious can find entrance into your warm ecclesiastical bosoms! ecclesiastical work to be bought and paid for according to its quantity and quality! but, nevertheless, one may prophesy that we englishmen must come to this, disagreeable as the idea undoubtedly is. most pleasant-minded churchmen feel, i think, on this subject pretty much in the same way. our present arrangement of parochial incomes is beloved as being time-honoured, gentlemanlike, english, and picturesque. we would fain adhere to it closely as long as we can, but we know that we do so by the force of our prejudices, and not by that of our judgment. a time-honoured, gentlemanlike, english, picturesque arrangement is so far very delightful. but are there not other attributes very desirable--nay, absolutely necessary--in respect to which this time-honoured, picturesque arrangement is so very deficient? how pleasant it was, too, that one bishop should be getting fifteen thousand a year and another with an equal cure of parsons only four! that a certain prelate could get twenty thousand one year and his successor in the same diocese only five the next! there was something in it pleasant, and picturesque; it was an arrangement endowed with feudal charms, and the change which they have made was distasteful to many of us. a bishop with a regular salary, and no appanage of land and land-bailiffs, is only half a bishop. let any man prove to me the contrary ever so thoroughly--let me prove it to my own self ever so often--my heart in this matter is not thereby a whit altered. one liked to know that there was a dean or two who got his three thousand a year, and that old dr. purple held four stalls, one of which was golden, and the other three silver-gilt! such knowledge was always pleasant to me! a golden stall! how sweet is the sound thereof to church-loving ears! but bishops have been shorn of their beauty, and deans are in their decadence. a utilitarian age requires the fatness of the ecclesiastical land, in order that it may be divided out into small portions of provender, on which necessary working clergymen may live,--into portions so infinitesimally small that working clergymen can hardly live. and the full-blown rectors and vicars, with full-blown tithes--with tithes when too full-blown for strict utilitarian principles--will necessarily follow. stanhope and doddington must bow their heads, with such compensation for temporal rights as may be extracted,--but probably without such compensation as may be desired. in other trades, professions, and lines of life, men are paid according to their work. let it be so in the church. such will sooner or later be the edict of a utilitarian, reforming, matter-of-fact house of parliament. i have a scheme of my own on the subject, which i will not introduce here, seeing that neither men nor women would read it. and with reference to this matter, i will only here further explain that all these words have been brought about by the fact, necessary to be here stated, that mr. crawley only received one hundred and thirty pounds a year for performing the whole parochial duty of the parish of hogglestock. and hogglestock is a large parish. it includes two populous villages, abounding in brickmakers, a race of men very troublesome to a zealous parson who won't let men go rollicking to the devil without interference. hogglestock has full work for two men; and yet all the funds therein applicable to parson's work is this miserable stipend of one hundred and thirty pounds a year. it is a stipend neither picturesque, nor time-honoured, nor feudal, for hogglestock takes rank only as a perpetual curacy. mr. crawley has been mentioned before as a clergyman of whom mr. robarts said, that he almost thought it wrong to take a walk out of his own parish. in so saying mark robarts of course burlesqued his brother parson; but there can be no doubt that mr. crawley was a strict man,--a strict, stern, unpleasant man, and one who feared god and his own conscience. we must say a word or two of mr. crawley and his concerns. he was now some forty years of age, but of these he had not been in possession even of his present benefice for more than four or five. the first ten years of his life as a clergyman had been passed in performing the duties and struggling through the life of a curate in a bleak, ugly, cold parish on the northern coast of cornwall. it had been a weary life and a fearful struggle, made up of duties ill requited and not always satisfactorily performed, of love and poverty, of increasing cares, of sickness, debt, and death. for mr. crawley had married almost as soon as he was ordained, and children had been born to him in that chill, comfortless cornish cottage. he had married a lady well educated and softly nurtured, but not dowered with worldly wealth. they two had gone forth determined to fight bravely together; to disregard the world and the world's ways, looking only to god and to each other for their comfort. they would give up ideas of gentle living, of soft raiment, and delicate feeding. others,--those that work with their hands, even the bettermost of such workers--could live in decency and health upon even such provision as he could earn as a clergyman. in such manner would they live, so poorly and so decently, working out their work, not with their hands but with their hearts. and so they had established themselves, beginning the world with one bare-footed little girl of fourteen to aid them in their small household matters; and for a while they had both kept heart, loving each other dearly, and prospering somewhat in their work. but a man who has once walked the world as a gentleman knows not what it is to change his position, and place himself lower down in the social rank. much less can he know what it is so to put down the woman whom he loves. there are a thousand things, mean and trifling in themselves, which a man despises when he thinks of them in his philosophy, but to dispense with which puts his philosophy to so stern a proof. let any plainest man who reads this think of his usual mode of getting himself into his matutinal garments, and confess how much such a struggle would cost him. and then children had come. the wife of the labouring man does rear her children, and often rears them in health, without even so many appliances of comfort as found their way into mrs. crawley's cottage; but the task to her was almost more than she could accomplish. not that she ever fainted or gave way: she was made of the sterner metal of the two, and could last on while he was prostrate. and sometimes he was prostrate--prostrate in soul and spirit. then would he complain with bitter voice, crying out that the world was too hard for him, that his back was broken with his burden, that his god had deserted him. for days and days, in such moods, he would stay within his cottage, never darkening the door or seeing other face than those of his own inmates. those days were terrible both to him and her. he would sit there unwashed, with his unshorn face resting on his hand, with an old dressing-gown hanging loose about him, hardly tasting food, seldom speaking, striving to pray, but striving so frequently in vain. and then he would rise from his chair, and, with a burst of frenzy, call upon his creator to remove him from this misery. in these moments she never deserted him. at one period they had had four children, and though the whole weight of this young brood rested on her arms, on her muscles, on her strength of mind and body, she never ceased in her efforts to comfort him. then at length, falling utterly upon the ground, he would pour forth piteous prayers for mercy, and, after a night of sleep, would once more go forth to his work. but she never yielded to despair: the struggle was never beyond her powers of endurance. she had possessed her share of woman's loveliness, but that was now all gone. her colour quickly faded, and the fresh, soft tints soon deserted her face and forehead. she became thin, and rough, and almost haggard: thin, till her cheek-bones were nearly pressing through her skin, till her elbows were sharp, and her finger-bones as those of a skeleton. her eye did not lose its lustre, but it became unnaturally bright, prominent, and too large for her wan face. the soft brown locks which she had once loved to brush back, scorning, as she would boast to herself, to care that they should be seen, were now sparse enough and all untidy and unclean. it was matter of little thought now whether they were seen or no. whether he could be made fit to go into his pulpit--whether they might be fed--those four innocents--and their backs kept from the cold wind--that was now the matter of her thought. and then two of them died, and she went forth herself to see them laid under the frost-bound sod, lest he should faint in his work over their graves. for he would ask aid from no man--such at least was his boast through all. two of them died, but their illness had been long; and then debts came upon them. debt, indeed, had been creeping on them with slow but sure feet during the last five years. who can see his children hungry, and not take bread if it be offered? who can see his wife lying in sharpest want, and not seek a remedy if there be a remedy within reach? so debt had come upon them, and rude men pressed for small sums of money--for sums small to the world, but impossibly large to them. and he would hide himself within there, in that cranny of an inner chamber--hide himself with deep shame from the world, with shame, and a sinking heart, and a broken spirit. but had such a man no friend? it will be said. such men, i take it, do not make many friends. but this man was not utterly friendless. almost every year one visit was paid to him in his cornish curacy by a brother clergyman, an old college friend, who, as far as might in him lie, did give aid to the curate and his wife. this gentleman would take up his abode for a week at a farmer's in the neighbourhood, and though he found mr. crawley in despair, he would leave him with some drops of comfort in his soul. nor were the benefits in this respect all on one side. mr. crawley, though at some periods weak enough for himself, could be strong for others; and, more than once, was strong to the great advantage of this man whom he loved. and then, too, pecuniary assistance was forthcoming--in those earlier years not in great amount, for this friend was not then among the rich ones of the earth--but in amount sufficient for that moderate hearth, if only its acceptance could have been managed. but in that matter there were difficulties without end. of absolute money tenders mr. crawley would accept none. but a bill here and there was paid, the wife assisting; and shoes came for kate--till kate was placed beyond the need of shoes; and cloth for harry and frank found its way surreptitiously in beneath the cover of that wife's solitary trunk--cloth with which those lean fingers worked garments for the two boys, to be worn--such was god's will--only by the one. such were mr. and mrs. crawley in their cornish curacy, and during their severest struggles. to one who thinks that a fair day's work is worth a fair day's wages, it seems hard enough that a man should work so hard and receive so little. there will be those who think that the fault was all his own in marrying so young. but still there remains that question, is not a fair day's work worth a fair day's wages? this man did work hard--at a task perhaps the hardest of any that a man may do; and for ten years he earned some seventy pounds a year. will any one say that he received fair wages for his fair work, let him be married or single? and yet there are so many who would fain pay their clergy, if they only knew how to apply their money! but that is a long subject, as mr. robarts had told miss dunstable. such was mr. crawley in his cornish curacy. chapter xv. lady lufton's ambassador. and then, in the days which followed, that friend of mr. crawley's, whose name, by-the-by, is yet to be mentioned, received quick and great promotion. mr. arabin by name he was then;--dr. arabin afterwards, when that quick and great promotion reached its climax. he had been simply a fellow of lazarus in those former years. then he became vicar of st. ewold's, in east barsetshire, and had not yet got himself settled there when he married the widow bold, a widow with belongings in land and funded money, and with but one small baby as an encumbrance. nor had he even yet married her,--had only engaged himself so to do, when they made him dean of barchester--all which may be read in the diocesan and county chronicles. and now that he was wealthy, the new dean did contrive to pay the debts of his poor friend, some lawyer of camelford assisting him. it was but a paltry schedule after all, amounting in the total to something not much above a hundred pounds. and then, in the course of eighteen months, this poor piece of preferment fell in the dean's way, this incumbency of hogglestock with its stipend reaching one hundred and thirty pounds a year. even that was worth double the cornish curacy, and there was, moreover, a house attached to it. poor mrs. crawley, when she heard of it, thought that their struggles of poverty were now well nigh over. what might not be done with a hundred and thirty pounds by people who had lived for ten years on seventy? and so they moved away out of that cold, bleak country, carrying with them their humble household gods, and settled themselves in another country, cold and bleak also, but less terribly so than the former. they settled themselves, and again began their struggles against man's hardness and the devil's zeal. i have said that mr. crawley was a stern, unpleasant man; and it certainly was so. the man must be made of very sterling stuff, whom continued and undeserved misfortune does not make unpleasant. this man had so far succumbed to grief, that it had left upon him its marks, palpable and not to be effaced. he cared little for society, judging men to be doing evil who did care for it. he knew as a fact, and believed with all his heart, that these sorrows had come to him from the hand of god, and that they would work for his weal in the long run; but not the less did they make him morose, silent, and dogged. he had always at his heart a feeling that he and his had been ill-used, and too often solaced himself, at the devil's bidding, with the conviction that eternity would make equal that which life in this world had made so unequal;--the last bait that with which the devil angles after those who are struggling to elude his rod and line. the framley property did not run into the parish of hogglestock; but nevertheless lady lufton did what she could in the way of kindness to these new-comers. providence had not supplied hogglestock with a lady lufton, or with any substitute in the shape of lord or lady, squire or squiress. the hogglestock farmers, male and female, were a rude, rough set, not bordering in their social rank on the farmer gentle; and lady lufton, knowing this, and hearing something of these crawleys from mrs. arabin, the dean's wife, trimmed her lamps, so that they should shed a wider light, and pour forth some of their influence on that forlorn household. and as regards mrs. crawley, lady lufton by no means found that her work and good-will were thrown away. mrs. crawley accepted her kindness with thankfulness, and returned to some of the softnesses of life under her hand. as for dining at framley court, that was out of the question. mr. crawley, she knew, would not hear of it, even if other things were fitting and appliances were at command. indeed mrs. crawley at once said that she felt herself unfit to go through such a ceremony with anything like comfort. the dean, she said, would talk of their going to stay at the deanery; but she thought it quite impossible that either of them should endure even that. but, all the same, lady lufton was a comfort to her; and the poor woman felt that it was well to have a lady near her in case of need. the task was much harder with mr. crawley, but even with him it was not altogether unsuccessful. lady lufton talked to him of his parish and of her own; made mark robarts go to him, and by degrees did something towards civilizing him. between him and robarts too there grew up an intimacy rather than a friendship. robarts would submit to his opinion on matters of ecclesiastical and even theological law, would listen to him with patience, would agree with him where he could, and differ from him mildly when he could not. for robarts was a man who made himself pleasant to all men. and thus, under lady lufton's wing, there grew up a connection between framley and hogglestock, in which mrs. robarts also assisted. and now that lady lufton was looking about her, to see how she might best bring proper clerical influence to bear upon her own recreant fox-hunting parson, it occurred to her that she might use mr. crawley in the matter. mr. crawley would certainly be on her side as far as opinion went, and would have no fear as to expressing his opinion to his brother clergyman. so she sent for mr. crawley. in appearance he was the very opposite to mark robarts. he was a lean, slim, meagre man, with shoulders slightly curved, and pale, lank, long locks of ragged hair; his forehead was high, but his face was narrow; his small grey eyes were deeply sunken in his head, his nose was well-formed, his lips thin, and his mouth expressive. nobody could look at him without seeing that there was a purpose and a meaning in his countenance. he always wore, in summer and winter, a long dusky gray coat, which buttoned close up to his neck and descended almost to his heels. he was full six feet high, but being so slight in build, he looked as though he were taller. he came at once at lady lufton's bidding, putting himself into the gig beside the servant, to whom he spoke no single word during the journey. and the man, looking into his face, was struck with taciturnity. now mark robarts would have talked with him the whole way from hogglestock to framley court; discoursing partly as to horses and land, but partly also as to higher things. and then lady lufton opened her mind and told her griefs to mr. crawley, urging, however, through the whole length of her narrative, that mr. robarts was an excellent parish clergyman,--"just such a clergyman in his church as i would wish him to be," she explained, with the view of saving herself from an expression of any of mr. crawley's special ideas as to church teaching, and of confining him to the one subject-matter in hand; "but he got this living so young, mr. crawley, that he is hardly quite as steady as i could wish him to be. it has been as much my fault as his own in placing him in such a position so early in life." "i think it has," said mr. crawley, who might perhaps be a little sore on such a subject. "quite so, quite so," continued her ladyship, swallowing down with a gulp a certain sense of anger. "but that is done now, and is past cure. that mr. robarts will become a credit to his profession, i do not doubt, for his heart is in the right place and his sentiments are good; but i fear that at present he is succumbing to temptation." "i am told that he hunts two or three times a week. everybody round us is talking about it." "no, mr. crawley; not two or three times a week; very seldom above once, i think. and then i do believe he does it more with the view of being with lord lufton than anything else." "i cannot see that that would make the matter better," said mr. crawley. "it would show that he was not strongly imbued with a taste which i cannot but regard as vicious in a clergyman." "it must be vicious in all men," said mr. crawley. "it is in itself cruel, and leads to idleness and profligacy." again lady lufton made a gulp. she had called mr. crawley thither to her aid, and felt that it would be inexpedient to quarrel with him. but she did not like to be told that her son's amusement was idle and profligate. she had always regarded hunting as a proper pursuit for a country gentleman. it was, indeed, in her eyes one of the peculiar institutions of country life in england, and it may be almost said that she looked upon the barsetshire hunt as something sacred. she could not endure to hear that a fox was trapped, and allowed her turkeys to be purloined without a groan. such being the case, she did not like being told that it was vicious, and had by no means wished to consult mr. crawley on that matter. but nevertheless, she swallowed down her wrath. "it is at any rate unbecoming in a clergyman," she said; "and as i know that mr. robarts places a high value on your opinion, perhaps you will not object to advise him to discontinue it. he might possibly feel aggrieved were i to interfere personally on such a question." "i have no doubt he would," said mr. crawley. "it is not within a woman's province to give counsel to a clergyman on such a subject, unless she be very near and very dear to him--his wife, or mother, or sister." "as living in the same parish, you know, and being, perhaps--" the leading person in it, and the one who naturally rules the others. those would have been the fitting words for the expression of her ladyship's ideas; but she remembered herself, and did not use them. she had made up her mind that, great as her influence ought to be, she was not the proper person to speak to mr. robarts as to his pernicious, unclerical habits, and she would not now depart from her resolve by attempting to prove that she was the proper person. "yes," said mr. crawley, "just so. all that would entitle him to offer you his counsel if he thought that your mode of life was such as to require it, but could by no means justify you in addressing yourself to him." this was very hard upon lady lufton. she was endeavouring with all her woman's strength to do her best, and endeavouring so to do it that the feelings of the sinner might be spared; and yet the ghostly comforter whom she had evoked to her aid, treated her as though she were arrogant and overbearing. she acknowledged the weakness of her own position with reference to her parish clergyman by calling in the aid of mr. crawley; and under such circumstances, he might, at any rate, have abstained from throwing that weakness in her teeth. "well, sir; i hope my mode of life may not require it; but that is not exactly to the point: what i wish to know is, whether you will speak to mr. robarts?" "certainly i will," said he. "then i shall be much obliged to you. but, mr. crawley, pray--pray, remember this: i would not on any account wish that you should be harsh with him. he is an excellent young man, and--" "lady lufton, if i do this, i can only do it in my own way, as best i may, using such words as god may give me at the time. i hope that i am harsh to no man; but it is worse than useless, in all cases, to speak anything but the truth." "of course--of course." "if the ears be too delicate to hear the truth, the mind will be too perverse to profit by it." and then mr. crawley got up to take his leave. but lady lufton insisted that he should go with her to luncheon. he hummed and ha'd and would fain have refused, but on this subject she was peremptory. it might be that she was unfit to advise a clergyman as to his duties, but in a matter of hospitality she did know what she was about. mr. crawley should not leave the house without refreshment. as to this, she carried her point; and mr. crawley--when the matter before him was cold roast-beef and hot potatoes, instead of the relative position of a parish priest and his parishioner--became humble, submissive, and almost timid. lady lufton recommended madeira instead of sherry, and mr. crawley obeyed at once, and was, indeed, perfectly unconscious of the difference. then there was a basket of seakale in the gig for mrs. crawley; that he would have left behind had he dared, but he did not dare. not a word was said to him as to the marmalade for the children which was hidden under the seakale, lady lufton feeling well aware that that would find its way to its proper destination without any necessity for his co-operation. and then mr. crawley returned home in the framley court gig. three or four days after this he walked over to framley parsonage. this he did on a saturday, having learned that the hounds never hunted on that day; and he started early, so that he might be sure to catch mr. robarts before he went out on his parish business. he was quite early enough to attain this object, for when he reached the parsonage door at about half-past nine, the vicar, with his wife and sister, were just sitting down to breakfast. "oh, crawley," said robarts, before the other had well spoken, "you are a capital fellow;" and then he got him into a chair, and mrs. robarts had poured him out tea, and lucy had surrendered to him a knife and plate, before he knew under what guise to excuse his coming among them. "i hope you will excuse this intrusion," at last he muttered; "but i have a few words of business to which i will request your attention presently." "certainly," said robarts, conveying a broiled kidney on to the plate before mr. crawley; "but there is no preparation for business like a good breakfast. lucy, hand mr. crawley the buttered toast. eggs, fanny; where are the eggs?" and then john, in livery, brought in the fresh eggs. "now we shall do. i always eat my eggs while they're hot, crawley, and i advise you to do the same." to all this mr. crawley said very little, and he was not at all at home under the circumstances. perhaps a thought did pass across his brain, as to the difference between the meal which he had left on his own table, and that which he now saw before him; and as to any cause which might exist for such difference. but, if so, it was a very fleeting thought, for he had far other matter now fully occupying his mind. and then the breakfast was over, and in a few minutes the two clergymen found themselves together in the parsonage study. "mr. robarts," began the senior, when he had seated himself uncomfortably on one of the ordinary chairs at the farther side of the well-stored library table, while mark was sitting at his ease in his own arm-chair by the fire, "i have called upon you on an unpleasant business." mark's mind immediately flew off to mr. sowerby's bill, but he could not think it possible that mr. crawley could have had anything to do with that. "but as a brother clergyman, and as one who esteems you much and wishes you well, i have thought myself bound to take this matter in hand." "what matter is it, crawley?" "mr. robarts, men say that your present mode of life is one that is not befitting a soldier in christ's army." "men say so! what men?" "the men around you, of your own neighbourhood; those who watch your life, and know all your doings; those who look to see you walking as a lamp to guide their feet, but find you consorting with horse-jockeys and hunters, galloping after hounds, and taking your place among the vainest of worldly pleasure-seekers. those who have a right to expect an example of good living, and who think that they do not see it." mr. crawley had gone at once to the root of the matter, and in doing so had certainly made his own task so much the easier. there is nothing like going to the root of the matter at once when one has on hand an unpleasant piece of business. "and have such men deputed you to come here?" "no one has or could depute me. i have come to speak my own mind, not that of any other. but i refer to what those around you think and say, because it is to them that your duties are due. you owe it to those around you to live a godly, cleanly life;--as you owe it also, in a much higher way, to your father who is in heaven. i now make bold to ask you whether you are doing your best to lead such a life as that?" and then he remained silent, waiting for an answer. he was a singular man; so humble and meek, so unutterably inefficient and awkward in the ordinary intercourse of life, but so bold and enterprising, almost eloquent, on the one subject which was the work of his mind! as he sat there, he looked into his companion's face from out his sunken grey eyes with a gaze which made his victim quail. and then repeated his words: "i now make bold to ask you, mr. robarts, whether you are doing your best to lead such a life as may become a parish clergyman among his parishioners?" and again he paused for an answer. "there are but few of us," said mark in a low tone, "who could safely answer that question in the affirmative." "but are there many, think you, among us who would find the question so unanswerable as yourself? and even were there many, would you, young, enterprising, and talented as you are, be content to be numbered among them? are you satisfied to be a castaway after you have taken upon yourself christ's armour? if you will say so, i am mistaken in you, and will go my way." there was again a pause, and then he went on. "speak to me, my brother, and open your heart if it be possible." and rising from his chair, he walked across the room, and laid his hand tenderly on mark's shoulder. mark had been sitting lounging in his chair, and had at first, for a moment only, thought to brazen it out. but all idea of brazening had now left him. he had raised himself from his comfortable ease, and was leaning forward with his elbow on the table; but now, when he heard these words, he allowed his head to sink upon his arms, and he buried his face between his hands. "it is a terrible falling off," continued crawley: "terrible in the fall, but doubly terrible through that difficulty of returning. but it cannot be that it should content you to place yourself as one among those thoughtless sinners, for the crushing of whose sin you have been placed here among them. you become a hunting parson, and ride with a happy mind among blasphemers and mocking devils--you, whose aspirations were so high, who have spoken so often and so well of the duties of a minister of christ; you, who can argue in your pride as to the petty details of your church, as though the broad teachings of its great and simple lessons were not enough for your energies! it cannot be that i have had a hypocrite beside me in all those eager controversies!" "not a hypocrite--not a hypocrite," said mark, in a tone which was almost reduced to sobbing. "but a castaway! is it so that i must call you? no, mr. robarts, not a castaway; neither a hypocrite, nor a castaway; but one who in walking has stumbled in the dark and bruised his feet among the stones. henceforth let him take a lantern in his hand, and look warily to his path, and walk cautiously among the thorns and rocks,--cautiously, but yet boldly, with manly courage, but christian meekness, as all men should walk on their pilgrimage through this vale of tears." and then without giving his companion time to stop him he hurried out of the room, and from the house, and without again seeing any others of the family, stalked back on his road to hogglestock, thus tramping fourteen miles through the deep mud in performance of the mission on which he had been sent. it was some hours before mr. robarts left his room. as soon as he found that crawley was really gone, and that he should see him no more, he turned the lock of his door, and sat himself down to think over his present life. at about eleven his wife knocked, not knowing whether that other strange clergyman were there or no, for none had seen his departure. but mark, answering cheerily, desired that he might be left to his studies. let us hope that his thoughts and mental resolves were then of service to him. chapter xvi. mrs. podgens' baby. the hunting season had now nearly passed away, and the great ones of the barsetshire world were thinking of the glories of london. of these glories lady lufton always thought with much inquietude of mind. she would fain have remained throughout the whole year at framley court, did not certain grave considerations render such a course on her part improper in her own estimation. all the lady luftons of whom she had heard, dowager and ante-dowager, had always had their seasons in london, till old age had incapacitated them for such doings--sometimes for clearly long after the arrival of such period. and then she had an idea, perhaps not altogether erroneous, that she annually imported back with her into the country somewhat of the passing civilization of the times:--may we not say an idea that certainly was not erroneous? for how otherwise is it that the forms of new caps and remodelled shapes for women's waists find their way down into agricultural parts, and that the rural eye learns to appreciate grace and beauty? there are those who think that remodelled waists and new caps had better be kept to the towns; but such people, if they would follow out their own argument, would wish to see ploughboys painted with ruddle and milkmaids covered with skins. for these and other reasons lady lufton always went to london in april, and stayed there till the beginning of june. but for her this was usually a period of penance. in london she was no very great personage. she had never laid herself out for greatness of that sort, and did not shine as a lady-patroness or state secretary in the female cabinet of fashion. she was dull and listless, and without congenial pursuits in london, and spent her happiest moments in reading accounts of what was being done at framley, and in writing orders for further local information of the same kind. but on this occasion there was a matter of vital import to give an interest of its own to her visit to town. she was to entertain griselda grantly, and as far as might be possible to induce her son to remain in griselda's society. the plan of the campaign was to be as follows:--mrs. grantly and the archdeacon were in the first place to go up to london for a month, taking griselda with them; and then, when they returned to plumstead, griselda was to go to lady lufton. this arrangement was not at all points agreeable to lady lufton, for she knew that mrs. grantly did not turn her back on the hartletop people quite as cordially as she should do, considering the terms of the lufton-grantly family treaty. but then mrs. grantly might have alleged in excuse the slow manner in which lord lufton proceeded in the making and declaring of his love, and the absolute necessity which there is for two strings to one's bow, when one string may be in any way doubtful. could it be possible that mrs. grantly had heard anything of that unfortunate platonic friendship with lucy robarts? there came a letter from mrs. grantly just about the end of march, which added much to lady lufton's uneasiness, and made her more than ever anxious to be herself on the scene of action and to have griselda in her own hands. after some communications of mere ordinary importance with reference to the london world in general and the lufton-grantly world in particular, mrs. grantly wrote confidentially about her daughter: "it would be useless to deny," she said, with a mother's pride and a mother's humility, "that she is very much admired. she is asked out a great deal more than i can take her, and to houses to which i myself by no means wish to go. i could not refuse her as to lady hartletop's first ball, for there will be nothing else this year like them; and of course when with you, dear lady lufton, that house will be out of the question. so indeed would it be with me, were i myself only concerned. the duke was there, of course, and i really wonder lady hartletop should not be more discreet in her own drawing-room when all the world is there. it is clear to me that lord dumbello admires griselda much more than i could wish. she, dear girl, has such excellent sense that i do not think it likely that her head should be turned by it; but with how many girls would not the admiration of such a man be irresistible? the marquis, you know, is very feeble, and i am told that since this rage for building has come on, the lancashire property is over two hundred thousand a year!! i do not think that lord dumbello has said much to her. indeed it seems to me that he never does say much to any one. but he always stands up to dance with her, and i see that he is uneasy and fidgety when she stands up with any other partner whom he could care about. it was really embarrassing to see him the other night at miss dunstable's, when griselda was dancing with a certain friend of ours. but she did look very well that evening, and i have seldom seen her more animated!" all this, and a great deal more of the same sort in the same letter, tended to make lady lufton anxious to be in london. it was quite certain--there was no doubt of that, at any rate--that griselda would see no more of lady hartletop's meretricious grandeur when she had been transferred to lady lufton's guardianship. and she, lady lufton, did wonder that mrs. grantly should have taken her daughter to such a house. all about lady hartletop was known to all the world. it was known that it was almost the only house in london at which the duke of omnium was constantly to be met. lady lufton herself would almost as soon think of taking a young girl to gatherum castle; and on these accounts she did feel rather angry with her friend mrs. grantly. but then perhaps she did not sufficiently calculate that mrs. grantly's letter had been written purposely to produce such feelings--with the express view of awakening her ladyship to the necessity of action. indeed in such a matter as this mrs. grantly was a more able woman than lady lufton--more able to see her way and to follow it out. the lufton-grantly alliance was in her mind the best, seeing that she did not regard money as everything. but failing that, the hartletop-grantly alliance was not bad. regarding it as a second string to her bow, she thought that it was not at all bad. lady lufton's reply was very affectionate. she declared how happy she was to know that griselda was enjoying herself; she insinuated that lord dumbello was known to the world as a fool, and his mother as--being not a bit better than she ought to be; and then she added that circumstances would bring herself up to town four days sooner than she had expected, and that she hoped her dear griselda would come to her at once. lord lufton, she said, though he would not sleep in bruton street--lady lufton lived in bruton street--had promised to pass there as much of his time as his parliamentary duties would permit. o lady lufton! lady lufton! did it not occur to you, when you wrote those last words, intending that they should have so strong an effect on the mind of your correspondent, that you were telling a--tarradiddle? was it not the case that you had said to your son, in your own dear, kind, motherly way: "ludovic, we shall see something of you in bruton street this year, shall we not? griselda grantly will be with me, and we must not let her be dull--must we?" and then had he not answered, "oh, of course, mother," and sauntered out of the room, not altogether graciously? had he, or you, said a word about his parliamentary duties? not a word! o lady lufton! have you not now written a tarradiddle to your friend? in these days we are becoming very strict about truth with our children; terribly strict occasionally, when we consider the natural weakness of the moral courage at the ages of ten, twelve, and fourteen. but i do not know that we are at all increasing the measure of strictness with which we, grown-up people, regulate our own truth and falsehood. heaven forbid that i should be thought to advocate falsehood in children; but an untruth is more pardonable in them than in their parents. lady lufton's tarradiddle was of a nature that is usually considered excusable--at least with grown people; but, nevertheless, she would have been nearer to perfection could she have confined herself to the truth. let us suppose that a boy were to write home from school, saying that another boy had promised to come and stay with him, that other having given no such promise--what a very naughty boy would that first boy be in the eyes of his pastors and masters! that little conversation between lord lufton and his mother--in which nothing was said about his lordship's parliamentary duties--took place on the evening before he started for london. on that occasion he certainly was not in his best humour, nor did he behave to his mother in his kindest manner. he had then left the room when she began to talk about miss grantly; and once again in the course of the evening, when his mother, not very judiciously, said a word or two about griselda's beauty, he had remarked that she was no conjuror, and would hardly set the thames on fire. "if she were a conjuror!" said lady lufton, rather piqued, "i should not now be going to take her out in london. i know many of those sort of girls whom you call conjurors; they can talk for ever, and always talk either loudly or in a whisper. i don't like them, and i am sure that you do not in your heart." "oh, as to liking them in my heart--that is being very particular." "griselda grantly is a lady, and as such i shall be happy to have her with me in town. she is just the girl that justinia will like to have with her." "exactly," said lord lufton. "she will do exceedingly well for justinia." now this was not good-natured on the part of lord lufton; and his mother felt it the more strongly, inasmuch as it seemed to signify that he was setting his back up against the lufton-grantly alliance. she had been pretty sure that he would do so in the event of his suspecting that a plot was being laid to catch him; and now it almost appeared that he did suspect such a plot. why else that sarcasm as to griselda doing very well for his sister? and now we must go back and describe a little scene at framley which will account for his lordship's ill-humour and suspicions, and explain how it came to pass that he so snubbed his mother. this scene took place about ten days after the evening on which mrs. robarts and lucy were walking together in the parsonage garden, and during those ten days lucy had not once allowed herself to be entrapped into any special conversation with the young peer. she had dined at framley court during that interval, and had spent a second evening there; lord lufton had also been up at the parsonage on three or four occasions, and had looked for her in her usual walks; but, nevertheless, they had never come together in their old familiar way, since the day on which lady lufton had hinted her fears to mrs. robarts. lord lufton had very much missed her. at first he had not attributed this change to a purposed scheme of action on the part of any one; nor, indeed, had he much thought about it, although he had felt himself to be annoyed. but as the period fixed for his departure grew near, it did occur to him as very odd that he should never hear lucy's voice unless when she said a few words to his mother, or to her sister-in-law. and then he made up his mind that he would speak to her before he went, and that the mystery should be explained to him. and he carried out his purpose, calling at the parsonage on one special afternoon; and it was on the evening of the same day that his mother sang the praises of griselda grantly so inopportunely. robarts, he knew, was then absent from home, and mrs. robarts was with his mother down at the house, preparing lists of the poor people to be specially attended to in lady lufton's approaching absence. taking advantage of this, he walked boldly in through the parsonage garden; asked the gardener, with an indifferent voice, whether either of the ladies were at home, and then caught poor lucy exactly on the doorstep of the house. "were you going in or out, miss robarts?" "well, i was going out," said lucy; and she began to consider how best she might get quit of any prolonged encounter. "oh, going out, were you? i don't know whether i may offer to--" "well, lord lufton, not exactly, seeing that i am about to pay a visit to our near neighbour, mrs. podgens. perhaps you have no particular call towards mrs. podgens' just at present, or to her new baby?" "and have you any very particular call that way?" "yes, and especially to baby podgens. baby podgens is a real little duck--only just two days old." and lucy, as she spoke, progressed a step or two, as though she were determined not to remain there talking on the doorstep. a slight cloud came across his brow as he saw this, and made him resolve that she should not gain her purpose. he was not going to be foiled in that way by such a girl as lucy robarts. he had come there to speak to her, and speak to her he would. there had been enough of intimacy between them to justify him in demanding, at any rate, as much as that. "miss robarts," he said, "i am starting for london to-morrow, and if i do not say good-bye to you now, i shall not be able to do so at all." "good-bye, lord lufton," she said, giving him her hand, and smiling on him with her old genial, good-humoured, racy smile. "and mind you bring into parliament that law which you promised me for defending my young chickens." he took her hand, but that was not all that he wanted. "surely mrs. podgens and her baby can wait ten minutes. i shall not see you again for months to come, and yet you seem to begrudge me two words." "not two hundred if they can be of any service to you," said she, walking cheerily back into the drawing-room; "only i did not think it worth while to waste your time, as fanny is not here." she was infinitely more collected, more master of herself than he was. inwardly, she did tremble at the idea of what was coming, but outwardly she showed no agitation--none as yet; if only she could so possess herself as to refrain from doing so, when she heard what he might have to say to her. he hardly knew what it was for the saying of which he had so resolutely come thither. he had by no means made up his mind that he loved lucy robarts; nor had he made up his mind that, loving her, he would, or that, loving her, he would not, make her his wife. he had never used his mind in the matter in any way, either for good or evil. he had learned to like her and to think that she was very pretty. he had found out that it was very pleasant to talk to her; whereas, talking to griselda grantly, and, indeed, to some other young ladies of his acquaintance, was often hard work. the half-hours which he had spent with lucy had always been satisfactory to him. he had found himself to be more bright with her than with other people, and more apt to discuss subjects worth discussing; and thus it had come about that he thoroughly liked lucy robarts. as to whether his affection was platonic or anti-platonic he had never asked himself; but he had spoken words to her, shortly before that sudden cessation of their intimacy, which might have been taken as anti-platonic by any girl so disposed to regard them. he had not thrown himself at her feet, and declared himself to be devoured by a consuming passion; but he had touched her hand as lovers touch those of women whom they love; he had had his confidences with her, talking to her of his own mother, of his sister, and of his friends; and he had called her his own dear friend lucy. all this had been very sweet to her, but very poisonous also. she had declared to herself very frequently that her liking for this young nobleman was as purely a feeling of mere friendship as was that of her brother; and she had professed to herself that she would give the lie to the world's cold sarcasms on such subjects. but she had now acknowledged that the sarcasms of the world on that matter, cold though they may be, are not the less true; and having so acknowledged, she had resolved that all close alliance between herself and lord lufton must be at an end. she had come to a conclusion, but he had come to none; and in this frame of mind he was now there with the object of reopening that dangerous friendship which she had had the sense to close. "and so you are going to-morrow?" she said, as soon as they were both within the drawing-room. "yes: i'm off by the early train to-morrow morning, and heaven knows when we may meet again." "next winter, shall we not?" "yes, for a day or two, i suppose. i do not know whether i shall pass another winter here. indeed, one can never say where one will be." "no, one can't; such as you, at least, cannot. i am not of a migratory tribe myself." "i wish you were." "i'm not a bit obliged to you. your nomade life does not agree with young ladies." "i think they are taking to it pretty freely, then. we have unprotected young women all about the world." "and great bores you find them, i suppose?" "no; i like it. the more we can get out of old-fashioned grooves the better i am pleased. i should be a radical to-morrow--a regular man of the people,--only i should break my mother's heart." "whatever you do, lord lufton, do not do that." "that is why i have liked you so much," he continued, "because you get out of the grooves." "do i?" "yes; and go along by yourself, guiding your own footsteps; not carried hither and thither, just as your grandmother's old tramway may chance to take you." "do you know i have a strong idea that my grandmother's old tramway will be the safest and the best after all? i have not left it very far, and i certainly mean to go back to it." "that's impossible! an army of old women, with coils of ropes made out of time-honoured prejudices, could not drag you back." "no, lord lufton, that is true. but one--" and then she stopped herself. she could not tell him that one loving mother, anxious for her only son, had sufficed to do it. she could not explain to him that this departure from the established tramway had already broken her own rest, and turned her peaceful happy life into a grievous battle. "i know that you are trying to go back," he said. "do you think that i have eyes and cannot see? come, lucy, you and i have been friends, and we must not part in this way. my mother is a paragon among women. i say it in earnest;--a paragon among women: and her love for me is the perfection of motherly love." "it is, it is; and i am so glad that you acknowledge it." "i should be worse than a brute did i not do so; but, nevertheless, i cannot allow her to lead me in all things. were i to do so, i should cease to be a man." "where can you find any one who will counsel you so truly?" "but, nevertheless, i must rule myself. i do not know whether my suspicions may be perfectly just, but i fancy that she has created this estrangement between you and me. has it not been so?" "certainly not by speaking to me," said lucy, blushing ruby-red through every vein of her deep-tinted face. but though she could not command her blood, her voice was still under her control--her voice and her manner. "but has she not done so? you, i know, will tell me nothing but the truth." "i will tell you nothing on this matter, lord lufton, whether true or false. it is a subject on which it does not concern me to speak." "ah! i understand," he said; and rising from his chair, he stood against the chimney-piece with his back to the fire. "she cannot leave me alone to choose for myself my own friends, and my own--;" but he did not fill up the void. "but why tell me this, lord lufton?" "no! i am not to choose my own friends, though they be among the best and purest of god's creatures. lucy, i cannot think that you have ceased to have a regard for me. that you had a regard for me, i am sure." she felt that it was almost unmanly of him thus to seek her out, and hunt her down, and then throw upon her the whole weight of the explanation that his coming thither made necessary. but, nevertheless, the truth must be told, and with god's help she would find strength for the telling of it. "yes, lord lufton, i had a regard for you--and have. by that word you mean something more than the customary feeling of acquaintance which may ordinarily prevail between a gentleman and lady of different families, who have known each other so short a time as we have done." "yes, something much more," said he, with energy. "well, i will not define the much--something closer than that." "yes, and warmer, and dearer, and more worthy of two human creatures who value each other's minds and hearts." "some such closer regard i have felt for you--very foolishly. stop! you have made me speak, and do not interrupt me now. does not your conscience tell you that in doing so i have unwisely deserted those wise old grandmother's tramways of which you spoke just now? it has been pleasant to me to do so. i have liked the feeling of independence with which i have thought that i might indulge in an open friendship with such as you are. and your rank, so different from my own, has doubtless made this more attractive." "nonsense!" "ah! but it has. i know it now. but what will the world say of me as to such an alliance?" "the world!" "yes, the world! i am not such a philosopher as to disregard it, though you may afford to do so. the world will say that i, the parson's sister, set my cap at the young lord, and that the young lord had made a fool of me." "the world shall say no such thing!" said lord lufton, very imperiously. "ah! but it will. you can no more stop it, than king canute could the waters. your mother has interfered wisely to spare me from this; and the only favour that i can ask you is, that you will spare me also." and then she got up as though she intended at once to walk forth to her visit to mrs. podgens' baby. "stop, lucy!" he said, putting himself between her and the door. "it must not be lucy any longer, lord lufton; i was madly foolish when i first allowed it." "by heavens! but it shall be lucy--lucy before all the world. my lucy, my own lucy--my heart's best friend, and chosen love. lucy, there is my hand. how long you may have had my heart, it matters not to say now." the game was at her feet now, and no doubt she felt her triumph. her ready wit and speaking lip, not her beauty, had brought him to her side; and now he was forced to acknowledge that her power over him had been supreme. sooner than leave her he would risk all. she did feel her triumph; but there was nothing in her face to tell him that she did so. as to what she would now do she did not for a moment doubt. he had been precipitated into the declaration he had made, not by his love, but by his embarrassment. she had thrown in his teeth the injury which he had done her, and he had then been moved by his generosity to repair that injury by the noblest sacrifice which he could make. but lucy robarts was not the girl to accept a sacrifice. he had stepped forward as though he were going to clasp her round the waist, but she receded, and got beyond the reach of his hand. "lord lufton!" she said, "when you are more cool you will know that this is wrong. the best thing for both of us now is to part." "not the best thing, but the very worst, till we perfectly understand each other." "then perfectly understand me, that i cannot be your wife." "lucy! do you mean that you cannot learn to love me?" "i mean that i shall not try. do not persevere in this, or you will have to hate yourself for your own folly." "but i will persevere till you accept my love, or say with your hand on your heart that you cannot and will not love me." "then i must beg you to let me go," and having so said, she paused while he walked once or twice hurriedly up and down the room. "and, lord lufton," she continued, "if you will leave me now, the words that you have spoken shall be as though they had never been uttered." "i care not who knows that they have been uttered. the sooner that they are known to all the world, the better i shall be pleased, unless indeed--" "think of your mother, lord lufton." "what can i do better than give her as a daughter the best and sweetest girl i have ever met? when my mother really knows you, she will love you as i do. lucy, say one word to me of comfort." "i will say no word to you that shall injure your future comfort. it is impossible that i should be your wife." "do you mean that you cannot love me?" "you have no right to press me any further," she said; and sat down upon the sofa, with an angry frown upon her forehead. "by heavens," he said, "i will take no such answer from you till you put your hand upon your heart, and say that you cannot love me." "oh, why should you press me so, lord lufton?" "why! because my happiness depends upon it; because it behoves me to know the very truth. it has come to this, that i love you with my whole heart, and i must know how your heart stands towards me." she had now again risen from the sofa, and was looking steadily in his face. "lord lufton," she said, "i cannot love you," and as she spoke she did put her hand, as he had desired, upon her heart. "then god help me! for i am very wretched. good-bye, lucy," and he stretched out his hand to her. "good-bye, my lord. do not be angry with me." "no, no, no!" and without further speech he left the room and the house, and hurried home. it was hardly surprising that he should that evening tell his mother that griselda grantly would be a companion sufficiently good for his sister. he wanted no such companion. and when he was well gone--absolutely out of sight from the window--lucy walked steadily up to her room, locked the door, and then threw herself on the bed. why--oh! why had she told such a falsehood? could anything justify her in a lie? was it not a lie--knowing as she did that she loved him with all her loving heart? [illustration: "was it not a lie?"] but, then, his mother! and the sneers of the world, which would have declared that she had set her trap, and caught the foolish young lord! her pride would not have submitted to that. strong as her love was, yet her pride was, perhaps, stronger--stronger at any rate during that interview. but how was she to forgive herself the falsehood she had told? chapter xvii. mrs. proudie's conversazione. it was grievous to think of the mischief and danger into which griselda grantly was brought by the worldliness of her mother in those few weeks previous to lady lufton's arrival in town--very grievous, at least, to her ladyship, as from time to time she heard of what was done in london. lady hartletop's was not the only objectionable house at which griselda was allowed to reap fresh fashionable laurels. it had been stated openly in the _morning post_ that that young lady had been the most admired among the beautiful at one of miss dunstable's celebrated _soirées_, and then she was heard of as gracing the drawing-room at mrs. proudie's conversazione. of miss dunstable herself lady lufton was not able openly to allege any evil. she was acquainted, lady lufton knew, with very many people of the right sort, and was the dear friend of lady lufton's highly conservative and not very distant neighbours, the greshams. but then she was also acquainted with so many people of the bad sort. indeed, she was intimate with everybody, from the duke of omnium to old dowager lady goodygaffer, who had represented all the cardinal virtues for the last quarter of a century. she smiled with equal sweetness on treacle and on brimstone; was quite at home at exeter hall, having been consulted--so the world said, probably not with exact truth--as to the selection of more than one disagreeably low church bishop; and was not less frequent in her attendance at the ecclesiastical doings of a certain terrible prelate in the midland counties, who was supposed to favour stoles and vespers, and to have no proper protestant hatred for auricular confession and fish on fridays. lady lufton, who was very staunch, did not like this, and would say of miss dunstable that it was impossible to serve both god and mammon. but mrs. proudie was much more objectionable to her. seeing how sharp was the feud between the proudies and the grantlys down in barsetshire, how absolutely unable they had always been to carry a decent face towards each other in church matters, how they headed two parties in the diocese, which were, when brought together, as oil and vinegar, in which battles the whole lufton influence had always been brought to bear on the grantly side;--seeing all this, i say, lady lufton was surprised to hear that griselda had been taken to mrs. proudie's evening exhibition. "had the archdeacon been consulted about it," she said to herself, "this would never have happened." but there she was wrong, for in matters concerning his daughter's introduction to the world the archdeacon never interfered. on the whole, i am inclined to think that mrs. grantly understood the world better than did lady lufton. in her heart of hearts mrs. grantly hated mrs. proudie--that is, with that sort of hatred one christian lady allows herself to feel towards another. of course mrs. grantly forgave mrs. proudie all her offences, and wished her well, and was at peace with her, in the christian sense of the word, as with all other women. but under this forbearance and meekness, and perhaps, we may say, wholly unconnected with it, there was certainly a current of antagonistic feeling which, in the ordinary unconsidered language of every day, men and women do call hatred. this raged and was strong throughout the whole year in barsetshire, before the eyes of all mankind. but, nevertheless, mrs. grantly took griselda to mrs. proudie's evening parties in london. in these days mrs. proudie considered herself to be by no means the least among bishops' wives. she had opened the season this year in a new house in gloucester place, at which the reception rooms, at any rate, were all that a lady bishop could desire. here she had a front drawing-room of very noble dimensions, a second drawing-room rather noble also, though it had lost one of its back corners awkwardly enough, apparently in a jostle with the neighbouring house; and then there was a third--shall we say drawing-room, or closet?--in which mrs. proudie delighted to be seen sitting, in order that the world might know that there was a third room; altogether a noble suite, as mrs. proudie herself said in confidence to more than one clergyman's wife from barsetshire. "a noble suite, indeed, mrs. proudie!" the clergymen's wives from barsetshire would usually answer. for some time mrs. proudie was much at a loss to know by what sort of party or entertainment she would make herself famous. balls and suppers were of course out of the question. she did not object to her daughters dancing all night at other houses--at least, of late she had not objected, for the fashionable world required it, and the young ladies had perhaps a will of their own--but dancing at her house--absolutely under the shade of the bishop's apron--would be a sin and a scandal. and then as to suppers--of all modes in which one may extend one's hospitality to a large acquaintance, they are the most costly. "it is horrid to think that we should go out among our friends for the mere sake of eating and drinking," mrs. proudie would say to the clergymen's wives from barsetshire. "it shows such a sensual propensity." "indeed it does, mrs. proudie; and is so vulgar too!" those ladies would reply. but the elder among them would remember with regret the unsparing, open-handed hospitality of barchester palace in the good old days of bishop grantly--god rest his soul! one old vicar's wife there was whose answer had not been so courteous-- "when we are hungry, mrs. proudie," she had said, "we do all have sensual propensities." "it would be much better, mrs. athill, if the world would provide for all that at home," mrs. proudie had rapidly replied; with which opinion i must here profess that i cannot by any means bring myself to coincide. but a conversazione would give play to no sensual propensity, nor occasion that intolerable expense which the gratification of sensual propensities too often produces. mrs. proudie felt that the word was not all that she could have desired. it was a little faded by old use and present oblivion, and seemed to address itself to that portion of the london world that is considered blue, rather than fashionable. but, nevertheless, there was a spirituality about it which suited her, and one may also say an economy. and then as regarded fashion, it might perhaps not be beyond the power of a mrs. proudie to regild the word with a newly burnished gilding. some leading person must produce fashion at first hand, and why not mrs. proudie? her plan was to set the people by the ears talking, if talk they would, or to induce them to show themselves there inert if no more could be got from them. to accommodate with chairs and sofas as many as the furniture of her noble suite of rooms would allow, especially with the two chairs and padded bench against the wall in the back closet--the small inner drawing-room, as she would call it to the clergymen's wives from barsetshire--and to let the others stand about upright, or "group themselves," as she described it. then four times during the two hours' period of her conversazione tea and cake were to be handed round on salvers. it is astonishing how far a very little cake will go in this way, particularly if administered tolerably early after dinner. the men can't eat it, and the women, having no plates and no table, are obliged to abstain. mrs. jones knows that she cannot hold a piece of crumbly cake in her hand till it be consumed without doing serious injury to her best dress. when mrs. proudie, with her weekly books before her, looked into the financial upshot of her conversazione, her conscience told her that she had done the right thing. going out to tea is not a bad thing, if one can contrive to dine early, and then be allowed to sit round a big table with a tea urn in the middle. i would, however, suggest that breakfast cups should always be provided for the gentlemen. and then with pleasant neighbours,--or more especially with a pleasant neighbour,--the affair is not, according to my taste, by any means the worst phase of society. but i do dislike that handing round, unless it be of a subsidiary thimbleful when the business of the social intercourse has been dinner. and indeed this handing round has become a vulgar and an intolerable nuisance among us second-class gentry with our eight hundred a year--there or thereabouts;--doubly intolerable as being destructive of our natural comforts, and a wretchedly vulgar aping of men with large incomes. the duke of omnium and lady hartletop are undoubtedly wise to have everything handed round. friends of mine who occasionally dine at such houses tell me that they get their wine quite as quickly as they can drink it, that their mutton is brought to them without delay, and that the potato-bearer follows quick upon the heels of carnifer. nothing can be more comfortable, and we may no doubt acknowledge that these first-class grandees do understand their material comforts. but we of the eight hundred can no more come up to them in this than we can in their opera-boxes and equipages. may i not say that the usual tether of this class, in the way of carnifers, cup-bearers, and the rest, does not reach beyond neat-handed phyllis and the greengrocer? and that phyllis, neat-handed as she probably is, and the greengrocer, though he be ever so active, cannot administer a dinner to twelve people who are prohibited by a medo-persian law from all self-administration whatever? and may i not further say that the lamentable consequence to us eight hundreders dining out among each other is this, that we too often get no dinner at all. phyllis, with the potatoes, cannot reach us till our mutton is devoured, or in a lukewarm state past our power of managing; and ganymede, the greengrocer, though we admire the skill of his necktie and the whiteness of his unexceptionable gloves, fails to keep us going in sherry. seeing a lady the other day in this strait, left without a small modicum of stimulus which was no doubt necessary for her good digestion, i ventured to ask her to drink wine with me. but when i bowed my head at her, she looked at me with all her eyes, struck with amazement. had i suggested that she should join me in a wild indian war-dance, with nothing on but my paint, her face could not have shown greater astonishment. and yet i should have thought she might have remembered the days when christian men and women used to drink wine with each other. god be with the good old days when i could hobnob with my friend over the table as often as i was inclined to lift my glass to my lips, and make a long arm for a hot potato whenever the exigencies of my plate required it. i think it may be laid down as a rule in affairs of hospitality, that whatever extra luxury or grandeur we introduce at our tables when guests are with us, should be introduced for the advantage of the guest and not for our own. if, for instance, our dinner be served in a manner different from that usual to us, it should be so served in order that our friends may with more satisfaction eat our repast than our everyday practice would produce on them. but the change should by no means be made to their material detriment in order that our fashion may be acknowledged. again, if i decorate my sideboard and table, wishing that the eyes of my visitors may rest on that which is elegant and pleasant to the sight, i act in that matter with a becoming sense of hospitality; but if my object be to kill mrs. jones with envy at the sight of all my silver trinkets, i am a very mean-spirited fellow. this, in a broad way, will be acknowledged; but if we would bear in mind the same idea at all times,--on occasions when the way perhaps may not be so broad, when more thinking may be required to ascertain what is true hospitality,--i think we of the eight hundred would make a greater advance towards really entertaining our own friends than by any rearrangement of the actual meats and dishes which we set before them. knowing as we do, that the terms of the lufton-grantly alliance had been so solemnly ratified between the two mothers, it is perhaps hardly open to us to suppose that mrs. grantly was induced to take her daughter to mrs. proudie's by any knowledge which she may have acquired that lord dumbello had promised to grace the bishop's assembly. it is certainly the fact that high contracting parties do sometimes allow themselves a latitude which would be considered dishonest by contractors of a lower sort; and it may be possible that the archdeacon's wife did think of that second string with which her bow was furnished. be that as it may, lord dumbello was at mrs. proudie's, and it did so come to pass that griselda was seated at the corner of a sofa close to which was a vacant space in which his lordship could--"group himself." they had not been long there before lord dumbello did group himself. "fine day," he said, coming up and occupying the vacant position by miss grantly's elbow. "we were driving to-day, and we thought it rather cold," said griselda. "deuced cold," said lord dumbello, and then he adjusted his white cravat and touched up his whiskers. having got so far, he did not proceed to any other immediate conversational efforts; nor did griselda. but he grouped himself again as became a marquis, and gave very intense satisfaction to mrs. proudie. "this is so kind of you, lord dumbello," said that lady, coming up to him and shaking his hand warmly; "so very kind of you to come to my poor little tea-party." "uncommonly pleasant, i call it," said his lordship. "i like this sort of thing--no trouble, you know." "no; that is the charm of it: isn't it? no trouble, or fuss, or parade. that's what i always say. according to my ideas, society consists in giving people facility for an interchange of thoughts--what we call conversation." "aw, yes, exactly." "not in eating and drinking together--eh, lord dumbello? and yet the practice of our lives would seem to show that the indulgence of those animal propensities can alone suffice to bring people together. the world in this has surely made a great mistake." "i like a good dinner all the same," said lord dumbello. "oh, yes, of course--of course. i am by no means one of those who would pretend to preach that our tastes have not been given to us for our enjoyment. why should things be nice if we are not to like them?" "a man who can really give a good dinner has learned a great deal," said lord dumbello, with unusual animation. "an immense deal. it is quite an art in itself; and one which i, at any rate, by no means despise. but we cannot always be eating--can we?" "no," said lord dumbello, "not always." and he looked as though he lamented that his powers should be so circumscribed. and then mrs. proudie passed on to mrs. grantly. the two ladies were quite friendly in london; though down in their own neighbourhood they waged a war so internecine in its nature. but nevertheless mrs. proudie's manner might have showed to a very close observer that she knew the difference between a bishop and an archdeacon. "i am so delighted to see you," said she. "no, don't mind moving; i won't sit down just at present. but why didn't the archdeacon come?" "it was quite impossible; it was indeed," said mrs. grantly. "the archdeacon never has a moment in london that he can call his own." "you don't stay up very long, i believe." "a good deal longer than we either of us like, i can assure you. london life is a perfect nuisance to me." "but people in a certain position must go through with it, you know," said mrs. proudie. "the bishop, for instance, must attend the house." "must he?" asked mrs. grantly, as though she were not at all well informed with reference to this branch of a bishop's business. "i am very glad that archdeacons are under no such liability." "oh, no; there's nothing of that sort," said mrs. proudie, very seriously. "but how uncommonly well miss grantly is looking! i do hear that she has quite been admired." this phrase certainly was a little hard for the mother to bear. all the world had acknowledged, so mrs. grantly had taught herself to believe, that griselda was undoubtedly the beauty of the season. marquises and lords were already contending for her smiles, and paragraphs had been written in newspapers as to her profile. it was too hard to be told, after that, that her daughter had been "quite admired." such a phrase might suit a pretty little red-cheeked milkmaid of a girl. "she cannot, of course, come near your girls in that respect," said mrs. grantly, very quietly. now the miss proudies had not elicited from the fashionable world any very loud encomiums on their beauty. their mother felt the taunt in its fullest force, but she would not essay to do battle on the present arena. she jotted down the item in her mind, and kept it over for barchester and the chapter. such debts as those she usually paid on some day, if the means of doing so were at all within her power. "but there is miss dunstable, i declare," she said, seeing that that lady had entered the room; and away went mrs. proudie to welcome her distinguished guest. "and so this is a conversazione, is it?" said that lady, speaking, as usual, not in a suppressed voice. "well, i declare, it's very nice. it means conversation, don't it, mrs. proudie?" "ha, ha, ha! miss dunstable, there is nobody like you, i declare." "well, but don't it? and tea and cake? and then, when we're tired of talking, we go away,--isn't that it?" "but you must not be tired for these three hours yet." "oh, i'm never tired of talking; all the world knows that. how do, bishop? a very nice sort of thing this conversazione, isn't it now?" the bishop rubbed his hands together and smiled, and said that he thought it was rather nice. "mrs. proudie is so fortunate in all her little arrangements," said miss dunstable. "yes, yes," said the bishop. "i think she is happy in these matters. i do flatter myself that she is so. of course, miss dunstable, you are accustomed to things on a much grander scale." "i! lord bless you, no! nobody hates grandeur so much as i do. of course i must do as i am told. i must live in a big house, and have three footmen six feet high. i must have a coachman with a top-heavy wig, and horses so big that they frighten me. if i did not, i should be made out a lunatic and declared unable to manage my own affairs. but as for grandeur, i hate it. i certainly think that i shall have some of these conversaziones. i wonder whether mrs. proudie will come and put me up to a wrinkle or two." the bishop again rubbed his hands, and said that he was sure she would. he never felt quite at his ease with miss dunstable, as he rarely could ascertain whether or no she was earnest in what she was saying. so he trotted off, muttering some excuse as he went, and miss dunstable chuckled with an inward chuckle at his too evident bewilderment. miss dunstable was by nature kind, generous, and open-hearted; but she was living now very much with people on whom kindness, generosity, and open-heartedness were thrown away. she was clever also, and could be sarcastic; and she found that those qualities told better in the world around her than generosity and an open heart. and so she went on from month to month, and year to year, not progressing in a good spirit as she might have done, but still carrying within her bosom a warm affection for those she could really love. and she knew that she was hardly living as she should live,--that the wealth which she affected to despise was eating into the soundness of her character, not by its splendour, but by the style of life which it had seemed to produce as a necessity. she knew that she was gradually becoming irreverent, scornful, and prone to ridicule; but yet, knowing this and hating it, she hardly knew how to break from it. she had seen so much of the blacker side of human nature that blackness no longer startled her as it should do. she had been the prize at which so many ruined spendthrifts had aimed; so many pirates had endeavoured to run her down while sailing in the open waters of life, that she had ceased to regard such attempts on her money-bags as unmanly or over-covetous. she was content to fight her own battle with her own weapons, feeling secure in her own strength of purpose and strength of wit. some few friends she had whom she really loved,--among whom her inner self could come out and speak boldly what it had to say with its own true voice. and the woman who thus so spoke was very different from that miss dunstable whom mrs. proudie courted, and the duke of omnium fêted, and mrs. harold smith claimed as her bosom friend. if only she could find among such one special companion on whom her heart might rest, who would help her to bear the heavy burdens of her world! but where was she to find such a friend?--she with her keen wit, her untold money, and loud laughing voice. everything about her was calculated to attract those whom she could not value, and to scare from her the sort of friend to whom she would fain have linked her lot. and then she met mrs. harold smith, who had taken mrs. proudie's noble suite of rooms in her tour for the evening, and was devoting to them a period of twenty minutes. "and so i may congratulate you," miss dunstable said eagerly to her friend. "no, in mercy's name do no such thing, or you may too probably have to uncongratulate me again; and that will be so unpleasant." "but they told me that lord brock had sent for him yesterday." now at this period lord brock was prime minister. "so he did, and harold was with him backwards and forwards all the day. but he can't shut his eyes and open his mouth, and see what god will send him, as a wise and prudent man should do. he is always for bargaining, and no prime minister likes that." "i would not be in his shoes if, after all, he has to come home and say that the bargain is off." "ha, ha, ha! well, i should not take it very quietly. but what can we poor women do, you know? when it is settled, my dear, i'll send you a line at once." and then mrs. harold smith finished her course round the rooms, and regained her carriage within the twenty minutes. "beautiful profile, has she not?" said miss dunstable, somewhat later in the evening, to mrs. proudie. of course, the profile spoken of belonged to miss grantly. "yes, it is beautiful, certainly," said mrs. proudie. "the pity is that it means nothing." "the gentlemen seem to think that it means a good deal." "i am not sure of that. she has no conversation, you see; not a word. she has been sitting there with lord dumbello at her elbow for the last hour, and yet she has hardly opened her mouth three times." "but, my dear mrs. proudie, who on earth could talk to lord dumbello?" mrs. proudie thought that her own daughter olivia would undoubtedly be able to do so, if only she could get the opportunity. but, then, olivia had so much conversation. and while the two ladies were yet looking at the youthful pair, lord dumbello did speak again. "i think i have had enough of this now," said he, addressing himself to griselda. "i suppose you have other engagements," said she. "oh, yes; and i believe i shall go to lady clantelbrocks." and then he took his departure. no other word was spoken that evening between him and miss grantly beyond those given in this chronicle, and yet the world declared that he and that young lady had passed the evening in so close a flirtation as to make the matter more than ordinarily particular; and mrs. grantly, as she was driven home to her lodgings, began to have doubts in her mind whether it would be wise to discountenance so great an alliance as that which the head of the great hartletop family now seemed so desirous to establish. the prudent mother had not yet spoken a word to her daughter on these subjects, but it might soon become necessary to do so. it was all very well for lady lufton to hurry up to town, but of what service would that be, if lord lufton were not to be found in bruton street? chapter xviii. the new minister's patronage. at that time, just as lady lufton was about to leave framley for london, mark robarts received a pressing letter, inviting him also to go up to the metropolis for a day or two--not for pleasure, but on business. the letter was from his indefatigable friend sowerby. "my dear robarts," the letter ran:-- i have just heard that poor little burslem, the barsetshire prebendary, is dead. we must all die some day, you know,--as you have told your parishioners from the framley pulpit more than once, no doubt. the stall must be filled up, and why should not you have it as well as another? it is six hundred a year and a house. little burslem had nine, but the good old times are gone. whether the house is letable or not under the present ecclesiastical régime, i do not know. it used to be so, for i remember mrs. wiggins, the tallow-chandler's widow, living in old stanhope's house. harold smith has just joined the government as lord petty bag, and could, i think, at the present moment get this for asking. he cannot well refuse me, and, if you will say the word, i will speak to him. you had better come up yourself; but say the word "yes," or "no," by the wires. if you say "yes," as of course you will, do not fail to come up. you will find me at the "travellers," or at the house. the stall will just suit you,--will give you no trouble, improve your position, and give some little assistance towards bed and board, and rack and manger. yours ever faithfully, n. sowerby. singularly enough, i hear that your brother is private secretary to the new lord petty bag. i am told that his chief duty will consist in desiring the servants to call my sister's carriage. i have only seen harold once since he accepted office; but my lady petty bag says that he has certainly grown an inch since that occurrence. this was certainly very good-natured on the part of mr. sowerby, and showed that he had a feeling within his bosom that he owed something to his friend the parson for the injury he had done him. and such was in truth the case. a more reckless being than the member for west barsetshire could not exist. he was reckless for himself, and reckless for all others with whom he might be concerned. he could ruin his friends with as little remorse as he had ruined himself. all was fair game that came in the way of his net. but, nevertheless, he was good-natured, and willing to move heaven and earth to do a friend a good turn, if it came in his way to do so. he did really love mark robarts as much as it was given him to love any among his acquaintance. he knew that he had already done him an almost irreparable injury, and might very probably injure him still deeper before he had done with him. that he would undoubtedly do so, if it came in his way, was very certain. but then, if it also came in his way to repay his friend by any side blow, he would also undoubtedly do that. such an occasion had now come, and he had desired his sister to give the new lord petty bag no rest till he should have promised to use all his influence in getting the vacant prebend for mark robarts. this letter of sowerby's mark immediately showed to his wife. how lucky, thought he to himself, that not a word was said in it about those accursed money transactions! had he understood sowerby better he would have known that that gentleman never said anything about money transactions until it became absolutely necessary. "i know you don't like mr. sowerby," he said; "but you must own that this is very good-natured." "it is the character i hear of him that i don't like," said mrs. robarts. "but what shall i do now, fanny? as he says, why should not i have the stall as well as another?" "i suppose it would not interfere with your parish?" she asked. "not in the least, at the distance at which we are. i did think of giving up old jones; but if i take this, of course i must keep a curate." his wife could not find it in her heart to dissuade him from accepting promotion when it came in his way--what vicar's wife would have so persuaded her husband? but yet she did not altogether like it. she feared that greek from chaldicotes, even when he came with the present of a prebendal stall in his hands. and then what would lady lufton say? "and do you think that you must go up to london, mark?" "oh, certainly; that is, if i intend to accept harold smith's kind offices in the matter." "i suppose it will be better to accept them," said fanny, feeling perhaps that it would be useless in her to hope that they should not be accepted. "prebendal stalls, fanny, don't generally go begging long among parish clergymen. how could i reconcile it to the duty i owe to my children to refuse such an increase to my income?" and so it was settled that he should at once drive to silverbridge and send off a message by telegraph, and that he should himself proceed to london on the following day. "but you must see lady lufton first, of course," said fanny, as soon as all this was settled. mark would have avoided this if he could have decently done so, but he felt that it would be impolitic, as well as indecent. and why should he be afraid to tell lady lufton that he hoped to receive this piece of promotion from the present government? there was nothing disgraceful in a clergyman becoming a prebendary of barchester. lady lufton herself had always been very civil to the prebendaries, and especially to little dr. burslem, the meagre little man who had just now paid the debt of nature. she had always been very fond of the chapter, and her original dislike to bishop proudie had been chiefly founded on his interference with the cathedral clergy,--on his interference, or on that of his wife or chaplain. considering these things mark robarts tried to make himself believe that lady lufton would be delighted at his good fortune. but yet he did not believe it. she at any rate would revolt from the gift of the greek of chaldicotes. "oh, indeed," she said, when the vicar had with some difficulty explained to her all the circumstances of the case. "well, i congratulate you, mr. robarts, on your powerful new patron." "you will probably feel with me, lady lufton, that the benefice is one which i can hold without any detriment to me in my position here at framley," said he, prudently resolving to let the slur upon his friends pass by unheeded. "well, i hope so. of course, you are a very young man, mr. robarts, and these things have generally been given to clergymen more advanced in life." "but you do not mean to say that you think i ought to refuse it?" "what my advice to you might be if you really came to me for advice, i am hardly prepared to say at so very short a notice. you seem to have made up your mind, and therefore i need not consider it. as it is, i wish you joy, and hope that it may turn out to your advantage in every way." "you understand, lady lufton, that i have by no means got it as yet." "oh, i thought it had been offered to you: i thought you spoke of this new minister as having all that in his own hand." "oh, dear, no. what may be the amount of his influence in that respect i do not at all know. but my correspondent assures me--" "mr. sowerby, you mean. why don't you call him by his name?" "mr. sowerby assures me that mr. smith will ask for it; and thinks it most probable that his request will be successful." "oh, of course. mr. sowerby and mr. harold smith together would no doubt be successful in anything. they are the sort of men who are successful nowadays. well, mr. robarts, i wish you joy." and she gave him her hand in token of her sincerity. mark took her hand, resolving to say nothing further on that occasion. that lady lufton was not now cordial with him, as she used to be, he was well aware; and sooner or later he was determined to have the matter out with her. he would ask her why she now so constantly met him with a taunt, and so seldom greeted him with that kind old affectionate smile which he knew and appreciated so well. that she was honest and true, he was quite sure. if he asked her the question plainly, she would answer him openly. and if he could induce her to say that she would return to her old ways, return to them she would in a hearty manner. but he could not do this just at present. it was but a day or two since mr. crawley had been with him; and was it not probable that mr. crawley had been sent thither by lady lufton? his own hands were not clean enough for a remonstrance at the present moment. he would cleanse them, and then he would remonstrate. "would you like to live part of the year in barchester?" he said to his wife and sister that evening. "i think that two houses are only a trouble," said his wife. "and we have been very happy here." "i have always liked a cathedral town," said lucy; "and i am particularly fond of the close." "and barchester-close is the closest of all closes," said mark. "there is not a single house within the gateways that does not belong to the chapter." "but if we are to keep up two houses, the additional income will soon be wasted," said fanny prudently. "the thing would be, to let the house furnished every summer," said lucy. "but i must take my residence as the terms come," said the vicar; "and i certainly should not like to be away from framley all the winter; i should never see anything of lufton." and perhaps he thought of his hunting, and then thought again of that cleansing of his hands. "i should not a bit mind being away during the winter," said lucy, thinking of what the last winter had done for her. "but where on earth should we find money to furnish one of those large, old-fashioned houses? pray, mark, do not do anything rash." and the wife laid her hand affectionately on her husband's arm. in this manner the question of the prebend was discussed between them on the evening before he started for london. success had at last crowned the earnest effort with which harold smith had carried on the political battle of his life for the last ten years. the late lord petty bag had resigned in disgust, having been unable to digest the prime minister's ideas on indian reform, and mr. harold smith, after sundry hitches in the business, was installed in his place. it was said that harold smith was not exactly the man whom the premier would himself have chosen for that high office; but the premier's hands were a good deal tied by circumstances. the last great appointment he had made had been terribly unpopular,--so much so as to subject him, popular as he undoubtedly was himself, to a screech from the whole nation. the _jupiter_, with withering scorn, had asked whether vice of every kind was to be considered, in these days of queen victoria, as a passport to the cabinet. adverse members of both houses had arrayed themselves in a pure panoply of morality, and thundered forth their sarcasms with the indignant virtue and keen discontent of political juvenals; and even his own friends had held up their hands in dismay. under these circumstances he had thought himself obliged in the present instance to select a man who would not be especially objectionable to any party. now harold smith lived with his wife, and his circumstances were not more than ordinarily embarrassed. he kept no race-horses; and, as lord brock now heard for the first time, gave lectures in provincial towns on popular subjects. he had a seat which was tolerably secure, and could talk to the house by the yard if required to do so. moreover, lord brock had a great idea that the whole machinery of his own ministry would break to pieces very speedily. his own reputation was not bad, but it was insufficient for himself and that lately selected friend of his. under all these circumstances combined, he chose harold smith to fill the vacant office of lord petty bag. and very proud the lord petty bag was. for the last three or four months, he and mr. supplehouse had been agreeing to consign the ministry to speedy perdition. "this sort of dictatorship will never do," harold smith had himself said, justifying that future vote of his as to want of confidence in the queen's government. and mr. supplehouse in this matter had fully agreed with him. he was a juno whose form that wicked old paris had utterly despised, and he, too, had quite made up his mind as to the lobby in which he would be found when that day of vengeance should arrive. but now things were much altered in harold smith's views. the premier had shown his wisdom in seeking for new strength where strength ought to be sought, and introducing new blood into the body of his ministry. the people would now feel fresh confidence, and probably the house also. as to mr. supplehouse--he would use all his influence on supplehouse. but, after all, mr. supplehouse was not everything. on the morning after our vicar's arrival in london he attended at the petty bag office. it was situated in the close neighbourhood of downing street and the higher governmental gods; and though the building itself was not much, seeing that it was shored up on one side, that it bulged out in the front, was foul with smoke, dingy with dirt, and was devoid of any single architectural grace or modern scientific improvement, nevertheless its position gave it a status in the world which made the clerks in the lord petty bag's office quite respectable in their walk in life. mark had seen his friend sowerby on the previous evening, and had then made an appointment with him for the following morning at the new minister's office. and now he was there a little before his time, in order that he might have a few moments' chat with his brother. when mark found himself in the private secretary's room he was quite astonished to see the change in his brother's appearance which the change in his official rank had produced. jack robarts had been a well-built, straight-legged, lissome young fellow, pleasant to the eye because of his natural advantages, but rather given to a harum-skarum style of gait, and occasionally careless, not to say slovenly, in his dress. but now he was the very pink of perfection. his jaunty frock-coat fitted him to perfection; not a hair of his head was out of place; his waistcoat and trousers were glossy and new, and his umbrella, which stood in the umbrella-stand in the corner, was tight, and neat, and small, and natty. "well, john, you've become quite a great man," said his brother. "i don't know much about that," said john; "but i find that i have an enormous deal of fagging to go through." "do you mean work? i thought you had about the easiest berth in the whole civil service." "ah! that's just the mistake that people make. because we don't cover whole reams of foolscap paper at the rate of fifteen lines to a page, and five words to a line, people think that we private secretaries have got nothing to do. look here," and he tossed over scornfully a dozen or so of little notes. "i tell you what, mark; it is no easy matter to manage the patronage of a cabinet minister. now i am bound to write to every one of these fellows a letter that will please him; and yet i shall refuse to every one of them the request which he asks." "that must be difficult." "difficult is no word for it. but, after all, it consists chiefly in the knack of the thing. one must have the wit 'from such a sharp and waspish word as no to pluck the sting.' i do it every day, and i really think that the people like it." "perhaps your refusals are better than other people's acquiescences." "i don't mean that at all. we private secretaries have all to do the same thing. now, would you believe it? i have used up three lifts of note-paper already in telling people that there is no vacancy for a lobby messenger in the petty bag office. seven peeresses have asked for it for their favourite footmen. but there--there's the lord petty bag!" a bell rang and the private secretary, jumping up from his note-paper, tripped away quickly to the great man's room. "he'll see you at once," said he, returning. "buggins, show the reverend mr. robarts to the lord petty bag." buggins was the messenger for whose not vacant place all the peeresses were striving with so much animation. and then mark, following buggins for two steps, was ushered into the next room. if a man be altered by becoming a private secretary, he is much more altered by being made a cabinet minister. robarts, as he entered the room, could hardly believe that this was the same harold smith whom mrs. proudie bothered so cruelly in the lecture-room at barchester. then he was cross, and touchy, and uneasy, and insignificant. now, as he stood smiling on the hearthrug of his official fireplace, it was quite pleasant to see the kind, patronizing smile which lighted up his features. he delighted to stand there, with his hands in his trousers' pocket, the great man of the place, conscious of his lordship, and feeling himself every inch a minister. sowerby had come with him, and was standing a little in the background, from which position he winked occasionally at the parson over the minister's shoulder. "ah, robarts, delighted to see you. how odd, by-the-by, that your brother should be my private secretary!" mark said that it was a singular coincidence. "a very smart young fellow, and, if he minds himself, he'll do well." "i'm quite sure he'll do well," said mark. "ah! well, yes; i think he will. and now, what can i do for you, robarts?" hereupon mr. sowerby struck in, making it apparent by his explanation that mr. robarts himself by no means intended to ask for anything; but that, as his friends had thought that this stall at barchester might be put into his hands with more fitness than in those of any other clergyman of the day, he was willing to accept the piece of preferment from a man whom he respected so much as he did the new lord petty bag. the minister did not quite like this, as it restricted him from much of his condescension, and robbed him of the incense of a petition which he had expected mark robarts would make to him. but, nevertheless, he was very gracious. "he could not take upon himself to declare," he said, "what might be lord brock's pleasure with reference to the preferment at barchester which was vacant. he had certainly already spoken to his lordship on the subject, and had perhaps some reason to believe that his own wishes would be consulted. no distinct promise had been made, but he might perhaps go so far as to say that he expected such result. if so, it would give him the greatest pleasure in the world to congratulate mr. robarts on the possession of the stall--a stall which he was sure mr. robarts would fill with dignity, piety, and brotherly love." and then, when he had finished, mr. sowerby gave a final wink, and said that he regarded the matter as settled. "no, not settled, nathaniel," said the cautious minister. "it's the same thing," rejoined sowerby. "we all know what all that flummery means. men in office, mark, never do make a distinct promise,--not even to themselves of the leg of mutton which is roasting before their kitchen fires. it is so necessary in these days to be safe; is it not, harold?" "most expedient," said harold smith, shaking his head wisely. "well, robarts, who is it now?" this he said to his private secretary, who came to notice the arrival of some bigwig. "well, yes. i will say good morning, with your leave, for i am a little hurried. and remember, mr. robarts, i will do what i can for you; but you must distinctly understand that there is no promise." "oh, no promise at all," said sowerby--"of course not." and then, as he sauntered up whitehall towards charing cross, with robarts on his arm, he again pressed upon him the sale of that invaluable hunter, who was eating his head off his shoulders in the stable at chaldicotes. chapter xix. money dealings. mr. sowerby, in his resolution to obtain this good gift for the vicar of framley, did not depend quite alone on the influence of his near connection with the lord petty bag. he felt the occasion to be one on which he might endeavour to move even higher powers than that, and therefore he had opened the matter to the duke--not by direct application, but through mr. fothergill. no man who understood matters ever thought of going direct to the duke in such an affair as that. if one wanted to speak about a woman or a horse or a picture the duke could, on occasions, be affable enough. but through mr. fothergill the duke was approached. it was represented, with some cunning, that this buying over of the framley clergyman from the lufton side would be a praiseworthy spoiling of the amalekites. the doing so would give the omnium interest a hold even in the cathedral close. and then it was known to all men that mr. robarts had considerable influence over lord lufton himself. so guided, the duke of omnium did say two words to the prime minister, and two words from the duke went a great way, even with lord brock. the upshot of all this was, that mark robarts did get the stall; but he did not hear the tidings of his success till some days after his return to framley. mr. sowerby did not forget to tell him of the great effort--the unusual effort, as he of chaldicotes called it--which the duke had made on the subject. "i don't know when he has done such a thing before," said sowerby; "and you may be quite sure of this, he would not have done it now, had you not gone to gatherum castle when he asked you: indeed, fothergill would have known that it was vain to attempt it. and i'll tell you what, mark--it does not do for me to make little of my own nest, but i truly believe the duke's word will be more efficacious than the lord petty bag's solemn adjuration." mark, of course, expressed his gratitude in proper terms, and did buy the horse for a hundred and thirty pounds. "he's as well worth it," said sowerby, "as any animal that ever stood on four legs; and my only reason for pressing him on you is, that when tozer's day does come round, i know you will have to stand to us to something about that tune." it did not occur to mark to ask him why the horse should not be sold to some one else, and the money forthcoming in the regular way. but this would not have suited mr. sowerby. mark knew that the beast was good, and as he walked to his lodgings was half proud of his new possession. but then, how would he justify it to his wife, or how introduce the animal into his stables without attempting any justification in the matter? and yet, looking to the absolute amount of his income, surely he might feel himself entitled to buy a new horse when it suited him. he wondered what mr. crawley would say when he heard of the new purchase. he had lately fallen into a state of much wondering as to what his friends and neighbours would say about him. he had now been two days in town, and was to go down after breakfast on the following morning so that he might reach home by friday afternoon. but on that evening, just as he was going to bed, he was surprised by lord lufton coming into the coffee-room at his hotel. he walked in with a hurried step, his face was red, and it was clear that he was very angry. "robarts," said he, walking up to his friend and taking the hand that was extended to him, "do you know anything about this man, tozer?" "tozer--what tozer? i have heard sowerby speak of such a man." "of course you have. if i do not mistake you have written to me about him yourself." "very probably. i remember sowerby mentioning the man with reference to your affairs. but why do you ask me?" "this man has not only written to me, but has absolutely forced his way into my rooms when i was dressing for dinner; and absolutely had the impudence to tell me that if i did not honour some bill which he holds for eight hundred pounds he would proceed against me." "but you settled all that matter with sowerby?" "i did settle it at a very great cost to me. sooner than have a fuss i paid him through the nose--like a fool that i was--everything that he claimed. this is an absolute swindle, and if it goes on i will expose it as such." robarts looked round the room, but luckily there was not a soul in it but themselves. "you do not mean to say that sowerby is swindling you?" said the clergyman. "it looks very like it," said lord lufton; "and i tell you fairly that i am not in a humour to endure any more of this sort of thing. some years ago i made an ass of myself through that man's fault. but four thousand pounds should have covered the whole of what i really lost. i have now paid more than three times that sum; and, by heavens! i will not pay more without exposing the whole affair." "but, lufton, i do not understand. what is this bill?--has it your name to it?" "yes, it has: i'll not deny my name, and if there be absolute need i will pay it; but if i do so, my lawyer shall sift it, and it shall go before a jury." "but i thought all those bills were paid?" "i left it to sowerby to get up the old bills when they were renewed, and now one of them that has in truth been already honoured is brought against me." mark could not but think of the two documents which he himself had signed, and both of which were now undoubtedly in the hands of tozer, or of some other gentleman of the same profession;--which both might be brought against him, the second as soon as he should have satisfied the first. and then he remembered that sowerby had said something to him about an outstanding bill, for the filling up of which some trifle must be paid, and of this he reminded lord lufton. "and do you call eight hundred pounds a trifle? if so, i do not." "they will probably make no such demand as that." "but i tell you they do make such a demand, and have made it. the man whom i saw, and who told me that he was tozer's friend, but who was probably tozer himself, positively swore to me that he would be obliged to take legal proceedings if the money were not forthcoming within a week or ten days. when i explained to him that it was an old bill that had been renewed, he declared that his friend had given full value for it." "sowerby said that you would probably have to pay ten pounds to redeem it. i should offer the man some such sum as that." "my intention is to offer the man nothing, but to leave the affair in the hands of my lawyer with instructions to him to spare none;--neither myself nor any one else. i am not going to allow such a man as sowerby to squeeze me like an orange." "but, lufton, you seem as though you were angry with me." "no, i am not. but i think it is as well to caution you about this man; my transactions with him lately have chiefly been through you, and therefore--" "but they have only been so through his and your wish: because i have been anxious to oblige you both. i hope you don't mean to say that i am concerned in these bills." "i know that you are concerned in bills with him." "why, lufton, am i to understand, then, that you are accusing me of having any interest in these transactions which you have called swindling?" "as far as i am concerned there has been swindling, and there is swindling going on now." "but you do not answer my question. do you bring any accusation against me? if so, i agree with you that you had better go to your lawyer." "i think that is what i shall do." "very well. but upon the whole, i never heard of a more unreasonable man, or of one whose thoughts are more unjust than yours. solely with the view of assisting you, and solely at your request, i spoke to sowerby about these money transactions of yours. then at his request, which originated out of your request, he using me as his ambassador to you, as you had used me as yours to him, i wrote and spoke to you. and now this is the upshot." "i bring no accusation against you, robarts; but i know you have dealings with this man. you have told me so yourself." "yes, at his request to accommodate him, i have put my name to a bill." "only to one?" "only to one; and then to that same renewed, or not exactly to that same, but to one which stands for it. the first was for four hundred pounds; the last for five hundred." "all which you will have to make good, and the world will of course tell you that you have paid that price for this stall at barchester." this was terrible to be borne. he had heard much lately which had frightened and scared him, but nothing so terrible as this; nothing which so stunned him, or conveyed to his mind so frightful a reality of misery and ruin. he made no immediate answer, but standing on the hearthrug with his back to the fire, looked up the whole length of the room. hitherto his eyes had been fixed upon lord lufton's face, but now it seemed to him as though he had but little more to do with lord lufton. lord lufton and lord lufton's mother were neither now to be counted among those who wished him well. upon whom indeed could he now count, except that wife of his bosom upon whom he was bringing all this wretchedness? in that moment of agony ideas ran quickly through his brain. he would immediately abandon this preferment at barchester, of which it might be said with so much colour that he had bought it. he would go to harold smith, and say positively that he declined it. then he would return home and tell his wife all that had occurred;--tell the whole also to lady lufton, if that might still be of any service. he would make arrangement for the payment of both those bills as they might be presented, asking no questions as to the justice of the claim, making no complaint to any one, not even to sowerby. he would put half his income, if half were necessary, into the hands of forrest the banker, till all was paid. he would sell every horse he had. he would part with his footman and groom, and at any rate strive like a man to get again a firm footing on good ground. then, at that moment, he loathed with his whole soul the position in which he found himself placed, and his own folly which had placed him there. how could he reconcile it to his conscience that he was there in london with sowerby and harold smith, petitioning for church preferment to a man who should have been altogether powerless in such a matter, buying horses, and arranging about past due bills? he did not reconcile it to his conscience. mr. crawley had been right when he told him that he was a castaway. lord lufton, whose anger during the whole interview had been extreme, and who had become more angry the more he talked, had now walked once or twice up and down the room; and as he so walked the idea did occur to him that he had been unjust. he had come there with the intention of exclaiming against sowerby, and of inducing robarts to convey to that gentleman, that if he, lord lufton, were made to undergo any further annoyance about this bill, the whole affair should be thrown into the lawyer's hands; but instead of doing this, he had brought an accusation against robarts. that robarts had latterly become sowerby's friend rather than his own in all these horrid money dealings, had galled him; and now he had expressed himself in terms much stronger than he had intended to use. "as to you personally, mark," he said, coming back to the spot on which robarts was standing, "i do not wish to say anything that shall annoy you." "you have said quite enough, lord lufton." "you cannot be surprised that i should be angry and indignant at the treatment i have received." "you might, i think, have separated in your mind those who have wronged you, if there has been such wrong, from those who have only endeavoured to do your will and pleasure for you. that i, as a clergyman, have been very wrong in taking any part whatsoever in these matters, i am well aware. that as a man i have been outrageously foolish in lending my name to mr. sowerby, i also know well enough: it is perhaps as well that i should be told of this somewhat rudely; but i certainly did not expect the lesson to come from you." "well, there has been mischief enough. the question is, what we had better now both do?" "you have said what you mean to do. you will put the affair into the hands of your lawyer." "not with any object of exposing you." "exposing me, lord lufton! why, one would think that i had had the handling of your money." "you will misunderstand me. i think no such thing. but do you not know yourself that if legal steps be taken in this wretched affair, your arrangements with sowerby will be brought to light?" "my arrangements with sowerby will consist in paying or having to pay, on his account, a large sum of money, for which i have never had and shall never have any consideration whatever." "and what will be said about this stall at barchester?" "after the charge which you brought against me just now, i shall decline to accept it." at this moment three or four other gentlemen entered the room, and the conversation between our two friends was stopped. they still remained standing near the fire, but for a few minutes neither of them said anything. robarts was waiting till lord lufton should go away, and lord lufton had not yet said that which he had come to say. at last he spoke again, almost in a whisper: "i think it will be best to ask sowerby to come to my rooms to-morrow, and i think also that you should meet him there." "i do not see any necessity for my presence," said robarts. "it seems probable that i shall suffer enough for meddling with your affairs, and i will do so no more." "of course i cannot make you come; but i think it will be only just to sowerby, and it will be a favour to me." robarts again walked up and down the room for half-a-dozen times, trying to resolve what it would most become him to do in the present emergency. if his name were dragged before the courts,--if he should be shown up in the public papers as having been engaged in accommodation bills, that would certainly be ruinous to him. he had already learned from lord lufton's innuendoes what he might expect to hear as the public version of his share in these transactions! and then his wife,--how would she bear such exposure? "i will meet mr. sowerby at your rooms to-morrow, on one condition," he at last said. "and what is that?" "that i receive your positive assurance that i am not suspected by you of having had any pecuniary interest whatever in any money matters with mr. sowerby, either as concerns your affairs or those of anybody else." "i have never suspected you of any such thing. but i have thought that you were compromised with him." "and so i am--i am liable for these bills. but you ought to have known, and do know, that i have never received a shilling on account of such liability. i have endeavoured to oblige a man whom i regarded first as your friend, and then as my own; and this has been the result." lord lufton did at last give him the assurance that he desired, as they sat with their heads together over one of the coffee-room tables; and then robarts promised that he would postpone his return to framley till the saturday, so that he might meet sowerby at lord lufton's chambers in the albany on the following afternoon. as soon as this was arranged, lord lufton took his leave and went his way. after that poor mark had a very uneasy night of it. it was clear enough that lord lufton had thought, if he did not still think, that the stall at barchester was to be given as pecuniary recompense in return for certain money accommodation to be afforded by the nominee to the dispenser of this patronage. nothing on earth could be worse than this. in the first place it would be simony; and then it would be simony beyond all description mean and simoniacal. the very thought of it filled mark's soul with horror and dismay. it might be that lord lufton's suspicions were now at rest; but others would think the same thing, and their suspicions it would be impossible to allay; those others would consist of the outer world, which is always so eager to gloat over the detected vice of a clergyman. and then that wretched horse which he had purchased, and the purchase of which should have prohibited him from saying that nothing of value had accrued to him in these transactions with mr. sowerby! what was he to do about that? and then of late he had been spending, and had continued to spend, more money than he could well afford. this very journey of his up to london would be most imprudent, if it should become necessary for him to give up all hope of holding the prebend. as to that he had made up his mind; but then again he unmade it, as men always do in such troubles. that line of conduct which he had laid down for himself in the first moments of his indignation against lord lufton, by adopting which he would have to encounter poverty, and ridicule, and discomfort, the annihilation of his high hopes, and the ruin of his ambition--that, he said to himself over and over again, would now be the best for him. but it is so hard for us to give up our high hopes, and willingly encounter poverty, ridicule, and discomfort! on the following morning, however, he boldly walked down to the petty bag office, determined to let harold smith know that he was no longer desirous of the barchester stall. he found his brother there, still writing artistic notes to anxious peeresses on the subject of buggins' non-vacant situation; but the great man of the place, the lord petty bag himself, was not there. he might probably look in when the house was beginning to sit, perhaps at four or a little after; but he certainly would not be at the office in the morning. the functions of the lord petty bag he was no doubt performing elsewhere. perhaps he had carried his work home with him--a practice which the world should know is not uncommon with civil servants of exceeding zeal. mark did think of opening his heart to his brother, and of leaving his message with him. but his courage failed him, or perhaps it might be more correct to say that his prudence prevented him. it would be better for him, he thought, to tell his wife before he told any one else. so he merely chatted with his brother for half an hour and then left him. the day was very tedious till the hour came at which he was to attend at lord lufton's rooms; but at last it did come, and just as the clock struck, he turned out of piccadilly into the albany. as he was going across the court before he entered the building, he was greeted by a voice just behind him. "as punctual as the big clock on barchester tower," said mr. sowerby. "see what it is to have a summons from a great man, mr. prebendary." he turned round and extended his hand mechanically to mr. sowerby, and as he looked at him he thought he had never before seen him so pleasant in appearance, so free from care, and so joyous in demeanour. "you have heard from lord lufton," said mark in a voice that was certainly very lugubrious. "heard from him! oh, yes, of course i have heard from him. i'll tell you what it is, mark," and he now spoke almost in a whisper as they walked together along the albany passage, "lufton is a child in money matters--a perfect child. the dearest, finest fellow in the world, you know; but a very baby in money matters." and then they entered his lordship's rooms. lord lufton's countenance also was lugubrious enough, but this did not in the least abash sowerby, who walked quickly up to the young lord with his gait perfectly self-possessed and his face radiant with satisfaction. "well, lufton, how are you?" said he. "it seems that my worthy friend tozer has been giving you some trouble?" then lord lufton with a face by no means radiant with satisfaction again began the story of tozer's fraudulent demand upon him. sowerby did not interrupt him, but listened patiently to the end;--quite patiently, although lord lufton, as he made himself more and more angry by the history of his own wrongs, did not hesitate to pronounce certain threats against mr. sowerby, as he had pronounced them before against mark robarts. he would not, he said, pay a shilling, except through his lawyer; and he would instruct his lawyer, that before he paid anything, the whole matter should be exposed openly in court. he did not care, he said, what might be the effect on himself or any one else. he was determined that the whole case should go to a jury. "to grand jury, and special jury, and common jury, and old jewry, if you like," said sowerby. "the truth is, lufton, you lost some money, and as there was some delay in paying it, you have been harassed." "i have paid more than i lost three times over," said lord lufton, stamping his foot. "i will not go into that question now. it was settled, as i thought, some time ago by persons to whom you yourself referred it. but will you tell me this: why on earth should robarts be troubled in this matter? what has he done?" "well, i don't know. he arranged the matter with you." "no such thing. he was kind enough to carry a message from you to me, and to convey back a return message from me to you. that has been his part in it." "you don't suppose that i want to implicate him: do you?" "i don't think you want to implicate any one, but you are hot-headed and difficult to deal with, and very irrational into the bargain. and, what is worse, i must say you are a little suspicious. in all this matter i have harassed myself greatly to oblige you, and in return i have got more kicks than halfpence." "did not you give this bill to tozer--the bill which he now holds?" "in the first place he does not hold it; and in the next place i did not give it to him. these things pass through scores of hands before they reach the man who makes the application for payment." "and who came to me the other day?" "that, i take it, was tom tozer, a brother of our tozer's." "then he holds the bill, for i saw it with him." "wait a moment; that is very likely. i sent you word that you would have to pay for taking it up. of course they don't abandon those sort of things without some consideration." "ten pounds, you said," observed mark. "ten or twenty; some such sum as that. but you were hardly so soft as to suppose that the man would ask for such a sum. of course he would demand the full payment. there is the bill, lord lufton," and sowerby, producing a document, handed it across the table to his lordship. "i gave five-and-twenty pounds for it this morning." lord lufton took the paper and looked at it. "yes," said he, "that's the bill. what am i to do with it now?" "put it with the family archives," said sowerby,--"or behind the fire, just which you please." "and is this the last of them? can no other be brought up?" "you know better than i do what paper you may have put your hand to. i know of no other. at the last renewal that was the only outstanding bill of which i was aware." "and you have paid five-and-twenty pounds for it?" "i have. only that you have been in such a tantrum about it, and would have made such a noise this afternoon if i had not brought it, i might have had it for fifteen or twenty. in three or four days they would have taken fifteen." "the odd ten pounds does not signify, and i'll pay you the twenty-five, of course," said lord lufton, who now began to feel a little ashamed of himself. "you may do as you please about that." "oh! it's my affair, as a matter of course. any amount of that kind i don't mind," and he sat down to fill in a cheque for the money. "well, now, lufton, let me say a few words to you," said sowerby, standing with his back against the fireplace, and playing with a small cane which he held in his hand. "for heaven's sake try and be a little more charitable to those around you. when you become fidgety about anything, you indulge in language which the world won't stand, though men who know you as well as robarts and i may consent to put up with it. you have accused me, since i have been here, of all manner of iniquity--" "now, sowerby--" "my dear fellow, let me have my say out. you have accused me, i say, and i believe that you have accused him. but it has never occurred to you, i daresay, to accuse yourself." "indeed it has." "of course you have been wrong in having to do with such men as tozer. i have also been very wrong. it wants no great moral authority to tell us that. pattern gentlemen don't have dealings with tozer, and very much the better they are for not having them. but a man should have back enough to bear the weight which he himself puts on it. keep away from tozer, if you can, for the future; but if you do deal with him, for heaven's sake keep your temper." "that's all very fine, sowerby; but you know as well as i do--" "i know this," said the devil, quoting scripture, as he folded up the check for twenty-five pounds, and put it in his pocket, "that when a man sows tares, he won't reap wheat, and it's no use to expect it. i am tough in these matters, and can bear a great deal--that is, if i be not pushed too far," and he looked full into lord lufton's face as he spoke; "but i think you have been very hard upon robarts." "never mind me, sowerby; lord lufton and i are very old friends." "and may therefore take a liberty with each other. very well. and now i've done my sermon. my dear dignitary, allow me to congratulate you. i hear from fothergill that that little affair of yours has been definitely settled." mark's face again became clouded. "i rather think," said he, "that i shall decline the presentation." "decline it!" said sowerby, who, having used his utmost efforts to obtain it, would have been more absolutely offended by such vacillation on the vicar's part than by any personal abuse which either he or lord lufton could heap upon him. "i think i shall," said mark. "and why?" mark looked up at lord lufton, and then remained silent for a moment. "there can be no occasion for such a sacrifice under the present circumstances," said his lordship. "and under what circumstances could there be occasion for it?" asked sowerby. "the duke of omnium has used some little influence to get the place for you as a parish clergyman belonging to his county, and i should think it monstrous if you were now to reject it." and then robarts openly stated the whole of his reasons, explaining exactly what lord lufton had said with reference to the bill transactions, and to the allegation which would be made as to the stall having been given in payment for the accommodation. "upon my word that's too bad," said sowerby. "now, sowerby, i won't be lectured," said lord lufton. "i have done my lecture," said he, aware, perhaps, that it would not do for him to push his friend too far, "and i shall not give a second. but, robarts, let me tell you this: as far as i know, harold smith has had little or nothing to do with the appointment. the duke has told the prime minister that he was very anxious that a parish clergyman from the county should go into the chapter, and then, at lord brock's request, he named you. if under those circumstances you talk of giving it up, i shall believe you to be insane. as for the bill which you accepted for me, you need have no uneasiness about it. the money will be ready; but of course, when that time comes, you will let me have the hundred and thirty for--" and then mr. sowerby took his leave, having certainly made himself master of the occasion. if a man of fifty have his wits about him, and be not too prosy, he can generally make himself master of the occasion, when his companions are under thirty. robarts did not stay at the albany long after him, but took his leave, having received some assurances of lord lufton's regret for what had passed and many promises of his friendship for the future. indeed lord lufton was a little ashamed of himself. "and as for the prebend, after what has passed, of course you must accept it." nevertheless his lordship had not omitted to notice mr. sowerby's hint about the horse and the hundred and thirty pounds. robarts, as he walked back to his hotel, thought that he certainly would accept the barchester promotion, and was very glad that he had said nothing on the subject to his brother. on the whole his spirits were much raised. that assurance of sowerby's about the bill was very comforting to him; and strange to say, he absolutely believed it. in truth sowerby had been so completely the winning horse at the late meeting, that both lord lufton and robarts were inclined to believe almost anything he said;--which was not always the case with either of them. chapter xx. harold smith in the cabinet. for a few days the whole harold smith party held their heads very high. it was not only that their man had been made a cabinet minister; but a rumour had got abroad that lord brock, in selecting him, had amazingly strengthened his party, and done much to cure the wounds which his own arrogance and lack of judgment had inflicted on the body politic of his government. so said the harold-smithians, much elated. and when we consider what harold had himself achieved, we need not be surprised that he himself was somewhat elated also. it must be a proud day for any man when he first walks into a cabinet. but when a humble-minded man thinks of such a phase of life, his mind becomes lost in wondering what a cabinet is. are they gods that attend there or men? do they sit on chairs, or hang about on clouds? when they speak, is the music of the spheres audible in their olympian mansion, making heaven drowsy with its harmony? in what way do they congregate? in what order do they address each other? are the voices of all the deities free and equal? is plodding themis from the home department, or ceres from the colonies, heard with as rapt attention as powerful pallas of the foreign office, the goddess that is never seen without her lance and helmet? does our whitehall mars make eyes there at bright young venus of the privy seal, disgusting that quaint tinkering vulcan, who is blowing his bellows at our exchequer, not altogether unsuccessfully? old saturn of the woolsack sits there mute, we will say, a relic of other days, as seated in this divan. the hall in which he rules is now elsewhere. is our mercury of the post office ever ready to fly nimbly from globe to globe, as great jove may order him, while neptune, unaccustomed to the waves, offers needful assistance to the apollo of the india board? how juno sits apart, glum and huffy, uncared for, council president though she be, great in name, but despised among gods--that we can guess. if bacchus and cupid share trade and the board of works between them, the fitness of things will have been as fully consulted as is usual. and modest diana of the petty bag, latest summoned to these banquets of ambrosia,--does she not cling retiring near the doors, hardly able as yet to make her low voice heard among her brother deities? but jove, great jove--old jove, the king of olympus, hero among gods and men, how does he carry himself in these councils summoned by his voice? does he lie there at his ease, with his purple cloak cut from the firmament around his shoulders? is his thunderbolt ever at his hand to reduce a recreant god to order? can he proclaim silence in that immortal hall? is it not there, as elsewhere, in all places, and among all nations, that a king of gods and a king of men is and will be king, rules and will rule, over those who are smaller than himself? harold smith, when he was summoned to the august hall of divine councils, did feel himself to be a proud man; but we may perhaps conclude that at the first meeting or two he did not attempt to take a very leading part. some of my readers may have sat at vestries, and will remember how mild, and for the most part, mute, is a new-comer at their board. he agrees generally, with abated enthusiasm; but should he differ, he apologizes for the liberty. but anon, when the voices of his colleagues have become habitual in his ears--when the strangeness of the room is gone, and the table before him is known and trusted--he throws off his awe and dismay, and electrifies his brotherhood by the vehemence of his declamation and the violence of his thumping. so let us suppose it will be with harold smith, perhaps in the second or third season of his cabinet practice. alas! alas! that such pleasures should be so fleeting! and then, too, there came upon him a blow which somewhat modified his triumph--a cruel, dastard blow, from a hand which should have been friendly to him, from one to whom he had fondly looked to buoy him up in the great course that was before him. it had been said by his friends that in obtaining harold smith's services the prime minister had infused new young healthy blood into his body. harold himself had liked the phrase, and had seen at a glance how it might have been made to tell by some friendly supplehouse or the like. but why should a supplehouse out of elysium be friendly to a harold smith within it? men lapped in elysium, steeped to the neck in bliss, must expect to see their friends fall off from them. human nature cannot stand it. if i want to get anything from my old friend jones, i like to see him shoved up into a high place. but if jones, even in his high place, can do nothing for me, then his exaltation above my head is an insult and an injury. who ever believes his own dear intimate companion to be fit for the highest promotion? mr. supplehouse had known mr. smith too closely to think much of his young blood. consequently, there appeared an article in the _jupiter_, which was by no means complimentary to the ministry in general. it harped a good deal on the young blood view of the question, and seemed to insinuate that harold smith was not much better than diluted water. "the prime minister," the article said, "having lately recruited his impaired vigour by a new infusion of aristocratic influence of the highest moral tone, had again added to himself another tower of strength chosen from among the people. what might he not hope, now that he possessed the services of lord brittleback and mr. harold smith! renovated in a medea's caldron of such potency, all his effete limbs--and it must be acknowledged that some of them had become very effete--would come forth young and round and robust. a new energy would diffuse itself through every department; india would be saved and quieted; the ambition of france would be tamed; even-handed reform would remodel our courts of law and parliamentary elections; and utopia would be realized. such, it seems, is the result expected in the ministry from mr. harold smith's young blood!" this was cruel enough, but even this was hardly so cruel as the words with which the article ended. by that time irony had been dropped, and the writer spoke out earnestly his opinion upon the matter. "we beg to assure lord brock," said the article, "that such alliances as these will not save him from the speedy fall with which his arrogance and want of judgment threaten to overwhelm it. as regards himself we shall be sorry to hear of his resignation. he is in many respects the best statesman that we possess for the emergencies of the present period. but if he be so ill-judged as to rest on such men as mr. harold smith and lord brittleback for his assistants in the work which is before him, he must not expect that the country will support him. mr. harold smith is not made of the stuff from which cabinet ministers should be formed." mr. harold smith, as he read this, seated at his breakfast-table, recognized, or said that he recognized, the hand of mr. supplehouse in every touch. that phrase about the effete limbs was supplehouse all over, as was also the realization of utopia. "when he wants to be witty, he always talks about utopia," said mr. harold smith--to himself: for mrs. harold was not usually present in the flesh at these matutinal meals. and then he went down to his office, and saw in the glance of every man that he met an announcement that that article in the _jupiter_ had been read. his private secretary tittered in evident allusion to the article, and the way in which buggins took his coat made it clear that it was well known in the messengers' lobby. "he won't have to fill up my vacancy when i go," buggins was saying to himself. and then in the course of the morning came the cabinet council, the second that he had attended, and he read in the countenance of every god and goddess there assembled that their chief was thought to have made another mistake. if mr. supplehouse could have been induced to write in another strain, then indeed that new blood might have been felt to have been efficacious. all this was a great drawback to his happiness, but still it could not rob him of the fact of his position. lord brock could not ask him to resign because the _jupiter_ had written against him; nor was lord brock the man to desert a new colleague for such a reason. so harold smith girded his loins, and went about the duties of the petty bag with new zeal. "upon my word, the _jupiter_ is right," said young robarts to himself, as he finished his fourth dozen of private notes explanatory of everything in and about the petty bag office. harold smith required that his private secretary's notes should be so terribly precise. but nevertheless, in spite of his drawbacks, harold smith was happy in his new honours, and mrs. harold smith enjoyed them also. she certainly, among her acquaintance, did quiz the new cabinet minister not a little, and it may be a question whether she was not as hard upon him as the writer in the _jupiter_. she whispered a great deal to miss dunstable about new blood, and talked of going down to westminster bridge to see whether the thames were really on fire. but though she laughed, she triumphed, and though she flattered herself that she bore her honours without any outward sign, the world knew that she was triumphing, and ridiculed her elation. about this time she also gave a party--not a pure-minded conversazione like mrs. proudie, but a downright wicked worldly dance, at which there were fiddles, ices, and champagne sufficient to run away with the first quarter's salary accruing to harold from the petty bag office. to us this ball is chiefly memorable from the fact that lady lufton was among the guests. immediately on her arrival in town she received cards from mrs. h. smith for herself and griselda, and was about to send back a reply at once declining the honour. what had she to do at the house of mr. sowerby's sister? but it so happened that at that moment her son was with her, and as he expressed a wish that she should go, she yielded. had there been nothing in his tone of persuasion more than ordinary,--had it merely had reference to herself,--she would have smiled on him for his kind solicitude, have made out some occasion for kissing his forehead as she thanked him, and would still have declined. but he had reminded her both of himself and griselda. "you might as well go, mother, for the sake of meeting me," he said; "mrs. harold caught me the other day, and would not liberate me till i had given her a promise." "that is an attraction certainly," said lady lufton. "i do like going to a house when i know that you will be there." "and now that miss grantly is with you--you owe it to her to do the best you can for her." "i certainly do, ludovic; and i have to thank you for reminding me of my duty so gallantly." and so she said that she would go to mrs. harold smith's. poor lady! she gave much more weight to those few words about miss grantly than they deserved. it rejoiced her heart to think that her son was anxious to meet griselda--that he should perpetrate this little _ruse_ in order to gain his wish. but he had spoken out of the mere emptiness of his mind, without thought of what he was saying, excepting that he wished to please his mother. but nevertheless he went to mrs. harold smith's, and when there he did dance more than once with griselda grantly--to the manifest discomfiture of lord dumbello. he came in late, and at the moment lord dumbello was moving slowly up the room, with griselda on his arm, while lady lufton was sitting near looking on with unhappy eyes. and then griselda sat down, and lord dumbello stood mute at her elbow. "ludovic," whispered his mother, "griselda is absolutely bored by that man, who follows her like a ghost. do go and rescue her." he did go and rescue her, and afterwards danced with her for the best part of an hour consecutively. he knew that the world gave lord dumbello the credit of admiring the young lady, and was quite alive to the pleasure of filling his brother nobleman's heart with jealousy and anger. moreover, griselda was in his eyes very beautiful, and had she been one whit more animated, or had his mother's tactics been but a thought better concealed, griselda might have been asked that night to share the vacant throne at lufton, in spite of all that had been said and sworn in the drawing-room of framley parsonage. it must be remembered that our gallant, gay lothario had passed some considerable number of days with miss grantly in his mother's house, and the danger of such contiguity must be remembered also. lord lufton was by no means a man capable of seeing beauty unmoved or of spending hours with a young lady without some approach to tenderness. had there been no such approach, it is probable that lady lufton would not have pursued the matter. but, according to her ideas on such subjects, her son ludovic had on some occasions shown quite sufficient partiality for miss grantly to justify her in her hopes, and to lead her to think that nothing but opportunity was wanted. now, at this ball of mrs. smith's, he did, for a while, seem to be taking advantage of such opportunity, and his mother's heart was glad. if things should turn out well on this evening she would forgive mrs. harold smith all her sins. and for a while it looked as though things would turn out well. not that it must be supposed that lord lufton had come there with any intention of making love to griselda, or that he ever had any fixed thought that he was doing so. young men in such matters are so often without any fixed thoughts! they are such absolute moths. they amuse themselves with the light of the beautiful candle, fluttering about, on and off, in and out of the flame with dazzled eyes, till in a rash moment they rush in too near the wick, and then fall with singed wings and crippled legs, burnt up and reduced to tinder by the consuming fire of matrimony. happy marriages, men say, are made in heaven, and i believe it. most marriages are fairly happy, in spite of sir cresswell cresswell; and yet how little care is taken on earth towards such a result! "i hope my mother is using you well?" said lord lufton to griselda, as they were standing together in a doorway between the dances. "oh, yes: she is very kind." "you have been rash to trust yourself in the hands of so very staid and demure a person. and, indeed, you owe your presence here at mrs. harold smith's first cabinet ball altogether to me. i don't know whether you are aware of that." "oh, yes: lady lufton told me." "and are you grateful or otherwise? have i done you an injury or a benefit? which do you find best, sitting with a novel in the corner of a sofa in bruton street, or pretending to dance polkas here with lord dumbello?" "i don't know what you mean. i haven't stood up with lord dumbello all the evening. we were going to dance a quadrille, but we didn't." "exactly; just what i say;--pretending to do it. even that's a good deal for lord dumbello; isn't it?" and then lord lufton, not being a pretender himself, put his arm round her waist, and away they went up and down the room, and across and about, with an energy which showed that what griselda lacked in her tongue she made up with her feet. lord dumbello, in the meantime, stood by, observant, thinking to himself that lord lufton was a glib-tongued, empty-headed ass, and reflecting that if his rival were to break the tendons of his leg in one of those rapid evolutions, or suddenly come by any other dreadful misfortune, such as the loss of all his property, absolute blindness, or chronic lumbago, it would only serve him right. and in that frame of mind he went to bed, in spite of the prayer which no doubt he said as to his forgiveness of other people's trespasses. and then, when they were again standing, lord lufton, in the little intervals between his violent gasps for fresh breath, asked griselda if she liked london. "pretty well," said griselda, gasping also a little herself. "i am afraid--you were very dull--down at framley." "oh, no;--i liked it--particularly." "it was a great bore when you went--away, i know. there wasn't a soul--about the house worth speaking to." and they remained silent for a minute till their lungs had become quiescent. "not a soul," he continued--not of falsehood prepense, for he was not in fact thinking of what he was saying. it did not occur to him at the moment that he had truly found griselda's going a great relief, and that he had been able to do more in the way of conversation with lucy robarts in one hour than with miss grantly during a month of intercourse in the same house. but, nevertheless, we should not be hard upon him. all is fair in love and war; and if this was not love, it was the usual thing that stands as a counterpart for it. "not a soul," said lord lufton. "i was very nearly hanging myself in the park next morning;--only it rained." "what nonsense! you had your mother to talk to." "oh, my mother,--yes; and you may tell me too, if you please, that captain culpepper was there. i do love my mother dearly; but do you think that she could make up for your absence?" and his voice was very tender, and so were his eyes. "and miss robarts; i thought you admired her very much?" "what, lucy robarts?" said lord lufton, feeling that lucy's name was more than he at present knew how to manage. indeed that name destroyed all the life there was in that little flirtation. "i do like lucy robarts, certainly. she is very clever; but it so happened that i saw little or nothing of her after you were gone." to this griselda made no answer, but drew herself up, and looked as cold as diana when she froze orion in the cave. nor could she be got to give more than monosyllabic answers to the three or four succeeding attempts at conversation which lord lufton made. and then they danced again, but griselda's steps were by no means so lively as before. what took place between them on that occasion was very little more than what has been here related. there may have been an ice or a glass of lemonade into the bargain, and perhaps the faintest possible attempt at hand-pressing. but if so, it was all on one side. to such overtures as that griselda grantly was as cold as any diana. but little as all this was, it was sufficient to fill lady lufton's mind and heart. no mother with six daughters was ever more anxious to get them off her hands, than lady lufton was to see her son married,--married, that is, to some girl of the right sort. and now it really did seem as though he were actually going to comply with her wishes. she had watched him during the whole evening, painfully endeavouring not to be observed in doing so. she had seen lord dumbello's failure and wrath, and she had seen her son's victory and pride. could it be the case that he had already said something, which was still allowed to be indecisive only through griselda's coldness? might it not be the case, that by some judicious aid on her part, that indecision might be turned into certainty, and that coldness into warmth? but then any such interference requires so delicate a touch,--as lady lufton was well aware. "have you had a pleasant evening?" lady lufton said, when she and griselda were seated together with their feet on the fender of her ladyship's dressing-room. lady lufton had especially invited her guest into this, her most private sanctum, to which as a rule none had admittance but her daughter, and sometimes fanny robarts. but to what sanctum might not such a daughter-in-law as griselda have admittance? "oh, yes--very," said griselda. "it seemed to me that you bestowed most of your smiles upon ludovic." and lady lufton put on a look of good pleasure that such should have been the case. "oh! i don't know," said griselda: "i did dance with him two or three times." "not once too often to please me, my dear. i like to see ludovic dancing with my friends." "i am sure i am very much obliged to you, lady lufton." "not at all, my dear. i don't know where he could get so nice a partner." and then she paused a moment, not feeling how far she might go. in the meantime griselda sat still, staring at the hot coals. "indeed, i know that he admires you very much," continued lady lufton. "oh! no, i am sure he doesn't," said griselda; and then there was another pause. "i can only say this," said lady lufton, "that if he does do so--and i believe he does--it would give me very great pleasure. for you know, my dear, that i am very fond of you myself." "oh! thank you," said griselda, and stared at the coals more perseveringly than before. "he is a young man of a most excellent disposition--though he is my own son, i will say that--and if there should be anything between you and him--" "there isn't, indeed, lady lufton." "but if there ever should be, i should be delighted to think that ludovic had made so good a choice." "but there will never be anything of the sort, i'm sure, lady lufton. he is not thinking of such a thing in the least." "well, perhaps he may, some day. and now, good-night, my dear." "good-night, lady lufton." and griselda kissed her with the utmost composure, and betook herself to her own bedroom. before she retired to sleep she looked carefully to her different articles of dress, discovering what amount of damage the evening's wear and tear might have inflicted. chapter xxi. why puck, the pony, was beaten. mark robarts returned home the day after the scene at the albany, considerably relieved in spirit. he now felt that he might accept the stall without discredit to himself as a clergyman in doing so. indeed, after what mr. sowerby had said, and after lord lufton's assent to it, it would have been madness, he considered, to decline it. and then, too, mr. sowerby's promise about the bills was very comfortable to him. after all, might it not be possible that he might get rid of all these troubles with no other drawback than that of having to pay £ for a horse that was well worth the money? on the day after his return he received proper authentic tidings of his presentation to the prebend. he was, in fact, already prebendary, or would be as soon as the dean and chapter had gone through the form of instituting him in his stall. the income was already his own; and the house also would be given up to him in a week's time--a part of the arrangement with which he would most willingly have dispensed had it been at all possible to do so. his wife congratulated him nicely, with open affection, and apparent satisfaction at the arrangement. the enjoyment of one's own happiness at such windfalls depends so much on the free and freely expressed enjoyment of others! lady lufton's congratulations had nearly made him throw up the whole thing; but his wife's smiles re-encouraged him; and lucy's warm and eager joy made him feel quite delighted with mr. sowerby and the duke of omnium. and then that splendid animal, dandy, came home to the parsonage stables, much to the delight of the groom and gardener, and of the assistant stable boy who had been allowed to creep into the establishment, unawares as it were, since "master" had taken so keenly to hunting. but this satisfaction was not shared in the drawing-room. the horse was seen on his first journey round to the stable gate, and questions were immediately asked. it was a horse, mark said, "which he had bought from mr. sowerby some little time since with the object of obliging him. he, mark, intended to sell him again, as soon as he could do so judiciously." this, as i have said above, was not satisfactory. neither of the two ladies at framley parsonage knew much about horses, or of the manner in which one gentleman might think it proper to oblige another by purchasing the superfluities of his stable; but they did both feel that there were horses enough in the parsonage stable without dandy, and that the purchasing of a hunter with the view of immediately selling him again, was, to say the least of it, an operation hardly congenial with the usual tastes and pursuits of a clergyman. "i hope you did not give very much money for him, mark," said fanny. "not more than i shall get again," said mark; and fanny saw from the form of his countenance that she had better not pursue the subject any further at that moment. "i suppose i shall have to go into residence almost immediately," said mark, recurring to the more agreeable subject of the stall. "and shall we all have to go and live at barchester at once?" asked lucy. "the house will not be furnished, will it, mark?" said his wife. "i don't know how we shall get on." "don't frighten yourselves. i shall take lodgings in barchester." "and we shall not see you all the time," said mrs. robarts with dismay. but the prebendary explained that he would be backwards and forwards at framley every week, and that in all probability he would only sleep at barchester on the saturdays and sundays--and, perhaps, not always then. "it does not seem very hard work, that of a prebendary," said lucy. "but it is very dignified," said fanny. "prebendaries are dignitaries of the church--are they not, mark?" "decidedly," said he; "and their wives also, by special canon law. the worst of it is that both of them are obliged to wear wigs." "shall you have a hat, mark, with curly things at the side, and strings through to hold them up?" asked lucy. "i fear that does not come within my perquisites." "nor a rosette? then i shall never believe that you are a dignitary. do you mean to say that you will wear a hat like a common parson--like mr. crawley, for instance?" "well--i believe i may give a twist to the leaf; but i am by no means sure till i shall have consulted the dean in chapter." and thus at the parsonage they talked over the good things that were coming to them, and endeavoured to forget the new horse, and the hunting boots that had been used so often during the last winter, and lady lufton's altered countenance. it might be that the evils would vanish away, and the good things alone remain to them. it was now the month of april, and the fields were beginning to look green, and the wind had got itself out of the east and was soft and genial, and the early spring flowers were showing their bright colours in the parsonage garden, and all things were sweet and pleasant. this was a period of the year that was usually dear to mrs. robarts. her husband was always a better parson when the warm months came than he had been during the winter. the distant county friends whom she did not know and of whom she did not approve went away when the spring came, leaving their houses innocent and empty. the parish duty was better attended to, and perhaps domestic duties also. at such period he was a pattern parson and a pattern husband, atoning to his own conscience for past shortcomings by present zeal. and then, though she had never acknowledged it to herself, the absence of her dear friend lady lufton was perhaps in itself not disagreeable. mrs. robarts did love lady lufton heartily; but it must be acknowledged of her ladyship, that, with all her good qualities, she was inclined to be masterful. she liked to rule, and she made people feel that she liked it. mrs. robarts would never have confessed that she laboured under a sense of thraldom; but perhaps she was mouse enough to enjoy the temporary absence of her kind-hearted cat. when lady lufton was away mrs. robarts herself had more play in the parish. and mark also was not unhappy, though he did not find it practicable immediately to turn dandy into money. indeed, just at this moment, when he was a good deal over at barchester, going through those deep mysteries and rigid ecclesiastical examinations which are necessary before a clergyman can become one of a chapter, dandy was rather a thorn in his side. those wretched bills were to come due early in may, and before the end of april sowerby wrote to him saying that he was doing his utmost to provide for the evil day; but that if the price of dandy could be remitted to him _at once_, it would greatly facilitate his object. nothing could be more different than mr. sowerby's tone about money at different times. when he wanted to raise the wind, everything was so important; haste and superhuman efforts, and men running to and fro with blank acceptances in their hands, could alone stave off the crack of doom; but at other times, when retaliatory applications were made to him, he could prove with the easiest voice and most jaunty manner that everything was quite serene. now, at this period, he was in that mood of superhuman efforts, and he called loudly for the hundred and thirty pounds for dandy. after what had passed, mark could not bring himself to say that he would pay nothing till the bills were safe; and therefore with the assistance of mr. forrest of the bank, he did remit the price of dandy to his friend sowerby in london. and lucy robarts--we must now say a word of her. we have seen how, on that occasion, when the world was at her feet, she had sent her noble suitor away, not only dismissed, but so dismissed that he might be taught never again to offer to her the sweet incense of his vows. she had declared to him plainly that she did not love him and could not love him, and had thus thrown away not only riches and honour and high station, but more than that--much worse than that--she had flung away from her the lover to whose love her warm heart clung. that her love did cling to him, she knew even then, and owned more thoroughly as soon as he was gone. so much her pride had done for her, and that strong resolve that lady lufton should not scowl on her and tell her that she had entrapped her son. i know it will be said of lord lufton himself that, putting aside his peerage and broad acres, and handsome, sonsy face, he was not worth a girl's care and love. that will be said because people think that heroes in books should be so much better than heroes got up for the world's common wear and tear. i may as well confess that of absolute, true heroism there was only a moderate admixture in lord lufton's composition; but what would the world come to if none but absolute true heroes were to be thought worthy of women's love? what would the men do? and what--oh! what would become of the women? lucy robarts in her heart did not give her dismissed lover credit for much more heroism than did truly appertain to him;--did not, perhaps, give him full credit for a certain amount of heroism which did really appertain to him; but, nevertheless, she would have been very glad to take him could she have done so without wounding her pride. that girls should not marry for money we are all agreed. a lady who can sell herself for a title or an estate, for an income or a set of family diamonds, treats herself as a farmer treats his sheep and oxen--makes hardly more of herself, of her own inner self, in which are comprised a mind and soul, than the poor wretch of her own sex who earns her bread in the lowest stage of degradation. but a title, and an estate, and an income, are matters which will weigh in the balance with all eve's daughters--as they do with all adam's sons. pride of place, and the power of living well in front of the world's eye, are dear to us all;--are, doubtless, intended to be dear. only in acknowledging so much, let us remember that there are prices at which these good things may be too costly. therefore, being desirous, too, of telling the truth in this matter, i must confess that lucy did speculate with some regret on what it would have been to be lady lufton. to have been the wife of such a man, the owner of such a heart, the mistress of such a destiny--what more or what better could the world have done for her? and now she had thrown all that aside because she would not endure that lady lufton should call her a scheming, artful girl! actuated by that fear she had repulsed him with a falsehood, though the matter was one on which it was so terribly expedient that she should tell the truth. and yet she was cheerful with her brother and sister-in-law. it was when she was quite alone, at night in her own room, or in her solitary walks, that a single silent tear would gather in the corner of her eye and gradually moisten her eyelids. "she never told her love," nor did she allow concealment to "feed on her damask cheek." in all her employments, in her ways about the house, and her accustomed quiet mirth, she was the same as ever. in this she showed the peculiar strength which god had given her. but not the less did she in truth mourn for her lost love and spoiled ambition. "we are going to drive over to hogglestock this morning," fanny said one day at breakfast. "i suppose, mark, you won't go with us?" "well, no; i think not. the pony-carriage is wretched for three." "oh, as for that, i should have thought the new horse might have been able to carry you as far as that. i heard you say you wanted to see mr. crawley." "so i do; and the new horse, as you call him, shall carry me there to-morrow. will you say that i'll be over about twelve o'clock?" "you had better say earlier, as he is always out about the parish." "very well, say eleven. it is parish business about which i am going, so it need not irk his conscience to stay in for me." "well, lucy, we must drive ourselves, that's all. you shall be charioteer going, and then we'll change coming back." to all which lucy agreed, and as soon as their work in the school was over they started. not a word had been spoken between them about lord lufton since that evening, now more than a month ago, on which they had been walking together in the garden. lucy had so demeaned herself on that occasion as to make her sister-in-law quite sure that there had been no love passages up to that time; and nothing had since occurred which had created any suspicion in mrs. robarts' mind. she had seen at once that all the close intimacy between them was over, and thought that everything was as it should be. "do you know, i have an idea," she said in the pony-carriage that day, "that lord lufton will marry griselda grantly." lucy could not refrain from giving a little check at the reins which she was holding, and she felt that the blood rushed quickly to her heart. but she did not betray herself. "perhaps he may," she said, and then gave the pony a little touch with her whip. "oh, lucy, i won't have puck beaten. he was going very nicely." "i beg puck's pardon. but you see when one is trusted with a whip one feels such a longing to use it." "oh, but you should keep it still. i feel almost certain that lady lufton would like such a match." "i daresay she might. miss grantly will have a large fortune, i believe." "it is not that altogether: but she is the sort of young lady that lady lufton likes. she is ladylike and very beautiful--" "come, fanny!" "i really think she is; not what i should call lovely, you know, but very beautiful. and then she is quiet and reserved; she does not require excitement, and i am sure is conscientious in the performance of her duties." "very conscientious, i have no doubt," said lucy, with something like a sneer in her tone. "but the question, i suppose, is, whether lord lufton likes her." "i think he does,--in a sort of way. he did not talk to her so much as he did to you--" "ah! that was all lady lufton's fault, because she didn't have him properly labelled." "there does not seem to have been much harm done?" "oh! by god's mercy, very little. as for me, i shall get over it in three or four years i don't doubt--that's if i can get ass's milk and change of air." "we'll take you to barchester for that. but as i was saying, i really do think lord lufton likes griselda grantly." "then i really do think that he has uncommon bad taste," said lucy, with a reality in her voice differing much from the tone of banter she had hitherto used. "what, lucy!" said her sister-in-law, looking at her. "then i fear we shall really want the ass's milk." "perhaps, considering my position, i ought to know nothing of lord lufton, for you say that it is very dangerous for young ladies to know young gentlemen. but i do know enough of him to understand that he ought not to like such a girl as griselda grantly. he ought to know that she is a mere automaton, cold, lifeless, spiritless, and even vapid. there is, i believe, nothing in her mentally, whatever may be her moral excellences. to me she is more absolutely like a statue than any other human being i ever saw. to sit still and be admired is all that she desires; and if she cannot get that, to sit still and not be admired would almost suffice for her. i do not worship lady lufton as you do; but i think quite well enough of her to wonder that she should choose such a girl as that for her son's wife. that she does wish it, i do not doubt. but i shall indeed be surprised if he wishes it also." and then as she finished her speech, lucy again flogged the pony. this she did in vexation, because she felt that the tell-tale blood had suffused her face. "why, lucy, if he were your brother you could not be more eager about it." "no, i could not. he is the only man friend with whom i was ever intimate, and i cannot bear to think that he should throw himself away. it's horridly improper to care about such a thing, i have no doubt." "i think we might acknowledge that if he and his mother are both satisfied, we may be satisfied also." "i shall not be satisfied. it's no use your looking at me, fanny. you will make me talk of it, and i won't tell a lie on the subject. i do like lord lufton very much; and i do dislike griselda grantly almost as much. therefore i shall not be satisfied if they become man and wife. however, i do not suppose that either of them will ask my consent; nor is it probable that lady lufton will do so." and then they went on for perhaps a quarter of a mile without speaking. "poor puck!" at last lucy said. "he shan't be whipped any more, shall he, because miss grantly looks like a statue? and, fanny, don't tell mark to put me into a lunatic asylum. i also know a hawk from a heron, and that's why i don't like to see such a very unfitting marriage." there was then nothing more said on the subject, and in two minutes they arrived at the house of the hogglestock clergyman. mrs. crawley had brought two children with her when she came from the cornish curacy to hogglestock, and two other babies had been added to her cares since then. one of these was now ill with croup, and it was with the object of offering to the mother some comfort and solace, that the present visit was made. the two ladies got down from their carriage, having obtained the services of a boy to hold puck, and soon found themselves in mrs. crawley's single sitting-room. she was sitting there with her foot on the board of a child's cradle, rocking it, while an infant about three months old was lying in her lap. for the elder one, who was the sufferer, had in her illness usurped the baby's place. two other children, considerably older, were also in the room. the eldest was a girl, perhaps nine years of age, and the other a boy three years her junior. these were standing at their father's elbow, who was studiously endeavouring to initiate them in the early mysteries of grammar. to tell the truth mrs. robarts would much have preferred that mr. crawley had not been there, for she had with her and about her certain contraband articles, presents for the children, as they were to be called, but in truth relief for that poor, much-tasked mother, which they knew it would be impossible to introduce in mr. crawley's presence. she, as we have said, was not quite so gaunt, not altogether so haggard as in the latter of those dreadful cornish days. lady lufton and mrs. arabin between them, and the scanty comfort of their improved, though still wretched income, had done something towards bringing her back to the world in which she had lived in the soft days of her childhood. but even the liberal stipend of a hundred and thirty pounds a-year--liberal according to the scale by which the incomes of clergymen in some of our new districts are now apportioned--would not admit of a gentleman with his wife and four children living with the ordinary comforts of an artisan's family. as regards the mere eating and drinking, the amounts of butcher's meat and tea and butter, they of course were used in quantities which any artisan would have regarded as compatible only with demi-starvation. better clothing for her children was necessary, and better clothing for him. as for her own raiment, the wives of few artisans would have been content to put up with mrs. crawley's best gown. the stuff of which it was made had been paid for by her mother when she with much difficulty bestowed upon her daughter her modest wedding _trousseau_. lucy had never seen mrs. crawley. these visits to hogglestock were not frequent, and had generally been made by lady lufton and mrs. robarts together. it was known that they were distasteful to mr. crawley, who felt a savage satisfaction in being left to himself. it may almost be said of him that he felt angry with those who relieved him, and he had certainly never as yet forgiven the dean of barchester for paying his debts. the dean had also given him his present living; and consequently his old friend was not now so dear to him as when in old days he would come down to that farm-house, almost as penniless as the curate himself. then they would walk together for hours along the rock-bound shore, listening to the waves, discussing deep polemical mysteries, sometimes with hot fury, then again with tender, loving charity, but always with a mutual acknowledgment of each other's truth. now they lived comparatively near together, but no opportunities arose for such discussions. at any rate once a quarter mr. crawley was pressed by his old friend to visit him at the deanery, and dr. arabin had promised that no one else should be in the house if mr. crawley objected to society. but this was not what he wanted. the finery and grandeur of the deanery, and the comfort of that warm, snug library, would silence him at once. why did not dr. arabin come out there to hogglestock, and tramp with him through the dirty lanes as they used to tramp? then he could have enjoyed himself; then he could have talked; then old days would have come back to them. but now!--"arabin always rides on a sleek, fine horse, now-a-days," he once said to his wife with a sneer. his poverty had been so terrible to himself that it was not in his heart to love a rich friend. chapter xxii. hogglestock parsonage. at the end of the last chapter, we left lucy robarts waiting for an introduction to mrs. crawley, who was sitting with one baby in her lap while she was rocking another who lay in a cradle at her feet. mr. crawley, in the meanwhile, had risen from his seat with his finger between the leaves of an old grammar out of which he had been teaching his two elder children. the whole crawley family was thus before them when mrs. robarts and lucy entered the sitting-room. [illustration: the crawley family.] "this is my sister-in-law, lucy," said mrs. robarts. "pray don't move now, mrs. crawley; or if you do, let me take baby." and she put out her arms and took the infant into them, making him quite at home there; for she had work of this kind of her own, at home, which she by no means neglected, though the attendance of nurses was more plentiful with her than at hogglestock. mrs. crawley did get up, and told lucy that she was glad to see her, and mr. crawley came forward, grammar in hand, looking humble and meek. could we have looked into the innermost spirit of him and his life's partner, we should have seen that mixed with the pride of his poverty there was some feeling of disgrace that he was poor, but that with her, regarding this matter, there was neither pride nor shame. the realities of life had become so stern to her that the outward aspects of them were as nothing. she would have liked a new gown because it would have been useful; but it would have been nothing to her if all the county knew that the one in which she went to church had been turned three times. it galled him, however, to think that he and his were so poorly dressed. "i am afraid you can hardly find a chair, miss robarts," said mr. crawley. "oh, yes; there is nothing here but this young gentleman's library," said lucy, moving a pile of ragged, coverless books on to the table. "i hope he'll forgive me for moving them." "they are not bob's,--at least, not the most of them,--but mine," said the girl. "but some of them are mine," said the boy; "ain't they, grace?" "and are you a great scholar?" asked lucy, drawing the child to her. "i don't know," said grace, with a sheepish face. "i am in greek delectus and the irregular verbs." "greek delectus and the irregular verbs!" and lucy put up her hands with astonishment. "and she knows an ode of horace all by heart," said bob. "an ode of horace!" said lucy, still holding the young shamefaced female prodigy close to her knees. "it is all that i can give them," said mr. crawley, apologetically. "a little scholarship is the only fortune that has come in my way, and i endeavour to share that with my children." "i believe men say that it is the best fortune any of us can have," said lucy, thinking, however, in her own mind, that horace and the irregular greek verbs savoured too much of precocious forcing in a young lady of nine years old. but, nevertheless, grace was a pretty, simple-looking girl, and clung to her ally closely, and seemed to like being fondled. so that lucy anxiously wished that mr. crawley could be got rid of and the presents produced. "i hope you have left mr. robarts quite well," said mr. crawley, with a stiff, ceremonial voice, differing very much from that in which he had so energetically addressed his brother clergyman when they were alone together in the study at framley. "he is quite well, thank you. i suppose you have heard of his good fortune?" "yes; i have heard of it," said mr. crawley, gravely. "i hope that his promotion may tend in every way to his advantage here and hereafter." it seemed, however, to be manifest from the manner in which he expressed his kind wishes, that his hopes and expectations did not go hand-in-hand together. "by-the-by, he desired us to say that he will call here to-morrow; at about eleven, didn't he say, fanny?" "yes; he wishes to see you about some parish business, i think," said mrs. robarts, looking up for a moment from the anxious discussion in which she was already engaged with mrs. crawley on nursery matters. "pray tell him," said mr. crawley, "that i shall be happy to see him; though, perhaps, now that new duties have been thrown upon him, it will be better that i should visit him at framley." "his new duties do not disturb him much as yet," said lucy. "and his riding over here will be no trouble to him." "yes; there he has the advantage over me. i unfortunately have no horse." and then lucy began petting the little boy, and by degrees slipped a small bag of gingerbread-nuts out of her muff into his hands. she had not the patience necessary for waiting, as had her sister-in-law. the boy took the bag, peeped into it, and then looked up into her face. "what is that, bob?" said mr. crawley. "gingerbread," faltered bobby, feeling that a sin had been committed, though, probably, feeling also that he himself could hardly as yet be accounted as deeply guilty. "miss robarts," said the father, "we are very much obliged to you; but our children are hardly used to such things." "i am a lady with a weak mind, mr. crawley, and always carry things of this sort about with me when i go to visit children; so you must forgive me, and allow your little boy to accept them." "oh, certainly. bob, my child, give the bag to your mamma, and she will let you and grace have them, one at a time." and then the bag in a solemn manner was carried over to their mother, who, taking it from her son's hands, laid it high on a bookshelf. "and not one now?" said lucy robarts, very piteously. "don't be so hard, mr. crawley,--not upon them, but upon me. may i not learn whether they are good of their kind?" "i am sure they are very good; but i think their mamma will prefer their being put by for the present." this was very discouraging to lucy. if one small bag of gingerbread-nuts created so great a difficulty, how was she to dispose of the pot of guava jelly and box of bonbons, which were still in her muff; or how distribute the packet of oranges with which the pony-carriage was laden? and there was jelly for the sick child, and chicken broth, which was, indeed, another jelly; and, to tell the truth openly, there was also a joint of fresh pork and a basket of eggs from the framley parsonage farmyard, which mrs. robarts was to introduce, should she find herself capable of doing so; but which would certainly be cast out with utter scorn by mr. crawley, if tendered in his immediate presence. there had also been a suggestion as to adding two or three bottles of port; but the courage of the ladies had failed them on that head, and the wine was not now added to their difficulties. lucy found it very difficult to keep up a conversation with mr. crawley--the more so, as mrs. robarts and mrs. crawley presently withdrew into a bedroom, taking the two younger children with them. "how unlucky," thought lucy, "that she has not got my muff with her!" but the muff lay in her lap, ponderous with its rich enclosures. "i suppose you will live in barchester for a portion of the year now," said mr. crawley. "i really do not know as yet; mark talks of taking lodgings for his first month's residence." "but he will have the house, will he not?" "oh, yes; i suppose so." "i fear he will find it interfere with his own parish--with his general utility there: the schools, for instance." "mark thinks that, as he is so near, he need not be much absent from framley, even during his residence. and then lady lufton is so good about the schools." "ah! yes; but lady lufton is not a clergyman, miss robarts." it was on lucy's tongue to say that her ladyship was pretty nearly as bad, but she stopped herself. at this moment providence sent great relief to miss robarts in the shape of mrs. crawley's red-armed maid-of-all-work, who, walking up to her master, whispered into his ear that he was wanted. it was the time of day at which his attendance was always required in his parish school; and that attendance being so punctually given, those who wanted him looked for him there at this hour, and if he were absent, did not scruple to send for him. "miss robarts, i am afraid you must excuse me," said he, getting up and taking his hat and stick. lucy begged that she might not be at all in the way, and already began to speculate how she might best unload her treasures. "will you make my compliments to mrs. robarts, and say that i am sorry to miss the pleasure of wishing her good-bye? but i shall probably see her as she passes the school-house." and then, stick in hand, he walked forth, and lucy fancied that bobby's eyes immediately rested on the bag of gingerbread-nuts. "bob," said she, almost in a whisper, "do you like sugar-plums?" "very much indeed," said bob, with exceeding gravity, and with his eye upon the window to see whether his father had passed. "then come here," said lucy. but as she spoke the door again opened, and mr. crawley reappeared. "i have left a book behind me," he said; and, coming back through the room, he took up the well-worn prayer-book which accompanied him in all his wanderings through the parish. bobby, when he saw his father, had retreated a few steps back, as also did grace, who, to confess the truth, had been attracted by the sound of sugar-plums, in spite of the irregular verbs. and lucy withdrew her hand from her muff, and looked guilty. was she not deceiving the good man--nay, teaching his own children to deceive him? but there are men made of such stuff that an angel could hardly live with them without some deceit. "papa's gone now," whispered bobby; "i saw him turn round the corner." he, at any rate, had learned his lesson--as it was natural that he should do. some one else, also, had learned that papa was gone; for while bob and grace were still counting the big lumps of sugar-candy, each employed the while for inward solace with an inch of barley-sugar, the front-door opened, and a big basket, and a bundle done up in a kitchen-cloth, made surreptitious entrance into the house, and were quickly unpacked by mrs. robarts herself on the table in mrs. crawley's bedroom. "i did venture to bring them," said fanny, with a look of shame, "for i know how a sick child occupies the whole house." "ah! my friend," said mrs. crawley, taking hold of mrs. robarts' arm and looking into her face, "that sort of shame is over with me. god has tried us with want, and for my children's sake i am glad of such relief." "but will he be angry?" "i will manage it. dear mrs. robarts, you must not be surprised at him. his lot is sometimes very hard to bear: such things are so much worse for a man than for a woman." fanny was not quite prepared to admit this in her own heart, but she made no reply on that head. "i am sure i hope we may be able to be of use to you," she said, "if you will only look upon me as an old friend, and write to me if you want me. i hesitate to come frequently for fear that i should offend him." and then, by degrees, there was confidence between them, and the poverty-stricken helpmate of the perpetual curate was able to speak of the weight of her burden to the well-to-do young wife of the barchester prebendary. "it was hard," the former said, "to feel herself so different from the wives of other clergymen around her--to know that they lived softly, while she, with all the work of her hands, and unceasing struggle of her energies, could hardly manage to place wholesome food before her husband and children. it was a terrible thing--a grievous thing to think of, that all the work of her mind should be given up to such subjects as these. but, nevertheless, she could bear it," she said, "as long as he would carry himself like a man, and face his lot boldly before the world." and then she told how he had been better there at hogglestock than in their former residence down in cornwall, and in warm language she expressed her thanks to the friend who had done so much for them. "mrs. arabin told me that she was so anxious you should go to them," said mrs. robarts. "ah, yes; but that i fear is impossible. the children, you know, mrs. robarts." "i would take care of two of them for you." "oh, no; i could not punish you for your goodness in that way. but he would not go. he could go and leave me at home. sometimes i have thought that it might be so, and i have done all in my power to persuade him. i have told him that if he could mix once more with the world, with the clerical world, you know, that he would be better fitted for the performance of his own duties. but he answers me angrily, that it is impossible--that his coat is not fit for the dean's table," and mrs. crawley almost blushed as she spoke of such a reason. "what! with an old friend like dr. arabin? surely that must be nonsense." "i know that it is. the dean would be glad to see him with any coat. but the fact is that he cannot bear to enter the house of a rich man unless his duty calls him there." "but surely that is a mistake?" "it is a mistake. but what can i do? i fear that he regards the rich as his enemies. he is pining for the solace of some friend to whom he could talk--for some equal, with a mind educated like his own, to whose thoughts he could listen, and to whom he could speak his own thoughts. but such a friend must be equal, not only in mind, but in purse; and where can he ever find such a man as that?" "but you may get better preferment." "ah, no; and if he did, we are hardly fit for it now. if i could think that i could educate my children; if i could only do something for my poor grace--" in answer to this mrs. robarts said a word or two, but not much. she resolved, however, that if she could get her husband's leave, something should be done for grace. would it not be a good work? and was it not incumbent on her to make some kindly use of all the goods with which providence had blessed herself? and then they went back to the sitting-room, each again with a young child in her arms, mrs. crawley having stowed away in the kitchen the chicken broth and the leg of pork and the supply of eggs. lucy had been engaged the while with the children, and when the two married ladies entered, they found that a shop had been opened at which all manner of luxuries were being readily sold and purchased at marvellously easy prices; the guava jelly was there, and the oranges, and the sugar-plums, red and yellow and striped; and, moreover, the gingerbread had been taken down in the audacity of their commercial speculations, and the nuts were spread out upon a board, behind which lucy stood as shop-girl, disposing of them for kisses. "mamma, mamma," said bobby, running up to his mother, "you must buy something of her," and he pointed with his fingers at the shop-girl. "you must give her two kisses for that heap of barley-sugar." looking at bobby's mouth at the time, one would have said that his kisses might be dispensed with. when they were again in the pony-carriage, behind the impatient puck, and were well away from the door, fanny was the first to speak. "how very different those two are," she said; "different in their minds and in their spirit!" "but how much higher toned is her mind than his! how weak he is in many things, and how strong she is in everything! how false is his pride, and how false his shame!" "but we must remember what he has to bear. it is not every one that can endure such a life as his without false pride and false shame." "but she has neither," said lucy. "because you have one hero in a family, does that give you a right to expect another?" said mrs. robarts. "of all my own acquaintance, mrs. crawley, i think, comes nearest to heroism." and then they passed by the hogglestock school, and mr. crawley, when he heard the noise of the wheels, came out. "you have been very kind," said he, "to remain so long with my poor wife." "we had a great many things to talk about, after you went." "it is very kind of you, for she does not often see a friend, now-a-days. will you have the goodness to tell mr. robarts that i shall be here at the school, at eleven o'clock to-morrow?" and then he bowed, taking off his hat to them, and they drove on. "if he really does care about her comfort, i shall not think so badly of him," said lucy. chapter xxiii. the triumph of the giants. and now about the end of april news arrived almost simultaneously in all quarters of the habitable globe that was terrible in its import to one of the chief persons of our history;--some may think to the chief person in it. all high parliamentary people will doubtless so think, and the wives and daughters of such. the titans warring against the gods had been for awhile successful. typhoeus and mimas, porphyrion and rhoecus, the giant brood of old, steeped in ignorance and wedded to corruption, had scaled the heights of olympus, assisted by that audacious flinger of deadly ponderous missiles, who stands ever ready armed with his terrific sling--supplehouse, the enceladus of the press. and in this universal cataclasm of the starry councils, what could a poor diana do, diana of the petty bag, but abandon her pride of place to some rude orion? in other words, the ministry had been compelled to resign, and with them mr. harold smith. "and so poor harold is out, before he has well tasted the sweets of office," said sowerby, writing to his friend the parson; "and as far as i know, the only piece of church patronage which has fallen in the way of the ministry since he joined it, has made its way down to framley--to my great joy and contentment." but it hardly tended to mark's joy and contentment on the same subject that he should be so often reminded of the benefit conferred upon him. terrible was this break-down of the ministry, and especially to harold smith, who to the last had had confidence in that theory of new blood. he could hardly believe that a large majority of the house should vote against a government which he had only just joined. "if we are to go on in this way," he said to his young friend green walker, "the queen's government cannot be carried on." that alleged difficulty as to carrying on the queen's government has been frequently mooted in late years since a certain great man first introduced the idea. nevertheless, the queen's government is carried on, and the propensity and aptitude of men for this work seems to be not at all on the decrease. if we have but few young statesmen, it is because the old stagers are so fond of the rattle of their harness. "i really do not see how the queen's government is to be carried on," said harold smith to green walker, standing in a corner of one of the lobbies of the house of commons on the first of those days of awful interest, in which the queen was sending for one crack statesman after another; and some anxious men were beginning to doubt whether or no we should, in truth, be able to obtain the blessing of another cabinet. the gods had all vanished from their places. would the giants be good enough to do anything for us or no? there were men who seemed to think that the giants would refuse to do anything for us. "the house will now be adjourned over till monday, and i would not be in her majesty's shoes for something," said mr. harold smith. "by jove! no," said green walker, who in these days was a stanch harold smithian, having felt a pride in joining himself on as a substantial support to a cabinet minister. had he contented himself with being merely a brockite, he would have counted as nobody. "by jove! no," and green walker opened his eyes and shook his head, as he thought of the perilous condition in which her majesty must be placed. "i happen to know that lord ---- won't join them unless he has the foreign office," and he mentioned some hundred-handed gyas supposed to be of the utmost importance to the counsels of the titans. "and that, of course, is impossible. i don't see what on earth they are to do. there's sidonia; they do say that he's making some difficulty now." now sidonia was another giant, supposed to be very powerful. "we all know that the queen won't see him," said green walker, who, being a member of parliament for the crewe junction, and nephew to lady hartletop, of course had perfectly correct means of ascertaining what the queen would do, and what she would not. "the fact is," said harold smith, recurring again to his own situation as an ejected god, "that the house does not in the least understand what it is about;--doesn't know what it wants. the question i should like to ask them is this: do they intend that the queen shall have a government, or do they not? are they prepared to support such men as sidonia and lord de terrier? if so, i am their obedient humble servant; but i shall be very much surprised, that's all." lord de terrier was at this time recognized by all men as the leader of the giants. "and so shall i,--deucedly surprised. they can't do it, you know. there are the manchester men. i ought to know something about them down in my country; and i say they can't support lord de terrier. it wouldn't be natural." "natural! human nature has come to an end, i think," said harold smith, who could hardly understand that the world should conspire to throw over a government which he had joined, and that, too, before the world had waited to see how much he would do for it; "the fact is this, walker, we have no longer among us any strong feeling of party." "no, not a d----," said green walker, who was very energetic in his present political aspirations. "and till we can recover that, we shall never be able to have a government firm-seated and sure-handed. nobody can count on men from one week to another. the very members who in one month place a minister in power, are the very first to vote against him in the next." "we must put a stop to that sort of thing, otherwise we shall never do any good." "i don't mean to deny that brock was wrong with reference to lord brittleback. i think that he was wrong, and i said so all through. but, heavens on earth--!" and instead of completing his speech harold smith turned away his head, and struck his hands together in token of his astonishment at the fatuity of the age. what he probably meant to express was this: that if such a good deed as that late appointment made at the petty bag office were not held sufficient to atone for that other evil deed to which he had alluded, there would be an end of all justice in sublunary matters. was no offence to be forgiven, even when so great virtue had been displayed? "i attribute it all to supplehouse," said green walker, trying to console his friend. "yes," said harold smith, now verging on the bounds of parliamentary eloquence, although he still spoke with bated breath, and to one solitary hearer. "yes; we are becoming the slaves of a mercenary and irresponsible press--of one single newspaper. there is a man endowed with no great talent, enjoying no public confidence, untrusted as a politician, and unheard of even as a writer by the world at large, and yet, because he is on the staff of the _jupiter_, he is able to overturn the government and throw the whole country into dismay. it is astonishing to me that a man like lord brock should allow himself to be so timid." and nevertheless it was not yet a month since harold smith had been counselling with supplehouse how a series of strong articles in the _jupiter_, together with the expected support of the manchester men, might probably be effective in hurling the minister from his seat. but at that time the minister had not revigorated himself with young blood. "how the queen's government is to be carried on, that is the question now," harold smith repeated. a difficulty which had not caused him much dismay at that period, about a month since, to which we have alluded. at this moment sowerby and supplehouse together joined them, having come out of the house, in which some unimportant business had been completed after the minister's notice of adjournment. "well, harold," said sowerby, "what do you say to your governor's statement?" "i have nothing to say to it," said harold smith, looking up very solemnly from under the penthouse of his hat, and, perhaps, rather savagely. sowerby had supported the government at the late crisis; but why was he now seen herding with such a one as supplehouse? "he did it pretty well, i think," said sowerby. "very well, indeed," said supplehouse; "as he always does those sort of things. no man makes so good an explanation of circumstances, or comes out with so telling a personal statement. he ought to keep himself in reserve for those sort of things." "and who in the meantime is to carry on the queen's government?" said harold smith, looking very stern. "that should be left to men of lesser mark," said he of the _jupiter_. "the points as to which one really listens to a minister, the subjects about which men really care, are always personal. how many of us are truly interested as to the best mode of governing india? but in a question touching the character of a prime minister we all muster together like bees round a sounding cymbal." "that arises from envy, malice, and all uncharitableness," said harold smith. "yes; and from picking and stealing, evil speaking, lying, and slandering," said mr. sowerby. "we are so prone to desire and covet other men's places," said supplehouse. "some men are so," said sowerby; "but it is the evil speaking, lying, and slandering, which does the mischief. is it not, harold?" "and in the meantime how is the queen's government to be carried on?" said mr. green walker. on the following morning it was known that lord de terrier was with the queen at buckingham palace, and at about twelve a list of the new ministry was published, which must have been in the highest degree satisfactory to the whole brood of giants. every son of tellus was included in it, as were also very many of the daughters. but then, late in the afternoon, lord brock was again summoned to the palace, and it was thought in the west end among the clubs that the gods had again a chance. "if only," said the _purist_, an evening paper which was supposed to be very much in the interest of mr. harold smith, "if only lord brock can have the wisdom to place the right men in the right places. it was only the other day that he introduced mr. smith into his government. that this was a step in the right direction every one has acknowledged, though unfortunately it was made too late to prevent the disturbance which has since occurred. it now appears probable that his lordship will again have an opportunity of selecting a list of statesmen with the view of carrying on the queen's government; and it is to be hoped that such men as mr. smith may be placed in situations in which their talents, industry, and acknowledged official aptitudes, may be of permanent service to the country." supplehouse, when he read this at the club with mr. sowerby at his elbow, declared that the style was too well marked to leave any doubt as to the author; but we ourselves are not inclined to think that mr. harold smith wrote the article himself, although it may be probable that he saw it in type. but the _jupiter_ the next morning settled the whole question, and made it known to the world that, in spite of all the sendings and re-sendings, lord brock and the gods were permanently out, and lord de terrier and the giants permanently in. that fractious giant who would only go to the foreign office had, in fact, gone to some sphere of much less important duty, and sidonia, in spite of the whispered dislike of an illustrious personage, opened the campaign with all the full appanages of a giant of the highest standing. "we hope," said the _jupiter_, "that lord brock may not yet be too old to take a lesson. if so, the present decision of the house of commons, and we may say of the country also, may teach him not to put his trust in such princes as lord brittleback, or such broken reeds as mr. harold smith." now this parting blow we always thought to be exceedingly unkind, and altogether unnecessary, on the part of mr. supplehouse. "my dear," said mrs. harold, when she first met miss dunstable after the catastrophe was known, "how am i possibly to endure this degradation?" and she put her deeply-laced handkerchief up to her eyes. "christian resignation," suggested miss dunstable. "fiddlestick!" said mrs. harold smith. "you millionnaires always talk of christian resignation, because you never are called on to resign anything. if i had any christian resignation, i shouldn't have cared for such pomps and vanities. think of it, my dear; a cabinet minister's wife for only three weeks!" "how does poor mr. smith endure it?" "what? harold? he only lives on the hope of vengeance. when he has put an end to mr. supplehouse, he will be content to die." and then there were further explanations in both houses of parliament, which were altogether satisfactory. the high-bred, courteous giants assured the gods that they had piled pelion on ossa and thus climbed up into power, very much in opposition to their own good-wills; for they, the giants themselves, preferred the sweets of dignified retirement. but the voice of the people had been too strong for them; the effort had been made, not by themselves, but by others, who were determined that the giants should be at the head of affairs. indeed, the spirit of the times was so clearly in favour of giants that there had been no alternative. so said briareus to the lords, and orion to the commons. and then the gods were absolutely happy in ceding their places; and so far were they from any uncelestial envy or malice which might not be divine, that they promised to give the giants all the assistance in their power in carrying on the work of government; upon which the giants declared how deeply indebted they would be for such valuable counsel and friendly assistance. all this was delightful in the extreme; but not the less did ordinary men seem to expect that the usual battle would go on in the old customary way. it is easy to love one's enemy when one is making fine speeches; but so difficult to do so in the actual everyday work of life. but there was and always has been this peculiar good point about the giants, that they are never too proud to follow in the footsteps of the gods. if the gods, deliberating painfully together, have elaborated any skilful project, the giants are always willing to adopt it as their own, not treating the bantling as a foster-child, but praising it and pushing it so that men should regard it as the undoubted offspring of their own brains. now just at this time there had been a plan much thought of for increasing the number of the bishops. good active bishops were very desirable, and there was a strong feeling among certain excellent churchmen that there could hardly be too many of them. lord brock had his measure cut and dry. there should be a bishop of westminster to share the herculean toils of the metropolitan prelate, and another up in the north to christianize the mining interests and wash white the blackamoors of newcastle: bishop of beverley he should be called. but, in opposition to this, the giants, it was known, had intended to put forth the whole measure of their brute force. more curates, they said, were wanting, and district incumbents; not more bishops rolling in carriages. that bishops should roll in carriages was very good; but of such blessings the english world for the present had enough. and therefore lord brock and the gods had had much fear as to their little project. but now, immediately on the accession of the giants, it was known that the bishop bill was to be gone on with immediately. some small changes would be effected so that the bill should be gigantic rather than divine; but the result would be altogether the same. it must, however, be admitted that bishops appointed by ourselves may be very good things, whereas those appointed by our adversaries will be anything but good. and, no doubt, this feeling went a long way with the giants. be that as it may, the new bishop bill was to be their first work of government, and it was to be brought forward and carried, and the new prelates selected and put into their chairs all at once,--before the grouse should begin to crow and put an end to the doings of gods as well as giants. among other minor effects arising from this decision was the following, that archdeacon and mrs. grantly returned to london, and again took the lodgings in which they had before been staying. on various occasions also during the first week of this second sojourn, dr. grantly might be seen entering the official chambers of the first lord of the treasury. much counsel was necessary among high churchmen of great repute before any fixed resolution could wisely be made in such a matter as this; and few churchmen stood in higher repute than the archdeacon of barchester. and then it began to be rumoured in the world that the minister had disposed at any rate of the see of westminster. this present time was a very nervous one for mrs. grantly. what might be the aspirations of the archdeacon himself, we will not stop to inquire. it may be that time and experience had taught him the futility of earthly honours, and made him content with the comfortable opulence of his barsetshire rectory. but there is no theory of church discipline which makes it necessary that a clergyman's wife should have an objection to a bishopric. the archdeacon probably was only anxious to give a disinterested aid to the minister, but mrs. grantly did long to sit in high places, and be at any rate equal to mrs. proudie. it was for her children, she said to herself, that she was thus anxious,--that they should have a good position before the world, and the means of making the best of themselves. "one is able to do nothing, you know, shut up there, down at plumstead," she had remarked to lady lufton on the occasion of her first visit to london, and yet the time was not long past when she had thought that rectory house at plumstead to be by no means insufficient or contemptible. and then there came a question whether or no griselda should go back to her mother; but this idea was very strongly opposed by lady lufton, and ultimately with success. "i really think the dear girl is very happy with me," said lady lufton; "and if ever she is to belong to me more closely, it will be so well that we should know and love one another." to tell the truth, lady lufton had been trying hard to know and love griselda, but hitherto she had scarcely succeeded to the full extent of her wishes. that she loved griselda was certain,--with that sort of love which springs from a person's volition and not from the judgment. she had said all along to herself and others that she did love griselda grantly. she had admired the young lady's face, liked her manner, approved of her fortune and family, and had selected her for a daughter-in-law in a somewhat impetuous manner. therefore she loved her. but it was by no means clear to lady lufton that she did as yet know her young friend. the match was a plan of her own, and therefore she stuck to it as warmly as ever, but she began to have some misgivings whether or no the dear girl would be to her herself all that she had dreamed of in a daughter-in-law. "but, dear lady lufton," said mrs. grantly, "is it not possible that we may put her affections to too severe a test? what, if she should learn to regard him, and then--" "ah! if she did, i should have no fear of the result. if she showed anything like love for ludovic, he would be at her feet in a moment. he is impulsive, but she is not." "exactly, lady lufton. it is his privilege to be impulsive and to sue for her affection, and hers to have her love sought for without making any demonstration. it is perhaps the fault of young ladies of the present day that they are too impulsive. they assume privileges which are not their own, and thus lose those which are." "quite true! i quite agree with you. it is probably that very feeling that has made me think so highly of griselda. but then--" but then a young lady, though she need not jump down a gentleman's throat, or throw herself into his face, may give some signs that she is made of flesh and blood; especially when her papa and mamma and all belonging to her are so anxious to make the path of her love run smooth. that was what was passing through lady lufton's mind; but she did not say it all; she merely looked it. "i don't think she will ever allow herself to indulge in an unauthorized passion," said mrs. grantly. "i am sure she will not," said lady lufton, with ready agreement, fearing perhaps in her heart that griselda would never indulge in any passion, authorized or unauthorized. "i don't know whether lord lufton sees much of her now," said mrs. grantly, thinking perhaps of that promise of lady lufton's with reference to his lordship's spare time. "just lately, during these changes, you know, everybody has been so much engaged. ludovic has been constantly at the house, and then men find it so necessary to be at their clubs just now." "yes, yes, of course," said mrs. grantly, who was not at all disposed to think little of the importance of the present crisis, or to wonder that men should congregate together when such deeds were to be done as those which now occupied the breasts of the queen's advisers. at last, however, the two mothers perfectly understood each other. griselda was still to remain with lady lufton; and was to accept her ladyship's son, if he could only be induced to exercise his privilege of asking her; but in the meantime, as this seemed to be doubtful, griselda was not to be debarred from her privilege of making what use she could of any other string which she might have to her bow. "but, mamma," said griselda, in a moment of unwatched intercourse between the mother and daughter, "is it really true that they are going to make papa a bishop?" "we can tell nothing as yet, my dear. people in the world are talking about it. your papa has been a good deal with lord de terrier." "and isn't he prime minister?" "oh, yes; i am happy to say that he is." "i thought the prime minister could make any one a bishop that he chooses,--any clergyman, that is." "but there is no see vacant," said mrs. grantly. "then there isn't any chance," said griselda, looking very glum. "they are going to have an act of parliament for making two more bishops. that's what they are talking about at least. and if they do--" "papa will be bishop of westminster--won't he? and we shall live in london?" "but you must not talk about it, my dear." "no, i won't. but, mamma, a bishop of westminster will be higher than a bishop of barchester; won't he? i shall so like to be able to snub those miss proudies." it will therefore be seen that there were matters on which even griselda grantly could be animated. like the rest of her family she was devoted to the church. late on that afternoon the archdeacon returned home to dine in mount street, having spent the whole of the day between the treasury chambers, a meeting of convocation, and his club. and when he did get home it was soon manifest to his wife that he was not laden with good news. "it is almost incredible," he said, standing with his back to the drawing-room fire. "what is incredible?" said his wife, sharing her husband's anxiety to the full. "if i had not learned it as fact, i would not have believed it, even of lord brock," said the archdeacon. "learned what?" said the anxious wife. "after all, they are going to oppose the bill." "impossible!" said mrs. grantly. "but they are." "the bill for the two new bishops, archdeacon? oppose their own bill!" "yes--oppose their own bill. it is almost incredible; but so it is. some changes have been forced upon us; little things which they had forgotten--quite minor matters; and they now say that they will be obliged to divide against us on these twopenny-halfpenny, hair-splitting points. it is lord brock's own doing too, after all that he said about abstaining from factious opposition to the government." "i believe there is nothing too bad or too false for that man," said mrs. grantly. "after all they said, too, when they were in power themselves, as to the present government opposing the cause of religion! they declare now that lord de terrier cannot be very anxious about it, as he had so many good reasons against it a few weeks ago. is it not dreadful that there should be such double-dealing in men in such positions?" "it is sickening," said mrs. grantly. and then there was a pause between them as each thought of the injury that was done to them. "but, archdeacon--" "well?" "could you not give up those small points and shame them into compliance?" "nothing would shame them." "but would it not be well to try?" the game was so good a one, and the stake so important, that mrs. grantly felt that it would be worth playing for to the last. "it is no good." "but i certainly would suggest it to lord de terrier. i am sure the country would go along with him; at any rate the church would." "it is impossible," said the archdeacon. "to tell the truth, it did occur to me. but some of them down there seemed to think that it would not do." mrs. grantly sat awhile on the sofa, still meditating in her mind whether there might not yet be some escape from so terrible a downfall. "but, archdeacon--" "i'll go upstairs and dress," said he, in despondency. "but, archdeacon, surely the present ministry may have a majority on such a subject as that; i thought they were sure of a majority now." "no; not sure." "but at any rate the chances are in their favour? i do hope they'll do their duty, and exert themselves to keep their members together." and then the archdeacon told out the whole of the truth. "lord de terrier says that under the present circumstances he will not bring the matter forward this session at all. so we had better go back to plumstead." mrs. grantly then felt that there was nothing further to be said, and it will be proper that the historian should drop a veil over their sufferings. chapter xxiv. magna est veritas. it was made known to the reader that in the early part of the winter mr. sowerby had a scheme for retrieving his lost fortunes, and setting himself right in the world, by marrying that rich heiress, miss dunstable. i fear my friend sowerby does not, at present, stand high in the estimation of those who have come on with me thus far in this narrative. he has been described as a spendthrift and gambler, and as one scarcely honest in his extravagance and gambling. but nevertheless there are worse men than mr. sowerby, and i am not prepared to say that, should he be successful with miss dunstable, that lady would choose by any means the worst of the suitors who are continually throwing themselves at her feet. reckless as this man always appeared to be, reckless as he absolutely was, there was still within his heart a desire for better things, and in his mind an understanding that he had hitherto missed the career of an honest english gentleman. he was proud of his position as member for his county, though hitherto he had done so little to grace it; he was proud of his domain at chaldicotes, though the possession of it had so nearly passed out of his own hands; he was proud of the old blood that flowed in his veins; and he was proud also of that easy, comfortable, gay manner, which went so far in the world's judgment to atone for his extravagance and evil practices. if only he could get another chance, as he now said to himself, things should go very differently with him. he would utterly forswear the whole company of tozers. he would cease to deal in bills, and to pay heaven only knows how many hundred per cent. for his moneys. he would no longer prey upon his friends, and would redeem his title-deeds from the clutches of the duke of omnium. if only he could get another chance! miss dunstable's fortune would do all this and ever so much more, and then, moreover, miss dunstable was a woman whom he really liked. she was not soft, feminine, or pretty, nor was she very young; but she was clever, self-possessed, and quite able to hold her own in any class; and as to age, mr. sowerby was not very young himself. in making such a match he would have no cause of shame. he could speak of it before his friends without fear of their grimaces, and ask them to his house, with the full assurance that the head of his table would not disgrace him. and then as the scheme grew clearer and clearer to him, he declared to himself that if he should be successful, he would use her well, and not rob her of her money--beyond what was absolutely necessary. he had intended to have laid his fortunes at her feet at chaldicotes; but the lady had been coy. then the deed was to have been done at gatherum castle, but the lady ran away from gatherum castle just at the time on which he had fixed. and since that, one circumstance after another had postponed the affair in london, till now at last he was resolved that he would know his fate, let it be what it might. if he could not contrive that things should speedily be arranged, it might come to pass that he would be altogether debarred from presenting himself to the lady as mr. sowerby of chaldicotes. tidings had reached him, through mr. fothergill, that the duke would be glad to have matters arranged; and mr. sowerby well knew the meaning of that message. mr. sowerby was not fighting this campaign alone, without the aid of any ally. indeed, no man ever had a more trusty ally in any campaign than he had in this. and it was this ally, the only faithful comrade that clung to him through good and ill during his whole life, who first put it into his head that miss dunstable was a woman and might be married. "a hundred needy adventurers have attempted it, and failed already," mr. sowerby had said, when the plan was first proposed to him. "but, nevertheless, she will some day marry some one; and why not you as well as another?" his sister had answered. for mrs. harold smith was the ally of whom i have spoken. mrs. harold smith, whatever may have been her faults, could boast of this virtue--that she loved her brother. he was probably the only human being that she did love. children she had none; and as for her husband, it had never occurred to her to love him. she had married him for a position; and being a clever woman, with a good digestion and command of her temper, had managed to get through the world without much of that unhappiness which usually follows ill-assorted marriages. at home she managed to keep the upper hand, but she did so in an easy, good-humoured way that made her rule bearable; and away from home she assisted her lord's political standing, though she laughed more keenly than any one else at his foibles. but the lord of her heart was her brother; and in all his scrapes, all his extravagances, and all his recklessness, she had ever been willing to assist him. with the view of doing this she had sought the intimacy of miss dunstable, and for the last year past had indulged every caprice of that lady. or rather, she had had the wit to learn that miss dunstable was to be won, not by the indulgence of caprices, but by free and easy intercourse, with a dash of fun, and, at any rate, a semblance of honesty. mrs. harold smith was not, perhaps, herself very honest by disposition; but in these latter days she had taken up a theory of honesty for the sake of miss dunstable--not altogether in vain, for miss dunstable and mrs. harold smith were certainly very intimate. "if i am to do it at all, i must not wait any longer," said mr. sowerby to his sister a day or two after the final break-down of the gods. the affection of the sister for the brother may be imagined from the fact that at such a time she could give up her mind to such a subject. but, in truth, her husband's position as a cabinet minister was as nothing to her compared with her brother's position as a county gentleman. "one time is as good as another," said mrs. harold smith. "you mean that you would advise me to ask her at once." "certainly. but you must remember, nat, that you will have no easy task. it will not do for you to kneel down and swear that you love her." "if i do it at all, i shall certainly do it without kneeling--you may be sure of that, harriet." "yes, and without swearing that you love her. there is only one way in which you can be successful with miss dunstable--you must tell her the truth." "what!--tell her that i am ruined, horse, foot, and dragoons, and then bid her help me out of the mire?" "exactly: that will be your only chance, strange as it may appear." "this is very different from what you used to say, down at chaldicotes." "so it is; but i know her much better than i did when we were there. since then i have done but little else than study the freaks of her character. if she really likes you--and i think she does--she could forgive you any other crime but that of swearing that you loved her." "i should hardly know how to propose without saying something about it." "but you must say nothing--not a word; you must tell her that you are a gentleman of good blood and high station, but sadly out at elbows." "she knows that already." "of course she does; but she must know it as coming directly from your own mouth. and then tell her that you propose to set yourself right by marrying her--by marrying her for the sake of her money." "that will hardly win her, i should say." "if it does not, no other way, that i know of, will do so. as i told you before, it will be no easy task. of course you must make her understand that her happiness shall be cared for; but that must not be put prominently forward as your object. your first object is her money, and your only chance for success is in telling the truth." "it is very seldom that a man finds himself in such a position as that," said sowerby, walking up and down his sister's room; "and, upon my word, i don't think i am up to the task. i should certainly break down. i don't believe there's a man in london could go to a woman with such a story as that, and then ask her to marry him." "if you cannot, you may as well give it up," said mrs. harold smith. "but if you can do it--if you can go through with it in that manner--my own opinion is that your chance of success would not be bad. the fact is," added the sister after awhile, during which her brother was continuing his walk and meditating on the difficulties of his position--"the fact is, you men never understand a woman; you give her credit neither for her strength, nor for her weakness. you are too bold, and too timid: you think she is a fool and tell her so, and yet never can trust her to do a kind action. why should she not marry you with the intention of doing you a good turn? after all, she would lose very little: there is the estate, and if she redeemed it, it would belong to her as well as to you." "it would be a good turn, indeed. i fear i should be too modest to put it to her in that way." "her position would be much better as your wife than it is at present. you are good-humoured and good-tempered, you would intend to treat her well, and, on the whole, she would be much happier as mrs. sowerby, of chaldicotes, than she can be in her present position." "if she cared about being married, i suppose she could be a peer's wife to-morrow." "but i don't think she cares about being a peer's wife. a needy peer might perhaps win her in the way that i propose to you; but then a needy peer would not know how to set about it. needy peers have tried--half a dozen i have no doubt--and have failed, because they have pretended that they were in love with her. it may be difficult, but your only chance is to tell her the truth." "and where shall i do it?" "here if you choose; but her own house will be better." "but i never can see her there--at least, not alone. i believe that she never is alone. she always keeps a lot of people round her in order to stave off her lovers. upon my word, harriet, i think i'll give it up. it is impossible that i should make such a declaration to her as that you propose." "faint heart, nat--you know the rest." "but the poet never alluded to such wooing as that you have suggested. i suppose i had better begin with a schedule of my debts, and make reference, if she doubts me, to fothergill, the sheriff's officers, and the tozer family." "she will not doubt you, on that head; nor will she be a bit surprised." then there was again a pause, during which mr. sowerby still walked up and down the room, thinking whether or no he might possibly have any chance of success in so hazardous an enterprise. "i tell you what, harriet," at last he said; "i wish you'd do it for me." "well," said she, "if you really mean it, i will make the attempt." "i am sure of this, that i shall never make it myself. i positively should not have the courage to tell her in so many words, that i wanted to marry her for her money." "well, nat, i will attempt it. at any rate, i am not afraid of her. she and i are excellent friends, and, to tell the truth, i think i like her better than any other woman that i know; but i never should have been intimate with her, had it not been for your sake." "and now you will have to quarrel with her, also for my sake?" "not at all. you'll find that whether she accedes to my proposition or not, we shall continue friends. i do not think that she would die for me--nor i for her. but as the world goes we suit each other. such a little trifle as this will not break our loves." and so it was settled. on the following day mrs. harold smith was to find an opportunity of explaining the whole matter to miss dunstable, and was to ask that lady to share her fortune--some incredible number of thousands of pounds--with the bankrupt member for west barsetshire, who in return was to bestow on her--himself and his debts. mrs. harold smith had spoken no more than the truth in saying that she and miss dunstable suited one another. and she had not improperly described their friendship. they were not prepared to die, one for the sake of the other. they had said nothing to each other of mutual love and affection. they never kissed, or cried, or made speeches, when they met or when they parted. there was no great benefit for which either had to be grateful to the other; no terrible injury which either had forgiven. but they suited each other; and this, i take it, is the secret of most of our pleasantest intercourse in the world. and it was almost grievous that they should suit each other, for miss dunstable was much the worthier of the two, had she but known it herself. it was almost to be lamented that she should have found herself able to live with mrs. harold smith on terms that were perfectly satisfactory to herself. mrs. harold smith was worldly, heartless--to all the world but her brother--and, as has been above hinted, almost dishonest. miss dunstable was not worldly, though it was possible that her present style of life might make her so; she was affectionate, fond of truth, and prone to honesty, if those around would but allow her to exercise it. but she was fond of ease and humour, sometimes of wit that might almost be called broad, and she had a thorough love of ridiculing the world's humbugs. in all these propensities mrs. harold smith indulged her. under these circumstances they were now together almost every day. it had become quite a habit with mrs. harold smith to have herself driven early in the forenoon to miss dunstable's house; and that lady, though she could never be found alone by mr. sowerby, was habitually so found by his sister. and after that they would go out together, or each separately, as fancy or the business of the day might direct them. each was easy to the other in this alliance, and they so managed that they never trod on each other's corns. on the day following the agreement made between mr. sowerby and mrs. harold smith, that lady as usual called on miss dunstable, and soon found herself alone with her friend in a small room which the heiress kept solely for her own purposes. on special occasions persons of various sorts were there admitted; occasionally a parson who had a church to build, or a dowager laden with the last morsel of town slander, or a poor author who could not get due payment for the efforts of his brain, or a poor governess on whose feeble stamina the weight of the world had borne too hardly. but men who by possibility could be lovers did not make their way thither, nor women who could be bores. in these latter days, that is, during the present london season, the doors of it had been oftener opened to mrs. harold smith than to any other person. and now the effort was to be made with the object of which all this intimacy had been effected. as she came thither in her carriage, mrs. harold smith herself was not altogether devoid of that sinking of the heart which is so frequently the forerunner of any difficult and hazardous undertaking. she had declared that she would feel no fear in making the little proposition. but she did feel something very like it; and when she made her entrance into the little room she certainly wished that the work was done and over. "how is poor mr. smith to-day?" asked miss dunstable, with an air of mock condolence, as her friend seated herself in her accustomed easy-chair. the downfall of the gods was as yet a history hardly three days old, and it might well be supposed that the late lord of the petty bag had hardly recovered from his misfortune. "well, he is better, i think, this morning; at least i should judge so from the manner in which he confronted his eggs. but still i don't like the way he handles the carving-knife. i am sure he is always thinking of mr. supplehouse at those moments." "poor man! i mean supplehouse. after all, why shouldn't he follow his trade as well as another? live and let live, that's what i say." "ay, but it's kill and let kill with him. that is what horace says. however, i am tired of all that now, and i came here to-day to talk about something else." "i rather like mr. supplehouse myself," exclaimed miss dunstable. "he never makes any bones about the matter. he has a certain work to do, and a certain cause to serve--namely, his own; and in order to do that work, and serve that cause, he uses such weapons as god has placed in his hands." "that's what the wild beasts do." "and where will you find men honester than they? the tiger tears you up because he is hungry and wants to eat you. that's what supplehouse does. but there are so many among us tearing up one another without any excuse of hunger. the mere pleasure of destroying is reason enough." "well, my dear, my mission to you to-day is certainly not one of destruction, as you will admit when you hear it. it is one, rather, very absolutely of salvation. i have come to make love to you." "then the salvation, i suppose, is not for myself," said miss dunstable. it was quite clear to mrs. harold smith that miss dunstable had immediately understood the whole purport of this visit, and that she was not in any great measure surprised. it did not seem from the tone of the heiress's voice, or from the serious look which at once settled on her face, that she would be prepared to give a very ready compliance. but then great objects can only be won with great efforts. "that's as may be," said mrs. harold smith. "for you and another also, i hope. but i trust, at any rate, that i may not offend you?" "oh, laws, no; nothing of that kind ever offends me now." "well, i suppose you're used to it." "like the eels, my dear. i don't mind it the least in the world--only sometimes, you know, it is a little tedious." "i'll endeavour to avoid that, so i may as well break the ice at once. you know enough of nathaniel's affairs to be aware that he is not a very rich man." "since you do ask me about it, i suppose there's no harm in saying that i believe him to be a very poor man." "not the least harm in the world, but just the reverse. whatever may come of this, my wish is that the truth should be told scrupulously on all sides; the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth." "_magna est veritas_," said miss dunstable. "the bishop of barchester taught me as much latin as that at chaldicotes; and he did add some more, but there was a long word, and i forgot it." "the bishop was quite right, my dear, i'm sure. but if you go to your latin, i'm lost. as we were just now saying, my brother's pecuniary affairs are in a very bad state. he has a beautiful property of his own, which has been in the family for i can't say how many centuries--long before the conquest, i know." "i wonder what my ancestors were then?" "it does not much signify to any of us," said mrs. harold smith, with a moral shake of her head, "what our ancestors were; but it's a sad thing to see an old property go to ruin." "yes, indeed; we none of us like to see our property going to ruin, whether it be old or new. i have some of that sort of feeling already, although mine was only made the other day out of an apothecary's shop." "god forbid that i should ever help you to ruin it," said mrs. harold smith. "i should be sorry to be the means of your losing a ten-pound note." "_magna est veritas_, as the dear bishop said," exclaimed miss dunstable. "let us have the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth, as we agreed just now." mrs. harold smith did begin to find that the task before her was difficult. there was a hardness about miss dunstable when matters of business were concerned on which it seemed almost impossible to make any impression. it was not that she had evinced any determination to refuse the tender of mr. sowerby's hand; but she was so painfully resolute not to have dust thrown in her eyes! mrs. harold smith had commenced with a mind fixed upon avoiding what she called humbug; but this sort of humbug had become so prominent a part of her usual rhetoric, that she found it very hard to abandon it. "and that's what i wish," said she. "of course my chief object is to secure my brother's happiness." "that's very unkind to poor mr. harold smith." "well, well, well--you know what i mean." "yes, i think i do know what you mean. your brother is a gentleman of good family, but of no means." "not quite so bad as that." "of embarrassed means, then, or anything that you will; whereas i am a lady of no family, but of sufficient wealth. you think that if you brought us together and made a match of it, it would be a very good thing for--for whom?" said miss dunstable. "yes, exactly," said mrs. harold smith. "for which of us? remember the bishop now and his nice little bit of latin." "for nathaniel then," said mrs. harold smith, boldly. "it would be a very good thing for him." and a slight smile came across her face as she said it. "now that's honest, or the mischief is in it." "yes, that's honest enough. and did he send you here to tell me this?" "well, he did that, and something else." "and now let's have the something else. the really important part, i have no doubt, has been spoken." "no, by no means, by no means all of it. but you are so hard on one, my dear, with your running after honesty, that one is not able to tell the real facts as they are. you make one speak in such a bald, naked way." "ah, you think that anything naked must be indecent; even truth." "i think it is more proper-looking, and better suited, too, for the world's work, when it goes about with some sort of a garment on it. we are so used to a leaven of falsehood in all we hear and say, now-a-days, that nothing is more likely to deceive us than the absolute truth. if a shopkeeper told me that his wares were simply middling, of course, i should think that they were not worth a farthing. but all that has nothing to do with my poor brother. well, what was i saying?" "you were going to tell me how well he would use me, no doubt." "something of that kind." "that he wouldn't beat me; or spend all my money if i managed to have it tied up out of his power; or look down on me with contempt because my father was an apothecary! was not that what you were going to say?" "i was going to tell you that you might be more happy as mrs. sowerby of chaldicotes than you can be as miss dunstable--" "of mount lebanon. and had mr. sowerby no other message to send?--nothing about love, or anything of that sort? i should like, you know, to understand what his feelings are before i take such a leap." "i do believe he has as true a regard for you as any man of his age ever does have--" "for any woman of mine. that is not putting it in a very devoted way certainly; but i am glad to see that you remember the bishop's maxim." "what would you have me say? if i told you that he was dying for love, you would say, i was trying to cheat you; and now because i don't tell you so, you say that he is wanting in devotion. i must say you are hard to please." "perhaps i am, and very unreasonable into the bargain. i ought to ask no questions of the kind when your brother proposes to do me so much honour. as for my expecting the love of a man who condescends to wish to be my husband, that, of course, would be monstrous. what right can i have to think that any man should love me? it ought to be enough for me to know that as i am rich, i can get a husband. what business can such as i have to inquire whether the gentleman who would so honour me really would like my company, or would only deign to put up with my presence in his household?" "now, my dear miss dunstable--" "of course i am not such an ass as to expect that any gentleman should love me; and i feel that i ought to be obliged to your brother for sparing me the string of complimentary declarations which are usual on such occasions. he, at any rate, is not tedious--or rather you on his behalf; for no doubt his own time is so occupied with his parliamentary duties that he cannot attend to this little matter himself. i do feel grateful to him; and perhaps nothing more will be necessary than to give him a schedule of the property, and name an early day for putting him in possession." mrs. smith did feel that she was rather badly used. this miss dunstable, in their mutual confidences, had so often ridiculed the love-making grimaces of her mercenary suitors--had spoken so fiercely against those who had persecuted her, not because they had desired her money, but on account of their ill-judgment in thinking her to be a fool--that mrs. smith had a right to expect that the method she had adopted for opening the negotiation would be taken in a better spirit. could it be possible, after all, thought mrs. smith to herself, that miss dunstable was like other women, and that she did like to have men kneeling at her feet? could it be the case that she had advised her brother badly, and that it would have been better for him to have gone about his work in the old-fashioned way? "they are very hard to manage," said mrs. harold smith to herself, thinking of her own sex. "he was coming here himself," said she, "but i advised him not to do so." "that was so kind of you." "i thought that i could explain to you more openly and more freely, what his intentions really are." "oh! i have no doubt that they are honourable," said miss dunstable. "he does not want to deceive me in that way, i am quite sure." it was impossible to help laughing, and mrs. harold smith did laugh. "upon my word, you would provoke a saint," said she. "i am not likely to get into any such company by the alliance that you are now suggesting to me. there are not many saints usually at chaldicotes, i believe;--always excepting my dear bishop and his wife." "but, my dear, what am i to say to nathaniel?" "tell him, of course, how much obliged to him i am." "do listen to me one moment. i daresay that i have done wrong to speak to you in such a bold, unromantic way." "not at all. the truth, the whole truth, and nothing but the truth. that's what we agreed upon. but one's first efforts in any line are always apt to be a little uncouth." "i will send nathaniel to you himself." "no, do not do so. why torment either him or me? i do like your brother; in a certain way i like him much. but no earthly consideration would induce me to marry him. is it not so glaringly plain that he would marry me for my money only, that you have not even dared to suggest any other reason?" "of course it would have been nonsense to say that he had no regard whatever towards your money." "of course it would--absolute nonsense. he is a poor man with a good position, and he wants to marry me because i have got that which he wants. but, my dear, i do not want that which he has got, and therefore the bargain would not be a fair one." "but he would do his very best to make you happy." "i am so much obliged to him; but you see, i am very happy as i am. what should i gain?" "a companion whom you confess that you like." "ah! but i don't know that i should like too much even of such a companion as your brother. no, my dear--it won't do. believe me when i tell you, once for all, that it won't do." "do you mean, then, miss dunstable, that you'll never marry?" "to-morrow--if i met any one that i fancied, and he would have me. but i rather think that any that i may fancy won't have me. in the first place, if i marry any one, the man must be quite indifferent to money." "then you'll not find him in this world, my dear." "very possibly not," said miss dunstable. all that was further said upon the subject need not be here repeated. mrs. harold smith did not give up her cause quite at once, although miss dunstable had spoken so plainly. she tried to explain how eligible would be her friend's situation as mistress of chaldicotes, when chaldicotes should owe no penny to any man: and went so far as to hint that the master of chaldicotes, if relieved of his embarrassments and known as a rich man, might in all probability be found worthy of a peerage when the gods should return to olympus. mr. harold smith, as a cabinet minister, would, of course, do his best. but it was all of no use. "it's not my destiny," said miss dunstable, "and therefore do not press it any longer." "but we shall not quarrel," said mrs. harold smith, almost tenderly. "oh, no--why should we quarrel?" "and you won't look glum at my brother?" "why should i look glum at him? but, mrs. smith, i'll do more than not looking glum at him. i do like you, and i do like your brother, and if i can in any moderate way assist him in his difficulties, let him tell me so." soon after this, mrs. harold smith went her way. of course, she declared in a very strong manner that her brother could not think of accepting from miss dunstable any such pecuniary assistance as that offered--and, to give her her due, such was the feeling of her mind at the moment; but as she went to meet her brother and gave him an account of this interview, it did occur to her that possibly miss dunstable might be a better creditor than the duke of omnium for the chaldicotes property. chapter xxv. non-impulsive. it cannot be held as astonishing, that that last decision on the part of the giants in the matter of the two bishoprics should have disgusted archdeacon grantly. he was a politician, but not a politician as they were. as is the case with all exoteric men, his political eyes saw a short way only, and his political aspirations were as limited. when his friends came into office, that bishop bill, which as the original product of his enemies had been regarded by him as being so pernicious--for was it not about to be made law in order that other proudies and such like might be hoisted up into high places and large incomes, to the terrible detriment of the church?--that bishop bill, i say, in the hands of his friends, had appeared to him to be a means of almost national salvation. and then, how great had been the good fortune of the giants in this matter! had they been the originators of such a measure they would not have had a chance of success; but now--now that the two bishops were falling into their mouths out of the weak hands of the gods, was not their success ensured? so dr. grantly had girded up his loins and marched up to the fight, almost regretting that the triumph would be so easy. the subsequent failure was very trying to his temper as a party man. it always strikes me that the supporters of the titans are in this respect much to be pitied. the giants themselves, those who are actually handling pelion and breaking their shins over the lower rocks of ossa, are always advancing in some sort towards the councils of olympus. their highest policy is to snatch some ray from heaven. why else put pelion on ossa, unless it be that a furtive hand, making its way through jove's windows, may pluck forth a thunderbolt or two, or some article less destructive, but of manufacture equally divine? and in this consists the wisdom of the higher giants--that, in spite of their mundane antecedents, theories, and predilections, they can see that articles of divine manufacture are necessary. but then they never carry their supporters with them. their whole army is an army of martyrs. "for twenty years i have stuck to them, and see how they have treated me!" is not that always the plaint of an old giant-slave? "i have been true to my party all my life, and where am i now?" he says. where, indeed, my friend? looking about you, you begin to learn that you cannot describe your whereabouts. i do not marvel at that. no one finds himself planted at last in so terribly foul a morass, as he would fain stand still for ever on dry ground. dr. grantly was disgusted; and although he was himself too true and thorough in all his feelings, to be able to say aloud that any giant was wrong, still he had a sad feeling within his heart that the world was sinking from under him. he was still sufficiently exoteric to think that a good stand-up fight in a good cause was a good thing. no doubt he did wish to be bishop of westminster, and was anxious to compass that preferment by any means that might appear to him to be fair. and why not? but this was not the end of his aspirations. he wished that the giants might prevail in everything, in bishoprics as in all other matters; and he could not understand that they should give way on the very first appearance of a skirmish. in his open talk he was loud against many a god; but in his heart of hearts he was bitter enough against both porphyrion and orion. "my dear doctor, it would not do;--not in this session; it would not indeed." so had spoken to him a half-fledged but especially esoteric young monster-cub at the treasury, who considered himself as up to all the dodges of his party, and regarded the army of martyrs who supported it as a rather heavy, but very useful collection of fogeys. dr. grantly had not cared to discuss the matter with the half-fledged monster-cub. the best licked of all the monsters, the giant most like a god of them all, had said a word or two to him; and he also had said a word or two to that giant. porphyrion had told him that the bishop bill would not do; and he, in return, speaking with warm face, and blood in his cheeks, had told porphyrion that he saw no reason why the bill should not do. the courteous giant had smiled as he shook his ponderous head, and then the archdeacon had left him, unconsciously shaking some dust from his shoes, as he paced the passages of the treasury chambers for the last time. as he walked back to his lodgings in mount street, many thoughts, not altogether bad in their nature, passed through his mind. why should he trouble himself about a bishopric? was he not well as he was, in his rectory down at plumstead? might it not be ill for him at his age to transplant himself into new soil, to engage in new duties, and live among new people? was he not useful at barchester, and respected also; and might it not be possible, that up there at westminster, he might be regarded merely as a tool with which other men could work? he had not quite liked the tone of that specially esoteric young monster-cub, who had clearly regarded him as a distinguished fogey from the army of martyrs. he would take his wife back to barsetshire, and there live contented with the good things which providence had given him. those high political grapes had become sour, my sneering friends will say. well? is it not a good thing that grapes should become sour which hang out of reach? is he not wise who can regard all grapes as sour which are manifestly too high for his hand? those grapes of the treasury bench, for which gods and giants fight, suffering so much when they are forced to abstain from eating, and so much more when they do eat,--those grapes are very sour to me. i am sure that they are indigestible, and that those who eat them undergo all the ills which the revalenta arabica is prepared to cure. and so it was now with the archdeacon. he thought of the strain which would have been put on his conscience had he come up there to sit in london as bishop of westminster; and in this frame of mind he walked home to his wife. during the first few moments of his interview with her all his regrets had come back upon him. indeed, it would have hardly suited for him then to have preached this new doctrine of rural contentment. the wife of his bosom, whom he so fully trusted--had so fully loved--wished for grapes that hung high upon the wall, and he knew that it was past his power to teach her at the moment to drop her ambition. any teaching that he might effect in that way, must come by degrees. but before many minutes were over he had told her of her fate and of his own decision. "so we had better go back to plumstead," he said; and she had not dissented. "i am sorry for poor griselda's sake," mrs. grantly had remarked later in the evening, when they were again together. "but i thought she was to remain with lady lufton?" "well; so she will, for a little time. there is no one with whom i would so soon trust her out of my own care as with lady lufton. she is all that one can desire." "exactly; and as far as griselda is concerned, i cannot say that i think she is to be pitied." "not to be pitied, perhaps," said mrs. grantly. "but, you see, archdeacon, lady lufton, of course, has her own views." "her own views?" "it is hardly any secret that she is very anxious to make a match between lord lufton and griselda. and though that might be a very proper arrangement if it were fixed--" "lord lufton marry griselda!" said the archdeacon, speaking quick and raising his eyebrows. his mind had as yet been troubled by but few thoughts respecting his child's future establishment. "i had never dreamt of such a thing." "but other people have done more than dream of it, archdeacon. as regards the match itself, it would, i think, be unobjectionable. lord lufton will not be a very rich man, but his property is respectable, and as far as i can learn his character is on the whole good. if they like each other, i should be contented with such a marriage. but, i must own, i am not quite satisfied at the idea of leaving her all alone with lady lufton. people will look on it as a settled thing, when it is not settled--and very probably may not be settled; and that will do the poor girl harm. she is very much admired; there can be no doubt of that; and lord dumbello--" the archdeacon opened his eyes still wider. he had had no idea that such a choice of sons-in-law was being prepared for him; and, to tell the truth, was almost bewildered by the height of his wife's ambition. lord lufton, with his barony and twenty thousand a year, might be accepted as just good enough; but failing him there was an embryo marquis, whose fortune would be more than ten times as great, all ready to accept his child! and then he thought, as husbands sometimes will think, of susan harding as she was when he had gone a-courting to her under the elms before the house in the warden's garden at barchester, and of dear old mr. harding, his wife's father, who still lived in humble lodgings in that city; and as he thought, he wondered at and admired the greatness of that lady's mind. "i never can forgive lord de terrier," said the lady, connecting various points together in her own mind. "that's nonsense," said the archdeacon. "you must forgive him." "and i must confess that it annoys me to leave london at present." "it can't be helped," said the archdeacon, somewhat gruffly; for he was a man who, on certain points, chose to have his own way--and had it. "oh, no: i know it can't be helped," said mrs. grantly, in a tone which implied a deep injury. "i know it can't be helped. poor griselda!" and then they went to bed. on the next morning griselda came to her, and in an interview that was strictly private, her mother said more to her than she had ever yet spoken, as to the prospects of her future life. hitherto, on this subject, mrs. grantly had said little or nothing. she would have been well pleased that her daughter should have received the incense of lord lufton's vows--or, perhaps, as well pleased had it been the incense of lord dumbello's vows--without any interference on her part. in such case her child, she knew, would have told her with quite sufficient eagerness, and the matter in either case would have been arranged as a very pretty love match. she had no fear of any impropriety or of any rashness on griselda's part. she had thoroughly known her daughter when she boasted that griselda would never indulge in an unauthorized passion. but as matters now stood, with those two strings to her bow, and with that lufton-grantly alliance treaty in existence--of which she, griselda herself, knew nothing--might it not be possible that the poor child should stumble through want of adequate direction? guided by these thoughts, mrs. grantly had resolved to say a few words before she left london. so she wrote a line to her daughter, and griselda reached mount street at two o'clock in lady lufton's carriage, which, during the interview, waited for her at the beer-shop round the corner. "and papa won't be bishop of westminster?" said the young lady, when the doings of the giants had been sufficiently explained to make her understand that all those hopes were over. "no, my dear; at any rate not now." "what a shame! i thought it was all settled. what's the good, mamma, of lord de terrier being prime minister, if he can't make whom he likes a bishop?" "i don't think that lord de terrier has behaved at all well to your father. however, that's a long question, and we can't go into it now." "how glad those proudies will be!" griselda would have talked by the hour on this subject had her mother allowed her, but it was necessary that mrs. grantly should go to other matters. she began about lady lufton, saying what a dear woman her ladyship was; and then went on to say that griselda was to remain in london as long as it suited her friend and hostess to stay there with her; but added, that this might probably not be very long, as it was notorious that lady lufton, when in london, was always in a hurry to get back to framley. "but i don't think she is in such a hurry this year, mamma," said griselda, who in the month of may preferred bruton street to plumstead, and had no objection whatever to the coronet on the panels of lady lufton's coach. and then mrs. grantly commenced her explanation--very cautiously. "no, my dear, i daresay she is not in such a hurry this year,--that is, as long as you remain with her." "i am sure she is very kind." "she is very kind, and you ought to love her very much. i know i do. i have no friend in the world for whom i have a greater regard than for lady lufton. it is that which makes me so happy to leave you with her." "all the same, i wish that you and papa had remained up; that is, if they had made papa a bishop." "it's no good thinking of that now, my dear. what i particularly wanted to say to you was this: i think you should know what are the ideas which lady lufton entertains." "her ideas!" said griselda, who had never troubled herself much in thinking about other people's thoughts. "yes, griselda. while you were staying down at framley court, and also, i suppose, since you have been up here in bruton street, you must have seen a good deal of--lord lufton." "he doesn't come very often to bruton street,--that is to say, not _very_ often." "h-m," ejaculated mrs. grantly, very gently. she would willingly have repressed the sound altogether, but it had been too much for her. if she found reason to think that lady lufton was playing her false, she would immediately take her daughter away, break up the treaty, and prepare for the hartletop alliance. such were the thoughts that ran through her mind. but she knew all the while that lady lufton was not false. the fault was not with lady lufton; nor, perhaps, altogether with lord lufton. mrs. grantly had understood the full force of the complaint which lady lufton had made against her daughter; and though she had of course defended her child, and on the whole had defended her successfully, yet she confessed to herself that griselda's chance of a first-rate establishment would be better if she were a little more impulsive. a man does not wish to marry a statue, let the statue be ever so statuesque. she could not teach her daughter to be impulsive, any more than she could teach her to be six feet high; but might it not be possible to teach her to seem so? the task was a very delicate one, even for a mother's hand. "of course he cannot be at home now as much as he was down in the country, when he was living in the same house," said mrs. grantly, whose business it was to take lord lufton's part at the present moment. "he must be at his club, and at the house of lords, and in twenty places." "he is very fond of going to parties, and he dances beautifully." "i am sure he does. i have seen as much as that myself, and i think i know some one with whom he likes to dance." and the mother gave her daughter a loving little squeeze. "do you mean me, mamma?" "yes, i do mean you, my dear. and is it not true? lady lufton says that he likes dancing with you better than with any one else in london." "i don't know," said griselda, looking down upon the ground. mrs. grantly thought that this upon the whole was rather a good opening. it might have been better. some point of interest more serious in its nature than that of a waltz might have been found on which to connect her daughter's sympathies with those of her future husband. but any point of interest was better than none; and it is so difficult to find points of interest in persons who by their nature are not impulsive. "lady lufton says so, at any rate," continued mrs. grantly, ever so cautiously. "she thinks that lord lufton likes no partner better. what do you think yourself, griselda?" "i don't know, mamma." "but young ladies must think of such things, must they not?" "must they, mamma?" "i suppose they do, don't they? the truth is, griselda, that lady lufton thinks that if-- can you guess what it is she thinks?" "no, mamma." but that was a fib on griselda's part. "she thinks that my griselda would make the best possible wife in the world for her son; and i think so too. i think that her son will be a very fortunate man if he can get such a wife. and now what do you think, griselda?" "i don't think anything, mamma." but that would not do. it was absolutely necessary that she should think, and absolutely necessary that her mother should tell her so. such a degree of unimpulsiveness as this would lead to--heaven knows what results! lufton-grantly treaties and hartletop interests would be all thrown away upon a young lady who would not think anything of a noble suitor sighing for her smiles. besides, it was not natural. griselda, as her mother knew, had never been a girl of headlong feeling; but still she had had her likes and her dislikes. in that matter of the bishopric she was keen enough; and no one could evince a deeper interest in the subject of a well-made new dress than griselda grantly. it was not possible that she should be indifferent as to her future prospects, and she must know that those prospects depended mainly on her marriage. her mother was almost angry with her, but nevertheless she went on very gently: "you don't think anything! but, my darling, you must think. you must make up your mind what would be your answer if lord lufton were to propose to you. that is what lady lufton wishes him to do." "but he never will, mamma." "and if he did?" "but i'm sure he never will. he doesn't think of such a thing at all--and--and--" "and what, my dear?" "i don't know, mamma." "surely you can speak out to me, dearest! all i care about is your happiness. both lady lufton and i think that it would be a happy marriage if you both cared for each other enough. she thinks that he is fond of you. but if he were ten times lord lufton i would not tease you about it if i thought that you could not learn to care about him. what was it you were going to say, my dear?" "lord lufton thinks a great deal more of lucy robarts than he does of--of--of any one else, i believe," said griselda, showing now some little animation by her manner, "dumpy little black thing that she is." "lucy robarts!" said mrs. grantly, taken by surprise at finding that her daughter was moved by such a passion as jealousy, and feeling also perfectly assured that there could not be any possible ground for jealousy in such a direction as that. "lucy robarts, my dear! i don't suppose lord lufton ever thought of speaking to her, except in the way of civility." "yes, he did, mamma! don't you remember at framley?" mrs. grantly began to look back in her mind, and she thought she did remember having once observed lord lufton talking in rather a confidential manner with the parson's sister. but she was sure that there was nothing in it. if that was the reason why griselda was so cold to her proposed lover, it would be a thousand pities that it should not be removed. "now you mention her, i do remember the young lady," said mrs. grantly, "a dark girl, very low, and without much figure. she seemed to me to keep very much in the background." "i don't know much about that, mamma." "as far as i saw her, she did. but, my dear griselda, you should not allow yourself to think of such a thing. lord lufton, of course, is bound to be civil to any young lady in his mother's house, and i am quite sure that he has no other idea whatever with regard to miss robarts. i certainly cannot speak as to her intellect, for i do not think she opened her mouth in my presence; but--" "oh! she has plenty to say for herself, when she pleases. she's a sly little thing." "but, at any rate, my dear, she has no personal attractions whatever, and i do not at all think that lord lufton is a man to be taken by--by--by anything that miss robarts might do or say." as those words "personal attractions" were uttered, griselda managed so to turn her neck as to catch a side view of herself in one of the mirrors on the wall, and then she bridled herself up, and made a little play with her eyes, and looked, as her mother thought, very well. "it is all nothing to me, mamma, of course," she said. "well, my dear, perhaps not. i don't say that it is. i do not wish to put the slightest constraint upon your feelings. if i did not have the most thorough dependence on your good sense and high principles, i should not speak to you in this way. but as i have, i thought it best to tell you that both lady lufton and i should be well pleased if we thought that you and lord lufton were fond of each other." "i am sure he never thinks of such a thing, mamma." "and as for lucy robarts, pray get that idea out of your head; if not for your sake, then for his. you should give him credit for better taste." but it was not so easy to take anything out of griselda's head that she had once taken into it. "as for tastes, mamma, there is no accounting for them," she said; and then the colloquy on that subject was over. the result of it on mrs. grantly's mind was a feeling amounting almost to a conviction in favour of the dumbello interest. chapter xxvi. impulsive. i trust my readers will all remember how puck the pony was beaten during that drive to hogglestock. it may be presumed that puck himself on that occasion did not suffer much. his skin was not so soft as mrs. robarts's heart. the little beast was full of oats and all the good things of this world, and therefore, when the whip touched him, he would dance about and shake his little ears, and run on at a tremendous pace for twenty yards, making his mistress think that he had endured terrible things. but, in truth, during those whippings puck was not the chief sufferer. lucy had been forced to declare--forced by the strength of her own feelings, and by the impossibility of assenting to the propriety of a marriage between lord lufton and miss grantly--, she had been forced to declare that she did care about lord lufton as much as though he were her brother. she had said all this to herself,--nay, much more than this--very often. but now she had said it out loud to her sister-in-law; and she knew that what she had said was remembered, considered, and had, to a certain extent, become the cause of altered conduct. fanny alluded very seldom to the luftons in casual conversation, and never spoke about lord lufton, unless when her husband made it impossible that she should not speak of him. lucy had attempted on more than one occasion to remedy this, by talking about the young lord in a laughing and, perhaps, half-jeering way; she had been sarcastic as to his hunting and shooting, and had boldly attempted to say a word in joke about his love for griselda. but she felt that she had failed; that she had failed altogether as regarded fanny; and that as to her brother, she would more probably be the means of opening his eyes, than have any effect in keeping them closed. so she gave up her efforts and spoke no further word about lord lufton. her secret had been told, and she knew that it had been told. at this time the two ladies were left a great deal alone together in the drawing-room at the parsonage; more, perhaps, than had ever yet been the case since lucy had been there. lady lufton was away, and therefore the almost daily visit to framley court was not made; and mark in these days was a great deal at barchester, having, no doubt, very onerous duties to perform before he could be admitted as one of that chapter. he went into, what he was pleased to call residence, almost at once. that is, he took his month of preaching, aiding also in some slight and very dignified way, in the general sunday morning services. he did not exactly live at barchester, because the house was not ready. that at least was the assumed reason. the chattels of dr. stanhope, the late prebendary, had not been as yet removed, and there was likely to be some little delay, creditors asserting their right to them. this might have been very inconvenient to a gentleman anxiously expecting the excellent house which the liberality of past ages had provided for his use; but it was not so felt by mr. robarts. if dr. stanhope's family or creditors would keep the house for the next twelve months, he would be well pleased. and by this arrangement he was enabled to get through his first month of absence from the church of framley without any notice from lady lufton, seeing that lady lufton was in london all the time. this also was convenient, and taught our young prebendary to look on his new preferment more favourably than he had hitherto done. fanny and lucy were thus left much alone: and as out of the full head the mouth speaks, so is the full heart more prone to speak at such periods of confidence as these. lucy, when she first thought of her own state, determined to endow herself with a powerful gift of reticence. she would never tell her love, certainly; but neither would she let concealment feed on her damask cheek, nor would she ever be found for a moment sitting like patience on a monument. she would fight her own fight bravely within her own bosom, and conquer her enemy altogether. she would either preach, or starve, or weary her love into subjection, and no one should be a bit the wiser. she would teach herself to shake hands with lord lufton without a quiver, and would be prepared to like his wife amazingly--unless indeed that wife should be griselda grantly. such were her resolutions; but at the end of the first week they were broken into shivers and scattered to the winds. they had been sitting in the house together the whole of one wet day; and as mark was to dine in barchester with the dean, they had had dinner early, eating with the children almost in their laps. it is so that ladies do, when their husbands leave them to themselves. it was getting dusk towards evening, and they were still sitting in the drawing-room, the children now having retired, when mrs. robarts for the fifth time since her visit to hogglestock began to express her wish that she could do some good to the crawleys,--to grace crawley in particular, who, standing up there at her father's elbow, learning greek irregular verbs, had appeared to mrs. robarts to be an especial object of pity. "i don't know how to set about it," said mrs. robarts. now any allusion to that visit to hogglestock always drove lucy's mind back to the consideration of the subject which had most occupied it at the time. she at such moments remembered how she had beaten puck, and how in her half-bantering but still too serious manner she had apologized for doing so, and had explained the reason. and therefore she could not interest herself about grace crawley as vividly as she should have done. "no; one never does," she said. "i was thinking about it all that day as i drove home," said fanny. "the difficulty is this: what can we do with her?" "exactly," said lucy, remembering the very point of the road at which she had declared that she did like lord lufton very much. "if we could have her here for a month or so and then send her to school;--but i know mr. crawley would not allow us to pay for her schooling." "i don't think he would," said lucy, with her thoughts far removed from mr. crawley and his daughter grace. "and then we should not know what to do with her; should we?" "no; you would not." "it would never do to have the poor girl about the house here, with no one to teach her anything. mark would not teach her greek verbs, you know." "i suppose not." "lucy, you are not attending to a word i say to you, and i don't think you have for the last hour. i don't believe you know what i am talking about." "oh, yes, i do--grace crawley; i'll try and teach her if you like, only i don't know anything myself." "that's not what i mean at all, and you know i would not ask you to take such a task as that on yourself. but i do think you might talk it over with me." "might i? very well; i will. what is it? oh, grace crawley--you want to know who is to teach her the irregular greek verbs. oh dear, fanny, my head does ache so: pray don't be angry with me." and then lucy, throwing herself back on the sofa, put one hand up painfully to her forehead, and altogether gave up the battle. mrs. robarts was by her side in a moment. "dearest lucy, what is it makes your head ache so often now? you used not to have those headaches." "it's because i'm growing stupid: never mind. we will go on about poor grace. it would not do to have a governess, would it?" "i can see that you are not well, lucy," said mrs. robarts, with a look of deep concern. "what is it, dearest? i can see that something is the matter." "something the matter! no, there's not; nothing worth talking of. sometimes i think i'll go back to devonshire and live there. i could stay with blanche for a time, and then get a lodging in exeter." "go back to devonshire!" and mrs. robarts looked as though she thought that her sister-in-law was going mad. "why do you want to go away from us? this is to be your own, own home, always now." "is it? then i am in a bad way. oh dear, oh dear, what a fool i am! what an idiot i've been! fanny, i don't think i can stay here; and i do so wish i'd never come. i do--i do--i do, though you look at me so horribly," and jumping up she threw herself into her sister-in-law's arms and began kissing her violently. "don't pretend to be wounded, for you know that i love you. you know that i could live with you all my life, and think you were perfect--as you are; but--" "has mark said anything?" "not a word,--not a ghost of a syllable. it is not mark; oh, fanny!" "i am afraid i know what you mean," said mrs. robarts in a low tremulous voice, and with deep sorrow painted on her face. "of course you do; of course you know; you have known it all along: since that day in the pony-carriage. i knew that you knew it. you do not dare to mention his name: would not that tell me that you know it? and i, i am hypocrite enough for mark; but my hypocrisy won't pass muster before you. and, now, had i not better go to devonshire?" "dearest, dearest lucy." "was i not right about that labelling? o heavens! what idiots we girls are! that a dozen soft words should have bowled me over like a ninepin, and left me without an inch of ground to call my own. and i was so proud of my own strength; so sure that i should never be missish, and spoony, and sentimental! i was so determined to like him as mark does, or you--" "i shall not like him at all if he has spoken words to you that he should not have spoken." "but he has not." and then she stopped a moment to consider. "no, he has not. he never said a word to me that would make you angry with him if you knew of it. except, perhaps, that he called me lucy; and that was my fault, not his." "because you talked of soft words." "fanny, you have no idea what an absolute fool i am, what an unutterable ass. the soft words of which i tell you were of the kind which he speaks to you when he asks you how the cow gets on which he sent you from ireland, or to mark about ponto's shoulder. he told me that he knew papa, and that he was at school with mark, and that as he was such good friends with you here at the parsonage, he must be good friends with me too. no; it has not been his fault. the soft words which did the mischief were such as those. but how well his mother understood the world! in order to have been safe, i should not have dared to look at him." "but, dearest lucy--" "i know what you are going to say, and i admit it all. he is no hero. there is nothing on earth wonderful about him. i never heard him say a single word of wisdom, or utter a thought that was akin to poetry. he devotes all his energies to riding after a fox or killing poor birds, and i never heard of his doing a single great action in my life. and yet--" fanny was so astounded by the way her sister-in-law went on, that she hardly knew how to speak. "he is an excellent son, i believe," at last she said. "except when he goes to gatherum castle. i'll tell you what he has: he has fine straight legs, and a smooth forehead, and a good-humoured eye, and white teeth. was it possible to see such a catalogue of perfections, and not fall down, stricken to the very bone? but it was not that that did it all, fanny. i could have stood against that. i think i could at least. it was his title that killed me. i had never spoken to a lord before. oh, me! what a fool, what a beast i have been!" and then she burst out into tears. mrs. robarts, to tell the truth, could hardly understand poor lucy's ailment. it was evident enough that her misery was real; but yet she spoke of herself and her sufferings with so much irony, with so near an approach to joking, that it was very hard to tell how far she was in earnest. lucy, too, was so much given to a species of badinage which mrs. robarts did not always quite understand, that the latter was afraid sometimes to speak out what came uppermost to her tongue. but now that lucy was absolutely in tears, and was almost breathless with excitement, she could not remain silent any longer. "dearest lucy, pray do not speak in that way; it will all come right. things always do come right when no one has acted wrongly." "yes, when nobody has done wrongly. that's what papa used to call begging the question. but i'll tell you what, fanny; i will not be beaten. i will either kill myself or get through it. i am so heartily self-ashamed that i owe it to myself to fight the battle out." "to fight what battle, dearest?" "this battle. here, now, at the present moment, i could not meet lord lufton. i should have to run like a scared fowl if he were to show himself within the gate; and i should not dare to go out of the house, if i knew that he was in the parish." "i don't see that, for i am sure you have not betrayed yourself." "well, no; as for myself, i believe i have done the lying and the hypocrisy pretty well. but, dearest fanny, you don't know half; and you cannot and must not know." "but i thought you said there had been nothing whatever between you." "did i? well, to you i have not said a word that was not true. i said that he had spoken nothing that it was wrong for him to say. it could not be wrong--. but never mind. i'll tell you what i mean to do. i have been thinking of it for the last week--only i shall have to tell mark." "if i were you i would tell him all." "what, mark! if you do, fanny, i'll never, never, never speak to you again. would you--when i have given you all my heart in true sisterly love?" mrs. robarts had to explain that she had not proposed to tell anything to mark herself, and was persuaded, moreover, to give a solemn promise that she would not tell anything to him unless specially authorized to do so. "i'll go into a home, i think," continued lucy. "you know what those homes are?" mrs. robarts assured her that she knew very well, and then lucy went on: "a year ago i should have said that i was the last girl in england to think of such a life, but i do believe now that it would be the best thing for me. and then i'll starve myself, and flog myself, and in that way i'll get back my own mind and my own soul." "your own soul, lucy!" said mrs. robarts, in a tone of horror. "well, my own heart, if you like it better; but i hate to hear myself talking about hearts. i don't care for my heart. i'd let it go--with this young popinjay lord or anyone else, so that i could read, and talk, and walk, and sleep, and eat, without always feeling that i was wrong here--here--here," and she pressed her hand vehemently against her side. "what is it that i feel, fanny? why am i so weak in body that i cannot take exercise? why cannot i keep my mind on a book for one moment? why can i not write two sentences together? why should every mouthful that i eat stick in my throat? oh, fanny, is it his legs, think you, or is it his title?" through all her sorrow,--and she was very sorrowful,--mrs. robarts could not help smiling. and, indeed, there was every now and then something even in lucy's look that was almost comic. she acted the irony so well with which she strove to throw ridicule on herself! "do laugh at me," she said. "nothing on earth will do me so much good as that; nothing, unless it be starvation and a whip. if you would only tell me that i must be a sneak and an idiot to care for a man because he is good-looking and a lord!" "but that has not been the reason. there is a great deal more in lord lufton than that; and since i must speak, dear lucy, i cannot but say that i should not wonder at your being in love with him, only--only that--" "only what? come, out with it. do not mince matters, or think that i shall be angry with you because you scold me." "only that i should have thought that you would have been too guarded to have--have cared for any gentleman till--till he had shown that he cared for you." "guarded! yes, that's it; that's just the word. but it's he that should have been guarded. he should have had a fire-guard hung before him--or a love-guard, if you will. guarded! was i not guarded, till you all would drag me out? did i want to go there? and when i was there, did i not make a fool of myself, sitting in a corner, and thinking how much better placed i should have been down in the servants' hall. lady lufton--she dragged me out, and then cautioned me, and then, then-- why is lady lufton to have it all her own way? why am i to be sacrificed for her? i did not want to know lady lufton, or any one belonging to her." "i cannot think that you have any cause to blame lady lufton, nor, perhaps, to blame anybody very much." "well, no, it has been all my own fault; though for the life of me, fanny, going back and back, i cannot see where i took the first false step. i do not know where i went wrong. one wrong thing i did, and it is the only thing that i do not regret." "what was that, lucy?" "i told him a lie." mrs. robarts was altogether in the dark, and feeling that she was so, she knew that she could not give counsel as a friend or a sister. lucy had begun by declaring--so mrs. robarts thought--that nothing had passed between her and lord lufton but words of most trivial import, and yet she now accused herself of falsehood, and declared that that falsehood was the only thing which she did not regret! "i hope not," said mrs. robarts. "if you did, you were very unlike yourself." "but i did, and were he here again, speaking to me in the same way, i should repeat it. i know i should. if i did not, i should have all the world on me. you would frown on me, and be cold. my darling fanny, how would you look if i really displeasured you?" "i don't think you will do that, lucy." "but if i told him the truth i should, should i not? speak now. but no, fanny, you need not speak. it was not the fear of you; no, nor even of her: though heaven knows that her terrible glumness would be quite unendurable." "i cannot understand you, lucy. what truth or what untruth can you have told him if, as you say, there has been nothing between you but ordinary conversation?" lucy then got up from the sofa, and walked twice the length of the room before she spoke. mrs. robarts had all the ordinary curiosity--i was going to say, of a woman, but i mean to say, of humanity; and she had, moreover, all the love of a sister. she was both curious and anxious, and remained sitting where she was, silent, and with her eyes fixed on her companion. "did i say so?" lucy said at last. "no, fanny; you have mistaken me: i did not say that. ah, yes, about the cow and the dog. all that was true. i was telling you of what his soft words had been while i was becoming such a fool. since that he has said more." "what more has he said, lucy?" "i yearn to tell you, if only i can trust you;" and lucy knelt down at the feet of mrs. robarts, looking up into her face and smiling through the remaining drops of her tears. "i would fain tell you, but i do not know you yet,--whether you are quite true. i could be true,--true against all the world, if my friend told me. i will tell you, fanny, if you say that you can be true. but if you doubt yourself, if you must whisper all to mark--then let us be silent." there was something almost awful in this to mrs. robarts. hitherto, since their marriage, hardly a thought had passed through her mind which she had not shared with her husband. but now all this had come upon her so suddenly, that she was unable to think whether it would be well that she should become the depositary of such a secret,--not to be mentioned to lucy's brother, not to be mentioned to her own husband. but who ever yet was offered a secret and declined it? who at least ever declined a love secret? what sister could do so? mrs. robarts therefore gave the promise, smoothing lucy's hair as she did so, and kissing her forehead and looking into her eyes, which, like a rainbow, were the brighter for her tears. "and what has he said to you, lucy?" "what? only this, that he asked me to be his wife." "lord lufton proposed to you?" "yes; proposed to me. it is not credible, is it? you cannot bring yourself to believe that such a thing happened, can you?" and lucy rose again to her feet, as the idea of the scorn with which she felt that others would treat her--with which she herself treated herself--made the blood rise to her cheek. "and yet it is not a dream. i think that it is not a dream. i think that he really did." "think, lucy!" "well, i may say that i am sure." "a gentleman would not make you a formal proposal, and leave you in doubt as to what he meant." "oh dear, no. there was no doubt at all of that kind; none in the least. mr. smith in asking miss jones to do him the honour of becoming mrs. smith never spoke more plainly. i was alluding to the possibility of having dreamt it all." "lucy!" "well, it was not a dream. here, standing here, on this very spot--on that flower of the carpet--he begged me a dozen times to be his wife. i wonder whether you and mark would let me cut it out and keep it." "and what answer did you make to him?" "i lied to him and told him that i did not love him." "you refused him?" "yes; i refused a live lord. there is some satisfaction in having that to think of, is there not? fanny, was i wicked to tell that falsehood?" "and why did you refuse him?" "why? can you ask? think what it would have been to go down to framley court, and to tell her ladyship in the course of conversation that i was engaged to her son. think of lady lufton. but yet it was not that, fanny. had i thought that it was good for him, that he would not have repented, i would have braved anything--for his sake. even your frown, for you would have frowned. you would have thought it sacrilege for me to marry lord lufton! you know you would." mrs. robarts hardly knew how to say what she thought, or indeed what she ought to think. it was a matter on which much meditation would be required before she could give advice, and there was lucy expecting counsel from her at that very moment. if lord lufton really loved lucy robarts, and was loved by lucy robarts, why should not they two become man and wife? and yet she did feel that it would be--perhaps not sacrilege, as lucy had said, but something almost as troublesome. what would lady lufton say, or think, or feel? what would she say, and think, and feel as to that parsonage from which so deadly a blow would fall upon her? would she not accuse the vicar and the vicar's wife of the blackest ingratitude? would life be endurable at framley under such circumstances as those? "what you tell me so surprises me, that i hardly as yet know how to speak about it," said mrs. robarts. "it was amazing, was it not? he must have been insane at the time; there can be no other excuse made for him. i wonder whether there is anything of that sort in the family?" "what; madness?" said mrs. robarts, quite in earnest. "well, don't you think he must have been mad when such an idea as that came into his head? but you don't believe it; i can see that. and yet it is as true as heaven. standing exactly here, on this spot, he said that he would persevere till i accepted his love. i wonder what made me specially observe that both his feet were within the lines of that division." "and you would not accept his love?" "no; i would have nothing to say to it. look you, i stood here, and putting my hand upon my heart,--for he bade me to do that,--i said that i could not love him." "and what then?" "he went away,--with a look as though he were heart-broken. he crept away slowly, saying that he was the most wretched soul alive. for a minute i believed him, and could almost have called him back. but, no, fanny; do not think that i am over proud, or conceited about my conquest. he had not reached the gate before he was thanking god for his escape." "that i do not believe." "but i do; and i thought of lady lufton too. how could i bear that she should scorn me, and accuse me of stealing her son's heart? i know that it is better as it is; but tell me--is a falsehood always wrong, or can it be possible that the end should justify the means? ought i to have told him the truth, and to have let him know that i could almost kiss the ground on which he stood?" this was a question for the doctors which mrs. robarts would not take upon herself to answer. she would not make that falsehood matter of accusation, but neither would she pronounce for it any absolution. in that matter lucy must regulate her own conscience. "and what shall i do next?" said lucy, still speaking in a tone that was half tragic and half jeering. "do?" said mrs. robarts. "yes, something must be done. if i were a man i should go to switzerland, of course; or, as the case is a bad one, perhaps as far as hungary. what is it that girls do? they don't die now-a-days, i believe." "lucy, i do not believe that you care for him one jot. if you were in love you would not speak of it like that." "there, there. that's my only hope. if i could laugh at myself till it had become incredible to you, i also, by degrees, should cease to believe that i had cared for him. but, fanny, it is very hard. if i were to starve, and rise before daybreak, and pinch myself, or do some nasty work,--clean the pots and pans and the candlesticks; that i think would do the most good. i have got a piece of sack-cloth, and i mean to wear that, when i have made it up." "you are joking now, lucy, i know." "no, by my word; not in the spirit of what i am saying. how shall i act upon my heart, if i do not do it through the blood and the flesh?" "do you not pray that god will give you strength to bear these troubles?" "but how is one to word one's prayer, or how even to word one's wishes? i do not know what is the wrong that i have done. i say it boldly; in this matter i cannot see my own fault. i have simply found that i have been a fool." it was now quite dark in the room, or would have been so to any one entering it afresh. they had remained there talking till their eyes had become accustomed to the gloom, and would still have remained, had they not suddenly been disturbed by the sound of a horse's feet. "there is mark," said fanny, jumping up and running to the bell, that lights might be ready when he should enter. "i thought he remained in barchester to-night." "and so did i; but he said it might be doubtful. what shall we do if he has not dined?" that, i believe, is always the first thought in the mind of a good wife when her husband returns home. has he had his dinner? what can i give him for dinner? will he like his dinner? oh dear, oh dear! there is nothing in the house but cold mutton. but on this occasion the lord of the mansion had dined, and came home radiant with good-humour, and owing, perhaps, a little of his radiance to the dean's claret. "i have told them," said he, "that they may keep possession of the house for the next two months, and they have agreed to that arrangement." "that is very pleasant," said mrs. robarts. "and i don't think we shall have so much trouble about the dilapidations after all." "i am very glad of that," said mrs. robarts. but nevertheless she was thinking much more of lucy than of the house in barchester close. "you won't betray me," said lucy, as she gave her sister-in-law a parting kiss at night. "no; not unless you give me permission." "ah; i shall never do that." chapter xxvii. south audley street. the duke of omnium had notified to mr. fothergill his wish that some arrangement should be made about the chaldicotes mortgages, and mr. fothergill had understood what the duke meant as well as though his instructions had been written down with all a lawyer's verbosity. the duke's meaning was this, that chaldicotes was to be swept up and garnered, and made part and parcel of the gatherum property. it had seemed to the duke that that affair between his friend and miss dunstable was hanging fire, and, therefore, it would be well that chaldicotes should be swept up and garnered. and, moreover, tidings had come into the western division of the county that young frank gresham of boxall hill was in treaty with the government for the purchase of all that crown property called the chace of chaldicotes. it had been offered to the duke, but the duke had given no definite answer. had he got his money back from mr. sowerby, he could have forestalled mr. gresham; but now that did not seem to be probable, and his grace was resolved that either the one property or the other should be duly garnered. therefore mr. fothergill went up to town, and therefore mr. sowerby was, most unwillingly, compelled to have a business interview with mr. fothergill. in the meantime, since last we saw him, mr. sowerby had learned from his sister the answer which miss dunstable had given to his proposition, and knew that he had no further hope in that direction. there was no further hope thence of absolute deliverance, but there had been a tender of money services. to give mr. sowerby his due, he had at once declared that it would be quite out of the question that he should now receive any assistance of that sort from miss dunstable; but his sister had explained to him that it would be a mere business transaction; that miss dunstable would receive her interest; and that, if she would be content with four per cent., whereas the duke received five, and other creditors six, seven, eight, ten, and heaven only knows how much more, it might be well for all parties. he, himself, understood, as well as fothergill had done, what was the meaning of the duke's message. chaldicotes was to be gathered up and garnered, as had been done with so many another fair property lying in those regions. it was to be swallowed whole, and the master was to walk out from his old family hall, to leave the old woods that he loved, to give up utterly to another the parks and paddocks and pleasant places which he had known from his earliest infancy, and owned from his earliest manhood. there can be nothing more bitter to a man than such a surrender. what, compared to this, can be the loss of wealth to one who has himself made it, and brought it together, but has never actually seen it with his bodily eyes? such wealth has come by one chance, and goes by another: the loss of it is part of the game which the man is playing; and if he cannot lose as well as win, he is a poor, weak, cowardly creature. such men, as a rule, do know how to bear a mind fairly equal to adversity. but to have squandered the acres which have descended from generation to generation; to be the member of one's family that has ruined that family; to have swallowed up in one's own maw all that should have graced one's children, and one's grandchildren! it seems to me that the misfortunes of this world can hardly go beyond that! mr. sowerby, in spite of his recklessness and that dare-devil gaiety which he knew so well how to wear and use, felt all this as keenly as any man could feel it. it had been absolutely his own fault. the acres had come to him all his own, and now, before his death, every one of them would have gone bodily into that greedy maw. the duke had bought up nearly all the debts which had been secured upon the property, and now could make a clean sweep of it. sowerby, when he received that message from mr. fothergill, knew well that this was intended; and he knew well also, that when once he should cease to be mr. sowerby of chaldicotes, he need never again hope to be returned as member for west barsetshire. this world would for him be all over. and what must such a man feel when he reflects that this world is for him all over? on the morning in question he went to his appointment, still bearing a cheerful countenance. mr. fothergill, when in town on such business as this, always had a room at his service in the house of messrs. gumption and gagebee, the duke's london law agents, and it was thither that mr. sowerby had been summoned. the house of business of messrs. gumption and gagebee was in south audley street; and it may be said that there was no spot on the whole earth which mr. sowerby so hated as he did the gloomy, dingy back sitting-room up-stairs in that house. he had been there very often, but had never been there without annoyance. it was a horrid torture-chamber, kept for such dread purposes as these, and no doubt had been furnished, and papered, and curtained with the express object of finally breaking down the spirits of such poor country gentlemen as chanced to be involved. everything was of a brown crimson,--of a crimson that had become brown. sunlight, real genial light of the sun, never made its way there, and no amount of candles could illumine the gloom of that brownness. the windows were never washed; the ceiling was of a dark brown; the old turkey carpet was thick with dust, and brown withal. the ungainly office-table, in the middle of the room, had been covered with black leather, but that was now brown. there was a bookcase full of dingy brown law books in a recess on one side of the fireplace, but no one had touched them for years, and over the chimney-piece hung some old legal pedigree table, black with soot. such was the room which mr. fothergill always used in the business house of messrs. gumption and gagebee, in south audley street, near to park lane. i once heard this room spoken of by an old friend of mine, one mr. gresham of greshamsbury, the father of frank gresham, who was now about to purchase that part of the chace of chaldicotes which belonged to the crown. he also had had evil days, though now happily they were past and gone; and he, too, had sat in that room, and listened to the voice of men who were powerful over his property, and intended to use that power. the idea which he left on my mind was much the same as that which i had entertained, when a boy, of a certain room in the castle of udolpho. there was a chair in that udolpho room in which those who sat were dragged out limb by limb, the head one way and the legs another; the fingers were dragged off from the hands, and the teeth out from the jaws, and the hair off the head, and the flesh from the bones, and the joints from their sockets, till there was nothing left but a lifeless trunk seated in the chair. mr. gresham, as he told me, always sat in the same seat, and the tortures he suffered when so seated, the dislocations of his property which he was forced to discuss, the operations on his very self which he was forced to witness, made me regard that room as worse than the chamber of udolpho. he, luckily--a rare instance of good fortune--had lived to see all his bones and joints put together again, and flourishing soundly; but he never could speak of the room without horror. "no consideration on earth," he once said to me, very solemnly,--"i say none, should make me again enter that room." and indeed this feeling was so strong with him, that from the day when his affairs took a turn he would never even walk down south audley street. on the morning in question into this torture-chamber mr. sowerby went, and there, after some two or three minutes, he was joined by mr. fothergill. mr. fothergill was, in one respect, like to his friend sowerby. he enacted two altogether different persons on occasions which were altogether different. generally speaking, with the world at large, he was a jolly, rollicking, popular man, fond of eating and drinking, known to be devoted to the duke's interests, and supposed to be somewhat unscrupulous, or at any rate hard, when they were concerned; but in other respects a good-natured fellow; and there was a report about that he had once lent somebody money, without charging him interest or taking security. on the present occasion sowerby saw at a glance that he had come thither with all the aptitudes and appurtenances of his business about him. he walked into the room with a short, quick step; there was no smile on his face as he shook hands with his old friend; he brought with him a box laden with papers and parchments, and he had not been a minute in the room before he was seated in one of the old dingy chairs. "how long have you been in town, fothergill?" said sowerby, still standing with his back against the chimney. he had resolved on only one thing--that nothing should induce him to touch, look at, or listen to any of those papers. he knew well enough that no good would come of that. he also had his own lawyer, to see that he was pilfered according to rule. "how long? since the day before yesterday. i never was so busy in my life. the duke, as usual, wants to have everything done at once." "if he wants to have all that i owe him paid at once, he is like to be out in his reckoning." "ah, well; i'm glad you are ready to come quickly to business, because it's always best. won't you come and sit down here?" "no, thank you; i'll stand." "but we shall have to go through these figures, you know." "not a figure, fothergill. what good would it do? none to me, and none to you either, as i take it; if there is anything wrong, potter's fellows will find it out. what is it the duke wants?" "well; to tell the truth, he wants his money." "in one sense, and that the main sense, he has got it. he gets his interest regularly, does not he?" "pretty well for that, seeing how times are. but, sowerby, that's nonsense. you understand the duke as well as i do, and you know very well what he wants. he has given you time, and if you had taken any steps towards getting the money, you might have saved the property." "a hundred and eighty thousand pounds! what steps could i take to get that? fly a bill, and let tozer have it to get cash on it in the city!" "we hoped you were going to marry." "that's all off." "then i don't think you can blame the duke for looking for his own. it does not suit him to have so large a sum standing out any longer. you see, he wants land, and will have it. had you paid off what you owed him, he would have purchased the crown property; and now, it seems, young gresham has bid against him, and is to have it. this has riled him, and i may as well tell you fairly, that he is determined to have either money or marbles." "you mean that i am to be dispossessed." "well, yes; if you choose to call it so. my instructions are to foreclose at once." "then i must say the duke is treating me most uncommonly ill." "well, sowerby, i can't see it." "i can, though. he has his money like clock-work; and he has bought up these debts from persons who would have never disturbed me as long as they got their interest." "haven't you had the seat?" "the seat! and is it expected that i am to pay for that?" "i don't see that any one is asking you to pay for it. you are like a great many other people that i know. you want to eat your cake and have it. you have been eating it for the last twenty years, and now you think yourself very ill-used because the duke wants to have his turn." "i shall think myself very ill-used if he sells me out--worse than ill-used. i do not want to use strong language, but it will be more than ill-usage. i can hardly believe that he really means to treat me in that way." "it is very hard that he should want his own money!" "it is not his money that he wants. it is my property." "and has he not paid for it? have you not had the price of your property? now, sowerby, it is of no use for you to be angry; you have known for the last three years what was coming on you as well as i did. why should the duke lend you money without an object? of course he has his own views. but i do say this; he has not hurried you; and had you been able to do anything to save the place you might have done it. you have had time enough to look about you." sowerby still stood in the place in which he had first fixed himself, and now for awhile he remained silent. his face was very stern, and there was in his countenance none of those winning looks which often told so powerfully with his young friends,--which had caught lord lufton and had charmed mark robarts. the world was going against him, and things around him were coming to an end. he was beginning to perceive that he had in truth eaten his cake, and that there was now little left for him to do,--unless he chose to blow out his brains. he had said to lord lufton that a man's back should be broad enough for any burden with which he himself might load it. could he now boast that his back was broad enough and strong enough for this burden? but he had even then, at that bitter moment, a strong remembrance that it behoved him still to be a man. his final ruin was coming on him, and he would soon be swept away out of the knowledge and memory of those with whom he had lived. but, nevertheless, he would bear himself well to the last. it was true that he had made his own bed, and he understood the justice which required him to lie upon it. during all this time fothergill occupied himself with the papers. he continued to turn over one sheet after another, as though he were deeply engaged in money considerations and calculations. but, in truth, during all that time he did not read a word. there was nothing there for him to read. the reading and the writing, and the arithmetic in such matters, are done by underlings--not by such big men as mr. fothergill. his business was to tell sowerby that he was to go. all those records there were of very little use. the duke had the power; sowerby knew that the duke had the power; and fothergill's business was to explain that the duke meant to exercise his power. he was used to the work, and went on turning over the papers and pretending to read them, as though his doing so were of the greatest moment. "i shall see the duke myself," mr. sowerby said at last, and there was something almost dreadful in the sound of his voice. "you know that the duke won't see you on a matter of this kind. he never speaks to anyone about money; you know that as well as i do." "by ----, but he shall speak to me. never speak to anyone about money! why is he ashamed to speak of it when he loves it so dearly? he shall see me." "i have nothing further to say, sowerby. of course i shan't ask his grace to see you; and if you force your way in on him you know what will happen. it won't be my doing if he is set against you. nothing that you say to me in that way,--nothing that anybody ever says,--goes beyond myself." "i shall manage the matter through my own lawyer," said sowerby; and then he took his hat, and, without uttering another word, left the room. we know not what may be the nature of that eternal punishment to which those will be doomed who shall be judged to have been evil at the last; but methinks that no more terrible torment can be devised than the memory of self-imposed ruin. what wretchedness can exceed that of remembering from day to day that the race has been all run, and has been altogether lost; that the last chance has gone, and has gone in vain; that the end has come, and with it disgrace, contempt, and self-scorn--disgrace that never can be redeemed, contempt that never can be removed, and self-scorn that will eat into one's vitals for ever? mr. sowerby was now fifty; he had enjoyed his chances in life; and as he walked back, up south audley street, he could not but think of the uses he had made of them. he had fallen into the possession of a fine property on the attainment of his manhood; he had been endowed with more than average gifts of intellect; never-failing health had been given to him, and a vision fairly clear in discerning good from evil; and now to what a pass had he brought himself! and that man fothergill had put all this before him in so terribly clear a light! now that the day for his final demolishment had arrived, the necessity that he should be demolished--finished away at once, out of sight and out of mind--had not been softened, or, as it were, half hidden, by any ambiguous phrase. "you have had your cake, and eaten it--eaten it greedily. is not that sufficient for you? would you eat your cake twice? would you have a succession of cakes? no, my friend; there is no succession of these cakes for those who eat them greedily. your proposition is not a fair one, and we who have the whip-hand of you will not listen to it. be good enough to vanish. permit yourself to be swept quietly into the dunghill. all that there was about you of value has departed from you; and allow me to say that you are now--rubbish." and then the ruthless besom comes with irresistible rush, and the rubbish is swept into the pit, there to be hidden for ever from the sight. and the pity of it is this--that a man, if he will only restrain his greed, may eat his cake and yet have it; ay, and in so doing will have twice more the flavour of the cake than he who with gourmandizing maw will devour his dainty all at once. cakes in this world will grow by being fed on, if only the feeder be not too insatiate. on all which wisdom mr. sowerby pondered with sad heart and very melancholy mind as he walked away from the premises of messrs. gumption and gagebee. his intention had been to go down to the house after leaving mr. fothergill, but the prospect of immediate ruin had been too much for him, and he knew that he was not fit to be seen at once among the haunts of men. and he had intended also to go down to barchester early on the following morning--only for a few hours, that he might make further arrangements respecting that bill which robarts had accepted for him. that bill--the second one--had now become due, and mr. tozer had been with him. "now it ain't no use in life, mr. sowerby," tozer had said. "i ain't got the paper myself, nor didn't 'old it, not two hours. it went away through tom tozer; you knows that, mr. sowerby, as well as i do." now, whenever tozer, mr. sowerby's tozer, spoke of tom tozer, mr. sowerby knew that seven devils were being evoked, each worse than the first devil. mr. sowerby did feel something like sincere regard, or rather love, for that poor parson whom he had inveigled into mischief, and would fain save him, if it were possible, from the tozer fang. mr. forrest, of the barchester bank, would probably take up that last five hundred pound bill, on behalf of mr. robarts,--only it would be needful that he, sowerby, should run down and see that this was properly done. as to the other bill--the former and lesser one--as to that, mr. tozer would probably be quiet for a while. such had been sowerby's programme for these two days; but now--what further possibility was there now that he should care for robarts, or any other human being; he that was to be swept at once into the dung-heap? in this frame of mind he walked up south audley street, and crossed one side of grosvenor square, and went almost mechanically into green street. at the farther end of green street, near to park lane, lived mr. and mrs. harold smith. chapter xxviii. dr. thorne. when miss dunstable met her friends, the greshams--young frank gresham and his wife--at gatherum castle, she immediately asked after one dr. thorne, who was mrs. gresham's uncle. dr. thorne was an old bachelor, in whom both as a man and a doctor miss dunstable was inclined to place much confidence. not that she had ever entrusted the cure of her bodily ailments to dr. thorne--for she kept a doctor of her own, dr. easyman, for this purpose--and it may moreover be said that she rarely had bodily ailments requiring the care of any doctor. but she always spoke of dr. thorne among her friends as a man of wonderful erudition and judgment; and had once or twice asked and acted on his advice in matters of much moment. dr. thorne was not a man accustomed to the london world; he kept no house there, and seldom even visited the metropolis; but miss dunstable had known him at greshamsbury, where he lived, and there had for some months past grown up a considerable intimacy between them. he was now staying at the house of his niece, mrs. gresham; but the chief reason of his coming up had been a desire expressed by miss dunstable, that he should do so. she had wished for his advice; and at the instigation of his niece he had visited london and given it. the special piece of business as to which dr. thorne had thus been summoned from the bedsides of his country patients, and especially from the bedside of lady arabella gresham, to whose son his niece was married, related to certain large money interests, as to which one might have imagined that dr. thorne's advice would not be peculiarly valuable. he had never been much versed in such matters on his own account, and was knowing neither in the ways of the share market, nor in the prices of land. but miss dunstable was a lady accustomed to have her own way, and to be indulged in her own wishes without being called on to give adequate reasons for them. "my dear," she had said to young mrs. gresham, "if your uncle don't come up to london now, when i make such a point of it, i shall think that he is a bear and a savage; and i certainly will never speak to him again,--or to frank--or to you; so you had better see to it." mrs. gresham had not probably taken her friend's threat as meaning quite all that it threatened. miss dunstable habitually used strong language; and those who knew her well, generally understood when she was to be taken as expressing her thoughts by figures of speech. in this instance she had not meant it all; but, nevertheless, mrs. gresham had used violent influence in bringing the poor doctor up to london. "besides," said miss dunstable, "i have resolved on having the doctor at my conversazione, and if he won't come of himself, i shall go down and fetch him. i have set my heart on trumping my dear friend mrs. proudie's best card; so i mean to get everybody!" the upshot of all this was, that the doctor did come up to town, and remained the best part of a week at his niece's house in portman square--to the great disgust of the lady arabella, who conceived that she must die if neglected for three days. as to the matter of business, i have no doubt but that he was of great use. he was possessed of common sense and an honest purpose; and i am inclined to think that they are often a sufficient counterpoise to a considerable amount of worldly experience. if one could have the worldly experience also--! true! but then it is so difficult to get everything. but with that special matter of business we need not have any further concern. we will presume it to have been discussed and completed, and will now dress ourselves for miss dunstable's conversazione. but it must not be supposed that she was so poor in genius as to call her party openly by a name borrowed for the nonce from mrs. proudie. it was only among her specially intimate friends, mrs. harold smith and some few dozen others, that she indulged in this little joke. there had been nothing in the least pretentious about the card with which she summoned her friends to her house on this occasion. she had merely signified in some ordinary way, that she would be glad to see them as soon after nine o'clock on thursday evening, the ---- instant, as might be convenient. but all the world understood that all the world was to be gathered together at miss dunstable's house on the night in question,--that an effort was to be made to bring together people of all classes, gods and giants, saints and sinners, those rabid through the strength of their morality, such as our dear friend lady lufton, and those who were rabid in the opposite direction, such as lady hartletop, the duke of omnium, and mr. sowerby. an orthodox martyr had been caught from the east, and an oily latter-day st. paul from the other side of the water--to the horror and amazement of archdeacon grantly, who had come up all the way from plumstead to be present on the occasion. mrs. grantly also had hankered to be there; but when she heard of the presence of the latter-day st. paul, she triumphed loudly over her husband, who had made no offer to take her. that lords brock and de terrier were to be at the gathering was nothing. the pleasant king of the gods and the courtly chief of the giants could shake hands with each other in any house with the greatest pleasure; but men were to meet who, in reference to each other, could shake nothing but their heads or their fists. supplehouse was to be there, and harold smith, who now hated his enemy with a hatred surpassing that of women--or even of politicians. the minor gods, it was thought, would congregate together in one room, very bitter in their present state of banishment; and the minor giants in another, terribly loud in their triumph. that is the fault of the giants, who, otherwise, are not bad fellows; they are unable to endure the weight of any temporary success. when attempting olympus--and this work of attempting is doubtless their natural condition--they scratch and scramble, diligently using both toes and fingers, with a mixture of good-humoured virulence and self-satisfied industry that is gratifying to all parties. but whenever their efforts are unexpectedly, and for themselves unfortunately successful, they are so taken aback that they lose the power of behaving themselves with even gigantesque propriety. such, so great and so various, was to be the intended gathering at miss dunstable's house. she herself laughed, and quizzed herself--speaking of the affair to mrs. harold smith as though it were an excellent joke, and to mrs. proudie as though she were simply emulous of rivalling those world-famous assemblies in gloucester place; but the town at large knew that an effort was being made, and it was supposed that even miss dunstable was somewhat nervous. in spite of her excellent joking it was presumed that she would be unhappy if she failed. to mrs. frank gresham she did speak with some little seriousness. "but why on earth should you give yourself all this trouble?" that lady had said, when miss dunstable owned that she was doubtful, and unhappy in her doubts, as to the coming of one of the great colleagues of mr. supplehouse. "when such hundreds are coming, big wigs and little wigs of all shades, what can it matter whether mr. towers be there or not?" but miss dunstable had answered almost with a screech,--"my dear, it will be nothing without him. you don't understand; but the fact is, that tom towers is everybody and everything at present." and then, by no means for the first time, mrs. gresham began to lecture her friend as to her vanity; in answer to which lecture miss dunstable mysteriously hinted, that if she were only allowed her full swing on this occasion,--if all the world would now indulge her, she would-- she did not quite say what she would do, but the inference drawn by mrs. gresham was this: that if the incense now offered on the altar of fashion were accepted, miss dunstable would at once abandon the pomps and vanities of this wicked world, and all the sinful lusts of the flesh. "but the doctor will stay, my dear? i hope i may look on that as fixed." miss dunstable, in making this demand on the doctor's time, showed an energy quite equal to that with which she invoked the gods that tom towers might not be absent. now, to tell the truth, dr. thorne had at first thought it very unreasonable that he should be asked to remain up in london in order that he might be present at an evening party, and had for a while pertinaciously refused; but when he learned that three or four prime ministers were expected, and that it was possible that even tom towers might be there in the flesh, his philosophy also had become weak, and he had written to lady arabella to say that his prolonged absence for two days further must be endured, and that the mild tonics, morning and evening, might be continued. but why should miss dunstable be so anxious that dr. thorne should be present on this grand occasion? why, indeed, should she be so frequently inclined to summon him away from his country practice, his compounding board, and his useful ministrations to rural ailments? the doctor was connected with her by no ties of blood. their friendship, intimate as it was, had as yet been but of short date. she was a very rich woman, capable of purchasing all manner of advice and good counsel, whereas he was so far from being rich, that any continued disturbance to his practice might be inconvenient to him. nevertheless, miss dunstable seemed to have no more compunction in making calls upon his time, than she might have felt had he been her brother. no ideas on this matter suggested themselves to the doctor himself. he was a simple-minded man, taking things as they came, and especially so taking things that came pleasantly. he liked miss dunstable, and was gratified by her friendship, and did not think of asking himself whether she had a right to put him to trouble and inconvenience. but such ideas did occur to mrs. gresham, the doctor's niece. had miss dunstable any object, and if so, what object? was it simply veneration for the doctor, or was it caprice? was it eccentricity--or could it possibly be love? in speaking of the ages of these two friends it may be said in round terms that the lady was well past forty, and that the gentleman was well past fifty. under such circumstances could it be love? the lady, too, was one who had had offers almost by the dozen,--offers from men of rank, from men of fashion, and from men of power; from men endowed with personal attractions, with pleasant manners, with cultivated tastes, and with eloquent tongues. not only had she loved none such, but by none such had she been cajoled into an idea that it was possible that she could love them. that dr. thorne's tastes were cultivated, and his manners pleasant, might probably be admitted by three or four old friends in the country who valued him; but the world in london, that world to which miss dunstable was accustomed, and which was apparently becoming dearer to her day by day, would not have regarded the doctor as a man likely to become the object of a lady's passion. but nevertheless the idea did occur to mrs. gresham. she had been brought up at the elbow of this country practitioner; she had lived with him as though she had been his daughter; she had been for years the ministering angel of his household; and, till her heart had opened to the natural love of womanhood, all her closest sympathies had been with him. in her eyes the doctor was all but perfect; and it did not seem to her to be out of the question that miss dunstable should have fallen in love with her uncle. miss dunstable once said to mrs. harold smith that it was possible that she might marry, the only condition then expressed being this, that the man elected should be one who was quite indifferent as to money. mrs. harold smith, who, by her friends, was presumed to know the world with tolerable accuracy, had replied that such a man miss dunstable would never find in this world. all this had passed in that half comic vein of banter which miss dunstable so commonly used when conversing with such friends as mrs. harold smith; but she had spoken words of the same import more than once to mrs. gresham; and mrs. gresham, putting two and two together as women do, had made four of the little sum; and, as the final result of the calculation, determined that miss dunstable would marry dr. thorne if dr. thorne would ask her. and then mrs. gresham began to bethink herself of two other questions. would it be well that her uncle should marry miss dunstable? and if so, would it be possible to induce him to make such a proposition? after the consideration of many pros and cons, and the balancing of very various arguments, mrs. gresham thought that the arrangement on the whole might not be a bad one. for miss dunstable she herself had a sincere affection, which was shared by her husband. she had often grieved at the sacrifices miss dunstable made to the world, thinking that her friend was falling into vanity, indifference, and an ill mode of life; but such a marriage as this would probably cure all that. and then as to dr. thorne himself, to whose benefit were of course applied mrs. gresham's most earnest thoughts in this matter, she could not but think that he would be happier married than he was single. in point of temper, no woman could stand higher than miss dunstable; no one had ever heard of her being in an ill humour; and then though mrs. gresham was gifted with a mind which was far removed from being mercenary, it was impossible not to feel that some benefit must accrue from the bride's wealth. mary thorne, the present mrs. frank gresham, had herself been a great heiress. circumstances had weighted her hand with enormous possessions, and hitherto she had not realized the truth of that lesson which would teach us to believe that happiness and riches are incompatible. therefore she resolved that it might be well if the doctor and miss dunstable were brought together. but could the doctor be induced to make such an offer? mrs. gresham acknowledged a terrible difficulty in looking at the matter from that point of view. her uncle was fond of miss dunstable; but she was sure that an idea of such a marriage had never entered his head; that it would be very difficult--almost impossible--to create such an idea; and that if the idea were there, the doctor could hardly be instigated to make the proposition. looking at the matter as a whole, she feared that the match was not practicable. on the day of miss dunstable's party, mrs. gresham and her uncle dined together alone in portman square. mr. gresham was not yet in parliament, but an almost immediate vacancy was expected in his division of the county, and it was known that no one could stand against him with any chance of success. this threw him much among the politicians of his party--those giants, namely, whom it would be his business to support--and on this account he was a good deal away from his own house at the present moment. "politics make a terrible demand on a man's time," he said to his wife; and then went down to dine at his club in pall mall with sundry other young philogeants. on men of that class politics do make a great demand--at the hour of dinner and thereabouts. "what do you think of miss dunstable?" said mrs. gresham to her uncle, as they sat together over their coffee. she added nothing to the question, but asked it in all its baldness. "think about her!" said the doctor. "well, mary; what do you think about her? i dare say we think the same." "but that's not the question. what do you think about her? do you think she's honest?" "honest? oh, yes, certainly--very honest, i should say." "and good-tempered?" "uncommonly good-tempered." "and affectionate?" "well; yes,--and affectionate. i should certainly say that she is affectionate." "i'm sure she's clever." "yes, i think she's clever." "and, and--and womanly in her feelings." mrs. gresham felt that she could not quite say lady-like, though she would fain have done so had she dared. "oh, certainly," said the doctor. "but, mary, why are you dissecting miss dunstable's character with so much ingenuity?" "well, uncle, i will tell you why; because--" and mrs. gresham, while she was speaking, got up from her chair, and going round the table to her uncle's side, put her arm round his neck till her face was close to his, and then continued speaking as she stood behind him out of his sight--"because--i think that miss dunstable is--is very fond of you; and that it would make her happy if you would--ask her to be your wife." "mary!" said the doctor, turning round with an endeavour to look his niece in the face. "i am quite in earnest, uncle--quite in earnest. from little things that she has said, and little things that i have seen, i do believe what i now tell you." "and you want me to--" "dear uncle; my own one darling uncle, i want you only to do that which will make you--make you happy. what is miss dunstable to me compared to you?" and then she stooped down and kissed him. the doctor was apparently too much astounded by the intimation given him to make any further immediate reply. his niece, seeing this, left him that she might go and dress; and when they met again in the drawing-room frank gresham was with them. chapter xxix. miss dunstable at home. miss dunstable did not look like a love-lorn maiden, as she stood in a small ante-chamber at the top of her drawing-room stairs receiving her guests. her house was one of those abnormal mansions, which are to be seen here and there in london, built in compliance rather with the rules of rural architecture, than with those which usually govern the erection of city streets and town terraces. it stood back from its brethren, and alone, so that its owner could walk round it. it was approached by a short carriageway; the chief door was in the back of the building; and the front of the house looked on to one of the parks. miss dunstable in procuring it had had her usual luck. it had been built by an eccentric millionnaire at an enormous cost; and the eccentric millionnaire, after living in it for twelve months, had declared that it did not possess a single comfort, and that it was deficient in most of those details which, in point of house accommodation, are necessary to the very existence of man. consequently the mansion was sold, and miss dunstable was the purchaser. cranbourn house it had been named, and its present owner had made no change in this respect; but the world at large very generally called it ointment hall, and miss dunstable herself as frequently used that name for it as any other. it was impossible to quiz miss dunstable with any success, because she always joined in the joke herself. not a word further had passed between mrs. gresham and dr. thorne on the subject of their last conversation; but the doctor as he entered the lady's portals amongst a tribe of servants and in a glare of light, and saw the crowd before him and the crowd behind him, felt that it was quite impossible that he should ever be at home there. it might be all right that a miss dunstable should live in this way, but it could not be right that the wife of dr. thorne should so live. but all this was a matter of the merest speculation, for he was well aware--as he said to himself a dozen times--that his niece had blundered strangely in her reading of miss dunstable's character. when the gresham party entered the ante-room into which the staircase opened, they found miss dunstable standing there surrounded by a few of her most intimate allies. mrs. harold smith was sitting quite close to her; dr. easyman was reclining on a sofa against the wall, and the lady who habitually lived with miss dunstable was by his side. one or two others were there also, so that a little running conversation was kept up, in order to relieve miss dunstable of the tedium which might otherwise be engendered by the work she had in hand. as mrs. gresham, leaning on her husband's arm, entered the room, she saw the back of mrs. proudie, as that lady made her way through the opposite door, leaning on the arm of the bishop. mrs. harold smith had apparently recovered from the annoyance which she must no doubt have felt when miss dunstable so utterly rejected her suit on behalf of her brother. if any feeling had existed, even for a day, calculated to put a stop to the intimacy between the two ladies, that feeling had altogether died away, for mrs. harold smith was conversing with her friend, quite in the old way. she made some remark on each of the guests as they passed by, and apparently did so in a manner satisfactory to the owner of the house, for miss dunstable answered with her kindest smiles, and in that genial, happy tone of voice which gave its peculiar character to her good humour: "she is quite convinced that you are a mere plagiarist in what you are doing," said mrs. harold smith, speaking of mrs. proudie. "and so i am. i don't suppose there can be anything very original now-a-days about an evening party." "but she thinks you are copying her." "and why not? i copy everybody that i see, more or less. you did not at first begin to wear big petticoats out of your own head? if mrs. proudie has any such pride as that, pray don't rob her of it. here's the doctor and the greshams. mary, my darling, how are you?" and in spite of all her grandeur of apparel, miss dunstable took hold of mrs. gresham and kissed her--to the disgust of the dozen-and-a-half of the distinguished fashionable world who were passing up the stairs behind. the doctor was somewhat repressed in his mode of address by the communication which had so lately been made to him. miss dunstable was now standing on the very top of the pinnacle of wealth, and seemed to him to be not only so much above his reach, but also so far removed from his track in life, that he could not in any way put himself on a level with her. he could neither aspire so high nor descend so low; and thinking of this he spoke to miss dunstable as though there were some great distance between them,--as though there had been no hours of intimate friendship down at greshamsbury. there had been such hours, during which miss dunstable and dr. thorne had lived as though they belonged to the same world: and this at any rate may be said of miss dunstable, that she had no idea of forgetting them. dr. thorne merely gave her his hand, and then prepared to pass on. "don't go, doctor," she said; "for heaven's sake, don't go yet. i don't know when i may catch you if you get in there. i shan't be able to follow you for the next two hours. lady meredith, i am so much obliged to you for coming--your mother will be here, i hope. oh, i am so glad! from her you know that is quite a favour. you, sir george, are half a sinner yourself, so i don't think so much about it." "oh, quite so," said sir george; "perhaps rather the largest half." "the men divide the world into gods and giants," said miss dunstable. "we women have our divisions also. we are saints or sinners according to our party. the worst of it is, that we rat almost as often as you do." whereupon sir george laughed and passed on. "i know, doctor, you don't like this kind of thing," she continued, "but there is no reason why you should indulge yourself altogether in your own way, more than another--is there, frank?" "i am not so sure but he does like it," said mr. gresham. "there are some of your reputed friends whom he owns that he is anxious to see." "are there? then there is some hope of his ratting too. but he'll never make a good staunch sinner; will he, mary? you're too old to learn new tricks; eh, doctor?" "i am afraid i am," said the doctor, with a faint laugh. "does dr. thorne rank himself among the army of saints?" asked mrs. harold smith. "decidedly," said miss dunstable. "but you must always remember that there are saints of different orders; are there not, mary? and nobody supposes that the franciscans and the dominicans agree very well together. dr. thorne does not belong to the school of st. proudie, of barchester; he would prefer the priestess whom i see coming round the corner of the staircase, with a very famous young novice at her elbow." "from all that i can hear, you will have to reckon miss grantly among the sinners," said mrs. harold smith--seeing that lady lufton with her young friend was approaching--"unless, indeed, you can make a saint of lady hartletop." and then lady lufton entered the room, and miss dunstable came forward to meet her with more quiet respect in her manner than she had as yet shown to many of her guests. "i am much obliged to you for coming, lady lufton," she said, "and the more so, for bringing miss grantly with you." lady lufton uttered some pretty little speech, during which dr. thorne came up and shook hands with her; as did also frank gresham and his wife. there was a county acquaintance between the framley people and the greshamsbury people, and therefore there was a little general conversation before lady lufton passed out of the small room into what mrs. proudie would have called the noble suite of apartments. "papa will be here," said miss grantly; "at least so i understand. i have not seen him yet myself." "oh, yes, he has promised me," said miss dunstable; "and the archdeacon, i know, will keep his word. i should by no means have the proper ecclesiastical balance without him." "papa always does keep his word," said miss grantly, in a tone that was almost severe. she had not at all understood poor miss dunstable's little joke, or at any rate she was too dignified to respond to it. "i understand that old sir john is to accept the chiltern hundreds at once," said lady lufton, in a half whisper to frank gresham. lady lufton had always taken a keen interest in the politics of east barsetshire, and was now desirous of expressing her satisfaction that a gresham should again sit for the county. the greshams had been old county members in barsetshire, time out of mind. "oh, yes; i believe so," said frank, blushing. he was still young enough to feel almost ashamed of putting himself forward for such high honours. "there will be no contest, of course," said lady lufton, confidentially. "there seldom is in east barsetshire, i am happy to say. but if there were, every tenant at framley would vote on the right side; i can assure you of that. lord lufton was saying so to me only this morning." frank gresham made a pretty little speech in reply, such as young sucking politicians are expected to make; and this, with sundry other small courteous murmurings, detained the lufton party for a minute or two in the ante-chamber. in the meantime the world was pressing on and passing through to the four or five large reception-rooms--the noble suite, which was already piercing poor mrs. proudie's heart with envy to the very core. "these are the sort of rooms," she said to herself unconsciously, "which ought to be provided by the country for the use of its bishops." "but the people are not brought enough together," she said to her lord. "no, no; i don't think they are," said the bishop. "and that is so essential for a conversazione," continued mrs. proudie. "now in gloucester place--." but we will not record all her adverse criticisms, as lady lufton is waiting for us in the ante-room. and now another arrival of moment had taken place;--an arrival indeed of very great moment. to tell the truth, miss dunstable's heart had been set upon having two special persons; and though no stone had been left unturned,--no stone which could be turned with discretion,--she was still left in doubt as to both these two wondrous potentates. at the very moment of which we are now speaking, light and airy as she appeared to be--for it was her character to be light and airy--her mind was torn with doubts. if the wished-for two would come, her evening would be thoroughly successful; but if not, all her trouble would have been thrown away, and the thing would have been a failure; and there were circumstances connected with the present assembly which made miss dunstable very anxious that she should not fail. that the two great ones of the earth were tom towers of the _jupiter_, and the duke of omnium, need hardly be expressed in words. and now, at this very moment, as lady lufton was making her civil speeches to young gresham, apparently in no hurry to move on, and while miss dunstable was endeavouring to whisper something into the doctor's ear, which would make him feel himself at home in this new world, a sound was heard which made that lady know that half her wish had at any rate been granted to her. a sound was heard--but only by her own and one other attentive pair of ears. mrs. harold smith had also caught the name, and knew that the duke was approaching. there was great glory and triumph in this; but why had his grace come at so unchancy a moment? miss dunstable had been fully aware of the impropriety of bringing lady lufton and the duke of omnium into the same house at the same time; but when she had asked lady lufton, she had been led to believe that there was no hope of obtaining the duke; and then, when that hope had dawned upon her, she had comforted herself with the reflection that the two suns, though they might for some few minutes be in the same hemisphere, could hardly be expected to clash, or come across each other's orbits. her rooms were large and would be crowded; the duke would probably do little more than walk through them once, and lady lufton would certainly be surrounded by persons of her own class. thus miss dunstable had comforted herself. but now all things were going wrong, and lady lufton would find herself in close contiguity to the nearest representative of satanic agency, which, according to her ideas, was allowed to walk this nether english world of ours. would she scream? or indignantly retreat out of the house?--or would she proudly raise her head, and with outstretched hand and audible voice, boldly defy the devil and all his works? in thinking of these things as the duke approached miss dunstable almost lost her presence of mind. but mrs. harold smith did not lose hers. "so here at last is the duke," she said, in a tone intended to catch the express attention of lady lufton. mrs. smith had calculated that there might still be time for her ladyship to pass on and avoid the interview. but lady lufton, if she heard the words, did not completely understand them. at any rate they did not convey to her mind at the moment the meaning they were intended to convey. she paused to whisper a last little speech to frank gresham, and then looking round, found that the gentleman who was pressing against her dress was--the duke of omnium! on this great occasion, when the misfortune could no longer be avoided, miss dunstable was by no means beneath herself or her character. she deplored the calamity, but she now saw that it was only left to her to make the best of it. the duke had honoured her by coming to her house, and she was bound to welcome him, though in doing so she should bring lady lufton to her last gasp. "duke," she said, "i am greatly honoured by this kindness on the part of your grace. i hardly expected that you would be so good to me." "the goodness is all on the other side," said the duke, bowing over her hand. and then in the usual course of things this would have been all. the duke would have walked on and shown himself, would have said a word or two to lady hartletop, to the bishop, to mr. gresham, and such like, and would then have left the rooms by another way, and quietly escaped. this was the duty expected from him, and this he would have done, and the value of the party would have been increased thirty per cent. by such doing; but now, as it was, the news-mongers of the west end were likely to get much more out of him. circumstances had so turned out that he had absolutely been pressed close against lady lufton, and she, when she heard the voice, and was made positively acquainted with the fact of the great man's presence by miss dunstable's words, turned round quickly, but still with much feminine dignity, removing her dress from the contact. in doing this she was brought absolutely face to face with the duke, so that each could not but look full at the other. "i beg your pardon," said the duke. they were the only words that had ever passed between them, nor have they spoken to each other since; but simple as they were, accompanied by the little by-play of the speakers, they gave rise to a considerable amount of ferment in the fashionable world. lady lufton, as she retreated back on to dr. easyman, curtseyed low; she curtseyed low and slowly, and with a haughty arrangement of her drapery that was all her own; but the curtsey, though it was eloquent, did not say half so much,--did not reprobate the habitual iniquities of the duke with a voice nearly as potent as that which was expressed in the gradual fall of her eye and the gradual pressure of her lips. when she commenced her curtsey she was looking full in her foe's face. by the time that she had completed it her eyes were turned upon the ground, but there was an ineffable amount of scorn expressed in the lines of her mouth. she spoke no word, and retreated, as modest virtue and feminine weakness must ever retreat, before barefaced vice and virile power; but nevertheless she was held by all the world to have had the best of the encounter. the duke, as he begged her pardon, wore in his countenance that expression of modified sorrow which is common to any gentleman who is supposed by himself to have incommoded a lady. but over and above this,--or rather under it,--there was a slight smile of derision, as though it were impossible for him to look upon the bearing of lady lufton without some amount of ridicule. all this was legible to eyes so keen as those of miss dunstable and mrs. harold smith, and the duke was known to be a master of this silent inward sarcasm; but even by them,--by miss dunstable and mrs. harold smith,--it was admitted that lady lufton had conquered. when her ladyship again looked up, the duke had passed on; she then resumed the care of miss grantly's hand, and followed in among the company. [illustration: lady lufton and the duke of omnium.] "that is what i call unfortunate," said miss dunstable, as soon as both belligerents had departed from the field of battle. "the fates sometimes will be against one." "but they have not been at all against you here," said mrs. harold smith. "if you could arrive at her ladyship's private thoughts to-morrow morning, you would find her to be quite happy in having met the duke. it will be years before she has done boasting of her triumph, and it will be talked of by the young ladies of framley for the next three generations." the gresham party, including dr. thorne, had remained in the ante-chamber during the battle. the whole combat did not occupy above two minutes, and the three of them were hemmed off from escape by lady lufton's retreat into dr. easyman's lap; but now they, too, essayed to pass on. "what, you will desert me," said miss dunstable. "very well; but i shall find you out by-and-by. frank, there is to be some dancing in one of the rooms,--just to distinguish the affair from mrs. proudie's conversazione. it would be stupid, you know, if all conversaziones were alike; wouldn't it? so i hope you will go and dance." "there will, i presume, be another variation at feeding time," said mrs. harold smith. "oh, yes; certainly; i am the most vulgar of all wretches in that respect. i do love to set people eating and drinking.--mr. supplehouse, i am delighted to see you; but do tell me--" and then she whispered with great energy into the ear of mr. supplehouse, and mr. supplehouse again whispered into her ear. "you think he will, then?" said miss dunstable. mr. supplehouse assented; he did think so; but he had no warrant for stating the circumstance as a fact. and then he passed on, hardly looking at mrs. harold smith as he passed. "what a hang-dog countenance he has," said that lady. "ah! you're prejudiced, my dear, and no wonder; as for myself i always liked supplehouse. he means mischief; but then mischief is his trade, and he does not conceal it. if i were a politician i should as soon think of being angry with mr. supplehouse for turning against me as i am now with a pin for pricking me. it's my own awkwardness, and i ought to have known how to use the pin more craftily." "but you must detest a man who professes to stand by his party, and then does his best to ruin it." "so many have done that, my dear; and with much more success than mr. supplehouse! all is fair in love and war,--why not add politics to the list? if we could only agree to do that, it would save us from such a deal of heartburning, and would make none of us a bit the worse." miss dunstable's rooms, large as they were--"a noble suite of rooms certainly, though perhaps a little too--too--too scattered, we will say, eh, bishop?"--were now nearly full, and would have been inconveniently crowded, were it not that many who came only remained for half-an-hour or so. space, however, had been kept for the dancers--much to mrs. proudie's consternation. not that she disapproved of dancing in london, as a rule; but she was indignant that the laws of a conversazione, as re-established by herself in the fashionable world, should be so violently infringed. "conversaziones will come to mean nothing," she said to the bishop, putting great stress on the latter word, "nothing at all, if they are to be treated in this way." "no, they won't; nothing in the least," said the bishop. "dancing may be very well in its place," said mrs. proudie. "i have never objected to it myself; that is, for the laity," said the bishop. "but when people profess to assemble for higher objects," said mrs. proudie, "they ought to act up to their professions." "otherwise they are no better than hypocrites," said the bishop. "a spade should be called a spade," said mrs. proudie. "decidedly," said the bishop, assenting. "and when i undertook the trouble and expense of introducing conversaziones," continued mrs. proudie, with an evident feeling that she had been ill-used, "i had no idea of seeing the word so--so--so misinterpreted;" and then observing certain desirable acquaintances at the other side of the room, she went across, leaving the bishop to fend for himself. lady lufton, having achieved her success, passed on to the dancing, whither it was not probable that her enemy would follow her, and she had not been there very long before she was joined by her son. her heart at the present moment was not quite satisfied at the state of affairs with reference to griselda. she had gone so far as to tell her young friend what were her own wishes; she had declared her desire that griselda should become her daughter-in-law; but in answer to this griselda herself had declared nothing. it was, to be sure, no more than natural that a young lady so well brought up as miss grantly should show no signs of a passion till she was warranted in showing them by the proceedings of the gentleman; but notwithstanding this--fully aware as she was of the propriety of such reticence--lady lufton did think that to her griselda might have spoken some word evincing that the alliance would be satisfactory to her. griselda, however, had spoken no such word, nor had she uttered a syllable to show that she would accept lord lufton if he did offer. then again she had uttered no syllable to show that she would not accept him; but, nevertheless, although she knew that the world had been talking about her and lord dumbello, she stood up to dance with the future marquess on every possible occasion. all this did give annoyance to lady lufton, who began to bethink herself that if she could not quickly bring her little plan to a favourable issue, it might be well for her to wash her hands of it. she was still anxious for the match on her son's account. griselda would, she did not doubt, make a good wife; but lady lufton was not so sure as she once had been that she herself would be able to keep up so strong a feeling for her daughter-in-law as she had hitherto hoped to do. "ludovic, have you been here long?" she said, smiling as she always did smile when her eyes fell upon her son's face. "this instant arrived; and i hurried on after you, as miss dunstable told me that you were here. what a crowd she has! did you see lord brock?" "i did not observe him." "or lord de terrier? i saw them both in the centre room." "lord de terrier did me the honour of shaking hands with me as i passed through." "i never saw such a mixture of people. there is mrs. proudie going out of her mind because you are all going to dance." "the miss proudies dance," said griselda grantly. "but not at conversaziones. you don't see the difference. and i saw spermoil there, looking as pleased as punch. he had quite a circle of his own round him, and was chattering away as though he were quite accustomed to the wickednesses of the world." "there certainly are people here whom one would not have wished to meet, had one thought of it," said lady lufton, mindful of her late engagement. "but it must be all right, for i walked up the stairs with the archdeacon. that is an absolute proof, is it not, miss grantly?" "i have no fears. when i am with your mother i know i must be safe." "i am not so sure of that," said lord lufton, laughing. "mother, you hardly know the worst of it yet. who is here, do you think?" "i know whom you mean; i have seen him," said lady lufton, very quietly. "we came across him just at the top of the stairs," said griselda, with more animation in her face than ever lord lufton had seen there before. "what; the duke?" "yes, the duke," said lady lufton. "i certainly should not have come had i expected to be brought in contact with that man. but it was an accident, and on such an occasion as this it could not be helped." lord lufton at once perceived, by the tone of his mother's voice and by the shades of her countenance that she had absolutely endured some personal encounter with the duke, and also that she was by no means so indignant at the occurrence as might have been expected. there she was, still in miss dunstable's house, and expressing no anger as to miss dunstable's conduct. lord lufton could hardly have been more surprised had he seen the duke handing his mother down to supper; he said, however, nothing further on the subject. "are you going to dance, ludovic?" said lady lufton. "well, i am not sure that i do not agree with mrs. proudie in thinking that dancing would contaminate a conversazione. what are your ideas, miss grantly?" griselda was never very good at a joke, and imagined that lord lufton wanted to escape the trouble of dancing with her. this angered her. for the only species of love-making, or flirtation, or sociability between herself as a young lady, and any other self as a young gentleman, which recommended itself to her taste, was to be found in the amusement of dancing. she was altogether at variance with mrs. proudie on this matter, and gave miss dunstable great credit for her innovation. in society griselda's toes were more serviceable to her than her tongue, and she was to be won by a rapid twirl much more probably than by a soft word. the offer of which she would approve would be conveyed by two all but breathless words during a spasmodic pause in a waltz; and then as she lifted up her arm to receive the accustomed support at her back, she might just find power enough to say, "you--must ask--papa." after that she would not care to have the affair mentioned till everything was properly settled. "i have not thought about it," said griselda, turning her face away from lord lufton. it must not, however, be supposed that miss grantly had not thought about lord lufton, or that she had not considered how great might be the advantage of having lady lufton on her side if she made up her mind that she did wish to become lord lufton's wife. she knew well that now was her time for a triumph, now in this very first season of her acknowledged beauty; and she knew also that young, good-looking bachelor lords do not grow on hedges like blackberries. had lord lufton offered to her, she would have accepted him at once without any remorse as to the greater glories which might appertain to a future marchioness of hartletop. in that direction she was not without sufficient wisdom. but then lord lufton had not offered to her, nor given any signs that he intended to do so; and to give griselda grantly her due, she was not a girl to make a first overture. neither had lord dumbello offered; but he had given signs,--dumb signs, such as birds give to each other, quite as intelligible as verbal signs to a girl who preferred the use of her toes to that of her tongue. "i have not thought about it," said griselda, very coldly, and at that moment a gentleman stood before her and asked her hand for the next dance. it was lord dumbello; and griselda, making no reply except by a slight bow, got up and put her hand within her partner's arm. "shall i find you here, lady lufton, when we have done?" she said; and then started off among the dancers. when the work before one is dancing the proper thing for a gentleman to do is, at any rate, to ask a lady; this proper thing lord lufton had omitted, and now the prize was taken away from under his very nose. there was clearly an air of triumph about lord dumbello as he walked away with the beauty. the world had been saying that lord lufton was to marry her, and the world had also been saying that lord dumbello admired her. now this had angered lord dumbello, and made him feel as though he walked about, a mark of scorn, as a disappointed suitor. had it not been for lord lufton, perhaps he would not have cared so much for griselda grantly; but circumstances had so turned out that he did care for her, and felt it to be incumbent upon him as the heir to a marquisate to obtain what he wanted, let who would have a hankering after the same article. it is in this way that pictures are so well sold at auctions; and lord dumbello regarded miss grantly as being now subject to the auctioneer's hammer, and conceived that lord lufton was bidding against him. there was, therefore, an air of triumph about him as he put his arm round griselda's waist and whirled her up and down the room in obedience to the music. lady lufton and her son were left together looking at each other. of course he had intended to ask griselda to dance, but it cannot be said that he very much regretted his disappointment. of course also lady lufton had expected that her son and griselda would stand up together, and she was a little inclined to be angry with her _protégée_. "i think she might have waited a minute," said lady lufton. "but why, mother? there are certain things for which no one ever waits: to give a friend, for instance, the first passage through a gate out hunting, and such like. miss grantly was quite right to take the first that offered." lady lufton had determined to learn what was to be the end of this scheme of hers. she could not have griselda always with her, and if anything were to be arranged it must be arranged now, while both of them were in london. at the close of the season griselda would return to plumstead, and lord lufton would go--nobody as yet knew where. it would be useless to look forward to further opportunities. if they did not contrive to love each other now, they would never do so. lady lufton was beginning to fear that her plan would not work, but she made up her mind that she would learn the truth then and there,--at least as far as her son was concerned. "oh, yes; quite so;--if it is equal to her with which she dances," said lady lufton. "quite equal, i should think--unless it be that dumbello is longer-winded than i am." "i am sorry to hear you speak of her in that way, ludovic." "why sorry, mother?" "because i had hoped--that you and she would have liked each other." this she said in a serious tone of voice, tender and sad, looking up into his face with a plaintive gaze, as though she knew that she were asking of him some great favour. "yes, mother, i have known that you have wished that." "you have known it, ludovic!" "oh, dear, yes; you are not at all sharp at keeping your secrets from me. and, mother, at one time, for a day or so, i thought that i could oblige you. you have been so good to me, that i would almost do anything for you." "oh, no, no, no," she said, deprecating his praise, and the sacrifice which he seemed to offer of his own hopes and aspirations. "i would not for worlds have you do so for my sake. no mother ever had a better son, and my only ambition is for your happiness." "but, mother, she would not make me happy. i was mad enough for a moment to think that she could do so--for a moment i did think so. there was one occasion on which i would have asked her to take me, but--" "but what, ludovic?" "never mind; it passed away; and now i shall never ask her. indeed i do not think she would have me. she is ambitious, and flying at higher game than i am. and i must say this for her, that she knows well what she is doing, and plays her cards as though she had been born with them in her hand." "you will never ask her?" "no, mother; had i done so, it would have been for love of you--only for love of you." "i would not for worlds that you should do that." "let her have dumbello; she will make an excellent wife for him, just the wife that he will want. and you, you will have been so good to her in assisting her to such a matter." "but, ludovic, i am so anxious to see you settled." "all in good time, mother!" "ah, but the good time is passing away. years run so very quickly. i hope you think about marrying, ludovic." "but, mother, what if i brought you a wife that you did not approve?" "i will approve of any one that you love; that is--" "that is, if you love her also; eh, mother?" "but i rely with such confidence on your taste. i know that you can like no one that is not lady-like and good." "lady-like and good! will that suffice?" said he, thinking of lucy robarts. "yes; it will suffice, if you love her. i don't want you to care for money. griselda will have a fortune that would have been convenient; but i do not wish you to care for that." and thus, as they stood together in miss dunstable's crowded room, the mother and son settled between themselves that the lufton-grantly alliance treaty was not to be ratified. "i suppose i must let mrs. grantly know," said lady lufton to herself, as griselda returned to her side. there had not been above a dozen words spoken between lord dumbello and his partner, but that young lady also had now fully made up her mind that the treaty above mentioned should never be brought into operation. we must go back to our hostess, whom we should not have left for so long a time, seeing that this chapter is written to show how well she could conduct herself in great emergencies. she had declared that after awhile she would be able to leave her position near the entrance door, and find out her own peculiar friends among the crowd; but the opportunity for doing so did not come till very late in the evening. there was a continuation of arrivals; she was wearied to death with making little speeches, and had more than once declared that she must depute mrs. harold smith to take her place. that lady stuck to her through all her labours with admirable constancy, and made the work bearable. without some such constancy on a friend's part, it would have been unbearable. and it must be acknowledged that this was much to the credit of mrs. harold smith. her own hopes with reference to the great heiress had all been shattered, and her answer had been given to her in very plain language. but, nevertheless, she was true to her friendship, and was almost as willing to endure fatigue on the occasion as though she had a sister-in-law's right in the house. at about one o'clock her brother came. he had not yet seen miss dunstable since the offer had been made, and had now with difficulty been persuaded by his sister to show himself. "what can be the use?" said he. "the game is up with me now;"--meaning, poor, ruined ne'er-do-well, not only that that game with miss dunstable was up, but that the great game of his whole life was being brought to an uncomfortable termination. "nonsense," said his sister. "do you mean to despair because a man like the duke of omnium wants his money? what has been good security for him will be good security for another;" and then mrs. harold smith made herself more agreeable than ever to miss dunstable. when miss dunstable was nearly worn out, but was still endeavouring to buoy herself up by a hope of the still-expected great arrival--for she knew that the hero would show himself only at a very late hour if it were to be her good fortune that he showed himself at all--mr. sowerby walked up the stairs. he had schooled himself to go through this ordeal with all the cool effrontery which was at his command; but it was clearly to be seen that all his effrontery did not stand him in sufficient stead, and that the interview would have been embarrassing had it not been for the genuine good-humour of the lady. "here is my brother," said mrs. harold smith, showing by the tremulousness of the whisper that she looked forward to the meeting with some amount of apprehension. "how do you do, mr. sowerby?" said miss dunstable, walking almost into the doorway to welcome him. "better late than never." "i have only just got away from the house," said he, as he gave her his hand. "oh, i know well that you are _sans reproche_ among senators;--as mr. harold smith is _sans peur_;--eh, my dear?" "i must confess that you have contrived to be uncommonly severe upon them both," said mrs. harold, laughing; "and as regards poor harold, most undeservedly so: nathaniel is here, and may defend himself." "and no one is better able to do so on all occasions. but, my dear mr. sowerby, i am dying of despair. do you think he'll come?" "he? who?" "you stupid man--as if there were more than one he! there were two, but the other has been." "upon my word, i don't understand," said mr. sowerby, now again at his ease. "but can i do anything? shall i go and fetch any one? oh, tom towers! i fear i can't help you. but here he is at the foot of the stairs!" and then mr. sowerby stood back with his sister to make way for the great representative man of the age. "angels and ministers of grace, assist me!" said miss dunstable. "how on earth am i to behave myself? mr. sowerby, do you think that i ought to kneel down? my dear, will he have a reporter at his back in the royal livery?" and then miss dunstable advanced two or three steps--not into the doorway, as she had done for mr. sowerby--put out her hand, and smiled her sweetest on mr. towers, of the _jupiter_. "mr. towers," she said, "i am delighted to have this opportunity of seeing you in my own house." "miss dunstable, i am immensely honoured by the privilege of being here," said he. "the honour done is all conferred on me," and she bowed and curtseyed with very stately grace. each thoroughly understood the badinage of the other; and then, in a few moments, they were engaged in very easy conversation. "by-the-by, sowerby, what do you think of this threatened dissolution?" said tom towers. "we are all in the hands of providence," said mr. sowerby, striving to take the matter without any outward show of emotion. but the question was one of terrible import to him, and up to this time he had heard of no such threat. nor had mrs. harold smith, nor miss dunstable, nor had a hundred others who now either listened to the vaticinations of mr. towers, or to the immediate report made of them. but it is given to some men to originate such tidings, and the performance of the prophecy is often brought about by the authority of the prophet. on the following morning the rumour that there would be a dissolution was current in all high circles. "they have no conscience in such matters; no conscience whatever," said a small god, speaking of the giants,--a small god, whose constituency was expensive. mr. towers stood there chatting for about twenty minutes, and then took his departure without making his way into the room. he had answered the purpose for which he had been invited, and left miss dunstable in a happy frame of mind. "i am very glad that he came," said mrs. harold smith, with an air of triumph. "yes, i am glad," said miss dunstable, "though i am thoroughly ashamed that i should be so. after all, what good has he done to me or to any one?" and having uttered this moral reflection, she made her way into the rooms, and soon discovered dr. thorne standing by himself against the wall. "well, doctor," she said, "where are mary and frank? you do not look at all comfortable, standing here by yourself." "i am quite as comfortable as i expected, thank you," said he. "they are in the room somewhere, and, as i believe, equally happy." "that's spiteful in you, doctor, to speak in that way. what would you say if you were called on to endure all that i have gone through this evening?" "there is no accounting for tastes, but i presume you like it." "i am not so sure of that. give me your arm, and let me get some supper. one always likes the idea of having done hard work, and one always likes to have been successful." "we all know that virtue is its own reward," said the doctor. "well, that is something hard upon me," said miss dunstable, as she sat down to table. "and you really think that no good of any sort can come from my giving such a party as this?" "oh, yes; some people, no doubt, have been amused." "it is all vanity in your estimation," said miss dunstable; "vanity and vexation of spirit. well; there is a good deal of the latter, certainly. sherry, if you please. i would give anything for a glass of beer, but that is out of the question. vanity and vexation of spirit! and yet i meant to do good." "pray, do not suppose that i am condemning you, miss dunstable." "ah, but i do suppose it. not only you, but another also, whose judgment i care for perhaps more than yours; and that, let me tell you, is saying a great deal. you do condemn me, dr. thorne, and i also condemn myself. it is not that i have done wrong, but the game is not worth the candle." "ah; that's the question." "the game is not worth the candle. and yet it was a triumph to have both the duke and tom towers. you must confess that i have not. managed badly." soon after that the greshams went away, and in an hour's time or so, miss dunstable was allowed to drag herself to her own bed. that is the great question to be asked on all such occasions, "is the game worth the candle?" chapter xxx. the grantly triumph. it has been mentioned cursorily--the reader, no doubt, will have forgotten it--that mrs. grantly was not specially invited by her husband to go up to town with a view of being present at miss dunstable's party. mrs. grantly said nothing on the subject, but she was somewhat chagrined; not on account of the loss she sustained with reference to that celebrated assembly, but because she felt that her daughter's affairs required the supervision of a mother's eye. she also doubted the final ratification of that lufton-grantly treaty, and, doubting it, she did not feel quite satisfied that her daughter should be left in lady lufton's hands. she had said a word or two to the archdeacon before he went up, but only a word or two, for she hesitated to trust him in so delicate a matter. she was, therefore, not a little surprised at receiving, on the second morning after her husband's departure, a letter from him desiring her immediate presence in london. she was surprised; but her heart was filled rather with hope than dismay, for she had full confidence in her daughter's discretion. on the morning after the party, lady lufton and griselda had breakfasted together as usual, but each felt that the manner of the other was altered. lady lufton thought that her young friend was somewhat less attentive, and perhaps less meek in her demeanour, than usual; and griselda felt that lady lufton was less affectionate. very little, however, was said between them, and lady lufton expressed no surprise when griselda begged to be left alone at home, instead of accompanying her ladyship when the carriage came to the door. nobody called in bruton street that afternoon--no one, at least, was let in--except the archdeacon. he came there late in the day, and remained with his daughter till lady lufton returned. then he took his leave, with more abruptness than was usual with him, and without saying anything special to account for the duration of his visit. neither did griselda say anything special; and so the evening wore away, each feeling in some unconscious manner that she was on less intimate terms with the other than had previously been the case. on the next day also griselda would not go out, but at four o'clock a servant brought a letter to her from mount street. her mother had arrived in london and wished to see her at once. mrs. grantly sent her love to lady lufton, and would call at half-past five, or at any later hour at which it might be convenient for lady lufton to see her. griselda was to stay and dine in mount street; so said the letter. lady lufton declared that she would be very happy to see mrs. grantly at the hour named; and then, armed with this message, griselda started for her mother's lodgings. "i'll send the carriage for you," said lady lufton. "i suppose about ten will do." "thank you," said griselda, "that will do very nicely;" and then she went. exactly at half-past five mrs. grantly was shown into lady lufton's drawing-room. her daughter did not come with her, and lady lufton could see by the expression of her friend's face that business was to be discussed. indeed, it was necessary that she herself should discuss business, for mrs. grantly must now be told that the family treaty could not be ratified. the gentleman declined the alliance, and poor lady lufton was uneasy in her mind at the nature of the task before her. "your coming up has been rather unexpected," said lady lufton, as soon as her friend was seated on the sofa. "yes, indeed; i got a letter from the archdeacon only this morning, which made it absolutely necessary that i should come." "no bad news, i hope?" said lady lufton. "no; i can't call it bad news. but, dear lady lufton, things won't always turn out exactly as one would have them." "no, indeed," said her ladyship, remembering that it was incumbent on her to explain to mrs. grantly now at this present interview the tidings with which her mind was fraught. she would, however, let mrs. grantly first tell her own story, feeling, perhaps, that the one might possibly bear upon the other. "poor dear griselda!" said mrs. grantly, almost with a sigh. "i need not tell you, lady lufton, what my hopes were regarding her." "has she told you anything--anything that--" "she would have spoken to you at once--and it was due to you that she should have done so--but she was timid; and not unnaturally so. and then it was right that she should see her father and me before she quite made up her own mind. but i may say that it is settled now." "what is settled?" asked lady lufton. "of course it is impossible for any one to tell beforehand how these things will turn out," continued mrs. grantly, beating about the bush rather more than was necessary. "the dearest wish of my heart was to see her married to lord lufton. i should so much have wished to have her in the same county with me, and such a match as that would have fully satisfied my ambition." "well, i should rather think it might!" lady lufton did not say this out loud, but she thought it. mrs. grantly was absolutely speaking of a match between her daughter and lord lufton as though she would have displayed some amount of christian moderation in putting up with it! griselda grantly might be a very nice girl; but even she--so thought lady lufton at the moment--might possibly be priced too highly. "dear mrs. grantly," she said, "i have foreseen for the last few days that our mutual hopes in this respect would not be gratified. lord lufton, i think;--but perhaps it is not necessary to explain-- had you not come up to town i should have written to you,--probably to-day. whatever may be dear griselda's fate in life, i sincerely hope that she may be happy." "i think she will," said mrs. grantly, in a tone that expressed much satisfaction. "has--has anything--" "lord dumbello proposed to griselda the other night, at miss dunstable's party," said mrs. grantly, with her eyes fixed upon the floor, and assuming on the sudden much meekness in her manner; "and his lordship was with the archdeacon yesterday, and again this morning. i fancy he is in mount street at the present moment." "oh, indeed!" said lady lufton. she would have given worlds to have possessed at the moment sufficient self-command to have enabled her to express in her tone and manner unqualified satisfaction at the tidings. but she had not such self-command, and was painfully aware of her own deficiency. "yes," said mrs. grantly. "and as it is all so far settled, and as i know you are so kindly anxious about dear griselda, i thought it right to let you know at once. nothing can be more upright, honourable, and generous, than lord dumbello's conduct; and, on the whole, the match is one with which i and the archdeacon cannot but be contented." "it is certainly a great match," said lady lufton. "have you seen lady hartletop yet?" now lady hartletop could not be regarded as an agreeable connection, but this was the only word which escaped from lady lufton that could be considered in any way disparaging, and, on the whole, i think that she behaved well. "lord dumbello is so completely his own master that that has not been necessary," said mrs. grantly. "the marquis has been told, and the archdeacon will see him either to-morrow or the day after." there was nothing left for lady lufton but to congratulate her friend, and this she did in words perhaps not very sincere, but which, on the whole, were not badly chosen. "i am sure i hope she will be very happy," said lady lufton, "and i trust that the alliance"--the word was very agreeable to mrs. grantly's ear--"will give unalloyed gratification to you and to her father. the position which she is called to fill is a very splendid one, but i do not think that it is above her merits." this was very generous, and so mrs. grantly felt it. she had expected that her news would be received with the coldest shade of civility, and she was quite prepared to do battle if there were occasion. but she had no wish for war, and was almost grateful to lady lufton for her cordiality. "dear lady lufton," she said, "it is so kind of you to say so. i have told no one else, and of course would tell no one till you knew it. no one has known her and understood her so well as you have done. and i can assure you of this: that there is no one to whose friendship she looks forward in her new sphere of life with half so much pleasure as she does to yours." lady lufton did not say much further. she could not declare that she expected much gratification from an intimacy with the future marchioness of hartletop. the hartletops and luftons must, at any rate for her generation, live in a world apart, and she had now said all that her old friendship with mrs. grantly required. mrs. grantly understood all this quite as well as did lady lufton; but then mrs. grantly was much the better woman of the world. it was arranged that griselda should come back to bruton street for that night, and that her visit should then be brought to a close. "the archdeacon thinks that for the present i had better remain up in town," said mrs. grantly, "and under the very peculiar circumstances griselda will be--perhaps more comfortable with me." to this lady lufton entirely agreed; and so they parted, excellent friends, embracing each other in a most affectionate manner. that evening griselda did return to bruton street, and lady lufton had to go through the further task of congratulating her. this was the more disagreeable of the two, especially so as it had to be thought over beforehand. but the young lady's excellent good sense and sterling qualities made the task comparatively an easy one. she neither cried, nor was impassioned, nor went into hysterics, nor showed any emotion. she did not even talk of her noble dumbello--her generous dumbello. she took lady lufton's kisses almost in silence, thanked her gently for her kindness, and made no allusion to her own future grandeur. "i think i should like to go to bed early," she said, "as i must see to my packing up." "richards will do all that for you, my dear." "oh, yes, thank you, nothing can be kinder than richards. but i'll just see to my own dresses." and so she went to bed early. lady lufton did not see her son for the next two days, but when she did, of course she said a word or two about griselda. "you have heard the news, ludovic?" she asked. "oh, yes: it's at all the clubs. i have been overwhelmed with presents of willow branches." "you, at any rate, have got nothing to regret," she said. "nor you either, mother. i am sure that you do not think you have. say that you do not regret it. dearest mother, say so for my sake. do you not know in your heart of hearts that she was not suited to be happy as my wife,--or to make me happy?" "perhaps not," said lady lufton, sighing. and then she kissed her son, and declared to herself that no girl in england could be good enough for him. chapter xxxi. salmon fishing in norway. lord dumbello's engagement with griselda grantly was the talk of the town for the next ten days. it formed, at least, one of two subjects which monopolized attention, the other being that dreadful rumour, first put in motion by tom towers at miss dunstable's party, as to a threatened dissolution of parliament. "perhaps, after all, it will be the best thing for us," said mr. green walker, who felt himself to be tolerably safe at crewe junction. "i regard it as a most wicked attempt," said harold smith, who was not equally secure in his own borough, and to whom the expense of an election was disagreeable. "it is done in order that they may get time to tide over the autumn. they won't gain ten votes by a dissolution, and less than forty would hardly give them a majority. but they have no sense of public duty--none whatever. indeed, i don't know who has." "no, by jove; that's just it. that's what my aunt lady hartletop says; there is no sense of duty left in the world. by-the-by, what an uncommon fool dumbello is making himself!" and then the conversation went off to that other topic. lord lufton's joke against himself about the willow branches was all very well, and nobody dreamed that his heart was sore in that matter. the world was laughing at lord dumbello for what it chose to call a foolish match, and lord lufton's friends talked to him about it as though they had never suspected that he could have made an ass of himself in the same direction; but, nevertheless, he was not altogether contented. he by no means wished to marry griselda; he had declared to himself a dozen times since he had first suspected his mother's manoeuvres, that no consideration on earth should induce him to do so; he had pronounced her to be cold, insipid, and unattractive in spite of her beauty; and yet he felt almost angry that lord dumbello should have been successful. and this, too, was the more inexcusable, seeing that he had never forgotten lucy robarts, had never ceased to love her, and that, in holding those various conversations within his own bosom, he was as loud in lucy's favour as he was in dispraise of griselda. "your hero, then," i hear some well-balanced critic say, "is not worth very much." in the first place lord lufton is not my hero; and in the next place, a man may be very imperfect and yet worth a great deal. a man may be as imperfect as lord lufton, and yet worthy of a good mother and a good wife. if not, how many of us are unworthy of the mothers and wives we have! it is my belief that few young men settle themselves down to the work of the world, to the begetting of children, and carving and paying and struggling and fretting for the same, without having first been in love with four or five possible mothers for them, and probably with two or three at the same time. and yet these men are, as a rule, worthy of the excellent wives that ultimately fall to their lot. in this way lord lufton had, to a certain extent, been in love with griselda. there had been one moment in his life in which he would have offered her his hand, had not her discretion been so excellent; and though that moment never returned, still he suffered from some feeling akin to disappointment when he learned that griselda had been won and was to be worn. he was, then, a dog in the manger, you will say. well; and are we not all dogs in the manger, more or less actively? is not that manger-doggishness one of the most common phases of the human heart? but not the less was lord lufton truly in love with lucy robarts. had he fancied that any dumbello was carrying on a siege before that fortress, his vexation would have manifested itself in a very different manner. he could joke about griselda grantly with a frank face and a happy tone of voice; but had he heard of any tidings of a similar import with reference to lucy, he would have been past all joking, and i much doubt whether it would not even have affected his appetite. "mother," he said to lady lufton a day or two after the declaration of griselda's engagement, "i am going to norway to fish." "to norway,--to fish!" "yes. we've got rather a nice party. clontarf is going, and culpepper--" "what, that horrid man!" "he's an excellent hand at fishing;--and haddington peebles, and--and--there'll be six of us altogether; and we start this day week." "that's rather sudden, ludovic." "yes, it is sudden; but we're sick of london. i should not care to go so soon myself, but clontarf and culpepper say that the season is early this year. i must go down to framley before i start--about my horses; and therefore i came to tell you that i shall be there to-morrow." "at framley to-morrow! if you could put it off for three days i should be going myself." but lord lufton could not put it off for three days. it may be that on this occasion he did not wish for his mother's presence at framley while he was there; that he conceived that he should be more at his ease in giving orders about his stable if he were alone while so employed. at any rate he declined her company, and on the following morning did go down to framley by himself. "mark," said mrs. robarts, hurrying into her husband's book-room about the middle of the day, "lord lufton is at home. have you heard it?" "what! here at framley?" "he is over at framley court; so the servants say. carson saw him in the paddock with some of the horses. won't you go and see him?" "of course i will," said mark, shutting up his papers. "lady lufton can't be here, and if he is alone he will probably come and dine." "i don't know about that," said mrs. robarts, thinking of poor lucy. "he is not in the least particular. what does for us will do for him. i shall ask him, at any rate." and without further parley the clergyman took up his hat and went off in search of his friend. lucy robarts had been present when the gardener brought in tidings of lord lufton's arrival at framley, and was aware that fanny had gone to tell her husband. "he won't come here, will he?" she said, as soon as mrs. robarts returned. "i can't say," said fanny. "i hope not. he ought not to do so, and i don't think he will. but mark says that he will ask him to dinner." "then, fanny, i must be taken ill. there is nothing else for it." "i don't think he will come. i don't think he can be so cruel. indeed, i feel sure that he won't; but i thought it right to tell you." lucy also conceived that it was improbable that lord lufton should come to the parsonage under the present circumstances; and she declared to herself that it would not be possible that she should appear at table if he did do so; but, nevertheless, the idea of his being at framley was, perhaps, not altogether painful to her. she did not recognize any pleasure as coming to her from his arrival, but still there was something in his presence which was, unconsciously to herself, soothing to her feelings. but that terrible question remained;--how was she to act if it should turn out that he was coming to dinner? "if he does come, fanny," she said, solemnly, after a pause, "i must keep to my own room, and leave mark to think what he pleases. it will be better for me to make a fool of myself there, than in his presence in the drawing-room." mark robarts took his hat and stick and went over at once to the home paddock, in which he knew that lord lufton was engaged with the horses and grooms. he also was in no supremely happy frame of mind, for his correspondence with mr. tozer was on the increase. he had received notice from that indefatigable gentleman that certain "overdue bills" were now lying at the bank in barchester, and were very desirous of his, mr. robarts's, notice. a concatenation of certain peculiarly unfortunate circumstances made it indispensably necessary that mr. tozer should be repaid, without further loss of time, the various sums of money which he had advanced on the credit of mr. robarts's name, &c. &c. &c. no absolute threat was put forth, and, singular to say, no actual amount was named. mr. robarts, however, could not but observe, with a most painfully accurate attention, that mention was made, not of an overdue bill, but of overdue bills. what if mr. tozer were to demand from him the instant repayment of nine hundred pounds? hitherto he had merely written to mr. sowerby, and he might have had an answer from that gentleman this morning, but no such answer had as yet reached him. consequently he was not, at the present moment, in a very happy frame of mind. he soon found himself with lord lufton and the horses. four or five of them were being walked slowly about the paddock in the care of as many men or boys, and the sheets were being taken off them--off one after another, so that their master might look at them with the more accuracy and satisfaction. but though lord lufton was thus doing his duty, and going through his work, he was not doing it with his whole heart,--as the head groom perceived very well. he was fretful about the nags, and seemed anxious to get them out of his sight as soon as he had made a decent pretext of looking at them. "how are you, lufton?" said robarts, coming forward. "they told me that you were down, and so i came across at once." "yes; i only got here this morning, and should have been over with you directly. i am going to norway for six weeks or so, and it seems that the fish are so early this year, that we must start at once. i have a matter on which i want to speak to you before i leave; and, indeed, it was that which brought me down more than anything else." there was something hurried and not altogether easy about his manner as he spoke, which struck robarts, and made him think that this promised matter to be spoken of would not be agreeable in discussion. he did not know whether lord lufton might not again be mixed up with tozer and the bills. "you will dine with us to-day," he said, "if, as i suppose, you are all alone." "yes, i am all alone." "then you'll come?" "well, i don't quite know. no, i don't think i can go over to dinner. don't look so disgusted. i'll explain it all to you just now." what could there be in the wind; and how was it possible that tozer's bill should make it inexpedient for lord lufton to dine at the parsonage? robarts, however, said nothing further about it at the moment, but turned off to look at the horses. "they are an uncommonly nice set of animals," said he. "well, yes; i don't know. when a man has four or five horses to look at, somehow or other he never has one fit to go. that chestnut mare is a picture, now that nobody wants her; but she wasn't able to carry me well to hounds a single day last winter. take them in, pounce; that'll do." "won't your lordship run your eye over the old black 'oss?" said pounce, the head groom, in a melancholy tone; "he's as fine, sir--as fine as a stag." "to tell you the truth, i think they're too fine; but that'll do; take them in. and now, mark, if you're at leisure, we'll take a turn round the place." mark, of course, was at leisure, and so they started on their walk. "you're too difficult to please about your stable," robarts began. "never mind the stable now," said lord lufton. "the truth is, i am not thinking about it. mark," he then said, very abruptly, "i want you to be frank with me. has your sister ever spoken to you about me?" "my sister; lucy?" "yes; your sister lucy." "no, never; at least nothing especial; nothing that i can remember at this moment." "nor your wife?" "spoken about you!--fanny? of course she has, in an ordinary way. it would be impossible that she should not. but what do you mean?" "have either of them told you that i made an offer to your sister?" "that you made an offer to lucy?" "yes, that i made an offer to lucy." "no; nobody has told me so. i have never dreamed of such a thing; nor, as far as i believe, have they. if anybody has spread such a report, or said that either of them have hinted at such a thing, it is a base lie. good heavens! lufton, for what do you take them?" "but i did," said his lordship. "did what?" said the parson. "i did make your sister an offer." "you made lucy an offer of marriage!" "yes, i did;--in as plain language as a gentleman could use to a lady." "and what answer did she make?" "she refused me. and now, mark, i have come down here with the express purpose of making that offer again. nothing could be more decided than your sister's answer. it struck me as being almost uncourteously decided. but still it is possible that circumstances may have weighed with her, which ought not to weigh with her. if her love be not given to any one else, i may still have a chance of it. it's the old story of faint heart, you know: at any rate, i mean to try my luck again; and thinking over it with deliberate purpose, i have come to the conclusion that i ought to tell you before i see her." lord lufton in love with lucy! as these words repeated themselves over and over again within mark robarts's mind, his mind added to them notes of surprise without end. how had it possibly come about,--and why? in his estimation his sister lucy was a very simple girl--not plain indeed, but by no means beautiful; certainly not stupid, but by no means brilliant. and then, he would have said, that of all men whom he knew, lord lufton would have been the last to fall in love with such a girl as his sister. and now, what was he to say or do? what views was he bound to hold? in what direction should he act? there was lady lufton on the one side, to whom he owed everything. how would life be possible to him in that parsonage--within a few yards of her elbow--if he consented to receive lord lufton as the acknowledged suitor of his sister? it would be a great match for lucy, doubtless; but-- indeed, he could not bring himself to believe that lucy could in truth become the absolute reigning queen of framley court. "do you think that fanny knows anything of all this?" he said, after a moment or two. "i cannot possibly tell. if she does it is not with my knowledge. i should have thought that you could best answer that." "i cannot answer it at all," said mark. "i, at least, have had no remotest idea of such a thing." "your ideas of it now need not be at all remote," said lord lufton, with a faint smile; "and you may know it as a fact. i did make her an offer of marriage; i was refused; i am going to repeat it; and i am now taking you into my confidence, in order that, as her brother, and as my friend, you may give me such assistance as you can." they then walked on in silence for some yards, after which lord lufton added: "and now i'll dine with you to-day if you wish it." mr. robarts did not know what to say; he could not bethink himself what answer duty required of him. he had no right to interfere between his sister and such a marriage, if she herself should wish it; but still there was something terrible in the thought of it! he had a vague conception that it must come to evil; that the project was a dangerous one; and that it could not finally result happily for any of them. what would lady lufton say? that undoubtedly was the chief source of his dismay. "have you spoken to your mother about this?" he said. "my mother? no; why speak to her till i know my fate? a man does not like to speak much of such matters if there be a probability of his being rejected. i tell you because i do not like to make my way into your house under a false pretence." "but what would lady lufton say?" "i think it probable that she would be displeased on the first hearing it; that in four-and-twenty hours she would be reconciled; and that after a week or so lucy would be her dearest favourite and the prime minister of all her machinations. you don't know my mother as well as i do. she would give her head off her shoulders to do me a pleasure." "and for that reason," said mark robarts, "you ought, if possible, to do her pleasure." "i cannot absolutely marry a wife of her choosing, if you mean that," said lord lufton. they went on walking about the garden for an hour, but they hardly got any farther than the point to which we have now brought them. mark robarts could not make up his mind on the spur of the moment; nor, as he said more than once to lord lufton, could he be at all sure that lucy would in any way be guided by him. it was, therefore, at last settled between them that lord lufton should come to the parsonage immediately after breakfast on the following morning. it was agreed also that the dinner had better not come off, and robarts promised that he would, if possible, have determined by the morning as to what advice he would give his sister. he went direct home to the parsonage from framley court, feeling that he was altogether in the dark till he should have consulted his wife. how would he feel if lucy were to become lady lufton? and how would he look lady lufton in the face in telling her that such was to be his sister's destiny? on returning home he immediately found his wife, and had not been closeted with her five minutes before he knew, at any rate, all that she knew. "and you mean to say that she does love him?" said mark. "indeed she does; and is it not natural that she should? when i saw them so much together i feared that she would. but i never thought that he would care for her." even fanny did not as yet give lucy credit for half her attractiveness. after an hour's talking the interview between the husband and wife ended in a message to lucy, begging her to join them both in the book-room. "aunt lucy," said a chubby little darling, who was taken up into his aunt's arms as he spoke, "papa and mamma 'ant 'oo in te tuddy, and i musn't go wis 'oo." lucy, as she kissed the boy and pressed his face against her own, felt that her blood was running quick to her heart. "musn't 'oo go wis me, my own one?" she said, as she put her playfellow down; but she played with the child only because she did not wish to betray even to him that she was hardly mistress of herself. she knew that lord lufton was at framley; she knew that her brother had been to him; she knew that a proposal had been made that he should come there that day to dinner. must it not therefore be the case that this call to a meeting in the study had arisen out of lord lufton's arrival at framley? and yet, how could it have done so? had fanny betrayed her in order to prevent the dinner invitation? it could not be possible that lord lufton himself should have spoken on the subject! and then she again stooped to kiss the child, rubbed her hands across her forehead to smooth her hair, and erase, if that might be possible, the look of care which she wore, and then descended slowly to her brother's sitting-room. her hand paused for a second on the door ere she opened it, but she had resolved that, come what might, she would be brave. she pushed it open and walked in with a bold front, with eyes wide open, and a slow step. "frank says that you want me," she said. mr. robarts and fanny were both standing up by the fireplace, and each waited a second for the other to speak when lucy entered the room; and then fanny began,-- "lord lufton is here, lucy." "here! where? at the parsonage?" "no, not at the parsonage; but over at framley court," said mark. "and he promises to call here after breakfast to-morrow," said fanny. and then again there was a pause. mrs. robarts hardly dared to look lucy in the face. she had not betrayed her trust, seeing that the secret had been told to mark, not by her, but by lord lufton; but she could not but feel that lucy would think that she had betrayed it. "very well," said lucy, trying to smile; "i have no objection in life." "but, lucy, dear,"--and now mrs. robarts put her arm round her sister-in-law's waist,--"he is coming here especially to see you." "oh; that makes a difference. i am afraid that i shall be--engaged." "he has told everything to mark," said mrs. robarts. lucy now felt that her bravery was almost deserting her. she hardly knew which way to look or how to stand. had fanny told everything also? there was so much that fanny knew that lord lufton could not have known. but, in truth, fanny had told all--the whole story of lucy's love, and had described the reasons which had induced her to reject her suitor; and had done so in words which, had lord lufton heard them, would have made him twice as passionate in his love. and then it certainly did occur to lucy to think why lord lufton should have come to framley and told all this history to her brother. she attempted for a moment to make herself believe that she was angry with him for doing so. but she was not angry. she had not time to argue much about it, but there came upon her a gratified sensation of having been remembered, and thought of, and--loved. must it not be so? could it be possible that he himself would have told this tale to her brother, if he did not still love her? fifty times she had said to herself that his offer had been an affair of the moment, and fifty times she had been unhappy in so saying. but this new coming of his could not be an affair of the moment. she had been the dupe, she had thought, of an absurd passion on her own part; but now--how was it now? she did not bring herself to think that she should ever be lady lufton. she had still, in some perversely obstinate manner, made up her mind against that result. but yet, nevertheless, it did in some unaccountable manner satisfy her to feel that lord lufton had himself come down to framley and himself told this story. "he has told everything to mark," said mrs. robarts; and then again there was a pause for a moment, during which these thoughts passed through lucy's mind. "yes," said mark, "he has told me all, and he is coming here to-morrow morning that he may receive an answer from yourself." "what answer?" said lucy, trembling. "nay, dearest; who can say that but yourself?" and her sister-in-law, as she spoke, pressed close against her. "you must say that yourself." mrs. robarts in her long conversation with her husband had pleaded strongly on lucy's behalf, taking, as it were, a part against lady lufton. she had said that if lord lufton persevered in his suit, they at the parsonage could not be justified in robbing lucy of all that she had won for herself, in order to do lady lufton's pleasure. "but she will think," said mark, "that we have plotted and intrigued for this. she will call us ungrateful, and will make lucy's life wretched." to which the wife had answered, that all that must be left in god's hands. they had not plotted or intrigued. lucy, though loving the man in her heart of hearts, had already once refused him, because she would not be thought to have snatched at so great a prize. but if lord lufton loved her so warmly that he had come down there in this manner, on purpose, as he himself had put it, that he might learn his fate, then--so argued mrs. robarts--they two, let their loyalty to lady lufton be ever so strong, could not justify it to their consciences to stand between lucy and her lover. mark had still somewhat demurred to this, suggesting how terrible would be their plight if they should now encourage lord lufton, and if he, after such encouragement, when they should have quarrelled with lady lufton, should allow himself to be led away from his engagement by his mother. to which fanny had answered that justice was justice, and that right was right. everything must be told to lucy, and she must judge for herself. "but i do not know what lord lufton wants," said lucy, with her eyes fixed upon the ground, and now trembling more than ever. "he did come to me, and i did give him an answer." "and is that answer to be final?" said mark,--somewhat cruelly, for lucy had not yet been told that her lover had made any repetition of his proposal. fanny, however, determined that no injustice should be done, and therefore she at last continued the story. "we know that you did give him an answer, dearest; but gentlemen sometimes will not put up with one answer on such a subject. lord lufton has declared to mark that he means to ask again. he has come down here on purpose to do so." "and lady lufton--" said lucy, speaking hardly above a whisper, and still hiding her face as she leaned against her sister's shoulder. "lord lufton has not spoken to his mother about it," said mark; and it immediately became clear to lucy, from the tone of her brother's voice, that he, at least, would not be pleased, should she accept her lover's vow. "you must decide out of your own heart, dear," said fanny, generously. "mark and i know how well you have behaved, for i have told him everything." lucy shuddered and leaned closer against her sister as this was said to her. "i had no alternative, dearest, but to tell him. it was best so; was it not? but nothing has been told to lord lufton. mark would not let him come here to-day, because it would have flurried you, and he wished to give you time to think. but you can see him to-morrow morning,--can you not? and then answer him." lucy now stood perfectly silent, feeling that she dearly loved her sister-in-law for her sisterly kindness--for that sisterly wish to promote a sister's love; but still there was in her mind a strong resolve not to allow lord lufton to come there under the idea that he would be received as a favoured lover. her love was powerful, but so also was her pride; and she could not bring herself to bear the scorn which would lay in lady lufton's eyes. "his mother will despise me, and then he will despise me too," she said to herself; and with a strong gulp of disappointed love and ambition she determined to persist. "shall we leave you now, dear; and speak of it again to-morrow morning, before he comes?" said fanny. "that will be the best," said mark. "turn it in your mind every way to-night. think of it when you have said your prayers--and, lucy, come here to me;"--then, taking her in his arms, he kissed her with a tenderness that was not customary with him towards her. "it is fair," said he, "that i should tell you this: that i have perfect confidence in your judgment and feeling; and that i will stand by you as your brother in whatever decision you may come to. fanny and i both think that you have behaved excellently, and are both of us sure that you will do what is best. whatever you do i will stick to you;--and so will fanny." "dearest, dearest mark!" "and now we will say nothing more about it till to-morrow morning," said fanny. but lucy felt that this saying nothing more about it till to-morrow morning would be tantamount to an acceptance on her part of lord lufton's offer. mrs. robarts knew, and mr. robarts also now knew, the secret of her heart; and if, such being the case, she allowed lord lufton to come there with the acknowledged purpose of pleading his own suit, it would be impossible for her not to yield. if she were resolved that she would not yield, now was the time for her to stand her ground and make her fight. "do not go, fanny; at least not quite yet," she said. "well, dear?" "i want you to stay while i tell mark. he must not let lord lufton come here to-morrow." "not let him!" said mrs. robarts. mr. robarts said nothing, but he felt that his sister was rising in his esteem from minute to minute. "no; mark must bid him not come. he will not wish to pain me when it can do no good. look here, mark;" and she walked over to her brother, and put both her hands upon his arm. "i do love lord lufton. i had no such meaning or thought when i first knew him. but i do love him--i love him dearly;--almost as well as fanny loves you, i suppose. you may tell him so if you think proper--nay, you must tell him so, or he will not understand me. but tell him this, as coming from me: that i will never marry him, unless his mother asks me." "she will not do that, i fear," said mark, sorrowfully. "no; i suppose not," said lucy, now regaining all her courage. "if i thought it probable that she should wish me to be her daughter-in-law, it would not be necessary that i should make such a stipulation. it is because she will not wish it; because she would regard me as unfit to--to--to mate with her son. she would hate me, and scorn me; and then he would begin to scorn me, and perhaps would cease to love me. i could not bear her eye upon me, if she thought that i had injured her son. mark, you will go to him now; will you not? and explain this to him;--as much of it as is necessary. tell him, that if his mother asks me i will--consent. but that as i know that she never will, he is to look upon all that he has said as forgotten. with me it shall be the same as though it were forgotten." such was her verdict, and so confident were they both of her firmness--of her obstinacy mark would have called it on any other occasion,--that they, neither of them, sought to make her alter it. "you will go to him now,--this afternoon; will you not?" she said; and mark promised that he would. he could not but feel that he himself was greatly relieved. lady lufton might probably hear that her son had been fool enough to fall in love with the parson's sister, but under existing circumstances she could not consider herself aggrieved either by the parson or by his sister. lucy was behaving well, and mark was proud of her. lucy was behaving with fierce spirit, and fanny was grieving for her. "i'd rather be by myself till dinner-time," said lucy, as mrs. robarts prepared to go with her out of the room. "dear fanny, don't look unhappy; there's nothing to make us unhappy. i told you i should want goat's milk, and that will be all." robarts, after sitting for an hour with his wife, did return again to framley court; and, after a considerable search, found lord lufton returning home to a late dinner. "unless my mother asks her," said he, when the story had been told him. "that is nonsense. surely you told her that such is not the way of the world." robarts endeavoured to explain to him that lucy could not endure to think that her husband's mother should look on her with disfavour. "does she think that my mother dislikes her--her specially?" asked lord lufton. no; robarts could not suppose that that was the case; but lady lufton might probably think that a marriage with a clergyman's sister would be a mésalliance. "that is out of the question," said lord lufton; "as she has especially wanted me to marry a clergyman's daughter for some time past. but, mark, it is absurd talking about my mother. a man in these days is not to marry as his mother bids him." mark could only assure him, in answer to all this, that lucy was very firm in what she was doing, that she had quite made up her mind, and that she altogether absolved lord lufton from any necessity to speak to his mother, if he did not think well of doing so. but all this was to very little purpose. "she does love me then?" said lord lufton. "well," said mark, "i will not say whether she does or does not. i can only repeat her own message. she cannot accept you, unless she does so at your mother's request." and having said that again, he took his leave, and went back to the parsonage. poor lucy, having finished her interview with so much dignity, having fully satisfied her brother, and declined any immediate consolation from her sister-in-law, betook herself to her own bed-room. she had to think over what she had said and done, and it was necessary that she should be alone to do so. it might be that, when she came to reconsider the matter, she would not be quite so well satisfied as was her brother. her grandeur of demeanour and slow propriety of carriage lasted her till she was well into her own room. there are animals who, when they are ailing in any way, contrive to hide themselves, ashamed, as it were, that the weakness of their suffering should be witnessed. indeed, i am not sure whether all dumb animals do not do so more or less; and in this respect lucy was like a dumb animal. even in her confidences with fanny she made a joke of her own misfortunes, and spoke of her heart ailments with self-ridicule. but now, having walked up the staircase with no hurried step, and having deliberately locked the door, she turned herself round to suffer in silence and solitude--as do the beasts and birds. she sat herself down on a low chair, which stood at the foot of her bed, and, throwing back her head, held her handkerchief across her eyes and forehead, holding it tight in both her hands; and then she began to think. she began to think and also to cry, for the tears came running down from beneath the handkerchief; and low sobs were to be heard,--only that the animal had taken itself off, to suffer in solitude. had she not thrown from her all her chances of happiness? was it possible that he should come to her yet again,--a third time? no; it was not possible. the very mode and pride of this, her second rejection of him, made it impossible. in coming to her determination, and making her avowal, she had been actuated by the knowledge that lady lufton would regard such a marriage with abhorrence. lady lufton would not and could not ask her to condescend to be her son's bride. her chance of happiness, of glory, of ambition, of love, was all gone. she had sacrificed everything, not to virtue, but to pride; and she had sacrificed not only herself, but him. when first he came there--when she had meditated over his first visit--she had hardly given him credit for deep love; but now--there could be no doubt that he loved her now. after his season in london, his days and nights passed with all that was beautiful, he had returned there, to that little country parsonage, that he might again throw himself at her feet. and she--she had refused to see him, though she loved him with all her heart; she had refused to see him, because she was so vile a coward that she could not bear the sour looks of an old woman! "i will come down directly," she said, when fanny at last knocked at the door, begging to be admitted. "i won't open it, love, but i will be with you in ten minutes; i will, indeed." and so she was; not, perhaps, without traces of tears, discernible by the experienced eye of mrs. robarts, but yet with a smooth brow, and voice under her own command. "i wonder whether she really loves him," mark said to his wife that night. "love him!" his wife had answered; "indeed she does; and, mark, do not be led away by the stern quiet of her demeanour. to my thinking she is a girl who might almost die for love." on the next day lord lufton left framley; and started, according to his arrangements, for the norway salmon fishing. chapter xxxii. the goat and compasses. harold smith had been made unhappy by that rumour of a dissolution; but the misfortune to him would be as nothing compared to the severity with which it would fall on mr. sowerby. harold smith might or might not lose his borough, but mr. sowerby would undoubtedly lose his county; and, in losing that, he would lose everything. he felt very certain now that the duke would not support him again, let who would be master of chaldicotes; and as he reflected on these things he found it very hard to keep up his spirits. tom towers, it seems, had known all about it, as he always does. the little remark which had dropped from him at miss dunstable's, made, no doubt, after mature deliberation, and with profound political motives, was the forerunner, only by twelve hours, of a very general report that the giants were going to the country. it was manifest that the giants had not a majority in parliament, generous as had been the promises of support disinterestedly made to them by the gods. this indeed was manifest, and therefore they were going to the country, although they had been deliberately warned by a very prominent scion of olympus that if they did do so that disinterested support must be withdrawn. this threat did not seem to weigh much, and by two o'clock on the day following miss dunstable's party, the fiat was presumed to have gone forth. the rumour had begun with tom towers, but by that time it had reached buggins at the petty bag office. "it won't make no difference to hus, sir; will it, mr. robarts?" said buggins, as he leaned respectfully against the wall near the door, in the room of the private secretary at that establishment. a good deal of conversation, miscellaneous, special, and political, went on between young robarts and buggins in the course of the day; as was natural, seeing that they were thrown in these evil times very much upon each other. the lord petty bag of the present ministry was not such a one as harold smith. he was a giant indifferent to his private notes, and careless as to the duties even of patronage; he rarely visited the office, and as there were no other clerks in the establishment--owing to a root and branch reform carried out in the short reign of harold smith--to whom could young robarts talk, if not to buggins? "no; i suppose not," said robarts, as he completed on his blotting-paper an elaborate picture of a turk seated on his divan. "'cause, you see, sir, we're in the upper 'ouse, now;--as i always thinks we hought to be. i don't think it ain't constitutional for the petty bag to be in the commons, mr. robarts. hany ways, it never usen't." "they're changing all those sort of things now-a-days, buggins," said robarts, giving the final touch to the turk's smoke. "well; i'll tell you what it is, mr. robarts: i think i'll go. i can't stand all these changes. i'm turned of sixty now, and don't want any 'stifflicates. i think i'll take my pension and walk. the hoffice ain't the same place at all since it come down among the commons." and then buggins retired sighing, to console himself with a pot of porter behind a large open office ledger, set up on end on a small table in the little lobby outside the private secretary's room. buggins sighed again as he saw that the date made visible in the open book was almost as old as his own appointment; for such a book as this lasted long in the petty bag office. a peer of high degree had been lord petty bag in those days; one whom a messenger's heart could respect with infinite veneration, as he made his unaccustomed visits to the office with much solemnity--perhaps four times during the season. the lord petty bag then was highly regarded by his staff, and his coming among them was talked about for some hours previously and for some days afterwards; but harold smith had bustled in and out like the managing clerk in a manchester house. "the service is going to the dogs," said buggins to himself, as he put down the porter pot and looked up over the book at a gentleman who presented himself at the door. "mr. robarts in his room?" said buggins, repeating the gentleman's words. "yes, mr. sowerby; you'll find him there; first door to the left." and then, remembering that the visitor was a county member--a position which buggins regarded as next to that of a peer--he got up, and, opening the private secretary's door, ushered in the visitor. young robarts and mr. sowerby had, of course, become acquainted in the days of harold smith's reign. during that short time the member for east barset had on most days dropped in at the petty bag office for a minute or two, finding out what the energetic cabinet minister was doing, chatting on semi-official subjects, and teaching the private secretary to laugh at his master. there was nothing, therefore, in his present visit which need appear to be singular, or which required any immediate special explanation. he sat himself down in his ordinary way, and began to speak of the subject of the day. "we're all to go," said sowerby. "so i hear," said the private secretary. "it will give me no trouble, for, as the respectable buggins says, we're in the upper house now." "what a delightful time those lucky dogs of lords do have!" said sowerby. "no constituents, no turning out, no fighting, no necessity for political opinions,--and, as a rule, no such opinions at all!" "i suppose you're tolerably safe in east barsetshire?" said robarts. "the duke has it pretty much his own way there." "yes; the duke does have it pretty much his own way. by-the-by, where is your brother?" "at home," said robarts; "at least i presume so." "at framley or at barchester? i believe he was in residence at barchester not long since." "he's at framley now, i know. i got a letter only yesterday from his wife, with a commission. he was there, and lord lufton had just left." "yes; lufton was down. he started for norway this morning. i want to see your brother. you have not heard from him yourself, have you?" "no; not lately. mark is a bad correspondent. he would not do at all for a private secretary." "at any rate, not to harold smith. but you are sure i should not catch him at barchester?" "send down by telegraph, and he would meet you." "i don't want to do that. a telegraph message makes such a fuss in the country, frightening people's wives, and setting all the horses about the place galloping." "what is it about?" "nothing of any great consequence. i didn't know whether he might have told you. i'll write down by to-night's post, and then he can meet me at barchester to-morrow. or do you write. there's nothing i hate so much as letter-writing;--just tell him that i called, and that i shall be much obliged if he can meet me at the dragon of wantly--say at two to-morrow. i will go down by the express." mark robarts, in talking over this coming money trouble with sowerby, had once mentioned that if it were necessary to take up the bill for a short time he might be able to borrow the money from his brother. so much of the father's legacy still remained in the hands of the private secretary as would enable him to produce the amount of the latter bill, and there could be no doubt that he would lend it if asked. mr. sowerby's visit to the petty bag office had been caused by a desire to learn whether any such request had been made,--and also by a half-formed resolution to make the request himself if he should find that the clergyman had not done so. it seemed to him to be a pity that such a sum should be lying about, as it were, within reach, and that he should not stoop to put his hands upon it. such abstinence would be so contrary to all the practice of his life that it was as difficult to him as it is for a sportsman to let pass a cock-pheasant. but yet something like remorse touched his heart as he sat there balancing himself on his chair in the private secretary's room, and looking at the young man's open face. "yes; i'll write to him," said john robarts; "but he hasn't said anything to me about anything particular." "hasn't he? it does not much signify. i only mentioned it because i thought i understood him to say that he would." and then mr. sowerby went on swinging himself. how was it that he felt so averse to mention that little sum of £ to a young man like john robarts, a fellow without wife or children or calls on him of any sort, who would not even be injured by the loss of the money, seeing that he had an ample salary on which to live? he wondered at his own weakness. the want of the money was urgent on him in the extreme. he had reasons for supposing that mark would find it very difficult to renew the bills, but he, sowerby, could stop their presentation if he could get this money at once into his own hands. "can i do anything for you?" said the innocent lamb, offering his throat to the butcher. but some unwonted feeling numbed the butcher's fingers, and blunted his knife. he sat still for half a minute after the question, and then jumping from his seat, declined the offer. "no, no; nothing, thank you. only write to mark, and say that i shall be there to-morrow," and then, taking his hat, he hurried out of the office. "what an ass i am," he said to himself as he went: "as if it were of any use now to be particular!" he then got into a cab and had himself driven half way up portman street towards the new road, and walking from thence a few hundred yards down a cross-street he came to a public-house. it was called the "goat and compasses,"--a very meaningless name, one would say; but the house boasted of being a place of public entertainment very long established on that site, having been a tavern out in the country in the days of cromwell. at that time the pious landlord, putting up a pious legend for the benefit of his pious customers, had declared that--"god encompasseth us." the "goat and compasses" in these days does quite as well; and, considering the present character of the house, was perhaps less unsuitable than the old legend. "is mr. austen here?" asked mr. sowerby of the man at the bar. "which on 'em? not mr. john; he ain't here. mr. tom is in--the little room on the left-hand side." the man whom mr. sowerby would have preferred to see was the elder brother, john; but as he was not to be found, he did go into the little room. in that room he found--mr. austen, junior, according to one arrangement of nomenclature, and mr. tom tozer according to another. to gentlemen of the legal profession he generally chose to introduce himself as belonging to the respectable family of the austens; but among his intimates he had always been--tozer. mr. sowerby, though he was intimate with the family, did not love the tozers; but he especially hated tom tozer. tom tozer was a bull-necked, beetle-browed fellow, the expression of whose face was eloquent with acknowledged roguery. "i am a rogue," it seemed to say. "i know it; all the world knows it: but you're another. all the world don't know that, but i do. men are all rogues, pretty nigh. some are soft rogues, and some are 'cute rogues. i am a 'cute one; so mind your eye." it was with such words that tom tozer's face spoke out; and though a thorough liar in his heart, he was not a liar in his face. "well, tozer," said mr. sowerby, absolutely shaking hands with the dirty miscreant, "i wanted to see your brother." "john ain't here, and ain't like; but it's all as one." "yes, yes; i suppose it is. i know you two hunt in couples." "i don't know what you mean about hunting, mr. sowerby. you gents 'as all the hunting, and we poor folk 'as all the work. i hope you're going to make up this trifle of money we're out of so long." "it's about that i've called. i don't know what you call long, tozer; but the last bill was only dated in february." "it's overdue; ain't it?" "oh, yes; it's overdue. there's no doubt about that." "well; when a bit of paper is come round, the next thing is to take it up. them's my ideas. and to tell you the truth, mr. sowerby, we don't think as 'ow you've been treating us just on the square lately. in that matter of lord lufton's you was down on us uncommon." "you know i couldn't help myself." "well; and we can't help ourselves now. that's where it is, mr. sowerby. lord love you; we know what's what, we do. and so, the fact is we're uncommon low as to the ready just at present, and we must have them few hundred pounds. we must have them at once, or we must sell up that clerical gent. i'm dashed if it ain't as hard to get money from a parson as it is to take a bone from a dog. 'e's 'ad 'is account, no doubt, and why don't 'e pay?" mr. sowerby had called with the intention of explaining that he was about to proceed to barchester on the following day with the express view of "making arrangements" about this bill; and had he seen john tozer, john would have been compelled to accord to him some little extension of time. both tom and john knew this; and, therefore, john--the soft-hearted one--kept out of the way. there was no danger that tom would be weak; and, after some half-hour of parley, he was again left by mr. sowerby, without having evinced any symptom of weakness. "it's the dibs as we want, mr. sowerby; that's all," were the last words which he spoke as the member of parliament left the room. mr. sowerby then got into another cab, and had himself driven to his sister's house. it is a remarkable thing with reference to men who are distressed for money--distressed as was now the case with mr. sowerby--that they never seem at a loss for small sums, or deny themselves those luxuries which small sums purchase. cabs, dinners, wine, theatres, and new gloves are always at the command of men who are drowned in pecuniary embarrassments, whereas those who don't owe a shilling are so frequently obliged to go without them! it would seem that there is no gratification so costly as that of keeping out of debt. but then it is only fair that, if a man has a hobby, he should pay for it. any one else would have saved his shilling, as mrs. harold smith's house was only just across oxford street, in the neighbourhood of hanover square; but mr. sowerby never thought of this. he had never saved a shilling in his life, and it did not occur to him to begin now. he had sent word to her to remain at home for him, and he now found her waiting. "harriet," said he, throwing himself back into an easy chair, "the game is pretty well up at last." "nonsense," said she. "the game is not up at all if you have the spirit to carry it on." "i can only say that i got a formal notice this morning from the duke's lawyer, saying that he meant to foreclose at once;--not from fothergill, but from those people in south audley street." "you expected that," said his sister. "i don't see how that makes it any better; besides, i am not quite sure that i did expect it; at any rate i did not feel certain. there is no doubt now." "it is better that there should be no doubt. it is much better that you should know on what ground you have to stand." "i shall soon have no ground to stand on, none at least of my own,--not an acre," said the unhappy man, with great bitterness in his tone. "you can't in reality be poorer now than you were last year. you have not spent anything to speak of. there can be no doubt that chaldicotes will be ample to pay all you owe the duke." "it's as much as it will; and what am i to do then? i almost think more of the seat than i do of chaldicotes." "you know what i advise," said mrs. smith. "ask miss dunstable to advance the money on the same security which the duke holds. she will be as safe then as he is now. and if you can arrange that, stand for the county against him; perhaps you may be beaten." "i shouldn't have a chance." "but it would show that you are not a creature in the duke's hands. that's my advice," said mrs. smith, with much spirit; "and if you wish, i'll broach it to miss dunstable, and ask her to get her lawyer to look into it." "if i had done this before i had run my head into that other absurdity!" "don't fret yourself about that; she will lose nothing by such an investment, and therefore you are not asking any favour of her. besides, did she not make the offer? and she is just the woman to do this for you now, because she refused to do that other thing for you yesterday. you understand most things, nathaniel; but i am not sure that you understand women; not, at any rate, such a woman as her." it went against the grain with mr. sowerby, this seeking of pecuniary assistance from the very woman whose hand he had attempted to gain about a fortnight since; but he allowed his sister to prevail. what could any man do in such straits that would not go against the grain? at the present moment he felt in his mind an infinite hatred against the duke, mr. fothergill, gumption and gagebee, and all the tribes of gatherum castle and south audley street; they wanted to rob him of that which had belonged to the sowerbys before the name of omnium had been heard of in the county, or in england! the great leviathan of the deep was anxious to swallow him up as a prey! he was to be swallowed up, and made away with, and put out of sight, without a pang of remorse! any measure which could now present itself as the means of staving off so evil a day would be acceptable; and therefore he gave his sister the commission of making this second proposal to miss dunstable. in cursing the duke--for he did curse the duke lustily--it hardly occurred to him to think that, after all, the duke only asked for his own. as for mrs. harold smith, whatever may be the view taken of her general character as a wife and a member of society, it must be admitted that as a sister she had virtues. chapter xxxiii. consolation. on the next day, at two o'clock punctually, mark robarts was at the "dragon of wantly," walking up and down the very room in which the party had breakfasted after harold smith's lecture, and waiting for the arrival of mr. sowerby. he had been very well able to divine what was the business on which his friend wished to see him, and he had been rather glad than otherwise to receive the summons. judging of his friend's character by what he had hitherto seen, he thought that mr. sowerby would have kept out of the way, unless he had it in his power to make some provision for these terrible bills. so he walked up and down the dingy room, impatient for the expected arrival, and thought himself wickedly ill-used in that mr. sowerby was not there when the clock struck a quarter to three. but when the clock struck three, mr. sowerby was there, and mark robarts's hopes were nearly at an end. "do you mean that they will demand nine hundred pounds?" said robarts, standing up and glaring angrily at the member of parliament. "i fear that they will," said sowerby. "i think it is best to tell you the worst, in order that we may see what can be done." "i can do nothing, and will do nothing," said robarts. "they may do what they choose--what the law allows them." and then he thought of fanny and his nursery, and lucy refusing in her pride lord lufton's offer, and he turned away his face that the hard man of the world before him might not see the tear gathering in his eye. "but, mark, my dear fellow--" said sowerby, trying to have recourse to the power of his cajoling voice. robarts, however, would not listen. "mr. sowerby," said he, with an attempt at calmness which betrayed itself at every syllable, "it seems to me that you have robbed me. that i have been a fool, and worse than a fool, i know well; but--but--but i thought that your position in the world would guarantee me from such treatment as this." mr. sowerby was by no means without feeling, and the words which he now heard cut him very deeply--the more so because it was impossible that he should answer them with an attempt at indignation. he had robbed his friend, and, with all his wit, knew no words at the present moment sufficiently witty to make it seem that he had not done so. "robarts," said he, "you may say what you like to me now; i shall not resent it." "who would care for your resentment?" said the clergyman, turning on him with ferocity. "the resentment of a gentleman is terrible to a gentleman; and the resentment of one just man is terrible to another. your resentment!"--and then he walked twice the length of the room, leaving sowerby dumb in his seat. "i wonder whether you ever thought of my wife and children when you were plotting this ruin for me!" and then again he walked the room. "i suppose you will be calm enough presently to speak of this with some attempt to make a settlement?" "no; i will make no such attempt. these friends of yours, you tell me, have a claim on me for nine hundred pounds, of which they demand immediate payment. you shall be asked in a court of law how much of that money i have handled. you know that i have never touched--have never wanted to touch--one shilling. i will make no attempt at any settlement. my person is here, and there is my house. let them do their worst." "but, mark--" "call me by my name, sir, and drop that affectation of regard. what an ass i have been to be so cozened by a sharper!" sowerby had by no means expected this. he had always known that robarts possessed what he, sowerby, would have called the spirit of a gentleman. he had regarded him as a bold, open, generous fellow, able to take his own part when called on to do so, and by no means disinclined to speak his own mind; but he had not expected from him such a torrent of indignation, or thought that he was capable of such a depth of anger. "if you use such language as that, robarts, i can only leave you." "you are welcome. go. you tell me that you are the messenger of these men who intend to work nine hundred pounds out of me. you have done your part in the plot, and have now brought their message. it seems to me that you had better go back to them. as for me, i want my time to prepare my wife for the destiny before her." "robarts, you will be sorry some day for the cruelty of your words." "i wonder whether you will ever be sorry for the cruelty of your doings, or whether these things are really a joke to you." "i am at this moment a ruined man," said sowerby. "everything is going from me,--my place in the world, the estate of my family, my father's house, my seat in parliament, the power of living among my countrymen, or, indeed, of living anywhere;--but all this does not oppress me now so much as the misery which i have brought upon you." and then sowerby also turned away his face, and wiped from his eyes tears which were not artificial. robarts was still walking up and down the room, but it was not possible for him to continue his reproaches after this. this is always the case. let a man endure to heap contumely on his own head, and he will silence the contumely of others--for the moment. sowerby, without meditating on the matter, had had some inkling of this, and immediately saw that there was at last an opening for conversation. "you are unjust to me," said he, "in supposing that i have now no wish to save you. it is solely in the hope of doing so that i have come here." "and what is your hope? that i should accept another brace of bills, i suppose." "not a brace; but one renewed bill for--" "look here, mr. sowerby. on no earthly consideration that can be put before me will i again sign my name to any bill in the guise of an acceptance. i have been very weak, and am ashamed of my weakness; but so much strength as that, i hope, is left to me. i have been very wicked, and am ashamed of my wickedness; but so much right principle as that, i hope, remains. i will put my name to no other bill; not for you, not even for myself." "but, robarts, under your present circumstances that will be madness." "then i will be mad." "have you seen forrest? if you will speak to him i think you will find that everything can be accommodated." "i already owe mr. forrest a hundred and fifty pounds, which i obtained from him when you pressed me for the price of that horse, and i will not increase the debt. what a fool i was again there. perhaps you do not remember that, when i agreed to buy the horse, the price was to be my contribution to the liquidation of these bills." "i do remember it; but i will tell you how that was." "it does not signify. it has been all of a piece." "but listen to me. i think you would feel for me if you knew all that i have gone through. i pledge you my solemn word that i had no intention of asking you for the money when you took the horse;--indeed i had not. but you remember that affair of lufton's, when he came to you at your hotel in london and was so angry about an outstanding bill." "i know that he was very unreasonable as far as i was concerned." "he was so; but that makes no difference. he was resolved, in his rage, to expose the whole affair; and i saw that, if he did so, it would be most injurious to you, seeing that you had just accepted your stall at barchester." here the poor prebendary winced terribly. "i moved heaven and earth to get up that bill. those vultures stuck to their prey when they found the value which i attached to it, and i was forced to raise above a hundred pounds at the moment to obtain possession of it, although every shilling absolutely due on it had long since been paid. never in my life did i wish to get money as i did to raise that hundred and twenty pounds; and as i hope for mercy in my last moments, i did that for your sake. lufton could not have injured me in that matter." "but you told him that you got it for twenty-five pounds." "yes, i told him so. i was obliged to tell him that, or i should have apparently condemned myself by showing how anxious i was to get it. and you know i could not have explained all this before him and you. you would have thrown up the stall in disgust." would that he had! that was mark's wish now,--his futile wish. in what a slough of despond had he come to wallow in consequence of his folly on that night at gatherum castle! he had then done a silly thing, and was he now to rue it by almost total ruin? he was sickened also with all these lies. his very soul was dismayed by the dirt through which he was forced to wade. he had become unconsciously connected with the lowest dregs of mankind, and would have to see his name mingled with theirs in the daily newspapers. and for what had he done this? why had he thus filed his mind and made himself a disgrace to his cloth? in order that he might befriend such a one as mr. sowerby! "well," continued sowerby, "i did get the money, but you would hardly believe the rigour of the pledge which was exacted from me for repayment. i got it from harold smith, and never, in my worst straits, will i again look to him for assistance. i borrowed it only for a fortnight; and in order that i might repay it, i was obliged to ask you for the price of the horse. mark, it was on your behalf that i did all this,--indeed it was." "and now i am to repay you for your kindness by the loss of all that i have in the world." "if you will put the affair into the hands of mr. forrest, nothing need be touched,--not a hair of a horse's back; no, not though you should be obliged to pay the whole amount yourself, gradually out of your income. you must execute a series of bills, falling due quarterly, and then--" "i will execute no bill, i will put my name to no paper in the matter; as to that my mind is fully made up. they may come and do their worst." mr. sowerby persevered for a long time, but he was quite unable to move the parson from this position. he would do nothing towards making what mr. sowerby called an arrangement, but persisted that he would remain at home at framley, and that any one who had a claim upon him might take legal steps. "i shall do nothing myself," he said; "but if proceedings against me be taken, i shall prove that i have never had a shilling of the money." and in this resolution he quitted the dragon of wantly. mr. sowerby at one time said a word as to the expediency of borrowing that sum of money from john robarts; but as to this mark would say nothing. mr. sowerby was not the friend with whom he now intended to hold consultation in such matters. "i am not at present prepared," he said, "to declare what i may do; i must first see what steps others take." and then he took his hat and went off; and mounting his horse in the yard of the dragon of wantly--that horse which he had now so many reasons to dislike--he slowly rode back home. many thoughts passed through his mind during that ride, but only one resolution obtained for itself a fixture there. he must now tell his wife everything. he would not be so cruel as to let it remain untold until a bailiff were at the door, ready to walk him off to the county gaol, or until the bed on which they slept was to be sold from under them. yes, he would tell her everything,--immediately, before his resolution could again have faded away. he got off his horse in the yard, and seeing his wife's maid at the kitchen door, desired her to beg her mistress to come to him in the book-room. he would not allow one half-hour to pass towards the waning of his purpose. if it be ordained that a man shall drown, had he not better drown and have done with it? mrs. robarts came to him in his room, reaching him in time to touch his arm as he entered it. "mary says you want me. i have been gardening, and she caught me just as i came in." "yes, fanny, i do want you. sit down for a moment." and walking across the room, he placed his whip in its proper place. "oh, mark, is there anything the matter?" "yes, dearest; yes. sit down, fanny; i can talk to you better if you will sit." but she, poor lady, did not wish to sit. he had hinted at some misfortune, and therefore she felt a longing to stand by him and cling to him. "well, there; i will if i must; but, mark, do not frighten me. why is your face so very wretched?" "fanny, i have done very wrong," he said. "i have been very foolish. i fear that i have brought upon you great sorrow and trouble." and then he leaned his head upon his hand and turned his face away from her. "oh, mark, dearest mark, my own mark! what is it?" and then she was quickly up from her chair, and went down on her knees before him. "do not turn from me. tell me, mark! tell me, that we may share it." "yes, fanny, i must tell you now; but i hardly know what you will think of me when you have heard it." "i will think that you are my own husband, mark; i will think that--that chiefly, whatever it may be." and then she caressed his knees, and looked up in his face, and, getting hold of one of his hands, pressed it between her own. "even if you have been foolish, who should forgive you if i cannot?" and then he told it her all, beginning from that evening when mr. sowerby had got him into his bedroom, and going on gradually, now about the bills, and now about the horses, till his poor wife was utterly lost in the complexity of the accounts. she could by no means follow him in the details of his story; nor could she quite sympathize with him in his indignation against mr. sowerby, seeing that she did not comprehend at all the nature of the renewing of a bill. the only part to her of importance in the matter was the amount of money which her husband would be called upon to pay;--that and her strong hope, which was already a conviction, that he would never again incur such debts. "and how much is it, dearest, altogether?" "these men claim nine hundred pounds of me." "oh, dear! that is a terrible sum." "and then there is the hundred and fifty which i have borrowed from the bank--the price of the horse, you know; and there are some other debts,--not a great deal, i think; but people will now look for every shilling that is due to them. if i have to pay it all, it will be twelve or thirteen hundred pounds." "that will be as much as a year's income, mark; even with the stall." that was the only word of reproach she said,--if that could be called a reproach. "yes," he said; "and it is claimed by men who will have no pity in exacting it at any sacrifice, if they have the power. and to think that i should have incurred all this debt without having received anything for it. oh, fanny, what will you think of me!" but she swore to him that she would think nothing of it;--that she would never bear it in her mind against him,--that it could have no effect in lessening her trust in him. was he not her husband? she was so glad she knew it, that she might comfort him. and she did comfort him, making the weight seem lighter and lighter on his shoulders as he talked of it. and such weights do thus become lighter. a burden that will crush a single pair of shoulders will, when equally divided--when shared by two, each of whom is willing to take the heavier part--become light as a feather. is not that sharing of the mind's burdens one of the chief purposes for which a man wants a wife? for there is no folly so great as keeping one's sorrows hidden. and this wife cheerfully, gladly, thankfully took her share. to endure with her lord all her lord's troubles was easy to her; it was the work to which she had pledged herself. but to have thought that her lord had troubles not communicated to her--that would have been to her the one thing not to be borne. and then they discussed their plans;--what mode of escape they might have out of this terrible money difficulty. like a true woman, mrs. robarts proposed at once to abandon all superfluities. they would sell all their horses; they would not sell their cows, but would sell the butter that came from them; they would sell the pony-carriage, and get rid of the groom. that the footman must go was so much a matter of course, that it was hardly mentioned. but then, as to that house at barchester, the dignified prebendal mansion in the close--might they not be allowed to leave it unoccupied for one year longer,--perhaps to let it? the world of course must know of their misfortune; but if that misfortune was faced bravely, the world would be less bitter in its condemnation. and then, above all things, everything must be told to lady lufton. "you may, at any rate, believe this, fanny," said he, "that for no consideration which can be offered to me will i ever put my name to another bill." the kiss with which she thanked him for this was as warm and generous as though he had brought to her that day news of the brightest; and when he sat, as he did that evening, discussing it all, not only with his wife, but with lucy, he wondered how it was that his troubles were now so light. whether or no a man should have his own private pleasures, i will not now say; but it never can be worth his while to keep his sorrows private. chapter xxxiv. lady lufton is taken by surprise. lord lufton, as he returned to town, found some difficulty in resolving what step he would next take. sometimes, for a minute or two, he was half inclined to think--or rather to say to himself--that lucy was perhaps not worth the trouble which she threw in his way. he loved her very dearly, and would willingly make her his wife, he thought or said at such moments; but-- such moments, however, were only moments. a man in love seldom loves less because his love becomes difficult. and thus, when those moments were over, he would determine to tell his mother at once, and urge her to signify her consent to miss robarts. that she would not be quite pleased he knew; but if he were firm enough to show that he had a will of his own in this matter, she would probably not gainsay him. he would not ask this humbly, as a favour, but request her ladyship to go through the ceremony as though it were one of those motherly duties which she as a good mother could not hesitate to perform on behalf of her son. such was the final resolve with which he reached his chambers in the albany. on the next day he did not see his mother. it would be well, he thought, to have his interview with her immediately before he started for norway, so that there might be no repetition of it; and it was on the day before he did start that he made his communication, having invited himself to breakfast in brook street on the occasion. "mother," he said, quite abruptly, throwing himself into one of the dining-room arm-chairs, "i have a thing to tell you." his mother at once knew that the thing was important, and with her own peculiar motherly instinct imagined that the question to be discussed had reference to matrimony. had her son desired to speak to her about money, his tone and look would have been different; as would also have been the case--in a different way--had he entertained any thought of a pilgrimage to pekin, or a prolonged fishing excursion to the hudson bay territories. "a thing, ludovic! well; i am quite at liberty." "i want to know what you think of lucy robarts?" lady lufton became pale and frightened, and the blood ran cold to her heart. she had feared more than rejoiced in conceiving that her son was about to talk of love, but she had feared nothing so bad as this. "what do i think of lucy robarts?" she said, repeating her son's words in a tone of evident dismay. "yes, mother; you have said once or twice lately that you thought i ought to marry, and i am beginning to think so too. you selected one clergyman's daughter for me, but that lady is going to do much better with herself--" "indeed she is not," said lady lufton sharply. "and therefore i rather think i shall select for myself another clergyman's sister. you don't dislike miss robarts, i hope?" "oh, ludovic!" it was all that lady lufton could say at the spur of the moment. "is there any harm in her? have you any objection to her? is there anything about her that makes her unfit to be my wife?" for a moment or two lady lufton sat silent, collecting her thoughts. she thought that there was very great objection to lucy robarts, regarding her as the possible future lady lufton. she could hardly have stated all her reasons, but they were very cogent. lucy robarts had, in her eyes, neither beauty, nor style, nor manner, nor even the education which was desirable. lady lufton was not herself a worldly woman. she was almost as far removed from being so as a woman could be in her position. but, nevertheless, there were certain worldly attributes which she regarded as essential to the character of any young lady who might be considered fit to take the place which she herself had so long filled. it was her desire in looking for a wife for her son to combine these with certain moral excellences which she regarded as equally essential. lucy robarts might have the moral excellences, or she might not; but as to the other attributes lady lufton regarded her as altogether deficient. she could never look like a lady lufton, or carry herself in the county as a lady lufton should do. she had not that quiet personal demeanour--that dignity of repose--which lady lufton loved to look upon in a young married woman of rank. lucy, she would have said, could be nobody in a room except by dint of her tongue, whereas griselda grantly would have held her peace for a whole evening, and yet would have impressed everybody by the majesty of her presence. then again lucy had no money--and, again, lucy was only the sister of her own parish clergyman. people are rarely prophets in their own country, and lucy was no prophet at framley; she was none, at least, in the eyes of lady lufton. once before, as may be remembered, she had had fears on this subject--fears, not so much for her son, whom she could hardly bring herself to suspect of such a folly, but for lucy, who might be foolish enough to fancy that the lord was in love with her. alas! alas! her son's question fell upon the poor woman at the present moment with the weight of a terrible blow. "is there anything about her which makes her unfit to be my wife?" those were her son's last words. "dearest ludovic, dearest ludovic!" and she got up and came over to him, "i do think so; i do, indeed." "think what?" said he, in a tone that was almost angry. "i do think that she is unfit to be your wife. she is not of that class from which i would wish to see you choose." "she is of the same class as griselda grantly." "no, dearest. i think you are in error there. the grantlys have moved in a different sphere of life. i think you must feel that they are--" "upon my word, mother, i don't. one man is rector of plumstead, and the other is vicar of framley. but it is no good arguing that. i want you to take to lucy robarts. i have come to you on purpose to ask it of you as a favour." "do you mean as your wife, ludovic?" "yes; as my wife." "am i to understand that you are--are engaged to her?" "well, i cannot say that i am--not actually engaged to her. but you may take this for granted, that, as far as it lies in my power, i intend to become so. my mind is made up, and i certainly shall not alter it." "and the young lady knows all this?" "certainly." "horrid, sly, detestable, underhand girl," lady lufton said to herself, not being by any means brave enough to speak out such language before her son. what hope could there be if lord lufton had already committed himself by a positive offer? "and her brother, and mrs. robarts; are they aware of it?" "yes; both of them." "and both approve of it?" "well, i cannot say that. i have not seen mrs. robarts, and do not know what may be her opinion. to speak my mind honestly about mark, i do not think he does cordially approve. he is afraid of you, and would be desirous of knowing what you think." "i am glad, at any rate, to hear that," said lady lufton, gravely. "had he done anything to encourage this, it would have been very base." and then there was another short period of silence. lord lufton had determined not to explain to his mother the whole state of the case. he would not tell her that everything depended on her word--that lucy was ready to marry him only on condition that she, lady lufton, would desire her to do so. he would not let her know that everything depended on her--according to lucy's present verdict. he had a strong disinclination to ask his mother's permission to get married; and he would have to ask it were he to tell her the whole truth. his object was to make her think well of lucy, and to induce her to be kind, and generous, and affectionate down at framley. then things would all turn out comfortably when he again visited that place, as he intended to do on his return from norway. so much he thought it possible he might effect, relying on his mother's probable calculation that it would be useless for her to oppose a measure which she had no power of stopping by authority. but were he to tell her that she was to be the final judge, that everything was to depend on her will, then, so thought lord lufton, that permission would in all probability be refused. "well, mother, what answer do you intend to give me?" he said. "my mind is positively made up. i should not have come to you had not that been the case. you will now be going down home, and i would wish you to treat lucy as you yourself would wish to treat any girl to whom you knew that i was engaged." "but you say that you are not engaged." "no, i am not; but i have made my offer to her, and i have not been rejected. she has confessed that she--loves me,--not to myself, but to her brother. under these circumstances, may i count upon your obliging me?" there was something in his manner which almost frightened his mother, and made her think that there was more behind than was told to her. generally speaking, his manner was open, gentle, and unguarded; but now he spoke as though he had prepared his words, and was resolved on being harsh as well as obstinate. "i am so much taken by surprise, ludovic, that i can hardly give you an answer. if you ask me whether i approve of such a marriage, i must say that i do not; i think that you would be throwing yourself away in marrying miss robarts." "that is because you do not know her." "may it not be possible that i know her better than you do, dear ludovic? you have been flirting with her--" "i hate that word; it always sounds to me to be vulgar." "i will say making love to her, if you like it better; and gentlemen under these circumstances will sometimes become infatuated." "you would not have a man marry a girl without making love to her. the fact is, mother, that your tastes and mine are not exactly the same; you like silent beauty, whereas i like talking beauty, and then--" "do you call miss robarts beautiful?" "yes, i do; very beautiful; she has the beauty that i admire. good-bye now, mother; i shall not see you again before i start. it will be no use writing, as i shall be away so short a time, and i don't quite know where we shall be. i shall come down to framley immediately i return, and shall learn from you how the land lies. i have told you my wishes, and you will consider how far you think it right to fall in with them." he then kissed her, and without waiting for her reply he took his leave. poor lady lufton, when she was left to herself, felt that her head was going round and round. was this to be the end of all her ambition,--of all her love for her son? and was this to be the result of all her kindness to the robartses? she almost hated mark robarts as she reflected that she had been the means of bringing him and his sister to framley. she thought over all his sins, his absences from the parish, his visit to gatherum castle, his dealings with reference to that farm which was to have been sold, his hunting, and then his acceptance of that stall, given, as she had been told, through the omnium interest. how could she love him at such a moment as this? and then she thought of his wife. could it be possible that fanny robarts, her own friend fanny, would be so untrue to her as to lend any assistance to such a marriage as this; as not to use all her power in preventing it? she had spoken to fanny on this very subject,--not fearing for her son, but with a general idea of the impropriety of intimacies between such girls as lucy and such men as lord lufton, and then fanny had agreed with her. could it be possible that even she must be regarded as an enemy? and then by degrees lady lufton began to reflect what steps she had better take. in the first place, should she give in at once, and consent to the marriage? the only thing quite certain to her was this, that life would be not worth having if she were forced into a permanent quarrel with her son. such an event would probably kill her. when she read of quarrels in other noble families--and the accounts of such quarrels will sometimes, unfortunately, force themselves upon the attention of unwilling readers--she would hug herself, with a spirit that was almost pharisaical, reflecting that her destiny was not like that of others. such quarrels and hatreds between fathers and daughters, and mothers and sons, were in her eyes disreputable to all the persons concerned. she had lived happily with her husband, comfortably with her neighbours, respectably with the world, and, above all things, affectionately with her children. she spoke everywhere of lord lufton as though he were nearly perfect,--and in so speaking, she had not belied her convictions. under these circumstances, would not any marriage be better than a quarrel? but then, again, how much of the pride of her daily life would be destroyed by such a match as that! and might it not be within her power to prevent it without any quarrel? that her son would be sick of such a chit as lucy before he had been married to her six months--of that lady lufton entertained no doubt, and therefore her conscience would not be disquieted in disturbing the consummation of an arrangement so pernicious. it was evident that the matter was not considered as settled even by her son; and also evident that he regarded the matter as being in some way dependent on his mother's consent. on the whole, might it not be better for her--better for them all--that she should think wholly of her duty, and not of the disagreeable results to which that duty might possibly lead? it could not be her duty to accede to such an alliance; and therefore she would do her best to prevent it. such, at least, should be her attempt in the first instance. having so decided, she next resolved on her course of action. immediately on her arrival at framley, she would send for lucy robarts, and use all her eloquence--and perhaps also a little of that stern dignity for which she was so remarkable--in explaining to that young lady how very wicked it was on her part to think of forcing herself into such a family as that of the luftons. she would explain to lucy that no happiness could come of it, that people placed by misfortune above their sphere are always miserable; and, in short, make use of all those excellent moral lessons which are so customary on such occasions. the morality might, perhaps, be thrown away; but lady lufton depended much on her dignified sternness. and then, having so resolved, she prepared for her journey home. very little had been said at framley parsonage about lord lufton's offer after the departure of that gentleman; very little, at least, in lucy's presence. that the parson and his wife should talk about it between themselves was a matter of course; but very few words were spoken on the matter either by or to lucy. she was left to her own thoughts, and possibly to her own hopes. and then other matters came up at framley which turned the current of interest into other tracks. in the first place there was the visit made by mr. sowerby to the dragon of wantly, and the consequent revelation made by mark robarts to his wife. and while that latter subject was yet new, before fanny and lucy had as yet made up their minds as to all the little economies which might be practised in the household without serious detriment to the master's comfort, news reached them that mrs. crawley of hogglestock had been stricken with fever. nothing of the kind could well be more dreadful than this. to those who knew the family it seemed impossible that their most ordinary wants could be supplied if that courageous head were even for a day laid low; and then the poverty of poor mr. crawley was such that the sad necessities of a sick bed could hardly be supplied without assistance. "i will go over at once," said fanny. "my dear!" said her husband, "it is typhus, and you must first think of the children. i will go." "what on earth could you do, mark?" said his wife. "men on such occasions are almost worse than useless; and then they are so much more liable to infection." "i have no children, nor am i a man," said lucy, smiling; "for both of which exemptions i am thankful. i will go, and when i come back i will keep clear of the bairns." so it was settled, and lucy started in the pony-carriage, carrying with her such things from the parsonage storehouse as were thought to be suitable to the wants of the sick lady at hogglestock. when she arrived there, she made her way into the house, finding the door open, and not being able to obtain the assistance of the servant girl in ushering her in. in the parlour she found grace crawley, the eldest child, sitting demurely in her mother's chair nursing an infant. she, grace herself, was still a young child, but not the less, on this occasion of well-understood sorrow, did she go through her task not only with zeal but almost with solemnity. her brother, a boy of six years old, was with her, and he had the care of another baby. there they sat in a cluster, quiet, grave, and silent, attending on themselves, because it had been willed by fate that no one else should attend on them. "how is your mamma, dear grace?" said lucy, walking up to her, and holding out her hand. "poor mamma is very ill, indeed," said grace. "and papa is very unhappy," said bobby, the boy. "i can't get up because of baby," said grace; "but bobby can go and call papa out." "i will knock at the door," said lucy, and so saying she walked up to the bedroom door, and tapped against it lightly. she repeated this for the third time before she was summoned in by a low hoarse voice, and then on entering she saw mr. crawley standing by the bedside with a book in his hand. he looked at her uncomfortably, in a manner which seemed to show that he was annoyed by this intrusion, and lucy was aware that she had disturbed him while at prayers by the bedside of his wife. he came across the room, however, and shook hands with her, and answered her inquiries in his ordinary grave and solemn voice. "mrs. crawley is very ill," he said, "very ill. god has stricken us heavily, but his will be done. but you had better not go to her, miss robarts. it is typhus." the caution, however, was too late; for lucy was already by the bedside, and had taken the hand of the sick woman, which had been extended on the coverlid to greet her. "dear miss robarts," said a weak voice; "this is very good of you; but it makes me unhappy to see you here." lucy lost no time in taking sundry matters into her own hands, and ascertaining what was most wanted in that wretched household. for it was wretched enough. their only servant, a girl of sixteen, had been taken away by her mother as soon as it became known that mrs. crawley was ill with fever. the poor mother, to give her her due, had promised to come down morning and evening herself, to do such work as might be done in an hour or so; but she could not, she said, leave her child to catch the fever. and now, at the period of lucy's visit, no step had been taken to procure a nurse, mr. crawley having resolved to take upon himself the duties of that position. in his absolute ignorance of all sanatory measures, he had thrown himself on his knees to pray; and if prayers--true prayers--might succour his poor wife, of such succour she might be confident. lucy, however, thought that other aid also was wanting to her. "if you can do anything for us," said mrs. crawley, "let it be for the poor children." "i will have them all moved from this till you are better," said lucy, boldly. "moved!" said mr. crawley, who even now--even in his present strait--felt a repugnance to the idea that any one should relieve him of any portion of his burden. "yes," said lucy; "i am sure it will be better that you should lose them for a week or two, till mrs. crawley may be able to leave her room." "but where are they to go?" said he, very gloomily. as to this lucy was not as yet able to say anything. indeed when she left framley parsonage there had been no time for discussion. she would go back and talk it all over with fanny, and find out in what way the children might be best put out of danger. why should they not all be harboured at the parsonage, as soon as assurance could be felt that they were not tainted with the poison of the fever? an english lady of the right sort will do all things but one for a sick neighbour; but for no neighbour will she wittingly admit contagious sickness within the precincts of her own nursery. lucy unloaded her jellies and her febrifuges, mr. crawley frowning at her bitterly the while. it had come to this with him, that food had been brought into his house, as an act of charity, in his very presence, and in his heart of hearts he disliked lucy robarts in that she had brought it. he could not cause the jars and the pots to be replaced in the pony-carriage, as he would have done had the position of his wife been different. in her state it would have been barbarous to refuse them, and barbarous also to have created the _fracas_ of a refusal; but each parcel that was introduced was an additional weight laid on the sore withers of his pride, till the total burden became almost intolerable. all this his wife saw and recognized even in her illness, and did make some slight ineffectual efforts to give him ease; but lucy in her new power was ruthless, and the chicken to make the chicken-broth was taken out of the basket under his very nose. but lucy did not remain long. she had made up her mind what it behoved her to do herself, and she was soon ready to return to framley. "i shall be back again, mr. crawley," she said, "probably this evening, and i shall stay with her till she is better." "nurses don't want rooms," she went on to say, when mr. crawley muttered something as to there being no bed-chamber. "i shall make up some sort of a litter near her; you'll see that i shall be very snug." and then she got into the pony-chaise, and drove herself home. chapter xxxv. the story of king cophetua. lucy as she drove herself home had much as to which it was necessary that she should arouse her thoughts. that she would go back and nurse mrs. crawley through her fever she was resolved. she was free agent enough to take so much on herself, and to feel sure that she could carry it through. but how was she to redeem her promise about the children? twenty plans ran through her mind, as to farm-houses in which they might be placed, or cottages which might be hired for them; but all these entailed the want of money; and at the present moment, were not all the inhabitants of the parsonage pledged to a dire economy? this use of the pony-carriage would have been illicit under any circumstances less pressing than the present, for it had been decided that the carriage, and even poor puck himself, should be sold. she had, however, given her promise about the children, and though her own stock of money was very low, that promise should be redeemed. when she reached the parsonage she was of course full of her schemes, but she found that another subject of interest had come up in her absence, which prevented her from obtaining the undivided attention of her sister-in-law to her present plans. lady lufton had returned that day, and immediately on her return had sent up a note addressed to miss lucy robarts, which note was in fanny's hands when lucy stepped out of the pony-carriage. the servant who brought it had asked for an answer, and a verbal answer had been sent, saying that miss robarts was away from home, and would herself send a reply when she returned. it cannot be denied that the colour came to lucy's face, and that her hand trembled when she took the note from fanny in the drawing-room. everything in the world to her might depend on what that note contained; and yet she did not open it at once, but stood with it in her hand, and when fanny pressed her on the subject, still endeavoured to bring back the conversation to the subject of mrs. crawley. but yet her mind was intent on the letter, and she had already augured ill from the handwriting and even from the words of the address. had lady lufton intended to be propitious, she would have directed her letter to miss robarts, without the christian name; so at least argued lucy,--quite unconsciously, as one does argue in such matters. one forms half the conclusions of one's life without any distinct knowledge that the premises have even passed through one's mind. they were now alone together, as mark was out. "won't you open her letter?" said mrs. robarts. "yes, immediately; but, fanny, i must speak to you about mrs. crawley first. i must go back there this evening, and stay there; i have promised to do so, and shall certainly keep my promise. i have promised also that the children shall be taken away, and we must arrange about that. it is dreadful, the state she is in. there is no one to see to her but mr. crawley, and the children are altogether left to themselves." "do you mean that you are going back to stay?" "yes, certainly; i have made a distinct promise that i would do so. and about the children; could not you manage for the children, fanny,--not perhaps in the house; at least not at first perhaps?" and yet during all the time that she was thus speaking and pleading for the crawleys, she was endeavouring to imagine what might be the contents of that letter which she held between her fingers. "and is she so very ill?" asked mrs. robarts. "i cannot say how ill she may be, except this, that she certainly has typhus fever. they have had some doctor or doctor's assistant from silverbridge; but it seems to me that they are greatly in want of better advice." "but, lucy, will you not read your letter? it is astonishing to me that you should be so indifferent about it." lucy was anything but indifferent, and now did proceed to tear the envelope. the note was very short, and ran in these words,-- my dear miss robarts,--i am particularly anxious to see you, and shall feel much obliged to you if you can step over to me here, at framley court. i must apologize for taking this liberty with you, but you will probably feel that an interview here would suit us both better than one at the parsonage. truly yours, m. lufton. "there; i am in for it now," said lucy, handing the note over to mrs. robarts. "i shall have to be talked to as never poor girl was talked to before; and when one thinks of what i have done, it is hard." "yes; and of what you have not done." "exactly; and of what i have not done. but i suppose i must go," and she proceeded to re-tie the strings of her bonnet, which she had loosened. "do you mean that you are going over at once?" "yes; immediately. why not? it will be better to have it over, and then i can go to the crawleys. but, fanny, the pity of it is that i know it all as well as though it had been already spoken; and what good can there be in my having to endure it? can't you fancy the tone in which she will explain to me the conventional inconveniences which arose when king cophetua would marry the beggar's daughter? how she will explain what griselda went through;--not the archdeacon's daughter, but the other griselda?" "but it all came right with her." "yes; but then i am not griselda, and she will explain how it would certainly all go wrong with me. but what's the good when i know it all beforehand? have i not desired king cophetua to take himself and sceptre elsewhere?" and then she started, having first said another word or two about the crawley children, and obtained a promise of puck and the pony-carriage for the afternoon. it was also almost agreed that puck on his return to framley should bring back the four children with him; but on this subject it was necessary that mark should be consulted. the present scheme was to prepare for them a room outside the house, once the dairy, at present occupied by the groom and his wife; and to bring them into the house as soon as it was manifest that there was no danger from infection. but all this was to be matter for deliberation. fanny wanted her to send over a note, in reply to lady lufton's, as harbinger of her coming; but lucy marched off, hardly answering this proposition. "what's the use of such a deal of ceremony?" she said. "i know she's at home; and if she is not, i shall only lose ten minutes in going." and so she went, and on reaching the door of framley court house found that her ladyship was at home. her heart almost came to her mouth as she was told so, and then, in two minutes' time, she found herself in the little room upstairs. in that little room we found ourselves once before,--you, and i, o my reader;--but lucy had never before visited that hallowed precinct. there was something in its air calculated to inspire awe in those who first saw lady lufton sitting bolt upright in the cane-bottomed arm-chair, which she always occupied when at work at her books and papers; and this she knew when she determined to receive lucy in that apartment. but there was there another arm-chair, an easy, cozy chair, which stood by the fireside; and for those who had caught lady lufton napping in that chair of an afternoon, some of this awe had perhaps been dissipated. "miss robarts," she said, not rising from her chair, but holding out her hand to her visitor; "i am much obliged to you for having come over to me here. you, no doubt, are aware of the subject on which i wish to speak to you, and will agree with me that it is better that we should meet here than over at the parsonage." in answer to which lucy merely bowed her head, and took her seat on the chair which had been prepared for her. "my son," continued her ladyship, "has spoken to me on the subject of--i think i understand, miss robarts, that there has been no engagement between you and him?" "none whatever," said lucy. "he made me an offer and i refused him." this she said very sharply;--more so undoubtedly than the circumstances required; and with a brusqueness that was injudicious as well as uncourteous. but at the moment, she was thinking of her own position with reference to lady lufton--not to lord lufton; and of her feelings with reference to the lady--not to the gentleman. "oh," said lady lufton, a little startled by the manner of the communication. "then i am to understand that there is nothing now going on between you and my son;--that the whole affair is over?" "that depends entirely upon you." "on me! does it?" "i do not know what your son may have told you, lady lufton. for myself, i do not care to have any secrets from you in this matter; and as he has spoken to you about it, i suppose that such is his wish also. am i right in presuming that he has spoken to you on the subject?" "yes, he has; and it is for that reason that i have taken the liberty of sending for you." "and may i ask what he has told you? i mean, of course, as regards myself," said lucy. lady lufton, before she answered this question, began to reflect that the young lady was taking too much of the initiative in this conversation, and was, in fact, playing the game in her own fashion, which was not at all in accordance with those motives which had induced lady lufton to send for her. "he has told me that he made you an offer of marriage," replied lady lufton; "a matter which, of course, is very serious to me, as his mother; and i have thought, therefore, that i had better see you, and appeal to your own good sense and judgment and high feeling. of course you are aware--" now was coming the lecture to be illustrated by king cophetua and griselda, as lucy had suggested to mrs. robarts; but she succeeded in stopping it for awhile. "and did lord lufton tell you what was my answer?" "not in words. but you yourself now say that you refused him; and i must express my admiration for your good--" "wait half a moment, lady lufton. your son did make me an offer. he made it to me in person, up at the parsonage, and i then refused him;--foolishly, as i now believe, for i dearly love him. but i did so from a mixture of feelings which i need not, perhaps, explain; that most prominent, no doubt, was a fear of your displeasure. and then he came again, not to me but to my brother, and urged his suit to him. nothing can have been kinder to me, more noble, more loving, more generous, than his conduct. at first i thought, when he was speaking to myself, that he was led on thoughtlessly to say all that he did say. i did not trust his love, though i saw that he did trust it himself. but i could not but trust it when he came again--to my brother, and made his proposal to him. i don't know whether you will understand me, lady lufton; but a girl placed as i am feels ten times more assurance in such a tender of affection as that, than in one made to herself, at the spur of the moment, perhaps. and then you must remember that i--i myself--i loved him from the first. i was foolish enough to think that i could know him and not love him." "i saw all that going on," said lady lufton, with a certain assumption of wisdom about her; "and took steps which i hoped would have put a stop to it in time." "everybody saw it. it was a matter of course," said lucy, destroying her ladyship's wisdom at a blow. "well; i did learn to love him, not meaning to do so; and i do love him with all my heart. it is no use my striving to think that i do not; and i could stand with him at the altar to-morrow and give him my hand, feeling that i was doing my duty by him, as a woman should do. and now he has told you of his love, and i believe in that as i do in my own--" and then for a moment she paused. "but, my dear miss robarts--" began lady lufton. lucy, however, had now worked herself up into a condition of power, and would not allow her ladyship to interrupt her in her speech. "i beg your pardon, lady lufton; i shall have done directly, and then i will hear you. and so my brother came to me, not urging this suit, expressing no wish for such a marriage, but allowing me to judge for myself, and proposing that i should see your son again on the following morning. had i done so, i could not but have accepted him. think of it, lady lufton. how could i have done other than accept him, seeing that in my heart i had accepted his love already?" "well?" said lady lufton, not wishing now to put in any speech of her own. "i did not see him--i refused to do so--because i was a coward. i could not endure to come into this house as your son's wife, and be coldly looked on by your son's mother. much as i loved him, much as i do love him, dearly as i prize the generous offer which he came down here to repeat to me, i could not live with him to be made the object of your scorn. i sent him word, therefore, that i would have him when you would ask me, and not before." and then, having thus pleaded her cause--and pleaded as she believed the cause of her lover also--she ceased from speaking, and prepared herself to listen to the story of king cophetua. but lady lufton felt considerable difficulty in commencing her speech. in the first place she was by no means a hard-hearted or a selfish woman; and were it not that her own son was concerned, and all the glory which was reflected upon her from her son, her sympathies would have been given to lucy robarts. as it was, she did sympathize with her, and admire her, and to a certain extent like her. she began also to understand what it was that had brought about her son's love, and to feel that but for certain unfortunate concomitant circumstances the girl before her might have made a fitting lady lufton. lucy had grown bigger in her eyes while sitting there and talking, and had lost much of that missish want of importance--that lack of social weight which lady lufton in her own opinion had always imputed to her. a girl that could thus speak up and explain her own position now, would be able to speak up and explain her own, and perhaps some other positions at any future time. but not for all or any of these reasons did lady lufton think of giving way. the power of making or marring this marriage was placed in her hands, as was very fitting, and that power it behoved her to use, as best she might use it, to her son's advantage. much as she might admire lucy, she could not sacrifice her son to that admiration. the unfortunate concomitant circumstances still remained, and were of sufficient force, as she thought, to make such a marriage inexpedient. lucy was the sister of a gentleman, who by his peculiar position as parish clergyman of framley was unfitted to be the brother-in-law of the owner of framley. nobody liked clergymen better than lady lufton, or was more willing to live with them on terms of affectionate intimacy, but she could not get over the feeling that the clergyman of her own parish,--or of her son's,--was a part of her own establishment, of her own appanage,--or of his,--and that it could not be well that lord lufton should marry among his own--dependants. lady lufton would not have used the word, but she did think it. and then, too, lucy's education had been so deficient. she had had no one about her in early life accustomed to the ways of,--of what shall i say, without making lady lufton appear more worldly than she was? lucy's wants in this respect, not to be defined in words, had been exemplified by the very way in which she had just now stated her case. she had shown talent, good temper, and sound judgment; but there had been no quiet, no repose about her. the species of power in young ladies which lady lufton most admired was the _vis inertiæ_ belonging to beautiful and dignified reticence; of this poor lucy had none. then, too, she had no fortune, which, though a minor evil, was an evil; and she had no birth, in the high-life sense of the word, which was a greater evil. and then, though her eyes had sparkled when she confessed her love, lady lufton was not prepared to admit that she was possessed of positive beauty. such were the unfortunate concomitant circumstances which still induced lady lufton to resolve that the match must be marred. but the performance of her part in this play was much more difficult than she had imagined, and she found herself obliged to sit silent for a minute or two, during which, however, miss robarts made no attempt at further speech. "i am greatly struck," lady lufton said at last, "by the excellent sense you have displayed in the whole of this affair; and you must allow me to say, miss robarts, that i now regard you with very different feelings from those which i entertained when i left london." upon this lucy bowed her head, slightly but very stiffly; acknowledging rather the former censure implied than the present eulogium expressed. "but my feelings," continued lady lufton, "my strongest feelings in this matter, must be those of a mother. what might be my conduct if such a marriage did take place, i need not now consider. but i must confess that i should think such a marriage very--very ill-judged. a better hearted young man than lord lufton does not exist, nor one with better principles, or a deeper regard for his word; but he is exactly the man to be mistaken in any hurried outlook as to his future life. were you and he to become man and wife, such a marriage would tend to the happiness neither of him nor of you." it was clear that the whole lecture was now coming; and as lucy had openly declared her own weakness, and thrown all the power of decision into the hands of lady lufton, she did not see why she should endure this. "we need not argue about that, lady lufton," she said. "i have told you the only circumstances under which i would marry your son; and you, at any rate, are safe." "no; i was not wishing to argue," answered lady lufton, almost humbly; "but i was desirous of excusing myself to you, so that you should not think me cruel in withholding my consent. i wished to make you believe that i was doing the best for my son." "i am sure that you think you are, and therefore no excuse is necessary." "no; exactly; of course it is a matter of opinion, and i do think so. i cannot believe that this marriage would make either of you happy, and therefore i should be very wrong to express my consent." "then, lady lufton," said lucy, rising from her chair, "i suppose we have both now said what is necessary, and i will therefore wish you good-bye." "good-bye, miss robarts. i wish i could make you understand how very highly i regard your conduct in this matter. it has been above all praise, and so i shall not hesitate to say when speaking of it to your relatives." this was disagreeable enough to lucy, who cared but little for any praise which lady lufton might express to her relatives in this matter. "and pray," continued lady lufton, "give my best love to mrs. robarts, and tell her that i shall hope to see her over here very soon, and mr. robarts also. i would name a day for you all to dine, but perhaps it will be better that i should have a little talk with fanny first." lucy muttered something, which was intended to signify that any such dinner-party had better not be made up with the intention of including her, and then took her leave. she had decidedly had the best of the interview, and there was a consciousness of this in her heart as she allowed lady lufton to shake hands with her. she had stopped her antagonist short on each occasion on which an attempt had been made to produce the homily which had been prepared, and during the interview had spoken probably three words for every one which her ladyship had been able to utter. but, nevertheless, there was a bitter feeling of disappointment about her heart as she walked back home; and a feeling, also, that she herself had caused her own unhappiness. why should she have been so romantic and chivalrous and self-sacrificing, seeing that her romance and chivalry had all been to his detriment as well as to hers,--seeing that she sacrificed him as well as herself? why should she have been so anxious to play into lady lufton's hands? it was not because she thought it right, as a general social rule, that a lady should refuse a gentleman's hand, unless the gentleman's mother were a consenting party to the marriage. she would have held any such doctrine as absurd. the lady, she would have said, would have had to look to her own family and no further. it was not virtue but cowardice which had influenced her, and she had none of that solace which may come to us in misfortune from a consciousness that our own conduct has been blameless. lady lufton had inspired her with awe, and any such feeling on her part was mean, ignoble, and unbecoming the spirit with which she wished to think that she was endowed. that was the accusation which she brought against herself, and it forbade her to feel any triumph as to the result of her interview. when she reached the parsonage, mark was there, and they were of course expecting her. "well," said she, in her short, hurried manner, "is puck ready again? i have no time to lose, and i must go and pack up a few things. have you settled about the children, fanny?" "yes; i will tell you directly; but you have seen lady lufton?" "seen her! oh, yes, of course i have seen her. did she not send for me? and in that case it was not on the cards that i should disobey her." "and what did she say?" "how green you are, mark; and not only green, but impolite also, to make me repeat the story of my own disgrace. of course she told me that she did not intend that i should marry my lord, her son; and of course i said that under those circumstances i should not think of doing such a thing." "lucy, i cannot understand you," said fanny, very gravely. "i am sometimes inclined to doubt whether you have any deep feeling in the matter or not. if you have, how can you bring yourself to joke about it?" "well, it is singular; and sometimes i doubt myself whether i have. i ought to be pale, ought i not? and very thin, and to go mad by degrees? i have not the least intention of doing anything of the kind, and, therefore, the matter is not worth any further notice." "but was she civil to you, lucy?" asked mark; "civil in her manner, you know?" "oh, uncommonly so. you will hardly believe it, but she actually asked me to dine. she always does, you know, when she wants to show her good-humour. if you'd broken your leg, and she wished to commiserate you, she'd ask you to dinner." "i suppose she meant to be kind," said fanny, who was not disposed to give up her old friend, though she was quite ready to fight lucy's battle, if there were any occasion for a battle to be fought. "lucy is so perverse," said mark, "that it is impossible to learn from her what really has taken place." "upon my word, then, you know it all as well as i can tell you. she asked me if lord lufton had made me an offer. i said, yes. she asked next, if i meant to accept it. not without her approval, i said. and then she asked us all to dinner. that is exactly what took place, and i cannot see that i have been perverse at all." after that she threw herself into a chair, and mark and fanny stood looking at each other. "mark," she said, after a while, "don't be unkind to me. i make as little of it as i can, for all our sakes. it is better so, fanny, than that i should go about moaning, like a sick cow;" and then they looked at her, and saw that the tears were already brimming over from her eyes. "dearest, dearest lucy," said fanny, immediately going down on her knees before her, "i won't be unkind to you again." and then they had a great cry together. chapter xxxvi. kidnapping at hogglestock. the great cry, however, did not take long, and lucy was soon in the pony-carriage again. on this occasion her brother volunteered to drive her, and it was now understood that he was to bring back with him all the crawley children. the whole thing had been arranged; the groom and his wife were to be taken into the house, and the big bedroom across the yard, usually occupied by them, was to be converted into a quarantine hospital until such time as it might be safe to pull down the yellow flag. they were about half way on their road to hogglestock when they were overtaken by a man on horseback, whom, when he came up beside them, mr. robarts recognized as dr. arabin, dean of barchester, and head of the chapter to which he himself belonged. it immediately appeared that the dean also was going to hogglestock, having heard of the misfortune that had befallen his friends there; he had, he said, started as soon as the news reached him, in order that he might ascertain how best he might render assistance. to effect this he had undertaken a ride of nearly forty miles, and explained that he did not expect to reach home again much before midnight. "you pass by framley?" said robarts. "yes, i do," said the dean. "then of course you will dine with us as you go home; you and your horse also, which will be quite as important." this having been duly settled, and the proper ceremony of introduction having taken place between the dean and lucy, they proceeded to discuss the character of mr. crawley. "i have known him all my life," said the dean, "having been at school and college with him, and for years since that i was on terms of the closest intimacy with him; but in spite of that, i do not know how to help him in his need. a prouder-hearted man i never met, or one less willing to share his sorrows with his friends." "i have often heard him speak of you," said mark. "one of the bitterest feelings i have is that a man so dear to me should live so near to me, and that i should see so little of him. but what can i do? he will not come to my house; and when i go to his he is angry with me because i wear a shovel hat and ride on horseback." "i should leave my hat and my horse at the borders of the last parish," said lucy, timidly. "well; yes, certainly; one ought not to give offence even in such matters as that; but my coat and waistcoat would then be equally objectionable. i have changed,--in outward matters i mean,--and he has not. that irritates him, and unless i could be what i was in the old days, he will not look at me with the same eyes;" and then he rode on, in order, as he said, that the first pang of the interview might be over before robarts and his sister came upon the scene. mr. crawley was standing before his door, leaning over the little wooden railing, when the dean trotted up on his horse. he had come out after hours of close watching to get a few mouthfuls of the sweet summer air, and as he stood there he held the youngest of his children in his arms. the poor little baby sat there, quiet indeed, but hardly happy. this father, though he loved his offspring with an affection as intense as that which human nature can supply, was not gifted with the knack of making children fond of him; for it is hardly more than a knack, that aptitude which some men have of gaining the good graces of the young. such men are not always the best fathers or the safest guardians; but they carry about with them a certain duc ad me which children recognize, and which in three minutes upsets all the barriers between five and five-and-forty. but mr. crawley was a stern man, thinking ever of the souls and minds of his bairns--as a father should do; and thinking also that every season was fitted for operating on these souls and minds--as, perhaps, he should not have done either as a father or as a teacher. and consequently his children avoided him when the choice was given them, thereby adding fresh wounds to his torn heart, but by no means quenching any of the great love with which he regarded them. he was standing there thus with a placid little baby in his arms--a baby placid enough, but one that would not kiss him eagerly, and stroke his face with her soft little hands, as he would have had her do--when he saw the dean coming towards him. he was sharp-sighted as a lynx out in the open air, though now obliged to pore over his well-fingered books with spectacles on his nose; and thus he knew his friend from a long distance, and had time to meditate the mode of his greeting. he too doubtless had come, if not with jelly and chicken, then with money and advice;--with money and advice such as a thriving dean might offer to a poor brother clergyman; and mr. crawley, though no husband could possibly be more anxious for a wife's safety than he was, immediately put his back up and began to bethink himself how these tenders might be rejected. "how is she?" were the first words which the dean spoke as he pulled up his horse close to the little gate, and put out his hand to take that of his friend. "how are you, arabin?" said he. "it is very kind of you to come so far, seeing how much there is to keep you at barchester. i cannot say that she is any better, but i do not know that she is worse. sometimes i fancy that she is delirious, though i hardly know. at any rate her mind wanders, and then after that she sleeps." "but is the fever less?" "sometimes less and sometimes more, i imagine." "and the children?" "poor things; they are well as yet." "they must be taken from this, crawley, as a matter of course." mr. crawley fancied that there was a tone of authority in the dean's advice, and immediately put himself into opposition. "i do not know how that may be; i have not yet made up my mind." "but, my dear crawley--" "providence does not admit of such removals in all cases," said he. "among the poorer classes the children must endure such perils." "in many cases it is so," said the dean, by no means inclined to make an argument of it at the present moment; "but in this case they need not. you must allow me to make arrangements for sending for them, as of course your time is occupied here." miss robarts, though she had mentioned her intention of staying with mrs. crawley, had said nothing of the framley plan with reference to the children. "what you mean is that you intend to take the burden off my shoulders--in fact, to pay for them. i cannot allow that, arabin. they must take the lot of their father and their mother, as it is proper that they should do." again the dean had no inclination for arguing, and thought it might be well to let the question of the children drop for a little while. "and is there no nurse with her?" said he. "no, no; i am seeing to her myself at the present moment. a woman will be here just now." "what woman?" "well; her name is mrs. stubbs; she lives in the parish. she will put the younger children to bed, and--and--but it's no use troubling you with all that. there was a young lady talked of coming, but no doubt she has found it too inconvenient. it will be better as it is." "you mean miss robarts; she will be here directly; i passed her as i came here;" and as dr. arabin was yet speaking, the noise of the carriage wheels was heard upon the road. "i will go in now," said mr. crawley, "and see if she still sleeps;" and then he entered the house, leaving the dean at the door still seated upon his horse. "he will be afraid of the infection, and i will not ask him to come in," said mr. crawley to himself. "i shall seem to be prying into his poverty, if i enter unasked," said the dean to himself. and so he remained there till puck, now acquainted with the locality, stopped at the door. "have you not been in?" said robarts. "no; crawley has been at the door talking to me; he will be here directly, i suppose;" and then mark robarts also prepared himself to wait till the master of the house should reappear. but lucy had no such punctilious misgivings; she did not much care now whether she offended mr. crawley or no. her idea was to place herself by the sick woman's bedside, and to send the four children away;--with their father's consent if it might be; but certainly without it if that consent were withheld. so she got down from the carriage, and taking certain packages in her hand made her way direct into the house. "there's a big bundle under the seat, mark," she said; "i'll come and fetch it directly, if you'll drag it out." for some five minutes the two dignitaries of the church remained at the door, one on his cob and the other in his low carriage, saying a few words to each other and waiting till some one should again appear from the house. "it is all arranged, indeed it is," were the first words which reached their ears, and these came from lucy. "there will be no trouble at all, and no expense, and they shall all come back as soon as mrs. crawley is able to get out of bed." "but, miss robarts, i can assure--" that was mr. crawley's voice, heard from him as he followed miss robarts to the door; but one of the elder children had then called him into the sick room, and lucy was left to do her worst. "are you going to take the children back with you?" said the dean. "yes; mrs. robarts has prepared for them." "you can take greater liberties with my friend here than i can." "it is all my sister's doing," said robarts. "women are always bolder in such matters than men." and then lucy reappeared, bringing bobby with her, and one of the younger children. "do not mind what he says," said she, "but drive away when you have got them all. tell fanny i have put into the basket what things i could find, but they are very few. she must borrow things for grace from mrs. granger's little girl"--(mrs. granger was the wife of a framley farmer);--"and, mark, turn puck's head round, so that you may be off in a moment. i'll have grace and the other one here directly." and then, leaving her brother to pack bobby and his little sister on the back part of the vehicle, she returned to her business in the house. she had just looked in at mrs. crawley's bed, and finding her awake, had smiled on her, and deposited her bundle in token of her intended stay, and then, without speaking a word, had gone on her errand about the children. she had called to grace to show her where she might find such things as were to be taken to framley, and having explained to the bairns, as well as she might, the destiny which immediately awaited them, prepared them for their departure without saying a word to mr. crawley on the subject. bobby and the elder of the two infants were stowed away safely in the back part of the carriage, where they allowed themselves to be placed without saying a word. they opened their eyes and stared at the dean, who sat by on his horse, and assented to such orders as mr. robarts gave them,--no doubt with much surprise, but nevertheless in absolute silence. "now, grace, be quick, there's a dear," said lucy, returning with the infant in her arms. "and, grace, mind you are very careful about baby; and bring the basket; i'll give it you when you are in." grace and the other child were then packed on to the other seat, and a basket with children's clothes put in on the top of them. "that'll do, mark; good-bye; tell fanny to be sure and send the day after to-morrow, and not to forget--" and then she whispered into her brother's ear an injunction about certain dairy comforts which might not be spoken of in the hearing of mr. crawley. "good-bye, dears; mind you are good children; you shall hear about mamma the day after to-morrow," said lucy; and puck, admonished by a sound from his master's voice, began to move just as mr. crawley reappeared at the house door. "oh, oh, stop!" he said. "miss robarts, you really had better not--" "go on, mark," said lucy, in a whisper, which, whether audible or not by mr. crawley, was heard very plainly by the dean. and mark, who had slightly arrested puck by the reins on the appearance of mr. crawley, now touched the impatient little beast with his whip; and the vehicle with its freight darted off rapidly, puck shaking his head and going away with a tremendously quick short trot which soon separated mr. crawley from his family. "miss robarts," he began, "this step has been taken altogether without--" "yes," said she, interrupting him. "my brother was obliged to return at once. the children, you know, will remain all together at the parsonage; and that, i think, is what mrs. crawley will best like. in a day or two they will be under mrs. robarts's own charge." "but, my dear miss robarts, i had no intention whatever of putting the burden of my family on the shoulders of another person. they must return to their own home immediately--that is, as soon as they can be brought back." "i really think miss robarts has managed very well," said the dean. "mrs. crawley must be so much more comfortable to think that they are out of danger." "and they will be quite comfortable at the parsonage," said lucy. "i do not at all doubt that," said mr. crawley; "but too much of such comforts will unfit them for their home; and--and i could have wished that i had been consulted more at leisure before the proceeding had been taken." "it was arranged, mr. crawley, when i was here before, that the children had better go away," pleaded lucy. "i do not remember agreeing to such a measure, miss robarts; however-- i suppose they cannot be had back to-night?" "no, not to-night," said lucy. "and now i will go in to your wife." and then she returned to the house, leaving the two gentlemen at the door. at this moment a labourer's boy came sauntering by, and the dean, obtaining possession of his services for the custody of his horse, was able to dismount and put himself on a more equal footing for conversation with his friend. "crawley," said he, putting his hand affectionately on his friend's shoulder, as they both stood leaning on the little rail before the door; "that is a good girl--a very good girl." "yes," said he slowly; "she means well." "nay, but she does well; she does excellently. what can be better than her conduct now? while i was meditating how i might possibly assist your wife in this strait--" "i want no assistance; none, at least, from man," said crawley, bitterly. "oh, my friend, think of what you are saying! think of the wickedness which must accompany such a state of mind! have you ever known any man able to walk alone, without assistance from his brother men?" mr. crawley did not make any immediate answer, but putting his arms behind his back and closing his hands, as was his wont when he walked alone thinking of the general bitterness of his lot in life, began to move slowly along the road in front of his house. he did not invite the other to walk with him, but neither was there anything in his manner which seemed to indicate that he had intended to be left to himself. it was a beautiful summer afternoon, at that delicious period of the year when summer has just burst forth from the growth of spring; when the summer is yet but three days old, and all the various shades of green which nature can put forth are still in their unsoiled purity of freshness. the apple blossoms were on the trees, and the hedges were sweet with may. the cuckoo at five o'clock was still sounding his soft summer call with unabated energy, and even the common grasses of the hedgerows were sweet with the fragrance of their new growth. the foliage of the oaks was complete, so that every bough and twig was clothed; but the leaves did not yet hang heavy in masses, and the bend of every bough and the tapering curve of every twig were visible through their light green covering. there is no time of the year equal in beauty to the first week in summer; and no colour which nature gives, not even the gorgeous hues of autumn, which can equal the verdure produced by the first warm suns of may. hogglestock, as has been explained, has little to offer in the way of landskip beauty, and the clergyman's house at hogglestock was not placed on a green slopy bank of land, retired from the road, with its windows opening on to a lawn, surrounded by shrubs, with a view of the small church tower seen through them; it had none of that beauty which is so common to the cozy houses of our spiritual pastors in the agricultural parts of england. hogglestock parsonage stood bleak beside the road, with no pretty paling lined inside by hollies and laburnum, portugal laurels and rose-trees. but, nevertheless, even hogglestock was pretty now. there were apple-trees there covered with blossom, and the hedgerows were in full flower. there were thrushes singing, and here and there an oak-tree stood in the roadside, perfect in its solitary beauty. "let us walk on a little," said the dean. "miss robarts is with her now, and you will be better for leaving the room for a few minutes." "no," said he; "i must go back; i cannot leave that young lady to do my work." "stop, crawley!" and the dean, putting his hand upon him, stayed him in the road. "she is doing her own work, and if you were speaking of her with reference to any other household than your own, you would say so. is it not a comfort to you to know that your wife has a woman near her at such a time as this; and a woman, too, who can speak to her as one lady does to another?" "these are comforts which we have no right to expect. i could not have done much for poor mary; but what a man could have done should not have been wanting." "i am sure of it; i know it well. what any man could do by himself you would do--excepting one thing." and the dean as he spoke looked full into the other's face. "and what is there i would not do?" said crawley. "sacrifice your own pride." "my pride?" "yes; your own pride." "i have had but little pride this many a day. arabin, you do not know what my life has been. how is a man to be proud who--" and then he stopped himself, not wishing to go through the catalogue of those grievances, which, as he thought, had killed the very germs of pride within him, or to insist by spoken words on his poverty, his wants, and the injustice of his position. "no; i wish i could be proud; but the world has been too heavy to me, and i have forgotten all that." "how long have i known you, crawley?" "how long? ah dear! a life-time nearly, now." "and we were like brothers once." "yes; we were equal as brothers then--in our fortunes, our tastes, and our modes of life." "and yet you would begrudge me the pleasure of putting my hand in my pocket, and relieving the inconveniences which have been thrown on you, and those you love better than yourself, by the chances of your fate in life." "i will live on no man's charity," said crawley, with an abruptness which amounted almost to an expression of anger. "and is not that pride?" "no--yes;--it is a species of pride, but not that pride of which you spoke. a man cannot be honest if he have not some pride. you yourself;--would you not rather starve than become a beggar?" "i would rather beg than see my wife starve," said arabin. crawley when he heard these words turned sharply round, and stood with his back to the dean, with his hands still behind him, and with his eyes fixed upon the ground. "but in this case there is no question of begging," continued the dean. "i, out of those superfluities which it has pleased god to put at my disposal, am anxious to assist the needs of those whom i love." "she is not starving," said crawley, in a voice very bitter, but still intended to be exculpatory of himself. "no, my dear friend; i know she is not, and do not you be angry with me because i have endeavoured to put the matter to you in the strongest language i could use." "you look at it, arabin, from one side only; i can only look at it from the other. it is very sweet to give; i do not doubt that. but the taking of what is given is very bitter. gift bread chokes in a man's throat and poisons his blood, and sits like lead upon the heart. you have never tried it." "but that is the very fault for which i blame you. that is the pride which i say you ought to sacrifice." "and why should i be called on to do so? is not the labourer worthy of his hire? am i not able to work, and willing? have i not always had my shoulder to the collar, and is it right that i should now be contented with the scraps from a rich man's kitchen? arabin, you and i were equal once and we were then friends, understanding each other's thoughts and sympathizing with each other's sorrows. but it cannot be so now." "if there be such inability, it is all with you." "it is all with me,--because in our connection the pain would all be on my side. it would not hurt you to see me at your table with worn shoes and a ragged shirt. i do not think so meanly of you as that. you would give me your feast to eat though i were not clad a tithe as well as the menial behind your chair. but it would hurt me to know that there were those looking at me who thought me unfit to sit in your rooms." "that is the pride of which i speak;--false pride." "call it so if you will; but, arabin, no preaching of yours can alter it. it is all that is left to me of my manliness. that poor broken reed who is lying there sick,--who has sacrificed all the world to her love for me,--who is the mother of my children, and the partner of my sorrows and the wife of my bosom,--even she cannot change me in this, though she pleads with the eloquence of all her wants. not even for her can i hold out my hand for a dole." they had now come back to the door of the house, and mr. crawley, hardly conscious of what he was doing, was preparing to enter. "will mrs. crawley be able to see me if i come in?" said the dean. "oh, stop; no; you had better not do so," said mr. crawley. "you, no doubt, might be subject to infection, and then mrs. arabin would be frightened." "i do not care about it in the least," said the dean. "but it is of no use; you had better not. her room, i fear, is quite unfit for you to see; and the whole house, you know, may be infected." dr. arabin by this time was in the sitting-room; but seeing that his friend was really anxious that he should not go farther, he did not persist. "it will be a comfort to us, at any rate, to know that miss robarts is with her." "the young lady is very good--very good indeed," said crawley; "but i trust she will return to her home to-morrow. it is impossible that she should remain in so poor a house as mine. there will be nothing here of all the things that she will want." the dean thought that lucy robarts's wants during her present occupation of nursing would not be so numerous as to make her continued sojourn in mrs. crawley's sick room impossible, and therefore took his leave with a satisfied conviction that the poor lady would not be left wholly to the somewhat unskilful nursing of her husband. chapter xxxvii. mr. sowerby without company. and now there were going to be wondrous doings in west barsetshire, and men's minds were much disturbed. the fiat had gone forth from the high places, and the queen had dissolved her faithful commons. the giants, finding that they could effect little or nothing with the old house, had resolved to try what a new venture would do for them, and the hubbub of a general election was to pervade the country. this produced no inconsiderable irritation and annoyance, for the house was not as yet quite three years old; and members of parliament, though they naturally feel a constitutional pleasure in meeting their friends and in pressing the hands of their constituents, are, nevertheless, so far akin to the lower order of humanity that they appreciate the danger of losing their seats; and the certainty of a considerable outlay in their endeavours to retain them is not agreeable to the legislative mind. never did the old family fury between the gods and giants rage higher than at the present moment. the giants declared that every turn which they attempted to take in their country's service had been thwarted by faction, in spite of those benign promises of assistance made to them only a few weeks since by their opponents; and the gods answered by asserting that they were driven to this opposition by the boeotian fatuity of the giants. they had no doubt promised their aid, and were ready to give it to measures that were decently prudent; but not to a bill enabling government at its will to pension aged bishops! no; there must be some limit to their tolerance, and when such attempts as these were made that limit had been clearly passed. all this had taken place openly only a day or two after that casual whisper dropped by tom towers at miss dunstable's party--by tom towers, that most pleasant of all pleasant fellows. and how should he have known it,--he who flutters from one sweetest flower of the garden to another, "adding sugar to the pink, and honey to the rose, so loved for what he gives, but taking nothing as he goes"? but the whisper had grown into a rumour, and the rumour into a fact, and the political world was in a ferment. the giants, furious about their bishops' pension bill, threatened the house--most injudiciously; and then it was beautiful to see how indignant members got up, glowing with honesty, and declared that it was base to conceive that any gentleman in that house could be actuated in his vote by any hopes or fears with reference to his seat. and so matters grew from bad to worse, and these contending parties never hit at each other with such envenomed wrath as they did now;--having entered the ring together so lately with such manifold promises of good-will, respect, and forbearance! but going from the general to the particular, we may say that nowhere was a deeper consternation spread than in the electoral division of west barsetshire. no sooner had the tidings of the dissolution reached the county than it was known that the duke intended to change his nominee. mr. sowerby had now sat for the division since the reform bill! he had become one of the county institutions, and by the dint of custom and long establishment had been borne with and even liked by the county gentlemen, in spite of his well-known pecuniary irregularities. now all this was to be changed. no reason had as yet been publicly given, but it was understood that lord dumbello was to be returned, although he did not own an acre of land in the county. it is true that rumour went on to say that lord dumbello was about to form close connections with barsetshire. he was on the eve of marrying a young lady, from the other division indeed, and was now engaged, so it was said, in completing arrangements with the government for the purchase of that noble crown property usually known as the chace of chaldicotes. it was also stated--this statement, however, had hitherto been only announced in confidential whispers--that chaldicotes house itself would soon become the residence of the marquis. the duke was claiming it as his own--would very shortly have completed his claims and taken possession;--and then, by some arrangement between them, it was to be made over to lord dumbello. but very contrary rumours to these got abroad also. men said--such as dared to oppose the duke, and some few also who did not dare to oppose him when the day of battle came--that it was beyond his grace's power to turn lord dumbello into a barsetshire magnate. the crown property--such men said--was to fall into the hands of young mr. gresham, of boxall hill, in the other division, and that the terms of purchase had been already settled. and as to mr. sowerby's property and the house of chaldicotes--these opponents of the omnium interest went on to explain--it was by no means as yet so certain that the duke would be able to enter it and take possession. the place was not to be given up to him quietly. a great fight would be made, and it was beginning to be believed that the enormous mortgages would be paid off by a lady of immense wealth. and then a dash of romance was not wanting to make these stories palatable. this lady of immense wealth had been courted by mr. sowerby, had acknowledged her love,--but had refused to marry him on account of his character. in testimony of her love, however, she was about to pay all his debts. it was soon put beyond a rumour, and became manifest enough, that mr. sowerby did not intend to retire from the county in obedience to the duke's behests. a placard was posted through the whole division in which no allusion was made by name to the duke, but in which mr. sowerby warned his friends not to be led away by any report that he intended to retire from the representation of west barsetshire. "he had sat," the placard said, "for the same county during the full period of a quarter of a century, and he would not lightly give up an honour that had been extended to him so often and which he prized so dearly. there were but few men now in the house whose connection with the same body of constituents had remained unbroken so long as had that which bound him to west barsetshire; and he confidently hoped that that connection might be continued through another period of coming years till he might find himself in the glorious position of being the father of the county members of the house of commons." the placard said much more than this, and hinted at sundry and various questions, all of great interest to the county; but it did not say one word of the duke of omnium, though every one knew what the duke was supposed to be doing in the matter. he was, as it were, a great llama, shut up in a holy of holies, inscrutable, invisible, inexorable,--not to be seen by men's eyes or heard by their ears, hardly to be mentioned by ordinary men at such periods as these without an inward quaking. but nevertheless, it was he who was supposed to rule them. euphemism required that his name should be mentioned at no public meetings in connection with the coming election; but, nevertheless, most men in the county believed that he could send his dog up to the house of commons as member for west barsetshire if it so pleased him. it was supposed, therefore, that our friend sowerby would have no chance; but he was lucky in finding assistance in a quarter from which he certainly had not deserved it. he had been a staunch friend of the gods during the whole of his political life,--as, indeed, was to be expected, seeing that he had been the duke's nominee; but, nevertheless, on the present occasion, all the giants connected with the county came forward to his rescue. they did not do this with the acknowledged purpose of opposing the duke; they declared that they were actuated by a generous disinclination to see an old county member put from his seat;--but the world knew that the battle was to be waged against the great llama. it was to be a contest between the powers of aristocracy and the powers of oligarchy, as those powers existed in west barsetshire,--and, it may be added, that democracy would have very little to say to it, on one side or on the other. the lower order of voters, the small farmers and tradesmen, would no doubt range themselves on the side of the duke, and would endeavour to flatter themselves that they were thereby furthering the views of the liberal side; but they would in fact be led to the poll by an old-fashioned, time-honoured adherence to the will of their great llama; and by an apprehension of evil if that llama should arise and shake himself in his wrath. what might not come to the county if the llama were to walk himself off, he with his satellites and armies and courtiers? there he was, a great llama; and though he came among them but seldom, and was scarcely seen when he did come, nevertheless--and not the less but rather the more--was obedience to him considered as salutary and opposition regarded as dangerous. a great rural llama is still sufficiently mighty in rural england. but the priest of the temple, mr. fothergill, was frequent enough in men's eyes, and it was beautiful to hear with how varied a voice he alluded to the things around him and to the changes which were coming. to the small farmers, not only on the gatherum property but on others also, he spoke of the duke as a beneficent influence, shedding prosperity on all around him, keeping up prices by his presence, and forbidding the poor rates to rise above one and fourpence in the pound by the general employment which he occasioned. men must be mad, he thought, who would willingly fly in the duke's face. to the squires from a distance he declared that no one had a right to charge the duke with any interference;--as far, at least, as he knew the duke's mind. people would talk of things of which they understood nothing. could any one say that he had traced a single request for a vote home to the duke? all this did not alter the settled conviction on men's minds; but it had its effect, and tended to increase the mystery in which the duke's doings were enveloped. but to his own familiars, to the gentry immediately around him, mr. fothergill merely winked his eye. they knew what was what, and so did he. the duke had never been bit yet in such matters, and mr. fothergill did not think that he would now submit himself to any such operation. i never heard in what manner and at what rate mr. fothergill received remuneration for the various services performed by him with reference to the duke's property in barsetshire; but i am very sure that, whatever might be the amount, he earned it thoroughly. never was there a more faithful partisan, or one who, in his partisanship, was more discreet. in this matter of the coming election he declared that he himself,--personally, on his own hook,--did intend to bestir himself actively on behalf of lord dumbello. mr. sowerby was an old friend of his, and a very good fellow. that was true. but all the world must admit that sowerby was not in the position which a county member ought to occupy. he was a ruined man, and it would not be for his own advantage that he should be maintained in a position which was fit only for a man of property. he knew--he, fothergill--that mr. sowerby must abandon all right and claim to chaldicotes; and if so, what would be more absurd than to acknowledge that he had a right and claim to the seat in parliament? as to lord dumbello, it was probable that he would soon become one of the largest landowners in the county; and, as such, who could be more fit for the representation? beyond this, mr. fothergill was not ashamed to confess--so he said--that he hoped to hold lord dumbello's agency. it would be compatible with his other duties, and therefore, as a matter of course, he intended to support lord dumbello;--he himself, that is. as to the duke's mind in the matter--! but i have already explained how mr. fothergill disposed of that. in these days, mr. sowerby came down to his own house--for ostensibly it was still his own house--but he came very quietly, and his arrival was hardly known in his own village. though his placard was stuck up so widely, he himself took no electioneering steps; none, at least, as yet. the protection against arrest which he derived from parliament would soon be over, and those who were most bitter against the duke averred that steps would be taken to arrest him, should he give sufficient opportunity to the myrmidons of the law. that he would, in such case, be arrested was very likely; but it was not likely that this would be done in any way at the duke's instance. mr. fothergill declared indignantly that this insinuation made him very angry; but he was too prudent a man to be very angry at anything, and he knew how to make capital on his own side of charges such as these which overshot their own mark. mr. sowerby came down very quietly to chaldicotes, and there he remained for a couple of days, quite alone. the place bore a very different aspect now to that which we noticed when mark robarts drove up to it, in the early pages of this little narrative. there were no lights in the windows now, and no voices came from the stables; no dogs barked, and all was dead and silent as the grave. during the greater portion of those two days he sat alone within the house, almost unoccupied. he did not even open his letters, which lay piled on a crowded table in the small breakfast parlour in which he sat; for the letters of such men come in piles, and there are few of them which are pleasant in the reading. there he sat, troubled with thoughts which were sad enough, now and then moving to and fro the house, but for the most part occupied in thinking over the position to which he had brought himself. what would he be in the world's eye, if he ceased to be the owner of chaldicotes, and ceased also to be the member for his county? he had lived ever before the world, and, though always harassed by encumbrances, had been sustained and comforted by the excitement of a prominent position. his debts and difficulties had hitherto been bearable, and he had borne them with ease so long that he had almost taught himself to think that they would never be unendurable. but now,-- the order for foreclosing had gone forth, and the harpies of the law, by their present speed in sticking their claws into the carcase of his property, were atoning to themselves for the delay with which they had hitherto been compelled to approach their prey. and the order as to his seat had gone forth also. that placard had been drawn up by the combined efforts of his sister, miss dunstable, and a certain well-known electioneering agent, named closerstill, presumed to be in the interest of the giants. but poor sowerby had but little confidence in the placard. no one knew better than he how great was the duke's power. he was hopeless, therefore, as he walked about through those empty rooms, thinking of his past life and of that life which was to come. would it not be well for him that he were dead, now that he was dying to all that had made the world pleasant! we see and hear of such men as mr. sowerby, and are apt to think that they enjoy all that the world can give, and that they enjoy that all without payment either in care or labour; but i doubt that, with even the most callous of them, their periods of wretchedness must be frequent, and that wretchedness very intense. salmon and lamb in february and green pease and new potatoes in march can hardly make a man happy, even though nobody pays for them; and the feeling that one is an _antecedentem scelestum_ after whom a sure, though lame, nemesis is hobbling, must sometimes disturb one's slumbers. on the present occasion scelestus felt that his nemesis had overtaken him. lame as she had been, and swift as he had run, she had mouthed him at last, and there was nothing left for him but to listen to the "whoop" set up at the sight of his own death-throes. it was a melancholy, dreary place now, that big house of chaldicotes; and though the woods were all green with their early leaves, and the gardens thick with flowers, they also were melancholy and dreary. the lawns were untrimmed and weeds were growing through the gravel, and here and there a cracked dryad, tumbled from her pedestal and sprawling in the grass, gave a look of disorder to the whole place. the wooden trellis-work was shattered here and bending there, the standard rose-trees were stooping to the ground, and the leaves of the winter still encumbered the borders. late in the evening of the second day mr. sowerby strolled out, and went through the gardens into the wood. of all the inanimate things of the world this wood of chaldicotes was the dearest to him. he was not a man to whom his companions gave much credit for feelings or thoughts akin to poetry, but here, out in the chace, his mind would be almost poetical. while wandering among the forest trees, he became susceptible of the tenderness of human nature: he would listen to the birds singing, and pick here and there a wild flower on his path. he would watch the decay of the old trees and the progress of the young, and make pictures in his eyes of every turn in the wood. he would mark the colour of a bit of road as it dipped into a dell, and then, passing through a water-course, rose brown, rough, irregular, and beautiful against the bank on the other side. and then he would sit and think of his old family: how they had roamed there time out of mind in those chaldicotes woods, father and son and grandson in regular succession, each giving them over, without blemish or decrease, to his successor. so he would sit; and so he did sit even now, and, thinking of these things, wished that he had never been born. it was dark night when he returned to the house, and as he did so he resolved that he would quit the place altogether, and give up the battle as lost. the duke should take it and do as he pleased with it; and as for the seat in parliament, lord dumbello, or any other equally gifted young patrician, might hold it for him. he would vanish from the scene and betake himself to some land from whence he would be neither heard nor seen, and there--starve. such were now his future outlooks into the world; and yet, as regards health and all physical capacities, he knew that he was still in the prime of his life. yes; in the prime of his life! but what could he do with what remained to him of such prime? how could he turn either his mind or his strength to such account as might now be serviceable? how could he, in his sore need, earn for himself even the barest bread? would it not be better for him that he should die? let not any one covet the lot of a spendthrift, even though the days of his early pease and champagne seem to be unnumbered; for that lame nemesis will surely be up before the game has been all played out. when mr. sowerby reached his house he found that a message by telegraph had arrived for him in his absence. it was from his sister, and it informed him that she would be with him that night. she was coming down by the mail train, had telegraphed to barchester for post-horses, and would be at chaldicotes about two hours after midnight. it was therefore manifest enough that her business was of importance. exactly at two the barchester post-chaise did arrive, and mrs. harold smith, before she retired to her bed, was closeted for about an hour with her brother. "well," she said, the following morning, as they sat together at the breakfast-table, "what do you say to it now? if you accept her offer you should be with her lawyer this afternoon." "i suppose i must accept it," said he. "certainly, i think so. no doubt it will take the property out of your own hands as completely as though the duke had it, but it will leave you the house, at any rate, for your life." "what good will the house be, when i can't keep it up?" "but i am not so sure of that. she will not want more than her fair interest; and as it will be thoroughly well managed, i should think that there would be something over--something enough to keep up the house. and then, you know, we must have some place in the country." "i tell you fairly, harriet, that i will have nothing further to do with harold in the way of money." "ah! that was because you would go to him. why did you not come to me? and then, nathaniel, it is the only way in which you can have a chance of keeping the seat. she is the queerest woman i ever met, but she seems resolved on beating the duke." "i do not quite understand it, but i have not the slightest objection." "she thinks that he is interfering with young gresham about the crown property. i had no idea that she had so much business at her fingers' ends. when i first proposed the matter she took it up quite as a lawyer might, and seemed to have forgotten altogether what occurred about that other matter." "i wish i could forget it also," said mr. sowerby. "i really think that she does. when i was obliged to make some allusion to it--at least i felt myself obliged, and was sorry afterwards that i did--she merely laughed--a great loud laugh as she always does, and then went on about the business. however, she was clear about this, that all the expenses of the election should be added to the sum to be advanced by her, and that the house should be left to you without any rent. if you choose to take the land round the house you must pay for it, by the acre, as the tenants do. she was as clear about it all as though she had passed her life in a lawyer's office." my readers will now pretty well understand what last step that excellent sister, mrs. harold smith, had taken on her brother's behalf, nor will they be surprised to learn that in the course of the day mr. sowerby hurried back to town and put himself into communication with miss dunstable's lawyer. chapter xxxviii. is there cause or just impediment? i now purpose to visit another country house in barsetshire, but on this occasion our sojourn shall be in the eastern division, in which, as in every other county in england, electioneering matters are paramount at the present moment. it has been mentioned that mr. gresham, junior, young frank gresham as he was always called, lived at a place called boxall hill. this property had come to his wife by will, and he was now settled there,--seeing that his father still held the family seat of the greshams at greshamsbury. at the present moment miss dunstable was staying at boxall hill with mrs. frank gresham. they had left london,--as, indeed, all the world had done, to the terrible dismay of the london tradesmen. this dissolution of parliament was ruining everybody except the country publicans, and had of course destroyed the london season among other things. mrs. harold smith had only just managed to catch miss dunstable before she left london; but she did do so, and the great heiress had at once seen her lawyers, and instructed them how to act with reference to the mortgages on the chaldicotes property. miss dunstable was in the habit of speaking of herself and her own pecuniary concerns as though she herself were rarely allowed to meddle in their management; but this was one of those small jokes which she ordinarily perpetrated; for in truth few ladies, and perhaps not many gentlemen, have a more thorough knowledge of their own concerns or a more potent voice in their own affairs, than was possessed by miss dunstable. circumstances had lately brought her much into barsetshire and she had there contracted very intimate friendships. she was now disposed to become, if possible, a barsetshire proprietor, and with this view had lately agreed with young mr. gresham that she would become the purchaser of the crown property. as, however, the purchase had been commenced in his name, it was so to be continued; but now, as we are aware, it was rumoured that, after all, the duke, or, if not the duke, then the marquis of dumbello, was to be the future owner of the chace. miss dunstable, however, was not a person to give up her object if she could attain it, nor, under the circumstances, was she at all displeased at finding herself endowed with the power of rescuing the sowerby portion of the chaldicotes property from the duke's clutches. why had the duke meddled with her, or with her friend, as to the other property? therefore it was arranged that the full amount due to the duke on mortgage should be ready for immediate payment; but it was arranged also that the security as held by miss dunstable should be very valid. miss dunstable, at boxall hill or at greshamsbury, was a very different person from miss dunstable in london; and it was this difference which so much vexed mrs. gresham; not that her friend omitted to bring with her into the country her london wit and aptitude for fun, but that she did not take with her up to town the genuine goodness and love of honesty which made her loveable in the country. she was as it were two persons, and mrs. gresham could not understand that any lady should permit herself to be more worldly at one time of the year than at another--or in one place than in any other. "well, my dear, i am heartily glad we've done with that," miss dunstable said to her, as she sat herself down to her desk in the drawing-room on the first morning after her arrival at boxall hill. [illustration: mrs. gresham and miss dunstable.] "what does 'that' mean?" said mrs. gresham. "why, london and smoke and late hours, and standing on one's legs for four hours at a stretch on the top of one's own staircase, to be bowed at by any one who chooses to come. that's all done--for one year, at any rate." "you know you like it." "no, mary; that's just what i don't know. i don't know whether i like it or not. sometimes, when the spirit of that dearest of all women, mrs. harold smith, is upon me, i think that i do like it; but then again, when other spirits are on me, i think that i don't." "and who are the owners of the other spirits?" "oh! you are one, of course. but you are a weak little thing, by no means able to contend with such a samson as mrs. harold. and then you are a little given to wickedness yourself, you know. you've learned to like london well enough since you sat down to the table of dives. your uncle,--he's the real impracticable, unapproachable lazarus who declares that he can't come down because of the big gulf. i wonder how he'd behave, if somebody left him ten thousand a year?" "uncommonly well, i am sure." "oh, yes; he is a lazarus now, so of course we are bound to speak well of him; but i should like to see him tried. i don't doubt but what he'd have a house in belgrave square, and become noted for his little dinners before the first year of his trial was over." "well, and why not? you would not wish him to be an anchorite?" "i am told that he is going to try his luck,--not with ten thousand a year, but with one or two." "what do you mean?" "jane tells me that they all say at greshamsbury that he is going to marry lady scatcherd." now lady scatcherd was a widow living in those parts; an excellent woman, but one not formed by nature to grace society of the highest order. "what!" exclaimed mrs. gresham, rising up from her chair while her eyes flashed with anger at such a rumour. "well, my dear, don't eat me. i don't say it is so; i only say that jane said so." "then you ought to send jane out of the house." "you may be sure of this, my dear: jane would not have told me if somebody had not told her." "and you believed it?" "i have said nothing about that." "but you look as if you had believed it." "do i? let us see what sort of a look it is, this look of faith." and miss dunstable got up and went to the glass over the fire-place. "but, mary, my dear, ain't you old enough to know that you should not credit people's looks? you should believe nothing now-a-days; and i did not believe the story about poor lady scatcherd. i know the doctor well enough to be sure that he is not a marrying man." "what a nasty, hackneyed, false phrase that is--that of a marrying man! it sounds as though some men were in the habit of getting married three or four times a month." "it means a great deal all the same. one can tell very soon whether a man is likely to marry or no." "and can one tell the same of a woman?" "the thing is so different. all unmarried women are necessarily in the market; but if they behave themselves properly they make no signs. now there was griselda grantly; of course she intended to get herself a husband, and a very grand one she has got; but she always looked as though butter would not melt in her mouth. it would have been very wrong to call her a marrying girl." "oh, of course she was," says mrs. gresham, with that sort of acrimony which one pretty young woman so frequently expresses with reference to another. "but if one could always tell of a woman, as you say you can of a man, i should be able to tell of you. now, i wonder whether you are a marrying woman? i have never been able to make up my mind yet." miss dunstable remained silent for a few moments, as though she were at first minded to take the question as being, in some sort, one made in earnest; but then she attempted to laugh it off. "well, i wonder at that," said she, "as it was only the other day i told you how many offers i had refused." "yes; but you did not tell me whether any had been made that you meant to accept." "none such was ever made to me. talking of that, i shall never forget your cousin, the honourable george." "he is not my cousin." "well, your husband's. it would not be fair to show a man's letters; but i should like to show you his." "you are determined, then, to remain single?" "i didn't say that. but why do you cross-question me so?" "because i think so much about you. i am afraid that you will become so afraid of men's motives as to doubt that any one can be honest. and yet sometimes i think you would be a happier woman and a better woman, if you were married." "to such an one as the honourable george, for instance?" "no, not to such an one as him; you have probably picked out the worst." "or to mr. sowerby?" "well, no; not to mr. sowerby, either. i would not have you marry any man that looked to you for your money principally." "and how is it possible that i should expect any one to look to me principally for anything else? you don't see my difficulty, my dear? if i had only five hundred a year, i might come across some decent middle-aged personage, like myself, who would like me, myself, pretty well, and would like my little income--pretty well also. he would not tell me any violent lie, and perhaps no lie at all. i should take to him in the same sort of way, and we might do very well. but, as it is, how is it possible that any disinterested person should learn to like me? how could such a man set about it? if a sheep have two heads, is not the fact of the two heads the first and, indeed, only thing which the world regards in that sheep? must it not be so as a matter of course? i am a sheep with two heads. all this money which my father put together, and which has been growing since like grass under may showers, has turned me into an abortion. i am not the giantess eight feet high, or the dwarf that stands in the man's hand,--" "or the two-headed sheep--" "but i am the unmarried woman with--half a dozen millions of money--as i believe some people think. under such circumstances have i a fair chance of getting my own sweet bit of grass to nibble, like any ordinary animal with one head? i never was very beautiful, and i am not more so now than i was fifteen years ago." "i am quite sure it is not that which hinders it. you would not call yourself plain; and even plain women are married every day, and are loved, too, as well as pretty women." "are they? well, we won't say more about that; but i don't expect a great many lovers on account of my beauty. if ever you hear of such an one, mind you tell me." it was almost on mrs. gresham's tongue to say that she did know of one such--meaning her uncle. but in truth, she did not know any such thing; nor could she boast to herself that she had good grounds for feeling that it was so--certainly none sufficient to justify her in speaking of it. her uncle had said no word to her on the matter, and had been confused and embarrassed when the idea of such a marriage was hinted to him. but, nevertheless, mrs. gresham did think that each of these two was well inclined to love the other, and that they would be happier together than they would be single. the difficulty, however, was very great, for the doctor would be terribly afraid of being thought covetous in regard to miss dunstable's money; and it would hardly be expected that she should be induced to make the first overture to the doctor. "my uncle would be the only man that i can think of that would be at all fit for you," said mrs. gresham, boldly. "what, and rob poor lady scatcherd!" said miss dunstable. "oh, very well. if you choose to make a joke of his name in that way, i have done." "why, god bless the girl! what does she want me to say? and as for joking, surely that is innocent enough. you're as tender about the doctor as though he were a girl of seventeen." "it's not about him; but it's such a shame to laugh at poor dear lady scatcherd. if she were to hear it she'd lose all comfort in having my uncle near her." "and i'm to marry him, so that she may be safe with her friend!" "very well; i have done." and mrs. gresham, who had already got up from her seat, employed herself very sedulously in arranging flowers which had been brought in for the drawing-room tables. thus they remained silent for a minute or two, during which she began to reflect that, after all, it might probably be thought that she also was endeavouring to catch the great heiress for her uncle. "and now you are angry with me," said miss dunstable. "no, i am not." "oh, but you are. do you think i'm such a fool as not to see when a person's vexed? you wouldn't have twitched that geranium's head off if you'd been in a proper frame of mind." "i don't like that joke about lady scatcherd." "and is that all, mary? now do try and be true, if you can. you remember the bishop? _magna est veritas._" "the fact is you've got into such a way of being sharp, and saying sharp things among your friends up in london, that you can hardly answer a person without it." "can't i? dear, dear, what a mentor you are, mary! no poor lad that ever ran up from oxford for a spree in town got so lectured for his dissipation and iniquities as i do. well, i beg dr. thorne's pardon, and lady scatcherd's, and i won't be sharp any more; and i will--let me see, what was it i was to do? marry him myself, i believe; was not that it?" "no; you're not half good enough for him." "i know that. i'm quite sure of that. though i am so sharp, i'm very humble. you can't accuse me of putting any very great value on myself." "perhaps not as much as you ought to do--on yourself." "now, what do you mean, mary? i won't be bullied and teased, and have innuendos thrown out at me, because you've got something on your mind, and don't quite dare to speak it out. if you have got anything to say, say it." but mrs. gresham did not choose to say it at that moment. she held her peace, and went on arranging her flowers--now with a more satisfied air, and without destruction to the geraniums. and when she had grouped her bunches properly she carried the jar from one part of the room to another, backwards and forwards, trying the effect of the colours, as though her mind was quite intent upon her flowers, and was for the moment wholly unoccupied with any other subject. but miss dunstable was not the woman to put up with this. she sat silent in her place, while her friend made one or two turns about the room; and then she got up from her seat also. "mary," she said, "give over about those wretched bits of green branches and leave the jars where they are. you're trying to fidget me into a passion." "am i?" said mrs. gresham, standing opposite to a big bowl, and putting her head a little on one side, as though she could better look at her handiwork in that position. "you know you are; and it's all because you lack courage to speak out. you didn't begin at me in this way for nothing." "i do lack courage. that's just it," said mrs. gresham, still giving a twist here and a set there to some of the small sprigs which constituted the background of her bouquet. "i do lack courage--to have ill motives imputed to me. i was thinking of saying something, and i am afraid, and therefore i will not say it. and now, if you like, i will be ready to take you out in ten minutes." but miss dunstable was not going to be put off in this way. and to tell the truth, i must admit that her friend mrs. gresham was not using her altogether well. she should either have held her peace on the matter altogether,--which would probably have been her wiser course,--or she should have declared her own ideas boldly, feeling secure in her own conscience as to her own motives. "i shall not stir from this room," said miss dunstable, "till i have had this matter out with you. and as for imputations,--my imputing bad motives to you,--i don't know how far you may be joking, and saying what you call sharp things to me; but you have no right to think that i should think evil of you. if you really do think so, it is treason to the love i have for you. if i thought that you thought so, i could not remain in the house with you. what! you are not able to know the difference which one makes between one's real friends and one's mock friends! i don't believe it of you, and i know you are only striving to bully me." and miss dunstable now took her turn of walking up and down the room. "well, she shan't be bullied," said mrs. gresham, leaving her flowers, and putting her arm round her friend's waist;--"at least, not here, in this house, although she is sometimes such a bully herself." "mary, you have gone too far about this to go back. tell me what it was that was on your mind, and as far as it concerns me, i will answer you honestly." mrs. gresham now began to repent that she had made her little attempt. that uttering of hints in a half-joking way was all very well, and might possibly bring about the desired result, without the necessity of any formal suggestion on her part; but now she was so brought to book that she must say something formal. she must commit herself to the expression of her own wishes, and to an expression also of an opinion as to what had been the wishes of her friend; and this she must do without being able to say anything as to the wishes of that third person. "well," she said, "i suppose you know what i meant." "i suppose i did," said miss dunstable; "but it is not at all the less necessary that you should say it out. i am not to commit myself by my interpretation of your thoughts, while you remain perfectly secure in having only hinted your own. i hate hints, as i do--the mischief. i go in for the bishop's doctrine. _magna est veritas._" "well, i don't know," said mrs. gresham. "ah! but i do," said miss dunstable. "and therefore go on, or for ever hold your peace." "that's just it," said mrs. gresham. "what's just it?" said miss dunstable. "the quotation out of the prayer book which you finished just now. 'if any of you know cause or just impediment why these two persons should not be joined together in holy matrimony, ye are to declare it. this is the first time of asking.' do you know any cause, miss dunstable?" "do you know any, mrs. gresham?" "none, on my honour!" said the younger lady, putting her hand upon her breast. "ah! but do you not?" and miss dunstable caught hold of her arm, and spoke almost abruptly in her energy. "no, certainly not. what impediment? if i did, i should not have broached the subject. i declare i think you would both be very happy together. of course, there is one impediment; we all know that. that must be your look out." "what do you mean? what impediment?" "your own money." "psha! did you find that an impediment in marrying frank gresham?" "ah! the matter was so different there. he had much more to give than i had, when all was counted. and i had no money when we--when we were first engaged." and the tears came into her eyes as she thought of the circumstances of her early love;--all of which have been narrated in the county chronicles of barsetshire, and may now be read by men and women interested therein. "yes; yours was a love match. i declare, mary, i often think that you are the happiest woman of whom i ever heard; to have it all to give, when you were so sure that you were loved while you yet had nothing." "yes; i was sure," and she wiped the sweet tears from her eyes, as she remembered a certain day when a certain youth had come to her, claiming all kinds of privileges in a very determined manner. she had been no heiress then. "yes; i was sure. but now with you, dear, you can't make yourself poor again. if you can trust no one--" "i can. i can trust him. as regards that i do trust him altogether. but how can i tell that he would care for me?" "do you not know that he likes you?" "ah, yes; and so he does lady scatcherd." "miss dunstable!" "and why not lady scatcherd, as well as me? we are of the same kind--come from the same class." "not quite that, i think." "yes, from the same class; only i have managed to poke myself up among dukes and duchesses, whereas she has been content to remain where god placed her. where i beat her in art, she beats me in nature." "you know you are talking nonsense." "i think that we are both doing that--absolute nonsense; such as schoolgirls of eighteen talk to each other. but there is a relief in it; is there not? it would be a terrible curse to have to talk sense always. well, that's done; and now let us go out." mrs. gresham was sure after this that miss dunstable would be a consenting party to the little arrangement which she contemplated. but of that she had felt but little doubt for some considerable time past. the difficulty lay on the other side, and all that she had as yet done was to convince herself that she would be safe in assuring her uncle of success if he could be induced to take the enterprise in hand. he was to come to boxall hill that evening, and to remain there for a day or two. if anything could be done in the matter, now would be the time for doing it. so at least thought mrs. gresham. the doctor did come, and did remain for the allotted time at boxall hill; but when he left, mrs. gresham had not been successful. indeed, he did not seem to enjoy his visit as was usual with him; and there was very little of that pleasant friendly intercourse which for some time past had been customary between him and miss dunstable. there were no passages of arms between them; no abuse from the doctor against the lady's london gaiety; no raillery from the lady as to the doctor's country habits. they were very courteous to each other, and, as mrs. gresham thought, too civil by half; nor, as far as she could see, did they ever remain alone in each other's company for five minutes at a time during the whole period of the doctor's visit. what, thought mrs. gresham to herself,--what if she had set these two friends at variance with each other, instead of binding them together in the closest and most durable friendship! but still she had an idea that, as she had begun to play this game, she must play it out. she felt conscious that what she had done must do evil, unless she could so carry it on as to make it result in good. indeed, unless she could so manage, she would have done a manifest injury to miss dunstable in forcing her to declare her thoughts and feelings. she had already spoken to her uncle in london, and though he had said nothing to show that he approved of her plan, neither had he said anything to show that he disapproved it. therefore she had hoped through the whole of those three days that he would make some sign,--at any rate to her; that he would in some way declare what were his own thoughts on this matter. but the morning of his departure came, and he had declared nothing. "uncle," she said, in the last five minutes of his sojourn there, after he had already taken leave of miss dunstable and shaken hands with mrs. gresham, "have you ever thought of what i said to you up in london?" "yes, mary; of course i have thought about it. such an idea as that, when put into a man's head, will make itself thought about." "well; and what next? do talk to me about it. do not be so hard and unlike yourself." "i have very little to say about it." "i can tell you this for certain, you may if you like." "mary! mary!" "i would not say so if i were not sure that i should not lead you into trouble." "you are foolish in wishing this, my dear; foolish in trying to tempt an old man into a folly." "not foolish if i know that it will make you both happier." he made her no further reply, but stooping down that she might kiss him, as was his wont, went his way, leaving her almost miserable in the thought that she had troubled all these waters to no purpose. what would miss dunstable think of her? but on that afternoon miss dunstable seemed to be as happy and even-tempered as ever. chapter xxxix. how to write a love letter. dr. thorne, in the few words which he spoke to his niece before he left boxall hill, had called himself an old man; but he was as yet on the right side of sixty by five good years, and bore about with him less of the marks of age than most men of fifty-five do bear. one would have said in looking at him that there was no reason why he should not marry if he found that such a step seemed good to him; and looking at the age of the proposed bride, there was nothing unsuitable in that respect. but nevertheless he felt almost ashamed of himself, in that he allowed himself even to think of the proposition which his niece had made. he mounted his horse that day at boxall hill--for he made all his journeys about the county on horseback--and rode slowly home to greshamsbury, thinking not so much of the suggested marriage as of his own folly in thinking of it. how could he be such an ass at his time of life as to allow the even course of his way to be disturbed by any such idea? of course he could not propose to himself such a wife as miss dunstable without having some thoughts as to her wealth; and it had been the pride of his life so to live that the world might know that he was indifferent about money. his profession was all in all to him,--the air which he breathed as well as the bread which he ate; and how could he follow his profession if he made such a marriage as this? she would expect him to go to london with her; and what would he become, dangling at her heels there, known only to the world as the husband of the richest woman in the town? the kind of life was one which would be unsuitable to him;--and yet, as he rode home, he could not resolve to rid himself of the idea. he went on thinking of it, though he still continued to condemn himself for keeping it in his thoughts. that night at home he would make up his mind, so he declared to himself; and would then write to his niece begging her to drop the subject. having so far come to a resolution he went on meditating what course of life it might be well for him to pursue if he and miss dunstable should, after all, become man and wife. there were two ladies whom it behoved him to see on the day of his arrival--whom, indeed, he generally saw every day except when absent from greshamsbury. the first of these--first in the general consideration of the people of the place--was the wife of the squire, lady arabella gresham, a very old patient of the doctor's. her it was his custom to visit early in the afternoon; and then, if he were able to escape the squire's daily invitation to dinner, he customarily went to the other, lady scatcherd, when the rapid meal in his own house was over. such, at least, was his summer practice. "well, doctor, how are they at boxall hill?" said the squire, waylaying him on the gravel sweep before the door. the squire was very hard set for occupation in these summer months. "quite well, i believe." "i don't know what's come to frank. i think he hates this place now. he's full of the election, i suppose." "oh, yes; he told me to say he should be over here soon. of course there'll be no contest, so he need not trouble himself." "happy dog, isn't he, doctor? to have it all before him instead of behind him. well, well; he's as good a lad as ever lived,--as ever lived. and let me see; mary's time--" and then there were a few very important words spoken on that subject. "i'll just step up to lady arabella now," said the doctor. "she's as fretful as possible," said the squire. "i've just left her." "nothing special the matter, i hope?" "no, i think not; nothing in your way, that is; only specially cross, which always comes in my way. you'll stop and dine to-day, of course?" "not to-day, squire." "nonsense; you will. i have been quite counting on you. i have a particular reason for wanting to have you to-day,--a most particular reason." but the squire always had his particular reasons. "i'm very sorry, but it is impossible to-day. i shall have a letter to write that i must sit down to seriously. shall i see you when i come down from her ladyship?" the squire turned away sulkily, almost without answering him, for he now had no prospect of any alleviation to the tedium of the evening; and the doctor went up-stairs to his patient. for lady arabella, though it cannot be said that she was ill, was always a patient. it must not be supposed that she kept her bed and swallowed daily doses, or was prevented from taking her share in such prosy gaieties as came from time to time in the way of her prosy life; but it suited her turn of mind to be an invalid and to have a doctor; and as the doctor whom her good fates had placed at her elbow thoroughly understood her case, no great harm was done. "it frets me dreadfully that i cannot get to see mary," lady arabella said, as soon as the first ordinary question as to her ailments had been asked and answered. "she's quite well and will be over to see you before long." "now i beg that she won't. she never thinks of coming when there can be no possible objection, and travelling, at the present moment, would be--" whereupon the lady arabella shook her head very gravely. "only think of the importance of it, doctor," she said. "remember the enormous stake there is to be considered." "it would not do her a ha'porth of harm if the stake were twice as large." "nonsense, doctor, don't tell me; as if i didn't know myself. i was very much against her going to london this spring, but of course what i said was overruled. it always is. i do believe mr. gresham went over to boxall hill, on purpose to induce her to go. but what does he care? he's fond of frank; but he never thinks of looking beyond the present day. he never did, as you know well enough, doctor." "the trip did her all the good in the world," said dr. thorne, preferring anything to a conversation respecting the squire's sins. "i very well remember that when i was in that way it wasn't thought that such trips would do me any good. but, perhaps, things are altered since then." "yes, they are," said the doctor. "we don't interfere so much now-a-days." "i know i never asked for such amusements when so much depended on quietness. i remember before frank was born--and, indeed, when all of them were born-- but as you say, things were different then; and i can easily believe that mary is a person quite determined to have her own way." "why, lady arabella, she would have stayed at home without wishing to stir if frank had done so much as hold up his little finger." "so did i always. if mr. gresham made the slightest hint i gave way. but i really don't see what one gets in return for such implicit obedience. now this year, doctor, of course i should have liked to have been up in london for a week or two. you seemed to think yourself that i might as well see sir omicron." "there could be no possible objection, i said." "well; no; exactly; and as mr. gresham knew i wished it, i think he might as well have offered it. i suppose there can be no reason now about money." "but i understood that mary specially asked you and augusta?" "yes; mary was very good. she did ask me. but i know very well that mary wants all the room she has got in london. the house is not at all too large for herself. and, for the matter of that, my sister, the countess, was very anxious that i should be with her. but one does like to be independent if one can, and for one fortnight i do think that mr. gresham might have managed it. when i knew that he was so dreadfully out at elbows i never troubled him about it,--though, goodness knows, all that was never my fault." "the squire hates london. a fortnight there in warm weather would nearly be the death of him." "he might at any rate have paid me the compliment of asking me. the chances are ten to one i should not have gone. it is that indifference that cuts me so. he was here just now, and, would you believe it?--" but the doctor was determined to avoid further complaint for the present day. "i wonder what you would feel, lady arabella, if the squire were to take it into his head to go away and amuse himself, leaving you at home. there are worse men than mr. gresham, if you will believe me." all this was an allusion to earl de courcy, her ladyship's brother, as lady arabella very well understood; and the argument was one which was very often used to silence her. "upon my word, then, i should like it better than his hanging about here doing nothing but attend to those nasty dogs. i really sometimes think that he has no spirit left." "you are mistaken there, lady arabella," said the doctor, rising with his hat in his hand and making his escape without further parley. as he went home he could not but think that that phase of married life was not a very pleasant one. mr. gresham and his wife were supposed by the world to live on the best of terms. they always inhabited the same house, went out together when they did go out, always sat in their respective corners in the family pew, and in their wildest dreams after the happiness of novelty never thought of sir cresswell cresswell. in some respects--with regard, for instance, to the continued duration of their joint domesticity at the family mansion of greshamsbury--they might have been taken for a pattern couple. but yet, as far as the doctor could see, they did not seem to add much to the happiness of each other. they loved each other, doubtless, and had either of them been in real danger, that danger would have made the other miserable; but yet it might well be a question whether either would not be more comfortable without the other. the doctor, as was his custom, dined at five, and at seven he went up to the cottage of his old friend lady scatcherd. lady scatcherd was not a refined woman, having in her early days been a labourer's daughter and having then married a labourer. but her husband had risen in the world--as has been told in those chronicles before mentioned,--and his widow was now lady scatcherd with a pretty cottage and a good jointure. she was in all things the very opposite to lady arabella gresham; nevertheless, under the doctor's auspices, the two ladies were in some measure acquainted with each other. of her married life, also, dr. thorne had seen something, and it may be questioned whether the memory of that was more alluring than the reality now existing at greshamsbury. of the two women dr. thorne much preferred his humbler friend, and to her he made his visits not in the guise of a doctor, but as a neighbour. "well, my lady," he said, as he sat down by her on a broad garden seat--all the world called lady scatcherd "my lady,"--"and how do these long summer days agree with you? your roses are twice better out than any i see up at the big house." "you may well call them long, doctor. they're long enough surely." "but not too long. come, now, i won't have you complaining. you don't mean to tell me that you have anything to make you wretched? you had better not, for i won't believe you." "eh; well; wretched! i don't know as i'm wretched. it'd be wicked to say that, and i with such comforts about me." "i think it would, almost." the doctor did not say this harshly, but in a soft, friendly tone, and pressing her hand gently as he spoke. "and i didn't mean to be wicked. i'm very thankful for everything--leastways, i always try to be. but, doctor, it is so lonely like." "lonely! not more lonely than i am." "oh, yes; you're different. you can go everywheres. but what can a lone woman do? i'll tell you what, doctor; i'd give it all up to have roger back with his apron on and his pick in his hand. how well i mind his look when he'd come home o' nights." "and yet it was a hard life you had then, eh, old woman? it would be better for you to be thankful for what you've got." "i am thankful. didn't i tell you so before?" said she, somewhat crossly. "but it's a sad life, this living alone. i declares i envy hannah, 'cause she's got jemima to sit in the kitchen with her. i want her to sit with me sometimes, but she won't." "ah! but you shouldn't ask her. it's letting yourself down." "what do i care about down or up? it makes no difference, as he's gone. if he had lived one might have cared about being up, as you call it. eh, deary; i'll be going after him before long, and it will be no matter then." "we shall all be going after him, sooner or later; that's sure enough." "eh, dear, that's true, surely. it's only a span long, as parson oriel tells us when he gets romantic in his sermons. but it's a hard thing, doctor, when two is married, as they can't have their span, as he calls it, out together. well, i must only put up with it, i suppose, as others does. now, you're not going, doctor? you'll stop and have a dish of tea with me. you never see such cream as hannah has from the alderney cow. do'ey now, doctor." but the doctor had his letter to write, and would not allow himself to be tempted even by the promise of hannah's cream. so he went his way, angering lady scatcherd by his departure as he had before angered the squire, and thinking as he went which was most unreasonable in her wretchedness, his friend lady arabella, or his friend lady scatcherd. the former was always complaining of an existing husband who never refused her any moderate request; and the other passed her days in murmuring at the loss of a dead husband, who in his life had ever been to her imperious and harsh, and had sometimes been cruel and unjust. the doctor had his letter to write, but even yet he had not quite made up his mind what he would put into it; indeed, he had not hitherto resolved to whom it should be written. looking at the matter as he had endeavoured to look at it, his niece, mrs. gresham, would be his correspondent; but if he brought himself to take this jump in the dark, in that case he would address himself direct to miss dunstable. he walked home, not by the straightest road, but taking a considerable curve, round by narrow lanes, and through thick flower-laden hedges,--very thoughtful. he was told that she wished to marry him; and was he to think only of himself? and as to that pride of his about money, was it in truth a hearty, manly feeling; or was it a false pride, of which it behoved him to be ashamed as it did of many cognate feelings? if he acted rightly in this matter, why should he be afraid of the thoughts of any one? a life of solitude was bitter enough, as poor lady scatcherd had complained. but then, looking at lady scatcherd, and looking also at his other near neighbour, his friend the squire, there was little thereabouts to lead him on to matrimony. so he walked home slowly through the lanes, very meditative, with his hands behind his back. nor when he got home was he much more inclined to any resolute line of action. he might have drunk his tea with lady scatcherd, as well as have sat there in his own drawing-room, drinking it alone; for he got no pen and paper, and he dawdled over his teacup with the utmost dilatoriness, putting off, as it were, the evil day. to only one thing was he fixed--to this, namely, that that letter should be written before he went to bed. having finished his tea, which did not take place till near eleven, he went downstairs to an untidy little room which lay behind his depôt of medicines, and in which he was wont to do his writing; and herein he did at last set himself down to his work. even at that moment he was in doubt. but he would write his letter to miss dunstable and see how it looked. he was almost determined not to send it; so, at least, he said to himself: but he could do no harm by writing it. so he did write it, as follows:-- greshamsbury, -- june, --. my dear miss dunstable,-- when he had got so far, he leaned back in his chair and looked at the paper. how on earth was he to find words to say that which he now wished to have said? he had never written such a letter in his life, or anything approaching to it, and now found himself overwhelmed with a difficulty of which he had not previously thought. he spent another half-hour in looking at the paper, and was at last nearly deterred by this new difficulty. he would use the simplest, plainest language, he said to himself over and over again; but it is not always easy to use simple, plain language,--by no means so easy as to mount on stilts, and to march along with sesquipedalian words, with pathos, spasms, and notes of interjection. but the letter did at last get itself written, and there was not a note of interjection in it. my dear miss dunstable,--i think it right to confess that i should not be now writing this letter to you, had i not been led to believe by other judgment than my own that the proposition which i am going to make would be regarded by you with favour. without such other judgment i should, i own, have feared that the great disparity between you and me in regard to money would have given to such a proposition an appearance of being false and mercenary. all i ask of you now, with confidence, is to acquit me of such fault as that. when you have read so far you will understand what i mean. we have known each other now somewhat intimately, though indeed not very long, and i have sometimes fancied that you were almost as well pleased to be with me as i have been to be with you. if i have been wrong in this, tell me so simply, and i will endeavour to let our friendship run on as though this letter had not been written. but if i have been right, and if it be possible that you can think that a union between us will make us both happier than we are single, i will plight you my word and troth with good faith, and will do what an old man may do to make the burden of the world lie light upon your shoulders. looking at my age i can hardly keep myself from thinking that i am an old fool: but i try to reconcile myself to that by remembering that you yourself are no longer a girl. you see that i pay you no compliments, and that you need expect none from me. i do not know that i could add anything to the truth of this, if i were to write three times as much. all that is necessary is, that you should know what i mean. if you do not believe me to be true and honest already, nothing that i can write will make you believe it. god bless you. i know you will not keep me long in suspense for an answer. affectionately your friend, thomas thorne. when he had finished he meditated again for another half-hour whether it would not be right that he should add something about her money. would it not be well for him to tell her--it might be said in a postscript--that with regard to all her wealth she would be free to do what she chose? at any rate he owed no debts for her to pay, and would still have his own income, sufficient for his own purposes. but about one o'clock he came to the conclusion that it would be better to leave the matter alone. if she cared for him, and could trust him, and was worthy also that he should trust her, no omission of such a statement would deter her from coming to him: and if there were no such trust, it would not be created by any such assurance on his part. so he read the letter over twice, sealed it, and took it up, together with his bed candle, into his bed-room. now that the letter was written it seemed to be a thing fixed by fate that it must go. he had written it that he might see how it looked when written; but now that it was written, there remained no doubt but that it must be sent. so he went to bed, with the letter on the toilette-table beside him; and early in the morning--so early as to make it seem that the importance of the letter had disturbed his rest--he sent it off by a special messenger to boxall hill. "i'se wait for an answer?" said the boy. "no," said the doctor: "leave the letter, and come away." the breakfast hour was not very early at boxall hill in these summer months. frank gresham, no doubt, went round his farm before he came in for prayers, and his wife was probably looking to the butter in the dairy. at any rate, they did not meet till near ten, and therefore, though the ride from greshamsbury to boxall hill was nearly two hours' work, miss dunstable had her letter in her own room before she came down. she read it in silence as she was dressing, while the maid was with her in the room; but she made no sign which could induce her abigail to think that the epistle was more than ordinarily important. she read it, and then quietly refolding it and placing it in the envelope, she put it down on the table at which she was sitting. it was full fifteen minutes afterwards that she begged her servant to see if mrs. gresham were still in her own room. "because i want to see her for five minutes, alone, before breakfast," said miss dunstable. "you traitor; you false, black traitor!" were the first words which miss dunstable spoke when she found herself alone with her friend. "why, what's the matter?" "i did not think there was so much mischief in you, nor so keen and commonplace a desire for match-making. look here. read the first four lines; not more, if you please; the rest is private. whose is the other judgment of whom your uncle speaks in his letter?" "oh, miss dunstable! i must read it all." "indeed you'll do no such thing. you think it's a love-letter, i dare say; but indeed there's not a word about love in it." "i know he has offered. i shall be so glad, for i know you like him." "he tells me that i am an old woman, and insinuates that i may probably be an old fool." "i am sure he does not say that." "ah! but i'm sure that he does. the former is true enough, and i never complain of the truth. but as to the latter, i am by no means so certain that it is true--not in the sense that he means it." "dear, dearest woman, don't go on in that way now. do speak out to me, and speak without jesting." "whose was the other judgment to whom he trusts so implicitly? tell me that." "mine, mine, of course. no one else can have spoken to him about it. of course i talked to him." "and what did you tell him?" "i told him--" "well, out with it. let me have the real facts. mind, i tell you fairly that you had no right to tell him anything. what passed between us, passed in confidence. but let us hear what you did say." "i told him that you would have him if he offered." and mrs. gresham, as she spoke, looked into her friend's face doubtingly, not knowing whether in very truth miss dunstable were pleased with her or displeased. if she were displeased, then how had her uncle been deceived! "you told him that as a fact?" "i told him that i thought so." "then i suppose i am bound to have him," said miss dunstable, dropping the letter on to the floor in mock despair. "my dear, dear, dearest woman!" said mrs. gresham, bursting into tears, and throwing herself on to her friend's neck. "mind you are a dutiful niece," said miss dunstable. "and now let me go and finish dressing." in the course of the afternoon, an answer was sent back to greshamsbury, in these words:-- dear dr. thorne,--i do and will trust you in everything; and it shall be as you would have it. mary writes to you; but do not believe a word she says. i never will again, for she has behaved so bad in this matter. yours affectionately and very truly, martha dunstable. "and so i am going to marry the richest woman in england," said dr. thorne to himself, as he sat down that day to his mutton-chop. chapter xl. internecine. it must be conceived that there was some feeling of triumph at plumstead episcopi, when the wife of the rector returned home with her daughter, the bride elect of the lord dumbello. the heir of the marquis of hartletop was, in wealth, the most considerable unmarried young nobleman of the day; he was noted, too, as a man difficult to be pleased, as one who was very fine and who gave himself airs,--and to have been selected as the wife of such a man as this was a great thing for the daughter of a parish clergyman. we have seen in what manner the happy girl's mother communicated the fact to lady lufton, hiding, as it were, her pride under a veil; and we have seen also how meekly the happy girl bore her own great fortune, applying herself humbly to the packing of her clothes, as though she ignored her own glory. but nevertheless there was triumph at plumstead episcopi. the mother, when she returned home, began to feel that she had been thoroughly successful in the great object of her life. while she was yet in london she had hardly realized her satisfaction, and there were doubts then whether the cup might not be dashed from her lips before it was tasted. it might be that even the son of the marquis of hartletop was subject to parental authority, and that barriers should spring up between griselda and her coronet; but there had been nothing of the kind. the archdeacon had been closeted with the marquis, and mrs. grantly had been closeted with the marchioness; and though neither of those noble persons had expressed themselves gratified by their son's proposed marriage, so also neither of them had made any attempt to prevent it. lord dumbello was a man who had a will of his own,--as the grantlys boasted amongst themselves. poor griselda! the day may perhaps come when this fact of her lord's masterful will may not to her be matter of much boasting. but in london, as i was saying, there had been no time for an appreciation of the family joy. the work to be done was nervous in its nature, and self-glorification might have been fatal; but now, when they were safe at plumstead, the great truth burst upon them in all its splendour. mrs. grantly had but one daughter, and the formation of that child's character and her establishment in the world had been the one main object of the mother's life. of griselda's great beauty the plumstead household had long been conscious; of her discretion also, of her conduct, and of her demeanour there had been no doubt. but the father had sometimes hinted to the mother that he did not think that grizzy was quite so clever as her brothers. "i don't agree with you at all," mrs. grantly had answered. "besides, what you call cleverness is not at all necessary in a girl; she is perfectly ladylike; even you won't deny that." the archdeacon had never wished to deny it, and was now fain to admit that what he had called cleverness was not necessary in a young lady. at this period of the family glory the archdeacon himself was kept a little in abeyance, and was hardly allowed free intercourse with his own magnificent child. indeed, to give him his due, it must be said of him that he would not consent to walk in the triumphal procession which moved with stately step, to and fro, through the barchester regions. he kissed his daughter and blessed her, and bade her love her husband and be a good wife; but such injunctions as these, seeing how splendidly she had done her duty in securing to herself a marquis, seemed out of place and almost vulgar. girls about to marry curates or sucking barristers should be told to do their duty in that station of life to which god might be calling them; but it seemed to be almost an impertinence in a father to give such an injunction to a future marchioness. "i do not think that you have any ground for fear on her behalf," said mrs. grantly, "seeing in what way she has hitherto conducted herself." "she has been a good girl," said the archdeacon, "but she is about to be placed in a position of great temptation." "she has a strength of mind suited for any position," replied mrs. grantly, vain-gloriously. but nevertheless even the archdeacon moved about through the close at barchester with a somewhat prouder step since the tidings of this alliance had become known there. the time had been--in the latter days of his father's lifetime--when he was the greatest man of the close. the dean had been old and infirm, and dr. grantly had wielded the bishop's authority. but since that things had altered. a new bishop had come there, absolutely hostile to him. a new dean had also come, who was not only his friend, but the brother-in-law of his wife; but even this advent had lessened the authority of the archdeacon. the vicars choral did not hang upon his words as they had been wont to do, and the minor canons smiled in return to his smile less obsequiously when they met him in the clerical circles of barchester. but now it seemed that his old supremacy was restored to him. in the minds of many men an archdeacon, who was the father-in-law of a marquis, was himself as good as any bishop. he did not say much of his new connection to others beside the dean, but he was conscious of the fact, and conscious also of the reflected glory which shone around his own head. but as regards mrs. grantly it may be said that she moved in an unending procession of stately ovation. it must not be supposed that she continually talked to her friends and neighbours of lord dumbello and the marchioness. she was by far too wise for such folly as that. the coming alliance having been once announced, the name of hartletop was hardly mentioned by her out of her own domestic circle. but she assumed, with an ease that was surprising even to herself, the airs and graces of a mighty woman. she went through her work of morning calls as though it were her business to be affable to the country gentry. she astonished her sister, the dean's wife, by the simplicity of her grandeur; and condescended to mrs. proudie in a manner which nearly broke that lady's heart. "i shall be even with her yet," said mrs. proudie to herself, who had contrived to learn various very deleterious circumstances respecting the hartletop family since the news about lord dumbello and griselda had become known to her. griselda herself was carried about in the procession, taking but little part in it of her own, like an eastern god. she suffered her mother's caresses and smiled in her mother's face as she listened to her own praises, but her triumph was apparently within. to no one did she say much on the subject, and greatly disgusted the old family housekeeper by declining altogether to discuss the future dumbello _ménage_. to her aunt, mrs. arabin, who strove hard to lead her into some open-hearted speech as to her future aspirations, she was perfectly impassive. "oh, yes, aunt, of course," and "i'll think about it, aunt eleanor," or "of course i shall do that if lord dumbello wishes it." nothing beyond this could be got from her; and so, after half-a-dozen ineffectual attempts, mrs. arabin abandoned the matter. but then there arose the subject of clothes--of the wedding _trousseau_! sarcastic people are wont to say that the tailor makes the man. were i such a one, i might certainly assert that the milliner makes the bride. as regarding her bridehood, in distinction either to her girlhood or her wifehood--as being a line of plain demarcation between those two periods of a woman's life--the milliner does do much to make her. she would be hardly a bride if the _trousseau_ were not there. a girl married without some such appendage would seem to pass into the condition of a wife without any such line of demarcation. in that moment in which she finds herself in the first fruition of her marriage finery she becomes a bride; and in that other moment, when she begins to act upon the finest of these things as clothes to be packed up, she becomes a wife. when this subject was discussed griselda displayed no lack of a becoming interest. she went to work steadily, slowly, and almost with solemnity, as though the business in hand were one which it would be wicked to treat with impatience. she even struck her mother with awe by the grandeur of her ideas and the depth of her theories. nor let it be supposed that she rushed away at once to the consideration of the great fabric which was to be the ultimate sign and mark of her status, the quintessence of her briding, the outer veil, as it were, of the tabernacle--namely, her wedding-dress. as a great poet works himself up by degrees to that inspiration which is necessary for the grand turning point of his epic, so did she slowly approach the hallowed ground on which she would sit, with her ministers around her, when about to discuss the nature, the extent, the design, the colouring, the structure, and the ornamentation of that momentous piece of apparel. no; there was much indeed to be done before she came to this; and as the poet, to whom i have already alluded, first invokes his muse, and then brings his smaller events gradually out upon his stage, so did miss grantly with sacred fervour ask her mother's aid, and then prepare her list of all those articles of under-clothing which must be the substratum for the visible magnificence of her _trousseau_. money was no object. we all know what that means; and frequently understand, when the words are used, that a blaze of splendour is to be attained at the cheapest possible price. but, in this instance, money was no object;--such an amount of money, at least, as could by any possibility be spent on a lady's clothes, independently of her jewels. with reference to diamonds and such like, the archdeacon at once declared his intention of taking the matter into his own hands--except in so far as lord dumbello, or the hartletop interest, might be pleased to participate in the selection. nor was mrs. grantly sorry for such a decision. she was not an imprudent woman, and would have dreaded the responsibility of trusting herself on such an occasion among the dangerous temptations of a jeweller's shop. but as far as silks and satins went--in the matter of french bonnets, muslins, velvets, hats, riding-habits, artificial flowers, head-gilding, curious nettings, enamelled buckles, golden tagged bobbins, and mechanical petticoats--as regarded shoes, and gloves, and corsets, and stockings, and linen, and flannel, and calico--money, i may conscientiously assert, was no object. and, under these circumstances, griselda grantly went to work with a solemn industry and a steady perseverance that was beyond all praise. "i hope she will be happy," mrs. arabin said to her sister, as the two were sitting together in the dean's drawing-room. "oh, yes; i think she will. why should she not?" said the mother. "oh, no; i know of no reason. but she is going up into a station so much above her own in the eyes of the world that one cannot but feel anxious for her." "i should feel much more anxious if she were going to marry a poor man," said mrs. grantly. "it has always seemed to me that griselda was fitted for a high position; that nature intended her for rank and state. you see that she is not a bit elated. she takes it all as if it were her own by right. i do not think that there is any danger that her head will be turned, if you mean that." "i was thinking rather of her heart," said mrs. arabin. "she never would have taken lord dumbello without loving him," said mrs. grantly, speaking rather quickly. "that is not quite what i mean either, susan. i am sure she would not have accepted him had she not loved him. but it is so hard to keep the heart fresh among all the grandeurs of high rank; and it is harder for a girl to do so who has not been born to it, than for one who has enjoyed it as her birthright." "i don't quite understand about fresh hearts," said mrs. grantly, pettishly. "if she does her duty, and loves her husband, and fills the position in which god has placed her with propriety, i don't know that we need look for anything more. i don't at all approve of the plan of frightening a young girl when she is making her first outset into the world." "no; i would not frighten her. i think it would be almost difficult to frighten griselda." "i hope it would. the great matter with a girl is whether she has been brought up with proper notions as to a woman's duty. of course it is not for me to boast on this subject. such as she is, i, of course, am responsible. but i must own that i do not see occasion to wish for any change." and then the subject was allowed to drop. among those of her relations who wondered much at the girl's fortune, but allowed themselves to say but little, was her grandfather, mr. harding. he was an old clergyman, plain and simple in his manners, and not occupying a very prominent position, seeing that he was only precentor to the chapter. he was loved by his daughter, mrs. grantly, and was treated by the archdeacon, if not invariably with the highest respect, at least always with consideration and regard. but, old and plain as he was, the young people at plumstead did not hold him in any great reverence. he was poorer than their other relatives, and made no attempt to hold his head high in barsetshire circles. moreover, in these latter days, the home of his heart had been at the deanery. he had, indeed, a lodging of his own in the city, but was gradually allowing himself to be weaned away from it. he had his own bedroom in the dean's house, his own arm-chair in the dean's library, and his own corner on a sofa in mrs. dean's drawing-room. it was not, therefore, necessary that he should interfere greatly in this coming marriage; but still it became his duty to say a word of congratulation to his granddaughter,--and perhaps to say a word of advice. "grizzy, my dear," he said to her--he always called her grizzy, but the endearment of the appellation had never been appreciated by the young lady--"come and kiss me, and let me congratulate you on your great promotion. i do so very heartily." "thank you, grandpapa," she said, touching his forehead with her lips, thus being, as it were, very sparing with her kiss. but those lips now were august and reserved for nobler foreheads than that of an old cathedral hack. for mr. harding still chanted the litany from sunday to sunday, unceasingly, standing at that well-known desk in the cathedral choir; and griselda had a thought in her mind that when the hartletop people should hear of the practice they would not be delighted. dean and archdeacon might be very well, and if her grandfather had even been a prebendary, she might have put up with him; but he had, she thought, almost disgraced his family in being, at his age, one of the working menial clergy of the cathedral. she kissed him, therefore, sparingly, and resolved that her words with him should be few. "you are going to be a great lady, grizzy," said he. "umph!" said she. what was she to say when so addressed? "and i hope you will be happy,--and make others happy." "i hope i shall," said she. "but always think most about the latter, my dear. think about the happiness of those around you, and your own will come without thinking. you understand that; do you not?" "oh, yes, i understand," she said. as they were speaking mr. harding still held her hand, but griselda left it with him unwillingly, and therefore ungraciously, looking as though she were dragging it from him. "and grizzy--i believe it is quite as easy for a rich countess to be happy, as for a dairymaid--" griselda gave her head a little chuck which was produced by two different operations of her mind. the first was a reflection that her grandpapa was robbing her of her rank. she was to be a rich marchioness. and the second was a feeling of anger at the old man for comparing her lot to that of a dairymaid. "quite as easy, i believe," continued he; "though others will tell you that it is not so. but with the countess as with the dairymaid, it must depend on the woman herself. being a countess--that fact alone won't make you happy." "lord dumbello at present is only a viscount," said griselda. "there is no earl's title in the family." "oh! i did not know," said mr. harding, relinquishing his granddaughter's hand; and, after that, he troubled her with no further advice. both mrs. proudie and the bishop had called at plumstead since mrs. grantly had come back from london, and the ladies from plumstead, of course, returned the visit. it was natural that the grantlys and proudies should hate each other. they were essentially church people, and their views on all church matters were antagonistic. they had been compelled to fight for supremacy in the diocese, and neither family had so conquered the other as to have become capable of magnanimity and good-humour. they did hate each other, and this hatred had, at one time, almost produced an absolute disseverance of even the courtesies which are so necessary between a bishop and his clergy. but the bitterness of this rancour had been overcome, and the ladies of the families had continued on visiting terms. but now this match was almost more than mrs. proudie could bear. the great disappointment which, as she well knew, the grantlys had encountered in that matter of the proposed new bishopric had for the moment mollified her. she had been able to talk of poor dear mrs. grantly! "she is heartbroken, you know, in this matter, and the repetition of such misfortunes is hard to bear," she had been heard to say, with a complacency which had been quite becoming to her. but now that complacency was at an end. olivia proudie had just accepted a widowed preacher at a district church in bethnal green,--a man with three children, who was dependent on pew-rents; and griselda grantly was engaged to the eldest son of the marquis of hartletop! when women are enjoined to forgive their enemies it cannot be intended that such wrongs as these should be included. but mrs. proudie's courage was nothing daunted. it may be boasted of her that nothing could daunt her courage. soon after her return to barchester, she and olivia--olivia being very unwilling--had driven over to plumstead, and, not finding the grantlys at home, had left their cards; and now, at a proper interval, mrs. grantly and griselda returned the visit. it was the first time that miss grantly had been seen by the proudie ladies since the fact of her engagement had become known. the first bevy of compliments that passed might be likened to a crowd of flowers on a hedge rosebush. they were beautiful to the eye but were so closely environed by thorns that they could not be plucked without great danger. as long as the compliments were allowed to remain on the hedge--while no attempt was made to garner them and realize their fruits for enjoyment--they did no mischief; but the first finger that was put forth for such a purpose was soon drawn back, marked with spots of blood. "of course it is a great match for griselda," said mrs. grantly, in a whisper the meekness of which would have disarmed an enemy whose weapons were less firmly clutched than those of mrs. proudie; "but, independently of that, the connection is one which is gratifying in many ways." "oh, no doubt," said mrs. proudie. "lord dumbello is so completely his own master," continued mrs. grantly, and a slight, unintended semi-tone of triumph mingled itself with the meekness of that whisper. "and is likely to remain so, from all i hear," said mrs. proudie, and the scratched hand was at once drawn back. "of course the estab--," and then mrs. proudie, who was blandly continuing her list of congratulations, whispered her sentence close into the ear of mrs. grantly, so that not a word of what she said might be audible by the young people. "i never heard a word of it," said mrs. grantly, gathering herself up, "and i don't believe it." "oh, i may be wrong; and i'm sure i hope so. but young men will be young men, you know;--and children will take after their parents. i suppose you will see a great deal of the duke of omnium now." but mrs. grantly was not a woman to be knocked down and trampled on without resistance; and though she had been lacerated by the rosebush she was not as yet placed altogether _hors de combat_. she said some word about the duke of omnium very tranquilly, speaking of him merely as a barsetshire proprietor, and then, smiling with her sweetest smile, expressed a hope that she might soon have the pleasure of becoming acquainted with mr. tickler; and as she spoke she made a pretty little bow towards olivia proudie. now mr. tickler was the worthy clergyman attached to the district church at bethnal green. "he'll be down here in august," said olivia, boldly, determined not to be shamefaced about her love affairs. "you'll be starring it about the continent by that time, my dear," said mrs. proudie to griselda. "lord dumbello is well known at homburg and ems, and places of that sort; so you will find yourself quite at home." "we are going to rome," said griselda, majestically. "i suppose mr. tickler will come into the diocese soon," said mrs. grantly. "i remember hearing him very favourably spoken of by mr. slope, who was a friend of his." nothing short of a fixed resolve on the part of mrs. grantly that the time had now come in which she must throw away her shield and stand behind her sword, declare war to the knife, and neither give nor take quarter, could have justified such a speech as this. any allusion to mr. slope acted on mrs. proudie as a red cloth is supposed to act on a bull; but when that allusion connected the name of mr. slope in a friendly bracket with that of mrs. proudie's future son-in-law it might be certain that the effect would be terrific. and there was more than this: for that very mr. slope had once entertained audacious hopes--hopes not thought to be audacious by the young lady herself--with reference to miss olivia proudie. all this mrs. grantly knew, and, knowing it, still dared to mention his name. the countenance of mrs. proudie became darkened with black anger, and the polished smile of her company manners gave place before the outraged feelings of her nature. "the man you speak of, mrs. grantly," said she, "was never known as a friend by mr. tickler." "oh, indeed," said mrs. grantly. "perhaps i have made a mistake. i am sure i have heard mr. slope mention him." "when mr. slope was running after your sister, mrs. grantly, and was encouraged by her as he was, you perhaps saw more of him than i did." "mrs. proudie, that was never the case." "i have reason to know that the archdeacon conceived it to be so, and that he was very unhappy about it." now this, unfortunately, was a fact which mrs. grantly could not deny. "the archdeacon may have been mistaken about mr. slope," she said, "as were some other people at barchester. but it was you, i think, mrs. proudie, who were responsible for bringing him here." mrs. grantly, at this period of the engagement, might have inflicted a fatal wound by referring to poor olivia's former love affairs, but she was not destitute of generosity. even in the extremest heat of the battle she knew how to spare the young and tender. "when i came here, mrs. grantly, i little dreamed what a depth of wickedness might be found in the very close of a cathedral city," said mrs. proudie. "then, for dear olivia's sake, pray do not bring poor mr. tickler to barchester." "mr. tickler, mrs. grantly, is a man of assured morals and of a highly religious tone of thinking. i wish every one could be so safe as regards their daughters' future prospects as i am." "yes, i know he has the advantage of being a family man," said mrs. grantly, getting up. "good morning, mrs. proudie; good day, olivia." "a great deal better that than--" but the blow fell upon the empty air; for mrs. grantly had already escaped on to the staircase while olivia was ringing the bell for the servant to attend the front-door. mrs. grantly, as she got into her carriage, smiled slightly, thinking of the battle, and as she sat down she gently pressed her daughter's hand. but mrs. proudie's face was still dark as acheron when her enemy withdrew, and with angry tone she sent her daughter to her work. "mr. tickler will have great reason to complain if, in your position, you indulge such habits of idleness," she said. therefore i conceive that i am justified in saying that in that encounter mrs. grantly was the conqueror. chapter xli. don quixote. on the day on which lucy had her interview with lady lufton the dean dined at framley parsonage. he and robarts had known each other since the latter had been in the diocese, and now, owing to mark's preferment in the chapter, had become almost intimate. the dean was greatly pleased with the manner in which poor mr. crawley's children had been conveyed away from hogglestock, and was inclined to open his heart to the whole framley household. as he still had to ride home he could only allow himself to remain half an hour after dinner, but in that half-hour he said a great deal about crawley, complimented robarts on the manner in which he was playing the part of the good samaritan, and then by degrees informed him that it had come to his, the dean's, ears, before he left barchester, that a writ was in the hands of certain persons in the city, enabling them to seize--he did not know whether it was the person or the property of the vicar of framley. the fact was that these tidings had been conveyed to the dean with the express intent that he might put robarts on his guard; but the task of speaking on such a subject to a brother clergyman had been so unpleasant to him that he had been unable to introduce it till the last five minutes before his departure. "i hope you will not put it down as an impertinent interference," said the dean, apologizing. "no," said mark; "no, i do not think that." he was so sad at heart that he hardly knew how to speak of it. "i do not understand much about such matters," said the dean; "but i think, if i were you, i should go to a lawyer. i should imagine that anything so terribly disagreeable as an arrest might be avoided." "it is a hard case," said mark, pleading his own cause. "though these men have this claim against me i have never received a shilling either in money or money's worth." "and yet your name is to the bills!" said the dean. "yes, my name is to the bills, certainly, but it was to oblige a friend." and then the dean, having given his advice, rode away. he could not understand how a clergyman, situated as was mr. robarts, could find himself called upon by friendship to attach his name to accommodation bills which he had not the power of liquidating when due! on that evening they were both wretched enough at the parsonage. hitherto mark had hoped that perhaps, after all, no absolutely hostile steps would be taken against him with reference to these bills. some unforeseen chance might occur in his favour, or the persons holding them might consent to take small instalments of payment from time to time; but now it seemed that the evil day was actually coming upon him at a blow. he had no longer any secrets from his wife. should he go to a lawyer? and if so, to what lawyer? and when he had found his lawyer, what should he say to him? mrs. robarts at one time suggested that everything should be told to lady lufton. mark, however, could not bring himself to do that. "it would seem," he said, "as though i wanted her to lend me the money." on the following morning mark did ride into barchester, dreading, however, lest he should be arrested on his journey, and he did see a lawyer. during his absence two calls were made at the parsonage--one by a very rough-looking individual, who left a suspicious document in the hands of the servant, purporting to be an invitation--not to dinner--from one of the judges of the land; and the other call was made by lady lufton in person. mrs. robarts had determined to go down to framley court on that day. in accordance with her usual custom she would have been there within an hour or two of lady lufton's return from london, but things between them were not now as they usually had been. this affair of lucy's must make a difference, let them both resolve to the contrary as they might. and, indeed, mrs. robarts had found that the closeness of her intimacy with framley court had been diminishing from day to day since lucy had first begun to be on friendly terms with lord lufton. since that she had been less at framley court than usual; she had heard from lady lufton less frequently by letter during her absence than she had done in former years, and was aware that she was less implicitly trusted with all the affairs of the parish. this had not made her angry, for she was in a manner conscious that it must be so. it made her unhappy, but what could she do? she could not blame lucy, nor could she blame lady lufton. lord lufton she did blame, but she did so in the hearing of no one but her husband. her mind, however, was made up to go over and bear the first brunt of her ladyship's arguments, when she was stopped by her ladyship's arrival. if it were not for this terrible matter of lucy's love--a matter on which they could not now be silent when they met--there would be twenty subjects of pleasant, or, at any rate, not unpleasant conversation. but even then there would be those terrible bills hanging over her conscience, and almost crushing her by their weight. at the moment in which lady lufton walked up to the drawing-room window, mrs. robarts held in her hand that ominous invitation from the judge. would it not be well that she should make a clean breast of it all, disregarding what her husband had said? it might be well: only this--she had never yet done anything in opposition to her husband's wishes. so she hid the slip within her desk, and left the matter open to consideration. the interview commenced with an affectionate embrace, as was a matter of course. "dear fanny," and "dear lady lufton," was said between them with all the usual warmth. and then the first inquiry was made about the children, and the second about the school. for a minute or two mrs. robarts thought that, perhaps, nothing was to be said about lucy. if it pleased lady lufton to be silent she, at least, would not commence the subject. then there was a word or two spoken about mrs. podgens' baby, after which lady lufton asked whether fanny were alone. "yes," said mrs. robarts. "mark has gone over to barchester." "i hope he will not be long before he lets me see him. perhaps he can call to-morrow. would you both come and dine to-morrow?" "not to-morrow, i think, lady lufton; but mark, i am sure, will go over and call." "and why not come to dinner? i hope there is to be no change among us, eh, fanny?" and lady lufton as she spoke looked into the other's face in a manner which almost made mrs. robarts get up and throw herself on her old friend's neck. where was she to find a friend who would give her such constant love as she had received from lady lufton? and who was kinder, better, more honest than she? "change! no, i hope not, lady lufton;" and as she spoke the tears stood in her eyes. "ah, but i shall think there is if you will not come to me as you used to do. you always used to come and dine with me the day i came home, as a matter of course." what could she say, poor woman, to this? "we were all in confusion yesterday about poor mrs. crawley, and the dean dined here; he had been over at hogglestock to see his friend." "i have heard of her illness, and will go over and see what ought to be done. don't you go, do you hear, fanny? you with your young children! i should never forgive you if you did." and then mrs. robarts explained how lucy had gone there, had sent the four children back to framley, and was herself now staying at hogglestock with the object of nursing mrs. crawley. in telling the story she abstained from praising lucy with all the strong language which she would have used had not lucy's name and character been at the present moment of peculiar import to lady lufton; but nevertheless she could not tell it without dwelling much on lucy's kindness. it would have been ungenerous to lady lufton to make much of lucy's virtue at this present moment, but unjust to lucy to make nothing of it. "and she is actually with mrs. crawley now?" asked lady lufton. "oh, yes; mark left her there yesterday afternoon." "and the four children are all here in the house?" "not exactly in the house--that is, not as yet. we have arranged a sort of quarantine hospital over the coach-house." "what, where stubbs lives?" "yes; stubbs and his wife have come into the house, and the children are to remain up there till the doctor says that there is no danger of infection. i have not even seen my visitors myself as yet," said mrs. robarts with a slight laugh. "dear me!" said lady lufton. "i declare you have been very prompt. and so miss robarts is over there! i should have thought mr. crawley would have made a difficulty about the children." "well, he did; but they kidnapped them,--that is, lucy and mark did. the dean gave me such an account of it. lucy brought them out by twos and packed them in the pony-carriage, and then mark drove off at a gallop while mr. crawley stood calling to them in the road. the dean was there at the time and saw it all." "that miss lucy of yours seems to be a very determined young lady when she takes a thing into her head," said lady lufton, now sitting down for the first time. "yes, she is," said mrs. robarts, having laid aside all her pleasant animation, for the discussion which she dreaded was now at hand. "a very determined young lady," continued lady lufton. "of course, my dear fanny, you know all this about ludovic and your sister-in-law?" "yes, she has told me about it." "it is very unfortunate--very." "i do not think lucy has been to blame," said mrs. robarts; and as she spoke the blood was already mounting to her cheeks. "do not be too anxious to defend her, my dear, before any one accuses her. whenever a person does that it looks as though their cause were weak." "but my cause is not weak as far as lucy is concerned; i feel quite sure that she has not been to blame." "i know how obstinate you can be, fanny, when you think it necessary to dub yourself any one's champion. don quixote was not a better knight-errant than you are. but is it not a pity to take up your lance and shield before an enemy is within sight or hearing? but that was ever the way with your don quixotes." "perhaps there may be an enemy in ambush." that was mrs. robarts' thought to herself, but she did not dare to express it, so she remained silent. "my only hope is," continued lady lufton, "that when my back is turned you fight as gallantly for me." "ah, you are never under a cloud, like poor lucy." "am i not? but, fanny, you do not see all the clouds. the sun does not always shine for any of us, and the down-pouring rain and the heavy wind scatter also my fairest flowers,--as they have done hers, poor girl. dear fanny, i hope it may be long before any cloud comes across the brightness of your heaven. of all the creatures i know you are the one most fitted for quiet continued sunshine." and then mrs. robarts did get up and embrace her friend, thus hiding the tears which were running down her face. continued sunshine indeed! a dark spot had already gathered on her horizon which was likely to fall in a very waterspout of rain. what was to come of that terrible notice which was now lying in the desk under lady lufton's very arm? "but i am not come here to croak like an old raven," continued lady lufton, when she had brought this embrace to an end. "it is probable that we all may have our sorrows; but i am quite sure of this,--that if we endeavour to do our duties honestly, we shall all find our consolation and all have our joys also. and now, my dear, let you and i say a few words about this unfortunate affair. it would not be natural if we were to hold our tongues to each other; would it?" "i suppose not," said mrs. robarts. "we should always be conceiving worse than the truth,--each as to the other's thoughts. now, some time ago, when i spoke to you about your sister-in-law and ludovic--i daresay you remember--" "oh, yes, i remember." "we both thought then that there would really be no danger. to tell you the plain truth i fancied, and indeed hoped, that his affections were engaged elsewhere; but i was altogether wrong then; wrong in thinking it, and wrong in hoping it." mrs. robarts knew well that lady lufton was alluding to griselda grantly, but she conceived that it would be discreet to say nothing herself on that subject at present. she remembered, however, lucy's flashing eye when the possibility of lord lufton making such a marriage was spoken of in the pony-carriage, and could not but feel glad that lady lufton had been disappointed. "i do not at all impute any blame to miss robarts for what has occurred since," continued her ladyship. "i wish you distinctly to understand that." "i do not see how any one could blame her. she has behaved so nobly." "it is of no use inquiring whether any one can. it is sufficient that i do not." "but i think that is hardly sufficient," said mrs. robarts, pertinaciously. "is it not?" asked her ladyship, raising her eyebrows. "no. only think what lucy has done and is doing. if she had chosen to say that she would accept your son i really do not know how you could have justly blamed her. i do not by any means say that i would have advised such a thing." "i am glad of that, fanny." "i have not given any advice; nor is it needed. i know no one more able than lucy to see clearly, by her own judgment, what course she ought to pursue. i should be afraid to advise one whose mind is so strong, and who, of her own nature, is so self-denying as she is. she is sacrificing herself now, because she will not be the means of bringing trouble and dissension between you and your son. if you ask me, lady lufton, i think you owe her a deep debt of gratitude. i do, indeed. and as for blaming her--what has she done that you possibly could blame?" "don quixote on horseback!" said lady lufton. "fanny, i shall always call you don quixote, and some day or other i will get somebody to write your adventures. but the truth is this, my dear: there has been imprudence. you may call it mine, if you will--though i really hardly see how i am to take the blame. i could not do other than ask miss robarts to my house, and i could not very well turn my son out of it. in point of fact, it has been the old story." "exactly; the story that is as old as the world, and which will continue as long as people are born into it. it is a story of god's own telling!" "but, my dear child, you do not mean that every young gentleman and every young lady should fall in love with each other directly they meet! such a doctrine would be very inconvenient." "no, i do not mean that. lord lufton and miss grantly did not fall in love with each other, though you meant them to do so. but was it not quite as natural that lord lufton and lucy should do so instead?" "it is generally thought, fanny, that young ladies should not give loose to their affections until they have been certified of their friends' approval." "and that young gentlemen of fortune may amuse themselves as they please! i know that is what the world teaches, but i cannot agree to the justice of it. the terrible suffering which lucy has to endure makes me cry out against it. she did not seek your son. the moment she began to suspect that there might be danger she avoided him scrupulously. she would not go down to framley court, though her not doing so was remarked by yourself. she would hardly go out about the place lest she should meet him. she was contented to put herself altogether in the background till he should have pleased to leave the place. but he--he came to her here, and insisted on seeing her. he found her when i was out, and declared himself determined to speak to her. what was she to do? she did try to escape, but he stopped her at the door. was it her fault that he made her an offer?" "my dear, no one has said so." "yes, but you do say so when you tell me that young ladies should not give play to their affections without permission. he persisted in saying to her, here, all that it pleased him, though she implored him to be silent. i cannot tell the words she used, but she did implore him." "i do not doubt that she behaved well." "but he--he persisted, and begged her to accept his hand. she refused him then, lady lufton--not as some girls do, with a mock reserve, not intending to be taken at their words--but steadily, and, god forgive her, untruly. knowing what your feelings would be, and knowing what the world would say, she declared to him that he was indifferent to her. what more could she do in your behalf?" and then mrs. robarts paused. "i shall wait till you have done, fanny." "you spoke of girls giving loose to their affections. she did not do so. she went about her work exactly as she had done before. she did not even speak to me of what had passed--not then, at least. she determined that it should all be as though it had never been. she had learned to love your son; but that was her misfortune and she would get over it as she might. tidings came to us here that he was engaged, or about to engage himself, to miss grantly." "those tidings were untrue." "yes, we know that now; but she did not know it then. of course she could not but suffer; but she suffered within herself." mrs. robarts, as she said this, remembered the pony-carriage and how puck had been beaten. "she made no complaint that he had ill-treated her--not even to herself. she had thought it right to reject his offer; and there, as far as he was concerned, was to be an end of it." "that would be a matter of course, i should suppose." "but it was not a matter of course, lady lufton. he returned from london to framley on purpose to repeat his offer. he sent for her brother-- you talk of a young lady waiting for her friends' approval. in this matter who would be lucy's friends?" "you and mr. robarts, of course." "exactly; her only friends. well, lord lufton sent for mark and repeated his offer to him. mind you, mark had never heard a word of this before, and you may guess whether or no he was surprised. lord lufton repeated his offer in the most formal manner and claimed permission to see lucy. she refused to see him. she has never seen him since that day when, in opposition to all her efforts, he made his way into this room. mark,--as i think very properly,--would have allowed lord lufton to come up here. looking at both their ages and position he could have had no right to forbid it. but lucy positively refused to see your son, and sent him a message instead, of the purport of which you are now aware--that she would never accept him unless she did so at your request." "it was a very proper message." "i say nothing about that. had she accepted him i would not have blamed her:--and so i told her, lady lufton." "i cannot understand your saying that, fanny." "well; i did say so. i don't want to argue now about myself,--whether i was right or wrong, but i did say so. whatever sanction i could give she would have had. but she again chose to sacrifice herself, although i believe she regards him with as true a love as ever a girl felt for a man. upon my word i don't know that she is right. those considerations for the world may perhaps be carried too far." "i think that she was perfectly right." "very well, lady lufton; i can understand that. but after such sacrifice on her part--a sacrifice made entirely to you--how can you talk of 'not blaming her'? is that the language in which you speak of those whose conduct from first to last has been superlatively excellent? if she is open to blame at all, it is--it is--" but here mrs. robarts stopped herself. in defending her sister she had worked herself almost into a passion; but such a state of feeling was not customary to her, and now that she had spoken her mind she sank suddenly into silence. "it seems to me, fanny, that you almost regret miss robarts' decision," said lady lufton. "my wish in this matter is for her happiness, and i regret anything that may mar it." "you think nothing then of our welfare, and yet i do not know to whom i might have looked for hearty friendship and for sympathy in difficulties, if not to you?" poor mrs. robarts was almost upset by this. a few months ago, before lucy's arrival, she would have declared that the interests of lady lufton's family would have been paramount with her, after and next to those of her own husband. and even now, it seemed to argue so black an ingratitude on her part--this accusation that she was indifferent to them! from her childhood upwards she had revered and loved lady lufton, and for years had taught herself to regard her as an epitome of all that was good and gracious in woman. lady lufton's theories of life had been accepted by her as the right theories, and those whom lady lufton had liked she had liked. but now it seemed that all these ideas which it had taken a life to build up were to be thrown to the ground, because she was bound to defend a sister-in-law whom she had only known for the last eight months. it was not that she regretted a word that she had spoken on lucy's behalf. chance had thrown her and lucy together, and, as lucy was her sister, she should receive from her a sister's treatment. but she did not the less feel how terrible would be the effect of any disseverance from lady lufton. "oh, lady lufton," she said, "do not say that." "but, fanny, dear, i must speak as i find. you were talking about clouds just now, and do you think that all this is not a cloud in my sky? ludovic tells me that he is attached to miss robarts, and you tell me that she is attached to him; and i am called upon to decide between them. her very act obliges me to do so." "dear lady lufton," said mrs. robarts, springing from her seat. it seemed to her at the moment as though the whole difficulty were to be solved by an act of grace on the part of her old friend. "and yet i cannot approve of such a marriage," said lady lufton. mrs. robarts returned to her seat, saying nothing further. "is not that a cloud on one's horizon?" continued her ladyship. "do you think that i can be basking in the sunshine while i have such a weight upon my heart as that? ludovic will soon be home, but instead of looking to his return with pleasure i dread it. i would prefer that he should remain in norway. i would wish that he should stay away for months. and, fanny, it is a great addition to my misfortune to feel that you do not sympathize with me." having said this, in a slow, sorrowful, and severe tone, lady lufton got up and took her departure. of course mrs. robarts did not let her go without assuring her that she did sympathize with her,--did love her as she ever had loved her. but wounds cannot be cured as easily as they may be inflicted, and lady lufton went her way with much real sorrow at her heart. she was proud and masterful, fond of her own way, and much too careful of the worldly dignities to which her lot had called her: but she was a woman who could cause no sorrow to those she loved without deep sorrow to herself. chapter xlii. touching pitch. in these hot midsummer days, the end of june and the beginning of july, mr. sowerby had but an uneasy time of it. at his sister's instance, he had hurried up to london, and there had remained for days in attendance on the lawyers. he had to see new lawyers, miss dunstable's men of business, quiet old cautious gentlemen whose place of business was in a dark alley behind the bank, messrs. slow and bideawhile by name, who had no scruple in detaining him for hours while they or their clerks talked to him about anything or about nothing. it was of vital consequence to mr. sowerby that this business of his should be settled without delay, and yet these men, to whose care this settling was now confided, went on as though law processes were a sunny bank on which it delighted men to bask easily. and then, too, he had to go more than once to south audley street, which was a worse infliction; for the men in south audley street were less civil now than had been their wont. it was well understood there that mr. sowerby was no longer a client of the duke's, but his opponent; no longer his nominee and dependant, but his enemy in the county. "chaldicotes," as old mr. gumption remarked to young mr. gagebee; "chaldicotes, gagebee, is a cooked goose, as far as sowerby is concerned. and what difference could it make to him whether the duke is to own it or miss dunstable? for my part i cannot understand how a gentleman like sowerby can like to see his property go into the hands of a gallipot wench whose money still smells of bad drugs. and nothing can be more ungrateful," he said, "than sowerby's conduct. he has held the county for five-and-twenty years without expense; and now that the time for payment has come, he begrudges the price." he called it no better than cheating, he did not--he, mr. gumption. according to his ideas sowerby was attempting to cheat the duke. it may be imagined, therefore, that mr. sowerby did not feel any very great delight in attending at south audley street. and then rumour was spread about among all the bill-discounting leeches that blood was once more to be sucked from the sowerby carcase. the rich miss dunstable had taken up his affairs; so much as that became known in the purlieus of the goat and compasses. tom tozer's brother declared that she and sowerby were going to make a match of it, and that any scrap of paper with sowerby's name on it would become worth its weight in bank-notes; but tom tozer himself--tom, who was the real hero of the family--pooh-poohed at this, screwing up his nose, and alluding in most contemptuous terms to his brother's softness. he knew better--as was indeed the fact. miss dunstable was buying up the squire, and by jingo she should buy them up--them, the tozers, as well as others! they knew their value, the tozers did;--whereupon they became more than ordinarily active. from them and all their brethren mr. sowerby at this time endeavoured to keep his distance, but his endeavours were not altogether effectual. whenever he could escape for a day or two from the lawyers he ran down to chaldicotes; but tom tozer in his perseverance followed him there, and boldly sent in his name by the servant at the front-door. "mr. sowerby is not just at home at the present moment," said the well-trained domestic. "i'll wait about then," said tom, seating himself on an heraldic stone griffin which flanked the big stone steps before the house. and in this way mr. tozer gained his purpose. sowerby was still contesting the county, and it behoved him not to let his enemies say that he was hiding himself. it had been a part of his bargain with miss dunstable that he should contest the county. she had taken it into her head that the duke had behaved badly, and she had resolved that he should be made to pay for it. "the duke," she said, "had meddled long enough;" she would now see whether the chaldicotes interest would not suffice of itself to return a member for the county, even in opposition to the duke. mr. sowerby himself was so harassed at the time, that he would have given way on this point if he had had the power; but miss dunstable was determined, and he was obliged to yield to her. in this manner mr. tom tozer succeeded and did make his way into mr. sowerby's presence--of which intrusion one effect was the following letter from mr. sowerby to his friend mark robarts:-- chaldicotes, july, --. my dear robarts,--i am so harassed at the present moment by an infinity of troubles of my own that i am almost callous to those of other people. they say that prosperity makes a man selfish. i have never tried that, but i am quite sure that adversity does so. nevertheless i am anxious about those bills of yours-- "bills of mine!" said robarts to himself, as he walked up and down the shrubbery path at the parsonage, reading this letter. this happened a day or two after his visit to the lawyer at barchester. --and would rejoice greatly if i thought that i could save you from any further annoyance about them. that kite, tom tozer, has just been with me, and insists that both of them shall be paid. he knows--no one better--that no consideration was given for the latter. but he knows also that the dealing was not with him, nor even with his brother, and he will be prepared to swear that he gave value for both. he would swear anything for five hundred pounds--or for half the money, for that matter. i do not think that the father of mischief ever let loose upon the world a greater rascal than tom tozer. he declares that nothing shall induce him to take one shilling less than the whole sum of nine hundred pounds. he has been brought to this by hearing that my debts are about to be paid. heaven help me! the meaning of that is that these wretched acres, which are now mortgaged to one millionnaire, are to change hands and be mortgaged to another instead. by this exchange i may possibly obtain the benefit of having a house to live in for the next twelve months, but no other. tozer, however, is altogether wrong in his scent; and the worst of it is that his malice will fall on you rather than on me. what i want you to do is this: let us pay him one hundred pounds between us. though i sell the last sorry jade of a horse i have, i will make up fifty; and i know you can, at any rate, do as much as that. then do you accept a bill, conjointly with me, for eight hundred. it shall be done in forrest's presence, and handed to him; and you shall receive back the two old bills into your own hands at the same time. this new bill should be timed to run ninety days; and i will move heaven and earth during that time to have it included in the general schedule of my debts which are to be secured on the chaldicotes property. the meaning of which was that miss dunstable was to be cozened into paying the money under an idea that it was part of the sum covered by the existing mortgage. what you said the other day at barchester, as to never executing another bill, is very well as regards future transactions. nothing can be wiser than such a resolution. but it would be folly--worse than folly--if you were to allow your furniture to be seized when the means of preventing it are so ready to your hand. by leaving the new bill in forrest's hands you may be sure that you are safe from the claws of such birds of prey as these tozers. even if i cannot get it settled when the three months are over, forrest will enable you to make any arrangement that may be most convenient. for heaven's sake, my dear fellow, do not refuse this. you can hardly conceive how it weighs upon me, this fear that bailiffs should make their way into your wife's drawing-room. i know you think ill of me, and i do not wonder at it. but you would be less inclined to do so if you knew how terribly i am punished. pray let me hear that you will do as i counsel you. yours always faithfully, n. sowerby. in answer to which the parson wrote a very short reply:-- framley, july, --. my dear sowerby,-- i will sign no more bills on any consideration. yours truly, mark robarts. and then having written this, and having shown it to his wife, he returned to the shrubbery walk and paced it up and down, looking every now and then to sowerby's letter as he thought over all the past circumstances of his friendship with that gentleman. that the man who had written this letter should be his friend--that very fact was a disgrace to him. sowerby so well knew himself and his own reputation, that he did not dare to suppose that his own word would be taken for anything,--not even when the thing promised was an act of the commonest honesty. "the old bills shall be given back into your own hands," he had declared with energy, knowing that his friend and correspondent would not feel himself secure against further fraud under any less stringent guarantee. this gentleman, this county member, the owner of chaldicotes, with whom mark robarts had been so anxious to be on terms of intimacy, had now come to such a phase of life that he had given over speaking of himself as an honest man. he had become so used to suspicion that he argued of it as of a thing of course. he knew that no one could trust either his spoken or his written word, and he was content to speak and to write without attempt to hide this conviction. and this was the man whom he had been so glad to call his friend; for whose sake he had been willing to quarrel with lady lufton, and at whose instance he had unconsciously abandoned so many of the best resolutions of his life. he looked back now, as he walked there slowly, still holding the letter in his hand, to the day when he had stopped at the school-house and written his letter to mr. sowerby, promising to join the party at chaldicotes. he had been so eager then to have his own way, that he would not permit himself to go home and talk the matter over with his wife. he thought also of the manner in which he had been tempted to the house of the duke of omnium, and the conviction on his mind at the time that his giving way to that temptation would surely bring him to evil. and then he remembered the evening in sowerby's bedroom, when the bill had been brought out, and he had allowed himself to be persuaded to put his name upon it;--not because he was willing in this way to assist his friend, but because he was unable to refuse. he had lacked the courage to say, "no," though he knew at the time how gross was the error which he was committing. he had lacked the courage to say, "no," and hence had come upon him and on his household all this misery and cause for bitter repentance. i have written much of clergymen, but in doing so i have endeavoured to portray them as they bear on our social life rather than to describe the mode and working of their professional careers. had i done the latter i could hardly have steered clear of subjects on which it has not been my intention to pronounce an opinion, and i should either have laden my fiction with sermons or i should have degraded my sermons into fiction. therefore i have said but little in my narrative of this man's feelings or doings as a clergyman. but i must protest against its being on this account considered that mr. robarts was indifferent to the duties of his clerical position. he had been fond of pleasure and had given way to temptation,--as is so customarily done by young men of six-and-twenty, who are placed beyond control and who have means at command. had he remained as a curate till that age, subject in all his movements to the eye of a superior, he would, we may say, have put his name to no bills, have ridden after no hounds, have seen nothing of the iniquities of gatherum castle. there are men of twenty-six as fit to stand alone as ever they will be--fit to be prime ministers, heads of schools, judges on the bench--almost fit to be bishops; but mark robarts had not been one of them. he had within him many aptitudes for good, but not the strengthened courage of a man to act up to them. the stuff of which his manhood was to be formed had been slow of growth, as it is with many men; and, consequently, when temptation was offered to him, he had fallen. but he deeply grieved over his own stumbling, and from time to time, as his periods of penitence came upon him, he resolved that he would once more put his shoulder to the wheel as became one who fights upon earth that battle for which he had put on his armour. over and over again did he think of those words of mr. crawley, and now as he walked up and down the path, crumpling mr. sowerby's letter in his hand, he thought of them again--"it is a terrible falling off; terrible in the fall, but doubly terrible through that difficulty of returning." yes; that is a difficulty which multiplies itself in a fearful ratio as one goes on pleasantly running down the path--whitherward? had it come to that with him that he could not return--that he could never again hold up his head with a safe conscience as the pastor of his parish! it was sowerby who had led him into this misery, who had brought on him this ruin? but then had not sowerby paid him? had not that stall which he now held in barchester been sowerby's gift? he was a poor man now--a distressed, poverty-stricken man; but nevertheless he wished with all his heart that he had never become a sharer in the good things of the barchester chapter. "i shall resign the stall," he said to his wife that night. "i think i may say that i have made up my mind as to that." "but, mark, will not people say that it is odd?" "i cannot help it--they must say it. fanny, i fear that we shall have to bear the saying of harder words than that." "nobody can ever say that you have done anything that is unjust or dishonourable. if there are such men as mr. sowerby--" "the blackness of his fault will not excuse mine." and then again he sat silent, hiding his eyes, while his wife, sitting by him, held his hand. "don't make yourself wretched, mark. matters will all come right yet. it cannot be that the loss of a few hundred pounds should ruin you." "it is not the money--it is not the money!" "but you have done nothing wrong, mark." "how am i to go into the church, and take my place before them all, when every one will know that bailiffs are in the house?" and then, dropping his head on to the table, he sobbed aloud. mark robarts' mistake had been mainly this,--he had thought to touch pitch and not to be defiled. he, looking out from his pleasant parsonage into the pleasant upper ranks of the world around him, had seen that men and things in those quarters were very engaging. his own parsonage, with his sweet wife, were exceedingly dear to him, and lady lufton's affectionate friendship had its value; but were not these things rather dull for one who had lived in the best sets at harrow and oxford;--unless, indeed, he could supplement them with some occasional bursts of more lively life? cakes and ale were as pleasant to his palate as to the palates of those with whom he had formerly lived at college. he had the same eye to look at a horse, and the same heart to make him go across a country, as they. and then, too, he found that men liked him,--men and women also; men and women who were high in worldly standing. his ass's ears were tickled, and he learned to fancy that he was intended by nature for the society of high people. it seemed as though he were following his appointed course in meeting men and women of the world at the houses of the fashionable and the rich. he was not the first clergyman that had so lived and had so prospered. yes, clergymen had so lived, and had done their duties in their sphere of life altogether to the satisfaction of their countrymen--and of their sovereigns. thus mark robarts had determined that he would touch pitch, and escape defilement if that were possible. with what result those who have read so far will have perceived. late on the following afternoon who should drive up to the parsonage door but mr. forrest, the bank manager from barchester--mr. forrest, to whom sowerby had always pointed as the _deus ex machinâ_ who, if duly invoked, could relieve them all from their present troubles, and dismiss the whole tozer family--not howling into the wilderness, as one would have wished to do with that brood of tozers, but so gorged with prey that from them no further annoyance need be dreaded? all this mr. forrest could do; nay, more, most willingly would do! only let mark robarts put himself into the banker's hand, and blandly sign what documents the banker might desire. "this is a very unpleasant affair," said mr. forrest as soon as they were closeted together in mark's book-room. in answer to which observation the parson acknowledged that it was a very unpleasant affair. "mr. sowerby has managed to put you into the hands of about the worst set of rogues now existing, in their line of business, in london." "so i supposed; curling told me the same." curling was the barchester attorney whose aid he had lately invoked. "curling has threatened them that he will expose their whole trade; but one of them who was down here, a man named tozer, replied, that you had much more to lose by exposure than he had. he went further and declared that he would defy any jury in england to refuse him his money. he swore that he discounted both bills in the regular way of business; and, though this is of course false, i fear that it will be impossible to prove it so. he well knows that you are a clergyman, and that, therefore, he has a stronger hold on you than on other men." "the disgrace shall fall on sowerby," said robarts, hardly actuated at the moment by any strong feeling of christian forgiveness. "i fear, mr. robarts, that he is somewhat in the condition of the tozers. he will not feel it as you will do." "i must bear it, mr. forrest, as best i may." "will you allow me, mr. robarts, to give you my advice? perhaps i ought to apologize for intruding it upon you; but as the bills have been presented and dishonoured across my counter, i have, of necessity, become acquainted with the circumstances." "i am sure i am very much obliged to you," said mark. "you must pay this money, or, at any rate, the most considerable portion of it;--the whole of it, indeed, with such deduction as a lawyer may be able to induce these hawks to make on the sight of the ready money. perhaps £ or £ may see you clear of the whole affair." "but i have not a quarter of that sum lying by me." "no, i suppose not; but what i would recommend is this: that you should borrow the money from the bank, on your own responsibility,--with the joint security of some friend who may be willing to assist you with his name. lord lufton probably would do it." "no, mr. forrest--" "listen to me first, before you make up your mind. if you took this step, of course you would do so with the fixed intention of paying the money yourself,--without any further reliance on sowerby or on any one else." "i shall not rely on mr. sowerby again; you may be sure of that." "what i mean is that you must teach yourself to recognize the debt as your own. if you can do that, with your income you can surely pay it, with interest, in two years. if lord lufton will assist you with his name i will so arrange the bills that the payments shall be made to fall equally over that period. in that way the world will know nothing about it, and in two years' time you will once more be a free man. many men, mr. robarts, have bought their experience much dearer than that, i can assure you." "mr. forrest, it is quite out of the question." "you mean that lord lufton will not give you his name." "i certainly shall not ask him; but that is not all. in the first place my income will not be what you think it, for i shall probably give up the prebend at barchester." "give up the prebend! give up six hundred a year!" "and, beyond this, i think i may say that nothing shall tempt me to put my name to another bill. i have learned a lesson which i hope i may never forget." "then what do you intend to do?" "nothing!" "then those men will sell every stick of furniture about the place. they know that your property here is enough to secure all that they claim." "if they have the power, they must sell it." "and all the world will know the facts." "so it must be. of the faults which a man commits he must bear the punishment. if it were only myself!" "that's where it is, mr. robarts. think what your wife will have to suffer in going through such misery as that! you had better take my advice. lord lufton, i am sure--" but the very name of lord lufton, his sister's lover, again gave him courage. he thought, too, of the accusations which lord lufton had brought against him on that night when he had come to him in the coffee-room of the hotel, and he felt that it was impossible that he should apply to him for such aid. it would be better to tell all to lady lufton! that she would relieve him, let the cost to herself be what it might, he was very sure. only this;--that in looking to her for assistance he would be forced to bite the dust in very deed. "thank you, mr. forrest, but i have made up my mind. do not think that i am the less obliged to you for your disinterested kindness,--for i know that it is disinterested; but this i think i may confidently say, that not even to avert so terrible a calamity will i again put my name to any bill. even if you could take my own promise to pay without the addition of any second name, i would not do it." there was nothing for mr. forrest to do under such circumstances but simply to drive back to barchester. he had done the best for the young clergyman according to his lights, and perhaps, in a worldly view, his advice had not been bad. but mark dreaded the very name of a bill. he was as a dog that had been terribly scorched, and nothing should again induce him to go near the fire. "was not that the man from the bank?" said fanny, coming into the room when the sound of the wheels had died away. "yes; mr. forrest." "well, dearest?" "we must prepare ourselves for the worst." "you will not sign any more papers, eh, mark?" "no; i have just now positively refused to do so." "then i can bear anything. but, dearest, dearest mark, will you not let me tell lady lufton?" let them look at the matter in any way the punishment was very heavy. chapter xliii. is she not insignificant? and now a month went by at framley without any increase of comfort to our friends there, and also without any absolute development of the ruin which had been daily expected at the parsonage. sundry letters had reached mr. robarts from various personages acting in the tozer interest, all of which he referred to mr. curling, of barchester. some of these letters contained prayers for the money, pointing out how an innocent widow lady had been induced to invest her all on the faith of mr. robarts' name, and was now starving in a garret, with her three children, because mr. robarts would not make good his own undertakings. but the majority of them were filled with threats;--only two days longer would be allowed and then the sheriff's officers would be enjoined to do their work; then one day of grace would be added, at the expiration of which the dogs of war would be unloosed. these, as fast as they came, were sent to mr. curling, who took no notice of them individually, but continued his endeavour to prevent the evil day. the second bill mr. robarts would take up--such was mr. curling's proposition; and would pay by two instalments of £ each, the first in two months, and the second in four. if this were acceptable to the tozer interest--well; if it were not, the sheriff's officers must do their worst and the tozer interest must look for what it could get. the tozer interest would not declare itself satisfied with these terms, and so the matter went on. during which the roses faded from day to day on the cheeks of mrs. robarts, as under such circumstances may easily be conceived. in the meantime lucy still remained at hogglestock and had there become absolute mistress of the house. poor mrs. crawley had been at death's door; for some days she was delirious, and afterwards remained so weak as to be almost unconscious; but now the worst was over, and mr. crawley had been informed, that as far as human judgment might pronounce, his children would not become orphans nor would he become a widower. during these weeks lucy had not once been home nor had she seen any of the framley people. "why should she incur the risk of conveying infection for so small an object?" as she herself argued, writing by letters, which were duly fumigated before they were opened at the parsonage. so she remained at hogglestock, and the crawley children, now admitted to all the honours of the nursery, were kept at framley. they were kept at framley, although it was expected from day to day that the beds on which they lay would be seized for the payment of mr. sowerby's debts. lucy, as i have said, became mistress of the house at hogglestock and made herself absolutely ascendant over mr. crawley. jellies, and broth, and fruit, and even butter, came from lufton court, which she displayed on the table, absolutely on the cloth before him, and yet he bore it. i cannot say that he partook of these delicacies with any freedom himself, but he did drink his tea when it was given to him although it contained framley cream;--and, had he known it, bohea itself from the framley chest. in truth, in these days, he had given himself over to the dominion of this stranger; and he said nothing beyond, "well, well," with two uplifted hands, when he came upon her as she was sewing the buttons on to his own shirts--sewing on the buttons and perhaps occasionally applying her needle elsewhere,--not without utility. he said to her at this period very little in the way of thanks. some protracted conversations they did have, now and again, during the long evenings; but even in these he did not utter many words as to their present state of life. it was on religion chiefly that he spoke, not lecturing her individually, but laying down his ideas as to what the life of a christian should be, and especially what should be the life of a minister. "but though i can see this, miss robarts," he said, "i am bound to say that no one has fallen off so frequently as myself. i have renounced the devil and all his works; but it is by word of mouth only--by word of mouth only. how shall a man crucify the old adam that is within him, unless he throw himself prostrate in the dust and acknowledge that all his strength is weaker than water?" to this, often as it might be repeated, she would listen patiently, comforting him by such words as her theology would supply; but then, when this was over, she would again resume her command and enforce from him a close obedience to her domestic behests. at the end of the month lord lufton came back to framley court. his arrival there was quite unexpected; though, as he pointed out when his mother expressed some surprise, he had returned exactly at the time named by him before he started. "i need not say, ludovic, how glad i am to have you," said she, looking to his face and pressing his arm; "the more so, indeed, seeing that i hardly expected it." he said nothing to his mother about lucy the first evening, although there was some conversation respecting the robarts family. "i am afraid mr. robarts has embarrassed himself," said lady lufton, looking very seriously. "rumours reach me which are most distressing. i have said nothing to anybody as yet--not even to fanny; but i can see in her face, and hear in the tones of her voice, that she is suffering some great sorrow." "i know all about it," said lord lufton. "you know all about it, ludovic?" "yes; it is through that precious friend of mine, mr. sowerby, of chaldicotes. he has accepted bills for sowerby; indeed, he told me so." "what business had he at chaldicotes? what had he to do with such friends as that? i do not know how i am to forgive him." "it was through me that he became acquainted with sowerby. you must remember that, mother." "i do not see that that is any excuse. is he to consider that all your acquaintances must necessarily be his friends also? it is reasonable to suppose that you in your position must live occasionally with a great many people who are altogether unfit companions for him as a parish clergyman. he will not remember this, and he must be taught it. what business had he to go to gatherum castle?" "he got his stall at barchester by going there." "he would be much better without his stall, and fanny has the sense to know this. what does he want with two houses? prebendal stalls are for older men than he--for men who have earned them, and who at the end of their lives want some ease. i wish with all my heart that he had never taken it." "six hundred a year has its charms all the same," said lufton, getting up and strolling out of the room. "if mark really be in any difficulty," he said, later in the evening, "we must put him on his legs." "you mean, pay his debts?" "yes; he has no debts except these acceptances of sowerby's." "how much will it be, ludovic?" "a thousand pounds, perhaps, more or less. i'll find the money, mother; only i shan't be able to pay you quite as soon as i intended." whereupon his mother got up, and throwing her arms round his neck declared that she would never forgive him if he ever said a word more about her little present to him. i suppose there is no pleasure a mother can have more attractive than giving away her money to an only son. lucy's name was first mentioned at breakfast the next morning. lord lufton had made up his mind to attack his mother on the subject early in the morning--before he went up to the parsonage; but as matters turned out miss robarts' doings were necessarily brought under discussion without reference to lord lufton's special aspirations regarding her. the fact of mrs. crawley's illness had been mentioned, and lady lufton had stated how it had come to pass that all the crawleys' children were at the parsonage. "i must say that fanny has behaved excellently," said lady lufton. "it was just what might have been expected from her. and indeed," she added, speaking in an embarrassed tone, "so has miss robarts. miss robarts has remained at hogglestock and nursed mrs. crawley through the whole." "remained at hogglestock--through the fever!" exclaimed his lordship. "yes, indeed," said lady lufton. "and is she there now?" "oh, yes; i am not aware that she thinks of leaving just yet." "then i say that it is a great shame--a scandalous shame!" "but, ludovic, it was her own doing." "oh, yes; i understand. but why should she be sacrificed? were there no nurses in the country to be hired, but that she must go and remain there for a month at the bedside of a pestilent fever? there is no justice in it." "justice, ludovic? i don't know about justice, but there was great christian charity. mrs. crawley has probably owed her life to miss robarts." "has she been ill? is she ill? i insist upon knowing whether she is ill. i shall go over to hogglestock myself immediately after breakfast." to this lady lufton made no reply. if lord lufton chose to go to hogglestock she could not prevent him. she thought, however, that it would be much better that he should stay away. he would be quite as open to the infection as lucy robarts; and, moreover, mrs. crawley's bedside would be as inconvenient a place as might be selected for any interview between two lovers. lady lufton felt at the present moment that she was cruelly treated by circumstances with reference to miss robarts. of course it would have been her part to lessen, if she could do so without injustice, that high idea which her son entertained of the beauty and worth of the young lady; but, unfortunately, she had been compelled to praise her and to load her name with all manner of eulogy. lady lufton was essentially a true woman, and not even with the object of carrying out her own views in so important a matter would she be guilty of such deception as she might have practised by simply holding her tongue; but nevertheless she could hardly reconcile herself to the necessity of singing lucy's praises. after breakfast lady lufton got up from her chair, but hung about the room without making any show of leaving. in accordance with her usual custom she would have asked her son what he was going to do; but she did not dare so to inquire now. had he not declared, only a few minutes since, whither he would go? "i suppose i shall see you at lunch?" at last she said. "at lunch? well, i don't know. look here, mother. what am i to say to miss robarts when i see her?" and he leaned with his back against the chimney-piece as he interrogated his mother. "what are you to say to her, ludovic?" "yes; what am i to say,--as coming from you? am i to tell her that you will receive her as your daughter-in-law?" "ludovic, i have explained all that to miss robarts herself." "explained what?" "i have told her that i did not think that such a marriage would make either you or her happy." "and why have you told her so? why have you taken upon yourself to judge for me in such a matter, as though i were a child? mother, you must unsay what you have said." lord lufton, as he spoke, looked full into his mother's face; and he did so, not as though he were begging from her a favour, but issuing to her a command. she stood near him, with one hand on the breakfast-table, gazing at him almost furtively, not quite daring to meet the full view of his eye. there was only one thing on earth which lady lufton feared, and that was her son's displeasure. the sun of her earthly heaven shone upon her through the medium of his existence. if she were driven to quarrel with him, as some ladies of her acquaintance were driven to quarrel with their sons, the world to her would be over. not but what facts might be so strong as to make it absolutely necessary that she should do this. as some people resolve that, under certain circumstances, they will commit suicide, so she could see that, under certain circumstances, she must consent even to be separated from him. she would not do wrong,--not that which she knew to be wrong,--even for his sake. if it were necessary that all her happiness should collapse and be crushed in ruin around her, she must endure it, and wait god's time to relieve her from so dark a world. the light of the sun was very dear to her, but even that might be purchased at too dear a cost. "i told you before, mother, that my choice was made, and i asked you then to give your consent; you have now had time to think about it, and therefore i have come to ask you again. i have reason to know that there will be no impediment to my marriage if you will frankly hold out your hand to lucy." the matter was altogether in lady lufton's hands, but, fond as she was of power, she absolutely wished that it were not so. had her son married without asking her and then brought lucy home as his wife, she would undoubtedly have forgiven him; and much as she might have disliked the match, she would, ultimately, have embraced the bride. but now she was compelled to exercise her judgment. if he married imprudently, it would be her doing. how was she to give her expressed consent to that which she believed to be wrong? "do you know anything against her; any reason why she should not be my wife?" continued he. "if you mean as regards her moral conduct, certainly not," said lady lufton. "but i could say as much as that in favour of a great many young ladies whom i should regard as very ill suited for such a marriage." "yes; some might be vulgar, some might be ill-tempered, some might be ugly; others might be burdened with disagreeable connections. i can understand that you should object to a daughter-in-law under any of these circumstances. but none of these things can be said of miss robarts. i defy you to say that she is not in all respects what a lady should be." but her father was a doctor of medicine, she is the sister of the parish clergyman, she is only five feet two in height, and is so uncommonly brown! had lady lufton dared to give a catalogue of her objections, such would have been its extent and nature. but she did not dare to do this. "i cannot say, ludovic, that she is possessed of all that you should seek in a wife." such was her answer. "do you mean that she has not got money?" "no, not that; i should be very sorry to see you making money your chief object, or indeed any essential object. if it chanced that your wife did have money, no doubt you would find it a convenience. but pray understand me, ludovic; i would not for a moment advise you to subject your happiness to such a necessity as that. it is not because she is without fortune--" "then why is it? at breakfast you were singing her praises, and saying how excellent she is." "if i were forced to put my objection into one word, i should say--" and then she paused, hardly daring to encounter the frown which was already gathering itself on her son's brow. "you would say what?" said lord lufton, almost roughly. "don't be angry with me, ludovic; all that i think, and all that i say on this subject, i think and say with only one object--that of your happiness. what other motive can i have for anything in this world?" and then she came close to him and kissed him. "but tell me, mother, what is this objection; what is this terrible word that is to sum up the list of all poor lucy's sins, and prove that she is unfit for married life?" "ludovic, i did not say that. you know that i did not." "what is the word, mother?" and then at last lady lufton spoke it out. "she is--insignificant. i believe her to be a very good girl, but she is not qualified to fill the high position to which you would exalt her." "insignificant!" "yes, ludovic, i think so." "then, mother, you do not know her. you must permit me to say that you are talking of a girl whom you do not know. of all the epithets of opprobrium which the english language could give you, that would be nearly the last which she would deserve." "i have not intended any opprobrium." "insignificant!" "perhaps you do not quite understand me, ludovic." "i know what insignificant means, mother." "i think that she would not worthily fill the position which your wife should take in the world." "i understand what you say." "she would not do you honour at the head of your table." "ah, i understand. you want me to marry some bouncing amazon, some pink and white giantess of fashion who would frighten the little people into their proprieties." "oh, ludovic! you are intending to laugh at me now." "i was never less inclined to laugh in my life--never, i can assure you. and now i am more certain than ever that your objection to miss robarts arises from your not knowing her. you will find, i think, when you do know her, that she is as well able to hold her own as any lady of your acquaintance;--ay, and to maintain her husband's position, too. i can assure you that i shall have no fear of her on that score." "i think, dearest, that perhaps you hardly--" "i think this, mother, that in such a matter as this i must choose for myself. i have chosen; and i now ask you, as my mother, to go to her and bid her welcome. dear mother, i will own this, that i should not be happy if i thought that you did not love my wife." these last words he said in a tone of affection that went to his mother's heart, and then he left the room. poor lady lufton, when she was alone, waited till she heard her son's steps retreating through the hall, and then betook herself up-stairs to her customary morning work. she sat down at last as though about so to occupy herself; but her mind was too full to allow of her taking up her pen. she had often said to herself, in days which to her were not as yet long gone by, that she would choose a bride for her son, and that then she would love the chosen one with all her heart. she would dethrone herself in favour of this new queen, sinking with joy into her dowager state, in order that her son's wife might shine with the greater splendour. the fondest day-dreams of her life had all had reference to the time when her son should bring home a new lady lufton, selected by herself from the female excellence of england, and in which she might be the first to worship her new idol. but could she dethrone herself for lucy robarts? could she give up her chair of state in order to place thereon the little girl from the parsonage? could she take to her heart, and treat with absolute loving confidence, with the confidence of an almost idolatrous mother, that little chit who, a few months since, had sat awkwardly in one corner of her drawing-room, afraid to speak to any one? and yet it seemed that it must come to this--to this--or else those day-dreams of hers would in nowise come to pass. she sat herself down, trying to think whether it were possible that lucy might fill the throne; for she had begun to recognize it as probable that her son's will would be too strong for her; but her thoughts would fly away to griselda grantly. in her first and only matured attempt to realize her day-dreams, she had chosen griselda for her queen. she had failed there, seeing that the fates had destined miss grantly for another throne;--for another and a higher one, as far as the world goes. she would have made griselda the wife of a baron, but fate was about to make that young lady the wife of a marquis. was there cause of grief in this? did she really regret that miss grantly, with all her virtues, should be made over to the house of hartletop? lady lufton was a woman who did not bear disappointment lightly; but nevertheless she did almost feel herself to have been relieved from a burden when she thought of the termination of the lufton-grantly marriage treaty. what if she had been successful, and, after all, the prize had been other than she had expected? she was sometimes prone to think that that prize was not exactly all that she had once hoped. griselda looked the very thing that lady lufton wanted for a queen;--but how would a queen reign who trusted only to her looks? in that respect it was perhaps well for her that destiny had interposed. griselda, she was driven to admit, was better suited to lord dumbello than to her son. but still--such a queen as lucy! could it ever come to pass that the lieges of the kingdom would bow the knee in proper respect before so puny a sovereign? and then there was that feeling which, in still higher quarters, prevents the marriage of princes with the most noble of their people. is it not a recognized rule of these realms that none of the blood royal shall raise to royal honours those of the subjects who are by birth un-royal! lucy was a subject of the house of lufton in that she was the sister of the parson and a resident denizen of the parsonage. presuming that lucy herself might do for queen--granting that she might have some faculty to reign, the crown having been duly placed on her brow--how, then, about that clerical brother near the throne? would it not come to this, that there would no longer be a queen at framley? and yet she knew that she must yield. she did not say so to herself. she did not as yet acknowledge that she must put out her hand to lucy, calling her by name as her daughter. she did not absolutely say as much to her own heart;--not as yet. but she did begin to bethink herself of lucy's high qualities, and to declare to herself that the girl, if not fit to be a queen, was at any rate fit to be a woman. that there was a spirit within that body, insignificant though the body might be, lady lufton was prepared to admit. that she had acquired the power--the chief of all powers in this world--of sacrificing herself for the sake of others; that, too, was evident enough. that she was a good girl, in the usual acceptation of the word good, lady lufton had never doubted. she was ready-witted too, prompt in action, gifted with a certain fire. it was that gift of fire which had won for her, so unfortunately, lord lufton's love. it was quite possible for her also to love lucy robarts; lady lufton admitted that to herself;--but then who could bow the knee before her, and serve her as a queen? was it not a pity that she should be so insignificant? but, nevertheless, we may say that as lady lufton sate that morning in her own room for two hours without employment, the star of lucy robarts was gradually rising in the firmament. after all, love was the food chiefly necessary for the nourishment of lady lufton,--the only food absolutely necessary. she was not aware of this herself, nor probably would those who knew her best have so spoken of her. they would have declared that family pride was her daily pabulum, and she herself would have said so too, calling it, however, by some less offensive name. her son's honour, and the honour of her house!--of those she would have spoken as the things dearest to her in this world. and this was partly true, for had her son been dishonoured, she would have sunk with sorrow to the grave. but the one thing necessary to her daily life was the power of loving those who were near to her. lord lufton, when he left the dining-room, intended at once to go up to the parsonage, but he first strolled round the garden in order that he might make up his mind what he would say there. he was angry with his mother, having not had the wit to see that she was about to give way and yield to him, and he was determined to make it understood that in this matter he would have his own way. he had learned that which it was necessary that he should know as to lucy's heart, and such being the case he would not conceive it possible that he should be debarred by his mother's opposition. "there is no son in england loves his mother better than i do," he said to himself; "but there are some things which a man cannot stand. she would have married me to that block of stone if i would have let her; and now, because she is disappointed there-- insignificant! i never in my life heard anything so absurd, so untrue, so uncharitable, so-- she'd like me to bring a dragon home, i suppose. it would serve her right if i did,--some creature that would make the house intolerable to her." "she must do it though," he said again, "or she and i will quarrel," and then he turned off towards the gate, preparing to go to the parsonage. "my lord, have you heard what has happened?" said the gardener, coming to him at the gate. the man was out of breath and almost overwhelmed by the greatness of his own tidings. "no; i have heard nothing. what is it?" "the bailiffs have taken possession of everything at the parsonage." chapter xliv. the philistines at the parsonage. it has been already told how things went on between the tozers, mr. curling, and mark robarts during that month. mr. forrest had drifted out of the business altogether, as also had mr. sowerby, as far as any active participation in it went. letters came frequently from mr. curling to the parsonage, and at last came a message by special mission to say that the evil day was at hand. as far as mr. curling's professional experience would enable him to anticipate or foretell the proceedings of such a man as tom tozer, he thought that the sheriff's officers would be at framley parsonage on the following morning. mr. curling's experience did not mislead him in this respect. "and what will you do, mark?" said fanny, speaking through her tears, after she had read the letter which her husband handed to her. "nothing. what can i do? they must come." "lord lufton came to-day. will you not go to him?" "no. if i were to do so it would be the same as asking him for the money." "why not borrow it of him, dearest? surely it would not be so much for him to lend." "i could not do it. think of lucy, and how she stands with him. besides i have already had words with lufton about sowerby and his money matters. he thinks that i am to blame, and he would tell me so; and then there would be sharp things said between us. he would advance me the money if i pressed for it, but he would do so in a way that would make it impossible that i should take it." there was nothing more then to be said. if she had had her own way mrs. robarts would have gone at once to lady lufton, but she could not induce her husband to sanction such a proceeding. the objection to seeking assistance from her ladyship was as strong as that which prevailed as to her son. there had already been some little beginning of ill-feeling, and under such circumstances it was impossible to ask for pecuniary assistance. fanny, however, had a prophetic assurance that assistance out of these difficulties must in the end come to them from that quarter, or not come at all; and she would fain, had she been allowed, make everything known at the big house. on the following morning they breakfasted at the usual hour, but in great sadness. a maid-servant, whom mrs. robarts had brought with her when she married, told her that a rumour of what was to happen had reached the kitchen. stubbs, the groom, had been in barchester on the preceding day, and, according to his account--so said mary--everybody in the city was talking about it. "never mind, mary," said mrs. robarts, and mary replied, "oh, no, of course not, ma'am." in these days mrs. robarts was ordinarily very busy, seeing that there were six children in the house, four of whom had come to her but ill supplied with infantine belongings; and now, as usual, she went about her work immediately after breakfast. but she moved about the house very slowly, and was almost unable to give her orders to the servants, and spoke sadly to the children who hung about her wondering what was the matter. her husband at the same time took himself to his book-room, but when there did not attempt any employment. he thrust his hands into his pockets, and, leaning against the fire-place, fixed his eyes upon the table before him without looking at anything that was on it; it was impossible for him to betake himself to his work. remember what is the ordinary labour of a clergyman in his study, and think how fit he must have been for such employment! what would have been the nature of a sermon composed at such a moment, and with what satisfaction could he have used the sacred volume in referring to it for his arguments? he, in this respect, was worse off than his wife; she did employ herself, but he stood there without moving, doing nothing, with fixed eyes, thinking what men would say of him. luckily for him this state of suspense was not long, for within half an hour of his leaving the breakfast-table the footman knocked at his door--that footman with whom at the beginning of his difficulties he had made up his mind to dispense, but who had been kept on because of the barchester prebend. "if you please, your reverence, there are two men outside," said the footman. two men! mark knew well enough what men they were, but he could hardly take the coming of two such men to his quiet country parsonage quite as a matter of course. "who are they, john?" said he, not wishing any answer, but because the question was forced upon him. "i'm afeard they're--bailiffs, sir." "very well, john; that will do; of course they must do what they please about the place." and then, when the servant left him, he still stood without moving, exactly as he had stood before. there he remained for ten minutes, but the time went by very slowly. when about noon some circumstance told him what was the hour, he was astonished to find that the day had not nearly passed away. and then another tap was struck on the door,--a sound which he well recognized,--and his wife crept silently into the room. she came close up to him before she spoke, and put her arm within his: "mark," she said, "the men are here; they are in the yard." [illustration: "mark," she said, "the men are here."] "i know it," he answered gruffly. "will it be better that you should see them, dearest?" "see them; no; what good can i do by seeing them? but i shall see them soon enough; they will be here, i suppose, in a few minutes." "they are taking an inventory, cook says; they are in the stable now." "very well; they must do as they please; i cannot help them." "cook says that if they are allowed their meals and some beer, and if nobody takes anything away, they will be quite civil." "civil! but what does it matter? let them eat and drink what they please, as long as the food lasts. i don't suppose the butcher will send you more." "but, mark, there's nothing due to the butcher,--only the regular monthly bill." "very well; you'll see." "oh, mark, don't look at me in that way. do not turn away from me. what is to comfort us if we do not cling to each other now?" "comfort us! god help you! i wonder, fanny, that you can bear to stay in the room with me." "mark, dearest mark, my own dear, dearest husband! who is to be true to you, if i am not? you shall not turn from me. how can anything like this make a difference between you and me?" and then she threw her arms round his neck and embraced him. it was a terrible morning to him, and one of which every incident will dwell on his memory to the last day of his life. he had been so proud in his position--had assumed to himself so prominent a standing--had contrived, by some trick which he had acquired, to carry his head so high above the heads of neighbouring parsons. it was this that had taken him among great people, had introduced him to the duke of omnium, had procured for him the stall at barchester. but how was he to carry his head now? what would the arabins and grantlys say? how would the bishop sneer at him, and mrs. proudie and her daughters tell of him in all their quarters? how would crawley look at him--crawley, who had already once had him on the hip? the stern severity of crawley's face loomed upon him now. crawley, with his children half naked, and his wife a drudge, and himself half starved, had never had a bailiff in his house at hogglestock! and then his own curate, evans, whom he had patronized, and treated almost as a dependant--how was he to look his curate in the face and arrange with him for the sacred duties of the next sunday? his wife still stood by him, gazing into his face; and as he looked at her and thought of her misery, he could not control his heart with reference to the wrongs which sowerby had heaped on him. it was sowerby's falsehood and sowerby's fraud which had brought upon him and his wife this terrible anguish. "if there be justice on earth he will suffer for it yet," he said at last, not speaking intentionally to his wife, but unable to repress his feelings. "do not wish him evil, mark; you may be sure he has his own sorrows." "his own sorrows! no; he is callous to such misery as this. he has become so hardened in dishonesty that all this is mirth to him. if there be punishment in heaven for falsehood--" "oh, mark, do not curse him!" "how am i to keep myself from cursing when i see what he has brought upon you?" "'vengeance is mine, saith the lord,'" answered the young wife, not with solemn, preaching accent, as though bent on reproof, but with the softest whisper into his ear. "leave that to him, mark; and for us, let us pray that he may soften the hearts of us all;--of him who has caused us to suffer, and of our own." mark was not called upon to reply to this, for he was again disturbed by a servant at the door. it was the cook this time herself, who had come with a message from the men of the law. and she had come, be it remembered, not from any necessity that she as cook should do this line of work; for the footman, or mrs. robarts' maid, might have come as well as she. but when things are out of course servants are always out of course also. as a rule, nothing will induce a butler to go into a stable, or persuade a housemaid to put her hand to a frying-pan. but now that this new excitement had come upon the household--seeing that the bailiffs were in possession, and that the chattels were being entered in a catalogue, everybody was willing to do everything--everything but his or her own work. the gardener was looking after the dear children; the nurse was doing the rooms before the bailiffs should reach them; the groom had gone into the kitchen to get their lunch ready for them; and the cook was walking about with an inkstand, obeying all the orders of these great potentates. as far as the servants were concerned, it may be a question whether the coming of the bailiffs had not hitherto been regarded as a treat. "if you please, ma'am," said jemima cook, "they wishes to know in which room you'd be pleased to have the inmin-tory took fust. 'cause, ma'am, they wouldn't disturb you nor master more than can be avoided. for their line of life, ma'am, they is very civil--very civil indeed." "i suppose they may go into the drawing-room," said mrs. robarts, in a sad low voice. all nice women are proud of their drawing-rooms, and she was very proud of hers. it had been furnished when money was plenty with them, immediately after their marriage, and everything in it was pretty, good, and dear to her. o ladies, who have drawing-rooms in which the things are pretty, good, and dear to you, think of what it would be to have two bailiffs rummaging among them with pen and inkhorn, making a catalogue preparatory to a sheriff's auction; and all without fault or extravagance of your own! there were things there that had been given to her by lady lufton, by lady meredith, and other friends, and the idea did occur to her that it might be possible to save them from contamination; but she would not say a word, lest by so saying she might add to mark's misery. "and then the dining-room," said jemima cook, in a tone almost of elation. "yes; if they please." "and then master's book-room here; or perhaps the bedrooms, if you and master be still here." "any way they please, cook; it does not much signify," said mrs. robarts. but for some days after that jemima was by no means a favourite with her. the cook was hardly out of the room before a quick footstep was heard on the gravel before the window, and the hall door was immediately opened. "where is your master?" said the well-known voice of lord lufton; and then in half a minute he also was in the book-room. "mark, my dear fellow, what's all this?" said he, in a cheery tone and with a pleasant face. "did not you know that i was here? i came down yesterday; landed from hamburg only yesterday morning. how do you do, mrs. robarts? this is a terrible bore, isn't it?" robarts, at the first moment, hardly knew how to speak to his old friend. he was struck dumb by the disgrace of his position; the more so as his misfortune was one which it was partly in the power of lord lufton to remedy. he had never yet borrowed money since he had filled a man's position, but he had had words about money with the young peer, in which he knew that his friend had wronged him; and for this double reason he was now speechless. "mr. sowerby has betrayed him," said mrs. robarts, wiping the tears from her eyes. hitherto she had said no word against sowerby, but now it was necessary to defend her husband. "no doubt about it. i believe he has always betrayed every one who has ever trusted him. i told you what he was, some time since; did i not? but, mark, why on earth have you let it go so far as this? would not forrest help you?" "mr. forrest wanted him to sign more bills, and he would not do that," said mrs. robarts, sobbing. "bills are like dram-drinking," said the discreet young lord: "when one once begins, it is very hard to leave off. is it true that the men are here now, mark?" "yes, they are in the next room." "what, in the drawing-room?" "they are making out a list of the things," said mrs. robarts. "we must stop that at any rate," said his lordship, walking off towards the scene of the operations; and as he left the room mrs. robarts followed him, leaving her husband by himself. "why did you not send down to my mother?" said he, speaking hardly above a whisper, as they stood together in the hall. "he would not let me." "but why not go yourself? or why not have written to me,--considering how intimate we are?" mrs. robarts could not explain to him that the peculiar intimacy between him and lucy must have hindered her from doing so, even if otherwise it might have been possible; but she felt such was the case. "well, my men, this is bad work you're doing here," said he, walking into the drawing-room. whereupon the cook curtseyed low, and the bailiffs, knowing his lordship, stopped from their business and put their hands to their foreheads. "you must stop this, if you please,--at once. come, let's go out into the kitchen, or some place outside. i don't like to see you here with your big boots and the pen and ink among the furniture." "we ain't a-done no harm, my lord, so please your lordship," said jemima cook. "and we is only a-doing our bounden dooties," said one of the bailiffs. "as we is sworn to do, so please your lordship," said the other. "and is wery sorry to be unconwenient, my lord, to any gen'leman or lady as is a gen'leman or lady. but accidents will happen, and then what can the likes of us do?" said the first. "because we is sworn, my lord," said the second. but, nevertheless, in spite of their oaths, and in spite also of the stern necessity which they pleaded, they ceased their operations at the instance of the peer. for the name of a lord is still great in england. "and now leave this, and let mrs. robarts go into her drawing-room." "and, please your lordship, what is we to do? who is we to look to?" in satisfying them absolutely on this point lord lufton had to use more than his influence as a peer. it was necessary that he should have pen and paper. but with pen and paper he did satisfy them;--satisfy them so far that they agreed to return to stubbs' room, the former hospital, due stipulation having been made for the meals and beer, and there await the order to evacuate the premises which would no doubt, under his lordship's influence, reach them on the following day. the meaning of all which was that lord lufton had undertaken to bear upon his own shoulder the whole debt due by mr. robarts. and then he returned to the book-room where mark was still standing almost on the spot in which he had placed himself immediately after breakfast. mrs. robarts did not return, but went up among the children to counter-order such directions as she had given for the preparation of the nursery for the philistines. "mark," he said, "do not trouble yourself about this more than you can help. the men have ceased doing anything, and they shall leave the place to-morrow morning." "and how will the money--be paid?" said the poor clergyman. "do not bother yourself about that at present. it shall so be managed that the burden shall fall ultimately on yourself--not on any one else. but i am sure it must be a comfort to you to know that your wife need not be driven out of her drawing-room." "but, lufton, i cannot allow you--after what has passed--and at the present moment--" "my dear fellow, i know all about it, and i am coming to that just now. you have employed curling, and he shall settle it; and upon my word, mark, you shall pay the bill. but, for the present emergency, the money is at my banker's." "but, lufton--" "and to deal honestly, about curling's bill i mean, it ought to be as much my affair as your own. it was i that brought you into this mess with sowerby, and i know now how unjust about it i was to you up in london. but the truth is that sowerby's treachery had nearly driven me wild. it has done the same to you since, i have no doubt." "he has ruined me," said robarts. "no, he has not done that. no thanks to him though; he would not have scrupled to do it had it come in his way. the fact is, mark, that you and i cannot conceive the depth of fraud in such a man as that. he is always looking for money; i believe that in all his hours of most friendly intercourse,--when he is sitting with you over your wine, and riding beside you in the field,--he is still thinking how he can make use of you to tide him over some difficulty. he has lived in that way till he has a pleasure in cheating, and has become so clever in his line of life that if you or i were with him again to-morrow he would again get the better of us. he is a man that must be absolutely avoided; i, at any rate, have learned to know so much." in the expression of which opinion lord lufton was too hard upon poor sowerby; as indeed we are all apt to be too hard in forming an opinion upon the rogues of the world. that mr. sowerby had been a rogue, i cannot deny. it is roguish to lie, and he had been a great liar. it is roguish to make promises which the promiser knows he cannot perform, and such had been mr. sowerby's daily practice. it is roguish to live on other men's money, and mr. sowerby had long been doing so. it is roguish, at least so i would hold it, to deal willingly with rogues; and mr. sowerby had been constant in such dealings. i do not know whether he had not at times fallen even into more palpable roguery than is proved by such practices as those enumerated. though i have for him some tender feeling, knowing that there was still a touch of gentle bearing round his heart, an abiding taste for better things within him, i cannot acquit him from the great accusation. but, for all that, in spite of his acknowledged roguery, lord lufton was too hard upon him in his judgment. there was yet within him the means of repentance, could a _locus penitentiæ_ have been supplied to him. he grieved bitterly over his own ill doings, and knew well what changes gentlehood would have demanded from him. whether or no he had gone too far for all changes--whether the _locus penitentiæ_ was for him still a possibility--that was between him and a higher power. "i have no one to blame but myself," said mark, still speaking in the same heart-broken tone and with his face averted from his friend. the debt would now be paid, and the bailiffs would be expelled; but that would not set him right before the world. it would be known to all men--to all clergymen in the diocese--that the sheriff's officers had been in charge of framley parsonage, and he could never again hold up his head in the close of barchester. "my dear fellow, if we were all to make ourselves miserable for such a trifle as this--" said lord lufton, putting his arm affectionately on his friend's shoulder. "but we are not all clergymen," said mark, and as he spoke he turned away to the window and lord lufton knew that the tears were on his cheek. nothing was then said between them for some moments, after which lord lufton again spoke,-- "mark, my dear fellow!" "well," said mark, with his face still turned towards the window. "you must remember one thing; in helping you over this stile, which will be really a matter of no inconvenience to me, i have a better right than that even of an old friend; i look upon you now as my brother-in-law." mark turned slowly round, plainly showing the tears upon his face. "do you mean," said he, "that anything more has taken place?" "i mean to make your sister my wife; she sent me word by you to say that she loved me, and i am not going to stand upon any nonsense after that. if she and i are both willing no one alive has a right to stand between us; and, by heavens, no one shall. i will do nothing secretly, so i tell you that, exactly as i have told her ladyship." "but what does she say?" "she says nothing; but it cannot go on like that. my mother and i cannot live here together if she opposes me in this way. i do not want to frighten your sister by going over to her at hogglestock, but i expect you to tell her so much as i now tell you, as coming from me; otherwise she will think that i have forgotten her." "she will not think that." "she need not; good-bye, old fellow. i'll make it all right between you and her ladyship about this affair of sowerby's." and then he took his leave and walked off to settle about the payment of the money. "mother," said he to lady lufton that evening, "you must not bring this affair of the bailiffs up against robarts. it has been more my fault than his." hitherto not a word had been spoken between lady lufton and her son on the subject. she had heard with terrible dismay of what had happened, and had heard also that lord lufton had immediately gone to the parsonage. it was impossible, therefore, that she should now interfere. that the necessary money would be forthcoming she was aware, but that would not wipe out the terrible disgrace attached to an execution in a clergyman's house. and then, too, he was her clergyman,--her own clergyman, selected, and appointed, and brought to framley by herself, endowed with a wife of her own choosing, filled with good things by her own hand! it was a terrible misadventure, and she began to repent that she had ever heard the name of robarts. she would not, however, have been slow to put forth the hand to lessen the evil by giving her own money, had this been either necessary or possible. but how could she interfere between robarts and her son, especially when she remembered the proposed connection between lucy and lord lufton? "your fault, ludovic?" "yes, mother. it was i who introduced him to mr. sowerby; and, to tell the truth, i do not think he would ever have been intimate with sowerby if i had not given him some sort of a commission with reference to money matters then pending between mr. sowerby and me. they are all over now,--thanks to you, indeed." "mr. robarts' character as a clergyman should have kept him from such troubles, if no other feeling did so." "at any rate, mother, oblige me by letting it pass by." "oh, i shall say nothing to him." "you had better say something to her, or otherwise it will be strange; and even to him i would say a word or two,--a word in kindness, as you so well know how. it will be easier to him in that way, than if you were to be altogether silent." no further conversation took place between them at the time, but later in the evening she brushed her hand across her son's forehead, sweeping the long silken hairs into their place, as she was wont to do when moved by any special feeling of love. "ludovic," she said, "no one, i think, has so good a heart as you. i will do exactly as you would have me about this affair of mr. robarts and the money." and then there was nothing more said about it. chapter xlv. palace blessings. and now, at this period, terrible rumours found their way into barchester, and flew about the cathedral towers and round the cathedral door; ay, and into the canons' houses and the humbler sitting-rooms of the vicars choral. whether they made their way from thence up to the bishop's palace, or whether they descended from the palace to the close, i will not pretend to say. but they were shocking, unnatural, and no doubt grievous to all those excellent ecclesiastical hearts which cluster so thickly in those quarters. the first of these had reference to the new prebendary, and to the disgrace which he had brought on the chapter; a disgrace, as some of them boasted, which barchester had never known before. this, however, like most other boasts, was hardly true; for within but a very few years there had been an execution in the house of a late prebendary, old dr. stanhope; and on that occasion the doctor himself had been forced to fly away to italy, starting in the night, lest he also should fall into the hands of the philistines, as well as his chairs and tables. "it is a scandalous shame," said mrs. proudie, speaking not of the old doctor, but of the new offender; "a scandalous shame: and it would only serve him right if the gown were stripped from his back." "i suppose his living will be sequestrated," said a young minor canon who attended much to the ecclesiastical injunctions of the lady of the diocese, and was deservedly held in high favour. if framley were sequestrated, why should not he, as well as another, undertake the duty--with such stipend as the bishop might award? "i am told that he is over head and ears in debt," said the future mrs. tickler, "and chiefly for horses which he has bought and not paid for." "i see him riding very splendid animals when he comes over for the cathedral duties," said the minor canon. "the sheriff's officers are in the house at present, i am told," said mrs. proudie. "and is not he in jail?" said mrs. tickler. "if not, he ought to be," said mrs. tickler's mother. "and no doubt soon will be," said the minor canon; "for i hear that he is linked up with a most discreditable gang of persons." this was what was said in the palace on that heading; and though, no doubt, more spirit and poetry was displayed there than in the houses of the less gifted clergy, this shows the manner in which the misfortune of mr. robarts was generally discussed. nor, indeed, had he deserved any better treatment at their hands. but his name did not run the gauntlet for the usual nine days; nor, indeed, did his fame endure at its height for more than two. this sudden fall was occasioned by other tidings of a still more distressing nature; by a rumour which so affected mrs. proudie that it caused, as she said, her blood to creep. and she was very careful that the blood of others should creep also, if the blood of others was equally sensitive. it was said that lord dumbello had jilted miss grantly. from what adverse spot in the world these cruel tidings fell upon barchester i have never been able to discover. we know how quickly rumour flies, making herself common through all the cities. that mrs. proudie should have known more of the facts connected with the hartletop family than any one else in barchester was not surprising, seeing that she was so much more conversant with the great world in which such people lived. she knew, and was therefore correct enough in declaring, that lord dumbello had already jilted one other young lady--the lady julia mac mull, to whom he had been engaged three seasons back, and that therefore his character in such matters was not to be trusted. that lady julia had been a terrible flirt and greatly given to waltzing with a certain german count, with whom she had since gone off--that, i suppose, mrs. proudie did not know, much as she was conversant with the great world,--seeing that she said nothing about it to any of her ecclesiastical listeners on the present occasion. "it will be a terrible warning, mrs. quiverful, to us all; a most useful warning to us--not to trust to the things of this world. i fear they made no inquiry about this young nobleman before they agreed that his name should be linked with that of their daughter." this she said to the wife of the present warden of hiram's hospital, a lady who had received favours from her, and was therefore bound to listen attentively to her voice. "but i hope it may not be true," said mrs. quiverful, who, in spite of the allegiance due by her to mrs. proudie, had reasons of her own for wishing well to the grantly family. "i hope so, indeed," said mrs. proudie, with a slight tinge of anger in her voice; "but i fear that there is no doubt. and i must confess that it is no more than we had a right to expect. i hope that it may be taken by all of us as a lesson, and an ensample, and a teaching of the lord's mercy. and i wish you would request your husband--from me, mrs. quiverful--to dwell on this subject in morning and evening lecture at the hospital on sabbath next, showing how false is the trust which we put in the good things of this world;" which behest, to a certain extent, mr. quiverful did obey, feeling that a quiet life in barchester was of great value to him; but he did not go so far as to caution his hearers, who consisted of the aged bedesmen of the hospital, against matrimonial projects of an ambitious nature. in this case, as in all others of the kind, the report was known to all the chapter before it had been heard by the archdeacon or his wife. the dean heard it, and disregarded it; as did also the dean's wife--at first; and those who generally sided with the grantlys in the diocesan battles pooh-poohed the tidings, saying to each other that both the archdeacon and mrs. grantly were very well able to take care of their own affairs. but dripping water hollows a stone; and at last it was admitted on all sides that there was ground for fear,--on all sides, except at plumstead. "i am sure there is nothing in it; i really am sure of it," said mrs. arabin, whispering to her sister; "but after turning it over in my mind, i thought it right to tell you. and yet i don't know now but i am wrong." "quite right, dearest eleanor," said mrs. grantly. "and i am much obliged to you. but we understand it, you know. it comes, of course, like all other christian blessings, from the palace." and then there was nothing more said about it between mrs. grantly and her sister. but on the following morning there arrived a letter by post, addressed to mrs. grantly, bearing the postmark of littlebath. the letter ran:-- madam, it is known to the writer that lord dumbello has arranged with certain friends how he may escape from his present engagement. i think, therefore, that it is my duty as a christian to warn you of this. yours truly, a wellwisher. now it had happened that the embryo mrs. tickler's most intimate bosom friend and confidante was known at plumstead to live at littlebath, and it had also happened--most unfortunately--that the embryo mrs. tickler, in the warmth of her neighbourly regard, had written a friendly line to her friend griselda grantly, congratulating her with all female sincerity on her splendid nuptials with the lord dumbello. "it is not her natural hand," said mrs. grantly, talking the matter over with her husband, "but you may be sure it has come from her. it is a part of the new christianity which we learn day by day from the palace teaching." but these things had some effect on the archdeacon's mind. he had learned lately the story of lady julia mac mull, and was not sure that his son-in-law--as ought to be about to be--had been entirely blameless in that matter. and then in these days lord dumbello made no great sign. immediately on griselda's return to plumstead he had sent her a magnificent present of emeralds, which, however, had come to her direct from the jewellers, and might have been--and probably was--ordered by his man of business. since that he had neither come, nor sent, nor written. griselda did not seem to be in any way annoyed by this absence of the usual sign of love, and went on steadily with her great duties. "nothing," as she told her mother, "had been said about writing, and, therefore, she did not expect it." but the archdeacon was not quite at his ease. "keep dumbello up to his p's and q's, you know," a friend of his had whispered to him at his club. by heavens, yes. the archdeacon was not a man to bear with indifference a wrong in such a quarter. in spite of his clerical profession, few men were more inclined to fight against personal wrongs--and few men more able. "can there be anything wrong, i wonder?" said he to his wife. "is it worth while that i should go up to london?" but mrs. grantly attributed it all to the palace doctrine. what could be more natural, looking at all the circumstances of the tickler engagement? she therefore gave her voice against any steps being taken by the archdeacon. a day or two after that mrs. proudie met mrs. arabin in the close and condoled with her openly on the termination of the marriage treaty;--quite openly, for mrs. tickler--as she was to be--was with her mother, and mrs. arabin was accompanied by her sister-in-law, mary bold. "it must be very grievous to mrs. grantly, very grievous indeed," said mrs. proudie, "and i sincerely feel for her. but, mrs. arabin, all these lessons are sent to us for our eternal welfare." "of course," said mrs. arabin. "but as to this special lesson, i am inclined to doubt that it--" "ah-h! i fear it is too true. i fear there is no room for doubt. of course you are aware that lord dumbello is off for the continent." mrs. arabin was not aware of it, and she was obliged to admit as much. "he started four days ago, by way of boulogne," said mrs. tickler, who seemed to be very well up in the whole affair. "i am so sorry for poor dear griselda. i am told she has got all her things. it is such a pity, you know." "but why should not lord dumbello come back from the continent?" said miss bold, very quietly. "why not, indeed? i'm sure i hope he may," said mrs. proudie. "and no doubt he will, some day. but if he be such a man as they say he is, it is really well for griselda that she should be relieved from such a marriage. for, after all, mrs. arabin, what are the things of this world?--dust beneath our feet, ashes between our teeth, grass cut for the oven, vanity, vexation, and nothing more!"--well pleased with which variety of christian metaphors mrs. proudie walked on, still muttering, however, something about worms and grubs, by which she intended to signify her own species and the dumbello and grantly sects of it in particular. this now had gone so far that mrs. arabin conceived herself bound in duty to see her sister, and it was then settled in consultation at plumstead that the archdeacon should call officially at the palace and beg that the rumour might be contradicted. this he did early on the next morning and was shown into the bishop's study, in which he found both his lordship and mrs. proudie. the bishop rose to greet him with special civility, smiling his very sweetest on him, as though of all his clergy the archdeacon were the favourite; but mrs. proudie wore something of a gloomy aspect, as though she knew that such a visit at such an hour must have reference to some special business. the morning calls made by the archdeacon at the palace in the way of ordinary civility were not numerous. on the present occasion he dashed at once into his subject. "i have called this morning, mrs. proudie," said he, "because i wish to ask a favour from you." whereupon mrs. proudie bowed. "mrs. proudie will be most happy, i am sure," said the bishop. "i find that some foolish people have been talking in barchester about my daughter," said the archdeacon; "and i wish to ask mrs. proudie--" most women under such circumstances would have felt the awkwardness of their situation, and would have prepared to eat their past words with wry faces. but not so mrs. proudie. mrs. grantly had had the imprudence to throw mr. slope in her face--there, in her own drawing-room, and she was resolved to be revenged. mrs. grantly, too, had ridiculed the tickler match, and no too great niceness should now prevent mrs. proudie from speaking her mind about the dumbello match. "a great many people are talking about her, i am sorry to say," said mrs. proudie; "but, poor dear, it is not her fault. it might have happened to any girl; only, perhaps, a little more care--; you'll excuse me, dr. grantly." "i have come here to allude to a report which has been spread about in barchester, that the match between lord dumbello and my daughter has been broken off; and--" "everybody in barchester knows it, i believe," said mrs. proudie. --"and," continued the archdeacon, "to request that that report may be contradicted." "contradicted! why, he has gone right away,--out of the country!" "never mind where he has gone to, mrs. proudie; i beg that the report may be contradicted." "you'll have to go round to every house in barchester then," said she. "by no means," replied the archdeacon. "and perhaps it may be right that i should explain to the bishop that i came here because--" "the bishop knows nothing about it," said mrs. proudie. "nothing in the world," said his lordship. "and i am sure i hope that the young lady may not be disappointed." --"because the matter was so distinctly mentioned to mrs. arabin by yourself yesterday." "distinctly mentioned! of course it was distinctly mentioned. there are some things which can't be kept under a bushel, dr. grantly; and this seems to be one of them. your going about in this way won't make lord dumbello marry the young lady." that was true; nor would it make mrs. proudie hold her tongue. perhaps the archdeacon was wrong in his present errand, and so he now began to bethink himself. "at any rate," said he, "when i tell you that there is no ground whatever for such a report you will do me the kindness to say that, as far as you are concerned, it shall go no further. i think, my lord, i am not asking too much in asking that." "the bishop knows nothing about it," said mrs. proudie again. "nothing at all," said the bishop. "and as i must protest that i believe the information which has reached me on this head," said mrs. proudie, "i do not see how it is possible that i should contradict it. i can easily understand your feelings, dr. grantly. considering your daughter's position the match was, as regards earthly wealth, a very great one. i do not wonder that you should be grieved at its being broken off; but i trust that this sorrow may eventuate in a blessing to you and to miss griselda. these worldly disappointments are precious balms, and i trust you know how to accept them as such." the fact was that dr. grantly had done altogether wrong in coming to the palace. his wife might have some chance with mrs. proudie, but he had none. since she had come to barchester he had had only two or three encounters with her, and in all of these he had gone to the wall. his visits to the palace always resulted in his leaving the presence of the inhabitants in a frame of mind by no means desirable, and he now found that he had to do so once again. he could not compel mrs. proudie to say that the report was untrue; nor could he condescend to make counter hits at her about her own daughter, as his wife would have done. and thus, having utterly failed, he got up and took his leave. but the worst of the matter was, that, in going home, he could not divest his mind of the idea that there might be some truth in the report. what if lord dumbello had gone to the continent resolved to send back from thence some reason why it was impossible that he should make miss grantly his wife? such things had been done before now by men in his rank. whether or no mrs. tickler had been the letter-writing wellwisher from littlebath, or had induced her friend to be so, it did seem manifest to him, dr. grantly, that mrs. proudie absolutely believed the report which she promulgated so diligently. the wish might be father to the thought, no doubt; but that the thought was truly there, dr. grantly could not induce himself to disbelieve. his wife was less credulous, and to a certain degree comforted him; but that evening he received a letter which greatly confirmed the suspicions set on foot by mrs. proudie, and even shook his wife's faith in lord dumbello. it was from a mere acquaintance, who in the ordinary course of things would not have written to him. and the bulk of the letter referred to ordinary things, as to which the gentleman in question would hardly have thought of giving himself the trouble to write a letter. but at the end of the note he said,-- "of course you are aware that dumbello is off to paris; i have not heard whether the exact day of his return is fixed." "it is true then," said the archdeacon, striking the library table with his hand, and becoming absolutely white about the mouth and jaws. "it cannot be," said mrs. grantly; but even she was now trembling. "if it be so i'll drag him back to england by the collar of his coat, and disgrace him before the steps of his father's hall." and the archdeacon as he uttered the threat looked his character as an irate british father much better than he did his other character as a clergyman of the church of england. the archdeacon had been greatly worsted by mrs. proudie, but he was a man who knew how to fight his battles among men,--sometimes without too close a regard to his cloth. "had lord dumbello intended any such thing he would have written, or got some friend to write by this time," said mrs. grantly. "it is quite possible that he might wish to be off, but he would be too chary of his name not to endeavour to do so with decency." thus the matter was discussed, and it appeared to them both to be so serious that the archdeacon resolved to go at once to london. that lord dumbello had gone to france he did not doubt; but he would find some one in town acquainted with the young man's intentions, and he would, no doubt, be able to hear when his return was expected. if there were real reason for apprehension he would follow the runagate to the continent, but he would not do this without absolute knowledge. according to lord dumbello's present engagements he was bound to present himself in august next at plumstead episcopi, with the view of then and there taking griselda grantly in marriage; but if he kept his word in this respect no one had a right to quarrel with him for going to paris in the meantime. most expectant bridegrooms would, no doubt, under such circumstances have declared their intentions to their future brides; but if lord dumbello were different from others, who had a right on that account to be indignant with him? he was unlike other men in other things; and especially unlike other men in being the eldest son of the marquis of hartletop. it would be all very well for tickler to proclaim his whereabouts from week to week; but the eldest son of a marquis might find it inconvenient to be so precise! nevertheless the archdeacon thought it only prudent to go up to london. "susan," said the archdeacon to his wife, just as he was starting;--at this moment neither of them were in the happiest spirits,--"i think i would say a word of caution to griselda." "do you feel so much doubt about it as that?" said mrs. grantly. but even she did not dare to put a direct negative to this proposal, so much had she been moved by what she had heard! "i think i would do so, not frightening her more than i could help. it will lessen the blow if it be that the blow is to fall." "it will kill me," said mrs. grantly; "but i think that she will be able to bear it." on the next morning mrs. grantly, with much cunning preparation, went about the task which her husband had left her to perform. it took her long to do, for she was very cunning in the doing of it; but at last it dropped from her in words that there was a possibility--a bare possibility--that some disappointment might even yet be in store for them. "do you mean, mamma, that the marriage will be put off?" "i don't mean to say that i think it will; god forbid! but it is just possible. i daresay that i am very wrong to tell you of this, but i know that you have sense enough to bear it. papa has gone to london and we shall hear from him soon." "then, mamma, i had better give them orders not to go on with the marking." chapter xlvi. lady lufton's request. the bailiffs on that day had their meals regular,--and their beer, which state of things, together with an absence of all duty in the way of making inventories and the like, i take to be the earthly paradise of bailiffs; and on the next morning they walked off with civil speeches and many apologies as to their intrusion. "they was very sorry," they said, "to have troubled a gen'leman as were a gen'leman, but in their way of business what could they do?" to which one of them added a remark that, "business is business." this statement i am not prepared to contradict, but i would recommend all men in choosing a profession to avoid any that may require an apology at every turn;--either an apology or else a somewhat violent assertion of right. each younger male reader may perhaps reply that he has no thought of becoming a sheriff's officer; but then are there not other cognate lines of life to which perhaps the attention of some such may be attracted? on the evening of the day on which they went mark received a note from lady lufton begging him to call early on the following morning, and immediately after breakfast he went across to framley court. it may be imagined that he was not in a very happy frame of mind, but he felt the truth of his wife's remark that the first plunge into cold water was always the worst. lady lufton was not a woman who would continually throw his disgrace into his teeth, however terribly cold might be the first words with which she spoke of it. he strove hard as he entered her room to carry his usual look and bearing, and to put out his hand to greet her with his customary freedom, but he knew that he failed. and it may be said that no good man who has broken down in his goodness can carry the disgrace of his fall without some look of shame. when a man is able to do that, he ceases to be in any way good. "this has been a distressing affair," said lady lufton after her first salutation. "yes, indeed," said he. "it has been very sad for poor fanny." "well; we must all have our little periods of grief; and it may perhaps be fortunate if none of us have worse than this. she will not complain, herself, i am sure." "she complain!" "no, i am sure she will not. and now all i've got to say, mr. robarts, is this: i hope you and lufton have had enough to do with black sheep to last you your lives; for i must protest that your late friend mr. sowerby is a black sheep." in no possible way could lady lufton have alluded to the matter with greater kindness than in thus joining mark's name with that of her son. it took away all the bitterness of the rebuke, and made the subject one on which even he might have spoken without difficulty. but now, seeing that she was so gentle to him, he could not but lean the more hardly on himself. "i have been very foolish," said he, "very foolish and very wrong, and very wicked." "very foolish, i believe, mr. robarts--to speak frankly and once for all; but, as i also believe, nothing worse. i thought it best for both of us that we should just have one word about it, and now i recommend that the matter be never mentioned between us again." "god bless you, lady lufton," he said. "i think no man ever had such a friend as you are." she had been very quiet during the interview, and almost subdued, not speaking with the animation that was usual to her; for this affair with mr. robarts was not the only one she had to complete that day, nor, perhaps, the one most difficult of completion. but she cheered up a little under the praise now bestowed on her, for it was the sort of praise she loved best. she did hope, and, perhaps, flatter herself, that she was a good friend. "you must be good enough, then, to gratify my friendship by coming up to dinner this evening; and fanny, too, of course. i cannot take any excuse, for the matter is completely arranged. i have a particular reason for wishing it." these last violent injunctions had been added because lady lufton had seen a refusal rising in the parson's face. poor lady lufton! her enemies--for even she had enemies--used to declare of her, that an invitation to dinner was the only method of showing itself of which her good-humour was cognizant. but let me ask of her enemies whether it is not as good a method as any other known to be extant? under such orders as these obedience was of course a necessity, and he promised that he, with his wife, would come across to dinner. and then, when he went away, lady lufton ordered her carriage. during these doings at framley, lucy robarts still remained at hogglestock, nursing mrs. crawley. nothing occurred to take her back to framley, for the same note from fanny which gave her the first tidings of the arrival of the philistines told her also of their departure--and also of the source from whence relief had reached them. "don't come, therefore, for that reason," said the note, "but, nevertheless, do come as quickly as you can, for the whole house is sad without you." on the morning after the receipt of this note lucy was sitting, as was now usual with her, beside an old arm-chair to which her patient had lately been promoted. the fever had gone, and mrs. crawley was slowly regaining her strength--very slowly, and with frequent caution from the silverbridge doctor that any attempt at being well too fast might again precipitate her into an abyss of illness and domestic inefficiency. "i really think i can get about to-morrow," said she; "and then, dear lucy, i need not keep you longer from your home." "you are in a great hurry to get rid of me, i think. i suppose mr. crawley has been complaining again about the cream in his tea." mr. crawley had on one occasion stated his assured conviction that surreptitious daily supplies were being brought into the house, because he had detected the presence of cream instead of milk in his own cup. as, however, the cream had been going for sundry days before this, miss robarts had not thought much of his ingenuity in making the discovery. "ah, you do not know how he speaks of you when your back is turned." "and how does he speak of me? i know you would not have the courage to tell me the whole." "no, i have not; for you would think it absurd coming from one who looks like him. he says that if he were to write a poem about womanhood, he would make you the heroine." "with a cream-jug in my hand, or else sewing buttons on to a shirt-collar. but he never forgave me about the mutton broth. he told me, in so many words, that i was a--storyteller. and for the matter of that, my dear, so i was." "he told me that you were an angel." "goodness gracious!" "a ministering angel. and so you have been. i can almost feel it in my heart to be glad that i have been ill, seeing that i have had you for my friend." "but you might have had that good fortune without the fever." "no, i should not. in my married life i have made no friends till my illness brought you to me; nor should i ever really have known you but for that. how should i get to know any one?" "you will now, mrs. crawley; will you not? promise that you will. you will come to us at framley when you are well? you have promised already, you know." "you made me do so when i was too weak to refuse." "and i shall make you keep your promise too. he shall come, also, if he likes; but you shall come whether he likes or no. and i won't hear a word about your old dresses. old dresses will wear as well at framley as at hogglestock." from all which it will appear that mrs. crawley and lucy robarts had become very intimate during this period of the nursing; as two women always will, or, at least should do, when shut up for weeks together in the same sick room. the conversation was still going on between them when the sound of wheels was heard upon the road. it was no highway that passed before the house, and carriages of any sort were not frequent there. "it is fanny, i am sure," said lucy, rising from her chair. "there are two horses," said mrs. crawley, distinguishing the noise with the accurate sense of hearing which is always attached to sickness; "and it is not the noise of the pony-carriage." "it is a regular carriage," said lucy, speaking from the window, "and stopping here. it is somebody from framley court, for i know the servant." as she spoke a blush came to her forehead. might it not be lord lufton, she thought to herself,--forgetting at the moment that lord lufton did not go about the country in a close chariot with a fat footman. intimate as she had become with mrs. crawley she had said nothing to her new friend on the subject of her love affair. the carriage stopped and down came the footman, but nobody spoke to him from the inside. "he has probably brought something from framley," said lucy, having cream and such like matters in her mind; for cream and such like matters had come from framley court more than once during her sojourn there. "and the carriage, probably, happened to be coming this way." but the mystery soon elucidated itself partially, or, perhaps, became more mysterious in another way. the red-armed little girl who had been taken away by her frightened mother in the first burst of the fever had now returned to her place, and at the present moment entered the room, with awestruck face, declaring that miss robarts was to go at once to the big lady in the carriage. "i suppose it's lady lufton," said mrs. crawley. lucy's heart was so absolutely in her mouth that any kind of speech was at the moment impossible to her. why should lady lufton have come thither to hogglestock, and why should she want to see her, lucy robarts, in the carriage? had not everything between them been settled? and yet--! lucy, in the moment for thought that was allowed to her, could not determine what might be the probable upshot of such an interview. her chief feeling was a desire to postpone it for the present instant. but the red-armed little girl would not allow that. "you are to come at once," said she. and then lucy, without having spoken a word, got up and left the room. she walked downstairs, along the little passage, and out through the small garden, with firm steps, but hardly knowing whither she went, or why. her presence of mind and self-possession had all deserted her. she knew that she was unable to speak as she should do; she felt that she would have to regret her present behaviour, but yet she could not help herself. why should lady lufton have come to her there? she went on, and the big footman stood with the carriage door open. she stepped up almost unconsciously, and, without knowing how she got there, she found herself seated by lady lufton. to tell the truth her ladyship also was a little at a loss to know how she was to carry through her present plan of operations. the duty of beginning, however, was clearly with her, and therefore, having taken lucy by the hand, she spoke. "miss robarts," she said, "my son has come home. i don't know whether you are aware of it." she spoke with a low, gentle voice, not quite like herself, but lucy was much too confused to notice this. "i was not aware of it," said lucy. she had, however, been so informed in fanny's letter, but all that had gone out of her head. "yes; he has come back. he has been in norway, you know,--fishing." "yes," said lucy. "i am sure you will remember all that took place when you came to me, not long ago, in my little room upstairs at framley court." in answer to which, lucy, quivering in every nerve, and wrongly thinking that she was visibly shaking in every limb, timidly answered that she did remember. why was it that she had then been so bold, and now was so poor a coward? "well, my dear, all that i said to you then i said to you thinking that it was for the best. you, at any rate, will not be angry with me for loving my own son better than i love any one else." "oh, no," said lucy. "he is the best of sons, and the best of men, and i am sure that he will be the best of husbands." lucy had an idea, by instinct, however, rather than by sight, that lady lufton's eyes were full of tears as she spoke. as for herself she was altogether blinded and did not dare to lift her face or to turn her head. as for the utterance of any sound, that was quite out of the question. "and now i have come here, lucy, to ask you to be his wife." she was quite sure that she heard the words. they came plainly to her ears, leaving on her brain their proper sense, but yet she could not move or make any sign that she had understood them. it seemed as though it would be ungenerous in her to take advantage of such conduct and to accept an offer made with so much self-sacrifice. she had not time at the first moment to think even of his happiness, let alone her own, but she thought only of the magnitude of the concession which had been made to her. when she had constituted lady lufton the arbiter of her destiny she had regarded the question of her love as decided against herself. she had found herself unable to endure the position of being lady lufton's daughter-in-law while lady lufton would be scorning her, and therefore she had given up the game. she had given up the game, sacrificing herself, and, as far as it might be a sacrifice, sacrificing him also. she had been resolute to stand to her word in this respect, but she had never allowed herself to think it possible that lady lufton should comply with the conditions which she, lucy, had laid upon her. and yet such was the case, as she so plainly heard. "and now i have come here, lucy, to ask you to be his wife." how long they sat together silent, i cannot say; counted by minutes the time would not probably have amounted to many, but to each of them the duration seemed considerable. lady lufton, while she was speaking, had contrived to get hold of lucy's hand, and she sat, still holding it, trying to look into lucy's face,--which, however, she could hardly see, so much was it turned away. neither, indeed, were lady lufton's eyes perfectly dry. no answer came to her question, and therefore, after a while, it was necessary that she should speak again. "must i go back to him, lucy, and tell him that there is some other objection--something besides a stern old mother; some hindrance, perhaps, not so easily overcome?" "no," said lucy, and it was all which at the moment she could say. "what shall i tell him, then? shall i say yes--simply yes?" "simply yes," said lucy. "and as to the stern old mother who thought her only son too precious to be parted with at the first word--is nothing to be said to her?" "oh, lady lufton!" "no forgiveness to be spoken, no sign of affection to be given? is she always to be regarded as stern and cross, vexatious and disagreeable?" lucy slowly turned round her head and looked up into her companion's face. though she had as yet no voice to speak of affection she could fill her eyes with love, and in that way make to her future mother all the promises that were needed. "lucy, dearest lucy, you must be very dear to me now." and then they were in each other's arms, kissing each other. lady lufton now desired her coachman to drive up and down for some little space along the road while she completed her necessary conversation with lucy. she wanted at first to carry her back to framley that evening, promising to send her again to mrs. crawley on the following morning--"till some permanent arrangement could be made," by which lady lufton intended the substitution of a regular nurse for her future daughter-in-law, seeing that lucy robarts was now invested in her eyes with attributes which made it unbecoming that she should sit in attendance at mrs. crawley's bedside. but lucy would not go back to framley on that evening; no, nor on the next morning. she would be so glad if fanny would come to her there, and then she would arrange about going home. "but, lucy, dear, what am i to say to ludovic? perhaps you would feel it awkward if he were to come to see you here." "oh, yes, lady lufton; pray tell him not to do that." "and is that all that i am to tell him?" "tell him--tell him--he won't want you to tell him anything;--only i should like to be quiet for a day, lady lufton." "well, dearest, you shall be quiet; the day after to-morrow then.--mind we must not spare you any longer, because it will be right that you should be at home now. he would think it very hard if you were to be so near, and he was not to be allowed to look at you. and there will be some one else who will want to see you. i shall want to have you very near to me, for i shall be wretched, lucy, if i cannot teach you to love me." in answer to which lucy did find voice enough to make sundry promises. and then she was put out of the carriage at the little wicket gate, and lady lufton was driven back to framley. i wonder whether the servant when he held the door for miss robarts was conscious that he was waiting on his future mistress. i fancy that he was, for these sort of people always know everything, and the peculiar courtesy of his demeanour as he let down the carriage steps was very observable. lucy felt almost beside herself as she returned upstairs, not knowing what to do, or how to look, and with what words to speak. it behoved her to go at once to mrs. crawley's room, and yet she longed to be alone. she knew that she was quite unable either to conceal her thoughts or express them; nor did she wish at the present moment to talk to any one about her happiness,--seeing that she could not at the present moment talk to fanny robarts. she went, however, without delay into mrs. crawley's room, and with that little eager way of speaking quickly which is so common with people who know that they are confused, said that she feared she had been a very long time away. "and was it lady lufton?" "yes; it was lady lufton." "why, lucy; i did not know that you and her ladyship were such friends." "she had something particular she wanted to say," said lucy, avoiding the question, and avoiding also mrs. crawley's eyes; and then she sate down in her usual chair. "it was nothing unpleasant, i hope." "no, nothing at all unpleasant; nothing of that kind.--oh, mrs. crawley, i'll tell you some other time, but pray do not ask me now." and then she got up and escaped, for it was absolutely necessary that she should be alone. when she reached her own room--that in which the children usually slept--she made a great effort to compose herself, but not altogether successfully. she got out her paper and blotting-book intending, as she said to herself, to write to fanny, knowing, however, that the letter when written would be destroyed; but she was not able even to form a word. her hand was unsteady and her eyes were dim and her thoughts were incapable of being fixed. she could only sit, and think, and wonder, and hope; occasionally wiping the tears from her eyes, and asking herself why her present frame of mind was so painful to her? during the last two or three months she had felt no fear of lord lufton, had always carried herself before him on equal terms, and had been signally capable of doing so when he made his declaration to her at the parsonage; but now she looked forward with an undefined dread to the first moment in which she should see him. and then she thought of a certain evening she had passed at framley court, and acknowledged to herself that there was some pleasure in looking back to that. griselda grantly had been there, and all the constitutional powers of the two families had been at work to render easy a process of love-making between her and lord lufton. lucy had seen and understood it all, without knowing that she understood it, and had, in a certain degree, suffered from beholding it. she had placed herself apart, not complaining--painfully conscious of some inferiority, but, at the same time, almost boasting to herself that in her own way she was the superior. and then he had come behind her chair, whispering to her, speaking to her his first words of kindness and good-nature, and she had resolved that she would be his friend--his friend, even though griselda grantly might be his wife. what those resolutions were worth had soon become manifest to her. she had soon confessed to herself the result of that friendship, and had determined to bear her punishment with courage. but now-- she sate so for about an hour, and would fain have so sat out the day. but as this could not be, she got up, and having washed her face and eyes returned to mrs. crawley's room. there she found mr. crawley also, to her great joy, for she knew that while he was there no questions would be asked of her. he was always very gentle to her, treating her with an old-fashioned polished respect--except when compelled on that one occasion by his sense of duty to accuse her of mendacity respecting the purveying of victuals--, but he had never become absolutely familiar with her as his wife had done; and it was well for her now that he had not done so, for she could not have talked about lady lufton. in the evening, when the three were present, she did manage to say that she expected mrs. robarts would come over on the following day. "we shall part with you, miss robarts, with the deepest regret," said mr. crawley; "but we would not on any account keep you longer. mrs. crawley can do without you now. what she would have done, had you not come to us, i am at a loss to think." "i did not say that i should go," said lucy. "but you will," said mrs. crawley. "yes, dear, you will. i know that it is proper now that you should return. nay, but we will not have you any longer. and the poor dear children, too,--they may return. how am i to thank mrs. robarts for what she has done for us?" it was settled that if mrs. robarts came on the following day lucy should go back with her; and then, during the long watches of the night--for on this last night lucy would not leave the bed-side of her new friend till long after the dawn had broken--she did tell mrs. crawley what was to be her destiny in life. to herself there seemed nothing strange in her new position; but to mrs. crawley it was wonderful that she--she, poor as she was--should have an embryo peeress at her bedside, handing her her cup to drink, and smoothing her pillow that she might be at rest. it was strange, and she could hardly maintain her accustomed familiarity. lucy felt this, at the moment. "it must make no difference, you know," said she, eagerly; "none at all, between you and me. promise me that it shall make no difference." the promise was, of course, exacted; but it was not possible that such a promise should be kept. very early on the following morning--so early that it woke her while still in her first sleep--there came a letter for her from the parsonage. mrs. robarts had written it, after her return home from lady lufton's dinner. the letter said:-- my own own darling, how am i to congratulate you, and be eager enough in wishing you joy? i do wish you joy, and am so very happy. i write now chiefly to say that i shall be over with you about twelve to-morrow, and that i _must_ bring you away with me. if i did not some one else, by no means so trustworthy, would insist on doing it. but this, though it was thus stated to be the chief part of the letter, and though it might be so in matter, was by no means so in space. it was very long, for mrs. robarts had sat writing it till past midnight. i will not say anything about him [she went on to say, after two pages had been filled with his name], but i must tell you how beautifully she has behaved. you will own that she is a dear woman; will you not? lucy had already owned it many times since the visit of yesterday, and had declared to herself, as she has continued to declare ever since, that she had never doubted it. she took us by surprise when we got into the drawing-room before dinner, and she told us first of all that she had been to see you at hogglestock. lord lufton, of course, could not keep the secret, but brought it out instantly. i can't tell you now how he told it all, but i am sure you will believe that he did it in the best possible manner. he took my hand and pressed it half a dozen times, and i thought he was going to do something else; but he did not, so you need not be jealous. and she was so nice to mark, saying such things in praise of you, and paying all manner of compliments to your father. but lord lufton scolded her immensely for not bringing you. he said it was lackadaisical and nonsensical; but i could see how much he loved her for what she had done; and she could see it too, for i know her ways, and know that she was delighted with him. she could not keep her eyes off him all the evening, and certainly i never did see him look so well. and then while lord lufton and mark were in the dining-room, where they remained a terribly long time, she would make me go through the house that she might show me your rooms, and explain how you were to be mistress there. she has got it all arranged to perfection, and i am sure she has been thinking about it for years. her great fear at present is that you and he should go and live at lufton. if you have any gratitude in you, either to her or me, you will not let him do this. i consoled her by saying that there are not two stones upon one another at lufton as yet; and i believe such is the case. besides, everybody says that it is the ugliest spot in the world. she went on to declare, with tears in her eyes, that if you were content to remain at framley, she would never interfere in anything. i do think that she is the best woman that ever lived. so much as i have given of this letter formed but a small portion of it, but it comprises all that it is necessary that we should know. exactly at twelve o'clock on that day puck the pony appeared, with mrs. robarts and grace crawley behind him, grace having been brought back as being capable of some service in the house. nothing that was confidential, and very little that was loving, could be said at the moment, because mr. crawley was there, waiting to bid miss robarts adieu; and he had not as yet been informed of what was to be the future fate of his visitor. so they could only press each other's hands and embrace, which to lucy was almost a relief; for even to her sister-in-law she hardly as yet knew how to speak openly on this subject. "may god almighty bless you, miss robarts," said mr. crawley, as he stood in his dingy sitting-room ready to lead her out to the pony-carriage. "you have brought sunshine into this house, even in the time of sickness, when there was no sunshine; and he will bless you. you have been the good samaritan, binding up the wounds of the afflicted, pouring in oil and balm. to the mother of my children you have given life, and to me you have brought light, and comfort, and good words,--making my spirit glad within me as it had not been gladdened before. all this hath come of charity, which vaunteth not itself and is not puffed up. faith and hope are great and beautiful, but charity exceedeth them all." and having so spoken, instead of leading her out, he went away and hid himself. how puck behaved himself as fanny drove him back to framley, and how those two ladies in the carriage behaved themselves--of that, perhaps, nothing further need be said. chapter xlvii. nemesis. but in spite of all these joyful tidings it must, alas! be remembered that poena, that just but rhadamanthine goddess, whom we moderns ordinarily call punishment, or nemesis when we wish to speak of her goddess-ship, very seldom fails to catch a wicked man though she have sometimes a lame foot of her own, and though the wicked man may possibly get a start of her. in this instance the wicked man had been our unfortunate friend mark robarts; wicked in that he had wittingly touched pitch, gone to gatherum castle, ridden fast mares across the country to cobbold's ashes, and fallen very imprudently among the tozers; and the instrument used by nemesis was mr. tom towers of the _jupiter_, than whom, in these our days, there is no deadlier scourge in the hands of that goddess. in the first instance, however, i must mention, though i will not relate, a little conversation which took place between lady lufton and mr. robarts. that gentleman thought it right to say a few words more to her ladyship respecting those money transactions. he could not but feel, he said, that he had received that prebendal stall from the hands of mr. sowerby; and under such circumstances, considering all that had happened, he could not be easy in his mind as long as he held it. what he was about to do would, he was aware, delay considerably his final settlement with lord lufton; but lufton, he hoped, would pardon that, and agree with him as to the propriety of what he was about to do. on the first blush of the thing lady lufton did not quite go along with him. now that lord lufton was to marry the parson's sister it might be well that the parson should be a dignitary of the church; and it might be well, also, that one so nearly connected with her son should be comfortable in his money matters. there loomed also, in the future, some distant possibility of higher clerical honours for a peer's brother-in-law; and the top rung of the ladder is always more easily attained when a man has already ascended a step or two. but, nevertheless, when the matter came to be fully explained to her, when she saw clearly the circumstances under which the stall had been conferred, she did agree that it had better be given up. and well for both of them it was--well for them all at framley--that this conclusion had been reached before the scourge of nemesis had fallen. nemesis, of course, declared that her scourge had produced the resignation; but it was generally understood that this was a false boast, for all clerical men at barchester knew that the stall had been restored to the chapter, or, in other words, into the hands of the government, before tom towers had twirled the fatal lash above his head. but the manner of the twirling was as follows:-- it is with difficulty enough [said the article in the _jupiter_], that the church of england maintains at the present moment that ascendancy among the religious sects of this country which it so loudly claims. and perhaps it is rather from an old-fashioned and time-honoured affection for its standing than from any intrinsic merits of its own that some such general acknowledgment of its ascendancy is still allowed to prevail. if, however, the patrons and clerical members of this church are bold enough to disregard all general rules of decent behaviour, we think we may predict that this chivalrous feeling will be found to give way. from time to time we hear of instances of such imprudence, and are made to wonder at the folly of those who are supposed to hold the state church in the greatest reverence. among those positions of dignified ease to which fortunate clergymen may be promoted are the stalls of the canons or prebendaries in our cathedrals. some of these, as is well known, carry little or no emolument with them, but some are rich in the good things of this world. excellent family houses are attached to them, with we hardly know what domestic privileges, and clerical incomes, moreover, of an amount which, if divided, would make glad the hearts of many a hard-working clerical slave. reform has been busy even among these stalls, attaching some amount of work to the pay, and paring off some superfluous wealth from such of them as were over full; but reform has been lenient with them, acknowledging that it was well to have some such places of comfortable and dignified retirement for those who have worn themselves out in the hard work of their profession. there has of late prevailed a taste for the appointment of young bishops, produced no doubt by a feeling that bishops should be men fitted to get through really hard work; but we have never heard that young prebendaries were considered desirable. a clergyman selected for such a position should, we have always thought, have earned an evening of ease by a long day of work, and should, above all things, be one whose life has been, and therefore in human probability will be, so decorous as to be honourable to the cathedral of his adoption. we were, however, the other day given to understand that one of these luxurious benefices, belonging to the cathedral of barchester, had been bestowed on the rev. mark robarts, the vicar of a neighbouring parish, on the understanding that he should hold the living and the stall together; and on making further inquiry we were surprised to learn that this fortunate gentleman is as yet considerably under thirty years of age. we were desirous, however, of believing that his learning, his piety, and his conduct, might be of a nature to add peculiar grace to his chapter, and therefore, though almost unwillingly, we were silent. but now it has come to our ears, and, indeed, to the ears of all the world, that this piety and conduct are sadly wanting; and judging of mr. robarts by his life and associates, we are inclined to doubt even the learning. he has at this moment, or at any rate had but a few days since, an execution in his parsonage house at framley, on the suit of certain most disreputable bill discounters in london; and probably would have another execution in his other house in barchester close, but for the fact that he has never thought it necessary to go into residence. then followed some very stringent, and, no doubt, much-needed advice to those clerical members of the church of england who are supposed to be mainly responsible for the conduct of their brethren; and the article ended as follows:-- many of these stalls are in the gift of the respective deans and chapters, and in such cases the dean and chapters are bound to see that proper persons are appointed; but in other instances the power of selection is vested in the crown, and then an equal responsibility rests on the government of the day. mr. robarts, we learn, was appointed to the stall in barchester by the late prime minister, and we really think that a grave censure rests on him for the manner in which his patronage has been exercised. it may be impossible that he should himself in all such cases satisfy himself by personal inquiry. but our government is altogether conducted on the footing of vicarial responsibility. _quod facit per alium, facit per se_, is in a special manner true of our ministers, and any man who rises to high position among them must abide by the danger thereby incurred. in this peculiar case we are informed that the recommendation was made by a very recently admitted member of the cabinet, to whose appointment we alluded at the time as a great mistake. the gentleman in question held no high individual office of his own; but evil such as this which has now been done at barchester, is exactly the sort of mischief which follows the exaltation of unfit men to high positions, even though no great scope for executive failure may be placed within their reach. if mr. robarts will allow us to tender to him our advice, he will lose no time in going through such ceremony as may be necessary again to place the stall at the disposal of the crown! i may here observe that poor harold smith, when he read this, writhing in agony, declared it to be the handiwork of his hated enemy, mr. supplehouse. he knew the mark; so, at least, he said; but i myself am inclined to believe that his animosity misled him. i think that one greater than mr. supplehouse had taken upon himself the punishment of our poor vicar. this was very dreadful to them all at framley, and, when first read, seemed to crush them to atoms. poor mrs. robarts, when she heard it, seemed to think that for them the world was over. an attempt had been made to keep it from her, but such attempts always fail, as did this. the article was copied into all the good-natured local newspapers, and she soon discovered that something was being hidden. at last it was shown to her by her husband, and then for a few hours she was annihilated; for a few days she was unwilling to show herself; and for a few weeks she was very sad. but after that the world seemed to go on much as it had done before; the sun shone upon them as warmly as though the article had not been written; and not only the sun of heaven, which, as a rule, is not limited in his shining by any display of pagan thunder, but also the genial sun of their own sphere, the warmth and light of which were so essentially necessary to their happiness. neighbouring rectors did not look glum, nor did the rectors' wives refuse to call. the people in the shops at barchester did not regard her as though she were a disgraced woman, though it must be acknowledged that mrs. proudie passed her in the close with the coldest nod of recognition. on mrs. proudie's mind alone did the article seem to have any enduring effect. in one respect it was, perhaps, beneficial; lady lufton was at once induced by it to make common cause with her own clergyman, and thus the remembrance of mr. robarts' sins passed away the quicker from the minds of the whole framley court household. and, indeed, the county at large was not able to give to the matter that undivided attention which would have been considered its due at periods of no more than ordinary interest. at the present moment preparations were being made for a general election, and although no contest was to take place in the eastern division, a very violent fight was being carried on in the west; and the circumstances of that fight were so exciting that mr. robarts and his article were forgotten before their time. an edict had gone forth from gatherum castle directing that mr. sowerby should be turned out, and an answering note of defiance had been sounded from chaldicotes, protesting on behalf of mr. sowerby, that the duke's behest would not be obeyed. there are two classes of persons in this realm who are constitutionally inefficient to take any part in returning members to parliament--peers, namely, and women; and yet it was soon known through the whole length and breadth of the county that the present electioneering fight was being carried on between a peer and a woman. miss dunstable had been declared the purchaser of the chace of chaldicotes, as it were, just in the very nick of time; which purchase--so men in barsetshire declared, not knowing anything of the facts--would have gone altogether the other way, had not the giants obtained temporary supremacy over the gods. the duke was a supporter of the gods, and therefore, so mr. fothergill hinted, his money had been refused. miss dunstable was prepared to beard this ducal friend of the gods in his own county, and therefore her money had been taken. i am inclined, however, to think that mr. fothergill knew nothing about it, and to opine that miss dunstable, in her eagerness for victory, offered to the crown more money than the property was worth in the duke's opinion, and that the crown took advantage of her anxiety, to the manifest profit of the public at large. and it soon became known also that miss dunstable was, in fact, the proprietor of the whole chaldicotes estate, and that in promoting the success of mr. sowerby as a candidate for the county, she was standing by her own tenant. it also became known, in the course of the battle, that miss dunstable had herself at last succumbed, and that she was about to marry dr. thorne of greshamsbury, or the "greshamsbury apothecary," as the adverse party now delighted to call him. "he has been little better than a quack all his life," said dr. fillgrave, the eminent physician of barchester, "and now he is going to marry a quack's daughter." by which, and the like to which, dr. thorne did not allow himself to be much annoyed. but all this gave rise to a very pretty series of squibs arranged between mr. fothergill and mr. closerstill, the electioneering agent. mr. sowerby was named "the lady's pet," and descriptions were given of the lady who kept this pet, which were by no means flattering to miss dunstable's appearance, or manners, or age. and then the western division of the county was asked in a grave tone--as counties and boroughs are asked by means of advertisements stuck up on blind walls and barn doors--whether it was fitting and proper that it should be represented by a woman. upon which the county was again asked whether it was fitting and proper that it should be represented by a duke. and then the question became more personal as against miss dunstable, and inquiry was urged whether the county would not be indelibly disgraced if it were not only handed over to a woman, but handed over to a woman who sold the oil of lebanon. but little was got by this move, for an answering placard explained to the unfortunate county how deep would be its shame if it allowed itself to become the appanage of any peer, but more especially of a peer who was known to be the most immoral lord that ever disgraced the benches of the upper house. and so the battle went on very prettily, and, as money was allowed to flow freely, the west barsetshire world at large was not ill satisfied. it is wonderful how much disgrace of that kind a borough or county can endure without flinching; and wonderful, also, seeing how supreme is the value attached to the constitution by the realm at large, how very little the principles of that constitution are valued by the people in detail. the duke, of course, did not show himself. he rarely did on any occasion, and never on such occasions as this; but mr. fothergill was to be seen everywhere. miss dunstable, also, did not hide her light under a bushel; though i here declare, on the faith of an historian, that the rumour spread abroad of her having made a speech to the electors from the top of the porch over the hotel-door at courcy was not founded on fact. no doubt she was at courcy, and her carriage stopped at the hotel; but neither there nor elsewhere did she make any public exhibition. "they must have mistaken me for mrs. proudie," she said, when the rumour reached her ears. but there was, alas! one great element of failure on miss dunstable's side of the battle. mr. sowerby himself could not be induced to fight it as became a man. any positive injunctions that were laid upon him he did, in a sort, obey. it had been a part of the bargain that he should stand the contest, and from that bargain he could not well go back; but he had not the spirit left to him for any true fighting on his own part. he could not go up on the hustings, and there defy the duke. early in the affair mr. fothergill challenged him to do so, and mr. sowerby never took up the gauntlet. "we have heard," said mr. fothergill, in that great speech which he made at the omnium arms at silverbridge--"we have heard much during this election of the duke of omnium, and of the injuries which he is supposed to have inflicted on one of the candidates. the duke's name is very frequent in the mouths of the gentlemen,--and of the lady,--who support mr. sowerby's claims. but i do not think that mr. sowerby himself has dared to say much about the duke. i defy mr. sowerby to mention the duke's name upon the hustings." and it so happened that mr. sowerby never did mention the duke's name. it is ill fighting when the spirit is gone, and mr. sowerby's spirit for such things was now well nigh broken. it is true that he had escaped from the net in which the duke, by mr. fothergill's aid, had entangled him; but he had only broken out of one captivity into another. money is a serious thing; and when gone cannot be had back by a shuffle in the game, or a fortunate blow with the battledore, as may political power, or reputation, or fashion. one hundred thousand pounds gone, must remain as gone, let the person who claims to have had the honour of advancing it be mrs. b. or my lord c. no lucky dodge can erase such a claim from the things that be--unless, indeed, such dodge be possible as mr. sowerby tried with miss dunstable. it was better for him, undoubtedly, to have the lady for a creditor than the duke, seeing that it was possible for him to live as a tenant in his own old house under the lady's reign. but this he found to be a sad enough life, after all that was come and gone. the election on miss dunstable's part was lost. she carried on the contest nobly, fighting it to the last moment, and sparing neither her own money nor that of her antagonist; but she carried it on unsuccessfully. many gentlemen did support mr. sowerby because they were willing enough to emancipate their county from the duke's thraldom; but mr. sowerby was felt to be a black sheep, as lady lufton had called him, and at the close of the election he found himself banished from the representation of west barsetshire;--banished for ever, after having held the county for five-and-twenty years. unfortunate mr. sowerby! i cannot take leave of him here without some feeling of regret, knowing that there was that within him which might, under better guidance, have produced better things. there are men, even of high birth, who seem as though they were born to be rogues; but mr. sowerby was, to my thinking, born to be a gentleman. that he had not been a gentleman--that he had bolted from his appointed course, going terribly on the wrong side of the posts--let us all acknowledge. it is not a gentlemanlike deed, but a very blackguard action, to obtain a friend's acceptance to a bill in an unguarded hour of social intercourse. that and other similar doings have stamped his character too plainly. but, nevertheless, i claim a tear for mr. sowerby, and lament that he has failed to run his race discreetly, in accordance with the rules of the jockey club. he attempted that plan of living as a tenant in his old house at chaldicotes and of making a living out of the land which he farmed; but he soon abandoned it. he had no aptitude for such industry, and could not endure his altered position in the county. he soon relinquished chaldicotes of his own accord, and has vanished away, as such men do vanish--not altogether without necessary income; to which point in the final arrangement of their joint affairs, mrs. thorne's man of business--if i may be allowed so far to anticipate--paid special attention. and thus lord dumbello, the duke's nominee, got in, as the duke's nominee had done for very many years past. there was no nemesis here--none as yet. nevertheless, she with the lame foot will assuredly catch him, the duke, if it be that he deserve to be caught. with us his grace's appearance has been so unfrequent that i think we may omit to make any further inquiry as to his concerns. one point, however, is worthy of notice, as showing the good sense with which we manage our affairs here in england. in an early portion of this story the reader was introduced to the interior of gatherum castle, and there saw miss dunstable entertained by the duke in the most friendly manner. since those days the lady has become the duke's neighbour, and has waged a war with him, which he probably felt to be very vexatious. but, nevertheless, on the next great occasion at gatherum castle, doctor and mrs. thorne were among the visitors, and to no one was the duke more personally courteous than to his opulent neighbour, the late miss dunstable. chapter xlviii. how they were all married, had two children, and lived happy ever after. dear, affectionate, sympathetic readers, we have four couple of sighing lovers with whom to deal in this our last chapter, and i, as leader of the chorus, disdain to press you further with doubts as to the happiness of any of that quadrille. they were all made happy, in spite of that little episode which so lately took place at barchester; and in telling of their happiness--shortly, as is now necessary--we will take them chronologically, giving precedence to those who first appeared at the hymeneal altar. in july, then, at the cathedral, by the father of the bride, assisted by his examining chaplain, olivia proudie, the eldest daughter of the bishop of barchester, was joined in marriage to the rev. tobias tickler, incumbent of the trinity district church in bethnal green. of the bridegroom, in this instance, our acquaintance has been so short, that it is not, perhaps, necessary to say much. when coming to the wedding he proposed to bring his three darling children with him; but in this measure he was, i think prudently, stopped by advice, rather strongly worded, from his future valued mother-in-law. mr. tickler was not an opulent man, nor had he hitherto attained any great fame in his profession; but, at the age of forty-three he still had sufficient opportunity before him, and now that his merit has been properly viewed by high ecclesiastical eyes the refreshing dew of deserved promotion will no doubt fall upon him. the marriage was very smart, and olivia carried herself through the trying ordeal with an excellent propriety of conduct. up to that time, and even for a few days longer, there was doubt at barchester as to that strange journey which lord dumbello undoubtedly did take to france. when a man so circumstanced will suddenly go to paris, without notice given even to his future bride, people must doubt; and grave were the apprehensions expressed on this occasion by mrs. proudie, even at her child's wedding-breakfast. "god bless you, my dear children," she said, standing up at the head of her table as she addressed mr. tickler and his wife; "when i see your perfect happiness--perfect, that is, as far as human happiness can be made perfect in this vale of tears--and think of the terrible calamity which has fallen on our unfortunate neighbours, i cannot but acknowledge his infinite mercy and goodness. the lord giveth, and the lord taketh away." by which she intended, no doubt, to signify that whereas mr. tickler had been given to her olivia, lord dumbello had been taken away from the archdeacon's griselda. the happy couple then went in mrs. proudie's carriage to the nearest railway station but one, and from thence proceeded to malvern, and there spent the honeymoon. and a great comfort it was, i am sure, to mrs. proudie when authenticated tidings reached barchester that lord dumbello had returned from paris, and that the hartletop-grantly alliance was to be carried to its completion. she still, however, held her opinion--whether correctly or not, who shall say?--that the young lord had intended to escape. "the archdeacon has shown great firmness in the way in which he has done it," said mrs. proudie; "but whether he has consulted his child's best interests in forcing her into a marriage with an unwilling husband, i for one must take leave to doubt. but then, unfortunately, we all know how completely the archdeacon is devoted to worldly matters." in this instance the archdeacon's devotion to worldly matters was rewarded by that success which he no doubt desired. he did go up to london, and did see one or two of lord dumbello's friends. this he did, not obtrusively, as though in fear of any falsehood or vacillation on the part of the viscount, but with that discretion and tact for which he has been so long noted. mrs. proudie declares that during the few days of his absence from barsetshire he himself crossed to france and hunted down lord dumbello at paris. as to this i am not prepared to say anything; but i am quite sure, as will be all those who knew the archdeacon, that he was not a man to see his daughter wronged as long as any measure remained by which such wrong might be avoided. but, be that as it may--that mooted question as to the archdeacon's journey to paris--lord dumbello was forthcoming at plumstead on the th of august, and went through his work like a man. the hartletop family, when the alliance was found to be unavoidable, endeavoured to arrange that the wedding should be held at hartletop priory, in order that the clerical dust and dinginess of barchester close might not soil the splendour of the marriage gala doings; for, to tell the truth, the hartletopians, as a rule, were not proud of their new clerical connections. but on this subject mrs. grantly was very properly inexorable; nor, when an attempt was made on the bride to induce her to throw over her mamma at the last moment and pronounce for herself that she would be married at the priory, was it attended with any success. the hartletopians knew nothing of the grantly fibre and calibre, or they would have made no such attempt. the marriage took place at plumstead, and on the morning of the day lord dumbello posted over from barchester to the rectory. the ceremony was performed by the archdeacon, without assistance, although the dean, and the precentor, and two other clergymen, were at the ceremony. griselda's propriety of conduct was quite equal to that of olivia proudie; indeed, nothing could exceed the statuesque grace and fine aristocratic bearing with which she carried herself on the occasion. the three or four words which the service required of her she said with ease and dignity; there was neither sobbing nor crying to disturb the work or embarrass her friends, and she signed her name in the church books as "griselda grantly" without a tremor--and without a regret. mrs. grantly kissed her and blessed her in the hall as she was about to step forward to her travelling carriage, leaning on her father's arm, and the child put up her face to her mother for a last whisper. "mamma," she said, "i suppose jane can put her hand at once on the moire antique when we reach dover?" mrs. grantly smiled and nodded, and again blessed her child. there was not a tear shed--at least, not then--nor a sign of sorrow to cloud for a moment the gay splendour of the day. but the mother did bethink herself, in the solitude of her own room, of those last words, and did acknowledge a lack of something for which her heart had sighed. she had boasted to her sister that she had nothing to regret as to her daughter's education; but now, when she was alone after her success, did she feel that she could still support herself with that boast? for, be it known, mrs. grantly had a heart within her bosom and a faith within her heart. the world, it is true, had pressed upon her sorely with all its weight of accumulated clerical wealth, but it had not utterly crushed her--not her, but only her child. for the sins of the father, are they not visited on the third and fourth generation? but if any such feeling of remorse did for awhile mar the fulness of mrs. grantly's joy, it was soon dispelled by the perfect success of her daughter's married life. at the end of the autumn the bride and bridegroom returned from their tour, and it was evident to all the circle at hartletop priory that lord dumbello was by no means dissatisfied with his bargain. his wife had been admired everywhere to the top of his bent. all the world at ems, and at baden, and at nice, had been stricken by the stately beauty of the young viscountess. and then, too, her manner, style, and high dignity of demeanour altogether supported the reverential feeling which her grace and form at first inspired. she never derogated from her husband's honour by the fictitious liveliness of gossip, or allowed any one to forget the peeress in the woman. lord dumbello soon found that his reputation for discretion was quite safe in her hands, and that there were no lessons as to conduct in which it was necessary that he should give instruction. before the winter was over she had equally won the hearts of all the circle at hartletop priory. the duke was there and declared to the marchioness that dumbello could not possibly have done better. "indeed, i do not think he could," said the happy mother. "she sees all that she ought to see, and nothing that she ought not." and then, in london, when the season came, all men sang all manner of praises in her favour, and lord dumbello was made aware that he was reckoned among the wisest of his age. he had married a wife who managed everything for him, who never troubled him, whom no woman disliked, and whom every man admired. as for feast of reason and for flow of soul, is it not a question whether any such flows and feasts are necessary between a man and his wife? how many men can truly assert that they ever enjoy connubial flows of soul, or that connubial feasts of reason are in their nature enjoyable? but a handsome woman at the head of your table, who knows how to dress, and how to sit, and how to get in and out of her carriage--who will not disgrace her lord by her ignorance, or fret him by her coquetry, or disparage him by her talent--how beautiful a thing it is! for my own part i think that griselda grantly was born to be the wife of a great english peer. "after all, then," said miss dunstable, speaking of lady dumbello--she was mrs. thorne at this time--"after all, there is some truth in what our quaint latter-day philosopher tells us--'great are thy powers, o silence!'" the marriage of our old friends dr. thorne and miss dunstable was the third on the list, but that did not take place till the latter end of september. the lawyers on such an occasion had no inconsiderable work to accomplish, and though the lady was not coy, nor the gentleman slow, it was not found practicable to arrange an earlier wedding. the ceremony was performed at st. george's, hanover square, and was not brilliant in any special degree. london at the time was empty, and the few persons whose presence was actually necessary were imported from the country for the occasion. the bride was given away by dr. easyman, and the two bridesmaids were ladies who had lived with miss dunstable as companions. young mr. gresham and his wife were there, as was also mrs. harold smith, who was not at all prepared to drop her old friend in her new sphere of life. "we shall call her mrs. thorne instead of miss dunstable, and i really think that that will be all the difference," said mrs. harold smith. to mrs. harold smith that probably was all the difference, but it was not so to the persons most concerned. according to the plan of life arranged between the doctor and his wife she was still to keep up her house in london, remaining there during such period of the season as she might choose, and receiving him when it might appear good to him to visit her; but he was to be the master in the country. a mansion at the chace was to be built, and till such time as that was completed, they would keep on the old house at greshamsbury. into this, small as it was, mrs. thorne,--in spite of her great wealth,--did not disdain to enter. but subsequent circumstances changed their plans. it was found that mr. sowerby could not or would not live at chaldicotes; and, therefore, in the second year of their marriage, that place was prepared for them. they are now well known to the whole county as dr. and mrs. thorne of chaldicotes,--of chaldicotes, in distinction to the well-known thornes of ullathorne in the eastern division. here they live respected by their neighbours, and on terms of alliance both with the duke of omnium and with lady lufton. "of course those dear old avenues will be very sad to me," said mrs. harold smith, when at the end of a london season she was invited down to chaldicotes; and as she spoke she put her handkerchief up to her eyes. "well, dear, what can i do?" said mrs. thorne. "i can't cut them down; the doctor would not let me." "oh, no," said mrs. harold smith, sighing; and in spite of her feelings she did visit chaldicotes. but it was october before lord lufton was made a happy man;--that is, if the fruition of his happiness was a greater joy than the anticipation of it. i will not say that the happiness of marriage is like the dead sea fruit,--an apple which, when eaten, turns to bitter ashes in the mouth. such pretended sarcasm would be very false. nevertheless, is it not the fact that the sweetest morsel of love's feast has been eaten, that the freshest, fairest blush of the flower has been snatched and has passed away, when the ceremony at the altar has been performed, and legal possession has been given? there is an aroma of love, an undefinable delicacy of flavour, which escapes and is gone before the church portal is left, vanishing with the maiden name, and incompatible with the solid comfort appertaining to the rank of wife. to love one's own spouse, and to be loved by her, is the ordinary lot of man, and is a duty exacted under penalties. but to be allowed to love youth and beauty that is not one's own--to know that one is loved by a soft being who still hangs cowering from the eye of the world as though her love were all but illicit--can it be that a man is made happy when a state of anticipation such as this is brought to a close? no; when the husband walks back from the altar, he has already swallowed the choicest dainties of his banquet. the beef and pudding of married life are then in store for him;--or perhaps only the bread and cheese. let him take care lest hardly a crust remain,--or perhaps not a crust. but before we finish, let us go back for one moment to the dainties,--to the time before the beef and pudding were served,--while lucy was still at the parsonage, and lord lufton still staying at framley court. he had come up one morning, as was now frequently his wont, and, after a few minutes' conversation, mrs. robarts had left the room,--as not unfrequently on such occasions was her wont. lucy was working and continued her work, and lord lufton for a moment or two sat looking at her; then he got up abruptly, and standing before her, thus questioned her:-- "lucy," said he. "well, what of lucy now? any particular fault this morning?" "yes, a most particular fault. when i asked you, here, in this room, on this very spot, whether it was possible that you should love me--why did you say that it was impossible?" lucy, instead of answering at the moment, looked down upon the carpet, to see if his memory were as good as hers. yes; he was standing on the exact spot where he had stood before. no spot in all the world was more frequently clear before her own eyes. "do you remember that day, lucy?" he said again. "yes, i remember it," she said. "why did you say it was impossible?" "did i say impossible?" she knew that she had said so. she remembered how she had waited till he had gone, and that then, going to her own room, she had reproached herself with the cowardice of the falsehood. she had lied to him then; and now--how was she punished for it? "well, i suppose it was possible," she said. "but why did you say so when you knew it would make me so miserable?" "miserable! nay, but you went away happy enough! i thought i had never seen you look better satisfied." "lucy!" "you had done your duty and had had such a lucky escape! what astonishes me is that you should have ever come back again. but the pitcher may go to the well once too often, lord lufton." "but will you tell me the truth now?" "what truth?" "that day, when i came to you,--did you love me at all then?" "we'll let bygones be bygones, if you please." "but i swear you shall tell me. it was such a cruel thing to answer me as you did, unless you meant it. and yet you never saw me again till after my mother had been over for you to mrs. crawley's." "it was absence that made me--care for you." "lucy, i swear i believe you loved me then." "ludovic, some conjuror must have told you that." she was standing as she spoke, and, laughing at him, she held up her hands and shook her head. but she was now in his power, and he had his revenge,--his revenge for her past falsehood and her present joke. how could he be more happy when he was made happy by having her all his own, than he was now? and in these days there again came up that petition as to her riding--with very different result now than on that former occasion. there were ever so many objections, then. there was no habit, and lucy was--or said that she was--afraid; and then, what would lady lufton say? but now lady lufton thought it would be quite right; only were they quite sure about the horse? was ludovic certain that the horse had been ridden by a lady? and lady meredith's habits were dragged out as a matter of course, and one of them chipped and snipped and altered, without any compunction. and as for fear, there could be no bolder horsewoman than lucy robarts. it was quite clear to all framley that riding was the very thing for her. "but i never shall be happy, ludovic, till you have got a horse properly suited for her," said lady lufton. and then, also, came the affair of her wedding garments, of her _trousseau_,--as to which i cannot boast that she showed capacity or steadiness at all equal to that of lady dumbello. lady lufton, however, thought it a very serious matter; and as, in her opinion, mrs. robarts did not go about it with sufficient energy, she took the matter mainly into her own hands, striking lucy dumb by her frowns and nods, deciding on everything herself, down to the very tags of the boot-ties. "my dear, you really must allow me to know what i am about;" and lady lufton patted her on the arm as she spoke. "i did it all for justinia, and she never had reason to regret a single thing that i bought. if you'll ask her, she'll tell you so." lucy did not ask her future sister-in-law, seeing that she had no doubt whatever as to her future mother-in-law's judgment on the articles in question. only the money! and what could she want with six dozen pocket-handkerchiefs all at once? there was no question of lord lufton's going out as governor-general to india! but twelve dozen pocket-handkerchiefs had not been too many for griselda's imagination. and lucy would sit alone in the drawing-room at framley court, filling her heart with thoughts of that evening when she had first sat there. she had then resolved, painfully, with inward tears, with groanings of her spirit, that she was wrongly placed in being in that company. griselda grantly had been there, quite at her ease, petted by lady lufton, admired by lord lufton; while she had retired out of sight, sore at heart, because she felt herself to be no fit companion to those around her. then he had come to her, making matters almost worse by talking to her, bringing the tears into her eyes by his good-nature, but still wounding her by the feeling that she could not speak to him at her ease. but things were at a different pass with her now. he had chosen her--her out of all the world, and brought her there to share with him his own home, his own honours, and all that he had to give. she was the apple of his eye, and the pride of his heart. and the stern mother, of whom she had stood so much in awe, who at first had passed her by as a thing not to be noticed, and had then sent out to her that she might be warned to keep herself aloof, now hardly knew in what way she might sufficiently show her love, regard, and solicitude. i must not say that lucy was not proud in these moments--that her heart was not elated at these thoughts. success does beget pride, as failure begets shame. but her pride was of that sort which is in no way disgraceful to either man or woman, and was accompanied by pure true love, and a full resolution to do her duty in that state of life to which it had pleased her god to call her. she did rejoice greatly to think that she had been chosen, and not griselda. was it possible that having loved she should not so rejoice, or that, rejoicing, she should not be proud of her love? they spent the whole winter abroad, leaving the dowager lady lufton to her plans and preparations for their reception at framley court; and in the following spring they appeared in london, and there set up their staff. lucy had some inner tremblings of the spirit, and quiverings about the heart, at thus beginning her duty before the great world, but she said little or nothing to her husband on the matter. other women had done as much before her time, and by courage had gone through with it. it would be dreadful enough, that position in her own house with lords and ladies bowing to her, and stiff members of parliament for whom it would be necessary to make small talk; but, nevertheless, it was to be endured. the time came, and she did endure it. the time came, and before the first six weeks were over she found that it was easy enough. the lords and ladies got into their proper places and talked to her about ordinary matters in a way that made no effort necessary, and the members of parliament were hardly more stiff than the clergymen she had known in the neighbourhood of framley. she had not been long in town before she met lady dumbello. at this interview also she had to overcome some little inward emotion. on the few occasions on which she had met griselda grantly at framley they had not much progressed in friendship, and lucy had felt that she had been despised by the rich beauty. she also in her turn had disliked, if she had not despised, her rival. but how would it be now? lady dumbello could hardly despise her, and yet it did not seem possible that they should meet as friends. they did meet, and lucy came forward with a pretty eagerness to give her hand to lady lufton's late favourite. lady dumbello smiled slightly--the same old smile which had come across her face when they two had been first introduced in the framley drawing-room; the same smile without the variation of a line,--took the offered hand, muttered a word or two, and then receded. it was exactly as she had done before. she had never despised lucy robarts. she had accorded to the parson's sister the amount of cordiality with which she usually received her acquaintance; and now she could do no more for the peer's wife. lady dumbello and lady lufton have known each other ever since, and have occasionally visited at each other's houses, but the intimacy between them has never gone beyond this. the dowager came up to town for about a month, and while there was contented to fill a second place. she had no desire to be the great lady in london. but then came the trying period when they commenced their life together at framley court. the elder lady formally renounced her place at the top of the table,--formally persisted in renouncing it though lucy with tears implored her to resume it. she said also, with equal formality--repeating her determination over and over again to mrs. robarts with great energy--that she would in no respect detract by interference of her own from the authority of the proper mistress of the house; but, nevertheless, it is well known to every one at framley that old lady lufton still reigns paramount in the parish. "yes, my dear; the big room looking into the little garden to the south was always the nursery; and if you ask my advice, it will still remain so. but, of course, any room you please--" and the big room looking into the little garden to the south is still the nursery at framley court. barchester towers by anthony trollope first published in contents chapter i. who will be the new bishop? ii. hiram's hospital according to act of parliament iii. dr. and mrs. proudie iv. the bishop's chaplain v. a morning visit vi. war vii. the dean and chapter take counsel viii. the ex-warden rejoices in his probable return to the hospital ix. the stanhope family x. mrs. proudie's reception--commenced xi. mrs. proudie's reception--concluded xii. slope versus harding xiii. the rubbish cart xiv. the new champion xv. the widow's suitors xvi. baby worship xvii. who shall be cock of the walk? xviii. the widow's persecution xix. barchester by moonlight xx. mr. arabin xxi. st. ewold's parsonage xxii. the thornes of ullathorne xxiii. mr. arabin reads himself in at st. ewold's xxiv. mr. slope manages matters very cleverly at puddingdale xxv. fourteen arguments in favour of mr. quiverful's claims xxvi. mrs. proudie wrestles and gets a fall xxvii. a love scene xxviii. mrs. bold is entertained by dr. and mrs. grantly at plumstead xxix. a serious interview xxx. another love scene xxxi. the bishop's library xxxii. a new candidate for ecclesiastical honours xxxiii. mrs. proudie victrix xxxiv. oxford--the master and tutor of lazarus xxxv. miss thorne's fête champêtre xxxvi. ullathorne sports--act i. xxxvii. the signora neroni, the countess de courcy, and mrs. proudie meet each other at ullathorne xxxviii. the bishop sits down to breakfast, and the dean dies xxxix. the lookalofts and the greenacres xl. ullathorne sports--act ii. xli. mrs. bold confides her sorrow to her friend miss stanhope xlii. ullathorne sports--act iii. xliii. mr. and mrs. quiverful are made happy. mr. slope is encouraged by the press xliv. mrs. bold at home xlv. the stanhopes at home xlvi. mr. slope's parting interview with the signora xlvii. the dean elect xlviii. miss thorne shows her talent at match-making xlix. the beelzebub colt l. the archdeacon is satisfied with the state of affairs li. mr. slope bids farewell to the palace and its inhabitants lii. the new dean takes possession of the deanery, and the new warden of the hospital liii. conclusion chapter i who will be the new bishop? in the latter days of july in the year --, a most important question was for ten days hourly asked in the cathedral city of barchester, and answered every hour in various ways--who was to be the new bishop? the death of old dr. grantly, who had for many years filled that chair with meek authority, took place exactly as the ministry of lord ---- was going to give place to that of lord ----. the illness of the good old man was long and lingering, and it became at last a matter of intense interest to those concerned whether the new appointment should be made by a conservative or liberal government. it was pretty well understood that the outgoing premier had made his selection and that if the question rested with him, the mitre would descend on the head of archdeacon grantly, the old bishop's son. the archdeacon had long managed the affairs of the diocese, and for some months previous to the demise of his father rumour had confidently assigned to him the reversion of his father's honours. bishop grantly died as he had lived, peaceably, slowly, without pain and without excitement. the breath ebbed from him almost imperceptibly, and for a month before his death it was a question whether he were alive or dead. a trying time was this for the archdeacon, for whom was designed the reversion of his father's see by those who then had the giving away of episcopal thrones. i would not be understood to say that the prime minister had in so many words promised the bishopric to dr. grantly. he was too discreet a man for that. there is a proverb with reference to the killing of cats, and those who know anything either of high or low government places will be well aware that a promise may be made without positive words and that an expectant may be put into the highest state of encouragement, though the great man on whose breath he hangs may have done no more than whisper that "mr. so-and-so is certainly a rising man." such a whisper had been made, and was known by those who heard it to signify that the cures of the diocese of barchester should not be taken out of the hands of the archdeacon. the then prime minister was all in all at oxford, and had lately passed a night at the house of the master of lazarus. now the master of lazarus--which is, by the by, in many respects the most comfortable as well as the richest college at oxford--was the archdeacon's most intimate friend and most trusted counsellor. on the occasion of the prime minister's visit, dr. grantly was of course present, and the meeting was very gracious. on the following morning dr. gwynne, the master, told the archdeacon that in his opinion the thing was settled. at this time the bishop was quite on his last legs; but the ministry also were tottering. dr. grantly returned from oxford, happy and elated, to resume his place in the palace and to continue to perform for the father the last duties of a son, which, to give him his due, he performed with more tender care than was to be expected from his usual somewhat worldly manners. a month since, the physicians had named four weeks as the outside period during which breath could be supported within the body of the dying man. at the end of the month the physicians wondered, and named another fortnight. the old man lived on wine alone, but at the end of the fortnight he still lived, and the tidings of the fall of the ministry became more frequent. sir lamda mewnew and sir omicron pie, the two great london doctors, now came down for the fifth time and declared, shaking their learned heads, that another week of life was impossible; and as they sat down to lunch in the episcopal dining-room, whispered to the archdeacon their own private knowledge that the ministry must fall within five days. the son returned to his father's room and, after administering with his own hands the sustaining modicum of madeira, sat down by the bedside to calculate his chances. the ministry were to be out within five days: his father was to be dead within--no, he rejected that view of the subject. the ministry were to be out, and the diocese might probably be vacant at the same period. there was much doubt as to the names of the men who were to succeed to power, and a week must elapse before a cabinet was formed. would not vacancies be filled by the outgoing men during this week? dr. grantly had a kind of idea that such would be the case but did not know, and then he wondered at his own ignorance on such a question. he tried to keep his mind away from the subject, but he could not. the race was so very close, and the stakes were so very high. he then looked at the dying man's impassive, placid face. there was no sign there of death or disease; it was something thinner than of yore, somewhat grayer, and the deep lines of age more marked; but, as far as he could judge, life might yet hang there for weeks to come. sir lamda mewnew and sir omicron pie had thrice been wrong, and might yet be wrong thrice again. the old bishop slept during twenty of the twenty-four hours, but during the short periods of his waking moments, he knew both his son and his dear old friend, mr. harding, the archdeacon's father-in-law, and would thank them tenderly for their care and love. now he lay sleeping like a baby, resting easily on his back, his mouth just open, and his few gray hairs straggling from beneath his cap; his breath was perfectly noiseless, and his thin, wan hand, which lay above the coverlid, never moved. nothing could be easier than the old man's passage from this world to the next. but by no means easy were the emotions of him who sat there watching. he knew it must be now or never. he was already over fifty, and there was little chance that his friends who were now leaving office would soon return to it. no probable british prime minister but he who was now in, he who was so soon to be out, would think of making a bishop of dr. grantly. thus he thought long and sadly, in deep silence, and then gazed at that still living face, and then at last dared to ask himself whether he really longed for his father's death. the effort was a salutary one, and the question was answered in a moment. the proud, wishful, worldly man sank on his knees by the bedside and, taking the bishop's hand within his own, prayed eagerly that his sins might be forgiven him. his face was still buried in the clothes when the door of the bedroom opened noiselessly and mr. harding entered with a velvet step. mr. harding's attendance at that bedside had been nearly as constant as that of the archdeacon, and his ingress and egress was as much a matter of course as that of his son-in-law. he was standing close beside the archdeacon before he was perceived, and would also have knelt in prayer had he not feared that his doing so might have caused some sudden start and have disturbed the dying man. dr. grantly, however, instantly perceived him and rose from his knees. as he did so mr. harding took both his hands and pressed them warmly. there was more fellowship between them at that moment than there had ever been before, and it so happened that after circumstances greatly preserved the feeling. as they stood there pressing each other's hands, the tears rolled freely down their cheeks. "god bless you, my dears," said the bishop with feeble voice as he woke. "god bless you--may god bless you both, my dear children." and so he died. there was no loud rattle in the throat, no dreadful struggle, no palpable sign of death, but the lower jaw fell a little from its place, and the eyes which had been so constantly closed in sleep now remained fixed and open. neither mr. harding nor dr. grantly knew that life was gone, though both suspected it. "i believe it's all over," said mr. harding, still pressing the other's hands. "i think--nay, i hope it is." "i will ring the bell," said the other, speaking all but in a whisper. "mrs. phillips should be here." mrs. phillips, the nurse, was soon in the room, and immediately, with practised hand, closed those staring eyes. "it's all over, mrs. phillips?" asked mr. harding. "my lord's no more," said mrs. phillips, turning round and curtseying low with solemn face; "his lordship's gone more like a sleeping babby than any that i ever saw." "it's a great relief, archdeacon," said mr. harding, "a great relief--dear, good, excellent old man. oh that our last moments may be as innocent and as peaceful as his!" "surely," said mrs. phillips. "the lord be praised for all his mercies; but, for a meek, mild, gentle-spoken christian, his lordship was--" and mrs. phillips, with unaffected but easy grief, put up her white apron to her flowing eyes. "you cannot but rejoice that it is over," said mr. harding, still consoling his friend. the archdeacon's mind, however, had already travelled from the death chamber to the closet of the prime minister. he had brought himself to pray for his father's life, but now that that life was done, minutes were too precious to be lost. it was now useless to dally with the fact of the bishop's death--useless to lose perhaps everything for the pretence of a foolish sentiment. but how was he to act while his father-in-law stood there holding his hand? how, without appearing unfeeling, was he to forget his father in the bishop--to overlook what he had lost, and think only of what he might possibly gain? "no, i suppose not," said he, at last, in answer to mr. harding. "we have all expected it so long." mr. harding took him by the arm and led him from the room. "we will see him again to-morrow morning," said he; "we had better leave the room now to the women." and so they went downstairs. it was already evening and nearly dark. it was most important that the prime minister should know that night that the diocese was vacant. everything might depend on it; and so, in answer to mr. harding's further consolation, the archdeacon suggested that a telegraph message should be immediately sent off to london. mr. harding, who had really been somewhat surprised to find dr. grantly, as he thought, so much affected, was rather taken aback, but he made no objection. he knew that the archdeacon had some hope of succeeding to his father's place, though he by no means knew how highly raised that hope had been. "yes," said dr. grantly, collecting himself and shaking off his weakness, "we must send a message at once; we don't know what might be the consequence of delay. will you do it?' "i! oh, yes; certainly. i'll do anything, only i don't know exactly what it is you want." dr. grantly sat down before a writing-table and, taking pen and ink, wrote on a slip of paper as follows:-- by electric telegraph. for the earl of ----, downing street, or elsewhere. the bishop of barchester is dead. message sent by the rev. septimus harding. "there," said he. "just take that to the telegraph office at the railway station and give it in as it is; they'll probably make you copy it on to one of their own slips; that's all you'll have to do; then you'll have to pay them half a crown." and the archdeacon put his hand in his pocket and pulled out the necessary sum. mr. harding felt very much like an errand-boy, and also felt that he was called on to perform his duties as such at rather an unseemly time, but he said nothing, and took the slip of paper and the proffered coin. "but you've put my name into it, archdeacon." "yes," said the other, "there should be the name of some clergyman, you know, and what name so proper as that of so old a friend as yourself? the earl won't look at the name, you may be sure of that; but my dear mr. harding, pray don't lose any time." mr. harding got as far as the library door on his way to the station, when he suddenly remembered the news with which he was fraught when he entered the poor bishop's bedroom. he had found the moment so inopportune for any mundane tidings, that he had repressed the words which were on his tongue, and immediately afterwards all recollection of the circumstance was for the time banished by the scene which had occurred. "but, archdeacon," said he, turning back, "i forgot to tell you--the ministry are out." "out!" ejaculated the archdeacon, in a tone which too plainly showed his anxiety and dismay, although under the circumstances of the moment he endeavoured to control himself. "out! who told you so?" mr. harding explained that news to this effect had come down by electric telegraph, and that the tidings had been left at the palace door by mr. chadwick. the archdeacon sat silent for awhile meditating, and mr. harding stood looking at him. "never mind," said the archdeacon at last; "send the message all the same. the news must be sent to someone, and there is at present no one else in a position to receive it. do it at once, my dear friend; you know i would not trouble you, were i in a state to do it myself. a few minutes' time is of the greatest importance." mr. harding went out and sent the message, and it may be as well that we should follow it to its destination. within thirty minutes of its leaving barchester it reached the earl of ---- in his inner library. what elaborate letters, what eloquent appeals, what indignant remonstrances he might there have to frame, at such a moment, may be conceived but not described! how he was preparing his thunder for successful rivals, standing like a british peer with his back to the sea-coal fire, and his hands in his breeches pockets--how his fine eye was lit up with anger, and his forehead gleamed with patriotism--how he stamped his foot as he thought of his heavy associates--how he all but swore as he remembered how much too clever one of them had been--my creative readers may imagine. but was he so engaged? no: history and truth compel me to deny it. he was sitting easily in a lounging chair, conning over a newmarket list, and by his elbow on the table was lying open an uncut french novel on which he was engaged. he opened the cover in which the message was enclosed and, having read it, he took his pen and wrote on the back of it-- for the earl of ----, with the earl of ----'s compliments and sent it off again on its journey. thus terminated our unfortunate friend's chances of possessing the glories of a bishopric. the names of many divines were given in the papers as that of the bishop-elect. "the british grandmother" declared that dr. gwynne was to be the man, in compliment to the late ministry. this was a heavy blow to dr. grantly, but he was not doomed to see himself superseded by his friend. "the anglican devotee" put forward confidently the claims of a great london preacher of austere doctrines; and "the eastern hemisphere," an evening paper supposed to possess much official knowledge, declared in favour of an eminent naturalist, a gentleman most completely versed in the knowledge of rocks and minerals, but supposed by many to hold on religious subjects no special doctrines whatever. "the jupiter," that daily paper which, as we all know, is the only true source of infallibly correct information on all subjects, for awhile was silent, but at last spoke out. the merits of all these candidates were discussed and somewhat irreverently disposed of, and then "the jupiter" declared that dr. proudie was to be the man. dr. proudie was the man. just a month after the demise of the late bishop, dr. proudie kissed the queen's hand as his successor-elect. we must beg to be allowed to draw a curtain over the sorrows of the archdeacon as he sat, sombre and sad at heart, in the study of his parsonage at plumstead episcopi. on the day subsequent to the dispatch of the message he heard that the earl of ---- had consented to undertake the formation of a ministry, and from that moment he knew that his chance was over. many will think that he was wicked to grieve for the loss of episcopal power, wicked to have coveted it, nay, wicked even to have thought about it, in the way and at the moments he had done so. with such censures i cannot profess that i completely agree. the _nolo episcopari_, though still in use, is so directly at variance with the tendency of all human wishes, that it cannot be thought to express the true aspirations of rising priests in the church of england. a lawyer does not sin in seeking to be a judge, or in compassing his wishes by all honest means. a young diplomat entertains a fair ambition when he looks forward to be the lord of a first-rate embassy; and a poor novelist, when he attempts to rival dickens or rise above fitzjeames, commits no fault, though he may be foolish. sydney smith truly said that in these recreant days we cannot expect to find the majesty of st. paul beneath the cassock of a curate. if we look to our clergymen to be more than men, we shall probably teach ourselves to think that they are less, and can hardly hope to raise the character of the pastor by denying to him the right to entertain the aspirations of a man. our archdeacon was worldly--who among us is not so? he was ambitious--who among us is ashamed to own that "last infirmity of noble minds!" he was avaricious, my readers will say. no;--it was for no love of lucre that he wished to be bishop of barchester. he was his father's only child, and his father had left him great wealth. his preferment brought him in nearly three thousand a year. the bishopric, as cut down by the ecclesiastical commission, was only five. he would be a richer man as archdeacon than he could be as bishop. but he certainly did desire to play first fiddle; he did desire to sit in full lawn sleeves among the peers of the realm; and he did desire, if the truth must out, to be called "my lord" by his reverend brethren. his hopes, however, were they innocent or sinful, were not fated to be realized, and dr. proudie was consecrated bishop of barchester. chapter ii hiram's hospital according to act of parliament it is hardly necessary that i should here give to the public any lengthened biography of mr. harding up to the period of the commencement of this tale. the public cannot have forgotten how ill that sensitive gentleman bore the attack that was made on him in the columns of "the jupiter," with reference to the income which he received as warden of hiram's hospital, in the city of barchester. nor can it yet be forgotten that a lawsuit was instituted against him on the matter of that charity by mr. john bold, who afterwards married his, mr. harding's, younger and then only unmarried daughter. under pressure of these attacks, mr. harding had resigned his wardenship, though strongly recommended to abstain from doing so both by his friends and by his lawyers. he did, however, resign it, and betook himself manfully to the duties of the small parish of st. cuthbert's, in the city, of which he was vicar, continuing also to perform those of precentor of the cathedral, a situation of small emolument which had hitherto been supposed to be joined, as a matter of course, to the wardenship of the hospital above spoken of. when he left the hospital from which he had been so ruthlessly driven, and settled himself down in his own modest manner in the high street of barchester, he had not expected that others would make more fuss about it than he was inclined to do himself; and the extent of his hope was, that the movement might have been made in time to prevent any further paragraphs in "the jupiter." his affairs, however, were not allowed to subside thus quietly, and people were quite as much inclined to talk about the disinterested sacrifice he had made, as they had before been to upbraid him for his cupidity. the most remarkable thing that occurred was the receipt of an autographed letter from the archbishop of canterbury, in which the primate very warmly praised his conduct, and begged to know what his intentions were for the future. mr. harding replied that he intended to be rector of st. cuthbert's, in barchester, and so that matter dropped. then the newspapers took up his case, "the jupiter" among the rest, and wafted his name in eulogistic strains through every reading-room in the nation. it was discovered also that he was the author of that great musical work, _harding's church music_,--and a new edition was spoken of, though, i believe, never printed. it is, however, certain that the work was introduced into the royal chapel at st. james's, and that a long criticism appeared in the "musical scrutator," declaring that in no previous work of the kind had so much research been joined with such exalted musical ability, and asserting that the name of harding would henceforward be known wherever the arts were cultivated, or religion valued. this was high praise, and i will not deny that mr. harding was gratified by such flattery; for if mr. harding was vain on any subject, it was on that of music. but here the matter rested. the second edition, if printed, was never purchased; the copies which had been introduced into the royal chapel disappeared again, and were laid by in peace, with a load of similar literature. mr. towers of "the jupiter" and his brethren occupied themselves with other names, and the undying fame promised to our friend was clearly intended to be posthumous. mr. harding had spent much of his time with his friend the bishop; much with his daughter mrs. bold, now, alas, a widow; and had almost daily visited the wretched remnant of his former subjects, the few surviving bedesmen now left at hiram's hospital. six of them were still living. the number, according to old hiram's will, should always have been twelve. but after the abdication of their warden, the bishop had appointed no successor to him, no new occupants of the charity had been nominated, and it appeared as though the hospital at barchester would fall into abeyance, unless the powers that be should take some steps towards putting it once more into working order. during the past five years, the powers that be had not overlooked barchester hospital, and sundry political doctors had taken the matter in hand. shortly after mr. harding's resignation, "the jupiter" had very clearly shown what ought to be done. in about half a column it had distributed the income, rebuilt the buildings, put an end to all bickerings, regenerated kindly feeling, provided for mr. harding, and placed the whole thing on a footing which could not but be satisfactory to the city and bishop of barchester, and to the nation at large. the wisdom of this scheme was testified by the number of letters which "common sense," "veritas," and "one that loves fair play" sent to "the jupiter", all expressing admiration and amplifying on the details given. it is singular enough that no adverse letter appeared at all, and, therefore, none of course was written. but cassandra was not believed, and even the wisdom of "the jupiter" sometimes falls on deaf ears. though other plans did not put themselves forward in the columns of "the jupiter," reformers of church charities were not slack to make known in various places their different nostrums for setting hiram's hospital on its feet again. a learned bishop took occasion, in the upper house, to allude to the matter, intimating that he had communicated on the subject with his right reverend brother of barchester. the radical member for staleybridge had suggested that the funds should be alienated for the education of the agricultural poor of the country, and he amused the house by some anecdotes touching the superstition and habits of the agriculturists in question. a political pamphleteer had produced a few dozen pages, which he called "who are john hiram's heirs?" intending to give an infallible rule for the governance of all such establishments; and, at last, a member of the government promised that in the next session a short bill should be introduced for regulating the affairs of barchester and other kindred concerns. the next session came, and, contrary to custom, the bill came also. men's minds were then intent on other things. the first threatenings of a huge war hung heavily over the nation, and the question as to hiram's heirs did not appear to interest very many people either in or out of the house. the bill, however, was read and re-read, and in some undistinguished manner passed through its eleven stages without appeal or dissent. what would john hiram have said in the matter, could he have predicted that some forty-five gentlemen would take on themselves to make a law altering the whole purport of his will, without in the least knowing at the moment of their making it, what it was that they were doing? it is however to be hoped that the under-secretary for the home office knew, for to him had the matter been confided. the bill, however, did pass, and at the time at which this history is supposed to commence, it had been ordained that there should be, as heretofore, twelve old men in barchester hospital, each with s. d. a day; that there should also be twelve old women to be located in a house to be built, each with s. d. a day; that there should be a matron, with a house and £ a year; a steward with £ a year; and latterly, a warden with £ a year, who should have the spiritual guidance of both establishments, and the temporal guidance of that appertaining to the male sex. the bishop, dean, and warden were, as formerly, to appoint in turn the recipients of the charity, and the bishop was to appoint the officers. there was nothing said as to the wardenship being held by the precentor of the cathedral, nor a word as to mr. harding's right to the situation. it was not, however, till some months after the death of the old bishop, and almost immediately consequent on the installation of his successor, that notice was given that the reform was about to be carried out. the new law and the new bishop were among the earliest works of a new ministry, or rather of a ministry who, having for awhile given place to their opponents, had then returned to power; and the death of dr. grantly occurred, as we have seen, exactly at the period of the change. poor eleanor bold! how well does that widow's cap become her, and the solemn gravity with which she devotes herself to her new duties. poor eleanor! poor eleanor! i cannot say that with me john bold was ever a favourite. i never thought him worthy of the wife he had won. but in her estimation he was most worthy. hers was one of those feminine hearts which cling to a husband, not with idolatry, for worship can admit of no defect in its idol, but with the perfect tenacity of ivy. as the parasite plant will follow even the defects of the trunk which it embraces, so did eleanor cling to and love the very faults of her husband. she had once declared that whatever her father did should in her eyes be right. she then transferred her allegiance, and became ever ready to defend the worst failings of her lord and master. and john bold was a man to be loved by a woman; he was himself affectionate; he was confiding and manly; and that arrogance of thought, unsustained by first-rate abilities, that attempt at being better than his neighbours which jarred so painfully on the feelings of his acquaintance, did not injure him in the estimation of his wife. could she even have admitted that he had a fault, his early death would have blotted out the memory of it. she wept as for the loss of the most perfect treasure with which mortal woman had ever been endowed; for weeks after he was gone the idea of future happiness in this world was hateful to her; consolation, as it is called, was insupportable, and tears and sleep were her only relief. but god tempers the wind to the shorn lamb. she knew that she had within her the living source of other cares. she knew that there was to be created for her another subject of weal or woe, of unutterable joy or despairing sorrow, as god in his mercy might vouchsafe to her. at first this did but augment her grief! to be the mother of a poor infant, orphaned before it was born, brought forth to the sorrows of an ever desolate hearth, nurtured amidst tears and wailing, and then turned adrift into the world without the aid of a father's care! there was at first no joy in this. by degrees, however, her heart became anxious for another object, and, before its birth, the stranger was expected with all the eagerness of a longing mother. just eight months after the father's death a second john bold was born, and if the worship of one creature can be innocent in another, let us hope that the adoration offered over the cradle of the fatherless infant may not be imputed as a sin. it will not be worth our while to define the character of the child, or to point out in how far the faults of the father were redeemed within that little breast by the virtues of the mother. the baby, as a baby, was all that was delightful, and i cannot foresee that it will be necessary for us to inquire into the facts of his after-life. our present business at barchester will not occupy us above a year or two at the furthest, and i will leave it to some other pen to produce, if necessary, the biography of john bold the younger. but, as a baby, this baby was all that could be desired. this fact no one attempted to deny. "is he not delightful?" she would say to her father, looking up into his face from her knees, her lustrous eyes overflowing with soft tears, her young face encircled by her close widow's cap, and her hands on each side of the cradle in which her treasure was sleeping. the grandfather would gladly admit that the treasure was delightful, and the uncle archdeacon himself would agree, and mrs. grantly, eleanor's sister, would re-echo the word with true sisterly energy; and mary bold--but mary bold was a second worshipper at the same shrine. the baby was really delightful; he took his food with a will, struck out his toes merrily whenever his legs were uncovered, and did not have fits. these are supposed to be the strongest points of baby perfection, and in all these our baby excelled. and thus the widow's deep grief was softened, and a sweet balm was poured into the wound which she had thought nothing but death could heal. how much kinder is god to us than we are willing to be to ourselves! at the loss of every dear face, at the last going of every well-beloved one, we all doom ourselves to an eternity of sorrow, and look to waste ourselves away in an ever-running fountain of tears. how seldom does such grief endure! how blessed is the goodness which forbids it to do so! "let me ever remember my living friends, but forget them as soon as dead," was the prayer of a wise man who understood the mercy of god. few perhaps would have the courage to express such a wish, and yet to do so would only be to ask for that release from sorrow which a kind creator almost always extends to us. i would not, however, have it imagined that mrs. bold forgot her husband. she daily thought of him with all conjugal love, and enshrined his memory in the innermost centre of her heart. but yet she was happy in her baby. it was so sweet to press the living toy to her breast, and feel that a human being existed who did owe, and was to owe, everything to her; whose daily food was drawn from herself; whose little wants could all be satisfied by her; whose little heart would first love her and her only; whose infant tongue would make its first effort in calling her by the sweetest name a woman can hear. and so eleanor's bosom became tranquil, and she set about her new duties eagerly and gratefully. as regards the concerns of the world, john bold had left his widow in prosperous circumstances. he had bequeathed to her all that he possessed, and that comprised an income much exceeding what she or her friends thought necessary for her. it amounted to nearly a thousand a year; when she reflected on its extent, her dearest hope was to hand it over, not only unimpaired but increased, to her husband's son, to her own darling, to the little man who now lay sleeping on her knee, happily ignorant of the cares which were to be accumulated in his behalf. when john bold died, she earnestly implored her father to come and live with her, but this mr. harding declined, though for some weeks he remained with her as a visitor. he could not be prevailed upon to forego the possession of some small home of his own, and so remained in the lodgings he had first selected over a chemist's shop in the high street of barchester. chapter iii dr. and mrs. proudie this narrative is supposed to commence immediately after the installation of dr. proudie. i will not describe the ceremony, as i do not precisely understand its nature. i am ignorant whether a bishop be chaired like a member of parliament, or carried in a gilt coach like a lord mayor, or sworn like a justice of peace, or introduced like a peer to the upper house, or led between two brethren like a knight of the garter; but i do know that everything was properly done, and that nothing fit or becoming to a young bishop was omitted on the occasion. dr. proudie was not the man to allow anything to be omitted that might be becoming to his new dignity. he understood well the value of forms, and knew that the due observance of rank could not be maintained unless the exterior trappings belonging to it were held in proper esteem. he was a man born to move in high circles; at least so he thought himself, and circumstances had certainly sustained him in this view. he was the nephew of an irish baron by his mother's side, and his wife was the niece of a scotch earl. he had for years held some clerical office appertaining to courtly matters, which had enabled him to live in london, and to entrust his parish to his curate. he had been preacher to the royal beefeaters, curator of theological manuscripts in the ecclesiastical courts, chaplain to the queen's yeomanry guard, and almoner to his royal highness the prince of rappe-blankenberg. his residence in the metropolis, rendered necessary by duties thus entrusted to him, his high connexions, and the peculiar talents and nature of the man, recommended him to persons in power, and dr. proudie became known as a useful and rising clergyman. some few years since, even within the memory of many who are not yet willing to call themselves old, a liberal clergyman was a person not frequently to be met. sydney smith was such and was looked on as little better than an infidel; a few others also might be named, but they were _rarae aves_ and were regarded with doubt and distrust by their brethren. no man was so surely a tory as a country rector--nowhere were the powers that be so cherished as at oxford. when, however, dr. whately was made an archbishop, and dr. hampden some years afterwards regius professor, many wise divines saw that a change was taking place in men's minds, and that more liberal ideas would henceforward be suitable to the priests as well as to the laity. clergymen began to be heard of who had ceased to anathematize papists on the one hand, or vilify dissenters on the other. it appeared clear that high church principles, as they are called, were no longer to be surest claims to promotion with at any rate one section of statesmen, and dr. proudie was one among those who early in life adapted himself to the views held by the whigs on most theological and religious subjects. he bore with the idolatry of rome, tolerated even the infidelity of socinianism, and was hand and glove with the presbyterian synods of scotland and ulster. such a man at such a time was found to be useful, and dr. proudie's name began to appear in the newspapers. he was made one of a commission who went over to ireland to arrange matters preparative to the working of the national board; he became honorary secretary to another commission nominated to inquire into the revenues of cathedral chapters; he had had something to do with both the _regium donum_ and the maynooth grant. it must not on this account be taken as proved that dr. proudie was a man of great mental powers, or even of much capacity for business, for such qualities had not been required in him. in the arrangement of those church reforms with which he was connected, the ideas and original conception of the work to be done were generally furnished by the liberal statesmen of the day, and the labour of the details was borne by officials of a lower rank. it was, however, thought expedient that the name of some clergyman should appear in such matters, and as dr. proudie had become known as a tolerating divine, great use of this sort was made of his name. if he did not do much active good, he never did any harm; he was amenable to those who were really in authority and, at the sittings of the various boards to which he belonged, maintained a kind of dignity which had its value. he was certainly possessed of sufficient tact to answer the purpose for which he was required without making himself troublesome; but it must not therefore be surmised that he doubted his own power, or failed to believe that he could himself take a high part in high affairs when his own turn came. he was biding his time, and patiently looking forward to the days when he himself would sit authoritative at some board, and talk and direct, and rule the roost, while lesser stars sat round and obeyed, as he had so well accustomed himself to do. his reward and his time had now come. he was selected for the vacant bishopric and, on the next vacancy which might occur in any diocese, would take his place in the house of lords, prepared to give not a silent vote in all matters concerning the weal of the church establishment. toleration was to be the basis on which he was to fight his battles, and in the honest courage of his heart he thought no evil would come to him in encountering even such foes as his brethren of exeter and oxford. dr. proudie was an ambitious man, and before he was well consecrated bishop of barchester, he had begun to look up to archiepiscopal splendour, and the glories of lambeth, or at any rate of bishopsthorpe. he was comparatively young, and had, as he fondly flattered himself, been selected as possessing such gifts, natural and acquired, as must be sure to recommend him to a yet higher notice, now that a higher sphere was opened to him. dr. proudie was, therefore, quite prepared to take a conspicuous part in all theological affairs appertaining to these realms; and having such views, by no means intended to bury himself at barchester as his predecessor had done. no! london should still be his ground: a comfortable mansion in a provincial city might be well enough for the dead months of the year. indeed, dr. proudie had always felt it necessary to his position to retire from london when other great and fashionable people did so; but london should still be his fixed residence, and it was in london that he resolved to exercise that hospitality so peculiarly recommended to all bishops by st. paul. how otherwise could he keep himself before the world? how else give to the government, in matters theological, the full benefit of his weight and talents? this resolution was no doubt a salutary one as regarded the world at large, but was not likely to make him popular either with the clergy or people of barchester. dr. grantly had always lived there--in truth, it was hard for a bishop to be popular after dr. grantly. his income had averaged £ , a year; his successor was to be rigidly limited to £ , . he had but one child on whom to spend his money; dr. proudie had seven or eight. he had been a man of few personal expenses, and they had been confined to the tastes of a moderate gentleman; but dr. proudie had to maintain a position in fashionable society, and had that to do with comparatively small means. dr. grantly had certainly kept his carriage as became a bishop, but his carriage, horses, and coachman, though they did very well for barchester, would have been almost ridiculous at westminster. mrs. proudie determined that her husband's equipage should not shame her, and things on which mrs. proudie resolved were generally accomplished. from all this it was likely to result that dr. proudie would not spend much money at barchester, whereas his predecessor had dealt with the tradesmen of the city in a manner very much to their satisfaction. the grantlys, father and son, had spent their money like gentlemen, but it soon became whispered in barchester that dr. proudie was not unacquainted with those prudent devices by which the utmost show of wealth is produced from limited means. in person dr. proudie is a good-looking man; spruce and dapper, and very tidy. he is somewhat below middle height, being about five feet four; but he makes up for the inches which he wants by the dignity with which he carries those which he has. it is no fault of his own if he has not a commanding eye, for he studies hard to assume it. his features are well formed, though perhaps the sharpness of his nose may give to his face in the eyes of some people an air of insignificance. if so, it is greatly redeemed by his mouth and chin, of which he is justly proud. dr. proudie may well be said to have been a fortunate man, for he was not born to wealth, and he is now bishop of barchester; nevertheless, he has his cares. he has a large family, of whom the three eldest are daughters, now all grown up and fit for fashionable life;--and he has a wife. it is not my intention to breathe a word against the character of mrs. proudie, but still i cannot think that with all her virtues she adds much to her husband's happiness. the truth is that in matters domestic she rules supreme over her titular lord, and rules with a rod of iron. nor is this all. things domestic dr. proudie might have abandoned to her, if not voluntarily, yet willingly. but mrs. proudie is not satisfied with such home dominion, and stretches her power over all his movements, and will not even abstain from things spiritual. in fact, the bishop is hen-pecked. the archdeacon's wife, in her happy home at plumstead, knows how to assume the full privileges of her rank and express her own mind in becoming tone and place. but mrs. grantly's sway, if sway she has, is easy and beneficent. she never shames her husband; before the world she is a pattern of obedience; her voice is never loud, nor her looks sharp: doubtless she values power, and has not unsuccessfully striven to acquire it; but she knows what should be the limits of a woman's rule. not so mrs. proudie. this lady is habitually authoritative to all, but to her poor husband she is despotic. successful as has been his career in the eyes of the world, it would seem that in the eyes of his wife he is never right. all hope of defending himself has long passed from him; indeed he rarely even attempts self-justification, and is aware that submission produces the nearest approach to peace which his own house can ever attain. mrs. proudie has not been able to sit at the boards and committees to which her husband has been called by the state, nor, as he often reflects, can she make her voice heard in the house of lords. it may be that she will refuse to him permission to attend to this branch of a bishop's duties; it may be that she will insist on his close attendance to his own closet. he has never whispered a word on the subject to living ears, but he has already made his fixed resolve. should such attempt be made he will rebel. dogs have turned against their masters, and even neapolitans against their rulers, when oppression has been too severe. and dr. proudie feels within himself that if the cord be drawn too tight, he also can muster courage and resist. the state of vassalage in which our bishop has been kept by his wife has not tended to exalt his character in the eyes of his daughters, who assume in addressing their father too much of that authority which is not properly belonging, at any rate, to them. they are, on the whole, fine engaging young ladies. they are tall and robust like their mother, whose high cheek-bones, and--we may say auburn hair they all inherit. they think somewhat too much of their grand-uncles, who have not hitherto returned the compliment by thinking much of them. but now that their father is a bishop, it is probable that family ties will be drawn closer. considering their connexion with the church, they entertain but few prejudices against the pleasures of the world, and have certainly not distressed their parents, as too many english girls have lately done, by any enthusiastic wish to devote themselves to the seclusion of a protestant nunnery. dr. proudie's sons are still at school. one other marked peculiarity in the character of the bishop's wife must be mentioned. though not averse to the society and manners of the world, she is in her own way a religious woman; and the form in which this tendency shows itself in her is by a strict observance of sabbatarian rule. dissipation and low dresses during the week are, under her control, atoned for by three services, an evening sermon read by herself, and a perfect abstinence from any cheering employment on the sunday. unfortunately for those under her roof to whom the dissipation and low dresses are not extended, her servants namely and her husband, the compensating strictness of the sabbath includes all. woe betide the recreant housemaid who is found to have been listening to the honey of a sweetheart in the regent's park instead of the soul-stirring evening discourse of mr. slope. not only is she sent adrift, but she is so sent with a character which leaves her little hope of a decent place. woe betide the six-foot hero who escorts mrs. proudie to her pew in red plush breeches, if he slips away to the neighbouring beer-shop, instead of falling into the back seat appropriated to his use. mrs. proudie has the eyes of argus for such offenders. occasional drunkenness in the week may be overlooked, for six feet on low wages are hardly to be procured if the morals are always kept at a high pitch, but not even for grandeur or economy will mrs. proudie forgive a desecration of the sabbath. in such matters mrs. proudie allows herself to be often guided by that eloquent preacher, the rev. mr. slope, and as dr. proudie is guided by his wife, it necessarily follows that the eminent man we have named has obtained a good deal of control over dr. proudie in matters concerning religion. mr. slope's only preferment has hitherto been that of reader and preacher in a london district church; and on the consecration of his friend the new bishop, he readily gave this up to undertake the onerous but congenial duties of domestic chaplain to his lordship. mr. slope, however, on his first introduction must not be brought before the public at the tail of a chapter. chapter iv the bishop's chaplain of the rev. mr. slope's parentage i am not able to say much. i have heard it asserted that he is lineally descended from that eminent physician who assisted at the birth of mr. t. shandy, and that in early years he added an "e" to his name, for the sake of euphony, as other great men have done before him. if this be so, i presume he was christened obadiah, for that is his name, in commemoration of the conflict in which his ancestor so distinguished himself. all my researches on the subject have, however, failed in enabling me to fix the date on which the family changed its religion. he had been a sizar at cambridge, and had there conducted himself at any rate successfully, for in due process of time he was an m.a., having university pupils under his care. from thence he was transferred to london, and became preacher at a new district church built on the confines of baker street. he was in this position when congenial ideas on religious subjects recommended him to mrs. proudie, and the intercourse had become close and confidential. having been thus familiarly thrown among the misses proudie, it was no more than natural that some softer feeling than friendship should be engendered. there have been some passages of love between him and the eldest hope, olivia, but they have hitherto resulted in no favourable arrangement. in truth, mr. slope, having made a declaration of affection, afterwards withdrew it on finding that the doctor had no immediate worldly funds with which to endow his child, and it may easily be conceived that miss proudie, after such an announcement on his part, was not readily disposed to receive any further show of affection. on the appointment of dr. proudie to the bishopric of barchester, mr. slope's views were in truth somewhat altered. bishops, even though they be poor, can provide for clerical children, and mr. slope began to regret that he had not been more disinterested. he no sooner heard the tidings of the doctor's elevation than he recommenced his siege, not violently, indeed, but respectfully, and at a distance. olivia proudie, however, was a girl of spirit: she had the blood of two peers in her veins, and better still she had another lover on her books, so mr. slope sighed in vain, and the pair soon found it convenient to establish a mutual bond of inveterate hatred. it may be thought singular that mrs. proudie's friendship for the young clergyman should remain firm after such an affair, but, to tell the truth, she had known nothing of it. though very fond of mr. slope herself, she had never conceived the idea that either of her daughters would become so, and remembering their high birth and social advantages, expected for them matches of a different sort. neither the gentleman nor the lady found it necessary to enlighten her. olivia's two sisters had each known of the affair, as had all the servants, as had all the people living in the adjoining houses on either side, but mrs. proudie had been kept in the dark. mr. slope soon comforted himself with the reflexion that, as he had been selected as chaplain to the bishop, it would probably be in his power to get the good things in the bishop's gift without troubling himself with the bishop's daughter, and he found himself able to endure the pangs of rejected love. as he sat himself down in the railway carriage, confronting the bishop and mrs. proudie as they started on their first journey to barchester, he began to form in his own mind a plan of his future life. he knew well his patron's strong points, but he knew the weak ones as well. he understood correctly enough to what attempts the new bishop's high spirit would soar, and he rightly guessed that public life would better suit the great man's taste than the small details of diocesan duty. he, therefore,--he, mr. slope,--would in effect be bishop of barchester. such was his resolve, and to give mr. slope his due, he had both courage and spirit to bear him out in his resolution. he knew that he should have a hard battle to fight, for the power and patronage of the see would be equally coveted by another great mind--mrs. proudie would also choose to be bishop of barchester. mr. slope, however, flattered himself that he could outmanoeuvre the lady. she must live much in london, while he would always be on the spot. she would necessarily remain ignorant of much, while he would know everything belonging to the diocese. at first, doubtless, he must flatter and cajole, perhaps yield in some things, but he did not doubt of ultimate triumph. if all other means failed, he could join the bishop against his wife, inspire courage into the unhappy man, lay an axe to the root of the woman's power, and emancipate the husband. such were his thoughts as he sat looking at the sleeping pair in the railway carriage, and mr. slope is not the man to trouble himself with such thoughts for nothing. he is possessed of more than average abilities, and is of good courage. though he can stoop to fawn, and stoop low indeed, if need be, he has still within him the power to assume the tyrant;--and with the power he has certainly the wish. his acquirements are not of the highest order, but such as they are, they are completely under control, and he knows the use of them. he is gifted with a certain kind of pulpit eloquence, not likely indeed to be persuasive with men, but powerful with the softer sex. in his sermons he deals greatly in denunciations, excites the minds of his weaker hearers with a not unpleasant terror, and leaves an impression on their minds that all mankind are in a perilous state, and all womankind, too, except those who attend regularly to the evening lectures in baker street. his looks and tones are extremely severe, so much so that one cannot but fancy that he regards the greater part of the world as being infinitely too bad for his care. as he walks through the streets his very face denotes his horror of the world's wickedness, and there is always an anathema lurking in the corner of his eye. in doctrine he, like his patron, is tolerant of dissent, if so strict a mind can be called tolerant of anything. with wesleyan-methodists he has something in common, but his soul trembles in agony at the iniquities of the puseyites. his aversion is carried to things outward as well as inward. his gall rises at a new church with a high-pitched roof; a full-breasted black silk waistcoat is with him a symbol of satan; and a profane jest-book would not, in his view, more foully desecrate the church seat of a christian than a book of prayer printed with red letters and ornamented with a cross on the back. most active clergymen have their hobby, and sunday observances are his. sunday, however, is a word which never pollutes his mouth--it is always "the sabbath." the "desecration of the sabbath," as he delights to call it, is to him meat and drink: he thrives upon that as policemen do on the general evil habits of the community. it is the loved subject of all his evening discourses, the source of all his eloquence, the secret of all his power over the female heart. to him the revelation of god appears only in that one law given for jewish observance. to him the mercies of our saviour speak in vain, to him in vain has been preached that sermon which fell from divine lips on the mountain--"blessed are the meek, for they shall inherit the earth"--"blessed are the merciful, for they shall obtain mercy." to him the new testament is comparatively of little moment, for from it can he draw no fresh authority for that dominion which he loves to exercise over at least a seventh part of man's allotted time here below. mr. slope is tall, and not ill-made. his feet and hands are large, as has ever been the case with all his family, but he has a broad chest and wide shoulders to carry off these excrescences, and on the whole his figure is good. his countenance, however, is not specially prepossessing. his hair is lank and of a dull pale reddish hue. it is always formed into three straight, lumpy masses, each brushed with admirable precision and cemented with much grease; two of them adhere closely to the sides of his face, and the other lies at right angles above them. he wears no whiskers, and is always punctiliously shaven. his face is nearly of the same colour as his hair, though perhaps a little redder: it is not unlike beef--beef, however, one would say, of a bad quality. his forehead is capacious and high, but square and heavy and unpleasantly shining. his mouth is large, though his lips are thin and bloodless; and his big, prominent, pale-brown eyes inspire anything but confidence. his nose, however, is his redeeming feature: it is pronounced, straight and well-formed; though i myself should have liked it better did it not possess a somewhat spongy, porous appearance, as though it had been cleverly formed out of a red-coloured cork. i never could endure to shake hands with mr. slope. a cold, clammy perspiration always exudes from him, the small drops are ever to be seen standing on his brow, and his friendly grasp is unpleasant. such is mr. slope--such is the man who has suddenly fallen into the midst of barchester close, and is destined there to assume the station which has heretofore been filled by the son of the late bishop. think, oh, my meditative reader, what an associate we have here for those comfortable prebendaries, those gentlemanlike clerical doctors, those happy, well-used, well-fed minor canons who have grown into existence at barchester under the kindly wings of bishop grantly! but not as a mere associate for these does mr. slope travel down to barchester with the bishop and his wife. he intends to be, if not their master, at least the chief among them. he intends to lead and to have followers; he intends to hold the purse-strings of the diocese and draw round him an obedient herd of his poor and hungry brethren. and here we can hardly fail to draw a comparison between the archdeacon and our new private chaplain, and despite the manifold faults of the former, one can hardly fail to make it much to his advantage. both men are eager, much too eager, to support and increase the power of their order. both are anxious that the world should be priest-governed, though they have probably never confessed so much, even to themselves. both begrudge any other kind of dominion held by man over man. dr. grantly, if he admits the queen's supremacy in things spiritual, only admits it as being due to the quasi-priesthood conveyed in the consecrating qualities of her coronation, and he regards things temporal as being by their nature subject to those which are spiritual. mr. slope's ideas of sacerdotal rule are of quite a different class. he cares nothing, one way or the other, for the queen's supremacy; these to his ears are empty words, meaning nothing. forms he regards but little, and such titular expressions as supremacy, consecration, ordination, and the like convey of themselves no significance to him. let him be supreme who can. the temporal king, judge, or gaoler can work but on the body. the spiritual master, if he have the necessary gifts and can duly use them, has a wider field of empire. he works upon the soul. if he can make himself be believed, he can be all powerful over those who listen. if he be careful to meddle with none who are too strong in intellect, or too weak in flesh, he may indeed be supreme. and such was the ambition of mr. slope. dr. grantly interfered very little with the worldly doings of those who were in any way subject to him. i do not mean to say that he omitted to notice misconduct among his clergy, immorality in his parish, or omissions in his family, but he was not anxious to do so where the necessity could be avoided. he was not troubled with a propensity to be curious, and as long as those around him were tainted with no heretical leaning towards dissent, as long as they fully and freely admitted the efficacy of mother church, he was willing that that mother should be merciful and affectionate, prone to indulgence, and unwilling to chastise. he himself enjoyed the good things of this world and liked to let it be known that he did so. he cordially despised any brother rector who thought harm of dinner-parties, or dreaded the dangers of a moderate claret-jug; consequently, dinner-parties and claret-jugs were common in the diocese. he liked to give laws and to be obeyed in them implicitly, but he endeavoured that his ordinances should be within the compass of the man and not unpalatable to the gentleman. he had ruled among his clerical neighbours now for sundry years, and as he had maintained his power without becoming unpopular, it may be presumed that he had exercised some wisdom. of mr. slope's conduct much cannot be said, as his grand career is yet to commence, but it may be premised that his tastes will be very different from those of the archdeacon. he conceives it to be his duty to know all the private doings and desires of the flock entrusted to his care. from the poorer classes he exacts an unconditional obedience to set rules of conduct, and if disobeyed he has recourse, like his great ancestor, to the fulminations of an ernulfus: "thou shalt be damned in thy going in and in thy coming out--in thy eating and thy drinking," &c. &c. &c. with the rich, experience has already taught him that a different line of action is necessary. men in the upper walks of life do not mind being cursed, and the women, presuming that it be done in delicate phrase, rather like it. but he has not, therefore, given up so important a portion of believing christians. with the men, indeed, he is generally at variance; they are hardened sinners, on whom the voice of the priestly charmer too often falls in vain; but with the ladies, old and young, firm and frail, devout and dissipated, he is, as he conceives, all powerful. he can reprove faults with so much flattery and utter censure in so caressing a manner that the female heart, if it glow with a spark of low church susceptibility, cannot withstand him. in many houses he is thus an admired guest: the husbands, for their wives' sake, are fain to admit him; and when once admitted it is not easy to shake him off. he has, however, a pawing, greasy way with him, which does not endear him to those who do not value him for their souls' sake, and he is not a man to make himself at once popular in a large circle such as is now likely to surround him at barchester. chapter v a morning visit it was known that dr. proudie would immediately have to reappoint to the wardenship of the hospital under the act of parliament to which allusion has been made; no one imagined that any choice was left to him--no one for a moment thought that he could appoint any other than mr. harding. mr. harding himself, when he heard how the matter had been settled, without troubling himself much on the subject, considered it as certain that he would go back to his pleasant house and garden. and though there would be much that was melancholy, nay, almost heartrending, in such a return, he still was glad that it was to be so. his daughter might probably be persuaded to return there with him. she had, indeed, all but promised to do so, though she still entertained an idea that that greatest of mortals, that important atom of humanity, that little god upon earth, johnny bold her baby, ought to have a house of his own over his head. such being the state of mr. harding's mind in the matter, he did not feel any peculiar personal interest in the appointment of dr. proudie to the bishopric. he, as well as others at barchester, regretted that a man should be sent among them who, they were aware, was not of their way of thinking; but mr. harding himself was not a bigoted man on points of church doctrine, and he was quite prepared to welcome dr. proudie to barchester in a graceful and becoming manner. he had nothing to seek and nothing to fear; he felt that it behoved him to be on good terms with his bishop, and he did not anticipate any obstacle that would prevent it. in such a frame of mind he proceeded to pay his respects at the palace the second day after the arrival of the bishop and his chaplain. but he did not go alone. dr. grantly proposed to accompany him, and mr. harding was not sorry to have a companion, who would remove from his shoulders the burden of the conversation in such an interview. in the affair of the consecration dr. grantly had been introduced to the bishop, and mr. harding had also been there. he had, however, kept himself in the background, and he was now to be presented to the great man for the first time. the archdeacon's feelings were of a much stronger nature. he was not exactly the man to overlook his own slighted claims, or to forgive the preference shown to another. dr. proudie was playing venus to his juno, and he was prepared to wage an internecine war against the owner of the wished-for apple, and all his satellites, private chaplains, and others. nevertheless, it behoved him also to conduct himself towards the intruder as an old archdeacon should conduct himself to an incoming bishop; and though he was well aware of all dr. proudie's abominable opinions as regarded dissenters, church reform, the hebdomadal council, and such like; though he disliked the man, and hated the doctrines, still he was prepared to show respect to the station of the bishop. so he and mr. harding called together at the palace. his lordship was at home, and the two visitors were shown through the accustomed hall into the well-known room where the good old bishop used to sit. the furniture had been bought at a valuation, and every chair and table, every bookshelf against the wall, and every square in the carpet was as well known to each of them as their own bedrooms. nevertheless they at once felt that they were strangers there. the furniture was for the most part the same, yet the place had been metamorphosed. a new sofa had been introduced, a horrid chintz affair, most unprelatical and almost irreligious; such a sofa as never yet stood in the study of any decent high church clergyman of the church of england. the old curtains had also given way. they had, to be sure, become dingy, and that which had been originally a rich and goodly ruby had degenerated into a reddish brown. mr. harding, however, thought the old reddish-brown much preferable to the gaudy buff-coloured trumpery moreen which mrs. proudie had deemed good enough for her husband's own room in the provincial city of barchester. our friends found dr. proudie sitting on the old bishop's chair, looking very nice in his new apron; they found, too, mr. slope standing on the hearth-rug, persuasive and eager, just as the archdeacon used to stand; but on the sofa they also found mrs. proudie, an innovation for which a precedent might in vain be sought in all the annals of the barchester bishopric! there she was, however, and they could only make the best of her. the introductions were gone through in much form. the archdeacon shook hands with the bishop, and named mr. harding, who received such an amount of greeting as was due from a bishop to a precentor. his lordship then presented them to his lady wife; the archdeacon first, with archidiaconal honours, and then the precentor with diminished parade. after this mr. slope presented himself. the bishop, it is true, did mention his name, and so did mrs. proudie too, in a louder tone, but mr. slope took upon himself the chief burden of his own introduction. he had great pleasure in making himself acquainted with dr. grantly; he had heard much of the archdeacon's good works in that part of the diocese in which his duties as archdeacon had been exercised (thus purposely ignoring the archdeacon's hitherto unlimited dominion over the diocese at large). he was aware that his lordship depended greatly on the assistance which dr. grantly would be able to give him in that portion of his diocese. he then thrust out his hand and, grasping that of his new foe, bedewed it unmercifully. dr. grantly in return bowed, looked stiff, contracted his eyebrows, and wiped his hand with his pocket-handkerchief. nothing abashed, mr. slope then noticed the precentor and descended to the grade of the lower clergy. he gave him a squeeze of the hand, damp indeed, but affectionate, and was very glad to make the acquaintance of mr.--oh yes, mr. harding; he had not exactly caught the name. "precentor in the cathedral," surmised mr. slope. mr. harding confessed that such was the humble sphere of his work. "some parish duty as well," suggested mr. slope. mr. harding acknowledged the diminutive incumbency of st. cuthbert's. mr. slope then left him alone, having condescended sufficiently, and joined the conversation among the higher powers. there were four persons there, each of whom considered himself the most important personage in the diocese--himself, indeed, or herself, as mrs. proudie was one of them--and with such a difference of opinion it was not probable that they would get on pleasantly together. the bishop himself actually wore the visible apron, and trusted mainly to that--to that and his title, both being facts which could not be overlooked. the archdeacon knew his subject and really understood the business of bishoping, which the others did not, and this was his strong ground. mrs. proudie had her sex to back her, and her habit of command, and was nothing daunted by the high tone of dr. grantly's face and figure. mr. slope had only himself and his own courage and tact to depend on, but he nevertheless was perfectly self-assured, and did not doubt but that he should soon get the better of weak men who trusted so much to externals, as both bishop and archdeacon appeared to do. "do you reside in barchester, dr. grantly?" asked the lady with her sweetest smile. dr. grantly explained that he lived in his own parish of plumstead episcopi, a few miles out of the city. whereupon the lady hoped that the distance was not too great for country visiting, as she would be so glad to make the acquaintance of mrs. grantly. she would take the earliest opportunity, after the arrival of her horses at barchester; their horses were at present in london; their horses were not immediately coming down, as the bishop would be obliged, in a few days, to return to town. dr. grantly was no doubt aware that the bishop was at present much called upon by the "university improvement committee:" indeed, the committee could not well proceed without him, as their final report had now to be drawn up. the bishop had also to prepare a scheme for the "manufacturing towns morning and evening sunday school society," of which he was a patron, or president, or director, and therefore the horses would not come down to barchester at present; but whenever the horses did come down, she would take the earliest opportunity of calling at plumstead episcopi, providing the distance was not too great for country visiting. the archdeacon made his fifth bow--he had made one at each mention of the horses--and promised that mrs. grantly would do herself the honour of calling at the palace on an early day. mrs. proudie declared that she would be delighted: she hadn't liked to ask, not being quite sure whether mrs. grantly had horses; besides, the distance might have been, &c. &c. dr. grantly again bowed but said nothing. he could have bought every individual possession of the whole family of the proudies and have restored them as a gift, without much feeling the loss; and had kept a separate pair of horses for the exclusive use of his wife since the day of his marriage, whereas mrs. proudie had been hitherto jobbed about the streets of london at so much a month, during the season, and at other times had managed to walk, or hire a smart fly from the livery stables. "are the arrangements with reference to the sabbath-day schools generally pretty good in your archdeaconry?" asked mr. slope. "sabbath-day schools!" repeated the archdeacon with an affectation of surprise. "upon my word, i can't tell; it depends mainly on the parson's wife and daughters. there is none at plumstead." this was almost a fib on the part of the archdeacon, for mrs. grantly has a very nice school. to be sure it is not a sunday-school exclusively, and is not so designated, but that exemplary lady always attends there for an hour before church, and hears the children say their catechism, and sees that they are clean and tidy for church, with their hands washed and their shoes tied; and grisel and florinda, her daughters, carry thither a basket of large buns, baked on the saturday afternoon, and distribute them to all the children not especially under disgrace, which buns are carried home after church with considerable content, and eaten hot at tea, being then split and toasted. the children of plumstead would indeed open their eyes if they heard their venerated pastor declare that there was no sunday-school in his parish. mr. slope merely opened his wide eyes wider and slightly shrugged his shoulders. he was not, however, prepared to give up his darling project. "i fear there is a great deal of sabbath travelling here," said he. "on looking at the 'bradshaw,' i see that there are three trains in and three out every sabbath. could nothing be done to induce the company to withdraw them? don't you think, dr. grantly, that a little energy might diminish the evil?" "not being a director, i really can't say. but if you can withdraw the passengers, the company i dare say will withdraw the trains," said the doctor. "it's merely a question of dividends." "but surely, dr. grantly," said the lady; "surely we should look at it differently. you and i, for instance, in our position: surely we should do all that we can to control so grievous a sin. don't you think so, mr. harding?" and she turned to the precentor, who was sitting mute and unhappy. mr. harding thought that all porters and stokers, guards, brakesmen, and pointsmen ought to have an opportunity of going to church, and he hoped that they all had. "but surely, surely," continued mrs. proudie, "surely that is not enough. surely that will not secure such an observance of the sabbath as we are taught to conceive is not only expedient but indispensable; surely--" come what come might, dr. grantly was not to be forced into a dissertation on a point of doctrine with mrs. proudie, nor yet with mr. slope, so without much ceremony he turned his back upon the sofa and began to hope that dr. proudie had found that the palace repairs had been such as to meet his wishes. "yes, yes," said his lordship; upon the whole he thought so--upon the whole, he didn't know that there was much ground for complaint; the architect, perhaps, might have--but his double, mr. slope, who had sidled over to the bishop's chair, would not allow his lordship to finish his ambiguous speech. "there is one point i would like to mention, mr. archdeacon. his lordship asked me to step through the premises, and i see that the stalls in the second stable are not perfect." "why--there's standing there for a dozen horses," said the archdeacon. "perhaps so," said the other; "indeed, i've no doubt of it; but visitors, you know, often require so much accommodation. there are so many of the bishop's relatives who always bring their own horses." dr. grantly promised that due provision for the relatives' horses should be made, as far at least as the extent of the original stable building would allow. he would himself communicate with the architect. "and the coach-house, dr. grantly," continued mr. slope; "there is really hardly room for a second carriage in the large coach-house, and the smaller one, of course, holds only one." "and the gas," chimed in the lady; "there is no gas through the house, none whatever, but in the kitchen and passages. surely the palace should have been fitted through with pipes for gas, and hot water too. there is no hot water laid on anywhere above the ground-floor; surely there should be the means of getting hot water in the bedrooms without having it brought in jugs from the kitchen." the bishop had a decided opinion that there should be pipes for hot water. hot water was very essential for the comfort of the palace. it was, indeed, a requisite in any decent gentleman's house. mr. slope had remarked that the coping on the garden wall was in many places imperfect. mrs. proudie had discovered a large hole, evidently the work of rats, in the servants' hall. the bishop expressed an utter detestation of rats. there was nothing, he believed, in this world that he so much hated as a rat. mr. slope had, moreover, observed that the locks of the outhouses were very imperfect: he might specify the coal-cellar and the woodhouse. mrs. proudie had also seen that those on the doors of the servants' bedrooms were in an-equally bad condition; indeed, the locks all through the house were old-fashioned and unserviceable. the bishop thought that a great deal depended on a good lock and quite as much on the key. he had observed that the fault very often lay with the key, especially if the wards were in any way twisted. mr. slope was going on with his catalogue of grievances, when he was somewhat loudly interrupted by the archdeacon, who succeeded in explaining that the diocesan architect, or rather his foreman, was the person to be addressed on such subjects, and that he, dr. grantly, had inquired as to the comfort of the palace merely as a point of compliment. he was sorry, however, that so many things had been found amiss: and then he rose from his chair to escape. mrs. proudie, though she had contrived to lend her assistance in recapitulating the palatial dilapidations, had not on that account given up her hold of mr. harding, nor ceased from her cross-examinations as to the iniquity of sabbatical amusements. over and over again had she thrown out her "surely, surely," at mr. harding's devoted head, and ill had that gentleman been able to parry the attack. he had never before found himself subjected to such a nuisance. ladies hitherto, when they had consulted him on religious subjects, had listened to what he might choose to say with some deference, and had differed, if they differed, in silence. but mrs. proudie interrogated him and then lectured. "neither thou, nor thy son, nor thy daughter, thy manservant, nor thy maidservant," said she impressively, and more than once, as though mr. harding had forgotten the words. she shook her finger at him as she quoted the favourite law, as though menacing him with punishment, and then called upon him categorically to state whether he did not think that travelling on the sabbath was an abomination and a desecration. mr. harding had never been so hard pressed in his life. he felt that he ought to rebuke the lady for presuming so to talk to a gentleman and a clergyman many years her senior, but he recoiled from the idea of scolding the bishop's wife, in the bishop's presence, on his first visit to the palace; moreover, to tell the truth, he was somewhat afraid of her. she, seeing him sit silent and absorbed, by no means refrained from the attack. "i hope, mr. harding," said she, shaking her head slowly and solemnly, "i hope you will not leave me to think that you approve of sabbath travelling," and she looked a look of unutterable meaning into his eyes. there was no standing this, for mr. slope was now looking at him, and so was the bishop, and so was the archdeacon, who had completed his adieux on that side of the room. mr. harding therefore got up also and, putting out his hand to mrs. proudie, said: "if you will come to st. cuthbert's some sunday, i will preach you a sermon on that subject." and so the archdeacon and the precentor took their departure, bowing low to the lady, shaking hands with the lord, and escaping from mr. slope in the best manner each could. mr. harding was again maltreated, but dr. grantly swore deeply in the bottom of his heart, that no earthly consideration should ever again induce him to touch the paw of that impure and filthy animal. and now, had i the pen of a mighty poet, would i sing in epic verse the noble wrath of the archdeacon. the palace steps descend to a broad gravel sweep, from whence a small gate opens out into the street, very near the covered gateway leading into the close. the road from the palace door turns to the left, through the spacious gardens, and terminates on the london road, half a mile from the cathedral. till they had both passed this small gate and entered the close, neither of them spoke a word, but the precentor clearly saw from his companion's face that a tornado was to be expected, nor was he himself inclined to stop it. though by nature far less irritable than the archdeacon, even he was angry: he even--that mild and courteous man--was inclined to express himself in anything but courteous terms. chapter vi war "good heavens!" exclaimed the archdeacon, as he placed his foot on the gravel walk of the close, and raising his hat with one hand, passed the other somewhat violently over his now grizzled locks; smoke issued forth from the uplifted beaver as it were a cloud of wrath, and the safety valve of his anger opened, and emitted a visible steam, preventing positive explosion and probable apoplexy. "good heavens!"--and the archdeacon looked up to the gray pinnacles of the cathedral tower, making a mute appeal to that still living witness which had looked down on the doings of so many bishops of barchester. "i don't think i shall ever like that mr. slope," said mr. harding. "like him!" roared the archdeacon, standing still for a moment to give more force to his voice; "like him!" all the ravens of the close cawed their assent. the old bells of the tower, in chiming the hour, echoed the words, and the swallows flying out from their nests mutely expressed a similar opinion. like mr. slope! why no, it was not very probable that any barchester-bred living thing should like mr. slope! "nor mrs. proudie either," said mr. harding. the archdeacon hereupon forgot himself. i will not follow his example, nor shock my readers by transcribing the term in which he expressed his feeling as to the lady who had been named. the ravens and the last lingering notes of the clock bells were less scrupulous and repeated in correspondent echoes the very improper exclamation. the archdeacon again raised his hat, and another salutary escape of steam was effected. there was a pause, during which the precentor tried to realize the fact that the wife of a bishop of barchester had been thus designated, in the close of the cathedral, by the lips of its own archdeacon; but he could not do it. "the bishop seems to be a quiet man enough," suggested mr. harding, having acknowledged to himself his own failure. "idiot!" exclaimed the doctor, who for the nonce was not capable of more than such spasmodic attempts at utterance. "well, he did not seem very bright," said mr. harding, "and yet he has always had the reputation of a clever man. i suppose he's cautious and not inclined to express himself very freely." the new bishop of barchester was already so contemptible a creature in dr. grantly's eyes that he could not condescend to discuss his character. he was a puppet to be played by others; a mere wax doll, done up in an apron and a shovel hat, to be stuck on a throne or elsewhere, and pulled about by wires as others chose. dr. grantly did not choose to let himself down low enough to talk about dr. proudie, but he saw that he would have to talk about the other members of his household, the coadjutor bishops, who had brought his lordship down, as it were, in a box, and were about to handle the wires as they willed. this in itself was a terrible vexation to the archdeacon. could he have ignored the chaplain and have fought the bishop, there would have been, at any rate, nothing degrading in such a contest. let the queen make whom she would bishop of barchester; a man, or even an ape, when once a bishop, would be a respectable adversary, if he would but fight, himself. but what was such a person as dr. grantly to do when such another person as mr. slope was put forward as his antagonist? if he, our archdeacon, refused the combat, mr. slope would walk triumphant over the field, and have the diocese of barchester under his heel. if, on the other hand, the archdeacon accepted as his enemy the man whom the new puppet bishop put before him as such, he would have to talk about mr. slope, and write about mr. slope, and in all matters treat with mr. slope, as a being standing, in some degree, on ground similar to his own. he would have to meet mr. slope, to--bah! the idea was sickening. he could not bring himself to have to do with mr. slope. "he is the most thoroughly bestial creature that ever i set my eyes upon," said the archdeacon. "who--the bishop?" asked the other innocently. "bishop! no--i'm not talking about the bishop. how on earth such a creature got ordained!--they'll ordain anybody now, i know, but he's been in the church these ten years, and they used to be a little careful ten years ago." "oh! you mean mr. slope." "did you ever see any animal less like a gentleman?" asked dr. grantly. "i can't say i felt myself much disposed to like him." "like him!" again shouted the doctor, and the assenting ravens again cawed an echo; "of course, you don't like him: it's not a question of liking. but what are we to do with him?" "do with him?" asked mr. harding. "yes--what are we to do with him? how are we to treat him? there he is, and there he'll stay. he has put his foot in that palace, and he'll never take it out again till he's driven. how are we to get rid of him?" "i don't suppose he can do us much harm." "not do harm!--well, i think you'll find yourself of a different opinion before a month is gone. what would you say now, if he got himself put into the hospital? would that be harm?" mr. harding mused awhile and then said he didn't think the new bishop would put mr. slope into the hospital. "if he doesn't put him there, he'll put him somewhere else where he'll be as bad. i tell you that that man, to all intents and purposes, will be bishop of barchester!" and again dr. grantly raised his hat and rubbed his hand thoughtfully and sadly over his head. "impudent scoundrel!" he continued after a while. "to dare to cross-examine me about the sunday-schools in the diocese, and sunday travelling too: i never in my life met his equal for sheer impudence. why, he must have thought we were two candidates for ordination!" "i declare i thought mrs. proudie was the worst of the two," said mr. harding. "when a woman is impertinent, one must only put up with it, and keep out of her way in future, but i am not inclined to put up with mr. slope. 'sabbath travelling!'" and the doctor attempted to imitate the peculiar drawl of the man he so much disliked: "'sabbath travelling!' those are the sort of men who will ruin the church of england and make the profession of a clergyman disreputable. it is not the dissenters or the papists that we should fear, but the set of canting, low-bred hypocrites who are wriggling their way in among us; men who have no fixed principle, no standard ideas of religion or doctrine, but who take up some popular cry, as this fellow has done about 'sabbath travelling.'" dr. grantly did not again repeat the question aloud, but he did so constantly to himself: what were they to do with mr. slope? how was he openly, before the world, to show that he utterly disapproved of and abhorred such a man? hitherto barchester had escaped the taint of any extreme rigour of church doctrine. the clergymen of the city and neighbourhood, though very well inclined to promote high church principles, privileges, and prerogatives, had never committed themselves to tendencies which are somewhat too loosely called puseyite practices. they all preached in their black gowns, as their fathers had done before them; they wore ordinary black cloth waistcoats; they had no candles on their altars, either lighted or unlighted; they made no private genuflexions, and were contented to confine themselves to such ceremonial observances as had been in vogue for the last hundred years. the services were decently and demurely read in their parish churches, chanting was confined to the cathedral, and the science of intoning was unknown. one young man who had come direct from oxford as a curate to plumstead had, after the lapse of two or three sundays, made a faint attempt, much to the bewilderment of the poorer part of the congregation. dr. grantly had not been present on the occasion, but mrs. grantly, who had her own opinion on the subject, immediately after the service expressed a hope that the young gentleman had not been taken ill, and offered to send him all kinds of condiments supposed to be good for a sore throat. after that there had been no more intoning at plumstead episcopi. but now the archdeacon began to meditate on some strong measures of absolute opposition. dr. proudie and his crew were of the lowest possible order of church of england clergymen, and therefore it behoved him, dr. grantly, to be of the very highest. dr. proudie would abolish all forms and ceremonies, and therefore dr. grantly felt the sudden necessity of multiplying them. dr. proudie would consent to deprive the church of all collective authority and rule, and therefore dr. grantly would stand up for the full power of convocation and the renewal of all its ancient privileges. it was true that he could not himself intone the service, but he could procure the co-operation of any number of gentlemanlike curates well trained in the mystery of doing so. he would not willingly alter his own fashion of dress, but he could people barchester with young clergymen dressed in the longest frocks and in the highest-breasted silk waistcoats. he certainly was not prepared to cross himself, or to advocate the real presence, but without going this length there were various observances, by adopting which he could plainly show his antipathy to such men as dr. proudie and mr. slope. all these things passed through his mind as he paced up and down the close with mr. harding. war, war, internecine war was in his heart. he felt that, as regarded himself and mr. slope, one of the two must be annihilated as far as the city of barchester was concerned, and he did not intend to give way until there was not left to him an inch of ground on which he could stand. he still flattered himself that he could make barchester too hot to hold mr. slope, and he had no weakness of spirit to prevent his bringing about such a consummation if it were in his power. "i suppose susan must call at the palace," said mr. harding. "yes, she shall call there, but it shall be once and once only. i dare say 'the horses' won't find it convenient to come out to plumstead very soon, and when that once is done the matter may drop." "i don't suppose eleanor need call. i don't think eleanor would get on at all well with mrs. proudie." "not the least necessity in life," replied the archdeacon, not without the reflexion that a ceremony which was necessary for his wife might not be at all binding on the widow of john bold. "not the slightest reason on earth why she should do so, if she doesn't like it. for myself, i don't think that any decent young woman should be subjected to the nuisance of being in the same room with that man." and so the two clergymen parted, mr. harding going to his daughter's house, and the archdeacon seeking the seclusion of his brougham. the new inhabitants of the palace did not express any higher opinion of their visitors than their visitors had expressed of them. though they did not use quite such strong language as dr. grantly had done, they felt as much personal aversion, and were quite as well aware as he was that there would be a battle to be fought, and that there was hardly room for proudieism in barchester as long as grantlyism was predominant. indeed, it may be doubted whether mr. slope had not already within his breast a better prepared system of strategy, a more accurately defined line of hostile conduct than the archdeacon. dr. grantly was going to fight because he found that he hated the man. mr. slope had predetermined to hate the man because he foresaw the necessity of fighting him. when he had first reviewed the _carte du pays_ previous to his entry into barchester, the idea had occurred to him of conciliating the archdeacon, of cajoling and flattering him into submission, and of obtaining the upper hand by cunning instead of courage. a little inquiry, however, sufficed to convince him that all his cunning would fail to win over such a man as dr. grantly to such a mode of action as that to be adopted by mr. slope, and then he determined to fall back upon his courage. he at once saw that open battle against dr. grantly and all dr. grantly's adherents was a necessity of his position, and he deliberately planned the most expedient methods of giving offence. soon after his arrival the bishop had intimated to the dean that, with the permission of the canon then in residence, his chaplain would preach in the cathedral on the next sunday. the canon in residence happened to be the hon. and rev. dr. vesey stanhope, who at this time was very busy on the shores of the lake of como, adding to that unique collection of butterflies for which he is so famous. or rather, he would have been in residence but for the butterflies and other such summer-day considerations; and the vicar-choral, who was to take his place in the pulpit, by no means objected to having his work done for him by mr. slope. mr. slope accordingly preached, and if a preacher can have satisfaction in being listened to, mr. slope ought to have been gratified. i have reason to think that he was gratified, and that he left the pulpit with the conviction that he had done what he intended to do when he entered it. on this occasion the new bishop took his seat for the first time in the throne alloted to him. new scarlet cushions and drapery had been prepared, with new gilt binding and new fringe. the old carved oak-wood of the throne, ascending with its numerous grotesque pinnacles half-way up to the roof of the choir, had been washed, and dusted, and rubbed, and it all looked very smart. ah! how often sitting there, in happy early days, on those lowly benches in front of the altar, have i whiled away the tedium of a sermon in considering how best i might thread my way up amidst those wooden towers and climb safely to the topmost pinnacle! all barchester went to hear mr. slope; either for that or to gaze at the new bishop. all the best bonnets of the city were there, and moreover all the best glossy clerical hats. not a stall but had its fitting occupant, for though some of the prebendaries might be away in italy or elsewhere, their places were filled by brethren who flocked into barchester on the occasion. the dean was there, a heavy old man, now too old, indeed, to attend frequently in his place, and so was the archdeacon. so also were the chancellor, the treasurer, the precentor, sundry canons and minor canons, and every lay member of the choir, prepared to sing the new bishop in with due melody and harmonious expression of sacred welcome. the service was certainly very well performed. such was always the case at barchester, as the musical education of the choir had been good, and the voices had been carefully selected. the psalms were beautifully chanted; the te deum was magnificently sung; and the litany was given in a manner which is still to be found at barchester, but, if my taste be correct, is to be found nowhere else. the litany in barchester cathedral has long been the special task to which mr. harding's skill and voice have been devoted. crowded audiences generally make good performers, and though mr. harding was not aware of any extraordinary exertion on his part, yet probably he rather exceeded his usual mark. others were doing their best, and it was natural that he should emulate his brethren. so the service went on, and at last mr. slope got into the pulpit. he chose for his text a verse from the precepts addressed by st. paul to timothy, as to the conduct necessary in a spiritual pastor and guide, and it was immediately evident that the good clergy of barchester were to have a lesson. "study to show thyself approved unto god, a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, rightly dividing the word of truth." these were the words of his text, and with such a subject in such a place, it may be supposed that such a preacher would be listened to by such an audience. he was listened to with breathless attention and not without considerable surprise. whatever opinion of mr. slope might have been held in barchester before he commenced his discourse, none of his hearers, when it was over, could mistake him either for a fool or a coward. it would not be becoming were i to travesty a sermon, or even to repeat the language of it in the pages of a novel. in endeavouring to depict the characters of the persons of whom i write, i am to a certain extent forced to speak of sacred things. i trust, however, that i shall not be thought to scoff at the pulpit, though some may imagine that i do not feel all the reverence that is due to the cloth. i may question the infallibility of the teachers, but i hope that i shall not therefore be accused of doubt as to the thing to be taught. mr. slope, in commencing his sermon, showed no slight tact in his ambiguous manner of hinting that, humble as he was himself, he stood there as the mouth-piece of the illustrious divine who sat opposite to him; and having premised so much, he gave forth a very accurate definition of the conduct which that prelate would rejoice to see in the clergymen now brought under his jurisdiction. it is only necessary to say that the peculiar points insisted upon were exactly those which were most distasteful to the clergy of the diocese, and most averse to their practice and opinions, and that all those peculiar habits and privileges which have always been dear to high church priests, to that party which is now scandalously called the "high and dry church," were ridiculed, abused, and anathematized. now, the clergymen of the diocese of barchester are all of the high and dry church. having thus, according to his own opinion, explained how a clergyman should show himself approved unto god, as a workman that needeth not to be ashamed, he went on to explain how the word of truth should be divided; and here he took a rather narrow view of the question and fetched his arguments from afar. his object was to express his abomination of all ceremonious modes of utterance, to cry down any religious feeling which might be excited, not by the sense, but by the sound of words, and in fact to insult cathedral practices. had st. paul spoken of rightly pronouncing, instead of rightly dividing the word of truth, this part of his sermon would have been more to the purpose, but the preacher's immediate object was to preach mr. slope's doctrine, and not st. paul's, and he contrived to give the necessary twist to the text with some skill. he could not exactly say, preaching from a cathedral pulpit, that chanting should be abandoned in cathedral services. by such an assertion he would have overshot his mark and rendered himself absurd, to the delight of his hearers. he could, however, and did, allude with heavy denunciations to the practice of intoning in parish churches, although the practice was all but unknown in the diocese; and from thence he came round to the undue preponderance which, he asserted, music had over meaning in the beautiful service which they had just heard. he was aware, he said, that the practices of our ancestors could not be abandoned at a moment's notice; the feelings of the aged would be outraged, and the minds of respectable men would be shocked. there were many, he was aware, of not sufficient calibre of thought to perceive, of not sufficient education to know, that a mode of service which was effective when outward ceremonies were of more moment than inward feelings, had become all but barbarous at a time when inward conviction was everything, when each word of the minister's lips should fall intelligibly into the listener's heart. formerly the religion of the multitude had been an affair of the imagination: now, in these latter days, it had become necessary that a christian should have a reason for his faith--should not only believe, but digest--not only hear, but understand. the words of our morning service, how beautiful, how apposite, how intelligible they were, when read with simple and distinct decorum! but how much of the meaning of the words was lost when they were produced with all the meretricious charms of melody! &c. &c. here was a sermon to be preached before mr. archdeacon grantly, mr. precentor harding, and the rest of them! before a whole dean and chapter assembled in their own cathedral! before men who had grown old in the exercise of their peculiar services, with a full conviction of their excellence for all intended purposes! this too from such a man, a clerical _parvenu_, a man without a cure, a mere chaplain, an intruder among them; a fellow raked up, so said dr. grantly, from the gutters of marylebone! they had to sit through it! none of them, not even dr. grantly, could close his ears, nor leave the house of god during the hours of service. they were under an obligation of listening, and that too without any immediate power of reply. there is, perhaps, no greater hardship at present inflicted on mankind in civilized and free countries than the necessity of listening to sermons. no one but a preaching clergyman has, in these realms, the power of compelling an audience to sit silent and be tormented. no one but a preaching clergyman can revel in platitudes, truisms, and untruisms, and yet receive, as his undisputed privilege, the same respectful demeanour as though words of impassioned eloquence, or persuasive logic, fell from his lips. let a professor of law or physics find his place in a lecture-room, and there pour forth jejune words and useless empty phrases, and he will pour them forth to empty benches. let a barrister attempt to talk without talking well, and he will talk but seldom. a judge's charge need be listened to perforce by none but the jury, prisoner, and gaoler. a member of parliament can be coughed down or counted out. town-councillors can be tabooed. but no one can rid himself of the preaching clergyman. he is the bore of the age, the old man whom we sindbads cannot shake off, the nightmare that disturbs our sunday's rest, the incubus that overloads our religion and makes god's service distasteful. we are not forced into church! no: but we desire more than that. we desire not to be forced to stay away. we desire, nay, we are resolute, to enjoy the comfort of public worship, but we desire also that we may do so without an amount of tedium which ordinary human nature cannot endure with patience; that we may be able to leave the house of god without that anxious longing for escape which is the common consequence of common sermons. with what complacency will a young parson deduce false conclusions from misunderstood texts, and then threaten us with all the penalties of hades if we neglect to comply with the injunctions he has given us! yes, my too self-confident juvenile friend, i do believe in those mysteries which are so common in your mouth; i do believe in the unadulterated word which you hold there in your hand; but you must pardon me if, in some things, i doubt your interpretation. the bible is good, the prayer-book is good, nay, you yourself would be acceptable, if you would read to me some portion of those time-honoured discourses which our great divines have elaborated in the full maturity of their powers. but you must excuse me, my insufficient young lecturer, if i yawn over your imperfect sentences, your repeated phrases, your false pathos, your drawlings and denouncings, your humming and hawing, your oh-ing and ah-ing, your black gloves and your white handkerchief. to me, it all means nothing; and hours are too precious to be so wasted--if one could only avoid it. and here i must make a protest against the pretence, so often put forward by the working clergy, that they are overburdened by the multitude of sermons to be preached. we are all too fond of our own voices, and a preacher is encouraged in the vanity of making his heard by the privilege of a compelled audience. his sermon is the pleasant morsel of his life, his delicious moment of self-exaltation. "i have preached nine sermons this week," said a young friend to me the other day, with hand languidly raised to his brow, the picture of an overburdened martyr. "nine this week, seven last week, four the week before. i have preached twenty-three sermons this month. it is really too much." "too much, indeed," said i, shuddering; "too much for the strength of any one." "yes," he answered meekly, "indeed it is; i am beginning to feel it painfully." "would," said i, "you could feel it--would that you could be made to feel it." but he never guessed that my heart was wrung for the poor listeners. there was, at any rate, no tedium felt in listening to mr. slope on the occasion in question. his subject came too home to his audience to be dull, and, to tell the truth, mr. slope had the gift of using words forcibly. he was heard through his thirty minutes of eloquence with mute attention and open ears, but with angry eyes, which glared round from one enraged parson to another, with wide-spread nostrils from which already burst forth fumes of indignation, and with many shufflings of the feet and uneasy motions of the body, which betokened minds disturbed, and hearts not at peace with all the world. at last the bishop, who, of all the congregation, had been most surprised, and whose hair almost stood on end with terror, gave the blessing in a manner not at all equal to that in which he had long been practising it in his own study, and the congregation was free to go their way. chapter vii the dean and chapter take counsel all barchester was in a tumult. dr. grantly could hardly get himself out of the cathedral porch before he exploded in his wrath. the old dean betook himself silently to his deanery, afraid to speak, and there sat, half-stupefied, pondering many things in vain. mr. harding crept forth solitary and unhappy; and, slowly passing beneath the elms of the close, could scarcely bring himself to believe that the words which he had heard had proceeded from the pulpit of barchester cathedral. was he again to be disturbed? was his whole life to be shown up as a useless sham a second time? would he have to abdicate his precentorship, as he had his wardenship, and to give up chanting, as he had given up his twelve old bedesmen? and what if he did! some other jupiter, some other mr. slope, would come and turn him out of st. cuthbert's. surely he could not have been wrong all his life in chanting the litany as he had done! he began, however, to have his doubts. doubting himself was mr. harding's weakness. it is not, however, the usual fault of his order. yes! all barchester was in a tumult. it was not only the clergy who were affected. the laity also had listened to mr. slope's new doctrine, all with surprise, some with indignation, and some with a mixed feeling, in which dislike of the preacher was not so strongly blended. the old bishop and his chaplains, the dean and his canons and minor canons, the old choir, and especially mr. harding who was at the head of it, had all been popular in barchester. they had spent their money and done good; the poor had not been ground down; the clergy in society had neither been overbearing nor austere; and the whole repute of the city was due to its ecclesiastical importance. yet there were those who had heard mr. slope with satisfaction. it is so pleasant to receive a fillip of excitement when suffering from the dull routine of everyday life! the anthems and te deums were in themselves delightful, but they had been heard so often! mr. slope was certainly not delightful, but he was new, and, moreover, clever. they had long thought it slow, so said now many of the barchesterians, to go on as they had done in their old humdrum way, giving ear to none of the religious changes which were moving the world without. people in advance of the age now had new ideas, and it was quite time that barchester should go in advance. mr. slope might be right. sunday had certainly not been strictly kept in barchester, except as regarded the cathedral services. indeed the two hours between services had long been appropriated to morning calls and hot luncheons. then, sunday-schools! really more ought to have been done as to sunday-schools--sabbath-day schools mr. slope had called them. the late bishop had really not thought of sunday-schools as he should have done. (these people probably did not reflect that catechisms and collects are quite as hard work to the young mind as bookkeeping is to the elderly, and that quite as little feeling of worship enters into the one task as the other.) and then, as regarded that great question of musical services, there might be much to be said on mr. slope's side of the question. it certainly was the fact that people went to the cathedral to hear the music, &c. &c and so a party absolutely formed itself in barchester on mr. slope's side of the question! this consisted, among the upper classes, chiefly of ladies. no man--that is, no gentleman--could possibly be attracted by mr. slope, or consent to sit at the feet of so abhorrent a gamaliel. ladies are sometimes less nice in their appreciation of physical disqualification; provided that a man speak to them well, they will listen, though he speak from a mouth never so deformed and hideous. wilkes was most fortunate as a lover, and the damp, sandy-haired, saucer-eyed, red-fisted mr. slope was powerful only over the female breast. there were, however, one or two of the neighbouring clergy who thought it not quite safe to neglect the baskets in which for the nonce were stored the loaves and fishes of the diocese of barchester. they, and they only, came to call on mr. slope after his performance in the cathedral pulpit. among these mr. quiverful, the rector of puddingdale, whose wife still continued to present him from year to year with fresh pledges of her love, and so to increase his cares and, it is to be hoped, his happiness equally. who can wonder that a gentleman with fourteen living children and a bare income of £ a year should look after the loaves and fishes, even when they are under the thumb of a mr. slope? very soon after the sunday on which the sermon was preached, the leading clergy of the neighbourhood held high debate together as to how mr. slope should be put down. in the first place, he should never again preach from the pulpit of barchester cathedral. this was dr. grantly's earliest dictum, and they all agreed, providing only that they had the power to exclude him. dr. grantly declared that the power rested with the dean and chapter, observing that no clergyman out of the chapter had a claim to preach there, saving only the bishop himself. to this the dean assented, but alleged that contests on such a subject would be unseemly; to which rejoined a meagre little doctor, one of the cathedral prebendaries, that the contest must be all on the side of mr. slope if every prebendary were always there ready to take his own place in the pulpit. cunning little meagre doctor, whom it suits well to live in his own cosy house within barchester close, and who is well content to have his little fling at dr. vesey stanhope and other absentees, whose italian villas, or enticing london homes, are more tempting than cathedral stalls and residences! to this answered the burly chancellor, a man rather silent indeed, but very sensible, that absent prebendaries had their vicars, and that in such case the vicar's right to the pulpit was the same as that of the higher order. to which the dean assented, groaning deeply at these truths. thereupon, however, the meagre doctor remarked that they would be in the hands of their minor canons, one of whom might at any hour betray his trust. whereon was heard from the burly chancellor an ejaculation sounding somewhat like "pooh, pooh, pooh!" but it might be that the worthy man was but blowing out the heavy breath from his windpipe. why silence him at all? suggested mr. harding. let them not be ashamed to hear what any man might have to preach to them, unless he preached false doctrine; in which case, let the bishop silence him. so spoke our friend; vainly; for human ends must be attained by human means. but the dean saw a ray of hope out of those purblind old eyes of his. yes, let them tell the bishop how distasteful to them was this mr. slope: a new bishop just come to his seat could not wish to insult his clergy while the gloss was yet fresh on his first apron. then up rose dr. grantly and, having thus collected the scattered wisdom of his associates, spoke forth with words of deep authority. when i say up rose the archdeacon, i speak of the inner man, which then sprang up to more immediate action, for the doctor had bodily been standing all along with his back to the dean's empty fire-grate, and the tails of his frock coat supported over his two arms. his hands were in his breeches pockets. "it is quite clear that this man must not be allowed to preach again in this cathedral. we all see that, except our dear friend here, the milk of whose nature runs so softly that he would not have the heart to refuse the pope the loan of his pulpit, if the pope would come and ask it. we must not, however, allow the man to preach again here. it is not because his opinion on church matters may be different from ours--with that one would not quarrel. it is because he has purposely insulted us. when he went up into that pulpit last sunday, his studied object was to give offence to men who had grown old in reverence of those things of which he dared to speak so slightingly. what! to come here a stranger, a young, unknown, and unfriended stranger, and tell us, in the name of the bishop his master, that we are ignorant of our duties, old-fashioned, and useless! i don't know whether most to admire his courage or his impudence! and one thing i will tell you: that sermon originated solely with the man himself. the bishop was no more a party to it than was the dean here. you all know how grieved i am to see a bishop in this diocese holding the latitudinarian ideas by which dr. proudie has made himself conspicuous. you all know how greatly i should distrust the opinion of such a man. but in this matter i hold him to be blameless. i believe dr. proudie has lived too long among gentlemen to be guilty, or to instigate another to be guilty, of so gross an outrage. no! that man uttered what was untrue when he hinted that he was speaking as the mouthpiece of the bishop. it suited his ambitious views at once to throw down the gauntlet to us--at once to defy us here in the quiet of our own religious duties--here within the walls of our own loved cathedral--here where we have for so many years exercised our ministry without schism and with good repute. such an attack upon us, coming from such a quarter, is abominable." "abominable," groaned the dean. "abominable," muttered the meagre doctor. "abominable," re-echoed the chancellor, uttering the sound from the bottom of his deep chest. "i really think it was," said mr. harding. "most abominable and most unjustifiable," continued the archdeacon. "but, mr. dean, thank god, that pulpit is still our own: your own, i should say. that pulpit belongs solely to the dean and chapter of barchester cathedral, and as yet mr. slope is no part of that chapter. you, mr. dean, have suggested that we should appeal to the bishop to abstain from forcing this man on us; but what if the bishop allow himself to be ruled by his chaplain? in my opinion the matter is in our own hands. mr. slope cannot preach there without permission asked and obtained, and let that permission be invariably refused. let all participation in the ministry of the cathedral service be refused to him. then, if the bishop choose to interfere, we shall know what answer to make to the bishop. my friend here has suggested that this man may again find his way into the pulpit by undertaking the duty of some of your minor canons, but i am sure that we may fully trust to these gentlemen to support us, when it is known that the dean objects to any such transfer." "of course you may," said the chancellor. there was much more discussion among the learned conclave, all of which, of course, ended in obedience to the archdeacon's commands. they had too long been accustomed to his rule to shake it off so soon, and in this particular case they had none of them a wish to abet the man whom he was so anxious to put down. such a meeting as that we have just recorded is not held in such a city as barchester unknown and untold of. not only was the fact of the meeting talked of in every respectable house, including the palace, but the very speeches of the dean, the archdeacon, and chancellor were repeated; not without many additions and imaginary circumstances, according to the tastes and opinions of the relaters. all, however, agreed in saying that mr. slope was to be debarred from opening his mouth in the cathedral of barchester; many believed that the vergers were to be ordered to refuse him even the accommodation of a seat; and some of the most far-going advocates for strong measures declared that his sermon was looked upon as an indictable offence, and that proceedings were to be taken against him for brawling. the party who were inclined to defend him--the enthusiastically religious young ladies and the middle-aged spinsters desirous of a move--of course took up his defence the more warmly on account of this attack. if they could not hear mr. slope in the cathedral, they would hear him elsewhere; they would leave the dull dean, the dull old prebendaries, and the scarcely less dull young minor canons to preach to each other; they would work slippers and cushions and hem bands for mr. slope, make him a happy martyr, and stick him up in some new sion or bethesda, and put the cathedral quite out of fashion. dr. and mrs. proudie at once returned to london. they thought it expedient not to have to encounter any personal application from the dean and chapter respecting the sermon till the violence of the storm had expended itself; but they left mr. slope behind them nothing daunted, and he went about his work zealously, flattering such as would listen to his flattery, whispering religious twaddle into the ears of foolish women, ingratiating himself with the few clergy who would receive him, visiting the houses of the poor, inquiring into all people, prying into everything, and searching with his minutest eye into all palatial dilapidations. he did not, however, make any immediate attempt to preach again in the cathedral. and so all barchester was by the ears. chapter viii the ex-warden rejoices in his probable return to the hospital among the ladies in barchester who have hitherto acknowledged mr. slope as their spiritual director must not be reckoned either the widow bold or her sister-in-law. on the first outbreak of the wrath of the denizens of the close, none had been more animated against the intruder than these two ladies. and this was natural. who could be so proud of the musical distinction of their own cathedral as the favourite daughter of the precentor? who would be so likely to resent an insult offered to the old choir? and in such matters miss bold and her sister-in-law had but one opinion. this wrath, however, has in some degree been mitigated, and i regret to say that these ladies allowed mr. slope to be his own apologist. about a fortnight after the sermon had been preached, they were both of them not a little surprised by hearing mr. slope announced, as the page in buttons opened mrs. bold's drawing-room door. indeed, what living man could, by a mere morning visit, have surprised them more? here was the great enemy of all that was good in barchester coming into their own drawing-room, and they had no strong arm, no ready tongue, near at hand for their protection. the widow snatched her baby out of its cradle into her lap, and mary bold stood up ready to die manfully in that baby's behalf, should, under any circumstances, such a sacrifice become necessary. in this manner was mr. slope received. but when he left, he was allowed by each lady to take her hand and to make his adieux as gentlemen do who have been graciously entertained! yes, he shook hands with them, and was curtseyed out courteously, the buttoned page opening the door as he would have done for the best canon of them all. he had touched the baby's little hand and blessed him with a fervid blessing; he had spoken to the widow of her early sorrows, and eleanor's silent tears had not rebuked him; he had told mary bold that her devotion would be rewarded, and mary bold had heard the praise without disgust. and how had he done all this? how had he so quickly turned aversion into, at any rate, acquaintance? how had he over-come the enmity with which these ladies had been ready to receive him, and made his peace with them so easily? my readers will guess from what i have written that i myself do not like mr. slope, but i am constrained to admit that he is a man of parts. he knows how to say a soft word in the proper place; he knows how to adapt his flattery to the ears of his hearers; he knows the wiles of the serpent, and he uses them. could mr. slope have adapted his manners to men as well as to women, could he ever have learnt the ways of a gentleman, he might have risen to great things. he commenced his acquaintance with eleanor by praising her father. he had, he said, become aware that he had unfortunately offended the feelings of a man of whom he could not speak too highly; he would not now allude to a subject which was probably too serious for drawing-room conversation, but he would say that it had been very far from him to utter a word in disparagement of a man of whom all the world, at least the clerical world, spoke so highly as it did of mr. harding. and so he went on, unsaying a great deal of his sermon, expressing his highest admiration for the precentor's musical talents, eulogizing the father and the daughter and the sister-in-law, speaking in that low silky whisper which he always had specially prepared for feminine ears, and, ultimately, gaining his object. when he left, he expressed a hope that he might again be allowed to call; and though eleanor gave no verbal assent to this, she did not express dissent: and so mr. slope's right to visit at the widow's house was established. the day after this visit eleanor told her father of it and expressed an opinion that mr. slope was not quite so black as he had been painted. mr. harding opened his eyes rather wider than usual when he heard what had occurred, but he said little; he could not agree in any praise of mr. slope, and it was not his practice to say much evil of anyone. he did not, however, like the visit, and simple-minded as he was, he felt sure that mr. slope had some deeper motive than the mere pleasure of making soft speeches to two ladies. mr. harding, however, had come to see his daughter with other purpose than that of speaking either good or evil of mr. slope. he had come to tell her that the place of warden in hiram's hospital was again to be filled up, and that in all probability he would once more return to his old home and his twelve bedesmen. "but," said he, laughing, "i shall be greatly shorn of my ancient glory." "why so, papa?" "this new act of parliament that is to put us all on our feet again," continued he, "settles my income at four hundred and fifty pounds per annum." "four hundred and fifty," said she, "instead of eight hundred! well, that is rather shabby. but still, papa, you'll have the dear old house and the garden?" "my dear," said he, "it's worth twice the money;" and as he spoke he showed a jaunty kind of satisfaction in his tone and manner and in the quick, pleasant way in which he paced eleanor's drawing-room. "it's worth twice the money. i shall have the house and the garden and a larger income than i can possibly want." "at any rate, you'll have no extravagant daughter to provide for;" and as she spoke, the young widow put her arm within his, and made him sit on the sofa beside her; "at any rate, you'll not have that expense." "no, my dear, and i shall be rather lonely without her; but we won't think of that now. as regards income, i shall have plenty for all i want. i shall have my old house, and i don't mind owning now that i have felt sometimes the inconvenience of living in a lodging. lodgings are very nice for young men, but at my time of life there is a want of--i hardly know what to call it, perhaps not respectability--" "oh, papa! i'm sure there's been nothing like that. nobody has thought it; nobody in all barchester has been more respected than you have been since you took those rooms in high street. nobody! not the dean in his deanery, or the archdeacon out at plumstead." "the archdeacon would not be much obliged to you if he heard you," said he, smiling somewhat at the exclusive manner in which his daughter confined her illustration to the church dignitaries of the chapter of barchester; "but at any rate i shall be glad to get back to the old house. since i heard that it was all settled, i have begun to fancy that i can't be comfortable without my two sitting-rooms." "come and stay with me, papa, till it is settled--there's a dear papa." "thank ye, nelly. but no, i won't do that. it would make two movings. i shall be very glad to get back to my old men again. alas! alas! there have six of them gone in these few last years. six out of twelve! and the others i fear have had but a sorry life of it there. poor bunce, poor old bunce!" bunce was one of the surviving recipients of hiram's charity, an old man, now over ninety, who had long been a favourite of mr. harding's. "how happy old bunce will be," said mrs. bold, clapping her soft hands softly. "how happy they all will be to have you back again. you may be sure there will soon be friendship among them again when you are there." "but," said he, half-laughing, "i am to have new troubles, which will be terrible to me. there are to be twelve old women, and a matron. how shall i manage twelve women and a matron!" "the matron will manage the women, of course." "and who'll manage the matron?" said he. "she won't want to be managed. she'll be a great lady herself, i suppose. but, papa, where will the matron live? she is not to live in the warden's house with you, is she?" "well, i hope not, my dear." "oh, papa, i tell you fairly, i won't have a matron for a new stepmother." "you shan't, my dear; that is, if i can help it. but they are going to build another house for the matron and the women, and i believe they haven't even fixed yet on the site of the building." "and have they appointed the matron?" said eleanor. "they haven't appointed the warden yet," replied he. "but there's no doubt about that, i suppose," said his daughter. mr. harding explained that he thought there was no doubt; that the archdeacon had declared as much, saying that the bishop and his chaplain between them had not the power to appoint anyone else, even if they had the will to do so, and sufficient impudence to carry out such a will. the archdeacon was of opinion that, though mr. harding had resigned his wardenship, and had done so unconditionally, he had done so under circumstances which left the bishop no choice as to his reappointment, now that the affair of the hospital had been settled on a new basis by act of parliament. such was the archdeacon's opinion, and his father-in-law received it without a shadow of doubt. dr. grantly had always been strongly opposed to mr. harding's resignation of the place. he had done all in his power to dissuade him from it. he had considered that mr. harding was bound to withstand the popular clamour with which he was attacked for receiving so large an income as eight hundred a year from such a charity, and was not even yet satisfied that his father-in-law's conduct had not been pusillanimous and undignified. he looked also on this reduction of the warden's income as a shabby, paltry scheme on the part of government for escaping from a difficulty into which it had been brought by the public press. dr. grantly observed that the government had no more right to dispose of a sum of four hundred and fifty pounds a year out of the income of hiram's legacy than of nine hundred; whereas, as he said, the bishop, dean, and chapter clearly had a right to settle what sum should be paid. he also declared that the government had no more right to saddle the charity with twelve old women than with twelve hundred; and he was, therefore, very indignant on the matter. he probably forgot when so talking that government had done nothing of the kind, and had never assumed any such might or any such right. he made the common mistake of attributing to the government, which in such matters is powerless, the doings of parliament, which in such matters is omnipotent. but though he felt that the glory and honour of the situation of warden of barchester hospital were indeed curtailed by the new arrangement; that the whole establishment had to a certain degree been made vile by the touch of whig commissioners; that the place, with its lessened income, its old women, and other innovations, was very different from the hospital of former days; still the archdeacon was too practical a man of the world to wish that his father-in-law, who had at present little more than £ per annum for all his wants, should refuse the situation, defiled, undignified, and commission-ridden as it was. mr. harding had, accordingly, made up his mind that he would return to his old home at the hospital, and, to tell the truth, had experienced almost a childish pleasure in the idea of doing so. the diminished income was to him not even the source of momentary regret. the matron and the old women did rather go against the grain, but he was able to console himself with the reflection that, after all, such an arrangement might be of real service to the poor of the city. the thought that he must receive his reappointment as the gift of the new bishop, and probably through the hands of mr. slope, annoyed him a little, but his mind was set at rest by the assurance of the archdeacon that there would be no favour in such a presentation. the reappointment of the old warden would be regarded by all the world as a matter of course. mr. harding, therefore, felt no hesitation in telling his daughter that they might look upon his return to his old quarters as a settled matter. "and you won't have to ask for it, papa?" "certainly not, my dear. there is no ground on which i could ask for any favour from the bishop, whom, indeed, i hardly know. nor would i ask a favour, the granting of which might possibly be made a question to be settled by mr. slope. no," said he, moved for a moment by a spirit very unlike his own, "i certainly shall be very glad to go back to the hospital; but i should never go there if it were necessary that my doing so should be the subject of a request to mr. slope." this little outbreak of her father's anger jarred on the present tone of eleanor's mind. she had not learnt to like mr. slope, but she had learnt to think that he had much respect for her father; and she would, therefore, willingly use her efforts to induce something like good feeling between them. "papa," said she, "i think you somewhat mistake mr. slope's character." "do i?" said he placidly. "i think you do, papa. i think he intended no personal disrespect to you when he preached the sermon which made the archdeacon and the dean so angry!" "i never supposed he did, my dear. i hope i never inquired within myself whether he did or no. such a matter would be unworthy of any inquiry, and very unworthy of the consideration of the chapter. but i fear he intended disrespect to the ministration of god's services, as conducted in conformity with the rules of the church of england." "but might it not be that he thought it his duty to express his dissent from that which you, and the dean, and all of us here so much approve?" "it can hardly be the duty of a young man rudely to assail the religious convictions of his elders in the church. courtesy should have kept him silent, even if neither charity nor modesty could do so." "but mr. slope would say that on such a subject the commands of his heavenly master do not admit of his being silent." "nor of his being courteous, eleanor?" "he did not say that, papa." "believe me, my child, that christian ministers are never called on by god's word to insult the convictions, or even the prejudices of their brethren, and that religion is at any rate not less susceptible of urbane and courteous conduct among men than any other study which men may take up. i am sorry to say that i cannot defend mr. slope's sermon in the cathedral. but come, my dear, put on your bonnet and let us walk round the dear old gardens at the hospital. i have never yet had the heart to go beyond the courtyard since we left the place. now i think i can venture to enter." eleanor rang the bell and gave a variety of imperative charges as to the welfare of the precious baby, whom, all but unwillingly, she was about to leave for an hour or so, and then sauntered forth with her father to revisit the old hospital. it had been forbidden ground to her as well as to him since the day on which they had walked forth together from its walls. chapter ix the stanhope family it is now three months since dr. proudie began his reign, and changes have already been effected in the diocese which show at least the energy of an active mind. among other things absentee clergymen have been favoured with hints much too strong to be overlooked. poor dear old bishop grantly had on this matter been too lenient, and the archdeacon had never been inclined to be severe with those who were absent on reputable pretences, and who provided for their duties in a liberal way. among the greatest of the diocesan sinners in this respect was dr. vesey stanhope. years had now passed since he had done a day's duty, and yet there was no reason against his doing duty except a want of inclination on his own part. he held a prebendal stall in the diocese, one of the best residences in the close, and the two large rectories of crabtree canonicorum and stogpingum. indeed, he had the cure of three parishes, for that of eiderdown was joined to stogpingum. he had resided in italy for twelve years. his first going there had been attributed to a sore throat, and that sore throat, though never repeated in any violent manner, had stood him in such stead that it had enabled him to live in easy idleness ever since. he had now been summoned home--not, indeed, with rough violence, or by any peremptory command, but by a mandate which he found himself unable to disregard. mr. slope had written to him by the bishop's desire. in the first place, the bishop much wanted the valuable co-operation of dr. vesey stanhope in the diocese; in the next, the bishop thought it his imperative duty to become personally acquainted with the most conspicuous of his diocesan clergy; then the bishop thought it essentially necessary for dr. stanhope's own interests that dr. stanhope should, at any rate for a time, return to barchester; and lastly, it was said that so strong a feeling was at the present moment evinced by the hierarchs of the church with reference to the absence of its clerical members, that it behoved dr. vesey stanhope not to allow his name to stand among those which would probably in a few months be submitted to the councils of the nation. there was something so ambiguously frightful in this last threat that dr. stanhope determined to spend two or three summer months at his residence in barchester. his rectories were inhabited by his curates, and he felt himself from disuse to be unfit for parochial duty; but his prebendal home was kept empty for him, and he thought it probable that he might be able now and again to preach a prebendal sermon. he arrived, therefore, with all his family at barchester, and he and they must be introduced to my readers. the great family characteristic of the stanhopes might probably be said to be heartlessness, but this want of feeling was, in most of them, accompanied by so great an amount of good nature as to make itself but little noticeable to the world. they were so prone to oblige their neighbours that their neighbours failed to perceive how indifferent to them was the happiness and well-being of those around them. the stanhopes would visit you in your sickness (provided it were not contagious), would bring you oranges, french novels, and the last new bit of scandal, and then hear of your death or your recovery with an equally indifferent composure. their conduct to each other was the same as to the world; they bore and forbore; and there was sometimes, as will be seen, much necessity for forbearing; but their love among themselves rarely reached above this. it is astonishing how much each of the family was able to do, and how much each did, to prevent the well-being of the other four. for there were five in all; the doctor, namely, and mrs. stanhope, two daughters, and one son. the doctor, perhaps, was the least singular and most estimable of them all, and yet such good qualities as he possessed were all negative. he was a good-looking rather plethoric gentleman of about sixty years of age. his hair was snow-white, very plentiful, and somewhat like wool of the finest description. his whiskers were very large and very white, and gave to his face the appearance of a benevolent, sleepy old lion. his dress was always unexceptionable. although he had lived so many years in italy it was invariably of a decent clerical hue, but it never was hyperclerical. he was a man not given to much talking, but what little he did say was generally well said. his reading seldom went beyond romances and poetry of the lightest and not always most moral description. he was thoroughly a _bon vivant_; an accomplished judge of wine, though he never drank to excess; and a most inexorable critic in all affairs touching the kitchen. he had had much to forgive in his own family, since a family had grown up around him, and had forgiven everything--except inattention to his dinner. his weakness in that respect was now fully understood, and his temper but seldom tried. as dr. stanhope was a clergyman, it may be supposed that his religious convictions made up a considerable part of his character, but this was not so. that he had religious convictions must be believed, but he rarely obtruded them, even on his children. this abstinence on his part was not systematic, but very characteristic of the man. it was not that he had predetermined never to influence their thoughts, but he was so habitually idle that his time for doing so had never come till the opportunity for doing so was gone forever. whatever conviction the father may have had, the children were at any rate but indifferent members of the church from which he drew his income. such was dr. stanhope. the features of mrs. stanhope's character were even less plainly marked than those of her lord. the _far niente_ of her italian life had entered into her very soul, and brought her to regard a state of inactivity as the only earthly good. in manner and appearance she was exceedingly prepossessing. she had been a beauty, and even now, at fifty-five, she was a handsome woman. her dress was always perfect: she never dressed but once in the day, and never appeared till between three and four; but when she did appear, she appeared at her best. whether the toil rested partly with her, or wholly with her handmaid, it is not for such a one as the author even to imagine. the structure of her attire was always elaborate and yet never over-laboured. she was rich in apparel but not bedizened with finery; her ornaments were costly, rare, and such as could not fail to attract notice, but they did not look as though worn with that purpose. she well knew the great architectural secret of decorating her constructions, and never descended to construct a decoration. but when we have said that mrs. stanhope knew how to dress and used her knowledge daily, we have said all. other purpose in life she had none. it was something, indeed, that she did not interfere with the purposes of others. in early life she had undergone great trials with reference to the doctor's dinners, but for the last ten or twelve years her elder daughter charlotte had taken that labour off her hands, and she had had little to trouble her--little, that is, till the edict for this terrible english journey had gone forth: since then, indeed, her life had been laborious enough. for such a one, the toil of being carried from the shores of como to the city of barchester is more than labour enough, let the care of the carriers be ever so vigilant. mrs. stanhope had been obliged to have every one of her dresses taken in from the effects of the journey. charlotte stanhope was at this time about thirty-five years old, and whatever may have been her faults, she had none of those which belong particularly to old young ladies. she neither dressed young, nor talked young, nor indeed looked young. she appeared to be perfectly content with her time of life, and in no way affected the graces of youth. she was a fine young woman, and had she been a man, would have been a very fine young man. all that was done in the house, and that was not done by servants, was done by her. she gave the orders, paid the bills, hired and dismissed the domestics, made the tea, carved the meat, and managed everything in the stanhope household. she, and she alone, could ever induce her father to look into the state of his worldly concerns. she, and she alone, could in any degree control the absurdities of her sister. she, and she alone, prevented the whole family from falling into utter disrepute and beggary. it was by her advice that they now found themselves very unpleasantly situated in barchester. so far, the character of charlotte stanhope is not unprepossessing. but it remains to be said that the influence which she had in her family, though it had been used to a certain extent for their worldly well-being, had not been used to their real benefit, as it might have been. she had aided her father in his indifference to his professional duties, counselling him that his livings were as much his individual property as the estates of his elder brother were the property of that worthy peer. she had for years past stifled every little rising wish for a return to england which the doctor had from time to time expressed. she had encouraged her mother in her idleness, in order that she herself might be mistress and manager of the stanhope household. she had encouraged and fostered the follies of her sister, though she was always willing, and often able, to protect her from their probable result. she had done her best, and had thoroughly succeeded in spoiling her brother, and turning him loose upon the world an idle man without a profession and without a shilling that he could call his own. miss stanhope was a clever woman, able to talk on most subjects, and quite indifferent as to what the subject was. she prided herself on her freedom from english prejudice, and, she might have added, from feminine delicacy. on religion she was a pure free-thinker, and with much want of true affection, delighted to throw out her own views before the troubled mind of her father. to have shaken what remained of his church of england faith would have gratified her much, but the idea of his abandoning his preferment in the church had never once presented itself to her mind. how could he indeed, when he had no income from any other source? but the two most prominent members of the family still remain to be described. the second child had been christened madeline and had been a great beauty. we need not say had been, for she was never more beautiful than at the time of which we write, though her person for many years had been disfigured by an accident. it is unnecessary that we should give in detail the early history of madeline stanhope. she had gone to italy when about seventeen years of age, and had been allowed to make the most of her surpassing beauty in the salons of milan and among the crowded villas along the shores of the lake of como. she had become famous for adventures in which her character was just not lost, and had destroyed the hearts of a dozen cavaliers without once being touched in her own. blood had flowed in quarrels about her charms, and she had heard of these encounters with pleasurable excitement. it had been told of her that on one occasion she had stood by in the disguise of a page and had seen her lover fall. as is so often the case, she had married the very worst of those who sought her hand. why she had chosen paulo neroni, a man of no birth and no property, a mere captain in the pope's guard, one who had come up to milan either simply as an adventurer or else as a spy, a man of harsh temper and oily manners, mean in figure, swarthy in face, and so false in words as to be hourly detected, need not now be told. when the moment for doing so came, she had probably no alternative. he, at any rate, had become her husband, and after a prolonged honeymoon among the lakes, they had gone together to rome, the papal captain having vainly endeavoured to induce his wife to remain behind him. six months afterwards she arrived at her father's house a cripple, and a mother. she had arrived without even notice, with hardly clothes to cover her, and without one of those many ornaments which had graced her bridal trousseau. her baby was in the arms of a poor girl from milan, whom she had taken in exchange for the roman maid who had accompanied her thus far, and who had then, as her mistress said, become homesick and had returned. it was clear that the lady had determined that there should be no witness to tell stories of her life in rome. she had fallen, she said, in ascending a ruin, and had fatally injured the sinews of her knee; so fatally that when she stood, she lost eight inches of her accustomed height; so fatally that when she essayed to move, she could only drag herself painfully along, with protruded hip and extended foot, in a manner less graceful than that of a hunchback. she had consequently made up her mind, once and forever, that she would never stand and never attempt to move herself. stories were not slow to follow her, averring that she had been cruelly ill-used by neroni, and that to his violence had she owed her accident. be that as it may, little had been said about her husband, but that little had made it clearly intelligible to the family that signor neroni was to be seen and heard of no more. there was no question as to readmitting the poor, ill-used beauty to her old family rights, no question as to adopting her infant daughter beneath the stanhope roof-tree. though heartless, the stanhopes were not selfish. the two were taken in, petted, made much of, for a time all but adored, and then felt by the two parents to be great nuisances in the house. but in the house the lady was, and there she remained, having her own way, though that way was not very conformable with the customary usages of an english clergyman. madame neroni, though forced to give up all motion in the world, had no intention whatever of giving up the world itself. the beauty of her face was uninjured, and that beauty was of a peculiar kind. her copious rich brown hair was worn in grecian bandeaux round her head, displaying as much as possible of her forehead and cheeks. her forehead, though rather low, was very beautiful from its perfect contour and pearly whiteness. her eyes were long and large, and marvellously bright; might i venture to say bright as lucifer's, i should perhaps best express the depth of their brilliancy. they were dreadful eyes to look at, such as would absolutely deter any man of quiet mind and easy spirit from attempting a passage of arms with such foes. there was talent in them, and the fire of passion and the play of wit, but there was no love. cruelty was there instead, and courage, a desire of masterhood, cunning, and a wish for mischief. and yet, as eyes, they were very beautiful. the eyelashes were long and perfect, and the long, steady, unabashed gaze with which she would look into the face of her admirer fascinated while it frightened him. she was a basilisk from whom an ardent lover of beauty could make no escape. her nose and mouth and teeth and chin and neck and bust were perfect, much more so at twenty-eight than they had been at eighteen. what wonder that with such charms still glowing in her face, and with such deformity destroying her figure, she should resolve to be seen, but only to be seen reclining on a sofa. her resolve had not been carried out without difficulty. she had still frequented the opera at milan; she had still been seen occasionally in the salons of the noblesse; she had caused herself to be carried in and out from her carriage, and that in such a manner as in no wise to disturb her charms, disarrange her dress, or expose her deformities. her sister always accompanied her and a maid, a manservant also, and on state occasions, two. it was impossible that her purpose could have been achieved with less; and yet, poor as she was, she had achieved her purpose. and then again the more dissolute italian youths of milan frequented the stanhope villa and surrounded her couch, not greatly to her father's satisfaction. sometimes his spirit would rise, a dark spot would show itself on his cheek, and he would rebel, but charlotte would assuage him with some peculiar triumph of her culinary art and all again would be smooth for awhile. madeline affected all manner of rich and quaint devices in the garniture of her room, her person, and her feminine belongings. in nothing was this more apparent than in the visiting card which she had prepared for her use. for such an article one would say that she, in her present state, could have but small need, seeing how improbable it was that she should make a morning call: but not such was her own opinion. her card was surrounded by a deep border of gilding; on this she had imprinted, in three lines la signora madeline vesey neroni. --nata stanhope. and over the name she had a bright gilt coronet, which certainly looked very magnificent. how she had come to concoct such a name for herself it would be difficult to explain. her father had been christened vesey as another man is christened thomas, and she had no more right to assume it than would have the daughter of a mr. josiah jones to call herself mrs. josiah smith, on marrying a man of the latter name. the gold coronet was equally out of place, and perhaps inserted with even less excuse. paulo neroni had had not the faintest title to call himself a scion of even italian nobility. had the pair met in england neroni would probably have been a count, but they had met in italy, and any such pretence on his part would have been simply ridiculous. a coronet, however, was a pretty ornament, and if it could solace a poor cripple to have such on her card, who would begrudge it to her? of her husband, or of his individual family, she never spoke, but with her admirers she would often allude in a mysterious way to her married life and isolated state, and, pointing to her daughter, would call her the last of the blood of the emperors, thus referring neroni's extraction to the old roman family from which the worst of the caesars sprang. the "signora" was not without talent and not without a certain sort of industry; she was an indomitable letter-writer, and her letters were worth the postage: they were full of wit, mischief, satire, love, latitudinarian philosophy, free religion, and, sometimes, alas, loose ribaldry. the subject, however, depended entirely on the recipient, and she was prepared to correspond with anyone but moral young ladies or stiff old women. she wrote also a kind of poetry, generally in italian, and short romances, generally in french. she read much of a desultory sort of literature, and as a modern linguist had really made great proficiency. such was the lady who had now come to wound the hearts of the men of barchester. ethelbert stanhope was in some respects like his younger sister, but he was less inestimable as a man than she as a woman. his great fault was an entire absence of that principle which should have induced him, as the son of a man without fortune, to earn his own bread. many attempts had been made to get him to do so, but these had all been frustrated, not so much by idleness on his part as by a disinclination to exert himself in any way not to his taste. he had been educated at eton and had been intended for the church, but he had left cambridge in disgust after a single term, and notified to his father his intention to study for the bar. preparatory to that, he thought it well that he should attend a german university, and consequently went to leipzig. there he remained two years and brought away a knowledge of german and a taste for the fine arts. he still, however, intended himself for the bar, took chambers, engaged himself to sit at the feet of a learned pundit, and spent a season in london. he there found that all his aptitudes inclined him to the life of an artist, and he determined to live by painting. with this object he returned to milan, and had himself rigged out for rome. as a painter he might have earned his bread, for he wanted only diligence to excel, but when at rome his mind was carried away by other things: he soon wrote home for money, saying that he had been converted to the mother church, that he was already an acolyte of the jesuits, and that he was about to start with others to palestine on a mission for converting jews. he did go to judea, but being unable to convert the jews, was converted by them. he again wrote home, to say that moses was the only giver of perfect laws to the world, that the coming of the true messiah was at hand, that great things were doing in palestine, and that he had met one of the family of sidonia, a most remarkable man, who was now on his way to western europe, and whom he had induced to deviate from his route with the object of calling at the stanhope villa. ethelbert then expressed his hope that his mother and sisters would listen to this wonderful prophet. his father he knew could not do so from pecuniary considerations. this sidonia, however, did not take so strong a fancy to him as another of that family once did to a young english nobleman. at least he provided him with no heaps of gold as large as lions, so that the judaized ethelbert was again obliged to draw on the revenues of the christian church. it is needless to tell how the father swore that he would send no more money and receive no jew, nor how charlotte declared that ethelbert could not be left penniless in jerusalem, and how "la signora neroni" resolved to have sidonia at her feet. the money was sent, and the jew did come. the jew did come, but he was not at all to the taste of "la signora." he was a dirty little old man, and though he had provided no golden lions, he had, it seems, relieved young stanhope's necessities. he positively refused to leave the villa till he had got a bill from the doctor on his london bankers. ethelbert did not long remain a jew. he soon reappeared at the villa without prejudices on the subject of his religion, and with a firm resolve to achieve fame and fortune as a sculptor. he brought with him some models which he had originated at rome and which really gave such fair promise that his father was induced to go to further expense in furthering these views. ethelbert opened an establishment, or rather took lodgings and a workshop, at carrara, and there spoilt much marble and made some few pretty images. since that period, now four years ago, he had alternated between carrara and the villa, but his sojourns at the workshop became shorter and shorter and those at the villa longer and longer. 'twas no wonder, for carrara is not a spot in which an englishman would like to dwell. when the family started for england, he had resolved not to be left behind, and, with the assistance of his elder sister, had carried his point against his father's wishes. it was necessary, he said, that he should come to england for orders. how otherwise was he to bring his profession to account? in personal appearance ethelbert stanhope was the most singular of beings. he was certainly very handsome. he had his sister madeline's eyes, without their stare and without their hard, cunning, cruel firmness. they were also very much lighter, and of so light and clear a blue as to make his face remarkable, if nothing else did so. on entering a room with him, ethelbert's blue eyes would be the first thing you would see, and on leaving it almost the last you would forget. his light hair was very long and silky, coming down over his coat. his beard had been prepared in holy land, and was patriarchal. he never shaved and rarely trimmed it. it was glossy, soft, clean, and altogether not unprepossessing. it was such that ladies might desire to reel it off and work it into their patterns in lieu of floss silk. his complexion was fair and almost pink; he was small in height and slender in limb, but well-made; and his voice was of peculiar sweetness. in manner and dress he was equally remarkable. he had none of the _mauvaise honte_ of an englishman. he required no introduction to make himself agreeable to any person. he habitually addressed strangers, ladies as well as men, without any such formality, and in doing so never seemed to meet with rebuke. his costume cannot be described because it was so various, but it was always totally opposed in every principle of colour and construction to the dress of those with whom he for the time consorted. he was habitually addicted to making love to ladies, and did so without any scruples of conscience, or any idea that such a practice was amiss. he had no heart to touch himself, and was literally unaware that humanity was subject to such an infliction. he had not thought much about it, but, had he been asked, would have said that ill-treating a lady's heart meant injuring her promotion in the world. his principles therefore forbade him to pay attention to a girl if he thought any man was present whom it might suit her to marry. in this manner his good nature frequently interfered with his amusement, but he had no other motive in abstaining from the fullest declarations of love to every girl that pleased his eye. bertie stanhope, as he was generally called, was, however, popular with both sexes--and with italians as well as english. his circle of acquaintance was very large and embraced people of all sorts. he had no respect for rank, and no aversion to those below him. he had lived on familiar terms with english peers, german shopkeepers, and roman priests. all people were nearly alike to him. he was above, or rather below, all prejudices. no virtue could charm him, no vice shock him. he had about him a natural good manner, which seemed to qualify him for the highest circles, and yet he was never out of place in the lowest. he had no principle, no regard for others, no self-respect, no desire to be other than a drone in the hive, if only he could, as a drone, get what honey was sufficient for him. of honey, in his latter days, it may probably be presaged, that he will have but short allowance. such was the family of the stanhopes, who, at this period, suddenly joined themselves to the ecclesiastical circle of barchester close. any stranger union it would be impossible perhaps to conceive. and it was not as though they all fell down into the cathedral precincts hitherto unknown and untalked of. in such case, no amalgamation would have been at all probable between the new-comers and either the proudie set or the grantly set. but such was far from being the case. the stanhopes were all known by name in barchester, and barchester was prepared to receive them with open arms. the doctor was one of her prebendaries, one of her rectors, one of her pillars of strength; and was, moreover, counted on as a sure ally both by proudies and grantlys. he himself was the brother of one peer, and his wife was the sister of another--and both these peers were lords of whiggish tendency, with whom the new bishop had some sort of alliance. this was sufficient to give to mr. slope high hope that he might enlist dr. stanhope on his side, before his enemies could outmanoeuvre him. on the other hand, the old dean had many many years ago, in the days of the doctor's clerical energies, been instrumental in assisting him in his views as to preferment; and many many years ago also, the two doctors, stanhope and grantly, had, as young parsons, been joyous together in the common-rooms of oxford. dr. grantly, consequently, did not doubt but that the newcomer would range himself under his banners. little did any of them dream of what ingredients the stanhope family was now composed. chapter x mrs. proudie's reception--commenced the bishop and his wife had spent only three or four days in barchester on the occasion of their first visit. his lordship had, as we have seen, taken his seat on his throne, but his demeanour there, into which it had been his intention to infuse much hierarchal dignity, had been a good deal disarranged by the audacity of his chaplain's sermon. he had hardly dared to look his clergy in the face, and to declare by the severity of his countenance that in truth he meant all that his factotum was saying on his behalf; nor yet did he dare to throw mr. slope over, and show to those around him that he was no party to the sermon, and would resent it. he had accordingly blessed his people in a shambling manner, not at all to his own satisfaction, and had walked back to his palace with his mind very doubtful as to what he would say to his chaplain on the subject. he did not remain long in doubt. he had hardly doffed his lawn when the partner of all his toils entered his study and exclaimed even before she had seated herself: "bishop, did you ever hear a more sublime, more spirit-moving, more appropriate discourse than that?" "well, my love; ha--hum--he!" the bishop did not know what to say. "i hope, my lord, you don't mean to say you disapprove?" there was a look about the lady's eye which did not admit of my lord's disapproving at that moment. he felt that if he intended to disapprove, it must be now or never; but he also felt that it could not be now. it was not in him to say to the wife of his bosom that mr. slope's sermon was ill-timed, impertinent, and vexatious. "no, no," replied the bishop. "no, i can't say i disapprove--a very clever sermon and very well intended, and i dare say will do a great deal of good." this last praise was added, seeing that what he had already said by no means satisfied mrs. proudie. "i hope it will," said she. "and i am sure it was well deserved. did you ever in your life, bishop, hear anything so like play-acting as the way in which mr. harding sings the litany? i shall beg mr. slope to continue a course of sermons on the subject till all that is altered. we will have at any rate, in our cathedral, a decent, godly, modest morning service. there must be no more play-acting here now;" and so the lady rang for lunch. the bishop knew more about cathedrals and deans and precentors and church services than his wife did, and also more of a bishop's powers. but he thought it better at present to let the subject drop. "my dear," said he, "i think we must go back to london on tuesday. i find my staying here will be very inconvenient to the government." the bishop knew that to this proposal his wife would not object, and he also felt that by thus retreating from the ground of battle the heat of the fight might be got over in his absence. "mr. slope will remain here, of course?" said the lady. "oh, of course," said the bishop. thus, after less than a week's sojourn in his palace, did the bishop fly from barchester; nor did he return to it for two months, the london season being then over. during that time mr. slope was not idle, but he did not again essay to preach in the cathedral. in answer to mrs. proudie's letters advising a course of sermons, he had pleaded that he would at any rate wish to put off such an undertaking till she was there to hear them. he had employed his time in consolidating a proudie and slope party--or rather a slope and proudie party, and he had not employed his time in vain. he did not meddle with the dean and chapter, except by giving them little teasing intimations of the bishop's wishes about this and the bishop's feelings about that, in a manner which was to them sufficiently annoying, but which they could not resent. he preached once or twice in a distant church in the suburbs of the city, but made no allusion to the cathedral service. he commenced the establishment of two "bishop's barchester sabbath-day schools," gave notice of a proposed "bishop's barchester young men's sabbath evening lecture room," and wrote three or four letters to the manager of the barchester branch railway, informing him how anxious the bishop was that the sunday trains should be discontinued. at the end of two months, however, the bishop and the lady reappeared, and as a happy harbinger of their return, heralded their advent by the promise of an evening party on the largest scale. the tickets of invitation were sent out from london--they were dated from bruton street, and were dispatched by the odious sabbath-breaking railway, in a huge brown paper parcel to mr. slope. everybody calling himself a gentleman, or herself a lady, within the city of barchester, and a circle of two miles round it, was included. tickets were sent to all the diocesan clergy, and also to many other persons of priestly note, of whose absence the bishop, or at least the bishop's wife, felt tolerably confident. it was intended, however, to be a thronged and noticeable affair, and preparations were made for receiving some hundreds. and now there arose considerable agitation among the grantlyites whether or no they would attend the episcopal bidding. the first feeling with them all was to send the briefest excuses both for themselves and their wives and daughters. but by degrees policy prevailed over passion. the archdeacon perceived that he would be making a false step if he allowed the cathedral clergy to give the bishop just ground of umbrage. they all met in conclave and agreed to go. they would show that they were willing to respect the office, much as they might dislike the man. they agreed to go. the old dean would crawl in, if it were but for half an hour. the chancellor, treasurer, archdeacon, prebendaries, and minor canons would all go, and would all take their wives. mr. harding was especially bidden to do so, resolving in his heart to keep himself far removed from mrs. proudie. and mrs. bold was determined to go, though assured by her father that there was no necessity for such a sacrifice on her part. when all barchester was to be there, neither eleanor nor mary bold understood why they should stay away. had they not been invited separately? and had not a separate little note from the chaplain, couched in the most respectful language, been enclosed with the huge episcopal card? and the stanhopes would be there, one and all. even the lethargic mother would so far bestir herself on such an occasion. they had only just arrived. the card was at the residence waiting for them. no one in barchester had seen them. what better opportunity could they have of showing themselves to the barchester world? some few old friends, such as the archdeacon and his wife, had called and had found the doctor and his eldest daughter, but the _élite_ of the family were not yet known. the doctor indeed wished in his heart to prevent the signora from accepting the bishop's invitation, but she herself had fully determined that she would accept it. if her father was ashamed of having his daughter carried into a bishop's palace, she had no such feeling. "indeed, i shall," she had said to her sister who had gently endeavoured to dissuade her, by saying that the company would consist wholly of parsons and parsons' wives. "parsons, i suppose, are much the same as other men, if you strip them of their black coats; and as to their wives, i dare say they won't trouble me. you may tell papa i don't at all mean to be left at home." papa was told, and felt that he could do nothing but yield. he also felt that it was useless for him now to be ashamed of his children. such as they were, they had become such under his auspices; as he had made his bed, so he must lie upon it; as he had sown his seed, so must he reap his corn. he did not indeed utter such reflexions in such language, but such was the gist of his thought. it was not because madeline was a cripple that he shrank from seeing her made one of the bishop's guests, but because he knew that she would practise her accustomed lures, and behave herself in a way that could not fail of being distasteful to the propriety of englishwomen. these things had annoyed but not shocked him in italy. there they had shocked no one; but here in barchester, here among his fellow parsons, he was ashamed that they should be seen. such had been his feelings, but he repressed them. what if his brother clergymen were shocked! they could not take from him his preferment because the manners of his married daughter were too free. la signora neroni had, at any rate, no fear that she would shock anybody. her ambition was to create a sensation, to have parsons at her feet, seeing that the manhood of barchester consisted mainly of parsons, and to send, if possible, every parson's wife home with a green fit of jealousy. none could be too old for her, and hardly any too young. none too sanctified, and none too worldly. she was quite prepared to entrap the bishop himself, and then to turn up her nose at the bishop's wife. she did not doubt of success, for she had always succeeded; but one thing was absolutely necessary; she must secure the entire use of a sofa. the card sent to dr. and mrs. stanhope and family had been so sent in an envelope having on the cover mr. slope's name. the signora soon learnt that mrs. proudie was not yet at the palace and that the chaplain was managing everything. it was much more in her line to apply to him than to the lady, and she accordingly wrote him the prettiest little billet in the world. in five lines she explained everything, declared how impossible it was for her not to be desirous to make the acquaintance of such persons as the bishop of barchester and his wife, and she might add also of mr. slope, depicted her own grievous state, and concluded by being assured that mrs. proudie would forgive her extreme hardihood in petitioning to be allowed to be carried to a sofa. she then enclosed one of her beautiful cards. in return she received as polite an answer from mr. slope--a sofa should be kept in the large drawing-room, immediately at the top of the grand stairs, especially for her use. and now the day of the party had arrived. the bishop and his wife came down from town only on the morning of the eventful day, as behoved such great people to do, but mr. slope had toiled day and night to see that everything should be in right order. there had been much to do. no company had been seen in the palace since heaven knows when. new furniture had been required, new pots and pans, new cups and saucers, new dishes and plates. mrs. proudie had at first declared that she would condescend to nothing so vulgar as eating and drinking, but mr. slope had talked, or rather written her out of economy. bishops should be given to hospitality, and hospitality meant eating and drinking. so the supper was conceded; the guests, however, were to stand as they consumed it. there were four rooms opening into each other on the first floor of the house, which were denominated the drawing-rooms, the reception-room, and mrs. proudie's boudoir. in olden days one of these had been bishop grantly's bedroom, and another his common sitting-room and study. the present bishop, however, had been moved down into a back parlour and had been given to understand that he could very well receive his clergy in the dining-room, should they arrive in too large a flock to be admitted into his small sanctum. he had been unwilling to yield, but after a short debate had yielded. mrs. proudie's heart beat high as she inspected her suite of rooms. they were really very magnificent, or at least would be so by candlelight, and they had nevertheless been got up with commendable economy. large rooms when full of people and full of light look well, because they are large, and are full, and are light. small rooms are those which require costly fittings and rich furniture. mrs. proudie knew this, and made the most of it; she had therefore a huge gas lamp with a dozen burners hanging from each of the ceilings. people were to arrive at ten, supper was to last from twelve till one, and at half-past one everybody was to be gone. carriages were to come in at the gate in the town and depart at the gate outside. they were desired to take up at a quarter before one. it was managed excellently, and mr. slope was invaluable. at half-past nine the bishop and his wife and their three daughters entered the great reception-room, and very grand and very solemn they were. mr. slope was downstairs giving the last orders about the wine. he well understood that curates and country vicars with their belongings did not require so generous an article as the dignitaries of the close. there is a useful gradation in such things, and marsala at s. a dozen did very well for the exterior supplementary tables in the corner. "bishop," said the lady, as his lordship sat himself down, "don't sit on that sofa, if you please; it is to be kept separate for a lady." the bishop jumped up and seated himself on a cane-bottomed chair. "a lady?" he inquired meekly; "do you mean one particular lady, my dear?" "yes, bishop, one particular lady," said his wife, disdaining to explain. "she has got no legs, papa," said the youngest daughter, tittering. "no legs!" said the bishop, opening his eyes. "nonsense, netta, what stuff you talk," said olivia. "she has got legs, but she can't use them. she has always to be kept lying down, and three or four men carry her about everywhere." "laws, how odd!" said augusta. "always carried about by four men! i'm sure i shouldn't like it. am i right behind, mamma? i feel as if i was open;" and she turned her back to her anxious parent. "open! to be sure you are," said she, "and a yard of petticoat strings hanging out. i don't know why i pay such high wages to mrs. richards if she can't take the trouble to see whether or no you are fit to be looked at," and mrs. proudie poked the strings here, and twitched the dress there, and gave her daughter a shove and a shake, and then pronounced it all right. "but," rejoined the bishop, who was dying with curiosity about the mysterious lady and her legs, "who is it that is to have the sofa? what's her name, netta?" a thundering rap at the front door interrupted the conversation. mrs. proudie stood up and shook herself gently, and touched her cap on each side as she looked in the mirror. each of the girls stood on tiptoe and rearranged the bows on their bosoms, and mr. slope rushed upstairs three steps at a time. "but who is it, netta?" whispered the bishop to his youngest daughter. "la signora madeline vesey neroni," whispered back the daughter; "and mind you don't let anyone sit upon the sofa." "la signora madeline vicinironi!" muttered to himself the bewildered prelate. had he been told that the begum of oude was to be there, or queen pomara of the western isles, he could not have been more astonished. la signora madeline vicinironi, who, having no legs to stand on, had bespoken a sofa in his drawing-room! who could she be? he however could now make no further inquiry, as dr. and mrs. stanhope were announced. they had been sent on out of the way a little before the time, in order that the signora might have plenty of time to get herself conveniently packed into the carriage. the bishop was all smiles for the prebendary's wife, and the bishop's wife was all smiles for the prebendary. mr. slope was presented and was delighted to make the acquaintance of one of whom he had heard so much. the doctor bowed very low, and then looked as though he could not return the compliment as regarded mr. slope, of whom, indeed, he had heard nothing. the doctor, in spite of his long absence, knew an english gentleman when he saw him. and then the guests came in shoals: mr. and mrs. quiverful and their three grown daughters. mr. and mrs. chadwick and their three daughters. the burly chancellor and his wife and clerical son from oxford. the meagre little doctor without incumbrance. mr. harding with eleanor and miss bold. the dean leaning on a gaunt spinster, his only child now living with him, a lady very learned in stones, ferns, plants, and vermin, and who had written a book about petals. a wonderful woman in her way was miss trefoil. mr. finnie, the attorney, with his wife, was to be seen, much to the dismay of many who had never met him in a drawing-room before. the five barchester doctors were all there, and old scalpen, the retired apothecary and tooth-drawer, who was first taught to consider himself as belonging to the higher orders by the receipt of the bishop's card. then came the archdeacon and his wife with their elder daughter griselda, a slim, pale, retiring girl of seventeen who kept close to her mother, and looked out on the world with quiet watchful eyes, one who gave promise of much beauty when time should have ripened it. and so the rooms became full, and knots were formed, and every newcomer paid his respects to my lord and passed on, not presuming to occupy too much of the great man's attention. the archdeacon shook hands very heartily with dr. stanhope, and mrs. grantly seated herself by the doctor's wife. and mrs. proudie moved about with well-regulated grace, measuring out the quantity of her favours to the quality of her guests, just as mr. slope had been doing with the wine. but the sofa was still empty, and five-and-twenty ladies and five gentlemen had been courteously warned off it by the mindful chaplain. "why doesn't she come?" said the bishop to himself. his mind was so preoccupied with the signora that he hardly remembered how to behave himself _en bishop_. at last a carriage dashed up to the hall steps with a very different manner of approach from that of any other vehicle that had been there that evening. a perfect commotion took place. the doctor, who heard it as he was standing in the drawing-room, knew that his daughter was coming, and retired into the furthest corner, where he might not see her entrance. mrs. proudie perked herself up, feeling that some important piece of business was in hand. the bishop was instinctively aware that la signora vicinironi was come at last, and mr. slope hurried into the hall to give his assistance. he was, however, nearly knocked down and trampled on by the cortège that he encountered on the hall steps. he got himself picked up, as well as he could, and followed the cortège upstairs. the signora was carried head foremost, her head being the care of her brother and an italian manservant who was accustomed to the work; her feet were in the care of the lady's maid and the lady's italian page; and charlotte stanhope followed to see that all was done with due grace and decorum. in this manner they climbed easily into the drawing-room, and a broad way through the crowd having been opened, the signora rested safely on her couch. she had sent a servant beforehand to learn whether it was a right- or a left-hand sofa, for it required that she should dress accordingly, particularly as regarded her bracelets. and very becoming her dress was. it was white velvet, without any other garniture than rich white lace worked with pearls across her bosom, and the same round the armlets of her dress. across her brow she wore a band of red velvet, on the centre of which shone a magnificent cupid in mosaic, the tints of whose wings were of the most lovely azure, and the colour of his chubby cheeks the clearest pink. on the one arm which her position required her to expose she wore three magnificent bracelets, each of different stones. beneath her on the sofa, and over the cushion and head of it, was spread a crimson silk mantle or shawl, which went under her whole body and concealed her feet. dressed as she was and looking as she did, so beautiful and yet so motionless, with the pure brilliancy of her white dress brought out and strengthened by the colour beneath it, with that lovely head, and those large, bold, bright, staring eyes, it was impossible that either man or woman should do other than look at her. neither man nor woman for some minutes did do other. her bearers too were worthy of note. the three servants were italian, and though perhaps not peculiar in their own country, were very much so in the palace at barchester. the man especially attracted notice and created a doubt in the mind of some whether he were a friend or a domestic. the same doubt was felt as to ethelbert. the man was attired in a loose-fitting, common, black-cloth morning-coat. he had a jaunty, fat, well-pleased, clean face on which no atom of beard appeared, and he wore round his neck a loose, black silk neck-handkerchief. the bishop essayed to make him a bow, but the man, who was well trained, took no notice of him and walked out of the room quite at his ease, followed by the woman and the boy. ethelbert stanhope was dressed in light blue from head to foot. he had on the loosest possible blue coat, cut square like a shooting coat, and very short. it was lined with silk of azure blue. he had on a blue satin waistcoat, a blue neck-handkerchief which was fastened beneath his throat with a coral ring, and very loose blue trousers which almost concealed his feet. his soft, glossy beard was softer and more glossy than ever. the bishop, who had made one mistake, thought that he also was a servant and therefore tried to make way for him to pass. but ethelbert soon corrected the error. chapter xi mrs. proudie's reception--concluded "bishop of barchester, i presume?" said bertie stanhope, putting out his hand frankly; "i am delighted to make your acquaintance. we are in rather close quarters here, a'nt we?" in truth they were. they had been crowded up behind the head of the sofa--the bishop in waiting to receive his guest, and the other in carrying her--and they now had hardly room to move themselves. the bishop gave his hand quickly, made his little studied bow, and was delighted to make--he couldn't go on, for he did not know whether his friend was a signor, or a count or a prince. "my sister really puts you all to great trouble," said bertie. "not at all!" the bishop was delighted to have the opportunity of welcoming la signora vicinironi--so at least he said--and attempted to force his way round to the front of the sofa. he had, at any rate, learnt that his strange guests were brother and sister. the man, he presumed, must be signor vicinironi--or count, or prince, as it might be. it was wonderful what good english he spoke. there was just a twang of foreign accent, and no more. "do you like barchester, on the whole?" asked bertie. the bishop, looking dignified, said that he did like barchester. "you've not been here very long, i believe," said bertie. "no--not long," said the bishop and tried again to make his way between the back of the sofa and a heavy rector, who was staring over it at the grimaces of the signora. "you weren't a bishop before, were you?" dr. proudie explained that this was the first diocese he had held. "ah--i thought so," said bertie, "but you are changed about sometimes, a'nt you?" "translations are occasionally made," said dr. proudie, "but not so frequently as in former days." "they've cut them all down to pretty nearly the same figure, haven't they?" said bertie. to this the bishop could not bring himself to make any answer, but again attempted to move the rector. "but the work, i suppose, is different?" continued bertie. "is there much to do here, at barchester?" this was said exactly in the tone that a young admiralty clerk might use in asking the same question of a brother acolyte at the treasury. "the work of a bishop of the church of england," said dr. proudie with considerable dignity, "is not easy. the responsibility which he has to bear is very great indeed." "is it?" said bertie, opening wide his wonderful blue eyes. "well, i never was afraid of responsibility. i once had thoughts of being a bishop, myself." "had thoughts of being a bishop!" said dr. proudie, much amazed. "that is, a parson--a parson first, you know, and a bishop afterwards. if i had once begun, i'd have stuck to it. but, on the whole, i like the church of rome the best." the bishop could not discuss the point, so he remained silent. "now, there's my father," continued bertie; "he hasn't stuck to it. i fancy he didn't like saying the same thing over so often. by the by, bishop, have you seen my father?" the bishop was more amazed than ever. had he seen his father? "no," he replied; he had not yet had the pleasure: he hoped he might; and, as he said so, he resolved to bear heavy on that fat, immovable rector, if ever he had the power of doing so. "he's in the room somewhere," said bertie, "and he'll turn up soon. by the by, do you know much about the jews?" at last the bishop saw a way out. "i beg your pardon," said he, "but i'm forced to go round the room." "well--i believe i'll follow in your wake," said bertie. "terribly hot--isn't it?" this he addressed to the fat rector with whom he had brought himself into the closest contact. "they've got this sofa into the worst possible part of the room; suppose we move it. take care, madeline." the sofa had certainly been so placed that those who were behind it found great difficulty in getting out; there was but a narrow gangway, which one person could stop. this was a bad arrangement, and one which bertie thought it might be well to improve. "take care, madeline," said he, and turning to the fat rector, added, "just help me with a slight push." the rector's weight was resting on the sofa and unwittingly lent all its impetus to accelerate and increase the motion which bertie intentionally originated. the sofa rushed from its moorings and ran half-way into the middle of the room. mrs. proudie was standing with mr. slope in front of the signora, and had been trying to be condescending and sociable; but she was not in the very best of tempers, for she found that, whenever she spoke to the lady, the lady replied by speaking to mr. slope. mr. slope was a favourite, no doubt, but mrs. proudie had no idea of being less thought of than the chaplain. she was beginning to be stately, stiff, and offended, when unfortunately the castor of the sofa caught itself in her lace train, and carried away there is no saying how much of her garniture. gathers were heard to go, stitches to crack, plaits to fly open, flounces were seen to fall, and breadths to expose themselves; a long ruin of rent lace disfigured the carpet, and still clung to the vile wheel on which the sofa moved. so, when a granite battery is raised, excellent to the eyes of warfaring men, is its strength and symmetry admired. it is the work of years. its neat embrasures, its finished parapets, its casemated stories show all the skill of modern science. but, anon, a small spark is applied to the treacherous fusee--a cloud of dust arises to the heavens--and then nothing is to be seen but dirt and dust and ugly fragments. we know what was the wrath of juno when her beauty was despised. we know to what storms of passion even celestial minds can yield. as juno may have looked at paris on mount ida, so did mrs. proudie look on ethelbert stanhope when he pushed the leg of the sofa into her lace train. "oh, you idiot, bertie!" said the signora, seeing what had been done and what were to be the consequences. "idiot!" re-echoed mrs. proudie, as though the word were not half strong enough to express the required meaning; "i'll let him know--" and then looking round to learn, at a glance, the worst, she saw that at present it behoved her to collect the scattered _débris_ of her dress. bertie, when he saw what he had done, rushed over the sofa and threw himself on one knee before the offended lady. his object, doubtless, was to liberate the torn lace from the castor, but he looked as though he were imploring pardon from a goddess. "unhand it, sir!" said mrs. proudie. from what scrap of dramatic poetry she had extracted the word cannot be said, but it must have rested on her memory, and now seemed opportunely dignified for the occasion. "i'll fly to the looms of the fairies to repair the damage, if you'll only forgive me," said ethelbert, still on his knees. "unhand it, sir!" said mrs. proudie with redoubled emphasis, and all but furious wrath. this allusion to the fairies was a direct mockery and intended to turn her into ridicule. so at least it seemed to her. "unhand it, sir!" she almost screamed. "it's not me; it's the cursed sofa," said bertie, looking imploringly in her face and holding up both his hands to show that he was not touching her belongings, but still remaining on his knees. hereupon the signora laughed; not loud, indeed, but yet audibly. and as the tigress bereft of her young will turn with equal anger on any within reach, so did mrs. proudie turn upon her female guest. "madam!" she said--and it is beyond the power of prose to tell of the fire which flashed from her eyes. the signora stared her full in the face for a moment, and then turning to her brother said playfully, "bertie, you idiot, get up." by this time the bishop, and mr. slope, and her three daughters were around her, and had collected together the wide ruins of her magnificence. the girls fell into circular rank behind their mother, and thus following her and carrying out the fragments, they left the reception-rooms in a manner not altogether devoid of dignity. mrs. proudie had to retire and re-array herself. as soon as the constellation had swept by, ethelbert rose from his knees and, turning with mock anger to the fat rector, said: "after all it was your doing, sir--not mine. but perhaps you are waiting for preferment, and so i bore it." whereupon there was a laugh against the fat rector, in which both the bishop and the chaplain joined, and thus things got themselves again into order. "oh! my lord, i am so sorry for this accident," said the signora, putting out her hand so as to force the bishop to take it. "my brother is so thoughtless. pray sit down, and let me have the pleasure of making your acquaintance. though i am so poor a creature as to want a sofa, i am not so selfish as to require it all." madeline could always dispose herself so as to make room for a gentleman, though, as she declared, the crinoline of her lady friends was much too bulky to be so accommodated. "it was solely for the pleasure of meeting you that i have had myself dragged here," she continued. "of course, with your occupation, one cannot even hope that you should have time to come to us, that is, in the way of calling. and at your english dinner-parties all is so dull and so stately. do you know, my lord, that in coming to england my only consolation has been the thought that i should know you;" and she looked at him with the look of a she-devil. the bishop, however, thought that she looked very like an angel and, accepting the proffered seat, sat down beside her. he uttered some platitude as to his deep obligation for the trouble she had taken, and wondered more and more who she was. "of course you know my sad story?" she continued. the bishop didn't know a word of it. he knew, however, or thought he knew, that she couldn't walk into a room like other people, and so made the most of that. he put on a look of ineffable distress and said that he was aware how god had afflicted her. the signora just touched the corner of her eyes with the most lovely of pocket-handkerchiefs. yes, she said--she had been sorely tried--tried, she thought, beyond the common endurance of humanity; but while her child was left to her, everything was left. "oh! my lord," she exclaimed, "you must see that infant--the last bud of a wondrous tree: you must let a mother hope that you will lay your holy hands on her innocent head and consecrate her for female virtues. may i hope it?" said she, looking into the bishop's eye and touching the bishop's arm with her hand. the bishop was but a man and said she might. after all, what was it but a request that he would confirm her daughter?--a request, indeed, very unnecessary to make, as he should do so as a matter of course if the young lady came forward in the usual way. "the blood of tiberius," said the signora in all but a whisper; "the blood of tiberius flows in her veins. she is the last of the neros!" the bishop had heard of the last of the visigoths, and had floating in his brain some indistinct idea of the last of the mohicans, but to have the last of the neros thus brought before him for a blessing was very staggering. still he liked the lady: she had a proper way of thinking and talked with more propriety than her brother. but who were they? it was now quite clear that that blue madman with the silky beard was not a prince vicinironi. the lady was married and was of course one of the vicinironi's by right of the husband. so the bishop went on learning. "when will you see her? said the signora with a start. "see whom?" said the bishop. "my child," said the mother. "what is the young lady's age?" asked the bishop. "she is just seven," said the signora. "oh," said the bishop, shaking his head; "she is much too young--very much too young." "but in sunny italy, you know, we do not count by years," and the signora gave the bishop one of her very sweetest smiles. "but indeed, she is a great deal too young," persisted the bishop; "we never confirm before--" "but you might speak to her; you might let her hear from your consecrated lips that she is not a castaway because she is a roman; that she may be a nero and yet a christian; that she may owe her black locks and dark cheeks to the blood of the pagan caesars, and yet herself be a child of grace; you will tell her this, won't you, my friend?" the friend said he would, and asked if the child could say her catechism. "no," said the signora, "i would not allow her to learn lessons such as those in a land ridden over by priests and polluted by the idolatry of rome. it is here, here in barchester, that she must first be taught to lisp those holy words. oh, that you could be her instructor!" now, dr. proudie certainly liked the lady, but, seeing that he was a bishop, it was not probable that he was going to instruct a little girl in the first rudiments of her catechism; so he said he'd send a teacher. "but you'll see her yourself, my lord?" the bishop said he would, but where should he call. "at papa's house," said the signora with an air of some little surprise at the question. the bishop actually wanted the courage to ask her who was her papa, so he was forced at last to leave her without fathoming the mystery. mrs. proudie, in her second best, had now returned to the rooms, and her husband thought it as well that he should not remain in too close conversation with the lady whom his wife appeared to hold in such slight esteem. presently he came across his youngest daughter. "netta," said he, "do you know who is the father of that signora vicinironi?" "it isn't vicinironi, papa," said netta; "but vesey neroni, and she's doctor stanhope's daughter. but i must go and do the civil to griselda grantly; i declare nobody has spoken a word to the poor girl this evening." dr. stanhope! dr. vesey stanhope! dr. vesey stanhope's daughter, of whose marriage with a dissolute italian scamp he now remembered to have heard something! and that impertinent blue cub who had examined him as to his episcopal bearings was old stanhope's son, and the lady who had entreated him to come and teach her child the catechism was old stanhope's daughter! the daughter of one of his own prebendaries! as these things flashed across his mind, he was nearly as angry as his wife had been. nevertheless, he could not but own that the mother of the last of the neros was an agreeable woman. dr. proudie tripped out into the adjoining room, in which were congregated a crowd of grantlyite clergymen, among whom the archdeacon was standing pre-eminent, while the old dean was sitting nearly buried in a huge arm chair by the fire-place. the bishop was very anxious to be gracious, and, if possible, to diminish the bitterness which his chaplain had occasioned. let mr. slope do the _fortiter in re_, he himself would pour in the _suaviter in modo_. "pray don't stir, mr. dean, pray don't stir," he said as the old man essayed to get up; "i take it as a great kindness, your coming to such an _omnium gatherum_ as this. but we have hardly got settled yet, and mrs. proudie has not been able to see her friends as she would wish to do. well, mr. archdeacon, after all, we have not been so hard upon you at oxford." "no," said the archdeacon, "you've only drawn our teeth and cut out our tongues; you've allowed us still to breathe and swallow." "ha, ha, ha!" laughed the bishop; "it's not quite so easy to cut out the tongue of an oxford magnate--and as for teeth--ha, ha, ha! why, in the way we've left the matter, it's very odd if the heads of colleges don't have their own way quite as fully as when the hebdomadal board was in all its glory; what do you say, mr. dean?" "an old man, my lord, never likes changes," said the dean. "you must have been sad bunglers if it is so," said the archdeacon; "and indeed, to tell the truth, i think you have bungled it. at any rate, you must own this; you have not done the half what you boasted you would do." "now, as regards your system of professors--" began the chancellor slowly. he was never destined to get beyond such beginning. "talking of professors," said a soft clear voice, close behind the chancellor's elbow; "how much you englishmen might learn from germany; only you are all too proud." the bishop, looking round, perceived that that abominable young stanhope had pursued him. the dean stared at him as though he were some unearthly apparition; so also did two or three prebendaries and minor canons. the archdeacon laughed. "the german professors are men of learning," said mr. harding, "but--" "german professors!" groaned out the chancellor, as though his nervous system had received a shock which nothing but a week of oxford air could cure. "yes," continued ethelbert, not at all understanding why a german professor should be contemptible in the eyes of an oxford don. "not but what the name is best earned at oxford. in germany the professors do teach; at oxford, i believe, they only profess to do so, and sometimes not even that. you'll have those universities of yours about your ears soon, if you don't consent to take a lesson from germany." there was no answering this. dignified clergymen of sixty years of age could not condescend to discuss such a matter with a young man with such clothes and such a beard. "have you got good water out at plumstead, mr. archdeacon?" said the bishop by way of changing the conversation. "pretty good," said dr. grantly. "but by no means so good as his wine, my lord," said a witty minor canon. "nor so generally used," said another; "that is, for inward application." "ha, ha, ha!" laughed the bishop, "a good cellar of wine is a very comfortable thing in a house." "your german professors, sir, prefer beer, i believe," said the sarcastic little meagre prebendary. "they don't think much of either," said ethelbert, "and that perhaps accounts for their superiority. now the jewish professor--" the insult was becoming too deep for the spirit of oxford to endure, so the archdeacon walked off one way and the chancellor another, followed by their disciples, and the bishop and the young reformer were left together on the hearth-rug. "i was a jew once myself," began bertie. the bishop was determined not to stand another examination, or be led on any terms into palestine, so he again remembered that he had to do something very particular, and left young stanhope with the dean. the dean did not get the worst of it for ethelbert gave him a true account of his remarkable doings in the holy land. "oh, mr. harding," said the bishop, overtaking the _ci-devant_ warden; "i wanted to say one word about the hospital. you know, of course, that it is to be filled up." mr. harding's heart beat a little, and he said that he had heard so. "of course," continued the bishop; "there can be only one man whom i could wish to see in that situation. i don't know what your own views may be, mr. harding--" "they are very simply told, my lord," said the other; "to take the place if it be offered me, and to put up with the want of it should another man get it." the bishop professed himself delighted to hear it; mr. harding might be quite sure that no other man would get it. there were some few circumstances which would in a slight degree change the nature of the duties. mr. harding was probably aware of this, and would, perhaps, not object to discuss the matter with mr. slope. it was a subject to which mr. slope had given a good deal of attention. mr. harding felt, he knew not why, oppressed and annoyed. what could mr. slope do to him? he knew that there were to be changes. the nature of them must be communicated to the warden through somebody, and through whom so naturally as the bishop's chaplain? 'twas thus he tried to argue himself back to an easy mind, but in vain. mr. slope in the meantime had taken the seat which the bishop had vacated on the signora's sofa, and remained with that lady till it was time to marshal the folk to supper. not with contented eyes had mrs. proudie seen this. had not this woman laughed at her distress, and had not mr. slope heard it? was she not an intriguing italian woman, half wife and half not, full of affectation, airs, and impudence? was she not horribly bedizened with velvet and pearls, with velvet and pearls, too, which had not been torn off her back? above all, did she not pretend to be more beautiful than her neighbours? to say that mrs. proudie was jealous would give a wrong idea of her feelings. she had not the slightest desire that mr. slope should be in love with herself. but she desired the incense of mr. slope's spiritual and temporal services, and did not choose that they should be turned out of their course to such an object as signora neroni. she considered also that mr. slope ought in duty to hate the signora, and it appeared from his manner that he was very far from hating her. "come, mr. slope," she said, sweeping by and looking all that she felt, "can't you make yourself useful? do pray take mrs. grantly down to supper." mrs. grantly heard and escaped. the words were hardly out of mrs. proudie's mouth before the intended victim had stuck her hand through the arm of one of her husband's curates and saved herself. what would the archdeacon have said had he seen her walking downstairs with mr. slope? mr. slope heard also, but was by no means so obedient as was expected. indeed, the period of mr. slope's obedience to mrs. proudie was drawing to a close. he did not wish yet to break with her, nor to break with her at all, if it could be avoided. but he intended to be master in that palace, and as she had made the same resolution it was not improbable that they might come to blows. before leaving the signora he arranged a little table before her and begged to know what he should bring her. she was quite indifferent, she said--nothing--anything. it was now she felt the misery of her position, now that she must be left alone. well, a little chicken, some ham, and a glass of champagne. mr. slope had to explain, not without blushing for his patron, that there was no champagne. sherry would do just as well. and then mr. slope descended with the learned miss trefoil on his arm. could she tell him, he asked, whether the ferns of barsetshire were equal to those of cumberland? his strongest worldly passion was for ferns--and before she could answer him he left her wedged between the door and the sideboard. it was fifty minutes before she escaped, and even then unfed. "you are not leaving us, mr. slope," said the watchful lady of the house, seeing her slave escaping towards the door, with stores of provisions held high above the heads of the guests. mr. slope explained that the signora neroni was in want of her supper. "pray, mr. slope, let her brother take it to her," said mrs. proudie, quite out loud. "it is out of the question that you should be so employed. pray, mr. slope, oblige me; i am sure mr. stanhope will wait upon his sister." ethelbert was most agreeably occupied in the furthest corner of the room, making himself both useful and agreeable to mrs. proudie's youngest daughter. "i couldn't get out, madam, if madeline were starving for her supper," said he; "i'm physically fixed, unless i could fly." the lady's anger was increased by seeing that her daughter also had gone over to the enemy, and when she saw, that in spite of her remonstrances, in the teeth of her positive orders, mr. slope went off to the drawing-room, the cup of her indignation ran over, and she could not restrain herself. "such manners i never saw," she said, muttering. "i cannot and will not permit it;" and then, after fussing and fuming for a few minutes, she pushed her way through the crowd and followed mr. slope. when she reached the room above, she found it absolutely deserted, except by the guilty pair. the signora was sitting very comfortably up to her supper, and mr. slope was leaning over her and administering to her wants. they had been discussing the merits of sabbath-day schools, and the lady had suggested that as she could not possibly go to the children, she might be indulged in the wish of her heart by having the children brought to her. "and when shall it be, mr. slope?" said she. mr. slope was saved the necessity of committing himself to a promise by the entry of mrs. proudie. she swept close up to the sofa so as to confront the guilty pair, stared full at them for a moment, and then said, as she passed on to the next room, "mr. slope, his lordship is especially desirous of your attendance below; you will greatly oblige me if you will join him." and so she stalked on. mr. slope muttered something in reply, and prepared to go downstairs. as for the bishop's wanting him, he knew his lady patroness well enough to take that assertion at what it was worth; but he did not wish to make himself the hero of a scene, or to become conspicuous for more gallantry than the occasion required. "is she always like this?" said the signora. "yes--always--madam," said mrs. proudie, returning; "always the same--always equally adverse to impropriety of conduct of every description;" and she stalked back through the room again, following mr. slope out of the door. the signora couldn't follow her, or she certainly would have done so. but she laughed loud, and sent the sound of it ringing through the lobby and down the stairs after mrs. proudie's feet. had she been as active as grimaldi, she could probably have taken no better revenge. "mr. slope," said mrs. proudie, catching the delinquent at the door, "i am surprised you should leave my company to attend on such a painted jezebel as that." "but she's lame, mrs. proudie, and cannot move. somebody must have waited upon her." "lame," said mrs. proudie; "i'd lame her if she belonged to me. what business had she here at all?--such impertinence--such affectation." in the hall and adjacent rooms all manner of cloaking and shawling was going on, and the barchester folk were getting themselves gone. mrs. proudie did her best to smirk at each and every one as they made their adieux, but she was hardly successful. her temper had been tried fearfully. by slow degrees the guests went. "send back the carriage quick," said ethelbert, as dr. and mrs. stanhope took their departure. the younger stanhopes were left to the very last, and an uncomfortable party they made with the bishop's family. they all went into the dining-room, and then the bishop observing that "the lady" was alone in the drawing-room, they followed him up. mrs. proudie kept mr. slope and her daughters in close conversation, resolving that he should not be indulged, nor they polluted. the bishop, in mortal dread of bertie and the jews, tried to converse with charlotte stanhope about the climate of italy. bertie and the signora had no resource but in each other. "did you get your supper at last, madeline?" said the impudent or else mischievous young man. "oh, yes," said madeline; "mr. slope was so very kind as to bring it me. i fear, however, he put himself to more inconvenience than i wished." mrs. proudie looked at her but said nothing. the meaning of her look might have been thus translated; "if ever you find yourself within these walls again, i'll give you leave to be as impudent and affected and as mischievous as you please." at last the carriage returned with the three italian servants, and la signora madeline vesey neroni was carried out, as she had been carried in. the lady of the palace retired to her chamber by no means contented with the result of her first grand party at barchester. chapter xii slope versus harding two or three days after the party, mr. harding received a note begging him to call on mr. slope, at the palace, at an early hour on the following morning. there was nothing uncivil in the communication, and yet the tone of it was thoroughly displeasing. it was as follows: my dear mr. harding, will you favour me by calling on me at the palace to-morrow morning at : a.m. the bishop wishes me to speak to you touching the hospital. i hope you will excuse my naming so early an hour. i do so as my time is greatly occupied. if, however, it is positively inconvenient to you, i will change it to . you will, perhaps, be kind enough to let me have a note in reply. believe me to be, my dear mr. harding, your assured friend, obh. slope the palace, monday morning, th august, -- mr. harding neither could nor would believe anything of the sort, and he thought, moreover, that mr. slope was rather impertinent to call himself by such a name. his assured friend, indeed! how many assured friends generally fall to the lot of a man in this world? and by what process are they made? and how much of such process had taken place as yet between mr. harding and mr. slope? mr. harding could not help asking himself these questions as he read and re-read the note before him. he answered it, however, as follows: dear sir, i will call at the palace to-morrow at : a.m. as you desire. truly yours, s. harding high street, barchester, monday and on the following morning, punctually at half-past nine, he knocked at the palace door and asked for mr. slope. the bishop had one small room allotted to him on the ground-floor, and mr. slope had another. into this latter mr. harding was shown and asked to sit down. mr. slope was not yet there. the ex-warden stood up at the window looking into the garden, and could not help thinking how very short a time had passed since the whole of that house had been open to him, as though he had been a child of the family, born and bred in it. he remembered how the old servants used to smile as they opened the door to him; how the familiar butler would say, when he had been absent a few hours longer than usual, "a sight of you, mr. harding, is good for sore eyes;" how the fussy housekeeper would swear that he couldn't have dined, or couldn't have breakfasted, or couldn't have lunched. and then, above all, he remembered the pleasant gleam of inward satisfaction which always spread itself over the old bishop's face whenever his friend entered his room. a tear came into each eye as he reflected that all this was gone. what use would the hospital be to him now? he was alone in the world, and getting old; he would soon, very soon have to go and leave it all, as his dear old friend had gone; go, and leave the hospital, and his accustomed place in the cathedral, and his haunts and pleasures, to younger and perhaps wiser men. that chanting of his! perhaps, in truth, the time for it was gone by. he felt as though the world were sinking from his feet; as though this, this was the time for him to turn with confidence to those hopes which he had preached with confidence to others. "what," said he to himself, "can a man's religion be worth if it does not support him against the natural melancholy of declining years?" and as he looked out through his dimmed eyes into the bright parterres of the bishop's garden, he felt that he had the support which he wanted. nevertheless, he did not like to be thus kept waiting. if mr. slope did not really wish to see him at half-past nine o'clock, why force him to come away from his lodgings with his breakfast in his throat? to tell the truth, it was policy on the part of mr. slope. mr. slope had made up his mind that mr. harding should either accept the hospital with abject submission, or else refuse it altogether, and had calculated that he would probably be more quick to do the latter, if he could be got to enter upon the subject in an ill-humour. perhaps mr. slope was not altogether wrong in his calculation. it was nearly ten when mr. slope hurried into the room and, muttering something about the bishop and diocesan duties, shook mr. harding's hand ruthlessly and begged him to be seated. now the air of superiority which this man assumed did go against the grain with mr. harding, and yet he did not know how to resent it. the whole tendency of his mind and disposition was opposed to any contra-assumption of grandeur on his own part, and he hadn't the worldly spirit or quickness necessary to put down insolent pretensions by downright and open rebuke, as the archdeacon would have done. there was nothing for mr. harding but to submit, and he accordingly did so. "about the hospital, mr. harding?" began mr. slope, speaking of it as the head of a college at cambridge might speak of some sizarship which had to be disposed of. mr. harding crossed one leg over another, and then one hand over the other on the top of them, and looked mr. slope in the face; but he said nothing. "it's to be filled up again," said mr. slope. mr. harding said that he had understood so. "of course, you know, the income will be very much reduced," continued mr. slope. "the bishop wished to be liberal, and he therefore told the government that he thought it ought to be put at not less than £ . i think on the whole the bishop was right, for though the services required will not be of a very onerous nature, they will be more so than they were before. and it is, perhaps, well that the clergy immediately attached to the cathedral town should be made as comfortable as the extent of the ecclesiastical means at our disposal will allow. those are the bishop's ideas, and i must say mine also." mr. harding sat rubbing one hand on the other, but said not a word. "so much for the income, mr. harding. the house will, of course, remain to the warden, as before. it should, however, i think, be stipulated that he should paint inside every seven years, and outside every three years, and be subject to dilapidations, in the event of vacating, either by death or otherwise. but this is a matter on which the bishop must yet be consulted." mr. harding still rubbed his hands and still sat silent, gazing up into mr. slope's unprepossessing face. "then, as to the duties," continued he, "i believe, if i am rightly informed, there can hardly be said to have been any duties hitherto," and he gave a sort of half-laugh, as though to pass off the accusation in the guise of a pleasantry. mr. harding thought of the happy, easy years he had passed in his old home; of the worn-out, aged men whom he had succoured; of his good intentions; and of his work, which had certainly been of the lightest. he thought of these things, doubting for a moment whether he did or did not deserve the sarcasm. he gave his enemy the benefit of the doubt, and did not rebuke him. he merely observed, very tranquilly, and perhaps with too much humility, that the duties of the situation, such as they were, had, he believed, been done to the satisfaction of the late bishop. mr. slope again smiled, and this time the smile was intended to operate against the memory of the late bishop rather than against the energy of the ex-warden; so it was understood by mr. harding. the colour rose to his cheeks, and he began to feel very angry. "you must be aware, mr. harding, that things are a good deal changed in barchester," said mr. slope. mr. harding said that he was aware of it. "and not only in barchester, mr. harding, but in the world at large. it is not only in barchester that a new man is carrying out new measures and casting away the useless rubbish of past centuries. the same thing is going on throughout the country. work is now required from every man who receives wages, and they who have to superintend the doing of work, and the paying of wages, are bound to see that this rule is carried out. new men, mr. harding, are now needed and are now forthcoming in the church, as well as in other professions." all this was wormwood to our old friend. he had never rated very high his own abilities or activity, but all the feelings of his heart were with the old clergy, and any antipathies of which his heart was susceptible were directed against those new, busy, uncharitable, self-lauding men, of whom mr. slope was so good an example. "perhaps," said he, "the bishop will prefer a new man at the hospital?" "by no means," said mr. slope. "the bishop is very anxious that you should accept the appointment, but he wishes you should understand beforehand what will be the required duties. in the first place, a sabbath-day school will be attached to the hospital." "what! for the old men?" asked mr. harding. "no, mr. harding, not for the old men, but for the benefit of the children of such of the poor of barchester as it may suit. the bishop will expect that you shall attend this school, and that the teachers shall be under your inspection and care." mr. harding slipped his topmost hand off the other and began to rub the calf of the leg which was supported. "as to the old men," continued mr. slope, "and the old women who are to form a part of the hospital, the bishop is desirous that you shall have morning and evening service on the premises every sabbath, and one weekday service; that you shall preach to them once at least on sundays; and that the whole hospital be always collected for morning and evening prayer. the bishop thinks that this will render it unnecessary that any separate seats in the cathedral should be reserved for the hospital inmates." mr. slope paused, but mr. harding still said nothing. "indeed, it would be difficult to find seats for the women; on the whole, mr. harding, i may as well say at once, that for people of that class the cathedral service does not appear to me the most useful--even if it be so for any class of people." "we will not discuss that, if you please," said mr. harding. "i am not desirous of doing so; at least, not at the present moment. i hope, however, you fully understand the bishop's wishes about the new establishment of the hospital; and if, as i do not doubt, i shall receive from you an assurance that you accord with his lordship's views, it will give me very great pleasure to be the bearer from his lordship to you of the presentation to the appointment." "but if i disagree with his lordship's views?" asked mr. harding. "but i hope you do not," said mr. slope. "but if i do?" again asked the other. "if such unfortunately should be the case, which i can hardly conceive, i presume your own feelings will dictate to you the propriety of declining the appointment." "but if i accept the appointment and yet disagree with the bishop, what then?" this question rather bothered mr. slope. it was true that he had talked the matter over with the bishop and had received a sort of authority for suggesting to mr. harding the propriety of a sunday school and certain hospital services, but he had no authority for saying that these propositions were to be made peremptory conditions attached to the appointment. the bishop's idea had been that mr. harding would of course consent and that the school would become, like the rest of those new establishments in the city, under the control of his wife and his chaplain. mr. slope's idea had been more correct. he intended that mr. harding should refuse the situation, and that an ally of his own should get it, but he had not conceived the possibility of mr. harding openly accepting the appointment and as openly rejecting the conditions. "it is not, i presume, probable," said he, "that you will accept from the hands of the bishop a piece of preferment with a fixed predetermination to disacknowledge the duties attached to it." "if i become warden," said mr. harding, "and neglect my duty, the bishop has means by which he can remedy the grievance." "i hardly expected such an argument from you, or i may say the suggestion of such a line of conduct," said mr. slope with a great look of injured virtue. "nor did i expect such a proposition." "i shall be glad at any rate to know what answer i am to make to his lordship," said mr. slope. "i will take an early opportunity of seeing his lordship myself," said mr. harding. "such an arrangement," said mr. slope, "will hardly give his lordship satisfaction. indeed, it is impossible that the bishop should himself see every clergyman in the diocese on every subject of patronage that may arise. the bishop, i believe, did see you on the matter, and i really cannot see why he should be troubled to do so again." "do you know, mr. slope, how long i have been officiating as a clergyman in this city?" mr. slope's wish was now nearly fulfilled. mr. harding had become angry, and it was probable that he might commit himself. "i really do not see what that has to do with the question. you cannot think the bishop would be justified in allowing you to regard as a sinecure a situation that requires an active, man merely because you have been employed for many years in the cathedral." "but it might induce the bishop to see me, if i asked him to do so. i shall consult my friends in this matter, mr. slope; but i mean to be guilty of no subterfuge--you may tell the bishop that as i altogether disagree with his views about the hospital, i shall decline the situation if i find that any such conditions are attached to it as those you have suggested;" and so saying, mr. harding took his hat and went his way. mr. slope was contented. he considered himself at liberty to accept mr. harding's last speech as an absolute refusal of the appointment. at least, he so represented it to the bishop and to mrs. proudie. "that is very surprising," said the bishop. "not at all," said mrs. proudie; "you little know how determined the whole set of them are to withstand your authority." "but mr. harding was so anxious for it," said the bishop. "yes," said mr. slope, "if he can hold it without the slightest acknowledgement of your lordship's jurisdiction." "that is out of the question," said the bishop. "i should imagine it to be quite so," said the chaplain. "indeed, i should think so," said the lady. "i really am sorry for it," said the bishop. "i don't know that there is much cause for sorrow," said the lady. "mr. quiverful is a much more deserving man, more in need of it, and one who will make himself much more useful in the close neighbourhood of the palace." "i suppose i had better see quiverful?" said the chaplain. "i suppose you had," said the bishop. chapter xiii the rubbish cart mr. harding was not a happy man as he walked down the palace pathway and stepped out into the close. his preferment and pleasant house were a second time gone from him, but that he could endure. he had been schooled and insulted by a man young enough to be his son, but that he could put up with. he could even draw from the very injuries which had been inflicted on him some of that consolation which we may believe martyrs always receive from the injustice of their own sufferings, and which is generally proportioned in its strength to the extent of cruelty with which martyrs are treated. he had admitted to his daughter that he wanted the comfort of his old home, and yet he could have returned to his lodgings in the high street, if not with exaltation, at least with satisfaction, had that been all. but the venom of the chaplain's harangue had worked into his blood, and sapped the life of his sweet contentment. "new men are carrying out new measures and are carting away the useless rubbish of past centuries!" what cruel words these had been; and how often are they now used with all the heartless cruelty of a slope! a man is sufficiently condemned if it can only be shown that either in politics or religion he does not belong to some new school established within the last score of years. he may then regard himself as rubbish and expect to be carted away. a man is nothing now unless he has within him a full appreciation of the new era, an era in which it would seem that neither honesty nor truth is very desirable, but in which success is the only touchstone of merit. we must laugh at everything that is established. let the joke be ever so bad, ever so untrue to the real principles of joking; nevertheless we must laugh--or else beware the cart. we must talk, think, and live up to the spirit of the times, and write up to it too, if that cacoethes be upon us, or else we are nought. new men and new measures, long credit and few scruples, great success or wonderful ruin, such are now the tastes of englishmen who know how to live. alas, alas! under such circumstances mr. harding could not but feel that he was an englishman who did not know how to live. this new doctrine of mr. slope and the rubbish cart, new at least at barchester, sadly disturbed his equanimity. "the same thing is going on throughout the whole country! work is now required from every man who receives wages!" and had he been living all his life receiving wages and doing no work? had he in truth so lived as to be now in his old age justly reckoned as rubbish fit only to be hidden away in some huge dust-hole? the school of men to whom he professes to belong, the grantlys, the gwynnes, and the old high set of oxford divines, are afflicted with no such self-accusations as these which troubled mr. harding. they, as a rule, are as satisfied with the wisdom and propriety of their own conduct as can be any mr. slope, or any dr. proudie, with his own. but unfortunately for himself mr. harding had little of this self-reliance. when he heard himself designated as rubbish by the slopes of the world, he had no other resource than to make inquiry within his own bosom as to the truth of the designation. alas, alas! the evidence seemed generally to go against him. he had professed to himself in the bishop's parlour that in these coming sources of the sorrow of age, in these fits of sad regret from which the latter years of few reflecting men can be free, religion would suffice to comfort him. yes, religion could console him for the loss of any worldly good, but was his religion of that active sort which would enable him so to repent of misspent years as to pass those that were left to him in a spirit of hope for the future? and such repentance itself, is it not a work of agony and of tears? it is very easy to talk of repentance, but a man has to walk over hot ploughshares before he can complete it; to be skinned alive as was st. bartholomew; to be stuck full of arrows as was st. sebastian; to lie broiling on a gridiron like st. lorenzo! how if his past life required such repentance as this? had he the energy to go through with it? mr. harding, after leaving the palace, walked slowly for an hour or so beneath the shady elms of the close and then betook himself to his daughter's house. he had at any rate made up his mind that he would go out to plumstead to consult dr. grantly, and that he would in the first instance tell eleanor what had occurred. and now he was doomed to undergo another misery. mr. slope had forestalled him at the widow's house. he had called there on the preceding afternoon. he could not, he had said, deny himself the pleasure of telling mrs. bold that her father was about to return to the pretty house at hiram's hospital. he had been instructed by the bishop to inform mr. harding that the appointment would now be made at once. the bishop was of course only too happy to be able to be the means of restoring to mr. harding the preferment which he had so long adorned. and then by degrees mr. slope had introduced the subject of the pretty school which he hoped before long to see attached to the hospital. he had quite fascinated mrs. bold by his description of this picturesque, useful, and charitable appendage, and she had gone so far as to say that she had no doubt her father would approve, and that she herself would gladly undertake a class. anyone who had heard the entirely different tone and seen the entirely different manner in which mr. slope had spoken of this projected institution to the daughter and to the father could not have failed to own that mr. slope was a man of genius. he said nothing to mrs. bold about the hospital sermons and services, nothing about the exclusion of the old men from the cathedral, nothing about dilapidation and painting, nothing about carting away the rubbish. eleanor had said to herself that certainly she did not like mr. slope personally, but that he was a very active, zealous clergyman and would no doubt be useful in barchester. all this paved the way for much additional misery to mr. harding. eleanor put on her happiest face as she heard her father on the stairs, for she thought she had only to congratulate him; but directly she saw his face she knew that there was but little matter for congratulation. she had seen him with the same weary look of sorrow on one or two occasions before, and remembered it well. she had seen him when he first read that attack upon himself in "the jupiter" which had ultimately caused him to resign the hospital, and she had seen him also when the archdeacon had persuaded him to remain there against his own sense of propriety and honour. she knew at a glance that his spirit was in deep trouble. "oh, papa, what is it?" said she, putting down her boy to crawl upon the floor. "i came to tell you, my dear," said he, "that i am going out to plumstead: you won't come with me, i suppose?" "to plumstead, papa? shall you stay there?" "i suppose i shall, to-night: i must consult the archdeacon about this weary hospital. ah me! i wish i had never thought of it again." "why, papa, what is the matter?" "i've been with mr. slope, my dear, and he isn't the pleasantest companion in the world, at least not to me." eleanor gave a sort of half-blush, but she was wrong if she imagined that her father in any way alluded to her acquaintance with mr. slope. "well, papa." "he wants to turn the hospital into a sunday-school and a preaching-house, and i suppose he will have his way. i do not feel myself adapted for such an establishment, and therefore, i suppose, i must refuse the appointment." "what would be the harm of the school, papa?" "the want of a proper schoolmaster, my dear." "but that would of course be supplied." "mr. slope wishes to supply it by making me his schoolmaster. but as i am hardly fit for such work, i intend to decline." "oh, papa! mr. slope doesn't intend that. he was here yesterday, and what he intends--" "he was here yesterday, was he?" asked mr. harding. "yes, papa." "and talking about the hospital?" "he was saying how glad he would be, and the bishop too, to see you back there again. and then he spoke about the sunday-school; and to tell the truth i agreed with him; and i thought you would have done so too. mr. slope spoke of a school, not inside the hospital, but just connected with it, of which you would be the patron and visitor; and i thought you would have liked such a school as that; and i promised to look after it and to take a class--and it all seemed so very--. but, oh, papa! i shall be so miserable if i find i have done wrong." "nothing wrong at all, my dear," said he gently, very gently rejecting his daughter's caress. "there can be nothing wrong in your wishing to make yourself useful; indeed, you ought to do so by all means. everyone must now exert himself who would not choose to go to the wall." poor mr. harding thus attempted in his misery to preach the new doctrine to his child. "himself or herself, it's all the same," he continued; "you will be quite right, my dear, to do something of this sort; but--" "well, papa." "i am not quite sure that if i were you i would select mr. slope for my guide." "but i never have done so and never shall." "it would be very wicked of me to speak evil of him, for to tell the truth i know no evil of him; but i am not quite sure that he is honest. that he is not gentlemanlike in his manners, of that i am quite sure." "i never thought of taking him for my guide, papa." "as for myself, my dear," continued he, "we know the old proverb--'it's bad teaching an old dog tricks.' i must decline the sunday-school, and shall therefore probably decline the hospital also. but i will first see your brother-in-law." so he took up his hat, kissed the baby, and withdrew, leaving eleanor in as low spirits as himself. all this was a great aggravation to his misery. he had so few with whom to sympathize that he could not afford to be cut off from the one whose sympathy was of the most value to him. and yet it seemed probable that this would be the case. he did not own to himself that he wished his daughter to hate mr. slope, yet had she expressed such a feeling there would have been very little bitterness in the rebuke he would have given her for so uncharitable a state of mind. the fact, however, was that she was on friendly terms with mr. slope, that she coincided with his views, adhered at once to his plans, and listened with delight to his teaching. mr. harding hardly wished his daughter to hate the man, but he would have preferred that to her loving him. he walked away to the inn to order a fly, went home to put up his carpet-bag, and then started for plumstead. there was, at any rate, no danger that the archdeacon would fraternize with mr. slope; but then he would recommend internecine war, public appeals, loud reproaches, and all the paraphernalia of open battle. now that alternative was hardly more to mr. harding's taste than the other. when mr. harding reached the parsonage, he found that the archdeacon was out, and would not be home till dinnertime, so he began his complaint to his elder daughter. mrs. grantly entertained quite as strong an antagonism to mr. slope as did her husband; she was also quite as alive to the necessity of combating the proudie faction, of supporting the old church interest of the close, of keeping in her own set such of the loaves and fishes as duly belonged to it; and was quite as well prepared as her lord to carry on the battle without giving or taking quarter. not that she was a woman prone to quarrelling, or ill-inclined to live at peace with her clerical neighbours; but she felt, as did the archdeacon, that the presence of mr. slope in barchester was an insult to everyone connected with the late bishop, and that his assumed dominion in the diocese was a spiritual injury to her husband. hitherto people had little guessed how bitter mrs. grantly could be. she lived on the best of terms with all the rectors' wives around her. she had been popular with all the ladies connected with the close. though much the wealthiest of the ecclesiastical matrons of the county, she had so managed her affairs that her carriage and horses had given umbrage to none. she had never thrown herself among the county grandees so as to excite the envy of other clergymen's wives. she never talked too loudly of earls and countesses, or boasted that she gave her governess sixty pounds a year, or her cook seventy. mrs. grantly had lived the life of a wise, discreet, peace-making woman, and the people of barchester were surprised at the amount of military vigour she displayed as general of the feminine grantlyite forces. mrs. grantly soon learned that her sister eleanor had promised to assist mr. slope in the affairs of the hospital school, and it was on this point that her attention first fixed itself. "how can eleanor endure him?" said she. "he is a very crafty man," said her father, "and his craft has been successful in making eleanor think that he is a meek, charitable, good clergyman. god forgive me, if i wrong him, but such is not his true character in my opinion." "his true character, indeed!" said she, with something approaching scorn for her father's moderation. "i only hope he won't have craft enough to make eleanor forget herself and her position." "do you mean marry him?" said he, startled out of his usual demeanour by the abruptness and horror of so dreadful a proposition. "what is there so improbable in it? of course that would be his own object if he thought he had any chance of success. eleanor has a thousand a year entirely at her own disposal, and what better fortune could fall to mr. slope's lot than the transferring of the disposal of such a fortune to himself?" "but you can't think she likes him, susan?" "why not?" said susan. "why shouldn't she like him? he's just the sort of man to get on with a woman left, as she is, with no one to look after her." "look after her!" said the unhappy father; "don't we look after her?" "ah, papa, how innocent you are! of course it was to be expected that eleanor should marry again. i should be the last to advise her against it, if she would only wait the proper time, and then marry at least a gentleman." "but you don't really mean to say that you suppose eleanor has ever thought of marrying mr. slope? why, mr. bold has only been dead a year." "eighteen months," said his daughter. "but i don't suppose eleanor has ever thought about it. it is very probable, though, that he has; and that he will try and make her do so; and that he will succeed too, if we don't take care what we are about." this was quite a new phase of the affair to poor mr. harding. to have thrust upon him as his son-in-law, as the husband of his favourite child, the only man in the world whom he really positively disliked, would be a misfortune which he felt he would not know how to endure patiently. but then, could there be any ground for so dreadful a surmise? in all worldly matters he was apt to look upon the opinion of his eldest daughter as one generally sound and trustworthy. in her appreciation of character, of motives, and the probable conduct both of men and women, she was usually not far wrong. she had early foreseen the marriage of eleanor and john bold; she had at a glance deciphered the character of the new bishop and his chaplain; could it possibly be that her present surmise should ever come forth as true? "but you don't think that she likes him?" said mr. harding again. "well, papa, i can't say that i think she dislikes him as she ought to do. why is he visiting there as a confidential friend, when he never ought to have been admitted inside the house? why is it that she speaks to him about your welfare and your position, as she clearly has done? at the bishop's party the other night i saw her talking to him for half an hour at the stretch." "i thought mr. slope seemed to talk to nobody there but that daughter of stanhope's," said mr. harding, wishing to defend his child. "oh, mr. slope is a cleverer man than you think of, papa, and keeps more than one iron in the fire." to give eleanor her due, any suspicion as to the slightest inclination on her part towards mr. slope was a wrong to her. she had no more idea of marrying mr. slope than she had of marrying the bishop, and the idea that mr. slope would present himself as a suitor had never occurred to her. indeed, to give her her due again, she had never thought about suitors since her husband's death. but nevertheless it was true that she had overcome all that repugnance to the man which was so strongly felt for him by the rest of the grantly faction. she had forgiven him his sermon. she had forgiven him his low church tendencies, his sabbath-schools, and puritanical observances. she had forgiven his pharisaical arrogance, and even his greasy face and oily, vulgar manners. having agreed to overlook such offences as these, why should she not in time be taught to regard mr. slope as a suitor? and as to him, it must also be affirmed that he was hitherto equally innocent of the crime imputed to him. how it had come to pass that a man whose eyes were generally so widely open to everything around him had not perceived that this young widow was rich as well as beautiful, cannot probably now be explained. but such was the fact. mr. slope had ingratiated himself with mrs. bold, merely as he had done with other ladies, in order to strengthen his party in the city. he subsequently amended his error, but it was not till after the interview between him and mr. harding. chapter xiv the new champion the archdeacon did not return to the parsonage till close upon the hour of dinner, and there was therefore no time to discuss matters before that important ceremony. he seemed to be in an especial good humour, and welcomed his father-in-law with a sort of jovial earnestness that was usual with him when things on which he was intent were going on as he would have them. "it's all settled, my dear," said he to his wife as he washed his hands in his dressing-room, while she, according to her wont, sat listening in the bedroom; "arabin has agreed to accept the living. he'll be here next week." and the archdeacon scrubbed his hands and rubbed his face with a violent alacrity, which showed that arabin's coming was a great point gained. "will he come here to plumstead?" said the wife. "he has promised to stay a month with us," said the archdeacon, "so that he may see what his parish is like. you'll like arabin very much. he's a gentleman in every respect, and full of humour." "he's very queer, isn't he?" asked the lady. "well--he is a little odd in some of his fancies, but there's nothing about him you won't like. he is as staunch a churchman as there is at oxford. i really don't know what we should do without arabin. it's a great thing for me to have him so near me, and if anything can put slope down, arabin will do it." the reverend francis arabin was a fellow of lazarus, the favoured disciple of the great dr. gwynne, a high churchman at all points--so high, indeed, that at one period of his career he had all but toppled over into the cesspool of rome--a poet and also a polemical writer, a great pet in the common-rooms at oxford, an eloquent clergyman, a droll, odd, humorous, energetic, conscientious man, and, as the archdeacon had boasted of him, a thorough gentleman. as he will hereafter be brought more closely to our notice, it is now only necessary to add that he had just been presented to the vicarage of st. ewold by dr. grantly, in whose gift as archdeacon the living lay. st. ewold is a parish lying just without the city of barchester. the suburbs of the new town, indeed, are partly within its precincts, and the pretty church and parsonage are not much above a mile distant from the city gate. st. ewold is not a rich piece of preferment--it is worth some three or four hundred a year at most, and has generally been held by a clergyman attached to the cathedral choir. the archdeacon, however, felt, when the living on this occasion became vacant, that it imperatively behoved him to aid the force of his party with some tower of strength, if any such tower could be got to occupy st. ewold's. he had discussed the matter with his brethren in barchester, not in any weak spirit as the holder of patronage to be used for his own or his family's benefit, but as one to whom was committed a trust on the due administration of which much of the church's welfare might depend. he had submitted to them the name of mr. arabin, as though the choice had rested with them all in conclave, and they had unanimously admitted that, if mr. arabin would accept st. ewold's, no better choice could possibly be made. if mr. arabin would accept st. ewold's! there lay the difficulty. mr. arabin was a man standing somewhat prominently before the world, that is, before the church of england world. he was not a rich man, it is true, for he held no preferment but his fellowship; but he was a man not over-anxious for riches, not married of course, and one whose time was greatly taken up in discussing, both in print and on platforms, the privileges and practices of the church to which he belonged. as the archdeacon had done battle for its temporalities, so did mr. arabin do battle for its spiritualities, and both had done so conscientiously; that is, not so much each for his own benefit as for that of others. holding such a position as mr. arabin did, there was much reason to doubt whether he would consent to become the parson of st. ewold's, and dr. grantly had taken the trouble to go himself to oxford on the matter. dr. gwynne and dr. grantly together had succeeded in persuading this eminent divine that duty required him to go to barchester. there were wheels within wheels in this affair. for some time past mr. arabin had been engaged in a tremendous controversy with no less a person than mr. slope, respecting the apostolic succession. these two gentlemen had never seen each other, but they had been extremely bitter in print. mr. slope had endeavoured to strengthen his cause by calling mr. arabin an owl, and mr. arabin had retaliated by hinting that mr. slope was an infidel. this battle had been commenced in the columns of "the jupiter," a powerful newspaper, the manager of which was very friendly to mr. slope's view of the case. the matter, however, had become too tedious for the readers of "the jupiter," and a little note had therefore been appended to one of mr. slope's most telling rejoinders, in which it had been stated that no further letters from the reverend gentlemen could be inserted except as advertisements. other methods of publication were, however, found, less expensive than advertisements in "the jupiter," and the war went on merrily. mr. slope declared that the main part of the consecration of a clergyman was the self-devotion of the inner man to the duties of the ministry. mr. arabin contended that a man was not consecrated at all, had, indeed, no single attribute of a clergyman, unless he became so through the imposition of some bishop's hands, who had become a bishop through the imposition of other hands, and so on in a direct line to one of the apostles. each had repeatedly hung the other on the horns of a dilemma, but neither seemed to be a whit the worse for the hanging; and so the war went on merrily. whether or no the near neighbourhood of the foe may have acted in any way as an inducement to mr. arabin to accept the living of st. ewold, we will not pretend to say; but it had at any rate been settled in dr. gwynne's library, at lazarus, that he would accept it, and that he would lend his assistance towards driving the enemy out of barchester, or, at any rate, silencing him while he remained there. mr. arabin intended to keep his rooms at oxford and to have the assistance of a curate at st. ewold, but he promised to give as much time as possible to the neighbourhood of barchester, and from so great a man dr. grantly was quite satisfied with such a promise. it was no small part of the satisfaction derivable from such an arrangement that bishop proudie would be forced to institute into a living immediately under his own nose the enemy of his favourite chaplain. all through dinner the archdeacon's good humour shone brightly in his face. he ate of the good things heartily, he drank wine with his wife and daughter, he talked pleasantly of his doings at oxford, told his father-in-law that he ought to visit dr. gwynne at lazarus, and launched out again in praise of mr. arabin. "is mr. arabin married, papa?" asked griselda. "no, my dear, the fellow of a college is never married." "is he a young man, papa?" "about forty, i believe," said the archdeacon. "oh!" said griselda. had her father said eighty, mr. arabin would not have appeared to her to be very much older. when the two gentlemen were left alone over their wine, mr. harding told his tale of woe. but even this, sad as it was, did not much diminish the archdeacon's good humour, though it greatly added to his pugnacity. "he can't do it," said dr. grantly over and over again, as his father-in-law explained to him the terms on which the new warden of the hospital was to be appointed; "he can't do it. what he says is not worth the trouble of listening to. he can't alter the duties of the place." "who can't?" asked the ex-warden. "neither the bishop nor the chaplain, nor yet the bishop's wife, who, i take it, has really more to say to such matters than either of the other two. the whole body corporate of the palace together have no power to turn the warden of the hospital into a sunday-schoolmaster." "but the bishop has the power to appoint whom he pleases, and--" "i don't know that; i rather think he'll find he has no such power. let him try it, and see what the press will say. for once we shall have the popular cry on our side. but proudie, ass as he is, knows the world too well to get such a hornet's nest about his ears." mr. harding winced at the idea of the press. he had had enough of that sort of publicity, and was unwilling to be shown up a second time either as a monster or as a martyr. he gently remarked that he hoped the newspapers would not get hold of his name again, and then suggested that perhaps it would be better that he should abandon his object. "i am getting old," said he, "and after all i doubt whether i am fit to undertake new duties." "new duties?" said the archdeacon; "don't i tell you there shall be no new duties?" "or perhaps old duties either," said mr. harding; "i think i will remain content as i am." the picture of mr. slope carting away the rubbish was still present to his mind. the archdeacon drank off his glass of claret and prepared himself to be energetic. "i do hope," said he, "that you are not going to be so weak as to allow such a man as mr. slope to deter you from doing what you know it is your duty to do. you know it is your duty to resume your place at the hospital now that parliament has so settled the stipend as to remove those difficulties which induced you to resign it. you cannot deny this, and should your timidity now prevent you from doing so, your conscience will hereafter never forgive you," and as he finished this clause of his speech, he pushed over the bottle to his companion. "your conscience will never forgive you," he continued. "you resigned the place from conscientious scruples, scruples which i greatly respected, though i did not share them. all your friends respected them, and you left your old house as rich in reputation as you were ruined in fortune. it is now expected that you will return. dr. gwynne was saying only the other day--" "dr. gwynne does not reflect how much older a man i am now than when he last saw me." "old--nonsense," said the archdeacon; "you never thought yourself old till you listened to the impudent trash of that coxcomb at the palace." "i shall be sixty-five if i live till november," said mr. harding. "and seventy-five, if you live till november ten years," said the archdeacon. "and you bid fair to be as efficient then as you were ten years ago. but for heaven's sake let us have no pretence in this matter. your plea of old age is a pretence. but you're not drinking your wine. it is only a pretence. the fact is, you are half-afraid of this slope, and would rather subject yourself to comparative poverty and discomfort than come to blows with a man who will trample on you, if you let him." "i certainly don't like coming to blows, if i can help it." "nor i neither--but sometimes we can't help it. this man's object is to induce you to refuse the hospital, that he may put some creature of his own into it; that he may show his power and insult us all by insulting you, whose cause and character are so intimately bound up with that of the chapter. you owe it to us all to resist him in this, even if you have no solicitude for yourself. but surely, for your own sake, you will not be so lily-livered as to fall into this trap which he has baited for you and let him take the very bread out of your mouth without a struggle." mr. harding did not like being called lily-livered, and was rather inclined to resent it. "i doubt there is any true courage," said he, "in squabbling for money." "if honest men did not squabble for money, in this wicked world of ours, the dishonest men would get it all, and i do not see that the cause of virtue would be much improved. no--we must use the means which we have. if we were to carry your argument home, we might give away every shilling of revenue which the church has, and i presume you are not prepared to say that the church would be strengthened by such a sacrifice." the archdeacon filled his glass and then emptied it, drinking with much reverence a silent toast to the well-being and permanent security of those temporalities which were so dear to his soul. "i think all quarrels between a clergyman and his bishop should be avoided," said mr. harding. "i think so too, but it is quite as much the duty of the bishop to look to that as of his inferior. i tell you what, my friend; i'll see the bishop in this matter--that is, if you will allow me--and you may be sure i will not compromise you. my opinion is that all this trash about the sunday-schools and the sermons has originated wholly with slope and mrs. proudie, and that the bishop knows nothing about it. the bishop can't very well refuse to see me, and i'll come upon him when he has neither his wife nor his chaplain by him. i think you'll find that it will end in his sending you the appointment without any condition whatever. and as to the seats in the cathedral, we may safely leave that to mr. dean. i believe the fool positively thinks that the bishop could walk away with the cathedral if he pleased." and so the matter was arranged between them. mr. harding had come expressly for advice, and therefore felt himself bound to take the advice given him. he had known, moreover, beforehand that the archdeacon would not hear of his giving the matter up, and accordingly, though he had in perfect good faith put forward his own views, he was prepared to yield. they therefore went into the drawing-room in good humour with each other, and the evening passed pleasantly in prophetic discussions on the future wars of arabin and slope. the frogs and the mice would be nothing to them, nor the angers of agamemnon and achilles. how the archdeacon rubbed his hands and plumed himself on the success of his last move. he could not himself descend into the arena with slope, but arabin would have no such scruples. arabin was exactly the man for such work, and the only man whom he knew that was fit for it. the archdeacon's good humour and high buoyancy continued till, when reclining on his pillow, mrs. grantly commenced to give him her view of the state of affairs at barchester. and then certainly he was startled. the last words he said that night were as follows: "if she does, by heaven i'll never speak to her again. she dragged me into the mire once, but i'll not pollute myself with such filth as that--" and the archdeacon gave a shudder which shook the whole room, so violently was he convulsed with the thought which then agitated his mind. now in this matter the widow bold was scandalously ill-treated by her relatives. she had spoken to the man three or four times, and had expressed her willingness to teach in a sunday-school. such was the full extent of her sins in the matter of mr. slope. poor eleanor! but time will show. the next morning mr. harding returned to barchester, no further word having been spoken in his hearing respecting mr. slope's acquaintance with his younger daughter. but he observed that the archdeacon at breakfast was less cordial than he had been on the preceding evening. chapter xv the widow's suitors mr. slope lost no time in availing himself of the bishop's permission to see mr. quiverful, and it was in his interview with this worthy pastor that he first learned that mrs. bold was worth the wooing. he rode out to puddingdale to communicate to the embryo warden the goodwill of the bishop in his favour, and during the discussion on the matter it was not unnatural that the pecuniary resources of mr. harding and his family should become the subject of remark. mr. quiverful, with his fourteen children and his four hundred a year, was a very poor man, and the prospect of this new preferment, which was to be held together with his living, was very grateful to him. to what clergyman so circumstanced would not such a prospect be very grateful? but mr. quiverful had long been acquainted with mr. harding, and had received kindness at his hands, so that his heart misgave him as he thought of supplanting a friend at the hospital. nevertheless, he was extremely civil, cringingly civil, to mr. slope; treated him quite as the great man; entreated this great man to do him the honour to drink a glass of sherry, at which, as it was very poor marsala, the now pampered slope turned up his nose; and ended by declaring his extreme obligation to the bishop and mr. slope and his great desire to accept the hospital, if--if it were certainly the case that mr. harding had refused it. what man as needy as mr. quiverful would have been more disinterested? "mr. harding did positively refuse it," said mr. slope with a certain air of offended dignity, "when he heard of the conditions to which the appointment is now subjected. of course you understand, mr. quiverful, that the same conditions will be imposed on yourself." mr. quiverful cared nothing for the conditions. he would have undertaken to preach any number of sermons mr. slope might have chosen to dictate, and to pass every remaining hour of his sundays within the walls of a sunday-school. what sacrifices, or at any rate, what promises would have been too much to make for such an addition to his income, and for such a house! but his mind still recurred to mr. harding. "to be sure," said he; "mr. harding's daughter is very rich, and why should he trouble himself with the hospital?" "you mean mrs. grantly," said slope. "i meant his widowed daughter," said the other. "mrs. bold has twelve hundred a year of her own, and i suppose mr. harding means to live with her." "twelve hundred a year of her own!" said slope, and very shortly afterwards took his leave, avoiding, as far as it was possible for him to do, any further allusion to the hospital. "twelve hundred a year!" said he to himself as he rode slowly home. if it were the fact that mrs. bold had twelve hundred a year of her own, what a fool would he be to oppose her father's return to his old place. the train of mr. slope's ideas will probably be plain to all my readers. why should he not make the twelve hundred a year his own? and if he did so, would it not be well for him to have a father-in-law comfortably provided with the good things of this world? would it not, moreover, be much more easy for him to gain the daughter if he did all in his power to forward the father's views? these questions presented themselves to him in a very forcible way, and yet there were many points of doubt. if he resolved to restore to mr. harding his former place, he must take the necessary steps for doing so at once; he must immediately talk over the bishop, quarrel on the matter with mrs. proudie, whom he knew he could not talk over, and let mr. quiverful know that he had been a little too precipitate as to mr. harding's positive refusal. that he could effect all this he did not doubt, but he did not wish to effect it for nothing. he did not wish to give way to mr. harding and then be rejected by the daughter. he did not wish to lose one influential friend before he had gained another. and thus he rode home, meditating many things in his mind. it occurred to him that mrs. bold was sister-in-law to the archdeacon, and that not even for twelve hundred a year would he submit to that imperious man. a rich wife was a great desideratum to him, but success in his profession was still greater; there were, moreover, other rich women who might be willing to become wives; and after all, this twelve hundred a year might, when inquired into, melt away into some small sum utterly beneath his notice. then also he remembered that mrs. bold had a son. another circumstance also much influenced him, though it was one which may almost be said to have influenced him against his will. the vision of the signora neroni was perpetually before his eyes. it would be too much to say that mr. slope was lost in love, but yet he thought, and kept continually thinking, that he had never seen so beautiful a woman. he was a man whose nature was open to such impulses, and the wiles of the italianized charmer had been thoroughly successful in imposing upon his thoughts. we will not talk about his heart: not that he had no heart, but because his heart had little to do with his present feelings. his taste had been pleased, his eyes charmed, and his vanity gratified. he had been dazzled by a sort of loveliness which he had never before seen, and had been caught by an easy, free, voluptuous manner which was perfectly new to him. he had never been so tempted before, and the temptation was now irresistible. he had not owned to himself that he cared for this woman more than for others around him, but yet he thought often of the time when he might see her next, and made, almost unconsciously, little cunning plans for seeing her frequently. he had called at dr. stanhope's house the day after the bishop's party, and then the warmth of his admiration had been fed with fresh fuel. if the signora had been kind in her manner and flattering in her speech when lying upon the bishop's sofa, with the eyes of so many on her, she had been much more so in her mother's drawing-room, with no one present but her sister to repress either her nature or her art. mr. slope had thus left her quite bewildered, and could not willingly admit into his brain any scheme a part of which would be the necessity of his abandoning all further special friendship with this lady. and so he slowly rode along, very meditative. and here the author must beg it to be remembered that mr. slope was not in all things a bad man. his motives, like those of most men, were mixed, and though his conduct was generally very different from that which we would wish to praise, it was actuated perhaps as often as that of the majority of the world by a desire to do his duty. he believed in the religion which he taught, harsh, unpalatable, uncharitable as that religion was. he believed those whom he wished to get under his hoof, the grantlys and gwynnes of the church, to be the enemies of that religion. he believed himself to be a pillar of strength, destined to do great things, and with that subtle, selfish, ambiguous sophistry to which the minds of all men are so subject, he had taught himself to think that in doing much for the promotion of his own interests, he was doing much also for the promotion of religion. but mr. slope had never been an immoral man. indeed, he had resisted temptations to immorality with a strength of purpose that was creditable to him. he had early in life devoted himself to works which were not compatible with the ordinary pleasures of youth, and he had abandoned such pleasures not without a struggle. it must therefore be conceived that he did not admit to himself that he warmly admired the beauty of a married woman without heart-felt stings of conscience; and to pacify that conscience he had to teach himself that the nature of his admiration was innocent. and thus he rode along meditative and ill at ease. his conscience had not a word to say against his choosing the widow and her fortune. that he looked upon as a godly work rather than otherwise; as a deed which, if carried through, would redound to his credit as a christian. on that side lay no future remorse, no conduct which he might probably have to forget, no inward stings. if it should turn out to be really the fact that mrs. bold had twelve hundred a year at her own disposal, mr. slope would rather look upon it as a duty which he owed his religion to make himself the master of the wife and the money; as a duty too, in which some amount of self-sacrifice would be necessary. he would have to give up his friendship with the signora, his resistance to mr. harding, his antipathy--no, he found on mature self-examination that he could not bring himself to give up his antipathy to dr. grantly. he would marry the lady as the enemy of her brother-in-law if such an arrangement suited her; if not, she must look elsewhere for a husband. it was with such resolve as this that he reached barchester. he would at once ascertain what the truth might be as to the lady's wealth, and having done this he would be ruled by circumstances in his conduct respecting the hospital. if he found that he could turn round and secure the place for mr. harding without much self-sacrifice, he would do so; but if not, he would woo the daughter in opposition to the father. but in no case would he succumb to the archdeacon. he saw his horse taken round to the stable, and immediately went forth to commence his inquiries. to give mr. slope his due, he was not a man who ever let much grass grow under his feet. poor eleanor! she was doomed to be the intended victim of more schemes than one. about the time that mr. slope was visiting the vicar of puddingdale, a discussion took place respecting her charms and wealth at dr. stanhope's house in the close. there had been morning callers there, and people had told some truth and also some falsehood respecting the property which john bold had left behind him. by degrees the visitors went, and as the doctor went with them, and as the doctor's wife had not made her appearance, charlotte stanhope and her brother were left together. he was sitting idly at the table, scrawling caricatures of barchester notables, then yawning, then turning over a book or two, and evidently at a loss how to kill his time without much labour. "you haven't done much, bertie, about getting any orders," said his sister. "orders!" said he; "who on earth is there at barchester to give one orders? who among the people here could possibly think it worth his while to have his head done into marble?" "then you mean to give up your profession," said she. "no, i don't," said he, going on with some absurd portrait of the bishop. "look at that, lotte; isn't it the little man all over, apron and all? i'd go on with my profession at once, as you call it, if the governor would set me up with a studio in london; but as to sculpture at barchester--i suppose half the people here don't know what a torso means." "the governor will not give you a shilling to start you in london," said lotte. "indeed, he can't give you what would be sufficient, for he has not got it. but you might start yourself very well, if you pleased." "how the deuce am i to do it?" said he. "to tell you the truth, bertie, you'll never make a penny by any profession." "that's what i often think myself," said he, not in the least offended. "some men have a great gift of making money, but they can't spend it. others can't put two shillings together, but they have a great talent for all sorts of outlay. i begin to think that my genius is wholly in the latter line." "how do you mean to live then?" asked the sister. "i suppose i must regard myself as a young raven and look for heavenly manna; besides, we have all got something when the governor goes." "yes--you'll have enough to supply yourself with gloves and boots; that is, if the jews have not got the possession of it all. i believe they have the most of it already. i wonder, bertie, at your indifference; that you, with your talents and personal advantages, should never try to settle yourself in life. i look forward with dread to the time when the governor must go. mother, and madeline, and i--we shall be poor enough, but you will have absolutely nothing." "sufficient for the day is the evil thereof," said bertie. "will you take my advice?" said his sister. "_cela dépend_," said the brother. "will you marry a wife with money?" "at any rate," said he, "i won't marry one without; wives with money a'nt so easy to get now-a-days; the parsons pick them all up." "and a parson will pick up the wife i mean for you, if you do not look quickly about it; the wife i mean is mrs. bold." "whew-w-w-w!" whistled bertie, "a widow!" "she is very beautiful," said charlotte. "with a son and heir all ready to my hand," said bertie. "a baby that will very likely die," said charlotte. "i don't see that," said bertie. "but however, he may live for me--i don't wish to kill him; only, it must be owned that a ready-made family is a drawback." "there is only one after all," pleaded charlotte. "and that a very little one, as the maidservant said," rejoined bertie. "beggars mustn't be choosers, bertie; you can't have everything." "god knows i am not unreasonable," said he, "nor yet opinionated, and if you'll arrange it all for me, lotte, i'll marry the lady. only mark this: the money must be sure, and the income at my own disposal, at any rate for the lady's life." charlotte was explaining to her brother that he must make love for himself if he meant to carry on the matter, and was encouraging him to do so by warm eulogiums on eleanor's beauty, when the signora was brought into the drawing-room. when at home, and subject to the gaze of none but her own family, she allowed herself to be dragged about by two persons, and her two bearers now deposited her on her sofa. she was not quite so grand in her apparel as she had been at the bishop's party, but yet she was dressed with much care, and though there was a look of care and pain about her eyes, she was, even by daylight, extremely beautiful. "well, madeline, so i'm going to be married," bertie began as soon as the servants had withdrawn. "there's no other foolish thing left that you haven't done," said madeline, "and therefore you are quite right to try that." "oh, you think it's a foolish thing, do you?" said he. "there's lotte advising me to marry by all means. but on such a subject your opinion ought to be the best; you have experience to guide you." "yes, i have," said madeline with a sort of harsh sadness in her tone, which seemed to say--"what is it to you if i am sad? i have never asked your sympathy." bertie was sorry when he saw that she was hurt by what he said, and he came and squatted on the floor close before her face to make his peace with her. "come, mad, i was only joking; you know that. but in sober earnest, lotte is advising me to marry. she wants me to marry this mrs. bold. she's a widow with lots of tin, a fine baby, a beautiful complexion, and the george and dragon hotel up in the high street. by jove, lotte, if i marry her, i'll keep the public-house myself--it's just the life to suit me." "what," said madeline, "that vapid, swarthy creature in the widow's cap, who looked as though her clothes had been stuck on her back with a pitchfork!" the signora never allowed any woman to be beautiful. "instead of being vapid," said lotte, "i call her a very lovely woman. she was by far the loveliest woman in the rooms the other night; that is, excepting you, madeline." even the compliment did not soften the asperity of the maimed beauty. "every woman is charming according to lotte," she said; "i never knew an eye with so little true appreciation. in the first place, what woman on earth could look well in such a thing as that she had on her head." "of course she wears a widow's cap, but she'll put that off when bertie marries her." "i don't see any of course in it," said madeline. "the death of twenty husbands should not make me undergo such a penance. it is as much a relic of paganism as the sacrifice of a hindu woman at the burning of her husband's body. if not so bloody, it is quite as barbarous, and quite as useless." "but you don't blame her for that," said bertie. "she does it because it's the custom of the country. people would think ill of her if she didn't do it." "exactly," said madeline. "she is just one of those english nonentities who would tie her head up in a bag for three months every summer, if her mother and her grandmother had tied up their heads before her. it would never occur to her to think whether there was any use in submitting to such a nuisance." "it's very hard in a country like england, for a young woman to set herself in opposition to prejudices of that sort," said the prudent charlotte. "what you mean is that it's very hard for a fool not to be a fool," said madeline. bertie stanhope had been so much knocked about the world from his earliest years that he had not retained much respect for the gravity of english customs; but even to his mind an idea presented itself that, perhaps in a wife, true british prejudice would not in the long run be less agreeable than anglo-italian freedom from restraint. he did not exactly say so, but he expressed the idea in another way. "i fancy," said he, "that if i were to die, and then walk, i should think that my widow looked better in one of those caps than any other kind of head-dress." "yes--and you'd fancy also that she could do nothing better than shut herself up and cry for you, or else burn herself. but she would think differently. she'd probably wear one of those horrid she-helmets, because she'd want the courage not to do so; but she'd wear it with a heart longing for the time when she might be allowed to throw it off. i hate such shallow false pretences. for my part i would let the world say what it pleased, and show no grief if i felt none--and perhaps not, if i did." "but wearing a widow's cap won't lessen her fortune," said charlotte. "or increase it," said madeline. "then why on earth does she do it?" "but lotte's object is to make her put it off," said bertie. "if it be true that she has got twelve hundred a year quite at her own disposal, and she be not utterly vulgar in her manners, i would advise you to marry her. i dare say she's to be had for the asking: and as you are not going to marry her for love, it doesn't much matter whether she is good-looking or not. as to your really marrying a woman for love, i don't believe you are fool enough for that." "oh, madeline!" exclaimed her sister. "and oh, charlotte!" said the other. "you don't mean to say that no man can love a woman unless he be a fool?" "i mean very much the same thing--that any man who is willing to sacrifice his interest to get possession of a pretty face is a fool. pretty faces are to be had cheaper than that. i hate your mawkish sentimentality, lotte. you know as well as i do in what way husbands and wives generally live together; you know how far the warmth of conjugal affection can withstand the trial of a bad dinner, of a rainy day, or of the least privation which poverty brings with it; you know what freedom a man claims for himself, what slavery he would exact from his wife if he could! and you know also how wives generally obey. marriage means tyranny on one side and deceit on the other. i say that a man is a fool to sacrifice his interests for such a bargain. a woman, too generally, has no other way of living." "but bertie has no other way of living," said charlotte. "then, in god's name, let him marry mrs. bold," said madeline. and so it was settled between them. but let the gentle-hearted reader be under no apprehension whatsoever. it is not destined that eleanor shall marry mr. slope or bertie stanhope. and here perhaps it may be allowed to the novelist to explain his views on a very important point in the art of telling tales. he ventures to reprobate that system which goes so far to violate all proper confidence between the author and his readers by maintaining nearly to the end of the third volume a mystery as to the fate of their favourite personage. nay, more, and worse than this, is too frequently done. have not often the profoundest efforts of genius been used to baffle the aspirations of the reader, to raise false hopes and false fears, and to give rise to expectations which are never to be realized? are not promises all but made of delightful horrors, in lieu of which the writer produces nothing but most commonplace realities in his final chapter? and is there not a species of deceit in this to which the honesty of the present age should lend no countenance? and what can be the worth of that solicitude which a peep into the third volume can utterly dissipate? what the value of those literary charms which are absolutely destroyed by their enjoyment? when we have once learnt what was that picture before which was hung mrs. ratcliffe's solemn curtain, we feel no further interest about either the frame or the veil. they are to us merely a receptacle for old bones, an inappropriate coffin, which we would wish to have decently buried out of our sight. and then how grievous a thing it is to have the pleasure of your novel destroyed by the ill-considered triumph of a previous reader. "oh, you needn't be alarmed for augusta; of course she accepts gustavus in the end." "how very ill-natured you are, susan," says kitty with tears in her eyes: "i don't care a bit about it now." dear kitty, if you will read my book, you may defy the ill-nature of your sister. there shall be no secret that she can tell you. nay, take the third volume if you please--learn from the last pages all the results of our troubled story, and the story shall have lost none of its interest, if indeed there be any interest in it to lose. our doctrine is that the author and the reader should move along together in full confidence with each other. let the personages of the drama undergo ever so complete a comedy of errors among themselves, but let the spectator never mistake the syracusan for the ephesian; otherwise he is one of the dupes, and the part of a dupe is never dignified. i would not for the value of this chapter have it believed by a single reader that my eleanor could bring herself to marry mr. slope, or that she should be sacrificed to a bertie stanhope. but among the good folk of barchester many believed both the one and the other. chapter xvi baby worship "diddle, diddle, diddle, diddle, dum, dum, dum," said or sung eleanor bold. "diddle, diddle, diddle, diddle, dum, dum, dum," continued mary bold, taking up the second part in this concerted piece. the only audience at the concert was the baby, who however gave such vociferous applause that the performers, presuming it to amount to an encore, commenced again. "diddle, diddle, diddle, diddle, dum, dum, dum: hasn't he got lovely legs?" said the rapturous mother. "h'm 'm 'm 'm 'm," simmered mary, burying her lips in the little fellow's fat neck, by way of kissing him. "h'm 'm 'm 'm 'm," simmered the mamma, burying her lips also in his fat, round, short legs. "he's a dawty little bold darling, so he is; and he has the nicest little pink legs in all the world, so he has;" and the simmering and the kissing went on over again, as though the ladies were very hungry and determined to eat him. "well, then, he's his own mother's own darling: well, he shall--oh, oh--mary, mary--did you ever see? what am i to do? my naughty, naughty, naughty, naughty little johnny." all these energetic exclamations were elicited by the delight of the mother in finding that her son was strong enough and mischievous enough to pull all her hair out from under her cap. "he's been and pulled down all mamma's hair, and he's the naughtiest, naughtiest, naughtiest little man that ever, ever, ever, ever, ever--" a regular service of baby worship was going on. mary bold was sitting on a low easy chair, with the boy in her lap, and eleanor was kneeling before the object of her idolatry. as she tried to cover up the little fellow's face with her long, glossy, dark brown locks, and permitted him to pull them hither and thither as he would, she looked very beautiful in spite of the widow's cap which she still wore. there was a quiet, enduring, grateful sweetness about her face which grew so strongly upon those who knew her, as to make the great praise of her beauty which came from her old friends appear marvellously exaggerated to those who were only slightly acquainted with her. her loveliness was like that of many landscapes, which require to be often seen to be fully enjoyed. there was a depth of dark clear brightness in her eyes which was lost upon a quick observer, a character about her mouth which only showed itself to those with whom she familiarly conversed, a glorious form of head the perfect symmetry of which required the eye of an artist for its appreciation. she had none of that dazzling brilliancy, of that voluptuous rubens beauty, of that pearly whiteness, and those vermilion tints which immediately entranced with the power of a basilisk men who came within reach of madeline neroni. it was all but impossible to resist the signora, but no one was called upon for any resistance towards eleanor. you might begin to talk to her as though she were your sister, and it would not be till your head was on your pillow that the truth and intensity of her beauty would flash upon you, that the sweetness of her voice would come upon your ear. a sudden half-hour with the neroni was like falling into a pit, an evening spent with eleanor like an unexpected ramble in some quiet fields of asphodel. "we'll cover him up till there shan't be a morsel of his little 'ittle 'ittle 'ittle nose to be seen," said the mother, stretching her streaming locks over the infant's face. the child screamed with delight, and kicked till mary bold was hardly able to hold him. at this moment the door opened, and mr. slope was announced. up jumped eleanor and, with a sudden quick motion of her hands, pushed back her hair over her shoulders. it would have been perhaps better for her that she had not, for she thus showed more of her confusion than she would have done had she remained as she was. mr. slope, however, immediately recognized her loveliness and thought to himself that, irrespective of her fortune, she would be an inmate that a man might well desire for his house, a partner for his bosom's care very well qualified to make care lie easy. eleanor hurried out of the room to readjust her cap, muttering some unnecessary apology about her baby. and while she is gone, we will briefly go back and state what had been hitherto the results of mr. slope's meditations on his scheme of matrimony. his inquiries as to the widow's income had at any rate been so far successful as to induce him to determine to go on with the speculation. as regarded mr. harding, he had also resolved to do what he could without injury to himself. to mrs. proudie he determined not to speak on the matter, at least not at present. his object was to instigate a little rebellion on the part of the bishop. he thought that such a state of things would be advisable, not only in respect to messrs. harding and quiverful, but also in the affairs of the diocese generally. mr. slope was by no means of opinion that dr. proudie was fit to rule, but he conscientiously thought it wrong that his brother clergy should be subjected to petticoat government. he therefore made up his mind to infuse a little of his spirit into the bishop, sufficient to induce him to oppose his wife, though not enough to make him altogether insubordinate. he had therefore taken an opportunity of again speaking to his lordship about the hospital, and had endeavoured to make it appear that after all it would be unwise to exclude mr. harding from the appointment. mr. slope, however, had a harder task than he had imagined. mrs. proudie, anxious to assume to herself as much as possible of the merit of patronage, had written to mrs. quiverful, requesting her to call at the palace, and had then explained to that matron, with much mystery, condescension, and dignity, the good that was in store for her and her progeny. indeed, mrs. proudie had been so engaged at the very time that mr. slope had been doing the same with the husband at puddingdale vicarage, and had thus in a measure committed herself. the thanks, the humility, the gratitude, the surprise of mrs. quiverful had been very overpowering; she had all but embraced the knees of her patroness, and had promised that the prayers of fourteen unprovided babes (so mrs. quiverful had described her own family, the eldest of which was a stout young woman of three-and-twenty) should be put up to heaven morning and evening for the munificent friend whom god had sent to them. such incense as this was not unpleasing to mrs. proudie, and she made the most of it. she offered her general assistance to the fourteen unprovided babes, if, as she had no doubt, she should find them worthy; expressed a hope that the eldest of them would be fit to undertake tuition in her sabbath-schools; and altogether made herself a very great lady in the estimation of mrs. quiverful. having done this, she thought it prudent to drop a few words before the bishop, letting him know that she had acquainted the puddingdale family with their good fortune; so that he might perceive that he stood committed to the appointment. the husband well understood the ruse of his wife, but he did not resent it. he knew that she was taking the patronage out of his hands; he was resolved to put an end to her interference and reassume his powers. but then he thought this was not the best time to do it. he put off the evil hour, as many a man in similar circumstances has done before him. such having been the case, mr. slope naturally encountered a difficulty in talking over the bishop, a difficulty indeed which he found could not be overcome except at the cost of a general outbreak at the palace. a general outbreak at the present moment might be good policy, but it also might not. it was at any rate not a step to be lightly taken. he began by whispering to the bishop that he feared that public opinion would be against him if mr. harding did not reappear at the hospital. the bishop answered with some warmth that mr. quiverful had been promised the appointment on mr. slope's advice. "not promised?" said mr. slope. "yes, promised," replied the bishop, "and mrs. proudie has seen mrs. quiverful on the subject." this was quite unexpected on the part of mr. slope, but his presence of mind did not fail him, and he turned the statement to his own account. "ah, my lord," said he, "we shall all be in scrapes if the ladies interfere." this was too much in unison with my lord's feelings to be altogether unpalatable, and yet such an allusion to interference demanded a rebuke. my lord was somewhat astounded also, though not altogether made miserable, by finding that there was a point of difference between his wife and his chaplain. "i don't know what you mean by interference," said the bishop mildly. "when mrs. proudie heard that mr. quiverful was to be appointed, it was not unnatural that she should wish to see mrs. quiverful about the schools. i really cannot say that i see any interference." "i only speak, my lord, for your own comfort," said slope; "for your own comfort and dignity in the diocese. i can have no other motive. as far as personal feelings go, mrs. proudie is the best friend i have. i must always remember that. but still, in my present position, my first duty is to your lordship." "i'm sure of that, mr. slope; i am quite sure of that;" said the bishop, mollified: "and you really think that mr. harding should have the hospital?" "upon my word, i'm inclined to think so. i am quite prepared to take upon myself the blame of first suggesting mr. quiverful's name. but since doing so, i have found that there is so strong a feeling in the diocese in favour of mr. harding that i think your lordship should give way. i hear also that mr. harding has modified the objections he first felt to your lordship's propositions. and as to what has passed between mrs. proudie and mrs. quiverful, the circumstance may be a little inconvenient, but i really do not think that that should weigh in a matter of so much moment." and thus the poor bishop was left in a dreadfully undecided step as to what he should do. his mind, however, slightly inclined itself to the appointment of mr. harding, seeing that by such a step he should have the assistance of mr. slope in opposing mrs. proudie. such was the state of affairs at the palace, when mr. slope called at mrs. bold's house and found her playing with her baby. when she ran out of the room, mr. slope began praising the weather to mary bold, then he praised the baby and kissed him, and then he praised the mother, and then he praised miss bold herself. mrs. bold, however, was not long before she came back. "i have to apologize for calling at so very early an hour," began mr. slope, "but i was really so anxious to speak to you that i hope you and miss bold will excuse me." eleanor muttered something in which the words "certainly," and "of course," and "not early at all," were just audible, and then apologized for her own appearance, declaring, with a smile, that her baby was becoming such a big boy that he was quite unmanageable. "he's a great big naughty boy," said she to the child, "and we must send him away to a great big rough romping school, where they have great big rods and do terrible things to naughty boys who don't do what their own mammas tell them;" and she then commenced another course of kissing, being actuated thereto by the terrible idea of sending her child away which her own imagination had depicted. "and where the masters don't have such beautiful long hair to be dishevelled," said mr. slope, taking up the joke and paying a compliment at the same time. eleanor thought he might as well have left the compliment alone, but she said nothing and looked nothing, being occupied as she was with the baby. "let me take him," said mary. "his clothes are nearly off his back with his romping," and so saying she left the room with the child. miss bold had heard mr. slope say he had something pressing to say to eleanor, and thinking that she might be _de trop_, took this opportunity of getting herself out of the room. "don't be long, mary," said eleanor as miss bold shut the door. "i am glad, mrs. bold, to have the opportunity of having ten minutes' conversation with you alone," began mr. slope. "will you let me openly ask you a plain question?" "certainly," said she. "and i am sure you will give me a plain and open answer." "either that, or none at all," said she, laughing. "my question is this, mrs. bold: is your father really anxious to go back to the hospital?" "why do you ask me?" said she. "why don't you ask himself?" "my dear mrs. bold, i'll tell you why. there are wheels within wheels, all of which i would explain to you, only i fear that there is not time. it is essentially necessary that i should have an answer to this question, otherwise i cannot know how to advance your father's wishes; and it is quite impossible that i should ask himself. no one can esteem your father more than i do, but i doubt if this feeling is reciprocal." it certainly was not. "i must be candid with you as the only means of avoiding ultimate consequences, which may be most injurious to mr. harding. i fear there is a feeling--i will not even call it a prejudice--with regard to myself in barchester, which is not in my favour. you remember that sermon--" "oh, mr. slope, we need not go back to that," said eleanor. "for one moment, mrs. bold. it is not that i may talk of myself, but because it is so essential that you should understand how matters stand. that sermon may have been ill-judged--it was certainly misunderstood; but i will say nothing about that now; only this, that it did give rise to a feeling against myself which your father shares with others. it may be that he has proper cause, but the result is that he is not inclined to meet me on friendly terms. i put it to yourself whether you do not know this to be the case." eleanor made no answer, and mr. slope, in the eagerness of his address, edged his chair a little nearer to the widow's seat, unperceived by her. "such being so," continued mr. slope, "i cannot ask him this question as i can ask it of you. in spite of my delinquencies since i came to barchester you have allowed me to regard you as a friend." eleanor made a little motion with her head which was hardly confirmatory, but mr. slope if he noticed it, did not appear to do so. "to you i can speak openly and explain the feelings of my heart. this your father would not allow. unfortunately, the bishop has thought it right that this matter of the hospital should pass through my hands. there have been some details to get up with which he would not trouble himself, and thus it has come to pass that i was forced to have an interview with your father on the matter." "i am aware of that," said eleanor. "of course," said he. "in that interview mr. harding left the impression on my mind that he did not wish to return to the hospital." "how could that be?" said eleanor, at last stirred up to forget the cold propriety of demeanour which she had determined to maintain. "my dear mrs. bold, i give you my word that such was the case," said he, again getting a little nearer to her. "and what is more than that, before my interview with mr. harding, certain persons at the palace--i do not mean the bishop--had told me that such was the fact. i own, i hardly believed it; i own, i thought that your father would wish on every account, for conscience' sake, for the sake of those old men, for old association and the memory of dear days long gone by, on every account i thought that he would wish to resume his duties. but i was told that such was not his wish, and he certainly left me with the impression that i had been told the truth." "well!" said eleanor, now sufficiently roused on the matter. "i hear miss bold's step," said mr. slope; "would it be asking too great a favour to beg you to--i know you can manage anything with miss bold." eleanor did not like the word manage, but still she went out and asked mary to leave them alone for another quarter of an hour. "thank you, mrs. bold--i am so very grateful for this confidence. well, i left your father with this impression. indeed, i may say that he made me understand that he declined the appointment." "not the appointment," said eleanor. "i am sure he did not decline the appointment. but he said that he would not agree--that is, that he did not like the scheme about the schools and the services and all that. i am quite sure he never said that he wished to refuse the place." "oh, mrs. bold!" said mr. slope in a manner almost impassioned. "i would not for the world say to so good a daughter a word against so good a father. but you must, for his sake, let me show you exactly how the matter stands at present. mr. harding was a little flurried when i told him of the bishop's wishes about the school. i did so perhaps with the less caution because you yourself had so perfectly agreed with me on the same subject. he was a little put out and spoke warmly. 'tell the bishop,' said he, 'that i quite disagree with him--and shall not return to the hospital as such conditions are attached to it.' what he said was to that effect; indeed, his words were, if anything, stronger than those. i had no alternative but to repeat them to his lordship, who said that he could look on them in no other light than a refusal. he also had heard the report that your father did not wish for the appointment, and putting all these things together, he thought he had no choice but to look for someone else. he has consequently offered the place to mr. quiverful." "offered the place to mr. quiverful!" repeated eleanor, her eyes suffused with tears. "then, mr. slope, there is an end of it." "no, my friend--not so," said he. "it is to prevent such being the end of it that i am now here. i may at any rate presume that i have got an answer to my question, and that mr. harding is desirous of returning." "desirous of returning--of course he is," said eleanor; "of course he wishes to have back his house and his income and his place in the world; to have back what he gave up with such self-denying honesty, if he can have them without restraints on his conduct to which at his age it would be impossible that he should submit. how can the bishop ask a man of his age to turn schoolmaster to a pack of children?" "out of the question," said mr. slope, laughing slightly; "of course no such demand shall be made on your father. i can at any rate promise you that i will not be the medium of any so absurd a requisition. we wished your father to preach in the hospital, as the inmates may naturally be too old to leave it, but even that shall not be insisted on. we wished also to attach a sabbath-day school to the hospital, thinking that such an establishment could not but be useful under the surveillance of so good a clergyman as mr. harding, and also under your own. but, dear mrs. bold, we won't talk of these things now. one thing is clear: we must do what we can to annul this rash offer the bishop has made to mr. quiverful. your father wouldn't see quiverful, would he? quiverful is an honourable man, and would not for a moment stand in your father's way." "what?" said eleanor. "ask a man with fourteen children to give up his preferment! i am quite sure he will do no such thing." "i suppose not," said slope, and he again drew near to mrs. bold, so that now they were very close to each other. eleanor did not think much about it but instinctively moved away a little. how greatly would she have increased the distance could she have guessed what had been said about her at plumstead! "i suppose not. but it is out of the question that quiverful should supersede your father--quite out of the question. the bishop has been too rash. an idea occurs to me which may perhaps, with god's blessing, put us right. my dear mrs. bold, would you object to seeing the bishop yourself?" "why should not my father see him?" said eleanor. she had once before in her life interfered in her father's affairs, and then not to much advantage. she was older now and felt that she should take no step in a matter so vital to him without his consent. "why, to tell the truth," said mr. slope with a look of sorrow, as though he greatly bewailed the want of charity in his patron, "the bishop fancies that he has cause of anger against your father. i fear an interview would lead to further ill-will." "why," said eleanor, "my father is the mildest, the gentlest man living." "i only know," said slope, "that he has the best of daughters. so you would not see the bishop? as to getting an interview, i could manage that for you without the slightest annoyance to yourself." "i could do nothing, mr. slope, without consulting my father." "ah!" said he, "that would be useless; you would then only be your father's messenger. does anything occur to yourself? something must be done. your father shall not be ruined by so ridiculous a misunderstanding." eleanor said that nothing occurred to her, but that it was very hard; the tears came to her eyes and rolled down her cheeks. mr. slope would have given much to have had the privilege of drying them, but he had tact enough to know that he had still a great deal to do before he could even hope for any privilege with mrs. bold. "it cuts me to the heart to see you so grieved," said he. "but pray let me assure you that your father's interests shall not be sacrificed if it be possible for me to protect them. i will tell the bishop openly what are the facts. i will explain to him that he has hardly the right to appoint any other than your father, and will show him that if he does so he will be guilty of great injustice--and you, mrs. bold, you will have the charity at any rate to believe this of me, that i am truly anxious for your father's welfare--for his and for your own." the widow hardly knew what answer to make. she was quite aware that her father would not be at all thankful to mr. slope; she had a strong wish to share her father's feelings; and yet she could not but acknowledge that mr. slope was very kind. her father, who was generally so charitable to all men, who seldom spoke ill of anyone, had warned her against mr. slope, and yet she did not know how to abstain from thanking him. what interest could he have in the matter but that which he professed? nevertheless there was that in his manner which even she distrusted. she felt, she did not know why, that there was something about him which ought to put her on her guard. mr. slope read all this in her hesitating manner just as plainly as though she had opened her heart to him. it was the talent of the man that he could so read the inward feelings of women with whom he conversed. he knew that eleanor was doubting him, and that, if she thanked him, she would only do so because she could not help it, but yet this did not make him angry or even annoy him. rome was not built in a day. "i did not come for thanks," continued he, seeing her hesitation, "and do not want them--at any rate before they are merited. but this i do want, mrs. bold, that i may make to myself friends in this fold to which it has pleased god to call me as one of the humblest of his shepherds. if i cannot do so, my task here must indeed be a sad one. i will at any rate endeavour to deserve them." "i'm sure," said she, "you will soon make plenty of friends." she felt herself obliged to say something. "that will be nothing unless they are such as will sympathize with my feelings; unless they are such as i can reverence and admire--and love. if the best and purest turn away from me, i cannot bring myself to be satisfied with the friendship of the less estimable. in such case i must live alone." "oh, i'm sure you will not do that, mr. slope." eleanor meant nothing, but it suited him to appear to think some special allusion had been intended. "indeed, mrs. bold, i shall live alone, quite alone as far as the heart is concerned, if those with whom i yearn to ally myself turn away from me. but enough of this; i have called you my friend, and i hope you will not contradict me. i trust the time may come when i may also call your father so. may god bless you, mrs. bold, you and your darling boy. and tell your father from me that what can be done for his interest shall be done." and so he took his leave, pressing the widow's hand rather more closely than usual. circumstances, however, seemed just then to make this intelligible, and the lady did not feel called on to resent it. "i cannot understand him," said eleanor to mary bold a few minutes afterwards. "i do not know whether he is a good man or a bad man--whether he is true or false." "then give him the benefit of the doubt," said mary, "and believe the best." "on the whole, i think i do," said eleanor. "i think i do believe that he means well--and if so, it is a shame that we should revile him and make him miserable while he is among us. but, oh, mary, i fear papa will be disappointed in the hospital." chapter xvii who shall be cock of the walk? all this time things were going somewhat uneasily at the palace. the hint or two which mr. slope had given was by no means thrown away upon the bishop. he had a feeling that if he ever meant to oppose the now almost unendurable despotism of his wife, he must lose no further time in doing so; that if he ever meant to be himself master in his own diocese, let alone his own house, he should begin at once. it would have been easier to have done so from the day of his consecration than now, but easier now than when mrs. proudie should have succeeded in thoroughly mastering the diocesan details. then the proffered assistance of mr. slope was a great thing for him, a most unexpected and invaluable aid. hitherto he had looked on the two as allied forces and had considered that, as allies, they were impregnable. he had begun to believe that his only chance of escape would be by the advancement of mr. slope to some distant and rich preferment. but now it seemed that one of his enemies, certainly the least potent of them, but nevertheless one very important, was willing to desert his own camp. assisted by mr. slope what might he not do? he walked up and down his little study, almost thinking that the time might come when he would be able to appropriate to his own use the big room upstairs in which his predecessor had always sat. as he revolved these things in his mind a note was brought to him from archdeacon grantly, in which that divine begged his lordship to do him the honour of seeing him on the morrow--would his lordship have the kindness to name an hour? dr. grantly's proposed visit would have reference to the reappointment of mr. harding to the wardenship of barchester hospital. the bishop having read his note was informed that the archdeacon's servant was waiting for an answer. here at once a great opportunity offered itself to the bishop of acting on his own responsibility. he bethought himself however of his new ally and rang the bell for mr. slope. it turned out that mr. slope was not in the house, and then, greatly daring, the bishop with his own unassisted spirit wrote a note to the archdeacon saying that he would see him, and naming an hour for doing so. having watched from his study-window that the messenger got safely off from the premises with this dispatch, he began to turn over in his mind what step he should next take. to-morrow he would have to declare to the archdeacon either that mr. harding should have the appointment, or that he should not have it. the bishop felt that he could not honestly throw over the quiverfuls without informing mrs. proudie, and he resolved at last to brave the lioness in her den and tell her that circumstances were such that it behoved him to reappoint mr. harding. he did not feel that he should at all derogate from his new courage by promising mrs. proudie that the very first piece of available preferment at his disposal should be given to quiverful to atone for the injury done to him. if he could mollify the lioness with such a sop, how happy would he think his first efforts to have been! not without many misgivings did he find himself in mrs. proudie's boudoir. he had at first thought of sending for her. but it was not at all impossible that she might choose to take such a message amiss, and then also it might be some protection to him to have his daughters present at the interview. he found her sitting with her account-books before her, nibbling the end of her pencil, evidently immersed in pecuniary difficulties, and harassed in mind by the multiplicity of palatial expenses and the heavy cost of episcopal grandeur. her daughters were around her. olivia was reading a novel, augusta was crossing a note to her bosom friend in baker street, and netta was working diminutive coach wheels for the bottom of a petticoat. if the bishop could get the better of his wife in her present mood, he would be a man indeed. he might then consider the victory his own forever. after all, in such cases the matter between husband and wife stands much the same as it does between two boys at the same school, two cocks in the same yard, or two armies on the same continent. the conqueror once is generally the conqueror forever after. the prestige of victory is everything. "ahem--my dear," began the bishop, "if you are disengaged, i wished to speak to you." mrs. proudie put her pencil down carefully at the point to which she had totted her figures, marked down in her memory the sum she had arrived at, and then looked up, sourly enough, into her helpmate's face. "if you are busy, another time will do as well," continued the bishop, whose courage, like bob acres', had oozed out now that he found himself on the ground of battle. "what is it about, bishop?" asked the lady. "well--it was about those quiverfuls--but i see you are engaged. another time will do just as well for me." "what about the quiverfuls? it is quite understood, i believe, that they are to come to the hospital. there is to be no doubt about that, is there?" and as she spoke she kept her pencil sternly and vigorously fixed on the column of figures before her. "why, my dear, there is a difficulty," said the bishop. "a difficulty!" said mrs. proudie, "what difficulty? the place has been promised to mr. quiverful, and of course he must have it. he has made all his arrangements. he has written for a curate for puddingdale, he has spoken to the auctioneer about selling his farm, horses, and cows, and in all respects considers the place as his own. of course he must have it." now, bishop, look well to thyself and call up all the manhood that is in thee. think how much is at stake. if now thou art not true to thy guns, no slope can hereafter aid thee. how can he who deserts his own colours at the first smell of gunpowder expect faith in any ally? thou thyself hast sought the battle-field: fight out the battle manfully now thou art there. courage, bishop, courage! frowns cannot kill, nor can sharp words break any bones. after all, the apron is thine own. she can appoint no wardens, give away no benefices, nominate no chaplains, an' thou art but true to thyself. up, man, and at her with a constant heart. some little monitor within the bishop's breast so addressed him. but then there was another monitor there which advised him differently, and as follows. remember, bishop, she is a woman, and such a woman too as thou well knowest: a battle of words with such a woman is the very mischief. were it not better for thee to carry on this war, if it must be waged, from behind thine own table in thine own study? does not every cock fight best on his own dunghill? thy daughters also are here, the pledges of thy love, the fruits of thy loins: is it well that they should see thee in the hour of thy victory over their mother? nay, is it well that they should see thee in the possible hour of thy defeat? besides, hast thou not chosen thy opportunity with wonderful little skill, indeed with no touch of that sagacity for which thou art famous? will it not turn out that thou art wrong in this matter and thine enemy right; that thou hast actually pledged thyself in this matter of the hospital, and that now thou wouldest turn upon thy wife because she requires from thee but the fulfilment of thy promise? art thou not a christian bishop, and is not thy word to be held sacred whatever be the result? return, bishop, to thy sanctum on the lower floor and postpone thy combative propensities for some occasion in which at least thou mayest fight the battle against odds less tremendously against thee. all this passed within the bishop's bosom while mrs. proudie still sat with her fixed pencil, and the figures of her sum still enduring on the tablets of her memory. "£ s. d." she said to herself. "of course mr. quiverful must have the hospital," she said out loud to her lord. "well, my dear, i merely wanted to suggest to you that mr. slope seems to think that if mr. harding be not appointed, public feeling in the matter would be against us, and that the press might perhaps take it up." "mr. slope seems to think!" said mrs. proudie in a tone of voice which plainly showed the bishop that he was right in looking for a breach in that quarter. "and what has mr. slope to do with it? i hope, my lord, you are not going to allow yourself to be governed by a chaplain." and now in her eagerness the lady lost her place in her account. "certainly not, my dear. nothing i can assure you is less probable. but still, mr. slope may be useful in finding how the wind blows, and i really thought that if we could give something else as good to the quiverfuls--" "nonsense," said mrs. proudie; "it would be years before you could give them anything else that could suit them half as well, and as for the press and the public and all that, remember there are two ways of telling a story. if mr. harding is fool enough to tell his tale, we can also tell ours. the place was offered to him, and he refused it. it has now been given to someone else, and there's an end of it. at least i should think so." "well, my dear, i rather believe you are right," said the bishop, and sneaking out of the room, he went downstairs, troubled in his mind as to how he should receive the archdeacon on the morrow. he felt himself not very well just at present, and began to consider that he might, not improbably, be detained in his room the next morning by an attack of bile. he was, unfortunately, very subject to bilious annoyances. "mr. slope, indeed! i'll slope him," said the indignant matron to her listening progeny. "i don't know what has come to mr. slope. i believe he thinks he is to be bishop of barchester himself, because i've taken him by the hand and got your father to make him his domestic chaplain." "he was always full of impudence," said olivia; "i told you so once before, mamma." olivia, however, had not thought him too impudent when once before he had proposed to make her mrs. slope. "well, olivia, i always thought you liked him," said augusta, who at that moment had some grudge against her sister. "i always disliked the man, because i think him thoroughly vulgar." "there you're wrong," said mrs. proudie; "he's not vulgar at all; and what is more, he is a soul-stirring, eloquent preacher; but he must be taught to know his place if he is to remain in this house." "he has the horridest eyes i ever saw in a man's head," said netta; "and i tell you what, he's terribly greedy; did you see all the currant pie he ate yesterday?" when mr. slope got home he soon learnt from the bishop, as much from his manner as his words, that mrs. proudie's behests in the matter of the hospital were to be obeyed. dr. proudie let fall something as to "this occasion only" and "keeping all affairs about patronage exclusively in his own hands." but he was quite decided about mr. harding; and as mr. slope did not wish to have both the prelate and the prelatess against him, he did not at present see that he could do anything but yield. he merely remarked that he would of course carry out the bishop's views and that he was quite sure that if the bishop trusted to his own judgement things in the diocese would certainly be well ordered. mr. slope knew that if you hit a nail on the head often enough, it will penetrate at last. he was sitting alone in his room on the same evening when a light knock was made on his door, and before he could answer it the door was opened, and his patroness appeared. he was all smiles in a moment, but so was not she also. she took, however, the chair that was offered to her, and thus began her expostulation: "mr. slope, i did not at all approve your conduct the other night with that italian woman. anyone would have thought that you were her lover." "good gracious, my dear madam," said mr. slope with a look of horror. "why, she is a married woman." "that's more than i know," said mrs. proudie; "however she chooses to pass for such. but married or not married, such attention as you paid to her was improper. i cannot believe that you would wish to give offence in my drawing-room, mr. slope, but i owe it to myself and my daughters to tell you that i disapprove of your conduct." mr. slope opened wide his huge protruding eyes and stared out of them with a look of well-feigned surprise. "why, mrs. proudie," said he, "i did but fetch her something to eat when she said she was hungry." "and you have called on her since," continued she, looking at the culprit with the stern look of a detective policeman in the act of declaring himself. mr. slope turned over in his mind whether it would be well for him to tell this termagant at once that he should call on whom he liked and do what he liked, but he remembered that his footing in barchester was not yet sufficiently firm, and that it would be better for him to pacify her. "i certainly called since at dr. stanhope's house, and certainly saw madame neroni." "yes, and you saw her alone," said the episcopal argus. "undoubtedly, i did," said mr. slope, "but that was because nobody else happened to be in the room. surely it was no fault of mine if the rest of the family were out." "perhaps not, but i assure you, mr. slope, you will fall greatly in my estimation if i find that you allow yourself to be caught by the lures of that woman. i know women better than you do, mr. slope, and you may believe me that that signora, as she calls herself, is not a fitting companion for a strict evangelical unmarried young clergyman." how mr. slope would have liked to laugh at her, had he dared! but he did not dare. so he merely said, "i can assure you, mrs. proudie, the lady in question is nothing to me." "well, i hope not, mr. slope. but i have considered it my duty to give you this caution. and now there is another thing i feel myself called on to speak about: it is your conduct to the bishop, mr. slope." "my conduct to the bishop," said he, now truly surprised and ignorant what the lady alluded to. "yes, mr. slope, your conduct to the bishop. it is by no means what i would wish to see it." "has the bishop said anything, mrs. proudie?" "no, the bishop has said nothing. he probably thinks that any remarks on the matter will come better from me, who first introduced you to his lordship's notice. the fact is, mr. slope, you are a little inclined to take too much upon yourself." an angry spot showed itself on mr. slope's cheeks, and it was with difficulty that he controlled himself. but he did do so, and sat quite silent while the lady went on. "it is the fault of many young men in your position, and therefore the bishop is not inclined at present to resent it. you will, no doubt, soon learn what is required from you and what is not. if you will take my advice, however, you will be careful not to obtrude advice upon the bishop in any matter touching patronage. if his lordship wants advice, he knows where to look for it." and then having added to her counsel a string of platitudes as to what was desirable and what not desirable in the conduct of a strictly evangelical unmarried young clergyman, mrs. proudie retreated, leaving the chaplain to his thoughts. the upshot of his thoughts was this, that there certainly was not room in the diocese for the energies of both himself and mrs. proudie, and that it behoved him quickly to ascertain whether his energies or hers were to prevail. chapter xviii the widow's persecution early on the following morning mr. slope was summoned to the bishop's dressing-room, and went there fully expecting that he should find his lordship very indignant and spirited up by his wife to repeat the rebuke which she had administered on the previous day. mr. slope had resolved that at any rate from him he would not stand it, and entered the dressing-room in rather a combative disposition; but he found the bishop in the most placid and gentlest of humours. his lordship complained of being rather unwell, had a slight headache, and was not quite the thing in his stomach; but there was nothing the matter with his temper. "oh, slope," said he, taking the chaplain's proffered hand, "archdeacon grantly is to call on me this morning, and i really am not fit to see him. i fear i must trouble you to see him for me;" and then dr. proudie proceeded to explain what it was that must be said to dr. grantly. he was to be told in fact, in the civilest words in which the tidings could be conveyed, that mr. harding having refused the wardenship, the appointment had been offered to mr. quiverful and accepted by him. mr. slope again pointed out to his patron that he thought he was perhaps not quite wise in his decision, and this he did _sotto voce_. but even with this precaution it was not safe to say much, and during the little that he did say, the bishop made a very slight, but still a very ominous gesture with his thumb towards the door which opened from his dressing-room to some inner sanctuary. mr. slope at once took the hint and said no more, but he perceived that there was to be confidence between him and his patron, that the league desired by him was to be made, and that this appointment of mr. quiverful was to be the last sacrifice offered on the altar of conjugal obedience. all this mr. slope read in the slight motion of the bishop's thumb, and he read it correctly. there was no need of parchments and seals, of attestations, explanations, and professions. the bargain was understood between them, and mr. slope gave the bishop his hand upon it. the bishop understood the little extra squeeze, and an intelligible gleam of assent twinkled in his eye. "pray be civil to the archdeacon, mr. slope," said he out loud, "but make him quite understand that in this matter mr. harding has put it out of my power to oblige him." it would be a calumny on mrs. proudie to suggest that she was sitting in her bedroom with her ear at the keyhole during this interview. she had within her a spirit of decorum which prevented her from descending to such baseness. to put her ear to a keyhole, or to listen at a chink, was a trick for a housemaid. mrs. proudie knew this, and therefore did not do it; but she stationed herself as near to the door as she well could, that she might, if possible, get the advantage which the housemaid would have had, without descending to the housemaid's artifice. it was little, however, that she heard, and that little was only sufficient to deceive her. she saw nothing of that friendly pressure, perceived nothing of that concluded bargain; she did not even dream of the treacherous resolves which those two false men had made together to upset her in the pride of her station, to dash the cup from her lip before she had drunk of it, to sweep away all her power before she had tasted its sweets! traitors that they were, the husband of her bosom and the outcast whom she had fostered and brought to the warmth of the world's brightest fireside! but neither of them had the magnanimity of this woman. though two men have thus leagued themselves together against her, even yet the battle is not lost. mr. slope felt pretty sure that dr. grantly would decline the honour of seeing him, and such turned out to be the case. the archdeacon, when the palace door was opened to him, was greeted by a note. mr. slope presented his compliments, &c. &c. the bishop was ill in his room and very greatly regretted, &c. &c. mr. slope had been charged with the bishop's views, and if agreeable to the archdeacon, would do himself the honour, &c. &c. the archdeacon, however, was not agreeable, and having read his note in the hall, crumpled it up in his hand, and muttering something about sorrow for his lordship's illness, took his leave, without sending as much as a verbal message in answer to mr. slope's note. "ill!" said the archdeacon to himself as he flung himself into his brougham. "the man is absolutely a coward. he is afraid to see me. ill, indeed!" the archdeacon was never ill himself, and did not therefore understand that anyone else could in truth be prevented by illness from keeping an appointment. he regarded all such excuses as subterfuges, and in the present instance he was not far wrong. dr. grantly desired to be driven to his father-in-law's lodgings in the high street, and hearing from the servant that mr. harding was at his daughter's, followed him to mrs. bold's house, and there found him. the archdeacon was fuming with rage when he got into the drawing-room, and had by this time nearly forgotten the pusillanimity of the bishop in the villainy of the chaplain. "look at that," said he, throwing mr. slope's crumpled note to mr. harding. "i am to be told that if i choose i may have the honour of seeing mr. slope, and that too after a positive engagement with the bishop." "but he says the bishop is ill," said mr. harding. "pshaw! you don't mean to say that you are deceived by such an excuse as that. he was well enough yesterday. now i tell you what, i will see the bishop, and i will tell him also very plainly what i think of his conduct. i will see him, or else barchester will soon be too hot to hold him." eleanor was sitting in the room, but dr. grantly had hardly noticed her in his anger. eleanor now said to him with the greatest innocence, "i wish you had seen mr. slope, dr. grantly, because i think perhaps it might have done good." the archdeacon turned on her with almost brutal wrath. had she at once owned that she had accepted mr. slope for her second husband, he could hardly have felt more convinced of her belonging body and soul to the slope and proudie party than he now did on hearing her express such a wish as this. poor eleanor! "see him!" said the archdeacon glaring at her. "and why am i to be called on to lower myself in the world's esteem and my own by coming in contact with such a man as that? i have hitherto lived among gentlemen, and do not mean to be dragged into other company by anybody." poor mr. harding well knew what the archdeacon meant, but eleanor was as innocent as her own baby. she could not understand how the archdeacon could consider himself to be dragged into bad company by condescending to speak to mr. slope for a few minutes when the interests of her father might be served by his doing so. "i was talking for a full hour yesterday to mr. slope," said she with some little assumption of dignity, "and i did not find myself lowered by it." "perhaps not," said he. "but if you'll be good enough to allow me, i shall judge for myself in such matters. and i tell you what, eleanor; it will be much better for you if you will allow yourself to be guided also by the advice of those who are your friends. if you do not, you will be apt to find that you have no friends left who can advise you." eleanor blushed up to the roots of her hair. but even now she had not the slightest idea of what was passing in the archdeacon's mind. no thought of love-making or love-receiving had yet found its way to her heart since the death of poor john bold, and if it were possible that such a thought should spring there, the man must be far different from mr. slope that could give it birth. nevertheless eleanor blushed deeply, for she felt she was charged with improper conduct, and she did so with the more inward pain because her father did not instantly rally to her side--that father for whose sake and love she had submitted to be the receptacle of mr. slope's confidence. she had given a detailed account of all that had passed to her father, and though he had not absolutely agreed with her about mr. slope's views touching the hospital, yet he had said nothing to make her think that she had been wrong in talking to him. she was far too angry to humble herself before her brother-in-law. indeed, she had never accustomed herself to be very abject before him, and they had never been confidential allies. "i do not the least understand what you mean, dr. grantly," said she. "i do not know that i can accuse myself of doing anything that my friends should disapprove. mr. slope called here expressly to ask what papa's wishes were about the hospital, and as i believe he called with friendly intentions, i told him." "friendly intentions!" sneered the archdeacon. "i believe you greatly wrong mr. slope," continued eleanor, "but i have explained this to papa already; and as you do not seem to approve of what i say, dr. grantly, i will with your permission leave you and papa together;" so saying, she walked slowly out of the room. all this made mr. harding very unhappy. it was quite clear that the archdeacon and his wife had made up their minds that eleanor was going to marry mr. slope. mr. harding could not really bring himself to think that she would do so, but yet he could not deny that circumstances made it appear that the man's company was not disagreeable to her. she was now constantly seeing him, and yet she received visits from no other unmarried gentleman. she always took his part when his conduct was canvassed, although she was aware how personally objectionable he was to her friends. then, again, mr. harding felt that if she should choose to become mrs. slope, he had nothing that he could justly urge against her doing so. she had full right to please herself, and he, as a father, could not say that she would disgrace herself by marrying a clergyman who stood so well before the world as mr. slope did. as for quarrelling with his daughter on account of such a marriage, and separating himself from her as the archdeacon had threatened to do, that, with mr. harding, would be out of the question. if she should determine to marry this man, he must get over his aversion as best he could. his eleanor, his own old companion in their old happy home, must still be the friend of his bosom, the child of his heart. let who would cast her off, he would not. if it were fated that he should have to sit in his old age at the same table with that man whom of all men he disliked the most, he would meet his fate as best he might. anything to him would be preferable to the loss of his daughter. such being his feelings, he hardly knew how to take part with eleanor against the archdeacon, or with the archdeacon against eleanor. it will be said that he should never have suspected her.--alas! he never should have done so. but mr. harding was by no means a perfect character. in his indecision, his weakness, his proneness to be led by others, his want of self-confidence, he was very far from being perfect. and then it must be remembered that such a marriage as that which the archdeacon contemplated with disgust, which we who know mr. slope so well would regard with equal disgust, did not appear so monstrous to mr. harding because in his charity he did not hate the chaplain as the archdeacon did, and as we do. he was, however, very unhappy when his daughter left the room, and he had recourse to an old trick of his that was customary to him in his times of sadness. he began playing some slow tune upon an imaginary violoncello, drawing one hand slowly backwards and forwards as though he held a bow in it, and modulating the unreal chords with the other. "she'll marry that man as sure as two and two make four," said the practical archdeacon. "i hope not, i hope not," said the father. "but if she does, what can i say to her? i have no right to object to him." "no right!" exclaimed dr. grantly. "no right as her father. he is in my own profession and, for aught we know, a good man." to this the archdeacon would by no means assent. it was not well, however, to argue the case against eleanor in her own drawing-room, and so they both walked forth and discussed the matter in all its bearings under the elm-trees of the close. mr. harding also explained to his son-in-law what had been the purport, at any rate the alleged purport, of mr. slope's last visit to the widow. he, however, stated that he could not bring himself to believe that mr. slope had any real anxiety such as that he had pretended. "i cannot forget his demeanour to myself," said mr. harding, "and it is not possible that his ideas should have changed so soon." "i see it all," said the archdeacon. "the sly _tartuffe_! he thinks to buy the daughter by providing for the father. he means to show how powerful he is, how good he is, and how much he is willing to do for her _beaux yeux_; yes, i see it all now. but we'll be too many for him yet, mr. harding;" he said, turning to his companion with some gravity and pressing his hand upon the other's arm. "it would, perhaps, be better for you to lose the hospital than get it on such terms." "lose it!" said mr. harding; "why i've lost it already. i don't want it. i've made up my mind to do without it. i'll withdraw altogether. i'll just go and write a line to the bishop and tell him that i withdraw my claim altogether." nothing would have pleased him better than to be allowed to escape from the trouble and difficulty in such a manner. but he was now going too fast for the archdeacon. "no--no--no! we'll do no such thing," said dr. grantly. "we'll still have the hospital. i hardly doubt but that we'll have it. but not by mr. slope's assistance. if that be necessary, we'll lose it; but we'll have it, spite of his teeth, if we can. arabin will be at plumstead to-morrow; you must come over and talk to him." the two now turned into the cathedral library, which was used by the clergymen of the close as a sort of ecclesiastical club-room, for writing sermons and sometimes letters; also for reading theological works and sometimes magazines and newspapers. the theological works were not disturbed, perhaps, quite as often as from the appearance of the building the outside public might have been led to expect. here the two allies settled on their course of action. the archdeacon wrote a letter to the bishop, strongly worded, but still respectful, in which he put forward his father-in-law's claim to the appointment and expressed his own regret that he had not been able to see his lordship when he called. of mr. slope he made no mention whatsoever. it was then settled that mr. harding should go out to plumstead on the following day, and after considerable discussion on the matter the archdeacon proposed to ask eleanor there also, so as to withdraw her, if possible, from mr. slope's attentions. "a week or two," said he, "may teach her what he is, and while she is there she will be out of harm's way. mr. slope won't come there after her." eleanor was not a little surprised when her brother-in-law came back and very civilly pressed her to go out to plumstead with her father. she instantly perceived that her father had been fighting her battles for her behind her back. she felt thankful to him, and for his sake she would not show her resentment to the archdeacon by refusing his invitation. but she could not, she said, go on the morrow; she had an invitation to drink tea at the stanhopes, which she had promised to accept. she would, she added, go with her father on the next day, if he would wait; or she would follow him. "the stanhopes!" said dr. grantly. "i did not know you were so intimate with them." "i did not know it myself," said she, "till miss stanhope called yesterday. however, i like her very much, and i have promised to go and play chess with some of them." "have they a party there?" said the archdeacon, still fearful of mr. slope. "oh, no," said eleanor; "miss stanhope said there was to be nobody at all. but she had heard that mary had left me for a few weeks, and she had learnt from someone that i play chess, and so she came over on purpose to ask me to go in." "well, that's very friendly," said the ex-warden. "they certainly do look more like foreigners than english people, but i dare say they are none the worse for that." the archdeacon was inclined to look upon the stanhopes with favourable eyes, and had nothing to object on the matter. it was therefore arranged that mr. harding should postpone his visit to plumstead for one day and then take with him eleanor, the baby, and the nurse. mr. slope is certainly becoming of some importance in barchester. chapter xix barchester by moonlight there was much cause for grief and occasional perturbation of spirits in the stanhope family, but yet they rarely seemed to be grieved or to be disturbed. it was the peculiar gift of each of them that each was able to bear his or her own burden without complaint, and perhaps without sympathy. they habitually looked on the sunny side of the wall, if there was a gleam on either side for them to look at; if there was none, they endured the shade with an indifference which, if not stoical, answered the end at which the stoics aimed. old stanhope could not but feel that he had ill-performed his duties as a father and a clergyman, and could hardly look forward to his own death without grief at the position in which he would leave his family. his income for many years had been as high as £ , a year, and yet they had among them no other provision than their mother's fortune of £ , . he had not only spent his income, but was in debt. yet with all this he seldom showed much outward sign of trouble. it was the same with the mother. if she added little to the pleasures of her children, she detracted still less: she neither grumbled at her lot, nor spoke much of her past or future sufferings; as long as she had a maid to adjust her dress, and had those dresses well made, nature with her was satisfied. it was the same with the children. charlotte never rebuked her father with the prospect of their future poverty, nor did it seem to grieve her that she was becoming an old maid so quickly; her temper was rarely ruffled, and, if we might judge by her appearance, she was always happy. the signora was not so sweet-tempered, but she possessed much enduring courage; she seldom complained--never, indeed, to her family. though she had a cause for affliction which would have utterly broken down the heart of most women as beautiful as she and as devoid of all religious support, yet she bore her suffering in silence, or alluded to it only to elicit the sympathy and stimulate the admiration of the men with whom she flirted. as to bertie, one would have imagined from the sound of his voice and the gleam of his eye that he had not a sorrow nor a care in the world. nor had he. he was incapable of anticipating to-morrow's griefs. the prospect of future want no more disturbed his appetite than does that of the butcher's knife disturb the appetite of the sheep. such was the usual tenor of their way; but there were rare exceptions. occasionally the father would allow an angry glance to fall from his eye, and the lion would send forth a low dangerous roar as though he meditated some deed of blood. occasionally also madame neroni would become bitter against mankind, more than usually antagonistic to the world's decencies, and would seem as though she was about to break from her moorings and allow herself to be carried forth by the tide of her feelings to utter ruin and shipwreck. she, however, like the rest of them, had no real feelings, could feel no true passion. in that was her security. before she resolved on any contemplated escapade she would make a small calculation, and generally summed up that the stanhope villa or even barchester close was better than the world at large. they were most irregular in their hours. the father was generally the earliest in the breakfast-parlour, and charlotte would soon follow and give him his coffee, but the others breakfasted anywhere, anyhow, and at any time. on the morning after the archdeacon's futile visit to the palace, dr. stanhope came downstairs with an ominously dark look about his eyebrows; his white locks were rougher than usual, and he breathed thickly and loudly as he took his seat in his armchair. he had open letters in his hand, and when charlotte came into the room, he was still reading them. she went up and kissed him as was her wont, but he hardly noticed her as she did so, and she knew at once that something was the matter. "what's the meaning of that?" said he, throwing over the table a letter with a milan postmark. charlotte was a little frightened as she took it up, but her mind was relieved when she saw that it was merely the bill of their italian milliner. the sum total was certainly large, but not so large as to create an important row. "it's for our clothes, papa, for six months before we came here. the three of us can't dress for nothing, you know." "nothing, indeed!" said he, looking at the figures which, in milanese denominations, were certainly monstrous. "the man should have sent it to me," said charlotte. "i wish he had with all my heart--if you would have paid it. i see enough in it to know that three quarters of it are for madeline." "she has little else to amuse her, sir," said charlotte with true good nature. "and i suppose he has nothing else to amuse him," said the doctor, throwing over another letter to his daughter. it was from some member of the family of sidonia, and politely requested the father to pay a small trifle of £ , being the amount of a bill discounted in favour of mr. ethelbert stanhope and now overdue for a period of nine months. charlotte read the letter, slowly folded it up, and put it under the edge of the tea-tray. "i suppose he has nothing to amuse him but discounting bills with jews. does he think i'll pay that?" "i am sure he thinks no such thing," said she. "and who does he think will pay it?" "as far as honesty goes i suppose it won't much matter if it is never paid," said she. "i dare say he got very little of it." "i suppose it won't much matter either," said the father, "if he goes to prison and rots there. it seems to me that that's the other alternative." dr. stanhope spoke of the custom of his youth. but his daughter, though she had lived so long abroad, was much more completely versed in the ways of the english world. "if the man arrests him," said she, "he must go through the court." it is thus, thou great family of sidonia--it is thus that we gentiles treat thee, when, in our extremest need, thou and thine have aided us with mountains of gold as big as lions--and occasionally with wine-warrants and orders for dozens of dressing-cases. "what, and become an insolvent?" said the doctor. "he's that already," said charlotte, wishing always to get over a difficulty. "what a condition," said the doctor, "for the son of a clergyman of the church of england." "i don't see why clergymen's sons should pay their debts more than other young men," said charlotte. "he's had as much from me since he left school as is held sufficient for the eldest son of many a nobleman," said the angry father. "well, sir," said charlotte, "give him another chance." "what!" said the doctor, "do you mean that i am to pay that jew?" "oh, no! i wouldn't pay him, he must take his chance; and if the worst comes to the worst, bertie must go abroad. but i want you to be civil to bertie and let him remain here as long as we stop. he has a plan in his head that may put him on his feet after all." "has he any plan for following up his profession?" "oh, he'll do that too; but that must follow. he's thinking of getting married." just at that moment the door opened, and bertie came in whistling. the doctor immediately devoted himself to his egg and allowed bertie to whistle himself round to his sister's side without noticing him. charlotte gave a sign to him with her eye, first glancing at her father, and then at the letter, the corner of which peeped out from under the tea-tray. bertie saw and understood, and with the quiet motion of a cat he abstracted the letter and made himself acquainted with its contents. the doctor, however, had seen him, deep as he appeared to be mersed in his egg-shell, and said in his harshest voice, "well, sir, do you know that gentleman?" "yes, sir," said bertie. "i have a sort of acquaintance with him, but none that can justify him in troubling you. if you will allow me, sir, i will answer this." "at any rate i shan't," said the father, and then he added, after a pause, "is it true, sir, that you owe the man £ ?" "well," said bertie, "i think i should be inclined to dispute the amount, if i were in a condition to pay him such of it as i really do owe him." "has he your bill for £ ?" said the father, speaking very loudly and very angrily. "well, i believe he has," said bertie, "but all the money i ever got from him was £ ." "and what became of the £ ?" "why, sir, the commission was £ or so, and i took the remainder in paving-stones and rocking-horses." "paving-stones and rocking-horses!" said the doctor. "where are they?" "oh, sir, i suppose they are in london somewhere--but i'll inquire if you wish for them." "he's an idiot," said the doctor, "and it's sheer folly to waste more money on him. nothing can save him from ruin," and so saying, the unhappy father walked out of the room. "would the governor like to have the paving-stones?" said bertie to his sister. "i'll tell you what," said she. "if you don't take care, you will find yourself loose upon the world without even a house over your head; you don't know him as well as i do. he's very angry." bertie stroked his big beard, sipped his tea, chatted over his misfortunes in a half-comic, half-serious tone, and ended by promising his sister that he would do his very best to make himself agreeable to the widow bold. then charlotte followed her father to his own room, softened down his wrath, and persuaded him to say nothing more about the jew bill discounter, at any rate for a few weeks. he even went so far as to say he would pay the £ , or at any rate settle the bill, if he saw a certainty of his son's securing for himself anything like a decent provision in life. nothing was said openly between them about poor eleanor, but the father and the daughter understood each other. they all met together in the drawing-room at nine o'clock, in perfect good humour with each other, and about that hour mrs. bold was announced. she had never been in the house before, though she had of course called, and now she felt it strange to find herself there in her usual evening dress, entering the drawing-room of these strangers in this friendly, unceremonious way, as though she had known them all her life. but in three minutes they made her at home. charlotte tripped downstairs and took her bonnet from her, and bertie came to relieve her from her shawl, and the signora smiled on her as she could smile when she chose to be gracious, and the old doctor shook hands with her in a kind benedictory manner that went to her heart at once and made her feel that he must be a good man. she had not been seated for above five minutes when the door again opened and mr. slope was announced. she felt rather surprised, because she was told that nobody was to be there, and it was very evident from the manner of some of them that mr. slope was not unexpected. but still there was not much in it. in such invitations a bachelor or two more or less are always spoken of as nobodies, and there was no reason why mr. slope should not drink tea at dr. stanhope's as well as eleanor herself. he, however, was very much surprised and not very much gratified at finding that his own embryo spouse made one of the party. he had come there to gratify himself by gazing on madame neroni's beauty and listening to and returning her flattery: and though he had not owned as much to himself, he still felt that if he spent the evening as he had intended to do, he might probably not thereby advance his suit with mrs. bold. the signora, who had no idea of a rival, received mr. slope with her usual marks of distinction. as he took her hand, she made some confidential communication to him in a low voice, declaring that she had a plan to communicate to him after tea, and was evidently prepared to go on with her work of reducing the chaplain to a state of captivity. poor mr. slope was rather beside himself. he thought that eleanor could not but have learnt from his demeanour that he was an admirer of her own, and he had also flattered himself that the idea was not unacceptable to her. what would she think of him if he now devoted himself to a married woman! but eleanor was not inclined to be severe in her criticisms on him in this respect, and felt no annoyance of any kind, when she found herself seated between bertie and charlotte stanhope. she had no suspicion of mr. slope's intentions; she had no suspicion even of the suspicion of other people; but still she felt well-pleased not to have mr. slope too near to her. and she was not ill-pleased to have bertie stanhope near her. it was rarely indeed that he failed to make an agreeable impression on strangers. with a bishop indeed who thought much of his own dignity it was possible that he might fail, but hardly with a young and pretty woman. he possessed the tact of becoming instantly intimate with women without giving rise to any fear of impertinence. he had about him somewhat of the propensities of a tame cat. it seemed quite natural that he should be petted, caressed, and treated with familiar good nature, and that in return he should purr, and be sleek and graceful, and above all never show his claws. like other tame cats, however, he had his claws, and sometimes made them dangerous. when tea was over, charlotte went to the open window and declared loudly that the full harvest moon was much too beautiful to be disregarded, and called them all to look at it. to tell the truth there was but one there who cared much about the moon's beauty, and that one was not charlotte, but she knew how valuable an aid to her purpose the chaste goddess might become, and could easily create a little enthusiasm for the purpose of the moment. eleanor and bertie were soon with her. the doctor was now quiet in his armchair, and mrs. stanhope in hers, both prepared for slumber. "are you a whewellite or a brewsterite, or a t'othermanite, mrs. bold?" said charlotte, who knew a little about everything, and had read about a third of each of the books to which she alluded. "oh!" said eleanor; "i have not read any of the books, but i feel sure that there is one man in the moon at least, if not more." "you don't believe in the pulpy gelatinous matter?" said bertie. "i heard about that," said eleanor, "and i really think it's almost wicked to talk in such a manner. how can we argue about god's power in the other stars from the laws which he has given for our rule in this one?" "how indeed!" said bertie. "why shouldn't there be a race of salamanders in venus? and even if there be nothing but fish in jupiter, why shouldn't the fish there be as wide awake as the men and women here?" "that would be saying very little for them," said charlotte. "i am for dr. whewell myself, for i do not think that men and women are worth being repeated in such countless worlds. there may be souls in other stars, but i doubt their having any bodies attached to them. but come, mrs. bold, let us put our bonnets on and walk round the close. if we are to discuss sidereal questions, we shall do so much better under the towers of the cathedral than stuck in this narrow window." mrs. bold made no objection, and a party was made to walk out. charlotte stanhope well knew the rule as to three being no company, and she had therefore to induce her sister to allow mr. slope to accompany them. "come, mr. slope," she said, "i'm sure you'll join us. we shall be in again in a quarter of an hour, madeline." madeline read in her eye all that she had to say, knew her object, and as she had to depend on her sister for so many of her amusements, she felt that she must yield. it was hard to be left alone while others of her own age walked out to feel the soft influence of the bright night, but it would be harder still to be without the sort of sanction which charlotte gave to all her flirtations and intrigues. charlotte's eye told her that she must give up just at present for the good of the family, and so madeline obeyed. but charlotte's eyes said nothing of the sort to mr. slope. he had no objection at all to the _tête-à-tête_ with the signora which the departure of the other three would allow him, and gently whispered to her, "i shall not leave you alone." "oh, yes," said she; "go--pray go, pray go, for my sake. do not think that i am so selfish. it is understood that nobody is kept within for me. you will understand this too when you know me better. pray join them, mr. slope, but when you come in speak to me for five minutes before you leave us." mr. slope understood that he was to go, and he therefore joined the party in the hall. he would have had no objection at all to this arrangement, if he could have secured mrs. bold's arm; but this of course was out of the question. indeed, his fate was very soon settled, for no sooner had he reached the hall-door than miss stanhope put her hand within his arm, and bertie walked off with eleanor just as naturally as though she were already his own property. and so they sauntered forth: first they walked round the close, according to their avowed intent; then they went under the old arched gateway below st. cuthbert's little church, and then they turned behind the grounds of the bishop's palace, and so on till they came to the bridge just at the edge of the town, from which passers-by can look down into the gardens of hiram's hospital; and here charlotte and mr. slope, who were in advance, stopped till the other two came up to them. mr. slope knew that the gable-ends and old brick chimneys which stood up so prettily in the moonlight were those of mr. harding's late abode, and would not have stopped on such a spot, in such company, if he could have avoided it; but miss stanhope would not take the hint which he tried to give. "this is a very pretty place, mrs. bold," said charlotte; "by far the prettiest place near barchester. i wonder your father gave it up." it was a very pretty place, and now by the deceitful light of the moon looked twice larger, twice prettier, twice more antiquely picturesque than it would have done in truth-telling daylight. who does not know the air of complex multiplicity and the mysterious interesting grace which the moon always lends to old gabled buildings half-surrounded, as was the hospital, by fine trees! as seen from the bridge on the night of which we are speaking, mr. harding's late abode did look very lovely, and though eleanor did not grieve at her father's having left it, she felt at the moment an intense wish that he might be allowed to return. "he is going to return to it almost immediately, is he not?" asked bertie. eleanor made no immediate reply. many such a question passes unanswered without the notice of the questioner, but such was not now the case. they all remained silent as though expecting her to reply, and after a moment or two, charlotte said, "i believe it is settled that mr. harding returns to the hospital, is it not?" "i don't think anything about it is settled yet," said eleanor. "but it must be a matter of course," said bertie; "that is, if your father wishes it. who else on earth could hold it after what has occurred?" eleanor quietly made her companion understand that the matter was one which she could not discuss in the present company, and then they passed on. charlotte said she would go a short way up the hill out of the town so as to look back upon the towers of the cathedral, and as eleanor leant upon bertie's arm for assistance in the walk, she told him how the matter stood between her father and the bishop. "and, he," said bertie, pointing on to mr. slope, "what part does he take in it?" eleanor explained how mr. slope had at first endeavoured to tyrannize over her father, but how he had latterly come round and done all he could to talk the bishop over in mr. harding's favour. "but my father," she said, "is hardly inclined to trust him; they all say he is so arrogant to the old clergymen of the city." "take my word for it," said bertie, "your father is right. if i am not very much mistaken, that man is both arrogant and false." they strolled up to the top of the hill and then returned through the fields by a foot-path which leads by a small wooden bridge, or rather a plank with a rustic rail to it, over the river to the other side of the cathedral from that at which they had started. they had thus walked round the bishop's grounds, through which the river runs, and round the cathedral and adjacent fields, and it was past eleven before they reached the doctor's door. "it is very late," said eleanor; "it will be a shame to disturb your mother again at such an hour." "oh"' said charlotte, laughing, "you won't disturb mamma; i dare say she is in bed by this time, and madeline would be furious if you did not come in and see her. come, bertie, take mrs. bold's bonnet from her." they went upstairs and found the signora alone, reading. she looked somewhat sad and melancholy, but not more so perhaps than was sufficient to excite additional interest in the bosom of mr. slope; and she was soon deep in whispered intercourse with that happy gentleman, who was allowed to find a resting-place on her sofa. the signora had a way of whispering that was peculiarly her own, and was exactly the reverse of that which prevails among great tragedians. the great tragedian hisses out a positive whisper, made with bated breath, and produced by inarticulated tongue-formed sounds, but yet he is audible through the whole house. the signora, however, used no hisses and produced all her words in a clear, silver tone, but they could only be heard by the ear into which they were poured. charlotte hurried and scurried about the room hither and thither, doing, or pretending to do many things; then, saying something about seeing her mother, ran upstairs. eleanor was thus left alone with bertie, and she hardly felt an hour fly by her. to give bertie his due credit, he could not have played his cards better. he did not make love to her, nor sigh, nor look languishing, but he was amusing and familiar, yet respectful; and when he left eleanor at her own door at one o'clock, which he did by the by with the assistance of the now jealous slope, she thought that he was one of the most agreeable men and the stanhopes decidedly the most agreeable family that she had ever met. chapter xx mr. arabin the rev. francis arabin, fellow of lazarus, late professor of poetry at oxford, and present vicar of st. ewold, in the diocese of barchester, must now be introduced personally to the reader. he is worthy of a new volume, and as he will fill a conspicuous place in it, it is desirable that he should be made to stand before the reader's eye by the aid of such portraiture as the author is able to produce. it is to be regretted that no mental method of daguerreotype or photography has yet been discovered by which the characters of men can be reduced to writing and put into grammatical language with an unerring precision of truthful description. how often does the novelist feel, ay, and the historian also and the biographer, that he has conceived within his mind and accurately depicted on the tablet of his brain the full character and personage of a man, and that nevertheless, when he flies to pen and ink to perpetuate the portrait, his words forsake, elude, disappoint, and play the deuce with him, till at the end of a dozen pages the man described has no more resemblance to the man conceived than the sign-board at the corner of the street has to the duke of cambridge. and yet such mechanical descriptive skill would hardly give more satisfaction to the reader than the skill of the photographer does to the anxious mother desirous to possess an absolute duplicate of her beloved child. the likeness is indeed true, but it is a dull, dead, unfeeling, inauspicious likeness. the face is indeed there, and those looking at it will know at once whose image it is, but the owner of the face will not be proud of the resemblance. there is no royal road to learning, no short cut to the acquirement of any valuable art. let photographers and daguerreotypers do what they will, and improve as they may with further skill on that which skill has already done, they will never achieve a portrait of the human face divine. let biographers, novelists, and the rest of us groan as we may under the burdens which we so often feel too heavy for our shoulders; we must either bear them up like men, or own ourselves too weak for the work we have undertaken. there is no way of writing well and also of writing easily. _labor omnia vincit improbus_. such should be the chosen motto of every labourer, and it may be that labour, if adequately enduring, may suffice at last to produce even some not untrue resemblance of the rev. francis arabin. of his doings in the world, and of the sort of fame which he has achieved, enough has been already said. it has also been said that he is forty years of age, and still unmarried. he was the younger son of a country gentleman of small fortune in the north of england. at an early age he went to winchester, and was intended by his father for new college; but though studious as a boy, he was not studious within the prescribed limits, and at the age of eighteen he left school with a character for talent, but without a scholarship. all that he had obtained, over and above the advantage of his character, was a gold medal for english verse, and hence was derived a strong presumption on the part of his friends that he was destined to add another name to the imperishable list of english poets. from winchester he went to oxford, and was entered as a commoner at balliol. here his special career very soon commenced. he utterly eschewed the society of fast men, gave no wine-parties, kept no horses, rowed no boats, joined no rows, and was the pride of his college tutor. such at least was his career till he had taken his little go, and then he commenced a course of action which, though not less creditable to himself as a man, was hardly so much to the taste of the tutor. he became a member of a vigorous debating society, and rendered himself remarkable there for humorous energy. though always in earnest, yet his earnestness was always droll. to be true in his ideas, unanswerable in his syllogisms, and just in his aspirations was not enough for him. he had failed, failed in his own opinion as well as that of others when others came to know him, if he could not reduce the arguments of his opponents to an absurdity and conquer both by wit and reason. to say that his object was ever to raise a laugh would be most untrue. he hated such common and unnecessary evidence of satisfaction on the part of his hearers. a joke that required to be laughed at was, with him, not worth uttering. he could appreciate by a keener sense than that of his ears the success of his wit, and would see in the eyes of his auditors whether or no he was understood and appreciated. he had been a religious lad before he left school. that is, he had addicted himself to a party in religion, and having done so had received that benefit which most men do who become partisans in such a cause. we are much too apt to look at schism in our church as an unmitigated evil. moderate schism, if there may be such a thing, at any rate calls attention to the subject, draws in supporters who would otherwise have been inattentive to the matter, and teaches men to think upon religion. how great an amount of good of this description has followed that movement in the church of england which commenced with the publication of froude's remains! as a boy young arabin took up the cudgels on the side of the tractarians, and at oxford he sat for a while at the feet of the great newman. to this cause he lent all his faculties. for it he concocted verses, for it he made speeches, for it he scintillated the brightest sparks of his quiet wit. for it he ate and drank and dressed and had his being. in due process of time he took his degree and wrote himself b.a., but he did not do so with any remarkable amount of academical éclat. he had occupied himself too much with high church matters and the polemics, politics, and outward demonstrations usually concurrent with high churchmanship to devote himself with sufficient vigour to the acquisition of a double first. he was not a double first, nor even a first class man, but he revenged himself on the university by putting firsts and double firsts out of fashion for the year and laughing down a species of pedantry which, at the age of twenty-three, leaves no room in a man's mind for graver subjects than conic sections or greek accents. greek accents, however, and conic sections were esteemed necessaries at balliol, and there was no admittance there for mr. arabin within the list of its fellows. lazarus, however, the richest and most comfortable abode of oxford dons, opened its bosom to the young champion of a church militant. mr. arabin was ordained, and became a fellow soon after taking his degree, and shortly after that was chosen professor of poetry. and now came the moment of his great danger. after many mental struggles, and an agony of doubt which may be well surmised, the great prophet of the tractarians confessed himself a roman catholic. mr. newman left the church of england and with him carried many a waverer. he did not carry off mr. arabin, but the escape which that gentleman had was a very narrow one. he left oxford for awhile that he might meditate in complete peace on the step which appeared to him to be all but unavoidable, and shut himself up in a little village on the sea-shore of one of our remotest counties, that he might learn by communing with his own soul whether or no he could with a safe conscience remain within the pale of his mother church. things would have gone badly with him there had he been left entirely to himself. everything was against him: all his worldly interests required him to remain a protestant, and he looked on his worldly interests as a legion of foes, to get the better of whom was a point of extremest honour. in his then state of ecstatic agony such a conquest would have cost him little; he could easily have thrown away all his livelihood; but it cost him much to get over the idea that by choosing the church of england he should be open in his own mind to the charge that he had been led to such a choice by unworthy motives. then his heart was against him: he loved with a strong and eager love the man who had hitherto been his guide, and yearned to follow his footsteps. his tastes were against him: the ceremonies and pomps of the church of rome, their august feasts and solemn fasts, invited his imagination and pleased his eye. his flesh was against him: how great an aid would it be to a poor, weak, wavering man to be constrained to high moral duties, self-denial, obedience, and chastity by laws which were certain in their enactments, and not to be broken without loud, palpable, unmistakable sin! then his faith was against him: he required to believe so much; panted so eagerly to give signs of his belief; deemed it so insufficient to wash himself simply in the waters of jordan; that some great deed, such as that of forsaking everything for a true church, had for him allurements almost past withstanding. mr. arabin was at this time a very young man, and when he left oxford for his far retreat was much too confident in his powers of fence, and too apt to look down on the ordinary sense of ordinary people, to expect aid in the battle that he had to fight from any chance inhabitants of the spot which he had selected. but providence was good to him; there, in that all but desolate place, on the storm-beat shore of that distant sea, he met one who gradually calmed his mind, quieted his imagination, and taught him something of a christian's duty. when mr. arabin left oxford, he was inclined to look upon the rural clergymen of most english parishes almost with contempt. it was his ambition, should he remain within the fold of their church, to do somewhat towards redeeming and rectifying their inferiority and to assist in infusing energy and faith into the hearts of christian ministers, who were, as he thought, too often satisfied to go through life without much show of either. and yet it was from such a one that mr. arabin in his extremest need received that aid which he so much required. it was from the poor curate of a small cornish parish that he first learnt to know that the highest laws for the governance of a christian's duty must act from within and not from without; that no man can become a serviceable servant solely by obedience to written edicts; and that the safety which he was about to seek within the gates of rome was no other than the selfish freedom from personal danger which the bad soldier attempts to gain who counterfeits illness on the eve of battle. mr. arabin returned to oxford a humbler but a better and a happier man, and from that time forth he put his shoulder to the wheel as a clergyman of the church for which he had been educated. the intercourse of those among whom he familiarly lived kept him staunch to the principles of that system of the church to which he had always belonged. since his severance from mr. newman, no one had had so strong an influence over him as the head of his college. during the time of his expected apostasy dr. gwynne had not felt much predisposition in favour of the young fellow. though a high churchman himself within moderate limits, dr. gwynne felt no sympathy with men who could not satisfy their faiths with the thirty-nine articles. he regarded the enthusiasm of such as newman as a state of mind more nearly allied to madness than to religion, and when he saw it evinced by very young men, he was inclined to attribute a good deal of it to vanity. dr. gwynne himself, though a religious man, was also a thoroughly practical man of the world, and he regarded with no favourable eye the tenets of anyone who looked on the two things as incompatible. when he found that mr. arabin was a half roman, he began to regret all he had done towards bestowing a fellowship on so unworthy a recipient; and when again he learnt that mr. arabin would probably complete his journey to rome, he regarded with some satisfaction the fact that in such case the fellowship would be again vacant. when, however, mr. arabin returned and professed himself a confirmed protestant, the master of lazarus again opened his arms to him, and gradually he became the pet of the college. for some little time he was saturnine, silent, and unwilling to take any prominent part in university broils, but gradually his mind recovered, or rather made its tone, and he became known as a man always ready at a moment's notice to take up the cudgels in opposition to anything that savoured of an evangelical bearing. he was great in sermons, great on platforms, great at after-dinner conversations, and always pleasant as well as great. he took delight in elections, served on committees, opposed tooth and nail all projects of university reform, and talked jovially over his glass of port of the ruin to be anticipated by the church and of the sacrilege daily committed by the whigs. the ordeal through which he had gone in resisting the blandishments of the lady of rome had certainly done much towards the strengthening of his character. although in small and outward matters he was self-confident enough, nevertheless in things affecting the inner man he aimed at a humility of spirit which would never have been attractive to him but for that visit to the coast of cornwall. this visit he now repeated every year. such is an interior view of mr. arabin at the time when he accepted the living of st. ewold. exteriorly, he was not a remarkable person. he was above the middle height, well-made, and very active. his hair, which had been jet black, was now tinged with gray, but his face bore no sign of years. it would perhaps be wrong to say that he was handsome, but his face was nevertheless pleasant to look upon. the cheek-bones were rather too high for beauty, and the formation of the forehead too massive and heavy: but the eyes, nose, and mouth were perfect. there was a continual play of lambent fire about his eyes, which gave promise of either pathos or humour whenever he essayed to speak, and that promise was rarely broken. there was a gentle play about his mouth which declared that his wit never descended to sarcasm, and that there was no ill-nature in his repartee. mr. arabin was a popular man among women, but more so as a general than a special favourite. living as a fellow at oxford, marriage with him had been out of the question, and it may be doubted whether he had ever allowed his heart to be touched. though belonging to a church in which celibacy is not the required lot of its ministers, he had come to regard himself as one of those clergymen to whom to be a bachelor is almost a necessity. he had never looked for parochial duty, and his career at oxford was utterly incompatible with such domestic joys as a wife and nursery. he looked on women, therefore, in the same light that one sees them regarded by many romish priests. he liked to have near him that which was pretty and amusing, but women generally were little more to him than children. he talked to them without putting out all his powers, and listened to them without any idea that what he should hear from them could either actuate his conduct or influence his opinion. such was mr. arabin, the new vicar of st. ewold, who is going to stay with the grantlys at plumstead episcopi. mr. arabin reached plumstead the day before mr. harding and eleanor, and the grantly family were thus enabled to make his acquaintance and discuss his qualifications before the arrival of the other guests. griselda was surprised to find that he looked so young, but she told florinda her younger sister, when they had retired for the night, that he did not talk at all like a young man: and she decided with the authority that seventeen has over sixteen that he was not at all nice, although his eyes were lovely. as usual, sixteen implicitly acceded to the dictum of seventeen in such a matter, and said that he certainly was not nice. they then branched off on the relative merits of other clerical bachelors in the vicinity, and both determined without any feeling of jealousy between them that a certain rev. augustus green was by many degrees the most estimable of the lot. the gentleman in question had certainly much in his favour, as, having a comfortable allowance from his father, he could devote the whole proceeds of his curacy to violet gloves and unexceptionable neck ties. having thus fixedly resolved that the new-comer had nothing about him to shake the pre-eminence of the exalted green, the two girls went to sleep in each other's arms, contented with themselves and the world. mrs. grantly at first sight came to much the same conclusion about her husband's favourite as her daughters had done, though, in seeking to measure his relative value, she did not compare him to mr. green; indeed, she made no comparison by name between him and anyone else; but she remarked to her husband that one person's swans were very often another person's geese, thereby clearly showing that mr. arabin had not yet proved his qualifications in swanhood to her satisfaction. "well, susan," said he, rather offended at hearing his friend spoken of so disrespectfully, "if you take mr. arabin for a goose, i cannot say that i think very highly of your discrimination." "a goose! no, of course, he's not a goose. i've no doubt he's a very clever man. but you're so matter-of-fact, archdeacon, when it suits your purpose, that one can't trust oneself to any _façon de parler_. i've no doubt mr. arabin is a very valuable man--at oxford--and that he'll be a good vicar at st. ewold. all i mean is that, having passed one evening with him, i don't find him to be absolutely a paragon. in the first place, if i am not mistaken, he is a little inclined to be conceited." "of all the men that i know intimately," said the archdeacon, "arabin is, in my opinion, the most free from any taint of self-conceit. his fault is that he's too diffident." "perhaps so," said the lady; "only i must own i did not find it out this evening." nothing further was said about him. dr. grantly thought that his wife was abusing mr. arabin merely because he had praised him, and mrs. grantly knew that it was useless arguing for or against any person in favour of or in opposition to whom the archdeacon had already pronounced a strong opinion. in truth, they were both right. mr. arabin was a diffident man in social intercourse with those whom he did not intimately know; when placed in situations which it was his business to fill, and discussing matters with which it was his duty to be conversant, mr. arabin was from habit brazen-faced enough. when standing on a platform in exeter hall, no man would be less mazed than he by the eyes of the crowd before him, for such was the work which his profession had called on him to perform; but he shrank from a strong expression of opinion in general society, and his doing so not uncommonly made it appear that he considered the company not worth the trouble of his energy. he was averse to dictate when the place did not seem to him to justify dictation, and as those subjects on which people wished to hear him speak were such as he was accustomed to treat with decision, he generally shunned the traps there were laid to allure him into discussion, and, by doing so, not infrequently subjected himself to such charges as those brought against him by mrs. grantly. mr. arabin, as he sat at his open window, enjoying the delicious moonlight and gazing at the gray towers of the church, which stood almost within the rectory grounds, little dreamed that he was the subject of so many friendly or unfriendly criticisms. considering how much we are all given to discuss the characters of others, and discuss them often not in the strictest spirit of charity, it is singular how little we are inclined to think that others can speak ill-naturedly of us, and how angry and hurt we are when proof reaches us that they have done so. it is hardly too much to say that we all of us occasionally speak of our dearest friends in a manner in which those dearest friends would very little like to hear themselves mentioned, and that we nevertheless expect that our dearest friends shall invariably speak of us as though they were blind to all our faults, but keenly alive to every shade of our virtues. it did not occur to mr. arabin that he was spoken of at all. it seemed to him, when he compared himself with his host, that he was a person of so little consequence to any, that he was worth no one's words or thoughts. he was utterly alone in the world as regarded domestic ties and those inner familiar relations which are hardly possible between others than husbands and wives, parents and children, or brothers and sisters. he had often discussed with himself the necessity of such bonds for a man's happiness in this world, and had generally satisfied himself with the answer that happiness in this world is not a necessity. herein he deceived himself, or rather tried to do so. he, like others, yearned for the enjoyment of whatever he saw enjoyable, and though he attempted, with the modern stoicism of so many christians, to make himself believe that joy and sorrow were matters which here should be held as perfectly indifferent, these things were not indifferent to him. he was tired of his oxford rooms and his college life. he regarded the wife and children of his friend with something like envy; he all but coveted the pleasant drawing-room, with its pretty windows opening on to lawns and flower-beds, the apparel of the comfortable house, and--above all--the air of home which encompassed it all. it will be said that no time can have been so fitted for such desires on his part as this, when he had just possessed himself of a country parish, of a living among fields and gardens, of a house which a wife would grace. it is true there was a difference between the opulence of plumstead and the modest economy of st. ewold, but surely mr. arabin was not a man to sigh after wealth! of all men, his friends would have unanimously declared he was the last to do so. but how little our friends know us! in his period of stoical rejection of this world's happiness, he had cast from him as utter dross all anxiety as to fortune. he had, as it were, proclaimed himself to be indifferent to promotion, and those who chiefly admired his talents, and would mainly have exerted themselves to secure to them their deserved reward, had taken him at his word. and now, if the truth must out, he felt himself disappointed--disappointed not by them but by himself. the daydream of his youth was over, and at the age of forty he felt that he was not fit to work in the spirit of an apostle. he had mistaken himself, and learned his mistake when it was past remedy. he had professed himself indifferent to mitres and diaconal residences, to rich livings and pleasant glebes, and now he had to own to himself that he was sighing for the good things of other men on whom, in his pride, he had ventured to look down. not for wealth, in its vulgar sense, had he ever sighed; not for the enjoyment of rich things had he ever longed; but for the allotted share of worldly bliss which a wife, and children, and happy home could give him, for that usual amount of comfort which he had ventured to reject as unnecessary for him, he did now feel that he would have been wiser to have searched. he knew that his talents, his position, and his friends would have won for him promotion, had he put himself in the way of winning it. instead of doing so, he had allowed himself to be persuaded to accept a living which would give him an income of some £ a year should he, by marrying, throw up his fellowship. such, at the age of forty, was the worldly result of labour which the world had chosen to regard as successful. the world also thought that mr. arabin was, in his own estimation, sufficiently paid. alas! alas! the world was mistaken, and mr. arabin was beginning to ascertain that such was the case. and here may i beg the reader not to be hard in his judgement upon this man. is not the state at which he has arrived the natural result of efforts to reach that which is not the condition of humanity? is not modern stoicism, built though it be on christianity, as great an outrage on human nature as was the stoicism of the ancients? the philosophy of zeno was built on true laws, but on true laws misunderstood and therefore misapplied. it is the same with our stoics here, who would teach us that wealth and worldly comfort and happiness on earth are not worth the search. alas, for a doctrine which can find no believing pupils and no true teachers! the case of mr. arabin was the more singular, as he belonged to a branch of the church of england well inclined to regard its temporalities with avowed favour, and had habitually lived with men who were accustomed to much worldly comfort. but such was his idiosyncrasy that these very facts had produced within him, in early life, a state of mind that was not natural to him. he was content to be a high churchman, if he could be so on principles of his own and could strike out a course showing a marked difference from those with whom he consorted. he was ready to be a partisan as long as he was allowed to have a course of action and of thought unlike that of his party. his party had indulged him, and he began to feel that his party was right and himself wrong, just when such a conviction was too late to be of service to him. he discovered, when such discovery was no longer serviceable, that it would have been worth his while to have worked for the usual pay assigned to work in this world and have earned a wife and children, with a carriage for them to sit in; to have earned a pleasant dining-room, in which his friends could drink his wine, and the power of walking up the high street of his country town, with the knowledge that all its tradesmen would have gladly welcomed him within their doors. other men arrived at those convictions in their start in life and so worked up to them. to him they had come when they were too late to be of use. it has been said that mr. arabin was a man of pleasantry, and it may be thought that such a state of mind as that described would be antagonistic to humour. but surely such is not the case. wit is the outward mental casing of the man, and has no more to do with the inner mind of thoughts and feelings than have the rich brocaded garments of the priest at the altar with the asceticism of the anchorite below them, whose skin is tormented with sackcloth and whose body is half-flayed with rods. nay, will not such a one often rejoice more than any other in the rich show of his outer apparel? will it not be food for his pride to feel that he groans inwardly while he shines outwardly? so it is with the mental efforts which men make. those which they show forth daily to the world are often the opposites of the inner workings of the spirit. in the archdeacon's drawing-room, mr. arabin had sparkled with his usual unaffected brilliancy, but when he retired to his bedroom, he sat there sad, at his open window, repining within himself that he also had no wife, no bairns, no soft sward of lawn duly mown for him to lie on, no herd of attendant curates, no bowings from the banker's clerks, no rich rectory. that apostleship that he had thought of had evaded his grasp, and he was now only vicar of st. ewold's, with a taste for a mitre. truly he had fallen between two stools. chapter xxi st. ewold's parsonage when mr. harding and mrs. bold reached the rectory on the following morning, the archdeacon and his friend were at st. ewold's. they had gone over that the new vicar might inspect his church and be introduced to the squire, and were not expected back before dinner. mr. harding rambled out by himself and strolled, as was his wont at plumstead, about the lawn and round the church; and as he did so, the two sisters naturally fell into conversation about barchester. there was not much sisterly confidence between them. mrs. grantly was ten years older than eleanor, and had been married while eleanor was yet a child. they had never, therefore, poured into each other's ears their hopes and loves; and now that one was a wife and the other a widow, it was not probable that they would begin to do so. they lived too much asunder to be able to fall into that kind of intercourse which makes confidence between sisters almost a necessity; moreover, that which is so easy at eighteen is often very difficult at twenty-eight. mrs. grantly knew this, and did not, therefore, expect confidence from her sister; yet she longed to ask her whether in real truth mr. slope was agreeable to her. it was by no means difficult to turn the conversation to mr. slope. that gentleman had become so famous at barchester, had so much to do with all clergymen connected with the city, and was so specially concerned in the affairs of mr. harding, that it would have been odd if mr. harding's daughters had not talked about him. mrs. grantly was soon abusing him, which she did with her whole heart, and mrs. bold was nearly as eager to defend him. she positively disliked the man, would have been delighted to learn that he had taken himself off so that she should never see him again, had indeed almost a fear of him, and yet she constantly found herself taking his part. the abuse of other people, and abuse of a nature that she felt to be unjust, imposed this necessity on her, and at last made mr. slope's defence an habitual course of argument with her. from mr. slope the conversation turned to the stanhopes, and mrs. grantly was listening with some interest to eleanor's account of the family, when it dropped out that mr. slope made one of the party. "what!" said the lady of the rectory. "was mr. slope there too?" eleanor merely replied that such had been the case. "why, eleanor, he must be very fond of you, i think; he seems to follow you everywhere." even this did not open eleanor's eyes. she merely laughed, and said that she imagined mr. slope found other attraction at dr. stanhope's. and so they parted. mrs. grantly felt quite convinced that the odious match would take place, and mrs. bold as convinced that that unfortunate chaplain, disagreeable as he must be allowed to be, was more sinned against than sinning. the archdeacon of course heard before dinner that eleanor had remained the day before in barchester with the view of meeting mr. slope, and that she had so met him. he remembered how she had positively stated that there were to be no guests at the stanhopes, and he did not hesitate to accuse her of deceit. moreover, the fact, or rather presumed fact, of her being deceitful on such a matter spoke but too plainly in evidence against her as to her imputed crime of receiving mr. slope as a lover. "i am afraid that anything we can do will be too late," said the archdeacon. "i own i am fairly surprised. i never liked your sister's taste with regard to men, but still i did not give her credit for--ugh!" "and so soon, too," said mrs. grantly, who thought more, perhaps, of her sister's indecorum in having a lover before she had put off her weeds than her bad taste in having such a lover as mr. slope. "well, my dear, i shall be sorry to be harsh, or to do anything that can hurt your father; but, positively, neither that man nor his wife shall come within my doors." mrs. grantly sighed, and then attempted to console herself and her lord by remarking that, after all, the thing was not accomplished yet. now that eleanor was at plumstead, much might be done to wean her from her fatal passion. poor eleanor! the evening passed off without anything to make it remarkable. mr. arabin discussed the parish of st. ewold with the archdeacon, and mrs. grantly and mr. harding, who knew the personages of the parish, joined in. eleanor also knew them, but she said little. mr. arabin did not apparently take much notice of her, and she was not in a humour to receive at that time with any special grace any special favourite of her brother-in-law. her first idea on reaching her bedroom was that a much pleasanter family party might be met at dr. stanhope's than at the rectory. she began to think that she was getting tired of clergymen and their respectable, humdrum, wearisome mode of living, and that after all, people in the outer world, who had lived in italy, london, or elsewhere, need not necessarily be regarded as atrocious and abominable. the stanhopes, she had thought, were a giddy, thoughtless, extravagant set of people, but she had seen nothing wrong about them and had, on the other hand, found that they thoroughly knew how to make their house agreeable. it was a thousand pities, she thought, that the archdeacon should not have a little of the same _savoir vivre_. mr. arabin, as we have said, did not apparently take much notice of her, but yet he did not go to bed without feeling that he had been in company with a very pretty woman; and as is the case with most bachelors, and some married men, regarded the prospect of his month's visit at plumstead in a pleasanter light when he learnt that a very pretty woman was to share it with him. before they all retired it was settled that the whole party should drive over on the following day to inspect the parsonage at st. ewold. the three clergymen were to discuss dilapidations, and the two ladies were to lend their assistance in suggesting such changes as might be necessary for a bachelor's abode. accordingly, soon after breakfast the carriage was at the door. there was only room for four inside, and the archdeacon got upon the box. eleanor found herself opposite to mr. arabin, and was, therefore, in a manner forced into conversation with him. they were soon on comfortable terms together, and had she thought about it, she would have thought that, in spite of his black cloth, mr. arabin would not have been a bad addition to the stanhope family party. now that the archdeacon was away they could all trifle. mr. harding began by telling them in the most innocent manner imaginable an old legend about mr. arabin's new parish. there was, he said, in days of yore an illustrious priestess of st. ewold, famed through the whole country for curing all manner of diseases. she had a well, as all priestesses have ever had, which well was extant to this day, and shared in the minds of many of the people the sanctity which belonged to the consecrated ground of the parish church. mr. arabin declared that he should look on such tenets on the part of his parishioners as anything but orthodox. and mrs. grantly replied that she so entirely disagreed with him as to think that no parish was in a proper state that had not its priestess as well as its priest. "the duties are never well done," said she, "unless they are so divided." "i suppose, papa," said eleanor, "that in the olden times the priestess bore all the sway herself. mr. arabin, perhaps, thinks that such might be too much the case now if a sacred lady were admitted within the parish." "i think, at any rate," said he, "that it is safer to run no such risk. no priestly pride has ever exceeded that of sacerdotal females. a very lowly curate i might, perhaps, essay to rule, but a curatess would be sure to get the better of me." "there are certainly examples of such accidents happening," said mrs. grantly. "they do say that there is a priestess at barchester who is very imperious in all things touching the altar. perhaps the fear of such a fate as that is before your eyes." when they were joined by the archdeacon on the gravel before the vicarage, they descended again to grave dullness. not that archdeacon grantly was a dull man, but his frolic humours were of a cumbrous kind, and his wit, when he was witty, did not generally extend itself to his auditors. on the present occasion he was soon making speeches about wounded roofs and walls, which he declared to be in want of some surgeon's art. there was not a partition that he did not tap, nor a block of chimneys that he did not narrowly examine; all water-pipes, flues, cisterns, and sewers underwent an investigation; he even descended, in the care of his friend, so far as to bore sundry boards in the floors with a bradawl. mr. arabin accompanied him through the rooms, trying to look wise in such domestic matters, and the other three also followed. mrs. grantly showed that she had not herself been priestess of a parish twenty years for nothing, and examined the bells and window-panes in a very knowing way. "you will, at any rate, have a beautiful prospect out of your own window, if this is to be your private sanctum," said eleanor. she was standing at the lattice of a little room upstairs, from which the view certainly was very lovely. it was from the back of the vicarage, and there was nothing to interrupt the eye between the house and the glorious gray pile of the cathedral. the intermediate ground, however, was beautifully studded with timber. in the immediate foreground ran the little river which afterwards skirted the city, and, just to the right of the cathedral, the pointed gables and chimneys of hiram's hospital peeped out of the elms which encompass it. "yes," said he, joining her. "i shall have a beautifully complete view of my adversaries. i shall sit down before the hostile town and fire away at them at a very pleasant distance. i shall just be able to lodge a shot in the hospital, should the enemy ever get possession of it, and as for the palace, i have it within full range." "i never saw anything like you clergymen," said eleanor; "you are always thinking of fighting each other." "either that," said he, "or else supporting each other. the pity is that we cannot do the one without the other. but are we not here to fight? is not ours a church militant? what is all our work but fighting, and hard fighting, if it be well done?" "but not with each other." "that's as it may be. the same complaint which you make of me for battling with another clergyman of our own church, the mohammedan would make against me for battling with the error of a priest of rome. yet, surely, you would not be inclined to say that i should be wrong to do battle with such as him. a pagan, too, with his multiplicity of gods, would think it equally odd that the christian and the mohammedan should disagree." "ah! but you wage your wars about trifles so bitterly." "wars about trifles," said he, "are always bitter, especially among neighbours. when the differences are great, and the parties comparative strangers, men quarrel with courtesy. what combatants are ever so eager as two brothers?" "but do not such contentions bring scandal on the church?" "more scandal would fall on the church if there were no such contentions. we have but one way to avoid them--by that of acknowledging a common head of our church, whose word on all points of doctrine shall be authoritative. such a termination of our difficulties is alluring enough. it has charms which are irresistible to many, and all but irresistible, i own, to me." "you speak now of the church of rome?" said eleanor. "no," said he, "not necessarily of the church of rome; but of a church with a head. had it pleased god to vouchsafe to us such a church our path would have been easy. but easy paths have not been thought good for us." he paused and stood silent for awhile, thinking of the time when he had so nearly sacrificed all he had, his powers of mind, his free agency, the fresh running waters of his mind's fountain, his very inner self, for an easy path in which no fighting would be needed; and then he continued: "what you say is partly true: our contentions do bring on us some scandal. the outer world, though it constantly reviles us for our human infirmities and throws in our teeth the fact that being clergymen we are still no more than men, demands of us that we should do our work with godlike perfection. there is nothing god-like about us: we differ from each other with the acerbity common to man; we triumph over each other with human frailty; we allow differences on subjects of divine origin to produce among us antipathies and enmities which are anything but divine. this is all true. but what would you have in place of it? there is no infallible head for a church on earth. this dream of believing man has been tried, and we see in italy and in spain what has come of it. grant that there are and have been no bickerings within the pale of the pope's church. such an assumption would be utterly untrue, but let us grant it, and then let us say which church has incurred the heavier scandals." there was a quiet earnestness about mr. arabin, as he half-acknowledged and half-defended himself from the charge brought against him, which surprised eleanor. she had been used all her life to listen to clerical discussion, but the points at issue between the disputants had so seldom been of more than temporal significance as to have left on her mind no feeling of reverence for such subjects. there had always been a hard worldly leaven of the love either of income or of power in the strains she had heard; there had been no panting for the truth; no aspirations after religious purity. it had always been taken for granted by those around her that they were indubitably right; that there was no ground for doubt; that the hard uphill work of ascertaining what the duty of a clergyman should be had been already accomplished in full; and that what remained for an active militant parson to do was to hold his own against all comers. her father, it is true, was an exception to this, but then he was so essentially anti-militant in all things that she classed him in her own mind apart from all others. she had never argued the matter within herself, or considered whether this common tone was or was not faulty; but she was sick of it without knowing that she was so. and now she found to her surprise, and not without a certain pleasurable excitement, that this new-comer among them spoke in a manner very different from that to which she was accustomed. "it is so easy to condemn," said he, continuing the thread of his thoughts. "i know no life that must be so delicious as that of a writer for newspapers, or a leading member of the opposition--to thunder forth accusations against men in power; to show up the worst side of everything that is produced; to pick holes in every coat; to be indignant, sarcastic, jocose, moral, or supercilious; to damn with faint praise, or crush with open calumny! what can be so easy as this when the critic has to be responsible for nothing? you condemn what i do, but put yourself in my position and do the reverse, and then see if i cannot condemn you." "oh, mr. arabin, i do not condemn you." "pardon me, you do, mrs. bold--you as one of the world; you are now the opposition member; you are now composing your leading article, and well and bitterly you do it. 'let dogs delight to bark and bite'--you fitly begin with an elegant quotation--'but if we are to have a church at all, in heaven's name let the pastors who preside over it keep their hands from each other's throats. lawyers can live without befouling each other's names; doctors do not fight duels. why is it that clergymen alone should indulge themselves in such unrestrained liberty of abuse against each other?' and so you go on reviling us for our ungodly quarrels, our sectarian propensities, and scandalous differences. it will, however, give you no trouble to write another article next week in which we, or some of us, shall be twitted with an unseemly apathy in matters of our vocation. it will not fall on you to reconcile the discrepancy; your readers will never ask you how the poor parson is to be urgent in season and out of season and yet never come in contact with men who think widely differently from him. you, when you condemn this foreign treaty, or that official arrangement, will have to incur no blame for the graver faults of any different measure. it is so easy to condemn--and so pleasant too, for eulogy charms no listeners as detraction does." eleanor only half-followed him in his raillery, but she caught his meaning. "i know i ought to apologize for presuming to criticize you," she said, "but i was thinking with sorrow of the ill-will that has lately come among us at barchester, and i spoke more freely than i should have done." "peace on earth and goodwill among men, are, like heaven, promises for the future;" said he, following rather his own thoughts than hers. "when that prophecy is accomplished, there will no longer be any need for clergymen." here they were interrupted by the archdeacon, whose voice was heard from the cellar shouting to the vicar. "arabin, arabin,"--and then, turning to his wife, who was apparently at his elbow--"where has he gone to? this cellar is perfectly abominable. it would be murder to put a bottle of wine into it till it has been roofed, walled, and floored. how on earth old goodenough ever got on with it i cannot guess. but then goodenough never had a glass of wine that any man could drink." "what is it, archdeacon?" said the vicar, running downstairs and leaving eleanor above to her meditations. "this cellar must be roofed, walled, and floored," repeated the archdeacon. "now mind what i say, and don't let the architect persuade you that it will do; half of these fellows know nothing about wine. this place as it is now would be damp and cold in winter and hot and muggy in summer. i wouldn't give a straw for the best wine that ever was vinted, after it had lain here a couple of years." mr. arabin assented and promised that the cellar should be reconstructed according to the archdeacon's receipt. "and, arabin, look here; was such an attempt at a kitchen grate ever seen?" "the grate is really very bad," said mrs. grantly. "i am sure the priestess won't approve of it, when she is brought home to the scene of her future duties. really, mr. arabin, no priestess accustomed to such an excellent well as that above could put up with such a grate as this." "if there must be a priestess at st. ewold's at all, mrs. grantly, i think we will leave her to her well and not call down her divine wrath on any of the imperfections rising from our human poverty. however, i own i am amenable to the attractions of a well-cooked dinner, and the grate shall certainly be changed." by this time the archdeacon had again ascended, and was now in the dining-room. "arabin," said he, speaking in his usual loud, clear voice and with that tone of dictation which was so common to him, "you must positively alter this dining-room--that is, remodel it altogether. look here, it is just sixteen feet by fifteen; did any man ever hear of a dining-room of such proportions!" the archdeacon stepped the room long-ways and cross-ways with ponderous steps, as though a certain amount of ecclesiastical dignity could be imparted even to such an occupation as that by the manner of doing it. "barely sixteen; you may call it a square." "it would do very well for a round table," suggested the ex-warden. now there was something peculiarly unorthodox, in the archdeacon's estimation, in the idea of a round table. he had always been accustomed to a goodly board of decent length, comfortably elongating itself according to the number of the guests, nearly black with perpetual rubbing, and as bright as a mirror. now round dinner-tables are generally of oak, or else of such new construction as not to have acquired the peculiar hue which was so pleasing to him. he connected them with what he called the nasty newfangled method of leaving a cloth on the table, as though to warn people that they were not to sit long. in his eyes there was something democratic and parvenu in a round table. he imagined that dissenters and calico-printers chiefly used them, and perhaps a few literary lions more conspicuous for their wit than their gentility. he was a little flurried at the idea of such an article being introduced into the diocese by a protégé of his own, and at the instigation of his father-in-law. "a round dinner-table," said he with some heat, "is the most abominable article of furniture that ever was invented. i hope that arabin has more taste than to allow such a thing in his house." poor mr. harding felt himself completely snubbed, and of course said nothing further; but mr. arabin, who had yielded submissively in the small matters of the cellar and kitchen grate, found himself obliged to oppose reforms which might be of a nature too expensive for his pocket. "but it seems to me, archdeacon, that i can't very well lengthen the room without pulling down the wall, and if i pull down the wall, i must build it up again; then if i throw out a bow on this side, i must do the same on the other, and if i do it for the ground floor, i must carry it up to the floor above. that will be putting a new front to the house and will cost, i suppose, a couple of hundred pounds. the ecclesiastical commissioners will hardly assist me when they hear that my grievance consists in having a dining-room only sixteen feet long." the archdeacon proceeded to explain that nothing would be easier than adding six feet to the front of the dining-room without touching any other room in the house. such irregularities of construction in small country-houses were, he said, rather graceful than otherwise, and he offered to pay for the whole thing out of his own pocket if it cost more than forty pounds. mr. arabin, however, was firm, and, although the archdeacon fussed and fumed about it, would not give way. forty pounds, he said, was a matter of serious moment to him, and his friends, if under such circumstances they would be good-natured enough to come to him at all, must put up with the misery of a square room. he was willing to compromise matters by disclaiming any intention of having a round table. "but," said mrs. grantly, "what if the priestess insists on having both the rooms enlarged?" "the priestess in that case must do it for herself, mrs. grantly." "i have no doubt she will be well able to do so," replied the lady; "to do that and many more wonderful things. i am quite sure that the priestess of st. ewold, when she does come, won't come empty-handed." mr. arabin, however, did not appear well inclined to enter into speculative expenses on such a chance as this, and therefore any material alterations in the house, the cost of which could not fairly be made to lie at the door either of the ecclesiastical commissioners or of the estate of the late incumbent, were tabooed. with this essential exception, the archdeacon ordered, suggested, and carried all points before him in a manner very much to his own satisfaction. a close observer, had there been one there, might have seen that his wife had been quite as useful in the matter as himself. no one knew better than mrs. grantly the appurtenances necessary to a comfortable house. she did not, however, think it necessary to lay claim to any of the glory which her lord and master was so ready to appropriate as his own. having gone through their work effectually and systematically, the party returned to plumstead well satisfied with their expedition. chapter xxii the thornes of ullathorne on the following sunday mr. arabin was to read himself in at his new church. it was agreed at the rectory that the archdeacon should go over with him and assist at the reading desk, and that mr. harding should take the archdeacon's duty at plumstead church. mrs. grantly had her school and her buns to attend to, and professed that she could not be spared, but mrs. bold was to accompany them. it was further agreed also that they would lunch at the squire's house and return home after the afternoon service. wilfred thorne, esq., of ullathorne, was the squire of st. ewold's--or, rather, the squire of ullathorne, for the domain of the modern landlord was of wider notoriety than the fame of the ancient saint. he was a fair specimen of what that race has come to in our days which, a century ago, was, as we are told, fairly represented by squire western. if that representation be a true one, few classes of men can have made faster strides in improvement. mr. thorne, however, was a man possessed of quite a sufficient number of foibles to lay him open to much ridicule. he was still a bachelor, being about fifty, and was not a little proud of his person. when living at home at ullathorne, there was not much room for such pride, and there therefore he always looked like a gentleman and like that which he certainly was, the first man in his parish. but during the month or six weeks which he annually spent in london, he tried so hard to look like a great man there also, which he certainly was not, that he was put down as a fool by many at his club. he was a man of considerable literary attainment in a certain way and on certain subjects. his favourite authors were montaigne and burton, and he knew more perhaps than any other man in his own county and the next to it of the english essayists of the two last centuries. he possessed complete sets of the idler, the spectator, the tatler, the guardian, and the rambler, and would discourse by hours together on the superiority of such publications to anything which has since been produced in our edinburghs and quarterlies. he was proficient in all questions of genealogy, and knew enough of almost every gentleman's family in england to say of what blood and lineage were descended all those who had any claim to be considered as possessors of any such luxuries. for blood and lineage he himself had a most profound respect. he counted back his own ancestors to some period long antecedent to the conquest, and could tell you, if you would listen to him, how it had come to pass that they, like cedric the saxon, had been permitted to hold their own among the norman barons. it was not, according to his showing, on account of any weak complaisance on the part of his family towards their norman neighbours. some ealfried of ullathorne once fortified his own castle and held out, not only that, but the then existing cathedral of barchester also, against one geoffrey de burgh, in the time of king john; and mr. thorne possessed the whole history of the siege written on vellum and illuminated in a most costly manner. it little signified that no one could read the writing, as, had that been possible, no one could have understood the language. mr. thorne could, however, give you all the particulars in good english, and had no objection to do so. it would be unjust to say that he looked down on men whose families were of recent date. he did not do so. he frequently consorted with such, and had chosen many of his friends from among them. but he looked on them as great millionaires are apt to look on those who have small incomes; as men who have sophocles at their fingers' ends regard those who know nothing of greek. they might doubtless be good sort of people, entitled to much praise for virtue, very admirable for talent, highly respectable in every way, but they were without the one great good gift. such was mr. thorne's way of thinking on this matter; nothing could atone for the loss of good blood; nothing could neutralize its good effects. few indeed were now possessed of it, but the possession was on that account the more precious. it was very pleasant to hear mr. thorne descant on this matter. were you in your ignorance to surmise that such a one was of a good family because the head of his family was a baronet of an old date, he would open his eyes with a delightful look of affected surprise, and modestly remind you that baronetcies only dated from james i. he would gently sigh if you spoke of the blood of the fitzgeralds and de burghs; would hardly allow the claims of the howards and lowthers; and has before now alluded to the talbots as a family who had hardly yet achieved the full honours of a pedigree. in speaking once of a wide-spread race whose name had received the honours of three coronets, scions from which sat for various constituencies, some one of whose members had been in almost every cabinet formed during the present century, a brilliant race such as there are few in england, mr. thorne had called them all "dirt." he had not intended any disrespect to these men. he admired them in many senses, and allowed them their privileges without envy. he had merely meant to express his feeling that the streams which ran through their veins were not yet purified by time to that perfection, had not become so genuine an ichor, as to be worthy of being called blood in the genealogical sense. when mr. arabin was first introduced to him, mr. thorne had immediately suggested that he was one of the arabins of uphill stanton. mr. arabin replied that he was a very distant relative of the family alluded to. to this mr. thorne surmised that the relationship could not be very distant. mr. arabin assured him that it was so distant that the families knew nothing of each other. mr. thorne laughed his gentle laugh at this and told mr. arabin that there was now existing no branch of his family separated from the parent stock at an earlier date than the reign of elizabeth, and that therefore mr. arabin could not call himself distant. mr. arabin himself was quite clearly an arabin of uphill stanton. "but," said the vicar, "uphill stanton has been sold to the de greys and has been in their hands for the last fifty years." "and when it has been there one hundred and fifty, if it unluckily remain there so long," said mr. thorne, "your descendants will not be a whit the less entitled to describe themselves as being of the family of uphill stanton. thank god no de grey can buy that--and thank god no arabin, and no thorne, can sell it." in politics mr. thorne was an unflinching conservative. he looked on those fifty-three trojans who, as mr. dod tells us, censured free trade in november, , as the only patriots left among the public men of england. when that terrible crisis of free trade had arrived, when the repeal of the corn laws was carried by those very men whom mr. thorne had hitherto regarded as the only possible saviours of his country, he was for a time paralysed. his country was lost; but that was comparatively a small thing. other countries had flourished and fallen, and the human race still went on improving under god's providence. but now all trust in human faith must forever be at an end. not only must ruin come, but it must come through the apostasy of those who had been regarded as the truest of true believers. politics in england, as a pursuit for gentlemen, must be at an end. had mr. thorne been trodden under foot by a whig, he could have borne it as a tory and a martyr, but to be so utterly thrown over and deceived by those he had so earnestly supported, so thoroughly trusted, was more than he could endure and live. he therefore ceased to live as a politician, and refused to hold any converse with the world at large on the state of the country. such were mr. thorne's impressions for the first two or three years after sir robert peel's apostasy, but by degrees his temper, as did that of others, cooled down. he began once more to move about, to frequent the bench and the market, and to be seen at dinners shoulder to shoulder with some of those who had so cruelly betrayed him. it was a necessity for him to live, and that plan of his for avoiding the world did not answer. he, however, and others around him who still maintained the same staunch principles of protection--men like himself who were too true to flinch at the cry of a mob--had their own way of consoling themselves. they were, and felt themselves to be, the only true depositaries left of certain eleusinian mysteries, of certain deep and wondrous services of worship by which alone the gods could be rightly approached. to them and them only was it now given to know these things and to perpetuate them, if that might still be done, by the careful and secret education of their children. we have read how private and peculiar forms of worship have been carried on from age to age in families which, to the outer world, have apparently adhered to the services of some ordinary church. and so by degrees it was with mr. thorne. he learnt at length to listen calmly while protection was talked of as a thing dead, although he knew within himself that it was still quick with a mystic life. nor was he without a certain pleasure that such knowledge, though given to him, should be debarred from the multitude. he became accustomed to hear even among country gentlemen that free trade was after all not so bad, and to hear this without dispute, although conscious within himself that everything good in england had gone with his old palladium. he had within him something of the feeling of cato, who gloried that he could kill himself because romans were no longer worthy of their name. mr. thorne had no thought of killing himself, being a christian and still possessing his £ a year, but the feeling was not on that account the less comfortable. mr. thorne was a sportsman, and had been active though not outrageous in his sports. previous to the great downfall of politics in his county, he had supported the hunt by every means in his power. he had preserved game till no goose or turkey could show a tail in the parish of st. ewold's. he had planted gorse covers with more care than oaks and larches. he had been more anxious for the comfort of his foxes than of his ewes and lambs. no meet had been more popular than ullathorne; no man's stables had been more liberally open to the horses of distant men than mr. thorne's; no man had said more, written more, or done more to keep the club up. the theory of protection could expand itself so thoroughly in the practices of a county hunt! but when the great ruin came; when the noble master of the barsetshire hounds supported the recreant minister in the house of lords and basely surrendered his truth, his manhood, his friends, and his honour for the hope of a garter, then mr. thorne gave up the hunt. he did not cut his covers, for that would not have been the act of a gentleman. he did not kill his foxes, for that according to his light would have been murder. he did not say that his covers should not be drawn, or his earths stopped, for that would have been illegal according to the by-laws prevailing among country gentlemen. but he absented himself from home on the occasion of every meet at ullathorne, left the covers to their fate, and could not be persuaded to take his pink coat out of his press, or his hunters out of his stable. this lasted for two years, and then by degrees he came round. he first appeared at a neighbouring meet on a pony, dressed in his shooting-coat, as though he had trotted in by accident; then he walked up one morning on foot to see his favourite gorse drawn, and when his groom brought his mare out by chance, he did not refuse to mount her. he was next persuaded, by one of the immortal fifty-three, to bring his hunting materials over to the other side of the county and take a fortnight with the hounds there; and so gradually he returned to his old life. but in hunting as in other things he was only supported by an inward feeling of mystic superiority to those with whom he shared the common breath of outer life. mr. thorne did not live in solitude at ullathorne. he had a sister, who was ten years older than himself and who participated in his prejudices and feelings so strongly that she was a living caricature of all his foibles. she would not open a modern quarterly, did not choose to see a magazine in her drawing-room, and would not have polluted her fingers with a shred of the times for any consideration. she spoke of addison, swift, and steele as though they were still living, regarded defoe as the best known novelist of his country, and thought of fielding as a young but meritorious novice in the fields of romance. in poetry, she was familiar with names as late as dryden, and had once been seduced into reading "the rape of the lock;" but she regarded spenser as the purest type of her country's literature in this line. genealogy was her favourite insanity. those things which are the pride of most genealogists were to her contemptible. arms and mottoes set her beside herself. ealfried of ullathorne had wanted no motto to assist him in cleaving to the brisket geoffrey de burgh, and ealfried's great grandfather, the gigantic ullafrid, had required no other arms than those which nature gave him to hurl from the top of his own castle a cousin of the base invading norman. to her all modern english names were equally insignificant: hengist, horsa, and such like had for her ears the only true savour of nobility. she was not contented unless she could go beyond the saxons, and would certainly have christened her children, had she had children, by the names of the ancient britons. in some respects she was not unlike scott's ulrica, and had she been given to cursing, she would certainly have done so in the names of mista, skogula, and zernebock. not having submitted to the embraces of any polluting norman, as poor ulrica had done, and having assisted no parricide, the milk of human kindness was not curdled in her bosom. she never cursed therefore, but blessed rather. this, however, she did in a strange uncouth saxon manner that would have been unintelligible to any peasants but her own. as a politician, miss thorne had been so thoroughly disgusted with public life by base deeds long antecedent to the corn law question that that had but little moved her. in her estimation her brother had been a fast young man, hurried away by a too ardent temperament into democratic tendencies. now happily he was brought to sounder views by seeing the iniquity of the world. she had not yet reconciled herself to the reform bill, and still groaned in spirit over the defalcations of the duke as touching the catholic emancipation. if asked whom she thought the queen should take as her counsellor, she would probably have named lord eldon, and when reminded that that venerable man was no longer present in the flesh to assist us, she would probably have answered with a sigh that none now could help us but the dead. in religion miss thorne was a pure druidess. we would not have it understood by that that she did actually in these latter days assist at any human sacrifices, or that she was in fact hostile to the church of christ. she had adopted the christian religion as a milder form of the worship of her ancestors, and always appealed to her doing so as evidence that she had no prejudices against reform, when it could be shown that reform was salutary. this reform was the most modern of any to which she had as yet acceded, it being presumed that british ladies had given up their paint and taken to some sort of petticoats before the days of st. augustine. that further feminine step in advance which combines paint and petticoats together had not found a votary in miss thorne. but she was a druidess in this, that she regretted she knew not what in the usages and practices of her church. she sometimes talked and constantly thought of good things gone by, though she had but the faintest idea of what those good things had been. she imagined that a purity had existed which was now gone, that a piety had adorned our pastors and a simple docility our people, for which it may be feared history gave her but little true warrant. she was accustomed to speak of cranmer as though he had been the firmest and most simple-minded of martyrs, and of elizabeth as though the pure protestant faith of her people had been the one anxiety of her life. it would have been cruel to undeceive her, had it been possible; but it would have been impossible to make her believe that the one was a time-serving priest, willing to go any length to keep his place, and that the other was in heart a papist, with this sole proviso, that she should be her own pope. and so miss thorne went on sighing and regretting, looking back to the divine right of kings as the ruling axiom of a golden age, and cherishing, low down in the bottom of her heart of hearts, a dear unmentioned wish for the restoration of some exiled stuart. who would deny her the luxury of her sighs, or the sweetness of her soft regrets! in her person and her dress she was perfect, and well she knew her own perfection. she was a small, elegantly made old woman, with a face from which the glow of her youth had not departed without leaving some streaks of a roseate hue. she was proud of her colour, proud of her grey hair which she wore in short crisp curls peering out all around her face from her dainty white lace cap. to think of all the money that she spent in lace used to break the heart of poor mrs. quiverful with her seven daughters. she was proud of her teeth, which were still white and numerous, proud of her bright cheery eye, proud of her short jaunty step; and very proud of the neat, precise, small feet with which those steps were taken. she was proud also, ay, very proud, of the rich brocaded silk in which it was her custom to ruffle through her drawing-room. we know what was the custom of the lady of branksome-- nine-and-twenty knights of fame hung their shields in branksome hall. the lady of ullathorne was not so martial in her habits, but hardly less costly. she might have boasted that nine-and-twenty silken skirts might have been produced in her chamber, each fit to stand alone. the nine-and-twenty shields of the scottish heroes were less independent and hardly more potent to withstand any attack that might be made on them. miss thorne when fully dressed might be said to have been armed cap-a-pie, and she was always fully dressed, as far as was ever known to mortal man. for all this rich attire miss thorne was not indebted to the generosity of her brother. she had a very comfortable independence of her own, which she divided among juvenile relatives, the milliners, and the poor, giving much the largest share to the latter. it may be imagined, therefore, that with all her little follies she was not unpopular. all her follies have, we believe, been told. her virtues were too numerous to describe, and not sufficiently interesting to deserve description. while we are on the subject of the thornes, one word must be said of the house they lived in. it was not a large house, nor a fine house, nor perhaps to modern ideas a very commodious house, but by those who love the peculiar colour and peculiar ornaments of genuine tudor architecture it was considered a perfect gem. we beg to own ourselves among the number, and therefore take this opportunity to express our surprise that so little is known by english men and women of the beauties of english architecture. the ruins of the colosseum, the campanile at florence, st. mark's, cologne, the bourse and notre dame are with our tourists as familiar as household words; but they know nothing of the glories of wiltshire, dorsetshire, and somersetshire. nay, we much question whether many noted travellers, men who have pitched their tents perhaps under mount sinai, are not still ignorant that there are glories in wiltshire, dorsetshire, and somersetshire. we beg that they will go and see. mr. thorne's house was called ullathorne court--and was properly so called, for the house itself formed two sides of a quadrangle, which was completed on the other two sides by a wall about twenty feet high. this wall was built of cut stone, rudely cut indeed, and now much worn, but of a beautiful, rich, tawny yellow colour, the effect of that stonecrop of minute growth which it had taken three centuries to produce. the top of this wall was ornamented by huge, round stone balls of the same colour as the wall itself. entrance into the court was had through a pair of iron gates so massive that no one could comfortably open or close them--consequently, they were rarely disturbed. from the gateway two paths led obliquely across the court: that to the left reaching the hall-door, which was in the corner made by the angle of the house, and that to the right leading to the back entrance, which was at the further end of the longer portion of the building. with those who are now adepts in contriving house accommodation, it will militate much against ullathorne court that no carriage could be brought to the hall-door. if you enter ullathorne at all, you must do so, fair reader, on foot, or at least in a bath-chair. no vehicle drawn by horses ever comes within that iron gate. but this is nothing to the next horror that will encounter you. on entering the front door, which you do by no very grand portal, you find yourself immediately in the dining-room. what, no hall? exclaims my luxurious friend, accustomed to all the comfortable appurtenances of modern life. yes, kind sir, a noble hall, if you will but observe it; a true old english hall of excellent dimensions for a country gentleman's family; but, if you please, no dining-parlour. both mr. and miss thorne were proud of this peculiarity of their dwelling, though the brother was once all but tempted by his friends to alter it. they delighted in the knowledge that they, like cedric, positively dined in their true hall, even though they so dined _tête-à-tête_. but though they had never owned, they had felt and endeavoured to remedy the discomfort of such an arrangement. a huge screen partitioned off the front door and a portion of the hall, and from the angle so screened off a second door led into a passage which ran along the larger side of the house next to the courtyard. either my reader or i must be a bad hand at topography, if it be not clear that the great hall forms the ground-floor of the smaller portion of the mansion, that which was to your left as you entered the iron gate, and that it occupies the whole of this wing of the building. it must be equally clear that it looks out on a trim mown lawn, through three quadrangular windows with stone mullions, each window divided into a larger portion at the bottom, and a smaller portion at the top, and each portion again divided into five by perpendicular stone supporters. there may be windows which give a better light than such as these, and it may be, as my utilitarian friend observes, that the giving of light is the desired object of a window. i will not argue the point with him. indeed i cannot. but i shall not the less die in the assured conviction that no sort or description of window is capable of imparting half so much happiness to mankind as that which had been adopted at ullathorne court. what, not an oriel? says miss diana de midellage. no, miss diana, not even an oriel, beautiful as is an oriel window. it has not about it so perfect a feeling of quiet english homely comfort. let oriel windows grace a college, or the half-public mansion of a potent peer, but for the sitting room of quiet country ladies, of ordinary homely folk, nothing can equal the square, mullioned windows of the tudor architects. the hall was hung round with family female insipidities by lely and unprepossessing male thornes in red coats by kneller, each thorne having been let into a panel in the wainscoting, in the proper manner. at the further end of the room was a huge fire-place, which afforded much ground of difference between the brother and sister. an antiquated grate that would hold about a hundredweight of coal, had been stuck on to the hearth by mr. thorne's father. this hearth had of course been intended for the consumption of wood faggots, and the iron dogs for the purpose were still standing, though half-buried in the masonry of the grate. miss thorne was very anxious to revert to the dogs. the dear good old creature was always glad to revert to anything, and had she been systematically indulged, would doubtless in time have reflected that fingers were made before forks and have reverted accordingly. but in the affairs of the fire-place mr. thorne would not revert. country gentlemen around him all had comfortable grates in their dining-rooms. he was not exactly the man to have suggested a modern usage, but he was not so far prejudiced as to banish those which his father had prepared for his use. mr. thorne had indeed once suggested that with very little contrivance the front door might have been so altered as to open at least into the passage, but on hearing this, his sister monica--such was miss thorne's name--had been taken ill and had remained so for a week. before she came downstairs she received a pledge from her brother that the entrance should never be changed in her lifetime. at the end of the hall opposite to the fire-place a door led into the drawing-room, which was of equal size, and lighted with precisely similar windows. but yet the aspect of the room was very different. it was papered, and the ceiling, which in the hall showed the old rafters, was whitened and finished with a modern cornice. miss thorne's drawing-room, or, as she always called it, withdrawing-room, was a beautiful apartment. the windows opened on to the full extent of the lovely trim garden; immediately before the windows were plots of flowers in stiff, stately, stubborn little beds, each bed surrounded by a stone coping of its own; beyond, there was a low parapet wall on which stood urns and images, fawns, nymphs, satyrs, and a whole tribe of pan's followers; and then again, beyond that, a beautiful lawn sloped away to a sunk fence which divided the garden from the park. mr. thorne's study was at the end of the drawing-room, and beyond that were the kitchen and the offices. doors opened into both miss thorne's withdrawing-room and mr. thorne's sanctum from the passage above alluded to, which, as it came to the latter room, widened itself so as to make space for the huge black oak stairs which led to the upper regions. such was the interior of ullathorne court. but having thus described it, perhaps somewhat too tediously, we beg to say that it is not the interior to which we wish to call the english tourist's attention, though we advise him to lose no legitimate opportunity of becoming acquainted with it in a friendly manner. it is the outside of ullathorne that is so lovely. let the tourist get admission at least into the garden and fling himself on that soft sward just opposite to the exterior angle of the house. he will there get the double frontage and enjoy that which is so lovely--the expanse of architectural beauty without the formal dullness of one long line. it is the colour of ullathorne that is so remarkable. it is of that delicious tawny hue which no stone can give, unless it has on it the vegetable richness of centuries. strike the wall with your hand, and you will think that the stone has on it no covering, but rub it carefully, and you will find that the colour comes off upon your finger. no colourist that ever yet worked from a palette has been able to come up to this rich colouring of years crowding themselves on years. ullathorne is a high building for a country-house, for it possesses three stories, and in each story the windows are of the same sort as that described, though varying in size and varying also in their lines athwart the house. those of the ground floor are all uniform in size and position. but those above are irregular both in size and place, and this irregularity gives a bizarre and not unpicturesque appearance to the building. along the top, on every side, runs a low parapet, which nearly hides the roof, and at the corners are more figures of fawns and satyrs. such is ullathorne house. but we must say one word of the approach to it, which shall include all the description which we mean to give of the church also. the picturesque old church of st. ewold's stands immediately opposite to the iron gates which open into the court, and is all but surrounded by the branches of the lime-trees which form the avenue leading up to the house from both sides. this avenue is magnificent, but it would lose much of its value in the eyes of many proprietors by the fact that the road through it is not private property. it is a public lane between hedgerows, with a broad grass margin on each side of the road, from which the lime-trees spring. ullathorne court, therefore, does not stand absolutely surrounded by its own grounds, though mr. thorne is owner of all the adjacent land. this, however, is the source of very little annoyance to him. men, when they are acquiring property, think much of such things, but they who live where their ancestors have lived for years do not feel the misfortune. it never occurred either to mr. or miss thorne that they were not sufficiently private because the world at large might, if it so wished, walk or drive by their iron gates. that part of the world which availed itself of the privilege was however very small. such a year or two since were the thornes of ullathorne. such, we believe, are the inhabitants of many an english country-home. may it be long before their number diminishes. chapter xxiii mr. arabin reads himself in at st. ewold's on the sunday morning the archdeacon with his sister-in-law and mr. arabin drove over to ullathorne, as had been arranged. on their way thither the new vicar declared himself to be considerably disturbed in his mind at the idea of thus facing his parishioners for the first time. he had, he said, been always subject to _mauvaise honte_ and an annoying degree of bashfulness, which often unfitted him for any work of a novel description; and now he felt this so strongly that he feared he should acquit himself badly in st. ewold's reading-desk. he knew, he said, that those sharp little eyes of miss thorne would be on him, and that they would not approve. all this the archdeacon greatly ridiculed. he himself knew not, and had never known, what it was to be shy. he could not conceive that miss thorne, surrounded as she would be by the peasants of ullathorne and a few of the poorer inhabitants of the suburbs of barchester, could in any way affect the composure of a man well accustomed to address the learned congregation of st. mary's at oxford, and he laughed accordingly at the idea of mr. arabin's modesty. thereupon mr. arabin commenced to subtilize. the change, he said, from st. mary's to st. ewold's was quite as powerful on the spirits as would be that from st. ewold's to st. mary's. would not a peer who, by chance of fortune, might suddenly be driven to herd among navvies be as afraid of the jeers of his companions as would any navvy suddenly exalted to a seat among the peers? whereupon the archdeacon declared with a loud laugh that he would tell miss thorne that her new minister had likened her to a navvy. eleanor, however, pronounced such a conclusion to be unfair; a comparison might be very just in its proportions which did not at all assimilate the things compared. but mr. arabin went on subtilizing, regarding neither the archdeacon's raillery nor eleanor's defence. a young lady, he said, would execute with most perfect self-possession a difficult piece of music in a room crowded with strangers, who would not be able to express herself in intelligible language, even on any ordinary subject and among her most intimate friends, if she were required to do so standing on a box somewhat elevated among them. it was all an affair of education, and he at forty found it difficult to educate himself anew. eleanor dissented on the matter of the box, and averred she could speak very well about dresses, or babies, or legs of mutton from any box, provided it were big enough for her to stand upon without fear, even though all her friends were listening to her. the archdeacon was sure she would not be able to say a word, but this proved nothing in favour of mr. arabin. mr. arabin said that he would try the question out with mrs. bold, and get her on a box some day when the rectory might be full of visitors. to this eleanor assented, making condition that the visitors should be of their own set, and the archdeacon cogitated in his mind whether by such a condition it was intended that mr. slope should be included, resolving also that, if so, the trial would certainly never take place in the rectory drawing-room at plumstead. and so arguing, they drove up to the iron gates of ullathorne court. mr. and miss thorne were standing ready dressed for church in the hall, and greeted their clerical visitors with cordiality. the archdeacon was an old favourite. he was a clergyman of the old school, and this recommended him to the lady. he had always been an opponent of free trade as long as free trade was an open question, and now that it was no longer so, he, being a clergyman, had not been obliged, like most of his lay tory companions, to read his recantation. he could therefore be regarded as a supporter of the immaculate fifty-three, and was on this account a favourite with mr. thorne. the little bell was tinkling, and the rural population of the parish were standing about the lane, leaning on the church-stile and against the walls of the old court, anxious to get a look at their new minister as he passed from the house to the rectory. the archdeacon's servant had already preceded them thither with the vestments. they all went forth together, and when the ladies passed into the church, the three gentlemen tarried a moment in the lane, that mr. thorne might name to the vicar with some kind of one-sided introduction the most leading among his parishioners. "here are our churchwardens, mr. arabin--farmer greenacre and mr. stiles. mr. stiles has the mill as you go into barchester; and very good churchwardens they are." "not very severe, i hope," said mr. arabin. the two ecclesiastical officers touched their hats, and each made a leg in the approved rural fashion, assuring the vicar that they were very glad to have the honour of seeing him, and adding that the weather was very good for the harvest. mr. stiles, being a man somewhat versed in town life, had an impression of his own dignity, and did not quite like leaving his pastor under the erroneous idea that he being a churchwarden kept the children in order during church time. 'twas thus he understood mr. arabin's allusion to his severity and hastened to put matters right by observing that "sexton clodheve looked to the younguns, and perhaps sometimes there may be a thought too much stick going on during sermon." mr. arabin's bright eye twinkled as he caught that of the archdeacon, and he smiled to himself as he observed how ignorant his officers were of the nature of their authority and of the surveillance which it was their duty to keep even over himself. mr. arabin read the lessons and preached. it was enough to put a man a little out, let him have been ever so used to pulpit reading, to see the knowing way in which the farmers cocked their ears and set about a mental criticism as to whether their new minister did or did not fall short of the excellence of him who had lately departed from them. a mental and silent criticism it was for the existing moment, but soon to be made public among the elders of st. ewold's over the green graves of their children and forefathers. the excellence, however, of poor old mr. goodenough had not been wonderful, and there were few there who did not deem that mr. arabin did his work sufficiently well, in spite of the slightly nervous affliction which at first impeded him, and which nearly drove the archdeacon beside himself. but the sermon was the thing to try the man. it often surprises us that very young men can muster courage to preach for the first time to a strange congregation. men who are as yet but little more than boys, who have but just left what indeed we may not call a school, but a seminary intended for their tuition as scholars, whose thoughts have been mostly of boating, cricketing, and wine-parties, ascend a rostrum high above the heads of the submissive crowd, not that they may read god's word to those below, but that they may preach their own word for the edification of their hearers. it seems strange to us that they are not stricken dumb by the new and awful solemnity of their position. "how am i, just turned twenty-three, who have never yet passed ten thoughtful days since the power of thought first came to me, how am i to instruct these greybeards who, with the weary thinking of so many years, have approached so near the grave? can i teach them their duty? can i explain to them that which i so imperfectly understand, that which years of study may have made so plain to them? has my newly acquired privilege as one of god's ministers imparted to me as yet any fitness for the wonderful work of a preacher?" it must be supposed that such ideas do occur to young clergymen, and yet they overcome, apparently with ease, this difficulty which to us appears to be all but insurmountable. we have never been subjected in the way of ordination to the power of a bishop's hands. it may be that there is in them something that sustains the spirit and banishes the natural modesty of youth. but for ourselves we must own that the deep affection which dominie sampson felt for his young pupils has not more endeared him to us than the bashful spirit which sent him mute and inglorious from the pulpit when he rose there with the futile attempt to preach god's gospel. there is a rule in our church which forbids the younger order of our clergymen to perform a certain portion of the service. the absolution must be read by a minister in priest's orders. if there be no such minister present, the congregation can have the benefit of no absolution but that which each may succeed in administering to himself. the rule may be a good one, though the necessity for it hardly comes home to the general understanding. but this forbearance on the part of youth would be much more appreciated if it were extended likewise to sermons. the only danger would be that congregations would be too anxious to prevent their young clergymen from advancing themselves in the ranks of the ministry. clergymen who could not preach would be such blessings that they would be bribed to adhere to their incompetence. mr. arabin, however, had not the modesty of youth to impede him, and he succeeded with his sermon even better than with the lessons. he took for his text two verses out of the second epistle of st. john, "whosoever transgresseth, and abideth not in the doctrine of christ, hath not god. he that abideth in the doctrine of christ, he hath both the father and the son. if there come any unto you, and bring not this doctrine, receive him not into your house, neither bid him god-speed." he told them that the house of theirs to which he alluded was this their church, in which he now addressed them for the first time; that their most welcome and proper manner of bidding him god-speed would be their patient obedience to his teaching of the gospel; but that he could put forward no claim to such conduct on their part unless he taught them the great christian doctrine of works and faith combined. on this he enlarged, but not very amply, and after twenty minutes succeeded in sending his new friends home to their baked mutton and pudding well pleased with their new minister. then came the lunch at ullathorne. as soon as they were in the hall miss thorne took mr. arabin's hand and assured him that she received him into her house, into the temple, she said, in which she worshipped, and bade him god-speed with all her heart. mr. arabin was touched and squeezed the spinster's hand without uttering a word in reply. then mr. thorne expressed a hope that mr. arabin found the church well adapted for articulation, and mr. arabin having replied that he had no doubt he should as soon as he had learnt to pitch his voice to the building, they all sat down to the good things before them. miss thorne took special care of mrs. bold. eleanor still wore her widow's weeds, and therefore had about her that air of grave and sad maternity which is the lot of recent widows. this opened the soft heart of miss thorne, and made her look on her young guest as though too much could not be done for her. she heaped chicken and ham upon her plate and poured out for her a full bumper of port wine. when eleanor, who was not sorry to get it, had drunk a little of it, miss thorne at once essayed to fill it again. to this eleanor objected, but in vain. miss thorne winked and nodded and whispered, saying that it was the proper thing and must be done, and that she knew all about it; and so she desired mrs. bold to drink it up and not mind anybody. "it is your duty, you know, to support yourself," she said into the ear of the young mother; "there's more than yourself depending on it;" and thus she coshered up eleanor with cold fowl and port wine. how it is that poor men's wives, who have no cold fowl and port wine on which to be coshered up, nurse their children without difficulty, whereas the wives of rich men, who eat and drink everything that is good, cannot do so, we will for the present leave to the doctors and the mothers to settle between them. and then miss thorne was great about teeth. little johnny bold had been troubled for the last few days with his first incipient masticator, and with that freemasonry which exists among ladies, miss thorne became aware of the fact before eleanor had half-finished her wing. the old lady prescribed at once a receipt which had been much in vogue in the young days of her grandmother, and warned eleanor with solemn voice against the fallacies of modern medicine. "take his coral, my dear," said she, "and rub it well with carrot-juice; rub it till the juice dries on it, and then give it him to play with--" "but he hasn't got a coral," said eleanor. "not got a coral!" said miss thorne with almost angry vehemence. "not got a coral--how can you expect that he should cut his teeth? have you got daffy's elixir?" eleanor explained that she had not. it had not been ordered by mr. rerechild, the barchester doctor whom she employed; and then the young mother mentioned some shockingly modern succedaneum which mr. rerechild's new lights had taught him to recommend. miss thorne looked awfully severe. "take care, my dear," said she, "that the man knows what he's about; take care he doesn't destroy your little boy. but"--and she softened into sorrow, as she said it, and spoke more in pity than in anger--"but i don't know who there is in barchester now that you can trust. poor dear old doctor bumpwell, indeed--" "why, miss thorne, he died when i was a little girl." "yes, my dear, he did, and an unfortunate day it was for barchester. as to those young men that have come up since"--mr. rerechild, by the by, was quite as old as miss thorne herself--"one doesn't know where they came from or who they are, or whether they know anything about their business or not." "i think there are very clever men in barchester," said eleanor. "perhaps there may be; only i don't know them: and it's admitted on all sides that medical men aren't now what they used to be. they used to be talented, observing, educated men. but now any whipper-snapper out of an apothecary's shop can call himself a doctor. i believe no kind of education is now thought necessary." eleanor was herself the widow of a medical man and felt a little inclined to resent all these hard sayings. but miss thorne was so essentially good-natured that it was impossible to resent anything she said. she therefore sipped her wine and finished her chicken. "at any rate, my dear, don't forget the carrot-juice, and by all means get him a coral at once. my grandmother thorne had the best teeth in the county and carried them to the grave with her at eighty. i have heard her say it was all the carrot-juice. she couldn't bear the barchester doctors. even poor old dr. bumpwell didn't please her." it clearly never occurred to miss thorne that some fifty years ago dr. bumpwell was only a rising man and therefore as much in need of character in the eyes of the then ladies of ullathorne as the present doctors were in her own. the archdeacon made a very good lunch, and talked to his host about turnip-drillers and new machines for reaping, while the host, thinking it only polite to attend to a stranger, and fearing that perhaps he might not care about turnip crops on a sunday, mooted all manner of ecclesiastical subjects. "i never saw a heavier lot of wheat, thorne, than you've got there in that field beyond the copse. i suppose that's guano," said the archdeacon. "yes, guano. i get it from bristol myself. you'll find you often have a tolerable congregation of barchester people out here, mr. arabin. they are very fond of st. ewold's, particularly of an afternoon when the weather is not too hot for the walk." "i am under an obligation to them for staying away to-day, at any rate," said the vicar. "the congregation can never be too small for a maiden sermon." "i got a ton and a half at bradley's in high street," said the archdeacon, "and it was a complete take in. i don't believe there was five hundredweight of guano in it." "that bradley never has anything good," said miss thorne, who had just caught the name during her whisperings with eleanor. "and such a nice shop as there used to be in that very house before he came. wilfred, don't you remember what good things old ambleoff used to have?" "there have been three men since ambleoff's time," said the archdeacon, "and each as bad as the other. but who gets it for you at bristol, thorne?" "i ran up myself this year and bought it out of the ship. i am afraid as the evenings get shorter, mr. arabin, you'll find the reading-desk too dark. i must send a fellow with an axe and make him lop off some of those branches." mr. arabin declared that the morning light at any rate was perfect, and deprecated any interference with the lime-trees. and then they took a stroll out among the trim parterres, and mr. arabin explained to mrs. bold the difference between a naiad and a dryad, and dilated on vases and the shapes of urns. miss thorne busied herself among her pansies, and her brother, finding it quite impracticable to give anything of a peculiarly sunday tone to the conversation, abandoned the attempt and had it out with the archdeacon about the bristol guano. at three o'clock they again went into church, and now mr. arabin read the service and the archdeacon preached. nearly the same congregation was present, with some adventurous pedestrians from the city, who had not thought the heat of the midday august sun too great to deter them. the archdeacon took his text from the epistle to philemon. "i beseech thee for my son onesimus, whom i have begotten in my bonds." from such a text it may be imagined the kind of sermon which dr. grantly preached, and on the whole it was neither dull, nor bad, nor out of place. he told them that it had become his duty to look about for a pastor for them, to supply the place of one who had been long among them, and that in this manner he regarded as a son him whom he had selected, as st. paul had regarded the young disciple whom he sent forth. then he took a little merit to himself for having studiously provided the best man he could without reference to patronage or favour; but he did not say that the best man according to his views was he who was best able to subdue mr. slope, and make that gentleman's situation in barchester too hot to be comfortable. as to the bonds, they had consisted in the exceeding struggle which he had made to get a good clergyman for them. he deprecated any comparison between himself and st. paul, but said that he was entitled to beseech them for their goodwill towards mr. arabin, in the same manner that the apostle had besought philemon and his household with regard to onesimus. the archdeacon's sermon--text, blessing, and all--was concluded within the half-hour. then they shook hands with their ullathorne friends and returned to plumstead. 'twas thus that mr. arabin read himself in at st. ewold's. chapter xxiv mr. slope manages matters very cleverly at puddingdale the next two weeks passed pleasantly enough at plumstead. the whole party there assembled seemed to get on well together. eleanor made the house agreeable, and the archdeacon and mr. grantly seemed to have forgotten her iniquity as regarded mr. slope. mr. harding had his violoncello, and played to them while his daughters accompanied him. johnny bold, by the help either of mr. rerechild or else by that of his coral and carrot-juice, got through his teething troubles. there had been gaieties, too, of all sorts. they had dined at ullathorne, and the thornes had dined at the rectory. eleanor had been duly put to stand on her box, and in that position had found herself quite unable to express her opinion on the merits of flounces, such having been the subject given to try her elocution. mr. arabin had of course been much in his own parish, looking to the doings at his vicarage, calling on his parishioners, and taking on himself the duties of his new calling. but still he had been every evening at plumstead, and mrs. grantly was partly willing to agree with her husband that he was a pleasant inmate in a house. they had also been at a dinner-party at dr. stanhope's, of which mr. arabin had made one. he also, mothlike, burnt his wings in the flames of the signora's candle. mrs. bold, too, had been there, and had felt somewhat displeased with the taste--want of taste she called it--shown by mr. arabin in paying so much attention to madame neroni. it was as infallible that madeline should displease and irritate the women as that she should charm and captivate the men. the one result followed naturally on the other. it was quite true that mr. arabin had been charmed. he thought her a very clever and a very handsome woman; he thought also that her peculiar affliction entitled her to the sympathy of all. he had never, he said, met so much suffering joined to such perfect beauty and so clear a mind. 'twas thus he spoke of the signora, coming home in the archdeacon's carriage, and eleanor by no means liked to hear the praise. it was, however, exceedingly unjust of her to be angry with mr. arabin, as she had herself spent a very pleasant evening with bertie stanhope, who had taken her down to dinner and had not left her side for one moment after the gentlemen came out of the dining-room. it was unfair that she should amuse herself with bertie and yet begrudge her new friend his license of amusing himself with bertie's sister. and yet she did so. she was half-angry with him in the carriage, and said something about meretricious manners. mr. arabin did not understand the ways of women very well, or else he might have flattered himself that eleanor was in love with him. but eleanor was not in love with him. how many shades there are between love and indifference, and how little the graduated scale is understood! she had now been nearly three weeks in the same house with mr. arabin, and had received much of his attention and listened daily to his conversation. he had usually devoted at least some portion of his evening to her exclusively. at dr. stanhope's he had devoted himself exclusively to another. it does not require that a woman should be in love to be irritated at this; it does not require that she should even acknowledge to herself that it is unpleasant to her. eleanor had no such self-knowledge. she thought in her own heart that it was only on mr. arabin's account that she regretted that he could condescend to be amused by the signora. "i thought he had more mind," she said to herself as she sat watching her baby's cradle on her return from the party. "after all, i believe mr. stanhope is the pleasanter man of the two." alas for the memory of poor john bold! eleanor was not in love with bertie stanhope, nor was she in love with mr. arabin. but her devotion to her late husband was fast fading when she could revolve in her mind, over the cradle of his infant, the faults and failings of other aspirants to her favour. will anyone blame my heroine for this? let him or her rather thank god for all his goodness--for his mercy endureth forever. eleanor, in truth, was not in love; neither was mr. arabin. neither indeed was bertie stanhope, though he had already found occasion to say nearly as much as that he was. the widow's cap had prevented him from making a positive declaration, when otherwise he would have considered himself entitled to do so on a third or fourth interview. it was, after all, but a small cap now, and had but little of the weeping willow left in its construction. it is singular how these emblems of grief fade away by unseen gradations. each pretends to be the counterpart of the forerunner, and yet the last little bit of crimped white crape that sits so jauntily on the back of the head is as dissimilar to the first huge mountain of woe which disfigured the face of the weeper as the state of the hindu is to the jointure of the english dowager. but let it be clearly understood that eleanor was in love with no one, and that no one was in love with eleanor. under these circumstances her anger against mr. arabin did not last long, and before two days were over they were both as good friends as ever. she could not but like him, for every hour spent in his company was spent pleasantly. and yet she could not quite like him, for there was always apparent in his conversation a certain feeling on his part that he hardly thought it worth his while to be in earnest. it was almost as though he were playing with a child. she knew well enough that he was in truth a sober, thoughtful man who, in some matters and on some occasions, could endure an agony of earnestness. and yet to her he was always gently playful. could she have seen his brow once clouded, she might have learnt to love him. so things went on at plumstead, and on the whole not unpleasantly, till a huge storm darkened the horizon and came down upon the inhabitants of the rectory with all the fury of a water-spout. it was astonishing how in a few minutes the whole face of the heavens was changed. the party broke up from breakfast in perfect harmony, but fierce passions had arisen before the evening which did not admit of their sitting at the same board for dinner. to explain this it will be necessary to go back a little. it will be remembered that the bishop expressed to mr. slope in his dressing-room his determination that mr. quiverful should be confirmed in his appointment to the hospital, and that his lordship requested mr. slope to communicate this decision to the archdeacon. it will also be remembered that the archdeacon had indignantly declined seeing mr. slope, and had instead written a strong letter to the bishop in which he all but demanded the situation of warden for mr. harding. to this letter the archdeacon received an immediate formal reply from mr. slope, in which it was stated that the bishop had received and would give his best consideration to the archdeacon's letter. the archdeacon felt himself somewhat checkmated by this reply. what could he do with a man who would neither see him, nor argue with him by letter, and who had undoubtedly the power of appointing any clergyman he pleased? he had consulted with mr. arabin, who had suggested the propriety of calling in the aid of the master of lazarus. "if," said he, "you and dr. gwynne formally declare your intention of waiting upon the bishop, the bishop will not dare to refuse to see you; and if two such men as you are see him together, you will probably not leave him without carrying your point." the archdeacon did not quite like admitting the necessity of his being backed by the master of lazarus before he could obtain admission into the episcopal palace of barchester, but still he felt that the advice was good, and he resolved to take it. he wrote again to the bishop, expressing a hope that nothing further would be done in the matter of the hospital till the consideration promised by his lordship had been given, and then sent off a warm appeal to his friend the master, imploring him to come to plumstead and assist in driving the bishop into compliance. the master had rejoined, raising some difficulty, but not declining, and the archdeacon had again pressed his point, insisting on the necessity for immediate action. dr. gwynne unfortunately had the gout, and could therefore name no immediate day, but still agreed to come, if it should be finally found necessary. so the matter stood, as regarded the party at plumstead. but mr. harding had another friend fighting his battle for him, quite as powerful as the master of lazarus, and this was mr. slope. though the bishop had so pertinaciously insisted on giving way to his wife in the matter of the hospital, mr. slope did not think it necessary to abandon his object. he had, he thought, daily more and more reason to imagine that the widow would receive his overtures favourably, and he could not but feel that mr. harding at the hospital, and placed there by his means, would be more likely to receive him as a son-in-law than mr. harding growling in opposition and disappointment under the archdeacon's wing at plumstead. moreover, to give mr. slope due credit, he was actuated by greater motives even than these. he wanted a wife, and he wanted money, but he wanted power more than either. he had fully realized the fact that he must come to blows with mrs. proudie. he had no desire to remain in barchester as her chaplain. sooner than do so, he would risk the loss of his whole connexion with the diocese. what! was he to feel within him the possession of no ordinary talents--was he to know himself to be courageous, firm, and, in matters where his conscience did not interfere, unscrupulous--and yet he contented to be the working factotum of a woman prelate? mr. slope had higher ideas of his own destiny. either he or mrs. proudie must go to the wall, and now had come the time when he would try which it should be. the bishop had declared that mr. quiverful should be the new warden. as mr. slope went downstairs, prepared to see the archdeacon, if necessary, but fully satisfied that no such necessity would arise, he declared to himself that mr. harding should be warden. with the object of carrying this point, he rode over to puddingdale and had a further interview with the worthy expectant of clerical good things. mr. quiverful was on the whole a worthy man. the impossible task of bringing up as ladies and gentlemen fourteen children on an income which was insufficient to give them with decency the common necessaries of life, had had an effect upon him not beneficial either to his spirit or his keen sense of honour. who can boast that he would have supported such a burden with a different result? mr. quiverful was an honest, painstaking, drudging man, anxious indeed for bread and meat, anxious for means to quiet his butcher and cover with returning smiles the now sour countenance of the baker's wife; but anxious also to be right with his own conscience. he was not careful, as another might be who sat on an easier worldly seat, to stand well with those around him, to shun a breath which might sully his name or a rumour which might affect his honour. he could not afford such niceties of conduct, such moral luxuries. it must suffice for him to be ordinarily honest according to the ordinary honesty of the world's ways, and to let men's tongues wag as they would. he had felt that his brother clergymen, men whom he had known for the last twenty years, looked coldly on him from the first moment that he had shown himself willing to sit at the feet of mr. slope; he had seen that their looks grew colder still when it became bruited about that he was to be the bishop's new warden at hiram's hospital. this was painful enough, but it was the cross which he was doomed to bear. he thought of his wife, whose last new silk dress was six years in wear. he thought of all his young flock, whom he could hardly take to church with him on sundays, for there were not decent shoes and stockings for them all to wear. he thought of the well-worn sleeves of his own black coat and of the stern face of the draper, from whom he would fain ask for cloth to make another, did he not know that the credit would be refused him. then he thought of the comfortable house in barchester, of the comfortable income, of his boys sent to school, of his girls with books in their hands instead of darning needles, of his wife's face again covered with smiles, and of his daily board again covered with plenty. he thought of these things; and do thou also, reader, think of them, and then wonder, if thou canst, that mr. slope had appeared to him to possess all those good gifts which could grace a bishop's chaplain. "how beautiful upon the mountains are the feet of him that bringeth good tidings." why, moreover, should the barchester clergy have looked coldly on mr. quiverful? had they not all shown that they regarded with complacency the loaves and fishes of their mother church? had they not all, by some hook or crook, done better for themselves than he had done? they were not burdened as he was burdened. dr. grantly had five children and nearly as many thousands a year on which to feed them. it was very well for him to turn up his nose at a new bishop who could do nothing for him, and a chaplain who was beneath his notice; but it was cruel in a man so circumstanced to set the world against the father of fourteen children because he was anxious to obtain for them an honourable support! he, mr. quiverful, had not asked for the wardenship; he had not even accepted it till he had been assured that mr. harding had refused it. how hard then that he should be blamed for doing that which not to have done would have argued a most insane imprudence! thus in this matter of the hospital poor mr. quiverful had his trials, and he had also his consolations. on the whole the consolations were the more vivid of the two. the stern draper heard of the coming promotion, and the wealth of his warehouse was at mr. quiverful's disposal. coming events cast their shadows before, and the coming event of mr. quiverful's transference to barchester produced a delicious shadow in the shape of a new outfit for mrs. quiverful and her three elder daughters. such consolations come home to the heart of a man, and quite home to the heart of a woman. whatever the husband might feel, the wife cared nothing for frowns of dean, archdeacon, or prebendary. to her the outsides and insides of her husband and fourteen children were everything. in her bosom every other ambition had been swallowed up in that maternal ambition of seeing them and him and herself duly clad and properly fed. it had come to that with her that life had now no other purpose. she recked nothing of the imaginary rights of others. she had no patience with her husband when he declared to her that he could not accept the hospital unless he knew that mr. harding had refused it. her husband had no right to be quixotic at the expense of fourteen children. the narrow escape of throwing away his good fortune which her lord had had, almost paralysed her. now, indeed, they had received a full promise, not only from mr. slope, but also from mrs. proudie. now, indeed, they might reckon with safety on their good fortune. but what if all had been lost? what if her fourteen bairns had been resteeped to the hips in poverty by the morbid sentimentality of their father? mrs. quiverful was just at present a happy woman, but yet it nearly took her breath away when she thought of the risk they had run. "i don't know what your father means when he talks so much of what is due to mr. harding," she said to her eldest daughter. "does he think that mr. harding would give him £ a year out of fine feeling? and what signifies it whom he offends, as long as he gets the place? he does not expect anything better. it passes me to think how your father can be so soft, while everybody around him is so griping." thus, while the outer world was accusing mr. quiverful of rapacity for promotion and of disregard to his honour, the inner world of his own household was falling foul of him, with equal vehemence, for his willingness to sacrifice their interests to a false feeling of sentimental pride. it is astonishing how much difference the point of view makes in the aspect of all that we look at! such were the feelings of the different members of the family at puddingdale on the occasion of mr. slope's second visit. mrs. quiverful, as soon as she saw his horse coming up the avenue from the vicarage gate, hastily packed up her huge basket of needlework and hurried herself and her daughter out of the room in which she was sitting with her husband. "it's mr. slope," she said. "he's come to settle with you about the hospital. i do hope we shall now be able to move at once." and she hastened to bid the maid of all work go to the door, so that the welcome great man might not be kept waiting. mr. slope thus found mr. quiverful alone. mrs. quiverful went off to her kitchen and back settlements with anxious beating heart, almost dreading that there might be some slip between the cup of her happiness and the lip of her fruition, but yet comforting herself with the reflexion that after what had taken place, any such slip could hardly be possible. mr. slope was all smiles as he shook his brother clergyman's hand and said that he had ridden over because he thought it right at once to put mr. quiverful in possession of the facts of the matter regarding the wardenship of the hospital. as he spoke, the poor expectant husband and father saw at a glance that his brilliant hopes were to be dashed to the ground, and that his visitor was now there for the purpose of unsaying what on his former visit he had said. there was something in the tone of the voice, something in the glance of the eye, which told the tale. mr. quiverful knew it all at once. he maintained his self-possession, however, smiled with a slight unmeaning smile, and merely said that he was obliged to mr. slope for the trouble he was taking. "it has been a troublesome matter from first to last," said mr. slope, "and the bishop has hardly known how to act. between ourselves--but mind this of course must go no further, mr. quiverful." mr. quiverful said that of course it should not. "the truth is that poor mr. harding has hardly known his own mind. you remember our last conversation, no doubt." mr. quiverful assured him that he remembered it very well indeed. "you will remember that i told you that mr. harding had refused to return to the hospital." mr. quiverful declared that nothing could be more distinct on his memory. "and acting on this refusal, i suggested that you should take the hospital," continued mr. slope. "i understood you to say that the bishop had authorised you to offer it to me." "did i? did i go so far as that? well, perhaps it may be that in my anxiety in your behalf i did commit myself further than i should have done. so far as my own memory serves me, i don't think i did go quite so far as that. but i own i was very anxious that you should get it, and i may have said more than was quite prudent." "but," said mr. quiverful in his deep anxiety to prove his case, "my wife received as distinct a promise from mrs. proudie as one human being could give to another." mr. slope smiled and gently shook his head. he meant the smile for a pleasant smile, but it was diabolical in the eyes of the man he was speaking to. "mrs. proudie!" he said. "if we are to go to what passes between the ladies in these matters, we shall really be in a nest of troubles from which we shall never extricate ourselves. mrs. proudie is a most excellent lady, kind-hearted, charitable, pious, and in every way estimable. but, my dear mr. quiverful, the patronage of the diocese is not in her hands." mr. quiverful for a moment sat panic-stricken and silent. "am i to understand, then, that i have received no promise?" he said as soon as he had sufficiently collected his thoughts. "if you will allow me, i will tell you exactly how the matter rests. you certainly did receive a promise conditional on mr. harding's refusal. i am sure you will do me the justice to remember that you yourself declared that you could accept the appointment on no other condition than the knowledge that mr. harding had declined it." "yes," said mr. quiverful; "i did say that, certainly." "well, it now appears that he did not refuse it." "but surely you told me, and repeated it more than once, that he had done so in your own hearing." "so i understood him. but it seems i was in error. but don't for a moment, mr. quiverful, suppose that i mean to throw you over. no. having held out my hand to a man in your position, with your large family and pressing claims, i am not now going to draw it back again. i only want you to act with me fairly and honestly." "whatever i do i shall endeavour at any rate to act fairly," said the poor man, feeling that he had to fall back for support on the spirit of martyrdom within him. "i am sure you will," said the other. "i am sure you have no wish to obtain possession of an income which belongs by all right to another. no man knows better than you do mr. harding's history, or can better appreciate his character. mr. harding is very desirous of returning to his old position, and the bishop feels that he is at the present moment somewhat hampered, though of course he is not bound, by the conversation which took place on the matter between you and me." "well," said mr. quiverful, dreadfully doubtful as to what his conduct under such circumstances should be, and fruitlessly striving to harden his nerves with some of that instinct of self-preservation which made his wife so bold. "the wardenship of this little hospital is not the only thing in the bishop's gift, mr. quiverful, nor is it by many degrees the best. and his lordship is not the man to forget anyone whom he has once marked with approval. if you would allow me to advise you as a friend--" "indeed, i shall be most grateful to you," said the poor vicar of puddingdale. "i should advise you to withdraw from any opposition to mr. harding's claims. if you persist in your demand, i do not think you will ultimately succeed. mr. harding has all but a positive right to the place. but if you will allow me to inform the bishop that you decline to stand in mr. harding's way, i think i may promise you--though, by the by, it must not be taken as a formal promise--that the bishop will not allow you to be a poorer man than you would have been had you become warden." mr. quiverful sat in his armchair, silent, gazing at vacancy. what was he to say? all this that came from mr. slope was so true. mr. harding had a right to the hospital. the bishop had a great many good things to give away. both the bishop and mr. slope would be excellent friends and terrible enemies to a man in his position. and then he had no proof of any promise; he could not force the bishop to appoint him. "well, mr. quiverful, what do you say about it?" "oh, of course, whatever you think fit, mr. slope. it's a great disappointment, a very great disappointment. i won't deny that i am a very poor man, mr. slope." "in the end, mr. quiverful, you will find that it will have been better for you." the interview ended in mr. slope receiving a full renunciation from mr. quiverful of any claim he might have to the appointment in question. it was only given verbally and without witnesses, but then the original promise was made in the same way. mr. slope again assured him that he should not be forgotten, and then rode back to barchester, satisfied that he would now be able to mould the bishop to his wishes. chapter xxv fourteen arguments in favour of mr. quiverful's claims we have most of us heard of the terrible anger of a lioness when, surrounded by her cubs, she guards her prey. few of us wish to disturb the mother of a litter of puppies when mouthing a bone in the midst of her young family. medea and her children are familiar to us, and so is the grief of constance. mrs. quiverful, when she first heard from her husband the news which he had to impart, felt within her bosom all the rage of the lioness, the rapacity of the hound, the fury of the tragic queen, and the deep despair of the bereaved mother. doubting, but yet hardly fearing, what might have been the tenor of mr. slope's discourse, she rushed back to her husband as soon as the front door was closed behind the visitor. it was well for mr. slope that he so escaped--the anger of such a woman, at such a moment, would have cowed even him. as a general rule, it is highly desirable that ladies should keep their temper: a woman when she storms always makes herself ugly, and usually ridiculous also. there is nothing so odious to man as a virago. though theseus loved an amazon, he showed his love but roughly, and from the time of theseus downward, no man ever wished to have his wife remarkable rather for forward prowess than retiring gentleness. a low voice "is an excellent thing in woman." such may be laid down as a very general rule; and few women should allow themselves to deviate from it, and then only on rare occasions. but if there be a time when a woman may let her hair to the winds, when she may loose her arms, and scream out trumpet-tongued to the ears of men, it is when nature calls out within her not for her own wants, but for the wants of those whom her womb has borne, whom her breasts have suckled, for those who look to her for their daily bread as naturally as man looks to his creator. there was nothing poetic in the nature of mrs. quiverful. she was neither a medea nor a constance. when angry, she spoke out her anger in plain words, and in a tone which might have been modulated with advantage; but she did so, at any rate, without affectation. now, without knowing it, she rose to a tragic vein. "well, my dear, we are not to have it." such were the words with which her ears were greeted when she entered the parlour, still hot from the kitchen fire. and the face of her husband spoke even more plainly than his words:-- e'en such a man, so faint, so spiritless, so dull, so dead in look, so woe-begone, drew priam's curtain in the dead of night. "what!" said she--and mrs. siddons could not have put more passion into a single syllable--"what! not have it? who says so?" and she sat opposite to her husband, with her elbows on the table, her hands clasped together, and her coarse, solid, but once handsome face stretched over it towards him. she sat as silent as death while he told his story, and very dreadful to him her silence was. he told it very lamely and badly but still in such a manner that she soon understood the whole of it. "and so you have resigned it?" said she. "i have had no opportunity of accepting it," he replied. "i had no witnesses to mr. slope's offer, even if that offer would bind the bishop. it was better for me, on the whole, to keep on good terms with such men than to fight for what i should never get!" "witnesses!" she screamed, rising quickly to her feet and walking up and down the room. "do clergymen require witnesses to their words? he made the promise in the bishop's name, and if it is to be broken, i'll know the reason why. did he not positively say that the bishop had sent him to offer you the place?" "he did, my dear. but that is now nothing to the purpose." "it is everything to the purpose, mr. quiverful. witnesses indeed! and then to talk of your honour being questioned because you wish to provide for fourteen children. it is everything to the purpose; and so they shall know, if i scream it into their ears from the town cross of barchester." "you forget, letitia, that the bishop has so many things in his gift. we must wait a little longer. that is all." "wait! shall we feed the children by waiting? will waiting put george, and tom, and sam out into the world? will it enable my poor girls to give up some of their drudgery? will waiting make bessy and jane fit even to be governesses? will waiting pay for the things we got in barchester last week?" "it is all we can do, my dear. the disappointment is as much to me as to you; and yet, god knows, i feel it more for your sake than my own." mrs. quiverful was looking full into her husband's face, and saw a small hot tear appear on each of those furrowed cheeks. this was too much for her woman's heart. he also had risen, and was standing with his back to the empty grate. she rushed towards him and, seizing him in her arms, sobbed aloud upon his bosom. "you are too good, too soft, too yielding," she said at last. "these men, when they want you, they use you like a cat's paw; and when they want you no longer, they throw you aside like an old shoe. this is twice they have treated you so." "in one way this will be all for the better," argued he. "it will make the bishop feel that he is bound to do something for me." "at any rate he shall hear of it," said the lady, again reverting to her more angry mood. "at any rate he shall hear of it, and that loudly; and so shall she. she little knows letitia quiverful, if she thinks i will sit down quietly with the loss after all that passed between us at the palace. if there's any feeling within her, i'll make her ashamed of herself,"--and she paced the room again, stamping the floor as she went with her fat, heavy foot. "good heavens! what a heart she must have within her to treat in such a way as this the father of fourteen unprovided children!" mr. quiverful proceeded to explain that he didn't think that mrs. proudie had had anything to do with it. "don't tell me," said mrs. quiverful; "i know more about it than that. doesn't all the world know that mrs. proudie is bishop of barchester and that mr. slope is merely her creature? wasn't it she that made me the promise, just as though the thing was in her own particular gift? i tell you, it was that woman who sent him over here to-day, because, for some reason of her own, she wants to go back from her word." "my dear, you're wrong--" "now, q., don't be so soft," she continued. "take my word for it, the bishop knows no more about it than jemima does." jemima was the two-year-old. "and if you'll take my advice, you'll lose no time in going over and seeing him yourself." soft, however, as mr. quiverful might be, he would not allow himself to be talked out of his opinion on this occasion, and proceeded with much minuteness to explain to his wife the tone in which mr. slope had spoken of mrs. proudie's interference in diocesan matters. as he did so, a new idea gradually instilled itself into the matron's head, and a new course of conduct presented itself to her judgement. what if, after all, mrs. proudie knew nothing of this visit of mr. slope's? in that case, might it not be possible that that lady would still be staunch to her in this matter, still stand her friend, and, perhaps, possibly carry her through in opposition to mr. slope? mrs. quiverful said nothing as this vague hope occurred to her, but listened with more than ordinary patience to what her husband had to say. while he was still explaining that in all probability the world was wrong in its estimation of mrs. proudie's power and authority, she had fully made up her mind as to her course of action. she did not, however, proclaim her intention. she shook her head ominously as he continued his narration, and when he had completed, she rose to go, merely observing that it was cruel, cruel treatment. she then asked him if he would mind waiting for a late dinner instead of dining at their usual hour of three; and, having received from him a concession on this point, she proceeded to carry her purpose into execution. she determined that she would at once go to the palace, that she would do so, if possible, before mrs. proudie could have had an interview with mr. slope, and that she would be either submissive, piteous, and pathetic, or else indignant, violent, and exacting, according to the manner in which she was received. she was quite confident in her own power. strengthened as she was by the pressing wants of fourteen children, she felt that she could make her way through legions of episcopal servants and force herself, if need be, into the presence of the lady who had so wronged her. she had no shame about it, no _mauvaise honte_, no dread of archdeacons. she would, as she declared to her husband, make her wail heard in the market-place if she did not get redress and justice. it might be very well for an unmarried young curate to be shamefaced in such matters; it might be all right that a snug rector, really in want of nothing, but still looking for better preferment, should carry on his affairs decently under the rose. but mrs. quiverful, with fourteen children, had given over being shamefaced and, in some things, had given over being decent. if it were intended that she should be ill-used in the manner proposed by mr. slope, it should not be done under the rose. all the world should know of it. in her present mood, mrs. quiverful was not over-careful about her attire. she tied her bonnet under her chin, threw her shawl over her shoulders, armed herself with the old family cotton umbrella, and started for barchester. a journey to the palace was not quite so easy a thing for mrs. quiverful as for our friend at plumstead. plumstead is nine miles from barchester, and puddingdale is but four. but the archdeacon could order round his brougham, and his high-trotting fast bay gelding would take him into the city within the hour. there was no brougham in the coach-house of puddingdale vicarage, no bay horse in the stables. there was no method of locomotion for its inhabitants but that which nature has assigned to man. mrs. quiverful was a broad, heavy woman, not young, nor given to walking. in her kitchen, and in the family dormitories, she was active enough, but her pace and gait were not adapted for the road. a walk into barchester and back in the middle of an august day would be to her a terrible task, if not altogether impracticable. there was living in the parish, about half a mile from the vicarage on the road to the city, a decent, kindly farmer, well to do as regards this world and so far mindful of the next that he attended his parish church with decent regularity. to him mrs. quiverful had before now appealed in some of her more pressing family troubles, and had not appealed in vain. at his door she now presented herself, and, having explained to his wife that most urgent business required her to go at once to barchester, begged that farmer subsoil would take her thither in his tax-cart. the farmer did not reject her plan, and, as soon as prince could be got into his collar, they started on their journey. mrs. quiverful did not mention the purpose of her business, nor did the farmer alloy his kindness by any unseemly questions. she merely begged to be put down at the bridge going into the city and to be taken up again at the same place in the course of two hours. the farmer promised to be punctual to his appointment, and the lady, supported by her umbrella, took the short cut to the close and, in a few minutes, was at the bishop's door. hitherto she had felt no dread with regard to the coming interview. she had felt nothing but an indignant longing to pour forth her claims, and declare her wrongs, if those claims were not fully admitted. but now the difficulty of her situation touched her a little. she had been at the palace once before, but then she went to give grateful thanks. those who have thanks to return for favours received find easy admittance to the halls of the great. such is not always the case with men, or even with women, who have favours to beg. still less easy is access for those who demand the fulfilment of promises already made. mrs. quiverful had not been slow to learn the ways of the world. she knew all this, and she knew also that her cotton umbrella and all but ragged shawl would not command respect in the eyes of the palatial servants. if she were too humble, she knew well that she would never succeed. to overcome by imperious overbearing with such a shawl as hers upon her shoulders and such a bonnet on her head would have required a personal bearing very superior to that with which nature had endowed her. of this also mrs. quiverful was aware. she must make it known that she was the wife of a gentleman and a clergyman, and must yet condescend to conciliate. the poor lady knew but one way to overcome these difficulties at the very threshold of her enterprise, and to this she resorted. low as were the domestic funds at puddingdale, she still retained possession of half a crown, and this she sacrificed to the avarice of mrs. proudie's metropolitan sesquipedalian serving-man. she was, she said, mrs. quiverful of puddingdale, the wife of the rev. mr. quiverful. she wished to see mrs. proudie. it was indeed quite indispensable that she should see mrs. proudie. james fitzplush looked worse than dubious, did not know whether his lady were out, or engaged, or in her bedroom; thought it most probable she was subject to one of these or to some other cause that would make her invisible; but mrs. quiverful could sit down in the waiting-room while inquiry was being made of mrs. proudie's maid. "look here, my man," said mrs. quiverful; "i must see her;" and she put her card and half-crown--think of it, my reader, think of it; her last half-crown--into the man's hand and sat herself down on a chair in the waiting-room. whether the bribe carried the day, or whether the bishop's wife really chose to see the vicar's wife, it boots not now to inquire. the man returned and, begging mrs. quiverful to follow him, ushered her into the presence of the mistress of the diocese. mrs. quiverful at once saw that her patroness was in a smiling humour. triumph sat throned upon her brow, and all the joys of dominion hovered about her curls. her lord had that morning contested with her a great point. he had received an invitation to spend a couple of days with the archbishop. his soul longed for the gratification. not a word, however, in his grace's note alluded to the fact of his being a married man; if he went at all, he must go alone. this necessity would have presented no insurmountable bar to the visit, or have militated much against the pleasure, had he been able to go without any reference to mrs. proudie. but this he could not do. he could not order his portmanteau to be packed and start with his own man, merely telling the lady of his heart that he would probably be back on saturday. there are men--may we not rather say monsters?--who do such things, and there are wives--may we not rather say slaves?--who put up with such usage. but dr. and mrs. proudie were not among the number. the bishop, with some beating about the bush, made the lady understand that he very much wished to go. the lady, without any beating about the bush, made the bishop understand that she wouldn't hear of it. it would be useless here to repeat the arguments that were used on each side, and needless to record the result. those who are married will understand very well how the battle was lost and won, and those who are single will never understand it till they learn the lesson which experience alone can give. when mrs. quiverful was shown into mrs. proudie's room, that lady had only returned a few minutes from her lord. but before she left him she had seen the answer to the archbishop's note written and sealed. no wonder that her face was wreathed with smiles as she received mrs. quiverful. she instantly spoke of the subject which was so near the heart of her visitor. "well, mrs. quiverful," said she, "is it decided yet when you are to move into barchester?" "that woman," as she had an hour or two since been called, became instantly re-endowed with all the graces that can adorn a bishop's wife. mrs. quiverful immediately saw that her business was to be piteous, and that nothing was to be gained by indignation--nothing, indeed, unless she could be indignant in company with her patroness. "oh, mrs. proudie," she began, "i fear we are not to move to barchester at all." "why not?" said that lady sharply, dropping at a moment's notice her smiles and condescension, and turning with her sharp quick way to business which she saw at a glance was important. and then mrs. quiverful told her tale. as she progressed in the history of her wrongs she perceived that the heavier she leant upon mr. slope the blacker became mrs. proudie's brow, but that such blackness was not injurious to her own case. when mr. slope was at puddingdale vicarage that morning she had regarded him as the creature of the lady-bishop; now she perceived that they were enemies. she admitted her mistake to herself without any pain or humiliation. she had but one feeling, and that was confined to her family. she cared little how she twisted and turned among these new-comers at the bishop's palace so long as she could twist her husband into the warden's house. she cared not which was her friend or which was her enemy, if only she could get this preferment which she so sorely wanted. she told her tale, and mrs. proudie listened to it almost in silence. she told how mr. slope had cozened her husband into resigning his claim, and had declared that it was the bishop's will that none but mr. harding should be warden. mrs. proudie's brow became blacker and blacker. at last she started from her chair and, begging mrs. quiverful to sit and wait for her return, marched out of the room. "oh, mrs. proudie, it's for fourteen children--for fourteen children." such was the burden that fell on her ear as she closed the door behind her. chapter xxvi mrs. proudie wrestles and gets a fall it was hardly an hour since mrs. proudie had left her husband's apartment victorious, and yet so indomitable was her courage that she now returned thither panting for another combat. she was greatly angry with what she thought was his duplicity. he had so clearly given her a promise on this matter of the hospital. he had been already so absolutely vanquished on that point. mrs. proudie began to feel that if every affair was to be thus discussed and battled about twice and even thrice, the work of the diocese would be too much even for her. without knocking at the door, she walked quickly into her husband's room and found him seated at his office table, with mr. slope opposite to him. between his fingers was the very note which he had written to the archbishop in her presence--and it was open! yes, he had absolutely violated the seal which had been made sacred by her approval. they were sitting in deep conclave, and it was too clear that the purport of the archbishop's invitation had been absolutely canvassed again, after it had been already debated and decided on in obedience to her behests! mr. slope rose from his chair and bowed slightly. the two opposing spirits looked each other fully in the face, and they knew that they were looking each at an enemy. "what is this, bishop, about mr. quiverful?" said she, coming to the end of the table and standing there. mr. slope did not allow the bishop to answer but replied himself. "i have been out to puddingdale this morning, ma'am, and have seen mr. quiverful. mr. quiverful has abandoned his claim to the hospital because he is now aware that mr. harding is desirous to fill his old place. under these circumstances i have strongly advised his lordship to nominate mr. harding." "mr. quiverful has not abandoned anything," said the lady, with a very imperious voice. "his lordship's word has been pledged to him, and it must be respected." the bishop still remained silent. he was anxiously desirous of making his old enemy bite the dust beneath his feet. his new ally had told him that nothing was more easy for him than to do so. the ally was there now at his elbow to help him, and yet his courage failed him. it is so hard to conquer when the prestige of former victories is all against one. it is so hard for the cock who has once been beaten out of his yard to resume his courage and again take a proud place upon a dunghill. "perhaps i ought not to interfere," said mr. slope, "but yet--" "certainly you ought not," said the infuriated dame. "but yet," continued mr. slope, not regarding the interruption, "i have thought it my imperative duty to recommend the bishop not to slight mr. harding's claims." "mr. harding should have known his own mind," said the lady. "if mr. harding be not replaced at the hospital, his lordship will have to encounter much ill-will, not only in the diocese, but in the world at large. besides, taking a higher ground, his lordship, as i understand, feels it to be his duty to gratify, in this matter, so very worthy a man and so good a clergyman as mr. harding." "and what is to become of the sabbath-day school and of the sunday services in the hospital?" said mrs. proudie, with something very nearly approaching to a sneer on her face. "i understand that mr. harding makes no objection to the sabbath-day school," said mr. slope. "and as to the hospital services, that matter will be best discussed after his appointment. if he has any permanent objection, then, i fear, the matter must rest." "you have a very easy conscience in such matters, mr. slope," said she. "i should not have an easy conscience," he rejoined, "but a conscience very far from being easy, if anything said or done by me should lead the bishop to act unadvisedly in this matter. it is clear that in the interview i had with mr. harding i misunderstood him--" "and it is equally clear that you have misunderstood mr. quiverful," said she, now at the top of her wrath. "what business have you at all with these interviews? who desired you to go to mr. quiverful this morning? who commissioned you to manage this affair? will you answer me, sir? who sent you to mr. quiverful this morning?" there was a dead pause in the room. mr. slope had risen from his chair, and was standing with his hand on the back of it, looking at first very solemn and now very black. mrs. proudie was standing as she had at first placed herself, at the end of the table, and as she interrogated her foe she struck her hand upon it with almost more than feminine vigour. the bishop was sitting in his easy chair twiddling his thumbs, turning his eyes now to his wife, and now to his chaplain, as each took up the cudgels. how comfortable it would be if they could fight it out between them without the necessity of any interference on his part; fight it out so that one should kill the other utterly, as far as diocesan life was concerned, so that he, the bishop, might know clearly by whom it behoved him to be led. there would be the comfort of quiet in either case; but if the bishop had a wish as to which might prove the victor, that wish was certainly not antagonistic to mr. slope. "better the d---- you know than the d---- you don't know," is an old saying, and perhaps a true one; but the bishop had not yet realized the truth of it. "will you answer me, sir?" she repeated. "who instructed you to call on mr. quiverful this morning?" there was another pause. "do you intend to answer me, sir?" "i think, mrs. proudie, that under all the circumstances it will be better for me not to answer such a question," said mr. slope. mr. slope had many tones in his voice, all duly under his command; among them was a sanctified low tone and a sanctified loud tone--he now used the former. "did anyone send you, sir?" "mrs. proudie," said mr. slope, "i am quite aware how much i owe to your kindness. i am aware also what is due by courtesy from a gentleman to a lady. but there are higher considerations than either of those, and i hope i shall be forgiven if i now allow myself to be actuated solely by them. my duty in this matter is to his lordship, and i can admit of no questioning but from him. he has approved of what i have done, and you must excuse me if i say that, having that approval and my own, i want none other." what horrid words were these which greeted the ear of mrs. proudie? the matter was indeed too clear. there was premeditated mutiny in the camp. not only had ill-conditioned minds become insubordinate by the fruition of a little power, but sedition had been overtly taught and preached. the bishop had not yet been twelve months in his chair, and rebellion had already reared her hideous head within the palace. anarchy and misrule would quickly follow unless she took immediate and strong measures to put down the conspiracy which she had detected. "mr. slope," she said with slow and dignified voice, differing much from that which she had hitherto used, "mr. slope, i will trouble you, if you please, to leave the apartment. i wish to speak to my lord alone." mr. slope also felt that everything depended on the present interview. should the bishop now be re-petticoated, his thraldom would be complete and forever. the present moment was peculiarly propitious for rebellion. the bishop had clearly committed himself by breaking the seal of the answer to the archbishop; he had therefore fear to influence him. mr. slope had told him that no consideration ought to induce him to refuse the archbishop's invitation; he had therefore hope to influence him. he had accepted mr. quiverful's resignation and therefore dreaded having to renew that matter with his wife. he had been screwed up to the pitch of asserting a will of his own, and might possibly be carried on till by an absolute success he should have been taught how possible it was to succeed. now was the moment for victory or rout. it was now that mr. slope must make himself master of the diocese, or else resign his place and begin his search for fortune again. he saw all this plainly. after what had taken place any compromise between him and the lady was impossible. let him once leave the room at her bidding and leave the bishop in her hands, and he might at once pack up his portmanteau and bid adieu to episcopal honours, mrs. bold, and the signora neroni. and yet it was not so easy to keep his ground when he was bidden by a lady to go, or to continue to make a third in a party between a husband and wife when the wife expressed a wish for a _tête-à-tête_ with her husband. "mr. slope," she repeated, "i wish to be alone with my lord." "his lordship has summoned me on most important diocesan business," said mr. slope, glancing with uneasy eye at dr. proudie. he felt that he must trust something to the bishop, and yet that that trust was so woefully ill-placed. "my leaving him at the present moment is, i fear, impossible." "do you bandy words with me, you ungrateful man?" said she. "my lord, will you do me the favour to beg mr. slope to leave the room?" my lord scratched his head, but for the moment said nothing. this was as much as mr. slope expected from him, and was on the whole, for him, an active exercise of marital rights. "my lord," said the lady, "is mr. slope to leave this room, or am i?" here mrs. proudie made a false step. she should not have alluded to the possibility of retreat on her part. she should not have expressed the idea that her order for mr. slope's expulsion could be treated otherwise than by immediate obedience. in answer to such a question the bishop naturally said in his own mind that, as it was necessary that one should leave the room, perhaps it might be as well that mrs. proudie did so. he did say so in his own mind, but externally he again scratched his head and again twiddled his thumbs. mrs. proudie was boiling over with wrath. alas, alas! could she but have kept her temper as her enemy did, she would have conquered as she had ever conquered. but divine anger got the better of her, as it has done of other heroines, and she fell. "my lord," said she, "am i to be vouchsafed an answer or am i not?" at last he broke his deep silence and proclaimed himself a slopeite. "why, my dear," said he, "mr. slope and i are very busy." that was all. there was nothing more necessary. he had gone to the battlefield, stood the dust and heat of the day, encountered the fury of the foe, and won the victory. how easy is success to those who will only be true to themselves! mr. slope saw at once the full amount of his gain, and turned on the vanquished lady a look of triumph which she never forgot and never forgave. here he was wrong. he should have looked humbly at her and, with meek entreating eye, have deprecated her anger. he should have said by his glance that he asked pardon for his success, and that he hoped forgiveness for the stand which he had been forced to make in the cause of duty. so might he perchance have somewhat mollified that imperious bosom and prepared the way for future terms. but mr. slope meant to rule without terms. ah, forgetful, inexperienced man! can you cause that little trembling victim to be divorced from the woman that possesses him? can you provide that they shall be separated at bed and board? is he not flesh of her flesh and bone of her bone, and must he not so continue? it is very well now for you to stand your ground and triumph as she is driven ignominiously from the room, but can you be present when those curtains are drawn, when that awful helmet of proof has been tied beneath the chin, when the small remnants of the bishop's prowess shall be cowed by the tassel above his head? can you then intrude yourself when the wife wishes "to speak to my lord alone?" but for the moment mr. slope's triumph was complete, for mrs. proudie without further parley left the room and did not forget to shut the door after her. then followed a close conference between the new allies, in which was said much which it astonished mr. slope to say and the bishop to hear. and yet the one said it and the other heard it without ill-will. there was no mincing of matters now. the chaplain plainly told the bishop that the world gave him credit for being under the governance of his wife; that his credit and character in the diocese were suffering; that he would surely get himself in hot water if he allowed mrs. proudie to interfere in matters which were not suitable for a woman's powers; and in fact that he would become contemptible if he did not throw off the yoke under which he groaned. the bishop at first hummed and hawed and affected to deny the truth of what was said. but his denial was not stout and quickly broke down. he soon admitted by silence his state of vassalage and pledged himself, with mr. slope's assistance, to change his courses. mr. slope also did not make out a bad case for himself. he explained how it grieved him to run counter to a lady who had always been his patroness, who had befriended him in so many ways, who had, in fact, recommended him to the bishop's notice; but, as he stated, his duty was now imperative; he held a situation of peculiar confidence, and was immediately and especially attached to the bishop's person. in such a situation his conscience required that he should regard solely the bishop's interests, and therefore he had ventured to speak out. the bishop took this for what it was worth, and mr. slope only intended that he should do so. it gilded the pill which mr. slope had to administer, and which the bishop thought would be less bitter than that other pill which he had so long been taking. "my lord," had his immediate reward, like a good child. he was instructed to write and at once did write another note to the archbishop accepting his grace's invitation. this note mr. slope, more prudent than the lady, himself took away and posted with his own hands. thus he made sure that this act of self-jurisdiction should be as nearly as possible a _fait accompli_. he begged, and coaxed, and threatened the bishop with a view of making him also write at once to mr. harding, but the bishop, though temporally emancipated from his wife, was not yet enthralled to mr. slope. he said, and probably said truly, that such an offer must be made in some official form; that he was not yet prepared to sign the form; and that he should prefer seeing mr. harding before he did so. mr. slope might, however, beg mr. harding to call upon him. not disappointed with his achievement mr. slope went his way. he first posted the precious note which he had in his pocket, and then pursued other enterprises in which we must follow him in other chapters. mrs. proudie, having received such satisfaction as was to be derived from slamming her husband's door, did not at once betake herself to mrs. quiverful. indeed, for the first few moments after her repulse she felt that she could not again see that lady. she would have to own that she had been beaten, to confess that the diadem had passed from her brow, and the sceptre from her hand! no, she would send a message to her with a promise of a letter on the next day or the day after. thus resolving, she betook herself to her bedroom, but here she again changed her mind. the air of that sacred enclosure somewhat restored her courage and gave her more heart. as achilles warmed at the sight of his armour, as don quixote's heart grew strong when he grasped his lance, so did mrs. proudie look forward to fresh laurels, as her eye fell on her husband's pillow. she would not despair. having so resolved, she descended with dignified mien and refreshed countenance to mrs. quiverful. this scene in the bishop's study took longer in the acting than in the telling. we have not, perhaps, had the whole of the conversation. at any rate mrs. quiverful was beginning to be very impatient, and was thinking that farmer subsoil would be tired of waiting for her, when mrs. proudie returned. oh, who can tell the palpitations of that maternal heart, as the suppliant looked into the face of the great lady to see written there either a promise of house, income, comfort and future competence, or else the doom of continued and ever-increasing poverty! poor mother! poor wife! there was little there to comfort you! "mrs. quiverful," thus spoke the lady with considerable austerity, and without sitting down herself, "i find that your husband has behaved in this matter in a very weak and foolish manner." mrs. quiverful immediately rose upon her feet, thinking it disrespectful to remain sitting while the wife of the bishop stood. but she was desired to sit down again, and made to do so, so that mrs. proudie might stand and preach over her. it is generally considered an offensive thing for a gentleman to keep his seat while another is kept standing before him, and we presume the same law holds with regard to ladies. it often is so felt, but we are inclined to say that it never produces half the discomfort or half the feeling of implied inferiority that is shown by a great man who desires his visitor to be seated while he himself speaks from his legs. such a solecism in good breeding, when construed into english, means this: "the accepted rules of courtesy in the world require that i should offer you a seat; if i did not do so, you would bring a charge against me in the world of being arrogant and ill-mannered; i will obey the world, but, nevertheless, i will not put myself on an equality with you. you may sit down, but i won't sit with you. sit, therefore, at my bidding, and i'll stand and talk at you!" this was just what mrs. proudie meant to say, and mrs. quiverful, though she was too anxious and too flurried thus to translate the full meaning of the manoeuvre, did not fail to feel its effect. she was cowed and uncomfortable, and a second time essayed to rise from her chair. "pray be seated, mrs. quiverful, pray keep your seat. your husband, i say, has been most weak and most foolish. it is impossible, mrs. quiverful, to help people who will not help themselves. i much fear that i can now do nothing for you in this matter." "oh, mrs. proudie, don't say so," said the poor woman, again jumping up. "_pray_ be seated, mrs. quiverful. i must fear that i can do nothing further for you in this matter. your husband has, in a most unaccountable manner, taken upon himself to resign that which i was empowered to offer him. as a matter of course, the bishop expects that his clergy shall know their own minds. what he may ultimately do--what we may finally decide on doing--i cannot now say. knowing the extent of your family--" "fourteen children, mrs. proudie, fourteen of them! and barely bread--barely bread? it's hard for the children of a clergyman, it's hard for one who has always done his duty respectably!" not a word fell from her about herself, but the tears came streaming down her big, coarse cheeks, on which the dust of the august road had left its traces. mrs. proudie has not been portrayed in these pages as an agreeable or an amiable lady. there has been no intention to impress the reader much in her favour. it is ordained that all novels should have a male and a female angel and a male and a female devil. if it be considered that this rule is obeyed in these pages, the latter character must be supposed to have fallen to the lot of mrs. proudie. but she was not all devil. there was a heart inside that stiff-ribbed bodice, though not, perhaps, of large dimensions, and certainly not easily accessible. mrs. quiverful, however, did gain access, and mrs. proudie proved herself a woman. whether it was the fourteen children with their probable bare bread and their possible bare backs, or the respectability of the father's work, or the mingled dust and tears on the mother's face, we will not pretend to say. but mrs. proudie was touched. she did not show it as other women might have done. she did not give mrs. quiverful eau-de-cologne, or order her a glass of wine. she did not take her to her toilet table and offer her the use of brushes and combs, towels and water. she did not say soft little speeches and coax her kindly back to equanimity. mrs. quiverful, despite her rough appearance, would have been as amenable to such little tender cares as any lady in the land. but none such were forthcoming. instead of this, mrs. proudie slapped one hand upon the other and declared--not with an oath, for, as a lady and a sabbatarian and a she-bishop, she could not swear, but with an adjuration--that she "wouldn't have it done." the meaning of this was that she wouldn't have mr. quiverful's promised appointment cozened away by the treachery of mr. slope and the weakness of her husband. this meaning she very soon explained to mrs. quiverful. "why was your husband such a fool," said she, now dismounted from her high horse and sitting confidentially down close to her visitor, "as to take the bait which that man threw to him? if he had not been so utterly foolish, nothing could have prevented your going to the hospital." poor mrs. quiverful was ready enough with her own tongue in accusing her husband to his face of being soft, and perhaps did not always speak of him to her children quite so respectfully as she might have done. but she did not at all like to hear him abused by others, and began to vindicate him and to explain that of course he had taken mr. slope to be an emissary from mrs. proudie herself; that mr. slope was thought to be peculiarly her friend; and that, therefore, mr. quiverful would have been failing in respect to her had he assumed to doubt what mr. slope had said. thus mollified, mrs. proudie again declared that she "would not have it done," and at last sent mrs. quiverful home with an assurance that, to the furthest stretch of her power and influence in the palace, the appointment of mr. quiverful should be insisted on. as she repeated the word "insisted," she thought of the bishop in his night-cap and, with compressed lips, slightly shook her head. oh, my aspiring pastors, divines to whose ears _nolo episcopari_ are the sweetest of words, which of you would be a bishop on such terms as these? mrs. quiverful got home in the farmer's cart, not indeed with a light heart, but satisfied that she had done right in making her visit. chapter xxvii a love scene mr. slope, as we have said, left the palace with a feeling of considerable triumph. not that he thought that his difficulties were all over--he did not so deceive himself--but he felt that he had played his first move well, as well as the pieces on the board would allow, and that he had nothing with which to reproach himself. he first of all posted the letter to the archbishop and, having made that sure, proceeded to push the advantage which he had gained. had mrs. bold been at home, he would have called on her, but he knew that she was at plumstead, so he wrote the following note. it was the beginning of what, he trusted, might be a long and tender series of epistles. my dear mrs. bold, you will understand perfectly that i cannot at present correspond with your father. i heartily wish that i could, and hope the day may be not long distant when mists shall have been cleared away, and we may know each other. but i cannot preclude myself from the pleasure of sending you these few lines to say that mr. q. has to-day, in my presence, resigned any title that he ever had to the wardenship of the hospital, and that the bishop has assured me that it is his intention to offer it to your esteemed father. will you, with my respectful compliments, ask him, who i believe is now a fellow-visitor with you, to call on the bishop either on wednesday or thursday, between ten and one. _this is by the bishop's desire_. if you will so far oblige me as to let me have a line naming either day, and the hour which will suit mr. harding, i will take care that the servants shall have orders to show him in without delay. perhaps i should say no more--but still i wish you could make your father understand that no subject will be mooted between his lordship and him which will refer at all to the method in which he may choose to perform his duty. i for one am persuaded that no clergyman could perform it more satisfactorily than he did, or than he will do again. on a former occasion i was indiscreet and much too impatient, considering your father's age and my own. i hope he will not now refuse my apology. i still hope also that with your aid and sweet pious labours we may live to attach such a sabbath-school to the old endowment as may, by god's grace and furtherance, be a blessing to the poor of this city. you will see at once that this letter is confidential. the subject, of course, makes it so. but, equally, of course, it is for your parent's eye as well as for your own, should you think proper to show it to him. i hope my darling little friend johnny is as strong as ever--dear little fellow. does he still continue his rude assaults on those beautiful long silken tresses? i can assure you your friends miss you from barchester sorely, but it would be cruel to begrudge you your sojourn among flowers and fields during this truly sultry weather. pray believe me, my dear mrs. bold, yours most sincerely, obadiah slope barchester, friday. now this letter, taken as a whole, and with the consideration that mr. slope wished to assume a great degree of intimacy with eleanor, would not have been bad but for the allusion to the tresses. gentlemen do not write to ladies about their tresses unless they are on very intimate terms indeed. but mr. slope could not be expected to be aware of this. he longed to put a little affection into his epistle, and yet he thought it injudicious, as the letter would, he knew, be shown to mr. harding. he would have insisted that the letter should be strictly private and seen by no eyes but eleanor's own, had he not felt that such an injunction would have been disobeyed. he therefore restrained his passion, did not sign himself "yours affectionately," and contented himself instead with the compliment to the tresses. having finished his letter, he took it to mrs. bold's house and, learning there, from the servant, that things were to be sent out to plumstead that afternoon, left it, with many injunctions, in her hands. we will now follow mr. slope so as to complete the day with him and then return to his letter and its momentous fate in the next chapter. there is an old song which gives us some very good advice about courting:-- it's gude to be off with the auld luve before ye be on wi' the new. of the wisdom of this maxim mr. slope was ignorant, and accordingly, having written his letter to mrs. bold, he proceeded to call upon the signora neroni. indeed, it was hard to say which was the old love and which the new, mr. slope having been smitten with both so nearly at the same time. perhaps he thought it not amiss to have two strings to his bow. but two strings to cupid's bow are always dangerous to him on whose behalf they are to be used. a man should remember that between two stools he may fall to the ground. but in sooth mr. slope was pursuing mrs. bold in obedience to his better instincts, and the signora in obedience to his worser. had he won the widow and worn her, no one could have blamed him. you, o reader, and i, and eleanor's other friends would have received the story of such a winning with much disgust and disappointment, but we should have been angry with eleanor, not with mr. slope. bishop, male and female, dean and chapter and diocesan clergy in full congress could have found nothing to disapprove of in such an alliance. convocation itself, that mysterious and mighty synod, could in no wise have fallen foul of it. the possession of £ a year and a beautiful wife would not at all have hurt the voice of the pulpit charmer, or lessened the grace and piety of the exemplary clergyman. but not of such a nature were likely to be his dealings with the signora neroni. in the first place he knew that her husband was living, and therefore he could not woo her honestly. then again she had nothing to recommend her to his honest wooing, had such been possible. she was not only portionless, but also from misfortune unfitted to be chosen as the wife of any man who wanted a useful mate. mr. slope was aware that she was a helpless, hopeless cripple. but mr. slope could not help himself. he knew that he was wrong in devoting his time to the back drawing-room in dr. stanhope's house. he knew that what took place there would, if divulged, utterly ruin him with mrs. bold. he knew that scandal would soon come upon his heels and spread abroad among the black coats of barchester some tidings, exaggerated tidings, of the sighs which he poured into the lady's ears. he knew that he was acting against the recognized principles of his life, against those laws of conduct by which he hoped to achieve much higher success. but, as we have said, he could not help himself. passion, for the first time in his life, passion was too strong for him. as for the signora, no such plea can be put forward for her, for in truth she cared no more for mr. slope than she did for twenty others who had been at her feet before him. she willingly, nay greedily, accepted his homage. he was the finest fly that barchester had hitherto afforded to her web, and the signora was a powerful spider that made wondrous webs, and could in no way live without catching flies. her taste in this respect was abominable, for she had no use for the victims when caught. she could not eat them matrimonially, as young lady flies do whose webs are most frequently of their mothers' weaving. nor could she devour them by any escapade of a less legitimate description. her unfortunate affliction precluded her from all hope of levanting with a lover. it would be impossible to run away with a lady who required three servants to move her from a sofa. the signora was subdued by no passion. her time for love was gone. she had lived out her heart, such heart as she had ever had, in her early years, at an age when mr. slope was thinking of the second book of euclid and his unpaid bill at the buttery hatch. in age the lady was younger than the gentleman, but in feelings, in knowledge of the affairs of love, in intrigue, he was immeasurably her junior. it was necessary to her to have some man at her feet. it was the one customary excitement of her life. she delighted in the exercise of power which this gave her; it was now nearly the only food for her ambition; she would boast to her sister that she could make a fool of any man, and the sister, as little imbued with feminine delicacy as herself, good-naturedly thought it but fair that such amusement should be afforded to a poor invalid who was debarred from the ordinary pleasures of life. mr. slope was madly in love but hardly knew it. the signora spitted him, as a boy does a cockchafer on a cork, that she might enjoy the energetic agony of his gyrations. and she knew very well what she was doing. mr. slope having added to his person all such adornments as are possible to a clergyman making a morning visit--such as a clean necktie, clean handkerchief, new gloves, and a _soupçon_ of not unnecessary scent--called about three o'clock at the doctor's door. at about this hour the signora was almost always alone in the back drawing-room. the mother had not come down. the doctor was out or in his own room. bertie was out, and charlotte at any rate left the room if anyone called whose object was specially with her sister. such was her idea of being charitable and sisterly. mr. slope, as was his custom, asked for mr. stanhope, and was told, as was the servant's custom, that the signora was in the drawing-room. upstairs he accordingly went. he found her, as he always did, lying on her sofa with a french volume before her and a beautiful little inlaid writing-case open on her table. at the moment of his entrance she was in the act of writing. "ah, my friend," said she, putting out her left hand to him across her desk, "i did not expect you to-day and was this very instant writing to you--" mr. slope, taking the soft, fair, delicate hand in his--and very soft and fair and delicate it was--bowed over it his huge red head and kissed it. it was a sight to see, a deed to record if the author could fitly do it, a picture to put on canvas. mr. slope was big, awkward, cumbrous, and, having his heart in his pursuit, was ill at ease. the lady was fair, as we have said, and delicate; everything about her was fine and refined; her hand in his looked like a rose lying among carrots, and when he kissed it, he looked as a cow might do on finding such a flower among her food. she was graceful as a couchant goddess and, moreover, as self-possessed as venus must have been when courting adonis. oh, that such grace and such beauty should have condescended to waste itself on such a pursuit! "i was in the act of writing to you," said she, "but now my scrawl may go into the basket;" and she raised the sheet of gilded note-paper from off her desk as though to tear it. "indeed it shall not," said he, laying the embargo of half a stone weight of human flesh and blood upon the devoted paper. "nothing that you write for my eyes, signora, shall be so desecrated," and he took up the letter, put that also among the carrots and fed on it, and then proceeded to read it. "gracious me! mr. slope," said she, "i hope you don't mean to say you keep all the trash i write to you. half my time i don't know what i write, and when i do, i know it is only fit for the back of the fire. i hope you have not that ugly trick of keeping letters." "at any rate, i don't throw them into a waste-paper basket. if destruction is their doomed lot, they perish worthily, and are burnt on a pyre, as dido was of old." "with a steel pen stuck through them, of course," said she, "to make the simile more complete. of all the ladies of my acquaintance i think lady dido was the most absurd. why did she not do as cleopatra did? why did she not take out her ships and insist on going with him? she could not bear to lose the land she had got by a swindle, and then she could not bear the loss of her lover. so she fell between two stools. mr. slope, whatever you do, never mingle love and business." mr. slope blushed up to his eyes and over his mottled forehead to the very roots of his hair. he felt sure that the signora knew all about his intentions with reference to mrs bold. his conscience told him that he was detected. his doom was to be spoken; he was to be punished for his duplicity, and rejected by the beautiful creature before him. poor man. he little dreamt that had all his intentions with reference to mrs. bold been known to the signora, it would only have added zest to that lady's amusement. it was all very well to have mr. slope at her feet, to show her power by making an utter fool of a clergyman, to gratify her own infidelity by thus proving the little strength which religion had in controlling the passions even of a religious man; but it would be an increased gratification if she could be made to understand that she was at the same time alluring her victim away from another, whose love if secured would be in every way beneficent and salutary. the signora had indeed discovered, with the keen instinct of such a woman, that mr. slope was bent on matrimony with mrs. bold, but in alluding to dido she had not thought of it. she instantly perceived, however, from her lover's blushes, what was on his mind and was not slow in taking advantage of it. she looked him full in the face, not angrily, nor yet with a smile, but with an intense and overpowering gaze; then, holding up her forefinger and slightly shaking her head, she said:-- "whatever you do, my friend, do not mingle love and business. either stick to your treasure and your city of wealth, or else follow your love like a true man. but never attempt both. if you do, you'll have to die with a broken heart as did poor dido. which is it to be with you, mr. slope, love or money?" mr. slope was not so ready with a pathetic answer as he usually was with touching episodes in his extempore sermons. he felt that he ought to say something pretty, something also that should remove the impression on the mind of his lady-love. but he was rather put about how to do it. "love," said he, "true overpowering love, must be the strongest passion a man can feel; it must control every other wish, and put aside every other pursuit. but with me love will never act in that way unless it be returned;" and he threw upon the signora a look of tenderness which was intended to make up for all the deficiencies of his speech. "take my advice," said she. "never mind love. after all, what is it? the dream of a few weeks. that is all its joy. the disappointment of a life is its nemesis. who was ever successful in true love? success in love argues that the love is false. true love is always despondent or tragical. juliet loved, haidee loved, dido loved, and what came of it? troilus loved and ceased to be a man." "troilus loved and was fooled," said the more manly chaplain. "a man may love and yet not be a troilus. all women are not cressidas." "no, all women are not cressidas. the falsehood is not always on the woman's side. imogen was true, but how was she rewarded? her lord believed her to be the paramour of the first he who came near her in his absence. desdemona was true and was smothered. ophelia was true and went mad. there is no happiness in love, except at the end of an english novel. but in wealth, money, houses, lands, goods, and chattels, in the good things of this world, yes, in them there is something tangible, something that can be retained and enjoyed." "oh, no," said mr. slope, feeling himself bound to enter some protest against so very unorthodox a doctrine, "this world's wealth will make no one happy." "and what will make you happy--you--you?" said she, raising herself up and speaking to him with energy across the table. "from what source do you look for happiness? do not say that you look for none. i shall not believe you. it is a search in which every human being spends an existence." "and the search is always in vain," said mr. slope. "we look for happiness on earth, while we ought to be content to hope for it in heaven." "pshaw! you preach a doctrine which you know you don't believe. it is the way with you all. if you know that there is no earthly happiness, why do you long to be a bishop or a dean? why do you want lands and income?" "i have the natural ambition of a man," said he. "of course you have, and the natural passions; and therefore i say that you don't believe the doctrine you preach. st. paul was an enthusiast. he believed so that his ambition and passions did not war against his creed. so does the eastern fanatic who passes half his life erect upon a pillar. as for me, i will believe in no belief that does not make itself manifest by outward signs. i will think no preaching sincere that is not recommended by the practice of the preacher." mr. slope was startled and horrified, but he felt that he could not answer. how could he stand up and preach the lessons of his master, being there, as he was, on the devil's business? he was a true believer, otherwise this would have been nothing to him. he had audacity for most things, but he had not audacity to make a plaything of the lord's word. all this the signora understood, and felt much interest as she saw her cockchafer whirl round upon her pin. "your wit delights in such arguments," said he, "but your heart and your reason do not go along with them." "my heart!" said she; "you quite mistake the principles of my composition if you imagine that there is such a thing about me." after all, there was very little that was false in anything that the signora said. if mr. slope allowed himself to be deceived, it was his own fault. nothing could have been more open than her declarations about herself. the little writing-table with her desk was still standing before her, a barrier, as it were, against the enemy. she was sitting as nearly upright as she ever did, and he had brought a chair close to the sofa, so that there was only the corner of the table between him and her. it so happened that as she spoke her hand lay upon the table, and as mr. slope answered her he put his hand upon hers. "no heart!" said he. "that is a heavy charge which you bring against yourself, and one of which i cannot find you guilty--" she withdrew her hand, not quickly and angrily, as though insulted by his touch, but gently and slowly. "you are in no condition to give a verdict on the matter," said she, "as you have not tried me. no, don't say that you intend doing so, for you know you have no intention of the kind; nor indeed have i, either. as for you, you will take your vows where they will result in something more substantial than the pursuit of such a ghostlike, ghastly love as mine--" "your love should be sufficient to satisfy the dream of a monarch," said mr. slope, not quite clear as to the meaning of his words. "say an archbishop, mr. slope," said she. poor fellow! she was very cruel to him. he went round again upon his cork on this allusion to his profession. he tried, however, to smile and gently accused her of joking on a matter, which was, he said, to him of such vital moment. "why--what gulls do you men make of us," she replied. "how you fool us to the top of our bent; and of all men you clergymen are the most fluent of your honeyed, caressing words. now look me in the face, mr. slope, boldly and openly." mr. slope did look at her with a languishing loving eye, and as he did so he again put forth his hand to get hold of hers. "i told you to look at me boldly, mr. slope, but confine your boldness to your eyes." "oh, madeline!" he sighed. "well, my name is madeline," said she, "but none except my own family usually call me so. now look me in the face, mr. slope. am i to understand that you say you love me?" mr. slope never had said so. if he had come there with any formed plan at all, his intention was to make love to the lady without uttering any such declaration. it was, however, quite impossible that he should now deny his love. he had, therefore, nothing for it but to go down on his knees distractedly against the sofa and swear that he did love her with a love passing the love of man. the signora received the assurance with very little palpitation or appearance of surprise. "and now answer me another question," said she. "when are you to be married to my dear friend eleanor bold?" poor mr. slope went round and round in mortal agony. in such a condition as his it was really very hard for him to know what answer to give. and yet no answer would be his surest condemnation. he might as well at once plead guilty to the charge brought against him. "and why do you accuse me of such dissimulation?" said he. "dissimulation! i said nothing of dissimulation. i made no charge against you, and make none. pray don't defend yourself to me. you swear that you are devoted to my beauty, and yet you are on the eve of matrimony with another. i feel this to be rather a compliment. it is to mrs. bold that you must defend yourself. that you may find difficult; unless, indeed, you can keep her in the dark. you clergymen are cleverer than other men." "signora, i have told you that i loved you, and now you rail at me." "rail at you. god bless the man; what would he have? come, answer me this at your leisure--not without thinking now, but leisurely and with consideration--are you not going to be married to mrs. bold?" "i am not," said he. and as he said it he almost hated, with an exquisite hatred, the woman whom he could not help loving with an exquisite love. "but surely you are a worshipper of hers?" "i am not," said mr. slope, to whom the word worshipper was peculiarly distasteful. the signora had conceived that it would be so. "i wonder at that," said she. "do you not admire her? to my eye she is the perfection of english beauty. and then she is rich, too. i should have thought she was just the person to attract you. come, mr. slope, let me give you advice on this matter. marry the charming widow; she will be a good mother to your children and an excellent mistress of a clergyman's household." "oh, signora, how can you be so cruel?" "cruel," said she, changing the voice of banter which she had been using for one which was expressively earnest in its tone; "is that cruelty?" "how can i love another while my heart is entirely your own?" "if that were cruelty, mr. slope, what might you say of me if i were to declare that i returned your passion? what would you think if i bound you even by a lover's oath to do daily penance at this couch of mine? what can i give in return for a man's love? ah, dear friend, you have not realized the conditions of my fate." mr. slope was not on his knees all this time. after his declaration of love, he had risen from them as quickly as he thought consistent with the new position which he now filled, and as he stood was leaning on the back of his chair. this outburst of tenderness on the signora's part quite overcame him and made him feel for the moment that he could sacrifice everything to be assured of the love of the beautiful creature before him, maimed, lame, and already married as she was. "and can i not sympathize with your lot?" said he, now seating himself on her sofa and pushing away the table with his foot. "sympathy is so near to pity!" said she. "if you pity me, cripple as i am, i shall spurn you from me." "oh, madeline, i will only love you," and again he caught her hand and devoured it with kisses. now she did not draw it from him, but sat there as he kissed it, looking at him with her great eyes, just as a great spider would look at a great fly that was quite securely caught. "suppose signor neroni were to come to barchester," said she. "would you make his acquaintance?" "signor neroni!" said he. "would you introduce him to the bishop, and mrs. proudie, and the young ladies?" said she, again having recourse to that horrid quizzing voice which mr. slope so particularly hated. "why do you ask such a question?" said he. "because it is necessary that you should know that there is a signor neroni. i think you had forgotten it." "if i thought that you retained for that wretch one particle of the love of which he was never worthy, i would die before i would distract you by telling you what i feel. no! were your husband the master of your heart, i might perhaps love you, but you should never know it." "my heart again! how you talk. and you consider then that if a husband be not master of his wife's heart, he has no right to her fealty; if a wife ceases to love, she may cease to be true. is that your doctrine on this matter, as a minister of the church of england?" mr. slope tried hard within himself to cast off the pollution with which he felt that he was defiling his soul. he strove to tear himself away from the noxious siren that had bewitched him. but he could not do it. he could not be again heart free. he had looked for rapturous joy in loving this lovely creature, and he already found that he met with little but disappointment and self-rebuke. he had come across the fruit of the dead sea, so sweet and delicious to the eye, so bitter and nauseous to the taste. he had put the apple to his mouth, and it had turned to ashes between his teeth. yet he could not tear himself away. he knew, he could not but know, that she jeered at him, ridiculed his love, and insulted the weakness of his religion. but she half-permitted his adoration, and that half-permission added such fuel to his fire that all the fountain of his piety could not quench it. he began to feel savage, irritated, and revengeful. he meditated some severity of speech, some taunt that should cut her, as her taunts cut him. he reflected as he stood there for a moment, silent before her, that if he desired to quell her proud spirit, he should do so by being prouder even than herself; that if he wished to have her at his feet suppliant for his love, it behoved him to conquer her by indifference. all this passed through his mind. as far as dead knowledge went, he knew, or thought he knew, how a woman should be tamed. but when he essayed to bring his tactics to bear, he failed like a child. what chance has dead knowledge with experience in any of the transactions between man and man? what possible chance between man and woman? mr. slope loved furiously, insanely and truly, but he had never played the game of love. the signora did not love at all, but she was up to every move of the board. it was philidor pitted against a schoolboy. and so she continued to insult him, and he continued to bear it. "sacrifice the world for love!" she said in answer to some renewed vapid declaration of his passion. "how often has the same thing been said, and how invariably with the same falsehood!" "falsehood," said he. "do you say that i am false to you? do you say that my love is not real?" "false? of course it is false, false as the father of falsehood--if indeed falsehoods need a sire and are not self-begotten since the world began. you are ready to sacrifice the world for love? come let us see what you will sacrifice. i care nothing for nuptial vows. the wretch, i think you were kind enough to call him so, whom i swore to love and obey is so base that he can only be thought of with repulsive disgust. in the council chamber of my heart i have divorced him. to me that is as good as though aged lords had gloated for months over the details of his licentious life. i care nothing for what the world can say. will you be as frank? will you take me to your home as your wife? will you call me mrs. slope before bishop, dean, and prebendaries?" the poor tortured wretch stood silent, not knowing what to say. "what! you won't do that. tell me, then, what part of the world is it that you will sacrifice for my charms?" "were you free to marry, i would take you to my house to-morrow and wish no higher privilege." "i am free," said she, almost starting up in her energy. for though there was no truth in her pretended regard for her clerical admirer, there was a mixture of real feeling in the scorn and satire with which she spoke of love and marriage generally. "i am free--free as the winds. come, will you take me as i am? have your wish; sacrifice the world, and prove yourself a true man." mr. slope should have taken her at her word. she would have drawn back, and he would have had the full advantage of the offer. but he did not. instead of doing so, he stood wrapt in astonishment, passing his fingers through his lank red hair and thinking, as he stared upon her animated countenance, that her wondrous beauty grew more wonderful as he gazed on it. "ha! ha! ha!" she laughed out loud. "come, mr. slope, don't talk of sacrificing the world again. people beyond one-and-twenty should never dream of such a thing. you and i, if we have the dregs of any love left in us, if we have the remnants of a passion remaining in our hearts, should husband our resources better. we are not in our première jeunesse. the world is a very nice place. your world, at any rate, is so. you have all manner of fat rectories to get and possible bishoprics to enjoy. come, confess; on second thoughts you would not sacrifice such things for the smiles of a lame lady?" it was impossible for him to answer this. in order to be in any way dignified, he felt that he must be silent. "come," said she, "don't boody with me: don't be angry because i speak out some home truths. alas, the world, as i have found it, has taught me bitter truths. come, tell me that i am forgiven. are we not to be friends?" and she again put out her hand to him. he sat himself down in the chair beside her, took her proffered hand, and leant over her. "there," said she with her sweetest, softest smile--a smile to withstand which a man should be cased in triple steel, "there; seal your forgiveness on it," and she raised it towards his face. he kissed it again and again, and stretched over her as though desirous of extending the charity of his pardon beyond the hand that was offered to him. she managed, however, to check his ardour. for one so easily allured as this poor chaplain, her hand was surely enough. "oh, madeline!" said he, "tell me that you love me--do you--do you love me?" "hush," said she. "there is my mother's step. our _tête-à-tête_ has been of monstrous length. now you had better go. but we shall see you soon again, shall we not?" mr. slope promised that he would call again on the following day. "and, mr. slope," she continued, "pray answer my note. you have it in your hand, though i declare during these two hours you have not been gracious enough to read it. it is about the sabbath-school and the children. you know how anxious i am to have them here. i have been learning the catechism myself, on purpose. you must manage it for me next week. i will teach them, at any rate, to submit themselves to their spiritual pastors and masters." mr. slope said but little on the subject of sabbath-schools, but he made his adieu, and betook himself home with a sad heart, troubled mind, and uneasy conscience. chapter xxviii mrs. bold is entertained by dr. and mrs. grantly at plumstead it will be remembered that mr. slope, when leaving his _billet-doux_ at the house of mrs. bold, had been informed that it would be sent out to her at plumstead that afternoon. the archdeacon and mr. harding had in fact come into town together in the brougham, and it had been arranged that they should call for eleanor's parcels as they left on their way home. accordingly they did so call, and the maid, as she handed to the coachman a small basket and large bundle carefully and neatly packed, gave in at the carriage window mr. slope's epistle. the archdeacon, who was sitting next to the window, took it and immediately recognized the hand-writing of his enemy. "who left this?" said he. "mr. slope called with it himself, your reverence," said the girl, "and was very anxious that missus should have it to-day." so the brougham drove off, and the letter was left in the archdeacon's hand. he looked at it as though he held a basket of adders. he could not have thought worse of the document had he read it and discovered it to be licentious and atheistical. he did, moreover, what so many wise people are accustomed to do in similar circumstances; he immediately condemned the person to whom the letter was written, as though she were necessarily a _particeps criminis_. poor mr. harding, though by no means inclined to forward mr. slope's intimacy with his daughter, would have given anything to have kept the letter from his son-in-law. but that was now impossible. there it was in his hand, and he looked as thoroughly disgusted as though he were quite sure that it contained all the rhapsodies of a favoured lover. "it's very hard on me," said he after awhile, "that this should go on under my roof." now here the archdeacon was certainly most unreasonable. having invited his sister-in-law to his house, it was a natural consequence that she should receive her letters there. and if mr. slope chose to write to her, his letter would, as a matter of course, be sent after her. moreover, the very fact of an invitation to one's house implies confidence on the part of the inviter. he had shown that he thought mrs. bold to be a fit person to stay with him by his asking her to do so, and it was most cruel to her that he should complain of her violating the sanctity of his roof-tree, when the laches committed were none of her committing. mr. harding felt this, and felt also that when the archdeacon talked thus about his roof, what he said was most offensive to himself as eleanor's father. if eleanor did receive a letter from mr. slope, what was there in that to pollute the purity of dr. grantly's household? he was indignant that his daughter should be so judged and so spoken of, and he made up his mind that even as mrs. slope she must be dearer to him than any other creature on god's earth. he almost broke out and said as much, but for the moment he restrained himself. "here," said the archdeacon, handing the offensive missile to his father-in-law, "i am not going to be the bearer of his love-letters. you are her father and may do as you think fit with it." by doing as he thought fit with it, the archdeacon certainly meant that mr. harding would be justified in opening and reading the letter, and taking any steps which might in consequence be necessary. to tell the truth, dr. grantly did feel rather a stronger curiosity than was justified by his outraged virtue to see the contents of the letter. of course he could not open it himself, but he wished to make mr. harding understand that he, as eleanor's father, would be fully justified in doing so. the idea of such a proceeding never occurred to mr. harding. his authority over eleanor ceased when she became the wife of john bold. he had not the slightest wish to pry into her correspondence. he consequently put the letter into his pocket, and only wished that he had been able to do so without the archdeacon's knowledge. they both sat silent during half the journey home, and then dr. grantly said, "perhaps susan had better give it to her. she can explain to her sister better than either you or i can do how deep is the disgrace of such an acquaintance." "i think you are very hard upon eleanor," replied mr. harding. "i will not allow that she has disgraced herself, nor do i think it likely that she will do so. she has a right to correspond with whom she pleases, and i shall not take upon myself to blame her because she gets a letter from mr. slope." "i suppose," said dr. grantly, "you don't wish her to marry the man. i suppose you'll admit that she would disgrace herself if she did do so." "i do not wish her to marry him," said the perplexed father. "i do not like him, and do not think he would make a good husband. but if eleanor chooses to do so, i shall certainly not think that she disgraces herself." "good heavens!" exclaimed dr. grantly and threw himself back into the corner of his brougham. mr. harding said nothing more, but commenced playing a dirge with an imaginary fiddle bow upon an imaginary violoncello, for which there did not appear to be quite room enough in the carriage; he continued the tune, with sundry variations, till he arrived at the rectory door. the archdeacon had been meditating sad things in his mind. hitherto he had always looked on his father-in-law as a true partisan, though he knew him to be a man devoid of all the combative qualifications for that character. he had felt no fear that mr. harding would go over to the enemy, though he had never counted much on the ex-warden's prowess in breaking the hostile ranks. now, however, it seemed that eleanor, with her wiles, had completely trepanned and bewildered her father, cheated him out of his judgement, robbed him of the predilections and tastes of his life, and caused him to be tolerant of a man whose arrogance and vulgarity would, a few years since, have been unendurable to him. that the whole thing was as good as arranged between eleanor and mr. slope there was no longer any room to doubt. that mr. harding knew that such was the case, even this could hardly be doubted. it was too manifest that he at any rate suspected it and was prepared to sanction it. and to tell the truth, such was the case. mr. harding disliked mr. slope as much as it was in his nature to dislike any man. had his daughter wished to do her worst to displease him by a second marriage, she could hardly have succeeded better than by marrying mr. slope. but, as he said to himself now very often, what right had he to condemn her if she did nothing that was really wrong? if she liked mr. slope, it was her affair. it was indeed miraculous to him that a woman with such a mind, so educated, so refined, so nice in her tastes, should like such a man. then he asked himself whether it was possible that she did so. ah, thou weak man; most charitable, most christian, but weakest of men! why couldn't thou not have asked herself? was she not the daughter of thy loins, the child of thy heart, the best beloved to thee of all humanity? had she not proved to thee, by years of closest affection, her truth and goodness and filial obedience? and yet, knowing and feeling all this, thou couldst endure to go groping in darkness, hearing her named in strains which wounded thy loving heart, and being unable to defend her as thou shouldst have done! mr. harding had not believed, did not believe, that his daughter meant to marry this man, but he feared to commit himself to such an opinion. if she did do it there would be then no means of retreat. the wishes of his heart were: first, that there should be no truth in the archdeacon's surmises; and in this wish he would have fain trusted entirely, had he dared so to do; secondly, that the match might be prevented, if unfortunately, it had been contemplated by eleanor; thirdly, that should she be so infatuated as to marry this man, he might justify his conduct and declare that no cause existed for his separating himself from her. he wanted to believe her incapable of such a marriage; he wanted to show that he so believed of her; but he wanted also to be able to say hereafter that she had done nothing amiss, if she should unfortunately prove herself to be different from what he thought her to be. nothing but affection could justify such fickleness, but affection did justify it. there was but little of the roman about mr. harding. he could not sacrifice his lucretia even though she should be polluted by the accepted addresses of the clerical tarquin at the palace. if tarquin could be prevented, well and good, but if not, the father would still open his heart to his daughter and accept her as she presented herself, tarquin and all. dr. grantly's mind was of a stronger calibre, and he was by no means deficient in heart. he loved with an honest genuine love his wife and children and friends. he loved his father-in-law, and was quite prepared to love eleanor too, if she would be one of his party, if she would be on his side, if she would regard the slopes and the proudies as the enemies of mankind and acknowledge and feel the comfortable merits of the gwynnes and arabins. he wished to be what he called "safe" with all those whom he had admitted to the penetralia of his house and heart. he could luxuriate in no society that was deficient in a certain feeling of faithful, staunch high churchism, which to him was tantamount to freemasonry. he was not strict in his lines of definition. he endured without impatience many different shades of anglo-church conservatism; but with the slopes and proudies he could not go on all fours. he was wanting in, moreover, or perhaps it would be more correct to say, he was not troubled by that womanly tenderness which was so peculiar to mr. harding. his feelings towards his friends were that while they stuck to him, he would stick to them; that he would work with them shoulder and shoulder; that he would be faithful to the faithful. he knew nothing of that beautiful love which can be true to a false friend. and thus these two men, each miserable enough in his own way, returned to plumstead. it was getting late when they arrived there, and the ladies had already gone up to dress. nothing more was said as the two parted in the hall. as mr. harding passed to his own room he knocked at eleanor's door and handed in the letter. the archdeacon hurried to his own territory, there to unburden his heart to his faithful partner. what colloquy took place between the marital chamber and the adjoining dressing-room shall not be detailed. the reader, now intimate with the persons concerned, can well imagine it. the whole tenor of it also might be read in mrs. grantly's brow as she came down to dinner. eleanor, when she received the letter from her father's hand, had no idea from whom it came. she had never seen mr. slope's handwriting, or if so had forgotten it, and did not think of him as she twisted the letter as people do twist letters when they do not immediately recognize their correspondents either by the writing or the seal. she was sitting at her glass, brushing her hair and rising every other minute to play with her boy, who was sprawling on the bed and who engaged pretty nearly the whole attention of the maid as well as of his mother. at last, sitting before her toilet-table, she broke the seal and, turning over the leaf, saw mr. slope's name. she first felt surprised, and then annoyed, and then anxious. as she read it she became interested. she was so delighted to find that all obstacles to her father's return to the hospital were apparently removed that she did not observe the fulsome language in which the tidings were conveyed. she merely perceived that she was commissioned to tell her father that such was the case, and she did not realize the fact that such a communication should not have been made, in the first instance, to her by an unmarried young clergyman. she felt, on the whole, grateful to mr. slope and anxious to get on her dress that she might run with the news to her father. then she came to the allusion to her own pious labours, and she said in her heart that mr. slope was an affected ass. then she went on again and was offended by her boy being called mr. slope's darling--he was nobody's darling but her own, or at any rate not the darling of a disagreeable stranger like mr. slope. lastly she arrived at the tresses and felt a qualm of disgust. she looked up in the glass, and there they were before her, long and silken, certainly, and very beautiful. i will not say but that she knew them to be so, but she felt angry with them and brushed them roughly and carelessly. she crumpled the letter up with angry violence, and resolved, almost without thinking of it, that she would not show it to her father. she would merely tell him the contents of it. she then comforted herself again with her boy, had her dress fastened, and went down to dinner. as she tripped down the stairs she began to ascertain that there was some difficulty in her situation. she could not keep from her father the news about the hospital, nor could she comfortably confess the letter from mr. slope before the grantlys. her father had already gone down. she had heard his step upon the lobby. she resolved therefore to take him aside and tell him her little bit of news. poor girl! she had no idea how severely the unfortunate letter had already been discussed. when she entered the drawing-room, the whole party were there, including mr. arabin, and the whole party looked glum and sour. the two girls sat silent and apart as though they were aware that something was wrong. even mr. arabin was solemn and silent. eleanor had not seen him since breakfast. he had been the whole day at st. ewold's, and such having been the case, it was natural that he should tell how matters were going on there. he did nothing of the kind, however, but remained solemn and silent. they were all solemn and silent. eleanor knew in her heart that they had been talking about her, and her heart misgave her as she thought of mr. slope and his letter. at any rate she felt it to be quite impossible to speak to her father alone while matters were in this state. dinner was soon announced, and dr. grantly, as was his wont, gave eleanor his arm. but he did so as though the doing it were an outrage on his feelings rendered necessary by sternest necessity. with quick sympathy eleanor felt this, and hardly put her fingers on his coat-sleeve. it may be guessed in what way the dinner-hour was passed. dr. grantly said a few words to mr. arabin, mr. arabin said a few words to mrs. grantly, she said a few words to her father, and he tried to say a few words to eleanor. she felt that she had been tried and found guilty of something, though she knew not what. she longed to say out to them all, "well, what is it that i have done; out with it, and let me know my crime; for heaven's sake let me hear the worst of it;" but she could not. she could say nothing, but sat there silent, half-feeling that she was guilty, and trying in vain to pretend even to eat her dinner. at last the cloth was drawn, and the ladies were not long following it. when they were gone, the gentlemen were somewhat more sociable but not much so. they could not of course talk over eleanor's sins. the archdeacon had indeed so far betrayed his sister-in-law as to whisper into mr. arabin's ear in the study, as they met there before dinner, a hint of what he feared. he did so with the gravest and saddest of fears, and mr. arabin became grave and apparently sad enough as he heard it. he opened his eyes, and his mouth and said in a sort of whisper "mr. slope!" in the same way as he might have said "the cholera!" had his friend told him that that horrid disease was in his nursery. "i fear so, i fear so," said the archdeacon, and then together they left the room. we will not accurately analyse mr. arabin's feelings on receipt of such astounding tidings. it will suffice to say that he was surprised, vexed, sorrowful, and ill at ease. he had not perhaps thought very much about eleanor, but he had appreciated her influence, and had felt that close intimacy with her in a country-house was pleasant to him, and also beneficial. he had spoken highly of her intelligence to the archdeacon, and had walked about the shrubberies with her, carrying her boy on his back. when mr. arabin had called johnny his darling, eleanor was not angry. thus the three men sat over their wine, all thinking of the same subject, but unable to speak of it to each other. so we will leave them and follow the ladies into the drawing-room. mrs. grantly had received a commission from her husband, and had undertaken it with some unwillingness. he had desired her to speak gravely to eleanor and to tell her that, if she persisted in her adherence to mr. slope, she could no longer look for the countenance of her present friends. mrs. grantly probably knew her sister better than the doctor did, and assured him that it would be in vain to talk to her. the only course likely to be of any service in her opinion was to keep eleanor away from barchester. perhaps she might have added, for she had a very keen eye in such things, that there might also be ground for hope in keeping eleanor near mr. arabin. of this, however, she said nothing. but the archdeacon would not be talked over; he spoke much of his conscience, and declared that, if mrs. grantly would not do it, he would. so instigated, the lady undertook the task, stating, however, her full conviction that her interference would be worse than useless. and so it proved. as soon as they were in the drawing-room mrs. grantly found some excuse for sending her girls away, and then began her task. she knew well that she could exercise but very slight authority over her sister. their various modes of life, and the distance between their residences, had prevented any very close confidence. they had hardly lived together since eleanor was a child. eleanor had, moreover, especially in latter years, resented in a quiet sort of way the dictatorial authority which the archdeacon seemed to exercise over her father, and on this account had been unwilling to allow the archdeacon's wife to exercise authority over herself. "you got a note just before dinner, i believe," began the eldest sister. eleanor acknowledged that she had done so, and felt that she turned red as she acknowledged it. she would have given anything to have kept her colour, but the more she tried to do so the more signally she failed. "was it not from mr. slope?" eleanor said that the letter was from mr. slope. "is he a regular correspondent of yours, eleanor?" "not exactly," said she, already beginning to feel angry at the cross-examination. she determined, and why it would be difficult to say, that nothing should induce her to tell her sister susan what was the subject of the letter. mrs. grantly, she knew, was instigated by the archdeacon, and she would not plead to any arraignment made against her by him. "but, eleanor dear, why do you get letters from mr. slope at all, knowing, as you do, he is a person so distasteful to papa, and to the archdeacon, and indeed to all your friends?" "in the first place, susan, i don't get letters from him; and in the next place, as mr. slope wrote the one letter which i have got, and as i only received it, which i could not very well help doing, as papa handed it to me, i think you had better ask mr. slope instead of me." "what was his letter about, eleanor?" "i cannot tell you," said she, "because it was confidential. it was on business respecting a third person." "it was in no way personal to yourself then?" "i won't exactly say that, susan," said she, getting more and more angry at her sister's questions. "well, i must say it's rather singular," said mrs. grantly, affecting to laugh, "that a young lady in your position should receive a letter from an unmarried gentleman of which she will not tell the contents and which she is ashamed to show to her sister." "i am not ashamed," said eleanor, blazing up. "i am not ashamed of anything in the matter; only i do not choose to be cross-examined as to my letters by anyone." "well, dear," said the other, "i cannot but tell you that i do not think mr. slope a proper correspondent for you." "if he be ever so improper, how can i help his having written to me? but you are all prejudiced against him to such an extent that that which would be kind and generous in another man is odious and impudent in him. i hate a religion that teaches one to be so one-sided in one's charity." "i am sorry, eleanor, that you hate the religion you find here, but surely you should remember that in such matters the archdeacon must know more of the world than you do. i don't ask you to respect or comply with me, although i am, unfortunately, so many years your senior; but surely, in such a matter as this, you might consent to be guided by the archdeacon. he is most anxious to be your friend, if you will let him." "in such a matter as what?" said eleanor very testily. "upon my word i don't know what this is all about." "we all want you to drop mr. slope." "you all want me to be as illiberal as yourselves. that i shall never be. i see no harm in mr. slope's acquaintance, and i shall not insult the man by telling him that i do. he has thought it necessary to write to me, and i do not want the archdeacon's advice about the letter. if i did, i would ask it." "then, eleanor, it is my duty to tell you," and now she spoke with a tremendous gravity, "that the archdeacon thinks that such a correspondence is disgraceful, and that he cannot allow it to go on in his house." eleanor's eyes flashed fire as she answered her sister, jumping up from her seat as she did so. "you may tell the archdeacon that wherever i am i shall receive what letters i please and from whom i please. and as for the word 'disgraceful,' if dr. grantly has used it of me, he has been unmanly and inhospitable," and she walked off to the door. "when papa comes from the dining-room i will thank you to ask him to step up to my bedroom. i will show him mr. slope's letter, but i will show it to no one else." and so saying, she retreated to her baby. she had no conception of the crime with which she was charged. the idea that she could be thought by her friends to regard mr. slope as a lover had never flashed upon her. she conceived that they were all prejudiced and illiberal in their persecution of him, and therefore she would not join in the persecution, even though she greatly disliked the man. eleanor was very angry as she seated herself in a low chair by her open window at the foot of her child's bed. "to dare to say i have disgraced myself," she repeated to herself more than once. "how papa can put up with that man's arrogance! i will certainly not sit down to dinner in his house again unless he begs my pardon for that word." and then a thought struck her that mr. arabin might perchance hear of her "disgraceful" correspondence with mr. slope, and she turned crimson with pure vexation. oh, if she had known the truth! if she could have conceived that mr. arabin had been informed as a fact that she was going to marry mr. slope! she had not been long in her room before her father joined her. as he left the drawing-room mrs. grantly took her husband into the recess of the window and told him how signally she had failed. "i will speak to her myself before i go to bed," said the archdeacon. "pray do no such thing," said she; "you can do no good and will only make an unseemly quarrel in the house. you have no idea how headstrong she can be." the archdeacon declared that as to that he was quite indifferent. he knew his duty and would do it. mr. harding was weak in the extreme in such matters. he would not have it hereafter on his conscience that he had not done all that in him lay to prevent so disgraceful an alliance. it was in vain that mrs. grantly assured him that speaking to eleanor angrily would only hasten such a crisis and render it certain, if at present there were any doubt. he was angry, self-willed, and sore. the fact that a lady of his household had received a letter from mr. slope had wounded his pride in the sorest place, and nothing could control him. mr. harding looked worn and woe-begone as he entered his daughter's room. these sorrows worried him sadly. he felt that if they were continued, he must go to the wall in the manner so kindly prophesied to him by the chaplain. he knocked gently at his daughter's door, waited till he was distinctly bade to enter, and then appeared as though he and not she were the suspected criminal. eleanor's arm was soon within his, and she had soon kissed his forehead and caressed him, not with joyous but with eager love. "oh, papa," she said, "i do so want to speak to you. they have been talking about me downstairs to-night--don't you know they have, papa?" mr. harding confessed with a sort of murmur that the archdeacon had been speaking of her. "i shall hate dr. grantly soon--" "oh, my dear!" "well, i shall. i cannot help it. he is so uncharitable, so unkind, so suspicious of everyone that does not worship himself: and then he is so monstrously arrogant to other people who have a right to their opinions as well as he has to his own." "he is an earnest, eager man, my dear, but he never means to be unkind." "he is unkind, papa, most unkind. there, i got that letter from mr. slope before dinner. it was you yourself who gave it to me. there, pray read it. it is all for you. it should have been addressed to you. you know how they have been talking about it downstairs. you know how they behaved to me at dinner. and since dinner susan has been preaching to me, till i could not remain in the room with her. read it, papa, and then say whether that is a letter that need make dr. grantly so outrageous." mr. harding took his arm from his daughter's waist and slowly read the letter. she expected to see his countenance lit with joy as he learnt that his path back to the hospital was made so smooth; but she was doomed to disappointment, as had once been the case before on a somewhat similar occasion. his first feeling was one of unmitigated disgust that mr. slope should have chosen to interfere in his behalf. he had been anxious to get back to the hospital, but he would have infinitely sooner resigned all pretensions to the place than have owed it in any manner to mr. slope's influence in his favour. then he thoroughly disliked the tone of mr. slope's letter; it was unctuous, false, and unwholesome, like the man. he saw, which eleanor had failed to see, that much more had been intended than was expressed. the appeal to eleanor's pious labours as separate from his own grated sadly against his feelings as a father. and then, when he came to the "darling boy" and the "silken tresses," he slowly closed and folded the letter in despair. it was impossible that mr. slope should so write unless he had been encouraged. it was impossible eleanor should have received such a letter, and have received it without annoyance, unless she were willing to encourage him. so at least mr. harding argued to himself. how hard it is to judge accurately of the feelings of others. mr. harding, as he came to the close of the letter, in his heart condemned his daughter for indelicacy, and it made him miserable to do so. she was not responsible for what mr. slope might write. true. but then she expressed no disgust at it. she had rather expressed approval of the letter as a whole. she had given it to him to read, as a vindication for herself and also for him. the father's spirits sank within him as he felt that he could not acquit her. and yet it was the true feminine delicacy of eleanor's mind which brought on her this condemnation. listen to me, ladies, and i beseech you to acquit her. she thought of this man, this lover of whom she was so unconscious, exactly as her father did, exactly as the grantlys did. at least she esteemed him personally as they did. but she believed him to be in the main an honest man, and one truly inclined to assist her father. she felt herself bound, after what had passed, to show this letter to mr. harding. she thought it necessary that he should know what mr. slope had to say. but she did not think it necessary to apologize for, or condemn, or even allude to the vulgarity of the man's tone, which arose, as does all vulgarity, from ignorance. it was nauseous to her to have a man like mr. slope commenting on her personal attractions, and she did not think it necessary to dilate with her father upon what was nauseous. she never supposed they could disagree on such a subject. it would have been painful for her to point it out, painful for her to speak strongly against a man of whom, on the whole, she was anxious to think and speak well. in encountering such a man she had encountered what was disagreeable, as she might do in walking the streets. but in such encounters she never thought it necessary to dwell on what disgusted her. and he, foolish, weak, loving man, would not say one word, though one word would have cleared up everything. there would have been a deluge of tears, and in ten minutes everyone in the house would have understood how matters really were. the father would have been delighted. the sister would have kissed her sister and begged a thousand pardons. the archdeacon would have apologized and wondered, and raised his eyebrows, and gone to bed a happy man. and mr. arabin--mr. arabin would have dreamt of eleanor, have awoke in the morning with ideas of love, and retired to rest the next evening with schemes of marriage. but, alas, all this was not to be. mr. harding slowly folded the letter, handed it back to her, kissed her forehead, and bade god bless her. he then crept slowly away to his own room. as soon as he had left the passage, another knock was given at eleanor's door, and mrs. grantly's very demure own maid, entering on tiptoe, wanted to know would mrs. bold be so kind as to speak to the archdeacon for two minutes in the archdeacon's study, if not disagreeable. the archdeacon's compliments, and he wouldn't detain her two minutes. eleanor thought it was very disagreeable; she was tired and fagged and sick at heart; her present feelings towards dr. grantly were anything but those of affection. she was, however, no coward, and therefore promised to be in the study in five minutes. so she arranged her hair, tied on her cap, and went down with a palpitating heart. chapter xxix a serious interview there are people who delight in serious interviews, especially when to them appertains the part of offering advice or administering rebuke, and perhaps the archdeacon was one of these. yet on this occasion he did not prepare himself for the coming conversation with much anticipation of pleasure. whatever might be his faults he was not an inhospitable man, and he almost felt that he was sinning against hospitality in upbraiding eleanor in his own house. then, also, he was not quite sure that he would get the best of it. his wife had told him that he decidedly would not, and he usually gave credit to what his wife said. he was, however, so convinced of what he considered to be the impropriety of eleanor's conduct, and so assured also of his own duty in trying to check it, that his conscience would not allow him to take his wife's advice and go to bed quietly. eleanor's face as she entered the room was not such as to reassure him. as a rule she was always mild in manner and gentle in conduct; but there was that in her eye which made it not an easy task to scold her. in truth she had been little used to scolding. no one since her childhood had tried it but the archdeacon, and he had generally failed when he did try it. he had never done so since her marriage; and now, when he saw her quiet, easy step as she entered his room, he almost wished that he had taken his wife's advice. he began by apologizing for the trouble he was giving her. she begged him not to mention it, assured him that walking downstairs was no trouble to her at all, and then took a seat and waited patiently for him to begin his attack. "my dear eleanor," he said, "i hope you believe me when i assure you that you have no sincerer friend than i am." to this eleanor answered nothing, and therefore he proceeded. "if you had a brother of your own, i should not probably trouble you with what i am going to say. but as it is i cannot but think that it must be a comfort to you to know that you have near you one who is as anxious for your welfare as any brother of your own could be." "i never had a brother," said she. "i know you never had, and it is therefore that i speak to you." "i never had a brother," she repeated, "but i have hardly felt the want. papa has been to me both father and brother." "your father is the fondest and most affectionate of men. but--" "he is--the fondest and most affectionate of men, and the best of counsellors. while he lives i can never want advice." this rather put the archdeacon out. he could not exactly contradict what his sister-in-law said about her father, and yet he did not at all agree with her. he wanted her to understand that he tendered his assistance because her father was a soft, good-natured gentleman not sufficiently knowing in the ways of the world; but he could not say this to her. so he had to rush into the subject-matter of his proffered counsel without any acknowledgement on her part that she could need it, or would be grateful for it. "susan tells me that you received a letter this evening from mr. slope." "yes; papa brought it in the brougham. did he not tell you?" "and susan says that you objected to let her know what it was about." "i don't think she asked me. but had she done so, i should not have told her. i don't think it nice to be asked about one's letters. if one wishes to show them, one does so without being asked." "true. quite so. what you say is quite true. but is not the fact of your receiving letters from mr. slope, which you do not wish to show to your friends, a circumstance which must excite some--some surprise--some suspicion--" "suspicion!" said she, not speaking above her usual voice, speaking still in a soft, womanly tone but yet with indignation. "suspicion! and who suspects me, and of what?" and then there was a pause, for the archdeacon was not quite ready to explain the ground of his suspicion. "no, dr. grantly, i did not choose to show mr. slope's letter to susan. i could not show it to anyone till papa had seen it. if you have any wish to read it now, you can do so," and she handed the letter to him over the table. this was an amount of compliance which he had not at all expected, and which rather upset him in his tactics. however, he took the letter, perused it carefully, and then refolding it, kept it on the table under his hand. to him it appeared to be in almost every respect the letter of a declared lover; it seemed to corroborate his worst suspicions; and the fact of eleanor's showing it to him was all but tantamount to a declaration on her part that it was her pleasure to receive love-letters from mr. slope. he almost entirely overlooked the real subject-matter of the epistle, so intent was he on the forthcoming courtship and marriage. "i'll thank you to give it me back, if you please, dr. grantly." he took it in his hand and held it up, but made no immediate overture to return it. "and mr. harding has seen this?" said he. "of course he has," said she; "it was written that he might see it. it refers solely to his business--of course i showed it to him." "and, eleanor, do you think that that is a proper letter for you--for a person in your condition--to receive from mr. slope?" "quite a proper letter," said she, speaking, perhaps, a little out of obstinacy, probably forgetting at the moment the objectionable mention of her silken curls. "then, eleanor, it is my duty to tell you that i wholly differ from you." "so i suppose," said she, instigated now by sheer opposition and determination not to succumb. "you think mr. slope is a messenger direct from satan. i think he is an industrious, well-meaning clergyman. it's a pity that we differ as we do. but, as we do differ, we had probably better not talk about it." here eleanor undoubtedly put herself in the wrong. she might probably have refused to talk to dr. grantly on the matter in dispute without any impropriety, but, having consented to listen to him, she had no business to tell him that he regarded mr. slope as an emissary from the evil one; nor was she justified in praising mr. slope, seeing that in her heart of hearts she did not think well of him. she was, however, wounded in spirit, and angry, and bitter. she had been subjected to contumely and cross-questioning and ill-usage through the whole evening. no one, not even mr. arabin, not even her father, had been kind to her. all this she attributed to the prejudice and conceit of the archdeacon, and therefore she resolved to set no bounds to her antagonism to him. she would neither give nor take quarter. he had greatly presumed in daring to question her about her correspondence, and she was determined to show that she thought so. "eleanor, you are forgetting yourself," said he, looking very sternly at her. "otherwise you would never tell me that i conceive any man to be a messenger from satan." "but you do," said she. "nothing is too bad for him. give me that letter, if you please;" and she stretched out her hand and took it from him. "he has been doing his best to serve papa, doing more than any of papa's friends could do; and yet, because he is the chaplain of a bishop whom you don't like, you speak of him as though he had no right to the usage of a gentleman." "he has done nothing for your father." "i believe that he has done a great deal; and, as far as i am concerned, i am grateful to him. nothing that you can say can prevent my being so. i judge people by their acts, and his, as far as i can see them, are good." she then paused for a moment. "if you have nothing further to say, i shall be obliged by being permitted to say good night--i am very tired." dr. grantly had, as he thought, done his best to be gracious to his sister-in-law. he had endeavoured not to be harsh to her, and had striven to pluck the sting from his rebuke. but he did not intend that she should leave him without hearing him. "i have something to say, eleanor, and i fear i must trouble you to hear it. you profess that it is quite proper that you should receive from mr. slope such letters as that you have in your hand. susan and i think very differently. you are, of course, your own mistress, and much as we both must grieve should anything separate you from us, we have no power to prevent you from taking steps which may lead to such a separation. if you are so wilful as to reject the counsel of your friends, you must be allowed to cater for yourself. but, eleanor, i may at any rate ask you this. is it worth your while to break away from all those you have loved--from all who love you--for the sake of mr. slope?" "i don't know what you mean, dr. grantly; i don't know what you're talking about. i don't want to break away from anybody." "but you will do so if you connect yourself with mr. slope. eleanor, i must speak out to you. you must choose between your sister and myself and our friends, and mr. slope and his friends. i say nothing of your father, as you may probably understand his feelings better than i do." "what do you mean, dr. grantly? what am i to understand? i never heard such wicked prejudice in my life." "it is no prejudice, eleanor. i have known the world longer than you have done. mr. slope is altogether beneath you. you ought to know and feel that he is so. pray--pray think of this before it is too late." "too late!" "or if you will not believe me, ask susan; you cannot think she is prejudiced against you. or even consult your father--he is not prejudiced against you. ask mr. arabin--" "you haven't spoken to mr. arabin about this!" said she, jumping up and standing before him. "eleanor, all the world in and about barchester will be speaking of it soon." "but have you spoken to mr. arabin about me and mr. slope?" "certainly i have, and he quite agrees with me." "agrees with what?" said she. "i think you are trying to drive me mad." "he agrees with me and susan that it is quite impossible you should be received at plumstead as mrs. slope." not being favourites with the tragic muse, we do not dare to attempt any description of eleanor's face when she first heard the name of mrs. slope pronounced as that which would or should or might at some time appertain to herself. the look, such as it was, dr. grantly did not soon forget. for a moment or two she could find no words to express her deep anger and deep disgust; indeed, at this conjuncture, words did not come to her very freely. "how dare you be so impertinent?" at last she said, and then she hurried out of the room without giving the archdeacon the opportunity of uttering another word. it was with difficulty she contained herself till she reached her own room; and then, locking the door, she threw herself on her bed and sobbed as though her heart would break. but even yet she had no conception of the truth. she had no idea that her father and her sister had for days past conceived in sober earnest the idea that she was going to marry this man. she did not even then believe that the archdeacon thought that she would do so. by some manoeuvre of her brain she attributed the origin of the accusation to mr. arabin, and as she did so her anger against him was excessive, and the vexation of her spirit almost unendurable. she could not bring herself to think that the charge was made seriously. it appeared to her most probable that the archdeacon and mr. arabin had talked over her objectionable acquaintance with mr. slope; that mr. arabin in his jeering, sarcastic way had suggested the odious match as being the severest way of treating with contumely her acquaintance with his enemy; and that the archdeacon, taking the idea from him, thought proper to punish her by the allusion. the whole night she lay awake thinking of what had been said, and this appeared to be the most probable solution. but the reflexion that mr. arabin should have in any way mentioned her name in connexion with that of mr. slope was overpowering; and the spiteful ill-nature of the archdeacon in repeating the charge to her made her wish to leave his house almost before the day had broken. one thing was certain: nothing should make her stay there beyond the following morning, and nothing should make her sit down to breakfast in company with dr. grantly. when she thought of the man whose name had been linked with her own, she cried from sheer disgust. it was only because she would be thus disgusted, thus pained and shocked and cut to the quick, that the archdeacon had spoken the horrid word. he wanted to make her quarrel with mr. slope, and therefore he had outraged her by his abominable vulgarity. she determined that at any rate he should know that she appreciated it. nor was the archdeacon a bit better satisfied with the result of his serious interview than was eleanor. he gathered from it, as indeed he could hardly fail to do, that she was very angry with him, but he thought that she was thus angry, not because she was suspected of an intention to marry mr. slope, but because such an intention was imputed to her as a crime. dr. grantly regarded this supposed union with disgust, but it never occurred to him that eleanor was outraged because she looked at it exactly in the same light. he returned to his wife, vexed and somewhat disconsolate, but nevertheless confirmed in his wrath against his sister-in-law. "her whole behaviour," said he, "has been most objectionable. she handed me his love-letter to read as though she were proud of it. and she is proud of it. she is proud of having this slavering, greedy man at her feet. she will throw herself and john bold's money into his lap; she will ruin her boy, disgrace her father and you, and be a wretched miserable woman." his spouse, who was sitting at her toilet-table, continued her avocations, making no answer to all this. she had known that the archdeacon would gain nothing by interfering, but she was too charitable to provoke him by saying so while he was in such deep sorrow. "this comes of a man making such a will as that of bold's," he continued. "eleanor is no more fitted to be trusted with such an amount of money in her own hands than is a charity-school girl." still mrs. grantly made no reply. "but i have done my duty; i can do nothing further. i have told her plainly that she cannot be allowed to form a link of connexion between me and that man. from henceforward it will not be in my power to make her welcome at plumstead. i cannot have mr. slope's love-letters coming here. susan, i think you had better let her understand that, as her mind on this subject seems to be irrevocably fixed, it will be better for all parties that she should return to barchester." now mrs. grantly was angry with eleanor--nearly as angry as her husband--but she had no idea of turning her sister out of the house. she therefore at length spoke out and explained to the archdeacon in her own mild, seducing way that he was fuming and fussing and fretting himself very unnecessarily. she declared that things, if left alone, would arrange themselves much better than he could arrange them, and at last succeeded in inducing him to go to bed in a somewhat less inhospitable state of mind. on the following morning eleanor's maid was commissioned to send word into the dining-room that her mistress was not well enough to attend prayers and that she would breakfast in her own room. here she was visited by her father, and declared to him her intention of returning immediately to barchester. he was hardly surprised by the announcement. all the household seemed to be aware that something had gone wrong. everyone walked about with subdued feet, and people's shoes seemed to creak more than usual. there was a look of conscious intelligence on the faces of the women, and the men attempted, but in vain, to converse as though nothing were the matter. all this had weighed heavily on the heart of mr. harding, and when eleanor told him that her immediate return to barchester was a necessity, he merely sighed piteously and said that he would be ready to accompany her. but here she objected strenuously. she had a great wish, she said, to go alone; a great desire that it might be seen that her father was not implicated in her quarrel with dr. grantly. to this at last he gave way; but not a word passed between them about mr. slope--not a word was said, not a question asked as to the serious interview on the preceding evening. there was, indeed, very little confidence between them, though neither of them knew why it should be so. eleanor once asked him whether he would not call upon the bishop, but he answered rather tartly that he did not know--he did not think he should, but he could not say just at present. and so they parted. each was miserably anxious for some show of affection, for some return of confidence, for some sign of the feeling that usually bound them together. but none was given. the father could not bring himself to question his daughter about her supposed lover, and the daughter would not sully her mouth by repeating the odious word with which dr. grantly had roused her wrath. and so they parted. there was some trouble in arranging the method of eleanor's return. she begged her father to send for a post-chaise, but when mrs. grantly heard of this, she objected strongly. if eleanor would go away in dudgeon with the archdeacon, why should she let all the servants and all the neighbourhood know that she had done so? so at last eleanor consented to make use of the plumstead carriage, and as the archdeacon had gone out immediately after breakfast and was not to return till dinner-time, she also consented to postpone her journey till after lunch, and to join the family at that time. as to the subject of the quarrel not a word was said by anyone. the affair of the carriage was arranged by mr. harding, who acted as mercury between the two ladies; they, when they met, kissed each other very lovingly and then sat down each to her crochet work as though nothing was amiss in all the world. chapter xxx another love scene but there was another visitor at the rectory whose feelings in this unfortunate matter must be somewhat strictly analysed. mr. arabin had heard from his friend of the probability of eleanor's marriage with mr. slope with amazement, but not with incredulity. it has been said that he was not in love with eleanor, and up to this period this certainly had been true. but as soon as he heard that she loved someone else, he began to be very fond of her himself. he did not make up his mind that he wished to have her for his wife; he had never thought of her, and did not now think of her, in connexion with himself; but he experienced an inward, indefinable feeling of deep regret, a gnawing sorrow, an unconquerable depression of spirits, and also a species of self-abasement that he--he, mr. arabin--had not done something to prevent that other he, that vile he whom he so thoroughly despised, from carrying off this sweet prize. whatever man may have reached the age of forty unmarried without knowing something of such feelings must have been very successful or else very cold-hearted. mr. arabin had never thought of trimming the sails of his bark so that he might sail as convoy to this rich argosy. he had seen that mrs. bold was beautiful, but he had not dreamt of making her beauty his own. he knew that mrs. bold was rich, but he had had no more idea of appropriating her wealth than that of dr. grantly. he had discovered that mrs. bold was intelligent, warm-hearted, agreeable, sensible, all in fact that a man could wish his wife to be; but the higher were her attractions, the greater her claims to consideration, the less had he imagined that he might possibly become the possessor of them. such had been his instinct rather than his thoughts, so humble and so diffident. now his diffidence was to be rewarded by his seeing this woman, whose beauty was to his eyes perfect, whose wealth was such as to have deterred him from thinking of her, whose widowhood would have silenced him had he not been so deterred, by his seeing her become the prey of--obadiah slope! on the morning of mrs. bold's departure he got on his horse to ride over to st. ewold's. as he rode he kept muttering to himself a line from van artevelde, how little flattering is woman's love. and then he strove to recall his mind and to think of other affairs--his parish, his college, his creed--but his thoughts would revert to mr. slope and the flemish chieftain. when we think upon it, how little flattering is woman's love, given commonly to whosoe'er is nearest and propped with most advantage. it was not that mrs. bold should marry anyone but him--he had not put himself forward as a suitor--but that she should marry mr. slope; and so he repeated over again-- outward grace nor inward light is needful--day by day men wanting both are mated with the best and loftiest of god's feminine creation, whose love takes no distinction but of gender, and ridicules the very name of choice. and so he went on, troubled much in his mind. he had but an uneasy ride of it that morning, and little good did he do at st. ewold's. the necessary alterations in his house were being fast completed, and he walked through the rooms, and went up and down the stairs, and rambled through the garden, but he could not wake himself to much interest about them. he stood still at every window to look out and think upon mr. slope. at almost every window he had before stood and chatted with eleanor. she and mrs. grantly had been there continually; and while mrs. grantly had been giving orders, and seeing that orders had been complied with, he and eleanor had conversed on all things appertaining to a clergyman's profession. he thought how often he had laid down the law to her and how sweetly she had borne with his somewhat dictatorial decrees. he remembered her listening intelligence, her gentle but quick replies, her interest in all that concerned the church, in all that concerned him; and then he struck his riding-whip against the window-sill and declared to himself that it was impossible that eleanor bold should marry mr. slope. and yet he did not really believe, as he should have done, that it was impossible. he should have known her well enough to feel that it was truly impossible. he should have been aware that eleanor had that within her which would surely protect her from such degradation. but he, like so many others, was deficient in confidence in woman. he said to himself over and over again that it was impossible that eleanor bold should become mrs. slope, and yet he believed that she would do so. and so he rambled about, and could do and think of nothing. he was thoroughly uncomfortable, thoroughly ill at ease, cross with himself and everybody else, and feeding in his heart on animosity towards mr. slope. this was not as it should be, as he knew and felt, but he could not help himself. in truth mr. arabin was now in love with mrs. bold, though ignorant of the fact himself. he was in love and, though forty years old, was in love without being aware of it. he fumed and fretted and did not know what was the matter, as a youth might do at one-and-twenty. and so having done no good at st. ewold's, he rode back much earlier than was usual with him, instigated by some inward, unacknowledged hope that he might see mrs. bold before she left. eleanor had not passed a pleasant morning. she was irritated with everyone, and not least with herself. she felt that she had been hardly used, but she felt also that she had not played her own cards well. she should have held herself so far above suspicion as to have received her sister's innuendoes and the archdeacon's lecture with indifference. she had not done this, but had shown herself angry and sore, and was now ashamed of her own petulance, yet unable to discontinue it. the greater part of the morning she had spent alone, but after awhile her father joined her. he had fully made up his mind that, come what come might, nothing should separate him from his younger daughter. it was a hard task for him to reconcile himself to the idea of seeing her at the head of mr. slope's table, but he got through it. mr. slope, as he argued to himself, was a respectable man and a clergyman, and he, as eleanor's father, had no right even to endeavour to prevent her from marrying such a one. he longed to tell her how he had determined to prefer her to all the world, how he was prepared to admit that she was not wrong, how thoroughly he differed from dr. grantly; but he could not bring himself to mention mr. slope's name. there was yet a chance that they were all wrong in their surmise, and being thus in doubt, he could not bring himself to speak openly to her on the subject. he was sitting with her in the drawing-room, with his arm round her waist, saying every now and then some little soft words of affection and working hard with his imaginary fiddle-bow, when mr. arabin entered the room. he immediately got up, and the two made some trite remarks to each other, neither thinking of what he was saying, while eleanor kept her seat on the sofa, mute and moody. mr. arabin was included in the list of those against whom her anger was excited. he, too, had dared to talk about her acquaintance with mr. slope; he, too, had dared to blame her for not making an enemy of his enemy. she had not intended to see him before her departure, and was now but little inclined to be gracious. there was a feeling through the whole house that something was wrong. mr. arabin, when he saw eleanor, could not succeed in looking or in speaking as though he knew nothing of all this. he could not be cheerful and positive and contradictory with her, as was his wont. he had not been two minutes in the room before he felt that he had done wrong to return; and the moment he heard her voice, he thoroughly wished himself back at st. ewold's. why, indeed, should he have wished to have aught further to say to the future wife of mr. slope? "i am sorry to hear that you are to leave us so soon," said he, striving in vain to use his ordinary voice. in answer to this she muttered something about the necessity of her being in barchester, and betook herself most industriously to her crochet work. then there was a little more trite conversation between mr. arabin and mr. harding--trite, and hard, and vapid, and senseless. neither of them had anything to say to the other, and yet neither at such a moment liked to remain silent. at last mr. harding, taking advantage of a pause, escaped out of the room, and eleanor and mr. arabin were left together. "your going will be a great break-up to our party," said he. she again muttered something which was all but inaudible, but kept her eyes fixed upon her work. "we have had a very pleasant month here," said he; "at least i have; and i am sorry it should be so soon over." "i have already been from home longer than i intended," said she, "and it is time that i should return." "well, pleasant hours and pleasant days must come to an end. it is a pity that so few of them are pleasant; or perhaps, rather--" "it is a pity, certainly, that men and women do so much to destroy the pleasantness of their days," said she, interrupting him. "it is a pity that there should be so little charity abroad." "charity should begin at home," said he, and he was proceeding to explain that he as a clergyman could not be what she would call charitable at the expense of those principles which he considered it his duty to teach, when he remembered that it would be worse than vain to argue on such a matter with the future wife of mr. slope. "but you are just leaving us," he continued, "and i will not weary your last hour with another lecture. as it is, i fear i have given you too many." "you should practise as well as preach, mr. arabin." "undoubtedly i should. so should we all. all of us who presume to teach are bound to do our utmost towards fulfilling our own lessons. i thoroughly allow my deficiency in doing so, but i do not quite know now to what you allude. have you any special reason for telling me now that i should practise as well as preach?" eleanor made no answer. she longed to let him know the cause of her anger, to upbraid him for speaking of her disrespectfully, and then at last to forgive him, and so part friends. she felt that she would be unhappy to leave him in her present frame of mind, but yet she could hardly bring herself to speak to him of mr. slope. and how could she allude to the innuendo thrown out by the archdeacon, and thrown out, as she believed, at the instigation of mr. arabin? she wanted to make him know that he was wrong, to make him aware that he had ill-treated her, in order that the sweetness of her forgiveness might be enhanced. she felt that she liked him too well to be contented to part with him in displeasure, yet she could not get over her deep displeasure without some explanation, some acknowledgement on his part, some assurance that he would never again so sin against her. "why do you tell me that i should practise what i preach?" continued he. "all men should do so." "certainly. that is as it were understood and acknowledged. but you do not say so to all men, or to all clergymen. the advice, good as it is, is not given except in allusion to some special deficiency. if you will tell me my special deficiency, i will endeavour to profit by the advice." she paused for awhile and then, looking full in his face, she said, "you are not bold enough, mr. arabin, to speak out to me openly and plainly, and yet you expect me, a woman, to speak openly to you. why did you speak calumny of me to dr. grantly behind my back?" "calumny!" said he, and his whole face became suffused with blood. "what calumny? if i have spoken calumny of you, i will beg your pardon, and his to whom i spoke it, and god's pardon also. but what calumny have i spoken of you to dr. grantly?" she also blushed deeply. she could not bring herself to ask him whether he had not spoken of her as another man's wife. "you know that best yourself," said she. "but i ask you as a man of honour, if you have not spoken of me as you would not have spoken of your own sister--or rather i will not ask you," she continued, finding that he did not immediately answer her. "i will not put you to the necessity of answering such a question. dr. grantly has told me what you said." "dr. grantly certainly asked me for my advice, and i gave it. he asked me--" "i know he did, mr. arabin. he asked you whether he would be doing right to receive me at plumstead if i continued my acquaintance with a gentleman who happens to be personally disagreeable to yourself and to him." "you are mistaken, mrs. bold. i have no personal knowledge of mr. slope; i never met him in my life." "you are not the less individually hostile to him. it is not for me to question the propriety of your enmity, but i had a right to expect that my name should not have been mixed up in your hostilities. this has been done, and been done by you in a manner the most injurious and the most distressing to me as a woman. i must confess, mr. arabin, that from you i expected a different sort of usage." as she spoke she with difficulty restrained her tears--but she did restrain them. had she given way and sobbed aloud, as in such cases a woman should do, he would have melted at once, implored her pardon, perhaps knelt at her feet and declared his love. everything would have been explained, and eleanor would have gone back to barchester with a contented mind. how easily would she have forgiven and forgotten the archdeacon's suspicions had she but heard the whole truth from mr. arabin. but then where would have been my novel? she did not cry, and mr. arabin did not melt. "you do me an injustice," said he. "my advice was asked by dr. grantly, and i was obliged to give it." "dr. grantly has been most officious, most impertinent. i have as complete a right to form my acquaintance as he has to form his. what would you have said had i consulted you as to the propriety of my banishing dr. grantly from my house because he knows lord tattenham corner? i am sure lord tattenham is quite as objectionable an acquaintance for a clergyman as mr. slope is for a clergyman's daughter." "i do not know lord tattenham corner." "no, but dr. grantly does. it is nothing to me if he knows all the young lords on every race-course in england. i shall not interfere with him, nor shall he with me." "i am sorry to differ with you, mrs. bold, but as you have spoken to me on this matter, and especially as you blame me for what little i said on the subject, i must tell you that i do differ from you. dr. grantly's position as a man in the world gives him a right to choose his own acquaintances, subject to certain influences. if he chooses them badly, those influences will be used. if he consorts with persons unsuitable to him, his bishop will interfere. what the bishop is to dr. grantly, dr. grantly is to you." "i deny it. i utterly deny it," said eleanor, jumping from her seat and literally flashing before mr. arabin, as she stood on the drawing-room floor. he had never seen her so excited, he had never seen her look half so beautiful. "i utterly deny it," said she. "dr. grantly has no sort of jurisdiction over me whatsoever. do you and he forget that i am not altogether alone in the world? do you forget that i have a father? dr. grantly, i believe, always has forgotten it. "from you, mr. arabin," she continued, "i would have listened to advice because i should have expected it to have been given as one friend may advise another--not as a schoolmaster gives an order to a pupil. i might have differed from you--on this matter i should have done so--but had you spoken to me in your usual manner and with your usual freedom, i should not have been angry. but now--was it manly of you, mr. arabin, to speak of me in this way--so disrespectful--so--? i cannot bring myself to repeat what you said. you must understand what i feel. was it just of you to speak of me in such a way and to advise my sister's husband to turn me out of my sister's house because i chose to know a man of whose doctrine you disapprove?" "i have no alternative left to me, mrs. bold," said he, standing with his back to the fire-place, looking down intently at the carpet pattern, and speaking with a slow, measured voice, "but to tell you plainly what did take place between me and dr. grantly." "well," said she, finding that he paused for a moment. "i am afraid that what i may say may pain you." "it cannot well do so more than what you have already done," said she. "dr. grantly asked me whether i thought it would be prudent for him to receive you in his house as the wife of mr. slope, and i told him that i thought it would be imprudent. believing it to be utterly impossible that mr. slope and--" "thank you, mr. arabin, that is sufficient. i do not want to know your reasons," said she, speaking with a terribly calm voice. "i have shown to this gentleman the commonplace civility of a neighbour; and because i have done so, because i have not indulged against him in all the rancour and hatred which you and dr. grantly consider due to all clergymen who do not agree with yourselves, you conclude that i am to marry him; or rather you do not conclude so--no rational man could really come to such an outrageous conclusion without better ground; you have not thought so, but, as i am in a position in which such an accusation must be peculiarly painful, it is made in order that i may be terrified into hostility against this enemy of yours." as she finished speaking, she walked to the drawing-room window and stepped out into the garden. mr. arabin was left in the room, still occupied in counting the pattern on the carpet. he had, however, distinctly heard and accurately marked every word that she had spoken. was it not clear from what she had said that the archdeacon had been wrong in imputing to her any attachment to mr. slope? was it not clear that eleanor was still free to make another choice? it may seem strange that he should for a moment have had a doubt, and yet he did doubt. she had not absolutely denied the charge; she had not expressly said that it was untrue. mr. arabin understood little of the nature of a woman's feelings, or he would have known how improbable it was that she should make any clearer declaration than she had done. few men do understand the nature of a woman's heart, till years have robbed such understanding of its value. and it is well that it should be so, or men would triumph too easily. mr. arabin stood counting the carpet, unhappy, wretchedly unhappy, at the hard words that had been spoken to him, and yet happy, exquisitely happy, as he thought that after all the woman whom he so regarded was not to become the wife of the man whom he so much disliked. as he stood there he began to be aware that he was himself in love. forty years had passed over his head, and as yet woman's beauty had never given him an uneasy hour. his present hour was very uneasy. not that he remained there for half or a quarter of that time. in spite of what eleanor had said, mr. arabin was, in truth, a manly man. having ascertained that he loved this woman, and having now reason to believe that she was free to receive his love, at least if she pleased to do so, he followed her into the garden to make such wooing as he could. he was not long in finding her. she was walking to and fro beneath the avenue of elms that stood in the archdeacon's grounds, skirting the churchyard. what had passed between her and mr. arabin had not, alas, tended to lessen the acerbity of her spirit. she was very angry--more angry with him than with anyone. how could he have so misunderstood her? she had been so intimate with him, had allowed him such latitude in what he had chosen to say to her, had complied with his ideas, cherished his views, fostered his precepts, cared for his comforts, made much of him in every way in which a pretty woman can make much of an unmarried man without committing herself or her feelings! she had been doing this, and while she had been doing it he had regarded her as the affianced wife of another man. as she passed along the avenue, every now and then an unbidden tear would force itself on her cheek, and as she raised her hand to brush it away, she stamped with her little foot upon the sward with very spite to think that she had been so treated. mr. arabin was very near to her when she first saw him, and she turned short round and retraced her steps down the avenue, trying to rid her cheeks of all trace of the tell-tale tears. it was a needless endeavour, for mr. arabin was in a state of mind that hardly allowed him to observe such trifles. he followed her down the walk and overtook her just as she reached the end of it. he had not considered how he would address her; he had not thought what he would say. he had only felt that it was wretchedness to him to quarrel with her, and that it would be happiness to be allowed to love her. and yet he could not lower himself by asking her pardon. he had done her no wrong. he had not calumniated her, not injured her, as she had accused him of doing. he could not confess sins of which he had not been guilty. he could only let the past be past and ask her as to her and his hopes for the future. "i hope we are not to part as enemies?" said he. "there shall be no enmity on my part," said eleanor; "i endeavour to avoid all enmities. it would be a hollow pretence were i to say that there can be true friendship between us, after what has just passed. people cannot make their friends of those whom they despise." "and am i despised?" "i must have been so before you could have spoken of me as you did. and i was deceived, cruelly deceived. i believed that you thought well of me; i believed that you esteemed me." "thought well of you and esteemed you!" said he. "in justifying myself before you, i must use stronger words than those." he paused for a moment, and eleanor's heart beat with painful violence within her bosom as she waited for him to go on. "i have esteemed, do esteem you, as i never yet esteemed any woman. think well of you! i never thought to think so well, so much of any human creature. speak calumny of you! insult you! wilfully injure you! i wish it were my privilege to shield you from calumny, insult, and injury. calumny! ah me! 'twere almost better that it were so. better than to worship with a sinful worship; sinful and vain also." and then he walked along beside her, with his hands clasped behind his back, looking down on the grass beneath his feet and utterly at a loss how to express his meaning. and eleanor walked beside him determined at least to give him no assistance. "ah me!" he uttered at last, speaking rather to himself than to her. "ah me! these plumstead walks were pleasant enough, if one could have but heart's ease, but without that the dull, dead stones of oxford were far preferable--and st. ewold's, too. mrs. bold, i am beginning to think that i mistook myself when i came hither. a romish priest now would have escaped all this. oh, father of heaven, how good for us would it be if thou couldest vouchsafe to us a certain rule." "and have we not a certain rule, mr. arabin?" "yes--yes, surely; 'lead us not into temptation but deliver us from evil.' but what is temptation? what is evil? is this evil--is this temptation?" poor mr. arabin! it would not come out of him, that deep, true love of his. he could not bring himself to utter it in plain language that would require and demand an answer. he knew not how to say to the woman by his side, "since the fact is that you do not love that other man, that you are not to be his wife, can you love me, will you be my wife?" these were the words which were in his heart, but with all his sighs he could not draw them to his lips. he would have given anything, everything for power to ask this simple question, but glib as was his tongue in pulpits and on platforms, now he could not find a word wherewith to express the plain wish of his heart. and yet eleanor understood him as thoroughly as though he had declared his passion with all the elegant fluency of a practised lothario. with a woman's instinct, she followed every bend of his mind as he spoke of the pleasantness of plumstead and the stones of oxford, as he alluded to the safety of the romish priest and the hidden perils of temptation. she knew that it all meant love. she knew that this man at her side, this accomplished scholar, this practised orator, this great polemical combatant, was striving and striving in vain to tell her that his heart was no longer his own. she knew this, and felt a sort of joy in knowing it; yet she would not come to his aid. he had offended her deeply, had treated her unworthily, the more unworthily seeing that he had learnt to love her, and eleanor could not bring herself to abandon her revenge. she did not ask herself whether or no she would ultimately accept his love. she did not even acknowledge to herself that she now perceived it with pleasure. at the present moment it did not touch her heart; it merely appeased her pride and flattered her vanity. mr. arabin had dared to associate her name with that of mr. slope, and now her spirit was soothed by finding that he would fain associate it with his own. and so she walked on beside him, inhaling incense but giving out no sweetness in return. "answer me this," said mr. arabin, stopping suddenly in his walk and stepping forward so that he faced his companion. "answer me this one question. you do not love mr. slope? you do not intend to be his wife?" mr. arabin certainly did not go the right way to win such a woman as eleanor bold. just as her wrath was evaporating, as it was disappearing before the true warmth of his untold love, he rekindled it by a most useless repetition of his original sin. had he known what he was about, he should never have mentioned mr. slope's name before eleanor bold, till he had made her all his own. then, and not till then, he might have talked of mr. slope with as much triumph as he chose. "i shall answer no such question," said she; "and what is more, i must tell you that nothing can justify your asking it. good morning!" and so saying, she stepped proudly across the lawn and, passing through the drawing-room window, joined her father and sister at lunch in the dining-room. half an hour afterwards she was in the carriage, and so she left plumstead without again seeing mr. arabin. his walk was long and sad among the sombre trees that overshadowed the churchyard. he left the archdeacon's grounds that he might escape attention, and sauntered among the green hillocks under which lay at rest so many of the once loving swains and forgotten beauties of plumstead. to his ears eleanor's last words sounded like a knell never to be reversed. he could not comprehend that she might be angry with him, indignant with him, remorseless with him, and yet love him. he could not make up his mind whether or no mr. slope was in truth a favoured rival. if not, why should she not have answered his question? poor mr. arabin--untaught, illiterate, boorish, ignorant man! that at forty years of age you should know so little of the workings of a woman's heart! chapter xxxi the bishop's library and thus the pleasant party at plumstead was broken up. it had been a very pleasant party as long as they had all remained in good humour with one another. mrs. grantly had felt her house to be gayer and brighter than it had been for many a long day, and the archdeacon had been aware that the month had passed pleasantly without attributing the pleasure to any other special merits than those of his own hospitality. within three or four days of eleanor's departure, mr. harding had also returned, and mr. arabin had gone to oxford to spend one week there previous to his settling at the vicarage of st. ewold's. he had gone laden with many messages to dr. gwynne touching the iniquity of the doings in barchester palace and the peril in which it was believed the hospital still stood in spite of the assurances contained in mr. slope's inauspicious letter. during eleanor's drive into barchester she had not much opportunity of reflecting on mr. arabin. she had been constrained to divert her mind both from his sins and his love by the necessity of conversing with her sister and maintaining the appearance of parting with her on good terms. when the carriage reached her own door, and while she was in the act of giving her last kiss to her sister and nieces, mary bold ran out and exclaimed: "oh, eleanor, have you heard? oh, mrs. grantly, have you heard what has happened? the poor dean!" "good heavens!" said mrs. grantly. "what--what has happened?" "this morning at nine he had a fit of apoplexy, and he has not spoken since. i very much fear that by this time he is no more." mrs. grantly had been very intimate with the dean, and was therefore much shocked. eleanor had not known him so well; nevertheless, she was sufficiently acquainted with his person and manners to feel startled and grieved also at the tidings she now received. "i will go at once to the deanery," said mrs. grantly; "the archdeacon, i am sure, will be there. if there is any news to send you, i will let thomas call before he leaves town." and so the carriage drove off, leaving eleanor and her baby with mary bold. mrs. grantly had been quite right. the archdeacon was at the deanery. he had come into barchester that morning by himself, not caring to intrude himself upon eleanor, and he also immediately on his arrival had heard of the dean's fit. there was, as we have before said, a library or reading-room connecting the cathedral with the dean's house. this was generally called the bishop's library, because a certain bishop of barchester was supposed to have added it to the cathedral. it was built immediately over a portion of the cloisters, and a flight of stairs descended from it into the room in which the cathedral clergymen put their surplices on and off. as it also opened directly into the dean's house, it was the passage through which that dignitary usually went to his public devotions. who had or had not the right of entry into it, it might be difficult to say; but the people of barchester believed that it belonged to the dean, and the clergymen of barchester believed that it belonged to the chapter. on the morning in question most of the resident clergymen who constituted the chapter, and some few others, were here assembled, and among them as usual the archdeacon towered with high authority. he had heard of the dean's fit before he was over the bridge which led into the town, and had at once come to the well-known clerical trysting place. he had been there by eleven o'clock, and had remained ever since. from time to time the medical men who had been called in came through from the deanery into the library, uttered little bulletins, and then returned. there was, it appears, very little hope of the old man's rallying, indeed no hope of anything like a final recovery. the only question was whether he must die at once speechless, unconscious, stricken to death by his first heavy fit, or whether by due aid of medical skill he might not be so far brought back to this world as to become conscious of his state and enabled to address one prayer to his maker before he was called to meet him face to face at the judgement seat. sir omicron pie had been sent for from london. that great man had shown himself a wonderful adept at keeping life still moving within an old man's heart in the case of good old bishop grantly, and it might be reasonably expected that he would be equally successful with a dean. in the meantime dr. fillgrave and mr. rerechild were doing their best, and poor miss trefoil sat at the head of her father's bed, longing, as in such cases daughters do long, to be allowed to do something to show her love--if it were only to chafe his feet with her hands, or wait in menial offices on those autocratic doctors--anything so that now in the time of need she might be of use. the archdeacon alone of the attendant clergy had been admitted for a moment into the sick man's chamber. he had crept in with creaking shoes, had said with smothered voice a word of consolation to the sorrowing daughter, had looked on the distorted face of his old friend with solemn but yet eager scrutinising eye, as though he said in his heart "and so some day it will probably be with me," and then, having whispered an unmeaning word or two to the doctors, had creaked his way back again into the library. "he'll never speak again, i fear," said the archdeacon as he noiselessly closed the door, as though the unconscious dying man, from whom all sense had fled, would have heard in his distant chamber the spring of the lock which was now so carefully handled. "indeed! indeed! is he so bad?" said the meagre little prebendary, turning over in his own mind all the probable candidates for the deanery and wondering whether the archdeacon would think it worth his while to accept it. "the fit must have been very violent." "when a man over seventy has a stroke of apoplexy, it seldom comes very lightly," said the burly chancellor. "he was an excellent, sweet-tempered man," said one of the vicars choral. "heaven knows how we shall repair his loss." "he was indeed," said a minor canon, "and a great blessing to all those privileged to take a share in the services of our cathedral. i suppose the government will appoint, mr. archdeacon. i trust we may have no stranger." "we will not talk about his successor," said the archdeacon, "while there is yet hope." "oh, no, of course not," said the minor canon. "it would be exceedingly indecorous; but--" "i know of no man," said the meagre little prebendary, "who has better interest with the present government than mr. slope." "mr. slope," said two or three at once almost sotto voce. "mr. slope dean of barchester!" "pooh!" exclaimed the burly chancellor. "the bishop would do anything for him," said the little prebendary. "and so would mrs. proudie," said the vicar choral. "pooh!" said the chancellor. the archdeacon had almost turned pale at the idea. what if mr. slope should become dean of barchester? to be sure there was no adequate ground, indeed no ground at all, for presuming that such a desecration could even be contemplated. but nevertheless it was on the cards. dr. proudie had interest with the government, and the man carried as it were dr. proudie in his pocket. how should they all conduct themselves if mr. slope were to become dean of barchester? the bare idea for a moment struck even dr. grantly dumb. "it would certainly not be very pleasant for us to have mr. slope at the deanery," said the little prebendary, chuckling inwardly at the evident consternation which his surmise had created. "about as pleasant and as probable as having you in the palace," said the chancellor. "i should think such an appointment highly improbable," said the minor canon, "and, moreover, extremely injudicious. should not you, mr. archdeacon?" "i should presume such a thing to be quite out of the question," said the archdeacon, "but at the present moment i am thinking rather of our poor friend who is lying so near us than of mr. slope." "of course, of course," said the vicar choral with a very solemn air; "of course you are. so are we all. poor dr. trefoil; the best of men, but--" "it's the most comfortable dean's residence in england," said a second prebendary. "fifteen acres in the grounds. it is better than many of the bishops' palaces." "and full two thousand a year," said the meagre doctor. "it is cut down to £ , ," said the chancellor. "no," said the second prebendary. "it is to be fifteen. a special case was made." "no such thing," said the chancellor. "you'll find i'm right," said the prebendary. "i'm sure i read it in the report," said the minor canon. "nonsense," said the chancellor. "they couldn't do it. there were to be no exceptions but london and durham." "and canterbury and york," said the vicar choral modestly. "what do you say, grantly?" said the meagre little doctor. "say about what?" said the archdeacon, who had been looking as though he were thinking about his friend the dean, but who had in reality been thinking about mr. slope. "what is the next dean to have, twelve or fifteen?" "twelve," said the archdeacon authoritatively, thereby putting an end at once to all doubt and dispute among his subordinates as far as that subject was concerned. "well, i certainly thought it was fifteen," said the minor canon. "pooh!" said the burly chancellor. at this moment the door opened and in came dr. fillgrave. "how is he?" "is he conscious?" "can he speak?" "i hope not dead?" "no worse news, doctor, i trust?" "i hope, i trust, something better, doctor?" said half a dozen voices all at once, each in a tone of extremest anxiety. it was pleasant to see how popular the good old dean was among his clergy. "no change, gentlemen; not the slightest change. but a telegraphic message has arrived--sir omicron pie will be here by the . p.m. train. if any man can do anything, sir omicron pie will do it. but all that skill can do has been done." "we are sure of that, dr. fillgrave," said the archdeacon; "we are quite sure of that. but yet you know--" "oh, quite right," said the doctor, "quite right--i should have done just the same--i advised it at once. i said to rerechild at once that with such a life and such a man, sir omicron should be summoned--of course i knew expense was nothing--so distinguished, you know, and so popular. nevertheless, all that human skill can do has been done." just at this period mrs. grantly's carriage drove into the close, and the archdeacon went down to confirm the news which she had heard before. by the . p.m. train sir omicron pie did arrive. and in the course of the night a sort of consciousness returned to the poor old dean. whether this was due to sir omicron pie is a question on which it may be well not to offer an opinion. dr. fillgrave was very clear in his own mind, but sir omicron himself is thought to have differed from that learned doctor. at any rate sir omicron expressed an opinion that the dean had yet some days to live. for the eight or ten next days, accordingly, the poor dean remained in the same state, half-conscious and half-comatose; and the attendant clergy began to think that no new appointment would be necessary for some few months to come. chapter xxxii a new candidate for ecclesiastical honours the dean's illness occasioned much mental turmoil in other places besides the deanery and adjoining library, and the idea which occurred to the meagre little prebendary about mr. slope did not occur to him alone. the bishop was sitting listlessly in his study when the news reached him of the dean's illness. it was brought to him by mr. slope, who of course was not the last person in barchester to hear it. it was also not slow in finding its way to mrs. proudie's ears. it may be presumed that there was not just then much friendly intercourse between these two rival claimants for his lordship's obedience. indeed, though living in the same house, they had not met since the stormy interview between them in the bishop's study on the preceding day. on that occasion mrs. proudie had been defeated. that the prestige of continual victory should have been torn from her standards was a subject of great sorrow to that militant lady; but, though defeated, she was not overcome. she felt that she might yet recover her lost ground, that she might yet hurl mr. slope down to the dust from which she had picked him, and force her sinning lord to sue for pardon in sackcloth and ashes. on that memorable day, memorable for his mutiny and rebellion against her high behests, he had carried his way with a high hand, and had really begun to think it possible that the days of his slavery were counted. he had begun to hope that he was now about to enter into a free land, a land delicious with milk which he himself might quaff and honey which would not tantalize him by being only honey to the eye. when mrs. proudie banged the door as she left his room, he felt himself every inch a bishop. to be sure, his spirit had been a little cowed by his chaplain's subsequent lecture, but on the whole he was highly pleased with himself, and he flattered himself that the worst was over. "_ce n'est que le premier pas qui coûte_," he reflected, and now that the first step had been so magnanimously taken, all the rest would follow easily. he met his wife as a matter of course at dinner, where little or nothing was said that could ruffle the bishop's happiness. his daughters and the servants were present and protected him. he made one or two trifling remarks on the subject of his projected visit to the archbishop, in order to show to all concerned that he intended to have his own way; the very servants, perceiving the change, transferred a little of their reverence from their mistress to their master. all which the master perceived, and so also did the mistress. but mrs. proudie bided her time. after dinner he returned to his study, where mr. slope soon found him, and there they had tea together and planned many things. for some few minutes the bishop was really happy; but as the clock on the chimney-piece warned him that the stilly hours of night were drawing on, as he looked at his chamber candlestick and knew that he must use it, his heart sank within him again. he was as a ghost, all whose power of wandering free through these upper regions ceases at cock-crow; or, rather, he was the opposite of the ghost, for till cock-crow he must again be a serf. and would that be all? could he trust himself to come down to breakfast a free man in the morning? he was nearly an hour later than usual when he betook himself to his rest. rest! what rest? however, he took a couple of glasses of sherry and mounted the stairs. far be it from us to follow him thither. there are some things which no novelist, no historian, should attempt; some few scenes in life's drama which even no poet should dare to paint. let that which passed between dr. proudie and his wife on this night be understood to be among them. he came down the following morning a sad and thoughtful man. he was attenuated in appearance--one might almost say emaciated. i doubt whether his now grizzled locks had not palpably become more grey than on the preceding evening. at any rate he had aged materially. years do not make a man old gradually and at an even pace. look through the world and see if this is not so always, except in those rare cases in which the human being lives and dies without joys and without sorrows, like a vegetable. a man shall be possessed of florid, youthful blooming health till, it matters not what age--thirty; forty; fifty--then comes some nipping frost, some period of agony, that robs the fibres of the body of their succulence, and the hale and hearty man is counted among the old. he came down and breakfasted alone; mrs. proudie, being indisposed, took her coffee in her bedroom, and her daughters waited upon her there. he ate his breakfast alone, and then, hardly knowing what he did, he betook himself to his usual seat in his study. he tried to solace himself with his coming visit to the archbishop. that effort of his own free will at any rate remained to him as an enduring triumph. but somehow, now that he had achieved it, he did not seem to care so much about it. it was his ambition that had prompted him to take his place at the archiepiscopal table, and his ambition was now quite dead within him. he was thus seated when mr. slope made his appearance, with breathless impatience. "my lord, the dean is dead." "good heavens!" exclaimed the bishop, startled out of his apathy by an announcement so sad and so sudden. "he is either dead or now dying. he has had an apoplectic fit, and i am told that there is not the slightest hope; indeed, i do not doubt that by this time he is no more." bells were rung, and servants were immediately sent to inquire. in the course of the morning the bishop, leaning on his chaplain's arm, himself called at the deanery door. mrs. proudie sent to miss trefoil all manner of offers of assistance. the misses proudie sent also, and there was immense sympathy between the palace and the deanery. the answer to all inquiries was unvaried. the dean was just the same, and sir omicron pie was expected down by the . p.m. train. and then mr. slope began to meditate, as others also had done, as to who might possibly be the new dean, and it occurred to him, as it had also occurred to others, that it might be possible that he should be the new dean himself. and then the question as to the twelve hundred, or fifteen hundred, or two thousand ran in his mind, as it had run through those of the other clergymen in the cathedral library. whether it might be two thousand, or fifteen, or twelve hundred, it would in any case undoubtedly be a great thing for him, if he could get it. the gratification to his ambition would be greater even than that of his covetousness. how glorious to out-top the archdeacon in his own cathedral city; to sit above prebendaries and canons and have the cathedral pulpit and all the cathedral services altogether at his own disposal! but it might be easier to wish for this than to obtain it. mr. slope, however, was not without some means of forwarding his views, and he at any rate did not let the grass grow under his feet. in the first place, he thought--and not vainly--that he could count upon what assistance the bishop could give him. he immediately changed his views with regard to his patron; he made up his mind that if he became dean, he would hand his lordship back again to his wife's vassalage; and he thought it possible that his lordship might not be sorry to rid himself of one of his mentors. mr. slope had also taken some steps towards making his name known to other men in power. there was a certain chief-commissioner of national schools, who at the present moment was presumed to stand especially high in the good graces of the government bigwigs, and with him mr. slope had contrived to establish a sort of epistolary intimacy. he thought that he might safely apply to sir nicholas fitzwhiggin, and he felt sure that if sir nicholas chose to exert himself, the promise of such a piece of preferment would be had for the asking. then he also had the press at his bidding, or flattered himself that he had so. "the daily jupiter" had taken his part in a very thorough manner in those polemical contests of his with mr. arabin; he had on more than one occasion absolutely had an interview with a gentleman on the staff of that paper who, if not the editor, was as good as the editor; and he had long been in the habit of writing telling letters on all manner of ecclesiastical abuses, which he signed with his initials, and sent to his editorial friend with private notes signed in his own name. indeed, he and mr. towers--such was the name of the powerful gentleman of the press with whom he was connected--were generally very amiable with each other. mr. slope's little productions were always printed and occasionally commented upon; and thus, in a small sort of way, he had become a literary celebrity. this public life had great charms for him, though it certainly also had its drawbacks. on one occasion, when speaking in the presence of reporters, he had failed to uphold and praise and swear by that special line of conduct which had been upheld and praised and sworn by in "the jupiter," and then he had been much surprised and at the moment not a little irritated to find himself lacerated most unmercifully by his old ally. he was quizzed and bespattered and made a fool of, just as though, or rather worse than if, he had been a constant enemy instead of a constant friend. he had hitherto not learnt that a man who aspires to be on the staff of "the jupiter" must surrender all individuality. but ultimately this little castigation had broken no bones between him and his friend mr. towers. mr. slope was one of those who understood the world too well to show himself angry with such a potentate as "the jupiter." he had kissed the rod that scourged him, and now thought that he might fairly look for his reward. he determined that he would at once let mr. towers know that he was a candidate for the place which was about to become vacant. more than one piece of preferment had lately been given away much in accordance with advice tendered to the government in the columns of "the jupiter." but it was incumbent on mr. slope first to secure the bishop. he specially felt that it behoved him to do this before the visit to the archbishop was made. it was really quite providential that the dean should have fallen ill just at the very nick of time. if dr. proudie could be instigated to take the matter up warmly, he might manage a good deal while staying at the archbishop's palace. feeling this very strongly, mr. slope determined to sound the bishop that very afternoon. he was to start on the following morning to london, and therefore not a moment could be lost with safety. he went into the bishop's study about five o'clock and found him still sitting alone. it might have been supposed that he had hardly moved since the little excitement occasioned by his walk to the dean's door. he still wore on his face that dull, dead look of half-unconscious suffering. he was doing nothing, reading nothing, thinking of nothing, but simply gazing on vacancy when mr. slope for the second time that day entered his room. "well, slope," said he somewhat impatiently, for, to tell the truth, he was not anxious just at present to have much conversation with mr. slope. "your lordship will be sorry to hear that as yet the poor dean has shown no sign of amendment." "oh--ah--hasn't he? poor man! i'm sure i'm very sorry. i suppose sir omicron has not arrived yet?" "no, not till the . p.m. train." "i wonder they didn't have a special. they say dr. trefoil is very rich." "very rich, i believe," said mr. slope. "but the truth is, all the doctors in london can do no good--no other good than to show that every possible care has been taken. poor dr. trefoil is not long for this world, my lord." "i suppose not--i suppose not." "oh, no; indeed, his best friends could not wish that he should outlive such a shock, for his intellects cannot possibly survive it." "poor man! poor man!" said the bishop. "it will naturally be a matter of much moment to your lordship who is to succeed him," said mr. slope. "it would be a great thing if you could secure the appointment for some person of your own way of thinking on important points. the party hostile to us are very strong here in barchester--much too strong." "yes, yes. if poor dr. trefoil is to go, it will be a great thing to get a good man in his place." "it will be everything to your lordship to get a man on whose co-operation you can reckon. only think what trouble we might have if dr. grantly, or dr. hyandry, or any of that way of thinking were to get it." "it is not very probable that lord ---- will give it to any of that school; why should he?" "no. not probable; certainly not; but it's possible. great interest will probably be made. if i might venture to advise your lordship, i would suggest that you should discuss the matter with his grace next week. i have no doubt that your wishes, if made known and backed by his grace, would be paramount with lord ----." "well, i don't know that; lord ---- has always been very kind to me, very kind. but i am unwilling to interfere in such matters unless asked. and indeed if asked, i don't know whom, at this moment, i should recommend." mr. slope, even mr. slope, felt at the present rather abashed. he hardly knew how to frame his little request in language sufficiently modest. he had recognized and acknowledged to himself the necessity of shocking the bishop in the first instance by the temerity of his application, and his difficulty was how best to remedy that by his adroitness and eloquence. "i doubted myself," said he, "whether your lordship would have anyone immediately in your eye, and it is on this account that i venture to submit to you an idea that i have been turning over in my own mind. if poor dr. trefoil must go, i really do not see why, with your lordship's assistance, i should not hold the preferment myself." "you!" exclaimed the bishop in a manner that mr. slope could hardly have considered complimentary. the ice was now broken, and mr. slope became fluent enough. "i have been thinking of looking for it. if your lordship will press the matter on the archbishop, i do not doubt but i shall succeed. you see i shall be the first to move, which is a great matter. then i can count upon assistance from the public press: my name is known, i may say, somewhat favourably known, to that portion of the press which is now most influential with the government; and i have friends also in the government. but nevertheless it is to you, my lord, that i look for assistance. it is from your hands that i would most willingly receive the benefit. and, which should ever be the chief consideration in such matters, you must know better than any other person whatsoever what qualifications i possess." the bishop sat for awhile dumbfounded. mr. slope dean of barchester! the idea of such a transformation of character would never have occurred to his own unaided intellect. at first he went on thinking why, for what reasons, on what account, mr. slope should be dean of barchester. but by degrees the direction of his thoughts changed, and he began to think why, for what reasons, on what account, mr. slope should not be dean of barchester. as far as he himself, the bishop, was concerned, he could well spare the services of his chaplain. that little idea of using mr. slope as a counterpoise to his wife had well nigh evaporated. he had all but acknowledged the futility of the scheme. if indeed he could have slept in his chaplain's bedroom instead of his wife's, there might have been something in it. but--. and thus as mr. slope was speaking, the bishop began to recognize the idea that that gentleman might become dean of barchester without impropriety--not moved, indeed, by mr. slope's eloquence, for he did not follow the tenor of his speech, but led thereto by his own cogitations. "i need not say," continued mr. slope, "that it would be my chief desire to act in all matters connected with the cathedral as far as possible in accordance with your views. i know your lordship so well (and i hope you know me well enough to have the same feelings) that i am satisfied that my being in that position would add materially to your own comfort, and enable you to extend the sphere of your useful influence. as i said before, it is most desirable that there should be but one opinion among the dignitaries of the same diocese. i doubt much whether i would accept such an appointment in any diocese in which i should be constrained to differ much from the bishop. in this case there would be a delightful uniformity of opinion." mr. slope perfectly well perceived that the bishop did not follow a word that he said, but nevertheless he went on talking. he knew it was necessary that dr. proudie should recover from his surprise, and he knew also that he must give him the opportunity of appearing to have been persuaded by argument. so he went on and produced a multitude of fitting reasons all tending to show that no one on earth could make so good a dean of barchester as himself, that the government and the public would assuredly coincide in desiring that he, mr. slope, should be dean of barchester, but that for high considerations of ecclesiastical polity it would be especially desirable that this piece of preferment should be so bestowed through the instrumentality of the bishop of the diocese. "but i really don't know what i could do in the matter," said the bishop. "if you would mention it to the archbishop; if you could tell his grace that you consider such an appointment very desirable, that you have it much at heart with a view to putting an end to schism in the diocese; if you did this with your usual energy, you would probably find no difficulty in inducing his grace to promise that he would mention it to lord ----. of course you would let the archbishop know that i am not looking for the preferment solely through his intervention; that you do not exactly require him to ask it as a favour; that you expect that i shall get it through other sources, as is indeed the case; but that you are very anxious that his grace should express his approval of such an arrangement to lord ----." it ended in the bishop promising to do as he was bid. not that he so promised without a stipulation. "about that hospital," he said in the middle of the conference. "i was never so troubled in my life"--which was about the truth. "you haven't spoken to mr. harding since i saw you?" mr. slope assured his patron that he had not. "ah well, then--i think upon the whole it will be better to let quiverful have it. it has been half-promised to him, and he has a large family and is very poor. i think on the whole it will be better to make out the nomination for mr. quiverful." "but, my lord," said mr. slope, still thinking that he was bound to make a fight for his own view on this matter, and remembering that it still behoved him to maintain his lately acquired supremacy over mrs. proudie, lest he should fail in his views regarding the deanery, "but, my lord, i am really much afraid--" "remember, mr. slope," said the bishop, "i can hold out no sort of hope to you in this matter of succeeding poor dr. trefoil. i will certainly speak to the archbishop, as you wish it, but i cannot think--" "well, my lord," said mr. slope, fully understanding the bishop and in his turn interrupting him, "perhaps your lordship is right about mr. quiverful. i have no doubt i can easily arrange matters with mr. harding, and i will make out the nomination for your signature as you direct." "yes, slope, i think that will be best; and you may be sure that any little that i can do to forward your views shall be done." and so they parted. mr. slope had now much business on his hands. he had to make his daily visit to the signora. this common prudence should have now induced him to omit, but he was infatuated, and could not bring himself to be commonly prudent. he determined therefore that he would drink tea at the stanhopes', and he determined also, or thought that he determined, that having done so he would go thither no more. he had also to arrange his matters with mrs. bold. he was of opinion that eleanor would grace the deanery as perfectly as she would the chaplain's cottage, and he thought, moreover, that eleanor's fortune would excellently repair any dilapidations and curtailments in the dean's stipend which might have been made by that ruthless ecclesiastical commission. touching mrs. bold his hopes now soared high. mr. slope was one of that numerous multitude of swains who think that all is fair in love, and he had accordingly not refrained from using the services of mrs. bold's own maid. from her he had learnt much of what had taken place at plumstead--not exactly with truth, for "the own maid" had not been able to divine the exact truth, but with some sort of similitude to it. he had been told that the archdeacon and mrs. grantly and mr. harding and mr. arabin had all quarrelled with "missus" for having received a letter from mr. slope; that "missus" had positively refused to give the letter up; that she had received from the archdeacon the option of giving up either mr. slope and his letter, or else the society of plumstead rectory; and that "missus" had declared, with much indignation, that "she didn't care a straw for the society of plumstead rectory," and that she wouldn't give up mr. slope for any of them. considering the source from whence this came, it was not quite so untrue as might have been expected. it showed pretty plainly what had been the nature of the conversation in the servants' hall; and, coupled as it was with the certainty of eleanor's sudden return, it appeared to mr. slope to be so far worthy of credit as to justify him in thinking that the fair widow would in all human probability accept his offer. all this work was therefore to be done. it was desirable, he thought, that he should make his offer before it was known that mr. quiverful was finally appointed to the hospital. in his letter to eleanor he had plainly declared that mr. harding was to have the appointment. it would be very difficult to explain this away, and were he to write another letter to eleanor, telling the truth and throwing the blame on the bishop, it would naturally injure him in her estimation. he determined therefore to let that matter disclose itself as it would, and to lose no time in throwing himself at her feet. then he had to solicit the assistance of sir nicholas fitzwhiggin and mr. towers, and he went directly from the bishop's presence to compose his letters to those gentlemen. as mr. slope was esteemed an adept at letter writing, they shall be given in full. (private) palace, barchester, sept. -- my dear sir nicholas, i hope that the intercourse which has been between us will preclude you from regarding my present application as an intrusion. you cannot, i imagine, have yet heard that poor old dr. trefoil has been seized with apoplexy. it is a subject of profound grief to everyone in barchester, for he has always been an excellent man--excellent as a man and as a clergyman. he is, however, full of years, and his life could not under any circumstances have been much longer spared. you may probably have known him. there is, it appears, no probable chance of his recovery. sir omicron pie is, i believe, at present with him. at any rate the medical men here have declared that one or two days more must limit the tether of his mortal coil. i sincerely trust that his soul may wing its flight to that haven where it may forever be at rest and forever be happy. the bishop has been speaking to me about the preferment, and he is anxious that it should be conferred on me. i confess that i can hardly venture, at my age, to look for such advancement, but i am so far encouraged by his lordship that i believe i shall be induced to do so. his lordship goes to ---- to-morrow and is intent on mentioning the subject to the archbishop. i know well how deservedly great is your weight with the present government. in any matter touching church preferment you would of course be listened to. now that the matter has been put into my head, i am of course anxious to be successful. if you can assist me by your good word, you will confer on me one additional favour. i had better add, that lord ---- cannot as yet know of this piece of preferment having fallen in, or rather of its certainty of falling (for poor dear dr. trefoil is past hope). should lord ---- first hear it from you, that might probably be thought to give you a fair claim to express your opinion. of course our grand object is that we should all be of one opinion in church matters. this is most desirable at barchester; it is this that makes our good bishop so anxious about it. you may probably think it expedient to point this out to lord ---- if it shall be in your power to oblige me by mentioning the subject to his lordship. believe me, my dear sir nicholas, your most faithful servant, obadiah slope his letter to mr. towers was written in quite a different strain. mr. slope conceived that he completely understood the difference in character and position of the two men whom he addressed. he knew that for such a man as sir nicholas fitzwhiggin a little flummery was necessary, and that it might be of the easy, everyday description. accordingly his letter to sir nicholas was written, _currente calamo_, with very little trouble. but to such a man as mr. towers it was not so easy to write a letter that should be effective and yet not offensive, that should carry its point without undue interference. it was not difficult to flatter dr. proudie or sir nicholas fitzwhiggin, but very difficult to flatter mr. towers without letting the flattery declare itself. this, however, had to be done. moreover, this letter must, in appearance at least, be written without effort, and be fluent, unconstrained, and demonstrative of no doubt or fear on the part of the writer. therefore the epistle to mr. towers was studied, and re-copied, and elaborated at the cost of so many minutes that mr. slope had hardly time to dress himself and reach dr. stanhope's that evening. when dispatched, it ran as follows:-- (private.) barchester. sept. -- (he purposely omitted any allusion to the "palace," thinking that mr. towers might not like it. a great man, he remembered, had been once much condemned for dating a letter from windsor castle.) my dear sir, we were all a good deal shocked here this morning by hearing that poor old dean trefoil had been stricken with apoplexy. the fit took him about a.m. i am writing now to save the post, and he is still alive, but past all hope or possibility, i believe, of living. sir omicron pie is here, or will be very shortly, but all that even sir omicron can do is to ratify the sentence of his less distinguished brethren that nothing can be done. poor dr. trefoil's race on this side the grave is run. i do not know whether you knew him. he was a good, quiet, charitable man, of the old school, of course, as any clergyman over seventy years of age must necessarily be. but i do not write merely with the object of sending you such news as this: doubtless someone of your mercuries will have seen and heard and reported so much; i write, as you usually do yourself, rather with a view to the future than to the past. rumour is already rife here as to dr. trefoil's successor, and among those named as possible future deans your humble servant is, i believe, not the least frequently spoken of; in short, i am looking for the preferment. you may probably know that since bishop proudie came to the diocese i have exerted myself here a good deal and, i may certainly say, not without some success. he and i are nearly always of the same opinion on points of doctrine as well as church discipline, and therefore i have had, as his confidential chaplain, very much in my own hands; but i confess to you that i have a higher ambition than to remain the chaplain of any bishop. there are no positions in which more energy is now needed than those of our deans. the whole of our enormous cathedral establishments have been allowed to go to sleep--nay, they are all but dead and ready for the sepulchre! and yet of what prodigious moment they might be made if, as was intended, they were so managed as to lead the way and show an example for all our parochial clergy! the bishop here is most anxious for my success; indeed, he goes to-morrow to press the matter on the archbishop. i believe also i may count on the support of at least one most effective member of the government. but i confess that the support of "the jupiter," if i be thought worthy of it, would be more gratifying to me than any other; more gratifying if by it i should be successful, and more gratifying also if, although so supported, i should be unsuccessful. the time has, in fact, come in which no government can venture to fill up the high places of the church in defiance of the public press. the age of honourable bishops and noble deans has gone by, and any clergyman however humbly born can now hope for success if his industry, talent, and character be sufficient to call forth the manifest opinion of the public in his favour. at the present moment we all feel that any counsel given in such matters by "the jupiter" has the greatest weight--is, indeed, generally followed; and we feel also--i am speaking of clergymen of my own age and standing--that it should be so. there can be no patron less interested than "the jupiter," and none that more thoroughly understands the wants of the people. i am sure you will not suspect me of asking from you any support which the paper with which you are connected cannot conscientiously give me. my object in writing is to let you know that i am a candidate for the appointment. it is for you to judge whether or no you can assist my views. i should not, of course, have written to you on such a matter had i not believed (and i have had good reason so to believe) that "the jupiter" approves of my views on ecclesiastical polity. the bishop expresses a fear that i may be considered too young for such a station, my age being thirty-six. i cannot think that at the present day any hesitation need be felt on such a point. the public has lost its love for antiquated servants. if a man will ever be fit to do good work, he will be fit at thirty-six years of age. believe me very faithfully yours, obadiah slope t. towers, esq., ---- court, middle temple. having thus exerted himself, mr. slope posted his letters and passed the remainder of the evening at the feet of his mistress. mr. slope will be accused of deceit in his mode of canvassing. it will be said that he lied in the application he made to each of his three patrons. i believe it must be owned that he did so. he could not hesitate on account of his youth and yet be quite assured that he was not too young. he could not count chiefly on the bishop's support and chiefly also on that of the newspaper. he did not think that the bishop was going to ---- to press the matter on the archbishop. it must be owned that in his canvassing mr. slope was as false as he well could be. let it, however, be asked of those who are conversant with such matters, whether he was more false than men usually are on such occasions. we english gentlemen hate the name of a lie, but how often do we find public men who believe each other's words? chapter xxxiii mrs. proudie victrix the next week passed over at barchester with much apparent tranquillity. the hearts, however, of some of the inhabitants were not so tranquil as the streets of the city. the poor old dean still continued to live, just as sir omicron pie had prophesied that he would do, much to the amazement, and some thought disgust, of dr. fillgrave. the bishop still remained away. he had stayed a day or two in town and had also remained longer at the archbishop's than he had intended. mr. slope had as yet received no line in answer to either of his letters, but he had learnt the cause of this. sir nicholas was stalking a deer, or attending the queen, in the highlands, and even the indefatigable mr. towers had stolen an autumn holiday, and had made one of the yearly tribe who now ascend mont blanc. mr. slope learnt that he was not expected back till the last day of september. mrs. bold was thrown much with the stanhopes, of whom she became fonder and fonder. if asked, she would have said that charlotte stanhope was her especial friend, and so she would have thought. but, to tell the truth, she liked bertie nearly as well; she had no more idea of regarding him as a lover than she would have had of looking at a big tame dog in such a light. bertie had become very intimate with her, and made little speeches to her, and said little things of a sort very different from the speeches and sayings of other men. but then this was almost always done before his sisters; and he, with his long silken beard, his light blue eyes, and strange dress, was so unlike other men. she admitted him to a kind of familiarity which she had never known with anyone else, and of which she by no means understood the danger. she blushed once at finding that she had called him bertie and, on the same day, only barely remembered her position in time to check herself from playing upon him some personal practical joke to which she was instigated by charlotte. in all this eleanor was perfectly innocent, and bertie stanhope could hardly be called guilty. but every familiarity into which eleanor was entrapped was deliberately planned by his sister. she knew well how to play her game, and played it without mercy; she knew, none so well, what was her brother's character, and she would have handed over to him the young widow, and the young widow's money, and the money of the widow's child, without remorse. with her pretended friendship and warm cordiality, she strove to connect eleanor so closely with her brother as to make it impossible that she should go back even if she wished it. but charlotte stanhope knew really nothing of eleanor's character, did not even understand that there were such characters. she did not comprehend that a young and pretty woman could be playful and familiar with a man such as bertie stanhope and yet have no idea in her head, no feeling in her heart, that she would have been ashamed to own to all the world. charlotte stanhope did not in the least conceive that her new friend was a woman whom nothing could entrap into an inconsiderate marriage, whose mind would have revolted from the slightest impropriety had she been aware that any impropriety existed. miss stanhope, however, had tact enough to make herself and her father's house very agreeable to mrs. bold. there was with them all an absence of stiffness and formality which was peculiarly agreeable to eleanor after the great dose of clerical arrogance which she had lately been constrained to take. she played chess with them, walked with them, and drank tea with them; studied or pretended to study astronomy; assisted them in writing stories in rhyme, in turning prose tragedy into comic verse, or comic stories into would-be tragic poetry. she had no idea before that she had any such talents. she had not conceived the possibility of her doing such things as she now did. she found with the stanhopes new amusements and employments, new pursuits, which in themselves could not be wrong, and which were exceedingly alluring. is it not a pity that people who are bright and clever should so often be exceedingly improper, and that those who are never improper should so often be dull and heavy? now charlotte stanhope was always bright and never heavy, but then her propriety was doubtful. but during all this time eleanor by no means forgot mr. arabin, nor did she forget mr. slope. she had parted from mr. arabin in her anger. she was still angry at what she regarded as his impertinent interference, but nevertheless she looked forward to meeting him again, and also looked forward to forgiving him. the words that mr. arabin had uttered still sounded in her ears. she knew that if not intended for a declaration of love, they did signify that he loved her, and she felt also that if he ever did make such a declaration, it might be that she should not receive it unkindly. she was still angry with him, very angry with him; so angry that she would bite her lip and stamp her foot as she thought of what he had said and done. nevertheless, she yearned to let him know that he was forgiven; all that she required was that he should own that he had sinned. she was to meet him at ullathorne on the last day of the present month. miss thorne had invited all the country round to a breakfast on the lawn. there were to be tents, and archery, and dancing for the ladies on the lawn and for the swains and girls in the paddock. there were to be fiddlers and fifers, races for the boys, poles to be climbed, ditches full of water to be jumped over, horse-collars to be grinned through (this latter amusement was an addition of the stewards, and not arranged by miss thorne in the original programme), and every game to be played which, in a long course of reading, miss thorne could ascertain to have been played in the good days of queen elizabeth. everything of more modern growth was to be tabooed, if possible. on one subject miss thorne was very unhappy. she had been turning in her mind the matter of a bull-ring, but could not succeed in making anything of it. she would not for the world have done, or allowed to be done, anything that was cruel; as to the promoting the torture of a bull for the amusement of her young neighbours, it need hardly be said that miss thorne would be the last to think of it. and yet there was something so charming in the name. a bull-ring, however, without a bull would only be a memento of the decadence of the times, and she felt herself constrained to abandon the idea. quintains, however, she was determined to have, and had poles and swivels and bags of flour prepared accordingly. she would no doubt have been anxious for something small in the way of a tournament, but, as she said to her brother, that had been tried, and the age had proved itself too decidedly inferior to its forerunners to admit of such a pastime. mr. thorne did not seem to participate much in her regret, feeling perhaps that a full suit of chain-armour would have added but little to his own personal comfort. this party at ullathorne had been planned in the first place as a sort of welcoming to mr. arabin on his entrance into st. ewold's parsonage; an intended harvest-home gala for the labourers and their wives and children had subsequently been amalgamated with it, and thus it had grown to its present dimensions. all the plumstead party had of course been asked, and at the time of the invitation eleanor had intended to have gone with her sister. now her plans were altered, and she was going with the stanhopes. the proudies were also to be there, and, as mr. slope had not been included in the invitation to the palace, the signora, whose impudence never deserted her, asked permission of miss thorne to bring him. this permission miss thorne gave, having no other alternative; but she did so with a trembling heart, fearing mr. arabin would be offended. immediately on his return she apologized, almost with tears, so dire an enmity was presumed to rage between the two gentlemen. but mr. arabin comforted her by an assurance that he should meet mr. slope with the greatest pleasure imaginable and made her promise that she would introduce them to each other. but this triumph of mr. slope's was not so agreeable to eleanor, who since her return to barchester had done her best to avoid him. she would not give way to the plumstead folk when they so ungenerously accused her of being in love with this odious man; but, nevertheless, knowing that she was so accused, she was fully alive to the expediency of keeping out of his way and dropping him by degrees. she had seen very little of him since her return. her servant had been instructed to say to all visitors that she was out. she could not bring herself to specify mr. slope particularly, and in order to avoid him she had thus debarred herself from all her friends. she had excepted charlotte stanhope and, by degrees, a few others also. once she had met him at the stanhopes', but as a rule, mr. slope's visits there were made in the morning and hers in the evening. on that one occasion charlotte had managed to preserve her from any annoyance. this was very good-natured on the part of charlotte, as eleanor thought, and also very sharp-witted, as eleanor had told her friend nothing of her reasons for wishing to avoid that gentleman. the fact, however, was that charlotte had learnt from her sister that mr. slope would probably put himself forward as a suitor for the widow's hand, and she was consequently sufficiently alive to the expediency of guarding bertie's future wife from any danger in that quarter. nevertheless the stanhopes were pledged to take mr. slope with them to ullathorne. an arrangement was therefore necessarily made, which was very disagreeable to eleanor. dr. stanhope, with herself, charlotte, and mr. slope, were to go together, and bertie was to follow with his sister madeline. it was clearly visible by eleanor's face that this assortment was very disagreeable to her, and charlotte, who was much encouraged thereby in her own little plan, made a thousand apologies. "i see you don't like it, my dear," said she, "but we could not manage otherwise. bertie would give his eyes to go with you, but madeline cannot possibly go without him. nor could we possibly put mr. slope and madeline in the same carriage without anyone else. they'd both be ruined forever, you know, and not admitted inside ullathorne gates, i should imagine, after such an impropriety." "of course that wouldn't do," said eleanor, "but couldn't i go in the carriage with the signora and your brother?" "impossible!" said charlotte. "when she is there, there is only room for two." the signora, in truth, did not care to do her travelling in the presence of strangers. "well, then," said eleanor, "you are all so kind, charlotte, and so good to me that i am sure you won't be offended, but i think i'll not go at all." "not go at all!--what nonsense!--indeed you shall." it had been absolutely determined in family counsel that bertie should propose on that very occasion. "or i can take a fly," said eleanor. "you know i am not embarrassed by so many difficulties as you young ladies; i can go alone." "nonsense, my dear! don't think of such a thing; after all, it is only for an hour or so; and, to tell the truth, i don't know what it is you dislike so. i thought you and mr. slope were great friends. what is it you dislike?" "oh, nothing particular," said eleanor; "only i thought it would be a family party." "of course it would be much nicer, much more snug, if bertie could go with us. it is he that is badly treated. i can assure you he is much more afraid of mr. slope than you are. but you see madeline cannot go out without him--and she, poor creature, goes out so seldom! i am sure you don't begrudge her this, though her vagary does knock about our own party a little." of course eleanor made a thousand protestations and uttered a thousand hopes that madeline would enjoy herself. and of course she had to give way and undertake to go in the carriage with mr. slope. in fact, she was driven either to do this or to explain why she would not do so. now she could not bring herself to explain to charlotte stanhope all that had passed at plumstead. but it was to her a sore necessity. she thought of a thousand little schemes for avoiding it; she would plead illness and not go at all; she would persuade mary bold to go, although not asked, and then make a necessity of having a carriage of her own to take her sister-in-law; anything, in fact, she could do, rather than be seen by mr. arabin getting out of the same carriage with mr. slope. however, when the momentous morning came, she had no scheme matured, and then mr. slope handed her into dr. stanhope's carriage and, following her steps, sat opposite to her. the bishop returned on the eve of the ullathorne party, and was received at home with radiant smiles by the partner of all his cares. on his arrival he crept up to his dressing-room with somewhat of a palpitating heart; he had overstayed his alloted time by three days, and was not without much fear of penalties. nothing, however, could be more affectionately cordial than the greeting he received; the girls came out and kissed him in a manner that was quite soothing to his spirit; and mrs. proudie, "albeit, unused to the melting mood," squeezed him in her arms and almost in words called him her dear, darling, good, pet, little bishop. all this was a very pleasant surprise. mrs. proudie had somewhat changed her tactics; not that she had seen any cause to disapprove of her former line of conduct, but she had now brought matters to such a point that she calculated that she might safely do so. she had got the better of mr. slope, and she now thought well to show her husband that when allowed to get the better of everybody, when obeyed by him and permitted to rule over others, she would take care that he should have his reward. mr. slope had not a chance against her; not only could she stun the poor bishop by her midnight anger, but she could assuage and soothe him, if she so willed, by daily indulgences. she could furnish his room for him, turn him out as smart a bishop as any on the bench, give him good dinners, warm fires, and an easy life--all this she would do if he would but be quietly obedient. but, if not,--! to speak sooth, however, his sufferings on that dreadful night had been so poignant as to leave him little spirit for further rebellion. as soon as he had dressed himself, she returned to his room. "i hope you enjoyed yourself at ----," said she, seating herself on one side of the fire while he remained in his armchair on the other, stroking the calves of his legs. it was the first time he had had a fire in his room since the summer, and it pleased him, for the good bishop loved to be warm and cosy. yes, he said, he had enjoyed himself very much. nothing could be more polite than the archbishop, and mrs. archbishop had been equally charming. mrs. proudie was delighted to hear it; nothing, she declared, pleased her so much as to think her bairn respectit like the lave. she did not put it precisely in these words, but what she said came to the same thing; and then, having petted and fondled her little man sufficiently, she proceeded to business. "the poor dean is still alive," said she. "so i hear, so i hear," said the bishop. "i'll go to the deanery directly after breakfast to-morrow." "we are going to this party at ullathorne to-morrow morning, my dear; we must be there early, you know--by twelve o'clock i suppose." "oh--ah!" said the bishop; "then i'll certainly call the next day." "was much said about it at ----?" asked mrs. proudie. "about what?" said the bishop. "filling up the dean's place," said mrs. proudie. as she spoke, a spark of the wonted fire returned to her eye, and the bishop felt himself to be a little less comfortable than before. "filling up the dean's place; that is, if the dean dies? very little, my dear. it was mentioned, just mentioned." "and what did you say about it, bishop?" "why, i said that i thought that if, that is, should--should the dean die, that is, i said i thought--" as he went on stammering and floundering, he saw that his wife's eye was fixed sternly on him. why should he encounter such evil for a man whom he loved so slightly as mr. slope? why should he give up his enjoyments and his ease and such dignity as might be allowed to him to fight a losing battle for a chaplain? the chaplain, after all, if successful, would be as great a tyrant as his wife. why fight at all? why contend? why be uneasy? from that moment he determined to fling mr. slope to the winds and take the goods the gods provided. "i am told," said mrs. proudie, speaking very slowly, "that mr. slope is looking to be the new dean." "yes--certainly, i believe he is," said the bishop. "and what does the archbishop say about that?" asked mrs. proudie. "well, my dear, to tell the truth, i promised mr. slope to speak to the archbishop. mr. slope spoke to me about it. it is very arrogant of him, i must say--but that is nothing to me." "arrogant!" said mrs. proudie; "it is the most impudent piece of pretension i ever heard of in my life. mr. slope dean of barchester, indeed! and what did you do in the matter, bishop?" "why, my dear, i did speak to the archbishop." "you don't mean to tell me," said mrs. proudie, "that you are going to make yourself ridiculous by lending your name to such a preposterous attempt as this? mr. slope dean of barchester, indeed!" and she tossed her head and put her arms akimbo with an air of confident defiance that made her husband quite sure that mr. slope never would be dean of barchester. in truth, mrs. proudie was all but invincible; had she married petruchio, it may be doubted whether that arch wife-tamer would have been able to keep her legs out of those garments which are presumed by men to be peculiarly unfitted for feminine use. "it is preposterous, my dear." "then why have you endeavoured to assist him?" "why--my dear, i haven't assisted him--much." "but why have you done it at all? why have you mixed your name up in anything so ridiculous? what was it you did say to the archbishop?" "why, i just did mention it; i just did say that--that in the event of the poor dean's death, mr. slope would--would--" "would what?" "i forget how i put it--would take it if he could get it; something of that sort. i didn't say much more than that." "you shouldn't have said anything at all. and what did the archbishop say?" "he didn't say anything; he just bowed and rubbed his hands. somebody else came up at the moment, and as we were discussing the new parochial universal school committee, the matter of the new dean dropped; after that i didn't think it wise to renew it." "renew it! i am very sorry you ever mentioned it. what will the archbishop think of you?" "you may be sure, my dear, the archbishop thought very little about it." "but why did you think about it, bishop? how could you think of making such a creature as that dean of barchester? dean of barchester! i suppose he'll be looking for a bishopric some of these days--a man that hardly knows who his own father was; a man that i found without bread to his mouth or a coat to his back. dean of barchester, indeed! i'll dean him." mrs. proudie considered herself to be in politics a pure whig; all her family belonged to the whig party. now, among all ranks of englishmen and englishwomen (mrs. proudie should, i think, be ranked among the former on the score of her great strength of mind), no one is so hostile to lowly born pretenders to high station as the pure whig. the bishop thought it necessary to exculpate himself. "why, my dear," said he, "it appeared to me that you and mr. slope did not get on quite so well as you used to do!" "get on!" said mrs. proudie, moving her foot uneasily on the hearth-rug and compressing her lips in a manner that betokened much danger to the subject of their discourse. "i began to find that he was objectionable to you"--mrs. proudie's foot worked on the hearth-rug with great rapidity--"and that you would be more comfortable if he was out of the palace"--mrs. proudie smiled, as a hyena may probably smile before he begins his laugh--"and therefore i thought that if he got this place, and so ceased to be my chaplain, you might be pleased at such an arrangement." and then the hyena laughed out. pleased at such an arrangement! pleased at having her enemy converted into a dean with twelve hundred a year! medea, when she describes the customs of her native country (i am quoting from robson's edition), assures her astonished auditor that in her land captives, when taken, are eaten. "you pardon them?" says medea. "we do indeed," says the mild grecian. "we eat them!" says she of colchis, with terrific energy. mrs. proudie was the medea of barchester; she had no idea of not eating mr. slope. pardon him! merely get rid of him! make a dean of him! it was not so they did with their captives in her country, among people of her sort! mr. slope had no such mercy to expect; she would pick him to the very last bone. "oh, yes, my dear, of course he'll cease to be your chaplain," said she. "after what has passed, that must be a matter of course. i couldn't for a moment think of living in the same house with such a man. besides, he has shown himself quite unfit for such a situation; making broils and quarrels among the clergy; getting you, my dear, into scrapes; and taking upon himself as though he were as good as bishop himself. of course he'll go. but because he leaves the palace, that is no reason why he should get into the deanery." "oh, of course not!" said the bishop; "but to save appearances, you know, my dear--" "i don't want to save appearances; i want mr. slope to appear just what he is--a false, designing, mean, intriguing man. i have my eye on him; he little knows what i see. he is misconducting himself in the most disgraceful way with that lame italian woman. that family is a disgrace to barchester, and mr. slope is a disgrace to barchester. if he doesn't look well to it, he'll have his gown stripped off his back instead of having a dean's hat on his head. dean, indeed! the man has gone mad with arrogance." the bishop said nothing further to excuse either himself or his chaplain, and having shown himself passive and docile, was again taken into favour. they soon went to dinner, and he spent the pleasantest evening he had had in his own house for a long time. his daughter played and sang to him as he sipped his coffee and read his newspaper, and mrs. proudie asked good-natured little questions about the archbishop; and then he went happily to bed and slept as quietly as though mrs. proudie had been griselda herself. while shaving himself in the morning and preparing for the festivities of ullathorne, he fully resolved to run no more tilts against a warrior so fully armed at all points as was mrs. proudie. chapter xxxiv oxford--the master and tutor of lazarus mr. arabin, as we have said, had but a sad walk of it under the trees of plumstead churchyard. he did not appear to any of the family till dinner-time, and then he seemed, as far as their judgement went, to be quite himself. he had, as was his wont, asked himself a great many questions and given himself a great many answers; and the upshot of this was that he had sent himself down for an ass. he had determined that he was much too old and much too rusty to commence the manoeuvres of love-making; that he had let the time slip through his hands which should have been used for such purposes; and that now he must lie on his bed as he had made it. then he asked himself whether in truth he did love this woman; and he answered himself, not without a long struggle, but at last honestly, that he certainly did love her. he then asked himself whether he did not also love her money, and he again answered himself that he did so. but here he did not answer honestly. it was and ever had been his weakness to look for impure motives for his own conduct. no doubt, circumstanced as he was, with a small living and a fellowship, accustomed as he had been to collegiate luxuries and expensive comforts, he might have hesitated to marry a penniless woman had he felt ever so strong a predilection for the woman herself; no doubt eleanor's fortune put all such difficulties out of the question; but it was equally without doubt that his love for her had crept upon him without the slightest idea on his part that he could ever benefit his own condition by sharing her wealth. when he had stood on the hearth-rug, counting the pattern and counting also the future chances of his own life, the remembrances of mrs. bold's comfortable income had certainly not damped his first assured feeling of love for her. and why should it have done so? need it have done so with the purest of men? be that as it may, mr. arabin decided against himself; he decided that it had done so in his case, and that he was not the purest of men. he also decided, which was more to his purpose, that eleanor did not care a straw for him, and that very probably she did care a straw for his rival. then he made up his mind not to think of her any more, and went on thinking of her till he was almost in a state to drown himself in the little brook which ran at the bottom of the archdeacon's grounds. and ever and again his mind would revert to the signora neroni, and he would make comparisons between her and eleanor bold, not always in favour of the latter. the signora had listened to him, and flattered him, and believed in him; at least she had told him so. mrs. bold had also listened to him, but had never flattered him; had not always believed in him; and now had broken from him in violent rage. the signora, too, was the more lovely woman of the two, and had also the additional attraction of her affliction--for to him it was an attraction. but he never could have loved the signora neroni as he felt that he now loved eleanor; and so he flung stones into the brook, instead of flinging in himself, and sat down on its margin as sad a gentleman as you shall meet in a summer's day. he heard the dinner-bell ring from the churchyard, and he knew that it was time to recover his self-possession. he felt that he was disgracing himself in his own eyes, that he had been idling his time and neglecting the high duties which he had taken upon himself to perform. he should have spent this afternoon among the poor at st. ewold's, instead of wandering about at plumstead, an ancient, love-lorn swain, dejected and sighing, full of imaginary sorrows and wertherian grief. he was thoroughly ashamed of himself, and determined to lose no time in retrieving his character, so damaged in his own eyes. thus when he appeared at dinner he was as animated as ever and was the author of most of the conversation which graced the archdeacon's board on that evening. mr. harding was ill at ease and sick at heart, and did not care to appear more comfortable than he really was; what little he did say was said to his daughter. he thought that the archdeacon and mr. arabin had leagued together against eleanor's comfort, and his wish now was to break away from the pair and undergo in his barchester lodgings whatever fate had in store for him. he hated the name of the hospital; his attempt to regain his lost inheritance there had brought upon him so much suffering. as far as he was concerned, mr. quiverful was now welcome to the place. and the archdeacon was not very lively. the poor dean's illness was of course discussed in the first place. dr. grantly did not mention mr. slope's name in connexion with the expected event of dr. trefoil's death; he did not wish to say anything about mr. slope just at present, nor did he wish to make known his sad surmises; but the idea that his enemy might possibly become dean of barchester made him very gloomy. should such an event take place, such a dire catastrophe come about, there would be an end to his life as far as his life was connected with the city of barchester. he must give up all his old haunts, all his old habits, and live quietly as a retired rector at plumstead. it had been a severe trial for him to have dr. proudie in the palace, but with mr. slope also in the deanery he felt that he should be unable to draw his breath in barchester close. thus it came to pass that in spite of the sorrow at his heart, mr. arabin was apparently the gayest of the party. both mr. harding and mrs. grantly were in a slight degree angry with him on account of his want of gloom. to the one it appeared as though he were triumphing at eleanor's banishment, and to the other that he was not affected as he should have been by all the sad circumstances of the day--eleanor's obstinacy, mr. slope's success, and the poor dean's apoplexy. and so they were all at cross-purposes. mr. harding left the room almost together with the ladies, and then the archdeacon opened his heart to mr. arabin. he still harped upon the hospital. "what did that fellow mean," said he, "by saying in his letter to mrs. bold that if mr. harding would call on the bishop, it would be all right? of course i would not be guided by anything he might say, but still it may be well that mr. harding should see the bishop. it would be foolish to let the thing slip through our fingers because mrs. bold is determined to make a fool of herself." mr. arabin hinted that he was not quite so sure that mrs. bold would make a fool of herself. he said that he was not convinced that she did regard mr. slope so warmly as she was supposed to do. the archdeacon questioned and cross-questioned him about this, but elicited nothing, and at last remained firm in his own conviction that he was destined, _malgré lui_, to be the brother-in-law of mr. slope. mr. arabin strongly advised that mr. harding should take no step regarding the hospital in connexion with, or in consequence of, mr. slope's letter. "if the bishop really means to confer the appointment on mr. harding," argued mr. arabin, "he will take care to let him have some other intimation than a message conveyed through a letter to a lady. were mr. harding to present himself at the palace, he might merely be playing mr. slope's game;" and thus it was settled that nothing should be done till the great dr. gwynne's arrival, or at any rate without that potentate's sanction. it was droll to observe how these men talked of mr. harding as though he were a puppet, and planned their intrigues and small ecclesiastical manoeuvres in reference to mr. harding's future position without dreaming of taking him into their confidence. there was a comfortable house and income in question, and it was very desirable, and certainly very just, that mr. harding should have them; but that at present was not the main point; it was expedient to beat the bishop and, if possible, to smash mr. slope. mr. slope had set up, or was supposed to have set up, a rival candidate. of all things the most desirable would have been to have had mr. quiverful's appointment published to the public and then annulled by the clamour of an indignant world, loud in the defence of mr. harding's rights. but of such an event the chance was small; a slight fraction only of the world would be indignant, and that fraction would be one not accustomed to loud speaking. and then the preferment had, in a sort of way, been offered to mr. harding and had, in a sort of way, been refused by him. mr. slope's wicked, cunning hand had been peculiarly conspicuous in the way in which this had been brought to pass, and it was the success of mr. slope's cunning which was so painfully grating to the feelings of the archdeacon. that which of all things he most dreaded was that he should be outgeneralled by mr. slope; and just at present it appeared probable that mr. slope would turn his flank, steal a march on him, cut off his provisions, carry his strong town by a _coup de main_, and at last beat him thoroughly in a regular pitched battle. the archdeacon felt that his flank had been turned when desired to wait on mr. slope instead of the bishop, that a march had been stolen when mr. harding was induced to refuse the bishop's offer, that his provisions would be cut off when mr. quiverful got the hospital, that eleanor was the strong town doomed to be taken, and that mr. slope, as dean of barchester, would be regarded by all the world as conqueror in the final conflict. dr. gwynne was the _deus ex machina_ who was to come down upon the barchester stage and bring about deliverance from these terrible evils. but how can melodramatic _dénouements_ be properly brought about, how can vice and mr. slope be punished, and virtue and the archdeacon be rewarded, while the avenging god is laid up with the gout? in the mean time evil may be triumphant, and poor innocence, transfixed to the earth by an arrow from dr. proudie's quiver, may lie dead upon the ground, not to be resuscitated even by dr. gwynne. two or three days after eleanor's departure, mr. arabin went to oxford and soon found himself closeted with the august head of his college. it was quite clear that dr. gwynne was not very sanguine as to the effects of his journey to barchester, and not over-anxious to interfere with the bishop. he had had the gout, but was very nearly convalescent, and mr. arabin at once saw that had the mission been one of which the master thoroughly approved, he would before this have been at plumstead. as it was, dr. gwynne was resolved on visiting his friend, and willingly promised to return to barchester with mr. arabin. he could not bring himself to believe that there was any probability that mr. slope would be made dean of barchester. rumour, he said, had reached even his ears, not at all favourable to that gentleman's character, and he expressed himself strongly of opinion that any such appointment was quite out of the question. at this stage of the proceedings, the master's right-hand man, tom staple, was called in to assist at the conference. tom staple was the tutor of lazarus and, moreover, a great man at oxford. though universally known by a species of nomenclature so very undignified, tom staple was one who maintained a high dignity in the university. he was, as it were, the leader of the oxford tutors, a body of men who consider themselves collectively as being by very little, if at all, second in importance to the heads themselves. it is not always the case that the master, or warden, or provost, or principal can hit it off exactly with his tutor. a tutor is by no means indisposed to have a will of his own. but at lazarus they were great friends and firm allies at the time of which we are writing. tom staple was a hale, strong man of about forty-five, short in stature, swarthy in face, with strong, sturdy black hair and crisp black beard of which very little was allowed to show itself in shape of whiskers. he always wore a white neckcloth, clean indeed, but not tied with that scrupulous care which now distinguishes some of our younger clergy. he was, of course, always clothed in a seemly suit of solemn black. mr. staple was a decent cleanly liver, not over-addicted to any sensuality; but nevertheless a somewhat warmish hue was beginning to adorn his nose, the peculiar effect, as his friends averred, of a certain pipe of port introduced into the cellars of lazarus the very same year in which the tutor entered it as a freshman. there was also, perhaps, a little redolence of port wine, as it were the slightest possible twang, in mr. staple's voice. in these latter days tom staple was not a happy man; university reform had long been his bugbear, and now was his bane. it was not with him, as with most others, an affair of politics, respecting which, when the need existed, he could, for parties' sake or on behalf of principle, maintain a certain amount of necessary zeal; it was not with him a subject for dilettante warfare and courteous, commonplace opposition. to him it was life and death. the _status quo_ of the university was his only idea of life, and any reformation was as bad to him as death. he would willingly have been a martyr in the cause, had the cause admitted of martyrdom. at the present day, unfortunately, public affairs will allow of no martyrs, and therefore it is that there is such a deficiency of zeal. could gentlemen of £ , a year have died on their own door-steps in defence of protection, no doubt some half-dozen glorious old baronets would have so fallen, and the school of protection would at this day have been crowded with scholars. who can fight strenuously in any combat in which there is no danger? tom staple would have willingly been impaled before a committee of the house, could he by such self-sacrifice have infused his own spirit into the component members of the hebdomadal board. tom staple was one of those who in his heart approved of the credit system which had of old been in vogue between the students and tradesmen of the university. he knew and acknowledged to himself that it was useless in these degenerate days publicly to contend with "the jupiter" on such a subject. "the jupiter" had undertaken to rule the university, and tom staple was well aware that "the jupiter" was too powerful for him. but in secret, and among his safe companions, he would argue that the system of credit was an ordeal good for young men to undergo. the bad men, said he, the weak and worthless, blunder into danger and burn their feet; but the good men, they who have any character, they who have that within them which can reflect credit on their alma mater, they come through scatheless. what merit will there be to a young man to get through safely, if he be guarded and protected and restrained like a schoolboy? by so doing, the period of the ordeal is only postponed, and the manhood of the man will be deferred from the age of twenty to that of twenty-four. if you bind him with leading-strings at college, he will break loose while eating for the bar in london; bind him there, and he will break loose afterwards, when he is a married man. the wild oats must be sown somewhere. 'twas thus that tom staple would argue of young men, not, indeed, with much consistency, but still with some practical knowledge of the subject gathered from long experience. and now tom staple proffered such wisdom as he had for the assistance of dr. gwynne and mr. arabin. "quite out of the question," said he, arguing that mr. slope could not possibly be made the new dean of barchester. "so i think," said the master. "he has no standing, and, if all i hear be true, very little character." "as to character," said tom staple, "i don't think much of that. they rather like loose parsons for deans; a little fast living, or a dash of infidelity, is no bad recommendation to a cathedral close. but they couldn't make mr. slope; the last two deans have been cambridge men; you'll not show me an instance of their making three men running from the same university. we don't get our share and never shall, i suppose, but we must at least have one out of three." "those sort of rules are all gone by now," said mr. arabin. "everything has gone by, i believe," said tom staple. "the cigar has been smoked out, and we are the ashes." "speak for yourself, staple," said the master. "i speak for all," said the tutor stoutly. "it is coming to that, that there will be no life left anywhere in the country. no one is any longer fit to rule himself, or those belonging to him. the government is to find us all in everything, and the press is to find the government. nevertheless, mr. slope won't be dean of barchester." "and who will be warden of the hospital?" said mr. arabin. "i hear that mr. quiverful is already appointed," said tom staple. "i think not," said the master. "and i think, moreover, that dr. proudie will not be so short-sighted as to run against such a rock: mr. slope should himself have sense enough to prevent it." "but perhaps mr. slope may have no objection to see his patron on a rock," said the suspicious tutor. "what could he get by that?" asked mr. arabin. "it is impossible to see the doubles of such a man," said mr. staple. "it seems quite clear that bishop proudie is altogether in his hands, and it is equally clear that he has been moving heaven and earth to get this mr. quiverful into the hospital, although he must know that such an appointment would be most damaging to the bishop. it is impossible to understand such a man, and dreadful to think," added tom staple, sighing deeply, "that the welfare and fortunes of good men may depend on his intrigues." dr. gwynne or mr. staple were not in the least aware, nor even was mr. arabin, that this mr. slope, of whom they were talking, had been using his utmost efforts to put their own candidate into the hospital, and that in lieu of being permanent in the palace, his own expulsion therefrom had been already decided on by the high powers of the diocese. "i'll tell you what," said the tutor, "if this quiverful is thrust into the hospital and dr. trefoil does die, i should not wonder if the government were to make mr. harding dean of barchester. they would feel bound to do something for him after all that was said when he resigned." dr. gwynne at the moment made no reply to this suggestion, but it did not the less impress itself on his mind. if mr. harding could not be warden of the hospital, why should he not be dean of barchester? and so the conference ended without any very fixed resolution, and dr. gwynne and mr. arabin prepared for their journey to plumstead on the morrow. chapter xxxv miss thorne's fête champêtre the day of the ullathorne party arrived, and all the world were there--or at least so much of the world as had been included in miss thorne's invitation. as we have said, the bishop returned home on the previous evening, and on the same evening and by the same train came dr. gwynne and mr. arabin from oxford. the archdeacon with his brougham was in waiting for the master of lazarus, so that there was a goodly show of church dignitaries on the platform of the railway. the stanhope party was finally arranged in the odious manner already described, and eleanor got into the doctor's carriage full of apprehension and presentiment of further misfortune, whereas mr. slope entered the vehicle elate with triumph. he had received that morning a very civil note from sir nicholas fitzwhiggin, not promising much, indeed, but then mr. slope knew, or fancied that he knew, that it was not etiquette for government officers to make promises. though sir nicholas promised nothing he implied a good deal, declared his conviction that mr. slope would make an excellent dean, and wished him every kind of success. to be sure he added that, not being in the cabinet, he was never consulted on such matters, and that even if he spoke on the subject, his voice would go for nothing. but all this mr. slope took for the prudent reserve of official life. to complete his anticipated triumphs, another letter was brought to him just as he was about to start to ullathorne. mr. slope also enjoyed the idea of handing mrs. bold out of dr. stanhope's carriage before the multitude at ullathorne gate as much as eleanor dreaded the same ceremony. he had fully made up his mind to throw himself and his fortune at the widow's feet, and had almost determined to select the present propitious morning for doing so. the signora had of late been less than civil to him. she had indeed admitted his visits and listened, at any rate without anger, to his love, but she had tortured him and reviled him, jeered at him and ridiculed him, while she allowed him to call her the most beautiful of living women, to kiss her hand, and to proclaim himself with reiterated oaths her adorer, her slave and worshipper. miss thorne was in great perturbation, yet in great glory, on the morning of the gala day. mr. thorne also, though the party was none of his giving, had much heavy work on his hands. but perhaps the most overtasked, the most anxious, and the most effective of all the ullathorne household was mr. plomacy, the steward. this last personage had, in the time of mr. thorne's father, when the directory held dominion in france, gone over to paris with letters in his boot-heel for some of the royal party, and such had been his good luck that he had returned safe. he had then been very young and was now very old, but the exploit gave him a character for political enterprise and secret discretion which still availed him as thoroughly as it had done in its freshest gloss. mr. plomacy had been steward of ullathorne for more than fifty years, and a very easy life he had had of it. who could require much absolute work from a man who had carried safely at his heel that which, if discovered, would have cost him his head? consequently mr. plomacy had never worked hard, and of latter years had never worked at all. he had a taste for timber, and therefore he marked the trees that were to be cut down; he had a taste for gardening, and would therefore allow no shrub to be planted or bed to be made without his express sanction. in these matters he was sometimes driven to run counter to his mistress, but he rarely allowed his mistress to carry the point against him. but on occasions such as the present mr. plomacy came out strong. he had the honour of the family at heart; he thoroughly appreciated the duties of hospitality; and therefore, when gala doings were going on, he always took the management into his own hands and reigned supreme over master and mistress. to give mr. plomacy his due, old as he was, he thoroughly understood such work as he had in hand, and did it well. the order of the day was to be as follows. the quality, as the upper classes in rural districts are designated by the lower with so much true discrimination, were to eat a breakfast, and the non-quality were to eat a dinner. two marquees had been erected for these two banquets: that for the quality on the esoteric or garden side of a certain deep ha-ha; and that for the non-quality on the exoteric or paddock side of the same. both were of huge dimensions--that on the outer side was, one may say, on an egregious scale--but mr. plomacy declared that neither would be sufficient. to remedy this, an auxiliary banquet was prepared in the dining-room, and a subsidiary board was to be spread _sub dio_ for the accommodation of the lower class of yokels on the ullathorne property. no one who has not had a hand in the preparation of such an affair can understand the manifold difficulties which miss thorne encountered in her project. had she not been made throughout of the very finest whalebone, riveted with the best yorkshire steel, she must have sunk under them. had not mr. plomacy felt how much was justly expected from a man who at one time carried the destinies of europe in his boot, he would have given way, and his mistress, so deserted, must have perished among her poles and canvas. in the first place there was a dreadful line to be drawn. who were to dispose themselves within the ha-ha, and who without? to this the unthinking will give an off-hand answer, as they will to every ponderous question. oh, the bishop and such-like within the ha-ha, and farmer greenacre and such-like without. true, my unthinking friend, but who shall define these such-likes? it is in such definitions that the whole difficulty of society consists. to seat the bishop on an arm-chair on the lawn and place farmer greenacre at the end of a long table in the paddock is easy enough, but where will you put mrs. lookaloft, whose husband, though a tenant on the estate, hunts in a red coat, whose daughters go to a fashionable seminary in barchester, who calls her farm-house rosebank, and who has a pianoforte in her drawing-room? the misses lookaloft, as they call themselves, won't sit contented among the bumpkins. mrs. lookaloft won't squeeze her fine clothes on a bench and talk familiarly about cream and ducklings to good mrs. greenacre. and yet mrs. lookaloft is no fit companion and never has been the associate of the thornes and the grantlys. and if mrs. lookaloft be admitted within the sanctum of fashionable life, if she be allowed with her three daughters to leap the ha-ha, why not the wives and daughters of other families also? mrs. greenacre is at present well contented with the paddock, but she might cease to be so if she saw mrs. lookaloft on the lawn. and thus poor miss thorne had a hard time of it. and how was she to divide her guests between the marquee and the parlour? she had a countess coming, an honourable john and an honourable george, and a whole bevy of ladies amelia, rosina, margaretta, &c; she had a leash of baronets with their baronettes; and, as we all know, she had a bishop. if she put them on the lawn, no one would go into the parlour; if she put them into the parlour, no one would go into the tent. she thought of keeping the old people in the house and leaving the lawn to the lovers. she might as well have seated herself at once in a hornet's nest. mr. plomacy knew better than this. "bless your soul, ma'am," said he, "there won't be no old ladies--not one, barring yourself and old mrs. clantantram." personally miss thorne accepted this distinction in her favour as a compliment to her good sense, but nevertheless she had no desire to be closeted on the coming occasion with mrs. clantantram. she gave up all idea of any arbitrary division of her guests and determined if possible to put the bishop on the lawn and the countess in the house, to sprinkle the baronets, and thus divide the attractions. what to do with the lookalofts even mr. plomacy could not decide. they must take their chance. they had been specially told in the invitation that all the tenants had been invited, and they might probably have the good sense to stay away if they objected to mix with the rest of the tenantry. then mr. plomacy declared his apprehension that the honourable johns and honourable georges would come in a sort of amphibious costume, half-morning, half-evening, satin neck-handkerchiefs, frock-coats, primrose gloves, and polished boots; and that, being so dressed, they would decline riding at the quintain, or taking part in any of the athletic games which miss thorne had prepared with so much fond care. if the lord johns and lord georges didn't ride at the quintain, miss thorne might be sure that nobody else would. "but," said she in dolorous voice, all but overcome by her cares, "it was specially signified that there were to be sports." "and so there will be, of course," said mr. plomacy. "they'll all be sporting with the young ladies in the laurel walks. them's the sports they care most about now-a-days. if you gets the young men at the quintain, you'll have all the young women in the pouts." "can't they look on as their great grandmothers did before them?" said miss thorne. "it seems to me that the ladies ain't contented with looking now-a-days. whatever the men do they'll do. if you'll have side-saddles on the nags; and let them go at the quintain too, it'll answer capital, no doubt." miss thorne made no reply. she felt that she had no good ground on which to defend her sex of the present generation from the sarcasm of mr. plomacy. she had once declared, in one of her warmer moments, "that now-a-days the gentlemen were all women, and the ladies all men." she could not alter the debased character of the age. but, such being the case, why should she take on herself to cater for the amusement of people of such degraded tastes? this question she asked herself more than once, and she could only answer herself with a sigh. there was her own brother wilfred, on whose shoulders rested all the ancient honours of ullathorne house; it was very doubtful whether even he would consent to "go at the quintain," as mr. plomacy not injudiciously expressed it. and now the morning arrived. the ullathorne household was early on the move. cooks were cooking in the kitchen long before daylight, and men were dragging out tables and hammering red baize on to benches at the earliest dawn. with what dread eagerness did miss thorne look out at the weather as soon as the parting veil of night permitted her to look at all! in this respect, at any rate, there was nothing to grieve her. the glass had been rising for the last three days, and the morning broke with that dull, chill, steady, grey haze which in autumn generally presages a clear and dry day. by seven she was dressed and down. miss thorne knew nothing of the modern luxury of _déshabilles_. she would as soon have thought of appearing before her brother without her stockings as without her stays--and miss thorne's stays were no trifle. and yet there was nothing for her to do when down. she fidgeted out to the lawn and then back into the kitchen. she put on her high-heeled clogs and fidgeted out into the paddock. then she went into the small home park where the quintain was erected. the pole and cross-bar and the swivel and the target and the bag of flour were all complete. she got up on a carpenter's bench and touched the target with her hand; it went round with beautiful ease; the swivel had been oiled to perfection. she almost wished to take old plomacy at his word, to get on a side-saddle and have a tilt at it herself. what must a young man be, thought she, who could prefer maundering among laurel trees with a wishy-washy school-girl to such fun as this? "well," said she aloud to herself, "one man can take a horse to water, but a thousand can't make him drink. there it is. if they haven't the spirit to enjoy it, the fault shan't be mine;" and so she returned to the house. at a little after eight her brother came down, and they had a sort of scrap breakfast in his study. the tea was made without the customary urn, and they dispensed with the usual rolls and toast. eggs also were missing, for every egg in the parish had been whipped into custards, baked into pies, or boiled into lobster salad. the allowance of fresh butter was short, and mr. thorne was obliged to eat the leg of a fowl without having it devilled in the manner he loved. "i have been looking at the quintain, wilfred," said she, "and it appears to be quite right." "oh--ah, yes," said he. "it seemed to be so yesterday when i saw it." mr. thorne was beginning to be rather bored by his sister's love of sports, and had especially no affection for this quintain post. "i wish you'd just try it after breakfast," said she. "you could have the saddle put on mark antony, and the pole is there all handy. you can take the flour bag off, you know, if you think mark antony won't be quick enough," added miss thorne, seeing that her brother's countenance was not indicative of complete accordance with her little proposition. now mark antony was a valuable old hunter, excellently suited to mr. thorne's usual requirements, steady indeed at his fences, but extremely sure, very good in deep ground, and safe on the roads. but he had never yet been ridden at a quintain, and mr. thorne was not inclined to put him to the trial, either with or without the bag of flour. he hummed and hawed and finally declared that he was afraid mark antony would shy. "then try the cob," said the indefatigable miss thorne. "he's in physic," said wilfred. "there's the beelzebub colt," said his sister. "i know he's in the stable because i saw peter exercising him just now." "my dear monica, he's so wild that it's as much as i can do to manage him at all. he'd destroy himself and me, too, if i attempted to ride him at such a rattletrap as that." a rattletrap! the quintain that she had put up with so much anxious care; the game that she had prepared for the amusement of the stalwart yeomen of the country; the sport that had been honoured by the affection of so many of their ancestors! it cut her to the heart to hear it so denominated by her own brother. there were but the two of them left together in the world, and it had ever been one of the rules by which miss thorne had regulated her conduct through life to say nothing that could provoke her brother. she had often had to suffer from his indifference to time-honoured british customs, but she had always suffered in silence. it was part of her creed that the head of the family should never be upbraided in his own house, and miss thorne had lived up to her creed. now, however, she was greatly tried. the colour mounted to her ancient cheek, and the fire blazed in her still bright eyes; but yet she said nothing. she resolved that, at any rate, to him nothing more should be said about the quintain that day. she sipped her tea in silent sorrow and thought with painful regret of the glorious days when her great ancestor ealfried had successfully held ullathorne against a norman invader. there was no such spirit now left in her family except that small useless spark which burnt in her own bosom. and she herself, was not she at this moment intent on entertaining a descendant of those very normans, a vain proud countess with a frenchified name who would only think that she graced ullathorne too highly by entering its portals? was it likely that an honourable john, the son of an earl de courcy, should ride at a quintain in company with saxon yeomen? and why should she expect her brother to do that which her brother's guests would decline to do? some dim faint idea of the impracticability of her own views flitted across her brain. perhaps it was necessary that races doomed to live on the same soil should give way to each other and adopt each other's pursuits. perhaps it was impossible that after more than five centuries of close intercourse, normans should remain normans, and saxons, saxons. perhaps, after all, her neighbours were wiser than herself. such ideas did occasionally present themselves to miss thorne's mind and make her sad enough. but it never occurred to her that her favourite quintain was but a modern copy of a norman knight's amusement, an adaptation of the noble tourney to the tastes and habits of the saxon yeomen. of this she was ignorant, and it would have been cruelty to instruct her. when mr. thorne saw the tear in her eye, he repented himself of his contemptuous expression. by him also it was recognized as a binding law that every whim of his sister was to be respected. he was not perhaps so firm in his observances to her as she was in hers to him. but his intentions were equally good, and whenever he found that he had forgotten them, it was matter of grief to him. "my dear monica," said he, "i beg your pardon. i don't in the least mean to speak ill of the game. when i called it a rattletrap, i merely meant that it was so for a man of my age. you know you always forget that i an't a young man." "i am quite sure you are not an old man, wilfred," said she, accepting the apology in her heart and smiling at him with the tear still on her cheek. "if i was five-and-twenty, or thirty," continued he, "i should like nothing better than riding at the quintain all day." "but you are not too old to hunt or to shoot," said she. "if you can jump over a ditch and hedge, i am sure you could turn the quintain round." "but when i ride over the hedges, my dear--and it isn't very often i do that--but when i do ride over the hedges, there isn't any bag of flour coming after me. think how i'd look taking the countess out to breakfast with the back of my head all covered with meal." miss thorne said nothing further. she didn't like the allusion to the countess. she couldn't be satisfied with the reflection that the sports at ullathorne should be interfered with by the personal attentions necessary for a lady de courcy. but she saw that it was useless for her to push the matter further. it was conceded that mr. thorne was to be spared the quintain, and miss thorne determined to trust wholly to a youthful knight of hers, an immense favourite, who, as she often declared, was a pattern to the young men of the age and an excellent sample of an english yeoman. this was farmer greenacre's eldest son, who, to tell the truth, had from his earliest years taken the exact measure of miss thorne's foot. in his boyhood he had never failed to obtain from her apples, pocket-money, and forgiveness for his numerous trespasses; and now in his early manhood he got privileges and immunities which were equally valuable. he was allowed a day or two's shooting in september; he schooled the squire's horses; got slips of trees out of the orchard and roots of flowers out of the garden; and had the fishing of the little river altogether in his own hands. he had undertaken to come mounted on a nag of his father's and show the way at the quintain post. whatever young greenacre did the others would do after him. the juvenile lookalofts might stand aloof, but the rest of the youth of ullathorne would be sure to venture if harry greenacre showed the way. and so miss thorne made up her mind to dispense with the noble johns and georges and trust, as her ancestors had done before her, to the thews and sinews of native ullathorne growth. at about nine the lower orders began to congregate in the paddock and park, under the surveillance of mr. plomacy and the head gardener and head groom, who were sworn in as his deputies and were to assist him in keeping the peace and promoting the sports. many of the younger inhabitants of the neighbourhood, thinking that they could not have too much of a good thing, had come at a very early hour, and the road between the house and the church had been thronged for some time before the gates were thrown open. and then another difficulty of huge dimensions arose, a difficulty which mr. plomacy had indeed foreseen and for which he was in some sort provided. some of those who wished to share miss thorne's hospitality were not so particular as they should have been as to the preliminary ceremony of an invitation. they doubtless conceived that they had been overlooked by accident, and instead of taking this in dudgeon, as their betters would have done, they good-naturedly put up with the slight, and showed that they did so by presenting themselves at the gate in their sunday best. mr. plomacy, however, well-knew who were welcome and who were not. to some, even though uninvited, he allowed ingress. "don't be too particular, plomacy," his mistress had said, "especially with the children. if they live anywhere near, let them in." acting on this hint, mr. plomacy did let in many an eager urchin and a few tidily dressed girls with their swains who in no way belonged to the property. but to the denizens of the city he was inexorable. many a barchester apprentice made his appearance there that day and urged with piteous supplication that he had been working all the week in making saddles and boots for the use of ullathorne, in compounding doses for the horses, or cutting up carcasses for the kitchen. no such claim was allowed. mr. plomacy knew nothing about the city apprentices; he was to admit the tenants and labourers on the estate; miss thorne wasn't going to take in the whole city of barchester; and so on. nevertheless, before the day was half over, all this was found to be useless. almost anybody who chose to come made his way into the park, and the care of the guardians was transferred to the tables on which the banquet was spread. even here there was many an unauthorised claimant for a place, of whom it was impossible to get quit without more commotion than the place and food were worth. chapter xxxvi ullathorne sports--act i the trouble in civilized life of entertaining company, as it is called too generally without much regard to strict veracity, is so great that it cannot but be matter of wonder that people are so fond of attempting it. it is difficult to ascertain what is the _quid pro quo_. if they who give such laborious parties, and who endure such toil and turmoil in the vain hope of giving them successfully, really enjoyed the parties given by others, the matter could be understood. a sense of justice would induce men and women to undergo, in behalf of others, those miseries which others had undergone in their behalf. but they all profess that going out is as great a bore as receiving, and to look at them when they are out, one cannot but believe them. entertain! who shall have sufficient self-assurance, who shall feel sufficient confidence in his own powers to dare to boast that he can entertain his company? a clown can sometimes do so, and sometimes a dancer in short petticoats and stuffed pink legs; occasionally, perhaps, a singer. but beyond these, success in this art of entertaining is not often achieved. young men and girls linking themselves kind with kind, pairing like birds in spring because nature wills it, they, after a simple fashion, do entertain each other. few others even try. ladies, when they open their houses, modestly confessing, it may be presumed, their own incapacity, mainly trust to wax candles and upholstery. gentlemen seem to rely on their white waistcoats. to these are added, for the delight of the more sensual, champagne and such good things of the table as fashion allows to be still considered as comestible. even in this respect the world is deteriorating. all the good soups are now tabooed, and at the houses of one's accustomed friends--small barristers, doctors, government clerks, and such-like (for we cannot all of us always live as grandees, surrounded by an elysium of livery servants)--one gets a cold potato handed to one as a sort of finale to one's slice of mutton. alas for those happy days when one could say to one's neighbour, "jones, shall i give you some mashed turnip? may i trouble you for a little cabbage?" and then the pleasure of drinking wine with mrs. jones and miss smith--with all the joneses and all the smiths! these latter-day habits are certainly more economical. miss thorne, however, boldly attempted to leave the modern, beaten track, and made a positive effort to entertain her guests. alas! she did so with but moderate success. they had all their own way of going, and would not go her way. she piped to them, but they would not dance. she offered to them good, honest household cake made of currants and flour and eggs and sweetmeat, but they would feed themselves on trashy wafers from the shop of the barchester pastry-cook, on chalk and gum and adulterated sugar. poor miss thorne! yours is not the first honest soul that has vainly striven to recall the glories of happy days gone by! if fashion suggests to a lady de courcy that, when invited to a _déjeuner_ at twelve she ought to come at three, no eloquence of thine will teach her the advantage of a nearer approach to punctuality. she had fondly thought that when she called on her friends to come at twelve, and specially begged them to believe that she meant it, she would be able to see them comfortably seated in their tents at two. vain woman--or rather ignorant woman--ignorant of the advances of that civilization which the world had witnessed while she was growing old. at twelve she found herself alone, dressed in all the glory of the newest of her many suits of raiment--with strong shoes however, and a serviceable bonnet on her head, and a warm, rich shawl on her shoulders. thus clad, she peered out into the tent, went to the ha-ha, and satisfied herself that at any rate the youngsters were amusing themselves, spoke a word to mrs. greenacre over the ditch, and took one look at the quintain. three or four young farmers were turning the machine round and round and poking at the bag of flour in a manner not at all intended by the inventor of the game; but no mounted sportsmen were there. miss thorne looked at her watch. it was only fifteen minutes past twelve, and it was understood that harry greenacre was not to begin till the half-hour. miss thorne returned to her drawing-room rather quicker than was her wont, fearing that the countess might come and find none to welcome her. she need not have hurried, for no one was there. at half-past twelve she peeped into the kitchen; at a quarter to one she was joined by her brother; and just then the first fashionable arrival took place. mrs. clantantram was announced. no announcement was necessary, indeed, for the good lady's voice was heard as she walked across the courtyard to the house, scolding the unfortunate postilion who had driven her from barchester. at the moment miss thorne could not but be thankful that the other guests were more fashionable and were thus spared the fury of mrs. clantantram's indignation. "oh, miss thorne, look here!" said she as soon as she found herself in the drawing-room; "do look at my roque-laure. it's clean spoilt, and forever. i wouldn't but wear it because i knew you wished us all to be grand to-day, and yet i had my misgivings. oh dear, oh dear! it was five-and-twenty shillings a yard." the barchester post-horses had misbehaved in some unfortunate manner just as mrs. clantantram was getting out of the chaise and had nearly thrown her under the wheel. mrs. clantantram belonged to other days, and therefore, though she had but little else to recommend her, miss thorne was to a certain extent fond of her. she sent the roque-laure away to be cleaned, and lent her one of her best shawls out of her own wardrobe. the next comer was mr. arabin, who was immediately informed of mrs. clantantram's misfortune and of her determination to pay neither master nor post-boy, although, as she remarked, she intended to get her lift home before she made known her mind upon that matter. then a good deal of rustling was heard in the sort of lobby that was used for the ladies' outside cloaks, and the door having been thrown wide open, the servant announced, not in the most confident of voices, mrs. lookaloft, and the miss lookalofts, and mr. augustus lookaloft. poor man!--we mean the footman. he knew, none better, that mrs. lookaloft had no business there, that she was not wanted there, and would not be welcome. but he had not the courage to tell a stout lady with a low dress, short sleeves, and satin at eight shillings a yard that she had come to the wrong tent; he had not dared to hint to young ladies with white dancing shoes and long gloves that there was a place ready for them in the paddock. and thus mrs. lookaloft carried her point, broke through the guards, and made her way into the citadel. that she would have to pass an uncomfortable time there she had surmised before. but nothing now could rob her of the power of boasting that she had consorted on the lawn with the squire and miss thorne, with a countess, a bishop, and the county grandees, while mrs. greenacre and such-like were walking about with the ploughboys in the park. it was a great point gained by mrs. lookaloft, and it might be fairly expected that from this time forward the tradesmen of barchester would, with undoubting pens, address her husband as t. lookaloft, esquire. mrs. lookaloft's pluck carried her through everything, and she walked triumphant into the ullathorne drawing-room; but her children did feel a little abashed at the sort of reception they met with. it was not in miss thorne's heart to insult her own guests, but neither was it in her disposition to overlook such effrontery. "oh, mrs. lookaloft, is this you?" said she. "and your daughters and son? well, we're very glad to see you, but i'm sorry you've come in such low dresses, as we are all going out of doors. could we lend you anything?" "oh dear, no thank ye, miss thorne," said the mother; "the girls and myself are quite used to low dresses, when we're out." "are you, indeed?" said miss thorne shuddering--but the shudder was lost on mrs. lookaloft. "and where's lookaloft?" said the master of the house, coming up to welcome his tenant's wife. let the faults of the family be what they would, he could not but remember that their rent was well paid; he was therefore not willing to give them a cold shoulder. "such a headache, mr. thorne!" said mrs. lookaloft. "in fact he couldn't stir, or you may be certain on such a day he would not have absented hisself." "dear me," said miss thorne. "if he is so ill, i'm sure you'd wish to be with him." "not at all!" said mrs. lookaloft. "not at all, miss thorne. it is only bilious you know, and when he's that way, he can bear nobody nigh him." the fact, however, was that mr. lookaloft, having either more sense or less courage than his wife, had not chosen to intrude on miss thorne's drawing-room, and as he could not very well have gone among the plebeians while his wife was with the patricians, he thought it most expedient to remain at rosebank. mrs. lookaloft soon found herself on a sofa, and the miss lookalofts on two chairs, while mr. augustus stood near the door; and here they remained till in due time they were seated, all four together, at the bottom of the dining-room table. then the grantlys came--the archdeacon and mrs. grantly and the two girls, and dr. gwynne and mr. harding. as ill-luck would have it, they were closely followed by dr. stanhope's carriage. as eleanor looked out of the carriage window, she saw her brother-in-law helping the ladies out and threw herself back into her seat, dreading to be discovered. she had had an odious journey. mr. slope's civility had been more than ordinarily greasy; and now, though he had not in fact said anything which she could notice, she had for the first time entertained a suspicion that he was intending to make love to her. was it after all true that she had been conducting herself in a way that justified the world in thinking that she liked the man? after all, could it be possible that the archdeacon and mr. arabin were right, and that she was wrong? charlotte stanhope had also been watching mr. slope and had come to the conclusion that it behoved her brother to lose no further time, if he meant to gain the widow. she almost regretted that it had not been contrived that bertie should be at ullathorne before them. dr. grantly did not see his sister-in-law in company with mr. slope, but mr. arabin did. mr. arabin came out with mr. thorne to the front door to welcome mrs. grantly, and he remained in the courtyard till all their party had passed on. eleanor hung back in the carriage as long as she well could, but she was nearest to the door, and when mr. slope, having alighted, offered her his hand, she had no alternative but to take it. mr. arabin, standing at the open door while mrs. grantly was shaking hands with someone within, saw a clergyman alight from the carriage whom he at once knew to be mr. slope, and then he saw this clergyman hand out mrs. bold. having seen so much, mr. arabin, rather sick at heart, followed mrs. grantly into the house. eleanor was, however, spared any further immediate degradation, for dr. stanhope gave her his arm across the courtyard, and mr. slope was fain to throw away his attention upon charlotte. they had hardly passed into the house, and from the house to the lawn, when, with a loud rattle and such noise as great men and great women are entitled to make in their passage through the world, the proudies drove up. it was soon apparent that no everyday comer was at the door. one servant whispered to another that it was the bishop, and the word soon ran through all the hangers-on and strange grooms and coachmen about the place. there was quite a little cortège to see the bishop and his "lady" walk across the courtyard, and the good man was pleased to see that the church was held in such respect in the parish of st. ewold's. and now the guests came fast and thick, and the lawn began to be crowded, and the room to be full. voices buzzed, silk rustled against silk, and muslin crumpled against muslin. miss thorne became more happy than she had been, and again bethought her of her sports. there were targets and bows and arrows prepared at the further end of the lawn. here the gardens of the place encroached with a somewhat wide sweep upon the paddock and gave ample room for the doings of the toxophilites. miss thorne got together such daughters of diana as could bend a bow and marshalled them to the targets. there were the grantly girls and the proudie girls and the chadwick girls, and the two daughters of the burly chancellor, and miss knowle; and with them went frederick and augustus chadwick, and young knowle of knowle park, and frank foster of the elms, and mr. vellem deeds, the dashing attorney of the high street, and the rev. mr. green, and the rev. mr. brown, and the rev. mr. white, all of whom, as in duty bound, attended the steps of the three miss proudies. "did you ever ride at the quintain, mr. foster?" said miss thorne as she walked with her party across the lawn. "the quintain?" said young foster, who considered himself a dab at horsemanship. "is it a sort of gate, miss thorne?" miss thorne had to explain the noble game she spoke of, and frank foster had to own that he never had ridden at the quintain. "would you like to come and see?" said miss thorne. "there'll be plenty here you know without you, if you like it." "well, i don't mind," said frank. "i suppose the ladies can come too." "oh, yes," said miss thorne; "those who like it. i have no doubt they'll go to see your prowess, if you'll ride, mr. foster." mr. foster looked down at a most unexceptionable pair of pantaloons, which had arrived from london only the day before. they were the very things, at least he thought so, for a picnic or fête champêtre, but he was not prepared to ride in them. nor was he more encouraged than had been mr. thorne by the idea of being attacked from behind by the bag of flour, which miss thorne had graphically described to him. "well, i don't know about riding, miss thorne," said he; "i fear i'm not quite prepared." miss thorne sighed but said nothing further. she left the toxophilites to their bows and arrows and returned towards the house. but as she passed by the entrance to the small park, she thought that she might at any rate encourage the yeomen by her presence, as she could not induce her more fashionable guests to mix with them in their manly amusements. accordingly she once more betook herself to the quintain post. here to her great delight she found harry greenacre ready mounted, with his pole in his hand, and a lot of comrades standing round him, encouraging him to the assault. she stood at a little distance and nodded to him in token of her good pleasure. "shall i begin, ma'am?" said harry, fingering his long staff in a rather awkward way, while his horse moved uneasily beneath him, not accustomed to a rider armed with such a weapon. "yes, yes," said miss thorne, standing triumphant as the queen of beauty on an inverted tub which some chance had brought thither from the farmyard. "here goes then," said harry as he wheeled his horse round to get the necessary momentum of a sharp gallop. the quintain post stood right before him, and the square board at which he was to tilt was fairly in his way. if he hit that duly in the middle, and maintained his pace as he did so, it was calculated that he would be carried out of reach of the flour bag, which, suspended at the other end of the cross-bar on the post, would swing round when the board was struck. it was also calculated that if the rider did not maintain his pace, he would get a blow from the flour bag just at the back of his head, and bear about him the signs of his awkwardness to the great amusement of the lookers-on. harry greenacre did not object to being powdered with flour in the service of his mistress and therefore gallantly touched his steed with his spur, having laid his lance in rest to the best of his ability. but his ability in this respect was not great, and his appurtenances probably not very good; consequently, he struck his horse with his pole unintentionally on the side of the head as he started. the animal swerved and shied and galloped off wide of the quintain. harry, well-accustomed to manage a horse, but not to do so with a twelve-foot rod on his arm, lowered his right hand to the bridle, and thus the end of the lance came to the ground and got between the legs of the steed. down came rider and steed and staff. young greenacre was thrown some six feet over the horse's head, and poor miss thorne almost fell off her tub in a swoon. "oh, gracious, he's killed," shrieked a woman who was near him when he fell. "the lord be good to him! his poor mother, his poor mother!" said another. "well, drat them dangerous plays all the world over," said an old crone. "he has broke his neck sure enough, if ever man did," said a fourth. poor miss thorne. she heard all this and yet did not quite swoon. she made her way through the crowd as best she could, sick herself almost to death. oh, his mother--his poor mother! how could she ever forgive herself. the agony of that moment was terrific. she could hardly get to the place where the poor lad was lying, as three or four men in front were about the horse, which had risen with some difficulty, but at last she found herself close to the young farmer. "has he marked himself? for heaven's sake tell me that: has he marked his knees?" said harry, slowly rising and rubbing his left shoulder with his right hand and thinking only of his horse's legs. miss thorne soon found that he had not broken his neck, nor any of his bones, nor been injured in any essential way. but from that time forth she never instigated anyone to ride at a quintain. eleanor left dr. stanhope as soon as she could do so civilly and went in quest of her father, whom she found on the lawn in company with mr. arabin. she was not sorry to find them together. she was anxious to disabuse at any rate her father's mind as to this report which had got abroad respecting her, and would have been well pleased to have been able to do the same with regard to mr. arabin. she put her own through her father's arm, coming up behind his back, and then tendered her hand also to the vicar of st. ewold's. "and how did you come?" said mr. harding, when the first greeting was over. "the stanhopes brought me," said she; "their carriage was obliged to come twice, and has now gone back for the signora." as she spoke she caught mr. arabin's eye and saw that he was looking pointedly at her with a severe expression. she understood at once the accusation contained in his glance. it said as plainly as an eye could speak, "yes, you came with the stanhopes, but you did so in order that you might be in company with mr. slope." "our party," said she, still addressing her father, "consisted of the doctor and charlotte stanhope, myself, and mr. slope." as she mentioned the last name she felt her father's arm quiver slightly beneath her touch. at the same moment mr. arabin turned away from them and, joining his hands behind his back, strolled slowly away by one of the paths. "papa," said she, "it was impossible to help coming in the same carriage with mr. slope; it was quite impossible. i had promised to come with them before i dreamt of his coming, and afterwards i could not get out of it without explaining and giving rise to talk. you weren't at home, you know. i couldn't possibly help it." she said all this so quickly that by the time her apology was spoken she was quite out of breath. "i don't know why you should have wished to help it, my dear," said her father. "yes, papa, you do. you must know, you do know all the things they said at plumstead. i am sure you do. you know all the archdeacon said. how unjust he was; and mr. arabin too. he's a horrid man, a horrid odious man, but--" "who is an odious man, my dear? mr. arabin?" "no; but mr. slope. you know i mean mr. slope. he's the most odious man i ever met in my life, and it was most unfortunate my having to come here in the same carriage with him. but how could i help it?" a great weight began to move itself off mr. harding's mind. so, after all, the archdeacon with all his wisdom, and mrs. grantly with all her tact, and mr. arabin with all his talent, were in the wrong. his own child, his eleanor, the daughter of whom he was so proud, was not to become the wife of a mr. slope. he had been about to give his sanction to the marriage, so certified had he been of the fact, and now he learnt that this imputed lover of eleanor's was at any rate as much disliked by her as by any one of the family. mr. harding, however, was by no means sufficiently a man of the world to conceal the blunder he had made. he could not pretend that he had entertained no suspicion; he could not make believe that he had never joined the archdeacon in his surmises. he was greatly surprised, and gratified beyond measure, and he could not help showing that such was the case. "my darling girl," said he, "i am so delighted, so overjoyed. my own child; you have taken such a weight off my mind." "but surely, papa, _you_ didn't think--" "i didn't know what to think, my dear. the archdeacon told me that--" "the archdeacon!" said eleanor, her face lighting up with passion. "a man like the archdeacon might, one would think, be better employed than in traducing his sister-in-law and creating bitterness between a father and his daughter!" "he didn't mean to do that, eleanor." "what did he mean then? why did he interfere with me and fill your mind with such falsehood?" "never mind it now, my child; never mind it now. we shall all know you better now." "oh, papa, that you should have thought it! that you should have suspected me!" "i don't know what you mean by suspicion, eleanor. there would be nothing disgraceful, you know, nothing wrong in such a marriage. nothing that could have justified my interfering as your father." and mr. harding would have proceeded in his own defence to make out that mr. slope after all was a very good sort of man and a very fitting second husband for a young widow, had he not been interrupted by eleanor's greater energy. "it would be disgraceful," said she; "it would be wrong; it would be abominable. could i do such a horrid thing, i should expect no one to speak to me. ugh--" and she shuddered as she thought of the matrimonial torch which her friends had been so ready to light on her behalf. "i don't wonder at dr. grantly; i don't wonder at susan; but, oh, papa, i do wonder at you. how could you, how could you believe it?" poor eleanor, as she thought of her father's defalcation, could resist her tears no longer, and was forced to cover her face with her handkerchief. the place was not very opportune for her grief. they were walking through the shrubberies, and there were many people near them. poor mr. harding stammered out his excuse as best he could, and eleanor with an effort controlled her tears and returned her handkerchief to her pocket. she did not find it difficult to forgive her father, nor could she altogether refuse to join him in the returning gaiety of spirit to which her present avowal gave rise. it was such a load off his heart to think that he should not be called on to welcome mr. slope as his son-in-law. it was such a relief to him to find that his daughter's feelings and his own were now, as they ever had been, in unison. he had been so unhappy for the last six weeks about this wretched mr. slope! he was so indifferent as to the loss of the hospital, so thankful for the recovery of his daughter, that, strong as was the ground for eleanor's anger, she could not find it in her heart to be long angry with him. "dear papa," she said, hanging closely to his arm, "never suspect me again: promise me that you never will. whatever i do you may be sure i shall tell you first; you may be sure i shall consult you." and mr. harding did promise, and owned his sin, and promised again. and so, while he promised amendment and she uttered forgiveness, they returned together to the drawing-room windows. and what had eleanor meant when she declared that _whatever she did_, she would tell her father first? what was she thinking of doing? so ended the first act of the melodrama which eleanor was called on to perform this day at ullathorne. chapter xxxvii the signora neroni, the countess de courcy, and mrs. proudie meet each other at ullathorne and now there were new arrivals. just as eleanor reached the drawing-room the signora was being wheeled into it. she had been brought out of the carriage into the dining-room and there placed on a sofa, and was now in the act of entering the other room, by the joint aid of her brother and sister, mr. arabin, and two servants in livery. she was all in her glory, and looked so pathetically happy, so full of affliction and grace, was so beautiful, so pitiable, and so charming that it was almost impossible not to be glad she was there. miss thorne was unaffectedly glad to welcome her. in fact, the signora was a sort of lion; and though there was no drop of the leohunter blood in miss thorne's veins, she nevertheless did like to see attractive people at her house. the signora was attractive, and on her first settlement in the dining-room she had whispered two or three soft feminine words into miss thorne's ear which, at the moment, had quite touched that lady's heart. "oh, miss thorne; where is miss thorne?" she said as soon as her attendants had placed her in her position just before one of the windows, from whence she could see all that was going on upon the lawn. "how am i to thank you for permitting a creature like me to be here? but if you knew the pleasure you give me, i am sure you would excuse the trouble i bring with me." and as she spoke she squeezed the spinster's little hand between her own. "we are delighted to see you here," said miss thorne; "you give us no trouble at all, and we think it a great favour conferred by you to come and see us--don't we, wilfred?" "a very great favour indeed," said mr. thorne with a gallant bow but of a somewhat less cordial welcome than that conceded by his sister. mr. thorne had heard perhaps more of the antecedents of his guest than his sister had done, and had not as yet undergone the power of the signora's charms. but while the mother of the last of the neros was thus in her full splendour, with crowds of people gazing at her and the élite of the company standing round her couch, her glory was paled by the arrival of the countess de courcy. miss thorne had now been waiting three hours for the countess, and could not therefore but show very evident gratification when the arrival at last took place. she and her brother of course went off to welcome the titled grandees, and with them, alas, went many of the signora's admirers. "oh, mr. thorne," said the countess, while in the act of being disrobed of her fur cloaks and rerobed in her gauze shawls, "what dreadful roads you have; perfectly frightful." it happened that mr. thorne was waywarden for the district and, not liking the attack, began to excuse his roads. "oh, yes, indeed they are," said the countess not minding him in the least; "perfectly dreadful--are they not, margaretta? why, my dear miss thorne, we left courcy castle just at eleven; it was only just past eleven, was it not, george? and--" "just past one i think you mean," said the honourable george, turning from the group and eyeing the signora through his glass. the signora gave him back his own, as the saying is, and more with it, so that the young nobleman was forced to avert his glance and drop his glass. "i say, thorne," whispered he, "who the deuce is that on the sofa?" "dr. stanhope's daughter," whispered back mr. thorne. "signora neroni, she calls herself." "whew--ew--ew!" whistled the honourable george. "the devil she is. i have heard no end of stories about that filly. you must positively introduce me, thorne; you positively must." mr. thorne, who was respectability itself, did not quite like having a guest about whom the honourable george de courcy had heard no end of stories, but he couldn't help himself. he merely resolved that before he went to bed he would let his sister know somewhat of the history of the lady she was so willing to welcome. the innocence of miss thorne at her time of life was perfectly charming, but even innocence may be dangerous. "george may say what he likes," continued the countess, urging her excuses to miss thorne; "i am sure we were past the castle gate before twelve--weren't we, margaretta?" "upon my word i don't know," said the lady margaretta, "for i was half-asleep. but i do know that i was called some time in the middle of the night and was dressing myself before daylight." wise people, when they are in the wrong, always put themselves right by finding fault with the people against whom they have sinned. lady de courcy was a wise woman, and therefore, having treated miss thorne very badly by staying away till three o'clock, she assumed the offensive and attacked mr. thorne's roads. her daughter, not less wise, attacked miss thorne's early hours. the art of doing this is among the most precious of those usually cultivated by persons who know how to live. there is no withstanding it. who can go systematically to work and, having done battle with the primary accusation and settled that, then bring forward a countercharge and support that also? life is not long enough for such labours. a man in the right relies easily on his rectitude and therefore goes about unarmed. his very strength is his weakness. a man in the wrong knows that he must look to his weapons; his very weakness is his strength. the one is never prepared for combat, the other is always ready. therefore it is that in this world the man that is in the wrong almost invariably conquers the man that is in the right, and invariably despises him. a man must be an idiot or else an angel who, after the age of forty, shall attempt to be just to his neighbours. many like the lady margaretta have learnt their lesson at a much earlier age. but this of course depends on the school in which they have been taught. poor miss thorne was altogether overcome. she knew very well that she had been ill-treated, and yet she found herself making apologies to lady de courcy. to do her ladyship justice, she received them very graciously, and allowed herself, with her train of daughters, to be led towards the lawn. there were two windows in the drawing-room wide open for the countess to pass through, but she saw that there was a woman on a sofa, at the third window, and that that woman had, as it were, a following attached to her. her ladyship therefore determined to investigate the woman. the de courcy's were hereditarily shortsighted, and had been so for thirty centuries at least. so lady de courcy, who when she entered the family had adopted the family habits, did as her son had done before her and, taking her glass to investigate the signora neroni, pressed in among the gentlemen who surrounded the couch, and bowed slightly to those whom she chose to honour by her acquaintance. in order to get to the window she had to pass close to the front of the couch, and as she did so she stared hard at the occupant. the occupant, in return, stared hard at the countess. the countess, who, since her countess-ship commenced, had been accustomed to see all eyes not royal, ducal, or marquesal fall before her own, paused as she went on, raised her eyebrows, and stared even harder than before. but she had now to do with one who cared little for countesses. it was, one may say, impossible for mortal man or woman to abash madeline neroni. she opened her large, bright, lustrous eyes wider and wider, till she seemed to be all eyes. she gazed up into the lady's face, not as though she did it with an effort, but as if she delighted in doing it. she used no glass to assist her effrontery, and needed none. the faintest possible smile of derision played round her mouth, and her nostrils were slightly dilated, as if in sure anticipation of her triumph. and it was sure. the countess de courcy, in spite of her thirty centuries and de courcy castle, and the fact that lord de courcy was grand master of the ponies to the prince of wales, had not a chance with her. at first the little circlet of gold wavered in the countess's hand, then the hand shook, then the circlet fell, the countess's head tossed itself into the air, and the countess's feet shambled out to the lawn. she did not, however, go so fast but what she heard the signora's voice, asking: "who on earth is that woman, mr. slope?" "that is lady de courcy." "oh, ah. i might have supposed so. ha, ha, ha. well, that's as good as a play." it was as good as a play to any there who had eyes to observe it and wit to comment on what they observed. but the lady de courcy soon found a congenial spirit on the lawn. there she encountered mrs. proudie, and as mrs. proudie was not only the wife of a bishop but was also the cousin of an earl, lady de courcy considered her to be the fittest companion she was likely to meet in that assemblage. they were accordingly delighted to see each other. mrs. proudie by no means despised a countess, and as this countess lived in the county and within a sort of extensive visiting distance of barchester, she was glad to have this opportunity of ingratiating herself. "my dear lady de courcy, i am so delighted," said she, looking as little grim as it was in her nature to do. "i hardly expected to see you here. it is such a distance, and then, you know, such a crowd." "and such roads, mrs. proudie! i really wonder how the people ever get about. but i don't suppose they ever do." "well, i really don't know, but i suppose not. the thornes don't, i know," said mrs. proudie. "very nice person, miss thorne, isn't she?" "oh, delightful, and so queer; i've known her these twenty years. a great pet of mine is dear miss thorne. she is so very strange, you know. she always makes me think of the eskimos and the indians. isn't her dress quite delightful?" "delightful," said mrs. proudie. "i wonder now whether she paints. did you ever see such colour?" "oh, of course," said lady de courcy; "that is, i have no doubt she does. but, mrs. proudie, who is that woman on the sofa by the window? just step this way and you'll see her, there--" and the countess led her to a spot where she could plainly see the signora's well-remembered face and figure. she did not however do so without being equally well seen by the signora. "look, look," said that lady to mr. slope, who was still standing near to her; "see the high spiritualities and temporalities of the land in league together, and all against poor me. i'll wager my bracelet, mr. slope, against your next sermon that they've taken up their position there on purpose to pull me to pieces. well, i can't rush to the combat, but i know how to protect myself if the enemy come near me." but the enemy knew better. they could gain nothing by contact with the signora neroni, and they could abuse her as they pleased at a distance from her on the lawn. "she's that horrid italian woman, lady de courcy; you must have heard of her." "what italian woman?" said her ladyship, quite alive to the coming story. "i don't think i've heard of any italian woman coming into the country. she doesn't look italian, either." "oh, you must have heard of her," said mrs. proudie. "no, she's not absolutely italian. she is dr. stanhope's daughter--dr. stanhope the prebendary--and she calls herself the signora neroni." "oh-h-h-h!" exclaimed the countess. "i was sure you had heard of her," continued mrs. proudie. "i don't know anything about her husband. they do say that some man named neroni is still alive. i believe she did marry such a man abroad, but i do not at all know who or what he was." "oh-h-h-h!" exclaimed the countess, shaking her head with much intelligence, as every additional "h" fell from her lips. "i know all about it now. i have heard george mention her. george knows all about her. george heard about her in rome." "she's an abominable woman, at any rate," said mrs. proudie. "insufferable," said the countess. "she made her way into the palace once, before i knew anything about her, and i cannot tell you how dreadfully indecent her conduct was." "was it?" said the delighted countess. "insufferable," said the prelatess. "but why does she lie on a sofa?" asked lady de courcy. "she has only one leg," replied mrs. proudie. "only one leg!" said lady de courcy, who felt to a certain degree dissatisfied that the signora was thus incapacitated. "was she born so?" "oh, no," said mrs. proudie--and her ladyship felt some what recomforted by the assurance--"she had two. but that signor neroni beat her, i believe, till she was obliged to have one amputated. at any rate, she entirely lost the use of it." "unfortunate creature!" said the countess, who herself knew something of matrimonial trials. "yes," said mrs. proudie, "one would pity her in spite of her past bad conduct, if she now knew how to behave herself. but she does not. she is the most insolent creature i ever put my eyes on." "indeed she is," said lady de courcy. "and her conduct with men is so abominable that she is not fit to be admitted into any lady's drawing-room." "dear me!" said the countess, becoming again excited, happy and merciless. "you saw that man standing near her--the clergyman with the red hair?" "yes, yes." "she has absolutely ruined that man. the bishop--or i should rather take the blame on myself, for it was i--i brought him down from london to barchester. he is a tolerable preacher, an active young man, and i therefore introduced him to the bishop. that woman, lady de courcy, has got hold of him and has so disgraced him that i am forced to require that he shall leave the palace; and i doubt very much whether he won't lose his gown!" "why, what an idiot the man must be!" said the countess. "you don't know the intriguing villainy of that woman," said mrs. proudie, remembering her torn flounces. "but you say she has only got one leg!" "she is as full of mischief as tho' she had ten. look at her eyes, lady de courcy. did you ever see such eyes in a decent woman's head?" "indeed, i never did, mrs. proudie." "and her effrontery, and her voice! i quite pity her poor father, who is really a good sort of man." "dr. stanhope, isn't he?" "yes, dr. stanhope. he is one of our prebendaries--a good, quiet sort of man himself. but i am surprised that he should let his daughter conduct herself as she does." "i suppose he can't help it," said the countess. "but a clergyman, you know, lady de courcy! he should at any rate prevent her from exhibiting in public, if he cannot induce her to behave at home. but he is to be pitied. i believe he has a desperate life of it with the lot of them. that apish-looking man there, with the long beard and the loose trousers--he is the woman's brother. he is nearly as bad as she is. they are both of them infidels." "infidels!" said lady de courcy, "and their father a prebendary!" "yes, and likely to be the new dean, too," said mrs. proudie. "oh, yes, poor dear dr. trefoil!" said the countess, who had once in her life spoken to that gentleman. "i was so distressed to hear it, mrs. proudie. and so dr. stanhope is to be the new dean! he comes of an excellent family, and i wish him success in spite of his daughter. perhaps, mrs. proudie, when he is dean, they'll be better able to see the error of their ways." to this mrs. proudie said nothing. her dislike of the signora neroni was too deep to admit of her even hoping that that lady should see the error of her ways. mrs. proudie looked on the signora as one of the lost--one of those beyond the reach of christian charity--and was therefore able to enjoy the luxury of hating her without the drawback of wishing her eventually well out of her sins. any further conversation between these congenial souls was prevented by the advent of mr. thorne, who came to lead the countess to the tent. indeed, he had been desired to do so some ten minutes since, but he had been delayed in the drawing-room by the signora. she had contrived to detain him, to get him near to her sofa, and at last to make him seat himself on a chair close to her beautiful arm. the fish took the bait, was hooked, and caught, and landed. within that ten minutes he had heard the whole of the signora's history in such strains as she chose to use in telling it. he learnt from the lady's own lips the whole of that mysterious tale to which the honourable george had merely alluded. he discovered that the beautiful creature lying before him had been more sinned against than sinning. she had owned to him that she had been weak, confiding, and indifferent to the world's opinion, and that she had therefore been ill-used, deceived, and evil spoken of. she had spoken to him of her mutilated limb, her youth destroyed in fullest bloom, her beauty robbed of its every charm, her life blighted, her hopes withered, and as she did so a tear dropped from her eye to her cheek. she had told him of these things and asked for his sympathy. what could a good-natured, genial, anglo-saxon squire thorne do but promise to sympathize with her? mr. thorne did promise to sympathize; promised also to come and see the last of the neros, to hear more of those fearful roman days, of those light and innocent but dangerous hours which flitted by so fast on the shores of como, and to make himself the confidant of the signora's sorrows. we need hardly say that he dropped all idea of warning his sister against the dangerous lady. he had been mistaken--never so much mistaken in his life. he had always regarded that honourable george as a coarse, brutal-minded young man; now he was more convinced than ever that he was so. it was by such men as the honourable george that the reputations of such women as madeline neroni were imperilled and damaged. he would go and see the lady in her own house; he was fully sure in his own mind of the soundness of his own judgement; if he found her, as he believed he should do, an injured, well-disposed, warm-hearted woman, he would get his sister monica to invite her out to ullathorne. "no," said she, as at her instance he got up to leave her and declared that he himself would attend upon her wants; "no, no, my friend; i positively put a veto upon your doing so. what, in your own house, with an assemblage round you such as there is here! do you wish to make every woman hate me and every man stare at me? i lay a positive order on you not to come near me again to-day. come and see me at home. it is only at home that i can talk, it is only at home that i really can live and enjoy myself. my days of going out, days such as these, are rare indeed. come and see me at home, mr. thorne, and then i will not bid you to leave me." it is, we believe, common with young men of five-and-twenty to look on their seniors--on men of, say, double their own age--as so many stocks and stones--stocks and stones, that is, in regard to feminine beauty. there never was a greater mistake. women, indeed, generally know better, but on this subject men of one age are thoroughly ignorant of what is the very nature of mankind of other ages. no experience of what goes on in the world, no reading of history, no observation of life, has any effect in teaching the truth. men of fifty don't dance mazurkas, being generally too fat and wheezy; nor do they sit for the hour together on river-banks at their mistresses' feet, being somewhat afraid of rheumatism. but for real true love--love at first sight, love to devotion, love that robs a man of his sleep, love that "will gaze an eagle blind," love that "will hear the lowest sound when the suspicious tread of theft is stopped," love that is "like a hercules, still climbing trees in the hesperides"--we believe the best age is from forty-five to seventy; up to that, men are generally given to mere flirting. at the present moment mr. thorne, _ætat_. fifty, was over head and ears in love at first sight with the signora madeline vesey neroni, nata stanhope. nevertheless, he was sufficiently master of himself to offer his arm with all propriety to lady de courcy, and the countess graciously permitted herself to be led to the tent. such had been miss thorne's orders, as she had succeeded in inducing the bishop to lead old lady knowle to the top of the dining-room. one of the baronets was sent off in quest of mrs. proudie and found that lady on the lawn not in the best of humours. mr. thorne and the countess had left her too abruptly; she had in vain looked about for an attendant chaplain, or even a stray curate; they were all drawing long bows with the young ladies at the bottom of the lawn, or finding places for their graceful co-toxophilites in some snug corner of the tent. in such position mrs. proudie had been wont in earlier days to fall back upon mr. slope, but now she could never fall back upon him again. she gave her head one shake as she thought of her lone position, and that shake was as good as a week deducted from mr. slope's longer sojourn in barchester. sir harkaway gorse, however, relieved her present misery, though his doing so by no means mitigated the sinning chaplain's doom. and now the eating and drinking began in earnest. dr. grantly, to his great horror, found himself leagued to mrs. clantantram. mrs. clantantram had a great regard for the archdeacon, which was not cordially returned, and when she, coming up to him, whispered in his ear, "come, archdeacon, i'm sure you won't begrudge an old friend the favour of your arm," and then proceeded to tell him the whole history of her roquelaure, he resolved that he would shake her off before he was fifteen minutes older. but latterly the archdeacon had not been successful in his resolutions, and on the present occasion mrs. clantantram stuck to him till the banquet was over. dr. gwynne got a baronet's wife, and mrs. grantly fell to the lot of a baronet. charlotte stanhope attached herself to mr. harding in order to make room for bertie, who succeeded in sitting down in the dining-room next to mrs. bold. to speak sooth, now that he had love in earnest to make, his heart almost failed him. eleanor had been right glad to avail herself of his arm, seeing that mr. slope was hovering nigh her. in striving to avoid that terrible charybdis of a slope she was in great danger of falling into an unseen scylla on the other hand, that scylla being bertie stanhope. nothing could be more gracious than she was to bertie. she almost jumped at his proffered arm. charlotte perceived this from a distance and triumphed in her heart; bertie felt it and was encouraged; mr. slope saw it and glowered with jealousy. eleanor and bertie sat down to table in the dining-room, and as she took her seat at his right hand she found that mr. slope was already in possession of the chair at her own. as these things were going on in the dining-room, mr. arabin was hanging enraptured and alone over the signora's sofa, and eleanor from her seat could look through the open door and see that he was doing so. chapter xxxviii the bishop sits down to breakfast, and the dean dies the bishop of barchester said grace over the well-spread board in the ullathorne dining-room; while he did so, the last breath was flying from the dean of barchester as he lay in his sick room in the deanery. when the bishop of barchester raised his first glass of champagne to his lips, the deanship of barchester was a good thing in the gift of the prime minister. before the bishop of barchester had left the table, the minister of the day was made aware of the fact at his country-seat in hampshire, and had already turned over in his mind the names of five very respectable aspirants for the preferment. it is at present only necessary to say that mr. slope's name was not among the five. "'twas merry in the hall when the beards wagged all," and the clerical beards wagged merrily in the hall of ullathorne that day. it was not till after the last cork had been drawn, the last speech made, the last nut cracked, that tidings reached and were whispered about that the poor dean was no more. it was well for the happiness of the clerical beards that this little delay took place, as otherwise decency would have forbidden them to wag at all. but there was one sad man among them that day. mr. arabin's beard did not wag as it should have done. he had come there hoping the best, striving to think the best, about eleanor; turning over in his mind all the words he remembered to have fallen from her about mr. slope, and trying to gather from them a conviction unfavourable to his rival. he had not exactly resolved to come that day to some decisive proof as to the widow's intention, but he had meant, if possible, to recultivate his friendship with eleanor, and in his present frame of mind any such recultivation must have ended in a declaration of love. he had passed the previous night alone at his new parsonage, and it was the first night that he had so passed. it had been dull and sombre enough. mrs. grantly had been right in saying that a priestess would be wanting at st. ewold's. he had sat there alone with his glass before him, and then with his tea-pot, thinking about eleanor bold. as is usual in such meditations, he did little but blame her; blame her for liking mr. slope, and blame her for not liking him; blame her for her cordiality to himself, and blame her for her want of cordiality; blame her for being stubborn, headstrong, and passionate; and yet the more he thought of her the higher she rose in his affection. if only it should turn out, if only it could be made to turn out, that she had defended mr. slope, not from love, but on principle, all would be right. such principle in itself would be admirable, lovable, womanly; he felt that he could be pleased to allow mr. slope just so much favour as that. but if--and then mr. arabin poked his fire most unnecessarily, spoke crossly to his new parlour-maid who came in for the tea-things, and threw himself back in his chair determined to go to sleep. why had she been so stiff-necked when asked a plain question? she could not but have known in what light he regarded her. why had she not answered a plain question and so put an end to his misery? then, instead of going to sleep in his armchair, mr. arabin walked about the room as though he had been possessed. on the following morning, when he attended miss thorne's behests, he was still in a somewhat confused state. his first duty had been to converse with mrs. clantantram, and that lady had found it impossible to elicit the slightest sympathy from him on the subject of her roquelaure. miss thorne had asked him whether mrs. bold was coming with the grantlys, and the two names of bold and grantly together had nearly made him jump from his seat. he was in this state of confused uncertainty, hope, and doubt, when he saw mr. slope, with his most polished smile, handing eleanor out of her carriage. he thought of nothing more. he never considered whether the carriage belonged to her or to mr. slope, or to anyone else to whom they might both be mutually obliged without any concert between themselves. this sight in his present state of mind was quite enough to upset him and his resolves. it was clear as noon-day. had he seen her handed into a carriage by mr. slope at a church door with a white veil over her head, the truth could not be more manifest. he went into the house and, as we have seen, soon found himself walking with mr. harding. shortly afterwards eleanor came up, and then he had to leave his companion and either go about alone or find another. while in this state he was encountered by the archdeacon. "i wonder," said dr. grantly, "if it be true that mr. slope and mrs. bold came here together. susan says she is almost sure she saw their faces in the same carriage as she got out of her own." mr. arabin had nothing for it but to bear his testimony to the correctness of mrs. grantly's eyesight. "it is perfectly shameful," said the archdeacon; "or, i should rather say, shameless. she was asked here as my guest, and if she be determined to disgrace herself, she should have feeling enough not to do so before my immediate friends. i wonder how that man got himself invited. i wonder whether she had the face to bring him." to this mr. arabin could answer nothing, nor did he wish to answer anything. though he abused eleanor to himself, he did not choose to abuse her to anyone else, nor was he well-pleased to hear anyone else speak ill of her. dr. grantly, however, was very angry and did not spare his sister-in-law. mr. arabin therefore left him as soon as he could and wandered back into the house. he had not been there long when the signora was brought in. for some time he kept himself out of temptation, and merely hovered round her at a distance; but as soon as mr. thorne had left her, he yielded himself up to the basilisk and allowed himself to be made prey of. it is impossible to say how the knowledge had been acquired, but the signora had a sort of instinctive knowledge that mr. arabin was an admirer of mrs. bold. men hunt foxes by the aid of dogs, and are aware that they do so by the strong organ of smell with which the dog is endowed. they do not, however, in the least comprehend how such a sense can work with such acuteness. the organ by which women instinctively, as it were, know and feel how other women are regarded by men, and how also men are regarded by other women, is equally strong, and equally incomprehensible. a glance, a word, a motion, suffices: by some such acute exercise of her feminine senses the signora was aware that mr. arabin loved eleanor bold; therefore, by a further exercise of her peculiar feminine propensities, it was quite natural for her to entrap mr. arabin into her net. the work was half-done before she came to ullathorne, and when could she have a better opportunity of completing it? she had had almost enough of mr. slope, though she could not quite resist the fun of driving a very sanctimonious clergyman to madness by a desperate and ruinous passion. mr. thorne had fallen too easily to give much pleasure in the chase. his position as a man of wealth might make his alliance of value, but as a lover he was very second-rate. we may say that she regarded him somewhat as a sportsman does a pheasant. the bird is so easily shot that he would not be worth the shooting were it not for the very respectable appearance that he makes in a larder. the signora would not waste much time in shooting mr. thorne, but still he was worth bagging for family uses. but mr. arabin was game of another sort. the signora was herself possessed of quite sufficient intelligence to know that mr. arabin was a man more than usually intellectual. she knew also that, as a clergyman, he was of a much higher stamp than mr. slope and that, as a gentleman, he was better educated than mr. thorne. she would never have attempted to drive mr. arabin into ridiculous misery as she did mr. slope, nor would she think it possible to dispose of him in ten minutes as she had done with mr. thorne. such were her reflexions about mr. arabin. as to mr. arabin, it cannot be said that he reflected at all about the signora. he knew that she was beautiful, and he felt that she was able to charm him. he required charming in his present misery, and therefore he went and stood at the head of her couch. she knew all about it. such were her peculiar gifts. it was her nature to see that he required charming, and it was her province to charm him. as the eastern idler swallows his dose of opium, as the london reprobate swallows his dose of gin, so with similar desires and for similar reasons did mr. arabin prepare to swallow the charms of the signora neroni. "why an't you shooting with bows and arrows, mr. arabin?" said she, when they were nearly alone together in the drawing-room, "or talking with young ladies in shady bowers, or turning your talents to account in some way? what was a bachelor like you asked here for? don't you mean to earn your cold chicken and champagne? were i you, i should be ashamed to be so idle." mr. arabin murmured some sort of answer. though he wished to be charmed, he was hardly yet in a mood to be playful in return. "why what ails you, mr. arabin?" said she. "here you are in your own parish--miss thorne tells me that her party is given expressly in your honour--and yet you are the only dull man at it. your friend mr. slope was with me a few minutes since, full of life and spirits; why don't you rival him?" it was not difficult for so acute an observer as madeline neroni to see that she had hit the nail on the head and driven the bolt home. mr. arabin winced visibly before her attack, and she knew at once that he was jealous of mr. slope. "but i look on you and mr. slope as the very antipodes of men," said she. "there is nothing in which you are not each the reverse of the other, except in belonging to the same profession--and even in that you are so unlike as perfectly to maintain the rule. he is gregarious; you are given to solitude. he is active; you are passive. he works; you think. he likes women; you despise them. he is fond of position and power; and so are you, but for directly different reasons. he loves to be praised; you very foolishly abhor it. he will gain his rewards, which will be an insipid, useful wife, a comfortable income, and a reputation for sanctimony; you will also gain yours." "well, and what will they be?" said mr. arabin, who knew that he was being flattered and yet suffered himself to put up with it. "what will be my rewards?" "the heart of some woman whom you will be too austere to own that you love, and the respect of some few friends which you will be too proud to own that you value." "rich rewards," said he; "but of little worth, if they are to be so treated." "oh, you are not to look for such success as awaits mr. slope. he is born to be a successful man. he suggests to himself an object and then starts for it with eager intention. nothing will deter him from his pursuit. he will have no scruples, no fears, no hesitation. his desire is to be a bishop with a rising family--the wife will come first, and in due time the apron. you will see all this, and then--" "well, and what then?" "then you will begin to wish that you had done the same." mr. arabin looked placidly out at the lawn and, resting his shoulder on the head of the sofa, rubbed his chin with his hand. it was a trick he had when he was thinking deeply, and what the signora said made him think. was it not all true? would he not hereafter look back, if not at mr. slope, at some others, perhaps not equally gifted with himself, who had risen in the world while he had lagged behind, and then wish that he had done the same? "is not such the doom of all speculative men of talent?" said she. "do they not all sit wrapt as you now are, cutting imaginary silken cords with their fine edges, while those not so highly tempered sever the everyday gordian knots of the world's struggle and win wealth and renown? steel too highly polished, edges too sharp, do not do for this world's work, mr. arabin." who was this woman that thus read the secrets of his heart and re-uttered to him the unwelcome bodings of his own soul? he looked full into her face when she had done speaking and said, "am i one of those foolish blades, too sharp and too fine to do a useful day's work?" "why do you let the slopes of the world outdistance you?" said she. "is not the blood in your veins as warm as his? does not your pulse beat as fast? has not god made you a man and intended you to do a man's work here, ay, and to take a man's wages also?" mr. arabin sat ruminating, rubbing his face, and wondering why these things were said to him, but he replied nothing. the signora went on: "the greatest mistake any man ever made is to suppose that the good things of the world are not worth the winning. and it is a mistake so opposed to the religion which you preach! why does god permit his bishops one after another to have their five thousands and ten thousands a year if such wealth be bad and not worth having? why are beautiful things given to us, and luxuries and pleasant enjoyments, if they be not intended to be used? they must be meant for someone, and what is good for a layman surely cannot be bad for a clerk. you try to despise these good things, but you only try--you don't succeed." "don't i?" said mr. arabin, still musing, not knowing what he said. "i ask you the question: do you succeed?" mr. arabin looked at her piteously. it seemed to him as though he were being interrogated by some inner spirit of his own, to whom he could not refuse an answer, and to whom he did not dare to give a false reply. "come, mr. arabin, confess; do you succeed? is money so contemptible? is worldly power so worthless? is feminine beauty a trifle to be so slightly regarded by a wise man?" "feminine beauty!" said he, gazing into her face, as though all the feminine beauty in the world were concentrated there. "why do you say i do not regard it?" "if you look at me like that, mr. arabin, i shall alter my opinion--or should do so, were i not of course aware that i have no beauty of my own worth regarding." the gentleman blushed crimson, but the lady did not blush at all. a slightly increased colour animated her face, just so much so as to give her an air of special interest. she expected a compliment from her admirer, but she was rather gratified than otherwise by finding that he did not pay it to her. messrs. slope and thorne, messrs. brown, jones, and robinson, they all paid her compliments. she was rather in hopes that she would ultimately succeed in inducing mr. arabin to abuse her. "but your gaze," said she, "is one of wonder, not of admiration. you wonder at my audacity in asking you such questions about yourself." "well, i do rather," said he. "nevertheless, i expect an answer, mr. arabin. why were women made beautiful if men are not to regard them?" "but men do regard them," he replied. "and why not you?" "you are begging the question, madame neroni." "i am sure i shall beg nothing, mr. arabin, which you will not grant, and i do beg for an answer. do you not as a rule think women below your notice as companions? let us see. there is the widow bold looking round at you from her chair this minute. what would you say to her as a companion for life?" mr. arabin, rising from his position, leaned over the sofa and looked through the drawing-room door to the place where eleanor was seated between bertie stanhope and mr. slope. she at once caught his glance and averted her own. she was not pleasantly placed in her present position. mr. slope was doing his best to attract her attention, and she was striving to prevent his doing so by talking to mr. stanhope, while her mind was intently fixed on mr. arabin and madame neroni. bertie stanhope endeavoured to take advantage of her favours, but he was thinking more of the manner in which he would by and by throw himself at her feet than of amusing her at the present moment. "there," said the signora. "she was stretching her beautiful neck to look at you, and now you have disturbed her. well, i declare i believe i am wrong about you; i believe that you do think mrs. bold a charming woman. your looks seem to say so, and by her looks i should say that she is jealous of me. come, mr. arabin, confide in me, and if it is so, i'll do all in my power to make up the match." it is needless to say that the signora was not very sincere in her offer. she was never sincere on such subjects. she never expected others to be so, nor did she expect others to think her so. such matters were her playthings, her billiard table, her hounds and hunters, her waltzes and polkas, her picnics and summer-day excursions. she had little else to amuse her, and therefore played at love-making in all its forms. she was now playing at it with mr. arabin, and did not at all expect the earnestness and truth of his answer. "all in your power would be nothing," said he, "for mrs. bold is, i imagine, already engaged to another." "then you own the impeachment yourself." "you cross-question me rather unfairly," he replied, "and i do not know why i answer you at all. mrs. bold is a very beautiful woman, and as intelligent as beautiful. it is impossible to know her without admiring her." "so you think the widow a very beautiful woman?" "indeed i do." "and one that would grace the parsonage of st. ewold's." "one that would well grace any man's house." "and you really have the effrontery to tell me this," said she; "to tell me, who, as you very well know, set up to be a beauty myself, and who am at this very moment taking such an interest in your affairs, you really have the effrontery to tell me that mrs. bold is the most beautiful woman you know." "i did not say so," said mr. arabin; "you are more beautiful--" "ah, come now, that is something like. i thought you could not be so unfeeling." "you are more beautiful, perhaps more clever." "thank you, thank you, mr. arabin. i knew that you and i should be friends." "but--" "not a word further. i will not hear a word further. if you talk till midnight you cannot improve what you have said." "but madame neroni, mrs. bold--" "i will not hear a word about mrs. bold. dread thoughts of strychnine did pass across my brain, but she is welcome to the second place." "her place--" "i won't hear anything about her or her place. i am satisfied, and that is enough. but mr. arabin, i am dying with hunger; beautiful and clever as i am, you know i cannot go to my food, and yet you do not bring it to me." this at any rate was so true as to make it necessary that mr. arabin should act upon it, and he accordingly went into the dining-room and supplied the signora's wants. "and yourself?" said she. "oh," said he, "i am not hungry. i never eat at this hour." "come, come, mr. arabin, don't let love interfere with your appetite. it never does with mine. give me half a glass more champagne and then go to the table. mrs. bold will do me an injury if you stay talking to me any longer." mr. arabin did as he was bid. he took her plate and glass from her and, going into the dining-room, helped himself to a sandwich from the crowded table and began munching it in a corner. as he was doing so miss thorne, who had hardly sat down for a moment, came into the room and, seeing him standing, was greatly distressed. "oh, my dear mr. arabin," said she, "have you never sat down yet? i am so distressed. you of all men, too." mr. arabin assured her that he had only just come into the room. "that is the very reason why you should lose no more time. come, i'll make room for you. thank'ee, my dear," she said, seeing that mrs. bold was making an attempt to move from her chair, "but i would not for worlds see you stir, for all the ladies would think it necessary to follow. but, perhaps, if mr. stanhope has done--just for a minute, mr. stanhope, till i can get another chair." and so bertie had to rise to make way for his rival. this he did, as he did everything, with an air of good-humoured pleasantry which made it impossible for mr. arabin to refuse the proffered seat. "his bishopric let another take," said bertie, the quotation being certainly not very appropriate either for the occasion or the person spoken to. "i have eaten and am satisfied; mr. arabin, pray take my chair. i wish for your sake that it really was a bishop's seat." mr. arabin did sit down, and as he did so mrs. bold got up as though to follow her neighbour. "pray, pray don't move," said miss thorne, almost forcing eleanor back into her chair. "mr. stanhope is not going to leave us. he will stand behind you like a true knight as he is. and now i think of it, mr. arabin, let me introduce you to mr. slope. mr. slope, mr. arabin." and the two gentlemen bowed stiffly to each other across the lady whom they both intended to marry, while the other gentleman who also intended to marry her stood behind, watching them. the two had never met each other before, and the present was certainly not a good opportunity for much cordial conversation, even if cordial conversation between them had been possible. as it was, the whole four who formed the party seemed as though their tongues were tied. mr. slope, who was wide awake to what he hoped was his coming opportunity, was not much concerned in the interest of the moment. his wish was to see eleanor move, that he might pursue her. bertie was not exactly in the same frame of mind; the evil day was near enough; there was no reason why he should precipitate it. he had made up his mind to marry eleanor bold if he could, and was resolved to-day to take the first preliminary step towards doing so. but there was time enough before him. he was not going to make an offer of marriage over the table-cloth. having thus good-naturedly made way for mr. arabin, he was willing also to let him talk to the future mrs. stanhope as long as they remained in their present position. mr. arabin, having bowed to mr. slope, began eating his food without saying a word further. he was full of thought, and though he ate he did so unconsciously. but poor eleanor was the most to be pitied. the only friend on whom she thought she could rely was bertie stanhope, and he, it seemed, was determined to desert her. mr. arabin did not attempt to address her. she said a few words in reply to some remarks from mr. slope and then, feeling the situation too much for her, started from her chair in spite of miss thorne and hurried from the room. mr. slope followed her, and young stanhope lost the occasion. madeline neroni, when she was left alone, could not help pondering much on the singular interview she had had with this singular man. not a word that she had spoken to him had been intended by her to be received as true, and yet he had answered her in the very spirit of truth. he had done so, and she had been aware that he had so done. she had wormed from him his secret, and he, debarred as it would seem from man's usual privilege of lying, had innocently laid bare his whole soul to her. he loved eleanor bold, but eleanor was not in his eye so beautiful as herself. he would fain have eleanor for his wife, but yet he had acknowledged that she was the less gifted of the two. the man had literally been unable to falsify his thoughts when questioned, and had been compelled to be true _malgré lui_, even when truth must have been so disagreeable to him. this teacher of men, this oxford pundit, this double-distilled quintessence of university perfection, this writer of religious treatises, this speaker of ecclesiastical speeches, had been like a little child in her hands; she had turned him inside out and read his very heart as she might have done that of a young girl. she could not but despise him for his facile openness, and yet she liked him for it, too. it was a novelty to her, a new trait in a man's character. she felt also that she could never so completely make a fool of him as she did of the slopes and thornes. she felt that she never could induce mr. arabin to make protestations to her that were not true, or to listen to nonsense that was mere nonsense. it was quite clear that mr. arabin was heartily in love with mrs. bold; and the signora, with very unwonted good nature, began to turn it over in her mind whether she could not do him a good turn. of course bertie was to have the first chance. it was an understood family arrangement that her brother was, if possible, to marry the widow bold. madeline knew too well his necessities and what was due to her sister to interfere with so excellent a plan, as long as it might be feasible. but she had strong suspicion that it was not feasible. she did not think it likely that mrs. bold would accept a man in her brother's position, and she had frequently said so to charlotte. she was inclined to believe that mr. slope had more chance of success, and with her it would be a labour of love to rob mr. slope of his wife. and so the signora resolved, should bertie fail, to do a good-natured act for once in her life and give up mr. arabin to the woman whom he loved. chapter xxxix the lookalofts and the greenacres on the whole, miss thorne's provision for the amusement and feeding of the outer classes in the exoteric paddock was not unsuccessful. two little drawbacks to the general happiness did take place, but they were of a temporary nature, and apparent rather than real. the first was the downfall of young harry greenacre, and the other the uprise of mrs. lookaloft and her family. as to the quintain, it became more popular among the boys on foot than it would ever have been among the men on horseback, even had young greenacre been more successful. it was twirled round and round till it was nearly twirled out of the ground, and the bag of flour was used with great gusto in powdering the backs and heads of all who could be coaxed within its vicinity. of course it was reported all through the assemblage that harry was dead, and there was a pathetic scene between him and his mother when it was found that he had escaped scatheless from the fall. a good deal of beer was drunk on the occasion, and the quintain was "dratted" and "bothered," and very generally anathematized by all the mothers who had young sons likely to be placed in similar jeopardy. but the affair of mrs. lookaloft was of a more serious nature. "i do tell 'ee plainly--face to face--she be there in madam's drawing-room; herself and gussy, and them two walloping gals, dressed up to their very eyeses." this was said by a very positive, very indignant, and very fat farmer's wife, who was sitting on the end of a bench leaning on the handle of a huge, cotton umbrella. "but: you didn't zee her, dame guffern?" said mrs. greenacre, whom this information, joined to the recent peril undergone by her son, almost overpowered. mr. greenacre held just as much land as mr. lookaloft, paid his rent quite as punctually, and his opinion in the vestry room was reckoned to be every whit as good. mrs. lookaloft's rise in the world had been wormwood to mrs. greenacre. she had no taste herself for the sort of finery which had converted barleystubb farm into rosebank and which had occasionally graced mr. lookaloft's letters with the dignity of esquirehood. she had no wish to convert her own homestead into violet villa, or to see her goodman go about with a new-fangled handle to his name. but it was a mortal injury to her that mrs. lookaloft should be successful in her hunt after such honours. she had abused and ridiculed mrs. lookaloft to the extent of her little power. she had pushed against her going out of church, and had excused herself with all the easiness of equality. "ah, dame, i axes pardon, but you be grown so mortal stout these times." she had inquired with apparent cordiality of mr. lookaloft after "the woman that owned him," and had, as she thought, been on the whole able to hold her own pretty well against her aspiring neighbour. now, however, she found herself distinctly put into a separate and inferior class. mrs. lookaloft was asked into the ullathorne drawing-room merely because she called her house rosebank and had talked over her husband into buying pianos and silk dresses instead of putting his money by to stock farms for his sons. mrs. greenacre, much as she reverenced miss thorne, and highly as she respected her husband's landlord, could not but look on this as an act of injustice done to her and hers. hitherto the lookalofts had never been recognized as being of a different class from the greenacres. their pretensions were all self-pretensions, their finery was all paid for by themselves and not granted to them by others. the local sovereigns of the vicinity, the district fountains of honour, had hitherto conferred on them the stamp of no rank. hitherto their crinoline petticoats, late hours, and mincing gait had been a fair subject of mrs. greenacre's raillery, and this raillery had been a safety-valve for her envy. now, however, and from henceforward, the case would be very different. now the lookalofts would boast that their aspirations had been sanctioned by the gentry of the country; now they would declare with some show of truth that their claims to peculiar consideration had been recognized. they had sat as equal guests in the presence of bishops and baronets; they had been curtseyed to by miss thorne on her own drawing-room carpet; they were about to sit down to table in company with a live countess! bab lookaloft, as she had always been called by the young greenacres in the days of their juvenile equality, might possibly sit next to the honourable george, and that wretched gussy might be permitted to hand a custard to the lady margaretta de courcy. the fruition of those honours, or such of them as fell to the lot of the envied family, was not such as should have caused much envy. the attention paid to the lookalofts by the de courcys was very limited, and the amount of entertainment which they received from the bishop's society was hardly in itself a recompense for the dull monotony of their day. but of what they endured mrs. greenacre took no account; she thought only of what she considered they must enjoy, and of the dreadfully exalted tone of living which would be manifested by the rosebank family, as the consequence of their present distinction. "but did 'ee zee 'em there, dame, did 'ee zee 'em there with your own eyes?" asked poor mrs. greenacre, still hoping that there might be some ground for doubt. "and how could i do that, unless so be i was there myself?" asked mrs. guffern. "i didn't zet eyes on none of them this blessed morning, but i zee'd them as did. you know our john; well, he will be for keeping company with betsey rusk, madam's own maid, you know. and betsey isn't none of your common kitchen wenches. so betsey, she come out to our john, you know, and she's always vastly polite to me, is betsey rusk, i must say. so before she took so much as one turn with john she told me every ha'porth that was going on up in the house." "did she now?" said mrs. greenacre. "indeed she did," said mrs. guffern. "and she told you them people was up there in the drawing-room?" "she told me she zee'd 'em come in--that they was dressed finer by half nor any of the family, with all their neckses and buzoms stark naked as a born babby." "the minxes!" exclaimed mrs. greenacre, who felt herself more put about by this than any other mark of aristocratic distinction which her enemies had assumed. "yes, indeed," continued mrs. guffern, "as naked as you please, while all the quality was dressed just as you and i be, mrs. greenacre." "drat their impudence," said mrs. greenacre, from whose well-covered bosom all milk of human kindness was receding, as far as the family of the lookalofts were concerned. "so says i," said mrs. guffern; "and so says my goodman, thomas guffern, when he hear'd it. 'molly,' says he to me, 'if ever you takes to going about o' mornings with yourself all naked in them ways, i begs you won't come back no more to the old house.' so says i, 'thomas, no more i wull.' 'but,' says he, 'drat it, how the deuce does she manage with her rheumatiz, and she not a rag on her;'" and mrs. guffern laughed loudly as she thought of mrs. lookaloft's probable sufferings from rheumatic attacks. "but to liken herself that way to folk that ha' blood in their veins," said mrs. greenacre. "well, but that warn't all neither that betsey told. there they all swelled into madam's drawing-room, like so many turkey cocks, as much as to say, 'and who dare say no to us?' and gregory was thinking of telling of 'em to come down here, only his heart failed him 'cause of the grand way they was dressed. so in they went, but madam looked at them as glum as death." "well, now," said mrs. greenacre, greatly relieved, "so they wasn't axed different from us at all then?" "betsey says that gregory says that madam wasn't a bit too well pleased to see them where they was, and that to his believing they was expected to come here just like the rest of us." there was great consolation in this. not that mrs. greenacre was altogether satisfied. she felt that justice to herself demanded that mrs. lookaloft should not only not be encouraged, but that she should also be absolutely punished. what had been done at that scriptural banquet, of which mrs. greenacre so often read the account to her family? why had not miss thorne boldly gone to the intruder and said, "friend, thou hast come up hither to high places not fitted to thee. go down lower, and thou wilt find thy mates." let the lookalofts be treated at the present moment with ever so cold a shoulder, they would still be enabled to boast hereafter of their position, their aspirations, and their honour. "well, with all her grandeur, i do wonder that she be so mean," continued mrs. greenacre, unable to dismiss the subject. "did you hear, goodman?" she went on, about to repeat the whole story to her husband who then came up. "there's dame lookaloft and bab and gussy and the lot of 'em all sitting as grand as fivepence in madam's drawing-room, and they not axed no more nor you nor me. did you ever hear tell the like o' that?" "well, and what for shouldn't they?" said farmer greenacre. "likening theyselves to the quality, as though they was estated folk, or the like o' that!" said mrs. guffern. "well, if they likes it, and madam likes it, they's welcome for me," said the farmer. "now i likes this place better, 'cause i be more at home-like, and don't have to pay for them fine clothes for the missus. everyone to his taste, mrs. guffern, and if neighbour lookaloft thinks that he has the best of it, he's welcome." mrs. greenacre sat down by her husband's side to begin the heavy work of the banquet, and she did so in some measure with restored tranquillity, but nevertheless she shook her head at her gossip to show that in this instance she did not quite approve of her husband's doctrine. "and i'll tell 'ee what, dames," continued he; "if so be that we cannot enjoy the dinner that madam gives us because mother lookaloft is sitting up there on a grand sofa, i think we ought all to go home. if we greet at that, what'll we do when true sorrow comes across us? how would you be now, dame, if the boy there had broke his neck when he got the tumble?" mrs. greenacre was humbled and said nothing further on the matter. but let prudent men such as mr. greenacre preach as they will, the family of the lookalofts certainly does occasion a good deal of heart-burning in the world at large. it was pleasant to see mr. plomacy as, leaning on his stout stick, he went about among the rural guests, acting as a sort of head constable as well as master of the revels. "now, young'un, if you can't manage to get along without that screeching, you'd better go to the other side of the twelve-acre field and take your dinner with you. come, girls, what do you stand there for, twirling of your thumbs? come out, and let the lads see you; you've no need to be so ashamed of your faces. hollo there, who are you? how did you make your way in here?" this last disagreeable question was put to a young man of about twenty-four who did not, in mr. plomacy's eye, bear sufficient vestiges of a rural education and residence. "if you please, your worship, master barrell the coachman let me in at the church wicket, 'cause i do be working mostly al'ays for the family." "then master barrell the coachman may let you out again," said mr. plomacy, not even conciliated by the magisterial dignity which had been conceded to him. "what's your name? and what trade are you? and who do you work for?" "i'm stubbs, your worship, bob stubbs; and--and--and--" "and what's your trade, stubbs?" "plasterer, please your worship." "i'll plaster you, and barrell too; you'll just walk out of this 'ere field as quick as you walked in. we don't want no plasterers; when we do, we'll send for 'em. come my buck, walk." stubbs the plasterer was much downcast at this dreadful edict. he was a sprightly fellow, and had contrived since his ingress into the ullathorne elysium to attract to himself a forest nymph, to whom he was whispering a plasterer's usual soft nothings, when he was encountered by the great mr. plomacy. it was dreadful to be thus dissevered from his dryad and sent howling back to a barchester pandemonium just as the nectar and ambrosia were about to descend on the fields of asphodel. he began to try what prayers would do, but city prayers were vain against the great rural potentate. not only did mr. plomacy order his exit but, raising his stick to show the way which led to the gate that had been left in the custody of that false cerberus barrell, proceeded himself to see the edict of banishment carried out. the goddess mercy, however, the sweetest goddess that ever sat upon a cloud, and the dearest to poor, frail, erring man, appeared on the field in the person of mr. greenacre. never was interceding goddess more welcome. "come, man," said mr. greenacre, "never stick at trifles such a day as this. i know the lad well. let him bide at my axing. madam won't miss what he can eat and drink, i know." now mr. plomacy and mr. greenacre were sworn friends. mr. plomacy had at his own disposal as comfortable a room as there was in ullathorne house, but he was a bachelor, and alone there, and, moreover, smoking in the house was not allowed even to mr. plomacy. his moments of truest happiness were spent in a huge armchair in the warmest corner of mrs. greenacre's beautifully clean front kitchen. 'twas there that the inner man dissolved itself and poured itself out in streams of pleasant chat; 'twas there that he was respected and yet at his ease; 'twas there, and perhaps there only, that he could unburden himself from the ceremonies of life without offending the dignity of those above him, or incurring the familiarity of those below. 'twas there that his long pipe was always to be found on the accustomed chimney-board, not only permitted but encouraged. such being the state of the case, it was not to be supposed that mr. plomacy could refuse such a favour to mr. greenacre; but nevertheless he did not grant it without some further show of austere authority. "eat and drink, mr. greenacre! no. it's not what he eats and drinks, but the example such a chap shows, coming in where he's not invited--a chap of his age, too. he too that never did a day's work about ullathorne since he was born. plasterer! i'll plaster him!" "he worked long enough for me, then, mr. plomacy. and a good hand he is at setting tiles as any in barchester," said the other, not sticking quite to veracity, as indeed mercy never should. "come, come, let him alone to-day and quarrel with him to-morrow. you wouldn't shame him before his lass there?" "it goes against the grain with me, then," said mr. plomacy. "and take care, you stubbs, and behave yourself. if i hear a row, i shall know where it comes from. i'm up to you barchester journeymen; i know what stuff you're made of." and so stubbs went off happy, pulling at the forelock of his shock head of hair in honour of the steward's clemency and giving another double pull at it in honour of the farmer's kindness. and as he went he swore within his grateful heart that if ever farmer greenacre wanted a day's work done for nothing, he was the lad to do it for him. which promise it was not probable that he would ever be called on to perform. but mr. plomacy was not quite happy in his mind, for he thought of the unjust steward and began to reflect whether he had not made for himself friends of the mammon of unrighteousness. this, however, did not interfere with the manner in which he performed his duties at the bottom of the long board; nor did mr. greenacre perform his the worse at the top on account of the good wishes of stubbs the plasterer. moreover the guests did not think it anything amiss when mr. plomacy, rising to say grace, prayed that god would make them all truly thankful for the good things which madame thorne in her great liberality had set before them! all this time the quality in the tent on the lawn were getting on swimmingly--that is, if champagne without restriction can enable quality folk to swim. sir harkaway gorse proposed the health of miss thorne, and likened her to a blood race-horse, always in condition and not to be tired down by any amount of work. mr. thorne returned thanks, saying he hoped his sister would always be found able to run when called upon, and then gave the health and prosperity of the de courcy family. his sister was very much honoured by seeing so many of them at her poor board. they were all aware that important avocations made the absence of the earl necessary. as his duty to his prince had called him from his family hearth, he, mr. thorne, could not venture to regret that he did not see him at ullathorne; but nevertheless he would venture to say--that was, to express a wish--an opinion, he meant to say--and so mr. thorne became somewhat gravelled, as country gentlemen in similar circumstances usually do; but he ultimately sat down, declaring that he had much satisfaction in drinking the noble earl's health, together with that of the countess, and all the family of de courcy castle. and then the honourable george returned thanks. we will not follow him through the different periods of his somewhat irregular eloquence. those immediately in his neighbourhood found it at first rather difficult to get him on his legs, but much greater difficulty was soon experienced in inducing him to resume his seat. one of two arrangements should certainly be made in these days: either let all speech-making on festive occasions be utterly tabooed and made as it were impossible; or else let those who are to exercise the privilege be first subjected to a competing examination before the civil-service examining commissioners. as it is now, the honourable georges do but little honour to our exertions in favour of british education. in the dining-room the bishop went through the honours of the day with much more neatness and propriety. he also drank miss thorne's health, and did it in a manner becoming the bench which he adorned. the party there was perhaps a little more dull, a shade less lively than that in the tent. but what was lost in mirth was fully made up in decorum. and so the banquets passed off at the various tables with great éclat and universal delight. chapter xl ullathorne sports--act ii "that which has made them drunk has made me bold." 'twas thus that mr. slope encouraged himself, as he left the dining-room in pursuit of eleanor. he had not indeed seen in that room any person really intoxicated, but there had been a good deal of wine drunk, and mr. slope had not hesitated to take his share, in order to screw himself up to the undertaking which he had in hand. he is not the first man who has thought it expedient to call in the assistance of bacchus on such an occasion. eleanor was out through the window and on the grass before she perceived that she was followed. just at that moment the guests were nearly all occupied at the tables. here and there were to be seen a constant couple or two, who preferred their own sweet discourse to the jingle of glasses or the charms of rhetoric which fell from the mouths of the honourable george and the bishop of barchester; but the grounds were as nearly vacant as mr. slope could wish them to be. eleanor saw that she was pursued, and as a deer, when escape is no longer possible, will turn to bay and attack the hounds, so did she turn upon mr. slope. "pray don't let me take you from the room," said she, speaking with all the stiffness which she knew how to use. "i have come out to look for a friend. i must beg of you, mr. slope, to go back." but mr. slope would not be thus entreated. he had observed all day that mrs. bold was not cordial to him, and this had to a certain extent oppressed him. but he did not deduce from this any assurance that his aspirations were in vain. he saw that she was angry with him. might she not be so because he had so long tampered with her feelings--might it not arise from his having, as he knew was the case, caused her name to be bruited about in conjunction with his own without having given her the opportunity of confessing to the world that henceforth their names were to be one and the same? poor lady. he had within him a certain christian conscience-stricken feeling of remorse on this head. it might be that he had wronged her by his tardiness. he had, however, at the present moment imbibed too much of mr. thorne's champagne to have any inward misgivings. he was right in repeating the boast of lady macbeth: he was not drunk, but he was bold enough for anything. it was a pity that in such a state he could not have encountered mrs. proudie. "you must permit me to attend you," said he; "i could not think of allowing you to go alone." "indeed you must, mr. slope," said eleanor still very stiffly, "for it is my special wish to be alone." the time for letting the great secret escape him had already come. mr. slope saw that it must be now or never, and he was determined that it should be now. this was not his first attempt at winning a fair lady. he had been on his knees, looked unutterable things with his eyes, and whispered honeyed words before this. indeed, he was somewhat an adept at these things, and had only to adapt to the perhaps different taste of mrs. bold the well-remembered rhapsodies which had once so much gratified olivia proudie. "do not ask me to leave you, mrs. bold," said he with an impassioned look, impassioned and sanctified as well, with that sort of look which is not uncommon with gentlemen of mr. slope's school and which may perhaps be called the tender-pious. "do not ask me to leave you till i have spoken a few words with which my heart is full--which i have come hither purposely to say." eleanor saw how it was now. she knew directly what it was she was about to go through, and very miserable the knowledge made her. of course she could refuse mr. slope, and there would be an end of that, one might say. but there would not be an end of it, as far as eleanor was concerned. the very fact of mr. slope's making an offer to her would be a triumph to the archdeacon and, in a great measure, a vindication of mr. arabin's conduct. the widow could not bring herself to endure with patience the idea that she had been in the wrong. she had defended mr. slope, she had declared herself quite justified in admitting him among her acquaintance, had ridiculed the idea of his considering himself as more than an acquaintance, and had resented the archdeacon's caution in her behalf: now it was about to be proved to her in a manner sufficiently disagreeable that the archdeacon had been right, and she herself had been entirely wrong. "i don't know what you can have to say to me, mr. slope, that you could not have said when we were sitting at table just now;" and she closed her lips, and steadied her eyeballs, and looked at him in a manner that ought to have frozen him. but gentlemen are not easily frozen when they are full of champagne, and it would not at any time have been easy to freeze mr. slope. "there are things, mrs. bold, which a man cannot well say before a crowd; which perhaps he cannot well say at any time; which indeed he may most fervently desire to get spoken, and which he may yet find it almost impossible to utter. it is such things as these that i now wish to say to you;" and then the tender-pious look was repeated, with a little more emphasis even than before. eleanor had not found it practicable to stand stock still before the dining-room window, there receive his offer in full view of miss thorne's guests. she had therefore in self-defence walked on, and thus mr. slope had gained his object of walking with her. he now offered her his arm. "thank you, mr. slope, i am much obliged to you; but for the very short time that i shall remain with you i shall prefer walking alone." "and must it be so short?" said he. "must it be--" "yes," said eleanor, interrupting him, "as short as possible, if you please, sir." "i had hoped, mrs. bold--i had hoped--" "pray hope nothing, mr. slope, as far as i am concerned; pray do not; i do not know and need not know what hope you mean. our acquaintance is very slight, and will probably remain so. pray, pray let that be enough; there is at any rate no necessity for us to quarrel." mrs. bold was certainly treating mr. slope rather cavalierly, and he felt it so. she was rejecting him before he had offered himself, and informing him at the same time that he was taking a great deal too much on himself to be so familiar. she did not even make an attempt from such a sharp and waspish word as "no" to pluck the sting. he was still determined to be very tender and very pious, seeing that, in spite of all mrs. bold had said to him, he had not yet abandoned hope; but he was inclined also to be somewhat angry. the widow was bearing herself, as he thought, with too high a hand, was speaking of herself in much too imperious a tone. she had clearly no idea that an honour was being conferred on her. mr. slope would be tender as long as he could, but he began to think if that failed it would not be amiss if he also mounted himself for awhile on his high horse. mr. slope could undoubtedly be very tender, but he could be very savage also, and he knew his own abilities. "that is cruel," said he, "and unchristian, too. the worst of us are still bidden to hope. what have i done that you should pass on me so severe a sentence?" and then he paused a moment, during which the widow walked steadily on with measured steps, saying nothing further. "beautiful woman," at last he burst forth, "beautiful woman, you cannot pretend to be ignorant that i adore you. yes, eleanor, yes, i love you. i love you with the truest affection which man can bear to woman. next to my hopes of heaven are my hopes of possessing you." (mr. slope's memory here played him false, or he would not have omitted the deanery.) "how sweet to walk to heaven with you by my side, with you for my guide, mutual guides. say, eleanor, dearest eleanor, shall we walk that sweet path together?" eleanor had no intention of ever walking together with mr. slope on any other path than that special one of miss thorne's which they now occupied, but as she had been unable to prevent the expression of mr. slope's wishes and aspirations, she resolved to hear him out to the end before she answered him. "ah, eleanor," he continued, and it seemed to be his idea that as he had once found courage to pronounce her christian name, he could not utter it often enough. "ah, eleanor, will it not be sweet, with the lord's assistance, to travel hand in hand through this mortal valley which his mercies will make pleasant to us, till hereafter we shall dwell together at the foot of his throne?" and then a more tenderly pious glance than ever beamed from the lover's eyes. "ah, eleanor--" "my name, mr. slope, is mrs. bold," said eleanor, who, though determined to hear out the tale of his love, was too much disgusted by his blasphemy to be able to bear much more of it. "sweetest angel, be not so cold," said he, and as he said it the champagne broke forth, and he contrived to pass his arm round her waist. he did this with considerable cleverness, for up to this point eleanor had contrived with tolerable success to keep her distance from him. they had got into a walk nearly enveloped by shrubs, and mr. slope therefore no doubt considered that as they were now alone it was fitting that he should give her some outward demonstration of that affection of which he talked so much. it may perhaps be presumed that the same stamp of measures had been found to succeed with olivia proudie. be this as it may, it was not successful with eleanor bold. she sprang from him as she would have jumped from an adder, but she did not spring far--not, indeed, beyond arm's length--and then, quick as thought, she raised her little hand and dealt him a box on the ear with such right goodwill that it sounded among the trees like a miniature thunderclap. and now it is to be feared that every well-bred reader of these pages will lay down the book with disgust, feeling that, after all, the heroine is unworthy of sympathy. she is a hoyden, one will say. at any rate she is not a lady, another will exclaim. i have suspected her all through, a third will declare; she has no idea of the dignity of a matron, or of the peculiar propriety which her position demands. at one moment she is romping with young stanhope; then she is making eyes at mr. arabin; anon she comes to fisticuffs with a third lover--and all before she is yet a widow of two years' standing. she cannot altogether be defended, and yet it may be averred that she is not a hoyden, not given to romping nor prone to boxing. it were to be wished devoutly that she had not struck mr. slope in the face. in doing so she derogated from her dignity and committed herself. had she been educated in belgravia, had she been brought up by any sterner mentor than that fond father, had she lived longer under the rule of a husband, she might, perhaps, have saved herself from this great fault. as it was, the provocation was too much for her, the temptation to instant resentment of the insult too strong. she was too keen in the feeling of independence, a feeling dangerous for a young woman, but one in which her position peculiarly tempted her to indulge. and then mr. slope's face, tinted with a deeper dye than usual by the wine he had drunk, simpering and puckering itself with pseudo-pity and tender grimaces, seemed specially to call for such punishment. she had, too, a true instinct as to the man; he was capable of rebuke in this way and in no other. to him the blow from her little hand was as much an insult as a blow from a man would have been to another. it went directly to his pride. he conceived himself lowered in his dignity and personally outraged. he could almost have struck at her again in his rage. even the pain was a great annoyance to him, and the feeling that his clerical character had been wholly disregarded sorely vexed him. there are such men: men who can endure no taint on their personal self-respect, even from a woman; men whose bodies are to themselves such sacred temples that a joke against them is desecration, and a rough touch downright sacrilege. mr. slope was such a man, and therefore the slap on the face that he got from eleanor was, as far as he was concerned, the fittest rebuke which could have been administered to him. but nevertheless, she should not have raised her hand against the man. ladies' hands, so soft, so sweet, so delicious to the touch, so graceful to the eye, so gracious in their gentle doings, were not made to belabour men's faces. the moment the deed was done eleanor felt that she had sinned against all propriety, and would have given little worlds to recall the blow. in her first agony of sorrow she all but begged the man's pardon. her next impulse, however, and the one which she obeyed, was to run away. "i never, never will speak another word to you," she said, gasping with emotion and the loss of breath which her exertion and violent feelings occasioned her, and so saying she put foot to the ground and ran quickly back along the path to the house. but how shall i sing the divine wrath of mr. slope, or how invoke the tragic muse to describe the rage which swelled the celestial bosom of the bishop's chaplain? such an undertaking by no means befits the low-heeled buskin of modern fiction. the painter put a veil over agamemnon's face when called on to depict the father's grief at the early doom of his devoted daughter. the god, when he resolved to punish the rebellious winds, abstained from mouthing empty threats. we will not attempt to tell with what mighty surgings of the inner heart mr. slope swore to revenge himself on the woman who had disgraced him, nor will we vainly strive to depict his deep agony of soul. there he is, however, alone in the garden walk, and we must contrive to bring him out of it. he was not willing to come forth quite at once. his cheek was stinging with the weight of eleanor's fingers, and he fancied that everyone who looked at him would be able to see on his face the traces of what he had endured. he stood awhile, becoming redder and redder with rage. he stood motionless, undecided, glaring with his eyes, thinking of the pains and penalties of hades, and meditating how he might best devote his enemy to the infernal gods with all the passion of his accustomed eloquence. he longed in his heart to be preaching at her. 'twas thus that he was ordinarily avenged of sinning mortal men and women. could he at once have ascended his sunday rostrum and fulminated at her such denunciations as his spirit delighted in, his bosom would have been greatly eased. but how preach to mr. thorne's laurels, or how preach indeed at all in such a vanity fair as this now going on at ullathorne? and then he began to feel a righteous disgust at the wickedness of the doings around him. he had been justly chastised for lending, by his presence, a sanction to such worldly lures. the gaiety of society, the mirth of banquets, the laughter of the young, and the eating and drinking of the elders were, for awhile, without excuse in his sight. what had he now brought down upon himself by sojourning thus in the tents of the heathen? he had consorted with idolaters round the altars of baal, and therefore a sore punishment had come upon him. he then thought of the signora neroni, and his soul within him was full of sorrow. he had an inkling--a true inkling--that he was a wicked, sinful man, but it led him in no right direction; he could admit no charity in his heart. he felt debasement coming on him, and he longed to shake it off, to rise up in his stirrup, to mount to high places and great power, that he might get up into a mighty pulpit and preach to the world a loud sermon against mrs. bold. there he stood fixed to the gravel for about ten minutes. fortune favoured him so far that no prying eyes came to look upon him in his misery. then a shudder passed over his whole frame; he collected himself and slowly wound his way round to the lawn, advancing along the path and not returning in the direction which eleanor had taken. when he reached the tent, he found the bishop standing there in conversation with the master of lazarus. his lordship had come out to air himself after the exertion of his speech. "this is very pleasant--very pleasant, my lord, is it not?" said mr. slope with his most gracious smile, pointing to the tent; "very pleasant. it is delightful to see so many persons enjoying themselves so thoroughly." mr. slope thought he might force the bishop to introduce him to dr. gwynne. a very great example had declared and practised the wisdom of being everything to everybody, and mr. slope was desirous of following it. his maxim was never to lose a chance. the bishop, however, at the present moment was not very anxious to increase mr. slope's circle of acquaintance among his clerical brethren. he had his own reasons for dropping any marked allusion to his domestic chaplain, and he therefore made his shoulder rather cold for the occasion. "very, very," said he without turning round, or even deigning to look at mr. slope. "and therefore, dr. gwynne, i really think that you will find that the hebdomadal board will exercise as wide and as general an authority as at the present moment. i, for one, dr. gwynne--" "dr. gwynne," said mr. slope, raising his hat and resolving not to be outwitted by such an insignificant little goose as the bishop of barchester. the master of lazarus also raised his hat and bowed very politely to mr. slope. there is not a more courteous gentleman in the queen's dominions than the master of lazarus. "my lord," said mr. slope, "pray do me the honour of introducing me to dr. gwynne. the opportunity is too much in my favour to be lost." the bishop had no help for it. "my chaplain, dr. gwynne," said he, "my present chaplain, mr. slope." he certainly made the introduction as unsatisfactory to the chaplain as possible, and by the use of the word "present" seemed to indicate that mr. slope might probably not long enjoy the honour which he now held. but mr. slope cared nothing for this. he understood the innuendo, and disregarded it. it might probably come to pass that he would be in a situation to resign his chaplaincy before the bishop was in a situation to dismiss him from it. what need the future dean of barchester care for the bishop, or for the bishop's wife? had not mr. slope, just as he was entering dr. stanhope's carriage, received an all-important note from tom towers of "the jupiter"? had he not that note this moment in his pocket? so disregarding the bishop, he began to open out a conversation with the master of lazarus. but suddenly an interruption came, not altogether unwelcome to mr. slope. one of the bishop's servants came up to his master's shoulder with a long, grave face and whispered into the bishop's ear. "what is it, john?" said the bishop. "the dean, my lord; he is dead." mr. slope had no further desire to converse with the master of lazarus, and was very soon on his road back to barchester. eleanor, as we have said, having declared her intention of never holding further communication with mr. slope, ran hurriedly back towards the house. the thought, however, of what she had done grieved her greatly, and she could not abstain from bursting into tears. 'twas thus she played the second act in that day's melodrama. chapter xli mrs. bold confides her sorrow to her friend miss stanhope when mrs. bold came to the end of the walk and faced the lawn, she began to bethink herself what she should do. was she to wait there till mr. slope caught her, or was she to go in among the crowd with tears in her eyes and passion in her face? she might in truth have stood there long enough without any reasonable fear of further immediate persecution from mr. slope, but we are all inclined to magnify the bugbears which frighten us. in her present state of dread she did not know of what atrocity he might venture to be guilty. had anyone told her a week ago that he would have put his arm round her waist at this party of miss thorne's, she would have been utterly incredulous. had she been informed that he would be seen on the following sunday walking down the high street in a scarlet coat and top boots, she would not have thought such a phenomenon more improbable. but this improbable iniquity he had committed, and now there was nothing she could not believe of him. in the first place it was quite manifest that he was tipsy; in the next place it was to be taken as proved that all his religion was sheer hypocrisy; and finally the man was utterly shameless. she therefore stood watching for the sound of his footfall, not without some fear that he might creep out at her suddenly from among the bushes. as she thus stood she saw charlotte stanhope at a little distance from her, walking quickly across the grass. eleanor's handkerchief was in her hand, and putting it to her face so as to conceal her tears, she ran across the lawn and joined her friend. "oh, charlotte," she said, almost too much out of breath to speak very plainly; "i am so glad i have found you." "glad you have found me!" said charlotte, laughing; "that's a good joke. why bertie and i have been looking for you everywhere. he swears that you have gone off with mr. slope, and is now on the point of hanging himself." "oh, charlotte, don't," said mrs. bold. "why, my child, what on earth is the matter with you?" said miss stanhope, perceiving that eleanor's hand trembled on her own arm, and finding also that her companion was still half-choked by tears. "goodness heaven! something has distressed you. what is it? what can i do for you?" eleanor answered her only by a sort of spasmodic gurgle in her throat. she was a good deal upset, as people say, and could not at the moment collect herself. "come here, this way, mrs. bold; come this way, and we shall not be seen. what has happened to vex you so? what can i do for you? can bertie do anything?" "oh, no, no, no, no," said eleanor. "there is nothing to be done. only that horrid man--" "what horrid man?" asked charlotte. there are some moments in life in which both men and women feel themselves imperatively called on to make a confidence, in which not to do so requires a disagreeable resolution and also a disagreeable suspicion. there are people of both sexes who never make confidences, who are never tempted by momentary circumstances to disclose their secrets, but such are generally dull, close, unimpassioned spirits, "gloomy gnomes, who live in cold dark mines." there was nothing of the gnome about eleanor, and she therefore resolved to tell charlotte stanhope the whole story about mr. slope. "that horrid man; that mr. slope," said she. "did you not see that he followed me out of the dining-room?" "of course i did, and was sorry enough, but i could not help it. i knew you would be annoyed. but you and bertie managed it badly between you." "it was not his fault nor mine either. you know how i disliked the idea of coming in the carriage with that man." "i am sure i am very sorry if that has led to it." "i don't know what has led to it," said eleanor, almost crying again. "but it has not been my fault." "but what has he done, my dear?" "he's an abominable, horrid, hypocritical man, and it would serve him right to tell the bishop all about it." "believe me, if you want to do him an injury, you had far better tell mrs. proudie. but what did he do, mrs. bold?" "ugh!" exclaimed eleanor. "well, i must confess he's not very nice," said charlotte stanhope. "nice!" said eleanor. "he is the most fulsome, fawning, abominable man i ever saw. what business had he to come to me?--i that never gave him the slightest tittle of encouragement--i that always hated him, though i did take his part when others ran him down." "that's just where it is, my dear. he has heard that and therefore fancied that of course you were in love with him." this was wormwood to eleanor. it was in fact the very thing which all her friends had been saying for the last month past--and which experience now proved to be true. eleanor resolved within herself that she would never again take any man's part. the world, with all its villainy and all its ill-nature, might wag as it liked: she would not again attempt to set crooked things straight. "but what did he do, my dear?" said charlotte, who was really rather interested in the subject. "he--he--he--" "well--come, it can't have been anything so very horrid, for the man was not tipsy." "oh, i am sure he was" said eleanor. "i am sure he must have been tipsy." "well, i declare i didn't observe it. but what was it, my love?" "why, i believe i can hardly tell you. he talked such horrid stuff that you never heard the like: about religion, and heaven, and love. oh, dear--he is such a nasty man." "i can easily imagine the sort of stuff he would talk. well--and then--?" "and then--he took hold of me." "took hold of you?" "yes--he somehow got close to me and took hold of me--" "by the waist?" "yes," said eleanor shuddering. "and then--" "then i jumped away from him, and gave him a slap on the face, and ran away along the path till i saw you." "ha, ha, ha!" charlotte stanhope laughed heartily at the finale to the tragedy. it was delightful to her to think that mr. slope had had his ears boxed. she did not quite appreciate the feeling which made her friend so unhappy at the result of the interview. to her thinking the matter had ended happily enough as regarded the widow, who indeed was entitled to some sort of triumph among her friends. whereas to mr. slope would be due all those gibes and jeers which would naturally follow such an affair. his friends would ask him whether his ears tingled whenever he saw a widow, and he would be cautioned that beautiful things were made to be looked at and not to be touched. such were charlotte stanhope's views on such matters, but she did not at the present moment clearly explain them to mrs. bold. her object was to endear herself to her friend, and therefore, having had her laugh, she was ready enough to offer sympathy. could bertie do anything? should bertie speak to the man and warn him that in future he must behave with more decorum? bertie indeed, she declared, would be more angry than anyone else when he heard to what insult mrs. bold had been subjected. "but you won't tell him?" said mrs. bold with a look of horror. "not if you don't like it," said charlotte; "but considering everything, i would strongly advise it. if you had a brother, you know, it would be unnecessary. but it is very right that mr. slope should know that you have somebody by you that will and can protect you." "but my father is here." "yes, but it is so disagreeable for clergymen to have to quarrel with each other; and circumstanced as your father is just at this moment, it would be very inexpedient that there should be anything unpleasant between him and mr. slope. surely you and bertie are intimate enough for you to permit him to take your part." charlotte stanhope was very anxious that her brother should at once on that very day settle matters with his future wife. things had now come to that point between him and his father, and between him and his creditors, that he must either do so, or leave barchester; either do that, or go back to his unwashed associates, dirty lodgings, and poor living at carrara. unless he could provide himself with an income, he must go to carrara, or to ----. his father the prebendary had not said this in so many words, but had he done so, he could not have signified it more plainly. such being the state of the case it was very necessary that no more time should be lost. charlotte had seen her brother's apathy, when he neglected to follow mrs. bold out of the room, with anger which she could hardly suppress. it was grievous to think that mr. slope should have so distanced him. charlotte felt that she had played her part with sufficient skill. she had brought them together and induced such a degree of intimacy that her brother was really relieved from all trouble and labour in the matter. and moreover it was quite plain that mrs. bold was very fond of bertie. and now it was plain enough also that he had nothing to fear from his rival, mr. slope. there was certainly an awkwardness in subjecting mrs. bold to a second offer on the same day. it would have been well perhaps to have put the matter off for a week, could a week have been spared. but circumstances are frequently too peremptory to be arranged as we would wish to arrange them, and such was the case now. this being so, could not this affair of mr. slope's be turned to advantage? could it not be made the excuse for bringing bertie and mrs. bold into still closer connexion--into such close connexion that they could not fail to throw themselves into each other's arms? such was the game which miss stanhope now at a moment's notice resolved to play. and very well she played it. in the first place it was arranged that mr. slope should not return in the stanhopes' carriage to barchester. it so happened that mr. slope was already gone, but of that of course they knew nothing. the signora should be induced to go first, with only the servants and her sister, and bertie should take mr. slope's place in the second journey. bertie was to be told in confidence of the whole affair, and when the carriage was gone off with its first load, eleanor was to be left under bertie's special protection, so as to insure her from any further aggression from mr. slope. while the carriage was getting ready, bertie was to seek out that gentleman and make him understand that he must provide himself with another conveyance back to barchester. their immediate object should be to walk about together in search of bertie. bertie in short was to be the pegasus on whose wings they were to ride out of their present dilemma. there was a warmth of friendship and cordial kindliness in all this that was very soothing to the widow; but yet, though she gave way to it, she was hardly reconciled to doing so. it never occurred to her that, now that she had killed one dragon, another was about to spring up in her path; she had no remote idea that she would have to encounter another suitor in her proposed protector, but she hardly liked the thought of putting herself so much into the hands of young stanhope. she felt that if she wanted protection, she should go to her father. she felt that she should ask him to provide a carriage for her back to barchester. mrs. clantantram she knew would give her a seat. she knew that she should not throw herself entirely upon friends whose friendship dated, as it were, but from yesterday. but yet she could not say no to one who was so sisterly in her kindness, so eager in her good nature, so comfortably sympathetic as charlotte stanhope. and thus she gave way to all the propositions made to her. they first went into the dining-room, looking for their champion, and from thence to the drawing-room. here they found mr. arabin, still hanging over the signora's sofa; or rather they found him sitting near her head, as a physician might have sat had the lady been his patient. there was no other person in the room. the guests were some in the tent, some few still in the dining room, some at the bows and arrows, but most of them walking with miss thorne through the park and looking at the games that were going on. all that had passed, and was passing between mr. arabin and the lady, it is unnecessary to give in detail. she was doing with him as she did with all others. it was her mission to make fools of men, and she was pursuing her mission with mr. arabin. she had almost got him to own his love for mrs. bold and had subsequently almost induced him to acknowledge a passion for herself. he, poor man, was hardly aware what he was doing or saying, hardly conscious whether was in heaven or in hell. so little had he known of female attractions of that peculiar class which the signora owned, that he became affected with a kind of temporary delirium when first subjected to its power. he lost his head rather than this heart, and toppled about mentally, reeling in his ideas as a drunken man does on his legs. she had whispered to him words that really meant nothing but which, coming from such beautiful lips and accompanied by such lustrous glances, seemed to have a mysterious significance, which he felt though he could not understand. in being thus besirened, mr. arabin behaved himself very differently from mr. slope. the signora had said truly that the two men were the contrasts of each other--that the one was all for action, the other all for thought. mr. slope, when this lady laid upon his senses the overpowering breath of her charms, immediately attempted to obtain some fruition, to achieve some mighty triumph. he began by catching at her hand and progressed by kissing it. he made vows of love and asked for vows in return. he promised everlasting devotion, knelt before her, and swore that had she been on mount ida, juno would have had no cause to hate the offspring of venus. but mr. arabin uttered no oaths, kept his hand mostly in his trousers pocket, and had no more thought of kissing madame neroni than of kissing the countess de courcy. as soon as mr. arabin saw mrs. bold enter the room he blushed and rose from his chair; then he sat down again, and then again got up. the signora saw the blush at once and smiled at the poor victim, but eleanor was too much confused to see anything. "oh, madeline," said charlotte, "i want to speak to you particularly; we must arrange about the carriage, you know," and she stooped down to whisper to her sister. mr. arabin immediately withdrew to a little distance, and as charlotte had in fact much to explain before she could make the new carriage arrangement intelligible, he had nothing to do but to talk to mrs. bold. "we have had a very pleasant party," said he, using the tone he would have used had he declared that the sun was shining very brightly, or the rain falling very fast. "very," said eleanor, who never in her life had passed a more unpleasant day. "i hope mr. harding has enjoyed himself." "oh, yes, very much," said eleanor, who had not seen her father since she parted from him soon after her arrival. "he returns to barchester to-night, i suppose." "yes, i believe so--that is, i think he is staying at plumstead." "oh, staying at plumstead," said mr. arabin. "he came from there this morning. i believe he is going back, he didn't exactly say, however." "i hope mrs. grantly is quite well." "she seemed to be quite well. she is here; that is, unless she has gone away." "oh, yes, to be sure. i was talking to her. looking very well indeed." then there was a considerable pause; for charlotte could not at once make madeline understand why she was to be sent home in a hurry without her brother. "are you returning to plumstead, mrs. bold?" mr. arabin merely asked this by way of making conversation, but he immediately perceived that he was approaching dangerous ground. "no," said mrs. bold very quietly; "i am going home to barchester." "oh, ah, yes. i had forgotten that you had returned." and then mr. arabin, finding it impossible to say anything further, stood silent till charlotte had completed her plans, and mrs. bold stood equally silent, intently occupied as it appeared in the arrangement of her rings. and yet these two people were thoroughly in love with each other; and though one was a middle-aged clergyman, and the other a lady at any rate past the wishy-washy bread-and-butter period of life, they were as unable to tell their own minds to each other as any damon and phillis, whose united ages would not make up that to which mr. arabin had already attained. madeline neroni consented to her sister's proposal, and then the two ladies again went off in quest of bertie stanhope. chapter xlii ullathorne sports--act iii and now miss thorne's guests were beginning to take their departure, and the amusement of those who remained was becoming slack. it was getting dark, and ladies in morning costumes were thinking that, if they were to appear by candlelight, they ought to readjust themselves. some young gentlemen had been heard to talk so loud that prudent mammas determined to retire judiciously, and the more discreet of the male sex, whose libations had been moderate, felt that there was not much more left for them to do. morning parties, as a rule, are failures. people never know how to get away from them gracefully. a picnic on an island or a mountain or in a wood may perhaps be permitted. there is no master of the mountain bound by courtesy to bid you stay while in his heart he is longing for your departure. but in a private house or in private grounds a morning party is a bore. one is called on to eat and drink at unnatural hours. one is obliged to give up the day, which is useful, and is then left without resource for the evening, which is useless. one gets home fagged and _désoeuvré_, and yet at an hour too early for bed. there is no comfortable resource left. cards in these genteel days are among the things tabooed, and a rubber of whist is impracticable. all this began now to be felt. some young people had come with some amount of hope that they might get up a dance in the evening, and were unwilling to leave till all such hope was at an end. others, fearful of staying longer than was expected, had ordered their carriages early, and were doing their best to go, solicitous for their servants and horses. the countess and her noble brood were among the first to leave, and as regarded the hon. george, it was certainly time that he did so. her ladyship was in a great fret and fume. those horrid roads would, she was sure, be the death of her if unhappily she were caught in them by the dark night. the lamps she was assured were good, but no lamp could withstand the jolting of the roads of east barsetshire. the de courcy property lay in the western division of the county. mrs. proudie could not stay when the countess was gone. so the bishop was searched for by the revs. messrs. grey and green and found in one corner of the tent enjoying himself thoroughly in a disquisition on the hebdomadal board. he obeyed, however, the behests of his lady without finishing the sentence in which he was promising to dr. gwynne that his authority at oxford should remain unimpaired, and the episcopal horses turned their noses towards the palatial stables. then the grantlys went. before they did so, mr. harding managed to whisper a word into his daughter's ear. of course, he said, he would undeceive the grantlys as to that foolish rumour about mr. slope. "no, no, no," said eleanor; "pray do not--pray wait till i see you. you will be home in a day or two, and then i will explain to you everything." "i shall be home to-morrow," said he. "i am so glad," said eleanor. "you will come and dine with me, and then we shall be so comfortable." mr. harding promised. he did not exactly know what there was to be explained, or why dr. grantly's mind should not be disabused of the mistake into which he had fallen, but nevertheless he promised. he owed some reparation to his daughter, and he thought that he might best make it by obedience. and thus the people were thinning off by degrees as charlotte and eleanor walked about in quest of bertie. their search might have been long had they not happened to hear his voice. he was comfortably ensconced in the ha-ha, with his back to the sloping side, smoking a cigar, and eagerly engaged in conversation with some youngster from the further side of the county, whom he had never met before, who was also smoking under bertie's pupilage and listening with open ears to an account given by his companion of some of the pastimes of eastern clime. "bertie, i am seeking you everywhere," said charlotte. "come up here at once." bertie looked up out of the ha-ha and saw the two ladies before him. as there was nothing for him but to obey, he got up and threw away his cigar. from the first moment of his acquaintance with her he had liked eleanor bold. had he been left to his own devices, had she been penniless, and had it then been quite out of the question that he should marry her, he would most probably have fallen violently in love with her. but now he could not help regarding her somewhat as he did the marble workshops at carrara, as he had done his easel and palette, as he had done the lawyer's chambers in london--in fact, as he had invariably regarded everything by which it had been proposed to him to obtain the means of living. eleanor bold appeared before him, no longer as a beautiful woman, but as a new profession called matrimony. it was a profession indeed requiring but little labour, and one in which an income was insured to him. but nevertheless he had been as it were goaded on to it; his sister had talked to him of eleanor, just as she had talked of busts and portraits. bertie did not dislike money, but he hated the very thought of earning it. he was now called away from his pleasant cigar to earn it, by offering himself as a husband to mrs. bold. the work indeed was made easy enough, for in lieu of his having to seek the widow, the widow had apparently come to seek him. he made some sudden absurd excuse to his auditor and then, throwing away his cigar, climbed up the wall of the ha-ha and joined the ladies on the lawn. "come and give mrs. bold an arm," said charlotte, "while i set you on a piece of duty which, as a _preux chevalier_, you must immediately perform. your personal danger will, i fear, be insignificant, as your antagonist is a clergyman." bertie immediately gave his arm to eleanor, walking between her and his sister. he had lived too long abroad to fall into the englishman's habit of offering each an arm to two ladies at the same time--a habit, by the by, which foreigners regard as an approach to bigamy, or a sort of incipient mormonism. the little history of mr. slope's misconduct was then told to bertie by his sister, eleanor's ears tingling the while. and well they might tingle. if it were necessary to speak of the outrage at all, why should it be spoken of to such a person as mr. stanhope, and why in her own hearing? she knew she was wrong, and was unhappy and dispirited, yet she could think of no way to extricate herself, no way to set herself right. charlotte spared her as much as she possibly could, spoke of the whole thing as though mr. slope had taken a glass of wine too much, said that of course there would be nothing more about it, but that steps must be taken to exclude mr. slope from the carriage. "mrs. bold need be under no alarm about that," said bertie, "for mr. slope has gone this hour past. he told me that business made it necessary that he should start at once for barchester." "he is not so tipsy, at any rate, but what he knows his fault," said charlotte. "well, my dear, that is one difficulty over. now i'll leave you with your true knight and get madeline off as quickly as i can. the carriage is here, i suppose, bertie?" "it has been here for the last hour." "that's well. good-bye, my dear. of course you'll come in to tea. i shall trust to you to bring her, bertie, even by force if necessary." and so saying, charlotte ran off across the lawn, leaving her brother alone with the widow. as miss stanhope went off, eleanor bethought herself that, as mr. slope had taken his departure, there no longer existed any necessity for separating mr. stanhope from his sister madeline, who so much needed his aid. it had been arranged that he should remain so as to preoccupy mr. slope's place in the carriage, and act as a social policeman to effect the exclusion of that disagreeable gentleman. but mr. slope had effected his own exclusion, and there was no possible reason now why bertie should not go with his sister--at least eleanor saw none, and she said as much. "oh, let charlotte have her own way," said he. "she has arranged it, and there will be no end of confusion if we make another change. charlotte always arranges everything in our house and rules us like a despot." "but the signora?" said eleanor. "oh, the signora can do very well without me. indeed, she will have to do without me," he added, thinking rather of his studies in carrara than of his barchester hymeneals. "why, you are not going to leave us?" asked eleanor. it has been said that bertie stanhope was a man without principle. he certainly was so. he had no power of using active mental exertion to keep himself from doing evil. evil had no ugliness in his eyes; virtue no beauty. he was void of any of these feelings which actuate men to do good. but he was perhaps equally void of those which actuate men to do evil. he got into debt with utter recklessness, thinking nothing as to whether the tradesmen would ever be paid or not. but he did not invent active schemes of deceit for the sake of extracting the goods of others. if a man gave him credit, that was the man's look-out; bertie stanhope troubled himself nothing further. in borrowing money he did the same; he gave people references to "his governor;" told them that the "old chap" had a good income; and agreed to pay sixty per cent for the accommodation. all this he did without a scruple of conscience; but then he never contrived active villainy. in this affair of his marriage it had been represented to him as a matter of duty that he ought to put himself in possession of mrs. bold's hand and fortune, and at first he had so regarded it. about her he had thought but little. it was the customary thing for men situated as he was to marry for money, and there was no reason why he should not do what others around him did. and so he consented. but now he began to see the matter in another light. he was setting himself down to catch this woman, as a cat sits to catch a mouse. he was to catch her, and swallow her up, her and her child, and her houses and land, in order that he might live on her instead of on his father. there was a cold, calculating, cautious cunning about this quite at variance with bertie's character. the prudence of the measure was quite as antagonistic to his feelings as the iniquity. and then, should he be successful, what would be the reward? having satisfied his creditors with half of the widow's fortune, he would be allowed to sit down quietly at barchester, keeping economical house with the remainder. his duty would be to rock the cradle of the late mr. bold's child, and his highest excitement a demure party at plumstead rectory, should it ultimately turn out that the archdeacon would be sufficiently reconciled to receive him. there was very little in the programme to allure such a man as bertie stanhope. would not the carrara workshop, or whatever worldly career fortune might have in store for him, would not almost anything be better than this? the lady herself was undoubtedly all that was desirable, but the most desirable lady becomes nauseous when she has to be taken as a pill. he was pledged to his sister, however, and let him quarrel with whom he would, it behoved him not to quarrel with her. if she were lost to him, all would be lost that he could ever hope to derive henceforward from the paternal roof-tree. his mother was apparently indifferent to his weal or woe, to his wants or his warfare. his father's brow got blacker and blacker from day to day, as the old man looked at his hopeless son. and as for madeline--poor madeline, whom of all of them he liked the best--she had enough to do to shift for herself. no; come what might, he must cling to his sister and obey her behests, let them be ever so stern--or at the very least seem to obey them. could not some happy deceit bring him through in this matter, so that he might save appearances with his sister and yet not betray the widow to her ruin? what if he made a confederate of eleanor? 'twas in this spirit that bertie stanhope set about his wooing. "but you are not going to leave barchester?" asked eleanor. "i do not know," he replied; "i hardly know yet what i am going to do. but it is at any rate certain that i must do something." "you mean about your profession?" said she. "yes, about my profession, if you can call it one." "and is it not one?" said eleanor. "were i a man, i know none i should prefer to it, except painting. and i believe the one is as much in your power as the other." "yes, just about equally so," said bertie with a little touch of inward satire directed at himself. he knew in his heart that he would never make a penny by either. "i have often wondered, mr. stanhope, why you do not exert yourself more," said eleanor, who felt a friendly fondness for the man with whom she was walking. "but i know it is very impertinent in me to say so." "impertinent!" said he. "not so, but much too kind. it is much too kind in you to take any interest in so idle a scamp." "but you are not a scamp, though you are perhaps idle. and i do take an interest in you, a very great interest," she added in a voice which almost made him resolve to change his mind. "and when i call you idle, i know you are only so for the present moment. why can't you settle steadily to work here in barchester?" "and make busts of the bishop, dean, and chapter? or perhaps, if i achieve a great success, obtain a commission to put up an elaborate tombstone over a prebendary's widow, a dead lady with a grecian nose, a bandeau, and an intricate lace veil; lying of course on a marble sofa from among the legs of which death will be creeping out and poking at his victim with a small toasting-fork." eleanor laughed, but yet she thought that if the surviving prebendary paid the bill, the object of the artist as a professional man would in a great measure be obtained. "i don't know about the dean and chapter and the prebendary's widow," said eleanor. "of course you must take them as they come. but the fact of your having a great cathedral in which such ornaments are required could not but be in your favour." "no real artist could descend to the ornamentation of a cathedral," said bertie, who had his ideas of the high ecstatic ambition of art, as indeed all artists have who are not in receipt of a good income. "buildings should be fitted to grace the sculpture, not the sculpture to grace the building." "yes, when the work of art is good enough to merit it. do you, mr. stanhope, do something sufficiently excellent and we ladies of barchester will erect for it a fitting receptacle. come, what shall the subject be?" "i'll put you in your pony chair, mrs. bold, as dannecker put ariadne on her lion. only you must promise to sit for me." "my ponies are too tame, i fear, and my broad-brimmed straw hat will not look so well in marble as the lace veil of the prebendary's wife." "if you will not consent to that, mrs. bold, i will consent to try no other subject in barchester." "you are determined then to push your fortune in other lands?" "i am determined," said bertie slowly and significantly, as he tried to bring up his mind to a great resolve; "i am determined in this matter to be guided wholly by you." "wholly by me?" said eleanor, astonished at, and not quite liking, his altered manner. "wholly by you," said bertie, dropping his companion's arm and standing before her on the path. in their walk they had come exactly to the spot in which eleanor had been provoked into slapping mr. slope's face. could it be possible that this place was peculiarly unpropitious to her comfort? could it be possible that she should here have to encounter yet another amorous swain? "if you will be guided by me, mr. stanhope, you will set yourself down to steady and persevering work, and you will be ruled by your father as to the place in which it will be most advisable for you to do so." "nothing could be more prudent, if only it were practicable. but now, if you will let me, i will tell you how it is that i will be guided by you, and why. will you let me tell you?" "i really do not know what you can have to tell." "no, you cannot know. it is impossible that you should. but we have been very good friends, mrs. bold, have we not?" "yes, i think we have," said she, observing in his demeanour an earnestness very unusual with him. "you were kind enough to say just now that you took an interest in me, and i was perhaps vain enough to believe you." "there is no vanity in that; i do so as your sister's brother--and as my own friend also." "well, i don't deserve that you should feel so kindly towards me," said bertie, "but upon my word i am very grateful for it," and he paused awhile, hardly knowing how to introduce the subject that he had in hand. and it was no wonder that he found it difficult. he had to make known to his companion the scheme that had been prepared to rob her of her wealth, he had to tell her that he had intended to marry her without loving her, or else that he loved her without intending to marry her; and he had also to bespeak from her not only his own pardon, but also that of his sister, and induce mrs. bold to protest in her future communion with charlotte that an offer had been duly made to her and duly rejected. bertie stanhope was not prone to be very diffident of his own conversational powers, but it did seem to him that he was about to tax them almost too far. he hardly knew where to begin, and he hardly knew where he should end. by this time eleanor was again walking on slowly by his side, not taking his arm as she had heretofore done but listening very intently for whatever bertie might have to say to her. "i wish to be guided by you," said he; "indeed, in this matter there is no one else who can set me right." "oh, that must be nonsense," said she. "well, listen to me now, mrs. bold, and if you can help it, pray don't be angry with me." "angry!" said she. "oh, indeed you will have cause to be so. you know how very much attached to you my sister charlotte is." eleanor acknowledged that she did. "indeed she is; i never knew her to love anyone so warmly on so short an acquaintance. you know also how well she loves me?" eleanor now made no answer, but she felt the blood tingle in her cheek as she gathered from what he said the probable result of this double-barrelled love on the part of miss stanhope. "i am her only brother, mrs. bold, and it is not to be wondered at that she should love me. but you do not yet know charlotte--you do not know how entirely the well-being of our family hangs on her. without her to manage for us, i do not know how we should get on from day to day. you cannot yet have observed all this." eleanor had indeed observed a good deal of this; she did not, however, now say so, but allowed him to proceed with his story. "you cannot therefore be surprised that charlotte should be most anxious to do the best for us all." eleanor said that she was not at all surprised. "and she has had a very difficult game to play, mrs. bold--a very difficult game. poor madeline's unfortunate marriage and terrible accident, my mother's ill-health, my father's absence from england, and last, and worse perhaps, my own roving, idle spirit have almost been too much for her. you cannot wonder if among all her cares one of the foremost is to see me settled in the world." eleanor on this occasion expressed no acquiescence. she certainly supposed that a formal offer was to be made and could not but think that so singular an exordium was never before made by a gentleman in a similar position. mr. slope had annoyed her by the excess of his ardour. it was quite clear that no such danger was to be feared from mr. stanhope. prudential motives alone actuated him. not only was he about to make love because his sister told him, but he also took the precaution of explaining all this before he began. 'twas thus, we may presume, that the matter presented itself to mrs. bold. when he had got so far, bertie began poking the gravel with a little cane which he carried. he still kept moving on, but very slowly, and his companion moved slowly by his side, not inclined to assist him in the task the performance of which appeared to be difficult to him. "knowing how fond she is of yourself, mrs. bold, cannot you imagine what scheme should have occurred to her?" "i can imagine no better scheme, mr. stanhope, than the one i proposed to you just now." "no," said he somewhat lackadaisically; "i suppose that would be the best, but charlotte thinks another plan might be joined with it. she wants me to marry you." a thousand remembrances flashed across eleanor's mind all in a moment--how charlotte had talked about and praised her brother, how she had continually contrived to throw the two of them together, how she had encouraged all manner of little intimacies, how she had with singular cordiality persisted in treating eleanor as one of the family. all this had been done to secure her comfortable income for the benefit of one of the family! such a feeling as this is very bitter when it first impresses itself on a young mind. to the old, such plots and plans, such matured schemes for obtaining the goods of this world without the trouble of earning them, such long-headed attempts to convert "tuum" into "meum" are the ways of life to which they are accustomed. 'tis thus that many live, and it therefore behoves all those who are well-to-do in the world to be on their guard against those who are not. with them it is the success that disgusts, not the attempt. but eleanor had not yet learnt to look on her money as a source of danger; she had not begun to regard herself as fair game to be hunted down by hungry gentlemen. she had enjoyed the society of the stanhopes, she had greatly liked the cordiality of charlotte, and had been happy in her new friends. now she saw the cause of all this kindness, and her mind was opened to a new phase of human life. "miss stanhope," said she haughtily, "has been contriving for me a great deal of honour, but she might have saved herself the trouble. i am not sufficiently ambitious." "pray don't be angry with her, mrs. bold," said he, "or with me either." "certainly not with you, mr. stanhope," said she with considerable sarcasm in her tone. "certainly not with you." "no--nor with her," said he imploringly. "and why, may i ask you, mr. stanhope, have you told me this singular story? for i may presume i may judge by your manner of telling it that--that--that you and your sister are not exactly of one mind on the subject." "no, we are not." "and if so," said mrs. bold, who was now really angry with the unnecessary insult which she thought had been offered to her. "and if so, why has it been worth your while to tell me all this?" "i did once think, mrs. bold--that you--that you--" the widow now again became entirely impassive, and would not lend the slightest assistance to her companion. "i did once think that you perhaps might--might have been taught to regard me as more than a friend." "never!" said mrs. bold, "never. if i have ever allowed myself to do anything to encourage such an idea, i have been very much to blame--very much to blame indeed." "you never have," said bertie, who really had a good-natured anxiety to make what he said as little unpleasant as possible. "you never have, and i have seen for some time that i had no chance--but my sister's hopes ran higher. i have not mistaken you, mrs. bold, though perhaps she has." "then why have you said all this to me?" "because i must not anger her." "and will not this anger her? upon my word, mr. stanhope, i do not understand the policy of your family. oh, how i wish i was at home!" and as she expressed the wish she could restrain herself no longer and burst out into a flood of tears. poor bertie was greatly moved. "you shall have the carriage to yourself going home," said he; "at least you and my father. as for me, i can walk, or for the matter of that it does not much signify what i do." he perfectly understood that part of eleanor's grief arose from the apparent necessity of her going back to barchester in the carriage with her second suitor. this somewhat mollified her. "oh, mr. stanhope," said she, "why should you have made me so miserable? what will you have gained by telling me all this?" he had not even yet explained to her the most difficult part of his proposition; he had not told her that she was to be a party to the little deception which he intended to play off upon his sister. this suggestion had still to be made, and as it was absolutely necessary, he proceeded to make it. we need not follow him through the whole of his statement. at last, and not without considerable difficulty, he made eleanor understand why he had let her into his confidence, seeing that he no longer intended her the honour of a formal offer. at last he made her comprehend the part which she was destined to play in this little family comedy. but when she did understand it, she was only more angry with him than ever; more angry, not only with him, but with charlotte also. her fair name was to be bandied about between them in different senses, and each sense false. she was to be played off by the sister against the father, and then by the brother against the sister. her dear friend charlotte, with all her agreeable sympathy and affection, was striving to sacrifice her for the stanhope family welfare; and bertie, who, as he now proclaimed himself, was over head and ears in debt, completed the compliment of owning that he did not care to have his debts paid at so great a sacrifice of himself. then she was asked to conspire together with this unwilling suitor for the sake of making the family believe that he had in obedience to their commands done his best to throw himself thus away! she lifted up her face when he had finished, and looking at him with much dignity, even through her tears, she said: "i regret to say it, mr. stanhope, but after what has passed i believe that all intercourse between your family and myself had better cease." "well, perhaps it had," said bertie naïvely; "perhaps that will be better at any rate for a time; and then charlotte will think you are offended at what i have done." "and now i will go back to the house, if you please," said eleanor. "i can find my way by myself, mr. stanhope: after what has passed," she added, "i would rather go alone." "but i must find the carriage for you, mrs. bold; and i must tell my father that you will return with him alone; and i must make some excuse to him for not going with you; and i must bid the servant put you down at your own house, for i suppose you will not now choose to see them again in the close." there was a truth about this, and a perspicuity in making arrangements for lessening her immediate embarrassment, which had some effect in softening eleanor's anger. so she suffered herself to walk by his side over the now deserted lawn, till they came to the drawing-room window. there was something about bertie stanhope which gave him, in the estimation of everyone, a different standing from that which any other man would occupy under similar circumstances. angry as eleanor was, and great as was her cause for anger, she was not half as angry with him as she would have been with anyone else. he was apparently so simple, so good-natured, so unaffected and easy to talk to, that she had already half-forgiven him before he was at the drawing-room window. when they arrived there, dr. stanhope was sitting nearly alone with mr. and miss thorne; one or two other unfortunates were there, who from one cause or another were still delayed in getting away, but they were every moment getting fewer in number. as soon as he had handed eleanor over to his father, bertie started off to the front gate in search of the carriage, and there he waited leaning patiently against the front wall, comfortably smoking a cigar, till it came up. when he returned to the room, dr. stanhope and eleanor were alone with their hosts. "at last, miss thorne," said he cheerily, "i have come to relieve you. mrs. bold and my father are the last roses of the very delightful summer you have given us, and desirable as mrs. bold's society always is, now at least you must be glad to see the last flowers plucked from the tree." miss thorne declared that she was delighted to have mrs. bold and dr. stanhope still with her, and mr. thorne would have said the same, had he not been checked by a yawn, which he could not suppress. "father, will you give your arm to mrs. bold?" said bertie: and so the last adieux were made, and the prebendary led out mrs. bold, followed by his son. "i shall be home soon after you," said he as the two got into the carriage. "are you not coming in the carriage?" said the father. "no, no; i have someone to see on the road, and shall walk. john, mind you drive to mrs. bold's house first." eleanor, looking out of the window, saw him with his hat in his hand, bowing to her with his usual gay smile, as though nothing had happened to mar the tranquillity of the day. it was many a long year before she saw him again. dr. stanhope hardly spoke to her on her way home, and she was safely deposited by john at her own hall-door before the carriage drove into the close. and thus our heroine played the last act of that day's melodrama. chapter xliii mr. and mrs. quiverful are made happy. mr. slope is encouraged by the press before she started for ullathorne, mrs. proudie, careful soul, caused two letters to be written, one by herself and one by her lord, to the inhabitants of puddingdale vicarage, which made happy the hearth of those within it. as soon as the departure of the horses left the bishop's stable-groom free for other services, that humble denizen of the diocese started on the bishop's own pony with the two dispatches. we have had so many letters lately that we will spare ourselves these. that from the bishop was simply a request that mr. quiverful would wait upon his lordship the next morning at a.m.; that from the lady was as simply a request that mrs. quiverful would do the same by her, though it was couched in somewhat longer and more grandiloquent phraseology. it had become a point of conscience with mrs. proudie to urge the settlement of this great hospital question. she was resolved that mr. quiverful should have it. she was resolved that there should be no more doubt or delay, no more refusals and resignations, no more secret negotiations carried on by mr. slope on his own account in opposition to her behests. "bishop," she said immediately after breakfast on the morning of that eventful day, "have you signed the appointment yet?" "no, my dear, not yet; it is not exactly signed as yet." "then do it," said the lady. the bishop did it, and a very pleasant day indeed he spent at ullathorne. and when he got home, he had a glass of hot negus in his wife's sitting-room, and read the last number of the little dorrit of the day with great inward satisfaction. oh, husbands, oh, my marital friends, what great comfort is there to be derived from a wife well obeyed! much perturbation and flutter, high expectation and renewed hopes, were occasioned at puddingdale, by the receipt of these episcopal dispatches. mrs. quiverful, whose careful ear caught the sound of the pony's feet as he trotted up to the vicarage kitchen door, brought them in hurriedly to her husband. she was at the moment concocting the irish stew destined to satisfy the noonday wants of fourteen young birds, let alone the parent couple. she had taken the letters from the man's hands between the folds of her capacious apron so as to save them from the contamination of the stew, and in this guise she brought them to her husband's desk. they at once divided the spoil, each taking that addressed to the other. "quiverful," said she with impressive voice, "you are to be at the palace at eleven to-morrow." "and so are you, my dear," said he, almost gasping with the importance of the tidings--and then they exchanged letters. "she'd never have sent for me again," said the lady, "if it wasn't all right." "oh, my dear, don't be too certain," said the gentleman, "only think if it should be wrong." "she'd never have sent for me, q., if it wasn't all right," again argued the lady. "she's stiff and hard and proud as piecrust, but i think she's right at bottom." such was mrs. quiverful's verdict about mrs. proudie, to which in after times she always adhered. people when they get their income doubled usually think that those through whose instrumentality this little ceremony is performed are right at bottom. "oh, letty!" said mr. quiverful, rising from his well-worn seat. "oh, q.!" said mrs. quiverful, and then the two, unmindful of the kitchen apron, the greasy fingers, and the adherent irish stew, threw themselves warmly into each other's arms. "for heaven's sake, don't let anyone cajole you out of it again," said the wife. "let me alone for that," said the husband with a look of almost fierce determination, pressing his fist as he spoke rigidly on his desk, as though he had mr. slope's head below his knuckles and meant to keep it there. "i wonder how soon it will be?" said she. "i wonder whether it will be at all?" said he, still doubtful. "well, i won't say too much," said the lady. "the cup has slipped twice before, and it may fall altogether this time, but i'll not believe it. he'll give you the appointment to-morrow. you'll find he will." "heaven send he may," said mr. quiverful solemnly. and who that considers the weight of the burden on this man's back will say that the prayer was an improper one? there were fourteen of them--fourteen of them living--as mrs. quiverful had so powerfully urged in the presence of the bishop's wife. as long as promotion cometh from any human source, whether north or south, east or west, will not such a claim as this hold good, in spite of all our examination tests, _detur digniori's_, and optimist tendencies? it is fervently to be hoped that it may. till we can become divine, we must be content to be human, lest in our hurry for a change we sink to something lower. and then the pair, sitting down lovingly together, talked over all their difficulties, as they so often did, and all their hopes, as they so seldom were enabled to do. "you had better call on that man, q., as you come away from the palace," said mrs. quiverful, pointing to an angry call for money from the barchester draper, which the postman had left at the vicarage that morning. cormorant that he was, unjust, hungry cormorant! when rumour first got abroad that the quiverfuls were to go to the hospital, this fellow with fawning eagerness had pressed his goods upon the wants of the poor clergyman. he had done so, feeling that he should be paid from the hospital funds, and flattering himself that a man with fourteen children, and money wherewithal to clothe them, could not but be an excellent customer. as soon as the second rumour reached him, he applied for his money angrily. and "the fourteen"--or such of them as were old enough to hope and discuss their hopes--talked over their golden future. the tall grown girls whispered to each other of possible barchester parties, of possible allowances for dress, of a possible piano--the one they had in the vicarage was so weather-beaten with the storms of years and children as to be no longer worthy of the name--of the pretty garden, and the pretty house. 'twas of such things it most behoved them to whisper. and the younger fry, they did not content themselves with whispers, but shouted to each other of their new playground beneath our dear ex-warden's well-loved elms, of their future own gardens, of marbles to be procured in the wished-for city, and of the rumour which had reached them of a barchester school. 'twas in vain that their cautious mother tried to instil into their breasts the very feeling she had striven to banish from that of their father; 'twas in vain that she repeated to the girls that "there's many a slip 'twixt the cup and the lip;" 'twas in vain she attempted to make the children believe that they were to live at puddingdale all their lives. hopes mounted high, and would not have themselves quelled. the neighbouring farmers heard the news and came in to congratulate them. 'twas mrs. quiverful herself who had kindled the fire, and in the first outbreak of her renewed expectations she did it so thoroughly that it was quite past her power to put it out again. poor matron! good, honest matron, doing thy duty in the state to which thou hast been called, heartily if not contentedly; let the fire burn on; on this occasion the flames will not scorch; they shall warm thee and thine. 'tis ordained that that husband of thine, that q. of thy bosom, shall reign supreme for years to come over the bedesmen of hiram's hospital. and the last in all barchester to mar their hopes, had he heard and seen all that passed at puddingdale that day, would have been mr. harding. what wants had he to set in opposition to those of such a regiment of young ravens? there are fourteen of them living! with him, at any rate, let us say that that argument would have been sufficient for the appointment of mr. quiverful. in the morning q. and his wife kept their appointments with that punctuality which bespeaks an expectant mind. the friendly farmer's gig was borrowed, and in that they went, discussing many things by the way. they had instructed the household to expect them back by one, and injunctions were given to the eldest pledge to have ready by that accustomed hour the remainder of the huge stew which the provident mother had prepared on the previous day. the hands of the kitchen clock came round to two, three, four, before the farmer's gig wheels were again heard at the vicarage gate. with what palpitating hearts were the returning wanderers greeted! "i suppose, children, you all thought we were never coming back any more?" said the mother as she slowly let down her solid foot till it rested on the step of the gig. "well, such a day as we've had!" and then leaning heavily on a big boy's shoulder, she stepped once more on terra firma. there was no need for more than the tone of her voice to tell them that all was right. the irish stew might burn itself to cinders now. then there was such kissing and hugging, such crying and laughing. mr. quiverful could not sit still at all, but kept walking from room to room, then out into the garden, then down the avenue into the road, and then back again to his wife. she, however, lost no time so idly. "we must go to work at once, girls, and that in earnest. mrs. proudie expects us to be in the hospital house on the th of october." had mrs. proudie expressed a wish that they should all be there on the next morning, the girls would have had nothing to say against it. "and when will the pay begin?" asked the eldest boy. "to-day, my dear," said the gratified mother. "oh, that is jolly," said the boy. "mrs. proudie insisted on our going down to the house," continued the mother, "and when there, i thought i might save a journey by measuring some of the rooms and windows; so i got a knot of tape from bobbins. bobbins is as civil as you please, now." "i wouldn't thank him," said letty the younger. "oh, it's the way of the world, my dear. they all do just the same. you might just as well be angry with the turkey cock for gobbling at you. it's the bird's nature." and as she enunciated to her bairns the upshot of her practical experience, she pulled from her pocket the portions of tape which showed the length and breadth of the various rooms at the hospital house. and so we will leave her happy in her toils. the quiverfuls had hardly left the palace, and mrs. proudie was still holding forth on the matter to her husband, when another visitor was announced in the person of dr. gwynne. the master of lazarus had asked for the bishop and not for mrs. proudie, and therefore when he was shown into the study, he was surprised rather than rejoiced to find the lady there. but we must go back a little, and it shall be but a little, for a difficulty begins to make itself manifest in the necessity of disposing of all our friends in the small remainder of this one volume. oh, that mr. longman would allow me a fourth! it should transcend the other three as the seventh heaven transcends all the lower stages of celestial bliss. going home in the carriage that evening from ullathorne, dr. gwynne had not without difficulty brought round his friend the archdeacon to a line of tactics much less bellicose than that which his own taste would have preferred. "it will be unseemly in us to show ourselves in a bad humour; moreover, we have no power in this matter, and it will therefore be bad policy to act as though we had." 'twas thus the master of lazarus argued. "if," he continued, "the bishop be determined to appoint another to the hospital, threats will not prevent him, and threats should not be lightly used by an archdeacon to his bishop. if he will place a stranger in the hospital, we can only leave him to the indignation of others. it is probable that such a step may not eventually injure your father-in-law. i will see the bishop, if you will allow me--alone." at this the archdeacon winced visibly. "yes, alone; for so i shall be calmer; and then i shall at any rate learn what he does mean to do in the matter." the archdeacon puffed and blew, put up the carriage window and then put it down again, argued the matter up to his own gate, and at last gave way. everybody was against him, his own wife, mr. harding, and dr. gwynne. "pray keep him out of hot water, dr. gwynne," mrs. grantly had said to her guest. "my dearest madam, i'll do my best," the courteous master had replied. 'twas thus he did it and earned for himself the gratitude of mrs. grantly. and now we may return to the bishop's study. dr. gwynne had certainly not foreseen the difficulty which here presented itself. he--together with all the clerical world of england--had heard it rumoured about that mrs. proudie did not confine herself to her wardrobes, still-rooms, and laundries; but yet it had never occurred to him that if he called on a bishop at one o'clock in the day, he could by any possibility find him closeted with his wife; or that if he did so, the wife would remain longer than necessary to make her curtsey. it appeared, however, as though in the present case mrs. proudie had no idea of retreating. the bishop had been very much pleased with dr. gwynne on the preceding day, and of course thought that dr. gwynne had been as much pleased with him. he attributed the visit solely to compliment, and thought it an extremely gracious and proper thing for the master of lazarus to drive over from plumstead specially to call at the palace so soon after his arrival in the country. the fact that they were not on the same side either in politics or doctrines made the compliment the greater. the bishop, therefore, was all smiles. and mrs. proudie, who liked people with good handles to their names, was also very well disposed to welcome the master of lazarus. "we had a charming party at ullathorne, master, had we not?" said she. "i hope mrs. grantly got home without fatigue." dr. gwynne said that they had all been a little tired, but were none the worse this morning. "an excellent person, miss thorne," suggested the bishop. "and an exemplary christian, i am told," said mrs. proudie. dr. gwynne declared that he was very glad to hear it. "i have not seen her sabbath-day schools yet," continued the lady, "but i shall make a point of doing so before long." dr. gwynne merely bowed at this intimation. he had heard something of mrs. proudie and her sunday-schools, both from dr. grantly and mr. harding. "by the by, master," continued the lady, "i wonder whether mrs. grantly would like me to drive over and inspect her sabbath-day school. i hear that it is most excellently kept." dr. gwynne really could not say. he had no doubt mrs. grantly would be most happy to see mrs. proudie any day mrs. proudie would do her the honour of calling: that was, of course, if mrs. grantly should happen to be at home. a slight cloud darkened the lady's brow. she saw that her offer was not taken in good part. this generation of unregenerated vipers was still perverse, stiff-necked, and hardened in their iniquity. "the archdeacon, i know," said she, "sets his face against these institutions." at this dr. gwynne laughed slightly. it was but a smile. had he given his cap for it he could not have helped it. mrs. proudie frowned again. "'suffer little children, and forbid them not,'" she said. "are we not to remember that, dr. gwynne? 'take heed that ye despise not one of these little ones.' are we not to remember that, dr. gwynne?" and at each of these questions she raised at him her menacing forefinger. "certainly, madam, certainly," said the master, "and so does the archdeacon, i am sure, on weekdays as well as on sundays." "on weekdays you can't take heed not to despise them," said mrs. proudie, "because then they are out in the fields. on weekdays they belong to their parents, but on sundays they ought to belong to the clergyman." and the finger was again raised. the master began to understand and to share the intense disgust which the archdeacon always expressed when mrs. proudie's name was mentioned. what was he to do with such a woman as this? to take his hat and go would have been his natural resource, but then he did not wish to be foiled in his object. "my lord," said he, "i wanted to ask you a question on business, if you could spare me one moment's leisure. i know i must apologize for so disturbing you, but in truth i will not detain you five minutes." "certainly, master, certainly," said the bishop; "my time is quite yours--pray make no apology, pray make no apology." "you have a great deal to do just at the present moment, bishop. do not forget how extremely busy you are at present," said mrs. proudie, whose spirit was now up, for she was angry with her visitor. "i will not delay his lordship much above a minute," said the master of lazarus, rising from his chair and expecting that mrs. proudie would now go, or else that the bishop would lead the way into another room. but neither event seemed likely to occur, and dr. gwynne stood for a moment silent in the middle of the room. "perhaps it's about hiram's hospital?" suggested mrs. proudie. dr. gwynne, lost in astonishment, and not knowing what else on earth to do, confessed that his business with the bishop was connected with hiram's hospital. "his lordship has finally conferred the appointment on mr. quiverful this morning," said the lady. dr. gwynne made a simple reference to the bishop, and finding that the lady's statement was formally confirmed, he took his leave. "that comes of the reform bill," he said to himself as he walked down the bishop's avenue. "well, at any rate the greek play bishops were not so bad as that." it has been said that mr. slope, as he started for ullathorne, received a dispatch from his friend mr. towers, which had the effect of putting him in that high good humour which subsequent events somewhat untowardly damped. it ran as follows. its shortness will be its sufficient apology. my dear sir, i wish you every success. i don't know that i can help you, but if i can, i will. yours ever, t. t. / / -- there was more in this than in all sir nicholas fitzwhiggin's flummery; more than in all the bishop's promises, even had they been ever so sincere; more than in any archbishop's good word, even had it been possible to obtain it. tom towers would do for him what he could. mr. slope had from his youth upwards been a firm believer in the public press. he had dabbled in it himself ever since he had taken his degree, and he regarded it as the great arranger and distributor of all future british terrestrial affairs whatever. he had not yet arrived at the age, an age which sooner or later comes to most of us, which dissipates the golden dreams of youth. he delighted in the idea of wresting power from the hands of his country's magnates and placing it in a custody which was at any rate nearer to his own reach. sixty thousand broadsheets dispersing themselves daily among his reading fellow citizens formed in his eyes a better depot for supremacy than a throne at windsor, a cabinet in downing street, or even an assembly at westminster. and on this subject we must not quarrel with mr. slope, for the feeling is too general to be met with disrespect. tom towers was as good, if not better, than his promise. on the following morning "the jupiter," spouting forth public opinion with sixty thousand loud clarions, did proclaim to the world that mr. slope was the fitting man for the vacant post. it was pleasant for mr. slope to read the following lines in the barchester news-room, which he did within thirty minutes after the morning train from london had reached the city. it is just now five years since we called the attention of our readers to the quiet city of barchester. from that day to this, we have in no way meddled with the affairs of that happy ecclesiastical community. since then, an old bishop has died there, and a young bishop has been installed; but we believe we did not do more than give some customary record of the interesting event. nor are we now about to meddle very deeply in the affairs of the diocese. if any of the chapter feel a qualm of conscience on reading thus far, let it be quieted. above all, let the mind of the new bishop be at rest. we are now not armed for war, but approach the reverend towers of the old cathedral with an olive branch in our hands. it will be remembered that at the time alluded to, now five years past, we had occasion to remark on the state of a charity in barchester called hiram's hospital. we thought that it was maladministered, and that the very estimable and reverend gentleman who held the office of warden was somewhat too highly paid for duties which were somewhat too easily performed. this gentleman--and we say it in all sincerity and with no touch of sarcasm--had never looked on the matter in this light before. we do not wish to take praise to ourselves whether praise be due to us or not. but the consequence of our remark was that the warden did look into the matter, and finding on so doing that he himself could come to no other opinion than that expressed by us, he very creditably threw up the appointment. the then bishop as creditably declined to fill the vacancy till the affair was put on a better footing. parliament then took it up, and we have now the satisfaction of informing our readers that hiram's hospital will be immediately reopened under new auspices. heretofore, provision was made for the maintenance of twelve old men. this will now be extended to the fair sex, and twelve elderly women, if any such can be found in barchester, will be added to the establishment. there will be a matron; there will, it is hoped, be schools attached for the poorest of the children of the poor, and there will be a steward. the warden, for there will still be a warden, will receive an income more in keeping with the extent of the charity than that heretofore paid. the stipend we believe will be £ . we may add that the excellent house which the former warden inhabited will still be attached to the situation. barchester hospital cannot perhaps boast a world-wide reputation, but as we adverted to its state of decadence, we think it right also to advert to its renaissance. may it go on and prosper. whether the salutary reform which has been introduced within its walls has been carried as far as could have been desired may be doubtful. the important question of the school appears to be somewhat left to the discretion of the new warden. this might have been made the most important part of the establishment, and the new warden, whom we trust we shall not offend by the freedom of our remarks, might have been selected with some view to his fitness as schoolmaster. but we will not now look a gift-horse in the mouth. may the hospital go on and prosper! the situation of warden has of course been offered to the gentleman who so honourably vacated it five years since, but we are given to understand that he has declined it. whether the ladies who have been introduced be in his estimation too much for his powers of control, whether it be that the diminished income does not offer to him sufficient temptation to resume his old place, or that he has in the meantime assumed other clerical duties, we do not know. we are, however, informed that he has refused the offer and that the situation has been accepted by mr. quiverful, the vicar of puddingdale. so much we think is due to hiram redivivus. but while we are on the subject of barchester, we will venture with all respectful humility to express our opinion on another matter connected with the ecclesiastical polity of that ancient city. dr. trefoil, the dean, died yesterday. a short record of his death, giving his age and the various pieces of preferment which he has at different times held, will be found in another column of this paper. the only fault we knew in him was his age, and as that is a crime of which we all hope to be guilty, we will not bear heavily on it. may he rest in peace! but though the great age of an expiring dean cannot be made matter of reproach, we are not inclined to look on such a fault as at all pardonable in a dean just brought to the birth. we do hope that the days of sexagenarian appointments are past. if we want deans, we must want them for some purpose. that purpose will necessarily be better fulfilled by a man of forty than by a man of sixty. if we are to pay deans at all, we are to pay them for some sort of work. that work, be it what it may, will be best performed by a workman in the prime of life. dr. trefoil, we see, was eighty when he died. as we have as yet completed no plan for pensioning superannuated clergymen, we do not wish to get rid of any existing deans of that age. but we prefer having as few such as possible. if a man of seventy be now appointed, we beg to point out to lord ---- that he will be past all use in a year or two, if indeed he be not so at the present moment. his lordship will allow us to remind him that all men are not evergreens like himself. we hear that mr. slope's name has been mentioned for this preferment. mr. slope is at present chaplain to the bishop. a better man could hardly be selected. he is a man of talent, young, active, and conversant with the affairs of the cathedral; he is moreover, we conscientiously believe, a truly pious clergyman. we know that his services in the city of barchester have been highly appreciated. he is an eloquent preacher and a ripe scholar. such a selection as this would go far to raise the confidence of the public in the present administration of church patronage and would teach men to believe that from henceforth the establishment of our church will not afford easy couches to worn-out clerical voluptuaries. standing at a reading-desk in the barchester news-room, mr. slope digested this article with considerable satisfaction. what was therein said as to the hospital was now comparatively a matter of indifference to him. he was certainly glad that he had not succeeded in restoring to the place the father of that virago who had so audaciously outraged all decency in his person, and was so far satisfied. but mrs. proudie's nominee was appointed, and he was so far dissatisfied. his mind, however, was now soaring above mrs. bold or mrs. proudie. he was sufficiently conversant with the tactics of "the jupiter" to know that the pith of the article would lie in the last paragraph. the place of honour was given to him, and it was indeed as honourable as even he could have wished. he was very grateful to his friend mr. towers, and with full heart looked forward to the day when he might entertain him in princely style at his own full-spread board in the deanery dining-room. it had been well for mr. slope that dr. trefoil had died in the autumn. those caterers for our morning repast, the staff of "the jupiter," had been sorely put to it for the last month to find a sufficiency of proper pabulum. just then there was no talk of a new american president. no wonderful tragedies had occurred on railway trains in georgia, or elsewhere. there was a dearth of broken banks, and a dead dean with the necessity for a live one was a godsend. had dr. trefoil died in june, mr. towers would probably not have known so much about the piety of mr. slope. and here we will leave mr. slope for awhile in his triumph, explaining, however, that his feelings were not altogether of a triumphant nature. his rejection by the widow, or rather the method of his rejection, galled him terribly. for days to come he positively felt the sting upon his cheek whenever he thought of what had been done to him. he could not refrain from calling her by harsh names, speaking to himself as he walked through the streets of barchester. when he said his prayers, he could not bring himself to forgive her. when he strove to do so, his mind recoiled from the attempt, and in lieu of forgiving ran off in a double spirit of vindictiveness, dwelling on the extent of the injury he had received. and so his prayers dropped senseless from his lips. and then the signora--what would he not have given to be able to hate her also? as it was, he worshipped the very sofa on which she was ever lying. and thus it was not all rose colour with mr. slope, although his hopes ran high. chapter xliv mrs. bold at home poor mrs. bold, when she got home from ullathorne on the evening of miss thorne's party, was very unhappy and, moreover, very tired. nothing fatigues the body so much as weariness of spirit, and eleanor's spirit was indeed weary. dr. stanhope had civilly but not very cordially asked her in to tea, and her manner of refusal convinced the worthy doctor that he need not repeat the invitation. he had not exactly made himself a party to the intrigue which was to convert the late mr. bold's patrimony into an income for his hopeful son, but he had been well aware what was going on. and he was well aware also, when he perceived that bertie declined accompanying them home in the carriage, that the affair had gone off. eleanor was very much afraid that charlotte would have darted out upon her, as the prebendary got out at his own door, but bertie had thoughtfully saved her from this by causing the carriage to go round by her own house. this also dr. stanhope understood and allowed to pass by without remark. when she got home, she found mary bold in the drawing-room with the child in her lap. she rushed forward and, throwing herself on her knees, kissed the little fellow till she almost frightened him. "oh, mary, i am so glad you did not go. it was an odious party." now the question of mary's going had been one greatly mooted between them. mrs. bold, when invited, had been the guest of the grantlys, and miss thorne, who had chiefly known eleanor at the hospital or at plumstead rectory, had forgotten all about mary bold. her sister-in-law had implored her to go under her wing and had offered to write to miss thorne, or to call on her. but miss bold had declined. in fact, mr. bold had not been very popular with such people as the thornes, and his sister would not go among them unless she were specially asked to do so. "well, then," said mary cheerfully, "i have the less to regret." "you have nothing to regret; but oh! mary, i have--so much--so much;" and then she began kissing her boy, whom her caresses had roused from his slumbers. when she raised her head, mary saw that the tears were running down her cheeks. "good heavens, eleanor, what is the matter? what has happened to you--eleanor--dearest eleanor--what is the matter?" and mary got up with the boy still in her arms. "give him to me--give him to me," said the young mother. "give him to me, mary," and she almost tore the child out of her sister's arms. the poor little fellow murmured somewhat at the disturbance but nevertheless nestled himself close into his mother's bosom. "here, mary, take the cloak from me. my own own darling, darling, darling jewel. you are not false to me. everybody else is false; everybody else is cruel. mamma will care for nobody, nobody, nobody, but her own, own, own little man;" and she again kissed and pressed the baby and cried till the tears ran down over the child's face. "who has been cruel to you, eleanor?" said mary. "i hope i have not." now in this matter eleanor had great cause for mental uneasiness. she could not certainly accuse her loving sister-in-law of cruelty; but she had to do that which was more galling: she had to accuse herself of imprudence against which her sister-in-law had warned her. miss bold had never encouraged eleanor's acquaintance with mr. slope, and she had positively discouraged the friendship of the stanhopes, as far as her usual gentle mode of speaking had permitted. eleanor had only laughed at her, however, when she said that she disapproved of married women who lived apart from their husbands and suggested that charlotte stanhope never went to church. now, however, eleanor must either hold her tongue, which was quite impossible, or confess herself to have been utterly wrong, which was nearly equally so. so she staved off the evil day by more tears, and consoled herself by inducing little johnny to rouse himself sufficiently to return her caresses. "he is a darling--as true as gold. what would mamma do without him? mamma would lie down and die if she had not her own johnny bold to give her comfort." this and much more she said of the same kind, and for a time made no other answer to mary's inquiries. this kind of consolation from the world's deceit is very common. mothers obtain it from their children, and men from their dogs. some men even do so from their walking-sticks, which is just as rational. how is it that we can take joy to ourselves in that we are not deceived by those who have not attained the art to deceive us? in a true man, if such can be found, or a true woman, much consolation may indeed be taken. in the caresses of her child, however, eleanor did receive consolation, and may ill befall the man who would begrudge it to her. the evil day, however, was only postponed. she had to tell her disagreeable tale to mary, and she had also to tell it to her father. must it not, indeed, be told to the whole circle of her acquaintance before she could be made to stand all right with them? at the present moment there was no one to whom she could turn for comfort. she hated mr. slope; that was a matter of course; in that feeling she revelled. she hated and despised the stanhopes; but that feeling distressed her greatly. she had, as it were, separated herself from her old friends to throw herself into the arms of this family; and then how had they intended to use her? she could hardly reconcile herself to her own father, who had believed ill of her. mary bold had turned mentor. that she could have forgiven had the mentor turned out to be in the wrong, but mentors in the right are not to be pardoned. she could not but hate the archdeacon, and now she hated him worse than ever, for she must in some sort humble herself before him. she hated her sister, for she was part and parcel of the archdeacon. and she would have hated mr. arabin if she could. he had pretended to regard her, and yet before her face he had hung over that italian woman as though there had been no beauty in the world but hers--no other woman worth a moment's attention. and mr. arabin would have to learn all this about mr. slope! she told herself that she hated him, and she knew that she was lying to herself as she did so. she had no consolation but her baby, and of that she made the most. mary, though she could not surmise what it was that had so violently affected her sister-in-law, saw at once that her grief was too great to be kept under control and waited patiently till the child should be in his cradle. "you'll have some tea, eleanor," she said. "oh, i don't care," said she, though in fact she must have been very hungry, for she had eaten nothing at ullathorne. mary quietly made the tea, and buttered the bread, laid aside the cloak, and made things look comfortable. "he's fast asleep," said she; "you're very tired; let me take him up to bed." but eleanor would not let her sister touch him. she looked wistfully at her baby's eyes, saw that they were lost in the deepest slumber, and then made a sort of couch for him on the sofa. she was determined that nothing should prevail upon her to let him out of her sight that night. "come, nelly," said mary, "don't be cross with me. i at least have done nothing to offend you." "i an't cross," said eleanor. "are you angry then? surely you can't be angry with me." "no, i an't angry--at least not with you." "if you are not, drink the tea i have made for you. i am sure you must want it." eleanor did drink it, and allowed herself to be persuaded. she ate and drank, and as the inner woman was recruited she felt a little more charitable towards the world at large. at last she found words to begin her story, and before she went to bed she had made a clean breast of it and told everything--everything, that is, as to the lovers she had rejected; of mr. arabin she said not a word. "i know i was wrong," said she, speaking of the blow she had given to mr. slope; "but i didn't know what he might do, and i had to protect myself." "he richly deserved it," said mary. "deserved it!" said eleanor, whose mind as regarded mr. slope was almost bloodthirsty. "had i stabbed him with a dagger, he would have deserved it. but what will they say about it at plumstead?" "i don't think i should tell them," said mary. eleanor began to think that she would not. there could have been no kinder comforter than mary bold. there was not the slightest dash of triumph about her when she heard of the stanhope scheme, nor did she allude to her former opinion when eleanor called her late friend charlotte a base, designing woman. she re-echoed all the abuse that was heaped on mr. slope's head and never hinted that she had said as much before. "i told you so, i told you so!" is the croak of a true job's comforter. but mary, when she found her friend lying in her sorrow and scraping herself with potsherds, forbore to argue and to exult. eleanor acknowledged the merit of the forbearance, and at length allowed herself to be tranquilised. on the next day she did not go out of the house. barchester she thought would be crowded with stanhopes and slopes; perhaps also with arabins and grantlys. indeed, there was hardly anyone among her friends whom she could have met without some cause of uneasiness. in the course of the afternoon she heard that the dean was dead, and she also heard that mr. quiverful had been finally appointed to the hospital. in the evening her father came to her, and then the story, or as much of it as she could bring herself to tell him, had to be repeated. he was not in truth much surprised at mr. slope's effrontery, but he was obliged to act as though he had been to save his daughter's feelings. he was, however, anything but skilful in his deceit, and she saw through it. "i see," said she, "that you think it only in the common course of things that mr. slope should have treated me in this way." she had said nothing to him about the embrace, nor yet of the way in which it had been met. "i do not think it at all strange," said he, "that anyone should admire my eleanor." "it is strange to me," said she, "that any man should have so much audacity, without ever having received the slightest encouragement." to this mr. harding answered nothing. with the archdeacon it would have been the text for a rejoinder which would not have disgraced bildad the shuhite. "but you'll tell the archdeacon?" asked mr. harding. "tell him what?" said she sharply. "or susan?" continued mr. harding. "you'll tell susan; you'll let them know that they wronged you in supposing that this man's addresses would be agreeable to you." "they may find that out their own way," said she; "i shall not ever willingly mention mr. slope's name to either of them." "but i may." "i have no right to hinder you from doing anything that may be necessary to your own comfort, but pray do not do it for my sake. dr. grantly never thought well of me, and never will. i don't know now that i am even anxious that he should do so." and then they went to the affair of the hospital. "but is it true, papa?" "what, my dear?" said he. "about the dean? yes, i fear quite true. indeed i know there is no doubt about it." "poor miss trefoil, i am so sorry for her. but i did not mean that," said eleanor. "but about the hospital, papa?" "yes, my dear. i believe it is true that mr. quiverful is to have it." "oh, what a shame." "no, my dear, not at all, not at all a shame: i am sure i hope it will suit him." "but, papa, you know it is a shame. after all your hopes, all your expectations to get back to your old house, to see it given away in this way to a perfect stranger!" "my dear, the bishop had a right to give it to whom he pleased." "i deny that, papa. he had no such right. it is not as though you were a candidate for a new piece of preferment. if the bishop has a grain of justice--" "the bishop offered it to me on his terms, and as i did not like the terms, i refused it. after that, i cannot complain." "terms! he had no right to make terms." "i don't know about that; but it seems he had the power. but to tell you the truth, nelly, i am as well satisfied as it is. when the affair became the subject of angry discussion, i thoroughly wished to be rid of it altogether." "but you did want to go back to the old house, papa. you told me so yourself." "yes, my dear, i did. for a short time i did wish it. and i was foolish in doing so. i am getting old now, and my chief worldly wish is for peace and rest. had i gone back to the hospital, i should have had endless contentions with the bishop, contentions with his chaplain, and contentions with the archdeacon. i am not up to this now; i am not able to meet such troubles; and therefore i am not ill-pleased to find myself left to the little church of st. cuthbert's. i shall never starve," added he, laughing, "as long as you are here." "but will you come and live with me, papa?" she said earnestly, taking him by both his hands. "if you will do that, if you will promise that, i will own that you are right." "i will dine with you to-day at any rate." "no, but live here altogether. give up that close, odious little room in high street." "my dear, it's a very nice little room, and you are really quite uncivil." "oh, papa, don't joke. it's not a nice place for you. you say you are growing old, though i am sure you are not." "am not i, my dear?" "no, papa, not old--not to say old. but you are quite old enough to feel the want of a decent room to sit in. you know how lonely mary and i are here. you know nobody ever sleeps in the big front bedroom. it is really unkind of you to remain up there alone, when you are so much wanted here." "thank you, nelly--thank you. but, my dear--" "if you had been living here, papa, with us, as i really think you ought to have done, considering how lonely we are, there would have been none of all this dreadful affair about mr. slope." mr. harding, however, did not allow himself to be talked over into giving up his own and only little _pied à terre_ in the high street. he promised to come and dine with his daughter, and stay with her, and visit her, and do everything but absolutely live with her. it did not suit the peculiar feelings of the man to tell his daughter that though she had rejected mr. slope, and been ready to reject mr. stanhope, some other more favoured suitor would probably soon appear, and that on the appearance of such a suitor the big front bedroom might perhaps be more frequently in requisition than at present. but doubtless such an idea crossed his mind, and added its weight to the other reasons which made him decide on still keeping the close, odious little room in high street. the evening passed over quietly and in comfort. eleanor was always happier with her father than with anyone else. he had not, perhaps, any natural taste for baby-worship, but he was always ready to sacrifice himself, and therefore made an excellent third in a trio with his daughter and mary bold in singing the praises of the wonderful child. they were standing together over their music in the evening, the baby having again been put to bed upon the sofa, when the servant brought in a very small note in a beautiful pink envelope. it quite filled the room with perfume as it lay upon the small salver. mary bold and mrs. bold were both at the piano, and mr. harding was sitting close to them, with the violoncello between his legs, so that the elegancy of the epistle was visible to them all. "please ma'am, dr. stanhope's coachman says he is to wait for an answer," said the servant. eleanor got very red in the face as she took the note in her hand. she had never seen the writing before. charlotte's epistles, to which she was well accustomed, were of a very different style and kind. she generally wrote on large note-paper; she twisted up her letters into the shape and sometimes into the size of cocked hats; she addressed them in a sprawling, manly hand, and not unusually added a blot or a smudge, as though such were her own peculiar sign-manual. the address of this note was written in a beautiful female hand, and the gummed wafer bore on it an impress of a gilt coronet. though eleanor had never seen such a one before, she guessed that it came from the signora. such epistles were very numerously sent out from any house in which the signora might happen to be dwelling, but they were rarely addressed to ladies. when the coachman was told by the lady's maid to take the letter to mrs. bold, he openly expressed his opinion that there was some mistake about it. whereupon the lady's maid boxed the coachman's ears. had mr. slope seen in how meek a spirit the coachman took the rebuke, he might have learnt a useful lesson, both in philosophy and religion. the note was as follows. it may be taken as a faithful promise that no further letter whatever shall be transcribed at length in these pages. my dear mrs. bold, may i ask you, as a great favour, to call on me to-morrow. you can say what hour will best suit you, but quite early, if you can. i need hardly say that if i could call upon you, i should not take this liberty with you. i partly know what occurred the other day, and i promise you that you shall meet with no annoyance if you will come to me. my brother leaves us for london to-day; from thence he goes to italy. it will probably occur to you that i should not thus intrude on you, unless i had that to say to you which may be of considerable moment. pray therefore excuse me, even if you do not grant my request. and believe me, very sincerely yours, m. vesey neroni thursday evening the three of them sat in consultation on this epistle for some ten or fifteen minutes, and then decided that eleanor should write a line saying that she would see the signora the next morning at twelve o'clock. chapter xlv the stanhopes at home we must now return to the stanhopes and see how they behaved themselves on their return from ullathorne. charlotte, who came back in the first homeward journey with her sister, waited in palpitating expectation till the carriage drove up to the door a second time. she did not run down, or stand at the window, or show in any outward manner that she looked for anything wonderful to occur; but when she heard the carriage wheels, she stood up with erect ears, listening for eleanor's footfall on the pavement, or the cheery sound of bertie's voice welcoming her in. had she heard either, she would have felt that all was right; but neither sound was there for her to hear. she heard only her father's slow step as he ponderously let himself down from the carriage and slowly walked along the hall, till he got into his own private room on the ground floor. "send miss stanhope to me," he said to the servant. "there's something wrong now," said madeline, who was lying on her sofa in the back drawing-room. "it's all up with bertie," replied charlotte. "i know, i know," she said to the servant as he brought up the message. "tell my father i will be with him immediately." "bertie's wooing has gone astray," said madeline. "i knew it would." "it has been his own fault then. she was ready enough, i am quite sure," said charlotte with that sort of ill-nature which is not uncommon when one woman speaks of another. "what will you say to him now?" by "him," the signora meant their father. "that will be as i find him. he was ready to pay two hundred pounds for bertie to stave off the worst of his creditors, if this marriage had gone on. bertie must now have the money instead and go and take his chance." "where is he now?" "heaven knows! smoking in the bottom of mr. thorne's ha-ha, or philandering with some of those miss chadwicks. nothing will ever make an impression on him. but he'll be furious if i don't go down." "no, nothing ever will. but don't be long, charlotte, for i want my tea." and so charlotte went down to her father. there was a very black cloud on the old man's brow--blacker than his daughter could ever yet remember to have seen there. he was sitting in his own armchair, not comfortably over the fire, but in the middle of the room, waiting till she should come and listen to him. "what has become of your brother?" he said as soon as the door was shut. "i should rather ask you," said charlotte. "i left you both at ullathorne when i came away. what have you done with mrs. bold?" "mrs. bold! nonsense. the woman has gone home as she ought to do. and heartily glad i am that she should not be sacrificed to so heartless a reprobate." "oh, papa!" "a heartless reprobate! tell me now where he is and what he is going to do. i have allowed myself to be fooled between you. marriage, indeed! who on earth that has money, or credit, or respect in the world to lose would marry him?" "it is no use your scolding me, papa. i have done the best i could for him and you." "and madeline is nearly as bad," said the prebendary, who was in truth very, very angry. "oh, i suppose we are all bad," replied charlotte. the old man emitted a huge, leonine sigh. if they were all bad, who had made them so? if they were unprincipled, selfish, and disreputable, who was to be blamed for the education which had had so injurious an effect? "i know you'll ruin me among you," said he. "why, papa, what nonsense that is. you are living within your income this minute, and if there are any new debts, i don't know of them. i am sure there ought to be none, for we are dull enough here." "are those bills of madeline's paid?" "no, they are not. who was to pay them?" "her husband may pay them." "her husband! would you wish me to tell her you say so? do you wish to turn her out of your house?" "i wish she would know how to behave herself." "why, what on earth has she done now? poor madeline! to-day is only the second time she has gone out since we came to this vile town." he then sat silent for a time, thinking in what shape he would declare his resolve. "well, papa," said charlotte, "shall i stay here, or may i go upstairs and give mamma her tea?" "you are in your brother's confidence. tell me what he is going to do." "nothing, that i am aware of." "nothing--nothing! nothing but eat and drink and spend every shilling of my money he can lay his hands upon. i have made up my mind, charlotte. he shall eat and drink no more in this house." "very well. then i suppose he must go back to italy." "he may go where he pleases." "that's easily said, papa, but what does it mean? you can't let him--" "it means this?" said the doctor, speaking more loudly than was his wont and with wrath flashing from his eyes; "that as sure as god rules in heaven i will not maintain him any longer in idleness." "oh, ruling in heaven!" said charlotte. "it is no use talking about that. you must rule him here on earth; and the question is, how can you do it. you can't turn him out of the house penniless, to beg about the street." "he may beg where he likes." "he must go back to carrara. that is the cheapest place he can live at, and nobody there will give him credit for above two or three hundred pauls. but you must let him have the means of going." "as sure as--" "oh, papa, don't swear. you know you must do it. you were ready to pay two hundred pounds for him if this marriage came off. half that will start him to carrara." "what? give him a hundred pounds?" "you know we are all in the dark, papa," said she, thinking it expedient to change the conversation. "for anything we know he may be at this moment engaged to mrs. bold." "fiddlestick," said the father, who had seen the way in which mrs. bold had got into the carriage while his son stood apart without even offering her his hand. "well, then, he must go to carrara," said charlotte. just at this moment the lock of the front door was heard, and charlotte's quick ears detected her brother's catlike step in the hall. she said nothing, feeling that for the present bertie had better keep out of her father's way. but dr. stanhope also heard the sound of the lock. "who's that?" he demanded. charlotte made no reply, and he asked again, "who is that that has just come in? open the door. who is it?" "i suppose it is bertie." "bid him come here," said the father. but bertie, who was close to the door and heard the call, required no further bidding, but walked in with a perfectly unconcerned and cheerful air. it was this peculiar _insouciance_ which angered dr. stanhope, even more than his son's extravagance. "well, sir?" said the doctor. "and how did you get home, sir, with your fair companion?" said bertie. "i suppose she is not upstairs, charlotte?" "bertie," said charlotte, "papa is in no humour for joking. he is very angry with you." "angry!" said bertie, raising his eyebrows as though he had never yet given his parent cause for a single moment's uneasiness. "sit down, if you please, sir," said dr. stanhope very sternly but not now very loudly. "and i'll trouble you to sit down, too, charlotte. your mother can wait for her tea a few minutes." charlotte sat down on the chair nearest to the door in somewhat of a perverse sort of manner, as much as though she would say--"well, here i am; you shan't say i don't do what i am bid; but i'll be whipped if i give way to you." and she was determined not to give way. she too was angry with bertie, but she was not the less ready on that account to defend him from his father. bertie also sat down. he drew his chair close to the library-table, upon which he put his elbow, and then resting his face comfortably on one hand, he began drawing little pictures on a sheet of paper with the other. before the scene was over he had completed admirable figures of miss thorne, mrs. proudie, and lady de courcy, and begun a family piece to comprise the whole set of the lookalofts. "would it suit you, sir," said the father, "to give me some idea as to what your present intentions are? what way of living you propose to yourself?" "i'll do anything you can suggest, sir," replied bertie. "no, i shall suggest nothing further. my time for suggesting has gone by. i have only one order to give, and that is that you leave my house." "to-night?" said bertie, and the simple tone of the question left the doctor without any adequately dignified method of reply. "papa does not quite mean to-night," said charlotte; "at least i suppose not." "to-morrow, perhaps," suggested bertie. "yes, sir, to-morrow," said the doctor. "you shall leave this to-morrow." "very well, sir. will the . p.m. train be soon enough?" and bertie, as he asked, put the finishing touch to miss thorne's high-heeled boots. "you may go how and when and where you please, so that you leave my house to-morrow. you have disgraced me, sir; you have disgraced yourself, and me, and your sisters." "i am glad at least, sir, that i have not disgraced my mother," said bertie. charlotte could hardly keep her countenance, but the doctor's brow grew still blacker than ever. bertie was executing his _chef d'oeuvre_ in the delineation of mrs. proudie's nose and mouth. "you are a heartless reprobate, sir; a heartless, thankless, good-for-nothing reprobate. i have done with you. you are my son--that i cannot help--but you shall have no more part or parcel in me as my child, nor i in you as your father." "oh, papa, papa! you must not, shall not say so," said charlotte. "i will say so, and do say so," said the father, rising from his chair. "and now leave the room, sir." "stop, stop," said charlotte. "why don't you speak, bertie? why don't you look up and speak? it is your manner that makes papa so angry." "he is perfectly indifferent to all decency, to all propriety," said the doctor; then he shouted out, "leave the room, sir! do you hear what i say?" "papa, papa, i will not let you part so. i know you will be sorry for it." and then she added, getting up and whispering into his ear, "is he only to blame? think of that. we have made our own bed, and, such as it is, we must lie on it. it is no use for us to quarrel among ourselves," and as she finished her whisper, bertie finished off the countess's bustle, which was so well done that it absolutely seemed to be swaying to and fro on the paper with its usual lateral motion. "my father is angry at the present time," said bertie, looking up for a moment from his sketches, "because i am not going to marry mrs. bold. what can i say on the matter? it is true that i am not going to marry her. in the first place--" "that is not true, sir," said dr. stanhope, "but i will not argue with you." "you were angry just this moment because i would not speak," said bertie, going on with a young lookaloft. "give over drawing," said charlotte, going up to him and taking the paper from under his hand. the caricatures, however, she preserved and showed them afterwards to the friends of the thornes, the proudies, and de courcys. bertie, deprived of his occupation, threw himself back in his chair and waited further orders. "i think it will certainly be for the best that bertie should leave this at once; perhaps to-morrow," said charlotte; "but pray, papa, let us arrange some scheme together." "if he will leave this to-morrow, i will give him £ , and he shall be paid £ a month by the banker at carrara as long as he stays permanently in that place." "well, sir, it won't be long," said bertie, "for i shall be starved to death in about three months." "he must have marble to work with," said charlotte. "i have plenty there in the studio to last me three months," said bertie. "it will be no use attempting anything large in so limited a time--unless i do my own tombstone." terms, however, were ultimately come to somewhat more liberal than those proposed, and the doctor was induced to shake hands with his son and bid him good night. dr. stanhope would not go up to tea, but had it brought to him in his study by his daughter. but bertie went upstairs and spent a pleasant evening. he finished the lookalofts, greatly to the delight of his sisters, though the manner of portraying their _décolleté_ dresses was not the most refined. finding how matters were going, he by degrees allowed it to escape from him that he had not pressed his suit upon the widow in a very urgent way. "i suppose, in point of fact, you never proposed at all?" said charlotte. "oh, she understood that she might have me if she wished," said he. "and she didn't wish," said the signora. "you have thrown me over in the most shameful manner," said charlotte. "i suppose you told her all about my little plan?" "well, it came out somehow--at least the most of it." "there's an end of that alliance," said charlotte, "but it doesn't matter much. i suppose we shall all be back at como soon." "i am sure i hope so," said the signora. "i'm sick of the sight of black coats. if that mr. slope comes here any more, he'll be the death of me." "you've been the ruin of him, i think," said charlotte. "and as for a second black-coated lover of mine, i am going to make a present of him to another lady with most singular disinterestedness." the next day, true to his promise, bertie packed up and went off by the . p.m. train, with £ in his pocket, bound for the marble quarries of carrara. and so he disappears from our scene. at twelve o'clock on the day following that on which bertie went, mrs. bold, true also to her word, knocked at dr. stanhope's door with a timid hand and palpitating heart. she was at once shown up to the back drawing-room, the folding doors of which were closed, so that in visiting the signora eleanor was not necessarily thrown into any communion with those in the front room. as she went up the stairs, she saw none of the family and was so far saved much of the annoyance which she had dreaded. "this is very kind of you, mrs. bold; very kind, after what has happened," said the lady on the sofa with her sweetest smile. "you wrote in such a strain that i could not but come to you." "i did, i did; i wanted to force you to see me." "well, signora, i am here." "how cold you are to me. but i suppose i must put up with that. i know you think you have reason to be displeased with us all. poor bertie; if you knew all, you would not be angry with him." "i am not angry with your brother--not in the least. but i hope you did not send for me here to talk about him." "if you are angry with charlotte, that is worse, for you have no warmer friend in all barchester. but i did not send for you to talk about this--pray bring your chair nearer, mrs. bold, so that i may look at you. it is so unnatural to see you keeping so far off from me." eleanor did as she was bid and brought her chair close to the sofa. "and now, mrs. bold, i am going to tell you something which you may perhaps think indelicate, but yet i know that i am right in doing so." hereupon mrs. bold said nothing but felt inclined to shake in her chair. the signora, she knew, was not very particular, and that which to her appeared to be indelicate might to mrs. bold appear to be extremely indecent. "i believe you know mr. arabin?" mrs. bold would have given the world not to blush, but her blood was not at her own command. she did blush up to her forehead, and the signora, who had made her sit in a special light in order that she might watch her, saw that she did so. "yes, i am acquainted with him. that is, slightly. he is an intimate friend of dr. grantly, and dr. grantly is my brother-in-law." "well, if you know mr. arabin, i am sure you must like him. i know and like him much. everybody that knows him must like him." mrs. bold felt it quite impossible to say anything in reply to this. her blood was rushing about her body she knew not how or why. she felt as though she were swinging in her chair, and she knew that she was not only red in the face but also almost suffocated with heat. however, she sat still and said nothing. "how stiff you are with me, mrs. bold," said the signora; "and i the while am doing for you all that one woman can do to serve another." a kind of thought came over the widow's mind that perhaps the signora's friendship was real, and that at any rate it could not hurt her; and another kind of thought, a glimmering of a thought, came to her also--that mr. arabin was too precious to be lost. she despised the signora, but might she not stoop to conquer? it should be but the smallest fraction of a stoop! "i don't want to be stiff," she said, "but your questions are so very singular." "well, then, i will ask you one more singular still," said madeline neroni, raising herself on her elbow and turning her own face full upon her companion's. "do you love him, love him with all your heart and soul, with all the love your bosom can feel? for i can tell you that he loves you, adores you, worships you, thinks of you and nothing else, is now thinking of you as he attempts to write his sermon for next sunday's preaching. what would i not give to be loved in such a way by such a man, that is, if i were an object fit for any man to love!" mrs. bold got up from her seat and stood speechless before the woman who was now addressing her in this impassioned way. when the signora thus alluded to herself, the widow's heart was softened, and she put her own hand, as though caressingly, on that of her companion, which was resting on the table. the signora grasped it and went on speaking. "what i tell you is god's own truth; and it is for you to use it as may be best for your own happiness. but you must not betray me. he knows nothing of this. he knows nothing of my knowing his inmost heart. he is simple as a child in these matters. he told me his secret in a thousand ways because he could not dissemble, but he does not dream that he has told it. you know it now, and i advise you to use it." eleanor returned the pressure of the other's hand with an infinitesimal _soupçon_ of a squeeze. "and remember," continued the signora, "he is not like other men. you must not expect him to come to you with vows and oaths and pretty presents, to kneel at your feet, and kiss your shoe-strings. if you want that, there are plenty to do it, but he won't be one of them." eleanor's bosom nearly burst with a sigh, but madeline, not heeding her, went on. "with him, yea will stand for yea, and nay for nay. though his heart should break for it, the woman who shall reject him once will have rejected him once and for all. remember that. and now, mrs. bold, i will not keep you, for you are fluttered. i partly guess what use you will make of what i have said to you. if ever you are a happy wife in that man's house, we shall be far away, but i shall expect you to write me one line to say that you have forgiven the sins of the family." eleanor half-whispered that she would, and then, without uttering another word, crept out of the room and down the stairs, opened the front door for herself without hearing or seeing anyone, and found herself in the close. it would be difficult to analyse eleanor's feelings as she walked home. she was nearly stupefied by the things that had been said to her. she felt sore that her heart should have been so searched and riddled by a comparative stranger, by a woman whom she had never liked and never could like. she was mortified that the man whom she owned to herself that she loved should have concealed his love from her and shown it to another. there was much to vex her proud spirit. but there was, nevertheless, an under stratum of joy in all this which buoyed her up wondrously. she tried if she could disbelieve what madame neroni had said to her, but she found that she could not. it was true; it must be true. she could not, would not, did not doubt it. on one point she fully resolved to follow the advice given her. if it should ever please mr. arabin to put such a question to her as that suggested, her "yea" should be "yea." would not all her miseries be at an end if she could talk of them to him openly, with her head resting on his shoulder? chapter xlvi mr. slope's parting interview with the signora on the following day the signora was in her pride. she was dressed in her brightest of morning dresses, and had quite a levée round her couch. it was a beautifully bright october afternoon; all the gentlemen of the neighbourhood were in barchester, and those who had the entry of dr. stanhope's house were in the signora's back drawing-room. charlotte and mrs. stanhope were in the front room, and such of the lady's squires as could not for the moment get near the centre of attraction had to waste their fragrance on the mother and sister. the first who came and the last to leave was mr. arabin. this was the second visit he had paid to madame neroni since he had met her at ullathorne. he came, he knew not why, to talk about, he knew not what. but, in truth, the feelings which now troubled him were new to him, and he could not analyse them. it may seem strange that he should thus come dangling about madame neroni because he was in love with mrs. bold; but it was nevertheless the fact; and though he could not understand why he did so, madame neroni understood it well enough. she had been gentle and kind to him and had encouraged his staying. therefore he stayed on. she pressed his hand when he first greeted her; she made him remain near her and whispered to him little nothings. and then her eye, brilliant and bright, now mirthful, now melancholy, and invincible in either way! what man with warm feelings, blood unchilled, and a heart not guarded by a triple steel of experience could have withstood those eyes! the lady, it is true, intended to do him no mortal injury; she merely chose to inhale a slight breath of incense before she handed the casket over to another. whether mrs. bold would willingly have spared even so much is another question. and then came mr. slope. all the world now knew that mr. slope was a candidate for the deanery and that he was generally considered to be the favourite. mr. slope, therefore, walked rather largely upon the earth. he gave to himself a portly air, such as might become a dean, spoke but little to other clergymen, and shunned the bishop as much as possible. how the meagre little prebendary, and the burly chancellor, and all the minor canons and vicars choral, ay, and all the choristers, too, cowered and shook and walked about with long faces when they read or heard of that article in "the jupiter." now were coming the days when nothing would avail to keep the impure spirit from the cathedral pulpit. that pulpit would indeed be his own. precentors, vicars, and choristers might hang up their harps on the willows. ichabod! ichabod! the glory of their house was departing from them. mr. slope, great as he was with embryo grandeur, still came to see the signora. indeed, he could not keep himself away. he dreamed of that soft hand which he had kissed so often, and of that imperial brow which his lips had once pressed; and he then dreamed also of further favours. and mr. thorne was there also. it was the first visit he had ever paid to the signora, and he made it not without due preparation. mr. thorne was a gentleman usually precise in his dress and prone to make the most of himself in an unpretending way. the grey hairs in his whiskers were eliminated perhaps once a month; those on his head were softened by a mixture which we will not call a dye--it was only a wash. his tailor lived in st. james's street, and his bootmaker at the corner of that street and piccadilly. he was particular in the article of gloves, and the getting up of his shirts was a matter not lightly thought of in the ullathorne laundry. on the occasion of the present visit he had rather overdone his usual efforts, and caused some little uneasiness to his sister, who had not hitherto received very cordially the proposition for a lengthened visit from the signora at ullathorne. there were others also there--young men about the city who had not much to do and who were induced by the lady's charms to neglect that little--but all gave way to mr. thorne, who was somewhat of a grand signor, as a country gentleman always is in a provincial city. "oh, mr. thorne, this is so kind of you!" said the signora. "you promised to come, but i really did not expect it. i thought you country gentlemen never kept your pledges." "oh, yes, sometimes," said mr. thorne, looking rather sheepish and making his salutations a little too much in the style of the last century. "you deceive none but your consti--stit--stit--what do you call the people that carry you about in chairs and pelt you with eggs and apples when they make you a member of parliament?" "one another also, sometimes, signora," said mr. slope, with a very deanish sort of smirk on his face. "country gentlemen do deceive one another sometimes, don't they, mr. thorne?" mr. thorne gave him a look which undeaned him completely for the moment, but he soon remembered his high hopes and, recovering himself quickly, sustained his probable coming dignity by a laugh at mr. thorne's expense. "i never deceive a lady, at any rate," said mr. thorne, "especially when the gratification of my own wishes is so strong an inducement to keep me true, as it now is." mr. thorne went on thus awhile with antediluvian grimaces and compliments which he had picked up from sir charles grandison, and the signora at every grimace and at every bow smiled a little smile and bowed a little bow. mr. thorne, however, was kept standing at the foot of the couch, for the new dean sat in the seat of honour near the table. mr. arabin the while was standing with his back to the fire, his coat-tails under his arms, gazing at her with all his eyes--not quite in vain, for every now and again a glance came up at him, bright as a meteor out of heaven. "oh, mr. thorne, you promised to let me introduce my little girl to you. can you spare a moment--will you see her now?" mr. thorne assured her that he could and would see the young lady with the greatest pleasure in life. "mr. slope, might i trouble you to ring the bell?" said she, and when mr. slope got up, she looked at mr. thorne and pointed to the chair. mr. thorne, however, was much too slow to understand her, and mr. slope would have recovered his seat had not the signora, who never chose to be unsuccessful, somewhat summarily ordered him out of it. "oh, mr. slope, i must ask you to let mr. thorne sit here just for a moment or two. i am sure you will pardon me. we can take a liberty with you this week. next week, you know, when you move into the dean's house, we shall all be afraid of you." mr. slope, with an air of much indifference, rose from his seat and, walking into the next room, became greatly interested in mrs. stanhope's worsted work. and then the child was brought in. she was a little girl, about eight years of age, like her mother, only that her enormous eyes were black, and her hair quite jet. her complexion, too, was very dark and bespoke her foreign blood. she was dressed in the most outlandish and extravagant way in which clothes could be put on a child's back. she had great bracelets on her naked little arms, a crimson fillet braided with gold round her head, and scarlet shoes with high heels. her dress was all flounces and stuck out from her as though the object were to make it lie off horizontally from her little hips. it did not nearly cover her knees, but this was atoned for by a loose pair of drawers, which seemed made throughout of lace; then she had on pink silk stockings. it was thus that the last of the neros was habitually dressed at the hour when visitors were wont to call. "julia, my love," said the mother--julia was ever a favourite name with the ladies of that family. "julia, my love, come here. i was telling you about the beautiful party poor mamma went to. this is mr. thorne; will you give him a kiss, dearest?" julia put up her face to be kissed, as she did to all her mother's visitors, and then mr. thorne found that he had got her and, what was much more terrific to him, all her finery, into his arms. the lace and starch crumpled against his waistcoat and trousers, the greasy black curls hung upon his cheek, and one of the bracelet clasps scratched his ear. he did not at all know how to hold so magnificent a lady, nor holding her what to do with her. however, he had on other occasions been compelled to fondle little nieces and nephews, and now set about the task in the mode he always had used. "diddle, diddle, diddle, diddle," said he, putting the child on one knee and working away with it as though he were turning a knife-grinder's wheel with his foot. "mamma, mamma," said julia crossly, "i don't want to be diddle diddled. let me go, you naughty old man, you." poor mr. thorne put the child down quietly on the ground and drew back his chair; mr. slope, who had returned to the pole star that attracted him, laughed aloud; mr. arabin winced and shut his eyes; and the signora pretended not to hear her daughter. "go to aunt charlotte, lovey," said the mamma, "and ask her if it is not time for you to go out." but little miss julia, though she had not exactly liked the nature of mr. thorne's attention, was accustomed to be played with by gentlemen, and did not relish the idea of being sent so soon to her aunt. "julia, go when i tell you, my dear." but julia still went pouting about the room. "charlotte, do come and take her," said the signora. "she must go out, and the days get so short now." and thus ended the much-talked-of interview between mr. thorne and the last of the neros. mr. thorne recovered from the child's crossness sooner than from mr. slope's laughter. he could put up with being called an old man by an infant, but he did not like to be laughed at by the bishop's chaplain, even though that chaplain was about to become a dean. he said nothing, but he showed plainly enough that he was angry. the signora was ready enough to avenge him. "mr. slope," said she, "i hear that you are triumphing on all sides." "how so?" said he, smiling. he did not dislike being talked to about the deanery, though, of course, he strongly denied the imputation. "you carry the day both in love and war." mr. slope hereupon did not look quite so satisfied as he had done. "mr. arabin," continued the signora, "don't you think mr. slope is a very lucky man?" "not more so than he deserves, i am sure," said mr. arabin. "only think, mr. thorne, he is to be our new dean; of course we all know that." "indeed, signora," said mr. slope, "we all know nothing about it. i can assure you i myself--" "he is to be the new dean--there is no manner of doubt of it, mr. thorne." "hum!" said mr. thorne. "passing over the heads of old men like my father and archdeacon grantly--" "oh--oh!" said mr. slope. "the archdeacon would not accept it," said mr. arabin, whereupon mr. slope smiled abominably and said, as plainly as a look could speak, that the grapes were sour. "going over all our heads," continued the signora, "for of course i consider myself one of the chapter." "if i am ever dean," said mr. slope, "that is, were i ever to become so, i should glory in such a canoness." "oh, mr. slope, stop; i haven't half done. there is another canoness for you to glory in. mr. slope is not only to have the deanery but a wife to put in it." mr. slope again looked disconcerted. "a wife with a large fortune, too. it never rains but it pours, does it, mr. thorne?" "no, never," said mr. thorne, who did not quite relish talking about mr. slope and his affairs. "when will it be, mr. slope?" "when will what be?" said he. "oh, we know when the affair of the dean will be: a week will settle that. the new hat, i have no doubt, has been already ordered. but when will the marriage come off?" "do you mean mine or mr. arabin's?" said he, striving to be facetious. "well, just then i meant yours, though, perhaps, after all, mr. arabin's may be first. but we know nothing of him. he is too close for any of us. now all is open and above board with you--which, by the by, mr. arabin, i beg to tell you i like much the best. he who runs can read that mr. slope is a favoured lover. come, mr. slope, when is the widow to be made mrs. dean?" to mr. arabin this badinage was peculiarly painful, and yet he could not tear himself away and leave it. he believed, still believed with that sort of belief which the fear of a thing engenders, that mrs. bold would probably become the wife of mr. slope. of mr. slope's little adventure in the garden he knew nothing. for aught he knew, mr. slope might have had an adventure of quite a different character. he might have thrown himself at the widow's feet, been accepted, and then returned to town a jolly, thriving wooer. the signora's jokes were bitter enough to mr. slope, but they were quite as bitter to mr. arabin. he still stood leaning against the fire-place, fumbling with his hands in his trousers pockets. "come, come, mr. slope, don't be so bashful," continued the signora. "we all know that you proposed to the lady the other day at ullathorne. tell us with what words she accepted you. was it with a simple 'yes,' or with the two 'no no's' which make an affirmative? or did silence give consent? or did she speak out with that spirit which so well becomes a widow and say openly, 'by my troth, sir, you shall make me mrs. slope as soon as it is your pleasure to do so.'" mr. slope had seldom in his life felt himself less at his ease. there sat mr. thorne, laughing silently. there stood his old antagonist, mr. arabin, gazing at him with all his eyes. there round the door between the two rooms were clustered a little group of people, including miss stanhope and the revs. messrs. grey and green, all listening to his discomfiture. he knew that it depended solely on his own wit whether or no he could throw the joke back upon the lady. he knew that it stood him to do so if he possibly could, but he had not a word. "'tis conscience that makes cowards of us all." he felt on his cheek the sharp points of eleanor's fingers, and did not know who might have seen the blow, who might have told the tale to this pestilent woman who took such delight in jeering him. he stood there, therefore, red as a carbuncle and mute as a fish; grinning sufficiently to show his teeth; an object of pity. but the signora had no pity; she knew nothing of mercy. her present object was to put mr. slope down, and she was determined to do it thoroughly, now that she had him in her power. "what, mr. slope, no answer? why it can't possibly be that the woman has been fool enough to refuse you? she can't surely be looking out after a bishop. but i see how it is, mr. slope. widows are proverbially cautious. you should have let her alone till the new hat was on your head, till you could show her the key of the deanery." "signora," said he at last, trying to speak in a tone of dignified reproach, "you really permit yourself to talk on solemn subjects in a very improper way." "solemn subjects--what solemn subject? surely a dean's hat is not such a solemn subject." "i have no aspirations such as those you impute to me. perhaps you will drop the subject." "oh, certainly, mr. slope; but one word first. go to her again with the prime minister's letter in your pocket. i'll wager my shawl to your shovel she does not refuse you then." "i must say, signora, that i think you are speaking of the lady in a very unjustifiable manner." "and one other piece of advice, mr. slope; i'll only offer you one other;" and then she commenced singing-- "it's gude to be merry and wise, mr. slope; it's gude to be honest and true; it's gude to be off with the old love--mr. slope, before you are on with the new. "ha, ha, ha!" and the signora, throwing herself back on her sofa, laughed merrily. she little recked how those who heard her would, in their own imaginations, fill up the little history of mr. slope's first love. she little cared that some among them might attribute to her the honour of his earlier admiration. she was tired of mr. slope and wanted to get rid of him; she had ground for anger with him, and she chose to be revenged. how mr. slope got out of that room he never himself knew. he did succeed ultimately, and probably with some assistance, in getting his hat and escaping into the air. at last his love for the signora was cured. whenever he again thought of her in his dreams, it was not as of an angel with azure wings. he connected her rather with fire and brimstone, and though he could still believe her to be a spirit, he banished her entirely out of heaven and found a place for her among the infernal gods. when he weighed in the balance, as he not seldom did, the two women to whom he had attached himself in barchester, the pre-eminent place in his soul's hatred was usually allotted to the signora. chapter xlvii the dean elect during the entire next week barchester was ignorant who was to be its new dean. on sunday morning mr. slope was decidedly the favourite, but he did not show himself in the cathedral, and then he sank a point or two in the betting. on monday he got a scolding from the bishop in the hearing of the servants, and down he went till nobody would have him at any price; but on tuesday he received a letter, in an official cover, marked private, by which he fully recovered his place in the public favour. on wednesday he was said to be ill, and that did not look well; but on thursday morning he went down to the railway station with a very jaunty air; and when it was ascertained that he had taken a first-class ticket for london, there was no longer any room for doubt on the matter. while matters were in this state of ferment at barchester, there was not much mental comfort at plumstead. our friend the archdeacon had many grounds for inward grief. he was much displeased at the result of dr. gwynne's diplomatic mission to the palace, and did not even scruple to say to his wife that had he gone himself, he would have managed the affair much better. his wife did not agree with him, but that did not mend the matter. mr. quiverful's appointment to the hospital was, however, a _fait accompli_, and mr. harding's acquiescence in that appointment was not less so. nothing would induce mr. harding to make a public appeal against the bishop, and the master of lazarus quite approved of his not doing so. "i don't know what has come to the master," said the archdeacon over and over again. "he used to be ready enough to stand up for his order." "my dear archdeacon," mrs. grantly would say in reply, "what is the use of always fighting? i really think the master is right." the master, however, had taken steps of his own of which neither the archdeacon nor his wife knew anything. then mr. slope's successes were henbane to dr. grantly, and mrs. bold's improprieties were as bad. what would be all the world to archdeacon grantly if mr. slope should become dean of barchester and marry his wife's sister! he talked of it and talked of it till he was nearly ill. mrs. grantly almost wished that the marriage were done and over, so that she might hear no more about it. and there was yet another ground of misery which cut him to the quick nearly as closely as either of the others. that paragon of a clergyman whom he had bestowed upon st. ewold's, that college friend of whom he had boasted so loudly, that ecclesiastical knight before whose lance mr. slope was to fall and bite the dust, that worthy bulwark of the church as it should be, that honoured representative of oxford's best spirit, was--so at least his wife had told him half a dozen times--misconducting himself! nothing had been seen of mr. arabin at plumstead for the last week, but a good deal had, unfortunately, been heard of him. as soon as mrs. grantly had found herself alone with the archdeacon, on the evening of the ullathorne party, she had expressed herself very forcibly as to mr. arabin's conduct on that occasion. he had, she declared, looked and acted and talked very unlike a decent parish clergyman. at first the archdeacon had laughed at this, and assured her that she need not trouble herself--that mr. arabin would be found to be quite safe. but by degrees he began to find that his wife's eyes had been sharper than his own. other people coupled the signora's name with that of mr. arabin. the meagre little prebendary who lived in the close told him to a nicety how often mr. arabin had visited at dr. stanhope's, and how long he had remained on the occasion of each visit. he had asked after mr. arabin at the cathedral library, and an officious little vicar choral had offered to go and see whether he could be found at dr. stanhope's. rumour, when she has contrived to sound the first note on her trumpet, soon makes a loud peal audible enough. it was too clear that mr. arabin had succumbed to the italian woman, and that the archdeacon's credit would suffer fearfully if something were not done to rescue the brand from the burning. besides, to give the archdeacon his due, he was really attached to mr. arabin, and grieved greatly at his backsliding. they were sitting, talking over their sorrows, in the drawing-room before dinner on the day after mr. slope's departure for london, and on this occasion mrs. grantly spoke out her mind freely. she had opinions of her own about parish clergymen, and now thought it right to give vent to them. "if you would have been led by me, archdeacon, you would never have put a bachelor into st. ewold's." "but my dear, you don't meant to say that all bachelor clergymen misbehave themselves." "i don't know that clergymen are so much better than other men," said mrs. grantly. "it's all very well with a curate, whom you have under your own eye and whom you can get rid of if he persists in improprieties." "but mr. arabin was a fellow, and couldn't have had a wife." "then i would have found someone who could." "but, my dear, are fellows never to get livings?" "yes, to be sure they are, when they get engaged. i never would put a young man into a living unless he were married, or engaged to be married. now, here is mr. arabin. the whole responsibility lies upon you." "there is not at this moment a clergyman in all oxford more respected for morals and conduct than arabin." "oh, oxford!" said the lady, with a sneer. "what men choose to do at oxford nobody ever hears of. a man may do very well at oxford who would bring disgrace on a parish; and to tell you the truth, it seems to me that mr. arabin is just such a man." the archdeacon groaned deeply, but he had no further answer to make. "you really must speak to him, archdeacon. only think what the thornes will say if they hear that their parish clergyman spends his whole time philandering with this woman." the archdeacon groaned again. he was a courageous man, and knew well enough how to rebuke the younger clergymen of the diocese, when necessary. but there was that about mr. arabin which made the doctor feel that it would be very difficult to rebuke him with good effect. "you can advise him to find a wife for himself, and he will understand well enough what that means," said mrs. grantly. the archdeacon had nothing for it but groaning. there was mr. slope: he was going to be made dean; he was going to take a wife; he was about to achieve respectability and wealth, an excellent family mansion, and a family carriage; he would soon be among the comfortable _élite_ of the ecclesiastical world of barchester; whereas his own _protégé_, the true scion of the true church, by whom he had sworn, would be still but a poor vicar, and that with a very indifferent character for moral conduct! it might be all very well recommending mr. arabin to marry, but how would mr. arabin, when married, support a wife? things were ordering themselves thus in plumstead drawing-room when dr. and mrs. grantly were disturbed in their sweet discourse by the quick rattle of a carriage and pair of horses on the gravel sweep. the sound was not that of visitors, whose private carriages are generally brought up to country-house doors with demure propriety, but betokened rather the advent of some person or persons who were in a hurry to reach the house, and had no intention of immediately leaving it. guests invited to stay a week, and who were conscious of arriving after the first dinner-bell, would probably approach in such a manner. so might arrive an attorney with the news of a granduncle's death, or a son from college with all the fresh honours of a double first. no one would have had himself driven up to the door of a country-house in such a manner who had the slightest doubt of his own right to force an entry. "who is it?" said mrs. grantly, looking at her husband. "who on earth can it be?" said the archdeacon to his wife. he then quietly got up and stood with the drawing-room door open in his hand. "why, it's your father!" it was indeed mr. harding, and mr. harding alone. he had come by himself in a post-chaise with a couple of horses from barchester, arriving almost after dark, and evidently full of news. his visits had usually been made in the quietest manner; he had rarely presumed to come without notice, and had always been driven up in a modest old green fly, with one horse, that hardly made itself heard as it crawled up to the hall-door. "good gracious, warden, is it you?" said the archdeacon, forgetting in his surprise the events of the last few years. "but come in; nothing the matter, i hope." "we are very glad you are come, papa," said his daughter. "i'll go and get your room ready at once." "i an't warden, archdeacon," said mr. harding; "mr. quiverful is warden." "oh, i know, i know," said the archdeacon petulantly. "i forgot all about it at the moment. is anything the matter?" "don't go this moment, susan," said mr. harding. "i have something to tell you." "the dinner-bell will ring in five minutes," said she. "will it?" said mr. harding. "then perhaps i had better wait." he was big with news which he had come to tell, but which he knew could not be told without much discussion. he had hurried away to plumstead as fast as two horses could bring him, and now, finding himself there, he was willing to accept the reprieve which dinner would give him. "if you have anything of moment to tell us," said the archdeacon, "pray let us hear it at once. has eleanor gone off?" "no, she has not," said mr. harding with a look of great displeasure. "has slope been made dean?" "no, he has not, but--" "but what?" said the archdeacon, who was becoming very impatient. "they have--" "they have what?" said the archdeacon. "they have offered it to me," said mr. harding, with a modesty which almost prevented his speaking. "good heavens!" said the archdeacon, and sunk back exhausted in an easy chair. "my dear, dear father," said mrs. grantly, and threw her arms round her father's neck. "so i thought i had better come out and consult with you at once," said mr. harding. "consult!" shouted the archdeacon. "but, my dear harding, i congratulate you with my whole heart--with my whole heart; i do indeed. i never heard anything in my life that gave me so much pleasure;" and he got hold of both his father-in-law's hands, and shook them as though he were going to shake them off, and walked round and round the room, twirling a copy of "the jupiter" over his head to show his extreme exultation. "but--" began mr. harding. "but me no buts," said the archdeacon. "i never was so happy in my life. it was just the proper thing to do. upon my honour i'll never say another word against lord ---- the longest day i have to live." "that's dr. gwynne's doing, you may be sure," said mrs. grantly, who greatly liked the master of lazarus, he being an orderly married man with a large family. "i suppose it is," said the archdeacon. "oh, papa, i am so truly delighted!" said mrs. grantly, getting up and kissing her father. "but, my dear," said mr. harding. it was all in vain that he strove to speak; nobody would listen to him. "well, mr. dean," said the archdeacon, triumphing, "the deanery gardens will be some consolation for the hospital elms. well, poor quiverful! i won't begrudge him his good fortune any longer." "no, indeed," said mrs. grantly. "poor woman, she has fourteen children. i am sure i am very glad they have got it." "so am i," said mr. harding. "i would give twenty pounds," said the archdeacon, "to see how mr. slope will look when he hears it." the idea of mr. slope's discomfiture formed no small part of the archdeacon's pleasure. at last mr. harding was allowed to go upstairs and wash his hands, having, in fact, said very little of all that he had come out to plumstead on purpose to say. nor could anything more be said till the servants were gone after dinner. the joy of dr. grantly was so uncontrollable that he could not refrain from calling his father-in-law mr. dean before the men, and therefore it was soon matter of discussion in the lower regions how mr. harding, instead of his daughter's future husband, was to be the new dean, and various were the opinions on the matter. the cook and butler, who were advanced in years, thought that it was just as it should be; but the footman and lady's maid, who were younger, thought it was a great shame that mr. slope should lose his chance. "he's a mean chap all the same," said the footman, "and it an't along of him that i says so. but i always did admire the missus's sister; and she'd well become the situation." while these were the ideas downstairs, a very great difference of opinion existed above. as soon as the cloth was drawn and the wine on the table, mr. harding made for himself an opportunity of speaking. it was, however, with much inward troubling that he said: "it's very kind of lord ----, very kind, and i feel it deeply, most deeply. i am, i must confess, gratified by the offer--" "i should think so," said the archdeacon. "but all the same i am afraid that i can't accept it." the decanter almost fell from the archdeacon's hand upon the table, and the start he made was so great as to make his wife jump up from her chair. not accept the deanship! if it really ended in this, there would be no longer any doubt that his father-in-law was demented. the question now was whether a clergyman with low rank and preferment amounting to less than £ a year should accept high rank, £ , a year, and one of the most desirable positions which his profession had to afford! "what!" said the archdeacon, gasping for breath and staring at his guest as though the violence of his emotion had almost thrown him into a fit. "what!" "i do not find myself fit for new duties," urged mr. harding. "new duties! what duties?" said the archdeacon with unintended sarcasm. "oh, papa," said mrs. grantly, "nothing can be easier than what a dean has to do. surely you are more active than dr. trefoil." "he won't have half as much to do as he has at present," said dr. grantly. "did you see what 'the jupiter' said the other day about young men?" "yes, and i saw that 'the jupiter' said all that it could to induce the appointment of mr. slope. perhaps you would wish to see mr. slope made dean." mr. harding made no reply to this rebuke, though he felt it strongly. he had not come over to plumstead to have further contention with his son-in-law about mr. slope, so he allowed it to pass by. "i know i cannot make you understand my feeling," he said, "for we have been cast in different moulds. i may wish that i had your spirit and energy and power of combatting; but i have not. every day that is added to my life increases my wish for peace and rest." "and where on earth can a man have peace and rest if not in a deanery!" said the archdeacon. "people will say that i am too old for it." "good heavens! people! what people? what need you care for any people?" "but i think myself i am too old for any new place." "dear papa," said mrs. grantly, "men ten years older than you are appointed to new situations day after day." "my dear," said he, "it is impossible that i should make you understand my feelings, nor do i pretend to any great virtue in the matter. the truth is, i want the force of character which might enable me to stand against the spirit of the times. the call on all sides now is for young men, and i have not the nerve to put myself in opposition to the demand. were 'the jupiter,' when it hears of my appointment, to write article after article setting forth my incompetency, i am sure it would cost me my reason. i ought to be able to bear with such things, you will say. well, my dear, i own that i ought. but i feel my weakness, and i know that i can't. and to tell you the truth, i know no more than a child what the dean has to do." "pshaw!" exclaimed the archdeacon. "don't be angry with me, archdeacon: don't let us quarrel about it, susan. if you knew how keenly i feel the necessity of having to disoblige you in this matter, you would not be angry with me." this was a dreadful blow to dr. grantly. nothing could possibly have suited him better than having mr. harding in the deanery. though he had never looked down on mr. harding on account of his recent poverty, he did fully recognize the satisfaction of having those belonging to him in comfortable positions. it would be much more suitable that mr. harding should be dean of barchester than vicar of st. cuthbert's and precentor to boot. and then the great discomfiture of that arch-enemy of all that was respectable in barchester, of that new low church clerical parvenu that had fallen amongst them, that alone would be worth more, almost, than the situation itself. it was frightful to think that such unhoped-for good fortune should be marred by the absurd crotchets and unwholesome hallucinations by which mr. harding allowed himself to be led astray. to have the cup so near his lips and then to lose the drinking of it was more than dr. grantly could endure. and yet it appeared as though he would have to endure it. in vain he threatened and in vain he coaxed. mr. harding did not indeed speak with perfect decision of refusing the proffered glory, but he would not speak with anything like decision of accepting it. when pressed again and again, he would again and again allege that he was wholly unfitted to new duties. it was in vain that the archdeacon tried to insinuate, though he could not plainly declare, that there were no new duties to perform. it was in vain he hinted that in all cases of difficulty he, he the archdeacon, was willing and able to guide a weak-minded dean. mr. harding seemed to have a foolish idea, not only that there were new duties to do, but that no one should accept the place who was not himself prepared to do them. the conference ended in an understanding that mr. harding should at once acknowledge the letter he had received from the minister's private secretary, and should beg that he might be allowed two days to make up his mind; and that during those two days the matter should be considered. on the following morning the archdeacon was to drive mr. harding back to barchester. chapter xlviii miss thorne shows her talent at match-making on mr. harding's return to barchester from plumstead, which was effected by him in due course in company with the archdeacon, more tidings of a surprising nature met him. he was, during the journey, subjected to such a weight of unanswerable argument, all of which went to prove that it was his bounden duty not to interfere with the paternal government that was so anxious to make him a dean, that when he arrived at the chemist's door in high street, he hardly knew which way to turn himself in the matter. but, perplexed as he was, he was doomed to further perplexity. he found a note there from his daughter begging him most urgently to come to her immediately. but we must again go back a little in our story. miss thorne had not been slow to hear the rumours respecting mr. arabin which had so much disturbed the happiness of mrs. grantly. and she, also, was unhappy to think that her parish clergyman should be accused of worshipping a strange goddess. she, also, was of opinion that rectors and vicars should all be married, and with that good-natured energy which was characteristic of her, she put her wits to work to find a fitting match for mr. arabin. mrs. grantly, in this difficulty, could think of no better remedy than a lecture from the archdeacon. miss thorne thought that a young lady, marriageable and with a dowry, might be of more efficacy. in looking through the catalogue of her unmarried friends who might possibly be in want of a husband, and might also be fit for such promotion as a country parsonage affords, she could think of no one more eligible than mrs. bold; consequently, losing no time, she went into barchester on the day of mr. slope's discomfiture, the same day that her brother had had his interesting interview with the last of the neros, and invited mrs. bold to bring her nurse and baby to ullathorne and make them a protracted visit. miss thorne suggested a month or two, intending to use her influence afterwards in prolonging it so as to last out the winter, in order that mr. arabin might have an opportunity of becoming fairly intimate with his intended bride. "we'll have mr. arabin, too," said miss thorne to herself; "and before the spring they'll know each other; and in twelve or eighteen months' time, if all goes well, mrs. bold will be domiciled at st. ewold's;" and then the kind-hearted lady gave herself some not undeserved praise for her match-making genius. eleanor was taken a little by surprise, but the matter ended in her promising to go to ullathorne for at any rate a week or two; on the day previous to that on which her father drove out to plumstead, she had had herself driven out to ullathorne. miss thorne would not perplex her with her embryo lord on that same evening, thinking that she would allow her a few hours to make herself at home; but on the following morning mr. arabin arrived. "and now," said miss thorne to herself, "i must contrive to throw them in each other's way." that same day, after dinner, eleanor, with an assumed air of dignity which she could not maintain, with tears which she could not suppress, with a flutter which she could not conquer, and a joy which she could not hide, told miss thorne that she was engaged to marry mr. arabin and that it behoved her to get back home to barchester as quick as she could. to say simply that miss thorne was rejoiced at the success of the scheme would give a very faint idea of her feelings on the occasion. my readers may probably have dreamt before now that they have had before them some terribly long walk to accomplish, some journey of twenty or thirty miles, an amount of labour frightful to anticipate, and that immediately on starting they have ingeniously found some accommodating short cut which has brought them without fatigue to their work's end in five minutes. miss thorne's waking feelings were somewhat of the same nature. my readers may perhaps have had to do with children, and may on some occasion have promised to their young charges some great gratification intended to come off, perhaps at the end of the winter, or at the beginning of summer. the impatient juveniles, however, will not wait, and clamorously demand their treat before they go to bed. miss thorne had a sort of feeling that her children were equally unreasonable. she was like an inexperienced gunner, who has ill-calculated the length of the train that he has laid. the gun-powder exploded much too soon, and poor miss thorne felt that she was blown up by the strength of her own petard. miss thorne had had lovers of her own, but they had been gentlemen of old-fashioned and deliberate habits. miss thorne's heart also had not always been hard, though she was still a virgin spinster; but it had never yielded in this way at the first assault. she had intended to bring together a middle-aged, studious clergyman and a discreet matron who might possibly be induced to marry again, and in doing so she had thrown fire among tinder. well, it was all as it should be, but she did feel perhaps a little put out by the precipitancy of her own success, and perhaps a little vexed at the readiness of mrs. bold to be wooed. she said, however, nothing about it to anyone, and ascribed it all to the altered manners of the new age. their mothers and grandmothers were perhaps a little more deliberate, but it was admitted on all sides that things were conducted very differently now than in former times. for aught miss thorne knew of the matter, a couple of hours might be quite sufficient under the new régime to complete that for which she in her ignorance had allotted twelve months. but we must not pass over the wooing so cavalierly. it has been told, with perhaps tedious accuracy, how eleanor disposed of two of her lovers at ullathorne; and it must also be told with equal accuracy, and if possible with less tedium, how she encountered mr. arabin. it cannot be denied that when eleanor accepted miss thorne's invitation she remembered that ullathorne was in the parish of st. ewold's. since her interview with the signora she had done little else than think about mr. arabin and the appeal that had been made to her. she could not bring herself to believe, or try to bring herself to believe, that what she had been told was untrue. think of it how she would, she could not but accept it as a fact that mr. arabin was fond of her; and then when she went further and asked herself the question, she could not but accept it as a fact also that she was fond of him. if it were destined for her to be the partner of his hopes and sorrows, to whom could she look for friendship so properly as to miss thorne? this invitation was like an ordained step towards the fulfilment of her destiny, and when she also heard that mr. arabin was expected to be at ullathorne on the following day, it seemed as though all the world were conspiring in her favour. well, did she not deserve it? in that affair of mr. slope had not all the world conspired against her? she could not, however, make herself easy and at home. when, in the evening after dinner, miss thorne expatiated on the excellence of mr. arabin's qualities, and hinted that any little rumour which might be ill-naturedly spread abroad concerning him really meant nothing, mrs. bold found herself unable to answer. when miss thorne went a little further and declared that she did not know a prettier vicarage-house in the county than st. ewold's, mrs. bold, remembering the projected bow-window and the projected priestess, still held her tongue, though her ears tingled with the conviction that all the world knew that she was in love with mr. arabin. well, what would that matter if they could only meet and tell each other what each now longed to tell? and they did meet. mr. arabin came early in the day and found the two ladies together at work in the drawing-room. miss thorne, who, had she known all the truth, would have vanished into air at once, had no conception that her immediate absence would be a blessing, and remained chatting with them till luncheon-time. mr. arabin could talk about nothing but the signora neroni's beauty, would discuss no people but the stanhopes. this was very distressing to eleanor and not very satisfactory to miss thorne. but yet there was evidence of innocence in his open avowal of admiration. and then they had lunch, and then mr. arabin went out on parish duty, and eleanor and miss thorne were left to take a walk together. "do you think the signora neroni is so lovely as people say?" eleanor asked as they were coming home. "she is very beautiful, certainly, very beautiful," miss thorne answered; "but i do not know that anyone considers her lovely. she is a woman all men would like to look at, but few, i imagine, would be glad to take her to their hearths, even were she unmarried and not afflicted as she is." there was some little comfort in this. eleanor made the most of it till she got back to the house. she was then left alone in the drawing-room, and just as it was getting dark mr. arabin came in. it was a beautiful afternoon in the beginning of october, and eleanor was sitting in the window to get the advantage of the last daylight for her novel. there was a fire in the comfortable room, but the weather was not cold enough to make it attractive; and as she could see the sun set from where she sat, she was not very attentive to her book. mr. arabin, when he entered, stood awhile with his back to the fire in his usual way, merely uttering a few commonplace remarks about the beauty of the weather, while he plucked up courage for more interesting converse. it cannot probably be said that he had resolved then and there to make an offer to eleanor. men, we believe, seldom make such resolves. mr. slope and mr. stanhope had done so, it is true, but gentlemen generally propose without any absolutely defined determination as to their doing so. such was now the case with mr. arabin. "it is a lovely sunset," said eleanor, answering him on the dreadfully trite subject which he had chosen. mr. arabin could not see the sunset from the hearth-rug, so he had to go close to her. "very lovely," said he, standing modestly so far away from her as to avoid touching the flounces of her dress. then it appeared that he had nothing further to say; so, after gazing for a moment in silence at the brightness of the setting sun, he returned to the fire. eleanor found that it was quite impossible for herself to commence a conversation. in the first place she could find nothing to say; words, which were generally plenty enough with her, would not come to her relief. and moreover, do what she would, she could hardly prevent herself from crying. "do you like ullathorne?" said mr. arabin, speaking from the safely distant position which he had assumed on the hearth-rug. "yes, indeed, very much!" "i don't mean mr. and miss thorne--i know you like them--but the style of the house. there is something about old-fashioned mansions, built as this is, and old-fashioned gardens, that to me is especially delightful." "i like everything old-fashioned," said eleanor; "old-fashioned things are so much the honestest." "i don't know about that," said mr. arabin, gently laughing. "that is an opinion on which very much may be said on either side. it is strange how widely the world is divided on a subject which so nearly concerns us all, and which is so close beneath our eyes. some think that we are quickly progressing towards perfection, while others imagine that virtue is disappearing from the earth." "and you, mr. arabin, what do you think?" said eleanor. she felt somewhat surprised at the tone which his conversation was taking, and yet she was relieved at his saying something which enabled herself to speak without showing her own emotion. "what do i think, mrs. bold?" and then he rumbled his money with his hands in his trousers pockets, and looked and spoke very little like a thriving lover. "it is the bane of my life that on important subjects i acquire no fixed opinion. i think, and think, and go on thinking, and yet my thoughts are running ever in different directions. i hardly know whether or no we do lean more confidently than our fathers did on those high hopes to which we profess to aspire." "i think the world grows more worldly every day," said eleanor. "that is because you see more of it than when you were younger. but we should hardly judge by what we see--we see so very, very little." there was then a pause for awhile, during which mr. arabin continued to turn over his shillings and half-crowns. "if we believe in scripture, we can hardly think that mankind in general will now be allowed to retrograde." eleanor, whose mind was certainly engaged otherwise than on the general state of mankind, made no answer to this. she felt thoroughly dissatisfied with herself. she could not force her thoughts away from the topic on which the signora had spoken to her in so strange a way, and yet she knew that she could not converse with mr. arabin in an unrestrained, natural tone till she did so. she was most anxious not to show to him any special emotion, and yet she felt that if he looked at her, he would at once see that she was not at ease. but he did not look at her. instead of doing so, he left the fire-place and began walking up and down the room. eleanor took up her book resolutely, but she could not read, for there was a tear in her eye, and do what she would, it fell on her cheek. when mr. arabin's back was turned to her, she wiped it away; but another was soon coursing down her face in its place. they would come--not a deluge of tears that would have betrayed her at once, but one by one, single monitors. mr. arabin did not observe her closely, and they passed unseen. mr. arabin, thus pacing up and down the room, took four or five turns before he spoke another word, and eleanor sat equally silent with her face bent over her book. she was afraid that her tears would get the better of her, and was preparing for an escape from the room, when mr. arabin in his walk stood opposite to her. he did not come close up but stood exactly on the spot to which his course brought him, and then, with his hands under his coat-tails, thus made his confession. "mrs. bold," said he, "i owe you retribution for a great offence of which i have been guilty towards you." eleanor's heart beat so that she could not trust herself to say that he had never been guilty of any offence. so mr. arabin thus went on. "i have thought much of it since, and i am now aware that i was wholly unwarranted in putting to you a question which i once asked you. it was indelicate on my part, and perhaps unmanly. no intimacy which may exist between myself and your connexion, dr. grantly, could justify it. nor could the acquaintance which existed between ourselves." this word acquaintance struck cold on eleanor's heart. was this to be her doom after all? "i therefore think it right to beg your pardon in a humble spirit, and i now do so." what was eleanor to say to him? she could not say much because she was crying, and yet she must say something. she was most anxious to say that something graciously, kindly, and yet not in such a manner as to betray herself. she had never felt herself so much at a loss for words. "indeed, i took no offence, mr. arabin." "oh, but you did! and had you not done so, you would not have been yourself. you were as right to be offended as i was wrong so to offend you. i have not forgiven myself, but i hope to hear that you forgive me." she was now past speaking calmly, though she still continued to hide her tears; and mr. arabin, after pausing a moment in vain for her reply, was walking off towards the door. she felt that she could not allow him to go unanswered without grievously sinning against all charity; so, rising from her seat, she gently touched his arm and said, "oh, mr. arabin, do not go till i speak to you! i do forgive you. you know that i forgive you." he took the hand that had so gently touched his arm and then gazed into her face as if he would peruse there, as though written in a book, the whole future destiny of his life; as he did so, there was a sober, sad seriousness in his own countenance which eleanor found herself unable to sustain. she could only look down upon the carpet, let her tears trickle as they would, and leave her hand within his. it was but for a minute that they stood so, but the duration of that minute was sufficient to make it ever memorable to them both. eleanor was sure now that she was loved. no words, be their eloquence what it might, could be more impressive than that eager, melancholy gaze. why did he look so into her eyes? why did he not speak to her? could it be that he looked for her to make the first sign? and he, though he knew but little of women, even he knew that he was loved. he had only to ask, and it would be all his own, that inexpressible loveliness, those ever-speaking but yet now mute eyes, that feminine brightness and eager, loving spirit which had so attracted him since first he had encountered it at st. ewold's. it might, must, all be his own now. on no other supposition was it possible that she should allow her hand to remain thus clasped within his own. he had only to ask. ah, but that was the difficulty. did a minute suffice for all this? nay, perhaps it might be more than a minute. "mrs. bold--" at last he said and then stopped himself. if he could not speak, how was she to do so? he had called her by her name, the same name that any merest stranger would have used! she withdrew her hand from his and moved as though to return to her seat. "eleanor!" he then said in his softest tone, as though the courage of a lover were as yet but half-assumed, as though he were still afraid of giving offence by the freedom which he took. she looked slowly, gently, almost piteously up into his face. there was at any rate no anger there to deter him. "eleanor!" he again exclaimed, and in a moment he had her clasped to his bosom. how this was done, whether the doing was with him or her, whether she had flown thither conquered by the tenderness of his voice, or he with a violence not likely to give offence had drawn her to his breast, neither of them knew; nor can i declare. there was now that sympathy between them which hardly admitted of individual motion. they were one and the same--one flesh--one spirit--one life. "eleanor, my own eleanor, my own, my wife!" she ventured to look up at him through her tears, and he, bowing his face down over hers, pressed his lips upon her brow--his virgin lips, which, since a beard first grew upon his chin, had never yet tasted the luxury of a woman's cheek. she had been told that her yea must be yea, or her nay, nay, but she was called on for neither the one nor the other. she told miss thorne that she was engaged to mr. arabin, but no such words had passed between them, no promises had been asked or given. "oh, let me go," said she, "let me go now. i am too happy to remain--let me go, that i may be alone." he did not try to hinder her; he did not repeat the kiss; he did not press another on her lips. he might have done so, had he been so minded. she was now all his own. he took his arm from round her waist, his arm that was trembling with a new delight, and let her go. she fled like a roe to her own chamber, and then, having turned the bolt, she enjoyed the full luxury of her love. she idolised, almost worshipped this man who had so meekly begged her pardon. and he was now her own. oh, how she wept and cried and laughed as the hopes and fears and miseries of the last few weeks passed in remembrance through her mind. mr. slope! that anyone should have dared to think that she who had been chosen by him could possibly have mated herself with mr. slope! that they should have dared to tell him, also, and subject her bright happiness to such needless risk! and then she smiled with joy as she thought of all the comforts that she could give him--not that he cared for comforts, but that it would be so delicious for her to give. she got up and rang for her maid that she might tell her little boy of his new father, and in her own way she did tell him. she desired her maid to leave her, in order that she might be alone with her child; and then, while he lay sprawling on the bed, she poured forth the praises, all unmeaning to him, of the man she had selected to guard his infancy. she could not be happy, however, till she had made mr. arabin take the child to himself and thus, as it were, adopt him as his own. the moment the idea struck her she took the baby up in her arms and, opening her door, ran quickly down to the drawing-room. she at once found, by his step still pacing on the floor, that he was there, and a glance within the room told her that he was alone. she hesitated a moment and then hurried in with her precious charge. mr. arabin met her in the middle of the room. "there," said she, breathless with her haste; "there, take him--take him, and love him." mr. arabin took the little fellow from her and, kissing him again and again, prayed god to bless him. "he shall be all as my own--all as my own," said he. eleanor, as she stooped to take back her child, kissed the hand that held him and then rushed back with her treasure to her chamber. it was thus that mr. harding's younger daughter was won for the second time. at dinner neither she nor mr. arabin were very bright, but their silence occasioned no remark. in the drawing-room, as we have before said, she told miss thorne what had occurred. the next morning she returned to barchester, and mr. arabin went over with his budget of news to the archdeacon. as doctor grantly was not there, he could only satisfy himself by telling mrs. grantly how that he intended himself the honour of becoming her brother-in-law. in the ecstasy of her joy at hearing such tidings mrs. grantly vouchsafed him a warmer welcome than any he had yet received from eleanor. "good heavens!" she exclaimed--it was the general exclamation of the rectory. "poor eleanor! dear eleanor! what a monstrous injustice has been done her! well, it shall all be made up now." and then she thought of the signora. "what lies people tell," she said to herself. but people in this matter had told no lies at all. chapter xlix the beelzebub colt when miss thorne left the dining-room, eleanor had formed no intention of revealing to her what had occurred, but when she was seated beside her hostess on the sofa, the secret dropped from her almost unawares. eleanor was but a bad hypocrite, and she found herself quite unable to continue talking about mr. arabin as though he were a stranger while her heart was full of him. when miss thorne, pursuing her own scheme with discreet zeal, asked the young widow whether, in her opinion, it would not be a good thing for mr. arabin to get married, she had nothing for it but to confess the truth. "i suppose it would," said eleanor rather sheepishly. whereupon miss thorne amplified on the idea. "oh, miss thorne," said eleanor, "he is going to be married: i am engaged to him." now miss thorne knew very well that there had been no such engagement when she had been walking with mrs. bold in the morning. she had also heard enough to be tolerably sure that there had been no preliminaries to such an engagement. she was, therefore, as we have before described, taken a little by surprise. but nevertheless, she embraced her guest and cordially congratulated her. eleanor had no opportunity of speaking another word to mr. arabin that evening, except such words as all the world might hear; and these, as may be supposed, were few enough. miss thorne did her best to leave them in privacy, but mr. thorne, who knew nothing of what had occurred, and another guest, a friend of his, entirely interfered with her good intentions. so poor eleanor had to go to bed without one sign of affection. her state, nevertheless, was not to be pitied. the next morning she was up early. it was probable, she thought, that by going down a little before the usual hour of breakfast she might find mr. arabin alone in the dining-room. might it not be that he also would calculate that an interview would thus be possible? thus thinking, eleanor was dressed a full hour before the time fixed in the ullathorne household for morning prayers. she did not at once go down. she was afraid to seem to be too anxious to meet her lover, though heaven knows her anxiety was intense enough. she therefore sat herself down at her window, and repeatedly looking at her watch, nursed her child till she thought she might venture forth. when she found herself at the dining-room door, she stood a moment, hesitating to turn the handle; but when she heard mr. thorne's voice inside she hesitated no longer. her object was defeated, and she might now go in as soon as she liked without the slightest imputation on her delicacy. mr. thorne and mr. arabin were standing on the hearth-rug, discussing the merits of the beelzebub colt; or rather, mr. thorne was discussing, and mr. arabin was listening. that interesting animal had rubbed the stump of his tail against the wall of his stable and occasioned much uneasiness to the ullathorne master of the horse. had eleanor but waited another minute, mr. thorne would have been in the stables. mr. thorne, when he saw his lady guest, repressed his anxiety. the beelzebub colt must do without him. and so the three stood, saying little or nothing to each other, till at last the master of the house, finding that he could no longer bear his present state of suspense respecting his favourite young steed, made an elaborate apology to mrs. bold and escaped. as he shut the door behind him eleanor almost wished that he had remained. it was not that she was afraid of mr. arabin, but she hardly yet knew how to address him. he, however, soon relieved her from her embarrassment. he came up to her, and taking both her hands in his, he said, "so, eleanor, you and i are to be man and wife. is it so?" she looked up into his face, and her lips formed themselves into a single syllable. she uttered no sound, but he could read the affirmative plainly in her face. "it is a great trust," said he, "a very great trust." "it is--it is," said eleanor, not exactly taking what he had said in the sense that he had meant. "it is a very, very great trust, and i will do my utmost to deserve it." "and i also will do my utmost to deserve it," said mr. arabin very solemnly. and then, winding his arm round her waist, he stood there gazing at the fire, and she, with her head leaning on his shoulder, stood by him, well satisfied with her position. they neither of them spoke, or found any want of speaking. all that was needful for them to say had been said. the yea, yea, had been spoken by eleanor in her own way--and that way had been perfectly satisfactory to mr. arabin. and now it remained to them each to enjoy the assurance of the other's love. and how great that luxury is! how far it surpasses any other pleasure which god has allowed to his creatures! and to a woman's heart how doubly delightful! when the ivy has found its tower, when the delicate creeper has found its strong wall, we know how the parasite plants grow and prosper. they were not created to stretch forth their branches alone, and endure without protection the summer's sun and the winter's storm. alone they but spread themselves on the ground and cower unseen in the dingy shade. but when they have found their firm supporters, how wonderful is their beauty; how all-pervading and victorious! what is the turret without its ivy, or the high garden wall without the jasmine which gives it its beauty and fragrance? the hedge without the honeysuckle is but a hedge. there is a feeling still half-existing, but now half-conquered by the force of human nature, that a woman should be ashamed of her love till the husband's right to her compels her to acknowledge it. we would fain preach a different doctrine. a woman should glory in her love, but on that account let her take the more care that it be such as to justify her glory. eleanor did glory in hers, and she felt, and had cause to feel, that it deserved to be held as glorious. she could have stood there for hours with his arm round her, had fate and mr. thorne permitted it. each moment she crept nearer to his bosom and felt more and more certain that there was her home. what now to her was the archdeacon's arrogance, her sister's coldness, or her dear father's weakness? what need she care for the duplicity of such friends as charlotte stanhope? she had found the strong shield that should guard her from all wrongs, the trusty pilot that should henceforward guide her through the shoals and rocks. she would give up the heavy burden of her independence, and once more assume the position of a woman and the duties of a trusting and loving wife. and he, too, stood there fully satisfied with his place. they were both looking intently on the fire, as though they could read there their future fate, till at last eleanor turned her face towards his. "how sad you are," she said, smiling; and indeed his face was, if not sad, at least serious. "how sad you are, love!" "sad," said he, looking down at her; "no, certainly not sad." her sweet, loving eyes were turned towards him, and she smiled softly as he answered her. the temptation was too strong even for the demure propriety of mr. arabin, and bending over her, he pressed his lips to hers. immediately after this mr. thorne appeared, and they were both delighted to hear that the tail of the beelzebub colt was not materially injured. it had been mr. harding's intention to hurry over to ullathorne as soon as possible after his return to barchester, in order to secure the support of his daughter in his meditated revolt against the archdeacon as touching the deanery; but he was spared the additional journey by hearing that mrs. bold had returned unexpectedly home. as soon as he had read her note he started off, and found her waiting for him in her own house. how much each of them had to tell the other, and how certain each was that the story which he or she had to tell would astonish the other! "my dear, i am so anxious to see you," said mr. harding, kissing his daughter. "oh, papa, i have so much to tell you!" said the daughter, returning the embrace. "my dear, they have offered me the deanery!" said mr. harding, anticipating by the suddenness of the revelation the tidings which eleanor had to give him. "oh, papa," said she, forgetting her own love and happiness in her joy at the surprising news. "oh, papa, can it be possible? dear papa, how thoroughly, thoroughly happy that makes me!" "but, my dear, i think it best to refuse it." "oh, papa!" "i am sure you will agree with me, eleanor, when i explain it to you. you know, my dear, how old i am. if i live i--" "but, papa, i must tell you about myself." "well, my dear." "i do so wonder how you'll take it." "take what?" "if you don't rejoice at it, if it doesn't make you happy, if you don't encourage me, i shall break my heart." "if that be the case, nelly, i certainly will encourage you." "but i fear you won't. i do so fear you won't. and yet you can't but think i am the most fortunate woman living on god's earth." "are you, dearest? then i certainly will rejoice with you. come, nelly, come to me and tell me what it is." "i am going--" he led her to the sofa and, seating himself beside her, took both her hands in his. "you are going to be married, nelly. is not that it?" "yes," she said faintly. "that is, if you will approve;" and then she blushed as she remembered the promise which she had so lately volunteered to him and which she had so utterly forgotten in making her engagement with mr. arabin. mr. harding thought for a moment who the man could be whom he was to be called upon to welcome as his son-in-law. a week since he would have had no doubt whom to name. in that case he would have been prepared to give his sanction, although he would have done so with a heavy heart. now he knew that at any rate it would not be mr. slope, though he was perfectly at a loss to guess who could possibly have filled the place. for a moment he thought that the man might be bertie stanhope, and his very soul sank within him. "well, nelly?" "oh, papa, promise to me that, for my sake, you will love him." "come, nelly, come; tell me who it is." "but will you love him, papa?" "dearest, i must love anyone that you love." then she turned her face to his and whispered into his ear the name of mr. arabin. no man that she could have named could have more surprised or more delighted him. had he looked round the world for a son-in-law to his taste, he could have selected no one whom he would have preferred to mr. arabin. he was a clergyman; he held a living in the neighbourhood; he was of a set to which all mr. harding's own partialities most closely adhered; he was the great friend of dr. grantly; and he was, moreover, a man of whom mr. harding knew nothing but what he approved. nevertheless, his surprise was so great as to prevent the immediate expression of his joy. he had never thought of mr. arabin in connexion with his daughter; he had never imagined that they had any feeling in common. he had feared that his daughter had been made hostile to clergymen of mr. arabin's stamp by her intolerance of the archdeacon's pretensions. had he been put to wish, he might have wished for mr. arabin for a son-in-law; but had he been put to guess, the name would never have occurred to him. "mr. arabin!" he exclaimed; "impossible!" "oh, papa, for heaven's sake don't say anything against him! if you love me, don't say anything against him. oh, papa, it's done and mustn't be undone--oh, papa!" fickle eleanor! where was the promise that she would make no choice for herself without her father's approval? she had chosen, and now demanded his acquiescence. "oh, papa, isn't he good? isn't he noble? isn't he religious, high-minded, everything that a good man possibly can be?" she clung to her father, beseeching him for his consent. "my nelly, my child, my own daughter! he is; he is noble and good and high-minded; he is all that a woman can love and a man admire. he shall be my son, my own son. he shall be as close to my heart as you are. my nelly, my child, my happy, happy child!" we need not pursue the interview any further. by degrees they returned to the subject of the new promotion. eleanor tried to prove to him, as the grantlys had done, that his age could be no bar to his being a very excellent dean, but those arguments had now even less weight on him than before. he said little or nothing but sat, meditative. every now and then he would kiss his daughter and say "yes," or "no," or "very true," or "well, my dear, i can't quite agree with you there," but he could not be got to enter sharply into the question of "to be, or not to be" dean of barchester. of her and her happiness, of mr. arabin and his virtues, he would talk as much as eleanor desired--and to tell the truth, that was not a little--but about the deanery he would now say nothing further. he had got a new idea into his head--why should not mr. arabin be the new dean? chapter l the archdeacon is satisfied with the state of affairs the archdeacon, in his journey into barchester, had been assured by mr. harding that all their prognostications about mr. slope and eleanor were groundless. mr. harding, however, had found it very difficult to shake his son-in-law's faith in his own acuteness. the matter had, to dr. grantly, been so plainly corroborated by such patent evidence, borne out by such endless circumstances, that he at first refused to take as true the positive statement which mr. harding made to him of eleanor's own disavowal of the impeachment. but at last he yielded in a qualified way. he brought himself to admit that he would at the present regard his past convictions as a mistake, but in doing this he so guarded himself that if, at any future time, eleanor should come forth to the world as mrs. slope, he might still be able to say: "there, i told you so. remember what you said and what i said; and remember also for coming years, that i was right in this matter--as in all others." he carried, however, his concession so far as to bring himself to undertake to call at eleanor's house, and he did call accordingly, while the father and daughter were yet in the middle of their conference. mr. harding had had so much to hear and to say that he had forgotten to advise eleanor of the honour that awaited her, and she heard her brother-in-law's voice in the hall while she was quite unprepared to see him. "there's the archdeacon," she said, springing up. "yes, my dear. he told me to tell you that he would come and see you; but to tell the truth i had forgotten all about it." eleanor fled away, regardless of all her father's entreaties. she could not now, in the first hours of her joy, bring herself to bear all the archdeacon's retractions, apologies, and congratulations. he would have so much to say, and would be so tedious in saying it; consequently, the archdeacon, when he was shown into the drawing-room, found no one there but mr. harding. "you must excuse eleanor," said mr. harding. "is anything the matter?" asked the doctor, who at once anticipated that the whole truth about mr. slope had at last come out. "well, something is the matter. i wonder now whether you will be much surprised." the archdeacon saw by his father-in-law's manner that after all he had nothing to tell him about mr. slope. "no," said he, "certainly not--nothing will ever surprise me again." very many men now-a-days besides the archdeacon adopt or affect to adopt the _nil admirari_ doctrine; but nevertheless, to judge from their appearance, they are just as subject to sudden emotions as their grandfathers and grandmothers were before them. "what do you think mr. arabin has done?" "mr. arabin! it's nothing about that daughter of stanhope's, i hope?" "no, not that woman," said mr. harding, enjoying his joke in his sleeve. "not that woman! is he going to do anything about any woman? why can't you speak out, if you have anything to say? there is nothing i hate so much as these sort of mysteries." "there shall be no mystery with you, archdeacon, though of course it must go no further at present." "well." "except susan. you must promise me you'll tell no one else." "nonsense!" exclaimed the archdeacon, who was becoming angry in his suspense. "you can't have any secret about mr. arabin." "only this--that he and eleanor are engaged." it was quite clear to see, by the archdeacon's face, that he did not believe a word of it. "mr. arabin! it's impossible!" "eleanor, at any rate, has just now told me so." "it's impossible," repeated the archdeacon. "well, i can't say i think it impossible. it certainly took me by surprise, but that does not make it impossible." "she must be mistaken." mr. harding assured him that there was no mistake; that he would find, on returning home, that mr. arabin had been at plumstead with the express object of making the same declaration; that even miss thorne knew all about it; and that, in fact, the thing was as clearly settled as any such arrangement between a lady and a gentleman could well be. "good heavens!" said the archdeacon, walking up and down eleanor's drawing-room. "good heavens! good heavens!" now these exclamations certainly betokened faith. mr. harding properly gathered from it that, at last, dr. grantly did believe the fact. the first utterance clearly evinced a certain amount of distaste at the information he had received; the second simply indicated surprise; in the tone of the third mr. harding fancied that he could catch a certain gleam of satisfaction. the archdeacon had truly expressed the workings of his mind. he could not but be disgusted to find how utterly astray he had been in all his anticipations. had he only been lucky enough to have suggested this marriage himself when he first brought mr. arabin into the country, his character for judgement and wisdom would have received an addition which would have classed him at any rate next to solomon. and why had he not done so? might he not have foreseen that mr. arabin would want a wife in his parsonage? he had foreseen that eleanor would want a husband, but should he not also have perceived that mr. arabin was a man much more likely to attract her than mr. slope? the archdeacon found that he had been at fault and, of course, could not immediately get over his discomfiture. then his surprise was intense. how sly this pair of young turtle-doves had been with him. how egregiously they had hoaxed him. he had preached to eleanor against her fancied attachment to mr. slope at the very time that she was in love with his own protégé, mr. arabin, and had absolutely taken that same mr. arabin into his confidence with reference to his dread of mr. slope's alliance. it was very natural that the archdeacon should feel surprise. but there was also great ground for satisfaction. looking at the match by itself, it was the very thing to help the doctor out of his difficulties. in the first place, the assurance that he should never have mr. slope for his brother-in-law was in itself a great comfort. then mr. arabin was, of all men, the one with whom it would best suit him to be so intimately connected. but the crowning comfort was the blow which this marriage would give to mr. slope. he had now certainly lost his wife; rumour was beginning to whisper that he might possibly lose his position in the palace; and if mr. harding would only be true, the great danger of all would be surmounted. in such case it might be expected that mr. slope would own himself vanquished, and take himself altogether away from barchester. and so the archdeacon would again be able to breathe pure air. "well, well," said he. "good heavens! good heavens!" and the tone of the fifth exclamation made mr. harding fully aware that content was reigning in the archdeacon's bosom. and then slowly, gradually, and craftily mr. harding propounded his own new scheme. why should not mr. arabin be the new dean? slowly, gradually, and thoughtfully dr. grantly fell into his father-in-law's views. much as he liked mr. arabin, sincere as was his admiration for that gentleman's ecclesiastical abilities, he would not have sanctioned a measure which would rob his father-in-law of his fairly earned promotion, were it at all practicable to induce his father-in-law to accept the promotion which he had earned. but the archdeacon had, on a former occasion, received proof of the obstinacy with which mr. harding could adhere to his own views in opposition to the advice of all his friends. he knew tolerably well that nothing would induce the meek, mild man before him to take the high place offered to him, if he thought it wrong to do so. knowing this, he also said to himself more than once: "why should not mr. arabin be dean of barchester?" it was at last arranged between them that they would together start to london by the earliest train on the following morning, making a little detour to oxford on their journey. dr. gwynne's counsels, they imagined, might perhaps be of assistance to them. these matters settled, the archdeacon hurried off, that he might return to plumstead and prepare for his journey. the day was extremely fine, and he came into the city in an open gig. as he was driving up the high street he encountered mr. slope at a crossing. had he not pulled up rather sharply, he would have run over him. the two had never spoken to each other since they had met on a memorable occasion in the bishop's study. they did not speak now, but they looked each other full in the face, and mr. slope's countenance was as impudent, as triumphant, as defiant as ever. had dr. grantly not known to the contrary, he would have imagined that his enemy had won the deanship, the wife, and all the rich honours for which he had been striving. as it was, he had lost everything that he had in the world, and had just received his _congé_ from the bishop. in leaving the town the archdeacon drove by the well-remembered entrance of hiram's hospital. there, at the gate, was a large, untidy farmer's wagon, laden with untidy-looking furniture; and there, inspecting the arrival, was good mrs. quiverful--not dressed in her sunday best, not very clean in her apparel, not graceful as to her bonnet and shawl, or, indeed, with many feminine charms as to her whole appearance. she was busy at domestic work in her new house, and had just ventured out, expecting to see no one on the arrival of the family chattels. the archdeacon was down upon her before she knew where she was. her acquaintance with dr. grantly or his family was very slight indeed. the archdeacon, as a matter of course, knew every clergyman in the archdeaconry--it may almost be said in the diocese--and had some acquaintance, more or less intimate, with their wives and families. with mr. quiverful he had been concerned on various matters of business, but of mrs. q. he had seen very little. now, however, he was in too gracious a mood to pass her by unnoticed. the quiverfuls, one and all, had looked for the bitterest hostility from dr. grantly; they knew his anxiety that mr. harding should return to his old home at the hospital, and they did not know that a new home had been offered to him at the deanery. mrs. quiverful was therefore not a little surprised, and not a little rejoiced also, at the tone in which she was addressed. "how do you do, mrs. quiverful, how do you do?" said he, stretching his left hand out of the gig as he spoke to her. "i am very glad to see you employed in so pleasant and useful a manner; very glad indeed." mrs. quiverful thanked him, and shook hands with him, and looked into his face suspiciously. she was not sure whether the congratulations and kindness were or were not ironical. "pray tell mr. quiverful from me," he continued, "that i am rejoiced at his appointment. it's a comfortable place, mrs. quiverful, and a comfortable house, and i am very glad to see you in it. good-bye--good-bye." and he drove on, leaving the lady well pleased and astonished at his good nature. on the whole things were going well with the archdeacon, and he could afford to be charitable to mrs. quiverful. he looked forth from his gig smilingly on all the world, and forgave everyone in barchester their sins, excepting only mrs. proudie and mr. slope. had he seen the bishop, he would have felt inclined to pat even him kindly on the head. he determined to go home by st. ewold's. this would take him some three miles out of his way, but he felt that he could not leave plumstead comfortably without saying one word of good-fellowship to mr. arabin. when he reached the parsonage, the vicar was still out, but from what he had heard, he did not doubt but that he would meet him on the road between their two houses. he was right in this, for about half-way home, at a narrow turn, he came upon mr. arabin, who was on horseback. "well, well, well, well," said the archdeacon loudly, joyously, and with supreme good humour; "well, well, well, well; so, after all, we have no further cause to fear mr. slope." "i hear from mrs. grantly that they have offered the deanery to mr. harding," said the other. "mr. slope has lost more than the deanery i find," and then the archdeacon laughed jocosely. "come, come, arabin, you have kept your secret well enough. i know all about it now." "i have had no secret, archdeacon," said the other with a quiet smile. "none at all--not for a day. it was only yesterday that i knew my own good fortune, and to-day i went over to plumstead to ask your approval. from what mrs. grantly has said to me, i am led to hope that i shall have it." "with all my heart, with all my heart," said the archdeacon cordially, holding his friend fast by the hand. "it's just as i would have it. she is an excellent young woman; she will not come to you empty-handed; and i think she will make you a good wife. if she does her duty by you as her sister does by me, you'll be a happy man; that's all i can say." and as he finished speaking a tear might have been observed in each of the doctor's eyes. mr. arabin warmly returned the archdeacon's grasp, but he said little. his heart was too full for speaking, and he could not express the gratitude which he felt. dr. grantly understood him as well as though he had spoken for an hour. "and mind, arabin," said he, "no one but myself shall tie the knot. we'll get eleanor out to plumstead, and it shall come off there. i'll make susan stir herself, and we'll do it in style. i must be off to london to-morrow on special business. harding goes with me. but i'll be back before your bride has got her wedding-dress ready." and so they parted. on his journey home the archdeacon occupied his mind with preparations for the marriage festivities. he made a great resolve that he would atone to eleanor for all the injury he had done her by the munificence of his future treatment. he would show her what was the difference in his eyes between a slope and an arabin. on one other thing also he decided with a firm mind: if the affair of the dean should not be settled in mr. arabin's favour, nothing should prevent him putting a new front and bow-window to the dining-room at st. ewold's parsonage. "so we're sold after all, sue," said he to his wife, accosting her with a kiss as soon as he entered his house. he did not call his wife sue above twice or thrice in a year, and these occasions were great high days. "eleanor has had more sense than we gave her credit for," said mrs. grantly. and there was great content in plumstead rectory that evening. mrs. grantly promised her husband that she would now open her heart and take mr. arabin into it. hitherto she had declined to do so. chapter li mr. slope bids farewell to the palace and its inhabitants we must now take leave of mr. slope, and of the bishop also, and of mrs. proudie. these leave-takings in novels are as disagreeable as they are in real life; not so sad, indeed, for they want the reality of sadness; but quite as perplexing, and generally less satisfactory. what novelist, what fielding, what scott, what george sand, or sue, or dumas, can impart an interest to the last chapter of his fictitious history? promises of two children and superhuman happiness are of no avail, nor assurance of extreme respectability carried to an age far exceeding that usually allotted to mortals. the sorrows of our heroes and heroines, they are your delight, oh public!--their sorrows, or their sins, or their absurdities; not their virtues, good sense, and consequent rewards. when we begin to tint our final pages with _couleur de rose_, as in accordance with fixed rule we must do, we altogether extinguish our own powers of pleasing. when we become dull, we offend your intellect; and we must become dull or we should offend your taste. a late writer, wishing to sustain his interest to the last page, hung his hero at the end of the third volume. the consequence was that no one would read his novel. and who can apportion out and dovetail his incidents, dialogues, characters, and descriptive morsels so as to fit them all exactly into pages, without either compressing them unnaturally, or extending them artificially at the end of his labour? do i not myself know that i am at this moment in want of a dozen pages, and that i am sick with cudgelling my brains to find them? and then, when everything is done, the kindest-hearted critic of them all invariably twits us with the incompetency and lameness of our conclusion. we have either become idle and neglected it, or tedious and overlaboured it. it is insipid or unnatural, overstrained or imbecile. it means nothing, or attempts too much. the last scene of all, as all last scenes we fear must be, is second childishness, and mere oblivion, sans teeth, sans eyes, sans taste, sans everything. i can only say that if some critic who thoroughly knows his work, and has laboured on it till experience has made him perfect, will write the last fifty pages of a novel in the way they should be written, i, for one, will in future do my best to copy the example. guided by my own lights only, i confess that i despair of success. for the last week or ten days mr. slope had seen nothing of mrs. proudie, and very little of the bishop. he still lived in the palace, and still went through his usual routine work; but the confidential doings of the diocese had passed into other hands. he had seen this clearly and marked it well, but it had not much disturbed him. he had indulged in other hopes till the bishop's affairs had become dull to him, and he was moreover aware that, as regarded the diocese, mrs. proudie had checkmated him. it has been explained, in the beginning of these pages, how three or four were contending together as to who, in fact, should be bishop of barchester. each of these had now admitted to himself (or boasted to herself) that mrs. proudie was victorious in the struggle. they had gone through a competitive examination of considerable severity, and she had come forth the winner, _facile princeps_. mr. slope had for a moment run her hard, but it was only for a moment. it had become, as it were, acknowledged that hiram's hospital should be the testing-point between them, and now mr. quiverful was already in the hospital, the proof of mrs. proudie's skill and courage. all this did not break down mr. slope's spirit, because he had other hopes. but, alas, at last there came to him a note from his friend sir nicholas, informing him that the deanship was disposed of. let us give mr. slope his due. he did not lie prostrate under this blow, or give himself up to vain lamentations; he did not henceforward despair of life and call upon gods above and gods below to carry him off. he sat himself down in his chair, counted out what monies he had in hand for present purposes and what others were coming in to him, bethought himself as to the best sphere for his future exertions, and at once wrote off a letter to a rich sugar-refiner's wife in baker street, who, as he well knew, was much given to the entertainment and encouragement of serious young evangelical clergymen. he was again, he said, "upon the world, having found the air of a cathedral town, and the very nature of cathedral services, uncongenial to his spirit;" and then he sat awhile, making firm resolves as to his manner of parting from the bishop, and also as to his future conduct. at last he rose, and twitched his mantle blue (black), to-morrow to fresh woods and pastures new. having received a formal command to wait upon the bishop, he rose and proceeded to obey it. he rang the bell and desired the servant to inform his master that, if it suited his lordship, he, mr. slope, was ready to wait upon him. the servant, who well understood that mr. slope was no longer in the ascendant, brought back a message saying that "his lordship desired that mr. slope would attend him immediately in his study." mr. slope waited about ten minutes more to prove his independence, and then he went into the bishop's room. there, as he had expected, he found mrs. proudie, together with her husband. "hum, ha--mr. slope, pray take a chair," said the gentleman bishop. "pray be seated, mr. slope," said the lady bishop. "thank ye, thank ye," said mr. slope, and walking round to the fire, he threw himself into one of the armchairs that graced the hearth-rug. "mr. slope," said the bishop, "it has become necessary that i should speak to you definitively on a matter that has for some time been pressing itself on my attention." "may i ask whether the subject is in any way connected with myself?" said mr. slope. "it is so--certainly--yes, it certainly is connected with yourself, mr. slope." "then, my lord, if i may be allowed to express a wish, i would prefer that no discussion on the subject should take place between us in the presence of a third person." "don't alarm yourself, mr. slope," said mrs. proudie, "no discussion is at all necessary. the bishop merely intends to express his own wishes." "i merely intend, mr. slope, to express my own wishes--no discussion will be at all necessary," said the bishop, reiterating his wife's words. "that is more, my lord, than we any of us can be sure of," said mr. slope; "i cannot, however, force mrs. proudie to leave the room; nor can i refuse to remain here if it be your lordship's wish that i should do so." "it is his lordship's wish, certainly," said mrs. proudie. "mr. slope," began the bishop in a solemn, serious voice, "it grieves me to have to find fault. it grieves me much to have to find fault with a clergyman--but especially so with a clergyman in your position." "why, what have i done amiss, my lord?" demanded mr. slope boldly. "what have you done amiss, mr. slope?" said mrs. proudie, standing erect before the culprit and raising that terrible forefinger. "do you dare to ask the bishop what you have done amiss? does not your conscience--" "mrs. proudie, pray let it be understood, once for all, that i will have no words with you." "ah, sir, but you will have words," said she; "you must have words. why have you had so many words with that signora neroni? why have you disgraced yourself, you a clergyman, too, by constantly consorting with such a woman as that--with a married woman--with one altogether unfit for a clergyman's society?" "at any rate i was introduced to her in your drawing-room," retorted mr. slope. "and shamefully you behaved there," said mrs. proudie; "most shamefully. i was wrong to allow you to remain in the house a day after what i then saw. i should have insisted on your instant dismissal." "i have yet to learn, mrs. proudie, that you have the power to insist either on my going from hence or on my staying here." "what!" said the lady. "i am not to have the privilege of saying who shall and who shall not frequent my own drawing-room! i am not to save my servants and dependants from having their morals corrupted by improper conduct! i am not to save my own daughters from impurity! i will let you see, mr. slope, whether i have the power or whether i have not. you will have the goodness to understand that you no longer fill any situation about the bishop, and as your room will be immediately wanted in the palace for another chaplain, i must ask you to provide yourself with apartments as soon as may be convenient to you." "my lord," said mr. slope, appealing to the bishop, and so turning his back completely on the lady, "will you permit me to ask that i may have from your own lips any decision that you may have come to on this matter?" "certainly, mr. slope, certainly," said the bishop; "that is but reasonable. well, my decision is that you had better look for some other preferment. for the situation which you have lately held i do not think that you are well suited." "and what, my lord, has been my fault?" "that signora neroni is one fault," said mrs. proudie; "and a very abominable fault she is; very abominable and very disgraceful. fie, mr. slope, fie! you an evangelical clergyman indeed!" "my lord, i desire to know for what fault i am turned out of your lordship's house." "you hear what mrs. proudie says," said the bishop. "when i publish the history of this transaction, my lord, as i decidedly shall do in my own vindication, i presume you will not wish me to state that you have discarded me at your wife's bidding--because she has objected to my being acquainted with another lady, the daughter of one of the prebendaries of the chapter?" "you may publish what you please, sir," said mrs. proudie. "but you will not be insane enough to publish any of your doings in barchester. do you think i have not heard of your kneelings at that creature's feet--that is, if she has any feet--and of your constant slobbering over her hand? i advise you to beware, mr. slope, of what you do and say. clergymen have been unfrocked for less than what you have been guilty of." "my lord, if this goes on i shall be obliged to indict this woman--mrs. proudie i mean--for defamation of character." "i think, mr. slope, you had better now retire," said the bishop. "i will enclose to you a cheque for any balance that may be due to you; under the present circumstances, it will of course be better for all parties that you should leave the palace at the earliest possible moment. i will allow you for your journey back to london and for your maintenance in barchester for a week from this date." "if, however, you wish to remain in this neighbourhood;" said mrs. proudie, "and will solemnly pledge yourself never again to see that woman, and will promise also to be more circumspect in your conduct, the bishop will mention your name to mr. quiverful, who now wants a curate at puddingdale. the house is, i imagine, quite sufficient for your requirements, and there will moreover be a stipend of fifty pounds a year." "may god forgive you, madam, for the manner in which you have treated me," said mr. slope, looking at her with a very heavenly look; "and remember this, madam, that you yourself may still have a fall;" and he looked at her with a very worldly look. "as to the bishop, i pity him!" and so saying, mr. slope left the room. thus ended the intimacy of the bishop of barchester with his first confidential chaplain. mrs. proudie was right in this; namely, that mr. slope was not insane enough to publish to the world any of his doings in barchester. he did not trouble his friend mr. towers with any written statement of the iniquity of mrs. proudie, or the imbecility of her husband. he was aware that it would be wise in him to drop for the future all allusion to his doings in the cathedral city. soon after the interview just recorded he left barchester, shaking the dust off his feet as he entered the railway carriage; and he gave no longing, lingering look after the cathedral towers as the train hurried him quickly out of their sight. it is well known that the family of the slopes never starve: they always fall on their feet, like cats; and let them fall where they will, they live on the fat of the land. our mr. slope did so. on his return to town he found that the sugar-refiner had died and that his widow was inconsolable--in other words, in want of consolation. mr. slope consoled her, and soon found himself settled with much comfort in the house in baker street. he possessed himself, also, before long, of a church in the vicinity of the red road, and became known to fame as one of the most eloquent preachers and pious clergymen in that part of the metropolis. there let us leave him. of the bishop and his wife very little further need be said. from that time forth nothing material occurred to interrupt the even course of their domestic harmony. very speedily, a further vacancy on the bench of bishops gave to dr. proudie the seat in the house of lords, which he at first so anxiously longed for. but by this time he had become a wiser man. he did certainly take his seat, and occasionally registered a vote in favour of government views on ecclesiastical matters. but he had thoroughly learnt that his proper sphere of action lay in close contiguity with mrs. proudie's wardrobe. he never again aspired to disobey, or seemed even to wish for autocratic diocesan authority. if ever he thought of freedom, he did so as men think of the millennium, as of a good time which may be coming, but which nobody expects to come in their day. mrs. proudie might be said still to bloom, and was, at any rate, strong, and the bishop had no reason to apprehend that he would be speedily visited with the sorrows of a widower's life. he is still bishop of barchester. he has so graced that throne that the government has been averse to translate him, even to higher dignities. there may he remain, under safe pupilage, till the newfangled manners of the age have discovered him to be superannuated and bestowed on him a pension. as for mrs. proudie, our prayers for her are that she may live forever. chapter lii the new dean takes possession of the deanery, and the new warden of the hospital mr. harding and the archdeacon together made their way to oxford, and there, by dint of cunning argument, they induced the master of lazarus also to ask himself this momentous question: "why should not mr. arabin be dean of barchester?" he, of course, for awhile tried his hand at persuading mr. harding that he was foolish, overscrupulous, self-willed, and weak-minded; but he tried in vain. if mr. harding would not give way to dr. grantly, it was not likely that he would give way to dr. gwynne, more especially now that so admirable a scheme as that of inducting mr. arabin into the deanery had been set on foot. when the master found that his eloquence was vain, and heard also that mr. arabin was about to become mr. harding's son-in-law, he confessed that he also would, under such circumstances, be glad to see his old friend and protégé, the fellow of his college, placed in the comfortable position that was going a-begging. "it might be the means you know, master, of keeping mr. slope out," said the archdeacon with grave caution. "he has no more chance of it," said the master, "than our college chaplain. i know more about it than that." mrs. grantly had been right in her surmise. it was the master of lazarus who had been instrumental in representing in high places the claims which mr. harding had upon the government, and he now consented to use his best endeavours towards getting the offer transferred to mr. arabin. the three of them went on to london together, and there they remained a week, to the great disgust of mrs. grantly, and most probably also of mrs. gwynne. the minister was out of town in one direction, and his private secretary in another. the clerks who remained could do nothing in such a matter as this, and all was difficulty and confusion. the two doctors seemed to have plenty to do; they bustled here and they bustled there, and complained at their club in the evenings that they had been driven off their legs; but mr. harding had no occupation. once or twice he suggested that he might perhaps return to barchester. his request, however, was peremptorily refused, and he had nothing for it but to while away his time in westminster abbey. at length an answer from the great man came. the master of lazarus had made his proposition through the bishop of belgravia. now this bishop, though but newly gifted with his diocesan honours, was a man of much weight in the clerico-political world. he was, if not as pious, at any rate as wise as st. paul, and had been with so much effect all things to all men that, though he was great among the dons of oxford, he had been selected for the most favourite seat on the bench by a whig prime minister. to him dr. gwynne had made known his wishes and his arguments, and the bishop had made them known to the marquis of kensington-gore. the marquis, who was lord high steward of the pantry board, and who by most men was supposed to hold the highest office out of the cabinet, trafficked much in affairs of this kind. he not only suggested the arrangement to the minister over a cup of coffee, standing on a drawing-room rug in windsor castle, but he also favourably mentioned mr. arabin's name in the ear of a distinguished person. and so the matter was arranged. the answer of the great man came, and mr. arabin was made dean of barchester. the three clergymen who had come up to town on this important mission dined together with great glee on the day on which the news reached them. in a silent, decent, clerical manner they toasted mr. arabin with full bumpers of claret. the satisfaction of all of them was supreme. the master of lazarus had been successful in his attempt, and success is dear to us all. the archdeacon had trampled upon mr. slope, and had lifted to high honours the young clergyman whom he had induced to quit the retirement and comfort of the university. so at least the archdeacon thought; though, to speak sooth, not he, but circumstances, had trampled on mr. slope. but the satisfaction of mr. harding was, of all, perhaps, the most complete. he laid aside his usual melancholy manner and brought forth little quiet jokes from the inmost mirth of his heart; he poked his fun at the archdeacon about mr. slope's marriage and quizzed him for his improper love for mrs. proudie. on the following day they all returned to barchester. it was arranged that mr. arabin should know nothing of what had been done till he received the minister's letter from the hands of his embryo father-in-law. in order that no time might be lost, a message had been sent to him by the preceding night's post, begging him to be at the deanery at the hour that the train from london arrived. there was nothing in this which surprised mr. arabin. it had somehow got about through all barchester that mr. harding was the new dean, and all barchester was prepared to welcome him with pealing bells and full hearts. mr. slope had certainly had a party; there had certainly been those in barchester who were prepared to congratulate him on his promotion with assumed sincerity, but even his own party was not broken-hearted by his failure. the inhabitants of the city, even the high-souled, ecstatic young ladies of thirty-five, had begun to comprehend that their welfare, and the welfare of the place, was connected in some mysterious manner with daily chants and bi-weekly anthems. the expenditure of the palace had not added much to the popularity of the bishop's side of the question; and, on the whole, there was a strong reaction. when it became known to all the world that mr. harding was to be the new dean, all the world rejoiced heartily. mr. arabin, we have said, was not surprised at the summons which called him to the deanery. he had not as yet seen mr. harding since eleanor had accepted him, nor had he seen him since he had learnt his future father-in-law's preferment. there was nothing more natural, more necessary, than that they should meet each other at the earliest possible moment. mr. arabin was waiting in the deanery parlour when mr. harding and dr. grantly were driven up from the station. there was some excitement in the bosoms of them all, as they met and shook hands; by far too much to enable either of them to begin his story and tell it in a proper equable style of narrative. mr. harding was some minutes quite dumbfounded, and mr. arabin could only talk in short, spasmodic sentences about his love and good fortune. he slipped in, as best he could, some sort of congratulation about the deanship, and then went on with his hopes and fears--hopes that he might be received as a son, and fears that he hardly deserved such good fortune. then he went back to the dean; it was the most thoroughly satisfactory appointment, he said, of which he had ever heard. "but! but! but--" said mr. harding, and then, failing to get any further, he looked imploringly at the archdeacon. "the truth is, arabin," said the doctor, "that, after all you are not destined to be son-in-law to a dean. nor am i either: more's the pity." mr. arabin looked at him for explanation. "is not mr. harding to be the new dean?" "it appears not," said the archdeacon. mr. arabin's face fell a little, and he looked from one to the other. it was plainly to be seen from them both that there was no cause of unhappiness in the matter, at least not of unhappiness to them; but there was as yet no elucidation of the mystery. "think how old i am," said mr. harding imploringly. "fiddlestick!" said the archdeacon. "that's all very well, but it won't make a young man of me," said mr. harding. "and who is to be dean?" asked mr. arabin. "yes, that's the question," said the archdeacon. "come, mr. precentor, since you obstinately refuse to be anything else, let us know who is to be the man. he has got the nomination in his pocket." with eyes brim full of tears, mr. harding pulled out the letter and handed it to his future son-in-law. he tried to make a little speech but failed altogether. having given up the document, he turned round to the wall, feigning to blow his nose, and then sat himself down on the old dean's dingy horsehair sofa. and here we find it necessary to bring our account of the interview to an end. nor can we pretend to describe the rapture with which mr. harding was received by his daughter. she wept with grief and wept with joy--with grief that her father should, in his old age, still be without that rank and worldly position which, according to her ideas, he had so well earned; and with joy in that he, her darling father, should have bestowed on that other dear one the good things of which he himself would not open his hand to take possession. and here mr. harding again showed his weakness. in the _mêlée_ of this exposal of their loves and reciprocal affection, he found himself unable to resist the entreaties of all parties that the lodgings in the high street should be given up. eleanor would not live in the deanery, she said, unless her father lived there also. mr. arabin would not be dean, unless mr. harding would be co-dean with him. the archdeacon declared that his father-in-law should not have his own way in everything, and mrs. grantly carried him off to plumstead, that he might remain there till mr. and mrs. arabin were in a state to receive him in their own mansion. pressed by such arguments as these, what could a weak old man do but yield? but there was yet another task which it behoved mr. harding to do before he could allow himself to be at rest. little has been said in these pages of the state of those remaining old men who had lived under his sway at the hospital. but not on this account must it be presumed that he had forgotten them, or that in their state of anarchy and in their want of due government he had omitted to visit them. he visited them constantly, and had latterly given them to understand that they would soon be required to subscribe their adherence to a new master. there were now but five of them, one of them having been but quite lately carried to his rest--but five of the full number, which had hitherto been twelve, and which was now to be raised to twenty-four, including women. of these, old bunce, who for many years had been the favourite of the late warden, was one; and abel handy, who had been the humble means of driving that warden from his home, was another. mr. harding now resolved that he himself would introduce the new warden to the hospital. he felt that many circumstances might conspire to make the men receive mr. quiverful with aversion and disrespect; he felt also that mr. quiverful might himself feel some qualms of conscience if he entered the hospital with an idea that he did so in hostility to his predecessor. mr. harding therefore determined to walk in, arm in arm with mr. quiverful, and to ask from these men their respectful obedience to their new master. on returning to barchester, he found that mr. quiverful had not yet slept in the hospital house, or entered on his new duties. he accordingly made known to that gentleman his wishes, and his proposition was not rejected. it was a bright, clear morning, though in november, that mr. harding and mr. quiverful, arm in arm, walked through the hospital gate. it was one trait in our old friend's character that he did nothing with parade. he omitted, even in the more important doings of his life, that sort of parade by which most of us deem it necessary to grace our important doings. we have house-warmings, christenings, and gala days; we keep, if not our own birthdays, those of our children; we are apt to fuss ourselves if called upon to change our residences and have, almost all of us, our little state occasions. mr. harding had no state occasions. when he left his old house, he went forth from it with the same quiet composure as though he were merely taking his daily walk; now that he re-entered it with another warden under his wing, he did so with the same quiet step and calm demeanour. he was a little less upright than he had been five years, nay, it was now nearly six years ago; he walked perhaps a little slower; his footfall was perhaps a thought less firm; otherwise one might have said that he was merely returning with a friend under his arm. this friendliness was everything to mr. quiverful. to him, even in his poverty, the thought that he was supplanting a brother clergyman so kind and courteous as mr. harding had been very bitter. under his circumstances it had been impossible for him to refuse the proffered boon; he could not reject the bread that was offered to his children, or refuse to ease the heavy burden that had so long oppressed that poor wife of his; nevertheless, it had been very grievous to him to think that in going to the hospital he might encounter the ill-will of his brethren in the diocese. all this mr. harding had fully comprehended. it was for such feelings as these, for the nice comprehension of such motives, that his heart and intellect were peculiarly fitted. in most matters of worldly import the archdeacon set down his father-in-law as little better than a fool. and perhaps he was right. but in some other matters, equally important if they be rightly judged, mr. harding, had he been so minded, might with as much propriety have set down his son-in-law for a fool. few men, however, are constituted as was mr. harding. he had that nice appreciation of the feelings of others which belongs of right exclusively to women. arm in arm they walked into the inner quadrangle of the building, and there the five old men met them. mr. harding shook hands with them all, and then mr. quiverful did the same. with bunce mr. harding shook hands twice, and mr. quiverful was about to repeat the same ceremony, but the old man gave him no encouragement. "i am very glad to know that at last you have a new warden," said mr. harding in a very cheery voice. "we be very old for any change," said one of them, "but we do suppose it be all for the best." "certainly--certainly it is for the best," said mr. harding. "you will again have a clergyman of your own church under the same roof with you, and a very excellent clergyman you will have. it is a great satisfaction to me to know that so good a man is coming to take care of you, and that it is no stranger, but a friend of my own who will allow me from time to time to come in and see you." "we be very thankful to your reverence," said another of them. "i need not tell you, my good friends," said mr. quiverful, "how extremely grateful i am to mr. harding for his kindness to me--i must say his uncalled-for, unexpected kindness." "he be always very kind," said a third. "what i can do to fill the void which he left here i will do. for your sake and my own i will do so, and especially for his sake. but to you who have known him, i can never be the same well-loved friend and father that he has been." "no, sir, no," said old bunce, who hitherto had held his peace; "no one can be that. not if the new bishop sent a hangel to us out of heaven. we doesn't doubt you'll do your best, sir, but you'll not be like the old master--not to us old ones." "fie, bunce, fie; how dare you talk in that way?" said mr. harding; but as he scolded the old man he still held him by his arm and pressed it with warm affection. there was no getting up any enthusiasm in the matter. how could five old men tottering away to their final resting place be enthusiastic on the reception of a stranger? what could mr. quiverful be to them, or they to mr. quiverful? had mr. harding indeed come back to them, some last flicker of joyous light might have shone forth on their aged cheeks; but it was in vain to bid them rejoice because mr. quiverful was about to move his fourteen children from puddingdale into the hospital house. in reality they did no doubt receive advantage, spiritual as well as corporal, but this they could neither anticipate nor acknowledge. it was a dull affair enough, this introduction of mr. quiverful, but still it had its effect. the good which mr. harding intended did not fall to the ground. all the barchester world, including the five old bedesmen, treated mr. quiverful with the more respect because mr. harding had thus walked in, arm in arm with him, on his first entrance to his duties. and here in their new abode we will leave mr. and mrs. quiverful and their fourteen children. may they enjoy the good things which providence has at length given to them! chapter liii conclusion the end of a novel, like the end of a children's dinner party, must be made up of sweetmeats and sugar-plums. there is now nothing else to be told but the gala doings of mr. arabin's marriage, nothing more to be described than the wedding-dresses, no further dialogue to be recorded than that which took place between the archdeacon, who married them, and mr. arabin and eleanor, who were married. "wilt thou have this woman to thy wedded wife," and "wilt thou have this man to thy wedded husband, to live together according to god's ordinance?" mr. arabin and eleanor each answered, "i will." we have no doubt that they will keep their promises, the more especially as the signora neroni had left barchester before the ceremony was performed. mrs. bold had been somewhat more than two years a widow before she was married to her second husband, and little johnny was then able with due assistance to walk on his own legs into the drawing-room to receive the salutations of the assembled guests. mr. harding gave away the bride, the archdeacon performed the service, and the two miss grantlys, who were joined in their labours by other young ladies of the neighbourhood, performed the duties of bridesmaids with equal diligence and grace. mrs. grantly superintended the breakfast and bouquets, and mary bold distributed the cards and cake. the archdeacon's three sons had also come home for the occasion. the elder was great with learning, being regarded by all who knew him as a certain future double first. the second, however, bore the palm on this occasion, being resplendent in a new uniform. the third was just entering the university, and was probably the proudest of the three. but the most remarkable feature in the whole occasion was the excessive liberality of the archdeacon. he literally made presents to everybody. as mr. arabin had already moved out of the parsonage of st. ewold's, that scheme of elongating the dining-room was of course abandoned; but he would have refurnished the whole deanery had he been allowed. he sent down a magnificent piano by erard, gave mr. arabin a cob which any dean in the land might have been proud to bestride, and made a special present to eleanor of a new pony chair that had gained a prize in the exhibition. nor did he even stay his hand here; he bought a set of cameos for his wife and a sapphire bracelet for miss bold; showered pearls and work-boxes on his daughters; and to each of his sons he presented a check for £ . on mr. harding he bestowed a magnificent violoncello with all the new-fashioned arrangements and expensive additions, which on account of these novelties that gentleman could never use with satisfaction to his audience or pleasure to himself. those who knew the archdeacon well perfectly understood the causes of his extravagance. 'twas thus that he sang his song of triumph over mr. slope. this was his pæan, his hymn of thanksgiving, his loud oration. he had girded himself with his sword and gone forth to the war; now he was returning from the field laden with the spoils of the foe. the cob and the cameos, the violoncello and the pianoforte, were all as it were trophies reft from the tent of his now-conquered enemy. the arabins after their marriage went abroad for a couple of months, according to the custom in such matters now duly established, and then commenced their deanery life under good auspices. and nothing can be more pleasant than the present arrangement of ecclesiastical affairs in barchester. the titular bishop never interfered, and mrs. proudie not often. her sphere is more extended, more noble, and more suited to her ambition than that of a cathedral city. as long as she can do what she pleases with the diocese, she is willing to leave the dean and chapter to themselves. mr. slope tried his hand at subverting the old-established customs of the close, and from his failure she had learnt experience. the burly chancellor and the meagre little prebendary are not teased by any application respecting sabbath-day schools, the dean is left to his own dominions, and the intercourse between mrs. proudie and mrs. arabin is confined to a yearly dinner given by each to the other. at these dinners dr. grantly will not take a part, but he never fails to ask for and receive a full account of all that mrs. proudie either does or says. his ecclesiastical authority has been greatly shorn since the palmy days in which he reigned supreme as mayor of the palace to his father, but nevertheless such authority as is now left to him he can enjoy without interference. he can walk down the high street of barchester without feeling that those who see him are comparing his claims with those of mr. slope. the intercourse between plumstead and the deanery is of the most constant and familiar description. since eleanor has been married to a clergyman, and especially to a dignitary of the church, mrs. grantly has found many more points of sympathy with her sister; and on a coming occasion, which is much looked forward to by all parties, she intends to spend a month or two at the deanery. she never thought of spending a month in barchester when little johnny bold was born! the two sisters do not quite agree on matters of church doctrine, though their differences are of the most amicable description. mrs. arabin's church is two degrees higher than that of mrs. grantly. this may seem strange to those who will remember that eleanor was once accused of partiality to mr. slope, but it is no less the fact. she likes her husband's silken vest, she likes his adherence to the rubric, she specially likes the eloquent philosophy of his sermons, and she likes the red letters in her own prayer-book. it must not be presumed that she has a taste for candles, or that she is at all astray about the real presence, but she has an inkling that way. she sent a handsome subscription towards certain very heavy ecclesiastical legal expenses which have lately been incurred in bath, her name of course not appearing; she assumes a smile of gentle ridicule when the archbishop of canterbury is named; and she has put up a memorial window in the cathedral. mrs. grantly, who belongs to the high and dry church, the high church as it was some fifty years since, before tracts were written and young clergymen took upon themselves the highly meritorious duty of cleaning churches, rather laughs at her sister. she shrugs her shoulders and tells miss thorne that she supposes eleanor will have an oratory in the deanery before she has done. but she is not on that account a whit displeased. a few high church vagaries do not, she thinks, sit amiss on the shoulders of a young dean's wife. it shows at any rate that her heart is in the subject, and it shows moreover that she is removed, wide as the poles asunder, from that cesspool of abomination in which it was once suspected that she would wallow and grovel. anathema maranatha! let anything else be held as blessed, so that that be well cursed. welcome kneelings and bowings, welcome matins and complines, welcome bell, book, and candle, so that mr. slope's dirty surplices and ceremonial sabbaths be held in due execration! if it be essentially and absolutely necessary to choose between the two, we are inclined to agree with mrs. grantly that the bell, book, and candle are the lesser evil of the two. let it however be understood that no such necessity is admitted in these pages. dr. arabin (we suppose he must have become a doctor when he became a dean) is more moderate and less outspoken on doctrinal points than his wife, as indeed in his station it behoves him to be. he is a studious, thoughtful, hard-working man. he lives constantly at the deanery and preaches nearly every sunday. his time is spent in sifting and editing old ecclesiastical literature and in producing the same articles new. at oxford he is generally regarded as the most promising clerical ornament of the age. he and his wife live together in perfect mutual confidence. there is but one secret in her bosom which he has not shared. he has never yet learned how mr. slope had his ears boxed. the stanhopes soon found that mr. slope's power need no longer operate to keep them from the delight of their italian villa. before eleanor's marriage they had all migrated back to the shores of como. they had not been resettled long before the signora received from mrs. arabin a very pretty though very short epistle, in which she was informed of the fate of the writer. this letter was answered by another--bright, charming, and witty, as the signora's letters always were--and so ended the friendship between eleanor and the stanhopes. one word of mr. harding, and we have done. he is still precentor of barchester and still pastor of the little church of st. cuthbert's. in spite of what he has so often said himself, he is not even yet an old man. he does such duties as fall to his lot well and conscientiously, and is thankful that he has never been tempted to assume others for which he might be less fitted. the author now leaves him in the hands of his readers: not as a hero, not as a man to be admired and talked of, not as a man who should be toasted at public dinners and spoken of with conventional absurdity as a perfect divine, but as a good man, without guile, believing humbly in the religion which he has striven to teach, and guided by the precepts which he has striven to learn. and revised by joseph e. loewenstein, m.d., and an anonymous project gutenberg volunteer editorial note: _the small house at allington_ was first published serially in the _cornhill magazine_ from september, , to april, , and in book form (two volumes) by smith, elder in . both the _cornhill_ serial and the smith, elder first edition had eighteen full-page illustrations by john everett millais, and those are included in this e-book. the _cornhill_ edition also had quarter-page vignettes by millais at the beginning of of nineteen chapters, and those too are included. the illustrations can be seen by viewing the html version of this file. see -h.htm or -h.zip: (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h/ -h.htm) or (http://www.gutenberg.org/files/ / -h.zip) [illustration: mr. palliser and lady dumbello. (chapter xxiii)] the small house at allington. by anthony trollope. contents i. the squire of allington. ii. the two pearls of allington. iii. the widow dale of allington. iv. mrs. roper's boarding-house. v. about l. d. vi. beautiful days. vii. the beginning of troubles. viii. it cannot be. ix. mrs. dale's little party. x. mrs. lupex and amelia roper. xi. social life. xii. lilian dale becomes a butterfly. xiii. a visit to guestwick. xiv. john eames takes a walk. xv. the last day. xvi. mr. crosbie meets an old clergyman on his way to courcy castle. xvii. courcy castle. xviii. lily dale's first love-letter. xix. the squire makes a visit to the small house. xx. dr. crofts. xxi. john eames encounters two adventures, and displays great courage in both. xxii. lord de guest at home. xxiii. mr. plantagenet palliser. xxiv. a mother-in-law and a father-in-law. xxv. adolphus crosbie spends an evening at his club. xxvi. lord de courcy in the bosom of his family. xxvii. "on my honour, i do not understand it." xxviii. the board. xxix. john eames returns to burton crescent. xxx. "is it from him?" xxxi. the wounded fawn. xxxii. pawkins's in jermyn street. xxxiii. "the time will come." xxxiv. the combat. xxxv. vÆ victis. xxxvi. "see, the conquering hero comes." xxxvii. an old man's complaint. xxxviii. doctor crofts is called in. xxxix. doctor crofts is turned out. xl. preparations for the wedding. xli. domestic troubles. xlii. lily's bedside. xliii. fie, fie! xliv. valentine's day at allington. xlv. valentine's day in london. xlvi. john eames at his office. xlvii. the new private secretary. xlviii. nemesis. xlix. preparations for going. l. mrs. dale is thankful for a good thing. li. john eames does things which he ought not to have done. lii. the first visit to the guestwick bridge. liii. loquitur hopkins. liv. the second visit to the guestwick bridge. lv. not very fie fie after all. lvi. showing how mr. crosbie became again a happy man. lvii. lilian dale vanquishes her mother. lviii. the fate of the small house. lix. john eames becomes a man. lx. conclusion. illustrations mr. palliser and lady dumbello. [chapter xxiii] frontispiece. "please, ma'am, can we have the peas to shell?" chapter iii. "and you love me?" said she. chapter v. "it's all the fault of the naughty partridges." chapter vii. "mr. cradell, your hand," said lupex. chapter xi. "why, it's young eames." chapter xiv. "he is of that sort that they make the angels of," said the verger. chapter xvi. "and have i not really loved you?" chapter xxi. "devotedly attached to the young man!" chapter xxvi. the board. chapter xxviii. "won't you take some more wine?" chapter xxxii. "and you went in at him on the station?" chapter xxxvi. "let me beg you to think over the matter again." chapter xxxviii. "that might do." chapter xl. "mamma," she said at last, "it is over now, i'm sure." chapter xliv. "why, on earth, on sunday?" chapter xlviii. "bell, here's the inkstand." chapter xlix. "she has refused me, and it is all over." chapter liv. chapter i. the squire of allington. [illustration: (untitled)] of course there was a great house at allington. how otherwise should there have been a small house? our story will, as its name imports, have its closest relations with those who lived in the less dignified domicile of the two; but it will have close relations also with the more dignified, and it may be well that i should, in the first instance, say a few words as to the great house and its owner. the squires of allington had been squires of allington since squires, such as squires are now, were first known in england. from father to son, and from uncle to nephew, and, in one instance, from second cousin to second cousin, the sceptre had descended in the family of the dales; and the acres had remained intact, growing in value and not decreasing in number, though guarded by no entail and protected by no wonderful amount of prudence or wisdom. the estate of dale of allington had been coterminous with the parish of allington for some hundreds of years; and though, as i have said, the race of squires had possessed nothing of superhuman discretion, and had perhaps been guided in their walks through life by no very distinct principles, still there had been with them so much of adherence to a sacred law, that no acre of the property had ever been parted from the hands of the existing squire. some futile attempts had been made to increase the territory, as indeed had been done by kit dale, the father of christopher dale, who will appear as our squire of allington when the persons of our drama are introduced. old kit dale, who had married money, had bought outlying farms,--a bit of ground here and a bit there,--talking, as he did so, much of political influence and of the good old tory cause. but these farms and bits of ground had gone again before our time. to them had been attached no religion. when old kit had found himself pressed in that matter of the majority of the nineteenth dragoons, in which crack regiment his second son made for himself quite a career, he found it easier to sell than to save--seeing that that which he sold was his own and not the patrimony of the dales. at his death the remainder of these purchases had gone. family arrangements required completion, and christopher dale required ready money. the outlying farms flew away, as such new purchases had flown before; but the old patrimony of the dales remained untouched, as it had ever remained. it had been a religion among them; and seeing that the worship had been carried on without fail, that the vestal fire had never gone down upon the hearth, i should not have said that the dales had walked their ways without high principle. to this religion they had all adhered, and the new heir had ever entered in upon his domain without other encumbrances than those with which he himself was then already burdened. and yet there had been no entail. the idea of an entail was not in accordance with the peculiarities of the dale mind. it was necessary to the dale religion that each squire should have the power of wasting the acres of allington,--and that he should abstain from wasting them. i remember to have dined at a house, the whole glory and fortune of which depended on the safety of a glass goblet. we all know the story. if the luck of edenhall should be shattered, the doom of the family would be sealed. nevertheless i was bidden to drink out of the fatal glass, as were all guests in that house. it would not have contented the chivalrous mind of the master to protect his doom by lock and key and padded chest. and so it was with the dales of allington. to them an entail would have been a lock and key and a padded chest; but the old chivalry of their house denied to them the use of such protection. i have spoken something slightingly of the acquirements and doings of the family; and indeed their acquirements had been few and their doings little. at allington, dale of allington had always been known as a king. at guestwick, the neighbouring market town, he was a great man--to be seen frequently on saturdays, standing in the market-place, and laying down the law as to barley and oxen among men who knew usually more about barley and oxen than did he. at hamersham, the assize town, he was generally in some repute, being a constant grand juror for the county, and a man who paid his way. but even at hamersham the glory of the dales had, at most periods, begun to pale, for they had seldom been widely conspicuous in the county, and had earned no great reputation by their knowledge of jurisprudence in the grand jury room. beyond hamersham their fame had not spread itself. they had been men generally built in the same mould, inheriting each from his father the same virtues and the same vices,--men who would have lived, each, as his father had lived before him, had not the new ways of the world gradually drawn away with them, by an invisible magnetism, the upcoming dale of the day,--not indeed in any case so moving him as to bring him up to the spirit of the age in which he lived, but dragging him forward to a line in advance of that on which his father had trodden. they had been obstinate men; believing much in themselves; just according to their ideas of justice; hard to their tenants--but not known to be hard even by the tenants themselves, for the rules followed had ever been the rules on the allington estate; imperious to their wives and children, but imperious within bounds, so that no mrs. dale had fled from her lord's roof, and no loud scandals had existed between father and sons; exacting in their ideas as to money, expecting that they were to receive much and to give little, and yet not thought to be mean, for they paid their way, and gave money in parish charity and in county charity. they had ever been steady supporters of the church, graciously receiving into their parish such new vicars as, from time to time, were sent to them from king's college, cambridge, to which establishment the gift of the living belonged;--but, nevertheless, the dales had ever carried on some unpronounced warfare against the clergyman, so that the intercourse between the lay family and the clerical had seldom been in all respects pleasant. such had been the dales of allington, time out of mind, and such in all respects would have been the christopher dale of our time, had he not suffered two accidents in his youth. he had fallen in love with a lady who obstinately refused his hand, and on her account he had remained single; that was his first accident. the second had fallen upon him with reference to his father's assumed wealth. he had supposed himself to be richer than other dales of allington when coming in upon his property, and had consequently entertained an idea of sitting in parliament for his county. in order that he might attain this honour he had allowed himself to be talked by the men of hamersham and guestwick out of his old family politics, and had declared himself a liberal. he had never gone to the poll, and, indeed, had never actually stood for the seat. but he had come forward as a liberal politician, and had failed; and, although it was well known to all around that christopher dale was in heart as thoroughly conservative as any of his forefathers, this accident had made him sour and silent on the subject of politics, and had somewhat estranged him from his brother squires. in other respects our christopher dale was, if anything, superior to the average of the family. those whom he did love he loved dearly. those whom he hated he did not ill-use beyond the limits of justice. he was close in small matters of money, and yet in certain family arrangements he was, as we shall see, capable of much liberality. he endeavoured to do his duty in accordance with his lights, and had succeeded in weaning himself from personal indulgences, to which during the early days of his high hopes he had become accustomed. and in that matter of his unrequited love he had been true throughout. in his hard, dry, unpleasant way he had loved the woman; and when at last he learned to know that she would not have his love, he had been unable to transfer his heart to another. this had happened just at the period of his father's death, and he had endeavoured to console himself with politics, with what fate we have already seen. a constant, upright, and by no means insincere man was our christopher dale,--thin and meagre in his mental attributes, by no means even understanding the fulness of a full man, with power of eye-sight very limited in seeing aught which was above him, but yet worthy of regard in that he had realized a path of duty and did endeavour to walk therein. and, moreover, our mr. christopher dale was a gentleman. such in character was the squire of allington, the only regular inhabitant of the great house. in person, he was a plain, dry man, with short grizzled hair and thick grizzled eyebrows. of beard, he had very little, carrying the smallest possible gray whiskers, which hardly fell below the points of his ears. his eyes were sharp and expressive, and his nose was straight and well formed,--as was also his chin. but the nobility of his face was destroyed by a mean mouth with thin lips; and his forehead, which was high and narrow, though it forbad you to take mr. dale for a fool, forbad you also to take him for a man of great parts, or of a wide capacity. in height, he was about five feet ten; and at the time of our story was as near to seventy as he was to sixty. but years had treated him very lightly, and he bore few signs of age. such in person was christopher dale, esq., the squire of allington, and owner of some three thousand a year, all of which proceeded from the lands of that parish. and now i will speak of the great house of allington. after all, it was not very great; nor was it surrounded by much of that exquisite nobility of park appurtenance which graces the habitations of most of our old landed proprietors. but the house itself was very graceful. it had been built in the days of the early stuarts, in that style of architecture to which we give the name of the tudors. on its front it showed three pointed roofs, or gables, as i believe they should be called; and between each gable a thin tall chimney stood, the two chimneys thus raising themselves just above the three peaks i have mentioned. i think that the beauty of the house depended much on those two chimneys; on them, and on the mullioned windows with which the front of the house was closely filled. the door, with its jutting porch, was by no means in the centre of the house. as you entered, there was but one window on your right hand, while on your left there were three. and over these there was a line of five windows, one taking its place above the porch. we all know the beautiful old tudor window, with its stout stone mullions and its stone transoms, crossing from side to side at a point much nearer to the top than to the bottom. of all windows ever invented it is the sweetest. and here, at allington, i think their beauty was enhanced by the fact that they were not regular in their shape. some of these windows were long windows, while some of them were high. that to the right of the door, and that at the other extremity of the house, were among the former. but the others had been put in without regard to uniformity, a long window here, and a high window there, with a general effect which could hardly have been improved. then above, in the three gables, were three other smaller apertures. but these also were mullioned, and the entire frontage of the house was uniform in its style. round the house there were trim gardens, not very large, but worthy of much note in that they were so trim,--gardens with broad gravel paths, with one walk running in front of the house so broad as to be fitly called a terrace. but this, though in front of the house, was sufficiently removed from it to allow of a coach-road running inside it to the front door. the dales of allington had always been gardeners, and their garden was perhaps more noted in the county than any other of their properties. but outside the gardens no pretensions had been made to the grandeur of a domain. the pastures round the house were but pretty fields, in which timber was abundant. there was no deer-park at allington; and though the allington woods were well known, they formed no portion of a whole of which the house was a part. they lay away, out of sight, a full mile from the back of the house; but not on that account of less avail for the fitting preservation of foxes. and the house stood much too near the road for purposes of grandeur, had such purposes ever swelled the breast of any of the squires of allington. but i fancy that our ideas of rural grandeur have altered since many of our older country seats were built. to be near the village, so as in some way to afford comfort, protection, and patronage, and perhaps also with some view to the pleasantness of neighbourhood for its own inmates, seemed to be the object of a gentleman when building his house in the old days. a solitude in the centre of a wide park is now the only site that can be recognized as eligible. no cottage must be seen, unless the cottage orné of the gardener. the village, if it cannot be abolished, must be got out of sight. the sound of the church bells is not desirable, and the road on which the profane vulgar travel by their own right must be at a distance. when some old dale of allington built his house, he thought differently. there stood the church and there the village, and, pleased with such vicinity, he sat himself down close to his god and to his tenants. as you pass along the road from guestwick into the village you see the church near to you on your left hand; but the house is hidden from the road. as you approach the church, reaching the gate of it which is not above two hundred yards from the high road, you see the full front of the great house. perhaps the best view of it is from the churchyard. the lane leading up to the church ends in a gate, which is the entrance into mr. dale's place. there is no lodge there, and the gate generally stands open,--indeed, always does so, unless some need of cattle grazing within requires that it should be closed. but there is an inner gate, leading from the home paddock through the gardens to the house, and another inner gate, some thirty yards farther on, which will take you into the farm-yard. perhaps it is a defect at allington that the farm-yard is very close to the house. but the stables, and the straw-yards, and the unwashed carts, and the lazy lingering cattle of the homestead, are screened off by a row of chestnuts, which, when in its glory of flower, in the early days of may, no other row in england can surpass in beauty. had any one told dale of allington--this dale or any former dale--that his place wanted wood, he would have pointed with mingled pride and disdain to his belt of chestnuts. of the church itself i will say the fewest possible number of words. it was a church such as there are, i think, thousands in england--low, incommodious, kept with difficulty in repair, too often pervious to the wet, and yet strangely picturesque, and correct too, according to great rules of architecture. it was built with a nave and aisles, visibly in the form of a cross, though with its arms clipped down to the trunk, with a separate chancel, with a large square short tower, and with a bell-shaped spire, covered with lead and irregular in its proportions. who does not know the low porch, the perpendicular gothic window, the flat-roofed aisles, and the noble old gray tower of such a church as this? as regards its interior, it was dusty; it was blocked up with high-backed ugly pews; the gallery in which the children sat at the end of the church, and in which two ancient musicians blew their bassoons, was all awry, and looked as though it would fall; the pulpit was an ugly useless edifice, as high nearly as the roof would allow, and the reading-desk under it hardly permitted the parson to keep his head free from the dangling tassels of the cushion above him. a clerk also was there beneath him, holding a third position somewhat elevated; and upon the whole things there were not quite as i would have had them. but, nevertheless, the place looked like a church, and i can hardly say so much for all the modern edifices which have been built in my days towards the glory of god. it looked like a church, and not the less so because in walking up the passage between the pews the visitor trod upon the brass plates which dignified the resting-places of the departed dales of old. below the church, and between that and the village, stood the vicarage, in such position that the small garden of the vicarage stretched from the churchyard down to the backs of the village cottages. this was a pleasant residence, newly built within the last thirty years, and creditable to the ideas of comfort entertained by the rich collegiate body from which the vicars of allington always came. doubtless we shall in the course of our sojourn at allington visit the vicarage now and then, but i do not know that any further detailed account of its comforts will be necessary to us. passing by the lane leading to the vicarage, the church and to the house, the high road descends rapidly to a little brook which runs through the village. on the right as you descend you will have seen the "red lion," and will have seen no other house conspicuous in any way. at the bottom, close to the brook, is the post-office, kept surely by the crossest old woman in all those parts. here the road passes through the water, the accommodation of a narrow wooden bridge having been afforded for those on foot. but before passing the stream, you will see a cross street, running to the left, as had run that other lane leading to the house. here, as this cross street rises the hill, are the best houses in the village. the baker lives here, and that respectable woman, mrs. frummage, who sells ribbons, and toys, and soap, and straw bonnets, with many other things too long to mention. here, too, lives an apothecary, whom the veneration of this and neighbouring parishes has raised to the dignity of a doctor. and here also, in the smallest but prettiest cottage that can be imagined, lives mrs. hearn, the widow of a former vicar, on terms, however, with her neighbour the squire which i regret to say are not as friendly as they should be. beyond this lady's modest residence, allington street, for so the road is called, turns suddenly round towards the church, and at the point of the turn is a pretty low iron railing with a gate, and with a covered way, which leads up to the front door of the house which stands there. i will only say here, at this fag end of a chapter, that it is the small house at allington. allington street, as i have said, turns short round towards the church at this point, and there ends at a white gate, leading into the churchyard by a second entrance. so much it was needful that i should say of allington great house, of the squire, and of the village. of the small house, i will speak separately in a further chapter. chapter ii. the two pearls of allington. "but mr. crosbie is only a mere clerk." this sarcastic condemnation was spoken by miss lilian dale to her sister isabella, and referred to a gentleman with whom we shall have much concern in these pages. i do not say that mr. crosbie will be our hero, seeing that that part in the drama will be cut up, as it were, into fragments. whatever of the magnificent may be produced will be diluted and apportioned out in very moderate quantities among two or more, probably among three or four, young gentlemen--to none of whom will be vouchsafed the privilege of much heroic action. "i don't know what you call a mere clerk, lily. mr. fanfaron is a mere barrister, and mr. boyce is a mere clergyman." mr. boyce was the vicar of allington, and mr. fanfaron was a lawyer who had made his way over to allington during the last assizes. "you might as well say that lord de guest is a mere earl." "so he is--only a mere earl. had he ever done anything except have fat oxen, one wouldn't say so. you know what i mean by a mere clerk? it isn't much in a man to be in a public office, and yet mr. crosbie gives himself airs." "you don't suppose that mr. crosbie is the same as john eames," said bell, who, by her tone of voice, did not seem inclined to undervalue the qualifications of mr. crosbie. now john eames was a young man from guestwick, who had been appointed to a clerkship in the income-tax office, with eighty pounds a year, two years ago. "then johnny eames is a mere clerk," said lily; "and mr. crosbie is-- after all, bell, what is mr. crosbie, if he is not a mere clerk? of course, he is older than john eames; and, as he has been longer at it, i suppose he has more than eighty pounds a year." "i am not in mr. crosbie's confidence. he is in the general committee office, i know; and, i believe, has pretty nearly the management of the whole of it. i have heard bernard say that he has six or seven young men under him, and that--; but, of course, i don't know what he does at his office." "i'll tell you what he is, bell; mr. crosbie is a swell." and lilian dale was right; mr. crosbie was a swell. and here i may perhaps best explain who bernard was, and who was mr. crosbie. captain bernard dale was an officer in the corps of engineers, was the first cousin of the two girls who have been speaking, and was nephew and heir presumptive to the squire. his father, colonel dale, and his mother, lady fanny dale, were still living at torquay--an effete, invalid, listless couple, pretty well dead to all the world beyond the region of the torquay card-tables. he it was who had made for himself quite a career in the nineteenth dragoons. this he did by eloping with the penniless daughter of that impoverished earl, the lord de guest. after the conclusion of that event circumstances had not afforded him the opportunity of making himself conspicuous; and he had gone on declining gradually in the world's esteem--for the world had esteemed him when he first made good his running with the lady fanny--till now, in his slippered years, he and his lady fanny were unknown except among those torquay bath chairs and card-tables. his elder brother was still a hearty man, walking in thick shoes, and constant in his saddle; but the colonel, with nothing beyond his wife's title to keep his body awake, had fallen asleep somewhat prematurely among his slippers. of him and of lady fanny, bernard dale was the only son. daughters they had had; some were dead, some married, and one living with them among the card-tables. of his parents bernard had latterly not seen much; not more, that is, than duty and a due attention to the fifth commandment required of him. he also was making a career for himself, having obtained a commission in the engineers, and being known to all his compeers as the nephew of an earl, and as the heir to a property of three thousand a year. and when i say that bernard dale was not inclined to throw away any of these advantages, i by no means intend to speak in his dispraise. the advantage of being heir to a good property is so manifest--the advantages over and beyond those which are merely fiscal--that no man thinks of throwing them away, or expects another man to do so. moneys in possession or in expectation do give a set to the head, and a confidence to the voice, and an assurance to the man, which will help him much in his walk in life--if the owner of them will simply use them, and not abuse them. and for bernard dale i will say that he did not often talk of his uncle the earl. he was conscious that his uncle was an earl, and that other men knew the fact. he knew that he would not otherwise have been elected at the beaufort, or at that most aristocratic of little clubs called sebright's. when noble blood was called in question he never alluded specially to his own, but he knew how to speak as one of whom all the world was aware on which side he had been placed by the circumstances of his birth. thus he used his advantage, and did not abuse it. and in his profession he had been equally fortunate. by industry, by a small but wakeful intelligence, and by some aid from patronage, he had got on till he had almost achieved the reputation of talent. his name had become known among scientific experimentalists, not as that of one who had himself invented a cannon or an antidote to a cannon, but as of a man understanding in cannons and well fitted to look at those invented by others; who would honestly test this or that antidote; or, if not honestly, seeing that such thin-minded men can hardly go to the proof of any matter without some pre-judgment in their minds, at any rate with such appearance of honesty that the world might be satisfied. and in this way captain dale was employed much at home, about london; and was not called on to build barracks in nova scotia, or to make roads in the punjaub. he was a small slight man, smaller than his uncle, but in face very like him. he had the same eyes, and nose, and chin, and the same mouth; but his forehead was better,--less high and pointed, and better formed about the brows. and then he wore moustaches, which somewhat hid the thinness of his mouth. on the whole, he was not ill-looking; and, as i have said before, he carried with him an air of self-assurance and a confident balance, which in itself gives a grace to a young man. he was staying at the present time in his uncle's house, during the delicious warmth of the summer,--for, as yet, the month of july was not all past; and his intimate friend, adolphus crosbie, who was or was not a mere clerk as my readers may choose to form their own opinions on that matter, was a guest in the house with him. i am inclined to say that adolphus crosbie was not a mere clerk; and i do not think that he would have been so called, even by lily dale, had he not given signs to her that he was a "swell." now a man in becoming a swell,--a swell of such an order as could possibly be known to lily dale,--must have ceased to be a mere clerk in that very process. and, moreover, captain dale would not have been damon to any pythias, of whom it might fairly be said that he was a mere clerk. nor could any mere clerk have got himself in either at the beaufort or at sebright's. the evidence against that former assertion made by lily dale is very strong; but then the evidence as to her latter assertion is as strong. mr. crosbie certainly was a swell. it is true that he was a clerk in the general committee office. but then, in the first place, the general committee office is situated in whitehall; whereas poor john eames was forced to travel daily from his lodgings in burton crescent, ever so far beyond russell square, to his dingy room in somerset house. and adolphus crosbie, when very young, had been a private secretary, and had afterwards mounted up in his office to some quasi authority and senior-clerkship, bringing him in seven hundred a year, and giving him a status among assistant secretaries and the like, which even in an official point of view was something. but the triumphs of adolphus crosbie had been other than these. not because he had been intimate with assistant secretaries, and was allowed in whitehall a room to himself with an arm-chair, would he have been entitled to stand upon the rug at sebright's and speak while rich men listened,--rich men, and men also who had handles to their names! adolphus crosbie had done more than make minutes with discretion on the papers of the general committee office. he had set himself down before the gates of the city of fashion, and had taken them by storm; or, perhaps, to speak with more propriety, he had picked the locks and let himself in. in his walks of life he was somebody in london. a man at the west end who did not know who was adolphus crosbie knew nothing. i do not say that he was the intimate friend of many great men; but even great men acknowledged the acquaintance of adolphus crosbie, and he was to be seen in the drawing-rooms, or at any rate on the staircases, of cabinet ministers. lilian dale, dear lily dale--for my reader must know that she is to be very dear, and that my story will be nothing to him if he do not love lily dale--lilian dale had discovered that mr. crosbie was a swell. but i am bound to say that mr. crosbie did not habitually proclaim the fact in any offensive manner; nor in becoming a swell had he become altogether a bad fellow. it was not to be expected that a man who was petted at sebright's should carry himself in the allington drawing-room as would johnny eames, who had never been petted by any one but his mother. and this fraction of a hero of ours had other advantages to back him, over and beyond those which fashion had given him. he was a tall, well-looking man, with pleasant eyes and an expressive mouth,--a man whom you would probably observe in whatever room you might meet him. and he knew how to talk, and had in him something which justified talking. he was no butterfly or dandy, who flew about in the world's sun, warmed into prettiness by a sunbeam. crosbie had his opinion on things,--on politics, on religion, on the philanthropic tendencies of the age, and had read something here and there as he formed his opinion. perhaps he might have done better in the world had he not been placed so early in life in that whitehall public office. there was that in him which might have earned better bread for him in an open profession. but in that matter of his bread the fate of adolphus crosbie had by this time been decided for him, and he had reconciled himself to fate that was now inexorable. some very slight patrimony, a hundred a year or so, had fallen to his share. beyond that he had his salary from his office, and nothing else; and on his income, thus made up, he had lived as a bachelor in london, enjoying all that london could give him as a man in moderately easy circumstances, and looking forward to no costly luxuries,--such as a wife, a house of his own, or a stable full of horses. those which he did enjoy of the good things of the world would, if known to john eames, have made him appear fabulously rich in the eyes of that brother clerk. his lodgings in mount street were elegant in their belongings. during three months of the season in london he called himself the master of a very neat hack. he was always well dressed, though never over-dressed. at his clubs he could live on equal terms with men having ten times his income. he was not married. he had acknowledged to himself that he could not marry without money; and he would not marry for money. he had put aside from him, as not within his reach, the comforts of marriage. but-- we will not, however, at the present moment inquire more curiously into the private life and circumstances of our new friend adolphus crosbie. after the sentence pronounced against him by lilian, the two girls remained silent for awhile. bell was, perhaps, a little angry with her sister. it was not often that she allowed herself to say much in praise of any gentleman; and, now that she had spoken a word or two in favour of mr. crosbie, she felt herself to be rebuked by her sister for this unwonted enthusiasm. lily was at work on a drawing, and in a minute or two had forgotten all about mr. crosbie; but the injury remained on bell's mind, and prompted her to go back to the subject. "i don't like those slang words, lily." "what slang words?" "you know what you called bernard's friend." "oh; a swell. i fancy i do like slang. i think it's awfully jolly to talk about things being jolly. only that i was afraid of your nerves i should have called him stunning. it's so slow, you know, to use nothing but words out of a dictionary." "i don't think it's nice in talking of gentlemen." "isn't it? well, i'd like to be nice--if i knew how." if she knew how! there is no knowing how, for a girl, in that matter. if nature and her mother have not done it for her, there is no hope for her on that head. i think i may say that nature and her mother had been sufficiently efficacious for lilian dale in this respect. "mr. crosbie is, at any rate, a gentleman, and knows how to make himself pleasant. that was all that i meant. mamma said a great deal more about him than i did." "mr. crosbie is an apollo; and i always look upon apollo as the greatest--you know what--that ever lived. i mustn't say the word, because apollo was a gentleman." at this moment, while the name of the god was still on her lips, the high open window of the drawing-room was darkened, and bernard entered, followed by mr. crosbie. "who is talking about apollo?" said captain dale. the girls were both stricken dumb. how would it be with them if mr. crosbie had heard himself spoken of in those last words of poor lily's? this was the rashness of which bell was ever accusing her sister, and here was the result! but, in truth, bernard had heard nothing more than the name, and mr. crosbie, who had been behind him, had heard nothing. "'as sweet and musical as bright apollo's lute, strung with his hair,'" said mr. crosbie, not meaning much by the quotation, but perceiving that the two girls had been in some way put out and silenced. "what very bad music it must have made," said lily; "unless, indeed, his hair was very different from ours." "it was all sunbeams," suggested bernard. but by that time apollo had served his turn, and the ladies welcomed their guests in the proper form. "mamma is in the garden," said bell, with that hypocritical pretence so common with young ladies when young gentlemen call; as though they were aware that mamma was the object specially sought. "picking peas, with a sun-bonnet on," said lily. "let us by all means go and help her," said mr. crosbie; and then they issued out into the garden. the gardens of the great house of allington and those of the small house open on to each other. a proper boundary of thick laurel hedge, and wide ditch, and of iron spikes guarding the ditch, there is between them; but over the wide ditch there is a foot-bridge, and at the bridge there is a gate which has no key; and for all purposes of enjoyment the gardens of each house are open to the other. and the gardens of the small house are very pretty. the small house itself is so near the road that there is nothing between the dining-room windows and the iron rail but a narrow edge rather than border, and a little path made with round fixed cobble stones, not above two feet broad, into which no one but the gardener ever makes his way. the distance from the road to the house is not above five or six feet, and the entrance from the gate is shut in by a covered way. but the garden behind the house, on to which the windows from the drawing-room open, is to all the senses as private as though there were no village of allington, and no road up to the church within a hundred yards of the lawn. the steeple of the church, indeed, can be seen from the lawn, peering, as it were, between the yew-trees which stand in the corner of the churchyard adjoining to mrs. dale's wall. but none of the dale family have any objection to the sight of that steeple. the glory of the small house at allington certainly consists in its lawn, which is as smooth, as level, and as much like velvet as grass has ever yet been made to look. lily dale, taking pride in her own lawn, has declared often that it is no good attempting to play croquet up at the great house. the grass, she says, grows in tufts, and nothing that hopkins, the gardener, can or will do has any effect upon the tufts. but there are no tufts at the small house. as the squire himself has never been very enthusiastic about croquet, the croquet implements have been moved permanently down to the small house, and croquet there has become quite an institution. and while i am on the subject of the garden i may also mention mrs. dale's conservatory, as to which bell was strenuously of opinion that the great house had nothing to offer equal to it--"for flowers, of course, i mean," she would say, correcting herself; for at the great house there was a grapery very celebrated. on this matter the squire would be less tolerant than as regarded the croquet, and would tell his niece that she knew nothing about flowers. "perhaps not, uncle christopher," she would say. "all the same, i like our geraniums best;" for there was a spice of obstinacy about miss dale,--as, indeed, there was in all the dales, male and female, young and old. it may be as well to explain that the care of this lawn and of this conservatory, and, indeed, of the entire garden belonging to the small house, was in the hands of hopkins, the head gardener to the great house; and it was so simply for this reason, that mrs. dale could not afford to keep a gardener herself. a working lad, at ten shillings a week, who cleaned the knives and shoes, and dug the ground, was the only male attendant on the three ladies. but hopkins, the head gardener of allington, who had men under him, was as widely awake to the lawn and the conservatory of the humbler establishment as he was to the grapery, peach-walls, and terraces of the grander one. in his eyes it was all one place. the small house belonged to his master, as indeed did the very furniture within it; and it was lent, not let, to mrs. dale. hopkins, perhaps, did not love mrs. dale, seeing that he owed her no duty as one born a dale. the two young ladies he did love, and also snubbed in a very peremptory way sometimes. to mrs. dale he was coldly civil, always referring to the squire if any direction worthy of special notice as concerning the garden was given to him. all this will serve to explain the terms on which mrs. dale was living at the small house,--a matter needful of explanation sooner or later. her husband had been the youngest of three brothers, and in many respects the brightest. early in life he had gone up to london, and there had done well as a land surveyor. he had done so well that government had employed him, and for some three or four years he had enjoyed a large income, but death had come suddenly on him, while he was only yet ascending the ladder; and, when he died, he had hardly begun to realize the golden prospects which he had seen before him. this had happened some fifteen years before our story commenced, so that the two girls hardly retained any memory of their father. for the first five years of her widowhood, mrs. dale, who had never been a favourite of the squire's, lived with her two little girls in such modest way as her very limited means allowed. old mrs. dale, the squire's mother, then occupied the small house. but when old mrs. dale died, the squire offered the place rent-free to his sister-in-law, intimating to her that her daughters would obtain considerable social advantages by living at allington. she had accepted the offer, and the social advantages had certainly followed. mrs. dale was poor, her whole income not exceeding three hundred a year, and therefore her own style of living was of necessity very unassuming; but she saw her girls becoming popular in the county, much liked by the families around them, and enjoying nearly all the advantages which would have accrued to them had they been the daughters of squire dale of allington. under such circumstances it was little to her whether or no she were loved by her brother-in-law, or respected by hopkins. her own girls loved her, and respected her, and that was pretty much all that she demanded of the world on her own behalf. and uncle christopher had been very good to the girls in his own obstinate and somewhat ungracious manner. there were two ponies in the stables of the great house, which they were allowed to ride, and which, unless on occasions, nobody else did ride. i think he might have given the ponies to the girls, but he thought differently. and he contributed to their dresses, sending them home now and again things which he thought necessary, not in the pleasantest way in the world. money he never gave them, nor did he make them any promises. but they were dales, and he loved them; and with christopher dale to love once was to love always. bell was his chief favourite, sharing with his nephew bernard the best warmth of his heart. about these two he had his projects, intending that bell should be the future mistress of the great house of allington; as to which project, however, miss dale was as yet in very absolute ignorance. we may now, i think, go back to our four friends, as they walked out upon the lawn. they were understood to be on a mission to assist mrs. dale in the picking of the peas; but pleasure intervened in the way of business, and the young people, forgetting the labours of their elder, allowed themselves to be carried away by the fascinations of croquet. the iron hoops and the sticks were fixed. the mallets and the balls were lying about; and then the party was so nicely made up! "i haven't had a game of croquet yet," said mr. crosbie. it cannot be said that he had lost much time, seeing that he had only arrived before dinner on the preceding day. and then the mallets were in their hands in a moment. "we'll play sides, of course," said lily. "bernard and i'll play together." but this was not allowed. lily was well known to be the queen of the croquet ground; and as bernard was supposed to be more efficient than his friend, lily had to take mr. crosbie as her partner. "apollo can't get through the hoops," lily said afterwards to her sister; "but then how gracefully he fails to do it!" lily, however, had been beaten, and may therefore be excused for a little spite against her partner. but it so turned out that before mr. crosbie took his final departure from allington he could get through the hoops; and lily, though she was still queen of the croquet ground, had to acknowledge a male sovereign in that dominion. "that's not the way we played at--," said crosbie, at one point of the game, and then stopped himself. "where was that?" said bernard. "a place i was at last summer,--in shropshire." "then they don't play the game, mr. crosbie, at the place you were at last summer,--in shropshire," said lily. "you mean lady hartletop's," said bernard. now, the marchioness of hartletop was a very great person indeed, and a leader in the fashionable world. "oh! lady hartletop's!" said lily. "then i suppose we must give in;" which little bit of sarcasm was not lost upon mr. crosbie, and was put down by him in the tablets of his mind as quite undeserved. he had endeavoured to avoid any mention of lady hartletop and her croquet ground, and her ladyship's name had been forced upon him. nevertheless, he liked lily dale through it all. but he thought that he liked bell the best, though she said little; for bell was the beauty of the family. during the game bernard remembered that they had especially come over to bid the three ladies to dinner at the house on that day. they had all dined there on the day before, and the girls' uncle had now sent directions to them to come again. "i'll go and ask mamma about it," said bell, who was out first. and then she returned, saying, that she and her sister would obey their uncle's behest; but that her mother would prefer to remain at home. "there are the peas to be eaten, you know," said lily. "send them up to the great house," said bernard. "hopkins would not allow it," said lily. "he calls that a mixing of things. hopkins doesn't like mixings." and then when the game was over, they sauntered about, out of the small garden into the larger one, and through the shrubberies, and out upon the fields, where they found the still lingering remnants of the haymaking. and lily took a rake, and raked for two minutes; and mr. crosbie, making an attempt to pitch the hay into the cart, had to pay half-a-crown for his footing to the haymakers; and bell sat quiet under a tree, mindful of her complexion; whereupon mr. crosbie, finding the hay-pitching not much to his taste, threw himself under the same tree also, quite after the manner of apollo, as lily said to her mother late in the evening. then bernard covered lily with hay, which was a great feat in the jocose way for him; and lily in returning the compliment, almost smothered mr. crosbie,--by accident. "oh, lily," said bell. "i'm sure i beg your pardon, mr. crosbie. it was bernard's fault. bernard, i never will come into a hayfield with you again." and so they all became very intimate; while bell sat quietly under the tree, listening to a word or two now and then as mr. crosbie chose to speak them. there is a kind of enjoyment to be had in society, in which very few words are necessary. bell was less vivacious than her sister lily; and when, an hour after this, she was dressing herself for dinner, she acknowledged that she had passed a pleasant afternoon, though mr. crosbie had not said very much. chapter iii. the widow dale of allington. as mrs. dale, of the small house, was not a dale by birth, there can be no necessity for insisting on the fact that none of the dale peculiarities should be sought for in her character. these peculiarities were not, perhaps, very conspicuous in her daughters, who had taken more in that respect from their mother than from their father; but a close observer might recognize the girls as dales. they were constant, perhaps obstinate, occasionally a little uncharitable in their judgment, and prone to think that there was a great deal in being a dale, though not prone to say much about it. but they had also a better pride than this, which had come to them as their mother's heritage. mrs. dale was certainly a proud woman,--not that there was anything appertaining to herself in which she took a pride. in birth she had been much lower than her husband, seeing that her grandfather had been almost nobody. her fortune had been considerable for her rank in life, and on its proceeds she now mainly depended; but it had not been sufficient to give any of the pride of wealth. and she had been a beauty; according to my taste, was still very lovely; but certainly at this time of life, she, a widow of fifteen years' standing, with two grown-up daughters, took no pride in her beauty. nor had she any conscious pride in the fact that she was a lady. that she was a lady, inwards and outwards, from the crown of her head to the sole of her feet, in head, in heart, and in mind, a lady by education and a lady by nature, a lady also by birth in spite of that deficiency respecting her grandfather, i hereby state as a fact--meo periculo. and the squire, though he had no special love for her, had recognized this, and in all respects treated her as his equal. but her position was one which required that she should either be very proud or else very humble. she was poor, and yet her daughters moved in a position which belongs, as a rule, to the daughters of rich men only. this they did as nieces of the childless squire of allington, and as his nieces she felt that they were entitled to accept his countenance and kindness, without loss of self-respect either to her or to them. she would have ill done her duty as a mother to them had she allowed any pride of her own to come between them and such advantage in the world as their uncle might be able to give them. on their behalf she had accepted the loan of the house in which she lived, and the use of many of the appurtenances belonging to her brother-in-law; but on her own account she had accepted nothing. her marriage with philip dale had been disliked by his brother the squire, and the squire, while philip was still living, had continued to show that his feelings in this respect were not to be overcome. they never had been overcome; and now, though the brother-in-law and sister-in-law had been close neighbours for years, living as one may say almost in the same family, they had never become friends. there had not been a word of quarrel between them. they met constantly. the squire had unconsciously come to entertain a profound respect for his brother's widow. the widow had acknowledged to herself the truth of the affection shown by the uncle to her daughters. but yet they had never come together as friends. of her own money matters mrs. dale had never spoken a word to the squire. of his intention respecting the girls the squire had never spoken a word to the mother. and in this way they had lived and were living at allington. the life which mrs. dale led was not altogether an easy life,--was not devoid of much painful effort on her part. the theory of her life one may say was this--that she should bury herself in order that her daughters might live well above ground. and in order to carry out this theory, it was necessary that she should abstain from all complaint or show of uneasiness before her girls. their life above ground would not be well if they understood that their mother, in this underground life of hers, was enduring any sacrifice on their behalf. it was needful that they should think that the picking of peas in a sun-bonnet, or long readings by her own fire-side, and solitary hours spent in thinking, were specially to her mind. "mamma doesn't like going out." "i don't think mamma is happy anywhere out of her own drawing-room." i do not say that the girls were taught to say such words, but they were taught to have thoughts which led to such words, and in the early days of their going out into the world used so to speak of their mother. but a time came to them before long,--to one first and then to the other, in which they knew that it was not so, and knew also all that their mother had suffered for their sakes. and in truth mrs. dale could have been as young in heart as they were. she, too, could have played croquet, and have coquetted with a haymaker's rake, and have delighted in her pony, ay, and have listened to little nothings from this and that apollo, had she thought that things had been conformable thereto. women at forty do not become ancient misanthropes, or stern rhadamanthine moralists, indifferent to the world's pleasures--no, not even though they be widows. there are those who think that such should be the phase of their minds. i profess that i do not so think. i would have women, and men also, young as long as they can be young. it is not that a woman should call herself in years younger than her father's family bible will have her to be. let her who is forty call herself forty; but if she can be young in spirit at forty, let her show that she is so. i think that mrs. dale was wrong. she would have joined that party on the croquet ground, instead of remaining among the pea-sticks in her sun-bonnet, had she done as i would have counselled her. not a word was spoken among the four that she did not hear. those pea-sticks were only removed from the lawn by a low wall and a few shrubs. she listened, not as one suspecting, but simply as one loving. the voices of her girls were very dear to her, and the silver ringing tones of lily's tongue were as sweet to her ears as the music of the gods. she heard all that about lady hartletop, and shuddered at lily's bold sarcasm. and she heard lily say that mamma would stay at home and eat the peas, and said to herself sadly that that was now her lot in life. "dear darling girl,--and so it should be!" it was thus her thoughts ran. and then, when her ear had traced them, as they passed across the little bridge into the other grounds, she returned across the lawn to the house with her burden on her arm, and sat herself down on the step of the drawing-room window, looking out on the sweet summer flowers and the smooth surface of the grass before her. had not god done well for her to place her where she was? had not her lines been set for her in pleasant places? was she not happy in her girls,--her sweet, loving, trusting, trusty children? as it was to be that her lord, that best half of herself, was to be taken from her in early life, and that the springs of all the lighter pleasures were to be thus stopped for her, had it not been well that in her bereavement so much had been done to soften her lot in life and give it grace and beauty? 'twas so, she argued with herself, and yet she acknowledged to herself that she was not happy. she had resolved, as she herself had said often, to put away childish things, and now she pined for those things which she so put from her. as she sat she could still hear lily's voice as they went through the shrubbery,--hear it when none but a mother's ears would have distinguished the sound. now that those young men were at the great house it was natural that her girls should be there too. the squire would not have had young men to stay with him had there been no ladies to grace his table. but for her,--she knew that no one would want her there. now and again she must go, as otherwise her very existence, without going, would be a thing disagreeably noticeable. but there was no other reason why she should join the party; nor in joining it would she either give or receive pleasure. let her daughters eat from her brother's table and drink of his cup. they were made welcome to do so from the heart. for her there was no such welcome as that at the great house,--nor at any other house, or any other table! "mamma will stay at home to eat the peas." and then she repeated to herself the words which lily had spoken, sitting there, leaning with her elbow on her knee, and her head upon her hand. "please, ma'am, cook says, can we have the peas to shell?" and then her reverie was broken. [illustration: "please, ma'am, can we have the peas to shell?"] whereupon mrs. dale got up and gave over her basket. "cook knows that the young ladies are going to dine at the great house?" "yes, ma'am." "she needn't mind getting dinner for me. i will have tea early." and so, after all, mrs. dale did not perform that special duty appointed for her. but she soon set herself to work upon another duty. when a family of three persons has to live upon an income of three hundred a year, and, nevertheless, makes some pretence of going into society, it has to be very mindful of small details, even though that family may consist only of ladies. of this mrs. dale was well aware, and as it pleased her that her daughters should be nice and fresh, and pretty in their attire, many a long hour was given up to that care. the squire would send them shawls in winter, and had given them riding habits, and had sent them down brown silk for dresses from london,--so limited in quantity that the due manufacture of two dresses out of the material had been found to be beyond the art of woman, and the brown silk garments had been a difficulty from that day to this,--the squire having a good memory in such matters, and being anxious to see the fruits of his liberality. all this was doubtless of assistance, but had the squire given the amount which he so expended in money to his nieces, the benefit would have been greater. as it was, the girls were always nice and fresh and pretty, they themselves not being idle in that matter; but their tire-woman in chief was their mother. and now she went up to their room and got out their muslin frocks, and--but, perhaps, i should not tell such tales!--she, however, felt no shame in her work, as she sent for a hot iron, and with her own hands smoothed out the creases, and gave the proper set to the crimp flounces, and fixed a new ribbon where it was wanted, and saw that all was as it should be. men think but little how much of this kind is endured that their eyes may be pleased, even though it be but for an hour. "oh! mamma, how good you are," said bell, as the two girls came in, only just in time to make themselves ready for returning to dinner. "mamma is always good," said lily. "i wish, mamma, i could do the same for you oftener," and then she kissed her mother. but the squire was exact about dinner, so they dressed themselves in haste, and went off again through the garden, their mother accompanying them to the little bridge. "your uncle did not seem vexed at my not coming?" said mrs. dale. "we have not seen him, mamma," said lily. "we have been ever so far down the fields, and forgot altogether what o'clock it was." "i don't think uncle christopher was about the place, or we should have met him," said bell. "but i am vexed with you, mamma. are not you, bell? it is very bad of you to stay here all alone, and not come." "i suppose mamma likes being at home better than up at the great house," said bell, very gently; and as she spoke she was holding her mother's hand. "well; good-by, dears. i shall expect you between ten and eleven. but don't hurry yourselves if anything is going on." and so they went, and the widow was again alone. the path from the bridge ran straight up towards the back of the great house, so that for a moment or two she could see them as they tripped on almost in a run. and then she saw their dresses flutter as they turned sharp round, up the terrace steps. she would not go beyond the nook among the laurels by which she was surrounded, lest any one should see her as she looked after her girls. but when the last flutter of the pink muslin had been whisked away from her sight, she felt it hard that she might not follow them. she stood there, however, without advancing a step. she would not have hopkins telling how she watched her daughters as they went from her own home to that of her brother-in-law. it was not within the capacity of hopkins to understand why she watched them. "well, girls, you're not much too soon. i think your mother might have come with you," said uncle christopher. and this was the manner of the man. had he known his own wishes he must have acknowledged to himself that he was better pleased that mrs. dale should stay away. he felt himself more absolutely master and more comfortably at home at his own table without her company than with it. and yet he frequently made a grievance of her not coming, and himself believed in that grievance. "i think mamma was tired," said bell. "hem. it's not so very far across from one house to the other. if i were to shut myself up whenever i'm tired-- but never mind. let's go to dinner. mr. crosbie, will you take my niece lilian." and then, offering his own arm to bell, he walked off to the dining-room. "if he scolds mamma any more, i'll go away," said lily to her companion; by which it may be seen that they had all become very intimate during the long day that they had passed together. mrs. dale, after remaining for a moment on the bridge, went in to her tea. what succedaneum of mutton chop or broiled ham she had for the roast duck and green peas which were to have been provided for the family dinner we will not particularly inquire. we may, however, imagine that she did not devote herself to her evening repast with any peculiar energy of appetite. she took a book with her as she sat herself down,--some novel, probably, for mrs. dale was not above novels,--and read a page or two as she sipped her tea. but the book was soon laid on one side, and the tray on which the warm plate had become cold was neglected, and she threw herself back in her own familiar chair, thinking of herself, and of her girls, and thinking also what might have been her lot in life had he lived who had loved her truly during the few years that they had been together. it is especially the nature of a dale to be constant in his likings and his dislikings. her husband's affection for her had been unswerving,--so much so that he had quarrelled with his brother because his brother would not express himself in brotherly terms about his wife; but, nevertheless, the two brothers had loved each other always. many years had now gone by since these things had occurred, but still the same feelings remained. when she had first come down to allington she had resolved to win the squire's regard, but she had now long known that any such winning was out of the question; indeed, there was no longer a wish for it. mrs. dale was not one of those soft-hearted women who sometimes thank god that they can love any one. she could once have felt affection for her brother-in-law,--affection, and close, careful, sisterly friendship; but she could not do so now. he had been cold to her, and had with perseverance rejected her advances. that was now seven years since; and during those years mrs. dale had been, at any rate, as cold to him as he had been to her. but all this was very hard to bear. that her daughters should love their uncle was not only reasonable, but in every way desirable. he was not cold to them. to them he was generous and affectionate. if she were only out of the way, he would have taken them to his house as his own, and they would in all respects have stood before the world as his adopted children. would it not be better if she were out of the way? it was only in her most dismal moods that this question would get itself asked within her mind, and then she would recover herself, and answer it stoutly with an indignant protest against her own morbid weakness. it would not be well that she should be away from her girls,--not though their uncle should have been twice a better uncle; not though, by her absence, they might become heiresses of all allington. was it not above everything to them that they should have a mother near them? and as she asked of herself that morbid question,--wickedly asked it, as she declared to herself,--did she not know that they loved her better than all the world beside, and would prefer her caresses and her care to the guardianship of any uncle, let his house be ever so great? as yet they loved her better than all the world beside. of other love, should it come, she would not be jealous. and if it should come, and should be happy, might there not yet be a bright evening of life for herself? if they should marry, and if their lords would accept her love, her friendship, and her homage, she might yet escape from the deathlike coldness of that great house, and be happy in some tiny cottage, from which she might go forth at times among those who would really welcome her. a certain doctor there was, living not very far from allington, at guestwick, as to whom she had once thought that he might fill that place of son-in-law,--to be well-beloved. her quiet, beautiful bell had seemed to like the man; and he had certainly done more than seem to like her. but now, for some weeks past, this hope, or rather this idea, had faded away. mrs. dale had never questioned her daughter on the matter; she was not a woman prone to put such questions. but during the month or two last past, she had seen with regret that bell looked almost coldly on the man whom her mother favoured. in thinking of all this the long evening passed away, and at eleven o'clock she heard the coming steps across the garden. the young men had, of course, accompanied the girls home; and as she stepped out from the still open window of her own drawing-room, she saw them all on the centre of the lawn before her. "there's mamma," said lily. "mamma, mr. crosbie wants to play croquet by moonlight." "i don't think there is light enough for that," said mrs. dale. "there is light enough for him," said lily, "for he plays quite independently of the hoops; don't you, mr. crosbie?" "there's very pretty croquet light, i should say," said mr. crosbie, looking up at the bright moon; "and then it is so stupid going to bed." "yes, it is stupid going to bed," said lily; "but people in the country are stupid, you know. billiards, that you can play all night by gas, is much better, isn't it?" "your arrows fall terribly astray there, miss dale, for i never touch a cue; you should talk to your cousin about billiards." "is bernard a great billiard player?" asked bell. "well, i do play now and again; about as well as crosbie does croquet. come, crosbie, we'll go home and smoke a cigar." "yes," said lily; "and then, you know, we stupid people can go to bed. mamma, i wish you had a little smoking-room here for us. i don't like being considered stupid." and then they parted,--the ladies going into the house, and the two men returning across the lawn. "lily, my love," said mrs. dale, when they were all together in her bedroom, "it seems to me that you are very hard upon mr. crosbie." "she has been going on like that all the evening," said bell. "i'm sure we are very good friends," said lily. "oh, very!" said bell. "now, bell, you're jealous; you know you are." and then, seeing that her sister was in some slight degree vexed, she went up to her and kissed her. "she shan't be called jealous; shall she, mamma?" "i don't think she deserves it," said mrs. dale. "now, you don't mean to say that you think i meant anything," said lily. "as if i cared a buttercup about mr. crosbie." "or i either, lily." "of course you don't. but i do care for him very much, mamma. he is such a duck of an apollo. i shall always call him apollo; phoebus apollo! and when i draw his picture he shall have a mallet in his hand instead of a bow. upon my word i am very much obliged to bernard for bringing him down here; and i do wish he was not going away the day after to-morrow." "the day after to-morrow!" said mrs. dale. "it was hardly worth coming for two days." "no, it wasn't,--disturbing us all in our quiet little ways just for such a spell as that,--not giving one time even to count his rays." "but he says he shall perhaps come again," said bell. "there is that hope for us," said lily. "uncle christopher asked him to come down when he gets his long leave of absence. this is only a short sort of leave. he is better off than poor johnny eames. johnny eames only has a month, but mr. crosbie has two months just whenever he likes it; and seems to be pretty much his own master all the year round besides." "and uncle christopher asked him to come down for the shooting in september," said bell. "and though he didn't say he'd come i think he meant it," said lily. "there is that hope for us, mamma." "then you'll have to draw apollo with a gun instead of a mallet." "that is the worst of it, mamma. we shan't see much of him or of bernard either. they wouldn't let us go out into the woods as beaters, would they?" "you'd make too much noise to be of any use." "should i? i thought the beaters had to shout at the birds. i should get very tired of shouting at birds, so i think i'll stay at home and look after my clothes." "i hope he will come, because uncle christopher seems to like him so much," said bell. "i wonder whether a certain gentleman at guestwick will like his coming," said lily. and then, as soon as she had spoken the words, she looked at her sister, and saw that she had grieved her. "lily, you let your tongue run too fast," said mrs. dale. "i didn't mean anything, bell," said lily. "i beg your pardon." "it doesn't signify," said bell. "only lily says things without thinking." and then that conversation came to an end, and nothing more was said among them beyond what appertained to their toilet, and a few last words at parting. but the two girls occupied the same room, and when their own door was closed upon them, bell did allude to what had passed with some spirit. "lily, you promised me," she said, "that you would not say anything more to me about dr. crofts." "i know i did, and i was very wrong. i beg your pardon, bell; and i won't do it again,--not if i can help it." "not help it, lily!" "but i'm sure i don't know why i shouldn't speak of him,--only not in the way of laughing at you. of all the men i ever saw in my life i like him best. and only that i love you better than i love myself i could find it in my heart to grudge you his--" "lily, what did you promise just now?" "well; after to-night. and i don't know why you should turn against him." "i have never turned against him or for him." "there's no turning about him. he'd give his left hand if you'd only smile on him. or his right either,--and that's what i should like to see; so now you've heard it." "you know you are talking nonsense." "so i should like to see it. and so would mamma too, i'm sure; though i never heard her say a word about him. in my mind he's the finest fellow i ever saw. what's mr. apollo crosbie to him? and now, as it makes you unhappy, i'll never say another word about him." as bell wished her sister good-night with perhaps more than her usual affection, it was evident that lily's words and eager tone had in some way pleased her, in spite of their opposition to the request which she had made. and lily was aware that it was so. chapter iv. mrs. roper's boarding-house. [illustration: (untitled)] i have said that john eames had been petted by none but his mother, but i would not have it supposed, on this account, that john eames had no friends. there is a class of young men who never get petted, though they may not be the less esteemed, or perhaps loved. they do not come forth to the world as apollos, nor shine at all, keeping what light they may have for inward purposes. such young men are often awkward, ungainly, and not yet formed in their gait; they straggle with their limbs, and are shy; words do not come to them with ease, when words are required, among any but their accustomed associates. social meetings are periods of penance to them, and any appearance in public will unnerve them. they go much about alone, and blush when women speak to them. in truth, they are not as yet men, whatever the number may be of their years; and, as they are no longer boys, the world has found for them the ungraceful name of hobbledehoy. such observations, however, as i have been enabled to make on this matter have led me to believe that the hobbledehoy is by no means the least valuable species of the human race. when i compare the hobbledehoy of one or two and twenty to some finished apollo of the same age, i regard the former as unripe fruit, and the latter as fruit that is ripe. then comes the question as to the two fruits. which is the better fruit, that which ripens early--which is, perhaps, favoured with some little forcing apparatus, or which, at least, is backed by the warmth of a southern wall; or that fruit of slower growth, as to which nature works without assistance, on which the sun operates in its own time,--or perhaps never operates if some ungenial shade has been allowed to interpose itself? the world, no doubt, is in favour of the forcing apparatus or of the southern wall. the fruit comes certainly, and at an assured period. it is spotless, speckless, and of a certain quality by no means despicable. the owner has it when he wants it, and it serves its turn. but, nevertheless, according to my thinking, the fullest flavour of the sun is given to that other fruit,--is given in the sun's own good time, if so be that no ungenial shade has interposed itself. i like the smack of the natural growth, and like it, perhaps, the better because that which has been obtained has been obtained without favour. but the hobbledehoy, though he blushes when women address him, and is uneasy even when he is near them, though he is not master of his limbs in a ball-room, and is hardly master of his tongue at any time, is the most eloquent of beings, and especially eloquent among beautiful women. he enjoys all the triumphs of a don juan, without any of don juan's heartlessness, and is able to conquer in all encounters, through the force of his wit and the sweetness of his voice. but this eloquence is heard only by his own inner ears, and these triumphs are the triumphs of his imagination. the true hobbledehoy is much alone, not being greatly given to social intercourse even with other hobbledehoys--a trait in his character which i think has hardly been sufficiently observed by the world at large. he has probably become a hobbledehoy instead of an apollo, because circumstances have not afforded him much social intercourse; and, therefore, he wanders about in solitude, taking long walks, in which he dreams of those successes which are so far removed from his powers of achievement. out in the fields, with his stick in his hand, he is very eloquent, cutting off the heads of the springing summer weeds, as he practises his oratory with energy. and thus he feeds an imagination for which those who know him give him but scanty credit, and unconsciously prepares himself for that latter ripening, if only the ungenial shade will some day cease to interpose itself. such hobbledehoys receive but little petting, unless it be from a mother; and such a hobbledehoy was john eames when he was sent away from guestwick to begin his life in the big room of a public office in london. we may say that there was nothing of the young apollo about him. but yet he was not without friends--friends who wished him well, and thought much of his welfare. and he had a younger sister who loved him dearly, who had no idea that he was a hobbledehoy, being somewhat of a hobbledehoya herself. mrs. eames, their mother, was a widow, living in a small house in guestwick, whose husband had been throughout his whole life an intimate friend of our squire. he had been a man of many misfortunes, having begun the world almost with affluence, and having ended it in poverty. he had lived all his days in guestwick, having at one time occupied a large tract of land, and lost much money in experimental farming; and late in life he had taken a small house on the outskirts of the town, and there had died, some two years previously to the commencement of this story. with no other man had mr. dale lived on terms so intimate; and when mr. eames died mr. dale acted as executor under his will, and as guardian to his children. he had, moreover, obtained for john eames that situation under the crown which he now held. and mrs. eames had been and still was on very friendly terms with mrs. dale. the squire had never taken quite kindly to mrs. eames, whom her husband had not met till he was already past forty years of age. but mrs. dale had made up by her kindness to the poor forlorn woman for any lack of that cordiality which might have been shown to her from the great house. mrs. eames was a poor forlorn woman--forlorn even during the time of her husband's life, but very wobegone now in her widowhood. in matters of importance the squire had been kind to her; arranging for her her little money affairs, advising her about her house and income, also getting for her that appointment for her son. but he snubbed her when he met her, and poor mrs. eames held him in great awe. mrs. dale held her brother-in-law in no awe, and sometimes gave to the widow from guestwick advice quite at variance to that given by the squire. in this way there had grown up an intimacy between bell and lily and the young eames, and either of the girls was prepared to declare that johnny eames was her own and well-loved friend. nevertheless, they spoke of him occasionally with some little dash of merriment--as is not unusual with pretty girls who have hobbledehoys among their intimate friends, and who are not themselves unaccustomed to the grace of an apollo. i may as well announce at once that john eames, when he went up to london, was absolutely and irretrievably in love with lily dale. he had declared his passion in the most moving language a hundred times; but he had declared it only to himself. he had written much poetry about lily, but he kept his lines safe under double lock and key. when he gave the reins to his imagination, he flattered himself that he might win not only her but the world at large also by his verses; but he would have perished rather than exhibit them to human eye. during the last ten weeks of his life at guestwick, while he was preparing for his career in london, he hung about allington, walking over frequently and then walking back again; but all in vain. during these visits he would sit in mrs. dale's drawing-room, speaking but little, and addressing himself usually to the mother; but on each occasion, as he started on his long, hot walk, he resolved that he would say something by which lily might know of his love. when he left for london that something had not been said. he had not dreamed of asking her to be his wife. john eames was about to begin the world with eighty pounds a year, and an allowance of twenty more from his mother's purse. he was well aware that with such an income he could not establish himself as a married man in london, and he also felt that the man who might be fortunate enough to win lily for his wife should be prepared to give her every soft luxury that the world could afford. he knew well that he ought not to expect any assurance of lily's love; but, nevertheless, he thought it possible that he might give her an assurance of his love. it would probably be in vain. he had no real hope, unless when he was in one of those poetic moods. he had acknowledged to himself, in some indistinct way, that he was no more than a hobbledehoy, awkward, silent, ungainly, with a face unfinished, as it were, or unripe. all this he knew, and knew also that there were apollos in the world who would be only too ready to carry off lily in their splendid cars. but not the less did he make up his mind that having loved her once, it behoved him, as a true man, to love her on to the end. one little word he had said to her when they parted, but it had been a word of friendship rather than of love. he had strayed out after her on to the lawn, leaving bell alone in the drawing-room. perhaps lily had understood something of the boy's feeling, and had wished to speak kindly to him at parting, or almost more than kindly. there is a silent love which women recognize, and which in some silent way they acknowledge,--giving gracious but silent thanks for the respect which accompanies it. "i have come to say good-by, lily," said johnny eames, following the girl down one of the paths. "good-by, john," said she, turning round. "you know how sorry we are to lose you. but it's a great thing for you to be going up to london." "well; yes. i suppose it is. i'd sooner remain here, though." "what! stay here, doing nothing! i am sure you would not." "of course, i should like to do something. i mean--" "you mean that it is painful to part with old friends; and i'm sure that we all feel that at parting with you. but you'll have a holiday sometimes, and then we shall see you." "yes; of course, i shall see you then. i think, lily, i shall care more about seeing you than anybody." "oh, no, john. there'll be your own mother and sister." "yes; there'll be mother and mary, of course. but i will come over here the very first day,--that is, if you'll care to see me?" "we shall care to see you very much. you know that. and--dear john, i do hope you'll be happy." there was a tone in her voice as she spoke which almost upset him; or, i should rather say, which almost put him up upon his legs and made him speak; but its ultimate effect was less powerful. "do you?" said he, as he held her hand for a few happy seconds. "and i'm sure i hope you'll always be happy. good-by, lily." then he left her, returning to the house, and she continued her walk, wandering down among the trees in the shrubbery, and not showing herself for the next half hour. how many girls have some such lover as that,--a lover who says no more to them than johnny eames then said to lily dale, who never says more than that? and yet when, in after years, they count over the names of all who have loved them, the name of that awkward youth is never forgotten. that farewell had been spoken nearly two years since, and lily dale was then seventeen. since that time, john eames had been home once, and during his month's holiday had often visited allington. but he had never improved upon that occasion of which i have told. it had seemed to him that lily was colder to him than in old days, and he had become, if anything, more shy in his ways with her. he was to return to guestwick again during this autumn; but, to tell honestly the truth in the matter, lily dale did not think or care very much for his coming. girls of nineteen do not care for lovers of one-and-twenty, unless it be when the fruit has had the advantage of some forcing apparatus or southern wall. john eames's love was still as hot as ever, having been sustained on poetry, and kept alive, perhaps, by some close confidence in the ears of a brother clerk; but it is not to be supposed that during these two years he had been a melancholy lover. it might, perhaps, have been better for him had his disposition led him to that line of life. such, however, had not been the case. he had already abandoned the flute on which he had learned to sound three sad notes before he left guestwick, and, after the fifth or sixth sunday, he had relinquished his solitary walks along the towing-path of the regent's park canal. to think of one's absent love is very sweet; but it becomes monotonous after a mile or two of a towing-path, and the mind will turn away to aunt sally, the cremorne gardens, and financial questions. i doubt whether any girl would be satisfied with her lover's mind if she knew the whole of it. "i say, caudle, i wonder whether a fellow could get into a club?" this proposition was made, on one of those sunday walks, by john eames to the friend of his bosom, a brother clerk, whose legitimate name was cradell, and who was therefore called caudle by his friends. "get into a club? fisher in our room belongs to a club." "that's only a chess-club. i mean a regular club." "one of the swell ones at the west end?" said cradell, almost lost in admiration at the ambition of his friend. "i shouldn't want it to be particularly swell. if a man isn't a swell, i don't see what he gets by going among those who are. but it is so uncommon slow at mother roper's." now mrs. roper was a respectable lady, who kept a boarding-house in burton crescent, and to whom mrs. eames had been strongly recommended when she was desirous of finding a specially safe domicile for her son. for the first year of his life in london john eames had lived alone in lodgings; but that had resulted in discomfort, solitude, and, alas! in some amount of debt, which had come heavily on the poor widow. now, for the second year, some safer mode of life was necessary. she had learned that mrs. cradell, the widow of a barrister, who had also succeeded in getting her son into the income-tax office, had placed him in charge of mrs. roper; and she, with many injunctions to that motherly woman, submitted her own boy to the same custody. "and about going to church?" mrs. eames had said to mrs. roper. "i don't suppose i can look after that, ma'am," mrs. roper had answered, conscientiously. "young gentlemen choose mostly their own churches." "but they do go?" asked the mother, very anxious in her heart as to this new life in which her boy was to be left to follow in so many things the guidance of his own lights. "they who have been brought up steady do so, mostly." "he has been brought up steady, mrs. roper. he has, indeed. and you won't give him a latch-key?" "well, they always do ask for it." "but he won't insist, if you tell him that i had rather that he shouldn't have one." mrs. roper promised accordingly, and johnny eames was left under her charge. he did ask for the latch-key, and mrs. roper answered as she was bidden. but he asked again, having been sophisticated by the philosophy of cradell, and then mrs. roper handed him the key. she was a woman who plumed herself on being as good as her word, not understanding that any one could justly demand from her more than that. she gave johnny eames the key, as doubtless she had intended to do; for mrs. roper knew the world, and understood that young men without latch-keys would not remain with her. "i thought you didn't seem to find it so dull since amelia came home," said cradell. "amelia! what's amelia to me? i have told you everything, cradell, and yet you can talk to me about amelia roper!" "come now, johnny--" he had always been called johnny, and the name had gone with him to his office. even amelia roper had called him johnny on more than one occasion before this. "you were as sweet to her the other night as though there were no such person as l. d. in existence." john eames turned away and shook his head. nevertheless, the words of his friend were grateful to him. the character of a don juan was not unpleasant to his imagination, and he liked to think that he might amuse amelia roper with a passing word, though his heart was true to lilian dale. in truth, however, many more of the passing words had been spoken by the fair amelia than by him. mrs. roper had been quite as good as her word when she told mrs. eames that her household was composed of herself, of a son who was in an attorney's office, of an ancient maiden cousin, named miss spruce, who lodged with her, and of mr. cradell. the divine amelia had not then been living with her, and the nature of the statement which she was making by no means compelled her to inform mrs. eames that the young lady would probably return home in the following winter. a mr. and mrs. lupex had also joined the family lately, and mrs. roper's house was now supposed to be full. and it must be acknowledged that johnny eames had, in certain unguarded moments, confided to cradell the secret of a second weaker passion for amelia. "she is a fine girl,--a deuced fine girl!" johnny eames had said, using a style of language which he had learned since he left guestwick and allington. mr. cradell, also, was an admirer of the fair sex; and, alas! that i should say so, mrs. lupex, at the present moment, was the object of his admiration. not that he entertained the slightest idea of wronging mr. lupex,--a man who was a scene-painter, and knew the world. mr. cradell admired mrs. lupex as a connoisseur, not simply as a man. "by heavens! johnny, what a figure that woman has!" he said, one morning, as they were walking to their office. "yes; she stands well on her pins." "i should think she did. if i understand anything of form," said cradell, "that woman is nearly perfect. what a torso she has!" from which expression, and from the fact that mrs. lupex depended greatly upon her stays and crinoline for such figure as she succeeded in displaying, it may, perhaps, be understood that mr. cradell did not understand much about form. "it seems to me that her nose isn't quite straight," said johnny eames. now, it undoubtedly was the fact that the nose on mrs. lupex's face was a little awry. it was a long, thin nose, which, as it progressed forward into the air, certainly had a preponderating bias towards the left side. "i care more for figure than face," said cradell. "but mrs. lupex has fine eyes--very fine eyes." "and knows how to use them, too," said johnny. "why shouldn't she? and then she has lovely hair." "only she never brushes it in the morning." "do you know, i like that kind of deshabille," said cradell. "too much care always betrays itself." "but a woman should be tidy." "what a word to apply to such a creature as mrs. lupex! i call her a splendid woman. and how well she was got up last night. do you know, i've an idea that lupex treats her very badly. she said a word or two to me yesterday that--," and then he paused. there are some confidences which a man does not share even with his dearest friend. "i rather fancy it's quite the other way," said eames. "how the other way?" "that lupex has quite as much as he likes of mrs. l. the sound of her voice sometimes makes me shake in my shoes, i know." "i like a woman with spirit," said cradell. "oh, so do i. but one may have too much of a good thing. amelia did tell me;--only you won't mention it." "of course, i won't." "she told me that lupex sometimes was obliged to run away from her. he goes down to the theatre, and remains there two or three days at a time. then she goes to fetch him, and there is no end of a row in the house." "the fact is, he drinks," said cradell. "by george, i pity a woman whose husband drinks--and such a woman as that, too!" "take care, old fellow, or you'll find yourself in a scrape." "i know what i'm at. lord bless you, i'm not going to lose my head because i see a fine woman." "or your heart either?" "oh, heart! there's nothing of that kind of thing about me. i regard a woman as a picture or a statue. i dare say i shall marry some day, because men do; but i've no idea of losing myself about a woman." "i'd lose myself ten times over for--" "l. d.," said cradell. "that i would. and yet i know i shall never have her. i'm a jolly, laughing sort of fellow; and yet, do you know, caudle, when that girl marries, it will be all up with me. it will, indeed." "do you mean that you'll cut your throat?" "no; i shan't do that. i shan't do anything of that sort; and yet it will be all up with me." "you are going down there in october;--why don't you ask her to have you?" "with ninety pounds a year!" his grateful country had twice increased his salary at the rate of five pounds each year. "with ninety pounds a year, and twenty allowed me by my mother!" "she could wait, i suppose. i should ask her, and no mistake. if one is to love a girl, it's no good one going on in that way!" "it isn't much good, certainly," said johnny eames. and then they reached the door of the income-tax office, and each went away to his own desk. from this little dialogue, it may be imagined that though mrs. roper was as good as her word, she was not exactly the woman whom mrs. eames would have wished to select as a protecting angel for her son. but the truth i take to be this, that protecting angels for widows' sons, at forty-eight pounds a year, paid quarterly, are not to be found very readily in london. mrs. roper was not worse than others of her class. she would much have preferred lodgers who were respectable to those who were not so,--if she could only have found respectable lodgers as she wanted them. mr. and mrs. lupex hardly came under that denomination; and when she gave them up her big front bedroom at a hundred a year, she knew she was doing wrong. and she was troubled, too, about her own daughter amelia, who was already over thirty years of age. amelia was a very clever young woman, who had been, if the truth must be told, first young lady at a millinery establishment in manchester. mrs. roper knew that mrs. eames and mrs. cradell would not wish their sons to associate with her daughter. but what could she do? she could not refuse the shelter of her own house to her own child, and yet her heart misgave her when she saw amelia flirting with young eames. "i wish, amelia, you wouldn't have so much to say to that young man." "laws, mother." "so i do. if you go on like that, you'll put me out of both my lodgers." "go on like what, mother? if a gentleman speaks to me, i suppose i'm to answer him? i know how to behave myself, i believe." and then she gave her head a toss. whereupon her mother was silent; for her mother was afraid of her. chapter v. about l. d. apollo crosbie left london for allington on the st of august, intending to stay there four weeks, with the declared intention of recruiting his strength by an absence of two months from official cares, and with no fixed purpose as to his destiny for the last of those two months. offers of hospitality had been made to him by the dozen. lady hartletop's doors, in shropshire, were open to him, if he chose to enter them. he had been invited by the countess de courcy to join her suite at courcy castle. his special friend montgomerie dobbs had a place in scotland, and then there was a yachting party by which he was much wanted. but mr. crosbie had as yet knocked himself down to none of these biddings, having before him when he left london no other fixed engagement than that which took him to allington. on the first of october we shall also find ourselves at allington in company with johnny eames; and apollo crosbie will still be there,--by no means to the comfort of our friend from the income-tax office. johnny eames cannot be called unlucky in that matter of his annual holiday, seeing that he was allowed to leave london in october, a month during which few chose to own that they remain in town. for myself, i always regard may as the best month for holiday-making; but then no londoner cares to be absent in may. young eames, though he lived in burton crescent and had as yet no connection with the west end, had already learned his lesson in this respect. "those fellows in the big room want me to take may," he had said to his friend cradell. "they must think i'm uncommon green." "it's too bad," said cradell. "a man shouldn't be asked to take his leave in may. i never did, and what's more, i never will. i'd go to the board first." eames had escaped this evil without going to the board, and had succeeded in obtaining for himself for his own holiday that month of october, which, of all months, is perhaps the most highly esteemed for holiday purposes. "i shall go down by the mail-train to-morrow night," he said to amelia roper, on the evening before his departure. at that moment he was sitting alone with amelia in mrs. roper's back drawing-room. in the front room cradell was talking to mrs. lupex; but as miss spruce was with them, it may be presumed that mr. lupex need have had no cause for jealousy. "yes," said amelia; "i know how great is your haste to get down to that fascinating spot. i could not expect that you would lose one single hour in hurrying away from burton crescent." amelia roper was a tall, well-grown young woman, with dark hair and dark eyes;--not handsome, for her nose was thick, and the lower part of her face was heavy, but yet not without some feminine attractions. her eyes were bright; but then, also, they were mischievous. she could talk fluently enough; but then, also, she could scold. she could assume sometimes the plumage of a dove; but then again she could occasionally ruffle her feathers like an angry kite. i am quite prepared to acknowledge that john eames should have kept himself clear of amelia roper; but then young men so frequently do those things which they should not do! "after twelve months up here in london one is glad to get away to one's own friends," said johnny. "your own friends, mr. eames! what sort of friends? do you suppose i don't know?" "well, no. i don't think you do know." "l. d.!" said amelia, showing that lily had been spoken of among people who should never have been allowed to hear her name. but perhaps, after all, no more than those two initials were known in burton crescent. from the tone which was now used in naming them, it was sufficiently manifest that amelia considered herself to be wronged by their very existence. "l. s. d.," said johnny, attempting the line of a witty, gay young spendthrift. "that's my love--pounds, shillings, and pence; and a very coy mistress she is." "nonsense, sir. don't talk to me in that way. as if i didn't know where your heart was. what right had you to speak to me if you had an l. d. down in the country?" it should be here declared on behalf of poor john eames that he had not ever spoken to amelia--he had not spoken to her in any such phrase as her words seemed to imply. but then he had written to her a fatal note of which we will speak further before long, and that perhaps was quite as bad,--or worse. "ha, ha, ha!" laughed johnny. but the laugh was assumed, and not assumed with ease. "yes, sir; it's a laughing matter to you, i dare say. it is very easy for a man to laugh under such circumstances;--that is to say, if he is perfectly heartless,--if he's got a stone inside his bosom instead of flesh and blood. some men are made of stone, i know, and are troubled with no feelings." "what is it you want me to say? you pretend to know all about it, and it wouldn't be civil in me to contradict you." "what is it i want? you know very well what i want; or rather, i don't want anything. what is it to me? it is nothing to me about l. d. you can go down to allington and do what you like for me. only i hate such ways." "what ways, amelia?" "what ways! now, look here, johnny: i'm not going to make a fool of myself for any man. when i came home here three months ago--and i wish i never had;"--she paused here a moment, waiting for a word of tenderness; but as the word of tenderness did not come, she went on--"but when i did come home, i didn't think there was a man in all london could make me care for him,--that i didn't. and now you're going away, without so much as hardly saying a word to me." and then she brought out her handkerchief. "what am i to say, when you keep on scolding me all the time?" "scolding you!--and me too! no, johnny, i ain't scolding you, and don't mean to. if it's to be all over between us, say the word, and i'll take myself away out of the house before you come back again. i've had no secrets from you. i can go back to my business in manchester, though it is beneath my birth, and not what i've been used to. if l. d. is more to you than i am, i won't stand in your way. only say the word." l. d. was more to him than amelia roper,--ten times more to him. l. d. would have been everything to him, and amelia roper was worse than nothing. he felt all this at the moment, and struggled hard to collect an amount of courage that would make him free. "say the word," said she, rising on her feet before him, "and all between you and me shall be over. i have got your promise, but i'd scorn to take advantage. if amelia hasn't got your heart, she'd despise to take your hand. only i must have an answer." it would seem that an easy way of escape was offered to him; but the lady probably knew that the way as offered by her was not easy to such an one as john eames. "amelia," he said, still keeping his seat. "well, sir?" "you know i love you." "and about l. d.?" "if you choose to believe all the nonsense that cradell puts into your head, i can't help it. if you like to make yourself jealous about two letters, it isn't my fault." "and you love me?" said she. [illustration: "and you love me?" said she.] "of course i love you." and then, upon hearing these words, amelia threw herself into his arms. as the folding doors between the two rooms were not closed, and as miss spruce was sitting in her easy chair immediately opposite to them, it was probable that she saw what passed. but miss spruce was a taciturn old lady, not easily excited to any show of surprise or admiration; and as she had lived with mrs. roper for the last twelve years, she was probably well acquainted with her daughter's ways. "you'll be true to me?" said amelia, during the moment of that embrace--"true to me for ever?" "oh, yes; that's a matter of course," said johnny eames. and then she liberated him; and the two strolled into the front sitting-room. "i declare, mr. eames," said mrs. lupex, "i'm glad you've come. here's mr. cradell does say such queer things." "queer things!" said cradell. "now, miss spruce, i appeal to you--have i said any queer things?" "if you did, sir, i didn't notice them," said miss spruce. "i noticed them, then," said mrs. lupex. "an unmarried man like mr. cradell has no business to know whether a married lady wears a cap or her own hair--has he, mr. eames?" "i don't think i ever know," said johnny, not intending any sarcasm on mrs. lupex. "i dare say not, sir," said the lady. "we all know where your attention is riveted. if you were to wear a cap, my dear, somebody would see the difference very soon--wouldn't they, miss spruce?" "i dare say they would," said miss spruce. "if i could look as nice in a cap as you do, mrs. lupex, i'd wear one to-morrow," said amelia, who did not wish to quarrel with the married lady at the present moment. there were occasions, however, on which mrs. lupex and miss roper were by no means so gracious to each other. "does lupex like caps?" asked cradell. "if i wore a plumed helmet on my head, it's my belief he wouldn't know the difference; nor yet if i had got no head at all. that's what comes of getting married. if you'll take my advice, miss roper, you'll stay as you are; even though somebody should break his heart about it. wouldn't you, miss spruce?" "oh, as for me, i'm an old woman, you know," said miss spruce, which was certainly true. "i don't see what any woman gets by marrying," continued mrs. lupex. "but a man gains everything. he don't know how to live, unless he's got a woman to help him." "but is love to go for nothing?" said cradell. "oh, love! i don't believe in love. i suppose i thought i loved once, but what did it come to after all? now, there's mr. eames--we all know he's in love." "it comes natural to me, mrs. lupex. i was born so," said johnny. "and there's miss roper--one never ought to speak free about a lady, but perhaps she's in love too." "speak for yourself, mrs. lupex," said amelia. "there's no harm in saying that, is there? i'm sure, if you ain't, you're very hard-hearted; for, if ever there was a true lover, i believe you've got one of your own. my!--if there's not lupex's step on the stair! what can bring him home at this hour? if he's been drinking, he'll come home as cross as anything." then mr. lupex entered the room, and the pleasantness of the party was destroyed. it may be said that neither mrs. cradell nor mrs. eames would have placed their sons in burton crescent if they had known the dangers into which the young men would fall. each, it must be acknowledged, was imprudent; but each clearly saw the imprudence of the other. not a week before this, cradell had seriously warned his friend against the arts of miss roper. "by george, johnny, you'll get yourself entangled with that girl." "one always has to go through that sort of thing," said johnny. "yes; but those who go through too much of it never get out again. where would you be if she got a written promise of marriage from you?" poor johnny did not answer this immediately, for in very truth amelia roper had such a document in her possession. "where should i be?" said he. "among the breaches of promise, i suppose." "either that, or else among the victims of matrimony. my belief of you is, that if you gave such a promise, you'd carry it out." "perhaps i should," said johnny; "but i don't know. it's a matter of doubt what a man ought to do in such a case." "but there's been nothing of that kind yet?" "oh dear, no!" "if i was you, johnny, i'd keep away from her. it's very good fun, of course, that sort of thing; but it is so uncommon dangerous! where would you be now with such a girl as that for your wife?" such had been the caution given by cradell to his friend. and now, just as he was starting for allington, eames returned the compliment. they had gone together to the great western station at paddington, and johnny tendered his advice as they were walking together up and down the platform. "i say, caudle, old boy, you'll find yourself in trouble with that mrs. lupex, if you don't take care of yourself." "but i shall take care of myself. there's nothing so safe as a little nonsense with a married woman. of course, it means nothing, you know, between her and me." "i don't suppose it does mean anything. but she's always talking about lupex being jealous; and if he was to cut up rough, you wouldn't find it pleasant." cradell, however, seemed to think that there was no danger. his little affair with mrs. lupex was quite platonic and safe. as for doing any real harm, his principles, as he assured his friend, were too high. mrs. lupex was a woman of talent, whom no one seemed to understand, and, therefore, he had taken some pleasure in studying her character. it was merely a study of character, and nothing more. then the friends parted, and eames was carried away by the night mail-train down to guestwick. how his mother was up to receive him at four o'clock in the morning, how her maternal heart was rejoicing at seeing the improvement in his gait, and the manliness of appearance imparted to him by his whiskers, i need not describe at length. many of the attributes of a hobbledehoy had fallen from him, and even lily dale might now probably acknowledge that he was no longer a boy. all which might be regarded as good, if only in putting off childish things he had taken up things which were better than childish. on the very first day of his arrival he made his way over to allington. he did not walk on this occasion as he had used to do in the old happy days. he had an idea that it might not be well for him to go into mrs. dale's drawing-room with the dust of the road on his boots, and the heat of the day on his brow. so he borrowed a horse and rode over, taking some pride in a pair of spurs which he had bought in piccadilly, and in his kid gloves, which were brought out new for the occasion. alas, alas! i fear that those two years in london have not improved john eames; and yet i have to acknowledge that john eames is one of the heroes of my story. on entering mrs. dale's drawing-room he found mrs. dale and her eldest daughter. lily at the moment was not there, and as he shook hands with the other two, of course, he asked for her. "she is only in the garden," said bell. "she will be here directly." "she has walked across to the great house with mr. crosbie," said mrs. dale; "but she is not going to remain. she will be so glad to see you, john! we all expected you to-day." "did you?" said johnny, whose heart had been plunged into cold water at the mention of mr. crosbie's name. he had been thinking of lilian dale ever since his friend had left him on the railway platform; and, as i beg to assure all ladies who may read my tale, the truth of his love for lily had moulted no feather through that unholy liaison between him and miss roper. i fear that i shall be disbelieved in this; but it was so. his heart was and ever had been true to lilian, although he had allowed himself to be talked into declarations of affection by such a creature as amelia roper. he had been thinking of his meeting with lily all the night and throughout the morning, and now he heard that she was walking alone about the gardens with a strange gentleman. that mr. crosbie was very grand and very fashionable he had heard, but he knew no more of him. why should mr. crosbie be allowed to walk with lily dale? and why should mrs. dale mention the circumstance as though it were quite a thing of course? such mystery as there was in this was solved very quickly. "i'm sure lily won't object to my telling such a dear friend as you what has happened," said mrs. dale. "she is engaged to be married to mr. crosbie." the water into which johnny's heart had been plunged now closed over his head and left him speechless. lily dale was engaged to be married to mr. crosbie! he knew that he should have spoken when he heard the tidings. he knew that the moments of silence as they passed by told his secret to the two women before him,--that secret which it would now behove him to conceal from all the world. but yet he could not speak. "we are all very well pleased at the match," said mrs. dale, wishing to spare him. "nothing can be nicer than mr. crosbie," said bell. "we have often talked about you, and he will be so happy to know you." "he won't know much about me," said johnny; and even in speaking these few senseless words--words which he uttered because it was necessary that he should say something--the tone of his voice was altered. he would have given the world to have been master of himself at this moment, but he felt that he was utterly vanquished. "there is lily coming across the lawn," said mrs. dale. "then i'd better go," said eames. "don't say anything about it; pray don't." and then, without waiting for another word, he escaped out of the drawing-room. chapter vi. beautiful days. i am well aware that i have not as yet given any description of bell and lilian dale, and equally well aware that the longer the doing so is postponed the greater the difficulty becomes. i wish it could be understood without any description that they were two pretty, fair-haired girls, of whom bell was the tallest and the prettiest, whereas lily was almost as pretty as her sister, and perhaps was more attractive. they were fair-haired girls, very like each other, of whom i have before my mind's eye a distinct portrait, which i fear i shall not be able to draw in any such manner as will make it distinct to others. they were something below the usual height, being slight and slender in all their proportions. lily was the shorter of the two, but the difference was so trifling that it was hardly remembered unless the two were together. and when i said that bell was the prettier, i should, perhaps, have spoken more justly had i simply declared that her features were more regular than her sister's. the two girls were very fair, so that the soft tint of colour which relieved the whiteness of their complexion was rather acknowledged than distinctly seen. it was there, telling its own tale of health, as its absence would have told a tale of present or coming sickness; and yet nobody could ever talk about the colour in their cheeks. the hair of the two girls was so alike in hue and texture, that no one, not even their mother, could say that there was a difference. it was not flaxen hair, and yet it was very light. nor did it approach to auburn; and yet there ran through it a golden tint that gave it a distinct brightness of its own. but with bell it was more plentiful than with lily, and therefore lily would always talk of her own scanty locks, and tell how beautiful were those belonging to her sister. nevertheless lily's head was quite as lovely as her sister's; for its form was perfect, and the simple braids in which they both wore their hair did not require any great exuberance in quantity. their eyes were brightly blue; but bell's were long, and soft, and tender, often hardly daring to raise themselves to your face; while those of lily were rounder, but brighter, and seldom kept by any want of courage from fixing themselves where they pleased. and lily's face was perhaps less oval in its form--less perfectly oval--than her sister's. the shape of the forehead was, i think, the same, but with bell the chin was something more slender and delicate. but bell's chin was unmarked, whereas on her sister's there was a dimple which amply compensated for any other deficiency in its beauty. bell's teeth were more even than her sister's; but then she showed her teeth more frequently. her lips were thinner and, as i cannot but think, less expressive. her nose was decidedly more regular in its beauty, for lily's nose was somewhat broader than it should have been. it may, therefore, be understood that bell would be considered the beauty by the family. but there was, perhaps, more in the general impression made by these girls, and in the whole tone of their appearance, than in the absolute loveliness of their features or the grace of their figures. there was about them a dignity of demeanour devoid of all stiffness or pride, and a maidenly modesty which gave itself no airs. in them was always apparent that sense of security which women should receive from an unconscious dependence on their own mingled purity and weakness. these two girls were never afraid of men,--never looked as though they were so afraid. and i may say that they had little cause for that kind of fear to which i allude. it might be the lot of either of them to be ill-used by a man, but it was hardly possible that either of them should ever be insulted by one. lily, as may, perhaps, have been already seen, could be full of play, but in her play she never so carried herself that any one could forget what was due to her. and now lily dale was engaged to be married, and the days of her playfulness were over. it sounds sad, this sentence against her, but i fear that it must be regarded as true. and when i think that it is true,--when i see that the sportiveness and kitten-like gambols of girlhood should be over, and generally are over, when a girl has given her troth, it becomes a matter of regret to me that the feminine world should be in such a hurry after matrimony. i have, however, no remedy to offer for the evil; and, indeed, am aware that the evil, if there be an evil, is not well expressed in the words i have used. the hurry is not for matrimony, but for love. then, the love once attained, matrimony seizes it for its own, and the evil is accomplished. and lily dale was engaged to be married to adolphus crosbie,--to apollo crosbie, as she still called him, confiding her little joke to his own ears. and to her he was an apollo, as a man who is loved should be to the girl who loves him. he was handsome, graceful, clever, self-confident, and always cheerful when she asked him to be cheerful. but he had also his more serious moments, and could talk to her of serious matters. he would read to her, and explain to her things which had hitherto been too hard for her young intelligence. his voice, too, was pleasant, and well under command. it could be pathetic if pathos were required, or ring with laughter as merry as her own. was not such a man fit to be an apollo to such a girl, when once the girl had acknowledged to herself that she loved him? she had acknowledged it to herself, and had acknowledged it to him,--as the reader will perhaps say without much delay. but the courtship had so been carried on that no delay had been needed. all the world had smiled upon it. when mr. crosbie had first come among them at allington, as bernard's guest, during those few days of his early visit, it had seemed as though bell had been chiefly noticed by him. and bell in her own quiet way had accepted his admiration, saying nothing of it and thinking but very little. lily was heart-free at the time, and had ever been so. no first shadow from love's wing had as yet been thrown across the pure tablets of her bosom. with bell it was not so,--not so in absolute strictness. bell's story, too, must be told, but not on this page. but before crosbie had come among them, it was a thing fixed in her mind that such love as she had felt must be overcome and annihilated. we may say that it had been overcome and annihilated, and that she would have sinned in no way had she listened to vows from this new apollo. it is almost sad to think that such a man might have had the love of either of such girls, but i fear that i must acknowledge that it was so. apollo, in the plenitude of his power, soon changed his mind; and before the end of his first visit, had transferred the distant homage which he was then paying from the elder to the younger sister. he afterwards returned, as the squire's guest, for a longer sojourn among them, and at the end of the first month had already been accepted as lily's future husband. it was beautiful to see how bell changed in her mood towards crosbie and towards her sister as soon as she perceived how the affair was going. she was not long in perceiving it, having caught the first glimpses of the idea on that evening when they both dined at the great house, leaving their mother alone to eat or to neglect the peas. for some six or seven weeks crosbie had been gone, and during that time bell had been much more open in speaking of him than her sister. she had been present when crosbie had bid them good-by, and had listened to his eagerness as he declared to lily that he should soon be back again at allington. lily had taken this very quietly, as though it had not belonged at all to herself; but bell had seen something of the truth, and, believing in crosbie as an earnest, honest man, had spoken kind words of him, fostering any little aptitude for love which might already have formed itself in lily's bosom. "but he is such an apollo, you know," lily had said. "he is a gentleman; i can see that." "oh, yes; a man can't be an apollo unless he's a gentleman." "and he's very clever." "i suppose he is clever." there was nothing more said about his being a mere clerk. indeed, lily had changed her mind on that subject. johnny eames was a mere clerk; whereas crosbie, if he was to be called a clerk at all, was a clerk of some very special denomination. there may be a great difference between one clerk and another! a clerk of the council and a parish clerk are very different persons. lily had got some such idea as this into her head as she attempted in her own mind to rescue mr. crosbie from the lower orders of the government service. "i wish he were not coming," mrs. dale had said to her eldest daughter. "i think you are wrong, mamma." "but if she should become fond of him, and then--" "lily will never become really fond of any man till he shall have given her proper reason. and if he admires her, why should they not come together?" "but she is so young, bell." "she is nineteen; and if they were engaged, perhaps, they might wait for a year or so. but it's no good talking in that way, mamma. if you were to tell lily not to give him encouragement, she would not speak to him." "i should not think of interfering." "no, mamma; and therefore it must take its course. for myself, i like mr. crosbie very much." "so do i, my dear." "and so does my uncle. i wouldn't have lily take a lover of my uncle's choosing." "i should hope not." "but it must be considered a good thing if she happens to choose one of his liking." in this way the matter had been talked over between the mother and her elder daughter. then mr. crosbie had come; and before the end of the first month his declared admiration for lily had proved the correctness of her sister's foresight. and during that short courtship all had gone well with the lovers. the squire from the first had declared himself satisfied with the match, informing mrs. dale, in his cold manner, that mr. crosbie was a gentleman with an income sufficient for matrimony. "it would be close enough in london," mrs. dale had said. "he has more than my brother had when he married," said the squire. "if he will only make her as happy as your brother made me,--while it lasted!" said mrs. dale, as she turned away her face to conceal a tear that was coming. and then there was nothing more said about it between the squire and his sister-in-law. the squire spoke no word as to assistance in money matters,--did not even suggest that he would lend a hand to the young people at starting, as an uncle in such a position might surely have done. it may well be conceived that mrs. dale herself said nothing on the subject. and, indeed, it may be conceived, also, that the squire, let his intentions be what they might, would not divulge them to mrs. dale. this was uncomfortable, but the position was one that was well understood between them. bernard dale was still at allington, and had remained there through the period of crosbie's absence. whatever words mrs. dale might choose to speak on the matter would probably be spoken to him; but, then, bernard could be quite as close as his uncle. when crosbie returned, he and bernard had, of course, lived much together; and, as was natural, there came to be close discussion between them as to the two girls, when crosbie allowed it to be understood that his liking for lily was becoming strong. "you know, i suppose, that my uncle wishes me to marry the elder one," bernard had said. "i have guessed as much." "and i suppose the match will come off. she's a pretty girl, and as good as gold." "yes, she is." "i don't pretend to be very much in love with her. it's not my way, you know. but, some of these days, i shall ask her to have me, and i suppose it'll all go right. the governor has distinctly promised to allow me eight hundred a year off the estate, and to take us in for three months every year if we wish it. i told him simply that i couldn't do it for less, and he agreed with me." "you and he get on very well together." "oh, yes! there's never been any fal-lal between us about love, and duty, and all that. i think we understand each other, and that's everything. he knows the comfort of standing well with the heir, and i know the comfort of standing well with the owner." it must be admitted, i think, that there was a great deal of sound, common sense about bernard dale. "what will he do for the younger sister?" asked crosbie; and, as he asked the important question, a close observer might have perceived that there was some slight tremor in his voice. "ah! that's more than i can tell you. if i were you, i should ask him. the governor is a plain man, and likes plain business." "i suppose you couldn't ask him?" "no; i don't think i could. it is my belief that he will not let her go by any means empty-handed." "well, i should suppose not." "but remember this, crosbie,--i can say nothing to you on which you are to depend. lily, also, is as good as gold; and, as you seem to be fond of her, i should ask the governor, if i were you, in so many words, what he intends to do. of course, it's against my interest, for every shilling he gives lily will ultimately come out of my pocket. but i'm not the man to care about that, as you know." what might be crosbie's knowledge on this subject we will not here inquire; but we may say that it would have mattered very little to him out of whose pocket the money came, so long as it went into his own. when he felt quite sure of lily,--having, in fact, received lily's permission to speak to her uncle, and lily's promise that she would herself speak to her mother,--he did tell the squire what was his intention. this he did in an open, manly way, as though he felt that in asking for much he also offered to give much. "i have nothing to say against it," said the squire. "and i have your permission to consider myself as engaged to her?" "if you have hers and her mother's. of course you are aware that i have no authority over her." "she would not marry without your sanction." "she is very good to think so much of her uncle," said the squire; and his words as he spoke them sounded very cold in crosbie's ears. after that crosbie said nothing about money, having to confess to himself that he was afraid to do so. "and what would be the use?" said he to himself, wishing to make excuses for what he felt to be weak in his own conduct. "if he should refuse to give her a shilling i could not go back from it now." and then some ideas ran across his mind as to the injustice to which men are subjected in this matter of matrimony. a man has to declare himself before it is fitting that he should make any inquiry about a lady's money; and then, when he has declared himself, any such inquiry is unavailing. which consideration somewhat cooled the ardour of his happiness. lily dale was very pretty, very nice, very refreshing in her innocence, her purity, and her quick intelligence. no amusement could be more deliciously amusing than that of making love to lily dale. her way of flattering her lover without any intention of flattery on her part, had put crosbie into a seventh heaven. in all his experience he had known nothing like it. "you may be sure of this," she had said,--"i shall love you with all my heart and all my strength." it was very nice;--but then what were they to live upon? could it be that he, adolphus crosbie, should settle down on the north side of the new road, as a married man, with eight hundred a year? if indeed the squire would be as good to lily as he had promised to be to bell, then indeed things might be made to arrange themselves. but there was no such drawback on lily's happiness. her ideas about money were rather vague, but they were very honest. she knew she had none of her own, but supposed it was a husband's duty to find what would be needful. she knew she had none of her own, and was therefore aware that she ought not to expect luxuries in the little household that was to be prepared for her. she hoped, for his sake, that her uncle might give some assistance, but was quite prepared to prove that she could be a good poor man's wife. in the old colloquies on such matters between her and her sister, she had always declared that some decent income should be considered as indispensable before love could be entertained. but eight hundred a year had been considered as doing much more than fulfilling this stipulation. bell had had high-flown notions as to the absolute glory of poverty. she had declared that income should not be considered at all. if she had loved a man, she could allow herself to be engaged to him, even though he had no income. such had been their theories; and as regarded money, lily was quite contented with the way in which she had carried out her own. in these beautiful days there was nothing to check her happiness. her mother and sister united in telling her that she had done well,--that she was happy in her choice, and justified in her love. on that first day, when she told her mother all, she had been made exquisitely blissful by the way in which her tidings had been received. "oh! mamma, i must tell you something," she said, coming up to her mother's bedroom, after a long ramble with mr. crosbie through those allington fields. "is it about mr. crosbie?" "yes, mamma." and then the rest had been said through the medium of warm embraces and happy tears rather than by words. as she sat in her mother's room, hiding her face on her mother's shoulders, bell had come, and had knelt at her feet. "dear lily," she had said, "i am so glad." and then lily remembered how she had, as it were, stolen her lover from her sister, and she put her arms round bell's neck and kissed her. "i knew how it was going to be from the very first," said bell. "did i not, mamma?" "i'm sure i didn't," said lily. "i never thought such a thing was possible." "but we did,--mamma and i." "did you?" said lily. "bell told me that it was to be so," said mrs. dale. "but i could hardly bring myself at first to think that he was good enough for my darling." "oh, mamma! you must not say that. you must think that he is good enough for anything." "i will think that he is very good." "who could be better? and then, when you remember all that he is to give up for my sake!--and what can i do for him in return? what have i got to give him?" neither mrs. dale nor bell could look at the matter in this light, thinking that lily gave quite as much as she received. but they both declared that crosbie was perfect, knowing that by such assurances only could they now administer to lily's happiness; and lily, between them, was made perfect in her happiness, receiving all manner of encouragement in her love, and being nourished in her passion by the sympathy and approval of her mother and sister. and then had come that visit from johnny eames. as the poor fellow marched out of the room, giving them no time to say farewell, mrs. dale and bell looked at each other sadly; but they were unable to concoct any arrangement, for lily had run across the lawn, and was already on the ground before the window. "as soon as we got to the end of the shrubbery there were uncle christopher and bernard close to us; so i told adolphus he might go on by himself." "and who do you think has been here?" said bell. but mrs. dale said nothing. had time been given to her to use her own judgment, nothing should have been said at that moment as to johnny's visit. "has anybody been here since i went? whoever it was didn't stay very long." "poor johnny eames," said bell. then the colour came up into lily's face, and she bethought herself in a moment that the old friend of her young days had loved her, that he, too, had had hopes as to his love, and that now he had heard tidings which would put an end to such hopes. she understood it all in a moment, but understood also that it was necessary that she should conceal such understanding. "dear johnny!" she said. "why did he not wait for me?" "we told him you were out," said mrs. dale. "he will be here again before long, no doubt." "and he knows--?" "yes; i thought you would not object to my telling him." "no, mamma; of course not. and he has gone back to guestwick?" there was no answer given to this question, nor were there any further words then spoken about johnny eames. each of these women understood exactly how the matter stood, and each knew that the others understood it. the young man was loved by them all, but not loved with that sort of admiring affection which had been accorded to mr. crosbie. johnny eames could not have been accepted as a suitor by their pet. mrs. dale and bell both felt that. and yet they loved him for his love, and for that distant, modest respect which had restrained him from any speech regarding it. poor johnny! but he was young,--hardly as yet out of his hobbledehoyhood,--and he would easily recover this blow, remembering, and perhaps feeling to his advantage, some slight touch of its passing romance. it is thus women think of men who love young and love in vain. but johnny eames himself, as he rode back to guestwick, forgetful of his spurs, and with his gloves stuffed into his pocket, thought of the matter very differently. he had never promised to himself any success as to his passion for lily, and had, indeed, always acknowledged that he could have no hope; but now, that she was actually promised to another man, and as good as married, he was not the less broken-hearted because his former hopes had not been high. he had never dared to speak to lily of his love, but he was conscious that she knew it, and he did not now dare to stand before her as one convicted of having loved in vain. and then, as he rode back, he thought also of his other love, not with many of those pleasant thoughts which lotharios and don juans may be presumed to enjoy when they contemplate their successes. "i suppose i shall marry her, and there'll be an end of me," he said to himself, as he remembered a short note which he had once written to her in his madness. there had been a little supper at mrs. roper's, and mrs. lupex and amelia had made the punch. after supper, he had been by some accident alone with amelia in the dining-parlour; and when, warmed by the generous god, he had declared his passion, she had shaken her head mournfully, and had fled from him to some upper region, absolutely refusing his proffered embrace. but on the same night, before his head had found its pillow, a note had come to him, half repentant, half affectionate, half repellent,--"if, indeed, he would swear to her that his love was honest and manly, then, indeed, she might even yet,--see him through the chink of the doorway with the purport of telling him that he was forgiven." whereupon, a perfidious pencil being near to his hand, he had written the requisite words. "my only object in life is to call you my own for ever." amelia had her misgivings whether such a promise, in order that it might be used as legal evidence, should not have been written in ink. it was a painful doubt; but nevertheless she was as good as her word, and saw him through the chink, forgiving him for his impetuosity in the parlour with, perhaps, more clemency than a mere pardon required. "by george! how well she looked with her hair all loose," he said to himself, as he at last regained his pillow, still warm with the generous god. but now, as he thought of that night, returning on his road from allington to guestwick, those loose, floating locks were remembered by him with no strong feeling as to their charms. and he thought also of lily dale, as she was when he had said farewell to her on that day before he first went up to london. "i shall care more about seeing you than anybody," he had said; and he had often thought of the words since, wondering whether she had understood them as meaning more than an assurance of ordinary friendship. and he remembered well the dress she had then worn. it was an old brown merino, which he had known before, and which, in truth, had nothing in it to recommend it specially to a lover's notice. "horrid old thing!" had been lily's own verdict respecting the frock, even before that day. but she had hallowed it in his eyes, and he would have been only too happy to have worn a shred of it near his heart, as a talisman. how wonderful in its nature is that passion of which men speak when they acknowledge to themselves that they are in love. of all things, it is, under one condition, the most foul, and under another, the most fair. as that condition is, a man shows himself either as a beast or as a god! and so we will let poor johnny eames ride back to guestwick, suffering much in that he had loved basely--and suffering much, also, in that he had loved nobly. lily, as she had tripped along through the shrubbery, under her lover's arm, looking up, every other moment, into his face, had espied her uncle and bernard. "stop," she had said, giving him a little pull at the arm; "i won't go on. uncle is always teasing me with some old-fashioned wit. and i've had quite enough of you to-day, sir. mind you come over to-morrow before you go to your shooting." and so she had left him. we may as well learn here what was the question in dispute between the uncle and cousin, as they were walking there on the broad gravel path behind the great house. "bernard," the old man had said, "i wish this matter could be settled between you and bell." "is there any hurry about it, sir?" "yes, there is hurry; or, rather, as i hate hurry in all things, i would say that there is ground for despatch. mind, i do not wish to drive you. if you do not like your cousin, say so." "but i do like her; only i have a sort of feeling that these things grow best by degrees. i quite share your dislike to being in a hurry." "but time enough has been taken now. you see, bernard, i am going to make a great sacrifice of income on your behalf." "i am sure i am very grateful." "i have no children, and have therefore always regarded you as my own. but there is no reason why my brother philip's daughter should not be as dear to me as my brother orlando's son." "of course not, sir; or, rather, his two daughters." "you may leave that matter to me, bernard. the younger girl is going to marry this friend of yours, and as he has a sufficient income to support a wife, i think that my sister-in-law has good reason to be satisfied by the match. she will not be expected to give up any part of her small income, as she must have done had lily married a poor man." "i suppose she could hardly give up much." "people must be guided by circumstances. i am not disposed to put myself in the place of a parent to them both. there is no reason why i should, and i will not encourage false hopes. if i knew that this matter between you and bell was arranged, i should have reason to feel satisfied with what i was doing." from all which bernard began to perceive that poor crosbie's expectations in the matter of money would not probably receive much gratification. but he also perceived--or thought that he perceived--a kind of threat in this warning from his uncle. "i have promised you eight hundred a year with your wife," the warning seemed to say. "but if you do not at once accept it, or let me feel that it will be accepted, it may be well for me to change my mind--especially as this other niece is about to be married. if i am to give you so large a fortune with bell, i need do nothing for lily. but if you do not choose to take bell and the fortune, why then--" and so on. it was thus that bernard read his uncle's caution, as they walked together on the broad gravel path. "i have no desire to postpone the matter any longer," said bernard. "i will propose to bell at once, if you wish it." "if your mind be quite made up, i cannot see why you should delay it." and then, having thus arranged that matter, they received their future relative with kind smiles and soft words. chapter vii. the beginning of troubles. [illustration: (untitled)] lily, as she parted with her lover in the garden, had required of him to attend upon her the next morning as he went to his shooting, and in obedience to this command he appeared on mrs. dale's lawn after breakfast, accompanied by bernard and two dogs. the men had guns in their hands, and were got up with all proper sporting appurtenances, but it so turned out that they did not reach the stubble-fields on the farther side of the road until after luncheon. and may it not be fairly doubted whether croquet is not as good as shooting when a man is in love? it will be said that bernard dale was not in love; but they who bring such accusation against him, will bring it falsely. he was in love with his cousin bell according to his manner and fashion. it was not his nature to love bell as john eames loved lily; but then neither would his nature bring him into such a trouble as that which the charms of amelia roper had brought upon the poor clerk from the income-tax office. johnny was susceptible, as the word goes; whereas captain dale was a man who had his feelings well under control. he was not one to make a fool of himself about a girl, or to die of a broken heart; but, nevertheless, he would probably love his wife when he got a wife, and would be a careful father to his children. they were very intimate with each other now,--these four. it was bernard and adolphus, or sometimes apollo, and bell and lily among them; and crosbie found it to be pleasant enough. a new position of life had come upon him, and one exceeding pleasant; but, nevertheless, there were moments in which cold fits of a melancholy nature came upon him. he was doing the very thing which throughout all the years of his manhood he had declared to himself that he would not do. according to his plan of life he was to have eschewed marriage, and to have allowed himself to regard it as a possible event only under the circumstances of wealth, rank, and beauty all coming in his way together. as he had expected no such glorious prize, he had regarded himself as a man who would reign at the beaufort and be potent at sebright's to the end of his chapter. but now-- it was the fact that he had fallen from his settled position, vanquished by a silver voice, a pretty wit, and a pair of moderately bright eyes. he was very fond of lily, having in truth a stronger capability for falling in love than his friend captain dale; but was the sacrifice worth his while? this was the question which he asked himself in those melancholy moments; while he was lying in bed, for instance, awake in the morning, when he was shaving himself, and sometimes also when the squire was prosy after dinner. at such times as these, while he would be listening to mr. dale, his self-reproaches would sometimes be very bitter. why should he undergo this, he, crosbie of sebright's, crosbie of the general committee office, crosbie who would allow no one to bore him between charing cross and the far end of bayswater,--why should he listen to the long-winded stories of such a one as squire dale? if, indeed, the squire intended to be liberal to his niece, then it might be very well. but as yet the squire had given no sign of such intention, and crosbie was angry with himself in that he had not had the courage to ask a question on that subject. and thus the course of love was not all smooth to our apollo. it was still pleasant for him when he was there on the croquet ground, or sitting in mrs. dale's drawing-room with all the privileges of an accepted lover. it was pleasant to him also as he sipped the squire's claret, knowing that his coffee would soon be handed to him by a sweet girl who would have tripped across the two gardens on purpose to perform for him this service. there is nothing pleasanter than all this, although a man when so treated does feel himself to look like a calf at the altar, ready for the knife, with blue ribbons round his horns and neck. crosbie felt that he was such a calf,--and the more calf-like, in that he had not as yet dared to ask a question about his wife's fortune. "i will have it out of the old fellow this evening," he said to himself, as he buttoned on his dandy shooting gaiters that morning. "how nice he looks in them," lily said to her sister afterwards, knowing nothing of the thoughts which had troubled her lover's mind while he was adorning his legs. "i suppose we shall come back this way," crosbie said, as they prepared to move away on their proper business when lunch was over. "well, not exactly!" said bernard. "we shall make our way round by darvell's farm, and so back by gruddock's. are the girls going to dine up at the great house to-day?" the girls declared that they were not going to dine up at the great house,--that they did not intend going to the great house at all that evening. "then, as you won't have to dress, you might as well meet us at gruddock's gate, at the back of the farmyard. we'll be there exactly at half-past five." "that is to say, we're to be there at half-past five, and you'll keep us waiting for three-quarters of an hour," said lily. nevertheless the arrangement as proposed was made, and the two ladies were not at all unwilling to make it. it is thus that the game is carried on among unsophisticated people who really live in the country. the farmyard gate at farmer gruddock's has not a fitting sound as a trysting-place in romance, but for people who are in earnest it does as well as any oak in the middle glade of a forest. lily dale was quite in earnest--and so indeed was adolphus crosbie,--only with him the earnest was beginning to take that shade of brown which most earnest things have to wear in this vale of tears. with lily it was as yet all rose-coloured. and bernard dale was also in earnest. throughout this morning he had stood very near to bell on the lawn, and had thought that his cousin did not receive his little whisperings with any aversion. why should she? lucky girl that she was, thus to have eight hundred a year pinned to her skirt! "i say, dale," crosbie said, as in the course of their day's work they had come round upon gruddock's ground, and were preparing to finish off his turnips before they reached the farm-yard gate. and now, as crosbie spoke, they stood leaning on the gate, looking at the turnips while the two dogs squatted on their haunches. crosbie had been very silent for the last mile or two, and had been making up his mind for this conversation. "i say, dale,--your uncle has never said a word to me yet as to lily's fortune." "as to lily's fortune! the question is whether lily has got a fortune." "he can hardly expect that i am to take her without something. your uncle is a man of the world and he knows--" "whether or no my uncle is a man of the world, i will not say; but you are, crosbie, whether he is or not. lily, as you have always known, has nothing of her own." "i am not talking of lily's own. i'm speaking of her uncle. i have been straightforward with him; and when i became attached to your cousin i declared what i meant at once." "you should have asked him the question, if you thought there was any room for such a question." "thought there was any room! upon my word, you are a cool fellow." "now look here, crosbie; you may say what you like about my uncle, but you must not say a word against lily." "who is going to say a word against her? you can little understand me if you don't know that the protection of her name against evil words is already more my care than it is yours. i regard lily as my own." "i only meant to say, that any discontent you may feel as to her money, or want of money, you must refer to my uncle, and not to the family at the small house." "i am quite well aware of that." "and though you are quite at liberty to say what you like to me about my uncle, i cannot say that i can see that he has been to blame." "he should have told me what her prospects are." "but if she have got no prospects! it cannot be an uncle's duty to tell everybody that he does not mean to give his niece a fortune. in point of fact, why should you suppose that he has such an intention?" "do you know that he has not? because you once led me to believe that he would give his niece money." "now, crosbie, it is necessary that you and i should understand each other in this matter--" "but did you not?" "listen to me for a moment. i never said a word to you about my uncle's intentions in any way, until after you had become fully engaged to lily with the knowledge of us all. then, when my belief on the subject could make no possible difference in your conduct, i told you that i thought my uncle would do something for her. i told you so because i did think so;--and as your friend, i should have told you what i thought in any matter that concerned your interest." "and now you have changed your opinion?" "i have changed my opinion; but very probably without sufficient ground." "that's hard upon me." "it may be hard to bear disappointment; but you cannot say that anybody has ill-used you." "and you don't think he will give her anything?" "nothing that will be of much moment to you." "and i'm not to say that that's hard? i think it confounded hard. of course i must put off my marriage." "why do you not speak to my uncle?" "i shall do so. to tell the truth, i think it would have come better from him; but that is a matter of opinion. i shall tell him very plainly what i think about it; and if he is angry, why, i suppose i must leave his house; that will be all." "look here, crosbie; do not begin your conversation with the purpose of angering him. he is not a bad-hearted man, but is very obstinate." "i can be quite as obstinate as he is." and, then, without further parley, they went in among the turnips, and each swore against his luck as he missed his birds. there are certain phases of mind in which a man can neither ride nor shoot, nor play a stroke at billiards, nor remember a card at whist,--and to such a phase of mind had come both crosbie and dale after their conversation over the gate. they were not above fifteen minutes late at the trysting-place, but nevertheless, punctual though they had been, the girls were there before them. of course the first inquiries were made about the game, and of course the gentlemen declared that the birds were scarcer than they had ever been before, that the dogs were wilder, and their luck more excruciatingly bad,--to all which apologies very little attention was paid. lily and bell had not come there to inquire after partridges, and would have forgiven the sportsmen even though no single bird had been killed. but they could not forgive the want of good spirits which was apparent. "i declare i don't know what's the matter with you," lily said to her lover. "we have been over fifteen miles of ground, and--" "i never knew anything so lackadaisical as you gentlemen from london. been over fifteen miles of ground! why, uncle christopher would think nothing of that." "uncle christopher is made of sterner stuff than we are," said crosbie. "they used to be born so sixty or seventy years ago." and then they walked on through gruddock's fields, and the home paddocks, back to the great house, where they found the squire standing in the front of the porch. the walk had not been so pleasant as they had all intended that it should be when they made their arrangements for it. crosbie had endeavoured to recover his happy state of mind, but had been unsuccessful; and lily, fancying that her lover was not all that he should be, had become reserved and silent. bernard and bell had not shared this discomfiture, but then bernard and bell were, as a rule, much more given to silence than the other two. "uncle," said lily, "these men have shot nothing, and you cannot conceive how unhappy they are in consequence. it's all the fault of the naughty partridges." [illustration: "it's all the fault of the naughty partridges."] "there are plenty of partridges if they knew how to get them," said the squire. "the dogs are uncommonly wild," said crosbie. "they are not wild with me," said the squire; "nor yet with dingles." dingles was the squire's gamekeeper. "the fact is, you young men, nowadays, expect to have dogs trained to do all the work for you. it's too much labour for you to walk up to your game. you'll be late for dinner, girls, if you don't look sharp." "we're not coming up this evening, sir," said bell. "and why not?" "we're going to stay with mamma." "and why will not your mother come with you? i'll be whipped if i can understand it. one would have thought that under the present circumstances she would have been glad to see you all as much together as possible." "we're together quite enough," said lily. "and as for mamma, i suppose she thinks--" and then she stopped herself, catching the glance of bell's imploring eye. she was going to make some indignant excuse for her mother,--some excuse which would be calculated to make her uncle angry. it was her practice to say such sharp words to him, and consequently he did not regard her as warmly as her more silent and more prudent sister. at the present moment he turned quickly round and went into the house; and then, with a very few words of farewell, the two young men followed him. the girls went back over the little bridge by themselves, feeling that the afternoon had not gone off altogether well. "you shouldn't provoke him, lily," said bell. "and he shouldn't say those things about mamma. it seems to me that you don't mind what he says." "oh, lily." "no more you do. he makes me so angry that i cannot hold my tongue. he thinks that because all the place is his, he is to say just what he likes. why should mamma go up there to please his humours?" "you may be sure that mamma will do what she thinks best. she is stronger-minded than uncle christopher, and does not want any one to help her. but, lily, you shouldn't speak as though i were careless about mamma. you didn't mean that, i know." "of course i didn't." then the two girls joined their mother in their own little domain; but we will return to the men at the great house. crosbie, when he went up to dress for dinner, fell into one of those melancholy fits of which i have spoken. was he absolutely about to destroy all the good that he had done for himself throughout the past years of his hitherto successful life? or rather, as he at last put the question to himself more strongly,--was it not the case that he had already destroyed all that success? his marriage with lily, whether it was to be for good or bad, was now a settled thing, and was not regarded as a matter admitting of any doubt. to do the man justice, i must declare that in all these moments of misery he still did the best he could to think of lily herself as of a great treasure which he had won,--as of a treasure which should, and perhaps would, compensate him for his misery. but there was the misery very plain. he must give up his clubs, and his fashion, and all that he had hitherto gained, and be content to live a plain, humdrum, domestic life, with eight hundred a year, and a small house, full of babies. it was not the kind of elysium for which he had tutored himself. lily was very nice, very nice indeed. she was, as he said to himself, "by odds, the nicest girl that he had ever seen." whatever might now turn up, her happiness should be his first care. but as for his own,--he began to fear that the compensation would hardly be perfect. "it is my own doing," he said to himself, intending to be rather noble in the purport of his soliloquy, "i have trained myself for other things,--very foolishly. of course i must suffer,--suffer damnably. but she shall never know it. dear, sweet, innocent, pretty little thing!" and then he went on about the squire, as to whom he felt himself entitled to be indignant by his own disinterested and manly line of conduct towards the niece. "but i will let him know what i think about it," he said. "it's all very well for dale to say that i have been treated fairly. it isn't fair for a man to put forward his niece under false pretences. of course i thought that he intended to provide for her." and then, having made up his mind in a very manly way that he would not desert lily altogether after having promised to marry her, he endeavoured to find consolation in the reflection that he might, at any rate, allow himself two years' more run as a bachelor in london. girls who have to get themselves married without fortunes always know that they will have to wait. indeed, lily had already told him, that as far as she was concerned, she was in no hurry. he need not, therefore, at once withdraw his name from sebright's. thus he endeavoured to console himself, still, however, resolving that he would have a little serious conversation with the squire that very evening as to lily's fortune. and what was the state of lily's mind at the same moment, while she, also, was performing some slight toilet changes preparatory to their simple dinner at the small house? "i didn't behave well to him," she said to herself; "i never do. i forget how much he is giving up for me; and then, when anything annoys him, i make it worse instead of comforting him." and upon that she made accusation against herself that she did not love him half enough,--that she did not let him see how thoroughly and perfectly she loved him. she had an idea of her own, that as a girl should never show any preference for a man till circumstances should have fully entitled him to such manifestation, so also should she make no drawback on her love, but pour it forth for his benefit with all her strength, when such circumstances had come to exist. but she was ever feeling that she was not acting up to her theory, now that the time for such practice had come. she would unwittingly assume little reserves, and make small pretences of indifference in spite of her own judgment. she had done so on this afternoon, and had left him without giving him her hand to press, without looking up into his face with an assurance of love, and therefore she was angry with herself. "i know i shall teach him to hate me," she said out loud to bell. "that would be very sad," said bell; "but i don't see it." "if you were engaged to a man you would be much better to him. you would not say so much, but what you did say would be all affection. i am always making horrid little speeches, for which i should like to cut out my tongue afterwards." "whatever sort of speeches they are, i think that he likes them." "does he? i'm not all so sure of that, bell. of course i don't expect that he is to scold me,--not yet, that is. but i know by his eye when he is pleased and when he is displeased." and then they went down to their dinner. up at the great house the three gentlemen met together in apparent good humour. bernard dale was a man of an equal temperament, who rarely allowed any feeling, or even any annoyance, to interfere with his usual manner,--a man who could always come to table with a smile, and meet either his friend or his enemy with a properly civil greeting. not that he was especially a false man. there was nothing of deceit in his placidity of demeanour. it arose from true equanimity; but it was the equanimity of a cold disposition rather than of one well ordered by discipline. the squire was aware that he had been unreasonably petulant before dinner, and having taken himself to task in his own way, now entered the dining-room with the courteous greeting of a host. "i find that your bag was not so bad after all," he said, "and i hope that your appetite is at least as good as your bag." crosbie smiled, and made himself pleasant, and said a few flattering words. a man who intends to take some very decided step in an hour or two generally contrives to bear himself in the meantime as though the trifles of the world were quite sufficient for him. so he praised the squire's game; said a good-natured word as to dingles, and bantered himself as to his own want of skill. then all went merry,--not quite as a marriage bell; but still merry enough for a party of three gentlemen. but crosbie's resolution was fixed; and as soon, therefore, as the old butler was permanently gone, and the wine steadily in transit upon the table, he began his task, not without some apparent abruptness. having fully considered the matter, he had determined that he would not wait for bernard dale's absence. he thought it possible that he might be able to fight his battle better in bernard's presence than he could do behind his back. "squire," he began. they all called him squire when they were on good terms together, and crosbie thought it well to begin as though there was nothing amiss between them. "squire, of course i am thinking a good deal at the present moment as to my intended marriage." "that's natural enough," said the squire. "yes, by george! sir, a man doesn't make a change like that without finding that he has got something to think of." "i suppose not," said the squire. "i never was in the way of getting married myself, but i can easily understand that." "i've been the luckiest fellow in the world in finding such a girl as your niece--" whereupon the squire bowed, intending to make a little courteous declaration that the luck in the matter was on the side of the dales. "i know that," continued crosbie. "she is exactly everything that a girl ought to be." "she is a good girl," said bernard. "yes; i think she is," said the squire. "but it seems to me," said crosbie, finding that it was necessary to dash at once headlong into the water, "that something ought to be said as to my means of supporting her properly." then he paused for a moment, expecting that the squire would speak. but the squire sat perfectly still, looking intently at the empty fireplace and saying nothing. "of supporting her," continued crosbie, "with all those comforts to which she has been accustomed." "she has never been used to expense," said the squire. "her mother, as you doubtless know, is not a rich woman." "but living here, lily has had great advantages,--a horse to ride, and all that sort of thing." "i don't suppose she expects a horse in the park," said the squire, with a very perceptible touch of sarcasm in his voice. "i hope not," said crosbie. "i believe she has had the use of one of the ponies here sometimes, but i hope that has not made her extravagant in her ideas. i did not think that there was anything of that nonsense about either of them." "nor is there,--as far as i know." "nothing of the sort," said bernard. "but the long and the short of it is this, sir!" and crosbie, as he spoke, endeavoured to maintain his ordinary voice and usual coolness, but his heightened colour betrayed that he was nervous. "am i to expect any accession of income with my wife?" "i have not spoken to my sister-in-law on the subject," said the squire; "but i should fear that she cannot do much." "as a matter of course, i would not take a shilling from her," said crosbie. "then that settles it," said the squire. crosbie paused a moment, during which his colour became very red. he unconsciously took up an apricot and eat it, and then he spoke out. "of course i was not alluding to mrs. dale's income; i would not, on any account, disturb her arrangements. but i wished to learn, sir, whether you intend to do anything for your niece." "in the way of giving her a fortune? nothing at all. i intend to do nothing at all." "then i suppose we understand each other,--at last," said crosbie. "i should have thought that we might have understood each other at first," said the squire. "did i ever make you any promise, or give you any hint that i intended to provide for my niece? have i ever held out to you any such hope? i don't know what you mean by that word 'at last'--unless it be to give offence." "i meant the truth, sir;--i meant this--that seeing the manner in which your nieces lived with you, i thought it probable that you would treat them both as though they were your daughters. now i find out my mistake;--that is all!" "you have been mistaken,--and without a shadow of excuse for your mistake." "others have been mistaken with me," said crosbie, forgetting, on the spur of the moment, that he had no right to drag the opinion of any other person into the question. "what others?" said the squire, with anger; and his mind immediately betook itself to his sister-in-law. "i do not want to make any mischief," said crosbie. "if anybody connected with my family has presumed to tell you that i intended to do more for my niece lilian than i have already done, such person has not only been false, but ungrateful. i have given to no one any authority to make any promise on behalf of my niece." "no such promise has been made. it was only a suggestion," said crosbie. he was not in the least aware to whom the squire was alluding in his anger; but he perceived that his host was angry, and having already reflected that he should not have alluded to the words which bernard dale had spoken in his friendship, he resolved to name no one. bernard, as he sat by listening, knew exactly how the matter stood; but, as he thought, there could be no reason why he should subject himself to his uncle's ill-will, seeing that he had committed no sin. "no such suggestion should have been made," said the squire. "no one has had a right to make such a suggestion. no one has been placed by me in a position to make such a suggestion to you without manifest impropriety. i will ask no further questions about it; but it is quite as well that you should understand at once that i do not consider it to be my duty to give my niece lilian a fortune on her marriage. i trust that your offer to her was not made under any such delusion." "no, sir; it was not," said crosbie. "then i suppose that no great harm has been done. i am sorry if false hopes have been given to you; but i am sure you will acknowledge that they were not given to you by me." "i think you have misunderstood me, sir. my hopes were never very high; but i thought it right to ascertain your intentions." "now you know them. i trust, for the girl's sake, that it will make no difference to her. i can hardly believe that she has been to blame in the matter." crosbie hastened at once to exculpate lily; and then, with more awkward blunders than a man should have made who was so well acquainted with fashionable life as the apollo of the beaufort, he proceeded to explain that, as lily was to have nothing, his own pecuniary arrangements would necessitate some little delay in their marriage. "as far as i myself am concerned," said the squire, "i do not like long engagements. but i am quite aware that in this matter i have no right to interfere, unless, indeed--" and then he stopped himself. "i suppose it will be well to fix some day; eh, crosbie?" said bernard. "i will discuss that matter with mrs. dale," said crosbie. "if you and she understand each other," said the squire, "that will be sufficient. shall we go into the drawing-room now, or out upon the lawn?" that evening, as crosbie went to bed, he felt that he had not gained the victory in his encounter with the squire. chapter viii. it cannot be. on the following morning at breakfast each of the three gentlemen at the great house received a little note on pink paper, nominally from mrs. dale, asking them to drink tea at the small house on that day week. at the bottom of the note which lily had written for mr. crosbie was added: "dancing on the lawn, if we can get anybody to stand up. of course you must come, whether you like it or not. and bernard also. do your possible to talk my uncle into coming." and this note did something towards re-creating good-humour among them at the breakfast-table. it was shown to the squire, and at last he was brought to say that he would perhaps go to mrs. dale's little evening-party. it may be well to explain that this promised entertainment had been originated with no special view to the pleasure of mr. crosbie, but altogether on behalf of poor johnny eames. what was to be done in that matter? this question had been fully discussed between mrs. dale and bell, and they had come to the conclusion that it would be best to ask johnny over to a little friendly gathering, in which he might be able to meet lily with some strangers around them. in this way his embarrassment might be overcome. it would never do, as mrs. dale said, that he should be suffered to stay away, unnoticed by them. "when the ice is once broken he won't mind it," said bell. and, therefore, early in the day, a messenger was sent over to guestwick, who returned with a note from mrs. eames, saying that she would come on the evening in question, with her son and daughter. they would keep the fly and get back to guestwick the same evening. this was added, as an offer had been made of beds for mrs. eames and mary. before the evening of the party another memorable occurrence had taken place at allington, which must be described, in order that the feelings of the different people on that evening may be understood. the squire had given his nephew to understand that he wished to have that matter settled as to his niece bell; and as bernard's views were altogether in accordance with the squire's, he resolved to comply with his uncle's wishes. the project with him was not a new thing. he did love his cousin quite sufficiently for purposes of matrimony, and was minded that it would be a good thing for him to marry. he could not marry without money, but this marriage would give him an income without the trouble of intricate settlements, or the interference of lawyers hostile to his own interests. it was possible that he might do better; but then it was possible also that he might do much worse; and, in addition to this, he was fond of his cousin. he discussed the matter within himself, very calmly; made some excellent resolutions as to the kind of life which it would behove him to live as a married man; settled on the street in london in which he would have his house, and behaved very prettily to bell for four or five days running. that he did not make love to her, in the ordinary sense of the word, must, i suppose, be taken for granted, seeing that bell herself did not recognize the fact. she had always liked her cousin, and thought that in these days he was making himself particularly agreeable. on the evening before the party the girls were at the great house, having come up nominally with the intention of discussing the expediency of dancing on the lawn. lily had made up her mind that it was to be so, but bell had objected that it would be cold and damp, and that the drawing-room would be nicer for dancing. "you see we've only got four young gentlemen and one ungrown," said lily; "and they will look so stupid standing up all properly in a room, as though we had a regular party." "thank you for the compliment," said crosbie, taking off his straw hat. "so you will; and we girls will look more stupid still. but out on the lawn it won't look stupid at all. two or three might stand up on the lawn, and it would be jolly enough." "i don't quite see it," said bernard. "yes, i think i see it," said crosbie. "the unadaptability of the lawn for the purpose of a ball--" "nobody is thinking of a ball," said lily, with mock petulance. "i'm defending you, and yet you won't let me speak. the unadaptability of the lawn for the purposes of a ball will conceal the insufficiency of four men and a boy as a supply of male dancers. but, lily, who is the ungrown gentleman? is it your old friend johnny eames?" lily's voice became sobered as she answered him. "oh, no; i did not mean mr. eames. he is coming, but i did not mean him. dick boyce, mr. boyce's son, is only sixteen. he is the ungrown gentleman." "and who is the fourth adult?" "dr. crofts, from guestwick. i do hope you will like him, adolphus. we think he is the very perfection of a man." "then of course i shall hate him; and be very jealous, too!" and then that pair went off together, fighting their own little battle on that head, as turtle-doves will sometimes do. they went off, and bernard was left with bell standing together over the ha-ha fence which divides the garden at the back of the house from the field. "bell," he said, "they seem very happy, don't they?" "and they ought to be happy now, oughtn't they? dear lily! i hope he will be good to her. do you know, bernard, though he is your friend, i am very, very anxious about it. it is such a vast trust to put in a man when we do not quite know him." "yes, it is; but they'll do very well together. lily will be happy enough." "and he?" "i suppose he'll be happy, too. he'll feel himself a little straightened as to income at first, but that will all come round." "if he is not, she will be wretched." "they will do very well. lily must be prepared to make the money go as far as she can, that's all." "lily won't feel the want of money. it is not that. but if he lets her know that she has made him a poor man, then she will be unhappy. is he extravagant, bernard?" but bernard was anxious to discuss another subject, and therefore would not speak such words of wisdom as to lily's engagement as might have been expected from him had he been in a different frame of mind. "no, i should say not," said he. "but, bell--" "i do not know that we could have acted otherwise than we have done, and yet i fear that we have been rash. if he makes her unhappy, bernard, i shall never forgive you." but as she said this she put her hand lovingly upon his arm, as a cousin might do, and spoke in a tone which divested her threat of its acerbity. "you must not quarrel with me, bell, whatever may happen. i cannot afford to quarrel with you." "of course i was not in earnest as to that." "you and i must never quarrel, bell; at least, i hope not. i could bear to quarrel with any one rather than with you." and then, as he spoke, there was something in his voice which gave the girl some slight, indistinct warning of what might be his intention. not that she said to herself at once, that he was going to make her an offer of his hand,--now, on the spot; but she felt that he intended something beyond the tenderness of ordinary cousinly affection. "i hope we shall never quarrel," she said. but as she spoke, her mind was settling itself,--forming its resolution, and coming to a conclusion as to the sort of love which bernard might, perhaps, expect. and it formed another conclusion; as to the sort of love which might be given in return. "bell," he said, "you and i have always been dear friends." "yes; always." "why should we not be something more than friends?" to give captain dale his due i must declare that his voice was perfectly natural as he asked this question, and that he showed no signs of nervousness, either in his face or limbs. he had made up his mind to do it on that occasion, and he did it without any signs of outward disturbance. he asked his question, and then he waited for his answer. in this he was rather hard upon his cousin; for, though the question had certainly been asked in language that could not be mistaken, still the matter had not been put forward with all that fulness which a young lady, under such circumstances, has a right to expect. they had sat down on the turf close to the ha-ha, and they were so near that bernard was able to put out his hand with the view of taking that of his cousin within his own. but she contrived to keep her hands locked together, so that he merely held her gently by the wrist. "i don't quite understand, bernard," she said, after a minute's pause. "shall we be more than cousins? shall we be man and wife?" now, at least, she could not say that she did not understand. if the question was ever asked plainly, bernard dale had asked it plainly. shall we be man and wife? few men, i fancy, dare to put it all at once in so abrupt a way, and yet i do not know that the english language affords any better terms for the question. "oh, bernard! you have surprised me." "i hope i have not pained you, bell. i have been long thinking of this, but i am well aware that my own manner, even to you, has not been that of a lover. it is not in me to smile and say soft things, as crosbie can. but i do not love you the less on that account. i have looked about for a wife, and i have thought that if i could gain you i should be very fortunate." he did not then say anything about his uncle, and the eight hundred a year; but he fully intended to do so as soon as an opportunity should serve. he was quite of opinion that eight hundred a year and the good-will of a rich uncle were strong grounds for matrimony,--were grounds even for love; and he did not doubt but his cousin would see the matter in the same light. "you are very good to me--more than good. of course i know that. but, oh, bernard! i did not expect this a bit." "but you will answer me, bell! or if you would like time to think, or to speak to my aunt, perhaps you will answer me to-morrow?" "i think i ought to answer you now." "not if it be a refusal, bell. think well of it before you do that. i should have told you that our uncle wishes this match, and that he will remove any difficulty there might be about money." "i do not care for money." "but, as you were saying about lily, one has to be prudent. now, in our marriage, everything of that kind would be well arranged. my uncle has promised me that he would at once allow us--" "stop, bernard. you must not be led to suppose that any offer made by my uncle would help to purchase-- indeed, there can be no need for us to talk about money." "i wished to let you know the facts of the case, exactly as they are. and as to our uncle, i cannot but think that you would be glad, in such a matter, to have him on your side." "yes, i should be glad to have him on my side; that is, if i were going-- but my uncle's wishes could not influence my decision. the fact is, bernard--" "well, dearest, what is the fact?" "i have always regarded you rather as a brother than as anything else." "but that regard may be changed." "no; i think not. bernard, i will go further and speak on at once. it cannot be changed. i know myself well enough to say that with certainty. it cannot be changed." "you mean that you cannot love me?" "not as you would have me do. i do love you very dearly,--very dearly, indeed. i would go to you in any trouble, exactly as i would go to a brother." "and must that be all, bell?" "is not that all the sweetest love that can be felt? but you must not think me ungrateful, or proud. i know well that you are--are proposing to do for me much more than i deserve. any girl might be proud of such an offer. but, dear bernard--" "bell, before you give me a final answer, sleep upon this and talk it over with your mother. of course you were unprepared, and i cannot expect that you should promise me so much without a moment's consideration." "i was unprepared, and therefore i have not answered you as i should have done. but as it has gone so far, i cannot let you leave me in uncertainty. it is not necessary that i should keep you waiting. in this matter i do know my own mind. dear bernard, indeed, indeed it cannot be as you have proposed." she spoke in a low voice, and in a tone that had in it something of almost imploring humility; but, nevertheless, it conveyed to her cousin an assurance that she was in earnest; an assurance also that that earnest would not readily be changed. was she not a dale? and when did a dale change his mind? for a while he sat silent by her; and she too, having declared her intention, refrained from further words. for some minutes they thus remained, looking down into the ha-ha. she still kept her old position, holding her hands clasped together over her knees; but he was now lying on his side, supporting his head upon his arm, with his face indeed turned towards her, but with his eyes fixed upon the grass. during this time, however, he was not idle. his cousin's answer, though it had grieved him, had not come upon him as a blow stunning him for a moment, and rendering him unfit for instant thought. he was grieved, more grieved than he had thought he would have been. the thing that he had wanted moderately, he now wanted the more in that it was denied to him. but he was able to perceive the exact truth of his position, and to calculate what might be his chances if he went on with his suit, and what his advantage if he at once abandoned it. "i do not wish to press you unfairly, bell; but may i ask if any other preference--" "there is no other preference," she answered. and then again they were silent for a minute or two. "my uncle will be much grieved at this," he said at last. "if that be all," said bell, "i do not think that we need either of us trouble ourselves. he can have no right to dispose of our hearts." "i understand the taunt, bell." "dear bernard, there was no taunt. i intended none." "i need not speak of my own grief. you cannot but know how deep it must be. why should i have submitted myself to this mortification had not my heart been concerned? but that i will bear, if i must bear it--" and then he paused, looking up at her. "it will soon pass away," she said. "i will accept it at any rate without complaint. but as to my uncle's feelings, it is open to me to speak, and to you, i should think, to listen without indifference. he has been kind to us both, and loves us two above any other living beings. it's not surprising that he should wish to see us married, and it will not be surprising if your refusal should be a great blow to him." "i shall be sorry--very sorry." "i also shall be sorry. i am now speaking of him. he has set his heart upon it; and as he has but few wishes, few desires, so is he the more constant in those which he expresses. when he knows this, i fear that we shall find him very stern." "then he will be unjust." "no; he will not be unjust. he is always a just man. but he will be unhappy, and will, i fear, make others unhappy. dear bell, may not this thing remain for a while unsettled? you will not find that i take advantage of your goodness. i will not intrude it on you again,--say for a fortnight,--or till crosbie shall be gone." "no, no, no," said bell. "why are you so eager in your noes? there can be no danger in such delay. i will not press you,--and you can let my uncle think that you have at least taken time for consideration." "there are things as to which one is bound to answer at once. if i doubted myself, i would let you persuade me. but i do not doubt myself, and i should be wrong to keep you in suspense. dear, dearest bernard, it cannot be; and as it cannot be, you, as my brother, would bid me say so clearly. it cannot be." as she made this last assurance, they heard the steps of lily and her lover close to them, and they both felt that it would be well that their intercourse should thus be brought to a close. neither had known how to get up and leave the place, and yet each had felt that nothing further could then be said. "did you ever see anything so sweet and affectionate and romantic?" said lily, standing over them and looking at them. "and all the while we have been so practical and worldly. do you know, bell, that adolphus seems to think we can't very well keep pigs in london. it makes me so unhappy." "it does seem a pity," said crosbie, "for lily seems to know all about pigs." "of course i do. i haven't lived in the country all my life for nothing. oh, bernard, i should so like to see you rolled down into the bottom of the ha-ha. just remain there, and we'll do it between us." whereupon bernard got up, as did bell also, and they all went in to tea. chapter ix. mrs. dale's little party. the next day was the day of the party. not a word more was said on that evening between bell and her cousin, at least, not a word more of any peculiar note; and when crosbie suggested to his friend on the following morning that they should both step down and see how the preparations were getting on at the small house, bernard declined. "you forget, my dear fellow, that i'm not in love as you are," said he. "but i thought you were," said crosbie. "no; not at all as you are. you are an accepted lover, and will be allowed to do anything,--whip the creams, and tune the piano, if you know how. i'm only a half sort of lover, meditating a mariage de convenance to oblige an uncle, and by no means required by the terms of my agreement to undergo a very rigid amount of drill. your position is just the reverse." in saying all which captain dale was no doubt very false; but if falseness can be forgiven to a man in any position, it may be forgiven in that which he then filled. so crosbie went down to the small house alone. "dale wouldn't come," said he, speaking to the three ladies together, "i suppose he's keeping himself up for the dance on the lawn." "i hope he will be here in the evening," said mrs. dale. but bell said never a word. she had determined, that under the existing circumstances, it would be only fair to her cousin that his offer and her answer to it should be kept secret. she knew why bernard did not come across from the great house with his friend, but she said nothing of her knowledge. lily looked at her, but looked without speaking; and as for mrs. dale, she took no notice of the circumstance. thus they passed the afternoon together without further mention of bernard dale; and it may be said, at any rate of lily and crosbie, that his presence was not missed. mrs. eames, with her son and daughter, were the first to come. "it is so nice of you to come early," said lily, trying on the spur of the moment to say something which should sound pleasant and happy, but in truth using that form of welcome which to my ears sounds always the most ungracious. "ten minutes before the time named; and, of course, you must have understood that i meant thirty minutes after it!" that is my interpretation of the words when i am thanked for coming early. but mrs. eames was a kind, patient, unexacting woman, who took all civil words as meaning civility. and, indeed, lily had meant nothing else. "yes; we did come early," said mrs. eames, "because mary thought she would like to go up into the girls' room and just settle her hair, you know." "so she shall," said lily, who had taken mary by the hand. "and we knew we shouldn't be in the way. johnny can go out into the garden if there's anything left to be done." "he shan't be banished unless he likes it," said mrs. dale. "if he finds us women too much for his unaided strength--" john eames muttered something about being very well as he was, and then got himself into an arm-chair. he had shaken hands with lily, trying as he did so to pronounce articulately a little speech which he had prepared for the occasion. "i have to congratulate you, lily, and i hope with all my heart that you will be happy." the words were simple enough, and were not ill-chosen, but the poor young man never got them spoken. the word "congratulate" did reach lily's ears, and she understood it all;--both the kindness of the intended speech and the reason why it could not be spoken. "thank you, john," she said; "i hope i shall see so much of you in london. it will be so nice to have an old guestwick friend near me." she had her own voice, and the pulses of her heart better under command than had he; but she also felt that the occasion was trying to her. the man had loved her honestly and truly,--still did love her, paying her the great homage of bitter grief in that he had lost her. where is the girl who will not sympathize with such love and such grief, if it be shown only because it cannot be concealed, and be declared against the will of him who declares it? then came in old mrs. hearn, whose cottage was not distant two minutes' walk from the small house. she always called mrs. dale "my dear," and petted the girls as though they had been children. when told of lily's marriage, she had thrown up her hands with surprise, for she had still left in some corner of her drawers remnants of sugar-plums which she had bought for lily. "a london man is he? well, well. i wish he lived in the country. eight hundred a year, my dear?" she had said to mrs. dale. "that sounds nice down here, because we are all so poor. but i suppose eight hundred a year isn't very much up in london?" "the squire's coming, i suppose, isn't he?" said mrs. hearn, as she seated herself on the sofa close to mrs. dale. "yes, he'll be here by-and-by; unless he changes his mind, you know. he doesn't stand on ceremony with me." "he change his mind! when did you ever know christopher dale change his mind?" "he is pretty constant, mrs. hearn." "if he promised to give a man a penny, he'd give it. but if he promised to take away a pound, he'd take it, though it cost him years to get it. he's going to turn me out of my cottage, he says." "nonsense, mrs. hearn!" "jolliffe came and told me"--jolliffe, i should explain, was the bailiff,--"that if i didn't like it as it was, i might leave it, and that the squire could get double the rent for it. now all i asked was that he should do a little painting in the kitchen; and the wood is all as black as his hat." "i thought it was understood you were to paint inside." "how can i do it, my dear, with a hundred and forty pounds for everything? i must live, you know! and he that has workmen about him every day of the year! and was that a message to send to me, who have lived in the parish for fifty years? here he is." and mrs. hearn majestically raised herself from her seat as the squire entered the room. with him entered mr. and mrs. boyce, from the parsonage, with dick boyce, the ungrown gentleman, and two girl boyces, who were fourteen and fifteen years of age. mrs. dale, with the amount of good-nature usual on such occasions, asked reproachfully why jane, and charles, and florence, and bessy, did not come,--boyce being a man who had his quiver full of them,--and mrs. boyce, giving the usual answer, declared that she already felt that they had come as an avalanche. "but where are the--the--the young men?" asked lily, assuming a look of mock astonishment. "they'll be across in two or three hours' time," said the squire. "they both dressed for dinner, and, as i thought, made themselves very smart; but for such a grand occasion as this they thought a second dressing necessary. how do you do, mrs. hearn? i hope you are quite well. no rheumatism left, eh?" this the squire said very loud into mrs. hearn's ear. mrs. hearn was perhaps a little hard of hearing; but it was very little, and she hated to be thought deaf. she did not, moreover, like to be thought rheumatic. this the squire knew, and therefore his mode of address was not good-natured. "you needn't make me jump so, mr. dale. i'm pretty well now, thank ye. i did have a twinge in the spring,--that cottage is so badly built for draughts! 'i wonder you can live in it,' my sister said to me the last time she was over. i suppose i should be better off over with her at hamersham, only one doesn't like to move, you know, after living fifty years in one parish." "you mustn't think of going away from us," mrs. boyce said, speaking by no means loud, but slowly and plainly, hoping thereby to flatter the old woman. but the old woman understood it all. "she's a sly creature, is mrs. boyce," mrs. hearn said to mrs. dale, before the evening was out. there are some old people whom it is very hard to flatter, and with whom it is, nevertheless, almost impossible to live unless you do flatter them. at last the two heroes came in across the lawn at the drawing-room window; and lily, as they entered, dropped a low curtsey before them, gently swelling down upon the ground with her light muslin dress, till she looked like some wondrous flower that had bloomed upon the carpet, and putting her two hands, with the backs of her fingers pressed together, on the buckle of her girdle, she said, "we are waiting upon your honours' kind grace, and feel how much we owe to you for favouring our poor abode." and then she gently rose up again, smiling, oh, so sweetly, on the man she loved, and the puffings and swellings went out of her muslin. i think there is nothing in the world so pretty as the conscious little tricks of love played off by a girl towards the man she loves, when she has made up her mind boldly that all the world may know that she has given herself away to him. i am not sure that crosbie liked it all as much as he should have done. the bold assurance of her love when they two were alone together he did like. what man does not like such assurances on such occasions? but perhaps he would have been better pleased had lily shown more reticence,--been more secret, as it were, as to her feelings, when others were around them. it was not that he accused her in his thoughts of any want of delicacy. he read her character too well;--was, if not quite aright in his reading of it, at least too nearly so to admit of his making against her any such accusation as that. it was the calf-like feeling that was disagreeable to him. he did not like to be presented, even to the world of allington, as a victim caught for the sacrifice, and bound with ribbon for the altar. and then there lurked behind it all a feeling that it might be safer that the thing should not be so openly manifested before all the world. of course, everybody knew that he was engaged to lily dale; nor had he, as he said to himself, perhaps too frequently, the slightest idea of breaking from that engagement. but then the marriage might possibly be delayed. he had not discussed that matter yet with lily, having, indeed, at the first moment of his gratified love, created some little difficulty for himself by pressing for an early day. "i will refuse you nothing," she had said to him; "but do not make it too soon." he saw, therefore, before him some little embarrassment, and was inclined to wish that lily would abstain from that manner which seemed to declare to all the world that she was about to be married immediately. "i must speak to her to-morrow," he said to himself, as he accepted her salute with a mock gravity equal to her own. poor lily! how little she understood as yet what was passing through his mind. had she known his wish she would have wrapped up her love carefully in a napkin, so that no one should have seen it,--no one but he, when he might choose to have the treasure uncovered for his sight. and it was all for his sake that she had been thus open in her ways. she had seen girls who were half ashamed of their love; but she would never be ashamed of hers or of him. she had given herself to him; and now all the world might know it, if all the world cared for such knowledge. why should she be ashamed of that which, to her thinking, was so great an honour to her? she had heard of girls who would not speak of their love, arguing to themselves cannily that there may be many a slip between the cup and the lip. there could be no need of any such caution with her. there could surely be no such slip! should there be such a fall,--should any such fate, either by falseness or misfortune, come upon her,--no such caution could be of service to save her. the cup would have been so shattered in its fall that no further piecing of its parts would be in any way possible. so much as this she did not exactly say to herself; but she felt it all, and went bravely forward,--bold in her love, and careful to hide it from none who chanced to see it. they had gone through the ceremony with the cake and teacups, and had decided that, at any rate, the first dance or two should be held upon the lawn when the last of the guests arrived. "oh, adolphus, i am so glad he has come," said lily. "do try to like him." of dr. crofts, who was the new comer, she had sometimes spoken to her lover, but she had never coupled her sister's name with that of the doctor, even in speaking to him. nevertheless, crosbie had in some way conceived the idea that this crofts either had been, or was, or was to be, in love with bell; and as he was prepared to advocate his friend dale's claims in that quarter, he was not particularly anxious to welcome the doctor as a thoroughly intimate friend of the family. he knew nothing as yet of dale's offer, or of bell's refusal, but he was prepared for war, if war should be necessary. of the squire, at the present moment, he was not very fond; but if his destiny intended to give him a wife out of this family, he should prefer the owner of allington and nephew of lord de guest as a brother-in-law to a village doctor,--as he took upon himself, in his pride, to call dr. crofts. "it is very unfortunate," said he, "but i never do like paragons." "but you must like this paragon. not that he is a paragon at all, for he smokes and hunts, and does all manner of wicked things." and then she went forward to welcome her friend. dr. crofts was a slight, spare man, about five feet nine in height, with very bright dark eyes, a broad forehead, with dark hair that almost curled, but which did not come so forward over his brow as it should have done for purposes of beauty,--with a thin well-cut nose, and a mouth that would have been perfect had the lips been a little fuller. the lower part of his face, when seen alone, had in it somewhat of sternness, which, however, was redeemed by the brightness of his eyes. and yet an artist would have declared that the lower features of his face were by far the more handsome. lily went across to him and greeted him heartily, declaring how glad she was to have him there. "and i must introduce you to mr. crosbie," she said, as though she was determined to carry her point. the two men shook hands with each other, coldly, without saying a word, as young men are apt to do when they are brought together in that way. then they separated at once, somewhat to the disappointment of lily. crosbie stood off by himself, both his eyes turned up towards the ceiling, and looking as though he meant to give himself airs; while crofts got himself quickly up to the fireplace, making civil little speeches to mrs. dale, mrs. boyce, and mrs. hearn. and then at last he made his way round to bell. "i am so glad," he said, "to congratulate you on your sister's engagement." "yes," said bell; "we knew that you would be glad to hear of her happiness." "indeed, i am glad; and thoroughly hope that she may be happy. you all like him, do you not?" "we like him very much." "and i am told that he is well off. he is a very fortunate man,--very fortunate,--very fortunate." "of course we think so," said bell. "not, however, because he is rich." "no; not because he is rich. but because, being worthy of such happiness, his circumstances should enable him to marry, and to enjoy it." "yes, exactly," said bell. "that is just it." then she sat down, and in sitting down put an end to the conversation. "that is just it," she had said. but as soon as the words were spoken she declared to herself that it was not so, and that crofts was wrong. "we love him," she said to herself, "not because he is rich enough to marry without anxious thought, but because he dares to marry although he is not rich." and then she told herself that she was angry with the doctor. after that dr. crofts got off towards the door, and stood there by himself, leaning against the wall, with the thumbs of both his hands stuck into the armholes of his waistcoat. people said that he was a shy man. i suppose he was shy, and yet he was a man that was by no means afraid of doing anything that he had to do. he could speak before a multitude without being abashed, whether it was a multitude of men or of women. he could be very fixed too in his own opinion, and eager, if not violent, in the prosecution of his purpose. but he could not stand and say little words, when he had in truth nothing to say. he could not keep his ground when he felt that he was not using the ground upon which he stood. he had not learned the art of assuming himself to be of importance in whatever place he might find himself. it was this art which crosbie had learned, and by this art that he had flourished. so crofts retired and leaned against the wall near the door; and crosbie came forward and shone like an apollo among all the guests. "how is it that he does it?" said john eames to himself, envying the perfect happiness of the london man of fashion. at last lily got the dancers out upon the lawn, and then they managed to go through one quadrille. but it was found that it did not answer. the music of the single fiddle which crosbie had hired from guestwick was not sufficient for the purpose; and then the grass, though it was perfect for purposes of croquet, was not pleasant to the feet for dancing. "this is very nice," said bernard to his cousin. "i don't know anything that could be nicer; but perhaps--" "i know what you mean," said lily. "but i shall stay here. there's no touch of romance about any of you. look at the moon there at the back of the steeple. i don't mean to go in all night." then she walked off by one of the paths, and her lover went after her. "don't you like the moon?" she said, as she took his arm, to which she was now so accustomed that she hardly thought of it as she took it. "like the moon?--well; i fancy i like the sun better. i don't quite believe in moonlight. i think it does best to talk about when one wants to be sentimental." "ah; that is just what i fear. that is what i say to bell when i tell her that her romance will fade as the roses do. and then i shall have to learn that prose is more serviceable than poetry, and that the mind is better than the heart, and--and that money is better than love. it's all coming, i know; and yet i do like the moonlight." "and the poetry,--and the love?" "yes. the poetry much, and the love more. to be loved by you is sweeter even than any of my dreams,--is better than all the poetry i have read." "dearest lily," and his unchecked arm stole round her waist. "it is the meaning of the moonlight, and the essence of the poetry," continued the impassioned girl. "i did not know then why i liked such things, but now i know. it was because i longed to be loved." "and to love." "oh, yes. i would be nothing without that. but that, you know, is your delight,--or should be. the other is mine. and yet it is a delight to love you; to know that i may love you." "you mean that this is the realization of your romance." "yes; but it must not be the end of it, adolphus. you must like the soft twilight, and the long evenings when we shall be alone; and you must read to me the books i love, and you must not teach me to think that the world is hard, and dry, and cruel,--not yet. i tell bell so very often; but you must not say so to me." "it shall not be dry and cruel, if i can prevent it." "you understand what i mean, dearest. i will not think it dry and cruel, even though sorrow should come upon us, if you-- i think you know what i mean." "if i am good to you." "i am not afraid of that;--i am not the least afraid of that. you do not think that i could ever distrust you? but you must not be ashamed to look at the moonlight, and to read poetry, and to--" "to talk nonsense, you mean." but as he said it, he pressed her closer to his side, and his tone was pleasant to her. "i suppose i'm talking nonsense now?" she said, pouting. "you liked me better when i was talking about the pigs; didn't you?" "no; i like you best now." "and why didn't you like me then? did i say anything to offend you?" "i like you best now, because--" they were standing in the narrow pathway of the gate leading from the bridge into the gardens of the great house, and the shadow of the thick-spreading laurels was around them. but the moonlight still pierced brightly through the little avenue, and she, as she looked up to him, could see the form of his face and the loving softness of his eye. "because--," said he; and then he stooped over her and pressed her closely, while she put up her lips to his, standing on tip-toe that she might reach to his face. "oh, my love!" she said. "my love! my love!" as crosbie walked back to the great house that night, he made a firm resolution that no consideration of worldly welfare should ever induce him to break his engagement with lily dale. he went somewhat further also, and determined that he would not put off the marriage for more than six or eight months, or, at the most, ten, if he could possibly get his affairs arranged in that time. to be sure, he must give up everything,--all the aspirations and ambition of his life; but then, as he declared to himself somewhat mournfully, he was prepared to do that. such were his resolutions, and, as he thought of them in bed, he came to the conclusion that few men were less selfish than he was. "but what will they say to us for staying away?" said lily, recovering herself. "and i ought to be making the people dance, you know. come along, and do make yourself nice. do waltz with mary eames;--pray, do. if you don't, i won't speak to you all night!" acting under which threat, crosbie did, on his return, solicit the honour of that young lady's hand, thereby elating her into a seventh heaven of happiness. what could the world afford better than a waltz with such a partner as adolphus crosbie? and poor mary eames could waltz well; though she could not talk much as she danced, and would pant a good deal when she stopped. she put too much of her energy into the motion, and was too anxious to do the mechanical part of the work in a manner that should be satisfactory to her partner. "oh! thank you;--it's very nice. i shall be able to go on--again directly." her conversation with crosbie did not get much beyond that, and yet she felt that she had never done better than on this occasion. though there were, at most, not above five couples of dancers, and though they who did not dance, such as the squire and mr. boyce, and a curate from a neighbouring parish, had, in fact, nothing to amuse them, the affair was kept on very merrily for a considerable number of hours. exactly at twelve o'clock there was a little supper, which, no doubt, served to relieve mrs. hearn's ennui, and at which mrs. boyce also seemed to enjoy herself. as to the mrs. boyces on such occasions, i profess that i feel no pity. they are generally happy in their children's happiness, or if not, they ought to be. at any rate, they are simply performing a manifest duty, which duty, in their time, was performed on their behalf. but on what account do the mrs. hearns betake themselves to such gatherings? why did that ancient lady sit there hour after hour yawning, longing for her bed, looking every ten minutes at her watch, while her old bones were stiff and sore, and her old ears pained with the noise? it could hardly have been simply for the sake of the supper. after the supper, however, her maid took her across to her cottage, and mrs. boyce also then stole away home, and the squire went off with some little parade, suggesting to the young men that they should make no noise in the house as they returned. but the poor curate remained, talking a dull word every now and then to mrs. dale, and looking on with tantalized eyes at the joys which the world had prepared for others than him. i must say that i think that public opinion and the bishops together are too hard upon curates in this particular. in the latter part of the night's delight, when time and practice had made them all happy together, john eames stood up for the first time to dance with lily. she had done all she could, short of asking him, to induce him to do her this favour; for she felt that it would be a favour. how great had been the desire on his part to ask her, and, at the same time, how great the repugnance, lily, perhaps, did not quite understand. and yet she understood much of it. she knew that he was not angry with her. she knew that he was suffering from the injured pride of futile love, almost as much as from the futile love itself. she wished to put him at his ease in this; but she did not quite give him credit for the full sincerity, and the upright, uncontrolled heartiness of his feelings. at length he did come up to her, and though, in truth, she was engaged, she at once accepted his offer. then she tripped across the room. "adolphus," she said, "i can't dance with you, though i said i would. john eames has asked me, and i haven't stood up with him before. you understand, and you'll be a good boy, won't you?" crosbie, not being in the least jealous, was a good boy, and sat himself down to rest, hidden behind a door. for the first few minutes the conversation between eames and lily was of a very matter-of-fact kind. she repeated her wish that she might see him in london, and he said that of course he should come and call. then there was silence for a little while, and they went through their figure dancing. "i don't at all know yet when we are to be married," said lily, as soon as they were again standing together. "no; i dare say not," said eames. "but not this year, i suppose. indeed, i should say, of course not." "in the spring, perhaps," suggested eames. he had an unconscious desire that it might be postponed to some greek kalends, and yet he did not wish to injure lily. "the reason i mention it is this, that we should be so very glad if you could be here. we all love you so much, and i should so like to have you here on that day." why is it that girls so constantly do this,--so frequently ask men who have loved them to be present at their marriages with other men? there is no triumph in it. it is done in sheer kindness and affection. they intend to offer something which shall soften and not aggravate the sorrow that they have caused. "you can't marry me yourself," the lady seems to say. "but the next greatest blessing which i can offer you shall be yours,--you shall see me married to somebody else." i fully appreciate the intention, but in honest truth, i doubt the eligibility of the proffered entertainment. on the present occasion john eames seemed to be of this opinion, for he did not at once accept the invitation. "will you not oblige me so far as that?" said she softly. "i would do anything to oblige you," said he gruffly; "almost anything." "but not that?" "no; not that. i could not do that." then he went off upon his figure, and when they were next both standing together, they remained silent till their turn for dancing had again come. why was it, that after that night lily thought more of john eames than ever she had thought before;--felt for him, i mean, a higher respect, as for a man who had a will of his own? and in that quadrille crofts and bell had been dancing together, and they also had been talking of lily's marriage. "a man may undergo what he likes for himself," he had said, "but he has no right to make a woman undergo poverty." "perhaps not," said bell. "that which is no suffering for a man,--which no man should think of for himself,--will make a hell on earth for a woman." "i suppose it would," said bell, answering him without a sign of feeling in her face or voice. but she took in every word that he spoke, and disputed their truth inwardly with all the strength of her heart and mind, and with the very vehemence of her soul. "as if a woman cannot bear more than a man!" she said to herself, as she walked the length of the room alone, when she had got herself free from the doctor's arm. chapter x. mrs. lupex and amelia roper. [illustration: (untitled)] i should simply mislead a confiding reader if i were to tell him that mrs. lupex was an amiable woman. perhaps the fact that she was not amiable is the one great fault that should be laid to her charge; but that fault had spread itself so widely, and had cropped forth in so many different places of her life, like a strong rank plant that will show itself all over a garden, that it may almost be said that it made her odious in every branch of life, and detestable alike to those who knew her little and to those who knew her much. if a searcher could have got at the inside spirit of the woman, that searcher would have found that she wished to go right,--that she did make, or at any rate promise to herself that she would make, certain struggles to attain decency and propriety. but it was so natural to her to torment those whose misfortune brought them near to her, and especially that wretched man who in an evil day had taken her to his bosom as his wife, that decency fled from her, and propriety would not live in her quarters. mrs. lupex was, as i have already described her, a woman not without some feminine attraction in the eyes of those who like morning negligence and evening finery, and do not object to a long nose somewhat on one side. she was clever in her way, and could say smart things. she could flatter also, though her very flattery had always in it something that was disagreeable. and she must have had some power of will, as otherwise her husband would have escaped from her before the days of which i am writing. otherwise, also, she could hardly have obtained her footing and kept it in mrs. roper's drawing-room. for though the hundred pounds a year, either paid, or promised to be paid, was matter with mrs. roper of vast consideration, nevertheless the first three months of mrs. lupex's sojourn in burton crescent were not over before the landlady of that house was most anxiously desirous of getting herself quit of her married boarders. i shall perhaps best describe a little incident that had occurred in burton crescent during the absence of our friend eames, and the manner in which things were going on in that locality, by giving at length two letters which johnny received by post at guestwick on the morning after mrs. dale's party. one was from his friend cradell, and the other from the devoted amelia. in this instance i will give that from the gentleman first, presuming that i shall best consult my reader's wishes by keeping the greater delicacy till the last. income-tax office, september, --. my dear johnny,--we have had a terrible affair in the crescent; and i really hardly know how to tell you; and yet i must do it, for i want your advice. you know the sort of standing that i was on with mrs. lupex, and perhaps you remember what we were saying on the platform at the station. i have, no doubt, been fond of her society, as i might be of that of any other friend. i knew, of course, that she was a fine woman; and if her husband chose to be jealous, i couldn't help that. but i never intended anything wrong; and, if it was necessary, couldn't i call you as a witness to prove it? i never spoke a word to her out of mrs. roper's drawing-room; and miss spruce, or mrs. roper, or somebody has always been there. you know he drinks horribly sometimes, but i do not think he ever gets downright drunk. well, he came home last night about nine o'clock after one of these bouts. from what jemima says [jemima was mrs. roper's parlour-maid], i believe he had been at it down at the theatre for three days. we hadn't seen him since tuesday. he went straight into the parlour and sent up jemima to me, to say that he wanted to see me. mrs. lupex was in the room and heard the girl summon me, and, jumping up, she declared that if there was going to be blood shed she would leave the house. there was nobody else in the room but miss spruce, and she didn't say a word, but took her candle and went upstairs. you must own it looked very uncomfortable. what was i to do with a drunken man down in the parlour? however, she seemed to think i ought to go. "if he comes up here," said she, "i shall be the victim. you little know of what that man is capable when his wrath has been inflamed by wine!" now, i think you are aware that i am not likely to be very much afraid of any man; but why was i to be got into a row in such a way as this? i hadn't done anything. and then, if there was to be a quarrel, and anything was to come of it, as she seemed to expect,--like bloodshed, i mean, or a fight, or if he were to knock me on the head with the poker, where should i be at my office? a man in a public office, as you and i are, can't quarrel like anybody else. it was this that i felt so much at the moment. "go down to him," said she, "unless you wish to see me murdered at your feet." fisher says, that if what i say is true, they must have arranged it all between them. i don't think that; for i do believe that she really is fond of me. and then everybody knows that they never do agree about anything. but she certainly did implore me to go down to him. well, i went down; and, as i got to the bottom of the stairs, where i found jemima, i heard him walking up and down the parlour. "take care of yourself, mr. cradell," said the girl; and i could see by her face that she was in a terrible fright. at that moment i happened to see my hat on the hall table, and it occurred to me that i ought to put myself into the hands of a friend. of course, i was not afraid of that man in the dining-room; but should i have been justified in engaging in a struggle, perhaps for dear life, in mrs. roper's house? i was bound to think of her interests. so i took up my hat, and deliberately walked out of the front door. "tell him," said i to jemima, "that i'm not at home." and so i went away direct to fisher's, meaning to send him back to lupex as my friend; but fisher was at his chess-club. as i thought there was no time to be lost on such an occasion as this, i went down to the club and called him out. you know what a cool fellow fisher is. i don't suppose anything would ever excite him. when i told him the story, he said that he would sleep upon it; and i had to walk up and down before the club while he finished his game. fisher seemed to think that i might go back to burton crescent; but, of course, i knew that that would be out of the question. so it ended in my going home and sleeping on his sofa, and sending for some of my things in the morning. i wanted him to get up and see lupex before going to the office this morning. but he said it would be better to put it off, and so he will call upon him at the theatre immediately after office hours. i want you to write to me at once saying what you know about the matter. i ask you, as i don't want to lug in any of the other people at roper's. it is very uncomfortable, as i can't exactly leave her at once because of last quarter's money, otherwise i should cut and run; for the house is not the sort of place either for you or me. you may take my word for that, master johnny. and i could tell you something, too, about a. r., only i don't want to make mischief. but do you write immediately. and now i think of it, you had better write to fisher, so that he can show your letter to lupex,--just saying, that to the best of your belief there had never been anything between her and me but mere friendship; and that, of course, you, as my friend, must have known everything. whether i shall go back to roper's to-night will depend on what fisher says after the interview. good-by, old fellow! i hope you are enjoying yourself, and that l. d. is quite well.--your sincere friend, joseph cradell. john eames read this letter over twice before he opened that from amelia. he had never yet received a letter from miss roper; and felt very little of that ardour for its perusal which young men generally experience on the receipt of a first letter from a young lady. the memory of amelia was at the present moment distasteful to him; and he would have thrown the letter unopened into the fire, had he not felt it might be dangerous to do so. as regarded his friend cradell, he could not but feel ashamed of him,--ashamed of him, not for running away from mr. lupex, but for excusing his escape on false pretences. and then, at last, he opened the letter from amelia. "dearest john," it began; and as he read the words, he crumpled the paper up between his fingers. it was written in a fair female hand, with sharp points instead of curves to the letters, but still very legible, and looking as though there were a decided purport in every word of it. dearest john,--it feels so strange to me to write to you in such language as this. and yet you are dearest, and have i not a right to call you so? and are you not my own, and am not i yours? again he crunched the paper up in his hand, and, as he did so, he muttered words which i need not repeat at length. but still he went on with his letter. i know that we understand each other perfectly, and when that is the case, heart should be allowed to speak openly to heart. those are my feelings, and i believe that you will find them reciprocal in your own bosom. is it not sweet to be loved? i find it so. and, dearest john, let me assure you, with open candour, that there is no room for jealousy in this breast with regard to you. i have too much confidence for that, i can assure you, both in your honour and in my own--i would say charms, only you would call me vain. you must not suppose that i meant what i said about l. d. of course, you will be glad to see the friends of your childhood; and it would be far from your amelia's heart to begrudge you such delightful pleasure. your friends will, i hope, some day be my friends. [another crunch.] and if there be any one among them, any real l. d. whom you have specially liked, i will receive her to my heart, specially also. this assurance on the part of his amelia was too much for him, and he threw the letter from him, thinking whence he might get relief--whether from suicide or from the colonies; but presently he took it up again, and drained the bitter cup to the bottom. and if i seemed petulant to you before you went away, you must forgive your own amelia. i had nothing before me but misery for the month of your absence. there is no one here congenial to my feelings,--of course not. and you would not wish me to be happy in your absence,--would you? i can assure you, let your wishes be what they may, i never can be happy again unless you are with me. write to me one little line, and tell me that you are grateful to me for my devotion. and now, i must tell you that we have had a sad affair in the house; and i do not think that your friend mr. cradell has behaved at all well. you remember how he has been always going on with mrs. lupex. mother was quite unhappy about it, though she didn't like to say anything. of course, when a lady's name is concerned, it is particular. but lupex has become dreadful jealous during the last week; and we all knew that something was coming. she is an artful woman, but i don't think she meant anything bad--only to drive her husband to desperation. he came here yesterday in one of his tantrums, and wanted to see cradell; but he got frightened, and took his hat and went off. now, that wasn't quite right. if he was innocent, why didn't he stand his ground and explain the mistake? as mother says, it gives the house such a name. lupex swore last night that he'd be off to the income-tax office this morning, and have cradell out before all the commissioners, and clerks, and everybody. if he does that, it will get into the papers, and all london will be full of it. she would like it, i know; for all she cares for is to be talked about; but only think what it will be for mother's house. i wish you were here; for your high prudence and courage would set everything right at once,--at least, i think so. i shall count the minutes till i get an answer to this, and shall envy the postman who will have your letter before it will reach me. do write at once. if i do not hear by monday morning i shall think that something is the matter. even though you are among your dear old friends, surely you can find a moment to write to your own amelia. mother is very unhappy about this affair of the lupexes. she says that if you were here to advise her she should not mind it so much. it is very hard upon her, for she does strive to make the house respectable and comfortable for everybody. i would send my duty and love to your dear mamma, if i only knew her, as i hope i shall do one day, and to your sister, and to l. d. also, if you like to tell her how we are situated together. so, now, no more from your always affectionate sweetheart, amelia roper. poor eames did not feel the least gratified by any part of this fond letter; but the last paragraph of it was the worst. was it to be endured by him that this woman should send her love to his mother and to his sister, and even to lily dale! he felt that there was a pollution in the very mention of lily's name by such an one as amelia roper. and yet amelia roper was, as she had assured him,--his own. much as he disliked her at the present moment, he did believe that he was--her own. he did feel that she had obtained a certain property in him, and that his destiny in life would tie him to her. he had said very few words of love to her at any time--very few, at least, that were themselves of any moment; but among those few there had undoubtedly been one or two in which he had told her that he loved her. and he had written to her that fatal note! upon the whole, would it not be as well for him to go out to the great reservoir behind guestwick, by which the hamersham canal was fed with its waters, and put an end to his miserable existence? on that same day he did write a letter to fisher, and he wrote also to cradell. as to those letters he felt no difficulty. to fisher he declared his belief that cradell was innocent as he was himself as regarded mrs. lupex. "i don't think he is the sort of man to make up to a married woman," he said, somewhat to cradell's displeasure, when the letter reached the income-tax office; for that gentleman was not averse to the reputation for success in love which the little adventure was, as he thought, calculated to give him among his brother clerks. at the first bursting of the shell, when that desperately jealous man was raging in the parlour, incensed by the fumes both of wine and love, cradell had felt that the affair was disagreeably painful. but on the morning of the third day--for he had passed two nights on his friend fisher's sofa--he had begun to be somewhat proud of it, and did not dislike to hear mrs. lupex's name in the mouths of the other clerks. when, therefore, fisher read to him the letter from guestwick, he hardly was pleased with his friend's tone. "ha, ha, ha," said he, laughing. "that's just what i wanted him to say. make up to a married woman, indeed. no; i'm the last man in london to do that sort of thing." "upon my word, caudle, i think you are," said fisher; "the very last man." and then poor cradell was not happy. on that afternoon he boldly went to burton crescent, and ate his dinner there. neither mr. nor mrs. lupex were to be seen, nor were their names mentioned to him by mrs. roper. in the course of the evening he did pluck up courage to ask miss spruce where they were; but that ancient lady merely shook her head solemnly, and declared that she knew nothing about such goings on--no, not she. but what was john eames to do as to that letter from amelia roper? he felt that any answer to it would be very dangerous, and yet that he could not safely leave it unanswered. he walked off by himself across guestwick common, and through the woods of guestwick manor, up by the big avenue of elms in lord de guest's park, trying to resolve how he might rescue himself from this scrape. here, over the same ground, he had wandered scores of times in his earlier years, when he knew nothing beyond the innocency of his country home, thinking of lily dale, and swearing to himself that she should be his wife. here he had strung together his rhymes, and fed his ambition with high hopes, building gorgeous castles in the air, in all of which lilian reigned as a queen; and though in those days he had known himself to be awkward, poor, uncared for by any in the world except his mother and his sister, yet he had been happy in his hopes--happy in his hopes, even though he had never taught himself really to believe that they would be realized. but now there was nothing in his hopes or thoughts to make him happy. everything was black, and wretched, and ruinous. what would it matter, after all, even if he should marry amelia roper, seeing that lily was to be given to another? but then the idea of amelia as he had seen her that night through the chink in the door came upon his memory, and he confessed to himself that life with such a wife as that would be a living death. at one moment he thought that he would tell his mother everything, and leave her to write an answer to amelia's letter. should the worst come to the worst, the ropers could not absolutely destroy him. that they could bring an action against him, and have him locked up for a term of years, and dismissed from his office, and exposed in all the newspapers, he seemed to know. that might all, however, be endured, if only the gauntlet could be thrown down for him by some one else. the one thing which he felt that he could not do was, to write to a girl whom he had professed to love, and tell her that he did not love her. he knew that he could not himself form such words upon the paper; nor, as he was well aware, could he himself find the courage to tell her to her face that he had changed his mind. he knew that he must become the victim of his amelia, unless he could find some friendly knight to do battle in his favour; and then again he thought of his mother. but when he returned home he was as far as ever from any resolve to tell her how he was situated. i may say that his walk had done him no good, and that he had not made up his mind to anything. he had been building those pernicious castles in the air during more than half the time; not castles in the building of which he could make himself happy, as he had done in the old days, but black castles, with cruel dungeons, into which hardly a ray of light could find its way. in all these edifices his imagination pictured to him lily as the wife of mr. crosbie. he accepted that as a fact, and then went to work in his misery, making her as wretched as himself, through the misconduct and harshness of her husband. he tried to think, and to resolve what he would do; but there is no task so hard as that of thinking, when the mind has an objection to the matter brought before it. the mind, under such circumstances, is like a horse that is brought to the water, but refuses to drink. so johnny returned to his home, still doubting whether or no he would answer amelia's letter. and if he did not answer it, how would he conduct himself on his return to burton crescent? i need hardly say that miss roper, in writing her letter, had been aware of all this, and that johnny's position had been carefully prepared for him by--his affectionate sweetheart. chapter xi. social life. mr. and mrs. lupex had eaten a sweetbread together in much connubial bliss on that day which had seen cradell returning to mrs. roper's hospitable board. they had together eaten a sweetbread, with some other delicacies of the season, in the neighbourhood of the theatre, and had washed down all unkindness with bitter beer and brandy-and-water. but of this reconciliation cradell had not heard; and when he saw them come together into the drawing-room, a few minutes after the question he had addressed to miss spruce, he was certainly surprised. lupex was not an ill-natured man, nor one naturally savage by disposition. he was a man fond of sweetbread and little dinners, and one to whom hot brandy-and-water was too dear. had the wife of his bosom been a good helpmate to him, he might have gone through the world, if not respectably, at any rate without open disgrace. but she was a woman who left a man no solace except that to be found in brandy-and-water. for eight years they had been man and wife; and sometimes--i grieve to say it--he had been driven almost to hope that she would commit a married woman's last sin, and leave him. in his misery, any mode of escape would have been welcome to him. had his energy been sufficient he would have taken his scene-painting capabilities off to australia,--or to the farthest shifting of scenes known on the world's stage. but he was an easy, listless, self-indulgent man; and at any moment, let his misery be as keen as might be, a little dinner, a few soft words, and a glass of brandy-and-water would bring him round. the second glass would make him the fondest husband living; but the third would restore to him the memory of all his wrongs, and give him courage against his wife or all the world,--even to the detriment of the furniture around him, should a stray poker chance to meet his hand. all these peculiarities of his character were not, however, known to cradell; and when our friend saw him enter the drawing-room with his wife on his arm, he was astonished. "mr. cradell, your hand," said lupex, who had advanced as far as the second glass of brandy-and-water, but had not been allowed to go beyond it. "there has been a misunderstanding between us; let it be forgotten." [illustration: "mr. cradell, your hand," said lupex.] "mr. cradell, if i know him," said the lady, "is too much the gentleman to bear any anger when a gentleman has offered him his hand." "oh, i'm sure," said cradell, "i'm quite--indeed, i'm delighted to find there's nothing wrong after all." and then he shook hands with both of them; whereupon miss spruce got up, curtseyed low, and also shook hands with the husband and wife. "you're not a married man, mr. cradell," said lupex, "and, therefore, you cannot understand the workings of a husband's heart. there have been moments when my regard for that woman has been too much for me." "now, lupex, don't," said she, playfully tapping him with an old parasol which she still held. "and i do not hesitate to say that my regard for her was too much for me on that night when i sent for you to the dining-room." "i'm glad it's all put right now," said cradell. "very glad, indeed," said miss spruce. "and, therefore, we need not say any more about it," said mrs. lupex. "one word," said lupex, waving his hand. "mr. cradell, i greatly rejoice that you did not obey my summons on that night. had you done so,--i confess it now,--had you done so, blood would have been the consequence. i was mistaken. i acknowledge my mistake;--but blood would have been the consequence." "dear, dear, dear," said miss spruce. "miss spruce," continued lupex, "there are moments when the heart becomes too strong for a man." "i dare say," said miss spruce. "now, lupex, that will do," said his wife. "yes; that will do. but i think it right to tell mr. cradell that i am glad he did not come to me. your friend, mr. cradell, did me the honour of calling on me at the theatre yesterday, at half-past four; but i was in the slings then, and could not very well come down to him. i shall be happy to see you both any day at five, and to bury all unkindness with a chop and glass at the pot and poker, in bow-street." "i'm sure you're very kind," said cradell. "and mrs. lupex will join us. there's a delightful little snuggery upstairs at the pot and poker; and if miss spruce will condescend to--" "oh, i'm an old woman, sir." "no--no--no," said lupex, "i deny that. come, cradell, what do you say?--just a snug little dinner for four, you know." it was, no doubt, pleasant to see mr. lupex in his present mood,--much pleasanter than in that other mood of which blood would have been the consequence; but pleasant as he now was, it was, nevertheless, apparent that he was not quite sober. cradell, therefore, did not settle the day for the little dinner; but merely remarked that he should be very happy at some future day. "and now, lupex, suppose you get off to bed," said his wife. "you've had a very trying day, you know." "and you, ducky?" "i shall come presently. now don't be making a fool of yourself, but get yourself off. come--" and she stood close up against the open door, waiting for him to pass. "i rather think i shall remain where i am, and have a glass of something hot," said he. "lupex, do you want to aggravate me again?" said the lady, and she looked at him with a glance of her eye which he thoroughly understood. he was not in a humour for fighting, nor was he at present desirous of blood; so he resolved to go. but as he went he prepared himself for new battles. "i shall do something desperate, i am sure; i know i shall," he said, as he pulled off his boots. "oh, mr. cradell," said mrs. lupex as soon as she had closed the door behind her retreating husband, "how am i ever to look you in the face again after the events of these last memorable days?" and then she seated herself on the sofa, and hid her face in a cambric handkerchief. "as for that," said cradell, "what does it signify,--among friends like us, you know?" "but that it should be known at your office,--as of course it is, because of the gentleman that went down to him at the theatre!--i don't think i shall ever survive it." "you see i was obliged to send somebody, mrs. lupex." "i'm not finding fault, mr. cradell. i know very well that in my melancholy position i have no right to find fault, and i don't pretend to understand gentlemen's feelings towards each other. but to have had my name mentioned up with yours in that way is-- oh! mr. cradell, i don't know how i'm ever to look you in the face again." and again she buried hers in her pocket-handkerchief. "handsome is as handsome does," said miss spruce; and there was that in her tone of voice which seemed to convey much hidden meaning. "exactly so, miss spruce," said mrs. lupex; "and that's my only comfort at the present moment. mr. cradell is a gentleman who would scorn to take advantage--i'm quite sure of that." and then she did contrive to look at him over the edge of the hand which held the handkerchief. "that i wouldn't, i'm sure," said cradell. "that is to say--" and then he paused. he did not wish to get into a scrape about mrs. lupex. he was by no means anxious to encounter her husband in one of his fits of jealousy. but he did like the idea of being talked of as the admirer of a married woman, and he did like the brightness of the lady's eyes. when the unfortunate moth in his semi-blindness whisks himself and his wings within the flame of the candle, and finds himself mutilated and tortured, he even then will not take the lesson, but returns again and again till he is destroyed. such a moth was poor cradell. there was no warmth to be got by him from that flame. there was no beauty in the light,--not even the false brilliance of unhallowed love. injury might come to him,--a pernicious clipping of the wings, which might destroy all power of future flight; injury, and not improbably destruction, if he should persevere. but one may say that no single hour of happiness could accrue to him from his intimacy with mrs. lupex. he felt for her no love. he was afraid of her, and, in many respects, disliked her. but to him, in his moth-like weakness, ignorance, and blindness, it seemed to be a great thing that he should be allowed to fly near the candle. oh! my friends, if you will but think of it, how many of you have been moths, and are now going about ungracefully with wings more or less burnt off, and with bodies sadly scorched! but before mr. cradell could make up his mind whether or no he would take advantage of the present opportunity for another dip into the flame of the candle,--in regard to which proceeding, however, he could not but feel that the presence of miss spruce was objectionable,--the door of the room was opened, and amelia roper joined the party. "oh, indeed; mrs. lupex," she said. "and mr. cradell!" "and miss spruce, my dear," said mrs. lupex, pointing to the ancient lady. "i'm only an old woman," said miss spruce. "oh, yes; i see miss spruce," said amelia. "i was not hinting at anything, i can assure you." "i should think not, my dear," said mrs. lupex. "only i didn't know that you two were quite-- that is, when last i heard about it, i fancied-- but if the quarrel's made up, there's nobody more rejoiced than i am." "the quarrel is made up," said cradell. "if mr. lupex is satisfied, i'm sure i am," said amelia. "mr. lupex is satisfied," said mrs. lupex; "and let me tell you, my dear, seeing that you are expecting to get married yourself--" "mrs. lupex, i'm not expecting to get married,--not particularly, by any means." "oh, i thought you were. and let me tell you, that when you've got a husband of your own, you won't find it so easy to keep everything straight. that's the worst of these lodgings; if there is any little thing, everybody knows it. don't they, miss spruce?" "lodgings is so much more comfortable than housekeeping," said miss spruce, who lived rather in fear of her relatives, the ropers. "everybody knows it; does he?" said amelia. "why, if a gentleman will come home at night tipsy and threaten to murder another gentleman in the same house; and if a lady--" and then amelia paused, for she knew that the line-of-battle ship which she was preparing to encounter had within her much power of fighting. "well, miss," said mrs. lupex, getting on her feet, "and what of the lady?" now we may say that the battle had begun, and that the two ships were pledged by the general laws of courage and naval warfare to maintain the contest till one of them should be absolutely disabled, if not blown up or sunk. and at this moment it might be difficult for a bystander to say with which of the combatants rested the better chance of permanent success. mrs. lupex had doubtless on her side more matured power, a habit of fighting which had given her infinite skill, a courage which deadened her to the feeling of all wounds while the heat of the battle should last, and a recklessness which made her almost indifferent whether she sank or swam. but then amelia carried the greater guns, and was able to pour in heavier metal than her enemy could use; and she, too, swam in her own waters. should they absolutely come to grappling and boarding, amelia would no doubt have the best of it; but mrs. lupex would probably be too crafty to permit such a proceeding as that. she was, however, ready for the occasion, and greedy for the fight. "and what of the lady?" said she, in a tone of voice that admitted of no pacific rejoinder. "a lady, if she is a lady," said amelia, "will know how to behave herself." "and you're going to teach me, are you, miss roper? i'm sure i'm ever so much obliged to you. it's manchester manners, i suppose, that you prefer?" "i prefer honest manners, mrs. lupex, and decent manners, and manners that won't shock a whole house full of people; and i don't care whether they come from manchester or london." "milliner's manners, i suppose?" "i don't care whether they are milliner's manners or theatrical, mrs. lupex, as long as they're not downright bad manners--as yours are, mrs. lupex. and now you've got it. what are you going on for in this way with that young man, till you'll drive your husband into a madhouse with drink and jealousy?" "miss roper! miss roper!" said cradell; "now really--" "don't mind her, mr. cradell," said mrs. lupex; "she's not worthy for you to speak to. and as to that poor fellow eames, if you've any friendship for him, you'll let him know what she is. my dear, how's mr. juniper, of grogram's house, at salford? i know all about you, and so shall john eames, too--poor unfortunate fool of a fellow! telling me of drink and jealousy, indeed!" "yes, telling you! and now you've, mentioned mr. juniper's name, mr. eames, and mr. cradell too, may know the whole of it. there's been nothing about mr. juniper that i'm ashamed of." "it would be difficult to make you ashamed of anything, i believe." "but let me tell you this, mrs. lupex, you're not going to destroy the respectability of this house by your goings on." "it was a bad day for me when i let lupex bring me into it." "then pay your bill, and walk out of it," said amelia, waving her hand towards the door. "i'll undertake to say there shan't be any notice required. only you pay mother what you owe, and you're free to go at once." "i shall go just when i please, and not one hour before. who are you, you gipsy, to speak to me in this way?" "and as for going, go you shall, if we have to call in the police to make you." amelia, as at this period of the fight she stood fronting her foe with her arms akimbo, certainly seemed to have the best of the battle. but the bitterness of mrs. lupex's tongue had hardly yet produced its greatest results. i am inclined to think that the married lady would have silenced her who was single, had the fight been allowed to rage,--always presuming that no resort to grappling-irons took place. but at this moment mrs. roper entered the room, accompanied by her son, and both the combatants for a moment retreated. "amelia, what's all this?" said mrs. roper, trying to assume a look of agonized amazement. "ask mrs. lupex," said amelia. "and mrs. lupex will answer," said that lady. "your daughter has come in here, and attacked me--in such language--before mr. cradell, too--" "why doesn't she pay what she owes, and leave the house?" said amelia. "hold your tongue," said her brother. "what she owes is no affair of yours." "but it's an affair of mine, when i'm insulted by such a creature as that." "creature!" said mrs. lupex. "i'd like to know which is most like a creature! but i'll tell you, what it is, amelia roper--" here, however, her eloquence was stopped, for amelia had disappeared through the door, having been pushed out of the room by her brother. whereupon mrs. lupex, having found a sofa convenient for the service, betook herself to hysterics. there for the moment we will leave her, hoping that poor mrs. roper was not kept late out of her bed. "what a deuce of a mess eames will make of it if he marries that girl!" such was cradell's reflection as he betook himself to his own room. but of his own part in the night's transactions he was rather proud than otherwise, feeling that the married lady's regard for him had been the cause of the battle which had raged. so, likewise, did paris derive much gratification from the ten years' siege of troy. chapter xii. lilian dale becomes a butterfly. and now we will go back to allington. the same morning that brought to john eames the two letters which were given in the last chapter but one, brought to the great house, among others, the following epistle for adolphus crosbie. it was from a countess, and was written on pink paper, beautifully creamlaid and scented, ornamented with a coronet and certain singularly-entwined initials. altogether, the letter was very fashionable and attractive, and adolphus crosbie was by no means sorry to receive it. courcy castle, september, --. my dear mr. crosbie,--we have heard of you from the gazebees, who have come down to us, and who tell us that you are rusticating at a charming little village, in which, among other attractions, there are wood nymphs and water nymphs, to whom much of your time is devoted. as this is just the thing for your taste, i would not for worlds disturb you; but if you should ever tear yourself away from the groves and fountains of allington, we shall be delighted to welcome you here, though you will find us very unromantic after your late elysium. lady dumbello is coming to us, who i know is a favourite of yours. or is it the other way, and are you a favourite of hers? i did ask lady hartletop, but she cannot get away from the poor marquis, who is, you know, so very infirm. the duke isn't at gatherum at present, but, of course, i don't mean that that has anything to do with dear lady hartletop's not coming to us. i believe we shall have the house full, and shall not want for nymphs either, though i fear they will not be of the wood and water kind. margaretta and alexandrina particularly want you to come, as they say you are so clever at making a houseful of people go off well if you can give us a week before you go back to manage the affairs of the nation, pray do. yours very sincerely, rosina de courcy. the countess de courcy was a very old friend of mr. crosbie's; that is to say, as old friends go in the world in which he had been living. he had known her for the last six or seven years, and had been in the habit of going to all her london balls, and dancing with her daughters everywhere, in a most good-natured and affable way. he had been intimate, from old family relations, with mr. mortimer gazebee, who, though only an attorney of the more distinguished kind, had married the countess's eldest daughter, and now sat in parliament for the city of barchester, near to which courcy castle was situated. and, to tell the truth honestly at once, mr. crosbie had been on terms of great friendship with lady de courcy's daughters, the ladies margaretta and alexandrina--perhaps especially so with the latter, though i would not have my readers suppose by my saying so that anything more tender than friendship had ever existed between them. crosbie said nothing about the letter on that morning; but during the day, or, perhaps, as he thought over the matter in bed, he made up his mind that he would accept lady de courcy's invitation. it was not only that he would be glad to see the gazebees, or glad to stay in the same house with that great master in the high art of fashionable life, lady dumbello, or glad to renew his friendship with the ladies margaretta and alexandrina. had he felt that the circumstances of his engagement with lily made it expedient for him to stay with her till the end of his holidays, he could have thrown over the de courcys without a struggle. but he told himself that it would be well for him now to tear himself away from lily; or perhaps he said that it would be well for lily that he should be torn away. he must not teach her to think that they were to live only in the sunlight of each other's eyes during those months, or perhaps years, which must elapse before their engagement could be carried out. nor must he allow her to suppose that either he or she were to depend solely upon the other for the amusements and employments of life. in this way he argued the matter very sensibly within his own mind, and resolved, without much difficulty, that he would go to courcy castle, and bask for a week in the sunlight of the fashion which would be collected there. the quiet humdrum of his own fireside would come upon him soon enough! "i think i shall leave you on wednesday, sir," crosbie said to the squire at breakfast on sunday morning. "leave us on wednesday!" said the squire, who had an old-fashioned idea that people who were engaged to marry each other should remain together as long as circumstances could be made to admit of their doing so. "nothing wrong, is there?" "o dear, no! but everything must come to an end some day; and as i must make one or two short visits before i get back to town, i might as well go on wednesday. indeed, i have made it as late as i possibly could." "where do you go from here?" asked bernard. "well, as it happens, only into the next county,--to courcy castle." and then there was nothing more said about the matter at that breakfast-table. it had become their habit to meet together on the sunday mornings before church, on the lawn belonging to the small house, and on this day the three gentlemen walked down together, and found lily and bell already waiting for them. they generally had some few minutes to spare on those occasions before mrs. dale summoned them to pass through the house to church, and such was the case at present. the squire at these times would stand in the middle of the grass-plot, surveying his grounds, and taking stock of the shrubs, and flowers, and fruit-trees round him; for he never forgot that it was all his own, and would thus use this opportunity, as he seldom came down to see the spot on other days. mrs. dale, as she would see him from her own window while she was tying on her bonnet, would feel that she knew what was passing through his mind, and would regret that circumstances had forced her to be beholden to him for such assistance. but, in truth, she did not know all that he thought at such times. "it is mine," he would say to himself, as he looked around on the pleasant place. "but it is well for me that they should enjoy it. she is my brother's widow, and she is welcome;--very welcome." i think that if those two persons had known more than they did of each other's hearts and minds they might have loved each other better. and then crosbie told lily of his intention. "on wednesday!" she said, turning almost pale with emotion as she heard this news. he had told her abruptly, not thinking, probably, that such tidings would affect her so strongly. "well, yes. i have written to lady de courcy and said wednesday. it wouldn't do for me exactly to drop everybody, and perhaps--" "oh, no! and, adolphus, you don't suppose i begrudge your going. only it does seem so sudden; does it not?" "you see, i've been here over six weeks." "yes; you've been very good. when i think of it, what a six weeks it has been! i wonder whether the difference seems to you as great as it does to me. i've left off being a grub, and begun to be a butterfly." "but you mustn't be a butterfly when you're married, lily." "no; not in that sense. but i meant that my real position in the world,--that for which i would fain hope that i was created,--opened to me only when i knew you and knew that you loved me. but mamma is calling us, and we must go through to church. going on wednesday! there are only three days more, then!" "yes, just three days," he said, as he took her on his arm and passed through the house on to the road. "and when are we to see you again?" she asked, as they reached the churchyard. "ah, who is to say that yet? we must ask the chairman of committees when he will let me go again." then there was nothing more said, and they all followed the squire through the little porch and up to the big family-pew in which they all sat. here the squire took his place in one special corner which he had occupied ever since his father's death, and from which he read the responses loudly and plainly,--so loudly and plainly, that the parish clerk could by no means equal him, though with emulous voice he still made the attempt. "t' squire'd like to be squire, and parson, and clerk, and everything; so a would," the poor clerk would say, when complaining of the ill-usage which he suffered. if lily's prayers were interrupted by her new sorrow, i think that her fault in that respect would be forgiven. of course she had known that crosbie was not going to remain at allington much longer. she knew quite as well as he did the exact day on which his leave of absence came to its end, and the hour at which it behoved him to walk into his room at the general committee office. she had taught herself to think that he would remain with them up to the end of his vacation, and now she felt as a schoolboy would feel who was told suddenly, a day or two before the time, that the last week of his holidays was to be taken from him. the grievance would have been slight had she known it from the first; but what schoolboy could stand such a shock, when the loss amounted to two-thirds of his remaining wealth? lily did not blame her lover. she did not even think that he ought to stay. she would not allow herself to suppose that he could propose anything that was unkind. but she felt her loss, and more than once, as she knelt at her prayers, she wiped a hidden tear from her eyes. crosbie also was thinking of his departure more than he should have done during mr. boyce's sermon. "it's easy listening to him," mrs. hearn used to say of her husband's successor. "it don't give one much trouble following him into his arguments." mr. crosbie perhaps found the difficulty greater than did mrs. hearn, and would have devoted his mind more perfectly to the discourse had the argument been deeper. it is very hard, that necessity of listening to a man who says nothing. on this occasion crosbie ignored the necessity altogether, and gave up his mind to the consideration of what it might be expedient that he should say to lily before he went. he remembered well those few words which he had spoken in the first ardour of his love, pleading that an early day might be fixed for their marriage. and he remembered, also, how prettily lily had yielded to him. "only do not let it be too soon," she had said. now he must unsay what he had then said. he must plead against his own pleadings, and explain to her that he desired to postpone the marriage rather than to hasten it--a task which, i presume, must always be an unpleasant one for any man engaged to be married. "i might as well do it at once," he said to himself, as he bobbed his head forward into his hands by way of returning thanks for the termination of mr. boyce's sermon. as he had only three days left, it was certainly as well that he should do this at once. seeing that lily had no fortune, she could not in justice complain of a prolonged engagement. that was the argument which he used in his own mind. but he as often told himself that she would have very great ground of complaint if she were left for a day unnecessarily in doubt as to this matter. why had he rashly spoken those hasty words to her in his love, betraying himself into all manner of scrapes, as a schoolboy might do, or such a one as johnny eames? what an ass he had been not to have remembered himself and to have been collected,--not to have bethought himself on the occasion of all that might be due to adolphus crosbie! and then the idea came upon him whether he had not altogether made himself an ass in this matter. and as he gave his arm to lily outside the church-door, he shrugged his shoulders while making that reflection. "it is too late now," he said to himself; and then turned round and made some sweet little loving speech to her. adolphus crosbie was a clever man; and he meant also to be a true man,--if only the temptations to falsehood might not be too great for him. "lily," he said to her, "will you walk in the fields after lunch?" walk in the fields with him! of course she would. there were only three days left, and would she not give up to him every moment of her time, if he would accept of all her moments? and then they lunched at the small house, mrs. dale having promised to join the dinner-party at the squire's table. the squire did not eat any lunch, excusing himself on the plea that lunch in itself was a bad thing. "he can eat lunch at his own house," mrs. dale afterwards said to bell. "and i've often seen him take a glass of sherry." while thinking of this, mrs. dale made her own dinner. if her brother-in-law would not eat at her board, neither would she eat at his. and then in a few minutes lily had on her hat, in place of that decorous, church-going bonnet which crosbie was wont to abuse with a lover's privilege, feeling well assured that he might say what he liked of the bonnet as long as he would praise the hat. "only three days," she said, as she walked down with him across the lawn at a quick pace. but she said it in a voice which made no complaint,--which seemed to say simply this,--that as the good time was to be so short, they must make the most of it. and what compliment could be paid to a man so sweet as that? what flattery could be more gratifying? all my earthly heaven is with you; and now, for the delight of these immediately present months or so, there are left to me but three days of this heaven! come, then; i will make the most of what happiness is given to me. crosbie felt it all as she felt it, and recognized the extent of the debt he owed her. "i'll come down to them for a day at christmas, though it be only for a day," he said to himself. then he reflected that as such was his intention, it might be well for him to open his present conversation with a promise to that effect. "yes, lily; there are only three days left now. but i wonder whether--i suppose you'll all be at home at christmas?" "at home at christmas?--of course we shall be at home. you don't mean to say you'll come to us!" "well; i think i will, if you'll have me." "oh! that will make such a difference. let me see. that will only be three months. and to have you here on christmas day! i would sooner have you then than on any other day in the year." "it will only be for one day, lily. i shall come to dinner on christmas eve, and must go away the day after." "but you will come direct to our house!" "if you can spare me a room." "of course we can. so we could now. only when you came, you know--" then she looked up into his face and smiled. "when i came, i was the squire's friend and your cousin's, rather than yours. but that's all changed now." "yes; you're my friend now,--mine specially. i'm to be now and always your own special, dearest friend;--eh, adolphus?" and then she exacted from him the repetition of the promise which he had so often given her. by this time they had passed through the grounds of the great house and were in the fields. "lily," said he, speaking rather suddenly, and making her feel by his manner that something of importance was to be said; "i want to say a few words to you about,--business." and he gave a little laugh as he spoke the last word, making her fully understand that he was not quite at his ease. "of course i'll listen. and, adolphus, pray don't be afraid about me. what i mean is, don't think that i can't bear cares and troubles. i can bear anything as long as you love me. i say that because i'm afraid i seemed to complain about your going. i didn't mean to." "i never thought you complained, dearest. nothing can be better than you are at all times and in every way. a man would be very hard to please if you didn't please him." "if i can only please you--" "you do please me, in everything. dear lily, i think i found an angel when i found you. but now about this business. perhaps i'd better tell you everything." "oh, yes, tell me everything." "but then you mustn't misunderstand me. and if i talk about money, you mustn't suppose that it has anything to do with my love for you." "i wish for your sake that i wasn't such a little pauper." "what i mean to say is this, that if i seem to be anxious about money, you must not suppose that that anxiety bears any reference whatever to my affection for you. i should love you just the same, and look forward just as much to my happiness in marrying you, whether you were rich or poor. you understand that?" she did not quite understand him; but she merely pressed his arm, so as to encourage him to go on. she presumed that he intended to tell her something as to their future mode of life--something which he supposed it might not be pleasant for her to hear, and she was determined to show him that she would receive it pleasantly. "you know," said he, "how anxious i have been that our marriage should not be delayed. to me, of course, it must be everything now to call you my own as soon as possible." in answer to which little declaration of love, she merely pressed his arm again, the subject being one on which she had not herself much to say. "of course i must be very anxious, but i find it not so easy as i expected." "you know what i said, adolphus. i said that i thought we had better wait. i'm sure mamma thinks so. and if we can only see you now and then--" "that will be a matter of course. but, as i was saying-- let me see. yes,--all that waiting will be intolerable to me. it is such a bore for a man when he has made up his mind on such a matter as marriage, not to make the change at once, especially when he is going to take to himself such a little angel as you are," and as he spoke these loving words, his arm was again put round her waist; "but--" and then he stopped. he wanted to make her understand that this change of intention on his part was caused by the unexpected misconduct of her uncle. he desired that she should know exactly how the matter stood; that he had been led to suppose that her uncle would give her some small fortune; that he had been disappointed, and had a right to feel the disappointment keenly; and that in consequence of this blow to his expectations, he must put off his marriage. but he wished her also to understand at the same time that this did not in the least mar his love for her; that he did not join her at all in her uncle's fault. all this he was anxious to convey to her, but he did not know how to get it said in a manner that would not be offensive to her personally, and that should not appear to accuse himself of sordid motives. he had begun by declaring that he would tell her all; but sometimes it is not easy, that task of telling a person everything. there are things which will not get themselves told. "you mean, dearest," said she, "that you cannot afford to marry at once." "yes; that is it. i had expected that i should be able, but--" did any man in love ever yet find himself able to tell the lady whom he loved that he was very much disappointed on discovering that she had got no money? if so, his courage, i should say, was greater than his love. crosbie found himself unable to do it, and thought himself cruelly used because of the difficulty. the delay to which he intended to subject her was occasioned, as he felt, by the squire, and not by himself. he was ready to do his part, if only the squire had been willing to do the part which properly belonged to him. the squire would not; and, therefore, neither could he,--not as yet. justice demanded that all this should be understood; but when he came to the telling of it, he found that the story would not form itself properly. he must let the thing go, and bear the injustice, consoling himself as best he might by the reflection that he at least was behaving well in the matter. "it won't make me unhappy, adolphus." "will it not?" said he. "as regards myself, i own that i cannot bear the delay with so much indifference." "nay, my love; but you should not misunderstand me," she said, stopping and facing him on the path in which they were walking. "i suppose i ought to protest, according to the common rules, that i would rather wait. young ladies are expected to say so. if you were pressing me to marry at once, i should say so, no doubt. but now, as it is, i will be more honest. i have only one wish in the world, and that is, to be your wife,--to be able to share everything with you. the sooner we can be together the better it will be,--at any rate, for me. there; will that satisfy you?" "my own, own lily!" "yes, your own lily. you shall have no cause to doubt me, dearest. but i do not expect that i am to have everything exactly as i want it. i say again, that i shall not be unhappy in waiting. how can i be unhappy while i feel certain of your love? i was disappointed just now when you said that you were going so soon; and i am afraid i showed it. but those little things are more unendurable than the big things." "yes; that's very true." "but there are three more days, and i mean to enjoy them so much! and then you will write to me: and you will come at christmas. and next year, when you have your holiday, you will come down to us again; will you not?" "you may be quite sure of that." "and so the time will go by till it suits you to come and take me. i shall not be unhappy." "i, at any rate, shall be impatient." "ah, men always are impatient. it is one of their privileges, i suppose. and i don't think that a man ever has the same positive and complete satisfaction in knowing that he is loved, which a girl feels. you are my bird that i have shot with my own gun; and the assurance of my success is sufficient for my happiness." "you have bowled me over, and know that i can't get up again." "i don't know about can't. i would let you up quick enough, if you wished it." how he made his loving assurance that he did not wish it, never would or could wish it, the reader will readily understand. and then he considered that he might as well leave all those money questions as they now stood. his real object had been to convince her that their joint circumstances did not admit of an immediate marriage; and as to that she completely understood him. perhaps, during the next three days, some opportunity might arise for explaining the whole matter to mrs. dale. at any rate, he had declared his own purpose honestly, and no one could complain of him. on the following day they all rode over to guestwick together,--the all consisting of the two girls, with bernard and crosbie. their object was to pay two visits,--one to their very noble and highly exalted ally, the lady julia de guest; and the other to their much humbler and better known friend, mrs. eames. as guestwick manor lay on their road into the town, they performed the grander ceremony the first. the present earl de guest, brother of that lady fanny who ran away with major dale, was an unmarried nobleman, who devoted himself chiefly to the breeding of cattle. and as he bred very good cattle, taking infinite satisfaction in the employment, devoting all his energies thereto, and abstaining from all prominently evil courses, it should be acknowledged that he was not a bad member of society. he was a thorough-going old tory, whose proxy was always in the hand of the leader of his party; and who seldom himself went near the metropolis, unless called thither by some occasion of cattle-showing. he was a short, stumpy man, with red cheeks and a round face; who was usually to be seen till dinner-time dressed in a very old shooting coat, with breeches, gaiters, and very thick shoes. he lived generally out of doors, and was almost as great in the preserving of game as in the breeding of oxen. he knew every acre of his own estate, and every tree upon it, as thoroughly as a lady knows the ornaments in her drawing-room. there was no gap in a fence of which he did not remember the exact bearings, no path hither or thither as to which he could not tell the why and the wherefore. he had been in his earlier years a poor man as regarded his income,--very poor, seeing that he was an earl. but he was not at present by any means an impoverished man, having been taught a lesson by the miseries of his father and grandfather, and having learned to live within his means. now, as he was going down the vale of years, men said that he was becoming rich, and that he had ready money to spend,--a position in which no lord de guest had found himself for many generations back. his father and grandfather had been known as spendthrifts; and now men said that this earl was a miser. there was not much of nobility in his appearance; but they greatly mistook lord de guest who conceived that on that account his pride of place was not dear to his soul. his peerage dated back to the time of king john, and there were but three lords in england whose patents had been conferred before his own. he knew what privileges were due to him on behalf of his blood, and was not disposed to abate one jot of them. he was not loud in demanding them. as he went through the world he sent no trumpeters to the right or left, proclaiming that the earl de guest was coming. when he spread his board for his friends, which he did but on rare occasions, he entertained them simply, with a mild, tedious, old-fashioned courtesy. we may say that, if properly treated, the earl never walked over anybody. but he could, if ill-treated, be grandly indignant; and if attacked, could hold his own against all the world. he knew himself to be every inch an earl, pottering about after his oxen with his muddy gaiters and red cheeks, as much as though he were glittering with stars in courtly royal ceremonies among his peers at westminster;--ay, more an earl than any of those who use their nobility for pageant purposes. woe be to him who should mistake that old coat for a badge of rural degradation! now and again some unlucky wight did make such a mistake, and had to do his penance very uncomfortably. with the earl lived a maiden sister, the lady julia. bernard dale's father had, in early life, run away with one sister, but no suitor had been fortunate enough to induce the lady julia to run with him. therefore she still lived, in maiden blessedness, as mistress of guestwick manor; and as such had no mean opinion of the high position which destiny had called upon her to fill. she was a tedious, dull, virtuous old woman, who gave herself infinite credit for having remained all her days in the home of her youth, probably forgetting, in her present advanced years, that her temptations to leave it had not been strong or numerous. she generally spoke of her sister fanny with some little contempt, as though that poor lady had degraded herself in marrying a younger brother. she was as proud of her own position as was the earl her brother, but her pride was maintained with more of outward show and less of inward nobility. it was hardly enough for her that the world should know that she was a de guest, and therefore she had assumed little pompous ways and certain airs of condescension which did not make her popular with her neighbours. the intercourse between guestwick manor and allington was not very frequent or very cordial. soon after the running away of the lady fanny, the two families had agreed to acknowledge their connection with each other, and to let it be known by the world that they were on friendly terms. either that course was necessary to them, or the other course, of letting it be known that they were enemies. friendship was the less troublesome, and therefore the two families called on each other from time to time, and gave each other dinners about once a year. the earl regarded the squire as a man who had deserted his politics, and had thereby forfeited the respect due to him as an hereditary land magnate; and the squire was wont to be-little the earl as one who understood nothing of the outer world. at guestwick manor bernard was to some extent a favourite. he was actually a relative, having in his veins blood of the de guests, and was not the less a favourite because he was the heir to allington, and because the blood of the dales was older even than that of the noble family to which he was allied. when bernard should come to be the squire, then indeed there might be cordial relations between guestwick manor and allington; unless, indeed, the earl's heir and the squire's heir should have some fresh cause of ill-will between themselves. they found lady julia sitting in her drawing-room alone, and introduced to her mr. crosbie in due form. the fact of lily's engagement was of course known at the manor, and it was quite understood that her intended husband was now brought over that he might be looked at and approved. lady julia made a very elaborate curtsey, and expressed a hope that her young friend might be made happy in that sphere of life to which it had pleased god to call her. "i hope i shall, lady julia," said lily, with a little laugh; "at any rate i mean to try." "we all try, my dear, but many of us fail to try with sufficient energy of purpose. it is only by doing our duty that we can hope to be happy, whether in single life or in married." "miss dale means to be a dragon of perfection in the performance of hers," said crosbie. "a dragon!" said lady julia. "no; i hope miss lily dale will never become a dragon." and then she turned to her nephew. it may be as well to say at once that she never forgave mr. crosbie the freedom of the expression which he had used. he had been in the drawing-room of guestwick manor for two minutes only, and it did not become him to talk about dragons. "bernard," she said, "i heard from your mother yesterday. i am afraid she does not seem to be very strong." and then there was a little conversation, not very interesting in its nature, between the aunt and the nephew as to the general health of lady fanny. "i didn't know my aunt was so unwell," said bell. "she isn't ill," said bernard. "she never is ill; but then she is never well." "your aunt," said lady julia, seeming to put a touch of sarcasm into the tone of her voice as she repeated the word--"your aunt has never enjoyed good health since she left this house; but that is a long time ago." "a very long time," said crosbie, who was not accustomed to be left in his chair silent. "you, dale, at any rate, can hardly remember it." "but i can remember it," said lady julia, gathering herself up. "i can remember when my sister fanny was recognized as the beauty of the country. it is a dangerous gift, that of beauty." "very dangerous," said crosbie. then lily laughed again, and lady julia became more angry than ever. what odious man was this whom her neighbours were going to take into their very bosom! but she had heard of mr. crosbie before, and mr. crosbie also had heard of her. "by-the-by, lady julia," said he, "i think i know some very dear friends of yours." "very dear friends is a very strong word. i have not many very dear friends." "i mean the gazebees. i have heard mortimer gazebee and lady amelia speak of you." whereupon lady julia confessed that she did know the gazebees. mr. gazebee, she said, was a man who in early life had wanted many advantages, but still he was a very estimable person. he was now in parliament, and she understood that he was making himself useful. she had not quite approved of lady amelia's marriage at the time, and so she had told her very old friend lady de courcy; but-- and then lady julia said many words in praise of mr. gazebee, which seemed to amount to this; that he was an excellent sort of man, with a full conviction of the too great honour done to him by the earl's daughter who had married him, and a complete consciousness that even that marriage had not put him on a par with his wife's relations, or even with his wife. and then it came out that lady julia in the course of the next week was going to meet the gazebees at courcy castle. "i am delighted to think that i shall have the pleasure of seeing you there," said crosbie. "indeed!" said lady julia. "i am going to courcy on wednesday. that, i fear, will be too early to allow of my being of any service to your ladyship." lady julia drew herself up, and declined the escort which mr. crosbie had seemed to offer. it grieved her to find that lily dale's future husband was an intimate friend of her friend's, and it especially grieved her to find that he was now going to that friend's house. it was a grief to her, and she showed that it was. it also grieved crosbie to find that lady julia was to be a fellow guest with himself at courcy castle; but he did not show it. he expressed nothing but smiles and civil self-congratulation on the matter, pretending that he would have much delight in again meeting lady julia; but, in truth, he would have given much could he have invented any manoeuvre by which her ladyship might have been kept at home. "what a horrid old woman she is," said lily, as they rode back down the avenue. "i beg your pardon, bernard; for, of course, she is your aunt." "yes; she is my aunt; and though i am not very fond of her, i deny that she is a horrid old woman. she never murdered anybody, or robbed anybody, or stole away any other woman's lover." "i should think not," said lily. "she says her prayers earnestly, i have no doubt," continued bernard, "and gives away money to the poor, and would sacrifice to-morrow any desire of her own to her brother's wish. i acknowledge that she is ugly, and pompous, and that, being a woman, she ought not to have such a long black beard on her upper lip." "i don't care a bit about her beard," said lily. "but why did she tell me to do my duty? i didn't go there to have a sermon preached to me." "and why did she talk about beauty being dangerous?" said bell. "of course, we all knew what she meant." "i didn't know at all what she meant," said lily; "and i don't know now." "i think she's a charming woman, and i shall be especially civil to her at lady de courcy's," said crosbie. and in this way, saying hard things of the poor old spinster whom they had left, they made their way into guestwick, and again dismounted at mrs. eames's door. chapter xiii. a visit to guestwick. [illustration: (untitled)] as the party from allington rode up the narrow high-street of guestwick, and across the market square towards the small, respectable, but very dull row of new houses in which mrs. eames lived, the people of guestwick were all aware that miss lily dale was escorted by her future husband. the opinion that she had been a very fortunate girl was certainly general among the guestwickians, though it was not always expressed in open or generous terms. "it was a great match for her," some said, but shook their heads at the same time, hinting that mr. crosbie's life in london was not all that it should be, and suggesting that she might have been more safe had she been content to bestow herself upon some country neighbour of less dangerous pretensions. others declared that it was no such great match after all. they knew his income to a penny, and believed that the young people would find it very difficult to keep a house in london unless the old squire intended to assist them. but, nevertheless, lily was envied as she rode through the town with her handsome lover by her side. and she was very happy. i will not deny that she had some feeling of triumphant satisfaction in the knowledge that she was envied. such a feeling on her part was natural, and is natural to all men and women who are conscious that they have done well in the adjustment of their own affairs. as she herself had said, he was her bird, the spoil of her own gun, the product of such capacity as she had in her, on which she was to live, and, if possible, to thrive during the remainder of her life. lily fully recognized the importance of the thing she was doing, and, in soberest guise, had thought much of this matter of marriage. but the more she thought of it the more satisfied she was that she was doing well. and yet she knew that there was a risk. he who was now everything to her might die; nay, it was possible that he might be other than she thought him to be; that he might neglect her, desert her, or misuse her. but she had resolved to trust in everything, and, having so trusted, she would not provide for herself any possibility of retreat. her ship should go out into the middle ocean, beyond all ken of the secure port from which it had sailed; her army should fight its battle with no hope of other safety than that which victory gives. all the world might know that she loved him if all the world chose to inquire about the matter. she triumphed in her lover, and did not deny even to herself that she was triumphant. mrs. eames was delighted to see them. it was so good in mr. crosbie to come over and call upon such a poor, forlorn woman as her, and so good in captain dale; so good also in the dear girls, who, at the present moment, had so much to make them happy at home at allington! little things, accounted as bare civilities by others, were esteemed as great favours by mrs. eames. "and dear mrs. dale? i hope she was not fatigued when we kept her up the other night so unconscionably late?" bell and lily both assured her that their mother was none the worse for what she had gone through; and then mrs. eames got up and left the room, with the declared purpose of looking for john and mary, but bent, in truth, on the production of some cake and sweet wine which she kept under lock and key in the little parlour. "don't let's stay here very long," whispered crosbie. "no, not very long," said lily. "but when you come to see my friends you mustn't be in a hurry, mr. crosbie." "he had his turn with lady julia," said bell, "and we must have ours now." "at any rate, mrs. eames won't tell us to do our duty and to beware of being too beautiful," said lily. mary and john came into the room before their mother returned; then came mrs. eames, and a few minutes afterwards the cake and wine arrived. it certainly was rather dull, as none of the party seemed to be at their ease. the grandeur of mr. crosbie was too great for mrs. eames and her daughter, and john was almost silenced by the misery of his position. he had not yet answered miss roper's letter, nor had he even made up his mind whether he would answer it or no. and then the sight of lily's happiness did not fill him with all that friendly joy which he should perhaps have felt as the friend of her childhood. to tell the truth, he hated crosbie, and so he had told himself; and had so told his sister also very frequently since the day of the party. "i tell you what it is, molly," he had said, "if there was any way of doing it, i'd fight that man." "what; and make lily wretched?" "she'll never be happy with him. i'm sure she won't. i don't want to do her any harm, but yet i'd like to fight that man,--if i only knew how to manage it." and then he bethought himself that if they could both be slaughtered in such an encounter it would be the only fitting termination to the present state of things. in that way, too, there would be an escape from amelia, and, at the present moment, he saw none other. when he entered the room he shook hands with all the party from allington, but, as he told his sister afterwards, his flesh crept when he touched crosbie. crosbie, as he contemplated the eames family sitting stiff and ill at ease in their own drawing-room chairs, made up his mind that it would be well that his wife should see as little of john eames as might be when she came to london;--not that he was in any way jealous of her lover. he had learned everything from lily,--all, at least, that lily knew,--and regarded the matter rather as a good joke. "don't see him too often," he had said to her, "for fear he should make an ass of himself." lily had told him everything,--all that she could tell; but yet he did not in the least comprehend that lily had, in truth, a warm affection for the young man whom he despised. "thank you, no," said crosbie. "i never do take wine in the middle of the day." "but a bit of cake?" and mrs. eames by her look implored him to do her so much honour. she implored captain dale, also, but they were both inexorable. i do not know that the two girls were at all more inclined to eat and drink than the two men; but they understood that mrs. eames would be broken-hearted if no one partook of her delicacies. the little sacrifices of society are all made by women, as are also the great sacrifices of life. a man who is good for anything is always ready for his duty, and so is a good woman always ready for a sacrifice. "we really must go now," said bell, "because of the horses." and under this excuse they got away. "you will come over before you go back to london, john?" said lily, as he came out with the intention of helping her mount, from which purpose, however, he was forced to recede by the iron will of mr. crosbie. "yes, i'll come over again--before i go. good-by." "good-by, john," said bell. "good-by, eames," said captain dale. crosbie, as he seated himself in the saddle, made the very slightest sign of recognition, to which his rival would not condescend to pay any attention. "i'll manage to have a fight with him in some way," said eames to himself as he walked back through the passage of his mother's house. and crosbie, as he settled his feet in the stirrups, felt that he disliked the young man more and more. it would be monstrous to suppose that there could be aught of jealousy in the feeling; and yet he did dislike him very strongly, and felt almost angry with lily for asking him to come again to allington. "i must put an end to all that," he said to himself as he rode silently out of town. "you must not snub my friends, sir," said lily, smiling as she spoke, but yet with something of earnestness in her voice. they were out of the town by this time, and crosbie had hardly uttered a word since they had left mrs. eames's door. they were now on the high road, and bell and bernard dale were somewhat in advance of them. "i never snub anybody," said crosbie, petulantly; "that is, unless they have absolutely deserved snubbing." "and have i deserved it? because i seem to have got it," said lily. "nonsense, lily. i never snubbed you yet, and i don't think it likely that i shall begin. but you ought not to accuse me of not being civil to your friends. in the first place i am as civil to them as my nature will allow me to be. and, in the second place--" "well; in the second place--?" "i am not quite sure that you are very wise to encourage that young man's--friendship just at present." "that means, i suppose, that i am very wrong to do so?" "no, dearest, it does not mean that. if i meant so i would tell you so honestly. i mean just what i say. there can, i suppose, be no doubt that he has filled himself with some kind of romantic attachment for you,--a foolish kind of love which i don't suppose he ever expected to gratify, but the idea of which lends a sort of grace to his life. when he meets some young woman fit to be his wife he will forget all about it, but till then he will go about fancying himself a despairing lover. and then such a young man as john eames is very apt to talk of his fancies." "i don't believe for a moment that he would mention my name to any one." "but, lily, perhaps i may know more of young men than you do." "yes, of course you do." "and i can assure you that they are generally too well inclined to make free with the names of girls whom they think that they like. you must not be surprised if i am unwilling that any man should make free with your name." after this lily was silent for a minute or two. she felt that an injustice was being done to her and she was not inclined to put up with it, but she could not quite see where the injustice lay. a great deal was owing from her to crosbie. in very much she was bound to yield to him, and she was anxious to do on his behalf even more than her duty. but yet she had a strong conviction that it would not be well that she should give way to him in everything. she wished to think as he thought as far as possible, but she could not say that she agreed with him when she knew that she differed from him. john eames was an old friend whom she could not abandon, and so much at the present time she felt herself obliged to say. "but, adolphus--" "well, dearest?" "you would not wish me to be unkind to so very old a friend as john eames? i have known him all my life, and we have all of us had a very great regard for the whole family. his father was my uncle's most particular friend." "i think, lily, you must understand what i mean. i don't want you to quarrel with any of them, or to be what you call unkind. but you need not give special and pressing invitations to this young man to come and see you before he goes back to london, and then to come and see you directly you get to london. you tell me that he has some kind of romantic idea of being in love with you;--of being in despair because you are not in love with him. it's all great nonsense, no doubt, but it seems to me that under such circumstances you'd better--just leave him alone." again lily was silent. these were her three last days, in which it was her intention to be especially happy, but above all things to make him especially happy. on no account would she say to him sharp words, or encourage in her own heart a feeling of animosity against him, and yet she believed him to be wrong; and so believing could hardly bring herself to bear the injury. such was her nature, as a dale. and let it be remembered that very many who can devote themselves for great sacrifices, cannot bring themselves to the endurance of little injuries. lily could have given up any gratification for her lover, but she could not allow herself to have been in the wrong, believing herself to have been in the right. "i have asked him now, and he must come," she said. "but do not press him to come any more." "certainly not, after what you have said, adolphus. if he comes over to allington, he will see me in mamma's house, to which he has always been made welcome by her. of course i understand perfectly--" "you understand what, lily?" but she had stopped herself, fearing that she might say that which would be offensive to him if she continued. "what is it you understand, lily?" "do not press me to go on, adolphus. as far as i can, i will do all that you want me to do." "you meant to say that when you find yourself an inmate of my house, as a matter of course you could not ask your own friends to come and see you. was that gracious?" "whatever i may have meant to say, i did not say that. nor in truth did i mean it. pray don't go on about it now. these are to be our last days, you know, and we shouldn't waste them by talking of things that are unpleasant. after all poor johnny eames is nothing to me; nothing, nothing. how can any one be anything to me when i think of you?" but even this did not bring crosbie back at once into a pleasant humour. had lily yielded to him and confessed that he was right, he would have made himself at once as pleasant as the sun in may. but this she had not done. she had simply abstained from her argument because she did not choose to be vexed, and had declared her continued purpose of seeing eames on his promised visit. crosbie would have had her acknowledge herself wrong, and would have delighted in the privilege of forgiving her. but lily dale was one who did not greatly relish forgiveness, or any necessity of being forgiven. so they rode on, if not in silence, without much joy in their conversation. it was now late on the monday afternoon, and crosbie was to go early on the wednesday morning. what if these three last days should come to be marred with such terrible drawbacks as these! bernard dale had not spoken a word to his cousin of his suit, since they had been interrupted by crosbie and lily as they were lying on the bank by the ha-ha. he had danced with her again and again at mrs. dale's party, and had seemed to revert to his old modes of conversation without difficulty. bell, therefore, had believed the matter to be over, and was thankful to her cousin, declaring within her own bosom that the whole matter should be treated by her as though it had never happened. to no one,--not even to her mother, would she tell it. to such reticence she bound herself for his sake, feeling that he would be best pleased that it should be so. but now as they rode on together, far in advance of the other couple, he again returned to the subject. "bell," said he, "am i to have any hope?" "any hope as to what, bernard?" "i hardly know whether a man is bound to take a single answer on such a subject. but this i know, that if a man's heart is concerned, he is not very willing to do so." "when that answer has been given honestly and truly--" "oh, no doubt. i don't at all suppose that you were dishonest or false when you refused to allow me to speak to you." "but, bernard, i did not refuse to allow you to speak to me." "something very like it. but, however, i have no doubt you were true enough. but, bell, why should it be so? if you were in love with any one else i could understand it." "i am not in love with any one else." "exactly. and there are so many reasons why you and i should join our fortunes together." "it cannot be a question of fortune, bernard." "do listen to me. do let me speak, at any rate. i presume i may at least suppose that you do not dislike me." "oh, no." "and though you might not be willing to accept any man's hand merely on a question of fortune, surely the fact that our marriage would be in every way suitable as regards money should not set you against it. of my own love for you i will not speak further, as i do not doubt that you believe what i say; but should you not question your own feelings very closely before you determine to oppose the wishes of all those who are nearest to you?" "do you mean mamma, bernard?" "not her especially, though i cannot but think she would like a marriage that would keep all the family together, and would give you an equal claim to the property to that which i have." "that would not have a feather's-weight with mamma." "have you asked her?" "no, i have mentioned the matter to no one." "then you cannot know. and as to my uncle, i have the means of knowing that it is the great desire of his life. i must say that i think some consideration for him should induce you to pause before you give a final answer, even though no consideration for me should have any weight with you." "i would do more for you than for him,--much more." "then do this for me. allow me to think that i have not yet had an answer to my proposal; give me to this day month, to christmas; till any time that you like to name, so that i may think that it is not yet settled, and may tell uncle christopher that such is the case." "bernard, it would be useless." "it would at any rate show him that you are willing to think of it." "but i am not willing to think of it;--not in that way. i do know my own mind thoroughly, and i should be very wrong if i were to deceive you." "and you wish me to give that as your only answer to my uncle?" "to tell the truth, bernard, i do not much care what you may say to my uncle in this matter. he can have no right to interfere in the disposal of my hand, and therefore i need not regard his wishes on the subject. i will explain to you in one word what my feelings are about it. i would accept no man in opposition to mamma's wishes; but not even for her could i accept any man in opposition to my own. but as concerns my uncle, i do not feel myself called on to consult him in any way on such a matter." "and yet he is the head of our family." "i don't care anything about the family,--not in that way." "and he has been very generous to you all." "that i deny. he has not been generous to mamma. he is very hard and ungenerous to mamma. he lets her have that house because he is anxious that the dales should seem to be respectable before the world; and she lives in it, because she thinks it better for us that she should do so. if i had my way, she should leave it to-morrow--or, at any rate, as soon as lily is married. i would much sooner go into guestwick, and live as the eames do." "i think you are ungrateful, bell." "no; i am not ungrateful. and as to consulting, bernard,--i should be much more inclined to consult you than him about my marriage. if you would let me look on you altogether as a brother, i should think little of promising to marry no one whom you did not approve." but such an agreement between them would by no means have suited bernard's views. he had thought, some four or five weeks back, that he was not personally very anxious for this match. he had declared to himself that he liked his cousin well enough; that it would be a good thing for him to settle himself; that his uncle was reasonable in his wishes and sufficiently liberal in his offers; and that, therefore, he would marry. it had hardly occurred to him as probable that his cousin would reject so eligible an offer, and had certainly never occurred to him that he would have to suffer anything from such rejection. he had entertained none of that feeling of which lovers speak when they declare that they are staking their all upon the hazard of a die. it had not seemed to him that he was staking anything, as he gently told his tale of languid love, lying on the turf by the ha-ha. he had not regarded the possibility of disappointment, of sorrow, and of a deeply-vexed mind. he would have felt but little triumph if accepted, and had not thought that he could be humiliated by any rejection. in this frame of mind he had gone to his work; but now he found, to his own surprise, that this girl's answer had made him absolutely unhappy. having expressed a wish for this thing, the very expression of the wish made him long to possess it. he found, as he rode along silently by her side, that he was capable of more earnestness of desire than he had known himself to possess. he was at this moment unhappy, disappointed, anxious, distrustful of the future, and more intent on one special toy than he had ever been before, even as a boy. he was vexed, and felt himself to be sore at heart. he looked round at her, as she sat silent, quiet, and somewhat sad upon her pony, and declared to himself that she was very beautiful,--that she was a thing to be gained if still there might be the possibility of gaining her. he felt that he really loved her, and yet he was almost angry with himself for so feeling. why had he subjected himself to this numbing weakness? his love had never given him any pleasure. indeed he had never hitherto acknowledged it; but now he was driven to do so on finding it to be the source of trouble and pain. i think it is open to us to doubt whether, even yet, bernard dale was in love with his cousin; whether he was not rather in love with his own desire. but against himself he found a verdict that he was in love, and was angry with himself and with all the world. "ah, bell," he said, coming close up to her, "i wish you could understand how i love you." and, as he spoke, his cousin unconsciously recognized more of affection in his tone, and less of that spirit of bargaining which had seemed to pervade all his former pleas, than she had ever found before. "and do i not love you? have i not offered to be to you in all respects as a sister?" "that is nothing. such an offer to me now is simply laughing at me. bell, i tell you what,--i will not give you up. the fact is, you do not know me yet,--not know me as you must know any man before you choose him for your husband. you and lily are not alike in this. you are cautious, doubtful of yourself, and perhaps, also, somewhat doubtful of others. my heart is set upon this, and i shall still try to succeed." "ah, bernard, do not say that! believe me, when i tell you that it can never be." "no; i will not believe you. i will not allow myself to be made utterly wretched. i tell you fairly that i will not believe you. i may surely hope if i choose to hope. no, bell, i will never give you up,--unless, indeed, i should see you become another man's wife." as he said this, they all turned in through the squire's gate, and rode up to the yard in which it was their habit to dismount from their horses. chapter xiv. john eames takes a walk. john eames watched the party of cavaliers as they rode away from his mother's door, and then started upon a solitary walk, as soon as the noise of the horses' hoofs had passed away out of the street. he was by no means happy in his mind as he did so. indeed, he was overwhelmed with care and trouble, and as he went along very gloomy thoughts passed through his mind. had he not better go to australia, or vancouver's island, or--? i will not name the places which the poor fellow suggested to himself as possible terminations of the long journeys which he might not improbably be called upon to take. that very day, just before the dales had come in, he had received a second letter from his darling amelia, written very closely upon the heels of the first. why had he not answered her? was he ill? was he untrue? no; she would not believe that, and therefore fell back upon the probability of his illness. if it was so, she would rush down to see him. nothing on earth should keep her from the bedside of her betrothed. if she did not get an answer from her beloved john by return of post, she would be down with him at guestwick by the express train. here was a position for such a young man as john eames! and of amelia roper we may say that she was a young woman who would not give up her game, as long as the least chance remained of her winning it. "i must go somewhere," john said to himself, as he put on his slouched hat and wandered forth through the back streets of guestwick. what would his mother say when she heard of amelia roper? what would she say when she saw her? he walked away towards the manor, so that he might roam about the guestwick woods in solitude. there was a path with a stile, leading off from the high road, about half a mile beyond the lodges through which the dales had ridden up to the house, and by this path john eames turned in, and went away till he had left the manor house behind him, and was in the centre of the guestwick woods. he knew the whole ground well, having roamed there ever since he was first allowed to go forth upon his walks alone. he had thought of lily dale by the hour together, as he had lost himself among the oak-trees; but in those former days he had thought of her with some pleasure. now he could only think of her as of one gone from him for ever; and then he had also to think of her whom he had taken to himself in lily's place. young men, very young men,--men so young that it may be almost a question whether or no they have as yet reached their manhood,--are more inclined to be earnest and thoughtful when alone than they ever are when with others, even though those others be their elders. i fancy that, as we grow old ourselves, we are apt to forget that it was so with us; and, forgetting it, we do not believe that it is so with our children. we constantly talk of the thoughtlessness of youth. i do not know whether we might not more appropriately speak of its thoughtfulness. it is, however, no doubt, true that thought will not at once produce wisdom. it may almost be a question whether such wisdom as many of us have in our mature years has not come from the dying out of the power of temptation, rather than as the results of thought and resolution. men, full fledged and at their work, are, for the most part, too busy for much thought; but lads, on whom the work of the world has not yet fallen with all its pressure,--they have time for thinking. and thus john eames was thoughtful. they who knew him best accounted him to be a gay, good-hearted, somewhat reckless young man, open to temptation, but also open to good impressions; as to whom no great success could be predicated, but of whom his friends might fairly hope that he might so live as to bring upon them no disgrace and not much trouble. but, above all things, they would have called him thoughtless. in so calling him, they judged him wrong. he was ever thinking,--thinking much of the world as it appeared to him, and of himself as he appeared to the world; and thinking, also, of things beyond the world. what was to be his fate here and hereafter? lily dale was gone from him, and amelia roper was hanging round his neck like a millstone! what, under such circumstances, was to be his fate here and hereafter? we may say that the difficulties in his way were not as yet very great. as to lily, indeed, he had no room for hope; but, then, his love for lily had, perhaps, been a sentiment rather than a passion. most young men have to go through that disappointment, and are enabled to bear it without much injury to their prospects or happiness. and in after-life the remembrance of such love is a blessing rather than a curse, enabling the possessor of it to feel that in those early days there was something within him of which he had no cause to be ashamed. i do not pity john eames much in regard to lily dale. and then, as to amelia roper,--had he achieved but a tithe of that lady's experience in the world, or possessed a quarter of her audacity, surely such a difficulty as that need not have stood much in his way! what could amelia do to him if he fairly told her that he was not minded to marry her? in very truth he had never promised to do so. he was in no way bound to her, not even by honour. honour, indeed, with such as her! but men are cowards before women until they become tyrants; and are easy dupes, till of a sudden they recognize the fact that it is pleasanter to be the victimizer than the victim,--and as easy. there are men, indeed, who never learn the latter lesson. but, though the cause for fear was so slight, poor john eames was thoroughly afraid. little things which, in connection with so deep a sorrow as his, it is almost ridiculous to mention, added to his embarrassments, and made an escape from them seem to him to be impossible. he could not return to london without going to burton crescent, because his clothes were there, and because he owed to mrs. roper some small sum of money which on his return to london he would not have immediately in his pocket. he must therefore meet amelia, and he knew that he had not the courage to tell a girl, face to face, that he did not love her, after he had been once induced to say that he did do so. his boldest conception did not go beyond the writing of a letter in which he would renounce her, and removing himself altogether from that quarter of the town in which burton crescent was situated. but then about his clothes, and that debt of his? and what if amelia should in the meantime come down to guestwick and claim him? could he in his mother's presence declare that she had no right to make such claim? the difficulties, in truth, were not very great, but they were too heavy for that poor young clerk from the income-tax office. you will declare that he must have been a fool and a coward. yet he could read and understand shakspeare. he knew much,--by far too much,--of byron's poetry by heart. he was a deep critic, often writing down his criticisms in a lengthy journal which he kept. he could write quickly, and with understanding; and i may declare that men at his office had already ascertained that he was no fool. he knew his business, and could do it,--as many men failed to do who were much less foolish before the world. and as to that matter of cowardice, he would have thought it the greatest blessing in the world to be shut up in a room with crosbie, having permission to fight with him till one of them should have been brought by stress of battle to give up his claim to lily dale. eames was no coward. he feared no man on earth. but he was terribly afraid of amelia roper. he wandered about through the old manor woods very ill at ease. the post from guestwick went out at seven, and he must at once make up his mind whether or no he would write to amelia on that day. he must also make up his mind as to what he would say to her. he felt that he should at least answer her letter, let his answer be what it might. should he promise to marry her,--say, in ten or twelve years' time? should he tell her that he was a blighted being, unfit for love, and with humility entreat of her that he might be excused? or should he write to her mother, telling her that burton crescent would not suit him any longer, promising her to send the balance on receipt of his next payment, and asking her to send his clothes in a bundle to the income-tax office? or should he go home to his own mother, and boldly tell it all to her? he at last resolved that he must write the letter, and as he composed it in his mind he sat himself down beneath an old tree which stood on a spot at which many of the forest tracks met and crossed each other. the letter, as he framed it here, was not a bad letter, if only he could have got it written and posted. every word of it he chose with precision, and in his mind he emphasized every expression which told his mind clearly and justified his purpose. "he acknowledged himself to have been wrong in misleading his correspondent, and allowing her to imagine that she possessed his heart. he had not a heart at her disposal. he had been weak not to write to her before, having been deterred from doing so by the fear of giving her pain; but now he felt that he was bound in honour to tell her the truth. having so told her, he would not return to burton crescent, if it would pain her to see him there. he would always have a deep regard for her,"--oh, johnny!--"and would hope anxiously that her welfare in life might be complete." that was the letter, as he wrote it on the tablets of his mind under the tree; but the getting it put on to paper was a task, as he knew, of greater difficulty. then, as he repeated it to himself, he fell asleep. "young man," said a voice in his ears as he slept. at first the voice spoke as a voice from his dream without waking him, but when it was repeated, he sat up and saw that a stout gentleman was standing over him. for a moment he did not know where he was, or how he had come there; nor could he recollect, as he saw the trees about him, how long he had been in the wood. but he knew the stout gentleman well enough, though he had not seen him for more than two years. "young man," said the voice, "if you want to catch rheumatism, that's the way to do it. why, it's young eames, isn't it?" [illustration: "why, it's young eames."] "yes, my lord," said johnny, raising himself up so that he was now sitting, instead of lying, as he looked up into the earl's rosy face. "i knew your father, and a very good man he was; only he shouldn't have taken to farming. people think they can farm without learning the trade, but that's a very great mistake. i can farm, because i've learned it. don't you think you'd better get up?" whereupon johnny raised himself to his feet. "not but what you're very welcome to lie there if you like it. only, in october, you know--" "i'm afraid i'm trespassing, my lord," said eames. "i came in off the path, and--" "you're welcome; you're very welcome. if you'll come up to the house, i'll give you some luncheon." this hospitable offer, however, johnny declined, alleging that it was late, and that he was going home to dinner. "come along," said the earl. "you can't go any shorter way than by the house. dear, dear, how well i remember your father. he was a much cleverer man than i am,--very much; but he didn't know how to send a beast to market any better than a child. by-the-by, they have put you into a public office, haven't they?" "yes, my lord." "and a very good thing, too,--a very good thing, indeed. but why were you asleep in the wood? it isn't warm, you know. i call it rather cold." and the earl stopped, and looked at him, scrutinizing him, as though resolved to inquire into so deep a mystery. "i was taking a walk, and thinking of something, i sat down." "leave of absence, i suppose?" "yes, my lord." "have you got into trouble? you look as though you were in trouble. your poor father used to be in trouble." "i haven't taken to farming," said johnny, with an attempt at a smile. "ha, ha, ha,--quite right. no, don't take to farming. unless you learn it, you know, you might just as well take to shoemaking;--just the same. you haven't got into trouble, then; eh?" "no, my lord, not particularly." "not particularly! i know very well that young men do get into trouble when they get up to london. if you want any--any advice, or that sort of thing, you may come to me; for i knew your father well. do you like shooting?" "i never did shoot anything." "well, perhaps better not. to tell the truth, i'm not very fond of young men who take to shooting without having anything to shoot at. by-the-by, now i think of it, i'll send your mother some game." it may, however, here be fair to mention that game very often came from guestwick manor to mrs. eames. "and look here, cold pheasant for breakfast is the best thing i know of. pheasants at dinner are rubbish,--mere rubbish. here we are at the house. will you come in and have a glass of wine?" but this john eames declined, pleasing the earl better by doing so than he would have done by accepting it. not that the lord was inhospitable or insincere in his offer, but he preferred that such a one as john eames should receive his proffered familiarity without too much immediate assurance. he felt that eames was a little in awe of his companion's rank, and he liked him the better for it. he liked him the better for it, and was a man apt to remember his likings. "if you won't come in, good-by," and he gave johnny his hand. "good evening, my lord," said johnny. "and remember this; it is the deuce of a thing to have rheumatism in your loins. i wouldn't go to sleep under a tree, if i were you,--not in october. but you're always welcome to go anywhere about the place." "thank you, my lord." "and if you should take to shooting,--but i dare say you won't; and if you come to trouble, and want advice, or that sort of thing, write to me. i knew your father well." and so they parted, eames returning on his road towards guestwick. for some reason, which he could not define, he felt better after his interview with the earl. there had been something about the fat, good-natured, sensible old man, which had cheered him, in spite of his sorrow. "pheasants for dinner are rubbish,--mere rubbish," he said to himself, over and over again, as he went along the road; and they were the first words which he spoke to his mother, after entering the house. "i wish we had some of that sort of rubbish," said she. "so you will, to-morrow;" and then he described to her his interview. "the earl was, at any rate, quite right about lying upon the ground. i wonder you can be so foolish. and he is right about your poor father too. but you have got to change your boots; and we shall be ready for dinner almost immediately." but johnny eames, before he sat down to dinner, did write his letter to amelia, and did go out to post it with his own hands,--much to his mother's annoyance. but the letter would not get itself written in that strong and appropriate language which had come to him as he was roaming through the woods. it was a bald letter, and somewhat cowardly withal. dear amelia [the letter ran],--i have received both of yours; and did not answer the first because i felt that there was a difficulty in expressing what i wish to say; and now it will be better that you should allow the subject to stand over till i am back in town. i shall be there in ten days from this. i have been quite well, and am so; but of course am much obliged by your inquiries. i know you will think this very cold; but when i tell you everything, you will agree with me that it is best. if i were to marry, i know that we should be unhappy, because we should have nothing to live on. if i have ever said anything to deceive you, i beg your pardon with all my heart;--but perhaps it will be better to let the subject remain till we shall meet again in london. believe me to be your most sincere friend, and i may say admirer,--[oh, john eames!] john eames. chapter xv. the last day. last days are wretched days; and so are last moments wretched moments. it is not the fact that the parting is coming which makes these days and moments so wretched, but the feeling that something special is expected from them, which something they always fail to produce. spasmodic periods of pleasure, of affection, or even of study, seldom fail of disappointment when premeditated. when last days are coming, they should be allowed to come and to glide away without special notice or mention. and as for last moments, there should be none such. let them ever be ended, even before their presence has been acknowledged. but lily dale had not yet been taught these lessons by her world's experience, and she expected that this sweetest cup of which she had ever drank should go on being sweet--sweeter and still sweeter--as long as she could press it to her lips. how the dregs had come to mix themselves with the last drops we have already seen; and on that same day--on the monday evening--the bitter task still remained; for crosbie, as they walked about through the gardens in the evening, found other subjects on which he thought it necessary to give her sundry hints, intended for her edification, which came to her with much of the savour of a lecture. a girl, when she is thoroughly in love, as surely was the case with lily, likes to receive hints as to her future life from the man to whom she is devoted; but she would, i think, prefer that such hints should be short, and that the lesson should be implied rather than declared;--that they should, in fact, be hints and not lectures. crosbie, who was a man of tact, who understood the world and had been dealing with women for many years, no doubt understood all this as well as we do. but he had come to entertain a notion that he was an injured man, that he was giving very much more than was to be given to him, and that therefore he was entitled to take liberties which might not fairly be within the reach of another lover. my reader will say that in all this he was ungenerous. well; he was ungenerous. i do not know that i have ever said that much generosity was to be expected from him. he had some principles of right and wrong under the guidance of which it may perhaps be hoped that he will not go utterly astray; but his past life had not been of a nature to make him unselfish. he was ungenerous, and lily felt it, though she would not acknowledge it even to herself. she had been very open with him,--acknowledging the depth of her love for him; telling him that he was now all in all to her; that life without his love would be impossible to her: and in a certain way he took advantage of these strong avowals, treating her as though she were a creature utterly in his power;--as indeed she was. on that evening he said no more of johnny eames, but said much of the difficulty of a man establishing himself with a wife in london, who had nothing but his own moderate income on which to rely. he did not in so many words tell her that if her friends could make up for her two or three thousand pounds,--that being much less than he had expected when he first made his offer,--this terrible difficulty would be removed; but he said enough to make her understand that the world would call him very imprudent in taking a girl who had nothing. and as he spoke of these things, lily remaining for the most part silent as he did so, it occurred to him that he might talk to her freely of his past life,--more freely than he would have done had he feared that he might lose her by any such disclosures. he had no fear of losing her. alas! might it not be possible that he had some such hope! he told her that his past life had been expensive; that, though he was not in debt, he had lived up to every shilling that he had, and that he had contracted habits of expenditure which it would be almost impossible for him to lay aside at a day's notice. then he spoke of entanglements, meaning, as he did so, to explain more fully what were their nature,--but not daring to do so when he found that lily was altogether in the dark as to what he meant. no; he was not a generous man,--a very ungenerous man. and yet, during all this time, he thought that he was guided by principle. "it will be best that i should be honest with her," he said to himself. and then he told himself, scores of times, that when making his offer he had expected, and had a right to expect, that she would not be penniless. under those circumstances he had done the best he could for her--offering her his heart honestly, with a quick readiness to make her his own at the earliest day that she might think possible. had he been more cautious, he need not have fallen into this cruel mistake; but she, at any rate, could not quarrel with him for his imprudence. and still he was determined to stand by his engagement and willing to marry her, although, as he the more thought of it, he felt the more strongly that he would thereby ruin his prospects, and thrust beyond his own reach all those good things which he had hoped to win. as he continued to talk to her he gave himself special credit for his generosity, and felt that he was only doing his duty by her in pointing out to her all the difficulties which lay in the way of their marriage. at first lily said some words intended to convey an assurance that she would be the most economical wife that man ever had, but she soon ceased from such promises as these. her perceptions were keen, and she discovered that the difficulties of which he was afraid were those which he must overcome before his marriage, not any which might be expected to overwhelm him after it. "a cheap and nasty ménage would be my aversion," he said to her. "it is that which i want to avoid,--chiefly for your sake." then she promised him that she would wait patiently for his time--"even though it should be for seven years," she said, looking up into his face and trying to find there some sign of approbation. "that's nonsense," he said. "people are not patriarchs now-a-days. i suppose we shall have to wait two years. and that's a deuce of a bore,--a terrible bore." and there was that in the tone of his voice which grated on her feelings, and made her wretched for the moment. as he parted with her for the night on her own side of the little bridge which led from one garden to the other, he put his arm round her to embrace her and kiss her, as he had often done at that spot. it had become a habit with them to say their evening farewells there, and the secluded little nook amongst the shrubs was inexpressibly dear to lily. but on the present occasion she made an effort to avoid his caress. she turned from him--very slightly, but it was enough, and he felt it. "are you angry with me?" he said. "oh, no! adolphus; how can i be angry with you?" and then she turned to him and gave him her face to kiss almost before he had again asked for it. "he shall not at any rate think that i am unkind to him,--and it will not matter now," she said to herself, as she walked slowly across the lawn, in the dark, up to her mother's drawing-room window. "well, dearest," said mrs. dale, who was there alone; "did the beards wag merry in the great hall this evening?" that was a joke with them, for neither crosbie nor bernard dale used a razor at his toilet. "not specially merry. and i think it was my fault, for i have a headache. mamma, i believe i will go at once to bed." "my darling, is there anything wrong?" "nothing, mamma. but we had such a long ride; and then adolphus is going, and of course we have so much to say. to-morrow will be the last day, for i shall only just see him on wednesday morning; and as i want to be well, if possible, i'll go to bed." and so she took her candle and went. when bell came up, lily was still awake, but she begged her sister not to disturb her. "don't talk to me, bell," she said. "i'm trying to make myself quiet, and i half feel that i should get childish if i went on talking. i have almost more to think of than i know how to manage." and she strove, not altogether unsuccessfully, to speak with a cheery tone, as though the cares which weighed upon her were not unpleasant in their nature. then her sister kissed her and left her to her thoughts. and she had great matter for thinking; so great, that many hours sounded in her ears from the clock on the stairs before she brought her thoughts to a shape that satisfied herself. she did so bring them at last, and then she slept. she did so bring them, toiling over her work with tears that made her pillow wet, with heart-burning and almost with heart-breaking, with much doubting, and many anxious, eager inquiries within her own bosom as to that which she ought to do, and that which she could endure to do. but at last her resolve was taken, and then she slept. it had been agreed between them that crosbie should come down to the small house on the next day after breakfast, and remain there till the time came for riding. but lily determined to alter this arrangement, and accordingly put on her hat immediately after breakfast, and posted herself at the bridge, so as to intercept her lover as he came. he soon appeared with his friend dale, and she at once told him her purpose. "i want to have a talk with you, adolphus, before you go in to mamma; so come with me into the field." "all right," said he. "and bernard can finish his cigar on the lawn. mamma and bell will join him there." "all right," said bernard. so they separated; and crosbie went away with lily into the field where they had first learned to know each other in those haymaking days. she did not say much till they were well away from the house; but answered what words he chose to speak,--not knowing very well of what he spoke. but when she considered that they had reached the proper spot, she began very abruptly. "adolphus," she said, "i have something to say to you,--something to which you must listen very carefully." then he looked at her, and at once knew that she was in earnest. "this is the last day on which i could say it," she continued; "and i am very glad that i have not let the last day go by without saying it. i should not have known how to put it in a letter." "what is it, lily?" "and i do not know that i can say it properly; but i hope that you will not be hard upon me. adolphus, if you wish that all this between us should be over, i will consent." "lily!" "i mean what i say. if you wish it, i will consent; and when i have said so, proposing it myself, you may be quite sure that i shall never blame you, if you take me at my word." "are you tired of me, lily?" "no. i shall never be tired of you,--never weary with loving you. i did not wish to say so now; but i will answer your question boldly. tired of you! i fancy that a girl can never grow tired of her lover. but i would sooner die in the struggle than be the cause of your ruin. it would be better,--in every way better." "i have said nothing of being ruined." "but listen to me. i should not die if you left me,--not be utterly broken-hearted. nothing on earth can i ever love as i have loved you. but i have a god and a saviour that will be enough for me. i can turn to them with content, if it be well that you should leave me. i have gone to them, and--" but at this moment she could utter no more words. she had broken down in her effort, losing her voice through the strength of her emotion. as she did not choose that he should see her overcome, she turned from him and walked away across the grass. of course he followed her; but he was not so quick after her, but that time had been given to her to recover herself. "it is true," she said. "i have the strength of which i tell you. though i have given myself to you as your wife, i can bear to be divorced from you now,--now. and, my love, though it may sound heartless, i would sooner be so divorced from you, than cling to you as a log that must drag you down under the water, and drown you in trouble and care. i would;--indeed i would. if you go, of course that kind of thing is over for me. but the world has more than that,--much more; and i would make myself happy;--yes, my love, i would be happy. you need not fear that." "but, lily, why is all this said to me here to-day?" "because it is my duty to say it. i understand all your position now, though it is only now. it never flashed on me till yesterday. when you proposed to me, you thought that i,--that i had some fortune." "never mind that now, lily." "but you did. i see it all now. i ought perhaps to have told you that it was not so. there has been the mistake, and we are both sufferers. but we need not make the suffering deeper than needs be. my love, you are free,--from this moment. and even my heart shall not blame you for accepting your freedom." "and are you afraid of poverty?" he asked her. "i am afraid of poverty for you. you and i have lived differently. luxuries, of which i know nothing, have been your daily comforts. i tell you i can bear to part with you, but i cannot bear to become the source of your unhappiness. yes; i will bear it; and none shall dare in my hearing to speak against you. i have brought you here to say the word; nay, more than that,--to advise you to say it." he stood silent for a moment, during which he held her by the hand. she was looking into his face, but he was looking away into the clouds; striving to appear as though he was the master of the occasion. but during those moments his mind was wracked with doubt. what if he should take her at her word? some few would say bitter things against him, but such bitter things had been said against many another man without harming him. would it not be well for both if he should take her at her word? she would recover and love again, as other girls had done; and as for him, he would thus escape from the ruin at which he had been gazing for the last week past. for it was ruin,--utter ruin. he did love her; so he declared to himself. but was he a man who ought to throw the world away for love? such men there were; but was he one of them? could he be happy in that small house, somewhere near the new road, with five children and horrid misgivings as to the baker's bill? of all men living, was not he the last that should have allowed himself to fall into such a trap? all this passed through his mind as he turned his face up to the clouds with a look that was intended to be grand and noble. "speak to me, adolphus, and say that it shall be so." then his heart misgave him, and he lacked the courage to extricate himself from his trouble; or, as he afterwards said to himself, he had not the heart to do it. "if i understand you, rightly, lily, all this comes from no want of love on your own part?" "want of love on my part? but you should not ask me that." "until you tell me that there is such a want, i will agree to no parting." then he took her hand and put it within his arm. "no, lily; whatever may be our cares and troubles, we are bound together,--indissolubly." "are we?" said she; and as she spoke, her voice trembled, and her hand shook. "much too firmly for any such divorce as that. no, lily, i claim the right to tell you all my troubles; but i shall not let you go." "but, adolphus--" and the hand on his arm was beginning to cling to it again. "adolphus," said he, "has got nothing more to say on that subject. he exercises the right which he believes to be his own, and chooses to retain the prize which he has won." she was now clinging to him in very truth. "oh, my love!" she said. "i do not know how to say it again. it is of you that i am thinking;--of you, of you!" "i know you are; but you have misunderstood me a little; that's all." "have i? then listen to me again, once more, my heart's own darling, my love, my husband, my lord! if i cannot be to you at once like ruth, and never cease from coming after you, my thoughts to you shall be like those of ruth:--if aught but death part thee and me, may god do so to me and more also." then she fell upon his breast and wept. he still hardly understood the depth of her character. he was not himself deep enough to comprehend it all. but yet he was awed by her great love, and exalted to a certain solemnity of feeling which for the time made him rejoice in his late decision. for a few hours he was minded to throw the world behind him, and wear this woman, as such a woman should be worn,--as a comforter to him in all things, and a strong shield against great troubles. "lily," he said, "my own lily!" "yes, your own, to take when you please, and leave untaken while you please; and as much your own in one way as in the other." then she looked up again, and essayed to laugh as she did so. "you will think i am frantic, but i am so happy. i don't care about your going now; indeed i don't. there; you may go now, this minute, if you like it." and she withdrew her hand from him. "i feel so differently from what i have done for the last few days. i am so glad you have spoken to me as you did. of course i ought to bear all those things with you. but i cannot be unhappy about it now. i wonder if i went to work and made a lot of things, whether that would help?" "a set of shirts for me, for instance?" "i could do that, at any rate." "it may come to that yet, some of these days." "i pray god that it may." then again she was serious, and the tears came once more into her eyes. "i pray god that it may. to be of use to you,--to work for you,--to do something for you that may have in it some sober, earnest purport of usefulness;--that is what i want above all things. i want to be with you at once that i may be of service to you. would that you and i were alone together, that i might do everything for you. i sometimes think that a very poor man's wife is the happiest, because she does do everything." "you shall do everything very soon," said he; and then they sauntered along pleasantly through the morning hours, and when they again appeared at mrs. dale's table, mrs. dale and bell were astonished at lily's brightness. all her old ways had seemed to return to her, and she made her little saucy speeches to mr. crosbie as she had used to do when he was first becoming fascinated by her sweetness. "you know that you'll be such a swell when you get to that countess's house that you'll forget all about allington." "of course i shall," said he. "and the paper you write upon will be all over coronets,--that is, if ever you do write. perhaps you will to bernard some day, just to show that you are staying at a castle." "you certainly don't deserve that he should write to you," said mrs. dale. "i don't expect it for a moment,--not till he gets back to london and finds that he has nothing else to do at his office. but i should so like to see how you and lady julia get on together. it was quite clear that she regarded you as an ogre; didn't she, bell?" "so many people are ogres to lady julia," said bell. "i believe lady julia to be a very good woman," said mrs. dale, "and i won't have her abused." "particularly before poor bernard, who is her pet nephew," said lily. "i dare say adolphus will become a pet too when she has been a week with him at courcy castle. do try and cut bernard out." from all which mrs. dale learned that some care which had sat heavy on lily's heart was now lightened, if not altogether removed. she had asked no questions of her daughter, but she had perceived during the past few days that lily was in trouble, and she knew that such trouble had arisen from her engagement. she had asked no questions, but of course she had been told what was mr. crosbie's income, and had been made to understand that it was not to be considered as amply sufficient for all the wants of matrimony. there was little difficulty in guessing what was the source of lily's care, and as little in now perceiving that something had been said between them by which that care had been relieved. after that they all rode, and the afternoon went by pleasantly. it was the last day indeed, but lily had determined that she would not be sad. she had told him that he might go now, and that she would not be discontented at his going. she knew that the morrow would be very blank to her; but she struggled to live up to the spirit of her promise, and she succeeded. they all dined at the great house, even mrs. dale doing so upon this occasion. when they had come in from the garden in the evening, crosbie talked more to mrs. dale than he did even to lily, while lily sat a little distant, listening with all her ears, sometimes saying a low-toned word, and happy beyond expression in the feeling that her mother and her lover should understand each other. and it must be understood that crosbie at this time was fully determined to conquer the difficulties of which he had thought so much, and to fix the earliest day which might be possible for his marriage. the solemnity of that meeting in the field still hung about him, and gave to his present feelings a manliness and a truth of purpose which were too generally wanting to them. if only those feelings would last! but now he talked to mrs. dale about her daughter, and about their future prospects, in a tone which he could not have used had not his mind for the time been true to her. he had never spoken so freely to lily's mother, and at no time had mrs. dale felt for him so much of a mother's love. he apologized for the necessity of some delay, arguing that he could not endure to see his young wife without the comfort of a home of her own, and that he was now, as he always had been, afraid of incurring debt. mrs. dale disliked waiting engagements,--as do all mothers,--but she could not answer unkindly to such pleading as this. "lily is so very young," she said, "that she may well wait for a year or so." "for seven years," said lily, jumping up and whispering into her mother's ear. "i shall hardly be six-and-twenty then, which is not at all too old." and so the evening passed away very pleasantly. "god bless you, adolphus!" mrs. dale said to him, as she parted with him at her own door. it was the first time that she had called him by his christian name. "i hope you understand how much we are trusting to you." "i do,--i do," said he, as he pressed her hand. then as he walked back alone, he swore to himself, binding himself to the oath with all his heart, that he would be true to those women,--both to the daughter and to the mother; for the solemnity of the morning was still upon him. he was to start the next morning before eight, bernard having undertaken to drive him over to the railway at guestwick. the breakfast was on the table shortly after seven; and just as the two men had come down, lily entered the room, with her hat and shawl. "i said i would be in to pour out your tea," said she; and then she sat herself down over against the teapot. it was a silent meal, for people do not know what to say in those last minutes. and bernard, too, was there; proving how true is the adage which says, that two are company, but that three are not. i think that lily was wrong to come up on that last morning; but she would not hear of letting him start without seeing him, when her lover had begged her not to put herself to so much trouble. trouble! would she not have sat up all night to see even the last of the top of his hat? then bernard, muttering something about the horse, went away. "i have only one minute to speak to you," said she, jumping up, "and i have been thinking all night of what i had to say. it is so easy to think, and so hard to speak." "my darling, i understand it all." "but you must understand this, that i will never distrust you. i will never ask you to give me up again, or say that i could be happy without you. i could not live without you; that is, without the knowledge that you are mine. but i will never be impatient, never. pray, pray believe me! nothing shall make me distrust you." "dearest lily, i will endeavour to give you no cause." "i know you will not; but i specially wanted to tell you that. and you will write,--very soon?" "directly i get there." "and as often as you can. but i won't bother you; only your letters will make me so happy. i shall be so proud when they come to me. i shall be afraid of writing too much to you, for fear i should tire you." "you will never do that." "shall i not? but you must write first, you know. if you could only understand how i shall live upon your letters! and now good-by. there are the wheels. god bless you, my own, my own!" and she gave herself up into his arms, as she had given herself up into his heart. she stood at the door as the two men got into the gig, and, as it passed down through the gate, she hurried out upon the terrace, from whence she could see it for a few yards down the lane. then she ran from the terrace to the gate, and, hurrying through the gate, made her way into the churchyard, from the farther corner of which she could see the heads of the two men till they had made the turn into the main road beyond the parsonage. there she remained till the very sound of the wheels no longer reached her ears, stretching her eyes in the direction they had taken. then she turned round slowly and made her way out at the churchyard gate, which opened on to the road close to the front door of the small house. "i should like to punch his head," said hopkins, the gardener, to himself, as he saw the gig driven away and saw lily trip after it, that she might see the last of him whom it carried. "and i wouldn't think nothing of doing it; no more i wouldn't," hopkins added in his soliloquy. it was generally thought about the place that miss lily was hopkins's favourite; though he showed it chiefly by snubbing her more frequently than he snubbed her sister. lily had evidently intended to return home through the front door; but she changed her purpose before she reached the house, and made her way slowly back through the churchyard, and by the gate of the great house, and by the garden at the back of it, till she crossed the little bridge. but on the bridge she rested awhile, leaning against the railing as she had often leant with him, and thinking of all that had passed since that july day on which she had first met him. on no spot had he so often told her of his love as on this, and nowhere had she so eagerly sworn to him that she would be his own dutiful loving wife. "and by god's help so i will," she said to herself, as she walked firmly up to the house. "he has gone, mamma," she said, as she entered the breakfast-room. "and now we'll go back to our work-a-day ways; it has been all sunday for me for the last six weeks." chapter xvi. mr. crosbie meets an old clergyman on his way to courcy castle. [illustration: (untitled)] for the first mile or two of their journey crosbie and bernard dale sat, for the most part, silent in their gig. lily, as she ran down to the churchyard corner and stood there looking after them with her loving eyes, had not been seen by them. but the spirit of her devotion was still strong upon them both, and they felt that it would not be well to strike at once into any ordinary topic of conversation. and, moreover, we may presume that crosbie did feel much at thus parting from such a girl as lily dale, with whom he had lived in close intercourse for the last six weeks, and whom he loved with all his heart,--with all the heart that he had for such purposes. in those doubts as to his marriage which had troubled him he had never expressed to himself any disapproval of lily. he had not taught himself to think that she was other than he would have her be, that he might thus give himself an excuse for parting from her. not as yet, at any rate, had he had recourse to that practice, so common with men who wish to free themselves from the bonds with which they have permitted themselves to be bound. lily had been too sweet to his eyes, to his touch, to all his senses for that. he had enjoyed too keenly the pleasure of being with her, and of hearing her tell him that she loved him, to allow of his being personally tired of her. he had not been so spoilt by his club life but that he had taken exquisite pleasure in all her nice country ways, and soft, kind-hearted, womanly humour. he was by no means tired of lily. better than any of his london pleasures was this pleasure of making love in the green fields to lily dale. it was the consequences of it that affrighted him. babies with their belongings would come; and dull evenings, over a dull fire, or else the pining grief of a disappointed woman. he would be driven to be careful as to his clothes, because the ordering of a new coat would entail a serious expenditure. he could go no more among countesses and their daughters, because it would be out of the question that his wife should visit at their houses. all the victories that he had ever won must be given up. he was thinking of this even while the gig was going round the corner near the parsonage house, and while lily's eyes were still blessed with some view of his departing back; but he was thinking, also, that moment, that there might be other victory in store for him; that it might be possible for him to learn to like that fireside, even though babies should be there, and a woman opposite to him intent on baby cares. he was struggling as best he knew how; for the solemnity which lily had imparted to him had not yet vanished from his spirit. "i hope that, upon the whole, you feel contented with your visit?" said bernard to him, at last. "contented? of course i do." "that is easily said; and civility to me, perhaps, demands as much. but i know that you have, to some extent, been disappointed." "well; yes. i have been disappointed as regards money. it is of no use denying it." "i should not mention it now, only that i want to know that you exonerate me." "i have never blamed you;--neither you, nor anybody else; unless, indeed, it has been myself." "you mean that you regret what you've done?" "no; i don't mean that. i am too devotedly attached to that dear girl whom we have just left to feel any regret that i have engaged myself to her. but i do think that had i managed better with your uncle things might have been different." "i doubt it. indeed i know that it is not so; and can assure you that you need not make yourself unhappy on that score. i had thought, as you well know, that he would have done something for lily;--something, though not as much as he always intended to do for bell. but you may be sure of this; that he had made up his mind as to what he would do. nothing that you or i could have said would have changed him." "well; we won't say anything more about it," said crosbie. then they went on again in silence, and arrived at guestwick in ample time for the train. "let me know as soon as you get to town," said crosbie. "oh, of course. i'll write to you before that." and so they parted. as dale turned and went, crosbie felt that he liked him less than he had done before; and bernard, also, as he was driving him, came to the conclusion that crosbie would not be so good a fellow as a brother-in-law as he had been as a chance friend. "he'll give us trouble, in some way; and i'm sorry that i brought him down." that was dale's inward conviction in the matter. crosbie's way from guestwick lay, by railway, to barchester, the cathedral city lying in the next county, from whence he purposed to have himself conveyed over to courcy. there had, in truth, been no cause for his very early departure, as he was aware that all arrivals at country houses should take place at some hour not much previous to dinner. he had been determined to be so soon upon the road by a feeling that it would be well for him to get over those last hours. thus he found himself in barchester at eleven o'clock, with nothing on his hands to do; and, having nothing else to do, he went to church. there was a full service at the cathedral, and as the verger marshalled him up to one of the empty stalls, a little spare old man was beginning to chant the litany. "i did not mean to fall in for all this," said crosbie, to himself, as he settled himself with his arms on the cushion. but the peculiar charm of that old man's voice soon attracted him;--a voice that, though tremulous, was yet strong; and he ceased to regret the saint whose honour and glory had occasioned the length of that day's special service. "and who is the old gentleman who chanted the litany?" he asked the verger afterwards, as he allowed himself to be shown round the monuments of the cathedral. "that's our precentor, sir; mr. harding. you must have heard of mr. harding." but crosbie, with a full apology, confessed his ignorance. "well, sir; he's pretty well known too, tho' he is so shy like. he's father-in-law to our dean, sir; and father-in-law to archdeacon grantly also." "his daughters have all gone into the profession, then?" "why, yes; but miss eleanor--for i remember her before she was married at all,--when they lived at the hospital--" "at the hospital?" "hiram's hospital, sir. he was warden, you know. you should go and see the hospital, sir, if you never was there before. well, miss eleanor,--that was his youngest,--she married mr. bold as her first. but now she's the dean's lady." "oh; the dean's lady, is she?" "yes, indeed. and what do you think, sir? mr. harding might have been dean himself if he'd liked. they did offer it to him." "and he refused it?" "indeed he did, sir." "nolo decanari. i never heard of that before. what made him so modest?" "just that, sir; because he is modest. he's past his seventy now,--ever so much; but he's just as modest as a young girl. a deal more modest than some of them. to see him and his granddaughter together!" "and who is his granddaughter?" "why, lady dumbello, as will be the marchioness of hartletop." "i know lady dumbello," said crosbie; not meaning, however, to boast to the verger of his noble acquaintance. "oh, do you, sir?" said the man, unconsciously touching his hat at this sign of greatness in the stranger; though in truth he had no love for her ladyship. "perhaps you're going to be one of the party at courcy castle." "well, i believe i am." "you'll find her ladyship there before you. she lunched with her aunt at the deanery as she went through, yesterday; finding it too much trouble to go out to her father's, at plumstead. her father is the archdeacon, you know. they do say,--but her ladyship is your friend!" "no friend at all; only a very slight acquaintance. she's quite as much above my line as she is above her father's." "well, she is above them all. they say she would hardly as much as speak to the old gentleman." "what, her father?" "no, mr. harding; he that chanted the litany just now. there he is, sir, coming out of the deanery." they were now standing at the door leading out from one of the transepts, and mr. harding passed them as they were speaking together. he was a little, withered, shambling old man, with bent shoulders, dressed in knee-breeches and long black gaiters, which hung rather loosely about his poor old legs,--rubbing his hands one over the other as he went. and yet he walked quickly; not tottering as he walked, but with an uncertain, doubtful step. the verger, as mr. harding passed, put his hand to his head, and crosbie also raised his hat. whereupon mr. harding raised his, and bowed, and turned round as though he were about to speak. crosbie felt that he had never seen a face on which traits of human kindness were more plainly written. but the old man did not speak. he turned his body half round, and then shambled back, as though ashamed of his intention, and passed on. "he is of that sort that they make the angels of," said the verger. "but they can't make many if they want them all as good as he is. i'm much obliged to you, sir." and he pocketed the half-crown which crosbie gave him. [illustration: "he is of that sort that they make the angels of," said the verger.] "so that's lady dumbello's grandfather," said crosbie, to himself, as he walked slowly round the close towards the hospital, by the path which the verger had shown him. he had no great love for lady dumbello, who had dared to snub him,--even him. "they may make an angel of the old gentleman," he continued to say; "but they'll never succeed in that way with the granddaughter." he sauntered slowly on over a little bridge; and at the gate of the hospital he again came upon mr. harding. "i was going to venture in," said he, "to look at the place. but perhaps i shall be intruding?" "no, no; by no means," said mr. harding. "pray come in. i cannot say that i am just at home here. i do not live here,--not now. but i know the ways of the place well, and can make you welcome. that's the warden's house. perhaps we won't go in so early in the day, as the lady has a very large family. an excellent lady, and a dear friend of mine,--as is her husband." "and he is warden, you say?" "yes, warden of the hospital. you see the house, sir. very pretty, isn't it? very pretty. to my idea it's the prettiest built house i ever saw." "i won't go quite so far as that," said crosbie. "but you would if you'd lived there twelve years, as i did. i lived in that house twelve years, and i don't think there's so sweet a spot on the earth's surface. did you ever see such turf as that?" "very nice indeed," said crosbie, who began to make a comparison with mrs. dale's turf at the small house, and to determine that the allington turf was better than that of the hospital. "i had that turf laid down myself. there were borders there when i first came, with hollyhocks, and those sort of things. the turf was an improvement." "there's no doubt of that, i should say." "the turf was an improvement, certainly. and i planted those shrubs, too. there isn't such a portugal laurel as that in the county." "were you warden here, sir?" and crosbie, as he asked the question, remembered that, in his very young days, he had heard of some newspaper quarrel which had taken place about hiram's hospital at barchester. "yes, sir. i was warden here for twelve years. dear, dear, dear! if they had put any gentleman here that was not on friendly terms with me it would have made me very unhappy,--very. but, as it is, i go in and out just as i like; almost as much as i did before they-- but they didn't turn me out. there were reasons which made it best that i should resign." "and you live at the deanery now, mr. harding?" "yes; i live at the deanery now. but i am not dean, you know. my son-in-law, dr. arabin, is the dean. i have another daughter married in the neighbourhood, and can truly say that my lines have fallen to me in pleasant places." then he took crosbie in among the old men, into all of whose rooms he went. it was an almshouse for aged men of the city, and before crosbie had left him mr. harding had explained all the circumstances of the hospital, and of the way in which he had left it. "i didn't like going, you know; i thought it would break my heart. but i could not stay when they said such things as that;--i couldn't stay. and, what is more, i should have been wrong to stay. i see it all now. but when i went out under that arch, mr. crosbie, leaning on my daughter's arm, i thought that my heart would have broken." and the tears even now ran down the old man's cheeks as he spoke. it was a long story, and it need not be repeated here. and there was no reason why it should have been told to mr. crosbie, other than this,--that mr. harding was a fond garrulous old man, who loved to indulge his mind in reminiscences of the past. but this was remarked by crosbie; that, in telling his story, no word was said by mr. harding injurious to any one. and yet he had been injured,--injured very deeply. "it was all for the best," he said at last; "especially as the happiness has not been denied to me of making myself at home at the old place. i would take you into the house, which is very comfortable,--very; only it is not always convenient early in the day, where there's a large family." in hearing which crosbie was again made to think of his own future home and limited income. he had told the old clergyman who he was, and that he was on his way to courcy. "where, as i understand, i shall meet a granddaughter of yours." "yes, yes; she is my grandchild. she and i have got into different walks of life now, so that i don't see much of her. they tell me that she does her duty well in that sphere of life to which it has pleased god to call her." "that depends," thought crosbie, "on what the duties of a viscountess may be supposed to be." but he wished his new friend good-by, without saying anything further as to lady dumbello, and, at about six o'clock in the evening, had himself driven up under the portico of courcy castle. chapter xvii. courcy castle. courcy castle was very full. in the first place, there was a great gathering there of all the courcy family. the earl was there,--and the countess, of course. at this period of the year lady de courcy was always at home; but the presence of the earl himself had heretofore been by no means so certain. he was a man who had been much given to royal visitings and attendances, to parties in the highlands, to--no doubt necessary--prolongations of the london season, to sojournings at certain german watering-places, convenient, probably, in order that he might study the ways and ceremonies of german courts,--and to various other absences from home, occasioned by a close pursuit of his own special aims in life; for the earl de courcy had been a great courtier. but of late gout, lumbago, and perhaps also some diminution in his powers of making himself generally agreeable, had reconciled him to domestic duties, and the earl spent much of his time at home. the countess, in former days, had been heard to complain of her lord's frequent absence. but it is hard to please some women,--and now she would not always be satisfied with his presence. and all the sons and daughters were there,--excepting lord porlock, the eldest, who never met his father. the earl and lord porlock were not on terms, and indeed hated each other as only such fathers and such sons can hate. the honourable george de courcy was there with his bride, he having lately performed a manifest duty, in having married a young woman with money. very young she was not,--having reached some years of her life in advance of thirty; but then, neither was the honourable george very young; and in this respect the two were not ill-sorted. the lady's money had not been very much,--perhaps thirty thousand pounds or so. but then the honourable george's money had been absolutely none. now he had an income on which he could live, and therefore his father and mother had forgiven him all his sins, and taken him again to their bosom. and the marriage was matter of great moment, for the elder scion of the house had not yet taken to himself a wife, and the de courcy family might have to look to this union for an heir. the lady herself was not beautiful, or clever, or of imposing manners--nor was she of high birth. but neither was she ugly, nor unbearably stupid. her manners were, at any rate, innocent; and as to her birth,--seeing that, from the first, she was not supposed to have had any,--no disappointment was felt. her father had been a coal-merchant. she was always called mrs. george, and the effort made respecting her by everybody in and about the family was to treat her as though she were a figure of a woman, a large well-dressed resemblance of a being, whom it was necessary for certain purposes that the de courcys should carry in their train. of the honourable george we may further observe, that, having been a spendthrift all his life, he had now become strictly parsimonious. having reached the discreet age of forty, he had at last learned that beggary was objectionable; and he, therefore, devoted every energy of his mind to saving shillings and pence wherever pence and shillings might be saved. when first this turn came upon him both his father and mother were delighted to observe it; but, although it had hardly yet lasted over twelve months, some evil results were beginning to appear. though possessed of an income, he would take no steps towards possessing himself of a house. he hung by the paternal mansion, either in town or country; drank the paternal wines, rode the paternal horses, and had even contrived to obtain his wife's dresses from the maternal milliner. in the completion of which little last success, however, some slight family dissent had showed itself. the honourable john, the third son, was also at courcy. he had as yet taken to himself no wife, and as he had not hitherto made himself conspicuously useful in any special walk of life his family were beginning to regard him as a burden. having no income of his own to save, he had not copied his brother's virtue of parsimony; and, to tell the truth plainly, had made himself so generally troublesome to his father, that he had been on more than one occasion threatened with expulsion from the family roof. but it is not easy to expel a son. human fledglings cannot be driven out of the nest like young birds. an honourable john turned adrift into absolute poverty will make himself heard of in the world,--if in no other way, by his ugliness as he starves. a thorough-going ne'er-do-well in the upper classes has eminent advantages on his side in the battle which he fights against respectability. he can't be sent to australia against his will. he can't be sent to the poor-house without the knowledge of all the world. he can't be kept out of tradesmen's shops; nor, without terrible scandal, can he be kept away from the paternal properties. the earl had threatened, and snarled, and shown his teeth; he was an angry man, and a man who could look very angry; with eyes which could almost become red, and a brow that wrinkled itself in perpendicular wrinkles, sometimes very terrible to behold. but he was an inconsistent man, and the honourable john had learned to measure his father, and in an accurate balance. i have mentioned the sons first, because it is to be presumed that they were the elder, seeing that their names were mentioned before those of their sisters in all the peerages. but there were four daughters,--the ladies amelia, rosina, margaretta, and alexandrina. they, we may say, were the flowers of the family, having so lived that they had created none of those family feuds which had been so frequent between their father and their brothers. they were discreet, high-bred women, thinking, perhaps, a little too much of their own position in the world, and somewhat apt to put a wrong value on those advantages which they possessed, and on those which they did not possess. the lady amelia was already married, having made a substantial if not a brilliant match with mr. mortimer gazebee, a flourishing solicitor, belonging to a firm which had for many years acted as agents to the de courcy property. mortimer gazebee was now member of parliament for barchester, partly through the influence of his father-in-law. that this should be so was a matter of great disgust to the honourable george, who thought that the seat should have belonged to him. but as mr. gazebee had paid the very heavy expenses of the election out of his own pocket, and as george de courcy certainly could not have paid them, the justice of his claim may be questionable. lady amelia gazebee was now the happy mother of many babies, whom she was wont to carry with her on her visits to courcy castle, and had become an excellent partner to her husband. he would perhaps have liked it better if she had not spoken so frequently to him of her own high position as the daughter of an earl, or so frequently to others of her low position as the wife of an attorney. but, on the whole, they did very well together, and mr. gazebee had gotten from his marriage quite as much as he expected when he made it. the lady rosina was very religious; and i do not know that she was conspicuous in any other way, unless it might be that she somewhat resembled her father in her temper. it was of the lady rosina that the servants were afraid, especially with reference to that so-called day of rest which, under her dominion, had become to many of them a day of restless torment. it had not always been so with the lady rosina; but her eyes had been opened by the wife of a great church dignitary in the neighbourhood, and she had undergone regeneration. how great may be the misery inflicted by an energetic, unmarried, healthy woman in that condition,--a woman with no husband, or children, or duties, to distract her from her work--i pray that my readers may never know. the lady margaretta was her mother's favourite, and she was like her mother in all things,--except that her mother had been a beauty. the world called her proud, disdainful, and even insolent; but the world was not aware that in all that she did she was acting in accordance with a principle which had called for much self-abnegation. she had considered it her duty to be a de courcy and an earl's daughter at all times; and consequently she had sacrificed to her idea of duty all popularity, adulation, and such admiration as would have been awarded to her as a well-dressed, tall, fashionable, and by no means stupid young woman. to be at all times in something higher than they who were manifestly below her in rank,--that was the effort that she was ever making. but she had been a good daughter, assisting her mother, as best she might, in all family troubles, and never repining at the cold, colourless, unlovely life which had been vouchsafed to her. alexandrina was the beauty of the family, and was in truth the youngest. but even she was not very young, and was beginning to make her friends uneasy lest she, too, should let the precious season of hay-harvest run by without due use of her summer's sun. she had, perhaps, counted too much on her beauty, which had been beauty according to law rather than beauty according to taste, and had looked, probably, for too bounteous a harvest. that her forehead, and nose, and cheeks, and chin were well-formed, no man could deny. her hair was soft and plentiful. her teeth were good, and her eyes were long and oval. but the fault of her face was this,--that when you left her you could not remember it. after a first acquaintance you could meet her again and not know her. after many meetings you would fail to carry away with you any portrait of her features. but such as she had been at twenty, such was she now at thirty. years had not robbed her face of its regularity, or ruffled the smoothness of her too even forehead. rumour had declared that on more than one, or perhaps more than two occasions, lady alexandrina had been already induced to plight her troth in return for proffered love; but we all know that rumour, when she takes to such topics, exaggerates the truth, and sets down much in malice. the lady was once engaged, the engagement lasting for two years, and the engagement had been broken off, owing to some money difficulties between the gentlemen of the families. since that she had become somewhat querulous, and was supposed to be uneasy on that subject of her haymaking. her glass and her maid assured her that her sun shone still as brightly as ever; but her spirit was becoming weary with waiting, and she dreaded lest she should become a terror to all, as was her sister rosina, or an object of interest to none, as was margaretta. it was from her especially that this message had been sent to our friend crosbie; for, during the last spring in london, she and crosbie had known each other well. yes, my gentle readers; it is true, as your heart suggests to you. under such circumstances mr. crosbie should not have gone to courcy castle. such was the family circle of the de courcys. among their present guests i need not enumerate many. first and foremost in all respects was lady dumbello, of whose parentage and position a few words were said in the last chapter. she was a lady still very young, having as yet been little more than two years married. but in those two years her triumphs had been many;--so many, that in the great world her standing already equalled that of her celebrated mother-in-law, the marchioness of hartletop, who, for twenty years, had owned no greater potentate than herself in the realms of fashion. but lady dumbello was every inch as great as she; and men said, and women also, that the daughter-in-law would soon be the greater. "i'll be hanged if i can understand how she does it," a certain noble peer had once said to crosbie, standing at the door of sebright's, during the latter days of the last season. "she never says anything to any one. she won't speak ten words a whole night through." "i don't think she has an idea in her head," said crosbie. "let me tell you that she must be a very clever woman," continued the noble peer. "no fool could do as she does. remember, she's only a parson's daughter; and as for beauty--" "i don't admire her for one," said crosbie. "i don't want to run away with her, if you mean that," said the peer; "but she is handsome, no doubt. i wonder whether dumbello likes it." dumbello did like it. it satisfied his ambition to be led about as the senior lacquey in his wife's train. he believed himself to be a great man because the world fought for his wife's presence; and considered himself to be distinguished even among the eldest sons of marquises, by the greatness reflected from the parson's daughter whom he had married. he had now been brought to courcy castle, and felt himself proud of his situation because lady dumbello had made considerable difficulty in according this week to the countess de courcy. and lady julia de guest was already there, the sister of the other old earl who lived in the next county. she had only arrived on the day before, but had been quick in spreading the news as to crosbie's engagement. "engaged to one of the dales, is he?" said the countess, with a pretty little smile, which showed plainly that the matter was one of no interest to herself. "has she got any money?" "not a shilling, i should think," said the lady julia. "pretty, i suppose?" suggested the countess. "why, yes; she is pretty--and a nice girl. i don't know whether her mother and uncle were very wise in encouraging mr. crosbie. i don't hear that he has anything special to recommend him,--in the way of money i mean." "i dare say it will come to nothing," said the countess, who liked to hear of girls being engaged and then losing their promised husbands. she did not know that she liked it, but she did; and already had pleasure in anticipating poor lily's discomfiture. but not the less was she angry with crosbie, feeling that he was making his way into her house under false pretences. and alexandrina also was angry when lady julia repeated the same tidings in her hearing. "i really don't think we care very much about it, lady julia," said she, with a little toss of her head. "that's three times we've been told of miss dale's good fortune." "the dales are related to you, i think?" said margaretta. "not at all," said lady julia, bristling up. "the lady whom mr. crosbie proposes to marry is in no way connected with us. her cousin, who is the heir to the allington property, is my nephew by his mother." and then the subject was dropped. crosbie, on his arrival, was shown up into his room, told the hour of dinner, and left to his devices. he had been at the castle before, and knew the ways of the house. so he sat himself down to his table, and began a letter to lily. but he had not proceeded far, not having as yet indeed made up his mind as to the form in which he would commence it, but was sitting idly with the pen in his hand, thinking of lily, and thinking also how such houses as this in which he now found himself would be soon closed against him, when there came a rap at his door, and before he could answer the honourable john entered the room. "well, old fellow," said the honourable john, "how are you?" crosbie had been intimate with john de courcy, but never felt for him either friendship or liking. crosbie did not like such men as john de courcy; but nevertheless, they called each other old fellow, poked each other's ribs, and were very intimate. "heard you were here," continued the honourable john; "so i thought i would come up and look after you. going to be married, ain't you?" "not that i know of," said crosbie. "come, we know better than that. the women have been talking about it for the last three days. i had her name quite pat yesterday, but i've forgot it now. hasn't got a tanner; has she?" and the honourable john had now seated himself upon the table. "you seem to know a great deal more about it than i do." "it is that old woman from guestwick who told us, then. the women will be at you at once, you'll find. if there's nothing in it, it's what i call a d---- shame. why should they always pull a fellow to pieces in that way? they were going to marry me the other day!" "were they indeed, though?" "to harriet twistleton. you know harriet twistleton? an uncommon fine girl, you know. but i wasn't going to be caught like that. i'm very fond of harriet,--in my way, you know; but they don't catch an old bird like me with chaff." "i condole with miss twistleton for what she has lost." "i don't know about condoling. but upon my word that getting married is a very slow thing. have you seen george's wife?" crosbie declared that he had not as yet had that pleasure. "she's here now, you know. i wouldn't have taken her, not if she'd had ten times thirty thousand pounds. by jove, no. but he likes it well enough. would you believe it now?--he cares for nothing on earth except money. you never saw such a fellow. but i'll tell you what, his nose will be out of joint yet, for porlock is going to marry. i heard it from colepepper, who almost lives with porlock. as soon as porlock heard that she was in the family way he immediately made up his mind to cut him out." "that was a great sign of brotherly love," said crosbie. "i knew he'd do it," said john; "and so i told george before he got himself spliced. but he would go on. if he'd remained as he was for four or five years longer there would have been no danger;--for porlock, you know, is leading the deuce of a life. i shouldn't wonder if he didn't reform now, and take to singing psalms or something of that sort." "there's no knowing what a man may come to in this world." "by george, no. but i'll tell you what, they'll find no change in me. if i marry it will not be with the intention of giving up life. i say, old fellow, have you got a cigar here?" "what, to smoke up here, do you mean?" "yes; why not? we're ever so far from the women." "not whilst i am occupier of this room. besides, it's time to dress for dinner." "is it? so it is, by george! but i mean to have a smoke first, i can tell you. so it's all a lie about your being engaged; eh?" "as far as i know, it is," said crosbie. and then his friend left him. what was he to do at once, now, this very day, as to his engagement? he had felt sure that the report of it would be carried to courcy by lady julia de guest, but he had not settled down upon any resolution as to what he would do in consequence. it had not occurred to him that he would immediately be charged with the offence, and called upon to plead guilty or not guilty. he had never for a moment meditated any plea of not guilty, but he was aware of an aversion on his part to declare himself as engaged to lilian dale. it seemed that by doing so he would cut himself off at once from all pleasure at such houses as courcy castle; and, as he argued to himself, why should he not enjoy the little remnant of his bachelor life? as to his denying his engagement to john de courcy,--that was nothing. any one would understand that he would be justified in concealing a fact concerning himself from such a one as he. the denial repeated from john's mouth would amount to nothing,--even among john's own sisters. but now it was necessary that crosbie should make up his mind as to what he would say when questioned by the ladies of the house. if he were to deny the fact to them the denial would be very serious. and, indeed, was it possible that he should make such denial with lady julia opposite to him? make such a denial! and was it the fact that he could wish to do so,--that he should think of such falsehood, and even meditate on the perpetration of such cowardice? he had held that young girl to his heart on that very morning. he had sworn to her, and had also sworn to himself, that she should have no reason for distrusting him. he had acknowledged most solemnly to himself that, whether for good or for ill, he was bound to her; and could it be that he was already calculating as to the practicability of disowning her? in doing so must he not have told himself that he was a villain? but in truth he made no such calculation. his object was to banish the subject, if it were possible to do so; to think of some answer by which he might create a doubt. it did not occur to him to tell the countess boldly that there was no truth whatever in the report, and that miss dale was nothing to him. but might he not skilfully laugh off the subject, even in the presence of lady julia? men who were engaged did so usually, and why should not he? it was generally thought that solicitude for the lady's feelings should prevent a man from talking openly of his own engagement. then he remembered the easy freedom with which his position had been discussed throughout the whole neighbourhood of allington, and felt for the first time that the dale family had been almost indelicate in their want of reticence. "i suppose it was done to tie me the faster," he said to himself, as he pulled out the ends of his cravat. "what a fool i was to come here, or indeed to go anywhere, after settling myself as i have done." and then he went down into the drawing-room. it was almost a relief to him when he found that he was not charged with his sin at once. he himself had been so full of the subject that he had expected to be attacked at the moment of his entrance. he was, however, greeted without any allusion to the matter. the countess, in her own quiet way, shook hands with him as though she had seen him only the day before. the earl, who was seated in his arm-chair, asked some one, out loud, who the stranger was, and then, with two fingers put forth, muttered some apology for a welcome. but crosbie was quite up to that kind of thing. "how do, my lord?" he said, turning his face away to some one else as he spoke; and then he took no further notice of the master of the house. "not know him, indeed!" crippled though he was by his matrimonial bond, crosbie felt that, at any rate as yet, he was the earl's equal in social importance. after that, he found himself in the back part of the drawing-room, away from the elder people, standing with lady alexandrina, with miss gresham, a cousin of the de courcys, and sundry other of the younger portion of the assembled community. "so you have lady dumbello here?" said crosbie. "oh, yes; the dear creature!" said lady margaretta. "it was so good of her to come, you know." "she positively refused the duchess of st. bungay," said alexandrina. "i hope you perceive how good we've been to you in getting you to meet her. people have actually asked to come." "i am grateful; but, in truth, my gratitude has more to do with courcy castle and its habitual inmates, than with lady dumbello. is he here?" "oh, yes! he's in the room somewhere. there he is, standing up by lady clandidlem. he always stands in that way before dinner. in the evening he sits down much after the same fashion." crosbie had seen him on first entering the room, and had seen every individual in it. he knew better than to omit the duty of that scrutinizing glance; but it sounded well in his line not to have observed lord dumbello. "and her ladyship is not down?" said he. "she is generally last," said lady margaretta. "and yet she has always three women to dress her," said alexandrina. "but when finished, what a success it is!" said crosbie. "indeed it is!" said margaretta, with energy. then the door was opened, and lady dumbello entered the room. there was immediately a commotion among them all. even the gouty old lord shuffled up out of his chair, and tried, with a grin, to look sweet and pleasant. the countess came forward, looking very sweet and pleasant, making little complimentary speeches, to which the viscountess answered simply by a gracious smile. lady clandidlem, though she was very fat and heavy, left the viscount, and got up to join the group. baron potsneuf, a diplomatic german of great celebrity, crossed his hands upon his breast and made a low bow. the honourable george, who had stood silent for the last quarter of an hour, suggested to her ladyship that she must have found the air rather cold; and the ladies margaretta and alexandrina fluttered up with little complimentary speeches to their dear lady dumbello, hoping this and beseeching that, as though the "woman in white" before them had been the dearest friend of their infancy. she was a woman in white, being dressed in white silk, with white lace over it, and with no other jewels upon her person than diamonds. very beautifully she was dressed; doing infinite credit, no doubt, to those three artists who had, between them, succeeded in turning her out of hand. and her face, also, was beautiful, with a certain cold, inexpressive beauty. she walked up the room very slowly, smiling here and smiling there; but still with very faint smiles, and took the place which her hostess indicated to her. one word she said to the countess and two to the earl. beyond that she did not open her lips. all the homage paid to her she received as though it were clearly her due. she was not in the least embarrassed, nor did she show herself to be in the slightest degree ashamed of her own silence. she did not look like a fool, nor was she even taken for a fool; but she contributed nothing to society but her cold, hard beauty, her gait, and her dress. we may say that she contributed enough, for society acknowledged itself to be deeply indebted to her. the only person in the room who did not move at lady dumbello's entrance was her husband. but he remained unmoved from no want of enthusiasm. a spark of pleasure actually beamed in his eye as he saw the triumphant entrance of his wife. he felt that he had made a match that was becoming to him as a great nobleman, and that the world was acknowledging that he had done his duty. and yet lady dumbello had been simply the daughter of a country parson, of a clergyman who had reached no higher rank than that of an archdeacon. "how wonderfully well that woman has educated her," the countess said that evening in her dressing-room, to margaretta. the woman alluded to was mrs. grantly, the wife of the parson and mother of lady dumbello. the old earl was very cross because destiny and the table of precedence required him to take out lady clandidlem to dinner. he almost insulted her, as she kindly endeavoured to assist him in his infirm step rather than to lean upon him. "ugh!" he said, "it's a bad arrangement that makes two old people like you and me be sent out together to help each other." "speak for yourself," said her ladyship, with a laugh. "i, at any rate, can get about without any assistance,"--which, indeed, was true enough. "it's well for you!" growled the earl, as he got himself into his seat. and after that he endeavoured to solace his pain by a flirtation with lady dumbello on his left. the earl's smiles and the earl's teeth, when he whispered naughty little nothings to pretty young women, were phenomena at which men might marvel. whatever those naughty nothings were on the present occasion, lady dumbello took them all with placidity, smiling graciously, but speaking hardly more than monosyllables. lady alexandrina fell to crosbie's lot, and he felt gratified that it was so. it might be necessary for him, as a married man, to give up such acquaintances as the de courcys, but he should like, if possible, to maintain a friendship with lady alexandrina. what a friend lady alexandrina would be for lily, if any such friendship were only possible! what an advantage would such an alliance confer upon that dear little girl;--for, after all, though the dear little girl's attractions were very great, he could not but admit to himself that she wanted a something,--a way of holding herself and of speaking, which some people call style. lily might certainly learn a great deal from lady alexandrina; and it was this conviction, no doubt, which made him so sedulous in pleasing that lady on the present occasion. and she, as it seemed, was well inclined to be pleased. she said no word to him during dinner about lily; and yet she spoke about the dales, and about allington, showing that she knew in what quarters he had been staying, and then she alluded to their last parties in london,--those occasions on which, as crosbie now remembered, the intercourse between them had almost been tender. it was manifest to him that at any rate she did not wish to quarrel with him. it was manifest, also, that she had some little hesitation in speaking to him about his engagement. he did not for a moment doubt that she was aware of it. and in this way matters went on between them till the ladies left the room. "so you're going to be married, too," said the honourable george, by whose side crosbie found himself seated when the ladies were gone. crosbie was employing himself upon a walnut, and did not find it necessary to make any answer. "it's the best thing a fellow can do," continued george; "that is, if he has been careful to look to the main chance,--if he hasn't been caught napping, you know. it doesn't do for a man to go hanging on by nothing till he finds himself an old man." "you've feathered your own nest, at any rate." "yes; i've got something in the scramble, and i mean to keep it. where will john be when the governor goes off the hooks? porlock wouldn't give him a bit of bread and cheese and a glass of beer to save his life;--that is to say, not if he wanted it." "i'm told your elder brother is going to be married." "you've heard that from john. he's spreading that about everywhere to take a rise out of me. i don't believe a word of it. porlock never was a marrying man;--and, what's more, from all i hear, i don't think he'll live long." in this way crosbie escaped from his own difficulty; and when he rose from the dinner-table had not as yet been driven to confess anything to his own discredit. but the evening was not yet over. when he returned to the drawing-room he endeavoured to avoid any conversation with the countess herself, believing that the attack would more probably come from her than from her daughter. he, therefore, got into conversation first with one and then with another of the girls, till at last he found himself again alone with alexandrina. "mr. crosbie," she said, in a low voice, as they were standing together over one of the distant tables, with their backs to the rest of the company, "i want you to tell me something about miss lilian dale." "about miss lilian dale!" he said, repeating her words. "is she very pretty?" "yes; she certainly is pretty." "and very nice, and attractive, and clever,--and all that is delightful? is she perfect?" "she is very attractive," said he; "but i don't think she's perfect." "and what are her faults?" "that question is hardly fair, is it? suppose any one were to ask me what were your faults, do you think i should answer the question?" "i am quite sure you would, and make a very long list of them, too. but as to miss dale, you ought to think her perfect. if a gentleman were engaged to me, i should expect him to swear before all the world that i was the very pink of perfection." "but supposing the gentleman were not engaged to you?" "that would be a different thing." "i am not engaged to you," said crosbie. "such happiness and such honour are, i fear, very far beyond my reach. but, nevertheless, i am prepared to testify as to your perfection anywhere." "and what would miss dale say?" "allow me to assure you that such opinions as i may choose to express of my friends will be my own opinions, and not depend on those of any one else." "and you think, then, that you are not bound to be enslaved as yet? how many more months of such freedom are you to enjoy?" crosbie remained silent for a minute before he answered, and then he spoke in a serious voice. "lady alexandrina," said he, "i would beg from you a great favour." "what is the favour, mr. crosbie?" "i am quite in earnest. will you be good enough, kind enough, enough my friend, not to connect my name again with that of miss dale while i am here?" "has there been a quarrel?" "no; there has been no quarrel. i cannot explain to you now why i make this request; but to you i will explain it before i go." "explain it to me!" "i have regarded you as more than an acquaintance,--as a friend. in days now past there were moments when i was almost rash enough to hope that i might have said even more than that. i confess that i had no warrant for such hopes, but i believe that i may still look on you as a friend?" "oh, yes, certainly," said alexandrina, in a very low voice, and with a certain amount of tenderness in her tone. "i have always regarded you as a friend." "and therefore i venture to make the request. the subject is not one on which i can speak openly, without regret, at the present moment. but to you, at least, i promise that i will explain it all before i leave courcy." he at any rate succeeded in mystifying lady alexandrina. "i don't believe he is engaged a bit," she said to lady amelia gazebee that night. "nonsense, my dear. lady julia wouldn't speak of it in that certain way if she didn't know. of course he doesn't wish to have it talked about." "if ever he has been engaged to her, he has broken it off again," said lady alexandrina. "i dare say he will, my dear, if you give him encouragement," said the married sister, with great sisterly good-nature. chapter xviii. lily dale's first love-letter. crosbie was rather proud of himself when he went to bed. he had succeeded in baffling the charge made against him, without saying anything as to which his conscience need condemn him. so, at least, he then told himself. the impression left by what he had said would be that there had been some question of an engagement between him and lilian dale, but that nothing at this moment was absolutely fixed. but in the morning his conscience was not quite so clear. what would lily think and say if she knew it all? could he dare to tell her, or to tell any one the real state of his mind? as he lay in bed, knowing that an hour remained to him before he need encounter the perils of his tub, he felt that he hated courcy castle and its inmates. who was there, among them all, that was comparable to mrs. dale and her daughters? he detested both george and john. he loathed the earl. as to the countess herself, he was perfectly indifferent, regarding her as a woman whom it was well to know, but as one only to be known as the mistress of courcy castle and a house in london. as to the daughters, he had ridiculed them all from time to time--even alexandrina, whom he now professed to love. perhaps in some sort of way he had a weak fondness for her;--but it was a fondness that had never touched his heart. he could measure the whole thing at its worth,--courcy castle with its privileges, lady dumbello, lady clandidlem, and the whole of it. he knew that he had been happier on that lawn at allington, and more contented with himself, than ever he had been even under lady hartletop's splendid roof in shropshire. lady dumbello was satisfied with these things, even in the inmost recesses of her soul; but he was not a male lady dumbello. he knew that there was something better, and that that something was within his reach. but, nevertheless, the air of courcy was too much for him. in arguing the matter with himself he regarded himself as one infected with a leprosy from which there could be no recovery, and who should, therefore, make his whole life suitable to the circumstances of that leprosy. it was of no use for him to tell himself that the small house at allington was better than courcy castle. satan knew that heaven was better than hell; but he found himself to be fitter for the latter place. crosbie ridiculed lady dumbello, even there among her friends, with all the cutting words that his wit could find; but, nevertheless, the privilege of staying in the same house with her was dear to him. it was the line of life into which he had fallen, and he confessed inwardly that the struggle to extricate himself would be too much for him. all that had troubled him while he was yet at allington, but it overwhelmed him almost with dismay beneath the hangings of courcy castle. had he not better run from the place at once? he had almost acknowledged to himself that he repented his engagement with lilian dale, but he still was resolved that he would fulfil it. he was bound in honour to marry "that little girl," and he looked sternly up at the drapery over his head, as he assured himself that he was a man of honour. yes; he would sacrifice himself. as he had been induced to pledge his word, he would not go back from it. he was too much of a man for that! but had he not been wrong to refuse the result of lily's wisdom when she told him in the field that it would be better for them to part? he did not tell himself that he had refused her offer merely because he had not the courage to accept it on the spur of the moment. no. "he had been too good to the poor girl to take her at her word." it was thus he argued on the matter within his own breast. he had been too true to her; and now the effect would be that they would both be unhappy for life! he could not live in content with a family upon a small income. he was well aware of that. no one could be harder upon him in that matter than was he himself. but it was too late now to remedy the ill effects of an early education. it was thus that he debated the matter as he lay in bed,--contradicting one argument by another over and over again; but still in all of them teaching himself to think that this engagement of his was a misfortune. poor lily! her last words to him had conveyed an assurance that she would never distrust him. and she also, as she lay wakeful in her bed on this the first morning of his absence, thought much of their mutual vows. how true she would be to them! how she would be his wife with all her heart and spirit! it was not only that she would love him;--but in her love she would serve him to her utmost; serve him as regarded this world, and if possible as regarded the next. "bell," she said, "i wish you were going to be married too." "thank'ye, dear," said bell. "perhaps i shall some day." "ah; but i'm not joking. it seems such a serious thing. and i can't expect you to talk to me about it now as you would if you were in the same position yourself. do you think i shall make him happy?" "yes, i do, certainly." "happier than he would be with any one else that he might meet? i dare not think that. i think i could give him up to-morrow, if i could see any one that would suit him better." what would lily have said had she been made acquainted with all the fascinations of lady alexandrina de courcy? the countess was very civil to him, saying nothing about his engagement, but still talking to him a good deal about his sojourn at allington. crosbie was a pleasant man for ladies in a large house. though a sportsman, he was not so keen a sportsman as to be always out with the gamekeepers. though a politician, he did not sacrifice his mornings to the perusal of blue-books or the preparation of party tactics. though a reading man, he did not devote himself to study. though a horseman, he was not often to be found in the stables. he could supply conversation when it was wanted, and could take himself out of the way when his presence among the women was not needed. between breakfast and lunch on the day following his arrival he talked a good deal to the countess, and made himself very agreeable. she continued to ridicule him gently for his prolonged stay among so primitive and rural a tribe of people as the dales, and he bore her little sarcasm with the utmost good-humour. "six weeks at allington without a move! why, mr. crosbie, you must have felt yourself to be growing there." "so i did--like an ancient tree. indeed, i was so rooted that i could hardly get away." "was the house full of people all the time?" "there was nobody there but bernard dale, lady julia's nephew." "quite a case of damon and pythias. fancy your going down to the shades of allington to enjoy the uninterrupted pleasures of friendship for six weeks." "friendship and the partridges." "there was nothing else, then?" "indeed there was. there was a widow with two very nice daughters, living, not exactly in the same house, but on the same grounds." "oh, indeed. that makes such a difference; doesn't it? you are not a man to bear much privation on the score of partridges, nor a great deal, i imagine, for friendship. but when you talk of pretty girls--" "it makes a difference, doesn't it?" "a very great difference. i think i have heard of that mrs. dale before. and so her girls are nice?" "very nice indeed." "play croquet, i suppose, and eat syllabub on the lawn? but, really, didn't you get very tired of it?" "oh dear, no. i was happy as the day was long." "going about with a crook, i suppose?" "not exactly a live crook; but doing all that kind of thing. i learned a great deal about pigs." "under the guidance of miss dale?" "yes; under the guidance of miss dale." "i'm sure one is very much obliged to you for tearing yourself away from such charms, and coming to such unromantic people as we are. but i fancy men always do that sort of thing once or twice in their lives,--and then they talk of their souvenirs. i suppose it won't go beyond a souvenir with you." this was a direct question, but still admitted of a fencing answer. "it has, at any rate, given me one," said he, "which will last me my life!" the countess was quite contented. that lady julia's statement was altogether true she had never for a moment doubted. that crosbie should become engaged to a young lady in the country, whereas he had shown signs of being in love with her daughter in london, was not at all wonderful. nor, in her eyes, did such practice amount to any great sin. men did so daily, and girls were prepared for their so doing. a man in her eyes was not to be regarded as safe from attack because he was engaged. let the young lady who took upon herself to own him have an eye to that. when she looked back on the past careers of her own flock, she had to reckon more than one such disappointment for her own daughters. others besides alexandrina had been so treated. lady de courcy had had her grand hopes respecting her girls, and after them moderate hopes, and again after them bitter disappointments. only one had been married, and she was married to an attorney. it was not to be supposed that she would have any very high-toned feelings as to lily's rights in this matter. such a man as crosbie was certainly no great match for an earl's daughter. such a marriage, indeed, would, one may say, be but a poor triumph. when the countess, during the last season in town, had observed how matters were going with alexandrina, she had cautioned her child, taking her to task for her imprudence. but the child had been at this work for fourteen years, and was weary of it. her sisters had been at the work longer, and had almost given it up in despair. alexandrina did not tell her parent that her heart was now beyond her control, and that she had devoted herself to crosbie for ever; but she pouted, saying that she knew very well what she was about, scolding her mother in return, and making lady de courcy perceive that the struggle was becoming very weary. and then there were other considerations. mr. crosbie had not much certainly in his own possession, but he was a man out of whom something might be made by family influence and his own standing. he was not a hopeless, ponderous man, whom no leaven could raise. he was one of whose position in society the countess and her daughters need not be ashamed. lady de courcy had given no expressed consent to the arrangement, but it had come to be understood between her and her daughter that the scheme was to be entertained as admissible. then came these tidings of the little girl down at allington. she felt no anger against crosbie. to be angry on such a subject would be futile, foolish, and almost indecorous. it was a part of the game which was as natural to her as fielding is to a cricketer. one cannot have it all winnings at any game. whether crosbie should eventually become her own son-in-law or not it came to her naturally, as a part of her duty in life, to bowl down the stumps of that young lady at allington. if miss dale knew the game well and could protect her own wicket, let her do so. she had no doubt as to crosbie's engagement with lilian dale, but she had as little as to his being ashamed of that engagement. had he really cared for miss dale he would not have left her to come to courcy castle. had he been really resolved to marry her, he would not have warded all questions respecting his engagement with fictitious answers. he had amused himself with lily dale, and it was to be hoped that the young lady had not thought very seriously about it. that was the most charitable light in which lady de courcy was disposed to regard the question. it behoved crosbie to write to lily dale before dinner. he had promised to do so immediately on his arrival, and he was aware that he would be regarded as being already one day beyond his promise. lily had told him that she would live upon his letters, and it was absolutely necessary that he should furnish her with her first meal. so he betook himself to his room in sufficient time before dinner, and got out his pen, ink, and paper. he got out his pen, ink, and paper, and then he found that his difficulties were beginning. i beg that it may be understood that crosbie was not altogether a villain. he could not sit down and write a letter as coming from his heart, of which as he wrote it he knew the words to be false. he was an ungenerous, worldly, inconstant man, very prone to think well of himself, and to give himself credit for virtues which he did not possess; but he could not be false with premeditated cruelty to a woman he had sworn to love. he could not write an affectionate, warm-hearted letter to lily, without bringing himself, at any rate for the time, to feel towards her in an affectionate, warm-hearted way. therefore he now sat himself to work, while his pen yet remained dry in his hand, to remodel his thoughts, which had been turned against lily and allington by the craft of lady de courcy. it takes some time before a man can do this. he has to struggle with himself in a very uncomfortable way, making efforts which are often unsuccessful. it is sometimes easier to lift a couple of hundredweights than to raise a few thoughts in one's mind which at other moments will come galloping in without a whistle. he had just written the date of his letter when a little tap came at his door, and it was opened. "i say, crosbie," said the honourable john, "didn't you say something yesterday about a cigar before dinner?" "not a word," said crosbie, in rather an angry tone. "then it must have been me," said john. "but bring your case with you, and come down to the harness-room, if you won't smoke here. i've had a regular little snuggery fitted up there; and we can go in and see the fellows making up the horses." crosbie wished the honourable john at the mischief. "i have letters to write," said he. "besides, i never smoke before dinner." "that's nonsense. i've smoked hundreds of cigars with you before dinner. are you going to turn curmudgeon, too, like george and the rest of them? i don't know what's coming to the world! i suppose the fact is, that little girl at allington won't let you smoke." "the little girl at allington--" began crosbie; and then he reflected that it would not be well for him to say anything to his present companion about that little girl. "i'll tell you what it is," said he. "i really have got letters to write which must go by this post. there's my cigar-case on the dressing-table." "i hope it will be long before i'm brought to such a state," said john, taking up the cigars in his hand. "let me have the case back," said crosbie. "a present from the little girl, i suppose?" said john. "all right, old fellow! you shall have it." "there would be a nice brother-in-law for a man," said crosbie to himself, as the door closed behind the retreating scion of the de courcy family. and then, again, he took up his pen. the letter must be written, and therefore he threw himself upon the table, resolved that the words should come and the paper be filled. courcy castle, october, --. dearest lily,--this is the first letter i ever wrote to you, except those little notes when i sent you my compliments discreetly,--and it sounds so odd. you will think that this does not come as soon as it should; but the truth is that after all i only got in here just before dinner yesterday. i stayed ever so long in barchester, and came across such a queer character. for you must know i went to church, and afterwards fraternized with the clergyman who did the service; such a gentle old soul,--and, singularly enough, he is the grandfather of lady dumbello, who is staying here. i wonder what you'd think of lady dumbello, or how you'd like to be shut up in the same house with her for a week? but with reference to my staying at barchester, i must tell you the truth now, though i was a gross impostor the day that i went away. i wanted to avoid a parting on that last morning, and therefore i started much sooner than i need have done. i know you will be very angry with me; but open confession is good for the soul. you frustrated all my little plan by your early rising; and as i saw you standing on the terrace, looking after us as we went, i acknowledged that you had been right, and that i was wrong. when the time came, i was very glad to have you with me at the last moment. my own dearest lily, you cannot think how different this place is from the two houses at allington, or how much i prefer the sort of life which belongs to the latter. i know that i have been what the world calls worldly, but you will have to cure me of that. i have questioned myself very much since i left you, and i do not think that i am quite beyond the reach of a cure. at any rate, i will put myself trustingly into the doctor's hands. i know it is hard for a man to change his habits; but i can with truth say this for myself, that i was happy at allington, enjoying every hour of the day, and that here i am ennuyé by everybody and nearly by everything. one of the girls of the house i do like; but as to other people, i can hardly find a companion among them, let alone a friend. however, it would not have done for me to have broken away from all such alliances too suddenly. when i get up to london--and now i really am anxious to get there--i can write to you more at my ease, and more freely than i do here. i know that i am hardly myself among these people,--or rather, i am hardly myself as you know me, and as i hope you always will know me. but, nevertheless, i am not so overcome by the miasma but what i can tell you how truly i love you. even though my spirit should be here, which it is not, my heart would be on the allington lawns. that dear lawn and that dear bridge! give my kind love to bell and your mother. i feel already that i might almost say my mother. and lily, my darling, write to me at once. i expect your letters to me to be longer, and better, and brighter than mine to you. but i will endeavour to make mine nicer when i get back to town. god bless you. yours, with all my heart, a. c. as he had waxed warm with his writing he had forced himself to be affectionate, and, as he flattered himself, frank and candid. nevertheless, he was partly conscious that he was preparing for himself a mode of escape in those allusions of his to his own worldliness; if escape should ultimately be necessary. "i have tried," he would then say; "i have struggled honestly, with my best efforts for success; but i am not good enough for such success." i do not intend to say that he wrote with a premeditated intention of thus using his words; but as he wrote them he could not keep himself from reflecting that they might be used in that way. he read his letter over, felt satisfied with it, and resolved that he might now free his mind from that consideration for the next forty-eight hours. whatever might be his sins he had done his duty by lily! and with this comfortable reflection he deposited his letter in the courcy castle letter-box. chapter xix. the squire makes a visit to the small house. [illustration: (untitled)] mrs. dale acknowledged to herself that she had not much ground for hoping that she should ever find in crosbie's house much personal happiness for her future life. she did not dislike mr. crosbie, nor in any great degree mistrust him; but she had seen enough of him to make her certain that lily's future home in london could not be a home for her. he was worldly, or, at least, a man of the world. he would be anxious to make the most of his income, and his life would be one long struggle, not perhaps for money, but for those things which money only can give. there are men to whom eight hundred a year is great wealth, and houses to which it brings all the comforts that life requires. but crosbie was not such a man, nor would his house be such a house. mrs. dale hoped that lily would be happy with him, and satisfied with his modes of life, and she strove to believe that such would be the case; but as regarded herself she was forced to confess that in such a marriage her child would be much divided from her. that pleasant abode to which she had long looked forward that she might have a welcome there in coming years should be among fields and trees, not in some narrow london street. lily must now become a city lady; but bell would still be left to her, and it might still be hoped that bell would find for herself some country home. since the day on which lily had first told her mother of her engagement, mrs. dale had found herself talking much more fully and more frequently with bell than with her younger daughter. as long as crosbie was at allington this was natural enough. he and lily were of course together, while bell remained with her mother. but the same state of things continued even after crosbie was gone. it was not that there was any coolness or want of affection between the mother and daughter, but that lily's heart was full of her lover, and that mrs. dale, though she had given her cordial consent to the marriage, felt that she had but few points of sympathy with her future son-in-law. she had never said, even to herself, that she disliked him; nay, she had sometimes declared to herself that she was fond of him. but, in truth, he was not a man after her own heart. he was not one who could ever be to her as her own son and her own child. but she and bell would pass hours together talking of lily's prospects. "it seems so strange to me," said mrs. dale, "that she of all girls should have been fancied by such a man as mr. crosbie, or that she should have liked him. i cannot imagine lily living in london." "if he is good and affectionate to her she will be happy wherever he is," said bell. "i hope so;--i'm sure i hope so. but it seems as though she will be so far separated from us. it is not the distance, but the manner of life which makes the separation. i hope you'll never be taken so far from me." "i don't think i shall allow myself to be taken up to london," said bell, laughing. "but one can never tell. if i do you must follow us, mamma." "i do not want another mr. crosbie for you, dear." "but perhaps i may want one for myself. you need not tremble quite yet, however. apollos do not come this road every day." "poor lily! do you remember when she first called him apollo? i do, well. i remember his coming here the day after bernard brought him down, and how you were playing on the lawn, while i was in the other garden. i little thought then what it would come to." "but, mamma, you don't regret it?" "not if it's to make her happy. if she can be happy with him, of course i shall not regret it; not though he were to take her to the world's end away from us. what else have i to look for but that she and you should both be happy?" "men in london are happy with their wives as well as men in the country." "oh, yes; of all women i should be the first to acknowledge that." "and as to adolphus himself, i do not know why we should distrust him." "no, my dear; there is no reason. if i did distrust him, i should not have given so ready an assent to the marriage. but, nevertheless--" "the truth is, you don't like him, mamma." "not so cordially as i hope i may like any man whom you may choose for your husband." and lily, though she said nothing on the subject to mrs. dale, felt that her mother was in some degree estranged from her. crosbie's name was frequently mentioned between them, but in the tone of mrs. dale's voice, and in her manner when she spoke of him, there was lacking that enthusiasm and heartiness which real sympathy would have produced. lily did not analyse her own feelings, or closely make inquiry as to those of her mother, but she perceived that it was not all as she would have wished it to have been. "i know mamma does not love him," she said to bell on the evening of the day on which she received crosbie's first letter. "not as you do, lily; but she does love him." "not as i do! to say that is nonsense, bell; of course she does not love him as i do. but the truth is she does not love him at all. do you think i cannot see it?" "i'm afraid that you see too much." "she never says a word against him; but if she really liked him she would sometimes say a word in his favour. i do not think she would ever mention his name unless you or i spoke of him before her. if she did not approve of him, why did she not say so sooner?" "that's hardly fair upon mamma," said bell, with some earnestness. "she does not disapprove of him, and she never did. you know mamma well enough to be sure that she would not interfere with us in such a matter without very strong reason. as regards mr. crosbie, she gave her consent without a moment's hesitation." "yes, she did." "how can you say, then, that she disapproves of him?" "i didn't mean to find fault with mamma. perhaps it will come all right." "it will come all right." but bell, though she made this very satisfactory promise, was as well aware as either of the others that the family would be divided when crosbie should have married lily and taken her off to london. on the following morning mrs. dale and bell were sitting together. lily was above in her own room, either writing to her lover, or reading his letter, or thinking of him, or working for him. in some way she was employed on his behalf, and with this object she was alone. it was now the middle of october, and the fire was lit in mrs. dale's drawing-room. the window which opened upon the lawn was closed, the heavy curtains had been put back in their places, and it had been acknowledged as an unwelcome fact that the last of the summer was over. this was always a sorrow to mrs. dale; but it is one of those sorrows which hardly admit of open expression. "bell," she said, looking up suddenly; "there's your uncle at the window. let him in." for now, since the putting up of the curtains, the window had been bolted as well as closed. so bell got up, and opened a passage for the squire's entrance. it was not often that he came down in this way, and when he did do so it was generally for some purpose which had been expressed before. "what! fires already?" said he. "i never have fires at the other house in the morning till the first of november. i like to see a spark in the grate after dinner." "i like a fire when i'm cold," said mrs. dale. but this was a subject on which the squire and his sister-in-law had differed before, and as mr. dale had some business in hand, he did not now choose to waste his energy in supporting his own views on the question of fires. "bell, my dear," said he, "i want to speak to your mother for a minute or two on a matter of business. you wouldn't mind leaving us for a little while, would you?" whereupon bell collected up her work and went upstairs to her sister. "uncle christopher is below with mamma," said she, "talking about business. i suppose it is something to do with your marriage." but bell was wrong. the squire's visit had no reference to lily's marriage. mrs. dale did not move or speak a word when bell was gone, though it was evident that the squire paused in order that she might ask some question of him. "mary," said he, at last, "i'll tell you what it is that i have come to say to you." whereupon she put the piece of needlework which was in her hands down upon the work-basket before her, and settled herself to listen to him. "i wish to speak to you about bell." "about bell?" said mrs. dale, as though much surprised that he should have anything to say to her respecting her eldest daughter. "yes, about bell. here's lily going to be married, and it will be well that bell should be married too." "i don't see that at all," said mrs. dale. "i am by no means in a hurry to be rid of her." "no, i dare say not. but, of course, you only regard her welfare, and i can truly say that i do the same. there would be no necessity for hurry as to a marriage for her under ordinary circumstances, but there may be circumstances to make such a thing desirable, and i think that there are." it was evident from the squire's tone and manner that he was very much in earnest; but it was also evident that he found some difficulty in opening out the budget with which he had prepared himself. he hesitated a little in his voice, and seemed to be almost nervous. mrs. dale, with some little spice of ill-nature, altogether abstained from assisting him. she was jealous of interference from him about her girls, and though she was of course bound to listen to him, she did so with a prejudice against and almost with a resolve to oppose anything that he might say. when he had finished his little speech about circumstances, the squire paused again; but mrs. dale still sat silent, with her eyes fixed upon his face. "i love your children very dearly," said he, "though i believe you hardly give me credit for doing so." "i am sure you do," said mrs. dale, "and they are both well aware of it." "and i am very anxious that they should be comfortably established in life. i have no children of my own, and those of my two brothers are everything to me." mrs. dale had always considered it as a matter of course that bernard should be the squire's heir, and had never felt that her daughters had any claim on that score. it was a well-understood thing in the family that the senior male dale should have all the dale property and all the dale money. she fully recognized even the propriety of such an arrangement. but it seemed to her that the squire was almost guilty of hypocrisy in naming his nephew and his two nieces together, as though they were the joint heirs of his love. bernard was his adopted son, and no one had begrudged to the uncle the right of making such adoption. bernard was everything to him, and as being his heir was bound to obey him in many things. but her daughters were no more to him than any nieces might be to any uncle. he had nothing to do with their disposal in marriage; and the mother's spirit was already up in arms and prepared to do battle for her own independence, and for that of her children. "if bernard would marry well," said she, "i have no doubt it would be a comfort to you,"--meaning to imply thereby that the squire had no right to trouble himself about any other marriage. "that's just it," said the squire. "it would be a great comfort to me. and if he and bell could make up their minds together, it would, i should think, be a great comfort to you also." "bernard and bell!" exclaimed mrs. dale. no idea of such a union had ever yet come upon her, and now in her surprise she sat silent. she had always liked bernard dale, having felt for him more family affection than for any other of the dale family beyond her own hearth. he had been very intimate in her house, having made himself almost as a brother to her girls. but she had never thought of him as a husband for either of them. "then bell has not spoken to you about it," said the squire. "never a word." "and you had never thought about it?" "certainly not." "i have thought about it a great deal. for some years i have always been thinking of it. i have set my heart upon it, and shall be very unhappy if it cannot be brought about. they are both very dear to me,--dearer than anybody else. if i could see them man and wife, i should not much care then how soon i left the old place to them." there was a purer touch of feeling in this than the squire had ever before shown in his sister-in-law's presence, and more heartiness than she had given him the credit of possessing. and she could not but acknowledge to herself that her own child was included in this unexpected warmth of love, and that she was bound at any rate to entertain some gratitude for such kindness. "it is good of you to think of her," said the mother; "very good." "i think a great deal about her," said the squire. "but that does not much matter now. the fact is, that she has declined bernard's offer." "has bernard offered to her?" "so he tells me; and she has refused him. it may perhaps be natural that she should do so, never having taught herself to look at him in the light of a lover. i don't blame her at all. i am not angry with her." "angry with her! no. you can hardly be angry with her for not being in love with her cousin." "i say that i am not angry with her. but i think she might undertake to consider the question. you would like such a match, would you not?" mrs. dale did not at first make any answer, but began to revolve the thing in her mind, and to look at it in various points of view. there was a great deal in such an arrangement which at the first sight recommended it to her very strongly. all the local circumstances were in its favour. as regarded herself it would promise to her all that she had ever desired. it would give her a prospect of seeing very much of lily; for if bell were settled at the old family house, crosbie would naturally be much with his friend. she liked bernard also; and for a moment or two fancied, as she turned it all over in her mind, that, even yet, if such a marriage were to take place, there might grow up something like true regard between her and the old squire. how happy would be her old age in that small house, if bell with her children were living so close to her! "well?" said the squire, who was looking very intently into her face. "i was thinking," said mrs. dale. "do you say that she has already refused him?" "i am afraid she has; but then you know--" "it must of course be left for her to judge." "if you mean that she cannot be made to marry her cousin, of course we all know she can't." "i mean rather more than that." "what do you mean, then?" "that the matter must be left altogether to her own decision; that no persuasion must be used by you or me. if he can persuade her, indeed--" "yes, exactly. he must persuade her. i quite agree with you that he should have liberty to plead his own cause. but look you here, mary;--she has always been a very good child to you--" "indeed she has." "and a word from you would go a long way with her,--as it ought. if she knows that you would like her to marry her cousin, it will make her think it her duty--" "ah! but that is just what i cannot try to make her think." "will you let me speak, mary? you take me up and scold me before the words are half out of my mouth. of course i know that in these days a young lady is not to be compelled into marrying anybody;--not but that, as far as i can see, they did better than they do now when they had not quite so much of their own way." "i never would take upon myself to ask a child to marry any man." "but you may explain to her that it is her duty to give such a proposal much thought before it is absolutely refused. a girl either is in love or she is not. if she is, she is ready to jump down a man's throat; and that was the case with lily." "she never thought of the man till he had proposed to her fully." "well, never mind now. but if a girl is not in love, she thinks she is bound to swear and declare that she never will be so." "i don't think bell ever declared anything of the kind." "yes, she did. she told bernard that she didn't love him and couldn't love him,--and, in fact, that she wouldn't think anything more about it. now, mary, that's what i call being headstrong and positive. i don't want to drive her, and i don't want you to drive her. but here is an arrangement which for her will be a very good one; you must admit that. we all know that she is on excellent terms with bernard. it isn't as though they had been falling out and hating each other all their lives. she told him that she was very fond of him, and talked nonsense about being his sister, and all that." "i don't see that it was nonsense at all." "yes, it was nonsense,--on such an occasion. if a man asks a girl to marry him, he doesn't want her to talk to him about being his sister. i think it is nonsense. if she would only consider about it properly she would soon learn to love him." "that lesson, if it be learned at all, must be learned without any tutor." "you won't do anything to help me then?" "i will, at any rate, do nothing to mar you. and, to tell the truth, i must think over the matter fully before i can decide what i had better say to bell about it. from her not speaking to me--" "i think she ought to have told you." "no, mr. dale. had she accepted him, of course she would have told me. had she thought of doing so she might probably have consulted me. but if she made up her mind that she must reject him--" "she oughtn't to have made up her mind." "but if she did, it seems natural to me that she should speak of it to no one. she might probably think that bernard would be as well pleased that it should not be known." "psha,--known!--of course it will be known. as you want time to consider of it, i will say nothing more now. if she were my daughter, i should have no hesitation in telling her what i thought best for her welfare." "i have none; though i may have some in making up my mind as to what is best for her welfare. but, mr. dale, you may be sure of this; i will speak to her very earnestly of your kindness and love for her. and i wish you would believe that i feel your regard for her very strongly." in answer to this he merely shook his head, and hummed and hawed. "you would be glad to see them married, as regards yourself?" he asked. "certainly i would," said mrs. dale. "i have always liked bernard, and i believe my girl would be safe with him. but then, you see, it's a question on which my own likings or dislikings should not have any bearing." and so they parted, the squire making his way back again through the drawing-room window. he was not above half pleased with his interview; but then he was a man for whom half-pleasure almost sufficed. he rarely indulged any expectation that people would make themselves agreeable to him. mrs. dale, since she had come to the small house, had never been a source of satisfaction to him, but he did not on that account regret that he had brought her there. he was a constant man; urgent in carrying out his own plans, but not sanguine in doing so, and by no means apt to expect that all things would go smooth with him. he had made up his mind that his nephew and his niece should be married, and should he ultimately fail in this, such failure would probably embitter his future life;--but it was not in the nature of the man to be angry in the meantime, or to fume and scold because he met with opposition. he had told mrs. dale that he loved bell dearly. so he did, though he seldom spoke to her with much show of special regard, and never was soft and tender with her. but, on the other hand, he did not now love her the less because she opposed his wishes. he was a constant, undemonstrative man, given rather to brooding than to thinking; harder in his words than in his thoughts, with more of heart than others believed, or than he himself knew; but, above all, he was a man who having once desired a thing would desire it always. mrs. dale, when she was left alone, began to turn over the question in her mind in a much fuller manner than the squire's presence had as yet made possible for her. would not such a marriage as this be for them all the happiest domestic arrangement which circumstances could afford? her daughter would have no fortune, but here would be prepared for her all the comforts which fortune can give. she would be received into her uncle's house, not as some penniless, portionless bride whom bernard might have married and brought home, but as the wife whom of all others bernard's friends had thought desirable for him. and then, as regarded mrs. dale herself, there would be nothing in such a marriage which would not be delightful to her. it would give a realization to all her dreams of future happiness. but, as she said to herself over and over again, all that must go for nothing. it must be for bell, and for her only, to answer bernard's question. in her mind there was something sacred in that idea of love. she would regard her daughter almost as a castaway if she were to marry any man without absolutely loving him,--loving him as lily loved her lover, with all her heart and all her strength. with such a conviction as this strong upon her, she felt that she could not say much to bell that would be of any service. chapter xx. dr. crofts. if there was anything in the world as to which isabella dale was quite certain, it was this--that she was not in love with dr. crofts. as to being in love with her cousin bernard, she had never had occasion to ask herself any question on that head. she liked him very well, but she had never thought of marrying him; and now, when he made his proposal, she could not bring herself to think of it. but as regards dr. crofts, she had thought of it, and had made up her mind;--in the manner above described. it may be said that she could not have been justified in discussing the matter even within her own bosom, unless authorized to do so by dr. crofts himself. let it then be considered that dr. crofts had given her some such authority. this may be done in more ways than one; and miss dale could not have found herself asking herself questions about him, unless there had been fitting occasion for her to do so. the profession of a medical man in a small provincial town is not often one which gives to its owner in early life a large income. perhaps in no career has a man to work harder for what he earns, or to do more work without earning anything. it has sometimes seemed to me as though the young doctors and the old doctors had agreed to divide between them the different results of their profession,--the young doctors doing all the work and the old doctors taking all the money. if this be so it may account for that appearance of premature gravity which is borne by so many of the medical profession. under such an arrangement a man may be excused for a desire to put away childish things very early in life. dr. crofts had now been practising in guestwick nearly seven years, having settled himself in that town when he was twenty-three years old, and being at this period about thirty. during those seven years his skill and industry had been so fully admitted that he had succeeded in obtaining the medical care of all the paupers in the union, for which work he was paid at the rate of one hundred pounds a year. he was also assistant-surgeon at a small hospital which was maintained in that town, and held two or three other similar public positions, all of which attested his respectability and general proficiency. they, moreover, thoroughly saved him from any of the dangers of idleness; but, unfortunately, they did not enable him to regard himself as a successful professional man. whereas old dr. gruffen, of whom but few people spoke well, had made a fortune in guestwick, and even still drew from the ailments of the town a considerable and hardly yet decreasing income. now this was hard upon dr. crofts--unless there was existing some such well-understood arrangement as that above named. he had been known to the family of the dales long previous to his settlement at guestwick, and had been very intimate with them from that time to the present day. of all the men, young or old, whom mrs. dale counted among her intimate friends, he was the one whom she most trusted and admired. and he was a man to be trusted by those who knew him well. he was not bright and always ready, as was crosbie, nor had he all the practical worldly good sense of bernard dale. in mental power i doubt whether he was superior to john eames;--to john eames, such as he might become when the period of his hobbledehoyhood should have altogether passed away. but crofts, compared with the other three, as they all were at present, was a man more to be trusted than any of them. and there was, moreover, about him an occasional dash of humour, without which mrs. dale would hardly have regarded him with that thorough liking which she had for him. but it was a quiet humour, apt to show itself when he had but one friend with him, rather than in general society. crosbie, on the other hand, would be much more bright among a dozen, than he could with a single companion. bernard dale was never bright; and as for johnny eames--; but in this matter of brightness, johnny eames had not yet shown to the world what his character might be. it was now two years since crofts had been called upon for medical advice on behalf of his friend mrs. dale. she had then been ill for a long period--some two or three months, and dr. crofts had been frequent in his visits at allington. at that time he became very intimate with mrs. dale's daughters, and especially so with the eldest. young unmarried doctors ought perhaps to be excluded from houses in which there are young ladies. i know, at any rate, that many sage matrons hold very strongly to that opinion, thinking, no doubt, that doctors ought to get themselves married before they venture to begin working for a living. mrs. dale, perhaps, regarded her own girls as still merely children, for bell, the elder, was then hardly eighteen; or perhaps she held imprudent and heterodox opinions on this subject; or it may be that she selfishly preferred dr. crofts, with all the danger to her children, to dr. gruffen, with all the danger to herself. but the result was that the young doctor one day informed himself, as he was riding back to guestwick, that much of his happiness in this world would depend on his being able to marry mrs. dale's eldest daughter. at that time his total income amounted to little more than two hundred a year, and he had resolved within his own mind that dr. gruffen was esteemed as much the better doctor by the general public opinion of guestwick, and that dr. gruffen's sandy-haired assistant would even have a better chance of success in the town than himself, should it ever come to pass that the doctor was esteemed too old for personal practice. crofts had no fortune of his own, and he was aware that miss dale had none. then, under those circumstances, what was he to do? it is not necessary that we should inquire at any great length into those love passages of the doctor's life which took place three years before the commencement of this narrative. he made no declaration to bell; but bell, young as she was, understood well that he would fain have done so, had not his courage failed him, or rather had not his prudence prevented him. to mrs. dale he did speak, not openly avowing his love even to her, but hinting at it, and then talking to her of his unsatisfied hopes and professional disappointments. "it is not that i complain of being poor as i am," said he; "or at any rate, not so poor that my poverty must be any source of discomfort to me; but i could hardly marry with such an income as i have at present." "but it will increase, will it not?" said mrs. dale. "it may some day, when i am becoming an old man," he said. "but of what use will it be to me then?" mrs. dale could not tell him that, as far as her voice in the matter went, he was welcome to woo her daughter and marry her, poor as he was, and doubly poor as they would both be together on such a pittance. he had not even mentioned bell's name, and had he done so she could only have bade him wait and hope. after that he said nothing further to her upon the subject. to bell he spoke no word of overt love; but on an autumn day, when mrs. dale was already convalescent, and the repetition of his professional visits had become unnecessary, he got her to walk with him through the half-hidden shrubbery paths, and then told her things which he should never have told her, if he really wished to bind her heart to his. he repeated that story of his income, and explained to her that his poverty was only grievous to him in that it prevented him from thinking of marriage. "i suppose it must," said bell. "i should think it wrong to ask any lady to share such an income as mine," said he. whereupon bell had suggested to him that some ladies had incomes of their own, and that he might in that way get over the difficulty. "i should be afraid of myself in marrying a girl with money," said he; "besides, that is altogether out of the question now." of course bell did not ask him why it was out of the question, and for a time they went on walking in silence. "it is a hard thing to do," he then said,--not looking at her, but looking at the gravel on which he stood. "it is a hard thing to do, but i will determine to think of it no further. i believe a man may be as happy single as he may married,--almost." "perhaps more so," said bell. then the doctor left her, and bell, as i have said before, made up her mind with great firmness that she was not in love with him. i may certainly say that there was nothing in the world as to which she was so certain as she was of this. and now, in these days, dr. crofts did not come over to allington very often. had any of the family in the small house been ill, he would have been there of course. the squire himself employed the apothecary in the village, or if higher aid was needed, would send for dr. gruffen. on the occasion of mrs. dale's party, crofts was there, having been specially invited; but mrs. dale's special invitations to her friends were very few, and the doctor was well aware that he must himself make occasion for going there if he desired to see the inmates of the house. but he very rarely made such occasion, perhaps feeling that he was more in his element at the workhouse and the hospital. just at this time, however, he made one very great and unexpected step towards success in his profession. he was greatly surprised one morning by being summoned to the manor house to attend upon lord de guest. the family at the manor had employed dr. gruffen for the last thirty years, and crofts, when he received the earl's message, could hardly believe the words. "the earl ain't very bad," said the servant, "but he would be glad to see you if possible a little before dinner." "you're sure he wants to see me?" said crofts. "oh, yes; i'm sure enough of that, sir." "it wasn't dr. gruffen?" "no, sir; it wasn't dr. gruffen. i believe his lordship's had about enough of dr. gruffen. the doctor took to chaffing his lordship one day." "chaffed his lordship;--his hands and feet, and that sort of thing?" suggested the doctor. "hands and feet!" said the man. "lord bless you, sir, he poked his fun at him, just as though he was nobody. i didn't hear, but mrs. connor says that my lord's back was up terribly high." and so dr. crofts got on his horse and rode up to guestwick manor. the earl was alone, lady julia having already gone to courcy castle. "how d'ye do, how d'ye do?" said the earl. "i'm not very ill, but i want to get a little advice from you. it's quite a trifle, but i thought it well to see somebody." whereupon dr. crofts of course declared that he was happy to wait upon his lordship. "i know all about you, you know," said the earl. "your grandmother stoddard was a very old friend of my aunt's. you don't remember lady jemima?" "no," said crofts. "i never had that honour." "an excellent old woman, and knew your grandmother stoddard well. you see, gruffen has been attending us for i don't know how many years; but upon my word--" and then the earl stopped himself. "it's an ill wind that blows nobody any good," said crofts, with a slight laugh. "perhaps it 'll blow me some good, for gruffen never did me any. the fact is this; i'm very well, you know;--as strong as a horse." "you look pretty well." "no man could be better,--not of my age. i'm sixty, you know." "you don't look as though you were ailing." "i'm always out in the open air, and that, i take it, is the best thing for a man." "there's nothing like plenty of exercise, certainly." "and i'm always taking exercise," said the earl. "there isn't a man about the place works much harder than i do. and, let me tell you, sir, when you undertake to keep six or seven hundred acres of land in your own hand, you must look after it, unless you mean to lose money by it." "i've always heard that your lordship is a good farmer." "well, yes; wherever the grass may grow about my place, it doesn't grow under my feet. you won't often find me in bed at six o'clock, i can tell you." after this dr. crofts ventured to ask his lordship as to what special physical deficiency his own aid was invoked at the present time. "ah, i was just coming to that," said the earl. "they tell me it's a very dangerous practice to go to sleep after dinner." "it's not very uncommon at any rate," said the doctor. "i suppose not; but lady julia is always at me about it. and, to tell the truth, i think i sleep almost too sound when i get to my arm-chair in the drawing-room. sometimes my sister really can't wake me;--so, at least, she says." "and how's your appetite at dinner?" "oh, i'm quite right there. i never eat any luncheon, you know, and enjoy my dinner thoroughly. then i drink three or four glasses of port wine--" "and feel sleepy afterwards?" "that's just it," said the earl. it is not perhaps necessary that we should inquire what was the exact nature of the doctor's advice; but it was, at any rate, given in such a way that the earl said he would be glad to see him again. "and look here, doctor crofts, i'm all alone just at present. suppose you come over and dine with me to-morrow; then, if i should go to sleep, you know, you'll be able to let me know whether lady julia doesn't exaggerate. just between ourselves, i don't quite believe all she says about my--my snoring, you know." whether it was that the earl restrained his appetite when at dinner under the doctor's eyes, or whether the mid-day mutton chop which had been ordered for him had the desired effect, or whether the doctor's conversation was more lively than that of the lady julia, we will not say; but the earl, on the evening in question, was triumphant. as he sat in his easy-chair after dinner he hardly winked above once or twice; and when he had taken the large bowl of tea, which he usually swallowed in a semi-somnolent condition, he was quite lively. "ah, yes," he said, jumping up and rubbing his eyes; "i think i do feel lighter. i enjoy a snooze after dinner; i do indeed; i like it; but then, when one comes to go to bed, one does it in such a sneaking sort of way, as though one were in disgrace! and my sister, she thinks it a crime--literally a sin, to go to sleep in a chair. nobody ever caught her napping! by-the-by, dr. crofts, did you know that mr. crosbie whom bernard dale brought down to allington? lady julia and he are staying at the same house now." "i met him once at mrs. dale's." "going to marry one of the girls, isn't he?" whereupon dr. crofts explained that mr. crosbie was engaged to lilian dale. "ah, yes; a nice girl, i'm told. you know all those dales are connections of ours. my sister fanny married their uncle orlando. my brother-in-law doesn't like travelling, and so i don't see very much of him; but of course i'm interested about the family." "they're very old friends of mine," said crofts. "yes, i daresay. there are two girls, are there not?" "yes, two." "and miss lily is the youngest. there's nothing about the elder one getting married, is there?" "i've not heard anything of it." "a very pretty girl she is, too. i remember seeing her at her uncle's last year. i shouldn't wonder if she were to marry her cousin bernard. he is to have the property, you know; and he's my nephew." "i'm not quite sure that it's a good thing for cousins to marry," said crofts. "they do, you know, very often; and it suits some family arrangements. i suppose dale must provide for them, and that would take one off his hands without any trouble." dr. crofts didn't exactly see the matter in this light, but he was not anxious to argue it very closely with the earl. "the younger one," he said, "has provided for herself." "what; by getting a husband? but i suppose dale must give her something. they're not married yet, you know, and, from what i hear, that fellow may prove a slippery customer. he'll not marry her unless old dale gives her something. you'll see if he does. i'm told that he has got another string to his bow at courcy castle." soon after this, crofts took his horse and rode home, having promised the earl that he would dine with him again before long. "it'll be a great convenience to me if you'd come about that time," said the earl, "and as you're a bachelor perhaps you won't mind it. you'll come on thursday at seven, will you? take care of yourself. it's as dark as pitch. john, go and open the first gates for dr. crofts." and then the earl took himself off to bed. crofts, as he rode home, could not keep his mind from thinking of the two girls at allington. "he'll not marry her unless old dale gives her something." had it come to that with the world, that a man must be bribed into keeping his engagement with a lady? was there no romance left among mankind,--no feeling of chivalry? "he's got another string to his bow at courcy castle," said the earl; and his lordship seemed to be in no degree shocked as he said it. it was in this tone that men spoke of women now-a-days, and yet he himself had felt such awe of the girl he loved, and such a fear lest he might injure her in her worldly position, that he had not dared to tell her that he loved her. chapter xxi. john eames encounters two adventures, and displays great courage in both. lily thought that her lover's letter was all that it should be. she was not quite aware what might be the course of post between courcy and allington, and had not, therefore, felt very grievously disappointed when the letter did not come on the very first day. she had, however, in the course of the morning, walked down to the post-office, in order that she might be sure that it was not remaining there. "why, miss, they be all delivered; you know that," said mrs. crump, the post-mistress. "but one might be left behind, i thought." "john postman went up to the house this very day, with a newspaper for your mamma. i can't make letters for people if folks don't write them.". "but they are left behind sometimes, mrs. crump. he wouldn't come up with one letter if he'd got nothing else for anybody in the street." "indeed but he would then. i wouldn't let him leave a letter here no how, nor yet a paper. it's no good you're coming down here for letters, miss lily. if he don't write to you, i can't make him do it." and so poor lily went home discomforted. but the letter came on the next morning, and all was right. according to her judgment it lacked nothing, either in fulness or in affection. when he told her how he had planned his early departure in order that he might avoid the pain of parting with her on the last moment, she smiled and pressed the paper, and rejoiced inwardly that she had got the better of him as to that manoeuvre. and then she kissed the words which told her that he had been glad to have her with him at the last moment. when he declared that he had been happier at allington than he was at courcy, she believed him thoroughly, and rejoiced that it should be so. and when he accused himself of being worldly, she excused him, persuading herself that he was nearly perfect in this respect as in others. of course a man living in london, and having to earn his bread out in the world, must be more worldly than a country girl; but the fact of his being able to love such a girl, to choose such a one for his wife,--was not that alone sufficient proof that the world had not enslaved him? "my heart is on the allington lawns," he said; and then, as she read the words, she kissed the paper again. in her eyes, and to her ears, and to her heart, the letter was a beautiful letter. i believe there is no bliss greater than that which a thorough love-letter gives to a girl who knows that in receiving it she commits no fault,--who can open it before her father and mother with nothing more than the slight blush which the consciousness of her position gives her. and of all love-letters the first must be the sweetest! what a value there is in every word! how each expression is scanned and turned to the best account! with what importance are all those little phrases invested, which too soon become mere phrases, used as a matter of course. crosbie had finished his letter by bidding god bless her; "and you too," said lily, pressing the letter to her bosom. "does he say anything particular?" asked mrs. dale. "yes, mamma; it's all very particular." "but there's nothing for the public ear." "he sends his love to you and bell." "we are very much obliged to him." "so you ought to be. and he says that he went to church going through barchester, and that the clergyman was the grandfather of that lady dumbello. when he got to courcy castle lady dumbello was there." "what a singular coincidence!" said mrs. dale. "i won't tell you a word more about his letter," said lily. so she folded it up, and put it in her pocket. but as soon as she found herself alone in her own room, she had it out again, and read it over some half-a-dozen times. that was the occupation of her morning;--that, and the manufacture of some very intricate piece of work which was intended for the adornment of mr. crosbie's person. her hands, however, were very full of work;--or, rather, she intended that they should be full. she would take with her to her new home, when she was married, all manner of household gear, the produce of her own industry and economy. she had declared that she wanted to do something for her future husband, and she would begin that something at once. and in this matter she did not belie her promises to herself, or allow her good intentions to evaporate unaccomplished. she soon surrounded herself with harder tasks than those embroidered slippers with which she indulged herself immediately after his departure. and mrs. dale and bell,--though in their gentle way they laughed at her,--nevertheless they worked with her, sitting sternly to their long tasks, in order that crosbie's house might not be empty when their darling should go to take her place there as his wife. but it was absolutely necessary that the letter should be answered. it would in her eyes have been a great sin to have let that day's post go without carrying a letter from her to courcy castle,--a sin of which she felt no temptation to be guilty. it was an exquisite pleasure to her to seat herself at her little table, with her neat desk and small appurtenances for epistle-craft, and to feel that she had a letter to write in which she had truly much to say. hitherto her correspondence had been uninteresting and almost weak in its nature. from her mother and sister she had hardly yet been parted; and though she had other friends, she had seldom found herself with very much to tell them by post. what could she communicate to mary eames at guestwick, which should be in itself exciting as she wrote it? when she wrote to john eames, and told "dear john" that mamma hoped to have the pleasure of seeing him to tea at such an hour, the work of writing was of little moment to her, though the note when written became one of the choicest treasures of him to whom it was addressed. but now the matter was very different. when she saw the words "dearest adolphus" on the paper before her, she was startled with their significance. "and four months ago i had never even heard of him," she said to herself, almost with awe. and now he was more to her, and nearer to her, than even was her sister or her mother! she recollected how she had laughed at him behind his back, and called him a swell on the first day of his coming to the small house, and how, also, she had striven, in her innocent way, to look her best when called upon to go out and walk with the stranger from london. he was no longer a stranger now, but her own dearest friend. she had put down her pen that she might think of all this--by no means for the first time--and then resumed it with a sudden start as though fearing that the postman might be in the village before her letter was finished. "dearest adolphus, i need not tell you how delighted i was when your letter was brought to me this morning." but i will not repeat the whole of her letter here. she had no incident to relate, none even so interesting as that of mr. crosbie's encounter with mr. harding at barchester. she had met no lady dumbello, and had no counterpart to lady alexandrina, of whom, as a friend, she could say a word in praise. john eames's name she did not mention, knowing that john eames was not a favourite with mr. crosbie; nor had she anything to say of john eames, that had not been already said. he had, indeed, promised to come over to allington; but this visit had not been made when lily wrote her first letter to crosbie. it was a sweet, good, honest love-letter, full of assurances of unalterable affection and unlimited confidence, indulging in a little quiet fun as to the grandees of courcy castle, and ending with a promise that she would be happy and contented if she might receive his letters constantly, and live with the hope of seeing him at christmas. "i am in time, mrs. crump, am i not?" she said, as she walked into the post-office. "of course you be,--for the next half-hour. t' postman--he bain't stirred from t' ale'us yet. just put it into t' box, wull ye?" "but you won't leave it there?" "leave it there! did you ever hear the like of that? if you're afeared to put it in, you can take it away; that's all about it, miss lily." and then mrs. crump turned away to her avocations at the washing-tub. mrs. crump had a bad temper, but perhaps she had some excuse. a separate call was made upon her time with reference to almost every letter brought to her office, and for all this, as she often told her friends in profound disgust, she received as salary no more than "tuppence farden a day. it don't find me in shoe-leather; no more it don't." as mrs. crump was never seen out of her own house, unless it was in church once a month, this latter assertion about her shoe-leather, could hardly have been true. lily had received another letter, and had answered it before eames made his promised visit to allington. he, as will be remembered, had also had a correspondence. he had answered miss roper's letter, and had since that been living in fear of two things; in a lesser fear of some terrible rejoinder from amelia, and in a greater fear of a more terrible visit from his lady-love. were she to swoop down in very truth upon his guestwick home, and declare herself to his mother and sister as his affianced bride, what mode of escape would then be left for him? but this she had not yet done, nor had she even answered his cruel missive. "what an ass i am to be afraid of her!" he said to himself as he walked along under the elms of guestwick manor, which overspread the road to allington. when he first went over to allington after his return home, he had mounted himself on horseback, and had gone forth brilliant with spurs, and trusting somewhat to the glories of his dress and gloves. but he had then known nothing of lily's engagement. now he was contented to walk; and as he had taken up his slouched hat and stick in the passage of his mother's house, he had been very indifferent as to his appearance. he walked quickly along the road, taking for the first three miles the shade of the guestwick elms, and keeping his feet on the broad greensward which skirts the outside of the earl's palings. "what an ass i am to be afraid of her!" and as he swung his big stick in his hand, striking a tree here and there, and knocking the stones from his path, he began to question himself in earnest, and to be ashamed of his position in the world. "nothing on earth shall make me marry her," he said; "not if they bring a dozen actions against me. she knows as well as i do, that i have never intended to marry her. it's a cheat from beginning to end. if she comes down here, i'll tell her so before my mother." but as the vision of her sudden arrival came before his eyes, he acknowledged to himself that he still held her in great fear. he had told her that he loved her. he had written as much as that. if taxed with so much, he must confess his sin. then, by degrees, his mind turned away from amelia roper to lily dale, not giving him a prospect much more replete with enjoyment than that other one. he had said that he would call at allington before he returned to town, and he was now redeeming his promise. but he did not know why he should go there. he felt that he should sit silent and abashed in mrs. dale's drawing-room, confessing by his demeanour that secret which it behoved him now to hide from every one. he could not talk easily before lily, nor could he speak to her of the only subject which would occupy his thoughts when in her presence. if indeed, he might find her alone-- but, perhaps that might be worse for him than any other condition. when he was shown into the drawing-room there was nobody there. "they were here a minute ago, all three," said the servant girl. "if you'll walk down the garden, mr. john, you'll be sure to find some of 'em." so john eames, with a little hesitation, walked down the garden. first of all he went the whole way round the walks, meeting nobody. then he crossed the lawn, returning again to the farther end; and there, emerging from the little path which led from the great house, he encountered lily alone. "oh, john," she said, "how d'ye do? i'm afraid you did not find anybody in the house. mamma and bell are with hopkins, away in the large kitchen-garden." "i've just come over," said eames, "because i promised. i said i'd come before i went back to london." "and they'll be very glad to see you, and so am i. shall we go after them into the other grounds? but perhaps you walked over and are tired." "i did walk," said eames; "not that i am very tired." but in truth he did not wish to go after mrs. dale, though he was altogether at a loss as to what he would say to lily while remaining with her. he had fancied that he would like to have some opportunity of speaking to her alone before he went away;--of making some special use of the last interview which he should have with her before she became a married woman. but now the opportunity was there, and he hardly dared to avail himself of it. "you'll stay and dine with us," said lily. "no, i'll not do that, for i especially told my mother that i would be back." "i'm sure it was very good of you to walk so far to see us. if you really are not tired, i think we will go to mamma, as she would be very sorry to miss you." this she said, remembering at the moment what had been crosbie's injunctions to her about john eames. but john had resolved that he would say those words which he had come to speak, and that, as lily was there with him, he would avail himself of the chance which fortune had given him. "i don't think i'll go into the squire's garden," he said. "uncle christopher is not there. he is about the farm somewhere." "if you don't mind, lily, i think i'll stay here. i suppose they'll be back soon. of course i should like to see them before i go away to london. but, lily, i came over now chiefly to see you. it was you who asked me to promise." had crosbie been right in those remarks of his? had she been imprudent in her little endeavour to be cordially kind to her old friend? "shall we go into the drawing-room?" she said, feeling that she would be in some degree safer there than out among the shrubs and paths of the garden. and i think she was right in this. a man will talk of love out among the lilacs and roses, who would be stricken dumb by the demure propriety of the four walls of a drawing-room. john eames also had some feeling of this kind, for he determined to remain out in the garden, if he could so manage it. "i don't want to go in unless you wish it," he said. "indeed, i'd rather stay here. so, lily, you're going to be married?" and thus he rushed at once into the middle of his discourse. "yes," said she, "i believe i am." "i have not told you yet that i congratulated you." "i have known very well that you did so in your heart. i have always been sure that you wished me well." "indeed i have. and if congratulating a person is hoping that she may always be happy, i do congratulate you. but, lily--" and then he paused, abashed by the beauty, purity, and woman's grace which had forced him to love her. "i think i understand all that you would say. i do not want ordinary words to tell me that i am to count you among my best friends." "no, lily; you don't understand all that i would say. you have never known how often and how much i have thought of you; how dearly i have loved you." "john, you must not talk of that now." "i cannot go without telling you. when i came over here, and mrs. dale told me that you were to be married to that man--" "you must not speak of mr. crosbie in that way," she said, turning upon him almost fiercely. "i did not mean to say anything disrespectful of him to you. i should hate myself if i were to do so. of course you like him better than anybody else?" "i love him better than all the world besides." "and so do i love you better than all the world besides." and as he spoke he got up from his seat and stood before her. "i know how poor i am, and unworthy of you; and only that you are engaged to him, i don't suppose that i should now tell you. of course you couldn't accept such a one as me. but i have loved you ever since you remember; and now that you are going to be his wife, i cannot but tell you that it is so. you will go and live in london; but as to my seeing you there, it will be impossible. i could not go into that man's house." "oh, john." "no, never; not if you become his wife. i have loved you as well as he does. when mrs. dale told me of it, i thought i should have fallen. i went away without seeing you because i was unable to speak to you. i made a fool of myself, and have been a fool all along. i am foolish now to tell you this, but i cannot help it." "you will forget it all when you meet some girl that you can really love." "and have i not really loved you? well, never mind. i have said what i came to say, and i will now go. if it ever happens that we are down in the country together, perhaps i may see you again; but never in london. good-by, lily." and he put out his hand to her. [illustration: "and have i not really loved you?"] "and won't you stay for mamma?" she said. "no. give her my love, and to bell. they understand all about it. they will know why i have gone. if ever you should want anybody to do anything for you, remember that i will do it, whatever it is." and as he paced away from her across the lawn, the special deed in her favour to which his mind was turned,--that one thing which he most longed to do on her behalf,--was an act of corporal chastisement upon crosbie. if crosbie would but ill-treat her,--ill-treat her with some antenuptial barbarity,--and if only he could be called in to avenge her wrongs! and as he made his way back along the road towards guestwick, he built up within his own bosom a castle in the air, for her part in which lily dale would by no means have thanked him. lily when she was left alone burst into tears. she had certainly said very little to encourage her forlorn suitor, and had so borne herself during the interview that even crosbie could hardly have been dissatisfied; but now that eames was gone her heart became very tender towards him. she felt that she did love him also;--not at all as she loved crosbie, but still with a love that was tender, soft, and true. if crosbie could have known all her thoughts at that moment, i doubt whether he would have liked them. she burst into tears, and then hurried away into some nook where she could not be seen by her mother and bell on their return. eames went on his way, walking very quietly, swinging his stick and kicking through the dust, with his heart full of the scene which had just passed. he was angry with himself, thinking that he had played his part badly, accusing himself in that he had been rough to her, and selfish in the expression of his love; and he was angry with her because she had declared to him that she loved crosbie better than all the world besides. he knew that of course she must do so;--that at any rate it was to be expected that such was the case. yet, he thought, she might have refrained from saying so to him. "she chooses to scorn me now," he said to himself; "but the time may come when she will wish that she had scorned him." that crosbie was wicked, bad, and selfish, he believed most fully. he felt sure that the man would ill-use her and make her wretched. he had some slight doubt whether he would marry her, and from this doubt he endeavoured to draw a scrap of comfort. if crosbie would desert her, and if to him might be accorded the privilege of beating the man to death with his fists because of this desertion, then the world would not be quite blank for him. in all this he was no doubt very cruel to lily;--but then had not lily been very cruel to him? he was still thinking of these things when he came to the first of the guestwick pastures. the boundary of the earl's property was very plainly marked, for with it commenced also the shady elms along the roadside, and the broad green margin of turf, grateful equally to those who walked and to those who rode. eames had got himself on to the grass, but, in the fulness of his thoughts, was unconscious of the change in his path, when he was startled by a voice in the next field and the loud bellowing of a bull. lord de guest's choice cattle he knew were there, and there was one special bull which was esteemed by his lordship as of great value, and regarded as a high favourite. the people about the place declared that the beast was vicious, but lord de guest had often been heard to boast that it was never vicious with him. "the boys tease him, and the men are almost worse than the boys," said the earl; "but he'll never hurt any one that has not hurt him." guided by faith in his own teaching the earl had taught himself to look upon his bull as a large, horned, innocent lamb of the flock. as eames paused on the road, he fancied that he recognized the earl's voice, and it was the voice of one in distress. then the bull's roar sounded very plain in his ear, and almost close; upon hearing which he rushed on to the gate, and, without much thinking what he was doing, vaulted over it, and advanced a few steps into the field. "halloo!" shouted the earl. "there's a man. come on." and then his continued shoutings hardly formed themselves into intelligible words; but eames plainly understood that he was invoking assistance under great pressure and stress of circumstances. the bull was making short runs at his owner, as though determined in each run to have a toss at his lordship; and at each run the earl would retreat quickly for a few paces, but he retreated always facing his enemy, and as the animal got near to him, would make digs at his face with the long spud which he carried in his hand. but in thus making good his retreat he had been unable to keep in a direct line to the gate, and there seemed to be great danger lest the bull should succeed in pressing him up against the hedge. "come on!" shouted the earl, who was fighting his battle manfully, but was by no means anxious to carry off all the laurels of the victory himself. "come on, i say!" then he stopped in his path, shouted into the bull's face, brandished his spud, and threw about his arms, thinking that he might best dismay the beast by the display of these warlike gestures. johnny eames ran on gallantly to the peer's assistance, as he would have run to that of any peasant in the land. he was one to whom i should be perhaps wrong to attribute at this period of his life the gift of very high courage. he feared many things which no man should fear; but he did not fear personal mishap or injury to his own skin and bones. when cradell escaped out of the house in burton crescent, making his way through the passage into the outer air, he did so because he feared that lupex would beat him or kick him, or otherwise ill-use him. john eames would also have desired to escape under similar circumstances; but he would have so desired because he could not endure to be looked upon in his difficulties by the people of the house, and because his imagination would have painted the horrors of a policeman dragging him off with a black eye and a torn coat. there was no one to see him now, and no policeman to take offence. therefore he rushed to the earl's assistance, brandishing his stick, and roaring in emulation of the bull. when the animal saw with what unfairness he was treated, and that the number of his foes was doubled, while no assistance had lent itself on his side, he stood for a while, disgusted by the injustice of humanity. he stopped, and throwing his head up to the heavens, bellowed out his complaint. "don't come close!" said the earl, who was almost out of breath. "keep a little apart. ugh! ugh! whoop, whoop!" and he threw up his arms manfully, jobbing about with his spud, ever and anon rubbing the perspiration from off his eyebrows with the back of his hand. as the bull stood pausing, meditating whether under such circumstances flight would not be preferable to gratified passion, eames made a rush in at him, attempting to hit him on the head. the earl, seeing this, advanced a step also, and got his spud almost up to the animal's eye. but these indignities the beast could not stand. he made a charge, bending his head first towards john eames, and then, with that weak vacillation which is as disgraceful in a bull as in a general, he changed his purpose, and turned his horns upon his other enemy. the consequence was that his steps carried him in between the two, and that the earl and eames found themselves for a while behind his tail. "now for the gate," said the earl. "slowly does it; slowly does it; don't run!" said johnny, assuming in the heat of the moment a tone of counsel which would have been very foreign to him under other circumstances. the earl was not a whit offended. "all right," said he, taking with a backward motion the direction of the gate. then as the bull again faced towards him, he jumped from the ground, labouring painfully with arms and legs, and ever keeping his spud well advanced against the foe. eames, holding his position a little apart from his friend, stooped low and beat the ground with his stick, and as though defying the creature. the bull felt himself defied, stood still and roared, and then made another vacillating attack. "hold on till we reach the gate," said eames. "ugh! ugh! whoop! whoop!" shouted the earl. and so gradually they made good their ground. "now get over," said eames, when they had both reached the corner of the field in which the gate stood. "and what'll you do?" said the earl. "i'll go at the hedge to the right." and johnny as he spoke dashed his stick about, so as to monopolize, for a moment, the attention of the brute. the earl made a spring at the gate, and got well on to the upper rung. the bull seeing that his prey was going, made a final rush upon the earl and struck the timber furiously with his head, knocking his lordship down on the other side. lord de guest was already over, but not off the rail; and thus, though he fell, he fell in safety on the sward beyond the gate. he fell in safety, but utterly exhausted. eames, as he had purposed, made a leap almost sideways at a thick hedge which divided the field from one of the guestwick copses. there was a fairly broad ditch, and on the other side a quickset hedge, which had, however, been weakened and injured by trespassers at this corner, close to the gate. eames was young and active and jumped well. he jumped so well that he carried his body full into the middle of the quickset, and then scrambled through to the other side, not without much injury to his clothes, and some damage also to his hands and face. the beast, recovering from his shock against the wooden bars, looked wistfully at his last retreating enemy, as he still struggled amidst the bushes. he looked at the ditch and at the broken hedge, but he did not understand how weak were the impediments in his way. he had knocked his head against the stout timber, which was strong enough to oppose him, but was dismayed by the brambles which he might have trodden under foot without an effort. how many of us are like the bull, turning away conquered by opposition which should be as nothing to us, and breaking our feet, and worse still, our hearts, against rocks of adamant. the bull at last made up his mind that he did not dare to face the hedge; so he gave one final roar, and then turning himself round, walked placidly back amidst the herd. johnny made his way on to the road by a stile that led out of the copse, and was soon standing over the earl, while the blood ran down his cheeks from the scratches. one of the legs of his trowsers had been caught by a stake, and was torn from the hip downward, and his hat was left in the field, the only trophy for the bull. "i hope you're not hurt, my lord," he said. "oh dear, no; but i'm terribly out of breath. why, you're bleeding all over. he didn't get at you, did he?" "it's only the thorns in the hedge," said johnny, passing his hand over his face. "but i've lost my hat." "there are plenty more hats," said the earl. "i think i'll have a try for it," said johnny, with whom the means of getting hats had not been so plentiful as with the earl. "he looks quiet now." and he moved towards the gate. but lord de guest jumped upon his feet, and seized the young man by the collar of his coat. "go after your hat!" said he. "you must be a fool to think of it. if you're afraid of catching cold, you shall have mine." "i'm not the least afraid of catching cold," said johnny. "is he often like that, my lord?" and he made a motion with his head towards the bull. "the gentlest creature alive; he's like a lamb generally--just like a lamb. perhaps he saw my red pocket-handkerchief." and lord de guest showed his friend that he carried such an article. "but where should i have been if you hadn't come up?" "you'd have got to the gate, my lord." "yes; with my feet foremost, and four men carrying me. i'm very thirsty. you don't happen to carry a flask, do you?" "no, my lord, i don't." "then we'll make the best of our way home, and have a glass of wine there." and on this occasion his lordship intended that his offer should be accepted. chapter xxii. lord de guest at home. [illustration: (untitled)] the earl and john eames, after their escape from the bull, walked up to the manor house together. "you can write a note to your mother, and i'll send it by one of the boys," said the earl. this was his lordship's answer when eames declined to dine at the manor house, because he would be expected home. "but i'm so badly off for clothes, my lord," pleaded johnny. "i tore my trowsers in the hedge." "there will be nobody there beside us two and dr. crofts. the doctor will forgive you when he hears the story; and as for me, i didn't care if you hadn't a stitch to your back. you'll have company back to guestwick, so come along." eames had no further excuse to offer, and therefore did as he was bidden. he was by no means as much at home with the earl now as during those minutes of the combat. he would rather have gone home, being somewhat ashamed of being seen in his present tattered and bare-headed condition by the servants of the house; and moreover, his mind would sometimes revert to the scene which had taken place in the garden at allington. but he found himself obliged to obey the earl, and so he walked on with him through the woods. the earl did not say very much, being tired and somewhat thoughtful. in what little he did say he seemed to be specially hurt by the ingratitude of the bull towards himself. "i never teased him, or annoyed him in any way." "i suppose they are dangerous beasts?" said eames. "not a bit of it, if they're properly treated. it must have been my handkerchief, i suppose. i remember that i did blow my nose." he hardly said a word in the way of thanks to his assistant. "where should i have been if you had not come to me?" he had exclaimed immediately after his deliverance; but having said that he didn't think it necessary to say much more to eames. but he made himself very pleasant, and by the time he had reached the house his companion was almost glad that he had been forced to dine at the manor house. "and now we'll have a drink," said the earl. "i don't know how you feel, but i never was so thirsty in my life." two servants immediately showed themselves, and evinced some surprise at johnny's appearance. "has the gentleman hurt hisself, my lord?" asked the butler, looking at the blood upon our friend's face. "he has hurt his trowsers the worst, i believe," said the earl. "and if he was to put on any of mine they'd be too short and too big, wouldn't they? i am sorry you should be so uncomfortable, but you mustn't mind it for once." "i don't mind it a bit," said johnny. "and i'm sure i don't," said the earl. "mr. eames is going to dine here, vickers." "yes, my lord." "and his hat is down in the middle of the nineteen acres. let three or four men go for it." "three or four men, my lord!" "yes,--three or four men. there's something gone wrong with that bull. and you must get a boy with a pony to take a note into guestwick, to mrs. eames. oh dear, i'm better now," and he put down the tumbler from which he'd been drinking. "write your note here, and then we'll go and see my pet pheasants before dinner." vickers and the footman knew that something had happened of much moment, for the earl was usually very particular about his dinner-table. he expected every guest who sat there to be dressed in such guise as the fashion of the day demanded; and he himself, though his morning costume was by no means brilliant, never dined, even when alone, without having put himself into a suit of black, with a white cravat, and having exchanged the old silver hunting-watch which he carried during the day tied round his neck by a bit of old ribbon, for a small gold watch, with a chain and seals, which in the evening always dangled over his waistcoat. dr. gruffen had once been asked to dinner at guestwick manor. "just a bachelor's chop," said the earl; "for there's nobody at home but myself." whereupon dr. gruffen had come in coloured trowsers,--and had never again been asked to dine at guestwick manor. all this vickers knew well; and now his lordship had brought young eames home to dine with him with his clothes all hanging about him in a manner which vickers declared in the servants' hall wasn't more than half decent. therefore, they all knew that something very particular must have happened. "it's some trouble about the bull, i know," said vickers;--"but bless you, the bull couldn't have tore his things in that way!" eames wrote his note, in which he told his mother that he had had an adventure with lord de guest, and that his lordship had insisted on bringing him home to dinner. "i have torn my trowsers all to pieces," he added in a postscript, "and have lost my hat. everything else is all right." he was not aware that the earl also sent a short note to mrs. eames. dear madam [ran the earl's note],-- your son has, under providence, probably saved my life. i will leave the story for him to tell. he has been good enough to accompany me home, and will return to guestwick after dinner with dr. crofts, who dines here. i congratulate you on having a son with so much cool courage and good feeling. your very faithful servant, de guest. guestwick manor, thursday, october, --. and then they went to see the pheasants. "now, i'll tell you what," said the earl. "i advise you to take to shooting. it's the amusement of a gentleman when a man chances to have the command of game." "but i'm always up in london." "no, you're not. you're not up in london now. you always have your holidays. if you choose to try it, i'll see that you have shooting enough while you're here. it's better than going to sleep under the trees. ha, ha, ha! i wonder what made you lay yourself down there. you hadn't been fighting a bull that day?" "no, my lord. i hadn't seen the bull then." "well; you think of what i've been saying. when i say a thing, i mean it. you shall have shooting enough, if you have a mind to try it." then they looked at the pheasants, and pottered about the place till the earl said it was time to dress for dinner. "that's hard upon you, isn't it?" said he. "but, at any rate, you can wash your hands, and get rid of the blood. i'll be down in the little drawing-room five minutes before seven, and i suppose i'll find you there." at five minutes before seven lord de guest came into the small drawing-room, and found johnny seated there, with a book before him. the earl was a little fussy, and showed by his manner that he was not quite at his ease, as some men do when they have any piece of work on hand which is not customary to them. he held something in his hand, and shuffled a little as he made his way up the room. he was dressed, as usual, in black; but his gold chain was not, as usual, dangling over his waistcoat. "eames," he said, "i want you to accept a little present from me,--just as a memorial of our affair with the bull. it will make you think of it sometimes, when i'm perhaps gone." "oh, my lord--" "it's my own watch, that i have been wearing for some time; but i've got another;--two or three, i believe, somewhere upstairs. you mustn't refuse me. i can't bear being refused. there are two or three little seals, too, which i have worn. i have taken off the one with my arms, because that's of no use to you, and it is to me. it doesn't want a key, but winds up at the handle, in this way," and the earl proceeded to explain the nature of the toy. "my lord, you think too much of what happened to-day," said eames, stammering. "no, i don't; i think very little about it. i know what i think of. put the watch in your pocket before the doctor comes. there; i hear his horse. why didn't he drive over, and then he could have taken you back?" "i can walk very well." "i'll make that all right. the servant shall ride crofts' horse, and bring back the little phaeton. how d'you do, doctor? you know eames, i suppose? you needn't look at him in that way. his leg is not broken; it's only his trowsers." and then the earl told the story of the bull. "johnny will become quite a hero in town," said crofts. "yes; i fear he'll get the most of the credit; and yet i was at it twice as long as he was. i'll tell you what, young men, when i got to that gate i didn't think i'd breath enough left in me to get over it. it's all very well jumping into a hedge when you're only two-and-twenty; but when a man comes to be sixty he likes to take his time about such things. dinner ready, is it? so am i. i quite forgot that mutton chop of yours to-day, doctor. but i suppose a man may eat a good dinner after a fight with a bull?" the evening passed by without any very pleasurable excitement, and i regret to say that the earl went fast to sleep in the drawing-room as soon as he had swallowed his cup of coffee. during dinner he had been very courteous to both his guests, but towards eames he had used a good-humoured and almost affectionate familiarity. he had quizzed him for having been found asleep under the tree, telling crofts that he had looked very forlorn,--"so that i haven't a doubt about his being in love," said the earl. and he had asked johnny to tell the name of the fair one, bringing up the remnants of his half-forgotten classicalities to bear out the joke. "if i am to take more of the severe falernian," said he, laying his hand on the decanter of port, "i must know the lady's name. whoever she be, i'm well sure you need not blush for her. what! you refuse to tell! then i'll drink no more." and so the earl had walked out of the dining-room; but not till he had perceived by his guest's cheeks that the joke had been too true to be pleasant. as he went, however, he leaned with his hand on eames's shoulder, and the servants looking on saw that the young man was to be a favourite. "he'll make him his heir," said vickers. "i shouldn't wonder a bit if he don't make him his heir." but to this the footman objected, endeavouring to prove to mr. vickers that, in accordance with the law of the land, his lordship's second cousin, once removed, whom the earl had never seen, but whom he was supposed to hate, must be his heir. "a hearl can never choose his own heir, like you or me," said the footman, laying down the law. "can't he though really, now? that's very hard on him; isn't it?" said the pretty housemaid. "psha," said vickers: "you know nothing about it. my lord could make young eames his heir to-morrow; that is, the heir of his property. he couldn't make him a hearl, because that must go to the heirs of his body. as to his leaving him the place here, i don't just know how that'd be; and i'm sure richard don't." "but suppose he hasn't got any heirs of his body?" asked the pretty housemaid, who was rather fond of putting down mr. vickers. "he must have heirs of his body," said the butler. "everybody has 'em. if a man don't know 'em himself, the law finds 'em out." and then mr. vickers walked away, avoiding further dispute. in the meantime, the earl was asleep upstairs, and the two young men from guestwick did not find that they could amuse themselves with any satisfaction. each took up a book; but there are times at which a man is quite unable to read, and when a book is only a cover for his idleness or dulness. at last, dr. crofts suggested, in a whisper, that they might as well begin to think of going home. "eh; yes; what?" said the earl: "i'm not asleep." in answer to which the doctor said that he thought he'd go home, if his lordship would let him order his horse. but the earl was again fast bound in slumber, and took no further notice of the proposition. "perhaps we could get off without waking him," suggested eames, in a whisper. "eh; what?" said the earl. so they both resumed their books, and submitted themselves to their martyrdom for a further period of fifteen minutes. at the expiration of that time, the footman brought in tea. "eh, what? tea!" said the earl. "yes, we'll have a little tea. i've heard every word you've been saying." it was that assertion on the part of the earl which always made lady julia so angry. "you cannot have heard what i have been saying, theodore, because i have said nothing," she would reply. "but i should have heard it if you had," the earl would rejoin, snappishly. on the present occasion neither crofts nor eames contradicted him, and he took his tea and swallowed it while still three parts asleep. "if you'll allow me, my lord, i think i'll order my horse," said the doctor. "yes; horse--yes--" said the earl, nodding. "but what are you to do, eames, if i ride?" said the doctor. "i'll walk," whispered eames, in his very lowest voice. "what--what--what?" said the earl, jumping up on his feet. "oh, ah, yes; going away, are you? i suppose you might as well, as sit here and see me sleeping. but, doctor--i didn't snore, did i?" "only occasionally." "not loud, did i? come, eames, did i snore loud?" "well, my lord, you did snore rather loud two or three times." "did i?" said the earl, in a voice of great disappointment. "and yet, do you know, i heard every word you said." the small phaeton had been already ordered, and the two young men started back to guestwick together, a servant from the house riding the doctor's horse behind them. "look here, eames," said the earl, as they parted on the steps of the hall door. "you're going back to town the day after to-morrow, you say, so i shan't see you again?" "no, my lord," said johnny. "look you here, now. i shall be up for the cattle-show before christmas. you must dine with me at my hotel, on the twenty-second of december, pawkins's, in jermyn street; seven o'clock, sharp. mind you do not forget, now. put it down in your pocket-book when you get home. good-by, doctor; good-by. i see i must stick to that mutton chop in the middle of the day." and then they drove off. "he'll make him his heir for certain," said vickers to himself, as he slowly returned to his own quarters. "you were returning from allington, i suppose," said crofts, "when you came across lord de guest and the bull?" "yes: i just walked over to say good-by to them." "did you find them all well?" "i only saw one. the other two were out." "mrs. dale, was it?" "no; it was lily." "sitting alone, thinking of her fine london lover, of course? i suppose we ought to look upon her as a very lucky girl. i have no doubt she thinks herself so." "i'm sure i don't know," said johnny. "i believe he's a very good young man," said the doctor; "but i can't say i quite liked his manner." "i should think not," said johnny. "but then in all probability he did not like mine a bit better, or perhaps yours either. and if so it's all fair." "i don't see that it's a bit fair. he's a snob," said eames; "and i don't believe that i am." he had taken a glass or two of the earl's "severe falernian," and was disposed to a more generous confidence, and perhaps also to stronger language, than might otherwise have been the case. "no; i don't think he is a snob," said crofts. "had he been so, mrs. dale would have perceived it." "you'll see," said johnny, touching up the earl's horse with energy as he spoke. "you'll see. a man who gives himself airs is a snob; and he gives himself airs. and i don't believe he's a straightforward fellow. it was a bad day for us all when he came among them at allington." "i can't say that i see that." "i do. but mind, i haven't spoken a word of this to any one. and i don't mean. what would be the good? i suppose she must marry him now?" "of course she must." "and be wretched all her life. oh-h-h-h!" and he muttered a deep groan. "i'll tell you what it is, crofts. he is going to take the sweetest girl out of this country that ever was in it, and he don't deserve her." "i don't think she can be compared to her sister," said crofts slowly. "what; not lily?" said eames, as though the proposition made by the doctor were one that could not hold water for a minute. "i have always thought that bell was the more admired of the two," said crofts. "i'll tell you what," said eames. "i have never yet set my eyes on any human creature whom i thought so beautiful as lily dale. and now that beast is going to marry her! i'll tell you what, crofts; i'll manage to pick a quarrel with him yet." whereupon the doctor, seeing the nature of the complaint from which his companion was suffering, said nothing more, either about lily or about bell. soon after this eames was at his own door, and was received there by his mother and sister with all the enthusiasm due to a hero. "he has saved the earl's life!" mrs. eames had exclaimed to her daughter on reading lord de guest's note. "oh, goodness!" and she threw herself back upon the sofa almost in a fainting condition. "saved lord de guest's life!" said mary. "yes--under providence," said mrs. eames, as though that latter fact added much to her son's good deed. "but how did he do it?" "by cool courage and good feeling--so his lordship says. but i wonder how he really did do it?" "whatever way it was, he's torn all his clothes and lost his hat," said mary. "i don't care a bit about that," said mrs. eames. "i wonder whether the earl has any interest at the income-tax. "what a thing it would be if he could get johnny a step. it would be seventy pounds a year at once. he was quite right to stay and dine when his lordship asked him. and so dr. crofts is there. it couldn't have been anything in the doctoring way, i suppose." "no, i should say not; because of what he says of his trowsers." and so the two ladies were obliged to wait for john's return. "how did you do it, john?" said his mother, embracing him, as soon as the door was opened. "how did you save the earl's life?" said mary, who was standing behind her mother. "would his lordship really have been killed, if it had not been for you?" asked mrs. eames. "and was he very much hurt?" asked mary. "oh, bother," said johnny, on whom the results of the day's work, together with the earl's falernian, had made some still remaining impression. on ordinary occasions, mrs. eames would have felt hurt at being so answered by her son; but at the present moment she regarded him as standing so high in general favour that she took no offence. "oh, johnny, do tell us. of course we must be very anxious to know it all." "there's nothing to tell, except that a bull ran at the earl, as i was going by; so i went into the field and helped him, and then he made me stay and dine with him." "but his lordship says that you saved his life," said mary. "under providence," added their mother. "at any rate, he has given me a gold watch and chain," said johnny, drawing the present out of his pocket. "i wanted a watch badly. all the same, i didn't like taking it." "it would have been very wrong to refuse," said his mother. "and i am so glad you have been so fortunate. and look here, johnny: when a friend like that comes in your way, don't turn your back on him." then, at last, he thawed beneath their kindness, and told them the whole of the story. i fear that in recounting the earl's efforts with the spud, he hardly spoke of his patron with all that deference which would have been appropriate. chapter xxiii. mr. plantagenet palliser. a week passed over mr. crosbie's head at courcy castle without much inconvenience to him from the well-known fact of his matrimonial engagement. both george de courcy and john de courcy had in their different ways charged him with his offence, and endeavoured to annoy him by recurring to the subject; but he did not care much for the wit or malice of george or john de courcy. the countess had hardly alluded to lily dale after those few words which she said on the first day of his visit, and seemed perfectly willing to regard his doings at allington as the occupation natural to a young man in such a position. he had been seduced down to a dull country house, and had, as a matter of course, taken to such amusements as the place afforded. he had shot the partridges and made love to the young lady, taking those little recreations as compensation for the tedium of the squire's society. perhaps he had gone a little too far with the young lady; but then no one knew better than the countess how difficult it is for a young man to go far enough without going too far. it was not her business to make herself a censor on a young man's conduct. the blame, no doubt, rested quite as much with miss dale as with him. she was quite sorry that any young lady should be disappointed; but if girls will be imprudent, and set their caps at men above their mark, they must encounter disappointment. with such language did lady de courcy speak of the affair among her daughters, and her daughters altogether agreed with her that it was out of the question that mr. crosbie should marry lily dale. from alexandrina he encountered during the week none of that raillery which he had expected. he had promised to explain to her before he left the castle all the circumstances of his acquaintance with lily, and she at last showed herself determined to demand the fulfilment of this promise; but, previous to that, she said nothing to manifest either offence or a lessened friendship. and i regret to say, that in the intercourse which had taken place between them, that friendship was by no means less tender that it had been in london. "and when will you tell me what you promised?" she asked him one afternoon, speaking in a low voice, as they were standing together at the window of the billiard-room, in that idle half-hour which always occurs before the necessity for dinner preparation has come. she had been riding and was still in her habit, and he had returned from shooting. she knew that she looked more than ordinarily well in her tall straight hat and riding gear, and was wont to hang about the house, walking skilfully with her upheld drapery, during this period of the day. it was dusk, but not dark, and there was no artificial light in the billiard-room. there had been some pretence of knocking about the balls, but it had been only pretence. "even diana," she had said, "could not have played billiards in a habit." then she had put down her mace, and they had stood talking together in the recess of a large bow-window. "and what did i promise?" said crosbie. "you know well enough. not that it is a matter of any special interest to me; only, as you undertook to promise, of course my curiosity has been raised." "if it be of no special interest," said crosbie, "you will not object to absolve me from my promise." "that is just like you," she said. "and how false you men always are. you made up your mind to buy my silence on a distasteful subject by pretending to offer me your future confidence; and now you tell me that you do not mean to confide in me." "you begin by telling me that the matter is one that does not in the least interest you." "that is so false again! you know very well what i meant. do you remember what you said to me the day you came? and am i not bound to tell you after that, that your marriage with this or that young lady is not matter of special interest to me? still, as your friend--" "well, as my friend!" "i shall be glad to know--. but i am not going to beg for your confidence; only i tell you this fairly, that no man is so mean in my eyes as a man who fights under false colours." "and am i fighting under false colours?" "yes, you are." and now, as she spoke, the lady alexandrina blushed beneath her hat; and dull as was the remaining light of the evening, crosbie, looking into her face, saw her heightened colour. "yes, you are. a gentleman is fighting under false colours who comes into a house like this, with a public rumour of his being engaged, and then conducts himself as though nothing of the kind existed. of course, it is not anything to me specially; but that is fighting under false colours. now, sir, you may redeem the promise you made me when you first came here,--or you may let it alone." it must be acknowledged that the lady was fighting her battle with much courage, and also with some skill. in three or four days crosbie would be gone; and this victory, if it were ever to be gained, must be gained in those three or four days. and if there were to be no victory, then it would be only fair that crosbie should be punished for his duplicity, and that she should be avenged as far as any revenge might be in her power. not that she meditated any deep revenge, or was prepared to feel any strong anger. she liked crosbie as well as she had ever liked any man. she believed that he liked her also. she had no conception of any very strong passion, but conceived that a married life was more pleasant than one of single bliss. she had no doubt that he had promised to make lily dale his wife, but so had he previously promised her, or nearly so. it was a fair game, and she would win it if she could. if she failed, she would show her anger; but she would show it in a mild, weak manner,--turning up her nose at lily before crosbie's face, and saying little things against himself behind his back. her wrath would not carry her much beyond that. "now, sir, you may redeem the promise you made me when you first came here,--or you may let it alone." so she spoke, and then she turned her face away from him, gazing out into the darkness. "alexandrina!" he said. "well, sir? but you have no right to speak to me in that style. you know that you have no right to call me by my name in that way!" "you mean that you insist upon your title?" "all ladies insist on what you call their title, from gentlemen, except under the privilege of greater intimacy than you have the right to claim. you did not call miss dale by her christian name till you had obtained permission, i suppose?" "you used to let me call you so." "never! once or twice, when you have done so, i have not forbidden it, as i should have done. very well, sir, as you have nothing to tell me, i will leave you. i must confess that i did not think you were such a coward." and she prepared to go, gathering up the skirts of her habit, and taking up the whip which she had laid on the window-sill. "stay a moment, alexandrina," he said; "i am not happy, and you should not say words intended to make me more miserable." "and why are you unhappy?" "because-- i will tell you instantly, if i may believe that i am telling you only, and not the whole household." "of course i shall not talk of it to others. do you think that i cannot keep a secret?" "it is because i have promised to marry one woman, and because i love another. i have told you everything now; and if you choose to say again that i am fighting under false colours i will leave the castle before you can see me again." "mr. crosbie!" "now you know it all, and may imagine whether or no i am very happy. i think you said it was time to dress;--suppose we go?" and without further speech the two went off to their separate rooms. crosbie, as soon as he was alone in his chamber, sat himself down in his arm-chair, and went to work striving to make up his mind as to his future conduct. it must not be supposed that the declaration just made by him had been produced solely by his difficulty at the moment. the atmosphere of courcy castle had been at work upon him for the last week past. and every word that he had heard, and every word that he had spoken, had tended to destroy all that was good and true within him, and to foster all that was selfish and false. he had said to himself a dozen times during that week that he never could be happy with lily dale, and that he never could make her happy. and then he had used the old sophistry in his endeavour to teach himself that it was right to do that which he wished to do. would it not be better for lily that he should desert her, than marry her against the dictates of his own heart? and if he really did not love her, would he not be committing a greater crime in marrying her than in deserting her? he confessed to himself that he had been very wrong in allowing the outer world to get such a hold upon him that the love of a pure girl like lily could not suffice for his happiness. but there was the fact, and he found himself unable to contend against it. if by any absolute self-sacrifice he could secure lily's well-being, he would not hesitate for a moment. but would it be well to sacrifice her as well as himself? he had discussed the matter in this way within his own breast, till he had almost taught himself to believe that it was his duty to break off his engagement with lily; and he had also almost taught himself to believe that a marriage with a daughter of the house of courcy would satisfy his ambition and assist him in his battle with the world. that lady alexandrina would accept him he felt certain, if he could only induce her to forgive him for his sin in becoming engaged to miss dale. how very prone she would be to forgiveness in this matter, he had not divined, having not as yet learned how easily such a woman can forgive such a sin, if the ultimate triumph be accorded to herself. and there was another reason which operated much with crosbie, urging him on in his present mood and wishes, though it should have given an exactly opposite impulse to his heart. he had hesitated as to marrying lily dale at once, because of the smallness of his income. now he had a prospect of considerable increase to that income. one of the commissioners at his office had been promoted to some greater commissionership, and it was understood by everybody that the secretary at the general committee office would be the new commissioner. as to that there was no doubt. but then the question had arisen as to the place of secretary. crosbie had received two or three letters on the subject, and it seemed that the likelihood of his obtaining this step in the world was by no means slight. it would increase his official income from seven hundred a year to twelve, and would place him altogether above the world. his friend, the present secretary, had written to him, assuring him that no other probable competitor was spoken of as being in the field against him. if such good fortune awaited him, would it not smooth any present difficulty which lay in the way of his marriage with lily dale? but, alas, he had not looked at the matter in that light! might not the countess help him to this preferment? and if his destiny intended for him the good things of this world,--secretaryships, commissionerships, chairmanships, and such like, would it not be well that he should struggle on in his upward path by such assistance as good connections might give him? he sat thinking over it all in his own room on that evening. he had written twice to lily since his arrival at courcy castle. his first letter has been given. his second was written much in the same tone; though lily, as she had read it, had unconsciously felt somewhat less satisfied than she had been with the first. expressions of love were not wanting, but they were vague and without heartiness. they savoured of insincerity, though there was nothing in the words themselves to convict them. few liars can lie with the full roundness and self-sufficiency of truth; and crosbie, bad as he was, had not yet become bad enough to reach that perfection. he had said nothing to lily of the hopes of promotion which had been opened to him; but he had again spoken of his own worldliness--acknowledging that he received an unsatisfying satisfaction from the pomps and vanities of courcy castle. in fact he was paving the way for that which he had almost resolved that he would do, now he had told lady alexandrina that he loved her; and he was obliged to confess to himself that the die was cast. as he thought of all this, there was not wanting to him some of the satisfaction of an escape. soon after making that declaration of love at allington he had begun to feel that in making it he had cut his throat. he had endeavoured to persuade himself that he could live comfortably with his throat cut in that way; and as long as lily was with him he would believe that he could do so; but as soon as he was again alone he would again accuse himself of suicide. this was his frame of mind even while he was yet at allington, and his ideas on the subject had become stronger during his sojourn at courcy. but the self-immolation had not been completed, and he now began to think that he could save himself. i need hardly say that this was not all triumph to him. even had there been no material difficulty as to his desertion of lily,--no uncle, cousin, and mother whose anger he must face,--no vision of a pale face, more eloquent of wrong in its silence than even uncle, cousin, and mother, with their indignant storm of words,--he was not altogether heartless. how should he tell all this to the girl who had loved him so well; who had so loved him, that, as he himself felt, her love would fashion all her future life either for weal or for woe? "i am unworthy of her, and will tell her so," he said to himself. how many a false hound of a man has endeavoured to salve his own conscience by such mock humility? but he acknowledged at this moment, as he rose from his seat to dress himself, that the die was cast, and that it was open to him now to say what he pleased to lady alexandrina. "others have gone through the same fire before," he said to himself, as he walked downstairs, "and have come out scatheless." and then he recalled to himself the names of various men of high repute in the world who were supposed to have committed in their younger days some such little mistake as that into which he had been betrayed. in passing through the hall he overtook lady julia de guest, and was in time to open for her the door of the drawing-room. he then remembered that she had come into the billiard-room at one side, and had gone out at the other, while he was standing with alexandrina at the window. he had not, however, then thought much of lady julia; and as he now stood for her to pass by him through the door-way, he made to her some indifferent remark. but lady julia was on some subjects a stern woman, and not without a certain amount of courage. in the last week she had seen what had been going on, and had become more and more angry. though she had disowned any family connection with lily dale, nevertheless she now felt for her sympathy and almost affection. nearly every day she had repeated stiffly to the countess some incident of crosbie's courtship and engagement to miss dale,--speaking of it as with absolute knowledge, as a thing settled at all points. this she had done to the countess alone, in the presence of the countess and alexandrina, and also before all the female guests of the castle. but what she had said was received simply with an incredulous smile. "dear me! lady julia," the countess had replied at last, "i shall begin to think you are in love with mr. crosbie yourself; you harp so constantly on this affair of his. one would think that young ladies in your part of the world must find it very difficult to get husbands, seeing that the success of one young lady is trumpeted so loudly." for the moment, lady julia was silenced; but it was not easy to silence her altogether when she had a subject for speech near her heart. almost all the courcy world were assembled in the drawing-room as she now walked into the room with crosbie at her heels. when she found herself near the crowd she turned round, and addressed him in a voice more audible than that generally required for purposes of drawing-room conversation. "mr. crosbie," she said, "have you heard lately from our dear friend, lily dale?" and she looked him full in the face, in a manner more significant, probably, than even she had intended it to be. there was, at once, a general hush in the room, and all eyes were turned upon her and upon him. crosbie instantly made an effort to bear the attack gallantly, but he felt that he could not quite command his colour, or prevent a sudden drop of perspiration from showing itself upon his brow. "i had a letter from allington yesterday," he said. "i suppose you have heard of your brother's encounter with the bull?" "the bull!" said lady julia. and it was instantly manifest to all that her attack had been foiled and her flank turned. "good gracious! lady julia, how very odd you are!" said the countess. "but what about the bull?" asked the honourable george. "it seems that the earl was knocked down in the middle of one of his own fields." "oh, dear!" exclaimed alexandrina. and sundry other exclamations were made by all the assembled ladies. "but he wasn't hurt," said crosbie. "a young man named eames seems to have fallen from the sky and carried off the earl on his back." "ha, ha, ha, ha!" growled the other earl, as he heard of the discomfiture of his brother peer. lady julia, who had received her own letters that day from guestwick, knew that nothing of importance had happened to her brother; but she felt that she was foiled for that time. "i hope that there has not really been any accident," said mr. gazebee, with a voice of great solicitude. "my brother was quite well last night, thank you," said she. and then the little groups again formed themselves, and lady julia was left alone on the corner of a sofa. "was that all an invention of yours, sir?" said alexandrina to crosbie. "not quite. i did get a letter this morning from my friend bernard dale,--that old harridan's nephew; and lord de guest has been worried by some of his animals. i wish i had told her that his stupid old neck had been broken." "fie, mr. crosbie!" "what business has she to interfere with me?" "but i mean to ask the same question that she asked, and you won't put me off with a cock-and-bull story like that." but then, as she was going to ask the question, dinner was announced. "and is it true that de guest has been tossed by a bull?" said the earl, as soon as the ladies were gone. he had spoken nothing during dinner except what words he had muttered into the ear of lady dumbello. it was seldom that conversation had many charms for him in his own house; but there was a savour of pleasantry in the idea of lord de guest having been tossed, by which even he was tickled. "only knocked down, i believe," said crosbie. "ha, ha, ha!" growled the earl; then he filled his glass, and allowed some one else to pass the bottle. poor man! there was not much left to him now in the world which did amuse him. "i don't see anything to laugh at," said plantagenet palliser, who was sitting at the earl's right hand, opposite to lord dumbello. "don't you?" said the earl. "ha, ha, ha!" "i'll be shot if i do. from all i hear de guest is an uncommon good farmer. and i don't see the joke of tossing a farmer merely because he's a nobleman also. do you?" and he turned round to mr. gazebee, who was sitting on the other side. the earl was an earl, and was also mr. gazebee's father-in-law. mr. plantagenet palliser was the heir to a dukedom. therefore, mr. gazebee merely simpered, and did not answer the question put to him. mr. palliser said nothing more about it, nor did the earl; and then the joke died away. mr. plantagenet palliser was the duke of omnium's heir--heir to that nobleman's title and to his enormous wealth; and, therefore, was a man of mark in the world. he sat in the house of commons, of course. he was about five-and-twenty years of age, and was, as yet, unmarried. he did not hunt or shoot or keep a yacht, and had been heard to say that he had never put a foot upon a race-course in his life. he dressed very quietly, never changing the colour or form of his garments; and in society was quiet, reserved, and very often silent. he was tall, slight, and not ill-looking; but more than this cannot be said for his personal appearance--except, indeed, this, that no one could mistake him for other than a gentleman. with his uncle, the duke, he was on good terms--that is to say, they had never quarrelled. a very liberal allowance had been made to the nephew; but the two relatives had no tastes in common, and did not often meet. once a year mr. palliser visited the duke at his great country seat for two or three days, and usually dined with him two or three times during the season in london. mr. palliser sat for a borough which was absolutely under the duke's command; but had accepted his seat under the distinct understanding that he was to take whatever part in politics might seem good to himself. under these well-understood arrangements, the duke and his heir showed to the world quite a pattern of a happy family. "so different to the earl and lord porlock!" the people of west barsetshire used to say. for the estates, both of the duke and of the earl, were situated in the western division of that county. mr. palliser was chiefly known to the world as a rising politician. we may say that he had everything at his command, in the way of pleasure, that the world could offer him. he had wealth, position, power, and the certainty of attaining the highest rank among, perhaps, the most brilliant nobility of the world. he was courted by all who could get near enough to court him. it is hardly too much to say that he might have selected a bride from all that was most beautiful and best among english women. if he would have bought race-horses, and have expended thousands on the turf, he would have gratified his uncle by doing so. he might have been the master of hounds, or the slaughterer of hecatombs of birds. but to none of these things would he devote himself. he had chosen to be a politician, and in that pursuit he laboured with a zeal and perseverance which would have made his fortune at any profession or in any trade. he was constant in committee-rooms up to the very middle of august. he was rarely absent from any debate of importance, and never from any important division. though he seldom spoke, he was always ready to speak if his purpose required it. no man gave him credit for any great genius--few even considered that he could become either an orator or a mighty statesman. but the world said that he was a rising man, and old nestor of the cabinet looked on him as one who would be able, at some far future day, to come among them as a younger brother. hitherto he had declined such inferior offices as had been offered to him, biding his time carefully; and he was as yet tied hand and neck to no party, though known to be liberal in all his political tendencies. he was a great reader--not taking up a book here, and another there, as chance brought books before him, but working through an enormous course of books, getting up the great subject of the world's history--filling himself full of facts--though perhaps not destined to acquire the power of using those facts otherwise than as precedents. he strove also diligently to become a linguist--not without success, as far as a competent understanding of various languages. he was a thin-minded, plodding, respectable man, willing to devote all his youth to work, in order that in old age he might be allowed to sit among the councillors of the state. hitherto his name had not been coupled by the world with that of any woman whom he had been supposed to admire; but latterly it had been observed that he had often been seen in the same room with lady dumbello. it had hardly amounted to more than this; but when it was remembered how undemonstrative were the two persons concerned--how little disposed was either of them to any strong display of feeling--even this was thought matter to be mentioned. he certainly would speak to her from time to time almost with an air of interest; and lady dumbello, when she saw that he was in the room, would be observed to raise her head with some little show of life, and to look round as though there were something there on which it might be worth her while to allow her eyes to rest. when such innuendoes were abroad, no one would probably make more of them than lady de courcy. many, when they heard that mr. palliser was to be at the castle, had expressed their surprise at her success in that quarter. others, when they learned that lady dumbello had consented to become her guest, had also wondered greatly. but when it was ascertained that the two were to be there together, her good-natured friends had acknowledged that she was a very clever woman. to have either mr. palliser or lady dumbello would have been a feather in her cap; but to succeed in getting both, by enabling each to know that the other would be there, was indeed a triumph. as regards lady dumbello, however, the bargain was not fairly carried out; for, after all, mr. palliser came to courcy castle only for two nights and a day, and during the whole of that day he was closeted with sundry large blue-books. as for lady de courcy, she did not care how he might be employed. blue-books and lady dumbello were all the same to her. mr. palliser had been at courcy castle, and neither enemy nor friend could deny the fact. this was his second evening; and as he had promised to meet his constituents at silverbridge at one p.m. on the following day, with the view of explaining to them his own conduct and the political position of the world in general; and as he was not to return from silverbridge to courcy, lady dumbello, if she made any way at all, must take advantage of the short gleam of sunshine which the present hour afforded her. no one, however, could say that she showed any active disposition to monopolize mr. palliser's attention. when he sauntered into the drawing-room she was sitting, alone, in a large, low chair, made without arms, so as to admit the full expansion of her dress, but hollowed and round at the back, so as to afford her the support that was necessary to her. she had barely spoken three words since she had left the dining-room, but the time had not passed heavily with her. lady julia had again attacked the countess about lily dale and mr. crosbie, and alexandrina, driven almost to rage, had stalked off to the farther end of the room, not concealing her special concern in the matter. "how i do wish they were married and done with," said the countess; "and then we should hear no more about them." all of which lady dumbello heard and understood; and in all of it she took a certain interest. she remembered such things, learning thereby who was who, and regulating her own conduct by what she learned. she was by no means idle at this or at other such times, going through, we may say, a considerable amount of really hard work in her manner of working. there she had sat speechless, unless when acknowledging by a low word of assent some expression of flattery from those around her. then the door opened, and when mr. palliser entered she raised her head, and the faintest possible gleam of satisfaction might have been discerned upon her features. but she made no attempt to speak to him; and when, as he stood at the table, he took up a book and remained thus standing for a quarter of an hour, she neither showed nor felt any impatience. after that lord dumbello came in, and he stood at the table without a book. even then lady dumbello felt no impatience. plantagenet palliser skimmed through his little book, and probably learned something. when he put it down he sipped a cup of tea, and remarked to lady de courcy that he believed it was only twelve miles to silverbridge. "i wish it was a hundred and twelve," said the countess. "in that case i should be forced to start to-night," said mr. palliser. "then i wish it was a thousand and twelve," said lady de courcy. "in that case i should not have come at all," said mr. palliser. he did not mean to be uncivil, and had only stated a fact. "the young men are becoming absolute bears," said the countess to her daughter margaretta. he had been in the room nearly an hour when he did at last find himself standing close to lady dumbello: close to her, and without any other very near neighbour. "i should hardly have expected to find you here," he said. "nor i you," she answered. "though, for the matter of that, we are both near our own homes." "i am not near mine." "i meant plumstead; your father's place." "yes; that was my home once." "i wish i could show you my uncle's place. the castle is very fine, and he has some good pictures." "so i have heard." "do you stay here long?" "oh, no. i go to cheshire the day after to-morrow. lord dumbello is always there when the hunting begins." "ah, yes; of course. what a happy fellow he is; never any work to do! his constituents never trouble him, i suppose?" "i don't think they ever do, much." after that mr. palliser sauntered away again, and lady dumbello passed the rest of the evening in silence. it is to be hoped that they both were rewarded by that ten minutes of sympathetic intercourse for the inconvenience which they had suffered in coming to courcy castle. but that which seems so innocent to us had been looked on in a different light by the stern moralists of that house. "by jove!" said the honourable george to his cousin, mr. gresham, "i wonder how dumbello likes it." "it seems to me that dumbello takes it very easily." "there are some men who will take anything easily," said george, who, since his own marriage, had learned to have a holy horror of such wicked things. "she's beginning to come out a little," said lady clandidlem to lady de courcy, when the two old women found themselves together over a fire in some back sitting-room. "still waters always run deep, you know." "i shouldn't at all wonder if she were to go off with him," said lady de courcy. "he'll never be such a fool as that," said lady clandidlem. "i believe men will be fools enough for anything," said lady de courcy. "but, of course, if he did, it would come to nothing afterwards. i know one who would not be sorry. if ever a man was tired of a woman, lord dumbello is tired of her." but in this, as in almost everything else, the wicked old woman spoke scandal. lord dumbello was still proud of his wife, and as fond of her as a man can be of a woman whose fondness depends upon mere pride. there had not been much that was dangerous in the conversation between mr. palliser and lady dumbello, but i cannot say the same as to that which was going on at the same moment between crosbie and lady alexandrina. she, as i have said, walked away in almost open dudgeon when lady julia recommenced her attack about poor lily, nor did she return to the general circle during the evening. there were two large drawing-rooms at courcy castle, joined together by a narrow link of a room, which might have been called a passage, had it not been lighted by two windows coming down to the floor, carpeted as were the drawing-rooms, and warmed with a separate fireplace. hither she betook herself, and was soon followed by her married sister amelia. "that woman almost drives me mad," said alexandrina, as they stood together with their toes upon the fender. "but, my dear, you of all people should not allow yourself to be driven mad on such a subject." "that's all very well, amelia." "the question is this, my dear,--what does mr. crosbie mean to do?" "how should i know?" "if you don't know, it will be safer to suppose that he is going to marry this girl; and in that case--" "well, what in that case? are you going to be another lady julia? what do i care about the girl?" "i don't suppose you care much about the girl; and if you care as little about mr. crosbie, there's an end of it; only in that case, alexandrina--" "well, what in that case?" "you know i don't want to preach to you. can't you tell me at once whether you really like him? you and i have always been good friends." and the married sister put her arm affectionately round the waist of her who wished to be married. "i like him well enough." "and has he made any declaration to you?" "in a sort of a way he has. hark, here he is!" and crosbie, coming in from the larger room, joined the sisters at the fireplace. "we were driven away by the clack of lady julia's tongue," said the elder. "i never met such a woman," said crosbie. "there cannot well be many like her," said alexandrina. and after that they all stood silent for a minute or two. lady amelia gazebee was considering whether or no she would do well to go and leave the two together. if it were intended that mr. crosbie should marry her sister, it would certainly be well to give him an opportunity of expressing such a wish on his own part. but if alexandrina was simply making a fool of herself, then it would be well for her to stay. "i suppose she would rather i should go," said the elder sister to herself; and then, obeying the rule which should guide all our actions from one to another, she went back and joined the crowd. "will you come on into the other room?" said crosbie. "i think we are very well here," alexandrina replied. "but i wish to speak to you,--particularly," said he. "and cannot you speak here?" "no. they will be passing backwards and forwards." lady alexandrina said nothing further, but led the way into the other large room. that also was lighted, and there were in it four or five persons. lady rosina was reading a work on the millennium, with a light to herself in one corner. her brother john was asleep in an arm-chair, and a young gentleman and lady were playing chess. there was, however, ample room for crosbie and alexandrina to take up a position apart. "and now, mr. crosbie, what have you got to say to me? but, first, i mean to repeat lady julia's question, as i told you that i should do.--when did you hear last from miss dale?" "it is cruel in you to ask me such a question, after what i have already told you. you know that i have given to miss dale a promise of marriage." "very well, sir. i don't see why you should bring me in here to tell me anything that is so publicly known as that. with such a herald as lady julia it was quite unnecessary." "if you can only answer me in that tone i will make an end of it at once. when i told you of my engagement, i told you also that another woman possessed my heart. am i wrong to suppose that you knew to whom i alluded?" "indeed, i did not, mr. crosbie. i am no conjuror, and i have not scrutinized you so closely as your friend lady julia." "it is you that i love. i am sure i need hardly say so now." "hardly, indeed,--considering that you are engaged to miss dale." "as to that i have, of course, to own that i have behaved foolishly;--worse than foolishly, if you choose to say so. you cannot condemn me more absolutely than i condemn myself. but i have made up my mind as to one thing. i will not marry where i do not love." oh, if lily could have heard him as he then spoke! "it would be impossible for me to speak in terms too high of miss dale; but i am quite sure that i could not make her happy as her husband." "why did you not think of that before you asked her?" said alexandrina. but there was very little of condemnation in her tone. "i ought to have done so; but it is hardly for you to blame me with severity. had you, when we were last together in london--had you been less--" "less what?" "less defiant," said crosbie, "all this might perhaps have been avoided." lady alexandrina could not remember that she had been defiant; but, however, she let that pass. "oh, yes; of course it was my fault." "i went down there to allington with my heart ill at ease, and now i have fallen into this trouble. i tell you all as it has happened. it is impossible that i should marry miss dale. it would be wicked in me to do so, seeing that my heart belongs altogether to another. i have told you who is that other; and now may i hope for an answer?" "an answer to what?" "alexandrina, will you be my wife?" if it had been her object to bring him to a point-blank declaration and proposition of marriage, she had certainly achieved her object now. and she had that trust in her own power of management and in her mother's, that she did not fear that in accepting him she would incur the risk of being served as he was serving lily dale. she knew her own position and his too well for that. if she accepted him she would in due course of time become his wife,--let miss dale and all her friends say what they might to the contrary. as to that head she had no fear. but nevertheless she did not accept him at once. though she wished for the prize, her woman's nature hindered her from taking it when it was offered to her. "how long is it, mr. crosbie," she said, "since you put the same question to miss dale?" "i have told you everything, alexandrina,--as i promised that i would do. if you intend to punish me for doing so--" "and i might ask another question. how long will it be before you put the same question to some other girl?" he turned round as though to walk away from her in anger; but when he had gone half the distance to the door he returned. "by heaven!" he said, and he spoke somewhat roughly, too, "i'll have an answer. you at any rate have nothing with which to reproach me. all that i have done wrong, i have done through you, or on your behalf. you have heard my proposal. do you intend to accept it?" "i declare you startle me. if you demanded my money or my life, you could not be more imperious." "certainly not more resolute in my determination." "and if i decline the honour?" "i shall think you the most fickle of your sex." "and if i were to accept it?" "i would swear that you were the best, the dearest, and the sweetest of women." "i would rather have your good opinion than your bad, certainly," said lady alexandrina. and then it was understood by both of them that that affair was settled. whenever she was called on in future to speak of lily, she always called her, "that poor miss dale;" but she never again spoke a word of reproach to her future lord about that little adventure. "i shall tell mamma, to-night," she said to him, as she bade him good-night in some sequestered nook to which they had betaken themselves. lady julia's eye was again on them as they came out from the sequestered nook, but alexandrina no longer cared for lady julia. "george, i cannot quite understand about that mr. palliser. isn't he to be a duke, and oughtn't he to be a lord now?" this question was asked by mrs. george de courcy of her husband, when they found themselves together in the seclusion of the nuptial chamber. "yes; he'll be duke of omnium when the old fellow dies. i think he's one of the slowest fellows i ever came across. he'll take deuced good care of the property, though." "but, george, do explain it to me. it is so stupid not to understand, and i am afraid of opening my mouth for fear of blundering." "then keep your mouth shut, my dear. you'll learn all those sort of things in time, and nobody notices it if you don't say anything." "yes, but, george;--i don't like to sit silent all the night. i'd sooner be up here with a novel if i can't speak about anything." "look at lady dumbello. she doesn't want to be always talking." "lady dumbello is very different from me. but do tell me, who is mr. palliser?" "he's the duke's nephew. if he were the duke's son, he would be the marquis of silverbridge." "and will he be plain mister till his uncle dies?" "yes, a very plain mister." "what a pity for him. but, george,--if i have a baby, and if he should be a boy, and if--" "oh, nonsense; it will be time enough to talk of that when he comes. i'm going to sleep." chapter xxiv. a mother-in-law and a father-in-law. on the following morning mr. plantagenet palliser was off upon his political mission before breakfast;--either that, or else some private comfort was afforded to him in guise of solitary rolls and coffee. the public breakfast at courcy castle was going on at eleven o'clock, and at that hour mr. palliser was already closeted with the mayor of silverbridge. "i must get off by the . train," said mr. palliser. "who is there to speak after me?" "well, i shall say a few words; and growdy,--he'll expect them to listen to him. growdy has always stood very firm by his grace, mr. palliser." "mind we are in the room sharp at one. and you can have a fly, for me to get away to the station, ready in the yard. i won't go a moment before i can help. i shall be just an hour and a half myself. no, thank you, i never take any wine in the morning." and i may here state that mr. palliser did get away by the . train, leaving mr. growdy still talking on the platform. constituents must be treated with respect; but time has become so scarce now-a-days that that respect has to be meted out by the quarter of an hour with parsimonious care. in the meantime there was more leisure at courcy castle. neither the countess nor lady alexandrina came down to breakfast, but their absence gave rise to no special remark. breakfast at the castle was a morning meal at which people showed themselves, or did not show themselves, as it pleased them. lady julia was there looking very glum, and crosbie was sitting next to his future sister-in-law margaretta, who already had placed herself on terms of close affection with him. as he finished his tea she whispered into his ear, "mr. crosbie, if you could spare half an hour, mamma would so like to see you in her own room." crosbie declared that he would be delighted to wait upon her, and did in truth feel some gratitude in being welcomed as a son-in-law into the house. and yet he felt also that he was being caught, and that in ascending into the private domains of the countess he would be setting the seal upon his own captivity. nevertheless, he went with a smiling face and a light step, lady margaretta ushering him the way. "mamma," said she; "i have brought mr. crosbie up to you. i did not know that you were here, alexandrina, or i should have warned him." the countess and her youngest daughter had been breakfasting together in the elder lady's sitting-room, and were now seated in a very graceful and well-arranged deshabille. the tea-cups out of which they had been drinking were made of some elegant porcelain, the teapot and cream-jug were of chased silver and as delicate in their way. the remnant of food consisted of morsels of french roll which had not even been allowed to crumble themselves in a disorderly fashion, and of infinitesimal pats of butter. if the morning meal of the two ladies had been as unsubstantial as the appearance of the fragments indicated, it must be presumed that they intended to lunch early. the countess herself was arrayed in an elaborate morning wrapper of figured silk, but the simple alexandrina wore a plain white muslin peignoir, fastened with pink ribbon. her hair, which she usually carried in long rolls, now hung loose over her shoulders, and certainly added something to her stock of female charms. the countess got up as crosbie entered and greeted him with an open hand; but alexandrina kept her seat, and merely nodded at him a little welcome. "i must run down again," said margaretta, "or i shall have left amelia with all the cares of the house upon her." "alexandrina has told me all about it," said the countess, with her sweetest smile; "and i have given her my approval. i really do think you will suit each other very well." "i am very much obliged to you," said crosbie. "i'm sure at any rate of this,--that she will suit me very well." "yes; i think she will. she is a good sensible girl." "psha, mamma; pray don't go on in that goody twoshoes sort of way." "so you are, my dear. if you were not it would not be well for you to do as you are going to do. if you were giddy and harum-scarum, and devoted to rank and wealth and that sort of thing, it would not be well for you to marry a commoner without fortune. i'm sure mr. crosbie will excuse me for saying so much as that." "of course i know," said crosbie, "that i had no right to look so high." "well; we'll say nothing more about it," said the countess. "pray don't," said alexandrina. "it sounds so like a sermon." "sit down, mr. crosbie," said the countess, "and let us have a little conversation. she shall sit by you, if you like it. nonsense, alexandrina,--if he asks it!" "don't, mamma;--i mean to remain where i am." "very well, my dear;--then remain where you are. she is a wilful girl, mr. crosbie; as you will say when you hear that she has told me all that you told her last night." upon hearing this, he changed colour a little, but said nothing. "she has told me," continued the countess, "about that young lady at allington. upon my word, i'm afraid you have been very naughty." "i have been foolish, lady de courcy." "of course; i did not mean anything worse than that. yes, you have been foolish;--amusing yourself in a thoughtless way, you know, and, perhaps, a little piqued because a certain lady was not to be won so easily as your royal highness wished. well, now, all that must be settled, you know, as quickly as possible. i don't want to ask any indiscreet questions; but if the young lady has really been left with any idea that you meant anything, don't you think you should undeceive her at once?" "of course he will, mamma." "of course you will; and it will be a great comfort to alexandrina to know that the matter is arranged. you hear what lady julia is saying almost every hour of her life. now, of course, alexandrina does not care what an old maid like lady julia may say; but it will be better for all parties that the rumour should be put a stop to. if the earl were to hear it, he might, you know--" and the countess shook her head, thinking that she could thus best indicate what the earl might do, if he were to take it into his head to do anything. crosbie could not bring himself to hold any very confidential intercourse with the countess about lily; but he gave a muttered assurance that he should, as a matter of course, make known the truth to miss dale with as little delay as possible. he could not say exactly when he would write, nor whether he would write to her or to her mother; but the thing should be done immediately on his return to town. "if it will make the matter easier, i will write to mrs. dale," said the countess. but to this scheme mr. crosbie objected very strongly. and then a few words were said about the earl. "i will tell him this afternoon," said the countess; "and then you can see him to-morrow morning. i don't suppose he will say very much, you know; and perhaps he may think,--you won't mind my saying it, i'm sure,--that alexandrina might have done better. but i don't believe that he'll raise any strong objection. there will be something about settlements, and that sort of thing, of course." then the countess went away, and alexandrina was left with her lover for half an hour. when the half-hour was over, he felt that he would have given all that he had in the world to have back the last four-and-twenty hours of his existence. but he had no hope. to jilt lily dale would, no doubt, be within his power, but he knew that he could not jilt lady alexandrina de courcy. on the next morning at twelve o'clock he had his interview with the father, and a very unpleasant interview it was. he was ushered into the earl's room, and found the great peer standing on the rug, with his back to the fire, and his hands in his breeches pockets. "so you mean to marry my daughter?" said he. "i'm not very well, as you see; i seldom am." these last words were spoken in answer to crosbie's greeting. crosbie had held out his hand to the earl, and had carried his point so far that the earl had been forced to take one of his own out of his pocket, and give it to his proposed son-in-law. "if your lordship has no objection. i have, at any rate, her permission to ask for yours." "i believe you have not any fortune, have you? she's got none; of course you know that?" "i have a few thousand pounds, and i believe she has as much." "about as much as will buy bread to keep the two of you from starving. it's nothing to me. you can marry her if you like; only, look here, i'll have no nonsense. i've had an old woman in with me this morning,--one of those that are here in the house,--telling me some story about some other girl that you have made a fool of. it's nothing to me how much of that sort of thing you may have done, so that you do none of it here. but,--if you play any prank of that kind with me, you'll find that you've made a mistake." crosbie hardly made any answer to this, but got himself out of the room as quickly as he could. "you'd better talk to gazebee about the trifle of money you've got," said the earl. then he dismissed the subject from his mind, and no doubt imagined that he had fully done his duty by his daughter. on the day after this, crosbie was to go. on the last afternoon, shortly before dinner, he was waylaid by lady julia, who had passed the day in preparing traps to catch him. "mr. crosbie," she said, "let me have one word with you. is this true?" "lady julia," he said, "i really do not know why you should inquire into my private affairs." "yes, sir, you do know; you know very well. that poor young lady who has no father and no brother, is my neighbour, and her friends are my friends. she is a friend of my own, and being an old woman, i have a right to speak for her. if this is true, mr. crosbie, you are treating her like a villain." "lady julia, i really must decline to discuss the matter with you." "i'll tell everybody what a villain you are; i will, indeed;--a villain and a poor weak silly fool. she was too good for you; that's what she was." crosbie, as lady julia was addressing to him the last words, hurried upstairs away from her, but her ladyship, standing on a landing-place, spoke up loudly, so that no word should be lost on her retreating enemy. "we positively must get rid of that woman," the countess, who heard it all, said to margaretta. "she is disturbing the house and disgracing herself every day." "she went to papa this morning, mamma." "she did not get much by that move," said the countess. on the following morning crosbie returned to town, but just before he left the castle he received a third letter from lily dale. "i have been rather disappointed at not hearing this morning," said lily, "for i thought the postman would have brought me a letter. but i know you'll be a better boy when you get back to london, and i won't scold you. scold you, indeed! no; i'll never scold you, not though i shouldn't hear for a month." he would have given all that he had in the world, three times told, if he could have blotted out that visit to courcy castle from the past facts of his existence. chapter xxv. adolphus crosbie spends an evening at his club. [illustration: (untitled)] crosbie, as he was being driven from the castle to the nearest station, in a dog-cart hired from the hotel, could not keep himself from thinking of that other morning, not yet a fortnight past, on which he had left allington; and as he thought of it he knew that he was a villain. on this morning alexandrina had not come out from the house to watch his departure, and catch the last glance of his receding figure. as he had not started very early she had sat with him at the breakfast-table; but others also had sat there, and when he got up to go, she did no more than smile softly and give him her hand. it had been already settled that he was to spend his christmas at courcy; as it had been also settled that he was to spend it at allington. lady amelia was, of all the family, the most affectionate to him, and perhaps of them all she was the one whose affection was worth the most. she was not a woman endowed with a very high mind or with very noble feelings. she had begun life trusting to the nobility of her blood for everything, and declaring somewhat loudly among her friends that her father's rank and her mother's birth imposed on her the duty of standing closely by her own order. nevertheless, at the age of thirty-three she had married her father's man of business, under circumstances which were not altogether creditable to her. but she had done her duty in her new sphere of life with some constancy and a fixed purpose; and now that her sister was going to marry, as she had done, a man much below herself in social standing, she was prepared to do her duty as a sister and a sister-in-law. "we shall be up in town in november, and of course you'll come to us at once. albert villa, you know, in hamilton terrace, st. john's wood. we dine at seven, and on sundays at two; and you'll always find a place. mind you come to us, and make yourself quite at home. i do so hope you and mortimer will get on well together." "i'm sure we shall," said crosbie. but he had had higher hopes in marrying into this noble family than that of becoming intimate with mortimer gazebee. what those hopes were he could hardly define to himself now that he had brought himself so near to the fruition of them. lady de courcy had certainly promised to write to her first cousin who was under-secretary of state for india, with reference to that secretaryship at the general committee office; but crosbie, when he came to weigh in his mind what good might result to him from this, was disposed to think that his chance of obtaining the promotion would be quite as good without the interest of the under-secretary of state for india as with it. now that he belonged, as we may say, to this noble family, he could hardly discern what were the advantages which he had expected from this alliance. he had said to himself that it would be much to have a countess for a mother-in-law; but now, even already, although the possession to which he had looked was not yet garnered, he was beginning to tell himself that the thing was not worth possessing. as he sat in the train, with a newspaper in his hand, he went on acknowledging to himself that he was a villain. lady julia had spoken the truth to him on the stairs at courcy, and so he confessed over and over again. but he was chiefly angry with himself for this,--that he had been a villain without gaining anything by his villany; that he had been a villain, and was to lose so much by his villany. he made comparison between lily and alexandrina, and owned to himself, over and over again, that lily would make the best wife that a man could take to his bosom. as to alexandrina, he knew the thinness of her character. she would stick by him, no doubt; and in a circuitous, discontented, unhappy way, would probably be true to her duties as a wife and mother. she would be nearly such another as lady amelia gazebee. but was that a prize sufficiently rich to make him contented with his own prowess and skill in winning it? and was that a prize sufficiently rich to justify him to himself for his terrible villany? lily dale he had loved; and he now declared to himself that he could have continued to love her through his whole life. but what was there for any man to love in alexandrina de courcy? while resolving, during his first four or five days at the castle, that he would throw lily dale overboard, he had contrived to quiet his conscience by inward allusions to sundry heroes of romance. he had thought of lothario, don juan, and of lovelace; and had told himself that the world had ever been full of such heroes. and the world, too, had treated such heroes well; not punishing them at all as villains, but caressing them rather, and calling them curled darlings. why should not he be a curled darling as well as another? ladies had ever been fond of the don juan character, and don juan had generally been popular with men also. and then he named to himself a dozen modern lotharios,--men who were holding their heads well above water, although it was known that they had played this lady false, and brought that other one to death's door, or perhaps even to death itself. war and love were alike, and the world was prepared to forgive any guile to militants in either camp. but now that he had done the deed he found himself forced to look at it from quite another point of view. suddenly that character of lothario showed itself to him in a different light, and one in which it did not please him to look at it as belonging to himself. he began to feel that it would be almost impossible for him to write that letter to lily, which it was absolutely necessary that he should write. he was in a position in which his mind would almost turn itself to thoughts of self-destruction as the only means of escape. a fortnight ago he was a happy man, having everything before him that a man ought to want; and now--now that he was the accepted son-in-law of an earl, and the confident expectant of high promotion--he was the most miserable, degraded wretch in the world! he changed his clothes at his lodgings in mount street and went down to his club to dinner. he could, at any rate, do nothing that night. his letter to allington must, no doubt, be written at once; but, as he could not send it before the next night's post, he was not forced to set to work upon it that evening. as he walked along piccadilly on his way to st. james's square, it occurred to him that it might be well to write a short line to lily, telling her nothing of the truth,--a note written as though his engagement with her was still unbroken, but yet written with care, saying nothing about that engagement, so as to give him a little time. then he thought that he would telegraph to bernard and tell everything to him. bernard would, of course, be prepared to avenge his cousin in some way, but for such vengeance crosbie felt that he should care little. lady julia had told him that lily was without father or brother, thereby accusing him of the basest cowardice. "i wish she had a dozen brothers," he said to himself. but he hardly knew why he expressed such a wish. he returned to london on the last day of october, and he found the streets at the west end nearly deserted. he thought, therefore, that he should be quite alone at his club, but as he entered the dinner room he saw one of his oldest and most intimate friends standing before the fire. fowler pratt was the man who had first brought him into sebright's, and had given him almost his earliest start on his successful career in life. since that time he and his friend fowler pratt had lived in close communion, though pratt had always held a certain ascendancy in their friendship. he was in age a few years senior to crosbie, and was in truth a man of better parts. but he was less ambitious, less desirous of shining in the world, and much less popular with men in general. he was possessed of a moderate private fortune on which he lived in a quiet, modest manner, and was unmarried, not likely to marry, inoffensive, useless, and prudent. for the first few years of crosbie's life in london he had lived very much with his friend pratt, and had been accustomed to depend much on his friend's counsel; but latterly, since he had himself become somewhat noticeable, he had found more pleasure in the society of such men as dale, who were not his superiors either in age or wisdom. but there had been no coolness between him and pratt, and now they met with perfect cordiality. "i thought you were down in barsetshire," said pratt. "and i thought you were in switzerland." "i have been in switzerland," said pratt. "and i have been in barsetshire," said crosbie. then they ordered their dinner together. "and so you're going to be married?" said pratt, when the waiter had carried away the cheese. "who told you that?" "well, but you are? never mind who told me, if i was told the truth." "but if it be not true?" "i have heard it for the last month," said pratt, "and it has been spoken of as a thing certain; and it is true; is it not?" "i believe it is," said crosbie, slowly. "why, what on earth is the matter with you, that you speak of it in that way? am i to congratulate you, or am i not? the lady, i'm told, is a cousin of dale's." crosbie had turned his chair from the table round to the fire, and said nothing in answer to this. he sat with his glass of sherry in his hand, looking at the coals, and thinking whether it would not be well that he should tell the whole story to pratt. no one could give him better advice; and no one, as far as he knew his friend, would be less shocked at the telling of such a story. pratt had no romance about women, and had never pretended to very high sentiments. "come up into the smoking-room and i'll tell you all about it," said crosbie. so they went off together, and, as the smoking-room was untenanted, crosbie was able to tell his story. he found it very hard to tell;--much harder than he had beforehand fancied. "i have got into terrible trouble," he began by saying. then he told how he had fallen suddenly in love with lily, how he had been rash and imprudent, how nice she was--"infinitely too good for such a man as i am," he said;--how she had accepted him, and then how he had repented. "i should have told you beforehand," he then said, "that i was already half engaged to lady alexandrina de courcy." the reader, however, will understand that this half-engagement was a fiction. "and now you mean that you are altogether engaged to her?" "exactly so." "and that miss dale must be told that, on second thoughts, you have changed your mind?" "i know that i have behaved very badly," said crosbie. "indeed you have," said his friend. "it is one of those troubles in which a man finds himself involved almost before he knows where he is." "well; i can't look at it exactly in that light. a man may amuse himself with a girl, and i can understand his disappointing her and not offering to marry her,--though even that sort of thing isn't much to my taste. but, by george, to make an offer of marriage to such a girl as that in september, to live for a month in her family as her affianced husband, and then coolly go away to another house in october, and make an offer to another girl of higher rank--" "you know very well that that has had nothing to do with it." "it looks very like it. and how are you going to communicate these tidings to miss dale?" "i don't know," said crosbie, who was beginning to be very sore. "and you have quite made up your mind that you'll stick to the earl's daughter?" the idea of jilting alexandrina instead of lily had never as yet presented itself to crosbie, and now, as he thought of it, he could not perceive that it was feasible. "yes," he said, "i shall marry lady alexandrina;--that is, if i do not cut the whole concern, and my own throat into the bargain." "if i were in your shoes i think i should cut the whole concern. i could not stand it. what do you mean to say to miss dale's uncle?" "i don't care a ---- for miss dale's uncle," said crosbie. "if he were to walk in at that door this moment, i would tell him the whole story, without--" as he was yet speaking, one of the club servants opened the door of the smoking-room, and seeing crosbie seated in a lounging-chair near the fire, went up to him with a gentleman's card. crosbie took the card and read the name. "mr. dale, allington." "the gentleman is in the waiting-room," said the servant. crosbie for the moment was struck dumb. he had declared that very moment that he should feel no personal disinclination to meet mr. dale, and now that gentleman was within the walls of the club, waiting to see him! "who's that?" asked pratt. and then crosbie handed him the card. "whew-w-w-hew," whistled pratt. "did you tell the gentleman i was here?" asked crosbie. "i said i thought you were upstairs, sir." "that will do," said pratt. "the gentleman will no doubt wait for a minute." and then the servant went out of the room. "now, crosbie, you must make up your mind. by one of these women and all her friends you will ever be regarded as a rascal, and they of course will look out to punish you with such punishment as may come to their hands. you must now choose which shall be the sufferer." the man was a coward at heart. the reflection that he might, even now, at this moment, meet the old squire on pleasant terms,--or at any rate not on terms of defiance, pleaded more strongly in lily's favour than had any other argument since crosbie had first made up his mind to abandon her. he did not fear personal ill-usage;--he was not afraid lest he should be kicked or beaten; but he did not dare to face the just anger of the angry man. "if i were you," said pratt, "i would not go down to that man at the present moment for a trifle." "but what can i do?" "shirk away out of the club. only if you do that it seems to me that you'll have to go on shirking for the rest of your life." "pratt, i must say that i expected something more like friendship from you." "what can i do for you? there are positions in which it is impossible to help a man. i tell you plainly that you have behaved very badly. i do not see that i can help you." "would you see him?" "certainly not, if i am to be expected to take your part." "take any part you like,--only tell him the truth." "and what is the truth?" "i was part engaged to that other girl before; and then, when i came to think of it, i knew that i was not fit to marry miss dale. i know i have behaved badly; but, pratt, thousands have done the same thing before." "i can only say that i have not been so unfortunate as to reckon any of those thousands among my friends." "you mean to tell me, then, that you are going to turn your back on me?" said crosbie. "i haven't said anything of the kind. i certainly won't undertake to defend you, for i don't see that your conduct admits of defence. i will see this gentleman if you wish it, and tell him anything that you may desire me to tell him." at this moment the servant returned with a note for crosbie. mr. dale had called for paper and envelope, and sent up to him the following missive:--"do you intend to come down to me? i know that you are in the house." "for heaven's sake go to him," said crosbie. "he is well aware that i was deceived about his niece,--that i thought he was to give her some fortune. he knows all about that, and that when i learned from him that she was to have nothing--" "upon my word, crosbie, i wish you could find another messenger." "ah! you do not understand," said crosbie in his agony. "you think that i am inventing this plea about her fortune now. it isn't so. he will understand. we have talked all this over before, and he knew how terribly i was disappointed. shall i wait for you here, or will you come to my lodgings? or i will go down to the beaufort, and will wait for you there." and it was finally arranged that he should get himself out of this club and wait at the other for pratt's report of the interview. "do you go down first," said crosbie. "yes: i had better," said pratt. "otherwise you may be seen. mr. dale would have his eye upon you, and there would be a row in the house." there was a smile of sarcasm on pratt's face as he spoke which angered crosbie even in his misery, and made him long to tell his friend that he would not trouble him with this mission,--that he would manage his own affairs himself; but he was weakened and mentally humiliated by the sense of his own rascality, and had already lost the power of asserting himself, and of maintaining his ascendancy. he was beginning to recognize the fact that he had done that for which he must endure to be kicked, to be kicked morally if not materially; and that it was no longer possible for him to hold his head up without shame. pratt took mr. dale's note in his hand and went down into the stranger's room. there he found the squire standing, so that he could see through the open door of the room to the foot of the stairs down which crosbie must descend before he could leave the club. as a measure of first precaution the ambassador closed the door; then he bowed to mr. dale, and asked him if he would take a chair. "i wanted to see mr. crosbie," said the squire. "i have your note to that gentleman in my hand," said he. "he has thought it better that you should have this interview with me;--and under all the circumstances perhaps it is better." "is he such a coward that he dare not see me?" "there are some actions, mr. dale, that will make a coward of any man. my friend crosbie is, i take it, brave enough in the ordinary sense of the word, but he has injured you." "it is all true, then?" "yes, mr. dale; i fear it is all true." "and you call that man your friend! mr.--; i don't know what your name is." "pratt;--fowler pratt. i have known crosbie for fourteen years,--ever since he was a boy; and it is not my way, mr. dale, to throw over an old friend under any circumstances." "not if he committed a murder." "no; not though he committed a murder." "if what i hear is true, this man is worse than a murderer." "of course, mr. dale, i cannot know what you have heard. i believe that mr. crosbie has behaved very badly to your niece, miss dale; i believe that he was engaged to marry her, or, at any rate, that some such proposition had been made." "proposition! why, sir, it was a thing so completely understood that everybody knew it in the county. it was so positively fixed that there was no secret about it. upon my honour, mr. pratt, i can't as yet understand it. if i remember right, it's not a fortnight since he left my house at allington,--not a fortnight. and that poor girl was with him on the morning of his going as his betrothed bride. not a fortnight since! and now i've had a letter from an old family friend telling me that he is going to marry one of lord de courcy's daughters! i went instantly off to courcy, and found that he had started for london. now, i have followed him here; and you tell me it's all true." "i am afraid it is, mr. dale; too true." "i don't understand it; i don't, indeed. i cannot bring myself to believe that the man who was sitting the other day at my table should be so great a scoundrel. did he mean it all the time that he was there?" "no; certainly not. lady alexandrina de courcy was, i believe, an old friend of his;--with whom, perhaps, he had had some lover's quarrel. on his going to courcy they made it up; and this is the result." "and that is to be sufficient for my poor girl?" "you will, of course, understand that i am not defending mr. crosbie. the whole affair is very sad,--very sad, indeed. i can only say, in his excuse, that he is not the first man who has behaved badly to a lady." "and that is his message to me, is it? and that is what i am to tell my niece? you have been deceived by a scoundrel. but what then? you are not the first! mr. pratt, i give you my word as a gentleman, i do not understand it. i have lived a good deal out of the world, and am, therefore, perhaps, more astonished than i ought to be." "mr. dale, i feel for you--" "feel for me! what is to become of my girl? and do you suppose that i will let this other marriage go on; that i will not tell the de courcys, and all the world at large, what sort of a man this is;--that i will not get at him to punish him? does he think that i will put up with this?" "i do not know what he thinks; i must only beg that you will not mix me up in the matter--as though i were a participator in his offence." "will you tell him from me that i desire to see him?" "i do not think that that would do any good." "never mind, sir; you have brought me his message; will you have the goodness now to take back mine to him?" "do you mean at once--this evening,--now?" "yes, at once--this evening,--now;--this minute." "ah; he has left the club; he is not here now; he went when i came to you." "then he is a coward as well as a scoundrel." in answer to which assertion, mr. fowler pratt merely shrugged his shoulders. "he is a coward as well as a scoundrel. will you have the kindness to tell your friend from me that he is a coward and a scoundrel,--and a liar, sir." "if it be so, miss dale is well quit of her engagement." "that is your consolation, is it? that may be all very well now-a-days; but when i was a young man, i would sooner have burnt out my tongue than have spoken in such a way on such a subject. i would, indeed. good-night, mr. pratt. pray make your friend understand that he has not yet seen the last of the dales; although, as you hint, the ladies of that family will no doubt have learned that he is not fit to associate with them." then, taking up his hat, the squire made his way out of the club. "i would not have done it," said pratt to himself, "for all the beauty, and all the wealth, and all the rank that ever were owned by a woman." chapter xxvi. lord de courcy in the bosom of his family. lady julia de guest had not during her life written many letters to mr. dale of allington, nor had she ever been very fond of him. but when she felt certain how things were going at courcy, or rather, as we may say, how they had already gone, she took pen in hand, and sat herself to work, doing, as she conceived, her duty by her neighbour. my dear mr. dale [she said], i believe i need make no secret of having known that your niece lilian is engaged to mr. crosbie, of london. i think it proper to warn you that if this be true mr. crosbie is behaving himself in a very improper manner here. i am not a person who concerns myself much in the affairs of other people; and under ordinary circumstances, the conduct of mr. crosbie would be nothing to me,--or, indeed, less than nothing; but i do to you as i would wish that others should do unto me. i believe it is only too true that mr. crosbie has proposed to lady alexandrina de courcy, and been accepted by her. i think you will believe that i would not say this without warrant, and if there be anything in it, it may be well, for the poor young lady's sake, that you should put yourself in the way of learning the truth. believe me to be yours sincerely, julia de guest. courcy castle, thursday. the squire had never been very fond of any of the de guest family, and had, perhaps, liked lady julia the least of them all. he was wont to call her a meddling old woman,--remembering her bitterness and pride in those now long bygone days in which the gallant major had run off with lady fanny. when he first received this letter, he did not, on the first reading of it, believe a word of its contents. "cross-grained old harridan," he said out loud to his nephew. "look what that aunt of yours has written to me." bernard read the letter twice, and as he did so his face became hard and angry. "you don't mean to say you believe it?" said the squire. "i don't think it will be safe to disregard it." "what! you think it possible that your friend is doing as she says?" "it is certainly possible. he was angry when he found that lily had no fortune." "heavens, bernard! and you can speak of it in that way?" "i don't say that it is true; but i think we should look to it. i will go to courcy castle and learn the truth." the squire at last decided that he would go. he went to courcy castle, and found that crosbie had started two hours before his arrival. he asked for lady julia, and learned from her that crosbie had actually left the house as the betrothed husband of lady alexandrina. "the countess, i am sure, will not contradict it, if you will see her," said lady julia. but this the squire was unwilling to do. he would not proclaim the wretched condition of his niece more loudly than was necessary, and therefore he started on his pursuit of crosbie. what was his success on that evening we have already learned. both lady alexandrina and her mother heard of mr. dale's arrival at the castle, but nothing was said between them on the subject. lady amelia gazebee heard of it also, and she ventured to discuss the matter with her sister. "you don't know exactly how far it went, do you?" "no; yes;--not exactly, that is," said alexandrina. "i suppose he did say something about marriage to the girl?" "yes, i'm afraid he did." "dear, dear! it's very unfortunate. what sort of people are those dales? i suppose he talked to you about them." "no, he didn't; not very much. i daresay she is an artful, sly thing! it's a great pity men should go on in such a way." "yes, it is," said lady amelia. "and i do suppose that in this case the blame has been more with him than with her. it's only right i should tell you that." "but what can i do?" "i don't say you can do anything; but it's as well you should know." "but i don't know, and you don't know; and i can't see that there is any use talking about it now. i knew him a long while before she did, and if she has allowed him to make a fool of her, it isn't my fault." "nobody says it is, my dear." "but you seem to preach to me about it. what can i do for the girl? the fact is, he don't care for her a bit, and never did." "then he shouldn't have told her that he did." "that's all very well, amelia; but people don't always do exactly all that they ought to do. i suppose mr. crosbie isn't the first man that has proposed to two ladies. i dare say it was wrong, but i can't help it. as to mr. dale coming here with a tale of his niece's wrongs, i think it very absurd,--very absurd indeed. it makes it look as though there had been a scheme to catch mr. crosbie, and it's my belief that there was such a scheme." "i only hope that there'll be no quarrel." "men don't fight duels now-a-days, amelia." "but do you remember what frank gresham did to mr. moffat when he behaved so badly to poor augusta?" "mr. crosbie isn't afraid of that kind of thing. and i always thought that frank was very wrong,--very wrong indeed. what's the good of two men beating each other in the street?" "well; i'm sure i hope there'll be no quarrel. but i own i don't like the look of it. you see the uncle must have known all about it, and have consented to the marriage, or he would not have come here." "i don't see that it can make any difference to me, amelia." "no, my dear, i don't see that it can. we shall be up in town soon, and i will see as much as possible of mr. crosbie. the marriage, i hope, will take place soon." "he talks of february." "don't put it off, alley, whatever you do. there are so many slips, you know, in these things." "i'm not a bit afraid of that," said alexandrina, sticking up her head. "i daresay not; and you may be sure that we will keep an eye on him. mortimer will get him up to dine with us as often as possible, and as his leave of absence is all over, he can't get out of town. he's to be here at christmas, isn't he?" "of course he is." "mind you keep him to that. and as to these dales, i would be very careful, if i were you, not to say anything unkind of them to any one. it sounds badly in your position." and with this last piece of advice lady amelia gazebee allowed the subject to drop. on that day lady julia returned to her own home. her adieux to the whole family at courcy castle were very cold, but about mr. crosbie and his lady-love at allington she said no further word to any of them. alexandrina did not show herself at all on the occasion, and indeed had not spoken to her enemy since that evening on which she had felt herself constrained to retreat from the drawing-room. "good-by," said the countess. "you have been so good to come, and we have enjoyed it so much." "i thank you very much. good morning," said lady julia, with a stately courtesy. "pray remember me to your brother. i wish we could have seen him; i hope he has not been hurt by the--the bull." and then lady julia went her way. "what a fool i have been to have that woman in the house," said the countess, before the door was closed behind her guest's back. "indeed you have," said lady julia, screaming back through the passage. then there was a long silence, then a suppressed titter, and after that a loud laugh. "oh, mamma, what shall we do?" said lady amelia. "do!" said margaretta; "why should we do anything? she has heard the truth for once in her life." "dear lady dumbello, what will you think of us?" said the countess, turning round to another guest, who was also just about to depart. "did any one ever know such a woman before?" "i think she's very nice," said lady dumbello, smiling. "i can't quite agree with you there," said lady clandidlem. "but i do believe she means to do her best. she is very charitable, and all that sort of thing." "i'm sure i don't know," said rosina. "i asked her for a subscription to the mission for putting down the papists in the west of ireland, and she refused me point-blank." "now, my dear, if you're quite ready," said lord dumbello, coming into the room. then there was another departure; but on this occasion the countess waited till the doors were shut, and the retreating footsteps were no longer heard. "have you observed," said she to lady clandidlem, "that she has not held her head up since mr. palliser went away?" "indeed i have," said lady clandidlem. "as for poor dumbello, he's the blindest creature i ever saw in my life." "we shall hear of something before next may," said lady de courcy, shaking her head; "but for all that she'll never be duchess of omnium." "i wonder what your mamma will say of me when i go away to-morrow," said lady clandidlem to margaretta, as they walked across the hall together. "she won't say that you are going to run away with any gentleman," said margaretta. "at any rate not with the earl," said lady clandidlem. "ha, ha, ha! well, we are all very good-natured, are we not? the best is that it means nothing." thus by degrees all the guests went, and the family of the de courcys was left to the bliss of their own domestic circle. this, we may presume, was not without its charms, seeing that there were so many feelings in common between the mother and her children. there were drawbacks to it, no doubt, arising perhaps chiefly from the earl's bodily infirmities. "when your father speaks to me," said mrs. george to her husband, "he puts me in such a shiver that i cannot open my mouth to answer him." "you should stand up to him," said george. "he can't hurt you, you know. your money's your own; and if i'm ever to be the heir, it won't be by his doing." "but he gnashes his teeth at me." "you shouldn't care for that, if he don't bite. he used to gnash them at me; and when i had to ask him for money i didn't like it; but now i don't mind him a bit. he threw the peerage at me one day, but it didn't go within a yard of my head." "if he throws anything at me, george, i shall drop upon the spot." but the countess had a worse time with the earl than any of her children. it was necessary that she should see him daily, and necessary also that she should say much that he did not like to hear, and make many petitions that caused him to gnash his teeth. the earl was one of those men who could not endure to live otherwise than expensively, and yet was made miserable by every recurring expense. he ought to have known by this time that butchers, and bakers, and corn-chandlers, and coal-merchants will not supply their goods for nothing; and yet it always seemed as though he had expected that at this special period they would do so. he was an embarrassed man, no doubt, and had not been fortunate in his speculations at newmarket or homburg; but, nevertheless, he had still the means of living without daily torment; and it must be supposed that his self-imposed sufferings, with regard to money, rose rather from his disposition than his necessities. his wife never knew whether he were really ruined, or simply pretending it. she had now become so used to her position in this respect, that she did not allow fiscal considerations to mar her happiness. food and clothing had always come to her,--including velvet gowns, new trinkets, and a man-cook,--and she presumed that they would continue to come. but that daily conference with her husband was almost too much for her. she struggled to avoid it; and, as far as the ways and means were concerned, would have allowed them to arrange themselves, if he would only have permitted it. but he insisted on seeing her daily in his own sitting-room; and she had acknowledged to her favourite daughter, margaretta, that those half-hours would soon be the death of her. "i sometimes feel," she said, "that i am going mad before i can get out." and she reproached herself, probably without reason, in that she had brought much of this upon herself. in former days the earl had been constantly away from home, and the countess had complained. like many other women she had not known when she was well off. she had complained, urging upon her lord that he should devote more of his time to his own hearth. it is probable that her ladyship's remonstrances had been less efficacious than the state of his own health in producing that domestic constancy which he now practised; but it is certain that she looked back with bitter regret to the happy days when she was deserted, jealous, and querulous. "don't you wish we could get sir omicron to order him to the german spas?" she had said to margaretta. now sir omicron was the great london physician, and might, no doubt, do much in that way. but no such happy order had as yet been given; and, as far as the family could foresee, paterfamilias intended to pass the winter with them at courcy. the guests, as i have said, were all gone, and none but the family were in the house when her ladyship waited upon her lord one morning at twelve o'clock, a few days after mr. dale's visit to the castle. he always breakfasted alone, and after breakfast found in a french novel and a cigar what solace those innocent recreations were still able to afford him. when the novel no longer excited him and when he was saturated with smoke, he would send for his wife. after that, his valet would dress him. "she gets it worse than i do," the man declared in the servants' hall; "and minds it a deal more. i can give warning, and she can't." "better? no, i ain't better," the husband said, in answer to his wife's inquiries. "i never shall be better while you keep that cook in the kitchen." "but where are we to get another if we send him away?" "it's not my business to find cooks. i don't know where you're to get one. it's my belief you won't have a cook at all before long. it seems you have got two extra men into the house without telling me." "we must have servants, you know, when there is company. it wouldn't do to have lady dumbello here, and no one to wait on her." "who asked lady dumbello? i didn't." "i'm sure, my dear, you liked having her here." "d---- lady dumbello!" and then there was a pause. the countess had no objection whatsoever to the above proposition, and was rejoiced that that question of the servants was allowed to slip aside, through the aid of her ladyship. "look at that letter from porlock," said the earl; and he pushed over to the unhappy mother a letter from her eldest son. of all her children he was the one she loved the best; but him she was never allowed to see under her own roof. "i sometimes think that he is the greatest rascal with whom i ever had occasion to concern myself," said the earl. she took the letter and read it. the epistle was certainly not one which a father could receive with pleasure from his son; but the disagreeable nature of its contents was the fault rather of the parent than of the child. the writer intimated that certain money due to him had not been paid with necessary punctuality, and that unless he received it, he should instruct his lawyer to take some authorized legal proceedings. lord de courcy had raised certain moneys on the family property, which he could not have raised without the co-operation of his heir, and had bound himself, in return for that co-operation, to pay a certain fixed income to his eldest son. this he regarded as an allowance from himself; but lord porlock regarded it as his own, by lawful claim. the son had not worded his letter with any affectionate phraseology. "lord porlock begs to inform lord de courcy--" such had been the commencement. "i suppose he must have his money; else how can he live?" said the countess, trembling. "live!" shouted the earl. "and so you think it proper that he should write such a letter as that to his father!" "it is all very unfortunate," she replied. "i don't know where the money's to come from. as for him, if he were starving, it would serve him right. he's a disgrace to the name and the family. from all i hear, he won't live long." "oh, de courcy, don't talk of it in that way!" "what way am i to talk of it? if i say that he's my greatest comfort, and living as becomes a nobleman, and is a fine healthy man of his age, with a good wife and a lot of legitimate children, will that make you believe it? women are such fools. nothing that i say will make him worse than he is." "but he may reform." "reform! he's over forty, and when i last saw him he looked nearly sixty. there;--you may answer his letter; i won't." "and about the money?" "why doesn't he write to gazebee about his dirty money? why does he trouble me? i haven't got his money. ask gazebee about his money. i won't trouble myself about it." then there was another pause, during which the countess folded the letter, and put it in her pocket. "how long is george going to remain here with that woman?" he asked. "i'm sure she is very harmless," pleaded the countess. "i always think when i see her that i'm sitting down to dinner with my own housemaid. i never saw such a woman. how he can put up with it! but i don't suppose he cares for anything." "it has made him very steady." "steady!" "and as she will be confined before long it may be as well that she should remain here. if porlock doesn't marry, you know--" "and so he means to live here altogether, does he? i'll tell you what it is,--i won't have it. he's better able to keep a house over his own head and his wife's than i am to do it for them, and so you may tell them. i won't have it. d'ye hear?" then there was another short pause. "d'ye hear?" he shouted at her. "yes; of course i hear. i was only thinking you wouldn't wish me to turn them out, just as her confinement is coming on." "i know what that means. then they'd never go. i won't have it; and if you don't tell them i will." in answer to this lady de courcy promised that she would tell them, thinking perhaps that the earl's mode of telling might not be beneficial in that particular epoch which was now coming in the life of mrs. george. "did you know," said he, breaking out on a new subject, "that a man had been here named dale, calling on somebody in this house?" in answer to which the countess acknowledged that she had known it. "then why did you keep it from me?" and that gnashing of the teeth took place which was so specially objectionable to mrs. george. "it was a matter of no moment. he came to see lady julia de guest." "yes; but he came about that man crosbie." "i suppose he did." "why have you let that girl be such a fool? you'll find he'll play her some knave's trick." "oh dear, no." "and why should she want to marry such a man as that?" "he's quite a gentleman, you know, and very much thought of in the world. it won't be at all bad for her, poor thing. it is so very hard for a girl to get married now-a-days without money." "and so they're to take up with anybody. as far as i can see, this is a worse affair than that of amelia." "amelia has done very well, my dear." "oh, if you call it doing well for your girls, i don't. i call it doing uncommon badly; about as bad as they well can do. but it's your affair. i have never meddled with them, and don't intend to do it now." "i really think she'll be happy, and she is devotedly attached to the young man." "devotedly attached to the young man!" the tone and manner in which the earl repeated these words were such as to warrant an opinion that his lordship might have done very well on the stage had his attention been called to that profession. "it makes me sick to hear people talk in that way. she wants to get married, and she's a fool for her pains;--i can't help that; only remember that i'll have no nonsense here about that other girl. if he gives me trouble of that sort, by ----, i'll be the death of him. when is the marriage to be?" [illustration: "devotedly attached to the young man!"] "they talk of february." "i won't have any tomfoolery and expense. if she chooses to marry a clerk in an office, she shall marry him as clerks are married." "he'll be the secretary before that, de courcy." "what difference does that make? secretary, indeed! what sort of men do you suppose secretaries are? a beggar that came from nobody knows where! i won't have any tomfoolery;--d'ye hear?" whereupon the countess said that she did hear, and soon afterwards managed to escape. the valet then took his turn; and repeated, after his hour of service, that "old nick" in his tantrums had been more like the prince of darkness than ever. chapter xxvii. "on my honour, i do not understand it." in the meantime lady alexandrina endeavoured to realize to herself all the advantages and disadvantages of her own position. she was not possessed of strong affections, nor of depth of character, nor of high purpose; but she was no fool, nor was she devoid of principle. she had asked herself many times whether her present life was so happy as to make her think that a permanent continuance in it would suffice for her desires, and she had always replied to herself that she would fain change to some other life if it were possible. she had also questioned herself as to her rank, of which she was quite sufficiently proud, and had told herself that she could not degrade herself in the world without a heavy pang. but she had at last taught herself to believe that she had more to gain by becoming the wife of such a man as crosbie than by remaining as an unmarried daughter of her father's house. there was much in her sister amelia's position which she did not envy, but there was less to envy in that of her sister rosina. the gazebee house in st. john's wood road was not so magnificent as courcy castle; but then it was less dull, less embittered by torment, and was moreover her sister's own. "very many do marry commoners," she had said to margaretta. "oh, yes, of course. it makes a difference, you know, when a man has a fortune." of course it did make a difference. crosbie had no fortune, was not even so rich as mr. gazebee, could keep no carriage, and would have no country house. but then he was a man of fashion, was more thought of in the world than mr. gazebee, might probably rise in his own profession,--and was at any rate thoroughly presentable. she would have preferred a gentleman with £ , a year; but then as no gentleman with £ , a year came that way, would she not be happier with mr. crosbie than she would be with no husband at all? she was not very much in love with mr. crosbie, but she thought that she could live with him comfortably, and that on the whole it would be a good thing to be married. and she made certain resolves as to the manner in which she would do her duty by her husband. her sister amelia was paramount in her own house, ruling indeed with a moderate, endurable dominion, and ruling much to her husband's advantage. alexandrina feared that she would not be allowed to rule, but she could at any rate try. she would do all in her power to make him comfortable, and would be specially careful not to irritate him by any insistence on her own higher rank. she would be very meek in this respect; and if children should come she would be as painstaking about them as though her own father had been merely a clergyman or a lawyer. she thought also much about poor lilian dale, asking herself sundry questions, with an idea of being high-principled as to her duty in that respect. was she wrong in taking mr. crosbie away from lilian dale? in answer to these questions she was able to assure herself comfortably that she was not wrong. mr. crosbie would not, under any circumstances, marry lilian dale. he had told her so more than once, and that in a solemn way. she could therefore be doing no harm to lilian dale. if she entertained any inner feeling that crosbie's fault in jilting lilian dale was less than it would have been had she herself not been an earl's daughter,--that her own rank did in some degree extenuate her lover's falseness,--she did not express it in words even to herself. she did not get very much sympathy from her own family. "i'm afraid he does not think much of his religious duties. i'm told that young men of that sort seldom do," said rosina. "i don't say you're wrong," said margaretta. "by no means. indeed i think less of it now than i did when amelia did the same thing. i shouldn't do it myself, that's all." her father told her that he supposed she knew her own mind. her mother, who endeavoured to comfort and in some sort to congratulate her, nevertheless, harped constantly on the fact that she was marrying a man without rank and without a fortune. her congratulations were apologetic, and her comfortings took the guise of consolation. "of course you won't be rich, my dear; but i really think you'll do very well. mr. crosbie may be received anywhere, and you never need be ashamed of him." by which the countess implied that her elder married daughter was occasionally called on to be ashamed of her husband. "i wish he could keep a carriage for you, but perhaps that will come some day." upon the whole alexandrina did not repent, and stoutly told her father that she did know her own mind. during all this time lily dale was as yet perfect in her happiness. that delay of a day or two in the receipt of the expected letter from her lover had not disquieted her. she had promised him that she would not distrust him, and she was firmly minded to keep her promises. indeed no idea of breaking it came to her at this time. she was disappointed when the postman would come and bring no letter for her,--disappointed, as is the husbandman when the longed-for rain does not come to refresh the parched earth; but she was in no degree angry. "he will explain it," she said to herself. and she assured bell that men never recognized the hunger and thirst after letters which women feel when away from those whom they love. then they heard at the small house that the squire had gone away from allington. during the last few days bernard had not been much with them, and now they heard the news, not through their cousin, but from hopkins. "i really can't undertake to say, miss bell, where the master's gone to. it's not likely the master'd tell me where he was going to; not unless it was about seeds, or the likes of that." "he has gone very suddenly," said bell. "well, miss, i've nothing to say to that. and why shouldn't he go sudden if he likes? i only know he had his gig, and went to the station. if you was to bury me alive i couldn't tell you more." "i should like to try," said lily as they walked away. "he is such a cross old thing. i wonder whether bernard has gone with my uncle." and then they thought no more about it. on the day after that bernard came down to the small house, but he said nothing by way of accounting for the squire's absence. "he is in london, i know," said bernard. "i hope he'll call on mr. crosbie," said lily. but on this subject bernard said not a word. he did ask lily whether she had heard from adolphus, in answer to which she replied, with as indifferent a voice as she could assume, that she had not had a letter that morning. "i shall be angry with him if he's not a good correspondent," said mrs. dale, when she and lily were alone together. "no, mamma, you mustn't be angry with him. i won't let you be angry with him. please to remember he's my lover and not yours." "but i can see you when you watch for the postman." "i won't watch for the postman any more if it makes you have bad thoughts about him. yes, they are bad thoughts. i won't have you think that he doesn't do everything that is right." on the next morning the postman brought a letter, or rather a note, and lily at once saw that it was from crosbie. she had contrived to intercept it near the back door, at which the postman called, so that her mother should not watch her watchings, nor see her disappointment if none should come. "thank you, jane," she said, very calmly, when the eager, kindly girl ran to her with the little missive; and she walked off to some solitude, trying to hide her impatience. the note had seemed so small that it amazed her; but when she opened it the contents amazed her more. there was neither beginning nor end. there was no appellation of love, and no signature. it contained but two lines. "i will write to you at length to-morrow. this is my first day in london, and i have been so driven about that i cannot write." that was all, and it was scrawled on half a sheet of note-paper. why, at any rate, had he not called her his dearest lily? why had he not assured her that he was ever her own? such expressions, meaning so much, may be conveyed in a glance of the pen. "ah," she said, "if he knew how i hunger and thirst after his love!" she had but a moment left to her before she must join her mother and sister, and she used that moment in remembering her promise. "i know it is all right," she said to herself. "he does not think of these things as i do. he had to write at the last moment,--as he was leaving his office." and then with a quiet, smiling face, she walked into the breakfast-parlour. "what does he say, lily?" asked bell. "what would you give to know?" said lily. "i wouldn't give twopence for the whole of it," said bell. "when you get anybody to write to you letters, i wonder whether you'll show them to everybody?" "but if there's any special london news, i suppose we might hear it," said mrs. dale. "but suppose there's no special london news, mamma. the poor man had only been in town one day, you know: and there never is any news at this time of the year." "had he seen uncle christopher?" "i don't think he had; but he doesn't say. we shall get all the news from him when he comes. he cares much more about london news than adolphus does." and then there was no more said about the letter. but lily had read her two former letters over and over again at the breakfast-table; and though she had not read them aloud, she had repeated many words out of them, and had so annotated upon them that her mother, who had heard her, could have almost re-written them. now, she did not even show the paper; and then her absence, during which she had read the letter, had hardly exceeded a minute or two. all this mrs. dale observed, and she knew that her daughter had been again disappointed. in fact that day lily was very serious, but she did not appear to be unhappy. early after breakfast bell went over to the parsonage, and mrs. dale and her youngest daughter sat together over their work. "mamma," she said, "i hope you and i are not to be divided when i go to live in london." "we shall never be divided in heart, my love." "ah, but that will not be enough for happiness, though perhaps enough to prevent absolute unhappiness. i shall want to see you, touch you, and pet you as i do now." and she came and knelt on the cushion at her mother's feet. "you will have some one else to caress and pet,--perhaps many others." "do you mean to say that you are going to throw me off, mamma?" "god forbid, my darling. it is not mothers that throw off their children. what shall i have left when you and bell are gone from me?" "but we will never be gone. that's what i mean. we are to be just the same to you always, even though we are married. i must have my right to be here as much as i have it now; and, in return, you shall have your right to be there. his house must be a home to you,--not a cold place which you may visit now and again, with your best clothes on. you know what i mean, when i say that we must not be divided." "but lily--" "well, mamma?" "i have no doubt we shall be happy together,--you and i." "but you were going to say more than that." "only this,--that your house will be his house, and will be full without me. a daughter's marriage is always a painful parting." "is it, mamma?" "not that i would have it otherwise than it is. do not think that i would wish to keep you at home with me. of course you will both marry and leave me. i hope that he to whom you are going to devote yourself may be spared to love you and protect you." then the widow's heart became too full, and she put away her child from her that she might hide her face. "mamma, mamma, i wish i was not going from you." "no, lily; do not say that. i should not be contented with life if i did not see both my girls married. i think that it is the only lot which can give to a woman perfect content and satisfaction. i would have you both married. i should be the most selfish being alive if i wished otherwise." "bell will settle herself near you, and then you will see more of her and love her better than you do me." "i shall not love her better." "i wish she would marry some london man, and then you would come with us, and be near to us. do you know, mamma, i sometimes think you don't like this place here." "your uncle has been very kind to give it to us." "i know he has; and we have been very happy here. but if bell should leave you--" "then should i go also. your uncle has been very kind, but i sometimes feel that his kindness is a burden which i should not be strong enough to bear solely on my own shoulders. and what should keep me here, then?" mrs. dale as she said this felt that the "here" of which she spoke extended beyond the limits of the home which she held through the charity of her brother-in-law. might not all the world, as far as she was concerned in it, be contained in that "here"? how was she to live if both her children should be taken away from her? she had already realized the fact that crosbie's house could never be a home to her,--never even a temporary home. her visits there must be of that full-dressed nature to which lily had alluded. it was impossible that she could explain this to lily. she would not prophesy that the hero of her girl's heart would be inhospitable to his wife's mother; but such had been her reading of crosbie's character. alas, alas, as matters were to go, his hospitality or inhospitality would be matter of small moment to them. again in the afternoon the two sisters were together, and lily was still more serious than her wont. it might almost have been gathered from her manner that this marriage of hers was about to take place at once, and that she was preparing to leave her home. "bell," she said, "i wonder why dr. crofts never comes to see us now?" "it isn't a month since he was here, at our party." "a month! but there was a time when he made some pretext for being here every other day." "yes, when mamma was ill." "ay, and since mamma was well, too. but i suppose i must not break the promise you made me give you. he's not to be talked about even yet, is he?" "i didn't say he was not to be talked about. you know what i meant, lily; and what i meant then, i mean now." "and how long will it be before you mean something else? i do hope it will come some day,--i do indeed." "it never will, lily. i once fancied that i cared for dr. crofts, but it was only fancy. i know it, because--" she was going to explain that her knowledge on that point was assured to her, because since that day she had felt that she might have learned to love another man. but that other man had been mr. crosbie, and so she stopped herself. "i wish he would come and ask you himself." "he will never do so. he would never ask such a question without encouragement, and i shall give him none. nor will he ever think of marrying till he can do so without,--without what he thinks to be imprudence as regards money. he has courage enough to be poor himself without unhappiness, but he has not courage to endure poverty with a wife. i know well what his feelings are." "well, we shall see," said lily. "i shouldn't wonder if you were married first now, bell. for my part i'm quite prepared to wait for three years." late on that evening the squire returned to allington, bernard having driven over to meet him at the station. he had telegraphed to his nephew that he would be back by a late train, and no more than this had been heard from him since he went. on that day bernard had seen none of the ladies at the small house. with bell at the present moment it was impossible that he should be on easy terms. he could not meet her alone without recurring to the one special subject of interest between them, and as to that he did not choose to speak without much forethought. he had not known himself, when he had gone about his wooing so lightly, thinking it a slight thing, whether or no he might be accepted. now it was no longer a slight thing to him. i do not know that it was love that made him so eager; not good, honest, downright love. but he had set his heart upon the object, and with the wilfulness of a dale was determined that it should be his. he had no remotest idea of giving up his cousin, but he had at last persuaded himself that she was not to be won without some toil, and perhaps also some delay. nor had he been in a humour to talk either to mrs. dale or to lily. he feared that lady julia's news was true,--that at any rate there might be in it something of truth; and while thus in doubt he could not go down to the small house. so he hung about the place by himself, with a cigar in his mouth, fearing that something evil was going to happen, and when the message came for him, almost shuddered as he seated himself in the gig. what would it become him to do in this emergency if crosbie had truly been guilty of the villany with which lady julia had charged him? thirty years ago he would have called the man out, and shot at him till one of them was hit. now-a-days it was hardly possible for a man to do that; and yet what would the world say of him if he allowed such an injury as this to pass without vengeance? his uncle, as he came forth from the station with his travelling-bag in his hand, was stern, gloomy, and silent. he came out and took his place in the gig almost without speaking. there were strangers about, and therefore his nephew at first could ask no question, but as the gig turned the corner out of the station-house yard he demanded the news. "what have you heard?" he said. but even then the squire did not answer at once. he shook his head, and turned away his face, as though he did not choose to be interrogated. "have you seen him, sir?" asked bernard. "no, he has not dared to see me." "then it is true?" "true?--yes, it is all true. why did you bring the scoundrel here? it has been your fault." "no, sir; i must contradict that. i did not know him for a scoundrel." "but it was your duty to have known him before you brought him here among them. poor girl! how is she to be told?" "then she does not know it?" "i fear not. have you seen them?" "i saw them yesterday, and she did not know it then; she may have heard it to-day." "i don't think so. i believe he has been too great a coward to write to her. a coward indeed! how can any man find the courage to write such a letter as that?" by degrees the squire told his tale. how he had gone to lady julia, had made his way to london, had tracked crosbie to his club, and had there learned the whole truth from crosbie's friend, fowler pratt, we already know. "the coward escaped me while i was talking to the man he sent down," said the squire. "it was a concerted plan, and i think he was right. i should have brained him in the hall of the club." on the following morning pratt had called upon him at his inn with crosbie's apology. "his apology!" said the squire. "i have it in my pocket. poor reptile; wretched worm of a man! i cannot understand it. on my honour, bernard, i do not understand it. i think men are changed since i knew much of them. it would have been impossible for me to write such a letter as that." he went on telling how pratt had brought him this letter, and had stated that crosbie declined an interview. "the gentleman had the goodness to assure me that no good could come from such a meeting. 'you mean,' i answered, 'that i cannot touch pitch and not be defiled!' he acknowledged that the man was pitch. indeed, he could not say a word for his friend." "i know pratt. he is a gentleman. i am sure he would not excuse him." "excuse him! how could any one excuse him? words could not be found to excuse him." and then he sat silent for some half mile. "on my honour, bernard, i can hardly yet bring myself to believe it. it is so new to me. it makes me feel that the world is changed, and that it is no longer worth a man's while to live in it." "and he is engaged to this other girl?" "oh, yes; with the full consent of the family. it is all arranged, and the settlements, no doubt, in the lawyer's hands by this time. he must have gone away from here determined to throw her over. indeed, i don't suppose he ever meant to marry her. he was just passing away his time here in the country." "he meant it up to the time of his leaving." "i don't think it. had he found me able and willing to give her a fortune he might, perhaps, have married her. but i don't think he meant it for a moment after i told him that she would have nothing. well, here we are. i may truly say that i never before came back to my own house with so sore a heart." they sat silently over their supper, the squire showing more open sorrow than might have been expected from his character. "what am i to say to them in the morning?" he repeated over and over again. "how am i to do it? and if i tell the mother, how is she to tell her child?" "do you think that he has given no intimation of his purpose?" "as far as i can tell, none. that man pratt knew that he had not done so yesterday afternoon. i asked him what were the intentions of his blackguard friend, and he said that he did not know--that crosbie would probably have written to me. then he brought me this letter. there it is," and the squire threw the letter over the table; "read it and let me have it back. he thinks probably that the trouble is now over as far as he is concerned." it was a vile letter to have written--not because the language was bad, or the mode of expression unfeeling, or the facts falsely stated--but because the thing to be told was in itself so vile. there are deeds which will not bear a gloss--sins as to which the perpetrator cannot speak otherwise than as a reptile; circumstances which change a man and put upon him the worthlessness of vermin. crosbie had struggled hard to write it, going home to do it after his last interview on that night with pratt. but he had sat moodily in his chair at his lodgings, unable to take the pen in his hand. pratt was to come to him at his office on the following morning, and he went to bed resolving that he would write it at his desk. on the next day pratt was there before a word of it had been written. "i can't stand this kind of thing," said pratt. "if you mean me to take it, you must write it at once." then, with inward groaning, crosbie sat himself at his table, and the words at last were forthcoming. such words as they were! "i know that i can have no excuse to make to you--or to her. but, circumstanced as i now am, the truth is the best. i feel that i should not make miss dale happy; and, therefore, as an honest man, i think i best do my duty by relinquishing the honour which she and you had proposed for me." there was more of it, but we all know of what words such letters are composed, and how men write when they feel themselves constrained to write as reptiles. "as an honest man!" repeated the squire. "on my honour, bernard, as a gentleman, i do not understand it. i cannot believe it possible that the man who wrote that letter was sitting the other day as a guest at my table." "what are we to do to him?" said bernard, after a while. "treat him as you would a rat. throw your stick at him, if he comes under your feet; but beware, above all things, that he does not get into your house. that is too late for us now." "there must be more than that, uncle." "i don't know what more. there are deeds for committing which a man is doubly damned, because he has screened himself from overt punishment by the nature of his own villany. we have to remember lily's name, and do what may best tend to her comfort. poor girl! poor girl!" then they were silent, till the squire rose and took his bed candle. "bernard," he said, "let my sister-in-law know early to-morrow that i will see her here, if she will be good enough to come to me after breakfast. do not have anything else said at the small house. it may be that he has written to-day." then the squire went to bed, and bernard sat over the dining-room fire, meditating on it all. how would the world expect that he should behave to crosbie? and what should he do when he met crosbie at the club? chapter xxviii. the board. [illustration: (untitled)] crosbie, as we already know, went to his office in whitehall on the morning after his escape from sebright's, at which establishment he left the squire of allington in conference with fowler pratt. he had seen fowler pratt again that same night, and the course of the story will have shown what took place at that interview. he went early to his office, knowing that he had before him the work of writing two letters, neither of which would run very glibly from his pen. one was to be his missive to the squire, to be delivered by his friend; the other, that fatal epistle to poor lily, which, as the day passed away, he found himself utterly unable to accomplish. the letter to the squire he did write, under certain threats; and, as we have seen, was considered to have degraded himself to the vermin rank of humanity by the meanness of his production. but on reaching his office he found that other cares awaited him,--cares which he would have taken much delight in bearing, had the state of his mind enabled him to take delight in anything. on entering the lobby of his office, at ten o'clock, he became aware that he was received by the messengers assembled there with almost more than their usual deference. he was always a great man at the general committee office; but there are shades of greatness and shades of deference, which, though quite beyond the powers of definition, nevertheless manifest themselves clearly to the experienced ear and eye. he walked through to his own apartment, and there found two official letters addressed to him lying on his table. the first which came to hand, though official, was small, and marked private, and it was addressed in the handwriting of his old friend, butterwell, the outgoing secretary. "i shall see you in the morning, nearly as soon as you get this," said the semi-official note; "but i must be the first to congratulate you on the acquisition of my old shoes. they will be very easy in the wearing to you, though they pinched my corns a little at first. i dare say they want new soling, and perhaps they are a little down at heels; but you will find some excellent cobbler to make them all right, and will give them a grace in the wearing which they have sadly lacked since they came into my possession. i wish you much joy with them," &c., &c. he then opened the larger official letter, but that had now but little interest for him. he could have made a copy of the contents without seeing them. the board of commissioners had had great pleasure in promoting him to the office of secretary, vacated by the promotion of mr. butterwell to a seat at their own board; and then the letter was signed by mr. butterwell himself. how delightful to him would have been this welcome on his return to his office had his heart in other respects been free from care! and as he thought of this, he remembered all lily's charms. he told himself how much she excelled the noble scion of the de courcy stock, with whom he was now destined to mate himself; how the bride he had rejected excelled the one he had chosen in grace, beauty, faith, freshness, and all feminine virtues. if he could only wipe out the last fortnight from the facts of his existence! but fortnights such as those are not to be wiped out,--not even with many sorrowful years of tedious scrubbing. and at this moment it seemed to him as though all those impediments which had frightened him when he had thought of marrying lily dale were withdrawn. that which would have been terrible with seven or eight hundred a year, would have been made delightful with twelve or thirteen. why had his fate been so unkind to him? why had not this promotion come to him but one fortnight earlier? why had it not been declared before he had made his visit to that terrible castle? he even said to himself that if he had positively known the fact before pratt had seen mr. dale, he would have sent a different message to the squire, and would have braved the anger of all the race of the de courcys. but in that he lied to himself, and he knew that he did so. an earl, in his imagination, was hedged by so strong a divinity, that his treason towards alexandrina could do no more than peep at what it would. it had been considered but little by him, when the project first offered itself to his mind, to jilt the niece of a small rural squire; but it was not in him to jilt the daughter of a countess. that house full of babies in st. john's wood appeared to him now under a very different guise from that which it wore as he sat in his room at courcy castle on the evening of his arrival there. then such an establishment had to him the flavour of a graveyard. it was as though he were going to bury himself alive. now that it was out of his reach, he thought of it as a paradise upon earth. and then he considered what sort of a paradise lady alexandrina would make for him. it was astonishing how ugly was the lady alexandrina, how old, how graceless, how destitute of all pleasant charm, seen through the spectacles which he wore at the present moment. during his first hour at the office he did nothing. one or two of the younger clerks came in and congratulated him with much heartiness. he was popular at his office, and they had got a step by his promotion. then he met one or two of the elder clerks, and was congratulated with much less heartiness. "i suppose it's all right," said one bluff old gentleman. "my time is gone by, i know. i married too early to be able to wear a good coat when i was young, and i never was acquainted with any lords or lords' families." the sting of this was the sharper because crosbie had begun to feel how absolutely useless to him had been all that high interest and noble connection which he had formed. he had really been promoted because he knew more about his work than any of the other men, and lady de courcy's influential relation at the india board had not yet even had time to write a note upon the subject. at eleven mr. butterwell came into crosbie's room, and the new secretary was forced to clothe himself in smiles. mr. butterwell was a pleasant, handsome man of about fifty, who had never yet set the thames on fire, and had never attempted to do so. he was perhaps a little more civil to great men and a little more patronizing to those below him than he would have been had he been perfect. but there was something frank and english even in his mode of bowing before the mighty ones, and to those who were not mighty he was rather too civil than either stern or supercilious. he knew that he was not very clever, but he knew also how to use those who were clever. he seldom made any mistake, and was very scrupulous not to tread on men's corns. though he had no enemies, yet he had a friend or two; and we may therefore say of mr. butterwell that he had walked his path in life discreetly. at the age of thirty-five he had married a lady with some little fortune, and now he lived a pleasant, easy, smiling life in a villa at putney. when mr. butterwell heard, as he often did hear, of the difficulty which an english gentleman has of earning his bread in his own country, he was wont to look back on his own career with some complacency. he knew that he had not given the world much; yet he had received largely, and no one had begrudged it to him. "tact," mr. butterwell used to say to himself, as he walked along the paths of his putney villa. "tact. tact. tact." "crosbie," he said, as he entered the room cheerily, "i congratulate you with all my heart. i do, indeed. you have got the step early in life, and you deserve it thoroughly;--much better than i did when i was appointed to the same office." "oh, no," said crosbie, gloomily. "but i say, oh, yes. we are deuced lucky to have such a man, and so i told the commissioners." "i'm sure i'm very much obliged to you." "i've known it all along,--before you left even. sir raffle buffle had told me he was to go to the income-tax office. the chair is two thousand there, you know; and i had been promised the first seat at the board." "ah;--i wish i'd known," said crosbie. "you are much better as you are," said butterwell. "there's no pleasure like a surprise! besides, one knows a thing of that kind, and yet doesn't know it. i don't mind saying now that i knew it,--swearing that i knew it,--but i wouldn't have said so to a living being the day before yesterday. there are such slips between the cups and the lips. suppose sir raffle had not gone to the income-tax!" "exactly so," said crosbie. "but it's all right now. indeed i sat at the board yesterday, though i signed the letter afterwards. i'm not sure that i don't lose more than i gain." "what! with three hundred a year more and less work?" "ah, but look at the interest of the thing. the secretary sees everything and knows everything. but i'm getting old, and, as you say, the lighter work will suit me. by the by, will you come down to putney to-morrow? mrs. butterwell will be delighted to see the new secretary. there's nobody in town now, so you can have no ground for refusing." but mr. crosbie did find some ground for refusing. it would have been impossible for him to have sat and smiled at mrs. butterwell's table in his present frame of mind. in a mysterious, half-explanatory manner, he let mr. butterwell know that private affairs of importance made it absolutely necessary that he should remain that evening in town. "and indeed," as he said, "he was not his own master just at present." "by the by,--of course not. i had quite forgotten to congratulate you on that head. so you're going to be married? well; i'm very glad, and hope you'll be as lucky as i have been." "thank you," said crosbie, again rather gloomily. "a young lady from near guestwick, isn't it; or somewhere in those parts?" "n--no," stammered crosbie. "the lady comes from barsetshire." "why, i heard the name. isn't she a bell, or tait, or ball, or some such name as that?" "no," said crosbie, assuming what boldness he could command. "her name is de courcy." "one of the earl's daughters?" "yes," said crosbie. "oh, i beg your pardon. i'd heard wrong. you're going to be allied to a very noble family, and i am heartily glad to hear of your success in life." then butterwell shook him very cordially by the hand,--having offered him no such special testimony of approval when under the belief that he was going to marry a bell, a tait, or a ball. all the same, mr. butterwell began to think that there was something wrong. he had heard from an indubitable source that crosbie had engaged himself to a niece of a squire with whom he had been staying near guestwick,--a girl without any money; and mr. butterwell, in his wisdom, had thought his friend crosbie to be rather a fool for his pains. but now he was going to marry one of the de courcys! mr. butterwell was rather at his wits' ends. "well; we shall be sitting at two, you know, and of course you'll come to us. if you're at leisure before that i'll make over what papers i have to you. i've not been a lord eldon in my office, and they won't break your back." immediately after that fowler pratt had been shown into crosbie's room, and crosbie had written the letter to the squire under pratt's eye. he could take no joy in his promotion. when pratt left him he tried to lighten his heart. he endeavoured to throw lily and her wrongs behind him, and fix his thoughts on his advancing successes in life; but he could not do it. a self-imposed trouble will not allow itself to be banished. if a man lose a thousand pounds by a friend's fault, or by a turn in the wheel of fortune, he can, if he be a man, put his grief down and trample it under foot; he can exorcise the spirit of his grievance, and bid the evil one depart from out of his house. but such exorcism is not to be used when the sorrow has come from a man's own folly and sin;--especially not if it has come from his own selfishness. such are the cases which make men drink; which drive them on to the avoidance of all thought; which create gamblers and reckless prodigals; which are the promoters of suicide. how could he avoid writing this letter to lily? he might blow his brains out, and so let there be an end of it all. it was to such reflections that he came, when he sat himself down endeavouring to reap satisfaction from his promotion. but crosbie was not a man to commit suicide. in giving him his due i must protest that he was too good for that. he knew too well that a pistol-bullet could not be the be-all and the end-all here, and there was too much manliness in him for so cowardly an escape. the burden must be borne. but how was he to bear it? there he sat till it was two o'clock, neglecting mr. butterwell and his office papers, and not stirring from his seat till a messenger summoned him before the board. the board, as he entered the room, was not such a board as the public may, perhaps, imagine such boards to be. there was a round table, with a few pens lying about, and a comfortable leathern arm-chair at the side of it, farthest from the door. sir raffle buffle was leaving his late colleagues, and was standing with his back to the fire-place, talking very loudly. sir raffle was a great bully, and the board was uncommonly glad to be rid of him; but as this was to be his last appearance at the committee office, they submitted to his voice meekly. mr. butterwell was standing close to him, essaying to laugh mildly at sir raffle's jokes. a little man, hardly more than five feet high, with small but honest-looking eyes, and close-cut hair, was standing behind the arm-chair, rubbing his hands together, and longing for the departure of sir raffle, in order that he might sit down. this was mr. optimist, the new chairman, in praise of whose appointment the daily jupiter had been so loud, declaring that the present minister was showing himself superior to all ministers who had ever gone before him, in giving promotion solely on the score of merit. the daily jupiter, a fortnight since, had published a very eloquent article, strongly advocating the claims of mr. optimist, and was naturally pleased to find that its advice had been taken. has not an obedient minister a right to the praise of those powers which he obeys? [illustration: the board.] mr. optimist was, in truth, an industrious little gentleman, very well connected, who had served the public all his life, and who was, at any rate, honest in his dealings. nor was he a bully, such as his predecessor. it might, however, be a question whether he carried guns enough for the command in which he was now to be employed. there was but one other member of the board, major fiasco by name, a discontented, broken-hearted, silent man, who had been sent to the general committee office some few years before because he was not wanted anywhere else. he was a man who had intended to do great things when he entered public life, and had possessed the talent and energy for things moderately great. he had also possessed to a certain extent the ear of those high in office; but, in some way, matters had not gone well with him, and in running his course he had gone on the wrong side of the post. he was still in the prime of life, and yet all men knew that major fiasco had nothing further to expect from the public or from the government. indeed, there were not wanting those who said that major fiasco was already in receipt of a liberal income, for which he gave no work in return; that he merely filled a chair for four hours a day four or five days a week, signing his name to certain forms and documents, reading, or pretending to read, certain papers, but, in truth, doing no good. major fiasco, on the other hand, considered himself to be a deeply injured individual, and he spent his life in brooding over his wrongs. he believed now in nothing and in nobody. he had begun public life striving to be honest, and he now regarded all around him as dishonest. he had no satisfaction in any man other than that which he found when some event would show to him that this or that other compeer of his own had proved himself to be self-interested, false, or fraudulent. "don't tell me, butterwell," he would say--for with mr. butterwell he maintained some semi-official intimacy, and he would take that gentleman by the button-hole, holding him close. "don't tell me. i know what men are. i've seen the world. i've been looking at things with my eyes open. i knew what he was doing." and then he would tell of the sly deed of some official known well to them both, not denouncing it by any means, but affecting to take it for granted that the man in question was a rogue. butterwell would shrug his shoulders, and laugh gently, and say that, upon his word, he didn't think the world so bad as fiasco made it out to be. nor did he; for butterwell believed in many things. he believed in his putney villa on this earth, and he believed also that he might achieve some sort of putney villa in the world beyond without undergoing present martyrdom. his putney villa first, with all its attendant comforts, and then his duty to the public afterwards. it was thus that mr. butterwell regulated his conduct; and as he was solicitous that the villa should be as comfortable a home to his wife as to himself, and that it should be specially comfortable to his friends, i do not think that we need quarrel with his creed. mr. optimist believed in everything, but especially he believed in the prime minister, in the daily jupiter, in the general committee office, and in himself. he had long thought that everything was nearly right; but now that he himself was chairman at the general committee office, he was quite sure that everything must be right. in sir raffle buffle, indeed, he had never believed; and now it was, perhaps, the greatest joy of his life that he should never again be called upon to hear the tones of that terrible knight's hated voice. seeing who were the components of the new board, it may be presumed that crosbie would look forward to enjoying a not uninfluential position in his office. there were, indeed, some among the clerks who did not hesitate to say that the new secretary would have it pretty nearly all his own way. as for "old opt," there would be, they said, no difficulty about him. only tell him that such and such a decision was his own, and he would be sure to believe the teller. butterwell was not fond of work, and had been accustomed to lean upon crosbie for many years. as for fiasco, he would be cynical in words, but wholly indifferent in deed. if the whole office were made to go to the mischief, fiasco, in his own grim way, would enjoy the confusion. "wish you joy, crosbie," said sir raffle, standing up on the rug, waiting for the new secretary to go up to him and shake hands. but sir raffle was going, and the new secretary did not indulge him. "thank ye, sir raffle," said crosbie, without going near the rug. "mr. crosbie, i congratulate you most sincerely," said mr. optimist. "your promotion has been the result altogether of your own merit. you have been selected for the high office which you are now called upon to fill solely because it has been thought that you are the most fit man to perform the onerous duties attached to it. hum--h-m--ha. as regards my share in the recommendation which we found ourselves bound to submit to the treasury, i must say that i never felt less hesitation in my life, and i believe i may declare as much as regards the other members of the board." and mr. optimist looked around him for approving words. he had come forward from his standing ground behind his chair to welcome crosbie, and had shaken his hand cordially. fiasco also had risen from his seat, and had assured crosbie in a whisper that he had feathered his nest uncommon well. then he had sat down again. "indeed you may, as far as i am concerned," said butterwell. "i told the chancellor of the exchequer," said sir raffle, speaking very loud and with much authority, "that unless he had some first-rate man to send from elsewhere i could name a fitting candidate. 'sir raffle,' he said, 'i mean to keep it in the office, and therefore shall be glad of your opinion.' 'in that case, mr. chancellor,' said i, 'mr. crosbie must be the man.' 'mr. crosbie shall be the man,' said the chancellor. and mr. crosbie is the man." "your friend sark spoke to lord brock about it," said fiasco. now the earl of sark was a young nobleman of much influence at the present moment, and lord brock was the prime minister. "you should thank lord sark." "had as much to do with it as if my footman had spoken," said sir raffle. "i am very much obliged to the board for their good opinion," said crosbie, gravely. "i am obliged to lord sark as well,--and also to your footman, sir raffle, if, as you seem to say, he has interested himself in my favour." "i didn't say anything of the kind," said sir raffle. "i thought it right to make you understand that it was my opinion, given, of course, officially, which prevailed with the chancellor of the exchequer. well, gentlemen, as i shall be wanted in the city, i will say good morning to you. is my carriage ready, boggs?" upon which the attendant messenger opened the door, and the great sir raffle buffle took his final departure from the scene of his former labours. "as to the duties of your new office"--and mr. optimist continued his speech, taking no other notice of the departure of his enemy than what was indicated by an increased brightness of his eye and a more satisfactory tone of voice--"you will find yourself quite familiar with them." "indeed he will," said butterwell. "and i am quite sure that you will perform them with equal credit to yourself, satisfaction to the department, and advantage to the public. we shall always be glad to have your opinion on any subject of importance that may come before us; and as regards the internal discipline of the office, we feel that we may leave it safely in your hands. in any matter of importance you will, of course, consult us, and i feel very confident that we shall go on together with great comfort and with mutual confidence." then mr. optimist looked at his brother commissioners, sat down in his arm-chair, and taking in his hands some papers before him, began the routine business of the day. it was nearly five o'clock when, on this special occasion, the secretary returned from the board-room to his own office. not for a moment had the weight been off his shoulders while sir raffle had been bragging or mr. optimist making his speech. he had been thinking, not of them, but of lily dale; and though they had not discovered his thoughts, they had perceived that he was hardly like himself. "i never saw a man so little elated by good fortune in my life," said mr. optimist. "ah, he's got something on his mind," said butterwell. "he's going to be married, i believe." "if that's the case, it's no wonder he shouldn't be elated," said major fiasco, who was himself a bachelor. when in his own room again, crosbie at once seized on a sheet of note-paper, as though by hurrying himself on with it he could get that letter to allington written. but though the paper was before him, and the pen in his hand, the letter did not, would not, get itself written. with what words was he to begin it? to whom should it be written? how was he to declare himself the villain which he had made himself? the letters from his office were taken away every night shortly after six, and at six o'clock he had not written a word. "i will do it at home to-night," he said to himself, and then, tearing off a scrap of paper, he scratched those few lines which lily received, and which she had declined to communicate to her mother or sister. crosbie, as he wrote them, conceived that they would in some way prepare the poor girl for the coming blow,--that they would, at any rate, make her know that all was not right; but in so supposing he had not counted on the constancy of her nature, nor had he thought of the promise which she had given him that nothing should make her doubt him. he wrote the scrap, and then taking his hat walked off through the gloom of the november evening up charing cross and st. martin's lane, towards the seven dials and bloomsbury, into regions of the town with which he had no business, and which he never frequented. he hardly knew where he went or wherefore. how was he to escape from the weight of the burden which was now crushing him? it seemed to him as though he would change his position with thankfulness for that of the junior clerk in his office, if only that junior clerk had upon his mind no such betrayal of trust as that of which he was guilty. at half-past seven he found himself at sebright's, and there he dined. a man will dine, even though his heart be breaking. then he got into a cab, and had himself taken home to mount street. during his walk he had sworn to himself that he would not go to bed that night till the letter was written and posted. it was twelve before the first words were marked on the paper, and yet he kept his oath. between two and three, in the cold moonlight, he crawled out and deposited his letter in the nearest post-office. chapter xxix. john eames returns to burton crescent. john eames and crosbie returned to town on the same day. it will be remembered how eames had assisted lord de guest in the matter of the bull, and how great had been the earl's gratitude on the occasion. the memory of this, and the strong encouragement which he received from his mother and sister for having made such a friend by his gallantry, lent some slight satisfaction to his last hours at home. but his two misfortunes were too serious to allow of anything like real happiness. he was leaving lily behind him, engaged to be married to a man whom he hated, and he was returning to burton crescent, where he would have to face amelia roper,--amelia either in her rage or in her love. the prospect of amelia in her rage was very terrible to him; but his greatest fear was of amelia in her love. he had in his letter declined matrimony; but what if she talked down all his objections, and carried him off to church in spite of himself! when he reached london and got into a cab with his portmanteau, he could hardly fetch up courage to bid the man drive him to burton crescent. "i might as well go to an hotel for the night," he said to himself, "and then i can learn how things are going on from cradell at the office." nevertheless, he did give the direction to burton crescent, and when it was once given felt ashamed to change it. but, as he was driven up to the well-known door, his heart was so low within him that he might almost be said to have lost it. when the cabman demanded whether he should knock, he could not answer; and when the maid-servant at the door greeted him, he almost ran away. "who's at home?" said he, asking the question in a very low voice. "there's missus," said the girl, "and miss spruce, and mrs. lupex. he's away somewhere, in his tantrums again; and there's mr.--" "is miss roper here?" he said, still whispering. "oh, yes! miss mealyer's here," said the girl, speaking in a cruelly loud voice. "she was in the dining-room just now, putting out the table. miss mealyer!" and the girl, as she called out the name, opened the dining-room door. johnny eames felt that his knees were too weak to support him. but miss mealyer was not in the dining-room. she had perceived the advancing cab of her sworn adorer, and had thought it expedient to retreat from her domestic duties, and fortify herself among her brushes and ribbons. had it been possible that she should know how very weak and cowardly was the enemy against whom she was called upon to put herself in action, she might probably have fought her battle somewhat differently, and have achieved a speedy victory, at the cost of an energetic shot or two. but she did not know. she thought it probable that she might obtain power over him and manage him; but it did not occur to her that his legs were so weak beneath him that she might almost blow him over with a breath. none but the worst and most heartless of women know the extent of their own power over men;--as none but the worst and most heartless of men know the extent of their power over women. amelia roper was not a good specimen of the female sex, but there were worse women than her. "she ain't there, mr. eames; but you'll see her in the drawen-room," said the girl. "and it's she'll be glad to see you back again, mr. eames." but he scrupulously passed the door of the upstairs sitting-room, not even looking within it, and contrived to get himself into his own chamber without having encountered anybody. "here's yer 'ot water, mr. eames," said the girl, coming up to him after an interval of half-an-hour; "and dinner'll be on the table in ten minutes. mr. cradell is come in, and so is missus's son." it was still open to him to go out and dine at some eating-house in the strand. he could start out, leaving word that he was engaged, and so postpone the evil hour. he had almost made up his mind to do so, and certainly would have done it, had not the sitting-room door opened as he was on the landing-place. the door opened, and he found himself confronting the assembled company. first came cradell, and leaning on his arm, i regret to say, was mrs. lupex,--_egyptia conjux!_ then there came miss spruce with young roper; amelia and her mother brought up the rear together. there was no longer question of flight now; and poor eames, before he knew what he was doing, was carried down into the dining-room with the rest of the company. they were all glad to see him, and welcomed him back warmly, but he was so much beside himself that he could not ascertain whether amelia's voice was joined with the others. he was already seated at table, and had before him a plate of soup, before he recognized the fact that he was sitting between mrs. roper and mrs. lupex. the latter lady had separated herself from mr. cradell as she entered the room. "under all the circumstances perhaps it will be better for us to be apart," she said. "a lady can't make herself too safe; can she, mrs. roper? there's no danger between you and me, is there, mr. eames,--specially when miss amelia is opposite?" the last words, however, were intended to be whispered into his ear. but johnny made no answer to her; contenting himself for the moment with wiping the perspiration from his brow. there was amelia opposite to him, looking at him--the very amelia to whom he had written, declining the honour of marrying her. of what her mood towards him might be, he could form no judgment from her looks. her face was simply stern and impassive, and she seemed inclined to eat her dinner in silence. a slight smile of derision had passed across her face as she heard mrs. lupex whisper, and it might have been discerned that her nose, at the same time, became somewhat elevated; but she said not a word. "i hope you've enjoyed yourself, mr. eames, among the vernal beauties of the country," said mrs. lupex. "very much, thank you," he replied. "there's nothing like the country at this autumnal season of the year. as for myself, i've never been accustomed to remain in london after the breaking up of the _beau monde_. we've usually been to broadstairs, which is a very charming place, with most elegant society, but now--" and she shook her head, by which all the company knew that she intended to allude to the sins of mr. lupex. "i'd never wish to sleep out of london for my part," said mrs. roper. "when a woman's got a house over her head, i don't think her mind's ever easy out of it." she had not intended any reflection on mrs. lupex for not having a house of her own, but that lady immediately bristled up. "that's just what the snails say, mrs. roper. and as for having a house of one's own, it's a very good thing, no doubt, sometimes; but that's according to circumstances. it has suited me lately to live in lodgings, but there's no knowing whether i mayn't fall lower than that yet, and have--" but here she stopped herself, and looking over at mr. cradell nodded her head. "and have to let them," said mrs. roper. "i hope you'll be more lucky with your lodgers than i have been with some of mine. jemima, hand the potatoes to miss spruce. miss spruce, do let me send you a little more gravy? there's plenty here, really." mrs. roper was probably thinking of mr. todgers. "i hope i shall," said mrs. lupex. "but, as i was saying, broadstairs is delightful. were you ever at broadstairs, mr. cradell?" "never, mrs. lupex. i generally go abroad in my leave. one sees more of the world, you know. i was at dieppe last june, and found that very delightful--though rather lonely. i shall go to ostend this year; only december is so late for ostend. it was a deuced shame my getting december, wasn't it, johnny?" "yes, it was," said eames. "i managed better." "and what have you been doing, mr. eames?" said mrs. lupex, with one of her sweetest smiles. "whatever it may have been, you've not been false to the cause of beauty, i'm sure." and she looked over to amelia with a knowing smile. but amelia was engaged upon her plate, and went on with her dinner without turning her eyes either on mrs. lupex or on john eames. "i haven't done anything particular," said eames. "i've just been staying with my mother." "we've been very social here, haven't we, miss amelia?" continued mrs. lupex. "only now and then a cloud comes across the heavens, and the lights at the banquet are darkened." then she put her handkerchief up to her eyes, sobbing deeply, and they all knew that she was again alluding to the sins of her husband. as soon as dinner was over the ladies with young mr. roper retired, and eames and cradell were left to take their wine over the dining-room fire,--or their glass of gin and water, as it might be. "well, caudle, old fellow," said one. "well, johnny, my boy," said the other. "what's the news at the office?" said eames. "muggeridge has been playing the very mischief." muggeridge was the second clerk in cradell's room. "we're going to put him into coventry and not speak to him except officially. but to tell you the truth, my hands have been so full here at home, that i haven't thought much about the office. what am i to do about that woman?" "do about her? how do about her?" "yes; what am i to do about her? how am i to manage with her? there's lupex off again in one of his fits of jealousy." "but it's not your fault, i suppose?" "well; i can't just say. i am fond of her, and that's the long and the short of it; deuced fond of her." "but, my dear caudle, you know she's that man's wife." "oh, yes, i know all about it. i'm not going to defend myself. it's wrong, i know,--pleasant, but wrong. but what's a fellow to do? i suppose in strict morality i ought to leave the lodgings. but, by george, i don't see why a man's to be turned out in that way. and then i couldn't make a clean score with old mother roper. but i say, old fellow, who gave you the gold chain?" "well; it was an old family friend at guestwick; or rather, i should say, a man who said he knew my father." "and he gave you that because he knew your governor! is there a watch to it?" "yes, there's a watch. it wasn't exactly that. there was some trouble about a bull. to tell the truth, it was lord de guest; the queerest fellow, caudle, you ever met in your life; but such a trump. i've got to go and dine with him at christmas." and then the old story of the bull was told. "i wish i could find a lord in a field with a bull," said cradell. we may, however, be permitted to doubt whether mr. cradell would have earned a watch even if he had had his wish. "you see," continued cradell, reverting to the subject on which he most delighted to talk, "i'm not responsible for that man's ill-conduct." "does anybody say you are?" "no; nobody says so. but people seem to think so. when he is by i hardly speak to her. she is thoughtless and giddy, as women are, and takes my arm, and that kind of thing, you know. it makes him mad with rage, but upon my honour i don't think she means any harm." "i don't suppose she does," said eames. "well; she may or she mayn't. i hope with all my heart she doesn't." "and where is he now?" "this is between ourselves, you know; but she went to find him this afternoon. unless he gives her money she can't stay here, nor, for the matter of that, will she be able to go away. if i mention something to you, you won't tell any one?" "of course i won't." "i wouldn't have it known to any one for the world. i've lent her seven pounds ten. it's that which makes me so short with mother roper." "then i think you're a fool for your pains." "ah, that's so like you. i always said you'd no feeling of real romance. if i cared for a woman i'd give her the coat off my back." "i'd do better than that," said johnny. "i'd give her the heart out of my body. i'd be chopped up alive for a girl i loved; but it shouldn't be for another man's wife." "that's a matter of taste. but she's been to lupex to-day at that house he goes to in drury lane. she had a terrible scene there. he was going to commit suicide in the middle of the street, and she declares that it all comes from jealousy. think what a time i have of it--standing always, as one may say, on gunpowder. he may turn up here any moment, you know. but, upon my word, for the life of me i cannot desert her. if i were to turn my back on her she wouldn't have a friend in the world. and how's l. d.? i'll tell you what it is--you'll have some trouble with the divine amelia." "shall i?" "by jove, you will. but how's l. d. all this time?" "l. d. is engaged to be married to a man named adolphus crosbie," said poor johnny, slowly. "if you please, we will not say any more about her." "whew--w--w! that's what makes you so down in the mouth! l. d. going to marry crosbie! why, that's the man who is to be the new secretary at the general committee office. old huffle scuffle, who was their chair, has come to us, you know. there's been a general move at the g. c., and this crosbie has got to be secretary. he's a lucky chap, isn't he?" "i don't know anything about his luck. he's one of those fellows that make me hate them the first time i look at them. i've a sort of a feeling that i shall live to kick him some day." "that's the time, is it? then i suppose amelia will have it all her own way now." "i'll tell you what, caudle. i'd sooner get up through the trap-door, and throw myself off the roof into the area, than marry amelia roper." "have you and she had any conversation since you came back?" "not a word." "then i tell you fairly you've got trouble before you. amelia and maria--mrs. lupex, i mean--are as thick as thieves just at present, and they have been talking you over. maria--that is, mrs. lupex--lets it all out to me. you'll have to mind where you are, old fellow." eames was not inclined to discuss the matter any further, so he finished his toddy in silence. cradell, however, who felt that there was something in his affairs of which he had reason to be proud, soon returned to the story of his own very extraordinary position. "by jove, i don't know that a man was ever so circumstanced," he said. "she looks to me to protect her, and yet what can i do?" at last cradell got up, and declared that he must go to the ladies. "she's so nervous, that unless she has some one to countenance her she becomes unwell." eames declared his purpose of going to the divan, or to the theatre, or to take a walk in the streets. the smiles of beauty had no longer charms for him in burton crescent. "they'll expect you to take a cup of tea the first night," said cradell; but eames declared that they might expect it. "i'm in no humour for it," said he. "i'll tell you what, cradell, i shall leave this place, and take rooms for myself somewhere. i'll never go into a lodging-house again." as he so spoke, he was standing at the dining-room door; but he was not allowed to escape in this easy way. jemima, as he went out into the passage, was there with a three-cornered note in her hand. "from miss mealyer," she said. "miss mealyer is in the back parlour all by herself." poor johnny took the note, and read it by the lamp over the front door. "are you not going to speak to me on the day of your return? it cannot be that you will leave the house without seeing me for a moment. i am in the back parlour." when he had read these words, he paused in the passage, with his hat on. jemima, who could not understand why any young man should hesitate as to seeing his lady-love in the back parlour alone, whispered to him again, in her audible way, "miss mealyer is there, sir; and all the rest on 'em's upstairs!" so compelled, eames put down his hat, and walked with slow steps into the back parlour. how was it to be with the enemy? was he to encounter amelia in anger, or amelia in love? she had seemed to be stern and defiant when he had ventured to steal a look at her across the dining-table, and now he expected that she would turn upon him with loud threatenings and protestations as to her wrongs. but it was not so. when he entered the room she was standing with her back to him, leaning on the mantel-piece, and at the first moment she did not essay to speak. he walked into the middle of the room and stood there, waiting for her to begin. "shut the door!" she said, looking over her shoulder. "i suppose you don't want the girl to hear all you've got to say to me!" then he shut the door; but still amelia stood with her back to him, leaning upon the mantel-piece. it did not seem that he had much to say, for he remained perfectly silent. "well!" said amelia, after a long pause, and she then again looked over her shoulder. "well, mr. eames!" "jemima gave me your note, and so i've come," said he. "and is this the way we meet!" she exclaimed, turning suddenly upon him, and throwing her long black hair back over her shoulders. there certainly was some beauty about her. her eyes were large and bright, and her shoulders were well turned. she might have done as an artist's model for a judith, but i doubt whether any man, looking well into her face, could think that she would do well as a wife. "oh, john, is it to be thus, after love such as ours?" and she clasped her hands together, and stood before him. "i don't know what you mean," said eames. "if you are engaged to marry l. d., tell me so at once. be a man, and speak out, sir." "no," said eames; "i am not engaged to marry the lady to whom you allude." "on your honour?" "i won't have her spoken about. i'm not going to marry her, and that's enough." "do you think that i wish to speak of her? what can l. d. be to me as long as she is nothing to you? oh, johnny, why did you write me that heartless letter?" then she leaned upon his shoulder--or attempted to do so. i cannot say that eames shook her off, seeing that he lacked the courage to do so; but he shuffled his shoulder about so that the support was uneasy to her, and she was driven to stand erect again. "why did you write that cruel letter?" she said again. "because i thought it best, amelia. what's a man to do with ninety pounds a year, you know?" "but your mother allows you twenty." "and what's a man to do with a hundred and ten?" "rising five pounds every year," said the well-informed amelia. "of course we should live here, with mamma, and you would just go on paying her as you do now. if your heart was right, johnny, you wouldn't think so much about money. if you loved me--as you said you did--" then a little sob came, and the words were stopped. the words were stopped, but she was again upon his shoulder. what was he to do? in truth, his only wish was to escape, and yet his arm, quite in opposition to his own desires, found its way round her waist. in such a combat a woman has so many points in her favour! "oh, johnny," she said again, as soon as she felt the pressure of his arm. "gracious, what a beautiful watch you've got," and she took the trinket out of his pocket. "did you buy that?" "no; it was given to me." "john eames, did l. d. give it you?" "no, no, no," he shouted, stamping on the floor as he spoke. "oh, i beg your pardon," said amelia, quelled for the moment by his energy. "perhaps it was your mother." "no; it was a man. never mind about the watch now." "i wouldn't mind anything, johnny, if you would tell me that you loved me again. perhaps i oughtn't to ask you, and it isn't becoming in a lady; but how can i help it, when you know you've got my heart. come upstairs and have tea with us now, won't you?" what was he to do? he said that he would go up and have tea; and as he led her to the door he put down his face and kissed her. oh, johnny eames! but then a woman in such a contest has so many points in her favour. chapter xxx. is it from him? i have already declared that crosbie wrote and posted the fatal letter to allington, and we must now follow it down to that place. on the morning following the squire's return to his own house, mrs. crump, the post-mistress at allington, received a parcel by post directed to herself. she opened it, and found an enclosure addressed to mrs. dale, with a written request that she would herself deliver it into that lady's own hand at once. this was crosbie's letter. "it's from miss lily's gentleman," said mrs. crump, looking at the handwriting. "there's something up, or he wouldn't be writing to her mamma in this way." but mrs. crump lost no time in putting on her bonnet, and trudging up with the letter to the small house. "i must see the missus herself," said mrs. crump. whereupon mrs. dale was called downstairs into the hall, and there received the packet. lily was in the breakfast-parlour, and had seen the post-mistress arrive;--had seen also that she carried a letter in her hand. for a moment she had thought that it was for her, and imagined that the old woman had brought it herself from simple good-nature. but lily, when she heard her mother mentioned, instantly withdrew and shut the parlour door. her heart misgave her that something was wrong, but she hardly tried to think what it might be. after all, the regular postman might bring the letter she herself expected. bell was not yet downstairs, and she stood alone over the tea-cups on the breakfast-table, feeling that there was something for her to fear. her mother did not come at once into the room, but, after a pause of a moment or two, went again upstairs. so she remained, either standing against the table, or at the window, or seated in one of the two arm-chairs, for a space of ten minutes, when bell entered the room. "isn't mamma down yet?" said bell. "bell," said lily, "something has happened. mamma has got a letter." "happened! what has happened? is anybody ill? who is the letter from?" and bell was going to return through the door in search of her mother. "stop, bell," said lily. "do not go to her yet. i think it's from--adolphus." "oh, lily, what do you mean?" "i don't know, dear. we'll wait a little longer. don't look like that, bell." and lily strove to appear calm, and strove almost successfully. "you have frightened me so," said bell. "i am frightened myself. he only sent me one line yesterday, and now he has sent nothing. if some misfortune should have happened to him! mrs. crump brought down the letter herself to mamma, and that is so odd, you know." "are you sure it was from him?" "no; i have not spoken to her. i will go up to her now. don't you come, bell. oh! bell, do not look so unhappy." she then went over and kissed her sister, and after that, with very gentle steps, made her way up to her mother's room. "mamma, may i come in?" she said. "oh! my child!" "i know it is from him, mamma. tell me all at once." mrs. dale had read the letter. with quick, glancing eyes, she had made herself mistress of its whole contents, and was already aware of the nature and extent of the sorrow which had come upon them. it was a sorrow that admitted of no hope. the man who had written that letter could never return again; nor if he should return could he be welcomed back to them. the blow had fallen, and it was to be borne. inside the letter to herself had been a very small note addressed to lily. "give her the enclosed," crosbie had said in his letter, "if you do not now think it wrong to do so. i have left it open, that you may read it." mrs. dale, however, had not yet read it, and she now concealed it beneath her handkerchief. i will not repeat at length crosbie's letter to mrs. dale. it covered four sides of letter-paper, and was such a letter that any man who wrote it must have felt himself to be a rascal. we saw that he had difficulty in writing it, but the miracle was, that any man could have found it possible to write it. "i know you will curse me," said he; "and i deserve to be cursed. i know that i shall be punished for this, and i must bear my punishment. my worst punishment will be this,--that i never more shall hold up my head again." and then, again, he said:--"my only excuse is my conviction that i should never make her happy. she has been brought up as an angel, with pure thoughts, with holy hopes, with a belief in all that is good, and high, and noble. i have been surrounded through my whole life by things low, and mean, and ignoble. how could i live with her, or she with me? i know now that this is so; but my fault has been that i did not know it when i was there with her. i choose to tell you all," he continued, towards the end of the letter, "and therefore i let you know that i have engaged myself to marry another woman. ah! i can foresee how bitter will be your feelings when you read this: but they will not be so bitter as mine while i write it. yes; i am already engaged to one who will suit me, and whom i may suit. you will not expect me to speak ill of her who is to be near and dear to me. but she is one with whom i may mate myself without an inward conviction that i shall destroy all her happiness by doing so. lilian," he said, "shall always have my prayers; and i trust that she may soon forget, in the love of an honest man, that she ever knew one so dishonest as--adolphus crosbie." of what like must have been his countenance as he sat writing such words of himself under the ghastly light of his own small, solitary lamp? had he written his letter at his office, in the day-time, with men coming in and out of his room, he could hardly have written of himself so plainly. he would have bethought himself that the written words might remain, and be read hereafter by other eyes than those for which they were intended. but, as he sat alone, during the small hours of the night, almost repenting of his sin with true repentance, he declared to himself that he did not care who might read them. they should, at any rate, be true. now they had been read by her to whom they had been addressed, and the daughter was standing before the mother to hear her doom. "tell me all at once," lily had said; but in what words was her mother to tell her? "lily," she said, rising from her seat, and leaving the two letters on the couch; that addressed to the daughter was hidden beneath a handkerchief, but that which she had read she left open and in sight. she took both the girl's hands in hers as she looked into her face, and spoke to her. "lily, my child!" then she burst into sobs, and was unable to tell her tale. "is it from him, mamma? may i read it? he cannot be--" "it is from mr. crosbie." "is he ill, mamma? tell me at once. if he is ill i will go to him." "no, my darling, he is not ill. not yet;--do not read it yet. oh, lily! it brings bad news; very bad news." "mamma, if he is not in danger, i can read it. is it bad to him, or only bad to me?" at this moment the servant knocked, and not waiting for an answer half opened the door. "if you please, ma'am, mr. bernard is below, and wants to speak to you." "mr. bernard! ask miss bell to see him." "miss bell is with him, ma'am, but he says that he specially wants to speak to you." mrs. dale felt that she could not leave lily alone. she could not take the letter away, nor could she leave her child with the letter open. "i cannot see him," said mrs. dale. "ask him what it is. tell him i cannot come down just at present." and then the servant went, and bernard left his message with bell. "bernard," she had said, "do you know of anything? is there anything wrong about mr. crosbie?" then, in a few words, he told her all, and understanding why his aunt had not come down to him, he went back to the great house. bell, almost stupefied by the tidings, seated herself at the table unconsciously, leaning upon her elbows. "it will kill her," she said to herself. "my lily, my darling lily! it will surely kill her!" but the mother was still with the daughter, and the story was still untold. "mamma," said lily, "whatever it is, i must, of course, be made to know it. i begin to guess the truth. it will pain you to say it. shall i read the letter?" mrs. dale was astonished at her calmness. it could not be that she had guessed the truth, or she would not stand like that, with tearless eyes and unquelled courage before her. "you shall read it, but i ought to tell you first. oh, my child, my own one!" lily was now leaning against the bed, and her mother was standing over her, caressing her. "then tell me," said she. "but i know what it is. he has thought it all over while away from me, and he finds that it must not be as we have supposed. before he went i offered to release him, and now he knows that he had better accept my offer. is it so, mamma?" in answer to this mrs. dale did not speak, but lily understood from her signs that it was so. "he might have written it to me, myself," said lily, very proudly. "mamma, we will go down to breakfast. he has sent nothing to me, then?" "there is a note. he bids me read it, but i have not opened it. it is here." "give it me," said lily, almost sternly. "let me have his last words to me;" and she took the note from her mother's hands. "lily," said the note, "your mother will have told you all. before you read these few words you will know that you have trusted one who was quite untrustworthy. i know that you will hate me.--i cannot even ask you to forgive me. you will let me pray that you may yet be happy.--a. c." she read these few words, still leaning against the bed. then she got up, and walking to a chair, seated herself with her back to her mother. mrs. dale moving silently after her stood over the back of the chair, not daring to speak to her. so she sat for some five minutes, with her eyes fixed upon the open window, and with crosbie's note in her hand. "i will not hate him, and i do forgive him," she said at last, struggling to command her voice, and hardly showing that she could not altogether succeed in her attempt. "i may not write to him again, but you shall write and tell him so. now we will go down to breakfast." and so saying, she got up from her chair. mrs. dale almost feared to speak to her, her composure was so complete, and her manner so stern and fixed. she hardly knew how to offer pity and sympathy, seeing that pity seemed to be so little necessary, and that even sympathy was not demanded. and she could not understand all that lily had said. what had she meant by the offer to release him? had there, then, been some quarrel between them before he went? crosbie had made no such allusion in his letter. but mrs. dale did not dare to ask any questions. "you frighten me, lily," she said. "your very calmness frightens me." "dear mamma!" and the poor girl absolutely smiled as she embraced her mother. "you need not be frightened by my calmness. i know the truth well. i have been very unfortunate;--very. the brightest hopes of my life are all gone;--and i shall never again see him whom i love beyond all the world!" then at last she broke down, and wept in her mother's arms. there was not a word of anger spoken then against him who had done all this. mrs. dale felt that she did not dare to speak in anger against him, and words of anger were not likely to come from poor lily. she, indeed, hitherto did not know the whole of his offence, for she had not read his letter. "give it me, mamma," she said at last. "it has to be done sooner or later." "not now, lily. i have told you all,--all that you need know at present." "yes; now, mamma," and again that sweet silvery voice became stern. "i will read it now, and there shall be an end." whereupon mrs. dale gave her the letter and she read it in silence. her mother, though standing somewhat behind her, watched her narrowly as she did so. she was now lying over upon the bed, and the letter was on the pillow, as she propped herself upon her arm. her tears were running, and ever and again she would stop to dry her eyes. her sobs, too, were very audible, but she went on steadily with her reading till she came to the line on which crosbie told that he had already engaged himself to another woman. then her mother could see that she paused suddenly, and that a shudder slightly convulsed all her limbs. "he has been very quick," she said, almost in a whisper; and then she finished the letter. "tell him, mamma," she said, "that i do forgive him, and i will not hate him. you will tell him that,--from me; will you not?" and then she raised herself from the bed. mrs. dale would give her no such assurance. in her present mood her feelings against crosbie were of a nature which she herself hardly could understand or analyze. she felt that if he were present she could almost fly at him as would a tigress. she had never hated before as she now hated this man. he was to her a murderer, and worse than a murderer. he had made his way like a wolf into her little fold, and torn her ewe-lamb and left her maimed and mutilated for life. how could a mother forgive such an offence as that, or consent to be the medium through which forgiveness should be expressed? "you must, mamma; or, if you do not, i shall do so. remember that i love him. you know what it is to have loved one single man. he has made me very unhappy; i hardly know yet how unhappy. but i have loved him, and do love him. i believe, in my heart, that he still loves me. where this has been there must not be hatred and unforgiveness." "i will pray that i may become able to forgive him," said mrs. dale. "but you must write to him those words. indeed you must, mamma! 'she bids me tell you that she has forgiven you, and will not hate you.' promise me that!" "i can make no promise now, lily. i will think about it, and endeavour to do my duty." lily was now seated, and was holding the skirt of her mother's dress. "mamma," she said, looking up into her mother's face, "you must be very good to me now; and i must be very good to you. we shall be always together now. i must be your friend and counsellor; and be everything to you, more than ever. i must fall in love with you now;" and she smiled again, and the tears were almost dry upon her cheeks. at last they went down to the breakfast-room, from which bell had not moved. mrs. dale entered the room first, and lily followed, hiding herself for a moment behind her mother. then she came forward boldly, and taking bell in her arms, clasped her close to her bosom. "bell," she said, "he has gone." "lily! lily! lily!" said bell, weeping. "he has gone! we shall talk it over in a few days, and shall know how to do so without losing ourselves in misery. to-day we will say no more about it. i am so thirsty, bell; do give me my tea;" and she sat herself down at the breakfast-table. lily's tea was given to her, and she drank it. beyond that i cannot say that any of them partook with much heartiness of the meal. they sat there, as they would have sat if no terrible thunderbolt had fallen among them, and no word further was spoken about crosbie and his conduct. immediately after breakfast they went into the other room, and lily, as was her wont, sat herself immediately down to her drawing. her mother looked at her with wistful eyes, longing to bid her spare herself, but she shrank from interfering with her. for a quarter of an hour lily sat over her board, with her brush or pencil in her hand, and then she rose up and put it away. "it is no good pretending," she said. "i am only spoiling the things; but i will be better to-morrow. i'll go away and lie down by myself, mamma." and so she went. soon after this mrs. dale took her bonnet and went up to the great house, having received her brother-in-law's message from bell. "i know what he has to tell me," she said; "but i might as well go. it will be necessary that we should speak to each other about it." so she walked across the lawn, and up into the hall of the great house. "is my brother in the book-room?" she said to one of the maids; and then knocking at the door, went in unannounced. the squire rose from his arm-chair, and came forward to meet her. "mary," he said, "i believe you know it all." "yes," she said. "you can read that," and she handed him crosbie's letter. "how was one to know that any man could be so wicked as that?" "and she has heard it?" asked the squire. "is she able to bear it?" "wonderfully! she has amazed me by her strength. it frightens me; for i know that a relapse must come. she has never sunk for a moment beneath it. for myself, i feel as though it were her strength that enables me to bear my share of it." and then she described to the squire all that had taken place that morning. "poor child!" said the squire. "poor child! what can we do for her? would it be good for her to go away for a time? she is a sweet, good, lovely girl, and has deserved better than that. sorrow and disappointment come to us all; but they are doubly heavy when they come so early." mrs. dale was almost surprised at the amount of sympathy which he showed. "and what is to be his punishment?" she asked. "the scorn which men and women will feel for him; those, at least, whose esteem or scorn are matters of concern to any one. i know no other punishment. you would not have lily's name brought before a tribunal of law?" "certainly not that." "and i will not have bernard calling him out. indeed, it would be for nothing; for in these days a man is not expected to fight duels." "you cannot think that i would wish that." "what punishment is there, then? i know of none. there are evils which a man may do, and no one can punish him. i know of nothing. i went up to london after him, but he contrived to crawl out of my way. what can you do to a rat but keep clear of him?" mrs. dale had felt in her heart that it would be well if crosbie could be beaten till all his bones were sore. i hardly know whether such should have been a woman's thought, but it was hers. she had no wish that he should be made to fight a duel. in that there would have been much that was wicked, and in her estimation nothing that was just. but she felt that if bernard would thrash the coward for his cowardice she would love her nephew better than ever she had loved him. bernard also had considered it probable that he might be expected to horsewhip the man who had jilted his cousin, and, as regarded the absolute bodily risk, he would not have felt any insuperable objection to undertake the task. but such a piece of work was disagreeable to him in many ways. he hated the idea of a row at his club. he was most desirous that his cousin's name should not be made public. he wished to avoid anything that might be impolitic. a wicked thing had been done, and he was quite ready to hate crosbie as crosbie ought to be hated; but as regarded himself, it made him unhappy to think that the world might probably expect him to punish the man who had so lately been his friend. and then he did not know where to catch him, or how to thrash him when caught. he was very sorry for his cousin, and felt strongly that crosbie should not be allowed to escape. but what was he to do? "would she like to go anywhere?" said the squire again, anxious, if he could, to afford solace by some act of generosity. at this moment he would have settled a hundred a year for life upon his niece if by so doing he could have done her any good. "she will be better at home," said mrs. dale. "poor thing. for a while she will wish to avoid going out." "i suppose so;" and then there was a pause. "i'll tell you what, mary; i don't understand it. on my honour i don't understand it. it is to me as wonderful as though i had caught the man picking my pence out of my pocket. i don't think any man in the position of a gentleman would have done such a thing when i was young. i don't think any man would have dared to do it. but now it seems that a man may act in that way and no harm come to him. he had a friend in london who came to me and talked about it as though it were some ordinary, everyday transaction of life. yes; you may come in, bernard. the poor child knows it all now." bernard offered to his aunt what of solace and sympathy he had to offer, and made some sort of half-expressed apology for having introduced this wolf into their flock. "we always thought very much of him at his club," said bernard. "i don't know much about your london clubs now-a-days," said his uncle, "nor do i wish to do so if the society of that man can be endured after what he has now done." "i don't suppose half-a-dozen men will ever know anything about it," said bernard. "umph!" ejaculated the squire. he could not say that he wished crosbie's villany to be widely discussed, seeing that lily's name was so closely connected with it. but yet he could not support the idea that crosbie should not be punished by the frown of the world at large. it seemed to him that from this time forward any man speaking to crosbie should be held to have disgraced himself by so doing. "give her my best love," he said, as mrs. dale got up to take her leave; "my very best love. if her old uncle can do anything for her she has only to let me know. she met the man in my house, and i feel that i owe her much. bid her come and see me. it will be better for her than moping at home. and mary"--this he said to her, whispering into her ear--"think of what i said to you about bell." mrs. dale, as she walked back to her own house, acknowledged to herself that her brother-in-law's manner was different to her from anything that she had hitherto known of him. during the whole of that day crosbie's name was not mentioned at the small house. neither of the girls stirred out, and bell spent the greater part of the afternoon sitting, with her arm round her sister's waist, upon the sofa. each of them had a book; but though there was little spoken, there was as little read. who can describe the thoughts that were passing through lily's mind as she remembered the hours which she had passed with crosbie, of his warm assurances of love, of his accepted caresses, of her uncontrolled and acknowledged joy in his affection? it had all been holy to her then; and now those things which were then sacred had been made almost disgraceful by his fault. and yet as she thought of this she declared to herself over and over again that she would forgive him;--nay, that she had forgiven him. "and he shall know it, too," she said, speaking almost out loud. "lily, dear lily," said bell, "turn your thoughts away from it for a while, if you can." "they won't go away," said lily. and that was all that was said between them on the subject. everybody would know it! i doubt whether that must not be one of the bitterest drops in the cup which a girl in such circumstances is made to drain. lily perceived early in the day that the parlour-maid well knew that she had been jilted. the girl's manner was intended to convey sympathy; but it did convey pity; and lily for a moment felt angry. but she remembered that it must be so, and smiled upon the girl, and spoke kindly to her. what mattered it? all the world would know it in a day or two. on the following day she went up, by her mother's advice, to see her uncle. "my child," said he, "i am sorry for you. my heart bleeds for you." "uncle," she said, "do not mind it. only do this for me,--do not talk about it,--i mean to me." "no, no; i will not. that there should ever have been in my house so great a rascal--" "uncle! uncle! i will not have that! i will not listen to a word against him from any human being,--not a word! remember that!" and her eyes flashed as she spoke. he did not answer her, but took her hand and pressed it, and then she left him. "the dales were ever constant!" he said to himself, as he walked up and down the terrace before his house. "ever constant!" chapter xxxi. the wounded fawn. [illustration: (untitled)] nearly two months passed away, and it was now christmas time at allington. it may be presumed that there was no intention at either house that the mirth should be very loud. such a wound as that received by lily dale was one from which recovery could not be quick, and it was felt by all the family that a weight was upon them which made gaiety impracticable. as for lily herself it may be said that she bore her misfortune with all a woman's courage. for the first week she stood up as a tree that stands against the wind, which is soon to be shivered to pieces because it will not bend. during that week her mother and sister were frightened by her calmness and endurance. she would perform her daily task. she would go out through the village, and appear at her place in church on the first sunday. she would sit over her book of an evening, keeping back her tears; and would chide her mother and sister when she found that they were regarding her with earnest anxiety. "mamma, let it all be as though it had never been," she said. "ah, dear! if that were but possible!" "god forbid that it should be possible inwardly," lily replied, "but it is possible outwardly. i feel that you are more tender to me than you used to be, and that upsets me. if you would only scold me because i am idle, i should soon be better." but her mother could not speak to her as she perhaps might have spoken had no grief fallen upon her pet. she could not cease from those anxious tender glances which made lily know that she was looked on as a fawn wounded almost to death. at the end of the first week she gave way. "i won't get up, bell," she said one morning, almost petulantly. "i am ill;--i had better lie here out of the way. don't make a fuss about it. i'm stupid and foolish, and that makes me ill." thereupon mrs. dale and bell were frightened, and looked into each other's blank faces, remembering stories of poor broken-hearted girls who had died because their loves had been unfortunate,--as small wax tapers whose lights are quenched if a breath of wind blows upon them too strongly. but then lily was in truth no such slight taper as that. nor was she the stem that must be broken because it will not bend. she bent herself to the blast during that week of illness, and then arose with her form still straight and graceful, and with her bright light unquenched. after that she would talk more openly to her mother about her loss,--openly and with a true appreciation of the misfortune which had befallen her; but with an assurance of strength which seemed to ridicule the idea of a broken heart. "i know that i can bear it," she said, "and that i can bear it without lasting unhappiness. of course i shall always love him, and must feel almost as you felt when you lost my father." in answer to this mrs. dale could say nothing. she could not speak out her thoughts about crosbie, and explain to lily that he was unworthy of her love. love does not follow worth, and is not given to excellence;--nor is it destroyed by ill-usage, nor killed by blows and mutilation. when lily declared that she still loved the man who had so ill-used her, mrs. dale would be silent. each perfectly understood the other, but on that matter even they could not interchange their thoughts with freedom. "you must promise never to be tired of me, mamma," said lily. "mothers do not often get tired of their children, whatever the children may do of their mothers." "i'm not so sure of that when the children turn out old maids. and i mean to have a will of my own, too, mamma; and a way also, if it be possible. when bell is married i shall consider it a partnership, and i shan't do what i'm told any longer." "forewarned will be forearmed." "exactly;--and i don't want to take you by surprise. for a year or two longer, till bell is gone, i mean to be dutiful; but it would be very stupid for a girl to be dutiful all her life." all of which mrs. dale understood thoroughly. it amounted to an assertion on lily's part that she had loved once and could never love again; that she had played her game, hoping, as other girls hope, that she might win the prize of a husband; but that, having lost, she could never play the game again. it was that inward conviction on lily's part which made her say such words to her mother. but mrs. dale would by no means allow herself to share this conviction. she declared to herself that time would cure lily's wound, and that her child might yet be crowned by the bliss of a happy marriage. she would not in her heart consent to that plan in accordance with which lily's destiny in life was to be regarded as already fixed. she had never really liked crosbie as a suitor, and would herself have preferred john eames, with all the faults of his hobbledehoyhood on his head. it might yet come to pass that john eames' love might be made happy. but in the meantime lily, as i have said, had become strong in her courage, and recommenced the work of living with no lackadaisical self-assurance that because she had been made more unhappy than others, therefore she should allow herself to be more idle. morning and night she prayed for him, and daily, almost hour by hour, she assured herself that it was still her duty to love him. it was hard, this duty of loving, without any power of expressing such love. but still she would do her duty. "tell me at once, mamma," she said one morning, "when you hear that the day is fixed for his marriage. pray don't keep me in the dark." "it is to be in february," said mrs. dale. "but let me know the day. it must not be to me like ordinary days. but do not look unhappy, mamma; i am not going to make a fool of myself. i shan't steal off and appear in the church like a ghost." and then, having uttered her little joke, a sob came, and she hid her face on her mother's bosom. in a moment she raised it again. "believe me, mamma, that i am not unhappy," she said. after the expiration of that second week mrs. dale did write a letter to crosbie: i suppose [she said] it is right that i should acknowledge the receipt of your letter. i do not know that i have aught else to say to you. it would not become me as a woman to say what i think of your conduct, but i believe that your conscience will tell you the same things. if it do not, you must, indeed, be hardened. i have promised my child that i will send to you a message from her. she bids me tell you that she has forgiven you, and that she does not hate you. may god also forgive you, and may you recover his love. mary dale. i beg that no rejoinder may be made to this letter, either to myself or to any of my family. the squire wrote no answer to the letter which he had received, nor did he take any steps towards the immediate punishment of crosbie. indeed he had declared that no such steps could be taken, explaining to his nephew that such a man could be served only as one serves a rat. "i shall never see him," he said once again; "if i did, i should not scruple to hit him on the head with my stick; but i should think ill of myself to go after him with such an object." and yet it was a terrible sorrow to the old man that the scoundrel who had so injured him and his should escape scot-free. he had not forgiven crosbie. no idea of forgiveness had ever crossed his mind. he would have hated himself had he thought it possible that he could be induced to forgive such an injury. "there is an amount of rascality in it,--of low meanness, which i do not understand," he would say over and over again to his nephew. and then as he would walk alone on the terrace he would speculate within his own mind whether bernard would take any steps towards avenging his cousin's injury. "he is right," he would say to himself; "bernard is quite right. but when i was young i could not have stood it. in those days a gentleman might have a fellow out who had treated him as he has treated us. a man was satisfied in feeling that he had done something. i suppose the world is different now-a-days." the world is different; but the squire by no means acknowledged in his heart that there had been any improvement. bernard also was greatly troubled in his mind. he would have had no objection to fight a duel with crosbie, had duels in these days been possible. but he believed them to be no longer possible,--at any rate without ridicule. and if he could not fight the man, in what other way was he to punish him? was it not the fact that for such a fault the world afforded no punishment? was it not in the power of a man like crosbie to amuse himself for a week or two at the expense of a girl's happiness for life, and then to escape absolutely without any ill effects to himself? "i shall be barred out of my club lest i should meet him," bernard said to himself, "but he will not be barred out." moreover, there was a feeling within him that the matter would be one of triumph to crosbie rather than otherwise. in having secured for himself the pleasure of his courtship with such a girl as lily dale, without encountering the penalty usually consequent upon such amusement, he would be held by many as having merited much admiration. he had sinned against all the dales, and yet the suffering arising from his sin was to fall upon the dales exclusively. such was bernard's reasoning, as he speculated on the whole affair, sadly enough,--wishing to be avenged, but not knowing where to look for vengeance. for myself i believe him to have been altogether wrong as to the light in which he supposed that crosbie's falsehood would be regarded by crosbie's friends. men will still talk of such things lightly, professing that all is fair in love as it is in war, and speaking almost with envy of the good fortunes of a practised deceiver. but i have never come across the man who thought in this way with reference to an individual case. crosbie's own judgment as to the consequences to himself of what he had done was more correct than that formed by bernard dale. he had regarded the act as venial as long as it was still to do,--while it was still within his power to leave it undone; but from the moment of its accomplishment it had forced itself upon his own view in its proper light. he knew that he had been a scoundrel, and he knew that other men would so think of him. his friend fowler pratt, who had the reputation of looking at women simply as toys, had so regarded him. instead of boasting of what he had done, he was as afraid of alluding to any matter connected with his marriage as a man is of talking of the articles which he has stolen. he had already felt that men at his club looked askance at him; and, though he was no coward as regarded his own skin and bones, he had an undefined fear lest some day he might encounter bernard dale purposely armed with a stick. the squire and his nephew were wrong in supposing that crosbie was unpunished. and as the winter came on he felt that he was closely watched by the noble family of de courcy. some of that noble family he had already learned to hate cordially. the honourable john came up to town in november, and persecuted him vilely;--insisted on having dinners given to him at sebright's, of smoking throughout the whole afternoon in his future brother-in-law's rooms, and on borrowing his future brother-in-law's possessions; till at last crosbie determined that it would be wise to quarrel with the honourable john,--and he quarrelled with him accordingly, turning him out of his rooms, and telling him in so many words that he would have no more to do with him. "you'll have to do it, as i did," mortimer gazebee had said to him; "i didn't like it because of the family, but lady amelia told me that it must be so." whereupon crosbie took the advice of mortimer gazebee. but the hospitality of the gazebees was perhaps more distressing to him than even the importunities of the honourable john. it seemed as though his future sister-in-law was determined not to leave him alone. mortimer was sent to fetch him up for the sunday afternoons, and he found that he was constrained to go to the villa in st. john's wood, even in opposition to his own most strenuous will. he could not quite analyze the circumstances of his own position, but he felt as though he were a cock with his spurs cut off,--as a dog with his teeth drawn. he found himself becoming humble and meek. he had to acknowledge to himself that he was afraid of lady amelia, and almost even afraid of mortimer gazebee. he was aware that they watched him, and knew all his goings out and comings in. they called him adolphus, and made him tame. that coming evil day in february was dinned into his ears. lady amelia would go and look at furniture for him, and talked by the hour about bedding and sheets. "you had better get your kitchen things at tomkins'. they're all good, and he'll give you ten per cent. off if you pay him ready money,--which of course you will, you know!" was it for this that he had sacrificed lily dale?--for this that he had allied himself with the noble house of de courcy? mortimer had been at him about the settlements from the very first moment of his return to london, and had already bound him up hand and foot. his life was insured, and the policy was in mortimer's hands. his own little bit of money had been already handed over to be tied up with lady alexandrina's little bit. it seemed to him that in all the arrangements made the intention was that he should die off speedily, and that lady alexandrina should be provided with a decent little income, sufficient for st. john's wood. things were to be so settled that he could not even spend the proceeds of his own money, or of hers. they were to go, under the fostering hand of mortimer gazebee, in paying insurances. if he would only die the day after his marriage, there would really be a very nice sum of money for alexandrina, almost worthy of the acceptance of an earl's daughter. six months ago he would have considered himself able to turn mortimer gazebee round his finger on any subject that could be introduced between them. when they chanced to meet gazebee had been quite humble to him, treating him almost as a superior being. he had looked down on gazebee from a very great height. but now it seemed as though he were powerless in this man's hands. but perhaps the countess had become his greatest aversion. she was perpetually writing to him little notes in which she gave him multitudes of commissions, sending him about as though he had been her servant. and she pestered him with advice which was even worse than her commissions, telling him of the style of life in which alexandrina would expect to live, and warning him very frequently that such an one as he could not expect to be admitted within the bosom of so noble a family without paying very dearly for that inestimable privilege. her letters had become odious to him, and he would chuck them on one side, leaving them for the whole day unopened. he had already made up his mind that he would quarrel with the countess also, very shortly after his marriage; indeed, that he would separate himself from the whole family if it were possible. and yet he had entered into this engagement mainly with the view of reaping those advantages which would accrue to him from being allied to the de courcys! the squire and his nephew were wretched in thinking that this man was escaping without punishment, but they might have spared themselves that misery. it had been understood from the first that he was to spend his christmas at courcy castle. from this undertaking it was quite out of his power to enfranchise himself: but he resolved that his visit should be as short as possible. christmas day unfortunately came on a monday, and it was known to the de courcy world that saturday was almost a _dies non_ at the general committee office. as to those three days there was no escape for him; but he made alexandrina understand that the three commissioners were men of iron as to any extension of those three days. "i must be absent again in february, of course," he said, almost making his wail audible in the words he used, "and therefore it is quite impossible that i should stay now beyond the monday." had there been attractions for him at courcy castle i think he might have arranged with mr. optimist for a week or ten days. "we shall be all alone," the countess wrote to him, "and i hope you will have an opportunity of learning more of our ways than you have ever really been able to do as yet." this was bitter as gall to him. but in this world all valuable commodities have their price; and when men such as crosbie aspire to obtain for themselves an alliance with noble families, they must pay the market price for the article which they purchase. "you'll all come up and dine with us on monday," the squire said to mrs. dale, about the middle of the previous week. "well, i think not," said mrs. dale; "we are better, perhaps, as we are." at this moment the squire and his sister-in-law were on much more friendly terms than had been usual with them, and he took her reply in good part, understanding her feeling. therefore, he pressed his request, and succeeded. "i think you're wrong," he said; "i don't suppose that we shall have a very merry christmas. you and the girls will hardly have that whether you eat your pudding here or at the great house. but it will be better for us all to make the attempt. it's the right thing to do. that's the way i look at it." "i'll ask lily," said mrs. dale. "do, do. give her my love, and tell her from me that, in spite of all that has come and gone, christmas day should still be to her a day of rejoicing. we'll dine about three, so that the servants can have the afternoon." "of course we'll go," said lily; "why not? we always do. and we'll have blind-man's-buff with all the boyces, as we had last year, if uncle will ask them up." but the boyces were not asked up for that occasion. but lily, though she put on it all so brave a face, had much to suffer, and did in truth suffer greatly. if you, my reader, ever chanced to slip into the gutter on a wet day, did you not find that the sympathy of the bystanders was by far the severest part of your misfortune? did you not declare to yourself that all might yet be well, if the people would only walk on and not look at you? and yet you cannot blame those who stood and pitied you; or, perhaps, essayed to rub you down, and assist you in the recovery of your bedaubed hat. you, yourself, if you see a man fall, cannot walk by as though nothing uncommon had happened to him. it was so with lily. the people of allington could not regard her with their ordinary eyes. they would look at her tenderly, knowing that she was a wounded fawn, and thus they aggravated the soreness of her wound. old mrs. hearn condoled with her, telling her that very likely she would be better off as she was. lily would not lie about it in any way. "mrs. hearn," she said, "the subject is painful to me." mrs. hearn said no more about it, but on every meeting between them she looked the things she did not say. "miss lily!" said hopkins, one day, "miss lily!"--and as he looked up into her face a tear had almost formed itself in his old eye--"i knew what he was from the first. oh, dear! oh, dear! if i could have had him killed!" "hopkins, how dare you?" said lily. "if you speak to me again in such a way, i will tell my uncle." she turned away from him; but immediately turned back again, and put out her little hand to him. "i beg your pardon," she said. "i know how kind you are, and i love you for it." and then she went away. "i'll go after him yet, and break the dirty neck of him," said hopkins to himself, as he walked down the path. shortly before christmas day she called with her sister at the vicarage. bell, in the course of the visit, left the room with one of the boyce girls, to look at the last chrysanthemums of the year. then mrs. boyce took advantage of the occasion to make her little speech. "my dear lily," she said, "you will think me cold if i do not say one word to you." "no, i shall not," said lily, almost sharply, shrinking from the finger that threatened to touch her sore. "there are things which should never be talked about." "well, well; perhaps so," said mrs. boyce. but for a minute or two she was unable to fall back upon any other topic, and sat looking at lily with painful tenderness. i need hardly say what were lily's sufferings under such a gaze; but she bore it, acknowledging to herself in her misery that the fault did not lie with mrs. boyce. how could mrs. boyce have looked at her otherwise than tenderly? it was settled, then, that lily was to dine up at the great house on christmas day, and thus show to the allington world that she was not to be regarded as a person shut out from the world by the depth of her misfortune. that she was right there can, i think, be no doubt; but as she walked across the little bridge, with her mother and sister, after returning from church, she would have given much to be able to have turned round, and have gone to bed instead of to her uncle's dinner. chapter xxxii. pawkins's in jermyn street. the show of fat beasts in london took place this year on the twentieth day of december, and i have always understood that a certain bullock exhibited by lord de guest was declared by the metropolitan butchers to have realized all the possible excellences of breeding, feeding, and condition. no doubt the butchers of the next half-century will have learned much better, and the guestwick beast, could it be embalmed and then produced, would excite only ridicule at the agricultural ignorance of the present age; but lord de guest took the praise that was offered to him, and found himself in a seventh heaven of delight. he was never so happy as when surrounded by butchers, graziers, and salesmen who were able to appreciate the work of his life, and who regarded him as a model nobleman. "look at that fellow," he said to eames, pointing to the prize bullock. eames had joined his patron at the show after his office hours, looking on upon the living beef by gaslight. "isn't he like his sire? he was got by lambkin, you know." "lambkin," said johnny, who had not as yet been able to learn much about the guestwick stock. "yes, lambkin. the bull that we had the trouble with. he has just got his sire's back and fore-quarters. don't you see?" "i daresay," said johnny, who looked very hard, but could not see. "it's very odd," exclaimed the earl, "but do you know, that bull has been as quiet since that day,--as quiet as--as anything. i think it must have been my pocket-handkerchief." "i daresay it was," said johnny;--"or perhaps the flies." "flies!" said the earl, angrily. "do you suppose he isn't used to flies? come away. i ordered dinner at seven, and it's past six now. my brother-in-law, colonel dale, is up in town, and he dines with us." so he took johnny's arm, and led him off through the show, calling his attention as he went to several beasts which were inferior to his own. and then they walked down through portman square and grosvenor square, and across piccadilly to jermyn street. john eames acknowledged to himself that it was odd that he should have an earl leaning on his arm as he passed along through the streets. at home, in his own life, his daily companions were cradell and amelia roper, mrs. lupex and mrs. roper. the difference was very great, and yet he found it quite as easy to talk to the earl as to mrs. lupex. "you know the dales down at allington, of course," said the earl. "oh, yes, i know them." "but, perhaps, you never met the colonel." "i don't think i ever did." "he's a queer sort of fellow;--very well in his way, but he never does anything. he and my sister live at torquay, and as far as i can find out, they neither of them have any occupation of any sort. he's come up to town now because we both had to meet our family lawyers and sign some papers, but he looks on the journey as a great hardship. as for me, i'm a year older than he is, but i wouldn't mind going up and down from guestwick every day." "it's looking after the bull that does it," said eames. "by george! you're right, master johnny. my sister and crofts may tell me what they like, but when a man's out in the open air for eight or nine hours every day, it doesn't much matter where he goes to sleep after that. this is pawkins's,--capital good house, but not so good as it used to be while old pawkins was alive. show mr. eames up into a bedroom to wash his hands." colonel dale was much like his brother in face, but was taller, even thinner, and apparently older. when eames went into the sitting-room, the colonel was there alone, and had to take upon himself the trouble of introducing himself. he did not get up from his arm-chair, but nodded gently at the young man. "mr. eames, i believe? i knew your father at guestwick, a great many years ago;" then he turned his face back towards the fire and sighed. "it's got very cold this afternoon," said johnny, trying to make conversation. "it's always cold in london," said the colonel. "if you had to be here in august you wouldn't say so." "god forbid," said the colonel, and he sighed again, with his eyes fixed upon the fire. eames had heard of the very gallant way in which orlando dale had persisted in running away with lord de guest's sister, in opposition to very terrible obstacles, and as he now looked at the intrepid lover, he thought that there must have been a great change since those days. after that nothing more was said till the earl came down. pawkins's house was thoroughly old-fashioned in all things, and the pawkins of that day himself stood behind the earl's elbow when the dinner began, and himself removed the cover from the soup tureen. lord de guest did not require much personal attention, but he would have felt annoyed if this hadn't been done. as it was he had a civil word to say to pawkins about the fat cattle, thereby showing that he did not mistake pawkins for one of the waiters. pawkins then took his lordship's orders about the wine and retired. "he keeps up the old house pretty well," said the earl to his brother-in-law. "it isn't like what it was thirty years ago, but then everything of that sort has got worse and worse." "i suppose it has," said the colonel. "i remember when old pawkins had as good a glass of port as i've got at home,--or nearly. they can't get it now, you know." "i never drink port," said the colonel. "i seldom take anything after dinner, except a little negus." his brother-in-law said nothing, but made a most eloquent grimace as he turned his face towards his soup-plate. eames saw it, and could hardly refrain from laughing. when, at half-past nine o'clock, the colonel retired from the room, the earl, as the door was closed, threw up his hands, and uttered the one word "negus!" then eames took heart of grace and had his laughter out. the dinner was very dull, and before the colonel went to bed johnny regretted that he had been induced to dine at pawkins's. it might be a very fine thing to be asked to dinner with an earl, and john eames had perhaps received at his office some little accession of dignity from the circumstance, of which he had been not unpleasantly aware; but, as he sat at the table, on which there were four or five apples and a plate of dried nuts, looking at the earl, as he endeavoured to keep his eyes open, and at the colonel, to whom it seemed absolutely a matter of indifference whether his companions were asleep or awake, he confessed to himself that the price he was paying was almost too dear. mrs. roper's tea-table was not pleasant to him, but even that would have been preferable to the black dinginess of pawkins's mahogany, with the company of two tired old men, with whom he seemed to have no mutual subject of conversation. once or twice he tried a word with the colonel, for the colonel sat with his eyes open looking at the fire. but he was answered with monosyllables, and it was evident to him that the colonel did not wish to talk. to sit still, with his hands closed over each other on his lap, was work enough for colonel dale during his after-dinner hours. but the earl knew what was going on. during that terrible conflict between him and his slumber, in which the drowsy god fairly vanquished him for some twenty minutes, his conscience was always accusing him of treating his guests badly. he was very angry with himself, and tried to arouse himself and talk. but his brother-in-law would not help him in his efforts; and even eames was not bright in rendering him assistance. then for twenty minutes he slept soundly, and at the end of that he woke himself with one of his own snorts. "by george!" he said, jumping up and standing on the rug, "we'll have some coffee;" and after that he did not sleep any more. "dale," said he, "won't you take some more wine?" [illustration: "won't you take some more wine?"] "nothing more," said the colonel, still looking at the fire, and shaking his head very slowly. "come, johnny, fill your glass." he had already got into the way of calling his young friend johnny, having found that mrs. eames generally spoke of her son by that name. "i have been filling my glass all the time," said eames, taking the decanter again in his hand as he spoke. "i'm glad you've found something to amuse you, for it has seemed to me that you and dale haven't had much to say to each other. i've been listening all the time." "you've been asleep," said the colonel. "then there's been some excuse for my holding my tongue," said the earl. "by-the-by, dale, what do you think of that fellow crosbie?" eames' ears were instantly on the alert, and the spirit of dullness vanished from him. "think of him?" said the colonel. "he ought to have every bone in his skin broken," said the earl. "so he ought," said eames, getting up from his chair in his eagerness, and speaking in a tone somewhat louder than was perhaps becoming in the presence of his seniors. "so he ought, my lord. he is the most abominable rascal that ever i met in my life. i wish i was lily dale's brother." then he sat down again, remembering that he was speaking in the presence of lily's uncle, and of the father of bernard dale, who might be supposed to occupy the place of lily's brother. the colonel turned his head round, and looked at the young man with surprise. "i beg your pardon, sir," said eames, "but i have known mrs. dale and your nieces all my life." "oh, have you?" said the colonel. "nevertheless it is, perhaps, as well not to make too free with a young lady's name. not that i blame you in the least, mr. eames." "i should think not," said the earl. "i honour him for his feeling. johnny, my boy, if ever i am unfortunate enough to meet that man, i shall tell him my mind, and i believe you will do the same." on hearing this john eames winked at the earl, and made a motion with his head towards the colonel, whose back was turned to him. and then the earl winked back at eames. "de guest," said the colonel, "i think i'll go upstairs; i always have a little arrowroot in my own room." "i'll ring the bell for a candle," said the host. then the colonel went, and as the door was closed behind him, the earl raised his two hands and uttered that single word, "negus!" whereupon johnny burst out laughing, and coming round to the fire, sat himself down in the arm-chair which the colonel had left. "i've no doubt it's all right," said the earl; "but i shouldn't like to drink negus myself, nor yet to have arrowroot up in my bedroom." "i don't suppose there's any harm in it." "oh dear, no; i wonder what pawkins says about him. but i suppose they have them of all sorts in an hotel." "the waiter didn't seem to think much of it when he brought it." "no, no. if he'd asked for senna and salts, the waiter wouldn't have showed any surprise. by-the-by, you touched him up about that poor girl." "did i, my lord? i didn't mean it." "you see he's bernard dale's father, and the question is, whether bernard shouldn't punish the fellow for what he has done. somebody ought to do it. it isn't right that he should escape. somebody ought to let mr. crosbie know what a scoundrel he has made himself." "i'd do it to-morrow, only i'm afraid--" "no, no, no," said the earl; "you are not the right person at all. what have you got to do with it? you've merely known them as family friends, but that's not enough." "no, i suppose not," said eames, sadly. "perhaps it's best as it is," said the earl. "i don't know that any good would be got by knocking him over the head. and if we are to be christians, i suppose we ought to be christians." "what sort of a christian has he been?" "that's true enough; and if i was bernard, i should be very apt to forget my bible lessons about meekness." "do you know, my lord, i should think it the most christian thing in the world to pitch into him; i should, indeed. there are some things for which a man ought to be beaten black and blue." "so that he shouldn't do them again?" "exactly. you might say it isn't christian to hang a man." "i'd always hang a murderer. it wasn't right to hang men for stealing sheep." "much better hang such a fellow as crosbie," said eames. "well, i believe so. if any fellow wanted now to curry favour with the young lady, what an opportunity he'd have." johnny remained silent for a moment or two before he answered. "i'm not so sure of that," he said, mournfully, as though grieving at the thought that there was no chance of currying favour with lily by thrashing her late lover. "i don't pretend to know much about girls," said lord de guest; "but i should think it would be so. i should fancy that nothing would please her so much as hearing that he had caught it, and that all the world knew that he'd caught it." the earl had declared that he didn't know much about girls, and in so saying, he was no doubt right. "if i thought so," said eames, "i'd find him out to-morrow." "why so? what difference does it make to you?" then there was another pause, during which johnny looked very sheepish. "you don't mean to say that you're in love with miss lily dale?" "i don't know much about being in love with her," said johnny, turning very red as he spoke. and then he made up his mind, in a wild sort of way, to tell all the truth to his friend. pawkins's port wine may, perhaps, have had something to do with the resolution. "but i'd go through fire and water for her, my lord. i knew her years before he had ever seen her, and have loved her a great deal better than he will ever love any one. when i heard that she had accepted him, i had half a mind to cut my own throat,--or else his." "highty tighty," said the earl. "it's very ridiculous, i know," said johnny, "and of course she would never have accepted me." "i don't see that at all." "i haven't a shilling in the world." "girls don't care much for that." "and then a clerk in the income-tax office! it's such a poor thing." "the other fellow was only a clerk in another office." the earl living down at guestwick did not understand that the income-tax office in the city, and the general committee office at whitehall, were as far apart as dives and lazarus, and separated by as impassable a gulf. "oh, yes," said johnny; "but his office is another kind of thing, and then he was a swell himself." "by george, i don't see it," said the earl. "i don't wonder a bit at her accepting a fellow like that. i hated him the first moment i saw him; but that's no reason she should hate him. he had that sort of manner, you know. he was a swell, and girls like that kind of thing. i never felt angry with her, but i could have eaten him." as he spoke he looked as though he would have made some such attempt had crosbie been present. "did you ever ask her to have you?" said the earl. "no; how could i ask her, when i hadn't bread to give her?" "and you never told her--that you were in love with her, i mean, and all that kind of thing." "she knows it now," said johnny; "i went to say good-by to her the other day,--when i thought she was going to be married. i could not help telling her then." "but it seems to me, my dear fellow, that you ought to be very much obliged to crosbie;--that is to say, if you've a mind to--" "i know what you mean, my lord. i am not a bit obliged to him. it's my belief that all this will about kill her. as to myself, if i thought she'd ever have me--" then he was again silent, and the earl could see that the tears were in his eyes. "i think i begin to understand it," said the earl, "and i'll give you a bit of advice. you come down and spend your christmas with me at guestwick." "oh, my lord!" "never mind my-lording me, but do as i tell you. lady julia sent you a message, though i forgot all about it till now. she wants to thank you herself for what you did in the field." "that's all nonsense, my lord." "very well; you can tell her so. you may take my word for this, too,--my sister hates crosbie quite as much as you do. i think she'd 'pitch into him,' as you call it, herself, if she knew how. you come down to guestwick for the christmas, and then go over to allington and tell them all plainly what you mean." "i couldn't say a word to her now." "say it to the squire, then. go to him, and tell him what you mean,--holding your head up like a man. don't talk to me about swells. the man who means honestly is the best swell i know. he's the only swell i recognize. go to old dale, and say you come from me,--from guestwick manor. tell him that if he'll put a little stick under the pot to make it boil, i'll put a bigger one. he'll understand what that means." "oh, no, my lord." "but i say, oh, yes;" and the earl, who was now standing on the rug before the fire, dug his hands deep down into his trousers' pockets. "i'm very fond of that girl, and would do much for her. you ask lady julia if i didn't say so to her before i ever knew of your casting a sheep's-eye that way. and i've a sneaking kindness for you too, master johnny. lord bless you, i knew your father as well as i ever knew any man; and to tell the truth, i believe i helped to ruin him. he held land of me, you know, and there can't be any doubt that he did ruin himself. he knew no more about a beast when he'd done, than--than--than that waiter. if he'd gone on to this day he wouldn't have been any wiser." johnny sat silent, with his eyes full of tears. what was he to say to his friend? "you come down with me," continued the earl, "and you'll find we'll make it all straight. i daresay you're right about not speaking to the girl just at present. but tell everything to the uncle, and then to the mother. and, above all things, never think that you're not good enough yourself. a man should never think that. my belief is that in life people will take you very much at your own reckoning. if you are made of dirt, like that fellow crosbie, you'll be found out at last, no doubt. but then i don't think you are made of dirt." "i hope not." "and so do i. you can come down, i suppose, with me the day after to-morrow?" "i'm afraid not. i have had all my leave." "shall i write to old buffle, and ask it as a favour?" "no," said johnny; "i shouldn't like that. but i'll see to-morrow, and then i'll let you know. i can go down by the mail train on saturday, at any rate." "that won't be comfortable. see and come with me if you can. now, good-night, my dear fellow, and remember this,--when i say a thing i mean it. i think i may boast that i never yet went back from my word." the earl as he spoke gave his left hand to his guest, and looking somewhat grandly up over the young man's head, he tapped his own breast thrice with his right hand. as he went through the little scene, john eames felt that he was every inch an earl. "i don't know what to say to you, my lord." "say nothing,--not a word more to me. but say to yourself that faint heart never won fair lady. good-night, my dear boy, good-night. i dine out to-morrow, but you can call and let me know at about six." eames then left the room without another word, and walked out into the cold air of jermyn street. the moon was clear and bright, and the pavement in the shining light seemed to be as clean as a lady's hand. all the world was altered to him since he had entered pawkins's hotel. was it then possible that lily dale might even yet become his wife? could it be true that he, even now, was in a position to go boldly to the squire of allington, and tell him what were his views with reference to lily? and how far would he be justified in taking the earl at his word? some incredible amount of wealth would be required before he could marry lily dale. two or three hundred pounds a year at the very least! the earl could not mean him to understand that any such sum as that would be made up with such an object! nevertheless he resolved as he walked home to burton crescent that he would go down to guestwick, and that he would obey the earl's behest. as regarded lily herself he felt that nothing could be said to her for many a long day as yet. "oh, john, how late you are!" said amelia, slipping out from the back parlour as he let himself in with his latch-key. "yes, i am;--very late," said john, taking his candle, and passing her by on the stairs without another word. chapter xxxiii. "the time will come." "did you hear that young eames is staying at guestwick manor?" as these were the first words which the squire spoke to mrs. dale as they walked together up to the great house, after church, on christmas day, it was clear enough that the tidings of johnny's visit, when told to him, had made some impression. "at guestwick manor!" said mrs. dale. "dear me! do you hear that, bell? there's promotion for master johnny!" "don't you remember, mamma," said bell, "that he helped his lordship in his trouble with the bull?" lily, who remembered accurately all the passages of her last interview with john eames, said nothing, but felt, in some sort, sore at the idea that he should be so near her at such a time. in some unconscious way she had liked him for coming to her and saying all that he did say. she valued him more highly after that scene than she did before. but now, she would feel herself injured and hurt if he ever made his way into her presence under circumstances as they existed. "i should not have thought that lord de guest was the man to show so much gratitude for so slight a favour," said the squire. "however, i'm going to dine there to-morrow." "to meet young eames?" said mrs. dale. "yes,--especially to meet young eames. at least, i've been very specially asked to come, and i've been told that he is to be there." "and is bernard going?" "indeed i'm not," said bernard. "i shall come over and dine with you." a half-formed idea flitted across lily's mind, teaching her to imagine for a moment that she might possibly be concerned in this arrangement. but the thought vanished as quickly as it came, merely leaving some soreness behind it. there are certain maladies which make the whole body sore. the patient, let him be touched on any point,--let him even be nearly touched,--will roar with agony as though his whole body had been bruised. so it is also with maladies of the mind. sorrows such as that of poor lily's leave the heart sore at every point, and compel the sufferer to be ever in fear of new wounds. lily bore her cross bravely and well; but not the less did it weigh heavily upon her at every turn because she had the strength to walk as though she did not bear it. nothing happened to her, or in her presence, that did not in some way connect itself with her misery. her uncle was going over to meet john eames at lord de guest's. of course the men there would talk about her, and all such talking was an injury to her. the afternoon of that day did not pass away brightly. as long as the servants were in the room the dinner went on much as other dinners. at such times a certain amount of hypocrisy must always be practised in closely domestic circles. at mixed dinner-parties people can talk before richard and william the same words that they would use if richard and william were not there. people so mixed do not talk together their inward home thoughts. but when close friends are together, a little conscious reticence is practised till the door is tiled. at such a meeting as this that conscious reticence was of service, and created an effect which was salutary. when the door was tiled, and when the servants were gone, how could they be merry together? by what mirth should the beards be made to wag on that christmas day? "my father has been up in town," said bernard. "he was with lord de guest at pawkins's." "why didn't you go and see him?" asked mrs. dale. "well, i don't know. he did not seem to wish it. i shall go down to torquay in february. i must be up in london, you know, in a fortnight, for good." then they were all silent again for a few minutes. if bernard could have owned the truth, he would have acknowledged that he had not gone up to london, because he did not yet know how to treat crosbie when he should meet him. his thoughts on this matter threw some sort of shadow across poor lily's mind, making her feel that her wound was again opened. "i want him to give up his profession altogether," said the squire, speaking firmly and slowly. "it would be better, i think, for both of us that he should do so." "would it be wise at his time of life," said mrs. dale, "and when he has been doing so well?" "i think it would be wise. if he were my son it would be thought better that he should live here upon the property, among the people who are to become his tenants, than remain up in london, or perhaps be sent to india. he has one profession as the heir of this place, and that, i think, should be enough." "i should have but an idle life of it down here," said bernard. "that would be your own fault. but if you did as i would have you, your life would not be idle." in this he was alluding to bernard's proposed marriage, but as to that nothing further could be said in bell's presence. bell understood it all, and sat quite silent, with demure countenance;--perhaps even with something of sternness in her face. "but the fact is," said mrs. dale, speaking in a low tone, and having well considered what she was about to say, "that bernard is not exactly the same as your son." "why not?" said the squire. "i have even offered to settle the property on him if he will leave the service." "you do not owe him so much as you would owe your son; and, therefore, he does not owe you as much as he would owe his father." "if you mean that i cannot constrain him, i know that well enough. as regards money, i have offered to do for him quite as much as any father would feel called upon to do for an only son." "i hope you don't think me ungrateful," said bernard. "no, i do not; but i think you unmindful. i have nothing more to say about it, however;--not about that. if you should marry--" and then he stopped himself, feeling that he could not go on in bell's presence. "if he should marry," said mrs. dale, "it may well be that his wife would like a house of her own." "wouldn't she have this house?" said the squire, angrily. "isn't it big enough? i only want one room for myself, and i'd give up that if it were necessary." "that's nonsense," said mrs. dale. "it isn't nonsense," said the squire. "you'll be squire of allington for the next twenty years," said mrs. dale. "and as long as you are the squire, you'll be master of this house; at least, i hope so. i don't approve of monarchs abdicating in favour of young people." "i don't think uncle christopher would look at all well like charles the fifth," said lily. "i would always keep a cell for you, my darling, if i did," said the squire, regarding her with that painful, special tenderness. lily, who was sitting next to mrs. dale, put her hand out secretly and got hold of her mother's, thereby indicating that she did not intend to occupy the cell offered to her by her uncle; or to look to him as the companion of her monastic seclusion. after that there was nothing more then said as to bernard's prospects. "mrs. hearn is dining at the vicarage, i suppose?" asked the squire. "yes; she went in after church," said bell. "i saw her go with mrs. boyce." "she told me she never would dine with them again after dark in winter," said mrs. dale. "the last time she was there, the boy let the lamp blow out as she was going home, and she lost her way. the truth was, she was angry because mr. boyce didn't go with her." "she's always angry," said the squire. "she hardly speaks to me now. when she paid her rent the other day to jolliffe, she said she hoped it would do me much good; as though she thought me a brute for taking it." "so she does," said bernard. "she's very old, you know," said bell. "i'd give her the house for nothing, if i were you, uncle," said lily. "no, my dear; if you were me you would not. i should be very wrong to do so. why should mrs. hearn have her house for nothing, any more than her meat or her clothes? it would be much more reasonable were i to give her so much money into her hand yearly; but it would be wrong in me to do so, seeing that she is not an object of charity;--and it would be wrong in her to take it." "and she wouldn't take it," said mrs. dale. "i don't think she would. but if she did, i'm sure she would grumble because it wasn't double the amount. and if mr. boyce had gone home with her, she would have grumbled because he walked too fast." "she is very old," said bell, again. "but, nevertheless, she ought to know better than to speak disparagingly of me to my servants. she should have more respect for herself." and the squire showed by the tone of his voice that he thought very much about it. it was very long and very dull that christmas evening, making bernard feel strongly that he would be very foolish to give up his profession, and tie himself down to a life at allington. women are more accustomed than men to long, dull, unemployed hours; and, therefore, mrs. dale and her daughters bore the tedium courageously. while he yawned, stretched himself, and went in and out of the room, they sat demurely, listening as the squire laid down the law on small matters, and contradicting him occasionally when the spirit of either of them prompted her specially to do so. "of course you know much better than i do," he would say. "not at all," mrs. dale would answer. "i don't pretend to know anything about it. but--" so the evening wore itself away; and when the squire was left alone at half-past nine, he did not feel that the day had passed badly with him. that was his style of life, and he expected no more from it than he got. he did not look to find things very pleasant, and, if not happy, he was, at any rate, contented. "only think of johnny eames being at guestwick manor!" said bell, as they were going home. "i don't see why he shouldn't be there," said lily. "i would rather it should be he than i, because lady julia is so grumpy." "but asking your uncle christopher especially to meet him!" said mrs. dale. "there must be some reason for it." then lily felt the soreness come upon her again, and spoke no further upon the subject. we all know that there was a special reason, and that lily's soreness was not false in its mysterious forebodings. eames, on the evening after his dinner at pawkins's, had seen the earl, and explained to him that he could not leave town till the saturday evening; but that he could remain over the tuesday. he must be at his office by twelve on wednesday, and could manage to do that by an early train from guestwick. "very well, johnny," said the earl, talking to his young friend with the bedroom candle in his hand, as he was going up to dress. "then i'll tell you what; i've been thinking of it. i'll ask dale to come over to dinner on tuesday; and if he'll come, i'll explain the whole matter to him myself. he's a man of business, and he'll understand. if he won't come, why then you must go over to allington, and find him, if you can, on the tuesday morning; or i'll go to him myself, which will be better. you mustn't keep me now, as i am ever so much too late." eames did not attempt to keep him, but went away feeling that the whole matter was being arranged for him in a very wonderful way. and when he got to allington he found that the squire had accepted the earl's invitation. then he declared to himself that there was no longer any possibility of retractation for him. of course he did not wish to retract. the one great longing of his life was to call lily dale his own. but he felt afraid of the squire,--that the squire would despise him and snub him, and that the earl would perceive that he had made a mistake when he saw how his client was scorned and snubbed. it was arranged that the earl was to take the squire into his own room for a few minutes before dinner, and johnny felt that he would be hardly able to stand his ground in the drawing-room when the two old men should make their appearance together. he got on very well with lady julia, who gave herself no airs, and made herself very civil. her brother had told her the whole story, and she felt as anxious as he did to provide lily with another husband in place of that horrible man crosbie. "she has been very fortunate in her escape," she said to her brother; "very fortunate." the earl agreed with this, saying that in his opinion his own favourite johnny would make much the nicer lover of the two. but lady julia had her doubts as to lily's acquiescence. "but, theodore, he must not speak to miss lilian dale herself about it yet a while." "no," said the earl; "not for a month or so." "he will have a better chance if he can remain silent for six months," said lady julia. "bless my soul! somebody else will have picked her up before that," said the earl. in answer to this lady julia merely shook her head. johnny went over to his mother on christmas day after church, and was received by her and by his sister with great honour. and she gave him many injunctions as to his behaviour at the earl's table, even descending to small details about his boots and linen. but johnny had already begun to feel at the manor that, after all, people are not so very different in their ways of life as they are supposed to be. lady julia's manners were certainly not quite those of mrs. roper; but she made the tea very much in the way in which it was made at burton crescent, and eames found that he could eat his egg, at any rate on the second morning, without any tremor in his hand, in spite of the coronet on the silver egg-cup. he did feel himself to be rather out of his place in the manor pew on the sunday, conceiving that all the congregation was looking at him; but he got over this on christmas day, and sat quite comfortably in his soft corner during the sermon, almost going to sleep. and when he walked with the earl after church to the gate over which the noble peer had climbed in his agony, and inspected the hedge through which he had thrown himself, he was quite at home with his little jokes, bantering his august companion as to the mode of his somersault. but be it always remembered that there are two modes in which a young man may be free and easy with his elder and superior,--the mode pleasant and the mode offensive. had it been in johnny's nature to try the latter, the earl's back would soon have been up at once, and the play would have been over. but it was not in johnny's nature to do so, and therefore it was that the earl liked him. at last came the hour of dinner on tuesday, or at least the hour at which the squire had been asked to show himself at the manor house. eames, as by agreement with his patron, did not come down so as to show himself till after the interview. lady julia, who had been present at their discussions, had agreed to receive the squire; and then a servant was to ask him to step into the earl's own room. it was pretty to see the way in which the three conspired together, planning and plotting with an eagerness that was beautifully green and fresh. "he can be as cross as an old stick when he likes it," said the earl, speaking of the squire; "and we must take care not to rub him the wrong way." "i shan't know what to say to him when i come down," said johnny. "just shake hands with him and don't say anything," said lady julia. "i'll give him some port wine that ought to soften his heart," said the earl, "and then we'll see how he is in the evening." eames heard the wheels of the squire's little open carriage and trembled. the squire, unconscious of all schemes, soon found himself with lady julia, and within two minutes of his entrance was walked off to the earl's private room. "certainly," he said, "certainly;" and followed the man-servant. the earl, as he entered, was standing in the middle of the room, and his round rosy face was a picture of good-humour. "i'm very glad you've come, dale," said he. "i've something i want to say to you." mr. dale, who neither in heart nor in manner was so light a man as the earl, took the proffered hand of his host, and bowed his head slightly, signifying that he was willing to listen to anything. "i think i told you," continued the earl, "that young john eames is down here; but he goes back to-morrow, as they can't spare him at his office. he's a very good fellow,--as far as i am able to judge, an uncommonly good young man. i've taken a great fancy to him myself." in answer to this mr. dale did not say much. he sat down, and in some general terms expressed his good-will towards all the eames family. "as you know, dale, i'm a very bad hand at talking, and therefore i won't beat about the bush in what i've got to say at present. of course we've all heard of that scoundrel crosbie, and the way he has treated your niece lilian." "he is a scoundrel,--an unmixed scoundrel. but the less we say about that the better. it is ill mentioning a girl's name in such a matter as that." "but, my dear dale, i must mention it at the present moment. dear young child, i would do anything to comfort her! and i hope that something may be done to comfort her. do you know that that young man was in love with her long before crosbie ever saw her?" "what;--john eames!" "yes, john eames. and i wish heartily for his sake that he had won her regard before she had met that rascal whom you had to stay down at your house." "a man cannot help these things, de guest," said the squire. "no, no, no! there are such men about the world, and it is impossible to know them at a glance. he was my nephew's friend, and i am not going to say that my nephew was in fault. but i wish,--i only say that i wish,--she had first known what are this young man's feelings towards her." "but she might not have thought of him as you do." "he is an uncommonly good-looking young fellow; straight made, broad in the chest, with a good, honest eye, and a young man's proper courage. he has never been taught to give himself airs like a dancing monkey; but i think he's all the better for that." "but it's too late now, de guest." "no, no; that's just where it is. it mustn't be too late! that child is not to lose her whole life because a villain has played her false. of course she'll suffer. just at present it wouldn't do, i suppose, to talk to her about a new sweetheart. but, dale, the time will come; the time will come;--the time always does come." "it has never come to you and me," said the squire, with the slightest possible smile on his dry cheeks. the story of their lives had been so far the same; each had loved, and each had been disappointed, and then each had remained single through life. "yes, it has," said the earl, with no slight touch of feeling and even of romance in what he said. "we have retricked our beams in our own ways, and our lives have not been desolate. but for her,--you and her mother will look forward to see her married some day." "i have not thought about it." "but i want you to think about it. i want to interest you in this fellow's favour; and in doing so, i mean to be very open with you. i suppose you'll give her something?" "i don't know, i'm sure," said the squire, almost offended at an inquiry of such a nature. "well, then, whether you do or not, i'll give him something," said the earl. "i shouldn't have ventured to meddle in the matter had i not intended to put myself in such a position with reference to him as would justify me in asking the question." and the peer as he spoke drew himself up to his full height. "if such a match can be made, it shall not be a bad marriage for your niece in a pecuniary point of view. i shall have pleasure in giving to him; but i shall have more pleasure if she can share what i give." "she ought to be very much obliged to you," said the squire. "i think she would be if she knew young eames. i hope the day may come when she will be so. i hope that you and i may see them happy together, and that you too may thank me for having assisted in making them so. shall we go in to lady julia now?" the earl had felt that he had not quite succeeded; that his offer had been accepted somewhat coldly, and had not much hope that further good could be done on that day, even with the help of his best port wine. "half a moment," said the squire. "there are matters as to which i never find myself able to speak quickly, and this certainly seems to be one of them. if you will allow me i will think over what you have said, and then see you again." "certainly, certainly." "but for your own part in the matter, for your great generosity and kind heart, i beg to offer you my warmest thanks." then the squire bowed low, and preceded the earl out of the room. lord de guest still felt that he had not succeeded. we may probably say, looking at the squire's character and peculiarities, that no marked success was probable at the first opening-out of such a subject. he had said of himself that he was never able to speak quickly in matters of moment; but he would more correctly have described his own character had he declared that he could not think of them quickly. as it was, the earl was disappointed; but had he been able to read the squire's mind, his disappointment would have been less strong. mr. dale knew well enough that he was being treated well, and that the effort being made was intended with kindness to those belonging to him; but it was not in his nature to be demonstrative and quick at expressions of gratitude. so he entered the drawing-room with a cold, placid face, leading eames, and lady julia also, to suppose that no good had been done. "how do you do, sir?" said johnny, walking up to him in a wild sort of manner,--going through a premeditated lesson, but doing it without any presence of mind. "how do you do, eames?" said the squire, speaking with a very cold voice. and then there was nothing further said till the dinner was announced. "dale, i know you drink port," said the earl when lady julia left them. "if you say you don't like that, i shall say you know nothing about it." "ah! that's the ' ," said the squire, tasting it. "i should rather think it is," said the earl. "i was lucky enough to get it early, and it hasn't been moved for thirty years. i like to give it to a man who knows it, as you do, at the first glance. now there's my friend johnny there; it's thrown away upon him." "no, my lord, it is not. i think it's uncommonly nice." "uncommonly nice! so is champagne, or ginger-beer, or lollipops,--for those who like them. do you mean to tell me you can taste wine with half a pickled orange in your mouth?" "it'll come to him soon enough," said the squire. "twenty port won't come to him when he is as old as we are," said the earl, forgetting that by that time sixty port will be as wonderful to the then living seniors of the age as was his own pet vintage to him. the good wine did in some sort soften the squire; but, as a matter of course, nothing further was said as to the new matrimonial scheme. the earl did observe, however, that mr. dale was civil, and even kind, to his own young friend, asking a question here and there as to his life in london, and saying something about the work at the income-tax office. "it is hard work," said eames. "if you're under the line, they make a great row about it, send for you, and look at you as though you'd been robbing the bank; but they think nothing of keeping you till five." "but how long do you have for lunch and reading the papers?" said the earl. "not ten minutes. we take a paper among twenty of us for half the day. that's exactly nine minutes to each; and as for lunch, we only have a biscuit dipped in ink." "dipped in ink!" said the squire. "it comes to that, for you have to be writing while you munch it." "i hear all about you," said the earl; "sir raffle buffle is an old crony of mine." "i don't suppose he ever heard my name as yet," said johnny. "but do you really know him well, lord de guest?" "haven't seen him these thirty years; but i did know him." "we call him old huffle scuffle." "huffle scuffle! ha, ha, ha! he always was huffle scuffle; a noisy, pretentious, empty-headed fellow. but i oughtn't to say so before you, young man. come, we'll go into the drawing-room." "and what did he say?" asked lady julia, as soon as the squire was gone. there was no attempt at concealment, and the question was asked in johnny's presence. "well, he did not say much. and coming from him, that ought to be taken as a good sign. he is to think of it, and let me see him again. you hold your head up, johnny, and remember that you shan't want a friend on your side. faint heart never won fair lady." at seven o'clock on the following morning eames started on his return journey, and was at his desk at twelve o'clock,--as per agreement with his taskmaster at the income-tax office. chapter xxxiv. the combat. [illustration: (untitled)] i have said that john eames was at his office punctually at twelve; but an incident had happened before his arrival there very important in the annals which are now being told,--so important that it is essentially necessary that it should be described with some minuteness of detail. lord de guest, in the various conversations which he had had with eames as to lily dale and her present position, had always spoken of crosbie with the most vehement abhorrence. "he is a damned blackguard," said the earl, and the fire had come out of his round eyes as he spoke. now the earl was by no means given to cursing and swearing, in the sense which is ordinarily applied to these words. when he made use of such a phrase as that quoted above, it was to be presumed that he in some sort meant what he said; and so he did, and had intended to signify that crosbie by his conduct had merited all such condemnation as was the fitting punishment for blackguardism of the worst description. "he ought to have his neck broken," said johnny. "i don't know about that," said the earl. "the present times have become so pretty behaved that corporal punishment seems to have gone out of fashion. i shouldn't care so much about that, if any other punishment had taken its place. but it seems to me that a blackguard such as crosbie can escape now altogether unscathed." "he hasn't escaped yet," said johnny. "don't you go and put your finger in the pie and make a fool of yourself," said the earl. if it had behoved any one to resent in any violent fashion the evil done by crosbie, bernard dale, the earl's nephew, should have been the avenger. this the earl felt, but under these circumstances he was disposed to think that there should be no such violent vengeance. "things were different when i was young," he said to himself. but eames gathered from the earl's tone that the earl's words were not strictly in accordance with his thoughts, and he declared to himself over and over again that crosbie had not yet escaped. he got into the train at guestwick, taking a first-class ticket, because the earl's groom in livery was in attendance upon him. had he been alone he would have gone in a cheaper carriage. very weak in him, was it not? little also, and mean? my friend, can you say that you would not have done the same at his age? are you quite sure that you would not do the same now that you are double his age? be that as it may, johnny eames did that foolish thing, and gave the groom in livery half-a-crown into the bargain. "we shall have you down again soon, mr. john," said the groom, who seemed to understand that mr. eames was to be made quite at home at the manor. he went fast to sleep in the carriage, and did not awake till the train was stopped at the barchester junction. "waiting for the up-train from barchester, sir," said the guard. "they're always late." then he went to sleep again, and was aroused in a few minutes by some one entering the carriage in a great hurry. the branch train had come in, just as the guardians of the line then present had made up their minds that the passengers on the main line should not be kept waiting any longer. the transfer of men, women, and luggage was therefore made in great haste, and they who were now taking their new seats had hardly time to look about them. an old gentleman, very red about the gills, first came into johnny's carriage, which up to that moment he had shared with an old lady. the old gentleman was abusing everybody, because he was hurried, and would not take himself well into the compartment, but stuck in the doorway, standing on the step. "now, sir, when you're quite at leisure," said a voice behind the old man, which instantly made eames start up in his seat. "i'm not at all at leisure," said the old man; "and i'm not going to break my legs if i know it." "take your time, sir," said the guard. "so i mean," said the old man, seating himself in the corner nearest to the open door, opposite to the old lady. then eames saw plainly that it was crosbie who had first spoken, and that he was getting into the carriage. crosbie at the first glance saw no one but the old gentleman and the old lady, and he immediately made for the unoccupied corner seat. he was busy with his umbrella and his dressing-bag, and a little flustered by the pushing and hurrying. the carriage was actually in motion before he perceived that john eames was opposite to him: eames had, instinctively, drawn up his legs so as not to touch him. he felt that he had become very red in the face, and to tell the truth, the perspiration had broken out upon his brow. it was a great occasion,--great in its imminent trouble, and great in its opportunity for action. how was he to carry himself at the first moment of his recognition by his enemy, and what was he to do afterwards? it need hardly be explained that crosbie had also been spending his christmas with a certain earl of his acquaintance, and that he too was returning to his office. in one respect he had been much more fortunate than poor eames, for he had been made happy with the smiles of his lady love. alexandrina and the countess had fluttered about him softly, treating him as a tame chattel, now belonging to the noble house of de courcy, and in this way he had been initiated into the inner domesticities of that illustrious family. the two extra men-servants, hired to wait upon lady dumbello, had vanished. the champagne had ceased to flow in a perennial stream. lady rosina had come out from her solitude, and had preached at him constantly. lady margaretta had given him some lessons in economy. the honourable john, in spite of a late quarrel, had borrowed five pounds from him. the honourable george had engaged to come and stay with his sister during the next may. the earl had used a father-in-law's privilege, and had called him a fool. lady alexandrina had told him more than once, in rather a tart voice, that this must be done, and that that must be done; and the countess had given him her orders as though it was his duty, in the course of nature, to obey every word that fell from her. such had been his christmas delights; and now, as he returned back from the enjoyment of them, he found himself confronted in the railway carriage with johnny eames! the eyes of the two met, and crosbie made a slight inclination of his head. to this eames gave no acknowledgment whatever, but looked straight into the other's face. crosbie immediately saw that they were not to know each other, and was well contented that it should be so. among all his many troubles, the enmity of john eames did not go for much. he showed no appearance of being disconcerted, though our friend had shown much. he opened his bag, and taking out a book was soon deeply engaged in it, pursuing his studies as though the man opposite was quite unknown to him. i will not say that his mind did not run away from his book, for indeed there were many things of which he found it impossible not to think; but it did not revert to john eames. indeed, when the carriages reached paddington, he had in truth all but forgotten him; and as he stepped out of the carriage, with his bag in his hand, was quite free from any remotest trouble on his account. but it had not been so with eames himself. every moment of the journey had for him been crowded with thought as to what he would do now that chance had brought his enemy within his reach. he had been made quite wretched by the intensity of his thinking; and yet, when the carriages stopped, he had not made up his mind. his face had been covered with perspiration ever since crosbie had come across him, and his limbs had hardly been under his own command. here had come to him a great opportunity, and he felt so little confidence in himself that he almost knew that he would not use it properly. twice and thrice he had almost flown at crosbie's throat in the carriage, but he was restrained by an idea that the world and the police would be against him if he did such a thing in the presence of that old lady. but when crosbie turned his back upon him, and walked out, it was absolutely necessary that he should do something. he was not going to let the man escape, after all that he had said as to the expediency of thrashing him. any other disgrace would be preferable to that. fearing, therefore, lest his enemy should be too quick for him, he hurried out after him, and only just gave crosbie time to turn round and face the carriages before he was upon him. "you confounded scoundrel!" he screamed out. "you confounded scoundrel!" and seized him by the throat, throwing himself upon him, and almost devouring him by the fury of his eyes. the crowd upon the platform was not very dense, but there were quite enough of people to make a very respectable audience for this little play. crosbie, in his dismay, retreated a step or two, and his retreat was much accelerated by the weight of eames's attack. he endeavoured to free his throat from his foe's grasp; but in that he failed entirely. for the minute, however, he did manage to escape any positive blow, owing his safety in that respect rather to eames's awkwardness than to his own efforts. something about the police he was just able to utter, and there was, as a matter of course, an immediate call for a supply of those functionaries. in about three minutes three policemen, assisted by six porters, had captured our poor friend johnny; but this had not been done quick enough for crosbie's purposes. the bystanders, taken by surprise, had allowed the combatants to fall back upon mr. smith's book-stall, and there eames laid his foe prostrate among the newspapers, falling himself into the yellow shilling-novel depot by the over fury of his own energy; but as he fell, he contrived to lodge one blow with his fist in crosbie's right eye,--one telling blow; and crosbie had, to all intents and purposes, been thrashed. "con--founded scoundrel, rascal, blackguard!" shouted johnny, with what remnants of voice were left to him, as the police dragged him off. "if you only knew--what he's--done." but in the meantime the policemen held him fast. as a matter of course the first burst of public sympathy went with crosbie. he had been assaulted, and the assault had come from eames. in the british bosom there is so firm a love of well-constituted order, that these facts alone were sufficient to bring twenty knights to the assistance of the three policemen and the six porters; so that for eames, even had he desired it, there was no possible chance of escape. but he did not desire it. one only sorrow consumed him at present. he had, as he felt, attacked crosbie, but had attacked him in vain. he had had his opportunity, and had misused it. he was perfectly unconscious of that happy blow, and was in absolute ignorance of the great fact that his enemy's eye was already swollen and closed, and that in another hour it would be as black as his hat. "he is a con--founded rascal!" ejaculated eames, as the policemen and porters hauled him about. "you don't know what he's done." "no, we don't," said the senior constable; "but we know what you have done. i say, bushers, where's that gentleman? he'd better come along with us." crosbie had been picked up from among the newspapers by another policeman and two or three other porters, and was attended also by the guard of the train, who knew him, and knew that he had come up from courcy castle. three or four hangers-on were standing also around him, together with a benevolent medical man who was proposing to him an immediate application of leeches. if he could have done as he wished, he would have gone his way quietly, allowing eames to do the same. a great evil had befallen him, but he could in no way mitigate that evil by taking the law of the man who had attacked him. to have the thing as little talked about as possible should be his endeavour. what though he should have eames locked up and fined, and scolded by a police magistrate? that would not in any degree lessen his calamity. if he could have parried the attack, and got the better of his foe; if he could have administered the black eye instead of receiving it, then indeed he could have laughed the matter off at his club, and his original crime would have been somewhat glozed over by his success in arms. but such good fortune had not been his. he was forced, however, on the moment to decide as to what he would do. "we've got him here in custody, sir," said bushers, touching his hat. it had become known from the guard that crosbie was somewhat of a big man, a frequent guest at courcy castle, and of repute and station in the higher regions of the metropolitan world. "the magistrates will be sitting at paddington, now, sir--or will be by the time we get there." by this time some mighty railway authority had come upon the scene and made himself cognizant of the facts of the row,--a stern official who seemed to carry the weight of many engines on his brow; one at the very sight of whom smokers would drop their cigars, and porters close their fists against sixpences; a great man with an erect chin, a quick step, and a well-brushed hat powerful with an elaborately upturned brim. this was the platform-superintendent, dominant even over the policemen. "step into my room, mr. crosbie," he said. "stubbs, bring that man in with you." and then, before crosbie had been able to make up his mind as to any other line of conduct, he found himself in the superintendent's room, accompanied by the guard, and by the two policemen who conducted johnny eames between them. "what's all this?" said the superintendent, still keeping on his hat, for he was aware how much of the excellence of his personal dignity was owing to the arrangement of that article; and as he spoke he frowned upon the culprit with his utmost severity. "mr. crosbie, i am very sorry that you should have been exposed to such brutality on our platform." "you don't know what he has done," said johnny. "he is the most confounded scoundrel living. he has broken--" but then he stopped himself. he was going to tell the superintendent that the confounded scoundrel had broken a beautiful young lady's heart; but he bethought himself that he would not allude more specially to lily dale in that hearing. "do you know who he is, mr. crosbie?" said the superintendent. "oh, yes," said crosbie, whose eye was already becoming blue. "he is a clerk in the income-tax office, and his name is eames. i believe you had better leave him to me." but the superintendent at once wrote down the words "income-tax office--eames," on his tablet. "we can't allow a row like that to take place on our platform and not notice it. i shall bring it before the directors. it's a most disgraceful affair, mr. eames--most disgraceful." but johnny by this time had perceived that crosbie's eye was in a state which proved satisfactorily that his morning's work had not been thrown away, and his spirits were rising accordingly. he did not care two straws for the superintendent or even for the policemen, if only the story could be made to tell well for himself hereafter. it was his object to have thrashed crosbie, and now, as he looked at his enemy's face, he acknowledged that providence had been good to him. "that's your opinion," said johnny. "yes, sir, it is," said the superintendent; "and i shall know how to represent the matter to your superiors, young man." "you don't know all about it," said eames; "and i don't suppose you ever will. i had made up my mind what i'd do the first time i saw that scoundrel there; and now i've done it. he'd have got much worse in the railway carriage, only there was a lady there." "mr. crosbie, i really think we had better take him before the magistrates." to this, however, crosbie objected. he assured the superintendent that he would himself know how to deal with the matter--which, however, was exactly what he did not know. would the superintendent allow one of the railway servants to get a cab for him, and to find his luggage? he was very anxious to get home without being subjected to any more of mr. eames's insolence. "you haven't done with mr. eames's insolence yet, i can tell you. all london shall hear of it, and shall know why. if you have any shame in you, you shall be ashamed to show your face." unfortunate man! who can say that punishment--adequate punishment--had not overtaken him? for the present, he had to sneak home with a black eye, with the knowledge inside him that he had been whipped by a clerk in the income-tax office; and for the future--he was bound over to marry lady alexandrina de courcy! he got himself smuggled off in a cab, without being forced to go again upon the platform--his luggage being brought to him by two assiduous porters. but in all this there was very little balm for his hurt pride. as he ordered the cabman to drive to mount street, he felt that he had ruined himself by that step in life which he had taken at courcy castle. whichever way he looked he had no comfort. "d---- the fellow!" he said, almost out loud in the cab; but though he did with his outward voice allude to eames, the curse in his inner thoughts was uttered against himself. johnny was allowed to make his way down to the platform, and there find his own carpet-bag. one young porter, however, came up and fraternized with him. "you guve it him tidy just at that last moment, sir. but, laws, sir, you should have let out at him at fust. what's the use of clawing a man's neck-collar?" it was then a quarter past eleven, but, nevertheless, eames appeared at his office precisely at twelve. chapter xxxv. vÆ victis. crosbie had two engagements for that day; one being his natural engagement to do his work at his office, and the other an engagement, which was now very often becoming as natural, to dine at st. john's wood with lady amelia gazebee. it was manifest to him when he looked at himself in the glass that he could keep neither of these engagements. "oh, laws, mr. crosbie," the woman of the house exclaimed when she saw him. "yes, i know," said he. "i've had an accident and got a black eye. what's a good thing for it?" "oh! an accident!" said the woman, who knew well that that mark had been made by another man's fist. "they do say that a bit of raw beef is about the best thing. but then it must be held on constant all the morning." anything would be better than leeches, which tell long-enduring tales, and therefore crosbie sat through the greater part of the morning holding the raw beef to his eye. but it was necessary that he should write two notes as he held it, one to mr. butterwell at his office, and the other to his future sister-in-law. he felt that it would hardly be wise to attempt any entire concealment of the nature of his catastrophe, as some of the circumstances would assuredly become known. if he said that he had fallen over the coal-scuttle, or on to the fender, thereby cutting his face, people would learn that he had fibbed, and would learn also that he had had some reason for fibbing. therefore he constructed his notes with a phraseology that bound him to no details. to butterwell he said that he had had an accident--or rather a row--and that he had come out of it with considerable damage to his frontispiece. he intended to be at the office on the next day, whether able to appear decently there or not. but for the sake of decency he thought it well to give himself that one half-day's chance. then to the lady amelia he also said that he had had an accident, and had been a little hurt. "it is nothing at all serious, and affects only my appearance, so that i had better remain in for a day. i shall certainly be with you on sunday. don't let gazebee trouble himself to come to me, as i shan't be at home after to-day." gazebee did trouble himself to come to mount street so often, and south audley street, in which was mr. gazebee's office, was so disagreeably near to mount street, that crosbie inserted this in order to protect himself if possible. then he gave special orders that he was to be at home to no one, fearing that gazebee would call for him after the hours of business--to make him safe and carry him off bodily to st. john's wood. the beefsteak and the dose of physic and the cold-water application which was kept upon it all night was not efficacious in dispelling that horrid, black-blue colour by ten o'clock on the following morning. "it certainly have gone down, mr. crosbie; it certainly have," said the mistress of the lodgings, touching the part affected with her finger. "but the black won't go out of them all in a minute; it won't indeed. couldn't you just stay in one more day?" "but will one day do it, mrs. phillips?" mrs. phillips couldn't take upon herself to say that it would. "they mostly come with little red streaks across the black before they goes away," said mrs. phillips, who would seem to have been the wife of a prize-fighter, so well was she acquainted with black eyes. "and that won't be till to-morrow," said crosbie, affecting to be mirthful in his agony. "not till the third day;--and then they wears themselves out, gradual. i never knew leeches do any good." he stayed at home the second day, and then resolved that he would go to his office, black eye and all. in that morning's newspaper he saw an account of the whole transaction, saying how mr. c---- of the office of general committees, who was soon about to lead to the hymeneal altar the beautiful daughter of the earl de c----, had been made the subject of a brutal personal attack on the platform of the great western railway station, and how he was confined to his room from the injuries which he had received. the paragraph went on to state that the delinquent had, as it was believed, dared to raise his eyes to the same lady, and that his audacity had been treated with scorn by every member of the noble family in question. "it was, however, satisfactory to know," so said the newspaper, "that mr. c---- had amply avenged himself, and had so flogged the young man in question, that he had been unable to stir from his bed since the occurrence." on reading this crosbie felt that it would be better that he should show himself at once, and tell as much of the truth as the world would be likely to ascertain at last without his telling. so on that third morning he put on his hat and gloves, and had himself taken to his office, though the red-streaky period of his misfortune had hardly even yet come upon him. the task of walking along the office passage, through the messengers' lobby, and into his room, was very disagreeable. of course everybody looked at him, and of course he failed in his attempt to appear as though he did not mind it. "boggs," he said to one of the men as he passed by, "just see if mr. butterwell is in his room," and then, as he expected, mr. butterwell came to him after the expiration of a few minutes. "upon my word, that is serious," said mr. butterwell, looking into the secretary's damaged face. "i don't think i would have come out if i had been you." "of course it's disagreeable," said crosbie; "but it's better to put up with it. fellows do tell such horrid lies if a man isn't seen for a day or two. i believe it's best to put a good face upon it." "that's more than you can do just at present, eh, crosbie?" and then mr. butterwell tittered. "but how on earth did it happen? the paper says that you pretty well killed the fellow who did it." "the paper lies, as papers always do. i didn't touch him at all." "didn't you, though? i should like to have had a poke at him after getting such a tap in the face as that." "the policemen came, and all that sort of thing. one isn't allowed to fight it out in a row of that kind as one would have to do on salisbury heath. not that i mean to say that i could lick the fellow. how's a man to know whether he can or not?" "how, indeed, unless he gets a licking,--or gives it? but who was he, and what's this about his having been scorned by the noble family?" "trash and lies, of course. he had never seen any of the de courcy people." "i suppose the truth is, it was about that other--eh, crosbie? i knew you'd find yourself in some trouble before you'd done." "i don't know what it was about, or why he should have made such a brute of himself. you have heard about those people at allington?" "oh, yes; i have heard about them." "god knows, i didn't mean to say anything against them. they knew nothing about it." "but the young fellow knew them? ah, yes, i see all about it. he wants to step into your shoes. i can't say that he sets about it in a bad way. but what do you mean to do?" "nothing." "nothing! won't that look queer? i think i should have him before the magistrates." "you see, butterwell, i am bound to spare that girl's name. i know i have behaved badly." "well, yes; i fear you have." mr. butterwell said this with some considerable amount of decision in his voice, as though he did not intend to mince matters, or in any way to hide his opinion. crosbie had got into a way of condemning himself in this matter of his marriage, but was very anxious that others, on hearing such condemnation from him, should say something in the way of palliating his fault. it would be so easy for a friend to remark that such little peccadilloes were not altogether uncommon, and that it would sometimes happen in life that people did not know their own minds. he had hoped for some such benevolence from fowler pratt, but had hoped in vain. butterwell was a good-natured, easy man, anxious to stand well with all about him, never pretending to any very high tone of feeling or of morals; and yet butterwell would say no word of comfort to him. he could get no one to slur over his sin for him, as though it were no sin,--only an unfortunate mistake; no one but the de courcys, who had, as it were, taken possession of him and swallowed him alive. "it can't be helped now," said crosbie. "but as for that fellow who made such a brutal attack on me the other morning, he knows that he is safe behind her petticoats. i can do nothing which would not make some mention of her name necessary." "ah, yes; i see," said butterwell. "it's very unfortunate; very. i don't know that i can do anything for you. will you come before the board to-day?" "yes; of course i shall," said crosbie, who was becoming very sore. his sharp ear had told him that all butterwell's respect and cordiality were gone,--at any rate for the time. butterwell, though holding the higher official rank, had always been accustomed to treat him as though he, the inferior, were to be courted. he had possessed, and had known himself to possess, in his office as well as in the outside world, a sort of rank much higher than that which from his position he could claim legitimately. now he was being deposed. there could be no better touchstone in such a matter than butterwell. he would go as the world went, but he would perceive almost intuitively how the world intended to go. "tact, tact, tact," as he was in the habit of saying to himself when walking along the paths of his putney villa. crosbie was now secretary, whereas a few months before he had been simply a clerk; but, nevertheless, mr. butterwell's instinct told him that crosbie had fallen. therefore he declined to offer any sympathy to the man in his misfortune, and felt aware, as he left the secretary's room, that it might probably be some time before he visited it again. crosbie resolved in his soreness that henceforth he would brazen it out. he would go to the board, with as much indifference as to his black eye as he was able to assume, and if any one said aught to him he would be ready with his answer. he would go to his club, and let him who intended to show him any slight beware of him in his wrath. he could not turn upon john eames, but he could turn upon others if it were necessary. he had not gained for himself a position before the world, and held it now for some years, to allow himself to be crushed at once because he had made a mistake. if the world, his world, chose to go to war with him, he would be ready for the fight. as for butterwell,--butterwell the incompetent, butterwell the vapid,--for butterwell, who in every little official difficulty had for years past come to him, he would let butterwell know what it was to be thus disloyal to one who had condescended to be his friend. he would show them all at the board that he scorned them, and could be their master. then, too, as he was making some other resolves as to his future conduct, he made one or two resolutions respecting the de courcy people. he would make it known to them that he was not going to be their very humble servant. he would speak out his mind with considerable plainness; and if upon that they should choose to break off this "alliance," they might do so; he would not break his heart. and as he leaned back in his arm-chair, thinking of all this, an idea made its way into his brain,--a floating castle in the air, rather than the image of a thing that might by possibility be realized; and in this castle in the air he saw himself kneeling again at lily's feet, asking her pardon, and begging that he might once more be taken to her heart. "mr. crosbie is here to-day," said mr. butterwell to mr. optimist. "oh, indeed," said mr. optimist, very gravely; for he had heard all about the row at the railway station. "they've made a monstrous show of him." "i am very sorry to hear it. it's so--so--so-- if it were one of the younger clerks, you know, we should tell him that it was discreditable to the department." "if a man gets a blow in the eye, he can't help it, you know. he didn't do it himself, i suppose," said major fiasco. "i am well aware that he didn't do it himself," continued mr. optimist; "but i really think that, in his position, he should have kept himself out of any such encounter." "he would have done so if he could, with all his heart," said the major. "i don't suppose he liked being thrashed any better than i should." "nobody gives me a black eye," said mr. optimist. "nobody has as yet," said the major. "i hope they never will," said mr. butterwell. then, the hour for their meeting having come round, mr. crosbie came into the board-room. "we have been very sorry to hear of this misfortune," said mr. optimist, very gravely. "not half so sorry as i have been," said crosbie, with a laugh. "it's an uncommon nuisance to have a black eye, and to go about looking like a prize-fighter." "and like a prize-fighter that didn't win his battle, too," said fiasco. "i don't know that there's much difference as to that," said crosbie. "but the whole thing is a nuisance, and, if you please, we won't say anything more about it." mr. optimist almost entertained an opinion that it was his duty to say something more about it. was not he the chief commissioner, and was not mr. crosbie secretary to the board? ought he, looking at their respective positions, to pass over without a word of notice such a manifest impropriety as this? would not sir raffle buffle have said something had mr. butterwell, when secretary, come to the office with a black eye? he wished to exercise all the full rights of a chairman; but, nevertheless, as he looked at the secretary he felt embarrassed, and was unable to find the proper words. "h--m, ha, well; we'll go to business now, if you please," he said, as though reserving to himself the right of returning to the secretary's black eye when the more usual business of the board should be completed. but when the more usual business of the board had been completed, the secretary left the room without any further reference to his eye. crosbie, when he got back to his own apartment, found mortimer gazebee waiting there for him. "my dear fellow," said gazebee, "this is a very nasty affair." "uncommonly nasty," said crosbie; "so nasty that i don't mean to talk about it to anybody." "lady amelia is quite unhappy." he always called her lady amelia, even when speaking of her to his own brothers and sisters. he was too well behaved to take the liberty of calling an earl's daughter by her plain christian name, even though that earl's daughter was his own wife. "she fears that you have been a good deal hurt." "not at all hurt; but disfigured, as you see." "and so you beat the fellow well that did it?" "no, i didn't," said crosbie, very angrily. "i didn't beat him at all. you don't believe everything you read in the newspapers, do you?" "no, i don't believe everything. of course i didn't believe about his having aspired to an alliance with lady alexandrina. that was untrue, of course." mr. gazebee showed by the tone of his voice that imprudence so unparalleled as that was quite incredible. "you shouldn't believe anything; except this,--that i have got a black eye." "you certainly have got that. lady amelia thinks you would be more comfortable if you would come up to us this evening. you can't go out, of course; but lady amelia said, very good-naturedly, that you need not mind with her." "thank you, no; i'll come on sunday." "of course lady alexandrina will be very anxious to hear from her sister; and lady amelia begged me very particularly to press you to come." "thank you, no; not to-day." "why not?" "oh, simply because i shall be better at home." "how can you be better at home? you can have anything that you want. lady amelia won't mind, you know." another beefsteak to his eye, as he sat in the drawing-room, a cold-water bandage, or any little medical appliance of that sort;--these were the things which lady amelia would, in her domestic good nature, condescend not to mind! "i won't trouble her this evening," said crosbie. "well, upon my word, i think you're wrong. all manner of stories will get down to courcy castle, and to the countess's ears; and you don't know what harm may come of it. lady amelia thinks she had better write and explain it; but she can't do so till she has heard something about it from you." "look here, gazebee. i don't care one straw what story finds its way down to courcy castle." "but if the earl were to hear anything, and be offended?" "he may recover from his offence as he best likes." "my dear fellow; that's talking wildly, you know." "what on earth do you suppose the earl can do to me? do you think i'm going to live in fear of lord de courcy all my life, because i'm going to marry his daughter? i shall write to alexandrina myself to-day, and you can tell her sister so. i'll be up to dinner on sunday, unless my face makes it altogether out of the question." "and you won't come in time for church?" "would you have me go to church with such a face as this?" then mr. mortimer gazebee went, and when he got home he told his wife that crosbie was taking things with a high hand. "the fact is, my dear, that he's ashamed of himself, and therefore tries to put a bold face upon it." "it was very foolish of him throwing himself in the way of that young man,--very; and so i shall tell him on sunday. if he chooses to give himself airs to me, i shall make him understand that he is very wrong. he should remember now that the way in which he conducts himself is a matter of moment to all our family." "of course he should," said mr. gazebee. when the sunday came the red-streaky period had arrived, but had by no means as yet passed away. the men at the office had almost become used to it; but crosbie, in spite of his determination to go down to the club, had not yet shown himself elsewhere. of course he did not go to church, but at five he made his appearance at the house in st. john's wood. they always dined at five on sundays, having some idea that by doing so they kept the sabbath better than they would have done had they dined at seven. if keeping the sabbath consists in going to bed early, or is in any way assisted by such a practice, they were right. to the cook that semi-early dinner might perhaps be convenient, as it gave her an excuse for not going to church in the afternoon, as the servants' and children's dinner gave her a similar excuse in the morning. such little attempts at goodness,--proceeding half the way, or perhaps, as in this instance, one quarter of the way, on the disagreeable path towards goodness,--are very common with respectable people, such as lady amelia. if she would have dined at one o'clock, and have eaten cold meat, one perhaps might have felt that she was entitled to some praise. "dear, dear, dear; this is very sad, isn't it, adolphus?" she said on first seeing him. "well, it is sad, amelia," he said. he always called her amelia, because she called him adolphus; but gazebee himself was never quite pleased when he heard it. lady amelia was older than crosbie, and entitled to call him anything she liked; but he should have remembered the great difference in their rank. "it is sad, amelia," he said. "but will you oblige me in one thing?" "what thing, adolphus?" "not to say a word more about it. the black eye is a bad thing, no doubt, and has troubled me much; but the sympathy of my friends has troubled me a great deal more. i had all the family commiseration from gazebee on friday, and if it is repeated again, i shall lie down and die." "shall 'oo die, uncle dolphus, 'cause 'oo've got a bad eye?" asked de courcy gazebee, the eldest hope of the family, looking up into his face. "no, my hero," said crosbie, taking the boy up into his arms, "not because i've got a black eye. there isn't very much harm in that, and you'll have a great many before you leave school. but because the people will go on talking about it." "but aunt dina on't like 'oo, if oo've got an ugly bad eye." "but, adolphus," said lady amelia, settling herself for an argument, "that's all very well, you know--and i'm sure i'm very sorry to cause you any annoyance,--but really one doesn't know how to pass over such a thing without speaking of it. i have had a letter from mamma." "i hope lady de courcy is quite well." "quite well, thank you. but as a matter of course she is very anxious about this affair. she had read what has been said in the newspapers, and it may be necessary that mortimer should take it up, as the family solicitor." "quite out of the question," said adolphus. "i don't think i should advise any such step as that," said gazebee. "perhaps not; very likely not. but you cannot be surprised, mortimer, that my mother under such circumstances should wish to know what are the facts of the case." "not at all surprised," said gazebee. "then once for all, i'll tell you the facts. as i got out of the train a man i'd seen once before in my life made an attack upon me, and before the police came up, i got a blow in the face. now you know all about it." at that moment dinner was announced. "will you give lady amelia your arm?" said the husband. "it's a very sad occurrence," said lady amelia with a slight toss of her head, "and, i'm afraid, will cost my sister a great deal of vexation." "you agree with de courcy, do you, that aunt dina won't like me with an ugly black eye?" "i really don't think it's a joking matter," said the lady amelia. and then there was nothing more said about it during the dinner. there was nothing more said about it during the dinner, but it was plain enough from lady amelia's countenance that she was not very well pleased with her future brother-in-law's conduct. she was very hospitable to him, pressing him to eat; but even in doing that she made repeated little references to his present unfortunate state. she told him that she did not think fried plum-pudding would be bad for him, but that she would recommend him not to drink port-wine after dinner. "by-the-by, mortimer, you'd better have some claret up," she remarked. "adolphus shouldn't take anything that is heating." "thank you," said crosbie. "i'll have some brandy-and-water, if gazebee will give it me." "brandy-and-water!" said lady amelia. crosbie in truth was not given to the drinking of brandy-and-water; but he was prepared to call for raw gin, if he were driven much further by lady amelia's solicitude. at these sunday dinners the mistress of the house never went away into the drawing-room, and the tea was always brought into them at the table on which they had dined. it was another little step towards keeping holy the first day of the week. when lady rosina was there, she was indulged with the sight of six or seven solid good books which were laid upon the mahogany as soon as the bottles were taken off it. at her first prolonged visit she had obtained for herself the privilege of reading a sermon; but as on such occasions both lady amelia and mr. gazebee would go to sleep,--and as the footman had also once shown a tendency that way,--the sermon had been abandoned. but the master of the house, on these evenings, when his sister-in-law was present, was doomed to sit in idleness, or else to find solace in one of the solid good books. but lady rosina just now was in the country, and therefore the table was left unfurnished. "and what am i to say to my mother?" said lady amelia, when they were alone. "give her my kindest regards," said crosbie. it was quite clear, both to the husband and to the wife, that he was preparing himself for rebellion against authority. for some ten minutes there was nothing said. crosbie amused himself by playing with the boy whom he called dicksey, by way of a nickname for de courcy. "mamma, he calls me dicksey. am i dicksey? i'll call 'oo old cross, and then aunt dina 'on't like 'oo." "i wish you would not call the child nicknames, adolphus. it seems as though you would wish to cast a slur upon the one which he bears." "i should hardly think that he would feel disposed to do that," said mr. gazebee. "hardly, indeed," said crosbie. "it has never yet been disgraced in the annals of our country by being made into a nickname," said the proud daughter of the house. she was probably unaware that among many of his associates her father had been called lord de curse'ye, from the occasional energy of his language. "and any such attempt is painful in my ears. i think something of my family, i can assure you, adolphus, and so does my husband." "a very great deal," said mr. gazebee. "so do i of mine," said crosbie. "that's natural to all of us. one of my ancestors came over with william the conqueror. i think he was one of the assistant cooks in the king's tent." "a cook!" said young de courcy. "yes, my boy, a cook. that was the way most of our old families were made noble. they were cooks, or butlers to the kings--or sometimes something worse." "but your family isn't noble?" "no--i'll tell you how that was. the king wanted this cook to poison half-a-dozen of his officers who wished to have a way of their own; but the cook said, 'no, my lord king; i am a cook, not an executioner.' so they sent him into the scullery, and when they called all the other servants barons and lords, they only called him cookey. they've changed the name to crosbie since that, by degrees." mr. gazebee was awestruck, and the face of the lady amelia became very dark. was it not evident that this snake, when taken into their innermost bosoms that they might there warm him, was becoming an adder, and preparing to sting them? there was very little more conversation that evening, and soon after the story of the cook, crosbie got up and went away to his own home. chapter xxxvi. "see, the conquering hero comes." john eames had reached his office precisely at twelve o'clock, but when he did so he hardly knew whether he was standing on his heels or his head. the whole morning had been to him one of intense excitement, and latterly, to a certain extent, one of triumph. but he did not at all know what might be the results. would he be taken before a magistrate and locked up? would there be a row at the office? would crosbie call him out, and, if so, would it be incumbent on him to fight a duel with pistols? what would lord de guest say--lord de guest, who had specially warned him not to take upon himself the duty of avenging lily's wrongs? what would all the dale family say of his conduct? and, above all, what would lily say and think? nevertheless, the feeling of triumph was predominant; and now, at this interval of time, he was beginning to remember with pleasure the sensation of his fist as it went into crosbie's eye. during his first day at the office he heard nothing about the affair, nor did he say a word of it to any one. it was known in his room that he had gone down to spend his christmas holiday with lord de guest, and he was treated with some increased consideration accordingly. and, moreover, i must explain, in order that i may give johnny eames his due, he was gradually acquiring for himself a good footing among the income-tax officials. he knew his work, and did it with some manly confidence in his own powers, and also with some manly indifference to the occasional frowns of the mighty men of the department. he was, moreover, popular--being somewhat of a radical in his official demeanour, and holding by his own rights, even though mighty men should frown. in truth, he was emerging from his hobbledehoyhood and entering upon his young manhood, having probably to go through much folly and some false sentiment in that period of his existence, but still with fair promise of true manliness beyond, to those who were able to read the signs of his character. many questions on that first day were asked him about the glories of his christmas, but he had very little to say on the subject. indeed nothing could have been much more commonplace than his christmas visit, had it not been for the one great object which had taken him down to that part of the country, and for the circumstance with which his holiday had been ended. on neither of these subjects was he disposed to speak openly; but as he walked home to burton crescent with cradell, he did tell him of the affair with crosbie. "and you went in at him on the station?" asked cradell, with admiring doubt. [illustration: "and you went in at him on the station?"] "yes, i did. if i didn't do it there, where was i to do it? i'd said i would, and therefore when i saw him i did it." then the whole affair was told as to the black eye, the police, and the superintendent. "and what's to come next?" asked our hero. "well, he'll put it in the hands of a friend, of course; as i did with fisher in that affair with lupex. and, upon my word, johnny, i shall have to do something of the kind again. his conduct last night was outrageous; would you believe it--" "oh, he's a fool." "he's a fool you wouldn't like to meet when he's in one of his mad fits, i can tell you that. i absolutely had to sit up in my own bedroom all last night. mother roper told me that if i remained in the drawing-room she would feel herself obliged to have a policeman in the house. what could i do, you know? i made her have a fire for me, of course." "and then you went to bed." "i waited ever so long, because i thought that maria would want to see me. at last she sent me a note. maria is so imprudent, you know. if he had found anything in her writing, it would have been terrible, you know,--quite terrible. and who can say whether jemima mayn't tell?" "and what did she say?" "come; that's tellings, master johnny. i took very good care to take it with me to the office this morning, for fear of accidents." but eames was not so widely awake to the importance of his friend's adventures as he might have been had he not been weighted with adventures of his own. "i shouldn't care so much," said he, "about that fellow crosbie going to a friend, as i should about his going to a police magistrate." "he'll put it in a friend's hands, of course," said cradell, with the air of a man who from experience was well up in such matters. "and i suppose you'll naturally come to me. it's a deuced bore to a man in a public office, and all that kind of thing, of course. but i'm not the man to desert my friend. i'll stand by you, johnny, my boy." "oh, thank you," said eames, "i don't think that i shall want that." "you must be ready with a friend, you know." "i should write down to a man i know in the country, and ask his advice," said eames; "an older sort of friend, you know." "by jove, old fellow, take care what you're about. don't let them say of you that you show the white feather. upon my honour, i'd sooner have anything said of me than that. i would, indeed,--anything." "i'm not afraid of that," said eames, with a touch of scorn in his voice. "there isn't much thought about white feathers now-a-days,--not in the way of fighting duels." after that, cradell managed to carry back the conversation to mrs. lupex and his own peculiar position, and as eames did not care to ask from his companion further advice in his own matters, he listened nearly in silence till they reached burton crescent. "i hope you found the noble earl well," said mrs. roper to him, as soon as they were all seated at dinner. "i found the noble earl pretty well, thank you," said johnny. it had become plainly understood by all the roperites that eames's position was quite altered since he had been honoured with the friendship of lord de guest. mrs. lupex, next to whom he always sat at dinner, with a view to protecting her as it were from the dangerous neighbourhood of cradell, treated him with a marked courtesy. miss spruce always called him "sir." mrs. roper helped him the first of the gentlemen, and was mindful about his fat and gravy, and amelia felt less able than she was before to insist upon the possession of his heart and affections. it must not be supposed that amelia intended to abandon the fight, and allow the enemy to walk off with his forces; but she felt herself constrained to treat him with a deference that was hardly compatible with the perfect equality which should attend any union of hearts. "it is such a privilege to be on visiting terms with the nobility," said mrs. lupex. "when i was a girl, i used to be very intimate--" "you ain't a girl any longer, and so you'd better not talk about it," said lupex. mr. lupex had been at that little shop in drury lane after he came down from his scene-painting. "my dear, you needn't be a brute to me before all mrs. roper's company. if, led away by feelings which i will not now describe, i left my proper circles in marrying you, you need not before all the world teach me how much i have to regret." and mrs. lupex, putting down her knife and fork, applied her handkerchief to her eyes. "that's pleasant for a man over his meals, isn't it?" said lupex, appealing to miss spruce. "i have plenty of that kind of thing, and you can't think how i like it." "them whom god has joined together, let no man put asunder," said miss spruce. "as for me myself, i'm only an old woman." this little ebullition threw a gloom over the dinner-table, and nothing more was said on the occasion as to the glories of eames's career. but, in the course of the evening, amelia heard of the encounter which had taken place at the railway station, and at once perceived that she might use the occasion for her own purposes. "john," she whispered to her victim, finding an opportunity for coming upon him when almost alone, "what is this i hear? i insist upon knowing. are you going to fight a duel?" "nonsense," said johnny. "but it is not nonsense. you don't know what my feelings will be, if i think that such a thing is going to happen. but then you are so hard-hearted!" "i ain't hard-hearted a bit, and i'm not going to fight a duel." "but is it true that you beat mr. crosbie at the station?" "it is true. i did beat him." "oh, john! not that i mean to say you were wrong, and indeed i honour you for the feeling. there can be nothing so dreadful as a young man's deceiving a young woman and leaving her after he has won her heart--particularly when she has had his promise in plain words, or, perhaps, even in black and white." john thought of that horrid, foolish, wretched note which he had written. "and a poor girl, if she can't right herself by a breach of promise, doesn't know what to do. does she, john?" "a girl who'd right herself that way wouldn't be worth having." "i don't know about that. when a poor girl is in such a position, she has to be aided by her friends. i suppose, then, miss lily dale won't bring a breach of promise against him." this mention of lily's name in such a place was sacrilege in the ears of poor eames. "i cannot tell," said he, "what may be the intention of the lady of whom you speak. but from what i know of her friends, i should not think that she will be disgraced by such a proceeding." "that may be all very well for miss lily dale--" amelia said, and then she hesitated. it would not be well, she thought, absolutely to threaten him as yet,--not as long as there was any possibility that he might be won without a threat. "of course i know all about it," she continued. "she was your l. d., you know. not that i was ever jealous of her. to you she was no more than one of childhood's friends. was she, johnny?" he stamped his foot upon the floor, and then jumped up from his seat. "i hate all that sort of twaddle about childhood's friends, and you know i do. you'll make me swear that i'll never come into this room again." "johnny!" "so i will. the whole thing makes me sick. and as for that mrs. lupex--" "if this is what you learn, john, by going to a lord's house, i think you had better stay at home with your own friends." "of course i had;--much better stay at home with my own friends. here's mrs. lupex, and at any rate i can't stand her." so he went off, and walked round the crescent, and down to the new road, and almost into the regent's park, thinking of lily dale and of his own cowardice with amelia roper. on the following morning he received a message, at about one o'clock, by the mouth of the board-room messenger, informing him that his presence was required in the board-room. "sir raffle buffle has desired your presence, mr. eames." "my presence, tupper! what for?" said johnny, turning upon the messenger almost with dismay. "indeed i can't say, mr. eames; but sir raffle buffle has desired your presence in the board-room." such a message as that in official life always strikes awe into the heart of a young man. and yet, young men generally come forth from such interviews without having received any serious damage, and generally talk about the old gentlemen whom they have encountered with a good deal of light-spirited sarcasm,--or chaff, as it is called in the slang phraseology of the day. it is that same "majesty which doth hedge a king" that does it. the turkey-cock in his own farmyard is master of the occasion, and the thought of him creates fear. a bishop in his lawn, a judge on the bench, a chairman in the big room at the end of a long table, or a policeman with his bull's-eye lamp upon his beat, can all make themselves terrible by means of those appanages of majesty which have been vouchsafed to them. but how mean is the policeman in his own home, and how few thought much of sir raffle buffle as he sat asleep after dinner in his old slippers! how well can i remember the terror created within me by the air of outraged dignity with which a certain fine old gentleman, now long since gone, could rub his hands slowly, one on the other, and look up to the ceiling, slightly shaking his head, as though lost in the contemplation of my iniquities! i would become sick in my stomach, and feel as though my ankles had been broken. that upward turn of the eye unmanned me so completely that i was speechless as regarded any defence. i think that that old man could hardly have known the extent of his own power. once upon a time a careless lad, having the charge of a bundle of letters addressed to the king,--petitions and such like, which in the course of business would not get beyond the hands of some lord-in-waiting's deputy assistant,--sent the bag which contained them to the wrong place; to windsor, perhaps, if the court were in london; or to st. james's, if it were at windsor. he was summoned; and the great man of the occasion contented himself with holding his hands up to the heavens as he stood up from his chair, and exclaiming twice, "mis-sent the monarch's pouch! mis-sent the monarch's pouch!" that young man never knew how he escaped from the board-room; but for a time he was deprived of all power of exertion, and could not resume his work till he had had six months' leave of absence, and been brought round upon rum and asses' milk. in that instance the peculiar use of the word monarch had a power which the official magnate had never contemplated. the story is traditional; but i believe that the circumstance happened as lately as in the days of george the third. john eames could laugh at the present chairman of the income-tax office with great freedom, and call him old huffle scuffle, and the like; but now that he was sent for, he also, in spite of his radical propensities, felt a little weak about his ankle joints. he knew, from the first hearing of the message, that he was wanted with reference to that affair at the railway station. perhaps there might be a rule that any clerk should be dismissed who used his fists in any public place. there were many rules entailing the punishment of dismissal for many offences,--and he began to think that he did remember something of such a regulation. however, he got up, looked once around him upon his friends, and then followed tupper into the board-room. "there's johnny been sent for by old scuffles," said one clerk. "that's about his row with crosbie," said another. "the board can't do anything to him for that." "can't it?" said the first. "didn't young outonites have to resign because of that row at the cider cellars, though his cousin, sir constant outonites, did all that he could for him?" "but he was regularly up the spout with accommodation bills." "i tell you that i wouldn't be in eames's shoes for a trifle. crosbie is secretary at the committee office, where scuffles was chairman before he came here; and of course they're as thick as thieves. i shouldn't wonder if they didn't make him go down and apologize." "johnny won't do that," said the other. in the meantime john eames was standing in the august presence. sir raffle buffle was throned in his great oak arm-chair at the head of a long table in a very large room; and by him, at the corner of the table, was seated one of the assistant secretaries of the office. another member of the board was also at work upon the long table; but he was reading and signing papers at some distance from sir raffle, and paid no heed whatever to the scene. the assistant secretary, looking on, could see that sir raffle was annoyed by this want of attention on the part of his colleague, but all this was lost upon eames. "mr. eames?" said sir raffle, speaking with a peculiarly harsh voice, and looking at the culprit through a pair of gold-rimmed glasses, which he perched for the occasion upon his big nose. "isn't that mr. eames?" "yes," said the assistant secretary, "this is eames." "ah!"--and then there was a pause. "come a little nearer, mr. eames, will you?" and johnny drew nearer, advancing noiselessly over the turkey carpet. "let me see; in the second class, isn't he? ah! do you know, mr. eames, that i have received a letter from the secretary to the directors of the great western railway company, detailing circumstances which,--if truly stated in that letter,--redound very much to your discredit?" "i did get into a row there yesterday, sir." "got into a row! it seems to me that you have got into a very serious row, and that i must tell the directors of the great western railway company that the law must be allowed to take its course." "i shan't mind that, sir, in the least," said eames, brightening up a little under this view of the case. "not mind that, sir!" said sir raffle--or rather, he shouted out the words at the offender before him. i am inclined to think that he overdid it, missing the effect which a milder tone might have attained. perhaps there was lacking to him some of that majesty of demeanour and dramatic propriety of voice which had been so efficacious in the little story as to the king's bag of letters. as it was, johnny gave a slight jump, but after his jump he felt better than he had been before. "not mind, sir, being dragged before the criminal tribunals of your country, and being punished as a felon,--or rather as a misdemeanour,--for an outrage committed on a public platform! not mind it! what do you mean, sir?" "i mean, that i don't think the magistrate would say very much about it, sir. and i don't think mr. crosbie would come forward." "but mr. crosbie must come forward, young man. do you suppose that an outrage against the peace of the metropolis is to go unpunished because he may not wish to pursue the matter? i'm afraid you must be very ignorant, young man." "perhaps i am," said johnny. "very ignorant indeed,--very ignorant indeed. and are you aware, sir, that it would become a question with the commissioners of this board whether you could be retained in the service of this department if you were publicly punished by a police magistrate for such a disgraceful outrage as that?" johnny looked round at the other commissioner, but that gentleman did not raise his face from his papers. "mr. eames is a very good clerk," whispered the assistant secretary, but in a voice which made his words audible to eames; "one of the best young men we have," he added, in a voice which was not audible. "oh,--ah; very well. now, i'll tell you what, mr. eames, i hope this will be a lesson to you,--a very serious lesson." the assistant secretary, leaning back in his chair so as to be a little behind the head of sir raffle, did manage to catch the eye of the other commissioner. the other commissioner, barely looking round, smiled a little, and then the assistant secretary smiled also. eames saw this, and he smiled too. "whether any ulterior consequences may still await the breach of the peace of which you have been guilty, i am not yet prepared to say," continued sir raffle. "you may go now." and johnny returned to his own place, with no increased reverence for the dignity of the chairman. on the following morning one of his colleagues showed him with great glee the passage in the newspaper which informed the world that he had been so desperately beaten by crosbie that he was obliged to keep his bed at this present time in consequence of the flogging that he had received. then his anger was aroused, and he bounced about the big room of the income-tax office, regardless of assistant secretaries, head clerks, and all other official grandees whatsoever, denouncing the iniquities of the public press, and declaring his opinion that it would be better to live in russia than in a country which allowed such audacious falsehoods to be propagated. "he never touched me, fisher; i don't think he ever tried; but, upon my honour, he never touched me." "but, johnny, it was bold in you to make up to lord de courcy's daughter," said fisher. "i never saw one of them in my life." "he's going it altogether among the aristocracy, now," said another; "i suppose you wouldn't look at anybody under a viscount?" "can i help what that thief of an editor puts into his paper? flogged! huffle scuffle told me i was a felon, but that wasn't half so bad as this fellow;" and johnny kicked the newspaper across the room. "indict him for a libel," said fisher. "particularly for saying you wanted to marry a countess's daughter," said another clerk. "i never heard such a scandal in my life," declared a third; "and then to say that the girl wouldn't look at you." but not the less was it felt by all in the office that johnny eames was becoming a leading man among them, and that he was one with whom each of them would be pleased to be intimate. and even among the grandees this affair of the railway station did him no real harm. it was known that crosbie had deserved to be thrashed, and known that eames had thrashed him. it was all very well for sir raffle buffle to talk of police magistrates and misdemeanours, but all the world at the income-tax office knew very well that eames had come out from that affair with his head upright, and his right foot foremost. "never mind about the newspaper," a thoughtful old senior clerk said to him. "as he did get the licking and you didn't, you can afford to laugh at the newspaper." "and you wouldn't write to the editor?" "no, no; certainly not. no one thinks of defending himself to a newspaper except an ass;--unless it be some fellow who wants to have his name puffed. you may write what's as true as the gospel, but they'll know how to make fun of it." johnny therefore gave up his idea of an indignant letter to the editor, but he felt that he was bound to give some explanation of the whole matter to lord de guest. the affair had happened as he was coming from the earl's house, and all his own concerns had now been made so much a matter of interest to his kind friend, that he thought that he could not with propriety leave the earl to learn from the newspapers either the facts or the falsehoods. and, therefore, before he left his office he wrote the following letter:-- income-tax office, december , --. my lord,-- he thought a good deal about the style in which he ought to address the peer, never having hitherto written to him. he began, "my dear lord," on one sheet of paper, and then put it aside, thinking that it looked over-bold. my lord,-- as you have been so very kind to me, i feel that i ought to tell you what happened the other morning at the railway station, as i was coming back from guestwick. that scoundrel crosbie got into the same carriage with me at the barchester junction, and sat opposite to me all the way up to london. i did not speak a word to him, or he to me; but when he got out at the paddington station, i thought i ought not to let him go away, so i-- i can't say that i thrashed him as i wished to do; but i made an attempt, and i did give him a black eye. a whole quantity of policemen got round us, and i hadn't a fair chance. i know you will think that i was wrong, and perhaps i was; but what could i do when he sat opposite to me there for two hours, looking as though he thought himself the finest fellow in all london? they've put a horrible paragraph into one of the newspapers, saying that i got so "flogged" that i haven't been able to stir since. it is an atrocious falsehood, as is all the rest of the newspaper account. i was not touched. he was not nearly so bad a customer as the bull, and seemed to take it all very quietly. i must acknowledge, though, that he didn't get such a beating as he deserved. your friend sir r. b. sent for me this morning, and told me i was a felon. i didn't seem to care much for that, for he might as well have called me a murderer or a burglar; but i shall care very much indeed if i have made you angry with me. but what i most fear is the anger of some one else,--at allington. believe me to be, my lord, yours very much obliged and most sincerely, john eames. "i knew he'd do it if ever he got the opportunity," said the earl when he had read his letter; and he walked about his room striking his hands together, and then thrusting his thumbs into his waistcoat-pockets. "i knew he was made of the right stuff," and the earl rejoiced greatly in the prowess of his favourite. "i'd have done it myself if i'd seen him. i do believe i would." then he went back to the breakfast-room and told lady julia. "what do you think?" said he; "johnny eames has come across crosbie, and given him a desperate beating." "no!" said lady julia, putting down her newspaper and spectacles, and expressing by the light of her eyes anything but christian horror at the wickedness of the deed. "but he has, though. i knew he would if he saw him." "beaten him! actually beaten him!" "sent him home to lady alexandrina with two black eyes." "two black eyes! what a young pickle! but did he get hurt himself?" "not a scratch, he says." "and what'll they do to him?" "nothing. crosbie won't be fool enough to do anything. a man becomes an outlaw when he plays such a game as he has played. anybody's hand may be raised against him with impunity. he can't show his face, you know. he can't come forward and answer questions as to what he has done. there are offences which the law can't touch, but which outrage public feeling so strongly that any one may take upon himself the duty of punishing them. he has been thrashed, and that will stick to him till he dies." "do tell johnny from me that i hope he didn't get hurt," said lady julia. the old lady could not absolutely congratulate him on his feat of arms, but she did the next thing to it. but the earl did congratulate him, with a full open assurance of his approval. "i hope," he said, "i should have done the same at your age, under similar circumstances, and i'm very glad that he proved less difficult than the bull. i'm quite sure you didn't want any one to help you with master crosbie. as for that other person at allington, if i understand such matters at all, i think she will forgive you." it may, however, be a question whether the earl did understand such matters at all. and then he added, in a postscript: "when you write to me again,--and don't be long first, begin your letter, 'my dear lord de guest,'--that is the proper way." chapter xxxvii. an old man's complaint. [illustration: (untitled)] "have you been thinking again of what i was saying to you, bell?" bernard said to his cousin one morning. "thinking of it, bernard? why should i think more of it? i had hoped that you had forgotten it yourself." "no," he said; "i am not so easy-hearted as that. i cannot look on such a thing as i would the purchase of a horse, which i could give up without sorrow if i found that the animal was too costly for my purse. i did not tell you that i loved you till i was sure of myself, and having made myself sure i cannot change at all." "and yet you would have me change." "yes, of course i would. if your heart be free now, it must of course be changed before you come to love any man. such change as that is to be looked for. but when you have loved, then it will not be easy to change you." "but i have not." "then i have a right to hope. i have been hanging on here, bell, longer than i ought to have done, because i could not bring myself to leave you without speaking of this again. i did not wish to seem to you to be importunate--" "if you could only believe me in what i say." "it is not that i do not believe. i am not a puppy or a fool, to flatter myself that you must be in love with me. i believe you well enough. but still it is possible that your mind may alter." "it is impossible." "i do not know whether my uncle or your mother have spoken to you about this." "such speaking would have no effect." in fact, her mother had spoken to her, but she truly said that such speaking would have no effect. if her cousin could not win the battle by his own skill, he might have been quite sure, looking at her character as it was known to him, that he would not be able to win it by the skill of others. "we have all been made very unhappy," he went on to say, "by this calamity which has fallen on poor lily." "and because she has been deceived by the man she did love, i am to make matters square by marrying a man i--" and then she paused. "dear bernard, you should not drive me to say words which will sound harsh to you." "no words can be harsher than those which you have already spoken. but, bell, at any rate, you may listen to me." then he told her how desirable it was with reference to all the concerns of the dale family that she should endeavour to look favourably on his proposition. it would be good for them all, he said, especially for lily, as to whom, at the present moment, their uncle felt so kindly. he, as bernard pleaded, was so anxious at heart for this marriage, that he would do anything that was asked of him if he were gratified. but if he were not gratified in this, he would feel that he had ground for displeasure. bell, as she had been desired to listen, did listen very patiently. but when her cousin had finished, her answer was very short. "nothing that my uncle can say, or think, or do, can make any difference in this," said she. "you will think nothing, then, of the happiness of others." "i would not marry a man i did not love, to ensure any amount of happiness to others;--at least i know i ought not to do so. but i do not believe i should ensure any one's happiness by this marriage. certainly not yours." after this bernard had acknowledged to himself that the difficulties in his way were great. "i will go away till next autumn," he said to his uncle. "if you would give up your profession and remain here, she would not be so perverse." "i cannot do that, sir. i cannot risk the well-being of my life on such a chance." then his uncle had been angry with him, as well as with his niece. in his anger he determined that he would go again to his sister-in-law, and, after some unreasonable fashion, he resolved that it would become him to be very angry with her also, if she declined to assist him with all her influence as a mother. "why should they not both marry?" he said to himself. lord de guest's offer as to young eames had been very generous. as he had then declared, he had not been able to express his own opinion at once; but on thinking over what the earl had said, he had found himself very willing to heal the family wound in the manner proposed, if any such healing might be possible. that, however, could not be done quite as yet. when the time should come, and he thought it might come soon,--perhaps in the spring, when the days should be fine and the evenings again long,--he would be willing to take his share with the earl in establishing that new household. to crosbie he had refused to give anything, and there was upon his conscience a shade of remorse in that he had so refused. but if lily could be brought to love this other man, he would be more open-handed. she should have her share as though she was in fact his daughter. but then, if he intended to do so much for them at the small house, should not they in return do something also for him? so thinking, he went again to his sister-in-law, determined to explain his views, even though it might be at the risk of some hard words between them. as regarded himself, he did not much care for hard words spoken to him. he almost expected that people's words should be hard and painful. he did not look for the comfort of affectionate soft greetings, and perhaps would not have appreciated them had they come to him. he caught mrs. dale walking in the garden, and brought her into his own room, feeling that he had a better chance there than in her own house. she, with an old dislike to being lectured in that room, had endeavoured to avoid the interview, but had failed. "so i met john eames at the manor," he had said to her in the garden. "ah, yes; and how did he get on there? i cannot conceive poor johnny keeping holiday with the earl and his sister. how did he behave to them, and how did they behave to him?" "i can assure you he was very much at home there." "was he, indeed? well, i hope it will do him good. he is, i'm sure, a very good young man; only rather awkward." "i didn't think him awkward at all. you'll find, mary, that he'll do very well;--a great deal better than his father did." "i'm sure i hope he may." after that mrs. dale made her attempt to escape; but the squire had taken her prisoner, and led her captive into the house. "mary," he said, as soon as he had induced her to sit down, "it is time that this should be settled between my nephew and niece." "i am afraid there will be nothing to settle." "what do you mean;--that you disapprove of it?" "by no means,--personally. i should approve of it very strongly. but that has nothing to do with the question." "yes, it has. i beg your pardon, but it must have, and should have a great deal to do with it. of course, i am not saying that anybody should now ever be compelled to marry anybody." "i hope not." "i never said that they ought, and never thought so. but i do think that the wishes of all her family should have very great weight with a girl that has been well brought up." "i don't know whether bell has been well brought up; but in such a matter as this nobody's wishes would weigh a feather with her; and, indeed, i could not take upon myself even to express a wish. to you i can say that i should have been very happy if she could have regarded her cousin as you wish her to do." "you mean that you are afraid to tell her so?" "i am afraid to do what i think is wrong, if you mean that." "i don't think it would be wrong, and therefore i shall speak to her myself." "you must do as you like about that, mr. dale; i can't prevent you. i shall think you wrong to harass her on such a matter, and i fear also that her answer will not be satisfactory to you. if you choose to tell her your opinion, you must do so. of course i shall think you wrong, that's all." mrs. dale's voice as she said this was stern enough, and so was her countenance. she could not forbid the uncle to speak his mind to his niece, but she especially disliked the idea of any interference with her daughter. the squire got up and walked about the room, trying to compose himself that he might answer her rationally, but without anger. "may i go now?" said mrs. dale. "may you go? of course you may go if you like it. if you think that i am intruding upon you in speaking to you of the welfare of your two girls, whom i endeavour to regard as my own daughters,--except in this, that i know they have never been taught to love me,--if you think that it is an interference on my part to show anxiety for their welfare, of course you may go." "i did not mean to say anything to hurt you, mr. dale." "hurt me! what does it signify whether i am hurt or not? i have no children of my own, and of course my only business in life is to provide for my nephews and nieces. i am an old fool if i expect that they are to love me in return, and if i venture to express a wish i am interfering and doing wrong! it is hard,--very hard. i know well that they have been brought up to dislike me, and yet i am endeavouring to do my duty by them." "mr. dale, that accusation has not been deserved. they have not been brought up to dislike you. i believe that they have both loved and respected you as their uncle; but such love and respect will not give you a right to dispose of their hands." "who wants to dispose of their hands?" "there are some things in which i think no uncle,--no parent,--should interfere, and of all such things this is the chief. if after that you may choose to tell her your wishes, of course you can do so." "it will not be much good after you have set her against me." "mr. dale, you have no right to say such things to me, and you are very unjust in doing so. if you think that i have set my girls against you, it will be much better that we should leave allington altogether. i have been placed in circumstances which have made it difficult for me to do my duty to my children; but i have endeavoured to do it, not regarding my own personal wishes. i am quite sure, however, that it would be wrong in me to keep them here, if i am to be told by you that i have taught them to regard you unfavourably. indeed, i cannot suffer such a thing to be said to me." all this mrs. dale said with an air of decision, and with a voice expressing a sense of injury received, which made the squire feel that she was very much in earnest. "is it not true," he said, defending himself, "that in all that relates to the girls you have ever regarded me with suspicion?" "no, it is not true." and then she corrected herself, feeling that there was something of truth in the squire's last assertion. "certainly not with suspicion," she said. "but as this matter has gone so far, i will explain what my real feelings have been. in worldly matters you can do much for my girls, and have done much." "and wish to do more," said the squire. "i am sure you do. but i cannot on that account give up my place as their only living parent. they are my children, and not yours. and even could i bring myself to allow you to act as their guardian and natural protector, they would not consent to such an arrangement. you cannot call that suspicion." "i can call it jealousy." "and should not a mother be jealous of her children's love?" during all this time the squire was walking up and down the room with his hands in his trousers pockets. and when mrs. dale had last spoken, he continued his walk for some time in silence. "perhaps it is well that you should have spoken out," he said. "the manner in which you accused me made it necessary." "i did not intend to accuse you, and i do not do so now; but i think that you have been, and that you are, very hard to me,--very hard indeed. i have endeavoured to make your children, and yourself also, sharers with me in such prosperity as has been mine. i have striven to add to your comfort and to their happiness. i am most anxious to secure their future welfare. you would have been very wrong had you declined to accept this on their behalf; but i think that in return for it you need not have begrudged me the affection and obedience which generally follows from such good offices." "mr. dale, i have begrudged you nothing of this." "i am hurt;--i am hurt," he continued. and she was surprised by his look of pain even more than by the unaccustomed warmth of his words. "what you have said has, i have known, been the case all along. but though i had felt it to be so, i own that i am hurt by your open words." "because i have said that my own children must ever be my own?" "ah, you have said more than that. you and the girls have been living here, close to me, for--how many years is it now?--and during all those years there has grown up for me no kindly feeling. do you think that i cannot hear, and see, and feel? do you suppose that i am a fool and do not know? as for yourself you would never enter this house if you did not feel yourself constrained to do so for the sake of appearances. i suppose it is all as it should be. having no children of my own, i owe the duty of a parent to my nieces; but i have no right to expect from them in return either love, regard, or obedience. i know i am keeping you here against your will, mary. i won't do so any longer." and he made a sign to her that she was to depart. as she rose from her seat her heart was softened towards him. in these latter days he had shown much kindness to the girls,--a kindness that was more akin to the gentleness of love than had ever come from him before. lily's fate had seemed to melt even his sternness, and he had striven to be tender in his words and ways. and now he spoke as though he had loved the girls, and had loved them in vain. doubtless he had been a disagreeable neighbour to his sister-in-law, making her feel that it was never for her personally that he had opened his hand. doubtless he had been moved by an unconscious desire to undermine and take upon himself her authority with her own children. doubtless he had looked askance at her from the first day of her marriage with his brother. she had been keenly alive to all this since she had first known him, and more keenly alive to it than ever since the failure of those efforts she had made to live with him on terms of affection, made during the first year or two of her residence at the small house. but, nevertheless, in spite of all, her heart bled for him now. she had gained her victory over him, having fully held her own position with her children; but now that he complained that he had been beaten in the struggle, her heart bled for him. "my brother," she said, and as she spoke she offered him her hands, "it may be that we have not thought as kindly of each other as we should have done." "i have endeavoured," said the old man. "i have endeavoured--" and then he stopped, either hindered by some excess of emotion, or unable to find the words which were necessary for the expression of his meaning. "let us endeavour once again,--both of us." "what, begin again at near seventy! no, mary, there is no more beginning again for me. all this shall make no difference to the girls. as long as i am here they shall have the house. if they marry, i will do for them what i can. i believe bernard is much in earnest in his suit, and if bell will listen to him, she shall still be welcomed here as mistress of allington. what you have said shall make no difference;--but as to beginning again, it is simply impossible." after that mrs. dale walked home through the garden by herself. he had studiously told her that that house in which they lived should be lent, not to her, but to her children, during his lifetime. he had positively declined the offer of her warmer regard. he had made her understand that they were to look on each other almost as enemies; but that she, enemy as she was, should still be allowed the use of his munificence, because he chose to do his duty by his nieces! "it will be better for us that we shall leave it," she said to herself as she seated herself in her own arm-chair over the drawing-room fire. chapter xxxviii. doctor crofts is called in. mrs. dale had not sat long in her drawing-room before tidings were brought to her which for a while drew her mind away from that question of her removal. "mamma," said bell, entering the room, "i really do believe that jane has got scarlatina." jane, the parlour-maid, had been ailing for the last two days, but nothing serious had hitherto been suspected. mrs. dale instantly jumped up. "who is with her?" she asked. it appeared from bell's answer that both she and lily had been with the girl, and that lily was still in the room. whereupon mrs. dale ran upstairs, and there was on the sudden a commotion in the house. in an hour or so the village doctor was there, and he expressed an opinion that the girl's ailment was certainly scarlatina. mrs. dale, not satisfied with this, sent off a boy to guestwick for dr. crofts, having herself maintained an opposition of many years' standing against the medical reputation of the apothecary, and gave a positive order to the two girls not to visit poor jane again. she herself had had scarlatina, and might do as she pleased. then, too, a nurse was hired. all this changed for a few hours the current of mrs. dale's thoughts: but in the evening she went back to the subject of her morning conversation, and before the three ladies went to bed, they held together an open council of war upon the subject. dr. crofts had been found to be away from guestwick, and word had been sent on his behalf that he would be over at allington early on the following morning. mrs. dale had almost made up her mind that the malady of her favourite maid was not scarlatina, but had not on that account relaxed her order as to the absence of her daughters from the maid's bedside. "let us go at once," said bell, who was even more opposed to any domination on the part of her uncle than was her mother. in the discussion which had been taking place between them the whole matter of bernard's courtship had come upon the carpet. bell had kept her cousin's offer to herself as long as she had been able to do so; but since her uncle had pressed the subject upon mrs. dale, it was impossible for bell to remain silent any longer. "you do not want me to marry him, mamma; do you?" she had said, when her mother had spoken with some show of kindness towards bernard. in answer to this, mrs. dale had protested vehemently that she had no such wish, and lily, who still held to her belief in dr. crofts, was almost equally animated. to them all, the idea that their uncle should in any way interfere in their own views of life, on the strength of the pecuniary assistance which they had received from him, was peculiarly distasteful. but it was especially distasteful that he should presume to have even an opinion as to their disposition in marriage. they declared to each other that their uncle could have no right to object to any marriage which either of them might contemplate as long as their mother should approve of it. the poor old squire had been right in saying that he was regarded with suspicion. he was so regarded. the fault had certainly been his own, in having endeavoured to win the daughters without thinking it worth his while to win the mother. the girls had unconsciously felt that the attempt was made, and had vigorously rebelled against it. it had not been their fault that they had been brought to live in their uncle's house, and made to ride on his ponies, and to eat partially of his bread. they had so eaten, and so lived, and declared themselves to be grateful. the squire was good in his way, and they recognized his goodness; but not on that account would they transfer to him one jot of the allegiance which as children they owed to their mother. when she told them her tale, explaining to them the words which their uncle had spoken that morning, they expressed their regret that he should be so grieved; but they were strong in assurances to their mother that she had been sinned against, and was not sinning. "let us go at once," said bell. "it is much easier said than done, my dear." "of course it is, mamma; else we shouldn't be here now. what i mean is this,--let us take some necessary first step at once. it is clear that my uncle thinks that our remaining here should give him some right over us. i do not say that he is wrong to think so. perhaps it is natural. perhaps, in accepting his kindness, we ought to submit ourselves to him. if that be so, it is a conclusive reason for our going." "could we not pay him rent for the house," said lily, "as mrs. hearn does? you would like to remain here, mamma, if you could do that?" "but we could not do that, lily. we must choose for ourselves a smaller house than this, and one that is not burdened with the expense of a garden. even if we paid but a moderate rent for this place, we should not have the means of living here." "not if we lived on toast and tea?" said lily, laughing. "but i should hardly wish you to live upon toast and tea; and indeed i fancy that i should get tired of such a diet myself." "never, mamma," said lily. "as for me, i confess to a longing after mutton chops; but i don't think you would ever want such vulgar things." "at any rate, it would be impossible to remain here," said bell. "uncle christopher would not take rent from mamma; and even if he did, we should not know how to go on with our other arrangements after such a change. no; we must give up the dear old small house." "it is a dear old house," said lily, thinking, as she spoke, more of those late scenes in the garden, when crosbie had been with them in the autumn months, than of any of the former joys of her childhood. "after all, i do not know that i should be right to move," said mrs. dale, doubtingly. "yes, yes," said both the girls at once. "of course you will be right, mamma; there cannot be a doubt about it, mamma. if we can get any cottage, or even lodgings, that would be better than remaining here, now that we know what uncle christopher thinks of it." "it will make him very unhappy," said mrs. dale. but even this argument did not in the least move the girls. they were very sorry that their uncle should be unhappy. they would endeavour to show him by some increased show of affection that their feelings towards him were not unkind. should he speak to them they would endeavour to explain to him that their thoughts towards him were altogether affectionate. but they could not remain at allington increasing their load of gratitude, seeing that he expected a certain payment which they did not feel themselves able to render. "we should be robbing him, if we stayed here," bell declared;--"wilfully robbing him of what he believes to be his just share of the bargain." so it was settled among them that notice should be given to their uncle of their intention to quit the small house of allington. and then came the question as to their new home. mrs. dale was aware that her income was at any rate better than that possessed by mrs. eames, and therefore she had fair ground for presuming that she could afford to keep a house at guestwick. "if we do go away, that is what we must do," she said. "and we shall have to walk out with mary eames, instead of susan boyce," said lily. "it won't make so much difference after all." "in that respect we shall gain as much as we lose," said bell. "and then it will be so nice to have the shops," said lily, ironically. "only we shall never have any money to buy anything," said bell. "but we shall see more of the world," said lily. "lady julia's carriage comes into town twice a week, and the miss gruffens drive about in great style. upon the whole, we shall gain a great deal; only for the poor old garden. mamma, i do think i shall break my heart at parting with hopkins; and as to him, i shall be disappointed in mankind if he ever holds his head up again after i am gone." but in truth there was very much of sadness in their resolution, and to mrs. dale it seemed as though she were managing matters badly for her daughters, and allowing poverty and misfortune to come upon them through her own fault. she well knew how great a load of sorrow was lying on lily's heart, hidden beneath those little attempts at pleasantry which she made. when she spoke of being disappointed in mankind, mrs. dale could hardly repress an outward shudder that would betray her thoughts. and now she was consenting to take them forth from their comfortable home, from the luxury of their lawns and gardens, and to bring them to some small dingy corner of a provincial town,--because she had failed to make herself happy with her brother-in-law. could she be right to give up all the advantages which they enjoyed at allington,--advantages which had come to them from so legitimate a source,--because her own feelings had been wounded? in all their future want of comfort, in the comfortless dowdiness of the new home to which she would remove them, would she not always blame herself for having brought them to that by her own false pride? and yet it seemed to her that she now had no alternative. she could not now teach her daughters to obey their uncle's wishes in all things. she could not make bell understand that it would be well that she should marry bernard because the squire had set his heart on such a marriage. she had gone so far that she could not now go back. "i suppose we must move at lady-day?" said bell, who was in favour of instant action. "if so, had you not better let uncle christopher know at once?" "i don't think that we can find a house by that time." "we can get in somewhere," continued bell. "there are plenty of lodgings in guestwick, you know." but the sound of the word lodgings was uncomfortable in mrs. dale's ears. "if we are to go, let us go at once," said lily. "we need not stand much upon the order of our going." "your uncle will be very much shocked," said mrs. dale. "he cannot say that it is your fault," said bell. it was thus agreed between them that the necessary information should be at once given to the squire, and that the old, well-loved house should be left for ever. it would be a great fall in a worldly point of view,--from the allington small house to an abode in some little street of guestwick. at allington they had been county people,--raised to a level with their own squire and other squires by the circumstance of their residence; but at guestwick they would be small even among the people of the town. they would be on an equality with the eameses, and much looked down upon by the gruffens. they would hardly dare to call any more at guestwick manor, seeing that they certainly could not expect lady julia to call upon them at guestwick. mrs. boyce no doubt would patronize them, and they could already anticipate the condolence which would be offered to them by mrs. hearn. indeed such a movement on their part would be tantamount to a confession of failure in the full hearing of so much of the world as was known to them. i must not allow my readers to suppose that these considerations were a matter of indifference to any of the ladies at the small house. to some women of strong mind, of highly-strung philosophic tendencies, such considerations might have been indifferent. but mrs. dale was not of this nature, nor were her daughters. the good things of the world were good in their eyes, and they valued the privilege of a pleasant social footing among their friends. they were by no means capable of a wise contempt of the advantages which chance had hitherto given to them. they could not go forth rejoicing in the comparative poverty of their altered condition. but then, neither could they purchase those luxuries which they were about to abandon at the price which was asked for them. "had you not better write to my uncle?" said one of the girls. but to this mrs. dale objected that she could not make a letter on such a subject clearly intelligible, and that therefore she would see the squire on the following morning. "it will be very dreadful," she said, "but it will soon be over. it is not what he will say at the moment that i fear so much, as the bitter reproaches of his face when i shall meet him afterwards." so, on the following morning, she again made her way, and now without invitation, to the squire's study. "mr. dale," she began, starting upon her work with some confusion in her manner, and hurry in her speech, "i have been thinking over what we were saying together yesterday, and i have come to a resolution which i know i ought to make known to you without a moment's delay." the squire also had thought of what had passed between them, and had suffered much as he had done so; but he had thought of it without acerbity or anger. his thoughts were ever gentler than his words, and his heart softer than any exponent of his heart that he was able to put forth. he wished to love his brother's children, and to be loved by them; but even failing that, he wished to do good to them. it had not occurred to him to be angry with mrs. dale after that interview was over. the conversation had not gone pleasantly with him; but then he hardly expected that things would go pleasantly. no idea had occurred to him that evil could come upon any of the dale ladies from the words which had then been spoken. he regarded the small house as their abode and home as surely as the great house was his own. in giving him his due, it must be declared that any allusion to their holding these as a benefit done to them by him had been very far from his thoughts. mrs. hearn, who held her cottage at half its real value, grumbled almost daily at him as her landlord; but it never occurred to him that therefore he should raise her rent, or that in not doing so he was acting with special munificence. it had ever been to him a grumbling, cross-grained, unpleasant world; and he did not expect from mrs. hearn, or from his sister-in-law, anything better than that to which he had ever been used. "it will make me very happy," said he, "if it has any bearing on bell's marriage with her cousin." "mr. dale, that is out of the question. i would not vex you by saying so if i were not certain of it; but i know my child so well!" "then we must leave it to time, mary." "yes, of course; but no time will suffice to make bell change her mind. we will, however, leave the subject. and now, mr. dale, i have to tell you of something else;--we have resolved to leave the small house." "resolved on what?" said the squire, turning his eyes full upon her. "we have resolved to leave the small house." "leave the small house!" he said, repeating her words; "and where on earth do you mean to go?" "we think we shall go into guestwick." "and why?" "ah, that is so hard to explain. if you would only accept the fact as i tell it to you, and not ask for the reasons which have guided me!" "but that is out of the question, mary. in such a matter as that i must ask your reasons; and i must tell you also that, in my opinion, you will not be doing your duty to your daughters in carrying out such an intention, unless your reasons are very strong indeed." "but they are very strong," said mrs. dale; and then she paused. "i cannot understand it," said the squire. "i cannot bring myself to believe that you are really in earnest. are you not comfortable there?" "more comfortable than we have any right to be with our means." "but i thought you always did very nicely with your money. you never get into debt." "no; i never get into debt. it is not that, exactly. the fact is, mr. dale, we have no right to live there without paying rent; but we could not afford to live there if we did pay rent." "who has talked about rent?" he said, jumping up from his chair. "some one has been speaking falsehoods of me behind my back." no gleam of the real truth had yet come to him. no idea had reached his mind that his relatives thought it necessary to leave his house in consequence of any word that he himself had spoken. he had never considered himself to have been in any special way generous to them, and would not have thought it reasonable that they should abandon the house in which they had been living, even if his anger against them had been strong and hot. "mary," he said, "i must insist upon getting to the bottom of this. as for your leaving the house, it is out of the question. where can you be better off, or so well? as to going into guestwick, what sort of life would there be for the girls? i put all that aside as out of the question; but i must know what has induced you to make such a proposition. tell me honestly,--has any one spoken evil of me behind my back?" mrs. dale had been prepared for opposition and for reproach; but there was a decision about the squire's words, and an air of masterdom in his manner, which made her recognize more fully than she had yet done the difficulty of her position. she almost began to fear that she would lack power to carry out her purpose. "indeed, it is not so, mr. dale." "then what is it?" "i know that if i attempt to tell you, you will be vexed, and will contradict me." "vexed i shall be, probably." "and yet i cannot help it. indeed, i am endeavouring to do what is right by you and by the children." "never mind me; your duty is to think of them." "of course it is; and in doing this they most cordially agree with me." in using such argument as that, mrs. dale showed her weakness, and the squire was not slow to take advantage of it. "your duty is to them," he said; "but i do not mean by that that your duty is to let them act in any way that may best please them for the moment. i can understand that they should be run away with by some romantic nonsense, but i cannot understand it of you." "the truth is this, mr. dale. you think that my children owe to you that sort of obedience which is due to a parent, and as long as they remain here, accepting from your hands so large a part of their daily support, it is perhaps natural that you should think so. in this unhappy affair about bell--" "i have never said anything of the kind," said the squire, interrupting her. "no; you have not said so. and i do not wish you to think that i make any complaint. but i feel that it is so, and they feel it. and, therefore, we have made up our minds to go away." mrs. dale, as she finished, was aware that she had not told her story well, but she had acknowledged to herself that it was quite out of her power to tell it as it should be told. her main object was to make her brother-in-law understand that she certainly would leave his house, and to make him understand this with as little pain to himself as possible. she did not in the least mind his thinking her foolish, if only she could so carry her point as to be able to tell her daughters on her return that the matter was settled. but the squire, from his words and manners, seemed indisposed to give her this privilege. "of all the propositions which i ever heard," said he, "it is the most unreasonable. it amounts to this, that you are too proud to live rent-free in a house which belongs to your husband's brother, and therefore you intend to subject yourself and your children to the great discomfort of a very straitened income. if you yourself only were concerned i should have no right to say anything; but i think myself bound to tell you that, as regards the girls, everybody that knows you will think you to have been very wrong. it is in the natural course of things that they should live in that house. the place has never been let. as far as i know, no rent has ever been paid for the house since it was built. it has always been given to some member of the family, who has been considered as having the best right to it. i have considered your footing there as firm as my own here. a quarrel between me and your children would be to me a great calamity, though, perhaps, they might be indifferent to it. but if there were such a quarrel it would afford no reason for their leaving that house. let me beg you to think over the matter again." [illustration: "let me beg you to think over the matter again."] the squire could assume an air of authority on certain occasions, and he had done so now. mrs. dale found that she could only answer him by a simple repetition of her own intention; and, indeed, failed in making him any serviceable answer whatsoever. "i know that you are very good to my girls," she said. "i will say nothing about that," he answered; not thinking at that moment of the small house, but of the full possession which he had desired to give to the elder of all the privileges which should belong to the mistress of allington,--thinking also of the means by which he was hoping to repair poor lily's shattered fortunes. what words were further said had no great significance, and mrs. dale got herself away, feeling that she had failed. as soon as she was gone the squire arose, and putting on his great-coat, went forth with his hat and stick to the front of the house. he went out in order that his thoughts might be more free, and that he might indulge in that solace which an injured man finds in contemplating his injury. he declared to himself that he was very hardly used,--so hardly used, that he almost began to doubt himself and his own motives. why was it that the people around him disliked him so strongly,--avoided him and thwarted him in the efforts which he made for their welfare? he offered to his nephew all the privileges of a son,--much more indeed than the privileges of a son,--merely asking in return that he would consent to live permanently in the house which was to be his own. but his nephew refused. "he cannot bear to live with me," said the old man to himself sorely. he was prepared to treat his nieces with more generosity than the daughters of the house of allington had usually received from their fathers; and they repelled his kindness, running away from him, and telling him openly that they would not be beholden to him. he walked slowly up and down the terrace, thinking of this very bitterly. he did not find in the contemplation of his grievance all that solace which a grievance usually gives, because he accused himself in his thoughts rather than others. he declared to himself that he was made to be hated, and protested to himself that it would be well that he should die and be buried out of memory, so that the remaining dales might have a better chance of living happily; and then as he thus discussed all this within his own bosom, his thoughts were very tender, and though he was aggrieved, he was most affectionate to those who had most injured him. but it was absolutely beyond his power to reproduce outwardly, with words and outward signs, such thoughts and feelings. it was now very nearly the end of the year, but the weather was still soft and open. the air was damp rather than cold, and the lawns and fields still retained the green tints of new vegetation. as the squire was walking on the terrace hopkins came up to him, and touching his hat, remarked that they should have frost in a day or two. "i suppose we shall," said the squire. "we must have the mason to the flues of that little grape-house, sir, before i can do any good with a fire there." "which grape-house?" said the squire, crossly. "why, the grape-house in the other garden, sir. it ought to have been done last year by rights." this hopkins said to punish his master for being cross to him. on that matter of the flues of mrs. dale's grape-house he had, with much consideration, spared his master during the last winter, and he felt that this ought to be remembered now. "i can't put any fire in it, not to do any real good, till something's done. that's sure." "then don't put any fire in it," said the squire. now the grapes in question were supposed to be peculiarly fine, and were the glory of the garden of the small house. they were always forced, though not forced so early as those at the great house, and hopkins was in a state of great confusion. "they'll never ripen, sir; not the whole year through." "then let them be unripe," said the squire, walking about. hopkins did not at all understand it. the squire in his natural course was very unwilling to neglect any such matter as this, but would be specially unwilling to neglect anything touching the small house. so hopkins stood on the terrace, raising his hat and scratching his head. "there's something wrong amongst them," said he to himself, sorrowfully. but when the squire had walked to the end of the terrace and had turned upon the path which led round the side of the house, he stopped and called to hopkins. "have what is needful done to the flue," he said. "yes, sir; very well, sir. it'll only be re-setting the bricks. nothing more ain't needful, just this winter." "have the place put in perfect order while you're about it," said the squire, and then he walked away. chapter xxxix. dr. crofts is turned out. "have you heard the news, my dear, from the small house?" said mrs. boyce to her husband, some two or three days after mrs. dale's visit to the squire. it was one o'clock, and the parish pastor had come in from his ministrations to dine with his wife and children. "what news?" said mr. boyce, for he had heard none. "mrs. dale and the girls are going to leave the small house; they're going into guestwick to live." "mrs. dale going away; nonsense!" said the vicar. "what on earth should take her into guestwick? she doesn't pay a shilling of rent where she is." "i can assure you it's true, my dear. i was with mrs. hearn just now, and she had it direct from mrs. dale's own lips. mrs. hearn said she'd never been taken so much aback in her whole life. there's been some quarrel, you may be sure of that." mr. boyce sat silent, pulling off his dirty shoes preparatory to his dinner. tidings so important, as touching the social life of his parish, had not come to him for many a day, and he could hardly bring himself to credit them at so short a notice. "mrs. hearn says that mrs. dale spoke ever so firmly about it, as though determined that nothing should change her." "and did she say why?" "well, not exactly. but mrs. hearn said she could understand there had been words between her and the squire. it couldn't be anything else, you know. probably it had something to do with that man crosbie." "they'll be very pushed about money," said mr. boyce, thrusting his feet into his slippers. "that's just what i said to mrs. hearn. and those girls have never been used to anything like real economy. what's to become of them i don't know;" and mrs. boyce, as she expressed her sympathy for her dear friends, received considerable comfort from the prospect of their future poverty. it always is so, and mrs. boyce was not worse than her neighbours. "you'll find they'll make it up before the time comes," said mr. boyce, to whom the excitement of such a change in affairs was almost too good to be true. "i am afraid not," said mrs. boyce; "i'm afraid not. they are both so determined. i always thought that riding and giving the girls hats and habits was injurious. it was treating them as though they were the squire's daughters, and they were not the squire's daughters." "it was almost the same thing." "but now we see the difference," said the judicious mrs. boyce. "i often said that dear mrs. dale was wrong, and it turns out that i was right. it will make no difference to me, as regards calling on them and that sort of thing." "of course it won't." "not but what there must be a difference, and a very great difference too. it will be a terrible come down for poor lily, with the loss of her fine husband and all." after dinner, when mr. boyce had again gone forth upon his labours, the same subject was discussed between mrs. boyce and her daughters, and the mother was very careful to teach her children that mrs. dale would be just as good a person as ever she had been, and quite as much a lady, even though she should live in a very dingy house at guestwick; from which lesson the boyce girls learned plainly that mrs. dale, with bell and lily, were about to have a fall in the world, and that they were to be treated accordingly. from all this, it will be discovered that mrs. dale had not given way to the squire's arguments, although she had found herself unable to answer them. as she had returned home she had felt herself to be almost vanquished, and had spoken to the girls with the air and tone of a woman who hardly knew in which course lay the line of her duty. but they had not seen the squire's manner on the occasion, nor heard his words, and they could not understand that their own purpose should be abandoned because he did not like it. so they talked their mother into fresh resolves, and on the following morning she wrote a note to her brother-in-law, assuring him that she had thought much of all that he had said, but again declaring that she regarded herself as bound in duty to leave the small house. to this he had returned no answer, and she had communicated her intention to mrs. hearn, thinking it better that there should be no secret in the matter. "i am sorry to hear that your sister-in-law is going to leave us," mr. boyce said to the squire that same afternoon. "who told you that?" asked the squire, showing by his tone that he by no means liked the topic of conversation which the parson had chosen. "well, i had it from mrs. boyce, and i think mrs. hearn told her." "i wish mrs. hearn would mind her own business, and not spread idle reports." the squire said nothing more, and mr. boyce felt that he had been very unjustly snubbed. dr. crofts had come over and pronounced as a fact that it was scarlatina. village apothecaries are generally wronged by the doubts which are thrown upon them, for the town doctors when they come always confirm what the village apothecaries have said. "there can be no doubt as to its being scarlatina," the doctor declared; "but the symptoms are all favourable." there was, however, much worse coming than this. two days afterwards lily found herself to be rather unwell. she endeavoured to keep it to herself, fearing that she should be brought under the doctor's notice as a patient; but her efforts were unavailing, and on the following morning it was known that she had also taken the disease. dr. crofts declared that everything was in her favour. the weather was cold. the presence of the malady in the house had caused them all to be careful, and, moreover, good advice was at hand at once. the doctor begged mrs. dale not to be uneasy, but he was very eager in begging that the two sisters might not be allowed to be together. "could you not send bell into guestwick,--to mrs. eames's?" said he. but bell did not choose to be sent to mrs. eames's, and was with great difficulty kept out of her mother's bedroom, to which lily as an invalid was transferred. "if you will allow me to say so," he said to bell, on the second day after lily's complaint had declared itself, "you are wrong to stay here in the house." "i certainly shall not leave mamma, when she has got so much upon her hands," said bell. "but if you should be taken ill she would have more on her hands," pleaded the doctor. "i could not do it," bell replied. "if i were taken over to guestwick, i should be so uneasy that i should walk back to allington the first moment that i could escape from the house." "i think your mother would be more comfortable without you." "and i think she would be more comfortable with me. i don't ever like to hear of a woman running away from illness; but when a sister or a daughter does so, it is intolerable." so bell remained, without permission indeed to see her sister, but performing various outside administrations which were much needed. and thus all manner of trouble came upon the inhabitants of the small house, falling upon them as it were in a heap together. it was as yet barely two months since those terrible tidings had come respecting crosbie; tidings which, it was felt at the time, would of themselves be sufficient to crush them; and now to that misfortune other misfortunes had been added,--one quick upon the heels of another. in the teeth of the doctor's kind prophecy lily became very ill, and after a few days was delirious. she would talk to her mother about crosbie, speaking of him as she used to speak in the autumn that was passed. but even in her madness she remembered that they had resolved to leave their present home; and she asked the doctor twice whether their lodgings in guestwick were ready for them. it was thus that crofts first heard of their intention. now, in these days of lily's worst illness, he came daily over to allington, remaining there, on one occasion, the whole night. for all this he would take no fee;--nor had he ever taken a fee from mrs. dale. "i wish you would not come so often," bell said to him one evening, as he stood with her at the drawing-room fire, after he had left the patient's room; "you are overloading us with obligations." on that day lily was over the worst of the fever, and he had been able to tell mrs. dale that he did not think that she was now in danger. "it will not be necessary much longer," he said; "the worst of it is over." "it is such a luxury to hear you say so. i suppose we shall owe her life to you; but nevertheless--" "oh, no; scarlatina is not such a terrible thing now as it used to be." "then why should you have devoted your time to her as you have done? it frightens me when i think of the injury we must have done you." "my horse has felt it more than i have," said the doctor, laughing. "my patients at guestwick are not so very numerous." then, instead of going, he sat himself down. "and it is really true," he said, "that you are all going to leave this house?" "quite true. we shall do so at the end of march, if lily is well enough to be moved." "lily will be well long before that, i hope; not, indeed, that she ought to be moved out of her own rooms for many weeks to come yet." "unless we are stopped by her we shall certainly go at the end of march." bell now had also sat down, and they both remained for some time looking at the fire in silence. "and why is it, bell?" he said, at last. "but i don't know whether i have a right to ask." "you have a right to ask any question about us," she said. "my uncle is very kind. he is more than kind; he is generous. but he seems to think that our living here gives him a right to interfere with mamma. we don't like that, and, therefore, we are going." the doctor still sat on one side of the fire, and bell still sat opposite to him; but the conversation did not form itself very freely between them. "it is bad news," he said, at last. "at any rate, when we are ill you will not have so far to come and see us." "yes, i understand. that means that i am ungracious not to congratulate myself on having you all so much nearer to me; but i do not in the least. i cannot bear to think of you as living anywhere but here at allington. dales will be out of their place in a street at guestwick." "that's hard upon the dales, too." "it is hard upon them. it's a sort of offshoot from that very tyrannical law of noblesse oblige. i don't think you ought to go away from allington, unless the circumstances are very imperative." "but they are very imperative." "in that case, indeed!" and then again he fell into silence. "have you never seen that mamma is not happy here?" she said, after another pause. "for myself, i never quite understood it all before as i do now; but now i see it." "and i have seen it;--have seen at least what you mean. she has led a life of restraint; but then, how frequently is such restraint the necessity of a life? i hardly think that your mother would move on that account." "no. it is on our account. but this restraint, as you call it, makes us unhappy, and she is governed by seeing that. my uncle is generous to her as regards money; but in other things,--in matters of feeling,--i think he has been ungenerous." "bell," said the doctor; and then he paused. she looked up at him, but made no answer. he had always called her by her christian name, and they two had ever regarded each other as close friends. at the present moment she had forgotten all else besides this, and yet she had infinite pleasure in sitting there and talking to him. "i am going to ask you a question which perhaps i ought not to ask, only that i have known you so long that i almost feel that i am speaking to a sister." "you may ask me what you please," said she. "it is about your cousin bernard." "about bernard!" said bell. it was now dusk; and as they were sitting without other light than that of the fire, she knew that he could not discern the colour which covered her face as her cousin's name was mentioned. but, had the light of day pervaded the whole room, i doubt whether crofts would have seen that blush, for he kept his eyes firmly fixed upon the fire. "yes, about bernard. i don't know whether i ought to ask you." "i'm sure i can't say," said bell, speaking words of the nature of which she was not conscious. "there has been a rumour in guestwick that he and you--" "it is untrue," said bell; "quite untrue. if you hear it repeated, you should contradict it. i wonder why people should say such things." "it would have been an excellent marriage;--all your friends must have approved it." "what do you mean, dr. crofts? how i do hate those words, 'an excellent marriage.' in them is contained more of wicked worldliness than any other words that one ever hears spoken. you want me to marry my cousin simply because i should have a great house to live in, and a coach. i know that you are my friend; but i hate such friendship as that." "i think you misunderstand me, bell. i mean that it would have been an excellent marriage, provided you had both loved each other." "no, i don't misunderstand you. of course it would be an excellent marriage, if we loved each other. you might say the same if i loved the butcher or the baker. what you mean is, that it makes a reason for loving him." "i don't think i did mean that." "then you mean nothing." after that, there were again some minutes of silence during which dr. crofts got up to go away. "you have scolded me very dreadfully," he said, with a slight smile, "and i believe i have deserved it for interfering--" "no; not at all for interfering." "but at any rate you must forgive me before i go." "i won't forgive you at all, unless you repent of your sins, and alter altogether the wickedness of your mind. you will become very soon as bad as dr. gruffen." "shall i?" "oh, but i will forgive you; for after all, you are the most generous man in the world." "oh, yes; of course i am. well,--good-by." "but, dr. crofts, you should not suppose others to be so much more worldly than yourself. you do not care for money so very much--" "but i do care very much." "if you did, you would not come here for nothing day after day." "i do care for money very much. i have sometimes nearly broken my heart because i could not get opportunities of earning it. it is the best friend that a man can have--" "oh, dr. crofts!" "--the best friend that a man can have, if it be honestly come by. a woman can hardly realize the sorrow which may fall upon a man from the want of such a friend." "of course a man likes to earn a decent living by his profession; and you can do that." "that depends upon one's ideas of decency." "ah! mine never ran very high. i've always had a sort of aptitude for living in a pigsty;--a clean pigsty, you know, with nice fresh bean straw to lie upon. i think it was a mistake when they made a lady of me. i do, indeed." "i do not," said dr. crofts. "that's because you don't quite know me yet. i've not the slightest pleasure in putting on three different dresses a day. i do it very often because it comes to me to do it, from the way in which we have been taught to live. but when we get to guestwick i mean to change all that; and if you come in to tea, you'll see me in the same brown frock that i wear in the morning,--unless, indeed, the morning work makes the brown frock dirty. oh, dr. crofts! you'll have it pitch-dark riding home under the guestwick elms." "i don't mind the dark," he said; and it seemed as though he hardly intended to go even yet. "but i do," said bell, "and i shall ring for candles." but he stopped her as she put her hand out to the bell-pull. "stop a moment, bell. you need hardly have the candles before i go, and you need not begrudge my staying either, seeing that i shall be all alone at home." "begrudge your staying!" "but, however, you shall begrudge it, or else make me very welcome." he still held her by the wrist, which he had caught as he prevented her from summoning the servant. "what do you mean?" said she. "you know you are welcome to us as flowers in may. you always were welcome; but now, when you have come to us in our trouble-- at any rate, you shall never say that i turn you out." "shall i never say so?" and still he held her by the wrist. he had kept his chair throughout, but she was standing before him,--between him and the fire. but she, though he held her in this way, thought little of his words, or of his action. they had known each other with great intimacy, and though lily would still laugh at her, saying that dr. crofts was her lover, she had long since taught herself that no such feeling as that would ever exist between them. "shall i never say so, bell? what if so poor a man as i ask for the hand that you will not give to so rich a man as your cousin bernard?" she instantly withdrew her arm and moved back very quickly a step or two across the rug. she did it almost with the motion which she might have used had he insulted her; or had a man spoken such words who would not, under any circumstances, have a right to speak them. "ah, yes! i thought it would be so," he said. "i may go now, and may know that i have been turned out." "what is it you mean, dr. crofts? what is it you are saying? why do you talk that nonsense, trying to see if you can provoke me?" "yes; it is nonsense. i have no right to address you in that way, and certainly should not have done it now that i am in your house in the way of my profession. i beg your pardon." now he also was standing, but he had not moved from his side of the fireplace. "are you going to forgive me before i go?" "forgive you for what?" said she. "for daring to love you; for having loved you almost as long as you can remember; for loving you better than all beside. this alone you should forgive; but will you forgive me for having told it?" he had made her no offer, nor did she expect that he was about to make one. she herself had hardly yet realized the meaning of his words, and she certainly had asked herself no question as to the answer which she should give to them. there are cases in which lovers present themselves in so unmistakeable a guise, that the first word of open love uttered by them tells their whole story, and tells it without the possibility of a surprise. and it is generally so when the lover has not been an old friend, when even his acquaintance has been of modern date. it had been so essentially in the case of crosbie and lily dale. when crosbie came to lily and made his offer, he did it with perfect ease and thorough self-possession, for he almost knew that it was expected. and lily, though she had been flurried for a moment, had her answer pat enough. she already loved the man with all her heart, delighted in his presence, basked in the sunshine of his manliness, rejoiced in his wit, and had tuned her ears to the tone of his voice. it had all been done, and the world expected it. had he not made his offer, lily would have been ill-treated;--though, alas, alas, there was future ill-treatment, so much heavier, in store for her! but there are other cases in which a lover cannot make himself known as such without great difficulty, and when he does do so, cannot hope for an immediate answer in his favour. it is hard upon old friends that this difficulty should usually fall the heaviest upon them. crofts had been so intimate with the dale family that very many persons had thought it probable that he would marry one of the girls. mrs. dale herself had thought so, and had almost hoped it. lily had certainly done both. these thoughts and hopes had somewhat faded away, but yet their former existence should have been in the doctor's favour. but now, when he had in some way spoken out, bell started back from him and would not believe that he was in earnest. she probably loved him better than any man in the world, and yet, when he spoke to her of love, she could not bring herself to understand him. "i don't know what you mean, dr. crofts; indeed i do not," she said. "i had meant to ask you to be my wife; simply that. but you shall not have the pain of making me a positive refusal. as i rode here to-day i thought of it. during my frequent rides of late i have thought of little else. but i told myself that i had no right to do it. i have not even a house in which it would be fit that you should live." "dr. crofts, if i loved you,--if i wished to marry you--" and then she stopped herself. "but you do not?" "no; i think not. i suppose not. no. but in any way no consideration about money has anything to do with it." "but i am not that butcher or that baker whom you could love?" "no," said bell; and then she stopped herself from further speech, not as intending to convey all her answer in that one word, but as not knowing how to fashion any further words. "i knew it would be so," said the doctor. it will, i fear, be thought by those who condescend to criticize this lover's conduct and his mode of carrying on his suit, that he was very unfit for such work. ladies will say that he wanted courage, and men will say that he wanted wit. i am inclined, however, to believe that he behaved as well as men generally do behave on such occasions, and that he showed himself to be a good average lover. there is your bold lover, who knocks his lady-love over as he does a bird, and who would anathematize himself all over, and swear that his gun was distraught, and look about as though he thought the world was coming to an end, if he missed to knock over his bird. and there is your timid lover, who winks his eyes when he fires, who has felt certain from the moment in which he buttoned on his knickerbockers that he at any rate would kill nothing, and who, when he hears the loud congratulations of his friends, cannot believe that he really did bag that beautiful winged thing by his own prowess. the beautiful winged thing which the timid man carries home in his bosom, declining to have it thrown into a miscellaneous cart, so that it may never be lost in a common crowd of game, is better to him than are the slaughtered hecatombs to those who kill their birds by the hundred. but dr. crofts had so winked his eye, that he was not in the least aware whether he had winged his bird or no. indeed, having no one at hand to congratulate him, he was quite sure that the bird had flown away uninjured into the next field. "no" was the only word which bell had given in answer to his last sidelong question, and no is not a comfortable word to lovers. but there had been that in bell's no which might have taught him that the bird was not escaping without a wound, if he had still had any of his wits about him. "now i will go," said he. then he paused for an answer, but none came. "and you will understand what i meant when i spoke of being turned out." "nobody--turns you out." and bell, as she spoke, had almost descended to a sob. "it is time, at any rate, that i should go; is it not? and, bell, don't suppose that this little scene will keep me away from your sister's bedside. i shall be here to-morrow, and you will find that you will hardly know me again for the same person." then in the dark he put out his hand to her. "good-by," she said, giving him her hand. he pressed hers very closely, but she, though she wished to do so, could not bring herself to return the pressure. her hand remained passive in his, showing no sign of offence; but it was absolutely passive. "good-by, dearest friend," he said. "good-by," she answered,--and then he was gone. she waited quite still till she heard the front-door close after him, and then she crept silently up to her own bedroom, and sat herself down in a low rocking-chair over the fire. it was in accordance with a custom already established that her mother should remain with lily till the tea was ready downstairs; for in these days of illness such dinners as were provided were eaten early. bell, therefore, knew that she had still some half-hour of her own, during which she might sit and think undisturbed. and what naturally should have been her first thoughts?--that she had ruthlessly refused a man who, as she now knew, loved her well, and for whom she had always felt at any rate the warmest friendship? such were not her thoughts, nor were they in any way akin to this. they ran back instantly to years gone by,--over long years, as her few years were counted,--and settled themselves on certain halcyon days, in which she had dreamed that he had loved her, and had fancied that she had loved him. how she had schooled herself for those days since that, and taught herself to know that her thoughts had been over-bold! and now it had all come round. the only man that she had ever liked had loved her. then there came to her a memory of a certain day, in which she had been almost proud to think that crosbie had admired her, in which she had almost hoped that it might be so; and as she thought of this she blushed, and struck her foot twice upon the floor. "dear lily," she said to herself--"poor lily!" but the feeling which induced her then to think of her sister had had no relation to that which had first brought crosbie into her mind. and this man had loved her through it all,--this priceless, peerless man,--this man who was as true to the backbone as that other man had shown himself to be false; who was as sound as the other man had proved himself to be rotten. a smile came across her face as she sat looking at the fire, thinking of this. a man had loved her, whose love was worth possessing. she hardly remembered whether or no she had refused him or accepted him. she hardly asked herself what she would do. as to all that it was necessary that she should have many thoughts, but the necessity did not press upon her quite immediately. for the present, at any rate, she might sit and triumph;--and thus triumphant she sat there till the old nurse came in and told her that her mother was waiting for her below. chapter xl. preparations for the wedding. [illustration: (untitled)] the fourteenth of february was finally settled as the day on which mr. crosbie was to be made the happiest of men. a later day had been at first named, the twenty-seventh or twenty-eighth having been suggested as an improvement over the first week in march; but lady amelia had been frightened by crosbie's behaviour on that sunday evening, and had made the countess understand that there should be no unnecessary delay. "he doesn't scruple at that kind of thing," lady amelia had said in one of her letters, showing perhaps less trust in the potency of her own rank than might have been expected from her. the countess, however, had agreed with her, and when crosbie received from his mother-in-law a very affectionate epistle, setting forth all the reasons which would make the fourteenth so much more convenient a day than the twenty-eighth, he was unable to invent an excuse for not being made happy a fortnight earlier than the time named in the bargain. his first impulse had been against yielding, arising from some feeling which made him think that more than the bargain ought not to be exacted. but what was the use to him of quarrelling? what the use, at least, of quarrelling just then? he believed that he could more easily enfranchise himself from the de courcy tyranny when he should be once married than he could do now. when lady alexandrina should be his own he would let her know that he intended to be her master. if in doing so it would be necessary that he should divide himself altogether from the de courcys, such division should be made. at the present moment he would yield to them, at any rate in this matter. and so the fourteenth of february was fixed for the marriage. in the second week in january alexandrina came up to look after her things; or, in more noble language, to fit herself with becoming bridal appanages. as she could not properly do all this work alone, or even under the surveillance and with the assistance of a sister, lady de courcy was to come up also. but alexandrina came first, remaining with her sister in st. john's wood till the countess should arrive. the countess had never yet condescended to accept of her son-in-law's hospitality, but always went to the cold, comfortless house in portman square,--the house which had been the de courcy town family mansion for many years, and which the countess would long since have willingly exchanged for some abode on the other side of oxford street; but the earl had been obdurate; his clubs and certain lodgings which he had occasionally been wont to occupy, were on the right side of oxford street; why should he change his old family residence? so the countess was coming up to portman square, not having been even asked on this occasion to st. john's wood. "don't you think we'd better," mr. gazebee had said to his wife, almost trembling at the renewal of his own proposition. "i think not, my dear," lady amelia had answered. "mamma is not very particular; but there are little things, you know--" "oh, yes, of course," said mr. gazebee; and then the conversation had been dropped. he would most willingly have entertained his august mother-in-law during her visit to the metropolis, and yet her presence in his house would have made him miserable as long as she remained there. but for a week alexandrina sojourned under mr. gazebee's roof, during which time crosbie was made happy with all the delights of an expectant bridegroom. of course he was given to understand that he was to dine at the gazebees' every day, and spend all his evenings there; and, under the circumstances, he had no excuse for not doing so. indeed, at the present moment, his hours would otherwise have hung heavily enough upon his hands. in spite of his bold resolution with reference to his eye, and his intention not to be debarred from the pleasures of society by the marks of the late combat, he had not, since that occurrence, frequented his club very closely; and though london was now again becoming fairly full, he did not find himself going out so much as had been his wont. the brilliance of his coming marriage did not seem to have added much to his popularity; in fact, the world,--his world,--was beginning to look coldly at him. therefore that daily attendance at st. john's wood was not felt to be so irksome as might have been expected. a residence had been taken for the couple in a very fashionable row of buildings abutting upon the bayswater road, called princess royal crescent. the house was quite new, and the street being unfinished had about it a strong smell of mortar, and a general aspect of builders' poles and brickbats; but nevertheless, it was acknowledged to be a quite correct locality. from one end of the crescent a corner of hyde park could be seen, and the other abutted on a very handsome terrace indeed, in which lived an ambassador,--from south america,--a few bankers' senior clerks, and a peer of the realm. we know how vile is the sound of baker street, and how absolutely foul to the polite ear is the name of fitzroy square. the houses, however, in those purlieus are substantial, warm, and of good size. the house in princess royal crescent was certainly not substantial, for in these days substantially-built houses do not pay. it could hardly have been warm, for, to speak the truth, it was even yet not finished throughout; and as for the size, though the drawing-room was a noble apartment, consisting of a section of the whole house, with a corner cut out for the staircase, it was very much cramped in its other parts, and was made like a cherub, in this respect, that it had no rear belonging to it. "but if you have no private fortune of your own, you cannot have everything," as the countess observed when crosbie objected to the house because a closet under the kitchen-stairs was to be assigned to him as his own dressing-room. when the question of the house was first debated, lady amelia had been anxious that st. john's wood should be selected as the site, but to this crosbie had positively objected. "i think you don't like st. john's wood," lady amelia had said to him somewhat sternly, thinking to awe him into a declaration that he entertained no general enmity to the neighbourhood. but crosbie was not weak enough for this. "no; i do not," he said. "i have always disliked it. it amounts to a prejudice, i daresay. but if i were made to live here i am convinced i should cut my throat in the first six months." lady amelia had then drawn herself up, declaring her sorrow that her house should be so hateful to him. "oh, dear, no," said he. "i like it very much for you, and enjoy coming here of all things. i speak only of the effect which living here myself would have upon me." lady amelia was quite clever enough to understand it all; but she had her sister's interest at heart, and therefore persevered in her affectionate solicitude for her brother-in-law, giving up that point as to st. john's wood. crosbie himself had wished to go to one of the new pimlico squares down near vauxhall bridge and the river, actuated chiefly by consideration of the enormous distance lying between that locality and the northern region in which lady amelia lived; but to this lady alexandrina had objected strongly. if, indeed, they could have achieved eaton square, or a street leading out of eaton square,--if they could have crept on to the hem of the skirt of belgravia,--the bride would have been delighted. and at first she was very nearly being taken in with the idea that such was the proposal made to her. her geographical knowledge of pimlico had not been perfect, and she had nearly fallen into a fatal error. but a friend had kindly intervened. "for heaven's sake, my dear, don't let him take you anywhere beyond eccleston square!" had been exclaimed to her in dismay by a faithful married friend. thus warned, alexandrina had been firm, and now their tent was to be pitched in princess royal crescent, from one end of which the hyde park may be seen. the furniture had been ordered chiefly under the inspection, and by the experience, of the lady amelia. crosbie had satisfied himself by declaring that she at any rate could get the things cheaper than he could buy them, and that he had no taste for such employment. nevertheless, he had felt that he was being made subject to tyranny and brought under the thumb of subjection. he could not go cordially into this matter of beds and chairs, and, therefore, at last deputed the whole matter to the de courcy faction. and for this there was another reason, not hitherto mentioned. mr. mortimer gazebee was finding the money with which all the furniture was being bought. he, with an honest but almost unintelligible zeal for the de courcy family, had tied up every shilling on which he could lay his hand as belonging to crosbie, in the interest of lady alexandrina. he had gone to work for her, scraping here and arranging there, strapping the new husband down upon the grindstone of his matrimonial settlement, as though the future bread of his, gazebee's, own children were dependent on the validity of his legal workmanship. and for this he was not to receive a penny, or gain any advantage, immediate or ulterior. it came from his zeal,--his zeal for the coronet which lord de courcy wore. according to his mind an earl and an earl's belongings were entitled to such zeal. it was the theory in which he had been educated, and amounted to a worship which, unconsciously, he practised. personally, he disliked lord de courcy, who ill-treated him. he knew that the earl was a heartless, cruel, bad man. but as an earl he was entitled to an amount of service which no commoner could have commanded from mr. gazebee. mr. gazebee, having thus tied up all the available funds in favour of lady alexandrina's seemingly expected widowhood, was himself providing the money with which the new house was to be furnished. "you can pay me a hundred and fifty a year with four per cent. till it is liquidated," he had said to crosbie; and crosbie had assented with a grunt. hitherto, though he had lived in london expensively, and as a man of fashion, he had never owed any one anything. he was now to begin that career of owing. but when a clerk in a public office marries an earl's daughter, he cannot expect to have everything his own way. lady amelia had bought the ordinary furniture--the beds, the stair-carpets, the washing-stands, and the kitchen things. gazebee had got a bargain of the dinner-table and sideboard. but lady alexandrina herself was to come up with reference to the appurtenances of the drawing-room. it was with reference to matters of costume that the countess intended to lend her assistance--matters of costume as to which the bill could not be sent in to gazebee, and be paid for by him with five per cent. duly charged against the bridegroom. the bridal trousseau must be produced by de courcy's means, and, therefore, it was necessary that the countess herself should come upon the scene. "i will have no bills, d'ye hear?" snarled the earl, gnashing and snapping upon his words with one specially ugly black tooth. "i won't have any bills about this affair." and yet he made no offer of ready money. it was very necessary under such circumstances that the countess herself should come upon the scene. an ambiguous hint had been conveyed to mr. gazebee, during a visit of business which he had lately made to courcy castle, that the milliner's bills might as well be pinned on to those of the furniture-makers, the crockery-mongers, and the like. the countess, putting it in her own way, had gently suggested that the fashion of the thing had changed lately, and that such an arrangement was considered to be the proper thing among people who lived really in the world. but gazebee was a clear-headed, honest man; and he knew the countess. he did not think that such an arrangement could be made on the present occasion. whereupon the countess pushed her suggestion no further, but made up her mind that she must come up to london herself. it was pleasant to see the ladies amelia and alexandrina, as they sat within a vast emporium of carpets in bond street, asking questions of the four men who were waiting upon them, putting their heads together and whispering, calculating accurately as to extra twopences a yard, and occasioning as much trouble as it was possible for them to give. it was pleasant because they managed their large hoops cleverly among the huge rolls of carpets, because they were enjoying themselves thoroughly, and taking to themselves the homage of the men as clearly their due. but it was not so pleasant to look at crosbie, who was fidgeting to get away to his office, to whom no power of choosing in the matter was really given, and whom the men regarded as being altogether supernumerary. the ladies had promised to be at the shop by half-past ten, so that crosbie should reach his office at eleven--or a little after. but it was nearly eleven before they left the gazebee residence, and it was very evident that half-an-hour among the carpets would be by no means sufficient. it seemed as though miles upon miles of gorgeous colouring were unrolled before them; and then when any pattern was regarded as at all practicable, it was unrolled backwards and forwards till a room was nearly covered by it. crosbie felt for the men who were hauling about the huge heaps of material; but lady amelia sat as composed as though it were her duty to inspect every yard of stuff in the warehouse. "i think we'll look at that one at the bottom again." then the men went to work and removed a mountain. "no, my dear, that green in the scroll-work won't do. it would fly directly, if any hot water were spilt." the man smiling ineffably, declared that that particular green never flew anywhere. but lady amelia paid no attention to him, and the carpet for which the mountain had been removed became part of another mountain. "that might do," said alexandrina, gazing upon a magnificent crimson ground through which rivers of yellow meandered, carrying with them in their streams an infinity of blue flowers. and as she spoke she held her head gracefully on one side, and looked down upon the carpet doubtingly. lady amelia poked it with her parasol as though to test its durability, and whispered something about yellows showing the dirt. crosbie took out his watch and groaned. [illustration: "that might do."] "it's a superb carpet, my lady, and about the newest thing we have. we put down four hundred and fifty yards of it for the duchess of south wales, at cwddglwlch castle, only last month. nobody has had it since, for it has not been in stock." whereupon lady amelia again poked it, and then got up and walked upon it. lady alexandrina held her head a little more on one side. "five and three?" said lady amelia. "oh, no, my lady; five and seven; and the cheapest carpet we have in the house. there is twopence a yard more in the colour; there is, indeed." "and the discount?" asked lady amelia. "two and a half, my lady." "oh dear, no," said lady amelia. "i always have five per cent. for immediate payment--quite immediate, you know." upon which the man declared the question must be referred to his master. two and a half was the rule of the house. crosbie, who had been looking out of the window, said that upon his honour he couldn't wait any longer. "and what do you think of it, adolphus?" asked alexandrina. "think of what?" "of the carpet--this one, you know!" "oh--what do i think of the carpet? i don't think i quite like all these yellow bands; and isn't it too red? i should have thought something brown with a small pattern would have been better. but, upon my word, i don't much care." "of course he doesn't," said lady amelia. then the two ladies put their heads together for another five minutes, and the carpet was chosen--subject to that question of the discount. "and now about the rug," said lady amelia. but here crosbie rebelled, and insisted that he must leave them and go to his office. "you can't want me about the rug," he said. "well, perhaps not," said lady amelia. but it was manifest that alexandrina did not approve of being thus left by her male attendant. the same thing happened in oxford street with reference to the chairs and sofas, and crosbie began to wish that he were settled, even though he should have to dress himself in the closet below the kitchen-stairs. he was learning to hate the whole household in st. john's wood, and almost all that belonged to it. he was introduced there to little family economies of which hitherto he had known nothing, and which were disgusting to him, and the necessity for which was especially explained to him. it was to men placed as he was about to place himself that these economies were so vitally essential--to men who with limited means had to maintain a decorous outward face towards the fashionable world. ample supplies of butchers' meat and unlimited washing-bills might be very well upon fifteen hundred a year to those who went out but seldom, and who could use the first cab that came to hand when they did go out. but there were certain things that lady alexandrina must do, and therefore the strictest household economy became necessary. would lily dale have required the use of a carriage, got up to look as though it were private, at the expense of her husband's beefsteaks and clean shirts? that question and others of that nature were asked by crosbie within his own mind, not unfrequently. but, nevertheless, he tried to love alexandrina, or rather to persuade himself that he loved her. if he could only get her away from the de courcy faction, and especially from the gazebee branch of it, he would break her of all that. he would teach her to sit triumphantly in a street cab, and to cater for her table with a plentiful hand. teach her!--at some age over thirty; and with such careful training as she had already received! did he intend to forbid her ever again to see her relations, ever to go to st. john's wood, or to correspond with the countess and lady margaretta? teach her, indeed! had he yet to learn that he could not wash a blackamoor white?--that he could not have done so even had he himself been well adapted for the attempt, whereas he was in truth nearly as ill adapted as a man might be? but who could pity him? lily, whom he might have had in his bosom, would have been no blackamoor. then came the time of lady de courcy's visit to town, and alexandrina moved herself off to portman square. there was some apparent comfort in this to crosbie, for he would thereby be saved from those daily dreary journeys up to the north-west. i may say that he positively hated that windy corner near the church, round which he had to walk in getting to the gazebee residence, and that he hated the lamp which guided him to the door, and the very door itself. this door stood buried as it were in a wall, and opened on to a narrow passage which ran across a so-called garden, or front yard, containing on each side two iron receptacles for geraniums, painted to look like palissy ware, and a naked female on a pedestal. no spot in london was, as he thought, so cold as the bit of pavement immediately in front of that door. and there he would be kept five, ten, fifteen minutes, as he declared--though i believe in my heart that the time never exceeded three,--while richard was putting off the trappings of his work and putting on the trappings of his grandeur. if people would only have their doors opened to you by such assistance as may come most easily and naturally to the work! i stood lately for some minutes on a tuesday afternoon at a gallant portal, and as i waxed impatient a pretty maiden came and opened it. she was a pretty maiden, though her hands and face and apron told tales of the fire-grates. "laws, sir," she said, "the visitors' day is wednesday; and if you would come then, there would be the man in livery!" she took my card with the corner of her apron, and did just as well as the man in livery; but what would have happened to her had her little speech been overheard by her mistress? crosbie hated the house in st. john's wood, and therefore the coming of the countess was a relief to him. portman square was easily to be reached, and the hospitalities of the countess would not be pressed upon him so strongly as those of the gazebees. when he first called he was shown into the great family dining-room, which looked out towards the back of the house. the front windows were, of course, closed, as the family was not supposed to be in london. here he remained in the room for some quarter of an hour, and then the countess descended upon him in all her grandeur. perhaps he had never before seen her so grand. her dress was very large, and rustled through the broad doorway, as if demanding even a broader passage. she had on a wonder of a bonnet, and a velvet mantle that was nearly as expansive as her petticoats. she threw her head a little back as she accosted him, and he instantly perceived that he was enveloped in the fumes of an affectionate but somewhat contemptuous patronage. in old days he had liked the countess, because her manner to him had always been flattering. in his intercourse with her he had been able to feel that he gave quite as much as he got, and that the countess was aware of the fact. in all the circumstances of their acquaintance the ascendancy had been with him, and therefore the acquaintance had been a pleasant one. the countess had been a good-natured, agreeable woman, whose rank and position had made her house pleasant to him; and therefore he had consented to shine upon her with such light as he had to give. why was it that the matter was reversed, now that there was so much stronger a cause for good feeling between them? he knew that there was such change, and with bitter internal upbraidings he acknowledged to himself that this woman was getting the mastery over him. as the friend of the countess he had been a great man in her eyes;--in all her little words and looks she had acknowledged his power; but now, as her son-in-law, he was to become a very little man,--such as was mortimer gazebee! "my dear adolphus," she said, taking both his hands, "the day is coming very near now; is it not?" "very near, indeed," he said. "yes, it is very near. i hope you feel yourself a happy man." "oh, yes, that's of course." "it ought to be. speaking very seriously, i mean that it ought to be a matter of course. she is everything that a man should desire in a wife. i am not alluding now to her rank, though of course you feel what a great advantage she gives you in this respect." crosbie muttered something as to his consciousness of having drawn a prize in the lottery; but he so muttered it as not to convey to the lady's ears a proper sense of his dependent gratitude. "i know of no man more fortunate than you have been," she continued; "and i hope that my dear girl will find that you are fully aware that it is so. i think that she is looking rather fagged. you have allowed her to do more than was good for her in the way of shopping." "she has done a good deal, certainly," said crosbie. "she is so little used to anything of that kind! but of course, as things have turned out, it was necessary that she should see to these things herself." "i rather think she liked it," said crosbie. "i believe she will always like doing her duty. we are just going now to madame millefranc's, to see some silks;--perhaps you would wish to go with us?" just at this moment alexandrina came into the room, and looked as though she were in all respects a smaller edition of her mother. they were both well-grown women, with handsome, large figures, and a certain air about them which answered almost for beauty. as to the countess, her face, on close inspection, bore, as it was entitled to do, deep signs of age; but she so managed her face that any such close inspection was never made; and her general appearance for her time of life was certainly good. very little more than this could be said in favour of her daughter. "oh dear, no, mamma," she said, having heard her mother's last words. "he's the worst person in a shop in the world. he likes nothing, and dislikes nothing. do you, adolphus?" "indeed i do. i like all the cheap things, and dislike all the dear things." "then you certainly shall not go with us to madame millefranc's," said alexandrina. "it would not matter to him there, you know, my dear," said the countess, thinking perhaps of the suggestion she had lately made to mr. gazebee. on this occasion crosbie managed to escape, simply promising to return to portman square in the evening after dinner. "by-the-by, adolphus," said the countess, as he handed her into the hired carriage which stood at the door, "i wish you would go to lambert's, on ludgate hill, for me. he has had a bracelet of mine for nearly three months. do, there's a good creature. get it if you can, and bring it up this evening." crosbie, as he made his way back to his office, swore that he would not do the bidding of the countess. he would not trudge off into the city after her trinkets. but at five o'clock, when he left his office, he did go there. he apologized to himself by saying that he had nothing else to do, and bethought himself that at the present moment his lady mother-in-law's smiles might be more convenient than her frowns. so he went to lambert's, on ludgate hill, and there learned that the bracelet had been sent down to courcy castle full two months since. after that he dined at his club, at sebright's. he dined alone, sitting by no means in bliss with his half-pint of sherry on the table before him. a man now and then came up and spoke to him, one a few words, and another a few, and two or three congratulated him as to his marriage; but the club was not the same thing to him as it had formerly been. he did not stand in the centre of the rug, speaking indifferently to all or any around him, ready with his joke, and loudly on the alert with the last news of the day. how easy it is to be seen when any man has fallen from his pride of place, though the altitude was ever so small, and the fall ever so slight. where is the man who can endure such a fall without showing it in his face, in his voice, in his step, and in every motion of every limb? crosbie knew that he had fallen, and showed that he knew it by the manner in which he ate his mutton chop. at half-past eight he was again in portman square, and found the two ladies crowding over a small fire in a small back drawing-room. the furniture was all covered with brown holland, and the place had about it that cold comfortless feeling which uninhabited rooms always produce. crosbie, as he had walked from the club up to portman square, had indulged in some serious thoughts. the kind of life which he had hitherto led had certainly passed away from him. he could never again be the pet of a club, or indulged as one to whom all good things were to be given without any labour at earning them on his own part. such for some years had been his good fortune, but such could be his good fortune no longer. was there anything within his reach which he might take in lieu of that which he had lost? he might still be victorious at his office, having more capacity for such victory than others around him. but such success alone would hardly suffice for him. then he considered whether he might not even yet be happy in his own home,--whether alexandrina, when separated from her mother, might not become such a wife as he could love. nothing softens a man's feelings so much as failure, or makes him turn so anxiously to an idea of home as buffetings from those he meets abroad. he had abandoned lily because his outer world had seemed to him too bright to be deserted. he would endeavour to supply her place with alexandrina, because his outer world had seemed to him too harsh to be supported. alas! alas! a man cannot so easily repent of his sins, and wash himself white from their stains! when he entered the room the two ladies were sitting over the fire, as i have stated, and crosbie could immediately perceive that the spirit of the countess was not serene. in fact there had been a few words between the mother and child on that matter of the trousseau, and alexandrina had plainly told her mother that if she were to be married at all she would be married with such garments belonging to her as were fitting for an earl's daughter. it was in vain that her mother had explained with many circumlocutional phrases, that the fitness in this respect should be accommodated rather to the plebeian husband than to the noble parent. alexandrina had been very firm, and had insisted on her rights, giving the countess to understand that if her orders for finery were not complied with, she would return as a spinster to courcy, and prepare herself for partnership with rosina. "my dear," said the countess, piteously, "you can have no idea of what i shall have to go through with your father. and, of course, you could get all these things afterwards." "papa has no right to treat me in such a way. and if he would not give me any money himself, he should have let me have some of my own." "ah, my dear, that was mr. gazebee's fault." "i don't care whose fault it was. it certainly was not mine. i won't have him to tell me"--"him" was intended to signify adolphus crosbie--"that he had to pay for my wedding-clothes." "of course not that, my dear." "no; nor yet for the things which i wanted immediately. i'd much rather go and tell him at once that the marriage must be put off." alexandrina of course carried her point, the countess reflecting with a maternal devotion equal almost to that of the pelican, that the earl could not do more than kill her. so the things were ordered as alexandrina chose to order them, and the countess desired that the bills might be sent in to mr. gazebee. much self-devotion had been displayed by the mother, but the mother thought that none had been displayed by the daughter, and therefore she had been very cross with alexandrina. crosbie, taking a chair, sat himself between them, and in a very good-humoured tone explained the little affair of the bracelet. "your ladyship's memory must have played you false," said he, with a smile. "my memory is very good," said the countess; "very good indeed. if twitch got it, and didn't tell me, that was not my fault." twitch was her ladyship's lady's-maid. crosbie, seeing how the land lay, said nothing more about the bracelet. after a minute or two he put out his hand to take that of alexandrina. they were to be married now in a week or two, and such a sign of love might have been allowed to him, even in the presence of the bride's mother. he did succeed in getting hold of her fingers, but found in them none of the softness of a response. "don't," said lady alexandrina, withdrawing her hand; and the tone of her voice as she spoke the word was not sweet to his ears. he remembered at the moment a certain scene which took place one evening at the little bridge at allington, and lily's voice, and lily's words, and lily's passion, as he caressed her: "oh, my love, my love, my love!" "my dear," said the countess, "they know how tired i am. i wonder whether they are going to give us any tea." whereupon crosbie rang the bell, and, on resuming his chair, moved it a little farther away from his lady-love. presently the tea was brought to them by the housekeeper's assistant, who did not appear to have made herself very smart for the occasion, and crosbie thought that he was _de trop_. this, however, was a mistake on his part. as he had been admitted into the family, such little matters were no longer subject of care. two or three months since, the countess would have fainted at the idea of such a domestic appearing with a tea-tray before mr. crosbie. now, however, she was utterly indifferent to any such consideration. crosbie was to be admitted into the family, thereby becoming entitled to certain privileges,--and thereby also becoming subject to certain domestic drawbacks. in mrs. dale's little household there had been no rising to grandeur; but then, also, there had never been any bathos of dirt. of this also crosbie thought as he sat with his tea in his hand. he soon, however, got himself away. when he rose to go alexandrina also rose, and he was permitted to press his nose against her cheekbone by way of a salute. "good-night, adolphus," said the countess, putting out her hand to him. "but stop a minute; i know there is something i want you to do for me. but you will look in as you go to your office to-morrow morning." chapter xli. domestic troubles. when crosbie was making his ineffectual inquiry after lady de courcy's bracelet at lambert's, john eames was in the act of entering mrs. roper's front door in burton crescent. "oh, john, where's mr. cradell?" were the first words which greeted him, and they were spoken by the divine amelia. now, in her usual practice of life, amelia did not interest herself much as to the whereabouts of mr. cradell. "where's cradell?" said eames, repeating the question. "upon my word, i don't know. i walked to the office with him, but i haven't seen him since. we don't sit in the same room, you know." "john!" and then she stopped. "what's up now?" said john. "john! that woman's off and left her husband. as sure as your name's john eames, that foolish fellow has gone off with her." "what, cradell? i don't believe it." "she went out of this house at two o'clock in the afternoon, and has never been back since." that, certainly, was only four hours from the present time, and such an absence from home in the middle of the day was but weak evidence on which to charge a married woman with the great sin of running off with a lover. this amelia felt, and therefore she went on to explain. "he's there upstairs in the drawing-room, the very picture of disconsolateness." "who,--cradell?" "lupex is. he's been drinking a little, i'm afraid; but he's very unhappy, indeed. he had an appointment to meet his wife here at four o'clock, and when he came he found her gone. he rushed up into their room, and now he says she has broken open a box he had and taken off all his money." "but he never had any money." "he paid mother some the day before yesterday." "that's just the reason he shouldn't have any to-day." "she certainly has taken things she wouldn't have taken if she'd merely gone out shopping or anything like that, for i've been up in the room and looked about it. she'd three necklaces. they weren't much account; but she must have them all on, or else have got them in her pocket." "cradell has never gone off with her in that way. he may be a fool--" "oh, he is, you know. i've never seen such a fool about a woman as he has been." "but he wouldn't be a party to stealing a lot of trumpery trinkets, or taking her husband's money. indeed, i don't think he has anything to do with it." then eames thought over the circumstances of the day, and remembered that he had certainly not seen cradell since the morning. it was that public servant's practice to saunter into eames's room in the middle of the day, and there consume bread and cheese and beer,--in spite of an assertion which johnny had once made as to crumbs of biscuit bathed in ink. but on this special day he had not done so. "i can't think he has been such a fool as that," said johnny. "but he has," said amelia. "it's dinner-time now, and where is he? had he any money left, johnny?" so interrogated, eames disclosed a secret confided to him by his friend which no other circumstances would have succeeded in dragging from his breast. "she borrowed twelve pounds from him about a fortnight since, immediately after quarter-day. and she owed him money, too, before that." "oh, what a soft!" exclaimed amelia; "and he hasn't paid mother a shilling for the last two months!" "it was his money, perhaps, that mrs. roper got from lupex the day before yesterday. if so, it comes to the same thing as far as she is concerned, you know." "and what are we to do now?" said amelia, as she went before her lover upstairs. "oh, john, what will become of me if ever you serve me in that way? what should i do if you were to go off with another lady?" "lupex hasn't gone off," said eames, who hardly knew what to say when the matter was brought before him with so closely personal a reference. "but it's the same thing," said amelia. "hearts is divided. hearts that have been joined together ought never to be divided; ought they?" and then she hung upon his arm just as they got to the drawing-room door. "hearts and darts are all my eye," said johnny. "my belief is that a man had better never marry at all. how d'you do, mr. lupex? is anything the matter?" mr. lupex was seated on a chair in the middle of the room, and was leaning with his head over the back of it. so despondent was he in his attitude that his head would have fallen off and rolled on to the floor, had it followed the course which its owner seemed to intend that it should take. his hands hung down also along the back legs of the chair, till his fingers almost touched the ground, and altogether his appearance was pendent, drooping, and wobegone. miss spruce was seated in one corner of the room, with her hands folded in her lap before her, and mrs. roper was standing on the rug with a look of severe virtue on her brow,--of virtue which, to judge by its appearance, was very severe. nor was its severity intended to be exercised solely against mrs. lupex. mrs. roper was becoming very tired of mr. lupex also, and would not have been unhappy if he also had run away,--leaving behind him so much of his property as would have paid his bill. mr. lupex did not stir when first addressed by john eames, but a certain convulsive movement was to be seen on the back of his head, indicating that this new arrival in the drawing-room had produced a fresh accession of agony. the chair, too, quivered under him, and his fingers stretched themselves nearer to the ground and shook themselves. "mr. lupex, we're going to dinner immediately," said mrs. roper. "mr. eames, where is your friend, mr. cradell?" "upon my word i don't know," said eames. "but i know," said lupex, jumping up and standing at his full height, while he knocked down the chair which had lately supported him. "the traitor to domestic bliss! i know. and wherever he is, he has that false woman in his arms. would he were here!" and as he expressed the last wish he went through a motion with his hands and arms which seemed intended to signify that if that unfortunate young man were in the company he would pull him in pieces and double him up, and pack him close, and then despatch his remains off, through infinite space, to the prince of darkness. "traitor," he exclaimed, as he finished the process. "false traitor! foul traitor! and she too!" then, as he thought of this softer side of the subject, he prepared himself to relapse again on to the chair. finding it on the ground he had to pick it up. he did pick it up, and once more flung away his head over the back of it, and stretched his finger-nails almost down to the carpet. "james," said mrs. roper to her son, who was now in the room, "i think you'd better stay with mr. lupex while we are at dinner. come, miss spruce, i'm very sorry that you should be annoyed by this kind of thing." "it don't hurt me," said miss spruce, preparing to leave the room. "i'm only an old woman." "annoyed!" said lupex, raising himself again from his chair, not perhaps altogether disposed to remain upstairs while the dinner, for which it was intended that he should some day pay, was being eaten below. "annoyed! it is a profound sorrow to me that any lady should be annoyed by my misfortunes. as regards miss spruce, i look upon her character with profound veneration." "you needn't mind me; i'm only an old woman," said miss spruce. "but, by heavens, i do mind!" exclaimed lupex; and hurrying forward he seized miss spruce by the hand. "i shall always regard age as entitled--" but the special privileges which mr. lupex would have accorded to age were never made known to the inhabitants of mrs. roper's boarding-house, for the door of the room was again opened at this moment, and mr. cradell entered. "here you are, old fellow, to answer for yourself," said eames. cradell, who had heard something as he came in at the front door, but had not heard that lupex was in the drawing-room, made a slight start backwards when he saw that gentleman's face. "upon my word and honour," he began;--but he was able to carry his speech no further. lupex, dropping the hand of the elderly lady whom he reverenced, was upon him in an instant, and cradell was shaking beneath his grasp like an aspen leaf,--or rather not like an aspen leaf, unless an aspen leaf when shaken is to be seen with its eyes shut, its mouth open, and its tongue hanging out. "come, i say," said eames, stepping forward to his friend's assistance; "this won't do at all, mr. lupex. you've been drinking. you'd better wait till to-morrow morning, and speak to cradell then." "to-morrow morning, viper," shouted lupex, still holding his prey, but looking back at eames over his shoulder. who the viper was had not been clearly indicated. "when will he restore to me my wife? when will he restore to me my honour?" "upon-on-on-on my--" it was for the moment in vain that poor mr. cradell endeavoured to asseverate his innocence, and to stake his honour upon his own purity as regarded mrs. lupex. lupex still held to his enemy's cravat, though eames had now got him by the arm, and so far impeded his movements as to hinder him from proceeding to any graver attack. "jemima, jemima, jemima!" shouted mrs. roper. "run for the police; run for the police!" but amelia, who had more presence of mind than her mother, stopped jemima as she was making to one of the front windows. "keep where you are," said amelia. "they'll come quiet in a minute or two." and amelia no doubt was right. calling for the police when there is a row in the house is like summoning the water-engines when the soot is on fire in the kitchen chimney. in such cases good management will allow the soot to burn itself out, without aid from the water-engines. in the present instance the police were not called in, and i am inclined to think that their presence would not have been advantageous to any of the party. "upon-my-honour--i know nothing about her," were the first words which cradell was able to articulate, when lupex, under eames's persuasion, at last relaxed his hold. lupex turned round to miss spruce with a sardonic grin. "you hear his words,--this enemy to domestic bliss,--ha, ha! man, tell me whither you have conveyed my wife!" "if you were to give me the bank of england i don't know," said cradell. "and i'm sure he does not know," said mrs. roper, whose suspicions against cradell were beginning to subside. but as her suspicions subsided, her respect for him decreased. such was the case also with miss spruce, and with amelia, and with jemima. they had all thought him to be a great fool for running away with mrs. lupex, but now they were beginning to think him a poor creature because he had not done so. had he committed that active folly he would have been an interesting fool. but now, if, as they all suspected, he knew no more about mrs. lupex than they did, he would be a fool without any special interest whatever. "of course he doesn't," said eames. "no more than i do," said amelia. "his very looks show him innocent," said mrs. roper. "indeed they do," said miss spruce. lupex turned from one to the other as they thus defended the man whom he suspected, and shook his head at each assertion that was made. "and if he doesn't know who does?" he asked. "haven't i seen it all for the last three months? is it reasonable to suppose that a creature such as she, used to domestic comforts all her life, should have gone off in this way, at dinner-time, taking with her my property and all her jewels, and that nobody should have instigated her; nobody assisted her! is that a story to tell to such a man as me! you may tell it to the marines!" mr. lupex, as he made this speech, was walking about the room, and as he finished it he threw his pocket-handkerchief with violence on to the floor. "i know what to do, mrs. roper," he said. "i know what steps to take. i shall put the affair into the hands of my lawyer to-morrow morning." then he picked up his handkerchief and walked down into the dining-room. "of course you know nothing about it?" said eames to his friend, having run upstairs for the purpose of saying a word to him while he washed his hands. "what,--about maria? i don't know where she is, if you mean that." "of course i mean that. what else should i mean? and what makes you call her maria?" "it is wrong. i admit it's wrong. the word will come out, you know." "will come out! i'll tell you what it is, old fellow, you'll get yourself into a mess, and all for nothing. that fellow will have you up before the police for stealing his things--" "but, johnny--" "i know all about it. of course you have not stolen them, and of course there was nothing to steal. but if you go on calling her maria you'll find that he'll have a pull on you. men don't call other men's wives names for nothing." "of course we've been friends," said cradell, who rather liked this view of the matter. "yes,--you have been friends! she's diddled you out of your money, and that's the beginning and the end of it. and now, if you go on showing off your friendship, you'll be done out of more money. you're making an ass of yourself. that's the long and the short of it." "and what have you made of yourself with that girl? there are worse asses than i am yet, master johnny." eames, as he had no answer ready to this counter attack, left the room and went downstairs. cradell soon followed him, and in a few minutes they were all eating their dinner together at mrs. roper's hospitable table. immediately after dinner lupex took himself away, and the conversation upstairs became general on the subject of the lady's departure. "if i was him i'd never ask a question about her, but let her go," said amelia. "yes; and then have all her bills following you, wherever you went," said amelia's brother. "i'd sooner have her bills than herself," said eames. "my belief is, that she's been an ill-used woman," said cradell. "if she had a husband that she could respect and have loved, and all that sort of thing, she would have been a charming woman." "she's every bit as bad as he is," said mrs. roper. "i can't agree with you, mrs. roper," continued the lady's champion. "perhaps i ought to understand her position better than any one here, and--" "then that's just what you ought not to do, mr. cradell," said mrs. roper. and now the lady of the house spoke out her mind with much maternal dignity and with some feminine severity. "that's just what a young man like you has no business to know. what's a married woman like that to you, or you to her; or what have you to do with understanding her position? when you've a wife of your own, if ever you do have one, you'll find you'll have trouble enough then without anybody else interfering with you. not but what i believe you're innocent as a lamb about mrs. lupex; that is, as far as any harm goes. but you've got yourself into all this trouble by meddling, and was like enough to get yourself choked upstairs by that man. and who's to wonder when you go on pretending to be in love with a woman in that way, and she old enough to be your mother? what would your mamma say if she saw you at it?" "ha, ha, ha!" laughed cradell. "it's all very well your laughing, but i hate such folly. if i see a young man in love with a young woman, i respect him for it;" and then she looked at johnny eames. "i respect him for it,--even though he may now and then do things as he shouldn't. they most of 'em does that. but to see a young man like you, mr. cradell, dangling after an old married woman, who doesn't know how to behave herself; and all just because she lets him to do it;--ugh!--an old broomstick with a petticoat on would do just as well! it makes me sick to see it, and that's the truth of it. i don't call it manly; and it ain't manly, is it, miss spruce?" "of course i know nothing about it," said the lady to whom the appeal was thus made. "but a young gentleman should keep himself to himself till the time comes for him to speak out,--begging your pardon all the same, mr. cradell." "i don't see what a married woman should want with any one after her but her own husband," said amelia. "and perhaps not always that," said john eames. it was about an hour after this when the front-door bell was rung, and a scream from jemima announced to them all that some critical moment had arrived. amelia, jumping up, opened the door, and then the rustle of a woman's dress was heard on the lower stairs. "oh, laws, ma'am, you have given us sich a turn," said jemima. "we all thought you was run away." "it's mrs. lupex," said amelia. and in two minutes more that ill-used lady was in the room. "well, my dears," said she, gaily, "i hope nobody has waited dinner." "no; we didn't wait dinner," said mrs. roper, very gravely. "and where's my orson? didn't he dine at home? mr. cradell, will you oblige me by taking my shawl? but perhaps you had better not. people are so censorious; ain't they, miss spruce? mr. eames shall do it; and everybody knows that that will be quite safe. won't it, miss amelia?" "quite, i should think," said amelia. and mrs. lupex knew that she was not to look for an ally in that quarter on the present occasion. eames got up to take the shawl, and mrs. lupex went on. "and didn't orson dine at home? perhaps they kept him down at the theatre. but i've been thinking all day what fun it would be when he thought his bird was flown." "he did dine at home," said mrs. roper; "and he didn't seem to like it. there wasn't much fun, i can assure you." "ah, wasn't there, though? i believe that man would like to have me tied to his button-hole. i came across a few friends,--lady friends, mr. cradell, though two of them had their husbands; so we made a party, and just went down to hampton court. so my gentleman has gone again, has he? that's what i get for gadding about myself, isn't it, miss spruce?" mrs. roper, as she went to bed that night, made up her mind that, whatever might be the cost and trouble of doing so, she would lose no further time in getting rid of her married guests. chapter xlii. lily's bedside. lily dale's constitution was good, and her recovery was retarded by no relapse or lingering debility; but, nevertheless, she was forced to keep her bed for many days after the fever had left her. during all this period dr. crofts came every day. it was in vain that mrs. dale begged him not to do so; telling him in simple words that she felt herself bound not to accept from him all this continuation of his unremunerated labours now that the absolute necessity for them was over. he answered her only by little jokes, or did not answer her at all; but still he came daily, almost always at the same hour, just as the day was waning, so that he could sit for a quarter of an hour in the dusk, and then ride home to guestwick in the dark. at this time bell had been admitted into her sister's room, and she would always meet dr. crofts at lily's bedside; but she never sat with him alone, since the day on which he had offered her his love with half-articulated words, and she had declined it with words also half-articulated. she had seen him alone since that, on the stairs, or standing in the hall, but she had not remained with him, talking to him after her old fashion, and no further word of his love had been spoken in speech either half or wholly articulate. nor had bell spoken of what had passed to any one else. lily would probably have told both her mother and sister instantly; but then no such scene as that which had taken place with bell would have been possible with lily. in whatever way the matter might have gone with her, there would certainly have been some clear tale to tell when the interview was over. she would have known whether or no she loved the man, or could love him, and would have given him some true and intelligible answer. bell had not done so, but had given him an answer which, if true, was not intelligible, and if intelligible was not true. and yet, when she had gone away to think over what had passed, she had been happy and satisfied, and almost triumphant. she had never yet asked herself whether she expected anything further from dr. crofts, nor what that something further might be,--and yet she was happy! lily had now become pert and saucy in her bed, taking upon herself the little airs which are allowed to a convalescent invalid as compensation for previous suffering and restraint. she pretended to much anxiety on the subject of her dinner, and declared that she would go out on such or such a day, let dr. crofts be as imperious as he might. "he's an old savage, after all," she said to her sister, one evening, after he was gone, "and just as bad as the rest of them." "i do not know who the rest of them are," said bell, "but at any rate he's not very old." "you know what i mean. he's just as grumpy as dr. gruffen, and thinks everybody is to do what he tells them. of course, you take his part." "and of course you ought, seeing how good he has been." "and of course i should, to anybody but you. i do like to abuse him to you." "lily, lily!" "so i do. it's so hard to knock any fire out of you, that when one does find the place where the flint lies, one can't help hammering at it. what did he mean by saying that i shouldn't get up on sunday? of course i shall get up if i like it." "not if mamma asks you not?" "oh, but she won't, unless he interferes and dictates to her. oh, bell, what a tyrant he would be if he were married!" "would he?" "and how submissive you would be, if you were his wife! it's a thousand pities that you are not in love with each other;--that is, if you are not." "lily, i thought that there was a promise between us about that." "ah! but that was in other days. things are all altered since that promise was given,--all the world has been altered." and as she said this the tone of her voice was changed, and it had become almost sad. "i feel as though i ought to be allowed now to speak about anything i please." "you shall, if it pleases you, my pet." "you see how it is, bell; i can never again have anything of my own to talk about." "oh, my darling, do not say that." "but it is so, bell; and why not say it? do you think i never say it to myself in the hours when i am all alone, thinking over it--thinking, thinking, thinking. you must not,--you must not grudge to let me talk of it sometimes." "i will not grudge you anything;--only i cannot believe that it must be so always." "ask yourself, bell, how it would be with you. but i sometimes fancy that you measure me differently from yourself." "indeed i do, for i know how much better you are." "i am not so much better as to be ever able to forget all that. i know i never shall do so. i have made up my mind about it clearly and with an absolute certainty." "lily, lily, lily! pray do not say so." "but i do say it. and yet i have not been very mopish and melancholy; have i, bell? i do think i deserve some little credit, and yet, i declare, you won't allow me the least privilege in the world." "what privilege would you wish me to give you?" "to talk about dr. crofts." "lily, you are a wicked, wicked tyrant." and bell leaned over her, and fell upon her, and kissed her, hiding her own face in the gloom of the evening. after that it came to be an accepted understanding between them that bell was not altogether indifferent to dr. crofts. "you heard what he said, my darling," mrs. dale said the next day, as the three were in the room together after dr. crofts was gone. mrs. dale was standing on one side of the bed, and bell on the other, while lily was scolding them both. "you can get up for an hour or two to-morrow, but he thinks you had better not go out of the room." "what would be the good of that, mamma? i am so tired of looking always at the same paper. it is such a tiresome paper. it makes one count the pattern over and over again. i wonder how you ever can live here." "i've got used to it, you see." "i never can get used to that sort of thing; but go on counting, and counting, and counting. i'll tell you what i should like; and i'm sure it would be the best thing, too." "and what would you like?" said bell. "just to get up at nine o'clock to-morrow, and go to church as though nothing had happened. then, when dr. crofts came in the evening, you would tell him i was down at the school." "i wouldn't quite advise that," said mrs. dale. "it would give him such a delightful start. and when he found i didn't die immediately, as of course i ought to do according to rule, he would be so disgusted." "it would be very ungrateful, to say the least of it," said bell. "no, it wouldn't, a bit. he needn't come, unless he likes it. and i don't believe he comes to see me at all. it's all very well, mamma, your looking in that way; but i'm sure it's true. and i'll tell you what i'll do, i'll pretend to be bad again, otherwise the poor man will be robbed of his only happiness." "i suppose we must allow her to say what she likes till she gets well," said mrs. dale, laughing. it was now nearly dark, and mrs. dale did not see that bell's hand had crept under the bed-clothes, and taken hold of that of her sister. "it's true, mamma," continued lily, "and i defy her to deny it. i would forgive him for keeping me in bed if he would only make her fall in love with him." "she has made a bargain, mamma," said bell, "that she is to say whatever she likes till she gets well." "i am to say whatever i like always; that was the bargain, and i mean to stand to it." on the following sunday lily did get up, but did not leave her mother's bedroom. there she was, seated in that half-dignified and half-luxurious state which belongs to the first getting up of an invalid, when dr. crofts called. there she had eaten her tiny bit of roast mutton, and had called her mother a stingy old creature, because she would not permit another morsel; and there she had drunk her half glass of port wine, pretending that it was very bad, and twice worse than the doctor's physic; and there, sunday though it was, she had fully enjoyed the last hour of daylight, reading that exquisite new novel which had just completed itself, amidst the jarring criticisms of the youth and age of the reading public. "i am quite sure she was right in accepting him, bell," she said, putting down the book as the light was fading, and beginning to praise the story. "it was a matter of course," said bell. "it always is right in the novels. that's why i don't like them. they are too sweet." "that's why i do like them, because they are so sweet. a sermon is not to tell you what you are, but what you ought to be, and a novel should tell you not what you are to get, but what you'd like to get." "if so, then, i'd go back to the old school, and have the heroine really a heroine, walking all the way up from edinburgh to london, and falling among thieves; or else nursing a wounded hero, and describing the battle from the window. we've got tired of that; or else the people who write can't do it now-a-days. but if we are to have real life, let it be real." "no, bell, no!" said lily. "real life sometimes is so painful." then her sister, in a moment, was down on the floor at her feet, kissing her hand and caressing her knees, and praying that the wound might be healed. on that morning lily had succeeded in inducing her sister to tell her all that had been said by dr. crofts. all that had been said by herself also, bell had intended to tell; but when she came to this part of the story, her account was very lame. "i don't think i said anything," she said. "but silence always gives consent. he'll know that," lily had rejoined. "no, he will not; my silence didn't give any consent; i'm sure of that. and he didn't think that it did." "but you didn't mean to refuse him?" "i think i did. i don't think i knew what i meant; and it was safer, therefore, to look no, than to look yes. if i didn't say it, i'm sure i looked it." "but you wouldn't refuse him now?" asked lily. "i don't know," said bell. "it seems as though i should want years to make up my mind; and he won't ask me again." bell was still at her sister's feet, caressing them, and praying with all her heart that that wound might be healed in due time, when mrs. dale came in and announced the doctor's daily visit. "then i'll go," said bell. "indeed you won't," said lily. "he's coming simply to make a morning call, and nobody need run away. now, dr. crofts, you need not come and stand over me with your watch, for i won't let you touch my hand except to shake hands with me;" and then she held her hand out to him. "and all you'll know of my tongue you'll learn from the sound." "i don't care in the least for your tongue." "i dare say not, and yet you may some of these days. i can speak out, if i like it; can't i, mamma?" "i should think dr. crofts knows that by this time, my dear." "i don't know. there are some things gentlemen are very slow to learn. but you must sit down, dr. crofts, and make yourself comfortable and polite; for you must understand that you are not master here any longer. i am out of bed now, and your reign is over." "that's the gratitude of the world, all through," said mrs. dale. "who is ever grateful to a doctor? he only cures you that he may triumph over some other doctor, and declare, as he goes by dr. gruffen's door, 'there, had she called you in, she'd have been dead before now; or else would have been ill for twelve months.' don't you jump for joy when dr. gruffen's patients die?" "of course i do--out in the market-place, so that everybody shall see me," said the doctor. "lily, how can you say such shocking things?" said her sister. then the doctor did sit down, and they were all very cosy together over the fire, talking about things which were not medical, or only half medical in their appliance. by degrees the conversation came round to mrs. eames and to john eames. two or three days since, crofts had told mrs. dale of that affair at the railway station, of which up to that time she had heard nothing. mrs. dale, when she was assured that young eames had given crosbie a tremendous thrashing--the tidings of the affair which had got themselves substantiated at guestwick so described the nature of the encounter--could not withhold some meed of applause. "dear boy!" she said, almost involuntarily. "dear boy! it came from the honestness of his heart!" and then she gave special injunctions to the doctor--injunctions which were surely unnecessary--that no word of the matter should be whispered before lily. "i was at the manor, yesterday," said the doctor, "and the earl would talk about nothing but master johnny. he says he's the finest fellow going." whereupon mrs. dale touched him with her foot, fearing that the conversation might be led away in the direction of johnny's prowess. "i am so glad," said lily. "i always knew that they'd find john out at last." "and lady julia is just as fond of him," said the doctor. "dear me!" said lily. "suppose they were to make up a match!" "lily, how can you be so absurd?" "let me see; what relation would he be to us? he would certainly be bernard's uncle, and uncle christopher's half brother-in-law. wouldn't it be odd?" "it would rather," said mrs. dale. "i hope he'll be civil to bernard. don't you, bell? is he to give up the income-tax office, dr. crofts?" "i didn't hear that that was settled yet." and so they went on talking about john eames. "joking apart," said lily, "i am very glad that lord de guest has taken him by the hand. not that i think an earl is better than anybody else, but because it shows that people are beginning to understand that he has got something in him. i always said that they who laughed at john would see him hold up his head yet." all which words sank deep into mrs. dale's mind. if only, in some coming time, her pet might be taught to love this new young hero! but then would not that last heroic deed of his militate most strongly against any possibility of such love! "and now i may as well be going," said the doctor, rising from his chair. at this time bell had left the room, but mrs. dale was still there. "you need not be in such a hurry, especially this evening," said lily. "why especially this evening?" "because it will be the last. sit down again, dr. crofts. i've got a little speech to make to you. i've been preparing it all the morning, and you must give me an opportunity of speaking it." "i'll come the day after to-morrow, and i'll hear it then." "but i choose, sir, that you should hear it now. am i not to be obeyed when i first get up on to my own throne? dear, dear dr. crofts, how am i to thank you for all that you have done?" "how are any of us to thank him?" said mrs. dale. "i hate thanks," said the doctor. "one kind glance of the eye is worth them all, and i've had many such in this house." "you have our hearts' love, at any rate," said mrs. dale. "god bless you all!" said he, as he prepared to go. "but i haven't made my speech yet," said lily. "and to tell the truth, mamma, you must go away, or i shall never be able to make it. it's very improper, is it not, turning you out, but it shall only take three minutes." then mrs. dale, with some little joking word, left the room; but, as she left it, her mind was hardly at ease. ought she to have gone, leaving it to lily's discretion to say what words she might think fit to dr. crofts? hitherto she had never doubted her daughters--not even their discretion; and therefore it had been natural to her to go when she was bidden. but as she went downstairs she had her doubts whether she was right or no. "dr. crofts," said lily, as soon as they were alone. "sit down there, close to me. i want to ask you a question. what was it you said to bell when you were alone with her the other evening in the parlour?" the doctor sat for a moment without answering, and lily, who was watching him closely, could see by the light of the fire that he had been startled--had almost shuddered as the question was asked him. "what did i say to her?" and he repeated her words in a very low voice. "i asked her if she could love me, and be my wife." "and what answer did she make to you?" "what answer did she make? she simply refused me." "no, no, no; don't believe her, dr. crofts. it was not so;--i think it was not so. mind you, i can say nothing as coming from her. she has not told me her own mind. but if you really love her, she will be mad to refuse you." "i do love her, lily; that at any rate is true." "then go to her again. i am speaking for myself now. i cannot afford to lose such a brother as you would be. i love you so dearly that i cannot spare you. and she,--i think she'll learn to love you as you would wish to be loved. you know her nature, how silent she is, and averse to talk about herself. she has confessed nothing to me but this,--that you spoke to her and took her by surprise. are we to have another chance? i know how wrong i am to ask such a question. but, after all, is not the truth the best?" "another chance!" "i know what you mean, and i think she is worthy to be your wife. i do, indeed; and if so, she must be very worthy. you won't tell of me, will you now, doctor?" "no; i won't tell of you." "and you'll try again?" "yes; i'll try again." "god bless you, my brother! i hope,--i hope you'll be my brother." then, as he put out his hand to her once more, she raised her head towards him, and he, stooping down, kissed her forehead. "make mamma come to me," were the last words she spoke as he went out at the door. "so you've made your speech," said mrs. dale. "yes, mamma." "i hope it was a discreet speech." "i hope it was, mamma. but it has made me so tired, and i believe i'll go to bed. do you know i don't think i should have done much good down at the school to-day?" then mrs. dale, in her anxiety to repair what injury might have been done to her daughter by over-exertion, omitted any further mention of the farewell speech. dr. crofts as he rode home enjoyed but little of the triumph of a successful lover. "it may be that she's right," he said to himself; "and, at any rate, i'll ask again." nevertheless, that "no" which bell had spoken, and had repeated, still sounded in his ears harsh and conclusive. there are men to whom a peal of noes rattling about their ears never takes the sound of a true denial, and others to whom the word once pronounced, be it whispered ever so softly, comes as though it were an unchangeable verdict from the supreme judgment-seat. chapter xliii. fie, fie! [illustration: (untitled)] will any reader remember the loves,--no, not the loves; that word is so decidedly ill-applied as to be incapable of awakening the remembrance of any reader; but the flirtations--of lady dumbello and mr. plantagenet palliser? those flirtations, as they had been carried on at courcy castle, were laid bare in all their enormities to the eye of the public, and it must be confessed that if the eye of the public was shocked, that eye must be shocked very easily. but the eye of the public was shocked, and people who were particular as to their morals said very strange things. lady de courcy herself said very strange things indeed, shaking her head, and dropping mysterious words; whereas lady clandidlem spoke much more openly, declaring her opinion that lady dumbello would be off before may. they both agreed that it would not be altogether bad for lord dumbello that he should lose his wife, but shook their heads very sadly when they spoke of poor plantagenet palliser. as to the lady's fate, that lady whom they had both almost worshipped during the days at courcy castle,--they did not seem to trouble themselves about that. and it must be admitted that mr. palliser had been a little imprudent,--imprudent, that is, if he knew anything about the rumours afloat,--seeing that soon after his visit at courcy castle he had gone down to lady hartletop's place in shropshire, at which the dumbellos intended to spend the winter, and on leaving it had expressed his intention of returning in february. the hartletop people had pressed him very much,--the pressure having come with peculiar force from lord dumbello. therefore it is reasonable to suppose that the hartletop people had at any rate not heard of the rumour. mr. plantagenet palliser spent his christmas with his uncle, the duke of omnium, at gatherum castle. that is to say, he reached the castle in time for dinner on christmas eve, and left it on the morning after christmas day. this was in accordance with the usual practice of his life, and the tenants, dependants, and followers of the omnium interest were always delighted to see this manifestation of a healthy english domestic family feeling between the duke and his nephew. but the amount of intercourse on such occasions between them was generally trifling. the duke would smile as he put out his right hand to his nephew, and say,-- "well, plantagenet,--very busy, i suppose?" the duke was the only living being who called him plantagenet to his face, though there were some scores of men who talked of planty pal behind his back. the duke had been the only living being so to call him. let us hope that it still was so, and that there had arisen no feminine exception, dangerous in its nature and improper in its circumstances. "well, plantagenet," said the duke, on the present occasion, "very busy, i suppose?" "yes, indeed, duke," said mr. palliser. "when a man gets the harness on him he does not easily get quit of it." the duke remembered that his nephew had made almost the same remark at his last christmas visit. "by-the-by," said the duke, "i want to say a word or two to you before you go." such a proposition on the duke's part was a great departure from his usual practice, but the nephew of course undertook to obey his uncle's behests. "i'll see you before dinner to-morrow," said plantagenet. "ah, do," said the duke. "i'll not keep you five minutes." and at six o'clock on the following afternoon the two were closeted together in the duke's private room. "i don't suppose there is much in it," began the duke, "but people are talking about you and lady dumbello." "upon my word, people are very kind." and mr. palliser bethought himself of the fact,--for it certainly was a fact,--that people for a great many years had talked about his uncle and lady dumbello's mother-in-law. "yes; kind enough; are they not? you've just come from hartlebury, i believe." hartlebury was the marquis of hartletop's seat in shropshire. "yes, i have. and i'm going there again in february." "ah, i'm sorry for that. not that i mean, of course, to interfere with your arrangements. you will acknowledge that i have not often done so, in any matter whatever." "no; you have not," said the nephew, comforting himself with an inward assurance that no such interference on his uncle's part could have been possible. "but in this instance it would suit me, and i really think it would suit you too, that you should be as little at hartlebury as possible. you have said you would go there, and of course you will go. but if i were you, i would not stay above a day or two." mr. plantagenet palliser received everything he had in the world from his uncle. he sat in parliament through his uncle's interest, and received an allowance of ever so many thousand a year which his uncle could stop to-morrow by his mere word. he was his uncle's heir, and the dukedom, with certain entailed properties, must ultimately fall to him, unless his uncle should marry and have a son. but by far the greater portion of the duke's property was unentailed; the duke might probably live for the next twenty years or more; and it was quite possible that, if offended, he might marry and become a father. it may be said that no man could well be more dependent on another than plantagenet palliser was upon his uncle; and it may be said also that no father or uncle ever troubled his heir with less interference. nevertheless, the nephew immediately felt himself aggrieved by this allusion to his private life, and resolved at once that he would not submit to such surveillance. "i don't know how long i shall stay," said he; "but i cannot say that my visit will be influenced one way or the other by such a rumour as that." "no; probably not. but it may perhaps be influenced by my request." and the duke, as he spoke, looked a little savage. "you wouldn't ask me to regard a report that has no foundation." "i am not asking about its foundation. nor do i in the least wish to interfere with your manner in life." by which last observation the duke intended his nephew to understand that he was quite at liberty to take away any other gentleman's wife, but that he was not at liberty to give occasion even for a surmise that he wanted to take lord dumbello's wife. "the fact is this, plantagenet. i have for many years been intimate with that family. i have not many intimacies, and shall probably never increase them. such friends as i have, i wish to keep, and you will easily perceive that any such report as that which i have mentioned, might make it unpleasant for me to go to hartlebury, or for the hartlebury people to come here." the duke certainly could not have spoken plainer, and mr. palliser understood him thoroughly. two such alliances between the two families could not be expected to run pleasantly together, and even the rumour of any such second alliance might interfere with the pleasantness of the former one. "that's all," said the duke. "it's a most absurd slander," said mr. palliser. "i dare say. those slanders always are absurd; but what can we do? we can't tie up people's tongues." and the duke looked as though he wished to have the subject considered as finished, and to be left alone. "but we can disregard them," said the nephew, indiscreetly. "you may. i have never been able to do so. and yet, i believe, i have not earned for myself the reputation of being subject to the voices of men. you think that i am asking much of you; but you should remember that hitherto i have given much and have asked nothing. i expect you to oblige me in this matter." then mr. plantagenet palliser left the room, knowing that he had been threatened. what the duke had said amounted to this.--if you go on dangling after lady dumbello, i'll stop the seven thousand a year which i give you. i'll oppose your next return at silverbridge, and i'll make a will and leave away from you matching and the horns,--a beautiful little place in surrey, the use of which had been already offered to mr. palliser in the event of his marriage; all the littlebury estate in yorkshire, and the enormous scotch property. of my personal goods, and money invested in loans, shares, and funds, you shall never touch a shilling, or the value of a shilling. and, if i find that i can suit myself, it may be that i'll leave you plain mr. plantagenet palliser, with a little first cousin for the head of your family. the full amount of this threat mr. palliser understood, and, as he thought of it, he acknowledged to himself that he had never felt for lady dumbello anything like love. no conversation between them had ever been warmer than that of which the reader has seen a sample. lady dumbello had been nothing to him. but now,--now that the matter had been put before him in this way, might it not become him, as a gentleman, to fall in love with so very beautiful a woman, whose name had already been linked with his own? we all know that story of the priest, who, by his question in the confessional, taught the ostler to grease the horses' teeth. "i never did yet," said the ostler, "but i'll have a try at it." in this case, the duke had acted the part of the priest, and mr. palliser, before the night was over, had almost become as ready a pupil as the ostler. as to the threat, it would ill become him, as a palliser and a plantagenet, to regard it. the duke would not marry. of all men in the world he was the least likely to spite his own face by cutting off his own nose; and, for the rest of it, mr. palliser would take his chance. therefore he went down to hartlebury early in february, having fully determined to be very particular in his attentions to lady dumbello. among a houseful of people at hartlebury, he found lord porlock, a slight, sickly, worn-out looking man, who had something about his eye of his father's hardness, but nothing in his mouth of his father's ferocity. "so your sister is going to be married?" said mr. palliser. "yes. one has no right to be surprised at anything they do, when one remembers the life their father leads them." "i was going to congratulate you." "don't do that." "i met him at courcy, and rather liked him." mr. palliser had barely spoken to mr. crosbie at courcy, but then in the usual course of his social life he seldom did more than barely speak to anybody. "did you?" said lord porlock. "for the poor girl's sake i hope he's not a ruffian. how any man should propose to my father to marry a daughter out of his house, is more than i can understand. how was my mother looking?" "i didn't see anything amiss about her." "i expect that he'll murder her some day." then that conversation came to an end. mr. palliser himself perceived--as he looked at her he could not but perceive--that a certain amount of social energy seemed to enliven lady dumbello when he approached her. she was given to smile when addressed, but her usual smile was meaningless, almost leaden, and never in any degree flattering to the person to whom it was accorded. very many women smile as they answer the words which are spoken to them, and most who do so flatter by their smile. the thing is so common that no one thinks of it. the flattering pleases, but means nothing. the impression unconsciously taken simply conveys a feeling that the woman has made herself agreeable, as it was her duty to do,--agreeable, as far as that smile went, in some very infinitesimal degree. but she has thereby made her little contribution to society. she will make the same contribution a hundred times in the same evening. no one knows that she has flattered anybody; she does not know it herself; and the world calls her an agreeable woman. but lady dumbello put no flattery into her customary smiles. they were cold, unmeaning, accompanied by no special glance of the eye, and seldom addressed to the individual. they were given to the room at large; and the room at large, acknowledging her great pretensions, accepted them as sufficient. but when mr. palliser came near to her she would turn herself slightly, ever so slightly, on her seat, and would allow her eyes to rest for a moment upon his face. then when he remarked that it had been rather cold, she would smile actually upon him as she acknowledged the truth of his observation. all this mr. palliser taught himself to observe, having been instructed by his foolish uncle in that lesson as to the greasing of the horses' teeth. but, nevertheless, during the first week of his stay at hartlebury, he did not say a word to her more tender than his observation about the weather. it is true that he was very busy. he had undertaken to speak upon the address, and as parliament was now about to be opened, and as his speech was to be based upon statistics, he was full of figures and papers. his correspondence was pressing, and the day was seldom long enough for his purposes. he felt that the intimacy to which he aspired was hindered by the laborious routine of his life; but nevertheless he would do something before he left hartlebury, to show the special nature of his regard. he would say something to her, that should open to her view the secret of--shall we say his heart? such was his resolve, day after day. and yet day after day went by, and nothing was said. he fancied that lord dumbello was somewhat less friendly in his manner than he had been, that he put himself in the way and looked cross; but, as he declared to himself, he cared very little for lord dumbello's looks. "when do you go to town?" he said to her one evening. "probably in april. we certainly shall not leave hartlebury before that." "ah, yes. you stay for the hunting." "yes; lord dumbello always remains here through march. he may run up to town for a day or two." "how comfortable! i must be in london on thursday, you know." "when parliament meets, i suppose?" "exactly. it is such a bore; but one has to do it." "when a man makes a business of it, i suppose he must." "oh, dear, yes; it's quite imperative." then mr. palliser looked round the room, and thought he saw lord dumbello's eye fixed upon him. it was really very hard work. if the truth must be told, he did not know how to begin. what was he to say to her? how was he to commence a conversation that should end by being tender? she was very handsome certainly, and for him she could look interesting; but for his very life he did not know how to begin to say anything special to her. a liaison with such a woman as lady dumbello,--platonic, innocent, but nevertheless very intimate,--would certainly lend a grace to his life, which, under its present circumstances, was rather dry. he was told,--told by public rumour which had reached him through his uncle,--that the lady was willing. she certainly looked as though she liked him; but how was he to begin? the art of startling the house of commons and frightening the british public by the voluminous accuracy of his statistics he had already learned; but what was he to say to a pretty woman? "you'll be sure to be in london in april?" this was on another occasion. "oh, yes; i think so." "in carlton gardens, i suppose." "yes; lord dumbello has got a lease of the house now." "has he, indeed? ah, it's an excellent house. i hope i shall be allowed to call there sometimes." "certainly,--only i know you must be so busy." "not on saturdays and sundays." "i always receive on sundays," said lady dumbello. mr. palliser felt that there was nothing peculiarly gracious in this. a permission to call when all her other acquaintances would be there, was not much; but still, perhaps, it was as much as he could expect to obtain on that occasion. he looked up and saw that lord dumbello's eyes were again upon him, and that lord dumbello's brow was black. he began to doubt whether a country house, where all the people were thrown together, was the best place in the world for such manoeuvring. lady dumbello was very handsome, and he liked to look at her, but he could not find any subject on which to interest her in that drawing-room at hartlebury. later in the evening he found himself saying something to her about the sugar duties, and then he knew that he had better give it up. he had only one day more, and that was required imperatively for his speech. the matter would go much easier in london, and he would postpone it till then. in the crowded rooms of london private conversation would be much easier, and lord dumbello wouldn't stand over and look at him. lady dumbello had taken his remarks about the sugar very kindly, and had asked for a definition of an ad valorem duty. it was a nearer approach to a real conversation than he had ever before made; but the subject had been unlucky, and could not, in his hands, be brought round to anything tender; so he resolved to postpone his gallantry till the london spring should make it easy, and felt as he did so, that he was relieved for the time from a heavy weight. "good-by, lady dumbello," he said, on the next evening. "i start early to-morrow morning." "good-by, mr. palliser." as she spoke she smiled ever so sweetly, but she certainly had not learned to call him plantagenet as yet. he went up to london and immediately got himself to work. the accurate and voluminous speech came off with considerable credit to himself,--credit of that quiet, enduring kind which is accorded to such men. the speech was respectable, dull, and correct. men listened to it, or sat with their hats over their eyes, asleep, pretending to do so; and the daily jupiter in the morning had a leading article about it, which, however, left the reader at its close altogether in doubt whether mr. palliser might be supposed to be a great financial pundit or no. mr. palliser might become a shining light to the moneyed world, and a glory to the banking interests; he might be a future chancellor of the exchequer. but then again, it might turn out that, in these affairs, he was a mere ignis fatuus, a blind guide,--a man to be laid aside as very respectable, but of no depth. who, then, at the present time, could judiciously risk his credit by declaring whether mr. palliser understood his subject or did not understand it? we are not content in looking to our newspapers for all the information that earth and human intellect can afford; but we demand from them what we might demand if a daily sheet could come to us from the world of spirits. the result, of course, is this,--that the papers do pretend that they have come daily from the world of spirits; but the oracles are very doubtful, as were those of old. plantagenet palliser, though he was contented with this article, felt, as he sat in his chambers in the albany, that something else was wanting to his happiness. this sort of life was all very well. ambition was a grand thing, and it became him, as a palliser and a future peer, to make politics his profession. but might he not spare an hour or two for amaryllis in the shade? was it not hard, this life of his? since he had been told that lady dumbello smiled upon him, he had certainly thought more about her smiles than had been good for his statistics. it seemed as though a new vein in his body had been brought into use, and that blood was running where blood had never run before. if he had seen lady dumbello before dumbello had seen her, might he not have married her? ah! in such case as that, had she been simply miss grantly, or lady griselda grantly, as the case might have been, he thought he might have been able to speak to her with more ease. as it was, he certainly had found the task difficult, down in the country, though he had heard of men of his class doing the same sort of thing all his life. for my own part, i believe that the reputed sinners are much more numerous than the sinners. as he sat there, a certain mr. fothergill came in upon him. mr. fothergill was a gentleman who managed most of his uncle's ordinary affairs,--a clever fellow, who knew on which side his bread was buttered. mr. fothergill was naturally anxious to stand well with the heir; but to stand well with the owner was his business in life, and with that business he never allowed anything to interfere. on this occasion mr. fothergill was very civil, complimenting his future possible patron on his very powerful speech, and predicting for him political power with much more certainty than the newspapers which had, or had not, come from the world of spirits. mr. fothergill had come in to say a word or two about some matter of business. as all mr. palliser's money passed through mr. fothergill's hands, and as his electioneering interests were managed by mr. fothergill, mr. fothergill not unfrequently called to say a necessary word or two. when this was done he said another word or two, which might be necessary or not, as the case might be. "mr. palliser," said he, "i wonder you don't think of marrying. i hope you'll excuse me." mr. palliser was by no means sure that he would excuse him, and sat himself suddenly upright in his chair in a manner that was intended to exhibit a first symptom of outraged dignity. but, singularly enough, he had himself been thinking of marriage at that moment. how would it have been with him had he known the beautiful griselda before the dumbello alliance had been arranged? would he have married her? would he have been comfortable if he had married her? of course he could not marry now, seeing that he was in love with lady dumbello, and that the lady in question, unfortunately, had a husband of her own; but though he had been thinking of marrying, he did not like to have the subject thus roughly thrust before his eyes, and, as it were, into his very lap by his uncle's agent. mr. fothergill, no doubt, saw the first symptom of outraged dignity, for he was a clever, sharp man. but, perhaps, he did not in truth much regard it. perhaps he had received instructions which he was bound to regard above all other matters. "i hope you'll excuse me, mr. palliser, i do, indeed; but i say it because i am half afraid of some,--some,--some diminution of good feeling, perhaps, i had better call it, between you and your uncle. anything of that kind would be such a monstrous pity." "i am not aware of any such probability." this mr. palliser said with considerable dignity; but when the words were spoken he bethought himself whether he had not told a fib. "no; perhaps not. i trust there is no such probability. but the duke is a very determined man if he takes anything into his head;--and then he has so much in his power." "he has not me in his power, mr. fothergill." "no, no, no. one man does not have another in his power in this country,--not in that way; but then you know, mr. palliser, it would hardly do to offend him; would it?" "i would rather not offend him, as is natural. indeed, i do not wish to offend any one." "exactly so; and least of all the duke, who has the whole property in his own hands. we may say the whole, for he can marry to-morrow if he pleases. and then his life is so good. i don't know a stouter man of his age, anywhere." "i'm very glad to hear it." "i'm sure you are, mr. palliser. but if he were to take offence, you know?" "i should put up with it." "yes, exactly; that's what you would do. but it would be worth while to avoid it, seeing how much he has in his power." "has the duke sent you to me now, mr. fothergill?" "no, no, no,--nothing of the sort. but he dropped words the other day which made me fancy that he was not quite,--quite,--quite at ease about you. i have long known that he would be very glad indeed to see an heir born to the property. the other morning,--i don't know whether there was anything in it,--but i fancied he was going to make some change in the present arrangements. he did not do it, and it might have been fancy. only think, mr. palliser, what one word of his might do! if he says a word, he never goes back from it." then, having said so much, mr. fothergill went his way. mr. palliser understood the meaning of all this very well. it was not the first occasion on which mr. fothergill had given him advice,--advice such as mr. fothergill himself had no right to give him. he always received such counsel with an air of half-injured dignity, intending thereby to explain to mr. fothergill that he was intruding. but he knew well whence the advice came; and though, in all such cases, he had made up his mind not to follow such counsel, it had generally come to pass that mr. palliser's conduct had more or less accurately conformed itself to mr. fothergill's advice. a word from the duke might certainly do a great deal! mr. palliser resolved that in that affair of lady dumbello he would follow his own devices. but, nevertheless, it was undoubtedly true that a word from the duke might do a great deal! we, who are in the secret, know how far mr. palliser had already progressed in his iniquitous passion before he left hartlebury. others, who were perhaps not so well informed, gave him credit for a much more advanced success. lady clandidlem, in her letter to lady de courcy, written immediately after the departure of mr. palliser, declared that, having heard of that gentleman's intended matutinal departure, she had confidently expected to learn at the breakfast-table that lady dumbello had flown with him. from the tone of her ladyship's language, it seemed as though she had been robbed of an anticipated pleasure by lady dumbello's prolonged sojourn in the halls of her husband's ancestors. "i feel, however, quite convinced," said lady clandidlem, "that it cannot go on longer than the spring. i never yet saw a man so infatuated as mr. palliser. he did not leave her for one moment all the time he was here. no one but lady hartletop would have permitted it. but, you know, there is nothing so pleasant as good old family friendships." chapter xliv. valentine's day at allington. lily had exacted a promise from her mother before her illness, and during the period of her convalescence often referred to it, reminding her mother that that promise had been made, and must be kept. lily was to be told the day on which crosbie was to be married. it had come to the knowledge of them all that the marriage was to take place in february. but this was not sufficient for lily. she must know the day. and as the time drew nearer,--lily becoming stronger the while, and less subject to medical authority,--the marriage of crosbie and alexandrina was spoken of much more frequently at the small house. it was not a subject which mrs. dale or bell would have chosen for conversation; but lily would refer to it. she would begin by doing so almost in a drolling strain, alluding to herself as a forlorn damsel in a play-book; and then she would go on to speak of his interests as a matter which was still of great moment to her. but in the course of such talking she would too often break down, showing by some sad word or melancholy tone how great was the burden on her heart. mrs. dale and bell would willingly have avoided the subject, but lily would not have it avoided. for them it was a very difficult matter on which to speak in her hearing. it was not permitted to them to say a word of abuse against crosbie, as to whom they thought that no word of condemnation could be sufficiently severe; and they were forced to listen to such excuses for his conduct as lily chose to manufacture, never daring to point out how vain those excuses were. indeed, in those days lily reigned as a queen at the small house. ill-usage and illness together falling into her hands had given her such power, that none of the other women were able to withstand it. nothing was said about it; but it was understood by them all, jane and the cook included, that lily was for the time paramount. she was a dear, gracious, loving, brave queen, and no one was anxious to rebel;--only that those praises of crosbie were so very bitter in the ears of her subjects. the day was named soon enough, and the tidings came down to allington. on the fourteenth of february, crosbie was to be made a happy man. this was not known to the dales till the twelfth, and they would willingly have spared the knowledge then, had it been possible to spare it. but it was not so, and on that evening lily was told. during these days, bell used to see her uncle daily. her visits were made with the pretence of taking to him information as to lily's health; but there was perhaps at the bottom of them a feeling that, as the family intended to leave the small house at the end of march, it would be well to let the squire know that there was no enmity in their hearts against him. nothing more had been said about their moving,--nothing, that is, from them to him. but the matter was going on, and he knew it. dr. crofts was already in treaty on their behalf for a small furnished house at guestwick. the squire was very sad about it,--very sad indeed. when hopkins spoke to him on the subject, he sharply desired that faithful gardener to hold his tongue, giving it to be understood that such things were not to be made matter of talk by the allington dependants till they had been officially announced. with bell during these visits he never alluded to the matter. she was the chief sinner, in that she had refused to marry her cousin, and had declined even to listen to rational counsel upon the matter. but the squire felt that he could not discuss the subject with her, seeing that he had been specially informed by mrs. dale that his interference would not be permitted; and then he was perhaps aware that if he did discuss the subject with bell, he would not gain much by such discussion. their conversation, therefore, generally fell upon crosbie, and the tone in which he was mentioned in the great house was very different from that assumed in lily's presence. "he'll be a wretched man," said the squire, when he told bell of the day that had been fixed. "i don't want him to be wretched," said bell. "but i can hardly think that he can act as he has done without being punished." "he will be a wretched man. he gets no fortune with her, and she will expect everything that fortune can give. i believe, too, that she is older than he is. i cannot understand it. upon my word, i cannot understand how a man can be such a knave and such a fool. give my love to lily. i'll see her to-morrow or the next day. she's well rid of him; i'm sure of that;--though i suppose it would not do to tell her so." the morning of the fourteenth came upon them at the small house, as comes the morning of those special days which have been long considered, and which are to be long remembered. it brought with it a hard, bitter frost,--a black, biting frost,--such a frost as breaks the water-pipes, and binds the ground to the hardness of granite. lily, queen as she was, had not yet been allowed to go back to her own chamber, but occupied the larger bed in her mother's room, her mother sleeping on a smaller one. "mamma," she said, "how cold they'll be!" her mother had announced to her the fact of the black frost, and these were the first words she spoke. "i fear their hearts will be cold also," said mrs. dale. she ought not to have said so. she was transgressing the acknowledged rule of the house in saying any word that could be construed as being inimical to crosbie or his bride. but her feeling on the matter was too strong, and she could not restrain herself. "why should their hearts be cold? oh, mamma, that is a terrible thing to say. why should their hearts be cold?" "i hope it may not be so." "of course you do; of course we all hope it. he was not cold-hearted, at any rate. a man is not cold-hearted, because he does not know himself. mamma, i want you to wish for their happiness." mrs. dale was silent for a minute or two before she answered this, but then she did answer it. "i think i do," said she. "i think i do wish for it." "i am very sure that i do," said lily. at this time lily had her breakfast upstairs, but went down into the drawing-room in the course of the morning. "you must be very careful in wrapping yourself as you go downstairs," said bell, who stood by the tray on which she had brought up the toast and tea. "the cold is what you would call awful." "i should call it jolly," said lily, "if i could get up and go out. do you remember lecturing me about talking slang the day that he first came?" "did i, my pet?" "don't you remember, when i called him a swell? ah, dear! so he was. that was the mistake, and it was all my own fault, as i had seen it from the first." bell for a moment turned her face away, and beat with her foot against the ground. her anger was more difficult of restraint than was even her mother's,--and now, not restraining it, but wishing to hide it, she gave it vent in this way. "i understand, bell. i know what your foot means when it goes in that way; and you shan't do it. come here, bell, and let me teach you christianity. i'm a fine sort of teacher, am i not? and i did not quite mean that." "i wish i could learn it from some one," said bell. "there are circumstances in which what we call christianity seems to me to be hardly possible." "when your foot goes in that way it is a very unchristian foot, and you ought to keep it still. it means anger against him, because he discovered before it was too late that he would not be happy,--that is, that he and i would not be happy together if we were married." "don't scrutinize my foot too closely, lily." "but your foot must bear scrutiny, and your eyes, and your voice. he was very foolish to fall in love with me. and so was i very foolish to let him love me, at a moment's notice,--without a thought as it were. i was so proud of having him, that i gave myself up to him all at once, without giving him a chance of thinking of it. in a week or two it was done. who could expect that such an engagement should be lasting?" "and why not? that is nonsense, lily. but we will not talk about it." "ah, but i want to talk about it. it was as i have said, and if so, you shouldn't hate him because he did the only thing which he honestly could do when he found out his mistake." "what; become engaged again within a week!" "there had been a very old friendship, bell; you must remember that. but i was speaking of his conduct to me, and not of his conduct to--" and then she remembered that that other lady might at this very moment possess the name which she had once been so proud to think that she would bear herself. "bell," she said, stopping her other speech suddenly, "at what o'clock do people get married in london?" "oh, at all manner of hours,--any time before twelve. they will be fashionable, and will be married late." "you don't think she's mrs. crosbie yet, then?" "lady alexandrina crosbie," said bell, shuddering. "yes, of course; i forgot. i should so like to see her. i feel such an interest about her. i wonder what coloured hair she has. i suppose she is a sort of juno of a woman,--very tall and handsome. i'm sure she has not got a pug-nose like me. do you know what i should really like, only of course it's not possible;--to be godmother to his first child." "oh, lily!" "i should. don't you hear me say that i know it's not possible? i'm not going up to london to ask her. she'll have all manner of grandees for her godfathers and godmothers. i wonder what those grand people are really like." "i don't think there's any difference. look at lady julia." "oh, she's not a grand person. it isn't merely having a title. don't you remember that he told us that mr. palliser is about the grandest grandee of them all. i suppose people do learn to like them. he always used to say that he had been so long among people of that sort, that it would be very difficult for him to divide himself off from them. i should never have done for that kind of thing; should i?" "there is nothing i despise so much as what you call that kind of thing." "do you? i don't. after all, think how much work they do. he used to tell me of that. they have all the governing in their hands, and get very little money for doing it." "worse luck for the country." "the country seems to do pretty well. but you're a radical, bell. my belief is, you wouldn't be a lady if you could help it." "i'd sooner be an honest woman." "and so you are,--my own dear, dearest, honest bell,--and the fairest lady that i know. if i were a man, bell, you are just the girl that i should worship." "but you are not a man; so it's no good." "but you mustn't let your foot go astray in that way; you mustn't, indeed. somebody said, that whatever is, is right, and i declare i believe it." "i'm sometimes inclined to think, that whatever is, is wrong." "that's because you're a radical. i think i'll get up now, bell; only it's so frightfully cold that i'm afraid." "there's a beautiful fire," said bell. "yes; i see. but the fire won't go all around me, like the bed does. i wish i could know the very moment when they're at the altar. it's only half-past ten yet." "i shouldn't be at all surprised if it's over." "over! what a word that is! a thing like that is over, and then all the world cannot put it back again. what if he should be unhappy after all?" "he must take his chance," said bell, thinking within her own mind that that chance would be a very bad one. "of course he must take his chance. well,--i'll get up now." and then she took her first step out into the cold world beyond her bed. "we must all take our chance. i have made up my mind that it will be at half-past eleven." when half-past eleven came, she was seated in a large easy chair over the drawing-room fire, with a little table by her side, on which a novel was lying. she had not opened her book that morning, and had been sitting for some time perfectly silent, with her eyes closed, and her watch in her hand. "mamma," she said at last, "it is over now, i'm sure." [illustration: "mamma," she said at last, "it is over now, i'm sure."] "what is over, my dear?" "he has made that lady his wife. i hope god will bless them, and i pray that they may be happy." as she spoke these words, there was an unwonted solemnity in her tone which startled mrs. dale and bell. "i also will hope so," said mrs. dale. "and now, lily, will it not be well that you should turn your mind away from the subject, and endeavour to think of other things?" "but i can't, mamma. it is so easy to say that; but people can't choose their own thoughts." "they can usually direct them as they will, if they make the effort." "but i can't make the effort. indeed, i don't know why i should. it seems natural to me to think about him, and i don't suppose it can be very wrong. when you have had so deep an interest in a person, you can't drop him all of a sudden." then there was again silence, and after a while lily took up her novel. she made that effort of which her mother had spoken, but she made it altogether in vain. "i declare, bell," she said, "it's the greatest rubbish i ever attempted to read." this was specially ungrateful, because bell had recommended the book. "all the books have got to be so stupid! i think i'll read pilgrim's progress again." "what do you say to robinson crusoe?" said bell. "or paul and virginia?" said lily. "but i believe i'll have pilgrim's progress. i never can understand it, but i rather think that makes it nicer." "i hate books i can't understand," said bell. "i like a book to be clear as running water, so that the whole meaning may be seen at once." "the quick seeing of the meaning must depend a little on the reader, must it not?" said mrs. dale. "the reader mustn't be a fool, of course," said bell. "but then so many readers are fools," said lily. "and yet they get something out of their reading. mrs. crump is always poring over the revelations, and nearly knows them by heart. i don't think she could interpret a single image, but she has a hazy, misty idea of the truth. that's why she likes it,--because it's too beautiful to be understood; and that's why i like pilgrim's progress." after which bell offered to get the book in question. "no, not now," said lily. "i'll go on with this, as you say it's so grand. the personages are always in their tantrums, and go on as though they were mad. mamma, do you know where they're going for the honeymoon?" "no, my dear." "he used to talk to me about going to the lakes." and then there was another pause, during which bell observed that her mother's face became clouded with anxiety. "but i won't think of it any more," continued lily; "i will fix my mind to something." and then she got up from her chair. "i don't think it would have been so difficult if i had not been ill." "of course it would not, my darling." "and i'm going to be well again now, immediately. let me see: i was told to read carlyle's history of the french revolution, and i think i'll begin now." it was crosbie who had told her to read the book, as both bell and mrs. dale were well aware. "but i must put it off till i can get it down from the other house." "jane shall fetch it, if you really want it," said mrs. dale. "bell shall get it, when she goes up in the afternoon; will you, bell? and i'll try to get on with this stuff in the meantime." then again she sat with her eyes fixed upon the pages of the book. "i'll tell you what, mamma,--you may have some comfort in this: that when to-day's gone by, i shan't make a fuss about any other day." "nobody thinks that you are making a fuss, lily." "yes, but i am. isn't it odd, bell, that it should take place on valentine's day? i wonder whether it was so settled on purpose, because of the day. oh, dear, i used to think so often of the letter that i should get from him on this day, when he would tell me that i was his valentine. well; he's got another--valen--tine--now." so much she said with articulate voice, and then she broke down, bursting out into convulsive sobs, and crying in her mother's arms as though she would break her heart. and yet her heart was not broken, and she was still strong in that resolve which she had made, that her grief should not overpower her. as she had herself said, the thing would not have been so difficult, had she not been weakened by illness. "lily, my darling; my poor, ill-used darling." "no, mamma, i won't be that." and she struggled grievously to get the better of the hysterical attack which had overpowered her. "i won't be regarded as ill-used; not as specially ill-used. but i am your darling, your own darling. only i wish you'd beat me and thump me when i'm such a fool, instead of pitying me. it's a great mistake being soft to people when they make fools of themselves. there, bell; there's your stupid book, and i won't have any more of it. i believe it was that that did it." and she pushed the book away from her. after this little scene she said no further word about crosbie and his bride on that day, but turned the conversation towards the prospect of their new house at guestwick. "it will be a great comfort to be nearer dr. crofts; won't it, bell?" "i don't know," said bell. "because if we are ill, he won't have such a terrible distance to come." "that will be a comfort for him, i should think," said bell, very demurely. in the evening the first volume of the french revolution had been procured, and lily stuck to her reading with laudable perseverance; till at eight her mother insisted on her going to bed, queen as she was. "i don't believe a bit, you know, that the king was such a bad man as that," she said. "i do," said bell. "ah, that's because you're a radical. i never will believe that kings are so much worse than other people. as for charles the first, he was about the best man in history." this was an old subject of dispute; but lily on the present occasion was allowed her own way,--as being an invalid. chapter xlv. valentine's day in london. the fourteenth of february in london was quite as black, and cold, and as wintersome as it was at allington, and was, perhaps, somewhat more melancholy in its coldness. nevertheless lady alexandrina de courcy looked as bright as bridal finery could make her, when she got out of her carriage and walked into st. james's church at eleven o'clock on that morning. it had been finally arranged that the marriage should take place in london. there were certainly many reasons which would have made a marriage from courcy castle more convenient. the de courcy family were all assembled at their country family residence, and could therefore have been present at the ceremony without cost or trouble. the castle too was warm with the warmth of life, and the pleasantness of home would have lent a grace to the departure of one of the daughters of the house. the retainers and servants were there, and something of the rich mellowness of a noble alliance might have been felt, at any rate by crosbie, at a marriage so celebrated. and it must have been acknowledged, even by lady de courcy, that the house in portman square was very cold--that a marriage from thence would be cold,--that there could be no hope of attaching to it any honour and glory, or of making it resound with fashionable éclat in the columns of the _morning post_. but then, had they been married in the country, the earl would have been there; whereas there was no probability of his travelling up to london for the purpose of being present on such an occasion. the earl was very terrible in these days, and alexandrina, as she became confidential in her communications with her future husband, spoke of him as of an ogre, who could not by any means be avoided in all the concerns of life, but whom one might shun now and again by some subtle device and careful arrangement of favourable circumstances. crosbie had more than once taken upon himself to hint that he did not specially regard the ogre, seeing that for the future he could keep himself altogether apart from the malicious monster's dominions. "he will not come to me in our new home," he had said to his love, with some little touch of affection. but to this view of the case lady alexandrina had demurred. the ogre in question was not only her parent, but was also a noble peer, and she could not agree to any arrangement by which their future connection with the earl, and with nobility in general, might be endangered. her parent, doubtless, was an ogre, and in his ogreship could make himself very terrible to those near him; but then might it not be better for them to be near to an earl who was an ogre, than not to be near to any earl at all? she had therefore signified to crosbie that the ogre must be endured. but, nevertheless, it was a great thing to be rid of him on that happy occasion. he would have said very dreadful things,--things so dreadful that there might have been a question whether the bridegroom could have borne them. since he had heard of crosbie's accident at the railway station, he had constantly talked with fiendish glee of the beating which had been administered to his son-in-law. lady de courcy in taking crosbie's part, and maintaining that the match was fitting for her daughter, had ventured to declare before her husband that crosbie was a man of fashion, and the earl would now ask, with a loathsome grin, whether the bridegroom's fashion had been improved by his little adventure at paddington. crosbie, to whom all this was not repeated, would have preferred a wedding in the country. but the countess and lady alexandrina knew better. the earl had strictly interdicted any expenditure, and the countess had of necessity construed this as forbidding any unnecessary expense. "to marry a girl without any immediate cost was a thing which nobody could understand," as the countess remarked to her eldest daughter. "i would really spend as little as possible," lady amelia had answered. "you see, mamma, there are circumstances about it which one doesn't wish to have talked about just at present. there's the story of that girl,--and then that fracas at the station. i really think it ought to be as quiet as possible." the good sense of lady amelia was not to be disputed, as her mother acknowledged. but then if the marriage were managed in any notoriously quiet way, the very notoriety of that quiet would be as dangerous as an attempt at loud glory. "but it won't cost as much," said amelia. and thus it had been resolved that the wedding should be very quiet. to this crosbie had assented very willingly, though he had not relished the manner in which the countess had explained to him her views. "i need not tell you, adolphus," she had said, "how thoroughly satisfied i am with this marriage. my dear girl feels that she can be happy as your wife, and what more can i want? i declared to her and to amelia that i was not ambitious, for their sakes, and have allowed them both to please themselves." "i hope they have pleased themselves," said crosbie. "i trust so; but nevertheless,--i don't know whether i make myself understood?" "quite so, lady de courcy. if alexandrina were going to marry the eldest son of a marquis, you would have a longer procession to church than will be necessary when she marries me." "you put it in such an odd way, adolphus." "it's all right so long as we understand each other. i can assure you i don't want any procession at all. i should be quite contented to go down with alexandrina, arm in arm, like darby and joan, and let the clerk give her away." we may say that he would have been much better contented could he have been allowed to go down the street without any encumbrance on his arm. but there was no possibility now for such deliverance as that. both lady amelia and mr. gazebee had long since discovered the bitterness of his heart and the fact of his repentance, and gazebee had ventured to suggest to his wife that his noble sister-in-law was preparing for herself a life of misery. "he'll become quiet and happy when he's used to it," lady amelia had replied, thinking, perhaps, of her own experiences. "i don't know, my dear; he's not a quiet man. there's something in his eye which tells me that he could be very hard to a woman." "it has gone too far now for any change," lady amelia had answered. "well; perhaps it has." "and i know my sister so well; she would not hear of it. i really think they will do very well when they become used to each other." mr. gazebee, who also had had his own experiences, hardly dared to hope so much. his home had been satisfactory to him, because he had been a calculating man, and having made his calculation correctly was willing to take the net result. he had done so all his life with success. in his house his wife was paramount,--as he very well knew. but no effort on his wife's part, had she wished to make such effort, could have forced him to spend more than two-thirds of his income. of this she also was aware, and had trimmed her sails accordingly, likening herself to him in this respect. but of such wisdom, and such trimmings, and such adaptability, what likelihood was there with mr. crosbie and lady alexandrina? "at any rate, it is too late now," said lady amelia, thus concluding the conversation. but nevertheless, when the last moment came, there was some little attempt at glory. who does not know the way in which a lately married couple's little dinner-party stretches itself out from the pure simplicity of a fried sole and a leg of mutton to the attempt at clear soup, the unfortunately cold dish of round balls which is handed about after the sole, and the brightly red jelly, and beautifully pink cream, which are ordered, in the last agony of ambition, from the next pastrycook's shop? "we cannot give a dinner, my dear, with only cook and sarah." it has thus begun, and the husband has declared that he has no such idea. "if phipps and dowdney can come here and eat a bit of mutton, they are very welcome; if not, let them stay away. and you might as well ask phipps's sister; just to have some one to go with you into the drawing-room." "i'd much rather go alone, because then i can read,"--or sleep, we may say. but her husband has explained that she would look friendless in this solitary state, and therefore phipps's sister has been asked. then the dinner has progressed down to those costly jellies which have been ordered in a last agony. there has been a conviction on the minds of both of them that the simple leg of mutton would have been more jolly for them all. had those round balls not been carried about by a hired man; had simple mutton with hot potatoes been handed to miss phipps by sarah, miss phipps would not have simpered with such unmeaning stiffness when young dowdney spoke to her. they would have been much more jolly. "have a bit more mutton, phipps; and where do you like it?" how pleasant it sounds! but we all know that it is impossible. my young friend had intended this, but his dinner had run itself away to cold round balls and coloured forms from the pastrycook. and so it was with the crosbie marriage. the bride must leave the church in a properly appointed carriage, and the postboys must have wedding favours. so the thing grew; not into noble proportions, not into proportions of true glory, justifying the attempt and making good the gala. a well-cooked rissole, brought pleasantly to you, is good eating. a gala marriage, when everything is in keeping, is excellent sport. heaven forbid that we should have no gala marriages. but the small spasmodic attempt, made in opposition to manifest propriety, made with an inner conviction of failure,--that surely should be avoided in marriages, in dinners, and in all affairs of life. there were bridesmaids and there was a breakfast. both margaretta and rosina came up to london for the occasion, as did also a first cousin of theirs, one miss gresham, a lady whose father lived in the same county. mr. gresham had married a sister of lord de courcy's, and his services were also called into requisition. he was brought up to give away the bride, because the earl,--as the paragraph in the newspaper declared,--was confined at courcy castle by his old hereditary enemy, the gout. a fourth bridesmaid also was procured, and thus there was a bevy, though not so large a bevy as is now generally thought to be desirable. there were only three or four carriages at the church, but even three or four were something. the weather was so frightfully cold that the light-coloured silks of the ladies carried with them a show of discomfort. girls should be very young to look nice in light dresses on a frosty morning, and the bridesmaids at lady alexandrina's wedding were not very young. lady rosina's nose was decidedly red. lady margaretta was very wintry, and apparently very cross. miss gresham was dull, tame, and insipid; and the honourable miss o'flaherty, who filled the fourth place, was sulky at finding that she had been invited to take a share in so very lame a performance. but the marriage was made good, and crosbie bore up against his misfortunes like a man. montgomerie dobbs and fowler pratt both stood by him, giving him, let us hope, some assurance that he was not absolutely deserted by all the world,--that he had not given himself up, bound hand and foot, to the de courcys, to be dealt with in all matters as they might please. it was that feeling which had been so grievous to him,--and that other feeling, cognate to it, that if he should ultimately succeed in rebelling against the de courcys, he would find himself a solitary man. "yes; i shall go," fowler pratt had said to montgomerie dobbs. "i always stick to a fellow if i can. crosbie has behaved like a blackguard, and like a fool also; and he knows that i think so. but i don't see why i should drop him on that account. i shall go as he has asked me." "so shall i," said montgomerie dobbs, who considered that he would be safe in doing whatever fowler pratt did, and who remarked to himself that after all crosbie was marrying the daughter of an earl. then, after the marriage, came the breakfast, at which the countess presided with much noble magnificence. she had not gone to church, thinking, no doubt, that she would be better able to maintain her good humour at the feast, if she did not subject herself to the chance of lumbago in the church. at the foot of the table sat mr. gresham, her brother-in-law, who had undertaken to give the necessary toast and make the necessary speech. the honourable john was there, saying all manner of ill-natured things about his sister and new brother-in-law, because he had been excluded from his proper position at the foot of the table. but alexandrina had declared that she would not have the matter entrusted to her brother. the honourable george would not come, because the countess had not asked his wife. "maria may be slow, and all that sort of thing," george had said; "but she is my wife. and she had got what they haven't. love me, love my dog, you know." so he had stayed down at courcy,--very properly as i think. alexandrina had wished to go away before breakfast, and crosbie would not have cared how early an escape had been provided for him; but the countess had told her daughter that if she would not wait for the breakfast, there should be no breakfast at all, and in fact no wedding; nothing but a simple marriage. had there been a grand party, that going away of the bride and bridegroom might be very well; but the countess felt that on such an occasion as this nothing but the presence of the body of the sacrifice could give any reality to the festivity. so crosbie and lady alexandrina crosbie heard mr. gresham's speech, in which he prophesied for the young couple an amount of happiness and prosperity almost greater than is compatible with the circumstances of humanity. his young friend crosbie, whose acquaintance he had been delighted to make, was well known as one of the rising pillars of the state. whether his future career might be parliamentary, or devoted to the permanent civil service of the country, it would be alike great, noble, and prosperous. as to his dear niece, who was now filling that position in life which was most beautiful and glorious for a young woman,--she could not have done better. she had preferred genius to wealth,--so said mr. gresham,--and she would find her fitting reward. as to her finding her fitting reward, whatever her preferences may have been, there mr. gresham was no doubt quite right. on that head i myself have no doubt whatever. after that crosbie returned thanks, making a much better speech than nine men do out of ten on such occasions, and then the thing was over. no other speaking was allowed, and within half an hour from that time, he and his bride were in the post-chaise, being carried away to the folkestone railway station; for that place had been chosen as the scene of their honeymoon. it had been at one time intended that the journey to folkestone should be made simply as the first stage to paris, but paris and all foreign travelling had been given up by degrees. "i don't care a bit about france,--we have been there so often," alexandrina said. she had wished to be taken to naples, but crosbie had made her understand at the first whispering of the word, that naples was quite out of the question. he must look now in all things to money. from the very first outset of his career he must save a shilling wherever a shilling could be saved. to this view of life no opposition was made by the de courcy interest. lady amelia had explained to her sister that they ought so to do their honeymooning that it should not cost more than if they began keeping house at once. certain things must be done which, no doubt, were costly in their nature. the bride must take with her a well-dressed lady's-maid. the rooms at the folkestone hotel must be large, and on the first floor. a carriage must be hired for her use while she remained; but every shilling must be saved the spending of which would not make itself apparent to the outer world. oh, deliver us from the poverty of those who, with small means, affect a show of wealth! there is no whitening equal to that of sepulchres whited as they are whited! by the proper administration of a slight bribe crosbie secured for himself and his wife a compartment in the railway carriage to themselves. and as he seated himself opposite to alexandrina, having properly tucked her up with all her bright-coloured trappings, he remembered that he had never in truth been alone with her before. he had danced with her frequently, and been left with her for a few minutes between the figures. he had flirted with her in crowded drawing-rooms, and had once found a moment at courcy castle to tell her that he was willing to marry her in spite of his engagement with lilian dale. but he had never walked with her for hours together as he had walked with lily. he had never talked to her about government, and politics, and books, nor had she talked to him of poetry, of religion, and of the little duties and comforts of life. he had known the lady alexandrina for the last six or seven years; but he had never known her,--perhaps never would know her,--as he had learned to know lily dale within the space of two months. and now that she was his wife, what was he to say to her? they two had commenced a partnership which was to make of them for the remaining term of their lives one body and one flesh. they were to be all-in-all to each other. but how was he to begin this all-in-all partnership? had the priest, with his blessing, done it so sufficiently that no other doing on crosbie's own part was necessary? there she was, opposite to him, his very actual wife,--bone of his bone; and what was he to say to her? as he settled himself on his seat, taking over his own knees a part of a fine fur rug trimmed with scarlet, with which he had covered her other mufflings, he bethought himself how much easier it would have been to talk to lily. and lily would have been ready with all her ears, and all her mind, and all her wit, to enter quickly upon whatever thoughts had occurred to him. in that respect lily would have been a wife indeed,--a wife that would have transferred herself with quick mental activity into her husband's mental sphere. had he begun about his office lily would have been ready for him, but alexandrina had never yet asked him a single question about his official life. had he been prepared with a plan for to-morrow's happiness lily would have taken it up eagerly, but alexandrina never cared for such trifles. "are you quite comfortable?" he said, at last. "oh, yes, quite, thank you. by-the-by, what did you do with my dressing-case?" and that question she did ask with some energy. "it is under you. you can have it as foot-stool if you like it." "oh, no; i should scratch it. i was afraid that if hannah had it, it might be lost." then again there was silence, and crosbie again considered as to what he would next say to his wife. we all know the advice given us of old as to what we should do under such circumstances; and who can be so thoroughly justified in following that advice as a newly-married husband? so he put out his hand for hers and drew her closer to him. "take care of my bonnet," she said, as she felt the motion of the railway carriage when he kissed her. i don't think he kissed her again till he had landed her and her bonnet safely at folkestone. how often would he have kissed lily, and how pretty would her bonnet have been when she reached the end of her journey, and how delightfully happy would she have looked when she scolded him for bending it! but alexandrina was quite in earnest about her bonnet; by far too much in earnest for any appearance of happiness. so he sat without speaking, till the train came to the tunnel. "i do so hate tunnels," said alexandrina. he had half intended to put out his hand again, under some mistaken idea that the tunnel afforded him an opportunity. the whole journey was one long opportunity, had he desired it; but his wife hated tunnels, and so he drew his hand back again. lily's little fingers would have been ready for his touch. he thought of this, and could not help thinking of it. he had _the times_ newspaper in his dressing-bag. she also had a novel with her. would she be offended if he took out the paper and read it? the miles seemed to pass by very slowly, and there was still another hour down to folkestone. he longed for his _times_, but resolved at last that he would not read unless she read first. she also had remembered her novel; but by nature she was more patient than he, and she thought that on such a journey any reading might perhaps be almost improper. so she sat tranquilly, with her eyes fixed on the netting over her husband's head. at last he could stand it no longer, and he dashed off into a conversation, intended to be most affectionate and serious. "alexandrina," he said, and his voice was well-tuned for the tender serious manner, had her ears been alive to such tuning. "alexandrina, this is a very important step that you and i have taken to-day." "yes; it is, indeed," said she. "i trust we shall succeed in making each other happy." "yes; i hope we shall." "if we both think seriously of it, and remember that that is our chief duty, we shall do so." "yes, i suppose we shall. i only hope we shan't find the house very cold. it is so new, and i am so subject to colds in my head. amelia says we shall find it very cold; but then she was always against our going there." "the house will do very well," said crosbie. and alexandrina could perceive that there was something of the master in his tone as he spoke. "i am only telling you what amelia said," she replied. had lily been his bride, and had he spoken to her of their future life and mutual duties, how she would have kindled to the theme! she would have knelt at his feet on the floor of the carriage, and, looking up into his face, would have promised him to do her best,--her best,--her very best. and with what an eagerness of inward resolution would she have determined to keep her promise. he thought of all this now, but he knew that he ought not to think of it. then, for some quarter of an hour, he did take out his newspaper, and she, when she saw him do so, did take out her novel. he took out his newspaper, but he could not fix his mind upon the politics of the day. had he not made a terrible mistake? of what use to him in life would be that thing of a woman that sat opposite to him? had not a great punishment come upon him, and had he not deserved the punishment? in truth, a great punishment had come upon him. it was not only that he had married a woman incapable of understanding the higher duties of married life, but that he himself would have been capable of appreciating the value of a woman who did understand them. he would have been happy with lily dale; and therefore we may surmise that his unhappiness with lady alexandrina would be the greater. there are men who, in marrying such as lady alexandrina de courcy, would get the article best suited to them, as mortimer gazebee had done in marrying her sister. miss griselda grantly, who had become lady dumbello, though somewhat colder and somewhat cleverer than lady alexandrina, had been of the same sort. but in marrying her, lord dumbello had got the article best suited to him;--if only the ill-natured world would allow him to keep the article. it was in this that crosbie's failure had been so grievous,--that he had seen and approved the better course, but had chosen for himself to walk in that which was worse. during that week at courcy castle,--the week which he passed there immediately after his second visit to allington,--he had deliberately made up his mind that he was more fit for the bad course than for the good one. the course was now before him, and he had no choice but to walk in it. it was very cold when they got to folkestone, and lady alexandrina shivered as she stepped into the private-looking carriage which had been sent to the station for her use. "we shall find a good fire in the parlour at the hotel," said crosbie. "oh, i hope so," said alexandrina, "and in the bedroom too." the young husband felt himself to be offended, but he hardly knew why. he felt himself to be offended, and with difficulty induced himself to go through all those little ceremonies the absence of which would have been remarked by everybody. he did his work, however, seeing to all her shawls and wrappings, speaking with good-nature to hannah, and paying special attention to the dressing-case. "what time would you like to dine?" he asked, as he prepared to leave her alone with hannah in the bedroom. "whenever you please; only i should like some tea and bread-and-butter presently." crosbie went into the sitting-room, ordered the tea and bread-and-butter, ordered also the dinner, and then stood himself up with his back to the fire, in order that he might think a little of his future career. he was a man who had long since resolved that his life should be a success. it would seem that all men would so resolve, if the matter were simply one of resolution. but the majority of men, as i take it, make no such resolution, and very many men resolve that they will be unsuccessful. crosbie, however, had resolved on success, and had done much towards carrying out his purpose. he had made a name for himself, and had acquired a certain fame. that, however, was, as he acknowledged to himself, departing from him. he looked the matter straight in the face, and told himself that his fashion must be abandoned; but the office remained to him. he might still rule over mr. optimist, and make a subservient slave of butterwell. that must be his line in life now, and to that line he would endeavour to be true. as to his wife and his home,--he would look to them for his breakfast, and perhaps his dinner. he would have a comfortable arm-chair, and if alexandrina should become a mother, he would endeavour to love his children; but above all things he would never think of lily. after that he stood and thought of her for half an hour. "if you please, sir, my lady wants to know at what time you have ordered dinner." "at seven, hannah." "my lady says she is very tired, and will lie down till dinner-time." "very well, hannah. i will go into her room when it is time to dress. i hope they are making you comfortable downstairs?" then crosbie strolled out on the pier in the dusk of the cold winter evening. chapter xlvi. john eames at his office. [illustration: (untitled)] mr. crosbie and his wife went upon their honeymoon tour to folkestone in the middle of february, and returned to london about the end of march. nothing of special moment to the interests of our story occurred during those six weeks, unless the proceedings of the young married couple by the sea-side may be thought to have any special interest. with regard to those proceedings i can only say that crosbie was very glad when they were brought to a close. all holiday-making is hard work, but holiday-making with nothing to do is the hardest work of all. at the end of march they went into their new house, and we will hope that lady alexandrina did not find it very cold. during this time lily's recovery from her illness was being completed. she had no relapse, nor did anything occur to create a new fear on her account. but, nevertheless, dr. crofts gave it as his opinion that it would be inexpedient to move her into a fresh house at lady-day. march is not a kindly month for invalids; and therefore with some regret on the part of mrs. dale, with much impatience on that of bell, and with considerable outspoken remonstrance from lily herself, the squire was requested to let them remain through the month of april. how the squire received this request, and in what way he assented to the doctor's reasoning, will be told in the course of a chapter or two. in the meantime john eames had continued his career in london without much immediate satisfaction to himself, or to the lady who boasted to be his heart's chosen queen. miss amelia roper, indeed, was becoming very cross, and in her ill-temper was playing a game that was tending to create a frightful amount of hot water in burton crescent. she was devoting herself to a flirtation with mr. cradell, not only under the immediate eyes of johnny eames, but also under those of mrs. lupex. john eames, the blockhead, did not like it. he was above all things anxious to get rid of amelia and her claims; so anxious, that on certain moody occasions he would threaten himself with diverse tragical terminations to his career in london. he would enlist. he would go to australia. he would blow out his brains. he would have "an explanation" with amelia, tell her that she was a vixen, and proclaim his hatred. he would rush down to allington and throw himself in despair at lily's feet. amelia was the bugbear of his life. nevertheless, when she flirted with cradell, he did not like it, and was ass enough to speak to cradell about it. "of course i don't care," he said, "only it seems to me that you are making a fool of yourself." "i thought you wanted to get rid of her." "she's nothing on earth to me; only it does, you know--" "does do what?" asked cradell. "why, if i was to be fal-lalling with that married woman, you wouldn't like it. that's all about it. do you mean to marry her?" "what!--amelia?" "yes; amelia." "not if i know it." "then if i were you i would leave her alone. she's only making a fool of you." eames's advice may have been good, and the view taken by him of amelia's proceedings may have been correct; but as regarded his own part in the affair, he was not wise. miss roper, no doubt, wished to make him jealous; and she succeeded in the teeth of his aversion to her and of his love elsewhere. he had no desire to say soft things to miss roper. miss roper, with all her skill, could not extract a word pleasantly soft from him once a week. but, nevertheless, soft words to her and from her in another quarter made him uneasy. such being the case, must we not acknowledge that john eames was still floundering in the ignorance of his hobbledehoyhood? the lupexes at this time still held their ground in the crescent, although repeated warnings to go had been given them. mrs. roper, though she constantly spoke of sacrificing all that they owed her, still hankered, with a natural hankering, after her money. and as each warning was accompanied by a demand for payment, and usually produced some slight subsidy on account, the thing went on from week to week; and at the beginning of april mr. and mrs. lupex were still boarders at mrs. roper's house. eames had heard nothing from allington since the time of his christmas visit, and his subsequent correspondence with lord de guest. in his letters from his mother he was told that game came frequently from guestwick manor, and in this way he knew that he was not forgotten by the earl. but of lily he had heard not a word,--except, indeed, the rumour, which had now become general, that the dales from the small house were about to move themselves into guestwick. when first he learned this he construed the tidings as favourable to himself, thinking that lily, removed from the grandeur of allington, might possibly be more easily within his reach; but, latterly, he had given up any such hope as that, and was telling himself that his friend at the manor had abandoned all idea of making up the marriage. three months had already elapsed since his visit. five months had passed since crosbie had surrendered his claim. surely such a knave as crosbie might be forgotten in five months! if any steps could have been taken through the squire, surely three months would have sufficed for them! it was very manifest to him that there was no ground of hope for him at allington, and it would certainly be well for him to go off to australia. he would go to australia, but he would thrash cradell first for having dared to interfere with amelia roper. that, generally, was the state of his mind during the first week in april. then there came to him a letter from the earl which instantly effected a great change in all his feelings; which taught him to regard australia as a dream, and almost put him into a good humour with cradell. the earl had by no means lost sight of his friend's interests at allington; and, moreover, those interests were now backed by an ally who in this matter must be regarded as much more powerful than the earl. the squire had given in his consent to the eames alliance. the earl's letter was as follows:-- guestwick manor, april , --. my dear john, i told you to write to me again, and you haven't done it. i saw your mother the other day, or else you might have been dead for anything i knew. a young man always ought to write letters when he is told to do so. eames, when he had got so far, felt himself rather aggrieved by this rebuke, knowing that he had abstained from writing to his patron simply from an unwillingness to intrude upon him with his letters. "by jove, i'll write to him every week of his life, till he's sick of me," johnny said to himself when he found himself thus instructed as to a young man's duties. and now i have got to tell you a long story, and i should like it much better if you were down here, so that i might save myself the trouble; but you would think me ill-natured if i were to keep you waiting. i happened to meet mr. dale the other day, and he said that he should be very glad if a certain young lady would make up her mind to listen to a certain young friend of mine. so i asked him what he meant to do about the young lady's fortune, and he declared himself willing to give her a hundred a year during his life, and to settle four thousand pounds upon her after his death. i said that i would do as much on my part by the young man; but as two hundred a year, with your salary, would hardly give you enough to begin with, i'll make mine a hundred and fifty. you'll be getting up in your office soon, and with five hundred a year you ought to be able to get along; especially as you need not insure your life. i should live somewhere near bloomsbury square at first, because i'm told you can get a house for nothing. after all, what's fashion worth? you can bring your wife down here in the autumn, and have some shooting. she won't let you go to sleep under the trees, i'll be bound. but you must look after the young lady. you will understand that no one has said a word to her about it; or, if they have, i don't know it. you'll find the squire on your side, that's all. couldn't you manage to come down this easter? tell old buffle, with my compliments, that i want you. i'll write to him if you like it. i did know him at one time, though i can't say i was ever very fond of him. it stands to reason that you can't get on with miss lily without seeing her; unless, indeed, you like better to write to her, which always seems to me to be very poor sort of fun. you'd much better come down, and go a-wooing in the regular old-fashioned way. i need not tell you that lady julia will be delighted to see you. you are a prime favourite with her since that affair at the railway station. she thinks a great deal more about that than she does about the bull. now, my dear fellow, you know all about it, and i shall take it very much amiss of you if you don't answer my letter soon. your very sincere friend, de guest. when eames had finished this letter, sitting at his office-desk, his surprise and elation were so great that he hardly knew where he was or what he ought to do. could it be the truth that lily's uncle had not only consented that the match should be made, but that he had also promised to give his niece a considerable fortune? for a few minutes it seemed to johnny as though all obstacles to his happiness were removed, and that there was no impediment between him and an amount of bliss of which he had hitherto hardly dared to dream. then, when he considered the earl's munificence, he almost cried. he found that he could not compose his mind to think, or even his hand to write. he did not know whether it would be right in him to accept such pecuniary liberality from any living man, and almost thought that he should feel himself bound to reject the earl's offer. as to the squire's money, that he knew he might accept. all that comes in the shape of a young woman's fortune may be taken by any man. he would certainly answer the earl's letter, and that at once. he would not leave the office till he had done so. his friend should have cause to bring no further charge against him of that kind. and then again he reverted to the injustice which had been done to him in the matter of letter-writing--as if that consideration were of moment in such a state of circumstances as was now existing. but at last his thoughts brought themselves to the real question at issue. would lily dale accept him? after all, the realization of his good fortune depended altogether upon her feelings; and, as he remembered this, his mind misgave him sorely. it was filled not only with a young lover's ordinary doubts,--with the fear and trembling incidental to the bashfulness of hobbledehoyhood--but with an idea that that affair with crosbie would still stand in his way. he did not, perhaps, rightly understand all that lily had suffered, but he conceived it to be probable that there had been wounds which even the last five months might not yet have cured. could it be that she would allow him to cure these wounds? as he thought of this he felt almost crushed to the earth by an indomitable bashfulness and conviction of his own unworthiness. what had he to offer worthy of the acceptance of such a girl as lilian dale? i fear that the crown did not get out of john eames an adequate return for his salary on that day. so adequate, however, had been the return given by him for some time past, that promotion was supposed throughout the income-tax office to be coming in his way, much to the jealousy of cradell, fisher, and others, his immediate compeers and cronies. and the place assigned to him by rumour was one which was generally regarded as a perfect elysium upon earth in the civil service world. he was, so rumour said, to become private secretary to the first commissioner. he would be removed by such a change as this from the large uncarpeted room in which he at present sat; occupying the same desk with another man to whom he had felt himself to be ignominiously bound, as dogs must feel when they are coupled. this room had been the bear-garden of the office. twelve or fourteen men sat in it. large pewter pots were brought into it daily at one o'clock, giving it an air that was not aristocratic. the senior of the room, one mr. love, who was presumed to have it under his immediate dominion, was a clerk of the ancient stamp, dull, heavy, unambitious, living out on the farther side of islington, and unknown beyond the limits of his office to any of his younger brethren. he was generally regarded as having given a bad tone to the room. and then the clerks in this room would not unfrequently be blown up,--with very palpable blowings up,--by an official swell, a certain chief clerk, named kissing, much higher in standing though younger in age than the gentleman of whom we have before spoken. he would hurry in, out of his own neighbouring chamber, with quick step and nose in the air, shuffling in his office slippers, looking on each occasion as though there were some cause to fear that the whole civil service were coming to an abrupt termination, and would lay about him with hard words, which some of those in the big room did not find it very easy to bear. his hair was always brushed straight up, his eyes were always very wide open,--and he usually carried a big letter-book with him, keeping in it a certain place with his finger. this book was almost too much for his strength, and he would flop it down, now on this man's desk and now on that man's, and in a long career of such floppings had made himself to be very much hated. on the score of some old grudge he and mr. love did not speak to each other; and for this reason, on all occasions of fault-finding, the blown-up young man would refer mr. kissing to his enemy. "i know nothing about it," mr. love would say, not lifting his face from his desk for a moment. "i shall certainly lay the matter before the board," mr. kissing would reply, and would then shuffle out of the room with the big book. sometimes mr. kissing would lay the matter before the board, and then he, and mr. love, and two or three delinquent clerks would be summoned thither. it seldom led to much. the delinquent clerks would be cautioned. one commissioner would say a word in private to mr. love, and another a word in private to mr. kissing. then, when left alone, the commissioners would have their little jokes, saying that kissing, they feared, went by favour; and that love should still be lord of all. but these things were done in the mild days, before sir raffle buffle came to the board. there had been some fun in this at first; but of late john eames had become tired of it. he disliked mr. kissing, and the big book out of which mr. kissing was always endeavouring to convict him of some official sin, and had got tired of that joke of setting kissing and love by the ears together. when the assistant secretary first suggested to him that sir raffle had an idea of selecting him as private secretary, and when he remembered the cosy little room, all carpeted, with a leathern arm-chair and a separate washing-stand, which in such case would be devoted to his use, and remembered also that he would be put into receipt of an additional hundred a year, and would stand in the way of still better promotion, he was overjoyed. but there were certain drawbacks. the present private secretary,--who had been private secretary also to the late first commissioner,--was giving up his elysium because he could not endure the tones of sir raffle's voice. it was understood that sir raffle required rather more of a private secretary, in the way of obsequious attendance, than was desirable, and eames almost doubted his own fitness for the place. "and why should he choose me?" he had asked the assistant secretary. "well, we have talked it over together, and i think that he prefers you to any other that has been named." "but he was so very hard upon me about the affair at the railway station." "i think he has heard more about that since; i think that some message has reached him from your friend, earl de guest." "oh, indeed!" said johnny, beginning to comprehend what it was to have an earl for his friend. since his acquaintance with the nobleman had commenced, he had studiously avoided all mention of the earl's name at his office; and yet he received almost daily intimation that the fact was well known there, and not a little considered. "but he is so very rough," said johnny. "you can put up with that," said his friend the assistant secretary. "his bark is worse than his bite, as you know; and then a hundred a year is worth having." eames was at that moment inclined to take a gloomy view of life in general, and was disposed to refuse the place, should it be offered to him. he had not then received the earl's letter; but now, as he sat with that letter open before him, lying in the drawer beneath his desk so that he could still read it as he leaned back in his chair, he was enabled to look at things in general through a different atmosphere. in the first place, lilian dale's husband ought to have a room to himself, with a carpet and an arm-chair; and then that additional hundred a year would raise his income at once to the sum as to which the earl had made some sort of stipulation. but could he get that leave of absence at easter? if he consented to be sir raffle's private secretary, he would make that a part of the bargain. at this moment the door of the big room was opened, and mr. kissing shuffled in with very quick little steps. he shuffled in, and coming direct up to john's desk, flopped his ledger down upon it before its owner had had time to close the drawer which contained the precious letter. "what have you got in that drawer, mr. eames?" "a private letter, mr. kissing." "oh;--a private letter!" said mr. kissing, feeling strongly convinced there was a novel hidden there, but not daring to express his belief. "i have been half the morning, mr. eames, looking for this letter to the admiralty, and you've put it under s!" a bystander listening to mr. kissing's tone would have been led to believe that the whole income-tax office was jeopardized by the terrible iniquity thus disclosed. "somerset house," pleaded johnny. "psha;--somerset house! half the offices in london--" "you'd better ask mr. love," said eames. "it's all done under his special instructions." mr. kissing looked at mr. love, and mr. love looked steadfastly at his desk. "mr. love knows all about the indexing," continued johnny. "he's index master general to the department." "no, i'm not, mr. eames," said mr. love, who rather liked john eames, and hated mr. kissing with his whole heart. "but i believe the indexes, on the whole, are very well done in this room. some people don't know how to find letters." "mr. eames," began mr. kissing, still pointing with a finger of bitter reproach to the misused s, and beginning an oration which was intended for the benefit of the whole room, and for the annihilation of old mr. love, "if you have yet to learn that the word admiralty begins with a and not with s, you have much to learn which should have been acquired before you first came into this office. somerset house is not a department." then he turned round to the room at large, and repeated the last words, as though they might become very useful if taken well to heart--"is not a department. the treasury is a department; the home office is a department; the india board is a department--" "no, mr. kissing, it isn't," said a young clerk from the other end of the room. "you know very well what i mean, sir. the india office is a department." "there's no board, sir." "never mind; but how any gentleman who has been in the service three months,--not to say three years,--can suppose somerset house to be a department, is beyond my comprehension. if you have been improperly instructed--" "we shall know all about it another time," said eames. "mr. love will make a memorandum of it." "i shan't do anything of the kind," said mr. love. "if you have been wrongly instructed,--" mr. kissing began again, stealing a glance at mr. love as he did so; but at this moment the door was again opened, and a messenger summoned johnny to the presence of the really great man. "mr. eames, to wait upon sir raffle." upon hearing this johnny immediately started, and left mr. kissing and the big book in possession of his desk. how the battle was waged, and how it raged in the large room, we cannot stop to hear, as it is necessary that we should follow our hero into the presence of sir raffle buffle. "ah, eames,--yes," said sir raffle, looking up from his desk when the young man entered; "just wait half a minute, will you?" and the knight went to work at his papers, as though fearing that any delay in what he was doing might be very prejudicial to the nation at large. "ah, eames,--well,--yes," he said again, as he pushed away from him, almost with a jerk, the papers on which he had been writing. "they tell me that you know the business of this office pretty well." "some of it, sir," said eames. "well, yes; some of it. but you'll have to understand the whole of it if you come to me. and you must be very sharp about it too. you know that fitzhoward is leaving me?" "i have heard of it, sir." "a very excellent young man, though perhaps not-- but we won't mind that. the work is a little too much for him, and he's going back into the office. i believe lord de guest is a friend of yours; isn't he?" "yes; he is a friend of mine, certainly. he's been very kind to me." "ah, well. i've known the earl for many years,--for very many years; and intimately at one time. perhaps you may have heard him mention my name?" "yes, i have, sir raffle." "we were intimate once, but those things go off, you know. he's been the country mouse and i've been the town mouse. ha, ha, ha! you may tell him that i say so. he won't mind that coming from me." "oh, no; not at all," said eames. "mind you tell him when you see him. the earl is a man for whom i've always had a great respect,--a very great respect,--i may say regard. and now, eames, what do you say to taking fitzhoward's place? the work is hard. it is fair that i should tell you that. the work will, no doubt, be very hard. i take a greater share of what's going than my predecessors have done; and i don't mind telling you that i have been sent here, because a man was wanted who would do that." the voice of sir raffle, as he continued, became more and more harsh, and eames began to think how wise fitzhoward had been. "i mean to do my duty, and i shall expect that my private secretary will do his. but, mr. eames, i never forget a man. whether he be good or bad, i never forget a man. you don't dislike late hours, i suppose." "coming late to the office, you mean? oh, no, not in the least." "staying late,--staying late. six or seven o'clock if necessary,--putting your shoulder to the wheel when the coach gets into the mud. that's what i've been doing all my life. they've known what i am very well. they've always kept me for the heavy roads. if they paid, in the civil service, by the hour, i believe i should have drawn a larger income than any man in it. if you take the vacant chair in the next room you'll find it's no joke. it's only fair that i should tell you that." "i can work as hard as any man," said eames. "that's right. that's right. stick to that and i'll stick to you. it will be a great gratification to me to have by me a friend of my old friend de guest. tell him i say so. and now you may as well get into harness at once. fitzhoward is there. you can go in to him, and at half-past four exactly i'll see you both. i'm very exact, mind,--very;--and therefore you must be exact." then sir raffle looked as though he desired to be left alone. "sir raffle, there's one favour i want to ask of you," said johnny. "and what's that?" "i am most anxious to be absent for a fortnight or three weeks, just at easter. i shall want to go in about ten days." "absent for three weeks at easter, when the parliamentary work is beginning! that won't do for a private secretary." "but it's very important, sir raffle." "out of the question, eames; quite out of the question." "it's almost life and death to me." "almost life and death. why, what are you going to do?" with all his grandeur and national importance, sir raffle would be very curious as to little people. "well, i can't exactly tell you, and i'm not quite sure myself." "then don't talk nonsense. it's impossible that i should spare my private secretary just at that time of the year. i couldn't do it. the service won't admit of it. you're not entitled to leave at that season. private secretaries always take their leave in the autumn." "i should like to be absent in the autumn too, but--" "it's out of the question, mr. eames." then john eames reflected that it behoved him in such an emergency to fire off his big gun. he had a great dislike to firing this big gun, but, as he said to himself, there are occasions which make a big gun very necessary. "i got a letter from lord de guest this morning, pressing me very much to go to him at easter. it's about business," added johnny. "if there was any difficulty, he said, he should write to you." "write to me," said sir raffle, who did not like to be approached too familiarly in his office, even by an earl. "of course i shouldn't tell him to do that. but, sir raffle, if i remained out there, in the office," and johnny pointed towards the big room with his head, "i could choose april for my month. and as the matter is so important to me, and to the earl--" "what can it be?" said sir raffle. "it's quite private," said john eames. hereupon sir raffle became very petulant, feeling that a bargain was being made with him. this young man would only consent to become his private secretary upon certain terms! "well, go in to fitzhoward now. i can't lose all my day in this way." "but i shall be able to get away at easter?" "i don't know. we shall see about it. but don't stand talking there now." then john eames went into fitzhoward's room, and received that gentleman's congratulations on his appointment. "i hope you like being rung for, like a servant, every minute, for he's always ringing that bell. and he'll roar at you till you're deaf. you must give up all dinner engagements, for though there is not much to do, he'll never let you go. i don't think anybody ever asks him out to dinner, for he likes being here till seven. and you'll have to write all manner of lies about big people. and, sometimes, when he has sent rafferty out about his private business, he'll ask you to bring him his shoes." now rafferty was the first commissioner's messenger. it must be remembered, however, that this little account was given by an outgoing and discomfited private secretary. "a man is not asked to bring another man his shoes," said eames to himself, "until he shows himself fit for that sort of business." then he made within his own breast a little resolution about sir raffle's shoes. chapter xlvii. the new private secretary. income-tax office, april , --. my dear lord de guest, i hardly know how to answer your letter, it is so very kind--more than kind. and about not writing before,--i must explain that i have not liked to trouble you with letters. i should have seemed to be encroaching if i had written much. indeed it didn't come from not thinking about you. and first of all, about the money,--as to your offer, i mean. i really feel that i do not know what i ought to say to you about it, without appearing to be a simpleton. the truth is, i don't know what i ought to do, and can only trust to you not to put me wrong. i have an idea that a man ought not to accept a present of money, unless from his father, or somebody like that. and the sum you mention is so very large that it makes me wish you had not named it. if you choose to be so generous, would it not be better that you should leave it me in your will? "so that he might always want me to be dying," said lord de guest, as he read the letter out loud to his sister. "i'm sure he wouldn't want that," said lady julia. "but you may live for twenty-five years, you know." "say fifty," said the earl. and then he continued the reading of his letter. but all that depends so much upon another person, that it is hardly worth while talking about it. of course i am very much obliged to mr. dale,--very much indeed,--and i think that he is behaving very handsomely to his niece. but whether it will do me any good, that is quite another thing. however, i shall certainly accept your kind invitation for easter, and find out whether i have a chance or not. i must tell you that sir raffle buffle has made me his private secretary, by which i get a hundred a year. he says he was a great crony of yours many years ago, and seems to like talking about you very much. you will understand what all that means. he has sent you ever so many messages, but i don't suppose you will care to get them. i am to go to him to-morrow, and from all i hear i shall have a hard time of it. "by george, he will," said the earl. "poor fellow!" "but i thought a private secretary never had anything to do," said lady julia. "i shouldn't like to be private secretary to sir raffle, myself. but he's young, and a hundred a year is a great thing. how we all of us used to hate that man. his voice sounded like a bell with a crack in it. we always used to be asking for some one to muffle the buffle. they call him huffle scuffle at his office. poor johnny!" then he finished the letter:-- i told him that i must have leave of absence at easter, and he at first declared that it was impossible. but i shall carry my point about that. i would not stay away to be made private secretary to the prime minister; and yet i almost feel that i might as well stay away for any good that i shall do. give my kind regards to lady julia, and tell her how very much obliged to her i am. i cannot express the gratitude which i owe to you. but pray believe me, my dear lord de guest, always very faithfully yours, john eames. it was late before eames had finished his letter. he had been making himself ready for his exodus from the big room, and preparing his desk and papers for his successor. about half-past five cradell came up to him, and suggested that they should walk home together. "what! you here still?" said eames. "i thought you always went at four." cradell had remained, hanging about the office, in order that he might walk home with the new private secretary. but eames did not desire this. he had much of which he desired to think alone, and would fain have been allowed to walk by himself. "yes; i had things to do. i say, johnny, i congratulate you most heartily; i do, indeed." "thank you, old fellow!" "it is such a grand thing, you know. a hundred a year and all at once! and then such a snug room to yourself,--and that fellow, kissing, never can come near you. he has been making himself such a beast all day. but, johnny, i always knew you'd come to something more than common. i always said so." "there's nothing uncommon about this; except that fitz says that old huffle scuffle makes himself uncommon nasty." "never mind what fitz says. it's all jealousy. you'll have it all your own way, if you look sharp. i think you always do have it all your own way. are you nearly ready?" "well,--not quite. don't wait for me, caudle." "oh, i'll wait. i don't mind waiting. they'll keep dinner for us if we both stay. besides, what matters? i'd do more than that for you." "i have some idea of working on till eight, and having a chop sent in," said johnny. "besides--i've got somewhere to call, by myself." then cradell almost cried. he remained silent for two or three minutes, striving to master his emotion; and at last, when he did speak, had hardly succeeded in doing so. "oh, johnny," he said, "i know what that means. you are going to throw me over because you are getting up in the world. i have always stuck to you, through everything; haven't i?" "don't make yourself a fool, caudle." "well; so i have. and if they had made me private secretary, i should have been just the same to you as ever. you'd have found no change in me." "what a goose you are. do you say i'm changed, because i want to dine in the city?" "it's all because you don't want to walk home with me, as we used to do. i'm not such a goose but what i can see. but, johnny-- i suppose i mustn't call you johnny, now." "don't be such a--con-founded--" then eames got up, and walked about the room. "come along," said he, "i don't care about staying, and don't mind where i dine." and he bustled away with his hat and gloves, hardly giving cradell time to catch him before he got out into the streets. "i tell you what it is, caudle," said he, "all that kind of thing is disgusting." "but how would you feel," whimpered cradell, who had never succeeded in putting himself quite on a par with his friend, even in his own estimation, since that glorious victory at the railway station. if he could only have thrashed lupex as johnny had thrashed crosbie; then indeed they might have been equal,--a pair of heroes. but he had not done so. he had never told himself that he was a coward, but he considered that circumstances had been specially unkind to him. "but how would you feel," he whimpered, "if the friend whom you liked better than anybody else in the world, turned his back upon you?" "i haven't turned my back upon you; except that i can't get you to walk fast enough. come along, old fellow, and don't talk confounded nonsense. i hate all that kind of thing. you never ought to suppose that a man will give himself airs, but wait till he does. i don't believe i shall remain with old scuffles above a month or two. from all that i can hear that's as much as any one can bear." then cradell by degrees became happy and cordial, and during the whole walk flattered eames with all the flattery of which he was master. and johnny, though he did profess himself to be averse to "all that kind of thing," was nevertheless open to flattery. when cradell told him that though fitzhoward could not manage the tartar knight, he might probably do so; he was inclined to believe what cradell said. "and as to getting him his shoes," said cradell, "i don't suppose he'd ever think of asking you to do such a thing, unless he was in a very great hurry, or something of that kind." "look here, johnny," said cradell, as they got into one of the streets bordering on burton crescent, "you know the last thing in the world i should like to do would be to offend you." "all right, caudle," said eames, going on, whereas his companion had shown a tendency towards stopping. "look here, now; if i have vexed you about amelia roper, i'll make you a promise never to speak to her again." "d---- amelia roper," said eames, suddenly stopping himself and stopping cradell as well. the exclamation was made in a deep angry voice which attracted the notice of one or two who were passing. johnny was very wrong,--wrong to utter any curse;--very wrong to ejaculate that curse against a human being; and especially wrong to fulminate it against a woman--a woman whom he had professed to love! but he did do so, and i cannot tell my story thoroughly without repeating the wicked word. cradell looked up at him and stared. "i only meant to say," said cradell, "i'll do anything you like in the matter." "then never mention her name to me again. and as to talking to her, you may talk to her till you're both blue in the face, if you please." "oh;--i didn't know. you didn't seem to like it the other day." "i was a fool the other day,--a confounded fool. and so i have been all my life. amelia roper! look here, caudle; if she makes up to you this evening, as i've no doubt she will, for she seems to be playing that game constantly now, just let her have her fling. never mind me; i'll amuse myself with mrs. lupex, or miss spruce." "but there'll be the deuce to pay with mrs. lupex. she's as cross as possible already whenever amelia speaks to me. you don't know what a jealous woman is, johnny." cradell had got upon what he considered to be his high ground. and on that he felt himself equal to any man. it was no doubt true that eames had thrashed a man, and that he had not; it was true also that eames had risen to very high place in the social world, having become a private secretary; but for a dangerous, mysterious, overwhelming, life-enveloping intrigue--was not he the acknowledged hero of such an affair? he had paid very dearly, both in pocket and in comfort, for the blessing of mrs. lupex's society; but he hardly considered that he had paid too dearly. there are certain luxuries which a man will find to be expensive; but, for all that, they may be worth their price. nevertheless as he went up the steps of mrs. roper's house he made up his mind that he would oblige his friend. the intrigue might in that way become more mysterious, and more life-enveloping; whereas it would not become more dangerous, seeing that mr. lupex could hardly find himself to be aggrieved by such a proceeding. the whole number of mrs. roper's boarders were assembled at dinner that day. mr. lupex seldom joined that festive board, but on this occasion he was present, appearing from his voice and manner to be in high good-humour. cradell had communicated to the company in the drawing-room the great good fortune which had fallen upon his friend, and johnny had thereby become the mark of a certain amount of hero-worship. "oh, indeed!" said mrs. roper. "an 'appy woman your mother will be when she hears it. but i always said you'd come down right side uppermost." "handsome is as handsome does," said miss spruce. "oh, mr. eames!" exclaimed mrs. lupex, with graceful enthusiasm, "i wish you joy from the very depth of my heart. it is such an elegant appointment." "accept the hand of a true and disinterested friend," said lupex. and johnny did accept the hand, though it was very dirty and stained all over with paint. amelia stood apart and conveyed her congratulations by a glance,--or, i might better say, by a series of glances. "and now,--now will you not be mine," the glances said; "now that you are rolling in wealth and prosperity?" and then before they went downstairs she did whisper one word to him. "oh, i am so happy, john;--so very happy." "bother!" said johnny, in a tone quite loud enough to reach the lady's ear. then making his way round the room, he gave his arm to miss spruce. amelia, as she walked downstairs alone, declared to herself that she would wring his heart. she had been employed in wringing it for some days past, and had been astonished at her own success. it had been clear enough to her that eames had been piqued by her overtures to cradell, and she had therefore to play out that game. "oh, mr. cradell," she said, as she took her seat next to him. "the friends i like are the friends that remain always the same. i hate your sudden rises. they do so often make a man upsetting." "i should like to try, myself, all the same," said cradell. "well, i don't think it would make any difference in you; i don't indeed. and of course your time will come too. it's that earl as has done it,--he that was worried by the bull. since we have known an earl we have been so mighty fine." and amelia gave her head a little toss, and then smiled archly, in a manner which, to cradell's eyes, was really very becoming. but he saw that mrs. lupex was looking at him from the other side of the table, and he could not quite enjoy the goods which the gods had provided for him. when the ladies left the dining-room lupex and the two young men drew their chairs near the fire, and each prepared for himself a moderate potation. eames made a little attempt at leaving the room, but he was implored by lupex with such earnest protestations of friendship to remain, and was so weakly fearful of being charged with giving himself airs, that he did as he was desired. "and here, mr. eames, is to your very good health," said lupex, raising to his mouth a steaming goblet of gin-and-water, "and wishing you many years to enjoy your official prosperity." "thank ye," said eames. "i don't know much about the prosperity, but i'm just as much obliged." "yes, sir; when i see a young man of your age beginning to rise in the world, i know he'll go on. now look at me, mr. eames. mr. cradell, here's your very good health, and may all unkindness be drowned in the flowing bowl-- look at me, mr. eames. i've never risen in the world; i've never done any good in the world, and never shall." "oh, mr. lupex, don't say that." "ah, but i do say it. i've always been pulling the devil by the tail, and never yet got as much as a good hold on to that. and i'll tell you why; i never got a chance when i was young. if i could have got any big fellow, a star, you know, to let me paint his portrait when i was your age,--such a one, let us say, as your friend sir raffle--" "what a star!" said cradell. "well, i suppose he's pretty much known in the world, isn't he? or lord derby, or mr. spurgeon. you know what i mean. if i'd got such a chance as that when i was young, i should never have been doing jobs of scene-painting at the minor theatres at so much a square yard. you've got the chance now, but i never had it." whereupon mr. lupex finished his first measure of gin-and-water. "it's a very queer thing,--life is," continued lupex; and, though he did not at once go to work boldly at the mixing of another glass of toddy, he began gradually, and as if by instinct, to finger the things which would be necessary for that operation. "a very queer thing. now, remember, young gentlemen, i'm not denying that success in life will depend upon good conduct;--of course it does; but, then, how often good conduct comes from success! should i have been what i am now, do you suppose, if some big fellow had taken me by the hand when i was struggling to make an artist of myself? i could have drunk claret and champagne just as well as gin-and-water, and worn ruffles to my shirt as gracefully as many a fellow who used to be very fond of me, and now won't speak to me if he meets me in the streets. i never got a chance,--never." "but it's not too late yet, mr. lupex," said eames. "yes, it is, eames,--yes, it is." and now mr. lupex had grasped the gin-bottle. "it's too late now. the game's over, and the match is lost. the talent is here. i'm as sure of that now as ever i was. i've never doubted my own ability,--never for a moment. there are men this very day making a thousand a year off their easels who haven't so good and true an eye in drawing as i have, or so good a feeling in colours. i could name them; only i won't." "and why shouldn't you try again?" said eames. "if i were to paint the finest piece that ever delighted the eye of man, who would come and look at it? who would have enough belief in me to come as far as this place and see if it were true? no, eames; i know my own position and my own ways, and i know my own weakness. i couldn't do a day's work now, unless i were certain of getting a certain number of shillings at the end of it. that's what a man comes to when things have gone against him." "but i thought men got lots of money by scene-painting?" "i don't know what you may call lots, mr. cradell; i don't call it lots. but i'm not complaining. i know who i have to thank; and if ever i blow my own brains out i shan't be putting the blame on the wrong shoulders. if you'll take my advice,"--and now he turned round to eames,--"you'll beware of marrying too soon in life." "i think a man should marry early, if he marries well," said eames. "don't misunderstand me," continued lupex. "it isn't about mrs. l. i'm speaking. i've always regarded my wife as a very fascinating woman." "hear, hear, hear!" said cradell, thumping the table. "indeed she is," said eames. "and when i caution you against marrying, don't you misunderstand me. i've never said a word against her to any man, and never will. if a man don't stand by his wife, whom will he stand by? i blame no one but myself. but i do say this; i never had a chance;--i never had a chance;--never had a chance." and as he repeated the words for the third time, his lips were already fixed to the rim of his tumbler. at this moment the door of the dining-room was opened, and mrs. lupex put in her head. "lupex," she said, "what are you doing?" "yes, my dear. i can't say i'm doing anything at the present moment. i was giving a little advice to these young gentlemen." "mr. cradell, i wonder at you. and, mr. eames, i wonder at you, too,--in your position! lupex, come upstairs at once." she then stepped into the room and secured the gin-bottle. "oh, mr. cradell, do come here," said amelia, in her liveliest tone, as soon as the men made their appearance above. "i've been waiting for you this half-hour. i've got such a puzzle for you." and she made way for him to a chair which was between herself and the wall. cradell looked half afraid of his fortunes as he took the proffered seat; but he did take it, and was soon secured from any positive physical attack by the strength and breadth of miss roper's crinoline. "dear me! here's a change," said mrs. lupex, out loud. johnny eames was standing close, and whispered into her ear, "changes are so pleasant sometimes! don't you think so? i do." chapter xlviii. nemesis. crosbie had now settled down to the calm realities of married life, and was beginning to think that the odium was dying away which for a week or two had attached itself to him, partly on account of his usage of miss dale, but more strongly in consequence of the thrashing which he had received from john eames. not that he had in any way recovered his former tone of life, or that he ever hoped to do so. but he was able to go in and out of his club without embarrassment. he could talk with his wonted voice, and act with his wonted authority at his office. he could tell his friends, with some little degree of pleasure in the sound, that lady alexandrina would be very happy to see them. and he could make himself comfortable in his own chair after dinner, with his slippers and his newspaper. he could make himself comfortable, or at any rate could tell his wife that he did so. it was very dull. he was obliged to acknowledge to himself, when he thought over the subject, that the life which he was leading was dull. though he could go into his club without annoyance, nobody there ever thought of asking him to join them at dinner. it was taken for granted that he was going to dine at home; and in the absence of any provocation to the contrary, he always did dine at home. he had now been in his house for three weeks, and had been asked with his wife to a few bridal dinner-parties, given chiefly by friends of the de courcy family. except on such occasions he never passed an evening out of his own house, and had not yet, since his marriage, dined once away from his wife. he told himself that his good conduct in this respect was the result of his own resolution; but, nevertheless, he felt that there was nothing else left for him to do. nobody asked him to go to the theatre. nobody begged him to drop in of an evening. men never asked him why he did not play a rubber. he would generally saunter into sebright's after he left his office, and lounge about the room for half an hour, talking to a few men. nobody was uncivil to him. but he knew that the whole thing was changed, and he resolved, with some wisdom, to accommodate himself to his altered circumstances. lady alexandrina also found her new life rather dull, and was sometimes inclined to be a little querulous. she would tell her husband that she never got out, and would declare, when he offered to walk with her, that she did not care for walking in the streets. "i don't exactly see, then, where you are to walk," he once replied. she did not tell him that she was fond of riding, and that the park was a very fitting place for such exercise; but she looked it, and he understood her. "i'll do all i can for her," he said to himself; "but i'll not ruin myself." "amelia is coming to take me for a drive," she said another time. "ah, that'll be very nice," he answered. "no; it won't be very nice," said alexandrina. "amelia is always shopping and bargaining with the tradespeople. but it will be better than being kept in the house without ever stirring out." they breakfasted nominally at half-past nine; in truth, it was always nearly ten, as lady alexandrina found it difficult to get herself out of her room. at half-past ten punctually he left his house for his office. he usually got home by six, and then spent the greatest part of the hour before dinner in the ceremony of dressing. he went, at least, into his dressing-room, after speaking a few words to his wife, and there remained, pulling things about, clipping his nails, looking over any paper that came in his way, and killing the time. he expected his dinner punctually at seven, and began to feel a little cross if he were kept waiting. after dinner, he drank one glass of wine in company with his wife, and one other by himself, during which latter ceremony he would stare at the hot coals, and think of the thing he had done. then he would go upstairs, and have, first a cup of coffee, and then a cup of tea. he would read his newspaper, open a book or two, hide his face when he yawned, and try to make believe that he liked it. she had no signs or words of love for him. she never sat on his knee, or caressed him. she never showed him that any happiness had come to her in being allowed to live close to him. they thought that they loved each other:--each thought so; but there was no love, no sympathy, no warmth. the very atmosphere was cold;--so cold that no fire could remove the chill. in what way would it have been different had lily dale sat opposite to him there as his wife, instead of lady alexandrina? he told himself frequently that either with one or with the other life would have been the same; that he had made himself for a while unfit for domestic life, and that he must cure himself of that unfitness. but though he declared this to himself in one set of half-spoken thoughts, he would also declare to himself in another set, that lily would have made the whole house bright with her brightness; that had he brought her home to his hearth, there would have been a sun shining on him every morning and every evening. but, nevertheless, he strove to do his duty, and remembered that the excitement of official life was still open to him. from eleven in the morning till five in the afternoon he could still hold a position which made it necessary that men should regard him with respect, and speak to him with deference. in this respect he was better off than his wife, for she had no office to which she could betake herself. "yes," she said to amelia, "it is all very nice, and i don't mind the house being damp; but i get so tired of being alone." "that must be the case with women who are married to men of business." "oh, i don't complain. of course i knew what i was about. i suppose it won't be so very dull when everybody is up in london." "i don't find the season makes much difference to us after christmas," said amelia; "but no doubt london is gayer in may. you'll find you'll like it better next year; and perhaps you'll have a baby, you know." "psha!" ejaculated lady alexandrina; "i don't want a baby, and don't suppose i shall have one." "it's always something to do, you know." lady alexandrina, though she was not of an energetic temperament, could not but confess to herself that she had made a mistake. she had been tempted to marry crosbie because crosbie was a man of fashion, and now she was told that the london season would make no difference to her;--the london season which had hitherto always brought to her the excitement of parties, if it had not given her the satisfaction of amusement. she had been tempted to marry because it appeared to her that a married woman could enjoy society with less restraint than a girl who was subject to her mother or her chaperon; that she would have more freedom of action as a married woman; and now she was told that she must wait for a baby before she could have anything to do. courcy castle was sometimes dull, but courcy castle would have been better than this. when crosbie returned home after this little conversation about the baby, he was told by his wife that they were to dine with the gazebees on the next sunday. on hearing this he shook his head with vexation. he knew, however, that he had no right to make complaint, as he had been only taken to st. john's wood once since they had come home from their marriage trip. there was, however, one point as to which he could grumble. "why, on earth, on sunday?" [illustration: "why, on earth, on sunday?"] "because amelia asked me for sunday. if you are asked for sunday, you cannot say you'll go on monday." "it is so terrible on a sunday afternoon. at what hour?" "she said half-past five." "heavens and earth! what are we to do all the evening?" "it is not kind of you, adolphus, to speak in that way of my relations." "come, my love, that's a joke; as if i hadn't heard you say the same thing twenty times. you've complained of having to go up there much more bitterly than i ever did. you know i like your sister, and, in his way, gazebee is a very good fellow; but after three or four hours, one begins to have had enough of him." "it can't be much duller than it is--;" but lady alexandrina stopped herself before she finished her speech. "one can always read at home, at any rate," said crosbie. "one can't always be reading. however, i have said you would go. if you choose to refuse, you must write and explain." when the sunday came the crosbies of course did go to st. john's wood, arriving punctually at that door which he so hated at half-past five. one of the earliest resolutions which he made when he first contemplated the de courcy match, was altogether hostile to the gazebees. he would see but very little of them. he would shake himself free of that connexion. it was not with that branch of the family that he desired an alliance. but now, as things had gone, that was the only branch of the family with which he seemed to be allied. he was always hearing of the gazebees. amelia and alexandrina were constantly together. he was now dragged there to a sunday dinner; and he knew that he should often be dragged there,--that he could not avoid such draggings. he already owed money to mortimer gazebee, and was aware that his affairs had been allowed to fall into that lawyer's hands in such a way that he could not take them out again. his house was very thoroughly furnished, and he knew that the bills had been paid; but he had not paid them; every shilling had been paid through mortimer gazebee. "go with your mother and aunt, de courcy," the attorney said to the lingering child after dinner; and then crosbie was left alone with his wife's brother-in-law. this was the period of the st. john's wood purgatory which was so dreadful to him. with his sister-in-law he could talk, remembering perhaps always that she was an earl's daughter. but with gazebee he had nothing in common. and he felt that gazebee, who had once treated him with great deference, had now lost all such feeling. crosbie had once been a man of fashion in the estimation of the attorney, but that was all over. crosbie, in the attorney's estimation, was now simply the secretary of a public office,--a man who owed him money. the two had married sisters, and there was no reason why the light of the prosperous attorney should pale before that of the civil servant, who was not very prosperous. all this was understood thoroughly by both the men. "there's terrible bad news from courcy," said the attorney, as soon as the boy was gone. "why; what's the matter?" "porlock has married--that woman, you know." "nonsense." "he has. the old lady has been obliged to tell me, and she's nearly broken-hearted about it. but that's not the worst of it to my mind. all the world knows that porlock had gone to the mischief. but he is going to bring an action against his father for some arrears of his allowance, and he threatens to have everything out in court, if he doesn't get his money." "but is there money due to him?" "yes, there is. a couple of thousand pounds or so. i suppose i shall have to find it. but, upon my honour, i don't know where it's to come from; i don't, indeed. in one way or another, i've paid over fourteen hundred pounds for you." "fourteen hundred pounds!" "yes, indeed;--what with the insurance and the furniture, and the bill from our house for the settlements. that's not paid yet, but it's the same thing. a man doesn't get married for nothing, i can tell you." "but you've got security." "oh, yes; i've got security. but the thing is the ready money. our house has advanced so much on the courcy property, that they don't like going any further; and therefore it is that i have to do this myself. they'll all have to go abroad,--that'll be the end of it. there's been such a scene between the earl and george. george lost his temper and told the earl that porlock's marriage was his fault. it has ended in george with his wife being turned out." "he has money of his own." "yes, but he won't spend it. he's coming up here, and we shall find him hanging about us. i don't mean to give him a bed here, and i advise you not to do so either. you'll not get rid of him if you do." "i have the greatest possible dislike to him." "yes; he's a bad fellow. so is john. porlock was the best, but he's gone altogether to ruin. they've made a nice mess of it between them; haven't they?" this was the family for whose sake crosbie had jilted lily dale! his single and simple ambition had been that of being an earl's son-in-law. to achieve that it had been necessary that he should make himself a villain. in achieving it he had gone through all manner of dirt and disgrace. he had married a woman whom he knew he did not love. he was thinking almost hourly of a girl whom he had loved, whom he did love, but whom he had so injured, that, under no circumstances, could he be allowed to speak to her again. the attorney there--who sat opposite to him, talking about his thousands of pounds with that disgusting assumed solicitude which such men put on, when they know very well what they are doing--had made a similar marriage. but he had known what he was about. he had got from his marriage all that he had expected. but what had crosbie got? "they're a bad set,--a bad set," said he in his bitterness. "the men are," said gazebee, very comfortably. "h--m," said crosbie. it was manifest to gazebee that his friend was expressing a feeling that the women, also, were not all that they should be, but he took no offence, though some portion of the censure might thereby be supposed to attach to his own wife. "the countess means well," said gazebee. "but she's had a hard life of it,--a very hard life. i've heard him call her names that would frighten a coal-heaver. i have, indeed. but he'll die soon, and then she'll be comfortable. she has three thousand a year jointure." he'll die soon, and then she'll be comfortable! that was one phase of married life. as crosbie's mind dwelt upon the words, he remembered lily's promise made in the fields, that she would do everything for him. he remembered her kisses; the touch of her fingers; the low silvery laughing voice; the feel of her dress as she would press close to him. after that he reflected whether it would not be well that he too should die, so that alexandrina might be comfortable. she and her mother might be very comfortable together, with plenty of money, at baden-baden! the squire at allington, and mrs. dale, and lady julia de guest, had been, and still were, uneasy in their minds because no punishment had fallen upon crosbie,--no vengeance had overtaken him in consequence of his great sin. how little did they know about it! could he have been prosecuted and put into prison, with hard labour, for twelve months, the punishment would not have been heavier. he would, in that case, at any rate, have been saved from lady alexandrina. "george and his wife are coming up to town; couldn't we ask them to come to us for a week or so?" said his wife to him, as soon as they were in the fly together, going home. "no," shouted crosbie; "we will do no such thing." there was not another word said on the subject,--nor on any other subject till they got home. when they reached their house alexandrina had a headache, and went up to her room immediately. crosbie threw himself into a chair before the remains of a fire in the dining-room, and resolved that he would cut the whole de courcy family altogether. his wife, as his wife, should obey him. she should obey him--or else leave him and go her way by herself, leaving him to go his way. there was an income of twelve hundred a year. would it not be a fine thing for him if he could keep six hundred for himself and return to his old manner of life. all his old comforts of course he would not have,--nor the old esteem and regard of men. but the luxury of a club dinner he might enjoy. unembarrassed evenings might be his,--with liberty to him to pass them as he pleased. he knew many men who were separated from their wives, and who seemed to be as happy as their neighbours. and then he remembered how ugly alexandrina had been this evening, wearing a great tinsel coronet full of false stones, with a cold in her head which had reddened her nose. there had, too, fallen upon her in these her married days a certain fixed dreary dowdiness. she certainly was very plain! so he said to himself, and then he went to bed. i myself am inclined to think that his punishment was sufficiently severe. the next morning his wife still complained of headache, so that he breakfasted alone. since that positive refusal which he had given to her proposition for inviting her brother, there had not been much conversation between them. "my head is splitting, and sarah shall bring some tea and toast up to me, if you will not mind it." he did not mind it in the least, and ate his breakfast by himself, with more enjoyment than usually attended that meal. it was clear to him that all the present satisfaction of his life must come to him from his office work. there are men who find it difficult to live without some source of daily comfort, and he was such a man. he could hardly endure his life unless there were some page in it on which he could look with gratified eyes. he had always liked his work, and he now determined that he would like it better than ever. but in order that he might do so it was necessary that he should have much of his own way. according to the theory of his office, it was incumbent on him as secretary simply to take the orders of the commissioners, and see that they were executed; and to such work as this his predecessor had strictly confined himself. but he had already done more than this, and had conceived the ambition of holding the board almost under his thumb. he flattered himself that he knew his own work and theirs better than they knew either, and that by a little management he might be their master. it is not impossible that such might have been the case had there been no fracas at the paddington station; but, as we all know, the dominant cock of the farmyard must be ever dominant. when he shall once have had his wings so smeared with mud as to give him even the appearance of adversity, no other cock will ever respect him again. mr. optimist and mr. butterwell knew very well that their secretary had been cudgelled, and they could not submit themselves to a secretary who had been so treated. "oh, by-the-by, crosbie," said butterwell, coming into his room, soon after his arrival at his office on that day of his solitary breakfast, "i want to say just a few words to you." and butterwell turned round and closed the door, the lock of which had not previously been fastened. crosbie, without much thinking, immediately foretold himself the nature of the coming conversation. "do you know--" said butterwell, beginning. "sit down, won't you?" said crosbie, seating himself as he spoke. if there was to be a contest, he would make the best fight he could. he would show a better spirit here than he had done on the railway platform. butterwell did sit down, and felt as he did so, that the very motion of sitting took away some of his power. he ought to have sent for crosbie into his own room. a man, when he wishes to reprimand another, should always have the benefit of his own atmosphere. "i don't want to find any fault," butterwell began. "i hope you have not any cause," said crosbie. "no, no; i don't say that i have. but we think at the board--" "stop, stop, butterwell. if anything unpleasant is coming, it had better come from the board. i should take it in better spirit; i should, indeed." "what takes place at the board must be official." "i shall not mind that in the least. i should rather like it than otherwise." "it simply amounts to this,--that we think you are taking a little too much on yourself. no doubt, it's a fault on the right side, and arises from your wishing to have the work well done." "and if i don't do it, who will?" asked crosbie. "the board is very well able to get through all that appertains to it. come, crosbie, you and i have known each other a great many years, and it would be a pity that we should have any words. i have come to you in this way because it would be disagreeable to you to have any question raised officially. optimist isn't given to being very angry, but he was downright angry yesterday. you had better take what i say in good part, and go along a little quieter." but crosbie was not in a humour to take anything quietly. he was sore all over, and prone to hit out at everybody that he met. "i have done my duty to the best of my ability, mr. butterwell," he said, "and i believe i have done it well. i believe i know my duty here as well as any one can teach me. if i have done more than my share of work, it is because other people have done less than theirs." as he spoke, there was a black cloud upon his brow, and the commissioner could perceive that the secretary was very wrathful. "oh! very well," said butterwell, rising from his chair. "i can only, under such circumstances, speak to the chairman, and he will tell you what he thinks at the board. i think you're foolish; i do, indeed. as for myself, i have only meant to act kindly by you." after that, mr. butterwell took himself off. on the same afternoon, crosbie was summoned into the board-room in the usual way, between two and three. this was a daily occurrence, as he always sat for about an hour with two out of the three commissioners, after they had fortified themselves with a biscuit and a glass of sherry. on the present occasion, the usual amount of business was transacted, but it was done in a manner which made crosbie feel that they did not all stand together on their usual footing. the three commissioners were all there. the chairman gave his directions in a solemn, pompous voice, which was by no means usual to him when he was in good humour. the major said little or nothing; but there was a gleam of satisfied sarcasm in his eye. things were going wrong at the board, and he was pleased. mr. butterwell was exceedingly civil in his demeanour, and rather more than ordinarily brisk. as soon as the regular work of the day was over, mr. optimist shuffled about on his chair, rising from his seat, and then sitting down again. he looked through a lot of papers close to his hand, peering at them over his spectacles. then he selected one, took off his spectacles, leaned back in his chair, and began his little speech. "mr. crosbie," he said, "we are all very much gratified,--very much gratified, indeed,--by your zeal and energy in the service." "thank you, sir," said crosbie; "i am fond of the service." "exactly, exactly; we all feel that. but we think that you,--if i were to say take too much upon yourself, i should say, perhaps, more than we mean." "don't say more than you mean, mr. optimist." crosbie's eyes, as he spoke, gleamed slightly with his momentary triumph; as did also those of major fiasco. "no, no, no," said mr. optimist; "i would say rather less than more to so very good a public servant as yourself. but you, doubtless, understand me?" "i don't think i do quite, sir. if i have not taken too much on me, what is it that i have done that i ought not to have done?" "you have given directions in many cases for which you ought first to have received authority. here is an instance," and the selected paper was at once brought out. it was a matter in which the secretary had been manifestly wrong according to written law, and he could not defend it on its own merits. "if you wish me," said he, "to confine myself exactly to the positive instructions of the office, i will do so; but i think you will find it inconvenient." "it will be far the best," said mr. optimist. "very well," said mr. crosbie, "it shall be done." and he at once determined to make himself as unpleasant to the three gentlemen in the room as he might find it within his power to do. he could make himself very unpleasant, but the unpleasantness would be as much to him as to them. nothing would now go right with him. he could look in no direction for satisfaction. he sauntered into sebright's, as he went home, but he could not find words to speak to any one about the little matters of the day. he went home, and his wife, though she was up, complained still of her headache. "i haven't been out of the house all day," she said, "and that has made it worse." "i don't know how you are to get out if you won't walk," he answered. then there was no more said between them till they sat down to their meal. had the squire at allington known all, he might, i think, have been satisfied with the punishment which crosbie had encountered. chapter xlix. preparations for going. [illustration: (untitled)] "mamma, read that letter." it was mrs. dale's eldest daughter who spoke to her, and they were alone together in the parlour at the small house. mrs. dale took the letter and read it very carefully. she then put it back into its envelope and returned it to bell. "it is, at any rate, a good letter, and, as i believe, tells the truth." "i think it tells a little more than the truth, mamma. as you say, it is a well-written letter. he always writes well when he is in earnest. but yet--" "yet what, my dear?" "there is more head than heart in it." "if so, he will suffer the less; that is, if you are quite resolved in the matter." "i am quite resolved, and i do not think he will suffer much. he would not, i suppose, have taken the trouble to write like that, if he did not wish this thing." "i am quite sure that he does wish it, most earnestly; and that he will be greatly disappointed." "as he would be if any other scheme did not turn out to his satisfaction; that is all." the letter, of course, was from bell's cousin bernard, and containing the strongest plea he was able to make in favour of his suit for her hand. bernard dale was better able to press such a plea by letter than by spoken words. he was a man capable of doing anything well in the doing of which a little time for consideration might be given to him; but he had not in him that power of passion which will force a man to eloquence in asking for that which he desires to obtain. his letter on this occasion was long, and well argued. if there was little in it of passionate love, there was much of pleasant flattery. he told bell how advantageous to both their families their marriage would be; he declared to her that his own feeling in the matter had been rendered stronger by absence; he alluded without boasting to his past career of life as her best guarantee for his future conduct; he explained to her that if this marriage could be arranged there need then, at any rate, be no further question as to his aunt removing with lily from the small house; and then he told her that his affection for herself was the absorbing passion of his existence. had the letter been written with the view of obtaining from a third person a favourable verdict as to his suit, it would have been a very good letter indeed; but there was not a word in it that could stir the heart of such a girl as bell dale. "answer him kindly," mrs. dale said. "as kindly as i know how," said bell. "i wish you would write the letter, mamma." "i fear that would not do. what i should say would only tempt him to try again." mrs. dale knew very well,--had known for some months past,--that bernard's suit was hopeless. she felt certain, although the matter had not been discussed between them, that whenever dr. crofts might choose to come again and ask for her daughter's hand he would not be refused. of the two men she probably liked dr. crofts the best; but she liked them both, and she could not but remember that the one, in a worldly point of view, would be a very poor match, whereas the other would, in all respects, be excellent. she would not, on any account, say a word to influence her daughter, and knew, moreover, that no word which she could say would influence her; but she could not divest herself of some regret that it should be so. "i know what you would wish, mamma," said bell. "i have but one wish, dearest, and that is for your happiness. may god preserve you from any such fate as lily's. when i tell you to write kindly to your cousin, i simply mean that i think him to have deserved a kind reply by his honesty." "it shall be as kind as i can make it, mamma; but you know what the lady says in the play,--how hard it is to take the sting from that word 'no.'" then bell walked out alone for a while, and on her return got her desk and wrote her letter. it was very firm and decisive. as for that wit which should pluck the sting "from such a sharp and waspish word as 'no,'" i fear she had it not. "it will be better to make him understand that i, also, am in earnest," she said to herself; and in this frame of mind she wrote her letter. "pray do not allow yourself to think that what i have said is unfriendly," she added, in a postscript. "i know how good you are, and i know the great value of what i refuse; but in this matter it must be my duty to tell you the simple truth." it had been decided between the squire and mrs. dale that the removal from the small house to guestwick was not to take place till the first of may. when he had been made to understand that dr. crofts had thought it injudicious that lily should be taken out of their present house in march, he had used all the eloquence of which he was master to induce mrs. dale to consent to abandon her project. he had told her that he had always considered that house as belonging, of right, to some other of the family than himself; that it had always been so inhabited, and that no squire of allington had for years past taken rent for it. "there is no favour conferred,--none at all," he had said; but speaking nevertheless in his usual sharp, ungenial tone. "there is a favour, a great favour, and great generosity," mrs. dale had replied. "and i have never been too proud to accept it; but when i tell you that we think we shall be happier at guestwick, you will not refuse to let us go. lily has had a great blow in that house, and bell feels that she is running counter to your wishes on her behalf,--wishes that are so very kind!" "no more need be said about that. all that may come right yet, if you will remain where you are." but mrs. dale knew that "all that" could never come right, and persisted. indeed, she would hardly have dared to tell her girls that she had yielded to the squire's entreaties. it was just then, at that very time, that the squire was, as it were, in treaty with the earl about lily's fortune; and he did feel it hard that he should be opposed in such a way by his own relatives at the moment when he was behaving towards them with so much generosity. but in his arguments about the house he said nothing of lily, or her future prospects. they were to move on the first of may, and one week of april was already past. the squire had said nothing further on the matter after the interview with mrs. dale to which allusion has just been made. he was vexed and sore at the separation, thinking that he was ill-used by the feeling which was displayed by this refusal. he had done his duty by them, as he thought; indeed more than his duty, and now they told him that they were leaving him because they could no longer bear the weight of an obligation conferred by his hands. but in truth he did not understand them; nor did they understand him. he had been hard in his manner, and had occasionally domineered, not feeling that his position, though it gave him all the privileges of a near and a dear friend, did not give him the authority of a father or a husband. in that matter of bernard's proposed marriage he had spoken as though bell should have considered his wishes before she refused her cousin. he had taken upon himself to scold mrs. dale, and had thereby given offence to the girls, which they at the time had found it utterly impossible to forgive. but they were hardly better satisfied in the matter than was he; and now that the time had come, though they could not bring themselves to go back from their demand, almost felt that they were treating the squire with cruelty. when their decision had been made,--while it had been making,--he had been stern and hard to them. since that he had been softened by lily's misfortune, and softened also by the anticipated loneliness which would come upon him when they should be gone from his side. it was hard upon him that they should so treat him when he was doing his best for them all! and they also felt this, though they did not know the extent to which he was anxious to go in serving them. when they had sat round the fire planning the scheme of their removal, their hearts had been hardened against him, and they had resolved to assert their independence. but now, when the time for action had come, they felt that their grievances against him had already been in a great measure assuaged. this tinged all that they did with a certain sadness; but still they continued their work. who does not know how terrible are those preparations for house-moving;--how infinite in number are the articles which must be packed, how inexpressibly uncomfortable is the period of packing, and how poor and tawdry is the aspect of one's belongings while they are thus in a state of dislocation? now-a-days people who understand the world, and have money commensurate with their understanding, have learned the way of shunning all these disasters, and of leaving the work to the hands of persons paid for doing it. the crockery is left in the cupboards, the books on the shelves, the wine in the bins, the curtains on their poles, and the family that is understanding goes for a fortnight to brighton. at the end of that time the crockery is comfortably settled in other cupboards, the books on other shelves, the wine in other bins, the curtains are hung on other poles, and all is arranged. but mrs. dale and her daughters understood nothing of such a method of moving as this. the assistance of the village carpenter in filling certain cases that he had made was all that they knew how to obtain beyond that of their own two servants. every article had to pass through the hands of some one of the family; and as they felt almost overwhelmed by the extent of the work to be done, they began it much sooner than was necessary, so that it became evident as they advanced in their work, that they would have to pass a dreadfully dull, stupid, uncomfortable week at last, among their boxes and cases, in all the confusion of dismantled furniture. at first an edict had gone forth that lily was to do nothing. she was an invalid, and was to be petted and kept quiet. but this edict soon fell to the ground, and lily worked harder than either her mother or her sister. in truth she was hardly an invalid any longer, and would not submit to an invalid's treatment. she felt herself that for the present constant occupation could alone save her from the misery of looking back,--and she had conceived an idea that the harder that occupation was, the better it would be for her. while pulling down the books, and folding the linen, and turning out from their old hiding-places the small long-forgotten properties of the household, she would be as gay as ever she had been in old times. she would talk over her work, standing with flushed cheek and laughing eyes among the dusty ruins around her, till for a moment her mother would think that all was well within her. but then at other moments, when the reaction came, it would seem as though nothing were well. she could not sit quietly over the fire, with quiet rational work in her hands, and chat in a rational quiet way. not as yet could she do so. nevertheless it was well with her,--within her own bosom. she had declared to herself that she would conquer her misery,--as she had also declared to herself during her illness that her misfortune should not kill her,--and she was in the way to conquer it. she told herself that the world was not over for her because her sweet hopes had been frustrated. the wound had been deep and very sore, but the flesh of the patient had been sound and healthy, and her blood pure. a physician having knowledge in such cases would have declared, after long watching of her symptoms, that a cure was probable. her mother was the physician who watched her with the closest eyes; and she, though she was sometimes driven to doubt, did hope, with stronger hope from day to day, that her child might live to remember the story of her love without abiding agony. that nobody should talk to her about it,--that had been the one stipulation which she had seemed to make, not sending forth a request to that effect among her friends in so many words, but showing by certain signs that such was her stipulation. a word to that effect she had spoken to her uncle,--as may be remembered, which word had been regarded with the closest obedience. she had gone out into her little world very soon after the news of crosbie's falsehood had reached her,--first to church and then among the people of the village, resolving to carry herself as though no crushing weight had fallen upon her. the village people had understood it all, listening to her and answering her without the proffer of any outspoken parley. "lord bless 'ee," said mrs. crump, the postmistress,--and mrs. crump was supposed to have the sourest temper in allington,--"whenever i look at thee, miss lily, i thinks that surely thee is the beautifulest young 'ooman in all these parts." "and you are the crossest old woman," said lily, laughing, and giving her hand to the postmistress. "so i be," said mrs. crump. "so i be." then lily sat down in the cottage and asked after her ailments. with mrs. hearn it was the same. mrs. hearn, after that first meeting which has been already mentioned, petted and caressed her, but spoke no further word of her misfortune. when lily called a second time upon mrs. boyce, which she did boldly by herself, that lady did begin one other word of commiseration. "my dearest lily, we have all been made so unhappy--" so far mrs. boyce got, sitting close to lily and striving to look into her face; but lily, with a slightly heightened colour, turned sharp round upon one of the boyce girls, tearing mrs. boyce's commiseration into the smallest shreds. "minnie," she said, speaking quite loud, almost with girlish ecstasy, "what do you think tartar did yesterday? i never laughed so much in my life." then she told a ludicrous story about a very ugly terrier which belonged to the squire. after that even mrs. boyce made no further attempt. mrs. dale and bell both understood that such was to be the rule--the rule even to them. lily would speak to them occasionally on the matter,--to one of them at a time, beginning with some almost single word of melancholy resignation, and then would go on till she opened her very bosom before them; but no such conversation was ever begun by them. but now, in these busy days of the packing, that topic seemed to have been banished altogether. "mamma," she said, standing on the top rung of a house-ladder, from which position she was handing down glass out of a cupboard, "are you sure that these things are ours? i think some of them belong to the house." "i'm sure about that bowl at any rate, because it was my mother's before i was married." "oh, dear, what should i do if i were to break it? whenever i handle anything very precious i always feel inclined to throw it down and smash it. oh! it was as nearly gone as possible, mamma; but that was your fault." "if you don't take care you'll be nearly gone yourself. do take hold of something." "oh, bell, here's the inkstand for which you've been moaning for three years." [illustration: "bell, here's the inkstand."] "i haven't been moaning for three years; but who could have put it up there?" "catch it," said lily; and she threw the bottle down on to a pile of carpets. at this moment a step was heard in the hall, and the squire entered through the open door of the room. "so you're all at work," said he. "yes, we're at work," said mrs. dale, almost with a tone of shame. "if it is to be done it is as well that it should be got over." "it makes me wretched enough," said the squire. "but i didn't come to talk about that. i've brought you a note from lady julia de guest, and i've had one from the earl. they want us all to go there and stay the week after easter." mrs. dale and the girls, when this very sudden proposition was made to them, all remained fixed in their places, and, for a moment, were speechless. go and stay a week at guestwick manor! the whole family! hitherto the intercourse between the manor and the small house had been confined to morning calls, very far between. mrs. dale had never dined there, and had latterly even deputed the calling to her daughters. once bell had dined there with her uncle, the squire, and once lily had gone over with her uncle orlando. even this had been long ago, before they were quite brought out, and they had regarded the occasion with the solemn awe of children. now, at this time of their flitting into some small mean dwelling at guestwick, they had previously settled among themselves that that affair of calling at the manor might be allowed to drop. mrs. eames never called, and they were descending to the level of mrs. eames. "perhaps we shall get game sent to us, and that will be better," lily had said. and now, at this very moment of their descent in life, they were all asked to go and stay a week at the manor! stay a week with lady julia! had the queen sent the lord chamberlain down to bid them all go to windsor castle it could hardly have startled them more at the first blow. bell had been seated on the folded carpet when her uncle had entered, and now had again sat herself in the same place. lily was still standing at the top of the ladder, and mrs. dale was at the foot with one hand on lily's dress. the squire had told his story very abruptly, but he was a man who, having a story to tell, knew nothing better than to tell it out abruptly, letting out everything at the first moment. "wants us all!" said mrs. dale. "how many does the all mean?" then she opened lady julia's note and read it, not moving from her position at the foot of the ladder. "do let me see, mamma," said lily; and then the note was handed up to her. had mrs. dale well considered the matter she might probably have kept the note to herself for a while, but the whole thing was so sudden that she had not considered the matter well. my dear mrs. dale [the letter ran], i send this inside a note from my brother to mr. dale. we particularly want you and your two girls to come to us for a week from the seventeenth of this month. considering our near connection we ought to have seen more of each other than we have done for years past, and of course it has been our fault. but it is never too late to amend one's ways; and i hope you will receive my confession in the true spirit of affection in which it is intended, and that you will show your goodness by coming to us. i will do all i can to make the house pleasant to your girls, for both of whom i have much real regard. i should tell you that john eames will be here for the same week. my brother is very fond of him, and thinks him the best young man of the day. he is one of my heroes, too, i must confess. very sincerely yours, julia de guest. lily, standing on the ladder, read the letter very attentively. the squire meanwhile stood below speaking a word or two to his sister-in-law and niece. no one could see lily's face, as it was turned away towards the window, and it was still averted when she spoke. "it is out of the question that we should go, mamma;--that is, all of us." "why out of the question?" said the squire. "a whole family!" said mrs. dale. "that is just what they want," said the squire. "i should like of all things to be left alone for a week," said lily, "if mamma and bell would go." "that wouldn't do at all," said the squire. "lady julia specially wants you to be one of the party." the thing had been badly managed altogether. the reference in lady julia's note to john eames had explained to lily the whole scheme at once, and had so opened her eyes that all the combined influence of the dale and de guest families could not have dragged her over to the manor. "why not do?" said lily. "it would be out of the question a whole family going in that way, but it would be very nice for bell." "no, it would not," said bell. "don't be ungenerous about it, my dear," said the squire, turning to bell; "lady julia means to be kind. but, my darling," and the squire turned again towards lily, addressing her, as was his wont in these days, with an affection that was almost vexatious to her; "but, my darling, why should you not go? a change of scene like that will do you all the good in the world, just when you are getting well. mary, tell the girls that they ought to go." mrs. dale stood silent, again reading the note, and lily came down from the ladder. when she reached the floor she went directly up to her uncle, and taking his hand turned him round with herself towards one of the windows, so that they stood with their backs to the room. "uncle," she said, "do not be angry with me. i can't go;" and then she put up her face to kiss him. he stooped and kissed her and still held her hand. he looked into her face and read it all. he knew well, now, why she could not go; or, rather, why she herself thought that she could not go. "cannot you, my darling?" he said. "no, uncle. it is very kind,--very kind; but i cannot go. i am not fit to go anywhere." "but you should get over that feeling. you should make a struggle." "i am struggling, and i shall succeed; but i cannot do it all at once. at any rate i could not go there. you must give my love to lady julia, and not let her think me cross. perhaps bell will go." what would be the good of bell's going--or the good of his putting himself out of the way, by a visit which would of itself be so tiresome to him, if the one object of the visit could not be carried out? the earl and his sister had planned the invitation with the express intention of bringing lily and eames together. it seemed that lily was firm in her determination to resist this intention; and, if so, it would be better that the whole thing should fall to the ground. he was very vexed, and yet he was not angry with her. everybody lately had opposed him in everything. all his intended family arrangements had gone wrong. but yet he was seldom angry respecting them. he was so accustomed to be thwarted that he hardly expected success. in this matter of providing lily with a second lover, he had not come forward of his own accord. he had been appealed to by his neighbour the earl, and had certainly answered the appeal with much generosity. he had been induced to make the attempt with eagerness, and a true desire for its accomplishment; but in this, as in all his own schemes, he was met at once by opposition and failure. "i will leave you to talk it over among yourselves," he said. "but, mary, you had better see me before you send your answer. if you will come up by-and-by, ralph shall take the two notes over together in the afternoon." so saying, he left the small house, and went back to his own solitary home. "lily, dear," said mrs. dale, as soon as the front door had been closed, "this is meant for kindness to you,--for most affectionate kindness." "i know it, mamma; and you must go to lady julia, and must tell her that i know it. you must give her my love. and, indeed, i do love her now. but--" "you won't go, lily?" said mrs. dale, beseechingly. "no, mamma; certainly i will not go." then she escaped out of the room by herself, and for the next hour neither of them dared to go to her. chapter l. mrs. dale is thankful for a good thing. on that day they dined early at the small house, as they had been in the habit of doing since the packing had commenced. and after dinner mrs. dale went through the gardens, up to the other house, with a written note in her hand. in that note she had told lady julia, with many protestations of gratitude, that lily was unable to go out so soon after her illness, and that she herself was obliged to stay with lily. she explained also, that the business of moving was in hand, and that, therefore, she could not herself accept the invitation. but her other daughter, she said, would be very happy to accompany her uncle to guestwick manor. then, without closing her letter, she took it up to the squire in order that it might be decided whether it would or would not suit his views. it might well be that he would not care to go to lord de guest's with bell alone. "leave it with me," he said; "that is, if you do not object." "oh dear, no!" "i'll tell you the plain truth at once, mary. i shall go over myself with it, and see the earl. then i will decline it or not, according to what passes between me and him. i wish lily would have gone." "ah! she could not." "i wish she could. i wish she could. i wish she could." as he repeated the words over and over again, there was an eagerness in his voice that filled mrs. dale's heart with tenderness towards him. "the truth is," said mrs. dale, "she could not go there to meet john eames." "oh, i know," said the squire: "i understand it. but that is just what we want her to do. why should she not spend a week in the same house with an honest young man whom we all like." "there are reasons why she would not wish it." "ah, exactly; the very reasons which should make us induce her to go there if we can. perhaps i had better tell you all. lord de guest has taken him by the hand, and wishes him to marry. he has promised to settle on him an income which will make him comfortable for life." "that is very generous; and i am delighted to hear it,--for john's sake." "and they have promoted him at his office." "ah! then he will do well." "he will do very well. he is private secretary now to their head man. and, mary, so that she, lily, should not be empty-handed if this marriage can be arranged, i have undertaken to settle a hundred a year on her,--on her and her children, if she will accept him. now you know it all. i did not mean to tell you; but it is as well that you should have the means of judging. that other man was a villain. this man is honest. would it not be well that she should learn to like him? she always did like him, i thought, before that other fellow came down here among us." "she has always liked him--as a friend." "she will never get a better lover." mrs. dale sat silent, thinking over it all. every word that the squire said was true. it would be a healing of wounds most desirable and salutary; an arrangement advantageous to them all; a destiny for lily most devoutly to be desired,--if only it were possible. mrs. dale firmly believed that if her daughter could be made to accept john eames as her second lover in a year or two all would be well. crosbie would then be forgotten or thought of without regret, and lily would become the mistress of a happy home. but there are positions which cannot be reached, though there be no physical or material objection in the way. it is the view which the mind takes of a thing which creates the sorrow that arises from it. if the heart were always malleable and the feelings could be controlled, who would permit himself to be tormented by any of the reverses which affection meets? death would create no sorrow; ingratitude would lose its sting; and the betrayal of love would do no injury beyond that which it might entail upon worldly circumstances. but the heart is not malleable; nor will the feelings admit of such control. "it is not possible for her," said mrs. dale. "i fear it is not possible. it is too soon." "six months," pleaded the squire. "it will take years,--not months," said mrs. dale. "and she will lose all her youth." "yes; he has done all that by his treachery. but it is done, and we cannot now go back. she loves him yet as dearly as she ever loved him." then the squire muttered certain words below his breath,--ejaculations against crosbie, which were hardly voluntary; but even as involuntary ejaculations were very improper. mrs. dale heard them, and was not offended either by their impropriety or their warmth. "but you can understand," she said, "that she cannot bring herself to go there." the squire struck the table with his fist, and repeated his ejaculations. if he could only have known how very disagreeable lady alexandrina was making herself, his spirit might, perhaps, have been less vehemently disturbed. if, also, he could have perceived and understood the light in which an alliance with the de courcy family was now regarded by crosbie, i think that he would have received some consolation from that consideration. those who offend us are generally punished for the offence they give; but we so frequently miss the satisfaction of knowing that we are avenged! it is arranged, apparently, that the injurer shall be punished, but that the person injured shall not gratify his desire for vengeance. "and will you go to guestwick yourself?" asked mrs. dale. "i will take the note," said the squire, "and will let you know to-morrow. the earl has behaved so kindly that every possible consideration is due to him. i had better tell him the whole truth, and go or stay, as he may wish. i don't see the good of going. what am i to do at guestwick manor? i did think that if we had all been there it might have cured some difficulties." mrs. dale got up to leave him, but she could not go without saying some word of gratitude for all that he had attempted to do for them. she well knew what he meant by the curing of difficulties. he had intended to signify that had they lived together for a week at guestwick the idea of flitting from allington might possibly have been abandoned. it seemed now to mrs. dale as though her brother-in-law were heaping coals of fire on her head in return for that intention. she felt half-ashamed of what she was doing, almost acknowledging to herself that she should have borne with his sternness in return for the benefits he had done to her daughters. had she not feared their reproaches she would, even now, have given way. "i do not know what i ought to say to you for your kindness." "say nothing,--either for my kindness or unkindness; but stay where you are, and let us live like christians together, striving to think good and not evil." these were kind, loving words, showing in themselves a spirit of love and forbearance; but they were spoken in a harsh, unsympathizing voice, and the speaker, as he uttered them, looked gloomily at the fire. in truth the squire, as he spoke, was half-ashamed of the warmth of what he said. "at any rate i will not think evil," mrs. dale answered, giving him her hand. after that she left him, and returned home. it was too late for her to abandon her project of moving and remain at the small house; but as she went across the garden she almost confessed to herself that she repented of what she was doing. in these days of the cold early spring, the way from the lawn into the house, through the drawing-room window, was not as yet open, and it was necessary to go round by the kitchen-garden on to the road, and thence in by the front door; or else to pass through the back door, and into the house by the kitchen. this latter mode of entrance mrs. dale now adopted; and as she made her way into the hall lily came upon her, with very silent steps, out from the parlour, and arrested her progress. there was a smile upon lily's face as she lifted up her finger as if in caution, and no one looking at her would have supposed that she was herself in trouble. "mamma," she said, pointing to the drawing-room door, and speaking almost in a whisper, "you must not go in there; come into the parlour." "who's there? where's bell?" and mrs. dale went into the parlour as she was bidden. "but who is there?" she repeated. "he's there!" "who is he?" "oh, mamma, don't be a goose! dr. crofts is there, of course. he's been nearly an hour. i wonder how he is managing, for there is nothing on earth to sit upon but the old lump of a carpet. the room is strewed about with crockery, and bell is such a figure! she has got on your old checked apron, and when he came in she was rolling up the fire-irons in brown paper. i don't suppose she was ever in such a mess before. there's one thing certain,--he can't kiss her hand." "it's you are the goose, lily." "but he's in there certainly, unless he has gone out through the window, or up the chimney." "what made you leave them?" "he met me here, in the passage, and spoke to me ever so seriously. 'come in,' i said, 'and see bell packing the pokers and tongs.' 'i will go in,' he said, 'but don't come with me.' he was ever so serious, and i'm sure he had been thinking of it all the way along." "and why should he not be serious?" "oh, no, of course he ought to be serious; but are you not glad, mamma? i am so glad. we shall live alone together, you and i; but she will be so close to us! my belief is that he'll stay there for ever unless somebody does something. i have been so tired of waiting and looking out for you. perhaps he's helping her to pack the things. don't you think we might go in; or would it be ill-natured?" "lily, don't be in too great a hurry to say anything. you may be mistaken, you know; and there's many a slip between the cup and the lip." "yes, mamma, there is," said lily, putting her hand inside her mother's arm, "that's true enough." "oh, my darling, forgive me," said the mother, suddenly remembering that the use of the old proverb at the present moment had been almost cruel. "do not mind it," said lily, "it does not hurt me, it does me good; that is to say, when there is nobody by except yourself. but, with god's help, there shall be no slip here, and she shall be happy. it is all the difference between one thing done in a hurry, and another done with much thinking. but they'll remain there for ever if we don't go in. come, mamma, you open the door." then mrs. dale did open the door, giving some little premonitory notice with the handle, so that the couple inside might be warned of approaching footsteps. crofts had not escaped, either through the window or up the chimney, but was seated in the middle of the room on an empty box, just opposite to bell, who was seated upon the lump of carpeting. bell still wore the checked apron as described by her sister. what might have been the state of her hands i will not pretend to say; but i do not believe that her lover had found anything amiss with them. "how do you do, doctor?" said mrs. dale, striving to use her accustomed voice, and to look as though there were nothing of special importance in his visit. "i have just come down from the great house." "mamma," said bell, jumping up, "you must not call him doctor any more." "must i not? has any one undoctored him?" "oh, mamma, you understand," said bell. "i understand," said lily, going up to the doctor, and giving him her cheek to kiss, "he is to be my brother, and i mean to claim him as such from this moment. i expect him to do everything for us, and not to call a moment of his time his own." "mrs. dale," said the doctor, "bell has consented that it shall be so, if you will consent." "there is but little doubt of that," said mrs. dale. "we shall not be rich--" began the doctor. "i hate to be rich," said bell. "i hate even to talk about it. i don't think it quite manly even to think about it; and i'm sure it isn't womanly." "bell was always a fanatic in praise of poverty," said mrs. dale. "no; i'm no fanatic. i'm very fond of money earned. i would like to earn some myself if i knew how." "let her go out and visit the lady patients," said lily. "they do in america." then they all went into the parlour and sat round the fire talking as though they were already one family. the proceeding, considering the nature of it,--that a young lady, acknowledged to be of great beauty and known to be of good birth, had on the occasion been asked and given in marriage,--was carried on after a somewhat humdrum fashion, and in a manner that must be called commonplace. how different had it been when crosbie had made his offer! lily for the time had been raised to a pinnacle,--a pinnacle which might be dangerous, but which was, at any rate, lofty. with what a pretty speech had crosbie been greeted! how it had been felt by all concerned that the fortunes of the small house were in the ascendant,--felt, indeed, with some trepidation, but still with much inward triumph. how great had been the occasion, forcing lily almost to lose herself in wonderment at what had occurred! there was no great occasion now, and no wonderment. no one, unless it was crofts, felt very triumphant. but they were all very happy, and were sure that there was safety in their happiness. it was but the other day that one of them had been thrown rudely to the ground through the treachery of a lover, but yet none of them feared treachery from this lover. bell was as sure of her lot in life as though she were already being taken home to her modest house in guestwick. mrs. dale already looked upon the man as her son, and the party of four as they sat round the fire grouped themselves as though they already formed one family. but bell was not seated next to her lover. lily, when she had once accepted crosbie, seemed to think that she could never be too near to him. she had been in no wise ashamed of her love, and had shown it constantly by some little caressing motion of her hand, leaning on his arm, looking into his face, as though she were continually desirous of some palpable assurance of his presence. it was not so at all with bell. she was happy in loving and in being loved, but she required no overt testimonies of affection. i do not think it would have made her unhappy if some sudden need had required that crofts should go to india and back before they were married. the thing was settled, and that was enough for her. but, on the other hand, when he spoke of the expediency of an immediate marriage, she raised no difficulty. as her mother was about to go into a new residence, it might be as well that that residence should be fitted to the wants of two persons instead of three. so they talked about chairs and tables, carpets and kitchens, in a most unromantic, homely, useful manner! a considerable portion of the furniture in the house they were now about to leave belonged to the squire,--or to the house rather, as they were in the habit of saying. the older and more solid things,--articles of household stuff that stand the wear of half a century,--had been in the small house when they came to it. there was, therefore, a question of buying new furniture for a house in guestwick,--a question not devoid of importance to the possessor of so moderate an income as that owned by mrs. dale. in the first month or two they were to live in lodgings, and their goods were to be stored in some friendly warehouse. under such circumstances would it not be well that bell's marriage should be so arranged that the lodging question might not be in any degree complicated by her necessities? this was the last suggestion made by dr. crofts, induced no doubt by the great encouragement he had received. "that would be hardly possible," said mrs. dale. "it only wants three weeks;--and with the house in such a condition!" "james is joking," said bell. "i was not joking at all," said the doctor. "why not send for mr. boyce, and carry her off at once on a pillion behind you?" said lily. "it's just the sort of thing for primitive people to do, like you and bell. all the same, bell, i do wish you could have been married from this house." "i don't think it will make much difference," said bell. "only if you would have waited till summer we would have had such a nice party on the lawn. it sounds so ugly, being married from lodgings; doesn't it, mamma?" "it doesn't sound at all ugly to me," said bell. "i shall always call you dame commonplace when you're married," said lily. then they had tea, and after tea dr. crofts got on his horse and rode back to guestwick. "now may i talk about him?" said lily, as soon as the door was closed behind his back. "no; you may not." "as if i hadn't known it all along! and wasn't it hard to bear that you should have scolded me with such pertinacious austerity, and that i wasn't to say a word in answer!" "i don't remember the austerity," said mrs. dale. "nor yet lily's silence," said bell. "but it's all settled now," said lily, "and i'm downright happy. i never felt more satisfaction,--never, bell!" "nor did i," said her mother; "i may truly say that i thank god for this good thing." chapter li. john eames does things which he ought not to have done. john eames succeeded in making his bargain with sir raffle buffle. he accepted the private secretaryship on the plainly expressed condition that he was to have leave of absence for a fortnight towards the end of april. having arranged this he took an affectionate leave of mr. love, who was really much affected at parting with him, discussed valedictory pots of porter in the big room, over which many wishes were expressed that he might be enabled to compass the length and breadth of old huffle's feet, uttered a last cutting joke at mr. kissing as he met that gentleman hurrying through the passages with an enormous ledger in his hands, and then took his place in the comfortable arm-chair which fitzhoward had been forced to relinquish. "don't tell any of the fellows," said fitz, "but i'm going to cut the concern altogether. my governor wouldn't let me stop here in any other place than that of private secretary." "ah, your governor is a swell," said eames. "i don't know about that," said fitzhoward. "of course he has a good deal of family interest. my cousin is to come in for st. bungay at the next election, and then i can do better than remain here." "that's a matter of course," said eames. "if my cousin were member for st. bungay, i'd never stand anything east of whitehall." "and i don't mean," said fitzhoward. "this room, you know, is all very nice; but it is a bore coming into the city every day. and then one doesn't like to be rung for like a servant. not that i mean to put you out of conceit with it." "it will do very well for me," said eames. "i never was very particular." and so they parted, eames assuming the beautiful arm-chair and the peril of being asked to carry sir raffle's shoes, while fitzhoward took the vacant desk in the big room till such time as some member of his family should come into parliament for the borough of st. bungay. but eames, though he drank the porter, and quizzed fitzhoward, and gibed at kissing, did not seat himself in his new arm-chair without some serious thoughts. he was aware that his career in london had not hitherto been one on which he could look back with self-respect. he had lived with friends whom he did not esteem; he had been idle, and sometimes worse than idle; and he had allowed himself to be hampered by the pretended love of a woman for whom he had never felt any true affection, and by whom he had been cozened out of various foolish promises which even yet were hanging over his head. as he sat with sir raffle's notes before him, he thought almost with horror of the men and women in burton crescent. it was now about three years since he had first known cradell, and he shuddered as he remembered how very poor a creature was he whom he had chosen for his bosom friend. he could not make for himself those excuses which we can make for him. he could not tell himself that he had been driven by circumstances to choose a friend, before he had learned to know what were the requisites for which he should look. he had lived on terms of closest intimacy with this man for three years, and now his eyes were opening themselves to the nature of his friend's character. cradell was in age three years his senior. "i won't drop him," he said to himself; "but he is a poor creature." he thought, too, of the lupexes, of miss spruce, and of mrs. roper, and tried to imagine what lily dale would do if she found herself among such people. it would be impossible that she should ever so find herself. he might as well ask her to drink at the bar of a gin-shop as to sit down in mrs. roper's drawing-room. if destiny had in store for him such good fortune as that of calling lily his own, it was necessary that he should altogether alter his mode of life. in truth his hobbledehoyhood was dropping off from him, as its old skin drops from a snake. much of the feeling and something of the knowledge of manhood was coming on him, and he was beginning to recognize to himself that the future manner of his life must be to him a matter of very serious concern. no such thought had come near him when he first established himself in london. it seems to me that in this respect the fathers and mothers of the present generation understand but little of the inward nature of the young men for whom they are so anxious. they give them credit for so much that it is impossible they should have, and then deny them credit for so much that they possess! they expect from them when boys the discretion of men,--that discretion which comes from thinking; but will not give them credit for any of that power of thought which alone can ultimately produce good conduct. young men are generally thoughtful,--more thoughtful than their seniors; but the fruit of their thought is not as yet there. and then so little is done for the amusement of lads who are turned loose into london at nineteen or twenty. can it be that any mother really expects her son to sit alone evening after evening in a dingy room drinking bad tea, and reading good books? and yet it seems that mothers do so expect,--the very mothers who talk about the thoughtlessness of youth! o ye mothers who from year to year see your sons launched forth upon the perils of the world, and who are so careful with your good advice, with under flannel shirting, with books of devotion and tooth-powder, does it never occur to you that provision should be made for amusement, for dancing, for parties, for the excitement and comfort of women's society? that excitement your sons will have, and if it be not provided by you of one kind, will certainly be provided by themselves of another kind. if i were a mother sending lads out into the world, the matter most in my mind would be this,--to what houses full of nicest girls could i get them admission, so that they might do their flirting in good company. poor john eames had been so placed that he had been driven to do his flirting in very bad company, and he was now fully aware that it had been so. it wanted but two days to his departure for guestwick manor, and as he sat breathing a while after the manufacture of a large batch of sir raffle's notes, he made up his mind that he would give mrs. roper notice before he started, that on his return to london he would be seen no more in burton crescent. he would break his bonds altogether asunder, and if there should be any penalty for such breaking he would pay it in what best manner he might be able. he acknowledged to himself that he had been behaving badly to amelia, confessing, indeed, more sin in that respect than he had in truth committed; but this, at any rate, was clear to him, that he must put himself on a proper footing in that quarter before he could venture to speak to lily dale. as he came to a definite conclusion on this subject the little handbell which always stood on sir raffle's table was sounded, and eames was called into the presence of the great man. "ah," said sir raffle, leaning back in his arm-chair, and stretching himself after the great exertions which he had been making--"ah, let me see! you are going out of town the day after to-morrow." "yes, sir raffle, the day after to-morrow." "ah! it's a great annoyance,--a very great annoyance. but on such occasions i never think of myself. i never have done so, and don't suppose i ever shall. so you're going down to my old friend de guest?" eames was always angered when his new patron sir raffle talked of his old friendship with the earl, and never gave the commissioner any encouragement. "i am going down to guestwick," said he. "ah! yes; to guestwick manor? i don't remember that i was ever there. i daresay i may have been, but one forgets those things." "i never heard lord de guest speak of it." "oh, dear, no. why should his memory be better than mine? tell him, will you, how very glad i shall be to renew our old intimacy. i should think nothing of running down to him for a day or two in the dull time of the year,--say in september or october. it's rather a coincidence our both being interested about you,--isn't it?" "i'll be sure to tell him." "mind you do. he's one of our most thoroughly independent noblemen, and i respect him very highly. let me see; didn't i ring my bell? what was it i wanted? i think i rang my bell." "you did ring your bell." "ah, yes; i know. i am going away, and i wanted my--would you tell rafferty to bring me--my boots?" whereupon johnny rang the bell--not the little handbell, but the other bell. "and i shan't be here to-morrow," continued sir raffle. "i'll thank you to send my letters up to the square; and if they should send down from the treasury;--but the chancellor would write, and in that case you'll send up his letter at once by a special messenger, of course." "here's rafferty," said eames, determined that he would not even sully his lips with speaking of sir raffle's boots. "oh, ah, yes; rafferty, bring me my boots." "anything else to say?" asked eames. "no, nothing else. of course you'll be careful to leave everything straight behind you." "oh, yes; i'll leave it all straight." then eames withdrew, so that he might not be present at the interview between sir raffle and his boots. "he'll not do," said sir raffle to himself. "he'll never do. he's not quick enough,--has no go in him. he's not man enough for the place. i wonder why the earl has taken him by the hand in that way." soon after the little episode of the boots eames left his office, and walked home alone to burton crescent. he felt that he had gained a victory in sir raffle's room, but the victory there had been easy. now he had another battle on his hands, in which, as he believed, the achievement of victory would be much more difficult. amelia roper was a person much more to be feared than the chief commissioner. he had one strong arrow in his quiver on which he would depend, if there should come to him the necessity of giving his enemy a death-wound. during the last week she had been making powerful love to cradell, so as to justify the punishment of desertion from a former lover. he would not throw cradell in her teeth if he could help it; but it was incumbent on him to gain a victory, and if the worst should come to the worst, he must use such weapons as destiny and the chance of war had given him. he found mrs. roper in the dining-room as he entered, and immediately began his work. "mrs. roper," he said, "i'm going out of town the day after to-morrow." "oh, yes, mr. eames, we know that. you're going as a visitor to the noble mansion of the earl de guest." "i don't know about the mansion being very noble, but i'm going down into the country for a fortnight. when i come back--" "when you come back, mr. eames, i hope you'll find your room a deal more comfortable. i know it isn't quite what it should be for a gentleman like you, and i've been thinking for some time past--" "but, mrs. roper, i don't mean to come back here any more. it's just that that i want to say to you." "not come back to the crescent!" "no, mrs. roper. a fellow must move sometimes, you know; and i'm sure i've been very constant to you for a long time." "but where are you going, mr. eames?" "well; i haven't just made up my mind as yet. that is, it will depend on what i may do,--on what friends of mine may say down in the country. you'll not think i'm quarrelling with you, mrs. roper." "it's them lupexes as have done it," said mrs. roper, in her deep distress. "no, indeed, mrs. roper, nobody has done it." "yes, it is; and i'm not going to blame you, mr. eames. they've made the house unfit for any decent young gentleman like you. i've been feeling that all along; but it's hard upon a lone woman like me, isn't it, mr. eames?" "but, mrs. roper, the lupexes have had nothing to do with my going." "oh, yes, they have; i understand it all. but what could i do, mr. eames? i've been giving them warning every week for the last six months; but the more i give them warning, the more they won't go. unless i were to send for a policeman, and have a row in the house--" "but i haven't complained of the lupexes, mrs. roper." "you wouldn't be quitting without any reason, mr. eames. you are not going to be married in earnest, are you, mr. eames?" "not that i know of." "you may tell me; you may, indeed. i won't say a word,--not to anybody. it hasn't been my fault about amelia. it hasn't really." "who says there's been any fault?" "i can see, mr. eames. of course it didn't do for me to interfere. and if you had liked her, i will say i believe she'd have made as good a wife as any young man ever took; and she can make a few pounds go farther than most girls. you can understand a mother's feelings; and if there was to be anything, i couldn't spoil it; could i, now?" "but there isn't to be anything." "so i've told her for months past. i'm not going to say anything to blame you; but young men ought to be very particular; indeed they ought." johnny did not choose to hint to the disconsolate mother that it also behoved young women to be very particular, but he thought it. "i've wished many a time, mr. eames, that she had never come here; indeed i have. but what's a mother to do? i couldn't put her outside the door." then mrs. roper raised her apron up to her eyes, and began to sob. "i'm very sorry if i've made any mischief," said johnny. "it hasn't been your fault," continued the poor woman, from whom, as her tears became uncontrollable, her true feelings forced themselves and the real outpouring of her feminine nature. "nor it hasn't been my fault. but i knew what it would come to when i saw how she was going on; and i told her so. i knew you wouldn't put up with the likes of her." "indeed, mrs. roper, i've always had a great regard for her, and for you too." "but you weren't going to marry her. i've told her so all along, and i've begged her not to do it,--almost on my knees i have; but she wouldn't be said by me. she never would. she's always been that wilful that i'd sooner have her away from me than with me. though she's a good young woman in the house,--she is, indeed, mr. eames;--and there isn't a pair of hands in it that works so hard; but it was no use my talking." "i don't think any harm has been done." "yes, there has; great harm. it has made the place not respectable. it's the lupexes is the worst. there's miss spruce, who has been with me for nine years,--ever since i've had the house,--she's been telling me this morning that she means to go into the country. it's all the same thing. i understand it. i can see it. the house isn't respectable, as it should be; and your mamma, if she were to know all, would have a right to be angry with me. i did mean to be respectable, mr. eames; i did indeed." "miss spruce will think better of it." "you don't know what i've had to go through. there's none of them pays, not regular,--only she and you. she's been like the bank of england, has miss spruce." "i'm afraid i've not been very regular, mrs. roper." "oh, yes, you have. i don't think of a pound or two more or less at the end of a quarter, if i'm sure to have it some day. the butcher,--he understands one's lodgers just as well as i do,--if the money's really coming, he'll wait; but he won't wait for such as them lupexes, whose money's nowhere. and there's cradell; would you believe it, that fellow owes me eight and twenty pounds!" "eight and twenty pounds!" "yes, mr. eames, eight and twenty pounds! he's a fool. it's them lupexes as have had his money. i know it. he don't talk of paying, and going away. i shall be just left with him and the lupexes on my hands; and then the bailiffs may come and sell every stick about the place. i won't say nay to them." then she threw herself into the old horsehair arm-chair, and gave way to her womanly sorrow. "i think i'll go upstairs, and get ready for dinner," said eames. "and you must go away when you come back?" said mrs. roper. "well, yes, i'm afraid i must. i meant you to have a month's warning from to-day. of course i shall pay for the month." "i don't want to take any advantage; indeed, i don't. but i do hope you'll leave your things. you can have them whenever you like. if chumpend knows that you and miss spruce are both going, of course he'll be down upon me for his money." chumpend was the butcher. but eames made no answer to this piteous plea. whether or no he could allow his old boots to remain in burton crescent for the next week or two, must depend on the manner in which he might be received by amelia roper this evening. when he came down to the drawing-room, there was no one there but miss spruce. "a fine day, miss spruce," said he. "yes, mr. eames, it is a fine day for london; but don't you think the country air is very nice?" "give me the town," said johnny, wishing to say a good word for poor mrs. roper, if it were possible. "you're a young man, mr. eames; but i'm only an old woman. that makes a difference," said miss spruce. "not much," said johnny, meaning to be civil. "you don't like to be dull any more than i do." "i like to be respectable, mr. eames. i always have been respectable, mr. eames." this the old woman said almost in a whisper, looking anxiously to see that the door had not been opened to other listening ears. "i'm sure mrs. roper is very respectable." "yes; mrs. roper is respectable, mr. eames; but there are some here that-- hush-sh-sh!" and the old lady put her finger up to her lips. the door opened and mrs. lupex swam into the room. "how d'ye do, miss spruce? i declare you're always first. it's to get a chance of having one of the young gentlemen to yourself, i believe. what's the news in the city to-day, mr. eames? in your position now of course you hear all the news." "sir raffle buffle has got a new pair of shoes. i don't know that for certain, but i guess it from the time it took him to put them on." "ah! now you're quizzing. that's always the way with you gentlemen when you get a little up in the world. you don't think women are worth talking to then, unless just for a joke or so." "i'd a great deal sooner talk to you, mrs. lupex, than i would to sir raffle buffle." "it's all very well for you to say that. but we women know what such compliments as those mean;--don't we, miss spruce? a woman that's been married five years as i have--or i may say six,--doesn't expect much attention from young men. and though i was young when i married--young in years, that is,--i'd seen too much and gone through too much to be young in heart." this she said almost in a whisper; but miss spruce heard it, and was confirmed in her belief that burton crescent was no longer respectable. "i don't know what you were then, mrs. lupex," said eames; "but you're young enough now for anything." "mr. eames, i'd sell all that remains of my youth at a cheap rate,--at a very cheap rate, if i could only be sure of--" "sure of what, mrs. lupex?" "the undivided affection of the one person that i loved. that is all that is necessary to a woman's happiness." "and isn't lupex--" "lupex! but, hush, never mind. i should not have allowed myself to be betrayed into an expression of feeling. here's your friend mr. cradell. do you know i sometimes wonder what you find in that man to be so fond of him." miss spruce saw it all, and heard it all, and positively resolved upon moving herself to those two small rooms at dulwich. hardly a word was exchanged between amelia and eames before dinner. amelia still devoted herself to cradell, and johnny saw that that arrow, if it should be needed, would be a strong weapon. mrs. roper they found seated at her place at the dining-table, and eames could perceive the traces of her tears. poor woman! few positions in life could be harder to bear than hers! to be ever tugging at others for money that they could not pay; to be ever tugged at for money which she could not pay; to desire respectability for its own sake, but to be driven to confess that it was a luxury beyond her means; to put up with disreputable belongings for the sake of lucre, and then not to get the lucre, but be driven to feel that she was ruined by the attempt! how many mrs. ropers there are who from year to year sink down and fall away, and no one knows whither they betake themselves! one fancies that one sees them from time to time at the corners of the streets in battered bonnets and thin gowns, with the tattered remnants of old shawls upon their shoulders, still looking as though they had within them a faint remembrance of long-distant respectability. with anxious eyes they peer about, as though searching in the streets for other lodgers. where do they get their daily morsels of bread, and their poor cups of thin tea,--their cups of thin tea, with perhaps a pennyworth of gin added to it, if providence be good! of this state of things mrs. roper had a lively appreciation, and now, poor woman, she feared that she was reaching it, by the aid of the lupexes. on the present occasion she carved her joint of meat in silence, and sent out her slices to the good guests that would leave her, and to the bad guests that would remain, with apathetic impartiality. what was the use now of doing favour to one lodger or disfavour to another? let them take their mutton,--they who would pay for it and they who would not. she would not have the carving of many more joints in that house if chumpend acted up to all the threats which he had uttered to her that morning. the reader may, perhaps, remember the little back room behind the dining parlour. a description was given in some former pages of an interview which was held between amelia and her lover. it was in that room that all the interviews of mrs. roper's establishment had their existence. a special room for interviews is necessary in all households of a mixed nature. if a man lives alone with his wife, he can have his interviews where he pleases. sons and daughters, even when they are grown up, hardly create the necessity of an interview-chamber, though some such need may be felt if the daughters are marriageable and independent in their natures. but when the family becomes more complicated than this, if an extra young man be introduced, or an aunt comes into residence, or grown up children by a former wife interfere with the domestic simplicity, then such accommodation becomes quite indispensable. no woman would think of taking in lodgers without such a room; and this room there was at mrs. roper's, very small and dingy, but still sufficient,--just behind the dining parlour and opposite to the kitchen stairs. hither, after dinner, amelia was summoned. she had just seated herself between mrs. lupex and miss spruce, ready to do battle with the former because she would stay, and with the latter because she would go, when she was called out by the servant girl. "miss mealyer, miss mealyer,--sh--sh--sh!" and amelia, looking round, saw a large red hand beckoning to her. "he's down there," said jemima, as soon as her young mistress had joined her, "and wants to see you most partic'lar." "which of 'em?" asked amelia, in a whisper. "why, mr. heames, to be sure. don't you go and have anythink to say to the other one, miss mealyer, pray don't; he ain't no good; he ain't indeed." amelia stood still for a moment on the landing, calculating whether it would be well for her to have the interview, or well to decline it. her objects were two;--or, rather, her object was in its nature twofold. she was, naturally, anxious to drive john eames to desperation; and anxious also, by some slight added artifice, to make sure of cradell if eames's desperation did not have a very speedy effect. she agreed with jemima's criticism in the main, but she did not go quite so far as to think that cradell was no good at all. let it be eames, if eames were possible; but let the other string be kept for use if eames were not possible. poor girl! in coming to this resolve she had not done so without agony. she had a heart, and with such power as it gave her, she loved john eames. but the world had been hard to her; knocking her about hither and thither unmercifully; threatening, as it now threatened, to take from her what few good things she enjoyed. when a girl is so circumstanced she cannot afford to attend to her heart. she almost resolved not to see eames on the present occasion, thinking that he might be made the more desperate by such refusal, and remembering also that cradell was in the house and would know of it. "he's there a-waiting, miss mealyer. why don't yer come down?" and jemima plucked her young mistress by the arm. "i am coming," said amelia. and with dignified steps she descended to the interview. "here she is, mr. heames," said the girl. and then johnny found himself alone with his lady-love. "you have sent for me, mr. eames," she said, giving her head a little toss, and turning her face away from him. "i was engaged upstairs, but i thought it uncivil not to come down to you as you sent for me so special." "yes, miss roper, i did want to see you very particularly." "oh, dear!" she exclaimed, and he understood fully that the exclamation referred to his having omitted the customary use of her christian name. "i saw your mother before dinner, and i told her that i am going away the day after to-morrow." "we all know about that;--to the earl's, of course!" and then there was another chuck of her head. "and i told her also that i had made up my mind not to come back to burton crescent." "what! leave the house altogether!" "well; yes. a fellow must make a change sometimes, you know." "and where are you going, john?" "that i don't know as yet." "tell me the truth, john; are you going to be married? are you--going--to marry--that young woman,--mr. crosbie's leavings? i demand to have an answer at once. are you going to marry her?" he had determined very resolutely that nothing she might say should make him angry, but when she thus questioned him about "crosbie's leavings" he found it very difficult to keep his temper. "i have not come," said he, "to speak to you about any one but ourselves." "that put-off won't do with me, sir. you are not to treat any girl you may please in that sort of way;--oh, john!" then she looked at him as though she did not know whether to fly at him and cover him with kisses, or to fly at him and tear his hair. "i know i haven't behaved quite as i should have done," he began. "oh, john!" and she shook her head. "you mean, then, to tell me that you are going to marry her?" "i mean to say nothing of the kind. i only mean to say that i am going away from burton crescent." "john eames, i wonder what you think will come to you! will you answer me this; have i had a promise from you,--a distinct promise, over and over again, or have i not?" "i don't know about a distinct promise--" "well, well! i did think that you was a gentleman that would not go back from your word. i did think that. i did think that you would never put a young lady to the necessity of bringing forward her own letters to prove that she is not expecting more than she has a right! you don't know! and that, after all that has been between us! john eames!" and again it seemed to him as though she were about to fly. "i tell you that i know i haven't behaved well. what more can i say?" "what more can you say? oh, john! to ask me such a question! if you were a man you would know very well what more to say. but all you private secretaries are given to deceit, as the sparks fly upwards. however, i despise you,--i do, indeed. i despise you." "if you despise me, we might as well shake hands and part at once. i daresay that will be best. one doesn't like to be despised, of course; but sometimes one can't help it." and then he put out his hand to her. "and is this to be the end of all?" she said, taking it. "well, yes; i suppose so. you say i'm despised." "you shouldn't take up a poor girl in that way for a sharp word,--not when she is suffering as i am made to suffer. if you only think of it,--think what i have been expecting!" and now amelia began to cry, and to look as though she were going to fall into his arms. "it is better to tell the truth," he said; "isn't it?" "but it shouldn't be the truth." "but it is the truth. i couldn't do it. i should ruin myself and you too, and we should never be happy." "i should be happy,--very happy indeed." at this moment the poor girl's tears were unaffected, and her words were not artful. for a minute or two her heart,--her actual heart,--was allowed to prevail. "it cannot be, amelia. will you not say good-by?" "good-by," she said, leaning against him as she spoke. "i do so hope you will be happy," he said. and then, putting his arm round her waist, he kissed her; which he certainly ought not to have done. when the interview was over, he escaped out into the crescent, and as he walked down through the squares,--woburn square, and russell square, and bedford square,--towards the heart of london, he felt himself elated almost to a state of triumph. he had got himself well out of his difficulties, and now he would be ready for his love-tale to lily. chapter lii. the first visit to the guestwick bridge. [illustration: (untitled)] when john eames arrived at guestwick manor, he was first welcomed by lady julia. "my dear mr. eames," she said, "i cannot tell you how glad we are to see you." after that she always called him john, and treated him throughout his visit with wonderful kindness. no doubt that affair of the bull had in some measure produced this feeling; no doubt, also, she was well disposed to the man who she hoped might be accepted as a lover by lily dale. but i am inclined to think that the fact of his having beaten crosbie had been the most potential cause of this affection for our hero on the part of lady julia. ladies,--especially discreet old ladies, such as lady julia de guest,--are bound to entertain pacific theories, and to condemn all manner of violence. lady julia would have blamed any one who might have advised eames to commit an assault upon crosbie. but, nevertheless, deeds of prowess are still dear to the female heart, and a woman, be she ever so old and discreet, understands and appreciates the summary justice which may be done by means of a thrashing. lady julia, had she been called upon to talk of it, would undoubtedly have told eames that he had committed a fault in striking mr. crosbie; but the deed had been done, and lady julia became very fond of john eames. "vickers shall show you your room, if you like to go upstairs; but you'll find my brother close about the house if you choose to go out; i saw him not half an hour since." but john seemed to be well satisfied to sit in the arm-chair over the fire, and talk to his hostess; so neither of them moved. "and now that you're a private secretary, how do you like it?" "i like the work well enough; only i don't like the man, lady julia. but i shouldn't say so, because he is such an intimate friend of your brother's." "an intimate friend of theodore's!--sir raffle buffle!" lady julia stiffened her back and put on a serious face, not being exactly pleased at being told that the earl de guest had any such intimate friend. "at any rate he tells me so about four times a day, lady julia. and he particularly wants to come down here next september." "did he tell you that, too?" "indeed he did. you can't believe what a goose he is! then his voice sounds like a cracked bell; it's the most disagreeable voice you ever heard in your life. and one has always to be on one's guard lest he should make one do something that is--is--that isn't quite the thing for a gentleman. you understand;--what the messenger ought to do." "you shouldn't be too much afraid of your own dignity." "no, i'm not. if lord de guest were to ask me to fetch him his shoes, i'd run to guestwick and back for them and think nothing of it,--just because i know he's my friend. he'd have a right to send me. but i'm not going to do such things as that for sir raffle buffle." "fetch him his shoes!" "that's what fitzhoward had to do, and he didn't like it." "isn't mr. fitzhoward nephew to the duchess of st. bungay?" "nephew, or cousin, or something." "dear me!" said lady julia, "what a horrible man!" and in this way john eames and her ladyship became very intimate. there was no one at dinner at the manor that day but the earl and his sister and their single guest. the earl when he came in was very warm in his welcome, slapping his young friend on the back, and poking jokes at him with a good-humoured if not brilliant pleasantry. "thrashed anybody lately, john?" "nobody to speak of," said johnny. "brought your nightcap down for your out-o'-doors nap?" "no; but i've got a grand stick for the bull," said johnny. "ah! that's no joke now, i can tell you," said the earl. "we had to sell him, and it half broke my heart. we don't know what had come to him, but he became quite unruly after that;--knocked darvell down in the straw-yard! it was a very bad business,--a very bad business, indeed! come, go and dress. do you remember how you came down to dinner that day? i shall never forget how crofts stared at you. come, you've only got twenty minutes, and you london fellows always want an hour." "he's entitled to some consideration now he's a private secretary," said lady julia. "bless us all! yes; i forgot that. come, mr. private secretary, don't stand on the grandeur of your neck-tie to-day, as there's nobody here but ourselves. you shall have an opportunity to-morrow." then johnny was handed over to the groom of the chambers, and exactly in twenty minutes he re-appeared in the drawing-room. as soon as lady julia had left them after dinner, the earl began to explain his plan for the coming campaign. "i'll tell you now what i have arranged," said he. "the squire is to be here to-morrow with his eldest niece,--your miss lily's sister, you know." "what, bell?" "yes, with bell, if her name is bell. she's a very pretty girl, too. i don't know whether she's not the prettiest of the two, after all." "that's a matter of opinion." "just so, johnny; and do you stick to your own. they're coming here for three or four days. lady julia did ask mrs. dale and lily. i wonder whether you'll let me call her lily?" "oh, dear! i wish i might have the power of letting you." "that's just the battle that you've got to fight. but the mother and the younger sister wouldn't come. lady julia says it's all right;--that, as a matter of course, she wouldn't come when she heard you were to be here. i don't quite understand it. in my days the young girls were ready enough to go where they knew they'd meet their lovers, and i never thought any the worse of them for it." "it wasn't because of that," said eames. "that's what lady julia says, and i always find her to be right in things of that sort. and she says you'll have a better chance in going over there than you would here, if she were in the same house with you. if i was going to make love to a girl, of course i'd sooner have her close to me,--staying in the same house. i should think it the best fun in the world. and we might have had a dance, and all that kind of thing. but i couldn't make her come, you know." "oh, no; of course not." "and lady julia thinks that it's best as it is. you must go over, you know, and get the mother on your side, if you can. i take it, the truth is this;--you mustn't be angry with me, you know, for saying it." "you may be sure of that." "i suppose she was fond of that fellow, crosbie. she can't be very fond of him now, i should think, after the way he has treated her; but she'll find a difficulty in making her confession that she really likes you better than she ever liked him. of course that's what you'll want her to say." "i want her to say that she'll be my wife,--some day." "and when she has agreed to the some day, then you'll begin to press her to agree to your day;--eh, sir? my belief is you'll bring her round. poor girl! why should she break her heart when a decent fellow like you will only be too glad to make her a happy woman?" and in this way the earl talked to eames till the latter almost believed that the difficulties were vanishing from out of his path. "could it be possible," he asked himself, as he went to bed, "that in a fortnight's time lily dale should have accepted him as her future husband?" then he remembered that day on which crosbie, with the two girls, had called at his mother's house, when in the bitterness of his heart, he had sworn to himself that he would always regard crosbie as his enemy. since then the world had gone well with him; and he had no longer any very bitter feeling against crosbie. that matter had been arranged on the platform of the paddington station. he felt that if lily would now accept him he could almost shake hands with crosbie. the episode in his life and in lily's would have been painful; but he would learn to look back upon that without regret, if lily could be taught to believe that a kind fate had at last given her to the better of her two lovers. "i'm afraid she won't bring herself to forget him," he had said to the earl. "she'll only be too happy to forget him," the earl had answered, "if you can induce her to begin the attempt. of course it is very bitter at first;--all the world knew about it; but, poor girl, she is not to be wretched for ever, because of that. do you go about your work with some little confidence, and i doubt not but what you'll have your way. you have everybody in your favour,--the squire, her mother, and all." while such words as these were in his ears how could he fail to hope and to be confident? while he was sitting cozily over his bedroom fire he resolved that it should be as the earl had said. but when he got up on the following morning, and stood shivering as he came out of his bath, he could not feel the same confidence. "of course i shall go to her," he said to himself, "and make a plain story of it. but i know what her answer will be. she will tell me that she cannot forget him." then his feelings towards crosbie were not so friendly as they had been on the previous evening. he did not visit the small house on that, his first day. it had been thought better that he should first meet the squire and bell at guestwick manor, so he postponed his visit to mrs. dale till the next morning. "go when you like," said the earl. "there's the brown cob for you to do what you like with him while you are here." "i'll go and see my mother," said john; "but i won't take the cob to-day. if you'll let me have him to-morrow, i'll ride to allington." so he walked off to guestwick by himself. he knew well every yard of the ground over which he went, remembering every gate and stile and greensward from the time of his early boyhood. and now as he went along through his old haunts, he could not but look back and think of the thoughts which had filled his mind in his earlier wanderings. as i have said before, in some of these pages, no walks taken by the man are so crowded with thought as those taken by the boy. he had been early taught to understand that the world to him would be very hard; that he had nothing to look to but his own exertions, and that those exertions would not, unfortunately, be backed by any great cleverness of his own. i do not know that anybody had told him that he was a fool; but he had come to understand, partly through his own modesty, and partly, no doubt, through the somewhat obtrusive diffidence of his mother, that he was less sharp than other lads. it is probably true that he had come to his sharpness later in life than is the case with many young men. he had not grown on the sunny side of the wall. before that situation in the income-tax office had fallen in his way, very humble modes of life had offered themselves,--or, rather, had not offered themselves for his acceptance. he had endeavoured to become an usher at a commercial seminary, not supposed to be in a very thriving condition; but he had been, luckily, found deficient in his arithmetic. there had been some chance of his going into the leather-warehouse of messrs. basil and pigskin, but those gentlemen had required a premium, and any payment of that kind had been quite out of his mother's power. a country attorney, who had known the family for years, had been humbly solicited, the widow almost kneeling before him with tears, to take johnny by the hand and make a clerk of him; but the attorney had discovered that master johnny eames was not supposed to be sharp, and would have none of him. during those days, those gawky, gainless, un-admired days, in which he had wandered about the lanes of guestwick as his only amusement, and had composed hundreds of rhymes in honour of lily dale which no human eye but his own had ever seen, he had come to regard himself as almost a burden upon the earth. nobody seemed to want him. his own mother was very anxious; but her anxiety seemed to him to indicate a continual desire to get rid of him. for hours upon hours he would fill his mind with castles in the air, dreaming of wonderful successes in the midst of which lily dale always reigned as a queen. he would carry on the same story in his imagination from month to month, almost contenting himself with such ideal happiness. had it not been for the possession of that power, what comfort could there have been to him in his life? there are lads of seventeen who can find happiness in study, who can busy themselves in books and be at their ease among the creations of other minds. these are they who afterwards become well-informed men. it was not so with john eames. he had never been studious. the perusal of a novel was to him in those days a slow affair; and of poetry he read but little, storing up accurately in his memory all that he did read. but he created for himself his own romance, though to the eye a most unromantic youth; and he wandered through the guestwick woods with many thoughts of which they who knew him best knew nothing. all this he thought of now as, with devious steps, he made his way towards his old home;--with very devious steps, for he went backwards through the woods by a narrow path which led right away from the town down to a little water-course, over which stood a wooden foot-bridge with a rail. he stood on the centre of the plank, at a spot which he knew well, and rubbing his hand upon the rail, cleansed it for the space of a few inches of the vegetable growth produced by the spray of the water. there, rudely carved in the wood, was still the word lily. when he cut those letters she had been almost a child. "i wonder whether she will come here with me and let me show it to her," he said to himself. then he took out his knife and cleared the cuttings of the letters, and having done so, leaned upon the rail, and looked down upon the running water. how well things in the world had gone for him! how well! and yet what would it all be if lily would not come to him? how well the world had gone for him! in those days when he stood there carving the girl's name everybody had seemed to regard him as a heavy burden, and he had so regarded himself. now he was envied by many, respected by many, taken by the hand as a friend by those high in the world's esteem. when he had come near the guestwick mansion in his old walks,--always, however, keeping at a great distance lest the grumpy old lord should be down upon him and scold him,--he had little dreamed that he and the grumpy old lord would ever be together on such familiar terms, that he would tell to that lord more of his private thoughts than to any other living being; yet it had come to that. the grumpy old lord had now told him that that gift of money was to be his whether lily dale accepted him or no. "indeed, the thing's done," said the grumpy lord, pulling out from his pocket certain papers, "and you've got to receive the dividends as they become due." then, when johnny had expostulated,--as, indeed, the circumstances had left him no alternative but to expostulate,--the earl had roughly bade him hold his tongue, telling him that he would have to fetch sir raffle's boots directly he got back to london. so the conversation had quickly turned itself away to sir raffle, whom they had both ridiculed with much satisfaction. "if he finds his way down here in september, master johnny, or in any other month either, you may fit my head with a foolscap. not remember, indeed! is it not wonderful that any man should make himself so mean a fool?" all this was thought over again, as eames leaned upon the bridge. he remembered every word, and remembered many other words,--earlier words, spoken years ago, filling him with desolation as to the prospects of his life. it had seemed that his friends had united in prophesying that the outlook into the world for him was hopeless, and that the earning of bread must be for ever beyond his power. and now his lines had fallen to him in very pleasant places, and he was among those whom the world had determined to caress. and yet, what would it all be if lily would not share his happiness? when he had carved that name on the rail, his love for lily had been an idea. it had now become a reality which might probably be full of pain. if it were so,--if such should be the result of his wooing,--would not those old dreamy days have been better than these--the days of his success? it was one o'clock by the time that he reached his mother's house, and he found her and his sister in a troubled and embarrassed state. "of course you know, john," said his mother, as soon as their first embraces were over, "that we are going to dine at the manor this evening?" but he did not know it, neither the earl nor lady julia having said anything on the subject. "of course we are going," said mrs. eames, "and it was so very kind. but i've never been out to such a house for so many years, john, and i do feel in such a twitter. i dined there once, soon after we were married; but i never have been there since that." "it's not the earl i mind, but lady julia," said mary eames. "she's the most good-natured woman in the world," said johnny. "oh, dear; people say she is so cross!" "that's because people don't know her. if i was asked who is the kindest-hearted woman i know in the world, i think i should say lady julia de guest. i think i should." "ah! but then they're so fond of you," said the admiring mother. "you saved his lordship's life,--under providence." "that's all bosh, mother. you ask dr. crofts. he knows them as well as i do." "dr. crofts is going to marry bell dale," said mary; and then the conversation was turned from the subject of lady julia's perfections, and the awe inspired by the earl. "crofts going to marry bell!" exclaimed eames, thinking almost with dismay of the doctor's luck in thus getting himself accepted all at once, while he had been suing with the constancy almost of a jacob. "yes," said mary; "and they say that she has refused her cousin bernard, and that, therefore, the squire is taking away the house from them. you know they're all coming into guestwick." "yes, i know they are. but i don't believe that the squire is taking away the house." "why should they come then? why should they give up such a charming place as that?" "rent-free!" said mrs. eames. "i don't know why they should come away, but i can't believe the squire is turning them out; at any rate not for that reason." the squire was prepared to advocate john's suit, and therefore john was bound to do battle on the squire's behalf. "he is a very stern man," said mrs. eames, "and they say that since that affair of poor lily's he has been more cross than ever with them. as far as i know, it was not lily's fault." "poor lily!" said mary. "i do pity her. if i was her i should hardly know how to show my face; i shouldn't, indeed." "and why shouldn't she show her face?" said john, in an angry tone. "what has she done to be ashamed of? show her face indeed! i cannot understand the spite which one woman will sometimes have to another." "there is no spite, john; and it's very wrong of you to say so," said mary, defending herself. "but it is a very unpleasant thing for a girl to be jilted. all the world knows that she was engaged to him." "and all the world knows--" but he would not proceed to declare that all the world knew also that crosbie had been well thrashed for his baseness. it would not become him to mention that even before his mother and sister. all the world did know it; all the world that cared to know anything of the matter;--except lily dale herself. nobody had ever yet told lily dale of that occurrence at the paddington railway station, and it was well for john that her friends and his had been so discreet. "oh, of course you are her champion," said mary. "and i didn't mean to say anything unkind. indeed i didn't. of course it was a misfortune." "i think it was the best piece of good fortune that could have happened to her, not to marry a d---- scoundrel like--" "oh, john!" exclaimed mrs. eames. "i beg your pardon, mother. but it isn't swearing to call such a man as that a d---- scoundrel." and he particularly emphasized the naughty word, thinking that thereby he would add to its import, and take away from its naughtiness. "but we won't talk any more about him. i hate the man's very name. i hated him the first moment that i saw him, and knew that he was a blackguard from his look. and i don't believe a word about the squire having been cross to them. indeed i know he has been the reverse of cross. so bell is going to marry dr. crofts!" "there is no doubt on earth about that," said mary. "and they say that bernard dale is going abroad with his regiment." then john discussed with his mother his duties as private secretary, and his intention of leaving mrs. roper's house. "i suppose it isn't nice enough for you now, john," said his mother. "it never was very nice, mother, to tell you the truth. there were people there--. but you mustn't think i am turning up my nose because i'm getting grand. i don't want to live any better than we all lived at mrs. roper's; but she took in persons that were not agreeable. there is a mr. and mrs. lupex there." then he described something of their life in burton crescent, but did not say much about amelia roper. amelia roper had not made her appearance in guestwick, as he had once feared that she would do; and therefore it did not need that he should at present make known to his mother that episode in his life. when he got back to the manor house he found that mr. dale and his niece had arrived. they were both sitting with lady julia when he went into the morning room, and lord de guest was standing over the fire talking to them. eames as he came among them felt terribly conscious of his position, as though all there were aware that he had been brought down from london on purpose to make a declaration of love;--as, indeed, all of them were aware of that fact. bell, though no one had told her so in direct words, was as sure of it as the others. "here comes the prince of matadores," said the earl. "no, my lord; you're the prince. i'm only your first follower." though he could contrive that his words should be gay, his looks were sheepish, and when he gave his hand to the squire it was only by a struggle that he could bring himself to look straight into the old man's face. "i'm very glad to see you, john," said the squire, "very glad indeed." "and so am i," said bell. "i have been so happy to hear that you have been promoted at your office, and so is mamma." "i hope mrs. dale is quite well," said he;--"and lily." the word had been pronounced, but it had been done with so manifest an effort that all in the room were conscious of it, and paused as bell prepared her little answer. "my sister has been very ill, you know,--with scarlatina. but she has recovered with wonderful quickness, and is nearly well again now. she will be so glad to see you if you will go over." "yes; i shall certainly go over," said john. "and now shall i show you your room, miss dale?" said lady julia. and so the party was broken up, and the ice had been broken. chapter liii. loquitur hopkins. the squire had been told that his niece bell had accepted dr. crofts, and he had signified a sort of acquiescence in the arrangement, saying that if it were to be so, he had nothing to say against dr. crofts. he spoke this in a melancholy tone of voice, wearing on his face that look of subdued sorrow which was now almost habitual to him. it was to mrs. dale that he spoke on the subject. "i could have wished that it might have been otherwise," he said, "as you are well aware. i had family reasons for wishing that it might be otherwise. but i have nothing to say against it. dr. crofts, as her husband, shall be welcome to my house." mrs. dale, who had expected much worse than this, began to thank him for his kindness, and to say that she also would have preferred to see her daughter married to her cousin. "but in such a matter the decision should be left entirely to the girl. don't you think so?" "i have not a word to say against her," he repeated. then mrs. dale left him, and told her daughter that her uncle's manner of receiving the news had been, for him, very gracious. "you were his favourite, but lily will be so now," said mrs. dale. "i don't care a bit about that;--or, rather, i do care, and think it will be in every way better. but as i, who am the naughty one, will go away, and as lily, who is the good one, will remain with you, doesn't it almost seem a pity that you should be leaving the house?" mrs. dale thought it was almost a pity, but she could not say so now. "you think lily will remain," she said. "yes, mamma; i feel sure she will." "she was always very fond of john eames;--and he is doing so well." "it will be of no use, mamma. she is fond of him,--very fond. in a sort of a way she loves him--so well, that i feel sure she never mentions his name without some inward reference to her old childish thoughts and fancies. if he had come before mr. crosbie it would have all been well with her. but she cannot do it now. her pride would prevent her, even if her heart permitted it. oh! dear; it's very wrong of me to say so, after all that i have said before; but i almost wish you were not going. uncle christopher seems to be less hard than he used to be; and as i was the sinner, and as i am disposed of--" "it is too late now, my dear." "and we should neither of us have the courage to mention it to lily," said bell. on the following morning the squire sent for his sister-in-law, as it was his wont to do when necessity came for any discussion on matters of business. this was perfectly understood between them, and such sending was not taken as indicating any lack of courtesy on the part of mr. dale. "mary," he said, as soon as mrs. dale was seated, "i shall do for bell exactly what i have proposed to do for lily. i had intended more than that once, of course. but then it would all have gone into bernard's pocket; as it is, i shall make no difference between them. they shall each have a hundred a year,--that is, when they marry. you had better tell crofts to speak to me." "mr. dale, he doesn't expect it. he does not expect a penny." "so much the better for him; and, indeed, so much the better for her. he won't make her the less welcome to his home because she brings some assistance to it." "we have never thought of it,--any of us. the offer has come so suddenly that i don't know what i ought to say." "say--nothing. if you choose to make me a return for it--; but i am only doing what i conceive to be my duty, and have no right to ask for a kindness in return." "but what kindness can we show you, mr. dale?" "remain in that house." in saying these last words he spoke as though he were again angry,--as though he were again laying down the law to them,--as though he were telling her of a duty which was due to him and incumbent on her. his voice was as stern and his face as acid as ever. he said that he was asking for a kindness; but surely no man ever asked for kindness in a voice so peremptory. "remain in that house." then he turned himself in towards his table as though he had no more to say. but mrs. dale was beginning, now at last, to understand something of his mind and real character. he could be affectionate and forbearing in his giving; but when asking, he could not be otherwise than stern. indeed, he could not ask; he could only demand. "we have done so much now," mrs. dale began to plead. "well, well, well. i did not mean to speak about that. things are unpacked easier than they are packed. but, however-- never mind. bell is to go with me this afternoon to guestwick manor. let her be up here at two. grimes can bring her box round, i suppose." "oh, yes: of course." "and don't be talking to her about money before she starts. i had rather you didn't;--you understand. but when you see crofts, tell him to come to me. indeed, he'd better come at once, if this thing is to go on quickly." it may easily be understood that mrs. dale would disobey the injunctions contained in the squire's last words. it was quite out of the question that she should return to her daughters and not tell them the result of her morning's interview with their uncle. a hundred a year in the doctor's modest household would make all the difference between plenty and want, between modest plenty and endurable want. of course she told them, giving bell to understand that she must dissemble so far as to pretend ignorance of the affair. "i shall thank him at once," said bell; "and tell him that i did not at all expect it, but am not too proud to accept it." "pray don't, my dear; not just now. i am breaking a sort of promise in telling you at all,--only i could not keep it to myself. and he has so many things to worry him! though he says nothing about it now, he has half broken his heart about you and bernard." then, too, mrs. dale told the girls what request the squire had just made, and the manner in which he had made it. "the tone of his voice as he spoke brought tears into my eyes. i almost wish we had not done anything." "but, mamma," said lily, "what difference can it make to him? you know that our presence near him was always a trouble to him. he never really wanted us. he liked to have bell there when he thought that bell would marry his pet." "don't be unkind, lily." "i don't mean to be unkind. why shouldn't bernard be his pet? i love bernard dearly, and always thought it the best point in uncle christopher that he was so fond of him. i knew, you know, that it was no use. of course i knew it, as i understood all about--somebody else. but bernard is his pet." "he's fond of you all, in his own way," said mrs. dale. "but is he fond of you?--that's the question," said lily. "we could have forgiven him anything done to us, and have put up with any words he might have spoken to us, because he regards us as children. his giving a hundred a year to bell won't make you comfortable in this house if he still domineers over you. if a neighbour be neighbourly, near neighbourhood is very nice. but uncle christopher has not been neighbourly. he has wanted to be more than an uncle to us, on condition that he might be less than a brother to you. bell and i have always felt that his regard on such terms was not worth having." "i almost feel that we have been wrong," said mrs. dale; "but in truth i never thought that the matter would be to him one of so much moment." when bell had gone, mrs. dale and lily were not disposed to continue with much energy the occupation on which they had all been employed for some days past. there had been life and excitement in the work when they had first commenced their packing, but now it was grown wearisome, dull, and distasteful. indeed so much of it was done that but little was left to employ them, except those final strappings and fastenings, and that last collection of odds and ends which could not be accomplished till they were absolutely on the point of starting. the squire had said that unpacking would be easier than packing, and mrs. dale, as she wandered about among the hampers and cases, began to consider whether the task of restoring all the things to their old places would be very disagreeable. she said nothing of this to lily, and lily herself, whatever might be her thoughts, made no such suggestion to her mother. "i think hopkins will miss us more than any one else," she said. "hopkins will have no one to scold." just at that moment hopkins appeared at the parlour window, and signified his desire for a conference. "you must come round," said lily. "it's too cold for the window to be opened. i always like to get him into the house, because he feels himself a little abashed by the chairs and tables; or, perhaps, it is the carpet that is too much for him. out on the gravel-walks he is such a terrible tyrant, and in the greenhouse he almost tramples upon one!" hopkins, when he did appear at the parlour door, seemed by his manner to justify lily's discretion. he was not at all masterful in his tone or bearing, and seemed to pay to the chairs and tables all the deference which they could have expected. "so you be going in earnest, ma'am," he said, looking down at mrs. dale's feet. as mrs. dale did not answer him at once, lily spoke:--"yes, hopkins, we are going in a very few days, now. we shall see you sometimes, i hope, over at guestwick." "humph!" said hopkins. "so you be really going! i didn't think it'd ever come to that, miss; i didn't indeed,--and no more it oughtn't; but of course it isn't for me to speak." "people must change their residence sometimes, you know," said mrs. dale, using the same argument by which eames had endeavoured to excuse his departure to mrs. roper. "well, ma'am; it ain't for me to say anything. but this i will say, i've lived here about t' squire's place, man and boy, jist all my life, seeing i was born here, as you knows, mrs. dale; and of all the bad things i ever see come about the place, this is a sight the worst." "oh, hopkins!" "the worst of all, ma'am; the worst of all! it'll just kill t' squire! there's ne'ery doubt in the world about that. it'll be the very death of t' old man." "that's nonsense, hopkins," said lily. "very well, miss. i don't say but what it is nonsense; only you'll see. there's mr. bernard,--he's gone away; and by all accounts he never did care very much for the place. they all say he's a-going to the hingies. and miss bell is going to be married,--which is all proper, in course; why shouldn't she? and why shouldn't you, too, miss lily?" "perhaps i shall, some day, hopkins." "there's no day like the present, miss lily. and i do say this, that the man as pitched into him would be the man for my money." this, which hopkins spoke in the excitement of the moment, was perfectly unintelligible to lily, and mrs. dale, who shuddered as she heard him, said not a word to call for any explanation. "but," continued hopkins, "that's all as it may be, miss lily, and you be in the hands of providence,--as is others." "exactly so, hopkins." "but why should your mamma be all for going away? she ain't going to marry no one. here's the house, and there's she, and there's t' squire; and why should she be for going away? so much going away all at once can't be for any good. it's just a breaking up of everything, as though nothing wasn't good enough for nobody. i never went away, and i can't abide it." "well, hopkins; it's settled now," said mrs. dale, "and i'm afraid it can't be unsettled." "settled;--well. tell me this: do you expect, mrs. dale, that he's to live there all alone by hisself without any one to say a cross word to,--unless it be me or dingles; for jolliffe's worse than nobody, he's so mortial cross hisself. of course he can't stand it. if you goes away, mrs. dale, mister bernard, he'll be squire in less than twelve months. he'll come back from the hingies, then, i suppose?" "i don't think my brother-in-law will take it in that way, hopkins." "ah, ma'am, you don't know him,--not as i knows him;--all the ins and outs and crinks and crannies of him. i knows him as i does the old apple-trees that i've been a-handling for forty year. there's a deal of bad wood about them old cankered trees, and some folk say they ain't worth the ground they stand on; but i know where the sap runs, and when the fruit-blossom shows itself i know where the fruit will be the sweetest. it don't take much to kill one of them old trees,--but there's life in 'm yet if they be well handled." "i'm sure i hope my brother's life may be long spared to him," said mrs. dale. "then don't be taking yourself away, ma'am, into them gashly lodgings at guestwick. i says they are gashly for the likes of a dale. it is not for me to speak, ma'am, of course. and i only came up now just to know what things you'd like with you out of the greenhouse." "oh, nothing, hopkins, thank you," said mrs. dale. "he told me to put up for you the best i could pick, and i means to do it;" and hopkins, as he spoke, indicated by a motion of his head that he was making reference to the squire. "we shan't have any place for them," said lily. "i must send a few, miss, just to cheer you up a bit. i fear you'll be very dolesome there. and the doctor,--he ain't got what you can call a regular garden, but there is a bit of a place behind." "but we wouldn't rob the dear old place," said lily. "for the matter of that what does it signify? t' squire'll be that wretched he'll turn sheep in here to destroy the place, or he'll have the garden ploughed. you see if he don't. as for the place, the place is clean done for, if you leave it. you don't suppose he'll go and let the small house to strangers. t' squire ain't one of that sort any ways." "ah me!" exclaimed mrs. dale, as soon as hopkins had taken himself off. "what is it, mamma? he's a dear old man, but surely what he says cannot make you really unhappy." "it is so hard to know what one ought to do. i did not mean to be selfish, but it seems to me as though i were doing the most selfish thing in the world." "nay, mamma; it has been anything but selfish. besides, it is we that have done it; not you." "do you know, lily, that i also have that feeling as to breaking up one's old mode of life of which hopkins spoke. i thought that i should be glad to escape from this place, but now that the time has come i dread it." "do you mean that you repent?" mrs. dale did not answer her daughter at once, fearing to commit herself by words which could not be retracted. but at last she said, "yes, lily; i think i do repent. i think that it has not been well done." "then let it be undone," said lily. the dinner-party at guestwick manor on that day was not very bright, and yet the earl had done all in his power to make his guests happy. but gaiety did not come naturally to his house, which, as will have been seen, was an abode very unlike in its nature to that of the other earl at courcy castle. lady de courcy at any rate understood how to receive and entertain a house full of people, though the practice of doing so might give rise to difficult questions in the privacy of her domestic relations. lady julia did not understand it; but then lady julia was never called upon to answer for the expense of extra servants, nor was she asked about twice a week who the ---- was to pay the wine-merchant's bill? as regards lord de guest and the lady julia themselves, i think they had the best of it; but i am bound to admit, with reference to chance guests, that the house was dull. the people who were now gathered at the earl's table could hardly have been expected to be very sprightly when in company with each other. the squire was not a man much given to general society, and was unused to amuse a table full of people. on the present occasion he sat next to lady julia, and from time to time muttered a few words to her about the state of the country. mrs. eames was terribly afraid of everybody there, and especially of the earl, next to whom she sat, and whom she continually called "my lord," showing by her voice as she did so that she was almost alarmed by the sound of her own voice. mr. and mrs. boyce were there, the parson sitting on the other side of lady julia, and the parson's wife on the other side of the earl. mrs. boyce was very studious to show that she was quite at home, and talked perhaps more than any one else; but in doing so she bored the earl most exquisitely, so that he told john eames the next morning that she was worse than the bull. the parson ate his dinner, but said little or nothing between the two graces. he was a heavy, sensible, slow man, who knew himself and his own powers. "uncommon good stewed beef," he said, as he went home; "why can't we have our beef stewed like that?" "because we don't pay our cook sixty pounds a year," said mrs. boyce. "a woman with sixteen pounds can stew beef as well as a woman with sixty," said he; "she only wants looking after." the earl himself was possessed of a sort of gaiety. there was about him a lightness of spirit which often made him an agreeable companion to one single person. john eames conceived him to be the most sprightly old man of his day,--an old man with the fun and frolic almost of a boy. but this spirit, though it would show itself before john eames, was not up to the entertainment of john eames's mother and sister, together with the squire, the parson, and the parson's wife of allington. so that the earl was overweighted and did not shine on this occasion at his own dinner-table. dr. crofts, who had also been invited, and who had secured the place which was now peculiarly his own, next to bell dale, was no doubt happy enough; as, let us hope, was the young lady also; but they added very little to the general hilarity of the company. john eames was seated between his own sister and the parson, and did not at all enjoy his position. he had a full view of the doctor's felicity, as the happy pair sat opposite to him, and conceived himself to be hardly treated by lily's absence. the party was certainly very dull, as were all such dinners at guestwick manor. there are houses, which, in their every-day course, are not conducted by any means in a sad or unsatisfactory manner,--in which life, as a rule, runs along merrily enough; but which cannot give a dinner-party; or, i might rather say, should never allow themselves to be allured into the attempt. the owners of such houses are generally themselves quite aware of the fact, and dread the dinner which they resolved to give quite as much as it is dreaded by their friends. they know that they prepare for their guests an evening of misery, and for themselves certain long hours of purgatory which are hardly to be endured. but they will do it. why that long table, and all those supernumerary glasses and knives and forks, if they are never to be used? that argument produces all this misery; that and others cognate to it. on the present occasion, no doubt, there were excuses to be made. the squire and his niece had been invited on special cause, and their presence would have been well enough. the doctor added in would have done no harm. it was good-natured, too, that invitation given to mrs. eames and her daughter. the error lay in the parson and his wife. there was no necessity for their being there, nor had they any ground on which to stand, except the party-giving ground. mr. and mrs. boyce made the dinner-party, and destroyed the social circle. lady julia knew that she had been wrong as soon as she had sent out the note. nothing was said on that evening which has any bearing on our story. nothing, indeed, was said which had any bearing on anything. the earl's professed object had been to bring the squire and young eames together; but people are never brought together on such melancholy occasions. though they sip their port in close contiguity, they are poles asunder in their minds and feelings. when the guestwick fly came for mrs. eames, and the parson's pony phaeton came for him and mrs. boyce, a great relief was felt; but the misery of those who were left had gone too far to allow of any reaction on that evening. the squire yawned, and the earl yawned, and then there was an end of it for that night. chapter liv. the second visit to the guestwick bridge. bell had declared that her sister would be very happy to see john eames if he would go over to allington, and he had replied that of course he would go there. so much having been, as it were, settled, he was able to speak of his visit as a matter of course at the breakfast-table, on the morning after the earl's dinner-party. "i must get you to come round with me, dale, and see what i am doing to the land," the earl said. and then he proposed to order saddle-horses. but the squire preferred walking, and in this way they were disposed of soon after breakfast. john had it in his mind to get bell to himself for half an hour, and hold a conference with her; but it either happened that lady julia was too keen in her duties as a hostess, or else, as was more possible, bell avoided the meeting. no opportunity for such an interview offered itself, though he hung about the drawing-room all the morning. "you had better wait for luncheon, now," lady julia said to him about twelve. but this he declined; and taking himself away hid himself about the place for the next hour and a half. during this time he considered much whether it would be better for him to ride or walk. if she should give him any hope, he could ride back triumphant as a field-marshal. then the horse would be delightful to him. but if she should give him no hope,--if it should be his destiny to be rejected utterly on that morning,--then the horse would be terribly in the way of his sorrow. under such circumstances what could he do but roam wide about across the fields, resting when he might choose to rest, and running when it might suit him to run. "and she is not like other girls," he thought to himself. "she won't care for my boots being dirty." so at last he elected to walk. "stand up to her boldly, man," the earl had said to him. "by george, what is there to be afraid of? it's my belief they'll give most to those who ask for most. there's nothing sets 'em against a man like being sheepish." how the earl knew so much, seeing that he had not himself given signs of any success in that walk of life, i am not prepared to say. but eames took his advice as being in itself good, and resolved to act upon it. "not that any resolution will be of any use," he said to himself, as he walked along. "when the moment comes i know that i shall tremble before her, and i know that she'll see it; but i don't think it will make any difference in her." he had last seen her on the lawn behind the small house, just at that time when her passion for crosbie was at the strongest. eames had gone thither impelled by a foolish desire to declare to her his hopeless love, and she had answered him by telling him that she loved mr. crosbie better than all the world besides. of course she had done so, at that time; but, nevertheless, her manner of telling him had seemed to him to be cruel. and he also had been cruel. he had told her that he hated crosbie,--calling him "that man," and assuring her that no earthly consideration should induce him to go into "that man's house." then he had walked away moodily wishing him all manner of evil. was it not singular that all the evil things which he, in his mind, had meditated for the man, had fallen upon him. crosbie had lost his love! he had so proved himself to be a villain that his name might not be so much as mentioned! he had been ignominiously thrashed! but what good would all this be if his image were still dear to lily's heart? "i told her that i loved her then," he said to himself, "though i had no right to do so. at any rate i have a right to tell her now." when he reached allington he did not go in through the village and up to the front of the small house by the cross street, but turned by the church gate and passed over the squire's terrace, and by the end of the great house through the garden. here he encountered hopkins. "why, if that b'aint mr. eames!" said the gardener. "mr. john, may i make so bold!" and hopkins held out a very dirty hand, which eames of course took, unconscious of the cause of this new affection. "i'm just going to call at the small house, and i thought i'd come this way." "to be sure; this way, or that way, or any way, who's so welcome, mr. john? i envies you; i envies you more than i envies any man. if i could a got him by the scuff of the neck, i'd a treated him jist like any wermin;--i would, indeed! he was wermin! i ollays said it. i hated him ollays; i did indeed, mr. john, from the first moment when he used to be nigging away at them foutry balls, knocking them in among the rhododendrons, as though there weren't no flower blossoms for next year. he never looked at one as though one were a christian; did he, mr. john?" "i wasn't very fond of him myself, hopkins." "of course you weren't very fond of him. who was?--only she, poor young lady. she'll be better now, mr. john, a deal better. he wasn't a wholesome lover,--not like you are. tell me, mr. john, did you give it him well when you got him? i heard you did;--two black eyes, and all his face one mash of gore!" and hopkins, who was by no means a young man, stiffly put himself into a fighting attitude. eames passed on over the little bridge, which seemed to be in a state of fast decay, unattended to by any friendly carpenter, now that the days of its use were so nearly at an end; and on into the garden, lingering on the spot where he had last said farewell to lily. he looked about as though he expected still to find her there; but there was no one to be seen in the garden, and no sound to be heard. as every step brought him nearer to her whom he was seeking, he became more and more conscious of the hopelessness of his errand. him she had never loved, and why should he venture to hope that she would love him now? he would have turned back had he not been aware that his promise to others required that he should persevere. he had said that he would do this thing, and he would be as good as his word. but he hardly ventured to hope that he might be successful. in this frame of mind he slowly made his way up across the lawn. "my dear, there is john eames," said mrs. dale, who had first seen him from the parlour window. "don't go, mamma." "i don't know; perhaps it will be better that i should." "no, mamma, no; what good can it do? it can do no good. i like him as well as i can like any one. i love him dearly. but it can do no good. let him come in here, and be very kind to him; but do not go away and leave us. of course i knew he would come, and i shall be very glad to see him." then mrs. dale went round to the other room, and admitted her visitor through the window of the drawing-room. "we are in terrible confusion, john, are we not?" "and so you are really going to live in guestwick?" "well, it looks like it, does it not? but, to tell you a secret,--only it must be a secret; you must not mention it at guestwick manor; even bell does not know;--we have half made up our minds to unpack all our things and stay where we are." eames was so intent on his own purpose, and so fully occupied with the difficulty of the task before him, that he could hardly receive mrs. dale's tidings with all the interest which they deserved. "unpack them all again," he said. "that will be very troublesome. is lily with you, mrs. dale?" "yes, she is in the parlour. come and see her." so he followed mrs. dale through the hall, and found himself in the presence of his love. "how do you do, john?" "how do you do, lily?" we all know the way in which such meetings are commenced. each longed to be tender and affectionate to the other,--each in a different way; but neither knew how to throw any tenderness into this first greeting. "so you're staying at the manor house," said lily. "yes; i'm staying there. your uncle and bell came yesterday afternoon." "have you heard about bell?" said mrs. dale. "oh, yes; mary told me. i'm so glad of it. i always liked dr. crofts very much. i have not congratulated her, because i didn't know whether it was a secret. but crofts was there last night, and if it is a secret he didn't seem to be very careful about keeping it." "it is no secret," said mrs. dale. "i don't know that i am fond of such secrets." but as she said this, she thought of crosbie's engagement, which had been told to every one, and of its consequences. "is it to be soon?" he asked. "well, yes; we think so. of course nothing is settled." "it was such fun," said lily. "james, who took, at any rate, a year or two to make his proposal, wanted to be married the next day afterwards." "no, lily; not quite that." "well, mamma, it was very nearly that. he thought it could all be done this week. it has made us so happy, john! i don't know anybody i should so much like for a brother. i'm very glad you like him;--very glad. i hope you'll be friends always." there was some little tenderness in this,--as john acknowledged to himself. "i'm sure we shall,--if he likes it. that is, if i ever happen to see him. i'll do anything for him i can if he ever comes up to london. wouldn't it be a good thing, mrs. dale, if he settled himself in london?" "no, john; it would be a very bad thing. why should he wish to rob me of my daughter?" mrs. dale was speaking of her eldest daughter; but the very allusion to any such robbery covered john eames's face with a blush, made him hot up to the roots of his hair, and for the moment silenced him. "you think he would have a better career in london?" said lily, speaking under the influence of her superior presence of mind. she had certainly shown defective judgment in desiring her mother not to leave them alone; and of this mrs. dale soon felt herself aware. the thing had to be done, and no little precautionary measure, such as this of mrs. dale's enforced presence, would prevent it. of this mrs. dale was well aware; and she felt, moreover, that john was entitled to an opportunity of pleading his own cause. it might be that such opportunity would avail him nothing, but not the less should he have it of right, seeing that he desired it. but yet mrs. dale did not dare to get up and leave the room. lily had asked her not to do so, and at the present period of their lives all lily's requests were sacred. they continued for some time to talk of crofts and his marriage; and when that subject was finished, they discussed their own probable,--or, as it seemed now, improbable,--removal to guestwick. "it's going too far, mamma," said lily, "to say that you think we shall not go. it was only last night that you suggested it. the truth is, john, that hopkins came in and discoursed with the most wonderful eloquence. nobody dared to oppose hopkins. he made us almost cry; he was so pathetic." "he has just been talking to me, too," said john, "as i came through the squire's garden." "and what has he been saying to you?" said mrs. dale. "oh, i don't know; not much." john, however, remembered well, at this moment, all that the gardener had said to him. did she know of that encounter between him and crosbie? and if she did know of it, in what light did she regard it? they had sat thus for an hour together, and eames was not as yet an inch nearer to his object. he had sworn to himself that he would not leave the small house without asking lily to be his wife. it seemed to him as though he would be guilty of falsehood towards the earl if he did so. lord de guest had opened his house to him, and had asked all the dales there, and had offered himself up as a sacrifice at the cruel shrine of a serious dinner-party, to say nothing of that easier and lighter sacrifice which he had made in a pecuniary point of view, in order that this thing might be done. under such circumstances eames was too honest a man not to do it, let the difficulties in his way be what they might. he had sat there for an hour, and mrs. dale still remained with her daughter. should he get up boldly and ask lily to put on her bonnet and come out into the garden? as the thought struck him, he rose and grasped at his hat. "i am going to walk back to guestwick," said he. "it was very good of you to come so far to see us." "i was always fond of walking," he said. "the earl wanted me to ride, but i prefer being on foot when i know the country, as i do here." "have a glass of wine before you go." "oh, dear, no. i think i'll go back through the squire's fields, and out on the road at the white gate. the path is quite dry now." "i dare say it is," said mrs. dale. "lily, i wonder whether you would come as far as that with me." as the request was made mrs. dale looked at her daughter almost beseechingly. "do, pray do," said he; "it is a beautiful day for walking." the path proposed lay right across the field into which lily had taken crosbie when she made her offer to let him off from his engagement. could it be possible that she should ever walk there again with another lover? "no, john," she said; "not to-day, i think. i am almost tired, and i had rather not go out." "it would do you good," said mrs. dale. "i don't want to be done good to, mamma. besides, i should have to come back by myself." "i'll come back with you," said johnny. "oh, yes; and then i should have to go again with you. but, john, really i don't wish to walk to-day." whereupon john eames again put down his hat. "lily," said he; and then he stopped. mrs. dale walked away to the window, turning her back upon her daughter and visitor. "lily, i have come over here on purpose to speak to you. indeed, i have come down from london only that i might see you." "have you, john?" "yes, i have. you know well all that i have got to tell you. i loved you before he ever saw you; and now that he has gone, i love you better than i ever did. dear lily!" and he put out his hand to her. "no, john; no," she answered. "must it be always no?" "always no to that. how can it be otherwise? you would not have me marry you while i love another!" "but he is gone. he has taken another wife." "i cannot change myself because he is changed. if you are kind to me you will let that be enough." "but you are so unkind to me!" "no, no; oh, i would wish to be so kind to you! john, here; take my hand. it is the hand of a friend who loves you, and will always love you. dear john, i will do anything,--everything for you but that." "there is only one thing," said he, still holding her by the hand, but with his face turned from her. "nay; do not say so. are you worse off than i am? i could not have that one thing, and i was nearer to my heart's longings than you have ever been. i cannot have that one thing; but i know that there are other things, and i will not allow myself to be broken-hearted." "you are stronger than i am," he said. "not stronger, but more certain. make yourself as sure as i am, and you, too, will be strong. is it not so, mamma?" "i wish it could be otherwise;--i wish it could be otherwise! if you can give him any hope--" "mamma!" "tell me that i may come again,--in a year," he pleaded. "i cannot tell you so. you may not come again,--not in this way. do you remember what i told you before, in the garden; that i loved him better than all the world besides? it is still the same. i still love him better than all the world. how, then, can i give you any hope?" "but it will not be so for ever, lily." "for ever! why should he not be mine as well as hers when that for ever comes? john, if you understand what it is to love, you will say nothing more of it. i have spoken to you more openly about this than i have ever done to anybody, even to mamma, because i have wished to make you understand my feelings. i should be disgraced in my own eyes if i admitted the love of another man, after--after--. it is to me almost as though i had married him. i am not blaming him, remember. these things are different with a man." she had not dropped his hand, and as she made her last speech was sitting in her old chair with her eyes fixed upon the ground. she spoke in a low voice, slowly, almost with difficulty; but still the words came very clearly, with a clear, distinct voice which caused them to be remembered with accuracy, both by eames and mrs. dale. to him it seemed to be impossible that he should continue his suit after such a declaration. to mrs. dale they were terrible words, speaking of a perpetual widowhood, and telling of an amount of suffering greater even than that which she had anticipated. it was true that lily had never said so much to her as she had now said to john eames, or had attempted to make so clear an exposition of her own feelings. "i should be disgraced in my own eyes if i admitted the love of another man!" they were terrible words, but very easy to be understood. mrs. dale had felt, from the first, that eames was coming too soon, that the earl and the squire together were making an effort to cure the wound too quickly after its infliction; that time should have been given to her girl to recover. but now the attempt had been made, and words had been forced from lily's lips, the speaking of which would never be forgotten by herself. "i knew that it would be so," said john. "ah, yes; you know it, because your heart understands my heart. and you will not be angry with me, and say naughty, cruel words, as you did once before. we will think of each other, john, and pray for each other; and will always love one another. when we do meet let us be glad to see each other. no other friend shall ever be dearer to me than you are. you are so true and honest! when you marry i will tell your wife what an infinite blessing god has given her." "you shall never do that." "yes, i will. i understand what you mean; but yet i will." "good-by, mrs. dale," he said. "good-by, john. if it could have been otherwise with her, you should have had all my best wishes in the matter. i would have loved you dearly as my son; and i will love you now." then she put up her lips and kissed his face. "and so will i love you," said lily, giving him her hand again. he looked longingly into her face as though he had thought it possible that she also might kiss him: then he pressed her hand to his lips, and without speaking any further farewell, took up his hat and left the room. "poor fellow!" said mrs. dale. "they should not have let him come," said lily. "but they don't understand. they think that i have lost a toy, and they mean to be good-natured, and to give me another." very shortly after that lily went away by herself, and sat alone for hours; and when she joined her mother again at tea-time, nothing further was said of john eames's visit. he made his way out by the front door, and through the churchyard, and in this way on to the field through which he had asked lily to walk with him. he hardly began to think of what had passed till he had left the squire's house behind him. as he made his way through the tombstones he paused and read one, as though it interested him. he stood a moment under the tower looking up at the clock, and then pulled out his own watch, as though to verify the one by the other. he made, unconsciously, a struggle to drive away from his thoughts the facts of the late scene, and for some five or ten minutes he succeeded. he said to himself a word or two about sir raffle and his letters, and laughed inwardly as he remembered the figure of rafferty bringing in the knight's shoes. he had gone some half mile upon his way before he ventured to stand still and tell himself that he had failed in the great object of his life. yes; he had failed: and he acknowledged to himself, with bitter reproaches, that he had failed, now and for ever. he told himself that he had obtruded upon her in her sorrow with an unmannerly love, and rebuked himself as having been not only foolish but ungenerous. his friend the earl had been wont, in his waggish way, to call him the conquering hero, and had so talked him out of his common sense as to have made him almost think that he would be successful in his suit. now, as he told himself that any such success must have been impossible, he almost hated the earl for having brought him to this condition. a conquering hero, indeed! how should he manage to sneak back among them all at the manor house, crestfallen and abject in his misery? everybody knew the errand on which he had gone, and everybody must know of his failure. how could he have been such a fool as to undertake such a task under the eyes of so many lookers-on? was it not the case that he had so fondly expected success, as to think only of his triumph in returning, and not of his more probable disgrace? he had allowed others to make a fool of him, and had so made a fool of himself that now all hope and happiness were over for him. how could he escape at once out of the country,--back to london? how could he get away without saying a word further to any one? that was the thought that at first occupied his mind. he crossed the road at the end of the squire's property, where the parish of allington divides itself from that of abbot's guest in which the earl's house stands, and made his way back along the copse which skirted the field in which they had encountered the bull, into the high woods which were at the back of the park. ah, yes; it had been well for him that he had not come out on horseback. that ride home along the high road and up to the manor house stables would, under his present circumstances, have been almost impossible to him. as it was, he did not think it possible that he should return to his place in the earl's house. how could he pretend to maintain his ordinary demeanour under the eyes of those two old men? it would be better for him to get home to his mother,--to send a message from thence to the manor, and then to escape back to london. so thinking, but with no resolution made, he went on through the woods, and down from the hill back towards the town till he again came to the little bridge over the brook. there he stopped and stood a while with his broad hand spread over the letters which he had cut in those early days, so as to hide them from his sight. "what an ass i have been,--always and ever!" he said to himself. it was not only of his late disappointment that he was thinking, but of his whole past life. he was conscious of his hobbledehoyhood,--of that backwardness on his part in assuming manhood which had rendered him incapable of making himself acceptable to lily before she had fallen into the clutches of crosbie. as he thought of this he declared to himself that if he could meet crosbie again he would again thrash him,--that he would so belabour him as to send him out of the world, if such sending might possibly be done by fair beating, regardless whether he himself might be called upon to follow him. was it not hard that for the two of them,--for lily and for him also,--there should be such punishment because of the insincerity of that man? when he had thus stood upon the bridge for some quarter of an hour, he took out his knife, and, with deep, rough gashes in the wood, cut out lily's name from the rail. he had hardly finished, and was still looking at the chips as they were being carried away by the stream, when a gentle step came close up to him, and turning round, he saw that lady julia was on the bridge. she was close to him, and had already seen his handiwork. "has she offended you, john?" she said. "oh, lady julia!" "has she offended you?" "she has refused me, and it is all over." [illustration: "she has refused me, and it is all over."] "it may be that she has refused you, and that yet it need not be all over. i am sorry that you have cut out the name, john. do you mean to cut it out from your heart?" "never. i would if i could, but i never shall." "keep to it as to a great treasure. it will be a joy to you in after years, and not a sorrow. to have loved truly, even though you shall have loved in vain, will be a consolation when you are as old as i am. it is something to have had a heart." "i don't know. i wish that i had none." "and, john;--i can understand her feeling now; and indeed, i thought all through that you were asking her too soon; but the time may yet come when she will think better of your wishes." "no, no; never. i begin to know her now." "if you can be constant in your love you may win her yet. remember how young she is; and how young you both are. come again in two years' time, and then, when you have won her, you shall tell me that i have been a good old woman to you both." "i shall never win her, lady julia." as he spoke these last words the tears were running down his cheeks, and he was weeping openly in presence of his companion. it was well for him that she had come upon him in his sorrow. when he once knew that she had seen his tears, he could pour out to her the whole story of his grief; and as he did so she led him back quietly to the house. chapter lv. not very fie fie after all. it will perhaps be remembered that terrible things had been foretold as about to happen between the hartletop and omnium families. lady dumbello had smiled whenever mr. plantagenet palliser had spoken to her. mr. palliser had confessed to himself that politics were not enough for him, and that love was necessary to make up the full complement of his happiness. lord dumbello had frowned latterly when his eyes fell on the tall figure of the duke's heir; and the duke himself,--that potentate, generally so mighty in his silence,--the duke himself had spoken. lady de courcy and lady clandidlem were, both of them, absolutely certain that the thing had been fully arranged. i am, therefore, perfectly justified in stating that the world was talking about the loves,--the illicit loves,--of mr. palliser and lady dumbello. and the talking of the world found its way down to that respectable country parsonage in which lady dumbello had been born, and from which she had been taken away to those noble halls which she now graced by her presence. the talking of the world was heard at plumstead episcopi, where still lived archdeacon grantly, the lady's father; and was heard also at the deanery of barchester, where lived the lady's aunt and grandfather. by whose ill-mannered tongue the rumour was spread in these ecclesiastical regions it boots not now to tell. but it may be remembered that courcy castle was not far from barchester, and that lady de courcy was not given to hide her lights under a bushel. it was a terrible rumour. to what mother must not such a rumour respecting her daughter be very terrible? in no mother's ears could it have sounded more frightfully than it did in those of mrs. grantly. lady dumbello, the daughter, might be altogether worldly; but mrs. grantly had never been more than half worldly. in one moiety of her character, her habits, and her desires, she had been wedded to things good in themselves,--to religion, to charity, and to honest-hearted uprightness. it is true that the circumstances of her life had induced her to serve both god and mammon, and that, therefore, she had gloried greatly in the marriage of her daughter with the heir of a marquis. she had revelled in the aristocratic elevation of her child, though she continued to dispense books and catechisms with her own hands to the children of the labourers of plumstead episcopi. when griselda first became lady dumbello the mother feared somewhat lest her child should find herself unequal to the exigencies of her new position. but the child had proved herself more than equal to them, and had mounted up to a dizzy height of success, which brought to the mother great glory and great fear also. she delighted to think that her griselda was great even among the daughters of marquises; but she trembled as she reflected how deadly would be the fall from such a height--should there ever be a fall! but she had never dreamed of such a fall as this! she would have said,--indeed, she often had said,--to the archdeacon that griselda's religious principles were too firmly fixed to be moved by outward worldly matters; signifying, it may be, her conviction that that teaching of plumstead episcopi had so fastened her daughter into a groove, that all the future teaching of hartlebury would not suffice to undo the fastenings. when she had thus boasted no such idea as that of her daughter running from her husband's house had ever come upon her; but she had alluded to vices of a nature kindred to that vice,--to vices into which other aristocratic ladies sometimes fell, who had been less firmly grooved; and her boastings had amounted to this,--that she herself had so successfully served god and mammon together, that her child might go forth and enjoy all worldly things without risk of damage to things heavenly. then came upon her this rumour. the archdeacon told her in a hoarse whisper that he had been recommended to look to it, that it was current through the world that griselda was about to leave her husband. "nothing on earth shall make me believe it," said mrs. grantly. but she sat alone in her drawing-room afterwards and trembled. then came her sister, mrs. arabin, the dean's wife, over to the parsonage, and in half-hidden words told the same story. she had heard it from mrs. proudie, the bishop's wife. "that woman is as false as the father of falsehoods," said mrs. grantly. but she trembled the more; and as she prepared her parish work, could think of nothing but her child. what would be all her life to come, what would have been all that was past of her life, if this thing should happen to her? she would not believe it; but yet she trembled the more as she thought of her daughter's exaltation, and remembered that such things had been done in that world to which griselda now belonged. ah! would it not have been better for them if they had not raised their heads so high! and she walked out alone among the tombs of the neighbouring churchyard, and stood over the grave in which had been laid the body of her other daughter. could be it that the fate of that one had been the happier. very few words were spoken on the subject between her and the archdeacon, and yet it seemed agreed among them that something should be done. he went up to london, and saw his daughter,--not daring, however, to mention such a subject. lord dumbello was cross with him, and very uncommunicative. indeed both the archdeacon and mrs. grantly had found that their daughter's house was not comfortable to them, and as they were sufficiently proud among their own class they had not cared to press themselves on the hospitality of their son-in-law. but he had been able to perceive that all was not right in the house in carlton gardens. lord dumbello was not gracious with his wife, and there was something in the silence, rather than in the speech, of men, which seemed to justify the report which had reached him. "he is there oftener than he should be," said the archdeacon. "and i am sure of this, at least, that dumbello does not like it." "i will write to her," said mrs. grantly at last. "i am still her mother;--i will write to her. it may be that she does not know what people say of her." and mrs. grantly did write. plumstead, april, --. dearest griselda, it seems sometimes that you have been moved so far away from me that i have hardly a right to concern myself more in the affairs of your daily life, and i know that it is impossible that you should refer to me for advice or sympathy, as you would have done had you married some gentleman of our own standing. but i am quite sure that my child does not forget her mother, or fail to look back upon her mother's love; and that she will allow me to speak to her if she be in trouble, as i would to any other child whom i had loved and cherished. i pray god that i may be wrong in supposing that such trouble is near you. if i am so you will forgive me my solicitude. rumours have reached us from more than one quarter that--oh! griselda, i hardly know in what words to conceal and yet to declare that which i have to write. they say that you are intimate with mr. palliser, the nephew of the duke, and that your husband is much offended. perhaps i had better tell you all, openly, cautioning you not to suppose that i have believed it. they say that it is thought that you are going to put yourself under mr. palliser's protection. my dearest child, i think you can imagine with what an agony i write these words,--with what terrible grief i must have been oppressed before i could have allowed myself to entertain the thoughts which have produced them. such things are said openly in barchester, and your father, who has been in town and has seen you, feels himself unable to tell me that my mind may be at rest. i will not say to you a word as to the injury in a worldly point of view which would come to you from any rupture with your husband. i believe that you can see what would be the effect of so terrible a step quite as plainly as i can show it you. you would break the heart of your father, and send your mother to her grave;--but it is not even on that that i may most insist. it is this,--that you would offend your god by the worst sin that a woman can commit, and cast yourself into a depth of infamy in which repentance before god is almost impossible, and from which escape before man is not permitted. i do not believe it, my dearest, dearest child,--my only living daughter; i do not believe what they have said to me. but as a mother i have not dared to leave the slander unnoticed. if you will write to me and say that it is not so, you will make me happy again, even though you should rebuke me for my suspicion. believe that at all times, and under all circumstances, i am still your loving mother, as i was in other days. susan grantly. we will now go back to mr. palliser as he sat in his chambers at the albany, thinking of his love. the duke had cautioned him, and the duke's agent had cautioned him; and he, in spite of his high feeling of independence, had almost been made to tremble. all his thousands a year were in the balance, and perhaps everything on which depended his position before the world. but, nevertheless, though he did tremble, he resolved to persevere. statistics were becoming dry to him, and love was very sweet. statistics, he thought, might be made as enchanting as ever, if only they could be mingled with love. the mere idea of loving lady dumbello had seemed to give a salt to his life of which he did not now know how to rob himself. it is true that he had not as yet enjoyed many of the absolute blessings of love, seeing that his conversations with lady dumbello had never been warmer than those which have been repeated in these pages; but his imagination had been at work; and now that lady dumbello was fully established at her house in carlton gardens, he was determined to declare his passion on the first convenient opportunity. it was sufficiently manifest to him that the world expected him to do so, and that the world was already a little disposed to find fault with the slowness of his proceedings. he had been once at carlton gardens since the season had commenced, and the lady had favoured him with her sweetest smile. but he had only been half a minute alone with her, and during that half-minute had only time to remark that he supposed she would now remain in london for the season. "oh, yes," she had answered, "we shall not leave till july." nor could he leave till july, because of the exigencies of his statistics. he therefore had before him two, if not three, clear months in which to manoeuvre, to declare his purposes, and prepare for the future events of his life. as he resolved on a certain morning that he would say his first tender word to lady dumbello that very night, in the drawing-room of lady de courcy, where he knew that he should meet her, a letter came to him by the post. he well knew the hand and the intimation which it would contain. it was from the duke's agent, mr. fothergill, and informed him that a certain sum of money had been placed to his credit at his banker's. but the letter went further, and informed him also that the duke had given his agent to understand that special instructions would be necessary before the next quarterly payment could be made. mr. fothergill said nothing further, but mr. palliser understood it all. he felt his blood run cold round his heart; but, nevertheless, he determined that he would not break his word to lady de courcy that night. and lady dumbello received her letter also on the same morning. she was being dressed as she read it, and the maidens who attended her found no cause to suspect that anything in the letter had excited her ladyship. her ladyship was not often excited, though she was vigilant in exacting from them their utmost cares. she read her letter, however, very carefully, and as she sat beneath the toilet implements of her maidens thought deeply of the tidings which had been brought to her. she was angry with no one;--she was thankful to no one. she felt no special love for any person concerned in the matter. her heart did not say, "oh, my lord and husband!" or, "oh, my lover!" or, "oh, my mother, the friend of my childhood!" but she became aware that matter for thought had been brought before her, and she did think. "send my love to lord dumbello," she said, when the operations were nearly completed, "and tell him that i shall be so glad to see him if he will come to me while i am at breakfast." "yes, my lady." and then the message came back: "his lordship would be with her ladyship certainly." "gustavus," she said, as soon as she had seated herself discreetly in her chair, "i have had a letter from my mother, which you had better read;" and she handed to him the document. "i do not know what i have done to deserve such suspicions from her; but she lives in the country, and has probably been deceived by ill-natured people. at any rate you must read it, and tell me what i should do." we may predicate from this that mr. palliser's chance of being able to shipwreck himself upon that rock was but small, and that he would, in spite of himself, be saved from his uncle's anger. lord dumbello took the letter and read it very slowly, standing, as he did so, with his back to the fire. he read it very slowly, and his wife, though she never turned her face directly upon his, could perceive that he became very red, that he was fluttered and put beyond himself, and that his answer was not ready. she was well aware that his conduct to her during the last three months had been much altered from his former usages; that he had been rougher with her in his speech when alone, and less courteous in his attention when in society; but she had made no complaint or spoken a word to show him that she had marked the change. she had known, moreover, the cause of his altered manner, and having considered much, had resolved that she would live it down. she had declared to herself that she had done no deed and spoken no word that justified suspicion, and therefore she would make no change in her ways, or show herself to be conscious that she was suspected. but now,--having her mother's letter in her hand,--she could bring him to an explanation without making him aware that she had ever thought that he had been jealous of her. to her, her mother's letter was a great assistance. it justified a scene like this, and enabled her to fight her battle after her own fashion. as for eloping with any mr. palliser, and giving up the position which she had won;--no, indeed! she had been fastened in her grooves too well for that! her mother, in entertaining any fear on such a subject, had shown herself to be ignorant of the solidity of her daughter's character. "well, gustavus," she said at last. "you must say what answer i shall make, or whether i shall make any answer." but he was not even yet ready to instruct her. so he unfolded the letter and read it again, and she poured out for herself a cup of tea. "it's a very serious matter," said he. "yes, it is serious; i could not but think such a letter from my mother to be serious. had it come from any one else i doubt whether i should have troubled you; unless, indeed, it had been from any as near to you as she is to me. as it is, you cannot but feel that i am right." "right! oh, yes, you are right,--quite right to tell me; you should tell me everything. d---- them!" but whom he meant to condemn he did not explain. "i am above all things averse to cause you trouble," she said. "i have seen some little things of late--" "has he ever said anything to you?" "who,--mr. palliser? never a word." "he has hinted at nothing of this kind?" "never a word. had he done so, i must have made you understand that he could not have been allowed again into my drawing-room." then again he read the letter, or pretended to do so. "your mother means well," he said. "oh, yes, she means well. she has been foolish to believe the tittle-tattle that has reached her,--very foolish to oblige me to give you this annoyance." "oh, as for that, i'm not annoyed. by jove, no. come, griselda, let us have it all out; other people have said this, and i have been unhappy. now, you know it all." "have i made you unhappy?" "well, no; not you. don't be hard upon me when i tell you the whole truth. fools and brutes have whispered things that have vexed me. they may whisper till the devil fetches them, but they shan't annoy me again. give me a kiss, my girl." and he absolutely put out his arms and embraced her. "write a good-natured letter to your mother, and ask her to come up for a week in may. that'll be the best thing; and then she'll understand. by jove, it's twelve o'clock. good-by." lady dumbello was well aware that she had triumphed, and that her mother's letter had been invaluable to her. but it had been used, and therefore she did not read it again. she ate her breakfast in quiet comfort, looking over a milliner's french circular as she did so; and then, when the time for such an operation had fully come, she got to her writing-table and answered her mother's letter. dear mamma [she said], i thought it best to show your letter at once to lord dumbello. he said that people would be ill-natured, and seemed to think that the telling of such stories could not be helped. as regards you, he was not a bit angry, but said that you and papa had better come to us for a week about the end of next month. do come. we are to have rather a large dinner-party on the rd. his royal highness is coming, and i think papa would like to meet him. have you observed that those very high bonnets have all gone out: i never liked them; and as i had got a hint from paris, i have been doing my best to put them down. i do hope nothing will prevent your coming. your affectionate daughter, g. dumbello. carlton gardens, wednesday. mrs. grantly was aware, from the moment in which she received the letter, that she had wronged her daughter by her suspicions. it did not occur to her to disbelieve a word that was said in the letter, or an inference that was implied. she had been wrong, and rejoiced that it was so. but nevertheless there was that in the letter which annoyed and irritated her, though she could not explain to herself the cause of her annoyance. she had thrown all her heart into that which she had written, but in the words which her child had written not a vestige of heart was to be found. in that reconciling of god and mammon which mrs. grantly had carried on so successfully in the education of her daughter, the organ had not been required, and had become withered, if not defunct, through want of use. "we will not go there, i think," said mrs. grantly, speaking to her husband. "oh dear, no; certainly not. if you want to go to town at all, i will take rooms for you. and as for his royal highness--! i have a great respect for his royal highness, but i do not in the least desire to meet him at dumbello's table." and so that matter was settled, as regarded the inhabitants of plumstead episcopi. and whither did lord dumbello betake himself when he left his wife's room in so great a hurry at twelve o'clock? not to the park, nor to tattersall's, nor to a committee-room of the house of commons, nor yet to the bow-window of his club. but he went straight to a great jeweller's in ludgate-hill, and there purchased a wonderful green necklace, very rare and curious, heavy with green sparkling drops, with three rows of shining green stones embedded in chaste gold,--a necklace amounting almost to a jewelled cuirass in weight and extent. it had been in all the exhibitions, and was very costly and magnificent. while lady dumbello was still dressing in the evening this was brought to her with her lord's love, as his token of renewed confidence; and lady dumbello, as she counted the sparkles, triumphed inwardly, telling herself that she had played her cards well. but while she counted the sparkles produced by her full reconciliation with her lord, poor plantagenet palliser was still trembling in his ignorance. if only he could have been allowed to see mrs. grantly's letter, and the lady's answer, and the lord's present! but no such seeing was vouchsafed to him, and he was carried off in his brougham to lady de courcy's house, twittering with expectant love, and trembling with expectant ruin. to this conclusion he had come at any rate, that if anything was to be done, it should be done now. he would speak a word of love, and prepare his future in accordance with the acceptance it might receive. lady de courcy's rooms were very crowded when he arrived there. it was the first great crushing party of the season, and all the world had been collected into portman square. lady de courcy was smiling as though her lord had no teeth, as though her eldest son's condition was quite happy, and all things were going well with the de courcy interests. lady margaretta was there behind her, bland without and bitter within; and lady rosina also, at some further distance, reconciled to this world's vanity and finery because there was to be no dancing. and the married daughters of the house were there also, striving to maintain their positions on the strength of their undoubted birth, but subjected to some snubbing by the lowness of their absolute circumstances. gazebee was there, happy in the absolute fact of his connection with an earl, and blessed with the consideration that was extended to him as an earl's son-in-law. and crosbie, also, was in the rooms,--was present there, though he had sworn to himself that he would no longer dance attendance on the countess, and that he would sever himself away from the wretchedness of the family. but if he gave up them and their ways, what else would then be left to him? he had come, therefore, and now stood alone, sullen, in a corner, telling himself that all was vanity. yes; to the vain all will be vanity; and to the poor of heart all will be poor. lady dumbello was there in a small inner room, seated on a couch to which she had been brought on her first arrival at the house, and on which she would remain till she departed. from time to time some very noble or very elevated personage would come before her and say a word, and she would answer that elevated personage with another word; but nobody had attempted with her the task of conversation. it was understood that lady dumbello did not converse,--unless it were occasionally with mr. palliser. she knew well that mr. palliser was to meet her there. he had told her expressly that he should do so, having inquired, with much solicitude, whether she intended to obey the invitation of the countess. "i shall probably be there," she had said, and now had determined that her mother's letter and her husband's conduct to her should not cause her to break her word. should mr. palliser "forget" himself, she would know how to say a word to him as she had known how to say a word to her husband. forget himself! she was very sure that mr. palliser had been making up his mind to forget himself for some months past. he did come to her, and stood over her, looking unutterable things. his unutterable things, however, were so looked, that they did not absolutely demand notice from the lady. he did not sigh like a furnace, nor open his eyes upon her as though there were two suns in the firmament above her head, nor did he beat his breast or tear his hair. mr. palliser had been brought up in a school which delights in tranquillity, and never allows its pupils to commit themselves either to the sublime or to the ridiculous. he did look an unutterable thing or two; but he did it with so decorous an eye, that the lady, who was measuring it all with great accuracy, could not, as yet, declare that mr. palliser had "forgotten himself." there was room by her on the couch, and once or twice, at hartlebury, he had ventured so to seat himself. on the present occasion, however, he could not do so without placing himself manifestly on her dress. she would have known how to fill a larger couch even than that,--as she would have known, also, how to make room,--had it been her mind to do so. so he stood still over her, and she smiled at him. such a smile! it was cold as death, flattering no one, saying nothing, hideous in its unmeaning, unreal grace. ah! how i hate the smile of a woman who smiles by rote! it made mr. palliser feel very uncomfortable;--but he did not analyze it, and persevered. "lady dumbello," he said, and his voice was very low, "i have been looking forward to meeting you here." "have you, mr. palliser? yes; i remember that you asked me whether i was coming." "i did. hm--lady dumbello!" and he almost trenched upon the outside verge of that schooling which had taught him to avoid both the sublime and the ridiculous. but he had not forgotten himself as yet, and so she smiled again. "lady dumbello, in this world in which we live, it is so hard to get a moment in which we can speak." he had thought that she would move her dress, but she did not. "oh, i don't know," she said; "one doesn't often want to say very much, i think." "ah, no; not often, perhaps. but when one does want! how i do hate these crowded rooms!" yet, when he had been at hartlebury he had resolved that the only ground for him would be the crowded drawing-room of some large london house. "i wonder whether you ever desire anything beyond them?" "oh, yes," said she; "but i confess that i am fond of parties." mr. palliser looked round and thought that he saw that he was unobserved. he had made up his mind as to what he would do, and he was determined to do it. he had in him none of that readiness which enables some men to make love and carry off their dulcineas at a moment's notice, but he had that pluck which would have made himself disgraceful in his own eyes if he omitted to do that as to the doing of which he had made a solemn resolution. he would have preferred to do it sitting, but, faute de mieux, seeing that a seat was denied to him, he would do it standing. "griselda," he said,--and it must be admitted that his tone was not bad. the word sank softly into her ear, like small rain upon moss, and it sank into no other ear. "griselda!" "mr. palliser!" said she;--and though she made no scene, though she merely glanced upon him once, he could see that he was wrong. "may i not call you so?" "certainly not. shall i ask you to see if my people are there?" he stood a moment before her hesitating. "my carriage, i mean." as she gave the command she glanced at him again, and then he obeyed her orders. when he returned she had left her seat; but he heard her name announced on the stairs, and caught a glance of the back of her head as she made her way gracefully down through the crowd. he never attempted to make love to her again, utterly disappointing the hopes of lady de courcy, mrs. proudie, and lady clandidlem. as i would wish those who are interested in mr. palliser's fortunes to know the ultimate result of this adventure, and as we shall not have space to return to his affairs in this little history, i may, perhaps, be allowed to press somewhat forward, and tell what fortune did for him before the close of that london season. everybody knows that in that spring lady glencora maccluskie was brought out before the world, and it is equally well known that she, as the only child of the late lord of the isles, was the great heiress of the day. it is true that the hereditary possession of skye, staffa, mull, arran, and bute went, with the title, to the marquis of auldreekie, together with the counties of caithness and ross-shire. but the property in fife, aberdeen, perth, and kincardine-shire, comprising the greater part of those counties, and the coal-mines in lanark, as well as the enormous estate within the city of glasgow, were unentailed, and went to the lady glencora. she was a fair girl, with bright blue eyes and short wavy flaxen hair, very soft to the eye. the lady glencora was small in stature, and her happy round face lacked, perhaps, the highest grace of female beauty. but there was ever a smile upon it, at which it was very pleasant to look; and the intense interest with which she would dance, and talk, and follow up every amusement that was offered her, was very charming. the horse she rode was the dearest love--oh! she loved him so dearly! and she had a little dog that was almost as dear as the horse. the friend of her youth, sabrina scott, was--oh, such a girl! and her cousin, the little lord of the isles, the heir of the marquis, was so gracious and beautiful that she was always covering him with kisses. unfortunately he was only six, so that there was hardly a possibility that the properties should be brought together. but lady glencora, though she was so charming, had even in this, her first outset upon the world, given great uneasiness to her friends, and caused the marquis of auldreekie to be almost wild with dismay. there was a terribly handsome man about town, who had spent every shilling that anybody would give him, who was very fond of brandy, who was known, but not trusted, at newmarket, who was said to be deep in every vice, whose father would not speak to him;--and with him the lady glencora was never tired of dancing. one morning she had told her cousin the marquis, with a flashing eye,--for the round blue eye could flash,--that burgo fitzgerald was more sinned against than sinning. ah me! what was a guardian marquis, anxious for the fate of the family property, to do under such circumstances as that? but before the end of the season the marquis and the duke were both happy men, and we will hope that the lady glencora also was satisfied. mr. plantagenet palliser had danced with her twice, and had spoken his mind. he had an interview with the marquis, which was pre-eminently satisfactory, and everything was settled. glencora no doubt told him how she had accepted that plain gold ring from burgo fitzgerald, and how she had restored it; but i doubt whether she ever told him of that wavy lock of golden hair which burgo still keeps in his receptacle for such treasures. "plantagenet," said the duke, with quite unaccustomed warmth, "in this, as in all things, you have shown yourself to be everything that i could desire. i have told the marquis that matching priory, with the whole estate, should be given over to you at once. it is the most comfortable country-house i know. glencora shall have the horns as her wedding present." but the genial, frank delight of mr. fothergill pleased mr. palliser the most. the heir of the pallisers had done his duty, and mr. fothergill was unfeignedly a happy man. chapter lvi. showing how mr. crosbie became again a happy man. it has been told in the last chapter how lady de courcy gave a great party in london in the latter days of april, and it may therefore be thought that things were going well with the de courcys; but i fear the inference would be untrue. at any rate, things were not going well with lady alexandrina, for she, on her mother's first arrival in town, had rushed to portman-square with a long tale of her sufferings. "oh, mamma! you would not believe it; but he hardly ever speaks to me." "my dear, there are worse faults in a man than that." "i am alone there all the day. i never get out. he never offers to get me a carriage. he asked me to walk with him once last week, when it was raining. i saw that he waited till the rain began. only think, i have not been out three evenings this month,--except to amelia's; and now he says he won't go there any more, because a fly is so expensive. you can't believe how uncomfortable the house is." "i thought you chose it, my dear." "i looked at it, but, of course, i didn't know what a house ought to be. amelia said it wasn't nice, but he would have it. he hates amelia. i'm sure of that, for he says everything he can to snub her and mr. gazebee. mr. gazebee is as good as he, at any rate. what do you think? he has given richard warning to go. you never saw him, but he was a very good servant. he has given him warning, and he is not talking of getting another man. i won't live with him without somebody to wait upon me." "my dearest girl, do not think of such a thing as leaving him." "but i will think of it, mamma. you do not know what my life is in that house. he never speaks to me,--never. he comes home before dinner at half-past six, and when he has just shown himself he goes to his dressing-room. he is always silent at dinner-time, and after dinner he goes to sleep. he breakfasts always at nine, and goes away at half-past nine, though i know he does not get to his office till eleven. if i want anything, he says that it cannot be afforded. i never thought before that he was stingy, but i am sure now that he must be a miser at heart." "it is better so than a spendthrift, alexandrina." "i don't know that it is better. he could not make me more unhappy than i am. unhappy is no word for it. what can i do, shut up in such a house as that by myself from nine o'clock in the morning till six in the evening? everybody knows what he is, so that nobody will come to see me. i tell you fairly, mamma, i will not stand it. if you cannot help me, i will look for help elsewhere." it may, at any rate, be said that things were not going well with that branch of the de courcy family. nor, indeed, was it going well with some other branches. lord porlock had married, not having selected his partner for life from the choicest cream of the aristocratic circles, and his mother, while endeavouring to say a word in his favour, had been so abused by the earl that she had been driven to declare that she could no longer endure such usage. she had come up to london in direct opposition to his commands, while he was fastened to his room by gout; and had given her party in defiance of him, so that people should not say, when her back was turned, that she had slunk away in despair. "i have borne it," she said to margaretta, "longer than any other woman in england would have done. while i thought that any of you would marry--" "oh, don't talk of that, mamma," said margaretta, putting a little scorn into her voice. she had not been quite pleased that even her mother should intimate that all her chance was over, and yet she herself had often told her mother that she had given up all thought of marrying. "rosina will go to amelia's," the countess continued; "mr. gazebee is quite satisfied that it should be so, and he will take care that she shall have enough to cover her own expenses. i propose that you and i, dear, shall go to baden-baden." "and about money, mamma?" "mr. gazebee must manage it. in spite of all that your father says, i know that there must be money. the expense will be much less so than in our present way." "and what will papa do himself?" "i cannot help it, my dear. no one knows what i have had to bear. another year of it would kill me. his language has become worse and worse, and i fear every day that he is going to strike me with his crutch." under all these circumstances it cannot be said that the de courcy interests were prospering. but lady de courcy, when she had made up her mind to go to baden-baden, had by no means intended to take her youngest daughter with her. she had endured for years, and now alexandrina was unable to endure for six months. her chief grievance, moreover, was this,--that her husband was silent. the mother felt that no woman had a right to complain much of any such sorrow as that. if her earl had sinned only in that way, she would have been content to have remained by him till the last! and yet i do not know whether alexandrina's life was not quite as hard as that of her mother. she barely exceeded the truth when she said that he never spoke to her. the hours with her in her new comfortless house were very long,--very long and very tedious. marriage with her had by no means been the thing that she had expected. at home, with her mother, there had always been people around her, but they had not always been such as she herself would have chosen for her companions. she had thought that, when married, she could choose and have those about her who were congenial to her; but she found that none came to her. her sister, who was a wiser woman than she, had begun her married life with a definite idea, and had carried it out; but this poor creature found herself, as it were, stranded. when once she had conceived it in her heart to feel anger against her husband,--and she had done so before they had been a week together,--there was no love to bring her back to him again. she did not know that it behoved her to look pleased when he entered the room, and to make him at any rate think that his presence gave her happiness. she became gloomy before she reached her new house, and never laid her gloom aside. he would have made a struggle for some domestic comfort, had any seemed to be within his reach. as it was, he struggled for domestic propriety, believing that he might so best bolster up his present lot in life. but the task became harder and harder to him, and the gloom became denser and more dense. he did not think of her unhappiness, but of his own; as she did not think of his tedium, but of hers. "if this be domestic felicity!" he would say to himself, as he sat in his arm-chair, striving to fix his attention upon a book. "if this be the happiness of married life!" she thought, as she remained listless, without even the pretence of a book, behind her teacups. in truth she would not walk with him, not caring for such exercise round the pavement of a london square; and he had resolutely determined that she should not run into debt for carriage hire. he was not a curmudgeon with his money; he was no miser. but he had found that in marrying an earl's daughter he had made himself a poor man, and he was resolved that he would not also be an embarrassed man. when the bride heard that her mother and sister were about to escape to baden-baden, there rushed upon her a sudden hope that she might be able to accompany the flight. she would not be parted from her husband, or at least not so parted that the world should suppose that they had quarrelled. she would simply go away and make a long visit,--a very long visit. two years ago a sojourn with her mother and margaretta at baden-baden would not have offered to her much that was attractive; but now, in her eyes, such a life seemed to be a life in paradise. in truth, the tedium of those hours in princess royal crescent had been very heavy. but how could she contrive that it should be so? that conversation with her mother had taken place on the day preceding the party, and lady de courcy had repeated it with dismay to margaretta. "of course he would allow her an income," margaretta had coolly said. "but, my dear, they have been married only ten weeks." "i don't see why people are to be made absolutely wretched because they are married," margaretta answered. "i don't want to persuade her to leave him, but if what she says is true, it must be very uncomfortable." crosbie had consented to go to the party in portman-square, but had not greatly enjoyed himself on that festive occasion. he had stood about moodily, speaking hardly a word to any one. his whole aspect of life seemed to have been altered during the last few months. it was here, in such spots as this that he had been used to find his glory. on such occasions he had shone with peculiar light, making envious the hearts of many who watched the brilliance of his career as they stood around in dull quiescence. but now no one in those rooms had been more dull, more silent, or less courted than he; and yet he was established there as the son-in-law of that noble house. "rather slow work; isn't it?" gazebee had said to him, having, after many efforts, succeeded in reaching his brother-in-law in a corner. in answer to this crosbie had only grunted. "as for myself," continued gazebee, "i would a deal sooner be at home with my paper and slippers. it seems to me these sort of gatherings don't suit married men." crosbie had again grunted, and had then escaped into another corner. crosbie and his wife went home together in a cab,--speechless both of them. alexandrina hated cabs,--but she had been plainly told that in such vehicles, and in such vehicles only, could she be allowed to travel. on the following morning he was at the breakfast-table punctually by nine, but she did not make her appearance till after he had gone to his office. soon after that, however, she was away to her mother and her sister; but she was seated grimly in her drawing-room when he came in to see her, on his return to his house. having said some word which might be taken for a greeting, he was about to retire; but she stopped him with a request that he would speak to her. "certainly," said he. "i was only going to dress. it is nearly the half-hour." "i won't keep you very long, and if dinner is a few minutes late it won't signify. mamma and margaretta are going to baden-baden." "to baden-baden, are they?" "yes; and they intend to remain there--for a considerable time." there was a little pause, and alexandrina found it necessary to clear her voice and to prepare herself for further speech by a little cough. she was determined to make her proposition, but was rather afraid of the manner in which it might be first received. "has anything happened at courcy castle?" crosbie asked. "no; that is, yes; there may have been some words between papa and mamma; but i don't quite know. that, however, does not matter now. mamma is going, and purposes to remain there for the rest of the year." "and the house in town will be given up." "i suppose so, but that will be as papa chooses. have you any objection to my going with mamma?" what a question to be asked by a bride of ten weeks' standing! she had hardly been above a month with her husband in her new house, and she was now asking permission to leave it, and to leave him also, for an indefinite number of months--perhaps for ever. but she showed no excitement as she made her request. there was neither sorrow, nor regret, nor hope in her face. she had not put on half the animation which she had once assumed in asking for the use, twice a week, of a carriage done up to look as though it were her own private possession. crosbie had then answered her with great sternness, and she had wept when his refusal was made certain to her. but there was to be no weeping now. she meant to go,--with his permission if he would accord it, and without it if he should refuse it. the question of money was no doubt important, but gazebee should manage that,--as he managed all those things. "going with them to baden-baden?" said crosbie. "for how long?" "well; it would be no use unless it were for some time." "for how long a time do you mean, alexandrina? speak out what you really have to say. for a month?" "oh, more than that." "for two months, or six, or as long as they may stay there?" "we could settle that afterwards, when i am there." during all this time she did not once look into his face, though he was looking hard at her throughout. "you mean," said he, "that you wish to go away from me." "in one sense it would be going away, certainly." "but in the ordinary sense? is it not so? when you talk of going to baden-baden for an unlimited number of months, have you any idea of coming back again?" "back to london, you mean?" "back to me,--to my house,--to your duties as a wife! why cannot you say at once what it is you want? you wish to be separated from me?" "i am not happy here,--in this house." "and who chose the house? did i want to come here? but it is not that. if you are not happy here, what could you have in any other house to make you happy?" "if you were left alone in this room for seven or eight hours at a time, without a soul to come to you, you would know what i mean. and even after that, it is not much better. you never speak to me when you are here." "is it my fault that nobody comes to you? the fact is, alexandrina, that you will not reconcile yourself to the manner of life which is suitable to my income. you are wretched because you cannot have yourself driven round the park. i cannot find you a carriage, and will not attempt to do so. you may go to baden-baden, if you please;--that is, if your mother is willing to take you." "of course i must pay my own expenses," said alexandrina. but to this he made no answer on the moment. as soon as he had given his permission he had risen from his seat and was going, and her last words only caught him in the doorway. after all, would not this be the cheapest arrangement that he could make? as he went through his calculations he stood up with his elbow on the mantel-piece in his dressing-room. he had scolded his wife because she had been unhappy with him; but had he not been quite as unhappy with her? would it not be better that they should part in this quiet, half-unnoticed way;--that they should part and never again come together? he was lucky in this, that hitherto had come upon them no prospect of any little crosbie to mar the advantages of such an arrangement. if he gave her four hundred a year, and allowed gazebee two more towards the paying off of encumbrances, he would still have six on which to enjoy himself in london. of course he could not live as he had lived in those happy days before his marriage, nor, independently of the cost, would such a mode of life be within his reach. but he might go to his club for his dinners; he might smoke his cigar in luxury; he would not be bound to that wooden home which, in spite of all his resolutions, had become almost unendurable to him. so he made his calculations, and found that it would be well that his bride should go. he would give over his house and furniture to gazebee, allowing gazebee to do as he would about that. to be once more a bachelor, in lodgings, with six hundred a year to spend on himself, seemed to him now such a prospect of happiness that he almost became light-hearted as he dressed himself. he would let her go to baden-baden. there was nothing said about it at dinner, nor did he mention the subject again till the servant had left the tea-things on the drawing-room table. "you can go with your mother if you like it," he then said. "i think it will be best," she answered. "perhaps it will. at any rate you shall suit yourself." "and about money?" "you had better leave me to speak to gazebee about that." "very well. will you have some tea?" and then the whole thing was finished. on the next day she went after lunch to her mother's house, and never came back again to princess royal crescent. during that morning she packed up those things which she cared to pack herself, and sent her sisters there, with an old family servant, to bring away whatever else might be supposed to belong to her. "dear, dear," said amelia, "what trouble i had in getting these things together for them, and only the other day. i can't but think she's wrong to go away." "i don't know," said margaretta. "she has not been so lucky as you have in the man she has married. i always felt that she would find it difficult to manage him." "but, my dear, she has not tried. she has given up at once. it isn't management that was wanting. the fact is that when alexandrina began she didn't make up her mind to the kind of thing she was coming to. i did. i knew it wasn't to be all party-going and that sort of thing. but i must own that crosbie isn't the same sort of man as mortimer. i don't think i could have gone on with him. you might as well have those small books put up; he won't care about them." and in this way crosbie's house was dismantled. she saw him no more, for he made no farewell visit to the house in portman square. a note had been brought to him at his office: "i am here with mamma, and may as well say good-by now. we start on tuesday. if you wish to write, you can send your letters to the housekeeper here. i hope you will make yourself comfortable, and that you will be well. yours affectionately, a. c." he made no answer to it, but went that day and dined at his club. "i haven't seen you this age," said montgomerie dobbs. "no. my wife is going abroad with her mother, and while she is away i shall come back here again." there was nothing more said to him, and no one ever made any inquiry about his domestic affairs. it seemed to him now as though he had no friend sufficiently intimate with him to ask him after his wife or family. she was gone, and in a month's time he found himself again in mount street,--beginning the world with five hundred a year, not six. for mr. gazebee, when the reckoning came, showed him that a larger income at the present moment was not possible for him. the countess had for a long time refused to let lady alexandrina go with her on so small a pittance as four hundred and fifty;--and then were there not the insurances to be maintained? but i think he would have consented to accept his liberty with three hundred a year,--so great to him was the relief. chapter lvii. lilian dale vanquishes her mother. mrs. dale had been present during the interview in which john eames had made his prayer to her daughter, but she had said little or nothing on that occasion. all her wishes had been in favour of the suitor, but she had not dared to express them, neither had she dared to leave the room. it had been hard upon him to be thus forced to declare his love in the presence of a third person, but he had done it, and had gone away with his answer. then, when the thing was over, lily, without any communion with her mother, took herself off, and was no more seen till the evening hours had come on, in which it was natural that they should be together again. mrs. dale, when thus alone, had been able to think of nothing but this new suit for her daughter's hand. if only it might be accomplished! if any words from her to lily might be efficacious to such an end! and yet, hitherto, she had been afraid almost to utter a word. she knew that it was very difficult. she declared to herself over and over that he had come too soon,--that the attempt had been made too quickly after that other shipwreck. how was it possible that the ship should put to sea again at once, with all her timbers so rudely strained? and yet, now that the attempt had been made, now that eames had uttered his request and been sent away with an answer, she felt that she must at once speak to lily on the subject, if ever she were to speak upon it. she thought that she understood her child and all her feelings. she recognized the violence of the shock which must be encountered before lily could be brought to acknowledge such a change in her heart. but if the thing could be done, lily would be a happy woman. when once done it would be in all respects a blessing. and if it were not done, might not lily's life be blank, lonely, and loveless to the end? yet when lily came down in the evening, with some light, half-joking word on her lips, as was usual to her, mrs. dale was still afraid to venture upon her task. "i suppose, mamma, we may consider it as a settled thing that everything must be again unpacked, and that the lodging scheme will be given up." "i don't know that, my dear." "oh, but i do--after what you said just now. what geese everybody will think us!" "i shouldn't care a bit for that, if we didn't think ourselves geese, or if your uncle did not think us so." "i believe he would think we were swans. if i had ever thought he would be so much in earnest about it, or that he would ever have cared about our being here, i would never have voted for going. but he is so strange. he is affectionate when he ought to be angry, and ill-natured when he ought to be gentle and kind." "he has, at any rate, given us reason to feel sure of his affection." "for us girls, i never doubted it. but, mamma, i don't think i could face mrs. boyce. mrs. hearn and mrs. crump would be very bad, and hopkins would come down upon us terribly when he found that we had given way. but mrs. boyce would be worse than any of them. can't you fancy the tone of her congratulations?" "i think i should survive mrs. boyce." "ah, yes; because we should have to go and tell her. i know your cowardice of old, mamma; don't i? and bell wouldn't care a bit, because of her lover. mrs. boyce will be nothing to her. it is i that must bear it all. well, i don't mind; i'll vote for staying if you will promise to be happy here. oh, mamma, i'll vote for anything if you will be happy." "and will you be happy?" "yes, as happy as the day is long. only i know we shall never see bell. people never do see each other when they live just at that distance. it's too near for long visits, and too far for short visits. i'll tell you what; we might make arrangements each to walk half-way, and meet at the corner of lord de guest's wood. i wonder whether they'd let us put up a seat there. i think we might have a little house and carry sandwiches and a bottle of beer. couldn't we see something of each other in that way?" thus it came to be the fixed idea of both of them that they would abandon their plan of migrating to guestwick, and on this subject they continued to talk over their tea-table; but on that evening mrs. dale ventured to say nothing about john eames. but they did not even yet dare to commence the work of reconstructing their old home. bell must come back before they would do that, and the express assent of the squire must be formally obtained. mrs. dale must, in a degree, acknowledge herself to have been wrong, and ask to be forgiven for her contumacy. "i suppose the three of us had better go up in sackcloth, and throw ashes on our foreheads as we meet hopkins in the garden," said lily, "and then i know he'll heap coals of fire on our heads by sending us an early dish of peas. and dingles would bring us in a pheasant, only that pheasants don't grow in may." "if the sackcloth doesn't take an unpleasanter shape than that, i shan't mind it." "that's because you've got no delicate feelings. and then uncle christopher's gratitude!" "ah! i shall feel that." "but, mamma, we'll wait till bell comes home. she shall decide. she is going away, and therefore she'll be free from prejudice. if uncle offers to paint the house,--and i know he will,--then i shall be humbled to the dust." but yet mrs. dale had said nothing on the subject which was nearest to her heart. when lily in pleasantry had accused her of cowardice, her mind had instantly gone off to that other matter, and she had told herself that she was a coward. why should she be afraid of offering her counsel to her own child? it seemed to her as though she had neglected some duty in allowing crosbie's conduct to have passed away without hardly a word of comment on it between herself and lily. should she not have forced upon her daughter's conviction the fact that crosbie had been a villain, and as such should be discarded from her heart? as it was, lily had spoken the simple truth when she told john eames that she was dealing more openly with him on that affair of her engagement than she had ever dealt, even with her mother. thinking of this as she sat in her own room that night, before she allowed herself to rest, mrs. dale resolved that on the next morning she would endeavour to make lily see as she saw and think as she thought. she let breakfast pass by before she began her task, and even then she did not rush at it at once. lily sat herself down to her work when the teacups were taken away, and mrs. dale went down to her kitchen as was her wont. it was nearly eleven before she seated herself in the parlour, and even then she got her work-box before her and took out her needle. "i wonder how bell gets on with lady julia," said lily. "very well, i'm sure." "lady julia won't bite her, i know, and i suppose her dismay at the tall footmen has passed off by this time." "i don't know that they have any tall footmen." "short footmen then,--you know what i mean; all the noble belongings. they must startle one at first, i'm sure, let one determine ever so much not to be startled. it's a very mean thing, no doubt, to be afraid of a lord merely because he is a lord; yet i'm sure i should be afraid at first, even of lord de guest, if i were staying in the house." "it's well you didn't go then." "yes, i think it is. bell is of a firmer mind, and i dare say she'll get over it after the first day. but what on earth does she do there? i wonder whether they mend their stockings in such a house as that." "not in public, i should think." "in very grand houses they throw them away at once, i suppose. i've often thought about it. do you believe the prime minister ever has his shoes sent to a cobbler?" "perhaps a regular shoemaker will condescend to mend a prime minister's shoes." "you do think they are mended then? but who orders it? does he see himself when there's a little hole coming, as i do? does an archbishop allow himself so many pairs of gloves in a year?" "not very strictly, i should think." "then i suppose it comes to this, that he has a new pair whenever he wants them. but what constitutes the want? does he ever say to himself that they'll do for another sunday? i remember the bishop coming here once, and he had a hole at the end of his thumb. i was going to be confirmed, and i remember thinking that he ought to have been smarter." "why didn't you offer to mend it?" "i shouldn't have dared for all the world." the conversation had commenced itself in a manner that did not promise much assistance to mrs. dale's project. when lily got upon any subject, she was not easily induced to leave it, and when her mind had twisted itself in one direction, it was difficult to untwist it. she was now bent on a consideration of the smaller social habits of the high and mighty among us, and was asking her mother whether she supposed that the royal children ever carried halfpence in their pockets, or descended so low as fourpenny-bits. "i suppose they have pockets like other children," said lily. but her mother stopped her suddenly,-- "lily, dear, i want to say something to you about john eames." "mamma, i'd sooner talk about the royal family just at present." "but, dear, you must forgive me if i persist. i have thought much about it, and i'm sure you will not oppose me when i am doing what i think to be my duty." "no, mamma; i won't oppose you, certainly." "since mr. crosbie's conduct was made known to you, i have mentioned his name in your hearing very seldom." "no, mamma, you have not. and i have loved you so dearly for your goodness to me. do not think that i have not understood and known how generous you have been. no other mother ever was so good as you have been. i have known it all, and thought of it every day of my life, and thanked you in my heart for your trusting silence. of course, i understand your feelings. you think him bad and you hate him for what he has done." "i would not willingly hate any one, lily." "ah, but you do hate him. if i were you, i should hate him; but i am not you, and i love him. i pray for his happiness every night and morning, and for hers. i have forgiven him altogether, and i think that he was right. when i am old enough to do so without being wrong, i will go to him and tell him so. i should like to hear of all his doings and all his success, if it were only possible. how, then, can you and i talk about him? it is impossible. you have been silent and i have been silent,--let us remain silent." "it is not about mr. crosbie that i wish to speak. but i think you ought to understand that conduct such as his will be rebuked by all the world. you may forgive him, but you should acknowledge--" "mamma, i don't want to acknowledge anything;--not about him. there are things as to which a person cannot argue." mrs. dale felt that this present matter was one as to which she could not argue. "of course, mamma," continued lily, "i don't want to oppose you in anything, but i think we had better be silent about this." "of course i am thinking only of your future happiness." "i know you are; but pray believe me that you need not be alarmed. i do not mean to be unhappy. indeed, i think i may say i am not unhappy; of course i have been unhappy,--very unhappy. i did think that my heart would break. but that has passed away, and i believe i can be as happy as my neighbours. we're all of us sure to have some troubles, as you used to tell us when we were children." mrs. dale felt that she had begun wrong, and that she would have been able to make better progress had she omitted all mention of crosbie's name. she knew exactly what it was that she wished to say,--what were the arguments which she desired to expound before her daughter; but she did not know what language to use, or how she might best put her thoughts into words. she paused for a while, and lily went on with her work as though the conversation was over. but the conversation was not over. "it was about john eames, and not about mr. crosbie, that i wished to speak to you." "oh, mamma!" "my dear, you must not hinder me in doing what i think to be a duty. i heard what he said to you and what you replied, and of course i cannot but have my mind full of the subject. why should you set yourself against him in so fixed a manner?" "because i love another man." these words she spoke out loud, in a steady, almost dogged tone, with a certain show of audacity,--as though aware that the declaration was unseemly, but resolved that, though unseemly, it must be made. "but, lily, that love, from its very nature, must cease; or, rather, such love is not the same as that you felt when you thought that you were to be his wife." "yes, it is. if she died, and he came to me in five years' time, i would still take him. i should think myself constrained to take him." "but she is not dead, nor likely to die." "that makes no difference. you don't understand me, mamma." "i think i do, and i want you to understand me also. i know how difficult is your position; i know what your feelings are; but i know this also, that if you could reason with yourself, and bring yourself in time to receive john eames as a dear friend--" "i did receive him as a dear friend. why not? he is a dear friend. i love him heartily,--as you do." "you know what i mean?" "yes, i do; and i tell you it is impossible." "if you would make the attempt, all this misery would soon be forgotten. if once you could bring yourself to regard him as a friend, who might become your husband, all this would be changed,--and i should see you happy!" "you are strangely anxious to be rid of me, mamma!" "yes, lily;--to be rid of you in that way. if i could see you put your hand in his as his promised wife, i think that i should be the happiest woman in the world." "mamma, i cannot make you happy in that way. if you really understood my feelings, my doing as you propose would make you very unhappy. i should commit a great sin,--the sin against which women should be more guarded than against any other. in my heart i am married to that other man. i gave myself to him, and loved him, and rejoiced in his love. when he kissed me i kissed him again, and i longed for his kisses. i seemed to live only that he might caress me. all that time i never felt myself to be wrong,--because he was all in all to me. i was his own. that has been changed,--to my great misfortune; but it cannot be undone or forgotten. i cannot be the girl i was before he came here. there are things that will not have themselves buried and put out of sight, as though they had never been. i am as you are, mamma,--widowed. but you have your daughter, and i have my mother. if you will be contented, so will i." then she got up and threw herself on her mother's neck. mrs. dale's argument was over now. to such an appeal as that last made by lily no rejoinder on her part was possible. after that she was driven to acknowledge to herself that she must be silent. years as they rolled on might make a change, but no reasoning could be of avail. she embraced her daughter, weeping over her,--whereas lily's eyes were dry. "it shall be as you will," mrs. dale murmured. "yes, as i will. i shall have my own way; shall i not? that is all i want; to be a tyrant over you, and make you do my bidding in everything, as a well-behaved mother should do. but i won't be stern in my orderings. if you will only be obedient, i will be so gracious to you! there's hopkins again. i wonder whether he has come to knock us down and trample upon us with another speech." hopkins knew very well to which window he must come, as only one of the rooms was at the present time habitable. he came up to the dining-room, and almost flattened his nose against the glass. "well, hopkins," said lily, "here we are." mrs. dale had turned her face away, for she knew that the tears were still on her cheek. "yes, miss, i see you. i want to speak to your mamma, miss." "come round," said lily, anxious to spare her mother the necessity of showing herself at once. "it's too cold to open the window; come round, and i'll open the door." "too cold!" muttered hopkins, as he went. "they'll find it a deal colder in lodgings at guestwick." however, he went round through the kitchen, and lily met him in the hall. "well, hopkins, what is it? mamma has got a headache." "got a headache, has she? i won't make her headache no worse. it's my opinion that there's nothing for a headache so good as fresh air. only some people can't abear to be blowed upon, not for a minute. if you don't let down the lights in a greenhouse more or less every day, you'll never get any plants,--never;--and it's just the same with the grapes. is i to go back and say as how i couldn't see her?" "you can come in if you like; only be quiet, you know." "ain't i ollays quiet, miss? did anybody ever hear me rampage? if you please, ma'am, the squire's come home." "what, home from guestwick? has he brought miss bell?" "he ain't brought none but hisself, 'cause he come on horseback; and it's my belief he's going back almost immediate. but he wants you to come to him, mrs. dale." "oh, yes, i'll come at once." "he bade me say with his kind love. i don't know whether that makes any difference." "at any rate, i'll come, hopkins." "and i ain't to say nothing about the headache?" "about what?" said mrs. dale. "no, no, no," said lily. "mamma will be there at once. go and tell my uncle, there's a good man," and she put up her hand and backed him out of the room. "i don't believe she's got no headache at all," said hopkins, grumbling, as he returned through the back premises. "what lies gentlefolks do tell! if i said i'd a headache when i ought to be out among the things, what would they say to me? but a poor man mustn't never lie, nor yet drink, nor yet do nothing." and so he went back with his message. "what can have brought your uncle home?" said mrs. dale. "just to look after the cattle, and to see that the pigs are not all dead. my wonder is that he should ever have gone away." "i must go up to him at once." "oh, yes, of course." "and what shall i say about the house?" "it's not about that,--at least i think not. i don't think he'll speak about that again till you speak to him." "but if he does?" "you must put your trust in providence. declare you've got a bad headache, as i told hopkins just now; only you would throw me over by not understanding. i'll walk with you down to the bridge." so they went off together across the lawn. but lily was soon left alone, and continued her walk, waiting for her mother's return. as she went round and round the gravel paths, she thought of the words that she had said to her mother. she had declared that she also was widowed. "and so it should be," she said, debating the matter with herself. "what can a heart be worth if it can be transferred hither and thither as circumstances and convenience and comfort may require? when he held me here in his arms"--and, as the thoughts ran through her brain, she remembered the very spot on which they had stood--"oh, my love!" she had said to him then as she returned his kisses--"oh, my love, my love, my love!" "when he held me here in his arms, i told myself that it was right, because he was my husband. he has changed, but i have not. it might be that i should have ceased to love him, and then i should have told him so. i should have done as he did." but, as she came to this, she shuddered, thinking of the lady alexandrina. "it was very quick," she said, still speaking to herself; "very, very. but then men are not the same as women." and she walked on eagerly, hardly remembering where she was, thinking over it all, as she did daily; remembering every little thought and word of those few eventful months in which she had learned to regard crosbie as her husband and master. she had declared that she had conquered her unhappiness; but there were moments in which she was almost wild with misery. "tell me to forget him!" she said. "it is the one thing which will never be forgotten." at last she heard her mother's step coming down across the squire's garden, and she took up her post at the bridge. "stand and deliver," she said, as her mother put her foot upon the plank. "that is, if you've got anything worth delivering. is anything settled?" "come up to the house," said mrs. dale, "and i'll tell you all." chapter lviii. the fate of the small house. [illustration: (untitled)] there was something in the tone of mrs. dale's voice, as she desired her daughter to come up to the house, and declared that her budget of news should be opened there, which at once silenced lily's assumed pleasantry. her mother had been away fully two hours, during which lily had still continued her walk round the garden, till at last she had become impatient for her mother's footstep. something serious must have been said between her uncle and her mother during those long two hours. the interviews to which mrs. dale was occasionally summoned at the great house did not usually exceed twenty minutes, and the upshot would be communicated to the girls in a turn or two round the garden; but in the present instance mrs. dale positively declined to speak till she was seated within the house. "did he come over on purpose to see you, mamma?" "yes, my dear, i believe so. he wished to see you, too; but i asked his permission to postpone that till after i had talked to you." "to see me, mamma? about what?" "to kiss you, and bid you love him; solely for that. he has not a word to say to you that will vex you." "then i will kiss him, and love him, too." "yes, you will when i have told you all. i have promised him solemnly to give up all idea of going to guestwick. so that is over." "oh, oh! and we may begin to unpack at once? what an episode in one's life!" "we may certainly unpack, for i have pledged myself to him; and he is to go into guestwick himself and arrange about the lodgings." "does hopkins know it?" "i should think not yet." "nor mrs. boyce! mamma, i don't believe i shall be able to survive this next week. we shall look such fools! i'll tell you what we'll do;--it will be the only comfort i can have;--we'll go to work and get everything back into its place before bell comes home, so as to surprise her." "what! in two days?" "why not? i'll make hopkins come and help, and then he'll not be so bad. i'll begin at once and go to the blankets and beds, because i can undo them myself." "but i haven't half told you all; and, indeed, i don't know how to make you understand what passed between us. he is very unhappy about bernard; bernard has determined to go abroad, and may be away for years." "one can hardly blame a man for following up his profession." "there was no blaming. he only said that it was very sad for him that, in his old age, he should be left alone. this was before there was any talk about our remaining. indeed he seemed determined not to ask that again as a favour. i could see that in his eye, and i understood it from his tone. he went on to speak of you and bell, saying how well he loved you both; but that, unfortunately, his hopes regarding you had not been fulfilled." "ah, but he shouldn't have had hopes of that sort." "listen, my dear, and i think that you will not feel angry with him. he said that he felt his house had never been pleasant to you. then there followed words which i could not repeat, even if i could remember them. he said much about myself, regretting that the feeling between us had not been more kindly. 'but my heart,' he said, 'has ever been kinder than my words.' then i got up from where i was seated, and going over to him, i told him that we would remain here." "and what did he say?" "i don't know what he said. i know that i was crying, and that he kissed me. it was the first time in his life. i know that he was pleased,--beyond measure pleased. after a while he became animated, and talked of doing ever so many things. he promised that very painting of which you spoke." "ah, yes, i knew it; and hopkins will be here with the peas before dinner-time to-morrow, and dingles with his shoulders smothered with rabbits. and then mrs. boyce! mamma, he didn't think of mrs. boyce; or, in very charity of heart, he would still have maintained his sadness." "then he did not think of her; for when i left him he was not at all sad. but i haven't told you half yet." "dear me, mamma; was there more than that?" "and i've told it all wrong; for what i've got to tell now was said before a word was spoken about the house. he brought it in just after what he said about bernard. he said that bernard would, of course, be his heir." "of course he will." "and that he should think it wrong to encumber the property with any charges for you girls." "mamma, did any one ever--" "stop, lily, stop; and make your heart kinder towards him if you can." "it is kind; only i hate to be told that i'm not to have a lot of money, as though i had ever shown a desire for it. i have never envied bernard his man-servant, or his maid-servant, or his ox, or his ass, or anything that is his. to tell the truth i didn't even wish it to be bell's, because i knew well that there was somebody she would like a great deal better than ever she could like bernard." "i shall never get to the end of my story." "yes, you will, mamma, if you persevere." "the long and the short of it is this, that he has given bell three thousand pounds, and has given you three thousand also." "but why me, mamma?" said lily, and the colour of her cheeks became red as she spoke. there should if possible be nothing more said about john eames; but whatever might or might not be the necessity of speaking, at any rate, let there be no mistake. "but why me, mamma?" "because, as he explained to me, he thinks it right to do the same by each of you. the money is yours at this moment,--to buy hair-pins with, if you please. i had no idea that he could command so large a sum." "three thousand pounds! the last money he gave me was half-a-crown, and i thought that he was so stingy! i particularly wanted ten shillings. i should have liked it so much better now if he had given me a nice new five-pound note." "you'd better tell him so." "no; because then he'd give me that too. but with five pounds i should have the feeling that i might do what i liked with it;--buy a dressing-case, and a thing for a squirrel to run round in. but nobody ever gives girls money like that, so that they can enjoy it." "oh, lily; you ungrateful child!" "no, i deny it. i'm not ungrateful. i'm very grateful, because his heart was softened--and because he cried and kissed you. i'll be ever so good to him! but how i'm to thank him for giving me three thousand pounds, i cannot think. it's a sort of thing altogether beyond my line of life. it sounds like something that's to come to me in another world, but which i don't want quite yet. i am grateful, but with a misty, mazy sort of gratitude. can you tell me how soon i shall have a new pair of balmoral boots because of this money? if that were brought home to me i think it would enliven my gratitude." the squire, as he rode back to guestwick, fell again from that animation, which mrs. dale had described, into his natural sombre mood. he thought much of his past life, declaring to himself the truth of those words in which he had told his sister-in-law that his heart had ever been kinder than his words. but the world, and all those nearest to him in the world, had judged him always by his words rather than by his heart. they had taken the appearance, which he could not command or alter, rather than the facts, of which he had been the master. had he not been good to all his relations?--and yet was there one among them that cared for him? "i'm almost sorry that they are going to stay," he said to himself;--"i know that i shall disappoint them." yet when he met bell at the manor house he accosted her cheerily, telling her with much appearance of satisfaction that that flitting into guestwick was not to be accomplished. "i am so glad," said she. "it is long since i wished it." "and i do not think your mother wishes it now." "i am sure she does not. it was all a misunderstanding from the first. when some of us could not do all that you wished, we thought it better--" then bell paused, finding that she would get herself into a mess if she persevered. "we will not say any more about it," said the squire. "the thing is over, and i am very glad that it should be so pleasantly settled. i was talking to dr. crofts yesterday." "were you, uncle?" "yes; and he is to come and stay with me the day before he is married. we have arranged it all. and we'll have the breakfast up at the great house. only you must fix the day. i should say some time in may. and, my dear, you'll want to make yourself fine; here's a little money for you. you are to spend that before your marriage, you know." then he shambled away, and as soon as he was alone, again became sad and despondent. he was a man for whom we may predicate some gentle sadness and continued despondency to the end of his life's chapter. we left john eames in the custody of lady julia, who had overtaken him in the act of erasing lily's name from the railing which ran across the brook. he had been premeditating an escape home to his mother's house in guestwick, and thence back to london, without making any further appearance at the manor house. but as soon as he heard lady julia's step, and saw her figure close upon him, he knew that his retreat was cut off from him. so he allowed himself to be led away quietly up to the house. with lady julia herself he openly discussed the whole matter,--telling her that his hopes were over, his happiness gone, and his heart half-broken. though he would perhaps have cared but little for her congratulations in success, he could make himself more amenable to consolation and sympathy from her than from any other inmate in the earl's house. "i don't know what i shall say to your brother," he whispered to her, as they approached the side door at which she intended to enter. "will you let me break it to him? after that he will say a few words to you of course, but you need not be afraid of him." "and mr. dale?" said johnny. "everybody has heard about it. everybody will know what a fool i have made myself." she suggested that the earl should speak to the squire, assured him that nobody would think him at all foolish, and then left him to make his way up to his own bedroom. when there he found a letter from cradell, which had been delivered in his absence; but the contents of that letter may best be deferred to the next chapter. they were not of a nature to give him comfort or to add to his sorrow. about an hour before dinner there was a knock at his door, and the earl himself, when summoned, made his appearance in the room. he was dressed in his usual farming attire, having been caught by lady julia on his first approach to the house, and had come away direct to his young friend, after having been duly trained in what he ought to say by his kind-hearted sister. i am not, however, prepared to declare that he strictly followed his sister's teaching in all that he said upon the occasion. "well, my boy," he began, "so the young lady has been perverse." "yes, my lord. that is, i don't know about being perverse. it is all over." "that's as may be, johnny. as far as i know, not half of them accept their lovers the first time of asking." "i shall not ask her again." "oh, yes, you will. you don't mean to say you are angry with her for refusing you." "not in the least. i have no right to be angry. i am only angry with myself for being such a fool, lord de guest. i wish i had been dead before i came down here on this errand. now i think of it, i know there are so many things which ought to have made me sure how it would be." "i don't see that at all. you come down again,--let me see,--it's may now. say you come when the shooting begins in september. if we can't get you leave of absence in any other way, we'll make old buffle come too. only, by george, i believe he'd shoot us all. but never mind; we'll manage that. you keep up your spirits till september, and then we'll fight the battle in another way. the squire shall get up a little party for the bride, and my lady lily must go then. you shall meet her so; and then we'll shoot over the squire's land. we'll bring you together so; you see if we don't. lord bless me! refused once! my belief is, that in these days a girl thinks nothing of a man till she has refused him half-a-dozen times." "i don't think lily is at all like that." "look here, johnny. i have not a word to say against miss lily. i like her very much, and think her one of the nicest girls i know. when she's your wife, i'll love her dearly, if she'll let me. but she's made of the same stuff as other girls, and will act in the same way. things have gone a little astray among you, and they won't right themselves all in a minute. she knows now what your feelings are, and she'll go on thinking of it, till at last you'll be in her thoughts more than that other fellow. don't tell me about her becoming an old maid, because at her time of life she has been so unfortunate as to come across a false-hearted man like that. it may take a little time; but if you'll carry on and not be down-hearted, you'll find it will all come right in the end. everybody doesn't get all that they want in a minute. how i shall quiz you about all this when you have been two or three years married!" "i don't think i shall ever be able to ask her again; and i feel sure, if i do, that her answer will be the same. she told me in so many words--; but never mind, i cannot repeat her words." "i don't want you to repeat them; nor yet to heed them beyond their worth. lily dale is a very pretty girl; clever, too, i believe, and good, i'm sure; but her words are not more sacred than those of other men or women. what she has said to you now, she means, no doubt; but the minds of men and women are prone to change, especially when such changes are conducive to their own happiness." "at any rate i'll never forget your kindness, lord de guest." "and there is one other thing i want to say to you, johnny. a man should never allow himself to be cast down by anything,--not outwardly, to the eyes of other men." "but how is he to help it?" "his pluck should prevent him. you were not afraid of a roaring bull, nor yet of that man when you thrashed him at the railway station. you've pluck enough of that kind. you must now show that you've that other kind of pluck. you know the story of the boy who would not cry though the wolf was gnawing him underneath his frock. most of us have some wolf to gnaw us somewhere; but we are generally gnawed beneath our clothes, so that the world doesn't see; and it behoves us so to bear it that the world shall not suspect. the man who goes about declaring himself to be miserable will be not only miserable, but contemptible as well." "but the wolf hasn't gnawed me beneath my clothes; everybody knows it." "then let those who do know it learn that you are able to bear such wounds without outward complaint. i tell you fairly that i cannot sympathize with a lackadaisical lover." "i know that i have made myself ridiculous to everybody. i wish i had never come here. i wish you had never seen me." "don't say that, my dear boy; but take my advice for what it is worth. and remember what it is that i say; with your grief i do sympathize, but not with any outward expression of it;--not with melancholy looks, and a sad voice, and an unhappy gait. a man should always be able to drink his wine and seem to enjoy it. if he can't, he is so much less of a man than he would be otherwise,--not so much more, as some people seem to think. now get yourself dressed, my dear fellow, and come down to dinner as though nothing had happened to you." as soon as the earl was gone john looked at his watch and saw that it still wanted some forty minutes to dinner. fifteen minutes would suffice for him to dress, and therefore there was time sufficient for him to seat himself in his arm-chair and think over it all. he had for a moment been very angry when his friend had told him that he could not sympathize with a lackadaisical lover. it was an ill-natured word. he felt it to be so when he heard it, and so he continued to think during the whole of the half-hour that he sat in that chair. but it probably did him more good than any word that the earl had ever spoken to him,--or any other word that he could have used. "lackadaisical! i'm not lackadaisical," he said to himself, jumping up from his chair, and instantly sitting down again. "i didn't say anything to him. i didn't tell him. why did he come to me?" and yet, though he endeavoured to abuse lord de guest in his thoughts, he knew that lord de guest was right, and that he was wrong. he knew that he had been lackadaisical, and was ashamed of himself; and at once resolved that he would henceforth demean himself as though no calamity had happened to him. "i've a good mind to take him at his word, and drink wine till i'm drunk." then he strove to get up his courage by a song. if she be not fair for me, what care i how-- "but i do care. what stuff it is a man writing poetry and putting into it such lies as that! everybody knows that he did care,--that is, if he wasn't a heartless beast." but nevertheless, when the time came for him to go down into the drawing-room he did make the effort which his friend had counselled, and walked into the room with less of that hang-dog look than the earl and lady julia had expected. they were both there, as was also the squire, and bell followed him in less than a minute. "you haven't seen crofts to-day, john, have you?" said the earl. "no; i haven't been anywhere his way!" "his way! his ways are every way, i take it. i wanted him to come and dine, but he seemed to think it improper to eat two dinners in the same house two days running. isn't that his theory, miss dale?" "i'm sure i don't know, lord de guest. at any rate, it isn't mine." so they went to their feast, and before his last chance was over john eames found himself able to go through the pretence of enjoying his roast mutton. there can, i think, be no doubt that in all such calamities as that which he was now suffering, the agony of the misfortune is much increased by the conviction that the facts of the case are known to those round about the sufferer. a most warm-hearted and intensely-feeling young gentleman might, no doubt, eat an excellent dinner after being refused by the girl of his devotions, provided that he had reason to believe that none of those in whose company he ate it knew anything of his rejection. but the same warm-hearted and intensely-feeling young gentleman would find it very difficult to go through the ceremony with any appearance of true appetite or gastronomic enjoyment, if he were aware that all his convives knew all the facts of his little misfortune. generally, we may suppose, a man in such condition goes to his club for his dinner, or seeks consolation in the shades of some adjacent richmond or hampton court. there he meditates on his condition in silence, and does ultimately enjoy his little plate of whitebait, his cutlet and his moderate pint of sherry. he probably goes alone to the theatre, and, in his stall, speculates with a somewhat bitter sarcasm on the vanity of the world. then he returns home, sad indeed, but with a moderated sadness, and as he puffs out the smoke of his cigar at the open window,--with perhaps the comfort of a little brandy-and-water at his elbow,--swears to himself that, "by jove, he'll have another try for it." alone, a man may console himself, or among a crowd of unconscious mortals; but it must be admitted that the position of john eames was severe. he had been invited down there to woo lily dale, and the squire and bell had been asked to be present at the wooing. had it all gone well, nothing could have been nicer. he would have been the hero of the hour, and everybody would have sung for him his song of triumph. but everything had not gone well, and he found it very difficult to carry himself otherwise than lackadaisically. on the whole, however, his effort was such that the earl gave him credit for his demeanour, and told him when parting with him for the night that he was a fine fellow, and that everything should go right with him yet. "and you mustn't be angry with me for speaking harshly to you," he said. "i wasn't a bit angry." "yes, you were; and i rather meant that you should be. but you mustn't go away in dudgeon." he stayed at the manor house one day longer, and then he returned to his room at the income-tax office, to the disagreeable sound of sir raffle's little bell, and the much more disagreeable sound of sir raffle's big voice. chapter lix. john eames becomes a man. eames, when he was half way up to london in the railway carriage, took out from his pocket a letter and read it. during the former portion of his journey he had been thinking of other things; but gradually he had resolved that it would be better for him not to think more of those other things for the present, and therefore he had recourse to his letter by way of dissipating his thoughts. it was from cradell, and ran as follows:-- income-tax office, may --, --. my dear john,--i hope the tidings which i have to give you will not make you angry, and that you will not think i am untrue to the great friendship which i have for you because of that which i am now going to tell you. there is no _man_--[and the word man was underscored]--there is no _man_ whose regard i value so highly as i do yours; and though i feel that you can have no just ground to be displeased with me after all that i have heard you say on many occasions, nevertheless, in matters of the heart it is very hard for one person to understand the sentiments of another, and when the affections of a lady are concerned, i know that quarrels will sometimes arise. eames, when he had got so far as this, on the first perusal of the letter, knew well what was to follow. "poor caudle!" he said to himself; "he's hooked, and he'll never get himself off the hook again." but let that be as it may, the matter has now gone too far for any alteration to be made by me; nor would any mere earthly inducement suffice to change me. the claims of friendship are very strong, _but those of love are paramount_. of course i know all that has passed between you and amelia roper. much of this i had heard from you before, but the rest she has now told me with that pure-minded honesty which is the most remarkable feature in her character. she has confessed that at one time she felt attached to you, and that she was induced by your perseverance to allow you to regard her as your fiancy. [fancy-girl he probably conceived to be the vulgar english for the elegant term which he used.] but all that must be over between you now. _amelia has promised to be mine_--[this also was underscored]--and mine i intend that she shall be. that you may find in the kind smiles of l. d. consolation for any disappointment which this may occasion you, is the ardent wish of your true friend, joseph cradell. p.s.--perhaps i had better tell you the whole. mrs. roper has been in some trouble about her house. she is a little in arrears with her rent, and some bills have not been paid. as she explained that she has been brought into this by those dreadful lupexes i have consented to take the house into my own hands, and have given bills to one or two tradesmen for small amounts. of course she will take them up, but it was the credit that was wanting. she will carry on the house, but i shall, in fact, be the proprietor. i suppose it will not suit you now to remain here, but don't you think i might make it comfortable enough for some of our fellows; say half-a-dozen, or so? that is mrs. roper's idea, and i certainly think it is not a bad one. our first efforts must be to get rid of the lupexes. miss spruce goes next week. in the meantime we are all taking our meals up in our own rooms, so that there is nothing for the lupexes to eat. but they don't seem to mind that, and still keep the sitting-room and best bedroom. we mean to lock them out after tuesday, and send all their boxes to the public-house. poor cradell! eames, as he threw himself back upon his seat and contemplated the depth of misfortune into which his friend had fallen, began to be almost in love with his own position. he himself was, no doubt, a very miserable fellow. there was only one thing in life worth living for, and that he could not get. he had been thinking for the last three days of throwing himself before a locomotive steam-engine, and was not quite sure that he would not do it yet; but, nevertheless, his place was a place among the gods as compared to that which poor cradell had selected for himself. to be not only the husband of amelia roper, but to have been driven to take upon himself as his bride's fortune the whole of his future mother-in-law's debts! to find himself the owner of a very indifferent lodging-house;--the owner as regarded all responsibility, though not the owner as regarded any possible profit! and then, above and almost worse than all the rest, to find himself saddled with the lupexes in the beginning of his career! poor cradell indeed! eames had not taken his things away from the lodging-house before he left london, and therefore determined to drive to burton crescent immediately on his arrival, not with the intention of remaining there, even for a night, but that he might bid them farewell, speak his congratulations to amelia, and arrange for his final settlement with mrs. roper. it should have been explained in the last chapter that the earl had told him before parting with him that his want of success with lily would make no difference as regarded money. john had, of course, expostulated, saying that he did not want anything, and would not, under his existing circumstances, accept anything; but the earl was a man who knew how to have his own way, and in this matter did have it. our friend, therefore, was a man of wealth when he returned to london, and could tell mrs. roper that he would send her a cheque for her little balance as soon as he reached his office. he arrived in the middle of the day,--not timing his return at all after the usual manner of government clerks, who generally manage to reach the metropolis not more than half an hour before the moment at which they are bound to show themselves in their seats. but he had come back two days before he was due, and had run away from the country as though london in may to him were much pleasanter than the woods and fields. but neither had london nor the woods and fields any influence on his return. he had gone down that he might throw himself at the feet of lily dale,--gone down, as he now confessed to himself, with hopes almost triumphant, and he had returned because lily dale would not have him at her feet. "i loved him,--him, crosbie,--better than all the world besides. it is still the same. i still love him better than all the world." those were the words which had driven him back to london; and having been sent away with such words as those, it was little matter to him whether he reached his office a day or two sooner or later. the little room in the city, even with the accompaniment of sir raffle's bell and sir raffle's voice, would be now more congenial to him than lady julia's drawing-room. he would therefore present himself to sir raffle on that very afternoon, and expel some interloper from his seat. but he would first call in burton crescent and say farewell to the ropers. the door was opened for him by the faithful jemima. "mr. heames, mr. heames! ho dear, ho dear!" and the poor girl, who had always taken his side in the adventures of the lodging-house, raised her hands on high and lamented the fate which had separated her favourite from its fortunes. "i suppose you knows it all, mister johnny?" mister johnny said that he believed he did know it all, and asked for the mistress of the house. "yes, sure enough, she's at home. she don't dare stir out much, 'cause of them lupexes. ain't this a pretty game? no dinner and no nothink! them boxes is miss spruce's. she's agoing now, this minute. you'll find 'em all upstairs in the drawen-room." so upstairs into the drawing-room he went, and there he found the mother and daughter, and with them miss spruce, tightly packed up in her bonnet and shawl. "don't, mother," amelia was saying; "what's the good of going on in that way? if she chooses to go, let her go." "but she's been with me now so many years," said mrs. roper, sobbing; "and i've always done everything for her! haven't i, now, sally spruce?" it struck eames immediately that, though he had been an inmate in the house for two years, he had never before heard that maiden lady's christian name. miss spruce was the first to see eames as he entered the room. it is probable that mrs. roper's pathos might have produced some answering pathos on her part had she remained unobserved, but the sight of a young man brought her back to her usual state of quiescence. "i'm only an old woman," said she; "and here's mr. eames come back again." "how d'ye do, mrs. roper? how d'ye do,--amelia? how d'ye do, miss spruce?" and he shook hands with them all. "oh, laws," said mrs. roper, "you have given me such a start!" "dear me, mr. eames; only think of your coming back in that way," said amelia. "well, what way should i come back? you didn't hear me knock at the door, that's all. so miss spruce is really going to leave you?" "isn't it dreadful, mr. eames? nineteen years we've been together;--taking both houses together, miss spruce, we have, indeed." miss spruce, at this point, struggled very hard to convince john eames that the period in question had in truth extended over only eighteen years, but mrs. roper was authoritative, and would not permit it. "it's nineteen years if it's a day. no one ought to know dates if i don't, and there isn't one in the world understands her ways unless it's me. haven't i been up to your bedroom every night, and with my own hand given you--" but she stopped herself, and was too good a woman to declare before a young man what had been the nature of her nightly ministrations to her guest. "i don't think you'll be so comfortable anywhere else, miss spruce," said eames. "comfortable! of course she won't," said amelia. "but if i was mother i wouldn't have any more words about it." "it isn't the money i'm thinking of, but the feeling of it," said mrs. roper. "the house will be so lonely like. i shan't know myself; that i shan't. and now that things are all settled so pleasantly, and that the lupexes must go on tuesday-- i'll tell you what, sally; i'll pay for the cab myself, and i'll start off to dulwich by the omnibus to-morrow, and settle it all out of my own pocket. i will indeed. come; there's the cab. let me go down, and send him away." "i'll do that," said eames. "it's only sixpence, off the stand," mrs. roper called to him as he left the room. but the cabman got a shilling, and john, as he returned, found jemima in the act of carrying miss spruce's boxes back to her room. "so much the better for poor caudle," said he to himself. "as he has gone into the trade it's well that he should have somebody that will pay him." mrs. roper followed miss spruce up the stairs and johnny was left with amelia. "he's written to you, i know," said she, with her face turned a little away from him. she was certainly very handsome, but there was a hard, cross, almost sullen look about her, which robbed her countenance of all its pleasantness. and yet she had no intention of being sullen with him. "yes," said john. "he has told me how it's all going to be." "well?" she said. "well?" said he. "is that all you've got to say?" "i'll congratulate you, if you'll let me." "psha;--congratulations! i hate such humbug. if you've no feelings about it, i'm sure that i've none. indeed i don't know what's the good of feelings. they never did me any good. are you engaged to marry l. d.?" "no, i am not." "and you've nothing else to say to me?" "nothing,--except my hopes for your happiness. what else can i say? you are engaged to marry my friend cradell, and i think it will be a happy match." she turned away her face further from him, and the look of it became even more sullen. could it be possible that at such a moment she still had a hope that he might come back to her? "good-by, amelia," he said, putting out his hand to her. "and this is to be the last of you in this house!" "well, i don't know about that. i'll come and call upon you, if you'll let me, when you're married." "yes," she said, "that there may be rows in the house, and noise, and jealousy,--as there have been with that wicked woman upstairs. not if i know it, you won't! john eames, i wish i'd never seen you. i wish we might have both fallen dead when we first met. i didn't think ever to have cared for a man as i have cared for you. it's all trash and nonsense and foolery; i know that. it's all very well for young ladies as can sit in drawing-rooms all their lives, but when a woman has her way to make in the world it's all foolery. and such a hard way too to make as mine is!" "but it won't be hard now." "won't it? but i think it will. i wish you would try it. not that i'm going to complain. i never minded work, and as for company, i can put up with anybody. the world's not to be all dancing and fiddling for the likes of me. i know that well enough. but--" and then she paused. "what's the 'but' about, amelia?" "it's like you to ask me; isn't it?" to tell the truth he should not have asked her. "never mind. i'm not going to have any words with you. if you've been a knave i've been a fool, and that's worse." "but i don't think i have been a knave." "i've been both," said the girl; "and both for nothing. after that you may go. i've told you what i am, and i'll leave you to name yourself. i didn't think it was in me to have been such a fool. it's that that frets me. never mind, sir; it's all over now, and i wish you good-by." i do not think that there was the slightest reason why john should have again kissed her at parting, but he did so. she bore it, not struggling with him; but she took his caress with sullen endurance. "it'll be the last," she said. "good-by, john eames." "good-by, amelia. try to make him a good wife and then you'll be happy." she turned up her nose at this, assuming a look of unutterable scorn. but she said nothing further, and then he left the room. at the parlour door he met mrs. roper, and had his parting words with her. "i am so glad you came," said she. "it was just that word you said that made miss spruce stay. her money is so ready, you know! and so you've had it all out with her about cradell. she'll make him a good wife, she will indeed;--much better than you've been giving her credit for." "i don't doubt she'll be a very good wife." "you see, mr. eames, it's all over now, and we understand each other; don't we? it made me very unhappy when she was setting her cap at you; it did indeed. she is my own daughter, and i couldn't go against her;--could i? but i knew it wasn't in any way suiting. laws, i know the difference. she's good enough for him any day of the week, mr. eames." "that she is,--saturdays or sundays," said johnny, not knowing exactly what he ought to say. "so she is; and if he does his duty by her she won't go astray in hers by him. and as for you, mr. eames, i am sure i've always felt it an honour and a pleasure to have you in the house; and if ever you could use a good word in sending to me any of your young men, i'd do by them as a mother should; i would indeed. i know i've been to blame about those lupexes, but haven't i suffered for it, mr. eames? and it was difficult to know at first; wasn't it? and as to you and amelia, if you would send any of your young men to try, there couldn't be anything more of that kind, could there? i know it hasn't all been just as it should have been;--that is as regards you; but i should like to hear you say that you've found me honest before you went. i have tried to be honest, i have indeed." eames assured her that he was convinced of her honesty, and that he had never thought of impugning her character either in regard to those unfortunate people, the lupexes, or in reference to other matters. "he did not think," he said, "that any young men would consult him as to their lodgings; but if he could be of any service to her, he would." then he bade her good-by, and having bestowed half-a-sovereign on the faithful jemima, he took a long farewell of burton crescent. amelia had told him not to come and see her when she should be married, and he had resolved that he would take her at her word. so he walked off from the crescent, not exactly shaking the dust from his feet, but resolving that he would know no more either of its dust or of its dirt. dirt enough he had encountered there certainly, and he was now old enough to feel that the inmates of mrs. roper's house had not been those among whom a resting-place for his early years should judiciously have been sought. but he had come out of the fire comparatively unharmed, and i regret to say that he felt but little for the terrible scorchings to which his friend had been subjected and was about to subject himself. he was quite content to look at the matter exactly as it was looked at by mrs. roper. amelia was good enough for joseph cradell--any day of the week. poor cradell, of whom in these pages after this notice no more will be heard! i cannot but think that a hard measure of justice was meted out to him, in proportion to the extent of his sins. more weak and foolish than our friend and hero he had been, but not to my knowledge more wicked. but it is to the vain and foolish that the punishments fall;--and to them they fall so thickly and constantly that the thinker is driven to think that vanity and folly are of all sins those which may be the least forgiven. as for cradell i may declare that he did marry amelia, that he did, with some pride, take the place of master of the house at the bottom of mrs. roper's table, and that he did make himself responsible for all mrs. roper's debts. of his future fortunes there is not space to speak in these pages. going away from the crescent eames had himself driven to his office, which he reached just as the men were leaving it, at four o'clock. cradell was gone, so that he did not see him on that afternoon; but he had an opportunity of shaking hands with mr. love, who treated him with all the smiling courtesy due to an official bigwig,--for a private secretary, if not absolutely a big-wig, is semi-big, and entitled to a certain amount of reverence;--and he passed mr. kissing in the passage, hurrying along as usual with a huge book under his arm. mr. kissing, hurried as he was, stopped his shuffling feet; but eames only looked at him, hardly honouring him with the acknowledgment of a nod of his head. mr. kissing, however, was not offended; he knew that the private secretary of the first commissioner had been the guest of an earl; and what more than a nod could be expected from him? after that john made his way into the august presence of sir raffle, and found that great man putting on his shoes in the presence of fitzhoward. fitzhoward blushed; but the shoes had not been touched by him, as he took occasion afterwards to inform john eames. sir raffle was all smiles and civility. "delighted to see you back, eames: am, upon my word; though i and fitzhoward have got on capitally in your absence; haven't we, fitzhoward?" "oh, yes," drawled fitzhoward. "i haven't minded it for a time, just while eames has been away." "you're much too idle to keep at it, i know; but your bread will be buttered for you elsewhere, so it doesn't signify. my compliments to the duchess when you see her." then fitzhoward went. "and how's my dear old friend?" asked sir raffle, as though of all men living lord de guest were the one for whom he had the strongest and the oldest love. and yet he must have known that john eames knew as much about it as he did himself. but there are men who have the most lively gratification in calling lords and marquises their friends, though they know that nobody believes a word of what they say,--even though they know how great is the odium they incur, and how lasting is the ridicule which their vanity produces. it is a gentle insanity which prevails in the outer courts of every aristocracy; and as it brings with itself considerable annoyance and but a lukewarm pleasure, it should not be treated with too keen a severity. "and how's my dear old friend?" eames assured him that his dear old friend was all right, that lady julia was all right, that the dear old place was all right. sir raffle now spoke as though the "dear old place" were quite well known to him. "was the game doing pretty well? was there a promise of birds?" sir raffle's anxiety was quite intense, and expressed with almost familiar affection. "and, by-the-by, eames, where are you living at present?" "well, i'm not settled. i'm at the great western railway hotel at this moment." "capital house, very; only it's expensive if you stay there the whole season." johnny had no idea of remaining there beyond one night, but he said nothing as to this. "by-the-by, you might as well come and dine with us to-morrow. lady buffle is most anxious to know you. there'll be one or two with us. i did ask my friend dumbello, but there's some nonsense going on in the house, and he thinks that he can't get away." johnny was more gracious than lord dumbello, and accepted the invitation. "i wonder what lady buffle will be like?" he said to himself, as he walked away from the office. he had turned into the great western hotel, not as yet knowing where to look for a home; and there we will leave him, eating his solitary mutton-chop at one of those tables which are so comfortable to the eye, but which are so comfortless in reality. i speak not now with reference to the excellent establishment which has been named, but to the nature of such tables in general. a solitary mutton-chop in an hotel coffee-room is not a banquet to be envied by any god; and if the mutton-chop be converted into soup, fish, little dishes, big dishes, and the rest, the matter becomes worse and not better. what comfort are you to have, seated alone on that horsehair chair, staring into the room and watching the waiters as they whisk about their towels? no one but an englishman has ever yet thought of subjecting himself to such a position as that! but here we will leave john eames, and in doing so i must be allowed to declare that only now, at this moment, has he entered on his manhood. hitherto he has been a hobbledehoy,--a calf, as it were, who had carried his calfishness later into life than is common with calves; but who did not, perhaps, on that account, give promise of making a worse ox than the rest of them. his life hitherto, as recorded in these pages, had afforded him no brilliant success, had hardly qualified him for the role of hero which he has been made to play. i feel that i have been in fault in giving such prominence to a hobbledehoy, and that i should have told my story better had i brought mr. crosbie more conspicuously forward on my canvas. he at any rate has gotten to himself a wife--as a hero always should do; whereas i must leave my poor friend johnny without any matrimonial prospects. it was thus that he thought of himself as he sat moping over his solitary table in the hotel coffee-room. he acknowledged to himself that he had not hitherto been a man; but at the same time he made some resolution which, i trust, may assist him in commencing his manhood from this date. chapter lx. conclusion. it was early in june that lily went up to her uncle at the great house, pleading for hopkins,--pleading that to hopkins might be restored all the privileges of head gardener at the great house. there was some absurdity in this, seeing that he had never really relinquished his privileges; but the manner of the quarrel had been in this wise. there was in those days, and had been for years, a vexed question between hopkins and jolliffe the bailiff on the matter of--stable manure. hopkins had pretended to the right of taking what he required from the farmyard, without asking leave of any one. jolliffe in return had hinted, that if this were so, hopkins would take it all. "but i can't eat it," hopkins had said. jolliffe merely grunted, signifying by the grunt, as hopkins thought, that though a gardener couldn't eat a mountain of manure fifty feet long and fifteen high--couldn't eat in the body,--he might convert it into things edible for his own personal use. and so there had been a great feud. the unfortunate squire had of course been called on to arbitrate, and having postponed his decision by every contrivance possible to him, had at last been driven by jolliffe to declare that hopkins should take nothing that was not assigned to him. hopkins, when the decision was made known to him by his master, bit his old lips, and turned round upon his old heel, speechless. "you'll find it's so at all other places," said the squire, apologetically. "other places!" sneered hopkins. where would he find other gardeners like himself? it is hardly necessary to declare that from that moment he resolved that he would abide by no such order. jolliffe on the next morning informed the squire that the order had been broken, and the squire fretted and fumed, wishing that jolliffe were well buried under the mountain in question. "if they all is to do as they like," said jolliffe, "then nobody won't care for nobody." the squire understood that an order if given must be obeyed, and therefore, with many inner groanings of the spirit, resolved that war must be waged against hopkins. on the following morning he found the old man himself wheeling a huge barrow of manure round from the yard into the kitchen-garden. now, on ordinary occasions, hopkins was not required to do with his own hands work of that description. he had a man under him who hewed wood, and carried water, and wheeled barrows,--one man always, and often two. the squire knew when he saw him that he was sinning, and bade him stop upon his road. "hopkins," he said, "why didn't you ask for what you wanted, before you took it?" the old man put down the barrow on the ground, looked up in his master's face, spat into his hands, and then again resumed his barrow. "hopkins, that won't do," said the squire. "stop where you are." "what won't do?" said hopkins, still holding the barrow from the ground, but not as yet progressing. "put it down, hopkins," and hopkins did put it down. "don't you know that you are flatly disobeying my orders?" "squire, i've been here about this place going on nigh seventy years." "if you've been going on a hundred and seventy it wouldn't do that there should be more than one master. i'm the master here, and i intend to be so to the end. take that manure back into the yard." "back into the yard?" said hopkins, very slowly. "yes; back into the yard." "what,--afore all their faces?" "yes; you've disobeyed me before all their faces?" hopkins paused a moment, looking away from the squire, and shaking his head as though he had need of deep thought, but by the aid of deep thought had come at last to a right conclusion. then he resumed the barrow, and putting himself almost into a trot, carried away his prize into the kitchen-garden. at the pace which he went it would have been beyond the squire's power to stop him, nor would mr. dale have wished to come to a personal encounter with his servant. but he called after the man in dire wrath that if he were not obeyed the disobedient servant should rue the consequences for ever. hopkins, equal to the occasion, shook his head as he trotted on, deposited his load at the foot of the cucumber-frames, and then at once returning to his master, tendered to him the key of the greenhouse. "master," said hopkins, speaking as best he could with his scanty breath, "there it is;--there's the key; of course i don't want no warning, and doesn't care about my week's wages. i'll be out of the cottage afore night, and as for the work'us, i suppose they'll let me in at once, if your honour'll give 'em a line." now as hopkins was well known by the squire to be the owner of three or four hundred pounds, the hint about the workhouse must be allowed to have been melodramatic. "don't be a fool," said the squire, almost gnashing his teeth. "i know i've been a fool," said hopkins, "about that 'ere doong; my feelings has been too much for me. when a man's feelings has been too much for him, he'd better just take hisself off, and lie in the work'us till he dies." and then he again tendered the key. but the squire did not take the key, and so hopkins went on. "i s'pose i'd better just see to the lights and the like of that, till you've suited yourself, mr. dale. it 'ud be a pity all them grapes should go off, and they, as you may say, all one as fit for the table. it's a long way the best crop i ever see on 'em. i've been that careful with 'em that i haven't had a natural night's rest, not since february. there ain't nobody about this place as understands grapes, nor yet anywhere nigh that could be got at. my lord's head man is wery ignorant; but even if he knew ever so, of course he couldn't come here. i suppose i'd better keep the key till you're suited, mr. dale." then for a fortnight there was an interregnum in the gardens, terrible in the annals of allington. hopkins lived in his cottage indeed, and looked most sedulously after the grapes. in looking after the grapes, too, he took the greenhouses under his care; but he would have nothing to do with the outer gardens, took no wages, returning the amount sent to him back to the squire, and insisted with everybody that he had been dismissed. he went about with some terrible horticultural implement always in his hand, with which it was said that he intended to attack jolliffe; but jolliffe prudently kept out of his way. as soon as it had been resolved by mrs. dale and lily that the flitting from the small house at allington was not to be accomplished, lily communicated the fact to hopkins. "miss," said he, "when i said them few words to you and your mamma, i knew that you would listen to reason." this was no more than lily had expected; that hopkins should claim the honour of having prevailed by his arguments was a matter of course. "yes," said lily; "we've made up our minds to stay. uncle wishes it." "wishes it! laws, miss; it ain't only wishes. and we all wishes it. why, now, look at the reason of the thing. here's this here house--" "but, hopkins, it's decided. we're going to stay. what i want to know is this; can you come at once and help me to unpack?" "what! this very evening, as is--" "yes, now; we want to have the things about again before they come back from guestwick." hopkins scratched his head and hesitated, not wishing to yield to any proposition that could be considered as childish; but he gave way at last, feeling that the work itself was a good work. mrs. dale also assented, laughing at lily for her folly as she did so, and in this way the things were unpacked very quickly, and the alliance between lily and hopkins became, for the time, very close. this work of unpacking and resettling was not yet over, when the battle of the manure broke out, and therefore it was that hopkins, when his feelings had become altogether too much for him "about the doong," came at last to lily, and laying down at her feet all the weight and all the glory of his sixty odd years of life, implored her to make matters straight for him. "it's been a killing me, miss, so it has; to see the way they've been a cutting that 'sparagus. it ain't cutting at all. it's just hocking it up;--what is fit, and what isn't, all together. and they've been a-putting the plants in where i didn't mean 'em, though they know'd i didn't mean 'em. i've stood by, miss, and said never a word. i'd a died sooner. but, miss lily, what my sufferings have been, 'cause of my feelings getting the better of me about that--you know, miss--nobody will ever tell;--nobody--nobody--nobody." then hopkins turned away and wept. "uncle," said lily, creeping close up against his chair, "i want to ask you a great favour." "a great favour. well, i don't think i shall refuse you anything at present. it isn't to ask another earl to the house,--is it?" "another earl!" said lily. "yes; haven't you heard? miss bell has been here this morning, insisting that i should have over lord de guest and his sister for the marriage. it seems that there was some scheming between bell and lady julia." "of course you'll ask them." "of course i must. i've no way out of it. it'll be all very well for bell, who'll be off to wales with her lover; but what am i to do with the earl and lady julia, when they're gone? will you come and help me?" in answer to this, lily of course promised that she would come and help. "indeed," said she, "i thought we were all asked up for the day. and now for my favour. uncle, you must forgive poor hopkins." "forgive a fiddlestick!" said the squire. "no, but you must. you can't think how unhappy he is." "how can i forgive a man who won't forgive me. he goes prowling about the place doing nothing; and he sends me back his wages, and he looks as though he were going to murder some one; and all because he wouldn't do as he was told. how am i to forgive such a man as that?" "but, uncle, why not?" "it would be his forgiving me. he knows very well that he may come back whenever he pleases; and, indeed, for the matter of that he has never gone away." "but he is so very unhappy." "what can i do to make him happier?" "just go down to his cottage and tell him that you forgive him." "then he'll argue with me." "no; i don't think he will. he is too much down in the world for arguing now." "ah! you don't know him as i do. all the misfortunes in the world wouldn't stop that man's conceit. of course i'll go if you ask me, but it seems to me that i'm made to knock under to everybody. i hear a great deal about other people's feelings, but i don't know that mine are very much thought of." he was not altogether in a happy mood, and lily almost regretted that she had persevered; but she did succeed in carrying him off across the garden to the cottage, and as they went together she promised him that she would think of him always,--always. the scene with hopkins cannot be described now, as it would take too many of our few remaining pages. it resulted, i am afraid i must confess, in nothing more triumphant to the squire than a treaty of mutual forgiveness. hopkins acknowledged, with much self-reproach, that his feelings had been too many for him; but then, look at his provocation! he could not keep his tongue from that matter, and certainly said as much in his own defence as he did in confession of his sins. the substantial triumph was altogether his, for nobody again ever dared to interfere with his operations in the farmyard. he showed his submission to his master mainly by consenting to receive his wages for the two weeks which he had passed in idleness. owing to this little accident, lily was not so much oppressed by hopkins as she had expected to be in that matter of their altered plans; but this salvation did not extend to mrs. hearn, to mrs. crump, or, above all, to mrs. boyce. they, all of them, took an interest more or less strong in the hopkins controversy; but their interest in the occupation of the small house was much stronger, and it was found useless to put mrs. hearn off with the gardener's persistent refusal of his wages, when she was big with inquiry whether the house was to be painted inside, as well as out. "ah," said she, "i think i'll go and look at lodgings at guestwick myself, and pack up some of my beds." lily made no answer to this, feeling that it was a part of that punishment which she had expected. "dear, dear," said mrs. crump to the two girls; "well, to be sure, we should 'a been 'lone without 'ee, and mayhap we might 'a got worse in your place; but why did 'ee go and fasten up all your things in them big boxes, just to unfasten 'em all again?" "we changed our minds, mrs. crump," said bell, with some severity. "yees, i know ye changed your mindses. well, it's all right for loiks o' ye, no doubt; but if we changes our mindses, we hears of it." "so, it seems, do we!" said lily. "but never mind, mrs. crump. do you send us our letters up early, and then we won't quarrel." "oh, letters! drat them for letters. i wish there weren't no sich things. there was a man here yesterday with his imperence. i don't know where he come from,--down from lun'on, i b'leeve: and this was wrong, and that was wrong, and everything was wrong; and then he said he'd have me discharged the sarvice." "dear me, mrs. crump; that wouldn't do at all." "discharged the sarvice! tuppence farden a day. so i told 'un to discharge hisself, and take all the old bundles and things away upon his shoulders. letters indeed! what business have they with post-missusses, if they cannot pay 'em better nor tuppence farden a day?" and in this way, under the shelter of mrs. crump's storm of wrath against the inspector who had visited her, lily and bell escaped much that would have fallen upon their own heads; but mrs. boyce still remained. i may here add, in order that mrs. crump's history may be carried on to the farthest possible point, that she was not "discharged the sarvice," and that she still receives her twopence farthing a day from the crown. "that's a bitter old lady," said the inspector to the man who was driving him. "yes, sir; they all says the same about she. there ain't none of 'em get much change out of mrs. crump." bell and lily went together also to mrs. boyce's. "if she makes herself very disagreeable, i shall insist upon talking of your marriage," said lily. "i've not the slightest objection," said bell; "only i don't know what there can be to say about it. marrying the doctor is such a very commonplace sort of thing." "not a bit more commonplace than marrying the parson," said lily. "oh, yes, it is. parsons' marriages are often very grand affairs. they come in among county people. that's their luck in life. doctors never do; nor lawyers. i don't think lawyers ever get married in the country. they're supposed to do it up in london. but a country doctor's wedding is not a thing to be talked about much." mrs. boyce probably agreed in this view of the matter, seeing that she did not choose the coming marriage as her first subject of conversation. as soon as the two girls were seated she flew away immediately to the house, and began to express her very great surprise,--her surprise and her joy also,--at the sudden change which had been made in their plans. "it is so much nicer, you know," said she, "that things should be pleasant among relatives." "things always have been tolerably pleasant with us," said bell. "oh, yes; i'm sure of that. i've always said it was quite a pleasure to see you and your uncle together. and when we heard about your all having to leave--" "but we didn't have to leave, mrs. boyce. we were going to leave because we thought mamma would be more comfortable in guestwick; and now we're not going to leave, because we've all 'changed our mindses,' as mrs. crump calls it." "and is it true the house is going to be painted?" asked mrs. boyce. "i believe it is true," said lily. "inside and out?" "it must be done some day," said bell. "yes, to be sure; but i must say it is generous of the squire. there's such a deal of wood-work about your house. i know i wish the ecclesiastical commissioners would paint ours; but nobody ever does anything for the clergy. i'm sure i'm delighted you're going to stay. as i said to mr. boyce, what should we ever have done without you? i believe the squire had made up his mind that he would not let the place." "i don't think he ever has let it." "and if there was nobody in it, it would all go to rack and ruin; wouldn't it? had your mamma to pay anything for the lodgings she engaged at guestwick?" "upon my word, i don't know. bell can tell you better about that than i, as dr. crofts settled it. i suppose dr. crofts tells her everything." and so the conversation was changed, and mrs. boyce was made to understand that whatever further mystery there might be, it would not be unravelled on that occasion. it was settled that dr. crofts and bell should be married about the middle of june, and the squire determined to give what grace he could to the ceremony by opening his own house on the occasion. lord de guest and lady julia were invited by special arrangement between her ladyship and bell, as has been before explained. the colonel also with lady fanny came up from torquay on the occasion, this being the first visit made by the colonel to his paternal roof for many years. bernard did not accompany his father. he had not yet gone abroad, but there were circumstances which made him feel that he would not find himself comfortable at the wedding. the service was performed by mr. boyce, assisted, as the _county chronicle_ very fully remarked, by the reverend john joseph jones, m.a., late of jesus college, cambridge, and curate of st. peter's, northgate, guestwick; the fault of which little advertisement was this,--that as none of the readers of the paper had patience to get beyond the reverend john joseph jones, the fact of bell's marriage with dr. crofts was not disseminated as widely as might have been wished. the marriage went off very nicely. the squire was upon his very best behaviour, and welcomed his guests as though he really enjoyed their presence there in his halls. hopkins, who was quite aware that he had been triumphant, decorated the old rooms with mingled flowers and greenery with an assiduous care which pleased the two girls mightily. and during this work of wreathing and decking there was one little morsel of feeling displayed which may as well be told in these last lines. lily had been encouraging the old man while bell for a moment had been absent. "i wish it had been for thee, my darling!" he said; "i wish it had been for thee!" "it is much better as it is, hopkins," she answered, solemnly. "not with him, though," he went on, "not with him. i wouldn't 'a hung a bough for him. but with t'other one." lily said no word further. she knew that the man was expressing the wishes of all around her. she said no word further, and then bell returned to them. but no one at the wedding was so gay as lily,--so gay, so bright, and so wedding-like. she flirted with the old earl till he declared that he would marry her himself. no one seeing her that evening, and knowing nothing of her immediate history, would have imagined that she herself had been cruelly jilted some six or eight months ago. and those who did know her could not imagine that what she then suffered had hit her so hard, that no recovery seemed possible for her. but though no recovery, as she herself believed, was possible for her--though she was as a man whose right arm had been taken from him in the battle, still all the world had not gone with that right arm. the bullet which had maimed her sorely had not touched her life, and she scorned to go about the world complaining either by word or look of the injury she had received. "wives when they have lost their husbands still eat and laugh," she said to herself, "and he is not dead like that." so she resolved that she would be happy, and i here declare that she not only seemed to carry out her resolution, but that she did carry it out in very truth. "you're a dear good man, and i know you'll be good to her," she said to crofts just as he was about to start with his bride. "i'll try, at any rate," he answered. "and i shall expect you to be good to me too. remember you have married the whole family; and, sir, you mustn't believe a word of what that bad man says in his novels about mothers-in-law. he has done a great deal of harm, and shut half the ladies in england out of their daughters' houses." "he shan't shut mrs. dale out of mine." "remember he doesn't. now, good-by." so the bride and bridegroom went off, and lily was left to flirt with lord de guest. of whom else is it necessary that a word or two should be said before i allow the weary pen to fall from my hand? the squire, after much inward struggling on the subject, had acknowledged to himself that his sister-in-law had not received from him that kindness which she had deserved. he had acknowledged this, purporting to do his best to amend his past errors; and i think i may say that his efforts in that line would not be received ungraciously by mrs. dale. i am inclined therefore to think that life at allington, both at the great house and at the small, would soon become pleasanter than it used to be in former days. lily soon got the balmoral boots, or, at least, soon learned that the power of getting them as she pleased had devolved upon her from her uncle's gift; so that she talked even of buying the squirrel's cage; but i am not aware that her extravagance led her as far as that. lord de courcy we left suffering dreadfully from gout and ill-temper at courcy castle. yes, indeed! to him in his latter days life did not seem to offer much that was comfortable. his wife had now gone from him, and declared positively to her son-in-law that no earthly consideration should ever induce her to go back again;--"not if i were to starve!" she said. by which she intended to signify that she would be firm in her resolve, even though she should thereby lose her carriage and horses. poor mr. gazebee went down to courcy, and had a dreadful interview with the earl; but matters were at last arranged, and her ladyship remained at baden-baden in a state of semi-starvation. that is to say, she had but one horse to her carriage. as regards crosbie, i am inclined to believe that he did again recover his power at his office. he was mr. butterwell's master, and the master also of mr. optimist, and the major. he knew his business, and could do it, which was more, perhaps, than might fairly be said of any of the other three. under such circumstances he was sure to get in his hand, and lead again. but elsewhere his star did not recover its ascendancy. he dined at his club almost daily, and there were those with whom he habitually formed some little circle. but he was not the crosbie of former days,--the crosbie known in belgravia and in st. james's street. he had taken his little vessel bravely out into the deep waters, and had sailed her well while fortune stuck close to him. but he had forgotten his nautical rules, and success had made him idle. his plummet and lead had not been used, and he had kept no look-out ahead. therefore the first rock he met shivered his bark to pieces. his wife, the lady alexandrina, is to be seen in the one-horse carriage with her mother at baden-baden. and revised by joseph e. loewenstein, m.d. doctor thorne by anthony trollope first published in contents i. the greshams of greshamsbury ii. long, long ago iii. dr thorne iv. lessons from courcy castle v. frank gresham's first speech vi. frank gresham's early loves vii. the doctor's garden viii. matrimonial prospects ix. sir roger scatcherd x. sir roger's will xi. the doctor drinks his tea xii. when greek meets greek, then comes the tug of war xiii. the two uncles xiv. sentence of exile xv. courcy xvi. miss dunstable xvii. the election xviii. the rivals xix. the duke of omnium xx. the proposal xxi. mr moffat falls into trouble xxii. sir roger is unseated xxii. retrospective xxiv. louis scatcherd xxv. sir roger dies xxvi. war xxvii. miss thorne goes on a visit xxviii. the doctor hears something to his advantage xxix. the donkey ride xxx. post prandial xxxi. the small end of the wedge xxxii. mr oriel xxxiii. a morning visit xxxiv. a barouche and four arrives at greshamsbury xxxv. sir louis goes out to dinner xxxvi. will he come again? xxxvii. sir louis leaves greshamsbury xxxviii. de courcy precepts and de courcy practice xxxix. what the world says about blood xl. the two doctors change patients xli. doctor thorne won't interfere xlii. what can you give in return? xliii. the race of scatcherd becomes extinct xliv. saturday evening and sunday morning xlv. law business in london xlvi. our pet fox finds a tail xlvii. how the bride was received, and who were asked to the wedding chapter i the greshams of greshamsbury before the reader is introduced to the modest country medical practitioner who is to be the chief personage of the following tale, it will be well that he should be made acquainted with some particulars as to the locality in which, and the neighbours among whom, our doctor followed his profession. there is a county in the west of england not so full of life, indeed, nor so widely spoken of as some of its manufacturing leviathan brethren in the north, but which is, nevertheless, very dear to those who know it well. its green pastures, its waving wheat, its deep and shady and--let us add--dirty lanes, its paths and stiles, its tawny-coloured, well-built rural churches, its avenues of beeches, and frequent tudor mansions, its constant county hunt, its social graces, and the general air of clanship which pervades it, has made it to its own inhabitants a favoured land of goshen. it is purely agricultural; agricultural in its produce, agricultural in its poor, and agricultural in its pleasures. there are towns in it, of course; dépôts from whence are brought seeds and groceries, ribbons and fire-shovels; in which markets are held and county balls are carried on; which return members to parliament, generally--in spite of reform bills, past, present, and coming--in accordance with the dictates of some neighbouring land magnate: from whence emanate the country postmen, and where is located the supply of post-horses necessary for county visitings. but these towns add nothing to the importance of the county; they consist, with the exception of the assize town, of dull, all but death-like single streets. each possesses two pumps, three hotels, ten shops, fifteen beer-houses, a beadle, and a market-place. indeed, the town population of the county reckons for nothing when the importance of the county is discussed, with the exception, as before said, of the assize town, which is also a cathedral city. herein is a clerical aristocracy, which is certainly not without its due weight. a resident bishop, a resident dean, an archdeacon, three or four resident prebendaries, and all their numerous chaplains, vicars, and ecclesiastical satellites, do make up a society sufficiently powerful to be counted as something by the county squirearchy. in other respects the greatness of barsetshire depends wholly on the landed powers. barsetshire, however, is not now so essentially one whole as it was before the reform bill divided it. there is in these days an east barsetshire, and there is a west barsetshire; and people conversant with barsetshire doings declare that they can already decipher some difference of feeling, some division of interests. the eastern moiety of the county is more purely conservative than the western; there is, or was, a taint of peelism in the latter; and then, too, the residence of two such great whig magnates as the duke of omnium and the earl de courcy in that locality in some degree overshadows and renders less influential the gentlemen who live near them. it is to east barsetshire that we are called. when the division above spoken of was first contemplated, in those stormy days in which gallant men were still combatting reform ministers, if not with hope, still with spirit, the battle was fought by none more bravely than by john newbold gresham of greshamsbury, the member for barsetshire. fate, however, and the duke of wellington were adverse, and in the following parliament john newbold gresham was only member for east barsetshire. whether or not it was true, as stated at the time, that the aspect of the men with whom he was called on to associate at st stephen's broke his heart, it is not for us now to inquire. it is certainly true that he did not live to see the first year of the reformed parliament brought to a close. the then mr gresham was not an old man at the time of his death, and his eldest son, francis newbold gresham, was a very young man; but, notwithstanding his youth, and notwithstanding other grounds of objection which stood in the way of such preferment, and which must be explained, he was chosen in his father's place. the father's services had been too recent, too well appreciated, too thoroughly in unison with the feelings of those around him to allow of any other choice; and in this way young frank gresham found himself member for east barsetshire, although the very men who elected him knew that they had but slender ground for trusting him with their suffrages. frank gresham, though then only twenty-four years of age, was a married man, and a father. he had already chosen a wife, and by his choice had given much ground of distrust to the men of east barsetshire. he had married no other than lady arabella de courcy, the sister of the great whig earl who lived at courcy castle in the west; that earl who not only voted for the reform bill, but had been infamously active in bringing over other young peers so to vote, and whose name therefore stank in the nostrils of the staunch tory squires of the county. not only had frank gresham so wedded, but having thus improperly and unpatriotically chosen a wife, he had added to his sins by becoming recklessly intimate with his wife's relations. it is true that he still called himself a tory, belonged to the club of which his father had been one of the most honoured members, and in the days of the great battle got his head broken in a row, on the right side; but, nevertheless, it was felt by the good men, true and blue, of east barsetshire, that a constant sojourner at courcy castle could not be regarded as a consistent tory. when, however, his father died, that broken head served him in good stead: his sufferings in the cause were made the most of; these, in unison with his father's merits, turned the scale, and it was accordingly decided, at a meeting held at the george and dragon, at barchester, that frank gresham should fill his father's shoes. but frank gresham could not fill his father's shoes; they were too big for him. he did become member for east barsetshire, but he was such a member--so lukewarm, so indifferent, so prone to associate with the enemies of the good cause, so little willing to fight the good fight, that he soon disgusted those who most dearly loved the memory of the old squire. de courcy castle in those days had great allurements for a young man, and all those allurements were made the most of to win over young gresham. his wife, who was a year or two older than himself, was a fashionable woman, with thorough whig tastes and aspirations, such as became the daughter of a great whig earl; she cared for politics, or thought that she cared for them, more than her husband did; for a month or two previous to her engagement she had been attached to the court, and had been made to believe that much of the policy of england's rulers depended on the political intrigues of england's women. she was one who would fain be doing something if she only knew how, and the first important attempt she made was to turn her respectable young tory husband into a second-rate whig bantling. as this lady's character will, it is hoped, show itself in the following pages, we need not now describe it more closely. it is not a bad thing to be son-in-law to a potent earl, member of parliament for a county, and a possessor of a fine old english seat, and a fine old english fortune. as a very young man, frank gresham found the life to which he was thus introduced agreeable enough. he consoled himself as best he might for the blue looks with which he was greeted by his own party, and took his revenge by consorting more thoroughly than ever with his political adversaries. foolishly, like a foolish moth, he flew to the bright light, and, like the moths, of course he burnt his wings. early in he had become a member of parliament, and in the autumn of the dissolution came. young members of three or four-and-twenty do not think much of dissolutions, forget the fancies of their constituents, and are too proud of the present to calculate much as to the future. so it was with mr gresham. his father had been member for barsetshire all his life, and he looked forward to similar prosperity as though it were part of his inheritance; but he failed to take any of the steps which had secured his father's seat. in the autumn of the dissolution came, and frank gresham, with his honourable lady wife and all the de courcys at his back, found that he had mortally offended the county. to his great disgust another candidate was brought forward as a fellow to his late colleague, and though he manfully fought the battle, and spent ten thousand pounds in the contest, he could not recover his position. a high tory, with a great whig interest to back him, is never a popular person in england. no one can trust him, though there may be those who are willing to place him, untrusted, in high positions. such was the case with mr gresham. there were many who were willing, for family considerations, to keep him in parliament; but no one thought that he was fit to be there. the consequences were, that a bitter and expensive contest ensued. frank gresham, when twitted with being a whig, foreswore the de courcy family; and then, when ridiculed as having been thrown over by the tories, foreswore his father's old friends. so between the two stools he fell to the ground, and, as a politician, he never again rose to his feet. he never again rose to his feet; but twice again he made violent efforts to do so. elections in east barsetshire, from various causes, came quick upon each other in those days, and before he was eight-and-twenty years of age mr gresham had three times contested the county and been three times beaten. to speak the truth of him, his own spirit would have been satisfied with the loss of the first ten thousand pounds; but lady arabella was made of higher mettle. she had married a man with a fine place and a fine fortune; but she had nevertheless married a commoner and had in so far derogated from her high birth. she felt that her husband should be by rights a member of the house of lords; but, if not, that it was at least essential that he should have a seat in the lower chamber. she would by degrees sink into nothing if she allowed herself to sit down, the mere wife of a mere country squire. thus instigated, mr gresham repeated the useless contest three times, and repeated it each time at a serious cost. he lost his money, lady arabella lost her temper, and things at greshamsbury went on by no means as prosperously as they had done in the days of the old squire. in the first twelve years of their marriage, children came fast into the nursery at greshamsbury. the first that was born was a boy; and in those happy halcyon days, when the old squire was still alive, great was the joy at the birth of an heir to greshamsbury; bonfires gleamed through the country-side, oxen were roasted whole, and the customary paraphernalia of joy, usual to rich britons on such occasions were gone through with wondrous éclat. but when the tenth baby, and the ninth little girl, was brought into the world, the outward show of joy was not so great. then other troubles came on. some of these little girls were sickly, some very sickly. lady arabella had her faults, and they were such as were extremely detrimental to her husband's happiness and her own; but that of being an indifferent mother was not among them. she had worried her husband daily for years because he was not in parliament, she had worried him because he would not furnish the house in portman square, she had worried him because he objected to have more people every winter at greshamsbury park than the house would hold; but now she changed her tune and worried him because selina coughed, because helena was hectic, because poor sophy's spine was weak, and matilda's appetite was gone. worrying from such causes was pardonable it will be said. so it was; but the manner was hardly pardonable. selina's cough was certainly not fairly attributable to the old-fashioned furniture in portman square; nor would sophy's spine have been materially benefited by her father having a seat in parliament; and yet, to have heard lady arabella discussing those matters in family conclave, one would have thought that she would have expected such results. as it was, her poor weak darlings were carried about from london to brighton, from brighton to some german baths, from the german baths back to torquay, and thence--as regarded the four we have named--to that bourne from whence no further journey could be made under the lady arabella's directions. the one son and heir to greshamsbury was named as his father, francis newbold gresham. he would have been the hero of our tale had not that place been pre-occupied by the village doctor. as it is, those who please may so regard him. it is he who is to be our favourite young man, to do the love scenes, to have his trials and his difficulties, and to win through them or not, as the case may be. i am too old now to be a hard-hearted author, and so it is probable that he may not die of a broken heart. those who don't approve of a middle-aged bachelor country doctor as a hero, may take the heir to greshamsbury in his stead, and call the book, if it so please them, "the loves and adventures of francis newbold gresham the younger." and master frank gresham was not ill adapted for playing the part of a hero of this sort. he did not share his sisters' ill-health, and though the only boy of the family, he excelled all his sisters in personal appearance. the greshams from time immemorial had been handsome. they were broad browed, blue eyed, fair haired, born with dimples in their chins, and that pleasant, aristocratic dangerous curl of the upper lip which can equally express good humour or scorn. young frank was every inch a gresham, and was the darling of his father's heart. the de courcys had never been plain. there was too much hauteur, too much pride, we may perhaps even fairly say, too much nobility in their gait and manners, and even in their faces, to allow of their being considered plain; but they were not a race nurtured by venus or apollo. they were tall and thin, with high cheek-bones, high foreheads, and large, dignified, cold eyes. the de courcy girls had all good hair; and, as they also possessed easy manners and powers of talking, they managed to pass in the world for beauties till they were absorbed in the matrimonial market, and the world at large cared no longer whether they were beauties or not. the misses gresham were made in the de courcy mould, and were not on this account the less dear to their mother. the two eldest, augusta and beatrice, lived, and were apparently likely to live. the four next faded and died one after another--all in the same sad year--and were laid in the neat, new cemetery at torquay. then came a pair, born at one birth, weak, delicate, frail little flowers, with dark hair and dark eyes, and thin, long, pale faces, with long, bony hands, and long bony feet, whom men looked on as fated to follow their sisters with quick steps. hitherto, however, they had not followed them, nor had they suffered as their sisters had suffered; and some people at greshamsbury attributed this to the fact that a change had been made in the family medical practitioner. then came the youngest of the flock, she whose birth we have said was not heralded with loud joy; for when she came into the world, four others, with pale temples, wan, worn cheeks, and skeleton, white arms, were awaiting permission to leave it. such was the family when, in the year , the eldest son came of age. he had been educated at harrow, and was now still at cambridge; but, of course, on such a day as this he was at home. that coming of age must be a delightful time to a young man born to inherit broad acres and wide wealth. those full-mouthed congratulations; those warm prayers with which his manhood is welcomed by the grey-haired seniors of the county; the affectionate, all but motherly caresses of neighbouring mothers who have seen him grow up from his cradle, of mothers who have daughters, perhaps, fair enough, and good enough, and sweet enough even for him; the soft-spoken, half-bashful, but tender greetings of the girls, who now, perhaps for the first time, call him by his stern family name, instructed by instinct rather than precept that the time has come when the familiar charles or familiar john must by them be laid aside; the "lucky dogs," and hints of silver spoons which are poured into his ears as each young compeer slaps his back and bids him live a thousand years and then never die; the shouting of the tenantry, the good wishes of the old farmers who come up to wring his hand, the kisses which he gets from the farmers' wives, and the kisses which he gives to the farmers' daughters; all these things must make the twenty-first birthday pleasant enough to a young heir. to a youth, however, who feels that he is now liable to arrest, and that he inherits no other privilege, the pleasure may very possibly not be quite so keen. the case with young frank gresham may be supposed to much nearer the former than the latter; but yet the ceremony of his coming of age was by no means like that which fate had accorded to his father. mr gresham was now an embarrassed man, and though the world did not know it, or, at any rate, did not know that he was deeply embarrassed, he had not the heart to throw open his mansion and receive the county with a free hand as though all things were going well with him. nothing was going well with him. lady arabella would allow nothing near him or around him to be well. everything with him now turned to vexation; he was no longer a joyous, happy man, and the people of east barsetshire did not look for gala doings on a grand scale when young gresham came of age. gala doings, to a certain extent, there were there. it was in july, and tables were spread under the oaks for the tenants. tables were spread, and meat, and beer, and wine were there, and frank, as he walked round and shook his guests by the hand, expressed a hope that their relations with each other might be long, close, and mutually advantageous. we must say a few words now about the place itself. greshamsbury park was a fine old english gentleman's seat--was and is; but we can assert it more easily in past tense, as we are speaking of it with reference to a past time. we have spoken of greshamsbury park; there was a park so called, but the mansion itself was generally known as greshamsbury house, and did not stand in the park. we may perhaps best describe it by saying that the village of greshamsbury consisted of one long, straggling street, a mile in length, which in the centre turned sharp round, so that one half of the street lay directly at right angles to the other. in this angle stood greshamsbury house, and the gardens and grounds around it filled up the space so made. there was an entrance with large gates at each end of the village, and each gate was guarded by the effigies of two huge pagans with clubs, such being the crest borne by the family; from each entrance a broad road, quite straight, running through to a majestic avenue of limes, led up to the house. this was built in the richest, perhaps we should rather say in the purest, style of tudor architecture; so much so that, though greshamsbury is less complete than longleat, less magnificent than hatfield, it may in some sense be said to be the finest specimen of tudor architecture of which the country can boast. it stands amid a multitude of trim gardens and stone-built terraces, divided one from another: these to our eyes are not so attractive as that broad expanse of lawn by which our country houses are generally surrounded; but the gardens of greshamsbury have been celebrated for two centuries, and any gresham who would have altered them would have been considered to have destroyed one of the well-known landmarks of the family. greshamsbury park--properly so called--spread far away on the other side of the village. opposite to the two great gates leading up to the mansion were two smaller gates, the one opening on to the stables, kennels, and farm-yard, and the other to the deer park. this latter was the principal entrance to the demesne, and a grand and picturesque entrance it was. the avenue of limes which on one side stretched up to the house, was on the other extended for a quarter of a mile, and then appeared to be terminated only by an abrupt rise in the ground. at the entrance there were four savages and four clubs, two to each portal, and what with the massive iron gates, surmounted by a stone wall, on which stood the family arms supported by two other club-bearers, the stone-built lodges, the doric, ivy-covered columns which surrounded the circle, the four grim savages, and the extent of the space itself through which the high road ran, and which just abutted on the village, the spot was sufficiently significant of old family greatness. those who examined it more closely might see that under the arms was a scroll bearing the gresham motto, and that the words were repeated in smaller letters under each of the savages. "gardez gresham," had been chosen in the days of motto-choosing probably by some herald-at-arms as an appropriate legend for signifying the peculiar attributes of the family. now, however, unfortunately, men were not of one mind as to the exact idea signified. some declared, with much heraldic warmth, that it was an address to the savages, calling on them to take care of their patron; while others, with whom i myself am inclined to agree, averred with equal certainty that it was an advice to the people at large, especially to those inclined to rebel against the aristocracy of the county, that they should "beware the gresham." the latter signification would betoken strength--so said the holders of this doctrine; the former weakness. now the greshams were ever a strong people, and never addicted to a false humility. we will not pretend to decide the question. alas! either construction was now equally unsuited to the family fortunes. such changes had taken place in england since the greshams had founded themselves that no savage could any longer in any way protect them; they must protect themselves like common folk, or live unprotected. nor now was it necessary that any neighbour should shake in his shoes when the gresham frowned. it would have been to be wished that the present gresham himself could have been as indifferent to the frowns of some of his neighbours. but the old symbols remained, and may such symbols long remain among us; they are still lovely and fit to be loved. they tell us of the true and manly feelings of other times; and to him who can read aright, they explain more fully, more truly than any written history can do, how englishmen have become what they are. england is not yet a commercial country in the sense in which that epithet is used for her; and let us still hope that she will not soon become so. she might surely as well be called feudal england, or chivalrous england. if in western civilised europe there does exist a nation among whom there are high signors, and with whom the owners of the land are the true aristocracy, the aristocracy that is trusted as being best and fittest to rule, that nation is the english. choose out the ten leading men of each great european people. choose them in france, in austria, sardinia, prussia, russia, sweden, denmark, spain (?), and then select the ten in england whose names are best known as those of leading statesmen; the result will show in which country there still exists the closest attachment to, the sincerest trust in, the old feudal and now so-called landed interests. england a commercial country! yes; as venice was. she may excel other nations in commerce, but yet it is not that in which she most prides herself, in which she most excels. merchants as such are not the first men among us; though it perhaps be open, barely open, to a merchant to become one of them. buying and selling is good and necessary; it is very necessary, and may, possibly, be very good; but it cannot be the noblest work of man; and let us hope that it may not in our time be esteemed the noblest work of an englishman. greshamsbury park was very large; it lay on the outside of the angle formed by the village street, and stretched away on two sides without apparent limit or boundaries visible from the village road or house. indeed, the ground on this side was so broken up into abrupt hills, and conical-shaped, oak-covered excrescences, which were seen peeping up through and over each other, that the true extent of the park was much magnified to the eye. it was very possible for a stranger to get into it and to find some difficulty in getting out again by any of its known gates; and such was the beauty of the landscape, that a lover of scenery would be tempted thus to lose himself. i have said that on one side lay the kennels, and this will give me an opportunity of describing here one especial episode, a long episode, in the life of the existing squire. he had once represented his county in parliament, and when he ceased to do so he still felt an ambition to be connected in some peculiar way with that county's greatness; he still desired that gresham of greshamsbury should be something more in east barsetshire than jackson of the grange, or baker of mill hill, or bateson of annesgrove. they were all his friends, and very respectable country gentlemen; but mr gresham of greshamsbury should be more than this: even he had enough of ambition to be aware of such a longing. therefore, when an opportunity occurred he took to hunting the county. for this employment he was in every way well suited--unless it was in the matter of finance. though he had in his very earliest manly years given such great offence by indifference to his family politics, and had in a certain degree fostered the ill-feeling by contesting the county in opposition to the wishes of his brother squires, nevertheless, he bore a loved and popular name. men regretted that he should not have been what they wished him to be, that he should not have been such as was the old squire; but when they found that such was the case, that he could not be great among them as a politician, they were still willing that he should be great in any other way if there were county greatness for which he was suited. now he was known as an excellent horseman, as a thorough sportsman, as one knowing in dogs, and tender-hearted as a sucking mother to a litter of young foxes; he had ridden in the county since he was fifteen, had a fine voice for a view-hallo, knew every hound by name, and could wind a horn with sufficient music for all hunting purposes; moreover, he had come to his property, as was well known through all barsetshire, with a clear income of fourteen thousand a year. thus, when some old worn-out master of hounds was run to ground, about a year after mr gresham's last contest for the county, it seemed to all parties to be a pleasant and rational arrangement that the hounds should go to greshamsbury. pleasant, indeed, to all except the lady arabella; and rational, perhaps, to all except the squire himself. all this time he was already considerably encumbered. he had spent much more than he should have done, and so indeed had his wife, in those two splendid years in which they had figured as great among the great ones of the earth. fourteen thousand a year ought to have been enough to allow a member of parliament with a young wife and two or three children to live in london and keep up their country family mansion; but then the de courcys were very great people, and lady arabella chose to live as she had been accustomed to do, and as her sister-in-law the countess lived: now lord de courcy had much more than fourteen thousand a year. then came the three elections, with their vast attendant cost, and then those costly expedients to which gentlemen are forced to have recourse who have lived beyond their income, and find it impossible so to reduce their establishments as to live much below it. thus when the hounds came to greshamsbury, mr gresham was already a poor man. lady arabella said much to oppose their coming; but lady arabella, though it could hardly be said of her that she was under her husband's rule, certainly was not entitled to boast that she had him under hers. she then made her first grand attack as to the furniture in portman square; and was then for the first time specially informed that the furniture there was not matter of much importance, as she would not in future be required to move her family to that residence during the london seasons. the sort of conversations which grew from such a commencement may be imagined. had lady arabella worried her lord less, he might perhaps have considered with more coolness the folly of encountering so prodigious an increase to the expense of his establishment; had he not spent so much money in a pursuit which his wife did not enjoy, she might perhaps have been more sparing in her rebukes as to his indifference to her london pleasures. as it was, the hounds came to greshamsbury, and lady arabella did go to london for some period in each year, and the family expenses were by no means lessened. the kennels, however, were now again empty. two years previous to the time at which our story begins, the hounds had been carried off to the seat of some richer sportsman. this was more felt by mr gresham than any other misfortune which he had yet incurred. he had been master of hounds for ten years, and that work he had at any rate done well. the popularity among his neighbours which he had lost as a politician he had regained as a sportsman, and he would fain have remained autocratic in the hunt, had it been possible. but he so remained much longer than he should have done, and at last they went away, not without signs and sounds of visible joy on the part of lady arabella. but we have kept the greshamsbury tenantry waiting under the oak-trees by far too long. yes; when young frank came of age there was still enough left at greshamsbury, still means enough at the squire's disposal, to light one bonfire, to roast, whole in its skin, one bullock. frank's virility came on him not quite unmarked, as that of the parson's son might do, or the son of the neighbouring attorney. it could still be reported in the barsetshire conservative _standard_ that "the beards wagged all" at greshamsbury, now as they had done for many centuries on similar festivals. yes; it was so reported. but this, like so many other such reports, had but a shadow of truth in it. "they poured the liquor in," certainly, those who were there; but the beards did not wag as they had been wont to wag in former years. beards won't wag for the telling. the squire was at his wits' end for money, and the tenants one and all had so heard. rents had been raised on them; timber had fallen fast; the lawyer on the estate was growing rich; tradesmen in barchester, nay, in greshamsbury itself, were beginning to mutter; and the squire himself would not be merry. under such circumstances the throats of a tenantry will still swallow, but their beards will not wag. "i minds well," said farmer oaklerath to his neighbour, "when the squoire hisself comed of age. lord love 'ee! there was fun going that day. there was more yale drank then than's been brewed at the big house these two years. t'old squoire was a one'er." "and i minds when squoire was borned; minds it well," said an old farmer sitting opposite. "them was the days! it an't that long ago neither. squoire a'nt come o' fifty yet; no, nor an't nigh it, though he looks it. things be altered at greemsbury"--such was the rural pronunciation--"altered sadly, neebor oaklerath. well, well; i'll soon be gone, i will, and so it an't no use talking; but arter paying one pound fifteen for them acres for more nor fifty year, i didn't think i'd ever be axed for forty shilling." such was the style of conversation which went on at the various tables. it had certainly been of a very different tone when the squire was born, when he came of age, and when, just two years subsequently, his son had been born. on each of these events similar rural fêtes had been given, and the squire himself had on these occasions been frequent among his guests. on the first, he had been carried round by his father, a whole train of ladies and nurses following. on the second, he had himself mixed in all the sports, the gayest of the gay, and each tenant had squeezed his way up to the lawn to get a sight of the lady arabella, who, as was already known, was to come from courcy castle to greshamsbury to be their mistress. it was little they any of them cared now for the lady arabella. on the third, he himself had borne his child in his arms as his father had before borne him; he was then in the zenith of his pride, and though the tenantry whispered that he was somewhat less familiar with them than of yore, that he had put on somewhat too much of the de courcy airs, still he was their squire, their master, the rich man in whose hand they lay. the old squire was then gone, and they were proud of the young member and his lady bride in spite of a little hauteur. none of them were proud of him now. he walked once round among the guests, and spoke a few words of welcome at each table; and as he did so the tenants got up and bowed and wished health to the old squire, happiness to the young one, and prosperity to greshamsbury; but, nevertheless, it was but a tame affair. there were also other visitors, of the gentle sort, to do honour to the occasion; but not such swarms, not such a crowd at the mansion itself and at the houses of the neighbouring gentry as had always been collected on these former gala doings. indeed, the party at greshamsbury was not a large one, and consisted chiefly of lady de courcy and her suite. lady arabella still kept up, as far as she was able, her close connexion with courcy castle. she was there as much as possible, to which mr gresham never objected; and she took her daughters there whenever she could, though, as regarded the two elder girls, she was interfered with by mr gresham, and not unfrequently by the girls themselves. lady arabella had a pride in her son, though he was by no means her favourite child. he was, however, the heir of greshamsbury, of which fact she was disposed to make the most, and he was also a fine gainly open-hearted young man, who could not but be dear to any mother. lady arabella did love him dearly, though she felt a sort of disappointment in regard to him, seeing that he was not so much like a de courcy as he should have been. she did love him dearly; and, therefore, when he came of age she got her sister-in-law and all the ladies amelia, rosina etc., to come to greshamsbury; and she also, with some difficulty, persuaded the honourable georges and the honourable johns to be equally condescending. lord de courcy himself was in attendance at the court--or said that he was--and lord porlock, the eldest son, simply told his aunt when he was invited that he never bored himself with those sort of things. then there were the bakers, and the batesons, and the jacksons, who all lived near and returned home at night; there was the reverend caleb oriel, the high-church rector, with his beautiful sister, patience oriel; there was mr yates umbleby, the attorney and agent; and there was dr thorne, and the doctor's modest, quiet-looking little niece, miss mary. chapter ii long, long ago as dr thorne is our hero--or i should rather say my hero, a privilege of selecting for themselves in this respect being left to all my readers--and as miss mary thorne is to be our heroine, a point on which no choice whatsoever is left to any one, it is necessary that they shall be introduced and explained and described in a proper, formal manner. i quite feel that an apology is due for beginning a novel with two long dull chapters full of description. i am perfectly aware of the danger of such a course. in so doing i sin against the golden rule which requires us all to put our best foot foremost, the wisdom of which is fully recognised by novelists, myself among the number. it can hardly be expected that any one will consent to go through with a fiction that offers so little of allurement in its first pages; but twist it as i will i cannot do otherwise. i find that i cannot make poor mr gresham hem and haw and turn himself uneasily in his arm-chair in a natural manner till i have said why he is uneasy. i cannot bring in my doctor speaking his mind freely among the bigwigs till i have explained that it is in accordance with his usual character to do so. this is unartistic on my part, and shows want of imagination as well as want of skill. whether or not i can atone for these faults by straightforward, simple, plain story-telling--that, indeed, is very doubtful. dr thorne belonged to a family in one sense as good, and at any rate as old, as that of mr gresham; and much older, he was apt to boast, than that of the de courcys. this trait in his character is mentioned first, as it was the weakness for which he was most conspicuous. he was second cousin to mr thorne of ullathorne, a barsetshire squire living in the neighbourhood of barchester, and who boasted that his estate had remained in his family, descending from thorne to thorne, longer than had been the case with any other estate or any other family in the county. but dr thorne was only a second cousin; and, therefore, though he was entitled to talk of the blood as belonging to some extent to himself, he had no right to lay claim to any position in the county other than such as he might win for himself if he chose to locate himself in it. this was a fact of which no one was more fully aware than our doctor himself. his father, who had been first cousin of a former squire thorne, had been a clerical dignitary in barchester, but had been dead now many years. he had had two sons; one he had educated as a medical man, but the other, and the younger, whom he had intended for the bar, had not betaken himself in any satisfactory way to any calling. this son had been first rusticated from oxford, and then expelled; and thence returning to barchester, had been the cause to his father and brother of much suffering. old dr thorne, the clergyman, died when the two brothers were yet young men, and left behind him nothing but some household and other property of the value of about two thousand pounds, which he bequeathed to thomas, the elder son, much more than that having been spent in liquidating debts contracted by the younger. up to that time there had been close harmony between the ullathorne family and that of the clergyman; but a month or two before the doctor's death--the period of which we are speaking was about two-and-twenty years before the commencement of our story--the then mr thorne of ullathorne had made it understood that he would no longer receive at his house his cousin henry, whom he regarded as a disgrace to the family. fathers are apt to be more lenient to their sons than uncles to their nephews, or cousins to each other. dr thorne still hoped to reclaim his black sheep, and thought that the head of his family showed an unnecessary harshness in putting an obstacle in his way of doing so. and if the father was warm in support of his profligate son, the young medical aspirant was warmer in support of his profligate brother. dr thorne, junior, was no roué himself, but perhaps, as a young man, he had not sufficient abhorrence of his brother's vices. at any rate, he stuck to him manfully; and when it was signified in the close that henry's company was not considered desirable at ullathorne, dr thomas thorne sent word to the squire that under such circumstances his visits there would also cease. this was not very prudent, as the young galen had elected to establish himself in barchester, very mainly in expectation of the help which his ullathorne connexion would give him. this, however, in his anger he failed to consider; he was never known, either in early or in middle life, to consider in his anger those points which were probably best worth his consideration. this, perhaps, was of the less moment as his anger was of an unenduring kind, evaporating frequently with more celerity than he could get the angry words out of his mouth. with the ullathorne people, however, he did establish a quarrel sufficiently permanent to be of vital injury to his medical prospects. and then the father died, and the two brothers were left living together with very little means between them. at this time there were living, in barchester, people of the name of scatcherd. of that family, as then existing, we have only to do with two, a brother and a sister. they were in a low rank of life, the one being a journeyman stone-mason, and the other an apprentice to a straw-bonnet maker; but they were, nevertheless, in some sort remarkable people. the sister was reputed in barchester to be a model of female beauty of the strong and robuster cast, and had also a better reputation as being a girl of good character and honest, womanly conduct. both of her beauty and of her reputation her brother was exceedingly proud, and he was the more so when he learnt that she had been asked in marriage by a decent master-tradesman in the city. roger scatcherd had also a reputation, but not for beauty or propriety of conduct. he was known for the best stone-mason in the four counties, and as the man who could, on occasion, drink the most alcohol in a given time in the same localities. as a workman, indeed, he had higher reputate even than this: he was not only a good and very quick stone-mason, but he had also a capacity for turning other men into good stone-masons: he had a gift of knowing what a man could and should do; and, by degrees, he taught himself what five, and ten, and twenty--latterly, what a thousand and two thousand men might accomplish among them: this, also, he did with very little aid from pen and paper, with which he was not, and never became, very conversant. he had also other gifts and other propensities. he could talk in a manner dangerous to himself and others; he could persuade without knowing that he did so; and being himself an extreme demagogue, in those noisy times just prior to the reform bill, he created a hubbub in barchester of which he himself had had no previous conception. henry thorne among his other bad qualities had one which his friends regarded as worse than all the others, and which perhaps justified the ullathorne people in their severity. he loved to consort with low people. he not only drank--that might have been forgiven--but he drank in tap-rooms with vulgar drinkers; so said his friends, and so said his enemies. he denied the charge as being made in the plural number, and declared that his only low co-reveller was roger scatcherd. with roger scatcherd, at any rate, he associated, and became as democratic as roger was himself. now the thornes of ullathorne were of the very highest order of tory excellence. whether or not mary scatcherd at once accepted the offer of the respectable tradesman, i cannot say. after the occurrence of certain events which must here shortly be told, she declared that she never had done so. her brother averred that she most positively had. the respectable tradesman himself refused to speak on the subject. it is certain, however, that scatcherd, who had hitherto been silent enough about his sister in those social hours which he passed with his gentleman friend, boasted of the engagement when it was, as he said, made; and then boasted also of the girl's beauty. scatcherd, in spite of his occasional intemperance, looked up in the world, and the coming marriage of his sister was, he thought, suitable to his own ambition for his family. henry thorne had already heard of, and already seen, mary scatcherd; but hitherto she had not fallen in the way of his wickedness. now, however, when he heard that she was to be decently married, the devil tempted him to tempt her. it boots not to tell all the tale. it came out clearly enough when all was told, that he made her most distinct promises of marriage; he even gave her such in writing; and having in this way obtained from her her company during some of her little holidays--her sundays or summer evenings--he seduced her. scatcherd accused him openly of having intoxicated her with drugs; and thomas thorne, who took up the case, ultimately believed the charge. it became known in barchester that she was with child, and that the seducer was henry thorne. roger scatcherd, when the news first reached him, filled himself with drink, and then swore that he would kill them both. with manly wrath, however, he set forth, first against the man, and that with manly weapons. he took nothing with him but his fists and a big stick as he went in search of henry thorne. the two brothers were then lodging together at a farm-house close abutting on the town. this was not an eligible abode for a medical practitioner; but the young doctor had not been able to settle himself eligibly since his father's death; and wishing to put what constraint he could upon his brother, had so located himself. to this farm-house came roger scatcherd one sultry summer evening, his anger gleaming from his bloodshot eyes, and his rage heightened to madness by the rapid pace at which he had run from the city, and by the ardent spirits which were fermenting within him. at the very gate of the farm-yard, standing placidly with his cigar in his mouth, he encountered henry thorne. he had thought of searching for him through the whole premises, of demanding his victim with loud exclamations, and making his way to him through all obstacles. in lieu of that, there stood the man before him. "well, roger, what's in the wind?" said henry thorne. they were the last words he ever spoke. he was answered by a blow from the blackthorn. a contest ensued, which ended in scatcherd keeping his word--at any rate, as regarded the worst offender. how the fatal blow on the temple was struck was never exactly determined: one medical man said it might have been done in a fight with a heavy-headed stick; another thought that a stone had been used; a third suggested a stone-mason's hammer. it seemed, however, to be proved subsequently that no hammer was taken out, and scatcherd himself persisted in declaring that he had taken in his hand no weapon but the stick. scatcherd, however, was drunk; and even though he intended to tell the truth, may have been mistaken. there were, however, the facts that thorne was dead; that scatcherd had sworn to kill him about an hour previously; and that he had without delay accomplished his threat. he was arrested and tried for murder; all the distressing circumstances of the case came out on the trial: he was found guilty of manslaughter, and sentenced to be imprisoned for six months. our readers will probably think that the punishment was too severe. thomas thorne and the farmer were on the spot soon after henry thorne had fallen. the brother was at first furious for vengeance against his brother's murderer; but, as the facts came out, as he learnt what had been the provocation given, what had been the feelings of scatcherd when he left the city, determined to punish him who had ruined his sister, his heart was changed. those were trying days for him. it behoved him to do what in him lay to cover his brother's memory from the obloquy which it deserved; it behoved him also to save, or to assist to save, from undue punishment the unfortunate man who had shed his brother's blood; and it behoved him also, at least so he thought, to look after that poor fallen one whose misfortunes were less merited than those either of his brother or of hers. and he was not the man to get through these things lightly, or with as much ease as he perhaps might conscientiously have done. he would pay for the defence of the prisoner; he would pay for the defence of his brother's memory; and he would pay for the poor girl's comforts. he would do this, and he would allow no one to help him. he stood alone in the world, and insisted on so standing. old mr thorne of ullathorne offered again to open his arms to him; but he had conceived a foolish idea that his cousin's severity had driven his brother on to his bad career, and he would consequently accept no kindness from ullathorne. miss thorne, the old squire's daughter--a cousin considerably older than himself, to whom he had at one time been much attached--sent him money; and he returned it to her under a blank cover. he had still enough for those unhappy purposes which he had in hand. as to what might happen afterwards, he was then mainly indifferent. the affair made much noise in the county, and was inquired into closely by many of the county magistrates; by none more closely than by john newbold gresham, who was then alive. mr gresham was greatly taken with the energy and justice shown by dr thorne on the occasion; and when the trial was over, he invited him to greshamsbury. the visit ended in the doctor establishing himself in that village. we must return for a moment to mary scatcherd. she was saved from the necessity of encountering her brother's wrath, for that brother was under arrest for murder before he could get at her. her immediate lot, however, was a cruel one. deep as was her cause for anger against the man who had so inhumanly used her, still it was natural that she should turn to him with love rather than with aversion. to whom else could she in such plight look for love? when, therefore, she heard that he was slain, her heart sank within her; she turned her face to the wall, and laid herself down to die: to die a double death, for herself and the fatherless babe that was now quick within her. but, in fact, life had still much to offer, both to her and to her child. for her it was still destined that she should, in a distant land, be the worthy wife of a good husband, and the happy mother of many children. for that embryo one it was destined--but that may not be so quickly told: to describe her destiny this volume has yet to be written. even in those bitterest days god tempered the wind to the shorn lamb. dr thorne was by her bedside soon after the bloody tidings had reached her, and did for her more than either her lover or her brother could have done. when the baby was born, scatcherd was still in prison, and had still three months' more confinement to undergo. the story of her great wrongs and cruel usage was much talked of, and men said that one who had been so injured should be regarded as having in nowise sinned at all. one man, at any rate, so thought. at twilight, one evening, thorne was surprised by a visit from a demure barchester hardware dealer, whom he did not remember ever to have addressed before. this was the former lover of poor mary scatcherd. he had a proposal to make, and it was this:--if mary would consent to leave the country at once, to leave it without notice from her brother, or talk or éclat on the matter, he would sell all that he had, marry her, and emigrate. there was but one condition; she must leave her baby behind her. the hardware-man could find it in his heart to be generous, to be generous and true to his love; but he could not be generous enough to father the seducer's child. "i could never abide it, sir, if i took it," said he; "and she,--why in course she would always love it the best." in praising his generosity, who can mingle any censure for such manifest prudence? he would still make her the wife of his bosom, defiled in the eyes of the world as she had been; but she must be to him the mother of his own children, not the mother of another's child. and now again our doctor had a hard task to win through. he saw at once that it was his duty to use his utmost authority to induce the poor girl to accept such an offer. she liked the man; and here was opened to her a course which would have been most desirable, even before her misfortune. but it is hard to persuade a mother to part with her first babe; harder, perhaps, when the babe had been so fathered and so born than when the world has shone brightly on its earliest hours. she at first refused stoutly: she sent a thousand loves, a thousand thanks, profusest acknowledgements for his generosity to the man who showed her that he loved her so well; but nature, she said, would not let her leave her child. "and what will you do for her here, mary?" said the doctor. poor mary replied to him with a deluge of tears. "she is my niece," said the doctor, taking up the tiny infant in his huge hands; "she is already the nearest thing, the only thing that i have in this world. i am her uncle, mary. if you will go with this man i will be father to her and mother to her. of what bread i eat, she shall eat; of what cup i drink, she shall drink. see, mary, here is the bible;" and he covered the book with his hand. "leave her to me, and by this word she shall be my child." the mother consented at last; left her baby with the doctor, married, and went to america. all this was consummated before roger scatcherd was liberated from jail. some conditions the doctor made. the first was, that scatcherd should not know his sister's child was thus disposed of. dr thorne, in undertaking to bring up the baby, did not choose to encounter any tie with persons who might hereafter claim to be the girl's relations on the other side. relations she would undoubtedly have had none had she been left to live or die as a workhouse bastard; but should the doctor succeed in life, should he ultimately be able to make this girl the darling of his own house, and then the darling of some other house, should she live and win the heart of some man whom the doctor might delight to call his friend and nephew; then relations might spring up whose ties would not be advantageous. no man plumed himself on good blood more than dr thorne; no man had greater pride in his genealogical tree, and his hundred and thirty clearly proved descents from macadam; no man had a stronger theory as to the advantage held by men who have grandfathers over those who have none, or have none worth talking about. let it not be thought that our doctor was a perfect character. no, indeed; most far from perfect. he had within him an inner, stubborn, self-admiring pride, which made him believe himself to be better and higher than those around him, and this from some unknown cause which he could hardly explain to himself. he had a pride in being a poor man of a high family; he had a pride in repudiating the very family of which he was proud; and he had a special pride in keeping his pride silently to himself. his father had been a thorne, and his mother a thorold. there was no better blood to be had in england. it was in the possession of such properties as these that he condescended to rejoice; this man, with a man's heart, a man's courage, and a man's humanity! other doctors round the county had ditch-water in their veins; he could boast of a pure ichor, to which that of the great omnium family was but a muddy puddle. it was thus that he loved to excel his brother practitioners, he who might have indulged in the pride of excelling them both in talent and in energy! we speak now of his early days; but even in his maturer life, the man, though mellowed, was the same. this was the man who now promised to take to his bosom as his own child a poor bastard whose father was already dead, and whose mother's family was such as the scatcherds! it was necessary that the child's history should be known to none. except to the mother's brother it was an object of interest to no one. the mother had for some short time been talked of; but now the nine-days' wonder was a wonder no longer. she went off to her far-away home; her husband's generosity was duly chronicled in the papers, and the babe was left untalked of and unknown. it was easy to explain to scatcherd that the child had not lived. there was a parting interview between the brother and sister in the jail, during which, with real tears and unaffected sorrow, the mother thus accounted for the offspring of her shame. then she started, fortunate in her coming fortunes; and the doctor took with him his charge to the new country in which they were both to live. there he found for her a fitting home till she should be old enough to sit at his table and live in his bachelor house; and no one but old mr gresham knew who she was, or whence she had come. then roger scatcherd, having completed his six months' confinement, came out of prison. roger scatcherd, though his hands were now red with blood, was to be pitied. a short time before the days of henry thorne's death he had married a young wife in his own class of life, and had made many resolves that henceforward his conduct should be such as might become a married man, and might not disgrace the respectable brother-in-law he was about to have given him. such was his condition when he first heard of his sister's plight. as has been said, he filled himself with drink and started off on the scent of blood. during his prison days his wife had to support herself as she might. the decent articles of furniture which they had put together were sold; she gave up their little house, and, bowed down by misery, she also was brought near to death. when he was liberated he at once got work; but those who have watched the lives of such people know how hard it is for them to recover lost ground. she became a mother immediately after his liberation, and when her child was born they were in direst want; for scatcherd was again drinking, and his resolves were blown to the wind. the doctor was then living at greshamsbury. he had gone over there before the day on which he undertook the charge of poor mary's baby, and soon found himself settled as the greshamsbury doctor. this occurred very soon after the birth of the young heir. his predecessor in this career had "bettered" himself, or endeavoured to do so, by seeking the practice of some large town, and lady arabella, at a very critical time, was absolutely left with no other advice than that of a stranger, picked up, as she declared to lady de courcy, somewhere about barchester jail, or barchester court-house, she did not know which. of course lady arabella could not suckle the young heir herself. ladies arabella never can. they are gifted with the powers of being mothers, but not nursing-mothers. nature gives them bosoms for show, but not for use. so lady arabella had a wet-nurse. at the end of six months the new doctor found master frank was not doing quite so well as he should do; and after a little trouble it was discovered that the very excellent young woman who had been sent express from courcy castle to greshamsbury--a supply being kept up on the lord's demesne for the family use--was fond of brandy. she was at once sent back to the castle, of course; and, as lady de courcy was too much in dudgeon to send another, dr thorne was allowed to procure one. he thought of the misery of roger scatcherd's wife, thought also of her health, and strength, and active habits; and thus mrs scatcherd became the foster-mother to young frank gresham. one other episode we must tell of past times. previous to his father's death, dr thorne was in love. nor had he altogether sighed and pleaded in vain; though it had not quite come to that, that the young lady's friends, or even the young lady herself, had actually accepted his suit. at that time his name stood well in barchester. his father was a prebendary; his cousins and his best friends were the thornes of ullathorne, and the lady, who shall be nameless, was not thought to be injudicious in listening to the young doctor. but when henry thorne went so far astray, when the old doctor died, when the young doctor quarrelled with ullathorne, when the brother was killed in a disgraceful quarrel, and it turned out that the physician had nothing but his profession and no settled locality in which to exercise it; then, indeed, the young lady's friends thought that she was injudicious, and the young lady herself had not spirit enough, or love enough, to be disobedient. in those stormy days of the trial she told dr thorne that perhaps it would be wise that they should not see each other any more. dr thorne, so counselled, at such a moment,--so informed then, when he most required comfort from his love, at once swore loudly that he agreed with her. he rushed forth with a bursting heart, and said to himself that the world was bad, all bad. he saw the lady no more; and, if i am rightly informed, never again made matrimonial overtures to any one. chapter iii dr thorne and thus dr thorne became settled for life in the little village of greshamsbury. as was then the wont with many country practitioners, and as should be the wont with them all if they consulted their own dignity a little less and the comforts of their customers somewhat more, he added the business of a dispensing apothecary to that of physician. in doing so, he was of course much reviled. many people around him declared that he could not truly be a doctor, or, at any rate, a doctor to be so called; and his brethren in the art living around him, though they knew that his diplomas, degrees, and certificates were all _en règle_, rather countenanced the report. there was much about this new-comer which did not endear him to his own profession. in the first place he was a new-comer, and, as such, was of course to be regarded by other doctors as being _de trop_. greshamsbury was only fifteen miles from barchester, where there was a regular dépôt of medical skill, and but eight from silverbridge, where a properly established physician had been in residence for the last forty years. dr thorne's predecessor at greshamsbury had been a humble-minded general practitioner, gifted with a due respect for the physicians of the county; and he, though he had been allowed to physic the servants, and sometimes the children of greshamsbury, had never had the presumption to put himself on a par with his betters. then, also, dr thorne, though a graduated physician, though entitled beyond all dispute to call himself a doctor, according to all the laws of all the colleges, made it known to the east barsetshire world, very soon after he had seated himself at greshamsbury, that his rate of pay was to be seven-and-sixpence a visit within a circuit of five miles, with a proportionally increased charge at proportionally increased distances. now there was something low, mean, unprofessional, and democratic in this; so, at least, said the children of Æsculapius gathered together in conclave at barchester. in the first place, it showed that this thorne was always thinking of his money, like an apothecary, as he was; whereas, it would have behoved him, as a physician, had he had the feelings of a physician under his hat, to have regarded his own pursuits in a purely philosophical spirit, and to have taken any gain which might have accrued as an accidental adjunct to his station in life. a physician should take his fee without letting his left hand know what his right hand was doing; it should be taken without a thought, without a look, without a move of the facial muscles; the true physician should hardly be aware that the last friendly grasp of the hand had been made more precious by the touch of gold. whereas, that fellow thorne would lug out half a crown from his breeches pocket and give it in change for a ten shilling piece. and then it was clear that this man had no appreciation of the dignity of a learned profession. he might constantly be seen compounding medicines in the shop, at the left hand of his front door; not making experiments philosophically in materia medica for the benefit of coming ages--which, if he did, he should have done in the seclusion of his study, far from profane eyes--but positively putting together common powders for rural bowels, or spreading vulgar ointments for agricultural ailments. a man of this sort was not fit society for dr fillgrave of barchester. that must be admitted. and yet he had been found to be fit society for the old squire of greshamsbury, whose shoe-ribbons dr fillgrave would not have objected to tie; so high did the old squire stand in the county just previous to his death. but the spirit of the lady arabella was known by the medical profession of barsetshire, and when that good man died it was felt that thorne's short tenure of greshamsbury favour was already over. the barsetshire regulars were, however, doomed to disappointment. our doctor had already contrived to endear himself to the heir; and though there was not even then much personal love between him and the lady arabella, he kept his place at the great house unmoved, not only in the nursery and in the bedrooms, but also at the squire's dining-table. now there was in this, it must be admitted, quite enough to make him unpopular with his brethren; and this feeling was soon shown in a marked and dignified manner. dr fillgrave, who had certainly the most respectable professional connexion in the county, who had a reputation to maintain, and who was accustomed to meet, on almost equal terms, the great medical baronets from the metropolis at the houses of the nobility--dr fillgrave declined to meet dr thorne in consultation. he exceedingly regretted, he said, most exceedingly, the necessity which he felt of doing so: he had never before had to perform so painful a duty; but, as a duty which he owed to his profession, he must perform it. with every feeling of respect for lady ----, a sick guest at greshamsbury--and for mr gresham, he must decline to attend in conjunction with dr thorne. if his services could be made available under any other circumstances, he would go to greshamsbury as fast as post-horses could carry him. then, indeed, there was war in barsetshire. if there was on dr thorne's cranium one bump more developed than another, it was that of combativeness. not that the doctor was a bully, or even pugnacious, in the usual sense of the word; he had no disposition to provoke a fight, no propense love of quarrelling; but there was that in him which would allow him to yield to no attack. neither in argument nor in contest would he ever allow himself to be wrong; never at least to any one but to himself; and on behalf of his special hobbies, he was ready to meet the world at large. it will therefore be understood, that when such a gauntlet was thus thrown in his very teeth by dr fillgrave, he was not slow to take it up. he addressed a letter to the barsetshire conservative _standard_, in which he attacked dr fillgrave with some considerable acerbity. dr fillgrave responded in four lines, saying that on mature consideration he had made up his mind not to notice any remarks that might be made on him by dr thorne in the public press. the greshamsbury doctor then wrote another letter, more witty and much more severe than the last; and as this was copied into the bristol, exeter, and gloucester papers, dr fillgrave found it very difficult to maintain the magnanimity of his reticence. it is sometimes becoming enough for a man to wrap himself in the dignified toga of silence, and proclaim himself indifferent to public attacks; but it is a sort of dignity which it is very difficult to maintain. as well might a man, when stung to madness by wasps, endeavour to sit in his chair without moving a muscle, as endure with patience and without reply the courtesies of a newspaper opponent. dr thorne wrote a third letter, which was too much for medical flesh and blood to bear. dr fillgrave answered it, not, indeed, in his own name, but in that of a brother doctor; and then the war raged merrily. it is hardly too much to say that dr fillgrave never knew another happy hour. had he dreamed of what materials was made that young compounder of doses at greshamsbury he would have met him in consultation, morning, noon, and night, without objection; but having begun the war, he was constrained to go on with it: his brethren would allow him no alternative. thus he was continually being brought up to the fight, as a prize-fighter may be seen to be, who is carried up round after round, without any hope on his own part, and who, in each round, drops to the ground before the very wind of his opponent's blows. but dr fillgrave, though thus weak himself, was backed in practice and in countenance by nearly all his brethren in the county. the guinea fee, the principle of _giving_ advice and of selling no medicine, the great resolve to keep a distinct barrier between the physician and the apothecary, and, above all, the hatred of the contamination of a bill, were strong in the medical mind of barsetshire. dr thorne had the provincial medical world against him, and so he appealed to the metropolis. the _lancet_ took the matter up in his favour, but the _journal of medical science_ was against him; the _weekly chirurgeon_, noted for its medical democracy, upheld him as a medical prophet, but the _scalping knife_, a monthly periodical got up in dead opposition to the _lancet_, showed him no mercy. so the war went on, and our doctor, to a certain extent, became a noted character. he had, moreover, other difficulties to encounter in his professional career. it was something in his favour that he understood his business; something that he was willing to labour at it with energy; and resolved to labour at it conscientiously. he had also other gifts, such as conversational brilliancy, an aptitude for true good fellowship, firmness in friendship, and general honesty of disposition, which stood him in stead as he advanced in life. but, at his first starting, much that belonged to himself personally was against him. let him enter what house he would, he entered it with a conviction, often expressed to himself, that he was equal as a man to the proprietor, equal as a human being to the proprietress. to age he would allow deference, and to special recognised talent--at least so he said; to rank also, he would pay that respect which was its clear and recognised prerogative; he would let a lord walk out of a room before him if he did not happen to forget it; in speaking to a duke he would address him as his grace; and he would in no way assume a familiarity with bigger men than himself, allowing to the bigger man the privilege of making the first advances. but beyond this he would admit that no man should walk the earth with his head higher than his own. he did not talk of these things much; he offended no rank by boasts of his own equality; he did not absolutely tell the earl de courcy in words, that the privilege of dining at courcy castle was to him no greater than the privilege of dining at courcy parsonage; but there was that in his manner that told it. the feeling in itself was perhaps good, and was certainly much justified by the manner in which he bore himself to those below him in rank; but there was folly in the resolution to run counter to the world's recognised rules on such matters; and much absurdity in his mode of doing so, seeing that at heart he was a thorough conservative. it is hardly too much to say that he naturally hated a lord at first sight; but, nevertheless, he would have expended his means, his blood, and spirit, in fighting for the upper house of parliament. such a disposition, until it was thoroughly understood, did not tend to ingratiate him with the wives of the country gentlemen among whom he had to look for practice. and then, also, there was not much in his individual manner to recommend him to the favour of ladies. he was brusque, authoritative, given to contradiction, rough though never dirty in his personal belongings, and inclined to indulge in a sort of quiet raillery, which sometimes was not thoroughly understood. people did not always know whether he was laughing at them or with them; and some people were, perhaps, inclined to think that a doctor should not laugh at all when called in to act doctorially. when he was known, indeed, when the core of the fruit had been reached, when the huge proportions of that loving trusting heart had been learned, and understood, and appreciated, when that honesty had been recognised, that manly, and almost womanly tenderness had been felt, then, indeed, the doctor was acknowledged to be adequate in his profession. to trifling ailments he was too often brusque. seeing that he accepted money for the cure of such, he should, we may say, have cured them without an offensive manner. so far he is without defence. but to real suffering no one found him brusque; no patient lying painfully on a bed of sickness ever thought him rough. another misfortune was, that he was a bachelor. ladies think, and i, for one, think that ladies are quite right in so thinking, that doctors should be married men. all the world feels that a man when married acquires some of the attributes of an old woman--he becomes, to a certain extent, a motherly sort of being; he acquires a conversance with women's ways and women's wants, and loses the wilder and offensive sparks of his virility. it must be easier to talk to such a one about matilda's stomach, and the growing pains in fanny's legs, than to a young bachelor. this impediment also stood much in dr thorne's way during his first years at greshamsbury. but his wants were not at first great; and though his ambition was perhaps high, it was not of an impatient nature. the world was his oyster; but, circumstanced as he was, he knew that it was not for him to open it with his lancet all at once. he had bread to earn, which he must earn wearily; he had a character to make, which must come slowly; it satisfied his soul that, in addition to his immortal hopes, he had a possible future in this world to which he could look forward with clear eyes, and advance with a heart that would know no fainting. on his first arrival at greshamsbury he had been put by the squire into a house, which he still occupied when that squire's grandson came of age. there were two decent, commodious, private houses in the village--always excepting the rectory, which stood grandly in its own grounds, and, therefore, was considered as ranking above the village residences--of these two dr thorne had the smaller. they stood exactly at the angle before described, on the outer side of it, and at right angles to each other. they both possessed good stables and ample gardens; and it may be as well to specify, that mr umbleby, the agent and lawyer to the estate, occupied the larger one. here dr thorne lived for eleven or twelve years, all alone; and then for ten or eleven more with his niece, mary thorne. mary was thirteen when she came to take up permanent abode as mistress of the establishment--or, at any rate, to act as the only mistress which the establishment possessed. this advent greatly changed the tenor of the doctor's ways. he had been before pure bachelor; not a room in his house had been comfortably furnished; he at first commenced in a makeshift sort of way, because he had not at his command the means of commencing otherwise; and he had gone on in the same fashion, because the exact time had never come at which it was imperative in him to set his house in order. he had had no fixed hour for his meals, no fixed place for his books, no fixed wardrobe for his clothes. he had a few bottles of good wine in his cellar, and occasionally asked a brother bachelor to take a chop with him; but beyond this he had touched very little on the cares of housekeeping. a slop-bowl full of strong tea, together with bread, and butter, and eggs, was produced for him in the morning, and he expected that at whatever hour he might arrive in the evening, some food should be presented to him wherewith to satisfy the cravings of nature; if, in addition to this, he had another slop-bowl of tea in the evening, he got all that he ever required, or all, at least, that he ever demanded. but when mary came, or rather, when she was about to come, things were altogether changed at the doctor's. people had hitherto wondered--and especially mrs umbleby--how a gentleman like dr thorne could continue to live in so slovenly a manner; and how people again wondered, and again especially mrs umbleby, how the doctor could possibly think it necessary to put such a lot of furniture into a house because a little chit of a girl of twelve years of age was coming to live with him. mrs umbleby had great scope for her wonder. the doctor made a thorough revolution in his household, and furnished his house from the ground to the roof completely. he painted--for the first time since the commencement of his tenancy--he papered, he carpeted, and curtained, and mirrored, and linened, and blanketed, as though a mrs thorne with a good fortune were coming home to-morrow; and all for a girl of twelve years old. "and how," said mrs umbleby, to her friend miss gushing, "how did he find out what to buy?" as though the doctor had been brought up like a wild beast, ignorant of the nature of tables and chairs, and with no more developed ideas of drawing-room drapery than an hippopotamus. to the utter amazement of mrs umbleby and miss gushing, the doctor did it all very well. he said nothing about it to any one--he never did say much about such things--but he furnished his house well and discreetly; and when mary thorne came home from her school at bath, to which she had been taken some six years previously, she found herself called upon to be the presiding genius of a perfect paradise. it has been said that the doctor had managed to endear himself to the new squire before the old squire's death, and that, therefore, the change at greshamsbury had had no professional ill effects upon him. such was the case at the time; but, nevertheless, all did not go smoothly in the greshamsbury medical department. there was six or seven years' difference in age between mr gresham and the doctor, and, moreover, mr gresham was young for his age, and the doctor old; but, nevertheless, there was a very close attachment between them early in life. this was never thoroughly sundered, and, backed by this, the doctor did maintain himself for some years before the fire of lady arabella's artillery. but drops falling, if they fall constantly, will bore through a stone. dr thorne's pretensions, mixed with his subversive professional democratic tendencies, his seven-and-sixpenny visits, added to his utter disregard of lady arabella's airs, were too much for her spirit. he brought frank through his first troubles, and that at first ingratiated her; he was equally successful with the early dietary of augusta and beatrice; but, as his success was obtained in direct opposition to the courcy castle nursery principles, this hardly did much in his favour. when the third daughter was born, he at once declared that she was a very weakly flower, and sternly forbade the mother to go to london. the mother, loving her babe, obeyed; but did not the less hate the doctor for the order, which she firmly believed was given at the instance and express dictation of mr gresham. then another little girl came into the world, and the doctor was more imperative than ever as to the nursery rules and the excellence of country air. quarrels were thus engendered, and lady arabella was taught to believe that this doctor of her husband's was after all no solomon. in her husband's absence she sent for dr fillgrave, giving very express intimation that he would not have to wound either his eyes or dignity by encountering his enemy; and she found dr fillgrave a great comfort to her. then dr thorne gave mr gresham to understand that, under such circumstances, he could not visit professionally at greshamsbury any longer. the poor squire saw there was no help for it, and though he still maintained his friendly connexion with his neighbour, the seven-and-sixpenny visits were at an end. dr fillgrave from barchester, and the gentleman at silverbridge, divided the responsibility between them, and the nursery principles of courcy castle were again in vogue at greshamsbury. so things went on for years, and those years were years of sorrow. we must not ascribe to our doctor's enemies the sufferings, and sickness, and deaths that occurred. the four frail little ones that died would probably have been taken had lady arabella been more tolerant of dr thorne. but the fact was, that they did die; and that the mother's heart then got the better of the woman's pride, and lady arabella humbled herself before dr thorne. she humbled herself, or would have done so, had the doctor permitted her. but he, with his eyes full of tears, stopped the utterance of her apology, took her two hands in his, pressed them warmly, and assured her that his joy in returning would be great, for the love that he bore to all that belonged to greshamsbury. and so the seven-and-sixpenny visits were recommenced; and the great triumph of dr fillgrave came to an end. great was the joy in the greshamsbury nursery when the second change took place. among the doctor's attributes, not hitherto mentioned, was an aptitude for the society of children. he delighted to talk to children, and to play with them. he would carry them on his back, three or four at a time, roll with them on the ground, race with them in the garden, invent games for them, contrive amusements in circumstances which seemed quite adverse to all manner of delight; and, above all, his physic was not nearly so nasty as that which came from silverbridge. he had a great theory as to the happiness of children; and though he was not disposed altogether to throw over the precepts of solomon--always bargaining that he should, under no circumstances, be himself the executioner--he argued that the principal duty which a parent owed to a child was to make him happy. not only was the man to be made happy--the future man, if that might be possible--but the existing boy was to be treated with equal favour; and his happiness, so said the doctor, was of much easier attainment. "why struggle after future advantage at the expense of present pain, seeing that the results were so very doubtful?" many an opponent of the doctor had thought to catch him on the hip when so singular a doctrine was broached; but they were not always successful. "what!" said his sensible enemies, "is johnny not to be taught to read because he does not like it?" "johnny must read by all means," would the doctor answer; "but is it necessary that he should not like it? if the preceptor have it in him, may not johnny learn, not only to read, but to like to learn to read?" "but," would say his enemies, "children must be controlled." "and so must men also," would say the doctor. "i must not steal your peaches, nor make love to your wife, nor libel your character. much as i might wish through my natural depravity to indulge in such vices, i am debarred from them without pain, and i may almost say without unhappiness." and so the argument went on, neither party convincing the other. but, in the meantime, the children of the neighbourhood became very fond of dr thorne. dr thorne and the squire were still fast friends, but circumstances had occurred, spreading themselves now over a period of many years, which almost made the poor squire uneasy in the doctor's company. mr gresham owed a large sum of money, and he had, moreover, already sold a portion of his property. unfortunately it had been the pride of the greshams that their acres had descended from one to another without an entail, so that each possessor of greshamsbury had had the full power to dispose of the property as he pleased. any doubt as to its going to the male heir had never hitherto been felt. it had occasionally been encumbered by charges for younger children; but these charges had been liquidated, and the property had come down without any burden to the present squire. now a portion of this had been sold, and it had been sold to a certain degree through the agency of dr thorne. this made the squire an unhappy man. no man loved his family name and honour, his old family blazon and standing more thoroughly than he did; he was every whit a gresham at heart; but his spirit had been weaker than that of his forefathers; and, in his days, for the first time, the greshams were to go to the wall! ten years before the beginning of our story it had been necessary to raise a large sum of money to meet and pay off pressing liabilities, and it was found that this could be done with more material advantage by selling a portion of the property than in any other way. a portion of it, about a third of the whole in value, was accordingly sold. boxall hill lay half-way between greshamsbury and barchester, and was known as having the best partridge shooting in the county; as having on it also a celebrated fox cover, boxall gorse, held in very high repute by barsetshire sportsmen. there was no residence on the immediate estate, and it was altogether divided from the remainder of the greshamsbury property. this, with many inward and outward groans, mr gresham permitted to be sold. it was sold, and sold well, by private contract to a native of barchester, who, having risen from the world's ranks, had made for himself great wealth. somewhat of this man's character must hereafter be told; it will suffice to say that he relied for advice in money matters upon dr thorne, and that at dr thorne's suggestion he had purchased boxall hill, partridge-shooting and gorse cover all included. he had not only bought boxall hill, but had subsequently lent the squire large sums of money on mortgage, in all which transactions the doctor had taken part. it had therefore come to pass that mr gresham was not unfrequently called upon to discuss his money affairs with dr thorne, and occasionally to submit to lectures and advice which might perhaps as well have been omitted. so much for dr thorne. a few words must still be said about miss mary before we rush into our story; the crust will then have been broken, and the pie will be open to the guests. little miss mary was kept at a farm-house till she was six; she was then sent to school at bath, and transplanted to the doctor's newly furnished house a little more than six years after that. it must not be supposed that he had lost sight of his charge during her earlier years. he was much too well aware of the nature of the promise which he had made to the departing mother to do that. he had constantly visited his little niece, and long before the first twelve years of her life were over had lost all consciousness of his promise, and of his duty to the mother, in the stronger ties of downright personal love for the only creature that belonged to him. when mary came home the doctor was like a child in his glee. he prepared surprises for her with as much forethought and trouble as though he were contriving mines to blow up an enemy. he took her first into the shop, and then into the kitchen, thence to the dining-rooms, after that to his and her bedrooms, and so on till he came to the full glory of the new drawing-room, enhancing the pleasure by little jokes, and telling her that he should never dare to come into the last paradise without her permission, and not then till he had taken off his boots. child as she was, she understood the joke, and carried it on like a little queen; and so they soon became the firmest of friends. but though mary was a queen, it was still necessary that she should be educated. those were the earlier days in which lady arabella had humbled herself, and to show her humility she invited mary to share the music-lessons of augusta and beatrice at the great house. a music-master from barchester came over three times a week, and remained for three hours, and if the doctor chose to send his girl over, she could pick up what was going on without doing any harm. so said the lady arabella. the doctor with many thanks and with no hesitation, accepted the offer, merely adding, that he had perhaps better settle separately with signor cantabili, the music-master. he was very much obliged to lady arabella for giving his little girl permission to join her lessons to those of the miss greshams. it need hardly be said that the lady arabella was on fire at once. settle with signor cantabili! no, indeed; she would do that; there must be no expense whatever incurred in such an arrangement on miss thorne's account! but here, as in most things, the doctor carried his point. it being the time of the lady's humility, she could not make as good a fight as she would otherwise have done; and thus she found, to her great disgust, that mary thorne was learning music in her schoolroom on equal terms, as regarded payment, with her own daughters. the arrangement having been made could not be broken, especially as the young lady in nowise made herself disagreeable; and more especially as the miss greshams themselves were very fond of her. and so mary thorne learnt music at greshamsbury, and with her music she learnt other things also; how to behave herself among girls of her own age; how to speak and talk as other young ladies do; how to dress herself, and how to move and walk. all which, she, being quick to learn, learnt without trouble at the great house. something also she learnt of french, seeing that the greshamsbury french governess was always in the room. and then, some few years later, there came a rector, and a rector's sister; and with the latter mary studied german, and french also. from the doctor himself she learnt much; the choice, namely, of english books for her own reading, and habits of thought somewhat akin to his own, though modified by the feminine softness of her individual mind. and so mary thorne grew up and was educated. of her personal appearance it certainly is my business as an author to say something. she is my heroine, and, as such, must necessarily be very beautiful; but, in truth, her mind and inner qualities are more clearly distinct to my brain than her outward form and features. i know that she was far from being tall, and far from being showy; that her feet and hands were small and delicate; that her eyes were bright when looked at, but not brilliant so as to make their brilliancy palpably visible to all around her; her hair was dark brown, and worn very plainly brushed from her forehead; her lips were thin, and her mouth, perhaps, in general inexpressive, but when she was eager in conversation it would show itself to be animated with curves of wondrous energy; and, quiet as she was in manner, sober and demure as was her usual settled appearance, she could talk, when the fit came on her, with an energy which in truth surprised those who did not know her; aye, and sometimes those who did. energy! nay, it was occasionally a concentration of passion, which left her for the moment perfectly unconscious of all other cares but solicitude for that subject which she might then be advocating. all her friends, including the doctor, had at times been made unhappy by this vehemence of character; but yet it was to that very vehemence that she owed it that all her friends so loved her. it had once nearly banished her in early years from the greshamsbury schoolroom; and yet it ended in making her claim to remain there so strong, that lady arabella could no longer oppose it, even when she had the wish to do so. a new french governess had lately come to greshamsbury, and was, or was to be, a great pet with lady arabella, having all the great gifts with which a governess can be endowed, and being also a protégée from the castle. the castle, in greshamsbury parlance, always meant that of courcy. soon after this a valued little locket belonging to augusta gresham was missing. the french governess had objected to its being worn in the schoolroom, and it had been sent up to the bedroom by a young servant-girl, the daughter of a small farmer on the estate. the locket was missing, and after a while, a considerable noise in the matter having been made, was found, by the diligence of the governess, somewhere among the belongings of the english servant. great was the anger of lady arabella, loud were the protestations of the girl, mute the woe of her father, piteous the tears of her mother, inexorable the judgment of the greshamsbury world. but something occurred, it matters now not what, to separate mary thorne in opinion from that world at large. out she then spoke, and to her face accused the governess of the robbery. for two days mary was in disgrace almost as deep as that of the farmer's daughter. but she was neither quiet nor dumb in her disgrace. when lady arabella would not hear her, she went to mr gresham. she forced her uncle to move in the matter. she gained over to her side, one by one, the potentates of the parish, and ended by bringing mam'selle larron down on her knees with a confession of the facts. from that time mary thorne was dear to the tenantry of greshamsbury; and specially dear at one small household, where a rough-spoken father of a family was often heard to declare, that for miss mary thorne he'd face man or magistrate, duke or devil. and so mary thorne grew up under the doctor's eye, and at the beginning of our tale she was one of the guests assembled at greshamsbury on the coming of age of the heir, she herself having then arrived at the same period of her life. chapter iv lessons from courcy castle it was the first of july, young frank gresham's birthday, and the london season was not yet over; nevertheless, lady de courcy had managed to get down into the country to grace the coming of age of the heir, bringing with her all the ladies amelia, rosina, margaretta, and alexandrina, together with such of the honourable johns and georges as could be collected for the occasion. the lady arabella had contrived this year to spend ten weeks in town, which, by a little stretching, she made to pass for the season; and had managed, moreover, at last to refurnish, not ingloriously, the portman square drawing-room. she had gone up to london under the pretext, imperatively urged, of augusta's teeth--young ladies' teeth are not unfrequently of value in this way;--and having received authority for a new carpet, which was really much wanted, had made such dexterous use of that sanction as to run up an upholsterer's bill of six or seven hundred pounds. she had of course had her carriage and horses; the girls of course had gone out; it had been positively necessary to have a few friends in portman square; and, altogether, the ten weeks had not been unpleasant, and not inexpensive. for a few confidential minutes before dinner, lady de courcy and her sister-in-law sat together in the latter's dressing-room, discussing the unreasonableness of the squire, who had expressed himself with more than ordinary bitterness as to the folly--he had probably used some stronger word--of these london proceedings. "heavens!" said the countess, with much eager animation; "what can the man expect? what does he wish you to do?" "he would like to sell the house in london, and bury us all here for ever. mind, i was there only for ten weeks." "barely time for the girls to get their teeth properly looked at! but arabella, what does he say?" lady de courcy was very anxious to learn the exact truth of the matter, and ascertain, if she could, whether mr gresham was really as poor as he pretended to be. "why, he said yesterday that he would have no more going to town at all; that he was barely able to pay the claims made on him, and keep up the house here, and that he would not--" "would not what?" asked the countess. "why, he said that he would not utterly ruin poor frank." "ruin frank!" "that's what he said." "but, surely, arabella, it is not so bad as that? what possible reason can there be for him to be in debt?" "he is always talking of those elections." "but, my dear, boxall hill paid all that off. of course frank will not have such an income as there was when you married into the family; we all know that. and whom will he have to thank but his father? but boxall hill paid all those debts, and why should there be any difficulty now?" "it was those nasty dogs, rosina," said the lady arabella, almost in tears. "well, i for one never approved of the hounds coming to greshamsbury. when a man has once involved his property he should not incur any expenses that are not absolutely necessary. that is a golden rule which mr gresham ought to have remembered. indeed, i put it to him nearly in those very words; but mr gresham never did, and never will receive with common civility anything that comes from me." "i know, rosina, he never did; and yet where would he have been but for the de courcys?" so exclaimed, in her gratitude, the lady arabella; to speak the truth, however, but for the de courcys, mr gresham might have been at this moment on the top of boxall hill, monarch of all he surveyed. "as i was saying," continued the countess, "i never approved of the hounds coming to greshamsbury; but yet, my dear, the hounds can't have eaten up everything. a man with ten thousand a year ought to be able to keep hounds; particularly as he had a subscription." "he says the subscription was little or nothing." "that's nonsense, my dear. now, arabella, what does he do with his money? that's the question. does he gamble?" "well," said lady arabella, very slowly, "i don't think he does." if the squire did gamble he must have done it very slyly, for he rarely went away from greshamsbury, and certainly very few men looking like gamblers were in the habit of coming thither as guests. "i don't think he does gamble." lady arabella put her emphasis on the word gamble, as though her husband, if he might perhaps be charitably acquitted of that vice, was certainly guilty of every other known in the civilised world. "i know he used," said lady de courcy, looking very wise, and rather suspicious. she certainly had sufficient domestic reasons for disliking the propensity; "i know he used; and when a man begins, he is hardly ever cured." "well, if he does, i don't know it," said the lady arabella. "the money, my dear, must go somewhere. what excuse does he give when you tell him you want this and that--all the common necessaries of life, that you have always been used to?" "he gives no excuse; sometimes he says the family is so large." "nonsense! girls cost nothing; there's only frank, and he can't have cost anything yet. can he be saving money to buy back boxall hill?" "oh no!" said the lady arabella, quickly. "he is not saving anything; he never did, and never will save, though he is so stingy to me. he _is_ hard pushed for money, i know that." "then where has it gone?" said the countess de courcy, with a look of stern decision. "heaven only knows! now, augusta is to be married. i must of course have a few hundred pounds. you should have heard how he groaned when i asked him for it. heaven only knows where the money goes!" and the injured wife wiped a piteous tear from her eye with her fine dress cambric handkerchief. "i have all the sufferings and privations of a poor man's wife, but i have none of the consolations. he has no confidence in me; he never tells me anything; he never talks to me about his affairs. if he talks to any one it is to that horrid doctor." "what, dr thorne?" now the countess de courcy hated dr thorne with a holy hatred. "yes; dr thorne. i believe that he knows everything; and advises everything, too. whatever difficulties poor gresham may have, i do believe dr thorne has brought them about. i do believe it, rosina." "well, that is surprising. mr gresham, with all his faults, is a gentleman; and how he can talk about his affairs with a low apothecary like that, i, for one, cannot imagine. lord de courcy has not always been to me all that he should have been; far from it." and lady de courcy thought over in her mind injuries of a much graver description than any that her sister-in-law had ever suffered; "but i have never known anything like that at courcy castle. surely umbleby knows all about it, doesn't he?" "not half so much as the doctor," said lady arabella. the countess shook her head slowly; the idea of mr gresham, a country gentleman of good estate like him, making a confidant of a country doctor was too great a shock for her nerves; and for a while she was constrained to sit silent before she could recover herself. "one thing at any rate is certain, arabella," said the countess, as soon as she found herself again sufficiently composed to offer counsel in a properly dictatorial manner. "one thing at any rate is certain; if mr gresham be involved so deeply as you say, frank has but one duty before him. he must marry money. the heir of fourteen thousand a year may indulge himself in looking for blood, as mr gresham did, my dear"--it must be understood that there was very little compliment in this, as the lady arabella had always conceived herself to be a beauty--"or for beauty, as some men do," continued the countess, thinking of the choice that the present earl de courcy had made; "but frank must marry money. i hope he will understand this early; do make him understand this before he makes a fool of himself; when a man thoroughly understands this, when he knows what his circumstances require, why, the matter becomes easy to him. i hope that frank understands that he has no alternative. in his position he must marry money." but, alas! alas! frank gresham had already made a fool of himself. "well, my boy, i wish you joy with all my heart," said the honourable john, slapping his cousin on the back, as he walked round to the stable-yard with him before dinner, to inspect a setter puppy of peculiarly fine breed which had been sent to frank as a birthday present. "i wish i were an elder son; but we can't all have that luck." "who wouldn't sooner be the younger son of an earl than the eldest son of a plain squire?" said frank, wishing to say something civil in return for his cousin's civility. "i wouldn't for one," said the honourable john. "what chance have i? there's porlock as strong as a horse; and then george comes next. and the governor's good for these twenty years." and the young man sighed as he reflected what small hope there was that all those who were nearest and dearest to him should die out of his way, and leave him to the sweet enjoyment of an earl's coronet and fortune. "now, you're sure of your game some day; and as you've no brothers, i suppose the squire'll let you do pretty well what you like. besides, he's not so strong as my governor, though he's younger." frank had never looked at his fortune in this light before, and was so slow and green that he was not much delighted at the prospect now that it was offered to him. he had always, however, been taught to look to his cousins, the de courcys, as men with whom it would be very expedient that he should be intimate; he therefore showed no offence, but changed the conversation. "shall you hunt with the barsetshire this season, john? i hope you will; i shall." "well, i don't know. it's very slow. it's all tillage here, or else woodland. i rather fancy i shall go to leicestershire when the partridge-shooting is over. what sort of a lot do you mean to come out with, frank?" frank became a little red as he answered, "oh, i shall have two," he said; "that is, the mare i have had these two years, and the horse my father gave me this morning." "what! only those two? and the mare is nothing more than a pony." "she is fifteen hands," said frank, offended. "well, frank, i certainly would not stand that," said the honourable john. "what, go out before the county with one untrained horse and a pony; and you the heir to greshamsbury!" "i'll have him so trained before november," said frank, "that nothing in barsetshire shall stop him. peter says"--peter was the greshamsbury stud-groom--"that he tucks up his hind legs beautifully." "but who the deuce would think of going to work with one horse; or two either, if you insist on calling the old pony a huntress? i'll put you up to a trick, my lad: if you stand that you'll stand anything; and if you don't mean to go in leading-strings all your life, now is the time to show it. there's young baker--harry baker, you know--he came of age last year, and he has as pretty a string of nags as any one would wish to set eyes on; four hunters and a hack. now, if old baker has four thousand a year it's every shilling he has got." this was true, and frank gresham, who in the morning had been made so happy by his father's present of a horse, began to feel that hardly enough had been done for him. it was true that mr baker had only four thousand a year; but it was also true that he had no other child than harry baker; that he had no great establishment to keep up; that he owed a shilling to no one; and, also, that he was a great fool in encouraging a mere boy to ape all the caprices of a man of wealth. nevertheless, for a moment, frank gresham did feel that, considering his position, he was being treated rather unworthily. "take the matter in your own hands, frank," said the honourable john, seeing the impression that he had made. "of course the governor knows very well that you won't put up with such a stable as that. lord bless you! i have heard that when he married my aunt, and that was when he was about your age, he had the best stud in the whole county; and then he was in parliament before he was three-and-twenty." "his father, you know, died when he was very young," said frank. "yes; i know he had a stroke of luck that doesn't fall to everyone; but--" young frank's face grew dark now instead of red. when his cousin submitted to him the necessity of having more than two horses for his own use he could listen to him; but when the same monitor talked of the chance of a father's death as a stroke of luck, frank was too much disgusted to be able to pretend to pass it over with indifference. what! was he thus to think of his father, whose face was always lighted up with pleasure when his boy came near to him, and so rarely bright at any other time? frank had watched his father closely enough to be aware of this; he knew how his father delighted in him; he had had cause to guess that his father had many troubles, and that he strove hard to banish the memory of them when his son was with him. he loved his father truly, purely, and thoroughly, liked to be with him, and would be proud to be his confidant. could he then listen quietly while his cousin spoke of the chance of his father's death as a stroke of luck? "i shouldn't think it a stroke of luck, john. i should think it the greatest misfortune in the world." it is so difficult for a young man to enumerate sententiously a principle of morality, or even an expression of ordinary good feeling, without giving himself something of a ridiculous air, without assuming something of a mock grandeur! "oh, of course, my dear fellow," said the honourable john, laughing; "that's a matter of course. we all understand that without saying it. porlock, of course, would feel exactly the same about the governor; but if the governor were to walk, i think porlock would console himself with the thirty thousand a year." "i don't know what porlock would do; he's always quarrelling with my uncle, i know. i only spoke of myself; i never quarrelled with my father, and i hope i never shall." "all right, my lad of wax, all right. i dare say you won't be tried; but if you are, you'll find before six months are over, that it's a very nice thing to master of greshamsbury." "i'm sure i shouldn't find anything of the kind." "very well, so be it. you wouldn't do as young hatherly did, at hatherly court, in gloucestershire, when his father kicked the bucket. you know hatherly, don't you?" "no; i never saw him." "he's sir frederick now, and has, or had, one of the finest fortunes in england, for a commoner; the most of it is gone now. well, when he heard of his governor's death, he was in paris, but he went off to hatherly as fast as special train and post-horses would carry him, and got there just in time for the funeral. as he came back to hatherly court from the church, they were putting up the hatchment over the door, and master fred saw that the undertakers had put at the bottom 'resurgam.' you know what that means?" "oh, yes," said frank. "'i'll come back again,'" said the honourable john, construing the latin for the benefit of his cousin. "'no,' said fred hatherly, looking up at the hatchment; 'i'm blessed if you do, old gentleman. that would be too much of a joke; i'll take care of that.' so he got up at night, and he got some fellows with him, and they climbed up and painted out 'resurgam,' and they painted into its place, 'requiescat in pace;' which means, you know, 'you'd a great deal better stay where you are.' now i call that good. fred hatherly did that as sure as--as sure as--as sure as anything." frank could not help laughing at the story, especially at his cousin's mode of translating the undertaker's mottoes; and then they sauntered back from the stables into the house to dress for dinner. dr thorne had come to the house somewhat before dinner-time, at mr gresham's request, and was now sitting with the squire in his own book-room--so called--while mary was talking to some of the girls upstairs. "i must have ten or twelve thousand pounds; ten at the very least," said the squire, who was sitting in his usual arm-chair, close to his littered table, with his head supported on his hand, looking very unlike the father of an heir of a noble property, who had that day come of age. it was the first of july, and of course there was no fire in the grate; but, nevertheless, the doctor was standing with his back to the fireplace, with his coat-tails over his arms, as though he were engaged, now in summer as he so often was in winter, in talking, and roasting his hinder person at the same time. "twelve thousand pounds! it's a very large sum of money." "i said ten," said the squire. "ten thousand pounds is a very large sum of money. there is no doubt he'll let you have it. scatcherd will let you have it; but i know he'll expect to have the title deeds." "what! for ten thousand pounds?" said the squire. "there is not a registered debt against the property but his own and armstrong's." "but his own is very large already." "armstrong's is nothing; about four-and-twenty thousand pounds." "yes; but he comes first, mr gresham." "well, what of that? to hear you talk, one would think that there was nothing left of greshamsbury. what's four-and-twenty thousand pounds? does scatcherd know what rent-roll is?" "oh, yes, he knows it well enough: i wish he did not." "well, then, why does he make such a bother about a few thousand pounds? the title-deeds, indeed!" "what he means is, that he must have ample security to cover what he has already advanced before he goes on. i wish to goodness you had no further need to borrow. i did think that things were settled last year." "oh if there's any difficulty, umbleby will get it for me." "yes; and what will you have to pay for it?" "i'd sooner pay double than be talked to in this way," said the squire, angrily, and, as he spoke, he got up hurriedly from his chair, thrust his hands into his trousers-pockets, walked quickly to the window, and immediately walking back again, threw himself once more into his chair. "there are some things a man cannot bear, doctor," said he, beating the devil's tattoo on the floor with one of his feet, "though god knows i ought to be patient now, for i am made to bear a good many things. you had better tell scatcherd that i am obliged to him for his offer, but that i will not trouble him." the doctor during this little outburst had stood quite silent with his back to the fireplace and his coat-tails hanging over his arms; but though his voice said nothing, his face said much. he was very unhappy; he was greatly grieved to find that the squire was so soon again in want of money, and greatly grieved also to find that this want had made him so bitter and unjust. mr gresham had attacked him; but as he was determined not to quarrel with mr gresham, he refrained from answering. the squire also remained silent for a few minutes; but he was not endowed with the gift of silence, and was soon, as it were, compelled to speak again. "poor frank!" said he. "i could yet be easy about everything if it were not for the injury i have done him. poor frank!" the doctor advanced a few paces from off the rug, and taking his hand out of his pocket, he laid it gently on the squire's shoulder. "frank will do very well yet," said the he. "it is not absolutely necessary that a man should have fourteen thousand pounds a year to be happy." "my father left me the property entire, and i should leave it entire to my son;--but you don't understand this." the doctor did understand the feeling fully. the fact, on the other hand, was that, long as he had known him, the squire did not understand the doctor. "i would you could, mr gresham," said the doctor, "so that your mind might be happier; but that cannot be, and, therefore, i say again, that frank will do very well yet, although he will not inherit fourteen thousand pounds a year; and i would have you say the same thing to yourself." "ah! you don't understand it," persisted the squire. "you don't know how a man feels when he--ah, well! it's no use my troubling you with what cannot be mended. i wonder whether umbleby is about the place anywhere?" the doctor was again standing with his back against the chimney-piece, and with his hands in his pockets. "you did not see umbleby as you came in?" again asked the squire. "no, i did not; and if you will take my advice you will not see him now; at any rate with reference to this money." "i tell you i must get it from someone; you say scatcherd won't let me have it." "no, mr gresham; i did not say that." "well, you said what was as bad. augusta is to be married in september, and the money must be had. i have agreed to give moffat six thousand pounds, and he is to have the money down in hard cash." "six thousand pounds," said the doctor. "well, i suppose that is not more than your daughter should have. but then, five times six are thirty; thirty thousand pounds will be a large sum to make up." the father thought to himself that his younger girls were but children, and that the trouble of arranging their marriage portions might well be postponed a while. sufficient for the day is the evil thereof. "that moffat is a griping, hungry fellow," said the squire. "i suppose augusta likes him; and, as regards money, it is a good match." "if miss gresham loves him, that is everything. i am not in love with him myself; but then, i am not a young lady." "the de courcys are very fond of him. lady de courcy says that he is a perfect gentleman, and thought very much of in london." "oh! if lady de courcy says that, of course, it's all right," said the doctor, with a quiet sarcasm, that was altogether thrown away on the squire. the squire did not like any of the de courcys; especially, he did not like lady de courcy; but still he was accessible to a certain amount of gratification in the near connexion which he had with the earl and countess; and when he wanted to support his family greatness, would sometimes weakly fall back upon the grandeur of courcy castle. it was only when talking to his wife that he invariably snubbed the pretensions of his noble relatives. the two men after this remained silent for a while; and then the doctor, renewing the subject for which he had been summoned into the book-room, remarked, that as scatcherd was now in the country--he did not say, was now at boxall hill, as he did not wish to wound the squire's ears--perhaps he had better go and see him, and ascertain in what way this affair of the money might be arranged. there was no doubt, he said, that scatcherd would supply the sum required at a lower rate of interest than that at which it could be procured through umbleby's means. "very well," said the squire. "i'll leave it in your hands, then. i think ten thousand pounds will do. and now i'll dress for dinner." and then the doctor left him. perhaps the reader will suppose after this that the doctor had some pecuniary interest of his own in arranging the squire's loans; or, at any rate, he will think that the squire must have so thought. not in the least; neither had he any such interest, nor did the squire think that he had any. what dr thorne did in this matter the squire well knew was done for love. but the squire of greshamsbury was a great man at greshamsbury; and it behoved him to maintain the greatness of his squirehood when discussing his affairs with the village doctor. so much he had at any rate learnt from his contact with the de courcys. and the doctor--proud, arrogant, contradictory, headstrong as he was--why did he bear to be thus snubbed? because he knew that the squire of greshamsbury, when struggling with debt and poverty, required an indulgence for his weakness. had mr gresham been in easy circumstances, the doctor would by no means have stood so placidly with his hands in his pockets, and have had mr umbleby thus thrown in his teeth. the doctor loved the squire, loved him as his own oldest friend; but he loved him ten times better as being in adversity than he could ever have done had things gone well at greshamsbury in his time. while this was going on downstairs, mary was sitting upstairs with beatrice gresham in the schoolroom. the old schoolroom, so called, was now a sitting-room, devoted to the use of the grown-up young ladies of the family, whereas one of the old nurseries was now the modern schoolroom. mary well knew her way to the sanctum, and, without asking any questions, walked up to it when her uncle went to the squire. on entering the room she found that augusta and the lady alexandrina were also there, and she hesitated for a moment at the door. "come in, mary," said beatrice, "you know my cousin alexandrina." mary came in, and having shaken hands with her two friends, was bowing to the lady, when the lady condescended, put out her noble hand, and touched miss thorne's fingers. beatrice was mary's friend, and many heart-burnings and much mental solicitude did that young lady give to her mother by indulging in such a friendship. but beatrice, with some faults, was true at heart, and she persisted in loving mary thorne in spite of the hints which her mother so frequently gave as to the impropriety of such an affection. nor had augusta any objection to the society of miss thorne. augusta was a strong-minded girl, with much of the de courcy arrogance, but quite as well inclined to show it in opposition to her mother as in any other form. to her alone in the house did lady arabella show much deference. she was now going to make a suitable match with a man of large fortune, who had been procured for her as an eligible _parti_ by her aunt, the countess. she did not pretend, had never pretended, that she loved mr moffat, but she knew, she said, that in the present state of her father's affairs such a match was expedient. mr moffat was a young man of very large fortune, in parliament, inclined to business, and in every way recommendable. he was not a man of birth, to be sure; that was to be lamented;--in confessing that mr moffat was not a man of birth, augusta did not go so far as to admit that he was the son of a tailor; such, however, was the rigid truth in this matter--he was not a man of birth, that was to be lamented; but in the present state of affairs at greshamsbury, she understood well that it was her duty to postpone her own feelings in some respect. mr moffat would bring fortune; she would bring blood and connexion. and as she so said, her bosom glowed with strong pride to think that she would be able to contribute so much more towards the proposed future partnership than her husband would do. 'twas thus that miss gresham spoke of her match to her dear friends, her cousins the de courcys for instance, to miss oriel, her sister beatrice, and even to mary thorne. she had no enthusiasm, she admitted, but she thought she had good judgment. she thought she had shown good judgment in accepting mr moffat's offer, though she did not pretend to any romance of affection. and, having so said, she went to work with considerable mental satisfaction, choosing furniture, carriages, and clothes, not extravagantly as her mother would have done, not in deference to sterner dictates of the latest fashion as her aunt would have done, with none of the girlish glee in new purchases which beatrice would have felt, but with sound judgment. she bought things that were rich, for her husband was to be rich, and she meant to avail herself of his wealth; she bought things that were fashionable, for she meant to live in the fashionable world; but she bought what was good, and strong, and lasting, and worth its money. augusta gresham had perceived early in life that she could not obtain success either as an heiress, or as a beauty, nor could she shine as a wit; she therefore fell back on such qualities as she had, and determined to win the world as a strong-minded, useful woman. that which she had of her own was blood; having that, she would in all ways do what in her lay to enhance its value. had she not possessed it, it would to her mind have been the vainest of pretences. when mary came in, the wedding preparations were being discussed. the number and names of the bridesmaids were being settled, the dresses were on the tapis, the invitations to be given were talked over. sensible as augusta was, she was not above such feminine cares; she was, indeed, rather anxious that the wedding should go off well. she was a little ashamed of her tailor's son, and therefore anxious that things should be as brilliant as possible. the bridesmaid's names had just been written on a card as mary entered the room. there were the ladies amelia, rosina, margaretta, and alexandrina of course at the head of it; then came beatrice and the twins; then miss oriel, who, though only a parson's sister, was a person of note, birth, and fortune. after this there had been here a great discussion whether or not there should be any more. if there were to be one more there must be two. now miss moffat had expressed a direct wish, and augusta, though she would much rather have done without her, hardly knew how to refuse. alexandrina--we hope we may be allowed to drop the "lady" for the sake of brevity, for the present scene only--was dead against such an unreasonable request. "we none of us know her, you know; and it would not be comfortable." beatrice strongly advocated the future sister-in-law's acceptance into the bevy; she had her own reasons; she was pained that mary thorne should not be among the number, and if miss moffat were accepted, perhaps mary might be brought in as her colleague. "if you have miss moffat," said alexandrina, "you must have dear pussy too; and i really think that pussy is too young; it will be troublesome." pussy was the youngest miss gresham, who was now only eight years old, and whose real name was nina. "augusta," said beatrice, speaking with some slight hesitation, some soupçon of doubt, before the high authority of her noble cousin, "if you do have miss moffat would you mind asking mary thorne to join her? i think mary would like it, because, you see, patience oriel is to be one; and we have known mary much longer than we have known patience." then out and spake the lady alexandrina. "beatrice, dear, if you think of what you are asking, i am sure you will see that it would not do; would not do at all. miss thorne is a very nice girl, i am sure; and, indeed, what little i have seen of her i highly approve. but, after all, who is she? mamma, i know, thinks that aunt arabella has been wrong to let her be here so much, but--" beatrice became rather red in the face, and, in spite of the dignity of her cousin, was preparing to defend her friend. "mind, i am not saying a word against miss thorne." "if i am married before her, she shall be one of my bridesmaids," said beatrice. "that will probably depend on circumstances," said the lady alexandrina; i find that i cannot bring my courteous pen to drop the title. "but augusta is very peculiarly situated. mr moffat is, you see, not of the very highest birth; and, therefore, she should take care that on her side every one about her is well born." "then you cannot have miss moffat," said beatrice. "no; i would not if i could help it," said the cousin. "but the thornes are as good a family as the greshams," said beatrice. she had not quite the courage to say, as good as the de courcys. "i dare say they are; and if this was miss thorne of ullathorne, augusta probably would not object to her. but can you tell me who miss mary thorne is?" "she is dr thorne's niece." "you mean that she is called so; but do you know who her father was, or who her mother was? i, for one, must own i do not. mamma, i believe, does, but--" at this moment the door opened gently and mary thorne entered the room. it may easily be conceived, that while mary was making her salutations the three other young ladies were a little cast aback. the lady alexandrina, however, quickly recovered herself, and, by her inimitable presence of mind and facile grace of manner, soon put the matter on a proper footing. "we were discussing miss gresham's marriage," said she; "i am sure i may mention to an acquaintance of so long standing as miss thorne, that the first of september has been now fixed for the wedding." miss gresham! acquaintance of so long standing! why, mary and augusta gresham had for years, we will hardly say now for how many, passed their mornings together in the same schoolroom; had quarrelled, and squabbled, and caressed and kissed, and been all but as sisters to each other. acquaintance indeed! beatrice felt that her ears were tingling, and even augusta was a little ashamed. mary, however, knew that the cold words had come from a de courcy, and not from a gresham, and did not, therefore, resent them. "so it's settled, augusta, is it?" said she; "the first of september. i wish you joy with all my heart," and, coming round, she put her arm over augusta's shoulder and kissed her. the lady alexandrina could not but think that the doctor's niece uttered her congratulations very much as though she were speaking to an equal; very much as though she had a father and mother of her own. "you will have delicious weather," continued mary. "september, and the beginning of october, is the nicest time of the year. if i were going honeymooning it is just the time of year i would choose." "i wish you were, mary," said beatrice. "so do not i, dear, till i have found some decent sort of a body to honeymoon along with me. i won't stir out of greshamsbury till i have sent you off before me, at any rate. and where will you go, augusta?" "we have not settled that," said augusta. "mr moffat talks of paris." "who ever heard of going to paris in september?" said the lady alexandrina. "or who ever heard of the gentleman having anything to say on the matter?" said the doctor's niece. "of course mr moffat will go wherever you are pleased to take him." the lady alexandrina was not pleased to find how completely the doctor's niece took upon herself to talk, and sit, and act at greshamsbury as though she was on a par with the young ladies of the family. that beatrice should have allowed this would not have surprised her; but it was to be expected that augusta would have shown better judgment. "these things require some tact in their management; some delicacy when high interests are at stake," said she; "i agree with miss thorne in thinking that, in ordinary circumstances, with ordinary people, perhaps, the lady should have her way. rank, however, has its drawbacks, miss thorne, as well as its privileges." "i should not object to the drawbacks," said the doctor's niece, "presuming them to be of some use; but i fear i might fail in getting on so well with the privileges." the lady alexandrina looked at her as though not fully aware whether she intended to be pert. in truth, the lady alexandrina was rather in the dark on the subject. it was almost impossible, it was incredible, that a fatherless, motherless, doctor's niece should be pert to an earl's daughter at greshamsbury, seeing that that earl's daughter was the cousin of the miss greshams. and yet the lady alexandrina hardly knew what other construction to put on the words she had just heard. it was at any rate clear to her that it was not becoming that she should just then stay any longer in that room. whether she intended to be pert or not, miss mary thorne was, to say the least, very free. the de courcy ladies knew what was due to them--no ladies better; and, therefore, the lady alexandrina made up her mind at once to go to her own bedroom. "augusta," she said, rising slowly from her chair with much stately composure, "it is nearly time to dress; will you come with me? we have a great deal to settle, you know." so she swam out of the room, and augusta, telling mary that she would see her again at dinner, swam--no, tried to swim--after her. miss gresham had had great advantages; but she had not been absolutely brought up at courcy castle, and could not as yet quite assume the courcy style of swimming. "there," said mary, as the door closed behind the rustling muslins of the ladies. "there, i have made an enemy for ever, perhaps two; that's satisfactory." "and why have you done it, mary? when i am fighting your battles behind your back, why do you come and upset it all by making the whole family of the de courcys dislike you? in such a matter as that, they'll all go together." "i am sure they will," said mary; "whether they would be equally unanimous in a case of love and charity, that, indeed, is another question." "but why should you try to make my cousin angry; you that ought to have so much sense? don't you remember what you were saying yourself the other day, of the absurdity of combatting pretences which the world sanctions?" "i do, trichy, i do; don't scold me now. it is so much easier to preach than to practise. i do so wish i was a clergyman." "but you have done so much harm, mary." "have i?" said mary, kneeling down on the ground at her friend's feet. "if i humble myself very low; if i kneel through the whole evening in a corner; if i put my neck down and let all your cousins trample on it, and then your aunt, would not that make atonement? i would not object to wearing sackcloth, either; and i'd eat a little ashes--or, at any rate, i'd try." "i know you're clever, mary; but still i think you're a fool. i do, indeed." "i am a fool, trichy, i do confess it; and am not a bit clever; but don't scold me; you see how humble i am; not only humble but umble, which i look upon to be the comparative, or, indeed, superlative degree. or perhaps there are four degrees; humble, umble, stumble, tumble; and then, when one is absolutely in the dirt at their feet, perhaps these big people won't wish one to stoop any further." "oh, mary!" "and, oh, trichy! you don't mean to say i mayn't speak out before you. there, perhaps you'd like to put your foot on my neck." and then she put her head down to the footstool and kissed beatrice's feet. "i'd like, if i dared, to put my hand on your cheek and give you a good slap for being such a goose." "do; do, trichy: you shall tread on me, or slap me, or kiss me; whichever you like." "i can't tell you how vexed i am," said beatrice; "i wanted to arrange something." "arrange something! what? arrange what? i love arranging. i fancy myself qualified to be an arranger-general in female matters. i mean pots and pans, and such like. of course i don't allude to extraordinary people and extraordinary circumstances that require tact, and delicacy, and drawbacks, and that sort of thing." "very well, mary." "but it's not very well; it's very bad if you look like that. well, my pet, there i won't. i won't allude to the noble blood of your noble relatives either in joke or in earnest. what is it you want to arrange, trichy?" "i want you to be one of augusta's bridesmaids." "good heavens, beatrice! are you mad? what! put me, even for a morning, into the same category of finery as the noble blood from courcy castle!" "patience is to be one." "but that is no reason why impatience should be another, and i should be very impatient under such honours. no, trichy; joking apart, do not think of it. even if augusta wished it i should refuse. i should be obliged to refuse. i, too, suffer from pride; a pride quite as unpardonable as that of others: i could not stand with your four lady-cousins behind your sister at the altar. in such a galaxy they would be the stars and i--" "why, mary, all the world knows that you are prettier than any of them!" "i am all the world's very humble servant. but, trichy, i should not object if i were as ugly as the veiled prophet and they all as beautiful as zuleika. the glory of that galaxy will be held to depend not on its beauty, but on its birth. you know how they would look at me; how they would scorn me; and there, in church, at the altar, with all that is solemn round us, i could not return their scorn as i might do elsewhere. in a room i'm not a bit afraid of them all." and mary was again allowing herself to be absorbed by that feeling of indomitable pride, of antagonism to the pride of others, which she herself in her cooler moments was the first to blame. "you often say, mary, that that sort of arrogance should be despised and passed over without notice." "so it should, trichy. i tell you that as a clergyman tells you to hate riches. but though the clergyman tells you so, he is not the less anxious to be rich himself." "i particularly wish you to be one of augusta's bridesmaids." "and i particularly wish to decline the honour; which honour has not been, and will not be, offered to me. no, trichy. i will not be augusta's bridesmaid, but--but--but--" "but what, dearest?" "but, trichy, when some one else is married, when the new wing has been built to a house that you know of--" "now, mary, hold your tongue, or you know you'll make me angry." "i do so like to see you angry. and when that time comes, when that wedding does take place, then i will be a bridesmaid, trichy. yes! even though i am not invited. yes! though all the de courcys in barsetshire should tread upon me and obliterate me. though i should be as dust among the stars, though i should creep up in calico among their satins and lace, i will nevertheless be there; close, close to the bride; to hold something for her, to touch her dress, to feel that i am near to her, to--to--to--" and she threw her arms round her companion, and kissed her over and over again. "no, trichy; i won't be augusta's bridesmaid; i'll bide my time for bridesmaiding." what protestations beatrice made against the probability of such an event as foreshadowed in her friend's promise we will not repeat. the afternoon was advancing, and the ladies also had to dress for dinner, to do honour to the young heir. chapter v frank gresham's first speech we have said, that over and above those assembled in the house, there came to the greshamsbury dinner on frank's birthday the jacksons of the grange, consisting of mr and mrs jackson; the batesons from annesgrove, viz., mr and mrs bateson, and miss bateson, their daughter--an unmarried lady of about fifty; the bakers of mill hill, father and son; and mr caleb oriel, the rector, with his beautiful sister, patience. dr thorne, and his niece mary, we count among those already assembled at greshamsbury. there was nothing very magnificent in the number of the guests thus brought together to do honour to young frank; but he, perhaps, was called on to take a more prominent part in the proceedings, to be made more of a hero than would have been the case had half the county been there. in that case the importance of the guests would have been so great that frank would have got off with a half-muttered speech or two; but now he had to make a separate oration to every one, and very weary work he found it. the batesons, bakers, and jacksons were very civil; no doubt the more so from an unconscious feeling on their part, that as the squire was known to be a little out at elbows as regards money, any deficiency on their part might be considered as owing to the present state of affairs at greshamsbury. fourteen thousand a year will receive honour; in that case there is no doubt, and the man absolutely possessing it is not apt to be suspicious as to the treatment he may receive; but the ghost of fourteen thousand a year is not always so self-assured. mr baker, with his moderate income, was a very much richer man than the squire; and, therefore, he was peculiarly forward in congratulating frank on the brilliancy of his prospects. poor frank had hardly anticipated what there would be to do, and before dinner was announced he was very tired of it. he had no warmer feeling for any of the grand cousins than a very ordinary cousinly love; and he had resolved, forgetful of birth and blood, and all those gigantic considerations which, now that manhood had come upon him, he was bound always to bear in mind,--he had resolved to sneak out to dinner comfortably with mary thorne if possible; and if not with mary, then with his other love, patience oriel. great, therefore, was his consternation at finding that, after being kept continually in the foreground for half an hour before dinner, he had to walk out to the dining-room with his aunt the countess, and take his father's place for the day at the bottom of the table. "it will now depend altogether upon yourself, frank, whether you maintain or lose that high position in the county which has been held by the greshams for so many years," said the countess, as she walked through the spacious hall, resolving to lose no time in teaching to her nephew that great lesson which it was so imperative that he should learn. frank took this as an ordinary lecture, meant to inculcate general good conduct, such as old bores of aunts are apt to inflict on youthful victims in the shape of nephews and nieces. "yes," said frank; "i suppose so; and i mean to go along all square, aunt, and no mistake. when i get back to cambridge, i'll read like bricks." his aunt did not care two straws about his reading. it was not by reading that the greshams of greshamsbury had held their heads up in the county, but by having high blood and plenty of money. the blood had come naturally to this young man; but it behoved him to look for the money in a great measure himself. she, lady de courcy, could doubtless help him; she might probably be able to fit him with a wife who would bring her money onto his birth. his reading was a matter in which she could in no way assist him; whether his taste might lead him to prefer books or pictures, or dogs and horses, or turnips in drills, or old italian plates and dishes, was a matter which did not much signify; with which it was not at all necessary that his noble aunt should trouble herself. "oh! you are going to cambridge again, are you? well, if your father wishes it;--though very little is ever gained now by a university connexion." "i am to take my degree in october, aunt; and i am determined, at any rate, that i won't be plucked." "plucked!" "no; i won't be plucked. baker was plucked last year, and all because he got into the wrong set at john's. he's an excellent fellow if you knew him. he got among a set of men who did nothing but smoke and drink beer. malthusians, we call them." "malthusians!" "'malt,' you know, aunt, and 'use;' meaning that they drink beer. so poor harry baker got plucked. i don't know that a fellow's any the worse; however, i won't get plucked." by this time the party had taken their place round the long board, mr gresham sitting at the top, in the place usually occupied by lady arabella. she, on the present occasion, sat next to her son on the one side, as the countess did on the other. if, therefore, frank now went astray, it would not be from want of proper leading. "aunt, will you have some beef?" said he, as soon as the soup and fish had been disposed of, anxious to perform the rites of hospitality now for the first time committed to his charge. "do not be in a hurry, frank," said his mother; "the servants will--" "oh! ah! i forgot; there are cutlets and those sort of things. my hand is not in yet for this work, aunt. well, as i was saying about cambridge--" "is frank to go back to cambridge, arabella?" said the countess to her sister-in-law, speaking across her nephew. "so his father seems to say." "is it not a waste of time?" asked the countess. "you know i never interfere," said the lady arabella; "i never liked the idea of cambridge myself at all. all the de courcys were christ church men; but the greshams, it seems, were always at cambridge." "would it not be better to send him abroad at once?" "much better, i would think," said the lady arabella; "but you know, i never interfere: perhaps you would speak to mr gresham." the countess smiled grimly, and shook her head with a decidedly negative shake. had she said out loud to the young man, "your father is such an obstinate, pig-headed, ignorant fool, that it is no use speaking to him; it would be wasting fragrance on the desert air," she could not have spoken more plainly. the effect on frank was this: that he said to himself, speaking quite as plainly as lady de courcy had spoken by her shake of the face, "my mother and aunt are always down on the governor, always; but the more they are down on him the more i'll stick to him. i certainly will take my degree: i will read like bricks; and i'll begin to-morrow." "now will you take some beef, aunt?" this was said out loud. the countess de courcy was very anxious to go on with her lesson without loss of time; but she could not, while surrounded by guests and servants, enunciate the great secret: "you must marry money, frank; that is your one great duty; that is the matter to be borne steadfastly in your mind." she could not now, with sufficient weight and impress of emphasis, pour this wisdom into his ears; the more especially as he was standing up to his work of carving, and was deep to his elbows in horse-radish, fat, and gravy. so the countess sat silent while the banquet proceeded. "beef, harry?" shouted the young heir to his friend baker. "oh! but i see it isn't your turn yet. i beg your pardon, miss bateson," and he sent to that lady a pound and a half of excellent meat, cut out with great energy in one slice, about half an inch thick. and so the banquet went on. before dinner frank had found himself obliged to make numerous small speeches in answer to the numerous individual congratulations of his friends; but these were as nothing to the one great accumulated onus of an oration which he had long known that he should have to sustain after the cloth was taken away. someone of course would propose his health, and then there would be a clatter of voices, ladies and gentlemen, men and girls; and when that was done he would find himself standing on his legs, with the room about him, going round and round and round. having had a previous hint of this, he had sought advice from his cousin, the honourable george, whom he regarded as a dab at speaking; at least, so he had heard the honourable george say of himself. "what the deuce is a fellow to say, george, when he stands up after the clatter is done?" "oh, it's the easiest thing in life," said the cousin. "only remember this: you mustn't get astray; that is what they call presence of mind, you know. i'll tell you what i do, and i'm often called up, you know; at our agriculturals i always propose the farmers' daughters: well, what i do is this--i keep my eye steadfastly fixed on one of the bottles, and never move it." "on one of the bottles!" said frank; "wouldn't it be better if i made a mark of some old covey's head? i don't like looking at the table." "the old covey'd move, and then you'd be done; besides there isn't the least use in the world in looking up. i've heard people say, who go to those sort of dinners every day of their lives, that whenever anything witty is said; the fellow who says it is sure to be looking at the mahogany." "oh, you know i shan't say anything witty; i'll be quite the other way." "but there's no reason you shouldn't learn the manner. that's the way i succeeded. fix your eye on one of the bottles; put your thumbs in your waist-coat pockets; stick out your elbows, bend your knees a little, and then go ahead." "oh, ah! go ahead; that's all very well; but you can't go ahead if you haven't got any steam." "a very little does it. there can be nothing so easy as your speech. when one has to say something new every year about the farmers' daughters, why one has to use one's brains a bit. let's see: how will you begin? of course, you'll say that you are not accustomed to this sort of thing; that the honour conferred upon you is too much for your feelings; that the bright array of beauty and talent around you quite overpowers your tongue, and all that sort of thing. then declare you're a gresham to the backbone." "oh, they know that." "well, tell them again. then of course you must say something about us; or you'll have the countess as black as old nick." "abut my aunt, george? what on earth can i say about her when she's there herself before me?" "before you! of course; that's just the reason. oh, say any lie you can think of; you must say something about us. you know we've come down from london on purpose." frank, in spite of the benefit he was receiving from his cousin's erudition, could not help wishing in his heart that they had all remained in london; but this he kept to himself. he thanked his cousin for his hints, and though he did not feel that the trouble of his mind was completely cured, he began to hope that he might go through the ordeal without disgracing himself. nevertheless, he felt rather sick at heart when mr baker got up to propose the toast as soon as the servants were gone. the servants, that is, were gone officially; but they were there in a body, men and women, nurses, cooks, and ladies' maids, coachmen, grooms, and footmen, standing in two doorways to hear what master frank would say. the old housekeeper headed the maids at one door, standing boldly inside the room; and the butler controlled the men at the other, marshalling them back with a drawn corkscrew. mr baker did not say much; but what he did say, he said well. they had all seen frank gresham grow up from a child; and were now required to welcome as a man amongst them one who was well qualified to carry on the honour of that loved and respected family. his young friend, frank, was every inch a gresham. mr baker omitted to make mention of the infusion of de courcy blood, and the countess, therefore, drew herself up on her chair and looked as though she were extremely bored. he then alluded tenderly to his own long friendship with the present squire, francis newbold gresham the elder; and sat down, begging them to drink health, prosperity, long life, and an excellent wife to their dear young friend, francis newbold gresham the younger. there was a great jingling of glasses, of course; made the merrier and the louder by the fact that the ladies were still there as well as the gentlemen. ladies don't drink toasts frequently; and, therefore, the occasion coming rarely was the more enjoyed. "god bless you, frank!" "your good health, frank!" "and especially a good wife, frank!" "two or three of them, frank!" "good health and prosperity to you, mr gresham!" "more power to you, frank, my boy!" "may god bless you and preserve you, my dear boy!" and then a merry, sweet, eager voice from the far end of the table, "frank! frank! do look at me, pray do frank; i am drinking your health in real wine; ain't i, papa?" such were the addresses which greeted mr francis newbold gresham the younger as he essayed to rise up on his feet for the first time since he had come to man's estate. when the clatter was at an end, and he was fairly on his legs, he cast a glance before him on the table, to look for a decanter. he had not much liked his cousin's theory of sticking to the bottle; nevertheless, in the difficulty of the moment, it was well to have any system to go by. but, as misfortune would have it, though the table was covered with bottles, his eye could not catch one. indeed, his eye first could catch nothing, for the things swam before him, and the guests all seemed to dance in their chairs. up he got, however, and commenced his speech. as he could not follow his preceptor's advice as touching the bottle, he adopted his own crude plan of "making a mark on some old covey's head," and therefore looked dead at the doctor. "upon my word, i am very much obliged to you, gentlemen and ladies, ladies and gentlemen, i should say, for drinking my health, and doing me so much honour, and all that sort of thing. upon my word i am. especially to mr baker. i don't mean you, harry, you're not mr baker." "as much as you're mr gresham, master frank." "but i am not mr gresham; and i don't mean to be for many a long year if i can help it; not at any rate till we have had another coming of age here." "bravo, frank; and whose will that be?" "that will be my son, and a very fine lad he will be; and i hope he'll make a better speech than his father. mr baker said i was every inch a gresham. well, i hope i am." here the countess began to look cold and angry. "i hope the day will never come when my father won't own me for one." "there's no fear, no fear," said the doctor, who was almost put out of countenance by the orator's intense gaze. the countess looked colder and more angry, and muttered something to herself about a bear-garden. "gardez gresham; eh? harry! mind that when you're sticking in a gap and i'm coming after you. well, i am sure i am very obliged to you for the honour you have all done me, especially the ladies, who don't do this sort of thing on ordinary occasions. i wish they did; don't you, doctor? and talking of the ladies, my aunt and cousins have come all the way from london to hear me make this speech, which certainly is not worth the trouble; but, all the same i am very much obliged to them." and he looked round and made a little bow at the countess. "and so i am to mr and mrs jackson, and mr and mrs and miss bateson, and mr baker--i'm not at all obliged to you, harry--and to mr oriel and miss oriel, and to mr umbleby, and to dr thorne, and to mary--i beg her pardon, i mean miss thorne." and then he sat down, amid the loud plaudits of the company, and a string of blessings which came from the servants behind him. after this the ladies rose and departed. as she went, lady arabella, kissed her son's forehead, and then his sisters kissed him, and one or two of his lady-cousins; and then miss bateson shook him by the hand. "oh, miss bateson," said he, "i thought the kissing was to go all round." so miss bateson laughed and went her way; and patience oriel nodded at him, but mary thorne, as she quietly left the room, almost hidden among the extensive draperies of the grander ladies, hardly allowed her eyes to meet his. he got up to hold the door for them as they passed; and as they went, he managed to take patience by the hand; he took her hand and pressed it for a moment, but dropped it quickly, in order that he might go through the same ceremony with mary, but mary was too quick for him. "frank," said mr gresham, as soon as the door was closed, "bring your glass here, my boy;" and the father made room for his son close beside himself. "the ceremony is now over, so you may have your place of dignity." frank sat himself down where he was told, and mr gresham put his hand on his son's shoulder and half caressed him, while the tears stood in his eyes. "i think the doctor is right, baker, i think he'll never make us ashamed of him." "i am sure he never will," said mr baker. "i don't think he ever will," said dr thorne. the tones of the men's voices were very different. mr baker did not care a straw about it; why should he? he had an heir of his own as well as the squire; one also who was the apple of _his_ eye. but the doctor,--he did care; he had a niece, to be sure, whom he loved, perhaps as well as these men loved their sons; but there was room in his heart also for young frank gresham. after this small exposé of feeling they sat silent for a moment or two. but silence was not dear to the heart of the honourable john, and so he took up the running. "that's a niceish nag you gave frank this morning," he said to his uncle. "i was looking at him before dinner. he is a monsoon, isn't he?" "well i can't say i know how he was bred," said the squire. "he shows a good deal of breeding." "he's a monsoon, i'm sure," said the honourable john. "they've all those ears, and that peculiar dip in the back. i suppose you gave a goodish figure for him?" "not so very much," said the squire. "he's a trained hunter, i suppose?" "if not, he soon will be," said the squire. "let frank alone for that," said harry baker. "he jumps beautifully, sir," said frank. "i haven't tried him myself, but peter made him go over the bar two or three times this morning." the honourable john was determined to give his cousin a helping hand, as he considered it. he thought that frank was very ill-used in being put off with so incomplete a stud, and thinking also that the son had not spirit enough to attack his father himself on the subject, the honourable john determined to do it for him. "he's the making of a very nice horse, i don't doubt. i wish you had a string like him, frank." frank felt the blood rush to his face. he would not for worlds have his father think that he was discontented, or otherwise than pleased with the present he had received that morning. he was heartily ashamed of himself in that he had listened with a certain degree of complacency to his cousin's tempting; but he had no idea that the subject would be repeated--and then repeated, too, before his father, in a manner to vex him on such a day as this, before such people as were assembled there. he was very angry with his cousin, and for a moment forgot all his hereditary respect for a de courcy. "i tell you what, john," said he, "do you choose your day, some day early in the season, and come out on the best thing you have, and i'll bring, not the black horse, but my old mare; and then do you try and keep near me. if i don't leave you at the back of godspeed before long, i'll give you the mare and the horse too." the honourable john was not known in barsetshire as one of the most forward of its riders. he was a man much addicted to hunting, as far as the get-up of the thing was concerned; he was great in boots and breeches; wondrously conversant with bits and bridles; he had quite a collection of saddles; and patronised every newest invention for carrying spare shoes, sandwiches, and flasks of sherry. he was prominent at the cover side;--some people, including the master of hounds, thought him perhaps a little too loudly prominent; he affected a familiarity with the dogs, and was on speaking acquaintance with every man's horse. but when the work was cut out, when the pace began to be sharp, when it behoved a man either to ride or visibly to decline to ride, then--so at least said they who had not the de courcy interest quite closely at heart--then, in those heart-stirring moments, the honourable john was too often found deficient. there was, therefore, a considerable laugh at his expense when frank, instigated to his innocent boast by a desire to save his father, challenged his cousin to a trial of prowess. the honourable john was not, perhaps, as much accustomed to the ready use of his tongue as was his honourable brother, seeing that it was not his annual business to depict the glories of the farmers' daughters; at any rate, on this occasion he seemed to be at some loss for words; he shut up, as the slang phrase goes, and made no further allusion to the necessity of supplying young gresham with a proper string of hunters. but the old squire had understood it all; had understood the meaning of his nephew's attack; had thoroughly understood also the meaning of his son's defence, and the feeling which actuated it. he also had thought of the stableful of horses which had belonged to himself when he came of age; and of the much more humble position which his son would have to fill than that which _his_ father had prepared for him. he thought of this, and was sad enough, though he had sufficient spirit to hide from his friends around him the fact, that the honourable john's arrow had not been discharged in vain. "he shall have champion," said the father to himself. "it is time for me to give it up." now champion was one of the two fine old hunters which the squire kept for his own use. and it might have been said of him now, at the period of which we are speaking, that the only really happy moments of his life were those which he spent in the field. so much as to its being time for him to give up. chapter vi frank gresham's early loves it was, we have said, the first of july, and such being the time of the year, the ladies, after sitting in the drawing-room for half an hour or so, began to think that they might as well go through the drawing-room windows on to the lawn. first one slipped out a little way, and then another; and then they got on to the lawn; and then they talked of their hats; till, by degrees, the younger ones of the party, and at last of the elder also, found themselves dressed for walking. the windows, both of the drawing-room and the dining-room, looked out on to the lawn; and it was only natural that the girls should walk from the former to the latter. it was only natural that they, being there, should tempt their swains to come to them by the sight of their broad-brimmed hats and evening dresses; and natural, also, that the temptation should not be resisted. the squire, therefore, and the elder male guests soon found themselves alone round their wine. "upon my word, we were enchanted by your eloquence, mr gresham, were we not?" said miss oriel, turning to one of the de courcy girls who was with her. miss oriel was a very pretty girl; a little older than frank gresham,--perhaps a year or so. she had dark hair, large round dark eyes, a nose a little too broad, a pretty mouth, a beautiful chin, and, as we have said before, a large fortune;--that is, moderately large--let us say twenty thousand pounds, there or thereabouts. she and her brother had been living at greshamsbury for the last two years, the living having been purchased for him--such were mr gresham's necessities--during the lifetime of the last old incumbent. miss oriel was in every respect a nice neighbour; she was good-humoured, lady-like, lively, neither too clever nor too stupid, belonging to a good family, sufficiently fond of this world's good things, as became a pretty young lady so endowed, and sufficiently fond, also, of the other world's good things, as became the mistress of a clergyman's house. "indeed, yes," said the lady margaretta. "frank is very eloquent. when he described our rapid journey from london, he nearly moved me to tears. but well as he talks, i think he carves better." "i wish you'd had to do it, margaretta; both the carving and talking." "thank you, frank; you're very civil." "but there's one comfort, miss oriel; it's over now, and done. a fellow can't be made to come of age twice." "but you'll take your degree, mr gresham; and then, of course, there'll be another speech; and then you'll get married, and there will be two or three more." "i'll speak at your wedding, miss oriel, long before i do at my own." "i shall not have the slightest objection. it will be so kind of you to patronise my husband." "but, by jove, will he patronise me? i know you'll marry some awful bigwig, or some terribly clever fellow; won't she, margaretta?" "miss oriel was saying so much in praise of you before you came out," said margaretta, "that i began to think that her mind was intent on remaining at greshamsbury all her life." frank blushed, and patience laughed. there was but a year's difference in their age; frank, however, was still a boy, though patience was fully a woman. "i am ambitious, lady margaretta," said she. "i own it; but i am moderate in my ambition. i do love greshamsbury, and if mr gresham had a younger brother, perhaps, you know--" "another just like myself, i suppose," said frank. "oh, yes. i could not possibly wish for any change." "just as eloquent as you are, frank," said the lady margaretta. "and as good a carver," said patience. "miss bateson has lost her heart to him for ever, because of his carving," said the lady margaretta. "but perfection never repeats itself," said patience. "well, you see, i have not got any brothers," said frank; "so all i can do is to sacrifice myself." "upon my word, mr gresham, i am under more than ordinary obligations to you; i am indeed," and miss oriel stood still in the path, and made a very graceful curtsy. "dear me! only think, lady margaretta, that i should be honoured with an offer from the heir the very moment he is legally entitled to make one." "and done with so much true gallantry, too," said the other; "expressing himself quite willing to postpone any views of his own or your advantage." "yes," said patience; "that's what i value so much: had he loved me now, there would have been no merit on his part; but a sacrifice, you know--" "yes, ladies are so fond of such sacrifices, frank, upon my word, i had no idea you were so very excellent at making speeches." "well," said frank, "i shouldn't have said sacrifice, that was a slip; what i meant was--" "oh, dear me," said patience, "wait a minute; now we are going to have a regular declaration. lady margaretta, you haven't got a scent-bottle, have you? and if i should faint, where's the garden-chair?" "oh, but i'm not going to make a declaration at all," said frank. "are you not? oh! now, lady margaretta, i appeal to you; did you not understand him to say something very particular?" "certainly, i thought nothing could be plainer," said the lady margaretta. "and so, mr gresham, i am to be told, that after all it means nothing," said patience, putting her handkerchief up to her eyes. "it means that you are an excellent hand at quizzing a fellow like me." "quizzing! no; but you are an excellent hand at deceiving a poor girl like me. well, remember i have got a witness; here is lady margaretta, who heard it all. what a pity it is that my brother is a clergyman. you calculated on that, i know; or you would never had served me so." she said so just as her brother joined them, or rather just as he had joined lady margaretta de courcy; for her ladyship and mr oriel walked on in advance by themselves. lady margaretta had found it rather dull work, making a third in miss oriel's flirtation with her cousin; the more so as she was quite accustomed to take a principal part herself in all such transactions. she therefore not unwillingly walked on with mr oriel. mr oriel, it must be conceived, was not a common, everyday parson, but had points about him which made him quite fit to associate with an earl's daughter. and as it was known that he was not a marrying man, having very exalted ideas on that point connected with his profession, the lady margaretta, of course, had the less objection to trust herself alone with him. but directly she was gone, miss oriel's tone of banter ceased. it was very well making a fool of a lad of twenty-one when others were by; but there might be danger in it when they were alone together. "i don't know any position on earth more enviable than yours, mr gresham," said she, quite soberly and earnestly; "how happy you ought to be." "what, in being laughed at by you, miss oriel, for pretending to be a man, when you choose to make out that i am only a boy? i can bear to be laughed at pretty well generally, but i can't say that your laughing at me makes me feel so happy as you say i ought to be." frank was evidently of an opinion totally different from that of miss oriel. miss oriel, when she found herself _tête-à-tête_ with him, thought it was time to give over flirting; frank, however, imagined that it was just the moment for him to begin. so he spoke and looked very languishing, and put on him quite the airs of an orlando. "oh, mr gresham, such good friends as you and i may laugh at each other, may we not?" "you may do what you like, miss oriel: beautiful women i believe always may; but you remember what the spider said to the fly, 'that which is sport to you, may be death to me.'" anyone looking at frank's face as he said this, might well have imagined that he was breaking his very heart for love of miss oriel. oh, master frank! master frank! if you act thus in the green leaf, what will you do in the dry? while frank gresham was thus misbehaving himself, and going on as though to him belonged the privilege of falling in love with pretty faces, as it does to ploughboys and other ordinary people, his great interests were not forgotten by those guardian saints who were so anxious to shower down on his head all manner of temporal blessings. another conversation had taken place in the greshamsbury gardens, in which nothing light had been allowed to present itself; nothing frivolous had been spoken. the countess, the lady arabella, and miss gresham had been talking over greshamsbury affairs, and they had latterly been assisted by the lady amelia, than whom no de courcy ever born was more wise, more solemn, more prudent, or more proud. the ponderosity of her qualifications for nobility was sometimes too much even for her mother, and her devotion to the peerage was such, that she would certainly have declined a seat in heaven if offered to her without the promise that it should be in the upper house. the subject first discussed had been augusta's prospects. mr moffat had been invited to courcy castle, and augusta had been taken thither to meet him, with the express intention on the part of the countess, that they should be man and wife. the countess had been careful to make it intelligible to her sister-in-law and niece, that though mr moffat would do excellently well for a daughter of greshamsbury, he could not be allowed to raise his eyes to a female scion of courcy castle. "not that we personally dislike him," said the lady amelia; "but rank has its drawbacks, augusta." as the lady amelia was now somewhat nearer forty than thirty, and was still allowed to walk, "in maiden meditation, fancy free," it may be presumed that in her case rank had been found to have serious drawbacks. to this augusta said nothing in objection. whether desirable by a de courcy or not, the match was to be hers, and there was no doubt whatever as to the wealth of the man whose name she was to take; the offer had been made, not to her, but to her aunt; the acceptance had been expressed, not by her, but by her aunt. had she thought of recapitulating in her memory all that had ever passed between mr moffat and herself, she would have found that it did not amount to more than the most ordinary conversation between chance partners in a ball-room. nevertheless, she was to be mrs moffat. all that mr gresham knew of him was, that when he met the young man for the first and only time in his life, he found him extremely hard to deal with in the matter of money. he had insisted on having ten thousand pounds with his wife, and at last refused to go on with the match unless he got six thousand pounds. this latter sum the poor squire had undertaken to pay him. mr moffat had been for a year or two m.p. for barchester; having been assisted in his views on that ancient city by all the de courcy interest. he was a whig, of course. not only had barchester, departing from the light of other days, returned a whig member of parliament, but it was declared, that at the next election, now near at hand, a radical would be sent up, a man pledged to the ballot, to economies of all sorts, one who would carry out barchester politics in all their abrupt, obnoxious, pestilent virulence. this was one scatcherd, a great railway contractor, a man who was a native of barchester, who had bought property in the neighbourhood, and who had achieved a sort of popularity there and elsewhere by the violence of his democratic opposition to the aristocracy. according to this man's political tenets, the conservatives should be laughed at as fools, but the whigs should be hated as knaves. mr moffat was now coming down to courcy castle to look after his electioneering interests, and miss gresham was to return with her aunt to meet him. the countess was very anxious that frank should also accompany them. her great doctrine, that he must marry money, had been laid down with authority, and received without doubt. she now pushed it further, and said that no time should be lost; that he should not only marry money, but do so very early in life; there was always danger in delay. the greshams--of course she alluded only to the males of the family--were foolishly soft-hearted; no one could say what might happen. there was that miss thorne always at greshamsbury. this was more than the lady arabella could stand. she protested that there was at least no ground for supposing that frank would absolutely disgrace his family. still the countess persisted: "perhaps not," she said; "but when young people of perfectly different ranks were allowed to associate together, there was no saying what danger might arise. they all knew that old mr bateson--the present mr bateson's father--had gone off with the governess; and young mr everbeery, near taunton, had only the other day married a cook-maid." "but mr everbeery was always drunk, aunt," said augusta, feeling called upon to say something for her brother. "never mind, my dear; these things do happen, and they are very dreadful." "horrible!" said the lady amelia; "diluting the best blood of the country, and paving the way for revolutions." this was very grand; but, nevertheless, augusta could not but feel that she perhaps might be about to dilute the blood of her coming children in marrying the tailor's son. she consoled herself by trusting that, at any rate, she paved the way for no revolutions. "when a thing is so necessary," said the countess, "it cannot be done too soon. now, arabella, i don't say that anything will come of it; but it may: miss dunstable is coming down to us next week. now, we all know that when old dunstable died last year, he left over two hundred thousand to his daughter." "it is a great deal of money, certainly," said lady arabella. "it would pay off everything, and a great deal more," said the countess. "it was ointment, was it not, aunt?" said augusta. "i believe so, my dear; something called the ointment of lebanon, or something of that sort: but there's no doubt about the money." "but how old is she, rosina?" asked the anxious mother. "about thirty, i suppose; but i don't think that much signifies." "thirty," said lady arabella, rather dolefully. "and what is she like? i think that frank already begins to like girls that are young and pretty." "but surely, aunt," said the lady amelia, "now that he has come to man's discretion, he will not refuse to consider all that he owes to his family. a mr gresham of greshamsbury has a position to support." the de courcy scion spoke these last words in the sort of tone that a parish clergyman would use, in warning some young farmer's son that he should not put himself on an equal footing with the ploughboys. it was at last decided that the countess should herself convey to frank a special invitation to courcy castle, and that when she got him there, she should do all that lay in her power to prevent his return to cambridge, and to further the dunstable marriage. "we did think of miss dunstable for porlock, once," she said, naïvely; "but when we found that it wasn't much over two hundred thousand, why, that idea fell to the ground." the terms on which the de courcy blood might be allowed to dilute itself were, it must be presumed, very high indeed. augusta was sent off to find her brother, and to send him to the countess in the small drawing-room. here the countess was to have her tea, apart from the outer common world, and here, without interruption, she was to teach her great lesson to her nephew. augusta did find her brother, and found him in the worst of bad society--so at least the stern de courcys would have thought. old mr bateson and the governess, mr everbeery and his cook's diluted blood, and ways paved for revolutions, all presented themselves to augusta's mind when she found her brother walking with no other company than mary thorne, and walking with her, too, in much too close proximity. how he had contrived to be off with the old love and so soon on with the new, or rather, to be off with the new love and again on with the old, we will not stop to inquire. had lady arabella, in truth, known all her son's doings in this way, could she have guessed how very nigh he had approached the iniquity of old mr bateson, and to the folly of young mr everbeery, she would in truth have been in a hurry to send him off to courcy castle and miss dunstable. some days before the commencement of our story, young frank had sworn in sober earnest--in what he intended for his most sober earnest, his most earnest sobriety--that he loved mary thorne with a love for which words could find no sufficient expression--with a love that could never die, never grow dim, never become less, which no opposition on the part of others could extinguish, which no opposition on her part could repel; that he might, could, would, and should have her for his wife, and that if she told him she didn't love him, he would-- "oh, oh! mary; do you love me? don't you love me? won't you love me? say you will. oh, mary, dearest mary, will you? won't you? do you? don't you? come now, you have a right to give a fellow an answer." with such eloquence had the heir of greshamsbury, when not yet twenty-one years of age, attempted to possess himself of the affections of the doctor's niece. and yet three days afterwards he was quite ready to flirt with miss oriel. if such things are done in the green wood, what will be done in the dry? and what had mary said when these fervent protestations of an undying love had been thrown at her feet? mary, it must be remembered, was very nearly of the same age as frank; but, as i and others have so often said before, "women grow on the sunny side of the wall." though frank was only a boy, it behoved mary to be something more than a girl. frank might be allowed, without laying himself open to much just reproach, to throw all of what he believed to be his heart into a protestation of what he believed to be love; but mary was in duty bound to be more thoughtful, more reticent, more aware of the facts of their position, more careful of her own feelings, and more careful also of his. and yet she could not put him down as another young lady might put down another young gentleman. it is very seldom that a young man, unless he be tipsy, assumes an unwelcome familiarity in his early acquaintance with any girl; but when acquaintance has been long and intimate, familiarity must follow as a matter of course. frank and mary had been so much together in his holidays, had so constantly consorted together as boys and girls, that, as regarded her, he had not that innate fear of a woman which represses a young man's tongue; and she was so used to his good-humour, his fun, and high jovial spirits, and was, withal, so fond of them and him, that it was very difficult for her to mark with accurate feeling, and stop with reserved brow, the shade of change from a boy's liking to a man's love. and beatrice, too, had done harm in this matter. with a spirit painfully unequal to that of her grand relatives, she had quizzed mary and frank about their early flirtations. this she had done; but had instinctively avoided doing so before her mother and sister, and had thus made a secret of it, as it were, between herself, mary, and her brother;--had given currency, as it were, to the idea that there might be something serious between the two. not that beatrice had ever wished to promote a marriage between them, or had even thought of such a thing. she was girlish, thoughtless, imprudent, inartistic, and very unlike a de courcy. very unlike a de courcy she was in all that; but, nevertheless, she had the de courcy veneration for blood, and, more than that, she had the gresham feeling joined to that of the de courcys. the lady amelia would not for worlds have had the de courcy blood defiled; but gold she thought could not defile. now beatrice was ashamed of her sister's marriage, and had often declared, within her own heart, that nothing could have made her marry a mr moffat. she had said so also to mary, and mary had told her that she was right. mary also was proud of blood, was proud of her uncle's blood, and the two girls talked together in all the warmth of girlish confidence, of the great glories of family traditions and family honours. beatrice had talked in utter ignorance as to her friend's birth; and mary, poor mary, she had talked, being as ignorant; but not without a strong suspicion that, at some future time, a day of sorrow would tell her some fearful truth. on one point mary's mind was strongly made up. no wealth, no mere worldly advantage could make any one her superior. if she were born a gentlewoman, then was she fit to match with any gentleman. let the most wealthy man in europe pour all his wealth at her feet, she could, if so inclined, give him back at any rate more than that. that offered at her feet she knew she would never tempt her to yield up the fortress of her heart, the guardianship of her soul, the possession of her mind; not that alone, nor that, even, as any possible slightest fraction of a make-weight. if she were born a gentlewoman! and then came to her mind those curious questions; what makes a gentleman? what makes a gentlewoman? what is the inner reality, the spiritualised quintessence of that privilege in the world which men call rank, which forces the thousands and hundreds of thousands to bow down before the few elect? what gives, or can give it, or should give it? and she answered the question. absolute, intrinsic, acknowledged, individual merit must give it to its possessor, let him be whom, and what, and whence he might. so far the spirit of democracy was strong with her. beyond this it could be had but by inheritance, received as it were second-hand, or twenty-second-hand. and so far the spirit of aristocracy was strong within her. all this she had, as may be imagined, learnt in early years from her uncle; and all this she was at great pains to teach beatrice gresham, the chosen of her heart. when frank declared that mary had a right to give him an answer, he meant that he had a right to expect one. mary acknowledged this right, and gave it to him. "mr gresham," she said. "oh, mary; mr gresham!" "yes, mr gresham. it must be mr gresham after that. and, moreover, it must be miss thorne as well." "i'll be shot if it shall, mary." "well; i can't say that i shall be shot if it be not so; but if it be not so, if you do not agree that it shall be so, i shall be turned out of greshamsbury." "what! you mean my mother?" said frank. "indeed, i mean no such thing," said mary, with a flash from her eye that made frank almost start. "i mean no such thing. i mean you, not your mother. i am not in the least afraid of lady arabella; but i am afraid of you." "afraid of me, mary!" "miss thorne; pray, pray, remember. it must be miss thorne. do not turn me out of greshamsbury. do not separate me from beatrice. it is you that will drive me out; no one else. i could stand my ground against your mother--i feel i could; but i cannot stand against you if you treat me otherwise than--than--" "otherwise than what? i want to treat you as the girl i have chosen from all the world as my wife." "i am sorry you should so soon have found it necessary to make a choice. but, mr gresham, we must not joke about this at present. i am sure you would not willingly injure me; but if you speak to me, or of me, again in that way, you will injure me, injure me so much that i shall be forced to leave greshamsbury in my own defence. i know you are too generous to drive me to that." and so the interview had ended. frank, of course, went upstairs to see if his new pocket-pistols were all ready, properly cleaned, loaded, and capped, should he find, after a few days' experience, that prolonged existence was unendurable. however, he managed to live through the subsequent period; doubtless with a view of preventing any disappointment to his father's guests. chapter vii the doctor's garden mary had contrived to quiet her lover with considerable propriety of demeanour. then came on her the somewhat harder task of quieting herself. young ladies, on the whole, are perhaps quite as susceptible of the softer feelings as young gentlemen are. now frank gresham was handsome, amiable, by no means a fool in intellect, excellent in heart; and he was, moreover, a gentleman, being the son of mr gresham of greshamsbury. mary had been, as it were, brought up to love him. had aught but good happened to him, she would have cried as for a brother. it must not therefore be supposed that when frank gresham told her that he loved her, she had heard it altogether unconcerned. he had not, perhaps, made his declaration with that propriety of language in which such scenes are generally described as being carried on. ladies may perhaps think that mary should have been deterred, by the very boyishness of his manner, from thinking at all seriously on the subject. his "will you, won't you--do you, don't you?" does not sound like the poetic raptures of a highly inspired lover. but, nevertheless, there had been warmth, and a reality in it not in itself repulsive; and mary's anger--anger? no, not anger--her objections to the declarations were probably not based on the absurdity of her lover's language. we are inclined to think that these matters are not always discussed by mortal lovers in the poetically passionate phraseology which is generally thought to be appropriate for their description. a man cannot well describe that which he has never seen nor heard; but the absolute words and acts of one such scene did once come to the author's knowledge. the couple were by no means plebeian, or below the proper standard of high bearing and high breeding; they were a handsome pair, living among educated people, sufficiently given to mental pursuits, and in every way what a pair of polite lovers ought to be. the all-important conversation passed in this wise. the site of the passionate scene was the sea-shore, on which they were walking, in autumn. gentleman. "well, miss ----, the long and short of it is this: here i am; you can take me or leave me." lady--scratching a gutter on the sand with her parasol, so as to allow a little salt water to run out of one hole into another. "of course, i know that's all nonsense." gentleman. "nonsense! by jove, it isn't nonsense at all: come, jane; here i am: come, at any rate you can say something." lady. "yes, i suppose i can say something." gentleman. "well, which is it to be; take me or leave me?" lady--very slowly, and with a voice perhaps hardly articulate, carrying on, at the same time, her engineering works on a wider scale. "well, i don't exactly want to leave you." and so the matter was settled: settled with much propriety and satisfaction; and both the lady and gentleman would have thought, had they ever thought about the matter at all, that this, the sweetest moment of their lives, had been graced by all the poetry by which such moments ought to be hallowed. when mary had, as she thought, properly subdued young frank, the offer of whose love she, at any rate, knew was, at such a period of his life, an utter absurdity, then she found it necessary to subdue herself. what happiness on earth could be greater than the possession of such a love, had the true possession been justly and honestly within her reach? what man could be more lovable than such a man as would grow from such a boy? and then, did she not love him,--love him already, without waiting for any change? did she not feel that there was that about him, about him and about herself, too, which might so well fit them for each other? it would be so sweet to be the sister of beatrice, the daughter of the squire, to belong to greshamsbury as a part and parcel of itself. but though she could not restrain these thoughts, it never for a moment occurred to her to take frank's offer in earnest. though she was a grown woman, he was still a boy. he would have to see the world before he settled in it, and would change his mind about woman half a score of times before he married. then, too, though she did not like the lady arabella, she felt that she owed something, if not to her kindness, at least to her forbearance; and she knew, felt inwardly certain, that she would be doing wrong, that the world would say she was doing wrong, that her uncle would think her wrong, if she endeavoured to take advantage of what had passed. she had not for an instant doubted; not for a moment had she contemplated it as possible that she should ever become mrs gresham because frank had offered to make her so; but, nevertheless, she could not help thinking of what had occurred--of thinking of it, most probably much more than frank did himself. a day or two afterwards, on the evening before frank's birthday, she was alone with her uncle, walking in the garden behind their house, and she then essayed to question him, with the object of learning if she were fitted by her birth to be the wife of such a one as frank gresham. they were in the habit of walking there together when he happened to be at home of a summer's evening. this was not often the case, for his hours of labour extended much beyond those usual to the upper working world, the hours, namely, between breakfast and dinner; but those minutes that they did thus pass together, the doctor regarded as perhaps the pleasantest of his life. "uncle," said she, after a while, "what do you think of this marriage of miss gresham's?" "well, minnie"--such was his name of endearment for her--"i can't say i have thought much about it, and i don't suppose anybody else has either." "she must think about it, of course; and so must he, i suppose." "i'm not so sure of that. some folks would never get married if they had to trouble themselves with thinking about it." "i suppose that's why you never got married, uncle?" "either that, or thinking of it too much. one is as bad as the other." mary had not contrived to get at all near her point as yet; so she had to draw off, and after a while begin again. "well, i have been thinking about it, at any rate, uncle." "that's very good of you; that will save me the trouble; and perhaps save miss gresham too. if you have thought it over thoroughly, that will do for all." "i believe mr moffat is a man of no family." "he'll mend in that point, no doubt, when he has got a wife." "uncle, you're a goose; and what is worse, a very provoking goose." "niece, you're a gander; and what is worse, a very silly gander. what is mr moffat's family to you and me? mr moffat has that which ranks above family honours. he is a very rich man." "yes," said mary, "i know he is rich; and a rich man i suppose can buy anything--except a woman that is worth having." "a rich man can buy anything," said the doctor; "not that i meant to say that mr moffat has bought miss gresham. i have no doubt that they will suit each other very well," he added with an air of decisive authority, as though he had finished the subject. but his niece was determined not to let him pass so. "now, uncle," said she, "you know you are pretending to a great deal of worldly wisdom, which, after all, is not wisdom at all in your eyes." "am i?" "you know you are: and as for the impropriety of discussing miss gresham's marriage--" "i did not say it was improper." "oh, yes, you did; of course such things must be discussed. how is one to have an opinion if one does not get it by looking at the things which happen around us?" "now i am going to be blown up," said dr thorne. "dear uncle, do be serious with me." "well, then, seriously, i hope miss gresham will be very happy as mrs moffat." "of course you do: so do i. i hope it as much as i can hope what i don't at all see ground for expecting." "people constantly hope without any such ground." "well, then, i'll hope in this case. but, uncle--" "well, my dear?" "i want your opinion, truly and really. if you were a girl--" "i am perfectly unable to give any opinion founded on so strange an hypothesis." "well; but if you were a marrying man." "the hypothesis is quite as much out of my way." "but, uncle, i am a girl, and perhaps i may marry;--or at any rate think of marrying some day." "the latter alternative is certainly possible enough." "therefore, in seeing a friend taking such a step, i cannot but speculate on the matter as though i were myself in her place. if i were miss gresham, should i be right?" "but, minnie, you are not miss gresham." "no, i am mary thorne; it is a very different thing, i know. i suppose _i_ might marry any one without degrading myself." it was almost ill-natured of her to say this; but she had not meant to say it in the sense which the sounds seemed to bear. she had failed in being able to bring her uncle to the point she wished by the road she had planned, and in seeking another road, she had abruptly fallen into unpleasant places. "i should be very sorry that my niece should think so," said he; "and am sorry, too, that she should say so. but, mary, to tell the truth, i hardly know at what you are driving. you are, i think, not so clear minded--certainly, not so clear worded--as is usual with you." "i will tell you, uncle;" and, instead of looking up into his face, she turned her eyes down on the green lawn beneath her feet. "well, minnie, what is it?" and he took both her hands in his. "i think that miss gresham should not marry mr moffat. i think so because her family is high and noble, and because he is low and ignoble. when one has an opinion on such matters, one cannot but apply it to things and people around one; and having applied my opinion to her, the next step naturally is to apply it to myself. were i miss gresham, i would not marry mr moffat though he rolled in gold. i know where to rank miss gresham. what i want to know is, where i ought to rank myself?" they had been standing when she commenced her last speech; but as she finished it, the doctor moved on again, and she moved with him. he walked on slowly without answering her; and she, out of her full mind, pursued aloud the tenor of her thoughts. "if a woman feels that she would not lower herself by marrying in a rank beneath herself, she ought also to feel that she would not lower a man that she might love by allowing him to marry into a rank beneath his own--that is, to marry her." "that does not follow," said the doctor quickly. "a man raises a woman to his own standard, but a woman must take that of the man she marries." again they were silent, and again they walked on, mary holding her uncle's arm with both her hands. she was determined, however, to come to the point, and after considering for a while how best she might do it, she ceased to beat any longer about the bush, and asked him a plain question. "the thornes are as good a family as the greshams, are they not?" "in absolute genealogy they are, my dear. that is, when i choose to be an old fool and talk of such matters in a sense different from that in which they are spoken of by the world at large, i may say that the thornes are as good, or perhaps better, than the greshams, but i should be sorry to say so seriously to any one. the greshams now stand much higher in the county than the thornes do." "but they are of the same class." "yes, yes; wilfred thorne of ullathorne, and our friend the squire here, are of the same class." "but, uncle, i and augusta gresham--are we of the same class?" "well, minnie, you would hardly have me boast that i am the same class with the squire--i, a poor country doctor?" "you are not answering me fairly, dear uncle; dearest uncle, do you not know that you are not answering me fairly? you know what i mean. have i a right to call the thornes of ullathorne my cousins?" "mary, mary, mary!" said he after a minute's pause, still allowing his arm to hang loose, that she might hold it with both her hands. "mary, mary, mary! i would that you had spared me this!" "i could not have spared it to you for ever, uncle." "i would that you could have done so; i would that you could!" "it is over now, uncle: it is told now. i will grieve you no more. dear, dear, dearest! i should love you more than ever now; i would, i would, i would if that were possible. what should i be but for you? what must i have been but for you?" and she threw herself on his breast, and clinging with her arms round his neck, kissed his forehead, cheeks, and lips. there was nothing more said then on the subject between them. mary asked no further question, nor did the doctor volunteer further information. she would have been most anxious to ask about her mother's history had she dared to do so; but she did not dare to ask; she could not bear to be told that her mother had been, perhaps was, a worthless woman. that she was truly a daughter of a brother of the doctor, that she did know. little as she had heard of her relatives in her early youth, few as had been the words which had fallen from her uncle in her hearing as to her parentage, she did know this, that she was the daughter of henry thorne, a brother of the doctor, and a son of the old prebendary. trifling little things that had occurred, accidents which could not be prevented, had told her this; but not a word had ever passed any one's lips as to her mother. the doctor, when speaking of his youth, had spoken of her father; but no one had spoken of her mother. she had long known that she was the child of a thorne; now she knew also that she was no cousin of the thornes of ullathorne; no cousin, at least, in the world's ordinary language, no niece indeed of her uncle, unless by his special permission that she should be so. when the interview was over, she went up alone to the drawing-room, and there she sat thinking. she had not been there long before her uncle came up to her. he did not sit down, or even take off the hat which he still wore; but coming close to her, and still standing, he spoke thus:-- "mary, after what has passed i should be very unjust and very cruel to you not to tell you one thing more than you have now learned. your mother was unfortunate in much, not in everything; but the world, which is very often stern in such matters, never judged her to have disgraced herself. i tell you this, my child, in order that you may respect her memory;" and so saying, he again left her without giving her time to speak a word. what he then told her he had told in mercy. he felt what must be her feelings when she reflected that she had to blush for her mother; that not only could she not speak of her mother, but that she might hardly think of her with innocence; and to mitigate such sorrow as this, and also to do justice to the woman whom his brother had so wronged, he had forced himself to reveal so much as is stated above. and then he walked slowly by himself, backwards and forwards through the garden, thinking of what he had done with reference to this girl, and doubting whether he had done wisely and well. he had resolved, when first the little infant was given over to his charge, that nothing should be known of her or by her as to her mother. he was willing to devote himself to this orphan child of his brother, this last seedling of his father's house; but he was not willing so to do this as to bring himself in any manner into familiar contact with the scatcherds. he had boasted to himself that he, at any rate, was a gentleman; and that she, if she were to live in his house, sit at his table, and share his hearth, must be a lady. he would tell no lie about her; he would not to any one make her out to be aught other or aught better than she was; people would talk about her of course, only let them not talk to him; he conceived of himself--and the conception was not without due ground--that should any do so, he had that within him which would silence them. he would never claim for this little creature--thus brought into the world without a legitimate position in which to stand--he would never claim for her any station that would not properly be her own. he would make for her a station as best he could. as he might sink or swim, so should she. so he had resolved; but things had arranged themselves, as they often do, rather than been arranged by him. during ten or twelve years no one had heard of mary thorne; the memory of henry thorne and his tragic death had passed away; the knowledge that an infant had been born whose birth was connected with that tragedy, a knowledge never widely spread, had faded down into utter ignorance. at the end of these twelve years, dr thorne had announced, that a young niece, a child of a brother long since dead, was coming to live with him. as he had contemplated, no one spoke to him; but some people did no doubt talk among themselves. whether or not the exact truth was surmised by any, it matters not to say; with absolute exactness, probably not; with great approach to it, probably yes. by one person, at any rate, no guess whatever was made; no thought relative to dr thorne's niece ever troubled him; no idea that mary scatcherd had left a child in england ever occurred to him; and that person was roger scatcherd, mary's brother. to one friend, and only one, did the doctor tell the whole truth, and that was to the old squire. "i have told you," said the doctor, "partly that you may know that the child has no right to mix with your children if you think much of such things. do you, however, see to this. i would rather that no one else should be told." no one else had been told; and the squire had "seen to it," by accustoming himself to look at mary thorne running about the house with his own children as though she were of the same brood. indeed, the squire had always been fond of mary, had personally noticed her, and, in the affair of mam'selle larron, had declared that he would have her placed at once on the bench of magistrates;--much to the disgust of the lady arabella. and so things had gone on and on, and had not been thought of with much downright thinking; till now, when she was one-and-twenty years of age, his niece came to him, asking as to her position, and inquiring in what rank of life she was to look for a husband. and so the doctor walked backwards and forwards through the garden, slowly, thinking now with some earnestness what if, after all, he had been wrong about his niece? what if by endeavouring to place her in the position of a lady, he had falsely so placed her, and robbed her of all legitimate position? what if there was no rank of life to which she could now properly attach herself? and then, how had it answered, that plan of his of keeping her all to himself? he, dr thorne, was still a poor man; the gift of saving money had not been his; he had ever had a comfortable house for her to live in, and, in spite of doctors fillgrave, century, rerechild, and others, had made from his profession an income sufficient for their joint wants; but he had not done as others do: he had no three or four thousand pounds in the three per cents. on which mary might live in some comfort when he should die. late in life he had insured his life for eight hundred pounds; and to that, and that only, had he to trust for mary's future maintenance. how had it answered, then, this plan of letting her be unknown to, and undreamed of by, those who were as near to her on her mother's side as he was on the father's? on that side, though there had been utter poverty, there was now absolute wealth. but when he took her to himself, had he not rescued her from the very depths of the lowest misery: from the degradation of the workhouse; from the scorn of honest-born charity-children; from the lowest of the world's low conditions? was she not now the apple of his eye, his one great sovereign comfort--his pride, his happiness, his glory? was he to make her over, to make any portion of her over to others, if, by doing so, she might be able to share the wealth, as well as the coarse manners and uncouth society of her at present unknown connexions? he, who had never worshipped wealth on his own behalf; he, who had scorned the idol of gold, and had ever been teaching her to scorn it; was he now to show that his philosophy had all been false as soon as the temptation to do so was put in his way? but yet, what man would marry this bastard child, without a sixpence, and bring not only poverty, but ill blood also on his own children? it might be very well for him, dr thorne; for him whose career was made, whose name, at any rate, was his own; for him who had a fixed standing-ground in the world; it might be well for him to indulge in large views of a philosophy antagonistic to the world's practice; but had he a right to do it for his niece? what man would marry a girl so placed? for those among whom she might have legitimately found a level, education had now utterly unfitted her. and then, he well knew that she would never put out her hand in token of love to any one without telling all she knew and all she surmised as to her own birth. and that question of this evening; had it not been instigated by some appeal to her heart? was there not already within her breast some cause for disquietude which had made her so pertinacious? why else had she told him then, for the first time, that she did not know where to rank herself? if such an appeal had been made to her, it must have come from young frank gresham. what, in such case, would it behove him to do? should he pack up his all, his lancet-cases, pestle and mortar, and seek anew fresh ground in a new world, leaving behind a huge triumph to those learned enemies of his, fillgrave, century, and rerechild? better that than remain at greshamsbury at the cost of his child's heart and pride. and so he walked slowly backwards and forwards through his garden, meditating these things painfully enough. chapter viii matrimonial prospects it will of course be remembered that mary's interview with the other girls at greshamsbury took place some two or three days subsequently to frank's generous offer of his hand and heart. mary had quite made up her mind that the whole thing was to be regarded as a folly, and that it was not to be spoken of to any one; but yet her heart was sore enough. she was full of pride, and yet she knew she must bow her neck to the pride of others. being, as she was herself, nameless, she could not but feel a stern, unflinching antagonism, the antagonism of a democrat, to the pretensions of others who were blessed with that of which she had been deprived. she had this feeling; and yet, of all the things that she coveted, she most coveted that, for glorying in which, she was determined to heap scorn on others. she said to herself, proudly, that god's handiwork was the inner man, the inner woman, the naked creature animated by a living soul; that all other adjuncts were but man's clothing for the creature; all others, whether stitched by tailors or contrived by kings. was it not within her capacity to do as nobly, to love as truly, to worship her god in heaven with as perfect a faith, and her god on earth with as leal a troth, as though blood had descended to her purely through scores of purely born progenitors? so to herself she spoke; and yet, as she said it, she knew that were she a man, such a man as the heir of greshamsbury should be, nothing would tempt her to sully her children's blood by mating herself with any one that was base born. she felt that were she an augusta gresham, no mr moffat, let his wealth be what it might, should win her hand unless he too could tell of family honours and a line of ancestors. and so, with a mind at war with itself, she came forth armed to do battle against the world's prejudices, those prejudices she herself loved so well. and was she to give up her old affections, her feminine loves, because she found that she was a cousin to nobody? was she no longer to pour out her heart to beatrice gresham with all the girlish volubility of an equal? was she to be severed from patience oriel, and banished--or rather was she to banish herself--from the free place she had maintained in the various youthful female conclaves held within that parish of greshamsbury? hitherto, what mary thorne would say, what miss thorne suggested in such or such a matter, was quite as frequently asked as any opinion from augusta gresham--quite as frequently, unless when it chanced that any of the de courcy girls were at the house. was this to be given up? these feelings had grown up among them since they were children, and had not hitherto been questioned among them. now they were questioned by mary thorne. was she in fact to find that her position had been a false one, and must be changed? such had been her feelings when she protested that she would not be augusta gresham's bridesmaid, and offered to put her neck beneath beatrice's foot; when she drove the lady margaretta out of the room, and gave her own opinion as to the proper grammatical construction of the word humble; such also had been her feelings when she kept her hand so rigidly to herself while frank held the dining-room door open for her to pass through. "patience oriel," said she to herself, "can talk to him of her father and mother: let patience take his hand; let her talk to him;" and then, not long afterwards, she saw that patience did talk to him; and seeing it, she walked along silent, among some of the old people, and with much effort did prevent a tear from falling down her cheek. but why was the tear in her eye? had she not proudly told frank that his love-making was nothing but a boy's silly rhapsody? had she not said so while she had yet reason to hope that her blood was as good as his own? had she not seen at a glance that his love tirade was worthy of ridicule, and of no other notice? and yet there was a tear now in her eye because this boy, whom she had scolded from her, whose hand, offered in pure friendship, she had just refused, because he, so rebuffed by her, had carried his fun and gallantry to one who would be less cross to him! she could hear as she was walking, that while lady margaretta was with them, their voices were loud and merry; and her sharp ear could also hear, when lady margaretta left them, that frank's voice became low and tender. so she walked on, saying nothing, looking straight before her, and by degrees separating herself from all the others. the greshamsbury grounds were on one side somewhat too closely hemmed in by the village. on this side was a path running the length of one of the streets of the village; and far down the path, near to the extremity of the gardens, and near also to a wicket-gate which led out into the village, and which could be opened from the inside, was a seat, under a big yew-tree, from which, through a breach in the houses, might be seen the parish church, standing in the park on the other side. hither mary walked alone, and here she seated herself, determined to get rid of her tears and their traces before she again showed herself to the world. "i shall never be happy here again," said she to herself; "never. i am no longer one of them, and i cannot live among them unless i am so." and then an idea came across her mind that she hated patience oriel; and then, instantly another idea followed it--quick as such thoughts are quick--that she did not hate patience oriel at all; that she liked her, nay, loved her; that patience oriel was a sweet girl; and that she hoped the time would come when she might see her the lady of greshamsbury. and then the tear, which had been no whit controlled, which indeed had now made itself master of her, came to a head, and, bursting through the floodgates of the eye, came rolling down, and in its fall, wetted her hand as it lay on her lap. "what a fool! what an idiot! what an empty-headed cowardly fool i am!" said she, springing up from the bench on her feet. as she did so, she heard voices close to her, at the little gate. they were those of her uncle and frank gresham. "god bless you, frank!" said the doctor, as he passed out of the grounds. "you will excuse a lecture, won't you, from so old a friend?--though you are a man now, and discreet, of course, by act of parliament." "indeed i will, doctor," said frank. "i will excuse a longer lecture than that from you." "at any rate it won't be to-night," said the doctor, as he disappeared. "and if you see mary, tell her that i am obliged to go; and that i will send janet down to fetch her." now janet was the doctor's ancient maid-servant. mary could not move on without being perceived; she therefore stood still till she heard the click of the door, and then began walking rapidly back to the house by the path which had brought her thither. the moment, however, that she did so, she found that she was followed; and in a very few moments frank was alongside of her. "oh, mary!" said he, calling to her, but not loudly, before he quite overtook her, "how odd that i should come across you just when i have a message for you! and why are you all alone?" mary's first impulse was to reiterate her command to him to call her no more by her christian name; but her second impulse told her that such an injunction at the present moment would not be prudent on her part. the traces of her tears were still there; and she well knew that a very little, the slightest show of tenderness on his part, the slightest effort on her own to appear indifferent, would bring down more than one other such intruder. it would, moreover, be better for her to drop all outward sign that she remembered what had taken place. so long, then, as he and she were at greshamsbury together, he should call her mary if he pleased. he would soon be gone; and while he remained, she would keep out of his way. "your uncle has been obliged to go away to see an old woman at silverbridge." "at silverbridge! why, he won't be back all night. why could not the old woman send for dr century?" "i suppose she thought two old women could not get on well together." mary could not help smiling. she did not like her uncle going off so late on such a journey; but it was always felt as a triumph when he was invited into the strongholds of his enemies. "and janet is to come over for you. however, i told him it was quite unnecessary to disturb another old woman, for that i should of course see you home." "oh, no, mr gresham; indeed you'll not do that." "indeed, and indeed, i shall." "what! on this great day, when every lady is looking for you, and talking of you. i suppose you want to set the countess against me for ever. think, too, how angry lady arabella will be if you are absent on such an errand as this." "to hear you talk, mary, one would think that you were going to silverbridge yourself." "perhaps i am." "if i did not go with you, some of the other fellows would. john, or george--" "good gracious, frank! fancy either of the mr de courcys walking home with me!" she had forgotten herself, and the strict propriety on which she had resolved, in the impossibility of forgoing her little joke against the de courcy grandeur; she had forgotten herself, and had called him frank in her old, former, eager, free tone of voice; and then, remembering she had done so, she drew herself up, bit her lips, and determined to be doubly on her guard in the future. "well, it shall be either one of them or i," said frank: "perhaps you would prefer my cousin george to me?" "i should prefer janet to either, seeing that with her i should not suffer the extreme nuisance of knowing that i was a bore." "a bore! mary, to me?" "yes, mr gresham, a bore to you. having to walk home through the mud with village young ladies is boring. all gentlemen feel it to be so." "there is no mud; if there were you would not be allowed to walk at all." "oh! village young ladies never care for such things, though fashionable gentlemen do." "i would carry you home, mary, if it would do you a service," said frank, with considerable pathos in his voice. "oh, dear me! pray do not, mr gresham. i should not like it at all," said she: "a wheelbarrow would be preferable to that." "of course. anything would be preferable to my arm, i know." "certainly; anything in the way of a conveyance. if i were to act baby; and you were to act nurse, it really would not be comfortable for either of us." frank gresham felt disconcerted, though he hardly knew why. he was striving to say something tender to his lady-love; but every word that he spoke she turned into joke. mary did not answer him coldly or unkindly; but, nevertheless, he was displeased. one does not like to have one's little offerings of sentimental service turned into burlesque when one is in love in earnest. mary's jokes had appeared so easy too; they seemed to come from a heart so little troubled. this, also, was cause of vexation to frank. if he could but have known all, he would, perhaps, have been better pleased. he determined not to be absolutely laughed out of his tenderness. when, three days ago, he had been repulsed, he had gone away owning to himself that he had been beaten; owning so much, but owning it with great sorrow and much shame. since that he had come of age; since that he had made speeches, and speeches had been made to him; since that he had gained courage by flirting with patience oriel. no faint heart ever won a fair lady, as he was well aware; he resolved, therefore, that his heart should not be faint, and that he would see whether the fair lady might not be won by becoming audacity. "mary," said he, stopping in the path--for they were now near the spot where it broke out upon the lawn, and they could already hear the voices of the guests--"mary, you are unkind to me." "i am not aware of it, mr gresham; but if i am, do not you retaliate. i am weaker than you, and in your power; do not you, therefore, be unkind to me." "you refused my hand just now," continued he. "of all the people here at greshamsbury, you are the only one that has not wished me joy; the only one--" "i do wish you joy; i will wish you joy; there is my hand," and she frankly put out her ungloved hand. "you are quite man enough to understand me: there is my hand; i trust you use it only as it is meant to be used." he took it in his and pressed it cordially, as he might have done that of any other friend in such a case; and then--did not drop it as he should have done. he was not a st anthony, and it was most imprudent in miss thorne to subject him to such a temptation. "mary," said he; "dear mary! dearest mary! if you did but know how i love you!" as he said this, holding miss thorne's hand, he stood on the pathway with his back towards the lawn and house, and, therefore, did not at first see his sister augusta, who had just at that moment come upon them. mary blushed up to her straw hat, and, with a quick jerk, recovered her hand. augusta saw the motion, and mary saw that augusta had seen it. from my tedious way of telling it, the reader will be led to imagine that the hand-squeezing had been protracted to a duration quite incompatible with any objection to such an arrangement on the part of the lady; but the fault is mine: in no part hers. were i possessed of a quick spasmodic style of narrative, i should have been able to include it all--frank's misbehaviour, mary's immediate anger, augusta's arrival, and keen, argus-eyed inspection, and then mary's subsequent misery--in five words and half a dozen dashes and inverted commas. the thing should have been so told; for, to do mary justice, she did not leave her hand in frank's a moment longer than she could help herself. frank, feeling the hand withdrawn, and hearing, when it was too late, the step on the gravel, turned sharply round. "oh, it's you, is it, augusta? well, what do you want?" augusta was not naturally very ill-natured, seeing that in her veins the high de courcy blood was somewhat tempered by an admixture of the gresham attributes; nor was she predisposed to make her brother her enemy by publishing to the world any of his little tender peccadilloes; but she could not but bethink herself of what her aunt had been saying as to the danger of any such encounters as that she just now had beheld; she could not but start at seeing her brother thus, on the very brink of the precipice of which the countess had specially forewarned her mother. she, augusta, was, as she well knew, doing her duty by her family by marrying a tailor's son for whom she did not care a chip, seeing the tailor's son was possessed of untold wealth. now when one member of a household is making a struggle for a family, it is painful to see the benefit of that struggle negatived by the folly of another member. the future mrs moffat did feel aggrieved by the fatuity of the young heir, and, consequently, took upon herself to look as much like her aunt de courcy as she could do. "well, what is it?" said frank, looking rather disgusted. "what makes you stick your chin up and look in that way?" frank had hitherto been rather a despot among his sisters, and forgot that the eldest of them was now passing altogether from under his sway to that of the tailor's son. "frank," said augusta, in a tone of voice which did honour to the great lessons she had lately received. "aunt de courcy wants to see you immediately in the small drawing-room;" and, as she said so, she resolved to say a few words of advice to miss thorne as soon as her brother should have left them. "in the small drawing-room, does she? well, mary, we may as well go together, for i suppose it is tea-time now." "you had better go at once, frank," said augusta; "the countess will be angry if you keep her waiting. she has been expecting you these twenty minutes. mary thorne and i can return together." there was something in the tone in which the words, "mary thorne," were uttered, which made mary at once draw herself up. "i hope," said she, "that mary thorne will never be any hindrance to either of you." frank's ear had also perceived that there was something in the tone of his sister's voice not boding comfort to mary; he perceived that the de courcy blood in augusta's veins was already rebelling against the doctor's niece on his part, though it had condescended to submit itself to the tailor's son on her own part. "well, i am going," said he; "but look here augusta, if you say one word of mary--" oh, frank! frank! you boy, you very boy! you goose, you silly goose! is that the way you make love, desiring one girl not to tell of another, as though you were three children, tearing your frocks and trousers in getting through the same hedge together? oh, frank! frank! you, the full-blown heir of greshamsbury? you, a man already endowed with a man's discretion? you, the forward rider, that did but now threaten young harry baker and the honourable john to eclipse them by prowess in the field? you, of age? why, thou canst not as yet have left thy mother's apron-string! "if you say one word of mary--" so far had he got in his injunction to his sister, but further than that, in such a case, was he never destined to proceed. mary's indignation flashed upon him, striking him dumb long before the sound of her voice reached his ears; and yet she spoke as quick as the words would come to her call, and somewhat loudly too. "say one word of mary, mr gresham! and why should she not say as many words of mary as she may please? i must tell you all now, augusta! and i must also beg you not to be silent for my sake. as far as i am concerned, tell it to whom you please. this was the second time your brother--" "mary, mary," said frank, deprecating her loquacity. "i beg your pardon, mr gresham; you have made it necessary that i should tell your sister all. he has now twice thought it well to amuse himself by saying to me words which it was ill-natured in him to speak, and--" "ill-natured, mary!" "ill-natured in him to speak," continued mary, "and to which it would be absurd for me to listen. he probably does the same to others," she added, being unable in heart to forget that sharpest of her wounds, that flirtation of his with patience oriel; "but to me it is almost cruel. another girl might laugh at him, or listen to him, as she would choose; but i can do neither. i shall now keep away from greshamsbury, at any rate till he has left it; and, augusta, i can only beg you to understand, that, as far as i am concerned, there is nothing which may not be told to all the world." and, so saying, she walked on a little in advance of them, as proud as a queen. had lady de courcy herself met her at this moment, she would almost have felt herself forced to shrink out of the pathway. "not say a word of me!" she repeated to herself, but still out loud. "no word need be left unsaid on my account; none, none." augusta followed her, dumfounded at her indignation; and frank also followed, but not in silence. when his first surprise at mary's great anger was over, he felt himself called upon to say some word that might tend to exonerate his lady-love; and some word also of protestation as to his own purpose. "there is nothing to be told, nothing, at least of mary," he said, speaking to his sister; "but of me, you may tell this, if you choose to disoblige your brother--that i love mary thorne with all my heart; and that i will never love any one else." by this time they had reached the lawn, and mary was able to turn away from the path which led up to the house. as she left them she said in a voice, now low enough, "i cannot prevent him from talking nonsense, augusta; but you will bear me witness, that i do not willingly hear it." and, so saying, she started off almost in a run towards the distant part of the gardens, in which she saw beatrice. frank, as he walked up to the house with his sister, endeavoured to induce her to give him a promise that she would tell no tales as to what she had heard and seen. "of course, frank, it must be all nonsense," she had said; "and you shouldn't amuse yourself in such a way." "well, but, guss, come, we have always been friends; don't let us quarrel just when you are going to be married." but augusta would make no promise. frank, when he reached the house, found the countess waiting for him, sitting in the little drawing-room by herself,--somewhat impatiently. as he entered he became aware that there was some peculiar gravity attached to the coming interview. three persons, his mother, one of his younger sisters, and the lady amelia, each stopped him to let him know that the countess was waiting; and he perceived that a sort of guard was kept upon the door to save her ladyship from any undesirable intrusion. the countess frowned at the moment of his entrance, but soon smoothed her brow, and invited him to take a chair ready prepared for him opposite to the elbow of the sofa on which she was leaning. she had a small table before her, on which was her teacup, so that she was able to preach at him nearly as well as though she had been ensconced in a pulpit. "my dear frank," said she, in a voice thoroughly suitable to the importance of the communication, "you have to-day come of age." frank remarked that he understood that such was the case, and added that "that was the reason for all the fuss." "yes; you have to-day come of age. perhaps i should have been glad to see such an occasion noticed at greshamsbury with some more suitable signs of rejoicing." "oh, aunt! i think we did it all very well." "greshamsbury, frank, is, or at any rate ought to be, the seat of the first commoner in barsetshire. "well; so it is. i am quite sure there isn't a better fellow than father anywhere in the county." the countess sighed. her opinion of the poor squire was very different from frank's. "it is no use now," said she, "looking back to that which cannot be cured. the first commoner in barsetshire should hold a position--i will not of course say equal to that of a peer." "oh dear no; of course not," said frank; and a bystander might have thought that there was a touch of satire in his tone. "no, not equal to that of a peer; but still of very paramount importance. of course my first ambition is bound up in porlock." "of course," said frank, thinking how very weak was the staff on which his aunt's ambition rested; for lord porlock's youthful career had not been such as to give unmitigated satisfaction to his parents. "is bound up in porlock:" and then the countess plumed herself; but the mother sighed. "and next to porlock, frank, my anxiety is about you." "upon my honour, aunt, i am very much obliged. i shall be all right, you'll see." "greshamsbury, my dear boy, is not now what it used to be." "isn't it?" asked frank. "no, frank; by no means. i do not wish to say a word against your father. it may, perhaps have been his misfortune, rather than his fault--" "she is always down on the governor; always," said frank to himself; resolving to stick bravely to the side of the house to which he had elected to belong. "but there is the fact, frank, too plain to us all; greshamsbury is not what it was. it is your duty to restore it to its former importance." "my duty!" said frank, rather puzzled. "yes, frank, your duty. it all depends on you now. of course you know that your father owes a great deal of money." frank muttered something. tidings had in some shape reached his ear that his father was not comfortably circumstances as regarded money. "and then, he has sold boxall hill. it cannot be expected that boxall hill shall be repurchased, as some horrid man, a railway-maker, i believe--" "yes; that's scatcherd." "well, he has built a house there, i'm told; so i presume that it cannot be bought back: but it will be your duty, frank, to pay all the debts that there are on the property, and to purchase what, at any rate, will be equal to boxall hill." frank opened his eyes wide and stared at his aunt, as though doubting much whether or no she were in her right mind. he pay off the family debts! he buy up property of four thousand pounds a year! he remained, however, quite quiet, waiting the elucidation of the mystery. "frank, of course you understand me." frank was obliged to declare, that just at the present moment he did not find his aunt so clear as usual. "you have but one line of conduct left you, frank: your position, as heir to greshamsbury, is a good one; but your father has unfortunately so hampered you with regard to money, that unless you set the matter right yourself, you can never enjoy that position. of course you must marry money." "marry money!" said he, considering for the first time that in all probability mary thorne's fortune would not be extensive. "marry money!" "yes, frank. i know no man whose position so imperatively demands it; and luckily for you, no man can have more facility for doing so. in the first place you are very handsome." frank blushed like a girl of sixteen. "and then, as the matter is made plain to you at so early an age, you are not of course hampered by any indiscreet tie; by any absurd engagement." frank blushed again; and then saying to himself, "how much the old girl knows about it!" felt a little proud of his passion for mary thorne, and of the declaration he had made to her. "and your connexion with courcy castle," continued the countess, now carrying up the list of frank's advantages to its great climax, "will make the matter so easy for you, that really, you will hardly have any difficulty." frank could not but say how much obliged he felt to courcy castle and its inmates. "of course i would not wish to interfere with you in any underhand way, frank; but i will tell you what has occurred to me. you have heard, probably, of miss dunstable?" "the daughter of the ointment of lebanon man?" "and of course you know that her fortune is immense," continued the countess, not deigning to notice her nephew's allusion to the ointment. "quite immense when compared with the wants and position of any commoner. now she is coming to courcy castle, and i wish you to come and meet her." "but, aunt, just at this moment i have to read for my degree like anything. i go up, you know, in october." "degree!" said the countess. "why, frank, i am talking to you of your prospects in life, of your future position, of that on which everything hangs, and you tell me of your degree!" frank, however, obstinately persisted that he must take his degree, and that he should commence reading hard at six a.m. to-morrow morning. "you can read just as well at courcy castle. miss dunstable will not interfere with that," said his aunt, who knew the expediency of yielding occasionally; "but i must beg you will come over and meet her. you will find her a most charming young woman, remarkably well educated i am told, and--" "how old is she?" asked frank. "i really cannot say exactly," said the countess; "but it is not, i imagine, matter of much moment." "is she thirty?" asked frank, who looked upon an unmarried woman of that age as quite an old maid. "i dare say she may be about that age," said the countess, who regarded the subject from a very different point of view. "thirty!" said frank out loud, but speaking, nevertheless, as though to himself. "it is a matter of no moment," said his aunt, almost angrily. "when the subject itself is of such vital importance, objections of no real weight should not be brought into view. if you wish to hold up your head in the country; if you wish to represent your county in parliament, as has been done by your father, your grandfather, and your great-grandfathers; if you wish to keep a house over your head, and to leave greshamsbury to your son after you, you must marry money. what does it signify whether miss dunstable be twenty-eight or thirty? she has got money; and if you marry her, you may then consider that your position in life is made." frank was astonished at his aunt's eloquence; but, in spite of that eloquence, he made up his mind that he would not marry miss dunstable. how could he, indeed, seeing that his troth was already plighted to mary thorne in the presence of his sister? this circumstance, however, he did not choose to plead to his aunt, so he recapitulated any other objections that presented themselves to his mind. in the first place, he was so anxious about his degree that he could not think of marrying at present; then he suggested that it might be better to postpone the question till the season's hunting should be over; he declared that he could not visit courcy castle till he got a new suit of clothes home from the tailor; and ultimately remembered that he had a particular engagement to go fly-fishing with mr oriel on that day week. none, however, of these valid reasons were sufficiently potent to turn the countess from her point. "nonsense, frank," said she, "i wonder that you can talk of fly-fishing when the property of greshamsbury is at stake. you will go with augusta and myself to courcy castle to-morrow." "to-morrow, aunt!" he said, in the tone in which a condemned criminal might make his ejaculation on hearing that a very near day had been named for his execution. "to-morrow!" "yes, we return to-morrow, and shall be happy to have your company. my friends, including miss dunstable, come on thursday. i am quite sure you will like miss dunstable. i have settled all that with your mother, so we need say nothing further about it. and now, good-night, frank." frank, finding that there was nothing more to be said, took his departure, and went out to look for mary. but mary had gone home with janet half an hour since, so he betook himself to his sister beatrice. "beatrice," said he, "i am to go to courcy castle to-morrow." "so i heard mamma say." "well; i only came of age to-day, and i will not begin by running counter to them. but i tell you what, i won't stay above a week at courcy castle for all the de courcys in barsetshire. tell me, beatrice, did you ever hear of a miss dunstable?" chapter ix sir roger scatcherd enough has been said in this narrative to explain to the reader that roger scatcherd, who was whilom a drunken stone-mason in barchester, and who had been so prompt to avenge the injury done to his sister, had become a great man in the world. he had become a contractor, first for little things, such as half a mile or so of a railway embankment, or three or four canal bridges, and then a contractor for great things, such as government hospitals, locks, docks, and quays, and had latterly had in his hands the making of whole lines of railway. he had been occasionally in partnership with one man for one thing, and then with another for another; but had, on the whole, kept his interests to himself, and now at the time of our story, he was a very rich man. and he had acquired more than wealth. there had been a time when the government wanted the immediate performance of some extraordinary piece of work, and roger scatcherd had been the man to do it. there had been some extremely necessary bit of a railway to be made in half the time that such work would properly demand, some speculation to be incurred requiring great means and courage as well, and roger scatcherd had been found to be the man for the time. he was then elevated for the moment to the dizzy pinnacle of a newspaper hero, and became one of those "whom the king delighteth to honour." he went up one day to kiss her majesty's hand, and come down to his new grand house at boxall hill, sir roger scatcherd, bart. "and now, my lady," said he, when he explained to his wife the high state to which she had been called by his exertions and the queen's prerogative, "let's have a bit of dinner, and a drop of som'at hot." now the drop of som'at hot signified a dose of alcohol sufficient to send three ordinary men very drunk to bed. while conquering the world roger scatcherd had not conquered his old bad habits. indeed, he was the same man at all points that he had been when formerly seen about the streets of barchester with his stone-mason's apron tucked up round his waist. the apron he had abandoned, but not the heavy prominent thoughtful brow, with the wildly flashing eye beneath it. he was still the same good companion, and still also the same hard-working hero. in this only had he changed, that now he would work, and some said equally well, whether he were drunk or sober. those who were mostly inclined to make a miracle of him--and there was a school of worshippers ready to adore him as their idea of a divine, superhuman, miracle-moving, inspired prophet--declared that his wondrous work was best done, his calculations most quickly and most truly made, that he saw with most accurate eye into the far-distant balance of profit and loss, when he was under the influence of the rosy god. to these worshippers his breakings-out, as his periods of intemperance were called in his own set, were his moments of peculiar inspiration--his divine frenzies, in which he communicated most closely with those deities who preside over trade transactions; his eleusinian mysteries, to approach him in which was permitted only to a few of the most favoured. "scatcherd has been drunk this week past," they would say one to another, when the moment came at which it was to be decided whose offer should be accepted for constructing a harbour to hold all the commerce of lancashire, or to make a railway from bombay to canton. "scatcherd has been drunk this week past; i am told that he has taken over three gallons of brandy." and then they felt sure that none but scatcherd would be called upon to construct the dock or make the railway. but be this as it may, be it true or false that sir roger was most efficacious when in his cups, there can be no doubt that he could not wallow for a week in brandy, six or seven times every year, without in a great measure injuring, and permanently injuring, the outward man. whatever immediate effect such symposiums might have on the inner mind--symposiums indeed they were not; posiums i will call them, if i may be allowed; for in latter life, when he drank heavily, he drank alone--however little for evil, or however much for good the working of his brain might be affected, his body suffered greatly. it was not that he became feeble or emaciated, old-looking or inactive, that his hand shook, or that his eye was watery; but that in the moments of his intemperance his life was often not worth a day's purchase. the frame which god had given to him was powerful beyond the power of ordinary men; powerful to act in spite of these violent perturbations; powerful to repress and conquer the qualms and headaches and inward sicknesses to which the votaries of bacchus are ordinarily subject; but this power was not without its limit. if encroached on too far, it would break and fall and come asunder, and then the strong man would at once become a corpse. scatcherd had but one friend in the world. and, indeed, this friend was no friend in the ordinary acceptance of the word. he neither ate with him nor drank with him, nor even frequently talked with him. their pursuits in life were wide asunder. their tastes were all different. the society in which each moved very seldom came together. scatcherd had nothing in unison with this solitary friend; but he trusted him, and he trusted no other living creature on god's earth. he trusted this man; but even him he did not trust thoroughly; not at least as one friend should trust another. he believed that this man would not rob him; would probably not lie to him; would not endeavour to make money of him; would not count him up or speculate on him, and make out a balance of profit and loss; and, therefore, he determined to use him. but he put no trust whatever in his friend's counsel, in his modes of thought; none in his theory, and none in his practice. he disliked his friend's counsel, and, in fact, disliked his society, for his friend was somewhat apt to speak to him in a manner approaching to severity. now roger scatcherd had done many things in the world, and made much money; whereas his friend had done but few things, and made no money. it was not to be endured that the practical, efficient man should be taken to task by the man who proved himself to be neither practical nor efficient; not to be endured, certainly, by roger scatcherd, who looked on men of his own class as the men of the day, and on himself as by no means the least among them. the friend was our friend dr thorne. the doctor's first acquaintance with scatcherd has been already explained. he was necessarily thrown into communication with the man at the time of the trial, and scatcherd then had not only sufficient sense, but sufficient feeling also to know that the doctor behaved very well. this communication had in different ways been kept up between them. soon after the trial scatcherd had begun to rise, and his first savings had been entrusted to the doctor's care. this had been the beginning of a pecuniary connexion which had never wholly ceased, and which had led to the purchase of boxall hill, and to the loan of large sums of money to the squire. in another way also there had been a close alliance between them, and one not always of a very pleasant description. the doctor was, and long had been, sir roger's medical attendant, and, in his unceasing attempts to rescue the drunkard from the fate which was so much to be dreaded, he not unfrequently was driven into a quarrel with his patient. one thing further must be told of sir roger. in politics he was as violent a radical as ever, and was very anxious to obtain a position in which he could bring his violence to bear. with this view he was about to contest his native borough of barchester, in the hope of being returned in opposition to the de courcy candidate; and with this object he had now come down to boxall hill. nor were his claims to sit for barchester such as could be despised. if money were to be of avail, he had plenty of it, and was prepared to spend it; whereas, rumour said that mr moffat was equally determined to do nothing so foolish. then again, sir roger had a sort of rough eloquence, and was able to address the men of barchester in language that would come home to their hearts, in words that would endear him to one party while they made him offensively odious to the other; but mr moffat could make neither friends nor enemies by his eloquence. the barchester roughs called him a dumb dog that could not bark, and sometimes sarcastically added that neither could he bite. the de courcy interest, however, was at his back, and he had also the advantage of possession. sir roger, therefore, knew that the battle was not to be won without a struggle. dr thorne got safely back from silverbridge that evening, and found mary waiting to give him his tea. he had been called there to a consultation with dr century, that amiable old gentleman having so far fallen away from the high fillgrave tenets as to consent to the occasional endurance of such degradation. the next morning he breakfasted early, and, having mounted his strong iron-grey cob, started for boxall hill. not only had he there to negotiate the squire's further loan, but also to exercise his medical skill. sir roger having been declared contractor for cutting a canal from sea to sea, through the isthmus of panama, had been making a week of it; and the result was that lady scatcherd had written rather peremptorily to her husband's medical friend. the doctor consequently trotted off to boxall hill on his iron-grey cob. among his other merits was that of being a good horseman, and he did much of his work on horseback. the fact that he occasionally took a day with the east barsetshires, and that when he did so he thoroughly enjoyed it, had probably not failed to add something to the strength of the squire's friendship. "well, my lady, how is he? not much the matter, i hope?" said the doctor, as he shook hands with the titled mistress of boxall hill in a small breakfast-parlour in the rear of the house. the show-rooms of boxall hill were furnished most magnificently, but they were set apart for company; and as the company never came--seeing that they were never invited--the grand rooms and the grand furniture were not of much material use to lady scatcherd. "indeed then, doctor, he's just bad enough," said her ladyship, not in a very happy tone of voice; "just bad enough. there's been some'at at the back of his head, rapping, and rapping, and rapping; and if you don't do something, i'm thinking it will rap him too hard yet." "is he in bed?" "why, yes, he is in bed; for when he was first took he couldn't very well help hisself, so we put him to bed. and then, he don't seem to be quite right yet about the legs, so he hasn't got up; but he's got that winterbones with him to write for him, and when winterbones is there, scatcherd might as well be up for any good that bed'll do him." mr winterbones was confidential clerk to sir roger. that is to say, he was a writing-machine of which sir roger made use to do certain work which could not well be adjusted without some contrivance. he was a little, withered, dissipated, broken-down man, whom gin and poverty had nearly burnt to a cinder, and dried to an ash. mind he had none left, nor care for earthly things, except the smallest modicum of substantial food, and the largest allowance of liquid sustenance. all that he had ever known he had forgotten, except how to count up figures and to write: the results of his counting and his writing never stayed with him from one hour to another; nay, not from one folio to another. let him, however, be adequately screwed up with gin, and adequately screwed down by the presence of his master, and then no amount of counting and writing would be too much for him. this was mr winterbones, confidential clerk to the great sir roger scatcherd. "we must send winterbones away, i take it," said the doctor. "indeed, doctor, i wish you would. i wish you'd send him to bath, or anywhere else out of the way. there is scatcherd, he takes brandy; and there is winterbones, he takes gin; and it'd puzzle a woman to say which is worst, master or man." it will seem from this, that lady scatcherd and the doctor were on very familiar terms as regarded her little domestic inconveniences. "tell sir roger i am here, will you?" said the doctor. "you'll take a drop of sherry before you go up?" said the lady. "not a drop, thank you," said the doctor. "or, perhaps, a little cordial?" "not a drop of anything, thank you; i never do, you know." "just a thimbleful of this?" said the lady, producing from some recess under a sideboard a bottle of brandy; "just a thimbleful? it's what he takes himself." when lady scatcherd found that even this argument failed, she led the way to the great man's bedroom. "well, doctor! well, doctor! well, doctor!" was the greeting with which our son of galen was saluted some time before he entered the sick-room. his approaching step was heard, and thus the ci-devant barchester stone-mason saluted his coming friend. the voice was loud and powerful, but not clear and sonorous. what voice that is nurtured on brandy can ever be clear? it had about it a peculiar huskiness, a dissipated guttural tone, which thorne immediately recognised, and recognised as being more marked, more guttural, and more husky than heretofore. "so you've smelt me out, have you, and come for your fee? ha! ha! ha! well, i have had a sharpish bout of it, as her ladyship there no doubt has told you. let her alone to make the worst of it. but, you see, you're too late, man. i've bilked the old gentleman again without troubling you." "anyway, i'm glad you're something better, scatcherd." "something! i don't know what you call something. i never was better in my life. ask winterbones there." "indeed, now, scatcherd, you ain't; you're bad enough if you only knew it. and as for winterbones, he has no business here up in your bedroom, which stinks of gin so, it does. don't you believe him, doctor; he ain't well, nor yet nigh well." winterbones, when the above ill-natured allusion was made to the aroma coming from his libations, might be seen to deposit surreptitiously beneath the little table at which he sat, the cup with which he had performed them. the doctor, in the meantime, had taken sir roger's hand on the pretext of feeling his pulse, but was drawing quite as much information from the touch of the sick man's skin, and the look of the sick man's eye. "i think mr winterbones had better go back to the london office," said he. "lady scatcherd will be your best clerk for some time, sir roger." "then i'll be d---- if mr winterbones does anything of the kind," said he; "so there's an end of that." "very well," said the doctor. "a man can die but once. it is my duty to suggest measures for putting off the ceremony as long as possible. perhaps, however, you may wish to hasten it." "well, i am not very anxious about it, one way or the other," said scatcherd. and as he spoke there came a fierce gleam from his eye, which seemed to say--"if that's the bugbear with which you wish to frighten me, you will find that you are mistaken." "now, doctor, don't let him talk that way, don't," said lady scatcherd, with her handkerchief to her eyes. "now, my lady, do you cut it; cut at once," said sir roger, turning hastily round to his better-half; and his better-half, knowing that the province of a woman is to obey, did cut it. but as she went she gave the doctor a pull by the coat's sleeve, so that thereby his healing faculties might be sharpened to the very utmost. "the best woman in the world, doctor; the very best," said he, as the door closed behind the wife of his bosom. "i'm sure of it," said the doctor. "yes, till you find a better one," said scatcherd. "ha! ha! ha! but good or bad, there are some things which a woman can't understand, and some things which she ought not to be let to understand." "it's natural she should be anxious about your health, you know." "i don't know that," said the contractor. "she'll be very well off. all that whining won't keep a man alive, at any rate." there was a pause, during which the doctor continued his medical examination. to this the patient submitted with a bad grace; but still he did submit. "we must turn over a new leaf, sir roger; indeed we must." "bother," said sir roger. "well, scatcherd; i must do my duty to you, whether you like it or not." "that is to say, i am to pay you for trying to frighten me." "no human nature can stand such shocks as these much longer." "winterbones," said the contractor, turning to his clerk, "go down, go down, i say; but don't be out of the way. if you go to the public-house, by g----, you may stay there for me. when i take a drop,--that is if i ever do, it does not stand in the way of work." so mr winterbones, picking up his cup again, and concealing it in some way beneath his coat flap, retreated out of the room, and the two friends were alone. "scatcherd," said the doctor, "you have been as near your god, as any man ever was who afterwards ate and drank in this world." "have i, now?" said the railway hero, apparently somewhat startled. "indeed you have; indeed you have." "and now i'm all right again?" "all right! how can you be all right, when you know that your limbs refuse to carry you? all right! why the blood is still beating round your brain with a violence that would destroy any other brain but yours." "ha! ha! ha!" laughed scatcherd. he was very proud of thinking himself to be differently organised from other men. "ha! ha! ha! well, and what am i to do now?" the whole of the doctor's prescription we will not give at length. to some of his ordinances sir roger promised obedience; to others he objected violently, and to one or two he flatly refused to listen. the great stumbling-block was this, that total abstinence from business for two weeks was enjoined; and that it was impossible, so sir roger said, that he should abstain for two days. "if you work," said the doctor, "in your present state, you will certainly have recourse to the stimulus of drink; and if you drink, most assuredly you will die." "stimulus! why do you think i can't work without dutch courage?" "scatcherd, i know that there is brandy in the room at this moment, and that you have been taking it within these two hours." "you smell that fellow's gin," said scatcherd. "i feel the alcohol working within your veins," said the doctor, who still had his hand on his patient's arm. sir roger turned himself roughly in the bed so as to get away from his mentor, and then he began to threaten in his turn. "i'll tell you what it is, doctor; i've made up my mind, and i'll do it. i'll send for fillgrave." "very well," said he of greshamsbury, "send for fillgrave. your case is one in which even he can hardly go wrong." "you think you can hector me, and do as you like because you had me under your thumb in other days. you're a very good fellow, thorne, but i ain't sure that you are the best doctor in all england." "you may be sure i am not; you may take me for the worst if you will. but while i am here as your medical adviser, i can only tell you the truth to the best of my thinking. now the truth is this, that another bout of drinking will in all probability kill you; and any recourse to stimulus in your present condition may do so." "i'll send for fillgrave--" "well, send for fillgrave, only do it at once. believe me at any rate in this, that whatever you do, you should do at once. oblige me in this; let lady scatcherd take away that brandy bottle till dr fillgrave comes." "i'm d---- if i do. do you think i can't have a bottle of brandy in my room without swigging?" "i think you'll be less likely to swig it if you can't get at it." sir roger made another angry turn in his bed as well as his half-paralysed limbs would let him; and then, after a few moments' peace, renewed his threats with increased violence. "yes; i'll have fillgrave over here. if a man be ill, really ill, he should have the best advice he can get. i'll have fillgrave, and i'll have that other fellow from silverbridge to meet him. what's his name?--century." the doctor turned his head away; for though the occasion was serious, he could not help smiling at the malicious vengeance with which his friend proposed to gratify himself. "i will; and rerechild too. what's the expense? i suppose five or six pound apiece will do it; eh, thorne?" "oh, yes; that will be liberal i should say. but, sir roger, will you allow me to suggest what you ought to do? i don't know how far you may be joking--" "joking!" shouted the baronet; "you tell a man he's dying and joking in the same breath. you'll find i'm not joking." "well i dare say not. but if you have not full confidence in me--" "i have no confidence in you at all." "then why not send to london? expense is no object to you." "it is an object; a great object." "nonsense! send to london for sir omicron pie: send for some man whom you will really trust when you see him. "there's not one of the lot i'd trust as soon as fillgrave. i've known fillgrave all my life, and i trust him. i'll send for fillgrave and put my case in his hands. if any one can do anything for me, fillgrave is the man." "then in god's name send for fillgrave," said the doctor. "and now, good-bye, scatcherd; and as you do send for him, give him a fair chance. do not destroy yourself by more brandy before he comes." "that's my affair, and his; not yours," said the patient. "so be it; give me your hand, at any rate, before i go. i wish you well through it, and when you are well, i'll come and see you." "good-bye--good-bye; and look here, thorne, you'll be talking to lady scatcherd downstairs i know; now, no nonsense. you understand me, eh? no nonsense, you know." chapter x sir roger's will dr thorne left the room and went downstairs, being fully aware that he could not leave the house without having some communication with lady scatcherd. he was not sooner within the passage than he heard the sick man's bell ring violently; and then the servant, passing him on the staircase, received orders to send a mounted messenger immediately to barchester. dr fillgrave was to be summoned to come as quickly as possible to the sick man's room, and mr winterbones was to be sent up to write the note. sir roger was quite right in supposing that there would be some words between the doctor and her ladyship. how, indeed, was the doctor to get out of the house without such, let him wish it ever so much? there were words; and these were protracted, while the doctor's cob was being ordered round, till very many were uttered which the contractor would probably have regarded as nonsense. lady scatcherd was no fit associate for the wives of english baronets;--was no doubt by education and manners much better fitted to sit in their servants' halls; but not on that account was she a bad wife or a bad woman. she was painfully, fearfully, anxious for that husband of hers, whom she honoured and worshipped, as it behoved her to do, above all other men. she was fearfully anxious as to his life, and faithfully believed, that if any man could prolong it, it was that old and faithful friend whom she had known to be true to her lord since their early married troubles. when, therefore, she found that he had been dismissed, and that a stranger was to be sent for in his place, her heart sank low within her. "but, doctor," she said, with her apron up to her eyes, "you ain't going to leave him, are you?" dr thorne did not find it easy to explain to her ladyship that medical etiquette would not permit him to remain in attendance on her husband after he had been dismissed and another physician called in his place. "etiquette!" said she, crying. "what's etiquette to do with it when a man is a-killing hisself with brandy?" "fillgrave will forbid that quite as strongly as i can do." "fillgrave!" said she. "fiddlesticks! fillgrave, indeed!" dr thorne could almost have embraced her for the strong feeling of thorough confidence on the one side, and thorough distrust on the other, which she contrived to throw into those few words. "i'll tell you what, doctor; i won't let the messenger go. i'll bear the brunt of it. he can't do much now he ain't up, you know. i'll stop the boy; we won't have no fillgraves here." this, however, was a step to which dr thorne would not assent. he endeavoured to explain to the anxious wife, that after what had passed he could not tender his medical services till they were again asked for. "but you can slip in as a friend, you know; and then by degrees you can come round him, eh? can't you now, doctor? and as to the payment--" all that dr thorne said on the subject may easily be imagined. and in this way, and in partaking of the lunch which was forced upon him, an hour had nearly passed between his leaving sir roger's bedroom and putting his foot in the stirrup. but no sooner had the cob begun to move on the gravel-sweep before the house, than one of the upper windows opened, and the doctor was summoned to another conference with the sick man. "he says you are to come back, whether or no," said mr winterbones, screeching out of the window, and putting all his emphasis on the last words. "thorne! thorne! thorne!" shouted the sick man from his sick-bed, so loudly that the doctor heard him, seated as he was on horseback out before the house. "you're to come back, whether or no," repeated winterbones, with more emphasis, evidently conceiving that there was a strength of injunction in that "whether or no" which would be found quite invincible. whether actuated by these magic words, or by some internal process of thought, we will not say; but the doctor did slowly, and as though unwillingly, dismount again from his steed, and slowly retrace his steps into the house. "it is no use," he said to himself, "for that messenger has already gone to barchester." "i have sent for dr fillgrave," were the first words which the contractor said to him when he again found himself by the bedside. "did you call me back to tell me that?" said thorne, who now realy felt angry at the impertinent petulance of the man before him: "you should consider, scatcherd, that my time may be of value to others, if not to you." "now don't be angry, old fellow," said scatcherd, turning to him, and looking at him with a countenance quite different from any that he had shown that day; a countenance in which there was a show of manhood,--some show also of affection. "you ain't angry now because i've sent for fillgrave?" "not in the least," said the doctor very complacently. "not in the least. fillgrave will do as much good as i can do you." "and that's none at all, i suppose; eh, thorne?" "that depends on yourself. he will do you good if you will tell him the truth, and will then be guided by him. your wife, your servant, any one can be as good a doctor to you as either he or i; as good, that is, in the main point. but you have sent for fillgrave now; and of course you must see him. i have much to do, and you must let me go." scatcherd, however, would not let him go, but held his hand fast. "thorne," said he, "if you like it, i'll make them put fillgrave under the pump directly he comes here. i will indeed, and pay all the damage myself." this was another proposition to which the doctor could not consent; but he was utterly unable to refrain from laughing. there was an earnest look of entreaty about sir roger's face as he made the suggestion; and, joined to this, there was a gleam of comic satisfaction in his eye which seemed to promise, that if he received the least encouragement he would put his threat into execution. now our doctor was not inclined to taking any steps towards subjecting his learned brother to pump discipline; but he could not but admit to himself that the idea was not a bad one. "i'll have it done, i will, by heavens! if you'll only say the word," protested sir roger. but the doctor did not say the word, and so the idea was passed off. "you shouldn't be so testy with a man when he is ill," said scatcherd, still holding the doctor's hand, of which he had again got possession; "specially not an old friend; and specially again when you're been a-blowing of him up." it was not worth the doctor's while to aver that the testiness had all been on the other side, and that he had never lost his good-humour; so he merely smiled, and asked sir roger if he could do anything further for him. "indeed you can, doctor; and that's why i sent for you,--why i sent for you yesterday. get out of the room, winterbones," he then said, gruffly, as though he were dismissing from his chamber a dirty dog. winterbones, not a whit offended, again hid his cup under his coat-tail and vanished. "sit down, thorne, sit down," said the contractor, speaking quite in a different manner from any that he had yet assumed. "i know you're in a hurry, but you must give me half an hour. i may be dead before you can give me another; who knows?" the doctor of course declared that he hoped to have many a half-hour's chat with him for many a year to come. "well, that's as may be. you must stop now, at any rate. you can make the cob pay for it, you know." the doctor took a chair and sat down. thus entreated to stop, he had hardly any alternative but to do so. "it wasn't because i'm ill that i sent for you, or rather let her ladyship send for you. lord bless you, thorne; do you think i don't know what it is that makes me like this? when i see that poor wretch, winterbones, killing himself with gin, do you think i don't know what's coming to myself as well as him? "why do you take it then? why do you do it? your life is not like his. oh, scatcherd! scatcherd!" and the doctor prepared to pour out the flood of his eloquence in beseeching this singular man to abstain from his well-known poison. "is that all you know of human nature, doctor? abstain. can you abstain from breathing, and live like a fish does under water?" "but nature has not ordered you to drink, scatcherd." "habit is second nature, man; and a stronger nature than the first. and why should i not drink? what else has the world given me for all that i have done for it? what other resource have i? what other gratification?" "oh, my god! have you not unbounded wealth? can you not do anything you wish? be anything you choose?" "no," and the sick man shrieked with an energy that made him audible all through the house. "i can do nothing that i would choose to do; be nothing that i would wish to be! what can i do? what can i be? what gratification can i have except the brandy bottle? if i go among gentlemen, can i talk to them? if they have anything to say about a railway, they will ask me a question: if they speak to me beyond that, i must be dumb. if i go among my workmen, can they talk to me? no; i am their master, and a stern master. they bob their heads and shake in their shoes when they see me. where are my friends? here!" said he, and he dragged a bottle from under his very pillow. "where are my amusements? here!" and he brandished the bottle almost in the doctor's face. "where is my one resource, my one gratification, my only comfort after all my toils. here, doctor; here, here, here!" and, so saying, he replaced his treasure beneath his pillow. there was something so horrifying in this, that dr thorne shrank back amazed, and was for a moment unable to speak. "but, scatcherd," he said at last; "surely you would not die for such a passion as that?" "die for it? aye, would i. live for it while i can live; and die for it when i can live no longer. die for it! what is that for a man to do? do not men die for a shilling a day? what is a man the worse for dying? what can i be the worse for dying? a man can die but once, you said just now. i'd die ten times for this." "you are speaking now either in madness, or else in folly, to startle me." "folly enough, perhaps, and madness enough, also. such a life as mine makes a man a fool, and makes him mad too. what have i about me that i should be afraid to die? i'm worth three hundred thousand pounds; and i'd give it all to be able to go to work to-morrow with a hod and mortar, and have a fellow clap his hand upon my shoulder, and say: 'well, roger, shall us have that 'ere other half-pint this morning?' i'll tell you what, thorne, when a man has made three hundred thousand pounds, there's nothing left for him but to die. it's all he's good for then. when money's been made, the next thing is to spend it. now the man who makes it has not the heart to do that." the doctor, of course, in hearing all this, said something of a tendency to comfort and console the mind of his patient. not that anything he could say would comfort or console the man; but that it was impossible to sit there and hear such fearful truths--for as regarded scatcherd they were truths--without making some answer. "this is as good as a play, isn't, doctor?" said the baronet. "you didn't know how i could come out like one of those actor fellows. well, now, come; at last i'll tell you why i have sent for you. before that last burst of mine i made my will." "you had a will made before that." "yes, i had. that will is destroyed. i burnt it with my own hand, so that there should be no mistake about it. in that will i had named two executors, you and jackson. i was then partner with jackson in the york and yeovil grand central. i thought a deal of jackson then. he's not worth a shilling now." "well, i'm exactly in the same category." "no, you're not. jackson is nothing without money; but money'll never make you." "no, nor i shan't make money," said the doctor. "no, you never will. nevertheless, there's my other will, there, under that desk there; and i've put you in as sole executor." "you must alter that, scatcherd; you must indeed; with three hundred thousand pounds to be disposed of, the trust is far too much for any one man: besides you must name a younger man; you and i are of the same age, and i may die the first." "now, doctor, doctor, no humbug; let's have no humbug from you. remember this; if you're not true, you're nothing." "well, but, scatcherd--" "well, but doctor, there's the will, it's already made. i don't want to consult you about that. you are named as executor, and if you have the heart to refuse to act when i'm dead, why, of course, you can do so." the doctor was no lawyer, and hardly knew whether he had any means of extricating himself from this position in which his friend was determined to place him. "you'll have to see that will carried out, thorne. now i'll tell you what i have done." "you're not going to tell me how you have disposed of your property?" "not exactly; at least not all of it. one hundred thousand i've left in legacies, including, you know, what lady scatcherd will have." "have you not left the house to lady scatcherd?" "no; what the devil would she do with a house like this? she doesn't know how to live in it now she has got it. i have provided for her; it matters not how. the house and the estate, and the remainder of my money, i have left to louis philippe." "what! two hundred thousand pounds?" said the doctor. "and why shouldn't i leave two hundred thousand pounds to my son, even to my eldest son if i had more than one? does not mr gresham leave all his property to his heir? why should not i make an eldest son as well as lord de courcy or the duke of omnium? i suppose a railway contractor ought not to be allowed an eldest son by act of parliament! won't my son have a title to keep up? and that's more than the greshams have among them." the doctor explained away what he said as well as he could. he could not explain that what he had really meant was this, that sir roger scatcherd's son was not a man fit to be trusted with the entire control of an enormous fortune. sir roger scatcherd had but one child; that child which had been born in the days of his early troubles, and had been dismissed from his mother's breast in order that the mother's milk might nourish the young heir of greshamsbury. the boy had grown up, but had become strong neither in mind nor body. his father had determined to make a gentleman of him, and had sent to eton and to cambridge. but even this receipt, generally as it is recognised, will not make a gentleman. it is hard, indeed, to define what receipt will do so, though people do have in their own minds some certain undefined, but yet tolerably correct ideas on the subject. be that as it may, two years at eton, and three terms at cambridge, did not make a gentleman of louis philippe scatcherd. yes; he was christened louis philippe, after the king of the french. if one wishes to look out in the world for royal nomenclature, to find children who have been christened after kings and queens, or the uncles and aunts of kings and queens, the search should be made in the families of democrats. none have so servile a deference for the very nail-parings of royalty; none feel so wondering an awe at the exaltation of a crowned head; none are so anxious to secure themselves some shred or fragment that has been consecrated by the royal touch. it is the distance which they feel to exist between themselves and the throne which makes them covet the crumbs of majesty, the odds and ends and chance splinters of royalty. there was nothing royal about louis philippe scatcherd but his name. he had now come to man's estate, and his father, finding the cambridge receipt to be inefficacious, had sent him abroad to travel with a tutor. the doctor had from time to time heard tidings of this youth; he knew that he had already shown symptoms of his father's vices, but no symptoms of his father's talents; he knew that he had begun life by being dissipated, without being generous; and that at the age of twenty-one he had already suffered from delirium tremens. it was on this account that he had expressed disapprobation, rather than surprise, when he heard that his father intended to bequeath the bulk of his large fortune to the uncontrolled will of this unfortunate boy. "i have toiled for my money hard, and i have a right to do as i like with it. what other satisfaction can it give me?" the doctor assured him that he did not at all mean to dispute this. "louis philippe will do well enough, you'll find," continued the baronet, understanding what was passing within his companion's breast. "let a young fellow sow his wild oats while he is young, and he'll be steady enough when he grows old." "but what if he never lives to get through the sowing?" thought the doctor to himself. "what if the wild-oats operation is carried on in so violent a manner as to leave no strength in the soil for the product of a more valuable crop?" it was of no use saying this, however, so he allowed scatcherd to continue. "if i'd had a free fling when i was a youngster, i shouldn't have been so fond of the brandy bottle now. but any way, my son shall be my heir. i've had the gumption to make the money, but i haven't the gumption to spend it. my son, however, shall be able to ruffle it with the best of them. i'll go bail he shall hold his head higher than ever young gresham will be able to hold his. they are much of the same age, as well i have cause to remember;--and so has her ladyship there." now the fact was, that sir roger scatcherd felt in his heart no special love for young gresham; but with her ladyship it might almost be a question whether she did not love the youth whom she had nursed almost as well as that other one who was her own proper offspring. "and will you not put any check on thoughtless expenditure? if you live ten or twenty years, as we hope you may, it will become unnecessary; but in making a will, a man should always remember he may go off suddenly." "especially if he goes to bed with a brandy bottle under his head; eh, doctor? but, mind, that's a medical secret, you know; not a word of that out of the bedroom." dr thorne could but sigh. what could he say on such a subject to such a man as this? "yes, i have put a check on his expenditure. i will not let his daily bread depend on any man; i have therefore left him five hundred a year at his own disposal, from the day of my death. let him make what ducks and drakes of that he can." "five hundred a year certainly is not much," said the doctor. "no; nor do i want to keep him to that. let him have whatever he wants if he sets about spending it properly. but the bulk of the property--this estate of boxall hill, and the greshamsbury mortgage, and those other mortgages--i have tied up in this way: they shall be all his at twenty-five; and up to that age it shall be in your power to give him what he wants. if he shall die without children before he shall be twenty-five years of age, they are all to go to mary's eldest child." now mary was sir roger's sister, the mother, therefore, of miss thorne, and, consequently, the wife of the respectable ironmonger who went to america, and the mother of a family there. "mary's eldest child!" said the doctor, feeling that the perspiration had nearly broken out on his forehead, and that he could hardly control his feelings. "mary's eldest child! scatcherd, you should be more particular in your description, or you will leave your best legacy to the lawyers." "i don't know, and never heard the name of one of them." "but do you mean a boy or a girl?" "they may be all girls for what i know, or all boys; besides, i don't care which it is. a girl would probably do best with it. only you'd have to see that she married some decent fellow; you'd be her guardian." "pooh, nonsense," said the doctor. "louis will be five-and-twenty in a year or two." "in about four years." "and for all that's come and gone yet, scatcherd, you are not going to leave us yourself quite so soon as all that." "not if i can help it, doctor; but that's as may be." "the chances are ten to one that such a clause in your will will never come to bear." "quite so, quite so. if i die, louis philippe won't; but i thought it right to put in something to prevent his squandering it all before he comes to his senses." "oh! quite right, quite right. i think i would have named a later age than twenty-five." "so would not i. louis philippe will be all right by that time. that's my lookout. and now, doctor, you know my will; and if i die to-morrow, you will know what i want you to do for me." "you have merely said the eldest child, scatcherd?" "that's all; give it here, and i'll read it to you." "no, no; never mind. the eldest child! you should be more particular, scatcherd; you should, indeed. consider what an enormous interest may have to depend on those words." "why, what the devil could i say? i don't know their names; never even heard them. but the eldest is the eldest, all the world over. perhaps i ought to say the youngest, seeing that i am only a railway contractor." scatcherd began to think that the doctor might now as well go away and leave him to the society of winterbones and the brandy; but, much as our friend had before expressed himself in a hurry, he now seemed inclined to move very leisurely. he sat there by the bedside, resting his hands on his knees and gazing unconsciously at the counterpane. at last he gave a deep sigh, and then he said, "scatcherd, you must be more particular in this. if i am to have anything to do with it, you must, indeed, be more explicit." "why, how the deuce can i be more explicit? isn't her eldest living child plain enough, whether he be jack, or she be gill?" "what did your lawyer say to this, scatcherd?" "lawyer! you don't suppose i let my lawyer know what i was putting. no; i got the form and the paper, and all that from him, and had him here, in one room, while winterbones and i did it in another. it's all right enough. though winterbones wrote it, he did it in such a way he did not know what he was writing." the doctor sat a while longer, still looking at the counterpane, and then got up to depart. "i'll see you again soon," said he; "to-morrow, probably." "to-morrow!" said sir roger, not at all understanding why dr thorne should talk of returning so soon. "to-morrow! why i ain't so bad as that, man, am i? if you come so often as that you'll ruin me." "oh, not as a medical man; not as that; but about this will, scatcherd. i must think if over; i must, indeed." "you need not give yourself the least trouble in the world about my will till i'm dead; not the least. and who knows--maybe, i may be settling your affairs yet; eh, doctor? looking after your niece when you're dead and gone, and getting a husband for her, eh? ha! ha! ha!" and then, without further speech, the doctor went his way. chapter xi the doctor drinks his tea the doctor got on his cob and went his way, returning duly to greshamsbury. but, in truth, as he went he hardly knew whither he was going, or what he was doing. sir roger had hinted that the cob would be compelled to make up for lost time by extra exertion on the road; but the cob had never been permitted to have his own way as to pace more satisfactorily than on the present occasion. the doctor, indeed, hardly knew that he was on horseback, so completely was he enveloped in the cloud of his own thoughts. in the first place, that alternative which it had become him to put before the baronet as one unlikely to occur--that of the speedy death of both father and son--was one which he felt in his heart of hearts might very probably come to pass. "the chances are ten to one that such a clause will never be brought to bear." this he had said partly to himself, so as to ease the thoughts which came crowding on his brain; partly, also, in pity for the patient and the father. but now that he thought the matter over, he felt that there were no such odds. were not the odds the other way? was it not almost probable that both these men might be gathered to their long account within the next four years? one, the elder, was a strong man, indeed; one who might yet live for years to come if he would but give himself fair play. but then, he himself protested, and protested with a truth too surely grounded, that fair play to himself was beyond his own power to give. the other, the younger, had everything against him. not only was he a poor, puny creature, without physical strength, one of whose life a friend could never feel sure under any circumstances, but he also was already addicted to his father's vices; he also was already killing himself with alcohol. and then, if these two men did die within the prescribed period, if this clause in sir roger's will were brought to bear, if it should become his, dr thorne's, duty to see that clause carried out, how would he be bound to act? that woman's eldest child was his own niece, his adopted bairn, his darling, the pride of his heart, the cynosure of his eye, his child also, his own mary. of all his duties on this earth, next to that one great duty to his god and conscience, was his duty to her. what, under these circumstances, did his duty to her require of him? but then, that one great duty, that duty which she would be the first to expect from him; what did that demand of him? had scatcherd made his will without saying what its clauses were, it seemed to thorne that mary must have been the heiress, should that clause become necessarily operative. whether she were so or not would at any rate be for lawyers to decide. but now the case was very different. this rich man had confided in him, and would it not be a breach of confidence, an act of absolute dishonesty--an act of dishonesty both to scatcherd and to that far-distant american family, to that father, who, in former days, had behaved so nobly, and to that eldest child of his, would it not be gross dishonesty to them all if he allowed this man to leave a will by which his property might go to a person never intended to be his heir? long before he had arrived at greshamsbury his mind on this point had been made up. indeed, it had been made up while sitting there by scatcherd's bedside. it had not been difficult to make up his mind to so much; but then, his way out of this dishonesty was not so easy for him to find. how should he set this matter right so as to inflict no injury on his niece, and no sorrow to himself--if that indeed could be avoided? and then other thoughts crowded on his brain. he had always professed--professed at any rate to himself and to her--that of all the vile objects of a man's ambition, wealth, wealth merely for its own sake, was the vilest. they, in their joint school of inherent philosophy, had progressed to ideas which they might find it not easy to carry out, should they be called on by events to do so. and if this would have been difficult to either when acting on behalf of self alone, how much more difficult when one might have to act for the other! this difficulty had now come to the uncle. should he, in this emergency, take upon himself to fling away the golden chance which might accrue to his niece if scatcherd should be encouraged to make her partly his heir? "he'd want her to go and live there--to live with him and his wife. all the money in the bank of england would not pay her for such misery," said the doctor to himself, as he slowly rode into his own yard. on one point, and one only, had he definitely made up his mind. on the following day he would go over again to boxall hill, and would tell scatcherd the whole truth. come what might, the truth must be the best. and so, with some gleam of comfort, he went into the house, and found his niece in the drawing-room with patience oriel. "mary and i have been quarrelling," said patience. "she says the doctor is the greatest man in a village; and i say the parson is, of course." "i only say that the doctor is the most looked after," said mary. "there's another horrid message for you to go to silverbridge, uncle. why can't that dr century manage his own people?" "she says," continued miss oriel, "that if a parson was away for a month, no one would miss him; but that a doctor is so precious that his very minutes are counted." "i am sure uncle's are. they begrudge him his meals. mr oriel never gets called away to silverbridge." "no; we in the church manage our parish arrangements better than you do. we don't let strange practitioners in among our flocks because the sheep may chance to fancy them. our sheep have to put up with our spiritual doses whether they like them or not. in that respect we are much the best off. i advise you, mary, to marry a clergyman, by all means." "i will when you marry a doctor," said she. "i am sure nothing on earth would give me greater pleasure," said miss oriel, getting up and curtseying very low to dr thorne; "but i am not quite prepared for the agitation of an offer this morning, so i'll run away." and so she went; and the doctor, getting on his other horse, started again for silverbridge, wearily enough. "she's happy now where she is," said he to himself, as he rode along. "they all treat her there as an equal at greshamsbury. what though she be no cousin to the thornes of ullathorne. she has found her place there among them all, and keeps it on equal terms with the best of them. there is miss oriel; her family is high; she is rich, fashionable, a beauty, courted by every one; but yet she does not look down on mary. they are equal friends together. but how would it be if she were taken to boxall hill, even as a recognised niece of the rich man there? would patience oriel and beatrice gresham go there after her? could she be happy there as she is in my house here, poor though it be? it would kill her to pass a month with lady scatcherd and put up with that man's humours, to see his mode of life, to be dependent on him, to belong to him." and then the doctor, hurrying on to silverbridge, again met dr century at the old lady's bedside, and having made his endeavours to stave off the inexorable coming of the grim visitor, again returned to his own niece and his own drawing-room. "you must be dead, uncle," said mary, as she poured out his tea for him, and prepared the comforts of that most comfortable meal--tea, dinner, and supper, all in one. "i wish silverbridge was fifty miles off." "that would only make the journey worse; but i am not dead yet, and, what is more to the purpose, neither is my patient." and as he spoke he contrived to swallow a jorum of scalding tea, containing in measure somewhat near a pint. mary, not a whit amazed at this feat, merely refilled the jorum without any observation; and the doctor went on stirring the mixture with his spoon, evidently oblivious that any ceremony had been performed by either of them since the first supply had been administered to him. when the clatter of knives and forks was over, the doctor turned himself to the hearthrug, and putting one leg over the other, he began to nurse it as he looked with complacency at his third cup of tea, which stood untasted beside him. the fragments of the solid banquet had been removed, but no sacrilegious hand had been laid on the teapot and the cream-jug. "mary," said he, "suppose you were to find out to-morrow morning that, by some accident, you had become a great heiress, would you be able to suppress your exultation?" "the first thing i'd do, would be to pronounce a positive edict that you should never go to silverbridge again; at least without a day's notice." "well, and what next? what would you do next?" "the next thing--the next thing would be to send to paris for a french bonnet exactly like the one patience oriel had on. did you see it?" "well i can't say i did; bonnets are invisible now; besides i never remark anybody's clothes, except yours." "oh! do look at miss oriel's bonnet the next time you see her. i cannot understand why it should be so, but i am sure of this--no english fingers could put together such a bonnet as that; and i am nearly sure that no french fingers could do it in england." "but you don't care so much about bonnets, mary!" this the doctor said as an assertion; but there was, nevertheless, somewhat of a question involved in it. "don't i, though?" said she. "i do care very much about bonnets; especially since i saw patience this morning. i asked how much it cost--guess." "oh! i don't know--a pound?" "a pound, uncle!" "what! a great deal more? ten pounds?" "oh, uncle." "what! more than ten pounds? then i don't think even patience oriel ought to give it." "no, of course she would not; but, uncle, it really cost a hundred francs!" "oh! a hundred francs; that's four pounds, isn't it? well, and how much did your last new bonnet cost?" "mine! oh, nothing--five and ninepence, perhaps; i trimmed it myself. if i were left a great fortune, i'd send to paris to-morrow; no, i'd go myself to paris to buy a bonnet, and i'd take you with me to choose it." the doctor sat silent for a while meditating about this, during which he unconsciously absorbed the tea beside him; and mary again replenished his cup. "come, mary," said he at last, "i'm in a generous mood; and as i am rather more rich than usual, we'll send to paris for a french bonnet. the going for it must wait a while longer i am afraid." "you're joking." "no, indeed. if you know the way to send--that i must confess would puzzle me; but if you'll manage the sending, i'll manage the paying; and you shall have a french bonnet." "uncle!" said she, looking up at him. "oh, i'm not joking; i owe you a present, and i'll give you that." "and if you do, i'll tell you what i'll do with it. i'll cut it into fragments, and burn them before your face. why, uncle, what do you take me for? you're not a bit nice to-night to make such an offer as that to me; not a bit, not a bit." and then she came over from her seat at the tea-tray and sat down on a foot-stool close at his knee. "because i'd have a french bonnet if i had a large fortune, is that a reason why i should like one now? if you were to pay four pounds for a bonnet for me, it would scorch my head every time i put it on." "i don't see that: four pounds would not ruin me. however, i don't think you'd look a bit better if you had it; and, certainly, i should not like to scorch these locks," and putting his hand upon her shoulders, he played with her hair. "patience has a pony-phaeton, and i'd have one if i were rich; and i'd have all my books bound as she does; and, perhaps, i'd give fifty guineas for a dressing-case." "fifty guineas!" "patience did not tell me; but so beatrice says. patience showed it to me once, and it is a darling. i think i'd have the dressing-case before the bonnet. but, uncle--" "well?" "you don't suppose i want such things?" "not improperly. i am sure you do not." "not properly, or improperly; not much, or little. i covet many things; but nothing of that sort. you know, or should know, that i do not. why did you talk of buying a french bonnet for me?" dr thorne did not answer this question, but went on nursing his leg. "after all," said he, "money is a fine thing." "very fine, when it is well come by," she answered; "that is, without detriment to the heart or soul." "i should be a happier man if you were provided for as is miss oriel. suppose, now, i could give you up to a rich man who would be able to insure you against all wants?" "insure me against all wants! oh, that would be a man. that would be selling me, wouldn't it, uncle? yes, selling me; and the price you would receive would be freedom from future apprehensions as regards me. it would be a cowardly sale for you to make; and then, as to me--me the victim. no, uncle; you must bear the misery of having to provide for me--bonnets and all. we are in the same boat, and you shan't turn me overboard." "but if i were to die, what would you do then?" "and if i were to die, what would you do? people must be bound together. they must depend on each other. of course, misfortunes may come; but it is cowardly to be afraid of them beforehand. you and i are bound together, uncle; and though you say these things to tease me, i know you do not wish to get rid of me." "well, well; we shall win through, doubtless; if not in one way, then in another." "win through! of course we shall; who doubts our winning? but, uncle--" "but, mary." "well?" "you haven't got another cup of tea, have you?" "oh, uncle! you have had five." "no, my dear! not five; only four--only four, i assure you; i have been very particular to count. i had one while i was--" "five uncle; indeed and indeed." "well, then, as i hate the prejudice which attaches luck to an odd number, i'll have a sixth to show that i am not superstitious." while mary was preparing the sixth jorum, there came a knock at the door. those late summonses were hateful to mary's ear, for they were usually the forerunners of a midnight ride through the dark lanes to some farmer's house. the doctor had been in the saddle all day, and, as janet brought the note into the room, mary stood up as though to defend her uncle from any further invasion on his rest. "a note from the house, miss," said janet: now "the house," in greshamsbury parlance, always meant the squire's mansion. "no one ill at the house, i hope," said the doctor, taking the note from mary's hand. "oh--ah--yes; it's from the squire--there's nobody ill: wait a minute, janet, and i'll write a line. mary, lend me your desk." the squire, anxious as usual for money, had written to ask what success the doctor had had in negotiating the new loan with sir roger. the fact, however, was, that in his visit at boxall hill, the doctor had been altogether unable to bring on the carpet the matter of this loan. subjects had crowded themselves in too quickly during that interview--those two interviews at sir roger's bedside; and he had been obliged to leave without even alluding to the question. "i must at any rate go back now," said he to himself. so he wrote to the squire, saying that he was to be at boxall hill again on the following day, and that he would call at the house on his return. "that's settled, at any rate," said he. "what's settled?" said mary. "why, i must go to boxall hill again to-morrow. i must go early, too, so we'd better both be off to bed. tell janet i must breakfast at half-past seven." "you couldn't take me, could you? i should so like to see that sir roger." "to see sir roger! why, he's ill in bed." "that's an objection, certainly; but some day, when he's well, could not you take me over? i have the greatest desire to see a man like that; a man who began with nothing and now has more than enough to buy the whole parish of greshamsbury." "i don't think you'd like him at all." "why not? i am sure i should; i am sure i should like him, and lady scatcherd, too. i've heard you say that she is an excellent woman." "yes, in her way; and he, too, is good in his way; but they are neither of them in your way: they are extremely vulgar--" "oh! i don't mind that; that would make them more amusing; one doesn't go to those sort of people for polished manners." "i don't think you'd find the scatcherds pleasant acquaintances at all," said the doctor, taking his bed-candle, and kissing his niece's forehead as he left the room. chapter xii when greek meets greek, then comes the tug of war the doctor, that is our doctor, had thought nothing more of the message which had been sent to that other doctor, dr fillgrave; nor in truth did the baronet. lady scatcherd had thought of it, but her husband during the rest of the day was not in a humour which allowed her to remind him that he would soon have a new physician on his hands; so she left the difficulty to arrange itself, waiting in some little trepidation till dr fillgrave should show himself. it was well that sir roger was not dying for want of his assistance, for when the message reached barchester, dr fillgrave was some five or six miles out of town, at plumstead; and as he did not get back till late in the evening, he felt himself necessitated to put off his visit to boxall hill till next morning. had he chanced to have been made acquainted with that little conversation about the pump, he would probably have postponed it even yet a while longer. he was, however, by no means sorry to be summoned to the bedside of sir roger scatcherd. it was well known at barchester, and very well known to dr fillgrave, that sir roger and dr thorne were old friends. it was very well known to him also, that sir roger, in all his bodily ailments, had hitherto been contented to entrust his safety to the skill of his old friend. sir roger was in his way a great man, and much talked of in barchester, and rumour had already reached the ears of the barchester galen, that the great railway contractor was ill. when, therefore, he received a peremptory summons to go over to boxall hill, he could not but think that some pure light had broken in upon sir roger's darkness, and taught him at last where to look for true medical accomplishment. and then, also, sir roger was the richest man in the county, and to county practitioners a new patient with large means is a godsend; how much greater a godsend when he be not only acquired, but taken also from some rival practitioner, need hardly be explained. dr fillgrave, therefore, was somewhat elated when, after a very early breakfast, he stepped into the post-chaise which was to carry him to boxall hill. dr fillgrave's professional advancement had been sufficient to justify the establishment of a brougham, in which he paid his ordinary visits round barchester; but this was a special occasion, requiring special speed, and about to produce no doubt a special guerdon, and therefore a pair of post-horses were put into request. it was hardly yet nine when the post-boy somewhat loudly rang the bell at sir roger's door; and then dr fillgrave, for the first time, found himself in the new grand hall of boxall hill house. "i'll tell my lady," said the servant, showing him into the grand dining-room; and there for some fifteen minutes or twenty minutes dr fillgrave walked up and down the length of the turkey carpet all alone. dr fillgrave was not a tall man, and was perhaps rather more inclined to corpulence than became his height. in his stocking-feet, according to the usually received style of measurement, he was five feet five; and he had a little round abdominal protuberance, which an inch and a half added to the heels of his boots hardly enabled him to carry off as well as he himself would have wished. of this he was apparently conscious, and it gave to him an air of not being entirely at his ease. there was, however, a personal dignity in his demeanour, a propriety in his gait, and an air of authority in his gestures which should prohibit one from stigmatizing those efforts at altitude as a failure. no doubt he did achieve much; but, nevertheless, the effort would occasionally betray itself, and the story of the frog and the ox would irresistibly force itself into one's mind at those moments when it most behoved dr fillgrave to be magnificent. but if the bulgy roundness of his person and the shortness of his legs in any way detracted from his personal importance, these trifling defects were, he was well aware, more than atoned for by the peculiar dignity of his countenance. if his legs were short, his face was not; if there was any undue preponderance below the waistcoat, all was in due symmetry above the necktie. his hair was grey, not grizzled nor white, but properly grey; and stood up straight from off his temples on each side with an unbending determination of purpose. his whiskers, which were of an admirable shape, coming down and turning gracefully at the angle of his jaw, were grey also, but somewhat darker than his hair. his enemies in barchester declared that their perfect shade was produced by a leaden comb. his eyes were not brilliant, but were very effective, and well under command. he was rather short-sighted, and a pair of eye-glasses was always on his nose, or in his hand. his nose was long, and well pronounced, and his chin, also, was sufficiently prominent; but the great feature of his face was his mouth. the amount of secret medical knowledge of which he could give assurance by the pressure of those lips was truly wonderful. by his lips, also, he could be most exquisitely courteous, or most sternly forbidding. and not only could he be either the one or the other; but he could at his will assume any shade of difference between the two, and produce any mixture of sentiment. when dr fillgrave was first shown into sir roger's dining-room, he walked up and down the room for a while with easy, jaunty step, with his hands joined together behind his back, calculating the price of the furniture, and counting the heads which might be adequately entertained in a room of such noble proportions; but in seven or eight minutes an air of impatience might have been seen to suffuse his face. why could he not be shown into the sick man's room? what necessity could there be for keeping him there, as though he were some apothecary with a box of leeches in his pocket? he then rang the bell, perhaps a little violently. "does sir roger know that i am here?" he said to the servant. "i'll tell my lady," said the man, again vanishing. for five minutes more he walked up and down, calculating no longer the value of the furniture, but rather that of his own importance. he was not wont to be kept waiting in this way; and though sir roger scatcherd was at present a great and rich man, dr fillgrave had remembered him a very small and a very poor man. he now began to think of sir roger as the stone-mason, and to chafe somewhat more violently at being so kept by such a man. when one is impatient, five minutes is as the duration of all time, and a quarter of an hour is eternity. at the end of twenty minutes the step of dr fillgrave up and down the room had become very quick, and he had just made up his mind that he would not stay there all day to the serious detriment, perhaps fatal injury, of his other expectant patients. his hand was again on the bell, and was about to be used with vigour, when the door opened and lady scatcherd entered. the door opened and lady scatcherd entered; but she did so very slowly, as though she were afraid to come into her own dining-room. we must go back a little and see how she had been employed during those twenty minutes. "oh, laws!" such had been her first exclamation on hearing that the doctor was in the dining-room. she was standing at the time with her housekeeper in a small room in which she kept her linen and jam, and in which, in company with the same housekeeper, she spent the happiest moments of her life. "oh laws! now, hannah, what shall we do?" "send 'un up at once to master, my lady! let john take 'un up." "there'll be such a row in the house, hannah; i know there will." "but sure-ly didn't he send for 'un? let the master have the row himself, then; that's what i'd do, my lady," added hannah, seeing that her ladyship still stood trembling in doubt, biting her thumb-nail. "you couldn't go up to the master yourself, could you now, hannah?" said lady scatcherd in her most persuasive tone. "why no," said hannah, after a little deliberation; "no, i'm afeard i couldn't." "then i must just face it myself." and up went the wife to tell her lord that the physician for whom he had sent had come to attend his bidding. in the interview which then took place the baronet had not indeed been violent, but he had been very determined. nothing on earth, he said, should induce him to see dr fillgrave and offend his dear old friend dr thorne. "but roger," said her ladyship, half crying, or rather pretending to cry in her vexation, "what shall i do with the man? how shall i get him out of the house?" "put him under the pump," said the baronet; and he laughed his peculiar low guttural laugh, which told so plainly of the havoc which brandy had made in his throat. "that's nonsense, roger; you know i can't put him under the pump. now you are ill, and you'd better see him just for five minutes. i'll make it all right with dr thorne." "i'll be d---- if i do, my lady." all the people about boxall hill called poor lady scatcherd "my lady" as if there was some excellent joke in it; and, so, indeed, there was. "you know you needn't mind nothing he says, nor yet take nothing he sends: and i'll tell him not to come no more. now do 'ee see him, roger." but there was no coaxing roger over now, or indeed ever: he was a wilful, headstrong, masterful man; a tyrant always though never a cruel one; and accustomed to rule his wife and household as despotically as he did his gangs of workmen. such men it is not easy to coax over. "you go down and tell him i don't want him, and won't see him, and that's an end of it. if he chose to earn his money, why didn't he come yesterday when he was sent for? i'm well now, and don't want him; and what's more, i won't have him. winterbones, lock the door." so winterbones, who during this interview had been at work at his little table, got up to lock the door, and lady scatcherd had no alternative but to pass through it before the last edict was obeyed. lady scatcherd, with slow step, went downstairs and again sought counsel with hannah, and the two, putting their heads together, agreed that the only cure for the present evil was to be found in a good fee. so lady scatcherd, with a five-pound note in her hand, and trembling in every limb, went forth to encounter the august presence of dr fillgrave. as the door opened, dr fillgrave dropped the bell-rope which was in his hand, and bowed low to the lady. those who knew the doctor well, would have known from his bow that he was not well pleased; it was as much as though he said, "lady scatcherd, i am your most obedient humble servant; at any rate it appears that it is your pleasure to treat me as such." lady scatcherd did not understand all this; but she perceived at once that the man was angry. "i hope sir roger does not find himself worse," said the doctor. "the morning is getting on; shall i step up and see him?" "hem! ha! oh! why, you see, dr fillgrave, sir roger finds hisself vastly better this morning, vastly so." "i'm very glad to hear it; but as the morning is getting on, shall i step up to see sir roger?" "why, dr fillgrave, sir, you see, he finds hisself so much hisself this morning, that he a'most thinks it would be a shame to trouble you." "a shame to trouble me!" this was the sort of shame which dr fillgrave did not at all comprehend. "a shame to trouble me! why lady scatcherd--" lady scatcherd saw that she had nothing for it but to make the whole matter intelligible. moreover, seeing that she appreciated more thoroughly the smallness of dr fillgrave's person than she did the peculiar greatness of his demeanour, she began to be a shade less afraid of him than she had thought she should have been. "yes, dr fillgrave; you see, when a man like he gets well, he can't abide the idea of doctors: now, yesterday, he was all for sending for you; but to-day he comes to hisself, and don't seem to want no doctor at all." then did dr fillgrave seem to grow out of his boots, so suddenly did he take upon himself sundry modes of expansive attitude;--to grow out of his boots and to swell upwards, till his angry eyes almost looked down on lady scatcherd, and each erect hair bristled up towards the heavens. "this is very singular, very singular, lady scatcherd; very singular, indeed; very singular; quite unusual. i have come here from barchester, at some considerable inconvenience, at some very considerable inconvenience, i may say, to my regular patients; and--and--and--i don't know that anything so very singular ever occurred to me before." and then dr fillgrave, with a compression of his lips which almost made the poor woman sink into the ground, moved towards the door. then lady scatcherd bethought her of her great panacea. "it isn't about the money, you know, doctor," said she; "of course sir roger don't expect you to come here with post-horses for nothing." in this, by the by, lady scatcherd did not stick quite close to veracity, for sir roger, had he known it, would by no means have assented to any payment; and the note which her ladyship held in her hand was taken from her own private purse. "it ain't at all about the money, doctor;" and then she tendered the bank-note, which she thought would immediately make all things smooth. now dr fillgrave dearly loved a five-pound fee. what physician is so unnatural as not to love it? he dearly loved a five-pound fee; but he loved his dignity better. he was angry also; and like all angry men, he loved his grievance. he felt that he had been badly treated; but if he took the money he would throw away his right to indulge in any such feeling. at that moment his outraged dignity and his cherished anger were worth more than a five-pound note. he looked at it with wishful but still averted eyes, and then sternly refused the tender. "no, madam," said he; "no, no;" and with his right hand raised with his eye-glasses in it, he motioned away the tempting paper. "no; i should have been happy to have given sir roger the benefit of any medical skill i may have, seeing that i was specially called in--" "but, doctor; if the man's well, you know--" "oh, of course; if he's well, and does not choose to see me, there's an end of it. should he have any relapse, as my time is valuable, he will perhaps oblige me by sending elsewhere. madam, good morning. i will, if you will allow me, ring for my carriage--that is, post-chaise." "but, doctor, you'll take the money; you must take the money; indeed you'll take the money," said lady scatcherd, who had now become really unhappy at the idea that her husband's unpardonable whim had brought this man with post-horses all the way from barchester, and that he was to be paid nothing for his time nor costs. "no, madam, no. i could not think of it. sir roger, i have no doubt, will know better another time. it is not a question of money; not at all." "but it is a question of money, doctor; and you really shall, you must." and poor lady scatcherd, in her anxiety to acquit herself at any rate of any pecuniary debt to the doctor, came to personal close quarters with him, with the view of forcing the note into his hands. "quite impossible, quite impossible," said the doctor, still cherishing his grievance, and valiantly rejecting the root of all evil. "i shall not do anything of the kind, lady scatcherd." "now doctor, do 'ee; to oblige me." "quite out of the question." and so, with his hands and hat behind his back, in token of his utter refusal to accept any pecuniary accommodation of his injury, he made his way backwards to the door, her ladyship perseveringly pressing him in front. so eager had been the attack on him, that he had not waited to give his order about the post-chaise, but made his way at once towards the hall. "now, do 'ee take it, do 'ee," pressed lady scatcherd. "utterly out of the question," said dr fillgrave, with great deliberation, as he backed his way into the hall. as he did so, of course he turned round,--and he found himself almost in the arms of dr thorne. as burley must have glared at bothwell when they rushed together in the dread encounter on the mountain side; as achilles may have glared at hector when at last they met, each resolved to test in fatal conflict the prowess of the other, so did dr fillgrave glare at his foe from greshamsbury, when, on turning round on his exalted heel, he found his nose on a level with the top button of dr thorne's waistcoat. and here, if it be not too tedious, let us pause a while to recapitulate and add up the undoubted grievances of the barchester practitioner. he had made no effort to ingratiate himself into the sheepfold of that other shepherd-dog; it was not by his seeking that he was now at boxall hill; much as he hated dr thorne, full sure as he felt of that man's utter ignorance, of his incapacity to administer properly even a black dose, of his murdering propensities and his low, mean, unprofessional style of practice; nevertheless, he had done nothing to undermine him with these scatcherds. dr thorne might have sent every mother's son at boxall hill to his long account, and dr fillgrave would not have interfered;--would not have interfered unless specially and duly called upon to do so. but he had been specially and duly called on. before such a step was taken some words must undoubtedly have passed on the subject between thorne and the scatcherds. thorne must have known what was to be done. having been so called, dr fillgrave had come--had come all the way in a post-chaise--had been refused admittance to the sick man's room, on the plea that the sick man was no longer sick; and just as he was about to retire fee-less--for the want of the fee was not the less a grievance from the fact of its having been tendered and refused--fee-less, dishonoured, and in dudgeon, he encountered this other doctor--this very rival whom he had been sent to supplant; he encountered him in the very act of going to the sick man's room. what mad fanatic burley, what god-succoured insolent achilles, ever had such cause to swell with wrath as at that moment had dr fillgrave? had i the pen of moliere, i could fitly tell of such medical anger, but with no other pen can it be fitly told. he did swell, and when the huge bulk of his wrath was added to his natural proportions, he loomed gigantic before the eyes of the surrounding followers of sir roger. dr thorne stepped back three steps and took his hat from his head, having, in the passage from the hall-door to the dining-room, hitherto omitted to do so. it must be borne in mind that he had no conception whatever that sir roger had declined to see the physician for whom he had sent; none whatever that the physician was now about to return, fee-less, to barchester. dr thorne and dr fillgrave were doubtless well-known enemies. all the world of barchester, and all that portion of the world of london which is concerned with the lancet and the scalping-knife, were well aware of this: they were continually writing against each other; continually speaking against each other; but yet they had never hitherto come to that positive personal collision which is held to justify a cut direct. they very rarely saw each other; and when they did meet, it was in some casual way in the streets of barchester or elsewhere, and on such occasions their habit had been to bow with very cold propriety. on the present occasion, dr thorne of course felt that dr fillgrave had the whip-hand of him; and, with a sort of manly feeling on such a point, he conceived it to be most compatible with his own dignity to show, under such circumstances, more than his usual courtesy--something, perhaps, amounting almost to cordiality. he had been supplanted, _quoad_ doctor, in the house of this rich, eccentric, railway baronet, and he would show that he bore no malice on that account. so he smiled blandly as he took off his hat, and in a civil speech he expressed a hope that dr fillgrave had not found his patient to be in any very unfavourable state. here was an aggravation to the already lacerated feelings of the injured man. he had been brought thither to be scoffed at and scorned at, that he might be a laughing-stock to his enemies, and food for mirth to the vile-minded. he swelled with noble anger till he would have burst, had it not been for the opportune padding of his frock-coat. "sir," said he; "sir:" and he could hardly get his lips open to give vent to the tumult of his heart. perhaps he was not wrong; for it may be that his lips were more eloquent than would have been his words. "what's the matter?" said dr thorne, opening his eyes wide, and addressing lady scatcherd over the head and across the hairs of the irritated man below him. "what on earth is the matter? is anything wrong with sir roger?" "oh, laws, doctor!" said her ladyship. "oh, laws; i'm sure it ain't my fault. here's dr fillgrave in a taking, and i'm quite ready to pay him,--quite. if a man gets paid, what more can he want?" and she again held out the five-pound note over dr fillgrave's head. what more, indeed, lady scatcherd, can any of us want, if only we could keep our tempers and feelings a little in abeyance? dr fillgrave, however, could not so keep his; and, therefore, he did want something more, though at the present moment he could have hardly said what. lady scatcherd's courage was somewhat resuscitated by the presence of her ancient trusty ally; and, moreover, she began to conceive that the little man before her was unreasonable beyond all conscience in his anger, seeing that that for which he was ready to work had been offered to him without any work at all. "madam," said he, again turning round at lady scatcherd, "i was never before treated in such a way in any house in barchester-- never--never." "good heavens, dr fillgrave!" said he of greshamsbury, "what is the matter?" "i'll let you know what is the matter, sir," said he, turning round again as quickly as before. "i'll let you know what is the matter. i'll publish this, sir, to the medical world;" and as he shrieked out the words of the threat, he stood on tiptoes and brandished his eye-glasses up almost into his enemy's face. "don't be angry with dr thorne," said lady scatcherd. "any ways, you needn't be angry with him. if you must be angry with anybody--" "i shall be angry with him, madam," ejaculated dr fillgrave, making another sudden demi-pirouette. "i am angry with him--or, rather, i despise him;" and completing the circle, dr fillgrave again brought himself round in full front of his foe. dr thorne raised his eyebrows and looked inquiringly at lady scatcherd; but there was a quiet sarcastic motion round his mouth which by no means had the effect of throwing oil on the troubled waters. "i'll publish the whole of this transaction to the medical world, dr thorne--the whole of it; and if that has not the effect of rescuing the people of greshamsbury out of your hands, then--then--then, i don't know what will. is my carriage--that is, post-chaise there?" and dr fillgrave, speaking very loudly, turned majestically to one of the servants. "what have i done to you, dr fillgrave," said dr thorne, now absolutely laughing, "that you should determine to take my bread out of my mouth? i am not interfering with your patient. i have come here simply with reference to money matters appertaining to sir roger." "money matters! very well--very well; money matters. that is your idea of medical practice! very well--very well. is my post-chaise at the door? i'll publish it all to the medical world--every word--every word of it, every word of it." "publish what, you unreasonable man?" "man! sir; whom do you call a man? i'll let you know whether i'm a man--post-chaise there!" "don't 'ee call him names now, doctor; don't 'ee, pray don't 'ee," said lady scatcherd. by this time they had all got somewhere nearer the hall-door; but the scatcherd retainers were too fond of the row to absent themselves willingly at dr fillgrave's bidding, and it did not appear that any one went in search of the post-chaise. "man! sir; i'll let you know what it is to speak to me in that style. i think, sir, you hardly know who i am." "all that i know of you at present is, that you are my friend sir roger's physician, and i cannot conceive what has occurred to make you so angry." and as he spoke, dr thorne looked carefully at him to see whether that pump-discipline had in truth been applied. there were no signs whatever that cold water had been thrown upon dr fillgrave. "my post-chaise--is my post-chaise there? the medical world shall know all; you may be sure, sir, the medical world shall know it all;" and thus, ordering his post-chaise, and threatening dr thorne with the medical world, dr fillgrave made his way to the door. but the moment he put on his hat he returned. "no, madam," said he. "no; it is quite out of the question: such an affair is not to be arranged by such means. i'll publish it all to the medical world--post-chaise there!" and then, using all his force, he flung as far as he could into the hall a light bit of paper. it fell at dr thorne's feet, who, raising it, found that it was a five-pound note. "i put it into his hat just while he was in his tantrum," said lady scatcherd. "and i thought that perhaps he would not find it till he got to barchester. well i wish he'd been paid, certainly, although sir roger wouldn't see him;" and in this manner dr thorne got some glimpse of understanding into the cause of the great offence. "i wonder whether sir roger will see _me_," said he, laughing. chapter xiii the two uncles "ha! ha! ha! ha! ha! ha!" laughed sir roger, lustily, as dr thorne entered the room. "well, if that ain't rich, i don't know what is. ha! ha! ha! but why did they not put him under the pump, doctor?" the doctor, however, had too much tact, and too many things of importance to say, to allow of his giving up much time to the discussion of dr fillgrave's wrath. he had come determined to open the baronet's eyes as to what would be the real effect of his will, and he had also to negotiate a loan for mr gresham, if that might be possible. dr thorne therefore began about the loan, that being the easier subject, and found that sir roger was quite clear-headed as to his money concerns, in spite of his illness. sir roger was willing enough to lend mr gresham more money--six, eight, ten, twenty thousand; but then, in doing so, he should insist on obtaining possession of the title-deeds. "what! the title-deeds of greshamsbury for a few thousand pounds?" said the doctor. "i don't know whether you call ninety thousand pounds a few thousands; but the debt will about amount to that." "ah! that's the old debt." "old and new together, of course; every shilling i lend more weakens my security for what i have lent before." "but you have the first claim, sir roger." "it ought to be first and last to cover such a debt as that. if he wants further accommodation, he must part with his deeds, doctor." the point was argued backwards and forwards for some time without avail, and the doctor then thought it well to introduce the other subject. "well, sir roger, you're a hard man." "no i ain't," said sir roger; "not a bit hard; that is, not a bit too hard. money is always hard. i know i found it hard to come by; and there is no reason why squire gresham should expect to find me so very soft." "very well; there is an end of that. i thought you would have done as much to oblige me, that is all." "what! take bad security to oblige you?" "well, there's an end of that." "i'll tell you what; i'll do as much to oblige a friend as any one. i'll lend you five thousand pounds, you yourself, without security at all, if you want it." "but you know i don't want it; or, at any rate, shan't take it." "but to ask me to go on lending money to a third party, and he over head and ears in debt, by way of obliging you, why, it's a little too much." "well, there's an end of it. now i've something to say to you about that will of yours." "oh! that's settled." "no, scatcherd; it isn't settled. it must be a great deal more settled before we have done with it, as you'll find when you hear what i have to tell you." "what you have to tell me!" said sir roger, sitting up in bed; "and what have you to tell me?" "your will says your sister's eldest child." "yes; but that's only in the event of louis philippe dying before he is twenty-five." "exactly; and now i know something about your sister's eldest child, and, therefore, i have come to tell you." "you know something about mary's eldest child?" "i do, scatcherd; it is a strange story, and maybe it will make you angry. i cannot help it if it does so. i should not tell you this if i could avoid it; but as i do tell you, for your sake, as you will see, and not for my own, i must implore you not to tell my secret to others." sir roger now looked at him with an altered countenance. there was something in his voice of the authoritative tone of other days, something in the doctor's look which had on the baronet the same effect which in former days it had sometimes had on the stone-mason. "can you give me a promise, scatcherd, that what i am about to tell you shall not be repeated?" "a promise! well, i don't know what it's about, you know. i don't like promises in the dark." "then i must leave it to your honour; for what i have to say must be said. you remember my brother, scatcherd?" remember his brother! thought the rich man to himself. the name of the doctor's brother had not been alluded to between them since the days of that trial; but still it was impossible but that scatcherd should well remember him. "yes, yes; certainly. i remember your brother," said he. "i remember him well; there's no doubt about that." "well, scatcherd," and, as he spoke, the doctor laid his hand with kindness on the other's arm. "mary's eldest child was my brother's child as well. "but there is no such child living," said sir roger; and, in his violence, as he spoke he threw from off him the bedclothes, and tried to stand upon the floor. he found, however, that he had no strength for such an effort, and was obliged to remain leaning on the bed and resting on the doctor's arm. "there was no such child ever lived," said he. "what do you mean by this?" dr thorne would say nothing further till he had got the man into bed again. this he at last effected, and then he went on with the story in his own way. "yes, scatcherd, that child is alive; and for fear that you should unintentionally make her your heir, i have thought it right to tell you this." "a girl, is it?" "yes, a girl." "and why should you want to spite her? if she is mary's child, she is your brother's child also. if she is my niece, she must be your niece too. why should you want to spite her? why should you try to do her such a terrible injury?" "i do not want to spite her." "where is she? who is she? what is she called? where does she live?" the doctor did not at once answer all these questions. he had made up his mind that he would tell sir roger that this child was living, but he had not as yet resolved to make known all the circumstances of her history. he was not even yet quite aware whether it would be necessary to say that this foundling orphan was the cherished darling of his own house. "such a child, is, at any rate, living," said he; "of that i give you my assurance; and under your will, as now worded, it might come to pass that that child should be your heir. i do not want to spite her, but i should be wrong to let you make your will without such knowledge, seeing that i am possessed of it myself." "but where is the girl?" "i do not know that that signifies." "signifies! yes; it does signify a great deal. but, thorne, thorne, now that i remember it, now that i can think of things, it was--was it not you yourself who told me that the baby did not live?" "very possibly." "and was it a lie that you told me?" "if so, yes. but it is no lie that i tell you now." "i believed you then, thorne; then, when i was a poor, broken-down day-labourer, lying in jail, rotting there; but i tell you fairly, i do not believe you now. you have some scheme in this." "whatever scheme i may have, you can frustrate by making another will. what can i gain by telling you this? i only do so to induce you to be more explicit in naming your heir." they both remained silent for a while, during which the baronet poured out from his hidden resource a glass of brandy and swallowed it. "when a man is taken aback suddenly by such tidings as these, he must take a drop of something, eh, doctor?" dr thorne did not see the necessity; but the present, he felt, was no time for arguing the point. "come, thorne, where is the girl? you must tell me that. she is my niece, and i have a right to know. she shall come here, and i will do something for her. by the lord! i would as soon she had the money as any one else, if she is anything of a good 'un;--some of it, that is. is she a good 'un?" "good!" said the doctor, turning away his face. "yes; she is good enough." "she must be grown up by now. none of your light skirts, eh?" "she is a good girl," said the doctor somewhat loudly and sternly. he could hardly trust himself to say much on this point. "mary was a good girl, a very good girl, till"--and sir roger raised himself up in his bed with his fist clenched, as though he were again about to strike that fatal blow at the farm-yard gate. "but come, it's no good thinking of that; you behaved well and manly, always. and so poor mary's child is alive; at least, you say so." "i say so, and you may believe it. why should i deceive you?" "no, no; i don't see why. but then why did you deceive me before?" to this the doctor chose to make no answer, and again there was silence for a while. "what do you call her, doctor?" "her name is mary." "the prettiest women's name going; there's no name like it," said the contractor, with an unusual tenderness in his voice. "mary--yes; but mary what? what other name does she go by?" here the doctor hesitated. "mary scatcherd--eh?" "no. not mary scatcherd." "not mary scatcherd! mary what, then? you, with your d---- pride, wouldn't let her be called mary thorne, i know." this was too much for the doctor. he felt that there were tears in his eyes, so he walked away to the window to dry them, unseen. had he had fifty names, each more sacred than the other, the most sacred of them all would hardly have been good enough for her. "mary what, doctor? come, if the girl is to belong to me, if i am to provide for her, i must know what to call her, and where to look for her." "who talked of your providing for her?" said the doctor, turning round at the rival uncle. "who said that she was to belong to you? she will be no burden to you; you are only told of this that you may not leave your money to her without knowing it. she is provided for--that is, she wants nothing; she will do well enough; you need not trouble yourself about her." "but if she's mary's child, mary's child in real truth, i will trouble myself about her. who else should do so? for the matter of that, i'd as soon say her as any of those others in america. what do i care about blood? i shan't mind her being a bastard. that is to say, of course, if she's decently good. did she ever get any kind of teaching; book-learning, or anything of that sort?" dr thorne at this moment hated his friend the baronet with almost a deadly hatred; that he, rough brute as he was--for he was a rough brute--that he should speak in such language of the angel who gave to that home in greshamsbury so many of the joys of paradise--that he should speak of her as in some degree his own, that he should inquire doubtingly as to her attributes and her virtues. and then the doctor thought of her italian and french readings, of her music, of her nice books, and sweet lady ways, of her happy companionship with patience oriel, and her dear, bosom friendship with beatrice gresham. he thought of her grace, and winning manners, and soft, polished feminine beauty; and, as he did so, he hated sir roger scatcherd, and regarded him with loathing, as he might have regarded a wallowing hog. at last a light seemed to break in upon sir roger's mind. dr thorne, he perceived, did not answer his last question. he perceived, also, that the doctor was affected with some more than ordinary emotion. why should it be that this subject of mary scatcherd's child moved him so deeply? sir roger had never been at the doctor's house at greshamsbury, had never seen mary thorne, but he had heard that there lived with the doctor some young female relative; and thus a glimmering light seemed to come in upon sir roger's bed. he had twitted the doctor with his pride; had said that it was impossible that the girl should be called mary thorne. what if she were so called? what if she were now warming herself at the doctor's hearth? "well, come, thorne, what is it you call her? tell it out, man. and, look you, if it's your name she bears, i shall think more of you, a deal more than ever i did yet. come, thorne, i'm her uncle too. i have a right to know. she is mary thorne, isn't she?" the doctor had not the hardihood nor the resolution to deny it. "yes," said he, "that is her name; she lives with me." "yes, and lives with all those grand folks at greshamsbury too. i have heard of that." "she lives with me, and belongs to me, and is as my daughter." "she shall come over here. lady scatcherd shall have her to stay with her. she shall come to us. and as for my will, i'll make another. i'll--" "yes, make another will--or else alter that one. but as to miss thorne coming here--" "what! mary--" "well, mary. as to mary thorne coming here, that i fear will not be possible. she cannot have two homes. she has cast her lot with one of her uncles, and she must remain with him now." "do you mean to say that she must never have any relation but one?" "but one such as i am. she would not be happy over here. she does not like new faces. you have enough depending on you; i have but her." "enough! why, i have only louis philippe. i could provide for a dozen girls." "well, well, well, we will not talk about that." "ah! but, thorne, you have told me of this girl now, and i cannot but talk of her. if you wished to keep the matter dark, you should have said nothing about it. she is my niece as much as yours. and, thorne, i loved my sister mary quite as well as you loved your brother; quite as well." any one who might now have heard and seen the contractor would have hardly thought him to be the same man who, a few hours before, was urging that the barchester physician should be put under the pump. "you have your son, scatcherd. i have no one but that girl." "i don't want to take her from you. i don't want to take her; but surely there can be no harm in her coming here to see us? i can provide for her, thorne, remember that. i can provide for her without reference to louis philippe. what are ten or fifteen thousand pounds to me? remember that, thorne." dr thorne did remember it. in that interview he remembered many things, and much passed through his mind on which he felt himself compelled to resolve somewhat too suddenly. would he be justified in rejecting, on behalf of mary, the offer of pecuniary provision which this rich relative seemed so well inclined to make? or, if he accepted it, would he in truth be studying her interests? scatcherd was a self-willed, obstinate man--now indeed touched by unwonted tenderness; but he was one to whose lasting tenderness dr thorne would be very unwilling to trust his darling. he did resolve, that on the whole he should best discharge his duty, even to her, by keeping her to himself, and rejecting, on her behalf, any participation in the baronet's wealth. as mary herself had said, "some people must be bound together;" and their destiny, that of himself and his niece, seemed to have so bound them. she had found her place at greshamsbury, her place in the world; and it would be better for her now to keep it, than to go forth and seek another that would be richer, but at the same time less suited to her. "no, scatcherd," he said at last, "she cannot come here; she would not be happy here, and, to tell the truth, i do not wish her to know that she has other relatives." "ah! she would be ashamed of her mother, you mean, and of her mother's brother too, eh? she's too fine a lady, i suppose, to take me by the hand and give me a kiss, and call me her uncle? i and lady scatcherd would not be grand enough for her, eh?" "you may say what you please, scatcherd: i of course cannot stop you." "but i don't know how you'll reconcile what you are doing to your conscience. what right can you have to throw away the girl's chance, now that she has a chance? what fortune can you give her?" "i have done what little i could," said thorne, proudly. "well, well, well, well, i never heard such a thing in my life; never. mary's child, my own mary's child, and i'm not to see her! but, thorne, i tell you what; i will see her. i'll go over to her, i'll go to greshamsbury, and tell her who i am, and what i can do for her. i tell you fairly i will. you shall not keep her away from those who belong to her, and can do her a good turn. mary's daughter; another mary scatcherd! i almost wish she were called mary scatcherd. is she like her, thorne? come, tell me that, is she like her mother." "i do not remember her mother; at least not in health." "not remember her! ah, well. she was the handsomest girl in barchester, anyhow. that was given up to her. well, i didn't think to be talking of her again. thorne, you cannot but expect that i shall go over and see mary's child?" "now, scatcherd, look here," and the doctor, coming away from the window, where he had been standing, sat himself down by the bedside, "you must not come over to greshamsbury." "oh! but i shall." "listen to me, scatcherd. i do not want to praise myself in any way; but when that girl was an infant, six months old, she was like to be a thorough obstacle to her mother's fortune in life. tomlinson was willing to marry your sister, but he would not marry the child too. then i took the baby, and i promised her mother that i would be to her as a father. i have kept my word as fairly as i have been able. she has sat at my hearth, and drunk of my cup, and been to me as my own child. after that, i have a right to judge what is best for her. her life is not like your life, and her ways are not as your ways--" "ah, that is just it; we are too vulgar for her." "you may take it as you will," said the doctor, who was too much in earnest to be in the least afraid of offending his companion. "i have not said so; but i do say that you and she are unlike in your way of living." "she wouldn't like an uncle with a brandy bottle under his head, eh?" "you could not see her without letting her know what is the connexion between you; of that i wish to keep her in ignorance." "i never knew any one yet who was ashamed of a rich connexion. how do you mean to get a husband for her, eh?" "i have told you of her existence," continued the doctor, not appearing to notice what the baronet had last said, "because i found it necessary that you should know the fact of your sister having left this child behind her; you would otherwise have made a will different from that intended, and there might have been a lawsuit, and mischief and misery when we are gone. you must perceive that i have done this in honesty to you; and you yourself are too honest to repay me by taking advantage of this knowledge to make me unhappy." "oh, very well, doctor. at any rate, you are a brick, i will say that. but i'll think of all this, i'll think of it; but it does startle me to find that poor mary has a child living so near to me." "and now, scatcherd, i will say good-bye. we part as friends, don't we?" "oh, but doctor, you ain't going to leave me so. what am i to do? what doses shall i take? how much brandy may i drink? may i have a grill for dinner? d---- me, doctor, you have turned fillgrave out of the house. you mustn't go and desert me." dr thorne laughed, and then, sitting himself down to write medically, gave such prescriptions and ordinances as he found to be necessary. they amounted but to this: that the man was to drink, if possible, no brandy; and if that were not possible, then as little as might be. this having been done, the doctor again proceeded to take his leave; but when he got to the door he was called back. "thorne! thorne! about that money for mr gresham; do what you like, do just what you like. ten thousand, is it? well, he shall have it. i'll make winterbones write about it at once. five per cent., isn't it? no, four and a half. well, he shall have ten thousand more." "thank you, scatcherd, thank you, i am really very much obliged to you, i am indeed. i wouldn't ask it if i was not sure your money is safe. good-bye, old fellow, and get rid of that bedfellow of yours," and again he was at the door. "thorne," said sir roger once more. "thorne, just come back for a minute. you wouldn't let me send a present would you,--fifty pounds or so,--just to buy a few flounces?" the doctor contrived to escape without giving a definite answer to this question; and then, having paid his compliments to lady scatcherd, remounted his cob and rode back to greshamsbury. chapter xiv sentence of exile dr thorne did not at once go home to his own house. when he reached the greshamsbury gates, he sent his horse to its own stable by one of the people at the lodge, and then walked on to the mansion. he had to see the squire on the subject of the forthcoming loan, and he had also to see lady arabella. the lady arabella, though she was not personally attached to the doctor with quite so much warmth as some others of her family, still had reasons of her own for not dispensing with his visits to the house. she was one of his patients, and a patient fearful of the disease with which she was threatened. though she thought the doctor to be arrogant, deficient as to properly submissive demeanour towards herself, an instigator to marital parsimony in her lord, one altogether opposed to herself and her interest in greshamsbury politics, nevertheless, she did feel trust in him as a medical man. she had no wish to be rescued out of his hands by any dr fillgrave, as regarded that complaint of hers, much as she may have desired, and did desire, to sever him from all greshamsbury councils in all matters not touching the healing art. now the complaint of which the lady arabella was afraid, was cancer: and her only present confidant in this matter was dr thorne. the first of the greshamsbury circle whom he saw was beatrice, and he met her in the garden. "oh, doctor," said she, "where has mary been this age? she has not been up here since frank's birthday." "well, that was only three days ago. why don't you go down and ferret her out in the village?" "so i have done. i was there just now, and found her out. she was out with patience oriel. patience is all and all with her now. patience is all very well, but if they throw me over--" "my dear miss gresham, patience is and always was a virtue." "a poor, beggarly, sneaking virtue after all, doctor. they should have come up, seeing how deserted i am here. there's absolutely nobody left." "has lady de courcy gone?" "oh, yes! all the de courcys have gone. i think, between ourselves, mary stays away because she does not love them too well. they have all gone, and taken augusta and frank with them." "has frank gone to courcy castle?" "oh, yes; did you not hear? there was rather a fight about it. master frank wanted to get off, and was as hard to catch as an eel, and then the countess was offended; and papa said he didn't see why frank was to go if he didn't like it. papa is very anxious about his degree, you know." the doctor understood it all as well as though it had been described to him at full length. the countess had claimed her prey, in order that she might carry him off to miss dunstable's golden embrace. the prey, not yet old enough and wise enough to connect the worship of plutus with that of venus, had made sundry futile feints and dodges in the vain hope of escape. then the anxious mother had enforced the de courcy behests with all a mother's authority. but the father, whose ideas on the subject of miss dunstable's wealth had probably not been consulted, had, as a matter of course, taken exactly the other side of the question. the doctor did not require to be told all this in order to know how the battle had raged. he had not yet heard of the great dunstable scheme; but he was sufficiently acquainted with greshamsbury tactics to understand that the war had been carried on somewhat after this fashion. as a rule, when the squire took a point warmly to heart, he was wont to carry his way against the de courcy interest. he could be obstinate enough when it so pleased him, and had before now gone so far as to tell his wife, that her thrice-noble sister-in-law might remain at home at courcy castle--or, at any rate, not come to greshamsbury--if she could not do so without striving to rule him and every one else when she got here. this had of course been repeated to the countess, who had merely replied to it by a sisterly whisper, in which she sorrowfully intimated that some men were born brutes, and always would remain so. "i think they all are," the lady arabella had replied; wishing, perhaps, to remind her sister-in-law that the breed of brutes was as rampant in west barsetshire as in the eastern division of the county. the squire, however, had not fought on this occasion with all his vigour. there had, of course, been some passages between him and his son, and it had been agreed that frank should go for a fortnight to courcy castle. "we mustn't quarrel with them, you know, if we can help it," said the father; "and, therefore, you must go sooner or later." "well, i suppose so; but you don't know how dull it is, governor." "don't i!" said gresham. "there's a miss dunstable to be there; did you ever hear of her, sir?" "no, never." "she's a girl whose father used to make ointment, or something of that sort." "oh, yes, to be sure; the ointment of lebanon. he used to cover all the walls in london. i haven't heard of him this year past." "no; that's because he's dead. well, she carries on the ointment now, i believe; at any rate, she has got all the money. i wonder what she's like." "you'd better go and see," said the father, who now began to have some inkling of an idea why the two ladies were so anxious to carry his son off to courcy castle at this exact time. and so frank had packed up his best clothes, given a last fond look at the new black horse, repeated his last special injunctions to peter, and had then made one of the stately _cortège_ which proceeded through the county from greshamsbury to courcy castle. "i am very glad of that, very," said the squire, when he heard that the money was to be forthcoming. "i shall get it on easier terms from him than elsewhere; and it kills me to have continual bother about such things." and mr gresham, feeling that that difficulty was tided over for a time, and that the immediate pressure of little debts would be abated, stretched himself on his easy chair as though he were quite comfortable;--one may say almost elated. how frequent it is that men on their road to ruin feel elation such as this! a man signs away a moiety of his substance; nay, that were nothing; but a moiety of the substance of his children; he puts his pen to the paper that ruins him and them; but in doing so he frees himself from a score of immediate little pestering, stinging troubles: and, therefore, feels as though fortune has been almost kind to him. the doctor felt angry with himself for what he had done when he saw how easily the squire adapted himself to this new loan. "it will make scatcherd's claim upon you very heavy," said he. mr gresham at once read all that was passing through the doctor's mind. "well, what else can i do?" said he. "you wouldn't have me allow my daughter to lose this match for the sake of a few thousand pounds? it will be well at any rate to have one of them settled. look at that letter from moffat." the doctor took the letter and read it. it was a long, wordy, ill-written rigmarole, in which that amorous gentleman spoke with much rapture of his love and devotion for miss gresham; but at the same time declared, and most positively swore, that the adverse cruelty of his circumstances was such, that it would not allow him to stand up like a man at the hymeneal altar until six thousand pounds hard cash had been paid down at his banker's. "it may be all right," said the squire; "but in my time gentlemen were not used to write such letters as that to each other." the doctor shrugged his shoulders. he did not know how far he would be justified in saying much, even to his friend the squire, in dispraise of his future son-in-law. "i told him that he should have the money; and one would have thought that that would have been enough for him. well: i suppose augusta likes him. i suppose she wishes the match; otherwise, i would give him such an answer to that letter as would startle him a little." "what settlement is he to make?" said thorne. "oh, that's satisfactory enough; couldn't be more so; a thousand a year and the house at wimbledon for her; that's all very well. but such a lie, you know, thorne. he's rolling in money, and yet he talks of this beggarly sum as though he couldn't possibly stir without it." "if i might venture to speak my mind," said thorne. "well?" said the squire, looking at him earnestly. "i should be inclined to say that mr moffat wants to cry off, himself." "oh, impossible; quite impossible. in the first place, he was so very anxious for the match. in the next place, it is such a great thing for him. and then, he would never dare; you see, he is dependent on the de courcys for his seat." "but suppose he loses his seat?" "but there is not much fear of that, i think. scatcherd may be a very fine fellow, but i think they'll hardly return him at barchester." "i don't understand much about it," said thorne; "but such things do happen." "and you believe that this man absolutely wants to get off the match; absolutely thinks of playing such a trick as that on my daughter;--on me?" "i don't say he intends to do it; but it looks to me as though he were making a door for himself, or trying to make a door: if so, your having the money will stop him there." "but, thorne, don't you think he loves the girl? if i thought not--" the doctor stood silent for a moment, and then he said, "i am not a love-making man myself, but i think that if i were much in love with a young lady i should not write such a letter as that to her father." "by heavens! if i thought so," said the squire--"but, thorne, we can't judge of those fellows as one does of gentlemen; they are so used to making money, and seeing money made, that they have an eye to business in everything." "perhaps so, perhaps so," muttered the doctor, showing evidently that he still doubted the warmth of mr moffat's affection. "the match was none of my making, and i cannot interfere now to break it off: it will give her a good position in the world; for, after all, money goes a great way, and it is something to be in parliament. i can only hope she likes him. i do truly hope she likes him;" and the squire also showed by the tone of his voice that, though he might hope that his daughter was in love with her intended husband, he hardly conceived it to be possible that she should be so. and what was the truth of the matter? miss gresham was no more in love with mr moffat than you are--oh, sweet, young, blooming beauty! not a whit more; not, at least, in your sense of the word, nor in mine. she had by no means resolved within her heart that of all the men whom she had ever seen, or ever could see, he was far away the nicest and best. that is what you will do when you are in love, if you be good for anything. she had no longing to sit near to him--the nearer the better; she had no thought of his taste and his choice when she bought her ribbons and bonnets; she had no indescribable desire that all her female friends should be ever talking to her about him. when she wrote to him, she did not copy her letters again and again, so that she might be, as it were, ever speaking to him; she took no special pride in herself because he had chosen her to be his life's partner. in point of fact, she did not care one straw about him. and yet she thought she loved him; was, indeed, quite confident that she did so; told her mother that she was sure gustavus would wish this, she knew gustavus would like that, and so on; but as for gustavus himself, she did not care a chip for him. she was in love with her match just as farmers are in love with wheat at eighty shillings a quarter; or shareholders--innocent gudgeons--with seven and half per cent. interest on their paid-up capital. eighty shillings a quarter, and seven and half per cent. interest, such were the returns which she had been taught to look for in exchange for her young heart; and, having obtained them, or being thus about to obtain them, why should not her young heart be satisfied? had she not sat herself down obediently at the feet of her lady gamaliel, and should she not be rewarded? yes, indeed, she shall be rewarded. and then the doctor went to the lady. on their medical secrets we will not intrude; but there were other matters bearing on the course of our narrative, as to which lady arabella found it necessary to say a word or so to the doctor; and it is essential that we should know what was the tenor of those few words so spoken. how the aspirations, and instincts, and feelings of a household become changed as the young birds begin to flutter with feathered wings, and have half-formed thoughts of leaving the parental nest! a few months back, frank had reigned almost autocratic over the lesser subjects of the kingdom of greshamsbury. the servants, for instance, always obeyed him, and his sisters never dreamed of telling anything which he directed should not be told. all his mischief, all his troubles, and all his loves were confided to them, with the sure conviction that they would never be made to stand in evidence against him. trusting to this well-ascertained state of things, he had not hesitated to declare his love for miss thorne before his sister augusta. but his sister augusta had now, as it were, been received into the upper house; having duly received, and duly profited by the lessons of her great instructress, she was now admitted to sit in conclave with the higher powers: her sympathies, of course, became changed, and her confidence was removed from the young and giddy and given to the ancient and discreet. she was as a schoolboy, who, having finished his schooling, and being fairly forced by necessity into the stern bread-earning world, undertakes the new duties of tutoring. yesterday he was taught, and fought, of course, against the schoolmaster; to-day he teaches, and fights as keenly for him. so it was with augusta gresham, when, with careful brow, she whispered to her mother that there was something wrong between frank and mary thorne. "stop it at once, arabella: stop it at once," the countess had said; "that, indeed, will be ruin. if he does not marry money, he is lost. good heavens! the doctor's niece! a girl that nobody knows where she comes from!" "he's going with you to-morrow, you know," said the anxious mother. "yes; and that is so far well: if he will be led by me, the evil may be remedied before he returns; but it is very, very hard to lead young men. arabella, you must forbid that girl to come to greshamsbury again on any pretext whatever. the evil must be stopped at once." "but she is here so much as a matter of course." "then she must be here as a matter of course no more: there has been folly, very great folly, in having her here. of course she would turn out to be a designing creature with such temptation before her; with such a prize within her reach, how could she help it?" "i must say, aunt, she answered him very properly," said augusta. "nonsense," said the countess; "before you, of course she did. arabella, the matter must not be left to the girl's propriety. i never knew the propriety of a girl of that sort to be fit to be depended upon yet. if you wish to save the whole family from ruin, you must take steps to keep her away from greshamsbury now at once. now is the time; now that frank is to be away. where so much, so very much depends on a young man's marrying money, not one day ought to be lost." instigated in this manner, lady arabella resolved to open her mind to the doctor, and to make it intelligible to him that, under present circumstances, mary's visits at greshamsbury had better be discontinued. she would have given much, however, to have escaped this business. she had in her time tried one or two falls with the doctor, and she was conscious that she had never yet got the better of him: and then she was in a slight degree afraid of mary herself. she had a presentiment that it would not be so easy to banish mary from greshamsbury: she was not sure that that young lady would not boldly assert her right to her place in the school-room; appeal loudly to the squire, and perhaps, declare her determination of marrying the heir, out before them all. the squire would be sure to uphold her in that, or in anything else. and then, too, there would be the greatest difficulty in wording her request to the doctor; and lady arabella was sufficiently conscious of her own weakness to know that she was not always very good at words. but the doctor, when hard pressed, was never at fault: he could say the bitterest things in the quietest tone, and lady arabella had a great dread of these bitter things. what, also, if he should desert her himself; withdraw from her his skill and knowledge of her bodily wants and ailments now that he was so necessary to her? she had once before taken that measure of sending to barchester for dr fillgrave, but it had answered with her hardly better than with sir roger and lady scatcherd. when, therefore, lady arabella found herself alone with the doctor, and called upon to say out her say in what best language she could select for the occasion, she did not feel to be very much at her ease. there was that about the man before her which cowed her, in spite of her being the wife of the squire, the sister of an earl, a person quite acknowledged to be of the great world, and the mother of the very important young man whose affections were now about to be called in question. nevertheless, there was the task to be done, and with a mother's courage she essayed it. "dr thorne," said she, as soon as their medical conference was at an end, "i am very glad you came over to-day, for i had something special which i wanted to say to you:" so far she got, and then stopped; but, as the doctor did not seem inclined to give her any assistance, she was forced to flounder on as best she could. "something very particular indeed. you know what a respect and esteem, and i may say affection, we all have for you,"--here the doctor made a low bow--"and i may say for mary also;" here the doctor bowed himself again. "we have done what little we could to be pleasant neighbours, and i think you'll believe me when i say that i am a true friend to you and dear mary--" the doctor knew that something very unpleasant was coming, but he could not at all guess what might be its nature. he felt, however, that he must say something; so he expressed a hope that he was duly sensible of all the acts of kindness he had ever received from the squire and the family at large. "i hope, therefore, my dear doctor, you won't take amiss what i am going to say." "well, lady arabella, i'll endeavour not to do so." "i am sure i would not give any pain if i could help it, much less to you. but there are occasions, doctor, in which duty must be paramount; paramount to all other considerations, you know, and, certainly, this occasion is one of them." "but what is the occasion, lady arabella?" "i'll tell you, doctor. you know what frank's position is?" "frank's position! as regards what?" "why, his position in life; an only son, you know." "oh, yes; i know his position in that respect; an only son, and his father's heir; and a very fine fellow, he is. you have but one son, lady arabella, and you may well be proud of him." lady arabella sighed. she did not wish at the present moment to express herself as being in any way proud of frank. she was desirous rather, on the other hand, of showing that she was a good deal ashamed of him; only not quite so much ashamed of him as it behoved the doctor to be of his niece. "well, perhaps so; yes," said lady arabella, "he is, i believe, a very good young man, with an excellent disposition; but, doctor, his position is very precarious; and he is just at that time of life when every caution is necessary." to the doctor's ears, lady arabella was now talking of her son as a mother might of her infant when whooping-cough was abroad or croup imminent. "there is nothing on earth the matter with him, i should say," said the doctor. "he has every possible sign of perfect health." "oh yes; his health! yes, thank god, his health is good; that is a great blessing." and lady arabella thought of her four flowerets that had already faded. "i am sure i am most thankful to see him growing up so strong. but it is not that i mean, doctor." "then what is it, lady arabella?" "why, doctor, you know the squire's position with regard to money matters?" now the doctor undoubtedly did know the squire's position with regard to money matters,--knew it much better than did lady arabella; but he was by no means inclined to talk on that subject to her ladyship. he remained quite silent, therefore, although lady arabella's last speech had taken the form of a question. lady arabella was a little offended at this want of freedom on his part, and become somewhat sterner in her tone--a thought less condescending in her manner. "the squire has unfortunately embarrassed the property, and frank must look forward to inherit it with very heavy encumbrances; i fear very heavy indeed, though of what exact nature i am kept in ignorance." looking at the doctor's face, she perceived that there was no probability whatever that her ignorance would be enlightened by him. "and, therefore, it is highly necessary that frank should be very careful." "as to his private expenditure, you mean?" said the doctor. "no; not exactly that: though of course he must be careful as to that, too; that's of course. but that is not what i mean, doctor; his only hope of retrieving his circumstances is by marrying money." "with every other conjugal blessing that a man can have, i hope he may have that also." so the doctor replied with imperturbable face; but not the less did he begin to have a shade of suspicion of what might be the coming subject of the conference. it would be untrue to say that he had ever thought it probable that the young heir should fall in love with his niece; that he had ever looked forward to such a chance, either with complacency or with fear; nevertheless, the idea had of late passed through his mind. some word had fallen from mary, some closely watched expression of her eye, or some quiver in her lip when frank's name was mentioned, had of late made him involuntarily think that such might not be impossible; and then, when the chance of mary becoming the heiress to so large a fortune had been forced upon his consideration, he had been unable to prevent himself from building happy castles in the air, as he rode slowly home from boxall hill. but not a whit the more on that account was he prepared to be untrue to the squire's interest or to encourage a feeling which must be distasteful to all the squire's friends. "yes, doctor; he must marry money." "and worth, lady arabella; and a pure feminine heart; and youth and beauty. i hope he will marry them all." could it be possible, that in speaking of a pure feminine heart, and youth and beauty, and such like gewgaws, the doctor was thinking of his niece? could it be that he had absolutely made up his mind to foster and encourage this odious match? the bare idea made lady arabella wrathful, and her wrath gave her courage. "he must marry money, or he will be a ruined man. now, doctor, i am informed that things--words that is--have passed between him and mary which never ought to have been allowed." and now also the doctor was wrathful. "what things? what words?" said he, appearing to lady arabella as though he rose in his anger nearly a foot in altitude before her eyes. "what has passed between them? and who says so?" "doctor, there have been love-makings, you may take my word for it; love-makings of a very, very, very advanced description." this, the doctor could not stand. no, not for greshamsbury and its heir; not for the squire and all his misfortunes; not for lady arabella and the blood of all the de courcys could he stand quiet and hear mary thus accused. he sprang up another foot in height, and expanded equally in width as he flung back the insinuation. "who says so? whoever says so, whoever speaks of miss thorne in such language, says what is not true. i will pledge my word--" "my dear doctor, my dear doctor, what took place was quite clearly heard; there was no mistake about it, indeed." "what took place? what was heard?" "well, then, i don't want, you know, to make more of it than can be helped. the thing must be stopped, that is all." "what thing? speak out, lady arabella. i will not have mary's conduct impugned by innuendoes. what is it that eavesdroppers have heard?" "dr thorne, there have been no eavesdroppers." "and no talebearers either? will your ladyship oblige me by letting me know what is the accusation which you bring against my niece?" "there has been most positively an offer made, dr thorne." "and who made it?" "oh, of course i am not going to say but what frank must have been very imprudent. of course he has been to blame. there has been fault on both sides, no doubt." "i utterly deny it. i positively deny it. i know nothing of the circumstances; have heard nothing about it--" "then of course you can't say," said lady arabella. "i know nothing of the circumstance; have heard nothing about it," continued dr thorne; "but i do know my niece, and am ready to assert that there has not been fault on both sides. whether there has been any fault on any side, that i do not yet know." "i can assure you, dr thorne, that an offer was made by frank; such an offer cannot be without its allurements to a young lady circumstanced like your niece." "allurements!" almost shouted the doctor, and, as he did so, lady arabella stepped back a pace or two, retreating from the fire which shot out of his eyes. "but the truth is, lady arabella, you do not know my niece. if you will have the goodness to let me understand what it is that you desire i will tell you whether i can comply with your wishes." "of course it will be very inexpedient that the young people should be thrown together again;--for the present, i mean." "well!" "frank has now gone to courcy castle; and he talks of going from thence to cambridge. but he will doubtless be here, backwards and forwards; and perhaps it will be better for all parties--safer, that is, doctor--if miss thorne were to discontinue her visits to greshamsbury for a while." "very well!" thundered out the doctor. "her visits to greshamsbury shall be discontinued." "of course, doctor, this won't change the intercourse between us; between you and the family." "not change it!" said he. "do you think that i will break bread in a house from whence she has been ignominiously banished? do you think that i can sit down in friendship with those who have spoken of her as you have now spoken? you have many daughters; what would you say if i accused one of them as you have accused her?" "accused, doctor! no, i don't accuse her. but prudence, you know, does sometimes require us--" "very well; prudence requires you to look after those who belong to you; and prudence requires me to look after my one lamb. good morning, lady arabella." "but, doctor, you are not going to quarrel with us? you will come when we want you; eh! won't you?" quarrel! quarrel with greshamsbury! angry as he was, the doctor felt that he could ill bear to quarrel with greshamsbury. a man past fifty cannot easily throw over the ties that have taken twenty years to form, and wrench himself away from the various close ligatures with which, in such a period, he has become bound. he could not quarrel with the squire; he could ill bear to quarrel with frank; though he now began to conceive that frank had used him badly, he could not do so; he could not quarrel with the children, who had almost been born into his arms; nor even with the very walls, and trees, and grassy knolls with which he was so dearly intimate. he could not proclaim himself an enemy to greshamsbury; and yet he felt that fealty to mary required of him that, for the present, he should put on an enemy's guise. "if you want me, lady arabella, and send for me, i will come to you; otherwise i will, if you please, share the sentence which has been passed on mary. i will now wish you good morning." and then bowing low to her, he left the room and the house, and sauntered slowly away to his own home. what was he to say to mary? he walked very slowly down the greshamsbury avenue, with his hands clasped behind his back, thinking over the whole matter; thinking of it, or rather trying to think of it. when a man's heart is warmly concerned in any matter, it is almost useless for him to endeavour to think of it. instead of thinking, he gives play to his feelings, and feeds his passion by indulging it. "allurements!" he said to himself, repeating lady arabella's words. "a girl circumstanced like my niece! how utterly incapable is such a woman as that to understand the mind, and heart, and soul of such a one as mary thorne!" and then his thoughts recurred to frank. "it has been ill done of him; ill done of him: young as he is, he should have had feeling enough to have spared me this. a thoughtless word has been spoken which will now make her miserable!" and then, as he walked on, he could not divest his mind of the remembrance of what had passed between him and sir roger. what, if after all, mary should become the heiress to all that money? what, if she should become, in fact, the owner of greshamsbury? for, indeed it seemed too possible that sir roger's heir would be the owner of greshamsbury. the idea was one which he disliked to entertain, but it would recur to him again and again. it might be, that a marriage between his niece and the nominal heir to the estate might be of all the matches the best for young gresham to make. how sweet would be the revenge, how glorious the retaliation on lady arabella, if, after what had now been said, it should come to pass that all the difficulties of greshamsbury should be made smooth by mary's love, and mary's hand! it was a dangerous subject on which to ponder; and, as he sauntered down the road, the doctor did his best to banish it from his mind,--not altogether successfully. but as he went he again encountered beatrice. "tell mary i went to her to-day," said she, "and that i expect her up here to-morrow. if she does not come, i shall be savage." "do not be savage," said he, putting out his hand, "even though she should not come." beatrice immediately saw that his manner with her was not playful, and that his face was serious. "i was only in joke," said she; "of course i was only joking. but is anything the matter? is mary ill?" "oh, no; not ill at all; but she will not be here to-morrow, nor probably for some time. but, miss gresham, you must not be savage with her." beatrice tried to interrogate him, but he would not wait to answer her questions. while she was speaking he bowed to her in his usual old-fashioned courteous way, and passed on out of hearing. "she will not come up for some time," said beatrice to herself. "then mamma must have quarrelled with her." and at once in her heart she acquitted her friend of all blame in the matter, whatever it might be, and condemned her mother unheard. the doctor, when he arrived at his own house, had in nowise made up his mind as to the manner in which he would break the matter to mary; but by the time that he had reached the drawing-room, he had made up his mind to this, that he would put off the evil hour till the morrow. he would sleep on the matter--lie awake on it, more probably--and then at breakfast, as best he could, tell her what had been said of her. mary that evening was more than usually inclined to be playful. she had not been quite certain till the morning, whether frank had absolutely left greshamsbury, and had, therefore, preferred the company of miss oriel to going up to the house. there was a peculiar cheerfulness about her friend patience, a feeling of satisfaction with the world and those in it, which mary always shared with her; and now she had brought home to the doctor's fireside, in spite of her young troubles, a smiling face, if not a heart altogether happy. "uncle," she said at last, "what makes you so sombre? shall i read to you?" "no; not to-night, dearest." "why, uncle; what is the matter?" "nothing, nothing." "ah, but it is something, and you shall tell me;" getting up, she came over to his arm-chair, and leant over his shoulder. he looked at her for a minute in silence, and then, getting up from his chair, passed his arm round her waist, and pressed her closely to his heart. "my darling!" he said, almost convulsively. "my best own, truest darling!" and mary, looking up into his face, saw that big tears were running down his cheeks. but still he told her nothing that night. chapter xv courcy when frank gresham expressed to his father an opinion that courcy castle was dull, the squire, as may be remembered, did not pretend to differ from him. to men such as the squire, and such as the squire's son, courcy castle was dull. to what class of men it would not be dull the author is not prepared to say; but it may be presumed that the de courcys found it to their liking, or they would have made it other than it was. the castle itself was a huge brick pile, built in the days of william iii, which, though they were grand for days of the construction of the constitution, were not very grand for architecture of a more material description. it had, no doubt, a perfect right to be called a castle, as it was entered by a castle-gate which led into a court, the porter's lodge for which was built as it were into the wall; there were attached to it also two round, stumpy adjuncts, which were, perhaps properly, called towers, though they did not do much in the way of towering; and, moreover, along one side of the house, over what would otherwise have been the cornice, there ran a castellated parapet, through the assistance of which, the imagination no doubt was intended to supply the muzzles of defiant artillery. but any artillery which would have so presented its muzzle must have been very small, and it may be doubted whether even a bowman could have obtained shelter there. the grounds about the castle were not very inviting, nor, as grounds, very extensive; though, no doubt, the entire domain was such as suited the importance of so puissant a nobleman as earl de courcy. what, indeed, should have been the park was divided out into various large paddocks. the surface was flat and unbroken; and though there were magnificent elm-trees standing in straight lines, like hedgerows, the timber had not that beautiful, wild, scattered look which generally gives the great charm to english scenery. the town of courcy--for the place claimed to rank as a town--was in many particulars like the castle. it was built of dingy-red brick--almost more brown than red--and was solid, dull-looking, ugly and comfortable. it consisted of four streets, which were formed by two roads crossing each other, making at the point of junction a centre for the town. here stood the red lion; had it been called the brown lion, the nomenclature would have been more strictly correct; and here, in the old days of coaching, some life had been wont to stir itself at those hours in the day and night when the freetraders, tallyhoes, and royal mails changed their horses. but now there was a railway station a mile and a half distant, and the moving life of the town of courcy was confined to the red lion omnibus, which seemed to pass its entire time in going up and down between the town and the station, quite unembarrassed by any great weight of passengers. there were, so said the courcyites when away from courcy, excellent shops in the place; but they were not the less accustomed, when at home among themselves, to complain to each other of the vile extortion with which they were treated by their neighbours. the ironmonger, therefore, though he loudly asserted that he could beat bristol in the quality of his wares in one direction, and undersell gloucester in another, bought his tea and sugar on the sly in one of those larger towns; and the grocer, on the other hand, equally distrusted the pots and pans of home production. trade, therefore, at courcy, had not thriven since the railway had opened: and, indeed, had any patient inquirer stood at the cross through one entire day, counting customers who entered the neighbouring shops, he might well have wondered that any shops in courcy could be kept open. and how changed has been the bustle of that once noisy inn to the present death-like silence of its green courtyard! there, a lame ostler crawls about with his hands thrust into the capacious pockets of his jacket, feeding on memory. that weary pair of omnibus jades, and three sorry posters, are all that now grace those stables where horses used to be stalled in close contiguity by the dozen; where twenty grains apiece, abstracted from every feed of oats consumed during the day, would have afforded a daily quart to the lucky pilferer. come, my friend, and discourse with me. let us know what are thy ideas of the inestimable benefits which science has conferred on us in these, our latter days. how dost thou, among others, appreciate railways and the power of steam, telegraphs, telegrams, and our new expresses? but indifferently, you say. "time was i've zeed vifteen pair o' 'osses go out of this 'ere yard in vour-and-twenty hour; and now there be'ant vifteen, no, not ten, in vour-and-twenty days! there was the duik--not this 'un; he be'ant no gude; but this 'un's vather--why, when he'd come down the road, the cattle did be a-going, vour days an eend. here'd be the tooter and the young gen'lmen, and the governess and the young leddies, and then the servants--they'd be al'ays the grandest folk of all--and then the duik and the doochess--lord love 'ee, zur; the money did fly in them days! but now--" and the feeling of scorn and contempt which the lame ostler was enabled by his native talent to throw into the word "now," was quite as eloquent against the power of steam as anything that has been spoken at dinners, or written in pamphlets by the keenest admirers of latter-day lights. "why, luke at this 'ere town," continued he of the sieve, "the grass be a-growing in the very streets;--that can't be no gude. why, luke 'ee here, zur; i do be a-standing at this 'ere gateway, just this way, hour arter hour, and my heyes is hopen mostly;--i zees who's a-coming and who's a-going. nobody's a-coming and nobody's a-going; that can't be no gude. luke at that there homnibus; why, darn me--" and now, in his eloquence at this peculiar point, my friend became more loud and powerful than ever--"why, darn me, if maister harns enough with that there bus to put hiron on them 'osses' feet, i'll--be--blowed!" and as he uttered this hypothetical denunciation on himself he spoke very slowly, bringing out every word as it were separately, and lowering himself at his knees at every sound, moving at the same time his right hand up and down. when he had finished, he fixed his eyes upon the ground, pointing downwards, as if there was to be the site of his doom if the curse that he had called down upon himself should ever come to pass; and then, waiting no further converse, he hobbled away, melancholy, to his deserted stables. oh, my friend! my poor lame friend! it will avail nothing to tell thee of liverpool and manchester; of the glories of glasgow, with her flourishing banks; of london, with its third millions of inhabitants; of the great things which commerce is doing for this nation of thine! what is commerce to thee, unless it be commerce in posting on that worn-out, all but useless great western turnpike-road? there is nothing left for thee but to be carted away as rubbish--for thee and for many of us in these now prosperous days; oh, my melancholy, care-ridden friend! courcy castle was certainly a dull place to look at, and frank, in his former visits, had found that the appearance did not belie the reality. he had been but little there when the earl had been at courcy; and as he had always felt from his childhood a peculiar distaste to the governance of his aunt the countess, this perhaps may have added to his feeling of dislike. now, however, the castle was to be fuller than he had ever before known it; the earl was to be at home; there was some talk of the duke of omnium coming for a day or two, though that seemed doubtful; there was some faint doubt of lord porlock; mr moffat, intent on the coming election--and also, let us hope, on his coming bliss--was to be one of the guests; and there was also to be the great miss dunstable. frank, however, found that those grandees were not expected quite immediately. "i might go back to greshamsbury for three or four days as she is not to be here," he said naïvely to his aunt, expressing, with tolerable perspicuity, his feeling, that he regarded his visit to courcy castle quite as a matter of business. but the countess would hear of no such arrangement. now that she had got him, she was not going to let him fall back into the perils of miss thorne's intrigues, or even of miss thorne's propriety. "it is quite essential," she said, "that you should be here a few days before her, so that she may see that you are at home." frank did not understand the reasoning; but he felt himself unable to rebel, and he therefore, remained there, comforting himself, as best he might, with the eloquence of the honourable george, and the sporting humours of the honourable john. mr moffat's was the earliest arrival of any importance. frank had not hitherto made the acquaintance of his future brother-in-law, and there was, therefore, some little interest in the first interview. mr moffat was shown into the drawing-room before the ladies had gone up to dress, and it so happened that frank was there also. as no one else was in the room but his sister and two of his cousins, he had expected to see the lovers rush into each other's arms. but mr moffat restrained his ardour, and miss gresham seemed contented that he should do so. he was a nice, dapper man, rather above the middle height, and good-looking enough had he had a little more expression in his face. he had dark hair, very nicely brushed, small black whiskers, and a small black moustache. his boots were excellently well made, and his hands were very white. he simpered gently as he took hold of augusta's fingers, and expressed a hope that she had been quite well since last he had the pleasure of seeing her. then he touched the hands of the lady rosina and the lady margaretta. "mr moffat, allow me to introduce you to my brother?" "most happy, i'm sure," said mr moffat, again putting out his hand, and allowing it to slip through frank's grasp, as he spoke in a pretty, mincing voice: "lady arabella quite well?--and your father, and sisters? very warm isn't it?--quite hot in town, i do assure you." "i hope augusta likes him," said frank to himself, arguing on the subject exactly as his father had done; "but for an engaged lover he seems to me to have a very queer way with him." frank, poor fellow! who was of a coarser mould, would, under such circumstances, have been all for kissing--sometimes, indeed, even under other circumstances. mr moffat did not do much towards improving the conviviality of the castle. he was, of course, a good deal intent upon his coming election, and spent much of his time with mr nearthewinde, the celebrated parliamentary agent. it behoved him to be a good deal at barchester, canvassing the electors and undermining, by mr nearthewinde's aid, the mines for blowing him out of his seat, which were daily being contrived by mr closerstil, on behalf of sir roger. the battle was to be fought on the internecine principle, no quarter being given or taken on either side; and of course this gave mr moffat as much as he knew how to do. mr closerstil was well known to be the sharpest man at his business in all england, unless the palm should be given to his great rival mr nearthewinde; and in this instance he was to be assisted in the battle by a very clever young barrister, mr romer, who was an admirer of sir roger's career in life. some people in barchester, when they saw sir roger, closerstil and mr romer saunter down the high street, arm in arm, declared that it was all up with poor moffat; but others, in whose head the bump of veneration was strongly pronounced, whispered to each other that great shibboleth--the name of the duke of omnium--and mildly asserted it to be impossible that the duke's nominee should be thrown out. our poor friend the squire did not take much interest in the matter, except in so far that he liked his son-in-law to be in parliament. both the candidates were in his eye equally wrong in their opinions. he had long since recanted those errors of his early youth, which had cost him his seat for the county, and had abjured the de courcy politics. he was staunch enough as a tory now that his being so would no longer be of the slightest use to him; but the duke of omnium, and lord de courcy, and mr moffat were all whigs; whigs, however, differing altogether in politics from sir roger, who belonged to the manchester school, and whose pretensions, through some of those inscrutable twists in modern politics which are quite unintelligible to the minds of ordinary men outside the circle, were on this occasion secretly favoured by the high conservative party. how mr moffat, who had been brought into the political world by lord de courcy, obtained all the weight of the duke's interest i never could exactly learn. for the duke and the earl did not generally act as twin-brothers on such occasions. there is a great difference in whigs. lord de courcy was a court whig, following the fortunes, and enjoying, when he could get it, the sunshine of the throne. he was a sojourner at windsor, and a visitor at balmoral. he delighted in gold sticks, and was never so happy as when holding some cap of maintenance or spur of precedence with due dignity and acknowledged grace in the presence of all the court. his means had been somewhat embarrassed by early extravagance; and, therefore, as it was to his taste to shine, it suited him to shine at the cost of the court rather than at his own. the duke of omnium was a whig of a very different calibre. he rarely went near the presence of majesty, and when he did do so, he did it merely as a disagreeable duty incident to his position. he was very willing that the queen should be queen so long as he was allowed to be duke of omnium. nor had he begrudged prince albert any of his honours till he was called prince consort. then, indeed, he had, to his own intimate friends, made some remark in three words, not flattering to the discretion of the prime minister. the queen might be queen so long as he was duke of omnium. their revenues were about the same, with the exception, that the duke's were his own, and he could do what he liked with them. this remembrance did not unfrequently present itself to the duke's mind. in person, he was a plain, thin man, tall, but undistinguished in appearance, except that there was a gleam of pride in his eye which seemed every moment to be saying, "i am the duke of omnium." he was unmarried, and, if report said true, a great debauchee; but if so he had always kept his debaucheries decently away from the eyes of the world, and was not, therefore, open to that loud condemnation which should fall like a hailstorm round the ears of some more open sinners. why these two mighty nobles put their heads together in order that the tailor's son should represent barchester in parliament, i cannot explain. mr moffat, was, as has been said, lord de courcy's friend; and it may be that lord de courcy was able to repay the duke for his kindness, as touching barchester, with some little assistance in the county representation. the next arrival was that of the bishop of barchester; a meek, good, worthy man, much attached to his wife, and somewhat addicted to his ease. she, apparently, was made in a different mould, and by her energy and diligence atoned for any want in those qualities which might be observed in the bishop himself. when asked his opinion, his lordship would generally reply by saying--"mrs proudie and i think so and so." but before that opinion was given, mrs proudie would take up the tale, and she, in her more concise manner, was not wont to quote the bishop as having at all assisted in the consideration of the subject. it was well known in barsetshire that no married pair consorted more closely or more tenderly together; and the example of such conjugal affection among persons in the upper classes is worth mentioning, as it is believed by those below them, and too often with truth, that the sweet bliss of connubial reciprocity is not so common as it should be among the magnates of the earth. but the arrival even of the bishop and his wife did not make the place cheerful to frank gresham, and he began to long for miss dunstable, in order that he might have something to do. he could not get on at all with mr moffat. he had expected that the man would at once have called him frank, and that he would have called the man gustavus; but they did not even get beyond mr moffat and mr gresham. "very hot in barchester to-day, very," was the nearest approach to conversation which frank could attain with him; and as far as he, frank, could see, augusta never got much beyond it. there might be _tête-à-tête_ meetings between them, but, if so, frank could not detect when they took place; and so, opening his heart at last to the honourable george, for the want of a better confidant, he expressed his opinion that his future brother-in-law was a muff. "a muff--i believe you too. what do you think now? i have been with him and nearthewinde in barchester these three days past, looking up the electors' wives and daughters, and that kind of thing." "i say, if there is any fun in it you might as well take me with you." "oh, there is not much fun; they are mostly so slobbered and dirty. a sharp fellow in nearthewinde, and knows what he is about well." "does he look up the wives and daughters too?" "oh, he goes on every tack, just as it's wanted. but there was moffat, yesterday, in a room behind the milliner's shop near cuthbert's gate; i was with him. the woman's husband is one of the choristers and an elector, you know, and moffat went to look for his vote. now, there was no one there when we got there but the three young women, the wife, that is, and her two girls--very pretty women they are too." "i say, george, i'll go and get the chorister's vote for moffat; i ought to do it as he's to be my brother-in-law." "but what do you think moffat said to the women?" "can't guess--he didn't kiss any of them, did he?" "kiss any of them? no; but he begged to give them his positive assurance as a gentleman, that if he was returned to parliament he would vote for an extension of the franchise, and the admission of the jews into parliament." "well, he is a muff!" said frank. chapter xvi miss dunstable at last the great miss dunstable came. frank, when he heard that the heiress had arrived, felt some slight palpitation at his heart. he had not the remotest idea in the world of marrying her; indeed, during the last week past, absence had so heightened his love for mary thorne that he was more than ever resolved that he would never marry any one but her. he knew that he had made her a formal offer for her hand, and that it behoved him to keep to it, let the charms of miss dunstable be what they might; but, nevertheless, he was prepared to go through a certain amount of courtship, in obedience to his aunt's behests, and he felt a little nervous at being brought up in that way, face to face, to do battle with two hundred thousand pounds. "miss dunstable has arrived," said his aunt to him, with great complacency, on his return from an electioneering visit to the beauties of barchester which he made with his cousin george on the day after the conversation which was repeated at the end of the last chapter. "she has arrived, and is looking remarkably well; she has quite a _distingué_ air, and will grace any circle to which she may be introduced. i will introduce you before dinner, and you can take her out." "i couldn't propose to her to-night, i suppose?" said frank, maliciously. "don't talk nonsense, frank," said the countess, angrily. "i am doing what i can for you, and taking on an infinity of trouble to endeavour to place you in an independent position; and now you talk nonsense to me." frank muttered some sort of apology, and then went to prepare himself for the encounter. miss dunstable, though she had come by train, had brought with her her own carriage, her own horses, her own coachman and footman, and her own maid, of course. she had also brought with her half a score of trunks, full of wearing apparel; some of them nearly as rich as that wonderful box which was stolen a short time since from the top of a cab. but she brought all these things, not in the least because she wanted them herself, but because she had been instructed to do so. frank was a little more than ordinarily careful in dressing. he spoilt a couple of white neckties before he was satisfied, and was rather fastidious as the set of his hair. there was not much of the dandy about him in the ordinary meaning of the word; but he felt that it was incumbent on him to look his best, seeing what it was expected that he should now do. he certainly did not mean to marry miss dunstable; but as he was to have a flirtation with her, it was well that he should do so under the best possible auspices. when he entered the drawing-room he perceived at once that the lady was there. she was seated between the countess and mrs proudie; and mammon, in her person, was receiving worship from the temporalities and spiritualities of the land. he tried to look unconcerned, and remained in the farther part of the room, talking with some of his cousins; but he could not keep his eye off the future possible mrs frank gresham; and it seemed as though she was as much constrained to scrutinise him as he felt to scrutinise her. lady de courcy had declared that she was looking extremely well, and had particularly alluded to her _distingué_ appearance. frank at once felt that he could not altogether go along with his aunt in this opinion. miss dunstable might be very well; but her style of beauty was one which did not quite meet with his warmest admiration. in age she was about thirty; but frank, who was no great judge in these matters, and who was accustomed to have very young girls round him, at once put her down as being ten years older. she had a very high colour, very red cheeks, a large mouth, big white teeth, a broad nose, and bright, small, black eyes. her hair also was black and bright, but very crisp, and strong, and was combed close round her face in small crisp black ringlets. since she had been brought out into the fashionable world some one of her instructors in fashion had given her to understand that curls were not the thing. "they'll always pass muster," miss dunstable had replied, "when they are done up with bank-notes." it may therefore be presumed that miss dunstable had a will of her own. "frank," said the countess, in the most natural and unpremeditated way, as soon as she caught her nephew's eye, "come here. i want to introduce you to miss dunstable." the introduction was then made. "mrs proudie, would you excuse me? i must positively go and say a few words to mrs barlow, or the poor woman will feel herself huffed;" and, so saying, she moved off, leaving the coast clear for master frank. he of course slipped into his aunt's place, and expressed a hope that miss dunstable was not fatigued by her journey. "fatigued!" said she, in a voice rather loud, but very good-humoured, and not altogether unpleasing; "i am not to be fatigued by such a thing as that. why, in may we came through all the way from rome to paris without sleeping--that is, without sleeping in a bed--and we were upset three times out of the sledges coming over the simplon. it was such fun! why, i wasn't to say tired even then." "all the way from rome to paris!" said mrs proudie--in a tone of astonishment, meant to flatter the heiress--"and what made you in such a hurry?" "something about money matters," said miss dunstable, speaking rather louder than usual. "something to do with the ointment. i was selling the business just then." mrs proudie bowed, and immediately changed the conversation. "idolatry is, i believe, more rampant than ever in rome," said she; "and i fear there is no such thing at all as sabbath observance." "oh, not in the least," said miss dunstable, with rather a joyous air; "sundays and week-days are all the same there." "how very frightful!" said mrs proudie. "but it's a delicious place. i do like rome, i must say. and as for the pope, if he wasn't quite so fat he would be the nicest old fellow in the world. have you been in rome, mrs proudie?" mrs proudie sighed as she replied in the negative, and declared her belief that danger was to be apprehended from such visits. "oh!--ah!--the malaria--of course--yes; if you go at the wrong time; but nobody is such a fool as that now." "i was thinking of the soul, miss dunstable," said the lady-bishop, in her peculiar, grave tone. "a place where there are no sabbath observances--" "and have you been in rome, mr gresham?" said the young lady, turning almost abruptly round to frank, and giving a somewhat uncivilly cold shoulder to mrs proudie's exhortation. she, poor lady, was forced to finish her speech to the honourable george, who was standing near to her. he having an idea that bishops and all their belongings, like other things appertaining to religion, should, if possible, be avoided; but if that were not possible, should be treated with much assumed gravity, immediately put on a long face, and remarked that--"it was a deuced shame: for his part he always liked to see people go quiet on sundays. the parsons had only one day out of seven, and he thought they were fully entitled to that." satisfied with which, or not satisfied, mrs proudie had to remain silent till dinner-time. "no," said frank; "i never was in rome. i was in paris once, and that's all." and then, feeling a not unnatural anxiety as to the present state of miss dunstable's worldly concerns, he took an opportunity of falling back on that part of the conversation which mrs proudie had exercised so much tact in avoiding. "and was it sold?" said he. "sold! what sold?" "you were saying about the business--that you came back without going to bed because of selling the business." "oh!--the ointment. no; it was not sold. after all, the affair did not come off, and i might have remained and had another roll in the snow. wasn't it a pity?" "so," said frank to himself, "if i should do it, i should be owner of the ointment of lebanon: how odd!" and then he gave her his arm and handed her down to dinner. he certainly found that the dinner was less dull than any other he had sat down to at courcy castle. he did not fancy that he should ever fall in love with miss dunstable; but she certainly was an agreeable companion. she told him of her tour, and the fun she had in her journeys; how she took a physician with her for the benefit of her health, whom she generally was forced to nurse; of the trouble it was to her to look after and wait upon her numerous servants; of the tricks she played to bamboozle people who came to stare at her; and, lastly, she told him of a lover who followed her from country to country, and was now in hot pursuit of her, having arrived in london the evening before she left. "a lover?" said frank, somewhat startled by the suddenness of the confidence. "a lover--yes--mr gresham; why should i not have a lover?" "oh!--no--of course not. i dare say you have a good many." "only three or four, upon my word; that is, only three or four that i favour. one is not bound to reckon the others, you know." "no, they'd be too numerous. and so you have three whom you favour, miss dunstable;" and frank sighed, as though he intended to say that the number was too many for his peace of mind. "is not that quite enough? but of course i change them sometimes;" and she smiled on him very good-naturedly. "it would be very dull if i were always to keep the same." "very dull indeed," said frank, who did not quite know what to say. "do you think the countess would mind my having one or two of them here if i were to ask her?" "i am quite sure she would," said frank, very briskly. "she would not approve of it at all; nor should i." "you--why, what have you to do with it?" "a great deal--so much so that i positively forbid it; but, miss dunstable--" "well, mr gresham?" "we will contrive to make up for the deficiency as well as possible, if you will permit us to do so. now for myself--" "well, for yourself?" at this moment the countess gleamed her accomplished eye round the table, and miss dunstable rose from her chair as frank was preparing his attack, and accompanied the other ladies into the drawing-room. his aunt, as she passed him, touched his arm lightly with her fan, so lightly that the action was perceived by no one else. but frank well understood the meaning of the touch, and appreciated the approbation which it conveyed. he merely blushed, however, at his own dissimulation; for he felt more certain that ever that he would never marry miss dunstable, and he felt nearly equally sure that miss dunstable would never marry him. lord de courcy was now at home; but his presence did not add much hilarity to the claret-cup. the young men, however, were very keen about the election, and mr nearthewinde, who was one of the party, was full of the most sanguine hopes. "i have done one good at any rate," said frank; "i have secured the chorister's vote." "what! bagley?" said nearthewinde. "the fellow kept out of my way, and i couldn't see him." "i haven't exactly seen him," said frank; "but i've got his vote all the same." "what! by a letter?" said mr moffat. "no, not by letter," said frank, speaking rather low as he looked at the bishop and the earl; "i got a promise from his wife: i think he's a little in the henpecked line." "ha--ha--ha!" laughed the good bishop, who, in spite of frank's modulation of voice, had overheard what had passed. "is that the way you manage electioneering matters in our cathedral city? ha--ha--ha!" the idea of one of his choristers being in the henpecked line was very amusing to the bishop. "oh, i got a distinct promise," said frank, in his pride; and then added incautiously, "but i had to order bonnets for the whole family." "hush-h-h-h-h!" said mr nearthewinde, absolutely flabbergasted by such imprudence on the part of one of his client's friends. "i am quite sure that your order had no effect, and was intended to have no effect on mr bagley's vote." "is that wrong?" said frank; "upon my word i thought that it was quite legitimate." "one should never admit anything in electioneering matters, should one?" said george, turning to mr nearthewinde. "very little, mr de courcy; very little indeed--the less the better. it's hard to say in these days what is wrong and what is not. now, there's reddypalm, the publican, the man who has the brown bear. well, i was there, of course: he's a voter, and if any man in barchester ought to feel himself bound to vote for a friend of the duke's, he ought. now, i was so thirsty when i was in that man's house that i was dying for a glass of beer; but for the life of me i didn't dare order one." "why not?" said frank, whose mind was only just beginning to be enlightened by the great doctrine of purity of election as practised in english provincial towns. "oh, closerstil had some fellow looking at me; why, i can't walk down that town without having my very steps counted. i like sharp fighting myself, but i never go so sharp as that." "nevertheless i got bagley's vote," said frank, persisting in praise of his own electioneering prowess; "and you may be sure of this, mr nearthewinde, none of closerstil's men were looking at me when i got it." "who'll pay for the bonnets, frank?" said george. "oh, i'll pay for them if moffat won't. i think i shall keep an account there; they seem to have good gloves and those sort of things." "very good, i have no doubt," said george. "i suppose your lordship will be in town soon after the meeting of parliament?" said the bishop, questioning the earl. "oh! yes; i suppose i must be there. i am never allowed to remain very long in quiet. it is a great nuisance; but it is too late to think of that now." "men in high places, my lord, never were, and never will be, allowed to consider themselves. they burn their torches not in their own behalf," said the bishop, thinking, perhaps, as much of himself as he did of his noble friend. "rest and quiet are the comforts of those who have been content to remain in obscurity." "perhaps so," said the earl, finishing his glass of claret with an air of virtuous resignation. "perhaps so." his own martyrdom, however, had not been severe, for the rest and quiet of home had never been peculiarly satisfactory to his tastes. soon after this they all went to the ladies. it was some little time before frank could find an opportunity of recommencing his allotted task with miss dunstable. she got into conversation with the bishop and some other people, and, except that he took her teacup and nearly managed to squeeze one of her fingers as he did so, he made very little further progress till towards the close of the evening. at last he found her so nearly alone as to admit of his speaking to her in his low confidential voice. "have you managed that matter with my aunt?" "what matter?" said miss dunstable; and her voice was not low, nor particularly confidential. "about those three or four gentlemen whom you wish to invite here?" "oh! my attendant knights! no, indeed; you gave me such very slight hope of success; besides, you said something about my not wanting them." "yes i did; i really think they'd be quite unnecessary. if you should want any one to defend you--" "at these coming elections, for instance." "then, or at any other time, there are plenty here who will be ready to stand up for you." "plenty! i don't want plenty: one good lance in the olden days was always worth more than a score of ordinary men-at-arms." "but you talked about three or four." "yes; but then you see, mr gresham, i have never yet found the one good lance--at least, not good enough to suit my ideas of true prowess." what could frank do but declare that he was ready to lay his own in rest, now and always in her behalf? his aunt had been quite angry with him, and had thought that he turned her into ridicule, when he spoke of making an offer to her guest that very evening; and yet here he was so placed that he had hardly an alternative. let his inward resolution to abjure the heiress be ever so strong, he was now in a position which allowed him no choice in the matter. even mary thorne could hardly have blamed him for saying, that so far as his own prowess went, it was quite at miss dunstable's service. had mary been looking on, she, perhaps, might have thought that he could have done so with less of that look of devotion which he threw into his eyes. "well, mr gresham, that's very civil--very civil indeed," said miss dunstable. "upon my word, if a lady wanted a true knight she might do worse than trust to you. only i fear that your courage is of so exalted a nature that you would be ever ready to do battle for any beauty who might be in distress--or, indeed, who might not. you could never confine your valour to the protection of one maiden." "oh, yes! but i would though if i liked her," said frank. "there isn't a more constant fellow in the world than i am in that way--you try me, miss dunstable." "when young ladies make such trials as that, they sometimes find it too late to go back if the trial doesn't succeed, mr gresham." "oh, of course there's always some risk. it's like hunting; there would be no fun if there was no danger." "but if you get a tumble one day you can retrieve your honour the next; but a poor girl, if she once trusts a man who says that he loves her, has no such chance. for myself, i would never listen to a man unless i'd known him for seven years at least." "seven years!" said frank, who could not help thinking that in seven years' time miss dunstable would be almost an old woman. "seven days is enough to know any person." "or perhaps seven hours; eh, mr gresham?" "seven hours--well, perhaps seven hours, if they happen to be a good deal together during the time." "there's nothing after all like love at first sight, is there, mr gresham?" frank knew well enough that she was quizzing him, and could not resist the temptation he felt to be revenged on her. "i am sure it's very pleasant," said he; "but as for myself, i have never experienced it." "ha, ha, ha!" laughed miss dunstable. "upon my word, mr gresham, i like you amazingly. i didn't expect to meet anybody down here that i should like half so much. you must come and see me in london, and i'll introduce you to my three knights," and so saying, she moved away and fell into conversation with some of the higher powers. frank felt himself to be rather snubbed, in spite of the strong expression which miss dunstable had made in his favour. it was not quite clear to him that she did not take him for a boy. he was, to be sure, avenged on her for that by taking her for a middle-aged woman; but, nevertheless, he was hardly satisfied with himself; "i might give her a heartache yet," said he to himself, "and she might find afterwards that she was left in the lurch with all her money." and so he retired, solitary, into a far part of the room, and began to think of mary thorne. as he did so, and as his eyes fell upon miss dunstable's stiff curls, he almost shuddered. and then the ladies retired. his aunt, with a good-natured smile on her face, come to him as she was leaving the room, the last of the bevy, and putting her hand on his arm, led him out into a small unoccupied chamber which opened from the grand saloon. "upon my word, master frank," said she, "you seem to be losing no time with the heiress. you have quite made an impression already." "i don't know much about that, aunt," said he, looking rather sheepish. "oh, i declare you have; but, frank, my dear boy, you should not precipitate these sort of things too much. it is well to take a little more time: it is more valued; and perhaps, you know, on the whole--" perhaps frank might know; but it was clear that lady de courcy did not: at any rate, she did not know how to express herself. had she said out her mind plainly, she would probably have spoken thus: "i want you to make love to miss dunstable, certainly; or at any rate to make an offer to her; but you need not make a show of yourself and of her, too, by doing it so openly as all that." the countess, however, did not want to reprimand her obedient nephew, and therefore did not speak out her thoughts. "well?" said frank, looking up into her face. "take a _leetle_ more time--that is all, my dear boy; slow and sure, you know;" so the countess again patted his arm and went away to bed. "old fool!" muttered frank to himself, as he returned to the room where the men were still standing. he was right in this: she was an old fool, or she would have seen that there was no chance whatever that her nephew and miss dunstable should become man and wife. "well frank," said the honourable john; "so you're after the heiress already." "he won't give any of us a chance," said the honourable george. "if he goes on in that way she'll be mrs gresham before a month is over. but, frank, what will she say of your manner of looking for barchester votes?" "mr gresham is certainly an excellent hand at canvassing," said mr nearthewinde; "only a little too open in his manner of proceeding." "i got that chorister for you at any rate," said frank. "and you would never have had him without me." "i don't think half so much of the chorister's vote as that of miss dunstable," said the honourable george: "that's the interest that is really worth looking after." "but, surely," said mr moffat, "miss dunstable has no property in barchester?" poor man! his heart was so intent on his election that he had not a moment to devote to the claims of love. chapter xvii the election and now the important day of the election had arrived, and some men's hearts beat quickly enough. to be or not to be a member of the british parliament is a question of very considerable moment in a man's mind. much is often said of the great penalties which the ambitious pay for enjoying this honour; of the tremendous expenses of elections; of the long, tedious hours of unpaid labour: of the weary days passed in the house; but, nevertheless, the prize is one very well worth the price paid for it--well worth any price that can be paid for it short of wading through dirt and dishonour. no other great european nation has anything like it to offer to the ambition of its citizens; for in no other great country of europe, not even in those which are free, has the popular constitution obtained, as with us, true sovereignty and power of rule. here it is so; and when a man lays himself out to be a member of parliament, he plays the highest game and for the highest stakes which the country affords. to some men, born silver-spooned, a seat in parliament comes as a matter of course. from the time of their early manhood they hardly know what it is not to sit there; and the honour is hardly appreciated, being too much a matter of course. as a rule, they never know how great a thing it is to be in parliament; though, when reverse comes, as reverses occasionally will come, they fully feel how dreadful it is to be left out. but to men aspiring to be members, or to those who having been once fortunate have again to fight the battle without assurance of success, the coming election must be matter of dread concern. oh, how delightful to hear that the long-talked-of rival has declined the contest, and that the course is clear! or to find by a short canvass that one's majority is safe, and the pleasures of crowing over an unlucky, friendless foe quite secured! no such gratification as this filled the bosom of mr moffat on the morning of the barchester election. to him had been brought no positive assurance of success by his indefatigable agent, mr nearthewinde. it was admitted on all sides that the contest would be a very close one; and mr nearthewinde would not do more than assert that they ought to win unless things went very wrong with them. mr nearthewinde had other elections to attend to, and had not been remaining at courcy castle ever since the coming of miss dunstable: but he had been there, and at barchester, as often as possible, and mr moffat was made greatly uneasy by reflecting how very high the bill would be. the two parties had outdone each other in the loudness of their assertions, that each would on his side conduct the election in strict conformity to law. there was to be no bribery. bribery! who, indeed, in these days would dare to bribe; to give absolute money for an absolute vote, and pay for such an article in downright palpable sovereigns? no. purity was much too rampant for that, and the means of detection too well understood. but purity was to be carried much further than this. there should be no treating; no hiring of two hundred voters to act as messengers at twenty shillings a day in looking up some four hundred other voters; no bands were to be paid for; no carriages furnished; no ribbons supplied. british voters were to vote, if vote they would, for the love and respect they bore to their chosen candidate. if so actuated, they would not vote, they might stay away; no other inducement would be offered. so much was said loudly--very loudly--by each party; but, nevertheless, mr moffat, early in these election days, began to have some misgivings about the bill. the proclaimed arrangement had been one exactly suitable to his taste; for mr moffat loved his money. he was a man in whose breast the ambition of being great in the world, and of joining himself to aristocratic people was continually at war with the great cost which such tastes occasioned. his last election had not been a cheap triumph. in one way or another money had been dragged from him for purposes which had been to his mind unintelligible; and when, about the middle of his first session, he had, with much grumbling, settled all demands, he had questioned with himself whether his whistle was worth its cost. he was therefore a great stickler for purity of election; although, had he considered the matter, he should have known that with him money was his only passport into that elysium in which he had now lived for two years. he probably did not consider it; for when, in those canvassing days immediately preceding the election, he had seen that all the beer-houses were open, and half the population was drunk, he had asked mr nearthewinde whether this violation of the treaty was taking place only on the part of his opponent, and whether, in such case, it would not be duly noticed with a view to a possible future petition. mr nearthewinde assured him triumphantly that half at least of the wallowing swine were his own especial friends; and that somewhat more than half of the publicans of the town were eagerly engaged in fighting his, mr moffat's battle. mr moffat groaned, and would have expostulated had mr nearthewinde been willing to hear him. but that gentleman's services had been put into requisition by lord de courcy rather than by the candidate. for the candidate he cared but little. to pay the bill would be enough for him. he, mr nearthewinde, was doing his business as he well knew how to do it; and it was not likely that he should submit to be lectured by such as mr moffat on a trumpery score of expense. it certainly did appear on the morning of the election as though some great change had been made in that resolution of the candidates to be very pure. from an early hour rough bands of music were to be heard in every part of the usually quiet town; carts and gigs, omnibuses and flys, all the old carriages from all the inn-yards, and every vehicle of any description which could be pressed into the service were in motion; if the horses and post-boys were not to be paid for by the candidates, the voters themselves were certainly very liberal in their mode of bringing themselves to the poll. the election district of the city of barchester extended for some miles on each side of the city, so that the omnibuses and flys had enough to do. beer was to be had at the public-houses, almost without question, by all who chose to ask for it; and rum and brandy were dispensed to select circles within the bars with equal profusion. as for ribbons, the mercers' shops must have been emptied of that article, as far as scarlet and yellow were concerned. scarlet was sir roger's colour, while the friends of mr moffat were decked with yellow. seeing what he did see, mr moffat might well ask whether there had not been a violation of the treaty of purity! at the time of this election there was some question whether england should go to war with all her energy; or whether it would not be better for her to save her breath to cool her porridge, and not meddle more than could be helped with foreign quarrels. the last view of the matter was advocated by sir roger, and his motto of course proclaimed the merits of domestic peace and quiet. "peace abroad and a big loaf at home," was consequently displayed on four or five huge scarlet banners, and carried waving over the heads of the people. but mr moffat was a staunch supporter of the government, who were already inclined to be belligerent, and "england's honour" was therefore the legend under which he selected to do battle. it may, however, be doubted whether there was in all barchester one inhabitant--let alone one elector--so fatuous as to suppose that england's honour was in any special manner dear to mr moffat; or that he would be a whit more sure of a big loaf than he was now, should sir roger happily become a member of the legislature. and then the fine arts were resorted to, seeing that language fell short in telling all that was found necessary to be told. poor sir roger's failing as regards the bottle was too well known; and it was also known that, in acquiring his title, he had not quite laid aside the rough mode of speech which he had used in his early years. there was, consequently, a great daub painted up on sundry walls, on which a navvy, with a pimply, bloated face, was to be seen standing on a railway bank, leaning on a spade holding a bottle in one hand, while he invited a comrade to drink. "come, jack, shall us have a drop of some'at short?" were the words coming out of the navvy's mouth; and under this was painted in huge letters, "the last new baronet." but mr moffat hardly escaped on easier terms. the trade by which his father had made his money was as well known as that of the railway contractor; and every possible symbol of tailordom was displayed in graphic portraiture on the walls and hoardings of the city. he was drawn with his goose, with his scissors, with his needle, with his tapes; he might be seen measuring, cutting, stitching, pressing, carrying home his bundle, and presenting his little bill; and under each of these representations was repeated his own motto: "england's honour." such were the pleasant little amenities with which the people of barchester greeted the two candidates who were desirous of the honour of serving them in parliament. the polling went on briskly and merrily. there were somewhat above nine hundred registered voters, of whom the greater portion recorded their votes early in the day. at two o'clock, according to sir roger's committee, the numbers were as follows:-- scatcherd moffat whereas, by the light afforded by mr moffat's people, they stood in a slightly different ratio to each other, being written thus:-- moffat scatcherd this naturally heightened the excitement, and gave additional delight to the proceedings. at half-past two it was agreed by both sides that mr moffat was ahead; the moffatites claiming a majority of twelve, and the scatcherdites allowing a majority of one. but by three o'clock sundry good men and true, belonging to the railway interest, had made their way to the booth in spite of the efforts of a band of roughs from courcy, and sir roger was again leading, by ten or a dozen, according to his own showing. one little transaction which took place in the earlier part of the day deserves to be recorded. there was in barchester an honest publican--honest as the world of publicans goes--who not only was possessed of a vote, but possessed also of a son who was a voter. he was one reddypalm, and in former days, before he had learned to appreciate the full value of an englishman's franchise, he had been a declared liberal and an early friend of roger scatcherd's. in latter days he had governed his political feelings with more decorum, and had not allowed himself to be carried away by such foolish fervour as he had evinced in his youth. on this special occasion, however, his line of conduct was so mysterious as for a while to baffle even those who knew him best. his house was apparently open in sir roger's interest. beer, at any rate, was flowing there as elsewhere; and scarlet ribbons going in--not, perhaps, in a state of perfect steadiness--came out more unsteady than before. still had mr reddypalm been deaf to the voice of that charmer, closerstil, though he had charmed with all his wisdom. mr reddypalm had stated, first his unwillingness to vote at all:--he had, he said, given over politics, and was not inclined to trouble his mind again with the subject; then he had spoken of his great devotion to the duke of omnium, under whose grandfathers his grandfather had been bred: mr nearthewinde had, as he said, been with him, and proved to him beyond a shadow of a doubt that it would show the deepest ingratitude on his part to vote against the duke's candidate. mr closerstil thought he understood all this, and sent more, and still more men to drink beer. he even caused--taking infinite trouble to secure secrecy in the matter--three gallons of british brandy to be ordered and paid for as the best french. but, nevertheless, mr reddypalm made no sign to show that he considered that the right thing had been done. on the evening before the election, he told one of mr closerstil's confidential men, that he had thought a good deal about it, and that he believed he should be constrained by his conscience to vote for mr moffat. we have said that mr closerstil was accompanied by a learned friend of his, one mr romer, a barrister, who was greatly interested in sir roger, and who, being a strong liberal, was assisting in the canvass with much energy. he, hearing how matters were likely to go with this conscientious publican, and feeling himself peculiarly capable of dealing with such delicate scruples, undertook to look into the case in hand. early, therefore, on the morning of the election, he sauntered down the cross street in which hung out the sign of the brown bear, and, as he expected, found mr reddypalm near his own door. now it was quite an understood thing that there was to be no bribery. this was understood by no one better than by mr romer, who had, in truth, drawn up many of the published assurances to that effect. and, to give him his due, he was fully minded to act in accordance with these assurances. the object of all the parties was to make it worth the voters' while to give their votes; but to do so without bribery. mr romer had repeatedly declared that he would have nothing to do with any illegal practising; but he had also declared that, as long as all was done according to law, he was ready to lend his best efforts to assist sir roger. how he assisted sir roger, and adhered to the law, will now be seen. oh, mr romer! mr romer! is it not the case with thee that thou "wouldst not play false, and yet wouldst wrongly win?" not in electioneering, mr romer, any more than in other pursuits, can a man touch pitch and not be defiled; as thou, innocent as thou art, wilt soon learn to thy terrible cost. "well, reddypalm," said mr romer, shaking hands with him. mr romer had not been equally cautious as nearthewinde, and had already drunk sundry glasses of ale at the brown bear, in the hope of softening the stern bear-warden. "how is it to be to-day? which is to be the man?" "if any one knows that, mr romer, you must be the man. a poor numbskull like me knows nothing of them matters. how should i? all i looks to, mr romer, is selling a trifle of drink now and then--selling it, and getting paid for it, you know, mr romer." "yes, that's important, no doubt. but come, reddypalm, such an old friend of sir roger as you are, a man he speaks of as one of his intimate friends, i wonder how you can hesitate about it? now with another man, i should think that he wanted to be paid for voting--" "oh, mr romer!--fie--fie--fie!" "i know it's not the case with you. it would be an insult to offer you money, even if money were going. i should not mention this, only as money is not going, neither on our side nor on the other, no harm can be done." "mr romer, if you speak of such a thing, you'll hurt me. i know the value of an englishman's franchise too well to wish to sell it. i would not demean myself so low; no, not though five-and-twenty pound a vote was going, as there was in the good old times--and that's not so long ago neither." "i am sure you wouldn't, reddypalm; i'm sure you wouldn't. but an honest man like you should stick to old friends. now, tell me," and putting his arm through reddypalm's, he walked with him into the passage of his own house; "now, tell me--is there anything wrong? it's between friends, you know. is there anything wrong?" "i wouldn't sell my vote for untold gold," said reddypalm, who was perhaps aware that untold gold would hardly be offered to him for it. "i am sure you would not," said mr romer. "but," said reddypalm, "a man likes to be paid his little bill." "surely, surely," said the barrister. "and i did say two years since, when your friend mr closerstil brought a friend of his down to stand here--it wasn't sir roger then--but when he brought a friend of his down, and when i drew two or three hogsheads of ale on their side, and when my bill was questioned and only half-settled, i did say that i wouldn't interfere with no election no more. and no more i will, mr romer--unless it be to give a quiet vote for the nobleman under whom i and mine always lived respectable." "oh!" said mr romer. "a man do like to have his bill paid, you know, mr romer." mr romer could not but acknowledge that this was a natural feeling on the part of an ordinary mortal publican. "it goes agin the grain with a man not to have his little bill paid, and specially at election time," again urged mr reddypalm. mr romer had not much time to think about it; but he knew well that matters were so nearly balanced, that the votes of mr reddypalm and his son were of inestimable value. "if it's only about your bill," said mr romer, "i'll see to have that settled. i'll speak to closerstil about that." "all right!" said reddypalm, seizing the young barrister's hand, and shaking it warmly; "all right!" and late in the afternoon when a vote or two became matter of intense interest, mr reddypalm and his son came up to the hustings and boldly tendered theirs for their old friend, sir roger. there was a great deal of eloquence heard in barchester on that day. sir roger had by this time so far recovered as to be able to go through the dreadfully hard work of canvassing and addressing the electors from eight in the morning till near sunset. a very perfect recovery, most men will say. yes; a perfect recovery as regarded the temporary use of his faculties, both physical and mental; though it may be doubted whether there can be any permanent recovery from such disease as his. what amount of brandy he consumed to enable him to perform this election work, and what lurking evil effect the excitement might have on him--of these matters no record was kept in the history of those proceedings. sir roger's eloquence was of a rough kind; but not perhaps the less operative on those for whom it was intended. the aristocracy of barchester consisted chiefly of clerical dignitaries, bishops, deans, prebendaries, and such like: on them and theirs it was not probable that anything said by sir roger would have much effect. those men would either abstain from voting, or vote for the railway hero, with the view of keeping out the de courcy candidate. then came the shopkeepers, who might also be regarded as a stiff-necked generation, impervious to electioneering eloquence. they would, generally, support mr moffat. but there was an inferior class of voters, ten-pound freeholders, and such like, who, at this period, were somewhat given to have an opinion of their own, and over them it was supposed that sir roger did obtain some power by his gift of talking. "now, gentlemen, will you tell me this," said he, bawling at the top of his voice from off the portico which graced the door of the dragon of wantley, at which celebrated inn sir roger's committee sat:--"who is mr moffat, and what has he done for us? there have been some picture-makers about the town this week past. the lord knows who they are; i don't. these clever fellows do tell you who i am, and what i've done. i ain't very proud of the way they've painted me, though there's something about it i ain't ashamed of either. see here," and he held up on one side of him one of the great daubs of himself--"just hold it there till i can explain it," and he handed the paper to one of his friends. "that's me," said sir roger, putting up his stick, and pointing to the pimply-nosed representation of himself. "hurrah! hur-r-rah! more power to you--we all know who you are, roger. you're the boy! when did you get drunk last?" such-like greetings, together with a dead cat which was flung at him from the crowd, and which he dexterously parried with his stick, were the answers which he received to this exordium. "yes," said he, quite undismayed by this little missile which had so nearly reached him: "that's me. and look here; this brown, dirty-looking broad streak here is intended for a railway; and that thing in my hand--not the right hand; i'll come to that presently--" "how about the brandy, roger?" "i'll come to that presently. i'll tell you about the brandy in good time. but that thing in my left hand is a spade. now, i never handled a spade, and never could; but, boys, i handled a chisel and mallet; and many a hundred block of stone has come out smooth from under that hand;" and sir roger lifted up his great broad palm wide open. "so you did, roger, and well we minds it." "the meaning, however, of that spade is to show that i made the railway. now i'm very much obliged to those gentlemen over at the white horse for putting up this picture of me. it's a true picture, and it tells you who i am. i did make that railway. i have made thousands of miles of railway; i am making thousands of miles of railways--some in europe, some in asia, some in america. it's a true picture," and he poked his stick through it and held it up to the crowd. "a true picture: but for that spade and that railway, i shouldn't be now here asking your votes; and, when next february comes, i shouldn't be sitting in westminster to represent you, as, by god's grace, i certainly will do. that tells you who i am. but now, will you tell me who mr moffat is?" "how about the brandy, roger?" "oh, yes, the brandy! i was forgetting that and the little speech that is coming out of my mouth--a deal shorter speech, and a better one than what i am making now. here, in the right hand you see a brandy bottle. well, boys, i'm not a bit ashamed of that; as long as a man does his work--and the spade shows that--it's only fair he should have something to comfort him. i'm always able to work, and few men work much harder. i'm always able to work, and no man has a right to expect more of me. i never expect more than that from those who work for me." "no more you don't, roger: a little drop's very good, ain't it, roger? keeps the cold from the stomach, eh, roger?" "then as to this speech, 'come, jack, let's have a drop of some'at short.' why, that's a good speech too. when i do drink i like to share with a friend; and i don't care how humble that friend is." "hurrah! more power. that's true too, roger; may you never be without a drop to wet your whistle." "they say i'm the last new baronet. well, i ain't ashamed of that; not a bit. when will mr moffat get himself made a baronet? no man can truly say i'm too proud of it. i have never stuck myself up; no, nor stuck my wife up either: but i don't see much to be ashamed of because the bigwigs chose to make a baronet of me." "nor, no more thee h'ant, roger. we'd all be barrownites if so be we knew the way." "but now, having polished off this bit of picture, let me ask you who mr moffat is? there are pictures enough about him, too; though heaven knows where they all come from. i think sir edwin landseer must have done this one of the goose; it is so deadly natural. look at it; there he is. upon my word, whoever did that ought to make his fortune at some of these exhibitions. here he is again, with a big pair of scissors. he calls himself 'england's honour;' what the deuce england's honour has to do with tailoring, i can't tell you: perhaps mr moffat can. but mind you, my friends, i don't say anything against tailoring: some of you are tailors, i dare say." "yes, we be," said a little squeaking voice from out of the crowd. "and a good trade it is. when i first knew barchester there were tailors here could lick any stone-mason in the trade; i say nothing against tailors. but it isn't enough for a man to be a tailor unless he's something else along with it. you're not so fond of tailors that you'll send one up to parliament merely because he is a tailor." "we won't have no tailors. no; nor yet no cabbaging. take a go of brandy, roger; you're blown." "no, i'm not blown yet. i've a deal more to say about mr moffat before i shall be blown. what has he done to entitle him to come here before you and ask you to send him to parliament? why; he isn't even a tailor. i wish he were. there's always some good in a fellow who knows how to earn his own bread. but he isn't a tailor; he can't even put a stitch in towards mending england's honour. his father was a tailor; not a barchester tailor, mind you, so as to give him any claim on your affections; but a london tailor. now the question is, do you want to send the son of a london tailor up to parliament to represent you?" "no, we don't; nor yet we won't either." "i rather think not. you've had him once, and what has he done for you? has he said much for you in the house of commons? why, he's so dumb a dog that he can't bark even for a bone. i'm told it's quite painful to hear him fumbling and mumbling and trying to get up a speech there over at the white horse. he doesn't belong to the city; he hasn't done anything for the city; and he hasn't the power to do anything for the city. then, why on earth does he come here? i'll tell you. the earl de courcy brings him. he's going to marry the earl de courcy's niece; for they say he's very rich--this tailor's son--only they do say also that he doesn't much like to spend his money. he's going to marry lord de courcy's niece, and lord de courcy wishes that his nephew should be in parliament. there, that's the claim which mr moffat has here on the people of barchester. he's lord de courcy's nominee, and those who feel themselves bound hand and foot, heart and soul, to lord de courcy, had better vote for him. such men have my leave. if there are enough of such at barchester to send him to parliament, the city in which i was born must be very much altered since i was a young man." and so finishing his speech, sir roger retired within, and recruited himself in the usual manner. such was the flood of eloquence at the dragon of wantly. at the white horse, meanwhile, the friends of the de courcy interest were treated perhaps to sounder political views; though not expressed in periods so intelligibly fluent as those of sir roger. mr moffat was a young man, and there was no knowing to what proficiency in the parliamentary gift of public talking he might yet attain; but hitherto his proficiency was not great. he had, however, endeavoured to make up by study for any want of readiness of speech, and had come to barchester daily, for the last four days, fortified with a very pretty harangue, which he had prepared for himself in the solitude of his chamber. on the three previous days matters had been allowed to progress with tolerable smoothness, and he had been permitted to deliver himself of his elaborate eloquence with few other interruptions than those occasioned by his own want of practice. but on this, the day of days, the barchesterian roughs were not so complaisant. it appeared to mr moffat, when he essayed to speak, that he was surrounded by enemies rather than friends; and in his heart he gave great blame to mr nearthewinde for not managing matters better for him. "men of barchester," he began, in a voice which was every now and then preternaturally loud, but which, at each fourth or fifth word, gave way from want of power, and descended to its natural weak tone. "men of barchester--electors and non-electors--" "we is hall electors; hall on us, my young kiddy." "electors and non-electors, i now ask your suffrages, not for the first time--" "oh! we've tried you. we know what you're made on. go on, snip; don't you let 'em put you down." "i've had the honour of representing you in parliament for the last two years and--" "and a deuced deal you did for us, didn't you?" "what could you expect from the ninth part of a man? never mind, snip--go on; don't you be put out by any of them. stick to your wax and thread like a man--like the ninth part of a man--go on a little faster, snip." "for the last two years--and--and--" here mr moffat looked round to his friends for some little support, and the honourable george, who stood close behind him, suggested that he had gone through it like a brick. "and--and i went through it like a brick," said mr moffat, with the gravest possible face, taking up in his utter confusion the words that were put into his mouth. "hurray!--so you did--you're the real brick. well done, snip; go it again with the wax and thread!" "i am a thorough-paced reformer," continued mr moffat, somewhat reassured by the effect of the opportune words which his friend had whispered into his ear. "a thorough-paced reformer--a thorough-paced reformer--" "go on, snip. we all know what that means." "a thorough-paced reformer--" "never mind your paces, man; but get on. tell us something new. we're all reformers, we are." poor mr moffat was a little thrown back. it wasn't so easy to tell these gentlemen anything new, harnessed as he was at this moment; so he looked back at his honourable supporter for some further hint. "say something about their daughters," whispered george, whose own flights of oratory were always on that subject. had he counselled mr moffat to say a word or two about the tides, his advice would not have been less to the purpose. "gentlemen," he began again--"you all know that i am a thorough-paced reformer--" "oh, drat your reform. he's a dumb dog. go back to your goose, snippy; you never were made for this work. go to courcy castle and reform that." mr moffat, grieved in his soul, was becoming inextricably bewildered by such facetiæ as these, when an egg,--and it may be feared not a fresh egg,--flung with unerring precision, struck him on the open part of his well-plaited shirt, and reduced him to speechless despair. an egg is a means of delightful support when properly administered; but it is not calculated to add much spirit to a man's eloquence, or to ensure his powers of endurance, when supplied in the manner above described. men there are, doubtless, whose tongues would not be stopped even by such an argument as this; but mr moffat was not one of them. as the insidious fluid trickled down beneath his waistcoat, he felt that all further powers of coaxing the electors out of their votes, by words flowing from his tongue sweeter than honey, was for that occasion denied to him. he could not be self-confident, energetic, witty, and good-humoured with a rotten egg drying through his clothes. he was forced, therefore, to give way, and with sadly disconcerted air retired from the open window at which he had been standing. it was in vain that the honourable george, mr nearthewinde, and frank endeavoured again to bring him to the charge. he was like a beaten prize-fighter, whose pluck has been cowed out of him, and who, if he stands up, only stands up to fall. mr moffat got sulky also, and when he was pressed, said that barchester and the people in it might be d----. "with all my heart," said mr nearthewinde. "that wouldn't have any effect on their votes." but, in truth, it mattered very little whether mr moffat spoke, or whether he didn't speak. four o'clock was the hour for closing the poll, and that was now fast coming. tremendous exertions had been made about half-past three, by a safe emissary sent from nearthewinde, to prove to mr reddypalm that all manner of contingent advantages would accrue to the brown bear if it should turn out that mr moffat should take his seat for barchester. no bribe was, of course, offered or even hinted at. the purity of barchester was not contaminated during the day by one such curse as this. but a man, and a publican, would be required to do some great deed in the public line; to open some colossal tap; to draw beer for the million; and no one would be so fit as mr reddypalm--if only it might turn out that mr moffat should, in the coming february, take his seat as member for barchester. but mr reddypalm was a man of humble desires, whose ambitions soared no higher than this--that his little bills should be duly settled. it is wonderful what love an innkeeper has for his bill in its entirety. an account, with a respectable total of five or six pounds, is brought to you, and you complain but of one article; that fire in the bedroom was never lighted; or that second glass of brandy and water was never called for. you desire to have the shilling expunged, and all your host's pleasure in the whole transaction is destroyed. oh! my friends, pay for the brandy and water, though you never drank it; suffer the fire to pass, though it never warmed you. why make a good man miserable for such a trifle? it became notified to reddypalm with sufficient clearness that his bill for the past election should be paid without further question; and, therefore, at five o'clock the mayor of barchester proclaimed the results of the contest in the following figures:-- scatcherd moffat mr reddypalm's two votes had decided the question. mr nearthewinde immediately went up to town; and the dinner party at courcy castle that evening was not a particularly pleasant meal. this much, however, had been absolutely decided before the yellow committee concluded their labour at the white horse: there should be a petition. mr nearthewinde had not been asleep, and already knew something of the manner in which mr reddypalm's mind had been quieted. chapter xviii the rivals the intimacy between frank and miss dunstable grew and prospered. that is to say, it prospered as an intimacy, though perhaps hardly as a love affair. there was a continued succession of jokes between them, which no one else in the castle understood; but the very fact of there being such a good understanding between them rather stood in the way of, than assisted, that consummation which the countess desired. people, when they are in love with each other, or even when they pretend to be, do not generally show it by loud laughter. nor is it frequently the case that a wife with two hundred thousand pounds can be won without some little preliminary despair. now there was no despair at all about frank gresham. lady de courcy, who thoroughly understood that portion of the world in which she herself lived, saw that things were not going quite as they should do, and gave much and repeated advice to frank on the subject. she was the more eager in doing this, because she imagined frank had done what he could to obey her first precepts. he had not turned up his nose at miss dunstable's curls, nor found fault with her loud voice: he had not objected to her as ugly, nor even shown any dislike to her age. a young man who had been so amenable to reason was worthy of further assistance; and so lady de courcy did what she could to assist him. "frank, my dear boy," she would say, "you are a little too noisy, i think. i don't mean for myself, you know; i don't mind it. but miss dunstable would like it better if you were a little more quiet with her." "would she, aunt?" said frank, looking demurely up into the countess's face. "i rather think she likes fun and noise, and that sort of thing. you know she's not very quiet herself." "ah!--but frank, there are times, you know, when that sort of thing should be laid aside. fun, as you call it, is all very well in its place. indeed, no one likes it better than i do. but that's not the way to show admiration. young ladies like to be admired; and if you'll be a little more soft-mannered with miss dunstable, i'm sure you'll find it will answer better." and so the old bird taught the young bird how to fly--very needlessly--for in this matter of flying, nature gives her own lessons thoroughly; and the ducklings will take the water, even though the maternal hen warn them against the perfidious element never so loudly. soon after this, lady de courcy began to be not very well pleased in the matter. she took it into her head that miss dunstable was sometimes almost inclined to laugh at her; and on one or two occasions it almost seemed as though frank was joining miss dunstable in doing so. the fact indeed was, that miss dunstable was fond of fun; and, endowed as she was with all the privileges which two hundred thousand pounds may be supposed to give to a young lady, did not very much care at whom she laughed. she was able to make a tolerably correct guess at lady de courcy's plan towards herself; but she did not for a moment think that frank had any intention of furthering his aunt's views. she was, therefore, not at all ill-inclined to have her revenge on the countess. "how very fond your aunt is of you!" she said to him one wet morning, as he was sauntering through the house; now laughing, and almost romping with her--then teasing his sister about mr moffat--and then bothering his lady-cousins out of all their propriety. "oh, very!" said frank: "she is a dear, good woman, is my aunt de courcy." "i declare she takes more notice of you and your doings than of any of your cousins. i wonder they ain't jealous." "oh! they're such good people. bless me, they'd never be jealous." "you are so much younger than they are, that i suppose she thinks you want more of her care." "yes; that's it. you see she's fond of having a baby to nurse." "tell me, mr gresham, what was it she was saying to you last night? i know we had been misbehaving ourselves dreadfully. it was all your fault; you would make me laugh so." "that's just what i said to her." "she was talking about me, then?" "how on earth should she talk of any one else as long as you are here? don't you know that all the world is talking about you?" "is it?--dear me, how kind! but i don't care a straw about any world just at present but lady de courcy's world. what did she say?" "she said you were very beautiful--" "did she?--how good of her!" "no; i forgot. it--it was i that said that; and she said--what was it she said? she said, that after all, beauty was but skin deep--and that she valued you for your virtues and prudence rather than your good looks." "virtues and prudence! she said i was prudent and virtuous?" "yes." "and you talked of my beauty? that was so kind of you. you didn't either of you say anything about other matters?" "what other matters?" "oh! i don't know. only some people are sometimes valued rather for what they've got than for any good qualities belonging to themselves intrinsically." "that can never be the case with miss dunstable; especially not at courcy castle," said frank, bowing easily from the corner of the sofa over which he was leaning. "of course not," said miss dunstable; and frank at once perceived that she spoke in a tone of voice differing much from that half-bantering, half-good-humoured manner that was customary with her. "of course not: any such idea would be quite out of the question with lady de courcy." she paused for a moment, and then added in a tone different again, and unlike any that he had yet heard from her:--"it is, at any rate, out of the question with mr frank gresham--of that i am quite sure." frank ought to have understood her, and have appreciated the good opinion which she intended to convey; but he did not entirely do so. he was hardly honest himself towards her; and he could not at first perceive that she intended to say that she thought him so. he knew very well that she was alluding to her own huge fortune, and was alluding also to the fact that people of fashion sought her because of it; but he did not know that she intended to express a true acquittal as regarded him of any such baseness. and did he deserve to be acquitted? yes, upon the whole he did;--to be acquitted of that special sin. his desire to make miss dunstable temporarily subject to his sway arose, not from a hankering after her fortune, but from an ambition to get the better of a contest in which other men around him seemed to be failing. for it must not be imagined that, with such a prize to be struggled for, all others stood aloof and allowed him to have his own way with the heiress, undisputed. the chance of a wife with two hundred thousand pounds is a godsend which comes in a man's life too seldom to be neglected, let that chance be never so remote. frank was the heir to a large embarrassed property; and, therefore, the heads of families, putting their wisdoms together, had thought it most meet that this daughter of plutus should, if possible, fall to his lot. but not so thought the honourable george; and not so thought another gentleman who was at that time an inmate of courcy castle. these suitors perhaps somewhat despised their young rival's efforts. it may be that they had sufficient worldly wisdom to know that so important a crisis of life is not settled among quips and jokes, and that frank was too much in jest to be in earnest. but be that as it may, his love-making did not stand in the way of their love-making; nor his hopes, if he had any, in the way of their hopes. the honourable george had discussed the matter with the honourable john in a properly fraternal manner. it may be that john had also an eye to the heiress; but, if so, he had ceded his views to his brother's superior claims; for it came about that they understood each other very well, and john favoured george with salutary advice on the occasion. "if it is to be done at all, it should be done very sharp," said john. "as sharp as you like," said george. "i'm not the fellow to be studying three months in what attitude i'll fall at a girl's feet." "no: and when you are there you mustn't take three months more to study how you'll get up again. if you do it at all, you must do it sharp," repeated john, putting great stress on his advice. "i have said a few soft words to her already, and she didn't seem to take them badly," said george. "she's no chicken, you know," remarked john; "and with a woman like that, beating about the bush never does any good. the chances are she won't have you--that's of course; plums like that don't fall into a man's mouth merely for shaking the tree. but it's possible she may; and if she will, she's as likely to take you to-day as this day six months. if i were you i'd write her a letter." "write her a letter--eh?" said george, who did not altogether dislike the advice, for it seemed to take from his shoulders the burden of preparing a spoken address. though he was so glib in speaking about the farmers' daughters, he felt that he should have some little difficulty in making known his passion to miss dunstable by word of mouth. "yes; write a letter. if she'll take you at all, she'll take you that way; half the matches going are made up by writing letters. write her a letter and get it put on her dressing-table." george said that he would, and so he did. george spoke quite truly when he hinted that he had said a few soft things to miss dunstable. miss dunstable, however, was accustomed to hear soft things. she had been carried much about in society among fashionable people since, on the settlement of her father's will, she had been pronounced heiress to all the ointment of lebanon; and many men had made calculations respecting her similar to those which were now animating the brain of the honourable george de courcy. she was already quite accustomed to being the target at which spendthrifts and the needy rich might shoot their arrows: accustomed to being shot at, and tolerably accustomed to protect herself without making scenes in the world, or rejecting the advantageous establishments offered to her with any loud expressions of disdain. the honourable george, therefore, had been permitted to say soft things very much as a matter of course. and very little more outward fracas arose from the correspondence which followed than had arisen from the soft things so said. george wrote the letter, and had it duly conveyed to miss dunstable's bed-chamber. miss dunstable duly received it, and had her answer conveyed back discreetly to george's hands. the correspondence ran as follows:-- courcy castle, aug. --, --. my dearest miss dunstable, i cannot but flatter myself that you must have perceived from my manner that you are not indifferent to me. indeed, indeed, you are not. i may truly say, and swear [these last strong words had been put in by the special counsel of the honourable john], that if ever a man loved a woman truly, i truly love you. you may think it very odd that i should say this in a letter instead of speaking it out before your face; but your powers of raillery are so great ["touch her up about her wit" had been the advice of the honourable john] that i am all but afraid to encounter them. dearest, dearest martha--oh do not blame me for so addressing you!--if you will trust your happiness to me you shall never find that you have been deceived. my ambition shall be to make you shine in that circle which you are so well qualified to adorn, and to see you firmly fixed in that sphere of fashion for which all your tastes adapt you. i may safely assert--and i do assert it with my hand on my heart--that i am actuated by no mercenary motives. far be it from me to marry any woman--no, not a princess--on account of her money. no marriage can be happy without mutual affection; and i do fully trust--no, not trust, but hope--that there may be such between you and me, dearest miss dunstable. whatever settlements you might propose, i should accede to. it is you, your sweet person, that i love, not your money. for myself, i need not remind you that i am the second son of my father; and that, as such, i hold no inconsiderable station in the world. my intention is to get into parliament, and to make a name for myself, if i can, among those who shine in the house of commons. my elder brother, lord porlock, is, you are aware, unmarried; and we all fear that the family honours are not likely to be perpetuated by him, as he has all manner of troublesome liaisons which will probably prevent his settling in life. there is nothing at all of that kind in my way. it will indeed be a delight to place a coronet on the head of my lovely martha: a coronet which can give no fresh grace to her, but which will be so much adorned by her wearing it. dearest miss dunstable, i shall wait with the utmost impatience for your answer; and now, burning with hope that it may not be altogether unfavourable to my love, i beg permission to sign myself-- your own most devoted, george de courcy. the ardent lover had not to wait long for an answer from his mistress. she found this letter on her toilet-table one night as she went to bed. the next morning she came down to breakfast and met her swain with the most unconcerned air in the world; so much so that he began to think, as he munched his toast with rather a shamefaced look, that the letter on which so much was to depend had not yet come safely to hand. but his suspense was not of a prolonged duration. after breakfast, as was his wont, he went out to the stables with his brother and frank gresham; and while there, miss dunstable's man, coming up to him, touched his hat, and put a letter into his hand. frank, who knew the man, glanced at the letter and looked at his cousin; but he said nothing. he was, however, a little jealous, and felt that an injury was done to him by any correspondence between miss dunstable and his cousin george. miss dunstable's reply was as follows; and it may be remarked that it was written in a very clear and well-penned hand, and one which certainly did not betray much emotion of the heart:-- my dear mr de courcy, i am sorry to say that i had not perceived from your manner that you entertained any peculiar feelings towards me; as, had i done so, i should at once have endeavoured to put an end to them. i am much flattered by the way in which you speak of me; but i am in too humble a position to return your affection; and can, therefore, only express a hope that you may be soon able to eradicate it from your bosom. a letter is a very good way of making an offer, and as such i do not think it at all odd; but i certainly did not expect such an honour last night. as to my raillery, i trust it has never yet hurt you. i can assure you it never shall. i hope you will soon have a worthier ambition than that to which you allude; for i am well aware that no attempt will ever make me shine anywhere. i am quite sure you have had no mercenary motives: such motives in marriage are very base, and quite below your name and lineage. any little fortune that i may have must be a matter of indifference to one who looks forward, as you do, to put a coronet on his wife's brow. nevertheless, for the sake of the family, i trust that lord porlock, in spite of his obstacles, may live to do the same for a wife of his own some of these days. i am glad to hear that there is nothing to interfere with your own prospects of domestic felicity. sincerely hoping that you may be perfectly successful in your proud ambition to shine in parliament, and regretting extremely that i cannot share that ambition with you, i beg to subscribe myself, with very great respect,-- your sincere well-wisher, martha dunstable. the honourable george, with that modesty which so well became him, accepted miss dunstable's reply as a final answer to his little proposition, and troubled her with no further courtship. as he said to his brother john, no harm had been done, and he might have better luck next time. but there was an inmate of courcy castle who was somewhat more pertinacious in his search after love and wealth. this was no other than mr moffat: a gentleman whose ambition was not satisfied by the cares of his barchester contest, or the possession of one affianced bride. mr moffat was, as we have said, a man of wealth; but we all know, from the lessons of early youth, how the love of money increases and gains strength by its own success. nor was he a man of so mean a spirit as to be satisfied with mere wealth. he desired also place and station, and gracious countenance among the great ones of the earth. hence had come his adherence to the de courcys; hence his seat in parliament; and hence, also, his perhaps ill-considered match with miss gresham. there is no doubt but that the privilege of matrimony offers opportunities to money-loving young men which ought not to be lightly abused. too many young men marry without giving any consideration to the matter whatever. it is not that they are indifferent to money, but that they recklessly miscalculate their own value, and omit to look around and see how much is done by those who are more careful. a man can be young but once, and, except in cases of a special interposition of providence, can marry but once. the chance once thrown away may be said to be irrevocable! how, in after-life, do men toil and turmoil through long years to attain some prospect of doubtful advancement! half that trouble, half that care, a tithe of that circumspection would, in early youth, have probably secured to them the enduring comfort of a wife's wealth. you will see men labouring night and day to become bank directors; and even a bank direction may only be the road to ruin. others will spend years in degrading subserviency to obtain a niche in a will; and the niche, when at last obtained and enjoyed, is but a sorry payment for all that has been endured. others, again, struggle harder still, and go through even deeper waters: they make wills for themselves, forge stock-shares, and fight with unremitting, painful labour to appear to be the thing that they are not. now, in many of these cases, all this might have been spared had the men made adequate use of those opportunities which youth and youthful charms afford once--and once only. there is no road to wealth so easy and respectable as that of matrimony; that, is of course, provided that the aspirant declines the slow course of honest work. but then, we can so seldom put old heads on young shoulders! in the case of mr moffat, we may perhaps say that a specimen was produced of this bird, so rare in the land. his shoulders were certainly young, seeing that he was not yet six-and-twenty; but his head had ever been old. from the moment when he was first put forth to go alone--at the age of twenty-one--his life had been one calculation how he could make the most of himself. he had allowed himself to be betrayed into no folly by an unguarded heart; no youthful indiscretion had marred his prospects. he had made the most of himself. without wit, or depth, or any mental gift--without honesty of purpose or industry for good work--he had been for two years sitting member for barchester; was the guest of lord de courcy; was engaged to the eldest daughter of one of the best commoners' families in england; and was, when he first began to think of miss dunstable, sanguine that his re-election to parliament was secure. when, however, at this period he began to calculate what his position in the world really was, it occurred to him that he was doing an ill-judged thing in marrying miss gresham. why marry a penniless girl--for augusta's trifle of a fortune was not a penny in his estimation--while there was miss dunstable in the world to be won? his own six or seven thousand a year, quite unembarrassed as it was, was certainly a great thing; but what might he not do if to that he could add the almost fabulous wealth of the great heiress? was she not here, put absolutely in his path? would it not be a wilful throwing away of a chance not to avail himself of it? he must, to be sure, lose the de courcy friendship; but if he should then have secured his barchester seat for the usual term of parliamentary session, he might be able to spare that. he would also, perhaps, encounter some gresham enmity: this was a point on which he did think more than once: but what will not a man encounter for the sake of two hundred thousand pounds? it was thus that mr moffat argued with himself, with much prudence, and brought himself to resolve that he would at any rate become a candidate for the great prize. he also, therefore, began to say soft things; and it must be admitted that he said them with more considerate propriety than had the honourable george. mr moffat had an idea that miss dunstable was not a fool, and that in order to catch her he must do more than endeavour to lay salt on her tail, in the guise of flattery. it was evident to him that she was a bird of some cunning, not to be caught by an ordinary gin, such as those commonly in use with the honourable georges of society. it seemed to mr moffat, that though miss dunstable was so sprightly, so full of fun, and so ready to chatter on all subjects, she well knew the value of her own money, and of her position as dependent on it: he perceived that she never flattered the countess, and seemed to be no whit absorbed by the titled grandeur of her host's family. he gave her credit, therefore, for an independent spirit: and an independent spirit in his estimation was one that placed its sole dependence on a respectable balance at its banker's. working on these ideas, mr moffat commenced operations in such manner that his overtures to the heiress should not, if unsuccessful, interfere with the greshamsbury engagement. he began by making common cause with miss dunstable: their positions in the world, he said to her, were closely similar. they had both risen from the lower class by the strength of honest industry: they were both now wealthy, and had both hitherto made such use of their wealth as to induce the highest aristocracy of england to admit them into their circles. "yes, mr moffat," had miss dunstable remarked; "and if all that i hear be true, to admit you into their very families." at this mr moffat slightly demurred. he would not affect, he said, to misunderstand what miss dunstable meant. there had been something said on the probability of such an event; but he begged miss dunstable not to believe all that she heard on such subjects. "i do not believe much," said she; "but i certainly did think that that might be credited." mr moffat then went on to show how it behoved them both, in holding out their hands half-way to meet the aristocratic overtures that were made to them, not to allow themselves to be made use of. the aristocracy, according to mr moffat, were people of a very nice sort; the best acquaintance in the world; a portion of mankind to be noticed by whom should be one of the first objects in the life of the dunstables and the moffats. but the dunstables and moffats should be very careful to give little or nothing in return. much, very much in return, would be looked for. the aristocracy, said mr moffat, were not a people to allow the light of their countenance to shine forth without looking for a _quid pro quo_, for some compensating value. in all their intercourse with the dunstables and moffats, they would expect a payment. it was for the dunstables and moffats to see that, at any rate, they did not pay more for the article they got than its market value. the way in which she, miss dunstable, and he, mr moffat, would be required to pay would be by taking each of them some poor scion of the aristocracy in marriage; and thus expending their hard-earned wealth in procuring high-priced pleasures for some well-born pauper. against this, peculiar caution was to be used. of course, the further induction to be shown was this: that people so circumstanced should marry among themselves; the dunstables and the moffats each with the other, and not tumble into the pitfalls prepared for them. whether these great lessons had any lasting effect on miss dunstable's mind may be doubted. perhaps she had already made up her mind on the subject which mr moffat so well discussed. she was older than mr moffat, and, in spite of his two years of parliamentary experience, had perhaps more knowledge of the world with which she had to deal. but she listened to what he said with complacency; understood his object as well as she had that of his aristocratic rival; was no whit offended; but groaned in her spirit as she thought of the wrongs of augusta gresham. but all this good advice, however, would not win the money for mr moffat without some more decided step; and that step he soon decided on taking, feeling assured that what he had said would have its due weight with the heiress. the party at courcy castle was now soon about to be broken up. the male de courcys were going down to a scotch mountain. the female de courcys were to be shipped off to an irish castle. mr moffat was to go up to town to prepare his petition. miss dunstable was again about to start on a foreign tour in behalf of her physician and attendants; and frank gresham was at last to be allowed to go to cambridge; that is to say, unless his success with miss dunstable should render such a step on his part quite preposterous. "i think you may speak now, frank," said the countess. "i really think you may: you have known her now for a considerable time; and, as far as i can judge, she is very fond of you." "nonsense, aunt," said frank; "she doesn't care a button for me." "i think differently; and lookers-on, you know, always understand the game best. i suppose you are not afraid to ask her." "afraid!" said frank, in a tone of considerable scorn. he almost made up his mind that he would ask her to show that he was not afraid. his only obstacle to doing so was, that he had not the slightest intention of marrying her. there was to be but one other great event before the party broke up, and that was a dinner at the duke of omnium's. the duke had already declined to come to courcy; but he had in a measure atoned for this by asking some of the guests to join a great dinner which he was about to give to his neighbours. mr moffat was to leave courcy castle the day after the dinner-party, and he therefore determined to make his great attempt on the morning of that day. it was with some difficulty that he brought about an opportunity; but at last he did so, and found himself alone with miss dunstable in the walks of courcy park. "it is a strange thing, is it not," said he, recurring to his old view of the same subject, "that i should be going to dine with the duke of omnium--the richest man, they say, among the whole english aristocracy?" "men of that kind entertain everybody, i believe, now and then," said miss dunstable, not very civilly. "i believe they do; but i am not going as one of the everybodies. i am going from lord de courcy's house with some of his own family. i have no pride in that--not the least; i have more pride in my father's honest industry. but it shows what money does in this country of ours." "yes, indeed; money does a great deal many queer things." in saying this miss dunstable could not but think that money had done a very queer thing in inducing miss gresham to fall in love with mr moffat. "yes; wealth is very powerful: here we are, miss dunstable, the most honoured guests in the house." "oh! i don't know about that; you may be, for you are a member of parliament, and all that--" "no; not a member now, miss dunstable." "well, you will be, and that's all the same; but i have no such title to honour, thank god." they walked on in silence for a little while, for mr moffat hardly knew how to manage the business he had in hand. "it is quite delightful to watch these people," he said at last; "now they accuse us of being tuft-hunters." "do they?" said miss dunstable. "upon my word i didn't know that anybody ever so accused me." "i didn't mean you and me personally." "oh! i'm glad of that." "but that is what the world says of persons of our class. now it seems to me that the toadying is all on the other side. the countess here does toady you, and so do the young ladies." "do they? if so, upon my word i didn't know it. but, to tell the truth, i don't think much of such things. i live mostly to myself, mr moffat." "i see that you do, and i admire you for it; but, miss dunstable, you cannot always live so," and mr moffat looked at her in a manner which gave her the first intimation of his coming burst of tenderness. "that's as may be, mr moffat," said she. he went on beating about the bush for some time--giving her to understand how necessary it was that persons situated as they were should live either for themselves or for each other, and that, above all things, they should beware of falling into the mouths of voracious aristocratic lions who go about looking for prey--till they came to a turn in the grounds; at which miss dunstable declared her determination of going in. she had walked enough, she said. as by this time mr moffat's immediate intentions were becoming visible she thought it prudent to retire. "don't let me take you in, mr moffat; but my boots are a little damp, and dr easyman will never forgive me if i do not hurry in as fast as i can." "your feet damp?--i hope not: i do hope not," said he, with a look of the greatest solicitude. "oh! it's nothing to signify; but it's well to be prudent, you know. good morning, mr moffat." "miss dunstable!" "eh--yes!" and miss dunstable stopped in the grand path. "i won't let you return with me, mr moffat, because i know you were not coming in so soon." "miss dunstable; i shall be leaving this to-morrow." "yes; and i go myself the day after." "i know it. i am going to town and you are going abroad. it may be long--very long--before we meet again." "about easter," said miss dunstable; "that is, if the doctor doesn't knock up on the road." "and i had, had wished to say something before we part for so long a time. miss dunstable--" "stop!--mr moffat. let me ask you one question. i'll hear anything that you have got to say, but on one condition: that is, that miss augusta gresham shall be by while you say it. will you consent to that?" "miss augusta gresham," said he, "has no right to listen to my private conversation." "has she not, mr moffat? then i think she should have. i, at any rate, will not so far interfere with what i look on as her undoubted privileges as to be a party to any secret in which she may not participate." "but, miss dunstable--" "and to tell you fairly, mr moffat, any secret that you do tell me, i shall most undoubtedly repeat to her before dinner. good morning, mr moffat; my feet are certainly a little damp, and if i stay a moment longer, dr easyman will put off my foreign trip for at least a week." and so she left him standing alone in the middle of the gravel-walk. for a moment or two, mr moffat consoled himself in his misfortune by thinking how he might best avenge himself on miss dunstable. soon, however, such futile ideas left his brain. why should he give over the chase because the rich galleon had escaped him on this, his first cruise in pursuit of her? such prizes were not to be won so easily. her present objection clearly consisted in his engagement to miss gresham, and in that only. let that engagement be at an end, notoriously and publicly broken off, and this objection would fall to the ground. yes; ships so richly freighted were not to be run down in one summer morning's plain sailing. instead of looking for his revenge on miss dunstable, it would be more prudent in him--more in keeping with his character--to pursue his object, and overcome such difficulties as he might find in his way. chapter xix the duke of omnium the duke of omnium was, as we have said, a bachelor. not the less on that account did he on certain rare gala days entertain the beauty of the county at his magnificent rural seat, or the female fashion of london in belgrave square; but on this occasion the dinner at gatherum castle--for such was the name of his mansion--was to be confined to the lords of the creation. it was to be one of those days on which he collected round his board all the notables of the county, in order that his popularity might not wane, or the established glory of his hospitable house become dim. on such an occasion it was not probable that lord de courcy would be one of the guests. the party, indeed, who went from courcy castle was not large, and consisted of the honourable george, mr moffat, and frank gresham. they went in a tax-cart, with a tandem horse, driven very knowingly by george de courcy; and the fourth seat on the back of the vehicle was occupied by a servant, who was to look after the horses at gatherum. the honourable george drove either well or luckily, for he reached the duke's house in safety; but he drove very fast. poor miss dunstable! what would have been her lot had anything but good happened to that vehicle, so richly freighted with her three lovers! they did not quarrel as to the prize, and all reached gatherum castle in good humour with each other. the castle was a new building of white stone, lately erected at an enormous cost by one of the first architects of the day. it was an immense pile, and seemed to cover ground enough for a moderate-sized town. but, nevertheless, report said that when it was completed, the noble owner found that he had no rooms to live in; and that, on this account, when disposed to study his own comfort, he resided in a house of perhaps one-tenth the size, built by his grandfather in another county. gatherum castle would probably be called italian in its style of architecture; though it may, i think, be doubted whether any such edifice, or anything like it, was ever seen in any part of italy. it was a vast edifice; irregular in height--or it appeared to be so--having long wings on each side too high to be passed over by the eye as mere adjuncts to the mansion, and a portico so large as to make the house behind it look like another building of a greater altitude. this portico was supported by ionic columns, and was in itself doubtless a beautiful structure. it was approached by a flight of steps, very broad and very grand; but, as an approach by a flight of steps hardly suits an englishman's house, to the immediate entrance of which it is necessary that his carriage should drive, there was another front door in one of the wings which was commonly used. a carriage, however, could on very stupendously grand occasions--the visits, for instance, of queens and kings, and royal dukes--be brought up under the portico; as the steps had been so constructed as to admit of a road, with a rather stiff ascent, being made close in front of the wing up into the very porch. opening from the porch was the grand hall, which extended up to the top of the house. it was magnificent, indeed; being decorated with many-coloured marbles, and hung round with various trophies of the house of omnium; banners were there, and armour; the sculptured busts of many noble progenitors; full-length figures in marble of those who had been especially prominent; and every monument of glory that wealth, long years, and great achievements could bring together. if only a man could but live in his hall and be for ever happy there! but the duke of omnium could not live happily in his hall; and the fact was, that the architect, in contriving this magnificent entrance for his own honour and fame, had destroyed the duke's house as regards most of the ordinary purposes of residence. nevertheless, gatherum castle is a very noble pile; and, standing as it does on an eminence, has a very fine effect when seen from many a distant knoll and verdant-wooded hill. at seven o'clock mr de courcy and his friends got down from their drag at the smaller door--for this was no day on which to mount up under the portico; nor was that any suitable vehicle to have been entitled to such honour. frank felt some excitement a little stronger than that usual to him at such moments, for he had never yet been in company with the duke of omnium; and he rather puzzled himself to think on what points he would talk to the man who was the largest landowner in that county in which he himself had so great an interest. he, however, made up his mind that he would allow the duke to choose his own subjects; merely reserving to himself the right of pointing out how deficient in gorse covers was west barsetshire--that being the duke's division. they were soon divested of their coats and hats, and, without entering on the magnificence of the great hall, were conducted through rather a narrow passage into rather a small drawing-room--small, that is, in proportion to the number of gentlemen there assembled. there might be about thirty, and frank was inclined to think that they were almost crowded. a man came forward to greet them when their names were announced; but our hero at once knew that he was not the duke; for this man was fat and short, whereas the duke was thin and tall. there was a great hubbub going on; for everybody seemed to be talking to his neighbour; or, in default of a neighbour, to himself. it was clear that the exalted rank of their host had put very little constraint on his guests' tongues, for they chatted away with as much freedom as farmers at an ordinary. "which is the duke?" at last frank contrived to whisper to his cousin. "oh;--he's not here," said george; "i suppose he'll be in presently. i believe he never shows till just before dinner." frank, of course, had nothing further to say; but he already began to feel himself a little snubbed: he thought that the duke, duke though he was, when he asked people to dinner should be there to tell them that he was glad to see them. more people flashed into the room, and frank found himself rather closely wedged in with a stout clergyman of his acquaintance. he was not badly off, for mr athill was a friend of his own, who had held a living near greshamsbury. lately, however, at the lamented decease of dr stanhope--who had died of apoplexy at his villa in italy--mr athill had been presented with the better preferment of eiderdown, and had, therefore, removed to another part of the county. he was somewhat of a bon-vivant, and a man who thoroughly understood dinner-parties; and with much good nature he took frank under his special protection. "you stick to me, mr gresham," he said, "when we go into the dining-room. i'm an old hand at the duke's dinners, and know how to make a friend comfortable as well as myself." "but why doesn't the duke come in?" demanded frank. "he'll be here as soon as dinner is ready," said mr athill. "or, rather, the dinner will be ready as soon as he is here. i don't care, therefore, how soon he comes." frank did not understand this, but he had nothing to do but to wait and see how things went. he was beginning to be impatient, for the room was now nearly full, and it seemed evident that no other guests were coming; when suddenly a bell rang, and a gong was sounded, and at the same instant a door that had not yet been used flew open, and a very plainly dressed, plain, tall man entered the room. frank at once knew that he was at last in the presence of the duke of omnium. but his grace, late as he was in commencing the duties as host, seemed in no hurry to make up for lost time. he quietly stood on the rug, with his back to the empty grate, and spoke one or two words in a very low voice to one or two gentlemen who stood nearest to him. the crowd, in the meanwhile, became suddenly silent. frank, when he found that the duke did not come and speak to him, felt that he ought to go and speak to the duke; but no one else did so, and when he whispered his surprise to mr athill, that gentleman told him that this was the duke's practice on all such occasions. "fothergill," said the duke--and it was the only word he had yet spoken out loud--"i believe we are ready for dinner." now mr fothergill was the duke's land-agent, and he it was who had greeted frank and his friends at their entrance. immediately the gong was again sounded, and another door leading out of the drawing-room into the dining-room was opened. the duke led the way, and then the guests followed. "stick close to me, mr gresham," said athill, "we'll get about the middle of the table, where we shall be cosy--and on the other side of the room, out of this dreadful draught--i know the place well, mr gresham; stick to me." mr athill, who was a pleasant, chatty companion, had hardly seated himself, and was talking to frank as quickly as he could, when mr fothergill, who sat at the bottom of the table, asked him to say grace. it seemed to be quite out of the question that the duke should take any trouble with his guests whatever. mr athill consequently dropped the word he was speaking, and uttered a prayer--if it was a prayer--that they might all have grateful hearts for that which god was about to give them. if it was a prayer! as far as my own experience goes, such utterances are seldom prayers, seldom can be prayers. and if not prayers, what then? to me it is unintelligible that the full tide of glibbest chatter can be stopped at a moment in the midst of profuse good living, and the giver thanked becomingly in words of heartfelt praise. setting aside for the moment what one daily hears and sees, may not one declare that a change so sudden is not within the compass of the human mind? but then, to such reasoning one cannot but add what one does hear and see; one cannot but judge of the ceremony by the manner in which one sees it performed--uttered, that is--and listened to. clergymen there are--one meets them now and then--who endeavour to give to the dinner-table grace some of the solemnity of a church ritual, and what is the effect? much the same as though one were to be interrupted for a minute in the midst of one of our church liturgies to hear a drinking-song. and it will be argued, that a man need be less thankful because, at the moment of receiving, he utters no thanksgiving? or will it be thought that a man is made thankful because what is called a grace is uttered after dinner? it can hardly be imagined that any one will so argue, or so think. dinner-graces are, probably, the last remaining relic of certain daily services [ ] which the church in olden days enjoined: nones, complines, and vespers were others. of the nones and complines we have happily got quit; and it might be well if we could get rid of the dinner-graces also. let any man ask himself whether, on his own part, they are acts of prayer and thanksgiving--and if not that, what then? [footnote : it is, i know, alleged that graces are said before dinner, because our saviour uttered a blessing before his last supper. i cannot say that the idea of such analogy is pleasing to me.] when the large party entered the dining-room one or two gentlemen might be seen to come in from some other door and set themselves at the table near to the duke's chair. these were guests of his own, who were staying in the house, his particular friends, the men with whom he lived: the others were strangers whom he fed, perhaps once a year, in order that his name might be known in the land as that of one who distributed food and wine hospitably through the county. the food and wine, the attendance also, and the view of the vast repository of plate he vouchsafed willingly to his county neighbours;--but it was beyond his good nature to talk to them. to judge by the present appearance of most of them, they were quite as well satisfied to be left alone. frank was altogether a stranger there, but mr athill knew every one at the table. "that's apjohn," said he: "don't you know, mr apjohn, the attorney from barchester? he's always here; he does some of fothergill's law business, and makes himself useful. if any fellow knows the value of a good dinner, he does. you'll see that the duke's hospitality will not be thrown away on him." "it's very much thrown away upon me, i know," said frank, who could not at all put up with the idea of sitting down to dinner without having been spoken to by his host. "oh, nonsense!" said his clerical friend; "you'll enjoy yourself amazingly by and by. there is not such champagne in any other house in barsetshire; and then the claret--" and mr athill pressed his lips together, and gently shook his head, meaning to signify by the motion that the claret of gatherum castle was sufficient atonement for any penance which a man might have to go through in his mode of obtaining it. "who's that funny little man sitting there, next but one to mr de courcy? i never saw such a queer fellow in my life." "don't you know old bolus? well, i thought every one in barsetshire knew bolus; you especially should do so, as he is such a dear friend of dr thorne." "a dear friend of dr thorne?" "yes; he was apothecary at scarington in the old days, before dr fillgrave came into vogue. i remember when bolus was thought to be a very good sort of doctor." "is he--is he--" whispered frank, "is he by way of a gentleman?" "ha! ha! ha! well, i suppose we must be charitable, and say that he is quite as good, at any rate, as many others there are here--" and mr athill, as he spoke, whispered into frank's ear, "you see there's finnie here, another barchester attorney. now, i really think where finnie goes bolus may go too." "the more the merrier, i suppose," said frank. "well, something a little like that. i wonder why thorne is not here? i'm sure he was asked." "perhaps he did not particularly wish to meet finnie and bolus. do you know, mr athill, i think he was quite right not to come. as for myself, i wish i was anywhere else." "ha! ha! ha! you don't know the duke's ways yet; and what's more, you're young, you happy fellow! but thorne should have more sense; he ought to show himself here." the gormandizing was now going on at a tremendous rate. though the volubility of their tongues had been for a while stopped by the first shock of the duke's presence, the guests seemed to feel no such constraint upon their teeth. they fed, one may almost say, rabidly, and gave their orders to the servants in an eager manner; much more impressive than that usual at smaller parties. mr apjohn, who sat immediately opposite to frank, had, by some well-planned manoeuvre, contrived to get before him the jowl of a salmon; but, unfortunately, he was not for a while equally successful in the article of sauce. a very limited portion--so at least thought mr apjohn--had been put on his plate; and a servant, with a huge sauce tureen, absolutely passed behind his back inattentive to his audible requests. poor mr apjohn in his despair turned round to arrest the man by his coat-tails; but he was a moment too late, and all but fell backwards on the floor. as he righted himself he muttered an anathema, and looked with a face of anguish at his plate. "anything the matter, apjohn?" said mr fothergill, kindly, seeing the utter despair written on the poor man's countenance; "can i get anything for you?" "the sauce!" said mr apjohn, in a voice that would have melted a hermit; and as he looked at mr fothergill, he pointed at the now distant sinner, who was dispensing his melted ambrosia at least ten heads upwards, away from the unfortunate supplicant. mr fothergill, however, knew where to look for balm for such wounds, and in a minute or two, mr apjohn was employed quite to his heart's content. "well," said frank to his neighbour, "it may be very well once in a way; but i think that on the whole dr thorne is right." "my dear mr gresham, see the world on all sides," said mr athill, who had also been somewhat intent on the gratification of his own appetite, though with an energy less evident than that of the gentleman opposite. "see the world on all sides if you have an opportunity; and, believe me, a good dinner now and then is a very good thing." "yes; but i don't like eating it with hogs." "whish-h! softly, softly, mr gresham, or you'll disturb mr apjohn's digestion. upon my word, he'll want it all before he has done. now, i like this kind of thing once in a way." "do you?" said frank, in a tone that was almost savage. "yes; indeed i do. one sees so much character. and after all, what harm does it do?" "my idea is that people should live with those whose society is pleasant to them." "live--yes, mr gresham--i agree with you there. it wouldn't do for me to live with the duke of omnium; i shouldn't understand, or probably approve, his ways. nor should i, perhaps, much like the constant presence of mr apjohn. but now and then--once in a year or so--i do own i like to see them both. here's the cup; now, whatever you do, mr gresham, don't pass the cup without tasting it." and so the dinner passed on, slowly enough as frank thought, but all too quickly for mr apjohn. it passed away, and the wine came circulating freely. the tongues again were loosed, the teeth being released from their labours, and under the influence of the claret the duke's presence was forgotten. but very speedily the coffee was brought. "this will soon be over now," said frank, to himself, thankfully; for, though he be no means despised good claret, he had lost his temper too completely to enjoy it at the present moment. but he was much mistaken; the farce as yet was only at its commencement. the duke took his cup of coffee, and so did the few friends who sat close to him; but the beverage did not seem to be in great request with the majority of the guests. when the duke had taken his modicum, he rose up and silently retired, saying no word and making no sign. and then the farce commenced. "now, gentlemen," said mr fothergill, cheerily, "we are all right. apjohn, is there claret there? mr bolus, i know you stick to the madeira; you are quite right, for there isn't much of it left, and my belief is there'll never be more like it." and so the duke's hospitality went on, and the duke's guests drank merrily for the next two hours. "shan't we see any more of him?" asked frank. "any more of whom?" said mr athill. "of the duke?" "oh, no; you'll see no more of him. he always goes when the coffee comes. it's brought in as an excuse. we've had enough of the light of his countenance to last till next year. the duke and i are excellent friends; and have been so these fifteen years; but i never see more of him than that." "i shall go away," said frank. "nonsense. mr de courcy and your other friend won't stir for this hour yet." "i don't care. i shall walk on, and they may catch me. i may be wrong; but it seems to me that a man insults me when he asks me to dine with him and never speaks to me. i don't care if he be ten times duke of omnium; he can't be more than a gentleman, and as such i am his equal." and then, having thus given vent to his feelings in somewhat high-flown language, he walked forth and trudged away along the road towards courcy. frank gresham had been born and bred a conservative, whereas the duke of omnium was well known as a consistent whig. there is no one so devoutly resolved to admit of no superior as your conservative, born and bred, no one so inclined to high domestic despotism as your thoroughgoing consistent old whig. when he had proceeded about six miles, frank was picked up by his friends; but even then his anger had hardly cooled. "was the duke as civil as ever when you took your leave of him?" said he to his cousin george, as he took his seat on the drag. "the juke was jeuced jude wine--lem me tell you that, old fella," hiccupped out the honourable george, as he touched up the leader under the flank. chapter xx the proposal and now the departures from courcy castle came rapidly one after another, and there remained but one more evening before miss dunstable's carriage was to be packed. the countess, in the early moments of frank's courtship, had controlled his ardour and checked the rapidity of his amorous professions; but as days, and at last weeks, wore away, she found that it was necessary to stir the fire which she had before endeavoured to slacken. "there will be nobody here to-night but our own circle," said she to him, "and i really think you should tell miss dunstable what your intentions are. she will have fair ground to complain of you if you do not." frank began to feel that he was in a dilemma. he had commenced making love to miss dunstable partly because he liked the amusement, and partly from a satirical propensity to quiz his aunt by appearing to fall into her scheme. but he had overshot the mark, and did not know what answer to give when he was thus called upon to make a downright proposal. and then, although he did not care two rushes about miss dunstable in the way of love, he nevertheless experienced a sort of jealousy when he found that she appeared to be indifferent to him, and that she corresponded the meanwhile with his cousin george. though all their flirtations had been carried on on both sides palpably by way of fun, though frank had told himself ten times a day that his heart was true to mary thorne, yet he had an undefined feeling that it behoved miss dunstable to be a little in love with him. he was not quite at ease in that she was not a little melancholy now that his departure was so nigh; and, above all, he was anxious to know what were the real facts about that letter. he had in his own breast threatened miss dunstable with a heartache; and now, when the time for their separation came, he found that his own heart was the more likely to ache of the two. "i suppose i must say something to her, or my aunt will never be satisfied," said he to himself as he sauntered into the little drawing-room on that last evening. but at the very time he was ashamed of himself, for he knew he was going to ask badly. his sister and one of his cousins were in the room, but his aunt, who was quite on the alert, soon got them out of it, and frank and miss dunstable were alone. "so all our fun and all our laughter is come to an end," said she, beginning the conversation. "i don't know how you feel, but for myself i really am a little melancholy at the idea of parting;" and she looked up at him with her laughing black eyes, as though she never had, and never could have a care in the world. "melancholy! oh, yes; you look so," said frank, who really did feel somewhat lackadaisically sentimental. "but how thoroughly glad the countess must be that we are both going," continued she. "i declare we have treated her most infamously. ever since we've been here we've had all the amusement to ourselves. i've sometimes thought she would turn me out of the house." "i wish with all my heart she had." "oh, you cruel barbarian! why on earth should you wish that?" "that i might have joined you in your exile. i hate courcy castle, and should have rejoiced to leave--and--and--" "and what?" "and i love miss dunstable, and should have doubly, trebly rejoiced to leave it with her." frank's voice quivered a little as he made this gallant profession; but still miss dunstable only laughed the louder. "upon my word, of all my knights you are by far the best behaved," said she, "and say much the prettiest things." frank became rather red in the face, and felt that he did so. miss dunstable was treating him like a boy. while she pretended to be so fond of him she was only laughing at him, and corresponding the while with his cousin george. now frank gresham already entertained a sort of contempt for his cousin, which increased the bitterness of his feelings. could it really be possible that george had succeeded while he had utterly failed; that his stupid cousin had touched the heart of the heiress while she was playing with him as with a boy? "of all your knights! is that the way you talk to me when we are going to part? when was it, miss dunstable, that george de courcy became one of them?" miss dunstable for a while looked serious enough. "what makes you ask that?" said she. "what makes you inquire about mr de courcy?" "oh, i have eyes, you know, and can't help seeing. not that i see, or have seen anything that i could possibly help." "and what have you seen, mr gresham?" "why, i know you have been writing to him." "did he tell you so?" "no; he did not tell me; but i know it." for a moment she sat silent, and then her face again resumed its usual happy smile. "come, mr gresham, you are not going to quarrel with me, i hope, even if i did write a letter to your cousin. why should i not write to him? i correspond with all manner of people. i'll write to you some of these days if you'll let me, and will promise to answer my letters." frank threw himself back on the sofa on which he was sitting, and, in doing so, brought himself somewhat nearer to his companion than he had been; he then drew his hand slowly across his forehead, pushing back his thick hair, and as he did so he sighed somewhat plaintively. "i do not care," said he, "for the privilege of correspondence on such terms. if my cousin george is to be a correspondent of yours also, i will give up my claim." and then he sighed again, so that it was piteous to hear him. he was certainly an arrant puppy, and an egregious ass into the bargain; but then, it must be remembered in his favour that he was only twenty-one, and that much had been done to spoil him. miss dunstable did remember this, and therefore abstained from laughing at him. "why, mr gresham, what on earth do you mean? in all human probability i shall never write another line to mr de courcy; but, if i did, what possible harm could it do you?" "oh, miss dunstable! you do not in the least understand what my feelings are." "don't i? then i hope i never shall. i thought i did. i thought they were the feelings of a good, true-hearted friend; feelings that i could sometimes look back upon with pleasure as being honest when so much that one meets is false. i have become very fond of you, mr gresham, and i should be sorry to think that i did not understand your feelings." this was almost worse and worse. young ladies like miss dunstable--for she was still to be numbered in the category of young ladies--do not usually tell young gentlemen that they are very fond of them. to boys and girls they may make such a declaration. now frank gresham regarded himself as one who had already fought his battles, and fought them not without glory; he could not therefore endure to be thus openly told by miss dunstable that she was very fond of him. "fond of me, miss dunstable! i wish you were." "so i am--very." "you little know how fond i am of you, miss dunstable," and he put out his hand to take hold of hers. she then lifted up her own, and slapped him lightly on the knuckles. "and what can you have to say to miss dunstable that can make it necessary that you should pinch her hand? i tell you fairly, mr gresham, if you make a fool of yourself, i shall come to a conclusion that you are all fools, and that it is hopeless to look out for any one worth caring for." such advice as this, so kindly given, so wisely meant, so clearly intelligible, he should have taken and understood, young as he was. but even yet he did not do so. "a fool of myself! yes; i suppose i must be a fool if i have so much regard for miss dunstable as to make it painful for me to know that i am to see her no more: a fool: yes, of course i am a fool--a man is always a fool when he loves." miss dunstable could not pretend to doubt his meaning any longer; and was determined to stop him, let it cost what it would. she now put out her hand, not over white, and, as frank soon perceived, gifted with a very fair allowance of strength. "now, mr gresham," said she, "before you go any further you shall listen to me. will you listen to me for a moment without interrupting me?" frank was of course obliged to promise that he would do so. "you are going--or rather you were going, for i shall stop you--to make a profession of love." "a profession!" said frank making a slight unsuccessful effort to get his hand free. "yes; a profession--a false profession, mr gresham,--a false profession--a false profession. look into your heart--into your heart of hearts. i know you at any rate have a heart; look into it closely. mr gresham, you know you do not love me; not as a man should love the woman whom he swears to love." frank was taken aback. so appealed to he found that he could not any longer say that he did love her. he could only look into her face with all his eyes, and sit there listening to her. "how is it possible that you should love me? i am heaven knows how many years your senior. i am neither young nor beautiful, nor have i been brought up as she should be whom you in time will really love and make your wife. i have nothing that should make you love me; but--but i am rich." "it is not that," said frank, stoutly, feeling himself imperatively called upon to utter something in his own defence. "ah, mr gresham, i fear it is that. for what other reason can you have laid your plans to talk in this way to such a woman as i am?" "i have laid no plans," said frank, now getting his hand to himself. "at any rate, you wrong me there, miss dunstable." "i like you so well--nay, love you, if a woman may talk of love in the way of friendship--that if money, money alone would make you happy, you should have it heaped on you. if you want it, mr gresham, you shall have it." "i have never thought of your money," said frank, surlily. "but it grieves me," continued she, "it does grieve me, to think that you, you, you--so young, so gay, so bright--that you should have looked for it in this way. from others i have taken it just as the wind that whistles;" and now two big slow tears escaped from her eyes, and would have rolled down her rosy cheeks were it not that she brushed them off with the back of her hand. "you have utterly mistaken me, miss dunstable," said frank. "if i have, i will humbly beg your pardon," said she. "but--but--but--" "you have; indeed you have." "how can i have mistaken you? were you not about to say that you loved me; to talk absolute nonsense; to make me an offer? if you were not, if i have mistaken you indeed, i will beg your pardon." frank had nothing further to say in his own defence. he had not wanted miss dunstable's money--that was true; but he could not deny that he had been about to talk that absolute nonsense of which she spoke with so much scorn. "you would almost make me think that there are none honest in this fashionable world of yours. i well know why lady de courcy has had me here: how could i help knowing it? she has been so foolish in her plans that ten times a day she has told her own secret. but i have said to myself twenty times, that if she were crafty, you were honest." "and am i dishonest?" "i have laughed in my sleeve to see how she played her game, and to hear others around playing theirs; all of them thinking that they could get the money of the poor fool who had come at their beck and call; but i was able to laugh at them as long as i thought that i had one true friend to laugh with me. but one cannot laugh with all the world against one." "i am not against you, miss dunstable." "sell yourself for money! why, if i were a man i would not sell one jot of liberty for mountains of gold. what! tie myself in the heyday of my youth to a person i could never love, for a price! perjure myself, destroy myself--and not only myself, but her also, in order that i might live idly! oh, heavens! mr gresham! can it be that the words of such a woman as your aunt have sunk so deeply in your heart; have blackened you so foully as to make you think of such vile folly as this? have you forgotten your soul, your spirit, your man's energy, the treasure of your heart? and you, so young! for shame, mr gresham! for shame--for shame." frank found the task before him by no means an easy one. he had to make miss dunstable understand that he had never had the slightest idea of marrying her, and that he had made love to her merely with the object of keeping his hand in for the work as it were; with that object, and the other equally laudable one of interfering with his cousin george. and yet there was nothing for him but to get through this task as best he might. he was goaded to it by the accusations which miss dunstable brought against him; and he began to feel, that though her invective against him might be bitter when he had told the truth, they could not be so bitter as those she now kept hinting at under her mistaken impression as to his views. he had never had any strong propensity for money-hunting; but now that offence appeared in his eyes abominable, unmanly, and disgusting. any imputation would be better than that. "miss dunstable, i never for a moment thought of doing what you accuse me of; on my honour, i never did. i have been very foolish--very wrong--idiotic, i believe; but i have never intended that." "then, mr gresham, what did you intend?" this was rather a difficult question to answer; and frank was not very quick in attempting it. "i know you will not forgive me," he said at last; "and, indeed, i do not see how you can. i don't know how it came about; but this is certain, miss dunstable; i have never for a moment thought about your fortune; that is, thought about it in the way of coveting it." "you never thought of making me your wife, then?" "never," said frank, looking boldly into her face. "you never intended really to propose to go with me to the altar, and then make yourself rich by one great perjury?" "never for a moment," said he. "you have never gloated over me as the bird of prey gloats over the poor beast that is soon to become carrion beneath its claws? you have not counted me out as equal to so much land, and calculated on me as a balance at your banker's? ah, mr gresham," she continued, seeing that he stared as though struck almost with awe by her strong language; "you little guess what a woman situated as i am has to suffer." "i have behaved badly to you, miss dunstable, and i beg your pardon; but i have never thought of your money." "then we will be friends again, mr gresham, won't we? it is so nice to have a friend like you. there, i think i understand it now; you need not tell me." "it was half by way of making a fool of my aunt," said frank, in an apologetic tone. "there is merit in that, at any rate," said miss dunstable. "i understand it all now; you thought to make a fool of me in real earnest. well, i can forgive that; at any rate it is not mean." it may be, that miss dunstable did not feel much acute anger at finding that this young man had addressed her with words of love in the course of an ordinary flirtation, although that flirtation had been unmeaning and silly. this was not the offence against which her heart and breast had found peculiar cause to arm itself; this was not the injury from which she had hitherto experienced suffering. at any rate, she and frank again became friends, and, before the evening was over, they perfectly understood each other. twice during this long _tête-à-tête_ lady de courcy came into the room to see how things were going on, and twice she went out almost unnoticed. it was quite clear to her that something uncommon had taken place, was taking place, or would take place; and that should this be for weal or for woe, no good could now come from her interference. on each occasion, therefore, she smiled sweetly on the pair of turtle-doves, and glided out of the room as quietly as she had glided into it. but at last it became necessary to remove them; for the world had gone to bed. frank, in the meantime, had told to miss dunstable all his love for mary thorne, and miss dunstable had enjoined him to be true to his vows. to her eyes there was something of heavenly beauty in young, true love--of beauty that was heavenly because it had been unknown to her. "mind you let me hear, mr gresham," said she. "mind you do; and, mr gresham, never, never forget her for one moment; not for one moment, mr gresham." frank was about to swear that he never would--again, when the countess, for the third time, sailed into the room. "young people," said she, "do you know what o'clock it is?" "dear me, lady de courcy, i declare it is past twelve; i really am ashamed of myself. how glad you will be to get rid of me to-morrow!" "no, no, indeed we shan't; shall we, frank?" and so miss dunstable passed out. then once again the aunt tapped her nephew with her fan. it was the last time in her life that she did so. he looked up in her face, and his look was enough to tell her that the acres of greshamsbury were not to be reclaimed by the ointment of lebanon. nothing further on the subject was said. on the following morning miss dunstable took her departure, not much heeding the rather cold words of farewell which her hostess gave her; and on the following day frank started for greshamsbury. chapter xxi mr moffat falls into trouble we will now, with the reader's kind permission, skip over some months in our narrative. frank returned from courcy castle to greshamsbury, and having communicated to his mother--much in the same manner as he had to the countess--the fact that his mission had been unsuccessful, he went up after a day or two to cambridge. during his short stay at greshamsbury he did not even catch a glimpse of mary. he asked for her, of course, and was told that it was not likely that she would be at the house just at present. he called at the doctor's, but she was denied to him there; "she was out," janet said,--"probably with miss oriel." he went to the parsonage and found miss oriel at home; but mary had not been seen that morning. he then returned to the house; and, having come to the conclusion that she had not thus vanished into air, otherwise than by preconcerted arrangement, he boldly taxed beatrice on the subject. beatrice looked very demure; declared that no one in the house had quarrelled with mary; confessed that it had been thought prudent that she should for a while stay away from greshamsbury; and, of course, ended by telling her brother everything, including all the scenes that had passed between mary and herself. "it is out of the question your thinking of marrying her, frank," said she. "you must know that nobody feels it more strongly than poor mary herself;" and beatrice looked the very personification of domestic prudence. "i know nothing of the kind," said he, with the headlong imperative air that was usual with him in discussing matters with his sisters. "i know nothing of the kind. of course i cannot say what mary's feelings may be: a pretty life she must have had of it among you. but you may be sure of this, beatrice, and so may my mother, that nothing on earth shall make me give her up--nothing." and frank, as he made the protestation, strengthened his own resolution by thinking of all the counsel that miss dunstable had given him. the brother and sister could hardly agree, as beatrice was dead against the match. not that she would not have liked mary thorne for a sister-in-law, but that she shared to a certain degree the feeling which was now common to all the greshams--that frank must marry money. it seemed, at any rate, to be imperative that he should either do that or not marry at all. poor beatrice was not very mercenary in her views: she had no wish to sacrifice her brother to any miss dunstable; but yet she felt, as they all felt--mary thorne included--that such a match as that, of the young heir with the doctor's niece, was not to be thought of;--not to be spoken of as a thing that was in any way possible. therefore, beatrice, though she was mary's great friend, though she was her brother's favourite sister, could give frank no encouragement. poor frank! circumstances had made but one bride possible to him: he must marry money. his mother said nothing to him on the subject: when she learnt that the affair with miss dunstable was not to come off, she merely remarked that it would perhaps be best for him to return to cambridge as soon as possible. had she spoken her mind out, she would probably have also advised him to remain there as long as possible. the countess had not omitted to write to her when frank left courcy castle; and the countess's letter certainly made the anxious mother think that her son's education had hardly yet been completed. with this secondary object, but with that of keeping him out of the way of mary thorne in the first place, lady arabella was now quite satisfied that her son should enjoy such advantages as an education completed at the university might give him. with his father frank had a long conversation; but, alas! the gist of his father's conversation was this, that it behoved him, frank, to marry money. the father, however, did not put it to him in the cold, callous way in which his lady-aunt had done, and his lady-mother. he did not bid him go and sell himself to the first female he could find possessed of wealth. it was with inward self-reproaches, and true grief of spirit, that the father told the son that it was not possible for him to do as those may do who are born really rich, or really poor. "if you marry a girl without a fortune, frank, how are you to live?" the father asked, after having confessed how deep he himself had injured his own heir. "i don't care about money, sir," said frank. "i shall be just as happy as if boxall hill had never been sold. i don't care a straw about that sort of thing." "ah! my boy; but you will care: you will soon find that you do care." "let me go into some profession. let me go to the bar. i am sure i could earn my own living. earn it! of course i could, why not i as well as others? i should like of all things to be a barrister." there was much more of the same kind, in which frank said all that he could think of to lessen his father's regrets. in their conversation not a word was spoken about mary thorne. frank was not aware whether or no his father had been told of the great family danger which was dreaded in that quarter. that he had been told, we may surmise, as lady arabella was not wont to confine the family dangers to her own bosom. moreover, mary's presence had, of course, been missed. the truth was, that the squire had been told, with great bitterness, of what had come to pass, and all the evil had been laid at his door. he it had been who had encouraged mary to be regarded almost as a daughter of the house of greshamsbury; he it was who taught that odious doctor--odious in all but his aptitude for good doctoring--to think himself a fit match for the aristocracy of the county. it had been his fault, this great necessity that frank should marry money; and now it was his fault that frank was absolutely talking of marrying a pauper. by no means in quiescence did the squire hear these charges brought against him. the lady arabella, in each attack, got quite as much as she gave, and, at last, was driven to retreat in a state of headache, which she declared to be chronic; and which, so she assured her daughter augusta, must prevent her from having any more lengthened conversations with her lord--at any rate for the next three months. but though the squire may be said to have come off on the whole as victor in these combats, they did not perhaps have, on that account, the less effect upon him. he knew it was true that he had done much towards ruining his son; and he also could think of no other remedy than matrimony. it was frank's doom, pronounced even by the voice of his father, that he must marry money. and so, frank went off again to cambridge, feeling himself, as he went, to be a much lesser man in greshamsbury estimation than he had been some two months earlier, when his birthday had been celebrated. once during his short stay at greshamsbury he had seen the doctor; but the meeting had been anything but pleasant. he had been afraid to ask after mary; and the doctor had been too diffident of himself to speak of her. they had met casually on the road, and, though each in his heart loved the other, the meeting had been anything but pleasant. and so frank went back to cambridge; and, as he did so, he stoutly resolved that nothing should make him untrue to mary thorne. "beatrice," said he, on the morning he went away, when she came into his room to superintend his packing--"beatrice, if she ever talks about me--" "oh, frank, my darling frank, don't think of it--it is madness; she knows it is madness." "never mind; if she ever talks about me, tell her that the last word i said was, that i would never forget her. she can do as she likes." beatrice made no promise, never hinted that she would give the message; but it may be taken for granted that she had not been long in company with mary thorne before she did give it. and then there were other troubles at greshamsbury. it had been decided that augusta's marriage was to take place in september; but mr moffat had, unfortunately, been obliged to postpone the happy day. he himself had told augusta--not, of course, without protestations as to his regret--and had written to this effect to mr gresham, "electioneering matters, and other troubles had," he said, "made this peculiarly painful postponement absolutely necessary." augusta seemed to bear her misfortune with more equanimity than is, we believe, usual with young ladies under such circumstances. she spoke of it to her mother in a very matter-of-fact way, and seemed almost contented at the idea of remaining at greshamsbury till february; which was the time now named for the marriage. but lady arabella was not equally well satisfied, nor was the squire. "i half believe that fellow is not honest," he had once said out loud before frank, and this set frank a-thinking of what dishonesty in the matter it was probable that mr moffat might be guilty, and what would be the fitting punishment for such a crime. nor did he think on the subject in vain; especially after a conference on the matter which he had with his friend harry baker. this conference took place during the christmas vacation. it should be mentioned, that the time spent by frank at courcy castle had not done much to assist him in his views as to an early degree, and that it had at last been settled that he should stay up at cambridge another year. when he came home at christmas he found that the house was not peculiarly lively. mary was absent on a visit with miss oriel. both these young ladies were staying with miss oriel's aunt, in the neighbourhood of london; and frank soon learnt that there was no chance that either of them would be home before his return. no message had been left for him by mary--none at least had been left with beatrice; and he began in his heart to accuse her of coldness and perfidy;--not, certainly, with much justice, seeing that she had never given him the slightest encouragement. the absence of patience oriel added to the dullness of the place. it was certainly hard upon frank that all the attraction of the village should be removed to make way and prepare for his return--harder, perhaps, on them; for, to tell the truth, miss oriel's visit had been entirely planned to enable her to give mary a comfortable way of leaving greshamsbury during the time that frank should remain at home. frank thought himself cruelly used. but what did mr oriel think when doomed to eat his christmas pudding alone, because the young squire would be unreasonable in his love? what did the doctor think, as he sat solitary by his deserted hearth--the doctor, who no longer permitted himself to enjoy the comforts of the greshamsbury dining-table? frank hinted and grumbled; talked to beatrice of the determined constancy of his love, and occasionally consoled himself by a stray smile from some of the neighbouring belles. the black horse was made perfect; the old grey pony was by no means discarded; and much that was satisfactory was done in the sporting line. but still the house was dull, and frank felt that he was the cause of its being so. of the doctor he saw but little: he never came to greshamsbury unless to see lady arabella as doctor, or to be closeted with the squire. there were no social evenings with him; no animated confabulations at the doctor's house; no discourses between them, as there had wont to be, about the merits of the different covers, and the capacities of the different hounds. these were dull days on the whole for frank; and sad enough, we may say, for our friend the doctor. in february, frank again went back to college; having settled with harry baker certain affairs which weighed on his mind. he went back to cambridge, promising to be home on the th of the month, so as to be present at his sister's wedding. a cold and chilling time had been named for these hymeneal joys, but one not altogether unsuited to the feelings of the happy pair. february is certainly not a warm month; but with the rich it is generally a cosy, comfortable time. good fires, winter cheer, groaning tables, and warm blankets, make a fictitious summer, which, to some tastes, is more delightful than the long days and the hot sun. and some marriages are especially winter matches. they depend for their charm on the same substantial attractions: instead of heart beating to heart in sympathetic unison, purse chinks to purse. the rich new furniture of the new abode is looked to instead of the rapture of a pure embrace. the new carriage is depended on rather than the new heart's companion; and the first bright gloss, prepared by the upholsterer's hands, stands in lieu of the rosy tints which young love lends to his true votaries. mr moffat had not spent his christmas at greshamsbury. that eternal election petition, those eternal lawyers, the eternal care of his well-managed wealth, forbade him the enjoyment of any such pleasures. he could not come to greshamsbury for christmas, nor yet for the festivities of the new year; but now and then he wrote prettily worded notes, sending occasionally a silver-gilt pencil-case, or a small brooch, and informed lady arabella that he looked forward to the th of february with great satisfaction. but, in the meanwhile, the squire became anxious, and at last went up to london; and frank, who was at cambridge, bought the heaviest cutting whip to be found in that town, and wrote a confidential letter to harry baker. poor mr moffat! it is well known that none but the brave deserve the fair; but thou, without much excuse for bravery, had secured for thyself one who, at any rate, was fair enough for thee. would it not have been well hadst thou looked into thyself to see what real bravery might be in thee, before thou hadst prepared to desert this fair one thou hadst already won? that last achievement, one may say, did require some special courage. poor mr moffat! it is wonderful that as he sat in that gig, going to gatherum castle, planning how he would be off with miss gresham and afterwards on with miss dunstable, it is wonderful that he should not then have cast his eye behind him, and looked at that stalwart pair of shoulders which were so close to his own back. as he afterwards pondered on his scheme while sipping the duke's claret, it is odd that he should not have observed the fiery pride of purpose and power of wrath which was so plainly written on that young man's brow: or, when he matured, and finished, and carried out his purpose, that he did not think of that keen grasp which had already squeezed his own hand with somewhat too warm a vigour, even in the way of friendship. poor mr moffat! it is probable that he forgot to think of frank at all as connected with his promised bride; it is probable that he looked forward only to the squire's violence and the enmity of the house of courcy; and that he found from enquiry at his heart's pulses, that he was man enough to meet these. could he have guessed what a whip frank gresham would have bought at cambridge--could he have divined what a letter would have been written to harry baker--it is probable, nay, we think we may say certain, that miss gresham would have become mrs moffat. miss gresham, however, never did become mrs moffat. about two days after frank's departure for cambridge--it is just possible that mr moffat was so prudent as to make himself aware of the fact--but just two days after frank's departure, a very long, elaborate, and clearly explanatory letter was received at greshamsbury. mr moffat was quite sure that miss gresham and her very excellent parents would do him the justice to believe that he was not actuated, &c., &c., &c. the long and the short of this was, that mr moffat signified his intention of breaking off the match without offering any intelligible reason. augusta again bore her disappointment well: not, indeed, without sorrow and heartache, and inward, hidden tears; but still well. she neither raved, nor fainted, nor walked about by moonlight alone. she wrote no poetry, and never once thought of suicide. when, indeed, she remembered the rosy-tinted lining, the unfathomable softness of that long-acre carriage, her spirit did for one moment give way; but, on the whole, she bore it as a strong-minded woman and a de courcy should do. but both lady arabella and the squire were greatly vexed. the former had made the match, and the latter, having consented to it, had incurred deeper responsibilities to enable him to bring it about. the money which was to have been given to mr moffat was still to the fore; but alas! how much, how much that he could ill spare, had been thrown away on bridal preparations! it is, moreover, an unpleasant thing for a gentleman to have his daughter jilted; perhaps peculiarly so to have her jilted by a tailor's son. lady arabella's woe was really piteous. it seemed to her as though cruel fate were heaping misery after misery upon the wretched house of greshamsbury. a few weeks since things were going so well with her! frank then was all but the accepted husband of almost untold wealth--so, at least, she was informed by her sister-in-law--whereas, augusta, was the accepted wife of wealth, not indeed untold, but of dimensions quite sufficiently respectable to cause much joy in the telling. where now were her golden hopes? where now the splendid future of her poor duped children? augusta was left to pine alone; and frank, in a still worse plight, insisted on maintaining his love for a bastard and a pauper. for frank's affair she had received some poor consolation by laying all the blame on the squire's shoulders. what she had then said was now repaid to her with interest; for not only had she been the maker of augusta's match, but she had boasted of the deed with all a mother's pride. it was from beatrice that frank had obtained his tidings. this last resolve on the part of mr moffat had not altogether been unsuspected by some of the greshams, though altogether unsuspected by the lady arabella. frank had spoken of it as a possibility to beatrice, and was not quite unprepared when the information reached him. he consequently bought his big cutting whip, and wrote his confidential letter to harry baker. on the following day frank and harry might have been seen, with their heads nearly close together, leaning over one of the tables in the large breakfast-room at the tavistock hotel in covent garden. the ominous whip, to the handle of which frank had already made his hand well accustomed, was lying on the table between them; and ever and anon harry baker would take it up and feel its weight approvingly. oh, mr moffat! poor mr moffat! go not out into the fashionable world to-day; above all, go not to that club of thine in pall mall; but, oh! especially go not there, as is thy wont to do, at three o'clock in the afternoon! with much care did those two young generals lay their plans of attack. let it not for a moment be thought that it was ever in the minds of either of them that two men should attack one. but it was thought that mr moffat might be rather coy in coming out from his seclusion to meet the proffered hand of his once intended brother-in-law when he should see that hand armed with a heavy whip. baker, therefore, was content to act as a decoy duck, and remarked that he might no doubt make himself useful in restraining the public mercy, and, probably, in controlling the interference of policemen. "it will be deuced hard if i can't get five or six shies at him," said frank, again clutching his weapon almost spasmodically. oh, mr moffat! five or six shies with such a whip, and such an arm! for myself, i would sooner join in a second balaclava gallop than encounter it. at ten minutes before four these two heroes might be seen walking up pall mall, towards the ---- club. young baker walked with an eager disengaged air. mr moffat did not know his appearance; he had, therefore, no anxiety to pass along unnoticed. but frank had in some mysterious way drawn his hat very far over his forehead, and had buttoned his shooting-coat up round his chin. harry had recommended to him a great-coat, in order that he might the better conceal his face; but frank had found that the great-coat was an encumbrance to his arm. he put it on, and when thus clothed he had tried the whip, he found that he cut the air with much less potency than in the lighter garment. he contented himself, therefore, with looking down on the pavement as he walked along, letting the long point of the whip stick up from his pocket, and flattering himself that even mr moffat would not recognise him at the first glance. poor mr moffat! if he had but had the chance! and now, having arrived at the front of the club, the two friends for a moment separate: frank remains standing on the pavement, under the shade of the high stone area-railing, while harry jauntily skips up three steps at a time, and with a very civil word of inquiry of the hall porter, sends in his card to mr moffat-- mr harry baker mr moffat, never having heard of such a gentleman in his life, unwittingly comes out into the hall, and harry, with the sweetest smile, addresses him. now the plan of the campaign had been settled in this wise: baker was to send into the club for mr moffat, and invite that gentleman down into the street. it was probable that the invitation might be declined; and it had been calculated in such case that the two gentlemen would retire for parley into the strangers' room, which was known to be immediately opposite the hall door. frank was to keep his eye on the portals, and if he found that mr moffat did not appear as readily as might be desired, he also was to ascend the steps and hurry into the strangers' room. then, whether he met mr moffat there or elsewhere, or wherever he might meet him, he was to greet him with all the friendly vigour in his power, while harry disposed of the club porters. but fortune, who ever favours the brave, specially favoured frank gresham on this occasion. just as harry baker had put his card into the servant's hand, mr moffat, with his hat on, prepared for the street, appeared in the hall; mr baker addressed him with his sweetest smile, and begged the pleasure of saying a word or two as they descended into the street. had not mr moffat been going thither it would have been very improbable that he should have done so at harry's instance. but, as it was, he merely looked rather solemn at his visitor--it was his wont to look solemn--and continued the descent of the steps. frank, his heart leaping the while, saw his prey, and retreated two steps behind the area-railing, the dread weapon already well poised in his hand. oh! mr moffat! mr moffat! if there be any goddess to interfere in thy favour, let her come forward now without delay; let her now bear thee off on a cloud if there be one to whom thou art sufficiently dear! but there is no such goddess. harry smiled blandly till they were well on the pavement, saying some nothing, and keeping the victim's face averted from the avenging angel; and then, when the raised hand was sufficiently nigh, he withdrew two steps towards the nearest lamp-post. not for him was the honour of the interview;--unless, indeed, succouring policemen might give occasion for some gleam of glory. but succouring policemen were no more to be come by than goddesses. where were ye, men, when that savage whip fell about the ears of the poor ex-legislator? in scotland yard, sitting dozing on your benches, or talking soft nothings to the housemaids round the corner; for ye were not walking on your beats, nor standing at coign of vantage, to watch the tumults of the day. but had ye been there what could ye have done? had sir richard himself been on the spot frank gresham would still, we may say, have had his five shies at that unfortunate one. when harry baker quickly seceded from the way, mr moffat at once saw the fate before him. his hair doubtless stood on end, and his voice refused to give the loud screech with which he sought to invoke the club. an ashy paleness suffused his cheeks, and his tottering steps were unable to bear him away in flight. once, and twice, the cutting whip came well down across his back. had he been wise enough to stand still and take his thrashing in that attitude, it would have been well for him. but men so circumstanced have never such prudence. after two blows he made a dash at the steps, thinking to get back into the club; but harry, who had by no means reclined in idleness against the lamp-post, here stopped him: "you had better go back into the street," said harry; "indeed you had," giving him a shove from off the second step. then of course frank could not do other than hit him anywhere. when a gentleman is dancing about with much energy it is hardly possible to strike him fairly on his back. the blows, therefore, came now on his legs and now on his head; and frank unfortunately got more than his five or six shies before he was interrupted. the interruption however came, all too soon for frank's idea of justice. though there be no policeman to take part in a london row, there are always others ready enough to do so; amateur policemen, who generally sympathise with the wrong side, and, in nine cases out of ten, expend their generous energy in protecting thieves and pickpockets. when it was seen with what tremendous ardour that dread weapon fell about the ears of the poor undefended gentleman, interference there was at last, in spite of harry baker's best endeavours, and loudest protestations. "do not interrupt them, sir," said he; "pray do not. it is a family affair, and they will neither of them like it." in the teeth, however, of these assurances, rude people did interfere, and after some nine or ten shies frank found himself encompassed by the arms, and encumbered by the weight of a very stout gentleman, who hung affectionately about his neck and shoulders; whereas, mr moffat was already receiving consolation from two motherly females, sitting in a state of syncope on the good-natured knees of a fishmonger's apprentice. frank was thoroughly out of breath: nothing came from his lips but half-muttered expletives and unintelligible denunciations of the iniquity of his foe. but still he struggled to be at him again. we all know how dangerous is the taste of blood; now cruelty will become a custom even with the most tender-hearted. frank felt that he had hardly fleshed his virgin lash: he thought, almost with despair, that he had not yet at all succeeded as became a man and a brother; his memory told him of but one or two of the slightest touches that had gone well home to the offender. he made a desperate effort to throw off that incubus round his neck and rush again to the combat. "harry--harry; don't let him go--don't let him go," he barely articulated. "do you want to murder the man, sir; to murder him?" said the stout gentleman over his shoulder, speaking solemnly into his very ear. "i don't care," said frank, struggling manfully but uselessly. "let me out, i say; i don't care--don't let him go, harry, whatever you do." "he has got it prettily tidily," said harry; "i think that will perhaps do for the present." by this time there was a considerable concourse. the club steps were crowded with the members; among whom there were many of mr moffat's acquaintance. policemen also now flocked up, and the question arose as to what should be done with the originators of the affray. frank and harry found that they were to consider themselves under a gentle arrest, and mr moffat, in a fainting state, was carried into the interior of the club. frank, in his innocence, had intended to have celebrated this little affair when it was over by a light repast and a bottle of claret with his friend, and then to have gone back to cambridge by the mail train. he found, however, that his schemes in this respect were frustrated. he had to get bail to attend at marlborough street police-office should he be wanted within the next two or three days; and was given to understand that he would be under the eye of the police, at any rate until mr moffat should be out of danger. "out of danger!" said frank to his friend with a startled look. "why i hardly got at him." nevertheless, they did have their slight repast, and also their bottle of claret. on the second morning after this occurrence, frank was again sitting in that public room at the tavistock, and harry was again sitting opposite to him. the whip was not now so conspicuously produced between them, having been carefully packed up and put away among frank's other travelling properties. they were so sitting, rather glum, when the door swung open, and a heavy, quick step was heard advancing towards them. it was the squire; whose arrival there had been momentarily expected. "frank," said he--"frank, what on earth is all this?" and as he spoke he stretched out both hands, the right to his son and the left to his friend. "he has given a blackguard a licking, that is all," said harry. frank felt that his hand was held with a peculiarly warm grasp; and he could not but think that his father's face, raised though his eyebrows were--though there was on it an intended expression of amazement and, perhaps, regret--nevertheless he could not but think that his father's face looked kindly at him. "god bless my soul, my dear boy! what have you done to the man?" "he's not a ha'porth the worse, sir," said frank, still holding his father's hand. "oh, isn't he!" said harry, shrugging his shoulders. "he must be made of some very tough article then." "but my dear boys, i hope there's no danger. i hope there's no danger." "danger!" said frank, who could not yet induce himself to believe that he had been allowed a fair chance with mr moffat. "oh, frank! frank! how could you be so rash? in the middle of pall mall, too. well! well! well! all the women down at greshamsbury will have it that you have killed him." "i almost wish i had," said frank. "oh, frank! frank! but now tell me--" and then the father sat well pleased while he heard, chiefly from harry baker, the full story of his son's prowess. and then they did not separate without another slight repast and another bottle of claret. mr moffat retired to the country for a while, and then went abroad; having doubtless learnt that the petition was not likely to give him a seat for the city of barchester. and this was the end of the wooing with miss gresham. chapter xxii sir roger is unseated after this, little occurred at greshamsbury, or among greshamsbury people, which it will be necessary for us to record. some notice was, of course, taken of frank's prolonged absence from his college; and tidings, perhaps exaggerated tidings, of what had happened in pall mall were not slow to reach the high street of cambridge. but that affair was gradually hushed up; and frank went on with his studies. he went back to his studies: it then being an understood arrangement between him and his father that he should not return to greshamsbury till the summer vacation. on this occasion, the squire and lady arabella had, strange to say, been of the same mind. they both wished to keep their son away from miss thorne; and both calculated, that at his age and with his disposition, it was not probable that any passion would last out a six months' absence. "and when the summer comes it will be an excellent opportunity for us to go abroad," said lady arabella. "poor augusta will require some change to renovate her spirits." to this last proposition the squire did not assent. it was, however, allowed to pass over; and this much was fixed, that frank was not to return home till midsummer. it will be remembered that sir roger scatcherd had been elected as sitting member for the city of barchester; but it will also be remembered that a petition against his return was threatened. had that petition depended solely on mr moffat, sir roger's seat no doubt would have been saved by frank gresham's cutting whip. but such was not the case. mr moffat had been put forward by the de courcy interest; and that noble family with its dependants was not to go to the wall because mr moffat had had a thrashing. no; the petition was to go on; and mr nearthewinde declared, that no petition in his hands had half so good a chance of success. "chance, no, but certainty," said mr nearthewinde; for mr nearthewinde had learnt something with reference to that honest publican and the payment of his little bill. the petition was presented and duly backed; the recognisances were signed, and all the proper formalities formally executed; and sir roger found that his seat was in jeopardy. his return had been a great triumph to him; and, unfortunately, he had celebrated that triumph as he had been in the habit of celebrating most of the very triumphant occasions of his life. though he was than hardly yet recovered from the effects of his last attack, he indulged in another violent drinking bout; and, strange to say, did so without any immediate visible bad effects. in february he took his seat amidst the warm congratulations of all men of his own class, and early in the month of april his case came on for trial. every kind of electioneering sin known to the electioneering world was brought to his charge; he was accused of falseness, dishonesty, and bribery of every sort: he had, it was said in the paper of indictment, bought votes, obtained them by treating, carried them off by violence, conquered them by strong drink, polled them twice over, counted those of dead men, stolen them, forged them, and created them by every possible, fictitious contrivance: there was no description of wickedness appertaining to the task of procuring votes of which sir roger had not been guilty, either by himself or by his agents. he was quite horror-struck at the list of his own enormities. but he was somewhat comforted when mr closerstil told him that the meaning of it all was that mr romer, the barrister, had paid a former bill due to mr reddypalm, the publican. "i fear he was indiscreet, sir roger; i really fear he was. those young men always are. being energetic, they work like horses; but what's the use of energy without discretion, sir roger?" "but, mr closerstil, i knew nothing about it from first to last." "the agency can be proved, sir roger," said mr closerstil, shaking his head. and then there was nothing further to be said on the matter. in these days of snow-white purity all political delinquency is abominable in the eyes of british politicians; but no delinquency is so abominable as that of venality at elections. the sin of bribery is damnable. it is the one sin for which, in the house of commons, there can be no forgiveness. when discovered, it should render the culprit liable to political death, without hope of pardon. it is treason against a higher throne than that on which the queen sits. it is a heresy which requires an _auto-da-fé_. it is a pollution to the whole house, which can only be cleansed by a great sacrifice. anathema maranatha! out with it from amongst us, even though the half of our heart's blood be poured forth in the conflict! out with it, and for ever! such is the language of patriotic members with regard to bribery; and doubtless, if sincere, they are in the right. it is a bad thing, certainly, that a rich man should buy votes; bad also that a poor man should sell them. by all means let us repudiate such a system with heartfelt disgust. with heartfelt disgust, if we can do so, by all means; but not with disgust pretended only and not felt in the heart at all. the laws against bribery at elections are now so stringent that an unfortunate candidate may easily become guilty, even though actuated by the purest intentions. but not the less on that account does any gentleman, ambitious of the honour of serving his country in parliament, think it necessary as a preliminary measure to provide a round sum of money at his banker's. a candidate must pay for no treating, no refreshments, no band of music; he must give neither ribbons to the girls nor ale to the men. if a huzza be uttered in his favour, it is at his peril; it may be necessary for him to prove before a committee that it was the spontaneous result of british feeling in his favour, and not the purchased result of british beer. he cannot safely ask any one to share his hotel dinner. bribery hides itself now in the most impalpable shapes, and may be effected by the offer of a glass of sherry. but not the less on this account does a poor man find that he is quite unable to overcome the difficulties of a contested election. we strain at our gnats with a vengeance, but we swallow our camels with ease. for what purpose is it that we employ those peculiarly safe men of business--messrs nearthewinde and closerstil--when we wish to win our path through all obstacles into that sacred recess, if all be so open, all so easy, all so much above board? alas! the money is still necessary, is still prepared, or at any rate expended. the poor candidate of course knows nothing of the matter till the attorney's bill is laid before him, when all danger of petitions has passed away. he little dreamed till then, not he, that there had been banquetings and junketings, secret doings and deep drinkings at his expense. poor candidate! poor member! who was so ignorant as he! 'tis true he has paid such bills before; but 'tis equally true that he specially begged his managing friend, mr nearthewinde, to be very careful that all was done according to law! he pays the bill, however, and on the next election will again employ mr nearthewinde. now and again, at rare intervals, some glimpse into the inner sanctuary does reach the eyes of ordinary mortal men without; some slight accidental peep into those mysteries from whence all corruption has been so thoroughly expelled; and then, how delightfully refreshing is the sight, when, perhaps, some ex-member, hurled from his paradise like a fallen peri, reveals the secret of that pure heaven, and, in the agony of his despair, tells us all that it cost him to sit for ---- through those few halcyon years! but mr nearthewinde is a safe man, and easy to be employed with but little danger. all these stringent bribery laws only enhance the value of such very safe men as mr nearthewinde. to him, stringent laws against bribery are the strongest assurance of valuable employment. were these laws of a nature to be evaded with ease, any indifferent attorney might manage a candidate's affairs and enable him to take his seat with security. it would have been well for sir roger if he had trusted solely to mr closerstil; well also for mr romer had he never fished in those troubled waters. in due process of time the hearing of the petition came on, and then who so happy, sitting at his ease at his london inn, blowing his cloud from a long pipe, with measureless content, as mr reddypalm? mr reddypalm was the one great man of the contest. all depended on mr reddypalm; and well he did his duty. the result of the petition was declared by the committee to be as follows:--that sir roger's election was null and void--that the election altogether was null and void--that sir roger had, by his agent, been guilty of bribery in obtaining a vote, by the payment of a bill alleged to have been previously refused payment--that sir roger himself knew nothing about it;--this is always a matter of course;--but that sir roger's agent, mr romer, had been wittingly guilty of bribery with reference to the transaction above described. poor sir roger! poor mr romer. poor mr romer indeed! his fate was perhaps as sad as well might be, and as foul a blot to the purism of these very pure times in which we live. not long after those days, it so happening that some considerable amount of youthful energy and quidnunc ability were required to set litigation afloat at hong-kong, mr romer was sent thither as the fittest man for such work, with rich assurance of future guerdon. who so happy then as mr romer! but even among the pure there is room for envy and detraction. mr romer had not yet ceased to wonder at new worlds, as he skimmed among the islands of that southern ocean, before the edict had gone forth for his return. there were men sitting in that huge court of parliament on whose breasts it lay as an intolerable burden, that england should be represented among the antipodes by one who had tampered with the purity of the franchise. for them there was no rest till this great disgrace should be wiped out and atoned for. men they were of that calibre, that the slightest reflection on them of such a stigma seemed to themselves to blacken their own character. they could not break bread with satisfaction till mr romer was recalled. he was recalled, and of course ruined--and the minds of those just men were then at peace. to any honourable gentleman who really felt his brow suffused with a patriotic blush, as he thought of his country dishonoured by mr romer's presence at hong-kong--to any such gentleman, if any such there were, let all honour be given, even though the intensity of his purity may create amazement to our less finely organised souls. but if no such blush suffused the brow of any honourable gentleman; if mr romer was recalled from quite other feelings--what then in lieu of honour shall we allot to those honourable gentlemen who were most concerned? sir roger, however, lost his seat, and, after three months of the joys of legislation, found himself reduced by a terrible blow to the low level of private life. and the blow to him was very heavy. men but seldom tell the truth of what is in them, even to their dearest friends; they are ashamed of having feelings, or rather of showing that they are troubled by any intensity of feeling. it is the practice of the time to treat all pursuits as though they were only half important to us, as though in what we desire we were only half in earnest. to be visibly eager seems childish, and is always bad policy; and men, therefore, nowadays, though they strive as hard as ever in the service of ambition--harder than ever in that of mammon--usually do so with a pleasant smile on, as though after all they were but amusing themselves with the little matter in hand. perhaps it had been so with sir roger in those electioneering days when he was looking for votes. at any rate, he had spoken of his seat in parliament as but a doubtful good. "he was willing, indeed, to stand, having been asked; but the thing would interfere wonderfully with his business; and then, what did he know about parliament? nothing on earth: it was the maddest scheme, but nevertheless, he was not going to hang back when called upon--he had always been rough and ready when wanted,--and there he was now ready as ever, and rough enough too, god knows." 'twas thus that he had spoken of his coming parliamentary honours; and men had generally taken him at his word. he had been returned, and this success had been hailed as a great thing for the cause and class to which he belonged. but men did not know that his inner heart was swelling with triumph, and that his bosom could hardly contain his pride as he reflected that the poor barchester stone-mason was now the representative in parliament of his native city. and so, when his seat was attacked, he still laughed and joked. "they were welcome to it for him," he said; "he could keep it or want it; and of the two, perhaps, the want of it would come most convenient to him. he did not exactly think that he had bribed any one; but if the bigwigs chose to say so, it was all one to him. he was rough and ready, now as ever," &c., &c. but when the struggle came, it was to him a fearful one; not the less fearful because there was no one, no, not one friend in all the world, to whom he could open his mind and speak out honestly what was in his heart. to dr thorne he might perhaps have done so had his intercourse with the doctor been sufficiently frequent; but it was only now and again when he was ill, or when the squire wanted to borrow money, that he saw dr thorne. he had plenty of friends, heaps of friends in the parliamentary sense; friends who talked about him, and lauded him at public meetings; who shook hands with him on platforms, and drank his health at dinners; but he had no friend who could sit with him over his own hearth, in true friendship, and listen to, and sympathise with, and moderate the sighings of the inner man. for him there was no sympathy; no tenderness of love; no retreat, save into himself, from the loud brass band of the outer world. the blow hit him terribly hard. it did not come altogether unexpectedly, and yet, when it did come, it was all but unendurable. he had made so much of the power of walking into that august chamber, and sitting shoulder to shoulder in legislative equality with the sons of dukes and the curled darlings of the nation. money had given him nothing, nothing but the mere feeling of brute power: with his three hundred thousand pounds he had felt himself to be no more palpably near to the goal of his ambition than when he had chipped stones for three shillings and sixpence a day. but when he was led up and introduced at that table, when he shook the old premier's hand on the floor of the house of commons, when he heard the honourable member for barchester alluded to in grave debate as the greatest living authority on railway matters, then, indeed, he felt that he had achieved something. and now this cup was ravished from his lips, almost before it was tasted. when he was first told as a certainty that the decision of the committee was against him, he bore up against the misfortune like a man. he laughed heartily, and declared himself well rid of a very profitless profession; cut some little joke about mr moffat and his thrashing, and left on those around him an impression that he was a man so constituted, so strong in his own resolves, so steadily pursuant of his own work, that no little contentions of this kind could affect him. men admired his easy laughter, as, shuffling his half-crowns with both his hands in his trouser-pockets, he declared that messrs romer and reddypalm were the best friends he had known for this many a day. but not the less did he walk out from the room in which he was standing a broken-hearted man. hope could not buoy him up as she may do other ex-members in similarly disagreeable circumstances. he could not afford to look forward to what further favours parliamentary future might have in store for him after a lapse of five or six years. five or six years! why, his life was not worth four years' purchase; of that he was perfectly aware: he could not now live without the stimulus of brandy; and yet, while he took it, he knew he was killing himself. death he did not fear; but he would fain have wished, after his life of labour, to have lived, while yet he could live, in the blaze of that high world to which for a moment he had attained. he laughed loud and cheerily as he left his parliamentary friends, and, putting himself into the train, went down to boxall hill. he laughed loud and cheerily; but he never laughed again. it had not been his habit to laugh much at boxall hill. it was there he kept his wife, and mr winterbones, and the brandy bottle behind his pillow. he had not often there found it necessary to assume that loud and cheery laugh. on this occasion he was apparently well in health when he got home; but both lady scatcherd and mr winterbones found him more than ordinarily cross. he made an affectation at sitting very hard to business, and even talked of going abroad to look at some of his foreign contracts. but even winterbones found that his patron did not work as he had been wont to do; and at last, with some misgivings, he told lady scatcherd that he feared that everything was not right. "he's always at it, my lady, always," said mr winterbones. "is he?" said lady scatcherd, well understanding what mr winterbones's allusion meant. "always, my lady. i never saw nothing like it. now, there's me--i can always go my half-hour when i've had my drop; but he, why, he don't go ten minutes, not now." this was not cheerful to lady scatcherd; but what was the poor woman to do? when she spoke to him on any subject he only snarled at her; and now that the heavy fit was on him, she did not dare even to mention the subject of his drinking. she had never known him so savage in his humour as he was now, so bearish in his habits, so little inclined to humanity, so determined to rush headlong down, with his head between his legs, into the bottomless abyss. she thought of sending for dr thorne; but she did not know under what guise to send for him,--whether as doctor or as friend: under neither would he now be welcome; and she well knew that sir roger was not the man to accept in good part either a doctor or a friend who might be unwelcome. she knew that this husband of hers, this man who, with all his faults, was the best of her friends, whom of all she loved best--she knew that he was killing himself, and yet she could do nothing. sir roger was his own master, and if kill himself he would, kill himself he must. and kill himself he did. not indeed by one sudden blow. he did not take one huge dose of his consuming poison and then fall dead upon the floor. it would perhaps have been better for himself, and better for those around him, had he done so. no; the doctors had time to congregate around his bed; lady scatcherd was allowed a period of nurse-tending; the sick man was able to say his last few words and bid adieu to his portion of the lower world with dying decency. as these last words will have some lasting effect upon the surviving personages of our story, the reader must be content to stand for a short while by the side of sir roger's sick-bed, and help us to bid him god-speed on the journey which lies before him. chapter xxiii retrospective it was declared in the early pages of this work that dr thorne was to be our hero; but it would appear very much as though he had latterly been forgotten. since that evening when he retired to rest without letting mary share the grievous weight which was on his mind, we have neither seen nor heard aught of him. it was then full midsummer, and it is now early spring: and during the intervening months the doctor had not had a happy time of it. on that night, as we have before told, he took his niece to his heart; but he could not then bring himself to tell her that which it was so imperative that she should know. like a coward, he would put off the evil hour till the next morning, and thus robbed himself of his night's sleep. but when the morning came the duty could not be postponed. lady arabella had given him to understand that his niece would no longer be a guest at greshamsbury; and it was quite out of the question that mary, after this, should be allowed to put her foot within the gate of the domain without having learnt what lady arabella had said. so he told it her before breakfast, walking round their little garden, she with her hand in his. he was perfectly thunderstruck by the collected--nay, cool way in which she received his tidings. she turned pale, indeed; he felt also that her hand somewhat trembled in his own, and he perceived that for a moment her voice shook; but no angry word escaped her lip, nor did she even deign to repudiate the charge, which was, as it were, conveyed in lady arabella's request. the doctor knew, or thought he knew--nay, he did know--that mary was wholly blameless in the matter: that she had at least given no encouragement to any love on the part of the young heir; but, nevertheless, he had expected that she would avouch her own innocence. this, however, she by no means did. "lady arabella is quite right," she said, "quite right; if she has any fear of that kind, she cannot be too careful." "she is a selfish, proud woman," said the doctor; "quite indifferent to the feelings of others; quite careless how deeply she may hurt her neighbours, if, in doing so, she may possibly benefit herself." "she will not hurt me, uncle, nor yet you. i can live without going to greshamsbury." "but it is not to be endured that she should dare to cast an imputation on my darling." "on me, uncle? she casts no imputation on me. frank has been foolish: i have said nothing of it, for it was not worth while to trouble you. but as lady arabella chooses to interfere, i have no right to blame her. he has said what he should not have said; he has been foolish. uncle, you know i could not prevent it." "let her send him away then, not you; let her banish him." "uncle, he is her son. a mother can hardly send her son away so easily: could you send me away, uncle?" he merely answered her by twining his arm round her waist and pressing her to his side. he was well sure that she was badly treated; and yet now that she so unaccountably took lady arabella's part, he hardly knew how to make this out plainly to be the case. "besides, uncle, greshamsbury is in a manner his own; how can he be banished from his father's house? no, uncle; there is an end of my visits there. they shall find that i will not thrust myself in their way." and then mary, with a calm brow and steady gait, went in and made the tea. and what might be the feelings of her heart when she so sententiously told her uncle that frank had been foolish? she was of the same age with him; as impressionable, though more powerful in hiding such impressions,--as all women should be; her heart was as warm, her blood as full of life, her innate desire for the companionship of some much-loved object as strong as his. frank had been foolish in avowing his passion. no such folly as that could be laid at her door. but had she been proof against the other folly? had she been able to walk heart-whole by his side, while he chatted his commonplaces about love? yes, they are commonplaces when we read of them in novels; common enough, too, to some of us when we write them; but they are by no means commonplace when first heard by a young girl in the rich, balmy fragrance of a july evening stroll. nor are they commonplaces when so uttered for the first or second time at least, or perhaps the third. 'tis a pity that so heavenly a pleasure should pall upon the senses. if it was so that frank's folly had been listened to with a certain amount of pleasure, mary did not even admit so much to herself. but why should it have been otherwise? why should she have been less prone to love than he was? had he not everything which girls do love? which girls should love? which god created noble, beautiful, all but godlike, in order that women, all but goddesslike, might love? to love thoroughly, truly, heartily, with her whole body, soul, heart, and strength; should not that be counted for a merit in a woman? and yet we are wont to make a disgrace of it. we do so most unnaturally, most unreasonably; for we expect our daughters to get themselves married off our hands. when the period of that step comes, then love is proper enough; but up to that--before that--as regards all those preliminary passages which must, we suppose, be necessary--in all those it becomes a young lady to be icy-hearted as a river-god in winter. o whistle and i'll come to you, my lad! o whistle and i'll come to you, my lad! tho' father and mither and a' should go mad, o whistle and i'll come to you, my lad! this is the kind of love which a girl should feel before she puts her hand proudly in that of her lover, and consents that they two shall be made one flesh. mary felt no such love as this. she, too, had some inner perception of that dread destiny by which it behoved frank gresham to be forewarned. she, too--though she had never heard so much said in words--had an almost instinctive knowledge that his fate required him to marry money. thinking over this in her own way, she was not slow to convince herself that it was out of the question that she should allow herself to love frank gresham. however well her heart might be inclined to such a feeling, it was her duty to repress it. she resolved, therefore, to do so; and she sometimes flattered herself that she had kept her resolution. these were bad times for the doctor, and bad times for mary too. she had declared that she could live without going to greshamsbury; but she did not find it so easy. she had been going to greshamsbury all her life, and it was as customary with her to be there as at home. such old customs are not broken without pain. had she left the place it would have been far different; but, as it was, she daily passed the gates, daily saw and spoke to some of the servants, who knew her as well as they did the young ladies of the family--was in hourly contact, as it were, with greshamsbury. it was not only that she did not go there, but that everyone knew that she had suddenly discontinued doing so. yes, she could live without going to greshamsbury; but for some time she had but a poor life of it. she felt, nay, almost heard, that every man and woman, boy and girl, in the village was telling his and her neighbour that mary thorne no longer went to the house because of lady arabella and the young squire. but beatrice, of course, came to her. what was she to say to beatrice? the truth! nay, but it is not always so easy to say the truth, even to one's dearest friends. "but you'll come up now he has gone?" said beatrice. "no, indeed," said mary; "that would hardly be pleasant to lady arabella, nor to me either. no, trichy, dearest; my visits to dear old greshamsbury are done, done, done: perhaps in some twenty years' time i may be walking down the lawn with your brother, and discussing our childish days--that is, always, if the then mrs gresham shall have invited me." "how can frank have been so wrong, so unkind, so cruel?" said beatrice. this, however, was a light in which miss thorne did not take any pleasure in discussing the matter. her ideas of frank's fault, and unkindness, and cruelty, were doubtless different from those of his sister. such cruelty was not unnaturally excused in her eyes by many circumstances which beatrice did not fully understand. mary was quite ready to go hand in hand with lady arabella and the rest of the greshamsbury fold in putting an end, if possible, to frank's passion: she would give no one a right to accuse her of assisting to ruin the young heir; but she could hardly bring herself to admit that he was so very wrong--no, nor yet even so very cruel. and then the squire came to see her, and this was a yet harder trial than the visit of beatrice. it was so difficult for her to speak to him that she could not but wish him away; and yet, had he not come, had he altogether neglected her, she would have felt it to be unkind. she had ever been his pet, had always received kindness from him. "i am sorry for all this, mary; very sorry," said he, standing up, and holding both her hands in his. "it can't be helped, sir," said she, smiling. "i don't know," said he; "i don't know--it ought to be helped somehow--i am quite sure you have not been to blame." "no," said she, very quietly, as though the position was one quite a matter of course. "i don't think i have been very much to blame. there will be misfortunes sometimes when nobody is to blame." "i do not quite understand it all," said the squire; "but if frank--" "oh! we will not talk about him," said she, still laughing gently. "you can understand, mary, how dear he must be to me; but if--" "mr gresham, i would not for worlds be the cause of any unpleasantness between you and him." "but i cannot bear to think that we have banished you, mary." "it cannot be helped. things will all come right in time." "but you will be so lonely here." "oh! i shall get over all that. here, you know, mr gresham, 'i am monarch of all i survey;' and there is a great deal in that." the squire did not quite catch her meaning, but a glimmering of it did reach him. it was competent to lady arabella to banish her from greshamsbury; it was within the sphere of the squire's duties to prohibit his son from an imprudent match; it was for the greshams to guard their greshamsbury treasure as best they could within their own territories: but let them beware that they did not attack her on hers. in obedience to the first expression of their wishes, she had submitted herself to this public mark of their disapproval because she had seen at once, with her clear intellect, that they were only doing that which her conscience must approve. without a murmur, therefore, she consented to be pointed at as the young lady who had been turned out of greshamsbury because of the young squire. she had no help for it. but let them take care that they did not go beyond that. outside those greshamsbury gates she and frank gresham, she and lady arabella met on equal terms; let them each fight their own battle. the squire kissed her forehead affectionately and took his leave, feeling, somehow, that he had been excused and pitied, and made much of; whereas he had called on his young neighbour with the intention of excusing, and pitying, and making much of her. he was not quite comfortable as he left the house; but, nevertheless, he was sufficiently honest-hearted to own to himself that mary thorne was a fine girl. only that it was so absolutely necessary that frank should marry money--and only, also, that poor mary was such a birthless foundling in the world's esteem--only, but for these things, what a wife she would have made for that son of his! to one person only did she talk freely on the subject, and that one was patience oriel; and even with her the freedom was rather of the mind than of the heart. she never said a word of her feeling with reference to frank, but she said much of her position in the village, and of the necessity she was under to keep out of the way. "it is very hard," said patience, "that the offence should be all with him, and the punishment all with you." "oh! as for that," said mary, laughing, "i will not confess to any offence, nor yet to any punishment; certainly not to any punishment." "it comes to the same thing in the end." "no, not so, patience; there is always some little sting of disgrace in punishment: now i am not going to hold myself in the least disgraced." "but, mary, you must meet the greshams sometimes." "meet them! i have not the slightest objection on earth to meet all, or any of them. they are not a whit dangerous to me, my dear. 'tis i that am the wild beast, and 'tis they that must avoid me," and then she added, after a pause--slightly blushing--"i have not the slightest objection even to meet him if chance brings him in my way. let them look to that. my undertaking goes no further than this, that i will not be seen within their gates." but the girls so far understood each other that patience undertook, rather than promised, to give mary what assistance she could; and, despite mary's bravado, she was in such a position that she much wanted the assistance of such a friend as miss oriel. after an absence of some six weeks, frank, as we have seen, returned home. nothing was said to him, except by beatrice, as to these new greshamsbury arrangements; and he, when he found mary was not at the place, went boldly to the doctor's house to seek her. but it has been seen, also, that she discreetly kept out of his way. this she had thought fit to do when the time came, although she had been so ready with her boast that she had no objection on earth to meet him. after that there had been the christmas vacation, and mary had again found discretion to be the better part of valour. this was doubtless disagreeable enough. she had no particular wish to spend her christmas with miss oriel's aunt instead of at her uncle's fireside. indeed, her christmas festivities had hitherto been kept at greshamsbury, the doctor and herself having made a part of the family circle there assembled. this was out of the question now; and perhaps the absolute change to old miss oriel's house was better for her than the lesser change to her uncle's drawing-room. besides, how could she have demeaned herself when she met frank in their parish church? all this had been fully understood by patience, and, therefore, had this christmas visit been planned. and then this affair of frank and mary thorne ceased for a while to be talked of at greshamsbury, for that other affair of mr moffat and augusta monopolised the rural attention. augusta, as we have said, bore it well, and sustained the public gaze without much flinching. her period of martyrdom, however, did not last long, for soon the news arrived of frank's exploit in pall mall; and then the greshamsburyites forgot to think much more of augusta, being fully occupied in thinking of what frank had done. the tale, as it was first told, declared that frank had followed mr moffat up into his club; had dragged him thence into the middle of pall mall, and had then slaughtered him on the spot. this was by degrees modified till a sobered fiction became generally prevalent, that mr moffat was lying somewhere, still alive, but with all his bones in a general state of compound fracture. this adventure again brought frank into the ascendant, and restored to mary her former position as the greshamsbury heroine. "one cannot wonder at his being very angry," said beatrice, discussing the matter with mary--very imprudently. "wonder--no; the wonder would have been if he had not been angry. one might have been quite sure that he would have been angry enough." "i suppose it was not absolutely right for him to beat mr moffat," said beatrice, apologetically. "not right, trichy? i think he was very right." "not to beat him so very much, mary!" "oh, i suppose a man can't exactly stand measuring how much he does these things. i like your brother for what he has done, and i say so frankly--though i suppose i ought to eat my tongue out before i should say such a thing, eh, trichy?" "i don't know that there's any harm in that," said beatrice, demurely. "if you both liked each other there would be no harm in that--if that were all." "wouldn't there?" said mary, in a low tone of bantering satire; "that is so kind, trichy, coming from you--from one of the family, you know." "you are well aware, mary, that if i could have my wishes--" "yes: i am well aware what a paragon of goodness you are. if you could have your way i should be admitted into heaven again; shouldn't i? only with this proviso, that if a stray angel should ever whisper to me with bated breath, mistaking me, perchance, for one of his own class, i should be bound to close my ears to his whispering, and remind him humbly that i was only a poor mortal. you would trust me so far, wouldn't you, trichy?" "i would trust you in any way, mary. but i think you are unkind in saying such things to me." "into whatever heaven i am admitted, i will go only on this understanding: that i am to be as good an angel as any of those around me." "but, mary dear, why do you say this to me?" "because--because--because--ah me! why, indeed, but because i have no one else to say it to. certainly not because you have deserved it." "it seems as though you were finding fault with me." "and so i am; how can i do other than find fault? how can i help being sore? trichy, you hardly realise my position; you hardly see how i am treated; how i am forced to allow myself to be treated without a sign of complaint. you don't see it all. if you did, you would not wonder that i should be sore." beatrice did not quite see it all; but she saw enough of it to know that mary was to be pitied; so, instead of scolding her friend for being cross, she threw her arms round her and kissed her affectionately. but the doctor all this time suffered much more than his niece did. he could not complain out loudly; he could not aver that his pet lamb had been ill treated; he could not even have the pleasure of openly quarrelling with lady arabella; but not the less did he feel it to be most cruel that mary should have to live before the world as an outcast, because it had pleased frank gresham to fall in love with her. but his bitterness was not chiefly against frank. that frank had been very foolish he could not but acknowledge; but it was a kind of folly for which the doctor was able to find excuse. for lady arabella's cold propriety he could find no excuse. with the squire he had spoken no word on the subject up to this period of which we are now writing. with her ladyship he had never spoken on it since that day when she had told him that mary was to come no more to greshamsbury. he never now dined or spent his evenings at greshamsbury, and seldom was to be seen at the house, except when called in professionally. the squire, indeed, he frequently met; but he either did so in the village, or out on horseback, or at his own house. when the doctor first heard that sir roger had lost his seat, and had returned to boxall hill, he resolved to go over and see him. but the visit was postponed from day to day, as visits are postponed which may be made any day, and he did not in fact go till he was summoned there somewhat peremptorily. a message was brought to him one evening to say that sir roger had been struck by paralysis, and that not a moment was to be lost. "it always happens at night," said mary, who had more sympathy for the living uncle whom she did know, than for the other dying uncle whom she did not know. "what matters?--there--just give me my scarf. in all probability i may not be home to-night--perhaps not till late to-morrow. god bless you, mary!" and away the doctor went on his cold bleak ride to boxall hill. "who will be his heir?" as the doctor rode along, he could not quite rid his mind of this question. the poor man now about to die had wealth enough to make many heirs. what if his heart should have softened towards his sister's child! what if mary should be found in a few days to be possessed of such wealth that the greshams should be again happy to welcome her at greshamsbury! the doctor was not a lover of money--and he did his best to get rid of such pernicious thoughts. but his longings, perhaps, were not so much that mary should be rich, as that she should have the power of heaping coals of fire upon the heads of those people who had so injured her. chapter xxiv louis scatcherd when dr thorne reached boxall hill he found mr rerechild from barchester there before him. poor lady scatcherd, when her husband was stricken by the fit, hardly knew in her dismay what adequate steps to take. she had, as a matter of course, sent for dr thorne; but she had thought that in so grave a peril the medical skill of no one man could suffice. it was, she knew, quite out of the question for her to invoke the aid of dr fillgrave, whom no earthly persuasion would have brought to boxall hill; and as mr rerechild was supposed in the barchester world to be second--though at a long interval--to that great man, she had applied for his assistance. now mr rerechild was a follower and humble friend of dr fillgrave; and was wont to regard anything that came from the barchester doctor as sure light from the lamp of Æsculapius. he could not therefore be other than an enemy of dr thorne. but he was a prudent, discreet man, with a long family, averse to professional hostilities, as knowing that he could make more by medical friends than medical foes, and not at all inclined to take up any man's cudgel to his own detriment. he had, of course, heard of that dreadful affront which had been put upon his friend, as had all the "medical world"--all the medical world at least of barsetshire; and he had often expressed his sympathy with dr fillgrave and his abhorrence of dr thorne's anti-professional practices. but now that he found himself about to be brought in contact with dr thorne, he reflected that the galen of greshamsbury was at any rate equal in reputation to him of barchester; that the one was probably on the rise, whereas the other was already considered by some as rather antiquated; and he therefore wisely resolved that the present would be an excellent opportunity for him to make a friend of dr thorne. poor lady scatcherd had an inkling that dr fillgrave and mr rerechild were accustomed to row in the same boat, and she was not altogether free from fear that there might be an outbreak. she therefore took an opportunity before dr thorne's arrival to deprecate any wrathful tendency. "oh, lady scatcherd! i have the greatest respect for dr thorne," said he; "the greatest possible respect; a most skilful practitioner--something brusque certainly, and perhaps a little obstinate. but what then? we all have our faults, lady scatcherd." "oh--yes; we all have, mr rerechild; that's certain." "there's my friend fillgrave--lady scatcherd. he cannot bear anything of that sort. now i think he's wrong; and so i tell him." mr rerechild was in error here; for he had never yet ventured to tell dr fillgrave that he was wrong in anything. "we must bear and forbear, you know. dr thorne is an excellent man--in his way very excellent, lady scatcherd." this little conversation took place after mr rerechild's first visit to his patient: what steps were immediately taken for the relief of the sufferer we need not describe. they were doubtless well intended, and were, perhaps, as well adapted to stave off the coming evil day as any that dr fillgrave, or even the great sir omicron pie might have used. and then dr thorne arrived. "oh, doctor! doctor!" exclaimed lady scatcherd, almost hanging round his neck in the hall. "what are we to do? what are we to do? he's very bad." "has he spoken?" "no; nothing like a word: he has made one or two muttered sounds; but, poor soul, you could make nothing of it--oh, doctor! doctor! he has never been like this before." it was easy to see where lady scatcherd placed any such faith as she might still have in the healing art. "mr rerechild is here and has seen him," she continued. "i thought it best to send for two, for fear of accidents. he has done something--i don't know what. but, doctor, do tell the truth now; i look to you to tell me the truth." dr thorne then went up and saw his patient; and had he literally complied with lady scatcherd's request, he might have told her at once that there was no hope. as, however, he had not the heart to do this, he mystified the case as doctors so well know how to do, and told her that "there was cause to fear, great cause for fear; he was sorry to say, very great cause for much fear." dr thorne promised to stay the night there, and, if possible, the following night also; and then lady scatcherd became troubled in her mind as to what she should do with mr rerechild. he also declared, with much medical humanity, that, let the inconvenience be what it might, he too would stay the night. "the loss," he said, "of such a man as sir roger scatcherd was of such paramount importance as to make other matters trivial. he would certainly not allow the whole weight to fall on the shoulders of his friend dr thorne: he also would stay at any rate that night by the sick man's bedside. by the following morning some change might be expected." "i say, dr thorne," said her ladyship, calling the doctor into the housekeeping-room, in which she and hannah spent any time that they were not required upstairs; "just come in, doctor: you couldn't tell him we don't want him any more, could you?" "tell whom?" said the doctor. "why--mr rerechild: mightn't he go away, do you think?" dr thorne explained that mr rerechild certainly might go away if he pleased; but that it would by no means be proper for one doctor to tell another to leave the house. and so mr rerechild was allowed to share the glories of the night. in the meantime the patient remained speechless; but it soon became evident that nature was using all her efforts to make one final rally. from time to time he moaned and muttered as though he was conscious, and it seemed as though he strove to speak. he gradually became awake, at any rate to suffering, and dr thorne began to think that the last scene would be postponed for yet a while longer. "wonderful strong constitution--eh, dr thorne? wonderful!" said mr rerechild. "yes; he has been a strong man." "strong as a horse, dr thorne. lord, what that man would have been if he had given himself a chance! you know his constitution of course." "yes; pretty well. i've attended him for many years." "always drinking, i suppose; always at it--eh?" "he has not been a temperate man, certainly." "the brain, you see, clean gone--and not a particle of coating left to the stomach; and yet what a struggle he makes--an interesting case, isn't it?" "it's very sad to see such an intellect so destroyed." "very sad, very sad indeed. how fillgrave would have liked to have seen this case. he is a clever man, is fillgrave--in his way, you know." "i'm sure he is," said dr thorne. "not that he'd make anything of a case like this now--he's not, you know, quite--quite--perhaps not quite up to the new time of day, if one may say so." "he has had a very extensive provincial practice," said dr thorne. "oh, very--very; and made a tidy lot of money too, has fillgrave. he's worth six thousand pounds, i suppose; now that's a good deal of money to put by in a little town like barchester." "yes, indeed." "what i say to fillgrave is this--keep your eyes open; one should never be too old to learn--there's always something new worth picking up. but, no--he won't believe that. he can't believe that any new ideas can be worth anything. you know a man must go to the wall in that way--eh, doctor?" and then again they were called to their patient. "he's doing finely, finely," said mr rerechild to lady scatcherd. "there's fair ground to hope he'll rally; fair ground, is there not, doctor?" "yes; he'll rally; but how long that may last, that we can hardly say." "oh, no, certainly not, certainly not--that is not with any certainty; but still he's doing finely, lady scatcherd, considering everything." "how long will you give him, doctor?" said mr rerechild to his new friend, when they were again alone. "ten days? i dare say ten days, or from that to a fortnight, not more; but i think he'll struggle on ten days." "perhaps so," said the doctor. "i should not like to say exactly to a day." "no, certainly not. we cannot say exactly to a day; but i say ten days; as for anything like a recovery, that you know--" "is out of the question," said dr thorne, gravely. "quite so; quite so; coating of the stomach clean gone, you know; brain destroyed: did you observe the periporollida? i never saw them so swelled before: now when the periporollida are swollen like that--" "yes, very much; it's always the case when paralysis has been brought about by intemperance." "always, always; i have remarked that always; the periporollida in such cases are always extended; most interesting case, isn't it? i do wish fillgrave could have seen it. but, i believe you and fillgrave don't quite--eh?" "no, not quite," said dr thorne; who, as he thought of his last interview with dr fillgrave, and of that gentleman's exceeding anger as he stood in the hall below, could not keep himself from smiling, sad as the occasion was. nothing would induce lady scatcherd to go to bed; but the two doctors agreed to lie down, each in a room on one side of the patient. how was it possible that anything but good should come to him, being so guarded? "he is going on finely, lady scatcherd, quite finely," were the last words mr rerechild said as he left the room. and then dr thorne, taking lady scatcherd's hand and leading her out into another chamber, told her the truth. "lady scatcherd," said he, in his tenderest voice--and his voice could be very tender when occasion required it--"lady scatcherd, do not hope; you must not hope; it would be cruel to bid you do so." "oh, doctor! oh, doctor!" "my dear friend, there is no hope." "oh, dr thorne!" said the wife, looking wildly up into her companion's face, though she hardly yet realised the meaning of what he said, although her senses were half stunned by the blow. "dear lady scatcherd, is it not better that i should tell you the truth?" "oh, i suppose so; oh yes, oh yes; ah me! ah me! ah me!" and then she began rocking herself backwards and forwards on her chair, with her apron up to her eyes. "what shall i do? what shall i do?" "look to him, lady scatcherd, who only can make such grief endurable." "yes, yes, yes; i suppose so. ah me! ah me! but, dr thorne, there must be some chance--isn't there any chance? that man says he's going on so well." "i fear there is no chance--as far as my knowledge goes there is no chance." "then why does that chattering magpie tell such lies to a woman? ah me! ah me! ah me! oh, doctor! doctor! what shall i do? what shall i do?" and poor lady scatcherd, fairly overcome by her sorrow, burst out crying like a great school-girl. and yet what had her husband done for her that she should thus weep for him? would not her life be much more blessed when this cause of all her troubles should be removed from her? would she not then be a free woman instead of a slave? might she not then expect to begin to taste the comforts of life? what had that harsh tyrant of hers done that was good or serviceable for her? why should she thus weep for him in paroxysms of truest grief? we hear a good deal of jolly widows; and the slanderous raillery of the world tells much of conjugal disturbances as a cure for which women will look forward to a state of widowhood with not unwilling eyes. the raillery of the world is very slanderous. in our daily jests we attribute to each other vices of which neither we, nor our neighbours, nor our friends, nor even our enemies are ever guilty. it is our favourite parlance to talk of the family troubles of mrs green on our right, and to tell how mrs young on our left is strongly suspected of having raised her hand to her lord and master. what right have we to make these charges? what have we seen in our own personal walks through life to make us believe that women are devils? there may possibly have been a xantippe here and there, but imogenes are to be found under every bush. lady scatcherd, in spite of the life she had led, was one of them. "you should send a message up to london for louis," said the doctor. "we did that, doctor; we did that to-day--we sent up a telegraph. oh me! oh me! poor boy, what will he do? i shall never know what to do with him, never! never!" and with such sorrowful wailings she sat rocking herself through the long night, every now and then comforting herself by the performance of some menial service in the sick man's room. sir roger passed the night much as he had passed the day, except that he appeared gradually to be growing nearer to a state of consciousness. on the following morning they succeeded at last in making mr rerechild understand that they were not desirous of keeping him longer from his barchester practice; and at about twelve o'clock dr thorne also went, promising that he would return in the evening, and again pass the night at boxall hill. in the course of the afternoon sir roger once more awoke to his senses, and when he did so his son was standing at his bedside. louis philippe scatcherd--or as it may be more convenient to call him, louis--was a young man just of the age of frank gresham. but there could hardly be two youths more different in their appearance. louis, though his father and mother were both robust persons, was short and slight, and now of a sickly frame. frank was a picture of health and strength; but, though manly in disposition, was by no means precocious either in appearance or manners. louis scatcherd looked as though he was four years the other's senior. he had been sent to eton when he was fifteen, his father being under the impression that this was the most ready and best-recognised method of making him a gentleman. here he did not altogether fail as regarded the coveted object of his becoming the companion of gentlemen. he had more pocket-money than any other lad in the school, and was possessed also of a certain effrontery which carried him ahead among boys of his own age. he gained, therefore, a degree of éclat, even among those who knew, and very frequently said to each other, that young scatcherd was not fit to be their companion except on such open occasions as those of cricket-matches and boat-races. boys, in this respect, are at least as exclusive as men, and understand as well the difference between an inner and an outer circle. scatcherd had many companions at school who were glad enough to go up to maidenhead with him in his boat; but there was not one among them who would have talked to him of his sister. sir roger was vastly proud of his son's success, and did his best to stimulate it by lavish expenditure at the christopher, whenever he could manage to run down to eton. but this practice, though sufficiently unexceptionable to the boys, was not held in equal delight by the masters. to tell the truth, neither sir roger nor his son were favourites with these stern custodians. at last it was felt necessary to get rid of them both; and louis was not long in giving them an opportunity, by getting tipsy twice in one week. on the second occasion he was sent away, and he and sir roger, though long talked of, were seen no more at eton. but the universities were still open to louis philippe, and before he was eighteen he was entered as a gentleman-commoner at trinity. as he was, moreover, the eldest son of a baronet, and had almost unlimited command of money, here also he was enabled for a while to shine. to shine! but very fitfully; and one may say almost with a ghastly glare. the very lads who had eaten his father's dinners at eton, and shared his four-oar at eton, knew much better than to associate with him at cambridge now that they had put on the _toga virilis_. they were still as prone as ever to fun, frolic, and devilry--perhaps more so than ever, seeing that more was in their power; but they acquired an idea that it behoved them to be somewhat circumspect as to the men with whom their pranks were perpetrated. so, in those days, louis scatcherd was coldly looked on by his whilom eton friends. but young scatcherd did not fail to find companions at cambridge also. there are few places indeed in which a rich man cannot buy companionship. but the set with whom he lived at cambridge were the worst of the place. they were fast, slang men, who were fast and slang, and nothing else--men who imitated grooms in more than their dress, and who looked on the customary heroes of race-courses as the highest lords of the ascendant upon earth. among those at college young scatcherd did shine as long as such lustre was permitted him. here, indeed, his father, who had striven only to encourage him at eton, did strive somewhat to control him. but that was not now easy. if he limited his son's allowance, he only drove him to do his debauchery on credit. there were plenty to lend money to the son of the great millionaire; and so, after eighteen months' trial of a university education, sir roger had no alternative but to withdraw his son from his _alma mater_. what was he then to do with him? unluckily it was considered quite unnecessary to take any steps towards enabling him to earn his bread. now nothing on earth can be more difficult than bringing up well a young man who has not to earn his own bread, and who has no recognised station among other men similarly circumstanced. juvenile dukes, and sprouting earls, find their duties and their places as easily as embryo clergymen and sucking barristers. provision is made for their peculiar positions: and, though they may possibly go astray, they have a fair chance given to them of running within the posts. the same may be said of such youths as frank gresham. there are enough of them in the community to have made it necessary that their well-being should be a matter of care and forethought. but there are but few men turned out in the world in the position of louis scatcherd; and, of those few, but very few enter the real battle of life under good auspices. poor sir roger, though he had hardly time with all his multitudinous railways to look into this thoroughly, had a glimmering of it. when he saw his son's pale face, and paid his wine bills, and heard of his doings in horse-flesh, he did know that things were not going well; he did understand that the heir to a baronetcy and a fortune of some ten thousand a year might be doing better. but what was he to do? he could not watch over his boy himself; so he took a tutor for him and sent him abroad. louis and the tutor got as far as berlin, with what mutual satisfaction to each other need not be specially described. but from berlin sir roger received a letter in which the tutor declined to go any further in the task which he had undertaken. he found that he had no influence over his pupil, and he could not reconcile it to his conscience to be the spectator of such a life as that which mr scatcherd led. he had no power in inducing mr scatcherd to leave berlin; but he would remain there himself till he should hear from sir roger. so sir roger had to leave the huge government works which he was then erecting on the southern coast, and hurry off to berlin to see what could be done with young hopeful. the young hopeful was by no means a fool; and in some matters was more than a match for his father. sir roger, in his anger, threatened to cast him off without a shilling. louis, with mixed penitence and effrontery, reminded him that he could not change the descent of the title; promised amendment; declared that he had done only as do other young men of fortune; and hinted that the tutor was a strait-laced ass. the father and the son returned together to boxall hill, and three months afterwards mr scatcherd set up for himself in london. and now his life, if not more virtuous, was more crafty than it had been. he had no tutor to watch his doings and complain of them, and he had sufficient sense to keep himself from absolute pecuniary ruin. he lived, it is true, where sharpers and blacklegs had too often opportunities of plucking him; but, young as he was, he had been sufficiently long about the world to take care he was not openly robbed; and as he was not openly robbed, his father, in a certain sense, was proud of him. tidings, however, came--came at least in those last days--which cut sir roger to the quick; tidings of vice in the son which the father could not but attribute to his own example. twice the mother was called up to the sick-bed of her only child, while he lay raving in that horrid madness by which the outraged mind avenges itself on the body! twice he was found raging in delirium tremens, and twice the father was told that a continuance of such life must end in an early death. it may easily be conceived that sir roger was not a happy man. lying there with that brandy bottle beneath his pillow, reflecting in his moments of rest that that son of his had his brandy bottle beneath his pillow, he could hardly have been happy. but he was not a man to say much about his misery. though he could restrain neither himself nor his heir, he could endure in silence; and in silence he did endure, till, opening his eyes to the consciousness of death, he at last spoke a few words to the only friend he knew. louis scatcherd was not a fool, nor was he naturally, perhaps, of a depraved disposition; but he had to reap the fruits of the worst education which england was able to give him. there were moments in his life when he felt that a better, a higher, nay, a much happier career was open to him than that which he had prepared himself to lead. now and then he would reflect what money and rank might have done for him; he would look with wishful eyes to the proud doings of others of his age; would dream of quiet joys, of a sweet wife, of a house to which might be asked friends who were neither jockeys nor drunkards; he would dream of such things in his short intervals of constrained sobriety; but the dream would only serve to make him moody. this was the best side of his character; the worst, probably, was that which was brought into play by the fact that he was not a fool. he would have a better chance of redemption in this world--perhaps also in another--had he been a fool. as it was, he was no fool: he was not to be done, not he; he knew, no one better, the value of a shilling; he knew, also, how to keep his shillings, and how to spend them. he consorted much with blacklegs and such-like, because blacklegs were to his taste. but he boasted daily, nay, hourly to himself, and frequently to those around him, that the leeches who were stuck round him could draw but little blood from him. he could spend his money freely; but he would so spend it that he himself might reap the gratification of the expenditure. he was acute, crafty, knowing, and up to every damnable dodge practised by men of the class with whom he lived. at one-and-twenty he was that most odious of all odious characters--a close-fisted reprobate. he was a small man, not ill-made by nature, but reduced to unnatural tenuity by dissipation--a corporeal attribute of which he was apt to boast, as it enabled him, as he said, to put himself up at st. lb. without any "d---- nonsense of not eating and drinking." the power, however, was one of which he did not often avail himself, as his nerves were seldom in a fit state for riding. his hair was dark red, and he wore red moustaches, and a great deal of red beard beneath his chin, cut in a manner to make him look like an american. his voice also had a yankee twang, being a cross between that of an american trader and an english groom; and his eyes were keen and fixed, and cold and knowing. such was the son whom sir roger saw standing at his bedside when first he awoke to consciousness. it must not be supposed that sir roger looked at him with our eyes. to him he was an only child, the heir of his wealth, the future bearer of his title; the most heart-stirring remembrancer of those other days, when he had been so much a poorer, and so much a happier man. let that boy be bad or good, he was all sir roger had; and the father was still able to hope, when others thought that all ground for hope was gone. the mother also loved her son with a mother's natural love; but louis had ever been ashamed of his mother, and had, as far as possible, estranged himself from her. her heart, perhaps, fixed itself with almost a warmer love on frank gresham, her foster-son. frank she saw but seldom, but when she did see him he never refused her embrace. there was, too, a joyous, genial lustre about frank's face which always endeared him to women, and made his former nurse regard him as the pet creation of the age. though she but seldom interfered with any monetary arrangement of her husband's, yet once or twice she had ventured to hint that a legacy left to the young squire would make her a happy woman. sir roger, however, on these occasions had not appeared very desirous of making his wife happy. "ah, louis! is that you?" ejaculated sir roger, in tones hardly more than half-formed: afterwards, in a day or two that is, he fully recovered his voice; but just then he could hardly open his jaws, and spoke almost through his teeth. he managed, however, to put out his hand and lay it on the counterpane, so that his son could take it. "why, that's well, governor," said the son; "you'll be as right as a trivet in a day or two--eh, governor?" the "governor" smiled with a ghastly smile. he already pretty well knew that he would never again be "right," as his son called it, on that side of the grave. it did not, moreover, suit him to say much just at that moment, so he contented himself with holding his son's hand. he lay still in this position for a moment, and then, turning round painfully on his side, endeavoured to put his hand to the place where his dire enemy usually was concealed. sir roger, however, was too weak now to be his own master; he was at length, though too late, a captive in the hands of nurses and doctors, and the bottle had now been removed. then lady scatcherd came in, and seeing that her husband was no longer unconscious, she could not but believe that dr thorne had been wrong; she could not but think that there must be some ground for hope. she threw herself on her knees at the bedside, bursting into tears as she did so, and taking sir roger's hand in hers covered it with kisses. "bother!" said sir roger. she did not, however, long occupy herself with the indulgence of her feelings; but going speedily to work, produced such sustenance as the doctors had ordered to be given when the patient might awake. a breakfast-cup was brought to him, and a few drops were put into his mouth; but he soon made it manifest that he would take nothing more of a description so perfectly innocent. "a drop of brandy--just a little drop," said he, half-ordering, and half-entreating. "ah, roger!" said lady scatcherd. "just a little drop, louis," said the sick man, appealing to his son. "a little will be good for him; bring the bottle, mother," said the son. after some altercation the brandy bottle was brought, and louis, with what he thought a very sparing hand, proceeded to pour about half a wine-glassful into the cup. as he did so, sir roger, weak as he was, contrived to shake his son's arm, so as greatly to increase the dose. "ha! ha! ha!" laughed the sick man, and then greedily swallowed the dose. chapter xxv sir roger dies that night the doctor stayed at boxall hill, and the next night; so that it became a customary thing for him to sleep there during the latter part of sir roger's illness. he returned home daily to greshamsbury; for he had his patients there, to whom he was as necessary as to sir roger, the foremost of whom was lady arabella. he had, therefore, no slight work on his hands, seeing that his nights were by no means wholly devoted to rest. mr rerechild had not been much wrong as to the remaining space of life which he had allotted to the dying man. once or twice dr thorne had thought that the great original strength of his patient would have enabled him to fight against death for a somewhat longer period; but sir roger would give himself no chance. whenever he was strong enough to have a will of his own, he insisted on having his very medicine mixed with brandy; and in the hours of the doctor's absence, he was too often successful in his attempts. "it does not much matter," dr thorne had said to lady scatcherd. "do what you can to keep down the quantity, but do not irritate him by refusing to obey. it does not much signify now." so lady scatcherd still administered the alcohol, and he from day to day invented little schemes for increasing the amount, over which he chuckled with ghastly laughter. two or three times during these days sir roger essayed to speak seriously to his son; but louis always frustrated him. he either got out of the room on some excuse, or made his mother interfere on the score that so much talking would be bad for his father. he already knew with tolerable accuracy what was the purport of his father's will, and by no means approved of it; but as he could not now hope to induce his father to alter it so as to make it more favourable to himself, he conceived that no conversation on matters of business could be of use to him. "louis," said sir roger, one afternoon to his son; "louis, i have not done by you as i ought to have done--i know that now." "nonsense, governor; never mind about that now; i shall do well enough, i dare say. besides, it isn't too late; you can make it twenty-three years instead of twenty-five, if you like it." "i do not mean as to money, louis. there are things besides money which a father ought to look to." "now, father, don't fret yourself--i'm all right; you may be sure of that." "louis, it's that accursed brandy--it's that that i'm afraid of: you see me here, my boy, how i'm lying here now." "don't you be annoying yourself, governor; i'm all right--quite right; and as for you, why, you'll be up and about yourself in another month or so." "i shall never be off this bed, my boy, till i'm carried into my coffin, on those chairs there. but i'm not thinking of myself, louis, but you; think what you may have before you if you can't avoid that accursed bottle." "i'm all right, governor; right as a trivet. it's very little i take, except at an odd time or so." "oh, louis! louis!" "come, father, cheer up; this sort of thing isn't the thing for you at all. i wonder where mother is: she ought to be here with the broth; just let me go, and i'll see for her." the father understood it all. he saw that it was now much beyond his faded powers to touch the heart or conscience of such a youth as his son had become. what now could he do for his boy except die? what else, what other benefit, did his son require of him but to die; to die so that his means of dissipation might be unbounded? he let go the unresisting hand which he held, and, as the young man crept out of the room, he turned his face to the wall. he turned his face to the wall and held bitter commune with his own heart. to what had he brought himself? to what had he brought his son? oh, how happy would it have been for him could he have remained all his days a working stone-mason in barchester! how happy could he have died as such, years ago! such tears as those which wet that pillow are the bitterest which human eyes can shed. but while they were dropping, the memoir of his life was in quick course of preparation. it was, indeed, nearly completed, with considerable detail. he had lingered on four days longer than might have been expected, and the author had thus had more than usual time for the work. in these days a man is nobody unless his biography is kept so far posted up that it may be ready for the national breakfast-table on the morning after his demise. when it chances that the dead hero is one who was taken in his prime of life, of whose departure from among us the most far-seeing biographical scribe can have no prophetic inkling, this must be difficult. of great men, full of years, who are ripe for the sickle, who in the course of nature must soon fall, it is of course comparatively easy for an active compiler to have his complete memoir ready in his desk. but in order that the idea of omnipresent and omniscient information may be kept up, the young must be chronicled as quickly as the old. in some cases this task must, one would say, be difficult. nevertheless, it is done. the memoir of sir roger scatcherd was progressing favourably. in this it was told how fortunate had been his life; how, in his case, industry and genius combined had triumphed over the difficulties which humble birth and deficient education had thrown in his way; how he had made a name among england's great men; how the queen had delighted to honour him, and nobles had been proud to have him for a guest at their mansions. then followed a list of all the great works which he had achieved, of the railroads, canals, docks, harbours, jails, and hospitals which he had constructed. his name was held up as an example to the labouring classes of his countrymen, and he was pointed at as one who had lived and died happy--ever happy, said the biographer, because ever industrious. and so a great moral question was inculcated. a short paragraph was devoted to his appearance in parliament; and unfortunate mr romer was again held up for disgrace, for the thirtieth time, as having been the means of depriving our legislative councils of the great assistance of sir roger's experience. "sir roger," said the biographer in his concluding passage, "was possessed of an iron frame; but even iron will yield to the repeated blows of the hammer. in the latter years of his life he was known to overtask himself; and at length the body gave way, though the mind remained firm to the _last_. the subject of this memoir was only fifty-nine when he was taken from us." and thus sir roger's life was written, while the tears were yet falling on his pillow at boxall hill. it was a pity that a proof-sheet could not have been sent to him. no man was vainer of his reputation, and it would have greatly gratified him to know that posterity was about to speak of him in such terms--to speak of him with a voice that would be audible for twenty-four hours. sir roger made no further attempt to give counsel to his son. it was too evidently useless. the old dying lion felt that the lion's power had already passed from him, and that he was helpless in the hands of the young cub who was so soon to inherit the wealth of the forest. but dr thorne was more kind to him. he had something yet to say as to his worldly hopes and worldly cares; and his old friend did not turn a deaf ear to him. it was during the night that sir roger was most anxious to talk, and most capable of talking. he would lie through the day in a state half-comatose; but towards evening he would rouse himself, and by midnight he would be full of fitful energy. one night, as he lay wakeful and full of thought, he thus poured forth his whole heart to dr thorne. "thorne," said he, "i told you about my will, you know." "yes," said the other; "and i have blamed myself greatly that i have not again urged you to alter it. your illness came too suddenly, scatcherd; and then i was averse to speak of it." "why should i alter it? it is a good will; as good as i can make. not but that i have altered it since i spoke to you. i did it that day after you left me." "have you definitely named your heir in default of louis?" "no--that is--yes--i had done that before; i have said mary's eldest child: i have not altered that." "but, scatcherd, you must alter it." "must! well then i won't; but i'll tell you what i have done. i have added a postscript--a codicil they call it--saying that you, and you only, know who is her eldest child. winterbones and jack martin have witnessed that." dr thorne was going to explain how very injudicious such an arrangement appeared to be; but sir roger would not listen to him. it was not about that that he wished to speak to him. to him it was matter of but minor interest who might inherit his money if his son should die early; his care was solely for his son's welfare. at twenty-five the heir might make his own will--might bequeath all this wealth according to his own fancy. sir roger would not bring himself to believe that his son could follow him to the grave in so short a time. "never mind that, doctor, now; but about louis; you will be his guardian, you know." "not his guardian. he is more than of age." "ah! but doctor, you will be his guardian. the property will not be his till he be twenty-five. you will not desert him?" "i will not desert him; but i doubt whether i can do much for him--what can i do, scatcherd?" "use the power that a strong man has over a weak one. use the power that my will will give you. do for him as you would for a son of your own if you saw him going in bad courses. do as a friend should do for a friend that is dead and gone. i would do so for you, doctor, if our places were changed." "what i can do, that i will do," said thorne, solemnly, taking as he spoke the contractor's hand in his own with a tight grasp. "i know you will; i know you will. oh! doctor, may you never feel as i do now! may you on your death-bed have no dread as i have, as to the fate of those you will leave behind you!" doctor thorne felt that he could not say much in answer to this. the future fate of louis scatcherd was, he could not but own to himself, greatly to be dreaded. what good, what happiness, could be presaged for such a one as he was? what comfort could he offer to the father? and then he was called on to compare, as it were, the prospects of this unfortunate with those of his own darling; to contrast all that was murky, foul, and disheartening, with all that was perfect--for to him she was all but perfect; to liken louis scatcherd to the angel who brightened his own hearthstone. how could he answer to such an appeal? he said nothing; but merely tightened his grasp of the other's hand, to signify that he would do, as best he could, all that was asked of him. sir roger looked up sadly into the doctor's face, as though expecting some word of consolation. there was no comfort, no consolation to come to him! "for three or four years he must greatly depend upon you," continued sir roger. "i will do what i can," said the doctor. "what i can do i will do. but he is not a child, scatcherd: at his age he must stand or fall mainly by his own conduct. the best thing for him will be to marry." "exactly; that's just it, thorne: i was coming to that. if he would marry, i think he would do well yet, for all that has come and gone. if he married, of course you would let him have the command of his own income." "i will be governed entirely by your wishes: under any circumstances his income will, as i understand, be quite sufficient for him, married or single." "ah!--but, thorne, i should like to think he should shine with the best of them. for what have i made the money if not for that? now if he marries--decently, that is--some woman you know that can assist him in the world, let him have what he wants. it is not to save the money that i put it into your hands." "no, scatcherd; not to save the money, but to save him. i think that while you are yet with him you should advise him to marry." "he does not care a straw for what i advise, not one straw. why should he? how can i tell him to be sober when i have been a beast all my life myself? how can i advise him? that's where it is! it is that that now kills me. advise! why, when i speak to him he treats me like a child." "he fears that you are too weak, you know: he thinks that you should not be allowed to talk." "nonsense! he knows better; you know better. too weak! what signifies? would i not give all that i have of strength at one blow if i could open his eyes to see as i see but for one minute?" and the sick man raised himself up in his bed as though he were actually going to expend all that remained to him of vigour in the energy of a moment. "gently, scatcherd; gently. he will listen to you yet; but do not be so unruly." "thorne, you see that bottle there? give me half a glass of brandy." the doctor turned round in his chair; but he hesitated in doing as he was desired. "do as i ask you, doctor. it can do no harm now; you know that well enough. why torture me now?" "no, i will not torture you; but you will have water with it?" "water! no; the brandy by itself. i tell you i cannot speak without it. what's the use of canting now? you know it can make no difference." sir roger was right. it could make no difference; and dr thorne gave him the half glass of brandy. "ah, well; you've a stingy hand, doctor; confounded stingy. you don't measure your medicines out in such light doses." "you will be wanting more before morning, you know." "before morning! indeed i shall; a pint or so before that. i remember the time, doctor, when i have drunk to my own cheek above two quarts between dinner and breakfast! aye, and worked all the day after it!" "you have been a wonderful man, scatcherd, very wonderful." "aye, wonderful! well, never mind. it's over now. but what was i saying?--about louis, doctor; you'll not desert him?" "certainly not." "he's not strong; i know that. how should he be strong, living as he has done? not that it seemed to hurt me when i was his age." "you had the advantage of hard work." "that's it. sometimes i wish that louis had not a shilling in the world; that he had to trudge about with an apron round his waist as i did. but it's too late now to think of that. if he would only marry, doctor." dr thorne again expressed an opinion that no step would be so likely to reform the habits of the young heir as marriage; and repeated his advice to the father to implore his son to take a wife. "i'll tell you what, thorne," said he. and then, after a pause, he went on. "i have not half told you as yet what is on my mind; and i'm nearly afraid to tell it; though, indeed, i don't know why i should be." "i never knew you afraid of anything yet," said the doctor, smiling gently. "well, then, i'll not end by turning coward. now, doctor, tell the truth to me; what do you expect me to do for that girl of yours that we were talking of--mary's child?" there was a pause for a moment, for thorne was slow to answer him. "you would not let me see her, you know, though she is my niece as truly as she is yours." "nothing," at last said the doctor, slowly. "i expect nothing. i would not let you see her, and therefore, i expect nothing." "she will have it all if poor louis should die," said sir roger. "if you intend it so you should put her name into the will," said the other. "not that i ask you or wish you to do so. mary, thank god, can do without wealth." "thorne, on one condition i will put her name into it. i will alter it all on one condition. let the two cousins be man and wife--let louis marry poor mary's child." the proposition for a moment took away the doctor's breath, and he was unable to answer. not for all the wealth of india would he have given up his lamb to that young wolf, even though he had had the power to do so. but that lamb--lamb though she was--had, as he well knew, a will of her own on such a matter. what alliance could be more impossible, thought he to himself, than one between mary thorne and louis scatcherd? "i will alter it all if you will give me your hand upon it that you will do your best to bring about this marriage. everything shall be his on the day he marries her; and should he die unmarried, it shall all then be hers by name. say the word, thorne, and she shall come here at once. i shall yet have time to see her." but dr thorne did not say the word; just at the moment he said nothing, but he slowly shook his head. "why not, thorne?" "my friend, it is impossible." "why impossible?" "her hand is not mine to dispose of, nor is her heart." "then let her come over herself." "what! scatcherd, that the son might make love to her while the father is so dangerously ill! bid her come to look for a rich husband! that would not be seemly, would it?" "no; not for that: let her come merely that i may see her; that we may all know her. i will leave the matter then in your hands if you will promise me to do your best." "but, my friend, in this matter i cannot do my best. i can do nothing. and, indeed, i may say at once, that it is altogether out of the question. i know--" "what do you know?" said the baronet, turning on him almost angrily. "what can you know to make you say that it is impossible? is she a pearl of such price that a man may not win her?" "she is a pearl of great price." "believe me, doctor, money goes far in winning such pearls." "perhaps so; i know little about it. but this i do know, that money will not win her. let us talk of something else; believe me it is useless for us to think of this." "yes; if you set your face against it obstinately. you must think very poorly of louis if you suppose that no girl can fancy him." "i have not said so, scatcherd." "to have the spending of ten thousand a year, and be a baronet's lady! why, doctor, what is it you expect for this girl?" "not much, indeed; not much. a quiet heart and a quiet home; not much more." "thorne, if you will be ruled by me in this, she shall be the most topping woman in this county." "my friend, my friend, why thus grieve me? why should you thus harass yourself? i tell you it is impossible. they have never seen each other; they have nothing, and can have nothing in common; their tastes, and wishes, and pursuits are different. besides, scatcherd, marriages never answer that are so made; believe me, it is impossible." the contractor threw himself back on his bed, and lay for some ten minutes perfectly quiet; so much so that the doctor began to think that he was sleeping. so thinking, and wearied by the watching, dr thorne was beginning to creep quietly from the room, when his companion again roused himself, almost with vehemence. "you won't do this thing for me, then?" said he. "do it! it is not for you or me to do such things as that. such things must be left to those concerned themselves." "you will not even help me?" "not in this thing, sir roger." "then, by ----, she shall not under any circumstances ever have a shilling of mine. give me some of that stuff there," and he again pointed to the brandy bottle which stood ever within his sight. the doctor poured out and handed to him another small modicum of spirit. "nonsense, man; fill the glass. i'll stand no nonsense now. i'll be master in my own house to the last. give it here, i tell you. ten thousand devils are tearing me within. you--you could have comforted me; but you would not. fill the glass i tell you." "i should be killing you were i to do it." "killing me! killing me! you are always talking of killing me. do you suppose that i am afraid to die? do not i know how soon it is coming? give me the brandy, i say, or i will be out across the room to fetch it." "no, scatcherd. i cannot give it to you; not while i am here. do you remember how you were engaged this morning?"--he had that morning taken the sacrament from the parish clergyman--"you would not wish to make me guilty of murder, would you?" "nonsense! you are talking nonsense; habit is second nature. i tell you i shall sink without it. why, you know i always get it directly your back is turned. come, i will not be bullied in my own house; give me that bottle, i say!"--and sir roger essayed, vainly enough, to raise himself from the bed. "stop, scatcherd; i will give it you--i will help you. it may be that habit is second nature." sir roger in his determined energy had swallowed, without thinking of it, the small quantity which the doctor had before poured out for him, and still held the empty glass within his hand. this the doctor now took and filled nearly to the brim. "come, thorne, a bumper; a bumper for this once. 'whatever the drink, it a bumper must be.' you stingy fellow! i would not treat you so. well--well." "it's as full as you can hold it, scatcherd." "try me; try me! my hand is a rock; at least at holding liquor." and then he drained the contents of the glass, which were sufficient in quantity to have taken away the breath from any ordinary man. "ah, i'm better now. but, thorne, i do love a full glass, ha! ha! ha!" there was something frightful, almost sickening, in the peculiar hoarse guttural tone of his voice. the sounds came from him as though steeped in brandy, and told, all too plainly, the havoc which the alcohol had made. there was a fire too about his eyes which contrasted with his sunken cheeks: his hanging jaw, unshorn beard, and haggard face were terrible to look at. his hands and arms were hot and clammy, but so thin and wasted! of his lower limbs the lost use had not returned to him, so that in all his efforts at vehemence he was controlled by his own want of vitality. when he supported himself, half-sitting against the pillows, he was in a continual tremor; and yet, as he boasted, he could still lift his glass steadily to his mouth. such now was the hero of whom that ready compiler of memoirs had just finished his correct and succinct account. after he had had his brandy, he sat glaring a while at vacancy, as though he was dead to all around him, and was thinking--thinking-- thinking of things in the infinite distance of the past. "shall i go now," said the doctor, "and send lady scatcherd to you?" "wait a while, doctor; just one minute longer. so you will do nothing for louis, then?" "i will do everything for him that i can do." "ah, yes! everything but the one thing that will save him. well, i will not ask you again. but remember, thorne, i shall alter my will to-morrow." "do so by all means; you may well alter it for the better. if i may advise you, you will have down your own business attorney from london. if you will let me send he will be here before to-morrow night." "thank you for nothing, thorne: i can manage that matter myself. now leave me; but remember, you have ruined that girl's fortune." the doctor did leave him, and went not altogether happy to his room. he could not but confess to himself that he had, despite himself as it were, fed himself with hope that mary's future might be made more secure, aye, and brighter too, by some small unheeded fraction broken off from the huge mass of her uncle's wealth. such hope, if it had amounted to hope, was now all gone. but this was not all, nor was this the worst of it. that he had done right in utterly repudiating all idea of a marriage between mary and her cousin--of that he was certain enough; that no earthly consideration would have induced mary to plight her troth to such a man--that, with him, was as certain as doom. but how far had he done right in keeping her from the sight of her uncle? how could he justify it to himself if he had thus robbed her of her inheritance, seeing that he had done so from a selfish fear lest she, who was now all his own, should be known to the world as belonging to others rather than to him? he had taken upon him on her behalf to reject wealth as valueless; and yet he had no sooner done so than he began to consume his hours with reflecting how great to her would be the value of wealth. and thus, when sir roger told him, as he left the room, that he had ruined mary's fortune, he was hardly able to bear the taunt with equanimity. on the next morning, after paying his professional visit to his patient, and satisfying himself that the end was now drawing near with steps terribly quickened, he went down to greshamsbury. "how long is this to last, uncle?" said his niece, with sad voice, as he again prepared to return to boxall hill. "not long, mary; do not begrudge him a few more hours of life." "no, i do not, uncle. i will say nothing more about it. is his son with him?" and then, perversely enough, she persisted in asking numerous questions about louis scatcherd. "is he likely to marry, uncle?" "i hope so, my dear." "will he be so very rich?" "yes; ultimately he will be very rich." "he will be a baronet, will he not?" "yes, my dear." "what is he like, uncle?" "like--i never know what a young man is like. he is like a man with red hair." "uncle, you are the worst hand in describing i ever knew. if i'd seen him for five minutes, i'd be bound to make a portrait of him; and you, if you were describing a dog, you'd only say what colour his hair was." "well, he's a little man." "exactly, just as i should say that mrs umbleby had a red-haired little dog. i wish i had known these scatcherds, uncle. i do so admire people that can push themselves in the world. i wish i had known sir roger." "you will never know him now, mary." "i suppose not. i am so sorry for him. is lady scatcherd nice?" "she is an excellent woman." "i hope i may know her some day. you are so much there now, uncle; i wonder whether you ever mention me to them. if you do, tell her from me how much i grieve for her." that same night dr thorne again found himself alone with sir roger. the sick man was much more tranquil, and apparently more at ease than he had been on the preceding night. he said nothing about his will, and not a word about mary thorne; but the doctor knew that winterbones and a notary's clerk from barchester had been in the bedroom a great part of the day; and, as he knew also that the great man of business was accustomed to do his most important work by the hands of such tools as these, he did not doubt but that the will had been altered and remodelled. indeed, he thought it more than probable, that when it was opened it would be found to be wholly different in its provisions from that which sir roger had already described. "louis is clever enough," he said, "sharp enough, i mean. he won't squander the property." "he has good natural abilities," said the doctor. "excellent, excellent," said the father. "he may do well, very well, if he can only be kept from this;" and sir roger held up the empty wine-glass which stood by his bedside. "what a life he may have before him!--and to throw it away for this!" and as he spoke he took the glass and tossed it across the room. "oh, doctor! would that it were all to begin again!" "we all wish that, i dare say, scatcherd." "no, you don't wish it. you ain't worth a shilling, and yet you regret nothing. i am worth half a million in one way or the other, and i regret everything--everything--everything!" "you should not think in that way, scatcherd; you need not think so. yesterday you told mr clarke that you were comfortable in your mind." mr clarke was the clergyman who had visited him. "of course i did. what else could i say when he asked me? it wouldn't have been civil to have told him that his time and words were all thrown away. but, thorne, believe me, when a man's heart is sad--sad--sad to the core, a few words from a parson at the last moment will never make it all right." "may he have mercy on you, my friend!--if you will think of him, and look to him, he will have mercy on you." "well--i will try, doctor; but would that it were all to do again. you'll see to the old woman for my sake, won't you?" "what, lady scatcherd?" "lady devil! if anything angers me now it is that 'ladyship'--her to be my lady! why, when i came out of jail that time, the poor creature had hardly a shoe to her foot. but it wasn't her fault, thorne; it was none of her doing. she never asked for such nonsense." "she has been an excellent wife, scatcherd; and what is more, she is an excellent woman. she is, and ever will be, one of my dearest friends." "thank'ee, doctor, thank'ee. yes; she has been a good wife--better for a poor man than a rich one; but then, that was what she was born to. you won't let her be knocked about by them, will you, thorne?" dr thorne again assured him, that as long as he lived lady scatcherd should never want one true friend; in making this promise, however, he managed to drop all allusion to the obnoxious title. "you'll be with him as much as possible, won't you?" again asked the baronet, after lying quite silent for a quarter of an hour. "with whom?" said the doctor, who was then all but asleep. "with my poor boy; with louis." "if he will let me, i will," said the doctor. "and, doctor, when you see a glass at his mouth, dash it down; thrust it down, though you thrust out the teeth with it. when you see that, thorne, tell him of his father--tell him what his father might have been but for that; tell him how his father died like a beast, because he could not keep himself from drink." these, reader, were the last words spoken by sir roger scatcherd. as he uttered them he rose up in bed with the same vehemence which he had shown on the former evening. but in the very act of doing so he was again struck by paralysis, and before nine on the following morning all was over. "oh, my man--my own, own man!" exclaimed the widow, remembering in the paroxysm of her grief nothing but the loves of their early days; "the best, the brightest, the cleverest of them all!" some weeks after this sir roger was buried, with much pomp and ceremony, within the precincts of barchester cathedral; and a monument was put up to him soon after, in which he was portrayed as smoothing a block of granite with a mallet and chisel; while his eagle eye, disdaining such humble work, was fixed upon some intricate mathematical instrument above him. could sir roger have seen it himself, he would probably have declared, that no workman was ever worth his salt who looked one way while he rowed another. immediately after the funeral the will was opened, and dr thorne discovered that the clauses of it were exactly identical with those which his friend had described to him some months back. nothing had been altered; nor had the document been unfolded since that strange codicil was added, in which it was declared that dr thorne knew--and only dr thorne--who was the eldest child of the testator's only sister. at the same time, however, a joint executor with dr thorne had been named--one mr stock, a man of railway fame--and dr thorne himself was made a legatee to the humble extent of a thousand pounds. a life income of a thousand pounds a year was left to lady scatcherd. chapter xxvi war we need not follow sir roger to his grave, nor partake of the baked meats which were furnished for his funeral banquet. such men as sir roger scatcherd are always well buried, and we have already seen that his glories were duly told to posterity in the graphic diction of his sepulchral monument. in a few days the doctor had returned to his quiet home, and sir louis found himself reigning at boxall hill in his father's stead--with, however, a much diminished sway, and, as he thought it, but a poor exchequer. we must soon return to him and say something of his career as a baronet; but for the present, we may go back to our more pleasant friends at greshamsbury. but our friends at greshamsbury had not been making themselves pleasant--not so pleasant to each other as circumstances would have admitted. in those days which the doctor had felt himself bound to pass, if not altogether at boxall hill, yet altogether away from his own home, so as to admit of his being as much as possible with his patient, mary had been thrown more than ever with patience oriel, and, also, almost more than ever with beatrice gresham. as regarded mary, she would doubtless have preferred the companionship of patience, though she loved beatrice far the best; but she had no choice. when she went to the parsonage beatrice came there also, and when patience came to the doctor's house beatrice either accompanied or followed her. mary could hardly have rejected their society, even had she felt it wise to do so. she would in such case have been all alone, and her severance from the greshamsbury house and household, from the big family in which she had for so many years been almost at home, would have made such solitude almost unendurable. and then these two girls both knew--not her secret: she had no secret--but the little history of her ill-treatment. they knew that though she had been blameless in this matter, yet she had been the one to bear the punishment; and, as girls and bosom friends, they could not but sympathise with her, and endow her with heroic attributes; make her, in fact, as we are doing, their little heroine for the nonce. this was, perhaps, not serviceable for mary; but it was far from being disagreeable. the tendency to finding matter for hero-worship in mary's endurance was much stronger with beatrice than with miss oriel. miss oriel was the elder, and naturally less afflicted with the sentimentation of romance. she had thrown herself into mary's arms because she had seen that it was essentially necessary for mary's comfort that she should do so. she was anxious to make her friend smile, and to smile with her. beatrice was quite as true in her sympathy; but she rather wished that she and mary might weep in unison, shed mutual tears, and break their hearts together. patience had spoken of frank's love as a misfortune, of his conduct as erroneous, and to be excused only by his youth, and had never appeared to surmise that mary also might be in love as well as he. but to beatrice the affair was a tragic difficulty, admitting of no solution; a gordian knot, not to be cut; a misery now and for ever. she would always talk about frank when she and mary were alone; and, to speak the truth, mary did not stop her as she perhaps should have done. as for a marriage between them, that was impossible; beatrice was well sure of that: it was frank's unfortunate destiny that he must marry money--money, and, as beatrice sometimes thoughtlessly added, cutting mary to the quick,--money and family also. under such circumstances a marriage between them was quite impossible; but not the less did beatrice declare, that she would have loved mary as her sister-in-law had it been possible; and how worthy frank was of a girl's love, had such love been permissible. "it is so cruel," beatrice would say; "so very, very, cruel. you would have suited him in every way." "nonsense, trichy; i should have suited him in no possible way at all; nor he me." "oh, but you would--exactly. papa loves you so well." "and mamma; that would have been so nice." "yes; and mamma, too--that is, had you had a fortune," said the daughter, naïvely. "she always liked you personally, always." "did she?" "always. and we all love you so." "especially lady alexandrina." "that would not have signified, for frank cannot endure the de courcys himself." "my dear, it does not matter one straw whom your brother can endure or not endure just at present. his character is to be formed, and his tastes, and his heart also." "oh, mary!--his heart." "yes, his heart; not the fact of his having a heart. i think he has a heart; but he himself does not yet understand it." "oh, mary! you do not know him." such conversations were not without danger to poor mary's comfort. it came soon to be the case that she looked rather for this sort of sympathy from beatrice, than for miss oriel's pleasant but less piquant gaiety. so the days of the doctor's absence were passed, and so also the first week after his return. during this week it was almost daily necessary that the squire should be with him. the doctor was now the legal holder of sir roger's property, and, as such, the holder also of all the mortgages on mr gresham's property; and it was natural that they should be much together. the doctor would not, however, go up to greshamsbury on any other than medical business; and it therefore became necessary that the squire should be a good deal at the doctor's house. then the lady arabella became unhappy in her mind. frank, it was true, was away at cambridge, and had been successfully kept out of mary's way since the suspicion of danger had fallen upon lady arabella's mind. frank was away, and mary was systematically banished, with due acknowledgement from all the powers in greshamsbury. but this was not enough for lady arabella as long as her daughter still habitually consorted with the female culprit, and as long as her husband consorted with the male culprit. it seemed to lady arabella at this moment as though, in banishing mary from the house, she had in effect banished herself from the most intimate of the greshamsbury social circles. she magnified in her own mind the importance of the conferences between the girls, and was not without some fear that the doctor might be talking the squire over into very dangerous compliance. she resolved, therefore, on another duel with the doctor. in the first she had been pre-eminently and unexpectedly successful. no young sucking dove could have been more mild than that terrible enemy whom she had for years regarded as being too puissant for attack. in ten minutes she had vanquished him, and succeeded in banishing both him and his niece from the house without losing the value of his services. as is always the case with us, she had begun to despise the enemy she had conquered, and to think that the foe, once beaten, could never rally. her object was to break off all confidential intercourse between beatrice and mary, and to interrupt, as far as she could do it, that between the doctor and the squire. this, it may be said, could be more easily done by skilful management within her own household. she had, however, tried that and failed. she had said much to beatrice as to the imprudence of her friendship with mary, and she had done this purposely before the squire; injudiciously however,--for the squire had immediately taken mary's part, and had declared that he had no wish to see a quarrel between his family and that of the doctor; that mary thorne was in every way a good girl, and an eligible friend for his own child; and had ended by declaring, that he would not have mary persecuted for frank's fault. this had not been the end, nor nearly the end of what had been said on the matter at greshamsbury; but the end, when it came, came in this wise, that lady arabella determined to say a few words to the doctor as to the expediency of forbidding familiar intercourse between mary and any of the greshamsbury people. with this view lady arabella absolutely bearded the lion in his den, the doctor in his shop. she had heard that both mary and beatrice were to pass a certain afternoon at the parsonage, and took that opportunity of calling at the doctor's house. a period of many years had passed since she had last so honoured that abode. mary, indeed, had been so much one of her own family that the ceremony of calling on her had never been thought necessary; and thus, unless mary had been absolutely ill, there would have been nothing to bring her ladyship to the house. all this she knew would add to the importance of the occasion, and she judged it prudent to make the occasion as important as it might well be. she was so far successful that she soon found herself _tête-à-tête_ with the doctor in his own study. she was no whit dismayed by the pair of human thigh-bones which lay close to his hand, and which, when he was talking in that den of his own, he was in the constant habit of handling with much energy; nor was she frightened out of her propriety even by the little child's skull which grinned at her from off the chimney-piece. "doctor," she said, as soon as the first complimentary greetings were over, speaking in her kindest and most would-be-confidential tone, "doctor, i am still uneasy about that boy of mine, and i have thought it best to come and see you at once, and tell you freely what i think." the doctor bowed, and said that he was very sorry that she should have any cause for uneasiness about his young friend frank. "indeed, i am very uneasy, doctor; and having, as i do have, such reliance on your prudence, and such perfect confidence in your friendship, i have thought it best to come and speak to you openly:" thereupon the lady arabella paused, and the doctor bowed again. "nobody knows so well as you do the dreadful state of the squire's affairs." "not so very dreadful; not so very dreadful," said the doctor, mildly: "that is, as far as i know." "yes they are, doctor; very dreadful; very dreadful indeed. you know how much he owes to this young man: i do not, for the squire never tells anything to me; but i know that it is a very large sum of money; enough to swamp the estate and ruin frank. now i call that very dreadful." "no, no, not ruin him, lady arabella; not ruin him, i hope." "however, i did not come to talk to you about that. as i said before, i know nothing of the squire's affairs, and, as a matter of course, i do not ask you to tell me. but i am sure you will agree with me in this, that, as a mother, i cannot but be interested about my only son," and lady arabella put her cambric handkerchief to her eyes. "of course you are; of course you are," said the doctor; "and, lady arabella, my opinion of frank is such, that i feel sure that he will do well;" and, in his energy, dr thorne brandished one of the thigh-bones almost in the lady's face. "i hope he will; i am sure i hope he will. but, doctor, he has such dangers to contend with; he is so warm and impulsive that i fear his heart will bring him into trouble. now, you know, unless frank marries money he is lost." the doctor made no answer to this last appeal, but as he sat and listened a slight frown came across his brow. "he must marry money, doctor. now we have, you see, with your assistance, contrived to separate him from dear mary--" "with my assistance, lady arabella! i have given no assistance, nor have i meddled in the matter; nor will i." "well, doctor, perhaps not meddled; but you agreed with me, you know, that the two young people had been imprudent." "i agreed to no such thing, lady arabella; never, never. i not only never agreed that mary had been imprudent, but i will not agree to it now, and will not allow any one to assert it in my presence without contradicting it:" and then the doctor worked away at the thigh-bones in a manner that did rather alarm her ladyship. "at any rate, you thought that the young people had better be kept apart." "no; neither did i think that: my niece, i felt sure, was safe from danger. i knew that she would do nothing that would bring either her or me to shame." "not to shame," said the lady, apologetically, as it were, using the word perhaps not exactly in the doctor's sense. "i felt no alarm for her," continued the doctor, "and desired no change. frank is your son, and it is for you to look to him. you thought proper to do so by desiring mary to absent herself from greshamsbury." "oh, no, no, no!" said lady arabella. "but you did, lady arabella; and as greshamsbury is your home, neither i nor my niece had any ground of complaint. we acquiesced, not without much suffering, but we did acquiesce; and you, i think, can have no ground of complaint against us." lady arabella had hardly expected that the doctor would reply to her mild and conciliatory exordium with so much sternness. he had yielded so easily to her on the former occasion. she did not comprehend that when she uttered her sentence of exile against mary, she had given an order which she had the power of enforcing; but that obedience to that order had now placed mary altogether beyond her jurisdiction. she was, therefore, a little surprised, and for a few moments overawed by the doctor's manner; but she soon recovered herself, remembering, doubtless, that fortune favours none but the brave. "i make no complaint, dr thorne," she said, after assuming a tone more befitting a de courcy than that hitherto used, "i make no complaint either as regards you or mary." "you are very kind, lady arabella." "but i think that it is my duty to put a stop, a peremptory stop to anything like a love affair between my son and your niece." "i have not the least objection in life. if there is such a love affair, put a stop to it--that is, if you have the power." here the doctor was doubtless imprudent. but he had begun to think that he had yielded sufficiently to the lady; and he had begun to resolve, also, that though it would not become him to encourage even the idea of such a marriage, he would make lady arabella understand that he thought his niece quite good enough for her son, and that the match, if regarded as imprudent, was to be regarded as equally imprudent on both sides. he would not suffer that mary and her heart and feelings and interest should be altogether postponed to those of the young heir; and, perhaps, he was unconsciously encouraged in this determination by the reflection that mary herself might perhaps become a young heiress. "it is my duty," said lady arabella, repeating her words with even a stronger de courcy intonation; "and your duty also, dr thorne." "my duty!" said he, rising from his chair and leaning on the table with the two thigh-bones. "lady arabella, pray understand at once, that i repudiate any such duty, and will have nothing whatever to do with it." "but you do not mean to say that you will encourage this unfortunate boy to marry your niece?" "the unfortunate boy, lady arabella--whom, by the by, i regard as a very fortunate young man--is your son, not mine. i shall take no steps about his marriage, either one way or the other." "you think it right, then, that your niece should throw herself in his way?" "throw herself in his way! what would you say if i came up to greshamsbury, and spoke to you of your daughters in such language? what would my dear friend mr gresham say, if some neighbour's wife should come and so speak to him? i will tell you what he would say: he would quietly beg her to go back to her own home and meddle only with her own matters." this was dreadful to lady arabella. even dr thorne had never before dared thus to lower her to the level of common humanity, and liken her to any other wife in the country-side. moreover, she was not quite sure whether he, the parish doctor, was not desiring her, the earl's daughter, to go home and mind her own business. on this first point, however, there seemed to be no room for doubt, of which she gave herself the benefit. "it would not become me to argue with you, dr thorne," she said. "not at least on this subject," said he. "i can only repeat that i mean nothing offensive to our dear mary; for whom, i think i may say, i have always shown almost a mother's care." "neither am i, nor is mary, ungrateful for the kindness she has received at greshamsbury." "but i must do my duty: my own children must be my first consideration." "of course they must, lady arabella; that's of course." "and, therefore, i have called on you to say that i think it is imprudent that beatrice and mary should be so much together." the doctor had been standing during the latter part of this conversation, but now he began to walk about, still holding the two bones like a pair of dumb-bells. "god bless my soul!" he said; "god bless my soul! why, lady arabella, do you suspect your own daughter as well as your own son? do you think that beatrice is assisting mary in preparing this wicked clandestine marriage? i tell you fairly, lady arabella, the present tone of your mind is such that i cannot understand it." "i suspect nobody, dr thorne; but young people will be young." "and old people must be old, i suppose; the more's the pity. lady arabella, mary is the same to me as my own daughter, and owes me the obedience of a child; but as i do not disapprove of your daughter beatrice as an acquaintance for her, but rather, on the other hand, regard with pleasure their friendship, you cannot expect that i should take any steps to put an end to it." "but suppose it should lead to renewed intercourse between frank and mary?" "i have no objection. frank is a very nice young fellow, gentleman-like in his manners, and neighbourly in his disposition." "dr thorne--" "lady arabella--" "i cannot believe that you really intend to express a wish--" "you are quite right. i have not intended to express any wish; nor do i intend to do so. mary is at liberty, within certain bounds--which i am sure she will not pass--to choose her own friends. i think she has not chosen badly as regards miss beatrice gresham; and should she even add frank gresham to the number--" "friends! why they were more than friends; they were declared lovers." "i doubt that, lady arabella, because i have not heard of it from mary. but even if it were so, i do not see why i should object." "not object!" "as i said before, frank is, to my thinking, an excellent young man. why should i object?" "dr thorne!" said her ladyship, now also rising from her chair in a state of too evident perturbation. "why should _i_ object? it is for you, lady arabella, to look after your lambs; for me to see that, if possible, no harm shall come to mine. if you think that mary is an improper acquaintance for your children, it is for you to guide them; for you and their father. say what you think fit to your own daughter; but pray understand, once for all, that i will allow no one to interfere with my niece." "interfere!" said lady arabella, now absolutely confused by the severity of the doctor's manner. "i will allow no one to interfere with her; no one, lady arabella. she has suffered very greatly from imputations which you have most unjustly thrown on her. it was, however, your undoubted right to turn her out of your house if you thought fit;--though, as a woman who had known her for so many years, you might, i think, have treated her with more forbearance. that, however, was your right, and you exercised it. there your privilege stops; yes, and must stop, lady arabella. you shall not persecute her here, on the only spot of ground she can call her own." "persecute her, dr thorne! you do not mean to say that i have persecuted her?" "ah! but i do mean to say so. you do persecute her, and would continue to do so did i not defend her. it is not sufficient that she is forbidden to enter your domain--and so forbidden with the knowledge of all the country round--but you must come here also with the hope of interrupting all the innocent pleasures of her life. fearing lest she should be allowed even to speak to your son, to hear a word of him through his own sister, you would put her in prison, tie her up, keep her from the light of day--" "dr thorne! how can you--" but the doctor was not to be interrupted. "it never occurs to you to tie him up, to put him in prison. no; he is the heir of greshamsbury; he is your son, an earl's grandson. it is only natural, after all, that he should throw a few foolish words at the doctor's niece. but she! it is an offence not to be forgiven on her part that she should, however, unwillingly, have been forced to listen to them! now understand me, lady arabella; if any of your family come to my house i shall be delighted to welcome them: if mary should meet any of them elsewhere i shall be delighted to hear of it. should she tell me to-morrow that she was engaged to marry frank, i should talk the matter over with her, quite coolly, solely with a view to her interest, as would be my duty; feeling, at the same time, that frank would be lucky in having such a wife. now you know my mind, lady arabella. it is so i should do my duty;--you can do yours as you may think fit." lady arabella had by this time perceived that she was not destined on this occasion to gain any great victory. she, however, was angry as well as the doctor. it was not the man's vehemence that provoked her so much as his evident determination to break down the prestige of her rank, and place her on a footing in no respect superior to his own. he had never before been so audaciously arrogant; and, as she moved towards the door, she determined in her wrath that she would never again have confidential intercourse with him in any relation of life whatsoever. "dr thorne," said she. "i think you have forgotten yourself. you must excuse me if i say that after what has passed i--i--i--" "certainly," said he, fully understanding what she meant; and bowing low as he opened first the study-door, then the front-door, then the garden-gate. and then lady arabella stalked off, not without full observation from mrs yates umbleby and her friend miss gushing, who lived close by. chapter xxvii miss thorne goes on a visit and now began the unpleasant things at greshamsbury of which we have here told. when lady arabella walked away from the doctor's house she resolved that, let it cost what it might, there should be war to the knife between her and him. she had been insulted by him--so at least she said to herself, and so she was prepared to say to others also--and it was not to be borne that a de courcy should allow her parish doctor to insult her with impunity. she would tell her husband with all the dignity that she could assume, that it had now become absolutely necessary that he should protect his wife by breaking entirely with his unmannered neighbour; and, as regarded the young members of her family, she would use the authority of a mother, and absolutely forbid them to hold any intercourse with mary thorne. so resolving, she walked quickly back to her own house. the doctor, when left alone, was not quite satisfied with the part he had taken in the interview. he had spoken from impulse rather than from judgement, and, as is generally the case with men who do so speak, he had afterwards to acknowledge to himself that he had been imprudent. he accused himself probably of more violence than he had really used, and was therefore unhappy; but, nevertheless, his indignation was not at rest. he was angry with himself; but not on that account the less angry with lady arabella. she was cruel, overbearing, and unreasonable; cruel in the most cruel of manners, so he thought; but not on that account was he justified in forgetting the forbearance due from a gentleman to a lady. mary, moreover, had owed much to the kindness of this woman, and, therefore, dr thorne felt that he should have forgiven much. thus the doctor walked about his room, much disturbed; now accusing himself for having been so angry with lady arabella, and then feeding his own anger by thinking of her misconduct. the only immediate conclusion at which he resolved was this, that it was unnecessary that he should say anything to mary on the subject of her ladyship's visit. there was, no doubt, sorrow enough in store for his darling; why should he aggravate it? lady arabella would doubtless not stop now in her course; but why should he accelerate the evil which she would doubtless be able to effect? lady arabella, when she returned to the house, allowed no grass to grow under her feet. as she entered the house she desired that miss beatrice should be sent to her directly she returned; and she desired also, that as soon as the squire should be in his room a message to that effect might be immediately brought to her. "beatrice," she said, as soon as the young lady appeared before her, and in speaking she assumed her firmest tone of authority, "beatrice, i am sorry, my dear, to say anything that is unpleasant to you, but i must make it a positive request that you will for the future drop all intercourse with dr thorne's family." beatrice, who had received lady arabella's message immediately on entering the house, and had run upstairs imagining that some instant haste was required, now stood before her mother rather out of breath, holding her bonnet by the strings. "oh, mamma!" she exclaimed, "what on earth has happened?" "my dear," said the mother, "i cannot really explain to you what has happened; but i must ask you to give me your positive assurance that you will comply with my request." "you don't mean that i am not to see mary any more?" "yes, i do, my dear; at any rate, for the present. when i tell you that your brother's interest imperatively demands it, i am sure that you will not refuse me." beatrice did not refuse, but she did not appear too willing to comply. she stood silent, leaning against the end of a sofa and twisting her bonnet-strings in her hand. "well, beatrice--" "but, mamma, i don't understand." lady arabella had said that she could not exactly explain: but she found it necessary to attempt to do so. "dr thorne has openly declared to me that a marriage between poor frank and mary is all he could desire for his niece. after such unparalleled audacity as that, even your father will see the necessity of breaking with him." "dr thorne! oh, mamma, you must have misunderstood him." "my dear, i am not apt to misunderstand people; especially when i am so much in earnest as i was in talking to dr thorne." "but, mamma, i know so well what mary herself thinks about it." "and i know what dr thorne thinks about it; he, at any rate, has been candid in what he said; there can be no doubt on earth that he has spoken his true thoughts; there can be no reason to doubt him: of course such a match would be all that he could wish." "mamma, i feel sure that there is some mistake." "very well, my dear. i know that you are infatuated about these people, and that you are always inclined to contradict what i say to you; but, remember, i expect that you will obey me when i tell you not to go to dr thorne's house any more." "but, mamma--" "i expect you to obey me, beatrice. though you are so prone to contradict, you have never disobeyed me; and i fully trust that you will not do so now." lady arabella had begun by exacting, or trying to exact a promise, but as she found that this was not forthcoming, she thought it better to give up the point without a dispute. it might be that beatrice would absolutely refuse to pay this respect to her mother's authority, and then where would she have been? at this moment a servant came up to say that the squire was in his room, and lady arabella was opportunely saved the necessity of discussing the matter further with her daughter. "i am now," she said, "going to see your father on the same subject; you may be quite sure, beatrice, that i should not willingly speak to him on any matter relating to dr thorne did i not find it absolutely necessary to do so." this beatrice knew was true, and she did therefore feel convinced that something terrible must have happened. while lady arabella opened her budget the squire sat quite silent, listening to her with apparent respect. she found it necessary that her description to him should be much more elaborate than that which she had vouchsafed to her daughter, and, in telling her grievance, she insisted most especially on the personal insult which had been offered to herself. "after what has now happened," said she, not quite able to repress a tone of triumph as she spoke, "i do expect, mr gresham, that you will--will--" "will what, my dear?" "will at least protect me from the repetition of such treatment." "you are not afraid that dr thorne will come here to attack you? as far as i can understand, he never comes near the place, unless when you send for him." "no; i do not think that he will come to greshamsbury any more. i believe i have put a stop to that." "then what is it, my dear, that you want me to do?" lady arabella paused a minute before she replied. the game which she now had to play was not very easy; she knew, or thought she knew, that her husband, in his heart of hearts, much preferred his friend to the wife of his bosom, and that he would, if he could, shuffle out of noticing the doctor's iniquities. it behoved her, therefore, to put them forward in such a way that they must be noticed. "i suppose, mr gresham, you do not wish that frank should marry the girl?" "i do not think there is the slightest chance of such a thing; and i am quite sure that dr thorne would not encourage it." "but i tell you, mr gresham, that he says he will encourage it." "oh, you have misunderstood him." "of course; i always misunderstand everything. i know that. i misunderstood it when i told you how you would distress yourself if you took those nasty hounds." "i have had other troubles more expensive than the hounds," said the poor squire, sighing. "oh, yes; i know what you mean; a wife and family are expensive, of course. it is a little too late now to complain of that." "my dear, it is always too late to complain of any troubles when they are no longer to be avoided. we need not, therefore, talk any more about the hounds at present." "i do not wish to speak of them, mr gresham." "nor i." "but i hope you will not think me unreasonable if i am anxious to know what you intend to do about dr thorne." "to do?" "yes; i suppose you will do something: you do not wish to see your son marry such a girl as mary thorne." "as far as the girl herself is concerned," said the squire, turning rather red, "i am not sure that he could do much better. i know nothing whatever against mary. frank, however, cannot afford to make such a match. it would be his ruin." "of course it would; utter ruin; he never could hold up his head again. therefore it is i ask, what do you intend to do?" the squire was bothered. he had no intention whatever of doing anything, and no belief in his wife's assertion as to dr thorne's iniquity. but he did not know how to get her out of the room. she asked him the same question over and over again, and on each occasion urged on him the heinousness of the insult to which she personally had been subjected; so that at last he was driven to ask her what it was she wished him to do. "well, then, mr gresham, if you ask me, i must say, that i think you should abstain from any intercourse with dr thorne whatever." "break off all intercourse with him?" "yes." "what do you mean? he has been turned out of this house, and i'm not to go to see him at his own." "i certainly think that you ought to discontinue your visits to dr thorne altogether." "nonsense, my dear; absolute nonsense." "nonsense! mr gresham; it is no nonsense. as you speak in that way, i must let you know plainly what i feel. i am endeavouring to do my duty by my son. as you justly observe, such a marriage as this would be utter ruin to him. when i found that the young people were actually talking of being in love with each other, making vows and all that sort of thing, i did think it time to interfere. i did not, however, turn them out of greshamsbury as you accuse me of doing. in the kindest possible manner--" "well--well--well; i know all that. there, they are gone, and that's enough. i don't complain; surely that ought to be enough." "enough! mr gresham. no; it is not enough. i find that, in spite of what has occurred, the closest intimacy exists between the two families; that poor beatrice, who is so very young, and not so prudent as she should be, is made to act as a go-between; and when i speak to the doctor, hoping that he will assist me in preventing this, he not only tells me that he means to encourage mary in her plans, but positively insults me to my face, laughs at me for being an earl's daughter, and tells me--yes, he absolutely told me--to get out of his house." let it be told with some shame as to the squire's conduct, that his first feeling on hearing this was one of envy--of envy and regret that he could not make the same uncivil request. not that he wished to turn his wife absolutely out of his house; but he would have been very glad to have had the power of dismissing her summarily from his own room. this, however, was at present impossible; so he was obliged to make some mild reply. "you must have mistaken him, my dear. he could not have intended to say that." "oh! of course, mr gresham. it is all a mistake, of course. it will be a mistake, only a mistake when you find your son married to mary thorne." "well, my dear, i cannot undertake to quarrel with dr thorne." this was true; for the squire could hardly have quarrelled with dr thorne, even had he wished it. "then i think it right to tell you that i shall. and, mr gresham, i did not expect much co-operation from you; but i did think that you would have shown some little anger when you heard that i had been so ill-treated. i shall, however, know how to take care of myself; and i shall continue to do the best i can to protect frank from these wicked intrigues." so saying, her ladyship arose and left the room, having succeeded in destroying the comfort of all our greshamsbury friends. it was very well for the squire to declare that he would not quarrel with dr thorne, and of course he did not do so. but he, himself, had no wish whatever that his son should marry mary thorne; and as a falling drop will hollow a stone, so did the continual harping of his wife on the subject give rise to some amount of suspicion in his own mind. then as to beatrice, though she had made no promise that she would not again visit mary, she was by no means prepared to set her mother's authority altogether at defiance; and she also was sufficiently uncomfortable. dr thorne said nothing of the matter to his niece, and she, therefore, would have been absolutely bewildered by beatrice's absence, had she not received some tidings of what had taken place at greshamsbury through patience oriel. beatrice and patience discussed the matter fully, and it was agreed between them that it would be better that mary should know what sterner orders respecting her had gone forth from the tyrant at greshamsbury, and that she might understand that beatrice's absence was compulsory. patience was thus placed in this position, that on one day she walked and talked with beatrice, and on the next with mary; and so matters went on for a while at greshamsbury--not very pleasantly. very unpleasantly and very uncomfortably did the months of may and june pass away. beatrice and mary occasionally met, drinking tea together at the parsonage, or in some other of the ordinary meetings of country society; but there were no more confidentially distressing confidential discourses, no more whispering of frank's name, no more sweet allusions to the inexpediency of a passion, which, according to beatrice's views, would have been so delightful had it been expedient. the squire and the doctor also met constantly; there were unfortunately many subjects on which they were obliged to meet. louis philippe--or sir louis as we must call him--though he had no power over his own property, was wide awake to all the coming privileges of ownership, and he would constantly point out to his guardian the manner in which, according to his ideas, the most should be made of it. the young baronet's ideas of good taste were not of the most refined description, and he did not hesitate to tell dr thorne that his, the doctor's, friendship with mr gresham must be no bar to his, the baronet's, interest. sir louis also had his own lawyer, who gave dr thorne to understand that, according to his ideas, the sum due on mr gresham's property was too large to be left on its present footing; the title-deeds, he said, should be surrendered or the mortgage foreclosed. all this added to the sadness which now seemed to envelop the village of greshamsbury. early in july, frank was to come home. the manner in which the comings and goings of "poor frank" were allowed to disturb the arrangements of all the ladies, and some of the gentlemen, of greshamsbury was most abominable. and yet it can hardly be said to have been his fault. he would have been only too well pleased had things been allowed to go on after their old fashion. things were not allowed so to go on. at christmas miss oriel had submitted to be exiled, in order that she might carry mary away from the presence of the young bashaw, an arrangement by which all the winter festivities of the poor doctor had been thoroughly sacrificed; and now it began to be said that some similar plan for the summer must be suggested. it must not be supposed that any direction to this effect was conveyed either to mary or to the doctor. the suggestion came from them, and was mentioned only to patience. but patience, as a matter of course, told beatrice, and beatrice told her mother, somewhat triumphantly, hoping thereby to convince the she-dragon of mary's innocence. alas! she-dragons are not easily convinced of the innocence of any one. lady arabella quite coincided in the propriety of mary's being sent off,--whither she never inquired,--in order that the coast might be clear for "poor frank;" but she did not a whit the more abstain from talking of the wicked intrigues of those thornes. as it turned out, mary's absence caused her to talk all the more. the boxall hill property, including the house and furniture, had been left to the contractor's son; it being understood that the property would not be at present in his own hands, but that he might inhabit the house if he chose to do so. it would thus be necessary for lady scatcherd to find a home for herself, unless she could remain at boxall hill by her son's permission. in this position of affairs the doctor had been obliged to make a bargain between them. sir louis did wish to have the comfort, or perhaps the honour, of a country house; but he did not wish to have the expense of keeping it up. he was also willing to let his mother live at the house; but not without a consideration. after a prolonged degree of haggling, terms were agreed upon; and a few weeks after her husband's death, lady scatcherd found herself alone at boxall hill--alone as regards society in the ordinary sense, but not quite alone as concerned her ladyship, for the faithful hannah was still with her. the doctor was of course often at boxall hill, and never left it without an urgent request from lady scatcherd that he would bring his niece over to see her. now lady scatcherd was no fit companion for mary thorne, and though mary had often asked to be taken to boxall hill, certain considerations had hitherto induced the doctor to refuse the request; but there was that about lady scatcherd,--a kind of homely honesty of purpose, an absence of all conceit as to her own position, and a strength of womanly confidence in the doctor as her friend, which by degrees won upon his heart. when, therefore, both he and mary felt that it would be better for her again to absent herself for a while from greshamsbury, it was, after much deliberation, agreed that she should go on a visit to boxall hill. to boxall hill, accordingly, she went, and was received almost as a princess. mary had all her life been accustomed to women of rank, and had never habituated herself to feel much trepidation in the presence of titled grandees; but she had prepared herself to be more than ordinarily submissive to lady scatcherd. her hostess was a widow, was not a woman of high birth, was a woman of whom her uncle spoke well; and, for all these reasons, mary was determined to respect her, and pay to her every consideration. but when she settled down in the house she found it almost impossible to do so. lady scatcherd treated her as a farmer's wife might have treated some convalescent young lady who had been sent to her charge for a few weeks, in order that she might benefit by the country air. her ladyship could hardly bring herself to sit still and eat her dinner tranquilly in her guest's presence. and then nothing was good enough for mary. lady scatcherd besought her, almost with tears, to say what she liked best to eat and drink; and was in despair when mary declared she didn't care, that she liked anything, and that she was in nowise particular in such matters. "a roast fowl, miss thorne?" "very nice, lady scatcherd." "and bread sauce?" "bread sauce--yes; oh, yes--i like bread sauce,"--and poor mary tried hard to show a little interest. "and just a few sausages. we make them all in the house, miss thorne; we know what they are. and mashed potatoes--do you like them best mashed or baked?" mary finding herself obliged to vote, voted for mashed potatoes. "very well. but, miss thorne, if you like boiled fowl better, with a little bit of ham, you know, i do hope you'll say so. and there's lamb in the house, quite beautiful; now do 'ee say something; do 'ee, miss thorne." so invoked, mary felt herself obliged to say something, and declared for the roast fowl and sausages; but she found it very difficult to pay much outward respect to a person who would pay so much outward respect to her. a day or two after her arrival it was decided that she should ride about the place on a donkey; she was accustomed to riding, the doctor having generally taken care that one of his own horses should, when required, consent to carry a lady; but there was no steed at boxall hill that she could mount; and when lady scatcherd had offered to get a pony for her, she had willingly compromised matters by expressing the delight she would have in making a campaign on a donkey. upon this, lady scatcherd had herself set off in quest of the desired animal, much to mary's horror; and did not return till the necessary purchase had been effected. then she came back with the donkey close at her heels, almost holding its collar, and stood there at the hall-door till mary came to approve. "i hope she'll do. i don't think she'll kick," said lady scatcherd, patting the head of her purchase quite triumphantly. "oh, you are so kind, lady scatcherd. i'm sure she'll do quite nicely; she seems very quiet," said mary. "please, my lady, it's a he," said the boy who held the halter. "oh! a he, is it?" said her ladyship; "but the he-donkeys are quite as quiet as the shes, ain't they?" "oh, yes, my lady; a deal quieter, all the world over, and twice as useful." "i'm so glad of that, miss thorne," said lady scatcherd, her eyes bright with joy. and so mary was established with her donkey, who did all that could be expected from an animal in his position. "but, dear lady scatcherd," said mary, as they sat together at the open drawing-room window the same evening, "you must not go on calling me miss thorne; my name is mary, you know. won't you call me mary?" and she came and knelt at lady scatcherd's feet, and took hold of her, looking up into her face. lady scatcherd's cheeks became rather red, as though she was somewhat ashamed of her position. "you are so very kind to me," continued mary, "and it seems so cold to hear you call me miss thorne." "well, miss thorne, i'm sure i'd call you anything to please you. only i didn't know whether you'd like it from me. else i do think mary is the prettiest name in all the language." "i should like it very much." "my dear roger always loved that name better than any other; ten times better. i used to wish sometimes that i'd been called mary." "did he! why?" "he once had a sister called mary; such a beautiful creature! i declare i sometimes think you are like her." "oh, dear! then she must have been beautiful indeed!" said mary, laughing. "she was very beautiful. i just remember her--oh, so beautiful! she was quite a poor girl, you know; and so was i then. isn't it odd that i should have to be called 'my lady' now? do you know miss thorne--" "mary! mary!" said her guest. "ah, yes; but somehow, i hardly like to make so free; but, as i was saying, i do so dislike being called 'my lady:' i always think the people are laughing at me; and so they are." "oh, nonsense." "yes, they are though: poor dear roger, he used to call me 'my lady' just to make fun of me; i didn't mind it so much from him. but, miss thorne--" "mary, mary, mary." "ah, well! i shall do it in time. but, miss--mary, ha! ha! ha! never mind, let me alone. but what i want to say is this: do you think i could drop it? hannah says, that if i go the right way about it she is sure i can." "oh! but, lady scatcherd, you shouldn't think of such a thing." "shouldn't i now?" "oh, no; for your husband's sake you should be proud of it. he gained great honour, you know." "ah, well," said she, sighing after a short pause; "if you think it will do him any good, of course i'll put up with it. and then i know louis would be mad if i talked of such a thing. but, miss thorne, dear, a woman like me don't like to have to be made a fool of all the days of her life if she can help it." "but, lady scatcherd," said mary, when this question of the title had been duly settled, and her ladyship made to understand that she must bear the burden for the rest of her life, "but, lady scatcherd, you were speaking of sir roger's sister; what became of her?" "oh, she did very well at last, as sir roger did himself; but in early life she was very unfortunate--just at the time of my marriage with dear roger--," and then, just as she was about to commence so much as she knew of the history of mary scatcherd, she remembered that the author of her sister-in-law's misery had been a thorne, a brother of the doctor; and, therefore, as she presumed, a relative of her guest; and suddenly she became mute. "well," said mary; "just as you were married, lady scatcherd?" poor lady scatcherd had very little worldly knowledge, and did not in the least know how to turn the conversation or escape from the trouble into which she had fallen. all manner of reflections began to crowd upon her. in her early days she had known very little of the thornes, nor had she thought much of them since, except as regarded her friend the doctor; but at this moment she began for the first time to remember that she had never heard of more than two brothers in the family. who then could have been mary's father? she felt at once that it would be improper for to say anything as to henry thorne's terrible faults and sudden fate;--improper also, to say more about mary scatcherd; but she was quite unable to drop the matter otherwise than abruptly, and with a start. "she was very unfortunate, you say, lady scatcherd?" "yes, miss thorne; mary, i mean--never mind me--i shall do it in time. yes, she was; but now i think of it, i had better say nothing more about it. there are reasons, and i ought not to have spoken of it. you won't be provoked with me, will you?" mary assured her that she would not be provoked, and of course asked no more questions about mary scatcherd; nor did she think much more about it. it was not so however with her ladyship, who could not keep herself from reflecting that the old clergyman in the close at barchester certainly had but two sons, one of whom was now the doctor at greshamsbury, and the other of whom had perished so wretchedly at the gate of that farmyard. who then was the father of mary thorne? the days passed very quietly at boxall hill. every morning mary went out on her donkey, who justified by his demeanour all that had been said in his praise; then she would read or draw, then walk with lady scatcherd, then dine, then walk again; and so the days passed quietly away. once or twice a week the doctor would come over and drink his tea there, riding home in the cool of the evening. mary also received one visit from her friend patience. so the days passed quietly away till the tranquillity of the house was suddenly broken by tidings from london. lady scatcherd received a letter from her son, contained in three lines, in which he intimated that on the following day he meant to honour her with a visit. he had intended, he said, to have gone to brighton with some friends; but as he felt himself a little out of sorts, he would postpone his marine trip and do his mother the grace of spending a few days with her. this news was not very pleasant to mary, by whom it had been understood, as it had also by her uncle, that lady scatcherd would have had the house to herself; but as there were no means of preventing the evil, mary could only inform the doctor, and prepare herself to meet sir louis scatcherd. chapter xxviii the doctor hears something to his advantage sir louis scatcherd had told his mother that he was rather out of sorts, and when he reached boxall hill it certainly did not appear that he had given any exaggerated statement of his own maladies. he certainly was a good deal out of sorts. he had had more than one attack of delirium tremens since his father's death, and had almost been at death's door. nothing had been said about this by dr thorne at boxall hill; but he was by no means ignorant of his ward's state. twice he had gone up to london to visit him; twice he had begged him to go down into the country and place himself under his mother's care. on the last occasion, the doctor had threatened him with all manner of pains and penalties: with pains, as to his speedy departure from this world and all its joys; and with penalties, in the shape of poverty if that departure should by any chance be retarded. but these threats had at the moment been in vain, and the doctor had compromised matters by inducing sir louis to promise that he would go to brighton. the baronet, however, who was at length frightened by some renewed attack, gave up his brighton scheme, and, without any notice to the doctor, hurried down to boxall hill. mary did not see him on the first day of his coming, but the doctor did. he received such intimation of the visit as enabled him to be at the house soon after the young man's arrival; and, knowing that his assistance might be necessary, he rode over to boxall hill. it was a dreadful task to him, this of making the same fruitless endeavour for the son that he had made for the father, and in the same house. but he was bound by every consideration to perform the task. he had promised the father that he would do for the son all that was in his power; and he had, moreover, the consciousness, that should sir louis succeed in destroying himself, the next heir to all the property was his own niece, mary thorne. he found sir louis in a low, wretched, miserable state. though he was a drunkard as his father was, he was not at all such a drunkard as was his father. the physical capacities of the men were very different. the daily amount of alcohol which the father had consumed would have burnt up the son in a week; whereas, though the son was continually tipsy, what he swallowed would hardly have had an injurious effect upon the father. "you are all wrong, quite wrong," said sir louis, petulantly; "it isn't that at all. i have taken nothing this week past--literally nothing. i think it's the liver." dr thorne wanted no one to tell him what was the matter with his ward. it was his liver; his liver, and his head, and his stomach, and his heart. every organ in his body had been destroyed, or was in the course of destruction. his father had killed himself with brandy; the son, more elevated in his tastes, was doing the same thing with curaçoa, maraschino, and cherry-bounce. "sir louis," said the doctor--he was obliged to be much more punctilious with him than he had been with the contractor--"the matter is in your own hands entirely: if you cannot keep your lips from that accursed poison, you have nothing in this world to look forward to; nothing, nothing!" mary proposed to return with her uncle to greshamsbury, and he was at first well inclined that she should do so. but this idea was overruled, partly in compliance with lady scatcherd's entreaties, and partly because it would have seemed as though they had both thought the presence of its owner had made the house an unfit habitation for decent people. the doctor therefore returned, leaving mary there; and lady scatcherd busied herself between her two guests. on the next day sir louis was able to come down to a late dinner, and mary was introduced to him. he had dressed himself in his best array; and as he had--at any rate for the present moment--been frightened out of his libations, he was prepared to make himself as agreeable as possible. his mother waited on him almost as a slave might have done; but she seemed to do so with the fear of a slave rather than the love of a mother. she was fidgety in her attentions, and worried him by endeavouring to make her evening sitting-room agreeable. but sir louis, though he was not very sweetly behaved under these manipulations from his mother's hands, was quite complaisant to miss thorne; nay, after the expiration of a week he was almost more than complaisant. he piqued himself on his gallantry, and now found that, in the otherwise dull seclusion of boxall hill, he had a good opportunity of exercising it. to do him justice it must be admitted that he would not have been incapable of a decent career had he stumbled upon some girl who could have loved him before he stumbled upon his maraschino bottle. such might have been the case with many a lost rake. the things that are bad are accepted because the things that are good do not come easily in his way. how many a miserable father reviles with bitterness of spirit the low tastes of his son, who has done nothing to provide his child with higher pleasures! sir louis--partly in the hopes of mary's smiles, and partly frightened by the doctor's threats--did, for a while, keep himself within decent bounds. he did not usually appear before mary's eyes till three or four in the afternoon; but when he did come forth, he came forth sober and resolute to please. his mother was delighted, and was not slow to sing his praises; and even the doctor, who now visited boxall hill more frequently than ever, began to have some hopes. one constant subject, i must not say of conversation, on the part of lady scatcherd, but rather of declamation, had hitherto been the beauty and manly attributes of frank gresham. she had hardly ceased to talk to mary of the infinite good qualities of the young squire, and especially of his prowess in the matter of mr moffat. mary had listened to all this eloquence, not perhaps with inattention, but without much reply. she had not been exactly sorry to hear frank talked about; indeed, had she been so minded, she could herself have said something on the same subject; but she did not wish to take lady scatcherd altogether into her confidence, and she had been unable to say much about frank gresham without doing so. lady scatcherd had, therefore, gradually conceived the idea that her darling was not a favourite with her guest. now, therefore, she changed the subject; and, as her own son was behaving with such unexampled propriety, she dropped frank and confined her eulogies to louis. he had been a little wild, she admitted; young men so often were so; but she hoped that it was now over. "he does still take a little drop of those french drinks in the morning," said lady scatcherd, in her confidence; for she was too honest to be false, even in her own cause. "he does do that, i know: but that's nothing, my dear, to swilling all day; and everything can't be done at once, can it, miss thorne?" on this subject mary found her tongue loosened. she could not talk about frank gresham, but she could speak with hope to the mother of her only son. she could say that sir louis was still very young; that there was reason to trust that he might now reform; that his present conduct was apparently good; and that he appeared capable of better things. so much she did say; and the mother took her sympathy for more than it was worth. on this matter, and on this matter perhaps alone, sir louis and lady scatcherd were in accord. there was much to recommend mary to the baronet; not only did he see her to be beautiful, and perceive her to be attractive and ladylike; but she was also the niece of the man who, for the present, held the purse-strings of his wealth. mary, it is true, had no fortune. but sir louis knew that she was acknowledged to be a lady; and he was ambitious that his "lady" should be a lady. there was also much to recommend mary to the mother, to any mother; and thus it came to pass, that miss thorne had no obstacle between her and the dignity of being lady scatcherd the second;--no obstacle whatever, if only she could bring herself to wish it. it was some time--two or three weeks, perhaps--before mary's mind was first opened to this new brilliancy in her prospects. sir louis at first was rather afraid of her, and did not declare his admiration in any very determined terms. he certainly paid her many compliments which, from any one else, she would have regarded as abominable. but she did not expect great things from the baronet's taste: she concluded that he was only doing what he thought a gentleman should do; and she was willing to forgive much for lady scatcherd's sake. his first attempts were, perhaps, more ludicrous than passionate. he was still too much an invalid to take walks, and mary was therefore saved from his company in her rambles; but he had a horse of his own at boxall hill, and had been advised to ride by the doctor. mary also rode--on a donkey only, it is true--but sir louis found himself bound in gallantry to accompany her. mary's steed had answered every expectation, and proved himself very quiet; so quiet, that without the admonition of a cudgel behind him, he could hardly be persuaded into the demurest trot. now, as sir louis's horse was of a very different mettle, he found it rather difficult not to step faster than his inamorata; and, let him struggle as he would, was generally so far ahead as to be debarred the delights of conversation. when for the second time he proposed to accompany her, mary did what she could to hinder it. she saw that he had been rather ashamed of the manner in which his companion was mounted, and she herself would have enjoyed her ride much more without him. he was an invalid, however; it was necessary to make much of him, and mary did not absolutely refuse his offer. "lady scatcherd," said he, as they were standing at the door previous to mounting--he always called his mother lady scatcherd--"why don't you have a horse for miss thorne? this donkey is--is--really is, so very--very--can't go at all, you know?" lady scatcherd began to declare that she would willingly have got a pony if mary would have let her do so. "oh, no, lady scatcherd; not on any account. i do like the donkey so much--i do indeed." "but he won't go," said sir louis. "and for a person who rides like you, miss thorne--such a horsewoman you know--why, you know, lady scatcherd, it's positively ridiculous; d---- absurd, you know." and then, with an angry look at his mother, he mounted his horse, and was soon leading the way down the avenue. "miss thorne," said he, pulling himself up at the gate, "if i had known that i was to be so extremely happy as to have found you here, i would have brought you down the most beautiful creature, an arab. she belongs to my friend jenkins; but i wouldn't have stood at any price in getting her for you. by jove! if you were on that mare, i'd back you, for style and appearance, against anything in hyde park." the offer of this sporting wager, which naturally would have been very gratifying to mary, was lost upon her, for sir louis had again unwittingly got on in advance, but he stopped himself in time to hear mary again declare her passion was a donkey. "if you could only see jenkins's little mare, miss thorne! only say one word, and she shall be down here before the week's end. price shall be no obstacle--none whatever. by jove, what a pair you would be!" this generous offer was repeated four or five times; but on each occasion mary only half heard what was said, and on each occasion the baronet was far too much in advance to hear mary's reply. at last he recollected that he wanted to call on one of the tenants, and begged his companion to allow him to ride on. "if you at all dislike being left alone, you know--" "oh dear no, not at all, sir louis. i am quite used to it." "because i don't care about it, you know; only i can't make this horse walk the same pace as that brute." "you mustn't abuse my pet, sir louis." "it's a d---- shame on my mother's part;" said sir louis, who, even when in his best behaviour, could not quite give up his ordinary mode of conversation. "when she was fortunate enough to get such a girl as you to come and stay with her, she ought to have had something proper for her to ride upon; but i'll look to it as soon as i am a little stronger, you see if i don't;" and, so saying, sir louis trotted off, leaving mary in peace with her donkey. sir louis had now been living cleanly and forswearing sack for what was to him a very long period, and his health felt the good effects of it. no one rejoiced at this more cordially than did the doctor. to rejoice at it was with him a point of conscience. he could not help telling himself now and again that, circumstanced as he was, he was most specially bound to take joy in any sign of reformation which the baronet might show. not to do so would be almost tantamount to wishing that he might die in order that mary might inherit his wealth; and, therefore, the doctor did with all his energy devote himself to the difficult task of hoping and striving that sir louis might yet live to enjoy what was his own. but the task was altogether a difficult one, for as sir louis became stronger in health, so also did he become more exorbitant in his demands on the doctor's patience, and more repugnant to the doctor's tastes. in his worst fits of disreputable living he was ashamed to apply to his guardian for money; and in his worst fits of illness he was, through fear, somewhat patient under his doctor's hands; but just at present he had nothing of which to be ashamed, and was not at all patient. "doctor,"--said he, one day, at boxall hill--"how about those greshamsbury title-deeds?" "oh, that will all be properly settled between my lawyer and your own." "oh--ah--yes; no doubt the lawyers will settle it: settle it with a fine bill of costs, of course. but, as finnie says,"--finnie was sir louis's legal adviser--"i have got a tremendously large interest at stake in this matter; eighty thousand pounds is no joke. it ain't everybody that can shell out eighty thousand pounds when they're wanted; and i should like to know how the thing's going on. i've a right to ask, you know; eh, doctor?" "the title-deeds of a large portion of the greshamsbury estate will be placed with the mortgage-deeds before the end of next month." "oh, that's all right. i choose to know about these things; for though my father did make such a con-found-ed will, that's no reason i shouldn't know how things are going." "you shall know everything that i know, sir louis." "and now, doctor, what are we to do about money?" "about money?" "yes; money, rhino, ready! 'put money in your purse and cut a dash;' eh, doctor? not that i want to cut a dash. no, i'm going on the quiet line altogether now: i've done with all that sort of thing." "i'm heartily glad of it; heartily," said the doctor. "yes, i'm not going to make way for my far-away cousin yet; not if i know it, at least. i shall soon be all right now, doctor; shan't i?" "'all right' is a long word, sir louis. but i do hope you will be all right in time, if you will live with decent prudence. you shouldn't take that filth in the morning though." "filth in the morning! that's my mother, i suppose! that's her ladyship! she's been talking, has she? don't you believe her, doctor. there's not a young man in barsetshire is going more regular, all right within the posts, than i am." the doctor was obliged to acknowledge that there did seem to be some improvement. "and now, doctor, how about money? eh?" doctor thorne, like other guardians similarly circumstanced, began to explain that sir louis had already had a good deal of money, and had begun also to promise that more should be forthcoming in the event of good behaviour, when he was somewhat suddenly interrupted by sir louis. "well, now; i'll tell you what, doctor; i've got a bit of news for you; something that i think will astonish you." the doctor opened his eyes, and tried to look as though ready to be surprised. "something that will really make you look about; and something, too, that will be very much to the hearer's advantage,--as the newspaper advertisements say." "something to my advantage?" said the doctor. "well, i hope you'll think so. doctor, what would you think now of my getting married?" "i should be delighted to hear of it--more delighted than i can express; that is, of course, if you were to marry well. it was your father's most eager wish that you should marry early." "that's partly my reason," said the young hypocrite. "but then, if i marry i must have an income fit to live on; eh, doctor?" the doctor had some fear that his interesting protégée was desirous of a wife for the sake of the income, instead of desiring the income for the sake of the wife. but let the cause be what it would, marriage would probably be good for him; and he had no hesitation, therefore, in telling him, that if he married well, he should be put in possession of sufficient income to maintain the new lady scatcherd in a manner becoming her dignity. "as to marrying well," said sir louis, "you, i take it, will be the last man, doctor, to quarrel with my choice." "shall i?" said the doctor, smiling. "well, you won't disapprove, i guess, as the yankee says. what would you think of miss mary thorne?" it must be said in sir louis's favour that he had probably no idea whatever of the estimation in which such young ladies as mary thorne are held by those who are nearest and dearest to them. he had no sort of conception that she was regarded by her uncle as an inestimable treasure, almost too precious to be rendered up to the arms of any man; and infinitely beyond any price in silver and gold, baronets' incomes of eight or ten thousand a year, and such coins usually current in the world's markets. he was a rich man and a baronet, and mary was an unmarried girl without a portion. in sir louis's estimation he was offering everything, and asking for nothing. he certainly had some idea that girls were apt to be coy, and required a little wooing in the shape of presents, civil speeches--perhaps kisses also. the civil speeches he had, he thought, done, and imagined that they had been well received. the other things were to follow; an arab pony, for instance,--and the kisses probably with it; and then all these difficulties would be smoothed. but he did not for a moment conceive that there would be any difficulty with the uncle. how should there be? was he not a baronet with ten thousand a year coming to him? had he not everything which fathers want for portionless daughters, and uncles for dependant nieces? might he not well inform the doctor that he had something to tell him for his advantage? and yet, to tell the truth, the doctor did not seem to be overjoyed when the announcement was first made to him. he was by no means overjoyed. on the contrary, even sir louis could perceive his guardian's surprise was altogether unmixed with delight. what a question was this that was asked him! what would he think of a marriage between mary thorne--his mary and sir louis scatcherd? between the alpha of the whole alphabet, and him whom he could not but regard as the omega! think of it! why he would think of it as though a lamb and a wolf were to stand at the altar together. had sir louis been a hottentot, or an esquimaux, the proposal could not have astonished him more. the two persons were so totally of a different class, that the idea of the one falling in love with the other had never occurred to him. "what would you think of miss mary thorne?" sir louis had asked; and the doctor, instead of answering him with ready and pleased alacrity, stood silent, thunderstruck with amazement. "well, wouldn't she be a good wife?" said sir louis, rather in a tone of disgust at the evident disapproval shown at his choice. "i thought you'd have been so delighted." "mary thorne!" ejaculated the doctor at last. "have you spoken to my niece about this, sir louis?" "well, i have and yet i haven't; i haven't, and yet in a manner i have." "i don't understand you," said the doctor. "why, you see, i haven't exactly popped to her yet; but i have been doing the civil; and if she's up to snuff, as i take her to be, she knows very well what i'm after by this time." up to snuff! mary thorne, his mary thorne, up to snuff! to snuff too of such a very disagreeable description! "i think, sir louis, that you are in mistake about this. i think you will find that mary will not be disposed to avail herself of the great advantages--for great they undoubtedly are--which you are able to offer to your intended wife. if you will take my advice, you will give up thinking of mary. she would not suit you." "not suit me! oh, but i think she just would. she's got no money, you mean?" "no, i did not mean that. it will not signify to you whether your wife has money or not. you need not look for money. but you should think of some one more nearly of your own temperament. i am quite sure that my niece would refuse you." these last words the doctor uttered with much emphasis. his intention was to make the baronet understand that the matter was quite hopeless, and to induce him if possible to drop it on the spot. but he did not know sir louis; he ranked him too low in the scale of human beings, and gave him no credit for any strength of character. sir louis in his way did love mary thorne; and could not bring himself to believe that mary did not, or at any rate, would not soon return his passion. he was, moreover, sufficiently obstinate, firm we ought perhaps to say,--for his pursuit in this case was certainly not an evil one,--and he at once made up his mind to succeed in spite of the uncle. "if she consents, however, you will do so too?" asked he. "it is impossible she should consent," said the doctor. "impossible! i don't see anything at all impossible. but if she does?" "but she won't." "very well,--that's to be seen. but just tell me this, if she does, will you consent?" "the stars would fall first. it's all nonsense. give it up, my dear friend; believe me you are only preparing unhappiness for yourself;" and the doctor put his hand kindly on the young man's arm. "she will not, cannot accept such an offer." "will not! cannot!" said the baronet, thinking over all the reasons which in his estimation could possibly be inducing the doctor to be so hostile to his views, and shaking the hand off his arm. "will not! cannot! but come, doctor, answer my question fairly. if she'll have me for better or worse, you won't say aught against it; will you?" "but she won't have you; why should you give her and yourself the pain of a refusal?" "oh, as for that, i must stand my chances like another. and as for her, why d----, doctor, you wouldn't have me believe that any young lady thinks it so very dreadful to have a baronet with ten thousand pounds a year at her feet, specially when that same baronet ain't very old, nor yet particularly ugly. i ain't so green as that, doctor." "i suppose she must go through it, then," said the doctor, musing. "but, dr thorne, i did look for a kinder answer from you, considering all that you so often say about your great friendship with my father. i did think you'd at any rate answer me when i asked you a question." but the doctor did not want to answer that special question. could it be possible that mary should wish to marry this odious man, could such a state of things be imagined to be the case, he would not refuse his consent, infinitely as he would be disgusted by her choice. but he would not give sir louis any excuse for telling mary that her uncle approved of so odious a match. "i cannot say that in any case i should approve of such a marriage, sir louis. i cannot bring myself to say so; for i know it would make you both miserable. but on that matter my niece will choose wholly for herself." "and about the money, doctor?" "if you marry a decent woman you shall not want the means of supporting her decently," and so saying the doctor walked away, leaving sir louis to his meditations. chapter xxix the donkey ride sir louis, when left to himself, was slightly dismayed and somewhat discouraged; but he was not induced to give up his object. the first effort of his mind was made in conjecturing what private motive dr thorne could possibly have in wishing to debar his niece from marrying a rich young baronet. that the objection was personal to himself, sir louis did not for a moment imagine. could it be that the doctor did not wish that his niece should be richer, and grander, and altogether bigger than himself? or was it possible that his guardian was anxious to prevent him from marrying from some view of the reversion of the large fortune? that there was some such reason, sir louis was well sure; but let it be what it might, he would get the better of the doctor. "he knew," so he said to himself, "what stuff girls were made of. baronets did not grow like blackberries." and so, assuring himself with such philosophy, he determined to make his offer. the time he selected for doing this was the hour before dinner; but on the day on which his conversation with the doctor had taken place, he was deterred by the presence of a strange visitor. to account for this strange visit it will be necessary that we should return to greshamsbury for a few minutes. frank, when he returned home for his summer vacation, found that mary had again flown; and the very fact of her absence added fuel to the fire of his love, more perhaps than even her presence might have done. for the flight of the quarry ever adds eagerness to the pursuit of the huntsman. lady arabella, moreover, had a bitter enemy; a foe, utterly opposed to her side in the contest, where she had once fondly looked for her staunchest ally. frank was now in the habit of corresponding with miss dunstable, and received from her most energetic admonitions to be true to the love which he had sworn. true to it he resolved to be; and therefore, when he found that mary was flown, he resolved to fly after her. he did not, however, do this till he had been in a measure provoked to it by it by the sharp-tongued cautions and blunted irony of his mother. it was not enough for her that she had banished mary out of the parish, and made dr thorne's life miserable; not enough that she harassed her husband with harangues on the constant subject of frank's marrying money, and dismayed beatrice with invectives against the iniquity of her friend. the snake was so but scotched; to kill it outright she must induce frank utterly to renounce miss thorne. this task she essayed, but not exactly with success. "well, mother," said frank, at last turning very red, partly with shame, and partly with indignation, as he made the frank avowal, "since you press me about it, i tell you fairly that my mind is made up to marry mary sooner or later, if--" "oh, frank! good heavens! you wicked boy; you are saying this purposely to drive me distracted." "if," continued frank, not attending to his mother's interjections, "if she will consent." "consent!" said lady arabella. "oh, heavens!" and falling into the corner of the sofa, she buried her face in her handkerchief. "yes, mother, if she will consent. and now that i have told you so much, it is only just that i should tell you this also; that as far as i can see at present i have no reason to hope that she will do so." "oh, frank, the girl is doing all she can to catch you," said lady arabella,--not prudently. "no, mother; there you wrong her altogether; wrong her most cruelly." "you ungracious, wicked boy! you call me cruel!" "i don't call you cruel; but you wrong her cruelly, most cruelly. when i have spoken to her about this--for i have spoken to her--she has behaved exactly as you would have wanted her to do; but not at all as i wished her. she has given me no encouragement. you have turned her out among you"--frank was beginning to be very bitter now--"but she has done nothing to deserve it. if there has been any fault it has been mine. but it is well that we should all understand each other. my intention is to marry mary if i can." and, so speaking, certainly without due filial respect, he turned towards the door. "frank," said his mother, raising herself up with energy to make one last appeal. "frank, do you wish to see me die of a broken heart?" "you know, mother, i would wish to make you happy, if i could." "if you wish to see me ever happy again, if you do not wish to see me sink broken-hearted to my grave, you must give up this mad idea, frank,"--and now all lady arabella's energy came out. "frank there is but one course left open to you. you must _marry money_." and then lady arabella stood up before her son as lady macbeth might have stood, had lady macbeth lived to have a son of frank's years. "miss dunstable, i suppose," said frank, scornfully. "no, mother; i made an ass, and worse than an ass of myself once in that way, and i won't do it again. i hate money." "oh, frank!" "i hate money." "but, frank, the estate?" "i hate the estate--at least i shall hate it if i am expected to buy it at such a price as that. the estate is my father's." "oh, no, frank; it is not." "it is in the sense i mean. he may do with it as he pleases; he will never have a word of complaint from me. i am ready to go into a profession to-morrow. i'll be a lawyer, or a doctor, or an engineer; i don't care what." frank, in his enthusiasm, probably overlooked some of the preliminary difficulties. "or i'll take a farm under him, and earn my bread that way; but, mother, don't talk to me any more about marrying money." and, so saying, frank left the room. frank, it will be remembered, was twenty-one when he was first introduced to the reader; he is now twenty-two. it may be said that there was a great difference between his character then and now. a year at that period will make a great difference; but the change has been, not in his character, but in his feelings. frank went out from his mother and immediately ordered his black horse to be got ready for him. he would at once go over to boxall hill. he went himself to the stables to give his orders; and as he returned to get his gloves and whip he met beatrice in the corridor. "beatrice," said he, "step in here," and she followed him into his room. "i'm not going to bear this any longer; i'm going to boxall hill." "oh, frank! how can you be so imprudent?" "you, at any rate, have some decent feeling for mary. i believe you have some regard for her; and therefore i tell you. will you send her any message?" "oh, yes; my best, best love; that is if you will see her; but, frank, you are very foolish, very; and she will be infinitely distressed." "do not mention this, that is, not at present; not that i mean to make any secret of it. i shall tell my father everything. i'm off now!" and then, paying no attention to her remonstrance, he turned down the stairs and was soon on horseback. he took the road to boxall hill, but he did not ride very fast: he did not go jauntily as a jolly, thriving wooer; but musingly, and often with diffidence, meditating every now and then whether it would not be better for him to turn back: to turn back--but not from fear of his mother; not from prudential motives; not because that often-repeated lesson as to marrying money was beginning to take effect; not from such causes as these; but because he doubted how he might be received by mary. he did, it is true, think something about his worldly prospects. he had talked rather grandiloquently to his mother as to his hating money, and hating the estate. his mother's never-ceasing worldly cares on such subjects perhaps demanded that a little grandiloquence should be opposed to them. but frank did not hate the estate; nor did he at all hate the position of an english country gentleman. miss dunstable's eloquence, however, rang in his ears. for miss dunstable had an eloquence of her own, even in her letters. "never let them talk you out of your own true, honest, hearty feelings," she had said. "greshamsbury is a very nice place, i am sure; and i hope i shall see it some day; but all its green knolls are not half so nice, should not be half so precious, as the pulses of your own heart. that is your own estate, your own, your very own--your own and another's; whatever may go to the money-lenders, don't send that there. don't mortgage that, mr gresham." "no," said frank, pluckily, as he put his horse into a faster trot, "i won't mortgage that. they may do what they like with the estate; but my heart's my own," and so speaking to himself, almost aloud, he turned a corner of the road rapidly and came at once upon the doctor. "hallo, doctor! is that you?" said frank, rather disgusted. "what! frank! i hardly expected to meet you here," said dr thorne, not much better pleased. they were now not above a mile from boxall hill, and the doctor, therefore, could not but surmise whither frank was going. they had repeatedly met since frank's return from cambridge, both in the village and in the doctor's house; but not a word had been said between them about mary beyond what the merest courtesy had required. not that each did not love the other sufficiently to make a full confidence between them desirable to both; but neither had had the courage to speak out. nor had either of them the courage to do so now. "yes," said frank, blushing, "i am going to lady scatcherd's. shall i find the ladies at home?" "yes; lady scatcherd is there; but sir louis is there also--an invalid: perhaps you would not wish to meet him." "oh! i don't mind," said frank, trying to laugh; "he won't bite, i suppose?" the doctor longed in his heart to pray to frank to return with him; not to go and make further mischief; not to do that which might cause a more bitter estrangement between himself and the squire. but he had not the courage to do it. he could not bring himself to accuse frank of being in love with his niece. so after a few more senseless words on either side, words which each knew to be senseless as he uttered them, they both rode on their own ways. and then the doctor silently, and almost unconsciously, made such a comparison between louis scatcherd and frank gresham as hamlet made between the dead and live king. it was hyperion to a satyr. was it not as impossible that mary should not love the one, as that she should love the other? frank's offer of his affections had at first probably been but a boyish ebullition of feeling; but if it should now be, that this had grown into a manly and disinterested love, how could mary remain unmoved? what could her heart want more, better, more beautiful, more rich than such a love as his? was he not personally all that a girl could like? were not his disposition, mind, character, acquirements, all such as women most delight to love? was it not impossible that mary should be indifferent to him? so meditated the doctor as he rode along, with only too true a knowledge of human nature. ah! it was impossible, it was quite impossible that mary should be indifferent. she had never been indifferent since frank had uttered his first half-joking word of love. such things are more important to women than they are to men, to girls than they are to boys. when frank had first told her that he loved her; aye, months before that, when he merely looked his love, her heart had received the whisper, had acknowledged the glance, unconscious as she was herself, and resolved as she was to rebuke his advances. when, in her hearing, he had said soft nothings to patience oriel, a hated, irrepressible tear had gathered in her eye. when he had pressed in his warm, loving grasp the hand which she had offered him as a token of mere friendship, her heart had forgiven him the treachery, nay, almost thanked him for it, before her eyes or her words had been ready to rebuke him. when the rumour of his liaison with miss dunstable reached her ears, when she heard of miss dunstable's fortune, she had wept, wept outright, in her chamber--wept, as she said to herself, to think that he should be so mercenary; but she had wept, as she should have said to herself, at finding that he was so faithless. then, when she knew at last that this rumour was false, when she found that she was banished from greshamsbury for his sake, when she was forced to retreat with her friend patience, how could she but love him, in that he was not mercenary? how could she not love him in that he was so faithful? it was impossible that she should not love him. was he not the brightest and the best of men that she had ever seen, or was like to see?--that she could possibly ever see, she would have said to herself, could she have brought herself to own the truth? and then, when she heard how true he was, how he persisted against father, mother, and sisters, how could it be that that should not be a merit in her eyes which was so great a fault in theirs? when beatrice, with would-be solemn face, but with eyes beaming with feminine affection, would gravely talk of frank's tender love as a terrible misfortune, as a misfortune to them all, to mary herself as well as others, how could mary do other than love him? "beatrice is his sister," she would say within her own mind, "otherwise she would never talk like this; were she not his sister, she could not but know the value of such love as this." ah! yes; mary did love him; love him with all the strength of her heart; and the strength of her heart was very great. and now by degrees, in those lonely donkey-rides at boxall hill, in those solitary walks, she was beginning to own to herself the truth. and now that she did own it, what should be her course? what should she do, how should she act if this loved one persevered in his love? and, ah! what should she do, how should she act if he did not persevere? could it be that there should be happiness in store for her? was it not too clear that, let the matter go how it would, there was no happiness in store for her? much as she might love frank gresham, she could never consent to be his wife unless the squire would smile on her as his daughter-in-law. the squire had been all that was kind, all that was affectionate. and then, too, lady arabella! as she thought of the lady arabella a sterner form of thought came across her brow. why should lady arabella rob her of her heart's joy? what was lady arabella that she, mary thorne, need quail before her? had lady arabella stood only in her way, lady arabella, flanked by the de courcy legion, mary felt that she could have demanded frank's hand as her own before them all without a blush of shame or a moment's hesitation. thus, when her heart was all but ready to collapse within her, would she gain some little strength by thinking of the lady arabella. "please, my lady, here be young squoire gresham," said one of the untutored servants at boxall hill, opening lady scatcherd's little parlour door as her ladyship was amusing herself by pulling down and turning, and re-folding, and putting up again, a heap of household linen which was kept in a huge press for the express purpose of supplying her with occupation. lady scatcherd, holding a vast counterpane in her arms, looked back over her shoulders and perceived that frank was in the room. down went the counterpane on the ground, and frank soon found himself in the very position which that useful article had so lately filled. "oh! master frank! oh, master frank!" said her ladyship, almost in an hysterical fit of joy; and then she hugged and kissed him as she had never kissed and hugged her own son since that son had first left the parent nest. frank bore it patiently and with a merry laugh. "but, lady scatcherd," said he, "what will they all say? you forget i am a man now," and he stooped his head as she again pressed her lips upon his forehead. "i don't care what none of 'em say," said her ladyship, quite going back to her old days; "i will kiss my own boy; so i will. eh, but master frank, this is good of you. a sight of you is good for sore eyes; and my eyes have been sore enough too since i saw you;" and she put her apron up to wipe away a tear. "yes," said frank, gently trying to disengage himself, but not successfully; "yes, you have had a great loss, lady scatcherd. i was so sorry when i heard of your grief." "you always had a soft, kind heart, master frank; so you had. god's blessing on you! what a fine man you have grown! deary me! well, it seems as though it were only just t'other day like." and she pushed him a little off from her, so that she might look the better into his face. "well. is it all right? i suppose you would hardly know me again now i've got a pair of whiskers?" "know you! i should know you well if i saw but the heel of your foot. why, what a head of hair you have got, and so dark too! but it doesn't curl as it used once." and she stroked his hair, and looked into his eyes, and put her hand to his cheeks. "you'll think me an old fool, master frank: i know that; but you may think what you like. if i live for the next twenty years you'll always be my own boy; so you will." by degrees, slow degrees, frank managed to change the conversation, and to induce lady scatcherd to speak on some other topic than his own infantine perfections. he affected an indifference as he spoke of her guest, which would have deceived no one but lady scatcherd; but her it did deceive; and then he asked where mary was. "she's just gone out on her donkey--somewhere about the place. she rides on a donkey mostly every day. but you'll stop and take a bit of dinner with us? eh, now do 'ee, master frank." but master frank excused himself. he did not choose to pledge himself to sit down to dinner with mary. he did not know in what mood they might return with regard to each other at dinner-time. he said, therefore, that he would walk out and, if possible, find miss thorne; and that he would return to the house again before he went. lady scatcherd then began making apologies for sir louis. he was an invalid; the doctor had been with him all the morning, and he was not yet out of his room. these apologies frank willingly accepted, and then made his way as he could on to the lawn. a gardener, of whom he inquired, offered to go with him in pursuit of miss thorne. this assistance, however, he declined, and set forth in quest of her, having learnt what were her most usual haunts. nor was he directed wrongly; for after walking about twenty minutes, he saw through the trees the legs of a donkey moving on the green-sward, at about two hundred yards from him. on that donkey doubtless sat mary thorne. the donkey was coming towards him; not exactly in a straight line, but so much so as to make it impossible that mary should not see him if he stood still. he did stand still, and soon emerging from the trees, mary saw him all but close to her. her heart gave a leap within her, but she was so far mistress of herself as to repress any visible sign of outward emotion. she did not fall from her donkey, or scream, or burst into tears. she merely uttered the words, "mr gresham!" in a tone of not unnatural surprise. "yes," said he, trying to laugh, but less successful than she had been in suppressing a show of feeling. "mr gresham! i have come over at last to pay my respects to you. you must have thought me very uncourteous not to do so before." this she denied. "she had not," she said, "thought him at all uncivil. she had come to boxall hill to be out of the way; and, of course, had not expected any such formalities." as she uttered this she almost blushed at the abrupt truth of what she was saying. but she was taken so much unawares that she did not know how to make the truth other than abrupt. "to be out of the way!" said frank. "and why should you want to be out of the way?" "oh! there were reasons," said she, laughing. "perhaps i have quarrelled dreadfully with my uncle." frank at the present moment had not about him a scrap of badinage. he had not a single easy word at his command. he could not answer her with anything in guise of a joke; so he walked on, not answering at all. "i hope all my friends at greshamsbury are well," said mary. "is beatrice quite well?" "quite well," said he. "and patience?" "what, miss oriel; yes, i believe so. i haven't seen her this day or two." how was it that mary felt a little flush of joy, as frank spoke in this indifferent way about miss oriel's health? "i thought she was always a particular friend of yours," said she. "what! who? miss oriel? so she is! i like her amazingly; so does beatrice." and then he walked about six steps in silence, plucking up courage for the great attempt. he did pluck up his courage and then rushed at once to the attack. "mary!" said he, and as he spoke he put his hand on the donkey's neck, and looked tenderly into her face. he looked tenderly, and, as mary's ear at once told her, his voice sounded more soft than it had ever sounded before. "mary, do you remember the last time that we were together?" mary did remember it well. it was on that occasion when he had treacherously held her hand; on that day when, according to law, he had become a man; when he had outraged all the propriety of the de courcy interest by offering his love to mary in augusta's hearing. mary did remember it well; but how was she to speak of it? "it was your birthday, i think," said she. "yes, it was my birthday. i wonder whether you remember what i said to you then?" "i remember that you were very foolish, mr gresham." "mary, i have come to repeat my folly;--that is, if it be folly. i told you then that i loved you, and i dare say that i did so awkwardly, like a boy. perhaps i may be just as awkward now; but you ought at any rate to believe me when you find that a year has not altered me." mary did not think him at all awkward, and she did believe him. but how was she to answer him? she had not yet taught herself what answer she ought to make if he persisted in his suit. she had hitherto been content to run away from him; but she had done so because she would not submit to be accused of the indelicacy of putting herself in his way. she had rebuked him when he first spoke of his love; but she had done so because she looked on what he said as a boy's nonsense. she had schooled herself in obedience to the greshamsbury doctrines. was there any real reason, any reason founded on truth and honesty, why she should not be a fitting wife to frank gresham,--francis newbold gresham, of greshamsbury, though he was, or was to be? he was well born--as well born as any gentleman in england. she was basely born--as basely born as any lady could be. was this sufficient bar against such a match? mary felt in her heart that some twelvemonth since, before she knew what little she did now know of her own story, she would have said it was so. and would she indulge her own love by inveigling him she loved into a base marriage? but then reason spoke again. what, after all, was this blood of which she had taught herself to think so much? would she have been more honest, more fit to grace an honest man's hearthstone, had she been the legitimate descendant of a score of legitimate duchesses? was it not her first duty to think of him--of what would make him happy? then of her uncle--what he would approve? then of herself--what would best become her modesty; her sense of honour? could it be well that she should sacrifice the happiness of two persons to a theoretic love of pure blood? so she had argued within herself; not now, sitting on the donkey, with frank's hand before her on the tame brute's neck; but on other former occasions as she had ridden along demurely among those trees. so she had argued; but she had never brought her arguments to a decision. all manner of thoughts crowded on her to prevent her doing so. she would think of the squire, and resolve to reject frank; and would then remember lady arabella, and resolve to accept him. her resolutions, however, were most irresolute; and so, when frank appeared in person before her, carrying his heart in his hand, she did not know what answer to make to him. thus it was with her as with so many other maidens similarly circumstanced; at last she left it all to chance. "you ought, at any rate, to believe me," said frank, "when you find that a year has not altered me." "a year should have taught you to be wiser," said she. "you should have learnt by this time, mr gresham, that your lot and mine are not cast in the same mould; that our stations in life are different. would your father or mother approve of your even coming here to see me?" mary, as she spoke these sensible words, felt that they were "flat, stale, and unprofitable." she felt, also, that they were not true in sense; that they did not come from her heart; that they were not such as frank deserved at her hands, and she was ashamed of herself. "my father i hope will approve of it," said he. "that my mother should disapprove of it is a misfortune which i cannot help; but on this point i will take no answer from my father or mother; the question is one too personal to myself. mary, if you say that you will not, or cannot return my love, i will go away;--not from here only, but from greshamsbury. my presence shall not banish you from all that you hold dear. if you can honestly say that i am nothing to you, can be nothing to you, i will then tell my mother that she may be at ease, and i will go away somewhere and get over it as i may." the poor fellow got so far, looking apparently at the donkey's ears, with hardly a gasp of hope in his voice, and he so far carried mary with him that she also had hardly a gasp of hope in her heart. there he paused for a moment, and then looking up into her face, he spoke but one word more. "but," said he--and there he stopped. it was clearly told in that "but." thus would he do if mary would declare that she did not care for him. if, however, she could not bring herself so to declare, then was he ready to throw his father and mother to the winds; then would he stand his ground; then would he look all other difficulties in the face, sure that they might finally be overcome. poor mary! the whole onus of settling the matter was thus thrown upon her. she had only to say that he was indifferent to her;--that was all. if "all the blood of the howards" had depended upon it, she could not have brought herself to utter such a falsehood. indifferent to her, as he walked there by her donkey's side, talking thus earnestly of his love for her! was he not to her like some god come from the heavens to make her blessed? did not the sun shine upon him with a halo, so that he was bright as an angel? indifferent to her! could the open unadulterated truth have been practicable for her, she would have declared her indifference in terms that would truly have astonished him. as it was, she found it easier to say nothing. she bit her lips to keep herself from sobbing. she struggled hard, but in vain, to prevent her hands and feet from trembling. she seemed to swing upon her donkey as though like to fall, and would have given much to be upon her own feet upon the sward. "_si la jeunesse savait . . ._" there is so much in that wicked old french proverb! had frank known more about a woman's mind--had he, that is, been forty-two instead of twenty-two--he would at once have been sure of his game, and have felt that mary's silence told him all he wished to know. but then, had he been forty-two instead of twenty-two, he would not have been so ready to risk the acres of greshamsbury for the smiles of mary thorne. "if you can't say one word to comfort me, i will go," said he, disconsolately. "i made up my mind to tell you this, and so i came over. i told lady scatcherd i should not stay,--not even for dinner." "i did not know you were so hurried," said she, almost in a whisper. on a sudden he stood still, and pulling the donkey's rein, caused him to stand still also. the beast required very little persuasion to be so guided, and obligingly remained meekly passive. "mary, mary!" said frank, throwing his arms round her knees as she sat upon her steed, and pressing his face against her body. "mary, you were always honest; be honest now. i love you with all my heart. will you be my wife?" but still mary said not a word. she no longer bit her lips; she was beyond that, and was now using all her efforts to prevent her tears from falling absolutely on her lover's face. she said nothing. she could no more rebuke him now and send him from her than she could encourage him. she could only sit there shaking and crying and wishing she was on the ground. frank, on the whole, rather liked the donkey. it enabled him to approach somewhat nearer to an embrace than he might have found practicable had they both been on their feet. the donkey himself was quite at his ease, and looked as though he was approvingly conscious of what was going on behind his ears. "i have a right to a word, mary; say 'go,' and i will leave you at once." but mary did not say "go." perhaps she would have done so had she been able; but just at present she could say nothing. this came from her having failed to make up her mind in due time as to what course it would best become her to follow. "one word, mary; one little word. there, if you will not speak, here is my hand. if you will have it, let it lie in yours;--if not, push it away." so saying, he managed to get the end of his fingers on to her palm, and there it remained unrepulsed. "la jeunesse" was beginning to get a lesson; experience when duly sought after sometimes comes early in life. in truth mary had not strength to push the fingers away. "my love, my own, my own!" said frank, presuming on this very negative sign of acquiescence. "my life, my own one, my own mary!" and then the hand was caught hold of and was at his lips before an effort could be made to save it from such treatment. "mary, look at me; say one word to me." there was a deep sigh, and then came the one word--"oh, frank!" "mr gresham, i hope i have the honour of seeing you quite well," said a voice close to his ear. "i beg to say that you are welcome to boxall hill." frank turned round and instantly found himself shaking hands with sir louis scatcherd. how mary got over her confusion frank never saw, for he had enough to do to get over his own. he involuntarily deserted mary and began talking very fast to sir louis. sir louis did not once look at miss thorne, but walked back towards the house with mr gresham, sulky enough in temper, but still making some effort to do the fine gentleman. mary, glad to be left alone, merely occupied herself with sitting on the donkey; and the donkey, when he found that the two gentlemen went towards the house, for company's sake and for his stable's sake, followed after them. frank stayed but three minutes in the house; gave another kiss to lady scatcherd, getting three in return, and thereby infinitely disgusting sir louis, shook hands, anything but warmly, with the young baronet, and just felt the warmth of mary's hand within his own. he felt also the warmth of her eyes' last glance, and rode home a happy man. chapter xxx post prandial frank rode home a happy man, cheering himself, as successful lovers do cheer themselves, with the brilliancy of his late exploit: nor was it till he had turned the corner into the greshamsbury stables that he began to reflect what he would do next. it was all very well to have induced mary to allow his three fingers to lie half a minute in her soft hand; the having done so might certainly be sufficient evidence that he had overcome one of the lions in his path; but it could hardly be said that all his difficulties were now smoothed. how was he to make further progress? to mary, also, the same ideas no doubt occurred--with many others. but, then, it was not for mary to make any progress in the matter. to her at least belonged this passive comfort, that at present no act hostile to the de courcy interest would be expected from her. all that she could do would be to tell her uncle so much as it was fitting that he should know. the doing this would doubtless be in some degree difficult; but it was not probable that there would be much difference, much of anything but loving anxiety for each other, between her and dr thorne. one other thing, indeed, she must do; frank must be made to understand what her birth had been. "this," she said to herself, "will give him an opportunity of retracting what he has done should he choose to avail himself of it. it is well he should have such opportunity." but frank had more than this to do. he had told beatrice that he would make no secret of his love, and he fully resolved to be as good as his word. to his father he owed an unreserved confidence; and he was fully minded to give it. it was, he knew, altogether out of the question that he should at once marry a portionless girl without his father's consent; probably out of the question that he should do so even with it. but he would, at any rate, tell his father, and then decide as to what should be done next. so resolving, he put his black horse into the stable and went in to dinner. after dinner he and his father would be alone. yes; after dinner he and his father would be alone. he dressed himself hurriedly, for the dinner-bell was almost on the stroke as he entered the house. he said this to himself once and again; but when the meats and the puddings, and then the cheese, were borne away, as the decanters were placed before his father, and lady arabella sipped her one glass of claret, and his sisters ate their portion of strawberries, his pressing anxiety for the coming interview began to wax somewhat dull. his mother and sisters, however, rendered him no assistance by prolonging their stay. with unwonted assiduity he pressed a second glass of claret on his mother. but lady arabella was not only temperate in her habits, but also at the present moment very angry with her son. she thought that he had been to boxall hill, and was only waiting a proper moment to cross-question him sternly on the subject. now she departed, taking her train of daughters with her. "give me one big gooseberry," said nina, as she squeezed herself in under her brother's arm, prior to making her retreat. frank would willingly have given her a dozen of the biggest, had she wanted them; but having got the one, she squeezed herself out again and scampered off. the squire was very cheery this evening; from what cause cannot now be said. perhaps he had succeeded in negotiating a further loan, thus temporarily sprinkling a drop of water over the ever-rising dust of his difficulties. "well, frank, what have you been after to-day? peter told me you had the black horse out," said he, pushing the decanter to his son. "take my advice, my boy, and don't give him too much summer road-work. legs won't stand it, let them be ever so good." "why, sir, i was obliged to go out to-day, and therefore, it had to be either the old mare or the young horse." "why didn't you take ramble?" now ramble was the squire's own saddle hack, used for farm surveying, and occasionally for going to cover. "i shouldn't think of doing that, sir." "my dear boy, he is quite at your service; for goodness' sake do let me have a little wine, frank--quite at your service; any riding i have now is after the haymakers, and that's all on the grass." "thank'ee, sir. well, perhaps i will take a turn out of ramble should i want it." "do, and pray, pray take care of that black horse's legs. he's turning out more of a horse than i took him to be, and i should be sorry to see him injured. where have you been to-day?" "well, father, i have something to tell you." "something to tell me!" and then the squire's happy and gay look, which had been only rendered more happy and more gay by his assumed anxiety about the black horse, gave place to that heaviness of visage which acrimony and misfortune had made so habitual to him. "something to tell me!" any grave words like these always presaged some money difficulty to the squire's ears. he loved frank with the tenderest love. he would have done so under almost any circumstances; but, doubtless, that love had been made more palpable to himself by the fact that frank had been a good son as regards money--not exigeant as was lady arabella, or selfishly reckless as was his nephew lord porlock. but now frank must be in difficulty about money. this was his first idea. "what is it, frank; you have seldom had anything to say that has not been pleasant for me to hear?" and then the heaviness of visage again gave way for a moment as his eye fell upon his son. "i have been to boxall hill, sir." the tenor of his father's thoughts was changed in an instant; and the dread of immediate temporary annoyance gave place to true anxiety for his son. he, the squire, had been no party to mary's exile from his own domain; and he had seen with pain that she had now a second time been driven from her home: but he had never hitherto questioned the expediency of separating his son from mary thorne. alas! it became too necessary--too necessary through his own default--that frank should marry money! "at boxall hill, frank! has that been prudent? or, indeed, has it been generous to miss thorne, who has been driven there, as it were, by your imprudence?" "father, it is well that we should understand each other about this--" "fill your glass, frank;" frank mechanically did as he was told, and passed the bottle. "i should never forgive myself were i to deceive you, or keep anything from you." "i believe it is not in your nature to deceive me, frank." "the fact is, sir, that i have made up my mind that mary thorne shall be my wife--sooner or later that is, unless, of course, she should utterly refuse. hitherto, she has utterly refused me. i believe i may now say that she has accepted me." the squire sipped his claret, but at the moment said nothing. there was a quiet, manly, but yet modest determination about his son that he had hardly noticed before. frank had become legally of age, legally a man, when he was twenty-one. nature, it seems, had postponed the ceremony till he was twenty-two. nature often does postpone the ceremony even to a much later age;--sometimes, altogether forgets to accomplish it. the squire continued to sip his claret; he had to think over the matter a while before he could answer a statement so deliberately made by his son. "i think i may say so," continued frank, with perhaps unnecessary modesty. "she is so honest that, had she not intended it, she would have said so honestly. am i right, father, in thinking that, as regards mary, personally, you would not reject her as a daughter-in-law?" "personally!" said the squire, glad to have the subject presented to him in a view that enabled him to speak out. "oh, no; personally, i should not object to her, for i love her dearly. she is a good girl. i do believe she is a good girl in every respect. i have always liked her; liked to see her about the house. but--" "i know what you would say, father." this was rather more than the squire knew himself. "such a marriage is imprudent." "it is more than that, frank; i fear it is impossible." "impossible! no, father; it is not impossible." "it is impossible, frank, in the usual sense. what are you to live upon? what would you do with your children? you would not wish to see your wife distressed and comfortless." "no, i should not like to see that." "you would not wish to begin life as an embarrassed man and end it as a ruined man. if you were now to marry miss thorne such would, i fear, doubtless be your lot." frank caught at the word "now." "i don't expect to marry immediately. i know that would be imprudent. but i am pledged, father, and i certainly cannot go back. and now that i have told you all this, what is your advice to me?" the father again sat silent, still sipping his wine. there was nothing in his son that he could be ashamed of, nothing that he could meet with anger, nothing that he could not love; but how should he answer him? the fact was, that the son had more in him than the father; this his mind and spirit were of a calibre not to be opposed successfully by the mind and spirit of the squire. "do you know mary's history?" said mr gresham, at last; "the history of her birth?" "not a word of it," said frank. "i did not know she had a history." "nor does she know it; at least, i presume not. but you should know it now. and, frank, i will tell it you; not to turn you from her--not with that object, though i think that, to a certain extent, it should have that effect. mary's birth was not such as would become your wife and be beneficial to your children." "if so, father, i should have known that sooner. why was she brought in here among us?" "true, frank. the fault is mine; mine and your mother's. circumstances brought it about years ago, when it never occurred to us that all this would arise. but i will tell you her history. and, frank, remember this, though i tell it you as a secret, a secret to be kept from all the world but one, you are quite at liberty to let the doctor know that i have told you. indeed, i shall be careful to let him know myself should it ever be necessary that he and i should speak together as to this engagement." the squire then told his son the whole story of mary's birth, as it is known to the reader. frank sat silent, looking very blank; he also had, as had every gresham, a great love for his pure blood. he had said to his mother that he hated money, that he hated the estate; but he would have been very slow to say, even in his warmest opposition to her, that he hated the roll of the family pedigree. he loved it dearly, though he seldom spoke of it;--as men of good family seldom do speak of it. it is one of those possessions which to have is sufficient. a man having it need not boast of what he has, or show it off before the world. but on that account he values it more. he had regarded mary as a cutting duly taken from the ullathorne tree; not, indeed, as a grafting branch, full of flower, just separated from the parent stalk, but as being not a whit the less truly endowed with the pure sap of that venerable trunk. when, therefore, he heard her true history he sat awhile dismayed. "it is a sad story," said the father. "yes, sad enough," said frank, rising from his chair and standing with it before him, leaning on the back of it. "poor mary, poor mary! she will have to learn it some day." "i fear so, frank;" and then there was again a few moments' silence. "to me, father, it is told too late. it can now have no effect on me. indeed," said he, sighing as he spoke, but still relieving himself by the very sigh, "it could have had no effect had i learned it ever so soon." "i should have told you before," said the father; "certainly i ought to have done so." "it would have been no good," said frank. "ah, sir, tell me this: who were miss dunstable's parents? what was that fellow moffat's family?" this was perhaps cruel of frank. the squire, however, made no answer to the question. "i have thought it right to tell you," said he. "i leave all commentary to yourself. i need not tell you what your mother will think." "what did she think of miss dunstable's birth?" said he, again more bitterly than before. "no, sir," he continued, after a further pause. "all that can make no change; none at any rate now. it can't make my love less, even if it could have prevented it. nor, even, could it do so--which it can't the least, not in the least--but could it do so, it could not break my engagement. i am now engaged to mary thorne." and then he again repeated his question, asking for his father's advice under the present circumstances. the conversation was a very long one, as long as to disarrange all lady arabella's plans. she had determined to take her son most stringently to task that very evening; and with this object had ensconced herself in the small drawing-room which had formerly been used for a similar purpose by the august countess herself. here she now sat, having desired augusta and beatrice, as well as the twins, to beg frank to go to her as soon as he should come out of the dining-room. poor lady! there she waited till ten o'clock,--tealess. there was not much of the bluebeard about the squire; but he had succeeded in making it understood through the household that he was not to be interrupted by messages from his wife during the post-prandial hour, which, though no toper, he loved so well. as a period of twelve months will now have to be passed over, the upshot of this long conversation must be told in as few words as possible. the father found it impracticable to talk his son out of his intended marriage; indeed, he hardly attempted to do so by any direct persuasion. he explained to him that it was impossible that he should marry at once, and suggested that he, frank, was very young. "you married, sir, before you were one-and-twenty," said frank. yes, and repented before i was two-and-twenty. so did not say the squire. he suggested that mary should have time to ascertain what would be her uncle's wishes, and ended by inducing frank to promise, that after taking his degree in october he would go abroad for some months, and that he would not indeed return to greshamsbury till he was three-and-twenty. "he may perhaps forget her," said the father to himself, as this agreement was made between them. "he thinks that i shall forget her," said frank to himself at the same time; "but he does not know me." when lady arabella at last got hold of her son she found that the time for her preaching was utterly gone by. he told her, almost with _sang-froid_, what his plans were; and when she came to understand them, and to understand also what had taken place at boxall hill, she could not blame the squire for what he had done. she also said to herself, more confidently than the squire had done, that frank would quite forget mary before the year was out. "lord buckish," said she to herself, rejoicingly, "is now with the ambassador at paris"--lord buckish was her nephew--"and with him frank will meet women that are really beautiful--women of fashion. when with lord buckish he will soon forget mary thorne." but not on this account did she change her resolve to follow up to the furthest point her hostility to the thornes. she was fully enabled now to do so, for dr fillgrave was already reinstalled at greshamsbury as her medical adviser. one other short visit did frank pay to boxall hill, and one interview had he with dr thorne. mary told him all she knew of her own sad history, and was answered only by a kiss,--a kiss absolutely not in any way by her to be avoided; the first, the only one, that had ever yet reached her lips from his. and then he went away. the doctor told him all the story. "yes," said frank, "i knew it all before. dear mary, dearest mary! don't you, doctor, teach yourself to believe that i shall forget her." and then also he went his way from him--went his way also from greshamsbury, and was absent for the full period of his allotted banishment--twelve months, namely, and a day. chapter xxxi the small end of the wedge frank gresham was absent from greshamsbury twelve months and a day: a day is always added to the period of such absences, as shown in the history of lord bateman and other noble heroes. we need not detail all the circumstances of his banishment, all the details of the compact that was made. one detail of course was this, that there should be no corresponding; a point to which the squire found some difficulty in bringing his son to assent. it must not be supposed that mary thorne or the doctor were in any way parties to, or privy to these agreements. by no means. the agreements were drawn out, and made, and signed, and sealed at greshamsbury, and were known of nowhere else. the reader must not imagine that lady arabella was prepared to give up her son, if only his love could remain constant for one year. neither did lady arabella consent to any such arrangement, nor did the squire. it was settled rather in this wise: that frank should be subjected to no torturing process, pestered to give no promises, should in no way be bullied about mary--that is, not at present--if he would go away for a year. then, at the end of the year, the matter should again be discussed. agreeing to this, frank took his departure, and was absent as per agreement. what were mary's fortunes immediately after his departure must be shortly told, and then we will again join some of our greshamsbury friends at a period about a month before frank's return. when sir louis saw frank gresham standing by mary's donkey, with his arms round mary's knees, he began to fear that there must be something in it. he had intended that very day to throw himself at mary's feet, and now it appeared to his inexperienced eyes as though somebody else had been at the same work before him. this not unnaturally made him cross; so, after having sullenly wished the visitor good-bye, he betook himself to his room, and there drank curaçoa alone, instead of coming down to dinner. this he did for two or three days, and then, taking heart of grace, he remembered that, after all, he had very many advantages over young gresham. in the first place, he was a baronet, and could make his wife a "lady." in the next place, frank's father was alive and like to live, whereas his own was dead. he possessed boxall hill in his own right, but his rival had neither house nor land of his own. after all, might it not be possible for him also to put his arm round mary's knees;--her knees, or her waist, or, perhaps, even her neck? faint heart never won fair lady. at any rate, he would try. and he did try. with what result, as regards mary, need hardly be told. he certainly did not get nearly so far as putting his hand even upon her knee before he was made to understand that it "was no go," as he graphically described it to his mother. he tried once and again. on the first time mary was very civil, though very determined. on the second, she was more determined, though less civil; and then she told him, that if he pressed her further he would drive her from his mother's house. there was something then about mary's eye, a fixed composure round her mouth, and an authority in her face, which went far to quell him; and he did not press her again. he immediately left boxall hill, and, returning to london, had more violent recourse to the curaçoa. it was not long before the doctor heard of him, and was obliged to follow him, and then again occurred those frightful scenes in which the poor wretch had to expiate, either in terrible delirium or more terrible prostration of spirits, the vile sin which his father had so early taught him. then mary returned to her uncle's home. frank was gone, and she therefore could resume her place at greshamsbury. yes, she came back to greshamsbury; but greshamsbury was by no means the same place that it was formerly. almost all intercourse was now over between the doctor and the greshamsbury people. he rarely ever saw the squire, and then only on business. not that the squire had purposely quarrelled with him; but dr thorne himself had chosen that it should be so, since frank had openly proposed for his niece. frank was now gone, and lady arabella was in arms against him. it should not be said that he kept up any intimacy for the sake of aiding the lovers in their love. no one should rightfully accuse him of inveigling the heir to marry his niece. mary, therefore, found herself utterly separated from beatrice. she was not even able to learn what beatrice would think, or did think, of the engagement as it now stood. she could not even explain to her friend that love had been too strong for her, and endeavour to get some comfort from that friend's absolution from her sin. this estrangement was now carried so far that she and beatrice did not even meet on neutral ground. lady arabella made it known to miss oriel that her daughter could not meet mary thorne, even as strangers meet; and it was made known to others also. mrs yates umbleby, and her dear friend miss gushing, to whose charming tea-parties none of the greshamsbury ladies went above once in a twelvemonth, talked through the parish of this distressing difficulty. they would have been so happy to have asked dear mary thorne, only the greshamsbury ladies did not approve. mary was thus tabooed from all society in the place in which a twelvemonth since she had been, of all its denizens, perhaps the most courted. in those days, no bevy of greshamsbury young ladies had fairly represented the greshamsbury young ladyhood if mary thorne was not there. now she was excluded from all such bevies. patience did not quarrel with her, certainly;--came to see her frequently;--invited her to walk;--invited her frequently to the parsonage. but mary was shy of acceding to such invitations, and at last frankly told her friend patience, that she would not again break bread in greshamsbury in any house in which she was not thought fit to meet the other guests who habitually resorted there. in truth, both the doctor and his niece were very sore, but they were of that temperament that keeps all its soreness to itself. mary walked out by herself boldly, looking at least as though she were indifferent to all the world. she was, indeed, hardly treated. young ladies' engagements are generally matters of profoundest secrecy, and are hardly known of by their near friends till marriage is a thing settled. but all the world knew of mary's engagement within a month of that day on which she had neglected to expel frank's finger from her hand; it had been told openly through the country-side that she had confessed her love for the young squire. now it is disagreeable for a young lady to walk about under such circumstances, especially so when she has no female friend to keep her in countenance, more especially so when the gentleman is of such importance in the neighbourhood as frank was in that locality. it was a matter of moment to every farmer, and every farmer's wife, which bride frank should marry of those bespoken for him; mary, namely, or money. every yokel about the place had been made to understand that, by some feminine sleight of hand, the doctor's niece had managed to trap master frank, and that master frank had been sent out of the way so that he might, if yet possible, break through the trapping. all this made life rather unpleasant for her. one day, walking solitary in the lanes, she met that sturdy farmer to whose daughter she had in former days been so serviceable. "god bless 'ee, miss mary," said he--he always did bid god bless her when he saw her. "and, miss mary, to say my mind out freely, thee be quite gude enough for un, quite gude enough; so thee be'st tho'f he were ten squoires." there may, perhaps, have been something pleasant in the heartiness of this; but it was not pleasant to have this heart affair of hers thus publicly scanned and talked over: to have it known to every one that she had set her heart on marrying frank gresham, and that all the greshams had set their hearts on preventing it. and yet she could in nowise help it. no girl could have been more staid and demure, less demonstrative and boastful about her love. she had never yet spoken freely, out of her full heart, to one human being. "oh, frank!" all her spoken sin had been contained in that. but lady arabella had been very active. it suited her better that it should be known, far and wide, that a nameless pauper--lady arabella only surmised that her foe was nameless; but she did not scruple to declare it--was intriguing to catch the heir of greshamsbury. none of the greshams must meet mary thorne; that was the edict sent about the country; and the edict was well understood. those, therefore, were bad days for miss thorne. she had never yet spoken on the matter freely, out of her full heart to one human being. not to one? not to him? not to her uncle? no, not even to him, fully and freely. she had told him that that had passed between frank and her which amounted, at any rate on his part, to a proposal. "well, dearest, and what was your answer?" said her uncle, drawing her close to him, and speaking in his kindest voice. "i hardly made any answer, uncle." "you did not reject him, mary?" "no, uncle," and then she paused;--he had never known her tremble as she now trembled. "but if you say that i ought, i will," she added, drawing every word from herself with difficulty. "i say you ought, mary! nay; but this question you must answer yourself." "must i?" said she, plaintively. and then she sat for the next half hour with her head against his shoulder; but nothing more was said about it. they both acquiesced in the sentence that had been pronounced against them, and went on together more lovingly than before. the doctor was quite as weak as his niece; nay, weaker. she hesitated fearfully as to what she ought to do: whether she should obey her heart or the dictates of greshamsbury. but he had other doubts than hers, which nearly set him wild when he strove to bring his mind to a decision. he himself was now in possession--of course as a trustee only--of the title-deeds of the estate; more of the estate, much more, belonged to the heirs under sir roger scatcherd's will than to the squire. it was now more than probable that that heir must be mary thorne. his conviction became stronger and stronger that no human efforts would keep sir louis in the land of the living till he was twenty-five. could he, therefore, wisely or honestly, in true friendship to the squire, to frank, or to his niece, take any steps to separate two persons who loved each other, and whose marriage would in all human probability be so suitable? and yet he could not bring himself to encourage it then. the idea of "looking after dead men's shoes" was abhorrent to his mind, especially when the man whose death he contemplated had been so trusted to him as had been sir louis scatcherd. he could not speak of the event, even to the squire, as being possible. so he kept his peace from day to day, and gave no counsel to mary in the matter. and then he had his own individual annoyances, and very aggravating annoyances they were. the carriage--or rather post-chaise--of dr fillgrave was now frequent in greshamsbury, passing him constantly in the street, among the lanes, and on the high roads. it seemed as though dr fillgrave could never get to his patients at the big house without showing himself to his beaten rival, either on his way thither or on his return. this alone would, perhaps, not have hurt the doctor much; but it did hurt him to know that dr fillgrave was attending the squire for a little incipient gout, and that dear nina was in measles under those unloving hands. and then, also, the old-fashioned phaeton, of old-fashioned old dr century was seen to rumble up to the big house, and it became known that lady arabella was not very well. "not very well," when pronounced in a low, grave voice about lady arabella, always meant something serious. and, in this case, something serious was meant. lady arabella was not only ill, but frightened. it appeared, even to her, that dr fillgrave himself hardly knew what he was about, that he was not so sure in his opinion, so confident in himself, as dr thorne used to be. how should he be, seeing that dr thorne had medically had lady arabella in his hands for the last ten years? if sitting with dignity in his hired carriage, and stepping with authority up the big front steps, would have done anything, dr fillgrave might have done much. lady arabella was greatly taken with his looks when he first came to her, and it was only when she by degrees perceived that the symptoms, which she knew so well, did not yield to him that she began to doubt those looks. after a while dr fillgrave himself suggested dr century. "not that i fear anything, lady arabella," said he,--lying hugely, for he did fear; fear both for himself and for her. "but dr century has great experience, and in such a matter, when the interests are so important, one cannot be too safe." so dr century came and toddled slowly into her ladyship's room. he did not say much; he left the talking to his learned brother, who certainly was able to do that part of the business. but dr century, though he said very little, looked very grave, and by no means quieted lady arabella's mind. she, as she saw the two putting their heads together, already had misgivings that she had done wrong. she knew that she could not be safe without dr thorne at her bedside, and she already felt that she had exercised a most injudicious courage in driving him away. "well, doctor?" said she, as soon as dr century had toddled downstairs to see the squire. "oh! we shall be all right, lady arabella; all right, very soon. but we must be careful, very careful; i am glad i've had century here, very; but there's nothing to alter; little or nothing." there were but few words spoken between dr century and the squire; but few as they were, they frightened mr gresham. when dr fillgrave came down the grand stairs, a servant waited at the bottom to ask him also to go to the squire. now there never had been much cordiality between the squire and dr fillgrave, though mr gresham had consented to take a preventative pill from his hands, and the little man therefore swelled himself out somewhat more than ordinarily as he followed the servant. "dr fillgrave," said the squire, at once beginning the conversation, "lady arabella, is, i fear, in danger?" "well, no; i hope not in danger, mr gresham. i certainly believe i may be justified in expressing a hope that she is not in danger. her state is, no doubt, rather serious--rather serious--as dr century has probably told you;" and dr fillgrave made a bow to the old man, who sat quiet in one of the dining-room arm-chairs. "well, doctor," said the squire, "i have not any grounds on which to doubt your judgement." dr fillgrave bowed, but with the stiffest, slightest inclination which a head could possibly make. he rather thought that mr gresham had no ground for doubting his judgement. "nor do i." the doctor bowed, and a little, a very little less stiffly. "but, doctor, i think that something ought to be done." the doctor this time did his bowing merely with his eyes and mouth. the former he closed for a moment, the latter he pressed; and then decorously rubbed his hands one over the other. "i am afraid, dr fillgrave, that you and my friend thorne are not the best friends in the world." "no, mr gresham, no; i may go so far as to say we are not." "well, i am sorry for it--" "perhaps, mr gresham, we need hardly discuss it; but there have been circumstances--" "i am not going to discuss anything, dr fillgrave; i say i am sorry for it, because i believe that prudence will imperatively require lady arabella to have doctor thorne back again. now, if you would not object to meet him--" "mr gresham, i beg pardon; i beg pardon, indeed; but you must really excuse me. doctor thorne has, in my estimation--" "but, doctor fillgrave--" "mr gresham, you really must excuse me; you really must, indeed. anything else that i could do for lady arabella, i should be most happy to do; but after what has passed, i cannot meet doctor thorne; i really cannot. you must not ask me to do so; mr gresham. and, mr gresham," continued the doctor, "i did understand from lady arabella that his--that is, dr thorne's--conduct to her ladyship had been such--so very outrageous, i may say, that--that--that--of course, mr gresham, you know best; but i did think that lady arabella herself was quite unwilling to see doctor thorne again;" and dr fillgrave looked very big, and very dignified, and very exclusive. the squire did not ask again. he had no warrant for supposing that lady arabella would receive dr thorne if he did come; and he saw that it was useless to attempt to overcome the rancour of a man so pig-headed as the little galen now before him. other propositions were then broached, and it was at last decided that assistance should be sought for from london, in the person of the great sir omicron pie. sir omicron came, and drs fillgrave and century were there to meet him. when they all assembled in lady arabella's room, the poor woman's heart almost sank within her,--as well it might, at such a sight. if she could only reconcile it with her honour, her consistency, with her high de courcy principles, to send once more for dr thorne. oh, frank! frank! to what misery your disobedience brought your mother! sir omicron and the lesser provincial lights had their consultation, and the lesser lights went their way to barchester and silverbridge, leaving sir omicron to enjoy the hospitality of greshamsbury. "you should have thorne back here, mr gresham," said sir omicron, almost in a whisper, when they were quite alone. "doctor fillgrave is a very good man, and so is dr century; very good, i am sure. but thorne has known her ladyship so long." and then, on the following morning, sir omicron also went his way. and then there was a scene between the squire and her ladyship. lady arabella had given herself credit for great good generalship when she found that the squire had been induced to take that pill. we have all heard of the little end of the wedge, and we have most of us an idea that the little end is the difficulty. that pill had been the little end of lady arabella's wedge. up to that period she had been struggling in vain to make a severance between her husband and her enemy. that pill should do the business. she well knew how to make the most of it; to have it published in greshamsbury that the squire had put his gouty toe into dr fillgrave's hands; how to let it be known--especially at that humble house in the corner of the street--that fillgrave's prescriptions now ran current through the whole establishment. dr thorne did hear of it, and did suffer. he had been a true friend to the squire, and he thought the squire should have stood to him more staunchly. "after all," said he himself, "perhaps it's as well--perhaps it will be best that i should leave this place altogether." and then he thought of sir roger and his will, and of mary and her lover. and then of mary's birth, and of his own theoretical doctrines as to pure blood. and so his troubles multiplied, and he saw no present daylight through them. such had been the way in which lady arabella had got in the little end of the wedge. and she would have triumphed joyfully had not her increased doubts and fears as to herself then come in to check her triumph and destroy her joy. she had not yet confessed to any one her secret regret for the friend she had driven away. she hardly yet acknowledged to herself that she did regret him; but she was uneasy, frightened, and in low spirits. "my dear," said the squire, sitting down by her bedside, "i want to tell you what sir omicron said as he went away." "well?" said her ladyship, sitting up and looking frightened. "i don't know how you may take it, bell; but i think it very good news:" the squire never called his wife bell, except when he wanted her to be on particularly good terms with him. "well?" said she again. she was not over-anxious to be gracious, and did not reciprocate his familiarity. "sir omicron says that you should have thorne back again, and upon my honour, i cannot but agree with him. now, thorne is a clever man, a very clever man; nobody denies that; and then, you know--" "why did not sir omicron say that to me?" said her ladyship, sharply, all her disposition in dr thorne's favour becoming wonderfully damped by her husband's advocacy. "i suppose he thought it better to say it to me," said the squire, rather curtly. "he should have spoken to myself," said lady arabella, who, though she did not absolutely doubt her husband's word, gave him credit for having induced and led on sir omicron to the uttering of this opinion. "doctor thorne has behaved to me in so gross, so indecent a manner! and then, as i understand, he is absolutely encouraging that girl--" "now, bell, you are quite wrong--" "of course i am; i always am quite wrong." "quite wrong in mixing up two things; doctor thorne as an acquaintance, and dr thorne as a doctor." "it is dreadful to have him here, even standing in the room with me. how can one talk to one's doctor openly and confidentially when one looks upon him as one's worst enemy?" and lady arabella, softening, almost melted into tears. "my dear, you cannot wonder that i should be anxious for you." lady arabella gave a little snuffle, which might be taken as a not very eloquent expression of thanks for the squire's solicitude, or as an ironical jeer at his want of sincerity. "and, therefore, i have not lost a moment in telling you what sir omicron said. 'you should have thorne back here;' those were his very words. you can think it over, my dear. and remember this, bell; if he is to do any good no time should be lost." and then the squire left the room, and lady arabella remained alone, perplexed by many doubts. chapter xxxii mr oriel i must now, shortly--as shortly as it is in my power to do it--introduce a new character to my reader. mention has been made of the rectory of greshamsbury; but, hitherto, no opportunity has offered itself for the rev caleb oriel to come upon the boards. mr oriel was a man of family and fortune, who, having gone to oxford with the usual views of such men, had become inoculated there with very high-church principles, and had gone into orders influenced by a feeling of enthusiastic love for the priesthood. he was by no means an ascetic--such men, indeed, seldom are--nor was he a devotee. he was a man well able, and certainly willing, to do the work of a parish clergyman; and when he became one, he was efficacious in his profession. but it may perhaps be said of him, without speaking slanderously, that his original calling, as a young man, was rather to the outward and visible signs of religion than to its inward and spiritual graces. he delighted in lecterns and credence-tables, in services at dark hours of winter mornings when no one would attend, in high waistcoats and narrow white neckties, in chanted services and intoned prayers, and in all the paraphernalia of anglican formalities which have given such offence to those of our brethren who live in daily fear of the scarlet lady. many of his friends declared that mr oriel would sooner or later deliver himself over body and soul to that lady; but there was no need to fear for him: for though sufficiently enthusiastic to get out of bed at five a.m. on winter mornings--he did so, at least, all through his first winter at greshamsbury--he was not made of that stuff which is necessary for a staunch, burning, self-denying convert. it was not in him to change his very sleek black coat for a capuchin's filthy cassock, nor his pleasant parsonage for some dirty hole in rome. and it was better so both for him and others. there are but few, very few, to whom it is given to be a huss, a wickliffe, or a luther; and a man gains but little by being a false huss, or a false luther,--and his neighbours gain less. but certain lengths in self-privation mr oriel did go; at any rate, for some time. he eschewed matrimony, imagining that it became him as a priest to do so. he fasted rigorously on fridays; and the neighbours declared that he scourged himself. mr oriel was, as it has been said, a man of fortune; that is to say, when he came of age he was master of thirty thousand pounds. when he took it into his head to go into the church, his friends bought for him the next presentation to the living at greshamsbury; and, a year after his ordination, the living falling in, mr oriel brought himself and his sister to the rectory. mr oriel soon became popular. he was a dark-haired, good-looking man, of polished manners, agreeable in society, not given to monkish austerities--except in the matter of fridays--nor yet to the low-church severity of demeanour. he was thoroughly a gentleman, good-humoured, inoffensive, and sociable. but he had one fault: he was not a marrying man. on this ground there was a feeling against him so strong as almost at one time to throw him into serious danger. it was not only that he should be sworn against matrimony in his individual self--he whom fate had made so able to sustain the weight of a wife and family; but what an example he was setting! if other clergymen all around should declare against wives and families, what was to become of the country? what was to be done in the rural districts? the religious observances, as regards women, of a brigham young were hardly so bad as this! there were around greshamsbury very many unmarried ladies--i believe there generally are so round most such villages. from the great house he did not receive much annoyance. beatrice was then only just on the verge of being brought out, and was not perhaps inclined to think very much of a young clergyman; and augusta certainly intended to fly at higher game. but there were the miss athelings, the daughters of a neighbouring clergyman, who were ready to go all lengths with him in high-church matters, except as that one tremendously papal step of celibacy; and the two miss hesterwells, of hesterwell park, the younger of whom boldly declared her purpose of civilising the savage; and mrs opie green, a very pretty widow, with a very pretty jointure, who lived in a very pretty house about a mile from greshamsbury, and who declared her opinion that mr oriel was quite right in his view of a clergyman's position. how could a woman, situated as she was, have the comfort of a clergyman's attention if he were to be regarded just as any other man? she could now know in what light to regard mr oriel, and would be able without scruple to avail herself of his zeal. so she did avail herself of his zeal,--and that without any scruple. and then there was miss gushing,--a young thing. miss gushing had a great advantage over the other competitors for the civilisation of mr oriel, namely, in this--that she was able to attend his morning services. if mr oriel was to be reached in any way, it was probable that he might be reached in this way. if anything could civilise him, this would do it. therefore, the young thing, through all one long, tedious winter, tore herself from her warm bed, and was to be seen--no, not seen, but heard--entering mr oriel's church at six o'clock. with indefatigable assiduity the responses were made, uttered from under a close bonnet, and out of a dark corner, in an enthusiastically feminine voice, through the whole winter. nor did miss gushing altogether fail in her object. when a clergyman's daily audience consists of but one person, and that person is a young lady, it is hardly possible that he should not become personally intimate with her; hardly possible that he should not be in some measure grateful. miss gushing's responses came from her with such fervour, and she begged for ghostly advice with such eager longing to have her scruples satisfied, that mr oriel had nothing for it but to give way to a certain amount of civilisation. by degrees it came to pass that miss gushing could never get her final prayer said, her shawl and boa adjusted, and stow away her nice new prayer-book with the red letters inside, and the cross on the back, till mr oriel had been into his vestry and got rid of his surplice. and then they met at the church-porch, and naturally walked together till mr oriel's cruel gateway separated them. the young thing did sometimes think that, as the parson's civilisation progressed, he might have taken the trouble to walk with her as far as mr yates umbleby's hall door; but she had hope to sustain her, and a firm resolve to merit success, even though she might not attain it. "is it not ten thousand pities," she once said to him, "that none here should avail themselves of the inestimable privilege which your coming has conferred upon us? oh, mr oriel, i do so wonder at it! to me it is so delightful! the morning service in the dark church is so beautiful, so touching!" "i suppose they think it is a bore getting up so early," said mr oriel. "ah, a bore!" said miss gushing, in an enthusiastic tone of depreciation. "how insensate they must be! to me it gives a new charm to life. it quiets one for the day; makes one so much fitter for one's daily trials and daily troubles. does it not, mr oriel?" "i look upon morning prayer as an imperative duty, certainly." "oh, certainly, a most imperative duty; but so delicious at the same time. i spoke to mrs umbleby about it, but she said she could not leave the children." "no: i dare say not," said mr oriel. "and mr umbleby said his business kept him up so late at night." "very probably. i hardly expect the attendance of men of business." "but the servants might come, mightn't they, mr oriel?" "i fear that servants seldom can have time for daily prayers in church." "oh, ah, no; perhaps not." and then miss gushing began to bethink herself of whom should be composed the congregation which it must be presumed that mr oriel wished to see around him. but on this matter he did not enlighten her. then miss gushing took to fasting on fridays, and made some futile attempts to induce her priest to give her the comfort of confessional absolution. but, unfortunately, the zeal of the master waxed cool as that of the pupil waxed hot; and, at last, when the young thing returned to greshamsbury from an autumn excursion which she had made with mrs umbleby to weston-super-mare, she found that the delicious morning services had died a natural death. miss gushing did not on that account give up the game, but she was bound to fight with no particular advantage in her favour. miss oriel, though a good churchwoman, was by no means a convert to her brother's extremist views, and perhaps gave but scanty credit to the gushings, athelings, and opie greens for the sincerity of their religion. but, nevertheless, she and her brother were staunch friends; and she still hoped to see the day when he might be induced to think that an english parson might get through his parish work with the assistance of a wife better than he could do without such feminine encumbrance. the girl whom she selected for his bride was not the young thing, but beatrice gresham. and at last it seemed probable to mr oriel's nearest friends that he was in a fair way to be overcome. not that he had begun to make love to beatrice, or committed himself by the utterance of any opinion as to the propriety of clerical marriages; but he daily became looser about his peculiar tenets, raved less immoderately than heretofore as to the atrocity of the greshamsbury church pews, and was observed to take some opportunities of conversing alone with beatrice. beatrice had always denied the imputation--this had usually been made by mary in their happy days--with vehement asseverations of anger; and miss gushing had tittered, and expressed herself as supposing that great people's daughters might be as barefaced as they pleased. all this had happened previous to the great greshamsbury feud. mr oriel gradually got himself into a way of sauntering up to the great house, sauntering into the drawing-room for the purpose, as i am sure he thought, of talking to lady arabella, and then of sauntering home again, having usually found an opportunity for saying a few words to beatrice during the visit. this went on all through the feud up to the period of lady arabella's illness; and then one morning, about a month before the date fixed for frank's return, mr oriel found himself engaged to miss beatrice gresham. from the day that miss gushing heard of it--which was not however for some considerable time after this--she became an independent methodist. she could no longer, she said at first, have any faith in any religion; and for an hour or so she was almost tempted to swear that she could no longer have any faith in any man. she had nearly completed a worked cover for a credence-table when the news reached her, as to which, in the young enthusiasm of her heart, she had not been able to remain silent; it had already been promised to mr oriel; that promise she swore should not be kept. he was an apostate, she said, from his principles; an utter pervert; a false, designing man, with whom she would never have trusted herself alone on dark mornings had she known that he had such grovelling, worldly inclinations. so miss gushing became an independent methodist; the credence-table covering was cut up into slippers for the preacher's feet; and the young thing herself, more happy in this direction than she had been in the other, became the arbiter of that preacher's domestic happiness. but this little history of miss gushing's future life is premature. mr oriel became engaged demurely, nay, almost silently, to beatrice, and no one out of their own immediate families was at the time informed of the matter. it was arranged very differently from those two other matches--embryo, or not embryo, those, namely, of augusta with mr moffat, and frank with mary thorne. all barsetshire had heard of them; but that of beatrice and mr oriel was managed in a much more private manner. "i do think you are a happy girl," said patience to her one morning. "indeed i am." "he is so good. you don't know how good he is as yet; he never thinks of himself, and thinks so much of those he loves." beatrice took her friend's hand in her own and kissed it. she was full of joy. when a girl is about to be married, when she may lawfully talk of her love, there is no music in her ears so sweet as the praises of her lover. "i made up my mind from the first that he should marry you." "nonsense, patience." "i did, indeed. i made up my mind that he should marry; and there were only two to choose from." "me and miss gushing," said beatrice, laughing. "no; not exactly miss gushing. i had not many fears for caleb there." "i declare she's very pretty," said beatrice, who could afford to be good-natured. now miss gushing certainly was pretty; and would have been very pretty had her nose not turned up so much, and could she have parted her hair in the centre. "well, i am very glad you chose me;--if it was you who chose," said beatrice, modestly; having, however, in her own mind a strong opinion that mr oriel had chosen for himself, and had never had any doubt in the matter. "and who was the other?" "can't you guess?" "i won't guess any more; perhaps mrs green." "oh, no; certainly not a widow. i don't like widows marrying. but of course you could guess if you would; of course it was mary thorne. but i soon saw mary would not do, for two reasons; caleb would never have liked her well enough nor would she ever have liked him." "not like him! oh i hope she will; i do so love mary thorne." "so do i, dearly; and so does caleb; but he could never have loved her as he loves you." "but, patience, have you told mary?" "no, i have told no one, and shall not without your leave." "ah, you must tell her. tell it her with my best, and kindest, warmest love. tell her how happy i am, and how i long to talk to her. tell that i will have her for my bridesmaid. oh! i do hope that before that all this horrid quarrel will be settled." patience undertook the commission, and did tell mary; did give her also the message which beatrice had sent. and mary was rejoiced to hear it; for though, as patience had said of her, she had never herself felt any inclination to fall in love with mr oriel, she believed him to be one in whose hands her friend's happiness would be secure. then, by degrees, the conversation changed from the loves of mr oriel and beatrice to the troubles of frank gresham and herself. "she says, that let what will happen you shall be one of her bridesmaids." "ah, yes, dear trichy! that was settled between us in auld lang syne; but those settlements are all unsettled now, must all be broken. no, i cannot be her bridesmaid; but i shall yet hope to see her once before her marriage." "and why not be her bridesmaid? lady arabella will hardly object to that." "lady arabella!" said mary, curling her lip with deep scorn. "i do not care that for lady arabella," and she let her silver thimble fall from her fingers on to the table. "if beatrice invited me to her wedding, she might manage as to that; i should ask no question as to lady arabella." "then why not come to it?" she remained silent for a while, and then boldly answered. "though i do not care for lady arabella, i do care for mr gresham:--and i do care for his son." "but the squire always loved you." "yes, and therefore i will not be there to vex his sight. i will tell you the truth, patience. i can never be in that house again till frank gresham is a married man, or till i am about to be a married woman. i do not think they have treated me well, but i will not treat them ill." "i am sure you will not do that," said miss oriel. "i will endeavour not to do so; and, therefore, will go to none of their fêtes! no, patience." and then she turned her head to the arm of the sofa, and silently, without audible sobs, hiding her face, she endeavoured to get rid of her tears unseen. for one moment she had all but resolved to pour out the whole truth of her love into her friend's ears; but suddenly she changed her mind. why should she talk of her own unhappiness? why should she speak of her own love when she was fully determined not to speak of frank's promises. "mary, dear mary." "anything but pity, patience; anything but that," said she, convulsively, swallowing down her sobs, and rubbing away her tears. "i cannot bear that. tell beatrice from me, that i wish her every happiness; and, with such a husband, i am sure she will be happy. i wish her every joy; give her my kindest love; but tell her i cannot be at her marriage. oh, i should so like to see her; not there, you know, but here, in my own room, where i still have liberty to speak." "but why should you decide now? she is not to be married yet, you know." "now, or this day twelvemonth, can make no difference. i will not go into that house again, unless--but never mind; i will not go into it all; never, never again. if i could forgive her for myself, i could not forgive her for my uncle. but tell me, patience, might not beatrice now come here? it is so dreadful to see her every sunday in church and never to speak to her, never to kiss her. she seems to look away from me as though she too had chosen to quarrel with me." miss oriel promised to do her best. she could not imagine, she said, that such a visit could be objected to on such an occasion. she would not advise beatrice to come without telling her mother; but she could not think that lady arabella would be so cruel as to make any objection, knowing, as she could not but know, that her daughter, when married, would be at liberty to choose her own friends. "good-bye, mary," said patience. "i wish i knew how to say more to comfort you." "oh, comfort! i don't want comfort. i want to be let alone." "that's just it: you are so ferocious in your scorn, so unbending, so determined to take all the punishment that comes in your way." "what i do take, i'll take without complaint," said mary; and then they kissed each other and parted. chapter xxxiii a morning visit it must be remembered that mary, among her miseries, had to suffer this: that since frank's departure, now nearly twelve months ago, she had not heard a word about him; or rather, she had only heard that he was very much in love with some lady in london. this news reached her in a manner so circuitous, and from such a doubtful source; it seemed to her to savour so strongly of lady arabella's precautions, that she attributed it at once to malice, and blew it to the winds. it might not improbably be the case that frank was untrue to her; but she would not take it for granted because she was now told so. it was more than probable that he should amuse himself with some one; flirting was his prevailing sin; and if he did flirt, the most would of course be made of it. but she found it to be very desolate to be thus left alone without a word of comfort or a word of love; without being able to speak to any one of what filled her heart; doubting, nay, more than doubting, being all but sure that her passion must terminate in misery. why had she not obeyed her conscience and her better instinct in that moment when the necessity for deciding had come upon her? why had she allowed him to understand that he was master of her heart? did she not know that there was everything against such a marriage as that which he proposed? had she not done wrong, very wrong, even to think of it? had she not sinned deeply, against mr gresham, who had ever been so kind to her? could she hope, was it possible, that a boy like frank should be true to his first love? and, if he were true, if he were ready to go to the altar with her to-morrow, ought she to allow him to degrade himself by such a marriage? there was, alas! some truth about the london lady. frank had taken his degree, as arranged, and had then gone abroad for the winter, doing the fashionable things, going up the nile, crossing over to mount sinai, thence over the long desert to jerusalem, and home by damascus, beyrout, and constantinople, bringing back a long beard, a red cap, and a chibook, just as our fathers used to go through italy and switzerland, and our grandfathers to spend a season in paris. he had then remained for a couple of months in london, going through all the society which the de courcys were able to open to him. and it was true that a certain belle of the season, of that season and some others, had been captivated--for the tenth time--by the silken sheen of his long beard. frank had probably been more demonstrative, perhaps even more susceptible, than he should have been; and hence the rumour, which had all too willingly been forwarded to greshamsbury. but young gresham had also met another lady in london, namely miss dunstable. mary would indeed have been grateful to miss dunstable, could she have known all that lady did for her. frank's love was never allowed to flag. when he spoke of the difficulties in his way, she twitted him by being overcome by straws; and told him that no one was worth having who was afraid of every lion that he met in his path. when he spoke of money, she bade him earn it; and always ended by offering to smooth for him any real difficulty which want of means might put in his way. "no," frank used to say to himself, when these offers were made, "i never intended to take her and her money together; and, therefore, i certainly will never take the money alone." a day or two after miss oriel's visit, mary received the following note from beatrice. dearest, dearest mary, i shall be so happy to see you, and will come to-morrow at twelve. i have asked mamma, and she says that, for once, she has no objection. you know it is not my fault that i have never been with you; don't you? frank comes home on the th. mr oriel wants the wedding to be on the st of september; but that seems to be so very, very soon; doesn't it? however, mamma and papa are all on his side. i won't write about this, though, for we shall have such a delicious talk. oh, mary! i have been so unhappy without you. ever your own affectionate, trichy monday. though mary was delighted at the idea of once more having her friend in her arms, there was, nevertheless, something in this letter which oppressed her. she could not put up with the idea that beatrice should have permission given to come to her--just for once. she hardly wished to be seen by permission. nevertheless, she did not refuse the proffered visit, and the first sight of beatrice's face, the first touch of the first embrace, dissipated for the moment all her anger. and then beatrice fully enjoyed the delicious talk which she had promised herself. mary let her have her way, and for two hours all the delights and all the duties, all the comforts and all the responsibilities of a parson's wife were discussed with almost equal ardour on both sides. the duties and responsibilities were not exactly those which too often fall to the lot of the mistress of an english vicarage. beatrice was not doomed to make her husband comfortable, to educate her children, dress herself like a lady, and exercise open-handed charity on an income of two hundred pounds a year. her duties and responsibilities would have to spread themselves over seven or eight times that amount of worldly burden. living also close to greshamsbury, and not far from courcy castle, she would have the full advantages and all the privileges of county society. in fact, it was all _couleur de rose_, and so she chatted deliciously with her friend. but it was impossible that they should separate without something having been said as to mary's own lot. it would, perhaps, have been better that they should do so; but this was hardly within the compass of human nature. "and mary, you know, i shall be able to see you as often as i like;--you and dr thorne, too, when i have a house of my own." mary said nothing, but essayed to smile. it was but a ghastly attempt. "you know how happy that will make me," continued beatrice. "of course mamma won't expect me to be led by her then: if he likes it, there can be no objection; and he will like it, you may be sure of that." "you are very kind, trichy," said mary; but she spoke in a tone very different from that she would have used eighteen months ago. "why, what is the matter, mary? shan't you be glad to come to see us?" "i do not know, dearest; that must depend on circumstances. to see you, you yourself, your own dear, sweet, loving face must always be pleasant to me." "and shan't you be glad to see him?" "yes, certainly, if he loves you." "of course he loves me." "all that alone would be pleasant enough, trichy. but what if there should be circumstances which should still make us enemies; should make your friends and my friends--friend, i should say, for i have only one--should make them opposed to each other?" "circumstances! what circumstances?" "you are going to be married, trichy, to the man you love; are you not?" "indeed, i am!" "and it is not pleasant? is it not a happy feeling?" "pleasant! happy! yes, very pleasant; very happy. but, mary, i am not at all in such a hurry as he is," said beatrice, naturally thinking of her own little affairs. "and, suppose i should wish to be married to the man that i love?" mary said this slowly and gravely, and as she spoke she looked her friend full in the face. beatrice was somewhat astonished, and for the moment hardly understood. "i am sure i hope you will, some day." "no, trichy; no, you hope the other way. i love your brother; i love frank gresham; i love him quite as well, quite as warmly, as you love caleb oriel." "do you?" said beatrice, staring with all her eyes, and giving one long sigh, as this new subject for sorrow was so distinctly put before her. "it that so odd?" said mary. "you love mr oriel, though you have been intimate with him hardly more than two years. is it so odd that i should love your brother, whom i have known almost all my life?" "but, mary, i thought it was always understood between us that--that--i mean that you were not to care about him; not in the way of loving him, you know--i thought you always said so--i have always told mamma so as if it came from yourself." "beatrice, do not tell anything to lady arabella as though it came from me; i do not want anything to be told to her, either of me or from me. say what you like to me yourself; whatever you say will not anger me. indeed, i know what you would say--and yet i love you. oh, i love you, trichy--trichy, i do love you so much! don't turn away from me!" there was such a mixture in mary's manner of tenderness and almost ferocity, that poor beatrice could hardly follow her. "turn away from you, mary! no never; but this does make me unhappy." "it is better that you should know it all, and then you will not be led into fighting my battles again. you cannot fight them so that i should win; i do love your brother; love him truly, fondly, tenderly. i would wish to have him for my husband as you wish to have mr oriel." "but, mary, you cannot marry him!" "why not?" said she, in a loud voice. "why can i not marry him? if the priest says a blessing over us, shall we not be married as well as you and your husband?" "but you know he cannot marry unless his wife shall have money." "money--money; and he is to sell himself for money? oh, trichy! do not you talk about money. it is horrible. but, trichy, i will grant it--i cannot marry him; but still, i love him. he has a name, a place in the world, and fortune, family, high blood, position, everything. he has all this, and i have nothing. of course i cannot marry him. but yet i do love him." "are you engaged to him, mary?" "he is not engaged to me; but i am to him." "oh, mary, that is impossible!" "it is not impossible: it is the case--i am pledged to him; but he is not pledged to me." "but, mary, don't look at me in that way. i do not quite understand you. what is the good of your being engaged if you cannot marry him?" "good! there is no good. but can i help it, if i love him? can i make myself not love him by just wishing it? oh, i would do it if i could. but now you will understand why i shake my head when you talk of my coming to your house. your ways and my ways must be different." beatrice was startled, and, for a time, silenced. what mary said of the difference of their ways was quite true. beatrice had dearly loved her friend, and had thought of her with affection through all this long period in which they had been separated; but she had given her love and her thoughts on the understanding, as it were, that they were in unison as to the impropriety of frank's conduct. she had always spoken, with a grave face, of frank and his love as of a great misfortune, even to mary herself; and her pity for mary had been founded on the conviction of her innocence. now all those ideas had to be altered. mary owned her fault, confessed herself to be guilty of all that lady arabella so frequently laid to her charge, and confessed herself anxious to commit every crime as to which beatrice had been ever so ready to defend her. had beatrice up to this dreamed that mary was in love with frank, she would doubtless have sympathised with her more or less, sooner or later. as it was, it was beyond all doubt that she would soon sympathise with her. but, at the moment, the suddenness of the declaration seemed to harden her heart, and she forgot, as it were, to speak tenderly to her friend. she was silent, therefore, and dismayed; and looked as though she thought that her ways and mary's ways must be different. mary saw all that was passing in the other's mind: no, not all; all the hostility, the disappointment, the disapproval, the unhappiness, she did see; but not the under-current of love, which was strong enough to well up and drown all these, if only time could be allowed for it to do so. "i am glad i have told you," said mary, curbing herself, "for deceit and hypocrisy are detestable." "it was a misunderstanding, not deceit," said beatrice. "well, now we understand each other; now you know that i have a heart within me, which like those of some others has not always been under my own control. lady arabella believes that i am intriguing to be the mistress of greshamsbury. you, at any rate, will not think that of me. if it could be discovered to-morrow that frank were not the heir, i might have some chance of happiness." "but, mary--" "well?" "you say you love him." "yes; i do say so." "but if he does not love you, will you cease to do so?" "if i have a fever, i will get rid of it if i can; in such case i must do so, or die." "i fear," continued beatrice, "you hardly know, perhaps do not think, what is frank's real character. he is not made to settle down early in life; even now, i believe he is attached to some lady in london, whom, of course, he cannot marry." beatrice said this in perfect trueness of heart. she had heard of frank's new love-affair, and believing what she had heard, thought it best to tell the truth. but the information was not of a kind to quiet mary's spirit. "very well," said she, "let it be so. i have nothing to say against it." "but are you not preparing wretchedness and unhappiness for yourself?" "very likely." "oh, mary, do not be so cold with me! you know how delighted i should be to have you for a sister-in-law, if only it were possible." "yes, trichy; but it is impossible, is it not? impossible that francis gresham of greshamsbury should disgrace himself by marrying such a poor creature as i am. of course, i know it; of course, i am prepared for unhappiness and misery. he can amuse himself as he likes with me or others--with anybody. it is his privilege. it is quite enough to say that he is not made for settling down. i know my own position;--and yet i love him." "but, mary, has he asked you to be his wife? if so--" "you ask home-questions, beatrice. let me ask you one; has he ever told you that he has done so?" at this moment beatrice was not disposed to repeat all that frank had said. a year ago, before he went away, he had told his sister a score of times that he meant to marry mary thorne if she would have him; but beatrice now looked on all that as idle, boyish vapouring. the pity was, that mary should have looked on it differently. "we will each keep our secret," said mary. "only remember this: should frank marry to-morrow, i shall have no ground for blaming him. he is free as far i as am concerned. he can take the london lady if he likes. you may tell him so from me. but, trichy, what else i have told you, i have told you only." "oh, yes!" said beatrice, sadly; "i shall say nothing of it to anybody. it is very sad, very, very; i was so happy when i came here, and now i am so wretched." this was the end of that delicious talk to which she had looked forward with so much eagerness. "don't be wretched about me, dearest; i shall get through it. i sometimes think i was born to be unhappy, and that unhappiness agrees with me best. kiss me now, trichy, and don't be wretched any more. you owe it to mr oriel to be as happy as the day is long." and then they parted. beatrice, as she went out, saw dr thorne in his little shop on the right-hand side of the passage, deeply engaged in some derogatory branch of an apothecary's mechanical trade; mixing a dose, perhaps, for a little child. she would have passed him without speaking if she could have been sure of doing so without notice, for her heart was full, and her eyes were red with tears; but it was so long since she had been in his house that she was more than ordinarily anxious not to appear uncourteous or unkind to him. "good morning, doctor," she said, changing her countenance as best she might, and attempting a smile. "ah, my fairy!" said he, leaving his villainous compounds, and coming out to her; "and you, too, are about to become a steady old lady." "indeed, i am not, doctor; i don't mean to be either steady or old for the next ten years. but who has told you? i suppose mary has been a traitor." "well, i will confess, mary was the traitor. but hadn't i a right to be told, seeing how often i have brought you sugar-plums in my pocket? but i wish you joy with all my heart,--with all my heart. oriel is an excellent, good fellow." "is he not, doctor?" "an excellent, good fellow. i never heard but of one fault that he had." "what was that one fault, doctor thorne?" "he thought that clergymen should not marry. but you have cured that, and now he's perfect." "thank you, doctor. i declare that you say the prettiest things of all my friends." "and none of your friends wish prettier things for you. i do congratulate you, beatrice, and hope you may be happy with the man you have chosen;" and taking both her hands in his, he pressed them warmly, and bade god bless her. "oh, doctor! i do so hope the time will come when we shall all be friends again." "i hope it as well, my dear. but let it come, or let it not come, my regard for you will be the same:" and then she parted from him also, and went her way. nothing was spoken of that evening between dr thorne and his niece excepting beatrice's future happiness; nothing, at least, having reference to what had passed that morning. but on the following morning circumstances led to frank gresham's name being mentioned. at the usual breakfast-hour the doctor entered the parlour with a harassed face. he had an open letter in his hand, and it was at once clear to mary that he was going to speak on some subject that vexed him. "that unfortunate fellow is again in trouble. here is a letter from greyson." greyson was a london apothecary, who had been appointed as medical attendant to sir louis scatcherd, and whose real business consisted in keeping a watch on the baronet, and reporting to dr thorne when anything was very much amiss. "here is a letter from greyson; he has been drunk for the last three days, and is now laid up in a terribly nervous state." "you won't go up to town again; will you, uncle?" "i hardly know what to do. no, i think not. he talks of coming down here to greshamsbury." "who, sir louis?" "yes, sir louis. greyson says that he will be down as soon as he can get out of his room." "what! to this house?" "what other house can he come to?" "oh, uncle! i hope not. pray, pray do not let him come here." "i cannot prevent it, my dear. i cannot shut my door on him." they sat down to breakfast, and mary gave him his tea in silence. "i am going over to boxall hill before dinner," said he. "have you any message to send to lady scatcherd?" "message! no, i have no message; not especially: give her my love, of course," she said listlessly. and then, as though a thought had suddenly struck her, she spoke with more energy. "but, couldn't i go to boxall hill again? i should be so delighted." "what! to run away from sir louis? no, dearest, we will have no more running away. he will probably also go to boxall hill, and he could annoy you much more there than he can here." "but, uncle, mr gresham will be home on the th," she said, blushing. "what! frank?" "yes. beatrice said he was to be here on the th." "and would you run away from him too, mary?" "i do not know: i do not know what to do." "no; we will have no more running away: i am sorry that you ever did so. it was my fault, altogether my fault; but it was foolish." "uncle, i am not happy here." as she said this, she put down the cup which she had held, and, leaning her elbows on the table, rested her forehead on her hands. "and would you be happier at boxall hill? it is not the place makes the happiness." "no, i know that; it is not the place. i do not look to be happy in any place; but i should be quieter, more tranquil elsewhere than here." "i also sometimes think that it will be better for us to take up our staves and walk away out of greshamsbury;--leave it altogether, and settle elsewhere; miles, miles, miles away from here. should you like that, dearest?" miles, miles, miles away from greshamsbury! there was something in the sound that fell very cold on mary's ears, unhappy as she was. greshamsbury had been so dear to her; in spite of all that had passed, was still so dear to her! was she prepared to take up her staff, as her uncle said, and walk forth from the place with the full understanding that she was to return to it no more; with a mind resolved that there should be an inseparable gulf between her and its inhabitants? such she knew was the proposed nature of the walking away of which her uncle spoke. so she sat there, resting on her arms, and gave no answer to the question that had been asked her. "no, we will stay a while yet," said her uncle. "it may come to that, but this is not the time. for one season longer let us face--i will not say our enemies; i cannot call anybody my enemy who bears the name of gresham." and then he went on for a moment with his breakfast. "so frank will be here on the th?" "yes, uncle." "well, dearest, i have no questions to ask you: no directions to give. i know how good you are, and how prudent; i am anxious only for your happiness; not at all--" "happiness, uncle, is out of the question." "i hope not. it is never out of the question, never can be out of the question. but, as i was saying, i am quite satisfied your conduct will be good, and, therefore, i have no questions to ask. we will remain here; and, whether good or evil come, we will not be ashamed to show our faces." she sat for a while again silent, collecting her courage on the subject that was nearest her heart. she would have given the world that he should ask her questions; but she could not bid him to do so; and she found it impossible to talk openly to him about frank unless he did so. "will he come here?" at last she said, in a low-toned voice. "who? he, louis? yes, i think that in all probability he will." "no; but frank," she said, in a still lower voice. "ah! my darling, that i cannot tell; but will it be well that he should come here?" "i do not know," she said. "no, i suppose not. but, uncle, i don't think he will come." she was now sitting on a sofa away from the table, and he got up, sat down beside her, and took her hands in his. "mary," said he, "you must be strong now; strong to endure, not to attack. i think you have that strength; but, if not, perhaps it will be better that we should go away." "i will be strong," said she, rising up and going towards the door. "never mind me, uncle; don't follow me; i will be strong. it will be base, cowardly, mean, to run away; very base in me to make you do so." "no, dearest, not so; it will be the same to me." "no," said she, "i will not run away from lady arabella. and, as for him--if he loves this other one, he shall hear no reproach from me. uncle, i will be strong;" and running back to him, she threw her arms round him and kissed him. and, still restraining her tears, she got safely to her bedroom. in what way she may there have shown her strength, it would not be well for us to inquire. chapter xxxiv a barouche and four arrives at greshamsbury during the last twelve months sir louis scatcherd had been very efficacious in bringing trouble, turmoil, and vexation upon greshamsbury. now that it was too late to take steps to save himself, dr thorne found that the will left by sir roger was so made as to entail upon him duties that he would find it almost impossible to perform. sir louis, though his father had wished to make him still a child in the eye of the law, was no child. he knew his own rights and was determined to exact them; and before sir roger had been dead three months, the doctor found himself in continual litigation with a low barchester attorney, who was acting on behalf of his, the doctor's, own ward. and if the doctor suffered so did the squire, and so did those who had hitherto had the management of the squire's affairs. dr thorne soon perceived that he was to be driven into litigation, not only with mr finnie, the barchester attorney, but with the squire himself. while finnie harassed him, he was compelled to harass mr gresham. he was no lawyer himself; and though he had been able to manage very well between the squire and sir roger, and had perhaps given himself some credit for his lawyer-like ability in so doing, he was utterly unable to manage between sir louis and mr gresham. he had, therefore, to employ a lawyer on his own account, and it seemed probable that the whole amount of sir roger's legacy to himself would by degrees be expended in this manner. and then, the squire's lawyers had to take up the matter; and they did so greatly to the detriment of poor mr yates umbleby, who was found to have made a mess of the affairs entrusted to him. mr umbleby's accounts were incorrect; his mind was anything but clear, and he confessed, when put to it by the very sharp gentleman that came down from london, that he was "bothered;" and so, after a while, he was suspended from his duties, and mr gazebee, the sharp gentleman from london, reigned over the diminished rent-roll of the greshamsbury estate. thus everything was going wrong at greshamsbury--with the one exception of mr oriel and his love-suit. miss gushing attributed the deposition of mr umbleby to the narrowness of the victory which beatrice had won in carrying off mr oriel. for miss gushing was a relation of the umblebys, and had been for many years one of their family. "if she had only chosen to exert herself as miss gresham had done, she could have had mr oriel, easily; oh, too easily! but she had despised such work," so she said. "but though she had despised it, the greshams had not been less irritated, and, therefore, mr umbleby had been driven out of his house." we can hardly believe this, as victory generally makes men generous. miss gushing, however, stated it as a fact so often that it is probable she was induced to believe it herself. thus everything was going wrong at greshamsbury, and the squire himself was especially a sufferer. umbleby had at any rate been his own man, and he could do what he liked with him. he could see him when he liked, and where he liked, and how he liked; could scold him if in an ill-humour, and laugh at him when in a good humour. all this mr umbleby knew, and bore. but mr gazebee was a very different sort of gentleman; he was the junior partner in the firm of gumption, gazebee & gazebee, of mount street, a house that never defiled itself with any other business than the agency business, and that in the very highest line. they drew out leases, and managed property both for the duke of omnium and lord de courcy; and ever since her marriage, it had been one of the objects dearest to lady arabella's heart, that the greshamsbury acres should be superintended by the polite skill and polished legal ability of that all but elegant firm in mount street. the squire had long stood firm, and had delighted in having everything done under his own eye by poor mr yates umbleby. but now, alas! he could stand it no longer. he had put off the evil day as long as he could; he had deferred the odious work of investigation till things had seemed resolved on investigating themselves; and then, when it was absolutely necessary that mr umbleby should go, there was nothing for him left but to fall into the ready hands of messrs gumption, gazebee and gazebee. it must not be supposed that messrs gumption, gazebee & gazebee were in the least like the ordinary run of attorneys. they wrote no letters for six-and-eightpence each: they collected no debts, filed no bills, made no charge per folio for "whereases" and "as aforesaids;" they did no dirty work, and probably were as ignorant of the interior of a court of law as any young lady living in their mayfair vicinity. no; their business was to manage the property of great people, draw up leases, make legal assignments, get the family marriage settlements made, and look after wills. occasionally, also, they had to raise money; but it was generally understood that this was done by proxy. the firm had been going on for a hundred and fifty years, and the designation had often been altered; but it always consisted of gumptions and gazebees differently arranged, and no less hallowed names had ever been permitted to appear. it had been gazebee, gazebee & gumption; then gazebee & gumption; then gazebee, gumption & gumption; then gumption, gumption & gazebee; and now it was gumption, gazebee & gazebee. mr gazebee, the junior member of this firm, was a very elegant young man. while looking at him riding in rotten row, you would hardly have taken him for an attorney; and had he heard that you had so taken him, he would have been very much surprised indeed. he was rather bald; not being, as people say, quite so young as he was once. his exact age was thirty-eight. but he had a really remarkable pair of jet-black whiskers, which fully made up for any deficiency as to his head; he had also dark eyes, and a beaked nose, what may be called a distinguished mouth, and was always dressed in fashionable attire. the fact was, that mr mortimer gazebee, junior partner in the firm gumption, gazebee & gazebee, by no means considered himself to be made of that very disagreeable material which mortals call small beer. when this great firm was applied to, to get mr gresham through his difficulties, and when the state of his affairs was made known to them, they at first expressed rather a disinclination for the work. but at last, moved doubtless by their respect for the de courcy interest, they assented; and mr gazebee, junior, went down to greshamsbury. the poor squire passed many a sad day after that before he again felt himself to be master even of his own domain. nevertheless, when mr mortimer gazebee visited greshamsbury, which he did on more than one or two occasions, he was always received _en grand seigneur_. to lady arabella he was by no means an unwelcome guest, for she found herself able, for the first time in her life, to speak confidentially on her husband's pecuniary affairs with the man who had the management of her husband's property. mr gazebee also was a pet with lady de courcy; and being known to be a fashionable man in london, and quite a different sort of person from poor mr umbleby, he was always received with smiles. he had a hundred little ways of making himself agreeable, and augusta declared to her cousin, the lady amelia, after having been acquainted with him for a few months, that he would be a perfect gentleman, only, that his family had never been anything but attorneys. the lady amelia smiled in her own peculiarly aristocratic way, shrugged her shoulders slightly, and said, "that mr mortimer gazebee was a very good sort of a person, very." poor augusta felt herself snubbed, thinking perhaps of the tailor's son; but as there was never any appeal against the lady amelia, she said nothing more at that moment in favour of mr mortimer gazebee. all these evils--mr mortimer gazebee being the worst of them--had sir louis scatcherd brought down on the poor squire's head. there may be those who will say that the squire had brought them on himself, by running into debt; and so, doubtless, he had; but it was not the less true that the baronet's interference was unnecessary, vexatious, and one might almost say, malicious. his interest would have been quite safe in the doctor's hands, and he had, in fact, no legal right to meddle; but neither the doctor nor the squire could prevent him. mr finnie knew very well what he was about, if sir louis did not; and so the three went on, each with his own lawyer, and each of them distrustful, unhappy, and ill at ease. this was hard upon the doctor, for he was not in debt, and had borrowed no money. there was not much reason to suppose that the visit of sir louis to greshamsbury would much improve matters. it must be presumed that he was not coming with any amicable views, but with the object rather of looking after his own; a phrase which was now constantly in his mouth. he might probably find it necessary while looking after his own at greshamsbury, to say some very disagreeable things to the squire; and the doctor, therefore, hardly expected that the visit would go off pleasantly. when last we saw sir louis, now nearly twelve months since, he was intent on making a proposal of marriage to miss thorne. this intention he carried out about two days after frank gresham had done the same thing. he had delayed doing so till he had succeeded in purchasing his friend jenkins's arab pony, imagining that such a present could not but go far in weaning mary's heart from her other lover. poor mary was put to the trouble of refusing both the baronet and the pony, and a very bad time she had of it while doing so. sir louis was a man easily angered, and not very easily pacified, and mary had to endure a good deal of annoyance; from any other person, indeed, she would have called it impertinence. sir louis, however, had to bear his rejection as best he could, and, after a perseverance of three days, returned to london in disgust; and mary had not seen him since. mr greyson's first letter was followed by a second; and the second was followed by the baronet in person. he also required to be received _en grand seigneur_, perhaps more imperatively than mr mortimer gazebee himself. he came with four posters from the barchester station, and had himself rattled up to the doctor's door in a way that took the breath away from all greshamsbury. why! the squire himself for a many long year had been contented to come home with a pair of horses; and four were never seen in the place, except when the de courcys came to greshamsbury, or lady arabella with all her daughters returned from her hard-fought metropolitan campaigns. sir louis, however, came with four, and very arrogant he looked, leaning back in the barouche belonging to the george and dragon, and wrapped up in fur, although it was now midsummer. and up in the dicky behind was a servant, more arrogant, if possible, than his master--the baronet's own man, who was the object of dr thorne's special detestation and disgust. he was a little fellow, chosen originally on account of his light weight on horseback; but if that may be considered a merit, it was the only one he had. his out-door show dress was a little tight frock-coat, round which a polished strap was always buckled tightly, a stiff white choker, leather breeches, top-boots, and a hat, with a cockade, stuck on one side of his head. his name was jonah, which his master and his master's friends shortened into joe; none, however, but those who were very intimate with his master were allowed to do so with impunity. this joe was dr thorne's special aversion. in his anxiety to take every possible step to keep sir louis from poisoning himself, he had at first attempted to enlist the baronet's "own man" in the cause. joe had promised fairly, but had betrayed the doctor at once, and had become the worst instrument of his master's dissipation. when, therefore, his hat and the cockade were seen, as the carriage dashed up to the door, the doctor's contentment was by no means increased. sir louis was now twenty-three years old, and was a great deal too knowing to allow himself to be kept under the doctor's thumb. it had, indeed, become his plan to rebel against his guardian in almost everything. he had at first been decently submissive, with the view of obtaining increased supplies of ready money; but he had been sharp enough to perceive that, let his conduct be what it would, the doctor would keep him out of debt; but that the doing so took so large a sum that he could not hope for any further advances. in this respect sir louis was perhaps more keen-witted than dr thorne. mary, when she saw the carriage, at once ran up to her own bedroom. the doctor, who had been with her in the drawing-room, went down to meet his ward, but as soon as he saw the cockade he darted almost involuntarily into his shop and shut the door. this protection, however, lasted only for a moment; he felt that decency required him to meet his guest, and so he went forth and faced the enemy. "i say," said joe, speaking to janet, who stood curtsying at the gate, with bridget, the other maid, behind her, "i say, are there any chaps about the place to take these things--eh? come, look sharp here." it so happened that the doctor's groom was not on the spot, and "other chaps" the doctor had none. "take those things, bridget," he said, coming forward and offering his hand to the baronet. sir louis, when he saw his host, roused himself slowly from the back of his carriage. "how do, doctor?" said he. "what terrible bad roads you have here! and, upon my word, it's as cold as winter:" and, so saying, he slowly proceeded to descend. sir louis was a year older than when we last saw him, and, in his generation, a year wiser. he had then been somewhat humble before the doctor; but now he was determined to let his guardian see that he knew how to act the baronet; that he had acquired the manners of a great man; and that he was not to be put upon. he had learnt some lessons from jenkins, in london, and other friends of the same sort, and he was about to profit by them. the doctor showed him to his room, and then proceeded to ask after his health. "oh, i'm right enough," said sir louis. "you mustn't believe all that fellow greyson tells you: he wants me to take salts and senna, opodeldoc, and all that sort of stuff; looks after his bill, you know--eh? like all the rest of you. but i won't have it;--not at any price; and then he writes to you." "i'm glad to see you able to travel," said dr thorne, who could not force himself to tell his guest that he was glad to see him at greshamsbury. "oh, travel; yes, i can travel well enough. but i wish you had some better sort of trap down in these country parts. i'm shaken to bits. and, doctor, would you tell your people to send that fellow of mine up here with hot water." so dismissed, the doctor went his way, and met joe swaggering in one of the passages, while janet and her colleague dragged along between them a heavy article of baggage. "janet," said he, "go downstairs and get sir louis some hot water, and joe, do you take hold of your master's portmanteau." joe sulkily did as he was bid. "seems to me," said he, turning to the girl, and speaking before the doctor was out of hearing, "seems to me, my dear, you be rather short-handed here; lots of work and nothing to get; that's about the ticket, ain't it?" bridget was too demurely modest to make any answer upon so short an acquaintance; so, putting her end of the burden down at the strange gentleman's door, she retreated into the kitchen. sir louis, in answer to the doctor's inquiries, had declared himself to be all right; but his appearance was anything but all right. twelve months since, a life of dissipation, or rather, perhaps, a life of drinking, had not had upon him so strong an effect but that some of the salt of youth was still left; some of the freshness of young years might still be seen in his face. but this was now all gone; his eyes were sunken and watery, his cheeks were hollow and wan, his mouth was drawn and his lips dry; his back was even bent, and his legs were unsteady under him, so that he had been forced to step down from his carriage as an old man would do. alas, alas! he had no further chance now of ever being all right again. mary had secluded herself in her bedroom as soon as the carriage had driven up to the door, and there she remained till dinner-time. but she could not shut herself up altogether. it would be necessary that she should appear at dinner; and, therefore, a few minutes before the hour, she crept out into the drawing-room. as she opened the door, she looked in timidly, expecting sir louis to be there; but when she saw that her uncle was the only occupant of the room, her brow cleared, and she entered with a quick step. "he'll come down to dinner; won't he, uncle?" "oh, i suppose so." "what's he doing now?" "dressing, i suppose; he's been at it this hour." "but, uncle--" "well?" "will he come up after dinner, do you think?" mary spoke of him as though he were some wild beast, whom her uncle insisted on having in his house. "goodness knows what he will do! come up? yes. he will not stay in the dining-room all night." "but, dear uncle, do be serious." "serious!" "yes; serious. don't you think that i might go to bed, instead of waiting?" the doctor was saved the trouble of answering by the entrance of the baronet. he was dressed in what he considered the most fashionable style of the day. he had on a new dress-coat lined with satin, new dress-trousers, a silk waistcoat covered with chains, a white cravat, polished pumps, and silk stockings, and he carried a scented handkerchief in his hand; he had rings on his fingers, and carbuncle studs in his shirt, and he smelt as sweet as patchouli could make him. but he could hardly do more than shuffle into the room, and seemed almost to drag one of his legs behind him. mary, in spite of her aversion, was shocked and distressed when she saw him. he, however, seemed to think himself perfect, and was no whit abashed by the unfavourable reception which twelve months since had been paid to his suit. mary came up and shook hands with him, and he received her with a compliment which no doubt he thought must be acceptable. "upon my word, miss thorne, every place seems to agree with you; one better than another. you were looking charming at boxall hill; but, upon my word, charming isn't half strong enough now." mary sat down quietly, and the doctor assumed a face of unutterable disgust. this was the creature for whom all his sympathies had been demanded, all his best energies put in requisition; on whose behalf he was to quarrel with his oldest friends, lose his peace and quietness of life, and exercise all the functions of a loving friend! this was his self-invited guest, whom he was bound to foster, and whom he could not turn from his door. then dinner came, and mary had to put her hand upon his arm. she certainly did not lean upon him, and once or twice felt inclined to give him some support. they reached the dining-room, however, the doctor following them, and then sat down, janet waiting in the room, as was usual. "i say, doctor," said the baronet, "hadn't my man better come in and help? he's got nothing to do, you know. we should be more cosy, shouldn't we?" "janet will manage pretty well," said the doctor. "oh, you'd better have joe; there's nothing like a good servant at table. i say, janet, just send that fellow in, will you?" "we shall do very well without him," said the doctor, becoming rather red about the cheek-bones, and with a slight gleam of determination about the eye. janet, who saw how matters stood, made no attempt to obey the baronet's order. "oh, nonsense, doctor; you think he's an uppish sort of fellow, i know, and you don't like to trouble him; but when i'm near him, he's all right; just send him in, will you?" "sir louis," said the doctor, "i'm accustomed to none but my own old woman here in my own house, and if you will allow me, i'll keep my old ways. i shall be sorry if you are not comfortable." the baronet said nothing more, and the dinner passed off slowly and wearily enough. when mary had eaten her fruit and escaped, the doctor got into one arm-chair and the baronet into another, and the latter began the only work of existence of which he knew anything. "that's good port," said he; "very fair port." the doctor loved his port wine, and thawed a little in his manner. he loved it not as a toper, but as a collector loves his pet pictures. he liked to talk about it, and think about it; to praise it, and hear it praised; to look at it turned towards the light, and to count over the years it had lain in his cellar. "yes," said he, "it's pretty fair wine. it was, at least, when i got it, twenty years ago, and i don't suppose time has hurt it;" and he held the glass up to the window, and looked at the evening light through the ruby tint of the liquid. "ah, dear, there's not much of it left; more's the pity." "a good thing won't last for ever. i'll tell you what now; i wish i'd brought down a dozen or two of claret. i've some prime stuff in london; got it from muzzle & drug, at ninety-six shillings; it was a great favour, though. i'll tell you what now, i'll send up for a couple of dozen to-morrow. i mustn't drink you out of house, high and dry; must i, doctor?" the doctor froze immediately. "i don't think i need trouble you," said he; "i never drink claret, at least not here; and there's enough of the old bin left to last some little time longer yet." sir louis drank two or three glasses of wine very quickly after each other, and they immediately began to tell upon his weak stomach. but before he was tipsy, he became more impudent and more disagreeable. "doctor," said he, "when are we to see any of this greshamsbury money? that's what i want to know." "your money is quite safe, sir louis; and the interest is paid to the day." "interest, yes; but how do i know how long it will be paid? i should like to see the principal. a hundred thousand pounds, or something like it, is a precious large stake to have in one man's hands, and he preciously hard up himself. i'll tell you what, doctor--i shall look the squire up myself." "look him up?" "yes; look him up; ferret him out; tell him a bit of my mind. i'll thank you to pass the bottle. d---- me doctor; i mean to know how things are going on." "your money is quite safe," repeated the doctor, "and, to my mind, could not be better invested." "that's all very well; d---- well, i dare say, for you and squire gresham--" "what do you mean, sir louis?" "mean! why i mean that i'll sell the squire up; that's what i mean--hallo--beg pardon. i'm blessed if i haven't broken the water-jug. that comes of having water on the table. oh, d---- me, it's all over me." and then, getting up, to avoid the flood he himself had caused, he nearly fell into the doctor's arms. "you're tired with your journey, sir louis; perhaps you'd better go to bed." "well, i am a bit seedy or so. those cursed roads of yours shake a fellow so." the doctor rang the bell, and, on this occasion, did request that joe might be sent for. joe came in, and, though he was much steadier than his master, looked as though he also had found some bin of which he had approved. "sir louis wishes to go to bed," said the doctor; "you had better give him your arm." "oh, yes; in course i will," said joe, standing immoveable about half-way between the door and the table. "i'll just take one more glass of the old port--eh, doctor?" said sir louis, putting out his hand and clutching the decanter. it is very hard for any man to deny his guest in his own house, and the doctor, at the moment, did not know how to do it; so sir louis got his wine, after pouring half of it over the table. "come in, sir, and give sir louis your arm," said the doctor, angrily. "so i will in course, if my master tells me; but, if you please, dr thorne,"--and joe put his hand up to his hair in a manner that had a great deal more of impudence than reverence in it--"i just want to ax one question: where be i to sleep?" now this was a question which the doctor was not prepared to answer on the spur of the moment, however well janet or mary might have been able to do so. "sleep," said he, "i don't know where you are to sleep, and don't care; ask janet." "that's all very well, master--" "hold your tongue, sirrah!" said sir louis. "what the devil do you want of sleep?--come here," and then, with his servant's help, he made his way up to his bedroom, and was no more heard of that night. "did he get tipsy," asked mary, almost in a whisper, when her uncle joined her in the drawing-room. "don't talk of it," said he. "poor wretch! poor wretch! let's have some tea now, molly, and pray don't talk any more about him to-night." then mary did make the tea, and did not talk any more about sir louis that night. what on earth were they to do with him? he had come there self-invited; but his connexion with the doctor was such, that it was impossible he should be told to go away, either he himself, or that servant of his. there was no reason to disbelieve him when he declared that he had come down to ferret out the squire. such was, doubtless, his intention. he would ferret out the squire. perhaps he might ferret out lady arabella also. frank would be home in a few days; and he, too, might be ferreted out. but the matter took a very singular turn, and one quite unexpected on the doctor's part. on the morning following the little dinner of which we have spoken, one of the greshamsbury grooms rode up to the doctor's door with two notes. one was addressed to the doctor in the squire's well-known large handwriting, and the other was for sir louis. each contained an invitation to dinner for the following day; and that to the doctor was in this wise:-- dear doctor, do come and dine here to-morrow, and bring sir louis scatcherd with you. if you're the man i take you to be, you won't refuse me. lady arabella sends a note for sir louis. there will be nobody here but oriel, and mr gazebee, who is staying in the house. yours ever, f. n. gresham. greshamsbury, july, --. p.s.--i make a positive request that you'll come, and i think you will hardly refuse me. the doctor read it twice before he could believe it, and then ordered janet to take the other note up to sir louis. as these invitations were rather in opposition to the then existing greshamsbury tactics, the cause of lady arabella's special civility must be explained. mr mortimer gazebee was now at the house, and therefore, it must be presumed, that things were not allowed to go on after their old fashion. mr gazebee was an acute as well as a fashionable man; one who knew what he was about, and who, moreover, had determined to give his very best efforts on behalf of the greshamsbury property. his energy, in this respect, will explain itself hereafter. it was not probable that the arrival in the village of such a person as sir louis scatcherd should escape attention. he had heard of it before dinner, and, before the evening was over, had discussed it with lady arabella. her ladyship was not at first inclined to make much of sir louis, and expressed herself as but little inclined to agree with mr gazebee when that gentleman suggested that he should be treated with civility at greshamsbury. but she was at last talked over. she found it pleasant enough to have more to do with the secret management of the estate than mr gresham himself; and when mr gazebee proved to her, by sundry nods and winks, and subtle allusions to her own infinite good sense, that it was necessary to catch this obscene bird which had come to prey upon the estate, by throwing a little salt upon his tail, she also nodded and winked, and directed augusta to prepare the salt according to order. "but won't it be odd, mr gazebee, asking him out of dr thorne's house?" "oh, we must have the doctor, too, lady arabella; by all means ask the doctor also." lady arabella's brow grew dark. "mr gazebee," she said, "you can hardly believe how that man has behaved to me." "he is altogether beneath your anger," said mr gazebee, with a bow. "i don't know: in one way he may be, but not in another. i really do not think i can sit down to table with doctor thorne." but, nevertheless, mr gazebee gained his point. it was now about a week since sir omicron pie had been at greshamsbury, and the squire had, almost daily, spoken to his wife as to that learned man's advice. lady arabella always answered in the same tone: "you can hardly know, mr gresham, how that man has insulted me." but, nevertheless, the physician's advice had not been disbelieved: it tallied too well with her own inward convictions. she was anxious enough to have doctor thorne back at her bedside, if she could only get him there without damage to her pride. her husband, she thought, might probably send the doctor there without absolute permission from herself; in which case she would have been able to scold, and show that she was offended; and, at the same time, profit by what had been done. but mr gresham never thought of taking so violent a step as this, and, therefore, dr fillgrave still came, and her ladyship's _finesse_ was wasted in vain. but mr gazebee's proposition opened a door by which her point might be gained. "well," said she, at last, with infinite self-denial, "if you think it is for mr gresham's advantage, and if he chooses to ask dr thorne, i will not refuse to receive him." mr gazebee's next task was to discuss the matter with the squire. nor was this easy, for mr gazebee was no favourite with mr gresham. but the task was at last performed successfully. mr gresham was so glad at heart to find himself able, once more, to ask his old friend to his own house; and, though it would have pleased him better that this sign of relenting on his wife's part should have reached him by other means, he did not refuse to take advantage of it; and so he wrote the above letter to dr thorne. the doctor, as we have said, read it twice; and he at once resolved stoutly that he would not go. "oh, do, do go!" said mary. she well knew how wretched this feud had made her uncle. "pray, pray go!" "indeed, i will not," said he. "there are some things a man should bear, and some he should not." "you must go," said mary, who had taken the note from her uncle's hand, and read it. "you cannot refuse him when he asks you like that." "it will greatly grieve me; but i must refuse him." "i also am angry, uncle; very angry with lady arabella; but for him, for the squire, i would go to him on my knees if he asked me in that way." "yes; and had he asked you, i also would have gone." "oh! now i shall be so wretched. it is his invitation, not hers: mr gresham could not ask me. as for her, do not think of her; but do, do go when he asks you like that. you will make me so miserable if you do not. and then sir louis cannot go without you,"--and mary pointed upstairs--"and you may be sure that he will go." "yes; and make a beast of himself." this colloquy was cut short by a message praying the doctor to go up to sir louis's room. the young man was sitting in his dressing-gown, drinking a cup of coffee at his toilet-table, while joe was preparing his razor and hot water. the doctor's nose immediately told him that there was more in the coffee-cup than had come out of his own kitchen, and he would not let the offence pass unnoticed. "are you taking brandy this morning, sir louis?" "just a little _chasse-café_," said he, not exactly understanding the word he used. "it's all the go now; and a capital thing for the stomach." "it's not a capital thing for your stomach;--about the least capital thing you can take; that is, if you wish to live." "never mind about that now, doctor, but look here. this is what we call the civil thing--eh?" and he showed the greshamsbury note. "not but what they have an object, of course. i understand all that. lots of girls there--eh?" the doctor took the note and read it. "it is civil," said he; "very civil." "well; i shall go, of course. i don't bear malice because he can't pay me the money he owes me. i'll eat his dinner, and look at the girls. have you an invite too, doctor?" "yes; i have." "and you'll go?" "i think not; but that need not deter you. but, sir louis--" "well! eh! what is it?" "step downstairs a moment," said the doctor, turning to the servant, "and wait till you are called for. i wish to speak to your master." joe, for a moment, looked up at the baronet's face, as though he wanted but the slightest encouragement to disobey the doctor's orders; but not seeing it, he slowly retired, and placed himself, of course, at the keyhole. and then, the doctor began a long and very useless lecture. the first object of it was to induce his ward not to get drunk at greshamsbury; but having got so far, he went on, and did succeed in frightening his unhappy guest. sir louis did not possess the iron nerves of his father--nerves which even brandy had not been able to subdue. the doctor spoke strongly, very strongly; spoke of quick, almost immediate death in case of further excesses; spoke to him of the certainty there would be that he could not live to dispose of his own property if he could not refrain. and thus he did frighten sir louis. the father he had never been able to frighten. but there are men who, though they fear death hugely, fear present suffering more; who, indeed, will not bear a moment of pain if there be any mode of escape. sir louis was such: he had no strength of nerve, no courage, no ability to make a resolution and keep it. he promised the doctor that he would refrain; and, as he did so, he swallowed down his cup of coffee and brandy, in which the two articles bore about equal proportions. the doctor did, at last, make up his mind to go. whichever way he determined, he found that he was not contented with himself. he did not like to trust sir louis by himself, and he did not like to show that he was angry. still less did he like the idea of breaking bread in lady arabella's house till some amends had been made to mary. but his heart would not allow him to refuse the petition contained in the squire's postscript, and the matter ended in his accepting the invitation. this visit of his ward's was, in every way, pernicious to the doctor. he could not go about his business, fearing to leave such a man alone with mary. on the afternoon of the second day, she escaped to the parsonage for an hour or so, and then walked away among the lanes, calling on some of her old friends among the farmers' wives. but even then, the doctor was afraid to leave sir louis. what could such a man do, left alone in a village like greshamsbury? so he stayed at home, and the two together went over their accounts. the baronet was particular about his accounts, and said a good deal as to having finnie over to greshamsbury. to this, however, dr thorne positively refused his consent. the evening passed off better than the preceding one; at least the early part of it. sir louis did not get tipsy; he came up to tea, and mary, who did not feel so keenly on the subject as her uncle, almost wished that he had done so. at ten o'clock he went to bed. but after that new troubles came on. the doctor had gone downstairs into his study to make up some of the time which he had lost, and had just seated himself at his desk, when janet, without announcing herself, burst into the room; and bridget, dissolved in hysterical tears, with her apron to her eyes, appeared behind the senior domestic. "please, sir," said janet, driven by excitement much beyond her usual pace of speaking, and becoming unintentionally a little less respectful than usual, "please sir, that 'ere young man must go out of this here house; or else no respectable young 'ooman can't stop here; no, indeed, sir; and we be sorry to trouble you, dr thorne; so we be." "what young man? sir louis?" asked the doctor. "oh, no! he abides mostly in bed, and don't do nothing amiss; least way not to us. 'tan't him, sir; but his man." "man!" sobbed bridget from behind. "he an't no man, nor nothing like a man. if tummas had been here, he wouldn't have dared; so he wouldn't." thomas was the groom, and, if all greshamsbury reports were true, it was probable, that on some happy, future day, thomas and bridget would become one flesh and one bone. "please sir," continued janet, "there'll be bad work here if that 'ere young man doesn't quit this here house this very night, and i'm sorry to trouble you, doctor; and so i am. but tom, he be given to fight a'most for nothin'. he's hout now; but if that there young man be's here when tom comes home, tom will be punching his head; i know he will." "he wouldn't stand by and see a poor girl put upon; no more he wouldn't," said bridget, through her tears. after many futile inquiries, the doctor ascertained that mr jonah had expressed some admiration for bridget's youthful charms, and had, in the absence of janet, thrown himself at the lady's feet in a manner which had not been altogether pleasing to her. she had defended herself stoutly and loudly, and in the middle of the row janet had come down. "and where is he now?" said the doctor. "why, sir," said janet, "the poor girl was so put about that she did give him one touch across the face with the rolling-pin, and he be all bloody now, in the back kitchen." at hearing this achievement of hers thus spoken of, bridget sobbed more hysterically than ever; but the doctor, looking at her arm as she held her apron to her face, thought in his heart that joe must have had so much the worst of it, that there could be no possible need for the interference of thomas the groom. and such turned out to be the case. the bridge of joe's nose was broken; and the doctor had to set it for him in a little bedroom at the village public-house, bridget having positively refused to go to bed in the same house with so dreadful a character. "quiet now, or i'll be serving thee the same way; thee see i've found the trick of it." the doctor could not but hear so much as he made his way into his own house by the back door, after finishing his surgical operation. bridget was recounting to her champion the fracas that had occurred; and he, as was so natural, was expressing his admiration at her valour. chapter xxxv sir louis goes out to dinner the next day joe did not make his appearance, and sir louis, with many execrations, was driven to the terrible necessity of dressing himself. then came an unexpected difficulty: how were they to get up to the house? walking out to dinner, though it was merely through the village and up the avenue, seemed to sir louis to be a thing impossible. indeed, he was not well able to walk at all, and positively declared that he should never be able to make his way over the gravel in pumps. his mother would not have thought half as much of walking from boxall hill to greshamsbury and back again. at last, the one village fly was sent for, and the matter was arranged. when they reached the house, it was easy to see that there was some unwonted bustle. in the drawing-room there was no one but mr mortimer gazebee, who introduced himself to them both. sir louis, who knew that he was only an attorney, did not take much notice of him, but the doctor entered into conversation. "have you heard that mr gresham has come home?" said mr gazebee. "mr gresham! i did not know that he had been away." "mr gresham, junior, i mean." no, indeed; the doctor had not heard. frank had returned unexpectedly just before dinner, and he was now undergoing his father's smiles, his mother's embraces, and his sisters' questions. "quite unexpectedly," said mr gazebee. "i don't know what has brought him back before his time. i suppose he found london too hot." "deuced hot," said the baronet. "i found it so, at least. i don't know what keeps men in london when it's so hot; except those fellows who have business to do: they're paid for it." mr mortimer gazebee looked at him. he was managing an estate which owed sir louis an enormous sum of money, and, therefore, he could not afford to despise the baronet; but he thought to himself, what a very abject fellow the man would be if he were not a baronet, and had not a large fortune! and then the squire came in. his broad, honest face was covered with a smile when he saw the doctor. "thorne," he said, almost in a whisper, "you're the best fellow breathing; i have hardly deserved this." the doctor, as he took his old friend's hand, could not but be glad that he had followed mary's counsel. "so frank has come home?" "oh, yes; quite unexpectedly. he was to have stayed a week longer in london. you would hardly know him if you met him. sir louis, i beg your pardon." and the squire went up to his other guest, who had remained somewhat sullenly standing in one corner of the room. he was the man of highest rank present, or to be present, and he expected to be treated as such. "i am happy to have the pleasure of making your acquaintance, mr gresham," said the baronet, intending to be very courteous. "though we have not met before, i very often see your name in my accounts--ha! ha! ha!" and sir louis laughed as though he had said something very good. the meeting between lady arabella and the doctor was rather distressing to the former; but she managed to get over it. she shook hands with him graciously, and said that it was a fine day. the doctor said that it was fine, only perhaps a little rainy. and then they went into different parts of the room. when frank came in, the doctor hardly did know him. his hair was darker than it had been, and so was his complexion; but his chief disguise was in a long silken beard, which hung down over his cravat. the doctor had hitherto not been much in favour of long beards, but he could not deny that frank looked very well with the appendage. "oh, doctor, i am so delighted to find you here," said he, coming up to him; "so very, very glad:" and, taking the doctor's arm, he led him away into a window, where they were alone. "and how is mary?" said he, almost in a whisper. "oh, i wish she were here! but, doctor, it shall all come in time. but tell me, doctor, there is no news about her, is there?" "news--what news?" "oh, well; no news is good news: you will give her my love, won't you?" the doctor said that he would. what else could he say? it appeared quite clear to him that some of mary's fears were groundless. frank was again very much altered. it has been said, that though he was a boy at twenty-one, he was a man at twenty-two. but now, at twenty-three, he appeared to be almost a man of the world. his manners were easy, his voice under his control, and words were at his command: he was no longer either shy or noisy; but, perhaps, was open to the charge of seeming, at least, to be too conscious of his own merits. he was, indeed, very handsome; tall, manly, and powerfully built, his form was such as women's eyes have ever loved to look upon. "ah, if he would but marry money!" said lady arabella to herself, taken up by a mother's natural admiration for her son. his sisters clung round him before dinner, all talking to him at once. how proud a family of girls are of one, big, tall, burly brother! "you don't mean to tell me, frank, that you are going to eat soup with that beard?" said the squire, when they were seated round the table. he had not ceased to rally his son as to this patriarchal adornment; but, nevertheless, any one could have seen, with half an eye, that he was as proud of it as were the others. "don't i, sir? all i require is a relay of napkins for every course:" and he went to work, covering it with every spoonful, as men with beards always do. "well, if you like it!" said the squire, shrugging his shoulders. "but i do like it," said frank. "oh, papa, you wouldn't have him cut it off," said one of the twins. "it is so handsome." "i should like to work it into a chair-back instead of floss-silk," said the other twin. "thank'ee, sophy; i'll remember you for that." "doesn't it look nice, and grand, and patriarchal?" said beatrice, turning to her neighbour. "patriarchal, certainly," said mr oriel. "i should grow one myself if i had not the fear of the archbishop before my eyes." what was next said to him was in a whisper, audible only to himself. "doctor, did you know wildman of the th? he was left as surgeon at scutari for two years. why, my beard to his is only a little down." "a little way down, you mean," said mr gazebee. "yes," said frank, resolutely set against laughing at mr gazebee's pun. "why, his beard descends to his ankles, and he is obliged to tie it in a bag at night, because his feet get entangled in it when he is asleep!" "oh, frank!" said one of the girls. this was all very well for the squire, and lady arabella, and the girls. they were all delighted to praise frank, and talk about him. neither did it come amiss to mr oriel and the doctor, who had both a personal interest in the young hero. but sir louis did not like it at all. he was the only baronet in the room, and yet nobody took any notice of him. he was seated in the post of honour, next to lady arabella; but even lady arabella seemed to think more of her own son than of him. seeing how he was ill-used, he meditated revenge; but not the less did it behove him to make some effort to attract attention. "was your ladyship long in london, this season?" said he. lady arabella had not been in london at all this year, and it was a sore subject with her. "no," said she, very graciously; "circumstances have kept us at home." sir louis only understood one description of "circumstances." circumstances, in his idea, meant the want of money, and he immediately took lady arabella's speech as a confession of poverty. "ah, indeed! i am very sorry for that; that must be very distressing to a person like your ladyship. but things are mending, perhaps?" lady arabella did not in the least understand him. "mending!" she said, in her peculiar tone of aristocratic indifference; and then turned to mr gazebee, who was on the other side of her. sir louis was not going to stand this. he was the first man in the room, and he knew his own importance. it was not to be borne that lady arabella should turn to talk to a dirty attorney, and leave him, a baronet, to eat his dinner without notice. if nothing else would move her, he would let her know who was the real owner of the greshamsbury title-deeds. "i think i saw your ladyship out to-day, taking a ride." lady arabella had driven through the village in her pony-chair. "i never ride," said she, turning her head for one moment from mr gazebee. "in the one-horse carriage, i mean, my lady. i was delighted with the way you whipped him up round the corner." whipped him up round the corner! lady arabella could make no answer to this; so she went on talking to mr gazebee. sir louis, repulsed, but not vanquished--resolved not to be vanquished by any lady arabella--turned his attention to his plate for a minute or two, and then recommenced. "the honour of a glass of wine with you, lady arabella," said he. "i never take wine at dinner," said lady arabella. the man was becoming intolerable to her, and she was beginning to fear that it would be necessary for her to fly the room to get rid of him. the baronet was again silent for a moment; but he was determined not to be put down. "this is a nice-looking country about here," said he. "yes; very nice," said mr gazebee, endeavouring to relieve the lady of the mansion. "i hardly know which i like best; this, or my own place at boxall hill. you have the advantage here in trees, and those sort of things. but, as to the house, why, my box there is very comfortable, very. you'd hardly know the place now, lady arabella, if you haven't seen it since my governor bought it. how much do you think he spent about the house and grounds, pineries included, you know, and those sort of things?" lady arabella shook her head. "now guess, my lady," said he. but it was not to be supposed that lady arabella should guess on such a subject. "i never guess," said she, with a look of ineffable disgust. "what do you say, mr gazebee?" "perhaps a hundred thousand pounds." "what! for a house! you can't know much about money, nor yet about building, i think, mr gazebee." "not much," said mr gazebee, "as to such magnificent places as boxall hill." "well, my lady, if you won't guess, i'll tell you. it cost twenty-two thousand four hundred and nineteen pounds four shillings and eightpence. i've all the accounts exact. now, that's a tidy lot of money for a house for a man to live in." sir louis spoke this in a loud tone, which at least commanded the attention of the table. lady arabella, vanquished, bowed her head, and said that it was a large sum; mr gazebee went on sedulously eating his dinner; the squire was struck momentarily dumb in the middle of a long chat with the doctor; even mr oriel ceased to whisper; and the girls opened their eyes with astonishment. before the end of his speech, sir louis's voice had become very loud. "yes, indeed," said frank; "a very tidy lot of money. i'd have generously dropped the four and eightpence if i'd been the architect." "it wasn't all one bill; but that's the tot. i can show the bills:" and sir louis, well pleased with his triumph, swallowed a glass of wine. almost immediately after the cloth was removed, lady arabella escaped, and the gentlemen clustered together. sir louis found himself next to mr oriel, and began to make himself agreeable. "a very nice girl, miss beatrice; very nice." now mr oriel was a modest man, and, when thus addressed as to his future wife, found it difficult to make any reply. "you parsons always have your own luck," said sir louis. "you get all the beauty, and generally all the money, too. not much of the latter in this case, though--eh?" mr oriel was dumbfounded. he had never said a word to any creature as to beatrice's dowry; and when mr gresham had told him, with sorrow, that his daughter's portion must be small, he had at once passed away from the subject as one that was hardly fit for conversation, even between him and his future father-in-law; and now he was abruptly questioned on the subject by a man he had never before seen in his life. of course, he could make no answer. "the squire has muddled his matters most uncommonly," continued sir louis, filling his glass for the second time before he passed the bottle. "what do you suppose now he owes me alone; just at one lump, you know?" mr oriel had nothing for it but to run. he could make no answer, nor would he sit there to hear tidings as to mr gresham's embarrassments. so he fairly retreated, without having said one word to his neighbour, finding such discretion to be the only kind of valour left to him. "what, oriel! off already?" said the squire. "anything the matter?" "oh, no; nothing particular. i'm not just quite--i think i'll go out for a few minutes." "see what it is to be in love," said the squire, half-whispering to dr thorne. "you're not in the same way, i hope?" sir louis then shifted his seat again, and found himself next to frank. mr gazebee was opposite to him, and the doctor opposite to frank. "parson seems peekish, i think," said the baronet. "peekish?" said the squire, inquisitively. "rather down on his luck. he's decently well off himself, isn't he?" there was another pause, and nobody seemed inclined to answer the question. "i mean, he's got something more than his bare living." "oh, yes," said frank, laughing. "he's got what will buy him bread and cheese when the rads shut up the church:--unless, indeed, they shut up the funds too." "ah, there's nothing like land," said sir louis: "nothing like the dirty acres; is there, squire?" "land is a very good investment, certainly," said mr gresham. "the best going," said the other, who was now, as people say when they mean to be good-natured, slightly under the influence of liquor. "the best going--eh, gazebee?" mr gazebee gathered himself up, and turned away his head, looking out of the window. "you lawyers never like to give an opinion without money, ha! ha! ha! do they, mr gresham? you and i have had to pay for plenty of them, and will have to pay for plenty more before they let us alone." here mr gazebee got up, and followed mr oriel out of the room. he was not, of course, on such intimate terms in the house as was mr oriel; but he hoped to be forgiven by the ladies in consequence of the severity of the miseries to which he was subjected. he and mr oriel were soon to be seen through the dining-room window, walking about the grounds with the two eldest miss greshams. and patience oriel, who had also been of the party, was also to be seen with the twins. frank looked at his father with almost a malicious smile, and began to think that he too might be better employed out among the walks. did he think then of a former summer evening, when he had half broken mary's heart by walking there too lovingly with patience oriel? sir louis, if he continued his brilliant career of success, would soon be left the cock of the walk. the squire, to be sure, could not bolt, nor could the doctor very well; but they might be equally vanquished, remaining there in their chairs. dr thorne, during all this time, was sitting with tingling ears. indeed, it may be said that his whole body tingled. he was in a manner responsible for this horrid scene; but what could he do to stop it? he could not take sir louis up bodily and carry him away. one idea did occur to him. the fly had been ordered for ten o'clock. he could rush out and send for it instantly. "you're not going to leave me?" said the squire, in a voice of horror, as he saw the doctor rising from his chair. "oh, no, no, no," said the doctor; and then he whispered the purpose of his mission. "i will be back in two minutes." the doctor would have given twenty pounds to have closed the scene at once; but he was not the man to desert his friend in such a strait as that. "he's a well-meaning fellow, the doctor," said sir louis, when his guardian was out of the room, "very; but he's not up to trap--not at all." "up to trap--well, i should say he was; that is, if i know what trap means," said frank. "ah, but that's just the ticket. do you know? now i say dr thorne's not a man of the world." "he's about the best man i know, or ever heard of," said the squire. "and if any man ever had a good friend, you have got one in him; and so have i:" and the squire silently drank the doctor's health. "all very true, i dare say; but yet he's not up to trap. now look here, squire--" "if you don't mind, sir," said frank, "i've got something very particular--perhaps, however--" "stay till thorne returns, frank." frank did stay till thorne returned, and then escaped. "excuse me, doctor," said he, "but i've something very particular to say; i'll explain to-morrow." and then the three were left alone. sir louis was now becoming almost drunk, and was knocking his words together. the squire had already attempted to stop the bottle; but the baronet had contrived to get hold of a modicum of madeira, and there was no preventing him from helping himself; at least, none at that moment. "as we were saying about lawyers," continued sir louis. "let's see, what were we saying? why, squire, it's just here. those fellows will fleece us both if we don't mind what we are after." "never mind about lawyers now," said dr thorne, angrily. "ah, but i do mind; most particularly. that's all very well for you, doctor; you've nothing to lose. you've no great stake in the matter. why, now, what sum of money of mine do you think those d---- doctors are handling?" "d---- doctors!" said the squire in a tone of dismay. "lawyers, i mean, of course. why, now, gresham; we're all totted now, you see; you're down in my books, i take it, for pretty near a hundred thousand pounds." "hold your tongue, sir," said the doctor, getting up. "hold my tongue!" said sir louis. "sir louis scatcherd," said the squire, slowly rising from his chair, "we will not, if you please, talk about business at the present moment. perhaps we had better go to the ladies." this latter proposition had certainly not come from the squire's heart: going to the ladies was the very last thing for which sir louis was now fit. but the squire had said it as being the only recognised formal way he could think of for breaking up the symposium. "oh, very well," hiccupped the baronet, "i'm always ready for the ladies," and he stretched out his hand to the decanter to get a last glass of madeira. "no," said the doctor, rising stoutly, and speaking with a determined voice. "no; you will have no more wine:" and he took the decanter from him. "what's all this about?" said sir louis, with a drunken laugh. "of course he cannot go into the drawing-room, mr gresham. if you will leave him here with me, i will stay with him till the fly comes. pray tell lady arabella from me, how sorry i am that this has occurred." the squire would not leave his friend, and they sat together till the fly came. it was not long, for the doctor had dispatched his messenger with much haste. "i am so heartily ashamed of myself," said the doctor, almost with tears. the squire took him by the hand affectionately. "i've seen a tipsy man before to-night," said he. "yes," said the doctor, "and so have i, but--" he did not express the rest of his thoughts. chapter xxxvi will he come again? long before the doctor returned home after the little dinner-party above described, mary had learnt that frank was already at greshamsbury. she had heard nothing of him or from him, not a word, nothing in the shape of a message, for twelve months; and at her age twelve months is a long period. would he come and see her in spite of his mother? would he send her any tidings of his return, or notice her in any way? if he did not, what would she do? and if he did, what then would she do? it was so hard to resolve; so hard to be deserted; and so hard to dare to wish that she might not be deserted! she continued to say to herself, that it would be better that they should be strangers; and she could hardly keep herself from tears in the fear that they might be so. what chance could there be that he should care for her, after an absence spent in travelling over the world? no; she would forget that affair of his hand; and then, immediately after having so determined, she would confess to herself that it was a thing not to be forgotten, and impossible of oblivion. on her uncle's return, she would hear some word about him; and so she sat alone, with a book before her, of which she could not read a line. she expected them about eleven, and was, therefore, rather surprised when the fly stopped at the door before nine. she immediately heard her uncle's voice, loud and angry, calling for thomas. both thomas and bridget were unfortunately out, being, at this moment, forgetful of all sublunary cares, and seated in happiness under a beech-tree in the park. janet flew to the little gate, and there found sir louis insisting that he would be taken at once to his own mansion at boxall hill, and positively swearing that he would no longer submit to the insult of the doctor's surveillance. in the absence of thomas, the doctor was forced to apply for assistance to the driver of the fly. between them the baronet was dragged out of the vehicle, the windows suffered much, and the doctor's hat also. in this way, he was taken upstairs, and was at last put to bed, janet assisting; nor did the doctor leave the room till his guest was asleep. then he went into the drawing-room to mary. it may easily be conceived that he was hardly in a humour to talk much about frank gresham. "what am i to do with him?" said he, almost in tears: "what am i to do with him?" "can you not send him to boxall hill?" asked mary. "yes; to kill himself there! but it is no matter; he will kill himself somewhere. oh! what that family have done for me!" and then, suddenly remembering a portion of their doings, he took mary in his arms, and kissed and blessed her; and declared that, in spite of all this, he was a happy man. there was no word about frank that night. the next morning the doctor found sir louis very weak, and begging for stimulants. he was worse than weak; he was in such a state of wretched misery and mental prostration; so low in heart, in such collapse of energy and spirit, that dr thorne thought it prudent to remove his razors from his reach. "for god's sake do let me have a little _chasse-café_; i'm always used to it; ask joe if i'm not! you don't want to kill me, do you?" and the baronet cried piteously, like a child, and, when the doctor left him for the breakfast-table, abjectly implored janet to get him some curaçoa which he knew was in one of his portmanteaus. janet, however, was true to her master. the doctor did give him some wine; and then, having left strict orders as to his treatment--bridget and thomas being now both in the house--went forth to some of his too much neglected patients. then mary was again alone, and her mind flew away to her lover. how should she be able to compose herself when she should first see him? see him she must. people cannot live in the same village without meeting. if she passed him at the church-door, as she often passed lady arabella, what should she do? lady arabella always smiled a peculiar, little, bitter smile, and this, with half a nod of recognition, carried off the meeting. should she try the bitter smile, the half-nod with frank? alas! she knew it was not in her to be so much mistress of her own heart's blood. as she thus thought, she stood at the drawing-room window, looking out into her garden; and, as she leant against the sill, her head was surrounded by the sweet creepers. "at any rate, he won't come here," she said: and so, with a deep sigh, she turned from the window into the room. there he was, frank gresham himself standing there in her immediate presence, beautiful as apollo. her next thought was how she might escape from out of his arms. how it happened that she had fallen into them, she never knew. "mary! my own, own love! my own one! sweetest! dearest! best! mary! dear mary! have you not a word to say to me?" no; she had not a word, though her life had depended on it. the exertion necessary for not crying was quite enough for her. this, then, was the bitter smile and the half-nod that was to pass between them; this was the manner in which estrangement was to grow into indifference; this was the mode of meeting by which she was to prove that she was mistress of her conduct, if not her heart! there he held her close bound to his breast, and she could only protect her face, and that all ineffectually, with her hands. "he loves another," beatrice had said. "at any rate, he will not love me," her own heart had said also. here was now the answer. "you know you cannot marry him," beatrice had said, also. ah! if that really were so, was not this embrace deplorable for them both? and yet how could she not be happy? she endeavoured to repel him; but with what a weak endeavour! her pride had been wounded to the core, not by lady arabella's scorn, but by the conviction which had grown on her, that though she had given her own heart absolutely away, had parted with it wholly and for ever, she had received nothing in return. the world, her world, would know that she had loved, and loved in vain. but here now was the loved one at her feet; the first moment that his enforced banishment was over, had brought him there. how could she not be happy? they all said that she could not marry him. well, perhaps it might be so; nay, when she thought of it, must not that edict too probably be true? but if so, it would not be his fault. he was true to her, and that satisfied her pride. he had taken from her, by surprise, a confession of her love. she had often regretted her weakness in allowing him to do so; but she could not regret it now. she could endure to suffer; nay, it would not be suffering while he suffered with her. "not one word, mary? then after all my dreams, after all my patience, you do not love me at last?" oh, frank! notwithstanding what has been said in thy praise, what a fool thou art! was any word necessary for thee? had not her heart beat against thine? had she not borne thy caresses? had there been one touch of anger when she warded off thy threatened kisses? bridget, in the kitchen, when jonah became amorous, smashed his nose with the rolling-pin. but when thomas sinned, perhaps as deeply, she only talked of doing so. miss thorne, in the drawing-room, had she needed self-protection, could doubtless have found the means, though the process would probably have been less violent. at last mary succeeded in her efforts at enfranchisement, and she and frank stood at some little distance from each other. she could not but marvel at him. that long, soft beard, which just now had been so close to her face, was all new; his whole look was altered; his mien, and gait, and very voice were not the same. was this, indeed, the very frank who had chattered of his boyish love, two years since, in the gardens at greshamsbury? "not one word of welcome, mary?" "indeed, mr gresham, you are welcome home." "mr gresham! tell me, mary--tell me, at once--has anything happened? i could not ask up there." "frank," she said, and then stopped; not being able at the moment to get any further. "speak to me honestly, mary; honestly and bravely. i offered you my hand once before; there it is again. will you take it?" she looked wistfully up in his eyes; she would fain have taken it. but though a girl may be honest in such a case, it is so hard for her to be brave. he still held out his hand. "mary," said he, "if you can value it, it shall be yours through good fortune or ill fortune. there may be difficulties; but if you can love me, we will get over them. i am a free man; free to do as i please with myself, except so far as i am bound to you. there is my hand. will you have it?" and then he, too, looked into her eyes, and waited composedly, as though determined to have an answer. she slowly raised her hand, and, as she did so, her eyes fell to the ground. it then drooped again, and was again raised; and, at last, her light tapering fingers rested on his broad open palm. they were soon clutched, and the whole hand brought absolutely within his grasp. "there, now you are my own!" he said, "and none of them shall part us; my own mary, my own wife." "oh, frank, is not this imprudent? is it not wrong?" "imprudent! i am sick of prudence. i hate prudence. and as for wrong--no. i say it is not wrong; certainly not wrong if we love each other. and you do love me, mary--eh? you do! don't you?" he would not excuse her, or allow her to escape from saying it in so many words; and when the words did come at last, they came freely. "yes, frank, i do love you; if that were all you would have no cause for fear." "and i will have no cause for fear." "ah; but your father, frank, and my uncle. i can never bring myself to do anything that shall bring either of them to sorrow." frank, of course, ran through all his arguments. he would go into a profession, or take a farm and live in it. he would wait; that is, for a few months. "a few months, frank!" said mary. "well, perhaps six." "oh, frank!" but frank would not be stopped. he would do anything that his father might ask him. anything but the one thing. he would not give up the wife he had chosen. it would not be reasonable, or proper, or righteous that he should be asked to do so; and here he mounted a somewhat high horse. mary had no arguments which she could bring from her heart to offer in opposition to all this. she could only leave her hand in his, and feel that she was happier than she had been at any time since the day of that donkey-ride at boxall hill. "but, mary," continued he, becoming very grave and serious. "we must be true to each other, and firm in this. nothing that any of them can say shall drive me from my purpose; will you say as much?" her hand was still in his, and so she stood, thinking for a moment before she answered him. but she could not do less for him than he was willing to do for her. "yes," said she--said in a very low voice, and with a manner perfectly quiet--"i will be firm. nothing that they can say shall shake me. but, frank, it cannot be soon." nothing further occurred in this interview which needs recording. frank had been three times told by mary that he had better go before he did go; and, at last, she was obliged to take the matter into her own hands, and lead him to the door. "you are in a great hurry to get rid of me," said he. "you have been here two hours, and you must go now; what will they all think?" "who cares what they think? let them think the truth: that after a year's absence, i have much to say to you." however, at last, he did go, and mary was left alone. frank, although he had been so slow to move, had a thousand other things to do, and went about them at once. he was very much in love, no doubt; but that did not interfere with his interest in other pursuits. in the first place, he had to see harry baker, and harry baker's stud. harry had been specially charged to look after the black horse during frank's absence, and the holiday doings of that valuable animal had to be inquired into. then the kennel of the hounds had to be visited, and--as a matter of second-rate importance--the master. this could not be done on the same day; but a plan for doing so must be concocted with harry--and then there were two young pointer pups. frank, when he left his betrothed, went about these things quite as vehemently as though he were not in love at all; quite as vehemently as though he had said nothing as to going into some profession which must necessarily separate him from horses and dogs. but mary sat there at her window, thinking of her love, and thinking of nothing else. it was all in all to her now. she had pledged herself not to be shaken from her troth by anything, by any person; and it would behove her to be true to this pledge. true to it, though all the greshams but one should oppose her with all their power; true to it, even though her own uncle should oppose her. and how could she have done any other than so pledge herself, invoked to it as she had been? how could she do less for him than he was so anxious to do for her? they would talk to her of maiden delicacy, and tell her that she had put a stain on that snow-white coat of proof, in confessing her love for one whose friends were unwilling to receive her. let them so talk. honour, honesty, and truth, out-spoken truth, self-denying truth, and fealty from man to man, are worth more than maiden delicacy; more, at any rate, than the talk of it. it was not for herself that this pledge had been made. she knew her position, and the difficulties of it; she knew also the value of it. he had much to offer, much to give; she had nothing but herself. he had name, and old repute, family, honour, and what eventually would at least be wealth to her. she was nameless, fameless, portionless. he had come there with all his ardour, with the impulse of his character, and asked for her love. it was already his own. he had then demanded her troth, and she acknowledged that he had a right to demand it. she would be his if ever it should be in his power to take her. but there let the bargain end. she would always remember, that though it was in her power to keep her pledge, it might too probably not be in his power to keep his. that doctrine, laid down so imperatively by the great authorities of greshamsbury, that edict, which demanded that frank should marry money, had come home also to her with a certain force. it would be sad that the fame of greshamsbury should perish, and that the glory should depart from the old house. it might be, that frank also should perceive that he must marry money. it would be a pity that he had not seen it sooner; but she, at any rate, would not complain. and so she stood, leaning on the open window, with her book unnoticed lying beside her. the sun had been in the mid-sky when frank had left her, but its rays were beginning to stream into the room from the west before she moved from her position. her first thought in the morning had been this: would he come to see her? her last now was more soothing to her, less full of absolute fear: would it be right that he should come again? the first sounds she heard were the footsteps of her uncle, as he came up to the drawing-room, three steps at a time. his step was always heavy; but when he was disturbed in spirit, it was slow; when merely fatigued in body by ordinary work, it was quick. "what a broiling day!" he said, and he threw himself into a chair. "for mercy's sake give me something to drink." now the doctor was a great man for summer-drinks. in his house, lemonade, currant-juice, orange-mixtures, and raspberry-vinegar were used by the quart. he frequently disapproved of these things for his patients, as being apt to disarrange the digestion; but he consumed enough himself to throw a large family into such difficulties. "ha--a!" he ejaculated, after a draught; "i'm better now. well, what's the news?" "you've been out, uncle; you ought to have the news. how's mrs green?" "really as bad as ennui and solitude can make her." "and mrs oaklerath?" "she's getting better, because she has ten children to look after, and twins to suckle. what has he been doing?" and the doctor pointed towards the room occupied by sir louis. mary's conscience struck her that she had not even asked. she had hardly remembered, during the whole day, that the baronet was in the house. "i do not think he has been doing much," she said. "janet has been with him all day." "has he been drinking?" "upon my word, i don't know, uncle. i think not, for janet has been with him. but, uncle--" "well, dear--but just give me a little more of that tipple." mary prepared the tumbler, and, as she handed it to him, she said, "frank gresham has been here to-day." the doctor swallowed his draught, and put down the glass before he made any reply, and even then he said but little. "oh! frank gresham." "yes, uncle." "you thought him looking pretty well?" "yes, uncle; he was very well, i believe." dr thorne had nothing more to say, so he got up and went to his patient in the next room. "if he disapproves of it, why does he not say so?" said mary to herself. "why does he not advise me?" but it was not so easy to give advice while sir louis scatcherd was lying there in that state. chapter xxxvii sir louis leaves greshamsbury janet had been sedulous in her attentions to sir louis, and had not troubled her mistress; but she had not had an easy time of it. her orders had been, that either she or thomas should remain in the room the whole day, and those orders had been obeyed. immediately after breakfast, the baronet had inquired after his own servant. "his confounded nose must be right by this time, i suppose?" "it was very bad, sir louis," said the old woman, who imagined that it might be difficult to induce jonah to come into the house again. "a man in such a place as his has no business to be laid up," said the master, with a whine. "i'll see and get a man who won't break his nose." thomas was sent to the inn three or four times, but in vain. the man was sitting up, well enough, in the tap-room; but the middle of his face was covered with streaks of plaster, and he could not bring himself to expose his wounds before his conqueror. sir louis began by ordering the woman to bring him _chasse-café_. she offered him coffee, as much as he would; but no _chasse_. "a glass of port wine," she said, "at twelve o'clock, and another at three had been ordered for him." "i don't care a ---- for the orders," said sir louis; "send me my own man." the man was again sent for; but would not come. "there's a bottle of that stuff that i take, in that portmanteau, in the left-hand corner--just hand it to me." but janet was not to be done. she would give him no stuff, except what the doctor had ordered, till the doctor came back. the doctor would then, no doubt, give him anything that was proper. sir louis swore a good deal, and stormed as much as he could. he drank, however, his two glasses of wine, and he got no more. once or twice he essayed to get out of bed and dress; but, at every effort, he found that he could not do it without joe: and there he was, still under the clothes when the doctor returned. "i'll tell you what it is," said he, as soon as his guardian entered the room, "i'm not going to be made a prisoner of here." "a prisoner! no, surely not." "it seems very much like it at present. your servant here--that old woman--takes it upon her to say she'll do nothing without your orders." "well; she's right there." "right! i don't know what you call right; but i won't stand it. you are not going to make a child of me, dr thorne; so you need not think it." and then there was a long quarrel between them, and but an indifferent reconciliation. the baronet said that he would go to boxall hill, and was vehement in his intention to do so because the doctor opposed it. he had not, however, as yet ferreted out the squire, or given a bit of his mind to mr gazebee, and it behoved him to do this before he took himself off to his own country mansion. he ended, therefore, by deciding to go on the next day but one. "let it be so, if you are well enough," said the doctor. "well enough!" said the other, with a sneer. "there's nothing to make me ill that i know of. it certainly won't be drinking too much here." on the next day, sir louis was in a different mood, and in one more distressing for the doctor to bear. his compelled abstinence from intemperate drinking had, no doubt, been good for him; but his mind had so much sunk under the pain of the privation, that his state was piteous to behold. he had cried for his servant, as a child cries for its nurse, till at last the doctor, moved to pity, had himself gone out and brought the man in from the public-house. but when he did come, joe was of but little service to his master, as he was altogether prevented from bringing him either wine or spirits; and when he searched for the liqueur-case, he found that even that had been carried away. "i believe you want me to die," he said, as the doctor, sitting by his bedside, was trying, for the hundredth time, to make him understand that he had but one chance of living. the doctor was not the least irritated. it would have been as wise to be irritated by the want of reason in a dog. "i am doing what i can to save your life," he said calmly; "but, as you said just now, i have no power over you. as long as you are able to move and remain in my house, you certainly shall not have the means of destroying yourself. you will be very wise to stay here for a week or ten days: a week or ten days of healthy living might, perhaps, bring you round." sir louis again declared that the doctor wished him to die, and spoke of sending for his attorney, finnie, to come to greshamsbury to look after him. "send for him if you choose," said the doctor. "his coming will cost you three or four pounds, but can do no other harm." "and i will send for fillgrave," threatened the baronet. "i'm not going to die here like a dog." it was certainly hard upon dr thorne that he should be obliged to entertain such a guest in the house;--to entertain him, and foster him, and care for him, almost as though he were a son. but he had no alternative; he had accepted the charge from sir roger, and he must go through with it. his conscience, moreover, allowed him no rest in this matter: it harassed him day and night, driving him on sometimes to great wretchedness. he could not love this incubus that was on his shoulders; he could not do other than be very far from loving him. of what use or value was he to any one? what could the world make of him that would be good, or he of the world? was not an early death his certain fate? the earlier it might be, would it not be the better? were he to linger on yet for two years longer--and such a space of life was possible for him--how great would be the mischief that he might do; nay, certainly would do! farewell then to all hopes for greshamsbury, as far as mary was concerned. farewell then to that dear scheme which lay deep in the doctor's heart, that hope that he might, in his niece's name, give back to the son the lost property of the father. and might not one year--six months be as fatal. frank, they all said, must marry money; and even he--he the doctor himself, much as he despised the idea for money's sake--even he could not but confess that frank, as the heir to an old, but grievously embarrassed property, had no right to marry, at his early age, a girl without a shilling. mary, his niece, his own child, would probably be the heiress of this immense wealth; but he could not tell this to frank; no, nor to frank's father while sir louis was yet alive. what, if by so doing he should achieve this marriage for his niece, and that then sir louis should live to dispose of his own? how then would he face the anger of lady arabella? "i will never hanker after a dead man's shoes, neither for myself nor for another," he had said to himself a hundred times; and as often did he accuse himself of doing so. one path, however, was plainly open before him. he would keep his peace as to the will; and would use such efforts as he might use for a son of his own loins to preserve the life that was so valueless. his wishes, his hopes, his thoughts, he could not control; but his conduct was at his own disposal. "i say, doctor, you don't really think that i'm going to die?" sir louis said, when dr thorne again visited him. "i don't think at all; i am sure you will kill yourself if you continue to live as you have lately done." "but suppose i go all right for a while, and live--live just as you tell me, you know?" "all of us are in god's hands, sir louis. by so doing you will, at any rate, give yourself the best chance." "best chance? why, d----n, doctor! there are fellows have done ten times worse than i; and they are not going to kick. come, now, i know you are trying to frighten me; ain't you, now?" "i am trying to do the best i can for you." "it's very hard on a fellow like me; i have nobody to say a kind word to me; no, not one." and sir louis, in his wretchedness, began to weep. "come, doctor; if you'll put me once more on my legs, i'll let you draw on the estate for five hundred pounds; by g----, i will." the doctor went away to his dinner, and the baronet also had his in bed. he could not eat much, but he was allowed two glasses of wine, and also a little brandy in his coffee. this somewhat invigorated him, and when dr thorne again went to him, in the evening, he did not find him so utterly prostrated in spirit. he had, indeed, made up his mind to a great resolve; and thus unfolded his final scheme for his own reformation:-- "doctor," he began again, "i believe you are an honest fellow; i do indeed." dr thorne could not but thank him for his good opinion. "you ain't annoyed at what i said this morning, are you?" the doctor had forgotten the particular annoyance to which sir louis alluded; and informed him that his mind might be at rest on any such matter. "i do believe you'd be glad to see me well; wouldn't you, now?" the doctor assured him that such was in very truth the case. "well, now, i'll tell you what: i've been thinking about it a great deal to-day; indeed, i have, and i want to do what's right. mightn't i have a little drop more of that stuff, just in a cup of coffee?" the doctor poured him out a cup of coffee, and put about a teaspoonful of brandy in it. sir louis took it with a disconsolate face, not having been accustomed to such measures in the use of his favourite beverage. "i do wish to do what's right--i do, indeed; only, you see, i'm so lonely. as to those fellows up in london, i don't think that one of them cares a straw about me." dr thorne was of the same way of thinking, and he said so. he could not but feel some sympathy with the unfortunate man as he thus spoke of his own lot. it was true that he had been thrown on the world without any one to take care of him. "my dear friend, i will do the best i can in every way; i will, indeed. i do believe that your companions in town have been too ready to lead you astray. drop them, and you may yet do well." "may i though, doctor? well, i will drop them. there's jenkins; he's the best of them; but even he is always wanting to make money of me. not but what i'm up to the best of them in that way." "you had better leave london, sir louis, and change your old mode of life. go to boxall hill for a while; for two or three years or so; live with your mother there and take to farming." "what! farming?" "yes; that's what all country gentlemen do: take the land there into your own hand, and occupy your mind upon it." "well, doctor, i will--upon one condition." dr thorne sat still and listened. he had no idea what the condition might be, but he was not prepared to promise acquiescence till he heard it. "you know what i told you once before," said the baronet. "i don't remember at this moment." "about my getting married, you know." the doctor's brow grew black, and promised no help to the poor wretch. bad in every way, wretched, selfish, sensual, unfeeling, purse-proud, ignorant as sir louis scatcherd was, still, there was left to him the power of feeling something like sincere love. it may be presumed that he did love mary thorne, and that he was at the time earnest in declaring, that if she could be given to him, he would endeavour to live according to her uncle's counsel. it was only a trifle he asked; but, alas! that trifle could not be vouchsafed. "i should much approve of your getting married, but i do not know how i can help you." "of course, i mean to miss mary: i do love her; i really do, dr thorne." "it is quite impossible, sir louis; quite. you do my niece much honour; but i am able to answer for her, positively, that such a proposition is quite out of the question." "look here now, dr thorne; anything in the way of settlements--" "i will not hear a word on the subject: you are very welcome to the use of my house as long as it may suit you to remain here; but i must insist that my niece shall not be troubled on this matter." "do you mean to say she's in love with that young gresham?" this was too much for the doctor's patience. "sir louis," said he, "i can forgive you much for your father's sake. i can also forgive something on the score of your own ill health. but you ought to know, you ought by this time to have learnt, that there are some things which a man cannot forgive. i will not talk to you about my niece; and remember this, also, i will not have her troubled by you:" and, so saying, the doctor left him. on the next day the baronet was sufficiently recovered to be able to resume his braggadocio airs. he swore at janet; insisted on being served by his own man; demanded in a loud voice, but in vain, that his liqueur-case should be restored to him; and desired that post-horses might be ready for him on the morrow. on that day he got up and ate his dinner in his bedroom. on the next morning he countermanded the horses, informing the doctor that he did so because he had a little bit of business to transact with squire gresham before he left the place! with some difficulty, the doctor made him understand that the squire would not see him on business; and it was at last decided, that mr gazebee should be invited to call on him at the doctor's house; and this mr gazebee agreed to do, in order to prevent the annoyance of having the baronet up at greshamsbury. on this day, the evening before mr gazebee's visit, sir louis condescended to come down to dinner. he dined, however, _tête-à-tête_ with the doctor. mary was not there, nor was anything said as to her absence. sir louis scatcherd never set eyes upon her again. he bore himself very arrogantly on that evening, having resumed the airs and would-be dignity which he thought belonged to him as a man of rank and property. in his periods of low spirits, he was abject and humble enough; abject, and fearful of the lamentable destiny which at these moments he believed to be in store for him. but it was one of the peculiar symptoms of his state, that as he partially recovered his bodily health, the tone of his mind recovered itself also, and his fears for the time were relieved. there was very little said between him and the doctor that evening. the doctor sat guarding the wine, and thinking when he should have his house to himself again. sir louis sat moody, every now and then uttering some impertinence as to the greshams and the greshamsbury property, and, at an early hour, allowed joe to put him to bed. the horses were ordered on the next day for three, and, at two, mr gazebee came to the house. he had never been there before, nor had he ever met dr thorne except at the squire's dinner. on this occasion he asked only for the baronet. "ah! ah! i'm glad you're come, mr gazebee; very glad," said sir louis; acting the part of the rich, great man with all the power he had. "i want to ask you a few questions so as to make it all clear sailing between us." "as you have asked to see me, i have come, sir louis," said the other, putting on much dignity as he spoke. "but would it not be better that any business there may be should be done among the lawyers?" "the lawyers are very well, i dare say; but when a man has so large a stake at interest as i have in this greshamsbury property, why, you see, mr gazebee, he feels a little inclined to look after it himself. now, do you know, mr gazebee, how much it is that mr gresham owes me?" mr gazebee, of course, did know very well; but he was not going to discuss the subject with sir louis, if he could help it. "whatever claim your father's estate may have on that of mr gresham is, as far as i understand, vested in dr thorne's hands as trustee. i am inclined to believe that you have not yourself at present any claim on greshamsbury. the interest, as it becomes due, is paid to dr thorne; and if i may be allowed to make a suggestion, i would say that it will not be expedient to make any change in that arrangement till the property shall come into your own hands." "i differ from you entirely, mr gazebee; _in toto_, as we used to say at eton. what you mean to say is--i can't go to law with mr gresham; i'm not so sure of that; but perhaps not. but i can compel dr thorne to look after my interests. i can force him to foreclose. and to tell you the truth, gazebee, unless some arrangement is proposed to me which i shall think advantageous, i shall do so at once. there is near a hundred thousand pounds owing to me; yes to me. thorne is only a name in the matter. the money is my money; and, by ----, i mean to look after it." "have you any doubt, sir louis, as to the money being secure?" "yes, i have. it isn't so easy to have a hundred thousand pounds secured. the squire is a poor man, and i don't choose to allow a poor man to owe me such a sum as that. besides, i mean to invest it in land. i tell you fairly, therefore, i shall foreclose." mr gazebee, using all the perspicuity which his professional education had left to him, tried to make sir louis understand that he had no power to do anything of the kind. "no power! mr gresham shall see whether i have no power. when a man has a hundred thousand pounds owing to him he ought to have some power; and, as i take it, he has. but we will see. perhaps you know finnie, do you?" mr gazebee, with a good deal of scorn in his face, said that he had not that pleasure. mr finnie was not in his line. "well, you will know him then, and you'll find he's sharp enough; that is, unless i have some offer made to me that i may choose to accept." mr gazebee declared that he was not instructed to make any offer, and so he took his leave. on that afternoon, sir louis went off to boxall hill, transferring the miserable task of superintending his self-destruction from the shoulders of the doctor to those of his mother. of lady scatcherd, the baronet took no account in his proposed sojourn in the country, nor did he take much of the doctor in leaving greshamsbury. he again wrapped himself in his furs, and, with tottering steps, climbed up into the barouche which was to carry him away. "is my man up behind?" he said to janet, while the doctor was standing at the little front garden-gate, making his adieux. "no, sir, he's not up yet," said janet, respectfully. "then send him out, will you? i can't lose my time waiting here all day." "i shall come over to boxall hill and see you," said the doctor, whose heart softened towards the man, in spite of his brutality, as the hour of his departure came. "i shall be happy to see you if you like to come, of course; that is, in the way of visiting, and that sort of thing. as for doctoring, if i want any i shall send for fillgrave." such were his last words as the carriage, with a rush, went off from the door. the doctor, as he re-entered the house, could not avoid smiling, for he thought of dr fillgrave's last patient at boxall hill. "it's a question to me," said he to himself, "whether dr fillgrave will ever be induced to make another visit to that house, even with the object of rescuing a baronet out of my hands." "he's gone; isn't he, uncle?" said mary, coming out of her room. "yes, my dear; he's gone, poor fellow." "he may be a poor fellow, uncle; but he's a very disagreeable inmate in a house. i have not had any dinner these two days." "and i haven't had what can be called a cup of tea since he's been in the house. but i'll make up for that to-night." chapter xxxviii de courcy precepts and de courcy practice there is a mode of novel-writing which used to be much in vogue, but which has now gone out of fashion. it is, nevertheless, one which is very expressive when in good hands, and which enables the author to tell his story, or some portion of his story, with more natural trust than any other, i mean that of familiar letters. i trust i shall be excused if i attempt it as regards this one chapter; though, it may be, that i shall break down and fall into the commonplace narrative, even before the one chapter be completed. the correspondents are the lady amelia de courcy and miss gresham. i, of course, give precedence to the higher rank, but the first epistle originated with the latter-named young lady. let me hope that they will explain themselves. miss gresham to lady amelia de courcy greshamsbury house, june, --. my dearest amelia, i wish to consult you on a subject which, as you will perceive, is of a most momentous nature. you know how much reliance i place in your judgement and knowledge of what is proper, and, therefore, i write to you before speaking to any other living person on the subject: not even to mamma; for, although her judgement is good too, she has so many cares and troubles, that it is natural that it should be a little warped when the interests of her children are concerned. now that it is all over, i feel that it may possibly have been so in the case of mr moffat. you are aware that mr mortimer gazebee is now staying here, and that he has been here for nearly two months. he is engaged in managing poor papa's affairs, and mamma, who likes him very much, says that he is a most excellent man of business. of course, you know that he is the junior partner in the very old firm of gumption, gazebee, & gazebee, who, i understand, do not undertake any business at all, except what comes to them from peers, or commoners of the very highest class. i soon perceived, dearest amelia, that mr gazebee paid me more than ordinary attention, and i immediately became very guarded in my manner. i certainly liked mr gazebee from the first. his manners are quite excellent, his conduct to mamma is charming, and, as regards myself, i must say that there has been nothing in his behaviour of which even _you_ could complain. he has never attempted the slightest familiarity, and i will do him the justice to say, that, though he has been very attentive, he has also been very respectful. i must confess that, for the last three weeks, i have thought that he meant something. i might, perhaps, have done more to repel him; or i might have consulted you earlier as to the propriety of keeping altogether out of his way. but you know, amelia, how often these things lead to nothing, and though i thought all along that mr gazebee was in earnest, i hardly liked to say anything about it even to you till i was quite certain. if you had advised me, you know, to accept his offer, and if, after that, he had never made it, i should have felt so foolish. but now he has made it. he came to me yesterday just before dinner, in the little drawing-room, and told me, in the most delicate manner, in words that even you could not have but approved, that his highest ambition was to be thought worthy of my regard, and that he felt for me the warmest love, and the most profound admiration, and the deepest respect. you may say, amelia, that he is only an attorney, and i believe that he is an attorney; but i am sure you would have esteemed him had you heard the very delicate way in which he expressed his sentiments. something had given me a presentiment of what he was going to do when i saw him come into the room, so that i was on my guard. i tried very hard to show no emotion; but i suppose i was a little flurried, as i once detected myself calling him mr mortimer: his name, you know, is mortimer gazebee. i ought not to have done so, certainly; but it was not so bad as if i had called him mortimer without the mr, was it? i don't think there could possibly be a prettier christian name than mortimer. well, amelia, i allowed him to express himself without interruption. he once attempted to take my hand; but even this was done without any assumption of familiarity; and when he saw that i would not permit it, he drew back, and fixed his eyes on the ground as though he were ashamed even of that. of course, i had to give him an answer; and though i had expected that something of this sort would take place, i had not made up my mind on the subject. i would not, certainly, under any circumstances, accept him without consulting you. if i really disliked him, of course there would be no doubt; but i can't say, dearest amelia, that i do absolutely dislike him; and i really think that we would make each other very happy, if the marriage were suitable as regarded both our positions. i collected myself as well as i could, and i really do think that you would have said that i did not behave badly, though the position was rather trying. i told him that, of course, i was flattered by his sentiments, though much surprised at hearing them; that since i knew him, i had esteemed and valued him as an acquaintance, but that, looking on him as a man of business, i had never expected anything more. i then endeavoured to explain to him, that i was not perhaps privileged, as some other girls might be, to indulge my own feelings altogether: perhaps that was saying too much, and might make him think that i was in love with him; but, from the way i said it, i don't think he would, for i was very much guarded in my manner, and very collected; and then i told him, that in any proposal of marriage that might be made to me, it would be my duty to consult my family as much, if not more than myself. he said, of course; and asked whether he might speak to papa. i tried to make him understand, that in talking of my family, i did not exactly mean papa, or even mamma. of course i was thinking of what was due to the name of gresham. i know very well what papa would say. he would give his consent in half a minute; he is so broken-hearted by these debts. and, to tell you the truth, amelia, i think mamma would too. he did not seem quite to comprehend what i meant; but he did say that he knew it was a high ambition to marry into the family of the greshams. i am sure you would confess that he has the most proper feelings; and as for expressing them no man could do it better. he owned that it was ambition to ally himself with a family above his own rank in life, and that he looked to doing so as a means of advancing himself. now this was at any rate honest. that was one of his motives, he said; though, of course, not his first: and then he declared how truly attached he was to me. in answer to this, i remarked, that he had known me only a very short time. this, perhaps, was giving him too much encouragement; but, at that moment, i hardly knew what to say, for i did not wish to hurt his feelings. he then spoke of his income. he has fifteen hundred a year from the business, and that will be greatly increased when his father leaves it; and his father is much older than mr gumption, though he is only the second partner. mortimer gazebee will be the senior partner himself before very long; and perhaps that does alter his position a little. he has a very nice place down somewhere in surrey; i have heard mamma say it is quite a gentleman's place. it is let now; but he will live there when he is married. and he has property of his own besides which he can settle. so, you see, he is quite as well off as mr oriel; better, indeed; and if a man is in a profession, i believe it is considered that it does not much matter what. of course, a clergyman can be a bishop; but then, i think i have heard that one attorney did once become lord chancellor. i should have my carriage, you know; i remember his saying that, especially, though i cannot recollect how he brought it in. i told him, at last, that i was so much taken by surprise that i could not give him an answer then. he was going up to london, he said, on the next day, and might he be permitted to address me on the same subject when he returned? i could not refuse him, you know; and so now i have taken the opportunity of his absence to write to you for your advice. you understand the world so very well, and know so exactly what one ought to do in such a strange position! i hope i have made it intelligible, at least, as to what i have written about. i have said nothing as to my own feelings, because i wish you to think on the matter without consulting them. if it would be derogatory to accept mr gazebee, i certainly would not do so because i happen to like him. if we were to act in that way, what would the world come to, amelia? perhaps my ideas may be overstrained; if so, you will tell me. when mr oriel proposed for beatrice, nobody seemed to make any objection. it all seemed to go as a matter of course. she says that his family is excellent; but as far as i can learn, his grandfather was a general in india, and came home very rich. mr gazebee's grandfather was a member of the firm, and so, i believe, was his great-grandfather. don't you think this ought to count for something? besides, they have no business except with the most aristocratic persons, such as uncle de courcy, and the marquis of kensington gore, and that sort. i mention the marquis, because mr mortimer gazebee is there now. and i know that one of the gumptions was once in parliament; and i don't think that any of the oriels ever were. the name of attorney is certainly very bad, is it not, amelia? but they certainly do not seem to be all the same, and i do think that this ought to make a difference. to hear mr mortimer gazebee talk of some attorney at barchester, you would say that there is quite as much difference between them as between a bishop and a curate. and so i think there is. i don't wish at all to speak of my own feelings; but if he were not an attorney, he is, i think, the sort of man i should like. he is very nice in every way, and if you were not told, i don't think you'd know he was an attorney. but, dear amelia, i will be guided by you altogether. he is certainly much nicer than mr moffat, and has a great deal more to say for himself. of course, mr moffat having been in parliament, and having been taken up by uncle de courcy, was in a different sphere; but i really felt almost relieved when he behaved in that way. with mortimer gazebee, i think it would be different. i shall wait so impatiently for your answer, so do pray write at once. i hear some people say that these sort of things are not so much thought of now as they were once, and that all manner of marriages are considered to be _comme il faut_. i do not want, you know, to make myself foolish by being too particular. perhaps all these changes are bad, and i rather think they are; but if the world changes, one must change too; one can't go against the world. so do write and tell me what you think. do not suppose that i dislike the man, for i really cannot say that i do. but i would not for anything make an alliance for which any one bearing the name of de courcy would have to blush. always, dearest amelia, your most affectionate cousin, augusta gresham. p.s.--i fear frank is going to be very foolish with mary thorne. you know it is absolutely important that frank should marry money. it strikes me as quite possible that mortimer gazebee may be in parliament some of these days. he is just the man for it. poor augusta prayed very hard for her husband; but she prayed to a bosom that on this subject was as hard as a flint, and she prayed in vain. augusta gresham was twenty-two, lady amelia de courcy was thirty-four; was it likely that lady amelia would permit augusta to marry, the issue having thus been left in her hands? why should augusta derogate from her position by marrying beneath herself, seeing that lady amelia had spent so many more years in the world without having found it necessary to do so? augusta's letter was written on two sheets of note-paper, crossed all over; and lady amelia's answer was almost equally formidable. lady amelia de courcy to miss augusta gresham courcy castle, june, --. my dear augusta, i received your letter yesterday morning, but i have put off answering it till this evening, as i have wished to give it very mature consideration. the question is one which concerns, not only your character, but happiness for life, and nothing less than very mature consideration would justify me in giving a decided opinion on the subject. in the first place, i may tell you, that i have not a word to say against mr mortimer gazebee. [when augusta had read as far as this, her heart sank within her; the rest was all leather and prunella; she saw at once that the fiat had gone against her, and that her wish to become mrs mortimer gazebee was not to be indulged.] i have known him for a long time, and i believe him to be a very respectable person, and i have no doubt a good man of business. the firm of messrs gumption & gazebee stands probably quite among the first attorneys in london, and i know that papa has a very high opinion of them. all of these would be excellent arguments to use in favour of mr gazebee as a suitor, had his proposals been made to any one in his own rank of life. but you, in considering the matter, should, i think, look on it in a very different light. the very fact that you pronounce him to be so much superior to other attorneys, shows in how very low esteem you hold the profession in general. it shows also, dear augusta, how well aware you are that they are a class of people among whom you should not seek a partner for life. my opinion is, that you should make mr gazebee understand--very courteously, of course--that you cannot accept his hand. you observe that he himself confesses, that in marrying you he would seek a wife in a rank above his own. is it not, therefore, clear, that in marrying him, you would descend to a rank below your own? i shall be very sorry if this grieves you; but still it will be better that you should bear the grief of overcoming a temporary fancy, than take a step which may so probably make you unhappy; and which some of your friends would certainly regard as disgraceful. it is not permitted to us, my dear augusta, to think of ourselves in such matters. as you truly say, if we were to act in that way, what would the world come to? it has been god's pleasure that we should be born with high blood in our veins. this is a great boon which we both value, but the boon has its responsibilities as well as its privileges. it is established by law, that the royal family shall not intermarry with subjects. in our case there is no law, but the necessity is not the less felt; we should not intermarry with those who are probably of a lower rank. mr mortimer gazebee is, after all, only an attorney; and, although you speak of his great-grandfather, he is a man of no blood whatsoever. you must acknowledge that such an admixture should be looked on by a de courcy, or even by a gresham, as a pollution. [here augusta got very red, and she felt almost inclined to be angry with her cousin.] beatrice's marriage with mr oriel is different; though, remember, i am by no means defending that; it may be good or bad, and i have had no opportunity of inquiring respecting mr oriel's family. beatrice, moreover, has never appeared to me to feel what was due to herself in such matters; but, as i said, her marriage with mr oriel is very different. clergymen--particularly the rectors and vicars of country parishes--do become privileged above other professional men. i could explain why, but it would be too long in a letter. your feelings on the subject altogether do you great credit. i have no doubt that mr gresham, if asked, would accede to the match; but that is just the reason why he should not be asked. it would not be right that i should say anything against your father to you; but it is impossible for any of us not to see that all through life he has thrown away every advantage, and sacrificed his family. why is he now in debt, as you say? why is he not holding the family seat in parliament? even though you are his daughter, you cannot but feel that you would not do right to consult him on such a subject. as to dear aunt, i feel sure, that were she in good health, and left to exercise her own judgement, she would not wish to see you married to the agent for the family estate. for, dear augusta, that is the real truth. mr gazebee often comes here in the way of business; and though papa always receives him as a gentleman--that is, he dines at table and all that--he is not on the same footing in the house as the ordinary guests and friends of the family. how would you like to be received at courcy castle in the same way? you will say, perhaps, that you would still be papa's niece; so you would. but you know how strict in such matters papa is, and you must remember, that the wife always follows the rank of the husband. papa is accustomed to the strict etiquette of a court, and i am sure that no consideration would induce him to receive the estate-agent in the light of a nephew. indeed, were you to marry mr gazebee, the house to which he belongs would, i imagine, have to give up the management of this property. even were mr gazebee in parliament--and i do not see how it is probable that he should get there--it would not make any difference. you must remember, dearest, that i never was an advocate for the moffat match. i acquiesced in it, because mamma did so. if i could have had my own way, i would adhere to all our old prescriptive principles. neither money nor position can atone to me for low birth. but the world, alas! is retrograding; and, according to the new-fangled doctrines of the day, a lady of blood is not disgraced by allying herself to a man of wealth, and what may be called quasi-aristocratic position. i wish it were otherwise; but so it is. and, therefore, the match with mr moffat was not disgraceful, though it could not be regarded as altogether satisfactory. but with mr gazebee the matter would be altogether different. he is a man earning his bread; honestly, i dare say, but in a humble position. you say he is very respectable: i do not doubt it; and so is mr scraggs, the butcher at courcy. you see, augusta, to what such arguments reduce you. i dare say he may be nicer than mr moffat, in one way. that is, he may have more small-talk at his command, and be more clever in all those little pursuits and amusements which are valued by ordinary young ladies. but my opinion is, that neither i nor you would be justified in sacrificing ourselves for such amusements. we have high duties before us. it may be that the performance of those duties will prohibit us from taking a part in the ordinary arena of the feminine world. it is natural that girls should wish to marry; and, therefore, those who are weak, take the first that come. those who have more judgement, make some sort of selection. but the strongest-minded are, perhaps, those who are able to forgo themselves and their own fancies, and to refrain from any alliance that does not tend to the maintenance of high principles. of course, i speak of those who have blood in their veins. you and i need not dilate as to the conduct of others. i hope what i have said will convince you. indeed, i know that it only requires that you and i should have a little cousinly talk on this matter to be quite in accord. you must now remain at greshamsbury till mr gazebee shall return. immediately that he does so, seek an interview with him; do not wait till he asks for it; then tell him, that when he addressed you, the matter had taken you so much by surprise, that you were not at the moment able to answer him with that decision that the subject demanded. tell him, that you are flattered--in saying this, however, you must keep a collected countenance, and be very cold in your manner--but that family reasons would forbid you to avail yourself of his offer, even did no other cause prevent it. and then, dear augusta, come to us here. i know you will be a little down-hearted after going through this struggle; but i will endeavour to inspirit you. when we are both together, you will feel more sensibly the value of that high position which you will preserve by rejecting mr gazebee, and will regret less acutely whatever you may lose. your very affectionate cousin, amelia de courcy. p.s.--i am greatly grieved about frank; but i have long feared that he would do some very silly thing. i have heard lately that miss mary thorne is not even the legitimate niece of your dr thorne, but is the daughter of some poor creature who was seduced by the doctor, in barchester. i do not know how true this may be, but i think your brother should be put on his guard: it might do good. poor augusta! she was in truth to be pitied, for her efforts were made with the intention of doing right according to her lights. for mr moffat she had never cared a straw; and when, therefore, she lost the piece of gilding for which she had been instructed by her mother to sell herself, it was impossible to pity her. but mr gazebee she would have loved with that sort of love which it was in her power to bestow. with him she would have been happy, respectable, and contented. she had written her letter with great care. when the offer was made to her, she could not bring herself to throw lady amelia to the winds and marry the man, as it were, out of her own head. lady amelia had been the tyrant of her life, and so she strove hard to obtain her tyrant's permission. she used all her little cunning in showing that, after all, mr gazebee was not so very plebeian. all her little cunning was utterly worthless. lady amelia's mind was too strong to be caught with such chaff. augusta could not serve god and mammon. she must either be true to the god of her cousin's idolatry, and remain single, or serve the mammon of her own inclinations, and marry mr gazebee. when refolding her cousin's letter, after the first perusal, she did for a moment think of rebellion. could she not be happy at the nice place in surrey, having, as she would have, a carriage, even though all the de courcys should drop her? it had been put to her that she would not like to be received at courcy castle with the scant civility which would be considered due to a mrs mortimer gazebee; but what if she could put up without being received at courcy castle at all? such ideas did float through her mind, dimly. but her courage failed her. it is so hard to throw off a tyrant; so much easier to yield, when we have been in the habit of yielding. this third letter, therefore, was written; and it is the end of the correspondence. miss augusta gresham to lady amelia de courcy greshamsbury house, july, --. my dearest amelia, i did not answer your letter before, because i thought it better to delay doing so till mr gazebee had been here. he came the day before yesterday, and yesterday i did, as nearly as possible, what you advised. perhaps, on the whole, it will be better. as you say, rank has its responsibilities as well as its privileges. i don't quite understand what you mean about clergymen, but we can talk that over when we meet. indeed, it seems to me that if one is to be particular about family--and i am sure i think we ought--one ought to be so without exception. if mr oriel be a _parvenu_, beatrice's children won't be well born merely because their father was a clergyman, even though he is a rector. since my former letter, i have heard that mr gazebee's great-great-great-grandfather established the firm; and there are many people who were nobodies then who are thought to have good blood in their veins now. but i do not say this because i differ from you. i agree with you so fully, that i at once made up my mind to reject the man; and, consequently, i have done so. when i told him i could not accept him from family considerations, he asked me whether i had spoken to papa. i told him, no; and that it would be no good, as i had made up my own mind. i don't think he quite understood me; but it did not perhaps much matter. you told me to be very cold, and i think that perhaps he thought me less gracious than before. indeed, i fear that when he first spoke, i may seem to have given him too much encouragement. however, it is all over now; quite over! [as augusta wrote this, she barely managed to save the paper beneath her hand from being moistened with the tear which escaped from her eye.] i do not mind confessing now, [she continued] at any rate to you, that i did like mr gazebee a little. i think his temper and disposition would have suited me. but i am quite satisfied that i have done right. he tried very hard to make me change my mind. that is, he said a great many things as to whether i would not put off my decision. but i was quite firm. i must say that he behaved very well, and that i really do think he liked me honestly and truly; but, of course, i could not sacrifice family considerations on that account. yes, rank has its responsibilities as well as its privileges. i will remember that. it is necessary to do so, as otherwise one would be without consolation for what one has to suffer. for i find that one has to suffer, amelia. i know papa would have advised me to marry this man; and so, i dare say, mamma would, and frank, and beatrice, if they knew that i liked him. it would not be so bad if we all thought alike about it; but it is hard to have the responsibilities all on one's own shoulder; is it not? but i will go over to you, and you will comfort me. i always feel stronger on this subject at courcy than at greshamsbury. we will have a long talk about it, and then i shall be happy again. i purpose going on next friday, if that will suit you and dear aunt. i have told mamma that you all wanted me, and she made no objection. do write at once, dearest amelia, for to hear from you now will be my only comfort. yours, ever most affectionately and obliged, augusta gresham. p.s.--i told mamma what you said about mary thorne, and she said, "yes; i suppose all the world knows it now; and if all the world did know it, it makes no difference to frank." she seemed very angry; so you see it was true. though, by so doing, we shall somewhat anticipate the end of our story, it may be desirable that the full tale of mr gazebee's loves should be told here. when mary is breaking her heart on her death-bed in the last chapter, or otherwise accomplishing her destiny, we shall hardly find a fit opportunity of saying much about mr gazebee and his aristocratic bride. for he did succeed at last in obtaining a bride in whose veins ran the noble ichor of de courcy blood, in spite of the high doctrine preached so eloquently by the lady amelia. as augusta had truly said, he had failed to understand her. he was led to think, by her manner of receiving his first proposal--and justly so, enough--that she liked him, and would accept him; and he was, therefore, rather perplexed by his second interview. he tried again and again, and begged permission to mention the matter to mr gresham; but augusta was very firm, and he at last retired in disgust. augusta went to courcy castle, and received from her cousin that consolation and re-strengthening which she so much required. four years afterwards--long after the fate of mary thorne had fallen, like a thunderbolt, on the inhabitants of greshamsbury; when beatrice was preparing for her second baby, and each of the twins had her accepted lover--mr mortimer gazebee went down to courcy castle; of course, on matters of business. no doubt he dined at the table, and all that. we have the word of lady amelia, that the earl, with his usual good-nature, allowed him such privileges. let us hope that he never encroached on them. but on this occasion, mr gazebee stayed a long time at the castle, and singular rumours as to the cause of his prolonged visit became current in the little town. no female scion of the present family of courcy had, as yet, found a mate. we may imagine that eagles find it difficult to pair when they become scarce in their localities; and we all know how hard it has sometimes been to get _comme il faut_ husbands when there has been any number of protestant princesses on hand. some such difficulty had, doubtless, brought it about that the countess was still surrounded by her full bevy of maidens. rank has its responsibilities as well as its privileges, and these young ladies' responsibilities seemed to have consisted in rejecting any suitor who may have hitherto kneeled to them. but now it was told through courcy, that one suitor had kneeled, and not in vain; from courcy the rumour flew to barchester, and thence came down to greshamsbury, startling the inhabitants, and making one poor heart throb with a violence that would have been piteous had it been known. the suitor, so named, was mr mortimer gazebee. yes; mr mortimer gazebee had now awarded to him many other privileges than those of dining at the table, and all that. he rode with the young ladies in the park, and they all talked to him very familiarly before company; all except the lady amelia. the countess even called him mortimer, and treated him quite as one of the family. at last came a letter from the countess to her dear sister arabella. it should be given at length, but that i fear to introduce another epistle. it is such an easy mode of writing, and facility is always dangerous. in this letter it was announced with much preliminary ambiguity, that mortimer gazebee--who had been found to be a treasure in every way; quite a paragon of men--was about to be taken into the de courcy bosom as a child of that house. on that day fortnight, he was destined to lead to the altar--the lady amelia. the countess then went on to say, that dear amelia did not write herself, being so much engaged by her coming duties--the responsibilities of which she doubtless fully realised, as well as the privileges; but she had begged her mother to request that the twins should come and act as bridesmaids on the occasion. dear augusta, she knew, was too much occupied in the coming event in mr oriel's family to be able to attend. mr mortimer gazebee was taken into the de courcy family, and did lead the lady amelia to the altar; and the gresham twins did go there and act as bridesmaids. and, which is much more to say for human nature, augusta did forgive her cousin, and, after a certain interval, went on a visit to that nice place in surrey which she had once hoped would be her own home. it would have been a very nice place, augusta thought, had not lady amelia gazebee been so very economical. we must presume that there was some explanation between them. if so, augusta yielded to it, and confessed it to be satisfactory. she had always yielded to her cousin, and loved her with that sort of love which is begotten between fear and respect. anything was better than quarrelling with her cousin amelia. and mr mortimer gazebee did not altogether make a bad bargain. he never received a shilling of dowry, but that he had not expected. nor did he want it. his troubles arose from the overstrained economy of his noble wife. she would have it, that as she had married a poor man--mr gazebee, however, was not a poor man--it behoved her to manage her house with great care. such a match as that she had made--this she told in confidence to augusta--had its responsibilities as well as its privileges. but, on the whole, mr gazebee did not repent his bargain; when he asked his friends to dine, he could tell them that lady amelia would be very glad to see them; his marriage gave him some éclat at his club, and some additional weight in the firm to which he belonged; he gets his share of the courcy shooting, and is asked about to greshamsbury and other barsetshire houses, not only "to dine at table and all that," but to take his part in whatever delights country society there has to offer. he lives with the great hope that his noble father-in-law may some day be able to bring him into parliament. chapter xxxix what the world says about blood "beatrice," said frank, rushing suddenly into his sister's room, "i want you to do me one especial favour." this was three or four days after frank had seen mary thorne. since that time he had spoken to none of his family on the subject; but he was only postponing from day to day the task of telling his father. he had now completed his round of visits to the kennel, master huntsman, and stables of the county hunt, and was at liberty to attend to his own affairs. so he had decided on speaking to the squire that very day; but he first made his request to his sister. "i want you to do me one especial favour." the day for beatrice's marriage had now been fixed, and it was not to be very distant. mr oriel had urged that their honeymoon trip would lose half its delights if they did not take advantage of the fine weather; and beatrice had nothing to allege in answer. the day had just been fixed, and when frank ran into her room with his special request, she was not in a humour to refuse him anything. "if you wish me to be at your wedding, you must do it," said he. "wish you to be there! you must be there, of course. oh, frank! what do you mean? i'll do anything you ask; if it is not to go to the moon, or anything of that sort." frank was too much in earnest to joke. "you must have mary for one of your bridesmaids," he said. "now, mind; there may be some difficulty, but you must insist on it. i know what has been going on; but it is not to be borne that she should be excluded on such a day as that. you that have been like sisters all your lives till a year ago!" "but, frank--" "now, beatrice, don't have any buts; say that you will do it, and it will be done: i am sure oriel will approve, and so will my father." "but, frank, you won't hear me." "not if you make objections; i have set my heart on your doing it." "but i had set my heart on the same thing." "well?" "and i went to mary on purpose; and told her just as you tell me now, that she must come. i meant to make mamma understand that i could not be happy unless it were so; but mary positively refused." "refused! what did she say?" "i could not tell you what she said; indeed, it would not be right if i could; but she positively declined. she seemed to feel, that after all that had happened, she never could come to greshamsbury again." "fiddlestick!" "but, frank, those are her feelings; and, to tell the truth, i could not combat them. i know she is not happy; but time will cure that. and, to tell you the truth, frank--" "it was before i came back that you asked her, was it not?" "yes; just the day before you came, i think." "well, it's all altered now. i have seen her since that." "have you frank?" "what do you take me for? of course, i have. the very first day i went to her. and now, beatrice, you may believe me or not, as you like; but if i ever marry, i shall marry mary thorne; and if ever she marries, i think i may say, she will marry me. at any rate, i have her promise. and now, you cannot be surprised that i should wish her to be at your wedding; or that i should declare, that if she is absent, i will be absent. i don't want any secrets, and you may tell my mother if you like it--and all the de courcys too, for anything i care." frank had ever been used to command his sisters: and they, especially beatrice, had ever been used to obey. on this occasion, she was well inclined to do so, if she only knew how. she again remembered how mary had once sworn to be at her wedding, to be near her, and to touch her--even though all the blood of the de courcys should be crowded before the altar railings. "i should be so happy that she should be there; but what am i to do, frank, if she refuses? i have asked her, and she has refused." "go to her again; you need not have any scruples with her. do not i tell you she will be your sister? not come here again to greshamsbury! why, i tell you that she will be living here while you are living there at the parsonage, for years and years to come." beatrice promised that she would go to mary again, and that she would endeavour to talk her mother over if mary would consent to come. but she could not yet make herself believe that mary thorne would ever be mistress of greshamsbury. it was so indispensably necessary that frank should marry money! besides, what were those horrid rumours which were now becoming rife as to mary's birth; rumours more horrid than any which had yet been heard? augusta had said hardly more than the truth when she spoke of her father being broken-hearted by his debts. his troubles were becoming almost too many for him; and mr gazebee, though no doubt he was an excellent man of business, did not seem to lessen them. mr gazebee, indeed, was continually pointing out how much he owed, and in what a quagmire of difficulties he had entangled himself. now, to do mr yates umbleby justice, he had never made himself disagreeable in this manner. mr gazebee had been doubtless right, when he declared that sir louis scatcherd had not himself the power to take any steps hostile to the squire; but sir louis had also been right, when he boasted that, in spite of his father's will, he could cause others to move in the matter. others did move, and were moving, and it began to be understood that a moiety, at least, of the remaining greshamsbury property must be sold. even this, however, would by no means leave the squire in undisturbed possession of the other moiety. and thus, mr gresham was nearly broken-hearted. frank had now been at home a week, and his father had not as yet spoken to him about the family troubles; nor had a word as yet been said between them as to mary thorne. it had been agreed that frank should go away for twelve months, in order that he might forget her. he had been away the twelvemonth, and had now returned, not having forgotten her. it generally happens, that in every household, one subject of importance occupies it at a time. the subject of importance now mostly thought of in the greshamsbury household, was the marriage of beatrice. lady arabella had to supply the trousseau for her daughter; the squire had to supply the money for the trousseau; mr gazebee had the task of obtaining the money for the squire. while this was going on, mr gresham was not anxious to talk to his son, either about his own debts or his son's love. there would be time for these things when the marriage-feast should be over. so thought the father, but the matter was precipitated by frank. he also had put off the declaration which he had to make, partly from a wish to spare the squire, but partly also with a view to spare himself. we have all some of that cowardice which induces us to postpone an inevitably evil day. at this time the discussions as to beatrice's wedding were frequent in the house, and at one of them frank had heard his mother repeat the names of the proposed bridesmaids. mary's name was not among them, and hence had arisen his attack on his sister. lady arabella had had her reason for naming the list before her son; but she overshot her mark. she wished to show him how totally mary was forgotten at greshamsbury; but she only inspired him with a resolve that she should not be forgotten. he accordingly went to his sister; and then, the subject being full on his mind, he resolved at once to discuss it with his father. "sir, are you at leisure for five minutes?" he said, entering the room in which the squire was accustomed to sit majestically, to receive his tenants, scold his dependants, and in which, in former happy days, he had always arranged the meets of the barsetshire hunt. mr gresham was quite at leisure: when was he not so? but had he been immersed in the deepest business of which he was capable, he would gladly have put it aside at his son's instance. "i don't like to have any secret from you, sir," said frank; "nor, for the matter of that, from anybody else"--the anybody else was intended to have reference to his mother--"and, therefore, i would rather tell you at once what i have made up my mind to do." frank's address was very abrupt, and he felt it was so. he was rather red in the face, and his manner was fluttered. he had quite made up his mind to break the whole affair to his father; but he had hardly made up his mind as to the best mode of doing so. "good heavens, frank! what do you mean? you are not going to do anything rash? what is it you mean, frank?" "i don't think it is rash," said frank. "sit down, my boy; sit down. what is it that you say you are going to do?" "nothing immediately, sir," said he, rather abashed; "but as i have made up my mind about mary thorne,--quite made up my mind, i think it right to tell you." "oh, about mary," said the squire, almost relieved. and then frank, in voluble language, which he hardly, however, had quite under his command, told his father all that had passed between him and mary. "you see, sir," said he, "that it is fixed now, and cannot be altered. nor must it be altered. you asked me to go away for twelve months, and i have done so. it has made no difference, you see. as to our means of living, i am quite willing to do anything that may be best and most prudent. i was thinking, sir, of taking a farm somewhere near here, and living on that." the squire sat quite silent for some moments after this communication had been made to him. frank's conduct, as a son, had been such that he could not find fault with it; and, in this special matter of his love, how was it possible for him to find fault? he himself was almost as fond of mary as of a daughter; and, though he too would have been desirous that his son should relieve the estate from its embarrassments by a rich marriage, he did not at all share lady arabella's feelings on the subject. no countess de courcy had ever engraved it on the tablets of his mind that the world would come to ruin if frank did not marry money. ruin there was, and would be, but it had been brought about by no sin of frank's. "do you remember about her birth, frank?" he said, at last. "yes, sir; everything. she told me all she knew; and dr thorne finished the story." "and what do you think of it?" "it is a pity, and a misfortune. it might, perhaps, have been a reason why you or my mother should not have had mary in the house many years ago; but it cannot make any difference now." frank had not meant to lean so heavily on his father; but he did do so. the story had never been told to lady arabella; was not even known to her now, positively, and on good authority. but mr gresham had always known it. if mary's birth was so great a stain upon her, why had he brought her into his house among his children? "it is a misfortune, frank; a very great misfortune. it will not do for you and me to ignore birth; too much of the value of one's position depends upon it." "but what was mr moffat's birth?" said frank, almost with scorn; "or what miss dunstable's?" he would have added, had it not been that his father had not been concerned in that sin of wedding him to the oil of lebanon. "true, frank. but yet, what you would mean to say is not true. we must take the world as we find it. were you to marry a rich heiress, were her birth even as low as that of poor mary--" "don't call her poor mary, father; she is not poor. my wife will have a right to take rank in the world, however she was born." "well,--poor in that way. but were she an heiress, the world would forgive her birth on account of her wealth." "the world is very complaisant, sir." "you must take it as you find it, frank. i only say that such is the fact. if porlock were to marry the daughter of a shoeblack, without a farthing, he would make a _mésalliance_; but if the daughter of the shoeblack had half a million of money, nobody would dream of saying so. i am stating no opinion of my own: i am only giving you the world's opinion." "i don't give a straw for the world." "that is a mistake, my boy; you do care for it, and would be very foolish if you did not. what you mean is, that, on this particular point, you value your love more than the world's opinion." "well, yes, that is what i mean." but the squire, though he had been very lucid in his definition, had got no nearer to his object; had not even yet ascertained what his own object was. this marriage would be ruinous to greshamsbury; and yet, what was he to say against it, seeing that the ruin had been his fault, and not his son's? "you could let me have a farm; could you not, sir? i was thinking of about six or seven hundred acres. i suppose it could be managed somehow?" "a farm?" said the father, abstractedly. "yes, sir. i must do something for my living. i should make less of a mess of that than of anything else. besides, it would take such a time to be an attorney, or a doctor, or anything of that sort." do something for his living! and was the heir of greshamsbury come to this--the heir and only son? whereas, he, the squire, had succeeded at an earlier age than frank's to an unembarrassed income of fourteen thousand pounds a year! the reflection was very hard to bear. "yes: i dare say you could have a farm:" and then he threw himself back in his chair, closing his eyes. then, after a while, rose again, and walked hurriedly about the room. "frank," he said, at last, standing opposite to his son, "i wonder what you think of me?" "think of you, sir?" ejaculated frank. "yes; what do you think of me, for having thus ruined you. i wonder whether you hate me?" frank, jumping up from his chair, threw his arms round his father's neck. "hate you, sir? how can you speak so cruelly? you know well that i love you. and, father, do not trouble yourself about the estate for my sake. i do not care for it; i can be just as happy without it. let the girls have what is left, and i will make my own way in the world, somehow. i will go to australia; yes, sir, that will be best. i and mary will both go. nobody will care about her birth there. but, father, never say, never think, that i do not love you!" the squire was too much moved to speak at once, so he sat down again, and covered his face with his hands. frank went on pacing the room, till, gradually, his first idea recovered possession of his mind, and the remembrance of his father's grief faded away. "may i tell mary," he said at last, "that you consent to our marriage? it will make her so happy." but the squire was not prepared to say this. he was pledged to his wife to do all that he could to oppose it; and he himself thought, that if anything could consummate the family ruin, it would be this marriage. "i cannot say that, frank; i cannot say that. what would you both live on? it would be madness." "we would go to australia," answered he, bitterly. "i have just said so." "oh, no, my boy; you cannot do that. you must not throw the old place up altogether. there is no other one but you, frank; and we have lived here now for so many, many years." "but if we cannot live here any longer, father?" "but for this scheme of yours, we might do so. i will give up everything to you, the management of the estate, the park, all the land we have in hand, if you will give up this fatal scheme. for, frank, it is fatal. you are only twenty-three; why should you be in such a hurry to marry?" "you married at twenty-one, sir." frank was again severe on his father, but unwittingly. "yes, i did," said mr gresham; "and see what has come of it! had i waited ten years longer, how different would everything have been! no, frank, i cannot consent to such a marriage; nor will your mother." "it is your consent i ask, sir; and i am asking for nothing but your consent." "it would be sheer madness; madness for you both. my own frank, my dear, dear boy, do not drive me to distraction! give it up for four years." "four years!" "yes; for four years. i ask it as a personal favour; as an obligation to myself, in order that we may be saved from ruin; you, your mother, and sisters, your family name, and the old house. i do not talk about myself; but were such a marriage to take place, i should be driven to despair." frank found it very hard to resist his father, who now had hold of his hand and arm, and was thus half retaining him, and half embracing him. "frank, say that you will forget this for four years--say for three years." but frank would not say so. to postpone his marriage for four years, or for three, seemed to him to be tantamount to giving up mary altogether; and he would not acknowledge that any one had the right to demand of him to do that. "my word is pledged, sir," he said. "pledged! pledged to whom?" "to miss thorne." "but i will see her, frank;--and her uncle. she was always reasonable. i am sure she will not wish to bring ruin on her old friends at greshamsbury." "her old friends at greshamsbury have done but little lately to deserve her consideration. she has been treated shamefully. i know it has not been by you, sir; but i must say so. she has already been treated shamefully; but i will not treat her falsely." "well, frank, i can say no more to you. i have destroyed the estate which should have been yours, and i have no right to expect you should regard what i say." frank was greatly distressed. he had not any feeling of animosity against his father with reference to the property, and would have done anything to make the squire understand this, short of giving up his engagement to mary. his feeling rather was, that, as each had a case against the other, they should cry quits; that he should forgive his father for his bad management, on condition that he himself was to be forgiven with regard to his determined marriage. not that he put it exactly in that shape, even to himself; but could he have unravelled his own thoughts, he would have found that such was the web on which they were based. "father, i do regard what you say; but you would not have me be false. had you doubled the property instead of lessening it, i could not regard what you say any more." "i should be able to speak in a very different tone; i feel that, frank." "do not feel it any more, sir; say what you wish, as you would have said it under any other circumstances; and pray believe this, the idea never occurs to me, that i have ground of complaint as regards the property; never. whatever troubles we may have, do not let that trouble you." soon after this frank left him. what more was there that could be said between them? they could not be of one accord; but even yet it might not be necessary that they should quarrel. he went out, and roamed by himself through the grounds, rather more in meditation than was his wont. if he did marry, how was he to live? he talked of a profession; but had he meant to do as others do, who make their way in professions, he should have thought of that a year or two ago!--or, rather, have done more than think of it. he spoke also of a farm, but even that could not be had in a moment; nor, if it could, would it produce a living. where was his capital? where his skill? and he might have asked also, where the industry so necessary for such a trade? he might set his father at defiance, and if mary were equally headstrong with himself, he might marry her. but, what then? as he walked slowly about, cutting off the daisies with his stick, he met mr oriel, going up to the house, as was now his custom, to dine there and spend the evening, close to beatrice. "how i envy you, oriel!" he said. "what would i not give to have such a position in the world as yours!" "thou shalt not covet a man's house, nor his wife," said mr oriel; "perhaps it ought to have been added, nor his position." "it wouldn't have made much difference. when a man is tempted, the commandments, i believe, do not go for much." "do they not, frank? that's a dangerous doctrine; and one which, if you had my position, you would hardly admit. but what makes you so much out of sorts? your own position is generally considered about the best which the world has to give." "is it? then let me tell you that the world has very little to give. what can i do? where can i turn? oriel, if there be an empty, lying humbug in the world, it is the theory of high birth and pure blood which some of us endeavour to maintain. blood, indeed! if my father had been a baker, i should know by this time where to look for my livelihood. as it is, i am told of nothing but my blood. will my blood ever get me half a crown?" and then the young democrat walked on again in solitude, leaving mr oriel in doubt as to the exact line of argument which he had meant to inculcate. chapter xl the two doctors change patients dr fillgrave still continued his visits to greshamsbury, for lady arabella had not yet mustered the courage necessary for swallowing her pride and sending once more for dr thorne. nothing pleased dr fillgrave more than those visits. he habitually attended grander families, and richer people; but then, he had attended them habitually. greshamsbury was a prize taken from the enemy; it was his rock of gibraltar, of which he thought much more than of any ordinary hampshire or wiltshire which had always been within his own kingdom. he was just starting one morning with his post-horses for greshamsbury, when an impudent-looking groom, with a crooked nose, trotted up to his door. for joe still had a crooked nose, all the doctor's care having been inefficacious to remedy the evil effects of bridget's little tap with the rolling-pin. joe had no written credentials, for his master was hardly equal to writing, and lady scatcherd had declined to put herself into further personal communication with dr fillgrave; but he had effrontery enough to deliver any message. "be you dr fillgrave?" said joe, with one finger just raised to his cocked hat. "yes," said dr fillgrave, with one foot on the step of the carriage, but pausing at the sight of so well-turned-out a servant. "yes; i am dr fillgrave." "then you be to go to boxall hill immediately; before anywhere else." "boxall hill!" said the doctor, with a very angry frown. "yes; boxall hill: my master's place--my master is sir louis scatcherd, baronet. you've heard of him, i suppose?" dr fillgrave had not his mind quite ready for such an occasion. so he withdrew his foot from the carriage step, and rubbing his hands one over another, looked at his own hall door for inspiration. a single glance at his face was sufficient to show that no ordinary thoughts were being turned over within his breast. "well!" said joe, thinking that his master's name had not altogether produced the magic effect which he had expected; remembering, also, how submissive greyson had always been, who, being a london doctor, must be supposed to be a bigger man than this provincial fellow. "do you know as how my master is dying, very like, while you stand there?" "what is your master's disease?" said the doctor, facing joe, slowly, and still rubbing his hands. "what ails him? what is the matter with him?" "oh; the matter with him? well, to say it out at once then, he do take a drop too much at times, and then he has the horrors--what is it they call it? delicious beam-ends, or something of that sort." "oh, ah, yes; i know; and tell me, my man, who is attending him?" "attending him? why, i do, and his mother, that is, her ladyship." "yes; but what medical attendant: what doctor?" "why, there was greyson, in london, and--" "greyson!" and the doctor looked as though a name so medicinally humble had never before struck the tympanum of his ear. "yes; greyson. and then, down at what's the name of the place, there was thorne." "greshamsbury?" "yes; greshamsbury. but he and thorne didn't hit it off; and so since that he has had no one but myself." "i will be at boxall hill in the course of the morning," said dr fillgrave; "or, rather, you may say, that i will be there at once: i will take it in my way." and having thus resolved, he gave his orders that the post-horses should make such a detour as would enable him to visit boxall hill on his road. "it is impossible," said he to himself, "that i should be twice treated in such a manner in the same house." he was not, however, altogether in a comfortable frame of mind as he was driven up to the hall door. he could not but remember the smile of triumph with which his enemy had regarded him in that hall; he could not but think how he had returned fee-less to barchester, and how little he had gained in the medical world by rejecting lady scatcherd's bank-note. however, he also had had his triumphs since that. he had smiled scornfully at dr thorne when he had seen him in the greshamsbury street; and had been able to tell, at twenty houses through the county, how lady arabella had at last been obliged to place herself in his hands. and he triumphed again when he found himself really standing by sir louis scatcherd's bedside. as for lady scatcherd, she did not even show herself. she kept in her own little room, sending out hannah to ask him up the stairs; and she only just got a peep at him through the door as she heard the medical creak of his shoes as he again descended. we need say but little of his visit to sir louis. it mattered nothing now, whether it was thorne, or greyson, or fillgrave. and dr fillgrave knew that it mattered nothing: he had skill at least for that--and heart enough also to feel that he would fain have been relieved from this task; would fain have left this patient in the hands even of dr thorne. the name which joe had given to his master's illness was certainly not a false one. he did find sir louis "in the horrors." if any father have a son whose besetting sin is a passion for alcohol, let him take his child to the room of a drunkard when possessed by "the horrors." nothing will cure him if not that. i will not disgust my reader by attempting to describe the poor wretch in his misery: the sunken, but yet glaring eyes; the emaciated cheeks; the fallen mouth; the parched, sore lips; the face, now dry and hot, and then suddenly clammy with drops of perspiration; the shaking hand, and all but palsied limbs; and worse than this, the fearful mental efforts, and the struggles for drink; struggles to which it is often necessary to give way. dr fillgrave soon knew what was to be the man's fate; but he did what he might to relieve it. there, in one big, best bedroom, looking out to the north, lay sir louis scatcherd, dying wretchedly. there, in the other big, best bedroom, looking out to the south, had died the other baronet about a twelvemonth since, and each a victim to the same sin. to this had come the prosperity of the house of scatcherd! and then dr fillgrave went on to greshamsbury. it was a long day's work, both for himself and the horses; but then, the triumph of being dragged up that avenue compensated for both the expense and the labour. he always put on his sweetest smile as he came near the hall door, and rubbed his hands in the most complaisant manner of which he knew. it was seldom that he saw any of the family but lady arabella; but then he desired to see none other, and when he left her in a good humour, was quite content to take his glass of sherry and eat his lunch by himself. on this occasion, however, the servant at once asked him to go into the dining-room, and there he found himself in the presence of frank gresham. the fact was, that lady arabella, having at last decided, had sent for dr thorne; and it had become necessary that some one should be entrusted with the duty of informing dr fillgrave. that some one must be the squire, or frank. lady arabella would doubtless have preferred a messenger more absolutely friendly to her own side of the house; but such messenger there was none: she could not send mr gazebee to see her doctor, and so, of the two evils, she chose the least. "dr fillgrave," said frank, shaking hands with him very cordially as he came up, "my mother is so much obliged to you for all your care and anxiety on her behalf! and, so indeed, are we all." the doctor shook hands with him very warmly. this little expression of a family feeling on his behalf was the more gratifying, as he had always thought that the males of the greshamsbury family were still wedded to that pseudo-doctor, that half-apothecary who lived in the village. "it has been awfully troublesome to you, coming over all this way, i am sure. indeed, money could not pay for it; my mother feels that. it must cut up your time so much." "not at all, mr gresham; not at all," said the barchester doctor, rising up on his toes proudly as he spoke. "a person of your mother's importance, you know! i should be happy to go any distance to see her." "ah! but, dr fillgrave, we cannot allow that." "mr gresham, don't mention it." "oh, yes; but i must," said frank, who thought that he had done enough for civility, and was now anxious to come to the point. "the fact is, doctor, that we are very much obliged for what you have done; but, for the future, my mother thinks she can trust to such assistance as she can get here in the village." frank had been particularly instructed to be very careful how he mentioned dr thorne's name, and, therefore, cleverly avoided it. get what assistance she wanted in the village! what words were those that he heard? "mr gresham, eh--hem--perhaps i do not completely--" yes, alas! he had completely understood what frank had meant that he should understand. frank desired to be civil, but he had no idea of beating unnecessarily about the bush on such an occasion as this. "it's by sir omicron's advice, dr fillgrave. you see, this man here"--and he nodded his head towards the doctor's house, being still anxious not to pronounce the hideous name--"has known my mother's constitution for so many years." "oh, mr gresham; of course, if it is wished." "yes, dr fillgrave, it is wished. lunch is coming directly:" and frank rang the bell. "nothing, i thank you, mr gresham." "do take a glass of sherry." "nothing at all, i am very much obliged to you." "won't you let the horses get some oats?" "i will return at once, if you please, mr gresham." and the doctor did return, taking with him, on this occasion, the fee that was offered to him. his experience had at any rate taught him so much. but though frank could do this for lady arabella, he could not receive dr thorne on her behalf. the bitterness of that interview had to be borne by herself. a messenger had been sent for him, and he was upstairs with her ladyship while his rival was receiving his _congé_ downstairs. she had two objects to accomplish, if it might be possible: she had found that high words with the doctor were of no avail; but it might be possible that frank could be saved by humiliation on her part. if she humbled herself before this man, would he consent to acknowledge that his niece was not the fit bride for the heir of greshamsbury? the doctor entered the room where she was lying on her sofa, and walking up to her with a gentle, but yet not constrained step, took the seat beside her little table, just as he had always been accustomed to do, and as though there had been no break in their intercourse. "well, doctor, you see that i have come back to you," she said, with a faint smile. "or, rather i have come back to you. and, believe me, lady arabella, i am very happy to do so. there need be no excuses. you were, doubtless, right to try what other skill could do; and i hope it has not been tried in vain." she had meant to have been so condescending; but now all that was put quite beyond her power. it was not easy to be condescending to the doctor: she had been trying all her life, and had never succeeded. "i have had sir omicron pie," she said. "so i was glad to hear. sir omicron is a clever man, and has a good name. i always recommend sir omicron myself." "and sir omicron returns the compliment," said she, smiling gracefully, "for he recommends you. he told mr gresham that i was very foolish to quarrel with my best friend. so now we are friends again, are we not? you see how selfish i am." and she put out her hand to him. the doctor took her hand cordially, and assured her that he bore her no ill-will; that he fully understood her conduct--and that he had never accused her of selfishness. this was all very well and very gracious; but, nevertheless, lady arabella felt that the doctor kept the upper hand in those sweet forgivenesses. whereas, she had intended to keep the upper hand, at least for a while, so that her humiliation might be more effective when it did come. and then the doctor used his surgical lore, as he well knew how to use it. there was an assured confidence about him, an air which seemed to declare that he really knew what he was doing. these were very comfortable to his patients, but they were wanting in dr fillgrave. when he had completed his examinations and questions, and she had completed her little details and made her answer, she certainly was more at ease than she had been since the doctor had last left her. "don't go yet for a moment," she said. "i have one word to say to you." he declared that he was not the least in a hurry. he desired nothing better, he said, than to sit there and talk to her. "and i owe you a most sincere apology, lady arabella." "a sincere apology!" said she, becoming a little red. was he going to say anything about mary? was he going to own that he, and mary, and frank had all been wrong? "yes, indeed. i ought not to have brought sir louis scatcherd here: i ought to have known that he would have disgraced himself." "oh! it does not signify," said her ladyship in a tone almost of disappointment. "i had forgotten it. mr gresham and you had more inconvenience than we had." "he is an unfortunate, wretched man--most unfortunate; with an immense fortune which he can never live to possess." "and who will the money go to, doctor?" this was a question for which dr thorne was hardly prepared. "go to?" he repeated. "oh, some member of the family, i believe. there are plenty of nephews and nieces." "yes; but will it be divided, or all go to one?" "probably to one, i think. sir roger had a strong idea of leaving it all in one hand." if it should happen to be a girl, thought lady arabella, what an excellent opportunity would that be for frank to marry money! "and now, doctor, i want to say one word to you; considering the very long time that we have known each other, it is better that i should be open with you. this estrangement between us and dear mary has given us all so much pain. cannot we do anything to put an end to it?" "well, what can i say, lady arabella? that depends so wholly on yourself." "if it depends on me, it shall be done at once." the doctor bowed. and though he could hardly be said to do so stiffly, he did it coldly. his bow seemed to say, "certainly; if you choose to make a proper _amende_ it can be done. but i think it is very unlikely that you will do so." "beatrice is just going to be married, you know that, doctor." the doctor said that he did know it. "and it will be so pleasant that mary should make one of us. poor beatrice; you don't know what she has suffered." "yes," said the doctor, "there has been suffering, i am sure; suffering on both sides." "you cannot wonder that we should be so anxious about frank, dr thorne; an only son, and the heir to an estate that has been so very long in the family:" and lady arabella put her handkerchief to her eyes, as though these facts were in themselves melancholy, and not to be thought of by a mother without some soft tears. "now i wish you could tell me what your views are, in a friendly manner, between ourselves. you won't find me unreasonable." "my views, lady arabella?" "yes, doctor; about your niece, you know: you must have views of some sort; that's of course. it occurs to me, that perhaps we are all in the dark together. if so, a little candid speaking between you and me may set it all right." lady arabella's career had not hitherto been conspicuous for candour, as far as dr thorne had been able to judge of it; but that was no reason why he should not respond to so very becoming an invitation on her part. he had no objection to a little candid speaking; at least, so he declared. as to his views with regard to mary, they were merely these: that he would make her as happy and comfortable as he could while she remained with him; and that he would give her his blessing--for he had nothing else to give her--when she left him;--if ever she should do so. now, it will be said that the doctor was not very candid in this; not more so, perhaps, than was lady arabella herself. but when one is specially invited to be candid, one is naturally set upon one's guard. those who by disposition are most open, are apt to become crafty when so admonished. when a man says to you, "let us be candid with each other," you feel instinctively that he desires to squeeze you without giving a drop of water himself. "yes; but about frank," said lady arabella. "about frank!" said the doctor, with an innocent look, which her ladyship could hardly interpret. "what i mean is this: can you give me your word that these young people do not intend to do anything rash? one word like that from you will set my mind quite at rest. and then we could be so happy together again." "ah! who is to answer for what rash things a young man will do?" said the doctor, smiling. lady arabella got up from the sofa, and pushed away the little table. the man was false, hypocritical, and cunning. nothing could be made of him. they were all in a conspiracy together to rob her of her son; to make him marry without money! what should she do? where should she turn for advice or counsel? she had nothing more to say to the doctor; and he, perceiving that this was the case, took his leave. this little attempt to achieve candour had not succeeded. dr thorne had answered lady arabella as had seemed best to him on the spur of the moment; but he was by no means satisfied with himself. as he walked away through the gardens, he bethought himself whether it would be better for all parties if he could bring himself to be really candid. would it not be better for him at once to tell the squire what were the future prospects of his niece, and let the father agree to the marriage, or not agree to it, as he might think fit. but then, if so, if he did do this, would he not in fact say, "there is my niece, there is this girl of whom you have been talking for the last twelvemonth, indifferent to what agony of mind you may have occasioned to her; there she is, a probable heiress! it may be worth your son's while to wait a little time, and not cast her off till he shall know whether she be an heiress or no. if it shall turn out that she is rich, let him take her; if not, why, he can desert her then as well as now." he could not bring himself to put his niece into such a position as this. he was anxious enough that she should be frank gresham's wife, for he loved frank gresham; he was anxious enough, also, that she should give to her husband the means of saving the property of his family. but frank, though he might find her rich, was bound to take her while she was poor. then, also, he doubted whether he would be justified in speaking of this will at all. he almost hated the will for the trouble and vexation it had given him, and the constant stress it had laid on his conscience. he had spoken of it as yet to no one, and he thought that he was resolved not to do so while sir louis should yet be in the land of the living. on reaching home, he found a note from lady scatcherd, informing him that dr fillgrave had once more been at boxall hill, and that, on this occasion, he had left the house without anger. "i don't know what he has said about louis," she added, "for, to tell the truth, doctor, i was afraid to see him. but he comes again to-morrow, and then i shall be braver. but i fear that my poor boy is in a bad way." chapter xli doctor thorne won't interfere at this period there was, as it were, a truce to the ordinary little skirmishes which had been so customary between lady arabella and the squire. things had so fallen out, that they neither of them had much spirit for a contest; and, moreover, on that point which at the present moment was most thought of by both of them, they were strangely in unison. for each of them was anxious to prevent the threatened marriage of their only son. it must, moreover, be remembered, that lady arabella had carried a great point in ousting mr yates umbleby and putting the management of the estate into the hands of her own partisan. but then the squire had not done less in getting rid of fillgrave and reinstating dr thorne in possession of the family invalids. the losses, therefore, had been equal; the victories equal; and there was a mutual object. and it must be confessed, also, that lady arabella's taste for grandeur was on the decline. misfortune was coming too near to her to leave her much anxiety for the gaieties of a london season. things were not faring well with her. when her eldest daughter was going to marry a man of fortune, and a member of parliament, she had thought nothing of demanding a thousand pounds or so for the extraordinary expenses incident to such an occasion. but now, beatrice was to become the wife of a parish parson, and even that was thought to be a fortunate event; she had, therefore, no heart for splendour. "the quieter we can do it the better," she wrote to her countess-sister. "her father wanted to give him at least a thousand pounds; but mr gazebee has told me confidentially that it literally cannot be done at the present moment! ah, my dear rosina! how things have been managed! if one or two of the girls will come over, we shall all take it as a favour. beatrice would think it very kind of them. but i don't think of asking you or amelia." amelia was always the grandest of the de courcy family, being almost on an equality with--nay, in some respect superior to--the countess herself. but this, of course, was before the days of the nice place in surrey. such, and so humble being the present temper of the lady of greshamsbury, it will not be thought surprising that she and mr gresham should at last come together in their efforts to reclaim their son. at first lady arabella urged upon the squire the duty of being very peremptory and very angry. "do as other fathers do in such cases. make him understand that he will have no allowance to live on." "he understands that well enough," said mr gresham. "threaten to cut him off with a shilling," said her ladyship, with spirit. "i haven't a shilling to cut him off with," answered the squire, bitterly. but lady arabella herself soon perceived, that this line would not do. as mr gresham himself confessed, his own sins against his son had been too great to allow of his taking a high hand with him. besides, mr gresham was not a man who could ever be severe with a son whose individual conduct had been so good as frank's. this marriage was, in his view, a misfortune to be averted if possible,--to be averted by any possible means; but, as far as frank was concerned, it was to be regarded rather as a monomania than a crime. "i did feel so certain that he would have succeeded with miss dunstable," said the mother, almost crying. "i thought it impossible but that at his age a twelvemonth's knocking about the world would cure him," said the father. "i never heard of a boy being so obstinate about a girl," said the mother. "i'm sure he didn't get it from the de courcys:" and then, again, they talked it over in all its bearings. "but what are they to live upon?" said lady arabella, appealing, as it were, to some impersonation of reason. "that's what i want him to tell me. what are they to live upon?" "i wonder whether de courcy could get him into some embassy?" said the father. "he does talk of a profession." "what! with the girl and all?" asked lady arabella with horror, alarmed at the idea of such an appeal being made to her noble brother. "no; but before he marries. he might be broken of it that way." "nothing will break him," said the wretched mother; "nothing--nothing. for my part, i think that he is possessed. why was she brought here? oh, dear! oh, dear! why was she ever brought into this house?" this last question mr gresham did not think it necessary to answer. that evil had been done, and it would be useless to dispute it. "i'll tell you what i'll do," said he. "i'll speak to the doctor himself." "it's not the slightest use," said lady arabella. "he will not assist us. indeed, i firmly believe it's all his own doing." "oh, nonsense! that really is nonsense, my love." "very well, mr gresham. what i say is always nonsense, i know; you have always told me so. but yet, see how things have turned out. i knew how it would be when she was first brought into the house." this assertion was rather a stretch on the part of lady arabella. "well, it is nonsense to say that frank is in love with the girl at the doctor's bidding." "i think you know, mr gresham, that i don't mean that. what i say is this, that dr thorne, finding what an easy fool frank is--" "i don't think he's at all easy, my love; and certainly is not a fool." "very well, have it your own way. i'll not say a word more. i'm struggling to do my best, and i'm browbeaten on every side. god knows i am not in a state of health to bear it!" and lady arabella bowed her head into her pocket-handkerchief. "i think, my dear, if you were to see mary herself it might do some good," said the squire, when the violence of his wife's grief had somewhat subsided. "what! go and call upon this girl?" "yes; you can send beatrice to give her notice, you know. she never was unreasonable, and i do not think that you would find her so. you should tell her, you know--" "oh, i should know very well what to tell her, mr gresham." "yes, my love; i'm sure you would; nobody better. but what i mean is, that if you are to do any good, you should be kind in your manner. mary thorne has a spirit that you cannot break. you may perhaps lead, but nobody can drive her." as this scheme originated with her husband, lady arabella could not, of course, confess that there was much in it. but, nevertheless, she determined to attempt it, thinking that if anything could be efficacious for good in their present misfortunes, it would be her own diplomatic powers. it was, therefore, at last settled between them, that he should endeavour to talk over the doctor, and that she would do the same with mary. "and then i will speak to frank," said lady arabella. "as yet he has never had the audacity to open his mouth to me about mary thorne, though i believe he declares his love openly to every one else in the house." "and i will get oriel to speak to him," said the squire. "i think patience might do more good. i did once think he was getting fond of patience, and i was quite unhappy about it then. ah, dear! i should be almost pleased at that now." and thus it was arranged that all the artillery of greshamsbury was to be brought to bear at once on frank's love, so as to crush it, as it were, by the very weight of metal. it may be imagined that the squire would have less scruple in addressing the doctor on this matter than his wife would feel; and that his part of their present joint undertaking was less difficult than hers. for he and the doctor had ever been friends at heart. but, nevertheless, he did feel much scruple, as, with his stick in hand, he walked down to the little gate which opened out near the doctor's house. this feeling was so strong, that he walked on beyond this door to the entrance, thinking of what he was going to do, and then back again. it seemed to be his fate to be depending always on the clemency or consideration of dr thorne. at this moment the doctor was imposing the only obstacle which was offered to the sale of a great part of his estate. sir louis, through his lawyer, was pressing the doctor to sell, and the lawyer was loudly accusing the doctor of delaying to do so. "he has the management of your property," said mr finnie; "but he manages it in the interest of his own friend. it is quite clear, and we will expose it." "by all means," said sir louis. "it is a d----d shame, and it shall be exposed." of all this the squire was aware. when he reached the doctor's house, he was shown into the drawing-room, and found mary there alone. it had always been his habit to kiss her forehead when he chanced to meet her about the house at greshamsbury. she had been younger and more childish then; but even now she was but a child to him, so he kissed her as he had been wont to do. she blushed slightly as she looked up into his face, and said: "oh, mr gresham, i am so glad to see you here again." as he looked at her he could not but acknowledge that it was natural that frank should love her. he had never before seen that she was attractive;--had never had an opinion about it. she had grown up as a child under his eye; and as she had not had the name of being especially a pretty child, he had never thought on the subject. now he saw before him a woman whose every feature was full of spirit and animation; whose eye sparkled with more than mere brilliancy; whose face was full of intelligence; whose very smile was eloquent. was it to be wondered at that frank should have learned to love her? miss thorne wanted but one attribute which many consider essential to feminine beauty. she had no brilliancy of complexion, no pearly whiteness, no vivid carnation; nor, indeed, did she possess the dark brilliance of a brunette. but there was a speaking earnestness in her face; an expression of mental faculty which the squire now for the first time perceived to be charming. and then he knew how good she was. he knew well what was her nature; how generous, how open, how affectionate, and yet how proud! her pride was her fault; but even that was not a fault in his eyes. out of his own family there was no one whom he had loved, and could love, as he loved her. he felt, and acknowledged that no man could have a better wife. and yet he was there with the express object of rescuing his son from such a marriage! "you are looking very well, mary," he said, almost involuntarily. "am i?" she answered, smiling. "it's very nice at any rate to be complimented. uncle never pays me any compliments of that sort." in truth, she was looking well. she would say to herself over and over again, from morning to night, that frank's love for her would be, must be, unfortunate; could not lead to happiness. but, nevertheless, it did make her happy. she had before his return made up her mind to be forgotten, and it was so sweet to find that he had been so far from forgetting her. a girl may scold a man in words for rashness in his love, but her heart never scolds him for such an offence as that. she had not been slighted, and her heart, therefore, still rose buoyant within her breast. the doctor entered the room. as the squire's visit had been expected by him, he had of course not been out of the house. "and now i suppose i must go," said mary; "for i know you are going to talk about business. but, uncle, mr gresham says i'm looking very well. why have you not been able to find that out?" "she's a dear, good girl," said the squire, as the door shut behind her; "a dear good girl;" and the doctor could not fail to see that his eyes were filled with tears. "i think she is," said he, quietly. and then they both sat silent, as though each was waiting to hear whether the other had anything more to say on that subject. the doctor, at any rate, had nothing more to say. "i have come here specially to speak to you about her," said the squire. "about mary?" "yes, doctor; about her and frank: something must be done, some arrangement made: if not for our sakes, at least for theirs." "what arrangement, squire?" "ah! that is the question. i take it for granted that either frank or mary has told you that they have engaged themselves to each other." "frank told me so twelve months since." "and has not mary told you?" "not exactly that. but, never mind; she has, i believe, no secret from me. though i have said but little to her, i think i know it all." "well, what then?" the doctor shook his head and put up his hands. he had nothing to say; no proposition to make; no arrangement to suggest. the thing was so, and he seemed to say that, as far as he was concerned, there was an end of it. the squire sat looking at him, hardly knowing how to proceed. it seemed to him, that the fact of a young man and a young lady being in love with each other was not a thing to be left to arrange itself, particularly, seeing the rank of life in which they were placed. but the doctor seemed to be of a different opinion. "but, dr thorne, there is no man on god's earth who knows my affairs as well as you do; and in knowing mine, you know frank's. do you think it possible that they should marry each other?" "possible; yes, it is possible. you mean, will it be prudent?" "well, take it in that way; would it not be most imprudent?" "at present, it certainly would be. i have never spoken to either of them on the subject; but i presume they do not think of such a thing for the present." "but, doctor--" the squire was certainly taken aback by the coolness of the doctor's manner. after all, he, the squire, was mr gresham of greshamsbury, generally acknowledged to be the first commoner in barsetshire; after all, frank was his heir, and, in process of time, he would be mr gresham of greshamsbury. crippled as the estate was, there would be something left, and the rank at any rate remained. but as to mary, she was not even the doctor's daughter. she was not only penniless, but nameless, fatherless, worse than motherless! it was incredible that dr thorne, with his generally exalted ideas as to family, should speak in this cold way as to a projected marriage between the heir of greshamsbury and his brother's bastard child! "but, doctor," repeated the squire. the doctor put one leg over the other, and began to rub his calf. "squire," said he. "i think i know all that you would say, all that you mean. and you don't like to say it, because you would not wish to pain me by alluding to mary's birth." "but, independently of that, what would they live on?" said the squire, energetically. "birth is a great thing, a very great thing. you and i think exactly alike about that, so we need have no dispute. you are quite as proud of ullathorne as i am of greshamsbury." "i might be if it belonged to me." "but you are. it is no use arguing. but, putting that aside altogether, what would they live on? if they were to marry, what would they do? where would they go? you know what lady arabella thinks of such things; would it be possible that they should live up at the house with her? besides, what a life would that be for both of them! could they live here? would that be well for them?" the squire looked at the doctor for an answer; but he still went on rubbing his calf. mr gresham, therefore, was constrained to continue his expostulation. "when i am dead there will still, i hope, be something;--something left for the poor fellow. lady arabella and the girls would be better off, perhaps, than now, and i sometimes wish, for frank's sake, that the time had come." the doctor could not now go on rubbing his leg. he was moved to speak, and declared that, of all events, that was the one which would be furthest from frank's heart. "i know no son," said he, "who loves his father more dearly than he does." "i do believe it," said the squire; "i do believe it. but yet, i cannot but feel that i am in his way." "no, squire, no; you are in no one's way. you will find yourself happy with your son yet, and proud of him. and proud of his wife, too. i hope so, and i think so: i do, indeed, or i should not say so, squire; we will have many a happy day yet together, when we shall talk of all these things over the dining-room fire at greshamsbury." the squire felt it kind in the doctor that he should thus endeavour to comfort him; but he could not understand, and did not inquire, on what basis these golden hopes was founded. it was necessary, however, to return to the subject which he had come to discuss. would the doctor assist him in preventing this marriage? that was now the one thing necessary to be kept in view. "but, doctor, about the young people; of course they cannot marry, you are aware of that." "i don't know that exactly." "well, doctor, i must say i thought you would feel it." "feel what, squire?" "that, situated as they are, they ought not to marry." "that is quite another question. i have said nothing about that either to you or to anybody else. the truth is, squire, i have never interfered in this matter one way or the other; and i have no wish to do so now." "but should you not interfere? is not mary the same to you as your own child?" dr thorne hardly knew how to answer this. he was aware that his argument about not interfering was in fact absurd. mary could not marry without his interference; and had it been the case that she was in danger of making an improper marriage, of course he would interfere. his meaning was, that he would not at the present moment express any opinion; he would not declare against a match which might turn out to be in every way desirable; nor, if he spoke in favour of it, could he give his reasons for doing so. under these circumstances, he would have wished to say nothing, could that only have been possible. but as it was not possible, and as he must say something, he answered the squire's last question by asking another. "what is your objection, squire?" "objection! why, what on earth would they live on?" "then i understand, that if that difficulty were over, you would not refuse your consent merely because of mary's birth?" this was a manner in which the squire had by no means expected to have the affair presented to him. it seemed so impossible that any sound-minded man should take any but his view of the case, that he had not prepared himself for argument. there was every objection to his son marrying miss thorne; but the fact of their having no income between them, did certainly justify him in alleging that first. "but that difficulty can't be got over, doctor. you know, however, that it would be cause of grief to us all to see frank marry much beneath his station; that is, i mean, in family. you should not press me to say this, for you know that i love mary dearly." "but, my dear friend, it is necessary. wounds sometimes must be opened in order that they may be healed. what i mean is this;--and, squire, i'm sure i need not say to you that i hope for an honest answer,--were mary thorne an heiress; had she, for instance, such wealth as that miss dunstable that we hear of; in that case would you object to the match?" when the doctor declared that he expected an honest answer the squire listened with all his ears; but the question, when finished, seemed to have no bearing on the present case. "come, squire, speak your mind faithfully. there was some talk once of frank's marrying miss dunstable; did you mean to object to that match?" "miss dunstable was legitimate; at least, i presume so." "oh, mr gresham! has it come to that? miss dunstable, then, would have satisfied your ideas of high birth?" mr gresham was rather posed, and regretted, at the moment, his allusion to miss dunstable's presumed legitimacy. but he soon recovered himself. "no," said he, "it would not. and i am willing to admit, as i have admitted before, that the undoubted advantages arising from wealth are taken by the world as atoning for what otherwise would be a _mésalliance_. but--" "you admit that, do you? you acknowledge that as your conviction on the subject?" "yes. but--" the squire was going on to explain the propriety of this opinion, but the doctor uncivilly would not hear him. "then squire, i will not interfere in this matter one way or the other." "how on earth can such an opinion--" "pray excuse me, mr gresham; but my mind is now quite made up. it was very nearly so before. i will do nothing to encourage frank, nor will i say anything to discourage mary." "that is the most singular resolution that a man of sense like you ever came to." "i can't help it, squire; it is my resolution." "but what has miss dunstable's fortune to do with it?" "i cannot say that it has anything; but, in this matter, i will not interfere." the squire went on for some time, but it was all to no purpose; and at last he left the house, considerably in dudgeon. the only conclusion to which he could come was, that dr thorne had thought the chance on his niece's behalf too good to be thrown away, and had, therefore, resolved to act in this very singular way. "i would not have believed it of him, though all barsetshire had told me," he said to himself as he entered the great gates; and he went on repeating the same words till he found himself in his own room. "no, not if all barsetshire had told me!" he did not, however, communicate the ill result of his visit to the lady arabella. chapter xlii what can you give in return? in spite of the family troubles, these were happy days for beatrice. it so seldom happens that young ladies on the eve of their marriage have their future husbands living near them. this happiness was hers, and mr oriel made the most of it. she was constantly being coaxed down to the parsonage by patience, in order that she might give her opinion, in private, as to some domestic arrangement, some piece of furniture, or some new carpet; but this privacy was always invaded. what mr oriel's parishioners did in these halcyon days, i will not ask. his morning services, however, had been altogether given up, and he had provided himself with a very excellent curate. but one grief did weigh heavily on beatrice. she continually heard her mother say things which made her feel that it would be more than ever impossible that mary should be at her wedding; and yet she had promised her brother to ask her. frank had also repeated his threat, that if mary were not present, he would absent himself. beatrice did what most girls do in such a case; what all would do who are worth anything; she asked her lover's advice. "oh! but frank can't be in earnest," said the lover. "of course he'll be at our wedding." "you don't know him, caleb. he is so changed that no one hardly would know him. you can't conceive how much in earnest he is, how determined and resolute. and then, i should like to have mary so much if mamma would let her come." "ask lady arabella," said caleb. "well, i suppose i must do that; but i know what she'll say, and frank will never believe that i have done my best." mr oriel comforted her with such little whispered consolations as he was able to afford, and then she went away on her errand to her mother. she was indeed surprised at the manner in which her prayer was received. she could hardly falter forth her petition; but when she had done so, lady arabella answered in this wise:-- "well my dear, i have no objection, none the least; that is, of course, if mary is disposed to behave herself properly." "oh, mamma! of course she will," said beatrice; "she always did and always does." "i hope she will, my love. but, beatrice, when i say that i shall be glad to see her, of course i mean under certain conditions. i never disliked mary thorne, and if she would only let frank understand that she will not listen to his mad proposals, i should be delighted to see her at greshamsbury just as she used to be." beatrice could say nothing in answer to this; but she felt very sure that mary, let her intention be what it might, would not undertake to make frank understand anything at anybody's bidding. "i will tell you what i will do, my dear," continued lady arabella; "i will call on mary myself." "what! at dr thorne's house?" "yes; why not? i have been at dr thorne's house before now." and lady arabella could not but think of her last visit thither, and the strong feeling she had, as she came out, that she would never again enter those doors. she was, however, prepared to do anything on behalf of her rebellious son. "oh, yes! i know that, mamma." "i will call upon her, and if i can possibly manage it, i will ask her myself to make one of your party. if so, you can go to her afterwards and make your own arrangements. just write her a note, my dear, and say that i will call to-morrow at twelve. it might fluster her if i were to go in without notice." beatrice did as she was bid, but with a presentiment that no good would come of it. the note was certainly unnecessary for the purpose assigned by lady arabella, as mary was not given to be flustered by such occurrences; but, perhaps, it was as well that it was written, as it enabled her to make up her mind steadily as to what information should be given, and what should not be given to her coming visitor. on the next morning, at the appointed hour, lady arabella walked down to the doctor's house. she never walked about the village without making some little disturbance among the inhabitants. with the squire, himself, they were quite familiar, and he could appear and reappear without creating any sensation; but her ladyship had not made herself equally common in men's sight. therefore, when she went in at the doctor's little gate, the fact was known through all greshamsbury in ten minutes, and before she had left the house, mrs umbleby and miss gushing had quite settled between them what was the exact cause of the very singular event. the doctor, when he had heard what was going to happen, carefully kept out of the way: mary, therefore, had the pleasure of receiving lady arabella alone. nothing could exceed her ladyship's affability. mary thought that it perhaps might have savoured less of condescension; but then, on this subject, mary was probably prejudiced. lady arabella smiled and simpered, and asked after the doctor, and the cat, and janet, and said everything that could have been desired by any one less unreasonable than mary thorne. "and now, mary, i'll tell you why i have called." mary bowed her head slightly, as much to say, that she would be glad to receive any information that lady arabella could give her on that subject. "of course you know that beatrice is going to be married very shortly." mary acknowledged that she had heard so much. "yes: we think it will be in september--early in september--and that is coming very soon now. the poor girl is anxious that you should be at her wedding." mary turned slightly red; but she merely said, and that somewhat too coldly, that she was much indebted to beatrice for her kindness. "i can assure you, mary, that she is very fond of you, as much so as ever; and so, indeed, am i, and all of us are so. you know that mr gresham was always your friend." "yes, he always was, and i am grateful to mr gresham," answered mary. it was well for lady arabella that she had her temper under command, for had she spoken her mind out there would have been very little chance left for reconciliation between her and mary. "yes, indeed he was; and i think we all did what little we could to make you welcome at greshamsbury, mary, till those unpleasant occurrences took place." "what occurrences, lady arabella?" "and beatrice is so very anxious on this point," said her ladyship, ignoring for the moment mary's question. "you two have been so much together, that she feels she cannot be quite happy if you are not near her when she is being married." "dear beatrice!" said mary, warmed for the moment to an expression of genuine feeling. "she came to me yesterday, begging that i would waive any objection i might have to your being there. i have made her no answer yet. what answer do you think i ought to make her?" mary was astounded at this question, and hesitated in her reply. "what answer ought you to make her?" she said. "yes, mary. what answer do you think i ought to give? i wish to ask you the question, as you are the person the most concerned." mary considered for a while, and then did give her opinion on the matter in a firm voice. "i think you should tell beatrice, that as you cannot at present receive me cordially in your house, it will be better that you should not be called on to receive me at all." this was certainly not the sort of answer that lady arabella expected, and she was now somewhat astounded in her turn. "but, mary," she said, "i should be delighted to receive you cordially if i could do so." "but it seems you cannot, lady arabella; and so there must be an end of it." "oh, but i do not know that:" and she smiled her sweetest smile. "i do not know that. i want to put an end to all this ill-feeling if i can. it all depends upon one thing, you know." "does it, lady arabella?" "yes, upon one thing. you won't be angry if i ask you another question--eh, mary?" "no; at least i don't think i will." "is there any truth in what we hear about your being engaged to frank?" mary made no immediate answer to this, but sat quite silent, looking lady arabella in the face; not but that she had made up her mind as to what answer she would give, but the exact words failed her at the moment. "of course you must have heard of such a rumour," continued lady arabella. "oh, yes, i have heard of it." "yes, and you have noticed it, and i must say very properly. when you went to boxall hill, and before that with miss oriel's to her aunt's, i thought you behaved extremely well." mary felt herself glow with indignation, and began to prepare words that should be sharp and decisive. "but, nevertheless, people talk; and frank, who is still quite a boy" (mary's indignation was not softened by this allusion to frank's folly), "seems to have got some nonsense in his head. i grieve to say it, but i feel myself in justice bound to do so, that in this matter he has not acted as well as you have done. now, therefore, i merely ask you whether there is any truth in the report. if you tell me that there is none, i shall be quite contented." "but it is altogether true, lady arabella; i am engaged to frank gresham." "engaged to be married to him?" "yes; engaged to be married to him." what was to say or do now? nothing could be more plain, more decided, or less embarrassed with doubt than mary's declaration. and as she made it she looked her visitor full in the face, blushing indeed, for her cheeks were now suffused as well as her forehead; but boldly, and, as it were, with defiance. "and you tell me so to my face, miss thorne?" "and why not? did you not ask me the question; and would you have me answer you with a falsehood? i am engaged to him. as you would put the question to me, what other answer could i make? the truth is, that i am engaged to him." the decisive abruptness with which mary declared her own iniquity almost took away her ladyship's breath. she had certainly believed that they were engaged, and had hardly hoped that mary would deny it; but she had not expected that the crime would be acknowledged, or, at any rate, if acknowledged, that the confession would be made without some show of shame. on this lady arabella could have worked; but there was no such expression, nor was there the slightest hesitation. "i am engaged to frank gresham," and having so said, mary looked her visitor full in the face. "then it is indeed impossible that you should be received at greshamsbury." "at present, quite so, no doubt: in saying so, lady arabella, you only repeat the answer i made to your first question. i can now go to greshamsbury only in one light: that of mr gresham's accepted daughter-in-law." "and that is perfectly out of the question; altogether out of the question, now and for ever." "i will not dispute with you about that; but, as i said before, my being at beatrice's wedding is not to be thought of." lady arabella sat for a while silent, that she might meditate, if possible, calmly as to what line of argument she had now better take. it would be foolish in her, she thought, to return home, having merely expressed her anger. she had now an opportunity of talking to mary which might not again occur: the difficulty was in deciding in what special way she should use the opportunity. should she threaten, or should she entreat? to do her justice, it should be stated, that she did actually believe that the marriage was all but impossible; she did not think that it could take place. but the engagement might be the ruin of her son's prospects, seeing how he had before him one imperative, one immediate duty--that of marrying money. having considered all this as well as her hurry would allow her, she determined first to reason, then to entreat, and lastly, if necessary, to threaten. "i am astonished! you cannot be surprised at that, miss thorne: i am astonished at hearing so singular a confession made." "do you think my confession singular, or is it the fact of my being engaged to your son?" "we will pass over that for the present. but do let me ask you, do you think it possible, i say possible, that you and frank should be married?" "oh, certainly; quite possible." "of course you know that he has not a shilling in the world." "nor have i, lady arabella." "nor will he have were he to do anything so utterly hostile to his father's wishes. the property, you are aware, is altogether at mr gresham's disposal." "i am aware of nothing about the property, and can say nothing about it except this, that it has not been, and will not be inquired after by me in this matter. if i marry frank gresham, it will not be for the property. i am sorry to make such an apparent boast, but you force me to do it." "on what then are you to live? you are too old for love in a cottage, i suppose?" "not at all too old; frank, you know is 'still quite a boy.'" impudent hussy! forward, ill-conditioned saucy minx! such were the epithets which rose to lady arabella's mind; but she politely suppressed them. "miss thorne, this subject is of course to me very serious; very ill-adapted for jesting. i look upon such a marriage as absolutely impossible." "i do not know what you mean by impossible, lady arabella." "i mean, in the first place, that you two could not get yourselves married." "oh, yes; mr oriel would manage that for us. we are his parishioners, and he would be bound to do it." "i beg your pardon; i believe that under all the circumstances it would be illegal." mary smiled; but she said nothing. "you may laugh, miss thorne, but i think you will find that i am right. there are still laws to prevent such fearful distress as would be brought about by such a marriage." "i hope that nothing i shall do will bring distress on the family." "ah, but it would; don't you know that it would? think of it, miss thorne. think of frank's state, and of his father's state. you know enough of that, i am sure, to be well aware that frank is not in a condition to marry without money. think of the position which mr gresham's only son should hold in the county; think of the old name, and the pride we have in it; you have lived among us enough to understand all this; think of these things, and then say whether it is possible such a marriage should take place without family distress of the deepest kind. think of mr gresham; if you truly love my son, you could not wish to bring on him all this misery and ruin." mary now was touched, for there was truth in what lady arabella said. but she had no power of going back; her troth was plighted, and nothing that any human being could say should shake her from it. if he, indeed, chose to repent, that would be another thing. "lady arabella," she said, "i have nothing to say in favour of this engagement, except that he wishes it." "and is that a reason, mary?" "to me it is; not only a reason, but a law. i have given him my promise." "and you will keep your promise even to his own ruin?" "i hope not. our engagement, unless he shall choose to break it off, must necessarily be a long one; but the time will come--" "what! when mr gresham is dead?" "before that, i hope." "there is no probability of it. and because he is headstrong, you, who have always had credit for so much sense, will hold him to this mad engagement?" "no, lady arabella; i will not hold him to anything to which he does not wish to be held. nothing that you can say shall move me: nothing that anybody can say shall induce me to break my promise to him. but a word from himself will do it. one look will be sufficient. let him give me to understand, in any way, that his love for me is injurious to him--that he has learnt to think so--and then i will renounce my part in this engagement as quickly as you could wish it." there was much in this promise, but still not so much as lady arabella wished to get. mary, she knew, was obstinate, but yet reasonable; frank, she thought, was both obstinate and unreasonable. it might be possible to work on mary's reason, but quite impossible to touch frank's irrationality. so she persevered--foolishly. "miss thorne--that, is, mary, for i still wish to be thought your friend--" "i will tell you the truth, lady arabella: for some considerable time past i have not thought you so." "then you have wronged me. but i will go on with what i was saying. you quite acknowledge that this is a foolish affair?" "i acknowledge no such thing." "something very much like it. you have not a word in its defence." "not to you: i do not choose to be put on my defence by you." "i don't know who has more right; however, you promise that if frank wishes it, you will release him from his engagement." "release him! it is for him to release me, that is, if he wishes it." "very well; at any rate, you give him permission to do so. but will it not be more honourable for you to begin?" "no; i think not." "ah, but it would. if he, in his position, should be the first to speak, the first to suggest that this affair between you is a foolish one, what would people say?" "they would say the truth." "and what would you yourself say?" "nothing." "what would he think of himself?" "ah, that i do not know. it is according as that may be, that he will or will not act at your bidding." "exactly; and because you know him to be high-minded, because you think that he, having so much to give, will not break his word to you--to you who have nothing to give in return--it is, therefore, that you say that the first step must be taken by him. is that noble?" then mary rose from her seat, for it was no longer possible for her to speak what it was in her to say, sitting there leisurely on her sofa. lady arabella's worship of money had not hitherto been so brought forward in the conversation as to give her unpardonable offence; but now she felt that she could no longer restrain her indignation. "to you who have nothing to give in return!" had she not given all that she possessed? had she not emptied his store into his lap? that heart of hers, beating with such genuine life, capable of such perfect love, throbbing with so grand a pride; had she not given that? and was it not that, between him and her, more than twenty greshamsburys, nobler than any pedigree? "to you who have nothing to give," indeed! this to her who was so ready to give everything! "lady arabella," she said, "i think that you do not understand me, and that it is not likely that you should. if so, our further talking will be worse than useless. i have taken no account of what will be given between your son and me in your sense of the word giving. but he has professed to--to love me"--as she spoke, she still looked on the lady's face, but her eyelashes for a moment screened her eyes, and her colour was a little heightened--"and i have acknowledged that i also love him, and so we are engaged. to me my promise is sacred. i will not be threatened into breaking it. if, however, he shall wish to change his mind, he can do so. i will not upbraid him; will not, if i can help it, think harshly of him. so much you may tell him if it suits you; but i will not listen to your calculations as to how much or how little each of us may have to give to the other." she was still standing when she finished speaking, and so she continued to stand. her eyes were fixed on lady arabella, and her position seemed to say that sufficient words had been spoken, and that it was time that her ladyship should go; and so lady arabella felt it. gradually she also rose; slowly, but tacitly, she acknowledged that she was in the presence of a spirit superior to her own; and so she took her leave. "very well," she said, in a tone that was intended to be grandiloquent, but which failed grievously; "i will tell him that he has your permission to think a second time on this matter. i do not doubt but that he will do so." mary would not condescend to answer, but curtsied low as her visitor left the room. and so the interview was over. the interview was over, and mary was alone. she remained standing as long as she heard the footsteps of frank's mother on the stairs; not immediately thinking of what had passed, but still buoying herself up with her hot indignation, as though her work with lady arabella was not yet finished; but when the footfall was no longer heard, and the sound of the closing door told her that she was in truth alone, she sank back in her seat, and, covering her face with her hands, burst into bitter tears. all that doctrine about money was horrible to her; that insolent pretence, that she had caught at frank because of his worldly position, made her all but ferocious; but lady arabella had not the less spoken much that was true. she did think of the position which the heir of greshamsbury should hold in the county, and of the fact that a marriage would mar that position so vitally; she did think of the old name, and the old gresham pride; she did think of the squire and his deep distress: it was true that she had lived among them long enough to understand these things, and to know that it was not possible that this marriage should take place without deep family sorrow. and then she asked herself whether, in consenting to accept frank's hand, she had adequately considered this; and she was forced to acknowledge that she had not considered it. she had ridiculed lady arabella for saying that frank was still a boy; but was it not true that his offer had been made with a boy's energy, rather than a man's forethought? if so, if she had been wrong to accede to that offer when made, would she not be doubly wrong to hold him to it now that she saw their error? it was doubtless true that frank himself could not be the first to draw back. what would people say of him? she could now calmly ask herself the question that had so angered her when asked by lady arabella. if he could not do it, and if, nevertheless, it behoved them to break off this match, by whom was it to be done if not by her? was not lady arabella right throughout, right in her conclusions, though so foully wrong in her manner of drawing them? and then she did think for one moment of herself. "you who have nothing to give in return!" such had been lady arabella's main accusation against her. was it in fact true that she had nothing to give? her maiden love, her feminine pride, her very life, and spirit, and being--were these things nothing? were they to be weighed against pounds sterling per annum? and, when so weighed, were they ever to kick the beam like feathers? all these things had been nothing to her when, without reflection, governed wholly by the impulse of the moment, she had first allowed his daring hand to lie for an instant in her own. she had thought nothing of these things when that other suitor came, richer far than frank, to love whom it was as impossible to her as it was not to love him. her love had been pure from all such thoughts; she was conscious that it ever would be pure from them. lady arabella was unable to comprehend this, and, therefore, was lady arabella so utterly distasteful to her. frank had once held her close to his warm breast; and her very soul had thrilled with joy to feel that he so loved her,--with a joy which she had hardly dared to acknowledge. at that moment, her maidenly efforts had been made to push him off, but her heart had grown to his. she had acknowledged him to be master of her spirit; her bosom's lord; the man whom she had been born to worship; the human being to whom it was for her to link her destiny. frank's acres had been of no account; nor had his want of acres. god had brought them two together that they should love each other; that conviction had satisfied her, and she had made it a duty to herself that she would love him with her very soul. and now she was called upon to wrench herself asunder from him because she had nothing to give in return! well, she would wrench herself asunder, as far as such wrenching might be done compatibly with her solemn promise. it might be right that frank should have an opportunity offered him, so that he might escape from his position without disgrace. she would endeavour to give him this opportunity. so, with one deep sigh, she arose, took herself pen, ink, and paper, and sat herself down again so that the wrenching might begin. and then, for a moment, she thought of her uncle. why had he not spoken to her of all this? why had he not warned her? he who had ever been so good to her, why had he now failed her so grievously? she had told him everything, had had no secret from him; but he had never answered her a word. "he also must have known," she said to herself, piteously, "he also must have known that i could give nothing in return." such accusation, however, availed her not at all, so she sat down and slowly wrote her letter. "dearest frank," she began. she had at first written "dear mr gresham;" but her heart revolted against such useless coldness. she was not going to pretend she did not love him. dearest frank, your mother has been here talking to me about our engagement. i do not generally agree with her about such matters; but she has said some things to-day which i cannot but acknowledge to be true. she says, that our marriage would be distressing to your father, injurious to all your family, and ruinous to yourself. if this be so, how can i, who love you, wish for such a marriage? i remember my promise, and have kept it. i would not yield to your mother when she desired me to disclaim our engagement. but i do think it will be more prudent if you will consent to forget all that has passed between us--not, perhaps, to forget it; that may not be possible for us--but to let it pass by as though it had never been. if so, if you think so, dear frank, do not have any scruples on my account. what will be best for you, must be best for me. think what a reflection it would ever be to me, to have been the ruin of one that i love so well. let me have but one word to say that i am released from my promise, and i will tell my uncle that the matter between us is over. it will be painful for us at first; those occasional meetings which must take place will distress us, but that will wear off. we shall always think well of each other, and why should we not be friends? this, doubtless, cannot be done without inward wounds; but such wounds are in god's hands, and he can cure them. i know what your first feelings will be on reading this letter; but do not answer it in obedience to first feelings. think over it, think of your father, and all you owe him, of your old name, your old family, and of what the world expects from you. [mary was forced to put her hand to her eyes, to save her paper from her falling tears, as she found herself thus repeating, nearly word for word, the arguments that had been used by lady arabella.] think of these things, coolly, if you can, but, at any rate, without passion: and then let me have one word in answer. one word will suffice. i have but to add this: do not allow yourself to think that my heart will ever reproach you. it cannot reproach you for doing that which i myself suggest. [mary's logic in this was very false; but she was not herself aware of it.] i will never reproach you either in word or thought; and as for all others, it seems to me that the world agrees that we have hitherto been wrong. the world, i hope, will be satisfied when we have obeyed it. god bless you, dearest frank! i shall never call you so again; but it would be a pretence were i to write otherwise in this letter. think of this, and then let me have one line. your affectionate friend, mary thorne. p.s.--of course i cannot be at dear beatrice's marriage; but when they come back to the parsonage, i shall see her. i am sure they will both be happy, because they are so good. i need hardly say that i shall think of them on their wedding day. when she had finished her letter, she addressed it plainly, in her own somewhat bold handwriting, to francis n. gresham, jun., esq., and then took it herself to the little village post-office. there should be nothing underhand about her correspondence: all the greshamsbury world should know of it--that world of which she had spoken in her letter--if that world so pleased. having put her penny label on it, she handed it, with an open brow and an unembarrassed face, to the baker's wife, who was her majesty's postmistress at greshamsbury; and, having so finished her work, she returned to see the table prepared for her uncle's dinner. "i will say nothing to him," said she to herself, "till i get the answer. he will not talk to me about it, so why should i trouble him?" chapter xliii the race of scatcherd becomes extinct it will not be imagined, at any rate by feminine readers, that mary's letter was written off at once, without alterations and changes, or the necessity for a fair copy. letters from one young lady to another are doubtless written in this manner, and even with them it might sometimes be better if more patience had been taken; but with mary's first letter to her lover--her first love-letter, if love-letter it can be called--much more care was used. it was copied and re-copied, and when she returned from posting it, it was read and re-read. "it is very cold," she said to herself; "he will think i have no heart, that i have never loved him!" and then she all but resolved to run down to the baker's wife, and get back her letter, that she might alter it. "but it will be better so," she said again. "if i touched his feelings now, he would never bring himself to leave me. it is right that i should be cold to him. i should be false to myself if i tried to move his love--i, who have nothing to give him in return for it." and so she made no further visit to the post-office, and the letter went on its way. we will now follow its fortunes for a short while, and explain how it was that mary received no answer for a week; a week, it may well be imagined, of terrible suspense to her. when she took it to the post-office, she doubtless thought that the baker's wife had nothing to do but to send it up to the house at greshamsbury, and that frank would receive it that evening, or, at latest, early on the following morning. but this was by no means so. the epistle was posted on a friday afternoon, and it behoved the baker's wife to send it into silverbridge--silverbridge being the post-town--so that all due formalities, as ordered by the queen's government, might there be perfected. now, unfortunately, the post-boy had taken his departure before mary reached the shop, and it was not, therefore, dispatched till saturday. sunday was always a _dies non_ with the greshamsbury mercury, and, consequently, frank's letter was not delivered at the house till monday morning; at which time mary had for two long days been waiting with weary heart for the expected answer. now frank had on that morning gone up to london by the early train, with his future brother-in-law, mr oriel. in order to accomplish this, they had left greshamsbury for barchester exactly as the postboy was leaving silverbridge for greshamsbury. "i should like to wait for my letters," mr oriel had said, when the journey was being discussed. "nonsense," frank had answered. "who ever got a letter that was worth waiting for?" and so mary was doomed to a week of misery. when the post-bag arrived at the house on monday morning, it was opened as usual by the squire himself at the breakfast-table. "here is a letter for frank," said he, "posted in the village. you had better send it to him:" and he threw the letter across the table to beatrice. "it's from mary," said beatrice, out loud, taking the letter up and examining the address. and having said so, she repented what she had done, as she looked first at her father and then at her mother. a cloud came over the squire's brow as for a minute he went on turning over the letters and newspapers. "oh, from mary thorne, is it?" he said. "well, you had better send it to him." "frank said that if any letters came they were to be kept," said his sister sophy. "he told me so particularly. i don't think he likes having letters sent after him." "you had better send that one," said the squire. "mr oriel is to have all his letters addressed to long's hotel, bond street, and this one can very well be sent with them," said beatrice, who knew all about it, and intended herself to make a free use of the address. "yes, you had better send it," said the squire; and then nothing further was said at the table. but lady arabella, though she said nothing, had not failed to mark what had passed. had she asked for the letter before the squire, he would probably have taken possession of it himself; but as soon as she was alone with beatrice, she did demand it. "i shall be writing to frank myself," she said, "and will send it to him." and so, beatrice, with a heavy heart, gave it up. the letter lay before lady arabella's eyes all that day, and many a wistful glance was cast at it. she turned it over and over, and much she desired to know its contents; but she did not dare to break the seal of her son's letter. all that day it lay upon her desk, and all the next, for she could hardly bring herself to part with it; but on the wednesday it was sent--sent with these lines from herself:-- "dearest, dearest frank, i send you a letter which has come by the post from mary thorne. i do not know what it may contain; but before you correspond with her, pray, pray think of what i said to you. for my sake, for your father's, for your own, pray think of it." that was all, but it was enough to make her word to beatrice true. she did send it to frank enclosed in a letter from herself. we must reserve to the next chapter what had taken place between frank and his mother; but, for the present, we will return to the doctor's house. mary said not a word to him about the letter; but, keeping silent on the subject, she felt wretchedly estranged from him. "is anything the matter, mary?" he said to her on the sunday afternoon. "no, uncle," she answered, turning away her head to hide her tears. "ah, but there is something; what is it, dearest?" "nothing--that is, nothing that one can talk about." "what mary! be unhappy and not to talk about it to me? that's something new, is it not?" "one has presentiments sometimes, and is unhappy without knowing why. besides, you know--" "i know! what do i know? do i know anything that will make my pet happier?" and he took her in his arms as they sat together on the sofa. her tears were now falling fast, and she no longer made an effort to hide them. "speak to me, mary; this is more than a presentiment. what is it?" "oh, uncle--" "come, love, speak to me; tell me why you are grieving." "oh, uncle, why have you not spoken to me? why have you not told me what to do? why have you not advised me? why are you always so silent?" "silent about what?" "you know, uncle, you know; silent about him; silent about frank." why, indeed? what was he to say to this? it was true that he had never counselled her; never shown her what course she should take; had never even spoken to her about her lover. and it was equally true that he was not now prepared to do so, even in answer to such an appeal as this. he had a hope, a strong hope, more than a hope, that mary's love would yet be happy; but he could not express or explain his hope; nor could he even acknowledge to himself a wish that would seem to be based on the death of him whose life he was bound, if possible, to preserve. "my love," he said, "it is a matter in which you must judge for yourself. did i doubt your conduct, i should interfere; but i do not." "conduct! is conduct everything? one may conduct oneself excellently, and yet break one's heart." this was too much for the doctor; his sternness and firmness instantly deserted him. "mary," he said, "i will do anything that you would have me. if you wish it, i will make arrangements for leaving this place at once." "oh, no," she said, plaintively. "when you tell me of a broken heart, you almost break my own. come to me, darling; do not leave me so. i will say all that i can say. i have thought, do still think, that circumstances will admit of your marriage with frank if you both love each other, and can both be patient." "you think so," said she, unconsciously sliding her hand into his, as though to thank him by its pressure for the comfort he was giving her. "i do think so now more than ever. but i only think so; i have been unable to assure you. there, darling, i must not say more; only that i cannot bear to see you grieving, i would not have said this:" and then he left her, and nothing more was spoken on the subject. if you can be patient! why, a patience of ten years would be as nothing to her. could she but live with the knowledge that she was first in his estimation, dearest in his heart; could it be also granted to her to feel that she was regarded as his equal, she could be patient for ever. what more did she want than to know and feel this? patient, indeed! but what could these circumstances be to which her uncle had alluded? "i do think that circumstances will admit of your marriage." such was his opinion, and she had never known him to be wrong. circumstances! what circumstances? did he perhaps mean that mr gresham's affairs were not so bad as they had been thought to be? if so, that alone would hardly alter the matter, for what could she give in return? "i would give him the world for one word of love," she said to herself, "and never think that he was my debtor. ah! how beggarly the heart must be that speculates on such gifts as those!" but there was her uncle's opinion: he still thought that they might be married. oh, why had she sent her letter? and why had she made it so cold? with such a letter as that before him, frank could not do other than consent to her proposal. and then, why did he not at least answer it? on the sunday afternoon there arrived at greshamsbury a man and a horse from boxall hill, bearing a letter from lady scatcherd to dr thorne, earnestly requesting the doctor's immediate attendance. "i fear everything is over with poor louis," wrote the unhappy mother. "it has been very dreadful. do come to me; i have no other friend, and i am nearly worn through with it. the man from the city"--she meant dr fillgrave--"comes every day, and i dare say he is all very well, but he has never done much good. he has not had spirit enough to keep the bottle from him; and it was that, and that only, that most behoved to be done. i doubt you won't find him in this world when you arrive here." dr thorne started immediately. even though he might have to meet dr fillgrave, he could not hesitate, for he went not as a doctor to the dying man, but as the trustee under sir roger's will. moreover, as lady scatcherd had said, he was her only friend, and he could not desert her at such a moment for an army of fillgraves. he told mary he should not return that night; and taking with him a small saddle-bag, he started at once for boxall hill. as he rode up to the hall door, dr fillgrave was getting into his carriage. they had never met so as to speak to each other since that memorable day, when they had their famous passage of arms in the hall of that very house before which they both now stood. but, at the present moment, neither of them was disposed to renew the fight. "what news of your patient, dr fillgrave?" said our doctor, still seated on his sweating horse, and putting his hand lightly to his hat. dr fillgrave could not refrain from one moment of supercilious disdain: he gave one little chuck to his head, one little twist to his neck, one little squeeze to his lips, and then the man within him overcame the doctor. "sir louis is no more," he said. "god's will be done!" said dr thorne. "his death is a release; for his last days have been very frightful. your coming, dr thorne, will be a comfort to lady scatcherd." and then dr fillgrave, thinking that even the present circumstances required no further condescension, ensconced himself in the carriage. "his last days have been very dreadful! ah, me, poor fellow! dr fillgrave, before you go, allow me to say this: i am quite aware that when he fell into your hands, no medical skill in the world could save him." dr fillgrave bowed low from the carriage, and after this unwonted exchange of courtesies, the two doctors parted, not to meet again--at any rate, in the pages of this novel. of dr fillgrave, let it now be said, that he grows in dignity as he grows in years, and that he is universally regarded as one of the celebrities of the city of barchester. lady scatcherd was found sitting alone in her little room on the ground-floor. even hannah was not with her, for hannah was now occupied upstairs. when the doctor entered the room, which he did unannounced, he found her seated on a chair, with her back against one of the presses, her hands clasped together over her knees, gazing into vacancy. she did not ever hear him or see him as he approached, and his hand had slightly touched her shoulder before she knew that she was not alone. then, she looked up at him with a face so full of sorrow, so worn with suffering, that his own heart was racked to see her. "it is all over, my friend," said he. "it is better so; much better so." she seemed at first hardly to understand him, but still regarding him with that wan face, shook her head slowly and sadly. one might have thought that she was twenty years older than when dr thorne last saw her. he drew a chair to her side, and sitting by her, took her hand in his. "it is better so, lady scatcherd; better so," he repeated. "the poor lad's doom had been spoken, and it is well for him, and for you, that it should be over." "they are both gone now," said she, speaking very low; "both gone now. oh, doctor! to be left alone here, all alone!" he said some few words trying to comfort her; but who can comfort a widow bereaved of her child? who can console a heart that has lost all that it possessed? sir roger had not been to her a tender husband; but still he had been the husband of her love. sir louis had not been to her an affectionate son; but still he had been her child, her only child. now they were both gone. who can wonder that the world should be a blank to her? still the doctor spoke soothing words, and still he held her hand. he knew that his words could not console her; but the sounds of his kindness at such desolate moments are, to such minds as hers, some alleviation of grief. she hardly answered him, but sat there staring out before her, leaving her hand passively to him, and swaying her head backwards and forwards as though her grief were too heavy to be borne. at last, her eye rested on an article which stood upon the table, and she started up impetuously from her chair. she did this so suddenly, that the doctor's hand fell beside him before he knew that she had risen. the table was covered with all those implements which become so frequent about a house when severe illness is an inhabitant there. there were little boxes and apothecaries' bottles, cups and saucers standing separate, and bowls, in which messes have been prepared with the hope of suiting a sick man's failing appetite. there was a small saucepan standing on a plate, a curiously shaped glass utensil left by the doctor, and sundry pieces of flannel, which had been used in rubbing the sufferer's limbs. but in the middle of the débris stood one black bottle, with head erect, unsuited to the companionship in which it was found. "there," she said, rising up, and seizing this in a manner that would have been ridiculous had it not been so truly tragic. "there, that has robbed me of everything--of all that i ever possessed; of husband and child; of the father and son; that has swallowed them both--murdered them both! oh, doctor! that such a thing as that should cause such bitter sorrow! i have hated it always, but now--oh, woe is me! weary me!" and then she let the bottle drop from her hand as though it were too heavy for her. "this comes of their barro-niting," she continued. "if they had let him alone, he would have been here now, and so would the other one. why did they do it? why did they do it? ah, doctor! people such as us should never meddle with them above us. see what has come of it; see what has come of it!" the doctor could not remain with her long, as it was necessary that he should take upon himself the direction of the household, and give orders for the funeral. first of all, he had to undergo the sad duty of seeing the corpse of the deceased baronet. this, at any rate, may be spared to my readers. it was found to be necessary that the interment should be made very quickly, as the body was already nearly destroyed by alcohol. having done all this, and sent back his horse to greshamsbury, with directions that clothes for a journey might be sent to him, and a notice that he should not be home for some days, he again returned to lady scatcherd. of course he could not but think much of the immense property which was now, for a short time, altogether in his own hands. his resolution was soon made to go at once to london and consult the best lawyer he could find--or the best dozen lawyers should such be necessary--as to the validity of mary's claims. this must be done before he said a word to her or to any of the gresham family; but it must be done instantly, so that all suspense might be at an end as soon as possible. he must, of course, remain with lady scatcherd till the funeral should be over; but when that office should be complete, he would start instantly for london. in resolving to tell no one as to mary's fortune till after he had fortified himself with legal warranty, he made one exception. he thought it rational that he should explain to lady scatcherd who was now the heir under her husband's will; and he was the more inclined to do so, from feeling that the news would probably be gratifying to her. with this view, he had once or twice endeavoured to induce her to talk about the property, but she had been unwilling to do so. she seemed to dislike all allusions to it, and it was not till she had incidentally mentioned the fact that she would have to look for a home, that he was able to fix her to the subject. this was on the evening before the funeral; on the afternoon of which day he intended to proceed to london. "it may probably be arranged that you may continue to live here," said the doctor. "i don't wish it at all," said she, rather sharply. "i don't wish to have any arrangements made. i would not be indebted to any of them for anything. oh, dear! if money could make it all right, i should have enough of that." "indebted to whom, lady scatcherd? who do you think will be the owner of boxall hill?" "indeed, then, dr thorne, i don't much care: unless it be yourself, it won't be any friend of mine, or any one i shall care to make a friend of. it isn't so easy for an old woman like me to make new friends." "well, it certainly won't belong to me." "i wish it did, with all my heart. but even then, i would not live here. i have had too many troubles here to wish to see more." "that shall be just as you like, lady scatcherd; but you will be surprised to hear that the place will--at least i think it will--belong to a friend of yours: to one to whom you have been very kind." "and who is he, doctor? won't it go to some of those americans? i am sure i never did anything kind to them; though, indeed, i did love poor mary scatcherd. but that's years upon years ago, and she is dead and gone now. well, i begrudge nothing to mary's children. as i have none of my own, it is right they should have the money. it has not made me happy; i hope it may do so to them." "the property will, i think, go to mary scatcherd's eldest child. it is she whom you have known as mary thorne." "doctor!" and then lady scatcherd, as she made the exclamation, put both her hands down to hold her chair, as though she feared the weight of her surprise would topple her off her seat. "yes; mary thorne--my mary--to whom you have been so good, who loves you so well; she, i believe, will be sir roger's heiress. and it was so that sir roger intended on his deathbed, in the event of poor louis's life being cut short. if this be so, will you be ashamed to stay here as the guest of mary thorne? she has not been ashamed to be your guest." but lady scatcherd was now too much interested in the general tenor of the news which she had heard to care much about the house which she was to inhabit in future. mary thorne, the heiress of boxall hill! mary thorne, the still living child of that poor creature who had so nearly died when they were all afflicted with their early grief! well; there was consolation, there was comfort in this. there were but three people left in the world that she could love: her foster-child, frank gresham--mary thorne, and the doctor. if the money went to mary, it would of course go to frank, for she now knew that they loved each other; and if it went to them, would not the doctor have his share also; such share as he might want? could she have governed the matter, she would have given it all to frank; and now it would be as well bestowed. yes; there was consolation in this. they both sat up more than half the night talking over it, and giving and receiving explanations. if only the council of lawyers would not be adverse! that was now the point of suspense. the doctor, before he left her, bade her hold her peace, and say nothing of mary's fortune to any one till her rights had been absolutely acknowledged. "it will be nothing not to have it," said the doctor; "but it would be very bad to hear it was hers, and then to lose it." on the next morning, dr thorne deposited the remains of sir louis in the vault prepared for the family in the parish church. he laid the son where a few months ago he had laid the father,--and so the title of scatcherd became extinct. their race of honour had not been long. after the funeral, the doctor hurried up to london, and there we will leave him. chapter xliv saturday evening and sunday morning we must now go back a little and describe how frank had been sent off on special business to london. the household at greshamsbury was at this time in but a doleful state. it seemed to be pervaded, from the squire down to the scullery-maid, with a feeling that things were not going well; and men and women, in spite of beatrice's coming marriage, were grim-visaged, and dolorous. mr mortimer gazebee, rejected though he had been, still went and came, talking much to the squire, much also to her ladyship, as to the ill-doings which were in the course of projection by sir louis; and frank went about the house with clouded brow, as though finally resolved to neglect his one great duty. poor beatrice was robbed of half her joy: over and over again her brother asked her whether she had yet seen mary, and she was obliged as often to answer that she had not. indeed, she did not dare to visit her friend, for it was hardly possible that they should sympathise with each other. mary was, to say the least, stubborn in her pride; and beatrice, though she could forgive her friend for loving her brother, could not forgive the obstinacy with which mary persisted in a course which, as beatrice thought, she herself knew to be wrong. and then mr gazebee came down from town, with an intimation that it behoved the squire himself to go up that he might see certain learned pundits, and be badgered in his own person at various dingy, dismal chambers in lincoln's inn fields, the temple, and gray's inn lane. it was an invitation exactly of that sort which a good many years ago was given to a certain duck. "will you, will you--will you, will you--come and be killed?" although mr gazebee urged the matter with such eloquence, the squire remained steady to his objection, and swam obstinately about his greshamsbury pond in any direction save that which seemed to lead towards london. this occurred on the very evening of that friday which had witnessed the lady arabella's last visit to dr thorne's house. the question of the squire's necessary journey to the great fountains of justice was, of course, discussed between lady arabella and mr gazebee; and it occurred to the former, full as she was of frank's iniquity and of mary's obstinacy, that if frank were sent up in lieu of his father, it would separate them at least for a while. if she could only get frank away without seeing his love, she might yet so work upon him, by means of the message which mary had sent, as to postpone, if not break off, this hateful match. it was inconceivable that a youth of twenty-three, and such a youth as frank, should be obstinately constant to a girl possessed of no great beauty--so argued lady arabella to herself--and who had neither wealth, birth, nor fashion to recommend her. and thus it was at last settled--the squire being a willing party to the agreement--that frank should go up and be badgered in lieu of his father. at his age it was possible to make it appear a thing desirable, if not necessary--on account of the importance conveyed--to sit day after day in the chambers of messrs slow & bideawhile, and hear musty law talk, and finger dusty law parchments. the squire had made many visits to messrs slow & bideawhile, and he knew better. frank had not hitherto been there on his own bottom, and thus he fell easily into the trap. mr oriel was also going to london, and this was another reason for sending frank. mr oriel had business of great importance, which it was quite necessary that he should execute before his marriage. how much of this business consisted in going to his tailor, buying a wedding-ring, and purchasing some other more costly present for beatrice, we need not here inquire. but mr oriel was quite on lady arabella's side with reference to this mad engagement, and as frank and he were now fast friends, some good might be done in that way. "if we all caution him against it, he can hardly withstand us all!" said lady arabella to herself. the matter was broached to frank on the saturday evening, and settled between them all the same night. nothing, of course, was at that moment said about mary; but lady arabella was too full of the subject to let him go to london without telling him that mary was ready to recede if only he would allow her to do so. about eleven o'clock, frank was sitting in his own room, conning over the difficulties of the situation--thinking of his father's troubles, and his own position--when he was roused from his reverie by a slight tap at the door. "come in," said he, somewhat loudly. he thought it was one of his sisters, who were apt to visit him at all hours and for all manner of reasons; and he, though he was usually gentle to them, was not at present exactly in a humour to be disturbed. the door gently opened, and he saw his mother standing hesitating in the passage. "can i come in, frank?" said she. "oh, yes, mother; by all means:" and then, with some surprise marked in his countenance, he prepared a seat for her. such a visit as this from lady arabella was very unusual; so much so, that he had probably not seen her in his own room since the day when he first left school. he had nothing, however, to be ashamed of; nothing to conceal, unless it were an open letter from miss dunstable which he had in his hand when she entered, and which he somewhat hurriedly thrust into his pocket. "i wanted to say a few words to you, frank, before you start for london about this business." frank signified by a gesture, that he was quite ready to listen to her. "i am so glad to see your father putting the matter into your hands. you are younger than he is; and then--i don't know why, but somehow your father has never been a good man of business--everything has gone wrong with him." "oh, mother! do not say anything against him." "no, frank, i will not; i do not wish it. things have been unfortunate, certainly. ah me! i little thought when i married--but i don't mean to complain--i have excellent children, and i ought to be thankful for that." frank began to fear that no good could be coming when his mother spoke in that strain. "i will do the best i can," said he, "up in town. i can't help thinking myself that mr gazebee might have done as well, but--" "oh, dear no; by no means. in such cases the principal must show himself. besides, it is right you should know how matters stand. who is so much interested in it as you are? poor frank! i so often feel for you when i think how the property has dwindled." "pray do not mind me, mother. why should you talk of it as my matter while my father is not yet forty-five? his life, so to speak, is as good as mine. i can do very well without it; all i want is to be allowed to settle to something." "you mean a profession." "yes; something of that sort." "they are so slow, dear frank. you, who speak french so well--i should think my brother might get you in as attaché to some embassy." "that wouldn't suit me at all," said frank. "well, we'll talk about that some other time. but i came about something else, and i do hope you will hear me." frank's brow again grew black, for he knew that his mother was about to say something which it would be disagreeable for him to hear. "i was with mary, yesterday." "well, mother?" "don't be angry with me, frank; you can't but know that the fate of an only son must be a subject of anxiety to a mother." ah! how singularly altered was lady arabella's tone since first she had taken upon herself to discuss the marriage prospects of her son! then how autocratic had she been as she sent him away, bidding him, with full command, to throw himself into the golden embraces of miss dunstable! but now, how humble, as she came suppliantly to his room, craving that she might have leave to whisper into his ears a mother's anxious fears! frank had laughed at her stern behests, though he had half obeyed them; but he was touched to the heart by her humility. he drew his chair nearer to her, and took her by the hand. but she, disengaging hers, parted the hair from off his forehead, and kissed his brow. "oh, frank," she said, "i have been so proud of you, am still so proud of you. it will send me to my grave if i see you sink below your proper position. not that it will be your fault. i am sure it will not be your fault. only circumstanced as you are, you should be doubly, trebly, careful. if your father had not--" "do not speak against my father." "no, frank; i will not--no, i will not; not another word. and now, frank--" before we go on we must say one word further as to lady arabella's character. it will probably be said that she was a consummate hypocrite; but at the present moment she was not hypocritical. she did love her son; was anxious--very, very anxious for him; was proud of him, and almost admired the very obstinacy which so vexed her to her inmost soul. no grief would be to her so great as that of seeing him sink below what she conceived to be his position. she was as genuinely motherly, in wishing that he should marry money, as another woman might be in wishing to see her son a bishop; or as the spartan matron, who preferred that her offspring should return on his shield, to hearing that he had come back whole in limb but tainted in honour. when frank spoke of a profession, she instantly thought of what lord de courcy might do for him. if he would not marry money, he might, at any rate, be an attaché at an embassy. a profession--hard work, as a doctor, or as an engineer--would, according to her ideas, degrade him; cause him to sink below his proper position; but to dangle at a foreign court, to make small talk at the evening parties of a lady ambassadress, and occasionally, perhaps, to write demi-official notes containing demi-official tittle-tattle; this would be in proper accordance with the high honour of a gresham of greshamsbury. we may not admire the direction taken by lady arabella's energy on behalf of her son, but that energy was not hypocritical. "and now, frank--" she looked wistfully into his face as she addressed him, as though half afraid to go on, and begging that he would receive with complaisance whatever she found herself forced to say. "well, mother?" "i was with mary, yesterday." "yes, yes; what then? i know what your feelings are with regard to her." "no, frank; you wrong me. i have no feelings against her--none, indeed; none but this: that she is not fit to be your wife." "i think her fit." "ah, yes; but how fit? think of your position, frank, and what means you have of keeping her. think what you are. your father's only son; the heir to greshamsbury. if greshamsbury be ever again more than a name, it is you that must redeem it. of all men living you are the least able to marry a girl like mary thorne." "mother, i will not sell myself for what you call my position." "who asks you? i do not ask you; nobody asks you. i do not want you to marry any one. i did think once--but let that pass. you are now twenty-three. in ten years' time you will still be a young man. i only ask you to wait. if you marry now, that is, marry such a girl as mary thorne--" "such a girl! where shall i find such another?" "i mean as regards money, frank; you know i mean that; how are you to live? where are you to go? and then, her birth. oh, frank, frank!" "birth! i hate such pretence. what was--but i won't talk about it. mother, i tell you my word is pledged, and on no account will i be induced to break it." "ah, that's just it; that's just the point. now, frank, listen to me. pray listen to me patiently for one minute. i do not ask much of you." frank promised that he would listen patiently; but he looked anything but patient as he said so. "i have seen mary, as it was certainly my duty to do. you cannot be angry with me for that." "who said that i was angry, mother?" "well, i have seen her, and i must own, that though she was not disposed to be courteous to me, personally, she said much that marked her excellent good sense. but the gist of it was this; that as she had made you a promise, nothing should turn her from that promise but your permission." "and do you think--" "wait a moment, frank, and listen to me. she confessed that this marriage was one which would necessarily bring distress on all your family; that it was one which would probably be ruinous to yourself; that it was a match which could not be approved of: she did, indeed; she confessed all that. 'i have nothing', she said--those were her own words--'i have nothing to say in favour of this engagement, except that he wishes it.' that is what she thinks of it herself. 'his wishes are not a reason; but a law,' she said--" "and, mother, would you have me desert such a girl as that?" "it is not deserting, frank: it would not be deserting: you would be doing that which she herself approves of. she feels the impropriety of going on; but she cannot draw back because of her promise to you. she thinks that she cannot do it, even though she wishes it." "wishes it! oh, mother!" "i do believe she does, because she has sense to feel the truth of all that your friends say. oh, frank, i will go on my knees to you if you will listen to me." "oh, mother! mother! mother!" "you should think twice, frank, before you refuse the only request your mother ever made you. and why do i ask you? why do i come to you thus? is it for my own sake? oh, my boy! my darling boy! will you lose everything in life, because you love the child with whom you have played as a child?" "whose fault is it that we were together as children? she is now more than a child. i look on her already as my wife." "but she is not your wife, frank; and she knows that she ought not to be. it is only because you hold her to it that she consents to be so." "do you mean to say that she does not love me?" lady arabella would probably have said this, also, had she dared; but she felt, that in doing so, she would be going too far. it was useless for her to say anything that would be utterly contradicted by an appeal to mary herself. "no, frank; i do not mean to say that you do not love her. what i do mean is this: that it is not becoming in you to give up everything--not only yourself, but all your family--for such a love as this; and that she, mary herself, acknowledges this. every one is of the same opinion. ask your father: i need not say that he would agree with you about everything if he could. i will not say the de courcys." "oh, the de courcys!" "yes, they are my relations; i know that." lady arabella could not quite drop the tone of bitterness which was natural to her in saying this. "but ask your sisters; ask mr oriel, whom you esteem so much; ask your friend harry baker." frank sat silent for a moment or two while his mother, with a look almost of agony, gazed into his face. "i will ask no one," at last he said. "oh, my boy! my boy!" "no one but myself can know my own heart." "and you will sacrifice all to such a love as that, all; her, also, whom you say that you so love? what happiness can you give her as your wife? oh, frank! is that the only answer you will make your mother on her knees? "oh, mother! mother!" "no, frank, i will not let you ruin yourself; i will not let you destroy yourself. promise this, at least, that you will think of what i have said." "think of it! i do think of it." "ah, but think of it in earnest. you will be absent now in london; you will have the business of the estate to manage; you will have heavy cares upon your hands. think of it as a man, and not as a boy." "i will see her to-morrow before i go." "no, frank, no; grant me that trifle, at any rate. think upon this without seeing her. do not proclaim yourself so weak that you cannot trust yourself to think over what your mother says to you without asking her leave. though you be in love, do not be childish with it. what i have told you as coming from her is true, word for word; if it were not, you would soon learn so. think now of what i have said, and of what she says, and when you come back from london, then you can decide." to so much frank consented after some further parley; namely, that he would proceed to london on the following monday morning without again seeing mary. and in the meantime, she was waiting with sore heart for his answer to that letter that was lying, and was still to lie for so many hours, in the safe protection of the silverbridge postmistress. it may seem strange; but, in truth, his mother's eloquence had more effect on frank than that of his father: and yet, with his father he had always sympathised. but his mother had been energetic; whereas, his father, if not lukewarm, had, at any rate, been timid. "i will ask no one," frank had said in the strong determination of his heart; and yet the words were hardly out of his mouth before he bethought himself that he would talk the thing over with harry baker. "not," said he to himself, "that i have any doubt; i have no doubt; but i hate to have all the world against me. my mother wishes me to ask harry baker. harry is a good fellow, and i will ask him." and with this resolve he betook himself to bed. the following day was sunday. after breakfast frank went with the family to church, as was usual; and there, as usual, he saw mary in dr thorne's pew. she, as she looked at him, could not but wonder why he had not answered the letter which was still at silverbridge; and he endeavoured to read in her face whether it was true, as his mother had told him, that she was quite ready to give him up. the prayers of both of them were disturbed, as is so often the case with the prayers of other anxious people. there was a separate door opening from the greshamsbury pew out into the greshamsbury grounds, so that the family were not forced into unseemly community with the village multitude in going to and from their prayers; for the front door of the church led out into a road which had no connexion with the private path. it was not unusual with frank and his father to go round, after the service, to the chief entrance, so that they might speak to their neighbours, and get rid of some of the exclusiveness which was intended for them. on this morning the squire did so; but frank walked home with his mother and sisters, so that mary saw no more of him. i have said that he walked home with his mother and his sisters; but he rather followed in their path. he was not inclined to talk much, at least, not to them; and he continued asking himself the question--whether it could be possible that he was wrong in remaining true to his promise? could it be that he owed more to his father and his mother, and what they chose to call his position, than he did to mary? after church, mr gazebee tried to get hold of him, for there was much still to be said, and many hints to be given, as to how frank should speak, and, more especially, as to how he should hold his tongue among the learned pundits in and about chancery lane. "you must be very wide awake with messrs slow & bideawhile," said mr gazebee. but frank would not hearken to him just at that moment. he was going to ride over to harry baker, so he put mr gazebee off till the half-hour before dinner,--or else the half-hour after tea. on the previous day he had received a letter from miss dunstable, which he had hitherto read but once. his mother had interrupted him as he was about to refer to it; and now, as his father's nag was being saddled--he was still prudent in saving the black horse--he again took it out. miss dunstable had written in an excellent humour. she was in great distress about the oil of lebanon, she said. "i have been trying to get a purchaser for the last two years; but my lawyer won't let me sell it, because the would-be purchasers offer a thousand pounds or so less than the value. i would give ten to be rid of the bore; but i am as little able to act myself as sancho was in his government. the oil of lebanon! did you hear anything of it when you were in those parts? i thought of changing the name to 'london particular;' but my lawyer says the brewers would bring an action against me. "i was going down to your neighbourhood--to your friend the duke's, at least. but i am prevented by my poor doctor, who is so weak that i must take him to malvern. it is a great bore; but i have the satisfaction that i do my duty by him! "your cousin george is to be married at last. so i hear, at least. he loves wisely, if not well; for his widow has the name of being prudent and fairly well to do in the world. she has got over the caprices of her youth. dear aunt de courcy will be so delighted. i might perhaps have met her at gatherum castle. i do so regret it. "mr moffat has turned up again. we all thought you had finally extinguished him. he left a card the other day, and i have told the servant always to say that i am at home, and that you are with me. he is going to stand for some borough in the west of ireland. he's used to shillelaghs by this time. "by the by, i have a _cadeau_ for a friend of yours. i won't tell you what it is, nor permit you to communicate the fact. but when you tell me that in sending it i may fairly congratulate her on having so devoted a slave as you, it shall be sent. "if you have nothing better to do at present, do come and see my invalid at malvern. perhaps you might have a mind to treat for the oil of lebanon. i'll give you all the assistance i can in cheating my lawyers." there was not much about mary in this; but still, the little that was said made him again declare that neither father nor mother should move him from his resolution. "i will write to her and say that she may send her present when she pleases. or i will run down to malvern for a day. it will do me good to see her." and so resolved, he rode away to mill hill, thinking, as he went, how he would put the matter to harry baker. harry was at home; but we need not describe the whole interview. had frank been asked beforehand, he would have declared, that on no possible subject could he have had the slightest hesitation in asking harry any question, or communicating to him any tidings. but when the time came, he found that he did hesitate much. he did not want to ask his friend if he should be wise to marry mary thorne. wise or not, he was determined to do that. but he wished to be quite sure that his mother was wrong in saying that all the world would dissuade him from it. miss dunstable, at any rate, did not do so. at last, seated on a stile at the back of the mill hill stables, while harry stood close before him with both his hands in his pockets, he did get his story told. it was by no means the first time that harry baker had heard about mary thorne, and he was not, therefore, so surprised as he might have been, had the affair been new to him. and thus, standing there in the position we have described, did mr baker, junior, give utterance to such wisdom as was in him on this subject. "you see, frank, there are two sides to every question; and, as i take it, fellows are so apt to go wrong because they are so fond of one side, they won't look at the other. there's no doubt about it, lady arabella is a very clever woman, and knows what's what; and there's no doubt about this either, that you have a very ticklish hand of cards to play." "i'll play it straightforward; that's my game" said frank. "well and good, my dear fellow. that's the best game always. but what is straightforward? between you and me, i fear there's no doubt that your father's property has got into a deuce of a mess." "i don't see that that has anything to do with it." "yes, but it has. if the estate was all right, and your father could give you a thousand a year to live on without feeling it, and if your eldest child would be cock-sure of greshamsbury, it might be very well that you should please yourself as to marrying at once. but that's not the case; and yet greshamsbury is too good a card to be flung away." "i could fling it away to-morrow," said frank. "ah! you think so," said harry the wise. "but if you were to hear to-morrow that sir louis scatcherd were master of the whole place, and be d---- to him, you would feel very uncomfortable." had harry known how near sir louis was to his last struggle, he would not have spoken of him in this manner. "that's all very fine talk, but it won't bear wear and tear. you do care for greshamsbury if you are the fellow i take you to be: care for it very much; and you care too for your father being gresham of greshamsbury." "this won't affect my father at all." "ah, but it will affect him very much. if you were to marry miss thorne to-morrow, there would at once be an end to any hope of your saving the property." "and do you mean to say i'm to be a liar to her for such reasons as that? why, harry, i should be as bad as moffat. only it would be ten times more cowardly, as she has no brother." "i must differ from you there altogether; but mind, i don't mean to say anything. tell me that you have made up your mind to marry her, and i'll stick to you through thick and thin. but if you ask my advice, why, i must give it. it is quite a different affair to that of moffat's. he had lots of tin, everything he could want, and there could be no reason why he should not marry,--except that he was a snob, of whom your sister was well quit. but this is very different. if i, as your friend, were to put it to miss thorne, what do you think she would say herself?" "she would say whatever she thought best for me." "exactly: because she is a trump. and i say the same. there can be no doubt about it, frank, my boy: such a marriage would be very foolish for you both; very foolish. nobody can admire miss thorne more than i do; but you oughtn't to be a marrying man for the next ten years, unless you get a fortune. if you tell her the truth, and if she's the girl i take her to be, she'll not accuse you of being false. she'll peak for a while; and so will you, old chap. but others have had to do that before you. they have got over it, and so will you." such was the spoken wisdom of harry baker, and who can say that he was wrong? frank sat a while on his rustle seat, paring his nails with his penknife, and then looking up, he thus thanked his friend:-- "i'm sure you mean well, harry; and i'm much obliged to you. i dare say you're right too. but, somehow, it doesn't come home to me. and what is more, after what has passed, i could not tell her that i wish to part from her. i could not do it. and besides, i have that sort of feeling, that if i heard she was to marry any one else, i am sure i should blow his brains out. either his or my own." "well, frank, you may count on me for anything, except the last proposition:" and so they shook hands, and frank rode back to greshamsbury. chapter xlv law business in london on the monday morning at six o'clock, mr oriel and frank started together; but early as it was, beatrice was up to give them a cup of coffee, mr oriel having slept that night in the house. whether frank would have received his coffee from his sister's fair hands had not mr oriel been there, may be doubted. he, however, loudly asserted that he should not have done so, when she laid claim to great merit for rising in his behalf. mr oriel had been specially instigated by lady arabella to use the opportunity of their joint journey, for pointing out to frank the iniquity as well as madness of the course he was pursuing; and he had promised to obey her ladyship's behests. but mr oriel was perhaps not an enterprising man, and was certainly not a presumptuous one. he did intend to do as he was bid; but when he began, with the object of leading up to the subject of frank's engagement, he always softened down into some much easier enthusiasm in the matter of his own engagement with beatrice. he had not that perspicuous, but not over-sensitive strength of mind which had enabled harry baker to express his opinion out at once; and boldly as he did it, yet to do so without offence. four times before the train arrived in london, he made some little attempt; but four times he failed. as the subject was matrimony, it was his easiest course to begin about himself; but he never could get any further. "no man was ever more fortunate in a wife than i shall be," he said, with a soft, euphuistic self-complacency, which would have been silly had it been adopted to any other person than the bride's brother. his intention, however, was very good, for he meant to show, that in his case marriage was prudent and wise, because his case differed so widely from that of frank. "yes," said frank. "she is an excellent good girl:" he had said it three times before, and was not very energetic. "yes, and so exactly suited to me; indeed, all that i could have dreamed of. how very well she looked this morning! some girls only look well at night. i should not like that at all." "you mustn't expect her to look like that always at six o'clock a.m.," said frank, laughing. "young ladies only take that trouble on very particular occasions. she wouldn't have come down like that if my father or i had been going alone. no, and she won't do so for you in a couple of years' time." "oh, but she's always nice. i have seen her at home as much almost as you could do; and then she's so sincerely religious." "oh, yes, of course; that is, i am sure she is," said frank, looking solemn as became him. "she's made to be a clergyman's wife." "well, so it seems," said frank. "a married life is, i'm sure, the happiest in the world--if people are only in a position to marry," said mr oriel, gradually drawing near to the accomplishment of his design. "yes; quite so. do you know, oriel, i never was so sleepy in my life. what with all that fuss of gazebee's, and one thing and another, i could not get to bed till one o'clock; and then i couldn't sleep. i'll take a snooze now, if you won't think it uncivil." and then, putting his feet upon the opposite seat, he settled himself comfortably to his rest. and so mr oriel's last attempt for lecturing frank in the railway-carriage faded away and was annihilated. by twelve o'clock frank was with messrs slow & bideawhile. mr bideawhile was engaged at the moment, but he found the managing chancery clerk to be a very chatty gentleman. judging from what he saw, he would have said that the work to be done at messrs slow & bideawhile's was not very heavy. "a singular man that sir louis," said the chancery clerk. "yes; very singular," said frank. "excellent security, excellent; no better; and yet he will foreclose; but you see he has no power himself. but the question is, can the trustee refuse? then, again, trustees are so circumscribed nowadays that they are afraid to do anything. there has been so much said lately, mr gresham, that a man doesn't know where he is, or what he is doing. nobody trusts anybody. there have been such terrible things that we can't wonder at it. only think of the case of those hills! how can any one expect that any one else will ever trust a lawyer again after that? but that's mr bideawhile's bell. how can any one expect it? he will see you now, i dare say, mr gresham." so it turned out, and frank was ushered into the presence of mr bideawhile. he had got his lesson by heart, and was going to rush into the middle of his subject; such a course, however, was not in accordance with mr bideawhile's usual practice. mr bideawhile got up from his large wooden-seated windsor chair, and, with a soft smile, in which, however, was mingled some slight dash of the attorney's acuteness, put out his hand to his young client; not, indeed, as though he were going to shake hands with him, but as though the hand were some ripe fruit all but falling, which his visitor might take and pluck if he thought proper. frank took hold of the hand, which returned him no pressure, and then let it go again, not making any attempt to gather the fruit. "i have come up to town, mr bideawhile, about this mortgage," commenced frank. "mortgage--ah, sit down, mr gresham; sit down. i hope your father is quite well?" "quite well, thank you." "i have a great regard for your father. so i had for your grandfather; a very good man indeed. you, perhaps, don't remember him, mr gresham?" "he died when i was only a year old." "oh, yes; no, you of course, can't remember him; but i do, well: he used to be very fond of some port wine i had. i think it was ' ;' and if i don't mistake, i have a bottle or two of it yet; but it is not worth drinking now. port wine, you know, won't keep beyond a certain time. that was very good wine. i don't exactly remember what it stood me a dozen then; but such wine can't be had now. as for the madeira, you know there's an end of that. do you drink madeira, mr gresham?" "no," said frank, "not very often." "i'm sorry for that, for it's a fine wine; but then there's none of it left, you know. i have a few dozen, i'm told they're growing pumpkins where the vineyards were. i wonder what they do with all the pumpkins they grow in switzerland! you've been in switzerland, mr gresham?" frank said he had been in switzerland. "it's a beautiful country; my girls made me go there last year. they said it would do me good; but then you know, they wanted to see it themselves; ha! ha! ha! however, i believe i shall go again this autumn. that is to aix, or some of those places; just for three weeks. i can't spare any more time, mr gresham. do you like that dining at the _tables d'hôte_?" "pretty well, sometimes." "one would get tired of it--eh! but they gave us capital dinners at zurich. i don't think much of their soup. but they had fish, and about seven kinds of meats and poultry, and three or four puddings, and things of that sort. upon my word, i thought we did very well, and so did my girls, too. you see a great many ladies travelling now." "yes," said frank; "a great many." "upon my word, i think they are right; that is, if they can afford time. i can't afford time. i'm here every day till five, mr gresham; then i go out and dine in fleet street, and then back to work till nine." "dear me! that's very hard." "well, yes it is hard work. my boys don't like it; but i manage it somehow. i get down to my little place in the country on saturday. i shall be most happy to see you there next saturday." frank, thinking it would be outrageous on his part to take up much of the time of the gentleman who was constrained to work so unreasonably hard, began again to talk about his mortgages, and, in so doing, had to mention the name of mr yates umbleby. "ah, poor umbleby!" said mr bideawhile; "what is he doing now? i am quite sure your father was right, or he wouldn't have done it; but i used to think that umbleby was a decent sort of man enough. not so grand, you know, as your gazebees and gumptions--eh, mr gresham? they do say young gazebee is thinking of getting into parliament. let me see: umbleby married--who was it he married? that was the way your father got hold of him; not your father, but your grandfather. i used to know all about it. well, i was sorry for umbleby. he has got something, i suppose--eh?" frank said that he believed mr yates umbleby had something wherewith to keep the wolf from the door. "so you have got gazebee down there now? gumption, gazebee & gazebee: very good people, i'm sure; only, perhaps, they have a little too much on hand to do your father justice." "but about sir louis, mr bideawhile." "well, about sir louis; a very bad sort of fellow, isn't he? drinks--eh? i knew his father a little. he was a rough diamond, too. i was once down in northamptonshire, about some railway business; let me see; i almost forget whether i was with him, or against him. but i know he made sixty thousand pounds by one hour's work; sixty thousand pounds! and then he got so mad with drinking that we all thought--" and so mr bideawhile went on for two hours, and frank found no opportunity of saying one word about the business which had brought him up to town. what wonder that such a man as this should be obliged to stay at his office every night till nine o'clock? during these two hours, a clerk had come in three or four times, whispering something to the lawyer, who, on the last of such occasions, turned to frank, saying, "well, perhaps that will do for to-day. if you'll manage to call to-morrow, say about two, i will have the whole thing looked up; or, perhaps wednesday or thursday would suit you better." frank, declaring that the morrow would suit him very well, took his departure, wondering much at the manner in which business was done at the house of messrs slow & bideawhile. when he called the next day, the office seemed to be rather disturbed, and he was shown quickly into mr bideawhile's room. "have you heard this?" said that gentleman, putting a telegram into his hands. it contained tidings of the death of sir louis scatcherd. frank immediately knew that these tidings must be of importance to his father; but he had no idea how vitally they concerned his own more immediate interests. "dr thorne will be up in town on thursday evening after the funeral," said the talkative clerk. "and nothing of course can be done till he comes," said mr bideawhile. and so frank, pondering on the mutability of human affairs, again took his departure. he could do nothing now but wait for dr thorne's arrival, and so he amused himself in the interval by running down to malvern, and treating with miss dunstable in person for the oil of lebanon. he went down on the wednesday, and thus, failed to receive, on the thursday morning, mary's letter, which reached london on that day. he returned, however, on the friday, and then got it; and perhaps it was well for mary's happiness that he had seen miss dunstable in the interval. "i don't care what your mother says," said she, with emphasis. "i don't care for any harry, whether it be harry baker, or old harry himself. you made her a promise, and you are bound to keep it; if not on one day, then on another. what! because you cannot draw back yourself, get out of it by inducing her to do so! aunt de courcy herself could not improve upon that." fortified in this manner, he returned to town on the friday morning, and then got mary's letter. frank also got a note from dr thorne, stating that he had taken up his temporary domicile at the gray's inn coffee-house, so as to be near the lawyers. it has been suggested that the modern english writers of fiction should among them keep a barrister, in order that they may be set right on such legal points as will arise in their little narratives, and thus avoid that exposure of their own ignorance of the laws, which, now, alas! they too often make. the idea is worthy of consideration, and i can only say, that if such an arrangement can be made, and if a counsellor adequately skilful can be found to accept the office, i shall be happy to subscribe my quota; it would be but a modest tribute towards the cost. but as the suggestion has not yet been carried out, and as there is at present no learned gentleman whose duty would induce him to set me right, i can only plead for mercy if i be wrong allotting all sir roger's vast possessions in perpetuity to miss thorne, alleging also, in excuse, that the course of my narrative absolutely demands that she shall be ultimately recognised as sir roger's undoubted heiress. such, after a not immoderate delay, was the opinion expressed to dr thorne by his law advisers; and such, in fact, turned out to be the case. i will leave the matter so, hoping that my very absence of defence may serve to protect me from severe attack. if under such a will as that described as having been made by sir roger, mary would not have been the heiress, that will must have been described wrongly. but it was not quite at once that those tidings made themselves absolutely certain to dr thorne's mind; nor was he able to express any such opinion when he first met frank in london. at that time mary's letter was in frank's pocket; and frank, though his real business appertained much more to the fact of sir louis's death, and the effect that would immediately have on his father's affairs, was much more full of what so much more nearly concerned himself. "i will show it dr thorne himself," said he, "and ask him what he thinks." dr thorne was stretched fast asleep on the comfortless horse-hair sofa in the dingy sitting-room at the gray's inn coffee-house when frank found him. the funeral, and his journey to london, and the lawyers had together conquered his energies, and he lay and snored, with nose upright, while heavy london summer flies settled on his head and face, and robbed his slumbers of half their charms. "i beg your pardon," said he, jumping up as though he had been detected in some disgraceful act. "upon my word, frank, i beg your pardon; but--well, my dear fellow, all well at greshamsbury--eh?" and as he shook himself, he made a lunge at one uncommonly disagreeable fly that had been at him for the last ten minutes. it is hardly necessary to say that he missed his enemy. "i should have been with you before, doctor, but i was down at malvern." "at malvern, eh? ah! so oriel told me. the death of poor sir louis was very sudden--was it not?" "very." "poor fellow--poor fellow! his fate has for some time been past hope. it is a madness, frank; the worst of madness. only think of it--father and son! and such a career as the father had--such a career as the son might have had!" "it has been very quickly run," said frank. "may it be all forgiven him! i sometimes cannot but believe in a special providence. that poor fellow was not able, never would have been able, to make proper use of the means which fortune had given him. i hope they may fall into better hands. there is no use in denying it, his death will be an immense relief to me, and a relief also to your father. all this law business will now, of course, be stopped. as for me, i hope i may never be a trustee again." frank had put his hand four or five times into his breast-pocket, and had as often taken out and put back again mary's letter before he could find himself able to bring dr thorne to the subject. at last there was a lull in the purely legal discussion, caused by the doctor intimating that he supposed frank would now soon return to greshamsbury. "yes; i shall go to-morrow morning." "what! so soon as that? i counted on having you one day in london with me." "no, i shall go to-morrow. i'm not fit for company for any one. nor am i fit for anything. read that, doctor. it's no use putting it off any longer. i must get you to talk this over with me. just read that, and tell me what you think about it. it was written a week ago, when i was there, but somehow i have only got it to-day." and putting the letter into the doctor's hands, he turned away to the window, and looked out among the holborn omnibuses. dr thorne took the letter and read it. mary, after she had written it, had bewailed to herself that the letter was cold; but it had not seemed cold to her lover, nor did it appear so to her uncle. when frank turned round from the window, the doctor's handkerchief was up to his eyes; who, in order to hide the tears that were there, was obliged to go through a rather violent process of blowing his nose. "well," he said, as he gave back the letter to frank. well! what did well mean? was it well? or would it be well were he, frank, to comply with the suggestion made to him by mary? "it is impossible," he said, "that matters should go on like that. think what her sufferings must have been before she wrote that. i am sure she loves me." "i think she does," said the doctor. "and it is out of the question that she should be sacrificed; nor will i consent to sacrifice my own happiness. i am quite willing to work for my bread, and i am sure that i am able. i will not submit to-- doctor, what answer do you think i ought to give to that letter? there can be no person so anxious for her happiness as you are--except myself." and as he asked the question, he again put into the doctor's hand, almost unconsciously, the letter which he had still been holding in his own. the doctor turned it over and over, and then opened it again. "what answer ought i to make to it?" demanded frank, with energy. "you see, frank, i have never interfered in this matter, otherwise than to tell you the whole truth about mary's birth." "oh, but you must interfere: you should say what you think." "circumstanced as you are now--that is, just at the present moment--you could hardly marry immediately." "why not let me take a farm? my father could, at any rate, manage a couple of thousand pounds or so for me to stock it. that would not be asking much. if he could not give it me, i would not scruple to borrow so much elsewhere." and frank bethought him of all miss dunstable's offers. "oh, yes; that could be managed." "then why not marry immediately; say in six months or so? i am not unreasonable; though, heaven knows, i have been kept in suspense long enough. as for her, i am sure she must be suffering frightfully. you know her best, and, therefore, i ask you what answer i ought to make: as for myself, i have made up my own mind; i am not a child, nor will i let them treat me as such." frank, as he spoke, was walking rapidly about the room; and he brought out his different positions, one after the other, with a little pause, while waiting for the doctor's answer. the doctor was sitting, with the letter still in his hands, on the head of the sofa, turning over in his mind the apparent absurdity of frank's desire to borrow two thousand pounds for a farm, when, in all human probability, he might in a few months be in possession of almost any sum he should choose to name. and yet he would not tell him of sir roger's will. "if it should turn out to be all wrong?" said he to himself. "do you wish me to give her up?" said frank, at last. "no. how can i wish it? how can i expect a better match for her? besides, frank, i love no man in the world so well as i do you." "then you will help me?" "what! against your father?" "against! no, not against anybody. but will you tell mary that she has your consent?" "i think she knows that." "but you have never said anything to her." "look here, frank; you ask me for my advice, and i will give it you: go home; though, indeed, i would rather you went anywhere else." "no, i must go home; and i must see her." "very well, go home: as for seeing mary, i think you had better put it off for a fortnight." "quite impossible." "well, that's my advice. but, at any rate, make up your mind to nothing for a fortnight. wait for one fortnight, and i then will tell you plainly--you and her too--what i think you ought to do. at the end of a fortnight come to me, and tell the squire that i will take it as a great kindness if he will come with you. she has suffered, terribly, terribly; and it is necessary that something should be settled. but a fortnight more can make no great difference." "and the letter?" "oh! there's the letter." "but what shall i say? of course i shall write to-night." "tell her to wait a fortnight. and, frank, mind you bring your father with you." frank could draw nothing further from his friend save constant repetitions of this charge to him to wait a fortnight,--just one other fortnight. "well, i will come to you at any rate," said frank; "and, if possible, i will bring my father. but i shall write to mary to-night." on the saturday morning, mary, who was then nearly broken-hearted at her lover's silence, received a short note:-- my own mary, i shall be home to-morrow. i will by no means release you from your promise. of course you will perceive that i only got your letter to-day. your own dearest, frank. p.s.--you will have to call me so hundreds and hundreds of times yet. short as it was, this sufficed mary. it is one thing for a young lady to make prudent, heart-breaking suggestions, but quite another to have them accepted. she did call him dearest frank, even on that one day, almost as often as he had desired her. chapter xlvi our pet fox finds a tail frank returned home, and his immediate business was of course with his father, and with mr gazebee, who was still at greshamsbury. "but who is the heir?" asked mr gazebee, when frank had explained that the death of sir louis rendered unnecessary any immediate legal steps. "upon my word i don't know," said frank. "you saw dr thorne," said the squire. "he must have known." "i never thought of asking him," said frank, naïvely. mr gazebee looked rather solemn. "i wonder at that," said he; "for everything now depends on the hands the property will go into. let me see; i think sir roger had a married sister. was not that so, mr gresham?" and then it occurred for the first time, both to the squire and to his son, that mary thorne was the eldest child of this sister. but it never occurred to either of them that mary could be the baronet's heir. dr thorne came down for a couple of days before the fortnight was over to see his patients, and then returned again to london. but during this short visit he was utterly dumb on the subject of the heir. he called at greshamsbury to see lady arabella, and was even questioned by the squire on the subject. but he obstinately refused to say more than that nothing certain could be known for yet a few days. immediately after his return, frank saw mary, and told her all that had happened. "i cannot understand my uncle," said she, almost trembling as she stood close to him in her own drawing-room. "he usually hates mysteries, and yet now he is so mysterious. he told me, frank--that was after i had written that unfortunate letter--" "unfortunate, indeed! i wonder what you really thought of me when you were writing it?" "if you had heard what your mother said, you would not be surprised. but, after that, uncle said--" "said what?" "he seemed to think--i don't remember what it was he said. but he said, he hoped that things might yet turn out well; and then i was almost sorry that i had written the letter." "of course you were sorry, and so you ought to have been. to say that you would never call me frank again!" "i didn't exactly say that." "i have told him i will wait a fortnight, and so i will. after that, i shall take the matter into my own hands." it may be well supposed that lady arabella was not well pleased to learn that frank and mary had been again together; and, in the agony of her spirit, she did say some ill-natured things before augusta, who had now returned from courcy castle, as to the gross impropriety of mary's conduct. but to frank she said nothing. nor was there much said between frank and beatrice. if everything could really be settled at the end of that fortnight which was to witness the disclosure of the doctor's mystery, there would still be time to arrange that mary should be at the wedding. "it shall be settled then," he said to himself; "and if it be settled, my mother will hardly venture to exclude my affianced bride from the house." it was now the beginning of august, and it wanted yet a month to the oriel wedding. but though he said nothing to his mother or to beatrice, he did say much to his father. in the first place, he showed him mary's letter. "if your heart be not made of stone it will be softened by that," he said. mr gresham's heart was not of stone, and he did acknowledge that the letter was a very sweet letter. but we know how the drop of water hollows stone. it was not by the violence of his appeal that frank succeeded in obtaining from his father a sort of half-consent that he would no longer oppose the match; but by the assiduity with which the appeal was repeated. frank, as we have said, had more stubbornness of will than his father; and so, before the fortnight was over, the squire had been talked over, and promised to attend at the doctor's bidding. "i suppose you had better take the hazlehurst farm," said he to his son, with a sigh. "it joins the park and the home-fields, and i will give you up them also. god knows, i don't care about farming any more--or about anything else either." "don't say that, father." "well, well! but, frank, where will you live? the old house is big enough for us all. but how would mary get on with your mother?" at the end of his fortnight, true to his time, the doctor returned to the village. he was a bad correspondent; and though he had written some short notes to mary, he had said no word to her about his business. it was late in the evening when he got home, and it was understood by frank and the squire that they were to be with him on the following morning. not a word had been said to lady arabella on the subject. it was late in the evening when he got home, and mary waited for him with a heart almost sick with expectation. as soon as the fly had stopped at the little gate she heard his voice, and heard at once that it was quick, joyful, and telling much of inward satisfaction. he had a good-natured word for janet, and called thomas an old blunder-head in a manner that made bridget laugh outright. "he'll have his nose put out of joint some day; won't he?" said the doctor. bridget blushed and laughed again, and made a sign to thomas that he had better look to his face. mary was in his arms before he was yet within the door. "my darling," said he, tenderly kissing her. "you are my own darling yet awhile." "of course i am. am i not always to be so?" "well, well; let me have some tea, at any rate, for i'm in a fever of thirst. they may call that tea at the junction if they will; but if china were sunk under the sea it would make no difference to them." dr thorne always was in a fever of thirst when he got home from the railway, and always made complaint as to the tea at the junction. mary went about her usual work with almost more than her usual alacrity, and so they were soon seated in the drawing-room together. she soon found that his manner was more than ordinarily kind to her; and there was moreover something about him which seemed to make him sparkle with contentment, but he said no word about frank, nor did he make any allusion to the business which had taken him up to town. "have you got through all your work?" she said to him once. "yes, yes; i think all." "and thoroughly?" "yes; thoroughly, i think. but i am very tired, and so are you too, darling, with waiting for me." "oh, no, i am not," said she, as she went on continually filling his cup; "but i am so happy to have you home again. you have been away so much lately." "ah, yes; well i suppose i shall not go away any more now. it will be somebody else's turn now." "uncle, i think you're going to take up writing mystery romances, like mrs radcliffe's." "yes; and i'll begin to-morrow, certainly with-- but, mary, i will not say another word to-night. give me a kiss, dearest, and i'll go." mary did kiss him, and he did go. but as she was still lingering in the room, putting away a book, or a reel of thread, and then sitting down to think what the morrow would bring forth, the doctor again came into the room in his dressing-gown, and with the slippers on. "what, not gone yet?" said he. "no, not yet; i'm going now." "you and i, mary, have always affected a good deal of indifference as to money, and all that sort of thing." "i won't acknowledge that it has been an affectation at all," she answered. "perhaps not; but we have often expressed it, have we not?" "i suppose, uncle, you think that we are like the fox that lost his tail, or rather some unfortunate fox that might be born without one." "i wonder how we should either of us bear it if we found ourselves suddenly rich. it would be a great temptation--a sore temptation. i fear, mary, that when poor people talk disdainfully of money, they often are like your fox, born without a tail. if nature suddenly should give that beast a tail, would he not be prouder of it than all the other foxes in the wood?" "well, i suppose he would. that's the very meaning of the story. but how moral you've become all of a sudden at twelve o'clock at night! instead of being mrs radcliffe, i shall think you're mr Æsop." he took up the article which he had come to seek, and kissing her again on the forehead, went away to his bed-room without further speech. "what can he mean by all this about money?" said mary to herself. "it cannot be that by sir louis's death he will get any of all this property;" and then she began to bethink herself whether, after all, she would wish him to be a rich man. "if he were very rich, he might do something to assist frank; and then--" there never was a fox yet without a tail who would not be delighted to find himself suddenly possessed of that appendage. never; let the untailed fox have been ever so sincere in his advice to his friends! we are all of us, the good and the bad, looking for tails--for one tail, or for more than one; we do so too often by ways that are mean enough: but perhaps there is no tail-seeker more mean, more sneakingly mean than he who looks out to adorn his bare back with a tail by marriage. the doctor was up very early the next morning, long before mary was ready with her teacups. he was up, and in his own study behind the shop, arranging dingy papers, pulling about tin boxes which he had brought down with him from london, and piling on his writing-table one set of documents in one place, and one in another. "i think i understand it all," said he; "but yet i know i shall be bothered. well, i never will be anybody's trustee again. let me see!" and then he sat down, and with bewildered look recapitulated to himself sundry heavy items. "what those shares are really worth i cannot understand, and nobody seems able to tell one. they must make it out among them as best they can. let me see; that's boxall hill, and this is greshamsbury. i'll put a newspaper over greshamsbury, or the squire will know it!" and then, having made his arrangements, he went to his breakfast. i know i am wrong, my much and truly honoured critic, about these title-deeds and documents. but when we've got that barrister in hand, then if i go wrong after that, let the blame be on my own shoulders--or on his. the doctor ate his breakfast quickly; and did not talk much to his niece. but what he did say was of a nature to make her feel strangely happy. she could not analyse her own feelings, or give a reason for her own confidence; but she certainly did feel, and even trust, that something was going to happen after breakfast which would make her more happy than she had been for many months. "janet," said he, looking at his watch, "if mr gresham and mr frank call, show them into my study. what are you going to do with yourself, my dear?" "i don't know, uncle; you are so mysterious, and i am in such a twitter, that i don't know what to do. why is mr gresham coming here--that is, the squire?" "because i have business with him about the scatcherd property. you know that he owed sir louis money. but don't go out, mary. i want you to be in the way if i should have to call for you. you can stay in the drawing-room, can't you?" "oh, yes, uncle; or here." "no, dearest; go into the drawing-room." mary obediently did as she was bid; and there she sat, for the next three hours, wondering, wondering, wondering. during the greater part of that time, however, she well knew that mr gresham, senior, and mr gresham, junior, were both with her uncle, below. at eleven o'clock the doctor's visitors came. he had expected them somewhat earlier, and was beginning to become fidgety. he had so much on his hands that he could not sit still for a moment till he had, at any rate, commenced it. the expected footsteps were at last heard on the gravel-path, and a moment or two afterwards janet ushered the father and son into the room. the squire did not look very well. he was worn and sorrowful, and rather pale. the death of his young creditor might be supposed to have given him some relief from his more pressing cares, but the necessity of yielding to frank's wishes had almost more than balanced this. when a man has daily to reflect that he is poorer than he was the day before, he soon becomes worn and sorrowful. but frank was well; both in health and spirits. he also felt as mary did, that the day was to bring forth something which should end his present troubles; and he could not but be happy to think that he could now tell dr thorne that his father's consent to his marriage had been given. the doctor shook hands with them both, and then they sat down. they were all rather constrained in their manner; and at first it seemed that nothing but little speeches of compliment were to be made. at last, the squire remarked that frank had been talking to him about miss thorne. "about mary?" said the doctor. "yes; about mary," said the squire, correcting himself. it was quite unnecessary that he should use so cold a name as the other, now that he had agreed to the match. "well!" said dr thorne. "i suppose it must be so, doctor. he has set his heart upon it, and god knows, i have nothing to say against her--against her personally. no one could say a word against her. she is a sweet, good girl, excellently brought up; and, as for myself, i have always loved her." frank drew near to his father, and pressed his hand against the squire's arm, by way of giving him, in some sort, a filial embrace for his kindness. "thank you, squire, thank you," said the doctor. "it is very good of you to say that. she is a good girl, and if frank chooses to take her, he will, in my estimation, have made a good choice." "chooses!" said frank, with all the enthusiasm of a lover. the squire felt himself perhaps a little ruffled at the way in which the doctor received his gracious intimation; but he did now show it as he went on. "they cannot, you know, doctor, look to be rich people--" "ah! well, well," interrupted the doctor. "i have told frank so, and i think that you should tell mary. frank means to take some land into his hand, and he must farm it as a farmer. i will endeavour to give him three, or perhaps four hundred a year. but you know better--" "stop, squire; stop a minute. we will talk about that presently. this death of poor sir louis will make a difference." "not permanently," said the squire mournfully. "and now, frank," said the doctor, not attending to the squire's last words, "what do you say?" "what do i say? i say what i said to you in london the other day. i believe mary loves me; indeed, i won't be affected--i know she does. i have loved her--i was going to say always; and, indeed, i almost might say so. my father knows that this is no light fancy of mine. as to what he says about our being poor, why--" the doctor was very arbitrary, and would hear neither of them on this subject. "mr gresham," said he, interrupting frank, "of course i am well aware how very little suited mary is by birth to marry your only son." "it is too late to think about it now," said the squire. "it is not too late for me to justify myself," replied the doctor. "we have long known each other, mr gresham, and you said here the other day, that this is a subject as to which we have been both of one mind. birth and blood are very valuable gifts." "i certainly think so," said the squire; "but one can't have everything." "no; one can't have everything." "if i am satisfied in that matter--" began frank. "stop a moment, my dear boy," said the doctor. "as your father says, one can't have everything. my dear friend--" and he gave his hand to the squire--"do not be angry if i alluded for a moment to the estate. it has grieved me to see it melting away--the old family acres that have so long been the heritage of the greshams." "we need not talk about that now, dr thorne," said frank, in an almost angry tone. "but i must, frank, for one moment, to justify myself. i could not have excused myself in letting mary think that she could become your wife if i had not hoped that good might come of it." "well; good will come of it," said frank, who did not quite understand at what the doctor was driving. "i hope so. i have had much doubt about this, and have been sorely perplexed; but now i do hope so. frank--mr gresham--" and then dr thorne rose from his chair; but was, for a moment, unable to go on with his tale. "we will hope that it is all for the best," said the squire. "i am sure it is," said frank. "yes; i hope it is. i do think it is; i am sure it is, frank. mary will not come to you empty-handed. i wish for your sake--yes, and for hers too--that her birth were equal to her fortune, as her worth is superior to both. mr gresham, this marriage will, at any rate, put an end to your pecuniary embarrassments--unless, indeed, frank should prove a hard creditor. my niece is sir roger scatcherd's heir." the doctor, as soon as he made the announcement, began to employ himself sedulously about the papers on the table; which, in the confusion caused by his own emotion, he transferred hither and thither in such a manner as to upset all his previous arrangements. "and now," he said, "i might as well explain, as well as i can, of what that fortune consists. here, this is--no--" "but, dr thorne," said the squire, now perfectly pale, and almost gasping for breath, "what is it you mean?" "there's not a shadow of doubt," said the doctor. "i've had sir abraham haphazard, and sir rickety giggs, and old neversaye die, and mr snilam; and they are all of the same opinion. there is not the smallest doubt about it. of course, she must administer, and all that; and i'm afraid there'll be a very heavy sum to pay for the tax; for she cannot inherit as a niece, you know. mr snilam pointed that out particularly. but, after all that, there'll be--i've got it down on a piece of paper, somewhere--three grains of blue pill. i'm really so bothered, squire, with all these papers, and all those lawyers, that i don't know whether i'm sitting or standing. there's ready money enough to pay all the tax and all the debts. i know that, at any rate." "you don't mean to say that mary thorne is now possessed of all sir roger scatcherd's wealth?" at last ejaculated the squire. "but that's exactly what i do mean to say," said the doctor, looking up from his papers with a tear in his eye, and a smile on his mouth; "and what is more, squire, you owe her at the present moment exactly--i've got that down too, somewhere, only i am so bothered with all these papers. come, squire, when do you mean to pay her? she's in a great hurry, as young ladies are when they want to get married." the doctor was inclined to joke if possible, so as to carry off, as it were, some of the great weight of obligation which it might seem that he was throwing on the father and son; but the squire was by no means in a state to understand a joke: hardly as yet in a state to comprehend what was so very serious in this matter. "do you mean that mary is the owner of boxall hill?" said he. "indeed, i do," said the doctor; and he was just going to add, "and of greshamsbury also," but he stopped himself. "what, the whole property there?" "that's only a small portion," said the doctor. "i almost wish it were all, for then i should not be so bothered. look here; these are the boxall hill title-deeds; that's the simplest part of the whole affair; and frank may go and settle himself there to-morrow if he pleases." "stop a moment, dr thorne," said frank. these were the only words which he had yet uttered since the tidings had been conveyed to him. "and these, squire, are the greshamsbury papers:" and the doctor, with considerable ceremony, withdrew the covering newspapers. "look at them; there they all are once again. when i suggested to mr snilam that i supposed they might now all go back to the greshamsbury muniment room, i thought he would have fainted. as i cannot return them to you, you will have to wait till frank shall give them up." "but, dr thorne," said frank. "well, my boy." "does mary know all about this?" "not a word of it. i mean that you shall tell her." "perhaps, under such very altered circumstances--" "eh?" "the change is so great and so sudden, so immense in its effects, that mary may perhaps wish--" "wish! wish what? wish not to be told of it at all?" "i shall not think of holding her to her engagement--that is, if--i mean to say, she should have time at any rate for consideration." "oh, i understand," said the doctor. "she shall have time for consideration. how much shall we give her, squire? three minutes? go up to her frank: she is in the drawing-room." frank went to the door, and then hesitated, and returned. "i could not do it," said he. "i don't think that i understand it all yet. i am so bewildered that i could not tell her;" and he sat down at the table, and began to sob with emotion. "and she knows nothing of it?" said the squire. "not a word. i thought that i would keep the pleasure of telling her for frank." "she should not be left in suspense," said the squire. "come, frank, go up to her," again urged the doctor. "you've been ready enough with your visits when you knew that you ought to stay away." "i cannot do it," said frank, after a pause of some moments; "nor is it right that i should. it would be taking advantage of her." "go to her yourself, doctor; it is you that should do it," said the squire. after some further slight delay, the doctor got up, and did go upstairs. he, even, was half afraid of the task. "it must be done," he said to himself, as his heavy steps mounted the stairs. "but how to tell it?" when he entered, mary was standing half-way up the room, as though she had risen to meet him. her face was troubled, and her eyes were almost wild. the emotion, the hopes, the fears of that morning had almost been too much for her. she had heard the murmuring of the voices in the room below, and had known that one of them was that of her lover. whether that discussion was to be for her good or ill she did not know; but she felt that further suspense would almost kill her. "i could wait for years," she said to herself, "if i did but know. if i lost him, i suppose i should bear it, if i did but know."--well; she was going to know. her uncle met her in the middle of the room. his face was serious, though not sad; too serious to confirm her hopes at that moment of doubt. "what is it, uncle?" she said, taking one of his hands between both of her own. "what is it? tell me." and as she looked up into his face with her wild eyes, she almost frightened him. "mary," he said gravely, "you have heard much, i know, of sir roger scatcherd's great fortune." "yes, yes, yes!" "now that poor sir louis is dead--" "well, uncle, well?" "it has been left--" "to frank! to mr gresham, to the squire!" exclaimed mary, who felt, with an agony of doubt, that this sudden accession of immense wealth might separate her still further from her lover. "no, mary, not to the greshams; but to yourself." "to me!" she cried, and putting both her hands to her forehead, she seemed to be holding her temples together. "to me!" "yes, mary; it is all your own now. to do as you like best with it all--all. may god, in his mercy, enable you to bear the burden, and lighten for you the temptation!" she had so far moved as to find the nearest chair, and there she was now seated, staring at her uncle with fixed eyes. "uncle," she said, "what does it mean?" then he came, and sitting beside her, he explained, as best he could, the story of her birth, and her kinship with the scatcherds. "and where is he, uncle?" she said. "why does he not come to me?" "i wanted him to come, but he refused. they are both there now, the father and son; shall i fetch them?" "fetch them! whom? the squire? no, uncle; but may we go to them?" "surely, mary." "but, uncle--" "yes, dearest." "is it true? are you sure? for his sake, you know; not for my own. the squire, you know--oh, uncle! i cannot go." "they shall come to you." "no--no. i have gone to him such hundreds of times; i will never allow that he shall be sent to me. but, uncle, is it true?" the doctor, as he went downstairs, muttered something about sir abraham haphazard, and sir rickety giggs; but these great names were much thrown away upon poor mary. the doctor entered the room first, and the heiress followed him with downcast eyes and timid steps. she was at first afraid to advance, but when she did look up, and saw frank standing alone by the window, her lover restored her courage, and rushing up to him, she threw herself into his arms. "oh, frank; my own frank! my own frank! we shall never be separated now." chapter xlvii how the bride was received, and who were asked to the wedding and thus after all did frank perform his great duty; he did marry money; or rather, as the wedding has not yet taken place, and is, indeed, as yet hardly talked of, we should more properly say that he had engaged himself to marry money. and then, such a quantity of money! the scatcherd wealth greatly exceeded the dunstable wealth; so that our hero may be looked on as having performed his duties in a manner deserving the very highest commendation from all classes of the de courcy connexion. and he received it. but that was nothing. that _he_ should be fêted by the de courcys and greshams, now that he was about to do his duty by his family in so exemplary a manner: that he should be patted on the back, now that he no longer meditated that vile crime which had been so abhorrent to his mother's soul; this was only natural; this is hardly worthy of remark. but there was another to be fêted, another person to be made a personage, another blessed human mortal about to do her duty by the family of gresham in a manner that deserved, and should receive, lady arabella's warmest caresses. dear mary! it was, indeed, not singular that she should be prepared to act so well, seeing that in early youth she had had the advantage of an education in the greshamsbury nursery; but not on that account was it the less fitting that her virtue should be acknowledged, eulogised, nay, all but worshipped. how the party at the doctor's got itself broken up, i am not prepared to say. frank, i know, stayed and dined there, and his poor mother, who would not retire to rest till she had kissed him, and blessed him, and thanked him for all he was doing for the family, was kept waiting in her dressing-room till a very unreasonable hour of the night. it was the squire who brought the news up to the house. "arabella," he said, in a low, but somewhat solemn voice, "you will be surprised at the news i bring you. mary thorne is the heiress to all the scatcherd property!" "oh, heavens! mr gresham." "yes, indeed," continued the squire. "so it is; it is very, very--" but lady arabella had fainted. she was a woman who generally had her feelings and her emotions much under her own control; but what she now heard was too much for her. when she came to her senses, the first words that escaped her lips were, "dear mary!" but the household had to sleep on the news before it could be fully realised. the squire was not by nature a mercenary man. if i have at all succeeded in putting his character before the reader, he will be recognised as one not over attached to money for money's sake. but things had gone so hard with him, the world had become so rough, so ungracious, so full of thorns, the want of means had become an evil so keenly felt in every hour, that it cannot be wondered at that his dreams that night should be of a golden elysium. the wealth was not coming to him. true. but his chief sorrow had been for his son. now that son would be his only creditor. it was as though mountains of marble had been taken from off his bosom. but lady arabella's dreams flew away at once into the seventh heaven. sordid as they certainly were, they were not absolutely selfish. frank would now certainly be the first commoner in barsetshire; of course he would represent the county; of course there would be the house in town; it wouldn't be her house, but she was contented that the grandeur should be that of her child. he would have heaven knows what to spend per annum. and that it should come through mary thorne! what a blessing she had allowed mary to be brought into the greshamsbury nursery! dear mary! "she will of course be one now," said beatrice to her sister. with her, at the present moment, "one" of course meant one of the bevy that was to attend her at the altar. "oh dear! how nice! i shan't know what to say to her to-morrow. but i know one thing." "what is that?" asked augusta. "she will be as mild and as meek as a little dove. if she and the doctor had lost every shilling in the world, she would have been as proud as an eagle." it must be acknowledged that beatrice had had the wit to read mary's character aright. but augusta was not quite pleased with the whole affair. not that she begrudged her brother his luck, or mary her happiness. but her ideas of right and wrong--perhaps we should rather say lady amelia's ideas--would not be fairly carried out. "after all, beatrice, this does not alter her birth. i know it is useless saying anything to frank." "why, you wouldn't break both their hearts now?" "i don't want to break their hearts, certainly. but there are those who put their dearest and warmest feelings under restraint rather than deviate from what they know to be proper." poor augusta! she was the stern professor of the order of this philosophy; the last in the family who practised with unflinching courage its cruel behests; the last, always excepting the lady amelia. and how slept frank that night? with him, at least, let us hope, nay, let us say boldly, that his happiest thoughts were not of the wealth which he was to acquire. but yet it would be something to restore boxall hill to greshamsbury; something to give back to his father those rumpled vellum documents, since the departure of which the squire had never had a happy day; nay, something to come forth again to his friends as a gay, young country squire, instead of as a farmer, clod-compelling for his bread. we would not have him thought to be better than he was, nor would we wish him to make him of other stuff than nature generally uses. his heart did exult at mary's wealth; but it leaped higher still when he thought of purer joys. and what shall we say of mary's dreams? with her, it was altogether what she should give, not at all what she should get. frank had loved her so truly when she was so poor, such an utter castaway; frank, who had ever been the heir of greshamsbury! frank, who with his beauty, and spirit, and his talents might have won the smiles of the richest, the grandest, the noblest! what lady's heart would not have rejoiced to be allowed to love her frank? but he had been true to her through everything. ah! how often she thought of that hour, when suddenly appearing before her, he had strained her to his breast, just as she had resolved how best to bear the death-like chill of his supposed estrangements! she was always thinking of that time. she fed her love by recurring over and over to the altered feeling of that moment. any now she could pay him for his goodness. pay him! no, that would be a base word, a base thought. her payment must be made, if god would so grant it, in many, many years to come. but her store, such as it was, should be emptied into his lap. it was soothing to her pride that she would not hurt him by her love, that she would bring no injury to the old house. "dear, dear frank" she murmured, as her waking dreams, conquered at last by sleep, gave way to those of the fairy world. but she thought not only of frank; dreamed not only of him. what had he not done for her, that uncle of hers, who had been more loving to her than any father! how was he, too, to be paid? paid, indeed! love can only be paid in its own coin: it knows of no other legal tender. well, if her home was to be greshamsbury, at any rate she would not be separated from him. what the doctor dreamed of that, neither he or any one ever knew. "why, uncle, i think you've been asleep," said mary to him that evening as he moved for a moment uneasily on the sofa. he had been asleep for the last three-quarters of an hour;--but frank, his guest, had felt no offence. "no, i've not been exactly asleep," said he; "but i'm very tired. i wouldn't do it all again, frank, to double the money. you haven't got any more tea, have you, mary?" on the following morning, beatrice was of course with her friend. there was no awkwardness between them in meeting. beatrice had loved her when she was poor, and though they had not lately thought alike on one very important subject, mary was too gracious to impute that to beatrice as a crime. "you will be one now, mary; of course you will." "if lady arabella will let me come." "oh, mary; let you! do you remember what you said once about coming, and being near me? i have so often thought of it. and now, mary, i must tell you about caleb;" and the young lady settled herself on the sofa, so as to have a comfortable long talk. beatrice had been quite right. mary was as meek with her, and as mild as a dove. and then patience oriel came. "my fine, young, darling, magnificent, overgrown heiress," said patience, embracing her. "my breath deserted me, and i was nearly stunned when i heard of it. how small we shall all be, my dear! i am quite prepared to toady to you immensely; but pray be a little gracious to me, for the sake of auld lang syne." mary gave a long, long kiss. "yes, for auld lang syne, patience; when you took me away under your wing to richmond." patience also had loved her when she was in her trouble, and that love, too, should never be forgotten. but the great difficulty was lady arabella's first meeting with her. "i think i'll go down to her after breakfast," said her ladyship to beatrice, as the two were talking over the matter while the mother was finishing her toilet. "i am sure she will come up if you like it, mamma." "she is entitled to every courtesy--as frank's accepted bride, you know," said lady arabella. "i would not for worlds fail in any respect to her for his sake." "he will be glad enough for her to come, i am sure," said beatrice. "i was talking with caleb this morning, and he says--" the matter was of importance, and lady arabella gave it her most mature consideration. the manner of receiving into one's family an heiress whose wealth is to cure all one's difficulties, disperse all one's troubles, give a balm to all the wounds of misfortune, must, under any circumstances, be worthy of much care. but when that heiress has been already treated as mary had been treated! "i must see her, at any rate, before i go to courcy." said lady arabella. "are you going to courcy, mamma?" "oh, certainly; yes, i must see my sister-in-law now. you don't seem to realise the importance, my dear, of frank's marriage. he will be in a great hurry about it, and, indeed, i cannot blame him. i expect that they will all come here." "who, mamma? the de courcys?" "yes, of course. i shall be very much surprised if the earl does not come now. and i must consult my sister-in-law as to asking the duke of omnium." poor mary! "and i think it will perhaps be better," continued lady arabella, "that we should have a larger party than we intended at your affair. the countess, i'm sure, would come now. we couldn't put it off for ten days; could we, dear?" "put it off ten days!" "yes; it would be convenient." "i don't think mr oriel would like that at all, mamma. you know he has made all his arrangements for his sundays--" pshaw! the idea of the parson's sundays being allowed to have any bearing on such a matter as frank's wedding would now become! why, they would have--how much? between twelve and fourteen thousand a year! lady arabella, who had made her calculations a dozen times during the night, had never found it to be much less than the larger sum. mr oriel's sundays, indeed! after much doubt, lady arabella acceded to her daughter's suggestion, that mary should be received at greshamsbury instead of being called on at the doctor's house. "if you think she won't mind the coming up first," said her ladyship. "i certainly could receive her better here. i should be more--more--more able, you know, to express what i feel. we had better go into the big drawing-room to-day, beatrice. will you remember to tell mrs richards?" "oh, certainly," was mary's answer when beatrice, with a voice a little trembling, proposed to her to walk up to the house. "certainly i will, if lady arabella will receive me;--only one thing, trichy." "what's that, dearest?" "frank will think that i come after him." "never mind what he thinks. to tell you the truth, mary, i often call upon patience for the sake of finding caleb. that's all fair now, you know." mary very quietly put on her straw bonnet, and said she was ready to go up to the house. beatrice was a little fluttered, and showed it. mary was, perhaps, a good deal fluttered, but she did not show it. she had thought a good deal of her first interview with lady arabella, of her first return to the house; but she had resolved to carry herself as though the matter were easy to her. she would not allow it to be seen that she felt that she brought with her to greshamsbury, comfort, ease, and renewed opulence. so she put on her straw bonnet and walked up with beatrice. everybody about the place had already heard the news. the old woman at the lodge curtsied low to her; the gardener, who was mowing the lawn; the butler, who opened the front door--he must have been watching mary's approach--had manifestly put on a clean white neckcloth for the occasion. "god bless you once more, miss thorne!" said the old man, in a half-whisper. mary was somewhat troubled, for everything seemed, in a manner, to bow down before her. and why should not everything bow down before her, seeing that she was in truth the owner of greshamsbury? and then a servant in livery would open the big drawing-room door. this rather upset both mary and beatrice. it became almost impossible for mary to enter the room just as she would have done two years ago; but she got through the difficulty with much self-control. "mamma, here's mary," said beatrice. nor was lady arabella quite mistress of herself, although she had studied minutely how to bear herself. "oh, mary, my dear mary; what can i say to you?" and then, with a handkerchief to her eyes, she ran forward and hid her face on miss thorne's shoulders. "what can i say--can you forgive me my anxiety for my son?" "how do you do, lady arabella?" said mary. "my daughter! my child! my frank's own bride! oh, mary! oh, my child! if i have seemed unkind to you, it has been through love to him." "all these things are over now," said mary. "mr gresham told me yesterday that i should be received as frank's future wife; and so, you see, i have come." and then she slipped through lady arabella's arms, and sat down, meekly down, on a chair. in five minutes she had escaped with beatrice into the school-room, and was kissing the children, and turning over the new trousseau. they were, however, soon interrupted, and there was, perhaps, some other kissing besides that of the children. "you have no business in here at all, frank," said beatrice. "has he, mary?" "none in the world, i should think." "see what he has done to my poplin; i hope you won't have your things treated so cruelly. he'll be careful enough about them." "is oriel a good hand at packing up finery--eh, beatrice?" asked frank. "he is, at any rate, too well-behaved to spoil it." thus mary was again made at home in the household of greshamsbury. lady arabella did not carry out her little plan of delaying the oriel wedding. her idea had been to add some grandeur to it, in order to make it a more fitting precursor of that other greater wedding which was to follow so soon in its wake. but this, with the assistance of the countess, she found herself able to do without interfering with poor mr oriel's sunday arrangements. the countess herself, with the ladies alexandrina and margaretta, now promised to come, even to this first affair; and for the other, the whole de courcy family would turn out, count and countess, lords and ladies, honourable georges and honourable johns. what honour, indeed, could be too great to show to a bride who had fourteen thousand a year in her own right, or to a cousin who had done his duty by securing such a bride to himself! "if the duke be in the country, i am sure he will be happy to come," said the countess. "of course, he will be talking to frank about politics. i suppose the squire won't expect frank to belong to the old school now." "frank, of course, will judge for himself, rosina;--with his position, you know!" and so things were settled at courcy castle. and then beatrice was wedded and carried off to the lakes. mary, as she had promised, did stand near her; but not exactly in the gingham frock of which she had once spoken. she wore on that occasion-- but it will be too much, perhaps, to tell the reader what she wore as beatrice's bridesmaid, seeing that a couple of pages, at least, must be devoted to her marriage-dress, and seeing, also, that we have only a few pages to finish everything; the list of visitors, the marriage settlements, the dress, and all included. it was in vain that mary endeavoured to repress lady arabella's ardour for grand doings. after all, she was to be married from the doctor's house, and not from greshamsbury, and it was the doctor who should have invited the guests; but, in this matter, he did not choose to oppose her ladyship's spirit, and she had it all her own way. "what can i do?" said he to mary. "i have been contradicting her in everything for the last two years. the least we can do is to let her have her own way now in a trifle like this." but there was one point on which mary would let nobody have his or her own way; on which the way to be taken was very manifestly to be her own. this was touching the marriage settlements. it must not be supposed, that if beatrice were married on a tuesday, mary could be married on the tuesday week following. ladies with twelve thousand a year cannot be disposed of in that way: and bridegrooms who do their duty by marrying money often have to be kept waiting. it was spring, the early spring, before frank was made altogether a happy man. but a word about the settlements. on this subject the doctor thought he would have been driven mad. messrs slow & bideawhile, as the lawyers of the greshamsbury family--it will be understood that mr gazebee's law business was of quite a different nature, and his work, as regarded greshamsbury, was now nearly over--messrs slow & bideawhile declared that it would never do for them to undertake alone to draw out the settlements. an heiress, such as mary, must have lawyers of her own; half a dozen at least, according to the apparent opinion of messrs slow & bideawhile. and so the doctor had to go to other lawyers, and they had again to consult sir abraham, and mr snilam on a dozen different heads. if frank became tenant in tail, in right of his wife, but under his father, would he be able to grant leases for more than twenty-one years? and, if so, to whom would the right of trover belong? as to flotsam and jetsam--there was a little property, mr critic, on the sea-shore--that was a matter that had to be left unsettled at the last. such points as these do take a long time to consider. all this bewildered the doctor sadly, and frank himself began to make accusations that he was to be done out of his wife altogether. but, as we have said, there was one point on which mary would have her own way. the lawyers might tie up as they would on her behalf all the money, and shares, and mortgages which had belonged to the late sir roger, with this exception, all that had ever appertained to greshamsbury should belong to greshamsbury again; not in perspective, not to her children, or to her children's children, but at once. frank should be lord of boxall hill in his own right; and as to those other _liens_ on greshamsbury, let frank manage that with his father as he might think fit. she would only trouble herself to see that he was empowered to do as he did think fit. "but," argued the ancient, respectable family attorney to the doctor, "that amounts to two-thirds of the whole estate. two-thirds, dr thorne! it is preposterous; i should almost say impossible." and the scanty hairs on the poor man's head almost stood on end as he thought of the outrageous manner in which the heiress prepared to sacrifice herself. "it will all be the same in the end," said the doctor, trying to make things smooth. "of course, their joint object will be to put the greshamsbury property together again." "but, my dear sir,"--and then, for twenty minutes, the lawyer went on proving that it would by no means be the same thing; but, nevertheless, mary thorne did have her own way. in the course of the winter, lady de courcy tried very hard to induce the heiress to visit courcy castle, and this request was so backed by lady arabella, that the doctor said he thought she might as well go there for three or four days. but here, again, mary was obstinate. "i don't see it at all," she said. "if you make a point of it, or frank, or mr gresham, i will go; but i can't see any possible reason." the doctor, when so appealed to, would not absolutely say that he made a point of it, and mary was tolerably safe as regarded frank or the squire. if she went, frank would be expected to go, and frank disliked courcy castle almost more than ever. his aunt was now more than civil to him, and, when they were together, never ceased to compliment him on the desirable way in which he had done his duty by his family. and soon after christmas a visitor came to mary, and stayed a fortnight with her: one whom neither she nor the doctor had expected, and of whom they had not much more than heard. this was the famous miss dunstable. "birds of a feather flock together," said mrs rantaway--late miss gushing--when she heard of the visit. "the railway man's niece--if you can call her a niece--and the quack's daughter will do very well together, no doubt." "at any rate, they can count their money-bags," said mrs umbleby. and in fact, mary and miss dunstable did get on very well together; and miss dunstable made herself quite happy at greshamsbury, although some people--including mrs rantaway--contrived to spread a report, that dr thorne, jealous of mary's money, was going to marry her. "i shall certainly come and see you turned off," said miss dunstable, taking leave of her new friend. miss dunstable, it must be acknowledged, was a little too fond of slang; but then, a lady with her fortune, and of her age, may be fond of almost whatever she pleases. and so by degrees the winter wore away--very slowly to frank, as he declared often enough; and slowly, perhaps, to mary also, though she did not say so. the winter wore away, and the chill, bitter, windy, early spring came round. the comic almanacs give us dreadful pictures of january and february; but, in truth, the months which should be made to look gloomy in england are march and april. let no man boast himself that he has got through the perils of winter till at least the seventh of may. it was early in april, however, that the great doings were to be done at greshamsbury. not exactly on the first. it may be presumed, that in spite of the practical, common-sense spirit of the age, very few people do choose to have themselves united on that day. but some day in the first week of that month was fixed for the ceremony, and from the end of february all through march, lady arabella worked and strove in a manner that entitled her to profound admiration. it was at last settled that the breakfast should be held in the large dining-room at greshamsbury. there was a difficulty about it which taxed lady arabella to the utmost, for, in making the proposition, she could not but seem to be throwing some slight on the house in which the heiress had lived. but when the affair was once opened to mary, it was astonishing how easy it became. "of course," said mary, "all the rooms in our house would not hold half the people you are talking about--if they must come." lady arabella looked so beseechingly, nay, so piteously, that mary had not another word to say. it was evident that they must all come: the de courcys to the fifth generation; the duke of omnium himself, and others in concatenation accordingly. "but will your uncle be angry if we have the breakfast up here? he has been so very handsome to frank, that i wouldn't make him angry for all the world." "if you don't tell him anything about it, lady arabella, he'll think that it is all done properly. he will never know, if he's not told, that he ought to give the breakfast, and not you." "won't he, my dear?" and lady arabella looked her admiration for this very talented suggestion. and so that matter was arranged. the doctor never knew, till mary told him some year or so afterwards, that he had been remiss in any part of his duty. and who was asked to the wedding? in the first place, we have said that the duke of omnium was there. this was, in fact, the one circumstance that made this wedding so superior to any other that had ever taken place in that neighbourhood. the duke of omnium never went anywhere; and yet he went to mary's wedding! and mary, when the ceremony was over, absolutely found herself kissed by a duke. "dearest mary!" exclaimed lady arabella, in her ecstasy of joy, when she saw the honour that was done to her daughter-in-law. "i hope we shall induce you to come to gatherum castle soon," said the duke to frank. "i shall be having a few friends there in the autumn. let me see; i declare, i have not seen you since you were good enough to come to my collection. ha! ha! ha! it wasn't bad fun, was it?" frank was not very cordial with his answer. he had not quite reconciled himself to the difference of his position. when he was treated as one of the "collection" at gatherum castle, he had not married money. it would be vain to enumerate all the de courcys that were there. there was the earl, looking very gracious, and talking to the squire about the county. and there was lord porlock, looking very ungracious, and not talking to anybody about anything. and there was the countess, who for the last week past had done nothing but pat frank on the back whenever she could catch him. and there were the ladies alexandrina, margaretta, and selina, smiling at everybody. and the honourable george, talking in whispers to frank about his widow--"not such a catch as yours, you know; but something extremely snug;--and have it all my own way, too, old fellow, or i shan't come to the scratch." and the honourable john prepared to toady frank about his string of hunters; and the lady amelia, by herself, not quite contented with these democratic nuptials--"after all, she is so absolutely nobody; absolutely, absolutely," she said confidentially to augusta, shaking her head. but before lady amelia had left greshamsbury, augusta was quite at a loss to understand how there could be need for so much conversation between her cousin and mr mortimer gazebee. and there were many more de courcys, whom to enumerate would be much too long. and the bishop of the diocese, and mrs proudie were there. a hint had even been given, that his lordship would himself condescend to perform the ceremony, if this should be wished; but that work had already been anticipated by a very old friend of the greshams. archdeacon grantly, the rector of plumstead episcopi, had long since undertaken this part of the business; and the knot was eventually tied by the joint efforts of himself and mr oriel. mrs grantly came with him, and so did mrs grantly's sister, the new dean's wife. the dean himself was at the time unfortunately absent at oxford. and all the bakers and the jacksons were there. the last time they had all met together under the squire's roof, was on the occasion of frank's coming of age. the present gala doings were carried on in a very different spirit. that had been a very poor affair, but this was worthy of the best days of greshamsbury. occasion also had been taken of this happy moment to make up, or rather to get rid of the last shreds of the last feud that had so long separated dr thorne from his own relatives. the thornes of ullathorne had made many overtures in a covert way. but our doctor had contrived to reject them. "they would not receive mary as their cousin," said he, "and i will go nowhere that she cannot go." but now all this was altered. mrs gresham would certainly be received in any house in the county. and thus, mr thorne of ullathorne, an amiable, popular old bachelor, came to the wedding; and so did his maiden sister, miss monica thorne, than whose no kinder heart glowed through all barsetshire. "my dear," said she to mary, kissing her, and offering her some little tribute, "i am very glad to make your acquaintance; very. it was not her fault," she added, speaking to herself. "and now that she will be a gresham, that need not be any longer thought of." nevertheless, could miss thorne have spoken her inward thoughts out loud, she would have declared, that frank would have done better to have borne his poverty than marry wealth without blood. but then, there are but few so stanch as miss thorne; perhaps none in that county--always excepting lady amelia. and miss dunstable, also, was a bridesmaid. "oh, no" said she, when asked; "you should have them young and pretty." but she gave way when she found that mary did not flatter her by telling her that she was either the one or the other. "the truth is," said miss dunstable, "i have always been a little in love with your frank, and so i shall do it for his sake." there were but four: the other two were the gresham twins. lady arabella exerted herself greatly in framing hints to induce mary to ask some of the de courcy ladies to do her so much honour; but on this head mary would please herself. "rank," said she to beatrice, with a curl on her lip, "has its drawbacks--and must put up with them." and now i find that i have not one page--not half a page--for the wedding-dress. but what matters? will it not be all found written in the columns of the _morning post_? and thus frank married money, and became a great man. let us hope that he will be a happy man. as the time of the story has been brought down so near to the present era, it is not practicable for the novelist to tell much of his future career. when i last heard from barsetshire, it seemed to be quite settled that he is to take the place of one of the old members at the next election; and they say, also, that there is no chance of any opposition. i have heard, too, that there have been many very private consultations between him and various gentlemen of the county, with reference to the hunt; and the general feeling is said to be that the hounds should go to boxall hill. at boxall hill the young people established themselves on their return from the continent. and that reminds me that one word must be said of lady scatcherd. "you will always stay here with us," said mary to her, caressing her ladyship's rough hand, and looking kindly into that kind face. but lady scatcherd would not consent to this. "i will come and see you sometimes, and then i shall enjoy myself. yes, i will come and see you, and my own dear boy." the affair was ended by her taking mrs opie green's cottage, in order that she might be near the doctor; mrs opie green having married--somebody. and of whom else must we say a word? patience, also, of course, got a husband--or will do so. dear patience! it would be a thousand pities that so good a wife should be lost to the world. whether miss dunstable will ever be married, or augusta gresham, or mr moffat, or any of the tribe of the de courcys--except lady amelia--i cannot say. they have all of them still their future before them. that bridget was married to thomas--that i am able to assert; for i know that janet was much put out by their joint desertion. lady arabella has not yet lost her admiration for mary, and mary, in return, behaves admirably. another event is expected, and her ladyship is almost as anxious about that as she was about the wedding. "a matter, you know, of such importance in the county!" she whispered to lady de courcy. nothing can be more happy than the intercourse between the squire and his son. what their exact arrangements are, we need not specially inquire; but the demon of pecuniary embarrassment has lifted his black wings from the demesne of greshamsbury. and now we have but one word left for the doctor. "if you don't come and dine with me," said the squire to him, when they found themselves both deserted, "mind i shall come and dine with you." and on this principle they seem to act. dr thorne continues to extend his practice, to the great disgust of dr fillgrave; and when mary suggested to him that he should retire, he almost boxed her ears. he knows the way, however, to boxall hill as well as he ever did, and is willing to acknowledge, that the tea there is almost as good as it ever was at greshamsbury. and revised by joseph e. loewenstein, m.d. the warden by anthony trollope contents i. hiram's hospital ii. the barchester reformer iii. the bishop of barchester iv. hiram's bedesmen v. dr grantly visits the hospital vi. the warden's tea party vii. _the jupiter_ viii. plumstead episcopi ix. the conference x. tribulation xi. iphigenia xii. mr bold's visit to plumstead xiii. the warden's decision xiv. mount olympus xv. tom towers, dr anticant, and mr sentiment xvi. a long day in london xvii. sir abraham haphazard xviii. the warden is very obstinate xix. the warden resigns xx. farewell xxi. conclusion chapter i hiram's hospital the rev. septimus harding was, a few years since, a beneficed clergyman residing in the cathedral town of ----; let us call it barchester. were we to name wells or salisbury, exeter, hereford, or gloucester, it might be presumed that something personal was intended; and as this tale will refer mainly to the cathedral dignitaries of the town in question, we are anxious that no personality may be suspected. let us presume that barchester is a quiet town in the west of england, more remarkable for the beauty of its cathedral and the antiquity of its monuments than for any commercial prosperity; that the west end of barchester is the cathedral close, and that the aristocracy of barchester are the bishop, dean, and canons, with their respective wives and daughters. early in life mr harding found himself located at barchester. a fine voice and a taste for sacred music had decided the position in which he was to exercise his calling, and for many years he performed the easy but not highly paid duties of a minor canon. at the age of forty a small living in the close vicinity of the town increased both his work and his income, and at the age of fifty he became precentor of the cathedral. mr harding had married early in life, and was the father of two daughters. the eldest, susan, was born soon after his marriage; the other, eleanor, not till ten years later. at the time at which we introduce him to our readers he was living as precentor at barchester with his youngest daughter, then twenty-four years of age; having been many years a widower, and having married his eldest daughter to a son of the bishop a very short time before his installation to the office of precentor. scandal at barchester affirmed that had it not been for the beauty of his daughter, mr harding would have remained a minor canon; but here probably scandal lied, as she so often does; for even as a minor canon no one had been more popular among his reverend brethren in the close than mr harding; and scandal, before she had reprobated mr harding for being made precentor by his friend the bishop, had loudly blamed the bishop for having so long omitted to do something for his friend mr harding. be this as it may, susan harding, some twelve years since, had married the rev. dr theophilus grantly, son of the bishop, archdeacon of barchester, and rector of plumstead episcopi, and her father became, a few months later, precentor of barchester cathedral, that office being, as is not unusual, in the bishop's gift. now there are peculiar circumstances connected with the precentorship which must be explained. in the year there died at barchester one john hiram, who had made money in the town as a wool-stapler, and in his will he left the house in which he died and certain meadows and closes near the town, still called hiram's butts, and hiram's patch, for the support of twelve superannuated wool-carders, all of whom should have been born and bred and spent their days in barchester; he also appointed that an alms-house should be built for their abode, with a fitting residence for a warden, which warden was also to receive a certain sum annually out of the rents of the said butts and patches. he, moreover, willed, having had a soul alive to harmony, that the precentor of the cathedral should have the option of being also warden of the almshouses, if the bishop in each case approved. from that day to this the charity had gone on and prospered--at least, the charity had gone on, and the estates had prospered. wool-carding in barchester there was no longer any; so the bishop, dean, and warden, who took it in turn to put in the old men, generally appointed some hangers-on of their own; worn-out gardeners, decrepit grave-diggers, or octogenarian sextons, who thankfully received a comfortable lodging and one shilling and fourpence a day, such being the stipend to which, under the will of john hiram, they were declared to be entitled. formerly, indeed,--that is, till within some fifty years of the present time,--they received but sixpence a day, and their breakfast and dinner was found them at a common table by the warden, such an arrangement being in stricter conformity with the absolute wording of old hiram's will: but this was thought to be inconvenient, and to suit the tastes of neither warden nor bedesmen, and the daily one shilling and fourpence was substituted with the common consent of all parties, including the bishop and the corporation of barchester. such was the condition of hiram's twelve old men when mr harding was appointed warden; but if they may be considered as well-to-do in the world according to their condition, the happy warden was much more so. the patches and butts which, in john hiram's time, produced hay or fed cows, were now covered with rows of houses; the value of the property had gradually increased from year to year and century to century, and was now presumed by those who knew anything about it, to bring in a very nice income; and by some who knew nothing about it, to have increased to an almost fabulous extent. the property was farmed by a gentleman in barchester, who also acted as the bishop's steward,--a man whose father and grandfather had been stewards to the bishops of barchester, and farmers of john hiram's estate. the chadwicks had earned a good name in barchester; they had lived respected by bishops, deans, canons, and precentors; they had been buried in the precincts of the cathedral; they had never been known as griping, hard men, but had always lived comfortably, maintained a good house, and held a high position in barchester society. the present mr chadwick was a worthy scion of a worthy stock, and the tenants living on the butts and patches, as well as those on the wide episcopal domains of the see, were well pleased to have to do with so worthy and liberal a steward. for many, many years,--records hardly tell how many, probably from the time when hiram's wishes had been first fully carried out,--the proceeds of the estate had been paid by the steward or farmer to the warden, and by him divided among the bedesmen; after which division he paid himself such sums as became his due. times had been when the poor warden got nothing but his bare house, for the patches had been subject to floods, and the land of barchester butts was said to be unproductive; and in these hard times the warden was hardly able to make out the daily dole for his twelve dependents. but by degrees things mended; the patches were drained, and cottages began to rise upon the butts, and the wardens, with fairness enough, repaid themselves for the evil days gone by. in bad times the poor men had had their due, and therefore in good times they could expect no more. in this manner the income of the warden had increased; the picturesque house attached to the hospital had been enlarged and adorned, and the office had become one of the most coveted of the snug clerical sinecures attached to our church. it was now wholly in the bishop's gift, and though the dean and chapter, in former days, made a stand on the subject, they had thought it more conducive to their honour to have a rich precentor appointed by the bishop, than a poor one appointed by themselves. the stipend of the precentor of barchester was eighty pounds a year. the income arising from the wardenship of the hospital was eight hundred, besides the value of the house. murmurs, very slight murmurs, had been heard in barchester,--few indeed, and far between,--that the proceeds of john hiram's property had not been fairly divided: but they can hardly be said to have been of such a nature as to have caused uneasiness to anyone: still the thing had been whispered, and mr harding had heard it. such was his character in barchester, so universal was his popularity, that the very fact of his appointment would have quieted louder whispers than those which had been heard; but mr harding was an open-handed, just-minded man, and feeling that there might be truth in what had been said, he had, on his instalment, declared his intention of adding twopence a day to each man's pittance, making a sum of sixty-two pounds eleven shillings and fourpence, which he was to pay out of his own pocket. in doing so, however, he distinctly and repeatedly observed to the men, that though he promised for himself, he could not promise for his successors, and that the extra twopence could only be looked on as a gift from himself, and not from the trust. the bedesmen, however, were most of them older than mr harding, and were quite satisfied with the security on which their extra income was based. this munificence on the part of mr harding had not been unopposed. mr chadwick had mildly but seriously dissuaded him from it; and his strong-minded son-in-law, the archdeacon, the man of whom alone mr harding stood in awe, had urgently, nay, vehemently, opposed so impolitic a concession: but the warden had made known his intention to the hospital before the archdeacon had been able to interfere, and the deed was done. hiram's hospital, as the retreat is called, is a picturesque building enough, and shows the correct taste with which the ecclesiastical architects of those days were imbued. it stands on the banks of the little river, which flows nearly round the cathedral close, being on the side furthest from the town. the london road crosses the river by a pretty one-arched bridge, and, looking from this bridge, the stranger will see the windows of the old men's rooms, each pair of windows separated by a small buttress. a broad gravel walk runs between the building and the river, which is always trim and cared for; and at the end of the walk, under the parapet of the approach to the bridge, is a large and well-worn seat, on which, in mild weather, three or four of hiram's bedesmen are sure to be seen seated. beyond this row of buttresses, and further from the bridge, and also further from the water which here suddenly bends, are the pretty oriel windows of mr harding's house, and his well-mown lawn. the entrance to the hospital is from the london road, and is made through a ponderous gateway under a heavy stone arch, unnecessary, one would suppose, at any time, for the protection of twelve old men, but greatly conducive to the good appearance of hiram's charity. on passing through this portal, never closed to anyone from a.m. till p.m., and never open afterwards, except on application to a huge, intricately hung mediæval bell, the handle of which no uninitiated intruder can possibly find, the six doors of the old men's abodes are seen, and beyond them is a slight iron screen, through which the more happy portion of the barchester elite pass into the elysium of mr harding's dwelling. mr harding is a small man, now verging on sixty years, but bearing few of the signs of age; his hair is rather grizzled, though not gray; his eye is very mild, but clear and bright, though the double glasses which are held swinging from his hand, unless when fixed upon his nose, show that time has told upon his sight; his hands are delicately white, and both hands and feet are small; he always wears a black frock coat, black knee-breeches, and black gaiters, and somewhat scandalises some of his more hyperclerical brethren by a black neck-handkerchief. mr harding's warmest admirers cannot say that he was ever an industrious man; the circumstances of his life have not called on him to be so; and yet he can hardly be called an idler. since his appointment to his precentorship, he has published, with all possible additions of vellum, typography, and gilding, a collection of our ancient church music, with some correct dissertations on purcell, crotch, and nares. he has greatly improved the choir of barchester, which, under his dominion, now rivals that of any cathedral in england. he has taken something more than his fair share in the cathedral services, and has played the violoncello daily to such audiences as he could collect, or, _faute de mieux_, to no audience at all. we must mention one other peculiarity of mr harding. as we have before stated, he has an income of eight hundred a year, and has no family but his one daughter; and yet he is never quite at ease in money matters. the vellum and gilding of "harding's church music" cost more than any one knows, except the author, the publisher, and the rev. theophilus grantly, who allows none of his father-in-law's extravagances to escape him. then he is generous to his daughter, for whose service he keeps a small carriage and pair of ponies. he is, indeed, generous to all, but especially to the twelve old men who are in a peculiar manner under his care. no doubt with such an income mr harding should be above the world, as the saying is; but, at any rate, he is not above archdeacon theophilus grantly, for he is always more or less in debt to his son-in-law, who has, to a certain extent, assumed the arrangement of the precentor's pecuniary affairs. chapter ii the barchester reformer mr harding has been now precentor of barchester for ten years; and, alas, the murmurs respecting the proceeds of hiram's estate are again becoming audible. it is not that any one begrudges to mr harding the income which he enjoys, and the comfortable place which so well becomes him; but such matters have begun to be talked of in various parts of england. eager pushing politicians have asserted in the house of commons, with very telling indignation, that the grasping priests of the church of england are gorged with the wealth which the charity of former times has left for the solace of the aged, or the education of the young. the well-known case of the hospital of st cross has even come before the law courts of the country, and the struggles of mr whiston, at rochester, have met with sympathy and support. men are beginning to say that these things must be looked into. mr harding, whose conscience in the matter is clear, and who has never felt that he had received a pound from hiram's will to which he was not entitled, has naturally taken the part of the church in talking over these matters with his friend, the bishop, and his son-in-law, the archdeacon. the archdeacon, indeed, dr grantly, has been somewhat loud in the matter. he is a personal friend of the dignitaries of the rochester chapter, and has written letters in the public press on the subject of that turbulent dr whiston, which, his admirers think, must well nigh set the question at rest. it is also known at oxford that he is the author of the pamphlet signed "sacerdos" on the subject of the earl of guildford and st cross, in which it is so clearly argued that the manners of the present times do not admit of a literal adhesion to the very words of the founder's will, but that the interests of the church for which the founder was so deeply concerned are best consulted in enabling its bishops to reward those shining lights whose services have been most signally serviceable to christianity. in answer to this, it is asserted that henry de blois, founder of st cross, was not greatly interested in the welfare of the reformed church, and that the masters of st cross, for many years past, cannot be called shining lights in the service of christianity; it is, however, stoutly maintained, and no doubt felt, by all the archdeacon's friends, that his logic is conclusive, and has not, in fact, been answered. with such a tower of strength to back both his arguments and his conscience, it may be imagined that mr harding has never felt any compunction as to receiving his quarterly sum of two hundred pounds. indeed, the subject has never presented itself to his mind in that shape. he has talked not unfrequently, and heard very much about the wills of old founders and the incomes arising from their estates, during the last year or two; he did even, at one moment, feel a doubt (since expelled by his son-in-law's logic) as to whether lord guildford was clearly entitled to receive so enormous an income as he does from the revenues of st cross; but that he himself was overpaid with his modest eight hundred pounds,--he who, out of that, voluntarily gave up sixty-two pounds eleven shillings and fourpence a year to his twelve old neighbours,--he who, for the money, does his precentor's work as no precentor has done it before, since barchester cathedral was built,--such an idea has never sullied his quiet, or disturbed his conscience. nevertheless, mr harding is becoming uneasy at the rumour which he knows to prevail in barchester on the subject. he is aware that, at any rate, two of his old men have been heard to say, that if everyone had his own, they might each have their hundred pounds a year, and live like gentlemen, instead of a beggarly one shilling and sixpence a day; and that they had slender cause to be thankful for a miserable dole of twopence, when mr harding and mr chadwick, between them, ran away with thousands of pounds which good old john hiram never intended for the like of them. it is the ingratitude of this which stings mr harding. one of this discontented pair, abel handy, was put into the hospital by himself; he had been a stone-mason in barchester, and had broken his thigh by a fall from a scaffolding, while employed about the cathedral; and mr harding had given him the first vacancy in the hospital after the occurrence, although dr grantly had been very anxious to put into it an insufferable clerk of his at plumstead episcopi, who had lost all his teeth, and whom the archdeacon hardly knew how to get rid of by other means. dr grantly has not forgotten to remind mr harding how well satisfied with his one-and-sixpence a day old joe mutters would have been, and how injudicious it was on the part of mr harding to allow a radical from the town to get into the concern. probably dr grantly forgot, at the moment, that the charity was intended for broken-down journeymen of barchester. there is living at barchester, a young man, a surgeon, named john bold, and both mr harding and dr grantly are well aware that to him is owing the pestilent rebellious feeling which has shown itself in the hospital; yes, and the renewal, too, of that disagreeable talk about hiram's estates which is now again prevalent in barchester. nevertheless, mr harding and mr bold are acquainted with each other; we may say, are friends, considering the great disparity in their years. dr grantly, however, has a holy horror of the impious demagogue, as on one occasion he called bold, when speaking of him to the precentor; and being a more prudent far-seeing man than mr harding, and possessed of a stronger head, he already perceives that this john bold will work great trouble in barchester. he considers that he is to be regarded as an enemy, and thinks that he should not be admitted into the camp on anything like friendly terms. as john bold will occupy much of our attention, we must endeavour to explain who he is, and why he takes the part of john hiram's bedesmen. john bold is a young surgeon, who passed many of his boyish years at barchester. his father was a physician in the city of london, where he made a moderate fortune, which he invested in houses in that city. the dragon of wantly inn and posting-house belonged to him, also four shops in the high street, and a moiety of the new row of genteel villas (so called in the advertisements), built outside the town just beyond hiram's hospital. to one of these dr bold retired to spend the evening of his life, and to die; and here his son john spent his holidays, and afterwards his christmas vacation when he went from school to study surgery in the london hospitals. just as john bold was entitled to write himself surgeon and apothecary, old dr bold died, leaving his barchester property to his son, and a certain sum in the three per cents. to his daughter mary, who is some four or five years older than her brother. john bold determined to settle himself at barchester, and look after his own property, as well as the bones and bodies of such of his neighbours as would call upon him for assistance in their troubles. he therefore put up a large brass plate with "john bold, surgeon" on it, to the great disgust of the nine practitioners who were already trying to get a living out of the bishop, dean, and canons; and began house-keeping with the aid of his sister. at this time he was not more than twenty-four years old; and though he has now been three years in barchester, we have not heard that he has done much harm to the nine worthy practitioners. indeed, their dread of him has died away; for in three years he has not taken three fees. nevertheless, john bold is a clever man, and would, with practice, be a clever surgeon; but he has got quite into another line of life. having enough to live on, he has not been forced to work for bread; he has declined to subject himself to what he calls the drudgery of the profession, by which, i believe, he means the general work of a practising surgeon; and has found other employment. he frequently binds up the bruises and sets the limbs of such of the poorer classes as profess his way of thinking,--but this he does for love. now i will not say that the archdeacon is strictly correct in stigmatising john bold as a demagogue, for i hardly know how extreme must be a man's opinions before he can be justly so called; but bold is a strong reformer. his passion is the reform of all abuses; state abuses, church abuses, corporation abuses (he has got himself elected a town councillor of barchester, and has so worried three consecutive mayors, that it became somewhat difficult to find a fourth), abuses in medical practice, and general abuses in the world at large. bold is thoroughly sincere in his patriotic endeavours to mend mankind, and there is something to be admired in the energy with which he devotes himself to remedying evil and stopping injustice; but i fear that he is too much imbued with the idea that he has a special mission for reforming. it would be well if one so young had a little more diffidence himself, and more trust in the honest purposes of others,--if he could be brought to believe that old customs need not necessarily be evil, and that changes may possibly be dangerous; but no, bold has all the ardour and all the self-assurance of a danton, and hurls his anathemas against time-honoured practices with the violence of a french jacobin. no wonder that dr grantly should regard bold as a firebrand, falling, as he has done, almost in the centre of the quiet ancient close of barchester cathedral. dr grantly would have him avoided as the plague; but the old doctor and mr harding were fast friends. young johnny bold used to play as a boy on mr harding's lawn; he has many a time won the precentor's heart by listening with rapt attention to his sacred strains; and since those days, to tell the truth at once, he has nearly won another heart within the same walls. eleanor harding has not plighted her troth to john bold, nor has she, perhaps, owned to herself how dear to her the young reformer is; but she cannot endure that anyone should speak harshly of him. she does not dare to defend him when her brother-in-law is so loud against him; for she, like her father, is somewhat afraid of dr grantly; but she is beginning greatly to dislike the archdeacon. she persuades her father that it would be both unjust and injudicious to banish his young friend because of his politics; she cares little to go to houses where she will not meet him, and, in fact, she is in love. nor is there any good reason why eleanor harding should not love john bold. he has all those qualities which are likely to touch a girl's heart. he is brave, eager, and amusing; well-made and good-looking; young and enterprising; his character is in all respects good; he has sufficient income to support a wife; he is her father's friend; and, above all, he is in love with her: then why should not eleanor harding be attached to john bold? dr grantly, who has as many eyes as argus, and has long seen how the wind blows in that direction, thinks there are various strong reasons why this should not be so. he has not thought it wise as yet to speak to his father-in-law on the subject, for he knows how foolishly indulgent is mr harding in everything that concerns his daughter; but he has discussed the matter with his all-trusted helpmate, within that sacred recess formed by the clerical bed-curtains at plumstead episcopi. how much sweet solace, how much valued counsel has our archdeacon received within that sainted enclosure! 'tis there alone that he unbends, and comes down from his high church pedestal to the level of a mortal man. in the world dr grantly never lays aside that demeanour which so well becomes him. he has all the dignity of an ancient saint with the sleekness of a modern bishop; he is always the same; he is always the archdeacon; unlike homer, he never nods. even with his father-in-law, even with the bishop and dean, he maintains that sonorous tone and lofty deportment which strikes awe into the young hearts of barchester, and absolutely cows the whole parish of plumstead episcopi. 'tis only when he has exchanged that ever-new shovel hat for a tasselled nightcap, and those shining black habiliments for his accustomed _robe de nuit_, that dr grantly talks, and looks, and thinks like an ordinary man. many of us have often thought how severe a trial of faith must this be to the wives of our great church dignitaries. to us these men are personifications of st paul; their very gait is a speaking sermon; their clean and sombre apparel exacts from us faith and submission, and the cardinal virtues seem to hover round their sacred hats. a dean or archbishop, in the garb of his order, is sure of our reverence, and a well-got-up bishop fills our very souls with awe. but how can this feeling be perpetuated in the bosoms of those who see the bishops without their aprons, and the archdeacons even in a lower state of dishabille? do we not all know some reverend, all but sacred, personage before whom our tongue ceases to be loud and our step to be elastic? but were we once to see him stretch himself beneath the bed-clothes, yawn widely, and bury his face upon his pillow, we could chatter before him as glibly as before a doctor or a lawyer. from some such cause, doubtless, it arose that our archdeacon listened to the counsels of his wife, though he considered himself entitled to give counsel to every other being whom he met. "my dear," he said, as he adjusted the copious folds of his nightcap, "there was that john bold at your father's again to-day. i must say your father is very imprudent." "he is imprudent;--he always was," replied mrs grantly, speaking from under the comfortable bed-clothes. "there's nothing new in that." "no, my dear, there's nothing new;--i know that; but, at the present juncture of affairs, such imprudence is--is--i'll tell you what, my dear, if he does not take care what he's about, john bold will be off with eleanor." "i think he will, whether papa takes care or no; and why not?" "why not!" almost screamed the archdeacon, giving so rough a pull at his nightcap as almost to bring it over his nose; "why not!--that pestilent, interfering upstart, john bold;--the most vulgar young person i ever met! do you know that he is meddling with your father's affairs in a most uncalled-for--most--" and being at a loss for an epithet sufficiently injurious, he finished his expressions of horror by muttering, "good heavens!" in a manner that had been found very efficacious in clerical meetings of the diocese. he must for the moment have forgotten where he was. "as to his vulgarity, archdeacon" (mrs grantly had never assumed a more familiar term than this in addressing her husband), "i don't agree with you. not that i like mr bold;--he is a great deal too conceited for me; but then eleanor does, and it would be the best thing in the world for papa if they were to marry. bold would never trouble himself about hiram's hospital if he were papa's son-in-law." and the lady turned herself round under the bed-clothes, in a manner to which the doctor was well accustomed, and which told him, as plainly as words, that as far as she was concerned the subject was over for that night. "good heavens!" murmured the doctor again;--he was evidently much put beside himself. dr grantly is by no means a bad man; he is exactly the man which such an education as his was most likely to form; his intellect being sufficient for such a place in the world, but not sufficient to put him in advance of it. he performs with a rigid constancy such of the duties of a parish clergyman as are, to his thinking, above the sphere of his curate, but it is as an archdeacon that he shines. we believe, as a general rule, that either a bishop or his archdeacons have sinecures: where a bishop works, archdeacons have but little to do, and _vice versa_. in the diocese of barchester the archdeacon of barchester does the work. in that capacity he is diligent, authoritative, and, as his friends particularly boast, judicious. his great fault is an overbearing assurance of the virtues and claims of his order, and his great foible is an equally strong confidence in the dignity of his own manner and the eloquence of his own words. he is a moral man, believing the precepts which he teaches, and believing also that he acts up to them; though we cannot say that he would give his coat to the man who took his cloak, or that he is prepared to forgive his brother even seven times. he is severe enough in exacting his dues, considering that any laxity in this respect would endanger the security of the church; and, could he have his way, he would consign to darkness and perdition, not only every individual reformer, but every committee and every commission that would even dare to ask a question respecting the appropriation of church revenues. "they are church revenues: the laity admit it. surely the church is able to administer her own revenues." 'twas thus he was accustomed to argue, when the sacrilegious doings of lord john russell and others were discussed either at barchester or at oxford. it was no wonder that dr grantly did not like john bold, and that his wife's suggestion that he should become closely connected with such a man dismayed him. to give him his due, the archdeacon never wanted courage; he was quite willing to meet his enemy on any field and with any weapon. he had that belief in his own arguments that he felt sure of success, could he only be sure of a fair fight on the part of his adversary. he had no idea that john bold could really prove that the income of the hospital was malappropriated; why, then, should peace be sought for on such base terms? what! bribe an unbelieving enemy of the church with the sister-in-law of one dignitary and the daughter of another--with a young lady whose connections with the diocese and chapter of barchester were so close as to give her an undeniable claim to a husband endowed with some of its sacred wealth! when dr grantly talks of unbelieving enemies, he does not mean to imply want of belief in the doctrines of the church, but an equally dangerous scepticism as to its purity in money matters. mrs grantly is not usually deaf to the claims of the high order to which she belongs. she and her husband rarely disagree as to the tone with which the church should be defended; how singular, then, that in such a case as this she should be willing to succumb! the archdeacon again murmurs "good heavens!" as he lays himself beside her, but he does so in a voice audible only to himself, and he repeats it till sleep relieves him from deep thought. mr harding himself has seen no reason why his daughter should not love john bold. he has not been unobservant of her feelings, and perhaps his deepest regret at the part which he fears bold is about to take regarding the hospital arises from the dread that he may be separated from his daughter, or that she may be separated from the man she loves. he has never spoken to eleanor about her lover; he is the last man in the world to allude to such a subject unconsulted, even with his own daughter; and had he considered that he had ground to disapprove of bold, he would have removed her, or forbidden him his house; but he saw no such ground. he would probably have preferred a second clerical son-in-law, for mr harding, also, is attached to his order; and, failing in that, he would at any rate have wished that so near a connection should have thought alike with him on church matters. he would not, however, reject the man his daughter loved because he differed on such subjects with himself. hitherto bold had taken no steps in the matter in any way annoying to mr harding personally. some months since, after a severe battle, which cost him not a little money, he gained a victory over a certain old turnpike woman in the neighbourhood, of whose charges another old woman had complained to him. he got the act of parliament relating to the trust, found that his _protégée_ had been wrongly taxed, rode through the gate himself, paying the toll, then brought an action against the gate-keeper, and proved that all people coming up a certain by-lane, and going down a certain other by-lane, were toll-free. the fame of his success spread widely abroad, and he began to be looked on as the upholder of the rights of the poor of barchester. not long after this success, he heard from different quarters that hiram's bedesmen were treated as paupers, whereas the property to which they were, in effect, heirs was very large; and he was instigated by the lawyer whom he had employed in the case of the turnpike to call upon mr chadwick for a statement as to the funds of the estate. bold had often expressed his indignation at the malappropriation of church funds in general, in the hearing of his friend the precentor; but the conversation had never referred to anything at barchester; and when finney, the attorney, induced him to interfere with the affairs of the hospital, it was against mr chadwick that his efforts were to be directed. bold soon found that if he interfered with mr chadwick as steward, he must also interfere with mr harding as warden; and though he regretted the situation in which this would place him, he was not the man to flinch from his undertaking from personal motives. as soon as he had determined to take the matter in hand, he set about his work with his usual energy. he got a copy of john hiram's will, of the wording of which he made himself perfectly master. he ascertained the extent of the property, and as nearly as he could the value of it; and made out a schedule of what he was informed was the present distribution of its income. armed with these particulars, he called on mr chadwick, having given that gentleman notice of his visit; and asked him for a statement of the income and expenditure of the hospital for the last twenty-five years. this was of course refused, mr chadwick alleging that he had no authority for making public the concerns of a property in managing which he was only a paid servant. "and who is competent to give you that authority, mr chadwick?" asked bold. "only those who employ me, mr bold," said the steward. "and who are those, mr chadwick?" demanded bold. mr chadwick begged to say that if these inquiries were made merely out of curiosity, he must decline answering them: if mr bold had any ulterior proceeding in view, perhaps it would be desirable that any necessary information should be sought for in a professional way by a professional man. mr chadwick's attorneys were messrs cox and cummins, of lincoln's inn. mr bold took down the address of cox and cummins, remarked that the weather was cold for the time of the year, and wished mr chadwick good-morning. mr chadwick said it was cold for june, and bowed him out. he at once went to his lawyer, finney. now, bold was not very fond of his attorney, but, as he said, he merely wanted a man who knew the forms of law, and who would do what he was told for his money. he had no idea of putting himself in the hands of a lawyer. he wanted law from a lawyer as he did a coat from a tailor, because he could not make it so well himself; and he thought finney the fittest man in barchester for his purpose. in one respect, at any rate, he was right: finney was humility itself. finney advised an instant letter to cox and cummins, mindful of his six-and-eightpence. "slap at them at once, mr bold. demand categorically and explicitly a full statement of the affairs of the hospital." "suppose i were to see mr harding first," suggested bold. "yes, yes, by all means," said the acquiescing finney; "though, perhaps, as mr harding is no man of business, it may lead--lead to some little difficulties; but perhaps you're right. mr bold, i don't think seeing mr harding can do any harm." finney saw from the expression of his client's face that he intended to have his own way. chapter iii the bishop of barchester bold at once repaired to the hospital. the day was now far advanced, but he knew that mr harding dined in the summer at four, that eleanor was accustomed to drive in the evening, and that he might therefore probably find mr harding alone. it was between seven and eight when he reached the slight iron gate leading into the precentor's garden, and though, as mr chadwick observed, the day had been cold for june, the evening was mild, and soft, and sweet. the little gate was open. as he raised the latch he heard the notes of mr harding's violoncello from the far end of the garden, and, advancing before the house and across the lawn, he found him playing;--and not without an audience. the musician was seated in a garden-chair just within the summer-house, so as to allow the violoncello which he held between his knees to rest upon the dry stone flooring; before him stood a rough music desk, on which was open a page of that dear sacred book, that much-laboured and much-loved volume of church music, which had cost so many guineas; and around sat, and lay, and stood, and leaned, ten of the twelve old men who dwelt with him beneath old john hiram's roof. the two reformers were not there. i will not say that in their hearts they were conscious of any wrong done or to be done to their mild warden, but latterly they had kept aloof from him, and his music was no longer to their taste. it was amusing to see the positions, and eager listening faces of these well-to-do old men. i will not say that they all appreciated the music which they heard, but they were intent on appearing to do so; pleased at being where they were, they were determined, as far as in them lay, to give pleasure in return; and they were not unsuccessful. it gladdened the precentor's heart to think that the old bedesmen whom he loved so well admired the strains which were to him so full of almost ecstatic joy; and he used to boast that such was the air of the hospital, as to make it a precinct specially fit for the worship of st cecilia. immediately before him, on the extreme corner of the bench which ran round the summer-house, sat one old man, with his handkerchief smoothly lain upon his knees, who did enjoy the moment, or acted enjoyment well. he was one on whose large frame many years, for he was over eighty, had made small havoc;--he was still an upright, burly, handsome figure, with an open, ponderous brow, round which clung a few, though very few, thin gray locks. the coarse black gown of the hospital, the breeches, and buckled shoes became him well; and as he sat with his hands folded on his staff, and his chin resting on his hands, he was such a listener as most musicians would be glad to welcome. this man was certainly the pride of the hospital. it had always been the custom that one should be selected as being to some extent in authority over the others; and though mr bunce, for such was his name, and so he was always designated by his inferior brethren, had no greater emoluments than they, he had assumed, and well knew how to maintain, the dignity of his elevation. the precentor delighted to call him his sub-warden, and was not ashamed, occasionally, when no other guest was there, to bid him sit down by the same parlour fire, and drink the full glass of port which was placed near him. bunce never went without the second glass, but no entreaty ever made him take a third. "well, well, mr harding; you're too good, much too good," he'd always say, as the second glass was filled; but when that was drunk, and the half hour over, bunce stood erect, and with a benediction which his patron valued, retired to his own abode. he knew the world too well to risk the comfort of such halcyon moments, by prolonging them till they were disagreeable. mr bunce, as may be imagined, was most strongly opposed to innovation. not even dr grantly had a more holy horror of those who would interfere in the affairs of the hospital; he was every inch a churchman, and though he was not very fond of dr grantly personally, that arose from there not being room in the hospital for two people so much alike as the doctor and himself, rather than from any dissimilarity in feeling. mr bunce was inclined to think that the warden and himself could manage the hospital without further assistance; and that, though the bishop was the constitutional visitor, and as such entitled to special reverence from all connected with john hiram's will, john hiram never intended that his affairs should be interfered with by an archdeacon. at the present moment, however, these cares were off his mind, and he was looking at his warden, as though he thought the music heavenly, and the musician hardly less so. as bold walked silently over the lawn, mr harding did not at first perceive him, and continued to draw his bow slowly across the plaintive wires; but he soon found from his audience that some stranger was there, and looking up, began to welcome his young friend with frank hospitality. "pray, mr harding--pray don't let me disturb you," said bold; "you know how fond i am of sacred music." "oh! it's nothing," said the precentor, shutting up the book and then opening it again as he saw the delightfully imploring look of his old friend bunce. oh, bunce, bunce, bunce, i fear that after all thou art but a flatterer. "well, i'll just finish it then; it's a favourite little bit of bishop's; and then, mr bold, we'll have a stroll and a chat till eleanor comes in and gives us tea." and so bold sat down on the soft turf to listen, or rather to think how, after such sweet harmony, he might best introduce a theme of so much discord, to disturb the peace of him who was so ready to welcome him kindly. bold thought that the performance was soon over, for he felt that he had a somewhat difficult task, and he almost regretted the final leave-taking of the last of the old men, slow as they were in going through their adieux. bold's heart was in his mouth, as the precentor made some ordinary but kind remark as to the friendliness of the visit. "one evening call," said he, "is worth ten in the morning. it's all formality in the morning; real social talk never begins till after dinner. that's why i dine early, so as to get as much as i can of it." "quite true, mr harding," said the other; "but i fear i've reversed the order of things, and i owe you much apology for troubling you on business at such an hour; but it is on business that i have called just now." mr harding looked blank and annoyed; there was something in the tone of the young man's voice which told him that the interview was intended to be disagreeable, and he shrank back at finding his kindly greeting so repulsed. "i wish to speak to you about the hospital," continued bold. "well, well, anything i can tell you i shall be most happy--" "it's about the accounts." "then, my dear fellow, i can tell you nothing, for i'm as ignorant as a child. all i know is, that they pay me £ a year. go to chadwick, he knows all about the accounts; and now tell me, will poor mary jones ever get the use of her limb again?" "well, i think she will, if she's careful; but, mr harding, i hope you won't object to discuss with me what i have to say about the hospital." mr harding gave a deep, long-drawn sigh. he did object, very strongly object, to discuss any such subject with john bold; but he had not the business tact of mr chadwick, and did not know how to relieve himself from the coming evil; he sighed sadly, but made no answer. "i have the greatest regard for you, mr harding," continued bold; "the truest respect, the most sincere--" "thank ye, thank ye, mr bold," interjaculated the precentor somewhat impatiently; "i'm much obliged, but never mind that; i'm as likely to be in the wrong as another man,--quite as likely." "but, mr harding, i must express what i feel, lest you should think there is personal enmity in what i'm going to do." "personal enmity! going to do! why, you're not going to cut my throat, nor put me into the ecclesiastical court!" bold tried to laugh, but he couldn't. he was quite in earnest, and determined in his course, and couldn't make a joke of it. he walked on awhile in silence before he recommenced his attack, during which mr harding, who had still the bow in his hand, played rapidly on an imaginary violoncello. "i fear there is reason to think that john hiram's will is not carried out to the letter, mr harding," said the young man at last; "and i have been asked to see into it." "very well, i've no objection on earth; and now we need not say another word about it." "only one word more, mr harding. chadwick has referred me to cox and cummins, and i think it my duty to apply to them for some statement about the hospital. in what i do i may appear to be interfering with you, and i hope you will forgive me for doing so." "mr bold," said the other, stopping, and speaking with some solemnity, "if you act justly, say nothing in this matter but the truth, and use no unfair weapons in carrying out your purposes, i shall have nothing to forgive. i presume you think i am not entitled to the income i receive from the hospital, and that others are entitled to it. whatever some may do, i shall never attribute to you base motives because you hold an opinion opposed to my own and adverse to my interests: pray do what you consider to be your duty; i can give you no assistance, neither will i offer you any obstacle. let me, however, suggest to you, that you can in no wise forward your views nor i mine, by any discussion between us. here comes eleanor and the ponies, and we'll go in to tea." bold, however, felt that he could not sit down at ease with mr harding and his daughter after what had passed, and therefore excused himself with much awkward apology; and merely raising his hat and bowing as he passed eleanor and the pony chair, left her in disappointed amazement at his departure. mr harding's demeanour certainly impressed bold with a full conviction that the warden felt that he stood on strong grounds, and almost made him think that he was about to interfere without due warrant in the private affairs of a just and honourable man; but mr harding himself was anything but satisfied with his own view of the case. in the first place, he wished for eleanor's sake to think well of bold and to like him, and yet he could not but feel disgusted at the arrogance of his conduct. what right had he to say that john hiram's will was not fairly carried out? but then the question would arise within his heart,--was that will fairly acted on? did john hiram mean that the warden of his hospital should receive considerably more out of the legacy than all the twelve old men together for whose behoof the hospital was built? could it be possible that john bold was right, and that the reverend warden of the hospital had been for the last ten years and more the unjust recipient of an income legally and equitably belonging to others? what if it should be proved before the light of day that he, whose life had been so happy, so quiet, so respected, had absorbed eight thousand pounds to which he had no title, and which he could never repay? i do not say that he feared that such was really the case; but the first shade of doubt now fell across his mind, and from this evening, for many a long, long day, our good, kind loving warden was neither happy nor at ease. thoughts of this kind, these first moments of much misery, oppressed mr harding as he sat sipping his tea, absent and ill at ease. poor eleanor felt that all was not right, but her ideas as to the cause of the evening's discomfort did not go beyond her lover, and his sudden and uncivil departure. she thought there must have been some quarrel between bold and her father, and she was half angry with both, though she did not attempt to explain to herself why she was so. mr harding thought long and deeply over these things, both before he went to bed and after it, as he lay awake, questioning within himself the validity of his claim to the income which he enjoyed. it seemed clear at any rate that, however unfortunate he might be at having been placed in such a position, no one could say that he ought either to have refused the appointment first, or to have rejected the income afterwards. all the world,--meaning the ecclesiastical world as confined to the english church,--knew that the wardenship of the barchester hospital was a snug sinecure, but no one had ever been blamed for accepting it. to how much blame, however, would he have been open had he rejected it! how mad would he have been thought had he declared, when the situation was vacant and offered to him, that he had scruples as to receiving £ a year from john hiram's property, and that he had rather some stranger should possess it! how would dr grantly have shaken his wise head, and have consulted with his friends in the close as to some decent retreat for the coming insanity of the poor minor canon! if he was right in accepting the place, it was clear to him also that he would be wrong in rejecting any part of the income attached to it. the patronage was a valuable appanage of the bishopric; and surely it would not be his duty to lessen the value of that preferment which had been bestowed on himself; surely he was bound to stand by his order. but somehow these arguments, though they seemed logical, were not satisfactory. was john hiram's will fairly carried out? that was the true question: and if not, was it not his especial duty to see that this was done,--his especial duty, whatever injury it might do to his order,--however ill such duty might be received by his patron and his friends? at the idea of his friends, his mind turned unhappily to his son-in-law. he knew well how strongly he would be supported by dr grantly, if he could bring himself to put his case into the archdeacon's hands and to allow him to fight the battle; but he knew also that he would find no sympathy there for his doubts, no friendly feeling, no inward comfort. dr grantly would be ready enough to take up his cudgel against all comers on behalf of the church militant, but he would do so on the distasteful ground of the church's infallibility. such a contest would give no comfort to mr harding's doubts. he was not so anxious to prove himself right, as to be so. i have said before that dr grantly was the working man of the diocese, and that his father the bishop was somewhat inclined to an idle life. so it was; but the bishop, though he had never been an active man, was one whose qualities had rendered him dear to all who knew him. he was the very opposite to his son; he was a bland and a kind old man, opposed by every feeling to authoritative demonstrations and episcopal ostentation. it was perhaps well for him, in his situation, that his son had early in life been able to do that which he could not well do when he was younger, and which he could not have done at all now that he was over seventy. the bishop knew how to entertain the clergy of his diocese, to talk easy small-talk with the rectors' wives, and put curates at their ease; but it required the strong hand of the archdeacon to deal with such as were refractory either in their doctrines or their lives. the bishop and mr harding loved each other warmly. they had grown old together, and had together spent many, many years in clerical pursuits and clerical conversation. when one of them was a bishop and the other only a minor canon they were even then much together; but since their children had married, and mr harding had become warden and precentor, they were all in all to each other. i will not say that they managed the diocese between them, but they spent much time in discussing the man who did, and in forming little plans to mitigate his wrath against church delinquents, and soften his aspirations for church dominion. mr harding determined to open his mind and confess his doubts to his old friend; and to him he went on the morning after john bold's uncourteous visit. up to this period no rumour of these cruel proceedings against the hospital had reached the bishop's ears. he had doubtless heard that men existed who questioned his right to present to a sinecure of £ a year, as he had heard from time to time of some special immorality or disgraceful disturbance in the usually decent and quiet city of barchester: but all he did, and all he was called on to do, on such occasions, was to shake his head, and to beg his son, the great dictator, to see that no harm happened to the church. it was a long story that mr harding had to tell before he made the bishop comprehend his own view of the case; but we need not follow him through the tale. at first the bishop counselled but one step, recommended but one remedy, had but one medicine in his whole pharmacopoeia strong enough to touch so grave a disorder;--he prescribed the archdeacon. "refer him to the archdeacon," he repeated, as mr harding spoke of bold and his visit. "the archdeacon will set you quite right about that," he kindly said, when his friend spoke with hesitation of the justness of his cause. "no man has got up all that so well as the archdeacon;" but the dose, though large, failed to quiet the patient; indeed it almost produced nausea. "but, bishop," said he, "did you ever read john hiram's will?" the bishop thought probably he had, thirty-five years ago, when first instituted to his see, but could not state positively: however, he very well knew that he had the absolute right to present to the wardenship, and that the income of the warden had been regularly settled. "but, bishop, the question is, who has the power to settle it? if, as this young man says, the will provides that the proceeds of the property are to be divided into shares, who has the power to alter these provisions?" the bishop had an indistinct idea that they altered themselves by the lapse of years; that a kind of ecclesiastical statute of limitation barred the rights of the twelve bedesmen to any increase of income arising from the increased value of property. he said something about tradition; more of the many learned men who by their practice had confirmed the present arrangement; then went at some length into the propriety of maintaining the due difference in rank and income between a beneficed clergyman and certain poor old men who were dependent on charity; and concluded his argument by another reference to the archdeacon. the precentor sat thoughtfully gazing at the fire, and listening to the good-natured reasoning of his friend. what the bishop said had a sort of comfort in it, but it was not a sustaining comfort. it made mr harding feel that many others,--indeed, all others of his own order,--would think him right; but it failed to prove to him that he truly was so. "bishop," said he, at last, after both had sat silent for a while, "i should deceive you and myself too, if i did not tell you that i am very unhappy about this. suppose that i cannot bring myself to agree with dr grantly!--that i find, after inquiry, that the young man is right, and that i am wrong,--what then?" the two old men were sitting near each other,--so near that the bishop was able to lay his hand upon the other's knee, and he did so with a gentle pressure. mr harding well knew what that pressure meant. the bishop had no further argument to adduce; he could not fight for the cause as his son would do; he could not prove all the precentor's doubts to be groundless; but he could sympathise with his friend, and he did so; and mr harding felt that he had received that for which he came. there was another period of silence, after which the bishop asked, with a degree of irritable energy, very unusual with him, whether this "pestilent intruder" (meaning john bold) had any friends in barchester. mr harding had fully made up his mind to tell the bishop everything; to speak of his daughter's love, as well as his own troubles; to talk of john bold in his double capacity of future son-in-law and present enemy; and though he felt it to be sufficiently disagreeable, now was his time to do it. "he is very intimate at my own house, bishop." the bishop stared. he was not so far gone in orthodoxy and church militancy as his son, but still he could not bring himself to understand how so declared an enemy of the establishment could be admitted on terms of intimacy into the house, not only of so firm a pillar as mr harding, but one so much injured as the warden of the hospital. "indeed, i like mr bold much, personally," continued the disinterested victim; "and to tell you the 'truth,'"--he hesitated as he brought out the dreadful tidings,--"i have sometimes thought it not improbable that he would be my second son-in-law." the bishop did not whistle: we believe that they lose the power of doing so on being consecrated; and that in these days one might as easily meet a corrupt judge as a whistling bishop; but he looked as though he would have done so, but for his apron. what a brother-in-law for the archdeacon! what an alliance for barchester close! what a connection for even the episcopal palace! the bishop, in his simple mind, felt no doubt that john bold, had he so much power, would shut up all cathedrals, and probably all parish churches; distribute all tithes among methodists, baptists, and other savage tribes; utterly annihilate the sacred bench, and make shovel hats and lawn sleeves as illegal as cowls, sandals, and sackcloth! here was a nice man to be initiated into the comfortable arcana of ecclesiastical snuggeries; one who doubted the integrity of parsons, and probably disbelieved the trinity! mr harding saw what an effect his communication had made, and almost repented the openness of his disclosure; he, however, did what he could to moderate the grief of his friend and patron. "i do not say that there is any engagement between them. had there been, eleanor would have told me; i know her well enough to be assured that she would have done so; but i see that they are fond of each other; and as a man and a father, i have had no objection to urge against their intimacy." "but, mr harding," said the bishop, "how are you to oppose him, if he is your son-in-law?" "i don't mean to oppose him; it is he who opposes me; if anything is to be done in defence, i suppose chadwick will do it. i suppose--" "oh, the archdeacon will see to that: were the young man twice his brother-in-law, the archdeacon will never be deterred from doing what he feels to be right." mr harding reminded the bishop that the archdeacon and the reformer were not yet brothers, and very probably never would be; exacted from him a promise that eleanor's name should not be mentioned in any discussion between the father bishop and son archdeacon respecting the hospital; and then took his departure, leaving his poor old friend bewildered, amazed, and confounded. chapter iv hiram's bedesmen the parties most interested in the movement which is about to set barchester by the ears were not the foremost to discuss the merit of the question, as is often the case; but when the bishop, the archdeacon, the warden, the steward, and messrs cox and cummins, were all busy with the matter, each in his own way, it is not to be supposed that hiram's bedesmen themselves were altogether passive spectators. finney, the attorney, had been among them, asking sly questions, and raising immoderate hopes, creating a party hostile to the warden, and establishing a corps in the enemy's camp, as he figuratively calls it to himself. poor old men: whoever may be righted or wronged by this inquiry, they at any rate will assuredly be only injured: to them it can only be an unmixed evil. how can their lot be improved? all their wants are supplied; every comfort is administered; they have warm houses, good clothes, plentiful diet, and rest after a life of labour; and above all, that treasure so inestimable in declining years, a true and kind friend to listen to their sorrows, watch over their sickness, and administer comfort as regards this world, and the world to come! john bold sometimes thinks of this, when he is talking loudly of the rights of the bedesmen, whom he has taken under his protection; but he quiets the suggestion within his breast with the high-sounding name of justice: "_fiat justitia, ruat coelum_." these old men should, by rights, have one hundred pounds a year instead of one shilling and sixpence a day, and the warden should have two hundred or three hundred pounds instead of eight hundred pounds. what is unjust must be wrong; what is wrong should be righted; and if he declined the task, who else would do it? "each one of you is clearly entitled to one hundred pounds a year by common law": such had been the important whisper made by finney into the ears of abel handy, and by him retailed to his eleven brethren. too much must not be expected from the flesh and blood even of john hiram's bedesmen, and the positive promise of one hundred a year to each of the twelve old men had its way with most of them. the great bunce was not to be wiled away, and was upheld in his orthodoxy by two adherents. abel handy, who was the leader of the aspirants after wealth, had, alas, a stronger following. no less than five of the twelve soon believed that his views were just, making with their leader a moiety of the hospital. the other three, volatile unstable minds, vacillated between the two chieftains, now led away by the hope of gold, now anxious to propitiate the powers that still existed. it had been proposed to address a petition to the bishop as visitor, praying his lordship to see justice done to the legal recipients of john hiram's charity, and to send copies of this petition and of the reply it would elicit to all the leading london papers, and thereby to obtain notoriety for the subject. this it was thought would pave the way for ulterior legal proceedings. it would have been a great thing to have had the signatures and marks of all the twelve injured legatees; but this was impossible: bunce would have cut his hand off sooner than have signed it. it was then suggested by finney that if even eleven could be induced to sanction the document, the one obstinate recusant might have been represented as unfit to judge on such a question,--in fact, as being _non compos mentis_,--and the petition would have been taken as representing the feeling of the men. but this could not be done: bunce's friends were as firm as himself, and as yet only six crosses adorned the document. it was the more provoking, as bunce himself could write his name legibly, and one of those three doubting souls had for years boasted of like power, and possessed, indeed, a bible, in which he was proud to show his name written by himself some thirty years ago--"job skulpit;" but it was thought that job skulpit, having forgotten his scholarship, on that account recoiled from the petition, and that the other doubters would follow as he led them. a petition signed by half the hospital would have but a poor effect. it was in skulpit's room that the petition was now lying, waiting such additional signatures as abel handy, by his eloquence, could obtain for it. the six marks it bore were duly attested, thus: his his his abel x handy, gregy x moody, mathew x spriggs, mark mark mark &c., and places were duly designated in pencil for those brethren who were now expected to join: for skulpit alone was left a spot on which his genuine signature might be written in fair clerk-like style. handy had brought in the document, and spread it out on the small deal table, and was now standing by it persuasive and eager. moody had followed with an inkhorn, carefully left behind by finney; and spriggs bore aloft, as though it were a sword, a well-worn ink-black pen, which from time to time he endeavoured to thrust into skulpit's unwilling hand. with the learned man were his two abettors in indecision, william gazy and jonathan crumple. if ever the petition were to be forwarded, now was the time,--so said mr finney; and great was the anxiety on the part of those whose one hundred pounds a year, as they believed, mainly depended on the document in question. "to be kept out of all that money," as the avaricious moody had muttered to his friend handy, "by an old fool saying that he can write his own name like his betters!" "well, job," said handy, trying to impart to his own sour, ill-omened visage a smile of approbation, in which he greatly failed; "so you're ready now, mr finney says; here's the place, d'ye see;"--and he put his huge brown finger down on the dirty paper;--"name or mark, it's all one. come along, old boy; if so be we're to have the spending of this money, why the sooner the better,--that's my maxim." "to be sure," said moody. "we a'n't none of us so young; we can't stay waiting for old catgut no longer." it was thus these miscreants named our excellent friend. the nickname he could easily have forgiven, but the allusion to the divine source of all his melodious joy would have irritated even him. let us hope he never knew the insult. "only think, old billy gazy," said spriggs, who rejoiced in greater youth than his brethren, but having fallen into a fire when drunk, had had one eye burnt out, one cheek burnt through, and one arm nearly burnt off, and who, therefore, in regard to personal appearance, was not the most prepossessing of men, "a hundred a year, and all to spend; only think, old billy gazy;" and he gave a hideous grin that showed off his misfortunes to their full extent. old billy gazy was not alive to much enthusiasm. even these golden prospects did not arouse him to do more than rub his poor old bleared eyes with the cuff of his bedesman's gown, and gently mutter: "he didn't know, not he; he didn't know." "but you'd know, jonathan," continued spriggs, turning to the other friend of skulpit's, who was sitting on a stool by the table, gazing vacantly at the petition. jonathan crumple was a meek, mild man, who had known better days; his means had been wasted by bad children, who had made his life wretched till he had been received into the hospital, of which he had not long been a member. since that day he had known neither sorrow nor trouble, and this attempt to fill him with new hopes was, indeed, a cruelty. "a hundred a year's a nice thing, for sartain, neighbour spriggs," said he. "i once had nigh to that myself, but it didn't do me no good." and he gave a low sigh, as he thought of the children of his own loins who had robbed him. "and shall have again, joe," said handy; "and will have someone to keep it right and tight for you this time." crumple sighed again;--he had learned the impotency of worldly wealth, and would have been satisfied, if left untempted, to have remained happy with one and sixpence a day. "come, skulpit," repeated handy, getting impatient, "you're not going to go along with old bunce in helping that parson to rob us all. take the pen, man, and right yourself. well," he added, seeing that skulpit still doubted, "to see a man as is afraid to stand by hisself is, to my thinking, the meanest thing as is." "sink them all for parsons, says i," growled moody; "hungry beggars, as never thinks their bellies full till they have robbed all and everything!" "who's to harm you, man?" argued spriggs. "let them look never so black at you, they can't get you put out when you're once in;--no, not old catgut, with calves to help him!" i am sorry to say the archdeacon himself was designated by this scurrilous allusion to his nether person. "a hundred a year to win, and nothing to lose," continued handy. "my eyes! well, how a man's to doubt about sich a bit of cheese as that passes me;--but some men is timorous;--some men is born with no pluck in them;--some men is cowed at the very first sight of a gentleman's coat and waistcoat." oh, mr harding, if you had but taken the archdeacon's advice in that disputed case, when joe mutters was this ungrateful demagogue's rival candidate! "afraid of a parson," growled moody, with a look of ineffable scorn. "i tell ye what i'd be afraid of--i'd be afraid of not getting nothing from 'em but just what i could take by might and right;--that's the most i'd be afraid on of any parson of 'em all." "but," said skulpit, apologetically, "mr harding's not so bad;--he did give us twopence a day, didn't he now?" "twopence a day!" exclaimed spriggs with scorn, opening awfully the red cavern of his lost eye. "twopence a day!" muttered moody with a curse; "sink his twopence!" "twopence a day!" exclaimed handy; "and i'm to go, hat in hand, and thank a chap for twopence a day, when he owes me a hundred pounds a year; no, thank ye; that may do for you, but it won't for me. come, i say, skulpit, are you a going to put your mark to this here paper, or are you not?" skulpit looked round in wretched indecision to his two friends. "what d'ye think, bill gazy?" said he. but bill gazy couldn't think. he made a noise like the bleating of an old sheep, which was intended to express the agony of his doubt, and again muttered that "he didn't know." "take hold, you old cripple," said handy, thrusting the pen into poor billy's hand: "there, so--ugh! you old fool, you've been and smeared it all,--there,--that'll do for you;--that's as good as the best name as ever was written": and a big blotch of ink was presumed to represent billy gazy's acquiescence. "now, jonathan," said handy, turning to crumple. "a hundred a year's a nice thing, for sartain," again argued crumple. "well, neighbour skulpit, how's it to be?" "oh, please yourself," said skulpit: "please yourself, and you'll please me." the pen was thrust into crumple's hand, and a faint, wandering, meaningless sign was made, betokening such sanction and authority as jonathan crumple was able to convey. "come, job," said handy, softened by success, "don't let 'em have to say that old bunce has a man like you under his thumb,--a man that always holds his head in the hospital as high as bunce himself, though you're never axed to drink wine, and sneak, and tell lies about your betters as he does." skulpit held the pen, and made little flourishes with it in the air, but still hesitated. "and if you'll be said by me," continued handy, "you'll not write your name to it at all, but just put your mark like the others;"--the cloud began to clear from skulpit's brow;--"we all know you can do it if you like, but maybe you wouldn't like to seem uppish, you know." "well, the mark would be best," said skulpit. "one name and the rest marks wouldn't look well, would it?" "the worst in the world," said handy; "there--there": and stooping over the petition, the learned clerk made a huge cross on the place left for his signature. "that's the game," said handy, triumphantly pocketing the petition; "we're all in a boat now, that is, the nine of us; and as for old bunce, and his cronies, they may--" but as he was hobbling off to the door, with a crutch on one side and a stick on the other, he was met by bunce himself. "well handy, and what may old bunce do?" said the gray-haired, upright senior. handy muttered something, and was departing; but he was stopped in the doorway by the huge frame of the newcomer. "you've been doing no good here, abel handy," said he, "'tis plain to see that; and 'tisn't much good, i'm thinking, you ever do." "i mind my own business, master bunce," muttered the other, "and do you do the same. it ain't nothing to you what i does;--and your spying and poking here won't do no good nor yet no harm." "i suppose then, job," continued bunce, not noticing his opponent, "if the truth must out, you've stuck your name to that petition of theirs at last." skulpit looked as though he were about to sink into the ground with shame. "what is it to you what he signs?" said handy. "i suppose if we all wants to ax for our own, we needn't ax leave of you first, mr bunce, big a man as you are; and as to your sneaking in here, into job's room when he's busy, and where you're not wanted--" "i've knowed job skulpit, man and boy, sixty years," said bunce, looking at the man of whom he spoke, "and that's ever since the day he was born. i knowed the mother that bore him, when she and i were little wee things, picking daisies together in the close yonder; and i've lived under the same roof with him more nor ten years; and after that i may come into his room without axing leave, and yet no sneaking neither." "so you can, mr bunce," said skulpit; "so you can, any hour, day or night." "and i'm free also to tell him my mind," continued bunce, looking at the one man and addressing the other; "and i tell him now that he's done a foolish and a wrong thing. he's turned his back upon one who is his best friend; and is playing the game of others, who care nothing for him, whether he be poor or rich, well or ill, alive or dead. a hundred a year? are the lot of you soft enough to think that if a hundred a year be to be given, it's the likes of you that will get it?"--and he pointed to billy gazy, spriggs, and crumple. "did any of us ever do anything worth half the money? was it to make gentlemen of us we were brought in here, when all the world turned against us, and we couldn't longer earn our daily bread? a'n't you all as rich in your ways as he in his?"--and the orator pointed to the side on which the warden lived. "a'n't you getting all you hoped for, ay, and more than you hoped for? wouldn't each of you have given the dearest limb of his body to secure that which now makes you so unthankful?" "we wants what john hiram left us," said handy. "we wants what's ourn by law; it don't matter what we expected. what's ourn by law should be ourn, and by goles we'll have it." "law!" said bunce, with all the scorn he knew how to command--"law! did ye ever know a poor man yet was the better for law, or for a lawyer? will mr finney ever be as good to you, job, as that man has been? will he see to you when you're sick, and comfort you when you're wretched? will he--" "no, nor give you port wine, old boy, on cold winter nights! he won't do that, will he?" asked handy; and laughing at the severity of his own wit, he and his colleagues retired, carrying with them, however, the now powerful petition. there is no help for spilt milk; and mr bunce could only retire to his own room, disgusted at the frailty of human nature. job skulpit scratched his head;--jonathan crumple again remarked, that, "for sartain, sure a hundred a year was very nice;"--and billy gazy again rubbed his eyes, and lowly muttered that "he didn't know." chapter v dr grantly visits the hospital though doubt and hesitation disturbed the rest of our poor warden, no such weakness perplexed the nobler breast of his son-in-law. as the indomitable cock preparing for the combat sharpens his spurs, shakes his feathers, and erects his comb, so did the archdeacon arrange his weapons for the coming war, without misgiving and without fear. that he was fully confident of the justice of his cause let no one doubt. many a man can fight his battle with good courage, but with a doubting conscience. such was not the case with dr grantly. he did not believe in the gospel with more assurance than he did in the sacred justice of all ecclesiastical revenues. when he put his shoulder to the wheel to defend the income of the present and future precentors of barchester, he was animated by as strong a sense of a holy cause, as that which gives courage to a missionary in africa, or enables a sister of mercy to give up the pleasures of the world for the wards of a hospital. he was about to defend the holy of holies from the touch of the profane; to guard the citadel of his church from the most rampant of its enemies; to put on his good armour in the best of fights, and secure, if possible, the comforts of his creed for coming generations of ecclesiastical dignitaries. such a work required no ordinary vigour; and the archdeacon was, therefore, extraordinarily vigorous. it demanded a buoyant courage, and a heart happy in its toil; and the archdeacon's heart was happy, and his courage was buoyant. he knew that he would not be able to animate his father-in-law with feelings like his own, but this did not much disturb him. he preferred to bear the brunt of the battle alone, and did not doubt that the warden would resign himself into his hands with passive submission. "well, mr chadwick," he said, walking into the steward's office a day or two after the signing of the petition as commemorated in the last chapter: "anything from cox and cummins this morning?" mr chadwick handed him a letter; which he read, stroking the tight-gaitered calf of his right leg as he did so. messrs cox and cummins merely said that they had as yet received no notice from their adversaries; that they could recommend no preliminary steps; but that should any proceeding really be taken by the bedesmen, it would be expedient to consult that very eminent queen's counsel, sir abraham haphazard. "i quite agree with them," said dr grantly, refolding the letter. "i perfectly agree with them. haphazard is no doubt the best man; a thorough churchman, a sound conservative, and in every respect the best man we could get;--he's in the house, too, which is a great thing." mr chadwick quite agreed. "you remember how completely he put down that scoundrel horseman about the bishop of beverley's income; how completely he set them all adrift in the earl's case." since the question of st cross had been mooted by the public, one noble lord had become "the earl," _par excellence_, in the doctor's estimation. "how he silenced that fellow at rochester. of course we must have haphazard; and i'll tell you what, mr chadwick, we must take care to be in time, or the other party will forestall us." with all his admiration for sir abraham, the doctor seemed to think it not impossible that that great man might be induced to lend his gigantic powers to the side of the church's enemies. having settled this point to his satisfaction, the doctor stepped down to the hospital, to learn how matters were going on there; and as he walked across the hallowed close, and looked up at the ravens who cawed with a peculiar reverence as he wended his way, he thought with increased acerbity of those whose impiety would venture to disturb the goodly grace of cathedral institutions. and who has not felt the same? we believe that mr horseman himself would relent, and the spirit of sir benjamin hall give way, were those great reformers to allow themselves to stroll by moonlight round the towers of some of our ancient churches. who would not feel charity for a prebendary when walking the quiet length of that long aisle at winchester, looking at those decent houses, that trim grass-plat, and feeling, as one must, the solemn, orderly comfort of the spot! who could be hard upon a dean while wandering round the sweet close of hereford, and owning that in that precinct, tone and colour, design and form, solemn tower and storied window, are all in unison, and all perfect! who could lie basking in the cloisters of salisbury, and gaze on jewel's library and that unequalled spire, without feeling that bishops should sometimes be rich! the tone of our archdeacon's mind must not astonish us; it has been the growth of centuries of church ascendancy; and though some fungi now disfigure the tree, though there be much dead wood, for how much good fruit have not we to be thankful? who, without remorse, can batter down the dead branches of an old oak, now useless, but, ah! still so beautiful, or drag out the fragments of the ancient forest, without feeling that they sheltered the younger plants, to which they are now summoned to give way in a tone so peremptory and so harsh? the archdeacon, with all his virtues, was not a man of delicate feeling; and after having made his morning salutations in the warden's drawing-room, he did not scruple to commence an attack on "pestilent" john bold in the presence of miss harding, though he rightly guessed that that lady was not indifferent to the name of his enemy. "nelly, my dear, fetch me my spectacles from the back room," said her father, anxious to save both her blushes and her feelings. eleanor brought the spectacles, while her father was trying, in ambiguous phrases, to explain to her too-practical brother-in-law that it might be as well not to say anything about bold before her, and then retreated. nothing had been explained to her about bold and the hospital; but, with a woman's instinct she knew that things were going wrong. "we must soon be doing something," commenced the archdeacon, wiping his brows with a large, bright-coloured handkerchief, for he had felt busy, and had walked quick, and it was a broiling summer's day. "of course you have heard of the petition?" mr harding owned, somewhat unwillingly, that he had heard of it. "well!"--the archdeacon looked for some expressions of opinion, but none coming, he continued,--"we must be doing something, you know; we mustn't allow these people to cut the ground from under us while we sit looking on." the archdeacon, who was a practical man, allowed himself the use of everyday expressive modes of speech when among his closest intimates, though no one could soar into a more intricate labyrinth of refined phraseology when the church was the subject, and his lower brethren were his auditors. the warden still looked mutely in his face, making the slightest possible passes with an imaginary fiddle bow, and stopping, as he did so, sundry imaginary strings with the fingers of his other hand. 'twas his constant consolation in conversational troubles. while these vexed him sorely, the passes would be short and slow, and the upper hand would not be seen to work; nay, the strings on which it operated would sometimes lie concealed in the musician's pocket, and the instrument on which he played would be beneath his chair;--but as his spirit warmed to the subject,--as his trusting heart looking to the bottom of that which vexed him, would see its clear way out,--he would rise to a higher melody, sweep the unseen strings with a bolder hand, and swiftly fingering the cords from his neck, down along his waistcoat, and up again to his very ear, create an ecstatic strain of perfect music, audible to himself and to st cecilia, and not without effect. "i quite agree with cox and cummins," continued the archdeacon. "they say we must secure sir abraham haphazard. i shall not have the slightest fear in leaving the case in sir abraham's hands." the warden played the slowest and saddest of tunes. it was but a dirge on one string. "i think sir abraham will not be long in letting master bold know what he's about. i fancy i hear sir abraham cross-questioning him at the common pleas." the warden thought of his income being thus discussed, his modest life, his daily habits, and his easy work; and nothing issued from that single cord, but a low wail of sorrow. "i suppose they've sent this petition up to my father." the warden didn't know; he imagined they would do so this very day. "what i can't understand is, how you let them do it, with such a command as you have in the place, or should have with such a man as bunce. i cannot understand why you let them do it." "do what?" asked the warden. "why, listen to this fellow bold, and that other low pettifogger, finney;--and get up this petition too. why didn't you tell bunce to destroy the petition?" "that would have been hardly wise," said the warden. "wise;--yes, it would have been very wise if they'd done it among themselves. i must go up to the palace and answer it now, i suppose. it's a very short answer they'll get, i can tell you." "but why shouldn't they petition, doctor?" "why shouldn't they!" responded the archdeacon, in a loud brazen voice, as though all the men in the hospital were expected to hear him through the walls; "why shouldn't they? i'll let them know why they shouldn't; by the bye, warden, i'd like to say a few words to them all together." the warden's mind misgave him, and even for a moment he forgot to play. he by no means wished to delegate to his son-in-law his place and authority of warden; he had expressly determined not to interfere in any step which the men might wish to take in the matter under dispute; he was most anxious neither to accuse them nor to defend himself. all these things he was aware the archdeacon would do in his behalf, and that not in the mildest manner; and yet he knew not how to refuse the permission requested. "i'd so much sooner remain quiet in the matter," said he, in an apologetic voice. "quiet!" said the archdeacon, still speaking with his brazen trumpet; "do you wish to be ruined in quiet?" "why, if i am to be ruined, certainly." "nonsense, warden; i tell you something must be done;--we must act; just let me ring the bell, and send the men word that i'll speak to them in the quad." mr harding knew not how to resist, and the disagreeable order was given. the quad, as it was familiarly called, was a small quadrangle, open on one side to the river, and surrounded on the others by the high wall of mr harding's garden, by one gable end of mr harding's house, and by the end of the row of buildings which formed the residences of the bedesmen. it was flagged all round, and the centre was stoned; small stone gutters ran from the four corners of the square to a grating in the centre; and attached to the end of mr harding's house was a conduit with four cocks covered over from the weather, at which the old men got their water, and very generally performed their morning toilet. it was a quiet, sombre place, shaded over by the trees of the warden's garden. on the side towards the river, there stood a row of stone seats, on which the old men would sit and gaze at the little fish, as they flitted by in the running stream. on the other side of the river was a rich, green meadow, running up to and joining the deanery, and as little open to the public as the garden of the dean itself. nothing, therefore, could be more private than the quad of the hospital; and it was there that the archdeacon determined to convey to them his sense of their refractory proceedings. the servant soon brought in word that the men were assembled in the quad, and the archdeacon, big with his purpose, rose to address them. "well, warden, of course you're coming," said he, seeing that mr harding did not prepare to follow him. "i wish you'd excuse me," said mr harding. "for heaven's sake, don't let us have division in the camp," replied the archdeacon: "let us have a long pull and a strong pull, but above all a pull all together; come, warden, come; don't be afraid of your duty." mr harding was afraid; he was afraid that he was being led to do that which was not his duty; he was not, however, strong enough to resist, so he got up and followed his son-in-law. the old men were assembled in groups in the quadrangle--eleven of them at least, for poor old johnny bell was bed-ridden, and couldn't come; he had, however, put his mark to the petition, as one of handy's earliest followers. 'tis true he could not move from the bed where he lay; 'tis true he had no friend on earth, but those whom the hospital contained; and of those the warden and his daughter were the most constant and most appreciated; 'tis true that everything was administered to him which his failing body could require, or which his faint appetite could enjoy; but still his dull eye had glistened for a moment at the idea of possessing a hundred pounds a year "to his own cheek," as abel handy had eloquently expressed it; and poor old johnny bell had greedily put his mark to the petition. when the two clergymen appeared, they all uncovered their heads. handy was slow to do it, and hesitated; but the black coat and waistcoat of which he had spoken so irreverently in skulpit's room, had its effect even on him, and he too doffed his hat. bunce, advancing before the others, bowed lowly to the archdeacon, and with affectionate reverence expressed his wish, that the warden and miss eleanor were quite well; "and the doctor's lady," he added, turning to the archdeacon, "and the children at plumstead, and my lord;" and having made his speech, he also retired among the others, and took his place with the rest upon the stone benches. as the archdeacon stood up to make his speech, erect in the middle of that little square, he looked like an ecclesiastical statue placed there, as a fitting impersonation of the church militant here on earth; his shovel hat, large, new, and well-pronounced, a churchman's hat in every inch, declared the profession as plainly as does the quaker's broad brim; his heavy eyebrows, large open eyes, and full mouth and chin expressed the solidity of his order; the broad chest, amply covered with fine cloth, told how well to do was its estate; one hand ensconced within his pocket, evinced the practical hold which our mother church keeps on her temporal possessions; and the other, loose for action, was ready to fight if need be in her defence; and, below these, the decorous breeches, and neat black gaiters showing so admirably that well-turned leg, betokened the decency, the outward beauty and grace of our church establishment. "now, my men," he began, when he had settled himself well in his position, "i want to say a few words to you. your good friend, the warden here, and myself, and my lord the bishop, on whose behalf i wish to speak to you, would all be very sorry, very sorry indeed, that you should have any just ground of complaint. any just ground of complaint on your part would be removed at once by the warden, or by his lordship, or by me on his behalf, without the necessity of any petition on your part." here the orator stopped for a moment, expecting that some little murmurs of applause would show that the weakest of the men were beginning to give way; but no such murmurs came. bunce, himself, even sat with closed lips, mute and unsatisfactory. "without the necessity of any petition at all," he repeated. "i'm told you have addressed a petition to my lord." he paused for a reply from the men, and after a while, handy plucked up courage and said, "yes, we has." "you have addressed a petition to my lord, in which, as i am informed, you express an opinion that you do not receive from hiram's estate all that is your due." here most of the men expressed their assent. "now what is it you ask for? what is it you want that you hav'n't got here? what is it--" "a hundred a year," muttered old moody, with a voice as if it came out of the ground. "a hundred a year!" ejaculated the archdeacon militant, defying the impudence of these claimants with one hand stretched out and closed, while with the other he tightly grasped, and secured within his breeches pocket, that symbol of the church's wealth which his own loose half-crowns not unaptly represented. "a hundred a year! why, my men, you must be mad; and you talk about john hiram's will! when john hiram built a hospital for worn-out old men, worn-out old labouring men, infirm old men past their work, cripples, blind, bed-ridden, and such like, do you think he meant to make gentlemen of them? do you think john hiram intended to give a hundred a year to old single men, who earned perhaps two shillings or half-a-crown a day for themselves and families in the best of their time? no, my men, i'll tell you what john hiram meant: he meant that twelve poor old worn-out labourers, men who could no longer support themselves, who had no friends to support them, who must starve and perish miserably if not protected by the hand of charity;--he meant that twelve such men as these should come in here in their poverty and wretchedness, and find within these walls shelter and food before their death, and a little leisure to make their peace with god. that was what john hiram meant: you have not read john hiram's will, and i doubt whether those wicked men who are advising you have done so. i have; i know what his will was; and i tell you that that was his will, and that that was his intention." not a sound came from the eleven bedesmen, as they sat listening to what, according to the archdeacon, was their intended estate. they grimly stared upon his burly figure, but did not then express, by word or sign, the anger and disgust to which such language was sure to give rise. "now let me ask you," he continued: "do you think you are worse off than john hiram intended to make you? have you not shelter, and food, and leisure? have you not much more? have you not every indulgence which you are capable of enjoying? have you not twice better food, twice a better bed, ten times more money in your pocket than you were ever able to earn for yourselves before you were lucky enough to get into this place? and now you send a petition to the bishop, asking for a hundred pounds a year! i tell you what, my friends; you are deluded, and made fools of by wicked men who are acting for their own ends. you will never get a hundred pence a year more than what you have now: it is very possible that you may get less; it is very possible that my lord the bishop, and your warden, may make changes--" "no, no, no," interrupted mr harding, who had been listening with indescribable misery to the tirade of his son-in-law; "no, my friends. i want no changes,--at least no changes that shall make you worse off than you now are, as long as you and i live together." "god bless you, mr harding," said bunce; and "god bless you, mr harding, god bless you, sir: we know you was always our friend," was exclaimed by enough of the men to make it appear that the sentiment was general. the archdeacon had been interrupted in his speech before he had quite finished it; but he felt that he could not recommence with dignity after this little ebullition, and he led the way back into the garden, followed by his father-in-law. "well," said he, as soon as he found himself within the cool retreat of the warden's garden; "i think i spoke to them plainly." and he wiped the perspiration from his brow; for making a speech under a broiling mid-day sun in summer, in a full suit of thick black cloth, is warm work. "yes, you were plain enough," replied the warden, in a tone which did not express approbation. "and that's everything," said the other, who was clearly well satisfied with himself; "that's everything: with those sort of people one must be plain, or one will not be understood. now, i think they did understand me;--i think they knew what i meant." the warden agreed. he certainly thought they had understood to the full what had been said to them. "they know pretty well what they have to expect from us; they know how we shall meet any refractory spirit on their part; they know that we are not afraid of them. and now i'll just step into chadwick's, and tell him what i've done; and then i'll go up to the palace, and answer this petition of theirs." the warden's mind was very full,--full nearly to overcharging itself; and had it done so,--had he allowed himself to speak the thoughts which were working within him, he would indeed have astonished the archdeacon by the reprobation he would have expressed as to the proceeding of which he had been so unwilling a witness. but different feelings kept him silent; he was as yet afraid of differing from his son-in-law;--he was anxious beyond measure to avoid even a semblance of rupture with any of his order, and was painfully fearful of having to come to an open quarrel with any person on any subject. his life had hitherto been so quiet, so free from strife; his little early troubles had required nothing but passive fortitude; his subsequent prosperity had never forced upon him any active cares,--had never brought him into disagreeable contact with anyone. he felt that he would give almost anything,--much more than he knew he ought to do,--to relieve himself from the storm which he feared was coming. it was so hard that the pleasant waters of his little stream should be disturbed and muddied by rough hands; that his quiet paths should be made a battlefield; that the unobtrusive corner of the world which had been allotted to him, as though by providence, should be invaded and desecrated, and all within it made miserable and unsound. money he had none to give; the knack of putting guineas together had never belonged to him; but how willingly, with what a foolish easiness, with what happy alacrity, would he have abandoned the half of his income for all time to come, could he by so doing have quietly dispelled the clouds that were gathering over him,--could he have thus compromised the matter between the reformer and the conservative, between his possible son-in-law, bold, and his positive son-in-law, the archdeacon. and this compromise would not have been made from any prudential motive of saving what would yet remain, for mr harding still felt little doubt but he should be left for life in quiet possession of the good things he had, if he chose to retain them. no; he would have done so from the sheer love of quiet, and from a horror of being made the subject of public talk. he had very often been moved to pity.--to that inward weeping of the heart for others' woes; but none had he ever pitied more than that old lord, whose almost fabulous wealth, drawn from his church preferments, had become the subject of so much opprobrium, of such public scorn; that wretched clerical octogenarian croesus, whom men would not allow to die in peace,--whom all the world united to decry and to abhor. was he to suffer such a fate? was his humble name to be bandied in men's mouths, as the gormandiser of the resources of the poor, as of one who had filched from the charity of other ages wealth which had been intended to relieve the old and the infirm? was he to be gibbeted in the press, to become a byword for oppression, to be named as an example of the greed of the english church? should it ever be said that he had robbed those old men, whom he so truly and so tenderly loved in his heart of hearts? as he slowly paced, hour after hour, under those noble lime-trees, turning these sad thoughts within him, he became all but fixed in his resolve that some great step must be taken to relieve him from the risk of so terrible a fate. in the meanwhile, the archdeacon, with contented mind and unruffled spirit, went about his business. he said a word or two to mr chadwick, and then finding, as he expected, the petition lying in his father's library, he wrote a short answer to the men, in which he told them that they had no evils to redress, but rather great mercies for which to be thankful; and having seen the bishop sign it, he got into his brougham and returned home to mrs grantly, and plumstead episcopi. chapter vi the warden's tea party after much painful doubting, on one thing only could mr harding resolve. he determined that at any rate he would take no offence, and that he would make this question no cause of quarrel either with bold or with the bedesmen. in furtherance of this resolution, he himself wrote a note to mr bold, the same afternoon, inviting him to meet a few friends and hear some music on an evening named in the next week. had not this little party been promised to eleanor, in his present state of mind he would probably have avoided such gaiety; but the promise had been given, the invitations were to be written, and when eleanor consulted her father on the subject, she was not ill pleased to hear him say, "oh, i was thinking of bold, so i took it into my head to write to him myself, but you must write to his sister." mary bold was older than her brother, and, at the time of our story, was just over thirty. she was not an unattractive young woman, though by no means beautiful. her great merit was the kindliness of her disposition. she was not very clever, nor very animated, nor had she apparently the energy of her brother; but she was guided by a high principle of right and wrong; her temper was sweet, and her faults were fewer in number than her virtues. those who casually met mary bold thought little of her; but those who knew her well loved her well, and the longer they knew her the more they loved her. among those who were fondest of her was eleanor harding; and though eleanor had never openly talked to her of her brother, each understood the other's feelings about him. the brother and sister were sitting together when the two notes were brought in. "how odd," said mary, "that they should send two notes. well, if mr harding becomes fashionable, the world is going to change." her brother understood immediately the nature and intention of the peace-offering; but it was not so easy for him to behave well in the matter, as it was for mr harding. it is much less difficult for the sufferer to be generous than for the oppressor. john bold felt that he could not go to the warden's party: he never loved eleanor better than he did now; he had never so strongly felt how anxious he was to make her his wife as now, when so many obstacles to his doing so appeared in view. yet here was her father himself, as it were, clearing away those very obstacles, and still he felt that he could not go to the house any more as an open friend. as he sat thinking of these things with the note in his hand, his sister was waiting for his decision. "well," said she, "i suppose we must write separate answers, and both say we shall be very happy." "you'll go, of course, mary," said he; to which she readily assented. "i cannot," he continued, looking serious and gloomy. "i wish i could, with all my heart." "and why not, john?" said she. she had as yet heard nothing of the new-found abuse which her brother was about to reform;--at least nothing which connected it with her brother's name. he sat thinking for a while till he determined that it would be best to tell her at once what it was that he was about: it must be done sooner or later. "i fear i cannot go to mr harding's house any more as a friend, just at present." "oh, john! why not? ah, you've quarrelled with eleanor!" "no, indeed," said he; "i've no quarrel with her as yet." "what is it, john?" said she, looking at him with an anxious, loving face, for she knew well how much of his heart was there in that house which he said he could no longer enter. "why," said he at last, "i've taken up the case of these twelve old men of hiram's hospital, and of course that brings me into contact with mr harding. i may have to oppose him, interfere with him,--perhaps injure him." mary looked at him steadily for some time before she committed herself to reply, and then merely asked him what he meant to do for the old men. "why, it's a long story, and i don't know that i can make you understand it. john hiram made a will, and left his property in charity for certain poor old men, and the proceeds, instead of going to the benefit of these men, go chiefly into the pocket of the warden and the bishop's steward." "and you mean to take away from mr harding his share of it?" "i don't know what i mean yet. i mean to inquire about it. i mean to see who is entitled to this property. i mean to see, if i can, that justice be done to the poor of the city of barchester generally, who are, in fact, the legatees under the will. i mean, in short, to put the matter right, if i can." "and why are you to do this, john?" "you might ask the same question of anybody else," said he; "and according to that the duty of righting these poor men would belong to nobody. if we are to act on that principle, the weak are never to be protected, injustice is never to be opposed, and no one is to struggle for the poor!" and bold began to comfort himself in the warmth of his own virtue. "but is there no one to do this but you, who have known mr harding so long? surely, john, as a friend, as a young friend, so much younger than mr harding--" "that's woman's logic, all over, mary. what has age to do with it? another man might plead that he was too old; and as to his friendship, if the thing itself be right, private motives should never be allowed to interfere. because i esteem mr harding, is that a reason that i should neglect a duty which i owe to these old men? or should i give up a work which my conscience tells me is a good one, because i regret the loss of his society?" "and eleanor, john?" said the sister, looking timidly into her brother's face. "eleanor, that is, miss harding, if she thinks fit,--that is, if her father--or, rather, if she--or, indeed, he,--if they find it necessary--but there is no necessity now to talk about eleanor harding; but this i will say, that if she has the kind of spirit for which i give her credit, she will not condemn me for doing what i think to be a duty." and bold consoled himself with the consolation of a roman. mary sat silent for a while, till at last her brother reminded her that the notes must be answered, and she got up, and placed her desk before her, took out her pen and paper, wrote on it slowly: pakenham villas tuesday morning my dear eleanor, i-- and then stopped, and looked at her brother. "well, mary, why don't you write it?" "oh, john," said she, "dear john, pray think better of this." "think better of what?" said he. "of this about the hospital,--of all this about mr harding,--of what you say about those old men. nothing can call upon you,--no duty can require you to set yourself against your oldest, your best friend. oh, john, think of eleanor. you'll break her heart, and your own." "nonsense, mary; miss harding's heart is as safe as yours." "pray, pray, for my sake, john, give it up. you know how dearly you love her." and she came and knelt before him on the rug. "pray give it up. you are going to make yourself, and her, and her father miserable: you are going to make us all miserable. and for what? for a dream of justice. you will never make those twelve men happier than they now are." "you don't understand it, my dear girl," said he, smoothing her hair with his hand. "i do understand it, john. i understand that this is a chimera,--a dream that you have got. i know well that no duty can require you to do this mad--this suicidal thing. i know you love eleanor harding with all your heart, and i tell you now that she loves you as well. if there was a plain, a positive duty before you, i would be the last to bid you neglect it for any woman's love; but this--; oh, think again, before you do anything to make it necessary that you and mr harding should be at variance." he did not answer, as she knelt there, leaning on his knees, but by his face she thought that he was inclined to yield. "at any rate let me say that you will go to this party. at any rate do not break with them while your mind is in doubt." and she got up, hoping to conclude her note in the way she desired. "my mind is not in doubt," at last he said, rising. "i could never respect myself again were i to give way now, because eleanor harding is beautiful. i do love her: i would give a hand to hear her tell me what you have said, speaking on her behalf; but i cannot for her sake go back from the task which i have commenced. i hope she may hereafter acknowledge and respect my motives, but i cannot now go as a guest to her father's house." and the barchester brutus went out to fortify his own resolution by meditations on his own virtue. poor mary bold sat down, and sadly finished her note, saying that she would herself attend the party, but that her brother was unavoidably prevented from doing so. i fear that she did not admire as she should have done the self-devotion of his singular virtue. the party went off as such parties do. there were fat old ladies, in fine silk dresses, and slim young ladies, in gauzy muslin frocks; old gentlemen stood up with their backs to the empty fire-place, looking by no means so comfortable as they would have done in their own arm-chairs at home; and young gentlemen, rather stiff about the neck, clustered near the door, not as yet sufficiently in courage to attack the muslin frocks, who awaited the battle, drawn up in a semicircular array. the warden endeavoured to induce a charge, but failed signally, not having the tact of a general; his daughter did what she could to comfort the forces under her command, who took in refreshing rations of cake and tea, and patiently looked for the coming engagement: but she herself, eleanor, had no spirit for the work; the only enemy whose lance she cared to encounter was not there, and she and others were somewhat dull. loud above all voices was heard the clear sonorous tones of the archdeacon as he dilated to brother parsons of the danger of the church, of the fearful rumours of mad reforms even at oxford, and of the damnable heresies of dr whiston. soon, however, sweeter sounds began timidly to make themselves audible. little movements were made in a quarter notable for round stools and music stands. wax candles were arranged in sconces, big books were brought from hidden recesses, and the work of the evening commenced. how often were those pegs twisted and re-twisted before our friend found that he had twisted them enough; how many discordant scrapes gave promise of the coming harmony. how much the muslin fluttered and crumpled before eleanor and another nymph were duly seated at the piano; how closely did that tall apollo pack himself against the wall, with his flute, long as himself, extending high over the heads of his pretty neighbours; into how small a corner crept that round and florid little minor canon, and there with skill amazing found room to tune his accustomed fiddle! and now the crash begins: away they go in full flow of harmony together,--up hill and down dale,--now louder and louder, then lower and lower; now loud, as though stirring the battle; then low, as though mourning the slain. in all, through all, and above all, is heard the violoncello. ah, not for nothing were those pegs so twisted and re-twisted;--listen, listen! now alone that saddest of instruments tells its touching tale. silent, and in awe, stand fiddle, flute, and piano, to hear the sorrows of their wailing brother. 'tis but for a moment: before the melancholy of those low notes has been fully realised, again comes the full force of all the band;--down go the pedals, away rush twenty fingers scouring over the bass notes with all the impetus of passion. apollo blows till his stiff neckcloth is no better than a rope, and the minor canon works with both arms till he falls in a syncope of exhaustion against the wall. how comes it that now, when all should be silent, when courtesy, if not taste, should make men listen,--how is it at this moment the black-coated corps leave their retreat and begin skirmishing? one by one they creep forth, and fire off little guns timidly, and without precision. ah, my men, efforts such as these will take no cities, even though the enemy should be never so open to assault. at length a more deadly artillery is brought to bear; slowly, but with effect, the advance is made; the muslin ranks are broken, and fall into confusion; the formidable array of chairs gives way; the battle is no longer between opposing regiments, but hand to hand, and foot to foot with single combatants, as in the glorious days of old, when fighting was really noble. in corners, and under the shadow of curtains, behind sofas and half hidden by doors, in retiring windows, and sheltered by hanging tapestry, are blows given and returned, fatal, incurable, dealing death. apart from this another combat arises, more sober and more serious. the archdeacon is engaged against two prebendaries, a pursy full-blown rector assisting him, in all the perils and all the enjoyments of short whist. with solemn energy do they watch the shuffled pack, and, all-expectant, eye the coming trump. with what anxious nicety do they arrange their cards, jealous of each other's eyes! why is that lean doctor so slow,--cadaverous man with hollow jaw and sunken eye, ill beseeming the richness of his mother church! ah, why so slow, thou meagre doctor? see how the archdeacon, speechless in his agony, deposits on the board his cards, and looks to heaven or to the ceiling for support. hark, how he sighs, as with thumbs in his waistcoat pocket he seems to signify that the end of such torment is not yet even nigh at hand! vain is the hope, if hope there be, to disturb that meagre doctor. with care precise he places every card, weighs well the value of each mighty ace, each guarded king, and comfort-giving queen; speculates on knave and ten, counts all his suits, and sets his price upon the whole. at length a card is led, and quick three others fall upon the board. the little doctor leads again, while with lustrous eye his partner absorbs the trick. now thrice has this been done,--thrice has constant fortune favoured the brace of prebendaries, ere the archdeacon rouses himself to the battle; but at the fourth assault he pins to the earth a prostrate king, laying low his crown and sceptre, bushy beard, and lowering brow, with a poor deuce. "as david did goliath," says the archdeacon, pushing over the four cards to his partner. and then a trump is led, then another trump; then a king,--and then an ace,--and then a long ten, which brings down from the meagre doctor his only remaining tower of strength--his cherished queen of trumps. "what, no second club?" says the archdeacon to his partner. "only one club," mutters from his inmost stomach the pursy rector, who sits there red-faced, silent, impervious, careful, a safe but not a brilliant ally. but the archdeacon cares not for many clubs, or for none. he dashes out his remaining cards with a speed most annoying to his antagonists, pushes over to them some four cards as their allotted portion, shoves the remainder across the table to the red-faced rector; calls out "two by cards and two by honours, and the odd trick last time," marks a treble under the candle-stick, and has dealt round the second pack before the meagre doctor has calculated his losses. and so went off the warden's party, and men and women arranging shawls and shoes declared how pleasant it had been; and mrs goodenough, the red-faced rector's wife, pressing the warden's hand, declared she had never enjoyed herself better; which showed how little pleasure she allowed herself in this world, as she had sat the whole evening through in the same chair without occupation, not speaking, and unspoken to. and matilda johnson, when she allowed young dickson of the bank to fasten her cloak round her neck, thought that two hundred pounds a year and a little cottage would really do for happiness; besides, he was sure to be manager some day. and apollo, folding his flute into his pocket, felt that he had acquitted himself with honour; and the archdeacon pleasantly jingled his gains; but the meagre doctor went off without much audible speech, muttering ever and anon as he went, "three and thirty points!" "three and thirty points!" and so they all were gone, and mr harding was left alone with his daughter. what had passed between eleanor harding and mary bold need not be told. it is indeed a matter of thankfulness that neither the historian nor the novelist hears all that is said by their heroes or heroines, or how would three volumes or twenty suffice! in the present case so little of this sort have i overheard, that i live in hopes of finishing my work within pages, and of completing that pleasant task--a novel in one volume; but something had passed between them, and as the warden blew out the wax candles, and put his instrument into its case, his daughter stood sad and thoughtful by the empty fire-place, determined to speak to her father, but irresolute as to what she would say. "well, eleanor," said he, "are you for bed?" "yes," said she, moving, "i suppose so; but papa--mr bold was not here tonight; do you know why not?" "he was asked; i wrote to him myself," said the warden. "but do you know why he did not come, papa?" "well, eleanor, i could guess; but it's no use guessing at such things, my dear. what makes you look so earnest about it?" "oh, papa, do tell me," she exclaimed, throwing her arms round him, and looking into his face; "what is it he is going to do? what is it all about? is there any--any--any--" she didn't well know what word to use--"any danger?" "danger, my dear, what sort of danger?" "danger to you, danger of trouble, and of loss, and of--oh, papa, why haven't you told me of all this before?" mr harding was not the man to judge harshly of anyone, much less of the daughter whom he now loved better than any living creature; but still he did judge her wrongly at this moment. he knew that she loved john bold; he fully sympathised in her affection; day after day he thought more of the matter, and, with the tender care of a loving father, tried to arrange in his own mind how matters might be so managed that his daughter's heart should not be made the sacrifice to the dispute which was likely to exist between him and bold. now, when she spoke to him for the first time on the subject, it was natural that he should think more of her than of himself, and that he should imagine that her own cares, and not his, were troubling her. he stood silent before her awhile, as she gazed up into his face, and then kissing her forehead he placed her on the sofa. "tell me, nelly," he said (he only called her nelly in his kindest, softest, sweetest moods, and yet all his moods were kind and sweet), "tell me, nelly, do you like mr bold--much?" she was quite taken aback by the question. i will not say that she had forgotten herself, and her own love in thinking about john bold, and while conversing with mary: she certainly had not done so. she had been sick at heart to think that a man of whom she could not but own to herself that she loved him, of whose regard she had been so proud, that such a man should turn against her father to ruin him. she had felt her vanity hurt, that his affection for her had not kept him from such a course; had he really cared for her, he would not have risked her love by such an outrage. but her main fear had been for her father, and when she spoke of danger, it was of danger to him and not to herself. she was taken aback by the question altogether: "do i like him, papa?" "yes, nelly, do you like him? why shouldn't you like him? but that's a poor word;--do you love him?" she sat still in his arms without answering him. she certainly had not prepared herself for an avowal of affection, intending, as she had done, to abuse john bold herself, and to hear her father do so also. "come, my love," said he, "let us make a clean breast of it: do you tell me what concerns yourself, and i will tell you what concerns me and the hospital." and then, without waiting for an answer, he described to her, as he best could, the accusation that was made about hiram's will; the claims which the old men put forward; what he considered the strength and what the weakness of his own position; the course which bold had taken, and that which he presumed he was about to take; and then by degrees, without further question, he presumed on the fact of eleanor's love, and spoke of that love as a feeling which he could in no way disapprove: he apologised for bold, excused what he was doing; nay, praised him for his energy and intentions; made much of his good qualities, and harped on none of his foibles; then, reminding his daughter how late it was, and comforting her with much assurance which he hardly felt himself, he sent her to her room, with flowing eyes and a full heart. when mr harding met his daughter at breakfast the next morning, there was no further discussion on the matter, nor was the subject mentioned between them for some days. soon after the party mary bold called at the hospital, but there were various persons in the drawing-room at the time, and she therefore said nothing about her brother. on the day following, john bold met miss harding in one of the quiet, sombre, shaded walks of the close. he was most anxious to see her, but unwilling to call at the warden's house, and had in truth waylaid her in her private haunts. "my sister tells me," said he, abruptly hurrying on with his premeditated speech, "my sister tells me that you had a delightful party the other evening. i was so sorry i could not be there." "we were all sorry," said eleanor, with dignified composure. "i believe, miss harding, you understand why, at this moment--" and bold hesitated, muttered, stopped, commenced his explanation again, and again broke down. eleanor would not help him in the least. "i think my sister explained to you, miss harding?" "pray don't apologise, mr bold; my father will, i am sure, always be glad to see you, if you like to come to the house now as formerly; nothing has occurred to alter his feelings: of your own views you are, of course, the best judge." "your father is all that is kind and generous; he always was so; but you, miss harding, yourself--i hope you will not judge me harshly, because--" "mr bold," said she, "you may be sure of one thing; i shall always judge my father to be right, and those who oppose him i shall judge to be wrong. if those who do not know him oppose him, i shall have charity enough to believe that they are wrong, through error of judgment; but should i see him attacked by those who ought to know him, and to love him, and revere him, of such i shall be constrained to form a different opinion." and then curtseying low she sailed on, leaving her lover in anything but a happy state of mind. chapter vii _the jupiter_ though eleanor harding rode off from john bold on a high horse, it must not be supposed that her heart was so elate as her demeanour. in the first place, she had a natural repugnance to losing her lover; and in the next, she was not quite so sure that she was in the right as she pretended to be. her father had told her, and that now repeatedly, that bold was doing nothing unjust or ungenerous; and why then should she rebuke him, and throw him off, when she felt herself so ill able to bear his loss?--but such is human nature, and young-lady-nature especially. as she walked off from him beneath the shady elms of the close, her look, her tone, every motion and gesture of her body, belied her heart; she would have given the world to have taken him by the hand, to have reasoned with him, persuaded him, cajoled him, coaxed him out of his project; to have overcome him with all her female artillery, and to have redeemed her father at the cost of herself; but pride would not let her do this, and she left him without a look of love or a word of kindness. had bold been judging of another lover and of another lady, he might have understood all this as well as we do; but in matters of love men do not see clearly in their own affairs. they say that faint heart never won fair lady; and it is amazing to me how fair ladies are won, so faint are often men's hearts! were it not for the kindness of their nature, that seeing the weakness of our courage they will occasionally descend from their impregnable fortresses, and themselves aid us in effecting their own defeat, too often would they escape unconquered if not unscathed, and free of body if not of heart. poor bold crept off quite crestfallen; he felt that as regarded eleanor harding his fate was sealed, unless he could consent to give up a task to which he had pledged himself, and which indeed it would not be easy for him to give up. lawyers were engaged, and the question had to a certain extent been taken up by the public; besides, how could a high-spirited girl like eleanor harding really learn to love a man for neglecting a duty which he assumed! could she allow her affection to be purchased at the cost of his own self-respect? as regarded the issue of his attempt at reformation in the hospital, bold had no reason hitherto to be discontented with his success. all barchester was by the ears about it. the bishop, the archdeacon, the warden, the steward, and several other clerical allies, had daily meetings, discussing their tactics, and preparing for the great attack. sir abraham haphazard had been consulted, but his opinion was not yet received: copies of hiram's will, copies of wardens' journals, copies of leases, copies of accounts, copies of everything that could be copied, and of some that could not, had been sent to him; and the case was assuming most creditable dimensions. but, above all, it had been mentioned in the daily _jupiter_. that all-powerful organ of the press in one of its leading thunderbolts launched at st cross, had thus remarked: "another case, of smaller dimensions indeed, but of similar import, is now likely to come under public notice. we are informed that the warden or master of an old almshouse attached to barchester cathedral is in receipt of twenty-five times the annual income appointed for him by the will of the founder, while the sum yearly expended on the absolute purposes of the charity has always remained fixed. in other words, the legatees under the founder's will have received no advantage from the increase in the value of the property during the last four centuries, such increase having been absorbed by the so-called warden. it is impossible to conceive a case of greater injustice. it is no answer to say that some six or nine or twelve old men receive as much of the goods of this world as such old men require. on what foundation, moral or divine, traditional or legal, is grounded the warden's claim to the large income he receives for doing nothing? the contentment of these almsmen, if content they be, can give him no title to this wealth! does he ever ask himself, when he stretches wide his clerical palm to receive the pay of some dozen of the working clergy, for what service he is so remunerated? does his conscience ever entertain the question of his right to such subsidies? or is it possible that the subject never so presents itself to his mind; that he has received for many years, and intends, should god spare him, to receive for years to come these fruits of the industrious piety of past ages, indifferent as to any right on his own part, or of any injustice to others! we must express an opinion that nowhere but in the church of england, and only there among its priests, could such a state of moral indifference be found." i must for the present leave my readers to imagine the state of mr harding's mind after reading the above article. they say that forty thousand copies of _the jupiter_ are daily sold, and that each copy is read by five persons at the least. two hundred thousand readers then would hear this accusation against him; two hundred thousand hearts would swell with indignation at the griping injustice, the barefaced robbery of the warden of barchester hospital! and how was he to answer this? how was he to open his inmost heart to this multitude, to these thousands, the educated, the polished, the picked men of his own country; how show them that he was no robber, no avaricious, lazy priest scrambling for gold, but a retiring, humble-spirited man, who had innocently taken what had innocently been offered to him? "write to _the jupiter_," suggested the bishop. "yes," said the archdeacon, more worldly wise than his father, "yes, and be smothered with ridicule; tossed over and over again with scorn; shaken this way and that, as a rat in the mouth of a practised terrier. you will leave out some word or letter in your answer, and the ignorance of the cathedral clergy will be harped upon; you will make some small mistake, which will be a falsehood, or some admission, which will be self-condemnation; you will find yourself to have been vulgar, ill-tempered, irreverend, and illiterate, and the chances are ten to one, but that being a clergyman, you will have been guilty of blasphemy! a man may have the best of causes, the best of talents, and the best of tempers; he may write as well as addison, or as strongly as junius; but even with all this he cannot successfully answer, when attacked by _the jupiter_. in such matters it is omnipotent. what the czar is in russia, or the mob in america, that _the jupiter_ is in england. answer such an article! no, warden; whatever you do, don't do that. we were to look for this sort of thing, you know; but we need not draw down on our heads more of it than is necessary." the article in _the jupiter_, while it so greatly harassed our poor warden, was an immense triumph to some of the opposite party. sorry as bold was to see mr harding attacked so personally, it still gave him a feeling of elation to find his cause taken up by so powerful an advocate: and as to finney, the attorney, he was beside himself. what! to be engaged in the same cause and on the same side with _the jupiter_; to have the views he had recommended seconded, and furthered, and battled for by _the jupiter_! perhaps to have his own name mentioned as that of the learned gentleman whose efforts had been so successful on behalf of the poor of barchester! he might be examined before committees of the house of commons, with heaven knows how much a day for his personal expenses;--he might be engaged for years on such a suit! there was no end to the glorious golden dreams which this leader in _the jupiter_ produced in the soaring mind of finney. and the old bedesmen, they also heard of this article, and had a glimmering, indistinct idea of the marvellous advocate which had now taken up their cause. abel handy limped hither and thither through the rooms, repeating all that he understood to have been printed, with some additions of his own which he thought should have been added. he told them how _the jupiter_ had declared that their warden was no better than a robber, and that what _the jupiter_ said was acknowledged by the world to be true. how _the jupiter_ had affirmed that each one of them--"each one of us, jonathan crumple, think of that!"--had a clear right to a hundred a year; and that if _the jupiter_ had said so, it was better than a decision of the lord chancellor: and then he carried about the paper, supplied by mr finney, which, though none of them could read it, still afforded in its very touch and aspect positive corroboration of what was told them; and jonathan crumple pondered deeply over his returning wealth; and job skulpit saw how right he had been in signing the petition, and said so many scores of times; and spriggs leered fearfully with his one eye; and moody, as he more nearly approached the coming golden age, hated more deeply than ever those who still kept possession of what he so coveted. even billy gazy and poor bed-ridden bell became active and uneasy, and the great bunce stood apart with lowering brow, with deep grief seated in his heart, for he perceived that evil days were coming. it had been decided, the archdeacon advising, that no remonstrance, explanation, or defence should be addressed from the barchester conclave to the editor of _the jupiter_; but hitherto that was the only decision to which they had come. sir abraham haphazard was deeply engaged in preparing a bill for the mortification of papists, to be called the "convent custody bill," the purport of which was to enable any protestant clergyman over fifty years of age to search any nun whom he suspected of being in possession of treasonable papers or jesuitical symbols; and as there were to be a hundred and thirty-seven clauses in the bill, each clause containing a separate thorn for the side of the papist, and as it was known the bill would be fought inch by inch, by fifty maddened irishmen, the due construction and adequate dovetailing of it did consume much of sir abraham's time. the bill had all its desired effect. of course it never passed into law; but it so completely divided the ranks of the irish members, who had bound themselves together to force on the ministry a bill for compelling all men to drink irish whiskey, and all women to wear irish poplins, that for the remainder of the session the great poplin and whiskey league was utterly harmless. thus it happened that sir abraham's opinion was not at once forthcoming, and the uncertainty, the expectation, and suffering of the folk of barchester was maintained at a high pitch. chapter viii plumstead episcopi the reader must now be requested to visit the rectory of plumstead episcopi; and as it is as yet still early morning, to ascend again with us into the bedroom of the archdeacon. the mistress of the mansion was at her toilet; on which we will not dwell with profane eyes, but proceed into a small inner room, where the doctor dressed and kept his boots and sermons; and here we will take our stand, premising that the door of the room was so open as to admit of a conversation between our reverend adam and his valued eve. "it's all your own fault, archdeacon," said the latter. "i told you from the beginning how it would end, and papa has no one to thank but you." "good gracious, my dear," said the doctor, appearing at the door of his dressing-room, with his face and head enveloped in the rough towel which he was violently using; "how can you say so? i am doing my very best." "i wish you had never done so much," said the lady, interrupting him. "if you'd just have let john bold come and go there, as he and papa liked, he and eleanor would have been married by this time, and we should not have heard one word about all this affair." "but, my dear--" "oh, it's all very well, archdeacon; and of course you're right; i don't for a moment think you'll ever admit that you could be wrong; but the fact is, you've brought this young man down upon papa by huffing him as you have done." "but, my love--" "and all because you didn't like john bold for a brother-in-law. how is she ever to do better? papa hasn't got a shilling; and though eleanor is well enough, she has not at all a taking style of beauty. i'm sure i don't know how she's to do better than marry john bold; or as well indeed," added the anxious sister, giving the last twist to her last shoe-string. dr grantly felt keenly the injustice of this attack; but what could he say? he certainly had huffed john bold; he certainly had objected to him as a brother-in-law, and a very few months ago the very idea had excited his wrath: but now matters were changed; john bold had shown his power, and, though he was as odious as ever to the archdeacon, power is always respected, and the reverend dignitary began to think that such an alliance might not have been imprudent. nevertheless, his motto was still "no surrender;" he would still fight it out; he believed confidently in oxford, in the bench of bishops, in sir abraham haphazard, and in himself; and it was only when alone with his wife that doubts of defeat ever beset him. he once more tried to communicate this confidence to mrs grantly, and for the twentieth time began to tell her of sir abraham. "oh, sir abraham!" said she, collecting all her house keys into her basket before she descended; "sir abraham won't get eleanor a husband; sir abraham won't get papa another income when he has been worreted out of the hospital. mark what i tell you, archdeacon: while you and sir abraham are fighting, papa will lose his preferment; and what will you do then with him and eleanor on your hands? besides, who's to pay sir abraham? i suppose he won't take the case up for nothing?" and so the lady descended to family worship among her children and servants, the pattern of a good and prudent wife. dr grantly was blessed with a happy, thriving family. there were, first, three boys, now at home from school for the holidays. they were called, respectively, charles james, henry, and samuel. the two younger (there were five in all) were girls; the elder, florinda, bore the name of the archbishop of york's wife, whose godchild she was: and the younger had been christened grizzel, after a sister of the archbishop of canterbury. the boys were all clever, and gave good promise of being well able to meet the cares and trials of the world; and yet they were not alike in their dispositions, and each had his individual character, and each his separate admirers among the doctor's friends. charles james was an exact and careful boy; he never committed himself; he well knew how much was expected from the eldest son of the archdeacon of barchester, and was therefore mindful not to mix too freely with other boys. he had not the great talents of his younger brothers, but he exceeded them in judgment and propriety of demeanour; his fault, if he had one, was an over-attention to words instead of things; there was a thought too much finesse about him, and, as even his father sometimes told him, he was too fond of a compromise. the second was the archdeacon's favourite son, and henry was indeed a brilliant boy. the versatility of his genius was surprising, and the visitors at plumstead episcopi were often amazed at the marvellous manner in which he would, when called on, adapt his capacity to apparently most uncongenial pursuits. he appeared once before a large circle as luther the reformer, and delighted them with the perfect manner in which he assumed the character; and within three days he again astonished them by acting the part of a capuchin friar to the very life. for this last exploit his father gave him a golden guinea, and his brothers said the reward had been promised beforehand in the event of the performance being successful. he was also sent on a tour into devonshire; a treat which the lad was most anxious of enjoying. his father's friends there, however, did not appreciate his talents, and sad accounts were sent home of the perversity of his nature. he was a most courageous lad, game to the backbone. it was soon known, both at home, where he lived, and within some miles of barchester cathedral, and also at westminster, where he was at school, that young henry could box well and would never own himself beat; other boys would fight while they had a leg to stand on, but he would fight with no leg at all. those backing him would sometimes think him crushed by the weight of blows and faint with loss of blood, and his friends would endeavour to withdraw him from the contest; but no, henry never gave in, was never weary of the battle. the ring was the only element in which he seemed to enjoy himself; and while other boys were happy in the number of their friends, he rejoiced most in the multitude of his foes. his relations could not but admire his pluck, but they sometimes were forced to regret that he was inclined to be a bully; and those not so partial to him as his father was, observed with pain that, though he could fawn to the masters and the archdeacon's friends, he was imperious and masterful to the servants and the poor. but perhaps samuel was the general favourite; and dear little soapy, as he was familiarly called, was as engaging a child as ever fond mother petted. he was soft and gentle in his manners, and attractive in his speech; the tone of his voice was melody, and every action was a grace; unlike his brothers, he was courteous to all, he was affable to the lowly, and meek even to the very scullery-maid. he was a boy of great promise, minding his books and delighting the hearts of his masters. his brothers, however, were not particularly fond of him; they would complain to their mother that soapy's civility all meant something; they thought that his voice was too often listened to at plumstead episcopi, and evidently feared that, as he grew up, he would have more weight in the house than either of them; there was, therefore, a sort of agreement among them to put young soapy down. this, however, was not so easy to be done; samuel, though young, was sharp; he could not assume the stiff decorum of charles james, nor could he fight like henry; but he was a perfect master of his own weapons, and contrived, in the teeth of both of them, to hold the place which he had assumed. henry declared that he was a false, cunning creature; and charles james, though he always spoke of him as his dear brother samuel, was not slow to say a word against him when opportunity offered. to speak the truth, samuel was a cunning boy, and those even who loved him best could not but own that for one so young, he was too adroit in choosing his words, and too skilled in modulating his voice. the two little girls florinda and grizzel were nice little girls enough, but they did not possess the strong sterling qualities of their brothers; their voices were not often heard at plumstead episcopi; they were bashful and timid by nature, slow to speak before company even when asked to do so; and though they looked very nice in their clean white muslin frocks and pink sashes, they were but little noticed by the archdeacon's visitors. whatever of submissive humility may have appeared in the gait and visage of the archdeacon during his colloquy with his wife in the sanctum of their dressing-rooms was dispelled as he entered his breakfast-parlour with erect head and powerful step. in the presence of a third person he assumed the lord and master; and that wise and talented lady too well knew the man to whom her lot for life was bound, to stretch her authority beyond the point at which it would be borne. strangers at plumstead episcopi, when they saw the imperious brow with which he commanded silence from the large circle of visitors, children, and servants who came together in the morning to hear him read the word of god, and watched how meekly that wife seated herself behind her basket of keys with a little girl on each side, as she caught that commanding glance; strangers, i say, seeing this, could little guess that some fifteen minutes since she had stoutly held her ground against him, hardly allowing him to open his mouth in his own defence. but such is the tact and talent of women! and now let us observe the well-furnished breakfast-parlour at plumstead episcopi, and the comfortable air of all the belongings of the rectory. comfortable they certainly were, but neither gorgeous nor even grand; indeed, considering the money that had been spent there, the eye and taste might have been better served; there was an air of heaviness about the rooms which might have been avoided without any sacrifice of propriety; colours might have been better chosen and lights more perfectly diffused; but perhaps in doing so the thorough clerical aspect of the whole might have been somewhat marred; at any rate, it was not without ample consideration that those thick, dark, costly carpets were put down; those embossed, but sombre papers hung up; those heavy curtains draped so as to half exclude the light of the sun: nor were these old-fashioned chairs, bought at a price far exceeding that now given for more modern goods, without a purpose. the breakfast-service on the table was equally costly and equally plain; the apparent object had been to spend money without obtaining brilliancy or splendour. the urn was of thick and solid silver, as were also the tea-pot, coffee-pot, cream-ewer, and sugar-bowl; the cups were old, dim dragon china, worth about a pound a piece, but very despicable in the eyes of the uninitiated. the silver forks were so heavy as to be disagreeable to the hand, and the bread-basket was of a weight really formidable to any but robust persons. the tea consumed was the very best, the coffee the very blackest, the cream the very thickest; there was dry toast and buttered toast, muffins and crumpets; hot bread and cold bread, white bread and brown bread, home-made bread and bakers' bread, wheaten bread and oaten bread; and if there be other breads than these, they were there; there were eggs in napkins, and crispy bits of bacon under silver covers; and there were little fishes in a little box, and devilled kidneys frizzling on a hot-water dish; which, by the bye, were placed closely contiguous to the plate of the worthy archdeacon himself. over and above this, on a snow-white napkin, spread upon the sideboard, was a huge ham and a huge sirloin; the latter having laden the dinner table on the previous evening. such was the ordinary fare at plumstead episcopi. and yet i have never found the rectory a pleasant house. the fact that man shall not live by bread alone seemed to be somewhat forgotten; and noble as was the appearance of the host, and sweet and good-natured as was the face of the hostess, talented as were the children, and excellent as were the viands and the wines, in spite of these attractions, i generally found the rectory somewhat dull. after breakfast the archdeacon would retire, of course to his clerical pursuits. mrs grantly, i presume, inspected her kitchen, though she had a first-rate housekeeper, with sixty pounds a year; and attended to the lessons of florinda and grizzel, though she had an excellent governess with thirty pounds a year: but at any rate she disappeared: and i never could make companions of the boys. charles james, though he always looked as though there was something in him, never seemed to have much to say; and what he did say he would always unsay the next minute. he told me once that he considered cricket, on the whole, to be a gentleman-like game for boys, provided they would play without running about; and that fives, also, was a seemly game, so that those who played it never heated themselves. henry once quarrelled with me for taking his sister grizzel's part in a contest between them as to the best mode of using a watering-pot for the garden flowers; and from that day to this he has not spoken to me, though he speaks at me often enough. for half an hour or so i certainly did like sammy's gentle speeches; but one gets tired of honey, and i found that he preferred the more admiring listeners whom he met in the kitchen-garden and back precincts of the establishment; besides, i think i once caught sammy fibbing. on the whole, therefore, i found the rectory a dull house, though it must be admitted that everything there was of the very best. after breakfast, on the morning of which we are writing, the archdeacon, as usual, retired to his study, intimating that he was going to be very busy, but that he would see mr chadwick if he called. on entering this sacred room he carefully opened the paper case on which he was wont to compose his favourite sermons, and spread on it a fair sheet of paper and one partly written on; he then placed his inkstand, looked at his pen, and folded his blotting paper; having done so, he got up again from his seat, stood with his back to the fire-place, and yawned comfortably, stretching out vastly his huge arms and opening his burly chest. he then walked across the room and locked the door; and having so prepared himself, he threw himself into his easy-chair, took from a secret drawer beneath his table a volume of rabelais, and began to amuse himself with the witty mischief of panurge; and so passed the archdeacon's morning on that day. he was left undisturbed at his studies for an hour or two, when a knock came to the door, and mr chadwick was announced. rabelais retired into the secret drawer, the easy-chair seemed knowingly to betake itself off, and when the archdeacon quickly undid his bolt, he was discovered by the steward working, as usual, for that church of which he was so useful a pillar. mr chadwick had just come from london, and was, therefore, known to be the bearer of important news. "we've got sir abraham's opinion at last," said mr chadwick, as he seated himself. "well, well, well!" exclaimed the archdeacon impatiently. "oh, it's as long as my arm," said the other; "it can't be told in a word, but you can read it;" and he handed him a copy, in heaven knows how many spun-out folios, of the opinion which the attorney-general had managed to cram on the back and sides of the case as originally submitted to him. "the upshot is," said chadwick, "that there's a screw loose in their case, and we had better do nothing. they are proceeding against mr harding and myself, and sir abraham holds that, under the wording of the will, and subsequent arrangements legally sanctioned, mr harding and i are only paid servants. the defendants should have been either the corporation of barchester, or possibly the chapter of your father." "w-hoo!" said the archdeacon; "so master bold is on the wrong scent, is he?" "that's sir abraham's opinion; but any scent almost would be a wrong scent. sir abraham thinks that if they'd taken the corporation, or the chapter, we could have baffled them. the bishop, he thinks, would be the surest shot; but even there we could plead that the bishop is only a visitor, and that he has never made himself a consenting party to the performance of other duties." "that's quite clear," said the archdeacon. "not quite so clear," said the other. "you see the will says, 'my lord, the bishop, being graciously pleased to see that due justice be done.' now, it may be a question whether, in accepting and administering the patronage, your father has not accepted also the other duties assigned. it is doubtful, however; but even if they hit that nail,--and they are far off from that yet,--the point is so nice, as sir abraham says, that you would force them into fifteen thousand pounds' cost before they could bring it to an issue! and where's that sum of money to come from?" the archdeacon rubbed his hands with delight; he had never doubted the justice of his case, but he had begun to have some dread of unjust success on the part of his enemies. it was delightful to him thus to hear that their cause was surrounded with such rocks and shoals; such causes of shipwreck unseen by the landsman's eye, but visible enough to the keen eyes of practical law mariners. how wrong his wife was to wish that bold should marry eleanor! bold! why, if he should be ass enough to persevere, he would be a beggar before he knew whom he was at law with! "that's excellent, chadwick;--that's excellent! i told you sir abraham was the man for us;" and he put down on the table the copy of the opinion, and patted it fondly. "don't you let that be seen, though, archdeacon." "who?--i!--not for worlds," said the doctor. "people will talk, you know, archdeacon." "of course, of course," said the doctor. "because, if that gets abroad, it would teach them how to fight their own battle." "quite true," said the doctor. "no one here in barchester ought to see that but you and i, archdeacon." "no, no, certainly no one else," said the archdeacon, pleased with the closeness of the confidence; "no one else shall." "mrs grantly is very interested in the matter, i know," said mr chadwick. did the archdeacon wink, or did he not? i am inclined to think he did not quite wink; but that without such, perhaps, unseemly gesture he communicated to mr chadwick, with the corner of his eye, intimation that, deep as was mrs grantly's interest in the matter, it should not procure for her a perusal of that document; and at the same time he partly opened the small drawer, above spoken of, deposited the paper on the volume of rabelais, and showed to mr chadwick the nature of the key which guarded these hidden treasures. the careful steward then expressed himself contented. ah! vain man! he could fasten up his rabelais, and other things secret, with all the skill of bramah or of chubb; but where could he fasten up the key which solved these mechanical mysteries? it is probable to us that the contents of no drawer in that house were unknown to its mistress, and we think, moreover, that she was entitled to all such knowledge. "but," said mr chadwick, "we must, of course, tell your father and mr harding so much of sir abraham's opinion as will satisfy them that the matter is doing well." "oh, certainly,--yes, of course," said the doctor. "you had better let them know that sir abraham is of opinion that there is no case at any rate against mr harding; and that as the action is worded at present, it must fall to the ground; they must be nonsuited, if they carry it on; you had better tell mr harding, that sir abraham is clearly of opinion that he is only a servant, and as such not liable;--or if you like it, i'll see mr harding myself." "oh, i must see him to-morrow, and my father too, and i'll explain to them exactly so much;--you won't go before lunch, mr chadwick: well, if you will, you must, for i know your time is precious;" and he shook hands with the diocesan steward, and bowed him out. the archdeacon had again recourse to his drawer, and twice read through the essence of sir abraham haphazard's law-enlightened and law-bewildered brains. it was very clear that to sir abraham, the justice of the old men's claim or the justice of mr harding's defence were ideas that had never presented themselves. a legal victory over an opposing party was the service for which sir abraham was, as he imagined, to be paid; and that he, according to his lights, had diligently laboured to achieve, and with probable hope of success. of the intense desire which mr harding felt to be assured on fit authority that he was wronging no man, that he was entitled in true equity to his income, that he might sleep at night without pangs of conscience, that he was no robber, no spoiler of the poor; that he and all the world might be openly convinced that he was not the man which _the jupiter_ had described him to be; of such longings on the part of mr harding, sir abraham was entirely ignorant; nor, indeed, could it be looked on as part of his business to gratify such desires. such was not the system on which his battles were fought, and victories gained. success was his object, and he was generally successful. he conquered his enemies by their weakness rather than by his own strength, and it had been found almost impossible to make up a case in which sir abraham, as an antagonist, would not find a flaw. the archdeacon was delighted with the closeness of the reasoning. to do him justice, it was not a selfish triumph that he desired; he would personally lose nothing by defeat, or at least what he might lose did not actuate him; but neither was it love of justice which made him so anxious, nor even mainly solicitude for his father-in-law. he was fighting a part of a never-ending battle against a never-conquered foe--that of the church against its enemies. he knew mr harding could not pay all the expense of these doings: for these long opinions of sir abraham's, these causes to be pleaded, these speeches to be made, these various courts through which the case was, he presumed, to be dragged. he knew that he and his father must at least bear the heavier portion of this tremendous cost; but to do the archdeacon justice, he did not recoil from this. he was a man fond of obtaining money, greedy of a large income, but open-handed enough in expending it, and it was a triumph to him to foresee the success of this measure, although he might be called on to pay so dearly for it himself. chapter ix the conference on the following morning the archdeacon was with his father betimes, and a note was sent down to the warden begging his attendance at the palace. dr grantly, as he cogitated on the matter, leaning back in his brougham as he journeyed into barchester, felt that it would be difficult to communicate his own satisfaction either to his father or his father-in-law. he wanted success on his own side and discomfiture on that of his enemies. the bishop wanted peace on the subject; a settled peace if possible, but peace at any rate till the short remainder of his own days had spun itself out. mr harding required not only success and peace, but he also demanded that he might stand justified before the world. the bishop, however, was comparatively easy to deal with; and before the arrival of the other, the dutiful son had persuaded his father that all was going on well, and then the warden arrived. it was mr harding's wont, whenever he spent a morning at the palace, to seat himself immediately at the bishop's elbow, the bishop occupying a huge arm-chair fitted up with candle-sticks, a reading table, a drawer, and other paraphernalia, the position of which chair was never moved, summer or winter; and when, as was usual, the archdeacon was there also, he confronted the two elders, who thus were enabled to fight the battle against him together;--and together submit to defeat, for such was their constant fate. our warden now took his accustomed place, having greeted his son-in-law as he entered, and then affectionately inquired after his friend's health. there was a gentleness about the bishop to which the soft womanly affection of mr harding particularly endeared itself, and it was quaint to see how the two mild old priests pressed each other's hand, and smiled and made little signs of love. "sir abraham's opinion has come at last," began the archdeacon. mr harding had heard so much, and was most anxious to know the result. "it is quite favourable," said the bishop, pressing his friend's arm. "i am so glad." mr harding looked at the mighty bearer of the important news for confirmation of these glad tidings. "yes," said the archdeacon; "sir abraham has given most minute attention to the case; indeed, i knew he would;--most minute attention; and his opinion is,--and as to his opinion on such a subject being correct, no one who knows sir abraham's character can doubt,--his opinion is, that they hav'n't got a leg to stand on." "but as how, archdeacon?" "why, in the first place:--but you're no lawyer, warden, and i doubt you won't understand it; the gist of the matter is this:--under hiram's will two paid guardians have been selected for the hospital; the law will say two paid servants, and you and i won't quarrel with the name." "at any rate i will not if i am one of the servants," said mr harding. "a rose, you know--" "yes, yes," said the archdeacon, impatient of poetry at such a time. "well, two paid servants, we'll say; one to look after the men, and the other to look after the money. you and chadwick are these two servants, and whether either of you be paid too much, or too little, more or less in fact than the founder willed, it's as clear as daylight that no one can fall foul of either of you for receiving an allotted stipend." "that does seem clear," said the bishop, who had winced visibly at the words servants and stipend, which, however, appeared to have caused no uneasiness to the archdeacon. "quite clear," said he, "and very satisfactory. in point of fact, it being necessary to select such servants for the use of the hospital, the pay to be given to them must depend on the rate of pay for such services, according to their market value at the period in question; and those who manage the hospital must be the only judges of this." "and who does manage the hospital?" asked the warden. "oh, let them find that out; that's another question: the action is brought against you and chadwick; that's your defence, and a perfect and full defence it is. now that i think very satisfactory." "well," said the bishop, looking inquiringly up into his friend's face, who sat silent awhile, and apparently not so well satisfied. "and conclusive," continued the archdeacon; "if they press it to a jury, which they won't do, no twelve men in england will take five minutes to decide against them." "but according to that," said mr harding, "i might as well have sixteen hundred a year as eight, if the managers choose to allot it to me; and as i am one of the managers, if not the chief manager, myself, that can hardly be a just arrangement." "oh, well; all that's nothing to the question. the question is, whether this intruding fellow, and a lot of cheating attorneys and pestilent dissenters, are to interfere with an arrangement which everyone knows is essentially just and serviceable to the church. pray don't let us be splitting hairs, and that amongst ourselves, or there'll never be an end of the cause or the cost." mr harding again sat silent for a while, during which the bishop once and again pressed his arm, and looked in his face to see if he could catch a gleam of a contented and eased mind; but there was no such gleam, and the poor warden continued playing sad dirges on invisible stringed instruments in all manner of positions; he was ruminating in his mind on this opinion of sir abraham, looking to it wearily and earnestly for satisfaction, but finding none. at last he said, "did you see the opinion, archdeacon?" the archdeacon said he had not,--that was to say, he had,--that was, he had not seen the opinion itself; he had seen what had been called a copy, but he could not say whether of a whole or part; nor could he say that what he had seen were the _ipsissima verba_ of the great man himself; but what he had seen contained exactly the decision which he had announced, and which he again declared to be to his mind extremely satisfactory. "i should like to see the opinion," said the warden; "that is, a copy of it." "well, i suppose you can if you make a point of it; but i don't see the use myself; of course it is essential that the purport of it should not be known, and it is therefore unadvisable to multiply copies." "why should it not be known?" asked the warden. "what a question for a man to ask!" said the archdeacon, throwing up his hands in token of his surprise; "but it is like you:--a child is not more innocent than you are in matters of business. can't you see that if we tell them that no action will lie against you, but that one may possibly lie against some other person or persons, that we shall be putting weapons into their hands, and be teaching them how to cut our own throats?" the warden again sat silent, and the bishop again looked at him wistfully. "the only thing we have now to do," continued the archdeacon, "is to remain quiet, hold our peace, and let them play their own game as they please." "we are not to make known then," said the warden, "that we have consulted the attorney-general, and that we are advised by him that the founder's will is fully and fairly carried out." "god bless my soul!" said the archdeacon, "how odd it is that you will not see that all we are to do is to do nothing: why should we say anything about the founder's will? we are in possession; and we know that they are not in a position to put us out; surely that is enough for the present." mr harding rose from his seat and paced thoughtfully up and down the library, the bishop the while watching him painfully at every turn, and the archdeacon continuing to pour forth his convictions that the affair was in a state to satisfy any prudent mind. "and _the jupiter_?" said the warden, stopping suddenly. "oh! _the jupiter_," answered the other. "_the jupiter_ can break no bones. you must bear with that; there is much, of course, which it is our bounden duty to bear; it cannot be all roses for us here," and the archdeacon looked exceedingly moral; "besides, the matter is too trivial, of too little general interest to be mentioned again in _the jupiter_, unless we stir up the subject." and the archdeacon again looked exceedingly knowing and worldly wise. the warden continued his walk; the hard and stinging words of that newspaper article, each one of which had thrust a thorn as it were into his inmost soul, were fresh in his memory; he had read it more than once, word by word, and what was worse, he fancied it was as well known to everyone as to himself. was he to be looked on as the unjust griping priest he had been there described? was he to be pointed at as the consumer of the bread of the poor, and to be allowed no means of refuting such charges, of clearing his begrimed name, of standing innocent in the world, as hitherto he had stood? was he to bear all this, to receive as usual his now hated income, and be known as one of those greedy priests who by their rapacity have brought disgrace on their church? and why? why should he bear all this? why should he die, for he felt that he could not live, under such a weight of obloquy? as he paced up and down the room he resolved in his misery and enthusiasm that he could with pleasure, if he were allowed, give up his place, abandon his pleasant home, leave the hospital, and live poorly, happily, and with an unsullied name, on the small remainder of his means. he was a man somewhat shy of speaking of himself, even before those who knew him best, and whom he loved the most; but at last it burst forth from him, and with a somewhat jerking eloquence he declared that he could not, would not, bear this misery any longer. "if it can be proved," said he at last, "that i have a just and honest right to this, as god well knows i always deemed i had; if this salary or stipend be really my due, i am not less anxious than another to retain it. i have the well-being of my child to look to. i am too old to miss without some pain the comforts to which i have been used; and i am, as others are, anxious to prove to the world that i have been right, and to uphold the place i have held; but i cannot do it at such a cost as this. i cannot bear this. could you tell me to do so?" and he appealed, almost in tears, to the bishop, who had left his chair, and was now leaning on the warden's arm as he stood on the further side of the table facing the archdeacon. "could you tell me to sit there at ease, indifferent, and satisfied, while such things as these are said loudly of me in the world?" the bishop could feel for him and sympathise with him, but he could not advise him; he could only say, "no, no, you shall be asked to do nothing that is painful; you shall do just what your heart tells you to be right; you shall do whatever you think best yourself. theophilus, don't advise him, pray don't advise the warden to do anything which is painful." but the archdeacon, though he could not sympathise, could advise; and he saw that the time had come when it behoved him to do so in a somewhat peremptory manner. "why, my lord," he said, speaking to his father;--and when he called his father "my lord," the good old bishop shook in his shoes, for he knew that an evil time was coming. "why, my lord, there are two ways of giving advice: there is advice that may be good for the present day; and there is advice that may be good for days to come: now i cannot bring myself to give the former, if it be incompatible with the other." "no, no, no, i suppose not," said the bishop, re-seating himself, and shading his face with his hands. mr harding sat down with his back to the further wall, playing to himself some air fitted for so calamitous an occasion, and the archdeacon said out his say standing, with his back to the empty fire-place. "it is not to be supposed but that much pain will spring out of this unnecessarily raised question. we must all have foreseen that, and the matter has in no wise gone on worse than we expected; but it will be weak, yes, and wicked also, to abandon the cause and own ourselves wrong, because the inquiry is painful. it is not only ourselves we have to look to; to a certain extent the interest of the church is in our keeping. should it be found that one after another of those who hold preferment abandoned it whenever it might be attacked, is it not plain that such attacks would be renewed till nothing was left us? and, that if so deserted, the church of england must fall to the ground altogether? if this be true of many, it is true of one. were you, accused as you now are, to throw up the wardenship, and to relinquish the preferment which is your property, with the vain object of proving yourself disinterested, you would fail in that object, you would inflict a desperate blow on your brother clergymen, you would encourage every cantankerous dissenter in england to make a similar charge against some source of clerical revenue, and you would do your best to dishearten those who are most anxious to defend you and uphold your position. i can fancy nothing more weak, or more wrong. it is not that you think that there is any justice in these charges, or that you doubt your own right to the wardenship: you are convinced of your own honesty, and yet would yield to them through cowardice." "cowardice!" said the bishop, expostulating. mr harding sat unmoved, gazing on his son-in-law. "well; would it not be cowardice? would he not do so because he is afraid to endure the evil things which will be falsely spoken of him? would that not be cowardice? and now let us see the extent of the evil which you dread. the _jupiter_ publishes an article which a great many, no doubt, will read; but of those who understand the subject how many will believe _the jupiter_? everyone knows what its object is: it has taken up the case against lord guildford and against the dean of rochester, and that against half a dozen bishops; and does not everyone know that it would take up any case of the kind, right or wrong, false or true, with known justice or known injustice, if by doing so it could further its own views? does not all the world know this of _the jupiter_? who that really knows you will think the worse of you for what _the jupiter_ says? and why care for those who do not know you? i will say nothing of your own comfort, but i do say that you could not be justified in throwing up, in a fit of passion, for such it would be, the only maintenance that eleanor has; and if you did so, if you really did vacate the wardenship, and submit to ruin, what would that profit you? if you have no future right to the income, you have had no past right to it; and the very fact of your abandoning your position would create a demand for repayment of that which you have already received and spent." the poor warden groaned as he sat perfectly still, looking up at the hard-hearted orator who thus tormented him, and the bishop echoed the sound faintly from behind his hands; but the archdeacon cared little for such signs of weakness, and completed his exhortation. "but let us suppose the office to be left vacant, and that your own troubles concerning it were over; would that satisfy you? are your only aspirations in the matter confined to yourself and family? i know they are not. i know you are as anxious as any of us for the church to which we belong; and what a grievous blow would such an act of apostasy give her! you owe it to the church of which you are a member and a minister, to bear with this affliction, however severe it may be: you owe it to my father, who instituted you, to support his rights: you owe it to those who preceded you to assert the legality of their position; you owe it to those who are to come after you, to maintain uninjured for them that which you received uninjured from others; and you owe to us all the unflinching assistance of perfect brotherhood in this matter, so that upholding one another we may support our great cause without blushing and without disgrace." and so the archdeacon ceased, and stood self-satisfied, watching the effect of his spoken wisdom. the warden felt himself, to a certain extent, stifled; he would have given the world to get himself out into the open air without speaking to, or noticing those who were in the room with him; but this was impossible. he could not leave without saying something, and he felt himself confounded by the archdeacon's eloquence. there was a heavy, unfeeling, unanswerable truth in what he had said; there was so much practical, but odious common sense in it, that he neither knew how to assent or to differ. if it were necessary for him to suffer, he felt that he could endure without complaint and without cowardice, providing that he was self-satisfied of the justice of his own cause. what he could not endure was, that he should be accused by others, and not acquitted by himself. doubting, as he had begun to doubt, the justice of his own position in the hospital, he knew that his own self-confidence would not be restored because mr bold had been in error as to some legal form; nor could he be satisfied to escape, because, through some legal fiction, he who received the greatest benefit from the hospital might be considered only as one of its servants. the archdeacon's speech had silenced him,--stupefied him,--annihilated him; anything but satisfied him. with the bishop it fared not much better. he did not discern clearly how things were, but he saw enough to know that a battle was to be prepared for; a battle that would destroy his few remaining comforts, and bring him with sorrow to the grave. the warden still sat, and still looked at the archdeacon, till his thoughts fixed themselves wholly on the means of escape from his present position, and he felt like a bird fascinated by gazing on a snake. "i hope you agree with me," said the archdeacon at last, breaking the dread silence; "my lord, i hope you agree with me." oh, what a sigh the bishop gave! "my lord, i hope you agree with me," again repeated the merciless tyrant. "yes, i suppose so," groaned the poor old man, slowly. "and you, warden?" mr harding was now stirred to action;--he must speak and move, so he got up and took one turn before he answered. "do not press me for an answer just at present; i will do nothing lightly in the matter, and of whatever i do i will give you and the bishop notice." and so without another word he took his leave, escaping quickly through the palace hall, and down the lofty steps; nor did he breathe freely till he found himself alone under the huge elms of the silent close. here he walked long and slowly, thinking on his case with a troubled air, and trying in vain to confute the archdeacon's argument. he then went home, resolved to bear it all,--ignominy, suspense, disgrace, self-doubt, and heart-burning,-- and to do as those would have him, who he still believed were most fit and most able to counsel him aright. chapter x tribulation mr harding was a sadder man than he had ever yet been when he returned to his own house. he had been wretched enough on that well-remembered morning when he was forced to expose before his son-in-law the publisher's account for ushering into the world his dear book of sacred music: when after making such payments as he could do unassisted, he found that he was a debtor of more than three hundred pounds; but his sufferings then were as nothing to his present misery;--then he had done wrong, and he knew it, and was able to resolve that he would not sin in like manner again; but now he could make no resolution, and comfort himself by no promises of firmness. he had been forced to think that his lot had placed him in a false position, and he was about to maintain that position against the opinion of the world and against his own convictions. he had read with pity, amounting almost to horror, the strictures which had appeared from time to time against the earl of guildford as master of st cross, and the invectives that had been heaped on rich diocesan dignitaries and overgrown sinecure pluralists. in judging of them, he judged leniently; the whole bias of his profession had taught him to think that they were more sinned against than sinning, and that the animosity with which they had been pursued was venomous and unjust; but he had not the less regarded their plight as most miserable. his hair had stood on end and his flesh had crept as he read the things which had been written; he had wondered how men could live under such a load of disgrace; how they could face their fellow-creatures while their names were bandied about so injuriously and so publicly;--and now this lot was to be his,--he, that shy, retiring man, who had so comforted himself in the hidden obscurity of his lot, who had so enjoyed the unassuming warmth of his own little corner,--he was now dragged forth into the glaring day, and gibbeted before ferocious multitudes. he entered his own house a crestfallen, humiliated man, without a hope of overcoming the wretchedness which affected him. he wandered into the drawing-room where was his daughter; but he could not speak to her now, so he left it, and went into the book-room. he was not quick enough to escape eleanor's glance, or to prevent her from seeing that he was disturbed; and in a little while she followed him. she found him seated in his accustomed chair with no book open before him, no pen ready in his hand, no ill-shapen notes of blotted music lying before him as was usual, none of those hospital accounts with which he was so precise and yet so unmethodical: he was doing nothing, thinking of nothing, looking at nothing; he was merely suffering. "leave me, eleanor, my dear," he said; "leave me, my darling, for a few minutes, for i am busy." eleanor saw well how it was, but she did leave him, and glided silently back to her drawing-room. when he had sat a while, thus alone and unoccupied, he got up to walk again;--he could make more of his thoughts walking than sitting, and was creeping out into his garden, when he met bunce on the threshold. "well, bunce," said he, in a tone that for him was sharp, "what is it? do you want me?" "i was only coming to ask after your reverence," said the old bedesman, touching his hat; "and to inquire about the news from london," he added after a pause. the warden winced, and put his hand to his forehead and felt bewildered. "attorney finney has been there this morning," continued bunce, "and by his looks i guess he is not so well pleased as he once was, and it has got abroad somehow that the archdeacon has had down great news from london, and handy and moody are both as black as devils. and i hope," said the man, trying to assume a cheery tone, "that things are looking up, and that there'll be an end soon to all this stuff which bothers your reverence so sorely." "well, i wish there may be, bunce." "but about the news, your reverence?" said the old man, almost whispering. mr harding walked on, and shook his head impatiently. poor bunce little knew how he was tormenting his patron. "if there was anything to cheer you, i should be so glad to know it," said he, with a tone of affection which the warden in all his misery could not resist. he stopped, and took both the old man's hands in his. "my friend," said he, "my dear old friend, there is nothing; there is no news to cheer me;--god's will be done": and two small hot tears broke away from his eyes and stole down his furrowed cheeks. "then god's will be done," said the other solemnly; "but they told me that there was good news from london, and i came to wish your reverence joy; but god's will be done;" and so the warden again walked on, and the bedesman, looking wistfully after him and receiving no encouragement to follow, returned sadly to his own abode. for a couple of hours the warden remained thus in the garden, now walking, now standing motionless on the turf, and then, as his legs got weary, sitting unconsciously on the garden seats, and then walking again. and eleanor, hidden behind the muslin curtains of the window, watched him through the trees as he now came in sight, and then again was concealed by the turnings of the walk; and thus the time passed away till five, when the warden crept back to the house and prepared for dinner. it was but a sorry meal. the demure parlour-maid, as she handed the dishes and changed the plates, saw that all was not right, and was more demure than ever: neither father nor daughter could eat, and the hateful food was soon cleared away, and the bottle of port placed upon the table. "would you like bunce to come in, papa?" said eleanor, thinking that the company of the old man might lighten his sorrow. "no, my dear, thank you, not to-day; but are not you going out, eleanor, this lovely afternoon? don't stay in for me, my dear." "i thought you seemed so sad, papa." "sad," said he, irritated; "well, people must all have their share of sadness here; i am not more exempt than another: but kiss me, dearest, and go now; i will, if possible, be more sociable when you return." and eleanor was again banished from her father's sorrow. ah! her desire now was not to find him happy, but to be allowed to share his sorrows; not to force him to be sociable, but to persuade him to be trustful. she put on her bonnet as desired, and went up to mary bold; this was now her daily haunt, for john bold was up in london among lawyers and church reformers, diving deep into other questions than that of the wardenship of barchester; supplying information to one member of parliament, and dining with another; subscribing to funds for the abolition of clerical incomes, and seconding at that great national meeting at the crown and anchor a resolution to the effect, that no clergyman of the church of england, be he who he might, should have more than a thousand a year, and none less than two hundred and fifty. his speech on this occasion was short, for fifteen had to speak, and the room was hired for two hours only, at the expiration of which the quakers and mr cobden were to make use of it for an appeal to the public in aid of the emperor of russia; but it was sharp and effective; at least he was told so by a companion with whom he now lived much, and on whom he greatly depended,--one tom towers, a very leading genius, and supposed to have high employment on the staff of _the jupiter_. so eleanor, as was now her wont, went up to mary bold, and mary listened kindly, while the daughter spoke much of her father, and, perhaps kinder still, found a listener in eleanor, while she spoke about her brother. in the meantime the warden sat alone, leaning on the arm of his chair; he had poured out a glass of wine, but had done so merely from habit, for he left it untouched; there he sat gazing at the open window, and thinking, if he can be said to have thought, of the happiness of his past life. all manner of past delights came before his mind, which at the time he had enjoyed without considering them; his easy days, his absence of all kind of hard work, his pleasant shady home, those twelve old neighbours whose welfare till now had been the source of so much pleasant care, the excellence of his children, the friendship of the dear old bishop, the solemn grandeur of those vaulted aisles, through which he loved to hear his own voice pealing; and then that friend of friends, that choice ally that had never deserted him, that eloquent companion that would always, when asked, discourse such pleasant music, that violoncello of his;--ah, how happy he had been! but it was over now; his easy days and absence of work had been the crime which brought on him his tribulation; his shady home was pleasant no longer; maybe it was no longer his; the old neighbours, whose welfare had been so desired by him, were his enemies; his daughter was as wretched as himself; and even the bishop was made miserable by his position. he could never again lift up his voice boldly as he had hitherto done among his brethren, for he felt that he was disgraced; and he feared even to touch his bow, for he knew how grievous a sound of wailing, how piteous a lamentation, it would produce. he was still sitting in the same chair and the same posture, having hardly moved a limb for two hours, when eleanor came back to tea, and succeeded in bringing him with her into the drawing-room. the tea seemed as comfortless as the dinner, though the warden, who had hitherto eaten nothing all day, devoured the plateful of bread and butter, unconscious of what he was doing. eleanor had made up her mind to force him to talk to her, but she hardly knew how to commence: she must wait till the urn was gone, till the servant would no longer be coming in and out. at last everything was gone, and the drawing-room door was permanently closed; then eleanor, getting up and going round to her father, put her arm round his neck, and said, "papa, won't you tell me what it is?" "what what is, my dear?" "this new sorrow that torments you; i know you are unhappy, papa." "new sorrow! it's no new sorrow, my dear; we have all our cares sometimes;" and he tried to smile, but it was a ghastly failure; "but i shouldn't be so dull a companion; come, we'll have some music." "no, papa, not tonight,--it would only trouble you tonight;" and she sat upon his knee, as she sometimes would in their gayest moods, and with her arm round his neck, she said: "papa, i will not leave you till you talk to me; oh, if you only knew how much good it would do to you, to tell me of it all." the father kissed his daughter, and pressed her to his heart; but still he said nothing: it was so hard to him to speak of his own sorrows; he was so shy a man even with his own child! "oh, papa, do tell me what it is; i know it is about the hospital, and what they are doing up in london, and what that cruel newspaper has said; but if there be such cause for sorrow, let us be sorrowful together; we are all in all to each other now: dear, dear papa, do speak to me." mr harding could not well speak now, for the warm tears were running down his cheeks like rain in may, but he held his child close to his heart, and squeezed her hand as a lover might, and she kissed his forehead and his wet cheeks, and lay upon his bosom, and comforted him as a woman only can do. "my own child," he said, as soon as his tears would let him speak, "my own, own child, why should you too be unhappy before it is necessary? it may come to that, that we must leave this place, but till that time comes, why should your young days be clouded?" "and is that all, papa? if that be all, let us leave it, and have light hearts elsewhere: if that be all, let us go. oh, papa, you and i could be happy if we had only bread to eat, so long as our hearts were light." and eleanor's face was lighted up with enthusiasm as she told her father how he might banish all his care; and a gleam of joy shot across his brow as this idea of escape again presented itself, and he again fancied for a moment that he could spurn away from him the income which the world envied him; that he could give the lie to that wielder of the tomahawk who had dared to write such things of him in _the jupiter_; that he could leave sir abraham, and the archdeacon, and bold, and the rest of them with their lawsuit among them, and wipe his hands altogether of so sorrow-stirring a concern. ah, what happiness might there be in the distance, with eleanor and him in some small cottage, and nothing left of their former grandeur but their music! yes, they would walk forth with their music books, and their instruments, and shaking the dust from off their feet as they went, leave the ungrateful place. never did a poor clergyman sigh for a warm benefice more anxiously than our warden did now to be rid of his. "give it up, papa," she said again, jumping from his knees and standing on her feet before him, looking boldly into his face; "give it up, papa." oh, it was sad to see how that momentary gleam of joy passed away; how the look of hope was dispersed from that sorrowful face, as the remembrance of the archdeacon came back upon our poor warden, and he reflected that he could not stir from his now hated post. he was as a man bound with iron, fettered with adamant: he was in no respect a free agent; he had no choice. "give it up!" oh if he only could: what an easy way that were out of all his troubles! "papa, don't doubt about it," she continued, thinking that his hesitation arose from his unwillingness to abandon so comfortable a home; "is it on my account that you would stay here? do you think that i cannot be happy without a pony-carriage and a fine drawing-room? papa, i never can be happy here, as long as there is a question as to your honour in staying here; but i could be gay as the day is long in the smallest tiny little cottage, if i could see you come in and go out with a light heart. oh! papa, your face tells so much; though you won't speak to me with your voice, i know how it is with you every time i look at you." how he pressed her to his heart again with almost a spasmodic pressure! how he kissed her as the tears fell like rain from his old eyes! how he blessed her, and called her by a hundred soft sweet names which now came new to his lips! how he chid himself for ever having been unhappy with such a treasure in his house, such a jewel on his bosom, with so sweet a flower in the choice garden of his heart! and then the floodgates of his tongue were loosed, and, at length, with unsparing detail of circumstances, he told her all that he wished, and all that he could not do. he repeated those arguments of the archdeacon, not agreeing in their truth, but explaining his inability to escape from them;--how it had been declared to him that he was bound to remain where he was by the interests of his order, by gratitude to the bishop, by the wishes of his friends, by a sense of duty, which, though he could not understand it, he was fain to acknowledge. he told her how he had been accused of cowardice, and though he was not a man to make much of such a charge before the world, now in the full candour of his heart he explained to her that such an accusation was grievous to him; that he did think it would be unmanly to desert his post, merely to escape his present sufferings, and that, therefore, he must bear as best he might the misery which was prepared for him. and did she find these details tedious? oh, no; she encouraged him to dilate on every feeling he expressed, till he laid bare the inmost corners of his heart to her. they spoke together of the archdeacon, as two children might of a stern, unpopular, but still respected schoolmaster, and of the bishop as a parent kind as kind could be, but powerless against an omnipotent pedagogue. and then when they had discussed all this, when the father had told all to the child, she could not be less confiding than he had been; and as john bold's name was mentioned between them, she owned how well she had learned to love him,--"had loved him once," she said, "but she would not, could not do so now--no, even had her troth been plighted to him, she would have taken it back again;--had she sworn to love him as his wife, she would have discarded him, and not felt herself forsworn, when he proved himself the enemy of her father." but the warden declared that bold was no enemy of his, and encouraged her love; and gently rebuked, as he kissed her, the stern resolve she had made to cast him off; and then he spoke to her of happier days when their trials would all be over; and declared that her young heart should not be torn asunder to please either priest or prelate, dean or archdeacon. no, not if all oxford were to convocate together, and agree as to the necessity of the sacrifice. and so they greatly comforted each other;--and in what sorrow will not such mutual confidence give consolation!--and with a last expression of tender love they parted, and went comparatively happy to their rooms. chapter xi iphigenia when eleanor laid her head on her pillow that night, her mind was anxiously intent on some plan by which she might extricate her father from his misery; and, in her warm-hearted enthusiasm, self-sacrifice was decided on as the means to be adopted. was not so good an agamemnon worthy of an iphigenia? she would herself personally implore john bold to desist from his undertaking; she would explain to him her father's sorrows, the cruel misery of his position; she would tell him how her father would die if he were thus dragged before the public and exposed to such unmerited ignominy; she would appeal to his old friendship, to his generosity, to his manliness, to his mercy; if need were, she would kneel to him for the favour she would ask; but before she did this the idea of love must be banished. there must be no bargain in the matter. to his mercy, to his generosity, she could appeal; but as a pure maiden, hitherto even unsolicited, she could not appeal to his love, nor under such circumstances could she allow him to do so. of course, when so provoked he would declare his passion; that was to be expected; there had been enough between them to make such a fact sure; but it was equally certain that he must be rejected. she could not be understood as saying, make my father free and i am the reward. there would be no sacrifice in that;--not so had jephthah's daughter saved her father;--not so could she show to that kindest, dearest of parents how much she was able to bear for his good. no; to one resolve must her whole soul be bound; and so resolving, she felt that she could make her great request to bold with as much self-assured confidence as she could have done to his grandfather. and now i own i have fears for my heroine; not as to the upshot of her mission,--not in the least as to that; as to the full success of her generous scheme, and the ultimate result of such a project, no one conversant with human nature and novels can have a doubt; but as to the amount of sympathy she may receive from those of her own sex. girls below twenty and old ladies above sixty will do her justice; for in the female heart the soft springs of sweet romance reopen after many years, and again gush out with waters pure as in earlier days, and greatly refresh the path that leads downwards to the grave. but i fear that the majority of those between these two eras will not approve of eleanor's plan. i fear that unmarried ladies of thirty-five will declare that there can be no probability of so absurd a project being carried through; that young women on their knees before their lovers are sure to get kissed, and that they would not put themselves in such a position did they not expect it; that eleanor is going to bold only because circumstances prevent bold from coming to her; that she is certainly a little fool, or a little schemer, but that in all probability she is thinking a good deal more about herself than her father. dear ladies, you are right as to your appreciation of the circumstances, but very wrong as to miss harding's character. miss harding was much younger than you are, and could not, therefore, know, as you may do, to what dangers such an encounter might expose her. she may get kissed; i think it very probable that she will; but i give my solemn word and positive assurance, that the remotest idea of such a catastrophe never occurred to her as she made the great resolve now alluded to. and then she slept; and then she rose refreshed; and met her father with her kindest embrace and most loving smiles; and on the whole their breakfast was by no means so triste as had been their dinner the day before; and then, making some excuse to her father for so soon leaving him, she started on the commencement of her operations. she knew that john bold was in london, and that, therefore, the scene itself could not be enacted to-day; but she also knew that he was soon to be home, probably on the next day, and it was necessary that some little plan for meeting him should be concerted with his sister mary. when she got up to the house, she went, as usual, into the morning sitting-room, and was startled by perceiving, by a stick, a greatcoat, and sundry parcels which were lying about, that bold must already have returned. "john has come back so suddenly," said mary, coming into the room; "he has been travelling all night." "then i'll come up again some other time," said eleanor, about to beat a retreat in her sudden dismay. "he's out now, and will be for the next two hours," said the other; "he's with that horrid finney; he only came to see him, and he returns by the mail train tonight." returns by the mail train tonight, thought eleanor to herself, as she strove to screw up her courage;--away again tonight;--then it must be now or never; and she again sat down, having risen to go. she wished the ordeal could have been postponed: she had fully made up her mind to do the deed, but she had not made up her mind to do it this very day; and now she felt ill at ease, astray, and in difficulty. "mary," she began, "i must see your brother before he goes back." "oh yes, of course," said the other; "i know he'll be delighted to see you;" and she tried to treat it as a matter of course, but she was not the less surprised; for mary and eleanor had daily talked over john bold and his conduct, and his love, and mary would insist on calling eleanor her sister, and would scold her for not calling bold by his christian name; and eleanor would half confess her love, but like a modest maiden would protest against such familiarities even with the name of her lover; and so they talked hour after hour, and mary bold, who was much the elder, looked forward with happy confidence to the day when eleanor would not be ashamed to call her her sister. she was, however, fully sure that just at present eleanor would be much more likely to avoid her brother than to seek him. "mary, i must see your brother, now, to-day, and beg from him a great favour;" and she spoke with a solemn air, not at all usual to her; and then she went on, and opened to her friend all her plan, her well-weighed scheme for saving her father from a sorrow which would, she said, if it lasted, bring him to his grave. "but, mary," she continued, "you must now, you know, cease any joking about me and mr bold; you must now say no more about that; i am not ashamed to beg this favour from your brother, but when i have done so, there can never be anything further between us;" and this she said with a staid and solemn air, quite worthy of jephthah's daughter or of iphigenia either. it was quite clear that mary bold did not follow the argument. that eleanor harding should appeal, on behalf of her father, to bold's better feelings seemed to mary quite natural; it seemed quite natural that he should relent, overcome by such filial tears, and by so much beauty; but, to her thinking, it was at any rate equally natural, that having relented, john should put his arm round his mistress's waist, and say: "now having settled that, let us be man and wife, and all will end happily!" why his good nature should not be rewarded, when such reward would operate to the disadvantage of none, mary, who had more sense than romance, could not understand; and she said as much. eleanor, however, was firm, and made quite an eloquent speech to support her own view of the question: she could not condescend, she said, to ask such a favour on any other terms than those proposed. mary might, perhaps, think her high-flown, but she had her own ideas, and she could not submit to sacrifice her self-respect. "but i am sure you love him;--don't you?" pleaded mary; "and i am sure he loves you better than anything in the world." eleanor was going to make another speech, but a tear came to each eye, and she could not; so she pretended to blow her nose, and walked to the window, and made a little inward call on her own courage, and finding herself somewhat sustained, said sententiously: "mary, this is nonsense." "but you do love him," said mary, who had followed her friend to the window, and now spoke with her arms close wound round the other's waist. "you do love him with all your heart,--you know you do; i defy you to deny it." "i--" commenced eleanor, turning sharply round to refute the charge; but the intended falsehood stuck in her throat, and never came to utterance. she could not deny her love, so she took plentifully to tears, and leant upon her friend's bosom and sobbed there, and protested that, love or no love, it would make no difference in her resolve, and called mary, a thousand times, the most cruel of girls, and swore her to secrecy by a hundred oaths, and ended by declaring that the girl who could betray her friend's love, even to a brother, would be as black a traitor as a soldier in a garrison who should open the city gates to the enemy. while they were yet discussing the matter, bold returned, and eleanor was forced into sudden action: she had either to accomplish or abandon her plan; and having slipped into her friend's bedroom, as the gentleman closed the hall door, she washed the marks of tears from her eyes, and resolved within herself to go through with it. "tell him i am here," said she, "and coming in; and mind, whatever you do, don't leave us." so mary informed her brother, with a somewhat sombre air, that miss harding was in the next room, and was coming to speak to him. eleanor was certainly thinking more of her father than herself, as she arranged her hair before the glass, and removed the traces of sorrow from her face; and yet i should be untrue if i said that she was not anxious to appear well before her lover: why else was she so sedulous with that stubborn curl that would rebel against her hand, and smooth so eagerly her ruffled ribands? why else did she damp her eyes to dispel the redness, and bite her pretty lips to bring back the colour? of course she was anxious to look her best, for she was but a mortal angel after all. but had she been immortal, had she flitted back to the sitting-room on a cherub's wings, she could not have had a more faithful heart, or a truer wish to save her father at any cost to herself. john bold had not met her since the day when she left him in dudgeon in the cathedral close. since then his whole time had been occupied in promoting the cause against her father, and not unsuccessfully. he had often thought of her, and turned over in his mind a hundred schemes for showing her how disinterested was his love. he would write to her and beseech her not to allow the performance of a public duty to injure him in her estimation; he would write to mr harding, explain all his views, and boldly claim the warden's daughter, urging that the untoward circumstances between them need be no bar to their ancient friendship, or to a closer tie; he would throw himself on his knees before his mistress; he would wait and marry the daughter when the father has lost his home and his income; he would give up the lawsuit and go to australia, with her of course, leaving _the jupiter_ and mr finney to complete the case between them. sometimes as he woke in the morning fevered and impatient, he would blow out his brains and have done with all his cares;--but this idea was generally consequent on an imprudent supper enjoyed in company with tom towers. how beautiful eleanor appeared to him as she slowly walked into the room! not for nothing had all those little cares been taken. though her sister, the archdeacon's wife, had spoken slightingly of her charms, eleanor was very beautiful when seen aright. hers was not of those impassive faces, which have the beauty of a marble bust; finely chiselled features, perfect in every line, true to the rules of symmetry, as lovely to a stranger as to a friend, unvarying unless in sickness, or as age affects them. she had no startling brilliancy of beauty, no pearly whiteness, no radiant carnation. she had not the majestic contour that rivets attention, demands instant wonder, and then disappoints by the coldness of its charms. you might pass eleanor harding in the street without notice, but you could hardly pass an evening with her and not lose your heart. she had never appeared more lovely to her lover than she now did. her face was animated though it was serious, and her full dark lustrous eyes shone with anxious energy; her hand trembled as she took his, and she could hardly pronounce his name, when she addressed him. bold wished with all his heart that the australian scheme was in the act of realisation, and that he and eleanor were away together, never to hear further of the lawsuit. he began to talk, asked after her health,--said something about london being very stupid, and more about barchester being very pleasant; declared the weather to be very hot, and then inquired after mr harding. "my father is not very well," said eleanor. john bold was very sorry,--so sorry: he hoped it was nothing serious, and put on the unmeaningly solemn face which people usually use on such occasions. "i especially want to speak to you about my father, mr bold; indeed, i am now here on purpose to do so. papa is very unhappy, very unhappy indeed, about this affair of the hospital: you would pity him, mr bold, if you could see how wretched it has made him." "oh, miss harding!" "indeed you would;--anyone would pity him; but a friend, an old friend as you are,--indeed you would. he is an altered man; his cheerfulness has all gone, and his sweet temper, and his kind happy tone of voice; you would hardly know him if you saw him, mr bold, he is so much altered; and--and--if this goes on, he will die." here eleanor had recourse to her handkerchief, and so also had her auditors; but she plucked up her courage, and went on with her tale. "he will break his heart, and die. i am sure, mr bold, it was not you who wrote those cruel things in the newspaper--" john bold eagerly protested that it was not, but his heart smote him as to his intimate alliance with tom towers. "no, i am sure it was not; and papa has not for a moment thought so; you would not be so cruel;--but it has nearly killed him. papa cannot bear to think that people should so speak of him, and that everybody should hear him so spoken of:--they have called him avaricious, and dishonest, and they say he is robbing the old men, and taking the money of the hospital for nothing." "i have never said so, miss harding. i--" "no," continued eleanor, interrupting him, for she was now in the full flood-tide of her eloquence; "no, i am sure you have not; but others have said so; and if this goes on, if such things are written again, it will kill papa. oh! mr bold, if you only knew the state he is in! now papa does not care much about money." both her auditors, brother and sister, assented to this, and declared on their own knowledge that no man lived less addicted to filthy lucre than the warden. "oh! it's so kind of you to say so, mary, and of you too, mr bold. i couldn't bear that people should think unjustly of papa. do you know he would give up the hospital altogether, only he cannot. the archdeacon says it would be cowardly, and that he would be deserting his order, and injuring the church. whatever may happen, papa will not do that: he would leave the place to-morrow willingly, and give up his house, and the income and all, if the archdeacon--" eleanor was going to say "would let him," but she stopped herself before she had compromised her father's dignity; and giving a long sigh, she added--"oh, i do so wish he would." "no one who knows mr harding personally accuses him for a moment," said bold. "it is he that has to bear the punishment; it is he that suffers," said eleanor; "and what for? what has he done wrong? how has he deserved this persecution? he that never had an unkind thought in his life, he that never said an unkind word!" and here she broke down, and the violence of her sobs stopped her utterance. bold, for the fifth or sixth time, declared that neither he nor any of his friends imputed any blame personally to mr harding. "then why should he be persecuted?" ejaculated eleanor through her tears, forgetting in her eagerness that her intention had been to humble herself as a suppliant before john bold;--"why should he be singled out for scorn and disgrace? why should he be made so wretched? oh! mr bold,"--and she turned towards him as though the kneeling scene were about to be commenced,--"oh! mr bold, why did you begin all this? you, whom we all so--so--valued!" to speak the truth, the reformer's punishment was certainly come upon him, for his present plight was not enviable; he had nothing for it but to excuse himself by platitudes about public duty, which it is by no means worth while to repeat, and to reiterate his eulogy on mr harding's character. his position was certainly a cruel one: had any gentleman called upon him on behalf of mr harding he could of course have declined to enter upon the subject; but how could he do so with a beautiful girl, with the daughter of the man whom he had injured, with his own love? in the meantime eleanor recollected herself, and again summoned up her energies. "mr bold," said she, "i have come here to implore you to abandon this proceeding." he stood up from his seat, and looked beyond measure distressed. "to implore you to abandon it, to implore you to spare my father, to spare either his life or his reason, for one or the other will pay the forfeit if this goes on. i know how much i am asking, and how little right i have to ask anything; but i think you will listen to me as it is for my father. oh, mr bold, pray, pray do this for us;--pray do not drive to distraction a man who has loved you so well." she did not absolutely kneel to him, but she followed him as he moved from his chair, and laid her soft hands imploringly upon his arm. ah! at any other time how exquisitely valuable would have been that touch! but now he was distraught, dumbfounded, and unmanned. what could he say to that sweet suppliant; how explain to her that the matter now was probably beyond his control; how tell her that he could not quell the storm which he had raised? "surely, surely, john, you cannot refuse her," said his sister. "i would give her my soul," said he, "if it would serve her." "oh, mr bold," said eleanor, "do not speak so; i ask nothing for myself; and what i ask for my father, it cannot harm you to grant." "i would give her my soul, if it would serve her," said bold, still addressing his sister; "everything i have is hers, if she will accept it; my house, my heart, my all; every hope of my breast is centred in her; her smiles are sweeter to me than the sun, and when i see her in sorrow as she now is, every nerve in my body suffers. no man can love better than i love her." "no, no, no," ejaculated eleanor; "there can be no talk of love between us. will you protect my father from the evil you have brought upon him?" "oh, eleanor, i will do anything; let me tell you how i love you!" "no, no, no!" she almost screamed. "this is unmanly of you, mr bold. will you, will you, will you leave my father to die in peace in his quiet home?" and seizing him by his arm and hand, she followed him across the room towards the door. "i will not leave you till you promise me; i'll cling to you in the street; i'll kneel to you before all the people. you shall promise me this, you shall promise me this, you shall--" and she clung to him with fixed tenacity, and reiterated her resolve with hysterical passion. "speak to her, john; answer her," said mary, bewildered by the unexpected vehemence of eleanor's manner; "you cannot have the cruelty to refuse her." "promise me, promise me," said eleanor; "say that my father is safe;--one word will do. i know how true you are; say one word, and i will let you go." she still held him, and looked eagerly into his face, with her hair dishevelled and her eyes all bloodshot. she had no thought now of herself, no care now for her appearance; and yet he thought he had never seen her half so lovely; he was amazed at the intensity of her beauty, and could hardly believe that it was she whom he had dared to love. "promise me," said she; "i will not leave you till you have promised me." "i will," said he at length; "i do--all i can do, i will do." "then may god almighty bless you for ever and ever!" said eleanor; and falling on her knees with her face in mary's lap, she wept and sobbed like a child: her strength had carried her through her allotted task, but now it was well nigh exhausted. in a while she was partly recovered, and got up to go, and would have gone, had not bold made her understand that it was necessary for him to explain to her how far it was in his power to put an end to the proceedings which had been taken against mr harding. had he spoken on any other subject, she would have vanished, but on that she was bound to hear him; and now the danger of her position commenced. while she had an active part to play, while she clung to him as a suppliant, it was easy enough for her to reject his proffered love, and cast from her his caressing words; but now--now that he had yielded, and was talking to her calmly and kindly as to her father's welfare, it was hard enough for her to do so. then mary bold assisted her; but now she was quite on her brother's side. mary said but little, but every word she did say gave some direct and deadly blow. the first thing she did was to make room for her brother between herself and eleanor on the sofa: as the sofa was full large for three, eleanor could not resent this, nor could she show suspicion by taking another seat; but she felt it to be a most unkind proceeding. and then mary would talk as though they three were joined in some close peculiar bond together; as though they were in future always to wish together, contrive together, and act together; and eleanor could not gainsay this; she could not make another speech, and say, "mr bold and i are strangers, mary, and are always to remain so!" he explained to her that, though undoubtedly the proceeding against the hospital had commenced solely with himself, many others were now interested in the matter, some of whom were much more influential than himself; that it was to him alone, however, that the lawyers looked for instruction as to their doings, and, more important still, for the payment of their bills; and he promised that he would at once give them notice that it was his intention to abandon the cause. he thought, he said, that it was not probable that any active steps would be taken after he had seceded from the matter, though it was possible that some passing allusion might still be made to the hospital in the daily _jupiter_. he promised, however, that he would use his best influence to prevent any further personal allusion being made to mr harding. he then suggested that he would on that afternoon ride over himself to dr grantly, and inform him of his altered intentions on the subject, and with this view, he postponed his immediate return to london. this was all very pleasant, and eleanor did enjoy a sort of triumph in the feeling that she had attained the object for which she had sought this interview; but still the part of iphigenia was to be played out. the gods had heard her prayer, granted her request, and were they not to have their promised sacrifice? eleanor was not a girl to defraud them wilfully; so, as soon as she decently could, she got up for her bonnet. "are you going so soon?" said bold, who half an hour since would have given a hundred pounds that he was in london, and she still at barchester. "oh yes!" said she. "i am so much obliged to you; papa will feel this to be so kind." she did not quite appreciate all her father's feelings. "of course i must tell him, and i will say that you will see the archdeacon." "but may i not say one word for myself?" said bold. "i'll fetch you your bonnet, eleanor," said mary, in the act of leaving the room. "mary, mary," said she, getting up and catching her by her dress; "don't go, i'll get my bonnet myself." but mary, the traitress, stood fast by the door, and permitted no such retreat. poor iphigenia! and with a volley of impassioned love, john bold poured forth the feelings of his heart, swearing, as men do, some truths and many falsehoods; and eleanor repeated with every shade of vehemence the "no, no, no," which had had a short time since so much effect; but now, alas! its strength was gone. let her be never so vehement, her vehemence was not respected; all her "no, no, no's" were met with counter-asseverations, and at last were overpowered. the ground was cut from under her on every side. she was pressed to say whether her father would object; whether she herself had any aversion (aversion! god help her, poor girl! the word nearly made her jump into his arms); any other preference (this she loudly disclaimed); whether it was impossible that she should love him (eleanor could not say that it was impossible): and so at last all her defences demolished, all her maiden barriers swept away, she capitulated, or rather marched out with the honours of war, vanquished evidently, palpably vanquished, but still not reduced to the necessity of confessing it. and so the altar on the shore of the modern aulis reeked with no sacrifice. chapter xii mr bold's visit to plumstead whether or no the ill-natured prediction made by certain ladies in the beginning of the last chapter was or was not carried out to the letter, i am not in a position to state. eleanor, however, certainly did feel herself to have been baffled as she returned home with all her news to her father. certainly she had been victorious, certainly she had achieved her object, certainly she was not unhappy, and yet she did not feel herself triumphant. everything would run smooth now. eleanor was not at all addicted to the lydian school of romance; she by no means objected to her lover because he came in at the door under the name of absolute, instead of pulling her out of a window under the name of beverley; and yet she felt that she had been imposed upon, and could hardly think of mary bold with sisterly charity. "i did think i could have trusted mary," she said to herself over and over again. "oh that she should have dared to keep me in the room when i tried to get out!" eleanor, however, felt that the game was up, and that she had now nothing further to do but to add to the budget of news which was prepared for her father, that john bold was her accepted lover. we will, however, now leave her on her way, and go with john bold to plumstead episcopi, merely premising that eleanor on reaching home will not find things so smooth as she fondly expected; two messengers had come, one to her father and the other to the archdeacon, and each of them much opposed to her quiet mode of solving all their difficulties; the one in the shape of a number of _the jupiter_, and the other in that of a further opinion from sir abraham haphazard. john bold got on his horse and rode off to plumstead episcopi; not briskly and with eager spur, as men do ride when self-satisfied with their own intentions; but slowly, modestly, thoughtfully, and somewhat in dread of the coming interview. now and again he would recur to the scene which was just over, support himself by the remembrance of the silence that gives consent, and exult as a happy lover. but even this feeling was not without a shade of remorse. had he not shown himself childishly weak thus to yield up the resolve of many hours of thought to the tears of a pretty girl? how was he to meet his lawyer? how was he to back out of a matter in which his name was already so publicly concerned? what, oh what! was he to say to tom towers? while meditating these painful things he reached the lodge leading up to the archdeacon's glebe, and for the first time in his life found himself within the sacred precincts. all the doctor's children were together on the slope of the lawn, close to the road, as bold rode up to the hall door. they were there holding high debate on matters evidently of deep interest at plumstead episcopi, and the voices of the boys had been heard before the lodge gate was closed. florinda and grizzel, frightened at the sight of so well-known an enemy to the family, fled on the first appearance of the horseman, and ran in terror to their mother's arms; not for them was it, tender branches, to resent injuries, or as members of a church militant to put on armour against its enemies. but the boys stood their ground like heroes, and boldly demanded the business of the intruder. "do you want to see anybody here, sir?" said henry, with a defiant eye and a hostile tone, which plainly said that at any rate no one there wanted to see the person so addressed; and as he spoke he brandished aloft his garden water-pot, holding it by the spout, ready for the braining of anyone. "henry," said charles james slowly, and with a certain dignity of diction, "mr bold of course would not have come without wanting to see someone; if mr bold has a proper ground for wanting to see some person here, of course he has a right to come." but samuel stepped lightly up to the horse's head, and offered his services. "oh, mr bold," said he, "papa, i'm sure, will be glad to see you; i suppose you want to see papa. shall i hold your horse for you? oh what a very pretty horse!" and he turned his head and winked funnily at his brothers. "papa has heard such good news about the old hospital to-day. we know you'll be glad to hear it, because you're such a friend of grandpapa harding, and so much in love with aunt nelly!" "how d'ye do, lads?" said bold, dismounting. "i want to see your father if he's at home." "lads!" said henry, turning on his heel and addressing himself to his brother, but loud enough to be heard by bold; "lads, indeed! if we're lads, what does he call himself?" charles james condescended to say nothing further, but cocked his hat with much precision, and left the visitor to the care of his youngest brother. samuel stayed till the servant came, chatting and patting the horse; but as soon as bold had disappeared through the front door, he stuck a switch under the animal's tail to make him kick if possible. the church reformer soon found himself _tête-à-tête_ with the archdeacon in that same room, in that sanctum sanctorum of the rectory, to which we have already been introduced. as he entered he heard the click of a certain patent lock, but it struck him with no surprise; the worthy clergyman was no doubt hiding from eyes profane his last much-studied sermon; for the archdeacon, though he preached but seldom, was famous for his sermons. no room, bold thought, could have been more becoming for a dignitary of the church; each wall was loaded with theology; over each separate bookcase was printed in small gold letters the names of those great divines whose works were ranged beneath: beginning from the early fathers in due chronological order, there were to be found the precious labours of the chosen servants of the church down to the last pamphlet written in opposition to the consecration of dr hampden; and raised above this were to be seen the busts of the greatest among the great: chrysostom, st augustine, thomas à becket, cardinal wolsey, archbishop laud, and dr philpotts. every appliance that could make study pleasant and give ease to the overtoiled brain was there; chairs made to relieve each limb and muscle; reading-desks and writing-desks to suit every attitude; lamps and candles mechanically contrived to throw their light on any favoured spot, as the student might desire; a shoal of newspapers to amuse the few leisure moments which might be stolen from the labours of the day; and then from the window a view right through a bosky vista along which ran a broad green path from the rectory to the church,--at the end of which the tawny-tinted fine old tower was seen with all its variegated pinnacles and parapets. few parish churches in england are in better repair, or better worth keeping so, than that at plumstead episcopi; and yet it is built in a faulty style: the body of the church is low,--so low, that the nearly flat leaden roof would be visible from the churchyard, were it not for the carved parapet with which it is surrounded. it is cruciform, though the transepts are irregular, one being larger than the other; and the tower is much too high in proportion to the church. but the colour of the building is perfect; it is that rich yellow gray which one finds nowhere but in the south and west of england, and which is so strong a characteristic of most of our old houses of tudor architecture. the stone work also is beautiful; the mullions of the windows and the thick tracery of the gothic workmanship is as rich as fancy can desire; and though in gazing on such a structure one knows by rule that the old priests who built it, built it wrong, one cannot bring oneself to wish that they should have made it other than it is. when bold was ushered into the book-room, he found its owner standing with his back to the empty fire-place ready to receive him, and he could not but perceive that that expansive brow was elated with triumph, and that those full heavy lips bore more prominently than usual an appearance of arrogant success. "well, mr bold," said he;--"well, what can i do for you? very happy, i can assure you, to do anything for such a friend of my father-in-law." "i hope you'll excuse my calling, dr grantly." "certainly, certainly," said the archdeacon; "i can assure you, no apology is necessary from mr bold;--only let me know what i can do for him." dr grantly was standing himself, and he did not ask bold to sit, and therefore he had to tell his tale standing, leaning on the table, with his hat in his hand. he did, however, manage to tell it; and as the archdeacon never once interrupted him, or even encouraged him by a single word, he was not long in coming to the end of it. "and so, mr bold, i'm to understand, i believe, that you are desirous of abandoning this attack upon mr harding." "oh, dr grantly, there has been no attack, i can assure you--" "well, well, we won't quarrel about words; i should call it an attack;--most men would so call an endeavour to take away from a man every shilling of income that he has to live upon; but it sha'n't be an attack, if you don't like it; you wish to abandon this--this little game of backgammon you've begun to play." "i intend to put an end to the legal proceedings which i have commenced." "i understand," said the archdeacon. "you've already had enough of it; well, i can't say that i am surprised; carrying on a losing lawsuit where one has nothing to gain, but everything to pay, is not pleasant." bold turned very red in the face. "you misinterpret my motives," said he; "but, however, that is of little consequence. i did not come to trouble you with my motives, but to tell you a matter of fact. good-morning, dr grantly." "one moment,--one moment," said the other. "i don't exactly appreciate the taste which induced you to make any personal communication to me on the subject; but i dare say i'm wrong, i dare say your judgment is the better of the two; but as you have done me the honour,--as you have, as it were, forced me into a certain amount of conversation on a subject which had better, perhaps, have been left to our lawyers, you will excuse me if i ask you to hear my reply to your communication." "i am in no hurry, dr grantly." "well, i am, mr bold; my time is not exactly leisure time, and, therefore, if you please, we'll go to the point at once:--you're going to abandon this lawsuit?"--and he paused for a reply. "yes, dr grantly, i am." "having exposed a gentleman who was one of your father's warmest friends to all the ignominy and insolence which the press could heap upon his name, having somewhat ostentatiously declared that it was your duty as a man of high public virtue to protect those poor old fools whom you have humbugged there at the hospital, you now find that the game costs more than it's worth, and so you make up your mind to have done with it. a prudent resolution, mr bold; but it is a pity you should have been so long coming to it. has it struck you that we may not now choose to give over? that we may find it necessary to punish the injury you have done to us? are you aware, sir, that we have gone to enormous expense to resist this iniquitous attempt of yours?" bold's face was now furiously red, and he nearly crushed his hat between his hands; but he said nothing. "we have found it necessary to employ the best advice that money could procure. are you aware, sir, what may be the probable cost of securing the services of the attorney-general?" "not in the least, dr grantly." "i dare say not, sir. when you recklessly put this affair into the hands of your friend mr finney, whose six-and-eightpences and thirteen-and-fourpences may, probably, not amount to a large sum, you were indifferent as to the cost and suffering which such a proceeding might entail on others; but are you aware, sir, that these crushing costs must now come out of your own pocket?" "any demand of such a nature which mr harding's lawyer may have to make will doubtless be made to my lawyer." "'mr harding's lawyer and my lawyer!' did you come here merely to refer me to the lawyers? upon my word i think the honour of your visit might have been spared! and now, sir, i'll tell you what my opinion is:--my opinion is, that we shall not allow you to withdraw this matter from the courts." "you can do as you please, dr grantly; good-morning." "hear me out, sir," said the archdeacon; "i have here in my hands the last opinion given in this matter by sir abraham haphazard. i dare say you have already heard of this;--i dare say it has had something to do with your visit here to-day." "i know nothing whatever of sir abraham haphazard or his opinion." "be that as it may, here it is; he declares most explicitly that under no phasis of the affair whatever have you a leg to stand upon; that mr harding is as safe in his hospital as i am here in my rectory; that a more futile attempt to destroy a man was never made, than this which you have made to ruin mr harding. here," and he slapped the paper on the table, "i have this opinion from the very first lawyer in the land; and under these circumstances you expect me to make you a low bow for your kind offer to release mr harding from the toils of your net! sir, your net is not strong enough to hold him; sir, your net has fallen to pieces, and you knew that well enough before i told you--and now, sir, i'll wish you good-morning, for i'm busy." bold was now choking with passion. he had let the archdeacon run on because he knew not with what words to interrupt him; but now that he had been so defied and insulted, he could not leave the room without some reply. "dr grantly," he commenced. "i have nothing further to say or to hear," said the archdeacon. "i'll do myself the honour to order your horse." and he rang the bell. "i came here, dr grantly, with the warmest, kindest feelings--" "oh, of course you did; nobody doubts it." "with the kindest feelings;--and they have been most grossly outraged by your treatment." "of course they have;--i have not chosen to see my father-in-law ruined; what an outrage that has been to your feelings!" "the time will come, dr grantly, when you will understand why i called upon you to-day." "no doubt, no doubt. is mr bold's horse there? that's right; open the front door. good-morning, mr bold;" and the doctor stalked into his own drawing-room, closing the door behind him, and making it quite impossible that john bold should speak another word. as he got on his horse, which he was fain to do feeling like a dog turned out of a kitchen, he was again greeted by little sammy. "good-bye, mr bold; i hope we may have the pleasure of seeing you again before long; i am sure papa will always be glad to see you." that was certainly the bitterest moment in john bold's life. not even the remembrance of his successful love could comfort him; nay, when he thought of eleanor he felt that it was that very love which had brought him to such a pass. that he should have been so insulted, and be unable to reply! that he should have given up so much to the request of a girl, and then have had his motives so misunderstood! that he should have made so gross a mistake as this visit of his to the archdeacon's! he bit the top of his whip, till he penetrated the horn of which it was made: he struck the poor animal in his anger, and then was doubly angry with himself at his futile passion. he had been so completely checkmated, so palpably overcome! and what was he to do? he could not continue his action after pledging himself to abandon it; nor was there any revenge in that;--it was the very step to which his enemy had endeavoured to goad him! he threw the reins to the servant who came to take his horse, and rushed upstairs into his drawing-room, where his sister mary was sitting. "if there be a devil," said he, "a real devil here on earth, it is dr grantly." he vouchsafed her no further intelligence, but again seizing his hat, he rushed out, and took his departure for london without another word to anyone. chapter xiii the warden's decision the meeting between eleanor and her father was not so stormy as that described in the last chapter, but it was hardly more successful. on her return from bold's house she found her father in a strange state. he was not sorrowful and silent as he had been on that memorable day when his son-in-law lectured him as to all that he owed to his order; nor was he in his usual quiet mood. when eleanor reached the hospital, he was walking to and fro upon the lawn, and she soon saw that he was much excited. "i am going to london, my dear," he said as soon as he saw her. "london, papa!" "yes, my dear, to london; i will have this matter settled some way; there are some things, eleanor, which i cannot bear." "oh, papa, what is it?" said she, leading him by the arm into the house. "i had such good news for you, and now you make me fear i am too late." and then, before he could let her know what had caused this sudden resolve, or could point to the fatal paper which lay on the table, she told him that the lawsuit was over, that bold had commissioned her to assure her father in his name that it would be abandoned,--that there was no further cause for misery, that the whole matter might be looked on as though it had never been discussed. she did not tell him with what determined vehemence she had obtained this concession in his favour, nor did she mention the price she was to pay for it. the warden did not express himself peculiarly gratified at this intelligence, and eleanor, though she had not worked for thanks, and was by no means disposed to magnify her own good offices, felt hurt at the manner in which her news was received. "mr bold can act as he thinks proper, my love," said he; "if mr bold thinks he has been wrong, of course he will discontinue what he is doing; but that cannot change my purpose." "oh, papa!" she exclaimed, all but crying with vexation; "i thought you would have been so happy;--i thought all would have been right now." "mr bold," continued he, "has set great people to work,--so great that i doubt they are now beyond his control. read that, my dear." the warden, doubling up a number of _the jupiter_, pointed to the peculiar article which she was to read. it was to the last of the three leaders, which are generally furnished daily for the support of the nation, that mr harding directed her attention. it dealt some heavy blows on various clerical delinquents; on families who received their tens of thousands yearly for doing nothing; on men who, as the article stated, rolled in wealth which they had neither earned nor inherited, and which was in fact stolen from the poorer clergy. it named some sons of bishops, and grandsons of archbishops; men great in their way, who had redeemed their disgrace in the eyes of many by the enormity of their plunder; and then, having disposed of these leviathans, it descended to mr harding. we alluded some weeks since to an instance of similar injustice, though in a more humble scale, in which the warden of an almshouse at barchester has become possessed of the income of the greater part of the whole institution. why an almshouse should have a warden we cannot pretend to explain, nor can we say what special need twelve old men can have for the services of a separate clergyman, seeing that they have twelve reserved seats for themselves in barchester cathedral. but be this as it may, let the gentleman call himself warden or precentor, or what he will, let him be never so scrupulous in exacting religious duties from his twelve dependents, or never so negligent as regards the services of the cathedral, it appears palpably clear that he can be entitled to no portion of the revenue of the hospital, excepting that which the founder set apart for him; and it is equally clear that the founder did not intend that three-fifths of his charity should be so consumed. the case is certainly a paltry one after the tens of thousands with which we have been dealing, for the warden's income is after all but a poor eight hundred a year: eight hundred a year is not magnificent preferment of itself, and the warden may, for anything we know, be worth much more to the church; but if so, let the church pay him out of funds justly at its own disposal. we allude to the question of the barchester almshouse at the present moment, because we understand that a plea has been set up which will be peculiarly revolting to the minds of english churchmen. an action has been taken against mr warden harding, on behalf of the almsmen, by a gentleman acting solely on public grounds, and it is to be argued that mr harding takes nothing but what he received as a servant of the hospital, and that he is not himself responsible for the amount of stipend given to him for his work. such a plea would doubtless be fair, if anyone questioned the daily wages of a bricklayer employed on the building, or the fee of the charwoman who cleans it; but we cannot envy the feeling of a clergyman of the church of england who could allow such an argument to be put in his mouth. if this plea be put forward we trust mr harding will be forced as a witness to state the nature of his employment; the amount of work that he does; the income which he receives; and the source from whence he obtained his appointment. we do not think he will receive much public sympathy to atone for the annoyance of such an examination. as eleanor read the article her face flushed with indignation, and when she had finished it, she almost feared to look up at her father. "well, my dear," said he, "what do you think of that;--is it worth while to be a warden at that price?" "oh, papa;--dear papa!" "mr bold can't un-write that, my dear;--mr bold can't say that that sha'n't be read by every clergyman at oxford; nay, by every gentleman in the land;" and then he walked up and down the room, while eleanor in mute despair followed him with her eyes. "and i'll tell you what, my dear," he continued, speaking now very calmly, and in a forced manner very unlike himself; "mr bold can't dispute the truth of every word in that article you have just read--nor can i." eleanor stared at him, as though she scarcely understood the words he was speaking. "nor can i, eleanor: that's the worst of all, or would be so if there were no remedy. i have thought much of all this since we were together last night;" and he came and sat beside her, and put his arm round her waist as he had done then. "i have thought much of what the archdeacon has said, and of what this paper says; and i do believe i have no right to be here." "no right to be warden of the hospital, papa?" "no right to be warden with eight hundred a year; no right to be warden with such a house as this; no right to spend in luxury money that was intended for charity. mr bold may do as he pleases about his suit, but i hope he will not abandon it for my sake." poor eleanor! this was hard upon her. was it for this she had made her great resolve! for this that she had laid aside her quiet demeanour, and taken upon her the rants of a tragedy heroine! one may work and not for thanks, but yet feel hurt at not receiving them; and so it was with eleanor: one may be disinterested in one's good actions, and yet feel discontented that they are not recognised. charity may be given with the left hand so privily that the right hand does not know it, and yet the left hand may regret to feel that it has no immediate reward. eleanor had had no wish to burden her father with a weight of obligation, and yet she had looked forward to much delight from the knowledge that she had freed him from his sorrows: now such hopes were entirely over: all that she had done was of no avail; she had humbled herself to bold in vain; the evil was utterly beyond her power to cure! she had thought also how gently she would whisper to her father all that her lover had said to her about herself, and how impossible she had found it to reject him: and then she had anticipated her father's kindly kiss and close embrace as he gave his sanction to her love. alas! she could say nothing of this now. in speaking of mr bold, her father put him aside as one whose thoughts and sayings and acts could be of no moment. gentle reader, did you ever feel yourself snubbed? did you ever, when thinking much of your own importance, find yourself suddenly reduced to a nonentity? such was eleanor's feeling now. "they shall not put forward this plea on my behalf," continued the warden. "whatever may be the truth of the matter, that at any rate is not true; and the man who wrote that article is right in saying that such a plea is revolting to an honest mind. i will go up to london, my dear, and see these lawyers myself, and if no better excuse can be made for me than that, i and the hospital will part." "but the archdeacon, papa?" "i can't help it, my dear; there are some things which a man cannot bear:--i cannot bear that;" and he put his hand upon the newspaper. "but will the archdeacon go with you?" to tell the truth, mr harding had made up his mind to steal a march upon the archdeacon. he was aware that he could take no steps without informing his dread son-in-law, but he had resolved that he would send out a note to plumstead episcopi detailing his plans, but that the messenger should not leave barchester till he himself had started for london; so that he might be a day before the doctor, who, he had no doubt, would follow him. in that day, if he had luck, he might arrange it all; he might explain to sir abraham that he, as warden, would have nothing further to do with the defence about to be set up; he might send in his official resignation to his friend the bishop, and so make public the whole transaction, that even the doctor would not be able to undo what he had done. he knew too well the doctor's strength and his own weakness to suppose he could do this, if they both reached london together; indeed, he would never be able to get to london, if the doctor knew of his intended journey in time to prevent it. "no, i think not," said he. "i think i shall start before the archdeacon could be ready;--i shall go early to-morrow morning." "that will be best, papa," said eleanor, showing that her father's ruse was appreciated. "why yes, my love. the fact is, i wish to do all this before the archdeacon can--can interfere. there is a great deal of truth in all he says;--he argues very well, and i can't always answer him; but there is an old saying, nelly: 'everyone knows where his own shoe pinches!' he'll say that i want moral courage, and strength of character, and power of endurance, and it's all true; but i'm sure i ought not to remain here, if i have nothing better to put forward than a quibble: so, nelly, we shall have to leave this pretty place." eleanor's face brightened up, as she assured her father how cordially she agreed with him. "true, my love," said he, now again quite happy and at ease in his manner. "what good to us is this place or all the money, if we are to be ill-spoken of?" "oh, papa, i am so glad!" "my darling child! it did cost me a pang at first, nelly, to think that you should lose your pretty drawing-room, and your ponies, and your garden: the garden will be the worst of all;--but there is a garden at crabtree, a very pretty garden." crabtree parva was the name of the small living which mr harding had held as a minor canon, and which still belonged to him. it was only worth some eighty pounds a year, and a small house and glebe, all of which were now handed over to mr harding's curate; but it was to crabtree glebe that mr harding thought of retiring. this parish must not be mistaken for that other living, crabtree canonicorum, as it is called. crabtree canonicorum is a very nice thing; there are only two hundred parishioners; there are four hundred acres of glebe; and the great and small tithes, which both go to the rector, are worth four hundred pounds a year more. crabtree canonicorum is in the gift of the dean and chapter, and is at this time possessed by the honourable and reverend dr vesey stanhope, who also fills the prebendal stall of goosegorge in barchester chapter, and holds the united rectory of eiderdown and stogpingum, or stoke pinquium, as it should be written. this is the same dr vesey stanhope whose hospitable villa on the lake of como is so well known to the _élite_ of english travellers, and whose collection of lombard butterflies is supposed to be unique. "yes," said the warden, musing, "there is a very pretty garden at crabtree;--but i shall be sorry to disturb poor smith." smith was the curate of crabtree, a gentleman who was maintaining a wife and half a dozen children on the income arising from his profession. eleanor assured her father that, as far as she was concerned, she could leave her house and her ponies without a single regret. she was only so happy that he was going--going where he would escape all this dreadful turmoil. "but we will take the music, my dear." and so they went on planning their future happiness, and plotting how they would arrange it all without the interposition of the archdeacon, and at last they again became confidential, and then the warden did thank her for what she had done, and eleanor, lying on her father's shoulder, did find an opportunity to tell her secret: and the father gave his blessing to his child, and said that the man whom she loved was honest, good, and kind-hearted, and right-thinking in the main,--one who wanted only a good wife to put him quite upright,--"a man, my love," he ended by saying, "to whom i firmly believe that i can trust my treasure with safety." "but what will dr grantly say?" "well, my dear, it can't be helped;--we shall be out at crabtree then." and eleanor ran upstairs to prepare her father's clothes for his journey; and the warden returned to his garden to make his last adieux to every tree, and shrub, and shady nook that he knew so well. chapter xiv mount olympus wretched in spirit, groaning under the feeling of insult, self-condemning, and ill-satisfied in every way, bold returned to his london lodgings. ill as he had fared in his interview with the archdeacon, he was not the less under the necessity of carrying out his pledge to eleanor; and he went about his ungracious task with a heavy heart. the attorneys whom he had employed in london received his instructions with surprise and evident misgiving; however, they could only obey, and mutter something of their sorrow that such heavy costs should only fall upon their own employer,--especially as nothing was wanting but perseverance to throw them on the opposite party. bold left the office which he had latterly so much frequented, shaking the dust from off his feet; and before he was down the stairs, an edict had already gone forth for the preparation of the bill. he next thought of the newspapers. the case had been taken up by more than one; and he was well aware that the keynote had been sounded by _the jupiter_. he had been very intimate with tom towers, and had often discussed with him the affairs of the hospital. bold could not say that the articles in that paper had been written at his own instigation. he did not even know, as a fact, that they had been written by his friend. tom towers had never said that such a view of the case, or such a side in the dispute, would be taken by the paper with which he was connected. very discreet in such matters was tom towers, and altogether indisposed to talk loosely of the concerns of that mighty engine of which it was his high privilege to move in secret some portion. nevertheless bold believed that to him were owing those dreadful words which had caused such panic at barchester,--and he conceived himself bound to prevent their repetition. with this view he betook himself from the attorneys' office to that laboratory where, with amazing chemistry, tom towers compounded thunderbolts for the destruction of all that is evil, and for the furtherance of all that is good, in this and other hemispheres. who has not heard of mount olympus,--that high abode of all the powers of type, that favoured seat of the great goddess pica, that wondrous habitation of gods and devils, from whence, with ceaseless hum of steam and never-ending flow of castalian ink, issue forth fifty thousand nightly edicts for the governance of a subject nation? velvet and gilding do not make a throne, nor gold and jewels a sceptre. it is a throne because the most exalted one sits there,--and a sceptre because the most mighty one wields it. so it is with mount olympus. should a stranger make his way thither at dull noonday, or during the sleepy hours of the silent afternoon, he would find no acknowledged temple of power and beauty, no fitting fane for the great thunderer, no proud façades and pillared roofs to support the dignity of this greatest of earthly potentates. to the outward and uninitiated eye, mount olympus is a somewhat humble spot,--undistinguished, unadorned,--nay, almost mean. it stands alone, as it were, in a mighty city, close to the densest throng of men, but partaking neither of the noise nor the crowd; a small secluded, dreary spot, tenanted, one would say, by quite unambitious people at the easiest rents. "is this mount olympus?" asks the unbelieving stranger. "is it from these small, dark, dingy buildings that those infallible laws proceed which cabinets are called upon to obey; by which bishops are to be guided, lords and commons controlled, judges instructed in law, generals in strategy, admirals in naval tactics, and orange-women in the management of their barrows?" "yes, my friend--from these walls. from here issue the only known infallible bulls for the guidance of british souls and bodies. this little court is the vatican of england. here reigns a pope, self-nominated, self-consecrated,--ay, and much stranger too,--self-believing!--a pope whom, if you cannot obey him, i would advise you to disobey as silently as possible; a pope hitherto afraid of no luther; a pope who manages his own inquisition, who punishes unbelievers as no most skilful inquisitor of spain ever dreamt of doing;--one who can excommunicate thoroughly, fearfully, radically; put you beyond the pale of men's charity; make you odious to your dearest friends, and turn you into a monster to be pointed at by the finger!" oh heavens! and this is mount olympus! it is a fact amazing to ordinary mortals that _the jupiter_ is never wrong. with what endless care, with what unsparing labour, do we not strive to get together for our great national council the men most fitting to compose it. and how we fail! parliament is always wrong: look at _the jupiter_, and see how futile are their meetings, how vain their council, how needless all their trouble! with what pride do we regard our chief ministers, the great servants of state, the oligarchs of the nation on whose wisdom we lean, to whom we look for guidance in our difficulties! but what are they to the writers of _the jupiter_? they hold council together and with anxious thought painfully elaborate their country's good; but when all is done, _the jupiter_ declares that all is naught. why should we look to lord john russell;--why should we regard palmerston and gladstone, when tom towers without a struggle can put us right? look at our generals, what faults they make; at our admirals, how inactive they are. what money, honesty, and science can do, is done; and yet how badly are our troops brought together, fed, conveyed, clothed, armed, and managed. the most excellent of our good men do their best to man our ships, with the assistance of all possible external appliances; but in vain. all, all is wrong--alas! alas! tom towers, and he alone, knows all about it. why, oh why, ye earthly ministers, why have ye not followed more closely this heaven-sent messenger that is among us? were it not well for us in our ignorance that we confided all things to _the jupiter_? would it not be wise in us to abandon useless talking, idle thinking, and profitless labour? away with majorities in the house of commons, with verdicts from judicial bench given after much delay, with doubtful laws, and the fallible attempts of humanity! does not _the jupiter_, coming forth daily with fifty thousand impressions full of unerring decision on every mortal subject, set all matters sufficiently at rest? is not tom towers here, able to guide us and willing? yes indeed, able and willing to guide all men in all things, so long as he is obeyed as autocrat should be obeyed,--with undoubting submission: only let not ungrateful ministers seek other colleagues than those whom tom towers may approve; let church and state, law and physic, commerce and agriculture, the arts of war, and the arts of peace, all listen and obey, and all will be made perfect. has not tom towers an all-seeing eye? from the diggings of australia to those of california, right round the habitable globe, does he not know, watch, and chronicle the doings of everyone? from a bishopric in new zealand to an unfortunate director of a north-west passage, is he not the only fit judge of capability? from the sewers of london to the central railway of india,--from the palaces of st petersburg to the cabins of connaught, nothing can escape him. britons have but to read, to obey, and be blessed. none but the fools doubt the wisdom of _the jupiter_; none but the mad dispute its facts. no established religion has ever been without its unbelievers, even in the country where it is the most firmly fixed; no creed has been without scoffers; no church has so prospered as to free itself entirely from dissent. there are those who doubt _the jupiter_! they live and breathe the upper air, walking here unscathed, though scorned,--men, born of british mothers and nursed on english milk, who scruple not to say that mount olympus has its price, that tom towers can be bought for gold! such is mount olympus, the mouthpiece of all the wisdom of this great country. it may probably be said that no place in this th century is more worthy of notice. no treasury mandate armed with the signatures of all the government has half the power of one of those broad sheets, which fly forth from hence so abundantly, armed with no signature at all. some great man, some mighty peer,--we'll say a noble duke,--retires to rest feared and honoured by all his countrymen,--fearless himself; if not a good man, at any rate a mighty man,--too mighty to care much what men may say about his want of virtue. he rises in the morning degraded, mean, and miserable; an object of men's scorn, anxious only to retire as quickly as may be to some german obscurity, some unseen italian privacy, or indeed, anywhere out of sight. what has made this awful change? what has so afflicted him? an article has appeared in _the jupiter_; some fifty lines of a narrow column have destroyed all his grace's equanimity, and banished him for ever from the world. no man knows who wrote the bitter words; the clubs talk confusedly of the matter, whispering to each other this and that name; while tom towers walks quietly along pall mall, with his coat buttoned close against the east wind, as though he were a mortal man, and not a god dispensing thunderbolts from mount olympus. it was not to mount olympus that our friend bold betook himself. he had before now wandered round that lonely spot, thinking how grand a thing it was to write articles for _the jupiter_; considering within himself whether by any stretch of the powers within him he could ever come to such distinction; wondering how tom towers would take any little humble offering of his talents; calculating that tom towers himself must have once had a beginning, have once doubted as to his own success. towers could not have been born a writer in _the jupiter_. with such ideas, half ambitious and half awe-struck, had bold regarded the silent-looking workshop of the gods; but he had never yet by word or sign attempted to influence the slightest word of his unerring friend. on such a course was he now intent; and not without much inward palpitation did he betake himself to the quiet abode of wisdom, where tom towers was to be found o' mornings inhaling ambrosia and sipping nectar in the shape of toast and tea. not far removed from mount olympus, but somewhat nearer to the blessed regions of the west, is the most favoured abode of themis. washed by the rich tide which now passes from the towers of cæsar to barry's halls of eloquence; and again back, with new offerings of a city's tribute, from the palaces of peers to the mart of merchants, stand those quiet walls which law has delighted to honour by its presence. what a world within a world is the temple! how quiet are its "entangled walks," as someone lately has called them, and yet how close to the densest concourse of humanity! how gravely respectable its sober alleys, though removed but by a single step from the profanity of the strand and the low iniquity of fleet street! old st dunstan, with its bell-smiting bludgeoners, has been removed; the ancient shops with their faces full of pleasant history are passing away one by one; the bar itself is to go--its doom has been pronounced by _the jupiter_; rumour tells us of some huge building that is to appear in these latitudes dedicated to law, subversive of the courts of westminster, and antagonistic to the rolls and lincoln's inn; but nothing yet threatens the silent beauty of the temple: it is the mediæval court of the metropolis. here, on the choicest spot of this choice ground, stands a lofty row of chambers, looking obliquely upon the sullied thames; before the windows, the lawn of the temple gardens stretches with that dim yet delicious verdure so refreshing to the eyes of londoners. if doomed to live within the thickest of london smoke you would surely say that that would be your chosen spot. yes, you, you whom i now address, my dear, middle-aged bachelor friend, can nowhere be so well domiciled as here. no one here will ask whether you are out or at home; alone or with friends; here no sabbatarian will investigate your sundays, no censorious landlady will scrutinise your empty bottle, no valetudinarian neighbour will complain of late hours. if you love books, to what place are books so suitable? the whole spot is redolent of typography. would you worship the paphian goddess, the groves of cyprus are not more taciturn than those of the temple. wit and wine are always here, and always together; the revels of the temple are as those of polished greece, where the wildest worshipper of bacchus never forgot the dignity of the god whom he adored. where can retirement be so complete as here? where can you be so sure of all the pleasures of society? it was here that tom towers lived, and cultivated with eminent success the tenth muse who now governs the periodical press. but let it not be supposed that his chambers were such, or so comfortless, as are frequently the gaunt abodes of legal aspirants. four chairs, a half-filled deal book-case with hangings of dingy green baize, an old office table covered with dusty papers, which are not moved once in six months, and an older pembroke brother with rickety legs, for all daily uses; a despatcher for the preparation of lobsters and coffee, and an apparatus for the cooking of toast and mutton chops; such utensils and luxuries as these did not suffice for the well-being of tom towers. he indulged in four rooms on the first floor, each of which was furnished, if not with the splendour, with probably more than the comfort of stafford house. every addition that science and art have lately made to the luxuries of modern life was to be found there. the room in which he usually sat was surrounded by book-shelves carefully filled; nor was there a volume there which was not entitled to its place in such a collection, both by its intrinsic worth and exterior splendour: a pretty portable set of steps in one corner of the room showed that those even on the higher shelves were intended for use. the chamber contained but two works of art:--the one, an admirable bust of sir robert peel, by power, declared the individual politics of our friend; and the other, a singularly long figure of a female devotee, by millais, told equally plainly the school of art to which he was addicted. this picture was not hung, as pictures usually are, against the wall; there was no inch of wall vacant for such a purpose: it had a stand or desk erected for its own accommodation; and there on her pedestal, framed and glazed, stood the devotional lady looking intently at a lily as no lady ever looked before. our modern artists, whom we style pre-raphaelites, have delighted to go back, not only to the finish and peculiar manner, but also to the subjects of the early painters. it is impossible to give them too much praise for the elaborate perseverance with which they have equalled the minute perfections of the masters from whom they take their inspiration: nothing probably can exceed the painting of some of these latter-day pictures. it is, however, singular into what faults they fall as regards their subjects: they are not quite content to take the old stock groups,--a sebastian with his arrows, a lucia with her eyes in a dish, a lorenzo with a gridiron, or the virgin with two children. but they are anything but happy in their change. as a rule, no figure should be drawn in a position which it is impossible to suppose any figure should maintain. the patient endurance of st sebastian, the wild ecstasy of st john in the wilderness, the maternal love of the virgin, are feelings naturally portrayed by a fixed posture; but the lady with the stiff back and bent neck, who looks at her flower, and is still looking from hour to hour, gives us an idea of pain without grace, and abstraction without a cause. it was easy, from his rooms, to see that tom towers was a sybarite, though by no means an idle one. he was lingering over his last cup of tea, surrounded by an ocean of newspapers, through which he had been swimming, when john bold's card was brought in by his tiger. this tiger never knew that his master was at home, though he often knew that he was not, and thus tom towers was never invaded but by his own consent. on this occasion, after twisting the card twice in his fingers, he signified to his attendant imp that he was visible; and the inner door was unbolted, and our friend announced. i have before said that he of _the jupiter_ and john bold were intimate. there was no very great difference in their ages, for towers was still considerably under forty; and when bold had been attending the london hospitals, towers, who was not then the great man that he had since become, had been much with him. then they had often discussed together the objects of their ambition and future prospects; then tom towers was struggling hard to maintain himself, as a briefless barrister, by shorthand reporting for any of the papers that would engage him; then he had not dared to dream of writing leaders for _the jupiter_, or canvassing the conduct of cabinet ministers. things had altered since that time: the briefless barrister was still briefless, but he now despised briefs: could he have been sure of a judge's seat, he would hardly have left his present career. it is true he wore no ermine, bore no outward marks of a world's respect; but with what a load of inward importance was he charged! it is true his name appeared in no large capitals; on no wall was chalked up "tom towers for ever;"--"freedom of the press and tom towers;" but what member of parliament had half his power? it is true that in far-off provinces men did not talk daily of tom towers but they read _the jupiter_, and acknowledged that without _the jupiter_ life was not worth having. this kind of hidden but still conscious glory suited the nature of the man. he loved to sit silent in a corner of his club and listen to the loud chattering of politicians, and to think how they all were in his power;--how he could smite the loudest of them, were it worth his while to raise his pen for such a purpose. he loved to watch the great men of whom he daily wrote, and flatter himself that he was greater than any of them. each of them was responsible to his country, each of them must answer if inquired into, each of them must endure abuse with good humour, and insolence without anger. but to whom was he, tom towers, responsible? no one could insult him; no one could inquire into him. he could speak out withering words, and no one could answer him: ministers courted him, though perhaps they knew not his name; bishops feared him; judges doubted their own verdicts unless he confirmed them; and generals, in their councils of war, did not consider more deeply what the enemy would do, than what _the jupiter_ would say. tom towers never boasted of _the jupiter_; he scarcely ever named the paper even to the most intimate of his friends; he did not even wish to be spoken of as connected with it; but he did not the less value his privileges, or think the less of his own importance. it is probable that tom towers considered himself the most powerful man in europe; and so he walked on from day to day, studiously striving to look a man, but knowing within his breast that he was a god. chapter xv tom towers, dr anticant, and mr sentiment "ah, bold! how are you? you haven't breakfasted?" "oh yes, hours ago. and how are you?" when one esquimau meets another, do the two, as an invariable rule, ask after each other's health? is it inherent in all human nature to make this obliging inquiry? did any reader of this tale ever meet any friend or acquaintance without asking some such question, and did anyone ever listen to the reply? sometimes a studiously courteous questioner will show so much thought in the matter as to answer it himself, by declaring that had he looked at you he needn't have asked; meaning thereby to signify that you are an absolute personification of health: but such persons are only those who premeditate small effects. "i suppose you're busy?" inquired bold. "why, yes, rather;--or i should say rather not. if i have a leisure hour in the day, this is it." "i want to ask you if you can oblige me in a certain matter." towers understood in a moment, from the tone of his friend's voice, that the certain matter referred to the newspaper. he smiled, and nodded his head, but made no promise. "you know this lawsuit that i've been engaged in," said bold. tom towers intimated that he was aware of the action which was pending about the hospital. "well, i've abandoned it." tom towers merely raised his eyebrows, thrust his hands into his trowsers pockets, and waited for his friend to proceed. "yes, i've given it up. i needn't trouble you with all the history; but the fact is that the conduct of mr harding--mr harding is the--" "oh yes, the master of the place; the man who takes all the money and does nothing," said tom towers, interrupting him. "well, i don't know about that; but his conduct in the matter has been so excellent, so little selfish, so open, that i cannot proceed in the matter to his detriment." bold's heart misgave him as to eleanor as he said this; and yet he felt that what he said was not untrue. "i think nothing should now be done till the wardenship be vacant." "and be again filled," said towers, "as it certainly would, before anyone heard of the vacancy; and the same objection would again exist. it's an old story, that of the vested rights of the incumbent; but suppose the incumbent has only a vested wrong, and that the poor of the town have a vested right, if they only knew how to get at it: is not that something the case here?" bold couldn't deny it, but thought it was one of those cases which required a good deal of management before any real good could be done. it was a pity that he had not considered this before he crept into the lion's mouth, in the shape of an attorney's office. "it will cost you a good deal, i fear," said towers. "a few hundreds," said bold--"perhaps three hundred; i can't help that, and am prepared for it." "that's philosophical. it's quite refreshing to hear a man talking of his hundreds in so purely indifferent a manner. but i'm sorry you are giving the matter up. it injures a man to commence a thing of this kind, and not carry it through. have you seen that?" and he threw a small pamphlet across the table, which was all but damp from the press. bold had not seen it nor heard of it; but he was well acquainted with the author of it,--a gentleman whose pamphlets, condemnatory of all things in these modern days, had been a good deal talked about of late. dr pessimist anticant was a scotchman, who had passed a great portion of his early days in germany; he had studied there with much effect, and had learnt to look with german subtilty into the root of things, and to examine for himself their intrinsic worth and worthlessness. no man ever resolved more bravely than he to accept as good nothing that was evil; to banish from him as evil nothing that was good. 'tis a pity that he should not have recognised the fact, that in this world no good is unalloyed, and that there is but little evil that has not in it some seed of what is goodly. returning from germany, he had astonished the reading public by the vigour of his thoughts, put forth in the quaintest language. he cannot write english, said the critics. no matter, said the public; we can read what he does write, and that without yawning. and so dr pessimist anticant became popular. popularity spoilt him for all further real use, as it has done many another. while, with some diffidence, he confined his objurgations to the occasional follies or shortcomings of mankind; while he ridiculed the energy of the squire devoted to the slaughter of partridges, or the mistake of some noble patron who turned a poet into a gauger of beer-barrels, it was all well; we were glad to be told our faults and to look forward to the coming millennium, when all men, having sufficiently studied the works of dr anticant, would become truthful and energetic. but the doctor mistook the signs of the times and the minds of men, instituted himself censor of things in general, and began the great task of reprobating everything and everybody, without further promise of any millennium at all. this was not so well; and, to tell the truth, our author did not succeed in his undertaking. his theories were all beautiful, and the code of morals that he taught us certainly an improvement on the practices of the age. we all of us could, and many of us did, learn much from the doctor while he chose to remain vague, mysterious, and cloudy: but when he became practical, the charm was gone. his allusion to the poet and the partridges was received very well. "oh, my poor brother," said he, "slaughtered partridges a score of brace to each gun, and poets gauging ale-barrels, with sixty pounds a year, at dumfries, are not the signs of a great era!--perhaps of the smallest possible era yet written of. whatever economies we pursue, political or other, let us see at once that this is the maddest of the uneconomic: partridges killed by our land magnates at, shall we say, a guinea a head, to be retailed in leadenhall at one shilling and ninepence, with one poacher in limbo for every fifty birds! our poet, maker, creator, gauging ale, and that badly, with no leisure for making or creating, only a little leisure for drinking, and such like beer-barrel avocations! truly, a cutting of blocks with fine razors while we scrape our chins so uncomfortably with rusty knives! oh, my political economist, master of supply and demand, division of labour and high pressure--oh, my loud-speaking friend, tell me, if so much be in you, what is the demand for poets in these kingdoms of queen victoria, and what the vouchsafed supply?" this was all very well: this gave us some hope. we might do better with our next poet, when we got one; and though the partridges might not be abandoned, something could perhaps be done as to the poachers. we were unwilling, however, to take lessons in politics from so misty a professor; and when he came to tell us that the heroes of westminster were naught, we began to think that he had written enough. his attack upon despatch boxes was not thought to have much in it; but as it is short, the doctor shall again be allowed to speak his sentiments. could utmost ingenuity in the management of red tape avail anything to men lying gasping,--we may say, all but dead; could despatch boxes with never-so-much velvet lining and chubb's patent be of comfort to a people _in extremis_, i also, with so many others, would, with parched tongue, call on the name of lord john russell; or, my brother, at your advice, on lord aberdeen; or, my cousin, on lord derby, at yours; being, with my parched tongue, indifferent to such matters. 'tis all one. oh, derby! oh, gladstone! oh, palmerston! oh, lord john! each comes running with serene face and despatch box. vain physicians! though there were hosts of such, no despatch box will cure this disorder! what! are there other doctors' new names, disciples who have not burdened their souls with tape? well, let us call again. oh, disraeli, great oppositionist, man of the bitter brow! or, oh, molesworth, great reformer, thou who promisest utopia. they come; each with that serene face, and each,-- alas, me! alas, my country!--each with a despatch box! oh, the serenity of downing street! my brothers, when hope was over on the battle-field, when no dimmest chance of victory remained, the ancient roman could hide his face within his toga, and die gracefully. can you and i do so now? if so, 'twere best for us; if not, oh my brothers, we must die disgracefully, for hope of life and victory i see none left to us in this world below. i for one cannot trust much to serene face and despatch box! there might be truth in this, there might be depth of reasoning; but englishmen did not see enough in the argument to induce them to withdraw their confidence from the present arrangements of the government, and dr anticant's monthly pamphlet on the decay of the world did not receive so much attention as his earlier works. he did not confine himself to politics in these publications, but roamed at large over all matters of public interest, and found everything bad. according to him nobody was true, and not only nobody, but nothing; a man could not take off his hat to a lady without telling a lie;--the lady would lie again in smiling. the ruffles of the gentleman's shirt would be fraught with deceit, and the lady's flounces full of falsehood. was ever anything more severe than that attack of his on chip bonnets, or the anathemas with which he endeavoured to dust the powder out of the bishops' wigs? the pamphlet which tom towers now pushed across the table was entitled "modern charity," and was written with the view of proving how much in the way of charity was done by our predecessors,--how little by the present age; and it ended by a comparison between ancient and modern times, very little to the credit of the latter. "look at this," said towers, getting up and turning over the pages of the pamphlet, and pointing to a passage near the end. "your friend the warden, who is so little selfish, won't like that, i fear." bold read as follows-- heavens, what a sight! let us with eyes wide open see the godly man of four centuries since, the man of the dark ages; let us see how he does his godlike work, and, again, how the godly man of these latter days does his. shall we say that the former is one walking painfully through the world, regarding, as a prudent man, his worldly work, prospering in it as a diligent man will prosper, but always with an eye to that better treasure to which thieves do not creep in? is there not much nobility in that old man, as, leaning on his oaken staff, he walks down the high street of his native town, and receives from all courteous salutation and acknowledgment of his worth? a noble old man, my august inhabitants of belgrave square and such like vicinity,--a very noble old man, though employed no better than in the wholesale carding of wool. this carding of wool, however, did in those days bring with it much profit, so that our ancient friend, when dying, was declared, in whatever slang then prevailed, to cut up exceeding well. for sons and daughters there was ample sustenance with assistance of due industry; for friends and relatives some relief for grief at this great loss; for aged dependents comfort in declining years. this was much for one old man to get done in that dark fifteenth century. but this was not all: coming generations of poor wool-carders should bless the name of this rich one; and a hospital should be founded and endowed with his wealth for the feeding of such of the trade as could not, by diligent carding, any longer duly feed themselves. 'twas thus that an old man in the fifteenth century did his godlike work to the best of his power, and not ignobly, as appears to me. we will now take our godly man of latter days. he shall no longer be a wool-carder, for such are not now men of mark. we will suppose him to be one of the best of the good, one who has lacked no opportunities. our old friend was, after all, but illiterate; our modern friend shall be a man educated in all seemly knowledge; he shall, in short, be that blessed being,--a clergyman of the church of england! and now, in what perfectest manner does he in this lower world get his godlike work done and put out of hand? heavens! in the strangest of manners. oh, my brother! in a manner not at all to be believed, but by the most minute testimony of eyesight. he does it by the magnitude of his appetite,--by the power of his gorge; his only occupation is to swallow the bread prepared with so much anxious care for these impoverished carders of wool,--that, and to sing indifferently through his nose once in the week some psalm more or less long,--the shorter the better, we should be inclined to say. oh, my civilised friends!--great britons that never will be slaves, men advanced to infinite state of freedom and knowledge of good and evil;--tell me, will you, what becoming monument you will erect to an highly-educated clergyman of the church of england? bold certainly thought that his friend would not like that: he could not conceive anything that he would like less than this. to what a world of toil and trouble had he, bold, given rise by his indiscreet attack upon the hospital! "you see," said towers, "that this affair has been much talked of, and the public are with you. i am sorry you should give the matter up. have you seen the first number of 'the almshouse'?" no; bold had not seen "the almshouse." he had seen advertisements of mr popular sentiment's new novel of that name, but had in no way connected it with barchester hospital, and had never thought a moment on the subject. "it's a direct attack on the whole system," said towers. "it'll go a long way to put down rochester, and barchester, and dulwich, and st cross, and all such hotbeds of peculation. it's very clear that sentiment has been down to barchester, and got up the whole story there; indeed, i thought he must have had it all from you; it's very well done, as you'll see: his first numbers always are." bold declared that mr sentiment had got nothing from him, and that he was deeply grieved to find that the case had become so notorious. "the fire has gone too far to be quenched," said towers; "the building must go now; and as the timbers are all rotten, why, i should be inclined to say, the sooner the better. i expected to see you get some _éclat_ in the matter." this was all wormwood to bold. he had done enough to make his friend the warden miserable for life, and had then backed out just when the success of his project was sufficient to make the question one of real interest. how weakly he had managed his business! he had already done the harm, and then stayed his hand when the good which he had in view was to be commenced. how delightful would it have been to have employed all his energy in such a cause,--to have been backed by _the jupiter_, and written up to by two of the most popular authors of the day! the idea opened a view into the very world in which he wished to live. to what might it not have given rise? what delightful intimacies,--what public praise,--to what athenian banquets and rich flavour of attic salt? this, however, was now past hope. he had pledged himself to abandon the cause; and could he have forgotten the pledge, he had gone too far to retreat. he was now, this moment, sitting in tom towers' room with the object of deprecating any further articles in _the jupiter_, and, greatly as he disliked the job, his petition to that effect must be made. "i couldn't continue it," said he, "because i found i was in the wrong." tom towers shrugged his shoulders. how could a successful man be in the wrong! "in that case," said he, "of course you must abandon it." "and i called this morning to ask you also to abandon it," said bold. "to ask me," said tom towers, with the most placid of smiles, and a consummate look of gentle surprise, as though tom towers was well aware that he of all men was the last to meddle in such matters. "yes," said bold, almost trembling with hesitation. "_the jupiter_, you know, has taken the matter up very strongly. mr harding has felt what it has said deeply; and i thought that if i could explain to you that he personally has not been to blame, these articles might be discontinued." how calmly impassive was tom towers' face, as this innocent little proposition was made! had bold addressed himself to the doorposts in mount olympus, they would have shown as much outward sign of assent or dissent. his quiescence was quite admirable; his discretion certainly more than human. "my dear fellow," said he, when bold had quite done speaking, "i really cannot answer for _the jupiter_." "but if you saw that these articles were unjust, i think that you would endeavour to put a stop to them. of course nobody doubts that you could, if you chose." "nobody and everybody are always very kind, but unfortunately are generally very wrong." "come, come, towers," said bold, plucking up his courage, and remembering that for eleanor's sake he was bound to make his best exertion; "i have no doubt in my own mind but that you wrote the articles yourself, and very well written they were: it will be a great favour if you will in future abstain from any personal allusion to poor harding." "my dear bold," said tom towers, "i have a sincere regard for you. i have known you for many years, and value your friendship; i hope you will let me explain to you, without offence, that none who are connected with the public press can with propriety listen to interference." "interference!" said bold, "i don't want to interfere." "ah, but, my dear fellow, you do; what else is it? you think that i am able to keep certain remarks out of a newspaper. your information is probably incorrect, as most public gossip on such subjects is; but, at any rate, you think i have such power, and you ask me to use it: now that is interference." "well, if you choose to call it so." "and now suppose for a moment that i had this power, and used it as you wish: isn't it clear that it would be a great abuse? certain men are employed in writing for the public press; and if they are induced either to write or to abstain from writing by private motives, surely the public press would soon be of little value. look at the recognised worth of different newspapers, and see if it does not mainly depend on the assurance which the public feel that such a paper is, or is not, independent. you alluded to _the jupiter_: surely you cannot but see that the weight of _the jupiter_ is too great to be moved by any private request, even though it should be made to a much more influential person than myself: you've only to think of this, and you'll see that i am right." the discretion of tom towers was boundless: there was no contradicting what he said, no arguing against such propositions. he took such high ground that there was no getting on to it. "the public is defrauded," said he, "whenever private considerations are allowed to have weight." quite true, thou greatest oracle of the middle of the nineteenth century, thou sententious proclaimer of the purity of the press;--the public is defrauded when it is purposely misled. poor public! how often is it misled! against what a world of fraud has it to contend! bold took his leave, and got out of the room as quickly as he could, inwardly denouncing his friend tom towers as a prig and a humbug. "i know he wrote those articles," said bold to himself. "i know he got his information from me. he was ready enough to take my word for gospel when it suited his own views, and to set mr harding up before the public as an impostor on no other testimony than my chance conversation; but when i offer him real evidence opposed to his own views, he tells me that private motives are detrimental to public justice! confound his arrogance! what is any public question but a conglomeration of private interests? what is any newspaper article but an expression of the views taken by one side? truth! it takes an age to ascertain the truth of any question! the idea of tom towers talking of public motives and purity of purpose! why, it wouldn't give him a moment's uneasiness to change his politics to-morrow, if the paper required it." such were john bold's inward exclamations as he made his way out of the quiet labyrinth of the temple; and yet there was no position of worldly power so coveted in bold's ambition as that held by the man of whom he was thinking. it was the impregnability of the place which made bold so angry with the possessor of it, and it was the same quality which made it appear so desirable. passing into the strand, he saw in a bookseller's window an announcement of the first number of "the almshouse;" so he purchased a copy, and hurrying back to his lodgings, proceeded to ascertain what mr popular sentiment had to say to the public on the subject which had lately occupied so much of his own attention. in former times great objects were attained by great work. when evils were to be reformed, reformers set about their heavy task with grave decorum and laborious argument. an age was occupied in proving a grievance, and philosophical researches were printed in folio pages, which it took a life to write, and an eternity to read. we get on now with a lighter step, and quicker: ridicule is found to be more convincing than argument, imaginary agonies touch more than true sorrows, and monthly novels convince, when learned quartos fail to do so. if the world is to be set right, the work will be done by shilling numbers. of all such reformers mr sentiment is the most powerful. it is incredible the number of evil practices he has put down: it is to be feared he will soon lack subjects, and that when he has made the working classes comfortable, and got bitter beer put into proper-sized pint bottles, there will be nothing further for him left to do. mr sentiment is certainly a very powerful man, and perhaps not the less so that his good poor people are so very good; his hard rich people so very hard; and the genuinely honest so very honest. namby-pamby in these days is not thrown away if it be introduced in the proper quarters. divine peeresses are no longer interesting, though possessed of every virtue; but a pattern peasant or an immaculate manufacturing hero may talk as much twaddle as one of mrs ratcliffe's heroines, and still be listened to. perhaps, however, mr sentiment's great attraction is in his second-rate characters. if his heroes and heroines walk upon stilts, as heroes and heroines, i fear, ever must, their attendant satellites are as natural as though one met them in the street: they walk and talk like men and women, and live among our friends a rattling, lively life; yes, live, and will live till the names of their calling shall be forgotten in their own, and buckett and mrs gamp will be the only words left to us to signify a detective police officer or a monthly nurse. "the almshouse" opened with a scene in a clergyman's house. every luxury to be purchased by wealth was described as being there: all the appearances of household indulgence generally found amongst the most self-indulgent of the rich were crowded into this abode. here the reader was introduced to the demon of the book, the mephistopheles of the drama. what story was ever written without a demon? what novel, what history, what work of any sort, what world, would be perfect without existing principles both of good and evil? the demon of "the almshouse" was the clerical owner of this comfortable abode. he was a man well stricken in years, but still strong to do evil: he was one who looked cruelly out of a hot, passionate, bloodshot eye; who had a huge red nose with a carbuncle, thick lips, and a great double, flabby chin, which swelled out into solid substance, like a turkey-cock's comb, when sudden anger inspired him: he had a hot, furrowed, low brow, from which a few grizzled hairs were not yet rubbed off by the friction of his handkerchief: he wore a loose unstarched white handkerchief, black loose ill-made clothes, and huge loose shoes, adapted to many corns and various bunions: his husky voice told tales of much daily port wine, and his language was not so decorous as became a clergyman. such was the master of mr sentiment's "almshouse." he was a widower, but at present accompanied by two daughters, and a thin and somewhat insipid curate. one of the young ladies was devoted to her father and the fashionable world, and she of course was the favourite; the other was equally addicted to puseyism and the curate. the second chapter of course introduced the reader to the more especial inmates of the hospital. here were discovered eight old men; and it was given to be understood that four vacancies remained unfilled, through the perverse ill-nature of the clerical gentleman with the double chin. the state of these eight paupers was touchingly dreadful: sixpence-farthing a day had been sufficient for their diet when the almshouse was founded; and on sixpence-farthing a day were they still doomed to starve, though food was four times as dear, and money four times as plentiful. it was shocking to find how the conversation of these eight starved old men in their dormitory shamed that of the clergyman's family in his rich drawing-room. the absolute words they uttered were not perhaps spoken in the purest english, and it might be difficult to distinguish from their dialect to what part of the country they belonged; the beauty of the sentiment, however, amply atoned for the imperfection of the language; and it was really a pity that these eight old men could not be sent through the country as moral missionaries, instead of being immured and starved in that wretched almshouse. bold finished the number; and as he threw it aside, he thought that that at least had no direct appliance to mr harding, and that the absurdly strong colouring of the picture would disenable the work from doing either good or harm. he was wrong. the artist who paints for the million must use glaring colours, as no one knew better than mr sentiment when he described the inhabitants of his almshouse; and the radical reform which has now swept over such establishments has owed more to the twenty numbers of mr sentiment's novel, than to all the true complaints which have escaped from the public for the last half century. chapter xvi a long day in london the warden had to make use of all his very moderate powers of intrigue to give his son-in-law the slip, and get out of barchester without being stopped on his road. no schoolboy ever ran away from school with more precaution and more dread of detection; no convict, slipping down from a prison wall, ever feared to see the gaoler more entirely than mr harding did to see his son-in-law as he drove up in the pony carriage to the railway station, on the morning of his escape to london. the evening before he went he wrote a note to the archdeacon, explaining that he should start on the morrow on his journey; that it was his intention to see the attorney-general if possible, and to decide on his future plans in accordance with what he heard from that gentleman; he excused himself for giving dr grantly no earlier notice, by stating that his resolve was very sudden; and having entrusted this note to eleanor, with the perfect, though not expressed, understanding that it was to be sent over to plumstead episcopi without haste, he took his departure. he also prepared and carried with him a note for sir abraham haphazard, in which he stated his name, explaining that he was the defendant in the case of "the queen on behalf of the wool-carders of barchester _v_. trustees under the will of the late john hiram," for so was the suit denominated, and begged the illustrious and learned gentleman to vouchsafe to him ten minutes' audience at any hour on the next day. mr harding calculated that for that one day he was safe; his son-in-law, he had no doubt, would arrive in town by an early train, but not early enough to reach the truant till he should have escaped from his hotel after breakfast; and could he thus manage to see the lawyer on that very day, the deed might be done before the archdeacon could interfere. on his arrival in town the warden drove, as was his wont, to the chapter hotel and coffee house, near st paul's. his visits to london of late had not been frequent; but in those happy days when "harding's church music" was going through the press, he had been often there; and as the publisher's house was in paternoster row, and the printer's press in fleet street, the chapter hotel and coffee house had been convenient. it was a quiet, sombre, clerical house, beseeming such a man as the warden, and thus he afterwards frequented it. had he dared, he would on this occasion have gone elsewhere to throw the archdeacon further off the scent; but he did not know what violent steps his son-in-law might take for his recovery if he were not found at his usual haunt, and he deemed it not prudent to make himself the object of a hunt through london. arrived at his inn, he ordered dinner, and went forth to the attorney-general's chambers. there he learnt that sir abraham was in court, and would not probably return that day. he would go direct from court to the house; all appointments were, as a rule, made at the chambers; the clerk could by no means promise an interview for the next day; was able, on the other hand, to say that such interview was, he thought, impossible; but that sir abraham would certainly be at the house in the course of the night, where an answer from himself might possibly be elicited. to the house mr harding went, and left his note, not finding sir abraham there. he added a most piteous entreaty that he might be favoured with an answer that evening, for which he would return. he then journeyed back sadly to the chapter coffee house, digesting his great thoughts, as best he might, in a clattering omnibus, wedged in between a wet old lady and a journeyman glazier returning from his work with his tools in his lap. in melancholy solitude he discussed his mutton chop and pint of port. what is there in this world more melancholy than such a dinner? a dinner, though eaten alone, in a country hotel may be worthy of some energy; the waiter, if you are known, will make much of you; the landlord will make you a bow and perhaps put the fish on the table; if you ring you are attended to, and there is some life about it. a dinner at a london eating-house is also lively enough, if it have no other attraction. there is plenty of noise and stir about it, and the rapid whirl of voices and rattle of dishes disperses sadness. but a solitary dinner in an old, respectable, sombre, solid london inn, where nothing makes any noise but the old waiter's creaking shoes; where one plate slowly goes and another slowly comes without a sound; where the two or three guests would as soon think of knocking each other down as of speaking; where the servants whisper, and the whole household is disturbed if an order be given above the voice,--what can be more melancholy than a mutton chop and a pint of port in such a place? having gone through this mr harding got into another omnibus, and again returned to the house. yes, sir abraham was there, and was that moment on his legs, fighting eagerly for the hundred and seventh clause of the convent custody bill. mr harding's note had been delivered to him; and if mr harding would wait some two or three hours, sir abraham could be asked whether there was any answer. the house was not full, and perhaps mr harding might get admittance into the strangers' gallery, which admission, with the help of five shillings, mr harding was able to effect. this bill of sir abraham's had been read a second time and passed into committee. a hundred and six clauses had already been discussed and had occupied only four mornings and five evening sittings; nine of the hundred and six clauses were passed, fifty-five were withdrawn by consent, fourteen had been altered so as to mean the reverse of the original proposition, eleven had been postponed for further consideration, and seventeen had been directly negatived. the hundred and seventh ordered the bodily searching of nuns for jesuitical symbols by aged clergymen, and was considered to be the real mainstay of the whole bill. no intention had ever existed to pass such a law as that proposed, but the government did not intend to abandon it till their object was fully attained by the discussion of this clause. it was known that it would be insisted on with terrible vehemence by protestant irish members, and as vehemently denounced by the roman catholic; and it was justly considered that no further union between the parties would be possible after such a battle. the innocent irish fell into the trap as they always do, and whiskey and poplins became a drug in the market. a florid-faced gentleman with a nice head of hair, from the south of ireland, had succeeded in catching the speaker's eye by the time that mr harding had got into the gallery, and was denouncing the proposed sacrilege, his whole face glowing with a fine theatrical frenzy. "and this is a christian country?" said he. (loud cheers; counter cheers from the ministerial benches. "some doubt as to that," from a voice below the gangway.) "no, it can be no christian country, in which the head of the bar, the lagal adviser (loud laughter and cheers)--yes, i say the lagal adviser of the crown (great cheers and laughter)--can stand up in his seat in this house (prolonged cheers and laughter), and attempt to lagalise indacent assaults on the bodies of religious ladies." (deafening cheers and laughter, which were prolonged till the honourable member resumed his seat.) when mr harding had listened to this and much more of the same kind for about three hours, he returned to the door of the house, and received back from the messenger his own note, with the following words scrawled in pencil on the back of it: "to-morrow, p.m.--my chambers.--a. h." he was so far successful;--but p.m.: what an hour sir abraham had named for a legal interview! mr harding felt perfectly sure that long before that dr grantly would be in london. dr grantly could not, however, know that this interview had been arranged, nor could he learn it unless he managed to get hold of sir abraham before that hour; and as this was very improbable, mr harding determined to start from his hotel early, merely leaving word that he should dine out, and unless luck were much against him, he might still escape the archdeacon till his return from the attorney-general's chambers. he was at breakfast at nine, and for the twentieth time consulted his bradshaw, to see at what earliest hour dr grantly could arrive from barchester. as he examined the columns, he was nearly petrified by the reflection that perhaps the archdeacon might come up by the night-mail train! his heart sank within him at the horrid idea, and for a moment he felt himself dragged back to barchester without accomplishing any portion of his object. then he remembered that had dr grantly done so, he would have been in the hotel, looking for him long since. "waiter," said he, timidly. the waiter approached, creaking in his shoes, but voiceless. "did any gentleman,--a clergyman, arrive here by the night-mail train?" "no, sir, not one," whispered the waiter, putting his mouth nearly close to the warden's ear. mr harding was reassured. "waiter," said he again, and the waiter again creaked up. "if anyone calls for me, i am going to dine out, and shall return about eleven o'clock." the waiter nodded, but did not this time vouchsafe any reply; and mr harding, taking up his hat, proceeded out to pass a long day in the best way he could, somewhere out of sight of the archdeacon. bradshaw had told him twenty times that dr grantly could not be at paddington station till p.m., and our poor friend might therefore have trusted to the shelter of the hotel for some hours longer with perfect safety; but he was nervous. there was no knowing what steps the archdeacon might take for his apprehension: a message by electric telegraph might desire the landlord of the hotel to set a watch upon him; some letter might come which he might find himself unable to disobey; at any rate, he could not feel himself secure in any place at which the archdeacon could expect to find him; and at a.m. he started forth to spend twelve hours in london. mr harding had friends in town had he chosen to seek them; but he felt that he was in no humour for ordinary calls, and he did not now wish to consult with anyone as to the great step which he had determined to take. as he had said to his daughter, no one knows where the shoe pinches but the wearer. there are some points on which no man can be contented to follow the advice of another,--some subjects on which a man can consult his own conscience only. our warden had made up his mind that it was good for him at any cost to get rid of this grievance; his daughter was the only person whose concurrence appeared necessary to him, and she did concur with him most heartily. under such circumstances he would not, if he could help it, consult anyone further, till advice would be useless. should the archdeacon catch him, indeed, there would be much advice, and much consultation of a kind not to be avoided; but he hoped better things; and as he felt that he could not now converse on indifferent subjects, he resolved to see no one till after his interview with the attorney-general. he determined to take sanctuary in westminster abbey, so he again went thither in an omnibus, and finding that the doors were not open for morning service, he paid his twopence, and went in as a sightseer. it occurred to him that he had no definite place of rest for the day, and that he should be absolutely worn out before his interview if he attempted to walk about from a.m. to p.m., so he sat himself down on a stone step, and gazed up at the figure of william pitt, who looks as though he had just entered the church for the first time in his life and was anything but pleased at finding himself there. he had been sitting unmolested about twenty minutes when the verger asked him whether he wouldn't like to walk round. mr harding didn't want to walk anywhere, and declined, merely observing that he was waiting for the morning service. the verger, seeing that he was a clergyman, told him that the doors of the choir were now open, and showed him into a seat. this was a great point gained; the archdeacon would certainly not come to morning service at westminster abbey, even though he were in london; and here the warden could rest quietly, and, when the time came, duly say his prayers. he longed to get up from his seat, and examine the music-books of the choristers, and the copy of the litany from which the service was chanted, to see how far the little details at westminster corresponded with those at barchester, and whether he thought his own voice would fill the church well from the westminster precentor's seat. there would, however, be impropriety in such meddling, and he sat perfectly still, looking up at the noble roof, and guarding against the coming fatigues of the day. by degrees two or three people entered; the very same damp old woman who had nearly obliterated him in the omnibus, or some other just like her; a couple of young ladies with their veils down, and gilt crosses conspicuous on their prayer-books; an old man on crutches; a party who were seeing the abbey, and thought they might as well hear the service for their twopence, as opportunity served; and a young woman with her prayer-book done up in her handkerchief, who rushed in late, and, in her hurried entry, tumbled over one of the forms, and made such a noise that everyone, even the officiating minor canon, was startled, and she herself was so frightened by the echo of her own catastrophe that she was nearly thrown into fits by the panic. mr harding was not much edified by the manner of the service. the minor canon in question hurried in, somewhat late, in a surplice not in the neatest order, and was followed by a dozen choristers, who were also not as trim as they might have been: they all jostled into their places with a quick hurried step, and the service was soon commenced. soon commenced and soon over,--for there was no music, and time was not unnecessarily lost in the chanting. on the whole mr harding was of opinion that things were managed better at barchester, though even there he knew that there was room for improvement. it appears to us a question whether any clergyman can go through our church service with decorum, morning after morning, in an immense building, surrounded by not more than a dozen listeners. the best actors cannot act well before empty benches, and though there is, of course, a higher motive in one case than the other, still even the best of clergymen cannot but be influenced by their audience; and to expect that a duty should be well done under such circumstances, would be to require from human nature more than human power. when the two ladies with the gilt crosses, the old man with his crutch, and the still palpitating housemaid were going, mr harding found himself obliged to go too. the verger stood in his way, and looked at him and looked at the door, and so he went. but he returned again in a few minutes, and re-entered with another twopence. there was no other sanctuary so good for him. as he walked slowly down the nave, and then up one aisle, and then again down the nave and up the other aisle, he tried to think gravely of the step he was about to take. he was going to give up eight hundred a year voluntarily; and doom himself to live for the rest of his life on about a hundred and fifty. he knew that he had hitherto failed to realise this fact as he ought to do. could he maintain his own independence and support his daughter on a hundred and fifty pounds a year without being a burden on anyone? his son-in-law was rich, but nothing could induce him to lean on his son-in-law after acting, as he intended to do, in direct opposition to his son-in-law's counsel. the bishop was rich, but he was about to throw away the bishop's best gift, and that in a manner to injure materially the patronage of the giver: he could neither expect nor accept anything further from the bishop. there would be not only no merit, but positive disgrace, in giving up his wardenship, if he were not prepared to meet the world without it. yes, he must from this time forward bound all his human wishes for himself and his daughter to the poor extent of so limited an income. he knew he had not thought sufficiently of this, that he had been carried away by enthusiasm, and had hitherto not brought home to himself the full reality of his position. he thought most about his daughter, naturally. it was true that she was engaged, and he knew enough of his proposed son-in-law to be sure that his own altered circumstances would make no obstacle to such a marriage; nay, he was sure that the very fact of his poverty would induce bold more anxiously to press the matter; but he disliked counting on bold in this emergency, brought on, as it had been, by his doing. he did not like saying to himself, bold has turned me out of my house and income, and, therefore, he must relieve me of my daughter; he preferred reckoning on eleanor as the companion of his poverty and exile,--as the sharer of his small income. some modest provision for his daughter had been long since made. his life was insured for three thousand pounds, and this sum was to go to eleanor. the archdeacon, for some years past, had paid the premium, and had secured himself by the immediate possession of a small property which was to have gone to mrs grantly after her father's death. this matter, therefore, had been taken out of the warden's hands long since, as, indeed, had all the business transactions of his family, and his anxiety was, therefore, confined to his own life income. yes. a hundred and fifty per annum was very small, but still it might suffice; but how was he to chant the litany at the cathedral on sunday mornings, and get the service done at crabtree parva? true, crabtree church was not quite a mile and a half from the cathedral; but he could not be in two places at once. crabtree was a small village, and afternoon service might suffice, but still this went against his conscience; it was not right that his parishioners should be robbed of any of their privileges on account of his poverty. he might, to be sure, make some arrangements for doing week-day service at the cathedral; but he had chanted the litany at barchester so long, and had a conscious feeling that he did it so well, that he was unwilling to give up the duty. thinking of such things, turning over in his own mind together small desires and grave duties, but never hesitating for a moment as to the necessity of leaving the hospital, mr harding walked up and down the abbey, or sat still meditating on the same stone step, hour after hour. one verger went and another came, but they did not disturb him; every now and then they crept up and looked at him, but they did so with a reverential stare, and, on the whole, mr harding found his retreat well chosen. about four o'clock his comfort was disturbed by an enemy in the shape of hunger. it was necessary that he should dine, and it was clear that he could not dine in the abbey: so he left his sanctuary not willingly, and betook himself to the neighbourhood of the strand to look for food. his eyes had become so accustomed to the gloom of the church, that they were dazed when he got out into the full light of day, and he felt confused and ashamed of himself, as though people were staring at him. he hurried along, still in dread of the archdeacon, till he came to charing cross, and then remembered that in one of his passages through the strand he had seen the words "chops and steaks" on a placard in a shop window. he remembered the shop distinctly; it was next door to a trunk-seller's, and there was a cigar shop on the other side. he couldn't go to his hotel for dinner, which to him hitherto was the only known mode of dining in london at his own expense; and, therefore, he would get a steak at the shop in the strand. archdeacon grantly would certainly not come to such a place for his dinner. he found the house easily,--just as he had observed it, between the trunks and the cigars. he was rather daunted by the huge quantity of fish which he saw in the window. there were barrels of oysters, hecatombs of lobsters, a few tremendous-looking crabs, and a tub full of pickled salmon; not, however, being aware of any connection between shell-fish and iniquity, he entered, and modestly asked a slatternly woman, who was picking oysters out of a great watery reservoir, whether he could have a mutton chop and a potato. the woman looked somewhat surprised, but answered in the affirmative, and a slipshod girl ushered him into a long back room, filled with boxes for the accommodation of parties, in one of which he took his seat. in a more miserably forlorn place he could not have found himself: the room smelt of fish, and sawdust, and stale tobacco smoke, with a slight taint of escaped gas; everything was rough and dirty, and disreputable; the cloth which they put before him was abominable; the knives and forks were bruised, and hacked, and filthy; and everything was impregnated with fish. he had one comfort, however: he was quite alone; there was no one there to look on his dismay; nor was it probable that anyone would come to do so. it was a london supper-house. about one o'clock at night the place would be lively enough, but at the present time his seclusion was as deep as it had been in the abbey. in about half an hour the untidy girl, not yet dressed for her evening labours, brought him his chop and potatoes, and mr harding begged for a pint of sherry. he was impressed with an idea, which was generally prevalent a few years since, and is not yet wholly removed from the minds of men, that to order a dinner at any kind of inn, without also ordering a pint of wine for the benefit of the landlord, was a kind of fraud,--not punishable, indeed, by law, but not the less abominable on that account. mr harding remembered his coming poverty, and would willingly have saved his half-crown, but he thought he had no alternative; and he was soon put in possession of some horrid mixture procured from the neighbouring public-house. his chop and potatoes, however, were eatable, and having got over as best he might the disgust created by the knives and forks, he contrived to swallow his dinner. he was not much disturbed: one young man, with pale face and watery fishlike eyes, wearing his hat ominously on one side, did come in and stare at him, and ask the girl, audibly enough, "who that old cock was;" but the annoyance went no further, and the warden was left seated on his wooden bench in peace, endeavouring to distinguish the different scents arising from lobsters, oysters, and salmon. unknowing as mr harding was in the ways of london, he felt that he had somehow selected an ineligible dining-house, and that he had better leave it. it was hardly five o'clock;--how was he to pass the time till ten? five miserable hours! he was already tired, and it was impossible that he should continue walking so long. he thought of getting into an omnibus, and going out to fulham for the sake of coming back in another: this, however, would be weary work, and as he paid his bill to the woman in the shop, he asked her if there were any place near where he could get a cup of coffee. though she did keep a shellfish supper-house, she was very civil, and directed him to the cigar divan on the other side of the street. mr harding had not a much correcter notion of a cigar divan than he had of a london dinner-house, but he was desperately in want of rest, and went as he was directed. he thought he must have made some mistake when he found himself in a cigar shop, but the man behind the counter saw immediately that he was a stranger, and understood what he wanted. "one shilling, sir,--thank ye, sir,--cigar, sir?--ticket for coffee, sir;--you'll only have to call the waiter. up those stairs, if you please, sir. better take the cigar, sir,--you can always give it to a friend, you know. well, sir, thank ye, sir;--as you are so good, i'll smoke it myself." and so mr harding ascended to the divan, with his ticket for coffee, but minus the cigar. the place seemed much more suitable to his requirements than the room in which he had dined: there was, to be sure, a strong smell of tobacco, to which he was not accustomed; but after the shell-fish, the tobacco did not seem disagreeable. there were quantities of books, and long rows of sofas. what on earth could be more luxurious than a sofa, a book, and a cup of coffee? an old waiter came up to him, with a couple of magazines and an evening paper. was ever anything so civil? would he have a cup of coffee, or would he prefer sherbet? sherbet! was he absolutely in an eastern divan, with the slight addition of all the london periodicals? he had, however, an idea that sherbet should be drunk sitting cross-legged, and as he was not quite up to this, he ordered the coffee. the coffee came, and was unexceptionable. why, this divan was a paradise! the civil old waiter suggested to him a game of chess: though a chess player he was not equal to this, so he declined, and, putting up his weary legs on the sofa, leisurely sipped his coffee, and turned over the pages of his blackwood. he might have been so engaged for about an hour, for the old waiter enticed him to a second cup of coffee, when a musical clock began to play. mr harding then closed his magazine, keeping his place with his finger, and lay, listening with closed eyes to the clock. soon the clock seemed to turn into a violoncello, with piano accompaniments, and mr harding began to fancy the old waiter was the bishop of barchester; he was inexpressibly shocked that the bishop should have brought him his coffee with his own hands; then dr grantly came in, with a basket full of lobsters, which he would not be induced to leave downstairs in the kitchen; and then the warden couldn't quite understand why so many people would smoke in the bishop's drawing-room; and so he fell fast asleep, and his dreams wandered away to his accustomed stall in barchester cathedral, and the twelve old men he was so soon about to leave for ever. he was fatigued, and slept soundly for some time. some sudden stop in the musical clock woke him at length, and he jumped up with a start, surprised to find the room quite full: it had been nearly empty when his nap began. with nervous anxiety he pulled out his watch, and found that it was half-past nine. he seized his hat, and, hurrying downstairs, started at a rapid pace for lincoln's inn. it still wanted twenty minutes to ten when the warden found himself at the bottom of sir abraham's stairs, so he walked leisurely up and down the quiet inn to cool himself. it was a beautiful evening at the end of august. he had recovered from his fatigue; his sleep and the coffee had refreshed him, and he was surprised to find that he was absolutely enjoying himself, when the inn clock struck ten. the sound was hardly over before he knocked at sir abraham's door, and was informed by the clerk who received him that the great man would be with him immediately. chapter xvii sir abraham haphazard mr harding was shown into a comfortable inner sitting-room, looking more like a gentleman's book-room than a lawyer's chambers, and there waited for sir abraham. nor was he kept waiting long: in ten or fifteen minutes he heard a clatter of voices speaking quickly in the passage, and then the attorney-general entered. "very sorry to keep you waiting, mr warden," said sir abraham, shaking hands with him; "and sorry, too, to name so disagreeable an hour; but your notice was short, and as you said to-day, i named the very earliest hour that was not disposed of." mr harding assured him that he was aware that it was he that should apologise. sir abraham was a tall thin man, with hair prematurely gray, but bearing no other sign of age; he had a slight stoop, in his neck rather than his back, acquired by his constant habit of leaning forward as he addressed his various audiences. he might be fifty years old, and would have looked young for his age, had not constant work hardened his features, and given him the appearance of a machine with a mind. his face was full of intellect, but devoid of natural expression. you would say he was a man to use, and then have done with; a man to be sought for on great emergencies, but ill-adapted for ordinary services; a man whom you would ask to defend your property, but to whom you would be sorry to confide your love. he was bright as a diamond, and as cutting, and also as unimpressionable. he knew everyone whom to know was an honour, but he was without a friend; he wanted none, however, and knew not the meaning of the word in other than its parliamentary sense. a friend! had he not always been sufficient to himself, and now, at fifty, was it likely that he should trust another? he was married, indeed, and had children, but what time had he for the soft idleness of conjugal felicity? his working days or term times were occupied from his time of rising to the late hour at which he went to rest, and even his vacations were more full of labour than the busiest days of other men. he never quarrelled with his wife, but he never talked to her;--he never had time to talk, he was so taken up with speaking. she, poor lady, was not unhappy; she had all that money could give her, she would probably live to be a peeress, and she really thought sir abraham the best of husbands. sir abraham was a man of wit, and sparkled among the brightest at the dinner-tables of political grandees: indeed, he always sparkled; whether in society, in the house of commons, or the courts of law, coruscations flew from him; glittering sparkles, as from hot steel, but no heat; no cold heart was ever cheered by warmth from him, no unhappy soul ever dropped a portion of its burden at his door. with him success alone was praiseworthy, and he knew none so successful as himself. no one had thrust him forward; no powerful friends had pushed him along on his road to power. no; he was attorney-general, and would, in all human probability, be lord chancellor by sheer dint of his own industry and his own talent. who else in all the world rose so high with so little help? a premier, indeed! who had ever been premier without mighty friends? an archbishop! yes, the son or grandson of a great noble, or else, probably, his tutor. but he, sir abraham, had had no mighty lord at his back; his father had been a country apothecary, his mother a farmer's daughter. why should he respect any but himself? and so he glitters along through the world, the brightest among the bright; and when his glitter is gone, and he is gathered to his fathers, no eye will be dim with a tear, no heart will mourn for its lost friend. "and so, mr warden," said sir abraham, "all our trouble about this lawsuit is at an end." mr harding said he hoped so, but he didn't at all understand what sir abraham meant. sir abraham, with all his sharpness, could not have looked into his heart and read his intentions. "all over. you need trouble yourself no further about it; of course they must pay the costs, and the absolute expense to you and dr grantly will be trifling,--that is, compared with what it might have been if it had been continued." "i fear i don't quite understand you, sir abraham." "don't you know that their attorneys have noticed us that they have withdrawn the suit?" mr harding explained to the lawyer that he knew nothing of this, although he had heard in a roundabout way that such an intention had been talked of; and he also at length succeeded in making sir abraham understand that even this did not satisfy him. the attorney-general stood up, put his hands into his breeches' pockets, and raised his eyebrows, as mr harding proceeded to detail the grievance from which he now wished to rid himself. "i know i have no right to trouble you personally with this matter, but as it is of most vital importance to me, as all my happiness is concerned in it, i thought i might venture to seek your advice." sir abraham bowed, and declared his clients were entitled to the best advice he could give them; particularly a client so respectable in every way as the warden of barchester hospital. "a spoken word, sir abraham, is often of more value than volumes of written advice. the truth is, i am ill-satisfied with this matter as it stands at present. i do see--i cannot help seeing, that the affairs of the hospital are not arranged according to the will of the founder." "none of such institutions are, mr harding, nor can they be; the altered circumstances in which we live do not admit of it." "quite true--that is quite true; but i can't see that those altered circumstances give me a right to eight hundred a year. i don't know whether i ever read john hiram's will, but were i to read it now i could not understand it. what i want you, sir abraham, to tell me, is this:--am i, as warden, legally and distinctly entitled to the proceeds of the property, after the due maintenance of the twelve bedesmen?" sir abraham declared that he couldn't exactly say in so many words that mr harding was legally entitled to, &c., &c., &c., and ended in expressing a strong opinion that it would be madness to raise any further question on the matter, as the suit was to be,--nay, was, abandoned. mr harding, seated in his chair, began to play a slow tune on an imaginary violoncello. "nay, my dear sir," continued the attorney-general, "there is no further ground for any question; i don't see that you have the power of raising it." "i can resign," said mr harding, slowly playing away with his right hand, as though the bow were beneath the chair in which he was sitting. "what! throw it up altogether?" said the attorney-general, gazing with utter astonishment at his client. "did you see those articles in _the jupiter_?" said mr harding, piteously, appealing to the sympathy of the lawyer. sir abraham said he had seen them. this poor little clergyman, cowed into such an act of extreme weakness by a newspaper article, was to sir abraham so contemptible an object, that he hardly knew how to talk to him as to a rational being. "hadn't you better wait," said he, "till dr grantly is in town with you? wouldn't it be better to postpone any serious step till you can consult with him?" mr harding declared vehemently that he could not wait, and sir abraham began seriously to doubt his sanity. "of course," said the latter, "if you have private means sufficient for your wants, and if this--" "i haven't a sixpence, sir abraham," said the warden. "god bless me! why, mr harding, how do you mean to live?" mr harding proceeded to explain to the man of law that he meant to keep his precentorship,--that was eighty pounds a year; and, also, that he meant to fall back upon his own little living of crabtree, which was another eighty pounds. that, to be sure, the duties of the two were hardly compatible; but perhaps he might effect an exchange. and then, recollecting that the attorney-general would hardly care to hear how the service of a cathedral church is divided among the minor canons, stopped short in his explanations. sir abraham listened in pitying wonder. "i really think, mr harding, you had better wait for the archdeacon. this is a most serious step,--one for which, in my opinion, there is not the slightest necessity; and, as you have done me the honour of asking my advice, i must implore you to do nothing without the approval of your friends. a man is never the best judge of his own position." "a man is the best judge of what he feels himself. i'd sooner beg my bread till my death than read such another article as those two that have appeared, and feel, as i do, that the writer has truth on his side." "have you not a daughter, mr harding--an unmarried daughter?" "i have," said he, now standing also, but still playing away on his fiddle with his hand behind his back. "i have, sir abraham; and she and i are completely agreed on this subject." "pray excuse me, mr harding, if what i say seems impertinent; but surely it is you that should be prudent on her behalf. she is young, and does not know the meaning of living on an income of a hundred and sixty pounds a year. on her account give up this idea. believe me, it is sheer quixotism." the warden walked away to the window, and then back to his chair; and then, irresolute what to say, took another turn to the window. the attorney-general was really extremely patient, but he was beginning to think that the interview had been long enough. "but if this income be not justly mine, what if she and i have both to beg?" said the warden at last, sharply, and in a voice so different from that he had hitherto used, that sir abraham was startled. "if so, it would be better to beg." "my dear sir, nobody now questions its justness." "yes, sir abraham, one does question it,--the most important of all witnesses against me;--i question it myself. my god knows whether or no i love my daughter; but i would sooner that she and i should both beg, than that she should live in comfort on money which is truly the property of the poor. it may seem strange to you, sir abraham, it is strange to myself, that i should have been ten years in that happy home, and not have thought of these things till they were so roughly dinned into my ears. i cannot boast of my conscience, when it required the violence of a public newspaper to awaken it; but, now that it is awake, i must obey it. when i came here, i did not know that the suit was withdrawn by mr bold, and my object was to beg you to abandon my defence. as there is no action, there can be no defence; but it is, at any rate, as well that you should know that from to-morrow i shall cease to be the warden of the hospital. my friends and i differ on this subject, sir abraham, and that adds much to my sorrow; but it cannot be helped." and, as he finished what he had to say, he played up such a tune as never before had graced the chambers of any attorney-general. he was standing up, gallantly fronting sir abraham, and his right arm passed with bold and rapid sweeps before him, as though he were embracing some huge instrument, which allowed him to stand thus erect; and with the fingers of his left hand he stopped, with preternatural velocity, a multitude of strings, which ranged from the top of his collar to the bottom of the lappet of his coat. sir abraham listened and looked in wonder. as he had never before seen mr harding, the meaning of these wild gesticulations was lost upon him; but he perceived that the gentleman who had a few minutes since been so subdued as to be unable to speak without hesitation, was now impassioned,--nay, almost violent. "you'll sleep on this, mr harding, and to-morrow--" "i have done more than sleep upon it," said the warden; "i have lain awake upon it, and that night after night. i found i could not sleep upon it: now i hope to do so." the attorney-general had no answer to make to this; so he expressed a quiet hope that whatever settlement was finally made would be satisfactory; and mr harding withdrew, thanking the great man for his kind attention. mr harding was sufficiently satisfied with the interview to feel a glow of comfort as he descended into the small old square of lincoln's inn. it was a calm, bright, beautiful night, and by the light of the moon, even the chapel of lincoln's inn, and the sombre row of chambers, which surround the quadrangle, looked well. he stood still a moment to collect his thoughts, and reflect on what he had done, and was about to do. he knew that the attorney-general regarded him as little better than a fool, but that he did not mind; he and the attorney-general had not much in common between them; he knew also that others, whom he did care about, would think so too; but eleanor, he was sure, would exult in what he had done, and the bishop, he trusted, would sympathise with him. in the meantime he had to meet the archdeacon, and so he walked slowly down chancery lane and along fleet street, feeling sure that his work for the night was not yet over. when he reached the hotel he rang the bell quietly, and with a palpitating heart; he almost longed to escape round the corner, and delay the coming storm by a further walk round st paul's churchyard, but he heard the slow creaking shoes of the old waiter approaching, and he stood his ground manfully. chapter xviii the warden is very obstinate "dr grantly is here, sir," greeted his ears before the door was well open, "and mrs grantly. they have a sitting-room above, and are waiting up for you." there was something in the tone of the man's voice which seemed to indicate that even he looked upon the warden as a runaway schoolboy, just recaptured by his guardian, and that he pitied the culprit, though he could not but be horrified at the crime. the warden endeavoured to appear unconcerned, as he said, "oh, indeed! i'll go upstairs at once;" but he failed signally. there was, perhaps, a ray of comfort in the presence of his married daughter; that is to say, of comparative comfort, seeing that his son-in-law was there; but how much would he have preferred that they should both have been safe at plumstead episcopi! however, upstairs he went, the waiter slowly preceding him; and on the door being opened the archdeacon was discovered standing in the middle of the room, erect, indeed, as usual, but oh! how sorrowful! and on the dingy sofa behind him reclined his patient wife. "papa, i thought you were never coming back," said the lady; "it's twelve o'clock." "yes, my dear," said the warden. "the attorney-general named ten for my meeting; to be sure ten is late, but what could i do, you know? great men will have their own way." and he gave his daughter a kiss, and shook hands with the doctor, and again tried to look unconcerned. "and you have absolutely been with the attorney-general?" asked the archdeacon. mr harding signified that he had. "good heavens, how unfortunate!" and the archdeacon raised his huge hands in the manner in which his friends are so accustomed to see him express disapprobation and astonishment. "what will sir abraham think of it? did you not know that it is not customary for clients to go direct to their counsel?" "isn't it?" asked the warden, innocently. "well, at any rate, i've done it now. sir abraham didn't seem to think it so very strange." the archdeacon gave a sigh that would have moved a man-of-war. "but, papa, what did you say to sir abraham?" asked the lady. "i asked him, my dear, to explain john hiram's will to me. he couldn't explain it in the only way which would have satisfied me, and so i resigned the wardenship." "resigned it!" said the archdeacon, in a solemn voice, sad and low, but yet sufficiently audible,--a sort of whisper that macready would have envied, and the galleries have applauded with a couple of rounds. "resigned it! good heavens!" and the dignitary of the church sank back horrified into a horsehair arm-chair. "at least i told sir abraham that i would resign; and of course i must now do so." "not at all," said the archdeacon, catching a ray of hope. "nothing that you say in such a way to your own counsel can be in any way binding on you; of course you were there to ask his advice. i'm sure sir abraham did not advise any such step." mr harding could not say that he had. "i am sure he disadvised you from it," continued the reverend cross-examiner. mr harding could not deny this. "i'm sure sir abraham must have advised you to consult your friends." to this proposition also mr harding was obliged to assent. "then your threat of resignation amounts to nothing, and we are just where we were before." mr harding was now standing on the rug, moving uneasily from one foot to the other. he made no distinct answer to the archdeacon's last proposition, for his mind was chiefly engaged on thinking how he could escape to bed. that his resignation was a thing finally fixed on, a fact all but completed, was not in his mind a matter of any doubt; he knew his own weakness; he knew how prone he was to be led; but he was not weak enough to give way now, to go back from the position to which his conscience had driven him, after having purposely come to london to declare his determination: he did not in the least doubt his resolution, but he greatly doubted his power of defending it against his son-in-law. "you must be very tired, susan," said he: "wouldn't you like to go to bed?" but susan didn't want to go till her husband went. she had an idea that her papa might be bullied if she were away: she wasn't tired at all, or at least she said so. the archdeacon was pacing the room, expressing, by certain nods of his head, his opinion of the utter fatuity of his father-in-law. "why," at last he said,--and angels might have blushed at the rebuke expressed in his tone and emphasis,--"why did you go off from barchester so suddenly? why did you take such a step without giving us notice, after what had passed at the palace?" the warden hung his head, and made no reply: he could not condescend to say that he had not intended to give his son-in-law the slip; and as he had not the courage to avow it, he said nothing. "papa has been too much for you," said the lady. the archdeacon took another turn, and again ejaculated, "good heavens!" this time in a very low whisper, but still audible. "i think i'll go to bed," said the warden, taking up a side candle. "at any rate, you'll promise me to take no further step without consultation," said the archdeacon. mr harding made no answer, but slowly proceeded to light his candle. "of course," continued the other, "such a declaration as that you made to sir abraham means nothing. come, warden, promise me this. the whole affair, you see, is already settled, and that with very little trouble or expense. bold has been compelled to abandon his action, and all you have to do is to remain quiet at the hospital." mr harding still made no reply, but looked meekly into his son-in-law's face. the archdeacon thought he knew his father-in-law, but he was mistaken; he thought that he had already talked over a vacillating man to resign his promise. "come," said he, "promise susan to give up this idea of resigning the wardenship." the warden looked at his daughter, thinking probably at the moment that if eleanor were contented with him, he need not so much regard his other child, and said, "i am sure susan will not ask me to break my word, or to do what i know to be wrong." "papa," said she, "it would be madness in you to throw up your preferment. what are you to live on?" "god, that feeds the young ravens, will take care of me also," said mr harding, with a smile, as though afraid of giving offence by making his reference to scripture too solemn. "pish!" said the archdeacon, turning away rapidly. "if the ravens persisted in refusing the food prepared for them, they wouldn't be fed." a clergyman generally dislikes to be met in argument by any scriptural quotation; he feels as affronted as a doctor does, when recommended by an old woman to take some favourite dose, or as a lawyer when an unprofessional man attempts to put him down by a quibble. "i shall have the living of crabtree," modestly suggested the warden. "eighty pounds a year!" sneered the archdeacon. "and the precentorship," said the father-in-law. "it goes with the wardenship," said the son-in-law. mr harding was prepared to argue this point, and began to do so, but dr grantly stopped him. "my dear warden," said he, "this is all nonsense. eighty pounds or a hundred and sixty makes very little difference. you can't live on it,--you can't ruin eleanor's prospects for ever. in point of fact, you can't resign; the bishop wouldn't accept it; the whole thing is settled. what i now want to do is to prevent any inconvenient tittle-tattle,--any more newspaper articles." "that's what i want, too," said the warden. "and to prevent that," continued the other, "we mustn't let any talk of resignation get abroad." "but i shall resign," said the warden, very, very meekly. "good heavens! susan, my dear, what can i say to him?" "but, papa," said mrs grantly, getting up, and putting her arm through that of her father, "what is eleanor to do if you throw away your income?" a hot tear stood in each of the warden's eyes as he looked round upon his married daughter. why should one sister who was so rich predict poverty for another? some such idea as this was on his mind, but he gave no utterance to it. then he thought of the pelican feeding its young with blood from its own breast, but he gave no utterance to that either; and then of eleanor waiting for him at home, waiting to congratulate him on the end of all his trouble. "think of eleanor, papa," said mrs grantly. "i do think of her," said her father. "and you will not do this rash thing?" the lady was really moved beyond her usual calm composure. "it can never be rash to do right," said he. "i shall certainly resign this wardenship." "then, mr harding, there is nothing before you but ruin," said the archdeacon, now moved beyond all endurance. "ruin both for you and eleanor. how do you mean to pay the monstrous expenses of this action?" mrs grantly suggested that, as the action was abandoned, the costs would not be heavy. "indeed they will, my dear," continued he. "one cannot have the attorney-general up at twelve o'clock at night for nothing;--but of course your father has not thought of this." "i will sell my furniture," said the warden. "furniture!" ejaculated the other, with a most powerful sneer. "come, archdeacon," said the lady, "we needn't mind that at present. you know you never expected papa to pay the costs." "such absurdity is enough to provoke job," said the archdeacon, marching quickly up and down the room. "your father is like a child. eight hundred pounds a year!--eight hundred and eighty with the house,--with nothing to do. the very place for him. and to throw that up because some scoundrel writes an article in a newspaper! well;--i have done my duty. if he chooses to ruin his child i cannot help it;" and he stood still at the fire-place, and looked at himself in a dingy mirror which stood on the chimney-piece. there was a pause for about a minute, and then the warden, finding that nothing else was coming, lighted his candle, and quietly said, "good-night." "good-night, papa," said the lady. and so the warden retired; but, as he closed the door behind him, he heard the well-known ejaculation,--slower, lower, more solemn, more ponderous than ever,--"good heavens!" chapter xix the warden resigns the party met the next morning at breakfast; and a very sombre affair it was,--very unlike the breakfasts at plumstead episcopi. there were three thin, small, dry bits of bacon, each an inch long, served up under a huge old plated cover; there were four three-cornered bits of dry toast, and four square bits of buttered toast; there was a loaf of bread, and some oily-looking butter; and on the sideboard there were the remains of a cold shoulder of mutton. the archdeacon, however, had not come up from his rectory to st paul's churchyard to enjoy himself, and therefore nothing was said of the scanty fare. the guests were as sorry as the viands;--hardly anything was said over the breakfast-table. the archdeacon munched his toast in ominous silence, turning over bitter thoughts in his deep mind. the warden tried to talk to his daughter, and she tried to answer him; but they both failed. there were no feelings at present in common between them. the warden was thinking only of getting back to barchester, and calculating whether the archdeacon would expect him to wait for him; and mrs grantly was preparing herself for a grand attack which she was to make on her father, as agreed upon between herself and her husband during their curtain confabulation of that morning. when the waiter had creaked out of the room with the last of the teacups, the archdeacon got up and went to the window as though to admire the view. the room looked out on a narrow passage which runs from st paul's churchyard to paternoster row; and dr grantly patiently perused the names of the three shopkeepers whose doors were in view. the warden still kept his seat at the table, and examined the pattern of the tablecloth; and mrs grantly, seating herself on the sofa, began to knit. after a while the warden pulled his bradshaw out of his pocket, and began laboriously to consult it. there was a train for barchester at a.m. that was out of the question, for it was nearly ten already. another at p.m.; another, the night-mail train, at p.m. the three o'clock train would take him home to tea, and would suit very well. "my dear," said he, "i think i shall go back home at three o'clock to-day. i shall get home at half-past eight. i don't think there's anything to keep me in london." "the archdeacon and i return by the early train to-morrow, papa; won't you wait and go back with us?" "why, eleanor will expect me tonight; and i've so much to do; and--" "much to do!" said the archdeacon sotto voce; but the warden heard him. "you'd better wait for us, papa." "thank ye, my dear! i think i'll go this afternoon." the tamest animal will turn when driven too hard, and even mr harding was beginning to fight for his own way. "i suppose you won't be back before three?" said the lady, addressing her husband. "i must leave this at two," said the warden. "quite out of the question," said the archdeacon, answering his wife, and still reading the shopkeepers' names; "i don't suppose i shall be back till five." there was another long pause, during which mr harding continued to study his bradshaw. "i must go to cox and cummins," said the archdeacon at last. "oh, to cox and cummins," said the warden. it was quite a matter of indifference to him where his son-in-law went. the names of cox and cummins had now no interest in his ears. what had he to do with cox and cummins further, having already had his suit finally adjudicated upon in a court of conscience, a judgment without power of appeal fully registered, and the matter settled so that all the lawyers in london could not disturb it. the archdeacon could go to cox and cummins, could remain there all day in anxious discussion; but what might be said there was no longer matter of interest to him, who was so soon to lay aside the name of warden of barchester hospital. the archdeacon took up his shining new clerical hat, and put on his black new clerical gloves, and looked heavy, respectable, decorous, and opulent, a decided clergyman of the church of england, every inch of him. "i suppose i shall see you at barchester the day after to-morrow," said he. the warden supposed he would. "i must once more beseech you to take no further steps till you see my father; if you owe me nothing," and the archdeacon looked as though he thought a great deal were due to him, "at least you owe so much to my father;" and, without waiting for a reply, dr grantly wended his way to cox and cummins. mrs grantly waited till the last fall of her husband's foot was heard, as he turned out of the court into st paul's churchyard, and then commenced her task of talking her father over. "papa," she began, "this is a most serious business." "indeed it is," said the warden, ringing the bell. "i greatly feel the distress of mind you must have endured." "i am sure you do, my dear;"--and he ordered the waiter to bring him pen, ink, and paper. "are you going to write, papa?" "yes, my dear;--i am going to write my resignation to the bishop." "pray, pray, papa, put it off till our return;--pray put it off till you have seen the bishop;--dear papa! for my sake, for eleanor's!--" "it is for your sake and eleanor's that i do this. i hope, at least, that my children may never have to be ashamed of their father." "how can you talk about shame, papa?" and she stopped while the waiter creaked in with the paper, and then slowly creaked out again; "how can you talk about shame? you know what all your friends think about this question." the warden spread his paper on the table, placing it on the meagre blotting-book which the hotel afforded, and sat himself down to write. "you won't refuse me one request, papa?" continued his daughter; "you won't refuse to delay your letter for two short days? two days can make no possible difference." "my dear," said he naïvely, "if i waited till i got to barchester, i might, perhaps, be prevented." "but surely you would not wish to offend the bishop?" said she. "god forbid! the bishop is not apt to take offence, and knows me too well to take in bad part anything that i may be called on to do." "but, papa--" "susan," said he, "my mind on this subject is made up; it is not without much repugnance that i act in opposition to the advice of such men as sir abraham haphazard and the archdeacon; but in this matter i can take no advice, i cannot alter the resolution to which i have come." "but two days, papa--" "no;--nor can i delay it. you may add to my present unhappiness by pressing me, but you cannot change my purpose; it will be a comfort to me if you will let the matter rest": and, dipping his pen into the inkstand, he fixed his eyes intently on the paper. there was something in his manner which taught his daughter to perceive that he was in earnest; she had at one time ruled supreme in her father's house, but she knew that there were moments when, mild and meek as he was, he would have his way, and the present was an occasion of the sort. she returned, therefore, to her knitting, and very shortly after left the room. the warden was now at liberty to compose his letter, and, as it was characteristic of the man, it shall be given at full length. the official letter, which, when written, seemed to him to be too formally cold to be sent alone to so dear a friend, was accompanied by a private note; and both are here inserted. the letter of resignation ran as follows:-- chapter hotel, st. paul's, london, august, -- my lord bishop, it is with the greatest pain that i feel myself constrained to resign into your lordship's hands the wardenship of the hospital at barchester, which you so kindly conferred upon me, now nearly twelve years since. i need not explain the circumstances which have made this step appear necessary to me. you are aware that a question has arisen as to the right of the warden to the income which has been allotted to the wardenship; it has seemed to me that this right is not well made out, and i hesitate to incur the risk of taking an income to which my legal claim appears doubtful. the office of precentor of the cathedral is, as your lordship is aware, joined to that of the warden; that is to say, the precentor has for many years been the warden of the hospital; there is, however, nothing to make the junction of the two offices necessary, and, unless you or the dean and chapter object to such an arrangement, i would wish to keep the precentorship. the income of this office will now be necessary to me; indeed, i do not know why i should be ashamed to say that i should have difficulty in supporting myself without it. your lordship, and such others as you may please to consult on the matter, will at once see that my resignation of the wardenship need offer not the slightest bar to its occupation by another person. i am thought in the wrong by all those whom i have consulted in the matter; i have very little but an inward and an unguided conviction of my own to bring me to this step, and i shall, indeed, be hurt to find that any slur is thrown on the preferment which your kindness bestowed on me, by my resignation of it. i, at any rate for one, shall look on any successor whom you may appoint as enjoying a clerical situation of the highest respectability, and one to which your lordship's nomination gives an indefeasible right. i cannot finish this official letter without again thanking your lordship for all your great kindness, and i beg to subscribe myself-- your lordship's most obedient servant, septimus harding, warden of barchester hospital, and precentor of the cathedral. he then wrote the following private note:-- my dear bishop, i cannot send you the accompanying official letter without a warmer expression of thanks for all your kindness than would befit a document which may to a certain degree be made public. you, i know, will understand the feeling, and, perhaps, pity the weakness which makes me resign the hospital. i am not made of calibre strong enough to withstand public attack. were i convinced that i stood on ground perfectly firm, that i was certainly justified in taking eight hundred a year under hiram's will, i should feel bound by duty to retain the position, however unendurable might be the nature of the assault; but, as i do not feel this conviction, i cannot believe that you will think me wrong in what i am doing. i had at one time an idea of keeping only some moderate portion of the income; perhaps three hundred a year, and of remitting the remainder to the trustees; but it occurred to me, and i think with reason, that by so doing i should place my successors in an invidious position, and greatly damage your patronage. my dear friend, let me have a line from you to say that you do not blame me for what i am doing, and that the officiating vicar of crabtree parva will be the same to you as the warden of the hospital. i am very anxious about the precentorship: the archdeacon thinks it must go with the wardenship; i think not, and, that, having it, i cannot be ousted. i will, however, be guided by you and the dean. no other duty will suit me so well, or come so much within my power of adequate performance. i thank you from my heart for the preferment which i am now giving up, and for all your kindness, and am, dear bishop, now as always-- yours most sincerely, septimus harding london,--august, -- having written these letters and made a copy of the former one for the benefit of the archdeacon, mr harding, whom we must now cease to call the warden, he having designated himself so for the last time, found that it was nearly two o'clock, and that he must prepare for his journey. yes, from this time he never again admitted the name by which he had been so familiarly known, and in which, to tell the truth, he had rejoiced. the love of titles is common to all men, and a vicar or fellow is as pleased at becoming mr archdeacon or mr provost, as a lieutenant at getting his captaincy, or a city tallow-chandler in becoming sir john on the occasion of a queen's visit to a new bridge. but warden he was no longer, and the name of precentor, though the office was to him so dear, confers in itself no sufficient distinction; our friend, therefore, again became mr harding. mrs grantly had gone out; he had, therefore, no one to delay him by further entreaties to postpone his journey; he had soon arranged his bag, and paid his bill, and, leaving a note for his daughter, in which he put the copy of his official letter, he got into a cab and drove away to the station with something of triumph in his heart. had he not cause for triumph? had he not been supremely successful? had he not for the first time in his life held his own purpose against that of his son-in-law, and manfully combated against great odds,--against the archdeacon's wife as well as the archdeacon? had he not gained a great victory, and was it not fit that he should step into his cab with triumph? he had not told eleanor when he would return, but she was on the look-out for him by every train by which he could arrive, and the pony-carriage was at the barchester station when the train drew up at the platform. "my dear," said he, sitting beside her, as she steered her little vessel to one side of the road to make room for the clattering omnibus as they passed from the station into the town, "i hope you'll be able to feel a proper degree of respect for the vicar of crabtree." "dear papa," said she, "i am so glad." there was great comfort in returning home to that pleasant house, though he was to leave it so soon, and in discussing with his daughter all that he had done, and all that he had to do. it must take some time to get out of one house into another; the curate at crabtree could not be abolished under six months, that is, unless other provision could be made for him; and then the furniture:--the most of that must be sold to pay sir abraham haphazard for sitting up till twelve at night. mr harding was strangely ignorant as to lawyers' bills; he had no idea, from twenty pounds to two thousand, as to the sum in which he was indebted for legal assistance. true, he had called in no lawyer himself; true, he had been no consenting party to the employment of either cox and cummins, or sir abraham; he had never been consulted on such matters;--the archdeacon had managed all this himself, never for a moment suspecting that mr harding would take upon him to end the matter in a way of his own. had the lawyers' bills been ten thousand pounds, mr harding could not have helped it; but he was not on that account disposed to dispute his own liability. the question never occurred to him; but it did occur to him that he had very little money at his banker's, that he could receive nothing further from the hospital, and that the sale of the furniture was his only resource. "not all, papa," said eleanor pleadingly. "not quite all, my dear," said he; "that is, if we can help it. we must have a little at crabtree,--but it can only be a little; we must put a bold front on it, nelly; it isn't easy to come down from affluence to poverty." and so they planned their future mode of life; the father taking comfort from the reflection that his daughter would soon be freed from it, and she resolving that her father would soon have in her own house a ready means of escape from the solitude of the crabtree vicarage. when the archdeacon left his wife and father-in-law at the chapter coffee house to go to messrs cox and cummins, he had no very defined idea of what he had to do when he got there. gentlemen when at law, or in any way engaged in matters requiring legal assistance, are very apt to go to their lawyers without much absolute necessity;--gentlemen when doing so, are apt to describe such attendance as quite compulsory, and very disagreeable. the lawyers, on the other hand, do not at all see the necessity, though they quite agree as to the disagreeable nature of the visit;--gentlemen when so engaged are usually somewhat gravelled at finding nothing to say to their learned friends; they generally talk a little politics, a little weather, ask some few foolish questions about their suit, and then withdraw, having passed half an hour in a small dingy waiting-room, in company with some junior assistant-clerk, and ten minutes with the members of the firm; the business is then over for which the gentleman has come up to london, probably a distance of a hundred and fifty miles. to be sure he goes to the play, and dines at his friend's club, and has a bachelor's liberty and bachelor's recreation for three or four days; and he could not probably plead the desire of such gratifications as a reason to his wife for a trip to london. married ladies, when your husbands find they are positively obliged to attend their legal advisers, the nature of the duty to be performed is generally of this description. the archdeacon would not have dreamt of leaving london without going to cox and cummins; and yet he had nothing to say to them. the game was up; he plainly saw that mr harding in this matter was not to be moved; his only remaining business on this head was to pay the bill and have done with it; and i think it may be taken for granted, that whatever the cause may be that takes a gentleman to a lawyer's chambers, he never goes there to pay his bill. dr grantly, however, in the eyes of messrs cox and cummins, represented the spiritualities of the diocese of barchester, as mr chadwick did the temporalities, and was, therefore, too great a man to undergo the half-hour in the clerk's room. it will not be necessary that we should listen to the notes of sorrow in which the archdeacon bewailed to mr cox the weakness of his father-in-law, and the end of all their hopes of triumph; nor need we repeat the various exclamations of surprise with which the mournful intelligence was received. no tragedy occurred, though mr cox, a short and somewhat bull-necked man, was very near a fit of apoplexy when he first attempted to ejaculate that fatal word--resign! over and over again did mr cox attempt to enforce on the archdeacon the propriety of urging on mr warden the madness of the deed he was about to do. "eight hundred a year!" said mr cox. "and nothing whatever to do!" said mr cummins, who had joined the conference. "no private fortune, i believe," said mr cox. "not a shilling," said mr cummins, in a very low voice, shaking his head. "i never heard of such a case in all my experience," said mr cox. "eight hundred a year, and as nice a house as any gentleman could wish to hang up his hat in," said mr cummins. "and an unmarried daughter, i believe," said mr cox, with much moral seriousness in his tone. the archdeacon only sighed as each separate wail was uttered, and shook his head, signifying that the fatuity of some people was past belief. "i'll tell you what he might do," said mr cummins, brightening up. "i'll tell you how you might save it:--let him exchange." "exchange where?" said the archdeacon. "exchange for a living. there's quiverful, of puddingdale;--he has twelve children, and would be delighted to get the hospital. to be sure puddingdale is only four hundred, but that would be saving something out of the fire: mr harding would have a curate, and still keep three hundred or three hundred and fifty." the archdeacon opened his ears and listened; he really thought the scheme might do. "the newspapers," continued mr cummins, "might hammer away at quiverful every day for the next six months without his minding them." the archdeacon took up his hat, and returned to his hotel, thinking the matter over deeply. at any rate he would sound quiverful. a man with twelve children would do much to double his income. chapter xx farewell on the morning after mr harding's return home he received a note from the bishop full of affection, condolence, and praise. "pray come to me at once," wrote the bishop, "that we may see what had better be done; as to the hospital, i will not say a word to dissuade you; but i don't like your going to crabtree: at any rate, come to me at once." mr harding did go to him at once; and long and confidential was the consultation between the two old friends. there they sat together the whole long day, plotting to get the better of the archdeacon, and to carry out little schemes of their own, which they knew would be opposed by the whole weight of his authority. the bishop's first idea was, that mr harding, if left to himself, would certainly starve,--not in the figurative sense in which so many of our ladies and gentlemen do starve on incomes from one to five hundred a year; not that he would be starved as regarded dress coats, port wine, and pocket-money; but that he would positively perish of inanition for want of bread. "how is a man to live, when he gives up all his income?" said the bishop to himself. and then the good-natured little man began to consider how his friend might be best rescued from a death so horrid and painful. his first proposition to mr harding was, that they should live together at the palace. he, the bishop, positively assured mr harding that he wanted another resident chaplain,--not a young working chaplain, but a steady, middle-aged chaplain; one who would dine and drink a glass of wine with him, talk about the archdeacon, and poke the fire. the bishop did not positively name all these duties, but he gave mr harding to understand that such would be the nature of the service required. it was not without much difficulty that mr harding made his friend see that this would not suit him; that he could not throw up the bishop's preferment, and then come and hang on at the bishop's table; that he could not allow people to say of him that it was an easy matter to abandon his own income, as he was able to sponge on that of another person. he succeeded, however, in explaining that the plan would not do, and then the bishop brought forward another which he had in his sleeve. he, the bishop, had in his will left certain moneys to mr harding's two daughters, imagining that mr harding would himself want no such assistance during his own lifetime. this legacy amounted to three thousand pounds each, duty free; and he now pressed it as a gift on his friend. "the girls, you know," said he, "will have it just the same when you're gone,--and they won't want it sooner;--and as for the interest during my lifetime, it isn't worth talking about. i have more than enough." with much difficulty and heartfelt sorrow, mr harding refused also this offer. no; his wish was to support himself, however poorly,--not to be supported on the charity of anyone. it was hard to make the bishop understand this; it was hard to make him comprehend that the only real favour he could confer was the continuation of his independent friendship; but at last even this was done. at any rate, thought the bishop, he will come and dine with me from time to time, and if he be absolutely starving i shall see it. touching the precentorship, the bishop was clearly of opinion that it could be held without the other situation,--an opinion from which no one differed; and it was therefore soon settled among all the parties concerned, that mr harding should still be the precentor of the cathedral. on the day following mr harding's return, the archdeacon reached plumstead full of mr cummins's scheme regarding puddingdale and mr quiverful. on the very next morning he drove over to puddingdale, and obtained the full consent of the wretched clerical priam, who was endeavouring to feed his poor hecuba and a dozen of hectors on the small proceeds of his ecclesiastical kingdom. mr quiverful had no doubts as to the legal rights of the warden; his conscience would be quite clear as to accepting the income; and as to _the jupiter_, he begged to assure the archdeacon that he was quite indifferent to any emanations from the profane portion of the periodical press. having so far succeeded, he next sounded the bishop; but here he was astonished by most unexpected resistance. the bishop did not think it would do. "not do, why not?" and seeing that his father was not shaken, he repeated the question in a severer form: "why not do, my lord?" his lordship looked very unhappy, and shuffled about in his chair, but still didn't give way; he thought puddingdale wouldn't do for mr harding; it was too far from barchester. "oh! of course he'll have a curate." the bishop also thought that mr quiverful wouldn't do for the hospital; such an exchange wouldn't look well at such a time; and, when pressed harder, he declared he didn't think mr harding would accept of puddingdale under any circumstances. "how is he to live?" demanded the archdeacon. the bishop, with tears in his eyes, declared that he had not the slightest conception how life was to be sustained within him at all. the archdeacon then left his father, and went down to the hospital; but mr harding wouldn't listen at all to the puddingdale scheme. to his eyes it had no attraction; it savoured of simony, and was likely to bring down upon him harder and more deserved strictures than any he had yet received: he positively declined to become vicar of puddingdale under any circumstances. the archdeacon waxed wroth, talked big, and looked bigger; he said something about dependence and beggary, spoke of the duty every man was under to earn his bread, made passing allusions to the follies of youth and waywardness of age, as though mr harding were afflicted by both, and ended by declaring that he had done. he felt that he had left no stone unturned to arrange matters on the best and easiest footing; that he had, in fact, so arranged them, that he had so managed that there was no further need of any anxiety in the matter. and how had he been paid? his advice had been systematically rejected; he had been not only slighted, but distrusted and avoided; he and his measures had been utterly thrown over, as had been sir abraham, who, he had reason to know, was much pained at what had occurred. he now found it was useless to interfere any further, and he should retire. if any further assistance were required from him, he would probably be called on, and should be again happy to come forward. and so he left the hospital, and has not since entered it from that day to this. and here we must take leave of archdeacon grantly. we fear that he is represented in these pages as being worse than he is; but we have had to do with his foibles, and not with his virtues. we have seen only the weak side of the man, and have lacked the opportunity of bringing him forward on his strong ground. that he is a man somewhat too fond of his own way, and not sufficiently scrupulous in his manner of achieving it, his best friends cannot deny. that he is bigoted in favour, not so much of his doctrines as of his cloth, is also true: and it is true that the possession of a large income is a desire that sits near his heart. nevertheless, the archdeacon is a gentleman and a man of conscience; he spends his money liberally, and does the work he has to do with the best of his ability; he improves the tone of society of those among whom he lives. his aspirations are of a healthy, if not of the highest, kind. though never an austere man, he upholds propriety of conduct both by example and precept. he is generous to the poor, and hospitable to the rich; in matters of religion he is sincere, and yet no pharisee; he is in earnest, and yet no fanatic. on the whole, the archdeacon of barchester is a man doing more good than harm,--a man to be furthered and supported, though perhaps also to be controlled; and it is matter of regret to us that the course of our narrative has required that we should see more of his weakness than his strength. mr harding allowed himself no rest till everything was prepared for his departure from the hospital. it may be as well to mention that he was not driven to the stern necessity of selling all his furniture: he had been quite in earnest in his intention to do so, but it was soon made known to him that the claims of messrs cox and cummins made no such step obligatory. the archdeacon had thought it wise to make use of the threat of the lawyer's bill, to frighten his father-in-law into compliance; but he had no intention to saddle mr harding with costs, which had been incurred by no means exclusively for his benefit. the amount of the bill was added to the diocesan account, and was, in fact, paid out of the bishop's pocket, without any consciousness on the part of his lordship. a great part of his furniture he did resolve to sell, having no other means to dispose of it; and the ponies and carriage were transferred, by private contract, to the use of an old maiden lady in the city. for his present use mr harding took a lodging in barchester, and thither were conveyed such articles as he wanted for daily use:--his music, books, and instruments, his own arm-chair, and eleanor's pet sofa; her teapoy and his cellaret, and also the slender but still sufficient contents of his wine-cellar. mrs grantly had much wished that her sister would reside at plumstead, till her father's house at crabtree should be ready for her; but eleanor herself strongly resisted this proposal. it was in vain urged upon her, that a lady in lodgings cost more than a gentleman; and that, under her father's present circumstances, such an expense should be avoided. eleanor had not pressed her father to give up the hospital in order that she might live at plumstead rectory and he alone in his barchester lodgings; nor did eleanor think that she would be treating a certain gentleman very fairly, if she betook herself to the house which he would be the least desirous of entering of any in the county. so she got a little bedroom for herself behind the sitting-room, and just over the little back parlour of the chemist, with whom they were to lodge. there was somewhat of a savour of senna softened by peppermint about the place; but, on the whole, the lodgings were clean and comfortable. the day had been fixed for the migration of the ex-warden, and all barchester were in a state of excitement on the subject. opinion was much divided as to the propriety of mr harding's conduct. the mercantile part of the community, the mayor and corporation, and council, also most of the ladies, were loud in his praise. nothing could be more noble, nothing more generous, nothing more upright. but the gentry were of a different way of thinking,--especially the lawyers and the clergymen. they said such conduct was very weak and undignified; that mr harding evinced a lamentable want of _esprit de corps_, as well as courage; and that such an abdication must do much harm, and could do but little good. on the evening before he left, he summoned all the bedesmen into his parlour to wish them good-bye. with bunce he had been in frequent communication since his return from london, and had been at much pains to explain to the old man the cause of his resignation, without in any way prejudicing the position of his successor. the others, also, he had seen more or less frequently; and had heard from most of them separately some expression of regret at his departure; but he had postponed his farewell till the last evening. he now bade the maid put wine and glasses on the table; and had the chairs arranged around the room; and sent bunce to each of the men to request they would come and say farewell to their late warden. soon the noise of aged scuffling feet was heard upon the gravel and in the little hall, and the eleven men who were enabled to leave their rooms were assembled. "come in, my friends, come in," said the warden;--he was still warden then. "come in, and sit down;" and he took the hand of abel handy, who was the nearest to him, and led the limping grumbler to a chair. the others followed slowly and bashfully; the infirm, the lame, and the blind: poor wretches! who had been so happy, had they but known it! now their aged faces were covered with shame, and every kind word from their master was a coal of fire burning on their heads. when first the news had reached them that mr harding was going to leave the hospital, it had been received with a kind of triumph;--his departure was, as it were, a prelude to success. he had admitted his want of right to the money about which they were disputing; and as it did not belong to him, of course, it did to them. the one hundred a year to each of them was actually becoming a reality; and abel handy was a hero, and bunce a faint-hearted sycophant, worthy neither honour nor fellowship. but other tidings soon made their way into the old men's rooms. it was first notified to them that the income abandoned by mr harding would not come to them; and these accounts were confirmed by attorney finney. they were then informed that mr harding's place would be at once filled by another. that the new warden could not be a kinder man they all knew; that he would be a less friendly one most suspected; and then came the bitter information that, from the moment of mr harding's departure, the twopence a day, his own peculiar gift, must of necessity be withdrawn. and this was to be the end of all their mighty struggle,--of their fight for their rights,--of their petition, and their debates, and their hopes! they were to change the best of masters for a possible bad one, and to lose twopence a day each man! no; unfortunate as this was, it was not the worst, or nearly the worst, as will just now be seen. "sit down, sit down, my friends," said the warden; "i want to say a word to you and to drink your healths, before i leave you. come up here, moody, here is a chair for you; come, jonathan crumple;"--and by degrees he got the men to be seated. it was not surprising that they should hang back with faint hearts, having returned so much kindness with such deep ingratitude. last of all of them came bunce, and with sorrowful mien and slow step got into his accustomed seat near the fire-place. when they were all in their places, mr harding rose to address them; and then finding himself not quite at home on his legs, he sat down again. "my dear old friends," said he, "you all know that i am going to leave you." there was a sort of murmur ran round the room, intended, perhaps, to express regret at his departure; but it was but a murmur, and might have meant that or anything else. "there has been lately some misunderstanding between us. you have thought, i believe, that you did not get all that you were entitled to, and that the funds of the hospital have not been properly disposed of. as for me, i cannot say what should be the disposition of these moneys, or how they should be managed, and i have therefore thought it best to go." "we never wanted to drive your reverence out of it," said handy. "no, indeed, your reverence," said skulpit. "we never thought it would come to this. when i signed the petition,--that is, i didn't sign it, because--" "let his reverence speak, can't you?" said moody. "no," continued mr harding; "i am sure you did not wish to turn me out; but i thought it best to leave you. i am not a very good hand at a lawsuit, as you may all guess; and when it seemed necessary that our ordinary quiet mode of living should be disturbed, i thought it better to go. i am neither angry nor offended with any man in the hospital." here bunce uttered a kind of groan, very clearly expressive of disagreement. "i am neither angry nor displeased with any man in the hospital," repeated mr harding, emphatically. "if any man has been wrong,--and i don't say any man has,--he has erred through wrong advice. in this country all are entitled to look for their own rights, and you have done no more. as long as your interests and my interests were at variance, i could give you no counsel on this subject; but the connection between us has ceased; my income can no longer depend on your doings, and therefore, as i leave you, i venture to offer to you my advice." the men all declared that they would from henceforth be entirely guided by mr harding's opinion in their affairs. "some gentleman will probably take my place here very soon, and i strongly advise you to be prepared to receive him in a kindly spirit and to raise no further question among yourselves as to the amount of his income. were you to succeed in lessening what he has to receive, you would not increase your own allowance. the surplus would not go to you; your wants are adequately provided for, and your position could hardly be improved." "god bless your reverence, we knows it," said spriggs. "it's all true, your reverence," said skulpit. "we sees it all now." "yes, mr harding," said bunce, opening his mouth for the first time; "i believe they do understand it now, now that they've driven from under the same roof with them such a master as not one of them will ever know again,--now that they're like to be in sore want of a friend." "come, come, bunce," said mr harding, blowing his nose and manoeuvring to wipe his eyes at the same time. "oh, as to that," said handy, "we none of us never wanted to do mr harding no harm; if he's going now, it's not along of us; and i don't see for what mr bunce speaks up agen us that way." "you've ruined yourselves, and you've ruined me too, and that's why," said bunce. "nonsense, bunce," said mr harding; "there's nobody ruined at all. i hope you'll let me leave you all friends; i hope you'll all drink a glass of wine in friendly feeling with me and with one another. you'll have a good friend, i don't doubt, in your new warden; and if ever you want any other, why after all i'm not going so far off but that i shall sometimes see you;" and then, having finished his speech, mr harding filled all the glasses, and himself handed each a glass to the men round him, and raising his own said:-- "god bless you all! you have my heartfelt wishes for your welfare. i hope you may live contented, and die trusting in the lord jesus christ, and thankful to almighty god for the good things he has given you. god bless you, my friends!" and mr harding drank his wine. another murmur, somewhat more articulate than the first, passed round the circle, and this time it was intended to imply a blessing on mr harding. it had, however, but little cordiality in it. poor old men! how could they be cordial with their sore consciences and shamed faces? how could they bid god bless him with hearty voices and a true benison, knowing, as they did, that their vile cabal had driven him from his happy home, and sent him in his old age to seek shelter under a strange roof-tree? they did their best, however; they drank their wine, and withdrew. as they left the hall-door, mr harding shook hands with each of the men, and spoke a kind word to them about their individual cases and ailments; and so they departed, answering his questions in the fewest words, and retreated to their dens, a sorrowful repentant crew. all but bunce, who still remained to make his own farewell. "there's poor old bell," said mr harding; "i mustn't go without saying a word to him; come through with me, bunce, and bring the wine with you;" and so they went through to the men's cottages, and found the old man propped up as usual in his bed. "i've come to say good-bye to you, bell," said mr harding, speaking loud, for the old man was deaf. "and are you going away, then, really?" asked bell. "indeed i am, and i've brought you a glass of wine; so that we may part friends, as we lived, you know." the old man took the proffered glass in his shaking hands, and drank it eagerly. "god bless you, bell!" said mr harding; "good-bye, my old friend." "and so you're really going?" the man again asked. "indeed i am, bell." the poor old bed-ridden creature still kept mr harding's hand in his own, and the warden thought that he had met with something like warmth of feeling in the one of all his subjects from whom it was the least likely to be expected; for poor old bell had nearly outlived all human feelings. "and your reverence," said he, and then he paused, while his old palsied head shook horribly, and his shrivelled cheeks sank lower within his jaws, and his glazy eye gleamed with a momentary light; "and your reverence, shall we get the hundred a year, then?" how gently did mr harding try to extinguish the false hope of money which had been so wretchedly raised to disturb the quiet of the dying man! one other week and his mortal coil would be shuffled off; in one short week would god resume his soul, and set it apart for its irrevocable doom; seven more tedious days and nights of senseless inactivity, and all would be over for poor bell in this world; and yet, with his last audible words, he was demanding his moneyed rights, and asserting himself to be the proper heir of john hiram's bounty! not on him, poor sinner as he was, be the load of such sin! mr harding returned to his parlour, meditating with a sick heart on what he had seen, and bunce with him. we will not describe the parting of these two good men, for good men they were. it was in vain that the late warden endeavoured to comfort the heart of the old bedesman; poor old bunce felt that his days of comfort were gone. the hospital had to him been a happy home, but it could be so no longer. he had had honour there, and friendship; he had recognised his master, and been recognised; all his wants, both of soul and body, had been supplied, and he had been a happy man. he wept grievously as he parted from his friend, and the tears of an old man are bitter. "it is all over for me in this world," said he, as he gave the last squeeze to mr harding's hand; "i have now to forgive those who have injured me;--and to die." and so the old man went out, and then mr harding gave way to his grief and he too wept aloud. chapter xxi conclusion our tale is now done, and it only remains to us to collect the scattered threads of our little story, and to tie them into a seemly knot. this will not be a work of labour, either to the author or to his readers; we have not to deal with many personages, or with stirring events, and were it not for the custom of the thing, we might leave it to the imagination of all concerned to conceive how affairs at barchester arranged themselves. on the morning after the day last alluded to, mr harding, at an early hour, walked out of the hospital, with his daughter under his arm, and sat down quietly to breakfast at his lodgings over the chemist's shop. there was no parade about his departure; no one, not even bunce, was there to witness it; had he walked to the apothecary's thus early to get a piece of court plaster, or a box of lozenges, he could not have done it with less appearance of an important movement. there was a tear in eleanor's eye as she passed through the big gateway and over the bridge; but mr harding walked with an elastic step, and entered his new abode with a pleasant face. "now, my dear," said he, "you have everything ready, and you can make tea here just as nicely as in the parlour at the hospital." so eleanor took off her bonnet and made the tea. after this manner did the late warden of barchester hospital accomplish his flitting, and change his residence. it was not long before the archdeacon brought his father to discuss the subject of a new warden. of course he looked upon the nomination as his own, and he had in his eye three or four fitting candidates, seeing that mr cummins's plan as to the living of puddingdale could not be brought to bear. how can i describe the astonishment which confounded him, when his father declared that he would appoint no successor to mr harding? "if we can get the matter set to rights, mr harding will return," said the bishop; "and if we cannot, it will be wrong to put any other gentleman into so cruel a position." it was in vain that the archdeacon argued and lectured, and even threatened; in vain he my-lorded his poor father in his sternest manner; in vain his "good heavens!" were ejaculated in a tone that might have moved a whole synod, let alone one weak and aged bishop. nothing could induce his father to fill up the vacancy caused by mr harding's retirement. even john bold would have pitied the feelings with which the archdeacon returned to plumstead: the church was falling, nay, already in ruins; its dignitaries were yielding without a struggle before the blows of its antagonists; and one of its most respected bishops, his own father,--the man considered by all the world as being in such matters under his, dr grantly's, control,--had positively resolved to capitulate, and own himself vanquished! and how fared the hospital under this resolve of its visitor? badly indeed. it is now some years since mr harding left it, and the warden's house is still tenantless. old bell has died, and billy gazy; the one-eyed spriggs has drunk himself to death, and three others of the twelve have been gathered into the churchyard mould. six have gone, and the six vacancies remain unfilled! yes, six have died, with no kind friend to solace their last moments, with no wealthy neighbour to administer comforts and ease the stings of death. mr harding, indeed, did not desert them; from him they had such consolation as a dying man may receive from his christian pastor; but it was the occasional kindness of a stranger which ministered to them, and not the constant presence of a master, a neighbour, and a friend. nor were those who remained better off than those who died. dissensions rose among them, and contests for pre-eminence; and then they began to understand that soon one among them would be the last,--some one wretched being would be alone there in that now comfortless hospital,--the miserable relic of what had once been so good and so comfortable. the building of the hospital itself has not been allowed to go to ruins. mr chadwick, who still holds his stewardship, and pays the accruing rents into an account opened at a bank for the purpose, sees to that; but the whole place has become disordered and ugly. the warden's garden is a wretched wilderness, the drive and paths are covered with weeds, the flower-beds are bare, and the unshorn lawn is now a mass of long damp grass and unwholesome moss. the beauty of the place is gone; its attractions have withered. alas! a very few years since it was the prettiest spot in barchester, and now it is a disgrace to the city. mr harding did not go out to crabtree parva. an arrangement was made which respected the homestead of mr smith and his happy family, and put mr harding into possession of a small living within the walls of the city. it is the smallest possible parish, containing a part of the cathedral close and a few old houses adjoining. the church is a singular little gothic building, perched over a gateway, through which the close is entered, and is approached by a flight of stone steps which leads down under the archway of the gate. it is no bigger than an ordinary room,--perhaps twenty-seven feet long by eighteen wide,--but still it is a perfect church. it contains an old carved pulpit and reading-desk, a tiny altar under a window filled with dark old-coloured glass, a font, some half-dozen pews, and perhaps a dozen seats for the poor; and also a vestry. the roof is high pitched, and of black old oak, and the three large beams which support it run down to the side walls, and terminate in grotesquely carved faces,--two devils and an angel on one side, two angels and a devil on the other. such is the church of st cuthbert at barchester, of which mr harding became rector, with a clear income of seventy-five pounds a year. here he performs afternoon service every sunday, and administers the sacrament once in every three months. his audience is not large; and, had they been so, he could not have accommodated them: but enough come to fill his six pews, and on the front seat of those devoted to the poor is always to be seen our old friend mr bunce, decently arrayed in his bedesman's gown. mr harding is still precentor of barchester; and it is very rarely the case that those who attend the sunday morning service miss the gratification of hearing him chant the litany, as no other man in england can do it. he is neither a discontented nor an unhappy man; he still inhabits the lodgings to which he went on leaving the hospital, but he now has them to himself. three months after that time eleanor became mrs bold, and of course removed to her husband's house. there were some difficulties to be got over on the occasion of the marriage. the archdeacon, who could not so soon overcome his grief, would not be persuaded to grace the ceremony with his presence, but he allowed his wife and children to be there. the marriage took place in the cathedral, and the bishop himself officiated. it was the last occasion on which he ever did so; and, though he still lives, it is not probable that he will ever do so again. not long after the marriage, perhaps six months, when eleanor's bridal-honours were fading, and persons were beginning to call her mrs bold without twittering, the archdeacon consented to meet john bold at a dinner-party, and since that time they have become almost friends. the archdeacon firmly believes that his brother-in-law was, as a bachelor, an infidel, an unbeliever in the great truths of our religion; but that matrimony has opened his eyes, as it has those of others. and bold is equally inclined to think that time has softened the asperities of the archdeacon's character. friends though they are, they do not often revert to the feud of the hospital. mr harding, we say, is not an unhappy man: he keeps his lodgings, but they are of little use to him, except as being the one spot on earth which he calls his own. his time is spent chiefly at his daughter's or at the palace; he is never left alone, even should he wish to be so; and within a twelvemonth of eleanor's marriage his determination to live at his own lodging had been so far broken through and abandoned, that he consented to have his violoncello permanently removed to his daughter's house. every other day a message is brought to him from the bishop. "the bishop's compliments, and his lordship is not very well to-day, and he hopes mr harding will dine with him." this bulletin as to the old man's health is a myth; for though he is over eighty he is never ill, and will probably die some day, as a spark goes out, gradually and without a struggle. mr harding does dine with him very often, which means going to the palace at three and remaining till ten; and whenever he does not the bishop whines, and says that the port wine is corked, and complains that nobody attends to him, and frets himself off to bed an hour before his time. it was long before the people of barchester forgot to call mr harding by his long well-known name of warden. it had become so customary to say mr warden, that it was not easily dropped. "no, no," he always says when so addressed, "not warden now, only precentor." none