A further account of the progress of the Gospel amongst the Indians in New England: being a relation of the confessions made by several Indians (in the presence of the elders and members of several churches) in order to their admission into church-fellowship. Sent over to the corporation for propagating the Gospel of Jesus Christ amongst the Indians in New England at London, by Mr John Elliot one of the laborers in the word amonsgt them.
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             A further account of the progress of the Gospel amongst the Indians in New England: being a relation of the confessions made by several Indians (in the presence of the elders and members of several churches) in order to their admission into church-fellowship. Sent over to the corporation for propagating the Gospel of Jesus Christ amongst the Indians in New England at London, by Mr John Elliot one of the laborers in the word amonsgt them.
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           A
           further
           Account
           of
           the
           progress
           OF
           THE
           GOSPEL
           Amongst
           the
           
             Indians
          
           In
           New
           England
           :
           BEING
           A
           Relation
           of
           the
           Confessions
           made
           by
           several
           
             Indians
          
           (
           in
           the
           presence
           of
           the
           Elders
           and
           Members
           of
           several
           Churches
           )
           in
           order
           to
           their
           admission
           into
           Church-fellowship
           .
        
         
           Sent
           over
           to
           the
           Corporation
           for
           Propagating
           the
           Gospel
           of
           
             Iesus
             Christ
          
           amongst
           the
           
             Indians
          
           in
           
             New
             England
          
           at
           
             London
             ,
          
           by
           Mr
           
             Iohn
             Elliot
          
           one
           of
           the
           Laborers
           in
           the
           Word
           amongst
           them
           .
        
         
           
             LONDON
             ,
          
           Printed
           by
           
             Iohn
             Macock
             .
          
           1660.
           
        
      
       
       
       
         
           TO
           ALL
           That
           love
           the
           Lord
           Iesus
           Christ
           in
           sincerity
           ,
           and
           have
           a
           zeal
           for
           the
           propagation
           of
           Gospel-light
           ,
           to
           those
           who
           sit
           in
           darkness
           ,
           Grace
           and
           peace
           be
           multiplyed
           .
        
         
           
             Brethren
             ,
          
        
         
           IT
           
             was
             the
             holy
             ambition
             and
             strife
             of
             the
             Apostle
          
           Paul
           (
           
             that
             chosen
             Vessel
             to
             bear
             the
             Name
             of
             Christ
             before
             the
             Gentiles
          
           )
           to
           preach
           the
           Gospel
           where
           Christ
           was
           not
           named
           ,
           lest
           hee
           should
           seem
           to
           build
           upon
           another
           mans
           foundation
           ,
           
             Rom.
          
           15.
           20.
           
        
         
           To
           hand
           on
           a
           good
           work
           begun
           by
           another
           is
           very
           commendable
           ,
           and
           shall
           not
           loose
           its
           reward
           ;
           but
           to
           break
           the
           ice
           and
           begin
           a
           good
           work
           is
           very
           honourable
           ,
           and
           shall
           surely
           have
           a
           great
           reward
           .
           I
           am
           much
           perswaded
           it
           hath
           been
           the
           gracious
           strife
           ,
           I
           am
           sure
           it
           hath
           been
           the
           lot
           of
           many
           of
           our
           faithfull
           Brethren
           ,
           in
           
             New
             England
             ,
          
           to
           preach
           the
           Gospel
           where
           Christ
           was
           not
           named
           before
           ;
           and
           the
           Lord
           hath
           given
           a
           signal
           Testimony
           ,
           that
           they
           have
           not
           laboured
           in
           vain
           .
           Wee
           reade
           of
           the
           
             First-fruits
             of
          
           Achaia
           
             unto
          
           Christ
           (
           
             Rom.
          
           16.
           5.
           and
           again
           ,
           1
           
             Cor.
          
           16.
           15.
           )
           
           Wee
           have
           also
           heard
           both
           of
           the
           
             First-fruits
          
           and
           
             Second-fruits
             of
          
           India
           in
           New
           England
           
             unto
             Christ
             ;
          
           and
           these
           are
           a
           fair
           assurance
           of
           a
           plentifull
           harvest
           there
           in
           due
           time
           .
           A
           blessed
           Foundation
           is
           laid
           ,
           yea
           ,
           the
           Building
           begins
           to
           appear
           above
           ground
           ,
           in
           the
           visible
           profession
           or
           professed
           subjection
           of
           many
           poor
           Souls
           unto
           the
           Gospel
           of
           Christ
           .
           May
           wee
           not
           therefore
           hopefully
           expect
           ,
           that
           the
           
             Top-stone
          
           shall
           be
           set
           up
           with
           a
           shout
           of
           
             Grace
             ,
             Grace
          
           to
           it
           ?
        
         
           Hee
           that
           attentively
           readeth
           the
           Report
           ,
           which
           is
           made
           in
           the
           following
           Collection
           of
           the
           Examinations
           and
           Confessions
           of
           several
           Native
           
             Indians
             ,
          
           who
           have
           been
           wrought
           upon
           by
           the
           preaching
           of
           the
           Word
           in
           the
           Wilderness
           ,
           will
           see
           much
           cause
           to
           admire
           the
           free
           grace
           and
           goodness
           of
           God
           to
           them
           ,
           as
           also
           his
           mighty
           power
           and
           the
           revealing
           of
           his
           arme
           in
           them
           .
           What
           strong
           and
           clear
           convictions
           of
           sin
           ,
           both
           of
           the
           sinfulness
           of
           their
           natures
           ,
           and
           of
           the
           sins
           of
           their
           lives
           have
           they
           been
           under
           ,
           who
           lay
           (
           before
           )
           dead
           in
           trespasses
           and
           sins
           ,
           wholly
           alienated
           from
           the
           life
           of
           God
           through
           the
           ignorance
           that
           was
           in
           them
           ?
           What
           strugglings
           and
           strivings
           with
           corruption
           and
           temptation
           do
           they
           speak
           of
           ,
           before
           they
           could
           come
           off
           from
           sin
           ,
           and
           from
           
           that
           vain
           conversation
           received
           by
           tradition
           from
           their
           Fore-fathers
           ?
           What
           wrestlings
           had
           they
           with
           unbelief
           ,
           before
           they
           could
           close
           with
           Christ
           in
           the
           promise
           ?
           What
           full
           resignations
           of
           themselves
           have
           they
           made
           to
           the
           commands
           of
           Christ
           after
           closing
           with
           him
           by
           faith
           in
           the
           promise
           ?
           Yea
           ,
           what
           hungrings
           and
           thirstings
           do
           some
           of
           them
           express
           for
           more
           intimate
           communion
           with
           Christ
           in
           attendance
           upon
           all
           his
           Ordinances
           in
           a
           Church-state
           or
           holy
           Fellowship
           with
           his
           People
           ?
        
         
           Surely
           ,
           what
           these
           
             late
             Aliens
             from
             the
             Common-wealth
             of
             Israel
          
           have
           found
           and
           declared
           (
           as
           their
           spiritual
           experiences
           )
           about
           the
           dealings
           of
           God
           with
           their
           hearts
           ,
           in
           bringing
           them
           off
           from
           sin
           ,
           and
           home
           to
           himself
           ,
           may
           shame
           many
           among
           us
           ,
           who
           have
           been
           born
           and
           bred
           up
           in
           the
           aire
           and
           sound
           of
           the
           Gospel
           all
           their
           dayes
           .
        
         
           I
           may
           ,
           not
           unfitly
           ,
           make
           use
           of
           those
           Prophesies
           of
           
             Moses
          
           and
           
             Esaias
          
           concerning
           the
           Iewes
           and
           Gentiles
           (
           and
           so
           applyed
           by
           the
           Apostle
           
             Paul
             ,
          
           Rom.
           10.
           19
           ,
           20
           ,
           21.
           )
           in
           this
           present
           case
           between
           us
           in
           
             England
          
           and
           the
           
             Indians
             .
          
           The
           Lord
           hath
           begun
           to
           
             provoke
             us
             to
             Jealousie
             by
             them
             that
             were
             no
             people
             ,
             and
             by
             a
             foolish
             Nation
             hee
             hath
             angred
             us
             ,
             hee
             is
             
             found
             of
             them
             that
             sought
             him
             not
             ,
             hee
             is
             made
             manifest
             to
             them
             that
             asked
             not
             after
             him
             ,
             but
             all
             the
             day
             long
             hath
             hee
             stretched
             out
             his
             hands
             unto
             us
             a
             disobedient
             and
             gainsaying
             people
             .
          
           Conversions
           are
           grown
           somewhat
           rare
           (
           that
           's
           sad
           )
           in
           
             England
             ;
          
           and
           such
           accounts
           of
           Conversion
           much
           more
           rare
           .
           And
           as
           we
           finde
           but
           few
           able
           to
           give
           any
           passable
           account
           of
           their
           conversion
           to
           God
           ,
           so
           wee
           finde
           not
           a
           few
           offended
           at
           the
           requiring
           and
           taking
           of
           it
           ,
           before
           admission
           into
           compleat
           Church-communion
           .
           Wee
           have
           many
           who
           profess
           the
           Religion
           they
           were
           born
           in
           ,
           but
           wee
           have
           (
           comparatively
           )
           only
           a
           few
           ,
           who
           profess
           Religion
           upon
           the
           evidences
           of
           their
           New-Birth
           .
           And
           that
           's
           one
           great
           reason
           why
           the
           Church
           and
           the
           world
           ,
           the
           pretious
           and
           the
           vile
           ,
           are
           in
           so
           lamentable
           a
           mixture
           in
           most
           places
           at
           this
           day
           .
        
         
           It
           were
           a
           very
           desireable
           mercy
           ,
           that
           the
           practise
           and
           example
           of
           our
           native
           Brethren
           ,
           yea
           ,
           of
           the
           native
           
             Indians
          
           in
           
             New
             England
          
           might
           kindle
           in
           us
           the
           fire
           of
           a
           blessed
           emulation
           in
           this
           matter
           ;
           and
           that
           the
           Ministers
           of
           the
           Gospel
           would
           every where
           exspect
           and
           diligently
           enquire
           after
           some
           hopefull
           proofs
           of
           the
           work
           of
           Grace
           from
           all
           those
           ,
           who
           ,
           in
           their
           own
           right
           ,
           partake
           of
           those
           
           higher
           Priviledges
           ,
           the
           Seals
           of
           the
           Covenant
           of
           Grace
           .
           Doubtless
           ,
           then
           ,
           Churches
           would
           appear
           more
           like
           Churches
           in
           the
           beauties
           of
           Holiness
           ,
           and
           the
           fruits
           of
           the
           presence
           of
           Christ
           would
           be
           more
           gloriously
           visible
           in
           them
           .
           The
           great
           thing
           which
           wee
           (
           upon
           whom
           the
           ends
           of
           the
           world
           are
           come
           )
           should
           earnestly
           pray
           ,
           endeavour
           and
           wait
           for
           is
           ,
           that
           the
           new
           
             Jerusalem
          
           may
           be
           seen
           coming
           down
           from
           heaven
           ,
           like
           a
           Bride
           adorned
           for
           her
           Husband
           ;
           and
           to
           be
           any
           way
           ,
           rightly
           ,
           instrumentall
           for
           the
           bringing
           in
           of
           this
           glory
           ,
           is
           a
           piece
           of
           the
           best
           Glory
           which
           wee
           are
           capable
           of
           on
           this
           side
           our
           heavenly
           Glory
           .
        
         
           'T
           was
           therefore
           a
           very
           gracious
           as
           well
           as
           a
           noble
           Design
           ,
           to
           create
           and
           establish
           a
           Corporation
           in
           this
           our
           
             England
             ,
          
           to
           receive
           ,
           improve
           ,
           mannage
           ,
           and
           issue
           a
           free
           contribution
           and
           the
           profits
           arising
           from
           it
           for
           the
           constant
           support
           ,
           encouragement
           ,
           and
           promotion
           of
           this
           work
           of
           Christ
           in
           That
           Other
           
             England
             .
          
           Nor
           can
           wee
           but
           with
           much
           thankfulness
           to
           God
           take
           notice
           of
           the
           liberal
           charity
           of
           many
           who
           have
           already
           contributed
           to
           it
           ,
           as
           also
           of
           the
           faithfulness
           ,
           diligence
           ,
           prudence
           ,
           and
           Godly
           zeal
           of
           those
           worthy
           Persons
           who
           are
           entrusted
           with
           the
           disposal
           of
           those
           Contributions
           .
           And
           because
           ,
           as
           the
           whole
           Work
           is
           great
           ,
           so
           there
           
           are
           some
           great
           parts
           of
           it
           now
           in
           hand
           ,
           as
           the
           Printing
           of
           
             Davids
             Psalms
          
           and
           the
           
             New
             Testament
          
           (
           besides
           an
           intendment
           of
           printing
           the
           whole
           
             Bible
          
           )
           in
           the
           
             Indian
          
           Language
           ,
           which
           must
           needs
           be
           a
           work
           of
           great
           charge
           as
           well
           as
           of
           excellent
           use
           ,
           (
           for
           these
           reasons
           I
           say
           )
           it
           would
           be
           a
           most
           acceptable
           Charity
           ,
           either
           to
           procure
           or
           advance
           additional
           Contributions
           .
           How
           can
           any
           honour
           the
           Lord
           better
           with
           their
           perishing
           substance
           ,
           then
           by
           forwarding
           a
           Design
           which
           may
           be
           a
           means
           to
           keep
           thousands
           of
           Souls
           from
           perishing
           ?
           Yea
           ,
           what
           an
           honour
           will
           it
           be
           to
           this
           whole
           Nation
           ,
           that
           the
           Holy
           Bible
           should
           be
           printed
           in
           our
           dayes
           and
           at
           our
           cost
           in
           a
           Language
           and
           for
           a
           Nation
           which
           never
           had
           it
           to
           this
           day
           ?
           That
           this
           blessed
           and
           beautifull
           Vndertaking
           for
           the
           gathering
           in
           of
           those
           poor
           Souls
           ,
           who
           yet
           wander
           in
           that
           Howling
           wilderness
           ,
           to
           the
           Flock
           and
           fold
           of
           Christ
           (
           the
           Great
           Shepherd
           of
           the
           Sheep
           )
           may
           not
           want
           their
           compassionate
           and
           chearfull
           assistance
           ,
           who
           are
           already
           (
           through
           grace
           )
           gathered
           into
           his
           holy
           flocks
           and
           folds
           ,
           is
           the
           hearty
           desire
           and
           prayer
           of
        
         
           
             
               The
               6th
               of
               the
               first
               Moneth
               ,
               1659.
               
            
          
           
             Sirs
             ,
          
           
             Your
             affectionate
             friend
             to
             serve
             you
             in
             the
             Lord
             ,
             
               JOSEPH
               CARYL
               .
            
          
        
      
    
     
       
       
         
           A
           brief
           Relation
           received
           from
           Mr
           John
           Elliott
           of
           the
           late
           Proceedings
           with
           the
           Indians
           in
           New
           England
           ,
           in
           order
           to
           their
           admission
           into
           Church-fellowship
           .
           In
           
             the
             year
             of
             our
             Lord
             1659.
             
             The
             fifth
             day
             of
             the
             fifth
             Moneth
             .
          
        
         
           THis
           is
           the
           third
           time
           that
           the
           Praying
           
             Indians
          
           (
           some
           of
           them
           )
           have
           been
           called
           forth
           into
           publick
           ,
           to
           make
           open
           confession
           of
           the
           Name
           of
           Christ
           ,
           to
           come
           under
           the
           publick
           tryal
           of
           Gods
           people
           ,
           whether
           they
           be
           indeed
           Christians
           ,
           as
           fit
           matter
           for
           a
           Gospel
           Church
           .
           Truth
           loveth
           and
           seeketh
           the
           light
           .
        
         
           I
           was
           stirred
           up
           hereunto
           ▪
           and
           quickened
           by
           Letters
           from
           
             England
             .
          
           The
           Lord
           put
           it
           into
           the
           hearts
           of
           such
           as
           are
           honourable
           ,
           reverend
           ,
           and
           of
           eminent
           service
           to
           Christ
           in
           
             England
             ,
          
           to
           move
           mee
           ,
           before
           I
           moved
           .
           When
           I
           moved
           this
           last
           time
           ,
           I
           perceived
           that
           it
           was
           the
           general
           inclination
           of
           the
           Spirit
           of
           the
           Saints
           ,
           both
           Magistrates
           ,
           Elders
           ,
           and
           others
           ,
           that
           (
           at
           lest
           some
           of
           the
           principal
           of
           them
           )
           should
           (
           for
           a
           season
           )
           be
           seasoned
           in
           Church-fellowship
           ,
           in
           communion
           with
           our
           
             English
          
           Churches
           ,
           before
           they
           should
           be
           Churches
           among
           
           themselves
           .
           And
           when
           it
           was
           
             Objected
             ,
          
           What
           should
           the
           rest
           of
           the
           people
           do
           ,
           if
           the
           principal
           and
           most
           able
           should
           not
           keep
           their
           Sabbaths
           among
           them
           ?
           It
           was
           
             Answered
             ,
          
           That
           their
           usual
           Sabbath
           conversation
           should
           be
           at
           home
           among
           their
           own
           people
           ,
           only
           sometime
           to
           be
           among
           the
           
             English
             ;
          
           viz.
           for
           participation
           of
           the
           Seals
           ,
           the
           Sacraments
           of
           Baptism
           and
           the
           Lords
           Supper
           ,
           and
           for
           any
           special
           Exercise
           of
           Discipline
           .
           When
           it
           was
           Questioned
           what
           
             English
          
           Church
           they
           should
           joyn
           unto
           ?
           All
           with
           one
           mouth
           said
           ,
           that
           
             Roxbury
          
           Church
           was
           called
           of
           God
           to
           be
           first
           in
           that
           service
           of
           Christ
           to
           receive
           the
           praying
           
             Indians
             .
          
           In
           the
           accomplishment
           whereof
           ,
           I
           yielded
           my self
           up
           to
           follow
           counsel
           in
           the
           Lord
           .
           The
           Elders
           offered
           themselves
           ,
           on
           some
           Lecture
           day
           ,
           to
           meet
           (
           if
           need
           were
           )
           at
           
             Roxbury
          
           Lecture
           ,
           then
           to
           speak
           with
           the
           Church
           ,
           to
           perswade
           to
           an
           unanimous
           accord
           ,
           in
           receiving
           the
           
             Indians
          
           for
           a
           season
           ;
           which
           accordingly
           they
           did
           :
           and
           the
           Lord
           was
           so
           effectually
           present
           in
           that
           meeting
           ,
           that
           all
           Objections
           ,
           so
           far
           as
           I
           know
           ,
           were
           silenced
           .
           Soon
           after
           ,
           our
           Church
           passed
           a
           Vote
           for
           the
           receiving
           of
           the
           
             Indians
             .
          
           The
           Elders
           of
           
             Roxbury
          
           called
           eight
           of
           them
           to
           a
           private
           preparatory
           Confession
           ,
           in
           order
           to
           our
           publick
           proceeding
           .
           Wee
           gave
           notice
           of
           the
           time
           and
           place
           of
           this
           meeting
           ,
           and
           many
           were
           present
           to
           hear
           them
           ,
           both
           men
           and
           women
           ;
           which
           Confessions
           I
           shall
           here
           set
           down
           ,
           for
           reasons
           which
           seem
           to
           mee
           to
           have
           much
           weight
           ;
           and
           they
           are
           as
           followeth
           .
        
         
         
           
             An
             Abbreviate
             of
             the
             Confessions
             of
             some
             of
             the
             Indians
             ,
             which
             they
             made
             before
             the
             Elders
             of
             Roxbury
             ,
             (
             sundry
             Christian
             people
             being
             present
             ,
             both
             men
             and
             women
             )
             
               the
               15th
               day
               of
               the
               second
               Moneth
               ,
               1659.
               
            
             preparatory
             ,
             in
             order
             to
             their
             admission
             into
             the
             Church
             .
          
           
             
               Nisho●kou
               .
            
             
               OH
               God
               of
               Grace
               and
               Salvation
               ,
               help
               mee
               by
               thy
               spirit
               to
               confesse
               truth
               and
               grace
               ,
               in
               the
               presence
               of
               God
               .
            
             
               1
               I
               confesse
               ,
               that
               I
               have
               now
               learned
               out
               of
               
                 Gen.
              
               5.
               1.
               that
               God
               made
               man
               in
               the
               Image
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               
                 Adam
              
               lived
               130
               years
               ,
               and
               begot
               a
               Son
               in
               his
               own
               Image
               ,
               
                 ver.
              
               3.
               which
               then
               was
               not
               the
               Image
               of
               God
               ,
               but
               by
               reason
               of
               the
               fall
               ,
               was
               the
               Image
               of
               
                 Satan
                 ;
              
               and
               that
               Image
               of
               
                 Satan
              
               hee
               did
               communicate
               to
               us
               ,
               so
               that
               wee
               are
               all
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               so
               I
               lived
               .
            
             
               After
               wee
               pray'd
               to
               God
               about
               three
               years
               ,
               my
               heart
               was
               not
               yet
               right
               ,
               but
               I
               desired
               to
               run
               wilde
               ,
               as
               also
               sundry
               others
               did
               .
               Then
               I
               understood
               ,
               that
               the
               Lord
               did
               make
               heaven
               ,
               earth
               ,
               sea
               ,
               and
               all
               creatures
               ,
               and
               also
               
               man
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               understood
               that
               God
               made
               mee
               .
               Yet
               I
               being
               young
               ,
               I
               was
               still
               vain
               ,
               and
               ran
               about
               ;
               and
               I
               liked
               to
               do
               acts
               of
               youth
               and
               vanity
               ,
               and
               lust
               ,
               as
               others
               did
               .
               And
               I
               went
               to
               
                 Pawwauing
              
               among
               others
               ,
               and
               these
               things
               I
               loved
               throughly
               ,
               and
               they
               grew
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               had
               nourishment
               there
               ,
               and
               especially
               lust
               ;
               if
               I
               cut
               my
               hair
               ,
               it
               was
               with
               respect
               to
               lust
               ,
               to
               please
               women
               ;
               if
               I
               had
               long
               hair
               ,
               it
               was
               with
               respect
               to
               lust
               ,
               and
               all
               I
               did
               was
               with
               respect
               to
               lust
               and
               women
               ;
               when
               there
               was
               meetings
               ,
               drinkings
               ,
               sports
               ,
               they
               respected
               lust
               ,
               and
               these
               things
               I
               perfectly
               loved
               .
               When
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               teach
               us
               ,
               hee
               taught
               ,
               and
               I
               came
               to
               meeting
               ;
               but
               I
               came
               to
               look
               upon
               women
               ,
               I
               understood
               not
               what
               hee
               taught
               ;
               sometimes
               I
               came
               ,
               and
               understood
               nothing
               at
               all
               ,
               only
               I
               look't
               on
               women
               .
               About
               two
               years
               after
               ,
               I
               began
               to
               understand
               what
               the
               Minister
               preached
               :
               I
               understood
               that
               Scripture
               
                 Iam.
                 1.
                 
                 Hee
                 that
                 doubteth
                 is
                 like
                 a
                 wave
                 of
                 the
                 sea
                 ,
                 driven
                 of
                 the
                 windes
                 and
                 tossed
                 ;
                 and
                 if
                 any
                 man
                 lack
                 wisedom
                 ,
                 let
                 him
                 ask
                 it
                 of
                 God
                 .
              
               This
               I
               understood
               ,
               yet
               I
               only
               understood
               it
               ,
               but
               it
               was
               very
               hard
               to
               believe
               .
               Afterward
               ,
               I
               heard
               out
               of
               
                 Gen.
              
               6.
               that
               God
               spoke
               concerning
               man
               ,
               
                 I
                 will
                 destroy
                 man
                 whom
                 I
                 have
                 made
                 ,
                 because
                 God
                 saw
                 that
                 the
                 way
                 of
                 man
                 was
                 corrupt
                 before
                 him
                 ;
              
               and
               this
               troubled
               mee
               .
               And
               again
               ,
               in
               the
               same
               Chapter
               it
               is
               said
               ,
               
                 That
                 God
                 saw
                 that
                 the
                 iniquity
                 of
                 man
                 was
                 great
                 upon
                 the
                 earth
                 ,
                 and
                 that
                 every
                 imagination
                 of
                 the
                 thought
                 of
                 his
                 heart
                 is
                 only
                 evil
                 continually
                 ;
              
               this
               troubled
               mee
               ,
               for
               I
               saw
               the
               roots
               of
               sin
               in
               my
               heart
               :
               yet
               it
               was
               hard
               to
               believe
               .
               Again
               ,
               in
               that
               6.
               of
               
                 Gen.
              
               God
               rebuked
               that
               sin
               in
               man
               ,
               which
               was
               my
               sin
               ,
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               was
               troubled
               .
               Sometime
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               it
               is
               better
               to
               
               run
               wilde
               as
               I
               did
               before
               ,
               then
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               for
               if
               now
               I
               sin
               ,
               or
               commit
               lust
               ,
               I
               shall
               be
               punished
               ,
               or
               put
               in
               prison
               ;
               but
               if
               I
               run
               wilde
               ,
               I
               have
               liberty
               to
               sin
               without
               danger
               :
               but
               I
               was
               ashamed
               of
               such
               thoughts
               ,
               and
               repented
               ;
               but
               yet
               I
               doubted
               .
            
             
               After
               half
               a
               year
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               preach
               this
               ;
               That
               
                 Christ
                 his
                 death
                 is
                 of
                 infinite
                 value
                 ,
                 but
                 our
                 death
                 is
                 little
                 worth
                 ;
                 God
                 is
                 satisfied
                 with
                 the
                 death
                 of
                 Christ
                 ,
                 and
                 promiseth
                 to
                 pardon
                 our
                 sins
                 for
                 Christ
                 his
                 sake
                 ,
                 if
                 wee
                 believe
                 in
                 Christ
                 :
                 wee
                 deserve
                 to
                 die
                 ,
                 but
                 Christ
                 standeth
                 in
                 our
                 stead
                 ,
                 and
                 dyeth
                 for
                 us
                 ,
                 and
                 so
                 saveth
                 us
                 from
                 death
                 .
              
               Next
               time
               the
               Minister
               came
               ,
               hee
               asked
               ,
               what
               I
               remembred
               of
               this
               I
               now
               spoke
               of
               :
               and
               I
               did
               remember
               it
               ,
               and
               do
               remember
               it
               to
               this
               day
               ;
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               I
               believe
               Christ
               dyed
               for
               sinners
               ,
               but
               I
               doubted
               concerning
               my self
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               this
               promise
               ;
               
                 If
                 you
                 repent
                 and
                 believe
                 ,
                 you
                 shall
                 have
                 pardon
                 and
                 be
                 saved
                 :
              
               and
               therefore
               sometime
               I
               believe
               ,
               and
               sometimes
               I
               doubt
               again
               .
               Afterward
               ,
               I
               had
               temptation
               to
               drinking
               ,
               and
               to
               vain
               courses
               ,
               nigh
               half
               a
               year
               ;
               yet
               when
               Sabbath
               came
               ,
               my
               heart
               would
               turn
               to
               God
               ;
               when
               the
               Soldiers
               came
               upon
               us
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               while
               wee
               were
               at
               meeting
               ,
               and
               made
               us
               bring
               our
               guns
               hither
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Sure
               God
               hath
               not
               said
               ,
               Keep
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               holy
               ;
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               cast
               off
               God
               ,
               yet
               it
               was
               only
               in
               my
               heart
               .
               When
               wee
               came
               to
               the
               Magistrates
               ,
               and
               
                 Cutshamoquin
              
               asked
               ,
               Why
               they
               came
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               ?
               my
               heart
               was
               troubled
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               believe
               ,
               when
               wee
               went
               from
               the
               Magistrates
               .
               I
               was
               thirsty
               ,
               and
               I
               drank
               a
               great
               deal
               ;
               and
               I
               was
               drunk
               ,
               and
               was
               carried
               before
               the
               Magistrates
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               was
               ashamed
               .
               Then
               I
               came
               to
               the
               
               Ministers
               house
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               greatly
               ashamed
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Sure
               I
               have
               now
               cast
               off
               praying
               to
               God
               ;
               but
               I
               repented
               and
               cryed
               to
               God
               ,
               Oh
               God
               ,
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               this
               my
               sin
               ;
               for
               my
               sins
               are
               great
               .
               I
               had
               other
               temptations
               to
               drinking
               ,
               and
               I
               found
               my
               heart
               weak
               ,
               and
               doubting
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               was
               troubled
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               ready
               to
               stumble
               like
               a
               little
               weak
               childe
               .
            
             
               After
               this
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               of
               God
               ,
               Mat.
               12.
               
               
                 Do
                 yee
                 not
                 remember
                 what
                 David
                 did
                 on
                 the
                 Sabbath
                 day
                 ,
                 and
                 was
                 blamelesse
                 ?
              
               Then
               I
               thought
               the
               Souldiers
               did
               not
               sin
               ;
               but
               then
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               was
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               had
               broken
               the
               Sabbath
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Mat.
               3.
               
               
                 Every
                 tree
                 that
                 bringeth
                 not
                 forth
                 good
                 fruit
                 is
                 hewen
                 down
                 and
                 cast
                 into
                 the
                 fire
                 :
              
               and
               this
               troubled
               mee
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               evil
               fruits
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               Mat.
               6.
               
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Be
                 ye
                 not
                 like
                 hypocrites
                 ,
                 which
                 seem
                 to
                 pray
                 before
                 men
                 .
              
               I
               thought
               this
               was
               my
               case
               ,
               I
               did
               only
               pray
               before
               men
               ,
               but
               I
               doubted
               of
               Christ
               and
               his
               Grace
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               Mat.
               5.
               
               
                 Who
                 ever
                 breaks
                 the
                 least
                 of
                 Gods
                 Commandements
                 ,
                 and
                 teach
                 men
                 so
                 to
                 do
                 ,
                 shall
                 be
                 least
                 in
                 the
                 Kingdom
                 of
                 heaven
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               was
               troubled
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               been
               an
               active
               sinner
               ,
               in
               lust
               ,
               and
               other
               sins
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               worse
               then
               a
               beast
               in
               my
               sins
               .
               Then
               I
               cryed
               to
               God
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               pardon
               all
               my
               great
               sins
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               have
               mercy
               on
               mee
               ,
               Oh
               God
               remember
               mee
               ,
               to
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               .
               Thus
               I
               cryed
               and
               desired
               pardon
               ,
               but
               I
               was
               weak
               in
               believing
               .
               But
               then
               ,
               about
               two
               years
               after
               ,
               I
               was
               greatly
               troubled
               about
               my
               weakness
               :
               I
               desired
               to
               do
               well
               ,
               but
               I
               was
               weak
               :
               Then
               I
               cryed
               to
               God
               ,
               Oh
               God
               help
               mee
               by
               thy
               spirit
               in
               mee
               ,
               and
               send
               thy
               
               spirit
               into
               my
               heart
               .
               Sometimes
               I
               read
               and
               taught
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               ,
               but
               weakly
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               23.
               
               Christ
               bid
               the
               people
               
                 do
                 what
                 the
                 Scribes
                 and
                 Pharisees
                 said
                 ,
                 but
                 not
                 do
                 as
                 they
                 do
                 .
              
               I
               said
               (
               Lord
               )
               that
               is
               my
               case
               ;
               I
               teach
               better
               then
               I
               do
               :
               and
               therefore
               I
               desired
               repentance
               for
               my
               sin
               ,
               and
               to
               forsake
               my
               sin
               .
               Then
               
                 Mat.
              
               7.
               
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 hypocrite
                 ,
                 first
                 cast
                 the
                 beam
                 out
                 of
                 thy
                 own
                 eye
                 ,
                 and
                 then
                 thou
                 mayst
                 see
                 clearly
                 to
                 cast
                 the
                 mote
                 out
                 of
                 thy
                 brothers
                 eye
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               Truly
               it
               is
               so
               ;
               I
               teach
               others
               ,
               but
               I
               do
               not
               well
               my self
               ;
               I
               reprove
               sin
               ,
               and
               yet
               I
               do
               it
               .
               Then
               was
               my
               heart
               weary
               ,
               and
               I
               desired
               again
               to
               do
               well
               ,
               and
               amend
               ,
               but
               I
               found
               my self
               very
               weak
               .
               Sometime
               my
               heart
               hated
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               meeting
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               dayes
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               see
               I
               deserve
               hell
               torments
               :
               and
               then
               I
               cryed
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               pardon
               all
               these
               my
               sins
               .
               Then
               afterward
               my
               heart
               desired
               strongly
               to
               pray
               unto
               God
               ,
               but
               I
               saw
               I
               deserved
               misery
               and
               punishment
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               weak
               .
               Then
               I
               desired
               my
               heart
               might
               be
               made
               strong
               by
               Church-covenant
               ,
               Baptism
               ,
               and
               the
               Lords
               Supper
               ,
               which
               might
               be
               as
               a
               Fort
               to
               keep
               me
               from
               enemies
               ,
               as
               a
               Fort
               keepeth
               us
               from
               our
               outward
               enemies
               .
               Yet
               my
               heart
               was
               sometime
               backward
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               No
               matter
               ,
               do
               it
               not
               ,
               but
               still
               do
               what
               thy
               heart
               would
               have
               thee
               .
               And
               I
               saw
               Satan
               did
               thus
               follow
               mee
               with
               these
               temptations
               to
               misbelief
               and
               doubting
               .
               But
               now
               I
               see
               Satan
               tempteth
               mee
               ,
               because
               hee
               desireth
               I
               should
               be
               ever
               tormented
               with
               him
               .
               Then
               I
               learned
               that
               in
               
                 Iohn
              
               6.
               
               
                 I
                 am
                 the
                 true
                 bread
                 ,
                 and
                 hee
                 that
                 eateth
                 mee
                 shall
                 live
                 for
                 ever
                 ,
                 and
                 hee
                 that
                 drinketh
                 my
                 blood
                 shall
                 have
                 life
                 ;
                 but
                 hee
                 that
                 doth
                 not
                 eat
                 my
                 flesh
                 and
                 drink
                 my
                 blood
                 shall
                 not
                 have
                 life
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               Truth
               Lord
               ,
               that
               is
               
               my
               case
               .
               Again
               I
               learnt
               ,
               
                 Iohn
                 3.
                 
                 Hee
                 that
                 believeth
                 shall
                 not
                 perish
                 ,
                 but
                 have
                 eternal
                 life
                 :
              
               And
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Yea
               Lord
               ,
               let
               it
               be
               so
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               16.
               
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 art
              
               Peter
               
                 a
                 Rock
                 ,
                 and
                 on
                 this
                 Rock
                 I
                 will
                 build
                 my
                 Church
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 gates
                 of
                 Hell
                 shall
                 not
                 prevail
                 against
                 it
                 :
              
               Therefore
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               desire
               this
               ;
               because
               
                 Christ
                 dwells
                 in
                 the
                 Church
                 ,
                 and
                 is
                 in
                 the
                 midst
                 of
                 them
                 ▪
                 where
                 two
                 or
                 three
                 are
                 met
                 together
                 in
                 my
                 name
                 .
              
               Oh!
               I
               do
               therefore
               desire
               Church
               Ordinances
               ,
               that
               I
               might
               be
               with
               Christ
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               might
               have
               the
               Seals
               .
               
                 Mat.
              
               3.
               
               Christ
               sayes
               ,
               
                 Let
                 it
                 be
                 :
                 for
                 it
                 is
                 necessary
                 that
                 I
                 should
                 fulfill
                 all
                 righteousness
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               that
               I
               might
               also
               so
               do
               O
               Lord
               ,
               now
               my
               heart
               desireth
               and
               thirsteth
               ;
               Oh
               God
               have
               mercy
               on
               mee
               and
               pity
               my
               weakness
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               have
               pardon
               in
               Christ
               ,
               and
               strength
               from
               Christ
               in
               all
               his
               Ordinances
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               might
               leave
               all
               my
               sins
               ;
               and
               Oh
               God
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               for
               thy
               mercies
               sake
               ;
               I
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               I
               am
               so
               weak
               ,
               Oh
               God
               help
               ,
               and
               have
               mercy
               on
               mee
               .
               And
               the
               same
               I
               desire
               of
               you
               ,
               before
               whom
               I
               am
               in
               this
               house
               ,
               help
               mee
               ;
               for
               
                 Mat.
                 16.
                 whom
                 yee
                 binde
                 on
                 earth
                 are
                 bound
                 in
                 heaven
                 ,
                 and
                 whom
                 yee
                 loose
                 on
                 earth
                 are
                 loosed
                 in
                 heaven
                 :
              
               and
               my
               desire
               is
               ,
               that
               Christ
               would
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               may
               be
               helped
               .
            
             
               
                 Elder
                 Heath
                 propounded
                 this
                 Question
                 ,
                 which
                 hee
                 answered
                 in
                 broken
                 English
                 .
              
               
                 
                   Question
                   .
                
                 Whether
                 doth
                 Satan
                 still
                 tempt
                 you
                 with
                 former
                 lusts
                 and
                 temptations
                 ?
                 and
                 what
                 do
                 you
                 when
                 you
                 are
                 tempted
                 ?
              
               
               
                 
                   Answer
                   to
                   the
                   first
                   part
                   .
                
                 Yes
                 ,
                 alwaies
                 to
                 this
                 day
                 .
                 
                   To
                   the
                   second
                   part
                   :
                
                 When
                 Devil
                 comes
                 ,
                 I
                 sometime
                 too
                 much
                 believe
                 him
                 ,
                 but
                 sometime
                 I
                 remember
                 to
                 do
                 Gods
                 Word
                 ,
                 because
                 Gods
                 Word
                 is
                 all
                 one
                 a
                 sword
                 ,
                 and
                 breaks
                 the
                 Devils
                 temptations
                 .
              
               
                 Deacon
                 
                   Park
                
                 propounded
                 this
                 Question
                 .
                 
                   What
                   is
                   it
                   in
                   sin
                   ,
                   why
                   hee
                   hateth
                   it
                   now
                   more
                   then
                   before
                   ?
                
              
               
                 
                   Answ.
                   his
                   answer
                   in
                   broken
                   English
                   .
                
                 I
                 did
                 love
                 sin
                 ,
                 but
                 now
                 not
                 all
                 one
                 so
                 ,
                 because
                 I
                 hear
                 Gods
                 Word
                 ,
                 and
                 that
                 shewes
                 mee
                 ,
                 that
                 which
                 I
                 loved
                 is
                 evil
                 ,
                 and
                 will
                 bring
                 mee
                 to
                 hell
                 ,
                 therefore
                 I
                 love
                 it
                 not
                 now
                 .
              
               
                 Deacon
                 
                   Park
                
                 urged
                 ,
                 
                   Doth
                   hee
                   hate
                   sin
                   because
                   it
                   is
                   against
                   God
                   ?
                
              
               
                 
                   Answ.
                
                 That
                 chiefly
                 .
              
            
          
           
             
               Anthony
               .
            
             
               FIrst
               ,
               I
               make
               confession
               in
               the
               presence
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               of
               all
               these
               Elders
               :
               and
               this
               I
               confesse
               ,
               that
               I
               am
               not
               able
               to
               speak
               before
               the
               Lord
               ,
               yet
               I
               do
               it
               according
               as
               God
               requireth
               I
               should
               .
               Assuredly
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               ,
               but
               now
               I
               hope
               Christ
               hath
               taught
               mee
               his
               Word
               ;
               Oh
               let
               him
               (
               my
               Lord
               !
               )
               help
               mee
               to
               speak
               it
               .
            
             
               I
               confesse
               ,
               that
               in
               my
               mothers
               belly
               I
               was
               defiled
               in
               sin
               :
               my
               father
               and
               mother
               prayed
               to
               many
               gods
               ,
               and
               I
               heard
               them
               when
               they
               did
               so
               ;
               and
               I
               did
               so
               too
               ,
               because
               my
               parents
               did
               so
               :
               and
               in
               my
               childhood
               ,
               (
               afore
               I
               could
               act
               sin
               )
               I
               did
               delight
               in
               it
               ,
               as
               dancing
               and
               Pawwaug
               :
               and
               when
               they
               did
               so
               ,
               they
               prayed
               to
               many
               gods
               ,
               as
               Beasts
               ,
               Birds
               ,
               Earth
               ,
               Sea
               ,
               Trees
               ,
               &c.
               
               After
               I
               was
               born
               ,
               I
               did
               all
               such
               things
               .
               I
               loved
               lust
               when
               I
               was
               
               a
               youth
               ,
               though
               I
               did
               act
               these
               lusts
               but
               a
               little
               .
               But
               when
               I
               had
               a
               little
               begun
               ,
               my
               heart
               did
               very
               much
               desire
               more
               to
               do
               such
               sins
               :
               I
               saw
               the
               
                 English
              
               keep
               Sabbath
               ;
               I
               cared
               not
               ,
               but
               played
               ,
               and
               catch't
               birds
               ,
               or
               any
               thing
               :
               yet
               when
               I
               saw
               
                 Englishmen
                 ,
              
               I
               ran
               away
               ,
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               ,
               because
               they
               should
               not
               see
               mee
               .
               As
               yet
               I
               knew
               not
               of
               great
               sins
               ,
               as
               Murder
               ,
               Adultery
               :
               then
               some
               
                 Indians
              
               said
               we
               must
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               When
               I
               was
               in
               
                 English
              
               houses
               ,
               I
               saw
               them
               pray
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               it
               a
               vain
               work
               .
               They
               said
               there
               was
               but
               one
               God
               ;
               I
               thought
               ,
               nay
               ,
               there
               be
               many
               Gods
               .
               When
               
                 Indians
              
               said
               ,
               Wee
               will
               pray
               ,
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               No
               ;
               I
               will
               not
               so
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Yet
               I
               heard
               more
               and
               more
               of
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               that
               my
               brothers
               prayed
               to
               God
               ;
               but
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Praying
               to
               God
               is
               vain
               .
               After
               I
               heard
               
                 Waban
              
               did
               pray
               ,
               and
               my
               brothers
               ,
               
                 Wompo●as
                 ,
              
               and
               
                 Toteswo●mp
                 ;
              
               yet
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               No
               :
               I
               am
               well
               enough
               .
               I
               have
               not
               so
               sinned
               as
               other
               men
               ,
               I
               am
               no
               Murderer
               ,
               Adulterer
               ,
               
                 &c.
                 
              
               Then
               I
               ran
               away
               ;
               yet
               I
               was
               not
               much
               troubled
               ,
               because
               my
               brothers
               prayed
               .
               A
               little
               after
               I
               came
               ,
               and
               my
               brother
               said
               to
               mee
               ;
               I
               pray
               you
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               I
               answered
               him
               not
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               No
               :
               yet
               I
               was
               troubled
               ,
               because
               I
               heard
               my
               brothers
               .
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               any
               should
               kill
               my
               brothers
               ,
               I
               would
               kill
               him
               :
               if
               any
               Warrs
               were
               ,
               I
               would
               go
               with
               my
               brothers
               ;
               only
               I
               thought
               of
               my
               love
               to
               my
               brothers
               :
               and
               then
               that
               ,
               if
               my
               brother
               make
               Warr
               ,
               I
               would
               go
               with
               him
               ,
               to
               kill
               men
               ▪
               Now
               he
               prayes
               ,
               shall
               not
               I
               go
               with
               my
               broth●●●●
               〈◊〉
               my
               brothers
               love
               me
               ,
               and
               they
               both
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               〈◊〉
               should
               not
               I
               ?
               They
               prayed
               morning
               and
               〈…〉
               they
               eat
               ,
               and
               on
               Sabbath
               dayes
               ,
               then
               I
               thought
               I
               would
               do
               so
               :
               but
               
               it
               was
               not
               for
               love
               of
               God
               ,
               or
               fear
               of
               God
               ,
               but
               because
               I
               loved
               my
               brothers
               .
               Again
               ,
               when
               I
               came
               to
               
                 Noonantam
                 ▪
              
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               preach
               ,
               and
               I
               desired
               to
               hear
               what
               he
               〈…〉
               taught
               ,
               but
               I
               understood
               not
               ,
               〈…〉
               ,
               because
               I
               understood
               stood
               〈…〉
               to
               hear
               ,
               I
               heard
               some
               youths
               〈…〉
               
                 Roxbury
                 .
              
               My
               brother
               said
               to
               me
               .
               Go
               you
               ,
               because
               you
               may
               learn
               
                 Smithery
                 :
              
               For
               that
               reason
               I
               did
               go
               ,
               but
               desired
               not
               to
               learn
               to
               pray
               :
               all
               these
               things
               were
               vain
               .
               When
               we
               came
               to
               
                 Roxbury
                 ,
              
               I
               said
               ,
               I
               desired
               to
               learn
               
                 Smithery
                 :
              
               But
               my
               Master
               said
               ,
               I
               may
               not
               teach
               him
               my
               Trade
               ,
               lest
               
                 Indians
              
               learn
               to
               make
               Locks
               and
               Guns
               .
               Then
               I
               would
               not
               dwell
               with
               him
               ,
               and
               thought
               to
               cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               and
               thought
               I
               would
               forsake
               my
               brothers
               .
               My
               brother
               perswaded
               mee
               to
               dwell
               one
               year
               there
               ,
               but
               I
               would
               not
               :
               yet
               at
               last
               I
               did
               dwell
               there
               one
               year
               ,
               and
               went
               to
               meeting
               ,
               but
               in
               vain
               ,
               for
               I
               understood
               not
               one
               word
               .
               After
               that
               year
               ,
               I
               returned
               to
               
                 Noonantam
                 ,
              
               and
               then
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               all
               the
               world
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               did
               not
               pray
               to
               God
               one
               jot
               ,
               but
               still
               sinned
               ,
               and
               especially
               the
               sin
               of
               Lust
               ,
               &
               I
               made
               light
               of
               any
               sin
               .
               I
               heard
               ,
               and
               understood
               the
               Commands
               of
               God
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 murder
                 ,
                 commit
                 adultery
                 ,
                 steal
                 ,
                 bear
                 false
                 witness
                 ,
                 covet
                 ;
              
               and
               that
               made
               me
               afraid
               to
               commit
               sin
               afore
               man
               ,
               lest
               I
               should
               be
               punished
               or
               put
               to
               death
               ,
               but
               I
               feared
               not
               God
               .
               After
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               ask
               ,
               
                 Who
                 made
                 you
                 ?
              
               A.
               
                 God
                 :
              
               and
               
                 Who
                 redeemed
                 you
                 ?
              
               A.
               
                 Christ
                 :
              
               and
               
                 Who
                 must
                 sanctifie
                 you
                 ?
                 The
                 holy
                 Ghost
                 ,
              
               and
               that
               God
               made
               Heaven
               ,
               Earth
               ,
               Sea
               ,
               
                 &c.
              
               then
               I
               a
               little
               considered
               of
               God
               ,
               who
               made
               all
               this
               world
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               was
               afraid
               .
               I
               saw
               that
               no
               man
               could
               make
               these
               things
               ,
               and
               that
               therefore
               we
               
               must
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Assuredly
               it
               is
               so
               ;
               God
               made
               all
               things
               ,
               and
               made
               mee
               ,
               and
               I
               must
               pray
               to
               him
               :
               After
               this
               ,
               my
               brothers
               were
               sick
               ,
               and
               I
               prayed
               God
               ,
               Oh
               that
               they
               may
               live
               !
               and
               then
               I
               heard
               ,
               that
               now
               God
               tryeth
               mee
               whether
               I
               will
               pray
               or
               no
               .
               I
               confesse
               I
               have
               done
               many
               sins
               ,
               especially
               lust
               ,
               though
               I
               had
               not
               been
               a
               Murderer
               ,
               or
               the
               like
               .
               But
               then
               my
               brothers
               and
               kindred
               dyed
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Sure
               it
               's
               a
               vain
               thing
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               for
               I
               prayed
               ,
               yet
               my
               friends
               dye●
               therefore
               I
               will
               run
               wilde
               ,
               and
               did
               cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               I
               did
               not
               pray
               morning
               and
               night
               ,
               and
               at
               meat
               ,
               only
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               I
               came
               to
               meeting
               ,
               but
               I
               cared
               not
               for
               hearing
               ,
               nor
               did
               I
               believe
               any
               thing
               I
               heard
               ,
               but
               I
               still
               lived
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               run
               away
               ;
               for
               here
               we
               are
               hindred
               from
               sin
               ,
               in
               other
               places
               I
               may
               freely
               sin
               .
               Then
               my
               brothers
               which
               lived
               were
               troubled
               for
               mee
               .
               Then
               I
               said
               I
               will
               abide
               with
               my
               brothers
               ,
               because
               I
               love
               them
               ,
               but
               not
               because
               I
               would
               pray
               .
            
             
               Then
               that
               Winter
               God
               broke
               my
               head
               ;
               I
               knew
               but
               little
               ,
               I
               was
               almost
               dead
               :
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Now
               I
               know
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               mee
               for
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               hath
               therefore
               smote
               mee
               ;
               then
               I
               prayed
               hard
               ,
               when
               I
               was
               almost
               dead
               .
               I
               remembred
               my
               sins
               much
               ,
               and
               considered
               them
               much
               :
               I
               remembred
               that
               God
               made
               all
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               therefore
               assuredly
               there
               is
               a
               God
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               
                 Adam
                 ,
              
               and
               made
               him
               in
               his
               own
               image
               ,
               
                 Gen.
              
               1.
               and
               assuredly
               none
               but
               God
               could
               make
               all
               the
               world
               ,
               heaven
               ,
               earth
               ,
               sea
               ,
               
                 &c.
              
               then
               I
               did
               believe
               that
               God
               did
               make
               the
               world
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               I
               confesse
               ,
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               had
               offended
               against
               God
               ,
               and
               sinn'd
               against
               him
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               had
               the
               root
               of
               
               sin
               in
               me
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               had
               deserved
               all
               miseries
               ,
               and
               death
               ,
               and
               hell
               .
               I
               heard
               ,
               that
               God
               made
               a
               Covenant
               with
               
                 Adam
                 ,
              
               and
               forbad
               him
               to
               eat
               of
               the
               Tree
               in
               the
               midst
               of
               the
               Garden
               ;
               and
               yet
               he
               did
               eat
               ,
               and
               therefore
               God
               was
               angry
               with
               man
               :
               and
               I
               was
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               therefore
               God
               was
               angry
               with
               me
               :
               and
               because
               I
               have
               sometime
               forsaken
               God
               ,
               and
               run
               wilde
               ,
               therefore
               I
               now
               know
               my
               sin
               and
               my
               offence
               against
               God
               .
               I
               desire
               no
               more
               to
               cast
               off
               God
               and
               prayer
               ,
               for
               now
               I
               know
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               have
               deserved
               misery
               :
               therefore
               now
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               I
               desired
               pardon
               of
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               it
               may
               be
               God
               will
               pardon
               mee
               :
               and
               my
               heart
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               Oh
               God
               if
               thou
               give
               mee
               life
               again
               ,
               I
               will
               assuredly
               believe
               and
               obey
               ;
               and
               now
               I
               know
               my
               sins
               by
               the
               sin
               of
               
                 Adam
                 :
              
               but
               when
               I
               had
               thus
               done
               ,
               quickly
               my
               heart
               would
               be
               vain
               again
               .
               After
               my
               wound
               ,
               when
               I
               came
               to
               my self
               and
               awaked
               ,
               I
               saw
               my
               sin
               ,
               and
               promised
               God
               to
               pray
               unto
               him
               ,
               when
               I
               saw
               the
               mercy
               of
               God
               was
               so
               great
               unto
               mee
               :
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Say
               not
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               hereafter
               ,
               but
               now
               ,
               
                 Today
                 if
                 yee
                 will
                 hear
                 his
                 voice
                 ,
                 harden
                 not
                 your
                 hearts
                 ,
              
               but
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               and
               that
               made
               my
               heart
               to
               yield
               to
               do
               it
               .
               Then
               I
               understood
               ,
               
                 Gen.
              
               2.
               that
               
                 God
                 formed
                 man
                 out
                 of
                 the
                 dust
                 of
                 the
                 earth
                 ,
                 and
                 breathed
                 into
                 him
                 a
                 living
                 soul
                 :
              
               by
               this
               I
               did
               believe
               that
               God
               made
               me
               .
               And
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 God
                 caused
                 Adam
                 to
                 sleep
                 ,
                 and
                 took
                 out
                 a
                 rib
                 ,
                 and
                 made
                 it
                 a
                 woman
                 :
              
               and
               by
               this
               I
               believed
               ,
               that
               surely
               this
               is
               the
               work
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               that
               
                 wee
                 are
                 born
                 in
                 sin
                 ,
                 under
                 the
                 guilt
                 of
                 Adams
                 sin
                 :
              
               and
               by
               that
               I
               believed
               that
               I
               was
               a
               sinner
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Gen.
              
               6.
               that
               
                 all
                 the
                 thoughts
                 and
                 imaginations
                 of
                 the
                 heart
                 of
                 man
                 ,
                 are
                 only
                 evil
                 continually
                 ;
              
               and
               that
               
               God
               did
               threaten
               
                 to
                 destroy
                 man
                 whom
                 hee
                 had
                 made
                 ,
                 and
                 all
                 beasts
                 and
                 living
                 creatures
                 which
                 hee
                 had
                 made
                 :
              
               and
               by
               this
               I
               saw
               ,
               that
               surely
               sin
               is
               a
               very
               great
               evil
               .
            
             
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               that
               
                 Noah
                 found
                 grace
                 ,
                 and
                 hee
                 onely
                 was
                 upright
                 before
                 God
                 ,
              
               and
               that
               
                 God
                 drowned
                 all
                 the
                 world
                 ,
                 except
                 Noah
                 ,
                 and
                 his
                 sons
                 ,
                 and
                 their
                 wives
                 ,
                 eight
                 persons
                 :
              
               this
               did
               make
               mee
               remember
               my
               sinnes
               ,
               and
               confesse
               them
               ,
               and
               I
               saw
               that
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               sin
               .
               
                 It
                 rained
                 forty
                 dayes
                 ,
                 and
                 so
                 drowned
                 all
                 the
                 world
                 :
              
               then
               I
               said
               ,
               Surely
               this
               is
               Gods
               work
               ,
               and
               hee
               doth
               as
               he
               threatned
               to
               do
               to
               sinners
               ;
               and
               the
               same
               may
               God
               do
               to
               me
               ,
               who
               am
               a
               sinner
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               is
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               and
               evil
               thoughts
               ,
               &c.
               
               And
               then
               I
               prayed
               ,
               Oh
               God
               be
               not
               angry
               with
               mee
               ,
               but
               be
               mercifull
               to
               mee
               ,
               and
               shew
               mee
               what
               I
               should
               do
               .
               Then
               I
               considered
               why
               did
               God
               bid
               
                 Noah
              
               make
               an
               Ark
               ,
               and
               saved
               
                 Noah
              
               and
               his
               Sons
               ,
               and
               their
               Wives
               :
               and
               by
               it
               my
               heart
               saw
               ,
               that
               this
               is
               Gods
               work
               ,
               who
               does
               what
               hee
               speaketh
               ,
               and
               hath
               mercy
               on
               whom
               hee
               will
               .
               And
               my
               heart
               thought
               ,
               does
               God
               pardon
               mee
               ,
               and
               love
               mee
               ?
               It
               may
               be
               God
               will
               have
               mercy
               on
               mee
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               promise
               ,
               Mat.
               3.
               
               
                 Repent
                 and
                 believe
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 Kingdom
                 of
                 heaven
                 is
                 at
                 hand
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               that
               God
               would
               help
               mee
               ,
               and
               pardon
               my
               sins
               .
               And
               God
               made
               mee
               wonder
               at
               Gods
               mercy
               to
               mee
               .
               I
               heard
               of
               
                 Sodom
                 ,
              
               and
               their
               great
               sin
               ,
               and
               destruction
               ,
               and
               that
               did
               make
               me
               to
               remember
               my
               great
               sins
               ,
               and
               the
               great
               work
               of
               God
               that
               hee
               had
               almost
               kill'd
               mee
               ;
               Oh
               ,
               I
               thought
               this
               is
               Gods
               work
               ,
               to
               shew
               mee
               my
               sinnes
               :
               and
               as
               God
               saved
               
                 Lot
              
               by
               the
               Angels
               ,
               and
               sent
               him
               out
               of
               the
               place
               ,
               but
               burnt
               
                 Sodom
              
               and
               all
               the
               people
               ,
               this
               I
               saw
               to
               be
               Gods
               work
               ,
               &
               now
               I
               desired
               to
               fear
               God
               and
               pray
               unto
               him
               all
               the
               dayes
               of
               my
               life
               .
            
             
             
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               Mat.
               3.
               
               
                 The
                 axe
                 is
                 laid
                 to
                 the
                 root
                 of
                 the
                 tree
                 ,
                 every
                 tree
                 that
                 bringeth
                 not
                 forth
                 good
                 fruit
                 is
                 hewen
                 down
                 ,
                 and
                 cast
                 into
                 the
                 fire
                 :
              
               then
               I
               feared
               my
               own
               case
               ,
               because
               my
               fruits
               were
               sin
               ,
               and
               I
               deserved
               to
               be
               cut
               down
               ;
               then
               I
               desired
               to
               believe
               in
               Christ
               .
               I
               did
               believe
               that
               Christ
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               by
               that
               word
               
                 Matth.
              
               4.
               
               Satan
               tempted
               Christ
               ,
               
                 If
                 thou
                 be
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 &c.
              
               but
               Christ
               conquered
               Satan
               ;
               and
               therefore
               assuredly
               hee
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               considered
               that
               place
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               11.
               
               Many
               came
               to
               Christ
               ,
               the
               halt
               ,
               and
               blinde
               ,
               and
               lame
               ,
               and
               deaf
               ,
               and
               sick
               ,
               and
               hee
               healed
               all
               ,
               and
               if
               they
               did
               but
               touch
               Christ
               they
               were
               healed
               ;
               and
               therefore
               my
               heart
               believed
               assuredly
               ,
               hee
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               :
               and
               therefore
               now
               I
               will
               pray
               ,
               and
               Oh
               let
               Christ
               save
               mee
               .
               And
               Christ
               hath
               promised
               ,
               
                 Whatever
                 yee
                 ask
                 in
                 my
                 name
                 ,
                 it
                 shall
                 be
                 done
                 :
              
               therefore
               now
               I
               prayed
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               Jesus
               pardon
               mee
               ;
               but
               my
               heart
               is
               weak
               and
               doubting
               ,
               and
               I
               cannot
               believe
               .
               And
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               that
               
                 every
                 tree
                 that
                 bringeth
                 not
                 forth
                 good
                 fruit
                 ,
                 is
                 cut
                 down
                 and
                 cast
                 into
                 the
                 fire
                 :
              
               then
               I
               said
               ,
               I
               deserve
               that
               .
               Again
               ,
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Not
                 every
                 one
                 that
                 sayeth
                 ,
                 Lord
                 ,
                 Lord
                 ,
                 but
                 hee
                 that
                 heareth
                 the
                 Word
                 ,
                 and
                 doeth
                 it
                 .
              
               Assuredly
               it
               is
               so
               ;
               and
               I
               desire
               not
               only
               to
               hear
               the
               Word
               ,
               but
               to
               do
               it
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               was
               ashamed
               of
               my
               sinnes
               ,
               and
               grieved
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Matth.
               6.
               
               
                 Blessed
                 art
                 thou
                 Simon
                 bar-Ionah
                 ,
                 flesh
                 and
                 blood
                 hath
                 not
                 revealed
                 this
                 unto
                 thee
                 ,
                 but
                 my
                 heavenly
                 Father
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Yea
               Lord
               ,
               no
               man
               has
               taught
               mee
               Christ
               ,
               onely
               God
               hath
               taught
               my
               heart
               to
               know
               Christ
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Mat.
               1.
               
               
                 Hee
                 will
                 save
                 his
                 people
                 from
                 their
                 sins
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Be
               it
               so
               to
               mee
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               Christ
               rose
               again
               
               the
               third
               day
               with
               an
               Earth-quake
               ;
               and
               the
               Watchmen
               were
               afraid
               ,
               and
               fled
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Surely
               this
               is
               Christ
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ;
               and
               whosoever
               believeth
               in
               Christ
               ,
               his
               soul
               shall
               go
               to
               heaven
               :
               For
               again
               ,
               I
               heard
               of
               the
               Ascension
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               more
               then
               five
               hundred
               saw
               him
               ascend
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               believe
               this
               is
               Christ
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               in
               John
               14.
               
               
                 No
                 man
                 cometh
                 unto
                 the
                 Father
                 ,
                 but
                 by
                 mee
                 :
              
               my
               heart
               answered
               ,
               Yea
               assuredly
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               ,
               Christ
               is
               the
               way
               ,
               to
               believe
               in
               ,
               and
               come
               to
               God
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 Mat.
              
               25.
               
               Christ
               saith
               to
               the
               wicked
               ,
               
                 Depart
                 yee
                 cursed
                 :
              
               I
               said
               ,
               God
               might
               justly
               say
               so
               to
               mee
               ,
               and
               send
               mee
               to
               eternal
               death
               .
               But
               I
               earnestly
               cryed
               to
               God
               ,
               Oh
               God
               ,
               set
               mee
               into
               the
               right
               way
               ,
               and
               give
               mee
               Christ
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               ever
               walk
               with
               Christ
               ;
               for
               I
               am
               poor
               and
               weak
               :
               and
               Christ
               promiseth
               ,
               that
               
                 what
                 wee
                 ask
                 hee
                 will
                 grant
                 ;
              
               and
               I
               say
               ,
               Let
               God
               do
               with
               mee
               what
               hee
               will
               :
               but
               I
               beg
               mercy
               in
               Christ
               ,
               onely
               I
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
            
          
           
             
               Iohn
               Speen
               .
            
             
               THis
               I
               confess
               ,
               that
               I
               assuredly
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               before
               the
               Lord
               :
               but
               now
               I
               beseech
               God
               to
               help
               mee
               ;
               Oh
               Christ
               ,
               lead
               mee
               in
               the
               right
               way
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               speak
               that
               which
               is
               right
               .
            
             
               This
               I
               confesse
               ,
               that
               before
               wee
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               I
               was
               wholly
               a
               sinner
               ,
               and
               not
               only
               before
               ,
               but
               since
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               I
               have
               been
               a
               great
               sinner
               :
               and
               now
               
               I
               desire
               to
               make
               a
               short
               confession
               [
               for
               we
               desired
               that
               they
               would
               be
               shorter
               ,
               the
               time
               requiring
               so
               ]
               .
               At
               first
               when
               I
               prayed
               ,
               my
               prayer
               was
               vain
               ,
               and
               only
               I
               prayed
               with
               my
               mouth
               ;
               and
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               only
               I
               came
               to
               the
               House
               of
               Prayer
               .
               I
               prayed
               morning
               and
               evening
               ,
               and
               when
               I
               eat
               ,
               but
               I
               considered
               not
               what
               I
               prayed
               for
               ;
               I
               was
               sometime
               angry
               and
               passionate
               about
               wordly
               matters
               ;
               and
               I
               was
               troubled
               when
               I
               saw
               my
               brother
               was
               chosen
               to
               be
               a
               Ruler
               ,
               who
               was
               younger
               then
               I
               ;
               because
               now
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               was
               a
               sinner
               ;
               and
               though
               I
               repented
               ,
               yet
               presently
               again
               I
               fell
               into
               sin
               :
               therefore
               I
               thought
               ,
               surely
               God
               hath
               cast
               me
               off
               ,
               because
               I
               thus
               sin
               ;
               and
               still
               my
               heart
               was
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               all
               my
               thoughts
               were
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               all
               my
               talk
               and
               doings
               were
               sinfull
               .
            
             
               But
               now
               of
               late
               ,
               about
               2
               yeares
               ago
               ,
               I
               heard
               this
               word
               ,
               Mat.
               12.
               
               
                 When
                 the
                 unclean
                 spirit
                 was
                 cast
                 out
                 ,
                 hee
                 went
                 up
                 and
                 down
                 unquiet
                 ;
                 then
                 hee
                 returned
                 and
                 took
              
               7
               
                 devils
                 with
                 him
                 ,
                 worse
                 then
                 himself
                 ,
                 and
                 dwelt
                 in
                 that
                 man
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 latter
                 end
                 of
                 that
                 man
                 was
                 worse
                 then
                 his
                 beginning
                 .
              
               When
               I
               heard
               this
               I
               feared
               ,
               my
               heart
               feared
               ;
               I
               feared
               that
               my
               repentance
               and
               praying
               and
               all
               was
               nought
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               hath
               almost
               quite
               cast
               me
               off
               .
               Then
               I
               considered
               how
               I
               fell
               into
               these
               sins
               :
               I
               remembred
               that
               the
               Serpent
               did
               deceive
               the
               woman
               ,
               &
               she
               the
               man
               ,
               and
               thereby
               brought
               sin
               ;
               and
               thereupon
               God
               punished
               both
               the
               man
               and
               the
               woman
               .
               Hearing
               this
               ,
               my
               heart
               thought
               ;
               Surely
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               because
               my
               parents
               were
               sinners
               ,
               and
               so
               am
               I
               .
               I
               have
               sinned
               against
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               born
               in
               sin
               .
               My
               Parents
               broke
               that
               Command
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 have
                 no
                 other
                 gods
                 but
                 Mee
                 ;
              
               but
               they
               served
               many
               gods
               ,
               and
               so
               did
               I
               ,
               
               and
               therefore
               the
               earth
               bringeth
               forth
               thorns
               and
               weeds
               unto
               man
               ,
               when
               he
               laboreth
               :
               therefore
               by
               this
               I
               remembred
               my
               troublesom
               life
               ,
               and
               all
               is
               because
               God
               is
               offended
               at
               me
               ,
               because
               of
               my
               sins
               .
               And
               then
               I
               remembred
               that
               many
               of
               my
               children
               are
               dead
               ;
               this
               is
               Gods
               punishment
               on
               me
               ,
               because
               of
               my
               sins
               .
               Sometime
               men
               punished
               me
               ,
               and
               were
               offended
               at
               me
               ,
               but
               now
               I
               remembred
               my
               sins
               against
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               saw
               that
               the
               punishments
               of
               God
               are
               a
               greater
               matter
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               that
               
                 hee
                 that
                 keepeth
                 his
                 word
                 shall
                 finde
                 mercy
                 .
              
               I
               thought
               so
               it
               is
               indeed
               ;
               but
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               .
               I
               considered
               what
               I
               should
               do
               ,
               because
               I
               was
               a
               sinner
               ,
               and
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               have
               lived
               in
               sin
               .
               I
               considered
               assuredly
               there
               is
               a
               God
               ,
               and
               God
               made
               heaven
               and
               earth
               ,
               and
               all
               that
               is
               therein
               ,
               and
               all
               destructions
               and
               deaths
               are
               the
               work
               of
               God
               .
               I
               remembred
               my
               vain
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               considered
               what
               to
               do
               ▪
               I
               confessed
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               begged
               pardon
               for
               Christ
               his
               sake
               .
               I
               did
               finde
               I
               could
               not
               deliver
               my self
               ,
               but
               Christ
               only
               is
               my
               deliverer
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               desired
               to
               believe
               ,
               and
               pray
               to
               him
               ,
               and
               yet
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ,
               nor
               how
               to
               please
               God
               ,
               and
               get
               pardon
               ;
               only
               I
               prayed
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               deliver
               mee
               ,
               because
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               ,
               and
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               .
            
             
               Then
               I
               remembred
               that
               God
               layeth
               on
               us
               two
               deaths
               in
               this
               world
               :
               First
               ,
               the
               soul
               is
               dead
               ,
               and
               wee
               are
               made
               guilty
               of
               
                 Adams
              
               sin
               ,
               and
               have
               lost
               Gods
               Image
               ,
               and
               hereby
               my
               soul
               is
               a
               fool
               ,
               and
               hereby
               my
               soul
               is
               dead
               :
               and
               a
               man
               dead
               can
               do
               nothing
               ,
               nor
               speak
               ,
               nor
               go
               ,
               nor
               stand
               ,
               and
               verily
               so
               is
               my
               soul
               dead
               ,
               and
               I
               shall
               fall
               to
               eternal
               damnation
               by
               sin
               .
               Therefore
               now
               I
               cry
               to
               God
               to
               help
               mee
               ,
               for
               I
               am
               throughly
               a
               sinner
               .
               
               After
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               pardoneth
               penitent
               believers
               :
               and
               I
               remember
               the
               word
               of
               
                 Ionas
                 ,
              
               when
               he
               was
               almost
               cast
               off
               ,
               he
               repented
               ,
               and
               God
               made
               a
               Whale
               to
               eat
               him
               up
               ;
               and
               then
               he
               looked
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               cryed
               for
               mercy
               ;
               and
               then
               I
               saw
               that
               if
               I
               cry
               for
               mercy
               ,
               and
               believe
               ,
               I
               shall
               have
               pardon
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               Christ
               healed
               all
               manner
               of
               diseases
               ;
               therefore
               I
               believed
               that
               Christ
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               able
               to
               heal
               and
               pardon
               all
               .
               Now
               I
               confess
               I
               know
               nothing
               ,
               almost
               nothing
               at
               all
               .
               Again
               ,
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Hee
                 that
                 is
                 not
                 with
                 mee
                 is
                 against
                 mee
                 ;
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               True
               it
               is
               so
               ,
               so
               must
               I
               do
               ,
               I
               must
               be
               with
               Christ
               :
               and
               ,
               
                 Hee
                 that
                 gathereth
                 not
                 ,
                 scattereth
                 ;
              
               I
               said
               ,
               So
               it
               is
               with
               mee
               ,
               I
               have
               so
               done
               ;
               I
               scatter
               ,
               and
               am
               a
               stranger
               to
               Christ
               .
               And
               I
               did
               not
               truly
               love
               them
               that
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               but
               I
               was
               a
               stranger
               in
               heart
               unto
               them
               .
               But
               now
               I
               desire
               in
               my
               heart
               to
               do
               as
               they
               do
               ;
               and
               our
               poor
               teaching
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               obey
               it
               ,
               and
               do
               what
               God
               bids
               ;
               and
               what
               he
               saith
               you
               shall
               not
               do
               ,
               that
               I
               desire
               not
               to
               do
               :
               But
               yet
               again
               I
               do
               sin
               ,
               and
               my
               sins
               troubled
               me
               by
               hearing
               the
               word
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               yet
               I
               would
               do
               them
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               will
               pardon
               all
               kinde
               of
               sins
               ,
               that
               men
               sin
               ,
               
                 but
                 the
                 sin
                 against
                 the
                 Holy
                 Ghost
                 shall
                 not
                 be
                 pardoned
                 in
                 this
                 world
                 ,
                 nor
                 in
                 that
                 which
                 is
                 to
                 come
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               fear'd
               that
               I
               was
               such
               an
               one
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               would
               not
               pardon
               me
               .
               Then
               I
               earnestly
               entreated
               God
               to
               pardon
               and
               deliver
               me
               ,
               because
               he
               was
               the
               true
               deliverer
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               that
               
                 they
                 that
                 are
                 well
                 need
                 not
                 the
                 Physitian
                 ,
                 but
                 the
                 sick
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               True
               ;
               I
               did
               even
               so
               ,
               I
               sought
               not
               help
               when
               I
               was
               well
               ,
               but
               now
               I
               remember
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               now
               my
               soul
               is
               dead
               ,
               and
               now
               I
               desire
               that
               my
               soul
               may
               live
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               the
               Physitian
               of
               my
               soul
               to
               heal
               
               mee
               ;
               and
               Christ
               will
               not
               in
               vain
               heal
               souls
               ,
               but
               such
               as
               convert
               from
               sin
               ,
               and
               believe
               in
               Christ
               ,
               their
               sins
               Christ
               pardoneth
               :
               this
               my
               soul
               doth
               earnestly
               beseech
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               else
               I
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 Christ
                 dyed
                 for
                 our
                 sins
                 ,
              
               when
               we
               are
               sinners
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               26.
               
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 This
                 is
                 my
                 blood
                 of
                 the
                 New
                 Testament
                 ,
                 which
                 is
                 shed
                 for
                 many
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 remission
                 of
                 sins
                 :
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Yea
               (
               Lord
               )
               let
               it
               be
               so
               for
               my
               soul
               ,
               and
               let
               me
               not
               be
               a
               stranger
               any
               more
               before
               thee
               .
               I
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ,
               Lord
               help
               .
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               washed
               from
               all
               my
               filthy
               sins
               ,
               and
               to
               be
               baptized
               ,
               as
               a
               sign
               of
               it
               .
               I
               am
               as
               a
               dead
               man
               in
               my
               soul
               ,
               and
               desire
               to
               live
               .
            
          
           
             
               Ponampam
               .
            
             
               A
               Little
               I
               shall
               speak
               .
               I
               was
               young
               ,
               about
               8
               years
               old
               when
               my
               father
               lived
               .
               I
               did
               play
               as
               other
               children
               did
               ,
               and
               my
               father
               did
               chide
               me
               for
               playing
               .
               I
               wondered
               at
               it
               ,
               for
               he
               said
               we
               shall
               all
               die
               .
               I
               wondered
               and
               sat
               amazed
               about
               half
               an
               hour
               ,
               but
               I
               soon
               forgot
               it
               .
               That
               Winter
               the
               Pox
               came
               ,
               and
               almost
               all
               our
               kindred
               dyed
               .
               I
               and
               my
               mother
               came
               to
               the
               Bay
               ,
               and
               there
               dwelt
               till
               we
               pray'd
               to
               God
               ;
               but
               I
               did
               nothing
               but
               sin
               ,
               as
               the
               rest
               of
               the
               world
               did
               .
               Then
               hearing
               the
               word
               of
               God
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 from
                 the
                 rising
                 of
                 the
                 sun
                 to
                 the
                 setting
                 thereof
                 ,
                 my
                 Name
                 shall
                 be
                 known
                 among
                 the
                 Gentiles
                 :
              
               therefore
               all
               must
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               But
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               desire
               that
               ,
               but
               to
               go
               away
               to
               some
               other
               place
               .
               But
               remembring
               the
               word
               of
               
               God
               ,
               that
               all
               shall
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               did
               not
               desire
               to
               go
               away
               ,
               but
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               But
               if
               I
               pray
               afore
               the
               Sachems
               pray
               ,
               I
               fear
               they
               will
               kill
               me
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               will
               not
               pray
               .
               But
               yet
               when
               others
               prayed
               ,
               I
               prayed
               with
               them
               ;
               and
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               I
               run
               away
               to
               other
               places
               ,
               they
               will
               pray
               too
               ,
               therefore
               I
               will
               pray
               here
               .
               Then
               on
               a
               Sabbath
               ,
               none
               taught
               ,
               and
               some
               bid
               me
               teach
               ,
               what
               the
               Minister
               had
               taught
               us
               ;
               but
               I
               feared
               ,
               and
               durst
               not
               for
               fear
               of
               the
               Sachems
               ,
               yet
               they
               urged
               me
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               .
               And
               I
               taught
               them
               what
               I
               remembred
               ,
               and
               they
               were
               angry
               at
               me
               ,
               and
               we
               fell
               out
               ,
               and
               I
               went
               away
               .
               I
               thought
               that
               my
               praying
               would
               be
               in
               vain
               ,
               and
               I
               laid
               by
               praying
               ;
               and
               there
               was
               Paw-wauing
               ,
               but
               I
               doubted
               to
               do
               that
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               prayed
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               think
               they
               would
               laugh
               at
               me
               .
               After
               I
               returned
               again
               ,
               and
               was
               among
               them
               which
               prayed
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               rightly
               pray
               ,
               though
               I
               came
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               .
               Then
               about
               the
               time
               that
               my
               Son
               (
               who
               was
               at
               School
               )
               was
               born
               ,
               the
               Minister
               taught
               on
               1
               Chron.
               28.
               9.
               
               
                 Thou
                 Solomon
                 my
                 son
                 ,
                 know
                 the
                 God
                 of
                 thy
                 fathers
                 ,
                 &c.
                 if
                 thou
                 seek
                 him
                 ,
                 hee
                 will
                 be
                 found
                 of
                 thee
                 ;
                 if
                 thou
                 forsake
                 him
                 ,
                 hee
                 will
                 cast
                 thee
                 off
                 for
                 ever
                 :
              
               Then
               I
               feared
               ,
               for
               I
               said
               ,
               This
               already
               I
               have
               done
               ,
               I
               have
               cast
               off
               God
               ,
               and
               therefore
               he
               will
               cast
               off
               me
               ;
               for
               every
               such
               one
               God
               will
               cast
               off
               ,
               I
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               .
               It
               repented
               me
               for
               my
               sin
               ,
               I
               feared
               Gods
               wrath
               and
               damnation
               .
               Then
               I
               prayed
               ,
               and
               call'd
               upon
               God
               ,
               yet
               only
               sometimes
               I
               repented
               ,
               and
               after
               I
               found
               my
               heart
               full
               of
               sin
               again
               :
               But
               then
               I
               was
               angry
               at
               my self
               ,
               and
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ;
               alwayes
               I
               did
               fear
               ,
               God
               hath
               cast
               me
               off
               ,
               for
               all
               my
               many
               sins
               which
               I
               have
               done
               .
               Hereby
               I
               was
               troubled
               and
               angry
               at
               my self
               .
               Then
               I
               
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Who
                 ever
                 repent
                 and
                 believe
                 shall
                 be
                 saved
                 ,
                 I
                 l'e
                 pardon
                 them
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               cryed
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               let
               it
               be
               so
               ,
               that
               my
               sins
               may
               be
               pardoned
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               may
               pray
               alwaies
               .
               Then
               I
               begged
               ,
               Lord
               give
               me
               repentance
               and
               faith
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               pray
               to
               God
               much
               .
               Then
               I
               did
               beg
               ,
               that
               I
               might
               give
               up
               my self
               ,
               wife
               ,
               and
               children
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               we
               live
               ;
               and
               then
               I
               prayed
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 5.
                 
                 Hee
                 that
                 looks
                 on
                 a
                 woman
                 to
                 lust
                 after
                 her
                 ,
                 hath
                 committed
                 adultery
                 in
                 his
                 heart
                 .
              
               I
               then
               remembred
               my
               sins
               ;
               that
               though
               I
               had
               promised
               to
               pray
               ,
               yet
               I
               had
               thus
               sinned
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               was
               now
               troubled
               about
               this
               .
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               Cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               because
               you
               are
               filthy
               in
               lust
               ,
               your
               heart
               and
               eyes
               still
               commit
               adultery
               ;
               therefore
               run
               away
               from
               these
               that
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               go
               to
               
                 Qunniticot
                 ,
              
               or
               some
               other
               place
               ;
               and
               if
               you
               be
               in
               other
               places
               ,
               you
               may
               do
               what
               you
               will
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               almost
               inclined
               to
               this
               sin
               :
               But
               after
               that
               ,
               this
               merciful
               word
               of
               God
               I
               heard
               ,
               That
               
                 Satan
                 led
                 Christ
                 into
                 the
                 wilderness
                 to
                 tempt
                 him
                 ,
              
               and
               so
               I
               thought
               hee
               would
               do
               me
               .
               Then
               I
               desired
               God
               to
               be
               merciful
               to
               me
               ;
               then
               I
               turned
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               cryed
               ,
               but
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ,
               for
               I
               feared
               God
               had
               cast
               me
               off
               ,
               and
               I
               shall
               perish
               for
               ever
               ;
               God
               has
               cast
               me
               off
               ,
               and
               I
               have
               deserved
               hell
               fire
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Joh.
               14.
               6.
               
               
                 None
                 come
                 to
                 the
                 Father
                 but
                 by
                 me
                 :
              
               I
               did
               pray
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               let
               it
               be
               so
               ,
               that
               by
               thee
               I
               may
               come
               to
               God
               ;
               and
               I
               pray
               Christ
               Jesus
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               this
               mercy
               I
               beg
               .
               Then
               I
               repented
               my
               casting
               off
               praying
               to
               God
               ;
               then
               I
               promised
               I
               would
               not
               return
               again
               to
               sin
               ,
               and
               if
               Christ
               help
               me
               ,
               I
               and
               children
               shall
               serve
               God
               .
               Then
               that
               Spring
               my
               mother
               and
               two
               children
               dyed
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               troubled
               ,
               and
               knew
               
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ;
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Lay
               by
               prayer
               ,
               but
               that
               I
               did
               not
               :
               but
               I
               saw
               Christ
               came
               to
               give
               eternal
               life
               ,
               and
               therefore
               what
               Christ
               will
               do
               for
               me
               ,
               so
               let
               it
               be
               .
               Therefore
               I
               believe
               only
               in
               Christ
               for
               eternal
               life
               ;
               and
               what
               Christ
               will
               do
               with
               my
               soul
               ,
               so
               let
               it
               be
               ;
               and
               my
               soul
               desireth
               that
               I
               may
               receive
               the
               Seals
               to
               make
               strong
               my
               heart
               .
            
          
           
             
               Piumbuhhou
               .
            
             
               ASsuredly
               ,
               I
               have
               nothing
               that
               I
               should
               confesse
               as
               I
               ought
               ,
               for
               my
               heart
               is
               full
               of
               foolishness
               and
               darkness
               ;
               stopt
               up
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               deaf
               are
               my
               ears
               .
               I
               know
               not
               by
               what
               way
               I
               can
               get
               life
               .
               I
               was
               born
               in
               sin
               into
               this
               world
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               am
               in
               folly
               ,
               and
               I
               know
               my
               heart
               is
               full
               of
               foolishness
               and
               ignorance
               .
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ever
               since
               I
               saw
               light
               in
               this
               world
               ;
               my
               foolishness
               appeareth
               in
               every
               thing
               I
               do
               in
               this
               life
               .
               I
               know
               not
               what
               God
               hath
               given
               me
               ,
               but
               now
               I
               hear
               of
               the
               mercy
               of
               God
               ,
               who
               hath
               made
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               all
               things
               in
               it
               ;
               by
               this
               great
               work
               of
               his
               I
               know
               there
               is
               a
               God
               ,
               and
               because
               my
               heart
               checketh
               mee
               for
               sin
               ,
               and
               I
               fear
               the
               punishment
               of
               God
               :
               And
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               now
               sheweth
               me
               that
               there
               is
               a
               God
               ;
               therefore
               my
               heart
               sayes
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               :
               and
               because
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               me
               for
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               I
               know
               nothing
               by
               my self
               but
               that
               which
               is
               evil
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               Mat.
               5.
               
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 the
                 poor
                 in
                 spirit
                 ,
                 for
                 theirs
                 is
                 the
                 kingdom
                 of
                 heaven
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               So
               be
               it
               Oh
               Lord
               to
               me
               ,
               and
               I
               love
               thee
               as
               long
               
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Then
               said
               my
               heart
               ,
               I
               am
               a
               poor
               man
               ,
               and
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               God
               said
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 they
                 that
                 hunger
                 and
                 thirst
                 after
                 righteousness
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 be
                 filled
                 .
              
               Then
               when
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               my
               heart
               rejoyced
               ;
               and
               yet
               again
               I
               doubted
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               misbelieved
               and
               feared
               .
               Then
               that
               word
               came
               ,
               that
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Be
                 ye
                 mercifull
                 ,
                 as
                 your
                 heavenly
                 father
                 is
                 merciful
                 .
              
               And
               again
               ,
               
                 Hee
                 maketh
                 his
                 sun
                 to
                 rise
                 on
                 the
                 evil
                 and
                 on
                 the
                 good
                 ;
                 and
                 sendeth
                 rain
                 on
                 the
                 just
                 and
                 on
                 the
                 unjust
                 .
              
               When
               I
               heard
               it
               ,
               my
               heart
               rejoyced
               to
               hear
               of
               the
               mercy
               of
               God
               ;
               yet
               I
               doubted
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               was
               hard
               again
               .
               Now
               I
               confess
               before
               God
               ,
               because
               God
               is
               a
               great
               God
               ,
               and
               a
               mercifull
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               pray
               to
               him
               .
               I
               heard
               of
               Gods
               great
               mercy
               ,
               to
               give
               us
               his
               only
               Son
               to
               dye
               for
               us
               ;
               therefore
               I
               loved
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               begged
               ,
               Oh
               God
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               I
               give
               up
               my self
               to
               Jesus
               Christ
               .
            
          
           
             
               Monotunkquanit
               .
            
             
               BEfore
               I
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               I
               lived
               at
               
                 Nipmuk
                 .
              
               I
               did
               not
               know
               that
               there
               was
               a
               God
               ,
               only
               I
               lived
               for
               nothing
               ,
               for
               no
               end
               or
               purpose
               ;
               but
               I
               alwaies
               did
               wilde
               actions
               .
               I
               kept
               no
               Sabbath
               ,
               nor
               Lecture
               ,
               nor
               any
               work
               of
               Prayer
               ;
               nor
               did
               I
               remember
               my
               works
               .
               I
               now
               know
               that
               all
               my
               words
               and
               works
               are
               naught
               ,
               my
               eyes
               and
               ears
               are
               stopped
               ,
               and
               mad
               works
               I
               dayly
               did
               .
               After
               I
               went
               to
               
                 Dorchester
              
               Indians
               ,
               the
               praying
               Indians
               ;
               and
               they
               that
               were
               my
               friends
               ,
               did
               say
               it
               was
               good
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               and
               said
               ,
               Tomorrow
               is
               our
               Lecture
               ,
               
               and
               the
               Minister
               cometh
               to
               teach
               us
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               desired
               to
               see
               the
               Minister
               ,
               and
               hear
               what
               he
               said
               :
               next
               day
               he
               came
               ,
               and
               taught
               the
               Indians
               ;
               I
               went
               and
               desired
               to
               see
               :
               when
               I
               came
               ,
               my
               son
               
                 Sam.
              
               came
               with
               mee
               ;
               the
               Minister
               call'd
               my
               son
               ,
               and
               set
               him
               afore
               ,
               and
               asked
               him
               ,
               
                 Who
                 made
                 him
                 ?
              
               and
               he
               was
               taught
               to
               answer
               ,
               
                 God
                 .
              
               Then
               he
               commended
               my
               son
               ,
               and
               asked
               whose
               son
               he
               was
               ;
               they
               said
               ,
               
                 Mine
                 .
              
               The
               Minister
               gave
               him
               two
               apples
               :
               then
               the
               Minister
               said
               to
               me
               ,
               Do
               you
               pray
               to
               God
               ?
               you
               see
               your
               childe
               saith
               ,
               God
               made
               him
               ;
               
               and
               therefore
               it
               is
               your
               duty
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               :
            
             
               Then
               I
               considered
               what
               he
               said
               ,
               I
               could
               not
               sleep
               that
               night
               .
               I
               considered
               whether
               I
               should
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               my
               heart
               did
               much
               doubt
               that
               night
               !
               Shall
               I
               pray
               ?
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               No
               ;
               yet
               I
               doubted
               .
               Then
               
                 Waban
              
               came
               to
               my
               house
               to
               
                 Nipmuk
                 ,
              
               and
               perswaded
               me
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               I
               said
               ,
               I
               know
               not
               how
               to
               pray
               .
               Hee
               said
               ,
               God
               will
               teach
               you
               ;
               God
               is
               a
               great
               God
               ,
               and
               made
               all
               the
               world
               .
               I
               answered
               ,
               Who
               knoweth
               that
               ?
               and
               who
               can
               witness
               that
               ?
               He
               said
               ,
               The
               Minister
               is
               sent
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               sheweth
               us
               Gods
               Word
               ,
               and
               hee
               by
               that
               teacheth
               us
               ,
               Then
               I
               promised
               
                 Waban
                 ,
              
               that
               when
               hee
               came
               again
               I
               would
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               
                 Toteswamp
              
               came
               ,
               and
               exhorted
               me
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               told
               me
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               pardon
               of
               sin
               ;
               and
               then
               almost
               my
               heart
               prayed
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               said
               ,
               
                 English
              
               men
               understand
               not
               me
               ,
               and
               does
               God
               understand
               me
               ?
               They
               said
               ,
               God
               made
               all●
               ,
               and
               understands
               all
               :
               then
               I
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               first
               ,
               
               that
               
                 God
                 made
                 heaven
                 ,
                 and
                 earth
                 ,
                 and
                 all
                 things
                 ,
                 and
                 in
                 six
                 dayes
                 finished
                 them
                 ;
              
               and
               also
               
                 made
                 man
                 in
                 his
                 own
                 Image
                 ,
              
               wise
               and
               holy
               like
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 Satan
                 came
                 and
                 tempted
                 Eve
                 ,
              
               and
               cozened
               her
               ,
               and
               she
               tempted
               the
               man
               .
               And
               God
               had
               said
               ,
               
                 Eat
                 not
                 of
                 the
                 tree
                 in
                 the
                 midst
                 of
                 the
                 Garden
                 ,
                 if
                 yee
                 eat
                 thereof
                 yee
                 shall
                 dye
                 ;
              
               yet
               she
               did
               eat
               ,
               and
               gave
               unto
               man
               ,
               and
               he
               did
               eat
               :
               and
               thereby
               he
               sinned
               ,
               and
               all
               his
               posterity
               became
               sinful
               ,
               and
               deserved
               damnation
               .
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               What
               shall
               I
               do
               ?
               and
               I
               prayed
               for
               my
               children
               ,
               for
               now
               I
               hear
               of
               eternal
               damnation
               ,
               and
               sure
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               preach
               ,
               That
               Christ
               was
               born
               like
               a
               man
               ,
               and
               was
               both
               God
               and
               man
               ,
               and
               dyed
               for
               us
               ,
               and
               sheweth
               us
               the
               way
               of
               eternal
               life
               .
               Then
               I
               cryed
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               give
               me
               Christ
               ,
               because
               Christ
               hath
               dyed
               for
               us
               ,
               and
               hath
               made
               his
               righteousness
               ours
               ,
               and
               our
               sins
               are
               Christs
               ,
               as
               
                 Adam
              
               made
               his
               sin
               ours
               .
               Now
               my
               heart
               was
               broken
               ,
               and
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               was
               a
               great
               sinner
               .
               When
               I
               heard
               of
               the
               great
               works
               of
               Christ
               ,
               I
               said
               ,
               Oh
               what
               shall
               I
               do
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               get
               Christ
               ?
               &
               I
               said
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               Oh
               let
               the
               holy
               Spirit
               help
               me
               ,
               for
               I
               am
               ashamed
               of
               my
               sins
               ;
               melted
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               pardon
               of
               all
               my
               sins
               ;
               now
               I
               desire
               to
               forsake
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               now
               I
               desire
               dayly
               to
               quench
               lusts
               ,
               and
               wash
               off
               filth
               ,
               and
               cast
               out
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               by
               the
               blood
               of
               Jesus
               Christ
               ,
               and
               this
               I
               do
               by
               believing
               in
               Jesus
               Christ
               .
               
                 Gen.
              
               6.
               there
               was
               only
               one
               
                 Noah
              
               righteous
               ,
               and
               God
               saved
               him
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               mercifull
               God
               ,
               who
               savest
               them
               that
               trust
               in
               thee
               ,
               save
               mee
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 God
                 made
                 his
                 Covenant
                 with
                 Abraham
                 ,
                 and
                 with
                 all
                 the
                 seed
                 of
                 Abraham
                 :
              
               now
               I
               desire
               to
               have
               this
               Covenant
               ,
               and
               to
               receive
               
               this
               Commandement
               of
               Christ
               .
               
                 Abraham
              
               was
               strong
               in
               faith
               ,
               and
               followed
               Christ
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               doth
               desire
               to
               follow
               Christ
               ,
               because
               he
               hath
               dyed
               for
               us
               .
            
          
           
             
               Wutásakómpauin
               .
            
             
               OH
               Christ
               help
               mee
               !
               I
               confess
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               before
               men
               .
               We
               are
               all
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               because
               
                 Adam
              
               sinned
               ,
               and
               made
               his
               sin
               ours
               .
               Our
               Parents
               knew
               not
               God
               ,
               nor
               the
               way
               of
               life
               ;
               we
               Indians
               are
               all
               sinners
               ,
               and
               did
               all
               sins
               ,
               afore
               we
               heard
               of
               God
               ;
               we
               did
               pray
               to
               every
               thing
               that
               is
               in
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               knew
               not
               the
               way
               of
               life
               .
               When
               
                 English
              
               men
               came
               first
               ,
               we
               did
               pray
               to
               the
               Devil
               ,
               and
               many
               were
               our
               sins
               ;
               and
               God
               doth
               know
               all
               our
               sins
               ,
               all
               which
               we
               have
               committed
               ,
               before
               the
               
                 English
              
               came
               .
               After
               the
               
                 English
              
               came
               ,
               I
               went
               to
               
                 Sudbury
                 ,
              
               to
               Mr
               
                 Browns
              
               house
               ,
               and
               he
               said
               to
               me
               ,
               Pray
               to
               God
               ;
               but
               I
               did
               not
               like
               it
               ,
               nor
               to
               hear
               of
               praying
               to
               God
               ;
               but
               afterwards
               I
               heard
               
                 Waban
              
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               not
               glad
               of
               it
               ;
               yet
               after
               
                 Waban
              
               prayed
               ,
               he
               told
               us
               of
               it
               ,
               and
               that
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               
                 Noonantam
                 .
              
               I
               heard
               him
               ,
               and
               he
               taught
               ,
               that
               the
               souls
               of
               good
               men
               die
               and
               go
               to
               heaven
               ,
               the
               souls
               of
               the
               wicked
               ,
               when
               they
               die
               ,
               they
               go
               to
               hell
               ;
               but
               I
               only
               heard
               it
               .
               Then
               we
               resolved
               we
               would
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               carry
               our
               children
               to
               
                 Roxbury
                 ,
              
               that
               they
               might
               learn
               to
               pray
               ,
               but
               we
               feared
               that
               we
               should
               not
               learn
               to
               pray
               .
               After
               the
               Minister
               taught
               that
               word
               ,
               that
               every
               man
               himself
               must
               pray
               and
               believe
               to
               be
               saved
               ;
               and
               though
               your
               sons
               be
               at
               
                 Roxbury
                 ,
              
               
               and
               learn
               to
               pray
               ,
               yet
               if
               you
               pray
               not
               ,
               you
               must
               be
               damned
               .
            
             
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               many
               words
               of
               God
               ;
               this
               was
               one
               ,
               
                 Therefore
                 watch
                 ,
                 for
                 ye
                 know
                 not
                 the
                 day
                 ,
                 or
                 hour
                 ,
                 when
                 the
                 Lord
                 will
                 come
                 :
              
               When
               I
               heard
               that
               ,
               I
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ,
               nor
               do
               I
               know
               when
               is
               the
               day
               of
               death
               .
               But
               I
               am
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               and
               when
               I
               die
               Christ
               will
               not
               receive
               me
               ,
               because
               I
               am
               so
               full
               of
               sin
               .
               After
               that
               my
               wise
               dyed
               ,
               and
               then
               weak
               was
               my
               heart
               ,
               almost
               I
               left
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               did
               not
               so
               .
               But
               after
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               of
               God
               ,
               
                 Who
                 ever
                 heareth
                 the
                 word
                 ,
                 and
                 doeth
                 it
                 ,
                 is
                 like
                 a
                 wise
                 builder
                 ,
                 who
                 built
                 on
                 a
                 rock
                 ;
                 and
                 when
                 the
                 storms
                 and
                 floods
                 came
                 and
                 beat
                 upon
                 the
                 house
                 ,
                 it
                 stood
                 ,
                 because
                 it
                 was
                 built
                 upon
                 a
                 rock
                 :
                 But
                 hee
                 that
                 heareth
                 the
                 word
                 ,
                 and
                 doth
                 it
                 not
                 ,
                 is
                 like
                 a
                 foolish
                 builder
                 ,
                 who
                 built
                 upon
                 the
                 sand
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 storms
                 and
                 floods
                 came
                 and
                 beat
                 upon
                 that
                 house
                 ,
                 and
                 it
                 fell
                 ,
                 because
                 it
                 was
                 built
                 on
                 the
                 sand
                 .
              
               By
               this
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               was
               a
               foolish
               builder
               ,
               because
               the
               death
               of
               my
               wife
               did
               almost
               make
               me
               leave
               praying
               to
               God
               .
               After
               I
               had
               another
               wife
               ,
               and
               shee
               dyed
               also
               :
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               That
               it
               is
               Gods
               love
               ,
               by
               afflictions
               ,
               to
               call
               us
               to
               repentance
               ;
               and
               therefore
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               I
               will
               pray
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               help
               me
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               another
               word
               ,
               that
               
                 at
                 the
                 end
                 of
                 the
                 world
                 all
                 must
                 appear
                 before
                 the
                 Iudgment
                 Seat
                 of
                 Christ
                 :
              
               and
               therefore
               now
               confess
               all
               your
               sins
               ,
               and
               repent
               ,
               because
               Christ
               hath
               writ
               down
               all
               your
               actions
               ,
               both
               good
               and
               bad
               ,
               and
               all
               shall
               be
               opened
               ;
               and
               therefore
               repent
               of
               your
               sins
               ,
               that
               they
               may
               be
               pardoned
               .
            
             
               Then
               I
               said
               ,
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               ever
               I
               commit
               sin
               ;
               I
               confesse
               I
               have
               deserved
               hell
               ,
               and
               I
               cannot
               
               deliver
               my self
               ;
               but
               I
               beg
               of
               God
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               give
               me
               Christ
               ;
               and
               I
               give
               my
               soul
               to
               Christ
               ,
               that
               all
               my
               sins
               may
               be
               pardond
               ,
               and
               I
               now
               confess
               my
               sins
               before
               man
               but
               at
               the
               end
               of
               the
               world
               I
               must
               be
               judged
               by
               Jesus
               Christ
               .
               Now
               I
               desire
               the
               spirit
               of
               God
               would
               help
               me
               to
               confess
               all
               my
               sins
               to
               God
               ,
               that
               they
               may
               be
               pardoned
               in
               Jesus
               Christ
               .
            
             
               
                 THese
                 Confessions
                 
                   I
                
                 wrote
                 in
                 
                   English
                
                 from
                 their
                 mouthes
                 with
                 the
                 best
                 of
                 my
                 endeavours
                 ,
                 both
                 for
                 diligence
                 and
                 also
                 faithfulness
                 ;
                 and
                 so
                 soon
                 as
                 they
                 had
                 done
                 ,
                 I
                 read
                 them
                 unto
                 the
                 Elders
                 and
                 Brethren
                 and
                 Sisters
                 there
                 present
                 ,
                 and
                 that
                 the
                 substance
                 hereof
                 was
                 delivered
                 by
                 them
                 ,
                 and
                 faithfully
                 translated
                 and
                 delivered
                 by
                 me
                 (
                 to
                 the
                 lest
                 of
                 my
                 understanding
                 )
                 I
                 do
                 here
                 before
                 the
                 Lord
                 testifie
                 .
              
               
                 
                   JOHN
                   ELIOT
                   .
                
              
            
             
             
               
                 
                   I
                
                 Did
                 understand
                 most
                 things
                 that
                 some
                 of
                 those
                 
                   Indians
                
                 spake
                 ;
                 and
                 though
                 others
                 spake
                 not
                 so
                 well
                 to
                 my
                 understanding
                 ,
                 yet
                 many
                 things
                 I
                 understood
                 of
                 what
                 they
                 all
                 spake
                 :
                 and
                 thus
                 much
                 I
                 may
                 testifie
                 ,
                 that
                 (
                 according
                 to
                 what
                 I
                 understood
                 )
                 the
                 substance
                 of
                 their
                 Confessions
                 is
                 here
                 truly
                 set
                 down
                 .
              
               
                 
                   JOHN
                   ELIOT
                   ,
                   jun.
                
              
            
          
           
             
               Waban
               being
               sick
               when
               the
               rest
               made
               their
               Confession
               ,
               after
               the
               Lord
               had
               restored
               him
               ,
               came
               to
               Roxbury
               ,
               and
               before
               the
               Elders
               made
               his
               Confession
               as
               followeth
               .
            
             
               UNto
               this
               day
               I
               do
               understand
               but
               little
               of
               the
               
                 English
              
               Language
               ;
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               came
               not
               first
               unto
               my
               heart
               by
               the
               
                 English
              
               Language
               .
               I
               did
               not
               know
               what
               state
               I
               was
               in
               at
               my
               first
               birth
               ,
               and
               my
               sin
               by
               birth
               I
               knew
               not
               :
               When
               I
               was
               young
               I
               knew
               not
               what
               I
               was
               ,
               as
               now
               I
               do
               know
               ;
               for
               now
               I
               know
               that
               I
               am
               a
               sinful
               man
               .
               Since
               I
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               I
               know
               
               more
               of
               my self
               ;
               but
               afore
               ,
               I
               cared
               not
               for
               such
               things
               ,
               nor
               what
               they
               said
               .
               If
               I
               heard
               any
               thing
               ,
               I
               took
               no
               heed
               to
               it
               ;
               if
               any
               asked
               me
               whether
               I
               knew
               God
               ,
               I
               did
               not
               regard
               it
               ;
               yea
               ,
               I
               hated
               the
               knowledg
               of
               God
               ,
               nor
               did
               I
               regard
               any
               word
               of
               God
               :
               but
               other
               kinde
               of
               praying
               (
               which
               we
               used
               )
               I
               did
               love
               ;
               to
               pray
               to
               the
               Devil
               ,
               this
               I
               loved
               .
            
             
               But
               afterward
               ,
               I
               began
               to
               think
               ;
               it
               may
               be
               they
               say
               true
               ,
               that
               speak
               of
               God
               ;
               it
               may
               be
               it
               is
               true
               ,
               that
               God
               is
               in
               heaven
               ;
               and
               should
               any
               teach
               me
               in
               my
               language
               ,
               I
               might
               know
               God
               :
               but
               if
               I
               should
               pray
               ,
               it
               may
               be
               it
               is
               in
               vain
               to
               pray
               in
               my
               language
               ;
               could
               I
               speak
               
                 English
                 ,
              
               I
               might
               learn
               to
               pray
               .
               And
               I
               see
               the
               
                 English
              
               love
               us
               ,
               and
               therefore
               it
               is
               like
               ,
               that
               is
               true
               which
               they
               say
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               live
               for
               ever
               where
               they
               do
               .
               When
               I
               first
               heard
               the
               Word
               ,
               it
               said
               ,
               God
               is
               good
               ;
               a
               little
               I
               believed
               it
               ,
               but
               I
               did
               more
               doubt
               .
            
             
               Mr
               
                 Iackson
              
               asked
               me
               if
               I
               did
               pray
               to
               God
               :
               I
               asked
               him
               whether
               God
               understood
               our
               language
               ,
               if
               I
               prayed
               to
               him
               :
               Hee
               said
               ,
               yea
               ,
               all
               things
               God
               doth
               know
               ,
               and
               all
               languages
               .
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               It
               may
               be
               I
               may
               attain
               to
               pray
               .
               But
               my
               heart
               was
               hard
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               could
               not
               pray
               ,
               afterwards
               it
               may
               be
               I
               may
               .
               Sometime
               I
               thought
               if
               we
               did
               not
               pray
               ,
               the
               
                 English
              
               might
               kill
               us
               ;
               but
               if
               I
               prayed
               ,
               I
               thought
               I
               did
               not
               pray
               right
               .
               When
               I
               saw
               ,
               and
               considered
               ,
               that
               all
               men
               in
               the
               world
               dyed
               ,
               I
               knew
               not
               how
               I
               might
               come
               to
               live
               for
               ever
               ,
               how
               my
               soul
               might
               live
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               desired
               I
               might
               pray
               to
               God
               aright
               ;
               because
               they
               that
               so
               pray
               ,
               are
               all
               one
               as
               if
               they
               dyed
               not
               ,
               but
               live
               for
               ever
               .
               I
               wish't
               I
               could
               pray
               aright
               ,
               
               but
               could
               not
               tell
               how
               to
               do
               it
               .
               I
               did
               in
               my
               heart
               love
               wandering
               about
               ,
               and
               our
               wilde
               courses
               alwaies
               ;
               and
               when
               I
               did
               pray
               ,
               it
               was
               but
               out-side
               praying
               ,
               for
               in
               my
               heart
               I
               understood
               not
               right
               praying
               to
               God
               ;
               I
               understood
               not
               how
               to
               pray
               ,
               and
               I
               regarded
               not
               my
               weariness
               of
               that
               which
               was
               good
               ,
               many
               things
               hindred
               my
               heart
               ;
               I
               was
               ashamed
               ,
               because
               my
               heart
               was
               full
               of
               evil
               .
               Sometimes
               I
               thought
               of
               my
               sins
               ,
               but
               it
               was
               but
               a
               little
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               soon
               weary
               of
               any
               good
               .
               I
               did
               not
               think
               God
               was
               not
               mercifull
               ,
               but
               I
               saw
               my
               heart
               was
               naught
               ,
               and
               very
               little
               did
               I
               know
               the
               evils
               of
               my
               heart
               .
               No
               humility
               was
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               to
               this
               day
               my
               heart
               is
               evil
               ,
               and
               hard
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               When
               you
               taught
               us
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               ,
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               believe
               ,
               but
               went
               contrary
               to
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               I
               saw
               my
               mourning
               for
               sin
               was
               not
               good
               :
               I
               do
               confess
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               submit
               to
               God
               ,
               only
               I
               hoped
               I
               might
               might
               learn
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               ,
               which
               you
               taught
               us
               .
               My
               heart
               did
               afore
               love
               praying
               to
               the
               Devil
               ,
               but
               I
               do
               not
               finde
               that
               I
               so
               love
               praying
               to
               God
               :
               therefore
               I
               did
               pray
               ,
               Lord
               break
               my
               heart
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               pray
               to
               God
               aright
               .
               My
               heart
               was
               weary
               of
               praying
               quickly
               ;
               and
               therefore
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Surely
               my
               heart
               is
               nought
               ,
               and
               I
               am
               like
               a
               dead
               man
               :
               and
               therefore
               I
               prayed
               ,
               Lord
               help
               me
               now
               to
               pray
               aright
               to
               God
               .
               Now
               I
               knew
               that
               God
               knoweth
               all
               the
               thoughts
               of
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               my
               many
               sins
               ,
               and
               contrary
               doings
               ,
               and
               how
               little
               I
               know
               of
               God
               .
               Surely
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               this
               I
               do
               throughly
               know
               ,
               that
               great
               are
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               that
               my
               heart
               is
               contrary
               to
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               desired
               wilde
               courses
               ,
               and
               I
               see
               that
               my
               heart
               loveth
               not
               praying
               to
               God
               .
               Yet
               now
               my
               heart
               began
               
               to
               desire
               to
               pray
               ,
               and
               to
               love
               those
               things
               which
               are
               according
               to
               right
               praying
               ;
               but
               I
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               .
               Then
               I
               asked
               what
               I
               should
               do
               ;
               then
               I
               heard
               this
               answer
               ,
               I
               should
               desire
               Christ
               to
               break
               my
               heart
               by
               his
               spirit
               ,
               none
               else
               in
               the
               world
               could
               do
               it
               ;
               no
               man
               could
               work
               faith
               in
               me
               ,
               but
               the
               Word
               which
               I
               heard
               doth
               it
               .
               I
               could
               not
               my self
               repent
               of
               sin
               ,
               or
               be
               ashamed
               ;
               but
               this
               I
               know
               ,
               that
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               saith
               ,
               
                 Those
                 that
                 believe
                 in
                 Christ
                 shall
                 not
                 perish
                 ,
                 but
                 have
                 eternal
                 life
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               ,
               let
               it
               be
               so
               to
               me
               ,
               and
               let
               not
               my
               heart
               say
               contrary
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 If
                 any
                 be
                 foolish
                 ,
                 let
                 him
                 ask
                 wisedom
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 who
                 giveth
                 freely
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               am
               foolish
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               teach
               me
               .
               Then
               I
               feared
               that
               my
               heart
               in
               vain
               seeketh
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               desired
               humility
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               might
               not
               pray
               in
               vain
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               might
               not
               pray
               only
               outwardly
               .
               But
               my
               heart
               had
               contrary
               and
               misbelieving
               thoughts
               dayly
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               dayly
               desire
               after
               God
               ,
               and
               but
               a
               little
               could
               I
               remember
               of
               God
               .
               Sometime
               my
               heart
               desired
               not
               to
               be
               like
               to
               such
               as
               prayed
               aright
               unto
               God
               ;
               therefore
               I
               desired
               the
               Image
               of
               God
               upon
               me
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               might
               be
               like
               to
               them
               wch
               prayed
               to
               God
               aright
               ;
               alwaies
               I
               thought
               that
               what
               God
               said
               in
               his
               Word
               was
               right
               .
               I
               heard
               this
               word
               ,
               
                 The
                 Foxes
                 have
                 holes
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 Birds
                 have
                 nests
                 ,
                 but
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 man
                 hath
                 not
                 where
                 to
                 lay
                 his
                 head
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Truth
               (
               Lord
               )
               the
               riches
               of
               this
               world
               are
               of
               no
               value
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               not
               this
               worlds
               goods
               ,
               but
               only
               heavenly
               blessings
               and
               grace
               ,
               &
               I
               desire
               the
               way
               to
               the
               Heavenly
               Kingdom
               .
               And
               always
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               touching
               my
               poverty
               and
               misery
               ,
               I
               give
               myself
               and
               my
               soul
               to
               God
               and
               to
               Christ
               ,
               because
               
               that
               is
               right
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               learn
               in
               the
               Catechize
               ,
               Q.
               
                 What
                 hath
                 Christ
                 done
                 for
                 us
                 ?
              
               A.
               
                 He
                 dyed
                 for
                 us
                 ,
                 hee
                 was
                 buried
                 ,
                 he
                 rose
                 again
                 for
                 us
                 ,
                 and
                 by
                 his
                 resurrection
                 hee
                 raiseth
                 our
                 souls
                 unto
                 grace
                 ,
                 and
                 also
                 at
                 the
                 last
                 day
                 :
              
               And
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               let
               it
               be
               so
               in
               me
               !
               Again
               it
               is
               said
               ,
               
                 What
                 else
                 hath
                 Christ
                 done
                 for
                 us
                 ?
              
               A.
               
                 He
                 ascended
                 to
                 heaven
                 ,
                 to
                 raise
                 our
                 hearts
                 first
                 to
                 heaven
                 ,
                 and
                 then
                 to
                 carry
                 us
                 to
                 heaven
                 also
                 ,
                 to
                 be
                 with
                 him
                 for
                 ever
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               saith
               ,
               Oh
               God
               I
               am
               not
               able
               to
               save
               my self
               ,
               I
               cannot
               save
               my
               own
               soul
               ,
               this
               is
               only
               thy
               work
               Oh
               God
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               believeth
               it
               ;
               and
               with
               God
               is
               mercy
               and
               goodness
               ,
               but
               in
               this
               world
               is
               nothing
               but
               weariness
               ,
               and
               I
               know
               my
               weakness
               ;
               therefore
               I
               am
               ashamed
               ,
               and
               Oh
               let
               God
               put
               grace
               into
               my
               heart
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               Oh
               let
               me
               not
               say
               in
               vain
               that
               I
               believe
               ,
               Oh
               Lord
               help
               that
               I
               may
               truly
               believe
               ,
               not
               by
               my
               works
               ,
               but
               by
               thy
               Word
               Oh
               God
               .
               Again
               it
               is
               said
               in
               Catechism
               ,
               
                 Why
                 is
                 Christ
                 a
                 Prophet
                 ?
              
               A.
               
                 To
                 teach
                 me
                 the
                 way
                 to
                 heaven
                 :
              
               therefore
               my
               heart
               desireth
               that
               Christ
               may
               ever
               lead
               me
               by
               his
               Word
               ;
               and
               it
               is
               only
               the
               mercy
               of
               Christ
               that
               must
               do
               this
               for
               me
               ,
               and
               he
               giveth
               me
               true
               comfort
               only
               by
               believing
               in
               him
               .
            
          
        
         
         
           
             THe
             Lord
             was
             so
             graciously
             with
             them
             in
             these
             Confessions
             ,
             that
             they
             had
             good
             acceptance
             .
             Wee
             advised
             with
             the
             Church
             touching
             our
             further
             progress
             ;
             the
             conclusion
             whereof
             was
             ,
             that
             we
             sent
             Letters
             to
             all
             the
             neighbor-Churches
             ,
             informing
             them
             of
             our
             progress
             in
             this
             matter
             ,
             in
             order
             to
             our
             receiving
             them
             ;
             desiring
             them
             ,
             or
             any
             among
             them
             ,
             that
             had
             any
             just
             offence
             against
             any
             of
             these
             eight
             Indians
             ,
             whom
             we
             named
             ,
             that
             they
             would
             orderly
             communicate
             the
             same
             unto
             us
             ,
             and
             seasonably
             ;
             or
             if
             they
             had
             such
             knowledg
             of
             any
             of
             them
             ,
             as
             to
             give
             us
             encouragement
             ,
             we
             should
             be
             thankfull
             ;
             or
             their
             silence
             ,
             we
             should
             take
             in
             good
             part
             also
             .
             We
             had
             both
             incouragement
             and
             testimony
             from
             some
             Churches
             ,
             only
             the
             paucity
             of
             Interpreters
             to
             co-attest
             with
             my
             Interpretation
             ,
             was
             a
             matter
             of
             much
             difficulty
             ,
             and
             no
             small
             impediment
             ;
             for
             which
             cause
             I
             sent
             to
             Mr
             
               Peirson
               ,
            
             to
             old
             Mr
             
               Mayhu
               ,
            
             to
             
               Thomas
               Stanton
               ,
            
             to
             be
             present
             with
             us
             ,
             losing
             no
             known
             opportunity
             to
             bring
             our
             waies
             into
             the
             light
             ,
             and
             to
             make
             all
             things
             clear
             .
             We
             proposed
             it
             to
             our
             Church
             ,
             to
             agree
             about
             the
             publick
             day
             of
             Confessions
             ;
             the
             conclusion
             was
             ,
             that
             a
             Council
             was
             called
             ,
             we
             sent
             unto
             ten
             Churches
             about
             us
             ,
             requesting
             them
             by
             their
             Messengers
             to
             be
             present
             on
             
               Roxbury
            
             Lecture
             day
             ,
             being
             the
             5th
             of
             the
             5th
             Moneth
             ,
             1659.
             acquainting
             them
             that
             that
             day
             was
             set
             apart
             to
             hear
             the
             Indians
             Confessions
             ,
             and
             we
             requested
             counsel
             and
             direction
             from
             them
             ,
             and
             concurrence
             with
             us
             .
          
           
             After
             Prayer
             ,
             I
             first
             declared
             to
             the
             Congregation
             
             what
             supply
             of
             Interpreters
             we
             had
             for
             co-attestation
             with
             my
             Interpretation
             of
             the
             Indians
             Confessions
             .
          
           
             First
             ,
             here
             was
             Mr
             
               Peirson
               ,
            
             and
             we
             had
             (
             for
             clearness
             of
             our
             way
             ,
             because
             of
             his
             unacquaintance
             with
             our
             dialect
             )
             ordered
             the
             confessing
             Indians
             to
             keep
             Sabbath
             at
             
               Roxbury
               ;
            
             we
             spent
             half
             the
             Sabbath
             among
             them
             ,
             a
             good
             part
             whereof
             was
             spent
             in
             hearing
             some
             of
             their
             Confessions
             ,
             and
             all
             the
             second
             day
             we
             so
             spent
             ,
             so
             that
             Mr
             
               Peirson
            
             had
             taken
             in
             writing
             all
             their
             Confessions
             ;
             so
             that
             ,
             if
             the
             Assembly
             pleased
             ,
             they
             might
             hear
             the
             Confessions
             which
             they
             made
             before
             the
             Elders
             of
             
               Roxbury
               ,
            
             which
             I
             have
             here
             in
             writing
             ,
             and
             had
             been
             already
             seen
             by
             sundry
             of
             the
             Elders
             ;
             also
             they
             might
             hear
             the
             Confessions
             which
             Mr
             
               Peirson
            
             and
             I
             had
             taken
             yesterday
             ;
             which
             (
             compared
             with
             what
             the
             Lord
             shall
             assist
             them
             to
             utter
             this
             day
             )
             may
             help
             to
             clear
             up
             the
             verity
             and
             reality
             of
             their
             hearts
             in
             these
             their
             Confessions
             .
          
           
             Moreover
             I
             declared
             ,
             that
             here
             was
             a
             godly
             brother
             of
             
               Martyns
            
             Vineyard
             ,
             named
             
               Peter
               Fouldger
               ,
            
             who
             had
             for
             many
             years
             taught
             the
             Indian
             School
             in
             Mr
             
               Mayhu's
            
             life
             time
             ;
             &
             since
             ,
             he
             hath
             been
             by
             the
             Cōmissioners
             imployed
             to
             teach
             the
             Indians
             each
             other
             Sabbath
             ;
             who
             told
             me
             ,
             when
             I
             spake
             unto
             him
             about
             this
             work
             ,
             that
             by
             reason
             of
             the
             different
             dialect
             ,
             he
             durst
             not
             alone
             undertake
             to
             give
             in
             a
             testimony
             ;
             but
             if
             he
             brought
             one
             of
             his
             Indians
             with
             him
             ,
             (
             as
             need
             might
             be
             to
             help
             him
             )
             then
             he
             durst
             undertake
             to
             give
             a
             testimony
             upon
             Oath
             ,
             if
             need
             were
             .
             This
             man
             ,
             and
             his
             Indian
             with
             him
             ,
             are
             this
             morning
             come
             ,
             and
             are
             present
             in
             the
             Assembly
             ,
             and
             set
             in
             a
             convenient
             feat
             together
             .
             Again
             I
             declared
             ,
             that
             my
             son
             was
             present
             ,
             who
             doth
             in
             some
             measure
             
             understand
             the
             Language
             :
             Also
             here
             are
             present
             two
             sons
             of
             
               Thomas
               Stanton
               ,
            
             one
             of
             which
             the
             Commissioners
             maintain
             at
             the
             Colledg
             .
             And
             lastly
             ,
             here
             are
             the
             Indian
             Scholars
             present
             ;
             so
             that
             if
             the
             Assembly
             think
             meet
             to
             make
             use
             of
             any
             of
             these
             youths
             in
             this
             grave
             business
             ,
             they
             might
             so
             do
             .
          
           
             Further
             I
             declared
             ,
             that
             in
             all
             this
             matter
             we
             did
             submit
             our selves
             to
             the
             guidance
             of
             the
             Reverend
             Council
             here
             present
             ,
             and
             desired
             them
             to
             direct
             us
             and
             order
             us
             ,
             as
             they
             saw
             meet
             to
             do
             in
             the
             Lord
             .
          
           
             Then
             we
             proceeded
             to
             hear
             the
             Indians
             Confessions
             ,
             which
             are
             as
             followeth
             .
          
           
             
               Nishóhkou
               .
            
             
               I
               called
               him
               forth
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               Stand
               up
               and
               make
               your
               Confession
               before
               the
               Lord
               and
               his
               people
               .
            
             
               
                 Hee
                 said
                 ,
              
               I
               Desire
               to
               confess
               before
               God
               and
               all
               these
               wise
               men
               ,
               and
               God
               helping
               by
               the
               mercifull
               help
               of
               his
               gracious
               spirit
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               confess
               all
               my
               sins
               .
            
             
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Gen.
               5.
               that
               
                 God
                 made
                 Adam
                 in
                 his
                 own
                 Image
                 ,
                 both
                 male
                 and
                 female
                 ;
              
               and
               after
               many
               years
               
                 Adam
              
               begat
               a
               son
               in
               his
               own
               Image
               ,
               having
               lost
               Gods
               Image
               .
               And
               God
               did
               form
               man
               in
               the
               womb
               of
               our
               mother
               ,
               in
               
                 Adams
              
               Image
               ,
               and
               so
               I
               was
               formed
               in
               the
               Image
               of
               
                 Adam
                 ;
              
               and
               when
               I
               was
               born
               I
               lived
               in
               the
               same
               way
               ,
               in
               the
               Image
               of
               Satan
               ,
               and
               original
               sin
               was
               rooted
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               grew
               up
               there
               ;
               also
               I
               
               confess
               ,
               that
               when
               I
               was
               a
               Child
               ,
               my
               Parents
               and
               I
               were
               all
               wilde
               ,
               we
               prayed
               to
               many
               Gods
               ,
               and
               many
               other
               sins
               we
               did
               ,
               and
               all
               the
               people
               did
               the
               same
               ,
               both
               men
               and
               women
               ,
               they
               lived
               in
               all
               lusts
               ,
               they
               prayed
               to
               every
               creature
               ;
               the
               Sun
               ,
               Moon
               ,
               Stars
               ,
               Sea
               ,
               Earth
               ,
               Fishes
               ,
               Fowl
               ,
               Beasts
               ,
               Trees
               ,
               
                 &c.
              
               all
               these
               things
               I
               saw
               when
               I
               was
               a
               youth
               ,
               and
               all
               these
               things
               I
               liked
               and
               loved
               to
               do
               ,
               and
               was
               delighted
               with
               these
               things
               ;
               in
               all
               these
               things
               I
               lived
               ,
               and
               with
               these
               things
               my
               memory
               was
               exercised
               ,
               and
               in
               my
               youth
               I
               did
               what
               I
               listed
               ,
               as
               
                 pauwauing
                 ,
              
               or
               what
               else
               I
               would
               ;
               when
               I
               was
               grown
               up
               ,
               I
               loved
               lust
               ,
               and
               delighted
               in
               it
               ,
               I
               knew
               it
               not
               to
               be
               a
               sin
               ,
               but
               an
               excellent
               delight
               :
               I
               loved
               all
               sin
               ,
               but
               especially
               lust
               ,
               and
               all
               that
               I
               did
               ,
               was
               for
               the
               sake
               of
               lust
               ,
               such
               things
               as
               women
               might
               like
               of
               ;
               if
               I
               cut
               my
               hair
               ,
               it
               was
               to
               please
               women
               ;
               if
               I
               cut
               my
               hair
               in
               another
               fashion
               ,
               and
               left
               a
               Lock
               on
               one
               side
               ,
               it
               was
               with
               respect
               to
               lust
               ;
               if
               I
               got
               fine
               cloaths
               ,
               stockins
               ,
               shoes
               ,
               all
               was
               for
               to
               serve
               lust
               ;
               our
               meetings
               and
               drinkings
               were
               with
               respect
               to
               lust
               :
               so
               that
               this
               was
               the
               chief
               thing
               I
               did
               delight
               in
               ;
               and
               these
               things
               were
               in
               my
               bones
               ,
               and
               there
               grew
               ;
               then
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               
                 Channit
              
               to
               teach
               us
               :
               I
               came
               to
               the
               Meeting
               ,
               but
               in
               vain
               ;
               I
               came
               for
               lust
               to
               look
               on
               women
               ,
               alwayes
               I
               did
               thus
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               teaching
               to
               be
               madness
               ,
               and
               so
               I
               continued
               two
               years
               after
               we
               prayed
               to
               God
               ;
               after
               two
               years
               I
               heard
               a
               little
               ,
               my
               ears
               were
               a
               little
               opened
               ;
               I
               first
               understood
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 He
                 that
                 doubteth
                 ,
                 is
                 like
                 a
                 wave
                 of
                 the
                 Sea
                 ,
                 driven
                 to
                 and
                 fro
                 ,
                 and
                 tossed
                 ;
              
               and
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 If
                 any
                 man
                 lack
                 wisdome
                 ,
                 let
                 him
                 ask
                 it
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 who
                 giveth
                 freely
                 ,
                 and
                 upbraideth
                 no
                 man
                 .
              
               Also
               the
               same
               Winter
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Gen.
                 6.
                 
                 God
                 said
                 ,
                 
                 I
                 will
                 destroy
                 man
                 whom
                 I
                 have
                 created
                 ,
                 and
                 he
                 repented
                 that
                 he
                 had
                 made
                 him
                 .
              
               These
               things
               I
               understood
               and
               remembred
               ,
               but
               I
               confess
               before
               God
               ,
               that
               I
               did
               only
               hear
               and
               know
               these
               things
               ,
               as
               I
               did
               sometimes
               speak
               of
               what
               I
               did
               remember
               ,
               but
               I
               believed
               not
               ,
               yea
               I
               laughed
               ,
               as
               other
               youths
               did
               ,
               at
               all
               these
               things
               ,
               because
               thereby
               did
               original
               sin
               grow
               in
               me
               ,
               and
               hard
               it
               was
               to
               root
               it
               out
               ,
               and
               hard
               to
               believe
               .
               After
               this
               I
               heard
               still
               ,
               and
               more
               I
               understood
               ;
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Gen.
              
               16.
               that
               the
               people
               were
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               lust
               ,
               and
               all
               other
               sin
               ,
               and
               therefore
               the
               Lord
               destroyed
               them
               ;
               and
               I
               knew
               that
               I
               had
               the
               same
               sins
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               was
               afraid
               ;
               but
               I
               feared
               only
               this
               bodily
               life
               ,
               and
               not
               for
               my
               Soul
               :
               After
               this
               ,
               my
               heart
               did
               a
               little
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               because
               God
               found
               
                 Noah
              
               righteous
               ,
               and
               did
               save
               him
               ,
               therefore
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               ;
               but
               again
               I
               laid
               it
               by
               ,
               and
               I
               said
               it
               is
               vain
               to
               pray
               ,
               for
               if
               I
               pray
               ,
               and
               should
               commit
               sin
               ,
               I
               shall
               be
               punished
               ,
               or
               imprisoned
               ,
               but
               if
               I
               pray
               not
               ,
               I
               may
               commit
               what
               sin
               I
               will
               ,
               and
               have
               no
               punishment
               for
               it
               .
               About
               a
               year
               after
               ,
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               teach
               another
               word
               ,
               that
               the
               Death
               of
               Christ
               is
               precious
               ,
               and
               our
               death
               is
               nothing
               worth
               ,
               therefore
               God
               promiseth
               pardon
               of
               all
               sins
               for
               Christ
               his
               sake
               ;
               he
               bid
               us
               remember
               this
               against
               next
               time
               :
               When
               he
               came
               again
               ,
               he
               asked
               me
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               remember
               it
               ,
               and
               do
               to
               this
               day
               ;
               but
               I
               confess
               I
               did
               not
               believe
               ,
               only
               I
               did
               remember
               it
               ,
               and
               answered
               when
               I
               was
               asked
               :
               And
               then
               again
               ,
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               would
               not
               go
               away
               ,
               but
               it
               was
               because
               I
               loved
               our
               place
               and
               dwelling
               ;
               I
               prayed
               ,
               but
               I
               believed
               not
               ,
               I
               considered
               not
               Eternal
               Life
               ,
               but
               only
               this
               worldly
               life
               :
               And
               thus
               I
               went
               on
               ,
               till
               they
               chose
               Rulers
               
               at
               
                 Natik
                 ,
              
               they
               chose
               me
               ,
               and
               I
               refused
               ,
               because
               I
               believed
               not
               :
               After
               that
               ,
               my
               Wife
               and
               Child
               died
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               sick
               to
               death
               ,
               but
               lived
               again
               ,
               and
               being
               well
               ,
               I
               thought
               I
               could
               not
               pray
               ,
               I
               was
               a
               Child
               ,
               and
               therefore
               could
               not
               ,
               I
               put
               off
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               my
               Relations
               died
               ,
               and
               why
               should
               I
               pray
               ?
               but
               then
               I
               considered
               ,
               why
               does
               God
               thus
               punish
               me
               ;
               yea
               ,
               the
               Minister
               spake
               to
               me
               about
               it
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               it
               may
               be
               it
               was
               because
               I
               refused
               to
               do
               Gods
               work
               ,
               as
               
                 Moses
                 ,
              
               when
               he
               first
               refused
               ,
               God
               was
               patient
               ,
               but
               when
               he
               persisted
               in
               his
               refusal
               ,
               God
               was
               angry
               ;
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               saw
               my
               sin
               ,
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               almost
               believed
               :
               I
               desired
               to
               do
               right
               ,
               and
               to
               keep
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               for
               I
               further
               heard
               in
               the
               4th
               Commandment
               ,
               
                 Remember
                 the
                 Sabbath
                 to
                 keep
                 it
                 holy
                 ;
              
               and
               
                 Psa.
                 101.
                 
                 I
                 will
                 walk
                 wisely
                 in
                 a
                 perfect
                 way
                 :
              
               Also
               in
               
                 Isay
                 58.
                 
                 If
                 thou
                 turn
                 away
                 thy
                 foot
                 from
                 the
                 Sabbath
                 ,
                 and
                 do
                 not
                 thy
                 own
                 works
                 ,
                 nor
                 find
                 thy
                 own
                 pleasure
                 ,
                 nor
                 speak
                 thy
                 own
                 words
                 ;
              
               therefore
               my
               Soul
               desired
               to
               keep
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               then
               the
               Souldiers
               came
               upon
               us
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               ,
               while
               we
               were
               at
               meeting
               ,
               and
               took
               away
               our
               Guns
               ,
               and
               caused
               us
               to
               bring
               them
               as
               far
               as
               
                 Roxbury
                 ;
              
               that
               night
               my
               heart
               was
               broken
               off
               ,
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               God
               is
               not
               ,
               the
               Sabbath
               is
               not
               ,
               it
               is
               not
               the
               Lords
               Day
               ,
               for
               were
               it
               so
               ,
               the
               Souldiers
               would
               not
               have
               then
               come
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               then
               we
               came
               before
               the
               Magistrates
               ,
               and
               
                 Cutshamoquin
              
               asked
               ,
               Why
               they
               came
               on
               the
               Sabbath-day
               :
               It
               was
               answered
               ,
               that
               it
               was
               lawful
               ;
               but
               I
               did
               not
               understand
               it
               :
               That
               day
               I
               being
               very
               thirsty
               ,
               did
               drink
               too
               much
               ,
               and
               was
               brought
               before
               the
               Magistrates
               ,
               and
               was
               ashamed
               :
               I
               came
               to
               
                 Roxbury
              
               to
               the
               Minister
               ,
               and
               there
               I
               was
               ashamed
               also
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               
               greatly
               sinned
               ;
               then
               I
               cried
               to
               God
               for
               Free-mercy
               ,
               because
               precious
               is
               the
               Death
               of
               Christ
               ,
               oh
               pardon
               this
               my
               sin
               :
               Yet
               again
               I
               had
               temptations
               to
               drinking
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               considered
               what
               a
               great
               sinner
               I
               was
               ,
               even
               like
               a
               beast
               before
               God
               :
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               5.
               
               
                 He
                 that
                 breaketh
                 the
                 beast
                 of
                 Gods
                 Commands
                 ,
                 and
                 teacheth
                 others
                 so
                 to
                 do
                 ,
                 shall
                 be
                 the
                 least
                 in
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 of
                 Heaven
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               
                 Lord
                 ,
                 such
                 an
                 one
                 have
                 I
                 been
                 ,
              
               for
               I
               have
               been
               an
               active
               sinner
               ;
               yet
               I
               cried
               again
               for
               mercy
               ,
               O
               Lord
               freely
               pardon
               my
               great
               sins
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               confess
               I
               am
               very
               weak
               ,
               even
               like
               a
               very
               child
               ,
               and
               I
               so
               walk
               ,
               and
               know
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ;
               if
               I
               die
               ,
               I
               fear
               I
               shall
               die
               in
               my
               sin
               ;
               yet
               I
               cried
               again
               ,
               O
               God
               pardon
               me
               for
               Christ
               his
               sake
               .
               Again
               ,
               further
               I
               confess
               ,
               that
               when
               I
               was
               troubled
               about
               our
               wants
               ,
               poverty
               ,
               and
               nakedness
               ,
               I
               considered
               that
               text
               ,
               
                 Foxes
                 have
                 holes
                 ,
                 and
                 Birds
                 have
                 nests
                 ,
                 but
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 man
                 hath
                 not
                 whereon
                 to
                 lay
                 his
                 head
                 .
              
               And
               again
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 6.
                 
                 The
                 Birds
                 plough
                 not
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 flowers
                 spin
                 not
                 ,
                 and
                 yet
                 God
                 doth
                 both
                 feed
                 and
                 cloath
                 them
                 ;
              
               and
               therefore
               be
               not
               over-much
               troubled
               about
               these
               things
               ,
               yet
               I
               desire
               to
               follow
               labour
               with
               my
               hands
               ,
               because
               
                 Gen
              
               1.
               
               God
               gave
               
                 Adam
              
               dominion
               over
               the
               creatures
               ,
               and
               commanded
               him
               to
               Till
               the
               ground
               :
               And
               
                 Gen.
              
               2.
               
               He
               set
               him
               in
               the
               Garden
               ,
               and
               commanded
               him
               to
               dress
               it
               ,
               and
               keep
               it
               :
               Also
               
                 Gen.
              
               3.
               he
               said
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 eat
                 thy
                 bread
                 in
                 the
                 sweat
                 of
                 thy
                 face
                 all
                 thy
                 dayes
                 ,
                 till
                 thou
                 returnest
                 to
                 thy
                 dust
                 .
              
               When
               I
               remember
               these
               things
               ,
               my
               heart
               doth
               bow
               to
               labour
               :
               also
               I
               heard
               that
               riches
               were
               the
               root
               of
               all
               evil
               ,
               and
               
                 Dives
              
               with
               his
               fine
               apparel
               ,
               and
               dainty
               fare
               ,
               was
               in
               hell
               ,
               and
               poor
               
                 Lazarus
              
               was
               in
               heaven
               :
               When
               my
               heart
               is
               troubled
               about
               our
               Land
               ,
               ●nd
               about
               riches
               ,
               
               I
               quiet
               my
               heart
               with
               these
               meditations
               .
               Also
               I
               further
               heard
               ,
               when
               my
               heart
               was
               troubled
               about
               Salvation
               ,
               and
               doubted
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               there
               is
               no
               means
               of
               Salvation
               but
               Christ
               ,
               not
               any
               thing
               in
               the
               world
               can
               carry
               us
               to
               heaven
               ,
               only
               Christ
               ,
               which
               I
               did
               believe
               ,
               by
               
                 Gen.
              
               28.
               where
               
                 Iacob
              
               dreamed
               a
               dream
               ,
               and
               he
               saw
               a
               Ladder
               which
               stood
               on
               earth
               ,
               and
               the
               top
               reached
               up
               to
               heaven
               ,
               and
               that
               Ladder
               is
               Christ
               ;
               who
               is
               Man
               ,
               and
               so
               toucheth
               the
               earth
               ;
               and
               God
               ,
               and
               so
               is
               in
               heaven
               ,
               and
               by
               believing
               in
               him
               ,
               we
               ascend
               to
               heaven
               as
               by
               a
               ladder
               .
               This
               helped
               me
               almost
               to
               believe
               ,
               and
               I
               cried
               ,
               Oh
               Christ
               be
               thou
               my
               Ladder
               to
               heaven
               !
               Again
               ,
               
                 Ioh.
              
               14.
               
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 None
                 cometh
                 to
                 the
                 Father
                 ,
                 but
                 by
                 me
                 ;
              
               therefore
               I
               believe
               ,
               nothing
               can
               carry
               me
               to
               God
               ,
               but
               only
               Christ
               ,
               if
               I
               penitently
               believe
               in
               him
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               confess
               I
               do
               still
               find
               my self
               very
               weak
               to
               resist
               sin
               ,
               for
               if
               I
               read
               ,
               and
               teach
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               I
               teach
               indeed
               ,
               but
               I
               do
               not
               as
               I
               ought
               ;
               and
               therefore
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               doth
               rebuke
               me
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               23.
               
               Hear
               ,
               and
               do
               what
               they
               say
               ,
               but
               do
               not
               as
               they
               do
               .
               When
               I
               do
               ,
               among
               others
               ,
               reprove
               sinners
               ,
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               reproveth
               me
               :
               
                 Thou
                 hypocrite
                 ,
                 first
                 cast
                 the
                 beam
                 out
                 of
                 thine
                 own
                 eye
                 ,
                 and
                 then
                 thou
                 mayest
                 see
                 clearly
                 so
                 cast
                 the
                 moat
                 out
                 of
                 thy
                 brothers
                 eye
                 .
              
               Again
               ,
               when
               I
               pray
               ,
               I
               find
               hypocrisie
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               to
               do
               it
               to
               be
               seen
               of
               men
               ,
               and
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               reproveth
               me
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 6.
                 
                 They
                 pray
                 to
                 be
                 s●en
                 of
                 men
                 ,
                 verily
                 they
                 have
                 their
                 reward
                 ;
              
               and
               then
               I
               cryed
               mightily
               to
               God
               ,
               O
               Lord
               help
               me
               ,
               pardon
               me
               ,
               what
               shall
               I
               do
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
              
               9.
               
               The
               Son
               of
               Man
               hath
               power
               to
               pardon
               sin
               on
               earth
               ,
               and
               therefore
               me
               O
               Lord
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               did
               desire
               Christ
               ,
               and
               to
               
               pray
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               was
               stirred
               up
               thereunto
               ,
               by
               
                 Luke
              
               18.
               
               Christ
               spake
               a
               parable
               ,
               that
               we
               should
               pray
               ,
               and
               not
               be
               weary
               ,
               because
               the
               Widdow
               tyred
               the
               unjust
               Judge
               ,
               and
               made
               him
               help
               her
               ;
               how
               much
               more
               shall
               God
               the
               righteous
               Judge
               ,
               hear
               and
               help
               his
               children
               ,
               that
               cry
               night
               and
               day
               ,
               therefore
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               unto
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               lived
               :
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               What
               shall
               I
               do
               ,
               for
               I
               am
               weak
               ,
               and
               I
               fear
               I
               shall
               perish
               ;
               then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Ioh.
              
               3.
               
               
                 God
                 so
                 loved
                 the
                 world
                 ,
                 that
                 he
                 gave
                 his
                 only
                 Son
                 ,
                 that
                 whosoever
                 believeth
                 in
                 him
                 should
                 not
                 perish
                 ,
                 but
                 have
                 Eternal
                 Life
                 .
              
               And
               again
               it
               is
               said
               ,
               that
               God
               loved
               his
               Son
               ,
               and
               gave
               all
               things
               into
               his
               hand
               :
               I
               am
               weak
               ,
               and
               though
               I
               pray
               ,
               yet
               I
               am
               weak
               ,
               therefore
               I
               desired
               to
               be
               in
               Christs
               hand
               ,
               as
               in
               a
               Fort
               ;
               in
               a
               Fort
               we
               are
               safe
               from
               exercise
               ,
               they
               cannot
               easily
               catch
               us
               ;
               out
               of
               a
               Fort
               we
               are
               open
               to
               them
               :
               So
               I
               desire
               Church-Estate
               ,
               the
               Seals
               of
               Baptisme
               ,
               and
               the
               Lords
               Supper
               ,
               and
               all
               Church-Ordinances
               ,
               as
               a
               Fort
               unto
               my
               Soul
               :
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 16.
                 
                 Thou
                 art
              
               Peter
               ,
               
                 and
                 on
                 this
                 Rock
                 I
                 will
                 build
                 my
                 Church
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 gates
                 of
                 hell
                 shall
                 not
                 prevail
                 against
                 it
                 :
              
               Oh
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               there
               kept
               !
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 3.
                 
                 God
                 is
                 able
                 of
                 these
                 stones
                 to
                 raise
                 ●p
                 seed
                 to
              
               Abraham
               ;
               therefore
               raise
               up
               me
               O
               Lord
               :
               And
               again
               ,
               Christ
               came
               to
               
                 Iohn
              
               to
               be
               baptized
               ,
               
                 Iohn
              
               refused
               ,
               but
               Christ
               said
               ,
               
                 Suffer
                 it
                 to
                 be
                 so
                 :
              
               It
               is
               necessary
               to
               fulfill
               all
               unrighteousness
               ,
               therefore
               so
               I
               desire
               to
               do
               all
               that
               is
               right
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               baptized
               .
               Again
               I
               confess
               ,
               I
               fear
               I
               shall
               sin
               again
               ,
               and
               defile
               my self
               ,
               after
               I
               am
               washed
               and
               baptized
               ,
               even
               as
               the
               dog
               returneth
               to
               his
               vomit
               ;
               therefore
               I
               cry
               ,
               O
               God
               help
               me
               for
               thy
               free
               mercies
               sake
               .
               Again
               ,
               
               I
               heard
               that
               in
               
                 Mat.
                 18.
                 where
                 two
                 or
                 three
                 are
                 met
                 together
                 in
                 my
                 Name
                 ,
                 Christ
                 is
                 in
                 the
                 midst
                 of
                 them
                 :
              
               Therefore
               I
               desi●●
               to
               have
               the
               Ordinances
               of
               Christ
               ,
               to
               be
               with
               Christ
               ;
               but
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               if
               I
               be
               bound
               by
               Ordinances
               ,
               then
               I
               shall
               be
               imprisoned
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               there
               in
               pr●●on
               with
               Christ
               ;
               if
               my
               heart
               say
               ,
               I
               shall
               be
               as
               dead
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               so
               with
               Christ
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               in
               
                 Iohn
                 ,
              
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Who
                 ever
                 cometh
                 to
                 me
                 ,
                 I
                 cast
                 him
                 not
                 away
                 ,
                 but
                 he
                 shall
                 have
                 life
                 :
              
               But
               
                 Ioh.
              
               5.
               
               Christ
               doth
               say
               ,
               
                 Ye
                 will
                 not
                 come
                 unto
                 me
                 ,
                 that
                 you
                 might
                 have
                 life
                 :
              
               Therefore
               my
               heart
               did
               greatly
               fear
               ,
               and
               pray
               ,
               Oh
               that
               I
               might
               come
               to
               Christ
               !
               and
               Christ
               is
               the
               everlasting
               Son
               of
               God
               ;
               therefore
               my
               Soul
               desireth
               to
               be
               with
               him
               :
               And
               this
               I
               confess
               ,
               that
               though
               I
               believe
               in
               Christ
               ,
               yet
               I
               am
               still
               weak
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               made
               strong
               by
               the
               Seals
               ;
               but
               I
               fear
               I
               am
               unworthy
               ,
               because
               of
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 7.
                 
                 Cast
                 not
                 Pearls
                 before
                 Swine
                 ,
                 nor
                 holy
                 things
                 to
                 dogs
                 ;
              
               yet
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               O
               Lord
               remember
               me
               ,
               and
               yet
               let
               me
               a
               dog
               come
               under
               thy
               Table
               to
               get
               a
               crum
               ;
               and
               I
               cry
               to
               God
               because
               of
               all
               my
               weakness
               !
               I
               confess
               I
               cannot
               deliver
               ,
               or
               help
               ,
               or
               save
               my self
               ,
               only
               Christ
               Jesus
               can
               do
               it
               ,
               and
               let
               Free-grace
               pardon
               me
               ,
               and
               save
               me
               ,
               O
               God
               have
               mercy
               on
               me
               !
               Again
               ,
               
                 Mat.
                 18.
                 
                 Whatever
                 ye
                 bind
                 on
                 earth
                 ,
                 is
                 bound
                 in
                 heaven
                 ;
                 and
                 whatever
                 ye
                 loose
                 on
                 earth
                 ,
                 is
                 loosed
                 in
                 heaven
                 ;
              
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               loosed
               both
               in
               earth
               ,
               and
               in
               heaven
               ,
               and
               to
               be
               sealed
               with
               Gods
               Seal
               .
            
             
             
               
                 When
                 I
                 had
                 read
                 this
                 Confession
                 of
                 his
                 ,
                 I
                 said
                 ,
                 because
                 the
                 Lord
                 hath
                 said
                 ,
                 that
                 in
                 the
                 mouth
                 of
                 two
                 or
                 three
                 Witnesses
                 ,
                 every
                 Truth
                 shall
                 be
                 established
                 ;
                 therefore
                 I
                 desired
                 that
                 the
                 rest
                 of
                 the
                 Interpreters
                 might
                 attest
                 unto
                 this
                 which
                 I
                 had
                 read
                 .
              
               
                 FIrst
                 ,
                 Mr.
                 
                   Peirson
                
                 said
                 ,
                 so
                 far
                 as
                 I
                 discern
                 ,
                 I
                 doubt
                 not
                 of
                 the
                 truth
                 of
                 what
                 Mr.
                 
                   Eliot
                
                 hath
                 delivered
                 ,
                 and
                 for
                 that
                 which
                 he
                 hath
                 now
                 uttered
                 ,
                 though
                 some
                 things
                 the
                 
                   Indian
                
                 hath
                 added
                 more
                 then
                 he
                 spake
                 in
                 private
                 ,
                 and
                 some
                 things
                 left
                 out
                 ,
                 and
                 some
                 things
                 otherwise
                 placed
                 ,
                 yet
                 for
                 the
                 substance
                 of
                 his
                 present
                 Confession
                 ,
                 it
                 is
                 the
                 same
                 with
                 that
                 which
                 he
                 delivered
                 in
                 private
                 ,
                 where
                 we
                 did
                 carefully
                 try
                 all
                 things
                 ,
                 that
                 we
                 might
                 be
                 sure
                 that
                 we
                 understood
                 him
                 right
                 .
                 Then
                 Bro.
                 
                   Fouldyer
                
                 was
                 desired
                 to
                 speak
                 ;
                 who
                 saith
                 ,
                 That
                 he
                 did
                 not
                 expect
                 to
                 have
                 understood
                 so
                 much
                 of
                 his
                 speech
                 ,
                 and
                 so
                 plainly
                 as
                 he
                 did
                 ,
                 and
                 his
                 Interpreter
                 did
                 perfectly
                 understand
                 all
                 ;
                 and
                 to
                 his
                 best
                 understanding
                 ,
                 that
                 which
                 Mr.
                 
                   Eliot
                
                 had
                 delivered
                 ,
                 was
                 the
                 very
                 same
                 which
                 he
                 spake
                 .
              
               
                 I
                 said
                 unto
                 the
                 Assembly
                 ,
                 In
                 that
                 he
                 spake
                 so
                 plain
                 to
                 his
                 understanding
                 ,
                 it
                 is
                 because
                 I
                 had
                 advised
                 him
                 ,
                 and
                 so
                 all
                 the
                 rest
                 ,
                 to
                 express
                 themselves
                 in
                 the
                 most
                 plain
                 and
                 familiar
                 words
                 and
                 expressions
                 they
                 could
                 ,
                 for
                 my
                 more
                 easie
                 and
                 perfect
                 understanding
                 .
                 Again
                 ,
                 
                 for
                 that
                 my
                 Bro.
                 
                   Peirson
                
                 observed
                 ,
                 that
                 they
                 left
                 out
                 something
                 ,
                 and
                 added
                 other
                 ,
                 and
                 varied
                 in
                 sundry
                 expressions
                 :
                 It
                 is
                 true
                 ,
                 I
                 observed
                 the
                 same
                 ,
                 and
                 it
                 may
                 well
                 be
                 so
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 have
                 not
                 any
                 writing
                 ,
                 or
                 like
                 helps
                 ,
                 only
                 their
                 memory
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 help
                 of
                 Gods
                 Spirit
                 ,
                 to
                 read
                 in
                 their
                 own
                 hearts
                 ,
                 what
                 they
                 utter
                 .
              
               
                 Then
                 the
                 two
                 Sons
                 of
                 
                   Thom.
                   Stanton
                
                 were
                 called
                 ,
                 to
                 testifie
                 the
                 Schollar
                 spoke
                 first
                 ,
                 and
                 said
                 ,
                 that
                 he
                 did
                 understand
                 perfectly
                 all
                 that
                 the
                 
                   Indian
                
                 said
                 ,
                 and
                 he
                 did
                 not
                 observe
                 any
                 difference
                 in
                 what
                 Mr.
                 
                   Eliot
                
                 had
                 delivered
                 ,
                 but
                 it
                 was
                 the
                 same
                 which
                 the
                 
                   Indian
                
                 spake
                 .
              
               
                 The
                 other
                 spake
                 ,
                 and
                 said
                 ,
                 he
                 did
                 not
                 perfectly
                 understand
                 all
                 that
                 the
                 
                   Indian
                
                 said
                 ,
                 but
                 so
                 far
                 as
                 he
                 did
                 understand
                 ,
                 Mr.
                 
                   Eliot
                
                 had
                 delivered
                 the
                 truth
                 .
              
               
                 My
                 Son
                 was
                 called
                 to
                 speak
                 ,
                 who
                 said
                 ,
                 I
                 did
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 most
                 part
                 ,
                 well
                 understand
                 the
                 
                   Indian
                   ,
                
                 and
                 to
                 my
                 best
                 understanding
                 ,
                 my
                 Father
                 hath
                 given
                 a
                 true
                 interpretation
                 thereof
                 .
              
            
          
           
             
               Antony
               .
            
             
               He
               was
               next
               called
               ,
               who
               thus
               spake
               .
            
             
               I
               Confess
               my
               sins
               before
               the
               Lord
               ,
               and
               all
               these
               people
               and
               godly
               men
               ,
               for
               ye
               throughly
               know
               that
               we
               are
               great
               sinners
               ,
               not
               only
               before
               God
               ,
               but
               before
               man
               also
               .
            
             
               I
               confess
               that
               in
               my
               Mothers
               Womb
               I
               was
               conceived
               
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               that
               I
               was
               born
               in
               iniquity
               ;
               my
               Father
               and
               Mother
               were
               sinners
               ,
               and
               lived
               in
               fin
               ,
               they
               prayed
               to
               many
               Gods
               ,
               the
               Sun
               ,
               Heavens
               ,
               Beasts
               ,
               Trees
               ,
               and
               every
               thing
               in
               the
               world
               ,
               they
               made
               them
               their
               Gods
               ,
               and
               throughly
               we
               followed
               these
               sins
               :
               When
               I
               was
               born
               ,
               I
               was
               in
               the
               Image
               of
               Satan
               ,
               I
               knew
               not
               that
               God
               made
               all
               this
               world
               ,
               I
               was
               only
               wise
               to
               sin
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               all
               those
               things
               which
               I
               liked
               to
               do
               ,
               even
               all
               lusts
               ,
               from
               my
               youth
               up
               ;
               and
               now
               I
               confess
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               all
               men
               ,
               for
               God
               and
               men
               do
               know
               them
               :
               I
               did
               all
               my
               delights
               .
               When
               I
               was
               a
               youth
               the
               English
               came
               ,
               but
               I
               regarded
               them
               not
               :
               Afterward
               I
               heard
               that
               the
               
                 Indians
              
               prayed
               ,
               but
               my
               heart-said
               ,
               I
               will
               not
               pray
               so
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               for
               they
               be
               vain
               words
               to
               pray
               unto
               God
               ,
               my
               Parents
               taught
               me
               to
               pray
               unto
               many
               Gods
               :
               Sometime
               I
               came
               to
               English
               Towns
               on
               the
               Sabbath
               day
               ,
               and
               I
               played
               ,
               for
               I
               did
               not
               regard
               that
               sin
               ;
               I
               thought
               it
               vain
               to
               keep
               one
               day
               ,
               yet
               I
               feared
               that
               the
               English
               should
               see
               me
               play
               ,
               least
               they
               should
               be
               angry
               ,
               but
               not
               because
               I
               offended
               God
               .
               Afterwards
               I
               heard
               that
               my
               Brothers
               prayed
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               disliked
               them
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               I
               will
               forsake
               my
               Brothers
               ,
               because
               they
               do
               a
               vain
               work
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               run
               away
               into
               the
               Country
               ,
               but
               they
               soon
               found
               me
               ,
               and
               asked
               me
               to
               pray
               ,
               and
               they
               pitied
               me
               ,
               and
               loved
               me
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               returned
               ,
               not
               because
               I
               loved
               God
               ,
               but
               because
               I
               loved
               my
               brothers
               :
               My
               brother
               said
               ,
               Go
               dwell
               with
               the
               English
               ,
               and
               learn
               their
               manners
               ;
               I
               yeilded
               ,
               because
               I
               loved
               my
               brother
               :
               I
               dwelt
               here
               at
               
                 Roxbury
                 ,
              
               and
               came
               to
               this
               meeting
               house
               ,
               but
               in
               vain
               ,
               I
               prayed
               not
               one
               word
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               did
               misbelieve
               ;
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               
               preach
               that
               there
               is
               one
               God
               ,
               and
               he
               made
               the
               World
               ,
               and
               all
               things
               in
               it
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               thought
               it
               was
               a
               vain
               word
               ;
               I
               thought
               my
               Father
               made
               me
               ,
               and
               not
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               returned
               from
               this
               Town
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               did
               not
               pray
               ;
               I
               heard
               the
               Commandements
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 murder
                 ;
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 commit
                 adultery
                 ;
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 steal
                 ;
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 bear
                 false
                 witness
                 against
                 thy
                 neighbour
                 ;
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 covet
                 ,
                 &c.
              
               and
               other
               sins
               and
               punishments
               I
               heard
               of
               ,
               and
               I
               feared
               to
               sin
               because
               of
               man
               ,
               and
               because
               of
               punishment
               ,
               but
               not
               for
               fear
               of
               God
               ;
               therefore
               vain
               were
               all
               my
               wayes
               .
               When
               I
               came
               back
               to
               
                 Noonantam
                 ,
              
               I
               did
               the
               same
               sins
               again
               ,
               especially
               I
               loved
               lust
               ;
               yea
               ,
               after
               my
               praying
               and
               being
               among
               them
               ,
               I
               loved
               it
               more
               then
               before
               :
               When
               the
               Minister
               came
               and
               taught
               ,
               I
               went
               to
               the
               meeting
               ,
               but
               in
               vain
               ;
               I
               learned
               nothing
               ,
               but
               I
               still
               loved
               all
               our
               sins
               and
               lusts
               :
               Afterward
               hearing
               the
               Catechism
               ,
               
                 Who
                 made
                 you
                 ?
              
               God
               .
               
                 Who
                 redeemed
                 you
                 ?
              
               Jesus
               Christ
               ,
               &c.
               my
               heart
               misbelieved
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               not
               believe
               ,
               I
               will
               go
               away
               into
               the
               Country
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               all
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               then
               a
               little
               I
               believed
               ,
               and
               thought
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               but
               weak
               it
               was
               .
               Again
               ;
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 7.
                 
                 Ask
                 ,
                 and
                 ye
                 shall
                 have
                 ,
                 seek
                 ,
                 and
                 ye
                 shall
                 find
                 ,
                 knock
                 ,
                 and
                 it
                 shall
                 be
                 opened
                 to
                 you
                 :
              
               Then
               I
               prayed
               a
               little
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               thought
               there
               was
               a
               God
               who
               made
               the
               whole
               world
               ,
               I
               thought
               man
               could
               not
               make
               the
               world
               ,
               but
               only
               God
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               did
               pray
               unto
               him
               .
               Afterward
               my
               Brothers
               were
               sick
               ,
               and
               others
               also
               ,
               I
               remembred
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Ask
                 ,
                 and
                 ye
                 shall
                 have
                 ;
              
               then
               I
               prayed
               ,
               to
               try
               if
               that
               word
               was
               true
               ,
               but
               they
               dyed
               ;
               then
               I
               thought
               that
               was
               a
               vain
               word
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               heareth
               not
               our
               prayers
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               is
               
               not
               ;
               therefore
               I
               thought
               I
               will
               cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               and
               run
               away
               .
               I
               did
               not
               believe
               in
               God
               ;
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               shall
               die
               ,
               whether
               I
               pray
               ,
               or
               not
               pray
               ,
               all
               is
               one
               :
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               praying
               was
               the
               way
               to
               Everlasting
               Life
               ,
               but
               yet
               I
               regarded
               not
               praying
               ,
               I
               thought
               of
               running
               away
               ,
               and
               yet
               I
               thought
               ,
               whether
               I
               go
               or
               stay
               I
               shall
               die
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               was
               troubled
               ,
               but
               I
               did
               not
               pray
               :
               Afterward
               I
               was
               at
               work
               ▪
               and
               my
               head
               was
               broken
               in
               the
               Saw-pit
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               knew
               God
               was
               angry
               with
               me
               ,
               because
               I
               prayed
               not
               ;
               and
               then
               I
               did
               much
               know
               my
               sins
               ,
               I
               thought
               surely
               God
               is
               angry
               ;
               I
               remembred
               that
               I
               had
               heard
               that
               Word
               preached
               ,
               
                 Watch
                 ,
                 for
                 ye
                 know
                 not
                 the
                 hour
                 that
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 Man
                 cometh
                 ;
              
               this
               I
               remembred
               when
               my
               head
               was
               broken
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               all
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               
                 Adam
                 ,
              
               and
               set
               
                 Adam
              
               in
               Paradise
               ,
               and
               bid
               him
               eat
               of
               all
               the
               Trees
               ,
               saving
               of
               the
               Tree
               in
               the
               midst
               of
               the
               Garden
               ,
               if
               he
               eat
               thereof
               he
               should
               die
               ;
               but
               
                 Adam
              
               did
               eat
               thereof
               ,
               and
               died
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               believed
               ,
               surely
               God
               is
               ,
               and
               he
               made
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               man
               ,
               and
               me
               .
               I
               heard
               
                 Gen.
              
               1.
               
               God
               said
               ,
               
                 Let
                 us
                 make
                 man
                 in
                 our
                 own
                 Image
                 ,
                 and
                 let
                 him
                 have
                 dominion
                 over
                 all
                 the
                 creatures
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               believed
               ,
               sure
               God
               is
               good
               to
               man
               ,
               and
               man
               is
               a
               sinner
               against
               God
               ;
               and
               therefore
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               me
               for
               my
               sins
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               formed
               man
               of
               the
               dust
               of
               the
               earth
               ,
               and
               breathed
               into
               him
               the
               breath
               of
               Life
               ;
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               surely
               God
               made
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               man
               ,
               and
               me
               ,
               and
               all
               things
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               believed
               :
               And
               now
               I
               know
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               me
               ;
               now
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               and
               no
               more
               return
               to
               sin
               ,
               but
               I
               will
               do
               Gods
               Word
               all
               my
               daies
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               
                 Adam
              
               sleep
               ,
               
               and
               took
               out
               of
               him
               a
               rib
               ,
               made
               it
               a
               woman
               ,
               and
               brought
               her
               to
               man
               ;
               then
               I
               thought
               ,
               sure
               God
               made
               us
               ,
               and
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               these
               great
               works
               shew
               ,
               that
               there
               is
               a
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               called
               her
               the
               Mother
               of
               all
               living
               ,
               and
               by
               that
               means
               we
               have
               life
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               believed
               that
               God
               made
               us
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               and
               no
               more
               cast
               it
               off
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Gen.
              
               6.
               that
               
                 God
                 saw
                 the
                 sin
                 of
                 man
                 ,
                 that
                 it
                 was
                 great
                 ,
                 and
                 that
                 all
                 the
                 thoughts
                 and
                 imaginations
                 of
                 his
                 heart
                 are
                 only
                 evil
                 continually
                 ;
                 and
                 therefore
                 God
                 was
                 angry
                 ,
                 and
                 repented
                 that
                 he
                 had
                 made
                 man
                 ,
                 and
                 therefore
                 drowned
                 the
                 world
                 ,
                 and
                 every
                 living
                 creature
                 ;
                 he
                 caused
                 it
                 to
                 rain
                 fourty
                 dayes
                 on
                 the
                 earth
                 ;
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               sure
               there
               is
               a
               God
               ,
               and
               he
               will
               perform
               all
               his
               threatnings
               ,
               he
               is
               God
               ,
               and
               therefore
               he
               will
               do
               it
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               found
               
                 Noah
              
               righteous
               ,
               and
               he
               found
               favour
               in
               his
               sight
               ;
               he
               believed
               in
               God
               ,
               and
               did
               obey
               his
               Word
               ,
               and
               God
               saved
               him
               :
               Then
               my
               heart
               desired
               to
               believe
               that
               God
               is
               ,
               and
               to
               pray
               unto
               him
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Gen.
              
               19.
               that
               the
               Angels
               of
               God
               came
               to
               
                 Lot
              
               in
               
                 Sodom
                 ,
              
               and
               delivered
               just
               
                 Lot
                 ,
              
               but
               did
               burn
               up
               with
               the
               wicked
               
                 Sodomites
              
               with
               fire
               from
               heaven
               ,
               who
               had
               cast
               off
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               did
               commit
               great
               sins
               against
               God
               ;
               therefore
               I
               saw
               that
               I
               had
               deserved
               to
               be
               burnt
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               done
               their
               sins
               :
               And
               when
               God
               sent
               his
               Angels
               ,
               and
               did
               deliver
               just
               
                 Lot
                 ,
              
               and
               then
               the
               rest
               were
               burnt
               ,
               then
               I
               saw
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               sure
               God
               is
               merciful
               to
               them
               that
               love
               him
               ;
               and
               therefore
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               no
               more
               return
               to
               sin
               ,
               but
               I
               will
               follow
               God
               ;
               but
               yet
               ,
               sometimes
               I
               doubted
               ,
               but
               I
               believed
               the
               mercy
               of
               God
               ,
               according
               to
               that
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               1.
               
               
                 she
                 called
                 his
                 Name
              
               Jesus
               ,
               
                 for
                 he
                 saveth
                 his
                 people
                 from
                 their
                 sins
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               thought
               ,
               surely
               it
               is
               true
               ,
               that
               Christ
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               was
               made
               man
               ,
               and
               is
               merciful
               ;
               but
               yet
               I
               still
               did
               doubt
               whether
               Christ
               was
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 3.
                 
                 Repent
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 of
                 Heaven
                 is
                 at
                 hand
                 .
              
               And
               again
               ,
               
                 The
                 voice
                 of
                 one
                 crying
                 in
                 the
                 Wilderness
                 ,
                 prepare
                 ye
                 the
                 way
                 of
                 the
                 Lord
                 ,
                 and
                 make
                 his
                 paths
                 straight
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               repent
               ,
               and
               to
               make
               ready
               my
               heart
               for
               God
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               have
               mercy
               and
               pardon
               in
               Christ
               Jesus
               .
               Again
               ,
               the
               word
               saith
               ,
               
                 The
                 Tree
                 that
                 brings
                 not
                 forth
                 good
                 fruit
                 ,
                 is
                 cut
                 down
                 ,
                 and
                 cast
                 into
                 the
                 fire
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ;
               sure
               so
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               I
               have
               deserved
               to
               be
               cast
               into
               the
               fire
               ;
               I
               have
               brought
               forth
               such
               fruits
               as
               may
               justly
               cut
               me
               down
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               the
               word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               
                 He
                 that
                 heareth
                 the
                 Word
                 ,
                 and
                 doeth
                 it
                 ,
                 shall
                 be
                 blessed
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               have
               deserved
               not
               to
               be
               pardoned
               ,
               but
               I
               beg
               for
               mercy
               .
               Again
               ,
               the
               word
               saith
               ,
               
                 This
                 is
                 my
                 beloved
                 Son
                 ,
                 in
                 whom
                 I
                 am
                 well
                 pleased
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               sure
               God
               is
               merciful
               to
               send
               his
               own
               Son
               ,
               and
               Christ
               is
               merciful
               that
               he
               came
               and
               died
               for
               us
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               the
               Tempter
               came
               to
               Christ
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               
                 If
                 thou
                 be
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 make
                 these
                 stones
                 bread
                 :
              
               But
               Christ
               said
               ,
               
                 man
                 liveth
                 not
                 by
                 bread
                 only
                 ,
                 but
                 by
                 every
                 word
                 which
                 cometh
                 out
                 of
                 the
                 mouth
                 of
                 God
                 :
              
               Then
               I
               believed
               that
               Christ
               was
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               that
               my
               Soul
               liveth
               not
               by
               bread
               ,
               but
               by
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               8.
               the
               Leper
               came
               to
               Christ
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               
                 Lord
                 if
                 thou
                 wilt
                 ,
                 thou
                 canst
                 make
                 me
                 whole
                 ,
                 and
                 Iesus
                 touched
                 him
                 ,
                 and
                 he
                 was
                 healed
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               surely
               Christ
               is
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               he
               only
               can
               heal
               my
               sins
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               in
               
                 Mat.
                 6.
                 
                 If
                 ye
                 forgive
                 one
                 another
                 ,
                 
                 God
                 forgiveth
                 you
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               do
               this
               ,
               else
               God
               will
               be
               angry
               with
               me
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
              
               9.
               all
               diseased
               came
               to
               Christ
               ,
               the
               blind
               ,
               halt
               ,
               
                 &c
              
               and
               he
               healed
               them
               ;
               therefore
               I
               believed
               that
               he
               was
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               begged
               of
               Christ
               to
               pardon
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               save
               me
               ,
               because
               sure
               he
               is
               Christ
               the
               Son
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               the
               word
               saies
               ,
               
                 Not
                 every
                 one
                 that
                 saith
                 Lord
                 ,
                 Lord
                 ,
                 shall
                 enter
                 into
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 ,
                 but
                 he
                 that
                 doth
                 the
                 will
                 of
                 my
                 Father
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               do
               fear
               ,
               because
               I
               do
               very
               weakly
               obey
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               ;
               and
               therefore
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Depart
                 ye
                 workers
                 of
                 iniquity
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               such
               an
               one
               am
               I
               but
               now
               I
               cry
               to
               ,
               and
               trust
               to
               Christ
               ,
               to
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
              
               11.
               that
               Christ
               said
               
                 Capernaum
              
               was
               lifted
               up
               to
               heaven
               by
               the
               Gospel
               ,
               but
               should
               be
               cast
               down
               to
               hell
               ,
               for
               refusing
               it
               :
               I
               thought
               I
               did
               now
               pray
               ,
               i●
               I
               now
               fall
               off
               I
               shall
               perish
               .
               And
               again
               ,
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 It
                 shall
                 be
                 easier
                 for
              
               Tyre
               
                 and
              
               Sidon
               
                 in
                 that
                 day
                 :
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               have
               deserved
               the
               worst
               of
               Gods
               wrath
               ,
               for
               I
               believed
               not
               the
               great
               works
               of
               God
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               pardon
               of
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               to
               forsake
               all
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               to
               pray
               to
               Christ
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 5.
                 
                 That
                 Heaven
                 and
                 Earth
                 shall
                 pass
                 away
                 ,
                 but
                 not
                 one
                 jot
                 or
                 tittle
                 of
                 the
                 Word
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 but
                 all
                 shall
                 be
                 fulfilled
                 :
              
               Therefore
               my
               heart
               did
               desire
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               both
               hear
               and
               do
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               ,
               which
               will
               never
               perish
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
              
               16
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Who
                 say
                 ye
                 that
                 I
                 am
                 ?
              
               Peter
               said
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 art
                 Christ
                 ,
                 the
                 Son
                 of
                 the
                 living
                 God
                 ;
              
               Christ
               said
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 art
                 thou
              
               Peter
               ,
               
                 flesh
                 and
                 blood
                 hath
                 not
                 revealed
                 this
                 to
                 thee
                 ,
                 but
                 my
                 Father
                 ,
                 and
                 on
                 this
                 Rock
                 I
                 will
                 build
                 my
                 Church
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 gates
                 of
                 hell
                 shall
                 not
                 prevail
                 against
                 it
                 :
              
               Therefore
               my
               
               heart
               believed
               that
               God
               helped
               me
               to
               receive
               Christ
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               take
               that
               promise
               to
               
                 Peter
                 ,
              
               and
               my
               heart
               joyed
               more
               and
               more
               in
               Christ
               ,
               and
               in
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 26.
                 
                 Iesus
                 took
                 bread
                 ,
                 and
                 blessed
                 it
                 ,
                 and
                 brake
                 it
                 ,
                 and
                 gave
                 it
                 ,
                 and
                 said
                 ,
                 Take
                 eat
                 ,
                 this
                 is
                 my
                 body
                 which
                 is
                 broken
                 for
                 you
                 ,
                 and
                 likewise
                 the
                 Cup
                 ,
              
               &c.
               
                 saying
                 ,
                 This
                 is
                 my
                 blood
                 in
                 the
                 New
                 Testament
                 ,
                 which
                 was
                 shed
                 for
                 remission
                 of
                 sins
                 ,
                 &c.
                 
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               sure
               Christ
               is
               full
               of
               love
               ,
               and
               hath
               given
               us
               great
               mercy
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               partake
               of
               it
               .
               Again
               ,
               the
               wicked
               did
               kill
               Christ
               ,
               but
               he
               rose
               again
               ,
               and
               ascended
               to
               heaven
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               believed
               Christ
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               
                 Iohn
                 14.
                 
                 No
                 man
                 cometh
                 to
                 the
                 Father
                 ,
                 but
                 by
                 me
                 :
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               so
               be
               it
               Lord
               ;
               I
               desire
               to
               come
               to
               God
               by
               Christ
               ;
               and
               I
               said
               ,
               Why
               did
               the
               wicked
               kill
               Christ
               ?
               My
               heart
               said
               .
               I
               believe
               that
               Christ
               died
               for
               my
               sin
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               believe
               in
               Christ
               :
               Then
               my
               heart
               did
               joy
               in
               Christ
               ,
               and
               to
               heartle
               Word
               of
               God
               ;
               but
               yet
               to
               this
               day
               I
               have
               doubts
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               my
               heart
               is
               weak
               to
               this
               day
               :
               And
               now
               I
               know
               that
               in
               six
               daies
               God
               made
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               before
               that
               God
               I
               desire
               to
               confess
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               forsake
               them
               ,
               and
               no
               more
               to
               do
               them
               .
               Sometimes
               my
               heart
               is
               in
               an
               ill
               frame
               ,
               and
               loveth
               sin
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               hateth
               good
               ;
               therefore
               I
               desire
               the
               free
               Mercy
               of
               Christ
               to
               hold
               and
               keep
               my
               Soul
               .
            
             
             
               
                 When
                 he
                 had
                 finished
                 ,
                 and
                 I
                 had
                 read
                 before
                 the
                 assembly
                 this
                 confession
                 of
                 his
                 ,
                 we
                 called
                 upon
                 the
                 witnesses
                 to
                 co-attest
                 .
                 Who
                 did
                 in
                 the
                 same
                 order
                 as
                 before
                 express
                 themseves
                 to
                 the
                 like
                 purpose
                 .
                 Only
                 when
                 we
                 called
                 for
                 Tho
                 :
                 Stanton
                 his
                 sonnes
                 ,
                 they
                 were
                 not
                 present
                 ,
                 nor
                 did
                 they
                 any
                 more
                 appeare
                 in
                 the
                 Congregation
                 ,
                 to
                 attest
                 the
                 Indians
                 confessions
                 all
                 the
                 day
                 .
              
            
          
           
             
               Ponampiam
            
             
               He
               was
               next
               called
               forth
               ,
               and
               thus
               spake
               .
            
             
               I
               Confess
               my
               sinnes
               before
               the
               Lord
               ,
               and
               his
               people
               this
               day
               .
               While
               my
               Father
               lived
               ,
               and
               I
               was
               young
               ,
               I
               was
               at
               play
               ,
               and
               my
               Father
               rebuked
               me
               ,
               and
               said
               ,
               we
               shall
               all
               die
               shortly
               .
               [
               In
               private
               we
               asked
               him
               what
               ground
               or
               reason
               moved
               his
               Father
               so
               to
               speak
               ?
               he
               answered
               ,
               it
               was
               when
               the
               English
               were
               new
               come
               over
               ,
               and
               he
               thinketh
               that
               his
               Father
               had
               heard
               that
               Mr
               
                 Wilson
              
               had
               spoken
               of
               the
               flood
               of
               
                 Noah
                 ,
              
               how
               God
               drowned
               all
               the
               world
               for
               the
               sinnes
               of
               the
               people
               .
               ]
               Then
               I
               was
               troubled
               ,
               and
               thought
               sure
               what
               God
               saith
               ,
               shall
               be
               ,
               and
               not
               what
               man
               saith
               ;
               but
               I
               quickly
               forgot
               this
               ,
               and
               thought
               not
               of
               any
               good
               .
               That
               same
               Winter
               the
               pox
               came
               ;
               all
               my
               kindred
               died
               ,
               only
               
               my
               Mother
               and
               I
               lived
               ,
               we
               came
               to
               
                 Cohannit
                 ,
              
               by
               
                 Dorchester
                 ,
              
               where
               I
               lived
               till
               I
               was
               a
               man
               ,
               and
               married
               .
               All
               those
               daies
               I
               sinned
               ,
               and
               prayed
               to
               all
               gods
               ,
               and
               did
               as
               others
               did
               ,
               there
               I
               lived
               till
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               teach
               us
               .
               When
               I
               heard
               that
               they
               prayed
               ,
               my
               heart
               desired
               it
               not
               .
               Sometime
               I
               prayed
               among
               them
               ,
               and
               sometime
               I
               neglected
               it
               .
               I
               feared
               to
               pray
               because
               of
               the
               
                 Sachems
                 ,
              
               therefore
               I
               put
               it
               off
               ,
               for
               the
               fear
               of
               man
               .
               Afterward
               I
               considered
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               not
               because
               I
               loved
               the
               word
               ,
               but
               for
               other
               reasons
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               Mal.
               1.
               
               
                 From
                 the
                 rising
                 of
                 the
                 Sun
                 to
                 the
                 going
                 down
                 thereof
                 ,
                 my
                 name
                 shall
                 be
                 great
                 among
                 the
                 Gentiles
                 ,
                 and
                 in
                 every
                 place
                 incense
                 shall
                 be
                 offered
                 unto
                 my
                 name
                 ,
                 and
                 a
                 pure
                 offering
                 ,
                 for
                 my
                 name
                 shall
                 be
                 great
                 among
                 the
                 heathen
                 ,
                 saith
                 the
                 Lord
                 of
                 hosts
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               was
               troubled
               in
               my
               thoughts
               about
               running
               away
               ,
               yet
               then
               I
               thought
               if
               I
               should
               go
               to
               another
               place
               ,
               they
               must
               pray
               also
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               cannot
               flie
               from
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               therefore
               I
               tarried
               ,
               and
               when
               others
               prayed
               ,
               I
               prayed
               with
               them
               ,
               only
               I
               still
               feared
               man
               ;
               after
               I
               heard
               the
               same
               word
               again
               ,
               to
               perswade
               us
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ;
               and
               I
               did
               so
               ,
               but
               not
               for
               Gods
               sake
               ,
               only
               it
               was
               before
               man
               .
               I
               remembred
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               and
               I
               heard
               Mr
               
                 Mathews
              
               also
               preach
               of
               it
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               thought
               I
               would
               keep
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               but
               still
               I
               feared
               man
               .
               Upon
               a
               Sabbath
               ,
               they
               wished
               me
               to
               teach
               what
               I
               remembred
               ,
               that
               the
               Minister
               had
               taught
               .
               I
               did
               so
               ,
               and
               we
               had
               talk
               about
               what
               I
               said
               ,
               and
               we
               fell
               out
               .
               Thereupon
               I
               went
               away
               ,
               and
               left
               praying
               to
               God
               .
               I
               went
               into
               the
               Countrey
               ,
               but
               I
               remembred
               my
               wife
               and
               children
               ,
               and
               quickly
               returned
               ,
               but
               not
               for
               Gods
               sake
               .
               Again
               the
               Minister
               
               preached
               on
               1
               
                 Chron.
                 28.
                 9.
                 
                 And
                 thou
                 Solomon
                 my
                 son
                 know
                 the
                 God
                 of
                 thy
                 Fathers
                 ,
                 and
                 serve
                 him
                 with
                 a
                 perfect
                 heart
                 ,
                 and
                 with
                 a
                 willing
                 mind
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 Lord
                 searcheth
                 all
                 hearts
                 ,
                 and
                 understandeth
                 all
                 the
                 imagination
                 of
                 the
                 thoughts
                 ;
                 if
                 thou
                 seek
                 him
                 ,
                 he
                 will
                 be
                 found
                 of
                 thee
                 ,
                 but
                 if
                 thou
                 forsake
                 him
                 ,
                 he
                 will
                 cast
                 thee
                 off
                 for
                 ever
                 .
              
               This
               greatly
               troubled
               me
               ,
               because
               I
               had
               left
               praying
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               had
               deserved
               eternall
               wrath
               .
               Then
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               ,
               I
               begged
               mercy
               ,
               but
               I
               knew
               not
               what
               to
               do
               ,
               for
               my
               sins
               were
               many
               ,
               my
               heart
               was
               full
               of
               originall
               sin
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               was
               often
               full
               of
               anger
               ;
               but
               then
               I
               was
               angry
               at
               my self
               ,
               for
               I
               found
               my
               heart
               quickly
               carried
               after
               sin
               .
               Afterward
               ,
               through
               the
               free
               mercy
               of
               God
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 He
                 that
                 penitently
                 believeth
                 in
                 Christ
                 shall
                 be
                 pardoned
                 and
                 saved
                 ;
              
               then
               my
               heart
               did
               beg
               earnestly
               for
               pardon
               and
               mercy
               .
               I
               heard
               
                 Ioh.
                 15.
                 
                 Whatever
                 ye
                 ask
                 the
                 Father
                 in
                 my
                 name
                 ,
                 he
                 will
                 give
                 it
                 you
                 ;
              
               therefore
               my
               heart
               did
               now
               greatly
               beg
               for
               mercy
               in
               Christ
               and
               pardon
               .
               Afterward
               I
               heard
               
                 Mat.
                 5.
                 28.
                 
                 Who
                 ever
                 looketh
                 upon
                 a
                 woman
                 to
                 lust
                 after
                 her
                 ,
                 hath
                 committed
                 adultery
                 in
                 his
                 heart
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               was
               troubled
               ,
               because
               many
               were
               my
               sins
               ,
               in
               my
               eies
               ,
               and
               heart
               ,
               and
               actions
               too
               .
               My
               heart
               did
               love
               the
               having
               of
               two
               wives
               ,
               and
               other
               lusts
               of
               that
               kind
               :
               Then
               Satan
               said
               to
               me
               ,
               You
               are
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               God
               will
               not
               pardon
               you
               ,
               therefore
               cast
               off
               praying
               ,
               and
               run
               away
               ,
               it
               is
               a
               vain
               thing
               for
               you
               to
               pray
               .
               Here
               you
               want
               land
               ,
               but
               in
               the
               Countrey
               there
               is
               land
               enough
               ,
               and
               riches
               abundance
               ,
               therefore
               pray
               no
               more
               .
               My
               heart
               did
               almost
               like
               it
               ,
               but
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Mat
                 4.
                 
                 Satan
                 tempted
                 Christ
                 ,
                 and
                 shewed
                 him
                 the
                 Kingdoms
                 of
                 the
                 world
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 glory
                 thereof
                 ,
                 and
                 promised
                 to
                 give
                 them
                 to
                 him
                 ,
                 if
                 he
                 would
                 worship
                 
                 him
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               that
               even
               thus
               Satan
               tempteth
               me
               to
               cast
               off
               praying
               to
               God
               ;
               and
               therefore
               my
               heart
               desired
               to
               believe
               that
               word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 worship
                 the
                 Lord
                 thy
                 God
                 ,
                 and
                 him
                 only
                 shalt
                 thou
                 serve
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               prayed
               again
               ,
               but
               still
               I
               was
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               and
               very
               weak
               I
               was
               ,
               and
               I
               loved
               sin
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Ioh.
              
               14.
               
               
                 I
                 am
                 the
                 Way
                 ,
                 the
                 Truth
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 Life
                 ,
                 no
                 man
                 cometh
                 unto
                 the
                 Father
                 but
                 by
                 me
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               fully
               saw
               that
               Christ
               only
               is
               our
               Redeemer
               ,
               and
               Saviour
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               believe
               in
               Christ
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               that
               nothing
               that
               I
               can
               do
               can
               save
               me
               ,
               only
               Christ
               :
               therefore
               I
               beg
               for
               Christ
               ,
               and
               a
               part
               in
               him
               .
               Then
               said
               my
               heart
               ,
               I
               give
               my
               heart
               and
               my self
               to
               Christ
               ,
               and
               my
               wife
               and
               children
               ,
               let
               him
               do
               with
               us
               what
               he
               will
               .
               Then
               my
               mother
               and
               two
               children
               died
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               What
               Christ
               will
               do
               ,
               so
               be
               it
               ;
               I
               have
               given
               them
               to
               him
               ,
               and
               I
               begged
               pardon
               and
               mercy
               ,
               if
               God
               will
               please
               to
               pardon
               me
               a
               poor
               sinner
               ,
               blessed
               be
               his
               name
               .
            
             
               
                 When
                 I
                 had
                 read
                 this
                 Confession
                 in
                 the
                 Assembly
                 ,
                 we
                 called
                 upon
                 the
                 witnesses
                 ,
                 as
                 before
                 we
                 did
                 ,
                 whose
                 answer
                 was
                 like
                 as
                 before
                 it
                 was
                 .
              
            
          
           
             
               John
               Speen
            
             
               Hee
               was
               next
               called
               forth
               ,
               and
               thus
               spake
               .
            
             
               I
               Confess
               my
               sins
               this
               day
               before
               the
               Lord
               ,
               and
               not
               only
               before
               God
               ,
               but
               before
               all
               these
               people
               .
               Before
               I
               prayed
               ,
               verily
               I
               was
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               yea
               ,
               in
               my
               mothers
               womb
               I
               was
               a
               sinner
               :
               my
               sins
               are
               such
               as
               not
               
               only
               God
               knows
               ,
               but
               people
               also
               know
               them
               .
               Before
               our
               praying
               ,
               I
               did
               thorowly
               sin
               ,
               and
               did
               commit
               all
               sins
               ;
               and
               now
               I
               confess
               these
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               .
               After
               I
               prayed
               ,
               I
               did
               alos
               live
               in
               sin
               .
               At
               first
               when
               I
               prayed
               ,
               I
               did
               not
               worship
               God
               ,
               nor
               believe
               in
               Christ
               ;
               but
               I
               did
               therefore
               pray
               ,
               because
               my
               brothers
               ,
               and
               friends
               ,
               and
               
                 Waban
                 ,
              
               and
               the
               rest
               did
               pray
               ,
               for
               their
               sakes
               I
               prayed
               .
               And
               again
               I
               therefore
               prayed
               ,
               because
               many
               
                 English
              
               knew
               me
               ,
               that
               I
               might
               please
               them
               ;
               and
               because
               I
               saw
               the
               
                 English
              
               took
               much
               ground
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               if
               I
               prayed
               ,
               the
               
                 English
              
               would
               not
               take
               away
               my
               ground
               ,
               for
               these
               causes
               I
               prayed
               .
               When
               I
               prayed
               ,
               it
               was
               but
               with
               my
               mouth
               ,
               yet
               I
               thought
               I
               do
               well
               enough
               in
               that
               I
               pray
               thus
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               ,
               that
               for
               it
               God
               will
               pardon
               all
               my
               sins
               ;
               and
               I
               thought
               that
               my
               praying
               was
               good
               enough
               .
               But
               yet
               again
               I
               sinned
               ,
               and
               did
               the
               like
               sins
               as
               before
               ,
               only
               I
               did
               outwardly
               pray
               ,
               but
               I
               mourned
               not
               for
               my
               sins
               .
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               we
               pray
               and
               leave
               Pauwauing
               ,
               who
               shall
               make
               us
               well
               when
               we
               are
               sick
               .
               But
               again
               ,
               I
               thought
               man
               could
               not
               make
               us
               well
               ,
               because
               he
               must
               die
               himself
               ,
               and
               therefore
               Pauwauing
               is
               a
               vain
               thing
               ,
               and
               they
               die
               though
               they
               Pauwau
               .
               But
               still
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               believe
               praying
               to
               God
               :
               then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Repent
                 and
                 believe
                 ;
                 and
                 if
                 we
                 repent
                 and
                 believe
                 ,
                 God
                 will
                 pardon
                 all
                 our
                 sins
                 .
              
               Then
               sometimes
               I
               repented
               ,
               yet
               again
               quickly
               I
               committed
               sin
               ;
               and
               sometimes
               I
               thought
               I
               am
               throughly
               a
               sinner
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               God
               made
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               all
               things
               in
               it
               ,
               and
               lastly
               man
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               formed
               him
               of
               the
               dust
               of
               the
               earth
               ,
               and
               breathed
               into
               him
               the
               breath
               of
               life
               ,
               and
               he
               became
               a
               living
               soul
               ,
               and
               that
               God
               made
               a
               Covenant
               with
               
                 Adam
                 ,
              
               that
               he
               
               should
               eat
               of
               all
               the
               Trees
               of
               the
               Garden
               ,
               save
               one
               in
               the
               midst
               of
               the
               Garden
               ,
               and
               if
               he
               eat
               of
               that
               Tree
               ,
               he
               should
               die
               .
               Then
               I
               understood
               that
               
                 Adam
              
               sinned
               ,
               &
               fell
               ,
               and
               thereby
               I
               uneerstood
               that
               I
               became
               a
               sinner
               ,
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               my
               heart
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               and
               God
               will
               not
               pardon
               sinners
               ;
               and
               yet
               again
               I
               sinned
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               feared
               that
               God
               will
               not
               pardon
               me
               ,
               because
               more
               and
               more
               I
               sinned
               :
               and
               thus
               I
               sinned
               after
               praying
               ,
               as
               well
               as
               before
               praying
               .
               When
               they
               chose
               Rulers
               ,
               and
               chose
               my
               brother
               ,
               and
               not
               me
               ,
               my
               heart
               was
               in
               an
               evil
               frame
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               thought
               sure
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               yet
               still
               I
               was
               more
               and
               more
               a
               sinner
               .
               After
               my
               brothers
               loved
               me
               still
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               repented
               of
               my
               sins
               ,
               but
               not
               for
               Gods
               sake
               ,
               but
               for
               my
               brothers
               sake
               ;
               then
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               My
               brother
               died
               ,
               which
               troubled
               me
               ;
               the
               people
               said
               ,
               Be
               you
               in
               your
               brothers
               place
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               thought
               ,
               I
               will
               no
               more
               do
               as
               I
               had
               done
               ,
               but
               sure
               I
               was
               weak
               ,
               my
               praying
               was
               but
               words
               ,
               I
               was
               a
               great
               sinner
               .
               After
               this
               ,
               a
               while
               since
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               Mat.
               12.
               
               
                 The
                 unclean
                 spirit
                 being
                 cast
                 out
                 of
                 a
                 man
                 ,
                 he
                 walketh
                 about
                 seeking
                 rest
                 and
                 findeth
                 none
                 ;
                 then
                 hee
                 returneth
                 and
                 bringeth
                 7
                 other
                 spirits
                 with
                 him
                 worse
                 then
                 himself
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 end
                 of
                 that
                 man
                 is
                 worse
                 then
                 his
                 beginning
                 .
              
               When
               I
               heard
               this
               ,
               my
               heart
               feared
               .
               I
               thought
               now
               I
               repent
               of
               my
               many
               sins
               ,
               for
               verily
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               &
               I
               have
               offended
               ,
               I
               am
               7
               times
               worse
               then
               before
               I
               prayed
               ;
               then
               I
               repented
               .
            
             
               Again
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               
                 He
                 that
                 penitently
                 believeth
                 shall
                 be
                 saved
                 ,
              
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               did
               desire
               to
               repent
               and
               believe
               ,
               then
               I
               thought
               that
               men
               will
               not
               forgive
               me
               ,
               and
               therefore
               it
               is
               not
               good
               to
               abide
               in
               this
               place
               ,
               but
               I
               remembred
               that
               I
               had
               learned
               to
               read
               the
               Word
               ,
               
               and
               if
               I
               should
               forsake
               my
               friends
               ,
               I
               should
               lose
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               
                 Repent
                 ,
                 for
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 of
                 Heaven
                 is
                 at
                 hand
                 ,
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ô
               let
               it
               be
               so
               ,
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               rested
               ;
               but
               yet
               quickly
               it
               was
               unquiet
               again
               .
               Then
               I
               did
               strongly
               desire
               to
               repent
               of
               my
               sinnes
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               that
               
                 God
                 Sowed
                 good
                 seed
                 ,
                 but
                 evill
                 seed
                 was
                 sowen
                 by
                 the
                 Enemy
                 ,
              
               and
               such
               were
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               as
               in
               my
               field
               there
               were
               many
               roots
               ,
               and
               weeds
               which
               spoyled
               the
               corne
               ,
               and
               I
               plucked
               them
               up
               ,
               and
               cast
               them
               out
               ;
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               verily
               just
               so
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               the
               Word
               is
               but
               a
               little
               in
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               there
               be
               many
               ill
               roots
               in
               me
               ,
               and
               therefore
               God
               may
               justly
               cast
               me
               out
               from
               among
               his
               people
               ,
               because
               of
               my
               many
               sinnes
               .
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               and
               now
               I
               forsake
               my
               sins
               ,
               who
               have
               been
               a
               great
               sinner
               .
               Now
               I
               beg
               of
               Christ
               ,
               O
               give
               me
               thy
               spirit
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               confess
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               not
               only
               before
               men
               ;
               again
               I
               remember
               that
               I
               cannot
               pardon
               or
               help
               my self
               ,
               but
               only
               Christ
               must
               help
               me
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               
                 All
                 manner
                 of
                 sin
                 shall
                 be
                 forgiven
                 to
                 a
                 man
                 ,
                 but
                 the
                 sin
                 against
                 the
                 Holy
                 Ghost
                 ,
                 shall
                 not
                 be
                 forgiven
                 in
                 this
                 world
                 ,
                 nor
                 in
                 the
                 world
                 to
                 come
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               feared
               ,
               because
               many
               and
               great
               were
               my
               sins
               since
               I
               prayed
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               cried
               to
               God
               for
               mercy
               and
               pardon
               :
               and
               then
               I
               thought
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               But
               verily
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               ,
               for
               I
               am
               guilty
               not
               only
               of
               
                 Adams
              
               sin
               ,
               but
               of
               my
               own
               sins
               also
               ,
               and
               they
               are
               many
               .
               I
               remember
               that
               in
               Catechisme
               I
               learn
               ,
               that
               God
               made
               a
               Covenant
               of
               works
               with
               
                 Adam
                 ,
                 Do
                 the
                 Commands
                 ,
                 and
                 thou
                 shalt
                 live
                 ,
                 and
                 thy
                 seed
                 also
                 ;
                 but
                 if
                 thou
                 sin
                 ,
                 thou
                 shalt
                 die
                 ,
                 and
                 thy
                 seed
                 also
                 ;
              
               therefore
               by
               that
               I
               
               know
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               ,
               and
               have
               deserved
               to
               die
               .
               Then
               I
               crie
               to
               God
               ,
               O
               God
               have
               mercy
               upon
               me
               ,
               and
               pardon
               me
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               of
               the
               mercy
               of
               God
               ,
               but
               I
               am
               forgetfull
               ,
               and
               cannot
               remember
               Gods
               mercies
               to
               me
               .
               God
               made
               a
               Covenant
               with
               
                 Abraham
              
               and
               said
               ,
               
                 I
                 will
                 be
                 thy
                 God
                 ,
                 and
                 the
                 God
                 of
                 thy
                 seed
                 after
                 thee
                 ,
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               O
               let
               it
               be
               so
               to
               me
               O
               Lord
               .
               And
               now
               
                 Abraham
              
               is
               in
               heaven
               ,
               who
               believed
               ,
               and
               kept
               Gods
               Covenant
               ;
               So
               I
               ,
               if
               I
               believe
               and
               keep
               Gods
               Covenant
               ,
               God
               will
               have
               mercy
               on
               me
               .
               I
               remembred
               the
               Covenant
               of
               Circumcision
               to
               him
               ,
               and
               all
               his
               family
               ;
               and
               such
               a
               Covenant
               I
               desire
               for
               me
               and
               mine
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               Mat.
               3.
               
               In
               those
               daies
               
                 Iohn
              
               baptized
               in
               
                 Iordan
                 :
              
               saying
               ,
               
                 Repent
                 for
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 of
                 God
                 is
                 at
                 hand
                 .
              
               When
               I
               heard
               this
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               the
               same
               is
               now
               with
               us
               ,
               not
               
                 Abrahams
              
               signe
               but
               baptisme
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               repent
               ,
               and
               Confess
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               before
               the
               Church
               :
               and
               I
               desire
               not
               only
               to
               confess
               ,
               but
               to
               have
               repentance
               ,
               and
               faith
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               have
               grace
               ,
               mercy
               ,
               and
               pardon
               :
               and
               such
               repentance
               as
               workes
               obedience
               .
               Again
               ,
               the
               same
               Word
               saith
               ,
               vers.
               6.
               
               
                 They
                 were
                 baptized
                 confessing
                 their
                 sins
                 ;
              
               So
               I
               desire
               to
               do
               .
               I
               do
               confess
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               desire
               to
               cast
               off
               ,
               and
               forsake
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               to
               go
               to
               Christ
               .
               The
               promise
               of
               pardon
               is
               to
               them
               that
               penitently
               believe
               ,
               and
               rest
               on
               Christ
               .
               In
               the
               same
               Baptism
               of
               
                 Iohn
                 ,
              
               he
               said
               ,
               
                 I
                 baptize
                 you
                 with
                 water
                 ,
                 but
                 he
                 that
                 cometh
                 after
                 me
                 ,
                 is
                 mightier
                 then
                 I
                 ,
                 he
                 shall
                 baptize
                 you
                 with
                 the
                 Holy
                 Ghost
                 and
                 fire
                 .
              
               Now
               this
               Baptism
               I
               desire
               ,
               and
               not
               to
               receive
               the
               signe
               in
               vain
               :
               I
               desire
               to
               purge
               out
               evill
               thoughts
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               confess
               these
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               that
               they
               may
               be
               purged
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               the
               spirit
               of
               God
               
               may
               dwell
               in
               me
               for
               ever
               ,
               to
               turn
               me
               to
               Christ
               .
               I
               cannot
               of
               my self
               do
               any
               of
               these
               things
               ,
               but
               only
               Christ
               Jesus
               can
               by
               his
               spirit
               in
               me
               .
            
             
               Again
               I
               heard
               another
               word
               ,
               
                 As
                 the
                 Eagles
                 are
                 about
                 a
                 carkass
                 ,
                 so
                 believers
                 come
                 to
                 Christ
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               So
               be
               it
               Oh
               Lord
               ;
               when
               I
               receive
               the
               Covenant
               of
               God
               ,
               I
               am
               like
               the
               Eagles
               ;
               when
               I
               come
               to
               Christ
               ,
               I
               desire
               not
               to
               come
               in
               vain
               ;
               but
               if
               I
               feed
               not
               ,
               I
               shall
               die
               ,
               my
               soul
               will
               die
               .
               Then
               I
               greatly
               begged
               that
               I
               might
               feed
               my
               soul
               on
               Christ
               ;
               and
               Oh
               Christ
               send
               thy
               spirit
               into
               my
               heart
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               not
               only
               know
               ,
               but
               do
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 Christ
                 ,
                 near
                 his
                 death
                 ,
                 took
                 bread
                 ,
                 and
                 blest
                 it
                 ,
                 and
                 broke
                 it
                 ,
                 and
                 gave
                 it
                 to
                 his
                 disciples
                 ,
                 and
                 said
                 ,
                 Take
                 yee
                 ,
                 eat
                 yee
                 ,
                 this
                 is
                 my
                 Body
                 which
                 was
                 broken
                 for
                 you
                 :
              
               And
               so
               also
               he
               did
               the
               Cup
               ,
               
                 and
                 said
                 ,
                 Drink
                 yee
                 of
                 it
                 ,
                 this
                 is
                 the
                 Cup
                 of
                 my
                 blood
                 in
                 the
                 New
                 Testament
                 which
                 is
                 shed
                 for
                 the
                 remission
                 of
                 sins
                 .
              
               Now
               this
               believers
               in
               Christ
               must
               do
               ,
               not
               only
               to
               eat
               Bread
               ,
               and
               to
               take
               the
               Sign
               ,
               but
               soul
               food
               :
               therefore
               Christ
               sending
               his
               spirit
               ,
               and
               helping
               me
               ,
               I
               desire
               to
               receive
               the
               Sign
               ,
               not
               in
               vain
               ,
               but
               to
               help
               my
               faith
               .
            
             
               
                 When
                 I
                 had
                 read
                 this
                 Confession
                 in
                 the
                 Assembly
                 ,
                 we
                 called
                 upon
                 the
                 witnesses
                 ,
                 (
                 as
                 before
                 wee
                 did
                 )
                 whose
                 answer
                 was
                 to
                 the
                 like
                 purpose
                 as
                 before
                 .
              
            
          
           
           
             
               Wutasakompauin
            
             
               He
               was
               next
               called
               forth
               ,
               who
               thus
               spake
               .
            
             
               HElp
               me
               Oh
               Jesus
               Christ
               ,
               to
               confess
               before
               the
               Lord
               ;
               Oh
               I
               am
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               because
               
                 Adams
              
               sin
               made
               mine
               ,
               and
               so
               was
               a
               sinner
               in
               my
               mothers
               womb
               .
               When
               I
               was
               a
               youth
               I
               found
               many
               sins
               ,
               and
               after
               I
               was
               grown
               up
               ,
               I
               did
               the
               same
               alwaies
               ,
               all
               the
               daies
               of
               my
               life
               I
               lived
               in
               sin
               .
               After
               the
               English
               came
               ,
               I
               went
               to
               their
               houses
               ;
               they
               would
               teach
               me
               about
               God
               ,
               but
               I
               hated
               it
               ,
               and
               went
               out
               ,
               I
               did
               not
               love
               such
               teaching
               .
               Afterward
               the
               Minister
               taught
               ,
               and
               at
               first
               
                 Waban
              
               perswaded
               me
               to
               pray
               ,
               and
               taught
               us
               ;
               I
               did
               not
               at
               first
               like
               it
               ,
               yet
               afterward
               I
               did
               .
               Four
               years
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               
                 Noonantam
                 ;
              
               I
               came
               ,
               but
               I
               only
               came
               ,
               I
               lost
               all
               he
               taught
               .
               After
               I
               considered
               one
               word
               ;
               the
               Minister
               said
               ,
               That
               God
               sent
               him
               to
               teach
               us
               ;
               then
               I
               thought
               surely
               there
               is
               a
               God
               ,
               therefore
               I
               must
               believe
               and
               pray
               :
               a
               little
               I
               believed
               ,
               but
               when
               I
               heard
               ,
               I
               did
               only
               outwardly
               hear
               .
               After
               ,
               my
               wife
               and
               children
               died
               ,
               and
               then
               I
               almost
               cast
               off
               praying
               .
               I
               had
               another
               wife
               ,
               and
               she
               died
               also
               ;
               and
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Surely
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               me
               ,
               who
               doth
               thus
               afflict
               me
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Mat.
              
               22.
               
               God
               made
               a
               Feast
               ,
               and
               invited
               his
               Guests
               ,
               and
               they
               would
               not
               come
               ,
               and
               therefore
               God
               was
               angry
               with
               them
               :
               So
               did
               I
               ;
               for
               I
               came
               not
               to
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               ,
               when
               he
               called
               me
               ,
               I
               cared
               not
               for
               the
               Feast
               of
               Christ
               .
               Again
               ,
               after
               many
               of
               my
               friends
               were
               destroyed
               ,
               I
               thought
               
               it
               was
               because
               they
               prayed
               not
               to
               God
               ,
               therefore
               I
               feared
               that
               God
               is
               angry
               with
               me
               also
               ,
               because
               of
               his
               punishments
               .
               I
               fear
               ,
               I
               believe
               not
               Christ
               ;
               and
               my
               heart
               feareth
               ,
               because
               of
               my
               sins
               ;
               daily
               I
               break
               Gods
               Commands
               .
               Another
               Word
               I
               heard
               ,
               Mat.
               5.
               
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 they
                 who
                 hunger
                 and
                 thirst
                 after
                 righteousness
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 be
                 satisfied
                 ;
              
               this
               is
               the
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               hunger
               for
               Christ
               ,
               and
               begged
               O
               Christ
               help
               me
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               remembred
               that
               Word
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 the
                 pure
                 in
                 heart
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 see
                 God
                 ;
              
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               O
               Christ
               help
               me
               to
               be
               so
               ,
               that
               cleane
               may
               be
               my
               heart
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 the
                 peace-makers
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 be
                 called
                 the
                 Children
                 of
                 God
                 ;
              
               then
               my
               heart
               thought
               ,
               O
               that
               I
               had
               peace
               with
               God
               in
               Christ
               ,
               that
               I
               might
               have
               that
               blessing
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               now
               confess
               my
               sins
               before
               God
               ,
               and
               I
               beg
               mercy
               from
               God
               in
               Jesus
               Christ
               .
               When
               I
               had
               read
               this
               short
               confession
               ,
               (
               for
               the
               day
               spent
               ,
               and
               brevity
               was
               called
               for
               )
               we
               called
               upon
               the
               witnesses
               who
               spake
               as
               formerly
               .
            
          
           
             
               Monotunkquanit
               .
            
             
               He
               was
               next
               called
               ,
               who
               thus
               spake
               .
            
             
               I
               Have
               heard
               the
               word
               ,
               and
               prayed
               to
               God
               several
               yeares
               .
               And
               I
               confess
               that
               before
               I
               prayed
               ,
               I
               was
               full
               of
               sin
               ,
               and
               yet
               I
               do
               not
               know
               my
               sins
               .
               I
               thought
               they
               were
               all
               good
               waies
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               did
               them
               .
               I
               knew
               not
               the
               Sabbath
               ,
               nor
               Lecture
               daies
               ,
               nor
               any
               good
               ,
               only
               I
               knew
               wild
               Actions
               ,
               daily
               I
               desired
               falshood
               ,
               
               vile
               actions
               ,
               singing
               
                 Indian
              
               songs
               ,
               these
               things
               I
               desired
               to
               do
               :
               but
               all
               good
               things
               I
               was
               ignorant
               of
               ,
               and
               very
               much
               I
               sinned
               ,
               daily
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               of
               praying
               to
               God
               .
               I
               came
               to
               
                 Cohannit
              
               at
               
                 Dorchester
                 ,
              
               from
               
                 Nipmuk
              
               where
               I
               lived
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               laughed
               at
               praying
               ,
               and
               said
               its
               a
               vain
               action
               ,
               only
               those
               actions
               that
               I
               was
               bred
               up
               in
               ,
               I
               liked
               and
               esteemed
               ,
               but
               these
               new
               things
               I
               derided
               .
               The
               
                 Sachims
              
               disliked
               it
               ,
               and
               therefore
               so
               did
               I
               .
               The
               rich
               men
               disliked
               it
               ,
               and
               therefore
               so
               did
               I
               .
               I
               believed
               not
               ,
               that
               God
               is
               ;
               I
               went
               to
               
                 Cohannit
                 ,
              
               not
               for
               praying
               ,
               but
               to
               gather
               clams
               :
               When
               I
               came
               thither
               ,
               they
               exhorted
               me
               to
               pray
               :
               and
               said
               ,
               The
               Minister
               cometh
               to
               morrow
               to
               teach
               ,
               it
               is
               lecture
               day
               .
               I
               desired
               to
               see
               him
               :
               he
               came
               ,
               they
               met
               together
               .
               I
               went
               ,
               and
               carried
               my
               son
               
                 Samuel
                 :
              
               I
               saw
               the
               Minister
               ,
               he
               called
               my
               son
               ;
               asked
               him
               ,
               
                 Who
                 made
                 you
                 ;
              
               they
               bid
               him
               say
               
                 God
                 ;
              
               but
               I
               had
               not
               so
               taught
               him
               .
               He
               asked
               ,
               whose
               son
               he
               was
               ,
               they
               said
               mine
               :
               he
               said
               ,
               
                 do
                 you
                 pray
                 to
                 God
                 ?
              
               I
               said
               no
               ,
               for
               I
               am
               a
               poore
               man
               ,
               and
               naked
               :
               they
               that
               pray
               are
               cloathed
               .
               Therefore
               I
               will
               not
               pray
               ,
               can
               poore
               men
               pray
               ?
               Therefore
               I
               would
               not
               pray
               :
               I
               went
               home
               .
               Then
               
                 Waban
              
               and
               
                 Totherswamp
              
               came
               to
               my
               house
               ,
               and
               taught
               me
               to
               pray
               .
               They
               intreated
               me
               ,
               now
               pray
               
                 to
                 God
                 ;
              
               My
               heart
               liked
               it
               not
               .
               They
               said
               ,
               
                 God
                 is
                 a
                 great
                 God
                 ,
                 and
                 made
                 all
                 the
                 World
                 .
              
               I
               said
               ,
               who
               is
               witness
               of
               that
               ?
               They
               said
               ,
               the
               Minister
               will
               answer
               you
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 they
                 taught
                 me
                 the
                 Commandments
                 of
                 God
                 ;
              
               but
               I
               did
               not
               believe
               .
               
                 Totherswamp
              
               promised
               to
               come
               again
               ,
               he
               did
               so
               ;
               and
               said
               ,
               
                 now
                 pray
                 to
                 God
                 ,
              
               because
               
                 God
                 is
                 good
                 .
              
               I
               thought
               it
               a
               teadious
               thing
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               he
               strongly
               intreated
               me
               :
               I
               said
               I
               will
               try
               ;
               but
               not
               for
               praying
               ,
               but
               in
               vain
               .
               Then
               my
               kindred
               said
               ,
               
               praying
               is
               a
               vain
               thing
               ,
               why
               will
               you
               pray
               ?
               therefore
               returne
               again
               :
               then
               I
               went
               ,
               and
               prayed
               .
               When
               I
               first
               came
               ,
               
                 Waban
              
               taught
               that
               Word
               .
               
                 The
                 night
                 is
                 farre
                 spent
                 ,
                 the
                 day
                 is
                 as
                 hand
                 ,
                 therefore
                 let
                 us
                 cast
                 off
                 the
                 works
                 of
                 darkness
                 ,
                 and
                 let
                 us
                 put
                 on
                 the
                 Armour
                 of
                 light
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               asked
               what
               are
               dark
               workes
               ?
               They
               answered
               ,
               
                 sianes
                 ;
              
               and
               what
               is
               day
               ?
               they
               answered
               ,
               
                 praying
                 to
                 God
                 ,
              
               and
               the
               wisdome
               of
               the
               Word
               
                 is
                 light
                 :
              
               And
               this
               is
               now
               almost
               come
               unto
               us
               .
               Then
               my
               heart
               smile
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               who
               said
               ,
               these
               words
               ,
               
                 Thou
                 shalt
                 have
                 no
                 other
                 Gods
                 but
                 me
                 ;
                 thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 make
                 to
                 thy selfe
                 any
                 graven
                 Image
                 ,
                 nor
                 the
                 likeness
                 of
                 any
                 thing
                 in
                 Heaven
                 above
                 ,
                 in
                 the
                 earth
                 below
                 ,
                 in
                 the
                 waters
                 under
                 the
                 earth
                 :
                 thou
                 shalt
                 not
                 bow
                 down
                 to
                 them
                 ,
                 nor
                 worship
                 them
                 ;
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               that
               I
               did
               worship
               many
               false
               gods
               ,
               therefore
               if
               I
               pray
               ,
               it
               may
               be
               God
               will
               kill
               me
               :
               but
               they
               said
               no
               ,
               he
               is
               a
               good
               God
               ;
               then
               I
               prayed
               ,
               and
               then
               my
               kindred
               hindred
               me
               .
               Therefore
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               If
               my
               kindred
               pray
               ,
               then
               I
               will
               pray
               .
               Then
               I
               was
               taught
               more
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               heare
               the
               Word
               ,
               that
               
                 God
                 made
                 Adam
                 of
                 the
                 dust
                 ,
                 and
                 made
                 him
                 sleep
                 ,
                 and
                 took
                 out
                 a
                 rib
                 ,
                 and
                 made
                 a
                 woman
                 ,
              
               and
               thus
               God
               made
               man
               .
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               It
               may
               be
               God
               made
               English
               men
               ,
               but
               not
               us
               poore
               naked
               men
               ,
               as
               we
               are
               of
               a
               strange
               language
               ;
               and
               therefore
               I
               doubted
               to
               pray
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               of
               
                 Nimrod
              
               his
               building
               of
               
                 Babel
                 ,
              
               and
               that
               God
               was
               angry
               ,
               made
               strange
               to
               each
               other
               their
               language
               ,
               and
               brake
               their
               work
               :
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Surely
               so
               it
               is
               ,
               as
               I
               did
               believe
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               that
               
                 God
                 found
                 one
                 man
                 just
                 ,
                 Noah
                 ,
                 and
                 saved
                 him
                 in
                 his
                 Ark
                 ,
                 and
                 did
                 drown
                 the
                 world
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               desire
               that
               God
               may
               find
               many
               just
               persons
               with
               us
               ,
               
               therefore
               I
               pray
               to
               God
               :
               then
               I
               more
               prayed
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 that
                 God
                 made
                 a
                 Covenant
                 with
                 Abraham
                 and
                 his
                 seed
                 ,
                 to
                 be
                 their
                 God
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               so
               let
               it
               be
               :
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               in
               this
               Covenant
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               to
               pray
               so
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               I
               do
               well
               ,
               God
               will
               pardon
               all
               my
               sinnes
               :
               the
               Minister
               said
               no
               ;
               If
               you
               do
               all
               good
               ,
               as
               perfectly
               ,
               yet
               God
               will
               not
               pardon
               :
               God
               will
               pardon
               ,
               only
               
                 for
                 Iesus
                 Christ
                 his
                 sake
                 .
              
               Then
               I
               believed
               
                 Iesus
                 Christ
                 was
                 both
                 God
                 and
                 man
                 ,
                 and
                 made
                 peace
                 betwixt
                 God
                 and
                 man
                 :
                 Christ
              
               did
               for
               us
               
                 all
                 the
                 Commandments
                 of
                 God
                 ,
                 and
                 died
                 for
                 us
                 ,
                 he
                 payed
                 death
                 for
                 us
                 ;
              
               and
               therefore
               for
               his
               sake
               God
               will
               pardon
               us
               ,
               if
               we
               believe
               in
               Christ
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               which
               Mat.
               7.
               
               
                 Ask
                 and
                 ye
                 shall
                 have
                 ,
                 seek
                 and
                 ye
                 shall
                 find
                 ,
                 knock
                 ,
                 and
                 it
                 shall
                 be
                 opened
                 ,
                 &c.
                 
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               and
               knock
               at
               heaven
               dore
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               that
               word
               ,
               
                 Enter
                 in
                 at
                 the
                 streight
                 gate
                 ,
                 &c.
                 
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               Sure
               it
               is
               so
               ,
               
                 narrow
                 and
                 hard
                 is
                 the
                 way
                 to
                 Heaven
                 ,
                 broad
                 and
                 easy
                 is
                 the
                 way
                 to
                 hell
                 ;
              
               I
               desire
               to
               walk
               in
               the
               narrow
               way
               to
               heaven
               .
               Again
               ,
               
                 Christ
                 died
                 for
                 us
                 ,
              
               and
               thereby
               saveth
               us
               ;
               and
               saith
               ,
               
                 Come
                 to
                 me
                 all
                 that
                 are
                 weary
                 ,
                 and
                 I
                 will
                 give
                 you
                 rest
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Great
               is
               my
               weariness
               ,
               for
               many
               are
               my
               sinnes
               ,
               and
               I
               desire
               rest
               in
               Christ
               .
               I
               heard
               that
               Christ
               only
               is
               our
               redeemer
               and
               Saviour
               ,
               my
               heart
               did
               much
               joy
               in
               it
               ;
               and
               I
               desired
               to
               pray
               and
               heare
               the
               Word
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Another
               Word
               of
               Christ
               I
               heard
               ,
               
                 Whoever
                 forsaketh
                 father
                 or
                 mother
                 ,
                 or
                 brother
                 or
                 lands
                 for
                 my
                 sake
                 ,
                 &c.
                 
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               ô
               Lord
               let
               it
               be
               so
               ,
               I
               have
               for
               Christ
               his
               sake
               left
               all
               ,
               and
               come
               to
               pray
               .
               And
               I
               desire
               now
               to
               confess
               before
               the
               Church
               of
               
                 Roxbury
                 ,
              
               and
               do
               submit
               to
               your
               government
               ,
               and
               Gods
               Ordinances
               among
               you
               .
               He
               was
               going
               on
               ,
               but
               
               shortness
               of
               time
               made
               me
               take
               him
               off
               .
               When
               I
               had
               read
               this
               confession
               ,
               and
               the
               witnesses
               had
               spoke
               as
               before
               ,
               some
               of
               the
               Elders
               present
               ,
               did
               move
               that
               seeing
               there
               be
               two
               more
               to
               speak
               ,
               and
               the
               time
               streight
               ;
               and
               seeing
               Mr
               
                 Peirson
              
               had
               in
               private
               taken
               in
               writing
               their
               confessions
               ,
               which
               they
               perceived
               by
               his
               testimony
               ,
               to
               be
               for
               substance
               the
               same
               which
               they
               expressed
               in
               publick
               ;
               What
               if
               the
               Assembly
               should
               heare
               Mr
               
                 Peirson
              
               read
               those
               two
               remaining
               confessions
               ,
               according
               as
               he
               had
               taken
               them
               ?
               The
               motion
               was
               acceptable
               to
               the
               Assembly
               ,
               and
               he
               did
               read
               them
               ,
               which
               are
               as
               followeth
               .
            
          
           
             
               Piumbuhhou
               .
            
             
               First
               ,
               THis
               I
               say
               in
               the
               presence
               of
               God
               ,
               and
               in
               your
               presence
               ,
               Verily
               I
               knew
               not
               how
               or
               what
               to
               confess
               or
               God
               ,
               before
               I
               prayed
               .
               I
               knew
               not
               who
               gave
               me
               life
               and
               being
               ,
               but
               I
               thought
               my
               life
               was
               of
               my self
               .
               I
               confess
               I
               was
               born
               in
               sin
               ,
               my
               Parents
               were
               sinners
               ,
               and
               I
               thought
               I
               had
               life
               from
               none
               but
               my
               Parents
               ,
               therefore
               my
               sins
               were
               very
               great
               :
               from
               the
               first
               time
               that
               I
               saw
               light
               ,
               untill
               this
               day
               ,
               I
               do
               nothing
               else
               but
               sin
               ;
               hard
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               proud
               is
               my
               heart
               ,
               and
               hypocriticall
               :
               I
               do
               hypocriticall
               acts
               ,
               to
               this
               day
               .
               I
               act
               foolishly
               ,
               and
               deceitfully
               ;
               therefore
               so
               many
               are
               my
               sinnes
               ,
               that
               I
               am
               not
               able
               to
               express
               them
               ;
               only
               this
               I
               say
               ,
               that
               I
               am
               naught
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               that
               
                 Waban
              
               prayed
               ,
               and
               they
               said
               to
               me
               ,
               pray
               to
               God
               :
               but
               I
               hated
               it
               ,
               for
               I
               had
               a
               wife
               ,
               and
               many
               children
               ,
               and
               therefore
               
               I
               cared
               not
               for
               praying
               .
               I
               thought
               if
               they
               were
               any
               of
               them
               sick
               ,
               the
               
                 Pauwaus
              
               could
               make
               them
               well
               ,
               therefore
               I
               believed
               not
               
                 Waban
                 ,
              
               when
               he
               exhorted
               me
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               .
               Then
               my
               wife
               and
               children
               died
               :
               then
               my
               afflicted
               poore
               heart
               came
               in
               ,
               and
               the
               Minister
               came
               to
               me
               and
               said
               ,
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               because
               
                 God
                 afflicteth
                 and
                 tryeth
                 you
                 ;
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               when
               the
               Minister
               spake
               to
               me
               ,
               let
               it
               be
               as
               you
               say
               ,
               that
               God
               may
               shew
               me
               that
               mercy
               :
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               from
               henceforth
               ,
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Then
               I
               heard
               the
               Minister
               Preach
               of
               the
               great
               works
               of
               God
               ,
               
                 in
                 making
                 Heaven
                 and
                 Earth
                 ,
              
               and
               therefore
               fear
               the
               great
               punishments
               of
               God
               ;
               and
               because
               my
               heart
               so
               feared
               ,
               and
               condemned
               me
               ,
               therefore
               I
               did
               believe
               that
               God
               is
               ,
               who
               had
               punished
               me
               ,
               and
               took
               away
               my
               children
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               from
               Mat.
               5.
               
               
                 Christ
              
               saith
               ,
               
                 Blessed
                 are
                 the
                 poore
                 in
                 spirit
                 ,
                 for
                 theirs
                 is
                 the
                 Kingdome
                 of
                 God
                 :
                 and
                 blessed
                 are
                 the
                 mercifull
                 ,
                 for
                 they
                 shall
                 find
                 mercy
                 ;
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               am
               a
               poore
               man
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               so
               long
               as
               I
               live
               :
               and
               I
               desire
               to
               find
               mercy
               with
               God
               .
               Again
               ,
               now
               my
               heart
               saith
               ,
               I
               am
               weak
               and
               doubting
               ,
               and
               full
               of
               misbelief
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               which
               saith
               ,
               
                 Come
                 unto
                 me
                 all
                 yee
                 that
                 are
                 weary
                 and
                 heavy
                 laden
                 ,
                 and
                 yee
                 shall
                 find
                 rest
                 ;
              
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               be
               it
               so
               O
               Lord
               :
               and
               now
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ;
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               surely
               I
               am
               greatly
               laden
               with
               many
               ,
               and
               great
               sins
               :
               and
               therefore
               I
               will
               go
               to
               Christ
               ,
               and
               pray
               unto
               him
               ,
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Again
               ,
               Christ
               saith
               ,
               
                 Take
                 up
                 my
                 hurden
                 ,
                 and
                 learne
                 of
                 me
                 ,
                 for
                 I
                 am
                 humble
                 and
                 meeke
                 ;
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               surely
               I
               am
               a
               great
               sinner
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               learne
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               to
               follow
               him
               .
               Again
               
               Christ
               faith
               ,
               
                 Yee
                 shall
                 find
                 rest
                 to
                 your
                 soul
                 ;
              
               and
               therefore
               my
               soul
               desired
               to
               pray
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               find
               rest
               to
               my
               soul
               in
               Christ
               .
               Again
               ,
               my
               heart
               did
               gladly
               hear
               the
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               and
               the
               great
               redemption
               of
               Christ
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               learned
               in
               a
               Catechism
               ,
               that
               Christ
               sendeth
               his
               Spirit
               into
               my
               heart
               ,
               to
               break
               it
               ,
               to
               make
               it
               repent
               ,
               to
               convert
               me
               ,
               to
               cause
               me
               to
               believe
               :
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               pray
               to
               God
               ,
               and
               to
               believe
               for
               pardon
               ,
               and
               adoption
               ,
               and
               peace
               with
               God
               .
               Then
               hearing
               of
               the
               mercy
               of
               Christ
               ,
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               am
               like
               a
               dead
               man
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               desire
               to
               be
               with
               Christ
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               :
               my
               heart
               did
               not
               know
               how
               to
               Convert
               ,
               and
               turn
               to
               God
               ,
               therefore
               my
               heart
               did
               gladly
               pray
               to
               God
               for
               it
               ;
               my
               heart
               did
               desire
               to
               pray
               ,
               because
               I
               heard
               ,
               Christ
               is
               our
               redeemer
               ,
               and
               doth
               deliver
               our
               soules
               .
               I
               cannot
               deliver
               my selfe
               ,
               therefore
               I
               desire
               that
               Christ
               may
               be
               my
               deliverer
               :
               therefore
               I
               betrust
               my
               soul
               with
               Christ
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ;
               and
               because
               Christ
               is
               my
               mercifull
               God
               ,
               therefore
               let
               him
               do
               with
               my
               soul
               what
               he
               will
               .
            
             
             
               
                 When
                 Mr
                 Peirson
                 had
                 read
                 this
                 Confession
                 ,
                 he
                 was
                 desired
                 to
                 go
                 on
                 ,
                 and
                 read
                 the
                 last
                 ,
                 which
                 was
                 Wabans
                 Confession
                 ,
                 and
                 is
                 as
                 followeth
                 .
              
            
          
           
             
               Waban
               .
            
             
               First
               ,
               I
               Confess
               ,
               that
               before
               I
               prayed
               ,
               it
               was
               hard
               to
               love
               another
               fashion
               then
               my
               old
               course
               :
               my
               Parents
               were
               sinners
               ,
               and
               in
               my
               Mothers
               belly
               I
               was
               in
               sin
               :
               after
               I
               was
               born
               ,
               the
               same
               way
               of
               sin
               I
               followed
               .
               When
               I
               was
               a
               child
               I
               grew
               up
               in
               sin
               ,
               and
               I
               did
               not
               know
               that
               they
               were
               sins
               ,
               but
               now
               of
               late
               I
               know
               them
               ;
               in
               my
               youth
               also
               ,
               in
               the
               same
               sins
               I
               lived
               ,
               and
               did
               not
               know
               them
               to
               be
               so
               ,
               but
               by
               the
               remebrance
               of
               my
               waies
               ,
               I
               do
               remember
               my
               sins
               ,
               and
               hereby
               I
               am
               made
               to
               understand
               ,
               that
               my
               Parents
               taught
               me
               to
               love
               sin
               .
               And
               after
               they
               were
               dead
               ,
               others
               taught
               me
               to
               sin
               :
               I
               liked
               to
               be
               taught
               to
               commit
               sin
               ;
               those
               that
               taught
               me
               ,
               said
               to
               me
               ,
               Choose
               to
               be
               a
               Pauwau
               :
               they
               said
               ,
               If
               you
               be
               a
               Pauwau
               ,
               you
               may
               make
               others
               to
               live
               ;
               and
               if
               you
               he
               a
               Pauwau
               ,
               God
               will
               blesse
               you
               ,
               and
               make
               you
               rich
               ,
               and
               a
               man
               like
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               desired
               so
               to
               do
               :
               also
               I
               alwaies
               desired
               other
               sins
               ,
               for
               my
               heart
               did
               desire
               to
               grow
               up
               in
               those
               sins
               ,
               alwaies
               lust
               I
               desired
               ,
               alwaies
               my
               heart
               labored
               and
               desired
               to
               know
               how
               to
               adde
               to
               ,
               and
               to
               multiply
               my
               sins
               .
               Thus
               it
               came
               to
               pass
               that
               I
               knew
               abundance
               
               of
               sins
               ,
               before
               I
               knew
               my
               waies
               were
               sin
               .
               When
               the
               English
               came
               hither
               ,
               they
               said
               ,
               when
               I
               came
               to
               the
               Englist
               houses
               ,
               that
               I
               loved
               the
               Devil
               :
               then
               I
               was
               very
               angry
               ,
               and
               my
               words
               were
               ,
               You
               know
               the
               Devil
               :
               I
               do
               not
               know
               the
               Devil
               ,
               and
               presently
               I
               would
               go
               out
               of
               the
               house
               :
               Sometime
               they
               spake
               meekly
               to
               me
               ,
               and
               would
               say
               ,
               God
               is
               in
               heaven
               ,
               and
               he
               is
               a
               good
               God
               :
               yet
               I
               regarded
               not
               these
               words
               ,
               but
               strongly
               I
               loved
               my
               sins
               :
               it
               was
               hard
               for
               me
               to
               believe
               what
               the
               English
               said
               :
               after
               many
               yeares
               ,
               I
               sometime
               believed
               a
               word
               ,
               but
               I
               left
               not
               my
               sin
               .
               When
               I
               began
               to
               understand
               more
               ,
               I
               began
               to
               doubt
               ,
               but
               I
               desired
               not
               Conversion
               from
               sin
               .
               Afterward
               ,
               when
               the
               English
               taught
               me
               ,
               I
               would
               sit
               still
               ,
               because
               they
               would
               give
               me
               good
               victuals
               ;
               then
               I
               sometimes
               thought
               ,
               certainly
               God
               is
               in
               heaven
               :
               then
               my
               thoughts
               said
               ,
               It
               may
               be
               I
               have
               sinned
               .
            
             
               Again
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               I
               prayed
               ,
               God
               could
               not
               understand
               mee
               ;
               then
               I
               found
               it
               hard
               to
               believe
               ,
               and
               love
               God
               ,
               because
               I
               was
               almost
               an
               old
               man
               ,
               because
               I
               thought
               ,
               if
               any
               could
               read
               the
               book
               ,
               he
               would
               love
               God
               .
               I
               asked
               Mr
               
                 Iackson
                 ,
              
               Whether
               God
               knew
               our
               language
               ?
               Hee
               answered
               ,
               Yea
               :
               God
               knoweth
               all
               languages
               in
               the
               world
               ,
               and
               therefore
               now
               pray
               unto
               God
               ;
               then
               I
               first
               thought
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               unto
               God
               ;
               a
               little
               I
               thought
               of
               praying
               ;
               sometimes
               I
               would
               a
               little
               pray
               when
               I
               eat
               ;
               about
               that
               time
               you
               came
               to
               teach
               us
               ;
               then
               I
               remembred
               the
               Word
               ,
               
                 Glad
                 tidings
                 was
                 sent
                 us
                 from
                 Heaven
                 ;
              
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Now
               I
               will
               pray
               ,
               because
               the
               Minister
               is
               come
               to
               my
               house
               ,
               now
               I
               heard
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Then
               you
               called
               the
               Children
               to
               Catechism
               :
               and
               one
               question
               
               is
               ,
               
                 Who
                 redeemed
                 you
                 ?
              
               then
               you
               taught
               ,
               that
               
                 Christ
                 died
                 for
                 our
                 sinnes
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               thought
               ,
               that
               Christ
               is
               a
               very
               great
               life-giving
               God
               .
               Then
               I
               feared
               not
               Pauwaus
               ,
               nor
               loved
               them
               ;
               and
               the
               Minister
               taught
               ,
               that
               we
               must
               take
               heed
               of
               all
               these
               sins
               .
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               leave
               off
               my
               sins
               ;
               and
               again
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               as
               long
               as
               I
               live
               .
               Further
               you
               taught
               ,
               that
               
                 Christ
                 died
                 for
                 sin
                 ,
                 was
                 buryed
                 ,
                 rose
                 again
                 ,
                 ascended
                 :
              
               then
               my
               heart
               hoped
               and
               desired
               ,
               Oh
               that
               it
               might
               be
               so
               ,
               that
               I
               might
               have
               eternall
               life
               by
               Christ
               ,
               because
               Christ
               is
               a
               great
               life-giving
               God
               .
               But
               then
               I
               found
               that
               I
               did
               not
               understand
               right
               words
               ,
               and
               therefore
               I
               walked
               not
               in
               the
               right
               way
               :
               when
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               said
               ,
               
                 Six
                 daies
                 shalt
                 thou
                 labour
                 ,
              
               then
               I
               was
               strong
               ,
               yet
               I
               did
               not
               labour
               ;
               and
               I
               was
               soon
               weary
               of
               praying
               to
               God
               :
               and
               therefore
               I
               saw
               ,
               I
               found
               not
               the
               right
               way
               unto
               righteousness
               ;
               therefore
               now
               I
               verily
               see
               that
               I
               am
               a
               sinner
               ,
               and
               did
               not
               believe
               :
               my
               heart
               feared
               because
               of
               my
               great
               sins
               ,
               and
               my
               heart
               feareth
               that
               I
               do
               not
               yet
               much
               know
               the
               Word
               of
               God
               .
               Sometime
               my
               heart
               saith
               I
               believe
               ,
               I
               am
               a
               believer
               :
               but
               my
               heart
               wandereth
               away
               ,
               and
               the
               deceits
               of
               my
               heart
               I
               sometime
               know
               ,
               and
               my
               poverty
               I
               know
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               careth
               not
               for
               that
               ;
               I
               reject
               riches
               ,
               but
               my
               heart
               saith
               strongly
               ,
               I
               will
               pray
               to
               God
               so
               long
               as
               I
               live
               ;
               I
               do
               not
               throughly
               know
               the
               vanity
               of
               my
               mind
               .
               I
               have
               heard
               the
               Word
               but
               believed
               it
               not
               .
               I
               remember
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               the
               
                 Pharisees
              
               said
               ,
               
                 Why
                 doth
                 you
                 Master
                 eat
                 with
                 Publicans
                 and
                 sinners
                 :
              
               Christ
               said
               ,
               
                 Those
                 that
                 are
                 not
                 sick
                 need
                 not
                 the
                 Physitian
                 ,
                 but
                 they
                 that
                 are
                 sick
                 .
              
               My
               heart
               said
               ,
               sure
               I
               do
               not
               need
               the
               Physitian
               :
               but
               my
               desire
               is
               now
               ,
               that
               
               I
               may
               need
               him
               ,
               and
               spirituall
               life
               by
               him
               .
               Again
               ,
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               of
               Christ
               ,
               
                 A
                 leper
                 came
                 to
                 Christ
                 ,
                 and
                 worshiped
                 him
                 ,
                 saying
                 ,
                 Lord
                 if
                 thou
                 wilt
                 ,
                 thou
                 canst
                 make
                 me
                 cleane
                 :
                 and
                 Christ
                 touched
                 him
                 ,
                 and
                 he
                 was
                 perfectly
                 healed
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               that
               outward
               healing
               which
               he
               had
               ,
               my
               soul
               desireth
               ,
               that
               I
               may
               have
               it
               in
               my
               soul
               :
               for
               Christ
               healeth
               the
               outward
               diseases
               of
               the
               body
               ,
               but
               especially
               the
               inward
               filth
               of
               the
               soul
               ;
               this
               I
               desire
               may
               be
               healed
               .
               Again
               I
               heard
               that
               Word
               ,
               go
               learn
               what
               that
               meaneth
               ,
               
                 I
                 desire
                 mercy
                 and
                 not
                 sacrifice
                 :
                 I
                 came
                 not
                 to
                 call
                 the
                 righteous
                 ,
                 but
                 sinners
                 to
                 repentance
                 .
              
               Then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               my
               own
               righteousness
               cannot
               obtain
               mercy
               for
               me
               ;
               then
               my
               heart
               said
               ,
               Oh
               I
               fear
               that
               Christ
               the
               truest
               righteousness
               is
               not
               in
               my
               heart
               :
               I
               am
               almost
               ready
               to
               die
               ;
               and
               now
               I
               desire
               to
               know
               Christ
               .
            
          
        
         
           
             WHen
             Mr
             
               Peirson
            
             had
             done
             reading
             these
             two
             last
             Confessions
             .
             Mr
             
               Wilson
            
             spake
             to
             this
             purpose
             ,
             though
             they
             have
             all
             spoken
             well
             of
             Jesus
             Christ
             ,
             in
             their
             Confessions
             ,
             and
             especially
             the
             last
             viz
             :
             
               Monotunkani●
               ,
            
             yet
             he
             desired
             further
             to
             heare
             how
             they
             were
             instructed
             in
             the
             knowledge
             of
             Christ
             .
             This
             question
             touching
             Christ
             ,
             I
             called
             
               Piumbathou
            
             to
             answer
             ,
             and
             his
             answer
             was
             to
             satisfaction
             :
             and
             then
             many
             other
             Catecheticall
             questions
             were
             propounded
             ,
             which
             would
             be
             too
             long
             to
             rehearse
             ,
             as
             touching
             Grace
             ,
             Ordinances
             ,
             Sacraments
             ,
             Baptisme
             and
             the
             Lords
             Supper
             :
             about
             Repentance
             and
             Faith
             ,
             all
             which
             they
             readily
             answered
             ,
             &
             so
             as
             that
             there
             was
             no
             reply
             .
             
             
               Nish●hko●
               ,
            
             answered
             the
             question
             what
             Faith
             is
             ,
             Mr
             
               Allin
            
             asked
             him
             ,
             whether
             he
             had
             that
             Faith
             in
             his
             heart
             ,
             which
             he
             now
             spake
             off
             ;
             to
             which
             after
             a
             pause
             ,
             he
             answered
             to
             this
             purpose
             ,
             that
             he
             feared
             himself
             about
             it
             ,
             and
             if
             he
             spake
             ,
             he
             must
             say
             no!
             but
             he
             hoped
             in
             the
             Lords
             mercy
             that
             he
             would
             work
             it
             in
             him
             ,
             and
             help
             him
             to
             believe
             .
          
           
             Then
             Mr
             
               Danforth
            
             said
             ,
             I
             ask
             you
             
               Nishohkou
            
             this
             question
             ,
             and
             answer
             me
             in
             English
             whether
             the
             same
             lusts
             which
             you
             have
             so
             much
             confessed
             ,
             do
             not
             follow
             you
             still
             ;
             and
             what
             you
             do
             to
             resist
             them
             ?
             I
             said
             that
             a
             question
             to
             the
             like
             purpose
             was
             asked
             him
             ,
             when
             he
             made
             Confession
             in
             private
             ,
             to
             which
             he
             answered
             in
             broken
             English
             ,
             if
             the
             Assembly
             pleased
             I
             would
             read
             that
             :
             but
             he
             was
             desired
             to
             answer
             now
             ,
             and
             his
             answer
             was
             to
             this
             purpose
             ;
             that
             the
             Word
             of
             God
             is
             all
             one
             like
             a
             sword
             :
             and
             he
             did
             with
             that
             ,
             resist
             his
             temptations
             .
             He
             was
             asked
             further
             ,
             if
             he
             did
             diligently
             watch
             against
             his
             sins
             :
             he
             answered
             ,
             he
             did
             not
             well
             know
             what
             a
             diligent
             watch
             is
             ,
             but
             he
             hoped
             that
             Jesus
             Christ
             would
             keep
             him
             .
          
           
             Then
             Mr
             
               Danforth
            
             called
             
               Anthony
            
             and
             asked
             him
             ,
             whether
             he
             believed
             that
             it
             was
             the
             duty
             of
             men
             to
             labour
             six
             daies
             in
             the
             week
             ?
             After
             a
             pause
             ,
             he
             answered
             ,
             he
             believed
             it
             was
             Gods
             command
             ,
             but
             he
             confessed
             he
             did
             not
             obey
             it
             so
             much
             as
             he
             ought
             to
             do
             ;
             and
             saith
             Mr
             
               Danforth
               ,
            
             that
             I
             would
             have
             asked
             you
             next
             ,
             whether
             you
             obey
             it
             ,
             for
             you
             ought
             to
             do
             so
             ;
             and
             follow
             labour
             ,
             and
             cloath
             your selfe
             and
             family
             better
             ,
             and
             you
             ought
             to
             give
             towards
             the
             maintenance
             of
             Gods
             Ordinances
             .
             After
             this
             I
             remember
             no
             more
             questions
             .
          
           
           
             Then
             I
             declared
             to
             the
             Congregation
             ,
             that
             they
             having
             heard
             their
             Confessions
             ;
             if
             they
             thought
             meet
             ,
             they
             might
             hear
             what
             testimonies
             we
             have
             to
             produce
             touching
             their
             Conversation
             ,
             but
             it
             went
             not
             forward
             ,
             and
             so
             we
             ceased
             the
             work
             ,
             and
             Reverend
             Mr
             
               Wilson
            
             concluded
             with
             prayer
             .
             After
             the
             publick
             meeting
             ,
             the
             messengers
             of
             the
             Churches
             met
             together
             ,
             and
             considered
             what
             answer
             to
             give
             to
             our
             Church
             :
             and
             the
             vote
             among
             them
             all
             was
             ,
             that
             as
             touching
             their
             Confessions
             ,
             which
             was
             the
             work
             of
             the
             day
             ,
             they
             were
             satisfactory
             ,
             and
             they
             appeared
             in
             that
             respect
             ,
             to
             be
             fit
             matter
             for
             Church
             estate
             .
          
           
             The
             End
          
        
      
    
     
       
       
         
           THese
           are
           to
           testify
           to
           all
           men
           whom
           it
           may
           concern
           ,
           That
           two
           of
           five
           
             Indian
          
           youths
           ,
           viz.
           
             Cales
          
           and
           
             Ioel
             ,
          
           that
           are
           instructed
           and
           educated
           in
           the
           Grammer
           School
           at
           
             Cambridge
             ,
          
           were
           publiquely
           examined
           at
           the
           Commencement
           in
           
             Cambridge
          
           (
           mon.
           6.
           9.
           59.
           
           )
           concerning
           their
           progress
           in
           the
           learning
           of
           the
           Latine
           Tongue
           ,
           out
           of
           
             Buchanans
          
           Translation
           of
           
             Davids
          
           Psalmes
           ,
           and
           they
           gave
           good
           satisfaction
           unto
           our selves
           ,
           and
           also
           to
           the
           Honorable
           Magistrates
           ,
           and
           Reverend
           Elders
           that
           were
           present
           ,
           and
           others
           that
           were
           judicious
           ,
           as
           we
           have
           had
           opportunity
           
           to
           inquire
           off
           :
           and
           we
           conceive
           ,
           that
           the
           other
           three
           
             Indian
          
           Youths
           ,
           that
           are
           trained
           up
           in
           the
           same
           School
           ,
           have
           made
           some
           competent
           proficiency
           ,
           for
           the
           short
           time
           that
           they
           have
           been
           with
           us
           :
           In
           witness
           whereof
           we
           have
           subscribed
           our
           hands
           .
        
         
           
             Camb.
             
               Sept.
               6.
               1659.
               
            
          
           
             
               Charles
               Chauncy
            
             Praesident
             of
             
               Haward
            
             Colledge
             in
             
               Cambridge
               .
               Elijah
               Corlet
            
             Londinensis
             olim
             &
             jam
             Ludimagister
             Cantabrigiensis
             .
          
        
         
         
         
      
       
         Notes, typically marginal, from the original text
         
           Notes for div A39226e-650
           
             [
             Note
             here
             that
             God
             hath
             so
             blessed
             this
             youth
             ,
             that
             hee
             is
             one
             of
             our
             School-masters
             ,
             and
             an
             hopefull
             young
             man
             .
             ]