CHAPTER I: THE STABLE YARD
It was one of those exquisite days that come in every winter, in
which it seems no longer the dead body, but the lovely ghost of
summer. Such a day bears to its sister of the happier time something
of the relation the marble statue bears to the living form; the
sense it awakes of beauty is more abstract, more ethereal; it lifts
the soul into a higher region than will summer day of lordliest
splendour. It is like the love that loss has purified.
Such, however, were not the thoughts that at the moment occupied
the mind of Malcolm Colonsay. Indeed, the loveliness of the morning
was but partially visible from the spot where he stood--the stable
yard of Lossie House, ancient and roughly paved. It was a hundred
years since the stones had been last relaid and levelled: none of
the horses of the late Marquis minded it but one--her whom the
young man in Highland dress was now grooming--and she would have
fidgeted had it been an oak floor. The yard was a long and wide
space, with two storied buildings on all sides of it. In the centre
of one of them rose the clock, and the morning sun shone red on
its tarnished gold. It was an ancient clock, but still capable of
keeping good time--good enough, at least, for all the requirements
of the house, even when the family was at home, seeing it never
stopped, and the church clock was always ordered by it.
It not only set the time, but seemed also to set the fashion of
the place, for the whole aspect of it was one of wholesome, weather
beaten, time worn existence. One of the good things that accompany
good blood is that its possessor does not much mind a shabby coat.
Tarnish and lichens and water wearing, a wavy house ridge, and
a few families of worms in the wainscot do not annoy the marquis
as they do the city man who has just bought a little place in the
country. When an old family ceases to go lovingly with nature, I
see no reason why it should go any longer. An old tree is venerable,
and an old picture precious to the soul, but an old house, on which
has been laid none but loving and respectful hands, is dear to the
very heart. Even an old barn door, with the carved initials of hinds
and maidens of vanished centuries, has a place of honour in the
cabinet of the poet's brain. It was centuries since Lossie House
had begun to grow shabby--and beautiful; and he to whom it now
belonged was not one to discard the reverend for the neat, or let
the vanity of possession interfere with the grandeur of inheritance.
Beneath the tarnished gold of the clock, flushed with the red
winter sun, he was at this moment grooming the coat of a powerful
black mare. That he had not been brought up a groom was pretty
evident from the fact that he was not hissing; but that he was
Marquis of Lossie there was nothing about him to show. The mare
looked dangerous. Every now and then she cast back a white glance
of the one visible eye. But the youth was on his guard, and as wary
as fearless in his handling of her. When at length he had finished
the toilet which her restlessness--for her four feet were never
all still at once upon the stones--had considerably protracted,
he took from his pocket a lump of sugar, and held it for her to
bite at with her angry looking teeth.
It was a keen frost, but in the sun the icicles had begun to drop.
The roofs in the shadow were covered with hoar frost; wherever
there was shadow there was whiteness. But for all the cold, there
was keen life in the air, and yet keener life in the two animals,
biped and quadruped.
As they thus stood, the one trying to sweeten the other's relation
to himself, if he could not hope much for her general temper, a
man, who looked half farmer, half lawyer, appeared on the opposite
side of the court in the shadow.
"You are spoiling that mare, MacPhail," he cried.
"I canna weel du that, sir; she canna be muckle waur," said the
youth.
"It's whip and spur she wants, not sugar."
"She has had, and sail have baith, time aboot (in turn); and I houp
they'll du something for her in time, sir."
"Her time shall be short here, anyhow. She's not worth the sugar
you give her."
"Eh, sir! luik at her," said Malcolm, in a tone of expostulation,
as he stepped back a few paces and regarded her with admiring eyes.
"Saw ye ever sic legs? an' sic a neck? an' sic a heid? an' sic fore
an' hin' quarters? She's a' bonny but the temper o' her, an' that
she canna help like the likes o' you an me."
"She'll be the death o' somebody some day. The sooner we get rid
of her the better. Just look at that," he added, as the mare laid
back her ears and made a vicious snap at nothing in particular.
"She was a favourite o' my--maister, the marquis," returned the
youth, "an' I wad ill like to pairt wi' her."
"I'll take any offer in reason for her," said the factor. "You'll
just ride her to Forres market next week, and see what you can get
for her. I do think she's quieter since you took her in hand."
"I'm sure she is--but it winna laist a day. The moment I lea'
her, she'll be as ill's ever," said the youth. "She has a kin' a
likin' to me, 'cause I gi'e her sugar, an' she canna cast me; but
she's no a bit better i' the hert o' her yet. She's an oonsanctifeed
brute. I cudna think o' sellin' her like this."
"Lat them 'at buys tak' tent (beware)," said the factor.
"Ow ay! lat them; I dinna objec'; gien only they ken what she's
like afore they buy her," rejoined Malcolm.
The factor burst out laughing. To his judgment the youth had spoken
like an idiot.
"We'll not send you to sell," he said. "Stoat shall go with you,
and you shall have nothing to do but hold the mare and your own
tongue."
"Sir," said Malcolm, seriously, "ye dinna mean what ye say? Ye
said yersel' she wad be the deith o' somebody, an' to sell her ohn
tell't what she's like wad be to caw the saxt comman'ment clean to
shivers."
"That may be good doctrine i' the kirk, my lad, but it's pure heresy
i' the horse market. No, no! You buy a horse as you take a wife--
for better for worse, as the case may be. A woman's not bound to
tell her faults when a man wants to marry her. If she keeps off
the worst of them afterwards, it's all he has a right to look for."
"Hoot, sir! there's no a pair o' parallel lines in a' the
compairison," returned Malcolm. "Mistress Kelpie here 's e'en ower
ready to confess her fauts, an' that by giein' a taste o' them;
she winna bide to be speired; but for haudin' aff o' them efter the
bargain's made--ye ken she's no even responsible for the bargain.
An' gien ye expec' me to haud my tongue aboot them--faith,
Maister Crathie, I wad as sune think o' sellin' a rotten boat to
Blue Peter. Gien the man 'at has her to see tilt dinna ken to luik
oot for a storm o' iron shune or lang teeth ony moment, his wife
may be a widow that same market nicht: An' forbye, it's again' the
aucht comman'ment as weel's the saxt. There's nae exception there
in regaird o' horse flesh. We maun be honest i' that as weel's i'
corn or herrin', or onything ither 'at 's coft an' sell't atween
man an' his neibor."
"There's one commandment, my lad," said Mr Crathie, with the dignity
of intended rebuke, "you seem to find hard to learn, and that is,
to mind your own business."
"Gien ye mean catchin' the herrin', maybe ye're richt," said the
youth. "I ken muir aboot that nor the horse coupin', and it's full
cleaner."
"None of your impudence!" returned the factor. "The marquis is
not here to uphold you in your follies. That they amused him is no
reason why I should put up with them. So keep your tongue between
your teeth, or you'll find it the worse for you."
The youth smiled a little oddly, and held his peace.
"You're here to do what I tell you, and make no remarks," added
the factor.
"I'm awaur o' that, sir--within certain leemits," returned Malcolm.
"What do you mean by that?"
"I mean within the leemits o' duin' by yer neibor as ye wad ha'e
yer neibor du by you--that's what I mean, sir."
"I've told you already that doesn't apply in horse dealing.
Every man has to take care of himself in the horse market: that's
understood. If you had been brought up amongst horses instead of
herring, you would have known that as well as any other man."
"I doobt I'll ha'e to gang back to the herrin' than, sir, for they're
like to pruv' the honester o' the twa; But there's nae hypocrisy
in Kelpie, an' she maun ha'e her day's denner, come o' the morn's
what may."
At the word hypocrisy, Mr Crathie's face grew red as the sun in
a fog. He was an elder of the kirk, and had family worship every
night as regularly as his toddy. So the word was as offensive and
insolent as it was foolish and inapplicable. He would have turned
Malcolm adrift on the spot, but that he remembered--not the favour
of the late marquis for the lad--that was nothing to the factor
now: his lord under the mould was to him as if he had never been
above it--but the favour of the present marchioness, for all in
the house knew that she was interested in him. Choking down therefore
his rage and indignation, he said sternly;
"Malcolm, you have two enemies--a long tongue, and a strong
conceit. You have little enough to be proud of, my man, and the
less said the better. I advise you to mind what you're about, and
show suitable respect to your superiors, or as sure as judgment
you'll go back to fish guts."
While he spoke, Malcolm had been smoothing Kelpie all over with his
palms; the moment the factor ceased talking, he ceased stroking,
and with one arm thrown over the mare's back, looked him full in
the face.
"Gien ye imaigine, Maister Crathie," he said, "'at I coont it ony
rise i' the warl' 'at brings me un'er the orders o' a man less
honest than he micht be, ye're mista'en. I dinna think it's pride
this time; I wad ile Blue Peter's lang butes till him, but I winna
lee for ony factor atween this an' Davy Jones."
It was too much. Mr Crathie's feelings overcame him, and he was
a wrathful man to see, as he strode up to the youth with clenched
fist.
"Haud frae the mere, for God's sake, Maister Crathie," cried Malcolm.
But even as he spoke, two reversed Moorish arches of gleaming
iron opened on the terror quickened imagination of the factor
a threatened descent from which his most potent instinct, that of
self preservation, shrank in horror. He started back white with
dismay, having by a bare inch of space and a bare moment of time,
escaped what he called Eternity. Dazed with fear he turned and
had staggered halfway across the yard, as if going home, before he
recovered himself. Then he turned again, and with what dignity he
could scrape together said--"MacPhail, you go about your business."
In his foolish heart he believed Malcolm had made the brute strike
out.
"I canna weel gang till Stoat comes hame," answered Malcolm.
"If I see you about the place after sunset, I'll horsewhip you,"
said the factor, and walked away, showing the crown of his hat.
Malcolm again smiled oddly, but made no reply. He undid the mare's
halter, and took her into the stable. There he fed her, standing
by her all the time she ate, and not once taking his eyes off her.
His father, the late marquis, had bought her at the sale of the
stud of a neighbouring laird, whose whole being had been devoted
to horses, till the pale one came to fetch himself: the men about
the stable had drugged her, and, taken with the splendid lines of
the animal, nor seeing cause to doubt her temper as she quietly
obeyed the halter, he had bid for her, and, as he thought, had her
a great bargain. The accident that finally caused his death followed
immediately after, and while he was ill no one cared to vex him
by saying what she had turned out. But Malcolm had even then taken
her in hand in the hope of taming her a little before his master,
who often spoke of his latest purchase, should see her again. In
this he had very partially succeeded; but if only for the sake of
him whom he now knew for his father, nothing would have made him
part with the animal. Besides, he had been compelled to use her with
so much severity at times that he had grown attached to her from
the reaction of pity as well as from admiration of her physical
qualities, and the habitude of ministering to her wants and comforts.
The factor, who knew Malcolm only as a servant, had afterwards
allowed her to remain in his charge, merely in the hope, through
his treatment, of by and by selling her, as she had been bought,
for a faultless animal, but at a far better price.
CHAPTER II: THE LIBRARY
When she had finished her oats, Malcolm left her busy with her hay,
for she was a huge eater, and went into the house, passing through
the kitchen and ascending a spiral stone stair to the library--the
only room not now dismantled. As he went along the narrow passage
on the second floor leading to it from the head of the stair, the
housekeeper, Mrs Courthope, peeped after him from one of the many
bedrooms opening upon it, and watched him as he went, nodding her
head two or three times with decision: he reminded her so strongly
--not of his father, the last marquis, but the brother who had
preceded him, that she felt all but certain, whoever might be his
mother, he had as much of the Colonsay blood in his veins as any
marquis of them all. It was in consideration of this likeness that
Mr Crathie had permitted the youth, when his services were not
required, to read in the library.
Malcolm went straight to a certain corner, and from amongst a dingy
set of old classics took down a small Greek book, in large type.
It was the manual of that slave among slaves, that noble among the
free, Epictetus. He was no great Greek scholar, but, with the help
of the Latin translation, and the gloss of his own rath experience,
he could lay hold of the mind of that slave of a slave, whose very
slavery was his slave to carry him to the heights of freedom. It was
not Greek he cared for, but Epictetus. It was but little he read,
however, for the occurrence of the morning demanded, compelled
thought. Mr Crathie's behaviour caused him neither anger nor
uneasiness, but it rendered necessary some decision with regard to
the ordering of his future.
I can hardly say he recalled how, on his deathbed, the late marquis,
about three months before, having, with all needful observances,
acknowledged him his son, had committed to his trust the welfare
of his sister; for the memory of this charge was never absent from
his feeling even when not immediately present to his thought. But
although a charge which he would have taken upon him all the same
had his father not committed it to him, it was none the less a
source of perplexity upon which as yet all his thinking had let in
but little light. For to appear as Marquis of Lossie was not merely
to take from his sister the title she supposed her own, but to
declare her illegitimate, seeing that, unknown to the marquis, the
youth's mother, his first wife, was still alive when Florimel was
born. How to act so that as little evil as possible might befall
the favourite of his father, and one whom he had himself loved with
the devotion almost of a dog, before he knew she was his sister,
was the main problem.
For himself, he had had a rough education, and had enjoyed it: his
thoughts were not troubled about his own prospects. Mysteriously
committed to the care of a poor blind Highland piper, a stranger
from inland regions, settled amongst a fishing people, he had, as
he grew up, naturally fallen into their ways of life and labour,
and but lately abandoned the calling of a fisherman to take charge
of the marquis's yacht, whence, by degrees, he had, in his helpfulness,
grown indispensable to him and his daughter, and had come to live
in the house of Lossie as a privileged servant. His book education,
which he owed mainly to the friendship of the parish schoolmaster,
although nothing marvellous, or in Scotland very peculiar, had
opened for him in all directions doors of thought and inquiry, but
the desire of knowledge was in his case, again through the influences
of Mr Graham, subservient to an almost restless yearning after
the truth of things, a passion so rare that the ordinary mind can
hardly master even the fact of its existence.
The Marchioness of Lossie, as she was now called, for the family
was one of the two or three in Scotland in which the title descends
to an heiress, had left Lossie House almost immediately upon her
father's death, under the guardianship of a certain dowager countess.
Lady Bellair had taken her first to Edinburgh, and then to London.
Tidings of her Malcolm occasionally received through Mr Soutar of
Duff Harbour, the lawyer the marquis had employed to draw up the
papers substantiating the youth's claim. The last amounted to this,
that, as rapidly as the proprieties of mourning would permit, she
was circling the vortex of the London season; and Malcolm was now
almost in despair of ever being of the least service to her as
a brother to whom as a servant he had seemed at one time of daily
necessity. If he might but once be her skipper, her groom, her
attendant, he might then at least learn how to discover to her
the bond between them, without breaking it in the very act, and so
ruining the hope of service to follow.
CHAPTER III: MISS HORN
The door opened, and in walked a tall, gaunt, hard featured woman,
in a huge bonnet, trimmed with black ribbons, and a long black net
veil, worked over with sprigs, coming down almost to her waist. She
looked stern, determined, almost fierce, shook hands with a sort
of loose dissatisfaction, and dropped into one of the easy chairs
in which the library abounded. With the act the question seemed
shot from her--"Duv ye ca' yersel' an honest man, noo, Ma'colm?"
"I ca' myself naething," answered the youth; "but I wad fain be
what ye say, Miss Horn."
"Ow! I dinna doobt ye wadna steal, nor yet tell lees aboot a horse:
I ha'e jist come frae a sair waggin' o' tongues about ye. Mistress
Crathie tells me her man's in a sair vex 'at ye winna tell a wordless
lee aboot the black mere: that's what I ca't--no her. But lee it
wad be, an' dinna ye aither wag or haud a leein' tongue. A gentleman
maunna lee, no even by sayin' naething--na, no gien 't war to
win intill the kingdom. But, Guid be thankit, that's whaur leears
never come. Maybe ye're thinkin' I ha'e sma' occasion to say sic
like to yersel'. An' yet what's yer life but a lee, Ma'colm? You
'at's the honest Marquis o' Lossie to waur yer time an' the stren'th
o' yer boady an' the micht o' yer sowl tyauvin' (wrestling) wi' a
deevil o' a she horse, whan there's that half sister o' yer' ain
gauin' to the verra deevil o' perdition himsel' amang the godless
gentry o' Lon'on!"
"What wad ye ha'e me un'erstan' by that, Miss Horn?" returned
Malcolm. "I hear no ill o' her. I daursay she's no jist a sa'nt
yet, but that's no to be luiked for in ane o' the breed: they maun
a' try the warl' first ony gait. There's a heap o' fowk--an' no
aye the warst, maybe," continued Malcolm, thinking of his father,
"'at wull ha'e their bite o' the aipple afore they spite it oot.
But for my leddy sister, she's owre prood ever to disgrace hersel'."
"Weel, maybe, gien she bena misguidit by them she's wi'. But I'm
no sae muckle concernt aboot her. Only it's plain 'at ye ha'e no
richt to lead her intill temptation."
"Hoo am I temptin' at her, mem?"
"That's plain to half an e'e. Ir ye no lattin' her live believin'
a lee? Ir ye no allooin' her to gang on as gien she was somebody
mair nor mortal, when ye ken she's nae mair Marchioness o' Lossie
nor ye're the son o' auld Duncan MacPhail? Faith, ye ha'e lost
trowth gien ye ha'e gaint the warl' i' the cheenge o' forbeirs!"
"Mint at naething again the deid, mem. My father's gane till's
accoont; an it's weel for him he has his father an' no his sister
to pronoonce upo' him."
"'Deed ye're right there, laddie," said Miss Horn, in a subdued
tone.
"He's made it up wi' my mither afore noo, I'm thinkin'; an' ony
gait he confesst her his wife an' me her son afore he dee'd, an'
what mair had he time to du?"
"It's fac'," returned Miss Horn. "An' noo luik at yersel': what yer
father confesst wi' the verra deid thraw o' a labourin' speerit, to
the whilk naething cud ha'e broucht him but the deid thraws (death
struggles) o' the bodily natur' an' the fear o' hell, that same
confession ye row up again i' the cloot o' secrecy, in place o'
dightin' wi' 't the blot frae the memory o' ane wha I believe I
lo'ed mair as my third cousin nor ye du as yer ain mither!"
"There's no blot upo' her memory, mem," returned the youth, "or I
wad be markis the morn. There's never a sowl kens she was mither
but kens she was wife--ay, an' whase wife, tu."
Miss Horn had neither wish nor power to reply, and changed her
front.
"An' sae, Ma'colm Colonsay," she said, "ye ha'e no less nor made
up yer min' to pass yer days in yer ain stable, neither better nor
waur than an ostler at the Lossie Airms, an' that efter a' 'at I
ha'e borne an' dune to mak a gentleman o' ye, bairdin' yer father
here like a verra lion in 's den, an' garrin' him confess the thing
again' ilka hair upon the stiff neck o' 'im? Losh, laddie! it was
a pictur' to see him stan'in wi' 's back to the door like a camstairy
(obstinate) bullock!"
"Haud yer tongue, mem, gien ye please. I canna bide to hear my
father spoken o' like that. For ye see I lo'ed him afore I kent he
was ony drap 's blude to me."
"Weel, that's verra weel; but father an' mither's man and wife,
an' ye camna o' a father alane."
"That's true, mem, an' it canna be I sud ever forget yon face ye
shawed me i' the coffin, the bonniest, sairest sicht I ever saw,"
returned Malcolm, with a quaver in his voice.
"But what for cairry yer thouchts to the deid face o' her? Ye kent
the leevin' ane weel," objected Miss Horn.
"That's true, mem; but the deid face maist blottit the leevin' oot
o' my brain."
"I'm sorry for that.--Eh, laddie, but she was bonny to see!"
"I aye thoucht her the bonniest leddy I ever set e'e upo'. An' dinna
think, mem, I'm gaein to forget the deid, 'cause I'm mair concemt
aboot the leevin'. I tell ye I jist dinna ken what to du. What
wi' my father's deein' words committin' her to my chairge, an' the
more than regaird I ha'e to Leddy Florimel hersel', I'm jist whiles
driven to ane mair. Hoo can I tak the verra sunsheen oot o' her life
'at I lo'ed afore I kent she was my ain sister, an' jist thoucht
lang to win near eneuch till to du her ony guid turn worth duin? An'
here I am, her ane half brither, wi' naething i' my pooer but to
scaud the hert o' her, or else lee! Supposin' she was weel merried
first, hoo wad she stan' wi' her man whan he cam to ken 'at she
was nae marchioness--hed no lawfu' richt to ony name but her
mither's? An' afore that, what richt cud I ha'e to alloo ony man
to merry her ohn kent the trowth aboot her? Faith, it wad be a fine
chance though for the fin'in' oot whether or no the man was worthy
o' her! But, ye see that micht be to make a playock o' her hert.
Puir thing, she luiks doon upo' me frae the tap o' her bonny neck,
as frae a h'avenly heicht; but I s' lat her ken yet, gien only I
can win at the gait o' 't, that I ha'ena come nigh her for naething."
He gave a sigh with the words, and a pause followed.
"The trowth's the trowth," resumed Miss Horn, "neither mair nor
less."
"Ay," responded Malcolm; "but there's a richt an' a wrang time for
the telling' o' 't. It's no as gien I had had han' or tongue in
ony foregane lee. It was naething o' my duin', as ye ken, mem. To
mysel', I was never onything but a fisherman born. I confess 'at
whiles, when we wad be lyin' i' the lee o' the nets, tethered to
them like, wi' the win' blawin' strong 'an steady, I ha'e thocht
wi' mysel' 'at I kent naething aboot my father, an' what gien it
sud turn oot 'at I was the son o' somebody--what wad I du wi' my
siller?"
"An' what thoucht ye ye wad du, laddie?" asked Miss Horn gently.
"What but bigg a harbour at Scaurnose for the puir fisher fowk 'at
was like my ain flesh and blude!"
"Weel," rejoined Miss Horn eagerly, "div ye no look upo' that as a
voo to the Almichty--a voo 'at ye're bun' to pay, noo 'at ye ha'e
yer wuss? An' it's no merely 'at ye ha'e the means, but there's no
anither that has the richt; for they're yer ain fowk, 'at ye gaither
rent frae, an 'at's been for mony a generation sattlet upo' yer
lan'--though for the maitter o' the lan', they ha'e had little
mair o' that than the birds o' the rock ha'e ohn feued--an' them
honest fowks wi' wives an' sowls o' their ain! Hoo upo' airth are
ye to du yer duty by them, an' render yer accoont at the last,
gien ye dinna tak till ye yer pooer an' reign? Ilk man 'at 's in
ony sense a king o' men is bun' to reign ower them in that sense.
I ken little aboot things mysel', an' I ha'e no feelin's to guide
me, but I ha'e a wheen cowmon sense, an' that maun jist stan' for
the lave."
A silence followed.
"What for speak na ye, Ma'colm?" said Miss Horn, at length.
"I was jist tryin'," he answered, "to min' upon a twa lines 'at I
cam' upo' the ither day in a buik 'at Maister Graham gied me afore
he gaed awa--'cause I reckon he kent them a' by hert. They say
jist sic like's ye been sayin', mem--gien I cud but min' upo'
them. They're aboot a man 'at aye does the richt gait--made by
ane they ca' Wordsworth."
"I ken naething aboot him," said Miss Horn, with emphasized
indifference.
"An' I ken but little: I s' ken mair or lang though. This is hoo
the piece begins:
Who is the happy warrior? Who is he
That every Man in arms should wish to be?--
It is the generous Spirit, who, when brought
Among the tasks of real life, hath wrought
Upon the plan that pleased his childish thought.
--There! that's what ye wad hae o' me, mem!"
"Hear till him!" cried Miss Horn. "The man's i' the richt, though
naebody never h'ard o' 'im. Haud ye by that, Ma'colm, an' dinna ye
rist till ye ha'e biggit a harbour to the men an' women o' Scaurnose.
Wha kens hoo mony may gang to the boddom afore it be dune, jist
for the want o' 't?"
"The fundation maun be laid in richteousness, though, mem, else--
what gien 't war to save lives better lost?"
"That belangs to the Michty," said Miss Horn.
"Ay, but the layin' o' the fundation belangs to me. An' I'll no
du't till I can du't ohn ruint my sister."
"Weel, there's ae thing clear: ye'll never ken what to do sae lang's
ye hing on aboot a stable, fu' o' fower fittet animals wantin'
sense--an' some twa fittet 'at has less."
"I doobt ye're richt there, mem; and gien I cud but tak puir Kelpie
awa' wi' me--"
"Hoots! I'm affrontit wi ye. Kelpie--quo he! Preserve's a'! The
laad 'ill lat his ain sister gang, an' bide at hame wi' a mere!"
Malcolm held his peace.
"Ay, I'm thinkin' I maun gang," he said at length.
"Whaur till, than?" asked Miss Horn.
"Ow! to Lon'on--whaur ither?"
"And what'll yer lordship du there?"
"Dinna say lordship to me, mem, or I'll think ye're jeerin' at me.
What wad the caterpillar say," he added, with a laugh, "gien ye
ca'd her my leddie Psyche?"
Malcolm of course pronounced the Greek word in Scotch fashion.
"I ken naething aboot yer Seechies or yer Sukies," rejoined Miss
Horn. "I ken 'at ye're bun' to be a lord and no a stableman, an'
I s' no lat ye rist till ye up an' say what neist?"
"It's what I ha'e been sayin' for the last three month," said
Malcolm.
"Ay, I daursay; but ye ha'e been sayin' 't upo' the braid o' yer
back, and I wad ha'e ye up an' sayin' 't."
"Gien I but kent what to du!" said Malcolm, for the thousandth
time.
"Ye can at least gang whaur ye ha'e a chance o' learnin'," returned
his friend.--"Come an' tak yer supper wi' me the nicht--a
rizzart haddie an' an egg, an' I'll tell ye mair aboot yer mither."
But Malcolm avoided a promise, lest it should interfere with what
he might find best to do.
CHAPTER IV: KELPIE'S AIRING
When Miss Horn left him--with a farewell kindlier than her
greeting--rendered yet more restless by her talk, he went back
to the stable, saddled Kelpie, and took her out for an airing.
As he passed the factor's house, Mrs Crathie saw him from the
window. Her colour rose. She arose herself also, and looked after
him from the door--a proud and peevish woman, jealous of her
husband's dignity, still more jealous of her own.
"The verra image o' the auld markis!" she said to herself; for in
the recesses of her bosom she spoke the Scotch she scorned to utter
aloud; "and sits jist like himsel', wi' a wee stoop i' the saiddle,
and ilka noo an' than a swing o' his haill boady back, as gien some
thoucht had set him straught.--Gien the fractious brute wad but
brak a bane or twa o' him!" she went on in growing anger. "The
impidence o' the fallow! He has his leave: what for disna he tak'
it an' gang? But oot o' this gang he sail. To ca' a man like mine a
heepocreet 'cause he wadna procleem till a haul market ilka secret
fau't o' the horse he had to sell! Haith, he cam' upo' the wrang
side o' the sheet to play the lord and maister here! and that I
can tell him!"
The mare was fresh, and the roads through the policy hard both
by nature and by frost, so that he could not let her go, and had
enough to do with her. He turned, therefore, towards the sea gate,
and soon reached the shore. There, westward of the Seaton, where
the fisher folk lived, the sand lay smooth, flat, and wet along the
edge of the receding tide: he gave Kelpie the rein, and she sprang
into a wild gallop, every now and then flinging her heels as high
as her rider's head. But finding, as they approached the stony
part from which rose the great rock called the Bored Craig, that
he could not pull her up in time, he turned her head towards the
long dune of sand which, a little beyond the tide, ran parallel
with the shore. It was dry and loose, and the ascent steep. Kelpie's
hoofs sank at every step, and when she reached the top, with wide
spread struggling haunches, and "nostrils like pits full of blood
to the brim," he had her in hand. She stood panting, yet pawing
and dancing, and making the sand fly in all directions.
Suddenly a woman with a child in her arms rose, as it seemed to
Malcolm, under Kelpie's very head. She wheeled and reared, and,
in wrath or in terror, strained every nerve to unseat her rider,
while, whether from faith or despair, the woman stood still as a
statue, staring at the struggle.
"Haud awa' a bit, Lizzy," cried Malcolm. "She's a mad brute, an'
I mayna be able to haud her. Ye ha'e the bairnie, ye see!"
She was a young woman, with a sad white face. To what Malcolm said
she paid no heed, but stood with her child in her arms and gazed
at Kelpie as she went on plunging and kicking about on the top of
the dune.
"I reckon ye wadna care though the she deevil knockit oot yer harns;
but ye ha'e the bairn, woman! Ha'e mercy on the bairn, an' rin
to the boddom."
"I want to speak to ye, Ma'colm MacPhail," she said, in a tone
whose very stillness revealed a depth of trouble.
"I doobt I canna hearken to ye richt the noo," said Malcolm. "But
bide a wee." He swung himself from Kelpie's back, and, hanging hard
on the bit with one hand, searched with the other in the pocket of
his coat, saying, as he did so--"Sugar, Kelpie! sugar!"
The animal gave an eager snort, settled on her feet, and began
snuffing about him. He made haste, for, if her eagerness should
turn to impatience, she would do her endeavour to bite him. After
crunching three or four lumps, she stood pretty quiet, and Malcolm
must make the best of what time she would give him.
"Noo, Lizzy!" he said hurriedly. "Speyk while ye can."
"Ma'colm," said the girl, and looked him full in the face for a
moment, for agony had overcome shame; then her gaze sought the far
horizon, which to seafaring people is as the hills whence cometh
their aid to the people who dwell among mountains; "--Ma'colm,
he's gaein' to merry Leddy Florimel."
Malcolm started. Could the girl have learned more concerning his
sister than had yet reached himself? A fine watching over her was
his, truly! But who was this he?
Lizzy had never uttered the name of the father of her child, and
all her people knew was that he could not be a fisherman, for then
he would have married her before the child was born. But Malcolm
had had a suspicion from the first, and now her words all but
confirmed it.--And was that fellow going to marry his sister? He
turned white with dismay--then red with anger, and stood speechless.
But he was quickly brought to himself by a sharp pinch under the
shoulder blade from Kelpie's long teeth: he had forgotten her, and
she had taken the advantage.
"Wha tellt ye that, Lizzy?" he said.
"I'm no at leeberty to say, Ma'colm, but I'm sure it's true, an'
my hert's like to brak."
"Puir lassie!" said Malcolm, whose own trouble had never at any
time rendered him insensible to that of others. "But is't onybody
'at kens what he says?" he pursued.
"Weel, I dinna jist richtly ken gien she kens, but I think she
maun ha'e gude rizzon, or she wadna say as she says. Oh me! me!
my bairnie 'ill be scornin' me sair whan he comes to ken. Ma'colm,
ye're the only ane 'at disna luik doon upo' me, an whan ye cam'
ower the tap o' the Boar's Tail, it was like an angel in a fire
flaucht, an' something inside me said--Tell 'im; tell 'im; an'
sae I bude to tell ye."
Malcolm was even too simple to feel flattered by the girl's confidence,
though to be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved.
"Hearken, Lizzy!" he said. "I canna e'en think, wi' this brute ready
ilka meenute to ate me up. I maun tak' her hame. Efter that, gien
ye wad like to tell me onything, I s' be at yer service. Bide aboot
here--or, luik ye: here's the key o' yon door; come throu' that
intil the park--throu' aneth the toll ro'd, ye ken. There ye'll
get into the lythe (lee) wi' the bairnie; an' I'll be wi' ye in a
quarter o' an hoor. It'll tak' me but twa meenutes to gang hame.
Stoat 'ill put up the mere, and I'll be back--I can du't in ten
meenutes."
"Eh! dinna hurry for me, Ma'colm: I'm no worth it," said Lizzy.
But Malcolm was already at full speed along the top of the dune.
"Lord preserve 's!" cried Lizzy, when she saw him clear the brass
swivel. "Sic a laad as that is! Eh, he maun ha'e a richt lass to
lo'e him some day! It's a' ane to him, boat or beast. He wadna turn
frae the deil himsel'. An syne he's jist as saft's a deuk's neck
when he speyks till a wuman or a bairn--ay, or an auld man aither!"
And full of trouble as it was about another, Lizzy's heart yet
ached at the thought that she should be so unworthy of one like
him.
CHAPTER V: LIZZY FINDLAY
From the sands she saw him gain the turnpike road with a bound and
a scramble. Crossing it he entered the park by the sea gate; she
had to enter it by the tunnel that passed under the same road.
She approached the grated door, unlocked it, and looked in with
a shudder. It was dark, the other end of it being obscured by
trees, and the roots of the hill on whose top stood the temple of
the winds. Through the tunnel blew what seemed quite another wind
--one of death, from regions beneath. She drew her shawl, one end
of which was rolled about her baby, closer around them both ere
she entered. Never before had she set foot within the place, and
a strange horror of it filled her: she did not know that by that
passage, on a certain lovely summer night, Lord Meikleham had issued
to meet her on the sands under the moon. The sea was not terrible
to her; she knew all its ways nearly as well as Malcolm knew the
moods of Kelpie; but the earth and its ways were less known to her,
and to turn her face towards it and enter by a little door into its
bosom was like a visit to her grave. But she gathered her strength,
entered with a shudder, passed in growing hope and final safety
through it, and at the other end came out again into the light,
only the cold of its death seemed to cling to her still. But the
day had grown colder; the clouds that, seen or unseen, ever haunt
the winter sun, had at length caught and shrouded him, and through
the gathering vapours he looked ghastly. The wind blew from the
sea. The tide was going down. There was snow in the air. The thin
leafless trees were all bending away from the shore, and the wind
went sighing, hissing, and almost wailing through their bare boughs
and budless twigs. There would be a storm, she thought, ere the
morning, but none of their people were out.
Had there been--well, she had almost ceased to care about
anything, and her own life was so little to her now, that she had
become less able to value that of other people. To this had the
ignis fatuus of a false love brought her! She had dreamed heedlessly,
to awake sorrowfully. But not until she heard he was going to be
married, had she come right awake, and now she could dream no more.
Alas! alas! what claim had she upon him? How could she tell, since
such he was, what poor girl like herself she might not have robbed
of her part in him?
Yet even in the midst of her misery and despair, it was some
consolation to think that Malcolm was her friend.
Not knowing that he had already suffered from the blame of her
fault, or the risk at which he met her, she would have gone. towards
the house to meet him the sooner, had not this been a part of the
grounds where she knew Mr Crathie tolerated no one without express
leave given. The fisher folk in particular must keep to the road
by the other side of the burn, to which the sea gate admitted them.
Lizzy therefore lingered near the tunnel, afraid of being seen.
Mr Crathie was a man who did well under authority, but upon the
top of it was consequential, overbearing, and far more exacting than
the marquis. Full of his employer's importance when he was present,
and of his own when he was absent, he was yet in the latter
circumstances so doubtful of its adequate recognition by those
under him, that he had grown very imperious, and resented with
indignation the slightest breach of his orders. Hence he was in no
great favour with the fishers.
Now all the day he had been fuming over Malcolm's behaviour to him
in the morning, and when he went home and learned that his wife
had seen him upon Kelpie, as if nothing had happened, he became
furious, and, in this possession of the devil, was at the present
moment wandering about the grounds, brooding on the words Malcolm
had spoken. He could not get rid of them. They caused an acrid
burning in his bosom, for they had in them truth, like which no
poison stings.
Malcolm, having crossed by the great bridge at the house, hurried
down the western side of the burn to find Lizzy, and soon came upon
her, walking up and down.
"Eh, lassie, ye maun be cauld!" he said.
"No that cauld," she answered, and with the words burst into tears:
"But naebody says a kin' word to me noo," she said in excuse, "an'
I canna weel bide the soun' o' ane when it comes; I'm no used till
't."
"Naebody?" exclaimed Malcolm.
"Na, naebody," she answered. "My mither winna, my father daurna,
an' the bairnie canna, an I gang near naebody forbye."
"Weel, we maunna stan' oot here i' the cauld: come this gait," said
Malcolm. "The bairnie 'll get its deid."
"There wadna be mony to greit at that," returned Lizzy, and pressed
the child closer to her bosom.
Malcolm led the way to the little chamber contrived under the temple
in the heart of the hill, and unlocking the door made her enter.
There he seated her in a comfortable chair, and wrapped her in the
plaid he had brought for the purpose. It was all he could do to
keep from taking her in his arms for very pity, for, both body and
soul, she seemed too frozen to shiver. He shut the door, sat down
on the table near her, and said:
"There's naebody to disturb 's here, Lizzy: what wad ye say to me
noo?"
The sun was nearly down, and its light already almost smothered in
clouds, so that the little chamber, whose door and window were in
the deep shadow of the hill, was nearly dark.
"I wadna hae ye tell me onything ye promised no to tell," resumed
Malcolm, finding she did not reply, "but I wad like to hear as
muckle as ye can say."
"I hae naething to tell ye, Ma'colm, but jist 'at my leddy Florimel's
gauin' to be merried upo' Lord Meikleham--Lord Liftore, they ca'
him noo. Hech me!"
"God forbid she sud be merried upon ony sic a bla'guard!" cried
Malcolm.
"Dinna ca' 'im ill names, Ma'colm. I canna bide it, though I hae
no richt to tak up the stick for him."
"I wadna say a word 'at micht fa' sair on a sair hert," he returned;
"but gien ye kent a', ye wad ken I hed a gey sized craw to pluck
wi' 's lordship mysel'."
The girl gave a low cry.
"Ye wadna hurt 'im, Ma'colm?" she said, in terror at the thought
of the elegant youth in the clutches of an angry fisherman, even
if he were the generous Malcolm MacPhail himself.
"I wad raither not," he replied, "but we maun see hoo he cairries
himsel'."
"Du naething till 'im for my sake, Ma'colm. Ye can hae naething
again' him yersel'."
It was too dark for Malcolm to see the keen look of wistful regret
with which Lizzy tried to pierce the gloom and read his face: for
a moment the poor girl thought he meant he had loved her himself.
But far other thoughts were in Malcolm's mind: one was that her
whom, as a scarce approachable goddess, he had loved before he knew
her of his own blood, he would rather see married to an honest
fisherman in the Seaton of Portlossie, than to such a lord as
Meikleham. He had seen enough of him at Lossie House to know what
he was, and puritanical fish catching Malcolm had ideas above
those of most marquises of his day: the thought of the alliance
was horrible to him. It was possibly not inevitable, however; only
what could he do, and at the same time avoid grievous hurt?
"I dinna think he'll ever merry my leddy," he said.
"What gars ye say that, Ma'colm?" returned Lizzy, with eagerness.
"I canna tell ye jist i' the noo; but ye ken a body canna weel
be aye aboot a place ohn seein things. I'll tell ye something o'
mair consequence hooever," he continued. . "Some fowk say there's
a God, an' some say there's nane, an' I ha'e no richt to preach to
ye, Lizzy; but I maun jist tell ye this--'at gien God dinna help
them 'at cry till 'im i' the warst o' tribles, they micht jist as
weel ha'e nae God at a'. For my ain pairt I ha'e been helpit, an'
I think it was him intil 't. Wi' his help, a man may warstle throu'
onything. I say I think it was himsel' tuik me throu' 't, an' here
I stan' afore ye, ready for the neist trible, an' the help 'at 'll
come wi' 't. What it may be, God only knows!"
CHAPTER VI: MR CRATHIE
He was interrupted by the sudden opening of the door, and the voice
of the factor in exultant wrath.
"MacPhail!" it cried. "Come out with you. Don't think to sneak
there. I know you. What right have you to be on the premises? Didn't
I send you about your business this morning?"
"Ay, sir, but ye didna pay me my wages," said Malcolm, who had
sprung to the door and now stood holding it half shut, while Mr
Crathie pushed it half open.
"No matter. You're nothing better than a housebreaker if you enter
any building about the place."
"I brak nae lock," returned Malcolm. "I ha'e the key my lord gae
me to ilka place 'ithin the wa's excep' the strong room."
"Give it me directly. I'm master here now."
"'Deed, I s' du nae sic thing, sir. What he gae me I'll keep."
"Give up that key, or I'll go at once and get a warrant against
you for theft."
"Weel, we s' refar't to Maister Soutar."
"Damn your impudence--'at I sud say't!--what has he to do with
my affairs? Come out of that directly."
"Huly, huly, sir!" returned Malcolm, in terror lest he should
discover who was with him.
"You low bred rascal! Who have you there with you?"
As he spoke Mr Crathie would have forced his way into the dusky
chamber, where he could just perceive a motionless undefined
form. But stiff as a statue Malcolm kept his stand, and the door
was immovable. Mr Crathie gave a second and angrier push, but the
youth's corporeal as well as his mental equilibrium was hard to
upset, and his enemy drew back in mounting fury.
"Get out of there," he cried, "or I'll horsewhip you for a damned
blackguard."
"Whup awa'," said Malcolm, "but in here ye s' no come the nicht."
The factor rushed at him, his heavy whip upheaved--and the same
moment found himself, not in the room, but lying on the flower bed
in front of it. Malcolm instantly stepped out, locked the door,
put the key in his pocket, and turned to assist him. But he was up
already, and busy with words unbefitting the mouth of an elder of
the kirk.
"Didna I say 'at ye sudna come in, sir? What for wull fowk no tak'
a tellin'?" expostulated Malcolm.
But the factor was far beyond force of logic or illumination of
reason. He raved and swore.
"Get oot o' my sicht," he cried, "or I'll shot ye like a tyke."
"Gang an' fess yer gun," said Malcolm, "an' gien ye fin' me waitin'
for ye, ye can lat at me."
The factor uttered a horrible imprecation on himself if he did not
make him pay dearly for his behaviour.
"Hoots, sir! Be asham't o' yersel'. Gang hame to the mistress, an'
I s' be up the morn's mornin' for my wages."
"If ye set foot on the grounds again, I'll set every dog in the
place upon you."
Malcolm laughed.
"Gien I was to turn the order the ither gait, wad they min' you or
me, div ye think, Maister Crathie?"
"Give me that key, and go about your business."
"Na, na, sir! What my lord gae me I s' keep--for a' the factors
atween this an' the Land's En'," returned Malcolm. "An' for lea'in'
the place, gien I be na in your service, Maister Crathie, I'm nae
un'er your orders. I'll gang whan it shuits me. An' mair yet, ye
s' gang oot o' this first, or I s' gar ye, an that ye'll see."
It was a violent proceeding, but for a matter of manners he was
not going to risk what of her good name poor Lizzy had left: like
the books of the Sibyl, that grew in value. He made, however, but
one threatful stride towards the factor, for the great man turned
and fled.
The moment he was out of sight, Malcolm unlocked the door, led
Lizzy out, and brought her through the tunnel to the sands. There
he left her, and set out for Scaurnose.
CHAPTER VII: BLUE PETER
The door of Blue Peter's cottage was opened by his sister. Not
much at home in the summer, when she carried fish to the country,
she was very little absent in the winter, and as there was but one
room for all uses, except the closet bedroom and the garret at the
top of the ladder, Malcolm, instead of going in, called to his
friend, whom he saw by the fire with his little Phemy upon his
knee, to come out and speak to him.
Blue Peter at once obeyed the summons.
"There's naething wrang, I houp, Ma'colm?" he said, as he closed
the door behind him.
"Maister Graham wad say," returned Malcolm, "naething ever was
wrang but what ye did wrang yersel', or wadna pit richt whan ye
had a chance. I ha'e him nae mair to gang till, Joseph, an' sae I'm
come to you. Come doon by, an' i' the scoug o' a rock, I'll tell
ye a' aboot it."
"Ye wadna ha'e the mistress no ken o' 't?" said his friend. "I
dinna jist like haein' secrets frae her."
"Ye sall jeedge for yersel', man, an' tell her or no just as ye
like. Only she maun haud her tongue, or the black dog 'll ha'e a'
the butter."
"She can haud her tongue like the tae stane o' a grave," said Peter.
As they spoke they reached the cliff that hung over the shattered
shore. It was a clear, cold night. Snow, the remnants of the last
storm, which frost had preserved in every shadowy spot, lay all
about them. The sky was clear, and full of stars, for the wind
that blew cold from the northwest had dispelled the snowy clouds.
The waves rushed into countless gulfs and crannies and straits
on the ruggedest of shores, and the sounds of waves and wind kept
calling like voices from the unseen. By a path, seemingly fitter
for goats than men, they descended halfway to the beach, and under
a great projection of rock stood sheltered from the wind. Then
Malcolm turned to Joseph Mair, commonly called Blue Peter, because
he had been a man of war's man, and laying his hand on his arm
said:
"Blue Peter, did ever I tell ye a lee?"
"No, never," answered Peter. "What gars ye speir sic a thing?"
"Cause I want ye to believe me noo, an' it winna be easy."
"I'll believe onything ye tell me--'at can be believed."
"Weel, I ha'e come to the knowledge 'at my name's no MacPhail: it's
Colonsay. Man, I'm the Markis o' Lossie."
Without a moment's hesitation, without a single stare of unbelief
or even astonishment, Blue Peter pulled off his bonnet, and stood
bareheaded before the companion of his toils.
"Peter!" cried Malcolm, "dinna brak my hert: put on yer bonnet."
"The Lord o' lords be thankit, my lord!" said Blue Peter: "the puir
man has a freen' this day."
Then replacing his bonnet he said--"An' what'll be yer lordship's
wull?"
"First and foremost, Peter, that my best freen', efter my auld
daddy and the schulemaister, 's no to turn again' me 'cause I hed
a markis an' neither piper nor fisher to my father."
"It's no like it, my lord," returned Blue Peter, "whan the first
thing I say is--what wad ye ha'e o' me? Here I am--no speirin'
a queston!"
"Weel, I wad ha'e ye hear the story o' 't a'."
"Say on, my lord," said Peter.
But Malcolm was silent for a few moments.
"I was thinkin', Peter," he said at last, "whether I cud bide to
hear you say my lord to me. Dootless, as it 'll ha'e to come to
that, it wad be better to grow used till 't while we're thegither,
sae 'at whan it maun be, it mayna ha'e the luik o' cheenge until
it, for cheenge is jist the thing I canna bide. I' the meantime,
hooever, we canna gi'e in till 't, 'cause it wad set fowk jaloosin'.
But I wad be obleeged till ye, Peter, gien you wad say my lord
whiles, whan we're oor lanes, for I wad fain grow sae used till't
'at I never kent ye said it, for 'atween you an' me I dinna like
it. An' noo I s' tell ye a' 'at I ken."
When he had ended the tale of what had come to his knowledge, and
how it had come, and paused:
"Gie's a grup o' yer han', my lord," said Blue Peter, "an' may
God haud ye lang in life an' honour to reule ower us. Noo, gien ye
please, what are ye gauin' to du?"
"Tell ye me, Peter, what ye think I oucht to du."
"That wad tak a heap o' thinkin'," returned the fisherman; "but
ae thing seems aboot plain: ye ha'e no richt to lat yer sister
gang exposed to temptations ye cud haud frae her. That's no, as
ye promised, to be kin' till her. I canna believe that's hoo yer
father expeckit o' ye. I ken weel 'at fowk in his poseetion ha'ena
the preevileeges o' the like o' hiz--they ha'ena the win, an' the
watter, an' whiles a lee shore to gar them know they are but men,
an' sen' them rattling at the wicket of h'aven; but still I dinna
think, by yer ain accoont, specially noo 'at I houp he's forgi'en
an' latten in--God grant it!--I div not think he wad like my
leddy Florimel to be oon'er the influences o' sic a ane as that
Leddy Bellair. Ye maun gang till her. Ye ha'e nae ch'ice, my lord."
"But what am I to do, whan I div gang?"
"That's what ye hev to gang an' see."
"An' that's what I ha'e been tellin' mysel', an' what Miss Horn's
been tellin' me tu. But it's a gran' thing to get yer ain thouchts
corroborat. Ye see I'm feart for wrangin' her for pride, and bringin'
her doon to set mysel' up."
"My lord," said Blue Peter, solemnly, "ye ken the life o' puir
fisher fowk; ye ken hoo it micht be lichtened, sae lang as it laists,
an' mony a hole steikit 'at the cauld deith creeps in at the noo:
coont ye them naething, my lord? Coont ye the wull o' Providence,
'at sets ye ower them, naething? What for could the Lord ha'e gie
ye sic an upbringin' as no markis' son ever hed afore ye, or maybe
ever wull ha'e efter ye, gien it bena 'at ye sud tak them in han'
to du yer pairt by them? Gien ye forsak them noo, ye'll be forgettin'
him 'at made them an' you, an' the sea, an' the herrin' to be taen
intil 't. Gien ye forget them, there's nae houp for them, but the
same deith 'ill keep on swallowin' at them upo' sea an' shore."
"Ye speyk the trowth as I ha'e spoken't till mysel', Peter.
Noo, hearken: will ye sail wi' me the nicht for Lon'on toon?" The
fisherman was silent a moment--then answered, "I wull, my lord;
but I maun tell my wife."
"Rin, an' fess her here than, for I'm fleyed at yer sister, honest
wuman, an' little Phemy. It wad blaud a' thing gien I was hurried
to du something afore I kenned what."
"I s' ha'e her oot in a meenute," said Joseph, and scrambled up
the cliff.
CHAPTER VIII: VOYAGE TO LONDON
For a few minutes Malcolm stood alone in the dim starlight of
winter, looking out on the dusky sea, dark as his own future, into
which the wind now blowing behind him would soon begin to carry
him. He anticipated its difficulties, but never thought of perils:
it was seldom anything oppressed him but the doubt of what he ought
to do. This was ever the cold mist that swallowed the airy castles
he built and peopled with all the friends and acquaintances of his
youth. But the very first step towards action is the death warrant
of doubt, and the tide of Malcolm's being ran higher that night, as
he stood thus alone under the stars, than he had ever yet known it
run. With all his common sense, and the abundance of his philosophy,
which the much leisure belonging to certain phases of his life had
combined with the slow strength of his intellect to render somewhat
long winded in utterance, there was yet room in Malcolm's bonnet
for a bee above the ordinary size, and if it buzzed a little
too romantically for the taste of the nineteenth century, about
disguises and surprises and bounty and plots and rescues and such
like, something must be pardoned to one whose experience had already
been so greatly out of the common, and whose nature was far too
childlike and poetic, and developed in far too simple a surrounding of
labour and success, difficulty and conquest, danger and deliverance,
not to have more than the usual amount of what is called the romantic
in its composition.
The buzzing of his bee was for the present interrupted by the return
of Blue Peter with his wife. She threw her arms round Malcolm's
neck, and burst into tears.
"Hoots, my woman!" said her husband, "what are ye greitin' at?"
"Eh, Peter!" she answered, "I canna help it. It's jist like a deith.
He's gauin' to lea' us a', an' gang hame till 's ain, an' I canna
bide 'at he sud grow strange-like to hiz 'at ha'e kenned him sae
lang."
"It'll be an ill day," returned Malcolm, "whan I grow strange to
ony freen'. I'll ha'e to gang far down the laich (low) ro'd afore
that be poassible. I mayna aye be able to du jist what ye wad like;
but lippen ye to me: I s' be fair to ye. An' noo I want Blue Peter
to gang wi' me, an' help me to what I ha'e to du--gien ye ha'e
nae objection to lat him."
"Na, nane ha'e I. I wad gang mysel' gien I cud be ony use," answered
Mrs Mair; "but women are i' the gait whiles."
"Weel, I'll no even say thank ye; I'll be awin' ye that as weel's
the lave. But gien I dinna du weel, it winna be the fau't o' ane
or the ither o' you twa freen's. Noo, Peter, we maun be aff."
"No the nicht, surely?" said Mrs Mair, a little taken by surprise.
"The suner the better, lass," replied her husband. "An' we cudna
ha'e a better win'. Jist rin ye hame, an' get some vicktooals
thegither, an' come efter hiz to Portlossie."
"But hoo 'ill ye get the boat to the watter ohn mair han's? I'll
need to come mysel' an' fess Jean."
"Na, na; let Jean sit. There's plenty i' the Seaton to help. We're
gauin' to tak' the markis's cutter. She's a heap easier to lainch,
an' she'll sail a heap fester."
"But what'll Maister Crathie say?"
"We maun tak' oor chance o' that," answered her husband, with a
smile of confidence; and thereupon he and Malcolm set out for the
Seaton, while Mrs Mair went home to get ready some provisions for
the voyage, consisting chiefly of oatcakes.
The prejudice against Malcolm from his imagined behaviour to Lizzy
Findlay, had by this time, partly through the assurances of Peter,
partly through the power of the youth's innocent presence, almost
died out, and when the two men reached the Seaton, they found plenty
of hands ready to help them to reach the little sloop. Malcolm said
he was going to take her to Peterhead, and they asked no questions
but such as he contrived to answer with truth, or to leave unanswered.
Once afloat, there was very little to be done to her, for she had
been laid up in perfect condition, and as soon as Mrs Mair appeared
with her basket, and they had put that, a keg of water, some
fishing lines, and a pan of mussels for bait, on board, they were
ready to sail, and wished their friends a light goodbye, leaving
them to imagine they were gone but for a day or two, probably on
some business of Mr Crathie's.
With the wind from the northwest, they soon reached Duff Harbour,
where Malcolm went on shore and saw Mr Soutar. He, with a landsman's
prejudice, made strenuous objections to such a mad prank as sailing
to London at that time of the year, but in vain. Malcolm saw nothing
mad in it, and the lawyer had to admit he ought to know best. He
brought on board with him a lad of Peter's acquaintance, and now
fully manned, they set sail again, and by the time the sun appeared
were not far from Peterhead.
Malcolm's spirits kept rising as they bowled along over the bright
cold waters. He never felt so capable as when at sea. His energies
had been first called out in combat with the elements, and hence
he always felt strongest, most at home, and surest of himself on
the water. Young as he was, however, such had been his training
under Mr Graham, that a large part of this elevation of spirit was
owing to an unreasoned sense of being there more immediately in the
hands of God. Later in life, he interpreted the mental condition
thus--that of course he was always and in every place equally in
God's hands, but that at sea he felt the truth more keenly. Where
a man has nothing firm under him, where his life depends on winds
invisible and waters unstable, where a single movement may be death,
he learns to feel what is at the same time just as true every night
he spends asleep in the bed in which generations have slept before
him, or any sunny hour he spends walking over ancestral acres.
They put in at Peterhead, purchased a few provisions, and again
set sail.
And now it seemed to Malcolm that he must soon come to a conclusion
as to the steps he must take when he reached London. But think as
he would, he could plan nothing beyond finding out where his sister
lived, going to look at the house, and getting into it if he might.
Nor could his companion help him with any suggestions, and indeed
he could not talk much with him because of the presence of Davy,
a rough, round eyed, red haired young Scot, of the dull invaluable
class that can only do what they are told, but do that to the extent
of their faculty.
They knew all the coast as far as the Frith of Forth; after that
they had to be more careful. They had no charts on board, nor could
have made much use of any. But the wind continued favourable, and
the weather cold, bright, and full of life. They spoke many coasters
on their way, and received many directions.
Off the Nore they had rough weather, and had to stand off and on
for a day and a night till it moderated. Then they spoke a fishing
boat, took a pilot on board, and were soon in smooth water. More
and more they wondered as the channel narrowed, and ended their
voyage at length below London Bridge, in a very jungle of masts.
CHAPTER IX: LONDON STREETS
Leaving Davy to keep the sloop, the two fishermen went on shore.
Passing from the narrow precincts of the river, they found themselves
at once in the roar of London city. Stunned at first, then excited,
then bewildered, then dazed, without plan to guide their steps,
they wandered about until, unused to the hard stones, their feet
ached. It was a dull day in March. A keen wind blew round the
corners of the streets. They wished themselves at sea again.
"Sic a sicht o' fowk!" said Blue Peter.
"It's hard to think," rejoined Malcolm, "what w'y the God 'at made
them can luik efter them a' in sic a tumult. But they say even the
sheep dog kens ilk sheep i' the flock 'at 's gien him in chairge."
"Ay, but ye see," said Blue Peter, "they're mair like a shoal o'
herrin' nor a flock o' sheep."
"It's no the num'er o' them 'at plagues me," said Malcolm. "The
gran' diffeeculty is hoo He can lat ilk ane tak' his ain gait an'
yet luik efter them a'. But gien He does't, it stan's to rizzon it
maun be in some w'y 'at them 'at's sae luikit efter canna by ony
possibeelity un'erstan'."
"That's trowth, I'm thinkin'. We maun jist gi'e up an' confess
there's things abune a' human comprehension."
"Wha kens but that maybe 'cause i' their verra natur' they're ower
semple for cr'aturs like hiz 'at's made sae mixed-like, an' see
sae little intill the hert o' things?"
"Ye're ayont me there," said Blue Peter, and a silence followed.
It was a conversation very unsuitable to London Streets--but
then these were raw Scotch fisherman, who had not yet learned how
absurd it is to suppose ourselves come from anything greater than
ourselves, and had no conception of the liberty it confers on a man
to know that he is the child of a protoplasm, or something still
more beautifully small.
At length a policeman directed them to a Scotch eating house, where
they fared after their country's fashions, and from the landlady
gathered directions by which to guide themselves towards Curzon
Street, a certain number in which Mr Soutar had given Malcolm as
Lady Bellair's address.
The door was opened to Malcolm's knock by a slatternly charwoman,
who, unable to understand a word he said, would, but for its fine
frank expression, have shut the door in his face. From the expression
of hers, however, Malcolm suddenly remembered that he must speak
English, and having a plentiful store of the book sort, he at once
made himself intelligible in spite of tone and accent. It was,
however, only a shifting of the difficulty, for he now found it
nearly impossible to understand her. But by repeated questioning
and hard listening he learnt at last that Lady Bellair had removed
her establishment to Lady Lossie's house in Portland Place.
After many curious perplexities, odd blunders, and vain endeavours
to understand shop signs and notices in the windows; after they had
again and again imagined themselves back at a place they had left
miles away; after many a useless effort to lay hold of directions
given so rapidly that the very sense could not gather the sounds,
they at length stood--not in Portland Place, but in front of
Westminster Abbey. Inquiring what it was, and finding they could
go in, they entered.
For some moments not a word was spoken between them, but when they
had walked slowly halfway up the nave Malcolm turned and said, "Eh,
Peter! sic a blessin'!" and Peter replied, "There canna be muckle
o' this i' the warl'!"
Comparing impressions afterwards, Peter said that the moment he
stepped in, he heard the rush of the tide on the rocks of Scaurnose;
and Malcolm declared he felt as if he had stepped out of the world
into the regions of eternal silence.
"What a mercy it maun be," he went on, "to mony a cratur', in sic
a whummle an' a rum'le an' a remish as this Lon'on, to ken 'at
there is sic a cave howkit oot o' the din, 'at he can gang intill
an' say his prayers intill! Man, Peter! I'm jist some feared whiles
'at the verra din i' my lugs mayna 'maist drive the thoucht o' God
oot o' me."
At length they found their way into Regent Street, and leaving
its mean assertion behind, reached the stately modesty of Portland
Place; and Malcolm was pleased to think the house he sought was
one of those he now saw.
It was one of the largest in the Place. He would not, however, yield
to the temptation to have a good look at it, for fear of attracting
attention from its windows and being recognised. They turned therefore
aside into some of the smaller thoroughfares lying between Portland
Place and Great Portland Street, where searching about, they came
upon a decent looking public house and inquired after lodgings.
They were directed to a woman in the neighbourhood, who kept a dingy
little curiosity shop. On payment of a week's rent in advance, she
allowed them a small bedroom. But Malcolm did not want Peter with
him that night; he wished to be perfectly free; and besides it was
more than desirable that Peter should go and look after the boat
and the boy.
Left alone he fell once more to his hitherto futile scheming:
How was he to get near his sister? To the whitest of lies he had
insuperable objection, and if he appeared before her with no reason
to give, would she not be far too offended with his presumption to
retain him in her service? And except he could be near her as her
servant, he did not see a chance of doing anything for her without
disclosing facts which might make all such service as he would most
gladly render her impossible, by causing her to hate the very sight
of him. Plan after plan rose and passed from his mind rejected, and
the only resolution he could come to was to write to Mr Soutar, to
whom he had committed the protection of Kelpie, to send her up by
the first smack from Aberdeen. He did so, and wrote also to Miss
Horn, telling her where he was, then went out, and made his way
back to Portland Place.
Night had closed in, and thick vapours hid the moon, but lamps and
lighted windows illuminated the wide street. Presently it began
to snow. But through the snow and the night went carriages in all
directions, with great lamps that turned the flakes into white stars
for a moment as they gleamed past. The hoofs of the horses echoed
hard from the firm road.
Could that house really belong to him? It did, yet he dared not
enter it. That which was dear and precious to him was in the house,
and just because of that he could not call it his own. There was
less light in it than in any other within his range. He walked
up and down the opposite side of the street its whole length some
fifty times, but saw no sign of vitality about the house. At length
a brougham stopped at the door, and a man got out and knocked.
Malcolm instantly crossed, but could not see his face. The door
opened, and he entered. The brougham waited. After about a quarter
of an hour he came out again, accompanied by two ladies, one of
whom he judged by her figure to be Florimel. They all got into the
carriage, and Malcolm braced himself for a terrible run. But the
coachman drove carefully, the snow lay a few inches deep, and he
found no difficulty in keeping near them, following with fleet foot
and husbanded breath.
They stopped at the doors of a large dark looking building in a
narrow street He thought it was a church, and wondered that so his
sister should be going there on a week night. Nor did the aspect
of the entrance hall, into which he followed them, undeceive him.
It was more showy, certainly, than the vestibule of any church he
had ever been in before, but what might not churches be in London?
They went up a great flight of stairs--to reach the gallery, as
he thought, and still he went after them. When he reached the top,
they were just vanishing round a curve, and his advance was checked:
a man came up to him, said he could not come there, and gruffly
requested him to show his ticket.
"I haven't got one. What is this place?" said Malcolm, whom the
aspect of the man had suddenly rendered doubtful, mouthing his English
with Scotch deliberation. The man gave him a look of contemptuous
surprise, and turning to another who lounged behind him with his
hands in his pockets, said--"Tom, here's a gentleman as wants to
know where he is: can you tell him?" The person addressed laughed,
and gave Malcolm a queer look.
"Every cock crows on his own midden," said Malcolm, "but if I were
on mine, I would try to be civil."
"You go down there, and pay for a pit ticket, and you'll soon know
where you are, mate," said Tom.
He obeyed, and after a few inquiries, and the outlay of two
shillings, found himself in the pit of one of the largest of the
London theatres.
CHAPTER X: THE TEMPEST
The play was begun, and the stage was the centre of light. Thither
Malcolm's eyes were drawn the instant he entered. He was all but
unaware of the multitude of faces about him, and his attention was
at once fascinated by the lovely show revealed in soft radiance. But
surely he had seen the vision before! One long moment its effect
upon him was as real as if he had been actually deceived as to
its nature: was it not the shore between Scaurnose and Portlossie,
betwixt the Boar's Tail and the sea? and was not that the marquis,
his father, in his dressing gown, pacing to and fro upon the
sands? He yielded himself to illusion--abandoned himself to the
wonderful, and looked only for what would come next.
A lovely lady entered: to his excited fancy it was Florimel. A
moment more and she spoke.
If by your art, my dearest father, you have
Put the wild waters in this roar, allay them.
Then first he understood that before him rose in wondrous realization
the play of Shakspere he knew best--the first he had ever read:
The Tempest, hitherto a lovely phantom for the mind's eye, now
embodied to the enraptured sense. During the whole of the first act
he never thought either of Miranda or Florimel apart. At the same
time so taken was he with the princely carriage and utterance of
Ferdinand that, though with a sigh, he consented he should have
his sister.
The drop scene had fallen for a minute or two before he began
to look around him. A moment more and he had commenced a thorough
search for his sister amongst the ladies in the boxes. But when at
length he found her, he dared not fix his eyes upon her lest his
gaze should make her look at him, and she should recognise him.
Alas, her eyes might have rested on him twenty times without his
face once rousing in her mind the thought of the fisher lad of
Portlossie! All that had passed between them in the days already
old was virtually forgotten.
By degrees he gathered courage, and soon began to feel that there
was small chance indeed of her eyes alighting upon him for the
briefest of moments. Then he looked more closely, and felt through
rather than saw with his eyes that some sort of change had already
passed upon her. It was Florimel, yet not the very Florimel he had
known. Already something had begun to supplant the girl freedom
that had formerly in every look and motion asserted itself. She
was more beautiful, but not so lovely in his eyes; much of what had
charmed him had vanished. She was more stately, but the stateliness
had a little hardness mingled with it: and could it be that the
first of a cloud had already gathered on her forehead? Surely she
was not so happy as she had been at Lossie House. She was dressed
in black, with a white flower in her hair.
Beside her sat the bold faced countess, and behind them her nephew,
Lord Meikleham that was now Lord Liftore. A fierce indignation
seized the heart of Malcolm at the sight. Behind the form of the
earl, his mind's eye saw that of Lizzy, out in the wind on the
Boar's Tail, her old shawl wrapped about herself and the child of
the man who sat there so composed and comfortable. His features
were fine and clear cut, his shoulders broad, and his head well
set: he had much improved since Malcolm offered to fight him with
one hand in the dining room of Lossie House. Every now and then
he leaned forward between his aunt and Florimel, and spoke to the
latter. To Malcolm's eyes she seemed to listen with some haughtiness. Now
and then she cast him an indifferent glance. Malcolm was pleased:
Lord Liftore was anything but the Ferdinand to whom he could consent
to yield his Miranda. They would make a fine couple certainly, but for
any other fitness, knowing what he did, Malcolm was glad to perceive
none. The more annoyed was he when once or twice he fancied he caught
a look between them that indicated more than acquaintanceship--
some sort of intimacy at least. But he reflected that in the relation
in which they stood to Lady Bellair it could hardly be otherwise.
The play was tolerably well put upon the stage, and free of the
absurdities attendant upon too ambitious an endeavour to represent to
the sense things which Shakspere and the dramatists of his period
freely committed to their best and most powerful ally, the willing
imagination of the spectators. The opening of the last scene,
where Ferdinand and Miranda are discovered at chess, was none the
less effective for its simplicity, and Malcolm was turning from a
delighted gaze at its loveliness to glance at his sister and her
companions, when his eyes fell on a face near him in the pit which
had fixed an absorbed regard in the same direction. It was that of
a man a few years older than himself, with irregular features, but
a fine mouth, large chin; and great forehead. Under the peculiarly
prominent eyebrows shone dark eyes of wondrous brilliancy and seeming
penetration. Malcolm could not but suspect that his gaze was upon
his sister, but as they were a long way from the boxes, he could
not be certain. Once he thought he saw her look at him, but of that
also he could be in no wise certain.
He knew the play so well that he rose just in time to reach the
pit door ere exit should be impeded with the outcomers, and thence
with some difficulty he found his way to the foot of the stair up which
those he watched had gone. There he had stood but a little while,
when he saw in front of him, almost within reach of an outstretched
hand, the same young man waiting also. After what seemed a long
time, he saw his sister and her two companions come slowly down the
stair in the descending crowd. Her eyes seemed searching amongst
the multitude that filled the lobby. Presently an indubitable glance
of still recognition passed between them, and by a slight movement
the young man placed himself so that she must pass next him in
the crowd. Malcolm got one place nearer in the change, and thought
they grasped hands. She turned her head slightly back, and seemed
to put a question--with her lips only. He replied in the same
manner. A light rushed into her face and vanished. But not a feature
moved and not a word had been spoken. Neither of her companions
had seen the dumb show, and her friend stood where he was till they
had left the house. Malcolm stood also, much inclined to follow
him when he went, but, his attention having been attracted for a
moment in another direction, when he looked again he had disappeared.
He sought him where he fancied he saw the movement of his vanishing,
but was soon convinced of the uselessness of the attempt, and walked
home.
Before he reached his lodging, he had resolved on making trial of
a plan which had more than once occurred to him, but had as often
been rejected as too full of the risk of repulse.
CHAPTER XI: DEMON AND THE PIPES
His plan was to watch the house until he saw some entertainment
going on, then present himself as if he had but just arrived from
her ladyship's country seat. At such a time no one would acquaint
her with his appearance, and he would, as if it were but a matter
of course, at once take his share in waiting on the guests. By this
means he might perhaps get her a little accustomed to his presence
before she could be at leisure to challenge it.
When he put Kelpie in her stall the last time for a season, and
ran into the house to get his plaid for Lizzy, who was waiting him
near the tunnel, he bethought himself that he had better take with
him also what other of his personal requirements he could carry.
He looked about therefore, and finding a large carpet bag in one
of the garret rooms, hurried into it some of his clothes--amongst
them the Highland dress he had worn as henchman to the marquis,
and added the great Lossie pipes his father had given to old Duncan
as well, but which the piper had not taken with him when he left
Lossie House. The said Highland dress he now resolved to put on,
as that in which latterly Florimel had been most used to see him:
in it he would watch his opportunity of gaining admission to the
house.
The next morning Blue Peter made his appearance early. They went
out together, spent the day in sightseeing, and, on Malcolm's part
chiefly, in learning the topography of London.
In Hyde Park Malcolm told his friend that he had sent for Kelpie.
"She'll be the deid o' ye i' thae streets, as fu' o' wheels as the
sea o' fish: twize I've been 'maist gr'un to poother o' my ro'd
here," said Peter.
"Ay, but ye see, oot here amo' the gentry it's no freely sae ill,
an' the ro'ds are no a' stane; an' here, ye see, 's the place whaur
they come, leddies an' a', to ha'e their rides thegither. What I'm
fleyt for is 'at she'll be brackin' legs wi' her deevilich kickin'."
"Haud her upo' dry strae an' watter for a whilie, till her banes
begin to cry oot for something to hap them frae the cauld: that'll
quaiet her a bit," said Peter.
"It's a' ye ken!" returned Malcolm. "She's aye the wau natur'd, the
less she has to ate. Na, na; she maun be weel lined. The deevil in
her maun lie warm, or she'll be neither to haud nor bin'. There's
nae doobt she's waur to haud in whan she's in guid condeetion; but
she's nane sae like to tak' a body by the sma' o' the back, an' shak
the inside oot o' 'im, as she maist did ae day to the herd laddie
at the ferm, only he had an auld girth aboot the mids o' 'im for
a belt, an' he tuik the less scaith."
"Cudna we gang an' see the maister the day?" said Blue Peter,
changing the subject.
He meant Mr Graham, the late schoolmaster of Portlossie, whom the
charge of heretical teaching had driven from the place.
"We canna weel du that till we hear whaur he is. The last time Miss
Horn h'ard frae him, he was changin' his lodgin's, an' ye see the
kin' o' a place this Lon'on is," answered Malcolm.
As soon as Peter was gone, to return to the boat, Malcolm dressed
himself in his kilt and its belongings, and when it was fairly dusk,
took his pipes under his arm, and set out for Portland Place. He
had the better hope of speedy success to his plan, that he fancied
he had read on his sister's lips, in the silent communication that
passed between her and her friend in the crowd, the words come and
tomorrow. It might have been the merest imagination, yet it was
something: how often have we not to be grateful for shadows! Up
and down the street he walked a long time, without seeing a sign
of life about the house. But at length the hall was lighted. Then
the door opened, and a servant rolled out a carpet over the wide
pavement, which the snow had left wet and miry--a signal for the
street children, ever on the outlook for sights, to gather. Before
the first carriage arrived, there was already a little crowd of
humble watchers and waiters about the gutter and curb stone. But
they were not destined to much amusement that evening, the visitors
amounting only to a small dinner party. Still they had the pleasure
of seeing a few grand ladies issue from their carriages, cross the
stage of their Epiphany, the pavement, and vanish in the paradise
of the shining hall, with its ascent of gorgeous stairs. No broken
steps, no missing balusters there! And they have the show all for
nothing! It is one of the perquisites of street service. What one
would give to see the shapes glide over the field of those camerae
obscurae, the hearts of the street Arabs! once to gaze on the
jewelled beauties through the eyes of those shocked haired girls!
I fancy they do not often begrudge them what they possess, except
perhaps when feature or hair or motion chances to remind them of
some one of their own people, and they feel wronged and indignant
that size should flaunt in such splendour, "when our Sally would
set off grand clothes so much better!" It is neither the wealth
nor the general consequence it confers that they envy, but, as I
imagine, the power of making a show--of living in the eyes and
knowledge of neighbours for a few radiant moments: nothing is so
pleasant to ordinary human nature as to know itself by its reflection
from others. When it turns from these warped and broken mirrors
to seek its reflection in the divine thought, then it is redeemed;
then it beholds itself in the perfect law of liberty.
Before he became himself an object of curious interest to the crowd
he was watching, Malcolm had come to the same conclusion with many
a philosopher and observer of humanity before him--that on the
whole the rags are inhabited by the easier hearts; and he would
have arrived at the conclusion with more certainty but for the high
training that cuts off intercourse between heart and face.
When some time had elapsed, and no more carriages appeared, Malcolm,
judging the dinner must now be in full vortex, rang the bell of
the front door. It was opened by a huge footman, whose head was
so small in proportion that his body seemed to have absorbed it.
Malcolm would have stepped in at once, and told what of his tale
he chose at his leisure; but the servant, who had never seen the
dress Malcolm wore, except on street beggars, with the instinct
his class shares with watchdogs, quickly closed the door. Ere it
reached the post, however, it found Malcolm's foot between.
"Go along, Scotchy. You're not wanted here," said the man, pushing
the door hard. "Police is round the corner."
Now one of the weaknesses Malcolm owed to his Celtic blood was an
utter impatience of rudeness. In his own nature entirely courteous,
he was wrathful even to absurdity at the slightest suspicion of
insult. But that, in part through the influence of Mr Graham, the
schoolmaster, he had learned to keep a firm hold on the reins of
action, this foolish feeling would not unfrequently have hurried
him into conduct undignified. On the present occasion, I fear the
main part of his answer, but for the shield of the door, would have
been a blow to fell a bigger man than the one that now glared at
him through the shoe broad opening. As it was, his words were fierce
with suppressed wrath.
"Open the door, an' lat me in," was, however, all he said.
"What's your business?" asked the man, on whom his tone had its
effect.
"My business is with my Lady Lossie," said Malcolm, recovering his
English, which was one step towards mastering, if not recovering,
his temper.
"You can't see her. She's at dinner."
"Let me in, and I'll wait. I come from Lossie House."
"Take away your foot and I'll go and see," said the man.
"No. You open the door," returned Malcolm.
The man's answer was an attempt to kick his foot out of the doorway.
If he were to let in a tramp, what would the butler say?
But thereupon Malcolm set his port vent to his mouth, rapidly
filled his bag, while the man stared as if it were a petard with
which he was about to blow the door to shivers, and then sent from
the instrument such a shriek, as it galloped off into the Lossie
Gathering, that involuntarily his adversary pressed both hands to
his ears. With a sudden application of his knee Malcolm sent the
door wide, and entered the hall, with his pipes in full cry. The
house resounded with their yell--but only for one moment. For
down the stair, like bolt from catapult, came Demon, Florimel's
huge Irish staghound, and springing on Malcolm, put an instant end
to his music. The footman laughed with exultation, expecting to
see him torn to pieces. But when instead he saw the fierce animal,
a foot on each of his shoulders, licking Malcolm's face with long
fiery tongue, he began to doubt.
"The dog knows you," he said sulkily.
"So shall you, before long," returned Malcolm. "Was it my fault
that I made the mistake of looking for civility from you? One word
to the dog, and he has you by the throat."
"I'll go and fetch Wallis," said the man, and closing the door,
left the hall.
Now this Wallis had been a fellow servant of Malcolm's at Lossie
House, but he did not know that he had gone with Lady Bellair when
she took Florimel away: almost everyone had left at the same time.
He was now glad indeed to learn that there was one amongst the
servants who knew him.
Wallis presently made his appearance, with a dish in his hands, on
his way to the dining room, from which came the confused noises of
the feast.
"You'll be come up to wait on Lady Lossie," he said. "I haven't
a moment to speak to you now, for we're at dinner, and there's a
party."
"Never mind me. Give me that dish; I'll take it in: you can go for
another," said Malcolm, laying his pipes in a safe spot.
"You can't go into the dining room that figure," said Wallis, who
was in the Bellair livery.
"This is how I waited on my lord," returned Malcolm, "and this is
how I'll wait on my lady."
Wallis hesitated. But there was that about the fisher fellow was
too much for him. As he spoke, Malcolm took the dish from his hands,
and with it walked into the dining room.
There one reconnoitring glance was sufficient. The butler was at the
sideboard opening a champagne bottle. He had cut wire and strings,
and had his hand on the cork as Malcolm walked up to him. It was
a critical moment, yet he stopped in the very article, and stared
at the apparition.
"I'm Lady Lossie's man from Lossie House. I'll help you to wait,"
said Malcolm.
To the eyes of the butler he looked a savage. But there he
was in the room with the dish in his hands, and speaking at least
intelligibly; the cork of the champagne bottle was pushing hard
against his palm, and he had no time to question. He peeped into
Malcolm's dish.
"Take it round, then," he said. So Malcolm settled into the business
of the hour.
It was some time, after he knew where she was, before he ventured
to look at his sister: he would have her already familiarised with
his presence before their eyes met. That crisis did not arrive
during dinner.
Lord Liftore was one of the company, and so, to Malcolm's pleasure,
for he felt in him an ally against the earl, was Florimel's mysterious
friend.
CHAPTER XII: A NEW LIVERY
Scarcely had the ladies gone to the drawing room, when Florimel's
maid, who knew Malcolm, came in quest of him. Lady Lossie desired
to see him.
"What is the meaning of this, MacPhail?" she said, when he entered
the room where she sat alone. "I did not send for you. Indeed, I
thought you had been dismissed with the rest of the servants."
How differently she spoke! And she used to call him Malcolm! The
girl Florimel was gone, and there sat--the marchioness, was it?
--or some phase of riper womanhood only? It mattered little to
Malcolm. He was no curious student of man or woman. He loved his
kind too well to study it. But one thing seemed plain: she had
forgotten the half friendship and whole service that had had place
betwixt them, and it made him feel as if the soul of man no less
than his life were but as a vapour that appeareth for a little and
then vanisheth away.
But Florimel had not so entirely forgotten the past as Malcolm
thought--not so entirely at least but that his appearance, and
certain difficulties in which she had begun to find herself, brought
something of it again to her mind.
"I thought," said Malcolm, assuming his best English, "your
ladyship might not choose to part with an old servant at the will
of a factor, and so took upon me to appeal to your ladyship to
decide the question."
"But how is that? Did you not return to your fishing when the
household was broken up?"
"No, my lady. Mr Crathie kept me to help Stoat, and do odd jobs
about the place."
"And now he wants to discharge you?"
Then Malcolm told her the whole story, in which he gave such
a description of Kelpie, that her owner, as she imagined herself,
expressed a strong wish to see her; for Florimel was almost
passionately fond of horses.
"You may soon do that, my lady," said Malcolm. "Mr Soutar, not
being of the same mind as Mr Crathie, is going to send her up. It
will be but the cost of the passage from Aberdeen, and she will
fetch a better price here if your ladyship should resolve to part
with her. She won't fetch the third of her value anywhere, though,
on account of her bad temper and ugly tricks."
"But as to yourself, MacPhail--where are you going to go?" said
Florimel. "I don't like to send you away, but, if I keep you,
I don't know what to do with you. No doubt you could serve in the
house, but that would not be suitable at all to your education and
previous life."
"A body wad tak' you for a granny grown!" said Malcolm to himself.
But to Florimel he replied--"If your ladyship should wish to keep
Kelpie, you will have to keep me too, for not a creature else will
she let near her."
"And pray tell me what use then can I make of such an animal," said
Florimel.
"Your ladyship, I should imagine, will want a groom to attend you
when you are out on horseback, and the groom will want a horse--
and here am I and Kelpie!" answered Malcolm.
Florimel laughed.
"I see," she said. "You contrive I shall have a horse nobody can
manage but yourself."
She rather liked the idea of a groom so mounted, and had too much
well justified faith in Malcolm to anticipate dangerous results.
"My lady," said Malcolm, appealing to her knowledge of his
character to secure credit, for he was about to use his last means
of persuasion, and as he spoke, in his eagerness he relapsed into
his mother tongue,--"My lady, did I ever tell ye a lee?"
"Certainly not, Malcolm, so far as I know. Indeed I am sure you
never did," answered Florimel, looking up at him in a dominant yet
kindly way.
"Then," continued Malcolm, "I'll tell your ladyship something you
may find hard to believe, and yet is as true as that I loved your
ladyship's father.--Your ladyship knows he had a kindness for
me."
"I do know it," answered Florimel gently, moved by the tone of
Malcolm's voice, and the expression of his countenance.
"Then I make bold to tell your ladyship that on his deathbed your
father desired me to do my best for you--took my word that I
would be your ladyship's true servant."
"Is it so, indeed, Malcolm?" returned Florimel, with a serious wonder
in her tone, and looked him in the face with an earnest gaze. She
had loved her father, and it sounded in her ears almost like a
message from the tomb.
"It's as true as I stan' here, my leddy," said Malcolm.
Florimel was silent for a moment. Then she said, "How is it that
only now you come to tell me?"
"Your father never desired me to tell you, my lady--only he never
imagined you would want to part with me, I suppose. But when you
did not care to keep me, and never said a word to me when you went
away, I could not tell how to do as I had promised him. It wasn't
that one hour I forgot his wish, but that I feared to presume; for
if I should displease your ladyship my chance was gone. So I kept
about Lossie House as long as I could, hoping to see my way to some
plan or other. But when at length Mr Crathie turned me away, what
was I to do but come to your ladyship? And if your ladyship will
let things be as before in the way of service, I mean--I canna
doot, my leddy, but it'll be pleesant i' the sicht o' yer father,
whanever he may come to ken o' 't, my lady."
Florimel gave him a strange, half startled look. Hardly more than
once since her father's funeral had she heard him alluded to, and
now this fisher lad spoke of him as if he were still at Lossie
House.
Malcolm understood the look.
"Ye mean, my leddy--I ken what ye mean," he said. "I canna help
it. For to lo'e onything is to ken't immortal. He's livin' to me,
my lady."
Florimel continued staring, and still said nothing.
I sometimes think that the present belief in mortality is nothing
but the almost universal although unsuspected unbelief in immortality
grown vocal and articulate.
But Malcolm gathered courage and went on,
"An' what for no, my leddy?" he said, floundering no more in
attempted English, but soaring on the clumsy wings of his mother
dialect. "Didna he turn his face to the licht afore he dee'd? an'
him 'at rase frae the deid said 'at whaever believed in him sud
never dee. Sae we maun believe 'at he's livin', for gien we dinna
believe what he says, what are we to believe, my leddy?"
Florimel continued yet a moment looking him fixedly in the face.
The thought did arise that perhaps he had lost his reason, but she
could not look at him thus and even imagine it. She remembered how
strange he had always been, and for a moment had a glimmering idea
that in this young man's friendship she possessed an incorruptible
treasure. The calm, truthful, believing, almost for the moment
enthusiastic, expression of the young fisherman's face wrought upon
her with a strangely quieting influence. It was as if one spoke to
her out of a region of existence of which she had never even heard,
but in whose reality she was compelled to believe because of the
sound of the voice that came from it.
Malcolm seldom made the mistake of stamping into the earth any
seeds of truth he might cast on it: he knew when to say no more,
and for a time neither spoke. But now for all the coolness of her
upper crust, Lady Florimel's heart glowed--not indeed with the
power of the shining truth Malcolm had uttered, but with the light
of gladness in the possession of such a strong, devoted, disinterested
squire.
"I wish you to understand," she said at length, "that I am not at
present mistress of this house, although it belongs to me. I am
but the guest of Lady Bellair who has rented it of my guardians.
I cannot therefore arrange for you to be here. But you can find
accommodation in the neighbourhood, and come to me every day for
orders. Let me know when your mare arrives: I shall not want you
till then. You will find room for her in the stables. You had better
consult the butler about your groom's livery."
Malcolm was astonished at the womanly sufficiency with which she
gave her orders. He left her with the gladness of one who has had
his righteous desire, held consultation with the butler on the
matter of the livery, and went home to his lodging. There he sat
down and meditated.
A strange new yearning pity rose in his heart as he thought about
his sister and the sad facts of her lonely condition. He feared
much that her stately composure was built mainly on her imagined
position in society, and was not the outcome of her character. Would
it be cruelty to destroy that false foundation, hardly the more
false as a foundation for composure that beneath it lay a mistake?
--or was it not rather a justice which her deeper and truer self
had a right to demand of him? At present, however, he need not
attempt to answer the question. Communication even such as a trusted
groom might have with her, and familiarity with her surroundings,
would probably reveal much. Meantime it was enough that he would
now be so near her that no important change of which others might
be aware, could well approach her without his knowledge, or anything
take place without his being able to interfere if necessary.
CHAPTER XIII: TWO CONVERSATIONS
The next day Wallis came to see Malcolm and take him to the tailor's.
They talked about the guests of the previous evening.
"There's a great change on Lord Meikleham," said Malcolm.
"There is that," said Wallis. "I consider him much improved. But
you see he's succeeded; he's the earl now, and Lord Liftore--and
a menseful, broad shouldered man to the boot of the bargain. He
used to be such a windle straw!"
In order to speak good English, Wallis now and then, like some
Scotch people of better education, anglicized a word ludicrously.
"Is there no news of his marriage?" asked Malcolm, adding, "they
say he has great property."
"My love she's but a lassie yet," said Wallis, "--though she too
has changed quite as much as my lord."
"Who are you speaking of?" asked Malcolm, anxious to hear the talk
of the household on the matter.
"Why, Lady Lossie, of course. Anybody with half an eye can see as
much as that."
"Is it settled then?"
"That would be hard to say. Her ladyship is too like her father: no
one can tell what may be her mind the next minute. But, as I say,
she's young, and ought to have her fling first--so far, that
is, as we can permit it to a woman of her rank. Still, as I say,
anybody with half an eye can see the end of it all: he's for ever
hovering about her. My lady, too, has set her mind on it, and for
my part I can't see what better she can do. I must say I approve
of the match. I can see no possible objection to it."
"We used to think he drank too much," suggested Malcolm.
"Claret," said Wallis, in a tone that seemed to imply no one could
drink too much of that.
"No, not claret only. I've seen the whisky follow the claret."
"Well, he don't now--not whisky at least. He don't drink too
much--not much too much--not more than a gentleman should. He
don't look like it--does he now? A good wife, such as my Lady
Lossie will make him, will soon set him all right. I think of taking
a similar protection myself, one of these days."
"He is not worthy of her," said Malcolm.
"Well, I confess his family won't compare with hers. There's a
grandfather in it somewhere that was a banker or a brewer or a soap
boiler, or something of the sort, and she and her people have been
earls and marquises ever since they walked arm in arm out of the
ark. But, bless you! all that's been changed since I came to town.
So long as there's plenty of money and the mind to spend it, we have
learned not to be exclusive. It's selfish that. It's not Christian.
Everything lies in the mind to spend it though. Mrs Tredger--
that's our lady's maid--only this is a secret--says it's all
settled--she knows it for certain fact--only there's nothing
to be said about it yet--she's so young, you know."
"Who was the man that sat nearly opposite my lady, on the other
side of the table?" asked Malcolm.
"I know who you mean. Didn't look as if he'd got any business there
--not like the rest of them, did he? No, they never do. Odd and
end sort of people like he is, never do look the right thing--
let them try ever so hard. How can they when they ain't it? That's
a fellow that's painting Lady Lossie's portrait! Why he should
be asked to dinner for that, I'm sure I can't tell. He ain't paid
for it in victuals, is he? I never saw such land leapers let into
Lossie House, I know! But London's an awful place. There's no such
a thing as respect of persons here. Here you meet the butcher, the
baker, the candlestick maker, any night in my lady's drawing room.
I declare to you, Mawlcolm MacPhail, it makes me quite uncomfortable
at times to think who I may have been waiting upon without knowing
it. For that painter fellow, Lenorme they call him, I could knock
him on the teeth with the dish every time I hold it to him. And to
see him stare at Lady Lossie as he does!"
"A painter must want to get a right good hold of the face he's got
to paint," said Malcolm. "Is he here often?"
"He's been here five or six times already," answered Wallis, "and
how many times more I may have to fill his glass, I don't know. I
always give him second best sherry, I know. I'm sure the time that
pictur' 's been on hand! He ought to be ashamed of himself. If
she's been once to his studio, she's been twenty times--to give
him sittings as they call it. He's making a pretty penny of it, I'll
be bound! I wonder he has the cheek to show himself when my lady
treats him so haughtily. But those sort of people have no proper
feelin's, you see: it's not to be expected of such."
Wallis liked the sound of his own sentences, and a great deal
more talk of similar character followed before they got back from
the tailor's. Malcolm was tired enough of him, and never felt
the difference between man and man more strongly than when, after
leaving him, he set out for a walk with Blue Peter, whom he found
waiting him at his lodging. On this same Blue Peter, however,
Wallis would have looked down from the height of his share of the
marquisate as one of the lower orders--ignorant, vulgar, even
dirty.
They had already gazed together upon not a few of the marvels of
London, but nothing had hitherto moved or drawn them so much as the
ordinary flow of the currents of life through the huge city. Upon
Malcolm, however, this had now begun to pall, while Peter already
found it worse than irksome, and longed for Scaurnose. At the same
time loyalty to Malcolm kept him from uttering a whisper of his
homesickness. It was yet but the fourth day they had been in London.
"Eh, my lord!" said Blue Peter, when by chance they found themselves
in the lull of a little quiet court, somewhere about Gray's Inn,
with the roar of Holborn in their ears, "it's like a month sin' I
was at the kirk. I'm feart the din's gotten into my heid, an' I'll
never get it out again. I cud maist wuss I was a mackerel, for
they tell me the fish hears naething. I ken weel noo what ye meant,
my lord, whan ye said ye dreidit the din micht gar ye forget yer
Macker."
"I hae been wussin' sair mysel', this last twa days," responded
Malcolm, "'at I cud get ae sicht o' the jaws clashin' upo' the
Scaurnose, or rowin up upo' the edge o' the links. The din o' natur'
never troubles the guid thouchts in ye. I reckon it's 'cause it's
a kin' o' a harmony in 'tsel', an' a harmony's jist, as the maister
used to say, a higher kin' o' a peace. Yon organ 'at we hearkent
till ae day ootside the kirk, ye min'--man, it was a quaietness
in 'tsel', and cam' throu' the din like a bonny silence--like a
lull i' the win' o' this warl'! It wasna a din at a', but a gran'
repose like. But this noise tumultuous o' human strife, this din'
o' iron shune an' iron wheels, this whurr and whuzz o' buyin' an'
sellin' an' gettin' gain--it disna help a body to their prayers."
"Eh, na, my lord! Jist think o' the preevilege--I never saw nor
thoucht o' 't afore--o' haein' 't i' yer pooer, ony nicht 'at
ye're no efter the fish, to stap oot at yer ain door, an' be in
the mids o' the temple! Be 't licht or dark, be 't foul or fair,
the sea sleepin' or ragin', ye ha'e aye room, an' naething atween
ye an' the throne o' the Almichty, to the whilk yer prayers ken the
gait, as weel 's the herrin' to the shores o' Scotlan': ye ha'e but
to lat them flee, an' they gang straucht there. But here ye ha'e
aye to luik sae gleg efter yer boady, 'at, as ye say, my lord, yer
sowl's like to come aff the waur, gien it binna clean forgotten."
"I doobt there's something no richt aboot it, Peter," returned
Malcolm.
"There maun be a heap no richt aboot it," answered Peter.
"Ay, but I'm no meanin' 't jist as ye du. I had the haill thing
throu' my heid last nicht, an' I canna but think there's something
wrang wi' a man gien he canna hear the word o' God as weel i' the
mids o' a multitude no man can number, a' made ilk ane i' the image
o' the Father--as weel, I say, as i' the hert o' win' an' watter
an' the lift an' the starns an' a'. Ye canna say 'at thae things
are a' made i' the image o' God, in the same w'y, at least, 'at ye
can say 't o' the body an' face o' a man, for throu' them the God
o' the whole earth revealed Himsel' in Christ."
"Ow, weel, I wad alloo what ye say, gien they war a' to be considered
Christians."
"Ow, I grant we canna weel du that i' the full sense, but I doobt,
gien they bena a' Christians 'at ca's themsel's that, there's a
heap mair Christianity nor get's the credit o' its ain name. I min'
weel hoo Maister Graham said to me ance 'at hoo there was something
o' Him 'at made him luikin' oot o' the een o' ilka man 'at he had
made; an' what wad ye ca' that but a scart or a straik o' Christianity."
"Weel, I kenna; but ony gait I canna think it can be again' the
trowth o' the gospel to wuss yersel' mair alane wi' yer God nor ye
ever can be in sic an awfu' Babylon o' a place as this."
"Na, na, Peter; I'm no sayin' that. I ken weel we're to gang
intill the closet and shut to the door. I'm only afeart 'at there
be something wrang in mysel' 'at tak's 't ill to be amon' sae
mony neibors. I'm thinkin' 'at, gien a' was richt 'ithin me, gien
I lo'ed my neibor as the Lord wad hae them 'at lo'ed Him lo'e ilk
ane his brither, I micht be better able to pray amang them--ay,
i' the verra face o' the bargainin' an' leein' a' aboot me."
"An' min' ye," said Peter, pursuing the train of his own thoughts,
and heedless of Malcolm's, "'at oor Lord himsel' bude whiles to
win awa', even frae his dissiples, to be him lane wi' the Father
o' 'im."
"Ay, ye're richt there, Peter," answered Malcolm, "but there's ae
p'int in 't ye maunna forget--and that is 'at it was never i'
the day-time--sae far's I min'--'at he did sae. The lee lang
day he was among 's fowk--workin' his michty wark. Whan the nicht
cam', in which no man could wark, he gaed hame till 's Father, as
't war. Eh me! but it's weel to ha'e a man like the schuilmaister
to put trowth intill ye. I kenna what comes o' them 'at ha'e drucken
maisters, or sic as cares for naething but coontin' an Laitin, an'
the likes o' that!"
CHAPTER XIV: FLORIMEL
That night Florimel had her thoughts as well as Malcolm. Already
life was not what it had been to her, and the feeling of a difference
is often what sets one a-thinking first. While her father lived,
and the sureness of his love overarched her consciousness with a
heaven of safety, the physical harmony of her nature had supplied
her with a more than sufficient sense of well being. Since his death,
too, there had been times when she even fancied an enlargement of
life in the sense of freedom and power which came with the knowledge
of being a great lady, possessed of the rare privilege of an ancient
title and an inheritance which seemed to her a yet greater wealth
than it was. But she had soon found that, as to freedom, she had
less of that than before--less of the feeling of it within her:
not much freedom of any sort is to be had without fighting for it,
and she had yet to discover that the only freedom worth the name
--that of heart, and soul, and mind--is not to be gained except
through the hardest of battles. She was very lonely, too. Lady
Bellair had never assumed with her any authority, and had always
been kind even to petting, but there was nothing about her to make
a home for the girl's heart. She felt in her no superiority, and
for a spiritual home that is essential. As she learned to know her
better, this sense of loneliness went on deepening, for she felt
more and more that her guardian was not one in whom she could place
genuine confidence, while yet her power over her was greater than
she knew. The innocent nature of the girl had begun to recoil from
what she saw in the woman of the world, and yet she had in herself
worldliness enough to render her fully susceptible of her influences.
Notwithstanding her fine health and natural spirits, Florimel had
begun to know what it is to wake suddenly of a morning between
three and four, and lie for a long weary time, sleepless. In youth
bodily fatigue ensures falling asleep, but as soon as the body is
tolerably rested, if there be unrest in the mind, that wakes it,
and consciousness returns in the shape of a dull misgiving like the
far echo of the approaching trump of the archangel. Indeed, those
hours are as a vestibule to the great hall of judgment, and to such
as, without rendering it absolute obedience, yet care to keep on
some sort of terms with their conscience, is a time of anything but
comfort. Nor does the court in those hours sitting, concern itself
only with heavy questions of right or wrong, but whoever loves
and cares himself for his appearance before the eyes of men, finds
himself accused of paltry follies, stupidities, and indiscretions,
and punished with paltry mortifications, chagrins, and anxieties.
From such arraignment no man is free but him who walks in the perfect
law of liberty--that is, the will of the Perfect--which alone
is peace.
On the morning after she had thus taken Malcolm again into her
service, Florimel had one of these experiences--a foretaste of
the Valley of the Shadow: she awoke in the hour when judgment sits
upon the hearts of men. Or is it not rather the hour for which a
legion of gracious spirits are on the watch--when, fresh raised
from the death of sleep, cleansed a little from the past and its
evils by the gift of God, the heart and brain are most capable of
their influences?--the hour when, besides, there is no refuge of
external things wherein the man may shelter himself from the truths
they would so gladly send conquering into the citadel of his nature,
--no world of the senses to rampart the soul from thought, when
the eye and the ear are as if they were not, and the soul lies naked
before the infinite of reality. This live hour of the morning is
the most real hour of the day, the hour of the motions of a prisoned
and persecuted life, of its effort to break through and breathe. A
good man then finds his refuge in the heart of the Purifying Fire;
the bad man curses the swarms of Beelzebub that settle upon every
sore spot in his conscious being.
But it was not the general sense of unfitness in the conditions
of her life, neither was it dissatisfaction with Lady Bellair, or
the want of the pressure of authority upon her unstable being; it
was not the sense of loneliness and unshelteredness in the sterile
waste of fashionable life, neither was it weariness with the same
and its shows, or all these things together, that could have waked
the youth of Florimel and kept it awake at this hour of the night
--for night that hour is, however near the morning.
Some few weeks agone, she had accompanied to the study of a certain
painter, a friend who was then sitting to him for her portrait. The
moment she entered, the appearance of the man and his surroundings
laid hold of her imagination. Although on the very verge of popularity,
he was young--not more than five and twenty. His face, far from
what is called handsome, had a certain almost grandeur in it, owed
mainly to the dominant forehead, and the regnant life in the eyes.
To this the rest of the countenance was submissive. The mouth was
sweet yet strong, seeming to derive its strength from the will
that towered above and overhung it, throned on the crags of those
eyebrows. The nose was rather short, not unpleasantly so, and had
mass enough. In figure he was scarcely above the usual height,
but well formed. To a first glance even, the careless yet graceful
freedom of his movements was remarkable, while his address was
manly, and altogether devoid of self recommendation. Confident
modesty and unobtrusive ease distinguished his demeanour. His
father, Arnold Lenorme, descended from an old Norman family, had
given him the Christian name of Raoul, which, although outlandish,
tolerably fitted the surname, notwithstanding the contiguous l's,
objectionable to the fastidious ear of their owner. The earlier
and more important part of his education, the beginnings, namely,
of everything he afterwards further followed, his mother herself
gave him, partly because she was both poor and capable, and
partly because she was more anxious than most mothers for his best
welfare. The poverty they had crept through, as those that strive
after better things always will, one way or another, with immeasurable
advantage, and before the time came when he must leave home, her
influence had armed him in adamant--a service which alas! few
mothers seem capable of rendering the knights whom they send out into
the battlefield of the world. Most of them give their children the
best they have; but how shall a foolish woman ever be a wise mother?
The result in his case was, that reverence for her as the type of
womanhood, working along with a natural instinct for refinement, a
keen feeling of the incompatibility with art of anything in itself
low or unclean, and a healthful and successful activity of mind,
had rendered him so far upright and honourable that he had never
yet done that in one mood which in another he had looked back upon
with loathing. As yet he had withstood the temptations belonging
to his youth and his profession--in great measure also the
temptations belonging to success; he had not yet been tried with
disappointment, or sorrow, or failure.
As to the environment in which Florimel found him, it was to her
a region of confused and broken colour and form--a kind of chaos
out of which beauty was ever ready to start. Pictures stood on
easels, leaned against chair backs, glowed from the wall--each
contributing to the atmosphere of solved rainbow that seemed to
fill the space. Lenorme was seated--not at his easel, but at a
grand piano, which stood away, half hidden in a corner, as if it
knew itself there on sufferance, with pictures all about the legs
of it. For they had walked straight in without giving his servant
time to announce them. A bar of a song, in a fine tenor voice,
broke as they opened the door; and the painter came to meet them
from the farther end of the study. He shook hands with Florimel's
friend, and turned with a bow to her. At the first glance the eyes
of both fell. Raised the same instant, they encountered each other
point blank, and then the eloquent blood had its turn at betrayal.
What the moment meant, Florimel did not understand; but it seemed
as if Raoul and she had met somewhere long ago, were presumed not
to know it, but could not help remembering it, and agreeing to
recognise it as a fact. A strange pleasure filled her heart. While
Mrs Barnardiston sat she flitted about the room like a butterfly,
looking at one thing after another, and asking now the most ignorant,
now the most penetrative question, disturbing not a little the
work, but sweetening the temper of the painter, as he went on with
his study of the mask and helmet into which the Gorgon stare of
the Unideal had petrified the face and head of his sitter. He found
the situation trying nevertheless. It was as if Cupid had been set
by Jupiter to take a portrait of Io in her stall, while evermore he
heard his Psyche fluttering about among the peacocks in the yard.
For the girl had bewitched him at first sight. He thought it was
only as an artist, though to be sure a certain throb, almost of
pain, in the region of the heart, when first his eyes fell before
hers, might have warned, and perhaps did in vain warn him otherwise.
Sooner than usual he professed himself content with the sitting,
and then proceeded to show the ladies some of his sketches and
pictures. Florimel asked to see one standing as in disgrace with
its front to the wall. He put it, half reluctantly, on an easel,
and said it was meant for the unveiling of Isis, as presented in
a maehrchen of Novalis, introduced in Die Lehrlinge zu Sais, in
which the goddess of Nature reveals to the eager and anxious gaze
of the beholder the person of his Rosenbluethchen, whom he had left
behind him when he set out to visit the temple of the divinity.
But on the great pedestal where should have sat the goddess there
was no gracious form visible. That part of the picture was a
blank. The youth stood below, gazing enraptured with parted lips
and outstretched arms, as if he had already begun' to suspect what
had begun to dawn through the slowly thinning veil--but to the
eye of the beholder he gazed as yet only on vacancy, and the picture
had not reached an attempt at self explanation. Florimel asked why
he had left it so long unfinished, for the dust was thick on the
back of the canvas.
"Because I have never seen the face or figure," the painter answered,
"either in eye of mind or of body, that claimed the position."
As he spoke, his eyes seemed to Florimel to lighten strangely, and
as if by common consent they turned away, and looked at something
else. Presently Mrs Barnardiston, who cared more for sound than
form or colour, because she could herself sing a little, began to
glance over some music on the piano, curious to find what the young
man had been singing, whereupon Lenorme said to Florimel hurriedly,
and almost in a whisper, with a sort of hesitating assurance,
"If you would give me a sitting or two--I know I am presumptuous,
but if you would--I--I should send the picture to the Academy
in a week."
"I will," replied Florimel, flushing like a wild poppy, and as she
said it, she looked up in his face and smiled.
"It would have been selfish," she said to herself as they drove
away, "to refuse him."
This first interview, and all the interviews that had followed, now
passed through her mind as she lay awake in the darkness preceding
the dawn, and she reviewed them not without self reproach. But
for some of my readers it will be hard to believe that one of the
feelings that now tormented the girl was a sense of lowered dignity
because of the relation in which she stood to the painter--seeing
there was little or no ground for moral compunction, and the feeling
had its root merely in the fact that he was a painter fellow, and
she a marchioness. Her rank had already grown to seem to her so
identified with herself that she was hardly any longer capable of
the analysis that should show it distinct from her being. As to any
duty arising from her position, she had never heard the word used
except as representing something owing to, not owed by rank. Social
standing in the eyes of the super excellent few of fashion was the
Satan of unrighteousness worshipped around her. And the precepts
of this worship fell upon soil prepared for it. For with all the
simplicity of her nature, there was in it an inborn sense of rank,
of elevation in the order of the universe above most others of the
children of men--of greater intrinsic worth therefore in herself.
How could it be otherwise with the offspring of generations of pride
and falsely conscious superiority? Hence, as things were going now
with the mere human part of her, some commotion, if not earthquake
indeed, was imminent. Nay the commotion had already begun, as
manifest in her sleeplessness and the thoughts that occupied it.
Rightly to understand the sense of shame and degradation she had
not unfrequently felt of late, we must remember that in the circle
in which she moved she heard professions, arts, and trades alluded
to with the same unuttered, but the more strongly implied contempt
--a contempt indeed regarded as so much a matter of course, so
thoroughly understood, so reasonable in its nature, so absolute in
its degree, that to utter it would have been bad taste from very
superfluity. Yet she never entered the painter's study but with
trembling heart, uncertain foot, and fluttering breath, as of one
stepping within the gates of an enchanted paradise, whose joy is
too much for the material weight of humanity to ballast even to the
steadying of the bodily step, and the outward calm of the bodily
carriage. How far things had gone between them we shall be able to
judge by and by; it will be enough at present to add that it was
this relation and the inward strife arising from it that had not
only prematurely, but over rapidly ripened the girl into the woman.
This my disclosure of her condition, however, has not yet uncovered
the sorest spot upon which the flies of Beelzebub settled in the
darkness of this torture hour of the human clock. Although still
the same lively, self operative nature she had been in other
circumstances, she was so far from being insensible or indifferent
to the opinions of others, that she had not even strength enough to
keep a foreign will off the beam of her choice: the will of another,
in no way directly brought to bear on hers, would yet weigh to
her encouragement where her wish was doubtful, or to her restraint
where impulse was strong; it would even move her towards a line
of conduct whose anticipated results were distasteful to her. Ever
and anon her pride would rise armed against the consciousness of
slavery, but its armour was too weak either for defence or for
deliverance. She knew that the heart of Lady Bellair, what of heart
she had, was set upon her marriage with her nephew, Lord Liftore.
Now she recoiled from the idea of marriage, and dismissed it into
a future of indefinite removal; she had no special desire to please
Lady Bellair from the point of gratitude, for she was perfectly aware
that her relation to herself was far from being without advantage
to that lady's position as well as means: a whisper or two that
had reached her had been enough to enlighten her in that direction;
neither could she persuade herself that Lord Liftore was at all
the sort of man she could become proud of as a husband; and yet she
felt destined to be his wife. On the other hand she had no dislike
to him: he was handsome, well informed, capable--a gentleman,
she thought, of good regard in the circles in which they moved, and
one who would not in any manner disgrace her, although to be sure
he was her inferior in rank, and she would rather have married
a duke. At the same time, to confess all the truth, she was by no
means indifferent to the advantages of having for a husband a man
with money enough to restore the somewhat tarnished prestige of her
own family to its pristine brilliancy. She had never said a word
to encourage the scheming of Lady Bellair; neither, on the other
hand, had she ever said a word to discourage her hopes, or give her
ground for doubting the acceptableness of her cherished project.
Hence Lady Bellair had naturally come to regard the two as almost
affianced. But Florimel's aversion to the idea of marriage, and her
horror at the thought of the slightest whisper of what was between
her and Lenorme, increased together.
There were times too when she asked herself in anxious discomfort
whether she was not possibly a transgressor against a deeper and
simpler law than that of station--whether she was altogether
maidenly in the encouragement she had given and was giving to the
painter. It must not be imagined that she had once visited him
without a companion, though that companion was indeed sometimes
only her maid--her real object being covered by the true pretext
of sitting for her portrait, which Lady Bellair pleased herself
with imagining would one day be presented to Lord Liftore. But she
could not, upon such occasions of morning judgment as this, fail
to doubt sorely whether the visits she paid him, and the liberties
which upon fortunate occasions she allowed him, were such as could
be justified on any ground other than that she was prepared to give
him all. All, however, she was by no means prepared to give him:
that involved consequences far too terrible to be contemplated even
as possibilities.
With such causes for disquiet in her young heart and brain, it is
not then wonderful that she should sometimes be unable to slip across
this troubled region of the night in the boat of her dreams, but
should suffer shipwreck on the waking coast, and have to encounter
the staring and questioning eyes of more than one importunate truth.
Nor is it any wonder either that, to such an inexperienced and so
troubled a heart, the assurance of one absolutely devoted friend
should come with healing and hope--even if that friend should be
but a groom, altogether incapable of understanding her position,
or perceiving the phantoms that crowded about her, threatening to
embody themselves in her ruin. A clumsy, ridiculous fellow, she
said to herself, from whose person she could never dissociate the
smell of fish, who talked a horrible jargon called Scotch, and
who could not be prevented from uttering unpalatable truths at
uncomfortable moments; yet whose thoughts were as chivalrous as
his person was powerful, and whose countenance was pleasing if only
for the triumph of honesty therein: she actually felt stronger and
safer to know he was near, and at her beck and call.
CHAPTER XV: PORTLOSSIE
Mr Crathie, seeing nothing more of Malcolm, believed himself at
last well rid of him; but it was days before his wrath ceased to
flame, and then it went on smouldering. Nothing occurred to take
him to the Seaton, and no business brought any of the fisher people
to his office during that time. Hence he heard nothing of the mode
of Malcolm's departure. When at length in the course of ordinary
undulatory propagation the news reached him that Malcolm had taken
the yacht with him, he was enraged beyond measure at the impudence
of the theft, as he called it, and ran to the Seaton in a fury.
He had this consolation, however: the man who had accused him of
dishonesty and hypocrisy had proved but a thief.
He found the boathouse indeed empty, and went storming from cottage
to cottage, but came upon no one from whom his anger could draw
nourishment, not to say gain satisfaction. At length he reached the
Partan's, found him at home, and commenced, at haphazard, abusing
him as an aider and abettor of the felony. But Meg Partan was at
home also, as Mr Crathie soon learned to his cost; for, hearing
him usurp her unique privilege of falling out upon her husband,
she stole from the ben end, and having stood for a moment silent
in the doorway, listening for comprehension, rushed out in a storm
of tongue.
"An' what for sudna my man," she cried, at full height of her
screeching voice, "lay tu his han' wi' ither honest fowk to du for
the boat what him 'at was weel kent for the captain o' her, sin'
ever she was a boat, wantit dune? Wad ye tak the comman' o' the
boat, sir, as weel's o' a' thing ither aboot the place?"
"Hold your tongue, woman," said the factor; "I have nothing to say
to you."
"Aigh, sirs! but it's a peety ye wasna foreordeent to be markis
yersel'! It maun be a sair vex to ye 'at ye're naething but the
factor."
"If ye don't mind your manners, Mistress Fin'lay," said Mr Crathie
in glowing indignation, "perhaps you'll find that the factor is as
much as the marquis, when he's all there is for one."
"Lord safe 's hear till 'im !" cried the Partaness. "Wha wad hae
thoucht it o' 'im? There's fowk 'at it sets weel to tak upo' them!
His father, honest man, wad ne'er hae spoken like that to Meg
Partan; but syne he was an honest man, though he was but the heid
shepherd upo' the estate. Man, I micht hae been yer mither--gien
I had been auld eneuch for 's first wife, for he wad fain hae had
me for 's second."
"I've a great mind to take out a warrant against you, John Fin'lay,
otherwise called the Partan, as airt an' pairt in the stealing of
the Marchioness of Lossie's pleasure boat," said the factor. "And
for you, Mistress Fin'lay, I would have you please to remember that
this house, as far at least as you are concerned, is mine, although
I am but the factor, and not the marquis; and if you don't keep
that unruly tongue of yours a little quieter in your head, I'll
set you in the street the next quarter day but one, as sure's ever
you gutted a herring, and then you may bid goodbye to Portlossie,
for there's not a house, as you very well know, in all the Seaton,
that belongs to another than her ladyship."
"'Deed, Mr Crathie," returned Meg Partan, a little sobered by the
threat, "ye wad hae mair sense nor rin the risk o' an uprisin'
o' the fisher fowk. They wad ill stan' to see my auld man an' me
misused, no to say 'at her leddyship hersel' wad see ony o' her
ain fowk turned oot o' hoose an' haudin' for naething ava."
"Her ladyship wad gi'e hersel' sma' concern gien the haill bilin'
o' ye war whaur ye cam frae," returned the factor. "An' for the
toon here, the fowk kens the guid o' a quaiet caus'ay ower weel to
lament the loss o' ye."
"The deil's i' the man!" cried the Partaness in high scorn. "He
wad threip upo' me 'at I was ane o' thae lang tongued limmers 'at
maks themsel's h'ard frae ae toon's en' to the tither! But I s'
gar him priv 's words yet!"
"Ye see, sir," interposed the mild Partan, anxious to shove extremities
aside, "we didna ken 'at there was onything intill't by ord'nar.
Gien we had but kent 'at he was oot o' your guid graces,--"
"Haud yer tongue afore ye lee, man," interrupted his wife. "Ye ken
weel eneuch ye wad du what Ma'colm MacPhail wad hae ye du, for ony
factor in braid Scotlan'."
"You must have known," said the factor to the Partan, apparently
heedless of this last outbreak of the generous evil temper, and
laying a cunning trap for the information he sorely wanted, but
had as yet failed in procuring--"else why was it that not a soul
went with him? He could ill manage the boat alone."
"What put sic buff an' styte i' yer heid, sir?" rejoined Meg;
defiant of the hints her husband sought to convey to her. "There's
mony ane wad hae been ready to gang, only wha sud gang but him 'at
gaed wi' him an' 's lordship frae the first?"
"And who was that?" asked Mr Crathie.
"Ow! wha but Blue Peter?" answered Meg.
"Hm!" said the factor, in a tone that for almost the first time in
her life made the woman regret that she had spoken, and therewith
he rose and left the cottage.
"Eh, mither!" cried Lizzy, in her turn appearing from the ben end,
with her child in her arms, "ye hae wroucht ruin i' the earth! He'll
hae Peter an' Annie an' a' oot o' hoose an' ha', come midsummer."
"I daur him till't!" cried her mother, in the impotence and self
despite of a mortifying blunder; "I'll raise the toon upon 'im."
"What wad that du, mither?" returned Lizzy, in distress about her
friends. "It wad but mak' ill waur."
"An' wha are ye to oppen yer mou' sae wide to yer mither?" burst
forth Meg Partan, glad of an object upon which the chagrin that
consumed her might issue in flame. "Ye havena luikit to yer ain
gait sae weel 'at ye can thriep to set richt them 'at broucht ye
forth.--Wha are ye, I say?" she repeated in rage.
"Ane 'at folly's made wiser, maybe, mither," answered Lizzie sadly,
and proceeded to take her shawl from behind the door: she would go
to her friends at Scaurnose, and communicate her fears for their
warning. But her words smote the mother within the mother, and she
turned and looked at her daughter with more of the woman and less
of the Partan in her rugged countenance than had been visible there
since the first week of her married life. She had been greatly
injured by the gaining of too easy a conquest and resultant supremacy
over her husband, whence she had ever after revelled in a rule too
absolute for good to any concerned. As she was turning away, her
daughter caught a glimpse of her softened eyes, and went out of the
house with more comfort in her heart than she had felt ever since
first she had given her conscience cause to speak daggers to her.
The factor kept raging to himself all the way home, flung himself
trembling on his horse, vouchsafing his anxious wife scarce any
answer to her anxious enquiries, and galloped to Duff Harbour to
Mr Soutar.
I will not occupy my tale with their interview. Suffice it to say
that the lawyer succeeded at last in convincing the demented factor
that it would be but prudent to delay measures for the recovery
of the yacht and the arrest and punishment of its abductors, until
he knew what Lady Lossie would say to the affair. She had always
had a liking for the lad, Mr Soutar said, and he would not be in
the least surprised to hear that Malcolm had gone straight to her
ladyship and put himself under her protection. No doubt by this
time the cutter was at its owner's disposal: it would be just like
the fellow! He always went the nearest road anywhere. And to prosecute
him for a thief would in any case but bring down the ridicule of
the whole coast upon the factor, and breed him endless annoyance
in the getting in of his rents--especially among the fishermen.
The result was that Mr Crathie went home--not indeed a humbler
or wiser man than he had gone, but a thwarted man, and therefore
the more dangerous in the channels left open to the outrush of his
angry power.
When Lizzy reached Scaurnose, her account of the factor's behaviour,
to her surprise, did not take much effect upon Mrs Mair: a queer
little smile broke over her countenance, and vanished. An enforced
gravity succeeded, however, and she began to take counsel with
Lizzy as to what they could do, or where they could go, should the
worst come to the worst, and the doors, not only of her own house,
but of Scaurnose and Portlossie as well, be shut against them.
But through it all reigned a calm regard and fearlessness of the
future which, to Lizzy's roused and apprehensive imagination, was
strangely inexplicable. Annie Mair seemed possessed of some hidden
and upholding assurance that raised her above the fear of man or
what he could do to her. The girl concluded it must be the knowledge
of God, and prayed more earnestly that night than she had prayed
since the night on which Malcolm had talked to her so earnestly
before he left. I must add this much, that she was not altogether
astray: God was in Malcolm, giving new hope to his fisher folk.
CHAPTER XVI: ST JAMES THE APOSTLE
When Malcolm left his sister, he had a dim sense of having lapsed
into Scotch, and set about buttressing and strengthening his
determination to get rid of all unconscious and unintended use of
the northern dialect, not only that, in his attendance upon Florimel,
he might be neither offensive nor ridiculous, but that, when the
time should come in which he must appear what he was, it might
be less of an annoyance to her to yield the marquisate to one who
could speak like a gentleman and one of the family. But not the
less did he love the tongue he had spoken from his childhood, and
in which were on record so many precious ballads and songs, old
and new; and he resolved that, when he came out as a marquis, he
would at Lossie House indemnify himself for the constraint of London.
He would not have an English servant there except Mrs Courthope: he
would not have the natural country speech corrupted with cockneyisms,
and his people taught to speak like Wallis! To his old friends the
fishers and their families, he would never utter a sentence but
in the old tongue, haunted with all the memories of relations that
were never to be obliterated or forgotten, its very tones reminding
him and them of hardships together endured, pleasures shared, and
help willingly given. At night, notwithstanding, he found that in
talking with Blue Peter, he had forgotten all about his resolve,
and it vexed him with himself not a little. He now saw that if he
could but get into the way of speaking English to him, the victory
would be gained, for with no one else would he find any difficulty
then.
The next morning he went down to the stairs at London Bridge, and
took a boat to the yacht. He had to cross several vessels to reach
it. When at length he looked down from the last of them on the deck
of the little cutter, he saw Blue Peter sitting on the coamings of
the hatch, his feet hanging down within. He was lost in the book
he was reading. Curious to see, without disturbing him, what it
was that so absorbed him, Malcolm dropped quietly on the tiller,
and thence on the deck, and approaching softly peeped over his
shoulder. He was reading the epistle of James the apostle. Malcolm
fell a-thinking. From Peter's thumbed bible his eyes went wandering
through the thicket of masts, in which moved so many busy seafarers,
and then turned to the docks and wharfs and huge warehouses lining
the shores; and while they scanned the marvellous vision, the
thoughts that arose and passed through his brain were like these:
"What are ye duin' here, Jeames the Just? Ye was naething but a
fisher body upon a sma' watter i' the hert o' the hills, 'at wasna
even saut; an' what can the thochts that gaed throu' your fish
catchin' brain hae to du wi' sic a sicht 's this? I won'er gien at
this moment there be anither man in a' Lon'on sittin' readin' that
epistle o' yours but Blue Peter here? He thinks there's naething
o' mair importance, 'cep' maybe some ither pairts o' the same buik;
but syne he's but a puir fisher body himsel', an' what kens he o'
the wisdom an' riches an' pooer o' this michty queen o' the nations,
thron't aboot him?--Is't possible the auld body kent something
'at was jist as necessar' to ilka man, the busiest in this croodit
mairt, to ken an' gang by, as it was to Jeames an' the lave o' the
michty apostles themsel's? For me, I dinna doobt it--but hoo it
sud ever be onything but an auld warld story to the new warld o'
Lon'on, I think it wad bleck Maister Graham himsel' til imaigine."
Before this, Blue Peter had become aware that some one was near
him, but, intent on the words of his brother fisher of the old time,
had half unconsciously put off looking up to see who was behind
him. When now he did so, and saw Malcolm, he rose and touched his
bonnet.
"It was jist i' my heid, my lord," he said, without any preamble,
"sic a kin' o' a h'avenly Jacobin as this same Jacobus was! He's
sic a leveller as was feow afore 'im, I doobt, wi' his gowd ringt
man, an' his cloot cled brither! He pat me in twa min's, my lord,
whan I got up, whether I wad touch my bonnet to yer lordship or
no."
Malcolm laughed with hearty appreciation.
"When I am king of Lossie," he said, "be it known to all whom it
may concern, that it is and shall be the right of Blue Peter, and
all his descendants, to the end of time, to stand with bonneted
heads in the presence of Lord or--no, not Lady, Peter--of the
house of Lossie."
"Ay, but ye see, Ma'colm," said Peter, forgetting his address, and
his eye twinkling in the humour of the moment, "it's no by your
leave, or ony man's leave; it's the richt o' the thing; an' that
I maun think aboot, an' see whether I be at leeberty to ca' ye my
lord or no."
"Meantime, don't do it," said Malcolm, "lest you should have to
change afterwards. You might find it difficult."
"Ye're cheengt a'ready," said Blue Peter, looking up at him sharply.
"I ne'er h'ard ye speyk like that afore."
"Make nothing of it," returned Malcolm. "I am only airing my
English on you; I have made up my mind to learn to speak in London
as London people do, and so, even to you, in the meantime only, I
am going to speak as good English as I can.--It's nothing between
you and me, Peter and you must not mind it," he added, seeing a
slight cloud come over the fisherman's face.
Blue Peter turned away with a sigh. The sounds of English speech
from the lips of Malcolm addressed to himself, seemed vaguely to
indicate the opening of a gulf between them, destined ere long to
widen to the whole social width between a fisherman and a marquis,
swallowing up in it not only all old memories, but all later
friendship and confidence. A shadow of bitterness crossed the poor
fellow's mind, and in it the seed of distrust began to strike root,
and all because a newer had been substituted for an older form of
the same speech and language. Truly man's heart is a delicate piece
of work, and takes gentle handling or hurt. But that the pain was
not all of innocence is revealed in the strange fact, afterwards
disclosed by the repentant Peter himself, that, in that same moment,
what had just passed his mouth as a joke, put on an important,
serious look, and appeared to involve a matter of doubtful duty:
was it really right of one man to say my lord to another? Thus the
fisherman, and not the marquis, was the first to sin against the
other because of altered fortune. Distrust awoke pride in the heart
of Blue Pete; and he erred in the lack of the charity that thinketh
no evil.
But the lack and the doubt made little show as yet. The two men
rowed in the dinghy down the river to the Aberdeen wharf to make
arrangements about Kelpie, whose arrival Malcolm expected the
following Monday, then dined together, and after that had a long
row up the river.
CHAPTER XVII: A DIFFERENCE
Notwithstanding his keenness of judgment and sobriety in action,
Malcolm had yet a certain love for effect, a delight, that is,
in the show of concentrated results, which, as I believe I have
elsewhere remarked, belongs especially to the Celtic nature, and
is one form in which the poetic element vaguely embodies itself.
Hence arose the temptation to try on Blue Peter the effect of a
literally theatrical surprise. He knew well the prejudices of the
greater portion of the Scots people against every possible form of
artistic, most of all, dramatic representation. He knew, therefore,
also, that Peter would never be persuaded to go with him to
the theatre: to invite him would be like asking him to call upon
Beelzebub; but as this feeling was cherished in utter ignorance
of its object, he judged he would be doing him no wrong if he made
experiment how the thing itself would affect the heart and judgment
of the unsophisticated fisherman.
Finding that The Tempest was still the play represented, he
contrived, as they walked together, so to direct their course that
they should be near Drury Lane towards the hour of commencement.
He did not want to take him in much before the time: he would not
give him scope for thought, doubt, suspicion, discovery.
When they came in front of the theatre, people were crowding in,
and carriages setting down their occupants. Blue Peter gave a glance
at the building.
"This'll be ane o' the Lon'on kirks, I'm thinkin'?" he said. "It's
a muckle place; an' there maun be a heap o' guid fowk in Lon'on,
for as ill's it's ca'd, to see sae mony, an' i' their cairritches,
comin' to the kirk--on a Setterday nicht tu. It maun be some kin'
o' a prayer meetin', I'm thinkin'."
Malcolm said nothing, but led the way to the pit entrance.
"That's no an ill w'y o' getherin' the baubees," said Peter, seeing
how the incomers paid their money. "I hae h'ard o' the plate bein'
robbit in a muckle toon afore noo."
When at length they were seated, and he had time to glance reverently
around him, he was a little staggered at sight of the decorations;
and the thought crossed his mind of the pictures and statues he
had heard of in catholic churches; but he remembered Westminster
Abbey, its windows and monuments, and returned to his belief that
he was, if in an episcopal, yet in a protestant church. But he could
not help the thought that the galleries were a little too gaudily
painted, while the high pews in them astonished him. Peter's nature,
however, was one of those calm, slow ones which, when occupied by
an idea or a belief, are by no means ready to doubt its correctness,
and are even ingenious in reducing all apparent contradictions to
theoretic harmony with it--whence it came that to him all this
was only part of the church furniture according to the taste and
magnificence of London. He sat quite tranquil, therefore, until the
curtain rose, revealing the ship's company in all the confusion of
the wildest of sea storms.
Malcolm watched him narrowly. But Peter was first so taken by surprise,
and then so carried away with the interest of what he saw, that
thinking had ceased in him utterly, and imagination lay passive
as a mirror to the representation. Nor did the sudden change from
the first to the second scene rouse him, for before his thinking
machinery could be set in motion, the delight of the new show
had again caught him in its meshes. For to him, as it had been to
Malcolm, it was the shore at Portlossie, while the cave that opened
behind was the Bailie's Barn, where his friends the fishers might
at that moment, if it were a fine night, be holding one of their
prayer meetings. The mood lasted all through the talk of Prospero
and Miranda; but when Ariel entered there came a snap, and the spell
was broken. With a look in which doubt wrestled with horror, Blue
Peter turned to Malcolm, and whispered with bated breath--"I'm
jaloosin'--it canna be--it's no a playhoose, this?"
Malcolm merely nodded, but from the nod Peter understood that he
had had no discovery to make as to the character of the place they
were in.
"Eh!" he groaned, overcome with dismay. Then rising suddenly--
"Guid nicht to ye, my lord," he said, with indignation, and rudely
forced his way from the crowded house.
Malcolm followed in his wake, but said nothing till they were in
the street. Then, forgetting utterly his resolves concerning English
in the distress of having given his friend ground to complain of
his conduct towards him, he laid his hand on Blue Peter's arm, and
stopped him in the middle of the narrow street.
"I but thoucht, Peter," he said, "to get ye to see wi' yer ain een,
an' hear wi' yer ain ears, afore ye passed jeedgment; but ye're
jist like the lave."
"An' what for sudna I be jist like the lave?" returned Peter,
fiercely.
"'Cause it's no fair to set doon a' thing for wrang 'at ye ha'e
been i' the w'y o' hearing aboot by them 'at kens as little aboot
them as yersel'. I cam here mysel', ohn kent whaur I was gaein',
the ither nicht, for the first time i' my life; but I wasna fleyt
like you, 'cause I kent frae the buik a' 'at was comin'. I hae
h'ard in a kirk in ae ten meenutes jist a sicht o' what maun ha'e
been sair displeasin' to the hert a' the maister a' 's a'; but
that nicht I saw nae ill an' h'ard nae ill, but was weel peyed back
upo' them 'at did it an' said it afore the business was ower, an'
that's mair nor ye'll see i' the streets o' Portlossie ilka day.
The playhoose is whaur ye gang to see what comes o' things 'at ye
canna follow oot in ordinar' life."
Whether Malcolm, after a year's theatre going, would have said
precisely the same is hardly doubtful. He spoke of the ideal theatre
to which Shakspere is true, and in regard to that he spoke rightly.
"Ye decoy't me intill the hoose o' ineequity!" was Peter's indignant
reply; "an' it 's no what ye ever ga'e me cause to expec' o' ye,
sae 'at I micht ha'e ta'en tent o' ye."
"I thoucht nae ill o' 't," returned Malcolm.
"Weel, I div," retorted Peter.
"Then perhaps you are wrong," said Malcolm, "for charity thinketh
no evil. You wouldn't stay to see the thing out."
"There ye are at yer English again! an' misgugglin' Scriptur'
wi' 't an' a' this upo' Setterday nicht--maist the Sawbath day!
Weel, I ha'e aye h'ard 'at Lon'on was an awfu' place, but I little
thoucht the verra air o' 't wad sae sune turn an honest laad like
Ma'colm MacPhail intill a scoffer. But maybe it's the markis o'
'im, an' no the muckle toon 'at's made the differ. Ony gait, I'm
thinkin' it'll be aboot time for me to be gauin' hame."
Malcolm was vexed with himself, and both disappointed and troubled
at the change which had come over his friend, and threatened to
destroy the lifelong relation between them; his feelings therefore
held him silent. Peter concluded that the marquis was displeased,
and it clenched his resolve to go.
"What w'y am I to win hame, my lord?" he said, when they had walked
some distance without word spoken.
"By the Aberdeen smack," returned Malcolm. "She sails on Tuesday.
I will see you on board. You must take young Davy with you, for I
wouldn't have him here after you are gone. There will be nothing
for him to do."
"Ye're unco ready to pairt wi' 's noo 'at ye ha'e nae mair use for
's," said Peter.
"No sae ready as ye seem to pairt wi' yer chairity," said Malcolm,
now angry too.
"Ye see Annie 'ill be thinkin' lang," said Peter, softening a
little.
No more angry words passed between them, but neither did any
thoroughly cordial ones, and they parted at the stairs in mutual,
though, with such men, it could not be more than superficial
estrangement.
CHAPTER XVIII: LORD LIFTORE
The chief cause of Malcolm's anxiety had been, and perhaps still
was, Lord Liftore. In his ignorance of Mr Lenorme there might
lie equal cause with him, but he knew such evil of the other that
his whole nature revolted against the thought of his marrying his
sister. At Lossie he had made himself agreeable to her, and now,
if not actually living in the same house, he was there at all hours
of the day.
It took nothing from his anxiety to see that his lordship was
greatly improved. Not only had the lanky youth passed into a well
formed man, but in countenance, whether as regarded expression,
complexion, or feature, he was not merely a handsomer but looked
in every way a healthier and better man. Whether it was from some
reviving sense of duty, or that, in his attachment to Florimel,
he had begun to cherish a desire of being worthy of her, I cannot
tell; but he looked altogether more of a man than the time that had
elapsed would have given ground to expect, even had he then seemed
on the mend, and indeed promised to become a really fine looking
fellow. His features were far more regular if less informed than
those of the painter and his carriage prouder if less graceful and
energetic. His admiration of and consequent attachment to Florimel
had been growing ever since his visit to Lossie House the preceding
summer, and if he had said nothing quite definite, it was only
because his aunt represented the impolicy of declaring himself just
yet: she was too young. She judged thus, attributing her evident
indifference to an incapacity as yet for falling in love. Hence,
beyond paying her all sorts of attentions and what compliments he
was capable of constructing, Lord Liftore had not gone far towards
making himself understood--at least, not until just before
Malcolm's arrival, when his behaviour had certainly grown warmer
and more confidential.
All the time she had been under his aunt's care he had had abundant
opportunity for recommending himself, and he had made use of the
privilege. For one thing, credibly assured that he looked well in
the saddle, he had constantly encouraged Florimel's love of riding
and desire to become a thorough horse woman, and they had ridden a
good deal together in the neighbourhood of Edinburgh. This practice
they continued as much as possible after they came to London early
in the spring; but the weather of late had not been favourable,
and Florimel had been very little out with him.
For a long time Lady Bellair had had her mind set on a match between
the daughter of her old friend the Marquis of Lossie and her nephew,
and it was with this in view that, when invited to Lossie House,
she had begged leave to bring Lord Meikleham with her. The young
man was from the first sufficiently taken with the beautiful girl
to satisfy his aunt, and would even then have shown greater fervour
in his attentions, had he not met Lizzy Findlay at the wedding
of Joseph Mair's sister, and found her more than pleasing. I will
not say that from the first he purposed wrong to her: he was too
inexperienced in the ways of evil for that; but even when he saw
plainly enough to what their mutual attraction was tending, he gave
himself no trouble to resist it; and through the whole unhappy affair
had not had one smallest struggle with himself for the girl's sake.
To himself he was all in all as yet, and such was his opinion of
his own precious being, that, had he thought about it, he would have
considered the honour of his attentions far more than sufficient
to make up to any girl in such a position for whatever mishap his
acquaintance might bring upon her. What were the grief and mortification
of parents to put in the balance against his condescension? what
the shame and the humiliation of the girl herself compared with
the honour of having been shone upon for a period, however brief,
by his enamoured countenance? Must not even the sorrow attendant upon
her loss be rendered more than endurable--be radiantly consoled
by the memory that she had held such a demigod in her arms? When
he left her at last, with many promises, not one of which he ever
had the intention of fulfilling, he did purpose sending her a present.
But at that time he was poor--dependent, indeed, for his pocket
money upon his aunt; and, up to this hour, he had never since his
departure from Lossie House taken the least notice of her either
by gift or letter. He had taken care also that it should not be
in her power to write to him, and now he did not even know that he
was a father. Once or twice the possibility of such being the case
occurred to him, and he thought within himself that if he were,
and it should come to be talked of, it might, in respect of his
present hopes, be awkward and disagreeable; for, although such a
predicament was nowise unusual, in this instance the circumstances
were. More than one of his bachelor friends had a small family
even, but then it was in the regular way of an open and understood
secret: the fox had his nest in some pleasant nook, adroitly masked,
where lay his vixen and her brood; one day he would abandon them
for ever, and, with such gathered store of experience, set up for
a respectable family man. A few tears, a neat legal arrangement,
and all would be as it had never been, only that the blood of the
Montmorencies or Cliffords would meander unclaimed in this or that
obscure channel, beautifying the race, and rousing England to noble
deeds! But in his case it would be unpleasant--a little--that
every one of his future tenantry should know the relation in which
he stood to a woman of the fisher people. He did not fear any
resentment--not that he would have cared a straw for it, on such
trifling grounds, but people in their low condition never thought
anything of such slips on the part of their women especially where
a great man was concerned. What he did fear was that the immediate
relations of the woman--that was how he spoke of Lizzy to himself
--might presume upon the honour he had done them. Lizzy, however,
was a good girl, and had promised to keep the matter secret until
she heard from him, whatever might be the consequences; and surely
there was fascination enough in the holding of a secret with such
as he to enable her to keep her promise. She must be perfectly
aware, however appearances might be against him, that he was not
one to fail in appreciation of her conduct, however easy and natural
all that he required of her might be. He would requite her royally
when he was Lord of Lossie. Meantime, although it was even now in
his power to make her rich amends, he would prudently leave things as
they were, and not run the risk that must lie in opening communications.
And so the young earl held his head high, looked as innocent as
may be desirable for a gentleman, had many a fair clean hand laid
in his, and many a maiden waist yielded to his arm, while "the
woman" flitted about half an alien amongst her own, with his child
wound in her old shawl of Lossie tartan; wandering not seldom in
the gloaming when her little one slept, along the top of the dune,
with the wind blowing keen upon her from the regions of eternal
ice, sometimes the snow settling softly on her hair, sometimes the
hailstones nestling in its meshes; the skies growing blacker about
her, and the sea stormier, while hope retreated so far into the
heavenly regions, that hope and heaven both were lost to her view.
Thus, alas! the things in which he was superior to her, most of
all that he was a gentleman, while she was but a peasant girl--
the things whose witchery drew her to his will, he made the means
of casting her down from the place of her excellency into the mire
of shame and loss. The only love worthy of the name ever and always
uplifts.
Of the people belonging to the upper town of Portlossie, which
raised itself high above the sea town in other respects besides the
topical, there were none who did not make poor Lizzy feel they were
aware of her disgrace, and but one man who made her feel it by being
kinder than before. That man, strange to say, was the factor. With
all his faults he had some chivalry, and he showed it to the fisher
girl. Nor did he alter his manner to her because of the rudeness
with which her mother had taken Malcolm's part.
It was a sore proof to Mr Crathie that his discharged servant was
in favour with the marchioness when the order came from Mr Soutar
to send up Kelpie. She had written to himself when she wanted her
own horse; now she sent for this brute through her lawyer. It was
plain that Malcolm had been speaking against him; and he was the
more embittered therefore against his friends.
Since his departure he had been twice on the point of poisoning
the mare.
It was with difficulty he found two men to take her to Aberdeen.
There they had an arduous job to get her on board and secure her.
But it had been done, and all the Monday night Malcolm was waiting
her arrival at the wharf--alone, for after what had passed between
them, he would not ask Peter to go with him, and besides he was no
use with horses. At length, in the grey of a gurly dawn, the smack
came alongside. They had had a rough passage, and the mare was
considerably subdued by sickness, so that there was less difficulty
in getting her ashore, and she paced for a little while in tolerable
quietness. But with every step on dry land, the evil spirit in her
awoke, and soon Malcolm had to dismount and lead her. The morning
was little advanced, and few vehicles were about, otherwise he could
hardly have got her home uninjured, notwithstanding the sugar with
which he had filled a pocket. Before he reached the mews he was
very near wishing he had never seen her. But when he led her into
the stable, he was a little encouraged as well as surprised to
find that she had not forgotten Florimel's horse. They had always
been a little friendly, and now they greeted each other with an
affectionate neigh; after which, with the help of all she could
devour, the demoness was quieter.
CHAPTER XIX: KELPIE IN LONDON
Before noon Lord Liftore came round to the mews: his riding horses
were there. Malcolm was not at the moment in the stable.
"What animal is that?" he asked of his own groom, catching sight
of Kelpie in her loose box.
"One just come up from Scotland for Lady Lossie, my lord," answered
the man.
"She looks a clipper! Lead her out, and let me see her."
"She's not sound in the temper, my lord, the groom that brought her
says. He told me on no account to go near her till she got used to
the sight of me."
"Oh! you're afraid, are you?" said his lordship, whose breeding
had not taught him courtesy to his inferiors.
At the word the man walked into her box. As he did so he looked
out for her hoofs, but his circumspection was in vain: in a moment
she had wheeled, jammed him against the wall, and taken his shoulder
in her teeth. He gave a yell of pain. His lordship caught up a
stable broom, and attacked the mare with it over the door; but it
flew from his hand to the other end of the stable, and the partition
began to go after it. But she still kept her hold of the man.
Happily, however, Malcolm was not far off and hearing the noise,
rushed in. He was just in time to save the groom's life. Clearing
the stall partition, and seizing the mare by the nose with a mighty
grasp, he inserted a forefinger behind her tusk, for she was one of
the few mares tusked like a horse, and soon compelled her to open
her mouth. The groom staggered and would have fallen, so cruelly
had she mauled him, but Malcolm's voice roused him.
"For God's sake gang oot, as lang's there twa limbs o' ye stickin'
thegither."
The poor fellow just managed to open the door, and fell senseless
on the stones. Lord Liftore called for help, and they carried him
into the saddle room, while one ran for the nearest surgeon.
Meantime Malcolm was putting a muzzle on Kelpie, which he believed
she understood as a punishment, and while he was thus occupied,
his lordship came from the saddle room and approached the box.
"Who are you?" he said. "I think I have seen you before."
"I was servant to the late Marquis of Lossie, my lord, and now I
am groom to her ladyship."
"What a fury you've brought up with you! She'll never do for London."
"I told the man not to go near her, my lord."
"What's the use of her if no one can go near her?"
"I can, my lord."
"By Jove, she's a splendid creature to look at! but I don't know
what you can do with her here, my man. She's fit to go double with
Satan himself."
"She'll do for me to ride after my lady well enough. If only I had
room to exercise her a bit!"
"Take her into the park early in the morning, and gallop her round.
Only mind she don't break your neck. What can have made Lady Lossie
send for such a devil as that!"
Malcolm held his peace.
"I'll try her myself some morning," said his lordship, who thought
himself a better horseman than he was.
"I wouldn't advise you, my lord."
"Who the devil asked your advice?"
"Ten to one she'll kill you, my lord."
"That's my look out," said Liftore, and went into the house.
As soon as he had done with Kelpie, Malcolm dressed himself in his
new livery, and went to tell his mistress of her arrival. She sent
him orders to bring the mare round in half an hour. He went back
to her, took off her muzzle, fed her, and while she ate her corn,
put on the spurs he had prepared expressly for her use--a spike
without a rowel, rather blunt, but sharp indeed when sharply used
--like those of the Gauchos of the Pampas. Then he saddled her,
and rode her round.
Having had her fit of temper, she was, to all appearance, going to
be fairly good for the rest of the day, and looked splendid. She
was a large mare, nearly thoroughbred, but with more bone than
usual for her breeding, which she carried triumphantly--an animal
most men would have been pleased to possess--and proud to ride.
Florimel came to the door to see her, accompanied by Liftore, and
was so delighted with the very sight of her that she sent at once
to the stables for her own horse, that she might ride out attended
by Malcolm. His lordship also ordered his horse.
They went straight to Rotten Row for a little gallop, and Kelpie
was behaving very well for her.
"What did you have two such savages, horse and groom both, up from
Scotland for, Florimel?" asked his lordship, as they cantered gently
along the Row, Kelpie coming sideways after them, as if she would
fain alter the pairing of her legs..
Florimel turned and cast an admiring glance on the two.
"Do you know I am rather proud of them," she said.
"He's a clumsy fellow, the groom; and for the mare, she's downright
wicked," said Liftore.
"At least neither is a hypocrite," returned Florimel, with Malcolm's
account of his quarrel with the factor in her mind. "The mare is
just as wicked as she looks, and the man as good. Believe me, my
lord, that man you call a savage never told a lie in his life!"
As she spoke she looked him hard in the face--with her father in
her eyes.
Liftore could not return the look with equal steadiness. It seemed
for the moment to be inquiring too curiously.
"I know what you mean," he said. "You don't believe my professions."
As he spoke he edged his horse close up to hers.
"But," he went on, "if I know that I speak the truth when I swear
that I love every breath of wind that has but touched your dress
as it passed, that I would die gladly for one loving touch of
your hand--why should you not let me ease my heart by saying so?
Florimel, my life has been a different thing from the moment I saw
you first. It has grown precious to me since I saw that it might be
--Confound the fellow! what's he about now with his horse devil?"
For at that moment his lordship's horse, a high bred but timid
animal, sprang away from the side of Florimel's, and there stood
Kelpie on her hind legs, pawing the air between him and his lady,
and Florimel, whose old confidence in Malcolm was now more than
revived, was laughing merrily at the discomfiture of his attempt
at love making. Her behaviour and his own frustration put him in
such a rage that, wheeling quickly round, he struck Kelpie, just
as she dropped on all fours, a great cut with his whip across the
haunches. She plunged and kicked violently, came within an inch of
breaking his horse's leg, and flew across the rail into the park.
Nothing could have suited Malcolm better. He did not punish her as
he would have done had she been to blame, for he was always just
to lower as well as higher animals, but he took her a great round
at racing speed, while his mistress and her companion looked on,
and everyone in the Row stopped and stared. Finally, he hopped her
over the rail again, and brought her up dripping and foaming to his
mistress. Florimel's eyes were flashing, and Liftore looked still
angry.
"Dinna du that again, my lord," said Malcolm. "Ye're no my maister;
an' gien ye war, ye wad hae no richt to brak my neck."
"No fear of that! That's not how your neck will be broken, my man,"
said his lordship, with an attempted laugh; for though he was all
the angrier that he was ashamed of what he had done, he dared not
further wrong the servant before his mistress.
A policeman came up and laid his hand on Kelpie's bridle.
"Take care what you're about," said Malcolm; "the mare's not safe.
--There's my mistress, the Marchioness of Lossie."
The man saw an ugly look in Kelpie's eye, withdrew his hand, and
turned to Florimel.
"My groom is not to blame," said she. "Lord Liftore struck his
mare, and she became ungovernable."
The man gave a look at Liftore, seemed to take his likeness, touched
his hat, and withdrew.
"You'd better ride the jade home," said Liftore.
Malcolm only looked at his mistress. She moved on, and he followed.
He was not so innocent in the affair as he had seemed. The expression
of Liftore's face as he drew nearer to Florimel, was to him so
hateful, that he interfered in a very literal fashion: Kelpie had
been doing no more than he had made her until the earl struck her.
"Let us ride to Richmond tomorrow," said Florimel, "and have a
good gallop in the park. Did you ever see a finer sight than that
animal on the grass?"
"The fellow's too heavy for her," said Liftore. "I should very much
like to try her myself."
Florimel pulled up, and turned to Malcolm.
"MacPhail," she said, "have that mare of yours ready whenever Lord
Liftore chooses to ride her."
"I beg your pardon, my lady," returned Malcolm, "but would your
ladyship make a condition with my lord that he shall not mount her
anywhere on the stones."
"By Jove!" said Liftore scornfully. "You fancy yourself the only
man that can ride!"
"It's nothing to me, my lord, if you break your neck; but I am
bound to tell you I do not think your lordship will sit my mare.
Stoat can't; and I can only because I know her as well as my own
palm."
The young earl made no answer and they rode on--Malcolm nearer
than his lordship liked.
"I can't think, Florimel," he said, "why you should want that fellow
about you again. He is not only very awkward, but insolent as well."
"I should call it straightforward," returned Florimel.
"My dear Lady Lossie! See how close he is riding to us now."
"He is anxious, I daresay, as to your Lordship's behaviour. He is
like some dogs that are a little too careful of their mistresses--
touchy as to how they are addressed--not a bad fault in dog--or
groom either. He saved my life once, and he was a great favourite
with my father: I won't hear anything against him."
"But for your own sake--just consider:--what will people say
if you show any preference for a man like that?" said Liftore, who
had already become jealous of the man who in his heart he feared
could ride better than himself.
"My lord!" exclaimed Florimel, with a mingling of surprise and
indignation in her voice, and suddenly quickening her pace, dropped
him behind.
Malcolm was after her so instantly, that it brought him abreast of
Liftore.
"Keep your own place," said his lordship, with stern rebuke.
"I keep my place to my mistress," returned Malcolm.
Liftore looked at him as it he would strike him. But he thought
better of it apparently, and rode after Florimel.
CHAPTER XX: BLUE PETER
By the time he had put up Kelpie, Malcolm found that his only chance
of seeing Blue Peter before he left London, lay in going direct to
the wharf. On his road he reflected on what had just passed, and
was not altogether pleased with himself. He had nearly lost his
temper with Liftore; and if he should act in any way unbefitting
the position he had assumed, from the duties of which he was in no
degree exonerated by the fact that he had assumed it for a purpose,
it would not only be a failure in himself, but an impediment perhaps
insurmountable in the path of his service. To attract attention was
almost to insure frustration. When he reached the wharf he found
they had nearly got her freight on board the smack. Blue Peter
stood on the forecastle. He went to him and explained how it was
that he had been unable to join him sooner.
"I didna ken ye," said Blue Peter, "in sic playactor kin' o' claes."
"Nobody in London would look at me twice now. But you remember how
we were stared at when first we came," said Malcolm.
"Ow ay!" returned Peter with almost a groan; "there's a sair cheenge
past upo' you, but I'm gauin' hame to the auld w'y o' things. The
herrin' 'll be aye to the fore, I'm thinkin'; an' gien we getna a
harbour we'll get a h'aven."
Judging it better to take no notice of this pretty strong expression
of distrust and disappointment, Malcolm led him aside, and putting
a few sovereigns in his hand, said,
"Here, Peter, that will take you home."
"It's ower muckle--a heap ower muckle. I'll tak naething frae ye
but what'll pay my w'y."
"And what is such a trifle between friends?"
"There was a time, Ma'colm, whan what was mine was yours, an' what
was yours was mine, but that time's gane."
"I'm sorry to hear that, Peter; but still I owe you as much as that
for bare wages."
"There was no word o' wages when ye said, Peter, come to Lon'on
wi' me.--Davie there--he maun hae his wauges."
"Weel," said Malcolm, thinking it better to give way, "I'm no abune
bein' obleeged to ye, Peter. I maun bide my time, I see, for ye
winna lippen till me. Eh man! your faith's sune at the wa'."
"Faith! what faith?" returned Peter, almost fiercely. "We're tauld
to put no faith in man; an' gien I bena come to that yet freely,
I'm nearer till't nor ever I was afore."
"Weel, Peter, a' 'at I can say is, I ken my ain hert, an' ye dinna
ken't."
"Daur ye tell me!" cried Peter. "Disna the Scriptur' itsel' say the
hert o' man is deceitfu' an' despratly wickit: who can know it?"
"Peter," said Malcolm, and he spoke very gently, for he understood
that love and not hate was at the root of his friend's anger and
injustice, "gien ye winna lippen to me, there's naething for't
but I maun lippen to you. Gang hame to yer wife, an' gi'e her my
compliments, an' tell her a' 'at's past atween you an' me, as near,
word for word, as ye can tell the same; an' say till her, I pray
her to judge atween you an' me--an' to mak the best o' me to ye
'at she can, for I wad ill thole to loss yer freenship, Peter."
The same moment came the command for all but passengers to go ashore.
The men grasped each other's hand, looked each other in the eyes
with something of mutual reproach, and parted--Blue Peter down
the river to Scaurnose and Annie, Malcolm to the yacht lying still
in the Upper Pool.
He saw it taken properly in charge, and arranged for having it
towed up the river and anchored in the Chelsea Reach.
When Blue Peter found himself once more safe out at sea, with twelve
hundred yards of canvas spread above him in one mighty wing betwixt
boom and gaff; and the wind blowing half a gale, the weather inside
him began to change a little. He began to see that he had not been
behaving altogether as a friend ought. It was not that he saw reason
for being better satisfied with Malcolm or his conduct, but reason
for being worse satisfied with himself; and the consequence was
that he grew still angrier with Malcolm, and the wrong he had done
him seemed more and more an unpardonable one.
When he was at length seated on the top of the coach running betwixt
Aberdeen and Fochabers, which would set him down as near Scaurnose
as coach could go, he began to be doubtful how Annie, formally
retained on Malcolm's side by the message he had to give her,
would judge in the question between them; for what did she know of
theatres and such places? And the doubt strengthened as he neared
home. The consequence was that he felt in no haste to execute
Malcolm's commission; and hence, the delights of greeting over,
Annie was the first to open her bag of troubles: Mr Crathie had
given them notice to quit at Midsummer.
"Jist what I micht hae expeckit!" cried Blue Peter, starting up.
"Woe be to the man 'at puts his trust in princes! I luikit till
him to save the fisher fowk, an' no to the Lord; an' the tooer o'
Siloam 's fa'en upo' my heid:--what does he, the first thing,
but turn his ain auld freen's oot o' the sma beild they had! That
his father nor his gran'father, 'at was naither o' them God fearin'
men, wad never hae put their han' till. Eh, wuman! but my hert's
sair 'ithin me. To think o' Ma'colm MacPhail turnin' his back
upo' them 'at's been freens wi' 'im sin ever he was a wee loonie,
rinnin' aboot in coaties!"
"Hoot, man! what's gotten intill yer heid?" returned his wife.
"It's no Ma'colm; it's the illwully factor. Bide ye till he comes
till 's ain, an' Maister Crathie 'll hae to lauch o' the wrang side
o' 's mou'."
But thereupon Peter began his tale of how he had fared in London,
and in the excitement of keenly anticipated evil, and with his
recollection of events wrapped in the mist of a displeasure which
had deepened during his journey, he so clothed the facts of Malcolm's
conduct in the garments of his own feelings that the mind of Annie
Mair also became speedily possessed with the fancy that their friend's
good fortune had upset his moral equilibrium, and that he had not
only behaved to her husband with pride and arrogance, breaking
all the ancient bonds of friendship between them, but had tried to
seduce him from the ways of righteousness by inveigling him into
a playhouse, where marvels of wickedness were going on at the very
time. She wept a few bitter tears of disappointment, dried them
hastily, lifted her head high, and proceeded to set her affairs in
order as if death were at the door.
For indeed it was to them as a death to leave Scaurnose. True, Annie
came from inland, and was not of the fisher race, but this part of
the coast she had known from childhood, and in this cottage all her
married years had been spent, while banishment of the sort involved
banishment from every place they knew, for all the neighbourhood
was equally under the power of the factor. And poor as their
accommodation here was, they had plenty of open air and land room;
whereas if they should be compelled to go to any of the larger ports,
it would be to circumstances greatly inferior, and a neighbourhood
in all probability very undesirable for their children.
CHAPTER XXI: MR GRAHAM
When Malcolm at length reached his lodging, he found there a letter
from Miss Horn, containing the much desired information as to where
the schoolmaster was to be found in the London wilderness. It was
now getting rather late, and the dusk of a spring night had begun
to gather; but little more than the breadth of the Regent's Park
lay between him and his best friend--his only one in London--
and he set out immediately for Camden Town.
The relation between him and his late schoolmaster was indeed of
the strongest and closest. Long before Malcolm was born, and ever
since, had Alexander Graham loved Malcolm's mother; but not until
within the last few months had he learned that Malcolm was the son
of Griselda Campbell. The discovery was to the schoolmaster like
the bursting out of a known flower on an unknown plant. He knew
then, not why he had loved the boy, for he loved every one of his
pupils more or less, but why he had loved him with such a peculiar
tone of affection.
It was a lovely evening. There had been rain in the afternoon
as Malcolm walked home from the Pool, but before the sun set it
had cleared up; and as he went through the park towards the dingy
suburb, the first heralds of the returning youth of the year met him
from all sides in the guise of odours--not yet those of flowers,
but the more ethereal if less sweet, scents of buds and grass, and
ever pure earth moistened with the waters of heaven. And to his
surprise he found that his sojourn in a great city, although as yet
so brief, had already made the open earth with its corn and grass
more dear to him and wonderful. But when he left the park, and
crossed the Hampstead Road into a dreary region of dwellings crowded
and commonplace as the thoughts of a worshipper of Mammon, houses
upon houses, here and there shepherded by a tall spire, it was hard
to believe that the spring was indeed coming slowly up this way.
After not a few inquiries, he found himself at a stationer's shop,
a poor little place, and learned that Mr Graham lodged over it,
and was then at home.
He was shown up into a shabby room, with an iron bedstead, a chest
of drawers daubed with sickly paint, a table with a stained red
cover, a few bookshelves in a recess over the washstand, and two
chairs seated with haircloth. On one of these, by the side of a
small fire in a neglected grate, sat the schoolmaster reading his
Plato. On the table beside him lay his Greek New Testament, and
an old edition of George Herbert. He looked up as the door opened,
and, notwithstanding his strange dress, recognising at once his
friend and pupil, rose hastily, and welcomed him with hand and
eyes, and countenance, but without word spoken. For a few moments
the two stood silent, holding each the other's hand, and gazing
each in the other's eyes, then sat down, still speechless, one on
each side of the fire.
They looked at each other and smiled, and again a minute passed.
Then the schoolmaster rose, rang the bell, and when it was answered
by a rather careworn young woman, requested her to bring tea.
"I'm sorry I cannot give you cakes or fresh butter, my lord,"
he said with a smile, and they were the first words spoken. "The
former is not to be had, and the latter is beyond my means. But
what I have will content one who is able to count that abundance
which many would count privation."
He spoke in the choice word, measured phrase, and stately speech
which Wordsworth says "grave livers do in Scotland use," but
under it all rang a tone of humour, as if he knew the form of his
utterance too important for the subject matter of it, and would
gently amuse with it both his visitor and himself.
He was a man of middle height, but so thin that notwithstanding a
slight stoop in the shoulders, he looked rather tall; much on the
young side of fifty, but apparently a good way on the other, partly
from the little hair he had being grey. He had sandy coloured
whiskers, and a shaven chin. Except his large sweetly closed mouth,
and rather long upper lip, there was nothing very notable in his
features. At ordinary moments, indeed, there was nothing in his
appearance other than insignificant to the ordinary observer. His
eyes were of a pale quiet blue, but when he smiled they sparkled
and throbbed with light. He wore the same old black tailcoat he had
worn last in his school at Portlossie, but the white neckcloth he
had always been seen in there had given place to a black one: that
was the sole change in the aspect of the man.
About Portlossie he had been greatly respected, notwithstanding
the rumour that he was a "stickit minister," that is, one who had
failed in the attempt to preach; and when the presbytery dismissed
him on the charge of heresy, there had been many tears on the part
of his pupils, and much childish defiance of his unenviable successor.
Few words passed between the two men until they had had their tea,
and then followed a long talk, Malcolm first explaining his present
position, and then answering many questions of the master as to how
things had gone since he left. Next followed anxious questions on
Malcolm's side as to how his friend found himself in the prison of
London.
"I do miss the air, and the laverocks (skylarks), and the gowans,"
he confessed; "but I have them all in my mind, and at my age a man
ought to be able to satisfy himself with the idea of a thing in his
soul. Of outer things that have contributed to his inward growth,
the memory alone may then well be enough. The sights which, when
I lie down to sleep, rise before that inward eye Wordsworth calls
the bliss of solitude, have upon me power almost of a spiritual
vision, so purely radiant are they of that which dwells in them,
the divine thought which is their substance, their hypostasis. My
boy! I doubt if you can tell what it is to know the presence of
the living God in and about you."
"I houp I hae a bit notion o' 't, sir," said Malcolm.
"But believe me that in any case, however much a man may have of
it, he may have it endlessly more. Since I left the cottage where
I hoped to end my days under the shadow of the house of your ancestors,
since I came into this region of bricks and smoke, and the crowded
tokens too plain of want and care, I have found a reality in the
things I had been trying to teach you at Portlossie, such as I had
before imagined only in my best moments. And more still: I am now
far better able to understand how it must have been with our Lord
when he was trying to teach the men and women of Palestine to
have faith in God. Depend upon it, we get our best use of life in
learning by the facts of its ebb and flow to understand the Son of
Man. And again, when we understand Him, then only do we understand
our life and ourselves. Never can we know the majesty of the will
of God concerning us except by understanding Jesus and the work the
Father gave Him to do. Now, nothing is of a more heavenly delight
than to enter into a dusky room in the house of your friend, and
there, with a blow of the heavenly rod, draw light from the dark
wall--open a window, a fountain of the eternal light, and let
in the truth which is the life of the world. Joyously would a man
spend his life, right joyously even if the road led to the gallows,
in showing the grandest he sees--the splendid purities of the
divine religion--the mountain top up to which the voice of God
is ever calling his children. Yes, I can understand even how a man
might live, like the good hermits of old, in triumphant meditation
upon such all satisfying truths, and let the waves of the world's
time wash by him in unheeded flow until his cell changed to his
tomb, and his spirit soared free. But to spend your time in giving
little lessons when you have great ones to give; in teaching the
multiplication table the morning after you made at midnight a grand
discovery upon the very summits of the moonlit mountain range of the
mathematics; in enforcing the old law, Thou shalt love thy neighbour
as thyself when you know in your own heart that not a soul can ever
learn to keep it without first learning to fulfil an infinitely
greater one--to love his neighbour even as Christ hath loved him
--then indeed one may well grow disheartened, and feel as if he
were not in the place prepared for, and at the work required of
him. But it is just then that he must go back to school himself
and learn not only the patience of God who keeps the whole dull
obstinate world alive, while generation after generation is born
and vanishes, and of the mighty multitude only one here and there
rises up from the fetters of humanity into the freedom of the sons
of God--and yet goes on teaching the whole, and bringing every
man who will but turn his ear a little towards the voice that
calls him, nearer and nearer to the second birth--of sonship and
liberty--not only this divine patience must he learn, but the
divine insight as well, which in every form spies the reflex of
the truth it cannot contain, and in every lowliest lesson sees the
highest drawn nearer, and the soul growing alive unto God."
CHAPTER XXII: RICHMOND PARK
The next day at noon, mounted on Kelpie, Malcolm was in attendance
upon his mistress, who was eager after a gallop in Richmond Park.
Lord Liftore, who had intended to accompany her, had not made his
appearance yet, but Florimel did not seem the less desirous of
setting out at the time she had appointed Malcolm. The fact was she
had said one o'clock to Liftore, intending twelve, that she might
get away without him. Kelpie seemed on her good behaviour, and they
started quietly enough. By the time they had got out of the park
upon the Kensington Road, however, the evil spirit had begun to
wake in her. But even when she was quietest, she was nothing to
be trusted, and about London Malcolm found he dared never let his
thoughts go, or take his attention quite off her ears. They got
to Kew Bridge in safety nevertheless, though whether they were to
get safely across was doubtful all the time they were upon it, for
again and again she seemed on the very point of clearing the stone
balustrade, but for the terrible bit and chain without which Malcolm
never dared ride her. Still, whatever her caracoles or escapades,
they caused Florimel nothing but amusement, for her confidence in
Malcolm--that he could do whatever he believed he could--was
unbounded. They got through Richmond--with some trouble, but
hardly were they well into the park, when Lord Liftore, followed
by his groom, came suddenly up behind them at such a rate as quite
destroyed the small stock of equanimity Kelpie had to go upon. She
bolted.
Florimel was a good rider, and knew herself quite mistress of her
horse, and if she now followed, it was at her own will, and with a
design; she wanted to make the horses behind her bolt also if she
could. His lordship came flying after her, and his groom after him,
but she kept increasing her pace until they were all at full stretch,
thundering over the grass--upon which Malcolm had at once turned
Kelpie, giving her little rein and plenty of spur. Gradually
Florimel slackened speed, and at last pulled up suddenly. Liftore
and his groom went past her like the wind. She turned at right angles
and galloped back to the road. There, on a gaunt thoroughbred, with
a furnace of old life in him yet, sat Lenorme, whom she had already
passed and signalled to remain thereabout. They drew alongside of
each other, but they did not shake hands; they only looked each in
the other's eyes, and for a few moments neither spoke. The three
riders were now far away over the park, and still Kelpie held on
and the other horses after her. "I little expected such a pleasure,"
said Lenorme.
"I meant to give it you, though," said Florimel, with a merry laugh.
"Bravo, Kelpie! take them with you," she cried, looking after the
still retreating horsemen. "I have got a familiar since I saw you
last, Raoul," she went on. "See if I don't get some good for us out
of him!--We'll move gently along the road here, and by the time
Liftore's horse is spent, we shall be ready for a good gallop. I
want to tell you all about it. I did not mean Liftore to be here
when I sent you word, but he has been too much for me."
Lenorme replied with a look of gratitude; and as they walked their
horses along, she told him all concerning Malcolm and Kelpie.
"Liftore hates him already," she said, "and I can hardly wonder;
but you must not, for you will find him useful. He is one I can
depend upon. You should have seen the look Liftore gave him when he
told him he could not sit his mare! It would have been worth gold
to you."
Lenorme winced a little.
"He thinks no end of his riding," Florimel continued; "but if
it were not so improper to have secrets with another gentleman, I
would tell you that he rides--just pretty well."
Lenorme's great brow gloomed over his eyes like the Eiger in a
mist, but he said nothing yet.
"He wants to ride Kelpie, and I have told my groom to let him have
her. Perhaps she'll break his neck."
Lenorme smiled grimly.
"You wouldn't mind, would you, Raoul?" added Florimel, with a
roguish look.
"Would you mind telling me, Florimel, what you mean by the impropriety
of having secrets with another gentleman? Am I the other gentleman?"
"Why, of course! You know Liftore imagined he has only to name the
day."
"And you allow an idiot like that to cherish such a degrading idea
of you."
"Why, Raoul! what does it matter what a fool like him thinks?"
"If you don't mind it, I do. I feel it an insult to me that he
should dare think of you like that."
"I don't know. I suppose I shall have to marry him some day."
"Lady Lossie, do you want to make me hate you?"
"Don't be foolish, Raoul. It won't be tomorrow--nor the next day.
Freuet euch des Lebens!"
"O Florimel! what is to come of this? Do you want to break my heart?
--I hate to talk rubbish. You won't kill me--you will only ruin
my work, and possibly drive me mad."
Florimel drew close to his side, laid her hand on his arm, and
looked in his face with a witching entreaty.
"We have the present, Raoul," she said.
"So has the butterfly," answered Lenorme; "but I had rather be the
caterpillar with a future.--Why don't you put a stop to the man's
lovemaking? He can't love you or any woman. He does not know what
love means. It makes me ill to hear him when he thinks he is paying
you irresistible compliments. They are so silly! so mawkish! Good
heavens, Florimel! can you imagine that smile every day and always?
Like the rest of his class he seems to think himself perfectly
justified in making fools of women. I want to help you to grow
as beautiful as God meant you to be when he thought of you first.
I want you to be my embodied vision of life, that I may for ever
worship at your feet--live in you, die with you: such bliss, even
were there nothing beyond, would be enough for the heart of a God
to bestow."
"Stop, stop, Raoul; I'm not worthy of such love," said Florimel,
again laying her hand on his arm. "I do wish for your sake I had
been born a village girl."
"If you had been, then I might have wished for your sake that I
had been born a marquis. As it is I would rather be a painter than
any nobleman in Europe--that is, with you to love me. Your love
is my patent of nobility. But I may glorify what you love--and
tell you that I can confer something on you also--what none of
your noble admirers can.--God forgive me! you will make me hate
them all!"
"Raoul, this won't do at all," said Florimel, with the authority
that should belong only to the one in the right. And indeed for the
moment she felt the dignity of restraining a too impetuous passion.
"You will spoil everything. I dare not come to your studio if you
are going to behave like this. It would be very wrong of me. And
if I am never to come and see you, I shall die--I know I shall."
The girl was so full of the delight of the secret love between
them, that she cared only to live in the present as if there were no
future beyond: Lenorme wanted to make that future like but better
than the present. The word marriage put Florimel in a rage. She
thought herself superior to Lenorme, because he, in the dread of
losing her, would have her marry him at once, while she was more
than content with the bliss of seeing him now and then. Often and
often her foolish talk stung him with bitter pain--worst of all
when it compelled him to doubt whether there was that in her to
be loved as he was capable of loving. Yet always the conviction
that there was a deep root of nobleness in her nature again got
uppermost; and, had it not been so, I fear he would, nevertheless,
have continued to prove her irresistible as often as she chose to
exercise upon him the full might of her witcheries. At one moment
she would reveal herself in such a sudden rush of tenderness
as seemed possible only to one ready to become his altogether and
for ever; the next she would start away as if she had never meant
anything, and talk as if not a thought were in her mind beyond the
cultivation of a pleasant acquaintance doomed to pass with the
season, if not with the final touches to her portrait. Or she would
fall to singing some song he had taught her, more likely a certain
one he had written in a passionate mood of bitter tenderness, with
the hope of stinging her love to some show of deeper life; but
would, while she sang, look with merry defiance in his face, as
if she adopted in seriousness what he had written in loving and
sorrowful satire.
They rode in silence for some hundred yards. At length he spoke,
replying to her last asseveration. "Then what can you gain, child,"
he said--
"Will you dare to call me child--a marchioness in my own right!"
she cried, playfully threatening him with uplifted whip, in the
handle of which the little jewels sparkled.
"What, then, can you gain, my lady marchioness," he resumed, with
soft seriousness, and a sad smile, "by marrying one of your own
rank?--I should lay new honour and consideration at your feet. I
am young. I have done fairly well already. But I have done nothing
to what I could do now, if only my heart lay safe in the port of
peace:--you know where alone that is for me my--lady marchioness.
And you know too that the names of great painters go down with
honour from generation to generation, when my lord this or my lord
that is remembered only as a label to the picture that makes the
painter famous. I am not a great painter yet, but I will be one if
you will be good to me. And men shall say, when they look on your
portrait, in ages to come: No wonder he was such a painter when he
had such a woman to paint."
He spoke the words with a certain tone of dignified playfulness.
"When shall the woman sit to you again, painter?" said Florimel--
sole reply to his rhapsody.
The painter thought a little. Then he said:
"I don't like that tire woman of yours. She has two evil eyes--
one for each of us. I have again and again caught their expression
when they were upon us, and she thought none were upon her: I can
see without lifting my head when I am painting, and my art has
made me quick at catching expressions, and, I hope, at interpreting
them."
"I don't altogether like her myself," said Florimel. "Of late I am
not so sure of her as I used to be. But what can I do? I must have
somebody with me, you know.--A thought strikes me. Yes. I won't
say now what it is lest I should disappoint my--painter; but--
yes--you shall see what I will dare for you, faithless man!"
She set off at a canter, turned on to the grass, and rode to meet
Liftore, whom she saw in the distance returning, followed by the
two grooms.
"Come on, Raoul," she cried, looking back; "I must account for you.
He sees I have not been alone."
Lenorme joined her, and they rode along side by side.
The earl and the painter knew each other: as they drew near, the
painter lifted his hat, and the earl nodded.
"You owe Mr Lenorme some acknowledgment, my lord, for taking charge
of me after your sudden desertion," said Florimel. "Why did you
gallop off in such a mad fashion?"
"I am sorry," began Liftore a little embarrassed.
"Oh! don't trouble yourself to apologise," said Florimel. "I have
always understood that great horsemen find a horse more interesting
than a lady. It is a mark of their breed, I am told."
She knew that Liftore would not be ready to confess he could not
hold his hack.
"If it hadn't been for Mr Lenorme," she added, "I should have
been left without a squire, subject to any whim of my four footed
servant here."
As she spoke she patted the neck of her horse. The earl, on his
side, had been looking the painter's horse up and down with a would
be humorous expression of criticism.
"I beg your pardon, marchioness," he replied; "but you pulled up
so quickly that we shot past you. I thought you were close behind,
and preferred following.--Seen his best days, eh, Lenorme?" he
concluded, willing to change the subject.
"I fancy he doesn't think so," returned the painter. "I bought him
out of a butterman's cart, three months ago. He's been coming to
himself ever since. Look at his eye, my lord."
"Are you knowing in horses, then?"
"I can't say I am, beyond knowing how to treat them something like
human beings."
"That's no ill," said Malcolm to himself. He was just near enough,
on the pawing and foaming Kelpie, to catch what was passing.--
"The fallow 'll du. He's worth a score o' sic yerls as yon."
"Ha! ha!" said his lordship; "I don't know about that--He's not
the best of tempers, I can see. But look at that demon of Lady
Lossie's--that black mare there! I wish you could teach her some
of your humanity.
"--By the way, Florimel, I think now we are upon the grass,"--
he said it loftily, as if submitting to an injustice--"I will
presume to mount the reprobate."
The gallop had communicated itself to Liftore's blood, and, besides,
he thought after such a run Kelpie would be less extravagant in
her behaviour.
"She is at your service," said Florimel.
He dismounted, his groom rode up, he threw him the reins, and called
Malcolm.
"Bring your mare here, my man," he said.
Malcolm rode her up half way, and dismounted.
"If your lordship is going to ride her," he said, "will you please
get on her here. I would rather not take her near the other horses."
"Well, you know her better than I do.--You and I must ride about
the same length, I think."
So saying his lordship carelessly measured the stirrup leather
against his arm, and took the reins.
"Stand well forward, my lord. Don't mind turning your back to her
head: I'll look after her teeth; you mind her hind hoof," said
Malcolm, with her head in one hand and the stirrup in the other.
Kelpie stood rigid as a rock, and the earl swung himself up cleverly
enough. But hardly was he in the saddle, and Malcolm had just let
her go, when she plunged and lashed out; then, having failed to
unseat her rider, stood straight up on her hind legs.
"Give her her head, my lord," cried Malcolm.
She stood swaying in the air, Liftore's now frightened face half
hid in her mane, and his spurs stuck in her flanks.
"Come off her, my lord, for God's sake. Off with you!" cried Malcolm,
as he leaped at her head. "She'll be on her back in a moment."
Liftore only clung the harder. Malcolm caught her head--just in
time: she was already falling backwards.
"Let all go, my lord. Throw yourself off."
He swung her towards him with all his strength, and just as his
lordship fell off behind her, she fell sideways to Malcolm, and
clear of Liftore.
Malcolm was on the side away from the little group, and their own
horses were excited, those who had looked breathless on at the
struggle could not tell how he had managed it, but when they expected
to see the groom writhing under the weight of the demoness, there
he was with his knee upon her head--while Liftore was gathering
himself up from the ground, only just beyond the reach of her iron
shod hoofs.
"Thank God!" said Florimel, "there is no harm done.--Well, have
you had enough of her yet, Liftore?"
"Pretty nearly, I think," said his lordship, with an attempt at a
laugh, as he walked rather feebly and foolishly towards his horse.
He mounted with some difficulty, and looked very pale.
"I hope you're not much hurt," said Florimel kindly, as she moved
alongside of him.
"Not in the least--only disgraced," he answered, almost angrily.
"The brute's a perfect Satan. You must part with her. With such
a horse and such a groom you'll get yourself talked of all over
London. I believe the fellow himself was at the bottom of it. You
really must sell her."
"I would, my lord, if you were my groom," answered Florimel, whom
his accusation of Malcolm had filled with angry contempt; and she
moved away towards the still prostrate mare.
Malcolm was quietly seated on her head. She had ceased sprawling,
and lay nearly motionless, but for the heaving of her sides with
her huge inhalations. She knew from experience that struggling was
useless.
"I beg your pardon, my lady," said Malcolm, "but I daren't get up."
"How long do you mean to sit there then?" she asked.
"If your ladyship wouldn't mind riding home without me, I would
give her a good half hour of it. I always do when she throws herself
over like that.--I've gat my Epictetus?" he asked himself feeling
in his coat pocket.
"Do as you please," answered his mistress. "Let me see you when
you get home. I should like to know you are safe."
"Thank you, my lady; there's little fear of that," said Malcolm.
Florimel returned to the gentlemen, and they rode homewards. On
the way she said suddenly to the earl,
"Can you tell me, Liftore, who Epictetus was?"
"I'm sure I don't know," answered his lordship. "One of the old
fellows."
She turned to Lenorme. Happily the Christian heathen was not
altogether unknown to the painter.
"May I inquire why your ladyship asks?" he said, when he had told
all he could at the moment recollect.
"Because," she answered, "I left my groom sitting on his horse's
head reading Epictetus."
"By Jove!" exclaimed Liftore. "Ha! ha! ha! In the original, I
suppose!"
"I don't doubt it," said Florimel.
In about two hours Malcolm reported himself. Lord Liftore had gone
home, they told him. The painter fellow, as Wallis called him, had
stayed to lunch, but was now gone also, and Lady Lossie was alone
in the drawing room.
She sent for him.
"I am glad to see you safe, MacPhail," she said. "It is clear your
Kelpie--don't be alarmed; I am not going to make you part with
her--but it is clear she won't always do for you to attend me
upon. Suppose now I wanted to dismount and make a call, or go into
a shop?"
"There's a sort of a friendship between your Abbot and her, my
lady; she would stand all the better if I had him to hold."
"Well, but how would you put me up again?"
"I never thought of that, my lady. Of course I daren't let you come
near Kelpie."
"Could you trust yourself to buy another horse to ride after me
about town?"
"No, my lady, not without a ten days' trial. If lies stuck like
London mud, there's many a horse would never be seen again. But
there's Mr Lenorme! If he would go with me, I fancy between us we
could do pretty well."
"Ah! a good idea," returned his mistress. "But what makes you think
of him?" she added, willing enough to talk about him.
"The look of the gentleman and his horse together, and what I heard
him say," answered Malcolm.
"What did you hear him say?"
"That he knew he had to treat horses something like human beings.
I've often fancied, within the last few months, that God does with
some people something like as I do with Kelpie."
"I know nothing about theology."
"I don't fancy you do, my lady; but this concerns biography rather
than theology. No one could tell what I meant except he had watched
his own history, and that of people he knew."
"And horses too?"
"It's hard to get at their insides, my lady, but I suspect it must
be so. I'll ask Mr Graham."
"What Mr Graham?"
"The schoolmaster of Portlossie."
"Is he in London, then?"
"Yes, my lady. He believed too much to please the presbytery, and
they turned him out."
"I should like to see him. He was very attentive to my father on
his death bed."
"Your ladyship will never know till you are dead yourself what Mr
Graham did for my lord."
"What do you mean? What could he do for him?"
"He helped him through sore trouble of mind, my lady."
Florimel was silent for a little, then repeated, "I should like to
see him. I ought to pay him some attention. Couldn't I make them
give him his school again?"
"I don't know about that, my lady; but I am sure he would not take
it against the will of the presbytery."
"I should like to do something for him. Ask him to call."
"If your ladyship lays your commands upon me," answered Malcolm;
"otherwise I would rather not."
"Why so, pray?"
"Because, except he can be of any use to you, he will not come."
"But I want to be of use to him."
"How, if I may ask, my lady?"
"That I can't exactly say on the spur of the moment. I must know
the man first--especially if you are right in supposing he would
not enjoy a victory over the presbytery. I should. He wouldn't take
money, I fear."
"Except it came of love or work, he would put it from him as he
would brush the dust from his coat."
"I could introduce him to good society. That is no small privilege
to one of his station."
"He has more of that and better than your ladyship could give him.
He holds company with Socrates and St. Paul, and greater still."
"But they're not like living people."
"Very like them, my lady--only far better company in general.
But Mr Graham would leave Plato himself--yes, or St. Paul either,
though he were sitting beside him in the flesh, to go and help any
old washerwoman that wanted him."
"Then I want him."
"No, my lady, you don't want him."
"How dare you say so?"
"If you did, you would go to him."
Florimel's eyes flashed, and her pretty lip curled. She turned to
her writing table, annoyed with herself that she could not find a
fitting word wherewith to rebuke his presumption--rudeness, was
it not?--and a feeling of angry shame arose in her, that she, the
Marchioness of Lossie, had not dignity enough to prevent her own
groom from treating her like a child. But he was far too valuable
to quarrel with.
She sat down and wrote a note.
"There," she said, "take that note to Mr Lenorme. I have asked him
to help you in the choice of a horse."
"What price would you be willing to go to, my lady?"
"I leave that to Mr Lenorme's judgment--and your own," she added.
"Thank you, my lady," said Malcolm, and was leaving the room, when
Florimel called him back.
"Next time you see Mr Graham," she said, "give him my compliments,
and ask him if I can be of any service to him."
"I'll do that, my lady. I am sure he will take it very kindly."
Florimel made no answer, and Malcolm went to find the painter.
CHAPTER XXIII: PAINTER AND GROOM
The address upon the note Malcolm had to deliver took him to a
house in Chelsea--one of a row of beautiful old houses fronting
the Thames, with little gardens between them and the road. The one
he sought was overgrown with creepers, most of them now covered
with fresh spring buds. The afternoon had turned cloudy, and a
cold east wind came up the river, which, as the tide was falling,
raised little waves on its surface and made Malcolm think of the
herring. Somehow, as he went up to the door, a new chapter of his
life seemed about to commence.
The servant who took the note, returned immediately, and showed
him up to the study, a large back room, looking over a good sized
garden, with stables on one side. There Lenorme sat at his easel.
"Ah!" he said, "I'm glad to see that wild animal has not quite torn
you to pieces. Take a chair. What on earth made you bring such an
incarnate fury to London?"
"I see well enough now, sir, she's not exactly the one for London
use, but if you had once ridden her, you would never quite enjoy
another between your knees."
"She's such an infernal brute!"
"You can't say too ill of her. But I fancy a gaol chaplain sometimes
takes the most interest in the worst villain under his charge. I
should be a proud man to make her fit to live with decent people."
"I'm afraid she'll be too much for you. At last you'll have to part
with her, I fear."
"If she had bitten you as often as she has me, sir, you wouldn't
part with her. Besides, it would be wrong to sell her. She would
only be worse with anyone else. But, indeed, though you will hardly
believe it, she is better than she was."
"Then what must she have been!"
"You may well say that, sir!"
"Here your mistress tells me you want my assistance in choosing
another horse."
"Yes, sir--to attend upon her in London."
"I don't profess to be knowing in horses: what made you think of
me?"
"I saw how you sat your own horse, sir, and I heard you say you
bought him out of a butterman's cart, and treated him like a human
being: that was enough for me, sir. I've long had the notion that
the beasts, poor things, have a half sleeping, half waking human
soul in them, and it was a great pleasure to hear you say something
of the same sort. 'That gentleman,' I said to myself, '--he and
I would understand one another.'"
"I am glad you think so," said Lenorme, with entire courtesy.--It
was not merely that the very doubtful recognition of his profession
by society had tended to keep him clear of his prejudices, but
both as a painter and a man he found the young fellow exceedingly
attractive;--as a painter from the rare combination of such
strength with such beauty, and as a man from a certain yet rarer
clarity of nature which to the vulgar observer seems fatuity until
he has to encounter it in action, when the contrast is like meeting
a thunderbolt. Naturally the dishonest takes the honest for a fool.
Beyond his understanding, he imagines him beneath it. But Lenorme,
although so much more a man of the world, was able in a measure
to look into Malcolm and appreciate him. His nature and his art
combined in enabling him to do this.
"You see, sir," Malcolm went on, encouraged by the simplicity
of Lenorme's manner, "if they were nothing like us, how should we
be able to get on with them at all, teach them anything, or come
a hair nearer them, do what we might? For all her wickedness I
firmly believe Kelpie has a sort of regard for me--I won't call
it affection, but perhaps it comes as near that as may be possible
in the time to one of her temper."
"Now I hope you will permit me, Mr MacPhail," said Lenorme, who had
been paying more attention to Malcolm than to his words, "to give
a violent wrench to the conversation, and turn it upon yourself.
You can't be surprised, and I hope you will not be annoyed, if I
say you strike one as not altogether like your calling. No London
groom I have ever spoken to, in the least resembles you. How is
it?"
"I hope you don't mean to imply, sir, that I don't know my business,"
returned Malcolm, laughing.
"Anything but that! It were nearer the thing to say, that for all
I know you may understand mine as well."
"I wish I did, sir. Except the pictures at Lossie House and those
in Portland Place, I've never seen one in my life. About most of
them I must say I find it hard to imagine what better the world
is for them. Mr Graham says that no work that doesn't tend to make
the world better makes it richer. If he were a heathen, he says,
he would build a temple to Ses, the sister of Psyche."
"Ses?--I don't remember her," said Lenorme.
"The moth, sir;--'the moth and the rust,' you know."
"Yes, yes; now I know! Capital! Only more things may tend to make
the world better than some people think.--Who is this Mr Graham
of yours? He must be no common man."
"You are right there, sir; there is not another like him in the
whole world, I believe."
And thereupon Malcolm set himself to give the painter an idea of
the schoolmaster.
When they had talked about him for a little while,
"Well, all this accounts for your being a scholar," said Lenorme; "but--"
"I am little enough of that, sir," interrupted Malcolm. "Any Scotch
boy that likes to learn finds the way open to him."
"I am aware of that. But were you really reading Epictetus when we
left you in the park this morning?"
"Yes, sir: why not?"
"In the original?"
"Yes, sir; but not very readily. I am a poor Greek scholar. But my
copy has a rough Latin translation on the opposite page, and that
helps me out. It's not difficult. You would think nothing of it if
it had been Cornelius Nepos, or Cordery's Colloquies. It's only a
better, not a more difficult book."
"I don't know about that. It's not every one who can read Greek
that can understand Epictetus. Tell me what you have learned from
him?"
"That would be hard to do. A man is very ready to forget how he
came first to think of the things he loves best. You see they are
as much a necessity of your being as they are of the man's who
thought them first. I can no more do without the truth than Plato.
It is as much my needful food and as fully mine to possess as his.
His having it, Mr Graham says, was for my sake as well as his own.
--It's just like what Sir Thomas Browne says about the faces of
those we love--that we cannot retain the idea of them because
they are ourselves. Those that help the world must be served like
their master and a good deal forgotten, I fancy. Of course they don't
mind it.--I remember another passage I think says something to
the same purpose--one in Epictetus himself," continued Malcolm,
drawing the little book from his pocket and turning over the leaves,
while Lenorme sat waiting, wondering, and careful not to interrupt
him.
He turned to the forty-second chapter, and began to read from the
Greek.
"I've forgotten all the Greek I ever had," said Lenorme.
Then Malcolm turned to the opposite page and began to read the
Latin.
"Tut! tut!" said Lenorme, "I can't follow your Scotch pronunciation."
"That's a pity," said Malcolm: "it's the right way."
"I don't doubt it. You Scotch are always in the right! But just
read it off in English--will you?"
Thus adjured, Malcolm read slowly and with choice of word and phrase
"'And if any one shall say unto thee, that thou knowest nothing,
notwithstanding thou must not be vexed: then know thou that thou
hast begun thy work.'--That is," explained Malcolm, "when you
keep silence about principles in the presence of those that are
incapable of understanding them.--'For the sheep also do not
manifest to the shepherds how much they have eaten, by producing
fodder; but, inwardly digesting their food, they produce outwardly
wool and milk. And thou therefore set not forth principles before
the unthinking, but the actions that result from the digestion of
them.'--That last is not quite literal, but I think it's about
right," concluded Malcolm, putting the book again in the breast
pocket of his silver buttoned coat. "--That's the passage I
thought of, but I see now it won't apply. He speaks of not saying
what you know; I spoke of forgetting where you got it."
"Come now," said Lenorme, growing more and more interested in his
new acquaintance, "tell me something about your life. Account for
yourself.--If you will make a friendship of it, you must do that."
"I will, sir," said Malcolm, and with the word began to tell him
most things he could think of as bearing upon his mental history
up to and after the time also when his birth was disclosed to him.
In omitting that disclosure he believed he had without it quite
accounted for himself. Through the whole recital he dwelt chiefly
on the lessons and influences of the schoolmaster.
"Well, I must admit," said Lenorme when he had ended, "that you
are no longer unintelligible, not to say incredible. You have had
a splendid education, in which I hope you give the herring and
Kelpie their due share."
He sat silently regarding him for a few moments. Then he said:
"I'll tell you what now: if I help you to buy a horse, you must
help me to paint a picture."
"I don't know how I'm to do that," said Malcolm, "but if you do,
that's enough. I shall only be too happy to do what I can."
"Then I'll tell you.--But you're not to tell anybody: it's a
secret.--I have discovered that there is no suitable portrait of
Lady Lossie's father. It is a great pity. His brother and his father
and grandfather are all in Portland Place, in Highland costume,
as chiefs of their clan; his place only is vacant. Lady Lossie,
however, has in her possession one or two miniatures of him, which,
although badly painted, I should think may give the outlines of
his face and head with tolerable correctness. From the portraits
of his predecessors, and from Lady Lossie herself, I gain some
knowledge of what is common to the family; and from all together
I hope to gather and paint what will be recognizable by her as
a likeness of her father--which afterwards I hope to better by
her remarks. These remarks I hope to get first from her feelings
unadulterated by criticism, through the surprise of coming upon
the picture suddenly; afterwards from her judgment at its leisure.
Now I remember seeing you wait at table--the first time I saw
you--in the Highland dress: will you come to me so dressed, and
let me paint from you?"
"I'll do better than that, sir," cried Malcolm, eagerly. "I'll get
up from Lossie Home my lord's very dress that he wore when he went
to court--his jewelled dirk, and Andrew Ferrara broadsword with
the hilt of real silver. That'll greatly help your design upon my
lady, for he dressed up in them all more than once just to please
her."
"Thank you," said Lenorme very heartily; "that will be of immense
advantage. Write at once."
"I will, sir.--Only I'm a bigger man than my--late master, and
you must mind that."
"I'll see to it. You get the clothes, and all the rest
of the accoutrements--rich with barbaric gems and gold, and--"
"Neither gems nor gold, sir;--honest Scotch cairngorms and plain
silver," said Malcolm.
"I only quoted Milton," returned Lenorme.
"Then you should have quoted correctly, sir.--'Showers on her kings
barbaric pearl and gold,'--that's the line, and you can't better
it. Mr Graham always pulled me up if I didn't quote correctly.--
By the bye, sir, some say it's kings barbaric, but there's barbaric
gold in Virgil."
"I dare say you are right," said Lenorme. "But you're far too
learned for me."
"Don't make game of me, sir. I know two or three books pretty well,
and when I get a chance I can't help talking about them. It's so
seldom now I can get a mouthful of Milton. There's no cave here to
go into, and roll the mimic thunder in your mouth. If the people
here heard me reading loud out, they would call me mad. It's a mercy
in this London, if a working man get loneliness enough to say his
prayers in!"
"You do say your prayers then?" asked Lenorme, looking at him
curiously.
"Yes; don't you, sir? You had so much sense about the beasts I
thought you must be a man that said his prayers."
Lenorme was silent. He was not altogether innocent of saying prayers;
but of late years it had grown a more formal and gradually a rarer
thing. One reason of this was that it had never come into his
head that God cared about pictures, or had the slightest interest
whether he painted well or ill. If a man's earnest calling, to
which of necessity the greater part of his thought is given, is
altogether dissociated in his mind from his religion, it is not
wonderful that his prayers should by degrees wither and die. The
question is whether they ever had much vitality. But one mighty
negative was yet true of Lenorme: he had not got in his head, still
less had he ever cherished in his heart, the thought that there was
anything fine in disbelieving in a God, or anything contemptible
in imagining communication with a being of grander essence than
himself. That in which Socrates rejoiced with exultant humility,
many a youth nowadays thinks himself a fine fellow for casting from
him with ignorant scorn.
A true conception of the conversation above recorded can hardly be
had except my reader will take the trouble to imagine the contrast
between the Scotch accent and inflection, the largeness and
prolongation of vowel sounds, and, above all, the Scotch tone of
Malcolm, and the pure, clear articulation, and decided utterance
of the perfect London speech of Lenorme. It was something like the
difference between the blank verse of Young and the prose of Burke.
The silence endured so long that Malcolm began to fear he had hurt
his new friend, and thought it better to take his leave.
"I'll go and write to Mrs Courthope--that's the housekeeper,
tonight, to send up the things at once. When would it be convenient
for you to go and look at some horses with me, Mr Lenorme?" he
said.
"I shall be at home all tomorrow," answered the painter, "and ready
to go with you any time you like to come for me."
As he spoke he held out his hand, and they parted like old friends.
CHAPTER XXIV: A LADY
The next morning, Malcolm took Kelpie into the park, and gave her
a good breathing. He had thought to jump the rails, and let her
have her head, but he found there were too many park keepers and
police about: he saw he could do little for her that way. He was
turning home with her again when one of her evil fits came upon
her, this time taking its first form in a sudden stiffening of
every muscle: she stood stock still with flaming eyes. I suspect
we human beings know but little of the fierceness with which the
vortices of passion rage in the more purely animal natures. This
beginning he knew well would end in a wild paroxysm of rearing and
plunging. He had more than once tried the exorcism of patience,
sitting sedate upon her back until she chose to move; but on these
occasions the tempest that followed had been of the very worst
description; so that he had concluded it better to bring on the
crisis, thereby sure at least to save time; and after he had adopted
this mode with her, attacks of the sort, if no less violent, had
certainly become fewer. The moment therefore that symptoms of an
approaching fit showed themselves, he used his spiked heels with
vigour. Upon this occasion he had a stiff tussle with her, but
as usual gained the victory, and was riding slowly along the Row,
Kelpie tossing up now her head now her heels in indignant protest
against obedience in general and enforced obedience in particular,
when a lady on horseback, who had come galloping from the opposite
direction, with her groom behind her, pulled up, and lifted her
hand with imperative grace: she had seen something of what had been
going on. Malcolm reined in. But Kelpie, after her nature, was now
as unwilling to stop as she had been before to proceed, and the
fight began again, with some difference of movement and aspect,
but the spurs once more playing a free part.
"Man! man!" cried the lady, in most musical reproof, "do you know
what you are about?"
"It would be a bad job for her and me too if I did not, my lady,"
said Malcolm, whom her appearance and manner impressed with a
conviction of rank, and as he spoke he smiled in the midst of the
struggle: he seldom got angry with Kelpie. But the smile instead
of taking from the apparent roughness of his speech, only made his
conduct appear in the lady's eyes more cruel.
"How is it possible you can treat the poor animal so unkindly
--and in cold blood too?" she said, and an indescribable tone of
pleading ran through the rebuke. "Why, her poor sides are actually--"
A shudder, and look of personal distress completed the sentence.
"You don't know what she is, my lady, or you would not think it
necessary to intercede for her."
"But if she is naughty, is that any reason why you should be cruel?"
"No, my lady; but it is the best reason why I should try to make
her good."
"You will never make her good that way."
"Improvement gives ground for hope," said Malcolm.
"But you must not treat a poor dumb animal as you would a responsible
human being."
"She's not so very poor, my lady. She has all she wants, and does
nothing to earn it--nothing to speak of; and nothing at all with
good will. For her dumbness, that's a mercy. If she could speak she
wouldn't be fit to live among decent people. But for that matter,
if some one hadn't taken her in hand, dumb as she is, she would
have been shot long ago."
"Better that than live with such usage."
"I don't think she would agree with you, my lady. My fear is that,
for as cruel as it looks to your ladyship, take it altogether, she
enjoys the fight. In any case, I am certain she has more regard
for me than any other being in the universe."
"Who can have any regard for you," said the lady very gently,
in utter mistake of his meaning, "if you have no command of your
temper? You must learn to rule yourself first."
"That's true, my lady; and so long as my mare is not able to be a
law to herself, I must be a law to her too."
"But have you never heard of the law of kindness? You could do so
much more without the severity."
"With some natures I grant you, my lady, but not with such as she.
Horse or man--they never show kindness till they have learned
fear. Kelpie would have torn me to pieces before now if I had taken
your way with her. But except I can do a great deal more with her
yet she will be nothing better than a natural brute beast made to
be taken and destroyed."
"The Bible again!" murmured the lady to herself. "Of how much
cruelty has not that book to bear the blame!"
All this time Kelpie was trying hard to get at the lady's horse to
bite him. But she did not see that. She was much too distressed--
and was growing more and more so.
"I wish you would let my groom try her," she said, after a pitiful
pause. "He's an older and more experienced man than you. He has
children. He would show you what can be done by gentleness."
From Malcolm's words she had scarcely gathered even a false meaning
--not a glimmer of his nature--not even a suspicion that he meant
something. To her he was but a handsome, brutal young groom. From
the world of thought and reasoning that lay behind his words, not
an echo had reached her.
"It would be a great satisfaction to my old Adam to let him try
her," said Malcolm.
"The Bible again!" said the lady to herself.
"But it would be murder," he added, "not knowing myself what
experience he has had."
"I see," said the lady to herself; but loud enough for Malcolm to
hear, for her tender heartedness had made her both angry and unjust,
"his self conceit is equal to his cruelty--just what I might have
expected!"
With the words she turned her horse's head and rode away, leaving
a lump in Malcolm's throat.
"I wuss fowk"--he still spoke in Scotch in his own chamber--
"wad du as they're tell't, an' no jeedge ane anither. I'm sure it's
Kelpie's best chance o' salvation 'at I gang on wi' her. Stable men
wad ha'e had her brocken doon a'thegither by this time; an' life
wad ha'e had little relish left."
It added hugely to the bitterness of being thus rebuked, that
he had never in his life seen such a radiance of beauty's softest
light as shone from the face and form of the reproving angel.--
"Only She canna be an angel," he said to himself; "or she wad ha'e
ken't better."
She was young--not more than twenty, tall and graceful, with a
touch of the matronly, which she must have had even in childhood,
for it belonged to her--so staid, so stately was she in all her
grace. With her brown hair, her lily complexion, her blue gray
eyes, she was all of the moonlight and its shadows--even now, in
the early morning, and angry. Her nose was so nearly perfect that
one never thought of it. Her mouth was rather large, but had gained
in value of shape, and in the expression of indwelling sweetness,
with every line that carried it beyond the measure of smallness.
Most little mouths are pretty, some even lovely, but not one have
I seen beautiful. Her forehead was the sweetest of half moons. Of
those who knew her best some absolutely believed that a radiance
resembling moonlight shimmered from its precious expanse.
"Be ye angry and sin not," had always been a puzzle to Malcolm,
who had, as I have said, inherited a certain Celtic fierceness;
but now, even while he knew himself the object of the anger,
he understood the word. It tried him sorely, however, that such
gentleness and beauty should be unreasonable. Could it be that he
should never have a chance of convincing her how mistaken she was
concerning his treatment of Kelpie! What a celestial rosy red her
face had glowed! and what summer lightnings had flashed up in her
eyes, as if they had been the horizons of heavenly worlds up which
flew the dreams that broke from the brain of a young sleeping
goddess, to make the worlds glad also in the night of their slumber.
Something like this Malcolm felt: whoever saw her must feel as he
had never felt before. He gazed after her long and earnestly.
"It's an awfu' thing to ha'e a wuman like that angert at ye!", he
said to himself when at length she had disappeared, "--as bonny
as she is angry! God be praised 'at he kens a'thing, an' 's no
angert wi' ye for the luik o' a thing! But the wheel may come roon'
again--wha kens? Ony gait I s' mak' the best o' Kelpie I can.--
I won'er gien she kens Leddy Florimel! She's a heap mair boontifu'
like in her beauty nor her. The man micht haud 's ain wi' an
archangel 'at had a woman like that to the wife o' 'm.--Hoots!
I'll be wussin' I had had anither upbringin', 'at I micht ha' won
a step nearer to the hem o' her garment! an' that wad be to deny
him 'at made an' ordeen't me. I wull not du that. But I maun hae a
crack wi' Maister Graham, anent things twa or three, just to haud
me straucht, for I'm jist girnin' at bein' sae regairdit by sic a
Revelation. Gien she had been an auld wife, I wad ha'e only lauchen:
what for 's that? I doobt I'm no muckle mair rizzonable nor hersel'!
The thing was this, I fancy it was sae clear she spak frae no ill
natur', only frae pure humanity. She's a gran' ane yon, only some
saft, I doobt."
For the lady, she rode away sadly strengthened in her doubts whether
there could be a God in the world--not because there were in it
such men as she took Malcolm for, but because such a lovely animal
had fallen into his hands.
"It's a sair thing to be misjeedged," said Malcolm to himself as
he put the demoness in her stall; "but it's no more than the Macker
o' 's pits up wi' ilka hoor o' the day, an' says na a word. Eh,
but God's unco quaiet! Sae lang as he kens till himsel' 'at he's
a' richt, he lats fowk think 'at they like--till he has time to
lat them ken better. Lord, mak' clean my hert within me, an' syne
I'll care little for ony jeedgement but thine."
CHAPTER XXV: THE PSYCHE
It was a lovely day, but Florimel would not ride: Malcolm must go
at once to Mr Lenorme; she would not go out again until she could
have a choice of horses to follow her.
"Your Kelpie is all very well in Richmond Park, and I wish I were
able to ride her myself, Malcolm, but she will never do in London."
His name sounded sweet on her lips, but somehow today, for the first
time since he saw her first, he felt a strange sense of superiority
in his protection of her: could it be because he had that morning
looked unto a higher orb of creation? It mattered little to Malcolm's
generous nature that the voice that issued therefrom had been one
of unjust rebuke.
"Who knows, my lady," he answered his mistress, "but you may ride
her some day! Give her a bit of sugar every time you see her--
on your hand, so that she may take it with her lips, and not catch
your fingers."
"You shall show me how," said Florimel, and gave him a note for Mr
Lenorme.
When he came in sight of the river, there, almost opposite the
painter's house, lay his own little yacht! He thought of Kelpie
in the stable, saw Psyche floating like a swan in the reach, made
two or three long strides, then sought to exhale the pride of life
in thanksgiving.
The moment his arrival was announced to Lenorme, he came down and
went with him, and in an hour or two they had found very much the
sort of horse they wanted. Malcolm took him home for trial, and
Florimel was pleased with him. The earl's opinion was not to be had,
for he had hurt his shoulder when he fell from the rearing Kelpie
the day before, and was confined to his room in Curzon Street.
In the evening Malcolm put on his yachter's uniform, and set out
again for Chelsea. There he took a boat, and crossed the river
to the yacht, which lay near the other side, in charge of an old
salt whose acquaintance Blue Peter had made when lying below the
bridges. On board he found all tidy and shipshape. He dived into
the cabin, lighted a candle, and made some measurements: all the
little luxuries of the nest, carpets, cushions, curtains, and other
things, were at Lossie House, having been removed when the Psyche
was laid up for the winter: he was going to replace them. And
he was anxious to see whether be could not fulfil a desire he had
once heard Florimel express to her father--that she had a bed on
board, and could sleep there. He found it possible, and had soon
contrived a berth: even a tiny stateroom was within the limits of
construction.
Returning to the deck, he was consulting Travers about a carpenter,
when, to his astonishment, he saw young Davy, the boy he had brought
from Duff Harbour, and whom he understood to have gone back with
Blue Peter, gazing at him from before the mast.
"Gien ye please, Maister MacPhail," said Davy, and said no more.
"How on earth do you come to be here, you rascal?" said Malcolm.
"Peter was to take you home with him!"
"I garred him think I was gauin'," answered the boy, scratching
his red poll, which glowed in the dusk.
"I gave him your wages," said Malcolm.
"Ay, he tauld me that, but I loot them gang an' gae him the slip,
an' was ashore close ahint yersel', sir, jist as the smack set
sail. I cudna gang ohn hed a word wi' yersel', sir, to see whether
ye wadna lat me bide wi' ye, sir. I haena muckle wut, they tell
me, sir, but gien I michtna aye be able to du what ye tell't me to
du, I cud aye haud ohn dune what ye tell't me no to."
The words of the boy pleased Malcolm more than he judged it wise
to manifest. He looked hard at Davy. There was little to be seen
in his face except the best and only thing--truth. It shone from
his round pale blue eyes; it conquered the self assertion of his
unhappy nose; it seemed to glow in every freckle of his sunburnt
cheeks, as earnestly he returned Malcolm's gaze.
"But," said Malcolm, almost satisfied, "how is this, Travers? I
never gave you any instructions about the boy."
"There's where it is, sir," answered Travers. "I seed the boy
aboard before, and when he come aboard again, jest arter you left,
I never as much as said to myself, It's all right. I axed him no
questions, and he told me no lies."
"Gien ye please, sir," struck in Davy, "Maister Trahvers gied me
my mait, an' I tuik it, 'cause I hed no sil'er to buy ony: I houp
it wasna stealin', sir. An' gien ye wad keep me, ye cud tak it aft
o' my wauges for three days."
"Look here, Davy," said Malcolm, turning sharp upon him, "can you
swim?"
"Ay can I, sir,--weel that," answered Davy.
"Jump overboard then, and swim ashore," said Malcolm, pointing to
the Chelsea bank.
The boy made two strides to the larboard gunwale, and would have
been over the next instant, but Malcolm caught him by the shoulder.
"That'll do, Davy; I'll give you a chance, Davy," he said, "and
if I get a good account of you from Travers, I'll rig you out like
myself here."
"Thank you, sir," said Davy. "I s' du what I can to please ye, sir.
An' gien ye wad sen' my wauges hame to my mither, sir, ye wad ken
'at I cudna be gauin' stravaguin', and drinkin' whan yer back was
turn't."
"Well, I'll write to your mother, and see what she says," said
Malcolm. "Now I want to tell you, both of you, that this yacht
belongs to the Marchioness of Lossie, and I have the command of
her, and I must have everything on board shipshape, and as clean,
Travers, as if she were a seventy-four. If there's the head of a
pail visible, it must be as bright as silver. And everything must
be at the word. The least hesitation, and I have done with that man.
If Davy here had grumbled one mouthful, even on his way overboard,
I wouldn't have kept him."
He then arranged that Travers was to go home that night, and bring
with him the next morning an old carpenter friend of his. He would
himself be down by seven o'clock to set him to work.
The result was that, before a fortnight was over, he had the
cabin thoroughly fitted up, with all the luxuries it had formerly
possessed, and as many more as he could think of--to compensate
for the loss of the space occupied by the daintiest little stateroom
--a very jewel box for softness and richness and comfort. In the
cabin, amongst the rest of his additions, he had fixed in a corner
a set of tiny bookshelves, and filled them with what books he knew
his sister liked, and some that he liked for her. It was not probable
she would read in them much, he said to himself, but they wouldn't
make the boat heel, and who could tell when a drop of celestial
nepenthe might ooze from one or another of them! So there they
stood, in their lovely colours, of morocco, russia, calf or vellum
--types of the infinite rest in the midst of the ever restless--
the types for ever tossed, but the rest remaining.
By that time also he had arranged with Travers and Davy a code of
signals.
The day after Malcolm had his new hack, he rode him behind his
mistress in the park, and nothing could be more decorous than the
behaviour of both horse and groom. It was early, and in Rotten
Row, to his delight, they met the lady of rebuke. She and Florimel
pulled up simultaneously, greeted, and had a little talk. When
they parted, and the lady came to pass Malcolm, whom she had not
suspected, sitting a civilised horse in all serenity behind his
mistress, she cast a quick second glance at him, and her fair face
flushed with the red reflex of yesterday's anger. He expected her
to turn at once and complain of him to her mistress, but to his
disappointment, she rode on.
When they left the park, Florimel went down Constitution Hill, and
turning westward, rode to Chelsea. As they approached Mr Lenorme's
house, she stopped and said to Malcolm--"I am going to run in and
thank Mr Lenorme for the trouble he has been at about the horse.
Which is the house?"
She pulled up at the gate. Malcolm dismounted, but before he could
get near to assist her, she was already halfway up the walk--
flying, and he was but in time to catch the rein of Abbot, already
moving off curious to know whether he was actually trusted alone.
In about five minutes she came again, glancing about her all ways
but behind, with a scared look, Malcolm thought. But she walked
more slowly and statelily than usual down the path. In a moment
Malcolm had her in the saddle, and she cantered away--past the
hospital into Sloane Street, and across the park home. He said to
himself, "She knows the way."
CHAPTER XXVI: THE SCHOOLMASTER
Alexander Graham, the schoolmaster, was the son of a grieve, or
farm overseer, in the North of Scotland. By straining every nerve,
his parents had succeeded in giving him a university education,
the narrowness of whose scope was possibly favourable to the
development of what genius, rare and shy, might lurk among the
students. He had laboured well, and had gathered a good deal from
books and lectures, but far more from the mines they guided him to
discover in his own nature. In common with so many Scotch parents,
his had cherished the most wretched as well as hopeless of all
ambitions, seeing it presumes to work in a region into which no
ambition can enter--I mean that of seeing their son a clergyman.
In presbyter, curate, bishop, or cardinal, ambition can fare but as
that of the creeping thing to build its nest in the topmost boughs
of the cedar. Worse than that; my simile is a poor one; for the
moment a thought of ambition is cherished, that moment the man is
out of the kingdom. Their son with already a few glimmering insights,
which had not yet begun to interfere with his acceptance of the
doctrines of his church, made no opposition to their wish, but
having qualified himself to the satisfaction of his superiors, at
length ascended the pulpit to preach his first sermon.
The custom of the time as to preaching was a sort of compromise
between reading a sermon and speaking extempore, a mode morally
as well as artistically false: the preacher learned his sermon by
rote, and repeated it--as much like the man he therein was not,
and as little like the parrot he was, as he could. It is no wonder,
in such an attempt, either that memory should fail a shy man, or
assurance an honest man. In Mr Graham's case it was probably the
former: the practice was universal, and he could hardly yet have
begun to question it, so as to have had any conscience of evil.
Blessedly, however, for his dawning truth and well being, he failed
--failed utterly--pitifully. His tongue clave to the roof of his
mouth; his lips moved, but shaped no sound; a deathly dew bathed
his forehead; his knees shook; and he sank at last to the bottom
of the chamber of his torture, whence, while his mother wept below,
and his father clenched hands of despair beneath the tails of his
Sunday coat, he was half led, half dragged down the steps by the
bedral, shrunken together like one caught in a shameful deed, and
with the ghastly look of him who has but just revived from the faint
supervening on the agonies of the rack. Home they crept together,
speechless and hopeless all three, to be thenceforth the contempt
and not the envy of their fellow parishioners. For if the vulgar
feeling towards the home born prophet is superciliousness, what
must the sentence upon failure be in ungenerous natures, to which
every downfall of another is an uplifting of themselves! But Mr
Graham's worth had gained him friends in the presbytery, and he
was that same week appointed to the vacant school of another parish.
There it was not long before he made the acquaintance of Griselda
Campbell, who was governess in the great house of the neighbourhood,
and a love, not the less fine that it was hopeless from the first,
soon began to consume the chagrin of his failure, and substitute for
it a more elevating sorrow;--for how could an embodied failure,
to offer whose miserable self would be an insult, dare speak of
love to one before whom his whole being sank worshipping. Silence
was the sole armour of his privilege. So long as he was silent, the
terrible arrow would never part from the bow of those sweet lips;
he might love on, love ever, nor be grudged the bliss of such
visions as to him, seated on its outer steps, might come from any
chance opening of the heavenly gate. And Miss Campbell thought
of him more kindly than he knew. But before long she accepted the
offered situation of governess to Lady Annabel, the only child of
the late marquis's elder brother, at that time himself marquis,
and removed to Lossie House. There the late marquis fell in love
with her, and persuaded her to a secret marriage. There also she
became, in the absence of her husband, the mother of Malcolm. But
the marquis of the time, jealous for the succession of his daughter,
and fearing his brother might yet marry the mother of his child,
contrived, with the assistance of the midwife, to remove the infant
and persuade the mother that he was dead, and also to persuade
his brother of the death of both mother and child; after which,
imagining herself wilfully deserted by her husband, yet determined
to endure shame rather than break the promise of secrecy she had
given him, the poor lady accepted the hospitality of her distant
relative, Miss Horn, and continued with her till she died.
When he learned where she had gone, Mr Graham seized a chance of
change to Portlossie that occurred soon after, and when she became
her cousin's guest, went to see her, was kindly received, and for
twenty years lived in friendly relations with the two. It was not
until after her death that he came to know the strange fact that the
object of his calm unalterable devotion had been a wife all those
years, and was the mother of his favourite pupil. About the same
time he was dismissed from the school on the charge of heretical
teaching, founded on certain religious conversations he had had with
some of the fisher people who sought his advice; and thereupon he
had left the place, and gone to London, knowing it would be next
to impossible to find or gather another school in Scotland after
being thus branded. In London he hoped, one way or another, to
avoid dying of cold or hunger, or in debt: that was very nearly
the limit of his earthly ambition.
He had just one acquaintance in the whole mighty city, and no more.
Him he had known in the days of his sojourn at King's College, where
he had grown with him from bejan to magistrand. He was the son of
a linen draper in Aberdeen, and was a decent, good humoured fellow,
who, if he had not distinguished, had never disgraced himself. His
father, having somewhat influential business relations, and finding
in him no leanings to a profession, bespoke the good offices of a
certain large retail house in London, and sent him thither to learn
the business. The result was that he had married a daughter of
one of the partners, and become a partner himself. His old friend
wrote to him at his shop in Oxford Street, and then went to see
him at his house in Haverstock Hill.
He was shown into the library--in which were two mahogany cases
with plate glass doors, full of books, well cared for as to clothing
and condition, and perfectly placid, as if never disturbed from
one week's end to another. In a minute Mr Marshal entered--so
changed that he could never have recognized him--still, however,
a kind hearted, genial man. He received his classfellow cordially
and respectfully--referred merrily to old times, and begged to
know how he was getting on, asked whether he had come to London with
any special object, and invited him to dine with them on Sunday.
He accepted the invitation, met him, according to agreement, at a
certain chapel in Kentish Town, of which he was a deacon, and walked
home with him and his wife.
They had but one of their family at home--the youngest son, whom
his father was having educated for the dissenting ministry, in the
full conviction that he was doing not a little for the truth, and
justifying its cause before men, by devoting to its service the son
of a man of standing and worldly means, whom he might have easily
placed in a position to make money. The youth was of simple character
and good inclination--ready to do what he saw to be right, but
slow in putting to the question anything that interfered with his
notions of laudable ambition, or justifiable self interest. He was
attending lectures at a dissenting college in the neighbourhood,
for his father feared Oxford or Cambridge, not for his morals, but
his opinions in regard to church and state.
The schoolmaster spent a few days in the house. His friend was
generally in town, and his wife, regarding him as very primitive
and hardly fit for what she counted society--the class, namely,
that she herself represented, was patronising and condescending;
but the young fellow, finding, to his surprise, that he knew a
great deal more about his studies than he did himself, was first
somewhat attracted and then somewhat influenced by him, so that at
length an intimacy tending to friendship arose between them.
Mr Graham was not a little shocked to discover that his ideas
in respect of the preacher's calling were of a very worldly kind.
The notions of this fledgling of dissent differed from those of
a clergyman of the same stamp in this:--the latter regards the
church as a society with accumulated property for the use of its
officers; the former regarded it as a community of communities, each
possessing a preaching house which ought to be made commercially
successful. Saving influences must emanate from it of course--
but dissenting saving influences.
His mother was a partisan to a hideous extent. To hear her talk you
would have thought she imagined the apostles the first dissenters,
and that the main duty of every Christian soul was to battle for
the victory of Congregationalism over Episcopacy, and Voluntaryism
over State Endowment. Her every mode of thinking and acting was of
a levelling commonplace. With her, love was liking, duty something
unpleasant--generally to other people, and kindness patronage. But
she was just in money matters, and her son too had every intention
of being worthy of his hire, though wherein lay the value of the
labour with which he thought to counterpoise that hire, it were
hard to say.
CHAPTER XXVII: THE PREACHER
The sermon Mr Graham heard at the chapel that Sunday morning in
Kentish Town was not of an elevating, therefore not of a strengthening
description. The pulpit was at that time in offer to the highest
bidder--in orthodoxy, that is, combined with popular talent.
The first object of the chapel's existence--I do not say in the
minds of those who built it, for it was an old place, but certainly
in the minds of those who now directed its affairs--was not to
save its present congregation, but to gather a larger--ultimately
that they might be saved, let us hope, but primarily that the
drain upon the purses of those who were responsible for its rent
and other outlays, might be lessened. Mr Masquar, therefore, to
whom the post was a desirable one, had been mainly anxious that
morning to prove his orthodoxy, and so commend his services. Not
that in those days one heard so much of the dangers of heterodoxy:
that monster was as yet but growling far off in the jungles of Germany;
but certain whispers had been abroad concerning the preacher which
he thought desirable to hush, especially as they were founded in
truth. He had tested the power of heterodoxy to attract attention,
but having found that the attention it did attract was not of a kind
favourable to his wishes, had so skilfully remodelled his theories
that, although to his former friends he declared them in substance
unaltered, it was impossible any longer to distinguish them from
the most uncompromising orthodoxy; and his sermon of that morning
had tended neither to the love of God, the love of man, nor
a hungering after righteousness--its aim being to disprove the
reported heterodoxy of Jacob Masquar.
As they walked home, Mrs Marshal, addressing her husband in a tone
of conjugal disapproval, said, with more force than delicacy,
"The pulpit is not the place to give a man to wash his dirty linen
in."
"Well, you see, my love," answered her husband in a tone of apology,
"people won't submit to be told their duty by mere students, and
just at present there seems nobody else to be had. There's none
in the market but old stagers and young colts--eh, Fred? But Mr
Masquar is at least a man of experience."
"Of more than enough, perhaps," suggested his wife. "And the young
ones must have their chance, else how are they to learn? You should
have given the principal a hint. It is a most desirable thing that
Frederick should preach a little oftener."
"They have it in turn, and it wouldn't do to favour one more than
another."
"He could hand his guinea, or whatever they gave him, to the one
whose turn it ought to have been, and that would set it all right."
At this point the silk mercer, fearing that the dominie, as he
called him, was silently disapproving, and willing therefore to
change the subject, turned to him and said,
"Why shouldn't you give us a sermon, Graham?"
The schoolmaster laughed.
"Did you never hear," he said, "how I fell like Dagon on the
threshold of the church, and have lain there ever since."
"What has that to do with it?" returned his friend, sorry that
his forgetfulness should have caused a painful recollection. "That
is ages ago, when you were little more than a boy. Seriously," he
added, chiefly to cover his little indiscretion, "will you preach
for us the Sunday after next?"
Deacons generally ask a man to preach for them.
"No," said Mr Graham.
But even as he said it, a something began to move in his heart--
a something half of jealousy for God, half of pity for poor souls
buffeted by such winds as had that morning been roaring, chaff
laden, about the church, while the grain fell all to the bottom of
the pulpit. Something burned in him: was it the word that was as
a fire in his bones, or was it a mere lust of talk? He thought for
a moment.
"Have you any gatherings between Sundays?" he asked.
"Yes; every Wednesday evening," replied Mr Marshal. "And if you won't
preach on Sunday, we shall announce tonight that next Wednesday a
clergyman of the Church of Scotland will address the prayer meeting."
He was glad to get out of it so, for he was uneasy about his
friend, both as to his nerve, which might fail him, and his Scotch
oddities, which would not.
"That would be hardly true," said Mr Graham, "seeing I never got
beyond a licence."
"Nobody here knows the difference between a licentiate and a placed
minister; and if they did they would not care a straw. So we'll
just say clergyman."
"But I won't have it announced in any terms. Leave that alone, and
I will try to speak at the prayer meeting."
"It won't be in the least worth your while except we announce it.
You won't have a soul to hear you but the pew openers, the woman
that cleans the chapel, Mrs Marshal's washerwoman, and the old
greengrocer we buy our vegetables from. We must really announce
it."
"Then I won't do it. Just tell me--what would our Lord have
said to Peter or John if they had told Him that they had been to
synagogue and had been asked to speak, but had declined because
there were only the pew openers, the chapel cleaner, a washerwoman,
and a greengrocer present?"
"I said it only for your sake, Graham; you needn't take me up so
sharply."
"And ra-a-ther irreverently--don't you think--excuse me, sir?"
said Mrs Marshal very softly. But the very softness had a kind of
jellyfish sting in it.
"I think," rejoined the schoolmaster, indirectly replying, "we
must be careful to show our reverence in a manner pleasing to our
Lord. Now I cannot discover that he cares for any reverences but
the shaping of our ways after his; and if you will show me a single
instance of respect of persons in our Lord, I will press my petition
no farther to be allowed to speak a word to your pew openers,
washerwoman, and greengrocer."
His entertainers were silent--the gentleman in the consciousness
of deserved rebuke, the lady in offence.
Just then the latter bethought herself that their guest, belonging
to the Scotch Church, was, if no Episcopalian, yet no dissenter,
and that seemed to clear up to her the spirit of his disapproval.
"By all means, Mr Marshal," she said, "let your friend speak on
the Wednesday evening. It would not be to his advantage to have it
said that he occupied a dissenting pulpit. It will not be nearly
such an exertion either; and if he is unaccustomed to speak to
large congregations, he will find himself more comfortable with
our usual week evening one."
"I have never attempted to speak in public but once," rejoined Mr
Graham, "and then I failed."
"Ah! that accounts for it," said his friend's wife and the simplicity
of his confession, while it proved him a simpleton, mollified her.
Thus it came that he spent the days between Sunday and Thursday in
their house, and so made the acquaintance of young Marshal.
When his mother perceived their growing intimacy, she warned her
son that their visitor belonged to an unscriptural and worldly
community, and that notwithstanding his apparent guilelessness--
deficiency indeed--he might yet use cunning arguments to draw him
aside from the faith of his fathers. But the youth replied that,
although in the firmness of his own position as a Congregationalist,
he had tried to get the Scotchman into a conversation upon church
government, he had failed; the man smiled queerly and said nothing.
But when a question of New Testament criticism arose, he came awake
at once, and his little blue eyes gleamed like glowworms.
"Take care, Frederick," said his mother. "The Scriptures are not
to be treated like common books and subjected to human criticism."
"We must find out what they mean, I suppose, mother," said the
youth.
"You're to take just the plain meaning that he that runneth
may read," answered his mother.--"More than that no one has any
business with. You've got to save your own soul first, and then the
souls of your neighbours if they will let you; and for that reason
you must cultivate, not a spirit of criticism, but the talents
that attract people to the hearing of the Word. You have got a fine
voice, and it will improve with judicious use. Your father is now
on the outlook for a teacher of elocution to instruct you how to
make the best of it, and speak with power on God's behalf"
When the afternoon of Wednesday began to draw towards the evening,
there came on a mist, not a London fog, but a low wet cloud, which
kept slowly condensing into rain; and as the hour of meeting drew
nigh with the darkness, it grew worse. Mrs Marshal had forgotten
all about the meeting and the schoolmaster: her husband was late,
and she wanted her dinner. At twenty minutes past six, she came
upon her guest in the hall, kneeling on the doormat, first on one
knee, then on the other, turning up the feet of his trousers.
"Why, Mr Graham," she said kindly, as he rose and proceeded to look
for his cotton umbrella, easily discernible in the stand among the
silk ones of the house, "you're never going out on a night like
this?"
"I am going to the prayer meeting, ma'am," he said.
"Nonsense! You'll be wet to the skin before you get half way."
"I promised, you may remember, ma'am, to talk a little to them."
"You only said so to my husband. You may be very glad, seeing it has
turned out so wet, that I would not allow him to have it announced
from the pulpit. There is not the slightest occasion for your going.
Besides, you have not had your dinner."
"That's not of the slightest consequence, ma'am. A bit of bread
and cheese before I go to bed is all I need to sustain nature, and
fit me for understanding my proposition in Euclid. I have been in
the habit, for the last few years, of reading one every night before
I go to bed."
"We dissenters consider a chapter of the Bible the best thing to
read before going to bed," said the lady, with a sustained voice.
"I keep that for the noontide of my perceptions--for mental high
water," said the schoolmaster, "Euclid is good enough after supper.
Not that I deny myself a small portion of the Word," he added with
a smile, as he proceeded to open the door--" when I feel very
hungry for it."
"There is no one expecting you," persisted the lady, who could ill
endure not to have her own way, even when she did not care for the
matter concerned. "Who will be the wiser or the worse if you stay
at home?"
"My dear lady," returned the schoolmaster, "when I have on good
grounds made up my mind to a thing, I always feel as if I had
promised God to do it; and indeed it amounts to the same thing very
nearly. Such a resolve then is not to be unmade except on equally
good grounds with those upon which it was made. Having resolved
to try whether I could not draw a little water of refreshment for
souls which if not thirsting are but fainting the more, shall I
allow a few drops of rain to prevent me?"
"Pray don't let me persuade you against your will," said his hostess,
with a stately bend of her neck over her shoulder, as she turned
into the drawing room.
Her guest went out into the rain, asking himself by what theory of
the will his hostess could justify such a phrase---too simple to
see that she had only thrown it out, as the cuttlefish its ink, to
cover her retreat.
But the weather had got a little into his brain: into his soul it
was seldom allowed to intrude. He felt depressed and feeble and
dull. But at the first corner he turned, he met a little breath
of wind. It blew the rain in his face, and revived him a little,
reminding him at the same time that he had not yet opened his
umbrella. As he put it up he laughed.
"Here I am," he said to himself, "lance in hand, spurring to meet
my dragon!"
Once when he used a similar expression, Malcolm had asked him what
he meant by his dragon; "I mean," replied the schoolmaster, "that
huge slug, The Commonplace. It is the wearifulest dragon to fight
in the whole miscreation. Wound it as you may, the jelly mass of
the monster closes, and the dull one is himself again--feeding
all the time so cunningly that scarce one of the victims whom he
has swallowed suspects that he is but pabulum slowly digesting in
the belly of the monster."
If the schoolmaster's dragon, spread abroad as he lies, a vague
dilution, everywhere throughout human haunts, has yet any headquarters,
where else can they be than in such places as that to which he was
now making his way to fight him? What can be fuller of the wearisome,
depressing, beauty blasting commonplace than a dissenting chapel in
London, on the night of the weekly prayer meeting, and that night
a drizzly one? The few lights fill the lower part with a dull,
yellow, steamy glare, while the vast galleries, possessed by an
ugly twilight, yawn above like the dreary openings of a disconsolate
eternity. The pulpit rises into the dim damp air, covered with
brown holland, reminding one of desertion and charwomen, if not
of a chamber of death and spiritual undertakers, who have shrouded
and coffined the truth. Gaping, empty, unsightly, the place is
the very skull of the monster himself--the fittest place of all
wherein to encounter the great slug, and deal him one of those
death blows which every sunrise, every repentance, every childbirth,
every true love deals him. Every hour he receives the blow that
kills, but he takes long to die, for every hour he is right carefully
fed and cherished by a whole army of purveyors, including every
trade and profession, but officered chiefly by divines and men of
science.
When the dominie entered, all was still, and every light had
a nimbus of illuminated vapour. There were hardly more than three
present beyond the number Mr Marshal had given him to expect; and
their faces, some grim, some grimy, most of them troubled, and
none blissful, seemed the nervous ganglions of the monster whose
faintly gelatinous bulk filled the place. He seated himself in
a pew near the pulpit, communed with his own heart and was still.
Presently the ministering deacon, a humbler one in the worldly sense
than Mr Marshal, for he kept a small ironmongery shop in the next
street to the chapel, entered, twirling the wet from his umbrella
as he came along one of the passages intersecting the pews. Stepping
up into the desk which cowered humbly at the foot of the pulpit,
he stood erect, and cast his eyes around the small assembly.
Discovering there no one that could lead in singing, he chose out
and read one of the monster's favourite hymns, in which never a
sparkle of thought or a glow of worship gave reason wherefore the
holy words should have been carpentered together. Then he prayed
aloud, and then first the monster found tongue, voice, articulation.
If this was worship, surely it was the monster's own worship of
itself! No God were better than one to whom such were fitting words
of prayer. What passed in the man's soul, God forbid I should judge:
I speak but of the words that reached the ears of men.
And over all the vast of London lay the monster, filling it like
the night--not in churches and chapels only--in almost all
theatres, and most houses--most of all in rich houses: everywhere
he had a foot, a tail, a tentacle or two--everywhere suckers that
drew the life blood from the sickening and somnolent soul.
When the deacon, a little brown man, about five-and-thirty, had
ended his prayer, he read another hymn of the same sort--one of
such as form the bulk of most collections, and then looked meaningly
at Mr Graham, whom he had seen in the chapel on Sunday with his
brother deacon, and therefore judged one of consequence, who had
come to the meeting with an object, and ought to be propitiated:
he had intended speaking himself. After having thus for a moment
regarded him,
"Would you favour us with a word of exhortation, sir?" he said, in
a stage-like whisper.
Now the monster had by this time insinuated a hair-like sucker into
the heart of the schoolmaster, and was busy. But at the word, as
the Red Cross Knight when he heard Orgoglio in the wood staggered
to meet him, he rose at once, and although his umbrella slipped
and fell with a loud discomposing clatter, calmly approached the
reading desk. To look at his outer man, this knight of the truth
might have been the very high priest of the monster which, while
he was sitting there, had been twisting his slimy, semi-electric,
benumbing tendrils around his heart. His business was nevertheless
to fight him, though to fight him in his own heart and that of
other people at one and the same moment, he might well find hard
work. And the loathly worm had this advantage over the knight, that
it was the first time he had stood up to speak in public since his
failure thirty years ago. That hour again for a moment overshadowed
his spirit. It was a wavy harvest morning in a village of the north.
A golden wind was blowing, and little white clouds flying aloft in
the sunny blue. The church was full of well known faces, upturned,
listening, expectant, critical. The hour vanished in a slow mist
of abject misery and shame. But had he not learned to rejoice over
all dead hopes, and write Te Deums on their coffin lids? And now he
stood in dim light, in the vapour from damp garments, in dinginess
and ugliness, with a sense of spiritual squalor and destitution in
his very soul. He had tried to pray his own prayer while the deacon
prayed his; but there had come to him no reviving--no message
for this handful of dull souls--there were nine of them in all
--and his own soul crouched hard and dull within his bosom. How
to give them one deeper breath? How to make them know they were
alive? Whence was his aid to come?
His aid was nearer than he knew. There were no hills to which he
could lift his eyes, but help may hide in the valley as well as
come down from the mountain, and he found his under the coal scuttle
bonnet of the woman that swept out and dusted the chapel. She was
no interesting young widow. A life of labour and vanished children
lay behind as well as before her. She was sixty years of age, seamed
with the smallpox, and in every seam the dust and smoke of London
had left a stain. She had a troubled eye, and a gaze that seemed
to ask of the universe why it had given birth to her. But it was
only her face that asked the question; her mind was too busy with
the ever recurring enigma, which, answered this week, was still an
enigma for the next--how she was to pay her rent--too busy to
have any other question to ask. Or would she not rather have gone
to sleep altogether, under the dreary fascination of the slug monster,
had she not had a severe landlady, who would be paid punctually,
or turn her out? Anyhow, every time and all the time she sat in
the chapel, she was brooding over ways and means, calculating pence
and shillings--the day's charing she had promised her, and the
chances of more--mingling faint regrets over past indulgences
--the extra half pint of beer she drank on Saturday--the bit
of cheese she bought on Monday. Of this face of care, revealing
a spirit which Satan had bound, the schoolmaster caught sight,--
caught from its commonness, its grimness, its defeature, inspiration
and uplifting, for there he beheld the oppressed, down trodden,
mire fouled humanity which the man in whom he believed had loved
because it was his father's humanity divided into brothers, and
had died straining to lift back to the bosom of that Father. Oh
tale of horror and dreary monstrosity, if it be such indeed as the
bulk of its priests on the one hand, and its enemies on the other
represent it! Oh story of splendrous fate, of infinite resurrection
and uplifting, of sun and breeze, of organ blasts and exultation,
for the heart of every man and woman, whatsoever the bitterness
of its care or the weight of its care, if it be such as the Book
itself has held it from age to age!
It was the mere humanity of the woman, I say, and nothing in her
individuality of what is commonly called the interesting, that
ministered to the breaking of the schoolmaster's trance. "Oh ye of
little faith!" were the first words that flew from his lips--he
knew not whether uttered concerning himself or the charwoman the
more; and at once he fell to speaking of him who said the words,
and of the people that came to him and heard him gladly;--how
this one, whom he described, must have felt, Oh, if that be true!
how that one, whom also he described, must have said, Now he means
me! and so laid bare the secrets of many hearts, until he had
concluded all in the misery of being without a helper in the world,
a prey to fear and selfishness and dismay. Then he told them how
the Lord pledged himself for all their needs--meat and drink and
clothes for the body, and God and love and truth for the soul, if
only they would put them in the right order and seek the best first.
Next he spoke a parable to them--of a house and a father and his
children. The children would not do what their father told them,
and therefore began to keep out of his sight. After a while they
began to say to each other that he must have gone out, it was so
long since they had seen him--only they never went to look. And
again after a time some of them began to say to each other that they
did not believe they had ever had any father. But there were some
who dared not say that--who thought they had a father somewhere
in the house, and yet crept about in misery, sometimes hungry and
often cold, fancying he was not friendly to them, when all the time
it was they who were not friendly to him, and said to themselves
he would not give them anything. They never went to knock at his
door, or call to know if he were inside and would speak to them.
And all the time there he was sitting sorrowful, listening and
listening for some little hand to come knocking, and some little
voice to come gently calling through the keyhole; for sorely did
he long to take them to his bosom and give them everything. Only
if he did that without their coming to him, they would not care
for his love or him, would only care for the things he gave them,
and soon would come to hate their brothers and sisters, and turn
their own souls into hells, and the earth into a charnel of murder.
Ere he ended he was pleading with the charwoman to seek her father
in his own room, tell him her troubles, do what he told her, and
fear nothing. And while he spoke, lo! the dragon slug had vanished;
the ugly chapel was no longer the den of the hideous monster; it
was but the dusky bottom of a glory shaft, adown which gazed the
stars of the coming resurrection.
"The whole trouble is that we won't let God help us," said the
preacher, and sat down.
A prayer from the greengrocer followed, in which he did seem to
be feeling after God a little; and then the ironmonger pronounced
the benediction, and all went--among the rest, Frederick Marshal,
who had followed the schoolmaster, and now walked back with him
to his father's, where he was to spend one night more.
CHAPTER XXVIII: THE PORTRAIT
Florimel had found her daring visit to Lenorme stranger and more
fearful than she had expected: her courage was not quite so masterful
as she had thought. The next day she got Mrs Barnardiston to meet
her at the studio.-But she contrived to be there first by some
minutes, and her friend found her seated, and the painter looking
as if he had fairly begun his morning's work. When she apologised
for being late, Florimel said she supposed her groom had brought
round the horses before his time; being ready, she had not looked
at her watch. She was sharp on other people for telling stories
--but had of late ceased to see any great harm in telling one to
protect herself. The fact however had begun to present itself in
those awful morning hours that seem a mingling of time and eternity,
and she did not like the discovery that, since her intimacy with
Lenorme, she had begun to tell lies: what would he say if he knew?
Malcolm found it dreary waiting in the street while she sat to the
painter. He would not have minded it on Kelpie, for she was always
occupation enough, but with only a couple of quiet horses to hold,
it was dreary. He took to scrutinizing the faces that passed him,
trying to understand them. To his surprise he found that almost
everyone reminded him of somebody he had known before, though he
could not always identify the likeness.
It was a pleasure to see his yacht lying so near him, and Davy on
the deck, and to hear the blows of the hammer and the swish of the
plane as the carpenter went on with the alterations to which he
had set him, but he got tired of sharing in activity only with his
ears and eyes. One thing he had by it, however, and that was--a
good lesson in quiescent waiting--a grand thing for any man, and
most of all for those in whom the active is strong.
The next day Florimel did not ride until after lunch, but took her
maid with her to the studio, and Malcolm had a long morning with
Kelpie. Once again he passed the beautiful lady in Rotten Row, but
Kelpie was behaving in a most exemplary manner, and he could not
tell whether she even saw him. I believe she thought her lecture
had done him good. The day after that Lord Liftore was able to ride,
and for some days Florimel and he rode in the park before dinner,
when, as Malcolm followed on the new horse, he had to see his
lordship make love to his sister, without being able to find the
least colourable pretext of involuntary interference.
At length the parcel he had sent for from Lossie House arrived.
He had explained to Mrs Courthope what he wanted the things for,
and she had made no difficulty of sending them to the address he
gave her. Lenorme had already begun the portrait, had indeed been
working at it very busily, and was now quite ready for him to sit.
The early morning being the only time a groom could contrive to
spare--and that involved yet earlier attention to his horses,
they arranged that Malcolm should be at the study every day by
seven o'clock, until the painter's object was gained. So he mounted
Kelpie at half past six of a fine breezy spring morning, rode across
Hyde Park and down Grosvenor Place, and so reached Chelsea, where
he put up his mare in Lenorme's stable--fortunately large enough
to admit of an empty stall between her and the painter's grand
screw, else a battle frightful to relate might have fallen to my
lot.
Nothing could have been more to Malcolm's mind than such a surpassing
opportunity of learning with assurance what sort of man Lenorme
was; and the relation that arose between them extended the sittings
far beyond the number necessary for the object proposed. How the
first of them passed I must recount with some detail.
As soon as he arrived, he was shown into the painter's bedroom,
where lay the portmanteau he had carried thither himself the night
before: out of it, with a strange mingling of pleasure and sadness,
he now took the garments of his father's vanished state--the
filibeg of the dark tartan of his clan, in which green predominated;
the French coat of black velvet of Genoa, with silver buttons; the
bonnet, which ought to have had an eagle's feather, but had only an
aigrette of diamonds; the black sporran of long goat's hair, with
the silver clasp; the silver mounted dirk, with its appendages,
set all with pale cairngorms nearly as good as oriental topazes;
and the claymore of the renowned Andrew's forging, with its basket
hilt of silver, and its black, silver mounted sheath. He handled
each with the reverence of a son. Having dressed in them, he drew
himself up with not a little of the Celt's pleasure in fine clothes,
and walked into the painting room.
Lenorme started with admiration of his figure, and wonder at the
dignity of his carriage, while, mingled with these feelings, he was
aware of an indescribable doubt, something to which he could give
no name. He almost sprang at his palette and brushes: whether he
succeeded with the likeness of the late marquis or not, it would
be his own fault if he did not make a good picture! He painted
eagerly, and they talked little, and only about things indifferent.
At length the painter said,
"Thank you. Now walk about the room while I spread a spadeful of
paint: you must be tired standing."
Malcolm did as he was told, and walked straight up to the Temple
of Isis, in which the painter had now long been at work on the
goddess. He recognised his sister at once, but a sudden pinch of
prudence checked the exclamation that had almost burst from his
lips.
"What a beautiful picture!" he said. "What does it mean?--
Surely it is Hermione coming to life, and Leontes dying of joy!
But no; that would not fit. They are both too young, and--"
"You read Shakspere, I see," said Lenorme, "as well as Epictetus."
"I do--a good deal," answered Malcolm. "But please tell me what
you painted this for."
Then Lenorme told him the parable of Novalis, and Malcolm saw what
the poet meant. He stood staring at the picture, and Lenorme sat
working away, but a little anxious--he hardly knew why: had he
bethought himself he would have put the picture out of sight before
Malcolm came.
"You wouldn't be offended if I made a remark, would you, Mr Lenorme?"
said Malcolm at length.
"Certainly not," replied Lenorme, something afraid nevertheless of
what might be coming.
"I don't know whether I can express what I mean," said Malcolm,
"but I'll try. I could do it better in Scotch, I believe, but then
you wouldn't understand me."
"I think I should," said Lenorme. "I spent six months in Edinburgh
once."
"Ow ay! but ye see they dinna thraw the words there jist the same
gait they du at Portlossie. Na, na! I maunna attemp' it."
"Hold, hold!" cried Lenorme. "I want to have your criticism. I
don't understand a word you are saying. You must make the best you
can of the English."
"I was only telling you in Scotch that I wouldn't try the Scotch,"
returned Malcolm. "Now I will try the English.--In the first
place, then--but really it's very presumptuous of me, Mr Lenorme;
and it may be that I am blind to something in the picture."
"Go on," said Lenorme impatiently.
"Don't you think then, that one of the first things you would look
for in a goddess would be--what shall I call it?--an air of
mystery?"
"That was so much involved in the very idea of Isis, in her
especially, that they said she was always veiled, and no man had
ever seen her face."
"That would greatly interfere with my notion of mystery," said
Malcolm. "There must be revelation before mystery. I take it that
mystery is what lies behind revelation; that which as yet revelation
has not reached. You must see something--a part of something,
before you can feel any sense of mystery about it. The Isis for
ever veiled is the absolutely Unknown, not the Mysterious."
"But, you observe, the idea of the parable is different. According
to that Isis is for ever unveiling, that is revealing herself, in
her works, chiefly in the women she creates, and then chiefly in
each of them to the man who loves her."
"I see what you mean well enough; but not the less she remains the
goddess, does she not?"
"Surely she does."
"And can a goddess ever reveal all she is and has!"
"Never."
"Then ought there not to be mystery about the face and form of your
Isis on her pedestal?"
"Is it not there? Is there not mystery in the face and form of
every woman that walks the earth?"
"Doubtless; but you desire--do you not?--to show--that
although this is the very lady the young man loved before ever he
sought the shrine of the goddess, not the less is she the goddess
Isis herself?"
"I do--or at least I ought; only--by Jove! you have already
looked deeper into the whole thing than I!"
"There may be things to account for that on both sides," said
Malcolm. "But one word more to relieve my brain:--if you would
embody the full meaning of the parable, you must not be content that
the mystery is there; you must show in your painting that you feel
it there; you must paint the invisible veil that no hand can lift,
for there it is, and there it ever will be, though Isis herself
raise it from morning to morning."
"How am I to do that?" said Lenorme, not that he did not see what
Malcolm meant, or agree with it: he wanted to make him talk.
"How can I, who never drew a stroke, or painted anything but the
gunnel of a boat, tell you that?" rejoined Malcolm. "It is your
business. You must paint that veil, that mystery in the forehead,
and in the eyes, and in the lips--yes, in the cheeks and the
chin and the eyebrows and everywhere. You must make her say without
saying it, that she knows oh! so much, if only she could make you
understand it!--that she is all there for you, but the all is
infinitely more than you can know. As she stands there now,"
"I must interrupt you," cried Lenorme, "just to say that the picture
is not finished yet."
"And yet I will finish my sentence, if you will allow me," returned
Malcolm. "--As she stands there--the goddess--she looks only
a beautiful young woman, with whom the young man spreading out his
arms to her is very absolutely in love. There is the glow and the
mystery of love in both their faces, and nothing more."
"And is not that enough?" said Lenorme.
"No," answered Malcolm. "And yet it may be too much," he added,
"if you are going to hang it up where people will see it."
As he said this, he looked hard at the painter for a moment. The
dark hue of Lenorme's cheek deepened; his brows lowered a little
farther over the black wells of his eyes; and he painted on without
answer.
"By Jove!" he said at length.
"Don't swear, Mr Lenorme," said Malcolm. "--Besides, that's my
Lord Liftore's oath.--If you do, you will teach my lady to swear."
"What do you mean by that?" asked Lenorme, with offence plain enough
in his tone.
Thereupon Malcolm told him how on one occasion, himself being
present, the marquis her father happening to utter an imprecation,
Lady Florimel took the first possible opportunity of using the very
same words on her own account, much to the marquis's amusement and
Malcolm's astonishment. But upon reflection he had come to see that
she only wanted to cure her father of the bad habit.
The painter laughed heartily, but stopped all at once and said,
"It's enough to make any fellow swear though, to hear a--groom
talk as you do about art."
"Have I the impudence? I didn't know it," said Malcolm, with some
dismay. "I seemed to myself merely saying the obvious thing, the
common sense, about the picture, on the ground of your own statement
of your meaning in it. I am annoyed with myself if I have been
talking of things I know nothing about."
"On the contrary, MacPhail, you are so entirely right in what you
say, that I cannot for the life of me understand where or how you
can have got it."
"Mr Graham used to talk to me about everything."
"Well, but he was only a country schoolmaster."
"A good deal more than that, sir," said Malcolm, solemnly. "He is
a disciple of him that knows everything. And now I think of it, I
do believe that what I've been saying about your picture, I must
have got from hearing him talk about the revelation, in which is
included Isis herself, with her brother and all their train."
Lenorme held his peace. Malcolm had taken his place again
unconsciously, and the painter was working hard, and looking very
thoughtful. Malcolm went again to the picture.
"Hillo!" cried Lenorme, looking up and finding no object in the
focus of his eyes.
Malcolm returned directly.
"There was just one thing I wanted to see," he said, "--whether
the youth worshipping his goddess, had come into her presence
clean."
"And what is your impression of him?" half murmured Lenorme, without
lifting his head.
"The one that's painted there," answered Malcolm, "does look as if
he might know that the least a goddess may claim of a worshipper
is, that he should come into her presence pure enough to understand
her purity. I came upon a fine phrase the other evening in your
English prayer book. I never looked into it before, but I found
one lying on a book stall, and it happened to open at the marriage
service. There, amongst other good things, the bridegroom says:
'With my body I thee worship.'--'That's grand,' I said to myself.
'That's as it should be. The man whose body does not worship
the woman he weds, should marry a harlot.' God bless Mr William
Shakspere!--he knew that. I remember Mr Graham telling me once,
before I had read the play, that the critics condemn Measure
for Measure as failing in poetic justice. I know little about the
critics, and care less, for a man who has to earn his bread and
feed his soul as well, has enough to do with the books themselves
without what people say about them; and Mr Graham would not tell
me whether he thought the critics right or wrong; he wanted me to
judge for myself. But when I came to read the play, I found, to
my mind, a most absolute and splendid justice in it. They think, I
suppose, that my lord Angelo should have been put to death. It just
reveals the low breed of them; they think death the worst thing,
therefore the greatest punishment. But Angelo prays for death,
that it may hide him from his shame: it is too good for him, and he
shall not have it. He must live to remove the shame from Mariana.
And then see how Lucio is served!"
While Malcolm talked, Lenorme went on painting diligently, listening
and saying nothing. When he had thus ended, a pause of some duration
followed.
"A goddess has a right to claim that one thing--has she not,
Mr Lenorme?" said Malcolm at length, winding up a silent train of
thought aloud.
"What thing?" asked Lenorme, still without lifting his head.
"Purity in the arms a man holds out to her," answered Malcolm.
"Certainly," replied Lenorme, with a sort of mechanical absoluteness.
"And according to your picture, every woman whom a man loves is a
goddess--the goddess of nature?"
"Certainly;--but what are you driving at? I can't paint for you.
There you stand," he went on, half angrily, "as if you were Socrates
himself, driving some poor Athenian buck into the corner of his
deserts! I don't deserve any such insinuations, I would have you
know."
"I am making none, sir. I dare never insinuate except I were
prepared to charge. But I have told you I was bred up a fisher lad,
and partly among the fishers, to begin with. I half learned, half
discovered things that tended to give me what some would count
severe notions: I count them common sense. Then, as you know, I
went into service, and in that position it is easy enough to gather
that many people hold very loose and very nasty notions about some
things; so I just wanted to see how you felt about such. If I had
a sister now, and saw a man coming to woo her, all beclotted with
puddle filth--or if I knew that he had just left some woman as
good as she, crying eyes and heart out over his child--I don't
know that I could keep my hands off him--at least if I feared she
might take him. What do you think now? Mightn't it be a righteous
thing to throttle the scum and be hanged for it?"
"Well," said Lenorme, "I don't know why I should justify myself,
especially where no charge is made, MacPhail; and I don't know why
to you any more than another man; but at this moment I am weak, or
egotistic, or sympathetic enough to wish you to understand that, so
far as the poor matter of one virtue goes, I might without remorse
act Sir Galahad in a play."
"Now you are beyond me," said Malcolm. "I don't know what you mean."
So Lenorme had to tell him the old Armoric tale which Tennyson has
since rendered so lovelily, for, amongst artists at least, he was
one of the earlier borrowers in the British legends. And as he told
it, in a half sullen kind of way, the heart of the young marquis
glowed within him, and he vowed to himself that Lenorme and no other
should marry his sister. But, lest he should reveal more emotion
than the obvious occasion justified, he restrained speech, and
again silence fell, during which Lenorme was painting furiously.
"Confound it!" he cried at last, and sprang to his feet, but without
taking his eyes from his picture, "what have I been doing all this
time but making a portrait of you, MacPhail, and forgetting what
you were there for! And yet," he went on, hesitating and catching
up the miniature, "I have got a certain likeness! Yes, it must be
so, for I see in it also a certain look of Lady Lossie. Well! I
suppose a man can't altogether help what he paints any more than
what he dreams. That will do for this morning, anyhow, I think,
MacPhail. Make haste and put on your own clothes, and come into the
next room to breakfast. You must be tired with standing so long.
"It is about the hardest work I ever tried," answered Malcolm;
"but I doubt if I am as tired as Kelpie. I've been listening for
the last half hour to hear the stalls flying."
CHAPTER XXIX: AN EVIL OMEN
Florimel was beginning to understand that the shield of the portrait
was not large enough to cover many more visits to the studio. Still
she must and would venture; and should anything be said, there at
least was the portrait. For some weeks it had been all but finished,
was never off its easel, and always showed a touch of wet paint
somewhere--he kept the last of it lingering, ready to prove
itself almost yet not altogether finished. What was to follow its
absolute completion, neither of them could tell. The worst of it
was that their thoughts about it differed discordantly. Florimel
not unfrequently regarded the rupture of their intimacy as a thing
not undesirable--this chiefly after such a talk with Lady Bellair
as had been illustrated by some tale of misalliance or scandal
between high or low, of which kind of provision for age the bold
faced countess had a large store: her memory was little better than
an ashpit of scandal. Amongst other biographical scraps one day
she produced the case of a certain earl's daughter, who, having
disgraced herself by marrying a low fellow--an artist, she
believed--was as a matter of course neglected by the man whom,
in accepting him, she had taught to despise her, and, before
a twelvemonth was over--her family finding it impossible to
hold communication with her--was actually seen by her late maid
scrubbing her own floor.
"Why couldn't she leave it dirty?" said Florimel.
"Why indeed," returned Lady Bellair, "but that people sink to their
fortunes! Blue blood won't keep them out of the gutter."
The remark was true, but of more general application than she
intended, seeing she herself was in the gutter and did not know
it. She spoke only of what followed on marriage beneath one's natal
position, than which she declared there was nothing worse a woman
of rank could do.
"She may get over anything but that," she would say, believing,
but not saying, that she spoke from experience.
Was it part of the late marquis's purgatory to see now, as the natural
result of the sins of his youth, the daughter whose innocence was
dear to him exposed to all the undermining influences of this good
natured but low moralled woman, whose ideas of the most mysterious
relations of humanity were in no respect higher than those of a
class which must not even be mentioned in my pages? At such tales
the high born heart would flutter in Florimel's bosom, beat itself
against its bars, turn sick at the sight of its danger, imagine
it had been cherishing a crime, and resolve--soon--before very
long--at length--finally--to break so far at least with the
painter as to limit their intercourse to the radiation of her power
across a dinner table, the rhythmic heaving of their two hearts at
a dance, or the quiet occasional talk in a corner, when the looks
of each would reveal to the other that they knew themselves the
martyrs of a cruel and inexorable law. It must be remembered that
she had had no mother since her childhood, that she was now but
a girl, and that the passion of a girl to that of a woman is "as
moonlight unto sunlight, and as water unto wine." Of genuine love
she had little more than enough to serve as salt to the passion;
and passion, however bewitching, yea, entrancing a condition, may
yet be of more worth than that induced by opium or hashish, and
a capacity for it may be conjoined with anything or everything
contemptible and unmanly or unwomanly. In Florimel's case, however,
there was chiefly much of the childish in it. Definitely separated
from Lenorme, she would have been merry again in a fortnight; and
yet, though she half knew this herself, and at the same time was
more than half ashamed of the whole affair, she did not give it up
--would not--only intended by and by to let it go, and meantime
gave--occasionally--pretty free flutter to the half grown wings
of her fancy.
Her liking for the painter had therefore, not unnaturally, its
fits. It was subject in a measure to the nature of the engagements
she had--that is, to the degree of pleasure she expected from
them; it was subject, as we have seen, to skilful battery from the
guns of her chaperon's entrenchment; and more than to either was
it subject to those delicate changes of condition which in the
microcosm are as frequent, and as varied both in kind and degree,
as in the macrocosm. The spirit has its risings and settings of
sun and moon, its seasons, its clouds and stars, its solstices, its
tides, its winds, its storms, its earthquakes--infinite vitality
in endless fluctuation. To rule these changes, Florimel had
neither the power that comes of love, nor the strength that comes
of obedience. What of conscience she had was not yet conscience
toward God, which is the guide to freedom, but conscience toward
society, which is the slave of a fool. It was no wonder then that
Lenorme, believing--hoping she loved him, should find her hard
to understand. He said hard; but sometimes he meant impossible. He
loved as a man loves who has thought seriously, speculated, tried
to understand; whose love therefore is consistent with itself,
harmonious with its nature and history, changing only in form and
growth, never in substance and character. Hence the idea of Florimel
became in his mind the centre of perplexing thought; the unrest
of her being metamorphosed on the way, passed over into his, and
troubled him sorely. Neither was his mind altogether free of the
dread of reproach. For self reproach he could find little or no
ground, seeing that to pity her much for the loss of consideration
her marriage with him would involve, would be to undervalue the honesty
of his love and the worth of his art; and indeed her position was
so independently based that she could not lose it even by marrying
one who had not the social standing of a brewer or a stockbroker;
but his pride was uneasy under the foreseen criticism that his
selfishness had taken advantage of her youth and inexperience to
work on the mind of an ignorant girl--a criticism not likely to
be the less indignant that those who passed it would, without a
shadow of compunction, have handed her over, body, soul, and goods,
to one of their own order, had he belonged to the very canaille of
the race.
The painter was not merely in love with Florimel: he loved her.
I will not say that he was in no degree dazzled by her rank, or
that he felt no triumph, as a social nomad camping on the No Man's
Land of society, at the thought of the justification of the human
against the conventional, in his scaling of the giddy heights of
superiority, and, on one of its topmost peaks, taking from her nest
that rare bird in the earth, a landed and titled marchioness. But
such thoughts were only changing hues on the feathers of his love,
which itself was a mighty bird with great and yet growing wings.
A day or two passed before Florimel went again to the studio
accompanied, notwithstanding Lenorme's warning and her own doubt,
yet again by her maid, a woman, unhappily, of Lady Bellair's finding.
At Lossie House, Malcolm had felt a repugnance to her, both moral
and physical. When first he heard her name, one of the servants
speaking of her as Miss Caley, he took it for Scaley, and if that
was not her name, yet scaly was her nature.
This time Florimel rode to Chelsea with Malcolm, having directed
Caley to meet her there; and, the one designing to be a little early,
and the other to be a little late, two results naturally followed
--first, that the lovers had a few minutes alone; and second,
that when Caley crept in, noiseless and unannounced as a cat, she
had her desire, and saw the painter's arm round Florimel's waist,
and her head on his bosom. Still more to her contentment, not hearing,
they did not see her, and she crept out again quietly as she had
entered: it would of course be to her advantage to let them know
that she had seen, and that they were in her power, but it might be
still more to her advantage to conceal the fact so long as there
was a chance of additional discovery in the same direction. Through
the success of her trick it came about that Malcolm, chancing to
look up from Honour's back to the room where he always breakfasted
with his new friend, saw in one of the windows, as in a picture,
a face radiant with such an expression as that of the woman headed
snake might have worn when he saw Adam take the apple from the hand
of Eve.
Caley was of the common class of servants in this, that she
considered service servitude, and took her amends in selfishness;
she was unlike them in this, that while false to her employers,
she made no common cause with her fellows against them--regarded
and sought none but her own ends. Her one thought was to make the
most of her position; for that, to gain influence with, and, if it
might be, power over her mistress; and, thereto, first of all, to
find out whether she had a secret: she had now discovered not merely
that she had one, but the secret itself! She was clever, greedy,
cunning; equally capable, according to the faculty with which she
might be matched, of duping or of being duped. She rather liked
her mistress, but watched her in the interests of Lady Bellair.
She had a fancy for the earl, a natural dislike for Malcolm which
she concealed in distant politeness, and for all the rest of the
house, indifference. As to her person, she had a neat oval face,
thin and sallow, in expression subacid; a lithe, rather graceful
figure, and hands too long, with fingers almost too tapering--of
which hands and fingers she was very careful, contemplating them
in secret with a regard amounting almost to reverence: they were
her sole witnesses to a descent in which she believed, but of which
she had no other shadow of proof.
Caley's face, then, with its unsaintly illumination, gave Malcolm
something to think about as he sat there upon Honour, the new horse.
Clearly she had had a triumph: what could it be? The nature of the
woman was not altogether unknown to him even from the first, and
he could not for months go on meeting her occasionally in passages
and on stairs without learning to understand his own instinctive
dislike: it was plain the triumph was not in good. It was plain
too that it was in something which had that very moment occurred,
and could hardly have to do with anyone but her mistress. Then her
being in that room revealed more. They would never have sent her
out of the study, and so put themselves in her power. She had gone
into the house but a moment before, a minute or two behind her
mistress, and he knew with what a cat-like step she went about:
she had surprised them---discovered how matters stood between
her mistress and the painter! He saw everything--almost as it
had taken place. She had seen without being seen, and had retreated
with her prize! Florimel was then in the woman's power: what was
he to do? He must at least let her gather what warning she could
from the tale of what he had seen.
Once arrived at a resolve, Malcolm never lost time. They had turned
but one corner on their way home, when he rode up to her.
"Please, my lady," he began.
But the same instant Florimel was pulling up.
"Malcolm," she said, "I have left my pocket handkerchief. I must
go back for it."
As she spoke, she turned her horse's head. But Malcolm, dreading
lest Caley should yet be lingering, would not allow her to expose
herself to a greater danger than she knew.
"Before you go, my lady, I must tell you something I happened to
see while I waited with the horses," he said.
The earnestness of his tone struck Florimel. She looked at him with
eyes a little wider, and waited to hear.
"I happened to look up at the drawing room windows, my lady,
and Caley came to one of them with such a look on her face!
I can't exactly describe it to you, my lady, but--"
"Why do you tell me?" interrupted his mistress, with absolute
composure, and hard, questioning eyes.
But she had drawn herself up in the saddle. Then, before he could
reply, a flash of thought seemed to cross her face with a quick
single motion of her eyebrows, and it was instantly altered and
thoughtful. She seemed to have suddenly perceived some cause for
taking a mild interest in his communication.
"But it cannot be, Malcolm," she said, in quite a changed tone. "You
must have taken some one else for her. She never left the studio
all the time I was there."
"It was immediately after her arrival, my lady. She went in about
two minutes after your ladyship, and could not have had much more
than time to go upstairs when I saw her come to the window. I felt
bound to tell your ladyship."
"Thank you, Malcolm," returned Florimel kindly. "You did right to
tell me,--but--it's of no consequence. Mr Lenorme's housekeeper
and she must have been talking about something."
But her eyebrows were now thoughtfully contracted over her eyes.
"There had been no time for that, I think, my lady," said Malcolm.
Florimel turned again and rode on, saying no more about the
handkerchief. Malcolm saw that he had succeeded in warning her,
and was glad. But had he foreseen to what it would lead, he would
hardly have done it.
Florimel was indeed very uneasy. She could not help strongly suspecting
that she had betrayed herself to one who, if not an intentional
spy, would yet be ready enough to make a spy's use of anything she
might have picked up. What was to be done? It was now too late to
think of getting rid of her: that would be but her signal to disclose
whatever she had seen, and so not merely enjoy a sweet revenge, but
account with clear satisfactoriness for her dismissal. What would
not Florimel now have given for some one who could sympathise with
her and yet counsel her! She was afraid to venture another meeting
with Lenorme, and besides was not a little shy of the advantage
the discovery would give him in pressing her to marry him. And now
first she began to feel as if her sins were going to find her out.
A day or two passed in alternating psychical flaws and fogs--
with poor glints of sunshine between. She watched her maid, but her
maid knew it, and discovered no change in her manner or behaviour.
Weary of observation she was gradually settling into her former
security, when Caley began to drop hints that alarmed her. Might
it not be altogether the safest thing to take her into confidence?
It would be such a relief, she thought, to have a woman she could
talk to! The result was that she began to lift a corner of the veil
that hid her trouble; the woman encouraged her, and at length the
silly girl threw her arms round the scaly one's neck, much to that
person's satisfaction, and told her that she loved Mr Lenorme. She
knew of course, she said, that she could not marry him. She was
only waiting a fit opportunity to free herself from a connection
which, however delightful, she was unable to justify. How the maid
interpreted her confession, I do not care to enquire very closely,
but anyhow it was in a manner that promised much to her after
influence. I hasten over this part of Florimel's history, for that
confession to Caley was perhaps the one thing in her life she had
most reason to be ashamed of, for she was therein false to the
being she thought she loved best in the world. Could Lenorme have
known her capable of unbosoming herself to such a woman, it would
almost have slain the love he bore her. The notions of that odd
and end sort of person, who made his livelihood by spreading paint,
would have been too hideously shocked by the shadow of an intimacy
between his love and such as she.
Caley first comforted the weeping girl, and then began to insinuate
encouragement. She must indeed give him up--there was no help
for that; but neither was there any necessity for doing so all at
once. Mr Lenorme was a beautiful man, and any woman might be proud
to be loved by him. She must take her time to it. She might trust
her. And so on and on--for she was as vulgar minded as the worst
of those whom ladies endure about their persons, handling their
hair, and having access to more of their lock fast places than they
would willingly imagine.
The first result was that, on the pretext of bidding him farewell,
and convincing him that he and she must meet no more, fate and
fortune, society and duty being all alike against their happiness
--I mean on that pretext to herself, the only one to be deceived
by it--Florimel arranged with her woman one evening to go the next
morning to the studio: she knew the painter to be an early riser,
and always at his work before eight o'clock. But although she tried
to imagine she had persuaded herself to say farewell, certainly
she had not yet brought her mind to any ripeness of resolve in the
matter.
At seven o'clock in the morning, the marchioness habited like a
housemaid, they slipped out by the front door, turned the corners
of two streets, found a hackney coach waiting for them, and arrived
in due time at the painter's abode.
CHAPTER XXX: A QUARREL
When the door opened and Florimel glided in, the painter sprang to
his feet to welcome her, and she flew softly, soundless as a moth,
into his arms; for the study being large and full of things, she
was not aware of the presence of Malcolm. From behind a picture
on an easel, he saw them meet, but shrinking from being an open
witness to their secret, and also from being discovered in his
father's clothes by the sister who knew him only as a servant, he
instantly sought escape. Nor was it hard to find, for near where
he stood was a door opening into a small intermediate chamber,
communicating with the drawing room, and by it he fled, intending
to pass through to Lenorme's bedroom, and change his clothes.
With noiseless stride he hurried away, but could not help hearing
a few passionate words that escaped his sister's lips before Lenorme
could warn her that they were not alone--words which, it seemed
to him, could come only from a heart whose very pulse was devotion.
"How can I live without you, Raoul?" said the girl as she clung to
him.
Lenorme gave an uneasy glance behind him, saw Malcolm disappear,
and answered,
"I hope you will never try, my darling."
"Oh, but you know this can't last," she returned, with playfully
affected authority. "It must come to an end. They will interfere."
"Who can? Who will dare?" said the painter with confidence.
"People will. We had better stop it ourselves--before it all comes
out, and we are shamed," said Florimel, now with perfect seriousness.
"Shamed!" cried Lenorme. "--Well, if you can't help being ashamed
of me--and perhaps, as you have been brought up, you can't--
do you not then love me enough to encounter a little shame for my
sake? I should welcome worlds of such for yours!"
Florimel was silent. She kept her face hidden on his shoulder, but
was already halfway to a quarrel.
"You don't love me, Florimel!" he said, after a pause, little
thinking how nearly true were the words.
"Well, suppose I don't!" she cried, half defiantly, half merrily;
and drawing herself from him, she stepped back two paces, and
looked at him with saucy eyes, in which burned two little flames
of displeasure, that seemed to shoot up from the red spots glowing
upon her cheeks. Lenorme looked at her. He had often seen her like
this before, and knew that the shell was charged and the fuse lighted.
But within lay a mixture even more explosive than he suspected; for
not merely was there more of shame and fear and perplexity mingled
with her love than he understood, but she was conscious of having
now been false to him, and that rendered her temper dangerous.
Lenorme had already suffered severely from the fluctuations of
her moods. They had been almost too much for him. He could endure
them, he thought, to all eternity, if he had her to himself, safe
and sure; but the confidence to which he rose every now and then
that she would one day be his, just as often failed him, rudely
shaken by some new symptom of what almost seemed like cherished
inconstancy. If after all she should forsake him! It was impossible,
but she might. If even that should come, he was too much of a man
to imagine anything but a stern encounter of the inevitable, and
he knew he would survive it; but he knew also that life could never
be the same again; that for a season work would be impossible--
the kind of work he had hitherto believed his own rendered for ever
impossible perhaps, and his art degraded to the mere earning of a
living. At best he would have to die and be buried and rise again
before existence could become endurable under the new squalid
condition of life without her. It was no wonder then if her behaviour
sometimes angered him; for even against a Will o' the Wisp that has
enticed us into a swamp, a glow of foolish indignation will spring
up. And now a black fire in his eyes answered the blue flash in
hers; and the difference suggests the diversity of their loves:
hers might vanish in fierce explosion, his would go on burning like
a coal mine. A word of indignant expostulation rose to his lips,
but a thought came that repressed it. He took her hand, and led
her--the wonder was that she yielded, for she had seen the glow
in his eyes, and the fuse of her own anger burned faster; but she
did yield, partly from curiosity, and followed where he pleased
--her hand lying dead in his. It was but to the other end of the
room he led her, to the picture of her father, now all but finished.
Why he did so, he would have found it hard to say. Perhaps the
Genius that lies under the consciousness forefelt a catastrophe,
and urged him to give his gift ere giving should be impossible.
Malcolm stepped into the drawing room, where the table was laid as
usual for breakfast: there stood Caley, helping herself to a spoonful
of honey from Hymettus. At his entrance she started violently, and
her sallow face grew earthy. For some seconds she stood motionless,
unable to take her eyes off the apparition, as it seemed to her,
of the late marquis, in wrath at her encouragement of his daughter
in disgraceful courses. Malcolm, supposing only she was ashamed
of herself, took no farther notice of her, and walked deliberately
towards the other door. Ere he reached it she knew him. Burning
with the combined ires of fright and shame, conscious also that, by
the one little contemptible act of greed in which he had surprised
her, she had justified the aversion which her woman instinct had
from the first recognized in him, she darted to the door, stood
with her back against it, and faced him flaming.
"So!" she cried, "this is how my lady's kindness is abused! The
insolence! Her groom goes and sits for his portrait in her father's
court dress!"
As she ceased, all the latent vulgarity of her nature broke loose,
and with a contracted pff she seized her thin nose between her
thumb and forefinger, to the indication that an evil odour of fish
interpenetrated her atmosphere, and must at the moment be defiling
the garments of the dead marquis.
"My lady shall know of this," she concluded, with a vicious clenching
of her teeth, and two or three nods of her neat head.
Malcolm stood regarding her with a coolness that yet inflamed
her wrath. He could not help smiling at the reaction of shame in
indignation. Had her anger been but a passing flame, that smile
would have turned it into enduring hate. She hissed in his face.
"Go and have the first word," he said; "only leave the door and
let me pass."
"Let you pass indeed! What would you pass for?--The bastard of
old Lord James and a married woman!--I don't care that for you."
And she snapped her fingers in his face.
Malcolm turned from her and went to the window, taking a newspaper
from the breakfast table as he passed, and there sat down to read
until the way should be clear. Carried beyond herself by his utter
indifference, Caley darted from the room and went straight into
the study.
Lenorme led Florimel in front of the picture. She gave a great
start, and turned and stared pallid at the painter. The effect upon
her was such as he had not foreseen, and the words she uttered were
not such as he could have hoped to hear.
"What would he think of me if he knew?" she cried, clasping her
hands in agony.
That moment Caley burst into the room, her eyes lamping like a
cat's.
"My lady!" she shrieked, "there's MacPhail, the groom, my lady,
dressed up in your honoured father's bee-utiful clo'es as he always
wore when he went to dine with the Prince! And, please, my lady,
he's that rude I could 'ardly keep my 'ands off him."
Florimel flashed a dagger of question in Lenorme's eyes. The painter
drew himself up.
"It was at my request, Lady Lossie," he said.
"Indeed!" returned Florimel, in high scorn, and glanced again at
the picture.
"I see!" she went on. "How could I be such an idiot! It was my
groom's, not my father's likeness you meant to surprise me with!"
Her eyes flashed as if she would annihilate him.
"I have worked hard in the hope of giving you pleasure, Lady Lossie,"
said the painter, with wounded dignity.
"And you have failed," she adjoined cruelly.
The painter took the miniature after which he had been working,
from a table near, handed it to her with a proud obeisance, and
the same moment dashed a brushful of dark paint across the face of
the picture.
"Thank you, sir," said Florimel, and for a moment felt as if she
hated him.
She turned away and walked from the study. The door of the drawing
room was open, and Caley stood by the side of it. Florimel, too
angry to consider what she was about, walked in: there sat Malcolm
in the window, in her father's clothes, and his very attitude, reading
the newspaper. He did not hear her enter. He had been waiting till
he could reach the bedroom unseen by her, for he knew from the
sound of the voices that the study door was open. Her anger rose
yet higher at the sight.
"Leave the room," she said.
He started to his feet, and now perceived that his sister was in the
dress of a servant. He took one step forward and stood--a little
mazed--gorgeous in dress and arms of price, before his mistress
in the cotton gown of a housemaid.
"Take those clothes off instantly," said Florimel slowly, replacing
wrath with haughtiness as well as she might. Malcolm turned to the
door without a word. He saw that things had gone wrong where most
he would have wished them go right.
"I'll see to them being well aired, my lady," said Caley, with
sibilant indignation.
Malcolm went to the study. The painter sat before the picture of
the marquis, with his elbows on his knees, and his head between
his hands.
"Mr Lenorme," said Malcolm, approaching him gently.
"Oh, go away," said Lenorme, without raising his head. "I can't
bear the sight of you yet."
Malcolm obeyed, a little smile playing about the corners of his
mouth. Caley saw it as he passed, and hated him yet worse. He was
in his own clothes, booted and belted, in two minutes. Three sufficed
to replace his father's garments in the portmanteau, and in three
more he and Kelpie went plunging past his mistress and her maid as
they drove home in their lumbering vehicle.
"The insolence of the fellow!" said Caley, loud enough for her
mistress to hear notwithstanding the noise of the rattling windows.
"A pretty pass we are come to!"
But already Florimel's mood had begun to change. She felt that she
had done her best to alienate men on whom she could depend, and
that she had chosen for a confidante one whom she had no ground
for trusting.
She got safe and unseen to her room; and Caley believed she had
only to improve the advantage she had now gained.
CHAPTER XXXI: THE TWO DAIMONS
Things had taken a turn that was not to Malcolm's satisfaction,
and his thoughts were as busy all the way home as Kelpie would
allow. He had ardently desired that his sister should be thoroughly
in love with Lenorme, for that seemed to open a clear path out of
his worst difficulties; now they had quarrelled; and besides were
both angry with him. The main fear was that Liftore would now make
some progress with her. Things looked dangerous. Even his warning
against Caley had led to a result the very opposite of his intent
and desire. And now it recurred to him that he had once come upon
Liftore talking to Caley, and giving her something that shone like
a sovereign.
Earlier on the same morning of her visit to the studio, Florimel
had awaked and found herself in the presence of the spiritual
Vehmgericht. Every member of the tribunal seemed against her. All
her thoughts were busy accusing, none of them excusing one another.
So hard were they upon her that she fancied she had nearly come to
the conclusion that, if only she could do it pleasantly, without
pain or fear, the best thing would be to swallow something and
fall asleep; for like most people she was practically an atheist,
and therefore always thought of death as the refuge from the ills
of life. But although she was often very uncomfortable, Florimel
knew nothing of such genuine downright misery as drives some people
to what can be no more to their purpose than if a man should strip
himself naked because he is cold. When she returned from her unhappy
visit, and had sent her attendant to get her some tea, she threw
herself upon her bed, and found herself yet again in the dark
chambers of the spiritual police. But already even their company
was preferable to that of Caley, whose officiousness began to enrage
her. She was yet tossing in the Nessus tunic of her own disharmony,
when Malcolm came for orders. To get rid of herself and Caley both,
she desired him to bring the horses round at once.
It was more than Malcolm had expected. He ran: he might yet have a
chance of trying to turn her in the right direction. He knew that
Liftore was neither in the house nor at the stable. With the help
of the earl's groom, he was round in ten minutes. Florimel was all
but ready: like some other ladies she could dress quickly when she
had good reason. She sprang from Malcolm's hand to the saddle, and
led as straight northward as she could go, never looking behind her
till she drew rein on the top of Hampstead Heath. When he rode up
to her "Malcolm," she said, looking at him half ashamed, "I don't
think my father would have minded you wearing his clothes."
"Thank you, my lady," said Malcolm. "At least he would have forgiven
anything meant for your pleasure."
"I was too hasty," she said. "But the fact was, Mr Lenorme had
irritated me, and I foolishly mixed you up with him."
"When I went into the studio, after you left it, this morning my
lady," Malcolm ventured, "he had his head between his hands and
would not even look at me."
Florimel turned her face aside, and Malcolm thought she was sorry;
but she was only hiding a smile: she had not yet got beyond the
kitten stage of love, and was pleased to find she gave pain.
"If your ladyship never had another true friend, Mr Lenorme is
one," added Malcolm.
"What opportunity can you have had for knowing?" said Florimel.
"I have been sitting to him every morning for a good many days,"
answered Malcolm. "he is something like a man!"
Florimel's face flushed with pleasure. She liked to hear him praised,
for he loved her.
"You should have seen, my lady, the pains he took with that portrait!
He would stare at the little picture you lent him of my lord for
minutes, as if he were looking through it at something behind it;
then he would get up and go and gaze at your ladyship on the pedestal,
as if you were the goddess herself able to tell him everything
about your father; and then he would hurry back to his easel, and
give a touch or two to the face, looking at it all the time as if
he loved it. It must have been a cruel pain that drove him to smear
it as he did!"
Florimel began to feel a little motion of shame somewhere in the
mystery of her being. But to show that to her servant, would be to
betray herself--the more that he seemed the painter's friend.
"I will ask Lord Liftore to go and see the portrait, and if he
thinks it like, I will buy it," she said. "Mr Lenorme is certainly
very clever with his brush."
Malcolm saw that she said this not to insult Lenorme, but to blind
her groom, and made no answer.
"I will ride there with you tomorrow morning," she added in
conclusion, and moved on.
Malcolm touched his hat, and dropped behind. But the next moment
he was by her side again.
"I beg your pardon, my lady, but would you allow me to say one word
more?"
She bowed her head.
"That woman Caley, I am certain, is not to be trusted. She does
not love you, my lady."
"How do you know that?" asked Florimel, speaking steadily, but
writhing inwardly with the knowledge that the warning was too late.
"I have tried her spirit," answered Malcolm, "and know that it is
of the devil. She loves herself too much to be true."
After a little pause Florimel said,
"I know you mean well, Malcolm; but it is nothing to me whether
she loves me or not. We don't look for that nowadays from servants."
"It is because I love you, my lady," said Malcolm, "that I know Caley
does not. If she should get hold of anything your ladyship
would not wish talked about,--"
"That she cannot," said Florimel, but with an inward shudder. "She
may tell the whole world all she can discover."
She would have cantered on as the words left her lips, but something
in Malcolm's looks held her. She turned pale; she trembled: her
father was looking at her as only once had she seen him--in doubt
whether his child lied. The illusion was terrible. She shook in her
saddle. The next moment she was galloping along the grassy border
of the heath in wild flight from her worst enemy, whom yet she could
never by the wildest of flights escape; for when, coming a little
to herself as she approached a sand pit, she pulled up, there was
her enemy--neither before nor behind, neither above nor beneath
nor within her: it was the self which had just told a lie to the
servant of whom she had so lately boasted that he never told one
in his life. Then she grew angry. What had she done to be thus
tormented? She a marchioness, thus pestered by her own menials
--pulled in opposing directions by a groom and a maid. She would
turn them both away, and have nobody about her, either to trust or
suspect.
She might have called them her good and her evil demon; for she
knew, that is, she had it somewhere about her, but did not look
it out, that it was her own cowardice and concealment, her own
falseness to the traditional, never failing courage of her house,
her ignobility, and unfitness to represent the Colonsays--her
double dealing in short, that had made the marchioness in her own
right the slave of her woman, the rebuked of her groom!
She turned and rode back, looking the other way as she passed
Malcolm.
When they reached the top of the heath, riding along to meet them
came Liftore--this time to Florimel's consolation and comfort:
she did not like riding unprotected with a good angel at her heels.
So glad was she that she did not even take the trouble to wonder how
he had discovered the road she went. She never suspected that Caley
had sent his lordship's groom to follow her until the direction
of her ride should be evident, but took his appearance without
question, as a loverlike attention, and rode home with him, talking
the whole way, and cherishing a feeling of triumph over both Malcolm
and Lenorme. Had she not a protector of her own kind? Could she
not, when they troubled her, pass from their sphere into one beyond
their ken? For the poor moment, the weak lord who rode beside her
seemed to her foolish heart a tower of refuge. She was particularly
gracious to her lover as they rode, and fancied again and again
that perhaps the best way out of her troubles would be to encourage
and at last accept him, so getting rid of honeyed delights and
rankling stings together, of good and evil angels and low bred
lover at one sweep. Quiet would console for dulness, innocence for
weariness. She would fain have a good conscience toward Society--
that image whose feet are of gold and its head a bag of chaff and
sawdust.
Malcolm followed sick at heart that she should prove herself so
shallow. Riding Honour, he had plenty of leisure to brood.
CHAPTER XXXII: A CHASTISEMENT
When she went to her room, there was Caley taking from a portmanteau
the Highland dress which had occasioned so much. A note fell, and
she handed it to her mistress. Florimel opened it, grew pale as she
read it, and asked Caley to bring her a glass of water. No sooner
had her maid left the room than she sprang to the door and bolted
it. Then the tears burst from her eyes, she sobbed despairingly,
and but for the help of her handkerchief would have wailed aloud.
When Caley returned, she answered to her knock that she was lying
down, and wanted to sleep. She was, however, trying to force further
communication from the note. In it the painter told her that he was
going to set out the next morning for Italy, and that her portrait
was at the shop of certain carvers and gliders, being fitted with
a frame for which he had made drawings. Three times she read it,
searching for some hidden message to her heart; she held it up
between her and the light; then before the fire till it crackled
like a bit of old parchment; but all was in vain: by no device,
intellectual or physical, could she coax the shadow of a meaning
out of it, beyond what lay plain on the surface. She must, she
would see him again.
That night she was merrier than usual at dinner; after it, sang
ballad after ballad to please Liftore; then went to her room and
told Caley to arrange for yet a visit, the next morning, to Mr
Lenorme's studio. She positively must, she said, secure her father's
portrait ere the ill tempered painter--all men of genius were
hasty and unreasonable--should have destroyed it utterly, as he
was certain to do before leaving--and with that she showed her
Lenorme's letter. Caley was all service, only said that this time
she thought they had better go openly. She would see Lady Bellair
as soon as Lady Lossie was in bed, and explain the thing to her.
The next morning therefore they drove to Chelsea in the carriage.
When the door opened, Florimel walked straight up to the study.
There she saw no one, and her heart, which had been fluttering
strangely, sank, and was painfully still, while her gaze went
wandering about the room. It fell upon the pictured temple of Isis:
a thick dark veil had fallen and shrouded the whole figure of the
goddess, leaving only the outline; and the form of the worshipping
youth had vanished utterly: where he had stood, the tesselated
pavement, with the serpent of life twining through it, and the
sculptured walls of the temple, shone out clear and bare, as if
Hyacinth had walked out into the desert to return no more. Again
the tears gushed from the heart of Florimel: she had sinned against
her own fame--had blotted out a fair memorial record that might
have outlasted the knight of stone under the Norman canopy in
Lossie church. Again she sobbed, again she choked down a cry that
had else become a scream.
Arms were around her. Never doubting whose the embrace, she leaned
her head against his bosom, stayed her sobs with the one word "Cruel!"
and slowly opening her tearful eyes, lifted them to the face that
bent over hers. It was Liftore's. She was dumb with disappointment
and dismay. It was a hateful moment. He kissed her forehead and
eyes, and sought her mouth. She shrieked aloud. In her very agony
at the loss of one to be kissed by another!--and there! It was
too degrading! too horrid!
At the sound of her cry someone started up at the other end of
the room. An easel with a large canvas on it fell, and a man came
forward with great strides. Liftore let her go, with a muttered
curse on the intruder, and she darted from the room into the arms
of Caley, who had had her ear against the other side of the door.
The same instant Malcolm received from his lordship a well planted
blow between the eyes, which filled them with flashes and darkness.
The next, the earl was on the floor. The ancient fury of the Celt
had burst up into the nineteenth century, and mastered a noble spirit.
All Malcolm could afterwards remember was that he came to himself
dealing Liftore merciless blows, his foot on his back, and his
weapon the earl's whip. His lordship, struggling to rise, turned
up a face white with hate and impotent fury.
"You damned flunkie!" he panted. "I'll have you shot like a mangy
dog."
"Meanwhile I will chastise you like an insolent nobleman," said
Malcolm, who had already almost recovered his self possession. "You
dare to touch my mistress!"
And with the words he gave him one more stinging cut with the whip.
"Stand off, and let it be man to man," cried Liftore, with a fierce
oath, clenching his teeth in agony and rage.
"That it cannot be, my lord; but I have had enough, and so I hope
has your lordship," said Malcolm; and as he spoke he threw the
whip to the other end of the room, and stood back. Liftore sprang
to his feet, and rushed at him. Malcolm caught him by the wrist
with a fisherman's grasp.
"My lord, I don't want to kill you. Take a warning, and let ill
be, for fear of worse," he said, and threw his hand from him with
a swing that nearly dislocated his shoulder.
The warning sufficed. His lordship cast him one scowl of concentrated
hate and revenge, and leaving the room hurried also from the house.
At the usual morning hour, Malcolm had ridden to Chelsea, hoping to
find his friend in a less despairing and more companionable mood
than when he left him. To his surprise and disappointment he learned
that Lenorme had sailed by the packet to Ostend the night before.
He asked leave to go into the study. There on its easel stood the
portrait of his father as he had last seen it--disfigured with a
great smear of brown paint across the face. He knew that the face
was dry, and he saw that the smear was wet: he would see whether
he could not, with turpentine and a soft brush, remove the insult.
In this endeavour he was so absorbed, and by the picture itself
was so divided from the rest of the room, that he neither saw nor
heard anything until Florimel cried out.
Naturally, those events made him yet more dissatisfied with his
sister's position. Evil influences and dangers were on all sides
of her--the worst possible outcome being that, loving one man,
she should marry another, and him such a man as Liftore. Whatever
he heard in the servants' hall, both tone and substance, only
confirmed the unfavourable impression he had had from the first of
the bold faced countess. The oldest of her servants had, he found,
the least respect for their mistress, although all had a certain
liking for her, which gave their disrespect the heavier import.
He must get Florimel away somehow. While all was right between
her and the painter he had been less anxious about her immediate
surroundings, trusting that Lenorme would ere long deliver her.
But now she had driven him from the very country, and he had left
no clue to follow him up by. His housekeeper could tell nothing of
his purposes. The gardener and she were left in charge as a matter
of course. He might be back in a week, or a year; she could not
even conjecture.
Seeming possibilities, in varied mingling with rank absurdities
passing through Malcolm's mind, as, after Liftore's punishment,
he lifted the portrait, set it again upon its easel, and went on
trying to clean the face of it--with no small promise of success.
But as he made progress he grew anxious--lest with the defilement,
he should remove some of the colour as well: the painter alone,
he concluded at length could be trusted to restore the work he had
ruined.
He left the house, walked across the road to the riverbank, and
gave a short sharp whistle. In an instant Davy was in the dinghy,
pulling for the shore. Malcolm went on board the yacht, saw that
all was right, gave some orders, went ashore again, and mounted
Kelpie.
CHAPTER XXXIII: LIES
In pain, wrath, and mortification, Liftore rode home. What would
the men at his club say if they knew that he had been thrashed by
a scoundrel of a groom for kissing his mistress? The fact would
soon be out: he must do his best to have it taken for what it ought
to be--namely, fiction. It was the harder upon him that he knew
himself no coward. He must punish the rascal somehow--he owed it
to society to punish him; but at present he did not see how, and
the first thing was to have the first word with Florimel; he must
see her before she saw the ruffian. He rode as hard as he dared to
Curzon Street, sent his groom to the stables, telling him he should
want the horses again before lunch, had a hot bath, of which he
stood in dire need, and some brandy with his breakfast, and then,
all unfit for exercise as he was, walked to Portland Place.
Mistress and maid rode home together in silence. The moment Florimel
heard Malcolm's voice she had left the house. Caley following had
heard enough to know that there was a scuffle at least going on
in the study, and her eye witnessed against her heart that Liftore
could have no chance with the detested groom if the respect of the
latter gave way: would MacPhail thrash his lordship? If he did,
it would be well she should know it. In the hoped event of his
lordship's marrying her mistress, it was desirable, not only that
she should be in favour with both of them, but that she should
have some hold upon each of a more certainly enduring nature: if
she held secrets with husband and wife separately, she would be
in clover for the period of her natural existence. As to Florimel,
she was enraged at the liberties Liftore had taken with her. But
alas! was she not in some degree in his power? He had found her
there, and in tears! How did he come to be there? If Malcolm's
judgment of her was correct, Caley might have told him. Was she
already false? She pondered within herself, and cast no look upon
her maid until she had concluded how best to carry herself towards
the earl. Then glancing at the hooded cobra beside her--"What
an awkward thing that Lord Liftore, of all moments, should appear
just then!" she said. "How could it be?"
"I'm sure I haven't an idea, my lady," returned Caley. "My lord
has been always kind to Mr Lenorme, and I suppose he has been in
the way of going to see him at work. Who would have thought my lord
had been such an early riser! There are not many gentlemen like him
nowadays, my lady! Did your ladyship hear the noise in the studio
after you left it?"
"I heard high words," answered her mistress, "--nothing more.
How on earth did MacPhail come to be there as well?--From you,
Caley, I will not conceal that his lordship behaved indiscreetly;
in fact he was rude; and I can quite imagine that MacPhail thought
it his duty to defend me. It is all very awkward for me. Who could
have imagined him there, and sitting behind amongst the pictures!
It almost makes me doubt whether Mr Lenorme be really gone."
"It seems to me, my lady," returned Caley, "that the man is always
just where he ought not to be, always meddling with something he
has no business with. I beg your pardon, my lady," she went on, "but
wouldn't it be better to get some staid elderly man for a groom,
one who has been properly bred up to his duties and taught his
manners in a gentleman's stable? It is so odd to have a groom from
a rough seafaring set--one who behaves like the rude fisherman
he is, never having had to obey orders of lord or lady! The worst
of it is, your ladyship will soon be the town's talk if you have
such a groom on such a horse after you everywhere."
Florimel's face flushed. Caley saw she was angry, and held her
peace.
Breakfast was hardly over, when Liftore walked in, looking pale,
and, in spite of his faultless get up, somewhat disreputable: for
shame, secret pain, and anger do not favour a good carriage or
honest mien. Florimel threw herself back in her chair--an action
characteristic of the bold faced countess, and held out her left
hand to him in an expansive, benevolent sort of way.
"How dare you come into my presence, looking so well pleased with
yourself, my lord, after giving me such a fright this morning?"
she said. "You might at least have made sure that there was--that
we were--"
She could not bring herself to complete the sentence.
"My dearest girl!" said his lordship, not only delighted to get off
so pleasantly, but profoundly flattered by the implied understanding,
"I found you in tears, and how could I think of anything else? It
may have been stupid, but I trust you will think it pardonable."
Caley had not fully betrayed her mistress to his lordship, and
he had, entirely to his own satisfaction, explained the liking
of Florimel for the society of the painter as the mere fancy of a
girl for the admiration of one whose employment, although nothing
above the servile, yet gave him a claim something beyond that of
a milliner or hair dresser, to be considered a judge in matters of
appearance. As to anything more in the affair--and with him in
the field--of such a notion he was simply incapable: he could
not have wronged the lady he meant to honour with his hand, by
regarding it as within the bounds of the possible.
"It was no wonder I was crying," said Florimel. "A seraph would
have cried to see the state my father's portrait was in."
"Your father's portrait!"
"Yes. Did you not know? Mr Lenorme has been painting one from a
miniature I lent him--under my supervision, of course; and just
because I let fall a word that showed I was not altogether satisfied
with the likeness, what should the wretched man do but catch up a
brush full of filthy black paint, and smudge the face all over!"
"Oh, Lenorme will soon set it to rights again. He's not a bad fellow
though he does belong to the genus irritabile. I will go about it
this very day."
"You'll not find him, I'm sorry to say. There's a note I had from
him yesterday. And the picture's quite unfit to be seen--utterly
ruined. But I can't think how you could miss it!"
"To tell you the truth, Florimel, I had a bit of a scrimmage after
you left me in the studio." Here his lordship did his best to
imitate a laugh. "Who should come rushing upon me out of the back
regions of paint and canvas but that mad groom of yours! I don't
suppose you knew he was there?"
"Not I. I saw a man's feet--that was all."
"Well, there he was, for what reason the devil knows, perdu amongst
the painter's litter; and when he heard your little startled cry
--most musical, most melancholy--what should he fancy but that
you were frightened, and he must rush to the rescue! And so he did
with a vengeance: I don't know when I shall quite forget the blow
he gave me." And again Liftore laughed, or thought he did.
"He struck you!" exclaimed Florimel, rather astonished, but hardly
able for inward satisfaction to put enough of indignation into her
tone.
"He did, the fellow!--But don't say a word about it, for I thrashed
him so unmercifully that, to tell the truth, I had to stop because
I grew sorry for him. I am sorry now. So I hope you will take
no notice of it. In fact, I begin to like the rascal: you know I
was never favourably impressed with him. By Jove! it is not every
mistress that can have such a devoted attendant. I only hope his
over zeal in your service may never get you into some compromising
position. He is hardly, with all his virtues, the proper servant
for a young lady to have about her; he has had no training--no
proper training at all, you see. But you must let the villain nurse
himself for a day or two anyhow. It would be torture to make him
ride, after what I gave him."
His lordship spoke feelingly, with heroic endurance indeed; and if
Malcolm should dare give his account of the fracas, he trusted to
the word of a gentleman to outweigh that of a groom.
Not all to whom it may seem incredible that a nobleman should thus
lie, are themselves incapable of doing likewise. Any man may put
himself in training for a liar by doing things he would be ashamed
to have known. The art is easily learned, and to practise it well
is a great advantage to people with designs. Men of ability, indeed,
if they take care not to try hard to speak the truth, will soon
become able to lie as truthfully as any sneak that sells grease
for butter to the poverty of the New Cut.
It is worth remarking to him who can from the lie factual carry
his thought deeper to the lie essential, that all the power of a
lie comes from the truth; it has none in itself. So strong is the
truth that a mere resemblance to it is the source of strength to
its opposite--until it be found that like is not the same.
Florimel had already made considerable progress in the art, but
proficiency in lying does not always develop the power of detecting
it. She knew that her father had on one occasion struck Malcolm,
and that he had taken it with the utmost gentleness, confessing
himself in the wrong. Also she had the impression that for a menial
to lift his hand against a gentleman, even in self defence, was a
thing unheard of. The blow Malcolm had struck Liftore was for her,
not himself. Therefore, while her confidence in Malcolm's courage
and prowess remained unshaken, she was yet able to believe that
Liftore had done as he said, and supposed that Malcolm had submitted.
In her heart she pitied without despising him.
Caley herself took him the message that he would not be wanted. As
she delivered it, she smiled an evil smile and dropped a mocking
courtesy, with her gaze well fixed on his two black eyes and the
great bruise between them.
When Liftore mounted to accompany Lady Lossie, it took all the pluck
that belonged to his high breed to enable him to smile and smile,
with twenty counsellors in different parts of his body feelingly
persuading him that he was at least a liar. As they rode, Florimel
asked him how he came to be at the studio that morning. He told her
that he had wanted very much to see her portrait before the final
touches were given it. He could have made certain suggestions, he
believed, that no one else could. He had indeed, he confessed--
and felt absolutely virtuous in doing so, because here he spoke
a fact--heard from his aunt that Florimel was to be there that
morning for the last time: it was therefore his only chance; but
he had expected to be there hours before she was out of bed. For
the rest, be hoped he had been punished enough, seeing her rascally
groom--and once more his lordship laughed peculiarly--had but
just failed of breaking his arm; it was all he could do to hold
the reins.
CHAPTER XXXIV: AN OLD ENEMY
One Sunday evening--it must have been just while Malcolm and Blue
Peter stood in the Strand listening to a voluntary that filled and
overflowed an otherwise empty church--a short, stout, elderly
woman was walking lightly along the pavement of a street of small
houses, not far from a thoroughfare which, crowded like a market
the night before, had now two lively borders only--of holiday
makers mingled with church goers. The bells for evening prayers were
ringing. The sun had vanished behind the smoke and steam of London;
indeed he might have set--it was hard to say without consulting
the almanac: but it was not dark yet. The lamps in the street were
lighted, however, and also in the church she passed. She carried a
small bible in her hand, folded in a pocket handkerchief and looked
a decent woman from the country. Her quest was a place where the
minister said his prayers and did not read them out of a book: she
had been brought up a Presbyterian, and had prejudices in favour
of what she took for the simpler form of worship. Nor had she gone
much farther before she came upon a chapel which seemed to promise
all she wanted. She entered, and a sad looking woman showed her to
a seat. She sat down square, fixing her eyes at once on the pulpit,
rather dimly visible over many pews, as if it were one of the
mountains that surrounded her Jerusalem. The place was but scantily
lighted, for the community at present could ill afford to burn
daylight. When the worship commenced, and the congregation rose to
sing, she got up with a jerk that showed the duty as unwelcome as
unexpected, but seemed by the way she settled herself in her seat
for the prayer, already thereby reconciled to the differences
between Scotch church customs and English chapel customs. She went
to sleep softly, and woke warily as the prayer came to a close.
While the congregation again sang, the minister who had officiated
hitherto left the pulpit, and another ascended to preach. When he
began to read the text, the woman gave a little start, and leaning
forward, peered very hard to gain a satisfactory sight of his face
between the candles on each side of it, but without success; she
soon gave up her attempted scrutiny, and thence forward seemed to
listen with marked attention. The sermon was a simple, earnest,
at times impassioned appeal to the hearts and consciences of the
congregation. There was little attempt in it at the communication
of knowledge of any kind, but the most indifferent hearer must have
been aware that the speaker was earnestly straining after something.
To those who understood, it was as if he would force his way through
every stockade of prejudice, ditch of habit, rampart of indifference,
moat of sin, wall of stupidity, and curtain of ignorance, until he
stood face to face with the conscience of his hearer.
"Rank Arminianism!" murmured the woman. "Whaur's the gospel o' that?"
But still she listened with seeming intentness, while something
of wonder mingled with the something else that set in motion every
live wrinkle in her forehead, and made her eyebrows undulate like
writhing snakes.
At length the preacher rose to eloquence, an eloquence inspired by
the hunger of his soul after truth eternal, and the love he bore
to his brethren who fed on husks--an eloquence innocent of the
tricks of elocution or the arts of rhetoric: to have discovered
himself using one of them would have sent him home to his knees in
shame and fear--an eloquence not devoid of discords, the strings
of his instrument being now slack with emotion, now tense with
vision, yet even in those discords shrouding the essence of all
harmony. When he ceased, the silence that followed seemed instinct
with thought, with that speech of the spirit which no longer needs
the articulating voice.
"It canna be the stickit minister!" said the woman to herself. The
congregation slowly dispersed, but she sat motionless until all
were gone, and the sad faced woman was putting out the lights. Then
she rose, drew near through the gloom, and asked her the name of
the gentleman who had given them such a grand sermon. The woman
told her, adding that, although he had two or three times spoken
to them at the prayer meeting--such words of comfort, the poor
soul added, as she had never in her life heard before--this was
the first time he had occupied the pulpit. The woman thanked her,
and went out into the street.
"God bless me!" she said to herself, as she walked away; "it is
the stickit minister! Weel, won'ers 'ill never cease. The age o'
mirracles 'ill be come back, I'm thinkin'!" And she laughed an oily
contemptuous laugh in the depths of her profuse person.
What caused her astonishment need cause none to the thoughtful
mind. The man was no longer burdened with any anxiety as to his
reception by his hearers; he was hampered by no necromantic agony
to raise the dead letter of the sermon buried in the tail pocket
of his coat; he had thirty years more of life, and a whole granary
filled with such truths as grow for him who is ever breaking up
the clods of his being to the spiritual sun and wind and dew; and
above all he had an absolute yet expanding confidence in his Father
in heaven, and a tender love for everything human. The tongue of
the dumb had been in training for song. And first of all he had
learned to be silent while he had nought to reveal. He had been
trained to babble about religion, but through God's grace had
failed in his babble, and that was in itself a success. He would
have made one of the swarm that year after year cast themselves
like flies on the burning sacrifice that they may live on its flesh,
with evil odours extinguishing the fire that should have gone up
in flame; but a burning coal from off the altar had been laid on
his lips, and had silenced them in torture. For thirty years he
had held his peace, until the word of God had become as a fire in
his bones: it was now breaking forth in flashes.
On the Monday, Mrs Catanach sought the shop of the deacon that was
an ironmonger, secured for herself a sitting in the chapel for the
next half year, and prepaid the sitting.
"Wha kens," she said to herself "what birds may come to gether
worms an' golachs (beetles) aboot the boody craw (scarecrow), Sanny
Grame!"
She was one to whom intrigue, founded on the knowledge of private
history, was as the very breath of her being: she could not exist
in composure without it. Wherever she went, therefore--and her
changes of residence had not been few--it was one of her first
cares to enter into connection with some religious community, first
that she might have scope for her calling--that of a midwife,
which in London would probably be straightened towards that of mere
monthly nurse--and next that thereby she might have good chances
for the finding of certain weeds of occult power that spring mostly
in walled gardens, and are rare on the roadside--poisonous things
mostly, called generically secrets.
At this time she had been for some painful months in possession of
a most important one--painful, I say, because all those months
she had discovered no possibility of making use of it. The trial
had been hard. Her one passion was to drive the dark horses of
society, and here she had been sitting week after week on the coach
box over the finest team she had ever handled, ramping and "foming
tarre," unable to give them their heads because the demon grooms
had disappeared and left the looped traces dangling from their
collars. She had followed Florimel from Portlossie--to Edinburgh,
and then to London, but not yet had seen how to approach her with
probable advantage. In the meantime she had renewed old relations
with a certain herb doctor in Kentish Town, at whose house she
was now accommodated. There she had already begun to entice the
confidences of maid servants, by use of what evil knowledge she
had, and pretence to more, giving herself out as a wise woman. Her
faith never failed her that, if she but kept handling the fowls of
circumstance, one or other of them must at length drop an egg of
opportunity in her lap. When she stumbled upon the schoolmaster,
preaching in a chapel near her own haunts, she felt something more
like a gust of gratitude to the dark power that sat behind and
pulled the strings of events--for thus she saw through her own
projected phantom the heart of the universe--than she had ever
yet experienced. If there were such things as special providences,
here, she said, was one; if not, then it was better luck than she
had looked for. The main point in it was that the dominie seemed
likely after all to turn out a popular preacher; then beyond a
doubt other Scotch people would gather to him; this or that person
might turn up, and anyone might turn out useful; one thread might
be knotted to another, until all together had made a clue to guide
her straight through the labyrinth to the centre, to lay her hand
on the collar of the demon of the house of Lossie. It was the biggest
game of her life, and had been its game long before the opening of
my narrative.
CHAPTER XXXV: THE EVIL GENIUS
When Malcolm first visited Mr Graham, the schoolmaster had already
preached two or three times in the pulpit of Hope Chapel. His
ministrations at the prayer meetings had led to this. For every
night on which he was expected to speak, there were more people
present than on the last; and when the deacons saw this, they asked
him to preach on the Sundays. After two Sundays they came to him
in a body, and besought him to become a candidate for the vacant
pulpit, assuring him of success if he did so. He gave a decided
refusal, however, nor mentioned his reasons. His friend Marshal
urged him, pledging himself for his income to an amount which would
have been riches to the dominie, but in vain. Thereupon the silk
mercer concluded that he must have money, and, kind man as he was,
grew kinder in consequence, and congratulated him on his independence.
"I depend more on the fewness of my wants than on any earthly store
for supplying them," said the dominie.
Marshal's thermometer fell a little, but not his anxiety to secure
services which, he insisted, would be for the glory of God and the
everlasting good of perishing souls. The schoolmaster only smiled
queerly and held his peace.
He consented, however, to preach the next Sunday, and on the
Monday, consented to preach the next again. For several weeks the
same thing occurred. But he would never promise on a Sunday, or
allow the briefest advertisement to be given concerning him. All
said he was feeling his way.
Neither had he, up to this time, said a word to Malcolm about the
manner in which his Sundays were employed, while yet he talked much
about a school he had opened in a room occupied in the evenings
by a debating club, where he was teaching such children of small
shopkeepers and artisans as found their way to him--in part through
his connection with the chapel folk. When Malcolm had called on a
Sunday, his landlady had been able to tell him nothing more than that
Mr Graham had gone out at such and such an hour--she presumed to
church; and when he had once or twice expressed a wish to accompany
him wherever he went to worship, Mr Graham had managed somehow to
let him go without having made any arrangement for his doing so.
On the evening after his encounter with Liftore, Malcolm visited
the schoolmaster, and told him everything about the affair. He
concluded by saying that Lizzie's wrongs had loaded the whip far
more than his sister's insult; but that he was very doubtful whether
he had had any right to constitute himself the avenger of either
after such a fashion. Mr Graham replied that a man ought never
to be carried away by wrath, as he had so often sought to impress
upon him, and not without success: but that, in the present case,
as the rascal deserved it so well, he did not think he need trouble
himself much. At the same time he ought to remind himself that
the rightness or wrongness of any particular act was of far less
consequence than the rightness or wrongness of the will whence
sprang the act; and that, while no man could be too anxious as to
whether a contemplated action ought or ought not to be done, at
the same time no man could do anything absolutely right until he
was one with him whose was the only absolute self generated purity
--that is, until God dwelt in him and he in God.
Before he left, the schoolmaster had acquainted him with all that
portion of his London history which he had hitherto kept from him,
and told him where he was preaching.
When Caley returned to her mistress after giving Malcolm the message
that she did not require his services, and reported the condition
of his face, Florimel informed her of the chastisement he had
received from Liftore, and desired her to find out for her how he
was, for she was anxious about him. Somehow Florimel felt sorrier
for him than she could well understand, seeing he was but a groom
--a great lumbering fellow, all his life used to hard knocks,
which probably never hurt him. That her mistress should care so
much about him added yet an acrid touch to Caley's spite; but she
put on her bonnet and went to the mews, to confer with the wife of
his lordship's groom, who, although an honest woman, had not yet
come within her dislike. She went to make her inquiries, however,
full of grave doubt as to his lordship's statement to her mistress;
and the result of them was a conviction that, beyond his facial
bruises, of which Mrs Merton had heard no explanation, Malcolm had
had no hurt. This confirmed her suspicion that his lordship had
received what he professed to have given: from a window she had
seen him mount his horse; and her woman's fancy for him; while it
added to her hate of Malcolm, did not prevent her from thinking of
the advantage the discovery might bring in the prosecution of her
own schemes. But now she began to fear Malcolm a little as well
as hate him. And indeed he was rather a dangerous person to have
about, where all but himself had secrets more or less bad, and
one at least had dangerous ones--as Caley's conscience, or what
poor monkey rudiment in her did duty for one, in private asserted.
Notwithstanding her hold upon her mistress, she would not have felt
it quite safe to let her know all her secrets. She would not have
liked to say, for instance, how often she woke suddenly with a
little feeble wail sounding in the ears that fingers cannot stop,
or to confess that it cried out against a double injustice, that
of life and that of death: she had crossed the border of the region
of horror, and went about with a worm coiled in her heart, like a
centipede in the stone of a peach.
"Merton's wife knows nothing, my lady," she said on her return.
"I saw the fellow in the yard going about much as usual. He will
stand a good deal of punishing, I fancy, my lady--like that
brute of a horse he makes such a fuss with. I can't help wishing,
for your ladyship's sake, we had never set eyes on him. He 'll do
us all a mischief yet before we get rid of him. I've had a hinstinc'
of it, my lady; from the first moment I set eyes on him," Caley's
speech was never classic. When she was excited it was low.--" And
when I 'ave a hinstinc' of anythink, he's not a dog as barks for
nothink. Mark my words--and I'm sure I beg your pardon, my lady
--but that man will bring shame on the house. He's that arrergant
an' interferin' as is certain sure to bring your ladyship into public
speech an' a scandal: things will come to be spoke, my lady, that
hadn't ought to be mentioned. Why, my lady, he must ha' struck his
lordship, afore he'd ha' give him two such black eyes as them! And
him that good natured an' condescendin'!--I'm sure I don't know
what's to come on it, but your ladyship might cast a thought on
the rest of us females as can't take the liberties of born ladies
without sufferin' for it. Think what the world will say of us. It's
hard, my lady, on the likes of us."
But Florimel was not one to be talked into doing what she did not
choose. Neither would she to her maid render her reasons for not
choosing. She had repaired her fortifications, strengthened herself
with Liftore, and was confident.
"The fact is, Caley," she said, "I have fallen in love with Kelpie,
and never mean to part with her--at least till I can ride her
--or she kills me. So I can't do without MacPhail. And I hope she
won't kill him before he has persuaded her to let me mount her. The
man must go with the mare. Besides, he is such a strange fellow,
if I turned him away I should quite expect him to poison her before
he left."
The maid's face grew darker. That her mistress had the slightest
intention of ever mounting that mare she did not find herself fool
enough to believe, but of other reasons she could spy plenty behind.
And such there truly were, though none of the sort which Caley's
imagination, swift to evil, now supplied. The kind of confidence
she reposed in her groom, Caley had no faculty for understanding,
and was the last person to whom her mistress could impart the fact
of her father's leaving her in charge to his young henchman. To the
memory of her father she clung, and so far faithfully that, even
now when Malcolm had begun to occasion her a feeling of awe and
rebuke, she did not the less confidently regard him as her good
genius that he was in danger of becoming an unpleasant one.
CHAPTER XXXVI: CONJUNCTIONS
As the days passed on, and Florimel heard nothing of Lenorme, the
uneasiness that came with the thought of him gradually diminished,
and all the associations of opposite complexion returned. Untrammelled
by fear, the path into a scaring future seeming to be cut off, her
imagination began to work in the quarry of her late experience,
shaping its dazzling material into gorgeous castles, with foundations
deep dug in the air, wherein lorded the person and gifts and
devotion of the painter. When lost in such blissful reveries, not
seldom moments arrived in which she imagined herself--even felt
as if she were capable, if not of marrying Lenorme in the flushed
face of outraged society, yet of fleeing with him from the judgment
of the all but all potent divinity to the friendly bosom of some
blessed isle of the southern seas, whose empty luxuriance they
might change into luxury, and there living a long harmonious idyll
of wedded love, in which old age and death should be provided
against by never taking them into account. This mere fancy, which,
poor in courage as it was in invention, she was far from capable
of carrying into effect, yet seemed to herself the outcome and sign
of a whole world of devotion in her bosom. If one of the meanest
of human conditions is conscious heroism, paltrier yet is heroism
before the fact, incapable of self realization! But even the poorest
dreaming has its influences, and the result of hers was that the
attentions of Liftore became again distasteful to her. And no wonder,
for indeed his lordship's presence in the actual world made a poor
show beside that of the painter in the ideal world of the woman
who, if she could not with truth be said to love him, yet certainly
had a powerful fancy for him: the mean phrase is good enough, even
although the phantom of Lenorme roused in her all the twilight
poetry of her nature, and the presence of Liftore set her whole
consciousness in the perpendicular shadowless gaslight of prudence
and self protection.
The pleasure of her castle building was but seldom interrupted by
any thought of the shamefulness of her behaviour to him. That did
not matter much! She could so easily make up for all he had suffered!
Her selfishness closed her eyes to her own falsehood. Had she meant
it truly she would have been right both for him and for herself.
To have repented and become as noble a creature as Lenorme was
capable of imagining her--not to say as God had designed her, would
indeed have been to make up for all he had suffered. But the poor
blandishment she contemplated as amends, could render him blessed
only while its intoxication blinded him to the fact that it meant
nothing of what it ought to mean, that behind it was no entire,
heart filled woman. Meantime, as the past, with its delightful
imprudences, its trembling joys, glided away, swiftly widening the
space between her and her false fears and shames, and seeming to
draw with it the very facts themselves, promising to obliterate at
length all traces of them, she gathered courage; and as the feeling
of exposure that had made the covert of Liftore's attentions
acceptable, began to yield, her variableness began to re-appear,
and his lordship to find her uncertain as ever. Assuredly, as his
aunt said, she was yet but a girl incapable of knowing her own mind,
and he must not press his suit. Nor had he the spur of jealousy
or fear to urge him: society regarded her as his; and the shadowy
repute of the bold faced countess intercepted some favourable rays
which would otherwise have fallen upon the young, and beautiful
marchioness from fairer luminaries even than Liftore.
But there was one good process, by herself little regarded, going
on in Florimel: notwithstanding the moral discomfort oftener than
once occasioned her by Malcolm, her confidence in him was increasing;
and now that the kind of danger threatening her seemed altered, she
leaned her mind upon him not a little--and more than she could
well have accounted for to herself on the only grounds she could
have adduced--namely that he was an attendant authorized by her
father, and, like herself loyal to his memory and will; and that,
faithful as a dog, he would fly at the throat of anyone who dared
touch her--of which she had had late proof, supplemented by his
silent endurance of consequent suffering. Demon sometimes looked
angry--when she teased him--had even gone so far as to bare his
teeth; but Malcolm had never shown temper. In a matter of imagined
duty, he might presume--but that was a small thing beside the
sense of safety his very presence brought with it. She shuddered
indeed at the remembrance of one look he had given her, but that
had been for no behaviour to himself; and now that the painter was
gone, she was clear of all temptation to the sort of thing that
had caused it; and never, never more would she permit herself to
be drawn into circumstances the least equivocal--If only Lenorme
would come back, and allow her to be his friend--his best friend
--his only young lady friend, leaving her at perfect liberty to do
just as she liked, then all would be well--absolutely comfortable!
In the meantime, life was endurable without him--and would be,
provided Liftore did not make himself disagreeable. If he did, there
were other gentlemen who might be induced to keep him in check: she
would punish him--she knew how. She liked him better, however,
than any of those.
It was out of pure kindness to Malcolm, upon Liftore's representation
of how he had punished him, that for the rest of the week she
dispensed with his attendance upon herself. But he, unaware of
the lies Liftore had told her, and knowing nothing, therefore, of
her reason for doing so, supposed she resented the liberty he had
taken in warning her against Caley, feared the breach would go on
widening, and went about, if not quite downcast, yet less hopeful
still. Everything seemed going counter to his desires. A whole world
of work lay before him:--a harbour to build; a numerous fisher
clan to house as they ought to be housed; justice to do on all
sides; righteous servants to appoint in place of oppressors; and,
all over, to show the heavens more just than his family had in
the past allowed them to appear; he had mortgages and other debts
to pay off--clearing his feet from fetters and his hands from
manacles, that he might be the true lord of his people; he had
Miss Horn to thank, and the schoolmaster to restore to the souls
and hearts of Portlossie; and, next of all to his sister, he had
old Duncan, his first friend and father, to find and minister to.
Not a day passed, not a night did he lay down his head, without
thinking of him. But the old man, whatever his hardships, and
even the fishermen, with no harbour to run home to from the wild
elements, were in no dangers to compare with such as threatened his
sister. To set her free was his first business, and that business
as yet refused to be done. Hence he was hemmed in, shut up,
incarcerated in stubborn circumstance, from a long reaching range
of duties, calling aloud upon his conscience and heart to hasten
with the first, that he might reach the second. What rendered it
the more disheartening was, that, having discovered, as he hoped,
how to compass his first end, the whole possibility had by his
sister's behaviour, and the consequent disappearance of Lenorme,
been swept from him, leaving him more resourceless than ever.
When Sunday evening came, he found his way to Hope Chapel, and
walking in, was shown to a seat by a grimy faced pew opener. It
was with strange feelings he sat there, thinking of the past, and
looking for the appearance of his friend on the pulpit stair. But
his feelings would have been stranger still had he seen who sat
immediately in the pew behind him, watching him like a cat watching
a mouse, or rather like a half grown kitten watching a rat, for
she was a little frightened at him, even while resolved to have
him. But how could she doubt her final success, when her plans
were already affording her so much more than she had expected? Who
would have looked for the great red stag himself to come browsing
so soon about the scarecrow! He was too large game, however, to be
stalked without due foresight.
When the congregation was dismissed, after a sermon the power of
whose utterance astonished Malcolm, accustomed as he was to the
schoolmaster's best moods, he waited until the preacher was at
liberty from the unwelcome attentions and vulgar congratulations
of the richer and more forward of his hearers, and then joined him
to walk home with him.--He was followed to the schoolmaster's
lodging, and thence, an hour after, to his own, by a little boy
far too little to excite suspicion, the grandson of Mrs Catanach's
friend, the herb doctor.
Until now the woman had not known that Malcolm was in London. When
she learned that he was lodged so near Portland Place, she concluded
that he was watching his sister, and chuckled over the idea of his
being watched in turn by herself.
Every day for weeks after her declaration concerning the birth of
Malcolm, had the mind of Mrs Catanach been exercised to the utmost
to invent some mode of undoing her own testimony. She would have
had no scruples, no sense of moral disgust, in eating every one of
her words; but a magistrate and a lawyer had both been present at
the uttering of them, and she feared the risk. Malcolm's behaviour
to her after his father's death had embittered the unfriendly
feelings she had cherished towards him for many years. While she
believed him base born, and was even ignorant as to his father,
she had thought to secure power over him for the annoyance of the
blind old man to whom she had committed him, and whom she hated
with the hatred of a wife with whom for the best of reasons he
had refused to live; but she had found in the boy a rectitude over
which although she had assailed it from his childhood, she could
gain no influence. Either a blind repugnance in Malcolm's soul, or
a childish instinct of and revulsion from embodied evil, had held
them apart. Even then it had added to her vile indignation that she
regarded him as owing her gratitude for not having murdered him at
the instigation of his uncle; and when at length, to her endless
chagrin, she had herself unwittingly supplied the only lacking
link in the testimony that should raise him to rank and wealth,
she imagined, that by making affidavit to the facts she had already
divulged, she enlarged the obligation infinitely, and might henceforth
hold him in her hand a tool for further operations. When, therefore,
he banished her from Lossie House, and sought to bind her to silence
as to his rank by the conditional promise of a small annuity, she
hated him with her whole huge power of hating. And now she must make
speed, for his incognito in a great city afforded a thousandfold
facility for doing him a mischief. And first she must draw closer
a certain loose tie she had already looped betwixt herself and
the household of Lady Bellair. This tie was the conjunction of her
lying influence with the credulous confidence of a certain very
ignorant and rather wickedly romantic scullery maid with whom,
having in espial seen her come from the house she had scraped
acquaintance, and to whom, for the securing of power over her through
her imagination, she had made the strangest and most appalling
disclosures. Amongst other secret favours, she had promised to
compound for her a horrible mixture--some of whose disgusting
ingredients, as potent as hard to procure, she named in her awe
stricken hearing--which, administered under certain conditions
and with certain precautions, one of which was absolute secrecy in
regard to the person who provided it, must infallibly secure for
her the affections of any man on whom she might cast a loving eye,
and whom she could either with or without his consent, contrive to
cause partake of the same. This girl she now sought, and from her
learned all she knew about Malcolm. Pursuing her enquiries into
the nature and composition of the household, however, Mrs Catanach
soon discovered a far more capable and indeed less scrupulous
associate and instrument in Caley. I will not introduce my reader
to any of their evil councils, although, for the sake of my own
credit, it might be well to be less considerate, seeing that many,
notwithstanding the superabundant evidence of history, find it all
but impossible to believe in the existence of such moral abandonment
as theirs. I will merely state concerning them, and all the relations
of the two women, that Mrs Catanach assumed and retained the upper
hand, in virtue of her superior knowledge, invention, and experience,
gathering from Caley, as she had hoped much valuable information,
full of reactions, and tending to organic development of scheme in
the brain of the arch plotter. But their designs were so mutually
favourable as to promise from the first a final coalescence in some
common plan for their attainment.
Those who knew that Miss Campbell, as Portlossie regarded her, had
been in reality Lady Lossie, and was the mother of Malcolm, knew as
well that Florimel had no legal title even to the family cognomen;
but if his mother, and therefore the time of his mother's death,
remained unknown, the legitimacy of his sister would remain
unsuspected even upon his appearance as the heir. Now there were
but three besides Mrs Catanach and Malcolm who did know who was his
mother, namely, Miss Horn, Mr Graham, and a certain Mr Morrison, a
laird and magistrate near Portlossie, an elderly man, and of late
in feeble health. The lawyers the marquis had employed on his death
bed did not know: he had, for Florimel's sake taken care that they
should not. Upon what she knew and what she guessed of these facts
regarded in all their relations according to her own theories of
human nature the midwife would found a scheme of action.
Doubtless she saw, and prepared for it, that after a certain point
should be reached the very similarity of their designs must cause
a rupture between her and Caley; neither could expect the other to
endure such a rival near her hidden throne of influence; for the
aim of both was power in a great family, with consequent money, and
consideration, and midnight councils, and the wielding of all the
weapons of hint and threat and insinuation. There was one difference,
indeed, that in Caley's eye money was the chief thing, while power
itself was the Swedenborgian hell of the midwife's bliss.
CHAPTER XXXVII: AN INNOCENT PLOT
Florimel and Lady Clementina Thornicroft, the same who in the park
rebuked Malcolm for his treatment of Kelpie, had met several times
during the spring, and had been mutually attracted--Florimel as
to a nature larger, more developed, more self supporting than her
own, and Lady Clementina as to one who, it was plain, stood in sore
need of what countenance and encouragement to good and free action
the friendship of one more experienced might afford her. Lady
Clementina was but a few years older than Florimel, it is true, but
had shown a courage which had already wrought her an unquestionable
influence, and that chiefly with the best. The root of this courage
was compassion. Her rare humanity of heart would, at the slightest
appearance of injustice, drive her like an angel with a flaming
sword against customs regarded, consciously or unconsciously, as the
very buttresses of social distinction. Anything but a wise woman,
she had yet so much in her of what is essential to all wisdom--
love to her kind, that, if as yet she had done little but blunder,
she had at least blundered beautifully. On every society that had
for its declared end the setting right of wrong or the alleviation
of misery, she lavished, and mostly wasted, her money. Every misery
took to her the shape of a wrong. Hence to every mendicant that
could trump up a plausible story, she offered herself a willing
prey. Even when the barest faced imposition was brought home to one
of the race parasitical, her first care was to find all possible
excuse for his conduct: it was matter of pleasure to her friends
when she stopped there, and made no attempt at absolute justification.
Left like Florimel an orphan, but at a yet earlier age, she had been
brought up with a care that had gone over into severity, against
which her nature had revolted with an energy that gathered strength
from her own repression of its signs; and when she came of age, and
took things into her own hands, she carried herself in its eyes so
oddly, yet with such sweetness and dignity and consistency in her
oddest extravagances, that society honoured her even when it laughed
at her, loved her, listened to her, applauded, approved--did
everything except imitate her--which indeed was just as well,
for else confusion would have been worse confounded. She was always
rushing to defence--with money, with indignation, with refuge. It
would look like a caricature did I record the number of charities
to which she belonged, and the various societies which, in the
exuberance of her passionate benevolence, she had projected and
of necessity abandoned. Yet still the fire burned, for her changes
were from no changeableness: through them all the fundamental
operation of her character remained the same. The case was that,
for all her headlong passion for deliverance, she could not help
discovering now and then, through an occasional self assertion of
that real good sense which her rampant and unsubjected benevolence
could but overlay, not finally smother, that she was either doing
nothing at all, or more evil than good.
The lack of discipline in her goodness came out in this, at times
amusingly, that she would always at first side with the lower or
weaker or worse. If a dog had torn a child, and was going to be
killed in consequence, she would not only intercede for the dog,
but absolutely side with him, mentioning this and that provocation
which the naughty child must have given him ere he could have been
goaded to the deed. Once when the schoolmaster in her village was
going to cane a boy for cruelty to a cripple, she pleaded for his
pardon on the ground that it was worse to be cruel than to be a
cripple, and therefore more to be pitied. Everything painful was
to her cruel, and softness and indulgence, moral honey and sugar
and nuts to all alike, was the panacea for human ills. She could
not understand that infliction might be loving kindness. On one
occasion when a boy was caught in the act of picking her pocket,
she told the policeman he was doing nothing of the sort--he was
only searching for a lozenge for his terrible cough; and in proof
of her asserted conviction, she carried him home with her, but lost
him before morning, as well as the spoon with which he had eaten
his gruel.
As to her person I have already made a poor attempt at describing
it. She might have been grand but for loveliness. When she drew
herself up in indignation, however, she would look grand for the
one moment ere the blood rose to her cheek, and the water to her
eyes. She would have taken the whole world to her infinite heart,
and in unwisdom coddled it into corruption. Praised be the grandeur
of the God who can endure to make and see his children suffer. Thanks
be to him for his north winds and his poverty, and his bitterness
that falls upon the spirit that errs: let those who know him thus
praise the Lord for his goodness. But Lady Clementina had not yet
descried the face of the Son of Man through the mists of Mount
Sinai, and she was not one to justify the ways of God to men. Not
the less was it the heart of God in her that drew her to the young
marchioness, over whom was cast the shadow of a tree that gave but
baneful shelter. She liked her frankness, her activity, her daring,
and fancied that, like herself she was at noble feud with that
infernal parody of the kingdom of heaven, called Society. She did
not well understand her relation to Lady Bellair, concerning whom
she was in doubt whether or not she was her legal guardian, but
she saw plainly enough that the countess wanted to secure her for
her nephew, and this nephew had about him a certain air of perdition,
which even the catholic heart of Lady Clementina could not brook.
She saw too that, being a mere girl, and having no scope of choice
in the limited circle of their visitors, she was in great danger of
yielding without a struggle, and she longed to take her in charge
like a poor little persecuted kitten, for the possession of which
each of a family of children was contending. What if her father
had belonged to a rowdy set, was that any reason why his innocent
daughter should be devoured, body and soul and possessions, by
those of the same set who had not yet perished in their sins? Lady
Clementina thanked Heaven that she came herself of decent people,
who paid their debts, dared acknowledge themselves in the wrong,
and were as honest as if they had been born peasants; and she hoped
a shred of the mantle of their good name had dropped upon her, big
enough to cover also this poor little thing who had come of no such
parentage. With her passion for redemption therefore, she seized
every chance of improving her acquaintance with Florimel, and
it was her anxiety to gain such a standing in her favour as might
further her coveted ministration, that had prevented her from bringing
her charge of brutality against Malcolm as soon as she discovered
whose groom he was: when she had secured her footing on the peak of
her friendship, she would unburden her soul, and meantime the horse
must suffer for his mistress--a conclusion in itself a great step
in advance, for it went dead against one of her most confidently
argued principles, namely, that the pain of any animal is, in every
sense, of just as much consequence as the pain of any other, human
or inferior: pain is pain, she said; and equal pains are equal
wherever they sting;--in which she would have been right, I think,
if pain and suffering were the same thing; but, knowing well that
the same degree and even the same kind of pain means two very
different things in the foot and in the head, I refuse the proposition.
Happily for Florimel, she had by this time made progress enough
to venture a proposal--namely, that she should accompany her to
a small estate she had on the south coast, with a little ancient
house upon it--a strange place altogether, she said--to spend
a week or two in absolute quiet--only she must come alone--
without even a maid: she would take none herself. This she said
because, with the instinct, if not quite insight, of a true nature,
she could not endure the woman Caley.
"Will you come with me there for a fortnight?" she concluded.
"I shall be delighted," returned Florimel, without a moment
s hesitation. "I am getting quite sick of London. There's no room
in it. And there's the spring all outside, and can't get in here!
I shall be only too glad to go with you, you dear creature!"
"And on those hard terms--no maid, you know?" insisted Clementina.
"The only thing wanted to make the pleasure complete! I shall be
charmed to be rid of her."
"I am glad to see you so independent."
"You don't imagine me such a baby as not to be able to get on
without a maid! You should have seen me in Scotland! I hated having
a woman about me then. And indeed I don't like it a bit better now
--only everybody has one, and your clothes want looking after,"
added Florimel, thinking what a weight it would be off her if she
could get rid of Caley altogether. "--But I should like to take
my horse," she said. "I don't know what I should do in the country
without Abbot."
"Of course; we must have our horses," returned Clementina. "And--
yes--you had better bring your groom."
"Please. You will find him very useful. He can do anything and
everything---and is so kind and helpful!"
"Except to his horse," Clementina was on the point of saying, but
thought again she would first secure the mistress, and bide her
time to attack the man.
Before they parted, the two ladies had talked themselves into
ecstasies over the anticipated enjoyments of their scheme. It must
be carried out at once.
"Let us tell nobody," said Lady Clementina, "and set off tomorrow."
"Enchanting!" cried Florimel, in full response.
Then her brow clouded.
"There is one difficulty, though," she said. "--No man could ride
Kelpie with a led horse; and if we had to employ another, Liftore
would be sure to hear where we had gone."
"That would spoil all," said Clementina. "But how much better it
would be to give that poor creature a rest, and bring the other I
see him on sometimes!"
"And by the time we came back, there would not be a living creature,
horse or man, anything bigger than a rat, about the stable. Kelpie
herself would be dead of hunger, if she hadn't been shot. No, no;
where Malcolm goes Kelpie must go. Besides, she's such fun--you
can't think!"
"Then I'll tell you what!" cried Clementina, after a moment's pause
of perplexity: "we'll ride down! It's not a hundred miles, and we
can take as many days on the road as we please."
"Better and better!" cried Florimel. "We'll run away with each
other.--But what will dear old Bellair say?"
"Never mind her," rejoined Clementina. "She will have nothing to
say. You can write and tell her as much as will keep her from being
really alarmed. Order your man to get everything ready, and I will
instruct mine. He is such a staid old fellow, you know, he will be
quite protection. Tomorrow morning we shall set out together for
a ride in Richmond Park--that lying in our way. You can leave a
letter on the breakfast table, saying you are gone with me for a
little quiet. You're not in chancery--are you?"
"I don't know," answered Florimel. "I suppose I'm all right.--
Any how, whether I'm in chancery or not, here I am, and going with
you; and if chancery don't like it, chancery may come and fetch
me."
"Send anything you think you may want to my house. I shall get a
box ready, and we will write from some town on our way to have it
sent there, and then we can write for it from The Gloom. We shall
find all mere necessaries there."
So the thing was arranged: they would start quite early the next
morning; and that there might be no trouble in the streets, Malcolm
should go before with Kelpie, and wait them in the park.
CHAPTER XXXVIII: THE JOURNEY
Malcolm was overjoyed at the prospect of an escape to the country
--and yet more to find that his mistress wanted to have him with
her--more still to understand, that the journey was to be kept a
secret. Perhaps now, far from both Caley and Liftore, he might say
something to open her eyes; yet how should he avoid the appearance
of a tale bearer?
It was a sweet fresh morning, late in the spring--those loveliest
of hours that unite the seasons, like the shimmering question of
green or blue in the feathers of a peacock. He had set out an hour
before the rest, and now, a little way within the park, was coaxing
Kelpie to stand, that he might taste the morning in peace. The
sun was but a few degrees above the horizon, shining with all his
heart, and the earth was taking the shine with all hers. "I too am
light," she was saying, "although I can but receive it." The trees
were covered with baby leaves, half wrapped in their swaddling clothes,
and their breath was a warm aromatic odour in the glittering air.
The air and the light seemed one, and Malcolm felt as if his soul
were breathing the light into its very depths, while his body was
drinking the soft spicy wind. For Kelpie, she was as full of life
as if she had been meant for a winged horse, but by some accident
of nature the wing cases had never opened, and the wing life was
for ever trying to get out at her feet. The consequent restlessness,
where there was plenty of space as here, caused Malcolm no more
discomposure than, in his old fishing days, a gale with plenty of
sea room. And the song of the larks was one with the light and the
air. The budding of the trees was their way of singing; but the
larks beat them at that. "What a power of joy," thought Malcolm,
"there must be in God, to be able to keep so many larks so full of
bliss!" He was going to say--"without getting tired;" but he saw
that it was the eternal joy itself that bubbled from their little
fountains: weariness there would be the silence of all song, would
be death, utter vanishment to the gladness of the universe. The
sun would go out like a spark upon burnt paper, and the heart of
man would forget the sound of laughter. Then he said to himself:
"The larks do not make their own singing; do mortals make their
own sighing?" And he saw that at least they might open wider the
doors of their hearts to the Perseus Joy that comes to slay the
grief monsters. Then he thought how his life had been widening out
with the years. He could not say that it was now more pleasant than
it had been; he had Stoicism enough to doubt whether it would ever
become so from any mere change of circumstances. Dangers and sufferings
that one is able for, are not misfortunes or even hardships--so
far from such, that youth delights in them. Indeed he sorely missed
the adventure of the herring fishing. Kelpie, however, was as good
as a stiff gale. If only all were well with his sister! Then he
would go back to Portlossie and have fishing enough. But he must be
patient and follow as he was led. At three and twenty, he reflected,
Milton was content to seem to himself but a poor creature, and
was careful only to be ready for whatever work should hereafter be
required of him: such contentment, with such hope and resolve at
the back of it, he saw to be the right and the duty both of every
man. He whose ambition is to be ready when he is wanted, whatever
the work may be, may wait not the less watchful that he is content.
His heart grew lighter, his head clearer, and by the time the two
ladies with their attendant appeared, he felt such a masterdom over
Kelpie as he had never felt before.
They rode twenty miles that day with ease, putting up at the first
town. The next day they rode about the same distance. They next day
they rode nearly thirty miles. On the fourth, with an early start,
and a good rest in the middle, they accomplished a yet greater
distance, and at night arrived at The Gloom, Wastbeach--after
a journey of continuous delight to three at least of the party,
Florimel and Malcolm having especially enjoyed that portion of it
which led through Surrey, where England and Scotland meet and mingle
in waste, heathery moor, and rich valley. Much talk had passed
between the ladies, and Florimel had been set thinking about many
things, though certainly about none after the wisest fashion.
A young half moon was still up when, after riding miles through
pine woods, they at length drew near the house. Long before they
reached it, however, a confused noise of dogs met them in the
forest. Clementina had written to the housekeeper, and every dog
about the place, and the dogs were multitudinous, had been expecting
her all day, had heard the sound of their horses' hoofs miles off
and had at once begun to announce her approach. Nor were the dogs
the only cognisant or expectant animals. Most of the creatures about
the place understood that something was happening, and probably
associated it with their mistress; for almost every live thing
knew her--from the rheumatic cart horse, forty years of age, and
every whit as respectable in Clementina's eyes as her father's old
butler, to the wild cats that haunted the lofts and garrets of the
old Elizabethan hunting lodge.
When they dismounted, the ladies could hardly get into the house
for dogs; those which could not reach their mistress, turned to
Florimel, and came swarming about her and leaping upon her, until,
much as she liked animal favour, she would gladly have used her
whip--but dared not, because of the presence of their mistress.
If the theories of that mistress allowed them anything of a moral
nature, she was certainly culpable in refusing them their right to
a few cuts of the whip.
Mingled with all the noises of dogs and horses, came a soft nestling
murmur that filled up the interspaces of sound which even their
tumult could not help leaving. Florimel was too tired to hear it,
but Malcolm heard it, and it filled all the interspaces of his soul
with a speechless delight. He knew it for the still small voice of
the awful sea.
Florimel scarcely cast a glance around the dark old fashioned room
into which she was shown, but went at once to bed, and when the old
housekeeper carried her something from the supper table at which
she had been expected, she found her already fast asleep. By the
time Malcolm had put Kelpie to rest, he also was a little tired,
and lay awake no moment longer than his sister.
CHAPTER XXXIX: DISCIPLINE
What with rats and mice, and cats and owls, and creaks and cracks,
there was no quiet about the place from night to morning; and what
with swallows and rooks, and cocks and kine, and horses and foals,
and dogs and pigeons and peacocks, and guinea fowls and turkeys
and geese, and every farm creature but pigs, which, with all her
zootrophy, Clementina did not like, no quiet from morning to night.
But if there was no quiet, there was plenty of calm, and the sleep
of neither brother nor sister was disturbed.
Florimel awoke in the sweetest concert of pigeon murmuring, duck
diplomacy, fowl foraging, foal whinnering--the word wants an r in
it--and all the noises of rural life. The sun was shining into
the room by a window far off at the further end, bringing with
him strange sylvan shadows, not at once to be interpreted. He must
have been shining for hours, so bright and steady did he shine.
She sprang out of bed--with no lazy London resurrection of the
old buried, half sodden corpse, sleepy and ashamed, but with the
new birth of the new day, refreshed and strong, like a Hercules
baby. A few aching remnants of stiffness was all that was left of
the old fatigue. It was a heavenly joy to think that no Caley would
come knocking at her door. She glided down the long room to the
sunny window, drew aside the rich old faded curtain, and peeped
out. Nothing but pines and pines--Scotch firs all about and
everywhere! They came within a few yards of the window. She threw
it open. The air was still, the morning sun shone hot upon them,
and the resinous odour exhaled from their bark and their needles
and their fresh buds, filled the room--sweet and clean. There
was nothing, not even a fence, between this wing of the house and
the wood.
All through his deep sleep, Malcolm heard the sound of the sea
--whether of the phantom sea in his soul, or of the world sea to
whose murmurs he had listened with such soft delight as he fell
asleep, matters little the sea was with him in his dreams. But
when he awoke it was to no musical crushing of water drops, no half
articulated tones of animal speech, but to tumult and out cry from
the stables. It was but too plain that he was wanted. Either Kelpie
had waked too soon, or he had overslept himself: she was kicking
furiously. Hurriedly induing a portion of his clothing, he rushed
down and across the yard, shouting to her as he ran, like a nurse
as she runs up the stair to a screaming child. She stopped once to
give an eager whinny, and then fell to again. Griffiths, the groom,
and the few other men about the place, were looking on appalled.
He darted to the corn bin, got a great pottleful of oats, and shot
into her stall. She buried her nose in them like the very demon
of hunger, and he left her for the few moments of peace that would
follow. He must finish his dressing as fast as he could: already,
after four days of travel, which with her meant anything but a
straight forward jog trot struggle with space, she needed a good
gallop! When he returned, he found her just finishing her oats,
and beginning to grow angry with her own nose for getting so near
the bottom of the manger. While yet there was no worse sign, however,
than the fidgetting of her hind quarters, and she was still busy,
he made haste to saddle her. But her unusually obstinate refusal
of the bit, and his difficulty in making her open her unwilling
jaws, gave unmistakable indication of coming conflict. Anxiously
he asked the bystanders after some open place where he might let
her go--fields or tolerably smooth heath, or sandy beach. He dared
not take her through the trees, he said, while she was in such a
humour; she would dash herself to pieces. They told him there was
a road straight from the stables to the shore, and there miles of
pure sand without a pebble. Nothing could be better. He mounted
and rode away.
Florimel was yet but half dressed, when the door of her room opened
suddenly, and Lady Clementina darted in--the lovely chaos of
her night not more than half as far reduced to order as that of
Florimel's. Her moonlight hair, nearly as long as that of the fabled
Godiva, was flung wildly about her in heavy masses. Her eyes were
wild also; she looked like a holy Maenad. With a glide like the
swoop of an avenging angel, she pounced upon Florimel, caught her
by the wrist and pulled her towards the door. Florimel was startled,
but made no resistance. She half led, half dragged her up a stair
that rose from a corner of the hall gallery to the battlements of
a little square tower, whence a few yards of the beach, through a
chain of slight openings amongst the pines, was visible. Upon that
spot of beach, a strange thing was going on--at which afresh
Clementina gazed with indignant horror, but Florimel eagerly stared
with the forward borne eyes of a spectator of the Roman arena. She
saw Kelpie reared on end, striking out at Malcolm with her fore
hoofs, and snapping with angry teeth--then upon those teeth
receive such a blow from his fist that she swerved, and wheeling,
flung her hind hoofs at his head. But Malcolm was too quick for
her; she spent her heels in the air, and he had her by the bit.
Again she reared, and would have struck at him, but he kept well
by her side, and with the powerful bit forced her to rear to her
full height. Just as she was falling backwards, he pushed her head
from him, and bearing her down sideways, seated himself on it the
moment it touched the ground. Then first the two women turned to
each other. An arch of victory bowed Florimel's lip; her eyebrows
were uplifted; the blood flushed her cheek, and darkened the blue
in her wide opened eyes. Lady Clementina's forehead was gathered
in vertical wrinkles over her nose, and all about her eyes was
contracted as if squeezing from them the flame of indignation,
while her teeth and lips were firmly closed. The two made a splendid
contrast. When Clementina's gaze fell on her visitor, the fire
in her eyes burned more angry still: her soul was stirred by the
presence of wrong and cruelty, and here, her guest, and looking her
straight in the eyes, was a young woman, one word from whom would
stop it all, actually enjoying the sight!
"Lady Lossie, I am ashamed of you!" she said, with severest reproof;
and turning from her, she ran down the stair.
Florimel turned again towards the sea. Presently she caught sight
of Clementina glimpsing though the pines, "now in glimmer and now
in gloom," as she sped swiftly to the shore, and, after a few short
minutes of disappearance, saw her emerge upon the space of sand
where sat Malcolm on the head of the demoness. But alas! she could
only see. She could hardly even hear the sound of the tide.
"MacPhail, are you a man?" cried Clementina, startling him so that
in another instant the floundering mare would have been on her feet.
With a right noble anger in her face, and her hair flying like a
wind torn cloud, she rushed out of the wood upon him, where he sat
quietly tracing a proposition of Euclid on the sand with his whip.
"Ay, and a bold one," was on Malcolm's lips for reply, but he
bethought himself in time.
"I am sorry what I am compelled to do should annoy your ladyship,"
he said.
What with indignation and breathless--she had run so fast--
Clementina had exhausted herself in that one exclamation, and stood
panting and staring. The black bulk of Kelpie lay outstretched on
the yellow sand, giving now and then a sprawling kick or a wamble
like a lumpy snake, and her soul commiserated each movement as
if it had been the last throe of dissolution, while the grey fire
of the mare's one visible fierce eye, turned up from the shadow
of Malcolm's superimposed bulk, seemed to her tender heart a mute
appeal for woman's help.
As Malcolm spoke, he cautiously shifted his position, and, half rising,
knelt with one knee where he had sat before, looking observant at
Lady Clementina. The champion of oppressed animality soon recovered
speech.
"Get off the poor creature's head instantly," she said, with dignified
command. "I will permit no such usage of living thing on my ground."
"I am very sorry to seem rude, my lady," answered Malcolm, "but to
obey you would perhaps be to ruin my mistress's property. If the
mare were to break away, she would dash herself to pieces in the
wood."
"You have goaded her to madness."
"I'm the more bound to take care of her then," said Malcolm. "But
indeed it is only temper--such temper, however, that I almost
believe she is at times possessed of a demon."
"The demon is in yourself. There is nothing in her but what your
cruelty has put there. Let her up, I command you."
"I dare not, my lady. If she were to get loose she would tear your
ladyship to pieces."
"I will take my chance."
"But I will not my lady. I know the danger, and have to take care
of you who do not. There is no occasion to be uneasy about the
mare. She is tolerably comfortable. I am not hurting her--not
much. Your ladyship does not reflect how strong a horse's skull
is. And you see what great powerful breaths she draws!"
"She is in agony," cried Clementina.
"Not in the least, my lady. She is only balked of her own way, and
does not like it."
"And what right have you to balk her of her own way? Has she no
right to a mind of her own?"
"She may of course have her mind, but she can't have her way. She
has got a master."
"And what right have you to be her master?"
"That my master, my Lord Lossie, gave me the charge of her."
"I don't mean that sort of right; that goes for nothing. What right
in the nature of things can you have to tyrannize over any creature?"
"None, my lady. But the higher nature has the right to rule the
lower in righteousness. Even you can't have your own way always,
my lady."
"I certainly cannot now, so long as you keep in that position. Pray,
is it in virtue of your being the higher nature that you keep my
way from me?"
"No, my lady. But it is in virtue of right. If I wanted to take
your ladyship's property, your dogs would be justified in refusing
me my way.--I do not think I exaggerate when I say that, if my
mare here had her way, there would not be a living creature about
your house by this day week."
Lady Clementina had never yet felt upon her the power of a stronger
nature than her own. She had had to yield to authority, but never
to superiority. Hence her self will had been abnormally developed.
Her very compassion was self willed. Now for the first time, she
continuing altogether unaware of it, the presence of such a nature
began to operate upon her. The calmness of Malcolm's speech and
the immovable decision of his behaviour told.
"But," she said, more calmly, "your mare has had four long journeys,
and she should have rested today."
"Rest is just the one thing beyond her, my lady. There is a volcano
of life and strength in her you have no conception of. I could
not have dreamed of horse like her. She has never in her life had
enough to do. I believe that is the chief trouble with her. What
we all want, my lady, is a master--a real right master.
I've got one myself; and--"
"You mean you want one yourself," said Lady Clementina. "You've
only got a mistress, and she spoils you."
"That is not what I meant, my lady," returned Malcolm. "But one
thing I know, is, that Kelpie would soon come to grief without me.
I shall keep her here till her half hour is out, and then let her
take another gallop."
Lady Clementina turned away. She was defeated. Malcolm knelt there
on one knee, with a hand on the mare's shoulder, so calm, so
imperturbable, so ridiculously full of argument, that there was
nothing more for her to do or say. Indignation, expostulation, were
powerless upon him as mist upon a rock. He was the oddest, most
incomprehensible of grooms.
Going back to the house, she met Florimel, and turned again with
her to the scene of discipline. Ere they reached it, Florimel's
delight with all around her had done something to restore Clementina's
composure: the place was precious to her, for there she had passed
nearly the whole of her childhood. But to anyone with a heart open
to the expressions of Nature's countenance, the place could not
but have a strange as well as peculiar charm.
Florimel had lost her way. I would rather it had been in
the moonlight, but slant sunlight was next best. It shone through
a slender multitude of mast-like stems, whose shadows complicated
the wonder, while the light seemed amongst them to have gathered
to itself properties appreciable by other organs besides the eyes,
and to dwell bodily with the trees. The soil was mainly of sand,
the soil to delight the long tap roots of the fir trees, covered
above with a thick layer of slow forming mould, in the gradual
odoriferous decay of needles and cones and flakes of bark and knots
of resinous exudation. It grew looser and sandier, and its upper
coat thinner, as she approached the shore. The trees shrunk in
size, stood farther apart, and grew more individual, sending out
knarled boughs on all sides of them, and asserting themselves as
the tall slender branchless ones in the social restraint of the
thicker wood dared not do. They thinned and thinned, and the sea
and the shore came shining through, for the ground sloped to the
beach without any intervening abruption of cliff or even bank; they
thinned and thinned until all were gone, and the bare long yellow
sands lay stretched out on both sides for miles, gleaming and
sparkling in the sun, especially at one spot where the water of
a little stream wandered about over them, as if it had at length
found its home, but was too weary to enter and lose its weariness,
and must wait for the tide to come up and take it. But when Florimel
reached the strand, she could see nothing of the group she sought:
the shore took a little bend, and a tongue of forest came in between.
She was on her way back to the house when she met Clementina, also
returning discomfited. Pleased as she was with them, her hostess
soon interrupted her ecstasies by breaking out in accusation of
Malcolm, not untempered, however, with a touch of dawning respect.
At the same time her report of his words was anything but accurate,
for as no one can be just without love, so no one can truly report
without understanding. But they had not time to discuss him now,
as Clementina insisted on Florimel's putting an immediate stop to
his cruelty.
When they reached the spot, there was the groom again seated on
his animal's head, with a new proposition in the sand before him.
"Malcolm," said his mistress, "let the mare get up. You must let
her off the rest of her punishment this time."
Malcolm rose again to his knee.
"Yes, my lady," he said. "But perhaps your ladyship wouldn't mind
helping me to unbuckle her girths before she gets to her feet. I want
to give her a bath--Come to this side," he went on, as Florimel
advanced to his request, "--round here by her head. If your
ladyship would kneel upon it, that would be best. But you mustn't
move till I tell you."
"I will do anything you bid me--exactly as you say, Malcolm,"
responded Florimel.
"There's the Colonsay blood! I can trust that!" cried Malcolm, with
a pardonable outbreak of pride in his family. Whether most of his
ancestors could so well have appreciated the courage of obedience,
is not very doubtful.
Clementina was shocked at the insolent familiarity of her poor
little friend's groom, but Florimel saw none, and kneeled, as if
she had been in church, on the head of the mare, with the fierce
crater of her fiery brain blazing at her knee. Then Malcolm lifted
the flap of the saddle, undid the buckles of the girths, and drawing
them a little from under her, laid the saddle on the sand, talking
all the time to Florimel, lest a sudden word might seem a direction,
and she should rise before the right moment had come.
"Please, my lady Clementina, will you go to the edge of the wood.
I can't tell what she may do when she gets up. And please, my lady
Florimel, will you run there too, the moment you get off her head."
When he got her rid of the saddle, he gathered the reins together
in his bridle hand, took his whip in the other, and softly and
carefully straddled across her huge barrel without touching her.
"Now, my lady!" he said. "Run for the wood."
Florimel rose and fled, heard a great scrambling behind her, and
turning at the first tree, which was only a few yards off, saw
Kelpie on her hind legs, and Malcolm, whom she had lifted with her,
sticking by his knees on her bare back. The moment her fore feet
touched the ground, he gave her the spur severely, and after one
plunging kick, off they went westward over the sands, away from
the sun; nor did they turn before they had dwindled to such a speck
that the ladies could not have told by their eyes whether it was
moving or not. At length they saw it swerve a little; by and by it
began to grow larger; and after another moment or two they could
distinguish what it was, tearing along towards them like a whirlwind,
the lumps of wet sand flying behind like an upward storm of clods.
What a picture it was only neither of the ladies was calm enough
to see it picturewise: the still sea before, type of the infinite
always, and now of its repose; the still straight solemn wood behind,
like a past world that had gone to sleep--out of which the sand
seemed to come flowing down, to settle in the long sand lake of
the beach; that flameless furnace of life tearing along the shore,
betwixt the sea and the land, between time and eternity, guided,
but only half controlled, by the strength of a higher will; and
the two angels that had issued--whether out of the forest of the
past or the sea of the future, who could tell?--and now stood,
with hand shaded eyes, gazing upon that fierce apparition of terrene
life.
As he came in front of them, Malcolm suddenly wheeled Kelpie, so
suddenly and in so sharp a curve that he made her "turne close to
the ground, like a cat, when scratchingly she wheeles about after
a mouse," as Sir Philip Sidney says, and dashed her straight into
the sea. The two ladies gave a cry, Florimel of delight, Clementina of
dismay, for she knew the coast, and that there it shelved suddenly
into deep water. But that was only the better to Malcolm: it was the
deep water he sought, though he got it with a little pitch sooner
than he expected. He had often ridden Kelpie into the sea at
Portlossie, even in the cold autumn weather when first she came
into his charge, and nothing pleased her better or quieted her more.
He was a heavy weight to swim with, but she displaced much water.
She carried her head bravely, he balanced sideways, and they swam
splendidly. To the eyes of Clementina the mare seemed to be labouring
for her life.
When Malcolm thought she had had enough of it, he turned her head
to the shore. But then came the difficulty. So steeply did the
shore shelve that Kelpie could not get a hold with her hind hoofs
to scramble up into the shallow water. The ladies saw the struggle,
and Clementina, understanding it, was running in an agony right
into the water, with the vain idea of helping them, when Malcolm
threw himself off, drawing the reins over Kelpie's head as he fell,
and swimming but the length of them shorewards, felt the ground
with his feet, and stood, Kelpie, relieved of his weight, floated
a little farther on to the shelf, got a better hold with her fore
feet, some hold with her hind ones, and was beside him in a moment.
The same moment Malcolm was on her back again, and they were
tearing off eastward at full stretch. So far did the lessening point
recede in the narrowing distance, that the two ladies sat down on
the sand, and fell a-talking about Florimel's most uncategorical
groom, as Clementina, herself the most uncategorical of women, to
use her own scarcely justifiable epithet, called him. She asked if
such persons abounded in Scotland. Florimel could but answer that
this was the only one she had met with. Then she told her about
Richmond Park and Lord Liftore and Epictetus.
"Ah, that accounts for him!" said Clementina. "Epictetus was a
Cynic, a very cruel man: he broke his slave's leg once, I remember."
"Mr Lenorme told me that he was the slave, and that his master
broke his leg," said Florimel.
"Ah, yes! I daresay.--That was it. But it is of little consequence:
his principles were severe, and your groom has been his too ready
pupil. It is a pity he is such a savage: he might be quite an
interesting character.--Can he read?"
"I have just told you of his reading Greek over Kelpie's head,"
said Florimel, laughing.
"Ah! but I meant English," said Clementina, whose thoughts were a
little astray. Then laughing at herself she explained "I mean, can
he read aloud? I put the last of the Waverley novels in the box we
shall have tomorrow, or the next day at latest, I hope: and I was
wondering whether he could read the Scotch--as it ought to be
read. I have never heard it spoken, and I don't know how to imagine
it."
"We can try him," said Florimel. "It will be great fun anyhow. He
is such a character! You will be so amused with the remarks he will
make!"
"But can you venture to let him talk to you?"
"If you ask him to read, how will you prevent him? Unfortunately
he has thoughts, and they will out."
"Is there no danger of his being rude?"
"If speaking his mind about anything in the book be rudeness, he
will most likely be rude. Any other kind of rudeness is as impossible
to Malcolm as to any gentleman in the land."
"How can you be so sure of him?" said Clementina, a little anxious
as to the way in which her friend regarded the young man.
"My father was--yes, I may say so--attached to him--so much
so that he--I can't quite say what--but something like made
him promise never to leave my service. And this I know for myself,
that not once, ever since that man came to us, has he done a selfish
thing or one to be ashamed of. I could give you proof after proof
of his devotion."
Florimel's warmth did not reassure Clementina; and her uneasiness
wrought to the prejudice of Malcolm. She was never quite so generous
towards human beings as towards animals. She could not be depended
on for justice except to people in trouble, and then she was very
apt to be unjust to those who troubled them.
"I would not have you place too much confidence in your Admirable
Crichton of menials, Florimel," she said. "There is something about
him I cannot get at the bottom of. Depend upon it, a man who can
be cruel would betray on the least provocation."
Florimel smiled superior--as she had good reason to do; but
Clementina did not understand the smile, and therefore did not
like it. She feared the young fellow had already gained too much
influence over his mistress.
"Florimel, my love," she said, "listen to me. Your experience is
not so ripe as mine. That man is not what you think him. One day
or other he will, I fear, make himself worse than disagreeable.
How can a cruel man be unselfish?"
"I don't think him cruel at all. But then I haven't such a soft
heart for animals as you. We should think it silly in Scotland. You
wouldn't teach a dog manners at the expense of a howl. You would
let him be a nuisance rather than give him a cut with a whip. What
a nice mother of children you will make, Clementina! That's how
the children of good people are so often a disgrace to them."
"You are like all the rest of the Scotch I ever knew," said Lady
Clementina: "the Scotch are always preaching! I believe it is
in their blood. You are a nation of parsons. Thank goodness! my
morals go no farther than doing as I would be done by. I want to
see creatures happy about me. For my own sake even, I would never
cause pang to person--it gives me such a pang myself."
"That's the way you are made, I suppose, Clementina," returned
Florimel. "For me, my clay must be coarser. I don't mind a little
pain myself, and I can't break my heart for it when I see it--
except it be very bad--such as I should care about myself--But
here comes the tyrant."
Malcolm was pulling up his mare some hundred yards off. Even now
she was unwilling to stop--but it was at last only from pure
original objection to whatever was wanted of her. When she did
stand she stood stock still, breathing hard.
"I have actually succeeded in taking a little out of her at last,
my lady," said Malcolm as he dismounted. "Have you got a bit of
sugar in your pocket, my lady? She would take it quite gently now."
Florimel had none, but Clementina had, for she always carried sugar
for her horse. Malcolm held the demoness very watchfully, but she
took the sugar from Florimel's palm as neatly as an elephant, and
let her stroke her nose over her wide red nostrils without showing
the least of her usual inclination to punish a liberty with death.
Then Malcolm rode her home, and she was at peace till the evening
--when he took her out again.
CHAPTER XL: MOONLIGHT
And now followed a pleasant time. Wastbeach was the quietest of
all quiet neighbourhoods; it was the loveliest of spring summer
weather; and the variety of scenery on moor, in woodland, and on
coast, within easy reach of such good horsewomen, was wonderful.
The first day they rested the horses that would rest, but the next
day were in the saddle immediately after an early breakfast. They
took the forest way. In many directions were tolerably smooth rides
cut, and along them they had good gallops, to the great delight
of Florimel after the restraints of Rotten Row, where riding had
seemed like dancing a minuet with a waltz in her heart. Malcolm, so
far as human companionship went, found it dull, for Lady Clementina's
groom regarded him with the contempt of superior age, the most
contemptible contempt of all, seeing years are not the wisdom they
ought to bring, and the first sign of that is modesty. Again and
again his remarks tempted Malcolm to incite him to ride Kelpie, but
conscience, the thought of the man's family, and the remembrance
that it required all his youthful strength, and that it would
therefore be the challenge of the strong to the weak, saved him
from the sin, and he schooled himself to the endurance of middle
aged arrogance. For the learning of the lesson he had practice
enough: they rode every day, and Griffith did not thaw; but the
one thundering gallop he had every morning along the sands with
Kelpie, whom * no ordinary day's work was enough to save from the
heart burning ferment of repressed activity, was both preparation
and amends for the annoyance.
* [According to the grammars, I ought to have written which, but
it will not do. I could, I think, tell why, but prefer leaving the
question to the reader.]
When his mistress mentioned the proposal of her friend with regard
to the new novel, he at once expressed his willingness to attempt
compliance, fearing only, he said, that his English would prove
offensive and his Scotch unintelligible. The task was nowise alarming
to him, for he had read aloud much to the schoolmaster, who had also
insisted that he should read aloud when alone, especially verse,
in order that he might get all the good of its outside as well as
inside--its sound as well as thought, the one being the ethereal
body of the other. And he had the best primary qualifications for
the art, namely, a delight in the sounds of human speech, a value
for the true embodiment of thought, and a good ear, mental as
well as vocal, for the assimilation of sound to sense. After these
came the quite secondary, yet valuable gift of a pleasant voice,
manageable for reflection; and with such an outfit, the peculiarities
of his country's utterance, the long drawn vowels, and the outbreak
of feeling in chant-like tones and modulations, might be forgiven,
and certainly were forgiven by Lady Clementina, who, even in his
presence, took his part against the objections of his mistress. On
the whole, they were so much pleased with his first reading, which
took place the very day the box arrived, that they concluded to
restrain the curiosity of their interest in persons and events,
for the sake of the pleasure of meeting them always in the final
fulness of local colour afforded them by his utterance. While he
read, they busied their fingers with their embroidery; for as yet
that graceful work, so lovelily described by Cowper in his Task,
had not begun to vanish before the crude colours and mechanical
vulgarity of Berlin wool, now happily in its turn vanishing like
a dry dust cloud into the limbo of the art universe:
The well depicted flower,
Wrought patiently into the snowy lawn
Unfolds its bosom; buds, and leaves, and sprigs,
And curling tendrils, gracefully disposed,
Follow the nimble finger of the fair;
A wreath, that cannot fade, of flowers that blow
With most success when all besides decay. *
* ["The Winter Evening."]
There was not much of a garden about the place, but there was a
little lawn amongst the pines, in the midst of which stood a huge
old patriarch, with red stem and grotesquely contorted branches:
beneath it was a bench, and there, after their return from their
two hours' ride, the ladies sat, while the sun was at its warmest,
on the mornings of their first and second readings: Malcolm sat on a
wheelbarrow. After lunch on the second day, which they had agreed
from the first, as ladies so often do, when free of the more
devouring sex, should be their dinner, and after due visits paid
to a multitude of animals, the desire awoke simultaneously in them
for another portion of "St. Ronan's Well." They resolved therefore
to send for their reader as soon as they had had tea. But when they
sent he was nowhere to be found, and they concluded on a stroll.
Anticipating no further requirement of his service that day, Malcolm
had gone out. Drawn by the sea, he took his way through the dim
solemn boughless wood, as if to keep a moonlight tryst with his
early love. But the sun was not yet down, and among the dark trees,
shot through by the level radiance, he wandered, his heart swelling
in his bosom with the glory and the mystery. Again the sun was in
the wood, its burning centre, the marvel of the home which he left
in the morning only to return thither at night, and it was now
a temple of red light, more gorgeous, more dream woven than the
morning. How he glowed on the red stems of the bare pines, fit
pillars for that which seemed temple and rite, organ and anthem in
one--the worship of the earth, uplifted to its Hyperion! It was
a world of faery; anything might happen in it. Who, in that region
of marvel, would start to see suddenly a knight on a great sober
warhorse come slowly pacing down the torrent of carmine splendour,
flashing it, like the Knight of the Sun himself in a flood from
every hollow, a gleam from every flat, and a star from every round
and knob of his armour? As the trees thinned away, and his feet
sank deeper in the looser sand, and the sea broke blue out of the
infinite, talking quietly to itself of its own solemn swell into
being out of the infinite thought unseen, Malcolm felt as if the
world with its loveliness and splendour were sinking behind him,
and the cool entrancing sweetness of the eternal dreamland of the
soul, where the dreams are more real than any sights of the world,
were opening wide before his entering feet.
"Shall not death be like this?" he said, and threw himself upon
the sand, and hid his face and his eyes from it all. For there is
this strange thing about all glory embodied in the material, that,
when the passion of it rises to its height, we hurry from its
presence that its idea may perfect itself in silent and dark and
deaf delight. Of its material self we want no more: its real self
we have, and it sits at the fountain of our tears. Malcolm hid his
face from the source of his gladness, and worshipped the source of
that source.
Rare as they are at any given time, there have been, I think, such
youths in all ages of the world--youths capable of glorying in
the fountain whence issues the torrent of their youthful might.
Nor is the reality of their early worship blasted for us by any
mistral of doubt that may blow upon their spirit from the icy region
of the understanding. The cold fevers, the vital agues that such
winds breed, can but prove that not yet has the sun of the perfect
arisen upon them; that the Eternal has not yet manifested himself
in all regions of their being; that a grander, more obedient,
therefore more blissful, more absorbing worship yet, is possible,
nay, is essential to them. These chills are but the shivers of the
divine nature, unsatisfied, half starved, banished from its home,
divided from its origin, after which it calls in groanings it knows
not how to shape into sounds articulate. They are the spirit wail
of the holy infant after the bosom of its mother. Let no man long
back to the bliss of his youth--but forward to a bliss that
shall swallow even that, and contain it, and be more than it. Our
history moves in cycles, it is true, ever returning toward the point
whence it started; but it is in the imperfect circles of a spiral
it moves; it returns--but ever to a point above the former: even
the second childhood, at which the fool jeers, is the better, the
truer, the fuller childhood, growing strong to cast off altogether,
with the husk of its own enveloping age, that of its family, its
country, its world as well. Age is not all decay: it is the ripening,
the swelling of the fresh life within, that withers and bursts the
husk.
When Malcolm lifted his head, the sun had gone down. He rose and
wandered along the sand towards the moon--at length blooming
out of the darkening sky, where she had hung all day like a washed
out rag of light, to revive as the sunlight faded. He watched the
banished life of her day swoon returning, until, gathering courage,
she that had been no one, shone out fair and clear, in conscious
queendom of the night. Then, in the friendly infolding of her
dreamlight and the dreamland it created, Malcolm's soul revived as
in the comfort of the lesser, the mitigated glory, and, as the moon
into radiance from the darkened air, and the nightingale into music
from the sleep stilled world of birds, blossomed from the speechlessness
of thought and feeling into a strange kind of brooding song. If the
words were half nonsense, the feeling was not the less real. Such
as they were, they came almost of themselves, and the tune came
with them.
Rose o' my hert,
Open yer leaves to the lampin' mune;
Into the curls lat her keek an' dert;
She'll tak' the colour but gi'e ye tune.
Buik o' my brain,
Open yer neuks to the starry signs;
Lat the een o' the holy luik an' strain
An' glimmer an' score atween the lines.
Cup o' my sowl,
Gowd an' diamond an' ruby cup,
Ye're noucht ava but a toom dry bowl,
Till the wine o' the kingdom fill ye up,
Conscience glass,
Mirror the infinite all in thee;
Melt the bounded and make it pass
Into the tideless, shoreless sea.
World of my life,
Swing thee round thy sunny track;
Fire and wind and water and strife--
Carry them all to the glory back.
Ever as he halted for a word, the moonlight, and the low sweet waves
on the sands, filled up the pauses to his ear; and there he lay,
looking up to the sky and the moon and the rose diamond stars, his
thoughts half dissolved in feeling, and his feeling half crystallised
to thought.
Out of the dim wood came two lovely forms into the moonlight, and
softly approached him--so softly that he knew nothing of their
nearness until Florimel spoke.
"Is that MacPhail?" she said.
"Yes, my lady," answered Malcolm, and bounded to his feet
"What were you singing?"
"You could hardly call it singing, my lady. We should call it
crooning in Scotland."
"Croon it again then."
"I couldn't, my lady. It's gone."
"You don't mean to pretend that you were extemporising?"
"I was crooning what came--like the birds, my lady. I couldn't
have done it if I had thought anyone was near."
Then, half ashamed, and anxious to turn the talk from the threshold
of his secret chamber, he said, "Did you ever see a lovelier night,
ladies?"
"Not often, certainly," answered Clementina.
She was not quite pleased and not altogether offended at his
addressing them dually. A curious sense of impropriety in the state
of things bewildered her--she and her friend talking thus, in
the moonlight, on the seashore, doing nothing, with her friend's
groom--and such a groom, his mistress asking him to sing again,
and he addressing them both with a remark on the beauty of the
night! She had braved the world a good deal, but she did not choose
to brave it where nothing was to be had, and she was too honest to
say to herself that the world would never know--that there was
nothing to brave: she was not one to do that in secret to which she
would not hold her face. Yet all the time she had a doubt whether
this young man, whom it would certainly be improper to encourage
by addressing from any level but one of lofty superiority, did
not belong to a higher sphere than theirs; while certainly no man
could be more unpresuming, or less forward even when opposing his
opinion to theirs. Still--if an angel were to come down and take
charge of their horses, would ladies be justified in treating him
as other than a servant?
"This is just the sort of night," Malcolm resumed, "when I could
almost persuade myself I was not quite sure I wasn't dreaming. It
makes a kind of border land betwixt waking and sleeping, knowing
and dreaming, in our brain. In a night like this I fancy we feel
something like the colour of what God feels when he is making the
lovely chaos of a new world, a new kind of world, such as has never
been before."
"I think we had better go in," said Clementina to Florimel, and
turned away.
Florimel made no objection, and they walked towards the wood.
"You really must get rid of him as soon as you can," said Clementina,
when again the moonless night of the pines had received them: "he
is certainly more than half a lunatic. It is almost full moon now,"
she added, looking up. "I have never seen him so bad."
Florimel's clear laugh rang through the wood.
"Don't be alarmed, Clementina," she said. "He has talked like that
ever since I knew him; and if he is mad, at least he is no worse
than he has always been. It is nothing but poetry--yeast on the
brain, my father used to say. We should have a fish poet of him--
a new thing in the world, he said. He would never be cured till he
broke out in a book of poetry. I should be afraid my father would
break the catechism and not rest in his grave till the resurrection,
if I were to send Malcolm away."
For Malcolm, he was at first not a little mazed at the utter blankness
of the wall against which his words had dashed themselves. Then he
smiled queerly to himself, and said:
"I used to think ilka bonny lassie bude to be a poetess--for hoo
sud she be bonnie but by the informin' hermony o' her bein'?--an'
what's that but the poetry o' the Poet, the Makar, as they ca'd a
poet i' the auld Scots tongue?--but haith! I ken better an' waur
noo! There's gane the twa bonniest I ever saw, an' I s' lay my heid
there's mair poetry in auld man faced Miss Horn nor in a dizzin
like them. Ech! but it's some sair to bide. It's sair upon a man to
see a bonny wuman 'at has nae poetry, nae inward lichtsome hermony
in her. But it's dooms sairer yet to come upo' ane wantin' cowmon
sense! Saw onybody ever sic a gran' sicht as my Leddy Clementina!
--an' wha can say but she's weel named frae the hert oot?--as
guid at the hert, I'll sweir, as at the een! but eh me! to hear
the blether o' nonsense 'at comes oot atween thae twa bonny yetts
o' music--an' a' cause she winna gi'e her hert rist an' time
eneuch to grow bigger, but maun aye be settin' at things richt afore
their time, an' her ain fitness for the job! It's sic a faithless
kin' o' a w'y that! I could jist fancy I saw her gaein' a' roon'
the trees o' a simmer nicht, pittin' hiney upo' the peers an' the
peaches, 'cause she cudna lippen to natur' to ripe them sweet eneuch
--only 'at she wad never tak the hiney frae the bees. She's jist
the pictur' o' Natur' hersel' turnt some dementit. I cud jist fancy
I saw her gaein' aboot amo' the ripe corn, on sic a nicht as this
o' the mune, happin' 't frae the frost. An' I s' warran' no ae
mesh in oor nets wad she lea' ohn clippit open gien the twine had
a herrin' by the gills. She's e'en sae pitifu' owre the sinner 'at
she winna gi'e him a chance o' growin' better. I won'er gien she
believes 'at there's ae great thoucht abune a', an' aneth a', an'
roon' a', an' in a'thing. She cudna be in sic a mist o' benevolence
and parritch hertitness gien she cud lippen till a wiser. It's na'e
won'er she kens naething aboot poetry but the meeserable sids an'
sawdist an' leavin's the gran' leddies sing an' ca' sangs! Nae mair
is 't ony won'er she sud tak' me for dementit, gien she h'ard what
I was singin'! only I canna think she did that, for I was but croonin'
till mysel'."--Malcolm was wrong there, for he was singing out
loud and clear.--"That was but a kin' o' an unknown tongue atween
Him an' me an' no anither."
CHAPTER XLI: THE SWIFT
Florimel succeeded so far in reassuring her friend as to the
safety if not sanity of her groom, that she made no objection to
yet another reading from "St Ronan's Well"--upon which occasion
an incident occurred that did far more to reassure her than all
the attestations of his mistress.
Clementina, in consenting, had proposed, it being a warm sunny
afternoon, that they should that time go down to the lake, and sit
with their work on the bank, while Malcolm read. This lake, like
the whole place, and some of the people in it, was rather strange
--not resembling any piece of water that Malcolm at least had ever
seen. More than a mile in length, but quite narrow, it lay on the
seashore--a lake of deep fresh water, with nothing between it and
the sea but a bank of sand, up which the great waves came rolling
in southwesterly winds, one now and then toppling over--to the
disconcerting no doubt of the pikey multitude within.
The head only of the mere came into Clementina's property, and they
sat on the landward side of it, on a sandy bank, among the half
exposed roots of a few ancient firs, where a little stream that
fed the lake had made a small gully, and was now trotting over a
bed of pebbles in the bottom of it. Clementina was describing to
Florimel the peculiarities of the place, how there was no outlet
to the lake, how the water went filtering through the sand into
the sea, how in some parts it was very deep, and what large pike
there were in it. Malcolm sat a little aside as usual, with his
face towards the ladies, and the book open in his hand, waiting a
sign to begin, but looking at the lake, which here was some fifty
yards broad, reedy at the edge, dark and deep in the centre. All
at once he sprang to his feet, dropping the book, ran down to the
brink of the water, undoing his buckled belt and pulling off his
coat as he ran, threw himself over the bordering reeds into the
pool, and disappeared with a great plash.
Clementina gave a scream, and started up with distraction in her
face: she made no doubt that in the sudden ripeness of his insanity
he had committed suicide. But Florimel, though startled by her
friend's cry, laughed, and crowded out assurances that Malcolm
knew well enough what he was about. It was longer, however, than
she found pleasant, before a black head appeared--yards away,
for he had risen at a great slope, swimming towards the other side.
What could he be after? Near the middle he swam more softly, and
almost stopped. Then first they spied a small dark object on the
surface. Almost the same moment it rose into the air. They thought
Malcolm had flung it up. Instantly they perceived that it was a
bird--a swift. Somehow it had dropped into the water, but a lift
from Malcolm's hand had restored it to the air of its bliss.
But instead of turning and swimming back, Malcolm held on, and
getting out on the farther side, ran down the beach and rushed
into the sea, rousing once more the apprehensions of Clementina.
The shore sloped rapidly, and in a moment he was in deep water. He
swam a few yards out, swam ashore again, ran round the end of the
lake, found his coat, and got from it his pocket handkerchief.
Having therewith dried his hands and face, he wrang out the sleeves
of his shirt a little, put on his coat, returned to his place, and
said, as he took up the book and sat down,
"I beg your pardon, my ladies; but just as I heard my Lady Clementina
say pikes, I saw the little swift in the water. There was no time
to lose. Swiftie had but a poor chance."
As he spoke he proceeded to find the place in the book.
"You don't imagine we are going to have you read in such a plight
as that!" cried Clementina.
"I will take good care, my lady. I have books of my own, and I
handle them like babies."
"You foolish man! It is of you in your wet clothes, not of the book
I am thinking," said Clementina indignantly.
"I'm much obliged to you, my lady, but there's no fear of me. You
saw me wash the fresh water out. Salt water never hurts."
"You must go and change nevertheless," said Clementina.
Malcolm looked to his mistress. She gave him a sign to obey, and
he rose. He had taken three steps towards the house when Clementina
recalled him.
"One word, if you please," she said. "How is it that a man who risks
his life for that of a little bird, can be so heartless to a great
noble creature like that horse of yours? I cannot understand it!"
"My lady," returned Malcolm with a smile, "I was no more risking
my life than you would be in taking a fly out of the milk jug. And
for your question, if your ladyship will only think, you cannot fail
to see the difference. Indeed I explained my treatment of Kelpie
to your ladyship that first morning in the park, when you so kindly
rebuked me for it, but I don't think your ladyship listened to a
word I said."
Clementina's face flushed, and she turned to her friend with a "Well!"
in her eyes. But Florimel kept her head bent over her embroidery;
and Malcolm, no further notice being taken of him walked away.
CHAPTER XLII: ST RONAN'S WELL
The next day the reading was resumed, and for several days was
regularly continued. Each day, as their interest grew, longer time
was devoted to it. They were all simple enough to accept what the
author gave them, nor, had a critic of the time been present to
instruct them that in this last he had fallen off, would they have
heeded him much: for Malcolm, it was the first story by the Great
Unknown he had seen. A question however occurring, not of art but
of morals, he was at once on the alert. It arose when they reached
that portion of the tale in which the true heir to an earldom and
its wealth offers to leave all in the possession of the usurper,
on the one condition of his ceasing to annoy a certain lady, whom,
by villainy of the worst, he had gained the power of rendering
unspeakably miserable. Naturally enough, at this point Malcolm's
personal interest was suddenly excited: here were elements strangely
correspondent with the circumstances of his present position. Tyrrel's
offer of acquiescence in things as they were, and abandonment of
his rights, which, in the story, is so amazing to the man of the
world to whom it is first propounded, drew an exclamation of delight
from both ladies--from Clementina because of its unselfishness,
from Florimel because of its devotion: neither of them was at
any time ready to raise a moral question, and least of all where
the heart approved. But Malcolm was interested after a different
fashion from theirs. Often during the reading he had made remarks
and given explanations--not so much to the annoyance of Lady
Clementina as she had feared, for since his rescue of the swift,
she had been more favourably disposed towards him, and had judged
him a little more justly--not that she understood him, but that
the gulf between them had contracted. He paused a moment, then
said:
"Do you think it was right, my ladies? Ought Mr Tyrrel to have made
such an offer?"
"It was most generous of him," said Clementina, not without indignation
--and with the tone of one whose answer should decide the question.
"Splendidly generous," replied Malcolm; "--but--I so well
remember when Mr Graham first made me see that the question of duty
does not always lie between a good thing and a bad thing: there
would be no room for casuistry then, he said. A man has very often
to decide between one good thing and another. But indeed I can hardly
tell without more time to think, whether that comes in here. If a
man wants to be generous, it must at least be at his own expense."
"But surely," said Florimel, not in the least aware that she was
changing sides, "a man ought to hold by the rights that birth and
inheritance give him."
"That is by no means so clear, my lady," returned Malcolm, "as
you seem to think. A man may be bound to hold by things that are
his rights, but certainly not because they are rights. One of the
grandest things in having rights is that, being your rights, you
may give them up--except, of course, they involve duties with
the performance of which the abnegation would interfere."
"I have been trying to think," said Lady Clementina, "what can be
the two good things here to choose between."
"That is the right question, and logically put, my lady," rejoined
Malcolm, who, from his early training, could not help sometimes
putting on the schoolmaster. "The two good things are--let me
see--yes--on the one hand the protection of the lady to whom he
owed all possible devotion of man to woman, and on the other what
he owed to his tenants, and perhaps to society in general--yes
--as the owner of wealth and position. There is generosity on the
one side and dry duty on the other."
"But this was no case of mere love to the lady, I think," said
Clementina. "Did Mr Tyrrel not owe Miss Mowbray what reparation lay
in his power? Was it not his tempting of her to a secret marriage,
while yet she was nothing more than a girl, that brought the mischief
upon her?"
"That is the point," said Malcolm, "that makes the one difficulty.
Still, I do not see how there can be much of a question. He could
have no right to do fresh wrong for the mitigation of the consequences
of preceding wrong--to sacrifice others to atone for injuries
done by himself."
"Where would be the wrong to others?" said Florimel, now back to
her former position. "Why could it matter to tenants or society
which of the brothers happened to be an earl?"
"Only this, that, in the one case, the landlord of his tenants,
the earl in society, would be an honourable man, in the other, a
villain--a difference which might have consequences."
"But," said Lady Clementina, "is not generosity something more than
duty--something higher, something beyond it?"
"Yes," answered Malcolm, "so long as it does not go against duty,
but keeps in the same direction, is in harmony with it. I doubt
much, though, whether, as we grow in what is good, we shall not
come soon to see that generosity is but our duty, and nothing very
grand and beyond it. But the man who chooses to be generous at the
expense of justice, even if he give up at the same time everything
of his own, is but a poor creature beside him who, for the sake of
the right, will not only consent to appear selfish in the eyes of
men, but will go against his own heart and the comfort of those
dearest to him. The man who accepts a crown may be more noble than
he who lays one down and retires to the desert. Of the worthies
who do things by faith, some are sawn asunder, and some subdue
kingdoms. The look of the thing is nothing."
Florimel made a neat little yawn over her work. Clementina's hands
rested a moment in her lap, and she looked thoughtful. But she
resumed her work, and said no more. Malcolm began to read again.
Presently Clementina interrupted him. She had not been listening.
"Why should a man want to be better than his neighbours, any more
than to be richer?" she said, as if uttering her thoughts aloud.
"Why, indeed," responded Malcolm, "except he wants to become a
hypocrite?"
"Then, why do you talk for duty against generosity?"
"Oh!" said Malcolm, for a moment perplexed. He did not at once
catch the relation of her ideas. "Does a man ever do his duty," he
rejoined at length, "in order to be better than his neighbours."
If he does, he won't do it long. A man does his duty because he
must. He has no choice but do it."
"If a man has no choice, how is it that so many men choose to do
wrong?" asked Clementina.
"In virtue of being slaves and stealing the choice," replied Malcolm.
"You are playing with words," said Clementina.
"If I am, at least I am not playing with things," returned Malcolm.
"If you like it better, my lady, I will say that, in declaring he
has no choice, the man with all his soul chooses the good, recognizing
it as the very necessity of his nature."
"If I know in myself that I have a choice, all you say goes for
nothing," persisted Clementina. "I am not at all sure I would not
do wrong for the sake of another. The more one preferred what was
right, the greater would be the sacrifice."
"If it was for the grandeur of it, my lady, that would be for the
man's own sake, not his friend's."
"Leave that out then," said Clementina.
"The more a man loved another, then--say a woman, as here in
the story--it seems to me, the more willing would he be that she
should continue to suffer rather than cease by wrong. Think, my
lady: the essence of wrong is injustice: to help another by wrong
is to do injustice to somebody you do not know well enough to love
for the sake of one you do know well enough to love. What honest
man could think of that twice? The woman capable of accepting such
a sacrifice would be contemptible."
"She need not know of it."
"He would know that she needed but to know of it to despise him."
"Then might it not be noble in him to consent for her sake to be
contemptible in her eyes?"
"If no others were concerned. And then there would be no injustice,
therefore nothing wrong, and nothing contemptible."
"Might not what he did be wrong in the abstract, without having
reference to any person?"
"There is no wrong man can do but is a thwarting of the living
Right. Surely you believe, my lady, that there is a living Power
of right, whose justice is the soul of our justice, who will have
right done, and causes even our own souls to take up arms against
us when we do wrong."
"In plain language, I suppose you mean--Do I believe in a God?"
"That is what I mean, if by a God you mean a being who cares about
us, and loves justice--that is, fair play--one whom therefore
we wrong to the very heart when we do a thing that is not just."
"I would gladly believe in such a being, if things were so that
I could. As they are, I confess it seems to me the best thing to
doubt it. I do doubt it very much. How can I help doubting it, when
I see so much suffering, oppression, and cruelty in the world? If
there were such a being as you say, would he permit the horrible
things we hear of on every hand?"
"I used to find that a difficulty. Indeed it troubled me sorely
until I came to understand things better. I remember Mr Graham
saying once something like this--I did not understand it for
months after: 'Every kind hearted person who thinks a great deal of
being comfortable, and takes prosperity to consist in being well
off must be tempted to doubt the existence of a God.--And perhaps
it is well they should be so tempted,' he added."
"Why did he add that?"
"I think because such are in danger of believing in an evil God.
And if men believed in an evil God, and had not the courage to defy
him, they must sink to the very depths of savagery. At least that
is what I ventured to suppose he meant."
Clementina opened her eyes wide, but said nothing. Religious people,
she found, could think as boldly as she.
"I remember all about it so well!" Malcolm added, thoughtfully.
"We had been talking about the Prometheus of AEschylus--how he
would not give in to Jupiter."
"I am trying to understand," said Clementina, and ceased--and
a silence fell which for a few moments Malcolm could not break.
For suddenly he felt as if he had fallen under the power of a
spell. Something seemed to radiate from her silence which invaded
his consciousness. It was as if the wind which dwells in the tree
of life had waked in the twilight of heaven, and blew upon his
spirit. It was not that now first he saw that she was beautiful;
the moment his eyes fell upon her that morning in the park, he saw
her beautiful as he had never seen woman before. Neither was it
that now first he saw her good, even in that first interview her
heart had revealed itself to him as very lovely. But the foolishness
which flowed from her lips, noble and unselfish as it was, had barred
the way betwixt his feelings and her individuality as effectually
as if she had been the loveliest of Venuses lying uncarved in the
lunar marble of Carrara. There are men to whom silliness is an
absolute freezing mixture; to whose hearts a plain, sensible woman
at once appeals as a woman, while no amount of beauty can serve as
sweet oblivious antidote to counteract the nausea produced by folly.
Malcolm had found Clementina irritating, and the more irritating
that she was so beautiful. But at the first sound from her lips that
indicated genuine and truthful thought, the atmosphere had begun
to change; and at the first troubled gleam in her eyes, revealing
that she pursued some dim seen thing of the world of reality, a
nameless potency throbbed into the spiritual space betwixt her and
him, and embraced them in an aether of entrancing relation. All
that had been needed to awake love to her was, that her soul, her
self should look out of its windows--and now he had caught a
glimpse of it. Not all her beauty, not all her heart, not all her
courage, could draw him while she would ride only a hobby horse,
however tight its skin might be stuffed with emotions. But now who
could tell how soon she might be charging in the front line of the
Amazons of the Lord--on as real a horse as any in the heavenly
army? For was she not thinking--the rarest human operation in
the world?
"I will try to speak a little more clearly, my lady," said Malcolm.
"If ease and comfort, and the pleasures of animal and intellectual
being, were the best things to be had, as they are the only things
most people desire, then that maker who did not care that his
creatures should possess or were deprived of such, could not be a
good God. But if the need with the lack of such things should be
the means, the only means, of their gaining something in
its very nature so much better that--"
"But," interrupted Clementina, "if they don't care about anything
better--if they are content as they are?"
"Should he then who called them into existence be limited in his
further intents for the perfecting of their creation, by their
notions concerning themselves who cannot add to their life one
cubit?--such notions being often consciously dishonest? If he
knows them worthless without something that he can give, shall he
withhold his hand because they do not care that he should stretch
it forth? Should a child not be taught to ride because he is content
to run on foot?"
"But the means, according to your own theory, are so frightful!"
said Clementina.
"But suppose he knows that the barest beginnings of the good he
intends them would not merely reconcile them to those means, but
cause them to choose his will at any expense of suffering! I tell
you, Lady Clementina," continued Malcolm, rising, and approaching
her a step or two, "if I had not the hope of one day being good
like God himself, if I thought there was no escape out of the wrong
and badness I feel within me and know I am not able to rid myself
of without supreme help, not all the wealth and honours of the
world could reconcile me to life."
"You do not know what you are talking of," said Clementina, coldly
and softly, without lifting her head.
"I do," said Malcolm.
"You mean you would kill yourself but for your belief in God?"
"By life, I meant being, my lady. If there were no God, I dared
not kill myself, lest worse should be waiting me in the awful voids
beyond. If there be a God, living or dying is all one--so it be
what he pleases."
"I have read of saints," said Clementina, with cool dissatisfaction
in her tone, "uttering such sentiments--"
"Sentiments!" said Malcolm to himself.
"--and I do not doubt such were felt or at least imagined by them;
but I fail to understand how, even supposing these things true,
a young man like yourself should, in the midst of a busy
world, and with an occupation which, to say the least,--"
Here she paused. After a moment Malcolm ventured to help her.
"Is so far from an ideal one--would you say, my lady?"
"Something like that," answered Clementina, and concluded, "I wonder
how you can have arrived at such ideas."
"There is nothing wonderful in it, my lady," returned Malcolm.
"Why should not a youth, a boy, a child, for as a child I thought
about what the kingdom of heaven could mean, desire with all his
might that his heart and mind should be clean, his will strong,
his thoughts just, his head clear, his soul dwelling in the place
of life? Why should I not desire that my life should be a complete
thing, and an outgoing of life to my neighbour? Some people are
content not to do mean actions: I want to become incapable of a
mean thought or feeling; and so I shall be before all is done."
"Still, how did you come to begin so much earlier than others?"
"All I know as to that, my lady, is that I had the best man in the
world to teach me."
"And why did not I have such a man to teach me? I could have learned
of such a man too."
"If you are able now, my lady, it does not follow that it would
have been the best thing for you sooner. Some children learn far
better for not being begun early, and will get before others who
have been at it for years. As you grow ready for it, somewhere
or other you will find what is needful for you--in a book, or a
friend, or, best of all in your own thoughts--the eternal thought
speaking in your thought."
It flashed through her mind, "Can it be that I have found it now
--on the lips of a groom?"
Was it her own spirit or another that laughed strangely within her?
"Well, as you seem to know so much better than other people," she
said, "I want you to explain to me how the God in whom you profess
to believe can make use of such cruelties. It seems to me more like
the revelling of a demon."
"My lady!" remonstrated Malcolm, "I never pretended to explain. All
I say is, that, if I had reason for hoping there was a God, and if
I found, from my own experience and the testimony of others, that
suffering led to valued good, I should think, hope, expect to
find that he caused suffering for reasons of the highest, purest
and kindest import, such as when understood must be absolutely
satisfactory to the sufferers themselves. If a man cannot believe
that, and if he thinks the pain the worst evil of all, then of
course he cannot believe there is a good God. Still, even then,
if he would lay claim to being a lover of truth, he ought to give
the idea--the mere idea of God fair play, lest there should be
a good God after all, and he all his life doing him the injustice
of refusing him his trust and obedience."
"And how are we to give the mere idea of him fair play?" asked
Clementina, rather contemptuously. But I think she was fighting
emotion, confused and troublesome.
"By looking to the heart of whatever claims to be a revelation of
him."
"It would take a lifetime to read the half of such."
"I will correct myself, and say--whatever of the sort has best
claims on your regard--whatever any person you look upon as
good, believes and would have you believe--at the same time doing
diligently what you know to be right; for, if there be a God, that
must be his will, and, if there be not, it remains our duty."
All this time, Florimel was working away at her embroidery, a little
smile of satisfaction flickering on her face. She was pleased to
hear her clever friend talking so with her strange vassal. As to
what they were saying, she had no doubt it was all right, but to
her it was not interesting. She was mildly debating with herself
whether she should tell her friend about Lenorme.
Clementina's work now lay on her lap and her hands on her work,
while her eyes at one time gazed on the grass at her feet, at
another searched Malcolm's face with a troubled look. The light of
Malcolm's candle was beginning to penetrate into her dusky room,
the power of his faith to tell upon the weakness of her unbelief.
There is no strength in unbelief. Even the unbelief of what is
false is no source of might. It is the truth shining from behind
that gives the strength to disbelieve. But into the house where
the refusal of the bad is followed by no embracing of the good--
the house empty and swept and garnished--the bad will return,
bringing with it seven evils that are worse.
If something of that sacred mystery, holy in the heart of the
Father, which draws together the souls of man and woman, was at work
between them, let those scoff at the mingling of love and religion
who know nothing of either; but man or woman who, loving woman or
man, has never in that love lifted the heart to the Father, and
everyone whose divine love has not yet cast at least an arm round
the human love, must take heed what they think of themselves, for
they are yet but paddlers in the tide of the eternal ocean. Love
is a lifting no less than a swelling of the heart, What changes,
what metamorphoses, transformations, purifications, glorifications,
this or that love must undergo ere it take its eternal place in
the kingdom of heaven, through all its changes yet remaining, in
its one essential root, the same, let the coming redemption reveal.
The hope of all honest lovers will lead them to the vision. Only
let them remember that love must dwell in the will as well as in
the heart.
But whatever the nature of Malcolm's influence upon Lady Clementina,
she resented it, thinking towards and speaking to him repellently.
Something in her did not like him. She knew he did not approve of
her, and she did not like being disapproved of. Neither did she
approve of him. He was pedantic--and far too good for an honest
and brave youth: not that she could say she had seen dishonesty or
cowardice in him, or that she could have told which vice she would
prefer to season his goodness withal, and bring him to the level
of her ideal. And then, for all her theories of equality, he was
a groom--therefore to a lady ought to be repulsive--at least
when she found him intruding into the chambers of her thoughts
--personally intruding--yes, and met there by some traitorous
feelings whose behaviour she could not understand. She resented
it all, and felt towards Malcolm as if he were guilty of forcing
himself into the sacred presence of her bosom's queen--whereas it
was his angel that did so, his Idea, over which he had no control.
Clementina would have turned that Idea out, and when she found she
could not, her soul started up wrathful, in maidenly disgust with
her heart, and cast resentment upon everything in him whereon it would
hang. She had not yet, however, come to ask herself any questions;
she had only begun to fear that a woman to whom a person from the
stables could be interesting, even in the form of an unexplained
riddle, must be herself a person of low tastes; and that, for all
her pride in coming of honest people, there must be a drop of bad
blood in her somewhere.
For a time her eyes had been fixed on her work, and there had been
silence in the little group.
"My lady!" said Malcolm, and drew a step nearer to Clementina.
She looked up. How lovely she was with the trouble in her eyes!
Thought Malcolm, "If only she were what she might be! If the form
were but filled with the spirit! the body with life!"
"My lady!" he repeated, just a little embarrassed, "I should like
to tell you one thing that came to me only lately--came to me
when thinking over the hard words you spoke to me that day in the
park. But it is something so awful that I dare not speak of it
except you will make your heart solemn to hear it."
He stopped, with his eyes questioning hers. Clementina's first
thought once more was madness, but as she steadily returned his
look, her face grew pale, and she gently bowed her head in consent.
"I will try then," said Malcolm. "--Everybody knows what few
think about, that once there lived a man who, in the broad face
of prejudiced respectability, truth hating hypocrisy, commonplace
religion, and dull book learning, affirmed that he knew the secret
of life, and understood the heart and history of men--who wept
over their sorrows, yet worshipped the God of the whole earth,
saying that he had known him from eternal days. The same said that
he came to do what the Father did, and that he did nothing but what
he had learned of the Father. They killed him, you know, my lady,
in a terrible way that one is afraid even to think of. But he
insisted that he laid down his life; that he allowed them to take
it. Now I ask whether that grandest thing, crowning his life, the
yielding of it to the hand of violence, he had not learned also from
his Father. Was his death the only thing he had not so learned? If
I am right, and I do not say if in doubt, then the suffering of
those three terrible hours was a type of the suffering of the Father
himself in bringing sons and daughters through the cleansing and
glorifying fires, without which the created cannot be made the very
children of God, partakers of the divine nature and peace. Then
from the lowest, weakest tone of suffering, up to the loftiest
pitch, the divinest acme of pain, there is not one pang to which
the sensorium of the universe does not respond; never an untuneful
vibration of nerve or spirit but thrills beyond the brain or the
heart of the sufferer to the brain, the heart of the universe;
and God, in the simplest, most literal, fullest sense, and not by
sympathy alone, suffers with his creatures."
"Well, but he is able to bear it; they are not: I cannot bring
myself to see the right of it."
"Nor will you, my lady, so long as you cannot bring yourself to
see the good they get by it.--My lady, when I was trying my best
with poor Kelpie, you would not listen to me."
"You are ungenerous," said Clementina, flushing.
"My lady," persisted Malcolm, "you would not understand me. You
denied me a heart because of what seemed in your eyes cruelty. I
knew that I was saving her from death at the least, probably from
a life of torture: God may be good, though to you his government may
seem to deny it. There is but one way God cares to govern--the
way of the Father King--and that way is at hand.--But I have yet
given you only the one half of my theory: If God feels pain, then
he puts forth his will to bear and subject that pain; if the pain
comes to him from his creature, living in him, will the endurance
of God be confined to himself, and not, in its turn, pass beyond
the bounds of his individuality, and react upon the sufferer to his
sustaining? I do not mean that sustaining which a man feels from
knowing his will one with God's and God with him, but such sustaining
as those his creatures also may have who do not or cannot know
whence the sustaining comes. I believe that the endurance of God
goes forth to uphold, that his patience is strength to his creatures,
and that, while the whole creation may well groan, its suffering
is more bearable therefore than it seems to the repugnance of our
regard."
"That is a dangerous doctrine," said Clementina.
"Will it then make the cruel man more cruel to be told that God
is caring for the tortured creature from the citadel of whose life
he would force an answer to save his own from the sphinx that must
at last devour him, let him answer ever so wisely? Or will it make
the tender less pitiful to be consoled a little in the agony of
beholding what they cannot alleviate? Many hearts are from sympathy
as sorely in need of comfort as those with whom they suffer. And
to such I have one word more--to your heart, my lady, if it will
consent to be consoled: The animals, I believe, suffer less than
we, because they scarcely think of the past, and not at all of the
future. It is the same with children, Mr Graham says they suffer less
than grown people, and for the same reason. To get back something
of this privilege of theirs, we have to be obedient and take no
thought for the morrow."
Clementina took up her work. Malcolm walked away.
"Malcolm," cried his mistress, "are you not going on with the book?"
"I hope your ladyship will excuse me," said Malcolm. "I would rather
not read more just at present."
It may seem incredible that one so young as Malcolm should have
been able to talk thus, and indeed my report may have given words
more formal and systematic than his really were. For the matter of
them, it must be remembered that he was not young in the effort to
do and understand; and that the advantage to such a pupil of such
a teacher as Mr Graham is illimitable.
CHAPTER XLIII: A PERPLEXITY
After Malcolm's departure, Clementina attempted to find what
Florimel thought of the things her strange groom had been saying:
she found only that she neither thought at all about them, nor had
a single true notion concerning the matter of their conversation.
Seeking to interest her in it and failing, she found however that
she had greatly deepened its impression upon herself.
Florimel had not yet quite made up her mind whether or not she
should open her heart to Clementina, but she approached the door
of it in requesting her opinion upon the matter of marriage between
persons of social conditions widely parted--"frightfully sundered,"
she said. Now Clementina was a radical of her day, a reformer,
a leveller--one who complained bitterly that some should be so
rich, and some so poor. In this she was perfectly honest. Her own
wealth, from a vague sense of unrighteousness in the possession of
it, was such a burden to her, that she threw it away where often
it made other people stumble if not fall. She professed to regard
all men as equal, and believed that she did so. She was powerful
in her contempt of the distinctions made between certain of the
classes, but had signally failed in some bold endeavours to act as
if they had no existence except in the whims of society. As yet no
man had sought her nearer regard for whom she would deign to cherish
even friendship. As to marriage, she professed, right honestly, an
entire disinclination, even aversion to it, saying to herself that
if ever she should marry it must be, for the sake of protest and
example, one notably beneath her in social condition. He must be a
gentleman, but his claims to that rare distinction should lie only
in himself, not his position, in what he was, not what he had. But
it is one thing to have opinions, and another to be called upon to
show them beliefs; it is one thing to declare all men equal, and
another to tell the girl who looks up to you for advice, that she
ought to feel herself at perfect liberty to marry--say a groom;
and when Florimel proposed the general question, Clementina might
well have hesitated. And indeed she did hesitate--but in vain
she tried to persuade herself that it was solely for the sake of
her young and inexperienced friend that she did so. As little could
she honestly say that it was from doubt of the principles she had
so long advocated. Had Florimel been open with her, and told her
what sort of inferior was in her thoughts, instead of representing
the gulf between them as big enough to swallow the city of Rome;
had she told her that he was a gentleman, a man of genius and gifts,
noble and large hearted, and indeed better bred than any other man
she knew, the fact of his profession would only have clenched Lady
Clementina's decision in his favour; and if Florimel had been honest
enough to confess the encouragement she had given him--nay, the
absolute love passages there had been, Clementina would at once have
insisted that her friend should write an apology for her behaviour
to him, should dare the dastard world, and offer to marry him when
he would. But, Florimel putting the question as she did, how should
Clementina imagine anything other than that it referred to Malcolm?
and a strange confusion of feeling was the consequence. Her thoughts
heaved in her like the half shaped monsters of a spiritual chaos,
and amongst them was one she could not at all identify. A direct
answer she found impossible. She found also that in presence
of Florimel, so much younger than herself, and looking up to her
for advice, she dared not even let the questions now pressing for
entrance appear before her consciousness. She therefore declined
giving an answer of any sort--was not prepared with one, she
said; much was to be considered; no two cases were just alike.
They were summoned to tea, after which she retired to her room, shut
the door, and began to think--an operation which, seldom easy if
worth anything, was in the present case peculiarly difficult, both
because Clementina was not used to it, and the subject object of
it was herself. I suspect that self examination is seldom the most
profitable, certainly it is sometimes the most unpleasant, and
always the most difficult of moral actions--that is, to perform
after a genuine fashion. I know that very little of what passes
for it has the remotest claim to reality; and I will not say it has
never to be done; but I am certain that a good deal of the energy
spent by some devout and upright people on trying to understand
themselves and their own motives, would be expended to better
purpose, and with far fuller attainment even in regard to that object
itself, in the endeavour to understand God, and what he would have
us to do.
Lady Clementina's attempt was as honest as she dared make it. It
went something after this fashion:
"How is it possible I should counsel a young creature like that,
with all her gifts and privileges, to marry a groom--to bring
the stable into her chamber? If I did--if she did, has she the
strength to hold her face to it?--Yes, I know how different he
is from any other groom that ever rode behind a lady! but does she
understand him? Is she capable of such a regard for him as could
outlast a week of closer intimacy? At her age it is impossible she
should know what she was doing in daring such a thing. It would
be absolute ruin to her. And how could I advise her to do what I
could not do myself?--But then if she's in love with him?"
She rose and paced the room--not hurriedly--she never did anything
hurriedly--but yet with unleisurely steps, until, catching sight
of herself in the glass, she turned away as from an intruding and
unwelcome presence, and threw herself on her couch, burying her
face in the pillow. Presently, however, she rose again, her face
glowing, and again walked up and down the room--almost swiftly
now. I can but indicate the course of her thoughts.
"If what he says be true!--It opens another and higher life.
--What a man he is! and so young!--Has he not convicted me of
feebleness and folly, and made me ashamed of myself?--What better
thing could man or woman do for another than lower her in her own
haughty eyes, and give her a chance of becoming such as she had
but dreamed of the shadow of?--He is a gentleman--every inch!
Hear him talk!--Scotch, no doubt,--and--well--a little
long winded--a bad fault at his age! But see him ride!--see
him swim!--and to save a bird!--But then he is hard--severe
at best! All religious people are so severe! They think they are
safe themselves, and so can afford to be hard on others! He would
serve his wife the same as his mare if he thought she required
it!--And I have known women for whom it might be the best thing.
I am a fool! a soft hearted idiot! He told me I would give a baby
a lighted candle if it cried for it--Or didn't he? I believe he
never uttered a word of the sort; he only thought it"--As she
said this, there came a strange light in her eyes, and the light
seemed to shine from all around them as well as from the orbs
themselves.
Suddenly she stood still as a statue in the middle of the room, and
her face grew white as the marble of one. For a minute she stood
thus--without a definite thought in her brain. The first that
came was something like this: "Then Florimel does love him!--and
wants help to decide whether she shall marry him or not! Poor weak
little wretch!--Then if I were in love with him, I would marry
him--would I?--It is well, perhaps, that I'm not!--But she!
he is ten times too good for her! He would be utterly thrown away
on her! But I am her counsel, not his; and what better could come
to her than have such a man for a husband; and instead of that
contemptible Liftore, with his grand earldom ways and proud nose!
He has little to be proud of that must take to his rank for it!
Fancy a right man condescending to be proud of his own rank! Pooh!
But this groom is a man! all a man! grand from the centre out, as
the great God made him!--Yes, it must be a great God that made
such a man as that!--that is, if he is the same he looks--the
same all through!--Perhaps there are more Gods than one, and one
of them is the devil, and made Liftore! But am I bound to give her
advice? Surely not! I may refuse. And rightly too! A woman that
marries from advice, instead of from a mighty love, is wrong. I
need not speak. I shall just tell her to consult her own heart--
and conscience, and follow them.--But, gracious me! Am I then going
to fall in love with the fellow?--this stable man who pretends
to know his maker!"
"Certainly not. There is nothing of the kind in my thoughts.
Besides, how should I know what falling in love means? I never was
in love in my life, and don't mean to be. If I were so foolish as
imagine myself in any danger, would I be such a fool as be caught
in it? I should think not indeed! What if I do think of this man
in a way I never thought of anyone before, is there anything odd
in that? How should I help it when he is unlike anyone I ever saw
before? One must think of people as one finds them. Does it follow
that I have power over myself no longer, and must go where any
chance feeling may choose to lead me?"
Here came a pause. Then she started, and once more began walking
up and down the room, now hurriedly indeed.
"I will not have it!" she cried aloud--and checked herself, dashed
at the sound of her own voice. But her soul went on loud enough for
the thought universe to hear. "There can't be a God, or he would
never subject his women to what they don't choose. If a God had
made them, he would have them queens over themselves at least--
and I will be queen, and then perhaps a God did make me. A slave
to things inside myself!--thoughts and feelings I refuse, and
which I ought to have control over! I don't want this in me, yet I
can't drive it out! I will drive it out. It is not me. A slave on
my own ground! worst slavery of all!--It will not go.--That must
be because I do not will it strong enough. And if I don't will it
--my God!--what does that mean?--That I am a slave already?"
Again she threw herself on her couch, but only to rise and yet
again pace the room.
"Nonsense! it is not love. It is merely that nobody could help
thinking about one who had been so much before her mind for so long
--one too who had made her think. Ah! there, I do believe, lies
the real secret of it all!--There's the main cause of my trouble
--and nothing worse! I must not be foolhardy though, and remain in
danger, especially as, for anything I can tell, he may be in love
with that foolish child. People, they say, like people that are
not at all like themselves. Then I am sure he might like me!--She
seems to be in love with him! I know she cannot be half a quarter
in real love with him: it's not in her."
She did not rejoin Florimel that evening: it was part of the
understanding between the ladies that each should be at absolute
liberty. She slept little during the night, starting awake as
often as she began to slumber, and before the morning came was a
good deal humbled. All sorts of means are kept at work to make the
children obedient and simple and noble. Joy and sorrow are servants
in God's nursery; pain and delight, ecstasy and despair minister in
it; but amongst them there is none more marvellous in its potency
than that mingling of all pains and pleasures to which we specially
give the name of Love.
When she appeared at breakfast, her countenance bore traces of her
suffering, but a headache, real enough, though little heeded in
the commotion upon whose surface it floated, gave answer to the not
very sympathetic solicitude of Florimel. Happily the day of their
return was near at hand. Some talk there had been of protracting
their stay, but to that Clementina avoided any farther allusion.
She must put an end to an intercourse which she was compelled to
admit was, at least, in danger of becoming dangerous. This much she
had with certainty discovered concerning her own feelings, that her
heart grew hot and cold at the thought of the young man belonging
more to the mistress who could not understand him than to herself
who imagined she could; and it wanted no experience in love to see
that it was therefore time to be on her guard against herself, for
to herself she was growing perilous.
CHAPTER XLIV: THE MIND OF THE AUTHOR
The next was the last day of the reading. They must finish the
tale that morning, and on the following set out to return home,
travelling as they had come. Clementina had not the strength of mind
to deny herself that last indulgence--a long four days' ride in
the company of this strangest of attendants. After that, if not
the deluge, yet a few miles of Sahara.
"' It is the opinion of many that he has entered into a Moravian
mission, for the use of which he had previously drawn considerable
sums,'" read Malcolm, and paused, with book half closed.
"Is that all?" asked Florimel.
"Not quite, my lady," he answered. "There isn't much more, but
I was just thinking whether we hadn't come upon something worth a
little reflection--whether we haven't here a window into the mind
of the author of Waverley, whoever he may be, Mr Scott, or another."
"You mean?" said Clementina, interrogatively, and looked up from
her work, but not at the speaker.
"I mean, my lady, that perhaps we here get a glimpse of the author's
own opinions, or feelings rather, perhaps."
"I do not see what of the sort you can find there," returned
Clementina.
"Neither should I, my lady, if Mr Graham had not taught me how to
find Shakspere in his plays. A man's own nature, he used to say,
must lie at the heart of what he does, even though not another man
should be sharp enough to find him there. Not a hypocrite, the most
consummate, he would say, but has his hypocrisy written in every
line of his countenance and motion of his fingers. The heavenly
Lavaters can read it, though the earthly may not be able."
"And you think you can find him out?" said Clementina, dryly.
"Not the hypocrite, my lady, but Mr Scott here. He is only round
a single corner. And one thing is--he believes in a God."
"How do you make that out?"
"He means this Mr Tyrrel for a fine fellow, and on the whole approves
of him--does he not, my lady?"
"Certainly."
"Of course all that duelling is wrong. But then Mr Scott only half
disapproves of it.--And it is almost a pity it is wrong," remarked
Malcolm with a laugh; "it is such an easy way of settling some
difficult things. Yet I hate it. It's so cowardly. I may be a
better shot than the other, and know it all the time. He may know
it too, and have twice my courage. And I may think him in the
wrong, when he knows himself in the right.--There is one man I
have felt as if I should like to kill. When I was a boy I killed
the cats that ate my pigeons."
A look of horror almost distorted Lady Clementina's countenance.
"I don't know what to say next, my lady," he went on, with a smile,
"because I have no way of telling whether you looked shocked for
the cats I killed, or the pigeons they killed, or the man I would
rather see killed than have him devour more of my--white doves,"
he concluded sadly, with a little shake of the head.--"But, please
God," he resumed, "I shall manage to keep them from him, and let
him live to be as old as Methuselah if he can, even if he should
grow in cunning and wickedness all the time. I wonder how he will
feel when he comes to see what a sneaking cat he is. But this is
not what we set out for.--Mr Tyrrel, then, the author's hero,
joins the Moravians at last."
"What are they?" questioned Clementina.
"Simple, good, practical Christians, I believe," answered Malcolm.
"But he only does it when disappointed in love."
"No, my lady; he is not disappointed. The lady is only dead."
Clementina stared a moment--then dropped her head as if she
understood. Presently she raised it again and said,
"But, according to what you said the other day, in doing so he was
forsaking altogether the duties of the station in which God had
called him."
"That is true. It would have been a far grander thing to do his
duty where he was, than to find another place and another duty. An
earldom allotted is better than a mission preferred."
"And at least you must confess," interrupted Clementina, "that he
only took to religion because he was unhappy."
"Certainly, my lady, it is the nobler thing to seek God in the days
of gladness, to look up to him in trustful bliss when the sun is
shining. But if a man be miserable, if the storm is coming down
on him, what is he to do? There is nothing mean in seeking God
then, though it would have been nobler to seek him before.--But
to return to the matter in hand: the author of Waverley makes his
noble hearted hero, whom assuredly he had no intention of disgracing,
turn Moravian; and my conclusion from it is that, in his judgment,
nobleness leads in the direction of religion; that he considers
it natural for a noble mind to seek comfort there for its deepest
sorrows."
"Well, it may be so; but what is religion without consistency in
action?" said Clementina.
"Nothing," answered Malcolm.
"Then how can you, professing to believe as you do, cherish such
feelings towards any man as you have just been confessing?"
"I don't cherish them, my lady. But I succeed in avoiding hate better
than suppressing contempt, which perhaps is the worse of the two.
There may be some respect in hate."
Here he paused, for here was a chance that was not likely to recur.
He might say before two ladies what he could not say before one.
If he could but rouse Florimel's indignation! Then at any suitable
time only a word more would be needful to direct it upon the villain.
Clementina's eyes continued fixed upon him. At length he spoke.
"I will try to make two pictures in your mind, my lady, if you will
help me to paint them. In my mind they are not painted pictures
--A long seacoast, my lady, and a stormy night;--the sea horses
rushing in from the northeast, and the snowflakes beginning to
fall. On the margin of the sea a long dune or sandbank, and on the
top of it, her head bare, and her thin cotton dress nearly torn
from her by the wind, a young woman, worn and white, with an old
faded tartan shawl tight about her shoulders, and the shape of a
baby inside it, upon her arm."
"Oh! she doesn't mind the cold," said Florimel. "When I was there,
I didn't mind it a bit."
"She does not mind the cold," answered Malcolm; "she is far too
miserable for that."
"But she has no business to take the baby out on such a night,"
continued Florimel, carelessly critical. "You ought to have painted
her by the fireside. They have all of them firesides to sit at. I
have seen them through the windows many a time."
"Shame or cruelty had driven her from it," said Malcolm, "and there
she was."
"Do you mean you saw her yourself wandering about?" asked Clementina.
"Twenty times, my lady."
Clementina was silent.
"Well, what comes next?" said Florimel.
"Next comes a young gentleman;--but this is a picture in another
frame, although of the same night;--a young gentleman in evening
dress, sipping his madeira, warm and comfortable, in the bland
temper that should follow the best of dinners, his face beaming with
satisfaction after some boast concerning himself, or with silent
success in the concoction of one or two compliments to have at hand
when he joins the ladies in the drawing room."
"Nobody can help such differences," said Florimel. "If there were
nobody rich, who would there be to do anything for the poor? It's
not the young gentleman's fault that he is better born and has more
money than the poor girl."
"No," said Malcolm; "but what if the poor girl has the young
gentleman's child to carry about from morning to night."
"Oh, well! I suppose she's paid for it," said Florimel, whose
innocence must surely have been supplemented by some stupidity,
born of her flippancy.
"Do be quiet, Florimel," said Clementina. "You don't know what you
are talking about."
Her face was in a glow, and one glance at it set Florimel's in a
flame. She rose without a word, but with a look of mingled confusion
and offence, and walked away. Clementina gathered her work together.
But ere she followed her, she turned to Malcolm, looked him calmly
in the face, and said,
"No one can blame you for hating such a man."
"Indeed, my lady, but some one would--the only one for whose
praise or blame we ought to care more than a straw or two.
He tells us we are neither to judge nor to hate. But--"
"I cannot stay and talk with you," said Clementina. "You must pardon
me if I follow your mistress."
Another moment and he would have told her all, in the hope of her
warning Florimel. But she was gone.
CHAPTER XLV: THE RIDE HOME
Florimel was offended with Malcolm: he had put her confidence in
him to shame, speaking of things to which he ought not once to have
even alluded. But Clementina was not only older than Florimel, but
in her loving endeavours for her kind, had heard many a pitiful
story, and was now saddened by the tale, not shocked at the teller.
Indeed, Malcolm's mode of acquainting her with the grounds of the
feeling she had challenged pleased both her heart and her sense
of what was becoming; while, as a partisan of women, finding a man
also of their part, she was ready to offer him the gratitude of
all womankind--in her one typical self.
"What a rough diamond is here!" she thought.
"Rough!" echoed her heart: "how is he rough? What fault could the
most fastidious find with his manners? True, he speaks as a servant
--and where would be his manners if he did not? But neither in
tone, expression, nor way of thinking, is he in the smallest degree
servile. He is like a great pearl, clean out of the sea--bred,
it is true, in the midst of strange surroundings, but pure as the
moonlight; and if a man, so environed, yet has grown so grand, what
might he not become with such privileges as--"
Good Clementina--what did she mean? Did she imagine that such
mere gifts as she might give him, could do more for him than the
great sea, with the torment and conquest of its winds and tempests?
more than his own ministrations of love, and victories over passion
and pride? What the final touches of the shark skin are to the
marble that stands lord of the flaming bow, that only can wealth
and position be to the man who has yielded neither to the judgments
of the world nor the drawing of his own inclinations, and so has
submitted himself to the chisel and mallet of his maker. Society
is the barber who trims a man's hair, often very badly too--and
pretends he made it grow. If her owner should take her, body and
soul, and make of her being a gift to his--ah, then, indeed! But
Clementina was not yet capable of perceiving that, while what she
had in her thought to offer might hurt him, it could do him little
good. Her feeling concerning him, however, was all the time far
indeed from folly. Not for a moment did she imagine him in love
with her. Possibly she admired him too much to attribute to him
such an intolerable and insolent presumption as that would have
appeared to her own inferior self. Still, she was far indeed from
certain, were she, as befits the woman so immeasurably beyond even
the aspiration of the man, to make him offer implicit of hand and
havings, that he would reach out his to take them. And certainly
that she was not going to do--in which determination, whether
she knew it or not, there was as much modesty and gracious doubt
of her own worth as there was pride and maidenly recoil. In one
resolve she was confident, that her behaviour towards him should
be such as to keep him just where he was, affording him no smallest
excuse for taking one step nearer: and they would soon be in London,
where she would see nothing, or next to nothing more of him. But
should she ever cease to thank God, that was, if ever she came to
find him, that in this groom he had shown her what he could do in
the way of making a man! Heartily she wished she knew a nobleman or
two like him. In the meantime she meant to enjoy--with carefulness
--the ride to London, after which things should be as before.
The morning arrived; they finished breakfast; the horses came round
and stood at the door--all but Kelpie. The ladies mounted. Ah,
what a morning to leave the country and go back to London! The
sun shone clear on the dark pine woods; the birds were radiant in
song; all under the trees the ferns were unrolling each its mystery
of ever generating life; the soul of the summer was there whose
mere idea sends the heart into the eyes, while itself flits mocking
from the cage of words. A gracious mystery it was--in the air,
in the sun, in the earth, in their own hearts. The lights of heaven
mingled and played with the shadows of the earth, which looked like
the souls of the trees, that had been out wandering all night, and
had been overtaken by the sun ere they could re-enter their dark
cells. Every motion of the horses under them was like a throb of the
heart of the earth, every bound like a sigh of her bliss. Florimel
shouted almost like a boy with ecstasy, and Clementina's moonlight
went very near changing into sunlight as she gazed, and breathed,
and knew that she was alive.
They started without Malcolm, for he must always put his mistress
up, and then go back to the stable for Kelpie. In a moment they
were in the wood, crossing its shadows. It was like swimming their
horses through a sea of shadows. Then came a little stream and the
horses splashed it about like children from very gamesomeness. Half
a mile more and there was a sawmill, with a mossy wheel, a pond
behind, dappled with sun and shade, a dark rush of water along
a brown trough, and the air full of the sweet smell of sawn wood.
Clementina had not once looked behind, and did not know whether
Malcolm had yet joined them or not. All at once the wild vitality
of Kelpie filled the space beside her, and the voice of Malcolm
was in her ears. She turned her head. He was looking very solemn.
"Will you let me tell you, my lady, what this always makes me think
of?" he said.
"What in particular do you mean?" returned Clementina coldly.
"This smell of new sawn wood that fills the air, my lady."
She bowed her head.
"It makes me think of Jesus in his father's workshop," said Malcolm
"--how he must have smelled the same sweet scent of the trees of
the world broken for the uses of men, that is now so sweet to me.
Oh, my lady! it makes the earth very holy and very lovely to think
that as we are in the world, so was he in the world. Oh, my lady
I think:--if God should be so nearly one with us that it was
nothing strange to him thus to visit his people! that we are not
the offspring of the soulless tyranny of law that knows not even
its own self, but the children of an unfathomable wonder, of which
science gathers only the foambells on the shore--children in the
house of a living Father, so entirely our Father that he cares even
to death that we should understand and love him!"
He reined Kelpie back, and as she passed on, his eyes caught a
glimmer of emotion in Clementina's. He fell behind, and all that
day did not come near her again.
Florimel asked her what he had been saying, and she compelled
herself to repeat a part of it.
"He is always saying such odd out of the way things!" remarked
Florimel. "I used sometimes, like you, to fancy him a little astray,
but I soon found I was wrong. I wish you could have heard him tell
a story he once told my father and me. It was one of the wildest
you ever heard. I can't tell to this day whether he believed it
himself or not. He told it quite as if he did."
"Could you not make him tell it again, as we ride along? It would
shorten the way."
"Do you want the way shortened?--I don't. But indeed it would not
do to tell it so. It ought to be heard just where I heard it--at
the foot of the ruined castle where the dreadful things in it took
place. You must come and see me at Lossie House in the autumn, and
then he shall tell it you. Besides, it ought to be told in Scotch,
and there you will soon learn enough to follow it: half the charm
depends on that."
Although Malcolm did not again approach Clementina that day, he
watched almost her every motion as she rode. Her lithe graceful
back and shoulders--for she was a rebel against the fashion of
the day in dress as well as in morals, and, believing in the natural
stay of the muscles, had found them responsive to her trust--
the noble poise of her head, and the motions of her arms, easy yet
decided, were ever present to him, though sometimes he could hardly
have told whether his sight or his mind--now in the radiance of
the sun, now in the shadow of the wood, now against the green of
the meadow, now against the blue of the sky, and now in the faint
moonlight, through which he followed, as a ghost in the realms
of Hades might follow the ever flitting phantom of his love. Day
glided after day. Adventure came not near them. Soft and lovely as
a dream the morning dawned, the noon flowed past, the evening came
and the death that followed was yet sweeter than the life that had
gone before. Through it all, daydream and nightly trance, radiant
air and moony mist, before him glode the shape of Clementina, its
every motion a charm. After that shape he could have been content,
oh, how content! to ride on and on through the ever unfolding vistas
of an eternal succession. Occasionally his mistress would call him
to her, and then he would have one glance of the day side of the
wondrous world he had been following. Somewhere within it must be
the word of the living One. Little he thought that all the time she
was thinking more of him who had spoken that word in her hearing.
That he was the object of her thoughts not a suspicion crossed
the mind of the simple youth. How could he imagine a lady like her
taking a fancy to what, for all his marquisate, he was still in his
own eyes, a raw young fisherman, only just learning how to behave
himself decently! No doubt, ever since she began to listen to
reason, the idea of her had been spreading like a sweet odour in
his heart, but not because she had listened to him. The very fulness
of his admiration had made him wrathful with the intellectual
dishonesty, for in her it could not be stupidity, that quenched
his worship, and the first dawning sign of a reasonable soul drew
him to her feet, where, like Pygmalion before his statue, he could
have poured out his heart in thanks, that she consented to be a
woman. But even the intellectual phantom, nay, even the very phrase
of being in love with her, had never risen upon the dimmest verge
of his consciousness--and that although her being had now become
to him of all but absorbing interest. I say all but, because Malcolm
knew something of One whose idea she was, who had uttered her from
the immortal depths of his imagination. The man to whom no window
into the treasures of the Godhead has yet been opened, may well
scoff at the notion of such a love, for he has this advantage, that,
while one like Malcolm can never cease to love, he, gifted being,
can love today and forget tomorrow--or next year--where is the
difference? Malcolm's main thought was--what a grand thing it
would be to rouse a woman like Clementina to lift her head into
the regions mild of
'calm and serene air,
Above the smoke and stir of this dim spot
Which men call Earth.'
If anyone think that love has no right to talk religion, I answer
for Malcolm at least, asking, Whereof shall a man speak, if not
out of the abundance of his heart? That man knows little either of
love or of religion who imagines they ought to be kept apart. Of
what sort, I ask, is either, if unfit to approach the other? Has
God decreed, created a love that must separate from himself? Is Love
then divided? Or shall not love to the heart created, lift up the
heart to the Heart creating? Alas for the love that is not treasured
in heaven! for the moth and the rust will devour it. Ah, these
pitiful old moth eaten loves!
All the journey then Malcolm was thinking how to urge the beautiful
lady into finding for herself whether she had a father in heaven
or not. A pupil of Mr Graham, he placed little value in argument
that ran in any groove but that of persuasion, or any value in
persuasion that had any end but action.
On the second day of the journey, he rode up to his mistress, and
told her, taking care that Lady Clementina should hear, that Mr
Graham was now preaching in London, adding that for his part he
had never before heard anything fit to call preaching. Florimel
did not show much interest, but asked where, and Malcolm fancied
he could see Lady Clementina make a mental note of the place.
"If only," he thought, "she would let the power of that man's faith
have a chance of influencing her, all would be well."
The ladies talked a good deal, but Florimel was not in earnest about
anything, and for Clementina to have turned the conversation upon
those possibilities, dim dawning through the chaos of her world,
which had begun to interest her, would have been absurd--especially
since such was her confusion and uncertainty, that she could not
tell whether they were clouds or mountains, shadows or continents.
Besides, why give a child sovereigns to play with when counters
or dominoes would do as well? Clementina's thoughts could not have
passed into Florimel, and become her thoughts. Their hearts, their
natures must come nearer first. Advise Florimel to disregard rank,
and marry the man she loved! As well counsel the child to give away
the cake he would cry for with intensified selfishness the moment
he had parted with it! Still, there was that in her feeling for
Malcolm which rendered her doubtful in Florimel's presence.
Between the grooms little passed. Griffith's contempt for Malcolm
found its least offensive expression in silence, its most offensive
in the shape of his countenance. He could not make him the simplest
reply without a sneer. Malcolm was driven to keep mostly behind. If
by any chance he got in front of his fellow groom, Griffith would
instantly cross his direction and ride between him and the ladies.
His look seemed to say he had to protect them.
CHAPTER XLVI: PORTLAND PLACE
The latter part of the journey was not so pleasant: it rained.
It was not cold, however, and the ladies did not mind it much. It
accorded with Clementina's mood; and as to Florimel, but for the
thought of meeting Caley, her fine spirits would have laughed the
weather to scorn. Malcolm was merry. His spirits always rose at the
appearance of bad weather, as indeed with every show of misfortune
a response antagonistic invariably awoke in him. On the present
occasion he had even to repress the constantly recurring impulse
to break out in song. His bosom's lord sat lightly in his throne.
Griffith was the only miserable one of the party. He was tired, and
did not relish the thought of the work to be done before getting
home. They entered London in a wet fog, streaked with rain, and
dyed with smoke. Florimel went with Clementina for the night, and
Malcolm carried a note from her to Lady Bellair, after which, having
made Kelpie comfortable, he went to his lodgings.
When he entered the curiosity shop, the woman received him with
evident surprise, and when he would have passed through to the
stair, stopped him with the unwelcome information that, finding he
did not return, and knowing nothing about himself or his occupation,
she had, as soon as the week for which he had paid in advance was
out, let the room to an old lady from the country.
"It is no great matter to me," said Malcolm, thoughtful over the
woman's want of confidence in him, for he had rather liked her,
"only I am sorry you could not trust me a little."
"It's all you know, young man," she returned. "People as lives in
London must take care of theirselves--not wait for other people
to do it. They'd soon find theirselves nowheres in partic'lar.
I've took care on your things, an' laid 'em all together, an' the
sooner you find another place for 'em the better, for they do take
up a deal o' room."
His personal property was not so bulky, however, but that in ten
minutes he had it all in his carpet bag and a paper parcel, carrying
which he re-entered the shop.
"Would you oblige me by allowing these to lie here till I come for
them?" he said.
The woman was silent for a moment.
"I'd rather see the last on 'em," she answered. "To tell the truth,
I don't like the look on 'em. You acts a part, young man. I'm on
the square myself. But you'll find plenty to take you in.--No,
I can't do it. Take 'em with you."
Malcolm turned from her, and with his bag in one hand and the parcel
under the other arm, stepped from the shop into the dreary night.
There he stood in the drizzle. It was a bystreet into which gas had
not yet penetrated, and the oil lamps shone red and dull through
the fog. He concluded to leave the things with Merton, while he
went to find a lodging.
Merton was a decent sort of fellow--not in his master's confidence,
and Malcolm found him quite as sympathetic as the small occasion
demanded.
"It ain't no sort o' night," he said, "to go lookin' for a bed.
Let's go an' speak to my old woman: she's a oner at contrivin'."
He lived over the stable, and they had but to go up the stair. Mrs
Merton sat by the fire. A cradle with a baby was in front of it.
On the other side sat Caley, in suppressed exultation, for here
came what she had been waiting for--the first fruits of certain
arrangements between her and Mrs Catanach. She greeted Malcolm
distantly, but neither disdainfully nor spitefully.
"I trust you've brought me back my lady, MacPhail," she said; then
added, thawing into something like jocularity, "I shouldn't have
looked to you to go running away with her."
"I left my lady at Lady Clementina Thornicroft's an hour ago"
answered Malcolm.
"Oh, of course! Lady Clem's everything now."
"I believe my lady's not coming home till tomorrow," said Malcolm.
"All the better for us," returned Caley. "Her room ain't ready for
her.--But I didn't know you lodged with Mrs Merton, MacPhail,"
she said, with a look at the luggage he had placed on the floor.
"Lawks, miss!" cried the good woman, "wherever should we put him
up, as has but the next room?"
"You'll have to find that out, mother," said Merton. "Sure you've
got enough to shake down for him! With a truss of straw to help,
you'll manage it somehow--eh, old lady?--I'll be bound!" And
with that he told Malcolm's condition.
"Well, I suppose we must manage it somehow," answered his wife,
"but I'm afraid we can't make him over comfortable."
"I don't see but we could take him in at the house," said Caley,
reflectively. "There is a small room empty in the garret, I know.
It ain't much more than a closet, to be sure, but if he could put
up with it for a night or two, just till he found a better, I would
run across and see what they say."
Malcolm wondered at the change in her, but could not hesitate. The
least chance of getting settled in the house was a thing not to be
thrown away. He thanked her heartily. She rose and went, and they
sat and talked till her return. She had been delayed, she said, by
the housekeeper; "the cross old patch" had objected to taking in
anyone from the stables.
"I'm sure," she went on, "there ain't the ghost of a reason why you
shouldn't have the room, except that it ain't good enough. Nobody
else wants it, or is likely to. But it's all right now, and if
you'll come across in about an hour, you'll find it ready for you.
One of the girls in the kitchen--I forget her name----offered
to make it tidy for you. Only take care--I give you warning:
she's a great admirer of Mr MacPhail."
Therewith she took her departure, and at the appointed time Malcolm
followed her. The door was opened to him by one of the maids whom
he knew by sight, and in her guidance he soon found himself in
that part of a house he liked best--immediately under the roof.
The room was indeed little more than a closet in the slope of the
roof with only a skylight. But just outside the door was a storm
window, from which, over the top of a lower range of houses, he had
a glimpse of the mews yard. The place smelt rather badly of mice,
while, as the skylight was immediately above his bed, and he had
no fancy for drenching that with an infusion of soot, he could not
open it. These, however, were the sole faults he had to find with
the place. Everything looked nice and clean, and his education had
not tended to fastidiousness. He took a book from his bag, and read
a good while; then went to bed, and fell fast asleep.
In the morning he woke early, as was his habit, sprang at once on
the floor, dressed, and went quietly down. The household was yet
motionless. He had begun to descend the last stair, when all at once
he turned deadly sick, and had to sit down, grasping the balusters.
In a few minutes he recovered, and made the best speed he could to
the stable, where Kelpie was now beginning to demand her breakfast.
But Malcolm had never in his life before felt sick, and it seemed
awful to him. Something that had appeared his own, a portion
--hardly a portion, rather an essential element of himself; had
suddenly deserted him, left him a prey to the inroad of something
that was not of himself, bringing with it faintness of heart,
fear and dismay. He found himself for the first time in his life
trembling; and it was to him a thing as appalling as strange.
While he sat on the stair he could not think; but as he walked to
the mews he said to himself:
"Am I then the slave of something that is not myself--something
to which my fancied freedom and strength are a mockery? Was
my courage, my peace, all the time dependent on something not me,
which could be separated from me, and but a moment ago was separated
from me, and left me as helplessly dismayed as the veriest coward
in creation? I wonder what Alexander would have thought if, as
he swung himself on Bucephalus, he had been taken as I was on the
stair."
Afterwards, talking the thing over with Mr Graham, he said:
"I saw that I had no hand in my own courage. If I had any courage,
it was simply that I was born with it. If it left me, I could not
help it: I could neither prevent nor recall it; I could only wait
until it returned. Why, then, I asked myself, should I feel ashamed
that, for five minutes, as I sat on the stair, Kelpie was a terror
to me, and I felt as if I dared not go near her? I had almost
reached the stable before I saw into it a little. Then I did see
that if I had had nothing to do with my own courage, it was quite
time I had something to do with it. If a man had no hand in his
own nature, character, being, what could he be better than a divine
puppet--a happy creature, possibly--a heavenly animal, like
the grand horses and lions of the book of the Revelation--but not
one of the gods that the sons of God, the partakers of the divine
nature, are? For this end came the breach in my natural courage--
that I might repair it from the will and power God had given me,
that I might have a hand in the making of my own courage, in the
creating of myself. Therefore I must see to it."
Nor had he to wait for his next lesson, namely, the opportunity of
doing what he had been taught in the first. For just as he reached
the stable, where he heard Kelpie clamouring with hoofs and teeth,
after her usual manner when she judged herself neglected, the
sickness returned, and with it such a fear of the animal he heard
thundering and clashing on the other side of the door, as amounted to
nothing less than horror. She was a man eating horse!--a creature
with bloody teeth, brain spattered hoofs, and eyes of hate! A flesh
loving devil had possessed her and was now crying out for her groom
that he might devour him.
He gathered, with agonized effort, every power within him to an
awful council, and thus he said to himself:
"Better a thousand times my brain plastered the stable wall than I
should hold them in the head of a dastard. How can God look at me
with any content if I quail in the face of his four footed creature!
Does he not demand of me action according to what I know, not what
I may chance at any moment to feel? God is my strength, and I will
lay hold of that strength and use it, or I have none, and Kelpie
may take me and welcome."
Therewith the sickness abated so far that he was able to open the
stable door; and, having brought them once into the presence of their
terror, his will arose and lorded it over his shrinking quivering
nerves, and like slaves they obeyed him. Surely the Father of his
spirit was most in that will when most that will was Malcolm's
own! It is when a man is most a man, that the cause of the man, the
God of his life, the very Life himself the original life-creating
Life, is closest to him, is most within him. The individual, that
his individuality may blossom, and not soon be "massed into the common
clay," must have the vital indwelling of the primary Individuality
which is its origin. The fire that is the hidden life of the bush
will not consume it.
Malcolm tottered to the corn bin, staggered up to Kelpie, fell up
against her hind quarters as they dropped from a great kick, but got
into the stall beside her. She turned eagerly, darted at her food,
swallowed it greedily, and was quiet as a lamb while he dressed
her.
CHAPTER XLVII: PORTLOSSIE AND SCAURNOSE
Meantime things were going rather badly at Portlossie and Scaurnose;
and the factor was the devil of them. Those who had known him
longest said he must be fey, that is doomed, so strangely altered
was his behaviour. Others said he took more counsel with his bottle
than had been his wont, and got no good from it. Almost all the
fishers found him surly, and upon some he broke out in violent rage,
while to certain whom he regarded as Malcolm's special friends,
he carried himself with cruel oppression. The notice to leave at
midsummer clouded the destiny of Joseph Mair and his family, and
every householder in the two villages believed that to take them
in would be to call down the like fate upon himself. But Meg Partan
at least was not to be intimidated. Her outbursts of temper were
but the hurricanes of a tropical heart--not much the less true
and good and steadfast that it was fierce. Let the factor rage as
he would, Meg was absolute in her determination that, if the cruel
sentence was carried out, which she hardly expected, her house
should be the shelter of those who had received her daughter when
her severity had driven her from her home. That would leave her
own family and theirs three months to look out for another abode.
Certain of Blue Peter's friends ventured a visit of intercession
to the factor, and were received with composure and treated with
consideration until their object appeared, when his wrath burst forth
so wildly that they were glad to escape without having to defend
their persons: only the day before had he learned with certainty from
Miss Horn that Malcolm was still in the service of the marchioness,
and in constant attendance upon her when she rode. It almost maddened
him. He had for some time taken to drinking more toddy after his
dinner, and it was fast ruining his temper: his wife, who had from
the first excited his indignation against Malcolm, was now reaping
her reward. To complete the troubles of the fisher folk, the harbour
at Portlossie had, by a severe equinoctial storm, been so filled
with sand as to be now inaccessible at lower than half tide, nobody
as yet having made it his business to see it attended to.
But, in the midst of his anxieties about Florimel and his interest
in Clementina, Malcolm had not been forgetting them. As soon as he
was a little settled in London, he had written to Mr Soutar, and
he to architects and contractors, on the subject of a harbour at
Scaurnose. But there were difficulties, and the matter had been
making but slow progress. Malcolm, however, had insisted, and in
consequence of his determination to have the possibilities of the
thing thoroughly understood, three men appeared one morning on
the rocks at the bottom of the cliff on the west side of the Nose.
The children of the village discovered them, and carried the news;
whereupon, the men being all out in the bay, the women left their
work and went to see what the strangers were about. The moment they
were satisfied that they could make nothing of their proceedings,
they naturally became suspicious. To whom the fancy first occurred,
nobody ever knew, but such was the unhealthiness of the moral
atmosphere of the place, caused by the injustice and severity of
Mr Crathie, that, once suggested, it was universally received that
they were sent by the factor--and that for a purpose only too
consistent with the treatment Scaurnose, they said, had invariably
received ever since first it was the dwelling of fishers! Had not
their fathers told them how unwelcome they were to the lords of
the land? And what rents had they not to pay! and how poor was the
shelter for which they did so much--without a foot of land to
grow a potato in! To crown all, the factor was at length about to
drive them in a body from the place--Blue Peter first, one of the
best as well as the most considerable men among them! His notice
to quit was but the beginning of a clearance. It was easy to see
what those villains were about--on that precious rock, their
only friend, the one that did its best to give them the sole shadow
of harbourage they had, cutting off the wind from the northeast
a little, and breaking the eddy round the point of the Nose! What
could they be about but marking the spots where to bore the holes
for the blasting powder that should scatter it to the winds, and let
death and destruction, and the wild sea howling in upon Scaurnose,
that the cormorant and the bittern might possess it, the owl and
the raven dwell in it? But it would be seen what their husbands and
fathers would say to it when they came home! In the meantime they
must themselves do what they could. What were they men's wives for,
if not to act for their husbands when they happened to be away?
The result was a shower of stones upon the unsuspecting surveyors,
who forthwith fled, and carried the report of their reception to
Mr Soutar at Duff Harbour. He wrote to Mr Crathie, who till then
had heard nothing of the business; and the news increased both his
discontent with his superiors, and his wrath with those whom he had
come to regard as his rebellious subjects. The stiff necked people
of the Bible was to him always now, as often he heard the words,
the people of Scaurnose and the Seaton of Portlossie. And having
at length committed this overt outrage, would he not be justified
by all in taking more active measures against them?
When the fishermen came home and heard how their women had conducted
themselves, they accepted their conjectures, and approved of their
defence of the settlement. It was well for the land loupers, they
said, that they had only the women to deal with.
Blue Peter did not so soon hear of the affair as the rest, for
his Annie had not been one of the assailants. But when the hurried
retreat of the surveyors was described to him in somewhat graphic
language by one of those concerned in causing it, he struck his
clenched fist in the palm of his other hand, and cried,
"Weel saired! There! that's what comes o' yer new--"
He had all but broken his promise, as he had already broken his
faith to Malcolm, when his wife laid her hand on his mouth and
stopped the issuing word. He started with sudden conviction and
stood for a moment in absolute terror at sight of the precipice
down which he had been on the point of falling, then straightway
excusing himself to his conscience on the ground of non intent, was
instantly angrier with Malcolm than before. He could not reflect
that the disregarded cause of the threatened sin was the greater
sin of the two. The breach of that charity which thinketh no evil
maybe a graver fault than a hasty breach of promise.
Peter had not been improving since his return from London. He found
less satisfaction in his religious exercises; was not unfrequently
clouded in temper, occasionally even to sullenness; referred
things oftener than formerly to the vileness of the human nature,
but was far less willing than before to allow that he might himself
be wrong; while somehow the Bible had no more the same plenitude
of relation to the wants of his being, and he rose from the reading
of it unrefreshed. Men asked each other what had come to Blue Peter,
but no one could answer the question. For himself, he attributed
the change, which he could not but recognise, although he did
not understand it, to the withdrawing of the spirit of God, in
displeasure that he had not merely allowed himself to be inveigled
into a playhouse, but, far worse, had enjoyed the wickedness
he saw there. When his wife reasoned that God knew he had gone in
ignorance, trusting his friend, he cried,
"What 's that to him wha judges richteous judgment? What's a' oor
puir meeserable excuzes i' the een 'at can see throu' the wa's o'
the hert! Ignorance is no innocence."
Thus he lied for God! pleading his cause on the principles of hell.
But the eye of his wife was single, and her body full of light;
therefore to her it was plain that neither the theatre nor his
conscience concerning it was the cause of the change: it had to do
with his feelings towards Malcolm. He wronged his Friend in his
heart, half knew it, but would not own it. Fearing to search himself,
he took refuge in resentment, and to support his hard judgment,
put false and cruel interpretations on whatever befell. So that,
with love and anger and wrong acknowledged, his heart was full of
bitterness.
"It 's a' the drumblet (muddied, troubled) luve o' 'im!" said
Annie to herself.  "Puir fallow! gien only Ma'colm wad come hame,
an' lat him ken he 's no the villain he taks him for. I'll no
believe mysel' 'at the laad I kissed like my ain mither's son afore
he gaed awa' wad turn like that upo' 's 'maist the meenute he was
oot o' sicht, an' a' for a feow words aboot a fulish play actin'.
Lord bliss us a'! markises is men.
"We'll see, Peter, my man," she said, when the neighbour took her
leave, "whether the wife, though she hasna' been to the ill place,
an' that's surely Lon'on, canna tell the true frae the Cause full
better nor her man, 'at kens sae muckle mair nor she wants to ken?
Lat sit an' lat see."
Blue Peter made no reply; but perhaps the deepest depth in his
fall was that he feared his wife might be right, and he have one
day to stand ashamed before both her and his friend. But there are
marvellous differences in the quality of the sins of different men,
and a noble nature like Peter's would have to sink far indeed to
be beyond redemption. Still there was one element mingling with his
wrongness whose very triviality increased the difficulty of long
delaying repentance: he had been not a little proud at finding
himself the friend of a marquis. From the first they had been
friends, when the one was a youth and the other a child, and had
been out together in many a stormy and dangerous sea. More than
once or twice, driven from the churlish ocean to the scarce less
inhospitable shore, they had lain all night in each other's arms
to keep the life awake within their frozen garments. And now this
marquis spoke English to him! It rankled!
All the time Blue Peter was careful to say nothing to injure Malcolm
in the eyes of his former comrades. His manner when his name was
mentioned, however, he could not honestly school to the conveyance
of the impression that things were as they had been betwixt them.
Folk marked the difference, and it went to swell the general feeling
that Malcolm had done ill to forsake a seafaring life for one upon
which all fishermen must look down with contempt. Some in the Seaton
went so far in their enmity as even to hint at an explanation of
his conduct in the truth of the discarded scandal which had laid
Lizzy's child at his door.
But amongst them was one who, having wronged him thus, and been
convinced of her error, was now so fiercely his partisan as to be
ready to wrong the whole town in his defence: that was Meg Partan,
properly Mistress Findlay, Lizzy's mother. Although the daughter had
never confessed, the mother had yet arrived at the right conclusion
concerning the father of her child--how, she could hardly herself
have told, for the conviction had grown by accretion; a sign here
and a sign there, impalpable save to maternal sense, had led her
to the truth; and now, if anyone had a word to say against Malcolm,
he had better not say it in the hearing of the Partaness.
One day Blue Peter was walking home from the upper town of Portlossie,
not with the lazy gait of the fisherman off work, poised backwards,
with hands in trouser pocket, but stooping care laden with listless
swinging arms. Thus Meg Partan met him--and of course attributed
his dejection to the factor.
"Deil ha'e 'im for an upsettin' rascal 'at hasna pride eneuch to haud
him ohn lickit the gentry's shune! The man maun be fey! I houp he
may, an' I wuss I saw the beerial o' 'im makin' for the kirkyaird.
It's nae ill to wuss weel to a' body 'at wad be left! His nose is
turnt twise the colour i' the last twa month. He'll be drinkin'
byous. Gien only Ma'colm MacPhail had been at hame to haud him in
order!"
Peter said nothing, and his silence, to one who spake out whatever
came, seemed fuller of restraints and meanings than it was. She
challenged it at once.
"Noo, what mean ye by sayin' naething, Peter? Guid kens it's the
warst thing man or woman can say o' onybody to haud their tongue.
It's a thing I never was blamed wi' mysel', an' I wadna du't."
"That's verra true," said Peter.
"The mair weicht's intill't whan I lay 't to the door o' anither,"
persisted Meg. "Peter, gien ye ha'e onything again' my freen' Ma'colm
MacPhail, oot wi' 't like a man, an' no playac' the gunpoother plot
ower again. Ill wull's the warst poother ye can lay i' the boddom
o' ony man's boat. But say at ye like, I s' uphaud Ma'colm again'
the haill poustie o' ye. Gien he was but here! I say't again, honest
laad!"
But she could not rouse Peter to utterance, and losing what little
temper she had, she rated him soundly, and sent him home saying
with the prophet Jonah, "Do I not well to be angry?" for that also
he placed to Malcolm's account. Nor was his home any more a harbour
for his riven boat, seeing his wife only longed for the return
of him with whom his spirit chode: she regarded him as an exiled
king, one day to reappear, and justify himself in the eyes of all,
friends and enemies.
CHAPTER XLVIII: TORTURE
Though unable to eat any breakfast, Malcolm persuaded himself
that he felt nearly as well as usual when he went to receive his
mistress's orders. Florimel had had enough of horseback--for
several days to come indeed--and would not ride. So he saddled
Kelpie, and rode to Chelsea to look after his boat. To get rid of
the mare, he rang the stable bell at Mr Lenorme's, and the gardener
let him in. As he was putting her up, the man told him that the
housekeeper had heard from his master. Malcolm went to the house
to learn what he might, and found to his surprise that, if he had
gone on the continent, he was there no longer, for the letter,
which contained only directions concerning some of his pictures,
was dated from Newcastle, and bore the Durham postmark of a week
ago. Malcolm remembered that he had heard Lenorme speak of Durham
cathedral, and in the hope that he might be spending some time
there, begged the housekeeper to allow him to go to the study to
write to her master. When he entered, however, he saw something that
made him change his plan, and, having written, instead of sending
the letter, as he had intended, inclosed to the postmaster at Durham,
he left it upon an easel. It contained merely an earnest entreaty
to be made and kept acquainted with his movements, that he might
at once let him know if anything should occur that he ought to be
informed concerning.
He found all on board the yacht in shipshape, only Davy was absent.
Travers explained that he sent him on shore for a few hours every
day. He was a sharp boy, he said, and the more he saw, the more
useful he would be, and as he never gave him any money, there was
no risk of his mistaking his hours.
"When do you expect him?" asked Malcolm.
"At four o'clock," answered Travers.
"It is four now," said Malcolm.
A shrill whistle came from the Chelsea shore.
"And there's Davy," said Travers.
Malcolm got into the dinghy and rowed ashore.
"Davy," he said "I don't want you to be all day on board, but I
can't have you be longer away than an hour at a time,"
"Ay, ay, sir," said Davy.
"Now attend to me."
"Ay, ay, sir."
"Do you know Lady Lossie's house?"
"No, sir; but I ken hersel'."
"How is that?"
"I ha'e seen her mair nor twa or three times, ridin' wi' yersel',
to yon hoose yon'er."
"Would you know her again?"
"Ay wad I--fine that. What for no, sir."
"It's a good way to see a lady across the Thames and know her
again."
"Ow! but I tuik the spy glaiss till her," answered Davy, reddening.
"You are sure of her, then?"
"I am that, sir."
"Then come with me, and I will show you where she lives. I will
not ride faster than you can run. But mind you don't look as if
you belonged to me."
"Na, na, sir. There's fowk takin' nottice."
"What do you mean by that?"
"There's a wee laddie been efter mysel' twise or thrice."
"Did you do anything?"
"He wasna big eneuch to lick, sae I jist got him the last time an'
pu'd his niz, an' I dinna think he'll come efter me again."
To see what the boy could do, Malcolm let Kelpie go at a good trot:
but Davy kept up without effort, now shooting ahead, now falling
behind, now stopping to look in at a window, and now to cast
a glance at a game of pitch and toss. No mere passerby could have
suspected that the sailor boy belonged to the horseman. He dropped
him not far from Portland Place, telling him to go and look at the
number, but not stare at the house.
All the time he had had no return of the sickness, but, although
thus actively occupied, had felt greatly depressed. One main cause
of this was, however, that he had not found his religion stand him
in such stead as he might have hoped. It was not yet what it must
be to prove its reality. And now his eyes were afresh opened to
see that in his nature and thoughts lay large spaces wherein God
ruled not supreme--desert places, where who could tell what might
appear? For in such regions wild beasts range, evil herbs flourish,
and demons go about. If in very deed he lived and moved and had
his being in God, then assuredly there ought not to be one cranny
in his nature, one realm of his consciousness, one well spring of
thought, where the will of God was a stranger. If all were as it
should be, then surely there would be no moment, looking back on
which he could not at least say,
Yet like some sweet beguiling melody,
So sweet, we know not we are listening to it,
Thou, the meanwhile, wast blending with my thought,
Yea, with my life and life's own secret joy.
"In that agony o' sickness, as I sat upo' the stair," he said to
himself, for still in his own thoughts he spoke his native tongue,
"whaur was my God in a' my thouchts? I did cry till 'im, I min'
weel, but it was my reelin' brain an' no my trustin' hert 'at cried.
Aih me! I doobt gien the Lord war to come to me noo, he wadna fin'
muckle faith i' my pairt o' the yerth. Aih! I wad like to lat him
see something like lippenin'! I wad fain trust him till his hert's
content. But I doobt it's only speeritual ambeetion, or better wad
hae come o' 't by this time. Gien that sickness come again, I maun
see, noo 'at I'm forewarned o' my ain wakeness, what I can du. It
maun be something better nor last time, or I'll tine hert a'thegither.
Weel, maybe I need to be heumblet. The Lord help me!"
In the evening he went to the schoolmaster, and gave him a pretty
full account of where he had been and what had taken place since last
he saw him, dwelling chiefly on his endeavours with Lady Clementina.
From Mr Graham's lodging to the northeastern gate of the Regent's
Park, the nearest way led through a certain passage, which, although
a thoroughfare to persons on foot, was little known. Malcolm had
early discovered it, and always used it. Part of this short cut was
the yard and back premises of a small public house. It was between
eleven and twelve as he entered it for the second time that night.
Sunk in thought and suspecting no evil, he was struck down from
behind, and lost his consciousness. When he came to himself he was
lying in the public house, with his head bound up, and a doctor
standing over him, who asked him if he had been robbed. He searched
his pockets, and found that his old watch was gone, but his money
left. One of the men standing about said he would see him home. He
half thought he had seen him before, and did not like the look of
him, but accepted the offer, hoping to get on the track of something
thereby. As soon as they entered the comparative solitude of the
park he begged his companion, who had scarcely spoken all the way,
to give him his arm, and leaned upon it as if still suffering,
but watched him closely. About the middle of the park, where not
a creature was in sight, he felt him begin to fumble in his coat
pocket, and draw something from it. But when, unresisted, he
snatched away his other arm, Malcolm's fist followed it, and the
man fell, nor made any resistance while he took from him a short
stick, loaded with lead, and his own watch, which he found in his
waistcoat pocket. Then the fellow rose with apparent difficulty,
but the moment he was on his legs, ran like a hare, and Malcolm
let him run, for he felt unable to follow him.
As soon as he reached home, he went to bed, for his head ached
severely; but he slept pretty well, and in the morning flattered
himself he felt much as usual. But it was as if all the night that
horrible sickness had been lying in wait on the stair to spring upon
him, for, the moment he reached the same spot on his way down, he
almost fainted. It was worse than before. His very soul seemed to
turn sick. But although his heart died within him, somehow, in the
confusion of thought and feeling occasioned by intense suffering,
it seemed while he clung to the balusters as if with both hands he
were clinging to the skirts of God's garment; and through the black
smoke of his fainting, his soul seemed to be struggling up towards
the light of his being. Presently the horrible sense subsided as
before, and again he sought to descend the stair and go to Kelpie.
But immediately the sickness returned, and all he could do after
a long and vain struggle, was to crawl on hands and knees up the
stairs and back to his room. There he crept upon his bed, and was
feebly committing Kelpie to the care of her maker, when consciousness
forsook him.
It returned, heralded by frightful pains all over his body, which
by and by subsiding, he sank again to the bottom of the black Lethe.
Meantime Kelpie had got so wildly uproarious that Merton tossed her
half a truss of hay, which she attacked like an enemy, and ran to
the house to get somebody to call Malcolm. After what seemed endless
delay, the door was opened by his admirer, the scullery maid, who,
as soon as she heard what was the matter, hastened to his room.
CHAPTER XLIX: THE PHILTRE
Before he again came to himself, Malcolm had a dream, which, although
very confused, was in parts more vivid than any he had ever had.
His surroundings in it were those in which he actually lay, and he
was ill, but he thought it the one illness he had before. His head
ached, and he could rest in no position he tried. Suddenly he heard
a step he knew better than any other approaching the door of his
chamber: it opened, and his grandfather in great agitation entered,
not following his hands, however, in the fashion usual to blindness,
but carrying himself like any sight gifted man. He went straight
to the wash stand, took up the water bottle, and with a look of
mingled wrath and horror dashed it on the floor. The same instant
a cold shiver ran through the dreamer, and his dream vanished. But
instead of waking in his bed, he found himself standing in the middle
of the floor, his feet wet, the bottle in shivers about them, and,
strangest of all, the neck of the bottle in his hand. He lay down
again, grew delirious, and tossed about in the remorseless persecution
of centuries. But at length his tormentors left him, and when he
came to himself, he knew he was in his right mind.
It was evening, and some one was sitting near his bed. By the light
of the long snuffed tallow candle, he saw the glitter of two great
black eyes watching him, and recognised the young woman who had
admitted him to the house the night of his return, and whom he
had since met once or twice as he came and went. The moment she
perceived that he was aware of her presence, she threw herself
on her knees at his bedside, hid her face, and began to weep. The
sympathy of his nature rendered yet more sensitive by weakness and
suffering, Malcolm laid his hand on her head, and sought to comfort
her.
"Don't be alarmed about me," he said, "I shall soon be all right
again."
"I can't bear it," she sobbed. "I can't bear to see you like that,
and all my fault."
"Your fault! What can you mean?" said Malcolm.
"But I did go for the doctor, for all it may be the hanging of me,"
she sobbed. "Miss Caley said I wasn't to, but I would and I did.
They can't say I meant it--can they?"
"I don't understand," said Malcolm, feebly.
"The doctor says somebody's been an' p'isoned you," said the girl,
with a cry that sounded like a mingled sob and howl; "an' he's been
a-pokin' of all sorts of things down your poor throat."
And again she cried aloud in her agony.
"Well, never mind; I'm not dead you see; and I'll take better care
of myself after this. Thank you for being so good to me; you've
saved my life."
"Ah! you won't be so kind to me when you know all, Mr MacPhail,"
sobbed the girl. "It was myself gave you the horrid stuff, but God
knows I didn't mean to do you no harm no more than your own mother."
"What made you do it then?" asked Malcolm:
"The witch woman told me to. She said that--that--if
I gave it you--you would--you would--"
She buried her face in the bed, and so stifled a fresh howl of pain
and shame.
"And it was all lies--lies!" she resumed, lifting her face again,
which now flashed with rage, "for I know you'll hate me worse than
ever now."
"My poor girl, I never hated you," said Malcolm.
"No, but you did as bad: you never looked at me. And now you'll
hate me out and out. And the doctor says if you die, he'll have it
all searched into, and Miss Caley she look at me as if she suspect
me of a hand in it; and they won't let alone till they've got me
hanged for it; and it's all along of love of you; and I tell you
the truth, Mr MacPhail, and you can do anything with me you like
--I don't care--only you won't let them hang me--will you ?
--Oh, please don't."
She said all this with clasped hands, and the tears streaming down
her face.
Malcolm's impulse was of course to draw her to him and comfort her,
but something warned him.
"Well, you see I'm not going to die just yet," he said as merrily
as he could; "and if I find myself going, I shall take care the
blame falls on the right person. What was the witch woman like?
Sit down on the chair there, and tell me all about her."
She obeyed with a sigh, and gave him such a description as he could
not mistake. He asked where she lived, but the girl had never met
her anywhere but in the street, she said.
Questioning her very carefully as to Caley's behaviour to her,
Malcolm was convinced that she had a hand in the affair. Indeed,
she had happily, more to do with it than even Mrs Catanach knew,
for she had traversed her treatment to the advantage of Malcolm.
The midwife had meant the potion to work slowly, but the lady's
maid had added to the pretended philtre a certain ingredient in
whose efficacy she had reason to trust; and the combination, while
it wrought more rapidly, had yet apparently set up a counteraction
favourable to the efforts of the struggling vitality which it stung
to an agonised resistance.
But Malcolm's strength was now exhausted. He turned faint, and the
girl had the sense to run to the kitchen and get him some soup. As
he took it, her demeanour and regards made him anxious, uncomfortable,
embarrassed. It is to any true man a hateful thing to repel a woman
--it is such a reflection upon her.
"I've told you everything, Mr MacPhail, and it's gospel truth I've
told you," said the girl, after a long pause.--It was a relief
when first she spoke, but the comfort vanished as she went on,
and with slow, perhaps unconscious movements approached him.--"I
would have died for you, and here that devil of a woman has been
making me kill you! Oh, how I hate her! Now you will never love me
a bit---not one tiny little bit for ever and ever!"
There was a tone of despairful entreaty in her words that touched
Malcolm deeply.
"I am more indebted to you than I can speak or you imagine," he said.
"You have saved me from my worst enemy. Do not tell any other what
you have told me, or let anyone know that we have talked together.
The day will come when I shall be able to show you my gratitude."
Something in his tone struck her, even through the folds of her
passion. She looked at him a little amazed, and for a moment the
tide ebbed. Then came a rush that overmastered her. She flung her
hands above her head, and cried,
"That means you will do anything but love me!"
"I cannot love you as you mean," said Malcolm. "I promise to be
your friend, but more is out of my power."
A fierce light came into the girl's eyes. But that instant a
terrible cry, such as Malcolm had never heard, but which he knew
must be Kelpie's, rang through the air, followed by the shouts of
men, the tones of fierce execration, and the clash and clang of
hoofs.
"Good God!" he exclaimed, and forgetting everything else, sprang
from the bed, and ran to the window outside his door.
The light of their lanterns dimly showed a confused crowd in the
yard of the mews, and amidst the hellish uproar of their coarse
voices he could hear Kelpie plunging and kicking. Again she uttered
the same ringing scream. He threw the window open and cried to
her that he was coming, but the noise was far too great for his
enfeebled voice. Hurriedly he added a garment or two to his half
dress, rushed to the stair, passing his new friend, who watched
anxiously at the head of it, without seeing her, and shot from the
house.
CHAPTER L: THE DEMONESS AT BAY
When he reached the yard of the mews, the uproar had nothing abated.
But when he cried out to Kelpie, through it all came a whinny of
appeal, instantly followed by a scream. When he got up to the lanterns,
he found a group of wrathful men with stable forks surrounding the
poor animal, from whom the blood was streaming before and behind.
Fierce as she was, she dared not move, but stood trembling, with
the sweat of terror pouring from her. Yet her eye showed that not
even terror had cowed her. She was but biding her time. Her master's
first impulse was to scatter the men right and left, but on second
thoughts, of which he was even then capable, he saw that they might
have been driven to apparent brutality in defence of their lives,
and besides he could not tell what Kelpie might do if suddenly
released. So he caught her by the broken halter, and told them
to fall back. They did so carefully--it seemed unwillingly. But
the mare had eyes and ears only for her master. What she had never
done before, she nosed him over face and shoulders, trembling all
the time. Suddenly one of her tormentors darted forward, and gave
her a terrible prod in the off hind quarter. But he paid dearly
for it. Ere he could draw back, she lashed out, and shot him half
across the yard with his knee joint broken. The whole set of them
rushed at her.
"Leave her alone," shouted Malcolm, "or I will take her part.
Between us we'll do for a dozen of you."
"The devil's in her," said one of them.
"You'll find more of him in that rascal groaning yonder. You had
better see to him. He'll never do such a thing again, I fancy.
Where is Merton?"
They drew off and went to help their comrade, who lay senseless.
When Malcolm would have led Kelpie in, she stopped suddenly at the
stable-door, and started back shuddering, as if the memory of what
she had endured there overcame her. Every fibre of her trembled. He
saw that she must have been pitifully used before she broke loose
and got out. But she yielded to his coaxing, and he led her to her
stall without difficulty. He wished Lady Clementina herself could
have been his witness how she knew her friend and trusted him. Had
she seen how the poor bleeding thing rejoiced over him, she could
not have doubted that his treatment had been in part at least a
success.
Kelpie had many enemies amongst the men of the mews. Merton had
gone out for the evening, and they had taken the opportunity of
getting into her stable and tormenting her. At length she broke
her fastenings; they fled, and she rushed out after them.
They carried the maimed man to the hospital, where his leg was
immediately amputated.
Malcolm washed and dried his poor animal, handling her as gently
as possible, for she was in a sad plight. It was plain he must not
have her here any longer: worse to her at least was sure to follow.
He went up, trembling himself now, to Mrs Merton. She told him she
was just running to fetch him when he arrived: she had no idea how
ill he was. But he felt all the better for the excitement, and after
he had taken a cup of strong tea, wrote to Mr Soutar to provide
men on whom he could depend, if possible the same who had taken
her there before, to await Kelpie's arrival at Aberdeen. There he
must also find suitable housing and attention for her at any expense
until further directions, or until, more probably, he should claim
her himself. He added many instructions to be given as to her
treatment.
Until Merton returned he kept watch, then went back to the chamber
of his torture, which, like Kelpie, he shuddered to enter. The cook
let him in, and gave him his candle, but hardly had he closed his
door when a tap came to it, and there stood Rose, his preserver.
He could not help feeling embarrassed when he saw her.
"I see you don't trust me," she said.
"I do trust you," he answered. "Will you bring me some water. I
dare not drink anything that has been standing."
She looked at him with inquiring eyes, nodded her head, and went.
When she returned, he drank the water.
"There! you see I trust you," he said with a laugh. "But there are
people about who for certain reasons want to get rid of me: will
you be on my side?"
"That I will," she answered eagerly.
"I have not got my plans laid yet; but will you meet me somewhere
near this tomorrow night? I shall not be at home, perhaps, all
day."
She stared at him with great eyes, but agreed at once, and they
appointed time and place. He then bade her good night, and the
moment she left him lay down on the bed to think. But he did not
trouble himself yet to unravel the plot against him, or determine
whether the violence he had suffered had the same origin with the
poisoning. Nor was the question merely how to continue to serve
his sister without danger to his life; for he had just learned what
rendered it absolutely imperative that she should be removed from
her present position. Mrs Merton had told him that Lady Lossie was
about to accompany Lady Bellair and Lord Liftore to the continent.
That must not be, whatever means might be necessary to prevent it.
Before he went to sleep things had cleared themselves up considerably.
He woke much better, and rose at his usual hour. Kelpie rejoiced
him by affording little other sign of the cruelty she had suffered
than the angry twitching of her skin when hand or brush approached
a wound. The worst fear was that some few white hairs might by
and by in consequence fleck her spotless black. Having urgently
committed her to Merton's care, he mounted Honour, and rode to
the Aberdeen wharf. There to his relief, time growing precious, he
learned that the same smack in which Kelpie had come was to sail
the next morning for Aberdeen. He arranged at once for her passage,
and, before he left, saw to every contrivance he could think of for
her safety and comfort. He warned the crew concerning her temper,
but at the same time prejudiced them in her favour by the argument
of a few sovereigns. He then rode to the Chelsea Reach, where the
Psyche had now grown to be a feature of the river in the eyes of
the dwellers upon its banks.
At his whistle, Davy tumbled into the dinghy like a round ball
over the gunwale, and was rowing for the shore ere his whistle had
ceased ringing in Malcolm's own ears. He left him with his horse,
went on board, and gave various directions to Travers; then took
Davy with him, and bought many things at different shops, which
he ordered to be delivered to Davy when he should call for them.
Having next instructed him to get everything on board as soon as
possible, and appointed to meet him at the same place and hour he
had arranged with Rose, he went home.
A little anxious lest Florimel might have wanted him, for it was
now past the hour at which he usually waited her orders, he learned
to his relief that she was gone shopping with Lady Bellair, upon
which he set out for the hospital, whither they had carried the man
Kelpie had so terribly mauled. He went, not merely led by sympathy,
but urged by a suspicion also which he desired to verify or remove.
On the plea of identification, he was permitted to look at him for
a moment, but not to speak to him. It was enough: he recognised
him at once as the same whose second attack he had foiled in the
Regent's Park. He remembered having seen him about the stable,
but had never spoken to him. Giving the nurse a sovereign, and
Mr Soutar's address, he requested her to let that gentleman know
as soon as it was possible to conjecture the time of his leaving.
Returning, he gave Merton a hint to keep his eye on the man, and
some money to spend for him as he judged best. He then took Kelpie
for an airing. To his surprise she fatigued him so much that when
he had put her up again he was glad to go and lie down.
When it came near the time for meeting Rose and Davy, he got his
things together in the old carpetbag, which held all he cared for,
and carried it with him. As he drew near the spot, he saw Davy
already there, keeping a sharp look out on all sides. Presently Rose
appeared, but drew back when she saw Davy. Malcolm went to her.
"Rose," he said, "I am going to ask you to do me a great favour.
But you cannot except you are able to trust me."
"I do trust you," she answered.
"All I can tell you now is that you must go with that boy tomorrow.
Before night you shall know more. Will you do it?"
"I will," answered Rose. "I dearly love a secret."
"I promise to let you understand it, if you do just as I tell you."
"I will."
"Be at this very spot then tomorrow morning, at six o'clock. Come
here, Davy. This boy will take you where I shall tell him."
She looked from the one to the other.
"I'll risk it," she said.
"Put on a clean frock, and take a change of linen with you and your
dressing things. No harm shall come to you."
"I'm not afraid," she answered, but looked as if she would cry.
"Of course you will not tell anyone."
"I will not, Mr MacPhail."
"You are trusting me a great deal, Rose; but I am trusting you too
--more than you think.--Be off with that bag, Davy, and be here
at six tomorrow morning, to carry this young woman's for her."
Davy vanished.
"Now, Rose," continued Malcolm, "you had better go and make your
preparations."
"Is that all, sir?" she said.
"Yes. I shall see you tomorrow. Be brave."
Something in Malcolm's tone and manner seemed to work strangely
on the girl. She gazed up at him half frightened, but submissive,
and went at once, looking, however, sadly disappointed.
Malcolm had intended to go and tell Mr Graham of his plans that same
night, but he found himself too much exhausted to walk to Camden
Town. And thinking over it, he saw that it might be as well if he
took the bold measure he contemplated without revealing it to his
friend, to whom the knowledge might be the cause of inconvenience.
He therefore went home and to bed, that he might be strong for the
next day.
CHAPTER LI: THE PSYCHE
He rose early the next morning, and having fed and dressed Kelpie,
strapped her blanket behind her saddle, and, by all the macadamized
ways he could find, rode her to the wharf--near where the Thames
tunnel had just been commenced. He had no great difficulty with
her on the way, though it was rather nervous work at times. But of
late her submission to her master had been decidedly growing. When
he reached the wharf he rode her straight along the gangway on to
the deck of the smack, as the easiest if not perhaps the safest
way of getting her on board. As soon as she was properly secured,
and he had satisfied himself as to the provision they had made for
her, impressed upon the captain the necessity of being bountiful
to her, and brought a loaf of sugar on board for her use, he left
her with a lighter heart than he had had ever since first he fetched
her from the same deck.
It was a long way to walk home, but he felt much better, and thought
nothing of it. And all the way, to his delight, the wind met him
in the face. A steady westerly breeze was blowing. If God makes
his angels winds, as the Psalmist says, here was one sent to wait
upon him. He reached Portland Place in time to present himself for
orders at the usual hour. On these occasions, his mistress not
unfrequently saw him herself; but to make sure, he sent up the
request that she would speak with him.
"I am sorry to hear that you have been ill, Malcolm," she said
kindly, as he entered the room, where happily he found her alone.
"I am quite well now, thank you, my lady," he returned. "I thought
your ladyship would like to hear something I happened to come to
the knowledge of the other day."
"Yes? What was that?"
"I called at Mr Lenorme's to learn what news there might be of him.
The housekeeper let me go up to his painting room; and what should
I see there, my lady, but the portrait of my lord marquis more
beautiful than ever, the brown smear all gone, and the likeness,
to my mind, greater than before!"
"Then Mr Lenorme is come home!" cried Florimel, scarce attempting
to conceal the pleasure his report gave her.
"That I cannot say," said Malcolm. "His housekeeper had a letter
from him a few days ago from Newcastle. If he is come back, I do
not think she knows it. It seems strange, for who would touch one
of his pictures but himself?--except, indeed, he got some friend
to set it to rights for your ladyship. Anyhow, I thought you would
like to see it again."
"I will go at once," Florimel said, rising hastily. "Get the horses,
Malcolm, as fast as you can."
"If my Lord Liftore should come before we start?" he suggested.
"Make haste," returned his mistress, impatiently.
Malcolm did make haste, and so did Florimel. What precisely was in
her thoughts who shall say, when she could not have told herself?
But doubtless the chance of seeing Lenorme urged her more than the
desire to see her father's portrait. Within twenty minutes they
were riding down Grosvenor Place, and happily heard no following
hoofbeats. When they came near the river, Malcolm rode up to her
and said,
"Would your ladyship allow me to put up the horses in Mr Lenorme's
stable? I think I could show your ladyship a point or two that may
have escaped you."
Florimel thought for a moment, and concluded it would be less
awkward, would indeed tend rather to her advantage with Lenorme,
should he really be there, to have Malcolm with her.
"Very well," she answered. "I see no objection. I will ride round
with you to the stable, and we can go in the back way."
They did so. The gardener took the horses, and they went up to
the study. Lenorme was not there, and everything was just as when
Malcolm was last in the room. Florimel was much disappointed, but
Malcolm talked to her about the portrait, and did all he could to
bring back vivid the memory of her father. At length with a little
sigh she made a movement to go.
"Has your ladyship ever seen the river from the next room?" said
Malcolm, and, as he spoke, threw open the door of communication,
near which they stood.
Florimel, who was always ready to see, walked straight into the
drawing room, and went to a window.
"There is that yacht lying there still!" remarked Malcolm. "Does
she not remind you of the Psyche, my lady?"
"Every boat does that," answered his mistress. "I dream about her.
But I couldn't tell her from many another."
"People used to boats, my lady, learn to know them like the faces
of their friends.--What a day for a sail!"
"Do you suppose that one is for hire?" said Florimel.
"We can ask," replied Malcolm; and with that went to another window,
raised the sash, put his head out, and whistled. Over tumbled Davy
into the dinghy at the Psyche's stern, unloosed the painter, and
was rowing for the shore ere the minute was out.
"Why, they're answering your whistle already!" said Florimel.
"A whistle goes farther, and perhaps is more imperative than any
other call," returned Malcolm evasively, "Will your ladyship come
down and hear what they say?"
A wave from the slow silting lagoon of her girlhood came washing
over the sands between, and Florimel flew merrily down the stair
and across ball and garden and road to the riverbank, where was a
little wooden stage or landing place, with a few steps, at which
the dinghy was just arriving.
"Will you take us on board and show us your boat?" said Malcolm.
"Ay, ay, sir," answered Davy.
Without a moment's hesitation, Florimel took Malcolm's offered
hand, and stepped into the boat. Malcolm took the oars, and shot
the little tub across the river. When they got alongside the cutter,
Travers reached down both his hands for hers, and Malcolm held one
of his for her foot, and Florimel sprang on deck.
"Young woman on board, Davy?" whispered Malcolm.
"Ay, ay, sir--doon i' the fore," answered Davy, and Malcolm stood
by his mistress.
"She is like the Psyche," said Florimel, turning to him, "only the
mast is not so tall."
"Her topmast is struck, you see my lady--to make sure of her
passing clear under the bridges."
"Ask them if we couldn't go down the river a little way," said
Florimel. "I should so like to see the houses from it!"
Malcolm conferred a moment with Travers and returned.
"They are quite willing, my lady," he said.
"What fun!" cried Florimel, her girlish spirit all at the surface.
"How I should like to run away from horrid London altogether, and
never hear of it again!--Dear old Lossie House! and the boats!
and the fishermen!" she added meditatively.
The anchor was already up, and the yacht drifting with the falling
tide. A moment more and she spread a low treble reefed mainsail
behind, a little jib before, and the western breeze filled and
swelled and made them alive, and with wind and tide she went swiftly
down the smooth stream. Florimel clapped her hands with delight.
The shores and all their houses fled up the river. They slid past
rowboats, and great heavy barges loaded to the lip, with huge red
sails and yellow, glowing and gleaming in the hot sun. For one
moment the shadow of Vauxhall Bridge gloomed like a death cloud,
chill and cavernous, over their heads; then out again they shot
into the lovely light and heat of the summer world.
"It's well we ain't got to shoot Putney or Battersea," said Travers
with a grim smile, as he stood shaping her course by inches with
his magic-like steering, in the midst of a little covey of pleasure
boats: "with this wind we might ha' brought either on 'em about
our ears like an old barn."
"This is life!" cried Florimel, as the river bore them nearer and
nearer to the vortex--deeper and deeper into the tumult of London.
How solemn the silent yet never resting highway!--almost majestic
in the stillness of its hurrying might as it rolled heedless past
houses and wharfs that crowded its brinks. They darted through under
Westminster Bridge, and boats and barges more and more numerous
covered the stream. Waterloo Bridge, Blackfriars' Bridge they
passed. Sunlight all, and flashing water, and gleaming oars, and
gay boats, and endless motion! out of which rose calm, solemn,
reposeful, the resting yet hovering dome of St Paul's, with its
satellite spires, glittering in the tremulous hot air that swathed
in multitudinous ripples the mighty city.
Southwark Bridge--and only London Bridge lay between them and the
open river, still widening as it flowed to the aged ocean. Through
the centre arch they shot, and lo! a world of masts, waiting to
woo with white sails the winds that should bear them across deserts
of water to lands of wealth and mystery. Through the labyrinth led
the highway of the stream, and downward they still swept--past
the Tower, and past the wharf where that morning Malcolm had said
goodbye for a time to his four footed subject and friend. The
smack's place was empty. With her hugest of sails, she was tearing
and flashing away, out of their sight, far down the river before
them.
Through dingy dreary Limehouse they sank, and coasted the melancholy,
houseless Isle of Dogs; but on all sides were ships and ships,
and when they thinned at last, Greenwich rose before them. London
and the parks looked unendurable from this more varied life, more
plentiful air, and above all more abundant space. The very spirit
of freedom seemed to wave his wings about the yacht, fanning full
her sails.
Florimel breathed as if she never could have enough of the sweet
wind; each breath gave her all the boundless region whence it blew;
she gazed as if she would fill her soul with the sparkling gray
of the water, the sun melted blue of the sky, and the incredible
green of the flat shores. For minutes she would be silent, her
parted lips revealing her absorbed delight, then break out in a
volley of questions, now addressing Malcolm, now Travers. She tried
Davy too, but Davy knew nothing except his duty here. The Thames
was like an unknown eternity to the creature of the Wan Water--
about which, however, he could have told her a thousand things.
Down and down the river they flew, and not until miles and miles of
meadows had come between her and London, not indeed until Gravesend
appeared, did it occur to Florimel that perhaps it might be well
to think by and by of returning. But she trusted everything to
Malcolm, who of course would see that everything was as it ought
to be.
Her excitement began to flag a little. She was getting tired. The
bottle had been strained by the ferment of the wine. She turned to
Malcolm.
"Had we not better be putting about?" she said. "I should like to
go on for ever--but we must come another day, better provided.
We shall hardly be in time for lunch."
It was nearly four o'clock, but she rarely looked at her watch,
and indeed wound it up only now and then.
"Will you go below and have some lunch, my lady?" said Malcolm.
"There can't be anything on board!" she answered.
"Come and see, my lady," rejoined Malcolm, and led the way to the
companion.
When she saw the little cabin, she gave a cry of delight.
"Why, it is just like our own cabin in the Psyche," she said, "only
smaller! Is it not, Malcolm?"
"It is smaller, my lady," returned Malcolm, "but then there is a
little state room beyond."
On the table was a nice meal--cold, but not the less agreeable in
the summer weather. Everything looked charming. There were flowers;
the linen was snowy; and the bread was the very sort Florimel liked
best.
"It is a perfect fairy tale!" she cried. "And I declare here is our
crest on the forks and spoons!--What does it all mean, Malcolm?"
But Malcolm had slipped away, and gone on deck again, leaving her
to food and conjecture, while he brought Rose up from the fore
cabin for a little air. Finding her fast asleep, however, he left
her undisturbed.
Florimel finished her meal, and set about examining the cabin more
closely. The result was bewilderment. How could a yacht, fitted with
such completeness, such luxury, be lying for hire in the Thames?
As for the crest on the plate, that was a curious coincidence: many
people had the same crest. But both materials and colours were like
those of the Pysche! Then the pretty bindings on the book shelves
attracted her: every book was either one she knew or one of which
Malcolm had spoken to her! He must have had a hand in the business!
Next she opened the door of the stateroom; but when she saw the
lovely little white berth, and the indications of every comfort
belonging to a lady's chamber, she could keep her pleasure to herself
no longer. She hastened to the companionway, and called Malcolm.
"What does it all mean?" she said, her eyes and cheeks glowing with
delight.
"It means, my lady, that you are on board your own yacht, the Pysche.
I brought her with me from Portlossie, and have had her fitted up
according to the wish you once expressed to my lord, your father,
that you could sleep on board. Now you might make a voyage of many
days in her."
"Oh, Malcolm!" was all Florimel could answer. She was too pleased
to think as yet of any of the thousand questions that might naturally
have followed.
"Why, you've got the Arabian Nights, and all my favourite books
there!" she said at length.--"How long shall we have before we
get among the ships again?"
She fancied she had given orders to return, and that the boat had
been put about.
"A good many hours, my lady," answered Malcolm.
"Ah, of course!" she returned; "it takes much longer against wind
and tide.--But my time is my own," she added, rather in the manner
of one asserting a freedom she did not feel, "and I don't see why
I should trouble myself. It will make some to do, I daresay, if
I don't appear at dinner; but it won't do anybody any harm. They
wouldn't break their hearts if they never saw me again."
"Not one of them, my lady," said Malcolm.
She lifted her head sharply, but took no farther notice of his
remark.
"I won't be plagued any more," she said, holding counsel with
herself, but intending Malcolm to hear. "I will break with them
rather. Why should I not be as free as Clementina? She comes and
goes when and where she likes, and does what she pleases."
"Why, indeed?" said Malcolm; and a pause followed, during which
Florimel stood apparently thinking, but in reality growing sleepy.
"I will lie down a little," she said, "with one of those lovely
books."
The excitement, the air, and the pleasure generally had wearied
her. Nothing could have suited Malcolm better. He left her. She
went to her berth, and fell fast asleep.
When she awoke, it was some time before she could think where she
was. A strange ghostly light was about her, in which she could see
nothing plain; but the motion helped her to understand. She rose,
and crept to the companion ladder, and up on deck. Wonder upon wonder!
A clear full moon reigned high in the heavens, and below there was
nothing but water, gleaming with her molten face, or rushing past
the boat lead coloured, gray, and white. Here and there a vessel
--a snow cloud of sails--would glide between them and the moon,
and turn black from truck to waterline.
The mast of the Psyche had shot up to its full height; the reef
points of the mainsail were loose, and the gaff was crowned with
its topsail; foresail and jib were full; and she was flying as if
her soul thirsted within her after infinite spaces. Yet what more
could she want? All around her was wave rushing upon wave, and
above her blue heaven and regnant moon. Florimel gave a great sigh
of delight.
But what did it--what could it mean? What was Malcolm about?
Where was he taking her? What would London say to such an escapade
extraordinary? Lady Bellair would be the first to believe she had
run away with her groom--she knew so many instances of that sort
of thing! and Lord Liftore would be the next. It was too bad of
Malcolm! But she did not feel very angry with him, notwithstanding,
for had he not done it to give her pleasure? And assuredly he had
not failed. He knew better than anyone how to please her--better
even than Lenorme.
She looked around her. No one was to be seen but Davie, who was
steering. The mainsail hid the men, and Rose, having been on deck
for two or three hours, was again below. She turned to Davy. But
the boy had been schooled, and only answered,
"I maunna sae naething sae lang's I'm steerin', mem."
She called Malcolm. He was beside her ere his name had left her
lips. The boy's reply had irritated her, and, coming upon this
sudden and utter change in her circumstances, made her feel as one
no longer lady of herself and her people, but a prisoner.
"Once more, what does this mean, Malcolm?" she said, in high
displeasure. "You have deceived me shamefully! You left me to
believe we were on our way back to London--and here we are out
at sea! Am I no longer your mistress? Am I a child, to be taken
where you please?--And what, pray, is to become of the horses
you left at Mr Lenorme's?"
Malcolm was glad of a question he was prepared to answer.
"They are in their own stalls by this time, my lady. I took care
of that."
"Then it was all a trick to carry me off against my will!" she
cried, with growing indignation.
"Hardly against your will, my lady," said Malcolm, embarrassed and
thoughtful, in a tone deprecating and apologetic.
"Utterly against my will!" insisted Florimel. "Could I ever have
consented to go to sea with a boatful of men, and not a woman on
board? You have disgraced me, Malcolm."
Between anger and annoyance she was on the point of crying.
"It's not so bad as that, my lady.--Here, Rose!"
At his word, Rose appeared.
"I've brought one of Lady Bellair's maids for your service, my
lady," Malcolm went on. "She will do the best she can to wait on
you."
Florimel gave her a look.
"I don't remember you," she said.
"No, my lady. I was in the kitchen."
"Then you can't be of much use to me."
"A willing heart goes a long way, my lady," said Rose, prettily.
"That is fine," returned Florimel, rather pleased. "Can you get me
some tea?"
"Yes, my lady."
Florimel turned, and, much to Malcolm's content vouchsafing him
not a word more, went below.
Presently a little silver lamp appeared in the roof of the cabin,
and in a few minutes Davy came, carrying the tea tray, and followed
by Rose with the teapot. As soon as they were alone, Florimel began
to question Rose; but the girl soon satisfied her that she knew
little or nothing.
When Florimel pressed her how she could go she knew not where at the
desire of a fellow servant, she gave such confused and apparently
contradictory answers, that Florimel began to think ill of both
her and Malcolm, and to feel more uncomfortable and indignant; and
the more she dwelt upon Malcolm's presumption, and speculated as
to his possible design in it, she grew the angrier.
She went again on deck. By this time she was in a passion--little
mollified by the sense of her helplessness.
"MacPhail," she said, laying the restraint of dignified utterance
upon her words, "I desire you to give me a good reason for your
most unaccountable behaviour. Where are you taking me?"
"To Lossie House, my lady."
"Indeed!" she returned with scornful and contemptuous surprise. "Then
I order you to change your course at once and return to London."
"I cannot, my lady."
"Cannot! Whose orders but mine are you under, pray?"
"Your father's, my lady."
"I have heard more than enough of that unfortunate--statement,
and the measureless assumptions founded on it. I shall heed it no
longer."
"I am only doing my best to take care of you, my lady, as I promised
him. You will know it one day if you will but trust me."
"I have trusted you ten times too much, and have gained nothing in
return but reasons for repenting it. Like all other servants made
too much of you have grown insolent. But I shall put a stop to it.
I cannot possibly keep you in my service after this. Am I to pay
a master where I want a servant?"
Malcolm was silent.
"You must have some reason for this strange conduct," she went on.
"How can your supposed duty to my father justify you in treating
me with such disrespect. Let me know your reasons. I have a right
to know them."
"I will answer you, my lady," said Malcolm. "--Davy, go forward;
I will take the helm.--Now, my lady, if you will sit on that
cushion.--Rose, bring my lady a fur cloak you will find in the
cabin.--Now, my lady, if you will speak low that neither Davy
nor Rose shall hear us.--Travers is deaf--I will answer you."
"I ask you," said Florimel, "why you have dared to bring me away
like this. Nothing but some danger threatening me could justify
it."
"There you say it, my lady."
"And what is the danger, pray?"
'You were going on the continent with Lady Bellair and Lord Liftore
--and without me to do as I had promised."
"You insult me!" cried Florimel. "Are my movements to be subject
to the approbation of my groom? Is it possible my father could give
his henchman such authority over his daughter? I ask you again,
where was the danger?"
"In your company, my lady."
"So!" exclaimed Florimel, attempting to rise in sarcasm as she rose
in wrath, lest she should fall into undignified rage. "And what
may be your objection to my companions?"
"That Lady Bellair is not respected in any circle where her history
is known; and that her nephew is a scoundrel."
"It but adds to the wrong you heap on me, that you compel me
to hear such wicked abuse of my father's friends," said Florimel,
struggling with tears of anger. But for regard to her dignity she
would have broken out in fierce and voluble rage.
"If your father knew Lord Liftore as I do, he would be the last
man my lord marquis would see in your company."
"Because he gave you a beating, you have no right to slander him,"
said Florimel spitefully.
Malcolm laughed. He must either laugh or be angry.
"May I ask how your ladyship came to hear of that?"
"He told me himself," she answered.
"Then, my lady, he is a liar, as well as worse. It was I who gave
him the drubbing he deserved for his insolence to my--mistress.
I am sorry to mention the disagreeable fact, but it is absolutely
necessary you should know what sort of man he is."
"And, if there be a lie, which of the two is more likely to tell
it?"
"That question is for you, my lady, to answer."
"I never knew a servant who would not tell a lie," said Florimel.
"I was brought up a fisherman," said Malcolm.
"And," Florimel went on, "I have heard my father say no gentleman
ever told a lie."
"Then Lord Liftore is no gentleman," said Malcolm. "But I am not
going to plead my own cause even to you, my lady. If you can doubt
me, do. I have only one thing more to say: that when I told you
and my Lady Clementina about the fisher girl and the gentleman--"
"How dare you refer to that again? Even you ought to know there
are things a lady cannot hear. It is enough you affronted me with
that before Lady Clementina--and after foolish boasts on my part
of your good breeding! Now you bring it up again, when I cannot
escape your low talk!"
"My lady, I am sorrier than you think; but which is worse--that
you should hear such a thing spoken of, or make a friend of the
man who did it--and that is Lord Liftore?"
Florimel turned away, and gave her seeming attention to the moonlit
waters, sweeping past the swift sailing cutter.
Malcolm's heart ached for her: he thought she was deeply troubled.
But she was not half so shocked as he imagined. Infinitely worse
would have been the shock to him could he have seen how little the
charge against Liftore had touched her. Alas! evil communications
had already in no small degree corrupted her good manners. Lady
Bellair had uttered no bad words in her hearing: had softened to
decency every story that required it; had not unfrequently tacked
a worldly wise moral to the end of one; and yet, and yet, such had
been the tone of her telling, such the allotment of laughter and
lamentation, such the acceptance of things as necessary, and such
the repudiation of things as Quixotic, puritanical, impossible,
that the girl's natural notions of the lovely and the clean had
got dismally shaken and confused.
Happily it was as yet more her judgment than her heart that was
perverted. But had she spoken out what was in her thoughts as she
looked over the great wallowing water, she would have merely said
that for all that Liftore was no worse than other men. They were
all the same. It was very unpleasant; but how could a lady help
it? If men would behave so, were by nature like that, women must
not make themselves miserable about it. They need ask no questions.
They were not supposed to be acquainted with the least fragment of
the facts, and they must cleave to their ignorance, and lay what
blame there might be on the women concerned. The thing was too
indecent even to think about.
Ostrich-like they must hide their heads--close their eyes and
take the vice in their arms--to love, honour, and obey, as if it
were virtue's self, and men as pure as their demands on their wives.
There are thousands that virtually reason thus: Only ignore the
thing effectually, and for you it is not. Lie right thoroughly
to yourself, and the thing is gone. The lie destroys the fact. So
reasoned Lady Macbeth--until conscience at last awoke, and she
could no longer keep even the smell of the blood from her. What
need Lady Lossie care about the fisher girl, or any other concerned
with his past, so long as he behaved like a gentleman to her!
Malcolm was a foolish meddling fellow, whose interference was the
more troublesome that it was honest
She stood thus gazing on the waters that heaved and swept astern,
but without knowing that she saw them, her mind full of such nebulous
matter as, condensed, would have made such thoughts as I have set
down. And still and ever the water rolled and tossed away behind
in the moonlight.
"Oh, my lady!" said Malcolm, "what it would be to have a soul as
big and as clean as all this!"
She made no reply, did not turn her head, or acknowledge that she
heard him, a few minutes more she stood, then went below in silence,
and Malcolm saw no more of her that night.
CHAPTER LII: HOPE CHAPEL
It was Sunday, during which Malcolm lay at the point of death some
three stories above his sister's room. There, in the morning, while
he was at the worst, she was talking with Clementina, who had called
to see whether she would not go and hear the preacher of whom he
had spoken with such fervour. Florimel laughed.
"You seem to take everything for gospel Malcolm says, Clementina!"
"Certainly not," returned Clementina, rather annoyed. "Gospel
nowadays is what nobody disputes and nobody heeds; but I do heed
what Malcolm says, and intend to find out, if I can, whether there
is any reality in it. I thought you had a high opinion of your
groom!"
"I would take his word for anything a man's word can be taken for,"
said Florimel.
"But you don't set much store by his judgment?"
"Oh, I daresay he's right. But I don't care for the things you
like so much to talk with him about. He's a sort of poet, anyhow,
and poets must be absurd. They are always either dreaming or talking
about their dreams. They care nothing for the realities of life.
No--if you want advice, you must go to your lawyer or clergyman,
or some man of common sense, neither groom nor poet."
"Then, Florimel, it comes to this--that this groom of yours
is one of the truest of men, and one who possessed your father's
confidence, but you are so much his superior that you are capable
of judging him, and justified in despising his judgment."
"Only in practical matters, Clementina."
"And duty towards God is with you such a practical matter that you
cannot listen to anything he has got to say about it."
Florimel shrugged her shoulders.
"For my part, I would give all I have to know there was a God worth
believing in."
"Clementina!"
"What?"
"Of course there is a God. It is very horrible to deny it."
"Which is worse--to deny it, or to deny him? Now, I confess to
doubting it--that is, the fact of a God; but you seem to me to
deny God himself, for you admit there is a God--think it very
wicked to deny that, and yet you don't take interest enough in him
to wish to learn anything about him. You won't think, Florimel. I
don't fancy you ever really think."
Florimel again laughed.
"I am glad," she said, "that you don't judge me incapable of that
high art. But it is not so very long since Malcolm used to hint
something much the same about yourself, my lady!"
"Then he was quite right," returned Clementina. "I am only just
beginning to think, and if I can find a teacher, here I am, his
pupil."
"Well, I suppose I can spare my groom quite enough to teach you all
he knows," Florimel said, with what Clementina took for a marked
absence of expression. She reddened. But she was not one to defend
herself before her principles.
"If he can, why should he not?" she said. "But it was of his friend
Mr Graham I was thinking---not himself."
"You cannot tell whether he has got anything to teach you."
"Your groom's testimony gives likelihood enough to make it my duty
to go and see. I intend to find the place this evening."
"It must be some little ranting methodist conventicle. He would
not be allowed to preach in a church, you know."
"Of course not! The church of England is like the apostle that
forbade the man casting out devils, and got forbid himself for it
--with this difference that she won't be forbid. Well, she chooses
her portion with Dives and not Lazarus. She is the most arrant
respecter of persons I know, and her Christianity is worse than a
farce. It was that first of all that drove me to doubt. If I could
find a place where everything was just the opposite, the poorer it
was the better I should like it. It makes me feel quite wicked to
hear a smug parson reading the gold ring and the goodly apparel,
while the pew openers beneath are illustrating in dumb show the
very thing the apostle is pouring out the vial of his indignation
upon over their heads;--doing it calmly and without a suspicion,
for the parson, while he reads, is rejoicing in his heart over the
increasing aristocracy of his congregation. The farce is fit to
make a devil in torment laugh."
Once more, Florimel laughed aloud.
"Another revolution, Clementina, and we shall have you heading the
canaille to destroy Westminster Abbey."
"I would follow any leader to destroy falsehood," said Clementina.
"No canaille will take that up until it meddles with their stomachs
or their pew rents."
"Really, Clementina, you are the worst Jacobin I ever heard talk.
My groom is quite an aristocrat beside you."
"Not an atom more than I am. I do acknowledge an aristocracy--
but it is one neither of birth nor of intellect nor of wealth."
"What is there besides to make one?"
"Something I hope to find before long. What if there be indeed a
kingdom and an aristocracy of life and truth!--Will you or will
you not go with me to hear this schoolmaster?"
"I will go anywhere with you, if it were only to be seen with such
a beauty," said Florimel, throwing her arms round her neck and
kissing her.
Clementina gently returned the embrace, and the thing was settled.
The sound of their wheels, pausing in swift revolution with the
clangor of iron hoofs on rough stones at the door of the chapel,
refreshed the diaconal heart like the sound of water in the desert.
For the first time in the memory of the oldest, the dayspring of
success seemed on the point of breaking over Hope Chapel. The ladies
were ushered in by Mr Marshal himself, to Clementina's disgust and
Florimel's amusement, with much the same attention as his own shop
walker would have shown to carriage customers--How could a man
who taught light and truth be found in such a mean entourage? But
the setting was not the jewel. A real stone might be found in a
copper ring. So said Clementina to herself as she sat waiting her
hoped for instructor.
Mrs Catanach settled her broad back into its corner, chuckling
over her own wisdom and foresight. Her seat was at the pulpit end
of the chapel, at right angles to almost all the rest of the pews
--chosen because thence, if indeed she could not well see the
preacher, she could get a good glimpse of nearly everyone that
entered. Keen sighted both physically and intellectually, she
recognized Florimel the moment she saw her.
"Twa doos mair to the boody craw!" she laughed to herself.  "Ae
man thrashin', an' twa birdies pickin'!" she went on, quoting the
old nursery nonsense. Then she stooped, and let down her veil.
Florimel hated her, and therefore might know her.
"It's the day o' the Lord wi' auld Sanny Grame!" she resumed
to herself, as she lifted her head. "He's stickit nae mair, but a
chosen trumpet at last! Foul fa' 'im for a wearifu' cratur for a'
that! He has nowther balm o' grace nor pith o' damnation.
"Yon laad Flemin', 'at preached i' the Baillies' Barn aboot the
dowgs gaein' roon' an' roon' the wa's o' the New Jeroozlem, gien
he had but hauden thegither an' no gean to the worms sae sune, wad
hae dung a score o' 'im. But Sanny angers me to that degree 'at but
for rizons--like yon twa--I wad gang oot i' the mids o' ane o'
's palahvers, an' never come back, though I ha'e a haill quarter o'
my sittin' to sit oot yet, an' it cost me dear, an' fits the auld
back o' me no that ill."
When Mr Graham rose to read the psalm, great was Clementina's
disappointment: he looked altogether, as she thought, of a sort
with the place--mean and dreary--of the chapel very chapelly,
and she did not believe it could be the man of whom Malcolm had
spoken. By a strange coincidence however, a kind of occurrence as
frequent as strange, he read for his text that same passage about
the gold ring and the vile raiment, in which we learn how exactly
the behaviour of the early Jewish churches corresponded to that
of the later English ones, and Clementina soon began to alter her
involuntary judgment of him when she found herself listening to
an utterance beside which her most voluble indignation would have
been but as the babble of a child.
Sweeping, incisive, withering, blasting denunciation, logic
and poetry combining in one torrent of genuine eloquence, poured
confusion and dismay upon head and heart of all who set themselves
up for pillars of the church without practising the first principles
of the doctrine of Christ--men who, professing to gather their
fellows together in the name of Christ, conducted the affairs of
the church on the principles of hell--men so blind and dull and
slow of heart, that they would never know what the outer darkness
meant until it had closed around them--men who paid court to
the rich for their money, and to the poor for their numbers--men
who sought gain first, safety next, and the will of God not at all
--men whose presentation of Christianity was enough to drive the
world to a preferable infidelity.
Clementina listened with her very soul. All doubt as to whether
this was Malcolm's friend, vanished within two minutes of his
commencement. If she rejoiced a little more than was humble or
healthful in finding that such a man thought as she thought, she
gained this good notwithstanding--the presence and power of a
man who believed in righteousness the doctrine he taught. Also she
perceived that the principles of equality he held, were founded
on the infinite possibilities of the individual--and of the race
only through the individual; and that he held these principles
with an absoluteness, an earnestness, a simplicity, that dwarfed
her loudest objurgation to the uneasy murmuring of a sleeper. She
could not but trust him, and her hope grew great that perhaps for
her he held the key of the kingdom of heaven. She saw that if what
this man said was true, then the gospel was represented by men who
knew nothing of its real nature, and by such she bad been led into
a false judgment of it.
"If such a man," said the schoolmaster in conclusion, "would but
once represent to himself that the man whom he regards as beneath
him, may nevertheless be immeasurably above him--and that after
no arbitrary judgment, but according to the absolute facts of
creation, the scale of the kingdom of God, in which being is rank;
if he could persuade himself of the possibility that he may yet
have to worship before the feet of those on whom he looks down as
on the creatures of another and meaner order of creation, would it
not sting him to rise, and, lest this should be one of such, make
offer of his chair to the poor man in the vile raiment? Would he
ever more, all his life long, dare to say, 'Stand thou there, or
sit here under my footstool?'"
During the week that followed, Clementina reflected with growing
delight on what she had heard, and looked forward to hearing more
of a kind correspondent on the approaching Sunday. Nor did the shock
of the disappearance of Florimel with Malcolm abate her desire to
be taught by Malcolm's friend.
Lady Bellair was astounded, mortified, enraged. Liftore turned grey
with passion, then livid with mortification, at the news. Not one
of all their circle, as Florimel had herself foreseen, doubted for
a moment that she had run away with that groom of hers. Indeed,
upon examination, it became evident that the scheme had been for
some time in hand: the yacht they had gone on board had been lying
there for months; and although she was her own mistress, and might
marry whom she pleased, it was no wonder she had run away, for how
could she have held her face to it, or up after it?
Lady Clementina accepted the general conclusion, but judged it
individually. She had more reason to be distressed at what seemed
to have taken place than anyone else; indeed it stung her to the
heart, wounding her worse than in its first stunning effects she was
able to know; yet she thought better rather than worse of Florimel
because of it. What she did not like in her with reference to the
affair was the depreciatory manner in which she had always spoken
of Malcolm. If genuine, it was quite inconsistent with due regard
for the man for whom she was yet prepared to sacrifice so much;
if, on the other hand, her slight opinion of his judgment was a
pretence, then she had been disloyal to the just prerogatives of
friendship.
The latter part of that week was the sorest time Clementina had
ever passed. But, like a true woman, she fought her own misery and
sense of loss, as well as her annoyance and anxiety,--constantly
saying to herself that, be the thing as it might, she could never
cease to be glad that she had known Malcolm MacPhail.
CHAPTER LIII: A NEW PUPIL
The sermon Lady Clementina heard with such delight had followed one
levelled at the common and right worldly idea of success harboured
by each, and unquestioned by one of the chief men of the community:
together they caused a strange uncertain sense of discomfort in
the mind diaconal. Slow to perceive that that idea, nauseous in
his presentment of it, was the very same cherished and justified
by themselves; unwilling also to believe that in his denunciation
of respecters of persons they themselves had a full share, they yet
felt a little uneasy from the vague whispers of their consciences
on the side of the neglected principles enounced, clashing with
the less vague conviction that if those whispers were encouraged
and listened to, the ruin of their hopes for their chapel, and
their influence in connection with it, must follow. They eyed each
other doubtfully, and there appeared a general tendency amongst
them to close pressed lips and single shakes of the head. But there
were other forces at work--tending in the same direction.
Whatever may have been the influence of the schoolmaster upon the
congregation gathered in Hope Chapel, there was one on whom his
converse, supplemented by his preaching, had taken genuine hold.
Frederick Marshal had begun to open his eyes to the fact that,
regarded as a profession, the ministry, as they called it in their
communion, was the meanest way of making a living in the whole
creation, one deserving the contempt of every man honest enough to
give honourable work, that is, work worth the money, for the money
paid him. Also he had a glimmering insight, on the other hand, into
the truth of what the dominie said--that it was the noblest of
martyrdoms to the man who, sent by God, loved the truth with his
whole soul, and was never happier than when bearing witness of
it, except, indeed, in those blessed moments when receiving it of
the Father. In consequence of this opening of his eyes the youth
recoiled with dismay from the sacrilegious mockery of which he had
been guilty in meditating the presumption of teaching holy things
of which the sole sign that he knew anything was now afforded by
this same recoil. At last he was not far from the kingdom of heaven,
though whether he was to be sent to persuade men that that kingdom
was amongst them, and must be in them, remained a question.
On the morning after the latter of those two sermons, Frederick,
as they sat at breakfast, succeeded, with no small effort, for he
feared his mother, in blurting out to his father the request that
he might be taken into the counting house; and when indignantly
requested, over the top of the teapot, to explain himself, declared
that he found it impossible to give his mind to a course of education
which could only end in the disappointment of his parents, seeing
he was at length satisfied that he had no call to the ministry.
His father was not displeased at the thought of having him at the
shop; but his mother was for some moments speechless with angry
tribulation. Recovering herself, with scornful bitterness she
requested to know to what tempter he had been giving ear--for
tempted he must have been ere son of hers would have been guilty
of backsliding from the cause; of taking his hand from the plough
and looking behind him. The youth returned such answers as, while
they satisfied his father he was right, served only to convince
his mother, where yet conviction was hardly needed, that she had to
thank the dominie for his defection, his apostasy from the church
to the world.
Incapable of perceiving that now first there was hope of a genuine
disciple in the child of her affection, she was filled with the gall
of disappointment, and with spite against the man who had taught
her son how worse than foolish it is to aspire to teach before one
has learned; nor did she fail to cast scathing reflections on her
husband, in that he had brought home a viper in his bosom, a wolf
into his fold, the wretched minion of a worldly church to lead her
son away captive at his will; and partly no doubt from his last
uncomfortable sermons, but mainly from the play of Mrs Marshal's
tongue on her husband's tympanum, the deacons in full conclave
agreed that no further renewal of the invitation to preach "for
them" should be made to the schoolmaster--just the end of the
business Mr Graham had expected, and for which he had provided. On
Tuesday morning he smiled to himself, and wondered whether, if he
were to preach in his own schoolroom the next Sunday evening, anyone
would come to hear him. On Saturday he received a cool letter of
thanks for his services, written by the ironmonger in the name of
the deacons, enclosing a cheque, tolerably liberal as ideas went,
in acknowledgment of them. The cheque Mr Graham returned, saying
that, as he was not a preacher by profession, he had no right to
take fees. It was a half holiday: he walked up to Hampstead Heath,
and was paid for everything, in sky and cloud, fresh air, and a
glorious sunset.
When the end of her troubled week came, and the Sunday of her
expectation brought lovely weather, with a certain vague suspicion
of peace, into the regions of Mayfair and Spitalfields, Clementina
walked across the Regent's Park to Hope Chapel, and its morning
observances; but thought herself poorly repaid for her exertions
by having to listen to a dreadful sermon and worse prayers from Mr
Masquar--one of the chief priests of Commonplace--a comfortable
idol to serve, seeing he accepts as homage to himself all that any
man offers to his own person, opinions, or history. But Clementina
contrived to endure it, comforting herself that she had made a
mistake in supposing Mr Graham preached in the morning.
In the evening her carriage once again drew up with clang and clatter
at the door of the chapel. But her coachman was out of temper at
having to leave the bosom of his family circle--as he styled the
table that upheld his pot of beer and jar of tobacco--of a Sunday,
and sought relief to his feelings in giving his horses a lesson in
crawling; the result of which was fortunate for his mistress: when
she entered, the obnoxious Mr Masquar was already reading the hymn.
She turned at once and made for the door.
But her carriage was already gone. A strange sense of loneliness
and desolation seized her. The place had grown hateful to her, and
she would have fled from it. Yet she lingered in the porch. The
eyes of the man in the pulpit, with his face of false solemnity
and low importance--she seemed to feel the look of them on her
back, yet she lingered. Now that Malcolm was gone, how was she to
learn when Mr Graham would be preaching?
"If you please, ma'am," said a humble and dejected voice.
She turned and saw the seamed and smoky face of the pew opener,
who had been watching her from the lobby, and had crept out after
her. She dropped a courtesy, and went on hurriedly, with an anxious
look now and then over her shoulder--"Oh, ma'am! we shan't see
'im no more. Our people here--they're very good people, but they
don't like to be told the truth. It seems to me as if they knowed
it so well they thought as how there was no need for them to mind
it."
"You don't mean that Mr Graham has given up preaching here?"
"They've given up askin' of 'im to preach, lady. But if ever there
was a good man in that pulpit, Mr Graham he do be that man!"
"Do you know where he lives?"
"Yes, ma'am; but it would be hard to direct you." Here she looked
in at the door of the chapel with a curious half frightened glance,
as if to satisfy herself that the inner door was closed. "But,"
she went on, "they won't miss me now the service is begun, and I
can be back before it's over. I'll show you where, ma'am."
"I should be greatly obliged to you," said Clementina, "only I am
sorry to give you the trouble."
"To tell the truth, I'm only too glad to get away," she returned,
"for the place it do look like a cementery, now he's out of it."
"Was he so kind to you?"
"He never spoke word to me, as to myself like, no, nor never gave
me sixpence, like Mr Masquar do; but he give me strength in my
heart to bear up, and that's better than meat or money."
It was a good half hour's walk, and during it Clementina held what
conversation she might with her companion. It was not much the
woman had to say of a general sort. She knew little beyond her
own troubles and the help that met them, but what else are the two
main forces whose composition results in upward motion? Her world
was very limited--the houses in which she went charing, the chapel
she swept and dusted, the neighbours with whom she gossipped, the
little shops where she bought the barest needs of her bare life;
but it was at least large enough to leave behind her; and if she
was not one to take the kingdom of heaven by force, she was yet
one to creep quietly into it. The earthly life of such as she--
immeasurably less sordid than that of the poet who will not work
for his daily bread, or that of the speculator who, having settled
money on his wife, risks that of his neighbour--passing away like
a cloud, will hang in their west, stained indeed, but with gold,
blotted, but with roses. Dull as it all was now, Clementina yet
gained from her unfoldings a new outlook upon life, its needs, its
sorrows, its consolations, and its hopes; nor was there any vulgar
pity in the smile of the one, or of degrading acknowledgment in
the tears of the other, when a piece of gold passed from hand to
hand, as they parted.
The Sunday sealed door of the stationer's shop--for there was no
private entrance to the house--was opened by another sad faced
woman. What a place to seek the secret of life in! Lovelily enfolds
the husk its kernel; but what the human eye turns from as squalid
and unclean may enfold the seed that clasps, couched in infinite
withdrawment, the vital germ of all that is lovely and graceful,
harmonious and strong, all without which no poet would sing, no
martyr burn, no king rule in righteousness, no geometrician pore
over the marvellous must.
The woman led her through the counter into a little dingy room
behind the shop, looking out on a yard a few feet square, with a
water butt, half a dozen flower pots, and a maimed plaster Cupid
perched on the windowsill. There sat the schoolmaster, in conversation
with a lady, whom the woman of the house, awed by her sternness and
grandeur, had, out of regard to her lodger's feelings, shown into
her parlour and not into his bedroom.
Cherishing the hope that the patent consequences of his line of action
might have already taught him moderation, Mrs Marshal, instead of
going to chapel to hear Mr Masquar, had paid Mr Graham a visit,
with the object of enlisting his sympathies if she could, at all
events his services, in the combating of the scruples he had himself
aroused in the bosom of her son. What had passed between them I
do not care to record, but when Lady Clementina--unannounced of
the landlady--entered, there was light enough, notwithstanding
the non reflective properties of the water butt, to reveal Mrs
Marshal flushed and flashing, Mr Graham grave and luminous, and
to enable the chapel business eye of Mrs Marshal, which saw every
stranger that entered "Hope," at once to recognise her as having
made one of the congregation the last Sunday evening.
Evidently one of Mr Graham's party, she was not prejudiced in her
favour. But there was that in her manner which impressed her--
that something ethereal and indescribable which she herself was
constantly aping, and, almost involuntarily, she took upon herself
such honours as the place, despicable in her eyes, would admit of.
She rose, made a sweeping courtesy, and addressed Lady Clementina
with such a manner as people of Mrs Marshal's ambitions put off
and on like their clothes.
"Pray, take a seat, ma'am, such as it is," she said, with a wave
of her hand. "I believe I have had the pleasure of seeing you at
our place."
Lady Clementina sat down: the room was too small to stand in, and
Mrs Marshal seemed to take the half of it.
"I am not aware of the honour," she returned, doubtful what the
woman meant--perhaps some shop or dressmaker's. Clementina was
not one who delighted in freezing her humbler fellow creatures, as
we know; but there was something altogether repulsive in the would
be grand but really arrogant behaviour of her fellow visitor.
"I mean," said Mrs Marshal, a little abashed, for ambition is not
strength, "at our little Bethel in Kentish Town! Not that we live
there!" she explained with a superior smile.
"Oh! I think I understand. You must mean the chapel where this
gentleman was preaching."
"That is my meaning," assented Mrs Marshal.
"I went there tonight," said Clementina, turning with some timidity
to Mr Graham. "That I did not find you there, sir, will, I hope,
explain--"Here she paused, and turned again to Mrs Marshal.  "I see
you think with me, ma'am, that a true teacher is worth following."
As she said this she turned once more to Mr Graham, who sat listening
with a queer, amused, but right courteous smile.
"I hope you will pardon me," she continued, "for venturing to
call upon you, and, as I have the misfortune to find you occupied,
allow me to call another day. If you would set me a time, I should
be more obliged than I can tell you," she concluded, her voice
trembling a little.
"Stay now, if you will, madam," returned the schoolmaster, with a
bow of oldest fashioned courtesy. "This lady has done laying her
commands upon me, I believe."
"As you think proper to call them commands, Mr Graham, I conclude
you intend to obey them," said Mrs Marshal, with a forced smile
and an attempt at pleasantry.
"Not for the world, madam," he answered. "Your son is acting the
part of a gentleman--yes, I make bold to say, of one who is very
nigh the kingdom of heaven, if not indeed within its gate, and before
I would check him I would be burnt at the stake--even were your
displeasure the fire, madam," he added, with a kindly bow. "Your
son is a line fellow."
"He would be, if he were left to himself. Good evening, Mr Graham.
Goodbye, rather, for I think we are not likely to meet again."
"In heaven, I hope, madam; for by that time we shall be able to
understand each other," said the schoolmaster, still kindly.
Mrs Marshal made no answer beyond a facial flash as she turned to
Clementina.
"Good evening, ma'am," she said. "To pay court to the earthen
vessel because of the treasure it may happen to hold, is to be a
respecter of persons as bad as any."
An answering flash broke from Clementina's blue orbs, but her speech
was more than calm as she returned,
"I learned something of that lesson last Sunday evening, I hope,
ma'am. But you have left me far behind, for you seem to have learned
disrespect even to the worthiest of persons. Good evening, ma'am."
She looked the angry matron full in the face, with an icy regard,
from which, as from the Gorgon eye, she fled.
The victor turned to the schoolmaster.
"I beg your pardon, sir," she said, "for presuming to take your
part, but a gentleman is helpless with a vulgar woman."
"I thank you, madam. I hope the sharpness of your rebuke--but
indeed the poor woman can hardly help her rudeness, for she is very
worldly, and believes herself very pious. It is the old story--
hard for the rich."
Clementina was struck.
"I too am rich and worldly," she said. "But I know that I am not
pious, and if you would but satisfy me that religion is common
sense, I would try to be religious with all my heart and soul."
"I willingly undertake the task. But let us know each other a
little first. And lest I should afterwards seem to have taken an
advantage of you, I hope you have no wish to be nameless to me, for
my friend Malcolm MacPhail had so described you that I recognized
your ladyship at once."
Clementina said that, on the contrary, she had given her name to
the woman who opened the door.
"It is because of what Malcolm said of you that I ventured to come
to you," she added.
"Have you seen Malcolm lately?" he asked, his brow clouding a
little. "It is more than a week since he has been to me."
Thereupon, with embarrassment, such as she would never have felt except
in the presence of pure simplicity, she told of his disappearance
with his mistress.
"And you think they have run away together?" said the schoolmaster,
his face beaming with what, to Clementina's surprise, looked almost
like merriment.
"Yes, I think so," she answered. "Why not, if they choose?"
"I will say this for my friend Malcolm," returned Mr Graham composedly,
"that whatever he did I should expect to find not only all right
in intention, but prudent and well devised also. The present may
well seem a rash, ill considered affair for both of them, but--"
"I see no necessity either for explanation or excuse," said
Clementina, too eager to mark that she interrupted Mr Graham. "In
making up her mind to marry him, Lady Lossie has shown greater
wisdom and courage than, I confess, I had given her credit for."
"And Malcolm?" rejoined the schoolmaster softly. "Should you say
of him that he showed equal wisdom?"
"I decline to give an opinion upon the gentleman's part in the
business," answered Clementina, laughing, but glad there was so
little light in the room, for she was painfully conscious of the
burning of her cheeks. "Besides, I have no measure to apply to
Malcolm," she went on, a little hurriedly. "He is like no one else
I have ever talked with, and I confess there is something about
him I cannot understand. Indeed, he is beyond me altogether."
"Perhaps, having known him from infancy, I might be able to explain
him," returned Mr Graham, in a tone that invited questioning.
"Perhaps, then," said Clementina, "I may be permitted, in jealousy
for the teaching I have received of him, to confess my bewilderment
that one so young should be capable of dealing with such things as
he delights in. The youth of the prophet makes me doubt his prophecy."
"At least," rejoined Mr Graham, "the phenomenon coincides with what
the master of these things said of them--that they were revealed
to babes and not to the wise and prudent. As to Malcolm's wonderful
facility in giving them form and utterance, that depends so
immediately on the clear sight of them, that, granted a little of
the gift poetic, developed through reading and talk, we need not
wonder much at it."
"You consider your friend a genius?" suggested Clementina.
"I consider him possessed of a kind of heavenly common sense,
equally at home in the truths of divine relation, and the facts of
the human struggle with nature and her forces. I should never have
discovered my own ignorance in certain points of the mathematics
but for the questions that boy put to me before he was twelve years
of age. A thing not understood lay in his mind like a fretting
foreign body. But there is a far more important factor concerned
than this exceptional degree of insight. Understanding is the reward
of obedience. Peter says 'the Holy Ghost, whom God hath given them
that obey him.' Obedience is the key to every door. I am perplexed
at the stupidity of the ordinary religious being. In the most practical
of all matters, he will talk, and speculate, and try to feel, but
he will not set himself to do. It is different with Malcolm. From
the first he has been trying to obey. Nor do I see why it should be
strange that even a child should understand these things, if they
are the very elements of the region for which we were created and
to which our being holds essential relations, as a bird to the
air, or a fish to the sea. If a man may not understand the things
of God whence he came, what shall he understand?"
"How, then, is it that so few do understand?"
"Because where they know, so few obey. This boy, I say, did. If
you had seen, as I have, the almost superhuman struggles of his
will to master the fierce temper his ancestors gave him, you would
marvel less at what he has so early become. I have seen him, white
with passion, cast himself on his face on the shore, and cling with
his hands to the earth as if in a paroxysm of bodily suffering;
then after a few moments rise and do a service to the man who had
wronged him. Were it any wonder if the light should have soon gone
up in a soul like that? When I was a younger man I used to go out
with the fishing boats now and then, drawn chiefly by my love for
the boy, who earned his own bread that way before he was in his
teens. One night we were caught in a terrible storm, and had to
stand out to sea in the pitch dark. He was then not fourteen. 'Can
you let a boy like that steer?' I said to the captain of the boat.
'Yes; just a boy like that,' he answered. 'Ma'colm 'ill steer
as straucht's a porpus.' When he was relieved, he crept over the
thwarts to where I sat. 'Is there any true definition of a straight
line, sir?' he said. 'I can't take the one in my Euclid.'--'So
you're not afraid, Malcolm?' I returned, heedless of his question,
for I wanted to see what he would answer. 'Afraid, sir!' he rejoined
with some surprise, 'I wad ill like to hear the Lord say, O thou
o' little faith!'--'But,' I persisted, 'God may mean to drown
you!'--'An' what for no?' he returned. 'Gien ye war to tell me
'at I micht be droon't ohn him meant it, I wad be fleyt eneuch.'
I see your ladyship does not understand: I will interpret the dark
saying: 'And why should he not drown me? If you were to tell me
I might be drowned without his meaning it, I should be frightened
enough.' Believe me, my lady, the right way is simple to find,
though only they that seek it first can find it. But I have allowed
myself," concluded the schoolmaster, "to be carried adrift in my
laudation of Malcolm. You did not come to hear praises of him, my
lady."
"I owe him much," said Clementina. "--But tell me then, Mr Graham,
how is it that you know there is a God, and one--one--fit to
be trusted as you trust him?"
"In no way that I can bring to bear on the reason of another so as
to produce conviction."
"Then what is to become of me?"
"I can do for you what is far better. I can persuade you to look
and see whether before your own door stands not a gate--lies not
a path to walk in. Entering by that gate, walking in that path,
you shall yourself arrive at the conviction, which no man can give
you, that there is a living Love and Truth at the heart of your
being, and pervading all that surrounds you. The man who seeks
the truth in any other manner will never find it. Listen to me a
moment, my lady. I loved that boy's mother. Naturally she did not
love me--how could she? I was very unhappy. I sought comfort
from the unknown source of my life. He gave me to understand his
Son, and so I understood himself, knew that I came of God, and was
comforted."
"But how do you know that it was not all a delusion--the product
of your own fervid imagination? Do not mistake me; I want to find
it true."
"It is a right and honest question, my lady. I will tell you.
"Not to mention the conviction which a truth beheld must carry with
itself and concerning which there can be no argument either with
him who does or him who does not see it, this experience goes far
with me, and would with you if you had it, as you may--namely,
that all my difficulties and confusions have gone on clearing
themselves up ever since I set out to walk in that way. My consciousness
of life is threefold what it was; my perception of what is lovely
around me, and my delight in it, threefold; my power of understanding
things and of ordering my way, threefold also; the same with my
hope and my courage, my love to my kind, my power of forgiveness.
In short, I cannot but believe that my whole being and its whole
world are in process of rectification for me. Is not that something
to set against the doubt born of the eye and ear, and the questions
of an intellect that can neither grasp nor disprove? I say nothing
of better things still. To the man who receives such as I mean,
they are the heart of life; to the man who does not, they exist
not. But I say--if I thus find my whole being enlightened and
redeemed, and know that therein I fare according to the word of
the man of whom the old story tells: if I find that his word, and
the result of action founded upon that word, correspond and agree,
opening a heaven within and beyond me, in which I see myself
delivered from all that now in myself is to myself despicable and
unlovely; if I can reasonably--reasonably to myself not to another
--cherish hopes of a glory of conscious being, divinely better
than all my imagination when most daring could invent--a glory
springing from absolute unity with my creator, and therefore with
my neighbour; if the Lord of the ancient tale, I say, has thus held
word with me, am I likely to doubt much or long whether there be
such a lord or no?"
"What, then, is the way that lies before my own door? Help me to
see it."
"It is just the old way--as old as the conscience--that of
obedience to any and every law of personal duty. But if you have
ever seen the Lord, if only from afar--if you have any vaguest
suspicion that the Jew Jesus, who professed to have come from God,
was a better man than other men, one of your first duties must
be to open your ears to his words, and see whether they commend
themselves to you as true; then, if they do, to obey them with your
whole strength and might, upheld by the hope of the vision promised
in them to the obedient. This is the way of life, which will lead
a man out of the miseries of the nineteenth century, as it led Paul
out of the miseries of the first."
There followed a little pause, and then a long talk about what the
schoolmaster had called the old story; in which he spoke with such
fervid delight of this and that point in the tale; removing this
and that stumbling-block by giving the true reading--or the
right interpretation; showing the what and why and how--the very
intent of our Lord in the thing he said or did, that, for the first
time in her life, Clementina began to feel as if such a man must
really have lived, that his blessed feet must really have walked
over the acres of Palestine, that his human heart must indeed have
thought and felt, worshipped and borne, right humanly. Even in the
presence of her new teacher, and with his words in her ears, she
began to desire her own chamber that she might sit down with the
neglected story and read for herself.
The schoolmaster walked with her to the chapel door. There her
carriage was already waiting. He put her in, and, while the Reverend
Jacob Masquar was still holding forth upon the difference between
adoption and justification, Clementina drove away, never more to
delight the hearts of the deacons with the noise of the hoofs of
her horses, staying the wheels of her yellow chariot.
CHAPTER LIV: THE FEY FACTOR
When Mr Crathie heard of the outrage the people of Scaurnose had
committed upon the surveyors, he vowed be would empty every house
in the place at Michaelmas. His wife warned him that such a wholesale
proceeding must put him in the wrong with the country, seeing they
could not all have been guilty. He replied it would be impossible,
the rascals hung so together, to find out the ringleaders
even. She returned that they all deserved it, and that a correct
discrimination was of no consequence; it would be enough to the
purpose if he made a difference. People would then say he had done
his best to distinguish. The factor was persuaded and made out a
list of those who were to leave, in which he took care to include
all the principal men, to whom he gave warning forthwith to quit
their houses at Michaelmas. I do not know whether the notice was
in law sufficient, but exception was not taken on that score.
Scaurnose, on the receipt of the papers, all at the same time, by
the hand of the bellman of Portlossie, was like a hive about to
swarm. Endless and complicated were the comings and goings between
the houses, the dialogues, confabulations, and consultations, in
the one street and its many closes. In the middle of it, in front
of the little public house, stood, all that day and the next, a group
of men and women, for no five minutes in its component parts the
same, but, like a cloud, ever slow dissolving, and as continuously
reforming, some dropping away, others falling to. Such nid nodding, such
uplifting and fanning of palms among the women, such semi-revolving
side shakes of the head, such demonstration of fists, and such cursing
among the men, had never before been seen and heard in Scaurnose.
The result was a conclusion to make common cause with the first
victim of the factor's tyranny, namely Blue Peter, whose expulsion
would arrive three months before theirs, and was unquestionably
head and front of the same cruel scheme for putting down the fisher
folk altogether.
Three of them, therefore, repaired to Joseph's house, commissioned
with the following proposal and condition of compact: that Joseph
should defy the notice given him to quit, they pledging themselves
that he should not be expelled. Whether he agreed or not, they were
equally determined, they said, when their turn came, to defend the
village; but if he would cast in his lot with them, they would, in
defending him, gain the advantage of having the question settled
three months sooner for themselves.  Blue Peter sought to dissuade
them, specially insisting on the danger of bloodshed. They laughed.
They had anticipated objection, but being of the youngest and
roughest in the place, the idea of a scrimmage was, neither in
itself nor in its probable consequences, at all repulsive to them.
They answered that a little blood letting would do nobody any harm,
neither would there be much of that, for they scorned to use any
weapon sharper than their fists or a good thick rung: the women
and children would take stones of course. Nobody would be killed,
but every meddlesome authority taught to let Scaurnose and fishers
alone.  Peter objected that their enemies could easily starve them
out. Dubs rejoined that, if they took care to keep the sea door open,
their friends at Portlossie would not let them starve. Grosert said
he made no doubt the factor would have the Seaton to fight as well
as Scaurnose, for they must see plainly enough that their turn would
come next.  Joseph said the factor would apply to the magistrates,
and they would call out the militia.
"An' we'll call out Buckie," answered Dubs.
"Man," said Fite Folp, the eldest of the three, "the haill shore,
frae the Brough to Fort George, 'll be up in a jiffie, an' a' the
cuintry, frae John o' Groat's to Berwick, 'ill hear hoo the fisher
fowk 's misguidit; an' at last it'll come to the king, an' syne
we'll get oor richts, for he'll no stan' to see't, an' maitters 'll
sane be set upon a better futtin' for puir fowk 'at has no freen'
but God an' the sea."
The greatness of the result represented laid hold of Peter's
imagination, and the resistance to injustice necessary to reach it
stirred the old tar in him. When they took their leave, he walked
halfway up the street with them, and then returned to tell his wife
what they had been saying, all the way murmuring to himself as he
went, "The Lord is a man of war." And ever as he said the words,
he saw as in a vision the great man of war in which he had served,
sweeping across the bows of a Frenchman, and raking him, gun after
gun, from stem to stern. Nor did the warlike mood abate until
he reached home and looked his wife in the eyes. He told her all,
ending with the half repudiatory, half tentative words.
"That's what they say, ye see, Annie."
"And what say ye, Joseph?" returned his wife.
"Ow! I'm no sayin'," he answered.
"What are ye thinkin' than, Joseph?" she pursued. "Ye canna say
ye're no thinkin'."
"Na; I'll no say that, lass," he replied, but said no more.
"Weel, gien ye winna say," resumed Annie, "I wull; an' my say is,
'at it luiks to me unco like takin' things intil yer ain han'."
"An' whase han' sud we tak them intil but oor ain?" said Peter,
with a falseness which in another would have roused his righteous
indignation.
"That's no the p'int. It's whase han' ye're takin' them oot o',"
returned she, and spoke with solemnity and significance.
Peter made no answer, but the words Vengeance is mine began to ring
in his mental ears instead of The Lord is a man of war.
Before Mr Graham left them, and while Peter's soul was flourishing,
he would have simply said that it was their part to endure, and
leave the rest to the God of the sparrows. But now the words of
men whose judgment had no weight with him, threw him back upon the
instinct of self defence--driven from which by the words of his
wife, he betook himself, not alas! to the protection, but to the
vengeance of the Lord!
The next day he told the three commissioners that he was sorry to
disappoint them, but he could not make common cause with them, for
he could not see it his duty to resist, much as it would gratify
the natural man. They must therefore excuse him if he left Scaurnose
at the time appointed. He hoped he should leave friends behind him.
They listened respectfully, showed no offence, and did not even
attempt to argue the matter with him. But certain looks passed
between them.
After this Blue Peter was a little happier in his mind, and went
more briskly about his affairs.
CHAPTER LV: THE WANDERER
It was a lovely summer evening, and the sun, going down just beyond
the point of the Scaurnose, shone straight upon the Partan's door.
That it was closed in such weather had a significance--general as
well as individual. Doors were oftener closed in the Seaton now.
The spiritual atmosphere of the place was less clear and open
than hitherto. The behaviour of the factor, the trouble of their
neighbours, the conviction that the man who depopulated Scaurnose
would at least raise the rents upon them, had brought a cloud
over the feelings and prospects of its inhabitants--which their
special quarrel with the oppressor for Malcolm's sake, had drawn
deeper around the Findlays; and hence it was that the setting sun
shone upon the closed door of their cottage.
But a shadow darkened it, cutting off the level stream of rosy red.
An aged man, in Highland garments, stood and knocked. His overworn
dress looked fresher and brighter in the friendly rays, but they
shone very yellow on the bare hollows of his old knees. It was
Duncan MacPhail, the supposed grandfather of Malcolm. He was older
and feebler, I had almost said blinder, but that could not be,
certainly shabbier than ever. The glitter of dirk and broadsword at
his sides, and the many coloured ribbons adorning the old bagpipes
under his arms, somehow enhanced the look of more than autumnal,
of wintry desolation in his appearance.
Before he left the Seaton, the staff he carried was for show rather
than use, but now he was bent over it, as if but for it he would
fall into his grave. His knock was feeble and doubtful, as if unsure
of a welcoming response. He was broken, sad, and uncomforted.
A moment passed. The door was unlatched, and within stood the
Partaness, wiping her hands in her apron, and looking thunderous.
But when she saw who it was, her countenance and manner changed
utterly.
"Preserve's a'! Ye're a sicht for sair e'en, Maister MacPhail!" she
cried, holding out her hand, which the blind man took as if he saw
as well as she. "Come awa' but the hoose. Wow! but ye're walcome."
"She thanks your own self, Mistress Partan," said Duncan, as he
followed her in; "and her heart will pe thanking you for ta coot
welcome; and it will pe a long time since she'll saw you howefer."
"Noo, noo!" exclaimed Meg, stopping in the middle of her little
kitchen, as she was getting a chair for the old man, and turning
upon him to revive on the first possible chance what had been a
standing quarrel between them, "what can be the rizon 'at gars ane
like you, 'at never saw man or wuman i' yer lang life, the verra
meenute ye open yer mou', say it's lang sin' ye saw me. A mensefu'
body like you, Maister MacPhail, sud speyk mair to the p'int."
"Ton't you'll pe preaking her heart with ta one hand while you'll
pe clapping her head with ta other," said the piper. "Ton't be
taking her into your house to pe telling her she can't see. Is it
that old Tuncan is not a man as much as any woman in ta world, tat
you'll pe telling her she can't see? I tell you she can see, and
more tan you'll pe think. And I will tell it to you, tere iss a pape
in this house, and tere was pe none when Tuncan she'll co away."
"We a' ken ye ha'e the second sicht," said Mrs Findlay, who had
not expected such a reply; "an' it was only o' the first I spak.
Haith! it wad be ill set o' me to anger ye the moment ye come back
to yer ain. Sit ye doon there by the chimla neuk, till I mask ye
a dish o' tay. Or maybe ye wad prefar a drap o' parritch an' milk?
It's no muckle I ha'e to offer ye, but ye cudna be mair walcome."
As easily appeased as irritated, the old man sat down with a
grateful, placid look, and while the tea was drawing Mrs Findlay, by
judicious questions, gathered from him the history of his adventures.
Unable to rise above the disappointment and chagrin of finding
that the boy he loved as his own soul, and had brought up as his
own son was actually the child of a Campbell woman, one of the
race to which belonged the murderer of his people in Glencoe, and
which therefore he hated with an absolute passion of hatred, unable
also to endure the terrible schism in his being occasioned by the
conflict between horror at the Campbell blood, and ineffaceable
affection for the youth in whose veins it ran, and who so fully
deserved all the love he had lavished upon him, he had concluded to
rid himself of all the associations of place and people and event
now grown so painful, to make his way back to his native Glencoe,
and there endure his humiliation as best he might, beheld of the
mountains which had beheld the ruin of his race. He would end the
few and miserable days of his pilgrimage amid the rushing of the
old torrents, and the calling of the old winds about the crags and
precipices that had hung over his darksome yet blessed childhood.
These were still his friends. But he had not gone many days'
journey before a farmer found him on the road insensible, and took
him home. As he recovered, his longing after his boy Malcolm grew,
until it rose to agony, but he fought with his heart, and believed
he had overcome it. The boy was a good boy, he said to himself;
the boy had been to him as the son of his own heart; there was no
fault to find with him or in him; he was as brave as he was kind,
as sincere as he was clever, as strong as he was gentle; he could
play on the bagpipes, and very nearly talk Gaelic, but his mother
was a Campbell, and for that there was no help. To be on loving terms
with one in whose veins ran a single drop of the black pollution
was a thing no MacDhonuill must dream of. He had lived a man of
honour, and he would die a man of honour, hating the Campbells to
their last generation. How should the bard of his clan ever talk to
his own soul if he knew himself false to the name of his fathers!
Hard fate for him! As if it were not enough that he had been doomed
to save and rear a child of the brood abominable, he was yet further
doomed, worst fate of all, to love the evil thing! he could not
tear the lovely youth from his heart. But he could go further and
further from him.
As soon as he was able, he resumed his journey westward, and at
length reached his native glen, the wildest spot in all the island.
There he found indeed the rush of the torrents and the call of the
winds unchanged, but when his soul cried out in its agonies, they
went on with the same song that had soothed his childhood; for the
heart of the suffering man they had no response. Days passed before
he came upon a creature who remembered him; for more than twenty
years were gone, and a new generation had come up since he forsook
the glen. Worst of all, the clan spirit was dying out, the family
type of government all but extinct, the patriarchal vanishing in
a low form of the feudal, itself already in abject decay. The hour
of the Celt was gone by, and the long wandering raven, returning
at last, found the ark it had left afloat on the waters dry and
deserted and rotting to dust. There was not even a cottage in which
he could hide his head. The one he had forsaken when cruelty and
crime drove him out, had fallen to ruins, and now there was nothing
of it left but its foundations. The people of the inn at the mouth
of the valley did their best for him, but he learned by accident
that they had Campbell connections, and, rising that instant, walked
from it for ever. He wandered about for a time, playing his pipes,
and everywhere hospitably treated; but at length his heart could
endure its hunger no more: he must see his boy, or die. He walked
therefore straight to the cottage of his quarrelsome but true friend,
Mrs Partan--to learn that his benefactor, the marquis, was dead,
and Malcolm gone. But here alone could he hope ever to see him
again, and the same night he sought his cottage in the grounds of
Lossie House, never doubting his right to re-occupy it. But the door
was locked, and he could find no entrance. He went to the House,
and there was referred to the factor. But when he knocked at his
door, and requested the key of the cottage, Mr Crathie, who was
in the middle of his third tumbler, came raging out of his dining
room, cursed him for an old Highland goat, and heaped insults
on him and his grandson indiscriminately. It was well he kept the
door between him and the old man, for otherwise he would never have
finished the said third tumbler. That door carried in it thenceforth
the marks of every weapon that Duncan bore, and indeed the half of
his sgian dhu was the next morning found sticking in it, like the
sting which the bee is doomed to leave behind her. He returned to
Mistress Partan white and trembling, in a mountainous rage with
"ta low pred hount of a factor." Her sympathy was enthusiastic, for
they shared a common wrath. And now came the tale of the factor's
cruelty to the fishers, his hatred of Malcolm, and his general
wildness of behaviour. The piper vowed to shed the last drop of his
blood in defence of his Mistress Partan. But when, to strengthen
the force of his asseveration, he drew the dangerous looking dirk
from its sheath, she threw herself upon him, wrenched it from his
hand, and testified that "fules sudna hae chappin' sticks, nor yet
teylors guns." It was days before Duncan discovered where she had
hidden it. But not the less heartily did she insist on his taking
up his abode with her; and the very next day he resumed his old
profession of lamp cleaner to the community.
When Miss Horn heard that he had come and where he was, old feud
with Meg Partan rendering it imprudent to call upon him, she watched
for him in the street, and welcomed him home, assuring him that,
if ever he should wish to change his quarters, her house was at
his service.
"I'm nae Cam'ell, ye ken, Duncan," she concluded, "an' what an auld
wuman like mysel' can du to mak ye coamfortable sail no fail, an'
that I promise ye."
The old man thanked her with the perfect courtesy of the Celt,
confessed that he was not altogether at ease where he was, but said
he must not hurt the feelings of Mistress Partan, "for she'll not
pe a paad womans," he added, "but her house will pe aalways in ta
flames, howefer."
So he remained where he was, and the general heart of the Seaton was
not a little revived by the return of one whose presence reminded
them of a better time, when no such cloud as now threatened them
heaved its ragged sides above their horizon.
The factor was foolish enough to attempt inducing Meg to send her
guest away.
"We want no landloupin' knaves, old or young, about Lossie," he
said. "If the place is no keepit dacent, we'll never get the young
marchioness to come near's again."
"'Deed, factor," returned Meg, enhancing the force of her utterance
by a composure marvellous from it's rarity, "the first thing to
mak' the place--I'll no say dacent, sae lang there's sae mony
claverin' wives in't, but mair dacent nor it has been for the last
ten year, wad be to sen' factors back whaur they cam' frae."
"And whaur may that be?" asked Mr Crathie.
"That's mair nor I richtly can say," answered Meg Partan, "but auld
farand fouk threepit it was somewhaur 'ithin the swing o' Sawtan's
tail."
The reply on the factor's lips as he left the house, tended to
justify the rude sarcasm.
CHAPTER LVI: MID OCEAN
There came a breath of something in the east. It was neither wind
nor warmth. It was light before it is light to the eyes of men.
Slowly and slowly it grew, until, like the dawning soul in the
face of one who lies in a faint, the life of light came back to
the world, and at last the whole huge hollow hemisphere of rushing
sea and cloud flecked sky lay like a great empty heart, waiting,
in conscious glory of the light, for the central glory, the coming
lord of day. And in the whole crystalline hollow, gleaming and
flowing with delight, yet waiting for more, the Psyche was the
only lonely life bearing thing--the one cloudy germ spot afloat
in the bosom of the great roc egg of sea and sky, whose sheltering
nest was the universe with its walls of flame.
Florimel woke, rose, went on deck, and for a moment was fresh born.
It was a forescent--even this could not be called a foretaste,
of the kingdom of heaven; but Florimel never thought of the kingdom
of heaven, the ideal of her own existence. She could however half
appreciate this earthly outbreak of its glory, this incarnation of
truth invisible. Round her, like a thousand doves, clamoured with
greeting wings the joyous sea wind. Up came a thousand dancing
billows, to shout their good morning. Like a petted animal, importunate
for play, the breeze tossed her hair and dragged at her fluttering
garments, then rushed in the Psyche's sails, swelled them yet
deeper, and sent her dancing over the dancers. The sun peered up
like a mother waking and looking out on her frolicking children.
Black shadows fell from sail to sail, slipping and shifting, and
one long shadow of the Psyche herself shot over the world to the
very gates of the west, but held her not, for she danced and leaned
and flew as if she had but just begun her corantolavolta fresh
with the morning, and had not been dancing all the livelong night
over the same floor. Lively as any newborn butterfly, not like a
butterfly's, flitting and hovering, was her flight, for still, like
one that longed, she sped and strained and flew. The joy of bare
life swelled in Florimel's bosom. She looked up, she looked around,
she breathed deep. The cloudy anger that had rushed upon her like a
watching tiger the moment she waked, fell back, and left her soul
a clear minor to reflect God's dream of a world. She turned, and
saw Malcolm at the tiller, and the cloudy wrath sprang upon her.
He stood composed and clear and cool as the morning, without sign
of doubt or conscience of wrong, now peeping into the binnacle,
now glancing at the sunny sails, where swayed across and back the
dark shadows of the rigging, as the cutter leaned and rose, like
a child running and staggering over the multitudinous and unstable
hillocks. She turned from him.
"Good morning, my lady! What a good morning it is!" As in all his
address to his mistress, the freedom of the words did not infect the
tone; that was resonant of essential honour. "Strange to think,"
he went on, "that the sun himself there is only a great fire,
and knows nothing about it! There must be a sun to that sun, or
the whole thing is a vain show. There must be one to whom each is
itself, yet the all makes a whole--one who is at once both centre
and circumference to all."
Florimel cast on him a scornful look. For not merely was he
talking his usual unintelligible rubbish of poetry, but he had the
impertinence to speak as if he had done nothing amiss, and she had
no ground for being offended with him. She made him no answer. A
cloud came over Malcolm's face; and until she went again below, he
gave his attention to his steering.
In the meantime Rose, who happily had turned out as good a sailor
as her new mistress, had tidied the little cabin; and Florimel
found, if not quite such a sumptuous breakfast laid as at Portland
Place, yet a far better appetite than usual to meet what there
was; and when she had finished, her temper was better, and she was
inclined to think less indignantly of Malcolm's share in causing
her so great a pleasure. She was not yet quite spoiled. She was
still such a lover of the visible world and of personal freedom,
that the thought of returning to London and its leaden footed
hours, would now have been unendurable. At this moment she could
have imagined no better thing than thus to go tearing through the
water--home to her home. For although she had spent little of
her life at Lossie House, she could not but prefer it unspeakably
to the schools in which she had passed almost the whole of the preceding
portion of it. There was little or nothing in the affair she could
have wished otherwise except its origin. She was mischievous enough
to enjoy even the thought of the consternation it would cause at
Portland Place. She did not realize all its awkwardness. A letter
to Lady Bellair when she reached home would, she said to herself,
set everything right; and if Malcolm had now repented and put about,
she would instantly have ordered him to hold on for Lossie. But it
was mortifying that she should have come at the will of Malcolm,
and not by her own--worse than mortifying that perhaps she would
have to say so. If she were going to say so, she must turn him away
as soon as she arrived. There was no help for it. She dared not
keep him after that in the face of society. But she might take the
bold, and perhaps a little dangerous measure of adopting the flight
as altogether her own madcap idea. Her thoughts went floundering
in the bog of expediency, until she was tired, and declined from
thought to reverie.
Then dawning out of the dreamland of her past, appeared the image
of Lenorme. Pure pleasure, glorious delight, such as she now felt,
could not long possess her mind, without raising in its charmed
circle the vision of the only man except her father whom she had
ever--something like loved. Her behaviour to him had not yet roused
in her shame or sorrow or sense of wrong. She had driven him from
her; she was ashamed of her relation to him; she had caused him
bitter suffering; she had all but promised to marry another man;
yet she had not the slightest wish for that man's company there and
then: with no one of her acquaintance but Lenorme could she have
shared this conscious splendour of life.
"Would to God he had been born a gentleman instead of a painter!"
she said to herself when her imagination had brought him from the
past, and set him in the midst of the present.
"Rank," she said, "I am above caring about. In that he might be
ever so far my inferior, and welcome, if only he had been of a good
family, a gentleman born!"
She was generosity, magnanimity itself in her own eyes! Yet he
was of far better family than she knew, for she had never taken
the trouble to inquire into his history. And now she was so much
easier in her mind since she had so cruelly broken with him, that
she felt positively virtuous because she had done it, and he was not
at that moment by her side. And yet if he had that moment stepped
from behind the mainsail, she would in all probability have thrown
herself into his arms.
The day passed on: Florimel grew tired and went to sleep; woke and
had her dinner; took a volume of the "Arabian Nights," and read
herself again to sleep; woke again; went on deck; saw the sun
growing weary in the west. And still the unwearied wind blew, and
still the Psyche danced on, as unwearied as the wind.
The sunset was rather an assumption than a decease, a reception of
him out of their sight into an eternity of gold and crimson; and
when he was gone, and the gorgeous bliss had withered into a dove
hued grief, then the cool, soft twilight, thoughtful of the past
and its love, crept out of the western caves over the breast of the
water, and filled the dome and made of itself a great lens royal,
through which the stars and their motions were visible; and the
ghost of Aurora with both hands lifted her shroud above her head
and made a dawn for the moon on the verge of the watery horizon--
a dawn as of the past, the hour of inverted hope.
Not a word all day had been uttered between Malcolm and his mistress:
when the moon appeared, with the waves sweeping up against her
face, he approached Florimel where she sat in the stern. Davy was
steering.
"Will your ladyship come forward and see how the Psyche goes?"
he said. "At the stern, you can see only the passive part of her
motion. It is quite another thing to see the will of her at work
in the bows."
At first she was going to refuse; but she changed her mind, or
her mind changed her: she was not much more of a living and acting
creature yet than the Psyche herself. She said nothing, but rose,
and permitted Malcolm to help her forward.
It was the moon's turn now to be level with the water, and as
Florimel stood on the larboard side, leaning over and gazing down,
she saw her shine through the little feather of spray the cutwater
sent curling up before it, and turn it into pearls and semiopals.
"She's got a bone in her mouth, you see, my lady," said old Travers.
"Go aft till I call you, Travers," said Malcolm.
Rose was in Florimel's cabin, and they were now quite alone.
"My lady," said Malcolm, "I can't bear to have you angry with me."
"Then you ought not to deserve it," returned Florimel.
"My lady, if you knew all, you would not say I deserved it."
"Tell me all then, and let me judge."
"I cannot tell you all yet, but I will tell you something which
may perhaps incline you to feel merciful. Did your ladyship ever
think what could make me so much attached to your father?"
"No indeed. I never saw anything peculiar in it. Even nowadays
there are servants to be found who love their masters. It seems to
me natural enough. Besides he was very kind to you."
"It was natural indeed, my lady--more natural than you think.
Kind to me he was, and that was natural too."
"Natural to him, no doubt, for he was kind to everybody."
"My grandfather told you something of my early history--did he
not, my lady?"
"Yes--at least I think I remember his doing so."
"Will you recall it, and see whether it suggests nothing?"
But Florimel could remember nothing in particular, she said. She had
in truth, for as much as she was interested at the time, forgotten
almost everything of the story.
"I really cannot think what you mean," she added. "If you are going
to be mysterious, I shall resume my place by the tiller. Travers
is deaf, and Davy is dumb: I prefer either."
"My lady," said Malcolm, "your father knew my mother, and persuaded
her that he loved her."
Florimel drew herself up, and would have looked him to ashes if
wrath could burn. Malcolm saw he must come to the point at once or
the parley would cease.
"My lady," he said, "your father was my father too. I am a son of
the Marquis of Lossie, and your brother--your ladyship's half
brother, that is."
She looked a little stunned. The gleam died out of her eyes, and
the glow out of her cheek. She turned and leaned over the bulwark.
He said no more, but stood watching her. She raised herself suddenly,
looked at him, and said,
"Do I understand you?"
"I am your brother," Malcolm repeated.
She made a step forward, and held out her hand. He took the little
thing in his great grasp tenderly. Her lip trembled. She gazed at
him for an instant, full in the face, with a womanly, believing
expression.
"My poor Malcolm!" she said, "I am sorry for you."
She withdrew her hand, and again leaned over the bulwark. Her heart
was softened towards her groom brother, and for a moment it seemed
to her that some wrong had been done. Why should the one be a
marchioness and the other a groom? Then came the thought that now
all was explained. Every peculiarity of the young man, every gift
extraordinary of body, mind, or spirit, his strength, his beauty,
his courage, and honesty, his simplicity, nobleness, and affection,
yes, even what in him was mere doggedness and presumption,
all, everything explained itself to Florimel in the fact that the
incomprehensible fisherman groom, that talked like a parson, was
the son of her father. She never thought of the woman that was his
mother, and what share she might happen to have in the phenomenon
--thought only of her father, and a little pitifully of the half
honour and more than half disgrace infolding the very existence of
her attendant. As usual her thoughts were confused. The one moment
the poor fellow seemed to exist only on sufferance, having no
right to be there at all, for as fine a fellow as he was; the next
she thought how immeasurably he was indebted to the family of the
Colonsays.
Then arose the remembrance of his arrogance and presumption
in assuming on such a ground something more than guardianship--
absolute tyranny over her, and with the thought pride and injury at
once got the upper hand. Was she to be dictated to by a low born,
low bred fellow like that--a fellow whose hands were harder than
any leather, not with doing things for his amusement but actually
with earning his daily bread--one that used to smell so of fish
--on the ground of right too--and such a right as ought to
exclude him for ever from her presence!--She turned to him again.
"How long have you known this--this--painful--indeed I must
confess to finding it an awkward and embarrassing fact? I presume
you do know it?" she said, coldly and searchingly.
"My father confessed it on his deathbed."
"Confessed!" echoed Florimel's pride, but she restrained her tongue.
"It explains much," she said, with a sort of judicial relief.
"There has been a great change upon you since then. Mind I only
say explains. It could never justify such behaviour as yours--
no, not if you had been my true brother. There is some excuse, I
daresay, to be made for your ignorance and inexperience. No doubt
the discovery turned your head. Still I am at a loss to understand
how you could imagine that sort of--of--that sort of thing gave
you any right over me!"
"Love has its rights, my lady," said Malcolm.
Again her eyes flashed and her cheek flushed. "I cannot permit you
to talk so to me. You must not fancy such things are looked upon
in our position with the same indifference as in yours. You must
not flatter yourself that you can be allowed to cherish the same
feelings towards me as if--as if--you were really my brother.
I am sorry for you, Malcolm, as I said already; but you have
altogether missed your mark if you think that can alter facts, or
shelter you from the consequences of presumption."
Again she turned away. Malcolm's heart was sore for her. How
grievously she had sunk from the Lady Florimel of the old days! It
was all from being so constantly with that wretched woman and her
vile nephew. Had he been able to foresee such a rapid declension,
he would have taken her away long ago, and let come of her feelings
what might. He had been too careful over them.
"Indeed," Florimel resumed, but this time without turning towards
him, "I do not see how things can possibly, after what you have
told me, remain as they are. I should not feel at all comfortable
in having one about me who would be constantly supposing he had
rights, and reflecting on my father for fancied injustice, and
whom I fear nothing could prevent from taking liberties. It is very
awkward indeed, Malcolm--very awkward! But it is your own fault
that you are so changed, and I must say I should not have expected
it of you. I should have thought you had more good sense and regard
for me. If I were to tell the world why I wanted to keep you, people
would but shrug their shoulders and tell me to get rid of you; and
if I said nothing, there would always be something coming up that
required explanation. Besides, you would for ever be trying to convert
me to one or other of your foolish notions. I hardly know what to
do. I will consult--my friends on the subject. And yet I would
rather they knew nothing of it, My father you see--" She paused.
"If you had been my real brother it would have been different."
"I am your real brother, my lady, and I have tried to behave like
one ever since I knew it."
"Yes; you have been troublesome. I have always understood that
brothers were troublesome. I am told they are given to taking upon
them the charge of their sisters conduct. But I would not have even
you think me heartless. If you had been a real brother, of course
I should have treated you differently."
"I don't doubt it, my lady, for everything would have been different
then. I should have been the Marquis of Lossie, and you would have
been Lady Florimel Colonsay. But it would have made little difference
in one thing: I could not have loved you better than I do now--
if only you would believe it, my lady!"
The emotion of Malcolm, evident in his voice as he said this, seemed
to touch her a little.
"I believe it, my poor Malcolm," she returned, "quite as much as
I want, or as it is pleasant to believe it. I think you would do a
great deal for me, Malcolm. But then you are so rude! take things
into your hands, and do things for me I don't want done! You will
judge, not only for yourself, but for me! How can a man of your
training and position judge for a lady of mine! Don't you see the
absurdity of it? At times it has been very awkward indeed. Perhaps
when I am married it might be arranged; but I don't know."
Here Malcolm ground his teeth, but was otherwise irresponsive as
block of stone.
"How would a gamekeeper's place suit you? That is a half gentlemanly
kind of post. I will speak to the factor, and see what can be
done.--But on the whole I think, Malcolm, it will be better you
should go. I am very sorry. I wish you had not told me. It is very
painful to me. You should not have told me. These things are not
intended to be talked of--Suppose you were to marry--say--"
She stopped abruptly, and it was well both for herself and Malcolm
that she caught back the name that was on her lips.
The poor girl must not be judged as if she had been more than a
girl, or other than one with every disadvantage of evil training.
Had she been four or five years older, she might have been a good
deal worse, and have seemed better, for she would have kept much
of what she had now said to herself, and would perhaps have treated
her brother more kindly while she cared even less for him.
"What will you do with Kelpie, my lady?" asked Malcolm quietly.
"There it is, you see!" she returned. "So awkward! If you had not
told me, things could have gone on as before, and for your sake I
could have pretended I came this voyage of my own will and pleasure.
Now, I don't know what I can do--except indeed you--let me see
--if you were to hold your tongue, and tell nobody what you have
just told me--I don't know but you might stay till you got her
so far trained that another man could manage her. I might even be
able to ride her myself.--Will you promise?"
"I will promise not to let the fact come out so long as I am in
your service, my lady."
"After all that has passed, I think you might promise me a little
more! But I will not press it."
"May I ask what it is, my lady?"
"I am not going to press it, for I do not choose to make a favour
of it. Still, I do not see that it would be such a mighty favour
to ask--of one who owes respect at least to the house of Lossie.
But I will not ask. I will only suggest, Malcolm, that you should
leave this part of the country--say this country altogether, and
go to America, or New South Wales, or the Cape of Good Hope. If
you will take the hint, and promise never to speak a word of this
unfortunate--yes, I must be honest, and allow there is a sort
of relationship between us; but if you will keep it secret, I will
take care that something is done for you--something, I mean, more
than you could have any right to expect. And mind, I am not asking
you to conceal anything that could reflect honour upon you or
dishonour upon us."
"I cannot, my lady."
"I scarcely thought you would. Only you hold such grand ideas about
self denial, that I thought it might be agreeable to you to have
an opportunity of exercising the virtue at a small expense and a
great advantage."
Malcolm was miserable. Who could have dreamed to find in her such
a woman of the world! He must break off the hopeless interview.
"Then, my lady," he said, "I suppose I am to give my chief attention
to Kelpie, and things are to be as they have been."
"For the present. And as to this last piece of presumption, I will
so far forgive you as to take the proceeding on myself--mainly
because it would have been my very choice had you submitted it to
me. There is nothing I should have preferred to a sea voyage and
returning to Lossie at this time of the year.
"But you also must be silent on your insufferable share in the
business. And for the other matter, the least arrogance or assumption
I shall consider to absolve me at once from all obligation towards
you of any sort. Such relationships are never acknowledged."
"Thank you--sister," said Malcolm--a last forlorn experiment;
and as he said the word he looked lovingly in her eyes.
She drew herself up like the princess Lucifera, "with loftie eyes,
halfe loth to looke so lowe," and said, cold as ice,
"If once I hear that word on your lips again, as between you and
me, Malcolm, I shall that very moment discharge you from my service,
as for a misdemeanour. You have no claim upon me, and the world
will not blame me."
"Certainly not, my lady. I beg your pardon. But there is one who
perhaps will blame you a little."
"I know what you mean; but I don't pretend to any of your religious
motives. When I do, then you may bring them to bear upon me."
"I was not so foolish as you think me, my lady. I merely imagined
you might be as far on as a Chinaman," said Malcolm, with a poor
attempt at a smile.
"What insolence do you intend now?"
"The Chinese, my lady, pay the highest respect to their departed
parents. When I said there was one who would blame you a little,
I meant your father."
He touched his cap, and withdrew.
"Send Rose to me," Florimel called after him, and presently with
her went down to the cabin.
And still the Psyche soul-like flew. Her earthly birth held her to
the earth, but the ocean upbore her, and the breath of God drove
her on. Little thought Florimel to what she hurried her! A queen in
her own self sufficiency and condescension, she could not suspect
how little of real queendom, noble and self sustaining, there was
in her being; for not a soul of man or woman whose every atom leans
not upon its father fact in God, can sustain itself when the outer
wall of things begins to tumble towards the centre, crushing it in
on every side.
During the voyage no further allusion was made by either to what
had passed. By the next morning Florimel had yet again recovered
her temper, and, nothing fresh occurring to irritate her, kept it
and was kind.
Malcolm was only too glad to accept whatever parings of heart she
might offer. By the time their flight was over, Florimel almost felt
as if it had indeed been undertaken at her own desire and motion,
and was quite prepared to assert that such was the fact.
CHAPTER LVII: THE SHORE
It was two days after the longest day of the year, when there is no
night in those regions, only a long twilight, in which many dream
and do not know it. There had been a week of variable weather,
with sudden changes of wind to east and north, and round again by
south to west, and then there had been a calm for several days.
But now the little wind there was blew from the northeast; and
the fervour of June was rendered more delicious by the films of
flavouring cold that floated through the mass of heat. All Portlossie
more and less, the Seaton especially, was in a state of excitement,
for its little neighbour, Scaurnose, was more excited still. There
the man most threatened, and with greatest injustice, was the only
one calm amongst the men, and amongst the women his wife was the
only one that was calmer than he. Blue Peter was resolved to abide
the stroke of wrong, and not resist the powers that were, believing
them in some true sense, which he found it hard to understand when
he thought of the factor as the individual instance, ordained of
God. He had a dim perception too that it was better that one, that
one he, should suffer, than that order should be destroyed and law
defied. Suffering, he might still in patience possess his soul,
and all be well with him; but what would become of the country if
everyone wronged were to take the law into his own hands? Thousands
more would be wronged by the lawless in a week than by unjust powers
in a year. But the young men were determined to pursue their plan
of resistance, and those of the older and soberer who saw the
uselessness of it, gave themselves little trouble to change the
minds of the rest.
Peter, although he knew they were not for peace, neither inquired
what their purpose might be, nor allowed any conjecture or suspicion
concerning it to influence him in his preparations for departure.
Not that he had found a new home. Indeed he had not heartily set
about searching for one; in part because, unconsciously to himself
he was buoyed up by the hope he read so clear in the face of his
more trusting wife--that Malcolm would come to deliver them. His
plan was to leave her and his children with certain friends at Port
Gordon; he would not hear of going to the Partans to bring them
into trouble. He would himself set out immediately after for the
Lewis fishing.
Few had gone to the Hebrides that year from Scaurnose or Portlossie.
The magnitude of the events that were about to take place, yet more
the excitement and interest they occasioned, kept the most of the
men at home--to content themselves with fishing the waters of
the Moray Frith. And they had notable success. But what was success
with such a tyrant over them as the factor, threatening to harry
their nests, and turn the sea birds and their young out of their
heritage of rock and sand and shingle?  They could not keep house
on the waves, any more than the gulls! Those who still held their
religious assemblies in the cave called the Baillies' Barn, met
often, read and sang the comminatory psalms more than any others,
and prayed much against the wiles and force of their enemies both
temporal and spiritual; while Mr Crathie went every Sunday to
Church, grew redder in the nose, and hotter in the temper.
Miss Horn was growing more and more uncomfortable concerning
events, and dissatisfied with Malcolm. She had not for some time
heard from him, and here was his most important duty unattended to--
she would not yet say neglected--the well being of his tenantry,
namely, left in the hands of an unsympathetic, self important underling,
who was fast losing all the good sense he had once possessed! Was
the life and history of all these brave fishermen and their wives
and children to be postponed to the pampered feelings of one girl,
and that because she was what she had no right to be, his half
sister forsooth? said Miss Horn to herself--that bosom friend to
whom some people, and those not the worst, say oftener what they
do not mean than what they do. She had written to him within the
last month a very hot letter indeed, which had afforded no end of
amusement to Mrs Catanach, as she sat in his old lodging over the
curiosity shop, but, I need hardly say, had not reached Malcolm:
and now there was but one night, and the best of all the fisher
families would have nowhere to lie down! Miss Horn, with Joseph
Mair, thought she did well to be angry with Malcolm.
The blind piper had been very restless all day. Questioned again
and again by Meg Partan as to what was amiss with him, he had always
returned her odd and evasive answers. Every few minutes he got up
--even from cleaning her lamp--to go to the shore. He had but
to cross the threshold, and take a few steps through the close,
to reach the road that ran along the sea front of the village: on
the one side were the cottages, scattered and huddled, on the other
the shore and ocean wide outstretched. He would walk straight across
this road until he felt the sand under his feet; there stand for a
few moments facing the sea, and, with nostrils distended, breathing
deep breaths of the air from the northeast; then turn and walk
back to Meg Partan's kitchen, to resume his ministration of light.
These his sallies were so frequent, and his absences so short, that
a more serene temper than hers might have been fretted by them.
But there was something about his look and behaviour that, while
it perplexed, restrained her; and instead of breaking out upon him,
she eyed him curiously.
She had found that it would not do to stare at him. The instant
she began to do so, he began to fidget, and turned his back to her.
It had made her lose her temper for a moment, and declare aloud as
her conviction that he was after all an impostor, and saw as well
as any of them.
"She has told you so, Mistress Partan, one hundred thousand times,"
replied Duncan with an odd smile: "and perhaps she will pe see a
little petter as any of you, no matter."
Thereupon she murmured to herself "The cratur 'ill be seein' something!"
and with mingled awe and curiosity sought to lay restraint upon
her unwelcome observation of him.
Thus it went on the whole day, and as the evening approached, he
grew still more excited. The sun went down, and the twilight began;
and, as the twilight deepened, still his excitement grew.
Straightway it seemed as if the whole Seaton had come to share in
it. Men and women were all out of doors; and, late as it was when
the sun set, to judge by the number of red legs and feet that trotted
in and out with a little shadowy flash, with a dull patter pat on
earthen floor and hard road, and a scratching and hustling among
the pebbles, there could not have been one older than a baby in
bed; while of the babies even not a few were awake in their mothers'
arms, and out with them on the sea front.
The men, with their hands in their trouser pockets, were lazily
smoking pigtail, in short clay pipes with tin covers fastened to
the stems by little chains, and some of the women, in short blue
petticoats and worsted stockings, doing the same.
Some stood in their doors, talking with neighbours standing in their
doors; but these were mostly the elder women: the younger ones--
all but Lizzy Findlay--were out in the road. One man half leaned,
half sat on the window sill of Duncan's former abode, and round him
were two or three more, and some women, talking about Scaurnose,
and the factor, and what the lads would do tomorrow; while the hush
of the sea on the pebbles mingled with their talk, like an unknown
tongue of the infinite--never articulating, only suggesting--
uttering in song and not in speech--dealing not with thoughts,
but with feelings and foretastes. No one listened: what to them
was the Infinite with Scaurnose in the near distance! It was now
almost as dark as it would be throughout the night if it kept as
clear.
Once more there was Duncan, standing as if looking out to sea, and
shading his brows with his hand as if to protect his eyes from the
glare of the sun, and enable his sight!
"There's the auld piper again!" said one of the group, a young
woman. "He's unco fule like to be stan'in that gait (way), makin'
as gien he cudna weel see for the sun in 's e'en."
"Haud ye yer tongue, lass," rejoined an elderly woman beside her.
"There's mair things nor ye ken, as the Beuk says. There's een 'at
can see an' een 'at canna, an' een 'at can see twise ower, an' een
'at can see steikit what nane can see open."
"Ta poat! ta poat of my chief!" cried the seer. "She is coming like
a tream of ta night, put one tat will not tepart with ta morning."
He spoke as one suppressing a wild joy.
"Wha'll that be, lucky deddy (grandfather)?" inquired, in a respectful
voice, the woman who had last spoken, while those within hearing
hushed each other and stood in silence. And all the time the ghost
of the day was creeping round from west to east to put on its
resurrection body, and rise new born. It gleamed faint like a cold
ashy fire in the north.
"And who will it pe than her own son, Mistress Reekie?" answered
the piper, calling her by her husband's nickname, as was usual,
but, as was his sole wont, prefixing the title of respect, where
custom would have employed but her Christian name.
"Who'll should it pe put her own Malcolm?" he went on. "I see his
poat come round ta Tead Head. She flits over the water like a pale
ghost over Morven. But it's ta young and ta strong she is pringing
home to Tuncan. O m'anam, beannuich!"
Involuntarily all eyes turned towards the point called the Death's
Head, which bounded the bay on the east.
"It's ower dark to see onything," said the man on the window sill.
"There's a bit haar (fog) come up."
"Yes," said Duncan, "it'll pe too tark for you who haf cot no eyes
only to speak of. Put your'll wait a few, and you'll pe seeing as
well as herself. Och, her poy! her poy! O m'anam! Ta Lort pe praised!
and she'll tie in peace, for he'll pe only ta one half of him a
Cam'ell, and he'll pe safed at last, as sure as there's a heafen to
co to and a hell to co from. For ta half tat's not a Cam'ell must
pe ta strong half and it will trag ta other half into heafen--
where it will not pe ta welcome, howefer."
As if to get rid of the unpleasant thought that his Malcolm could
not enter heaven without taking half a Campbell with him, he turned
from the sea and hurried into the house--but only to catch up his
pipes and hasten out again, filling the bag as he went. Arrived once
more on the verge of the sand, he stood again facing the northeast,
and began to blow a pibroch loud and clear.
Meantime the Partan had joined the same group, and they were talking
in a low tone about the piper's claim to the second sight, for,
although all were more or less inclined to put faith in Duncan,
there was here no such unquestioning belief in the marvel as would
have been found on the west coast in every glen from the Mull
of Cantyre to Loch Eribol--when suddenly Meg Partan, almost the
only one hitherto remaining in the house, appeared rushing from
the close.
"Hech, sirs!" she cried, addressing the Seaton in general,
"gien the auld man be i' the richt,--"
"She'll pe aal in ta right, Mistress Partan, and tat you'll pe
seeing," said Duncan, who, hearing her first cry, had stopped his
drone, and played softly, listening.
But Meg went on without heeding him any more than was implied in
the repetition of her exordium.
"Gien the auld man be i' the richt, it'll be the marchioness hersel'
'at's h'ard o' the ill duin's o' her factor, an's comin' to see
efter her fowk! An' it'll be Ma'colm's duin', an' that'll be seen.
But the bonny laad winna ken the state o' the herbour, an' he'll be
makin' for the moo' o't, an' he'll jist rin 's bonny boatie agrun'
'atween the twa piers, an' that'll no be a richt hame comin' for
the leddy o' the lan', an' what's mair, Ma'colm 'ill get the wyte
(blame) o' 't, an' that'll be seen. Sae ye maun some o' ye to the
pier-heid, an' luik oot to gie 'im warnin'."
Her own husband was the first to start, proud of the foresight of
his wife.
"Haith, Meg !" he cried, "ye're maist as guid at the lang sicht as
the piper himsel'!"
Several followed him, and as they ran, Meg cried after them, giving
her orders as if she had been vice admiral of the red, in a voice
shrill enough to pierce the worst gale that ever blew on northern
shore.
"Ye'll jist tell the bonnie laad to haud wast a bit an' rin her
ashore, an' we'll a' be there an' hae her as dry's Noah's ark in a
jiffie. Tell her leddyship we'll cairry the boat, an' her intil't,
to the tap o' the Boar's Tail, gien she'll gie's her orders.--
Winna we, laads?"
"We can but try!" said one. "--But the Fisky 'ill be waur to
get a grip o' nor Nancy here," he added, turning suddenly upon the
plumpest girl in the place, who stood next to him. She foiled him
however of the kiss he had thought to snatch, and turned the laugh
from herself upon him, so cleverly avoiding his clutch that he
staggered into the road, and nearly fell upon his nose.
By the time the Partan and his companions reached the pier head,
something was dawning in the vague of sea and sky that might be a
sloop and standing for the harbour. Thereupon the Partan and Jamie
Ladle jumped into a small boat and pulled out. Dubs, who had come
from Scaurnose on the business of the conjuration, had stepped into
the stern, not to steer but to show a white ensign--somebody's
Sunday shirt he had gathered, as they ran, from a furze bush, where
it hung to dry, between the Seaton and the harbour.
"Hoots! ye'll affront the marchioness," objected the Partan.
"Man, i' the gloamin' she'll no ken 't frae buntin'," said Dubs,
and at once displayed it, holding it by the two sleeves.
The wind had now fallen to the softest breath, and the little
vessel came on slowly. The men rowed hard, shouting, and waving
their flag, and soon heard a hail which none of them could mistake
for other than Malcolm's. In a few minutes they were on board,
greeting their old friend with jubilation, but talking in a subdued
tone, for they perceived by Malcolm's that the cutter bore their
lady.
Briefly the Partan communicated the state of the harbour, and
recommended porting his helm, and running the Fisky ashore about
opposite the brass swivel.
"A' the men an' women i' the Seaton," he said, "'ill be there to
haul her up."
Malcolm took the helm, gave his orders, and steered further westward.
By this time the people on shore had caught sight of the cutter.
They saw her come stealing out of the thin dark like a thought half
thought, and go gliding along the shore like a sea ghost over the
dusky water, faint, uncertain, noiseless, glimmering. It could be
no other than the Fisky! Both their lady and their friend Malcolm
must be on board, they were certain, for how could the one of them
come without the other? and doubtless the marchioness, whom they
all remembered as a good humoured handsome young lady, never shy
of speaking to anybody, had come to deliver them from the hateful
red nosed ogre, her factor! Out at once they all set along the
shore to greet her arrival, each running regardless of the rest,
so that from the Seaton to the middle of the Boar's Tail there was
a long, straggling broken string of hurrying fisher folk, men and
women, old and young, followed by all the current children, tapering
to one or two toddlers, who felt themselves neglected and wept their
way along. The piper, too asthmatic to run, but not too asthmatic
to walk and play his bagpipes, delighting the heart of Malcolm,
who could not mistake the style, believed he brought up the rear,
but was wrong; for the very last came Mrs Findlay and Lizzy, carrying
between them their little deal kitchen table, for her ladyship to
step out of the boat upon, and Lizzy's child fast asleep on the
top of it.
The foremost ran and ran until they saw that the Psyche had chosen
her couch, and was turning her head to the shore, when they stopped
and stood ready with greased planks and ropes to draw her up.
In a few moments the whole population was gathered, darkening, in
the June midnight, the yellow sands between the tide and dune. The
Psyche was well manned now with a crew of six. On she came under
full sail till within a few yards of the beach, when, in one and
the same moment, every sheet was let go, and she swept softly up
like a summer wave, and lay still on the shore.
The butterfly was asleep. But ere she came to rest, the instant
indeed that her canvas went fluttering away, thirty strong men had
rushed into the water and laid hold of the now broken winged thing.
In a few minutes she was high and dry.
Malcolm leaped on the sand just as the Partaness came bustling up
with her kitchen table between her two hands like a tray. She set
it down, and across it shook hands with him violently; then caught
it up and deposited it firm on its four legs beneath the cutter's
waist.
"Noo, my leddy," said Meg, looking up at the marchioness, "set ye
yer bit fut upo' my table, an' we'll think the mair o't efter whan
we tak' oor denner aff o' 't."
Florimel thanked her, stepped lightly upon it, and sprang to the
sand, where she was received with words of welcome from many, and
shouts which rendered them inaudible from the rest.  The men, their
bonnets in their hands, and the women courtesying, made a lane
for her to pass through, while the young fellows would gladly have
begged leave to carry her, could they have extemporised any suitable
sort of palanquin or triumphal litter.
Followed by Malcolm, she led the way over the Boar's Tail--nor
would accept any help in climbing it--straight for the tunnel:
Malcolm had never laid aside the key to the private doors his father
had given him while he was yet a servant. They crossed by the
embrasure of the brass swivel. That implement had now long been
silent, but they had not gone many paces from the bottom of the
dune when it went off with a roar. The shouts of the people drowned
the startled cry with which Florimel, involuntarily mindful of old
and for her better times, turned to Malcolm. She had not looked
for such a reception, and was both flattered and touched by it.
For a brief space the spirit of her girlhood came back. Possibly,
had she then understood that hope rather than faith or love was at
the heart of their enthusiasm, that her tenants looked upon her as
their saviour from the factor, and sorely needed the exercise of
her sovereignty, she might have better understood her position,
and her duty towards them.
Malcolm unlocked the door of the tunnel, and she entered, followed
by Rose, who felt as if she were walking in a dream. As he stepped
in after them, he was seized from behind, and clasped close in an
embrace he knew at once.
"Daddy, daddy!" he said, and turning threw his arms round the piper.
"My poy! my poy! Her nain son Malcolm!" cried the old man in a
whisper of intense satisfaction and suppression. "You'll must pe
forgifing her for coming pack to you. She cannot help lofing you,
and you must forget tat you are a Cam'ell."
Malcolm kissed his cheek, and said, also in a whisper:
"My ain daddy! I ha'e a heap to tell ye, but I maun see my leddy
hame first."
"Co, co, this moment co," cried the old man, pushing him away. "To
your tuties to my leddyship first, and then come to her old daddy."
"I'll be wi' ye in half an hoor or less."
"Coot poy! coot poy! Come to Mistress Partan's."
"Ay, ay, daddy!" said Malcolm, and hurried through the tunnel.
As Florimel approached the ancient dwelling of her race, now her
own to do with as she would, her pleasure grew. Whether it was
the twilight, or the breach in dulling custom, everything looked
strange, the grounds wider, the trees larger, the house grander
and more anciently venerable. And all the way the burn sang in the
hollow. The spirit of her father seemed to hover about the place,
and while the thought that her father's voice would not greet her
when she entered the hall, cast a solemn funereal state over her
simple return, her heart yet swelled with satisfaction and far
derived pride.
All this was hers to work her pleasure with, to confer as she
pleased! No thought of her tenants, fishers or farmers, who did
their strong part in supporting the ancient dignity of her house,
had even an associated share in the bliss of the moment. She had
forgotten her reception already, or regarded it only as the natural
homage to such a position and power as hers. As to owing anything
in return, the idea had indeed been presented to her when with
Clementina and Malcolm she talked over "St Ronan's Well," but it
had never entered her mind.
The drawing room and the hall were lighted. Mrs Courthope was at
the door as if she expected her, and Florimel was careful to take
everything as a matter of course.
"When will your ladyship please to want me?" asked Malcolm.
"At the usual hour, Malcolm," she answered.
He turned, and ran to the Seaton.
His first business was the accommodation of Travers and Davy, but he
found them already housed at the Salmon, with Jamie Ladle teaching
Travers to drink toddy. They had left the Psyche snug: she was
high above high water mark, and there were no tramps about; they
had furled her sails, locked the companion door, and left her.
Mrs Findlay rejoiced over Malcolm as if he had been her own
son from a far country; but the poor piper between politeness and
gratitude on the one hand, and the urging of his heart on the other,
was sorely tried by her loquacity: he could hardly get in a word.
Malcolm perceived his suffering, and, as soon as seemed prudent,
proposed that he should walk with him to Miss Horn's, where he was
going to sleep, he said, that night. Mrs Partan snuffed, but held
her peace. For the third or fourth time that day, wonderful to
tell, she restrained herself!
As soon as they were out of the house, Malcolm assured Duncan, to
the old man's great satisfaction, that, had he not found him there,
he would, within another month, have set out to roam Scotland in
search of him.
Miss Horn had heard of their arrival, and was wandering about
the house, unable even to sit down until she saw the marquis. To
herself she always called him the marquis; to his face he was always
Malcolm. If he had not come, she declared she could not have gone
to bed--yet she received him with an edge to her welcome: he
had to answer for his behaviour. They sat down, and Duncan told a
long sad story; which finished, with the toddy that had sustained
him during the telling, the old man thought it better, for fear
of annoying his Mistress Partan, to go home. As it was past one
o'clock, they both agreed.
"And if she'll tie tonight, my poy," said Duncan, "she'll pe lie
awake in her crave all ta long tarkness, to pe waiting to hear ta
voice of your worrts in ta morning. And nefer you mind, Malcolm,
she'll has learned to forgife you for peing only ta one half of
yourself a cursed Cam'ell."
Miss Horn gave Malcolm a wink, as much as to say, "Let the old
man talk. It will hurt no Campbell," and showed him out with much
attention. And then at last Malcolm poured forth his whole story,
and his heart with it, to Miss Horn, who heard and received it with
understanding, and a sympathy which grew ever as she listened. At
length she declared herself perfectly satisfied, for not only had
he done his best, but she did not see what else he could have done.
She hoped, however, that now he would contrive to get this part
over as quickly as possible, for which, in the morning, she would,
she said, show him cogent reasons.
"I ha'e no feelin's mysel', as ye weel ken, laddie," she remarked
in conclusion, "an' I doobt, gien I had been i' your place, I wad
na hae luikit to a' sides o' the thing at ance as ye hae dune.--
An' it was a man like you 'at sae near lost yer life for the hizzy!"
she exclaimed. "I maunna think aboot it, or I winna sleep a wink.
But we maun get that deevil Catanach (an' cat eneuch!) hangt. Weel,
my man, ye may haud up yer heid afore the father o' ye, for ye're
the first o' the race, I'm thinkin', 'at ever was near han' deein'
for anither. But mak ye a speedy en' till 't noo, laad, an' fa'
to the lave o' yer wark. There's a terrible heap to be dune. But I
maun haud my tongue the nicht, for I wad fain ye had a guid sleep,
an' I'm needin' ane sair mysel', for I'm no sae yoong as I ance
was, an' I ha'e been that anxious aboot ye, Ma'colm, 'at though I
never hed ony feelin's, yet, noo 'at a' 's gaein' richt, an' ye're
a' richt, and like to be richt for ever mair, my heid's just like
to split. Gang yer wa's to yer bed, and soon may ye sleep.  It's
the bed yer bonny mither got a soon' sleep in at last, and muckle
was she i' the need o' 't! An' jist tak tent the morn what ye say
whan Jean's i' the room, or maybe o' the ither side o' the door, for
she's no mowse. I dinna ken what gars me keep the jaud. I believe
'at gien the verra deevil himsel' had been wi' me sae lang, I wadna
ha'e the hert to turn him aboot his ill business. That's what comes
o' haein' no feelin's. Ither fowk wad ha'e gotten rid o' her half
a score years sin' syne."
CHAPTER LVIII: THE TRENCH
Malcolm had not yet, after all the health giving of the voyage,
entirely recovered from the effects of the ill compounded potion.
Indeed, sometimes the fear crossed his mind that never would he be
the same man again, that the slow furnace of the grave alone would
destroy the vile deposit left in his house of life. Hence it came
that he was weary, and overslept himself the next day--but it was
no great matter; he had yet time enough. He swallowed his breakfast
as a working man alone can, and set out for Duff Harbour. At Leith,
where they had put in for provisions, he had posted a letter to Mr
Soutar, directing him to have Kelpie brought on to his own town,
whence he would fetch her himself. The distance was about ten
miles, the hour eight, and he was a good enough walker, although
boats and horses had combined to prevent him, he confessed, from
getting over fond of Shanks' mare.  To men who delight in the
motions of a horse under them, the legs of a man are a tame, dull
means of progression, although they too have their superiorities;
and one of the disciplines of this world is to have to get out of
the saddle and walk afoot. He who can do so with perfect serenity,
must very nearly have learned with St Paul in whatsoever state he is
therein to be content.  It was the loveliest of mornings, however,
to be abroad in upon any terms, and Malcolm hardly needed the
resources of one who knew both how to be abased and how to abound
--enviable perfection---for the enjoyment of even a long walk.
Heaven and earth were just settling to the work of the day after
their morning prayer, and the whole face of things yet wore something
of that look of expectation which one who mingled the vision of
the poet with the faith of the Christian might well imagine to be
their upward look of hope after a night of groaning and travailing
--the earnest gaze of the creature waiting for the manifestation
of the sons of God and for himself, though the hardest thing was
yet to come, there was a satisfaction in finding himself almost up
to his last fence, with the heavy ploughed land through which he
had been floundering nearly all behind him--which figure means
that he had almost made up his mind what to do.
When he reached the Duff Arms, he walked straight into the yard,
where the first thing he saw was a stable boy in the air, hanging
on to a twitch on the nose of the rearing Kelpie. In another instant
he would have been killed or maimed for life, and Kelpie loose,
and scouring the streets of Duff Harbour. When she heard Malcolm's
voice and the sound of his running feet, she stopped as if to
listen. He flung the boy aside and caught her halter. Once or twice
more she reared, in the vain hope of so ridding herself of the pain
that clung to her lip and nose, nor did she, through the mist of
her anger and suffering, quite recognize her master in his yacht
uniform. But the torture decreasing, she grew able to scent his
presence, welcomed him with her usual glad whinny, and allowed him
to do with her as he would.
Having fed her, found Mr Soutar, and arranged several matters with
him, he set out for home.
That was a ride! Kelpie was mad with life. Every available field
he jumped her into, and she tore its element of space at least
to shreds with her spurning hoofs. But the distance was not great
enough to quiet her before they got to hard turnpike and young
plantations. He would have entered at the grand gate, but found no
one at the lodge, for the factor, to save a little, had dismissed
the old keeper. He had therefore to go on, and through the town,
where, to the awe stricken eyes of the population peeping from
doors and windows, it seemed as if the terrible horse would carry
him right over the roofs of the fisher cottages below, and out to
sea.
"Eh, but he's a terrible cratur that Ma'colm MacPhail!" said the old
wives to each other, for they felt there must be something wicked
in him to ride like that. But he turned her aside from the steep
hill, and passed along the street that led to the town gate of
the House.--Whom should he see, as he turned into it, but Mrs
Catanach!--standing on her own doorstep, opposite the descent
to the Seaton, shading her eyes with her hand, and looking far out
over the water through the green smoke of the village below. As
long as he could remember her, it had been her wont to gaze thus;
though what she could at such times be looking for, except it were
the devil in person, he found it hard to conjecture.
At the sound of his approach she turned; and such an expression
crossed her face in a momentary flash ere she disappeared in the
house, as added considerably to his knowledge of fallen humanity.
Before he reached her door she was out again, tying on a clean
white apron as she came, and smiling like a dark pool in sunshine.
She dropped him a low courtesy, and looked as if she had been
occupying her house for months of his absence. But Malcolm would
not meet even cunning with its own weapons, and therefore turned
away his head, and took no notice of her. She ground her teeth with
the fury of hate, and swore that she would yet disappoint him of
his purpose, whatever it were, in this masquerade of service. Her
heart being scarcely of the calibre to comprehend one like Malcolm's,
her theories for the interpretation of the mystery were somewhat
wild, and altogether of a character unfit to see the light.
The keeper of the town gate greeted Malcolm, as he let him in, with
a pleased old face and words of welcome; but added instantly, as
if it was no time for the indulgence of friendship, that it was a
terrible business going on at the Nose.
"What is it?" asked Malcolm, in alarm.
"Ye ha'e been ower lang awa', I doobt," answered the man, "to ken
hoo the factor--But, Lord save ye! haud yer tongue," he interjected,
looking fearfully around him. "Gien he kenned 'at I said sic a
thing, he wad turn me oot o' hoose an' ha'."
"You've said nothing yet," rejoined Malcolm.
"I said factor, an' that same 's 'maist eneuch, for he's like
a roarin' lion an' a ragin' bear amang the people, an' that sin'
ever ye gaed. Bow o' Meal said i' the meetin' the ither nicht 'at
he bude to be the verra man, the wickit ruler propheseed o' sae
lang sin syne i' the beuk o' the Proverbs. Eh! it's an awfu' thing
to be foreordeent to oonrichteousness!"
"But you haven't told me what is the matter at Scaurnose," said
Malcolm impatiently.
"Ow, it's jist this--at this same's midsimmer day, an' Blew
Peter, honest fallow! he's been for the last three month
un'er nottice frae the factor to quit. An' sae, ye see,--"
"To quit!" exclaimed Malcolm. "Sic a thing was never h'ard tell o'!"
"Haith! it's h'ard tell o' noo," returned the gatekeeper. "Quittin'
's as plenty as quicken (couch grass). 'Deed there's maist naething
ither h'ard tell o' bit quittin'; for the full half o' Scaurnose
is un'er like nottice for Michaelmas, an' the Lord kens what it
'll a' en' in!"
"But what's it for? Blue Peter's no the man to misbehave himsel'."
"Weel, ye ken mair yersel' nor ony ither as to the warst fau't there
is to lay till's chairge; for they say--that is, some say, it's
a' yer ain wyte, Ma'colm."
"What mean ye, man? Speyk oot," said Malcolm.
"They say it's a' anent the abduckin' o' the markis's boat, 'at
you an' him gaed aff wi' thegither."
"That'll hardly haud, seeing the marchioness hersel' cam' hame in
her the last nicht."
"Ay, but ye see the decree's gane oot, an' what the factor says is
like the laws o' the Medes an' the Prussians, 'at they say's no to
be altert; I kenna mysel'."
"Ow weel! gien that be a', I'll see efter that wi' the marchioness."
"Ay, but ye see there's a lot o' the laads there, as I'm tellt,
'at has vooed 'at factor nor factor's man s'all ever set fut in
Scaurnose fine this day furth. Gang ye doon to the Seaton, an' see
hoo mony o' yer auld freen's ye'll fin' there. Man, they're a' oot
to Scaurnose to see the plisky. The factor he's there, I ken, an'
some constables wi' 'im--to see 'at his order 's cairried oot.
An' the laads they ha'e been fortifeein' the place--as they ca'
't--for the last oor. They've howkit a trenk, they tell me, 'at
nane but a hunter on 's horse cud win ower, an' they're postit
alang the toon side o' 't wi' sticks an' stanes, an' boat heuks, an'
guns an' pistils. An' gien there bena a man or twa killt a'ready,--"
Before he finished his sentence, Kelpie was levelling herself for
the sea gate.
Johnny Bykes was locking it on the other side, in haste to secure
his eye share of what was going on, when he caught sight of Malcolm
tearing up. Mindful of the old grudge, also that there was no marquis
now to favour his foe, he finished the arrested act of turning the
key, drew it from the lock, and to Malcolm's orders, threats, and
appeals, returned for all answer that he had no time to attend to
him, and so left him looking through the bars. Malcolm dashed across
the burn, and round the base of the hill on which stood the little
windgod blowing his horn, dismounted, unlocked the door in the wall,
got Kelpie through, and was in the saddle again before Johnny was
halfway from the gate. When the churl saw him, he trembled, turned,
and ran for its shelter again in terror--nor perceived until he
reached it, that the insulted groom had gone off like the wind in
the opposite direction.
Malcolm soon left the high road and cut across the fields--over
which the wind bore cries and shouts, mingled with laughter and the
animal sounds of coarse jeering. When he came nigh the cart road
which led into the village, he saw at the entrance of the street
a crowd, and rising from it the well known shape of the factor on
his horse. Nearer the sea, where was another entrance through the
back yards of some cottages, was a smaller crowd. Both were now
pretty silent, for the attention of all was fixed on Malcolm's
approach. As he drew up Kelpie foaming and prancing, and the group
made way for her, he saw a deep wide ditch across the road, on whose
opposite side was ranged irregularly the flower of Scaurnose's younger
manhood, calmly, even merrily prepared to defend their entrenchment.
They had been chaffing the factor, and loudly challenging the
constables to come on, when they recognised Malcolm in the distance,
and expectancy stayed the rush of their bruising wit. For they
regarded him as beyond a doubt come from the marchioness with
messages of goodwill. When he rode up, therefore, they raised a
great shout, everyone welcoming him by name. But the factor, who,
to judge by appearances, had had his forenoon dram ere he left
home, burning with wrath, moved his horse in between Malcolm and the
assembled Scaurnoseans on the other side of the ditch. He had self
command enough left, however, to make one attempt at the loftily
superior.
"Pray what is your business?" he said, as if he had never seen
Malcolm in his life before, "I presume you come with a message."
"I come to beg you, sir, not to go further with this business.
Surely the punishment is already enough!" said Malcolm respectfully.
"Who sends me the message?" asked the factor, his teeth clenched,
and his eyes flaming.
"One," answered Malcolm, "who has some influence for justice, and
will use it, upon whichever side the justice may lie."
"Go to hell," cried the Factor, losing utterly his slender self
command, and raising his whip.
Malcolm took no heed of the gesture, for he was at the moment beyond
his reach.
"Mr Crathie," he said calmly, "you are banishing the best man in
the place."
"No doubt! no doubt! seeing he's a crony of yours," laughed the
factor in mighty scorn. "A canting, prayer meeting rascal!" he
added.
"Is that ony waur nor a drucken elyer o' the kirk?" cried Dubs from
the other side of the ditch, raising a roar of laughter.
The very purple forsook the factor's face, and left it a corpse-like
grey in the fire of his fury.
"Come, come, my men! that's going too far," said Malcolm.
"An' wha ir ye for a fudgie (truant) fisher, to gi'e coonsel ohn
speired?" shouted Dubs, altogether disappointed in the poor part
Malcolm seemed taking. "Haud to the factor there wi' yer coonsel."
"Get out of my way," said Mr Crathie, still speaking through his
set teeth, and came straight upon Malcolm. "Home with you! or-r-r"
Again he raised his whip, this time plainly with intent.
"For God's sake, factor, min' the mere," cried Malcolm. "Ribs an'
legs an' a' 'ill be to crack, gien ye anger her wi' yer whuppin."
As he spoke, he drew a little aside that the factor might pass if
he pleased. A noise arose in the smaller crowd, and Malcolm turned
to see what it meant: off his guard, he received a stinging cut
over the head from the factor's whip. Simultaneously, Kelpie stood
up on end, and Malcolm tore the weapon from the treacherous hand.
"If I gave you what you deserve, Mr Crathie, I should knock you and
your horse together into that ditch. A touch of the spur would do
it. I am not quite sure that I ought not. A nature like yours takes
forbearance for fear."
While he spoke, his mare was ramping and kicking, making a clean
sweep all about her. Mr Crathie's horse turned restive from sympathy,
and it was all his rider could do to keep his seat. As soon as he
got Kelpie a little quieter, Malcolm drew near and returned him
his whip. He snatched it from his outstretched hand, and essayed
a second cut at him, which Malcolm rendered powerless by pushing
Kelpie close up to him. Then suddenly wheeling, he left him.
On the other side of the trench the fellows were shouting and
roaring with laughter.
"Men," cried Malcolm, "you have no right to stop up this road. I
want to go and see Blue Peter."
"Come on," cried one of the young men, emulous of Dubs's humour,
and spread out his arms as if to receive Kelpie to his bosom.
"Stand out of the way then," said Malcolm, "I am coming."
As he spoke, he took Kelpie a little round, keeping out of the way
of the factor, who sat trembling with rage on his still excited
animal, and sent her at the trench.
The Deevil's Jock, as they called him, kept jumping, with his arms
outspread, from one place to another, as if to receive Kelpie's
charge, but when he saw her actually coming, in short, quick
bounds, straight to the trench, he was seized with terror, and,
half paralysed, slipped as he turned to flee, and rolled into the
ditch, just in time to let Kelpie fly over his head. His comrades
scampered right and left, and Malcolm, rather disgusted, took no
notice of them.
A cart, loaded with their little all, the horse in the shafts,
was standing at Peter's door, but nobody was near it. Hardly was
Malcolm well into the close, however, when out rushed Annie, and,
heedless of Kelpie's demonstrative repellence, reached up her hands
like a child, caught him by the arm, while yet he was busied with
his troublesome charge, drew him down towards her, and held him
till, in spite of Kelpie, she had kissed him again and again.
"Eh, Ma'colm! eh, my lord!" she said, "ye ha'e saved my faith. I
kenned ye wad come!"
"Haud yer tongue, Annie. I mauna be kenned," said Malcolm.
"There's nae danger. They'll tak' it for sweirin'," answered Annie,
laughing and crying both at once.
Out next came Blue Peter, his youngest child in his arms.
"Eh, Peter man! I'm blythe to see ye," cried Malcolm. "Gie's a grup
o' yer honest han'."
More than even the sight of his face beaming with pleasure, more
than that grasp of the hand that would have squeezed the life out
of a polecat, was the sound of the mother tongue from his lips. The
cloud of Peter's long distrust broke and vanished, and the sky of
his soul was straightway a celestial blue. He snatched his hand from
Malcolm's, walked back into the empty house, ran into the little
closet off the kitchen, bolted the door, fell on his knees in the
void little sanctuary that had of late been the scene of so many
foiled attempts to lift up his heart, and poured out speechless
thanksgiving to the God of all grace and consolation, who had
given him back his friend, and that in the time of his sore need.
So true was his heart in its love, that, giving thanks for his
friend, he forgot that friend was the Marquis of Lossie, before
whom his enemy was but as a snail in the sun.
When he rose from his knees, and went out again, his face shining
and his eyes misty, his wife was on the top of the cart, tying a
rope across the cradle.
"Peter," said Malcolm, "ye was quite richt to gang, but I'm glaid
they didna lat ye."
"I wad ha'e been half w'y to Port Gordon or noo," said Peter.
"But noo ye'll no gang to Port Gordon," said Malcolm. "Ye'll jist
gang to the Salmon for a feow days, till we see hoo things gang."
"I'll du onything ye like, Ma'colm," said Peter, and went into the
house to fetch his bonnet.
In the street arose the cry of a woman, and into the close rushed
one of the fisherwives, followed by the factor. He had found a
place on the eastern side of the village, where, jumping a low earth
wail, he got into a little back yard, and was trampling over its
few stocks of kail, and its one dusty miller and double daisy, when
the woman to whose cottage it belonged caught sight of him through
the window, and running out fell to abusing him in no measured
language. He rode at her in his rage, and she fled shrieking
into Peter's close, where she took refuge behind the cart, never
ceasing her vituperation, but calling him every choice name in her
vocabulary. Beside himself with the rage of murdered dignity, he
rode up, and struck at her over the corner of the cart, whereupon,
from the top of it, Annie Mair ventured to expostulate.
"Hoot, sir! It's no mainners to lat at a wuman like that."
He turned upon her, and gave her a cut on the arm and hand, so
stinging that she cried out, and nearly fell from the cart. Out
rushed Peter and flew at the factor, who from his seat of vantage
began to ply his whip about his head. But Malcolm, who, when the
factor appeared, had moved aside to keep Kelpie out of mischief,
and saw only the second of the two assaults, came forward with a
scramble and a bound.
"Haud awa, Peter," he cried. "This belangs to me. I ga'e him back
's whup, an' sae I'm accoontable.--Mr Crathie,"--and as he spoke
he edged his mare up to the panting factor, "the man who strikes
a woman must be taught that he is a scoundrel, and that office I
take. I would do the same if you were the lord of Lossie instead
of his factor."
Mr Crathie, knowing himself now in the wrong, was a little frightened
at the set speech, and began to bluster and stammer, but the swift
descent of Malcolm's heavy riding whip on his shoulders and back
made him voluble in curses. Then began a battle that could not last
long with such odds on the side of justice. It was gazed at from
the mouth of the close by many spectators, but none dared enter
because of the capering and plunging and kicking of the horses. In
less than a minute the factor turned to flee, and spurring out of
the court, galloped up the street at full stretch.
"Haud oot o' the gait," cried Malcolm, and rode after him. But more
careful of the people, he did not get a good start, and the factor
was over the trench and into the fields before he caught him
up. Then again the stinging switch buckled about the shoulders of
the oppressor, driven with all the force of Malcolm's brawny arm.
The factor yelled and cursed and swore, and still Malcolm plied
the whip, and still the horses flew--over fields and fences and
ditches. At length in the last field, from which they must turn into
the high road, the factor groaned out--"For God's sake, Ma'colm,
ha'e mercy!"
The youth's uplifted arm fell by his side. He turned his mare's
head, and when the factor turned his, he saw the avenger already
halfway back to Scaurnose, and the constables in full flight meeting
him.
While Malcolm was thus occupied, his sister was writing to Lady
Bellair. She told her that, having gone out for a sail in her yacht,
which she had sent for from Scotland, the desire to see her home
had overpowered her to such a degree that of the intended sail she
had made a voyage, and here she was, longing just as much now to
see Lady Bellair; and if she thought proper to bring a gentleman
to take care of her, he also should be welcomed for her sake. It
was a long way for her to come, she said, and Lady Bellair knew
what sort of a place it was; but there was nobody in London now,
and if she had nothing more enticing on her tablets, &c., &c. She
ended with begging her, if she was mercifully inclined to make her
happy with her presence, to bring to her Caley and her hound Demon.
She had hardly finished when Malcolm presented himself.
She received him very coldly, and declined to listen to anything
about the fishers. She insisted that, being one of their party,
he was prejudiced in their favour; and that of course a man of Mr
Crathie's experience must know better than he what ought to be done
with such people, in view of protecting her rights, and keeping
them in order. She declared that she was not going to disturb the
old way of things to please him; and said that he had now done
her all the mischief he could, except, indeed, he were to head the
fishers and sack Lossie House.
Malcolm found that, by making himself known to her as her brother,
he had but given her confidence in speaking her mind to him, and set
her free from considerations of personal dignity when she desired
to humiliate him. But he was a good deal surprised at the ability
with which she set forth and defended her own view of her affairs,
for she did not tell him that the Rev. Mr Cairns had been with her
all the morning, flattering her vanity, worshipping her power, and
generally instructing her in her own greatness--also putting in
a word or two anent his friend Mr Crathie and his troubles with her
ladyship's fisher tenants. She was still, however, so far afraid
of her brother--which state of feeling was, perhaps, the main
cause of her insulting behaviour to him--that she sat in some
dread lest he might chance to see the address of the letter she
had been writing.
I may mention here that Lady Bellair accepted the invitation with
pleasure for herself and Liftore, promised to bring Caley, but
utterly declined to take charge of Demon, or allow him to be of the
party. Thereupon Florimel, who was fond of the animal, and feared
much, as he was no favourite, that something would happen to him,
wrote to Clementina, praying her to visit her in her lovely loneliness
--good as The Gloom in its way, though not quite so dark--and
to add a hair to the weight of her obligations if she complied, by
allowing her deerhound to accompany her. Clementina was the only
one, she said, of her friends for whom the animal had ever shown
a preference.
Malcolm retired from his sister's presence much depressed, saw Mrs
Courthope, who was kind as ever, and betook himself to his own room,
next to that in which his strange history began. There he sat down
and wrote urgently to Lenorme, stating that he had an important
communication to make, and begging him to start for the north the
moment he received the letter. A messenger from Duff Harbour well
mounted, he said, would ensure his presence within a couple of
hours.
He found the behaviour of his old acquaintances and friends in the
Seaton much what he had expected: the few were as cordial as ever,
while the many still resented, with a mingling of the jealousy of
affection, his forsaking of the old life for a calling they regarded
as unworthy of one bred at least if not born a fisherman. A few
there were besides who always had been, for reasons perhaps best
known to themselves, less than friendly. The women were all cordial.
"Sic a mad-like thing," said old Futtocks, who was now the leader
of the assembly at the barn, "to gang scoorin' the cuintry on that
mad brute o' a mere! What guid, think ye, can come sic like?"
"H'ard ye him ever tell the story aboot Colonsay Castel yon'er?"
"Ay hey!"
"Weel, isna his mere 'at they ca' Kelpie jist the pictur' o' the
deil's ain horse 'at lay at the door an' watched, whan he flaw oot
an' tuik the wa' wi' 'im ?"
"I cudna say till I saw whether the deil himsel' cud gar her lie
still."
CHAPTER LIX: THE PEACEMAKER
The heroes of Scaurnose expected a renewal of the attack, and in
greater force, the next day, and made their preparations accordingly,
strengthening every weak point around the village. They were put in
great heart by Malcolm's espousal of their cause, as they considered
his punishment of the factor; but most of them set it down in their
wisdom as resulting from the popular condemnation of his previous
supineness. It did not therefore add greatly to his influence with
them. When he would have prevailed upon them to allow Blue Peter
to depart, arguing that they had less right to prevent than the
factor had to compel him, they once more turned upon him: what
right had he to dictate to them? he did not belong to Scaurnose!
He reasoned with them that the factor, although he had not justice,
had law on his side, and could turn out whom he pleased. They
said--"Let him try it!" He told them that they had given great
provocation, for he knew that the men they had assaulted came
surveying for a harbour, and that they ought at least to make some
apology for having maltreated them. It was all useless: that was
the women's doing, they said; besides they did not believe him; and
if what he said was true, what was the thing to them, seeing they
were all under notice to leave?
Malcolm said that perhaps an apology would be accepted. They told
him, if he did not take himself off, they would serve him as he had
served the factor. Finding expostulation a failure, therefore, he
begged Joseph and Annie to settle themselves again as comfortably
as they could, and left them.
Contrary to the expectation of all, however, and considerably to
the disappointment of the party of Dubs, Fite Folp, and the rest,
the next day was as peaceful as if Scaurnose had been a halcyon
nest floating on the summer waves; and it was soon reported that,
in consequence of the punishment he had received from Malcolm, the
factor was far too ill to be troublesome to any but his wife. This
was true, but, severe as his chastisement was, it was not severe
enough to have had any such consequences but for his late growing
habit of drinking whisky. As it was, fever had followed upon the
combination of bodily and mental suffering. But already it had
wrought this good in him, that he was far more keenly aware of the
brutality of the offence of which he had been guilty than he would
otherwise have been all his life through. To his wife, who first
learned the reason of Malcolm's treatment of him from his delirious
talk in the night, it did not, circumstances considered, appear
an enormity, and her indignation with the avenger of it, whom she
had all but hated before, was furious.
Malcolm, on his part, was greatly concerned to hear the result
of his severity. He refrained, however, from calling to inquire,
knowing it would be interpreted as an insult, not accepted as
a sign of sympathy. He went to the doctor instead--who, to his
consternation, looked very serious at first. But when he learned all
about the affair, he changed his view considerably, and condescended
to give good hopes of his coming through, even adding that it would
lengthen his life by twenty years if it broke him of his habits of
whisky drinking and rage.
And now Malcolm had a little time of leisure, which he put to the
best possible use in strengthening his relations with the fishers.
For he had nothing to do about the House, except look after Kelpie;
and Florimel, as if determined to make him feel that he was less
to her than before, much as she used to enjoy seeing him sit his
mare, never took him out with her--always Stoat. He resolved
therefore, seeing he must yet delay action a while in the hope of
the appearance of Lenorme, to go out as in the old days after the
herring, both for the sake of splicing, if possible, what strands
had been broken between him and the fishers, and of renewing for
himself the delights of elemental conflict.
With these views, he hired himself to the Partan, whose boat's
crew was short handed. And now, night after night, he revelled in
the old pleasure, enhanced by so many months of deprivation. Joy
itself seemed embodied in the wind blowing on him out of the misty
infinite while his boat rocked and swung on the waters, hanging
between two worlds, that in which the wind blew, and that other
dark swaying mystery whereinto the nets to which it was tied went
away down and down, gathering the harvest of the ocean.
It was as if nature called up all her motherhood to greet and embrace
her long absent son. When it came on to blow hard, as it did once
and again during those summer nights, instead of making him feel
small and weak in the midst of the storming forces, it gave him a
glorious sense of power and unconquerable life. And when his watch
was out, and the boat lay quiet, like a horse tethered and asleep
in his clover field, he too would fall asleep with a sense of
simultaneously deepening and vanishing delight such as be had not
at all in other conditions experienced.
Ever since the poison had got into his system, and crept where it
yet lay lurking in hidden corners and crannies, a noise at night
would on shore startle him awake, and set his heart beating hard;
but no loudest sea noise ever woke him; the stronger the wind
flapped its wings around him, the deeper he slept. When a comrade
called him by name, he was up at once and wide awake.
It answered also all his hopes in regard to his companions and the
fisher folk generally. Those who had really known him found the
same old Malcolm, and those who had doubted him soon began to see
that at least he had lost nothing in courage or skill or goodwill:
ere long he was even a greater favourite than before. On his part,
he learned to understand far better the nature of his people,
as well as the individual characters of them, for his long (but
not too long) absence and return enabled him to regard them with
unaccustomed, and therefore in some respects more discriminating
eyes.
Duncan's former dwelling happening to be then occupied by a lonely
woman, Malcolm made arrangements with her to take them both in; so
that in relation to his grandfather too something very much like the
old life returned for a time--with this difference, that Duncan
soon began to check himself as often as the name of his hate, with
its accompanying curse, rose to his lips.
The factor continued very ill. He had sunk into a low state, in
which his former indulgence was greatly against him. Every night the
fever returned, and at length his wife was worn out with watching,
and waiting upon him.
And every morning Lizzy Findlay, without fail, called to inquire
how Mr Crathie had spent the night. To the last, while quarrelling
with every one of her neighbours with whom he had anything to do,
he had continued kind to her, and she was more grateful than one
in other trouble than hers could have understood. But she did not
know that an element in the origination of his kindness was the
belief that it was by Malcolm she had been wronged and forsaken.
Again and again she had offered, in the humblest manner, to ease
his wife's burden by sitting with him at night; and at last, finding
she could hold up no longer, Mrs Crathie consented. But even after
a week she found herself still unable to resume the watching, and
so, night after night, resting at home during a part of the day,
Lizzy sat by the sleeping factor, and when he woke ministered to
him like a daughter. Nor did even her mother object, for sickness
is a wondrous reconciler.
Little did the factor suspect, however, that it was partly for
Malcolm's sake she nursed him, anxious to shield the youth from
any possible consequences of his righteous vengeance.
While their persecutor lay thus, gradually everything at Scaurnose,
and consequently at the Seaton, lapsed into its old way, and the
summer of such content as before they had possessed, returned to
the fishers. I fear it would have proved hard for some of them,
had they made effort in that direction, to join in the prayer, if
prayer it may be called, put up in church for him every Sunday. What
a fearful canopy the prayers that do not get beyond the atmosphere
would make if they turned brown with age! Having so lately seen the
factor going about like a maniac, raving at this piece of damage
and that heap of dirt, the few fishers present could never help
smiling when Mr Cairns prayed for him as "the servant of God and
his church now lying grievously afflicted--persecuted, but not
forsaken, cast down, but not destroyed;"--having found the fitting
phrases he seldom varied them.
Through her sorrow, Lizzy had grown tender, as through her shame
she had grown wise. That the factor had been much in the wrong only
rendered her anxious sympathy the more eager to serve him. Knowing
so well what it was to have done wrong, she was pitiful over him,
and her ministrations were none the less devoted that she knew
exactly how Malcolm thought and felt about him; for the affair,
having taken place in open village and wide field and in the light
of midday, and having been reported by eyewitnesses many, was
everywhere perfectly known, and Malcolm therefore talked of it
freely to his friends, amongst them both to Lizzy and her mother.
Sickness sometimes works marvellous changes, and the most marvellous
on persons who to the ordinary observer seem the least liable
to change. Much apparent steadfastness of nature, however, is
but sluggishness, and comes from incapacity to generate change or
contribute towards personal growth; and it follows that those whose
nature is such can as little prevent or retard any change that has
its initiative beyond them. The men who impress the world as the
mightiest are those often who can the least--never those who can
the most in their natural kingdom; generally those whose frontiers
lie openest to the inroads of temptation, whose atmosphere is most
subject to moody changes and passionate convulsions, who, while
perhaps they can whisper laws to a hemisphere, can utter no decree
of smallest potency as to how things shall be within themselves.
Place Alexander ille Magnus beside Malcolm's friend Epictetus, ille
servorum servus; take his crutch from the slave and set the hero
upon his Bucephalus--but set them alone and in a desert: which
will prove the great man? which the unchangeable? The question
being what the man himself shall or shall not be, shall or shall
not feel, shall or shall not recognize as of himself and troubling
the motions of his being, Alexander will prove a mere earth bubble,
Epictetus a cavern in which pulses the tide of the eternal and
infinite Sea.
But then first, when the false strength of the self imagined great
man is gone, when the want or the sickness has weakened the self
assertion which is so often mistaken for strength of individuality,
when the occupations in which he formerly found a comfortable
consciousness of being have lost their interest, his ambitions
their glow, and his consolations their colour, when suffering has
wasted away those upper strata of his factitious consciousness, and
laid bare the lower, simpler, truer deeps, of which he has never
known or has forgotten the existence, then there is a hope of his
commencing a new and real life.
Powers then, even powers within himself of which he knew nothing,
begin to assert themselves, and the man commonly reported to possess
a strong will, is like a wave of the sea driven with the wind and
tossed. This factor, this man of business, this despiser of humbug,
to whom the scruples of a sensitive conscience were a contempt,
would now lie awake in the night and weep.
"Ah!" I hear it answered, "but that was the weakness caused by his
illness." True: but what then had become of his strength? And was
it all weakness? What if this weakness was itself a sign of returning
life, not of advancing death--of the dawn of a new and genuine
strength! For he wept because, in the visions of his troubled brain,
he saw once more the cottage of his father the shepherd, with all
its store of lovely nothings round which the nimbus of sanctity
had gathered while he thought not of them; wept over the memory of
that moment of delight when his mother kissed him for parting with
his willow whistle to the sister who cried for it: he cried now in
his turn, after five and fifty years, for not yet had the little
fact done with him, not yet had the kiss of his mother lost its
power on the man: wept over the sale of the pet lamb, though he had
himself sold thousands of lambs, since; wept over even that bush
of dusty miller by the door, like the one he trampled under his
horse's feet in the little yard at Scaurnose that horrible day.
And oh, that nest of wild bees with its combs of honey unspeakable!
He used to laugh and sing then: he laughed still sometimes--he
could hear how he laughed, and it sounded frightful--but he never
sang! Were the tears that honoured such childish memories all of
weakness? Was it cause of regret that he had not been wicked enough
to have become impregnable to such foolish trifles? Unable to mount
a horse, unable to give an order, not caring even for his toddy,
he was left at the mercy of his fundamentals; his childhood came up
and claimed him, and he found the childish things he had put away
better than the manly things he had adopted.  It is one thing for
St Paul and another for Mr Worldly Wiseman to put away childish
things. The ways they do it, and the things they substitute, are
both so different? And now first to me, whose weakness it is to
love life more than manners, and men more than their portraits,
the man begins to grow interesting. Picture the dawn of innocence
on a dull, whisky drinking, commonplace soul, stained by self
indulgence, and distorted by injustice! Unspeakably more interesting
and lovely is to me such a dawn than the honeymoon of the most
passionate of lovers, except indeed I know them such lovers that
their love will outlast all the moons.
"I'm a poor creature, Lizzy," he said, turning his heavy face one
midnight towards the girl, as she sat half dozing, ready to start
awake.
"God comfort ye, sir!" said the girl.
"He'll take good care of that!" returned the factor. "What did I
ever do to deserve it?--There's that MacPhail, now--to think
of him! Didn't I do what man could for him? Didn't I keep him about
the place when all the rest were dismissed? Didn't I give him the
key of the library, that he might read and improve his mind? And
look what comes of it!"
"Ye mean, sir," said. Lizzy, quite innocently, "'at that 's the
w'y ye ha'e dune wi' God, an' sae he winna heed ye?"
The factor had meant nothing in the least like it. He had merely
been talking as the imps of suggestion tossed up. His logic was
as sick and helpless as himself. So at that he held his peace--
stung in his pride at least--perhaps in his conscience too, only
he was not prepared to be rebuked by a girl like her, who had--
Well, he must let it pass: how much better was he himself?
But Lizzy was loyal: she could not hear him speak so of Malcolm
and hold her peace as if she agreed in his condemnation.
"Ye'll ken Ma'colm better some day, sir," she said.
"Well, Lizzy," returned the sick man, in a tone that but for
feebleness would have been indignant, "I have heard a good deal of
the way women will stand up for men that have treated them cruelly,
but you to stand up for him passes!"
"He's been the best friend I ever had," said Lizzy.
"Girl! how can you sit there, and tell me so to my face?"
cried the factor, his voice strengthened by the righteousness
of the reproof it bore. "If it were not the dead of the night--"
"I tell ye naething but the trowth, sir," said Lizzy, as the
contingent threat died away. "But ye maun lie still or I maun gang
for the mistress. Gien ye be the waur the morn, it'll be a' my
wyte, 'cause I cudna bide to hear sic things said o' Ma'colm."
"Do you mean to tell me," persisted her charge, heedless of her
expostulation, "that the fellow who brought you to disgrace, and
left you with a child you could ill provide for--and I well know
never sent you a penny all the time he was away, whatever he may
have done now, is the best friend you ever had?"
"Noo God forgi'e ye, Maister Crathie, for threipin' sic a thing!"
cried Lizzy, rising as if she would leave him; "Ma'colm MacPhail
's as clear o' ony sin like mine as my wee bairnie itsel'."
"Do ye daur tell me he's no the father o' that same, lass?"
"No, nor never will be the father a' ony bairn whase mither 's no
his wife!" said. Lizzy, with burning cheeks and resolute voice.
The factor, who had risen on his elbow to look her in the face,
fell back in silence; and neither of them spoke for what seemed to
the watcher a long time; When she ventured to look at him, he was
asleep.
He lay in one of those troubled slumbers into which weakness and
exhaustion will sometimes pass very suddenly; and in that slumber
he had a dream which he never forgot. He thought he had risen from
his grave with an awful sound in his ears, and knew he was wanted
at the judgment seat. But he did not want to go, therefore crept into
the porch of the church, and hoped to be forgotten. But suddenly
an angel appeared with a flaming sword and drove him out of the
churchyard away to Scaurnose where the judge was sitting. And as
he fled in terror before the angel, he fell, and the angel came
and stood over him, and his sword flashed torture into his bones,
but he could not and dared not rise. At last, summoning all his
strength, he looked up at him, and cried out, "Sir, ha'e mercy,
for God's sake." Instantly all the flames drew back into the sword,
and the blade dropped, burning like a brand, from the hilt, which
the angel threw away.--And lo! it was Malcolm MacPhail, and he
was stooping to raise him. With that he awoke, and there was Lizzy
looking down on him anxiously.
"What are you looking like that for?" he asked crossly.
She did not like to tell him that she had been alarmed by his dropping
asleep: and in her confusion she fell back on the last subject.
"There maun be some mistak, Mr Crathie," she said. "I wuss ye wad
tell me what gars ye hate Ma'colm MacPhail as ye du."
The factor, although he seemed to himself to know well enough,
was yet a little puzzled how to commence his reply; and therewith
a process began that presently turned into something with which
never in his life before had his inward parts been acquainted--a
sort of self examination to wit. He said to himself, partly in the
desire to justify his present dislike--he would not call it hate,
as Lizzy did--that he used to get on with the lad well enough,
and had never taken offence at his freedoms, making no doubt his
manner came of his blood, and he could not help it, being a chip
of the old block; but when he ran away with the marquis's boat,
and went to the marchioness and told her lies against him--then
what could he do but dislike him?
Arrived at this point, he opened his mouth and gave the substance
of what preceded it for answer to Lizzy's question. But she replied
at once.
"Nobody 'ill gar me believe, sir, 'at Ma'colm MacPhail ever tellt
a lee again' you or onybody. I dinna believe he ever tellt a lee
in 's life. Jist ye exem' him weel anent it, sir. An' for the boat,
nae doobt it was makin' free to tak it; but ye ken, sir, 'at hoo he
was maister o' the same. It was in his chairge, an' ye ken little
aboot boats yersel,' or the sailin' o' them, sir."
"But it was me that engaged him again, after all the servants at
the House had been dismissed: he was my servant."
"That maks the thing luik waur, nae doobt," allowed Lizzy,--with
something of cunning. "Hoo was't 'at he cam to du 't ava' (of all;
at all), sir? Can ye min'?" she pursued.
"I discharged him."
"An' what for, gien I may mak' hold to speir, sir?" she went on.
"For insolence."
"Wad ye tell me hoo he answert ye? Dinna think me meddlin', sir.
I'm clear certain there's been some mistak. Ye cudna be sae guid
to me, an' be ill to him, ohn some mistak."
It was consoling to the conscience of the factor, in regard of his
behaviour to the two women, to hear his own praise for kindness
from woman's lips. He took no offence therefore at her persistent
questioning, but told her as well and as truly as he could remember,
with no more than the all but unavoidable exaggeration with which
feeling will colour fact, the whole passage between Malcolm and
himself concerning the sale of Kelpie, and closed with an appeal to
the judgment of his listener, in which he confidently anticipated
her verdict.
"A most ridic'lous thing! ye can see yersel' as weel 's onybody,
Lizzy! An' sic a thing to ca' an honest man like mysel' a hypocrete
for! ha! ha! ha! There's no a bairn 'atween John o' Groat's an'
the Lan's En' disna ken 'at the seller a horse is b'un' to reese
(extol) him, an' the buyer to tak care o' himsel'. I'll no say
it's jist allooable to tell a doonricht lee, but ye may come full
nearer till't in horse dealin', ohn sinned, nor in ony ither kin'
o' merchandeze. It's like luve an' war, in baith which, it's weel
keened, a' thing's fair. The saw sud rin--Luve an' war an' horse
dealin'.--Divna ye see, Lizzy?"
But Lizzy did not answer, and the factor, hearing a stifled sob,
started to his elbow.
"Lie still, sir," said Lizzy. "It's naething. I was only jist
thinkin' 'at that wad be the w'y 'at the father o' my bairn rizoned
wi' himsel' whan he lee'd to me."
"Hey!" said the astonished factor, and in his turn held his peace,
trying to think.
Now Lizzy, for the last few months, had been going to school,
the same school with Malcolm, open to all comers, the only school
where one is sure to be led in the direction of wisdom, and there
she had been learning to some purpose--as plainly appeared before
she had done with the factor.
"Whase kirk are ye elder o', Maister Crathie?" she asked presently.
"Ow, the kirk o' Scotlan', of coorse!" answered the patient, in
some surprise at her ignorance.
"Ay, ay," returned Lizzy; "but whase aucht (owning, property) is
't?"
"Ow, whase but the Redeemer's!"
"An' div ye think, Mr Craithie, 'at gien Jesus Christ had had a
horse to sell, he wad ha'e hidden frae him 'at wad buy, ae hair a
fau't 'at the beast hed? Wad he no ha'e dune till's neiper as he
wad ha'e his neiper du to him?"
"Lassie! lassie! tak care hoo ye even him to sic like as hiz (us).
What wad he hae to du wi' horse flesh?"
Lizzy held her peace. Here was no room for argument. He had flung
the door of his conscience in the face of her who woke it. But it
was too late, for the word was in already. Oh! that false reverence
which men substitute for adoring obedience, and wherewith they
reprove the childlike spirit that does not know another kingdom
than that of God and that of Mammon! God never gave man thing to
do concerning which it were irreverent to ponder how the son of
God would have done it.
But, I say, the word was in, and, partly no doubt from its following
so close upon the dream the factor had had, was potent in its
operation. He fell a thinking, and a thinking more honestly than
he had thought for many a day. And presently it was revealed to
him that, if he were in the horse market wanting to buy, and a man
there who had to sell said to him--"He wadna du for you, sir;
ye wad be tired o' 'im in a week," he would never remark, "What a
fool the fellow is!" but--"Weel noo, I ca' that neibourly!"  He
did not get quite so far just then as to see that every man to whom
he might want to sell a horse was as much his neighbour as his own
brother; nor, indeed, if he had got as far, would it have indicated
much progress in honesty, seeing he would at any time, when needful
and possible, have cheated that brother in the matter of a horse,
as certainly as he would a Patagonian or a Chinaman. But the warped
glass of a bad maxim had at least been cracked in his window.
The peacemaker sat in silence the rest of the night, but the factor's
sleep was broken, and at times he wandered. He was not so well the
next day, and his wife, gathering that Lizzy had been talking, and
herself feeling better, would not allow her to sit up with him any
more.
Days and days passed, and still Malcolm had no word from Lenorme,
and was getting hopeless in respect of that quarter of possible
aid. But so long as Florimel could content herself with the quiet
of Lossie House, there was time to wait, he said to himself. She
was not idle, and that was promising. Every day she rode out with
Stoat. Now and then she would make a call in the neighbourhood,
and, apparently to trouble Malcolm, took care to let him know that
on one of these occasions her call had been upon Mrs Stewart.
One thing he did feel was that she made no renewal of her friendship
with his grandfather: she had, alas! outgrown the girlish fancy.
Poor Duncan took it much to heart. She saw more of the minister
and his wife, who both flattered her, than anybody else, and was
expecting the arrival of Lady Bellair and Lord Liftore with the
utmost impatience. They, for their part, were making the journey
by the easiest possible stages, tacking and veering, and visiting
everyone of their friends that lay between London and Lossie:
they thought to give Florimel the little lesson, that, though they
accepted her invitation, they had plenty of friends in the world
besides her ladyship, and were not dying to see her.
One evening, Malcolm, as he left the grounds of Mr Morrison, on
whom he had been calling, saw a travelling carriage pass towards
Portlossie; and something liker fear laid hold of his heart than
he had ever felt except when Florimel and he on the night of the
storm took her father for Lord Gernon the wizard. As soon as he
reached certain available fields, he sent Kelpie tearing across
them, dodged through a fir wood, and came out on the road half a
mile in front of the carriage: as again it passed him he saw that
his fears were facts, for in it sat the bold faced countess, and
the mean hearted lord. Something must be done at last, and until
it was done good watch must be kept.
I must here note that, during this time of hoping and waiting,
Malcolm had attended to another matter of importance. Over every
element influencing his life, his family, his dependents, his
property, he desired to possess a lawful, honest command: where
he had to render account, he would be head. Therefore, through Mr
Soutar's London agent, to whom he sent up Davy, and whom he brought
acquainted with Merton, and his former landlady at the curiosity
shop, he had discovered a good deal about Mrs Catanach from her
London associates, among them the herb doctor, and his little boy
who had watched Davy, and he had now almost completed an outline
of evidence, which, grounded on that of Rose, might be used against
Mrs Catanach at any moment. He had also set inquiries on foot in
the track of Caley's antecedents, and had discovered more than the
acquaintance between her and Mrs Catanach. Also he had arranged
that Hodges, the man who had lost his leg through his cruelty to
Kelpie, should leave for Duff Harbour as soon as possible after his
discharge from the hospital. He was determined to crush the evil
powers which had been ravaging his little world.
CHAPTER LX: AN OFFERING
Clementina was always ready to accord any reasonable request Florimel
could make of her; but her letter lifted such a weight from her
heart and life that she would now have done whatever she desired,
reasonable or unreasonable, provided only it was honest. She had
no difficulty in accepting Florimel's explanation that her sudden
disappearance was but a breaking of the social gaol, the flight of
the weary bird from its foreign cage back to the country of its
nest; and that same morning she called upon Demon. The hound, feared
and neglected, was rejoiced to see her, came when she called him,
and received her caresses: there was no ground for dreading his
company. It was a long journey, but if it had been across a desert
instead of through her own country, the hope that lay at the end
of it would have made it more than pleasant. She, as well as Lady
Bellair, had friends upon the way, but no desire to lengthen the
journey or shorten its tedium by visiting them.
The letter would have found her at Wastbeach instead of London,
had not the society and instructions of the schoolmaster detained
her a willing prisoner to its heat and glare and dust. Him only in
all London must she see to bid goodbye. To Camden Town therefore
she went that same evening, when his work would be over for the
day. As usual now, she was shown into his room--his only one.
As usual also, she found him poring over his Greek Testament.
The gracious, graceful woman looked lovelily strange in that mean
chamber--like an opal in a brass ring.
There was no such contrast between the room and its occupant.
His bodily presence was too weak to "stick fiery off" from its
surroundings, and to the eye that saw through the bodily presence
to the inherent grandeur, that grandeur suggested no discrepancy,
being of the kind that lifts everything to its own level, casts
the mantle of its own radiance around its surroundings. Still to
the eye of love and reverence it was not pleasant to see him in
such entourage, and now that Clementina was going to leave him,
the ministering spirit that dwelt in the woman was troubled.
"Ah!" he said, and rose as she entered; "this is then the angel
of my deliverance!" But with such a smile he did not look as if he
had much to be delivered from. "You see," he went on, "old man as
I am, and peaceful, the summer will lay hold upon me. She stretches
out a long arm into this desert of houses and stones, and sets me
longing after the green fields and the living air--it seems dead
here--and the face of God--as much as one may behold of the
Infinite through the revealing veil of earth and sky and sea. Shall
I confess my weakness, my poverty of spirit, my covetousness after
the visual? I was even getting a little tired of that glorious God
and man lover, Saul of Tarsus--no, not of him, never of him, only
of his shadow in his words. Yet perhaps, yes I think so, it is God
alone of whom a man can never get tired. Well, no matter; tired
I was; when lo! here comes my pupil, with more of God in her face
than all the worlds and their skies he ever made!"
"I would my heart were as full of him, too, then, sir!" answered
Clementina. "But if I am anything of a comfort to you, I am more
than glad,--therefore the more sorry to tell you that I am going
to leave you--though for a little while only, I trust."
"You do not take me by surprise, my lady. I have of course been
looking forward for some time to my loss and your gain. The world
is full of little deaths, deaths of all sorts and sizes, rather
let me say. For this one I was prepared. The good summer land calls
you to its bosom, and you must go."
"Come with me," cried Clementina, her eyes eager with the light of
the sudden thought, while her heart reproached her grievously that
only now first had it come to her.
"A man must not leave the most irksome work for the most peaceful
pleasure," answered the schoolmaster. "I am able to live--yes, and
do my work, without you, my lady," he added with a smile, "though
I shall miss you sorely."
"But you do not know where I want you to come," she said.
"What difference can that make, my lady, except indeed in the amount
of pleasure to be refused, seeing this is not a matter of choice?
I must be with the children whom I have engaged to teach, and whose
parents pay me for my labour--not with those who, besides, can
do well without me."
"I cannot, sir--not for long, at least."
"What! not with Malcolm to supply my place?"
Clementina blushed, but only like a white rose. She did not turn
her head aside; she did not lower their lids to veil the light
she felt mount into her eyes; she looked him gently in the face as
before, and her aspect of entreaty did not change.
"Ah! do not be unkind, master," she said.
"Unkind!" he repeated. "You know I am not. I have more kindness
in my heart than my lips can tell. You do not know, you could not
yet imagine the half of what I hope of and for and from you."
"I am going to see Malcolm," she said, with a little sigh. "That
is, I am going to visit Lady Lossie at her place in Scotland--
your own old home, where so many must love you.--Can't you come?
I shall be travelling alone, quite alone, except my servants."
A shadow came over the schoolmaster's face.
"You do not think, my lady, or you would not press me. It pains
me that you do not see at once it would be dishonest to go without
timely notice to my pupils, and to the public too. But, beyond that
quite, I never do anything of myself. I go, not where I wish, but
where I seem to be called or sent. I never even wish much--except
when I pray to him in whom are hid all the treasures of wisdom
and knowledge. After what he wants to give me I am wishing all day
long. I used to build many castles, not without a beauty of their
own--that was when I had less understanding: now I leave them
to God to build for me--he does it better and they last longer.
See now, this very hour, when I needed help--could I have contrived a
more lovely annihilation of the monotony that threatened to invade
my weary spirit, than this inroad of light in the person of my lady
Clementina? Nor will he allow me to get over wearied with vain
efforts. I do not think he will keep me here long, for I find I
cannot do much for these children. They are but some of his many
pagans--not yet quite ready to receive Christianity, I think--
not like children with some of the old seeds of the truth buried
in them, that want to be turned up nearer to the light. This
ministration I take to be more for my good than theirs--a little
trial of faith and patience for me--a stony corner of the lovely
valley of humiliation to cross. True, I might be happier where I
could hear the larks, but I do not know that anywhere have I been
more peaceful than in this little room, on which I see you so often
cast round your eyes curiously--perhaps pitifully, my lady?"
"It is not at all a fit place for you," said Clementina, with a
touch of indignation.
"Softly, my lady----lest, without knowing it, your love should
make you sin! Who set thee, I pray, for a guardian angel over my
welfare? I could scarce have a lovelier--true! but where is thy
brevet? No, my lady! it is a greater than thou that sets me the
bounds of my habitation. Perhaps he may give me a palace one day.
If I might choose, it would be the things that belong to a cottage
--the whiteness and the greenness and the sweet odours of cleanliness.
But the father has decreed for his children that they shall know
the thing that is neither their ideal nor his. Who can imagine how
in this respect things looked to our Lord when he came and found
so little faith on the earth! But, perhaps, my lady, you would
not pity my present condition so much, if you had seen the cottage
in which I was born, and where my father and my mother loved each
other, and died happier than on their wedding day. There I was
happy too until their loving ambition decreed that I should be a
scholar and a clergyman. Not before then did I ever know anything
worthy of the name of trouble. A little cold and a little hunger
at times, and not a little restlessness always was all. But then
--ah then, my troubles began! Yet God, who bringeth light out of
darkness, hath brought good even out of my weakness and presumption
and half unconscious falsehood!--When do you go?"
"Tomorrow morning--as I purpose."
"Then God be with thee. He is with thee, only my prayer is that
thou mayest know it. He is with me and I know it. He does not find
this chamber too mean or dingy or unclean to let me know him near
me in it."
"Tell me one thing before I go," said Clementina: "are we not
commanded to bear each other's burdens and so fulfil the law of
Christ? I read it today."
"Then why ask me?"
"For another question: does not that involve the command to those
who have burdens that they should allow others to bear them?"
"Surely, my lady. But I have no burden to let you bear."
"Why should I have everything, and you nothing?--Answer me that?"
"My lady, I have millions more than you, for I have been gathering
the crumbs under my master's table for thirty years."
"You are a king," answered Clementina. "But a king needs a
handmaiden somewhere in his house: that let me be in yours. No, I
will be proud, and assert my rights. I am your daughter. If I am
not, why am I here? Do you not remember telling me that the adoption
of God meant a closer relation than any other fatherhood, even his
own first fatherhood could signify? You cannot cast me off if you
would. Why should you be poor when I am rich?--You are poor. You
cannot deny it," she concluded with a serious playfulness.
"I will not deny my privileges," said the schoolmaster, with a smile
such as might have acknowledged the possession of some exquisite
and envied rarity.
"I believe," insisted Clementina, "you are just as poor as the
apostle Paul when he sat down to make a tent--or as our Lord
himself after he gave up carpentering."
"You are wrong there, my lady. I am not so poor as they must often
have been."
"But I don't know how long I may be away, and you may fall
ill, or--or--see some--some book you want very much, or--"
"I never do," said the schoolmaster.
"What! never see a book you want to have?"
"No; not now. I have my Greek Testament, my Plato, and my Shakspere
--and one or two little books besides, whose wisdom I have not
yet quite exhausted."
"I can't bear it!" cried Clementina, almost on the point of weeping.
"You will not let me near you. You put out an arm as long as the
summer's and push me away from you. Let me be your servant."
As she spoke, she rose, and walking softly up to him where he sat
kneeled at his knees, and held out suppliantly a little bag of
white silk, tied with crimson.
"Take it--father," she said, hesitating, and bringing the word
out with an effort; "take your daughter's offering--a poor thing
to show her love, but something to ease her heart."
He took it, and weighed it up and down in his hand with an amused
smile, but his eyes full of tears. It was heavy. He opened it. A
chair was within his reach, he emptied it on the seat of it, and
laughed with merry delight as its contents came tumbling out.
"I never saw so much gold in my life, if it were all taken together,"
he said. "What beautiful stuff it is! But I don't want it, my dear.
It would but trouble me." And as he spoke, he began to put it in
the bag again. "You will want it for your journey," he said.
"I have plenty in my reticule," she answered. "That is a mere nothing
to what I could have tomorrow morning for writing a cheque. I am
afraid I am very rich. It is such a shame! But I can't well help
it. You must teach me how to become poor.--Tell me true: how much
money have you?"
She said this with such an earnest look of simple love that the
schoolmaster made haste to rise, that he might conceal his growing
emotion.
"Rise, my dear lady," he said, as he rose himself, "and I will show
you."
He gave her his hand, and she obeyed, but troubled and disappointed,
and so stood looking after him, while he went to a drawer. Thence,
searching in a corner of it, he brought a half sovereign, a few
shillings, and some coppers, and held them out to her on his hand,
with the smile of one who has proved his point.
"There!" he said; "do you think Paul would have stopped preaching
to make a tent so long as he had as much as that in his pocket? I
shall have more on Saturday, and I always carry a month's rent in
my good old watch, for which I never had much use, and now have
less than ever."
Clementina had been struggling with herself; now she burst into
tears.
"Why, what a misspending of precious sorrow!" exclaimed the
schoolmaster. "Do you think because a man has not a gold mine he
must die of hunger? I once heard of a sparrow that never had a worm
left for the morrow, and died a happy death notwithstanding."
As he spoke he took her handkerchief from her hand and dried her
tears with it. But he had enough ado to keep his own back.
"Because I won't take a bagful of gold from you when I don't want
it," he went on, "do you think I should let myself starve without
coming to you? I promise you I will let you know--come to you if
I can, the moment I get too hungry to do my work well, and have no
money left. Should I think it a disgrace to take money from you?
That would show a poverty of spirit such as I hope never to fall
into. My sole reason for refusing it now is that I do not need it."
But for all his loving words and assurances Clementina could not
stay her tears. She was not ready to weep, but now her eyes were
as a fountain.
"See, then, for your tears are hard to bear, my daughter," he said,
"I will take one of these golden ministers, and if it has flown from
me ere you come, seeing that, like the raven, it will not return
if once I let it go, I will ask you for another. It may be God's
will that you should feed me for a time."
"Like one of Elijah's ravens," said Clementina, with an attempted
laugh that was really a sob.
"Like a dove whose wings are covered with silver, and her feathers
with yellow gold," said the schoolmaster.
A moment of silence followed, broken only by Clementina's failures
in quieting herself.
"To me," he resumed, "the sweetest fountain of money is the hand of
love, but a man has no right to take it from that fountain except
he is in want of it. I am not. True, I go somewhat bare, my lady;
but what is that when my Lord would have it so?"
He opened again the bag, and slowly, reverentially indeed, drew
from it one of the new sovereigns with which it was filled. He put
it into a waistcoat pocket, and laid the bag on the table.
"But your clothes are shabby, sir," said Clementina, looking at
him with a sad little shake of the head.
"Are they?" he returned, and looked down at his lower garments,
reddening and anxious. "--I did not think they were more than
a little rubbed, but they shine somewhat," he said. "--They are
indeed polished by use," he went on, with a troubled little laugh;
"but they have no holes yet--at least none that are visible," he
corrected. "If you tell me, my lady, if you honestly tell me that
my garments"--and he looked at the sleeve of his coat, drawing
back his head from it to see it better--"are unsightly, I will
take of your money and buy me a new suit."
Over his coat sleeve he regarded her, questioning.
"Everything about you is beautiful!" she burst out "You want nothing
but a body that lets the light through!"
She took the hand still raised in his survey of his sleeve, pressed
it to her lips, and walked, with even more than her wonted state,
slowly from the room. He took the bag of gold from the table, and
followed her down the stair. Her chariot was waiting her at the door.
He handed her in, and laid the bag on the little seat in front.
"Will you tell him to drive home," she said, with a firm voice, and
a smile which if anyone care to understand, let him read Spenser's
fortieth sonnet. And so they parted. The coachman took the queer
shabby un-London-like man for a fortune teller his lady was in the
habit of consulting, and paid homage to his power with the handle
of his whip as he drove away. The schoolmaster returned to his
room, not to his Plato, not even to Saul of Tarsus, but to the Lord
himself.
CHAPTER LXI: THOUGHTS
When Malcolm took Kelpie to her stall the night of the arrival
of Lady Bellair and her nephew, he was rushed upon by Demon, and
nearly prostrated between his immoderate welcome and the startled
rearing of the mare. The hound had arrived a couple of hours
before, while Malcolm was out. He wondered he had not seen him with
the carriage he had passed, never suspecting he had had another
conductress, or dreaming what his presence there signified for him.
I have not said much concerning Malcolm's feelings with regard to
Lady Clementina, but all this time the sense of her existence had
been like an atmosphere surrounding and pervading his thought. He
saw in her the promise of all he could desire to see in woman. His
love was not of the blind little boy sort, but of a deeper, more
exacting, keen eyed kind, that sees faults where even a true mother
will not, so jealous is it of the perfection of the beloved.
But one thing was plain even to this seraphic dragon that dwelt
sleepless in him, and there was eternal content in the thought,
that such a woman, once started on the right way, would soon leave
fault and weakness behind her, and become as one of the grand
women of old, whose religion was simply what religion is--life
--neither more nor less than life. She would be a saint without
knowing it, the only grand kind of sainthood.
Whoever can think of religion as an addition to life, however glorious
--a starry crown, say, set upon the head of humanity, is not yet
the least in the kingdom of heaven. Whoever thinks of life as a
something that could be without religion, is in deathly ignorance
of both. Life and religion are one, or neither is anything: I will
not say neither is growing to be anything. Religion is no way of
life, no show of life, no observance of any sort. It is neither
the food nor the medicine of being. It is life essential. To think
otherwise is as if a man should pride himself on his honesty, or
his parental kindness, or hold up his head amongst men because he
never killed one: were he less than honest or kind or free from
blood, he would yet think something of himself! The man to whom
virtue is but the ornament of character, something over and above,
not essential to it, is not yet a man.
If I say then, that Malcolm was always thinking about Lady Clementina
when he was not thinking about something he had to think about,
have I not said nearly enough on the matter? Should I ever dream
of attempting to set forth what love is, in such a man for such a
woman? There are comparatively few that have more than the glimmer
of a notion of what love means. God only knows how grandly, how
passionately yet how calmly, how divinely the man and the woman he
has made, might, may, shall love each other. One thing only I will
dare to say: that the love that belonged to Malcolm's nature was
one through the very nerves of which the love of God must rise and
flow and return, as its essential life. If any man think that such
a love could no longer be the love of the man for the woman, he
knows his own nature, and that of the woman he pretends or thinks
he adores, but in the darkest of glasses.
Malcolm's lowly idea of himself did not at all interfere with his
loving Clementina, for at first his love was entirely dissociated
from any thought of hers. When the idea--the mere idea of her
loving him presented itself, from whatever quarter suggested, he
turned from it with shame and self reproof: the thought was in its
own nature too unfit! That splendour regard him!
From a social point of view there was of course little presumption
in it. The Marquis of Lossie bore a name that might pair itself
with any in the land; but Malcolm did not yet feel that the title
made much difference to the fisherman. He was what he was, and that
was something very lowly indeed. Yet the thought would at times dawn
up from somewhere in the infinite matrix of thought, that perhaps,
if he went to college, and graduated, and dressed like a gentleman,
and did everything as gentlemen do, in short, claimed his rank, and
lived as a marquis should, as well as a fisherman might,--then
--then--was it not--might it not be within the bounds of
possibility--just within them--that the great hearted, generous,
liberty loving Lady Clementina, groom as he had been, menial as he
had heard himself called, and as, ere yet he knew his birth, he
had laughed to hear, knowing that his service was true,--that
she, who despised nothing human, would be neither disgusted nor
contemptuous nor wrathful, if, from a great way off, at an awful
remove of humility and worship, he were to wake in her a surmise
that he dared feel towards her as he had never felt and never could
feel towards any other?
For would it not be altogether counter to the principles he had
so often heard her announce and defend, to despise him because he
had earned his bread by doing honourable work--work hearty, and
up to the worth of his wages? Was she one to say and not see--to
opine and not believe? or was she one to hold and not practise--
to believe for the heart and not for the hand--to say I go, and
not go--I love, and not help? If such she were, then there were
for him no further searchings of the heart upon her account; he
could but hold up her name in the common prayer for all men, only
praying besides not to dream about her when he slept.
At length, such thoughts rising again and again, and ever accompanied
by such reflections concerning the truth of her character, and by
the growing certainty that her convictions were the souls of actions
to be born them, his daring of belief in her strengthened until he
began to think that perhaps it would be neither his early history,
nor his defective education, nor his clumsiness, that would prevent
her from listening to such words wherewith he burned to throw open
the gates of his world, and pray her to enter and sit upon its
loftiest throne--its loftiest throne but one. And with the thought
he felt as if he must run to her, calling aloud that he was the
Marquis of Lossie, and throw himself at her feet.
But the wheels of his thought chariot, self moved, were rushing,
and here was no goal at which to halt or turn!--for, feeling
thus, where was his faith in her principles? How now was he treating
the truth of her nature? where now were his convictions of the
genuineness of her professions? Where were those principles, that
truth, those professions, if after all she would listen to a marquis
and would not listen to a groom? To suppose such a thing was to
wrong her grievously. To herald his suit with his rank would be to
insult her, declaring that he regarded her theories of humanity as
wordy froth. And what a chance of proving her truth would he not
deprive her of, if, as he approached her, he called on the marquis
to supplement the man!--But what then was the man, fisherman or
marquis, to dare even himself to such a glory as the Lady Clementina?
--This much of a man at least, answered his waking dignity, that
he could not condescend to be accepted as Malcolm, Marquis of
Lossie, knowing he would have been rejected as Malcolm MacPhail,
fisherman and groom.
Accepted as marquis, he would for ever be haunted with the channering
question whether she would have accepted him as groom? And if in
his pain he were one day to utter it, and she in her honesty were
to confess she would not, must she not then fall prone from her
pedestal in his imagination? Could he then, in love for the woman
herself condescend as marquis to marry one who might not have married
him as any something else he could honestly have been, under the
all enlightening sun: but again! was that fair to her yet? Might
she not see in the marquis the truth and worth which the blinding
falsehoods of society prevented her from seeing in the groom?
Might not a lady--he tried to think of a lady in the abstract--
might not a lady, in marrying a marquis, a lady to whom from her
own position a marquis was just a man on the level, marry in him
the man he was, and not the marquis he seemed? Most certainly, he
answered: he must not be unfair.--Not the less however did he
shrink from the thought of taking her prisoner under the shield of
his marquisate, beclouding her nobility, and depriving her of the
rare chance of shining forth as the sun in the splendour of womanly
truth. No; he would choose the greater risk of losing her, for the
chance of winning her greater.
So far Malcolm got with his theories; but the moment he began to
think in the least practically, he recoiled altogether from the
presumption. Under no circumstances could he ever have the courage
to approach Lady Clementina with a thought of himself in his mind.
How could he have dared even to raise her imagined eidolon for his
thoughts to deal withal. She had never shown him personal favour.
He could not tell whether she had listened to what he had tried
to lay before her. He did not know that she had gone to hear his
master; Florimel had never referred to their visit to Hope Chapel;
his surprise would have equalled his delight at the news that she
had already become as a daughter to the schoolmaster.
And what had been Clementina's thoughts since learning that
Florimel had not run away with her groom? It were hard to say with
completeness. Accuracy however may not be equally unattainable.
Her first feeling was an utterly inarticulate, undefined pleasure
that Malcolm was free to be thought about. She was clear next that
it would be matter for honest rejoicing if the truest man she had
ever met except his master, was not going to marry such an unreality
as Florimel--one concerning whom, as things had been going of
late, it was impossible to say that she was not more likely to turn
to evil than to good.
Clementina with all her generosity could not help being doubtful
of a woman who could make a companion of such a man as Liftore, a
man to whom every individual particle of Clementina's nature seemed
for itself to object. But she was not yet past befriending.
Then she began to grow more curious about Malcolm. She had already
much real knowledge of him, gathered both from himself and from Mr
Graham;--as to what went to make the man, she knew him indeed,
not thoroughly, but well; and just therefore, she said to herself,
there were some points in his history and condition concerning which
she had curiosity. The principal of these was whether he might not
be engaged to some young woman in his own station of life. It was
not merely possible, but was it likely he could have escaped it?
In the lower ranks of society, men married younger--they had no
false aims to prevent them that implied earlier engagements. On the
other hand, was it likely that in a fishing village there would be
any choice of girls who could understand him when he talked about
Plato and the New Testament? If there was one however, that might
be--worse--Yes, worse; she accepted the word. Neither was it
absolutely necessary in a wife that she should understand more of
a husband than his heart. Many learned men had had mere housekeepers
for wives, and been satisfied, at least never complained.
And what did she know about the fishers, men or women--there were
none at Wastbeach? For anything she knew to the contrary, they
might all be philosophers together, and a fitting match for Malcolm
might be far more easy to find amongst them than in the society
to which she herself belonged, where in truth the philosophical
element was rare enough. Then arose in her mind, she could not
have told how, the vision, half logical, half pictorial, of a whole
family of brave, believing, daring, saving fisher folk, father,
mother, boys and girls, each sacrificing to the rest, each sacrificed
to by all, and all devoted to their neighbours.
Grand it was and blissful, and the borders of the great sea alone
seemed fit place for such beings amphibious of time and eternity!
Their very toils and dangers were but additional atmospheres to
press their souls together! It was glorious! Why had she been born
an earl's daughter,--never to look a danger in the face--never
to have a chance of a true life--that is, a grand, simple, noble
one?--Who then denied her the chance? Had she no power to order
her own steps, to determine her own being? Was she nailed to
her rank? Or who was there that could part her from it? Was she a
prisoner in the dungeons of the House of Pride?
When the gates of paradise closed behind Adam and Eve, they had
this consolation left, that "the world was all before them where
to choose." Was she not a free woman--without even a guardian to
trouble her with advice? She had no excuse to act ignobly!--But
had she any for being unmaidenly?--Would it then be--would
it be a very unmaidenly thing if? The rest of the sentence did not
take even the shape of words. But she answered it nevertheless in
the words: "Not so unmaidenly as presumptuous." And alas there was
little hope that he would ever presume to? He was such a modest
youth with all his directness and fearlessness! If he had no respect
for rank,--and that was--yes, she would say the word, hopeful
--he had, on the other hand, the profoundest respect for the
human, and she could not tell how that might, in the individual
matter, operate.
Then she fell a-thinking of the difference between Malcolm and any
other servant she had ever known. She hated the servile. She knew
that it was false as well as low: she had not got so far as to see
that it was low through its being false. She knew that most servants,
while they spoke with the appearance of respect in presence, altered
their tone entirely when beyond the circle of the eye--theirs
was eye service--they were men pleasers--they were servile.
She had overheard her maid speak of her as Lady Clem, and that not
without a streak of contempt in the tone.
But here was a man who touched no imaginary hat while he stood in
the presence of his mistress, neither swore at her in the stable
yard. He looked her straight in the face, and would upon occasion
speak--not his mind--but the truth to her. Even his slight
mistress had the conviction that if one dared in his presence but
utter her name lightly, whoever he were he would have to answer
to him for it. What a lovely thing was true service--Absolutely
divine!
But, alas, such a youth would never, could never dare offer other
than such service! Were she even to encourage him as a maiden
might, he would but serve her the better--would but embody his
recognition of her favour, in fervour of ministering devotion.--
Was it not a recognized law, however, in the relation of superiors
and inferiors, that with regard to such matters as well as others
of no moment, the lady?
Ah, but! for her to take the initiative, would provoke the conclusion
--as revolting to her as unavoidable to him--that she judged
herself his superior--so greatly his superior as to be absolved
from the necessity of behaving to him on the ordinary footing of
man and woman. What a ground to start from with a husband! The idea
was hateful to her. She tried the argument that such a procedure
arrogated merely a superiority in social standing; but it made her
recoil from it the more. He was so immeasurably her superior, that
the poor little advantage on her side vanished like a candle in
the sunlight, and she laughed herself to scorn.
"Fancy," she laughed, "a midge, on the strength of having wings,
condescending to offer marriage to a horse !" It would argue the
assumption of equality in other and more important things than
rank, or at least the confidence that her social superiority not
only counterbalanced the difference, but left enough over to her
credit to justify her initiative. And what a miserable fiction that
money and position had a right to the first move before greatness
of living fact! that having had the precedence of being! That
Malcolm should imagine such her judgment--No--let all go--
let himself go rather! And then he might not choose to accept her
munificent offer! Or worse--far worse!--what if he should be
tempted by rank and wealth, and, accepting her, be shorn of his
glory and proved of the ordinary human type after all! A thousand
times rather would she see the bright particular star blazing
unreachable above her! What! would she carry it about a cinder in
her pocket?--And yet if he could be "turned to a coal," why should
she go on worshipping him?--alas! the offer itself was the only
test severe enough to try him withal, and if he proved a cinder,
she would by the very use of the test be bound to love, honour,
and obey her cinder.
She could not well reject him for accepting her--neither could
she marry him if he rose grandly superior to her temptations. No;
he could be nothing to her nearer than the bright particular star.
Thus went the thoughts to and fro in the minds of each. Neither
could see the way. Both feared the risk of loss. Neither could hope
greatly for gain.
CHAPTER LXII: THE DUNE
Having put Kelpie up, and fed and bedded her, Malcolm took his way
to the Seaton, full of busily anxious thought. Things had taken a
bad turn, and he was worse off for counsel than before. The enemy
was in the house with his sister, and he had no longer any chance
of judging how matters were going, as now he never rode out with
her. But at least he could haunt the house. He would run therefore
to his grandfather, and tell him that he was going to occupy his
old quarters at the House that night.
Returning directly and passing, as had been his custom, through the
kitchen to ascend the small corkscrew stair the servants generally
used, he encountered Mrs Courthope, who told him that her ladyship
had given orders that her maid, who had come with Lady Bellair,
should have his room.
He was at once convinced that Florimel had done so with the intention
of banishing him from the house, for there were dozens of rooms
vacant, and many of them more suitable. It was a hard blow! How he
wished for Mr Graham to consult! And yet Mr Graham was not of much
use where any sort of plotting was wanted. He asked Mrs Courthope
to let him have another room; but she looked so doubtful that he
withdrew his request, and went back to his grandfather.
It was Saturday, and not many of the boats would go fishing.
Findlay's would not leave the harbour till Sunday was over, and
therefore Malcolm was free. But he could not rest, and would go
line fishing.
"Daddy," he said, "I'm gaein oot to catch a haddick or sae to oor
denner the morn. Ye micht jist sit doon upo' ane o' the Boar's
Taes, an' tak a play o' yer pipes. I'll hear ye fine, an' it'll du
me guid."
The Boar's Toes were two or three small rocks that rose out of the
sand near the end of the dune. Duncan agreed right willingly, and
Malcolm, borrowing some lines, and taking the Psyche's dinghy,
rowed out into the bay.
The sun was down, the moon was up, and he had caught more fish
than he wanted. His grandfather had got tired, and gone home, and
the fountain of his anxious thoughts began to flow more rapidly.
He must go ashore. He must go up to the House: who could tell what
might not be going on there? He drew in his line, purposing to take
the best of the fish to Miss Horn, and some to Mrs Courthope, as
in the old days.
The Psyche still lay on the sands, and he was rowing the dinghy
towards her, when, looking round to direct his course, he thought
he caught a glimpse of some one seated on the slope of the dune.
Yes, there was some one there, sure enough. The old times rushed
back on his memory: could it be Florimel? Alas! it was not likely
she would now be wandering about alone! But if it were? Then for
one endeavour more to rouse her slumbering conscience! He would
call up all the associations of the last few months she had spent
in the place, and, with the spirit of her father, as it were,
hovering over her, conjure her, in his name, to break with Liftore.
He rowed swiftly to the Psyche--beached and drew up the dinghy,
and climbed the dune. Plainly enough it was a lady who sat there.
It might be one from the upper town, enjoying the lovely night; it
might be Florimel, but how could she have got away, or wished to
get away from her newly arrived guests? The voices of several groups
of walkers came from the high road behind the dune, but there was
no other figure to be seen all along the sands. He drew nearer. The
lady did not move. If it were Florimel, would she not know him as
he came, and would she wait for him?
He drew nearer still. His heart gave a throb. Could it be? Or was
the moon weaving some hallucination in his troubled brain? If it
was a phantom, it was that of Lady Clementina; if but modelled of
the filmy vapours of the moonlight, and the artist his own brain,
the phantom was welcome as joy! His spirit seemed to soar aloft in
the yellow air, and hang hovering over and around her, while his
body stood rooted to the spot, like one who fears by moving nigher
to lose the lovely vision of a mirage.  She sat motionless, her
gaze on the sea. Malcolm bethought himself that she could not know
him in his fisher dress, and must take him for some rude fisherman
staring at her. He must go at once, or approach and address her.
He came forward at once.
"My lady!" he said.
She did not start. Neither did she speak. She did not even turn
her face. She rose first, then turned, and held out her hand. Three
steps more, and he had it in his, and his eyes looked straight
into hers. Neither spoke. The moon shone full on Clementina's face.
There was no illumination fitter for that face than the moonlight,
and to Malcolm it was lovelier than ever. Nor was it any wonder
it should seem so to him, for certainly never had the eyes in it
rested on his with such a lovely and trusting light in them.
A moment she stood, then slowly sank upon the sand, and drew her
skirts about her with a dumb show of invitation. The place where she
sat was a little terraced hollow in the slope, forming a convenient
seat. Malcolm saw but could not believe she actually made room for
him to sit beside her--alone with her in the universe. It was
too much; he dared not believe it. And now by one of those wondrous
duplications which are not always at least born of the fancy,
the same scene in which he had found Florimel thus seated on the
slope of the dune, appeared to be passing again through Malcolm's
consciousness, only instead of Florimel was Clementina, and instead
of the sun was the moon. And creature of the sunlight as Florimel
was, bright and gay and beautiful, she paled into a creature of
the cloud beside this maiden of the moonlight, tall and stately,
silent and soft and grand.
Again she made a movement. This time he could not doubt her
invitation. It was as if her soul made room in her unseen world
for him to enter and sit beside her. But who could enter heaven in
his work day garments?
"Won't you sit by me, Malcolm?" seeing his more than hesitation,
she said at last, with a slight tremble in the voice that was music
itself in his ears.
"I have been catching fish, my lady," he answered, "and my clothes
must be unpleasant. I will sit here."
He went a little lower on the slope, and laid himself down, leaning
on his elbow.
"Do fresh water fishes smell the same as the sea fishes, Malcolm?"
she asked.
"Indeed I am not certain, my lady. Why?"
"Because if they do,--You remember what you said to me as we
passed the sawmill in the wood?"
It was by silence Malcolm showed he did remember.
"Does not this night remind you of that one at Wastbeach when we
came upon you singing?" said Clementina.
"It is like it, my lady--now. But a little ago, before I saw you,
I was thinking of that night, and thinking how different this was."
Again a moon filled silence fell; and once more it was the lady
who broke it.
"Do you know who are at the house?" she asked.
"I do, my lady," he replied.
"I had not been there more than an hour or two," she went on, "when
they arrived. I suppose Florimel--Lady Lossie thought I would
not come if she told me she expected them."
"And would you have come, my lady?"
"I cannot endure the earl."
"Neither can I. But then I know more about him than your ladyship
does, and I am miserable for my mistress."
It stung Clementina as if her heart had taken a beat backward. But
her voice was steadier than it had yet been as she returned--"Why
should you be miserable for Lady Lossie?"
"I would die rather than see her marry that wretch," he answered.
Again her blood stung her in the left side.
"You do not want her to marry, then?" she said.
"I do," answered Malcolm, emphatically, "but not that fellow."
"Whom then, if I may ask?" ventured Clementina, trembling.
But Malcolm was silent He did not feel it would be right to say.
Clementina turned sick at heart.
"I have heard there is something dangerous about the moonlight,"
she said. "I think it does not suit me tonight. I will go--home."
Malcolm sprung to his feet and offered his hand. She did not take
it, but rose more lightly, though more slowly than he.
"How did you come from the park, my lady?" he asked.
"By a gate over there," she answered, pointing. "I wandered out
after dinner, and the sea drew me."
"If your ladyship will allow me, I will take you a much nearer way
back," he said.
"Do then," she returned.
He thought she spoke a little sadly, and set it down to her hating
to go back to her fellow guests. What if she should leave tomorrow
morning! he thought He could never then be sure she had really been
with him that night. He must then sometimes think it a dream. But
oh, what a dream! He could thank God for it all his life, if he
should never dream so again.
They walked across the grassy sand towards the tunnel in silence,
he pondering what he could say that might comfort her and keep her
from going so soon.
"My lady never takes me out with her now," he said at length.
He was going to add that, if she pleased, he could wait upon her
with Kelpie, and show her the country. But then he saw that, if
she were not with Florimel, his sister would be riding everywhere
alone with Liftore. Therefore he stopped short.
"And you feel forsaken--deserted?" returned Clementina, sadly
still.
"Rather, my lady."
They had reached the tunnel. It looked very black when he opened
the door, but there was just a glimmer through the trees at the
other end.
"This is the valley of the shadow of death," she said. "Do I walk
straight through?"
"Yes, my lady. You will soon come out in the light again," he said.
"Are there no steps to fall down?" she asked.
"None, my lady. But I will go first if you wish."
"No, that would but cut off the little light I have," she said.
"Come beside me."
They passed through in silence, save for the rustle of her dress,
and the dull echo that haunted their steps. In a few moments they
came out among the trees, but both continued silent. The still,
thoughtful moonlight seemed to press them close together, but
neither knew that the other felt the same.
They reached a point in the road where another step would bring
them in sight of the house.
"You cannot go wrong now, my lady," said Malcolm. "If you please
I will go no farther."
"Do you not live in the house?" she asked.
"I used to do as I liked, and could be there or with my grandfather.
I did mean to be at the House tonight, but my lady has given my
room to her maid."
"What! that woman Caley?"
"I suppose so, my lady. I must sleep tonight in the village. If you
could, my lady," he added, after a pause, and faltered, hesitating.
She did not help him, but waited. "If you could--if you would
not be displeased at my asking you," he resumed, "--if you could
keep my lady from going farther with that--I shall call
him names if I go on--"
"It is a strange request," Clementina replied, after a moment's
reflection. "I hardly know, as the guest of Lady Lossie, what answer
I ought to make to it. One thing I will say, however, that, though
you may know more of the man than I, you can hardly dislike him
more. Whether I can interfere is another matter. Honestly, I do
not think it would be of any use. But I do not say I will not. Good
night."
She hurried away, and did not again offer her hand.
Malcolm walked back through the tunnel, his heart singing and
making melody. Oh how lovely, how more than lovely, how divinely
beautiful she was! And so kind and friendly! Yet she seemed just the
least bit fitful too. Something troubled her, he said to himself.
But he little thought that he, and no one else, had spoiled
the moonlight for her. He went home to glorious dreams--she to
a troubled half wakeful night. Not until she had made up her mind
to do her utmost to rescue Florimel from Liftore, even if it gave
her to Malcolm, did she find a moment's quiet. It was morning then,
but she fell fast asleep, slept late, and woke refreshed.
CHAPTER LXIII: CONFESSION OF SIN
Mr Crathie was slowly recovering, but still very weak. He did not,
after having turned the corner, get well so fast as his medical
minister judged he ought, and the reason was plain to Lizzy, dimly
perceptible to his wife: he was ill at ease. A man may have more
mind and more conscience, and more discomfort in both or either,
than his neighbours give him credit for. They may be in the right
about him up to a certain point in his history, but then a crisis,
by them unperceived, perhaps to them inappreciable, arrived, after
which the man to all eternity could never be the same as they had
known him. Such a change must appear improbable, and save on the
theory of a higher operative power, is improbable because impossible.
But a man who has not created himself can never secure himself
against the inroad of the glorious terror of that Goodness which
was able to utter him into being, with all its possible wrongs and
repentances. The fact that a man has never, up to any point yet,
been aware of aught beyond himself, cannot shut him out who is beyond
him, when at last he means to enter. Not even the soul benumbing
visits of his clerical minister could repress the swell of the slow
mounting dayspring in the soul of the hard, commonplace, business
worshipping man, Hector Crathie.
The hireling would talk to him kindly enough--of his illness, or
of events of the day, especially those of the town and neighbourhood,
and encourage him with reiterated expression of the hope that ere
many days they would enjoy a tumbler together as of old, but as to
wrong done, apology to make, forgiveness to be sought, or consolation
to be found, the dumb dog had not uttered a bark.
The sources of the factor's restless discomfort were now two; the
first, that he had lifted his hand to women; the second, the old
ground of his quarrel with Malcolm, brought up by Lizzy.
All his life, since ever he had had business, Mr Crathie had prided
himself on his honesty, and was therefore in one of the most dangerous
moral positions a man could occupy--ruinous even to the honesty
itself.  Asleep in the mud, he dreamed himself awake on a pedestal.
At best such a man is but perched on a needle point when he thinketh
he standeth. Of him who prided himself on his honour I should expect
that one day, in the long run it might be, he would do some vile
thing. Not, probably, within the small circle of illumination
around his wretched rushlight, but in the great region beyond it,
of what to him is a moral darkness, or twilight vague, he may be or
may become capable of doing a deed that will stink in the nostrils
of the universe--and in his own when he knows it as it is. The
honesty in which a man can pride himself must be a small one, for
more honesty will ever reveal more defect, while perfect honesty
will never think of itself at all. The limited honesty of the
factor clave to the interests of his employers, and let the rights
he encountered take care of themselves. Those he dealt with were to
him rather as enemies than friends, not enemies to be prayed for,
but to be spoiled.  Malcolm's doctrine of honesty in horse dealing
was to him ludicrously new. His notion of honesty in that kind
was to cheat the buyer for his master if he could, proud to write
in his book a large sum against the name of the animal. He would
have scorned in his very soul the idea of making a farthing by it
himself through any business quirk whatever, but he would not have
been the least ashamed if, having sold Kelpie, he had heard--let
me say after a week of possession--that she had dashed out her
purchaser's brains. He would have been a little shocked, a little
sorry perhaps, but nowise ashamed.  "By this time," he would have
said, "the man ought to have been up to her, and either taken care
of himself--or sold her again,"--to dash out another man's
brains instead!
That the bastard Malcolm, or the ignorant and indeed fallen fisher
girl Lizzy, should judge differently, nowise troubled him: what
could they know about the rights and wrongs of business? The fact
which Lizzy sought to bring to bear upon him, that our Lord would
not have done such a thing, was to him no argument at all. He said
to himself with the superior smile of arrogated common sense, that
"no mere man since the fall" could be expected to do like him; that
he was divine, and had not to fight for a living; that he set us
an example that we might see what sinners we were; that religion
was one thing, and a very proper thing, but business was another,
and a very proper thing also--with customs and indeed laws
of its own far more determinate, at least definite, than those of
religion, and that to mingle the one with the other was not merely
absurd--it was irreverent and wrong, and certainly never intended
in the Bible, which must surely be common sense.
It was the Bible always with him,--never the will of Christ.
But although he could dispose of the question thus satisfactorily,
yet, as he lay ill, supine, without any distracting occupation,
the thing haunted him.
Now in his father's cottage had lain, much dabbled in of the children,
a certain boardless copy of the Pilgrim's Progress, round in the
face and hollow in the back, in which, amongst other pictures was
one of the Wicket Gate. This scripture of his childhood, given by
inspiration of God, threw out, in one of his troubled and feverish
nights, a dream bud in the brain of the man. He saw the face of
Jesus looking on him over the top of the Wicket Gate, at which he
had been for some time knocking in vain, while the cruel dog barked
loud from the enemy's yard. But that face, when at last it came,
was full of sorrowful displeasure. And in his heart he knew that
it was because of a certain transaction in horse dealing, wherein
he had hitherto lauded his own cunning--adroitness, he considered
it--and success. One word only he heard from the lips of the Man
--. "Worker of iniquity,"--and woke with a great start.  From
that moment truths began to be facts to him. The beginning of the
change was indeed very small, but every beginning is small, and
every beginning is a creation. Monad, molecule, protoplasm, whatever
word may be attached to it when it becomes appreciable by men, being
then, however many stages, I believe, upon its journey, beginning
is an irrepressible fact; and however far from good or humble even
after many days, the man here began to grow good and humble.  His
dull unimaginative nature, a perfect lumber room of the world and
its rusting affairs, had received a gift in a dream--a truth
from the lips of the Lord, remodelled in the brain and heart of
the tinker of Elstow, and sent forth in his wondrous parable to
be pictured and printed, and lie in old Hector Crathie's cottage,
that it might enter and lie in young Hector Crathie's brain until
he grew old and had done wrong enough to heed it, when it rose
upon him in a dream, and had its way.  Henceforth the claims of
his neighbour began to reveal themselves, and his mind to breed
conscientious doubts and scruples, with which, struggle as he
might against it, a certain respect for Malcolm would keep coming
and mingling--a feeling which grew with its returns, until, by
slow changes, he began at length to regard him as the minister of
God's vengeance--for his punishment,--and perhaps salvation--
who could tell?
Lizzy's nightly ministrations had not been resumed, but she often
called, and was a good deal with him; for Mrs Crathie had learned
to like the humble, helpful girl still better when she found she
had taken no offence at being deprived of her post of honour by
his bedside. One day, when Malcolm was seated, mending a net, among
the thin grass and great red daisies of the links by the bank of
the burn, where it crossed the sands from the Lossie grounds to
the sea, Lizzy came up to him and said,
"The factor wad like to see ye, Ma'colm, as sune's ye can gang till
'im."
She waited no reply. Malcolm rose and went
At the factor's, the door was opened by Mrs Crathie herself, who,
looking mysterious, led him to the dining room, where she plunged
at once into business, doing her best to keep down all manifestation
of the profound resentment she cherished against him. Her manner
was confidential, almost coaxing.
"Ye see, Ma'colm," she said, as if pursuing instead of commencing
a conversation, "he's some sore about the little fraicass between
him 'an you. Jest make your apoalogies till 'im and tell 'im you
had a drop too much, and your soary for misbehavin' yerself to
wann sae much your shuperrior. Tell him that, Ma'colm, an' there's
a half croon to ye."
She wished much to speak English, and I have tried to represent the
thing she did speak, which was neither honest Scotch nor anything
like English. Alas! the good, pithy, old Anglo Saxon dialect is
fast perishing, and a jargon of corrupt English taking its place.
"But, mem," said Malcolm, taking no notice either of the coin or
the words that accompanied the offer of it, "I canna lee. I wasna
in drink, an' I'm no sorry."
"Hoot!" returned Mrs Crathie, blurting out her Scotch fast enough
now, "I s' warran' ye can lee well eneuch whan ye ha'e occasion.
Tak' yer siller, an' du as I tell ye."
"Wad ye ha'e me damned, mem?"
Mrs Crathie gave a cry and held up her hands. She was too well
accustomed to imprecations from the lips of her husband for any but
an affected horror, but, regarding the honest word as a bad one,
she assumed an air of injury.
"Wad ye daur to sweir afore a leddy," she exclaimed, shaking her
uplifted hands in pretence of ghasted astonishment.
"If Mr Crathie wishes to see me, ma'am," rejoined Malcolm, taking
up the shield of English, "I am ready. If not, please allow me to
go."
The same moment the bell whose rope was at the head of the factor's
bed, rang violently, and Mrs Crathie's importance collapsed.
"Come this w'y," she said, and turning led him up the stair to the
room where her husband lay.
Entering, Malcolm stood astonished at the change he saw upon
the strong man of rubicund countenance, and his heart filled with
compassion. The factor was sitting up in bed, looking very white
and worn and troubled. Even his nose had grown thin and white. He
held out his hand to him, and said to his wife, "Tak the door to
ye, Mistress Crathie," indicating which side he wished it closed
from.
"Ye was some sair upo' me, Ma'colm," he went on, grasping the
youth's hand.
"I doobt I was ower sair," said Malcolm, who could hardly speak
for a lump in his throat.
"Weel, I deserved it. But eh, Ma'colm! I canna believe it was me:
it bude to be the drink."
"It was the drink," rejoined Malcolm; "an' eh sir! afore ye rise
frae that bed, sweir to the great God 'at ye'll never drink nae
mair drams, nor onything 'ayont ae tum'ler at a sittin'."
"I sweir't; I sweir't, Ma'colm!" cried the factor.
"It's easy to sweir't noo, sir, but whan ye're up again it'll be
hard to keep yer aith.--O Lord!" spoke the youth, breaking out
into almost involuntary prayer, "help this man to haud troth wi'
thee.--An' noo, Maister Crathie," he resumed, "I'm yer servan',
ready to do onything I can. Forgi'e me, sir, for layin' on ower
sair."
"I forgi'e ye wi' a' my hert," returned the factor, inly delighted
to have something to forgive.
"I thank ye frae mine," answered Malcolm, and again they shook
hands.
"But eh, Ma'colm, my man!" said the factor, "hoo will I ever shaw
my face again?"
"Fine that!" returned Malcolm, eagerly. "Fowk's terrible guid natur'd
whan ye alloo 'at ye're i' the wrang. I do believe 'at whan a man
confesses till 's neebour, an' says he's sorry, he thinks mair o'
'im nor afore he did it. Ye see we a' ken we ha'e dune wrang, but we
ha'ena a' confessed. An' it's a queer thing, but a man'll think it
gran' o' 's neebour to confess, whan a' the time there's something
he winna repent o' himsel' for fear o' the shame o' ha'ein' to
confess 't. To me, the shame lies in no confessin' efter ye ken
ye're wrang. Ye'll see, sir, the fisher fowk 'll min' what ye say
to them a heap better noo."
"Div ye railly think it, Ma'colm?" sighed the factor with a flush.
"I div that, sir. Only whan ye grow better, gien ye'll alloo me to
say't, sir, ye maunna lat Sawtan temp' ye to think 'at this same
repentin' was but a wakeness o' the flesh, an' no an enlichtenment
o' the speerit."
"I s' tie mysel' up till 't," cried the factor, eagerly. "Gang
an' tell them i' my name, 'at I tak' back ilka scart o' a nottice
I ever ga'e ane o' them to quit, only we maun ha'e nae mair stan'in'
o' honest fowk 'at comes to bigg herbours till them.--Div ye
think it wad be weel ta'en gien ye tuik a poun' nott the piece to
the twa women?"
"I wadna du that, sir, gien I was you," answered Malcolm. "For yer
ain sake, I wadna to Mistress Mair, for naething wad gar her tak'
it--it wad only affront her; an' for Nancy Tacket's sake, I wadna
to her, for as her name so's her natur': she wad not only tak it,
but she wad lat ye play the same as aften 's ye likit for less
siller. Ye'll ha'e mony a chance o' makin' 't up to them baith,
ten times ower, afore you an' them pairt, sir."
"I maun lea' the cuintry, Ma'colm."
"'Deed, sir, ye'll du naething o' the kin'. The fishers themsel's
wad rise, no to lat ye, as they did wi' Blew Peter! As sune's
ye're able to be aboot again, ye'll see plain eneuch 'at there's no
occasion for onything like that, sir. Portlossie wadna ken 'tsel'
wantin' ye. Jist gie me a commission to say to the twa honest women
'at ye're sorry for what ye did, an' that's a' 'at need be said
'atween you an them, or their men aither."
The result showed that Malcolm was right; for, the very next day,
instead of looking for gifts from him, the two injured women came
to the factor's door, first Annie Mair, with the offering of a few
fresh eggs, scarce at the season, and after her Nancy Tacket, with
a great lobster.
CHAPTER LXIV: A VISITATION
Malcolm's custom was, first, immediately after breakfast, to give
Kelpie her airing--and a tremendous amount of air she wanted for
the huge animal furnace of her frame, and the fiery spirit that
kept it alight; then, returning to the Seaton, to change the dress
of the groom, in which he always appeared about the house, lest by
any chance his mistress should want him, for that of the fisherman,
and help with the nets, or the boats, or in whatever was going
on. As often as he might he did what seldom a man would--went to
the long shed where the women prepared the fish for salting, took
a knife, and wrought as deftly as any of them, throwing a marvellously
rapid succession of cleaned herrings into the preserving brine. It
was no wonder he was a favourite with the women. Although, however,
the place was malodorous and the work dirty, I cannot claim so
much for Malcolm as may at first appear to belong to him, for he
had been accustomed to the sight and smell from earliest childhood.
Still, as I say, it was work the men would not do. He had such a
chivalrous humanity that it was misery to him to see man or woman
at anything scorned, except he bore a hand himself. He did it half
in love, half in terror of being unjust.
He had gone to Mr Crathie in his fisher clothes, thinking it better
the sick man should not be reminded of the cause of his illness
more forcibly than could not be helped. The nearest way led past a
corner of the house overlooked by one of the drawing room windows,
Clementina saw him, and, judging by his garb that he would probably
return presently, went out in the hope of meeting him; and as he
was going back to his net by the sea gate, he caught sight of her
on the opposite side of the burn, accompanied only by a book. He
walked through the burn, climbed the bank, and approached her.
It was a hot summer afternoon. The burn ran dark and brown and
cool in deep shade, but the sea beyond was glowing in light, and
the laburnum blossoms hung like cocoons of sunbeams. No breath of
air was stirring; no bird sang; the sun was burning high in the
west. Clementina stood waiting him, like a moon that could hold
her own in the face of the sun.
"Malcolm," she said, "I have been watching all day, but have not
found a single opportunity of speaking to your mistress as you
wished. But to tell the truth, I am not sorry, for the more I think
about it, the less I see what to say. That another does not like
a person, can have little weight with one who does, and I know
nothing against him. I wish you would release me from my promise.
It is such an ugly thing to speak to one's hostess to the disadvantage
of a fellow guest!"
"I understand," said Malcolm. "It was not a right thing to ask of
you. I beg your pardon, my lady, and give you back your promise,
if such you count it. But indeed I do not think you promised."
"Thank you, I would rather be free. Had it been before you left
London.--Lady Lossie is very kind, but does not seem to put
the same confidence in me as formerly. She and Lady Bellair and that
man make a trio, and I am left outside. I almost think I ought to
go. Even Caley is more of a friend than I am. I cannot get rid of
the suspicion that something not right is going on. There seems a
bad air about the place. Those two are playing their game with the
inexperience of that poor child, your mistress."
"I know that very well, my lady, but I hope yet they will not win,"
said Malcolm.
By this time they were near the tunnel.
"Could you let me through to the shore?" asked Clementina.
"Certainly, my lady.--I wish you could see the boats go out. From
the Boar's Tail it is a pretty sight. They will all be starting
together as soon as the tide turns."
Thereupon Clementina began questioning him about the night fishing,
and Malcolm described its pleasures and dangers, and the pleasures
of its dangers, in such fashion that Clementina listened with
delight. He dwelt especially on the feeling almost of disembodiment,
and existence as pure thought, arising from the all pervading
clarity and fluidity, the suspension, and the unceasing motion.
"I wish I could once feel like that," exclaimed Clementina. "Could
I not go with you--for one night--just for once, Malcolm?"
"My lady, it would hardly do, I am afraid. If you knew the discomforts
that must assail one unaccustomed--I cannot tell--but I doubt
if you would go. All the doors to bliss have their defences of
swamps and thorny thickets through which alone they can be gained.
You would need to be a fisherman's sister--or wife, I fear, my
lady, to get through to this one."
Clementina smiled gravely, but did not reply, and Malcolm too was
silent, thinking.
"Yes," he said at last, "I see how we can manage it. You
shall have a boat for your own use, my lady, and--"
"But I want to see just what you see, and to feel, as nearly as
I may, what you feel. I don't want a downy, rose leaf notion of
the thing. I want to understand what you fishermen encounter and
experience."
"We must make a difference though, my lady. Look what clothes, what
boots we fishers must wear to be fit for our work! But you shall
have a true idea as far as it reaches, and one that will go a long
way towards enabling you to understand the rest. You shall go in
a real fishing boat, with a full crew and all the nets, and you
shall catch real herrings; only you shall not be out longer than
you please.--But there is hardly time to arrange for it tonight,
my lady."
"Tomorrow then?"
"Yes. I have no doubt I can manage it then."
"Oh, thank you!" said Clementina. "It will be a great delight."
"And now," suggested Malcolm, "would you like to go through the
village, and see some of the cottages, and how the fishers live?"
"If they would not think me inquisitive, or intrusive," answered
Clementina.
"There is no danger of that," rejoined Malcolm. "If it were my Lady
Bellair, to patronize, and deal praise and blame, as if what she
calls poverty were fault and childishness, and she their spiritual
as well as social superior, they might very likely be what she
would call rude. She was here once before, and we have some notion
of her about the Seaton. I venture to say there is not a woman in
it who is not her moral superior, and many of them are her superiors
in intellect and true knowledge, if they are not so familiar with
London scandal. Mr Graham says that in the kingdom of heaven every
superior is a ruler, for there to rule is to raise, and a man's
rank is his power to uplift."
"I would I were in the kingdom of heaven, if it be such as you and
Mr Graham take it for," said Clementina.
"You must be in it, my lady, or you couldn't wish it to be such as
it is."
"Can one then be in it, and yet seem to be out of it, Malcolm?"
"So many are out of it that seem to be in it, my lady, that one
might well imagine it the other way with some."
"Are you not uncharitable, Malcolm?"
"Our Lord speaks of many coming up to his door confident of admission,
whom yet he sends from him. Faith is obedience, not confidence."
"Then I do well to fear."
"Yes, my lady, so long as your fear makes you knock the louder."
"But if I be in, as you say, how can I go on knocking?"
"There are a thousand more doors to knock at after you are in, my
lady. No one content to stand just inside the gate will be inside
it long. But it is one thing to be in, and another to be satisfied
that we are in. Such a satisfying as comes from our own feelings
may, you see from what our Lord says, be a false one. It is one
thing to gather the conviction for ourselves, and another to have
it from God. What wise man would have it before he gives it? He who
does what his Lord tells him, is in the kingdom, if every feeling
of heart or brain told him he was out. And his Lord will see that
he knows it one day. But I do not think, my lady, one can ever be
quite sure, until the king himself has come in to sup with him,
and has let him know that he is altogether one with him."
During the talk of which this is the substance, they reached the
Seaton, and Malcolm took her to see his grandfather.
"Taal and faer and chentle and coot!" murmured the old man as he
held her hand for a moment in his. With a start of suspicion he
dropped it, and cried out in alarm--"She'll not pe a Cam'ell,
Malcolm?"
"Na, na, daddy--far frae that," answered Malcolm.
"Then my laty will pe right welcome to Tuncan's heart," he replied,
and taking her hand again led her to a chair.
When they left, she expressed herself charmed with the piper, but
when she learned the cause of his peculiar behaviour at first, she
looked grave, and found his feeling difficult to understand.
They next visited the Partaness, with whom she was far more amused
than puzzled. But her heart was drawn to the young woman who sat
in a corner, rocking her child in its wooden cradle, and never
lifting her eyes from her needlework: she knew her for the fisher
girl of Malcolm's picture.
From house to house he took her, and where they went, they were
welcomed. If the man was smoking, he put away his pipe, and the
woman left her work and sat down to talk with her. They did the
honours of their poor houses in a homely and dignified fashion.
Clementina was delighted. But Malcolm told her he had taken her
only to the best houses in the place to begin with. The village,
though a fair sample of fishing villages, was no ex-sample, he said:
there were all kinds of people in it as in every other. It was a
class in the big life school of the world, whose special masters
were the sea and the herrings.
"What would you do now, if you were lord of the place?" asked
Clementina, as they were walking back by the sea gate; "--I mean,
what would be the first thing you would do?"
"As it would be my business to know my tenants that I might rule
them," he answered, "I would first court the society and confidence of
the best men among them. I should be in no hurry to make changes,
but would talk openly with them, and try to be worthy of their
confidence. Of course I would see a little better to their houses,
and improve their harbour: and I would build a boat for myself that
would show them a better kind; but my main hope for them would be
the same as for myself--the knowledge of him whose is the sea
and all its store, who cares for every fish in its bosom, but for
the fisher more than many herrings. I would spend my best efforts
to make them follow him whose first servants were the fishermen of
Galilee, for with all my heart I believe that that Man holds the
secret of life, and that only the man who obeys him can ever come
to know the God who is the root and crown of our being, and whom
to know is freedom and bliss."
A pause followed.
"But do you not sometimes find it hard to remember God all through
your work?" asked Clementina.
"Not very hard, my lady. Sometimes I wake up to find that I have
been in an evil mood and forgetting him, and then life is hard until
I get near him again. But it is not my work that makes me forget
him. When I go a-fishing, I go to catch God's fish; when I take
Kelpie out, I am teaching one of God's wild creatures; when I read
the Bible or Shakspere, I am listening to the word of God, uttered
in each after its kind. When the wind blows on my face, what matter
that the chymist pulls it to pieces! He cannot hurt it, for his
knowledge of it cannot make my feeling of it a folly, so long as
he cannot pull that to pieces with his retorts and crucibles: it
is to me the wind of him who makes it blow, the sign of something
in him, the fit emblem of his spirit, that breathes into my spirit
the breath of life. When Mr Graham talks to me, it is a prophet
come from God that teaches me, as certainly as if his fiery chariot
were waiting to carry him back when he had spoken; for the word
he utters at once humbles and uplifts my soul, telling it that God
is all in all and my God--that the Lord Christ is the truth and
the life, and the way home to the Father."
After a little pause,
"And when you are talking to a rich, ignorant, proud lady?" said
Clementina, "--what do you feel then?"
"That I would it were my lady Clementina instead," answered Malcolm
with a smile.
She held her peace.
When he left her, Malcolm hurried to Scaurnose and arranged with
Blue Peter for his boat and crew the next night. Returning to his
grandfather, he found a note waiting him from Mrs Courthope, to
the effect that, as Miss Caley, her ladyship's maid, had preferred
another room, there was no reason why, if he pleased, he should
not re-occupy his own.
CHAPTER LXV: THE EVE OF THE CRISIS
It was late in the sweetest of summer mornings when the Partan's boat
slipped slowly back with a light wind to the harbour of Portlossie.
Malcolm did not wait to land the fish, but having changed his
clothes and taken breakfast with Duncan, who was always up early,
went to look after Kelpie. When he had done with her, finding some
of the household already in motion, he went through the kitchen,
and up the old corkscrew stone stair to his room to have the sleep
he generally had before his breakfast. Presently came a knock at
his door, and there was Rose.
The girl's behaviour to Malcolm was much changed. The conviction
had been strengthened in her that he was not what he seemed, and
she regarded him now with a vague awe. She looked this way and
that along the passage, with fear in her eyes, then stepped timidly
inside the room to tell him, in a hurried whisper, that she had
seen the woman who gave her the poisonous philtre, talking to Caley
the night before, at the foot of the bridge, after everybody else
was in bed. She had been miserable till she could warn him. He
thanked her heartily, and said he would be on his guard; he would
neither eat nor drink in the house. She crept softly away. He
secured the door, lay down, and trying to think fell asleep.
When he woke his brain was clear. The very next day, whether
Lenorme came or not, he would declare himself. That night he would
go fishing with Lady Clementina, but not one day longer would
he allow those people to be about his sister. Who could tell what
might not be brewing, or into what abyss, with the help of her
friends, the woman Catanach might not plunge Florimel?
He rose, took Kelpie out, and had a good gallop. On his way back
he saw in the distance Florimel riding with Liftore. The earl was
on his father's bay mare. He could not endure the sight, and dashed
home at full speed.
Learning from Rose that Lady Clementina was in the flower garden,
he found her at the swan basin, feeding the gold and silver fishes.
An under gardener who had been about the place for thirty years,
was at work not far off. The light splash of the falling column
which the marble swan spouted from its upturned beak, prevented
her from hearing his approach until he was close behind her. She
turned, and her fair face took the flush of a white rose.
"My lady," he said, "I have got everything arranged for tonight."
"And when shall we go?" she asked eagerly.
"At the turn of the tide, about half past seven. But seven is your
dinner hour."
"It is of no consequence.--But could you not make it half an hour
later, and then I should not seem rude?"
"Make it any hour you please, my lady, so long as the tide is
falling."
"Let it be eight then, and dinner will be almost over. They will
not miss me after that. Mr Cairns is going to dine with them. I
think, except Liftore, I never disliked a man so much. Shall I tell
them where I am going?"
"Yes, my lady. It will be better.--They will look amazed--for
all their breeding!"
"Whose boat is it, that I may be able to tell them if they should
ask me?"
"Joseph Mair's. He and his wife will come and fetch you. Annie
Mair will go with us--if I may say us: will you allow me to go
in your boat, my lady?"
"I couldn't go without you, Malcolm."
"Thank you, my lady. Indeed I don't know how I could let you go
without me! Not that there is anything to fear, or that I could
make it the least safer; but somehow it seems my business to take
care of you."
"Like Kelpie?" said Clementina, with a merrier smile than he had
ever seen on her face before.
"Yes, my lady," answered Malcolm; "--if to do for you all and the
best you will permit me to do, be to take care of you like Kelpie,
then so it is."
Clementina gave a little sigh.
"Mind you don't scruple, my lady, to give what orders you please.
It will be your fishing boat for tonight."
Clementina bowed her head in acknowledgment.
"And now, my lady," Malcolm went on, "just look about you for a
moment. See this great vault of heaven, full of golden light raining
on trees and flowers--every atom of air shining. Take the whole
into your heart, that you may feel the difference at night, my lady
--when the stars, and neither sun nor moon, will be in the sky,
and all the flowers they shine on will be their own flitting,
blinking, swinging, shutting and opening reflections in the swaying
floor of the ocean,--when the heat will be gone, and the air
clean and clear as the thoughts of a saint."
Clementina did as he said, and gazed above and around her on the
glory of the summer day overhanging the sweet garden, and on the
flowers that had just before been making her heart ache with their
unattainable secret. But she thought with herself that if Malcolm
and she but shared it with a common heart as well as neighboured
eyes, gorgeous day and ethereal night, or snow clad wild and sky
of stormy blackness, were alike welcome to her spirit.
As they talked they wandered up the garden, and had drawn near the
spot where, in the side of the glen, was hollowed the cave of the
hermit. They now turned towards the pretty arbour of moss that
covered its entrance, each thinking the other led, but Malcolm not
without reluctance. For how horribly and unaccountably had he not
been shaken, the only time he ever entered it, at the sight of the
hermit! The thing was a foolish wooden figure, no doubt, but the
thought that it still sat over its book in the darkest corner of the
cave, ready to rise and advance with outstretched hand to welcome
its visitor, had, ever since then, sufficed to make him shudder. He
was on the point of warning Clementina lest she too should be worse
than startled, when he was arrested by the voice of John Jack, the
old gardener, who came stooping after them, looking a sexton of
flowers.
"Ma'colm, Ma'colm!" he cried, and crept up wheezing. "--I beg
yer leddyship's pardon, my leddy, but I wadna ha'e Ma'colm lat ye
gang in there ohn tellt ye what there is inside."
"Thank you, John. I was just going to tell my lady," said Malcolm.
"Because, ye see," pursued John, "I was ae day here i' the gairden
--an' I was jist graftin' a bonny wull rose buss wi' a Hector o'
France--an' it grew to be the bonniest rose buss in a' the haul
gairden--whan the markis, no the auld markis, but my leddy's
father, cam' up the walk there, an' a bonny young leddy wi' his
lordship, as it micht be yersel's twa--an' I beg yer pardon,
my leddy, but I'm an auld man noo, an' whiles forgets the differs
'atween fowk--an' this yoong leddy 'at they ca'd Miss Cam'ell--
ye kenned her yersel' efterhin', I daursay, Ma'colm--he was unco
ta'en with her, the markis, as ilka body cud see ohn luikit that
near, sae 'at some saich 'at hoo he hed no richt to gang on wi'
her that gait, garrin' her believe, gien he wasna gaein' to merry
her. That's naither here nor there, hooever, seein' it a' cam' to
jist naething ava'. Sae up they gaed to the cave yon'er, as I was
tellin' ye; an' hoo it was, was a won'er, for I s' warran' she had
been aboot the place near a towmon (twelvemonth), but never had
she been intil that cave, and kenned no more nor the bairn unborn
what there was in 't. An' sae whan the airemite, as the auld minister
ca'd him, though what for he ca'd a muckle block like yon an airy
mite, I'm sure I never cud fathom--whan he gat up, as I was sayin',
an' cam' foret wi' his han' oot, she gae a scraich 'at jist garred
my lugs dirl, an' doon she drappit, an' there, whan I ran up, was
she lyin' i' the markis his airms, as white 's a cauk eemege, an'
it was lang or he brought her till hersel', for he wadna lat me
rin for the hoosekeeper, but sent me fleein' to the f'untain for
watter, an' gied me a gowd guinea to haud my tongue aboot it a'.
Sae noo, my leddy, ye're forewarnt, an' no ill can come to ye, for
there's naething to be fleyt at whan ye ken what's gauin' to meet
ye."
Malcolm had turned his head aside, and now moved on without remark.
Struck by his silence, Clementina looked up, and saw his face very
pale, and the tears standing in his eyes.
"You must tell me the sad story, Malcolm," she murmured. "I could
scarcely understand a word the old man said."
He continued silent, and seemed struggling with some emotion. But
when they were within a few paces of the arbour, he stopped short,
and said--"I would rather not go in there today. You would oblige
me, my lady, if you would not go."
She looked up at him again, with wonder but more concern in her
lovely face, put her hand on his arm, gently turned him away, and
walked back with him to the fountain. Not a word more did she say
about the matter.
CHAPTER LXVI: SEA
The evening came; and the company at Lossie House was still seated
at table, Clementina heartily weary of the vapid talk that had
been going on all through the dinner, when she was informed that a
fisherman of the name of Mair was at the door, accompanied by his
wife, saying they had an appointment with her. She had already
acquainted her hostess, when first they sat down, with her arrangements
for going a-fishing that night, and much foolish talk and would
be wit had followed; now, when she rose and excused herself, they
all wished her a pleasant evening, in a tone indicating the conviction
that she little knew what she was about, and would soon be longing
heartily enough to be back with them in the drawing room, whose
lighted windows she would see from the boat. But Clementina hoped
otherwise, hurriedly changed her dress, hastened to join Malcolm's
messengers, and almost in a moment had made the two childlike people
at home with her, by the simplicity and truth of her manner, and
the directness of her utterance. They had not talked with her five
minutes before they said in their hearts that here was the wife
for the marquis if he could get her.
"She's jist like ane o' oorsel's," whispered Annie to her husband
on the first opportunity, "only a hantle better an bonnier."
They took the nearest way to the harbour--through the town, and
Lady Clementina and Blue Peter kept up a constant talk as they went.
All in the streets and at the windows stared to see the grand lady
from the House walking between a Scaurnose fisherman and his wife,
and chatting away with them as if they were all fishers together.
"What's the wordle comin' till!" cried Mrs Mellis, the draper's
wife, as she saw them pass.
"I'm glaid to see the yoong wuman--an' a bonny lass she is!--in
sic guid company," said Miss Horn, looking down from the opposite
side of the way. "I'm thinkin' the han' o' the markis 'ill be i'
this, no'!"
All was ready to receive her, but in the present bad state of
the harbour, and the tide having now ebbed a little way, the boat
could not get close either to quay or shore. Six of the crew were
on board, seated on the thwarts with their oars shipped, for Peter
had insisted on a certain approximation to man of war manners
and discipline for the evening, or at least until they got to the
fishing ground. The shore itself formed one side of the harbour,
and sloped down into it, and on the sand stood Malcolm with a young
woman, whom Clementina recognised at once as the girl she had seen
at the Findlays'.
"My lady," he said, approaching, "would you do me the favour to let
Lizzy go with you. She would like to attend your ladyship, because,
being a fisherman's daughter, she is used to the sea, and Mrs Mair
is not so much at home upon it, being a farmer's daughter from
inland."
Receiving Clementina's thankful assent, he turned to Lizzy and said
--
"Min' ye tell my lady what rizon ye ken whaurfor my mistress at
the Hoose sudna be merried upo' Lord Liftore--him 'at was Lord
Meikleham. Ye may speyk to my lady there as ye wad to mysel'--
an' better, haein' the hert o' a wuman."
Lizzy blushed a deep red, and dared but the glimmer of a glance at
Clementina, but there was only shame, no annoyance in her face.
"Ye winna repent it, Lizzy," concluded Malcolm, and turned away.
He cherished a faint hope that, if she heard or guessed Lizzy's
story, Clementina might yet find some way of bringing her influence
to bear on his sister even at the last hour of her chance--from
which, for her sake, he shrunk the more the nearer it drew. Clementina
held out her hand to Lizzy, and again accepted her offered service
with kindly thanks.
Now Blue Peter, having been ship's carpenter in his day, had constructed
a little poop in the stern of his craft; thereon Malcolm had laid
cushions and pillows and furs and blankets from the Psyche,--a
grafting of Cleopatra's galley upon the rude fishing boat--and
there Clementina was to repose in state. Malcolm gave a sign: Peter
took his wife in his arms, and walking through the few yards of
water between, lifted her into the boat, which lay with its stern
to the shore. Malcolm and Clementina turned to each other: he was
about to ask leave to do her the same service, but she spoke before
him.
"Put Lizzy on board first," she said.
He obeyed, and when, returning, he again approached her--"Are
you able, Malcolm?" she asked. "I am very heavy."
He smiled for all reply, took her in his arms like a child, and
had placed her on the cushions before she had time to realize the
mode of her transference. Then taking a stride deeper into the
water, he scrambled on board. The same instant the men gave way.
They pulled carefully through the narrow jaws of the little harbour,
and away with quivering oar and falling tide, went the boat, gliding
out into the measureless north, where the horizon was now dotted
with the sails that had preceded it.
No sooner were they afloat than a kind of enchantment enwrapped and
possessed the soul of Clementina. Everything seemed all at once
changed utterly. The very ends of the harbour piers might have
stood in the Divina Commedia instead of the Moray Frith. Oh that
wonderful look everything wears when beheld from the other side!
Wonderful surely will this world appear--strangely more, when,
become children again by being gathered to our fathers--joyous
day! we turn and gaze back upon it from the other side! I imagine
that, to him who has overcome it, the world, in very virtue of his
victory, will show itself the lovely and pure thing it was created--
for he will see through the cloudy envelope of his battle to the
living kernel below. The cliffs, the rocks, the sands, the dune, the
town, the very clouds that hung over the hill above Lossie House,
were in strange fashion transfigured. To think of people sitting
behind those windows while the splendour and freedom of space with
all its divine shows invited them--lay bare and empty to them!
Out and still out they rowed and drifted, till the coast began to
open up beyond the headlands on either side.
There a light breeze was waiting them. Up then went three short
masts, and three dark brown sails shone red in the sun, and Malcolm
came aft, over the great heap of brown nets, crept with apology
across the poop, and got down into a little well behind, there to
sit and steer the boat; for now, obedient to the wind in its sails,
it went frolicking over the sea.
The bonnie Annie bore a picked crew; for Peter's boat was to him a
sort of church, in which he would not with his will carry any Jonah
fleeing from the will of the lord of the sea. And that boat's
crew did not look the less merrily out of their blue eyes, or carry
themselves the less manfully in danger, that they believed a lord
of the earth and the sea and the fountains of water cared for his
children and would have them honest and fearless.
And now came a scattering of rubies and topazes over the slow
waves, as the sun reached the edge of the horizon, and shone with
a glory of blinding red along the heaving level of green, dashed
with the foam of their flight. Could such a descent as this be
intended for a type of death? Clementina asked. Was it not rather
as if, from a corner of the tomb behind, she saw the back parts
of a resurrection and ascension: warmth, out shining, splendour;
departure from the door of the tomb; exultant memory; tarnishing
gold, red fading to russet; fainting of spirit, loneliness; deepening
blue and green; pallor, grayness, coldness; out creeping stars;
further reaching memory; the dawn of infinite hope and foresight;
the assurance that under passion itself lay a better and holier
mystery? Here was God's naughty child, the world, laid asleep and
dreaming--if not merrily, yet contentedly; and there was the
sky with all the day gathered and hidden up in its blue, ready to
break forth again in laughter on the morrow, bending over its skyey
cradle like a mother! and there was the aurora, the secret of life,
creeping away round to the north to be ready!  Then first, when the
slow twilight had fairly settled into night, did Clementina begin
to know the deepest marvel of this facet of the rose diamond
life! God's night and sky and sea were her's now, as they had been
Malcolm's from childhood! And when the nets had been paid out,
and sank straight into the deep, stretched betwixt leads below and
floats and buoys above, extending a screen of meshes against the
rush of the watery herd; when the sails were down, and the whole
vault of stars laid bare to her eyes as she lay; when the boat was
still, fast to the nets, anchored as it were by hanging acres of
curtain, and all was silent as a church, waiting, and she might
dream or sleep or pray as she would, with nothing about her but peace
and love and the deep sea, and over her but still peace and love
and the deeper sky, then the soul of Clementina rose and worshipped
the soul of the universe; her spirit clave to the Life of her life,
the Thought of her thought, the Heart of her heart; her will bowed
itself to the creator of will, worshipping the supreme, original,
only Freedom--the Father of her love, the Father of Jesus Christ,
the God of the hearts of the universe, the Thinker of all thoughts,
the Beginner of all beginnings, the All in all. It was her first
experience of speechless adoration.
Most of the men were asleep in the bows of the boat; all were lying
down but one. That one was Malcolm. He had come aft, and seated
himself under the platform leaning against it.
The boat rose and sank a little, just enough to rock the sleeping
children a little deeper into their sleep; Malcolm thought
all slept. He did not see how Clementina's eyes shone back to the
heavens--no star in them to be named beside those eyes. She knew
that Malcolm was near her, but she would not speak; she would not
break the peace of the presence. A minute or two passed. Then softly
woke a murmur of sound, that strengthened and grew, and swelled
at last into a song. She feared to stir lest she should interrupt
its flow. And thus it flowed:
The stars are steady abune;
I' the water they flichter an' flee;
But steady aye luikin' doon,
They ken themsel's i' the sea.
A' licht, an' clear, an' free,
God, thou shinest abune;
Yet luik, an' see thysel' in me,
God, whan thou luikest doon.
A silence followed, but a silence that seemed about to be broken.
And again Malcolm sang:
There was an auld fisher--he sat by the wa',
An' luikit oot ower the sea;
The bairnies war playin', he smilit on them a',
But the tear stude in his e'e.
An' it's oh to win awa', awa'!
An' it's oh to win awa'
Whaur the bairns come home, an' the wives they bide,
An' God is the Father o' a'!
Jocky an' Jeamy an' Tammy oot there,
A' i' the boatie gaed doon;
An' I'm ower auld to fish ony mair,
An' I hinna the chance to droon.
An' it's oh to win awa', awa'! &c.
An' Jeanie she grat to ease her hert,
An' she easit hersel' awa'
But I'm ower auld for the tears to stert,
An' sae the sighs maun blaw.
An' it's oh to win awa', awa'! &c.
Lord, steer me hame whaur my Lord has steerit,
For I'm tired o' life's rockin' sea
An' dinna be lang, for I'm nearhan' fearit
'At I'm 'maist ower auld to dee.
An' it's oh to win awa', awe'! &c.
Again the stars and the sky were all, and there was no sound but
the slight murmurous lipping of the low swell against the edges of
the planks. Then Clementina said:
"Did you make that song, Malcolm?"
"Whilk o' them, my leddy?--But it's a' ane--they're baith
mine, sic as they are."
"Thank you," she returned.
"What for, my leddy?"
"For speaking Scotch to me."
"I beg your pardon, my lady. I forgot your ladyship was English."
"Please forget it," she said. "But I thank you for your songs too.
It was the second I wanted to know about; the first I was certain
was your own. I did not know you could enter like that into the
feelings of an old man."
"Why not, my lady? I never can see living thing without asking it
how it feels. Often and often, out here at such a time as this,
have I tried to fancy myself a herring caught by the gills in the
net down below, instead of the fisherman in the boat above going
to haul him out."
"And did you succeed?"
"Well, I fancy I came to understand as much of him as he does
himself. It's a merry enough life down there. The flukes--plaice,
you call them, my lady,--bother me, I confess. I never contemplate
one without feeling as if I had been sat upon when I was a baby.
But for an old man!--Why, that's what I shall be myself one day
most likely, and it would be a shame not to know pretty nearly how
he felt--near enough at least to make a song about him."
"And shan't you mind being an old man, then, Malcolm?"
"Not in the least, my lady. I shall mind nothing so long as I can
trust in the maker of me. If my faith should give way--why then
there would be nothing worth minding either! I don't know but I
should kill myself."
"Malcolm!"
"Which is worse, my lady--to distrust God, or to think life worth
having without him?"
"But one may hope in the midst of doubt--at least that is what
Mr Graham--and you--have taught me to do."
"Yes, surely, my lady. I won't let anyone beat me at that, if I can
help it. And I think that so long as I kept my reason, I should be
able to cry out, as that grandest and most human of all the prophets
did--'Though he slay me yet will I trust in him.' But would you
not like to sleep, my lady?"
"No, Malcolm. I would much rather hear you talk,--Could you not
tell me a story now? Lady Lossie mentioned one you once told her
about an old castle somewhere not far from here."
"Eh, my leddy!" broke in Annie Mair, who had waked up while they
were speaking, "I wuss ye wad gar him tell ye that story, for my
man he's h'ard 'im tell't, an' he says it's unco gruesome: I wad
fain hear 't.--Wauk up, Lizzy," she went on, in her eagerness
waiting for no answer; "Ma'colm's gauin' to tell 's the tale o'
the auld castel o' Colonsay.--It's oot by yon'er, my leddy--
'no that far frae the Deid Heid.--Wauk up, Lizzy."
"I'm no sleepin', Annie," said Lizzy, "--though like Ma'colm's
auld man," she added with a sigh, "I wad whiles fain be."
Now there were reasons why Malcolm should not be unwilling to tell
the strange wild story requested of him, and he commenced it at
once, but modified the Scotch of it considerably for the sake of
the unaccustomed ears. When it was ended Clementina said nothing;
Annie Mair said "Hech, sirs!" and Lizzy with a great sigh, remarked,
"The deil maun be in a'thing whaur God hasna a han', I'm thinkin'."
"Ye may tak yer aith upo' that," rejoined Malcolm.
It was a custom in Peter's boat never to draw the nets without
a prayer, uttered now by one and now by another of the crew. Upon
this occasion, whether it was in deference to Malcolm, who, as he
well understood, did not like long prayers, or that the presence
of Clementina exercised some restraint upon his spirit, out of the
bows of the boat came now the solemn voice of its master, bearing
only this one sentence:
"Oh Thoo, wha didst tell thy dissiples to cast the net upo' the side
whaur swam the fish, gien it be thy wull 'at we catch the nicht,
lat 's catch; gien it binna thy wull, lat 's no catch.--Haul
awa', my laads."
Up sprang the men, and went each to his place, and straight a torrent
of gleaming fish was pouring in over the gunwale of the boat. Such
a take it was ere the last of the nets was drawn, as the oldest of
them had seldom seen. Thousands of fish there were that had never
got into the meshes at all.
"I cannot understand it," said Clementina. "There are multitudes
more fish than there are meshes in the nets to catch them: if they
are not caught, why do they not swim away?"
"Because they are drowned, my lady," answered Malcolm.
"What do you mean by that? How can you drown a fish?"
"You may call it suffocated if you like, my lady; it is all the
same. You have read of panic stricken people, when a church or a
theatre is on fire, rushing to the door all in a heap, and crowding
each other to death? It is something like that with the fish. They
are swimming along in a great shoal, yards thick; and when the first
can get no farther, that does not at once stop the rest, any more
than it would in a crowd of people; those that are behind come
pressing up into every corner, where there is room, till they are
one dense mass. Then they push and push to get forward, and can't
get through, and the rest come still crowding on behind and above
and below, till a multitude of them are jammed so tight against
each other that they can't open their gills; and even if they could,
there would not be air enough for them. You've seen the goldfish
in the swan basin, my lady, how they open and shut their gills
constantly: that's their way of getting air out of the water by
some wonderful contrivance nobody understands, for they need breath
just as much as we do: and to close their gills is to them the same
as closing a man's mouth and nose. That's how the most of those
herrings are taken."
All were now ready to seek the harbour. A light westerly wind was
still blowing, with the aid of which, heavy laden, they crept slowly
to the land. As she lay snug and warm, with the cool breath of the
sea on her face, a half sleep came over Clementina, and she half
dreamed that she was voyaging in a ship of the air, through infinite
regions of space, with a destination too glorious to be known.
The herring boat was a living splendour of strength and speed, its
sails were as the wings of a will, in place of the instruments of
a force, and softly as mightily it bore them through the charmed
realms of dreamland towards the ideal of the soul. And yet the
herring boat but crawled over the still waters with its load of
fish, as the harvest waggon creeps over the field with its piled
up sheaves; and she who imagined its wondrous speed was the only
one who did not desire it should move faster.
No word passed between her and Malcolm all their homeward way.
Each was brooding over the night and its joy that enclosed them
together, and hoping for that which was yet to be shaken from the
lap of the coming time.
Also Clementina had in her mind a scheme for attempting what Malcolm
had requested of her; the next day must see it carried into effect;
and ever and anon, like a cold blast of doubt invading the bliss
of confidence, into the heart of that sea borne peace darted the
thought, that, if she failed, she must leave at once for England,
for she would not again meet Liftore.
CHAPTER LXVII: SHORE
At last they glided once more through the stony jaws of the harbour,
as if returning again to the earth from a sojourn in the land of
the disembodied. When Clementina's foot touched the shore she felt
like one waked out of a dream, from whom yet the dream has not
departed--but keeps floating about him, waved in thinner and yet
thinner streams from the wings of the vanishing sleep.
It seemed almost as if her spirit, instead of having come back to
the world of its former abode, had been borne across the parting
waters and landed on the shore of the immortals. There was the
ghostlike harbour of the spirit land, the water gleaming betwixt its
dark walls, one solitary boat motionless upon it, the men moving
about like shadows in the star twilight! Here stood three women
and a man on the shore, and save the stars no light shone, and from
the land came no sound of life. Was it the dead of the night, or
a day that had no sun? It was not dark, but the light was rayless.
Or, rather, it was as if she had gained the power of seeing in the
dark.
Suppressed sleep wove the stuff of a dream around her, and the
stir at her heart kept it alive with dream forms. Even the voice
of Peter's Annie, saying, "I s' bide for my man. Gude nicht, my
leddy," did not break the charm. Her heart shaped that also into
the dream. Turning away with Malcolm and Lizzy, she passed along
the front of the Seaton.
How still, how dead, how empty like cenotaphs, all the cottages
looked! How the sea which lay like a watcher at their doors, murmured
in its sleep! Arrived at the entrance to her own close, Lizzy next
bade them good night, and Clementina and Malcolm were left.
And now drew near the full power, the culmination of the mounting
enchantment of the night for Malcolm. When once the Scaurnose
people should have passed them, they would be alone--alone as in
the spaces between the stars. There would not be a living soul on
the shore for hours. From the harbour the nearest way to the House
was by the sea gate, but where was the haste--with the lovely
night around them, private as a dream shared only by two? Besides,
to get in by that, they would have had to rouse the cantankerous
Bykes, and what a jar would not that bring into the music of the
silence! Instead, therefore, of turning up by the side of the stream
where it crossed the shore, he took Clementina once again in his
arms unforbidden, and carried her over.  Then the long sands lay
open to their feet. Presently they heard the Scaurnose party behind
them, coming audibly, merrily on. As by a common resolve they turned
to the left, and crossing the end of the Boar's Tail, resumed their
former direction, with the dune now between them and the sea. The
voices passed on the other side, and they heard them slowly merge
into the inaudible. At length, after an interval of silence, on the
westerly air came one quiver of laughter--by which Malcolm knew
his friends were winding up the red path to the top of the cliff.
And now the shore was bare of presence, bare of sound save the soft
fitful rush of the rising tide. But behind the long sandhill, for
all they could see of the sea, they might have been in the heart
of a continent.
"Who would imagine the ocean so near us, my lady!" said Malcolm,
after they had walked for some time without word spoken.
"Who can tell what may be near us?" she returned.
"True, my lady. Our future is near us, holding thousands of things
unknown. Hosts of thinking beings with endless myriads of thoughts
may be around us. What a joy t' know that, of all things and all
thoughts, God is nearest to us--so near that we cannot see him,
but, far beyond seeing him, can know of him infinitely!"
As he spoke they came opposite the tunnel, but he turned from it
and they ascended the dune. As their heads rose over the top, and
the sky night above and the sea night beneath rolled themselves out
and rushed silently together, Malcolm said, as if thinking aloud:
"Thus shall we meet death and the unknown, and the new that breaks
from the bosom of the invisible will be better than the old upon
which the gates close behind us. The Son of man is content with my
future, and I am content."
There was a peace in the words that troubled Clementina: he wanted
no more than he had--this cold, imperturbable, devout fisherman!
She did not see that it was the confidence of having all things
that held his peace rooted. From the platform of the swivel, they
looked abroad over the sea. Far north in the east lurked a suspicion
of dawn, which seemed, while they gazed upon it, to "languish into
life," and the sea was a shade less dark than when they turned from
it to go behind the dune. They descended a few paces, and halted
again.
"Did your ladyship ever see the sun rise?" asked Malcolm.
"Never in open country," she answered.
"Then stay and see it now, my lady. He'll rise just over yonder,
a little nearer this way than that light from under his eyelids.
A more glorious chance you could not have. And when he rises, just
observe, one minute after he is up, how like a dream all you have
been in tonight will look. It is to me strange even to awfulness
how many different phases of things, and feelings about them, and
moods of life and consciousness, God can tie up in the bundle of
one world with one human soul to carry it."
Clementina slowly sank on the sand of the slope, and like lovely
sphinx of northern desert, gazed in immovable silence out on the yet
more northern sea. Malcolm took his place a little below, leaning
on his elbow, for the slope was steep, and looking up at her. Thus
they waited the sunrise.
Was it minutes or only moments passed in that silence--whose
speech was the soft ripple of the sea on the sand? Neither could
have answered the question. At length said Malcolm,
"I think of changing my service, my lady."
"Indeed, Malcolm!"
"Yes, my lady. My--mistress does not like to turn me away, but
she is tired of me, and does not want me any longer."
"But you would never think of finally forsaking a fisherman's life
for that of a servant, surely, Malcolm?"
"What would become of Kelpie, my lady?" rejoined Malcolm, smiling
to himself.
"Ah!" said Clementina, bewildered; "I had not thought of her.--
But you cannot take her with you," she added, coming a little to
her senses.
"There is nobody about the place who could, or rather, who would do
anything with her. They would sell her. I have enough to buy her,
and perhaps somebody might not object to the encumbrance, but hire
me and her together.--Your groom wants a coachman's place, my
lady."
"O Malcolm! do you mean you would be my groom?" cried Clementina,
pressing her palms together.
"If you would have me, my lady; but I have heard you say you would
have none but a married man."
"But--Malcolm--don't you know anybody that would?--Could you
not find some one--some lady--that?--I mean, why shouldn't
you be a married man?"
"For a very good and to me rather sad reason, my lady; the only
woman I could marry, or should ever be able to marry,--would not
have me. She is very kind and very noble, but--it is preposterous
--the thing is too preposterous. I dare not have the presumption
to ask her."
Malcolm's voice trembled as he spoke, and a few moments' pause
followed, during which he could not lift his eyes. The whole heaven
seemed pressing down their lids. The breath which he modelled into
words seemed to come in little billows.
But his words had raised a storm in Clementina's bosom. A cry broke
from her, as if driven forth by pain. She called up all the energy
of her nature, and stilled herself to speak. The voice that came
was little more than a sob scattered whisper, but to her it seemed
as if all the world must hear.
"Oh Malcolm!" she panted, "I will try to be good and wise. Don't
marry anybody else--anybody, I mean; but come with Kelpie and be
my groom, and wait and see if I don't grow better."
Malcolm leaped to his feet and threw himself at hers. He had heard
but in part, and he must know all.
"My lady," he said, with intense quiet, "Kelpie and I will be your
slaves. Take me for fisherman--groom--what you will. I offer
the whole sum of service that is in me." He kissed her feet.
"My lady, I would put your feet on my head," he went on, "only then
what should I do when I see my Lord, and cast myself before Him?"
But Clementina, again her own to give, rose quickly, and said with
all the dignity born of her inward grandeur,
"Rise, Malcolm; you misunderstand me."
Malcolm rose abashed, but stood erect before her, save that his head
was bowed, for his heart was sunk in dismay. Then slowly, gently,
Clementina knelt before him. He was bewildered, and thought she
was going to pray. In sweet, clear, unshaken tones, for she feared
nothing now, she said,
"Malcolm, I am not worthy of you. But take me--take my very soul
if you will, for it is yours."
Now Malcolm saw that he had no right to raise a kneeling lady; all
he could do was to kneel beside her. When people kneel, they lift
up their hearts; and the creating heart of their joy was forgotten
of neither. And well for them, for the love where God is not, be
the lady lovely as Cordelia, the man gentle as Philip Sidney, will
fare as the overkept manna.
When the huge tidal wave from the ocean of infinite delight had
broken at last upon the shore of the finite, and withdrawn again
into the deeps, leaving every cistern brimming, every fountain
overflowing, the two entranced souls opened their bodily eyes,
looked at each other, rose, and stood hand in hand, speechless.
"Ah, my lady!" said Malcolm at length, "what is to become of this
delicate smoothness in my great rough hand? Will it not be hurt?"
"You don't know how strong it is, Malcolm. There!"
"I can scarcely feel it with my hand, my lady; it all goes through
to my heart. It shall lie in mine as the diamond in the rock."
"No, no, Malcolm! Now that I am going to be a fisherman's wife,
it must be a strong hand--it must work. What homage shall you
require of me, Malcolm? What will you have me do to rise a little
nearer your level? Shall I give away lands and money? And shall I
live with you in the Seaton? or will you come and fish at Wastbeach?"
"Forgive me, my lady; I can't think about things now--even with
you in them. There is neither past nor future to me now--only
this one eternal morning. Sit here, and look up, Lady Clementina:
--see all those worlds:--something in me constantly says that
I shall know every one of them one day; that they are all but rooms
in the house of my spirit, that is, the house of our Father. Let
us not now, when your love makes me twice eternal, talk of time
and places. Come, let us fancy ourselves two blessed spirits, lying
full in the sight and light of our God,--as indeed what else are
we?--warming our hearts in his presence and peace; and that we
have but to rise and spread our wings to sear aloft and find--what
shall it be, my lady? Worlds upon worlds? No, no. What are worlds
upon worlds in infinite show until we have seen the face of the
Son of Man?"
A silence fell. But he resumed.
"Let us imagine our earthly life behind us, our hearts clean, love
all in all.--But that sends me back to the now. My lady, I know
I shall never love you aright until you have helped me perfect. When
the face of the least lovely of my neighbours needs but appear to
rouse in my heart a divine tenderness, then it must be that I shall
love you better than now. Now, alas! I am so pervious to wrong!
so fertile of resentments and indignations! You must cure me, my
divine Clemency.--Am I a poor lover to talk, this first glorious
hour, of anything but my lady love? Ah! but let it excuse me that
this love is no new thing to me. It is a very old love. I have
loved you a thousand years. I love every atom of your being, every
thought that can harbour in your soul, and I am jealous of hurting
your blossoms with the over jubilant winds of that very love.
I would therefore behold you folded in the atmosphere of the Love
eternal. My lady, if I were to talk of your beauty, I should but
offend you, for you would think I raved, and spoke not the words
of truth and soberness. But how often have I not cried to the God
who breathed the beauty into you that it might shine out of you,
to save my soul from the tempest of its own delight therein. And
now I am like one that has caught an angel in his net, and fears to
come too nigh, lest fire should flash from the eyes of the startled
splendour, and consume the net and him who holds it. But I will
not rave, because I would possess in grand peace that which I lay
at your feet. I am yours, and would be worthy of your moonlight
calm."
"Alas! I am beside you but a block of marble!" said Clementina.
"You are so eloquent, my--"
"New groom," suggested Malcolm gently.
Clementina smiled.
"But my heart is so full," she went on, "that I cannot think the
filmiest thought. I hardly know that I feel. I only know that I
want to weep."
"Weep then, my word ineffable!" cried Malcolm, and laid himself
again at her feet, kissed them, and was silent.
He was but a fisher poet; no courtier, no darling of society, no
dealer in the fine speeches, no clerk of compliments. All the words
he had were the living blossoms of thought rooted in feeling. His
pure clear heart was as a crystal cup, through which shone the red
wine of his love. To himself Malcolm stammered as a dumb man, the
string of whose tongue has but just been loosed; to Clementina his
speech was as the song of the Lady to Comus, "divine enchanting
ravishment."  The God of truth is surely present at every such
marriage feast of two radiant spirits. Their joy was that neither
had fooled the hope of the other.
And so the herring boat had indeed carried Clementina over into
paradise, and this night of the world was to her a twilight of
heaven. God alone can tell what delights it is possible for him to
give to the pure in heart who shall one day behold him. Like two
that had died and found each other, they talked until speech rose
into silence, they smiled until the dews which the smiles had
sublimed claimed their turn and descended in tears.
All at once they became aware that an eye was upon them. It was
the sun. He was ten degrees up the slope of the sky, and they had
never seen him rise.
With the sun came a troublous thought, for with the sun came
"a world of men." Neither they nor the simple fisher folk, their
friends, had thought of the thing, but now at length it occurred to
Clementina that she would rather not walk up to the door of Lossie
House with Malcolm at this hour of the morning. Yet neither could
she well appear alone. Ere she had spoken Malcolm rose.
"You won't mind being left, my lady," he said, "for a quarter of
an hour or so--will you? I want to bring Lizzy to walk home with
you."
He went, and Clementina sat alone on the dune in a reposeful rapture,
to which the sleeplessness of the night gave a certain additional
intensity and richness and strangeness. She watched the great strides
of her fisherman as he walked along the sands, and she seemed not
to be left behind, but to go with him every step. The tide was again
falling, and the sea shone and sparkled and danced with life, and
the wet sand gleamed, and a soft air blew on her cheek, and the
lordly sun was mounting higher and higher, and a lark over her
head was sacrificing all nature in his song; and it seemed as if
Malcolm were still speaking strange, half intelligible, altogether
lovely things in her ears. She felt a little weary, and laid her
head down upon her arm to listen more at her ease.
Now the lark had seen all and heard all, and was telling it again
to the universe, only in dark sayings which none but themselves
could understand; therefore it is no wonder that, as she listened,
his song melted into a dream, and she slept. And the dream was
lovely as dream needs be, but not lovelier than the wakeful night.
She opened her eyes, calm as any cradled child, and there stood
her fisherman!
"I have been explaining to Lizzy, my lady," he said, "that your
ladyship would rather have her company up to the door than mine.
Lizzy is to be trusted, my lady."
"'Deed, my leddy," said Lizzy, "Ma'colm's been ower guid to me, no
to gar me du onything he wad ha'e o' me, I can haud my tongue whan
I like, my leddy. An' dinna doobt my thouchts, my leddy, for I ken
Ma'colm as weel's ye du yersel', my leddy."
While she was speaking, Clementina rose, and they went straight
to the door in the bank. Through the tunnel and the young wood and
the dew and the morning odours, along the lovely paths the three
walked to the house together. And oh, how the larks of the earth
and the larks of the soul sang for two of them! And how the burn
rang with music, and the air throbbed with sweetest life! while
the breath of God made a little sound as of a going now and then
in the tops of the fir trees, and the sun shone his brightest and
best, and all nature knew that the heart of God is the home of his
creatures.
When they drew near the house Malcolm left them. After they had
rung a good many times, the door was opened by the housekeeper,
looking very proper and just a little scandalized.
"Please, Mrs Courthope," said Lady Clementina, "will you give
orders that when this young woman comes to see me today she shall
be shown up to my room?"
Then she turned to Lizzy and thanked her for her kindness, and they
parted--Lizzy to her baby, and Clementina to yet a dream or two.
Long before her dreams were sleeping ones, however, Malcolm was out
in the bay in the Psyche's dinghy, catching mackerel: some should
be for his grandfather, some for Miss Horn, some for Mrs Courthope,
and some for Mrs Crathie.
CHAPTER LXVIII: THE CREW OF THE BONNIE ANNIE
Having caught as many fish as he wanted, Malcolm rowed to the
other side of the Scaurnose. There he landed and left the dinghy in
the shelter of the rocks, the fish covered with long broad leaved
tangles, climbed the steep cliff, and sought Blue Peter. The brown
village was quiet as a churchyard, although the sun was now growing
hot. Of the men some were not yet returned from the night's fishing,
and some were asleep in their beds after it. Not a chimney smoked.
But Malcolm seemed to have in his own single being life and joy
enough for a world; such an intense consciousness of bliss burned
within him, that, in the sightless, motionless village, he seemed
to himself to stand like an altar blazing in the midst of desert
Carnac. But he was not the only one awake: on the threshold of
Peter's cottage sat his little Phemy, trying to polish a bit of
serpentine marble upon the doorstep, with the help of water, which
stood by her side in a broken tea cup.
She lifted her sweet gray eyes, and smiled him a welcome.
"Are ye up a'ready, Phemy?" he said.
"I ha'ena been doon yet," she answered. "My mither was oot last
nicht wi' the boat, an' Auntie Jinse was wi' the bairn, an' sae I
cud du as I likit."
"An' what did ye like, Phemy?"
"A'body kens what I like," answered the child: "I was oot an' aboot
a' nicht. An' eh, Ma'colm! I hed a veesion."
"What was that, Phemy?"
"I was upo' the tap o' the Nose, jist as the sun rase, luikin'
aboot me, an' awa' upo' the Boar's Tail I saw twa angels sayin'
their prayers. Nae doobt they war prayin' for the haill warl', i'
the quaiet o' the mornin' afore the din begud. Maybe ane them was
that auld priest wi' the lang name i' the buik o' Genesis, 'at
hed naither father nor mither--puir man!--him 'at gaed aboot
blissin' fowk."
Malcolm thought he might take his own time to set the child right,
and asked her to go and tell her father that he wanted to see him.
In a few minutes Blue Peter appeared, rubbing his eyes--one of
the dead called too early from the tomb of sleep.
"Freen' Peter," said Malcolm, "I'm gaein' to speak oot the day."
Peter woke up.
"Weel," he said, "I am glaid o' that, Ma'colm,--I beg yer pardon,
my lord, I sud say.--Annie!"
"Haud a quaiet sough, man. I wadna hae 't come oot at Scaurnose
first. I'm come noo 'cause I want ye to stan' by me."
"I wull that, my lord."
"Weel, gang an' gether yer boat's crew, an' fess them doon to the
cove, an' I'll tell them, an' maybe they'll stan' by me as weel."
"There's little fear o' that, gien I ken my men," answered Peter,
and went off, rather less than half clothed, the sun burning hot
upon his back, through the sleeping village, to call them, while
Malcolm went and waited beside the dinghy.
At length six men in a body, and one lagging behind, appeared coming
down the winding path--all but Peter no doubt wondering why they
were called so soon from their beds, on such a peaceful morning,
after being out the night before. Malcolm went to meet them.
"Freen's," he said, "I'm in want o' yer help."
"Onything ye like, Ma'colm, sae far 's I'm concernt, 'cep' it be
to ride yer mere. That I wull no tak in han'," said Jeames Gentle.
"It's no that," returned Malcolm. "It's naething freely sae hard's
that, I'm thinkin'. The hard 'll be to believe what I'm gaein' to
tell ye."
"Ye'll no be gaein' to set up for a proaphet?" said Girnel, with
something approaching a sneer.
Girnel was the one who came down behind the rest.
"Na, na; naething like it," said Blue Peter.
"But first ye'll promise to haud yer tongues for half a day?" said
Malcolm.
"Ay, ay; we'll no clype."--"We s' haud ower tongues," cried one
and another and another, and all seemed to assent.
"Weel," said Malcolm, "My name 's no Ma'colm MacPhail, but--"
"We a' ken that," said Girnel.
"An' what mair du ye ken?" asked Blue Peter, with some anger at
his interruption.
"Ow, naething."
"Weel, ye ken little," said Peter, and the rest laughed.
"I'm the Markis o' Lossie," said Malcolm.
Every man but Peter laughed again: all took it for a joke
precursive of some serious announcement. That which it would have
least surprised them to hear, would have been that he was a natural
son of the late marquis.
"My name 's Ma'colm Colonsay," resumed Malcolm, quietly; "an' I'm
the saxt Markis o' Lossie."
A dead silence followed, and in doubt, astonishment, bewilderment,
and vague awe, accompanied in the case of two or three by a strong
inclination to laugh, with which they struggled, belief began. Always
a curious observer of humanity, Malcolm calmly watched them. From
discord of expression, most of their faces had grown idiotic. But
after a few moments of stupefaction, first one and then another
turned his eyes upon Blue Peter, and perceiving that the matter was
to him not only serious but evidently no news, each began to come
to his senses, the chaos within him slowly arranged itself, and
his face gradually settled into an expression of sanity--the
foolishness disappearing while the wonder and pleasure remained.
"Ye mauna tak it ill, my lord," said Peter, "gien the laads be ta'en
aback wi' the news. It's a some suddent shift o' the win, ye see,
my lord."
"I wuss yer lordship weel," thereupon said one, and held out his
hand.
"Lang life to yer lordship," said another.
Each spoke a hearty word, and shook hands with him--all except
Girnel, who held back, looking on, with his right hand in his
trouser pocket. He was one who always took the opposite side--
a tolerably honest and trustworthy soul, with a good many knots
and pieces of cross grain in the timber of him. His old Adam was
the most essential and thorough of dissenters, always arguing and
disputing, especially on theological questions.
"Na," said Girnel; "ye maun saitisfee me first wha ye are, an' what
ye want o' me. I'm no to be drawn into onything 'at I dinna ken a'
aboot aforehan'. I s' no tie mysel' up wi' ony promises. Them 'at
gangs whaur they kenna, may lan' at the widdie (gallows)."
"Nae doobt," said Malcolm, "yer ain jeedgement 's mair to ye nor
my word, Girnel; but saw ye ever onything in me 'at wad justifee
ye in no lippenin' to that sae far 's it gaed?"
"Ow na! I'm no sayin' that naither. But what ha'e ye to shaw anent
the privin' o' 't?"
"I have papers signed by my father, the late marquis, and sealed
and witnessed by well known gentlemen of the neighbourhood."
"Whaur are they?" said Girnel, holding out his hand.
"I don't carry such valuable things about me," answered Malcolm.
"But if you go with the rest, you shall see them afterwards."
"I'll du naething i' the dark," persisted Girnel. "Whan I see the
peppers, I'll ken what to du."
With a nod of the head as self important as decisive, he turned
his back.
"At all events," said Malcolm, "you will say nothing about it before
you hear from one of us again?"
"I mak nae promises," answered Girnel, from behind his own back.
A howl arose from the rest.
"Ye promised a'ready," said Blue Peter.
"Na, I didna that. I said never a word."
"What right then had you to remain and listen to my disclosure?"
said Malcolm. "If you be guilty of such a mean trick as betray me
and ruin my plans, no honest man in Portlossie or Scaurnose but
will scorn you."
"There! tak ye that!" said Peter. "An' I s' promise ye, ye s'
never lay leg ower the gunnel o' my boat again. I s' hae nane but
Christian men i' my pey."
"Ye hired me for the sizon, Blew Peter," said Girnel, turning
defiantly.
"Oh! ye s' ha'e yer wauges. I'm no ane to creep oot o' a bargain,
or say 'at I didna promise. Ye s' get yer reward, never fear. But
into my boat ye s' no come. We'll ha'e nae Auchans i' oor camp.
Eh, Girnel, man, but ye ha'e lost yersel' the day! He'll never loup
far 'at winna lippen. The auld worthies tuik their life i' their
han', but ye tak yer fit (foot) i' yours. I'm clean affrontit 'at
ever I hed ye amo' my men."
But with that there rushed over Peter the recollection of how he
had himself mistrusted, not Malcolm's word indeed, but his heart.
He turned, and clasping his hands in sudden self reproach,
"My lord, I saired ye ill mysel' ance," he cried; "for I misdoobted
'at ye wasna the same to me efter ye cam to yer ain. I beg yer
pardon, my lord, here i' the face o' my freen's. It was ill temper
an' pride i' me, jist the same as it's noo in Girnel there; an' ye
maun forgi'e him, as ye forga'e me, my lord, as sune 's ye can."
"I'll du that, my Peter, the verra moment he wants to be forgi'en,"
said Malcolm.
But Girnel turned with a grunt, and moved away towards the cliff.
"This 'll never du," said Peter. "A man 'at 's honest i' the main
may play the verra dog afore he gets the deevil oot o' 'im ance
he 's in like that. Gang efter 'im, laads, an' kep (intercept) 'im
an' keep 'im. We'll ha'e to cast a k-not or twa aboot 'im, an' lay
'im i' the boddom o' the boat."
The six had already started after him like one man. But Malcolm
cried,
"Let him go: he has done me no wrong yet, and I don't believe will
do me any. But for no risk must we prevent wrong with wrong."
So Girnel was allowed to depart--scarcely in peace, for he was
already ashamed of himself. With the understanding that they were
to be ready to his call, and that they should hear from him in the
course of the day, Malcolm left them, and rowed back to the Psyche.
There he took his basket of fish on his arm, which he went and
distributed according to his purpose, ending with Mrs Courthope at
the House. Then he fed and dressed Kelpie, saddled her and galloped
to Duff Harbour, where he found Mr Soutar at breakfast, and arranged
with him to be at Lossie House at two o'clock. On his way back he
called on Mr Morrison, and requested his presence at the same hour.
Skirting the back of the House, and riding as straight as he could,
he then made for Scaurnose, and appointed his friends to be near
the House at noon, so placed as not to attract observation and yet
be within hearing of his whistle from door or window in the front.
Returning to the House, he put up Kelpie, rubbed her down and fed
her; then, as there was yet some time to spare, paid a visit to
the factor. He found his lady, for all his present of fish in the
earlier morning, anything but friendly. She did all she could to
humble him; insisted on paying him for the fish; and ordered him,
because they smelt of the stable, to take off his boots before he
went upstairs--to his master's room, as she phrased it. But Mr
Crathie was cordial, and, to Malcolm's great satisfaction, much
recovered. He had better than pleasant talk with him.
CHAPTER LXIX: LIZZY'S BABY
While they were out in the fishing boat together, Clementina had,
with less difficulty than she had anticipated, persuaded Lizzy to
tell Lady Lossie her secret. It was in the hope of an interview
with her false lover that the poor girl had consented so easily.
A great longing had risen within her to have the father of her child
acknowledge him--only to her, taking him once in his arms. That
was all. She had no hope, thought indeed she had no desire for
herself. But a kind word to him would be welcome as light. The love
that covers sins had covered the multitude of his, and although
hopelessness had put desire to sleep, she would gladly have given
her life for a loving smile from him. But mingled with this longing
to see him once with his child in his arms, a certain loyalty to the
house of Lossie also influenced her to listen to the solicitation
of Lady Clementina, and tell the marchioness the truth.
She cherished no resentment against Liftore, but not therefore was
she willing to allow a poor young thing like Lady Lossie, whom they
all liked, to be sacrificed to such a man, who would doubtless at
length behave badly enough to her also.
With trembling hands, and heart now beating wildly, now failing for
fear, she dressed her baby and herself as well as she could, and,
about one o'clock, went to the House.
Now nothing would have better pleased Lady Clementina than that
Liftore and Lizzy should meet in Florimel's presence, but she
recoiled altogether from the small stratagems, not to mention the
lies, necessary to the effecting of such a confrontation. So she
had to content herself with bringing the two girls together, and,
when Lizzy was a little rested, and had had a glass of wine, went
to look for Florimel.
She found her in a little room adjoining the library, which, on
her first coming to Lossie, she had chosen for her waking nest.
Liftore had, if not quite the freedom of the spot, yet privileges
there; but at that moment Florimel was alone in it. Clementina
informed her that a fisher girl, with a sad story which she wanted
to tell her, had come to the house; and Florimel, who was not only
kind hearted, but relished the position she imagined herself to
occupy as lady of the place, at once assented to her proposal to
bring the young woman to her there.
Now Florimel and the earl had had a small quarrel the night before,
after Clementina left the dinner table, and for the pleasure
of keeping it up Florimel had not appeared at breakfast, and had
declined to ride with his lordship, who had therefore been all the
morning on the watch for an opportunity of reconciling himself. It
so happened that from the end of one of the long narrow passages
in which the house abounded, he caught a glimpse of Clementina's
dress vanishing through the library door, and took the lady for
Florimel on her way to her boudoir.
When Clementina entered with Lizzy carrying her child, Florimel
instantly suspected the truth, both as to who she was and as to the
design of her appearance. Her face flushed, for her heart filled
with anger, chiefly indeed against Malcolm, but against the two
women as well, who, she did not doubt, had lent themselves to his
designs, whatever they might be. She rose, drew herself up, and
stood prepared to act for both Liftore and herself.
Scarcely however had the poor girl, trembling at the evident
displeasure the sight of her caused in Florimel, opened her mouth
to answer her haughty inquiry as to her business, when Lord Liftore,
daring an entrance without warning, opened the door behind her,
and, almost as he opened it, began his apology.
At the sound of his voice Lizzy turned with a cry, and her small
remaining modicum of self possession vanished at sight of him
round whose phantom in her bosom whirred the leaves of her withered
life on the stinging blasts of her shame and sorrow. As much from
inability to stand as in supplication for the coveted favour, she
dropped on her knees before him, incapable of uttering a word, but
holding up her child imploringly. Taken altogether by surprise,
and not knowing what to say or do, the earl stood and stared for
a moment, then, moved by a dull spirit of subterfuge, fell back on
the pretence of knowing nothing about her.
"Well, young woman," he said, affecting cheerfulness, "what do you
want with me? I didn't advertise for a baby. Pretty child, though!"
Lizzy turned white as death, and her whole body seemed to give a
heave of agony. Clementina had just taken the child from her arms
when she sunk motionless at his feet. Florimel went to the bell.
But Clementina prevented her from ringing.
"I will take her away," she said. "Do not expose her to your servants.
Lady Lossie, my Lord Liftore is the father of this child: and if
you can marry him after the way you have seen him use its mother,
you are not too good for him, and I will trouble myself no more
about you."
"I know the author of this calumny!" cried Florimel, panting and
flushed. "You have been listening to the inventions of an ungrateful
dependent! You slander my guest."
"Is it a calumny, my lord? Do I slander you?" said Lady Clementina,
turning sharply upon the earl.
His lordship made her a cool obeisance. Clementina ran into
the library, laid the child in a big chair, and returned for the
mother. She was already coming a little to herself; and feeling
about blindly for her baby, while Florimel and Liftore were looking
out of the window, with their backs towards her. Clementina raised
and led her from the room. But in the doorway she turned and said
--"Goodbye, Lady Lossie. I thank you for your hospitality, but I
can of course be your guest no longer."
"Of course not. There is no occasion for prolonged leave taking,"
returned Florimel, with the air of a woman of forty.
"Florimel, you will curse the day you marry that man!" cried
Clementina, and closed the door.
She hurried Lizzy to the library, put the baby in her arms, and
clasped them both in her own. A gush of tears lightened the oppressed
heart of the mother.
"Lat me oot o' the hoose, for God's sake!" she cried; and Clementina,
almost as anxious to leave it as she, helped her down to the hall.
When she saw the open door, she rushed out of it as if escaping
from the pit.
Now Malcolm, as he came from the factor's, had seen her go in
with her baby in her arms, and suspected the hand of Clementina.
Wondering and anxious, but not very hopeful as to what might come
of it, he waited close by; and when now he saw Lizzy dart from the
house in wild perturbation, he ran from the cover of the surrounding
trees into the open drive to meet her.
"Ma'colm!" groaned the poor girl, holding out her baby, "he winna
own till't. He winna alloo 'at he kens oucht aboot me or the bairn
aither!"
Malcolm had taken the child from her, and was clasping him to his
bosom.
"He's the warst rascal, Lizzy," he said, "'at ever God made an'
the deevil blaudit."
"Na, na," cried Lizzy; "the likes o' him whiles kills the wuman,
but he wadna du that. Na, he's nae the warst; there's a heap waur
nor him."
"Did ye see my mistress?" asked Malcolm.
"Ow ay; but she luikit sae angry at me, I cudna speyk. Him an' her
's ower thrang for her to believe onything again' him. An' what
ever the bairn 's to du wantin' a father!"
"Lizzy," said Malcolm, clasping the child again to his bosom. "I
s' be a father to yer bairn--that is, as weel's ane 'at's no yer
man can be."
And he kissed the child tenderly.
The same moment an undefined impulse--the drawing of eyes probably
--made him lift his towards the house: half leaning from the open
window of the boudoir above him, stood Florimel and Liftore; and
just as he looked up, Liftore was turning to Florimel with a smile
that seemed to say--"There! I told you so! He is the father
himself."
Malcolm replaced the infant in his mother's arm, and strode towards
the house. Imagining he went to avenge her wrongs, Lizzy ran after
him.
"Ma'colm Ma'colm!" she cried; "--for my sake!--He's the father
o' my bairn!"
Malcolm turned.
"Lizzy," he said solemnly, "I winna lay han' upon 'im."
Lizzy pressed her child closer with a throb of relief.
"Come in yersel' an' see," he added.
"I daurna! I daurna!" she said. But she lingered about the door.
CHAPTER LXX: THE DISCLOSURE
When the earl saw Malcolm coming, although he was no coward, and
had reason to trust his skill, yet knowing himself both in the wrong
and vastly inferior in strength to his enemy, it may be pardoned
him that for the next few seconds his heart doubled its beats. But
of all things he must not show fear before Florimel!
"What can the fellow be after now?" he said. "I must go down to
him."
"No, no; don't go near him--he may be violent," objected Florimel,
and laid her hand on his arm with a beseeching look in her face.
"He is a dangerous man."
Liftore laughed.
"Stop here till I return," he said, and left the room.
But Florimel followed, fearful of what might happen, and enraged
with her brother.
Malcolm's brief detention by Lizzy gave Liftore a little advantage,
for just as Malcolm approached the top of the great staircase,
Liftore gained it. Hastening to secure the command of the position,
and resolved to shun all parley, he stood ready to strike. Malcolm,
however, caught sight of him and his attitude in time, and, fearful
of breaking his word to Lizzy, pulled himself up abruptly a few
steps from the top--just as Florimel appeared.
"MacPhail," she said, sweeping to the stair like an indignant
goddess, "I discharge you from my service. Leave the house instantly."
Malcolm turned, flew down, and ran to the servants' stair half the
length of the house away. As he crossed the servants' hall he saw
Rose. She was the only one in the house except Clementina to whom
he could look for help.
"Come after me, Rose," he said without stopping.
She followed instantly, as fast as she could run, and saw him
enter the drawing room. Florimel and Liftore were there. The earl
had Florimel's hand in his.
"For God's sake, my lady!" cried Malcolm, "hear me one word before
you promise that man anything."
His lordship started back from Florimel, and turned upon Malcolm
in a fury. But he had not now the advantage of the stair, and
hesitated. Florimel's eyes dilated with wrath.
"I tell you for the last time, my lady," said Malcolm, "if you
marry that man, you will marry a liar and a scoundrel."
Liftore laughed, and his imitation of scorn was wonderfully successful,
for he felt sure of Florimel, now that she had thus taken his part.
"Shall I ring for the servants, Lady Lossie, to put the fellow
out?" he said. "The man is as mad as a March hare."
Meantime Lady Clementina, her maid having gone to send her man to
get horses for her at once, was alone in her room, which was close
to the drawing room: hearing Malcolm's voice, she ran to the door,
and saw Rose in a listening attitude at that of the drawing room.
"What are you doing there?" she said.
"Mr MacPhail told me to follow him, my lady, and I am waiting here
till he wants me."
Clementina went into the drawing room, and was present during all
that now follows. Lizzy also, hearing loud voices and still afraid
of mischief had come peering up the stair, and now approached the
other door; behind Florimel and the earl.
"So!" cried Florimel, "this is the way you keep your promise to my
father!"
"It is, my lady. To associate the name of Liftore with his would be
to blot the scutcheon of Lossie. He is not fit to walk the street
with men: his touch is to you an utter degradation. My lady, in
the name of your father, I beg a word with you in private."
"You insult me."
"I beg of you, my lady--for your own dear sake."
"Once more I order you to leave my house, and never set foot in it
again."
"You hear her ladyship?" cried Liftore. "Get out." He approached
threateningly.
"Stand back," said Malcolm. "If it were not that I promised
the poor girl carrying your baby out there, I should soon--"
It was unwisely said: the earl came on the bolder. For all Malcolm
could do to parry, evade, or stop his blows, he had soon taken several
pretty severe ones. Then came the voice of Lizzy in an agony from
the door--
"Haud aff o' yersel', Ma'colm. I canna bide it. I gi'e ye back yer
word."
"We'll manage yet Lizzy," answered Malcolm, and kept warily
retreating towards a window. Suddenly he dashed his elbow through
a pane, and gave a loud shrill whistle, the same instant receiving
a blow over the eye which the blood followed. Lizzy made a rush
forward, but the terror that the father would strike the child he
had disowned, seized her, and she stood trembling. Already, however,
Clementina and Rose had darted between, and, full of rage as he
was, Liftore was compelled to restrain himself.
"Oh!" he said, "if ladies want a share in the row, I must yield my
place," and drew back.
The few men servants now came hurrying all together into the room.
"Take that rascal there, and put him under the pump," said Liftore.
"He is mad."
"My fellow servants know better than touch me," said Malcolm.
The men looked to their mistress.
"Do as my lord tells you," she said, "--and instantly."
"Men," said Malcolm, "I have spared that foolish lord there for
the sake of this fisher girl and his child, but don't one of you
touch me."
Stoat was a brave enough man, and not a little jealous of Malcolm,
but he dared not obey his mistress.
And now came the tramp of many feet along the landing from the
stair head, and the six fisherman entered, two and two. Florimel
started forward.
"My brave fisherman!" she cried. "Take that bad man MacPhail, and
put him out of my grounds."
"I canna du't, my leddy," answered their leader.
"Take Lord Liftore," said Malcolm, "and hold him, while I make him
acquainted with a fact or two which he may judge of consequence to
him."
The men walked straight up to the earl. He struck right and left,
but was overpowered in a moment, and held fast.
"Stan' still," said Peter, "or I ha'e a han'fu' o' twine i' my
pooch 'at I'll jist cast a k-not aboot yer airms wi' in a jiffey."
His lordship stood still, muttering curses.
Then Malcolm stepped into the middle of the room approaching his
sister.
"I tell you to leave the house," Florimel shrieked, beside herself
with fury, yet pale as marble with a growing terror for which she
could ill have accounted.
"Florimel!" said Malcolm solemnly, calling her sister by name for
the first time.
"You insolent wretch!" she cried, panting. "What right have you,
if you be, as you say, my base born brother, to call me by my name."
"Florimel!" repeated Malcolm, and the voice was like the voice of
her father, "I have done what I could to serve you."
"And I want no more such service!" she returned, beginning to
tremble.
"But you have driven me almost to extremities," he went on, heedless
of her interruption. "Beware of doing so quite."
"Will nobody take pity on me?" said Florimel, and looked round
imploringly. Then, finding herself ready to burst into tears, she
gathered all her pride, and stepping up to Malcolm, looked him in
the face, and said,
"Pray, sir! is this house yours or mine?"
"Mine," answered Malcolm. "I am the Marquis of Lossie, and while I
am your elder brother and the head of the family, you shall never
with my consent marry that base man--a man it would blast me to
the soul to call brother."
Liftore uttered a fierce imprecation.
"If you dare give breath to another such word in my sister's presence,
I will have you gagged," said Malcolm. "If my sister marries him,"
he continued, turning again to Florimel, "not one shilling shall
she take with her beyond what she may happen to have in her purse
at the moment. She is in my power, and I will use it to the utmost
to protect her from that man."
"Proof!" cried Liftore sullenly. But Florimel gazed with pale
dilated eyes in the face of the speaker. She knew his words were
true. Her soul assured her of it.
"To my sister," answered Malcolm, "I will give all the proof she
may please to require; to Lord Liftore I will not even repeat my
assertion. To him I will give no shadow of proof. I will but cast
him out of my house. Stoat, order horses for Lady Bellair."
"Gien ye please, sir, my Lord," replied Stoat, "the Lossie Airms
horses is ordered a'ready for Lady Clementina."
"Will my Lady Clementina oblige me by yielding her horses to Lady
Bellair?" said Malcolm, turning to her.
"Certainly, my lord," answered Clementina.
"You, I trust, my lady," said Malcolm, "will stay a little longer
with my sister."
Lady Bellair came up.
"My lord," she said, "is this the marquis or the fisherman's way
of treating a lady?"
"Neither. But do not drive me to give the rein to my tongue. Let
it be enough to say that my house shall never be what your presence
would make it."
He turned to the fishermen.
"Three of you take that lord to the town gate, and leave him on the
other side of it. His servant shall follow as soon as the horses
come."
"I will go with you," said Florimel, crossing to Lady Bellair.
Malcolm took her by the arm. For one moment she struggled, but
finding no one dared interfere, submitted, and was led from the
room like a naughty child.
"Keep my lord there till I return," he said as he went.
He led her into the room which had been her mother's boudoir, and
when he had shut the door,
"Florimel," he said, "I have striven to serve you the best way I
knew. Your father, when he confessed me his heir, begged me to be
good to you, and I promised him. Would I have given all these months
of my life to the poor labour of a groom, allowed my people to be
wronged and oppressed, my grandfather to be a wanderer, and my best
friend to sit with his lips of wisdom sealed, but for your sake? I
can hardly say it was for my father's sake, for I should have done
the same had he never said a word about you. Florimel, I loved
my sister, and longed for her goodness. But she has foiled all my
endeavours. She has not loved or followed the truth. She has been
proud and disdainful, and careless of right. Yourself young and
pure, and naturally recoiling from evil, you have yet cast from you
the devotion of a noble, gifted, large hearted, and great souled
man, for the miserable preference of the smallest, meanest, vilest
of men. Nor that only! for with him you have sided against the woman
he most bitterly wrongs: and therein you wrong the nature and the
God of women. Once more, I pray you to give up this man; to let
your true self speak and send him away."
"Sir, I go with my Lady Bellair, driven from her father's house by
one who calls himself my brother. My lawyer shall make inquiries."
She would have left the room, but he intercepted her.
"Florimel," he said, "you are casting the pearl of your womanhood
before a swine. He will trample it under his feet and turn again
and rend you. He will treat you worse still than poor Lizzy, whom
he troubles no more with his presence."
He had again taken her arm in his great grasp.
"Let me go. You are brutal. I shall scream."
"You shall not go until you have heard all the truth."
"What! more truth still? Your truth is anything but pleasant."
"It is more unpleasant yet than you surmise. Florimel, you have
driven me to it. I would have prepared you a shield against the
shock which must come, but you compel me to wound you to the quick.
I would have had you receive the bitter truth from lips you loved,
but you drove those lips of honour from you, and now there are
left to utter it only the lips you hate, yet the truth you shall
receive: it may help to save you from weakness, arrogance, and
falsehood.--Sister, your mother was never Lady Lossie."
"You lie. I know you lie. Because you wrong me, you would brand me
with dishonour, to take from me as well the sympathy of the world.
But I defy you."
"Alas! there is no help, sister. Your mother indeed passed as Lady
Lossie, but my mother, the true Lady Lossie, was alive all the
time, and in truth, died only last year. For twenty years my mother
suffered for yours in the eye of the law. You are no better than
the little child his father denied in your presence. Give that man
his dismissal, or he will give you yours. Never doubt it. Refuse
again, and I go from this room to publish in the next the fact that
you are neither Lady Lossie nor Lady Florimel Colonsay. You have
no right to any name but your mother's. You are Miss Gordon."
She gave a great gasp at the word, but bravely fought the horror
that was taking possession of her. She stood with one hand on the
back of a chair, her face white, her eyes starting, her mouth a
little open and rigid--her whole appearance, except for the breath
that came short and quick, that of one who had died in sore pain.
"All that is now left you," concluded Malcolm, "is the choice between
sending Liftore away, and being abandoned by him. That choice you
must now make."
The poor girl tried to speak, but could not. Her fire was burning
out, her forced strength fast failing her.
"Florimel," said Malcolm, and knelt on one knee and took her hand.
It gave a flutter as if it would fly like a bird; but the net of
his love held it, and it lay passive and cold. "Florimel, I will
be your true brother. I am your brother, your very own brother, to
live for you, love you, fight for you, watch and ward you, till a
true man takes you for his wife." Her hand quivered like a leaf.
"Sister, when you and I appear before our father, I shall hold up
my face before him: will you?"
"Send him away," she breathed rather than said, and sank on the
floor. He lifted her, laid her on a couch, and returned to the
drawing room.
"My lady Clementina," he said, "will you oblige me by going to my
sister in the room at the top of the stair?"
"I will, my lord," she answered, and went.
Malcolm walked up to Liftore.
"My lord," he said, "my sister takes leave of you."
"I must have my dismissal from her own lips."
"You shall have it from the hands of my fishermen. Take him away."
"You shall hear from me, my lord marquis, if such you be," said
Liftore.
"Let it be of your repentance, then, my lord," said Malcolm. "That
I shall be glad to hear of."
As he turned from him, he saw Caley gliding through the little
group of servants towards the door. He walked after her, laid his
hand on her shoulder, and whispered a word in her ear, she grew
gray rather than white, and stood still.
Turning again to go to Florimel, he saw the fishermen stopped with
their charge in the doorway by Mr Morrison and Mr Soutar, entering
together.
"My lord! my lord!" said the lawyer, coming hastily up to him,
"there can be surely no occasion for such--such--measures!"
Catching sight of Malcolm's wounded forehead, however, he supplemented
the remark with a low exclamation of astonishment and dismay--
the tone saying almost as clearly as words, "How ill and foolishly
everything is managed without a lawyer!"
Malcolm only smiled, and went up to the magistrate, whom he led
into the middle of the room, saying,
"Mr Morrison, every one here knows you: tell them who I am."
"The Marquis of Lossie, my lord," answered Mr Morrison; "and from
my heart I congratulate your people that at length you assume the
rights and honours of your position."
A murmur of pleasure arose in response. Ere it ceased, Malcolm
started and sprung to the door. There stood Lenorme! He seized him
by the arm, and, without a word of explanation, hurried him to the
room where his sister was. He called Clementina, drew her from the
room, half pushed Lenorme in, and closed the door.
"Will you meet me on the sand hill at sunset, my lady?" he said.
She smiled assent. He gave her the key of the tunnel, hinted that
she might leave the two to themselves for awhile, and returned to
his friends in the drawing room.
Having begged them to excuse him for a little while, and desired
Mrs Courthope to serve luncheon for them, he ran to his grandfather,
dreading lest any other tongue than his own should yield him
the opened secret. He was but just in time, for already the town
was in a tumult, and the spreading ripples of the news were fast
approaching Duncan's ears.
Malcolm found him, expectant and restless. When he disclosed himself
he manifested little astonishment, only took him in his arms and
pressed him to his bosom, saying, "Ta Lort pe praised, my son! and
she wouldn't pe at aal surprised." Then he broke out in a fervent
ejaculation of Gaelic, during which he turned instinctively to
his pipes, for through them lay the final and only sure escape for
the prisoned waters of the overcharged reservoir of his feelings.
While he played, Malcolm slipped out, and hurried to Miss Horn.
One word to her was enough. The stern old woman burst into tears,
crying,
"Oh, my Grisel! my Grisel! Luik doon frae yer bonny hoose amo' the
stars, an' see the braw laad left ahint ye, an' praise the lord 'at
ye ha'e sic a son o' yer boady to come hame to ye whan a' 's ower."
She sobbed and wept for a while without restraint. Then suddenly
she rose, dabbed her eyes indignantly, and cried,
"Hoot! I'm an auld fule. A body wad think I hed feelin's efter a'!"
Malcolm laughed, and she could not help joining him.
"Ye maun come the morn an' chise yer ain room i' the Hoose," he
said.
"What mean ye by that, laddie?"
"At ye'll ha'e to come an' bide wi' me noo."
"'Deed an' I s' du naething o' the kin', Ma'colm! H'ard ever onybody
sic nonsense! What wad I du wi' Jean? An' I cudna thole men fowk
to wait upo' me. I wad be clean affrontit."
"Weel, weel! we'll see," said Malcolm.
On his way back to the House, he knocked at Mrs Catanach's door,
and said a few words to her which had a remarkable effect on the
expression of her plump countenance and deep set black eyes.
When he reached home, he ran up the main staircase, knocked at
the first door, opened it, and peeped in. There sat Lenorme on the
couch, with Florimel on his knees, nestling her head against his
shoulder, like a child that had been very naughty but was fully
forgiven. Her face was blotted with her tears, and her hair was
everywhere; but there was a light of dawning goodness all about her,
such as had never shone in her atmosphere before. By what stormy
sweet process the fountain of this light had been unsealed, no one
ever knew but themselves.
She did not move when Malcolm entered--more than just to bring
the palms of her hands together, and look up in his face.
"Have you told him all, Florimel?" he asked.
"Yes, Malcolm," she answered. "Tell him again yourself."
"No, Florimel. Once is enough."
"I told him all," she said with a gasp; then gave a wild little
cry, and, with subdued exultation, added, "and he loves me yet! He
has taken the girl without a name to his heart!"
"No wonder," said Malcolm, "when she brought it with her."
"Yes," said Lenorme, "I but took the diamond casket that held my
bliss, and now I could dare the angel Gabriel to match happinesses
with me."
Poor Florimel, for all her worldly ways, was but a child.
Bad associates had filled her with worldly maxims and words and
thoughts and judgments. She had never loved Liftore, she had only
taken delight in his flatteries. And now had come the shock of
a terrible disclosure, whose significance she read in remembered
looks and tones and behaviours of the world. Her insolence to
Malcolm when she supposed his the nameless fate, had recoiled in
lurid interpretation of her own. She was a pariah--without root,
without descent, without fathers to whom to be gathered. She was
nobody. From the courted and flattered and high seated and powerful,
she was a nobody! Then suddenly to this poor houseless, wind beaten,
rain wet nobody, a house--no, a home she had once looked into
with longing, had opened, and received her to its heart, that it
might be fulfilled which was written of old, "A man shall be as an
hiding place from the wind, and a covert from the tempest." Knowing
herself a nobody, she now first began to be a somebody. She had
been dreaming pleasant but bad dreams: she woke, and here was a
lovely, unspeakably blessed and good reality, which had been waiting
for her all the time on the threshold of her sleep! She was baptized
into it with the tears of sorrow and shame. She had been a fool,
but now she knew it, and was going to be wise.
"Will you come to your brother, Florimel?" said Malcolm tenderly,
holding out his arms.
Lenorme raised her. She went softly to him, and laid herself on
his bosom.
"Forgive me, brother," she said, and held up her face.
He kissed her forehead and lips, took her in his arms, and laid
her again on Lenorme's knees.
"I give her to you," he said, "for you are good."
With that he left them, and sought Mr Morrison and Mr Soutar, who
were waiting him over a glass of wine after their lunch. An hour
of business followed, in which, amongst other matters, they talked
about the needful arrangements for a dinner to his people, fishers
and farmers and all.
After the gentlemen took their leave, nobody saw him for hours.
Till sunset approached he remained alone, shut up in the Wizard's
Chamber, the room in which he was born. Part of the time he occupied
in writing to Mr Graham.
As the sun's orbed furnace fell behind the tumbling waters, Malcolm
turned his face inland from the wet strip of shining shore on which
he had been pacing, and ascended the sandhill.
From the other side Clementina, but a moment later, ascended also.
On the top they met, in the red light of the sunset. They clasped
each the other's hand, and stood for a moment in silence.
"Ah, my lord!" said the lady, "how shall I thank you that you kept
your secret from me! But my heart is sore to lose my fisherman."
"My lady," returned Malcolm, "you have not lost your fisherman;
you have only found your groom."
And the sun went down, and the twilight came, and the night followed,
and the world of sea and land and wind and vapour was around them,
and the universe of stars and spaces over and under them, and
eternity within them, and the heart of each for a chamber to the
other, and God filling all--nay, nay--God's heart containing,
infolding, cherishing all--saving all, from height to height of
intensest being, by the bliss of that love whose absolute devotion
could utter itself only in death.
CHAPTER LXXI: THE ASSEMBLY
That same evening, Duncan, in full dress, claymore and dirk at his
sides, and carrying the great Lossie pipes, marched first through
the streets of the upper, then through the closes of the lower
town, followed by the bellman who had been appointed crier upon
his disappearance. At the proper stations, Duncan blew a rousing
pibroch, after which the bellman, who, for the dignity of his calling,
insisted on a prelude of three strokes of his clapper, proclaimed
aloud that Malcolm, Marquis of Lossie, desired the presence of each
and every of his tenants in the royal burgh of Portlossie, Newton
and Seaton, in the town hall of the same, at seven of the clock
upon the evening next following.
The proclamation ended, the piper sounded one note three times,
and they passed to the next station. When they had gone through the
Seaton, they entered a carriage waiting for them at the sea gate,
and were driven to Scaurnose, and thence again to the several other
villages on the coast belonging to the marquis, making at each in
like manner the same announcement.
Portlossie was in a ferment of wonder, satisfaction, and pleasure.
There were few in it who were not glad at the accession of Malcolm,
and with every one of those few the cause lay in himself. In
the shops, among the nets, in the curing sheds, in the houses and
cottages, nothing else was talked about; and stories and reminiscences
innumerable were brought out, chiefly to prove that Malcolm
had always appeared likely to turn out somebody, the narrator not
seldom modestly hinting at a glimmering foresight on his own part
of what had now been at length revealed to the world.  His friends
were jubilant as revellers. For Meg Partan, she ran from house to
house like a maniac, laughing and crying. It was as if the whole
Seaton had suddenly been translated. The men came crowding about
Duncan, congratulating him and asking him a hundred questions.
But the old man maintained a reticence whose dignity was strangely
mingled of pomp and grace; sat calm and stately as feeling the
glow of reflected honour; would not, by word, gesture, tone, or
exclamation, confess to any surprise; behaved as if he had known it
all the time; made no pretence however of having known it, merely
treated the fact as not a whit more than might have been looked
for by one who had known Malcolm as he had known him.
Davy, in his yacht uniform, was the next morning appointed the
marquis's personal attendant, and a running time he had of it for
a fortnight.
Almost the first thing that fell to him in his office was to show
into the room on the ground floor where his master sat--the same
in which for ages the lords of Lossie had been wont to transact
what little business any of them ever attended to--a pale, feeble
man, bowed by the weight of a huge brass clasped volume under each
arm. His lordship rose and met him with outstretched hand.
"I am glad indeed to see you, Mr Crathie," he said, "but I fear
you are out too soon."
"I am quite well since yesterday, my lord," returned the factor, his
face shining with pleasure. "Your lordship's accession has made a
young man of me again. Here I am to render account of my stewardship."
"I want none, Mr Crathie--nothing, that is, beyond a summary
statement of how things stand with me."
"I should like to satisfy your lordship that I have dealt honestly
"--here the factor paused for a moment, then with an effort added
--"by you, my lord."
"One word," said Malcolm "--the last of the sort, I believe, that
will ever pass between us. Thank God! we had made it up before
yesterday.--If you have ever been hard upon any of my tenants,
not to say unfair, you have wronged me infinitely more than if
you had taken from me. God be with me as I prefer ruin to wrong.
Remember, besides, that my tenants are my charge and care. For
you, my representative, therefore, to do one of them an injury is
to do me a double injury--to wrong my tenant, and to wrong him
in my name."
"Ah, my lord! you don't know how they would take advantage of you,
if there were nobody to look after your interests."
"Then do look after them, sir. It would be bad for them to succeed,
as well as crippling to me. Only be sure, with the thought of the
righteous God to elevate your sense of justice, that you are in
the right. If doubtful, then give in.--And now, if any man thinks
he has cause of complaint, I leave it to you, with the help of the
new light that has been given you, to reconsider the matter, and,
where needful, to make reparation. You must be the friend of my
tenant as much as of his landlord. I have no interests inimical to
those of my tenants. If any man comes to me with complaint, I will
send him to restate his case to you, with the understanding that,
if you will not listen to him, he is to come to me again, when I
shall hear both sides and judge between. If after six months you
should desire me to go over the books with you, I will do so. As
to your loyalty to my family and its affairs, of that I never had
a shadow of suspicion."
As he ended, Malcolm held out his hand. The factor's trembled in
his strong grasp.
"Mistress Crathie is sorely vexed, my lord," he said, rising to
take his leave, "at things both said and done in the dark."
Malcolm laughed.
"Give Mrs Crathie my compliments," he said, "and tell her a man
is more than a marquis. If she will after this treat every honest
fisherman as if he might possibly turn out a lord, she and I shall
be more than quits."
The next morning he carried her again a few mackerel he had just
caught, and she never forgot the lesson given her. That morning, I
may mention, he did not go fishing alone, but had a lady with him
in the dinghy; and indeed they were together, in one place and
another, the most of the day--at one time flying along the fields,
she on the bay mare, and he on Kelpie.
When the evening came, the town hall was crammed--men standing
on all the window sills; and so many could not get in that Malcolm
proposed they should occupy the square in front. A fisherman in
garb and gesture, not the less a gentleman and a marquis, he stood
on the steps of the town hall and spoke to his people. They received
him with wild enthusiasm.
"The open air is better for everything," he began. "Fishers, I have
called you first, because you are my own people. I am, and shall be
a fisherman, after such fashion, I trust, as will content my old
comrades. How things have come about, I shall not now tell you. Come
all of you and dine with me, and you shall hear enough to satisfy
at least lawful curiosity. At present my care is that you should
understand the terms upon which it is possible for us to live
together as friends. I make no allusion to personal friendships.
A true friend is for ever a friend. And I venture to say my old
friends know best both what I am and what I shall be. As to them I
have no shadow of anxiety. But I would gladly be a friend to all,
and will do my endeavour to that end.
"You of Portlossie shall have your harbour cleared without delay."
In justice to the fishers I here interrupt my report to state that
the very next day they set about clearing the harbour themselves.
It was their business--in part at least, they said, and they were
ashamed of having left it so long. This did much towards starting
well for a new order of things.
"You of Scaurnose shall hear the blasting necessary for your harbour
commence within a fortnight; and every house shall ere long have a
small piece of land at a reasonable rate allotted to it. But I feel
bound to mention that there are some among you upon whom, until
I see that they carry themselves differently, I must keep an eye.
That they have shown themselves unfriendly to myself in my attempts
to persuade them to what they knew to be right, I shall endeavour
to forget, but I give them warning that whoever shall hereafter
disturb the peace or interfere with the liberty of my people, shall
assuredly be cast out of my borders, and that as soon as the law
will permit.
"I shall take measures that all complaints shall be heard, and all
save foolish ones heeded; for, as much as in me lies, I will to
execute justice and judgment and righteousness in the land. Whoever
oppresses or wrongs his neighbour shall have to do with me. And
to aid me in doing justice, I pray the help of every honest man.
I have not been so long among you without having in some measure
distinguished between the men who have heart and brain, and the
men who have merely a sense of their own importance--which latter
class unhappily, always takes itself for the former. I will deal
with every man as I find him. I am set to rule, and rule I will.
He who loves righteousness, will help me to rule; he who loves it
not, shall be ruled, or depart."
The address had been every now and then interrupted by a hearty
cheer; at this point the cheering was greatly prolonged; after it
there was no more. For thus he went on:
"And now I am about to give you proof that I mean what I say, and
that evil shall not come to the light without being noted and dealt
with.
"There are in this company two women--my eyes are at this moment
upon them where they stand together. One of them is already well
known to you all by sight: now you shall know, not what she looks,
but what she is. Her name, or at least that by which she goes among
you, is Barbara Catanach. The other is an Englishwoman of whom you
know nothing. Her name is Caley."
All eyes were turned upon the two. Even Mrs Catanach was cowed by
the consciousness of the universal stare, and a kind of numb thrill
went through her from head to foot.
"Well assured that if I brought a criminal action against them, it
would hang them both, I trust you will not imagine it revenge that
moves me thus to expose them. In refraining from prosecuting them,
I bind myself of necessity to see that they work no more evil.
In giving them time for repentance, I take the consequences upon
myself. I am bound to take care that they do not employ the respite
in doing mischief to their neighbours. Without precaution I could
not be justified in sparing them. Therefore those women shall not
go forth to pass for harmless members of society, and see the life
and honour of others lie bare to their secret attack. They shall
live here, in this town, thoroughly known; and absolutely distrusted.
And that they may thus be known and distrusted, I publicly declare
that I hold proof against these women of having conspired to kill
me. From the effects of the poison they succeeded in giving me,
I fear I shall never altogether recover. I can prove also, to the
extreme of circumstantial evidence, that there is the blood of one
child at least upon the hands of each; and that there are mischiefs
innumerable upon their lying tongues, it were an easy task to convince
you. If I wrong them, let them accuse me; and whether they lose or
gain their suit, I promise before you for witnesses, I will pay
all; only thereby they will compel me to bring my actions for murder
and conspiracy. Let them choose.
"Hear what I have determined concerning them. The woman Catanach
shall take to her cottage the woman Caley. That cottage they shall
have rent free: who could receive money from such hands? I will
appoint them also a sufficiency for life and maintenance, bare indeed,
for I would not have them comfortable. But they shall be free to
work if they can find any to employ them. If, however, either shall
go beyond the bounds I set, she shall be followed the moment she
is missed, and that with a warrant for her apprehension. And I beg
all honest people to keep an eye upon them. According as they live
shall their life be. If they come to repentance, they will bless
the day I resolved upon such severe measures on their behalf. Let
them go to their place."
I will not try to describe the devilish look, mingled of contempt
and hate, that possessed the countenance of the midwife, as, with
head erect, and eyes looking straight before her, she obeyed the
command. Caley, white as death, trembled and tottered, nor dared
once look up as she followed her companion to their appointed hell.
Whether they made it pleasant for each other my reader may debate
with himself. Before many months had gone by, stared at and shunned
by all, even by Miss Horn's Jean, driven back upon her own memories,
and the pictures that rose out of them, and deprived of every chance
of indulging her dominant passion for mischievous influence, the
midwife's face told such a different tale, that the schoolmaster
began to cherish a feeble hope that within a few years Mrs Catanach
might get so far as to begin to suspect she was a sinner--that
she had actually done things she ought not to have done. One of
those things that same night Malcolm heard from the lips of Duncan,
a tale of horror and dismay. Not until then did he know, after all
he knew concerning her, what the woman was capable of.
At his own entreaty, Duncan was formally recognized as piper to the
Marquis of Lossie. His ambition reached no higher. Malcolm himself
saw to his perfect equipment, heedful specially that his kilt and
plaid should be of Duncan's own tartan of red and blue and green.
His dirk and broadsword he had new sheathed, with silver mountings.
A great silver brooch with a big cairngorm in the centre, took
the place of the brass one, which henceforth was laid up among the
precious things in the little armoury, and the badge of his clan
in gold, with rubies and amethysts for the bells of the heather,
glowed on his bonnet. And Malcolm's guests, as long as Duncan
continued able to fill the bag, had to endure as best they might,
between each course of every dinner without fail, two or three
minutes of uproar and outcry from the treble throat of the powerful
Lossie pipes. By his own desire, the piper had a chair and small
table set for him behind and to the right of his chief, as he called
him; there he ate with the family and guests, waited upon by Davy,
part of whose business it was to hand him the pipes at the proper
moment, whereupon he rose to his feet, for even he with all his
experience and habitude was unable in a sitting posture to keep
that stand of pipes full of wind, and raised such a storm of sound
as made the windows tremble. A lady guest would now and then venture
to hint that the custom was rather a trying one for English ears;
but Clementina would never listen to a breath against Duncan's
music. Her respect and affection for the old man were unbounded.
Malcolm was one of the few who understand the shelter of light, the
protection to be gained against lying tongues by the discarding of
needless reticence, and the open presentation of the truth. Many
men who would not tell a lie, yet seem to have faith in concealment:
they would rather not reveal the truth; darkness seems to offer
them the cover of a friendly wing. But there is no veil like light
--no adamantine armour against hurt like the truth. To Malcolm
it was one of the promises of the kingdom that there is nothing
covered that shall not be revealed. He was anxious, therefore, to
tell his people, at the coming dinner, the main points of his story,
and certain that such openness would also help to lay the foundation
of confidence between him and his people. The one difficulty in
the way was the position of Florimel. But that could not fail to
appear in any case, and he was satisfied that even for her sake
it was far better to speak openly; for then the common heart would
take her in and cover her. He consulted, therefore, with Lenorme,
who went to find her. She came, threw her arms round his neck and
begged him to say whatever he thought best.
To add the final tinge to the rainbow of Malcolm's joy, on the
morning of the dinner the schoolmaster arrived. It would be hard
to say whether Malcolm or Clementina was the more delighted to see
him. He said little with his tongue, but much with his eyes and
face and presence.
This time the tables were not set in different parts of the grounds,
but gathered upon the level of the drive and the adjacent lawny
spaces between the house and the trees. Malcolm, in full highland
dress as chief of his clan, took the head of the central table, with
Florimel in the place of honour at his right hand, and Clementina
on his left. Lenorme sat next to Florimel, and Annie Mair next to
Lenorme. On the other side, Mr Graham sat next to Clementina, Miss
Horn next to Mr Graham, and Blue Peter next to Miss Horn. Except
Mr Morrison, he had asked none who were not his tenants or servants
or in some way connected with the estates, except indeed a few
whom he counted old friends, amongst them some aged beggar folk,
waiting their summons to Abraham's bosom--in which there was no
such exceptional virtue on the marquis's part, for, the poor law
not having yet invaded Scotland, a man was not without the respect
of his neighbours merely because he was a beggar. He set Mr Morrison
to preside at the farmers' tables, and had all the fisher folk
about himself.
When the main part of the dinner was over, he rose, and with as
much circumstance as he thought desirable, told his story, beginning
with the parts in it his uncle and Mrs Catanach had taken. It was,
however, he said, a principle in the history of the world, that
evil should bring forth good, and his poor little cock boat had
been set adrift upon an ocean of blessing. For had he not been
taken to the heart of one of the noblest and simplest of men, who
had brought him up in honourable poverty and rectitude? When he had
said this, he turned to Duncan, who sat at his own table behind him,
with his pipe on a stool covered with a rich cloth by his side.
"You all know my grandfather," he went on, "and you all respect
him."
At this rose a great shout.
"I thank you, my friends," he continued. "My desire is that every
soul upon land of mine should carry himself to Duncan MacPhail
as if he were in blood that which he is in deed and in truth, my
grandfather."
A second great shout arose, which wavered and sank when they saw
the old man bow his head upon his hands.
He went on to speak of the privileges he alone of all his race had
ever enjoyed--the privileges of toil and danger, with all their
experiences of human dependence and divine aid; the privilege of
the confidence and companionship of honourable labouring men, and
the understanding of their ways and thoughts and feelings; and,
above all, the privilege of the friendship and instruction of the
schoolmaster, to whom he owed more than eternity could reveal.
Then he turned again to his narrative, and told how his father,
falsely informed that his wife and child were dead, married Florimel's
mother; how his mother, out of compassion for both of them, held
her peace; how for twenty years she had lived with her cousin Miss
Horn, and held her peace even from her; how at last, when, having
succeeded to the property, she heard he was coming to the House,
the thought of his nearness yet unapproachableness--in this way
at least he, the child of both, interpreted the result--so worked
upon a worn and enfeebled frame, that she died.
Then he told how Miss Horn, after his mother's death, came upon
letters revealing the secret which she had all along known must
exist, but after which, from love and respect for her cousin, she
had never inquired.
Last of all he told how, in a paroxysm of rage, Mrs Catanach had
let the secret of his birth escape her; how she had afterwards made
affidavit concerning it; and how his father had upon his death bed,
with all necessary legal observances, acknowledged him his son and
heir.
"And now, to the mighty gladness of my soul," he said, looking on
Florimel at his side, "my dearly loved and honoured sister, loved
and honoured long before I knew she was my own, has accepted me as
her brother, and I do not think she greatly regrets the loss of
the headship of the house which she has passed over to me. She will
lose little else. And of all women it may well be to her a small
matter to lose a mere title, seeing she is so soon to change her
name for one who will bring her honour of a more enduring reality.
For he who is about to become her husband is not only one of the
noblest of men, but a man of genius whose praises she will hear
on all sides. One of his works, the labour and gift of love, you
shall see when we rise from the table. It is a portrait of your
late landlord, my father, painted partly from a miniature, partly
from my sister, partly from the portraits of the family, and partly,
I am happy to think, from myself. You must yourselves judge of the
truth of it. And you will remember that Mr Lenorme never saw my
father. I say this, not to excuse, but to enhance his work.
"My tenants, I will do my best to give you fair play. My friend
and factor, Mr Crathie, has confided to me his doubts whether he
may not have been a little hard: he is prepared to reconsider some
of your cases. Do not imagine that I am going to be a careless man
of business. I want money, for I have enough to do with it, if only
to set right much that is wrong. But let God judge between you and
me.
"My fishermen, every honest man of you is my friend, and you shall
know it. Between you and me that is enough. But for the sake of
harmony, and right, and order, and that I may keep near you, I shall
appoint three men of yourselves in each village, to whom any man
or woman may go with request or complaint. If two of those three
men judge the matter fit to refer to me, the probability is that
I shall see it as they do. If any man think them scant of justice
towards him, let him come to me. Should I find myself in doubt,
I have here at my side my beloved and honoured master to whom to
apply for counsel, knowing that what oracle he may utter I shall
receive straight from the innermost parts of a temple of the Holy
Ghost. Friends, if we be honest with ourselves, we shall be honest
with each other.
"And, in conclusion, why should you hear from any lips but my
own, that this lady beside me, the daughter of an English earl of
ancient house, has honoured the house of Lossie by consenting to
become its marchioness? Lady Clementina Thornicroft possesses large
estates in the south of England, but not for them did I seek her
favour--as you will be convinced when you reflect what the fact
involves which she has herself desired me to make known to you--
namely, that it was while yet she was unacquainted with my birth
and position, and had never dreamed that I was other than only a
fisherman and a groom, that she accepted me for her husband.--
I thank my God."
With that he took his seat, and after hearty cheering, a glass or
two of wine, and several speeches, all rose, and went to look at
the portrait of the late marquis.
CHAPTER LXXII: KNOTTED STRANDS
Lady Clementina had to return to England to see her lawyers, and
arrange her affairs. Before she went, she would gladly have gone
with Malcolm over every spot where had passed any portion of his
history, and at each heard its own chapter or paragraph; but Malcolm
obstinately refused to begin such a narration before Clementina
was mistress of the region to which it mainly belonged. After that,
he said, he would, even more gladly, he believed, than she, occupy
all the time that could be spared from the duties of the present in
piecing together the broken reflections of the past in the pools of
memory, until they had lived both their lives over again together,
from earliest recollection to the time when the two streams flowed
into one, thenceforth to mingle more and more inwardly to endless
ages.
So the Psyche was launched. Lady Clementina, Florimel, and Lenorme
were the passengers, and Malcolm, Blue Peter, and Davy the crew.
There was no room for servants, yet was there no lack of service.
They had rough weather a part of the time, and neither Clementina
nor Lenorme was altogether comfortable, but they made a rapid
voyage, and were all well when they landed at Greenwich.
Knowing nothing of Lady Bellair's proceedings, they sent Davy
to reconnoitre in Portland Place. He brought back word that there
was no one in the house but an old woman. So Malcolm took Florimel
there. Everything belonging to their late visitors had vanished,
and nobody knew where they had gone.
Searching the drawers and cabinets, Malcolm, to his unspeakable
delight, found a miniature of his mother, along with one of his
father--a younger likeness than he had yet seen. Also he found
a few letters of his mother--mostly mere notes in pencil; but
neither these nor those of his father which Miss Horn had given
him, would he read:
"What right has life over the secrets of death ?" he said. "Or
rather, what right have we who sleep over the secrets of those who
have waked from their sleep and left the fragments of their dreams
behind them?"
Lovingly he laid them together, and burned them to dust flakes.
"My mother shall tell me what she pleases, when I find her," he said.
"She shall not reprove me for reading her letters to my father."
They were married, at Wastbeach, both couples in the same ceremony.
Immediately after the wedding, the painter and his bride set out
for Rome, and the marquis and marchioness went on board the Psyche.
For nothing would content Clementina, troubled at the experience
of her first voyage, but she must get herself accustomed to the
sea, as became the wife of a fisherman; therefore in no way would
she journey but on board the Psyche; and as it was the desire of
each to begin their married life at home, they sailed direct for
Portlossie. After a good voyage, however, they landed, in order to
reach home quietly, at Duff Harbour, took horses from there, and
arrived at Lossie House late in the evening.
Malcolm had written to the housekeeper to prepare for them the
Wizard's Chamber, but to alter nothing on walls or in furniture.
That room, he had resolved, should be the first he occupied with
his bride. Mrs Courthope was scandalized at the idea of taking an
earl's daughter to sleep in the garret, not to mention that the
room had for centuries had an ill name; but she had no choice, and
therefore contented herself with doing all that lay in the power of
woman, under such severe restrictions, to make the dingy old room
cheerful.
Alone at length in their somewhat strange quarters, concerning
which Malcolm had merely told her that the room was that in which
he was born--what place fitter, thought Clementina, wherein to
commence the long and wonderful story she hungered to hear. Malcolm
would still have delayed it, but she asked question upon question
till she had him fairly afloat. He had not gone far, however,
before he had to make mention of the stair in the wall, which led
from the place where they sat, straight from the house.
"Can there be such a stair in this room?" she asked in surprise.
He rose, took a candle, opened a door, then another, and showed
her the first of the steps down which the midwife had carried him,
and descending which, twenty years after, his father had come by
his death.
"Let us go down," said Clementina.
"Are you not afraid? Look," said Malcolm.
"Afraid, and you with me!" she exclaimed.
"But it is dark, and the steps are broken."
"If it led to Hades, I would go with my fisherman. The only horror
would be to be left behind."
"Come then," said Malcolm, "Only you must be very careful." He laid
a shawl on her shoulders, and down they went, Malcolm a few steps
in front, holding the candle to every step for her, many being
broken.
They came at length where the stair ceased in ruin. He leaped down;
she stooped, put her hands on his shoulder, and dropped into his
arms. Then over the fallen rubbish, out by the groaning door, they
went into the moonlight.
Clementina was merry as a child. All was so safe and peaceful with
her fisherman! She would not hear of returning. They must have
a walk in the moonlight first! So down the steps and the winding
path into the valley of the burn, and up to the flower garden they
wandered, Clementina telling him how sick the moonlight had made
her feel that night she met him first on the Boar's Tail, when his
words concerning her revived the conviction that he loved Florimel.
At the great stone basin Malcolm set the swan spouting, but the
sweet musical jargon of the falling water seemed almost coarse in
the soundless diapason of the moonlight. So he stopped it again,
and they strolled farther up the garden.
Clementina venturing to remind him of the sexton-like gardener's
story of the lady and the hermit's cave, which because of its
Scotch, she was unable to follow. Malcolm told her now what John
Jack had narrated, adding that the lady was his own mother, and that
from the gardener's tale he learned that morning at length how to
account for the horror which had seized him on his first entering
the cave, as also for his father's peculiar carriage on that occasion:
doubtless he then caught a likeness in him to his mother. He then
recounted the occurrence circumstantially.
"I have ever since felt ashamed of the weakness," he concluded:
"but at this moment I believe I could walk in with perfect coolness."
"We won't try it tonight," said Clementina, and once more turned
him from the place, reverencing the shadow he had brought with him
from the spirit of his mother.
They walked and sat and talked in the moonlight, for how long
neither knew; and when the moon went behind the trees on the cliff,
and the valley was left in darkness, but a darkness that seemed alive
with the new day soon to be born, they sat yet, lost in a peaceful
unveiling of hearts, till a sudden gust of wind roused Malcolm,
and looking up he saw that the stars were clouded, and knew that
the chill of the morning was drawing near.
He kept that chamber just as it was ever after, and often retired
to it for meditation. He never restored the ruinous parts of the
stair, and he kept the door at the top carefully closed. But he
cleared out the rubbish that choked the place where the stair had
led lower down, came upon it again in tolerable preservation a
little beneath, and followed it into a passage that ran under the
burn, appearing to lead in the direction of the cave behind the
Baillies' Barn. Doubtless there was some foundation for the legend
of Lord Gernon.
There however, he abandoned the work, thinking of the possibility
of a time when employment would be scarce, and his people in want
of all he could give them. And when such a time arrived, as arrive
it did before they had been two years married, a far more important
undertaking was found needful to employ the many who must earn or
starve. Then it was that Clementina had the desire of her heart,
and began to lay out the money she had been saving for the purpose,
in rebuilding the ancient Castle of Colonsay. Its vaults were emptied
of rubbish and ruin, the rock faced afresh, walls and towers and
battlements raised, until at last, when the loftiest tower seemed
to have reached its height, it rose yet higher, and blossomed in
radiance; for, topmost crown of all, there, flaming far into the
northern night, shone a splendid beacon lamp, to guide the fisherman
when his way was hid.
Every summer for years, Florimel and her husband spent weeks in
the castle, and many a study the painter made there of the ever
changing face of the sea.
Malcolm, as he well might, had such a strong feeling of the power
for good of every high souled schoolmaster, that nothing would serve
him but Mr Graham must be reinstated. He told the presbytery that
if it were not done, he would himself build a school house for
him, and the consequence, he said, needed no prediction. Finding,
at the same time, that the young man they had put in his place was
willing to act as his assistant, he proposed that he should keep
the cottage, and all other emoluments of the office, on the sole
condition that, when he found he could no longer conscientiously
and heartily further the endeavours of Mr Graham, he should say
so; whereupon the marquis would endeavour to procure him another
appointment; and on these understandings the thing was arranged.
Mr Graham thenceforward lived in the House, a spiritual father to
the whole family, reverenced by all, ever greeted with gladness,
ever obeyed. The spiritual dignity and simplicity, the fine sense
and delicate feeling of the man, rendered him a saving presence in
the place; and Clementina felt as if one of the ancient prophets,
blossomed into a Christian, was the glory of their family and
house. Like a perfect daughter, she watched him, tried to discover
preferences of which he might not himself be aware, and often waited
upon him with her own hands.
There was an ancient building connected with the house, divided
now for many years into barn and dairy, but evidently the chapel
of the monastery: this Malcolm soon set about reconverting. It made
a lovely chapel--too large for the household, but not too large
for its congregation upon Wednesday evenings, when many of the
fishermen and their families, and not a few of the inhabitants of
the upper town, with occasionally several farm servants from the
neighbourhood, assembled to listen devoutly to the fervent and loving
expostulations and rousings, or the tender consolings and wise
instructions of the master, as every one called him. The hold he
had of their hearts was firm, and his influence on their consciences
far reaching.
When there was need of conference, or ground for any wide expostulation,
the marquis would call a meeting in the chapel; but this occurred
very seldom. Now and then the master, sometimes the marquis himself,
would use it for a course of lectures or a succession of readings
from some specially interesting book; and in what had been the
sacristy they gathered a small library for the use of the neighbourhood.
No meeting was held there of a Sunday, for although the clergyman
was the one person to whom all his life the marquis never came any
nearer, he was not the less careful to avoid everything that might
rouse contention or encourage division.
"I find the doing of the will of God," he would say, "leaves me
no time for disputing about his plans--I do not say for thinking
about them."
Not therefore, however, would he waive the exercise of the inborn
right of teaching, and anybody might come to the house and see the
master on Sunday evenings. As to whether people went to church or
stayed away, he never troubled himself in the least; and no more
did the schoolmaster.
The chapel had not been long finished when he had an organ built in
it. Lady Lossie played upon it. Almost every evening, at a certain
hour, she played for a while; the door was always open, and any
one who pleased might sit down and listen.
Gradually the feeling of the community, from the strengthening and
concentrating influence of the House, began to bear upon offenders;
and any whose conduct had become in the least flagrant soon felt
that the general eye was upon them, and that gradually the human tide
was falling from them, and leaving them prisoned in a rocky basin
on a barren shore. But at the same time, all three of the powers at
the House were watching to come in the moment there was a chance;
and what with the marquis's warnings, his wife's encouragements,
and the master's expostulations, there was no little hope of the
final recovery of several who would otherwise most likely have sunk
deeper and deeper.
The marchioness took Lizzy for her personal attendant, and had her
boy much about her; so that by the time she had children of her
own, she had some genuine and worthy notion of what a child was, and
what could and ought to be done for the development of the divine
germ that lay in the human egg; and had found that the best she
could do for any child, or indeed anybody, was to be good herself.
Rose married a young fisherman, and made a brave wife and mother.
To the end of her days she regarded the marquis almost as a being
higher than human, an angel that had found and saved her.
Kelpie had a foal, and, apparently in consequence, grew so much
more gentle that at length Malcolm consented that Clementina, who
was an excellent horsewoman, should mount her. After a few attempts
to unseat her, not of the most determined kind however, Kelpie, on
her part, consented to carry her, and ever after seemed proud of
having a mistress that could ride. Her foal turned out a magnificent
horse. Malcolm did not allow him to do anything that could be
called work before he was eight years old, and had the return at
the other end, for when Goblin was thirty he rode him still, and
to judge by appearances, might but for an accident have ridden him
ten years more.
It was not long ere people began to remark that no one now ever
heard the piper utter the name Campbell. An ill bred youth once
--it was well for him that Malcolm was not near--dared the evil
word in his presence: a cloud swept across the old man's face, but
he held his peace; and to the day of his death, which arrived in
his ninety-first year, it never crossed his lips. He died with the
Lossie pipes on his bed, Malcolm on one side of him, and Clementina
on the other.
Some of my readers may care to know that Phemy and Davy were
married, and made the quaintest, oldest fashioned little couple,
with hearts which king or beggar might equally have trusted.
Malcolm's relations with the fisher folk, founded as they were in
truth and open uprightness, were not in the least injured by his
change of position. He made it a point to be always at home during
the herring fishing. Whatever might be going on in London, the
marquis and marchioness, their family and household, were sure
to leave in time for the commencement of that. Those who admired
Malcolm, of whom there were not a few even in Vanity Fair, called
him the fisher king: the wags called him the kingfisher, and laughed
at the oddity of his taste in preferring what he called his duty
to the pleasures of the season. But the marquis found even the
hen pecked Partan a nobler and more elevating presence than any
strutting platitude of Bond Street. And when he was at home, he was
always about amongst the people. Almost every day he would look in
at some door in the Seaton, and call out a salutation to the busy
housewife--perhaps go in and sit down for a minute. Now he would
be walking with this one, now talking with that--oftenest with
Blue Peter; and sometimes both their wives would be with them,
upon the shore, or in the grounds. Nor was there a family meal to
which any one or all together of the six men whom he had set over
the Seaton and Scaurnose would not have been welcomed by the marquis
and his Clemency. The House was head and heart of the whole district.
A conventional visitor was certain to feel very shruggish at first
sight of the terms on which the marquis was with "persons of that
sort;" but often such a one came to allow that it was no great
matter: the persons did not seem to presume unpleasantly, and,
notwithstanding his atrocious training, the marquis was after all
a very good sort of fellow--considering.
In the third year he launched a strange vessel. Her tonnage was
two hundred, but she was built like a fishing boat. She had great
stowage forward and below: if there was a large take, boat after
boat could empty its load into her, and go back and draw its nets
again. But this was not the original design in her.
The after half of her deck was parted off with a light rope rail,
was kept as white as holystone could make it, and had a brass railed
bulwark. She was steered with a wheel, for more room; the top of
the binnacle was made sloping, to serve as a lectern; there were
seats all round the bulwarks; and she was called the Clemency.
For more than two years he had provided training for the fittest
youths he could find amongst the fishers, and now he had a pretty
good band playing on wind instruments, able to give back to God a
shadow of his own music. The same formed the Clemency's crew. And
every Sunday evening the great fishing boat with the marquis, and
almost always the marchioness on board, and the latter never without
a child or children, led out from the harbour such of the boats as
were going to spend the night on the water.
When they reached the ground, all the other boats gathered about
the great boat, and the chief men came on board, and Malcolm stood
up betwixt the wheel and the binnacle, and read--always from the
gospel, and generally words of Jesus, and talked to them, striving
earnestly to get the truth alive into their hearts. Then he would
pray aloud to the living God, as one so living that they could
not see him, so one with them that they could not behold him. When
they rose from their knees; man after man dropped into his boat,
and the fleet scattered wide over the waters to search them for
their treasure.
Then the little ones were put to bed; and Malcolm and Clementina
would sit on the deck, reading and talking, till the night fell,
when they too went below, and slept in peace. But if ever a boat
wanted help, or the slightest danger arose, the first thing was to
call the marquis, and he was on deck in a moment.
In the morning, when a few of the boats had gathered, they would
make for the harbour again, but now with full blast of praising
trumpets and horns, the waves seeming to dance to the well ordered
noise divine. Or if the wind was contrary, or no wind blew, the
lightest laden of the boats would take the Clemency in tow, and,
with frequent change of rowers, draw her softly back to the harbour.
For such Monday mornings, the marquis wrote a little song, and his
Clemency made an air to it, and harmonized it for the band. Here
is the last stanza of it:
Like the fish that brought the coin,
We in ministry will join--
Bring what pleases thee the best;
Help from each to all the rest.
THE END