The tired Petitioner, TO His noble Friends, who are Members of the honourable House of Commons. SIRS, if this Paper find you (who, to me Are not so fully known, as you should be) It comes to move, that, my Petitions may Obtain your Answer without more delay; Lest by Attendance (as my Neighbours do) With my Estate, I lose my Patience too. For, I have waited, and endured so long, That, no Result can do me greater wrong Than lingering hopes; And, were I quite undone, I, possibly, another course might run To be repaired again, ere I obtain That Benefit, which I, had hope to gain: Or, else, might find some other likely way To fit me for the part I have to play. Some say my Friends are more than I do know: And, I am hopeful that it may be so; For, if kind language, and much compliment Are signs thereof; nor Christendom, nor Kent Knows any man who may himself apply Unto your House, with better hopes than I: But, if by reall-deeds, it must be known What Friends I have, their number small is grown: Or, else, their power attaineth not unto Those Friendly Offices they wish to do; And, peradventure, they obstructed be In their endeavours, by defects in me. It may be 'tis observed, I want Relations, Guifts-qualifying, or those Commendations That should advance my suits; and, which do make Those active, who, men's Causes undertake; And I half think it so: For, ere this day, Some one or other had, else, gotten way For my Petitions; or appeared able To make my suits and me considerable; Since, others, who have neither lost, nor spent, Nor for the public, hazarded or lent Life, Limb, or money; (yea, though they, before, Had profitable places) meet with more Success than I; and, daily can be heard With expedition, and with good regard. But, (Whatsoever the other causes are Why thus it comes to pass) this, doth appear, That, they who now are my Competitors, Have so o'rematched my Solicitors, That, if I speed, your House, will prove, to me, A better Friend than Individuals be. I find, that, many who, a while ago, Appeared for me, do now (Gradatim) grow Elsewhere engaged. I find, that, they begin To reckon, how the place hath valued been; And, to expostulate, and to admire How, I, to an Employment dared aspire Of Trust or Worth; who, am despoiled of that, Which (in their judgement) should secure the State: As if, a known unblamed-Conversation Were no Security; or, out of fashion: As if, my portion, in the public hand, Might not, as well, for good-assurance stand, As if it were in mine: Or, as if he Who, for his Country, prodigal could be Of all he had, deserved not to be thought As trusty, as they are, who, never, aught Adventured; nor had aught, but what they got By gaining Trust, where they deserved it not. If all were weighed, admire they rather may That, I my pains dare venture in a way Wherein, I have so often sought in vain, Those things, which unto me, of right, pertain. They might admire, that I, who have not been A Servant, nor, am known to be, of kin To Peer or Commoner; nor have the skill To make a party; nor, thereto, a Will: That, I who follow suits, as if I thought, That Justice, should be neither sold nor bought, Or got by importunities; save, where The Judge doth neither GOD, nor Mortal fear: That, I, should ever hope to compass that, Which any other thinks worth aiming at; Since, cause, perhaps enough, is found, why none Thus minded, should presume to think upon A Place of profit; and, conceive to get His hopes, by merit, honesty, or wit: For, I do find that, in this undertaking Great rubs are made (and many other making) So troublesome to pass, that, I am tired: And, had I but that competence acquired, Which I have lost; this life, I would not live, For all, the King and Parliament could give. One, of your Order, told me, at your door Since my last-suit was tendered (and, before He had perused it) that, I deserved No Favour: (Oh! how strangely have I swerved!) But, as, I to his face, made answer, then, So, now, I say, (and I will say't again) Let me receive but Justice, and I'll wave All human-mercy; and, yet hope to have A happier condition by the same Then that, whereto, I now exposed am. Another of them tells me, that, in vain, I seek, what I make suit for, in the main, Whilst I am in Confinement: As if, you Could but one Blessing, at one time, allow. Or else, as if, because I now have had (Like one, of whom the slightest account is made) Nine months' Restraint (and, thereby am become A bondman, without either formal-doom Or, Breach of Law,) I, therefore, must expect, My chief desire, will find the less effect: Which seems to me, as if a man should say, The more he owes, the less he means to pay. A third man intimates; because, he sees I wear not, yet Sheeps-leather, or Welch-freeze; (But, by GOD'S blessing, hitherto have borne My usual Port, to put aside the scorn Of Knaves and fools) that I am not undone Sufficiently, to be so thought upon As I desire: But, such as these prolong The public Judgements, and our private wrong, Through want of real feeling what we bear Whose plaints they pocket, and whose cries they hear Without regard: For, when we most are grieved, So little of our sufferings is believed, As if men had nor heart nor power to think, That ought we ayl'e, till we be dead and stink. A fifth, doth much persuade me to forbear My present suit; because he seems to fear My late bold-numbers have incensed so many, That, I shall hardly find regard from any, When I expect it: which, to be believed, (Where I have hope with grace to be received) Is so abominable; that, I trust To find their Generall-Conclusions just, (Though I in person, goods, and reputation, Have lately suffered by misinformation:) For (thought I otherwise) I would disdain To them, for Grace or Justice to complain; Though I were plunged, into a worse condition, Then seems approaching, by my last Petition. I cannot fear that they who true-men be, Will for true-speaking be displeased with me, But, rather, by vouchsafing what I crave Be glad the kingdom may occasion have To see their Justice, by repairing him, Who gave himself, to be undone for them: For them, who buy less honour, at the price, Then may be purchased by this device. But, hitherto, my hopes, do not succeed According to my sufferings, and my need. Two months, upon one suit, I have bestown; Upon a former, thrice three months, and one; Upon another, four times three, and nine; Yet, still, some other Cause out-justles mine: And, even by favours hitherto obtained, More mischiefs, than Advantages, are gained; Because, in th'execution, they have wanted That influence, whereby they first were granted. This, with uncrazed patience I can bear, So long as my desires delayed appear, By those affairs, which profitable be Unto the public, though they hinder me; Since, whilst that thrives, I cannot be bereft Of all my hopes, nor comfortless be left, But, if I still perceive my suits delayed, Or crossed, for Private-ends; I am afraid My grievances, will make my Plaints outroare The Cries, of all the Women at your door. Preserve I would, according to my might, My Private-Freedomes, with our public-right; And, Wise-men will consider, that, unless They heed, sometime, a single-mans' distress, (At least in his extremes) that, one by one, The Generality may be undone; And, that, a bruise upon the smallest-toe May cause the bodies total overthrow. In me (although my sufferings are despised) The common-grievance, is epitomised; And, as, this day, the kingdom's Cause doth lie Distressed between two Factions, so do I; For, what some would have granted for my sake, Is crossed, for their sakes, who the motion make; And, that man, by no party groweth strong, Who sides not with it, both in Right, and Wrong. In all things which, undoubtedly appear, Unto my Conscience, I, to both adhere; And, do from neither, purposely dissent, To make a schism, or nourish discontent. I have in both, professed Foes and Friends; In both, I have some hopes, on both, some ends; But, without all designments upon either, Save, how I may unite them, both together, In such a Posture, as may free this Land From those destructions, that seem near at hand; And, woo them to be just, in every Action, Without respect to Friend, to Foe or Faction. Who e'er, among you, shall thus minded be, Whether he seem to love or malice me, Whether he be of th'one tother side, Whether my suits be granted or denied, By his endeavourings; it shall not wrest My thoughts, for any private interest, To murmur at him; so, he will befriend My suit so much, to bring it to an end: That, from your Labyrinths, I may retire; And, be again at leisure to inquire What will become of Me; and, what of Them, Who take the Courses, which I most contemn. For, to retreat, and gotten ground to yield, Is, otherwhile, the means to win a field; And, he that would turn Floods another way, Must dig his drain, before he builds his Bay. Heu; Temporum, praevaricati Mores! Quis, delegabit Misero favores? Quis, auscultabit Populi Clamores? Vel, quis pensabit Pauperum Dolores? Nemo, fert Opem, viro perituro; Sic ERAT, EST, ac ERIT in futuro; Vt olim, tamen, in haec Verba juro, Nec Habeo, nec Careo, nec Curo. Nec Habeo, quod visus sum habere; Nec Careo, quod multi caruêre, Nec Curo, quamvis devoratus ferè; Nam, Deo Vero, spem repono, verè. Which is in English to this effect. Oh! how corrupt this Age in manners grows! Who, to the Miserable, mercy shows? Who, on the people's cries, an ear bestows? Or, who compassionates the poor-man's woes? To succour the Distressed, none appear; Thus 'twas, thus 'tis; and thus I'm like to fare: Yet, as of old, this Motto, still, I bear; I neither have, nor want, nor do I care. I have not, what I had a while ago; I want not, that, which many others do; Nor care I, though I quite neglected grow; For, I in GOD confide, and will do so. A postscript. He, that hath Money to procure his ends, Needs neither strain his wits, nor tire his Friends. He, that hath Friends, his matters to contrive, May (though he hath nor Wit, nor Money) live. He, that hath Wit, and wants the former two, May live more richly, than he seems to do. He, that hath two of these, und wants but one, Can neither happy be, nor quite undone▪ He, that hath all of these, might be a King, If he could wish, to be so poor a thing: And, he that is deprived of all the three, May be an Englishman, for aught I see. FINIS