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The Connoisseur
and Other Stories
Books by
WALTER DE LA MARE
In Verse
POEMS (out of print)
THE LISTENERS AND OTHER POEMS
MOTLEY AND OTHER POEMS
FLORA
POEMS: IQOI-I918
THE VEIL aAnpD OTHER POEMS
SONGS OF CHILDHOOD
PEACOCK PIE
A CHILD’S DAY
COME HITHER!
AN ANTHOLOGY WITH NOTES
In Prose
HENRY BROCKEN
THE RETURN
THE RIDDLE AND OTHER TALES
MEMOIRS OF A MIDGET
THE CONNOISSEUR anp OTHER STORIES
THE THREE MULLA-MULGARS
BROOMSTICKS aND OTHER TALES
CROSSINGS (A Play for Children)
RUPERT BROOKS AND THE INe
TELLECTUAL IMAGINATION (4
Lecture)
e
CONNOISSEUR
le Se ER SEBS
¥.
NEW YORK MCMXXVI
ALF RED~-A- KNOPF
COPYRIGHT, 1926, BY WALTER DE LA MARE
MANUFACTURED IN THE UNITED STATES OF AMERIOA
Of the stories included in this volume “Mr.
Kempe” and “Pretty Poll” have appeared serially
in the London Mercury; and ““The Wharf” in the
Queen. The author makes his grateful acknowl-
edgments to the Editors of these periodicals.
CONTENTS
Mr. KEMPE
MIssING
THE CONNOISSEUR.
DISILLUSIONED
THe Nap
PRETTY POLL
AtL_ Hattows
THE WHARF
Tue Lost Track
The Connoisseur
and Other Stories
Mr. Kempe
T was a mild, clammy evening; and the
i| swing-door of the tap-room stood wide
open. The brass oil-lamp suspended
from the rafter had not yet been lit; a
small misty drizzle was drifting between
; the lime-washed walls and the over-
arching trees on the further side of the lane; and from
my stool at the counter I could commune—as often as I
felt inclined—with the wild white eye of the Blue Boar
which fleered in at the window from the hanging sign.
Autumnal scents, failing day, rain so gentle and per-
sistent—such phenomena as these have a slightly soporific
effect on the human consciousness. It is as though its
busy foreground first becomes blurred, then blotted out;
and then—the slow steady sweep of the panorama of
dream that never ceases its strange motioning. The ex-
perience is brief, I agree. The footlights, headlights, sky-
lights brighten again: the panorama retires!
Excluding the landlady, who occasionally waddled in
from her dusky retreat behind the bar, there were only
three of us in the tap-room—three chance customers now
met together for the first time: myself; a smallish man
with an unusually high crown to his head, and something
‘engagingly monkey-like in his face; and a barrel-shaped
person who sat humped up on a stool between us in an old
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Mr. Kempe
shooting-jacket and leather leggings, his small eyes set
close together on either side a red nose.
I had been the last to put in an appearance, but had
not, it seemed, damped anything in the nature of a con-
versation. Such weather does not conduce to it. But
three may be some sort of company where two is none;
and what, at last, set us more or less at our ease was an
“automatic machine’’ that stood in the corner of the tap-
room under a coloured lithograph of Shotover, the winner
of the Derby in 1882. It was a machine of an unusual
kind since it gave its patronisers nothing tangible for their
penny—not even their ladylove on a slip of cardboard, ora
clinging jet of perfume. |
It reminds me now of the old Miracle plays or Moral-
ities. Behind its glass it showed a sort of grotto, like a
whited sepulchre, with two compartments, over which
descended the tresses of a weeping willow. You slipped
a penny into the slot, and presently a hump-backed mom-
met in a rusty-black cowl jerked into view from the cell on
the left. He stood there a moment in the midst—fixedly
looking at you: then decamped into the gloom again.
But this was if your luck was out—or so I assumed.
If it was in, then a nymph attired in skirts of pink muslin
wheeled out of the flowery bower on the eastern side; and
danced a brief but impassioned pas seul.
My three pennies had brought me one fandango from
the latter and two prolonged scrutinies from the former
—a proportion decided on, no doubt, by the worldly-wise
manufacturer of the machine. But this was not all. In
intention at least he must have been a practical optimist.
For if the mwymph responded to your penny, you were in-
vited to slip yet another coin into another slot—but before
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you could count ten. This galvanised the young lady
into a giddy pursuit of the numbskull in the black hood—
a pursuit, however, which ended merely in the retirement
of them both behind the scenes.
The man in leggings had watched my experiments with
eyes almost as motionless as plums in a pudding. It was
my third penny that had wooed out the nymph. But the
“grandfather’s clock” in the corner had ticked loudly at
least five times before I managed to insert a fourth. It
was a moment of rapt—of an aching—excitement. What
a teeming passion showed itself in that wild horse-play
behind the glass! And then, alas, the machinery ceased to
whirr ; the clock ticked on; the faint rustle of the drifting
rain sounded once more at the open door; I returned to
my stool; and the landlady retired into her den.
“Bang goes fourpence,” I remarked a little sheepishly.
“Still, mine was about the right average, I suppose.”
The man in the leather leggings—as if the problem were
not for his solution—at once turned his little eyes towards
our companion in the corner, whose face was still wreathed
with the friendliest of grimaces at my efforts.
“Well, now,” he took me up, “I’m not so sure. In my
view, that minx there sidles out too often. Most young
men and more old ones would be content with once in six.
I would myself. It’s our credulity. We live on hopes,
however long they may be deferred. We live, as you
might say; but how many of us learn? How many of us
want to make sure?” He paused for an answer: his small
eyes fixed in his face. “Not one in a million,” he uc-
cided.
I stole another look into the narrow darkness of the
‘Young Lady’s Bower.
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“Oh,” he interrupted, “I wasn’t thinking merely of the
‘eternal feminine,’ as they call it. That’s only one of the
problems; though even an answer to that might be in-
teresting. There’s Free Will, for example; there’s Moral
Responsibility ; and such little riddles as where we all come
from and where we are going to. Why, we don’t even
know what we are—in ourselves, Imean. And how many
of us have tried to find out?”
The man in leggings withdrew his stare and groped out
a hand towards his pint-pot. ‘Have you?” he enquired.
The dark-eyed, wizened face lit up once more with its
curiously engaging smile. “Well, you see, I was once a
schoolmaster, and from an official point of view, I sup-
pose, it is part of the job. To find answers, mean. But,
as you'll agree, we temporise; we compromise. On the
other hand, I once met quite by chance, as we call it, a
man who had spent I should guess a good many years on
that last problem. All by himself, too. You might almost
describe it as a kind of pilgrimage—though I’m not
anxious to repeat it. It was my turn for a lesson.”
“And what was fis solution?’ I inquired.
“Have you ever been to Porlock—the Weir?” the little
man enquired.
I shook my head.
“TI mention Porlock,” he went on, ‘“‘because if you had.
ever been there, the place I’m thinking of might perhaps
call it to mind. Though mine was on a different scale—a
decidedly different scale. I doubt, for example, if it will
ever become one of those genial spots frequented by week-
end tourists and chars-d-banc. In the days I’m speaking
of—twenty years or more ago—there wasn’t even the
rudiments of an inn in the place. Only a beershop about
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half the size of this tap-room, with a population to match
—just a huddle of fishermen’s cottages tucked in under
the cliff.
“T was walking at the time, covering unfamiliar ground,
and had managed to misread my map. My aim had been
to strike into a cliff-path that runs more or less parallel
with the coast ; but I had taken the wrong turn at the cross-
roads. Once astray, it seemed better manners to keep on.
How can you tell what chance may have secreted in her
sleeve, even when you don’t put pennies in slots?
“I persuaded an old lady to give me tea at one of the
cottages, and asked my way. Visitors were rare events,
it seemed. At first she advised me to turn back; I couldn’t
do better than that. But after further questioning, she
told me at last of a lower cliff track or path, some miles
apparently this side of the one I had in view. She marked
it out for me with her rheumatic old forefinger on the
table-cloth. Follow this path far enough, I gathered, it
would lead me into my right road at last.
“Not that she suggested my making the attempt. By
no means. It was a matter of seven miles or more. And
neither the natives of the village nor even chance visitors,
it seemed, were tempted to make much use of this partic-
ular route.”
“Why not?” enquired the man in leggings, and im-
mediately coughed, as if he had thought better of it.
“That’s what I am coming to,” replied the schoolmaster
—as though he had been lying in wait for the question.
“You see my old lady had volunteered her last piece of
information with a queerish look in her eyes—like some
shy animal slipping into cover. She was telling me the
truth, but not, I fancied, the whole truth.
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“Naturally I acked what was wrong with the path; and
was there anything of interest on the way or at the end
of it—worth such a journey? Once more she took a long
slow look at me, as if my catechism were rather more
pressing than the occasion warranted. There was a some-
thing marked on the map, she had been given to under-
stand—‘just an old, ancient building, like.’
“Sure enough there was: though unfortunately, long
wear of the one I carried had not only left indecipherable
more than an old English letter or two of any record of
it, but had rubbed off a square half-mile or so of the
country round about it.
“It was proving a little irksome to draw Truth out of
her well, and when innocently enough I asked if there
Was any one in charge of the place, the old lady was
obviously disconcerted. She didn’t seem to think it needed
being taken charge of ; though she confessed at last that a
house ‘not nearly so old, sir, you will understand,’ stood
near-by, in which lived a gentleman of the name of
Kempe.
“It was easier sailing now that we had come to Mr.
Kempe. The land, it appeared, including the foreshore
—but apart from the chapel—had been in his family since
the beginning of time. Mr. Kempe himself had formerly
been in the church—conformist or otherwise—and had
been something of a traveller, but had returned home with
an invalid wife many years before.
“Mrs. Kempe was dead now; and there had been no
children, ‘none, at least, as you would say grew up to
what might be called living.” And Mr. Kempe himself
had not only been ailing for some little time, but might,
for all my informant knew apparently, be dead himself.
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Nevertheless, there was still a secretive look in the faded
eyes—almost as if she believed Mr. Kempe had discovered
little methods of his own against the onsets of mortality!
Anyhow, she.couldn’t tell; nobody ever went that way
now, so far as she was aware. There was the new road
up above. What’s more, tidings of Mr. Kempe’s end, I
gathered, however solitary, would not exactly put the vil-
lage into mourning.
“It was already latish afternoon; and in that windless
summer weather walking had been a rather arduous form
of amusement. I was tired. A snowy low-pitched upper-
room overlooking the sea was at my disposal if I wanted
it for a night or two. And yet, even while I was follow-
ing this good soul up her n-rrow staircase, I had already
decided to push on in the direction of Mr. Kempe. If
need be, I would come back that evening. Country people
are apt to be discreet with strangers—however open in ap-
pearance. Those shrewd old eyes—when at least they
showed themselves—had hinted that even with an inch to
the mile a map-maker cannot exhaust a countryside. The
contours, I had noticed, were unusual. Besides, Mr.
Kempe was not less likely to be interesting company be-
cause he was a recluse.
“T put down five shillings on account for my room, and
the kindly old creature laid them aside in an ornament on
her mantelpiece. There they lie still, for all I know. I
have never reclaimed them.”
The man in leggings once more turned his large shape-
less face towards the schoolmaster, but this time he made
no audible comment.
“And did you find Mr. Kempe?” I enquired.
The schoolmaster smiled, looking more like a philan-
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thropic monkey than ever. “I set out at once: watched by
the old lady from her porch, until, with a wave of my hand
for adieu, I turned out of the village street, and she was
hidden from sight. There was no mistaking the path—
even though it led off over a stile into a patch of stinging-
nettles, and then past a boggy goose-pond.
“After a few hundred yards it began to dip towards the
shore, keeping more or less level with the sea for a mile
or so until it entered a neat and sandy cove—the refuge
even in summer of all sorts of flotsam and sea-rubbish;
and a positive maelstrom, I should imagine, when the
winter gales sweep in. ‘Towards the neck of this cove the
wheel-marks in the thin turf faded out, and the path
meandered on for a while beside a brook and under some
fine ash trees, then turned abruptly to the right, and almost
due north. The bleached bows of a tarred derelict boat
set up on end and full of stones—The Orion—was my last
touch with civilisation.
“It was a quiet evening; the leaves and grasses shone
green and motionless, the flowers standing erect on their
stalks under the blue sky, as if carved out of wax. The
air was uncommonly sweet, with its tang of the sea. Tak-
ing things easy like this, it was well worth while to be
alive. I sat down and rested, chewing a grass-stalk and
watching the friendly lapping sea. Then up and on.
“After about an hour’s steady walking, the path be-
gan once more to ascend. It had by now led shorewards
again, though I was softly plodding on out of sight and all
but out of sound of the tide. Dense neglected woods
rose on either side of me, and though wherever the sun
could pierce in there were coverts in plenty, hardly a cry
of insect or bird stirred the air. To all intents I might
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Mr. Kempe
have been exploring virgin country. Now and again in-
deed the fallen bole of a tree or matted clumps of bramble,
briony, and traveller’s joy compelled me to make a wid-
ish detour. But I was still steadily ascending, and the
view tended at length to become more and more open;
with here and there a patch of bright green turf and a
few scrub bushes of juniper or sprouting tamarisk.
“Shut in as I had been, until this moment it had been
difficult to guess how far above me the actual plateau lay,
or precisely how far below, the sea—though I had caught
distant glimpses now and again of its spreading silver and
the far horizon. Even at this point it would have been
flattery to call the track a path. The steeper its incline,
the more stony and precarious became one’s footing. And
then at last I rounded the first of a series of bluffs or
headlands, commanding a spectacular view of the coast be-
hind me, though nothing of what lay in front.
“The tiny village had vanished. About a hundred and
fifty feet beneath the steep on whose margin I was stand-
ing—with a flaming bush of gorse here and there, and an
occasional dwarf oak as gray as silk in the evening light
—the incoming tide gently mumbled against its rocks,
rocks of a peculiar patchy green and black.
“T took another look at my map, enjoyed a prolonged
‘breather,’ and went on. Steadily up and inward now and
almost due north-west. And once more untended thickets
rose dense on either side, and the air was oppressed with
a fragrance sickly as chloroform. Some infernal winter
tempest or equinoctial gale must have lately played havoc
here. Again and again I had to clamber over the bole
or through the head-twigs of monster trees felled by
the wind, and still studded with a few sprouting post-
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mortem pale-green buds. It was like edging between this
world and the next.
“Apart, too, from the gulls with their saturnine gabbling,
and flights of clanging oyster-catchers on the rocks below,
what birds I saw were birds of prey: buzzards and kestrels
chiefly, suspended as if by a thread from space, their small
heads stooping between their quivering wings. And once
I overheard what I took to be the cough of a raven to its
mate. About twenty minutes afterwards, my second bluff
hove into sight. And I paused for a while, staring at it.
“For ordinary purposes I have a fairly good head. And
yet I confess that before venturing further I took a pro-
longed look at this monster and at the faint patternings of
the path that lay before me, curving first in, then out,
along and across the face of the cliff, and just faintly etch-
ing its precipitous surface as it edged out of sight. It’s
a foolish thing perhaps to imagine oneself picked out
clean against the sky on a precipitous slope—if, that is,
you mean to put the fancy into action. You get a sort
of double-barrelled view of your mortal body crouching
there semi-erect, little better than a framework of bones.
“Not that there was as yet any positive risk or danger.
The adventure would have been child’s play, no doubt,
even for an amateur mountaineer. You had only to pick
your way, keeping a sharp eye on the loose stones, and—
to avoid megrims—skirting round the final curve without
pausing to look up or to look down. A modest man might
possibly try all fours. Still, after that, it did not surprise
me to remember that visitors to these parts had usually
preferred some other method of reaching the road and
country up above. Pleasure may be a little over-spiced
with excitement.”
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“Steep, eh?” ejeculated the man in leggings.
“Yes, steep,” replied the schoolmaster; “though taken
as mere scenery,” he continued, “there was nothing to
find fault with. Leagues and leagues of sea stretched out
to the vague line of the horizon like an immense plate,
mottled green and blue. A deep pinkish glow, too, had
begun to spread over the eastern skies, mantling up into
heights of space made the more abysmal in appearance by
wisps of silver cirrus.
“Now and again I lay back with my heels planted on
what was left of the path, and rested a moment, staring
up into that infinity. Now and again I all but decided to
go back. But sheer curiosity to see the mysterious
hermitage of which I had heard, and possibly the shame
of proving myself yet another discredited visitor, lured
me on. Solitude, too, is like deepening water to a swim-
mer: that also lures you on. Except for an occasional
bloated, fork-tailed, shrimp-like insect that showed itself
when a flake of dislodged stone went scuttering down into
the abyss below, I was the only living creature abroad.
Once more I pushed cautiously forward. But it was an
evil-looking prospect, and the intense silence of the evening
produced at last a peculiar sense of unreality and isola-
tion. My universe seemed to have become a mere picture
—and I out of place init. It was as if I had been mis-
laid and forgotten.
“T hung by now, I suppose, about two or three hundred
feet above the sea; and maybe a hundred or so beneath the
summit of the wall which brushed my left elbow. Wind-
worn boulders, gently whispered over by saplings of ash
or birch, jutted shallowly here and there above and be-
low me. Marine plants lifted their wind-bitten flowers
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from inch-wide ledges on which their seeds had somehow
found a lodging. The colours mirrored in sky and water
increased in brilliance and variety as the sunset advanced,
though here was only its reflection; and the flat ocean be-
neath lapped soundlessly on; its cream-like surf fringing
here and there the very base of the cliff, beneath which,
like antediluvian monsters, vast rocks lay drowsing. I
refrained from examining them too closely.
“But even ii—minute intrusive mote that I was, creep-
ing across the steep of wall—even if I had been so in-
clined, there was little opportunity. ‘Though for centuries
wind, frost and rain had been gnawing and fretting to
some purpose at the face of the cliff, sure foothold and
finger-hold became ever more precarious. An occasional
ringing reverberation from far below suggested, too, that
even the massive bulk of rock itself might be honeycombed
to its foundations. What once had been a path was now
the negation of one. And the third prodigious bluff to-
wards which I presently found myself slowly, almost
mechanically, advancing, projected into space as a knife-
like angle; cut sharp in gigantic silhouette against the
skies.
“TI made a bewildering attempt to pretend to be casual
and cheerful—even to whistle. But my lips were dry,
and breath or courage failed me. None the less I had
contrived to approach within twenty yards or so of that
last appalling precipice, when, as if a warning voice had
whispered the news in my ear, I suddenly realised the
predicament I was in. To turn back now was impossible.
Nor had I a notion of what lay on the further side of the
headland. For a few instants my bones and sinews re-
belled against me, refusing to commit themselves to the
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least movement. I could do no more than cling spasmod-
ically with my face to the rock.
“But to hang there on and on and wither like an
autumnal fly was out of the question. One single hour of
darkness, one spinning puff of wind, would inevitably dis-
lodge me. But darkness was some hours distant; the
evening was of a dead calm; and I thanked my stars there
was no sun to roast and confuse me with his blaze and
heat. I thanked my stars—but where would my carcass
be when those stars began to show themselves in the com-
ing night? All this swept through my mind in an in-
stant. Complete self-possession was the one thing need-
ful. I realised that too. And then a frightful cold came
over me; sweat began to pour off my body; the very soul
within me became sick with fear.
“T use the word soul because this renewed nausea was
something worse than physical. I was a younger man
then, and could still in the long run rely on nerve and
muscle, but fear turns one’s blood to water—that terror
of the spirit, and not merely of the mind or instinct. It
_ bides its moment until the natural edges off into—into
the unknown.
“Not that Nature, as we call her, even in the most con-
genial surroundings, is the sort of old family nurse that
makes one’s bed every morning, and tucks one up with a
‘God bless you’ overnight. Like the ants and aphides and
the elvers and the tadpoles, she produces us humans in
millions; leaving us otherwise to our own devices. We
can’t even guess what little stratagems for the future she
may be hiding up her sleeve. We can’t even guess. But
that’s a mere commonplace. After all, so far as we can
prove, she deserves only a small ‘n’ to her name. |
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Mr. Kempe
“What I’m suggesting is merely that though she ap-
peared to have decoyed me into this rat-trap with all her
usual artlessness, she remained a passive enemy, and what
now swathed me in like a breath of poison—as, with face,
palms, knees and belly pressed close against the rock, I
began once more working softly on from inch-wide ledge
and inch-deep weed, my tongue like tinder, my eyes seem-
ing to magnify every glittering atom they tried to focus
—was the consciousness of some power or influence be-
yond Nature’s. It was not so much of death—and I
actually with my own eyes saw my body inertly hurtling to
its doom beneath—that I was afraid. What terrified me
beyond words to express was some positive presence here
in a more desperate condition even than I. I was being
waylaid.
“When you come to such a pass as this, you lose count
of time. I had become an automaton—little better than
a beetle obeying the secret dictates of what I believe they
call the Life-Urge; and how precisely I contrived to face
and to circumnavigate that last bit of precipice, I cannot
recall. But this once done, in a few minutes I was in
comparative safety. I found myself sluggishly creep-
ing again along a path which had presently widened
enough to allow me to turn my face outwards from the
rock, and even to rest. And even though the precipice
beneath me was hardly less abrupt and enormous, and the
cliff-face above actually overhung my niche, for the time
being I was out of physical danger. I was, as they say,
my own man again; had come back. :
“It was high time. My skull seemed to have turned
to ice; I was wet through; my finger-nails were split; my
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hands covered with blood; and my clothes would have dis-
graced a tramp.
“But all trace of fear had left me, and what now swept
my very wits away in this almost unendurable reaction
was the sheer beauty of the scene that hung before my
eyes. Half reclining, not daring yet to stir, my out-
stretched hands clasping two knobs of rocks, my eyeballs
gently moving to and fro, I sat there and feasted on the
amazing panorama spread out before me; realising none
the less that I was in the presence of something—how can
I express it?—of something a little different from,
stranger and less human than—well, our old friend Na-
ture.
“The whole face of this precipice was alight with colour
—dazzling green and orange, drifts of snow and purple—
campion, sea-pink, may-weed, samphire, camomile, lichen,
stonecrop, with fleshy and aromatic plants that I knew not
even the names of, sweeping down drift beyond drift
into a narrow rock-bound tranquil bay of the darkest
emerald and azure, and then sweeping up once more drift
beyond drift into the vault of the sky, its blue fretted
over as if by some master architect with silvery inter-
lacings, a scattered feather-like fleece of vapour.
“The steady cry too, possibly amplified by echo, of
the incoming tide reached me here once more; a whisper
and yet not toneless. And on and on into the distance
swept the gigantic coast line, crowned summit to base
with its emerald springtide woods.
“Still slightly intoxicated as I was by the terror and
danger in which I had been, and which were now for the
moment past and gone, I gave myself ample opportunity
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to rest and to drink in this prodigious spectacle. And yet,
as I lay there, still at a dizzy altitude, midway between
sea and sky but in perfect safety, the odd conviction per-
sisted, that though safe, I was not yet secure. It was as
if I were still facing some peril of the mind, and absurd
and irrational though it may sound there was a vague dis-
quieting hint within me of disappointment—as if I had
lost without realising it a unique opportunity. And yet,
all this medley of hints and intuitions was wholly sub-
sidiary to the conviction that from some one point in
all this vacancy around me a steady devouring gaze was
fixed on me—that I was being watched.”
Once more our hard-headed friend fidgeted uneasily
on his stool.
“It sounds absurd, I agree,” the schoolmaster caught
him up. “Simply because, apart from the seabirds and
the clouds, I had been and was still the only moving ob-
ject within view. The sudden apparition of me crawling
around that huge nose of rock must have been as con-
spicuous as it was absurd. Besides, myriads of concealed
eyes in the dense forest towering conically up on the
other side of the narrow bay beneath me, and looming
ever more mistily from headland to headland towards
the north and west, could have watched my every move-
ment. A thousand arrows from unseen archers con-
cealed on the opposing heights might at any instant have
transfixed me where I lay. One becomes conscious, too,
of the sort of empty settled stare which fixes an intruder
into such solitudes. It is at the same time vacant, enor-
mous and hostile.
“But I don’t mean that. I still mean something far
more definite—and more dangerous, too, than that; and
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I keep to it even if this precise memory may have been
affected by what came after. For I was soon to learn
that in actual fact I was being watched; and by as acute
and unhuman a pair of eyes as I have ever seen in mor-
tal head.
“With infinite caution I rose to my feet again at last,
and continued my journey. The path grew steadily
easier; soil succeeded to bare rock, and this must not
very long before, I discovered, have been trodden by
other human feet than mine. There were marks of
hobnails between its tussocks of grass and moss and
thrift.
“It presently descended a little, and then in a while,
from out of the glare of the evening, I found myself
entering a broader and heaviiy-shaded track leading
straight onwards and tunnelling inland into the woods.
It was, to my amazement, close on eight o’clock, and too
late to dream of turning back, even if I could have per-
suaded myself to face again the experience of the last
half-hour. Yet whatever curiosity might say for itself,
I felt a peculiar disinclination to forge ahead. The bait
had ceased to be enticing.
“T paused once more under the dismal funnel of green-
ery in which I found myself staring at the face of my
watch, and then had another look at the map. A min-
ute or two’s scrutiny assured me that straight ahead was
my only possible course. And why not? There was
company ahead. In this damp soil the impressions of
the hob-nailed shoes showed more clearly. Quite recently
those shoes must have come and gone along this path
on three separate occasions at least. Mine had been a
rather acutely solitary excursion, and yet for the life of
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me I had not the smallest desire to meet the maker of
those footprints.
“In less than half-an-hour, however, I came to a stand-
still beneath ‘the old, ancient building, like’ that had once
been marked on my map. And an uncompanionable sight
it was. Its walls lay a little back from the green track
in what appeared to be a natural clearing, or amphitheatre,
though at a few yards distance huge pines, in shallow ris-
ing semi-circles, hemmed it in. In shape it was all but
circular; and must once no doubt have been a wayside
hermitage or cell. It was of stone and was surmounted
by a conical roof of thick and heavy slabs, at the south
side of which rose a minute bell-cote, and towards the
east a stunted stone cross, with one of its arms broken
away.
“The round arched door—its chevron edging all but
defaced—refused to open. Nothing was to be seen in
the gloom beyond its gaping keyhole. There was but
one narrow slit of window, and this was beyond my
reach. I could not even guess the age of this forbidding
yet beautiful thing, and the gentleman—as I found after-
wards—who had compiled the local guide-book had
omitted to mention it altogether. Here and there in its
fabric had begun to show itself, but clumsy efforts had
been made at repair.
“In that deep dark verdurous silence, unbroken even
by drone or twitter, the effect of those walls in their
cold minute simplicity was peculiarly impressive. They
seemed to strike a solemn chill into the air around them
—those rain-stained senseless stones. And what looked
like a kind of derelict burial-ground to the south side of
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it only intensified its sinister aspect. No place surely for
when the slow dark hours begin.
“The graves were very few in number, and only one
name was decipherable on any of the uncouth and half-
buried headstones. Two were mere mounds in the
nibbled turf. I had drawn back to survey once more
from this new aspect the walls beyond, when—from one
instant to the next, so to speak—lI became aware of the
presence of Mr. Kempe. He was standing a few paces
distant, his gaze in my direction—as unexpected an ap-
parition as that of Banquo in Macbeth. Not even a
robin could have appeared with less disturbance of its
surroundings. Not a twig had snapped, not a leaf had
rustled.
“He looked to be a man of about sixty or more, in his
old greenish-black half-clerical garb, his trousers lapping
concertina-like over immense ungainly boots. An an-
tiquated black straw hat was on his head. From _ be-
neath it gray hair flowed out a little on either side the
long colourless face with its straggling beard. His eyes
were clear as water—the lids unusually wide apart—and
they had the peculiarity, perceptible even at this distance,
of not appearing to focus what their attention was fixed
upon. That attention was fixed upon me as a matter of
fact, and, standing as I was, with head turned in his
direction, we so remained, closely regarding one another
for what seemed to be a matter of hours rather than of
moments.
“It was I who broke the silence with some affectedly-
casual remark about the weather and the interestingness
of the relic that stood, something like a huge mushroom
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of stone, near-by. The voice that sounded in answer was
even more astonishing than Mr. Kempe himself. It
seemed to proceed from a throat rusty from want of use,
and carried a kind of vibrant glassy note in it, like the
clash of fine glass slightly cracked. At first I could not
understand what he said. The sound of it reminds me
now of Alexander Selkirk when his rescuers found him
in Juan Fernandez. They said he spoke his words by
halves, you'll remember. So did Mr. Kempe. They
sounded like relics of a tongue as ancient as the unknown
hermit’s chapel beside which we had met.
“Still, I was myself as nervous as a cat. With all his
oddities—those wide, colourless eyes, those gestures, that
over-loud voice, there was nothing hostile, nothing even
discourteous in his manner, and he did not appear to be
warning me off as a trespasser. Indeed the finger wag-
ging at me in the air was clearly beckoning me on. Not
that I had any keen inclination to follow. I preferred to
go on watching him, and attempted to mark time by once
more referring to the age and architecture of the chapel
—asked him at last pointblank if it were now ‘too late to
beg the courtesy of a glance inside.
“The evening light momentarily brightened above the
dark spreading tops of the pines and struck down full on
this queer shape with its engrossed yet vacant face. His
eyes never faltered, their pin-prick pupils fixed in their
almost hueless irises. Reflected thus, I seemed to be an
object of an extremely limited significance—a mere speck
floating in their intense inane. The eyes of the larger
cats and the hawk-tribe have a similar effect; and yet one
could hardly assert that their prey has no significance for
them!
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“He made no attempt to answer my questions, but ap-
peared to be enquiring, in turn, how I had contrived to
invade his solitude; what I wanted, in short. I was con-
vinced none the less that he was deceiving me. He
knew well how I had come: for, of course, meeting as we
had, only one way had been possible—that from the sea.
“It might be impolitic to press the matter. I merely
suggested that my journey had not been ‘roses all the
way, that I must get back to the world above before
nightfall; and once more gave him to understand my
innocent purpose—the desire to examine this curious
relic. His gaze wandered off to the stone hermitage, re-
turned, and then as if in stealth, rested an instant in-
tently on my hands. Otherwise he remained perfectly
motionless: his long knotted fingers hanging down out
of the sleeves of a jacket too short for his gaunt body
and those ineffable clumsy rusty boots.
“The air in this green niche of the bay was stagnant
with the scent of foliage and flowers; and so magically
dark and clear it was as though you were in the presence
of a dream. Or of a dreamer indeed—responsible not
only for its beauty, but also for its menacing influence on
the mind. All this, however, only convinced me the more
of the necessity to keep my attention steadily fixed on the
figure beside me. There was a something, an aura, about
him difficult to describe. It was as if he himself were a
long way off from his body—though that’s pure non-
sense, of course. As the phrase goes—he was not all
there. Once more his eyes met mine, and the next thing
that occurred to me was that I had never seen a human
countenance that betrayed so desperate a hunger. But
for what? It was impossible to tell.
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“He was pressing me to follow him. I caught the word
‘key’; and he at once led the way. With a prolonged re-
luctant look behind me—that antiquated cell of stone;
those gigantic pines; the few sinking mounds clad in their
fresh green turf—I turned in my tracks; and the glance
he cast at me over his shoulder was intended, I gathered,
as a smile of encouragement.
“The straggling gabled house to which he conducted
me, with its low tower and smokeless chimneys now
touched with the last cold red of sunset, was almost more
windows than wall. The dark glass of their casements
showed like water in its discoloured sides. Beyond it
the ravine ascended ever more narrowly, and the house
rested here in this green gap like a mummy long since
deserted by its ghost.
“We crossed a cobbled courtyard, and Mr. Kempe pre-
ceded me up a wooden flight of stairs into a low-ceiled
room with one all but ivy-blinded window, and, oddly
enough, a stone floor. Except for the space where hung
the faded portrait of what appeared to be a youngish
woman, her hair dressed in ringlets, bookshelves covered
the walls. Books lay hugger-mugger everywhere, in-
deed: on the table, on the chairs, on the floor, and even
piled into the chimney of the rusty grate. The place was
fusty with their leather bindings, and with damp.
“They had evidently been both well-used and neglected.
There was little opportunity to get the general range of
their titles—though a complete row of them I noticed
were in Latin—because some vague intuition compelled
me to keep my attention fixed upon my host. He had
motioned me to a chair, and had seated himself on an-
other that was already topped with two or three folios.
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It must have been even at midday a gloomy room; and
owing to its situation it was a dark house. The door
having admitted us, stood open; beyond it yawned the
silent staircase.”
At this the schoolmaster paused; the landlady of the
Blue Boar had once more emerged, and, like one man,
we shametacedly pushed our three glasses across the
counter.
“And what happened then?” I enquired.
At this the man in leggings slightly turned his tortoise-
like head in my direction, as if its usual resort was beneath
a shell.
The schoolmaster watched the shape of the landlady
till it had vanished into the dusk beyond. “Mr. Kempe
began talking to me,” he said. “Rapidly and almost in-
coherently at first, but gradually slowing down till I could
understand more or less what he was saying. He was ex-
plaining, a little unnecessarily as I fancied, that he was
a recluse; that the chapel was not intended for public —
worship; that he had few visitors; that he was a scholar
and therefore was in need of little company but his books.
He swept his long arm towards these companions of his
leisure. The little light that silted through the window
struck down across his tousled head, just touching his
brow and cheekbones as he talked. And then in the midst
of this harangue he suddenly came to an end, and asked
me if I had been sent there. I assured him that I had
come of my own free will, and would he oblige me be-
~ fore we returned to the chapel, with a glass of water.
He hesitated.
“ ‘Water?’ he repeated. ‘Oh, water? And then with
a peculiar gesture he crossed the room and shut the
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door after him. His boots beat as hollowly on the stairs
as sticks on a tom-tom. I heard the creaking of a pump-
handle, and in a moment he reappeared carrying a blue-
lined cup without a handle. With a glance at the portrait
over my head, I drank its ice-cold contents at a gulp, and
pushed the cup in between two dogs-eared books.
““T want to get back to the road up above,’ I explained.
“This seemed to reassure him. He shut his mouth and
sat gazing atme. ‘Ah! The road up above!’
“Then, ‘Why?’ he suddenly almost bawled at me, as if
I were sitting a long way off. His great hands were
clasped on his angled knees, his body bolt upright.
“Why what? |
““Why have you come here? What is there to spy
out? This is private property. What do you do—for
a living? What’s the use of it all?
“It was an unusual catechism—from stranger to
stranger. But I had just escaped an unpleasant death,
and could afford to be indulgent. Besides, he was
years and years older than I. I told him that I was
a schoolmaster, on vacation, not thinking it necessary to
add that owing to a small legacy I was out of a job at
the time. JI said I was merely enjoying myself.
““Enjoying yourself! And you teach!’ he cried with
a snap of his jaw. ‘And what do you teach? Silly,
suffocating lies, I suppose; or facts, as you prefer to call
them.’ He drew his hand down his long colourless face,
and I stole a glance towards the door. ‘If human beings
are mere machines, well and good,’ he went on. ‘But
supposing, my young friend, they are not mere machines ?
Supposing they have souls in their bodies; what then?
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Supposing you have a soul in your body: what then?
Ay, and the proof; the proof!”
The schoolmaster’s face puckered up once more into
a genial smile.
“I won’t attempt,’ he went on, “to repeat word for
word the talk I had that evening. I can give only the
gist of it. But I had stumbled pretty abruptly, you'll
notice, on Mr. Kempe’s King Charles’s head. And he
presented me with it on a charger. He was possessed, I
gathered, by one single aim, thought and desire. All
these years of his ‘retirement’ had apparently been spent
in this one quest to prove Man’s possession of ‘Soul.’
Certain doubts in my mind sprang up a little later in the
evening, but it was clear from the beginning that in pur-
suit of this he had spared neither himself nor the wife
that was gone. It was no less clear that he was entirely
incapable of what better brains, no doubt, would have con-
sidered a scientific treatment of his theme.
“He thrust into my hand a few chapters of a foolscap
manuscript that lay on the table—a fly-blown mirky pile
of paper at least eighteen inches high. Never have I seen
anything to which the term ‘reading-maiter’ seemed more
appropriate. The ink was faded on the top page; it was
stained as if with tea. This work was entitled briefly,
‘The Soul’—though the sub-title that followed it would
not have disgraced the author of the ‘Anatomy.’
“I could follow no more than a line or two at a time
of the crazy hand-writing. The pages were heavily in-
terscored, annotated and revised, not only in pencil but
in violet and in red ink. A good part of it appeared to
be in Latin and Hebrew, and other inactive tongues.
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But turning them over at haphazard I caught such page-
headings as ‘Contemplation’; ‘Dreams’; ‘Flagellation’;
‘Cadaver’; ‘Infancy.’ I replaced the sheets a little
gingerly on the table; though one mustn't, of course,
judge, of the merits of a work by the appearance of it
in MS.
“The desolation of its author’s looks and his abrupt-
ness of manner thinned away awhile as he warmed to his
subject. But it was not so much his own sufferings in
the cause as the thought of what Mrs. Kempe’s last few
years on earth must have been to her, that made me an
attentive listener. Hers must indeed have proved a
lingering death. He had never left her side, I gathered,
for weeks at a time, except to tend his patch of garden,
and to prepare their niggardly meals. And as her body
had wasted, poor soul, his daily inquisition, his daily
probings had become ever more urgent and desperate.
“There was no doubt in the world that this afflicted
old man had loved his wife. The softening of the vacant
inhuman eyes as he told me of that last deathbed colloquy
was enough to prove that. Maybe it was in part be-
cause of this affection that mere speculation had sharp-
ened into what they call an idée fixe. Still, I hardly think
so. More probably the insidious germ had shared his
cradle. And after all, some degree of conviction on the
subject is not out of place in men of his cloth. He had
abandoned his calling indeed, he was assuring me, solely
as a proof of his zeal!
“He showed me also one or two late photographs of
Mrs. Kempe—taken with his own antiquated camera, and
‘developed’ maybe in this very room. Soul indeed!
There was little else. The face mirkily represented in
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them wore a peculiar remote smile. The eyes had been
hollowly directed towards the round leather cap of the
machine. And so fallen were the features, now fading
away on the discoloured paper, they might as well have
been the presentment of a ghost.
“What precise proofs he had actually demanded of this
companion of his hermitage I cannot even guess. And
what proofs might he still be pleading for, pursuing?
Evidently none as yet had satisfied his craving. But it
was at least to his credit that his own personal experiments
—experiments on himself, I mean—had been as drastic.
In one of them I had unwittingly shared. For the cliff
path, I discovered, had long been his constant penance.
A catlike foot was concealed beneath those Brobdingnagian
boots. His had been the hand that had not only helped
Nature protect her fastnesses, but had kept off all but
one or two occasional stragglers as fatuous as myself.
“Tt had been his haunt, this path—day and night. He
questioned the idle heavens there. In the face of a peril
so extreme the spirit wins almost to the point of severance
from its earthly clay. Night and a half-moon and the
northern constellations—I could at least in fancy share his
vigils there. Only an occasional ship ventures into sight
of that coast, but almost any day, it seemed, during these
_last few years a good spy-glass might have discerned
from its decks a human shape facing the Infinite from that
appalling eyrie.
“Both delusions and illusions, too, are rapid breeders.
Which of the two, I wondered—still wonder—was this
old man’s conviction—the conviction, I mean, that one is
likely to be more acutely conscious of the spirit within
when the body is suspended, as it were, from the lintel of
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death’s door. What dreams may come in such circum-
stances every true-blue psychologist no doubt would
merely pooh-pooh. Still, after all, Mr. Kempe had been
something of a pioneer in this inquest. He had not
spared himself. He could not live by faith, it seemed.
“He must indeed again and again have come uncommonly
near dying in the pursuit of it.
“He had fasted moreover, and was now little more
than a mere frame of bones within his outlandish clothes.
Those boots of his—they kept forcing themselves on my
attention—a worse fit than any worn by some homesick
desperate soldier clambering ‘over the top’ in the Great
War. They stuck in my mind.
“You don’t seem to realise—you folk out there don’t
seem to realise’ he suddenly began shouting at me, ‘that
nothing in this world is of the slightest importance com-
pared with a Yes or No to what I ask. If we are noth-
ing more than the brutes that perish—and no sign ever
comes from them, I may tell you—then let us perish, I
say. Let fire descend from Heaven and shrivel us up.
I care not in what cataclysm of horror. I have passed
them all. I am suggesting no blasphemy. I make no
challenge; no denial—merely a humble plodder, my
dear sir. But no! Nothing. Nothing. Nothing. Not
a word.’ He lifted himself out of his chair, opened the
door, looked out and came back again.
“I disapprove’—he brandished his outspread fingers
at me—‘I disapprove absolutely of peering and prying.
Your vile pernicious interferences with the natural mys-
teries which we as humanity inherited from the old Adam
—away with them! I declare I am a visitor here. I
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declare that this——he swept his hand down his meagre
carcase,—‘this is my mere tenancy. All that I seek in
the simplest proof.
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ture so far as she was concerned Bysshe was entirely at
liberty to enjoy the delights of the company he had
chosen, and which for some time past he had evidently
preferred to hers. And that now at any rate he would
no longer be taunted regarding it when it wasn’t there.
She had a raucous voice, and it was, I gathered, a bit of
feminine sarcasm; something like that.
“And Bysshe knew pretty well what it meant. He
knew that his voices, devilish and seraphic, were now for
ever silent: that their murderess was there. He sat down
without answering. Mad dogs’ teeth are notoriously
dangerous, Miss Sturgess went on to remark; did Bys-
she know if parrots’ were? And still, I gathered, he made
no reply. He just sat there, paying no attention, as if al-
most he had taken lessons in endurance from his late pet.
“And then, his friend seems to have walked—or so
at least I see her—in a kind of prowling semi-circle round
him, with eyes fixed on his face, and so out of the door.
And then down the echoing shallow wooden staircase, and
into the cobbled courtyard, and under the thinning plane-
tree, and out into London—en route, at last, poor soul,
for the boarding-house in Ramsgate.”
“And where did Bysshe bury the thing?’ enquired
Stella, as if sick to death of being satirical.
“T never asked him that,” said Tressider calmly. “Nor,
so far as I have heard, did he ever catechise the desolate
one regarding which precise item of the two counts of
the indictment had induced her to wring the parrot’s
neck. Probably the bel canto, for I don’t believe myself
that a woman much cares what company the man she
is in love with keeps provided that it is not too good for
her.”
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At this, apparently, Judy had sat bolt upright in her
chair, as if in sudden fear or anxiety. And at that pre-
cise moment heavyish footsteps were heard without.
“Hello,” inquired a bass, unctuous, yet hardly good-
humoured voice, “when shall you three meet again?”
It was Bill who stood in the doorway—Bill in his in-
effable dinner-jacket and glossy shirt. And he all but
filled it. He might almost have been a balloon, this Bull
—tethered to the carpet there by his glossy patent-leather
shoes—buoyant with gas.
“He has been telling us a story about a parrot,” said
Judy in a low voice, “who used very bad language.”
“Has he?” said Bill. “Well, he ought to know better.”
But his eye was almost as vacant as that of Bysshe’s pet.
It wandered off to rest on Judy’s other guest, Stella.
“And what did you think of it?” he said; “the bad man’s
tale?”
“Why,” said Stella, ‘I am a little too grown-up for
fairy-tales. And as for morals; I can find my own.”
“And you, Badroulbadour?” said Bill, widely smiling
at his wife.
“Me, Bill,’ echoed Judy firmly, her pretty cheeks
flushed after her exertions. ‘‘Why, I have been think-
ing that the tiny creature who’s going to wear this shirt
has ventured into a rather difficult world.”
“And who, may I ask, is the ‘tiny creature’ ?” drawled
her husband, almost as though such a question could be
a sarcasm.
Tressider’s gaze was fixed vacantly on the scrap of
sewing. He appeared to be entirely aloof from this little
domestic catechism—seemed to have lost interest in the
evening.
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“It’s for Mollie’s little boy. He was born about three
days ago,” Judy said.
But Stella, too, appeared to have lost interest. Though
her face was in shadow, her eyes could still see the moon
—a moon by its slightly cindrous light now betraying that
it was soon to set. And to judge from her attitude and
expression, this eventuality would bring her no regret,
since, as it seemed in her darker moments, the moon of
her own secret waters had long ago set for ever.
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All Hallows
“And because time in itself... can receive no altera-
tion, the hallowing . . . must consist in the shape or coun-
tenance which we put upon the affaires that are incident in
these days.”
RIcHARD HOOKER,
IG T was about half-past three on an August
~~ @\i| afternoon when I found myself for the
first time looking down upon All Hal-
lows. And at first glimpse of it, every
vestige of fatigue and vexation passed
away. I stood “at gaze,’ as the old
phrase goes—like the two children of Israel sent in to
spy out the Promised Land. How often the imagined
transcends the real. Not so All Hallows. Having at
last reached the end of my journey—flies, dust, heat, wind
—having at last come limping out upon the green sea-
bluff beneath which lay its walls—I confess the actuality
excelled my feeble dreams of it.
What most astonished me, perhaps, was the sense not
so much of its age, its austerity, or even its solitude, but
its air of abandonment. It lay couched there as if in
its narrow sea-bay. Not a sound was in the air; not a
jackdaw clapped its wings among its turrets. No other
roof, not even a chimney, was in sight; only the dark-
blue arch of the sky; the narrow snowline of the ebbing
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tide; and that gaunt coast fading away into the haze of
a West over which were already gathering the veils of
sunset.
We had met then, at an appropriate hour and season.
And yet—I wonder. For it was certainly not the
“beauty” of All Hallows, lulled as if into a dream in
this serenity of air and heavens, which was to leave the
sharpest impression upon me. And what kind of first
showing would it have made, I speculated, if an autumnal
gale had been shrilling and trumpeting across its narrow
bay—clots of wind-borne spume floating among its dusky
pinnacles—and the roar of the sea echoing against its
walls! Imagine it frozen stark in winter, icy hoar-frost
edging its every boss, moulding, finial, crocket, cusp!
Indeed, are there not works of man, legacies of a half-
forgotten past, scattered across this human world of ours
from China to Peru which seem to daunt the imagina-
tion with their incomprehensibility? Incomprehensible, I
mean, in the sense that the passion that inspired and con-
ceived them is incomprehensible. Viewed in the light of
the passing day, they might be the monuments of a race
of demi-gods. And yet, if we could but free ourselves
from our timidities, realise, that even we ourselves have
an obligation to leave behind us similar memorials—testa-
ments to the creative and faithful genius not so much of
the individual as of Humanity itself.
However that may be, it was my own personal fortune
to see All Hallows for the first time in the heat of the
Dog Days, after a journey which could hardly be justi-
fied except by its end. At this moment of the afternoon
the great church almost cheated one into the belief that
it was possessed of a life of its own. It lay, as I say,
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couched in its natural hollow, basking under the dark
dome of the heavens .like some half-fossilised monster
that might at any moment stir and awaken out of the
swoon to which the wand of the enchanter had committed
it. And with every inch of the sun’s descending jour-
ney it changed its appearance.
That is the charm of such.things. Man himself, says
the philosopher, is the sport of change. His life and the
life around him are but the flotsam of a perpetual flux.
Yet, haunted by ideals, egged on by impossibilities, he
builds his vision of the changeless; and time diversifies
it with its colours and its “effects” at leisure. It was
drawing near to harvest now; the summer was nearly
over; the corn would soon be in stook ; the season of silence
had come, not even the robins had yet begun to practice
their autumnal lament. I should have come earlier.
The distance was of little account. But nine flinty
hills in seven miles is certainly hard commons. To plod
(the occupant of a cloud of dust) up one steep incline and
so see another ; to plod up that and so see a third; to sur-
mount that and, half-choked, half-roasted, to see (as if
in unbelievable mirage) a fourth—and always stone walls,
discoloured grass, no flower but ragged ragwort, whited
fleabane, moody nettle, and the exqpisite stubborn bind-
weed with its almond-burdened censers, and always the
glitter and dazzle of the sun—well, the experience grows
irksome. And then that endless flint erection with which
some jealous Lord of the Manor had barricaded his ver-
durous estate! A fly-infested mile of the company of
that wall was tantamount to making one’s way into the
infernal regions—with Tantalus for fellow-pilgrim.
And when a solitary and empty dung-wagon had lum-
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bered by, lifting the dumb dust out of the road in swirling
clouds into the heat-quivering air, I had all but wept
aloud.
No, I shall not easily forget that walk—or the conclu-
sion of it—when footsore, all but dead beat—dust all over
me, cheeks, lips, eyelids, in my hair, dust in drifts even
between my naked body and my clothes—I stretched my
aching limbs on the turf under the straggle of trees which
crowned the bluff of that last hill still blessedly green and
verdant, and feasted my eyes on the cathedral beneath
me. How odd Memory is—in her sorting arrangements.
(How perverse her pigeon-holes.
It had reminded me of a drizzling evening many years
ago. I had stayed a moment to listen to an old Salva-
tion Army officer preaching at a street corner. The
sopped and squalid houses echoed with his harangue.
His penitents’ drum resembled the block of an execu-
tioner. His goatish beard wagged at every word he ut-
tered. ‘My brothers and sisters,’ he was saying, “the
very instant our fleshly bodies are born they begin to
perish ; the moment the Lord has put them together, time
begins to take them to pieces again. Now at this very
instant if you listen close, you can hear the nibblings and
frettings of the moth and rust within—the worm that
never dies. It’s the same with human causes and creeds
and institutions—just the same. O then for that Strand
of Beauty where all that is mortal shall be shed away and
we shall appear in the likeness and verisimilitude of what
in sober and awful truth we are.”
The light striking out of an oil and colourman’s shop
at the street corner lay across his cheek and beard and
glassed his eye. The soaked circle of humanity in which
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he was gesticulating stood staring and motionless—the
lassies, the probationers, the melancholy idlers. I had
had enough. I went away. But it is odd that so utterly
inappropriate a recollection should have edged back into
my mind at this moment. There was, as I have said, not
a living soul in sight. Only a few sea-birds—oyster
catchers maybe—were jangling on the distant beach.
It was now a quarter to four by my watch, and the
usual pensive “lin-lan-lone” from the belfry beneath me
would soon no doubt be ringing to evensong. But if at
that moment a triple bob-major had suddenly clanged its
alarm over sea and shore, I couldn’t have stirred a finger’s
breadth. Scanty though the shade afforded by the wind-
shorn tuft of trees under which I lay might be—I was in-
effably at peace.
No bell, as a matter of fact, loosed its tongue that stag-
nant half-hour. Unless then the walls beneath me already
concealed a few such chance visitors as myself, All Hal-
lows would be empty. A cathedral not only without a
close but without a congregation—yet another romantic
charm. The Deanery and the residences of its clergy, my
old guide-book had long since informed me, were a full
mile or more away. I determined in due time, first to
make sure of an entry, and then having quenched my
thirst, to bathe.
How inhuman any extremity—hunger, fatigue, pain,
desire—makes us poor humans. Thirst and drought so
haunted my mind that again and again as I glanced to-
wards it I supped up at one long draught that complete
blue sea. But meanwhile, too, my eyes had been steadily
exploring and searching out this monument of the by-
gone centuries beneath me.
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The headland faced approximately due west. The win-
dows of the Lady Chapel therefore lay immediately be-
neath me, their fourteenth-century glass showing flatly
dark amid their traceries. Above it, the shallow V-
shaped, leaden-ribbed roof of the chancel converged to-
wards the unfinished tower, then broke away at right
angles—for the cathedral was cruciform. Walls so
ancient and so sparsely adorned and decorated could not
but be inhospitable in effect. Their stone was of a
bleached bone-grey ; a grey that none the less seemed to be
as immaterial as flame—or incandescent ash. They were
substantial enough, however, to cast a marvellously lucent
shadow, of a blue no less vivid but paler than that of the
sea, on the shelving sward beneath them. And that
shadow was steadily shifting as I watched. But even if
the complete edifice had vanished into the void, the scene
would still have been of an incredible loveliness. The
colours in air and sky on this dangerous coast seemed to
shed a peculiar unreality even on the rocks of its own
outworks.
So, from my vantage p!oce on the hill that dominates
it, I continued for a while to watch All Hallows; to spy
upon it; and no less intently than a sentry who, not quite
trusting his own eyes, has seen a dubious shape approach-
ing him in the dusk. It may sound absurd, but I felt that
at any moment I too might surprise All Hallows in the
act of revealing what in very truth it looked like—and
was, when no human witness was there to share its soli-
tude.
Those gigantic statues, for example, which flanked the
base of the unfinished tower—an intense bluish-white in
the sunlight and a bluish-purple in shadow—images of
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angels and of saints, as I had learned of old from my
guide-book. Only six of them at most could be visible,
of course, from where I sat. And yet I found myself
counting them again and yet again, as if doubting my
own arithmetic. For my first impression had been that
seven were in view—though the figure furthest from me
at the western angle showed little more than a jutting
fragment of stone which might perhaps be only part and
parcel of the fabric itself.
But then the lights even of day may be deceitful, and
fantasy plays strange tricks with one’s eyes. With ex-
ercise, none the less, the mind is enabled to detect minute
details which the unaided eye is incapable of particular-
ising. Given the imagination, man himself indeed may
some day be able to distinguish what shapes are walking
during our own terrestrial midnight amid the black sha-
dows of the craters in the noonday of the moon. At any
rate, I could trace at last frets of carving, minute weather
marks, crookednesses, incrustations, repairings, that had
before passed unnoticed. These walls, indeed, like hu-
man faces, were maps and charts of their own long past..
In the midst of this prolonged scrutiny, the hypnotic
air, the heat, must suddenly have overcome me. I fell
asleep up there in my grove’s scanty shade; and remained
asleep, too, long enough (as time is measured by the
clocks of sleep), to dream an immense panoramic dream.
On waking, I could recall only the faintest vestiges of it,
and found that the hand of my watch had crept on but
a few minutes in the interval. It was eight minutes past
four.
I scrambled up—numbed and inert—with that peculiar
sense of panic which sometimes follows an uneasy sleep.
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What folly to have been frittering time away within sight
of my goal at an hour when no doubt the cathedral would
soon be closed to visitors, and abandoned for the night
to its own secret ruminations. I hastened down the steep
rounded incline of the hill, and having skirted under the
sunlit expanse of the walls, came presently to the south
door, only to discover that my forebodings had been justi-
fied, and that it was already barred and bolted. The dis-
covery seemed to increase my fatigue fourfold. How fool-
ish it is to obey mere caprices. What a straw is a man!
I glanced up into the beautiful shell of masonry above
my head. Shapes and figures in stone it showed in plenty
—symbols of an imagination that had flamed and faded,
leaving this signature for sole witness—but not a living
bird or butterfly. There was but one faint chance left of
making an entry. Hunted now, rather than the hunter,
I hastened out again into the full blazing flood of sun-
shine—and once more came within sight of the sea; a sea
so near at last that I could hear its enormous sallies and
murmurings. Indeed I had not realised until that mo-
ment how closely the great western doors of the cathedral
abutted on the beach.
It was as if its hospitality had been deliberately de-
signed, not for a people to whom the faith of which it
was the shrine had become a weariness and a common-
place, but for the solace of pilgrims from over the ocean.
I could see them tumbling into their cockle-boats out of
their great hollow ships—sails idle, anchors down; see
them leaping ashore and straggling up across the sands to
these all-welcoming portals—‘“Parthians and Medes and
Elamites; dwellers in Mesopotamia and in the parts of
Egypt about Cyrene; strangers of Rome, Jews and Prose-
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lytes—we do hear them speak in our own tongue the won-
derful works of God.”
And so at last I found my way into All Hallows—
entering by a rounded dwarfish side-door with zigzag
mouldings. There hung for corbel to its dripstone a
curious leering face, with its forked tongue out, to give
me welcome. And an appropriate one, too, for the figure
I made! .
But once beneath that prodigious roof-tree, I forgot
myself and everything that was mine. The hush, the
coolness, the unfathomable twilight drifted in on my
small human consciousness. Not even the ocean itself
is able so completely to receive one into its solacing bosom.
Except for the windows over my head, filtering with their
stained glass the last western radiance of the sun, there
was but little visible colour in those great spaces, and a
severe economy of decoration. The stone piers carried
their round arches with an almost intimidating impas-
sivity.
By deliberate design, too, or by some illusion of
perspective, the whole floor of the building appeared
steadily to ascend towards the east, where a dark wooden
multitudinously-figured rood-screen shut off the choir and
the high altar from the nave. JI seemed to have exchanged
one universal actuality for another: the burning world
of nature, for this oasis of quiet. Here, the wings of the
imagination need never rest in their flight out of the
wilderness into the unknown.
Thus resting, I must again have fallen asleep. And
so swiftly can even the merest freshet of sleep affect the
mind, that when my eyes opened, I was completely at a
loss,
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Where was I? What demon of what romantic chasm
had swept my poor drowsy body into this immense
haunt? The din and clamour of an horrific dream whose
fainting rumour was still in my ear, became suddenly
stilled. Then at one and the same moment, a sense of
utter dismay at earthly surroundings no longer serene
and peaceful, but grim and forbidding, flooded my mind,
and I became aware that I was no longer alone. Twenty
or thirty paces away, and a little this side of the rood-
screen, an old man was standing.
To judge from the black and purple velvet and tassel-
tagged gown he wore, he was a verger. He had not yet
realised, it seemed, that a visitor shared his solitude. And
yet he was listening. His head was craned forward and
leaned sideways on his rusty shoulders. As I steadily
watched him, he raised his eyes, and with a peculiar
stealthy deliberation scanned the complete upper regions
of the northern transept. Not the faintest rumour of
any sound that may have attracted his attention reached
me where I sat. Maybe a wild bird had made its entry
through a broken pane of glass and with its cry had at
the same moment awakened me and caught his attention.
Or maybe the old man was waiting for some fellow-
occupant to join him from above.
I continued to watch him. Even at this distance, the
silvery twilight cast by the clere-story windows was suf-
ficient to show me, though vaguely, his face: the high
sloping nose, the lean cheekbones and protruding chin.
He continued so long in the same position that I at last
determined to break in on his reverie.
At sound of my footsteps his head sunk cautiously back
upon his shoulders; and he turned; and then motionlessly
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surveyed me as I drew near. He resembled one of those
old men whom Rembrandt delighted in drawing: the
knotted hands, the blank drooping eyebrows, the wide
thin-lipped ecclesiastical mouth, the intent cavernous dark
eyes beneath the heavy folds of their lids. White as a
miller with dust, hot and draggled, I was hardly the kind
of visitor that any self-respecting custodian would warmly
welcome, but he greeted me none the less with every mark
of courtesy.
I apologised for the lateness of my arrival, and ex-
plained it as best I could. “Until I caught sight of you,”
I concluded lamely, ‘I hadn’t ventured very far in: other-
wise I might have found myself a prisoner for the night.
It must be dark in here when there is no moon.”
The old man smiled—but wryly. “As a matter of fact,
sir,” he replied, “the cathedral is closed to visitors at four
—at such times, that is, when there is no afternoon serv-
ice. Services are not as frequent as they were. But
visitors are rare too. In winter, in particular, you notice
the gloom—as you say, sir. Not that I ever spend the
night here: though I am usually last to leave. There’s
the risk of fire to be thought of and . . . I think I should
have detected your presence here, sir. One becomes ac-
customed after many years.”
There was the usual trace of official pedantry in his
voice, but it was more pleasing than otherwise. Nor did
he show any wish to be rid of me. He continued his
survey, although his eye was a little absent and his at-
tention seemed to be divided.
“T thought perhaps I might be able to find a room for
the night and really explore the cathedral to-morrow morn-
ing. It has been a tiring journey; I come-from B——”
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“Ah, from B 3 it is a fatiguing journey, sir, taken
on foot. I used to walk in there to see a sick daughter
of mine. Carriage parties occasionally make their way
here, but not so much as once. We are too far out of
the hurly-burly to be much intruded on. Not that them
who come to make their worship here are intruders.
Far from it. But most that come are mere sightseers.
And the fewer of them, I say, in the circumstances, the
better.”
Something in what I had said or in my appearance
seemed to have reassured him. ‘Well, I cannot claim
to be a regular churchgoer,” I said. “I am myself a mere
sightseer. And yet—even to sit here for a few minutes
is to be reconciled.”
“Ah, reconciled, sir,” the old man repeated, turning
away. “I can well imagine it after that journey on such
a day as this. But to live here is another matter.”
“T was thinking of that,” I replied in a foolish attempt
to retrieve the position. “It must, as you say, be deso-
late enough in the winter—for two-thirds of the year,
indeed.”
“We have our storms, sir—the bad with the good,”
he agreed, “and our position is specially prolific of what
they call sea-fog. It comes driving in from the sea for
days and nights together—gale and mist, so that you can
scarcely see your open hand in front of your eyes even
in broad daylight. And the noise of it, sir, sweeping
across overhead in that wooliness of mist, if you take me,
is most peculiar. It’s shocking to a stranger. No, sir,
we are left pretty much to ourselves when the fine weather
birds are flown. . . . You’d be astonished at the power of
the winds here. There was a mason—a local man too—
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not above two or three years ago was blown clean off the
roof from under the tower—tossed up in the air like an
empty sack. But’”—and the old man at last allowed his
eyes to stray upwards to the roof again—‘“‘but there’s not
much doing now.” He seemed to be pondering. ‘Noth-
ing open.”
“TI mustn’t detain you,” I said, “but you were saying
that services are infrequent now. Why is that? When
one thinks of——-” But tact restrained me.
“Pray don’t think of keeping me, sir. It’s a part of
my duties. But from a remark you let fall I was sup-
posing you may have seen something that appeared, I
understand, not many months ago in the newspapers.
We lost our Dean—Dean Pomfrey—last November. To
all intents and purposes, I mean; and his office has not
yet been filled. Between you and me, sir, there’s a hitch
—though I should wish it to go no further. They are
greedy monsters—those newspapers: no respect, no dis-
cretion, no decency, in my view. And they copy each
other like cats in a chorus.
‘“‘We have never wanted to be a notoriety here, sir: and
not of late things of all times. We must face our own
troubles. You’d be astonished how callous the mere
sightseer can be. And not only them from over the water
whom our particular troubles cannot concern—but far
worse—parties as English as you or me. They ask you
questions you wouldn’t believe possible in a civilized
country. Not that they care what becomes of us—not one
iota, sir. We talk of them masked-up Inquisitors in olden
times, but there’s many a human being in our own would
enjoy seeing a fellow-creature on the rack if he could
get the opportunity. It’s a heartless age, sir.” :
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This was queerish talk in the circumstances: and after
all I myself was of the glorious company of the sight-
seers. I held my peace. And the old man, as if to
make amends, asked me if I would care to see any par-
ticular part of the building. “The light is smalling,” he
explained, “but still if we keep to the ground level there’ll
be a few minutes to spare; and we shall not be interrupted
if we go quietly on our way.”
For the moment the reference eluded me: I could only
thank him for the suggestion and once more beg him not
to put himself to any inconvenience. I explained, too,
that though I had no personal acquaintance with Dr.
Pomfrey, I had read of his illness in the newspapers.
“Isn't he,” I added a little dubiously, “the author of The
Church and the Folk? If so, he must be an exceedingly
learned and delightful man.”
“Ay, sir.” The old verger put up a hand towards me;
“you may well say it: a saint, if ever there was one. But
it’s worse than illness, sir—it’s oblivion. And, thank
God, the newspapers didn’t get hold of more than a bare
outline.”
He dropped his voice. “This way, if you please ;” and
he led me off gently down the aisle, once more coming
to a standstill beneath the roof of the tower. “What I
mean, sir, is that there’s very few left in this world who
have any place in their minds for a sacred confidence—
no reverence, sir. They would as lief All Hallows and
all it stands for were swept away to-morrow, demolished
to the dust. And that gives me the greatest caution with
whom I speak. But sharing one’s troubles is sometimes
a relief. If it weren’t so, why do those Cartholics have
their wooden boxes all built for the purpose? What else,
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I ask you, is the meaning of their fasts and penances?
“You see, sir, I am myself, and have been for upwards
of twelve years now, the Dean’s verger. In the sight of
no respecter of persons—of offices and dignities, that is,
I take it—I might claim to be even an elder brother.
And our Dean, sir, was a man who was all things to all
men. No pride of place, no vauntingness, none of your
apron-and-gaiter high-and-mightiness whatsoever, sif.
And then that! And to come on us without warning;
or at least without warning as could be taken as such.”
I followed his eyes into the darkening stony spaces above
us; a light like tarnished silver lay over the soundless
vaultings. But so, of course, dusk, either of evening or
day-break, would affect the ancient stones. Nothing
moved there,
“You must understand, sir,” the old man was continu-
ing, “the procession for divine service proceeds from the
vestry over yonder out through those wrought-iron gates
and so under the rood-screen and into the chancel there.
Visitors are admitted on showing a card or a word to the
verger in charge: but not otherwise. If you stand a
pace or two to the right, you will catch a glimpse of the
altar-screen—fourteenth-century work, Bishop Robert de
Beaufort—and a unique example of the age. But what
I was saying is that when we proceed for the services
out of here into there, it has always been our custom to
keep pretty close together; more seemly and decent, sir,
than straggling in like so many sheep.
“Besides, sir, aren’t we at such times in the manner of
an array; ‘marching as to war,’ if you take me: it’s a les-
son in objects. The third verger leading: then the choris-
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ters, boys and men, though sadly depleted ; then the minor
canons; then any other dignitaries who may happen to
be present, with the canon in residence; then myself, sir,
followed by the Dean.
“There hadn’t been much amiss up to then, and on
that afternoon, I can vouch—and I’ve repeated it ad
naushum—there was not a single stranger out in this be-
yond here, sir—nave or transepts. Not within view, that
is: one can’t be expected to see through four feet of
Norman stone. Well, sir, we had gone on our way, and
I had actually turned about as usual to bow Dr. Pomfrey
into his stall, when I found to my consternation, to my
consternation, I say, he wasn’t there! It alarmed me, sir,
and as you might well believe if you knew the full cir-
cumstances.
“Not that I lost my presence of mind. My first duty
was to see all things to be in order and nothing unseemly
to occur. My feelings were another matter. The old
gentleman had left the vestry with us: that I knew: I had
myself robed ’im as usual, and he in his own manner,
smiling with his ‘Well, Jones, another day gone; another
day gone.’ He was always an anxious gentleman for
time, sit. How we spend it and all.
“As I say, then, he was behind me when we swept out
of the gates. I saw him coming on out of the tail of my
eye—we grow accustomed to it, to see with the whole
of the eye, I mean. And then—not a vestige; and me—
well, sir, nonplussed, as you may imagine. I gave a
look and sign at Canon’ Ockham, and the service proceeded
as usual, while I hurried back to the vestry thinking the
poor gentleman must have been taken suddenly ill. And
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yet, sir, I was not surprised to find the vestry vacant, and
him not there. I had been expecting matters to come
to what you might call a head.
“As best I could I held my tongue, and a fortunate
thing it was that Canon Ockham was then in residence,
and not Canon Leigh Shougar, though perhaps I.am not
the one to say it. No, sir, our beloved Dean—as pious
and harmless a gentleman as ever graced the Church—
was gone for ever. He was not to appear in our midst
again. He had been’—and the old man with elevated
eyebrows and long lean mouth nearly whispered the words
into my ear—“he had been absconded—abducted, sir.”
“Abducted!” I murmured.
The old man closed his eyes, and with trembling lids
added, “He was found, sir, late that night up there in
what they call the Trophy Room—sitting in a corner
there, weeping.