vkw'^^nfylw' '^^'^'^■■r- '*' . ■''-•*?t<** V 'S' "■••■•' ^A1 i*» A V 4 ^--L^ 4 OF ZBTQUIRV ON ZKEZSSIONS AND THE STATE OF RELIGIOX. LIBRARY OF THE Theological Seminary, PRINCETON, N. J. case ,;...„ ^CC. 1 < Shelf, Section. ./!r A J^.j!i Book, No,. REMAINS / / REV. CARIiOS WlliCOX, i.\Tt PAOTOfi OF THK NORTH CONGRF.ti ATIO.V Al, CUl'RCH IS HARTFOBB. jHemott of \\X% ILife, HARTFORD, PUBLISHED BY EDWARD HOPKINS. MDCCCXXVIII. DISTRICT OF CONNECTICUT SS. Be it MLMEMiiLRED, That on the seventeenth day of June, in the fifty sec- li. S« ond year of the Independence of the Unit»d States of America, Edwahd Hopkins, of the said District, hath deposited in this office the title of a Book) the right whereof he claims as Proprietor, in the words following, to wit ; — " Remains of the Rev. Carlos Wilcox, late Pastor of the Nc-th Congregational Church in Hartford, with a Memoir of his Life " In conformity to the net of Con- gress of the United States, entitled, " An act for the encouragement of learning, by securing the copies of Maps, Charts and Books, to the authors and proprietors of such copies, during the times therein mentioned." — And also to the act, entitled, " An act supplementary to an act, entitled ' An act for the encouragement of learning, by securing the copies of maps, charts, and books, to the authors and proprietors of such copies during the times therein mentioned,' and extending the benefits thereof to the arts of designing, engraving, and etching historical and other prints." CHAS. A. INGERSOLL, Clerk of the District of Connecticut. ^ A true eopv of Record, examined and sealed by me, CHAS. A. INGERSOLL, Clerk of the District of Connecticut. i' C'anfifid, Printer. PREFACE The desire has been expressed by many of the numerous friends of Mr. Wilcox, that some memo- rial of him might be collected from his writings. Though these Remains may fall below the expec- tations of those who knew the distinguished excel- lencies of the writer, still it is believed that they will prove a valuable memento of departed worth, and promote the cause of truth and piety, now he who so ably advocated this cause while liv- ing, has finished his course on earth and passed in- to a better and more glorious world. It must be expected that there will be some disappointment, among those who shall peruse this volume, after having heard some of the sermons from the lips of the writer. Much of his excellence as a preacher, depended upon what cannot be discovered in ser- mons from the press. The sweet voice, the em- phatic pronunciation, the eloquence of looks and gesture, which have sent a thrill of deep feeling through many a listener to the man, cannot be transferred to the book. CONTENTS. Page MEMOIR 9 POETRY. THE AGE OF BEx\EVOLENCE. . Book I. 95 Extracts from Book II. . . 147 Extracts from Book III. . . 157 Extracts from Book IV. . . 171 THE RELIGION OF TASTE 177 Pronounced before the Society of Phi Beta Kappa, at Yale College. SERMONS. SERMON I. DUTY OF MI.VISTERS 211 /. Peter, 4, 11. — If any man speak, let him speak as the orac'.es of God ; if any man minister, let him do it as of the ability which God giveth ; that God in all things may be glorified, through Jesus Christ ; to whom be praise and dominion forever and ever. Amen. SERMON II. DIVLNITY OF CHRIST PROVED FROM HIS BELNG THE FINAL JUDGE 229 John, 5, 22. — For the Father judgeth no man, but hath committed all jud;:ment unto the Son, that all men should honour the Son, even as they honour the Father. SERMON m. DEVOTEDNESS TO GOD. ... 248 Psalm 57, 7.— My heart is fixed, O God, my heart is fixed : I will sing and give praise. SERMON IV. REPENTANCE 267 Job, 42, 5, 6. — I have heard of thee by the hearing of the ear ; but now mine eye seetb thee. Wherefore I abhor myself, and repent in dust and ashes. SERMON V. MOTIVES TO EARLY PIETY 283 Ecclesiastes, 12, 1.— Remember now thy Creator in the days of thy voutb, while the evil days come not, nor the years draw nigh, when thou •halt say, I have no pleasure in them. VI CONTENTS. Page SERMON VI. INFLUENCE OF EDUCATION. ... 297 Luke, 1, 66.— What manner of child shall this be .' SERMON VII. LOVE TO GOD 311 Mark, 12, 30.— Thou shalt love the Lord thy God with all thy heart, and with all thy soul, and with all thy mind, and with all thy strength. SERMON VIII. THE DISCONSOLATE CHRISTIAN. , 324 Isaiah, 50, 10. — Who is among you that feareth the Lord, that obeyeth the voice of his Servant, that walketh in darkness and hath no light .' let him trust in the name of the Lord, and stay upon his God. SERMON IX. COMING TO CHRIST 337 Matthew, 11, 28. — Come unto me, all ye that labour, and are heavy la- den, and I will give you rest. SERMON X. W^ILLINGNESS TO DIE, NO EVIDENCE OF PREPAR- ATION FOR DEATH 353 //. Corinthians, 5, 8. — We are confident, I say, and willing rather to be absent from the body, and to be present with the Lord. SERMON XI. THE HOPE OF MAN 367 Job, 14, 19. — Thou destroyest the hope of man. SERMON XII. FAITH 383 Hebrews, 11, 1. — Faith is the substance of things hoped for, and the evi- dence of things not seen. SERMON Xni. FORGETFULNESS OF GOD. ... 401 Jeremiah, 2, 32. — Can a maid forget her ornaments, or a bride her attire i* Yet my people have forgotten me days without number. SERMON XIV. THE KNOWLEDGE POSSESSED BF SAINTS IN HEAVEN 417 Job, 8, 9. — For we are but of yesterday, and know nothing, because our days upon earth are a shadow. MEIHOIR. HIEJ^OIR. Some account of the author may reasonably be expected to accompany this volume. The materials for a biography, such as his friends would desire, are very few. No diary has been found among his writings, and most that can be collected from himself is contained in the few letters which he wrote to his friends. Some of his early correspondents, with whom he was in the habit of exchanging thoughts most freely, are re- moved from the earth, and the letters he wrote to them are not to be obtained. The late Solomon M. Allen, professor in Middlebury College, the Rev. Sylvester Lamed, who died at New-Orleans, and the Rev. Joseph R. Andrus, who died in Africa, were among the number of his early, intimate friends ; and from their letters to him, found among his papers, it is evident that he was on terms of intimacy with them, to which few, and perhaps no other of his correspondents have been admitted. The materials from which this Biographical Sketch is taken, are a letter by his mother, respecting his early years, his own letters, and the recollections of a few friends. Carlos Wilcox was born Oct. 22d, 1794, at Newport, N. H. His father, Mr. Ebenezer Wilcox, was the son of Dea. Abel Wilcox, of North Killingworth, Conn. He is a respect- able farmer, attentive to his duties, and distinguished for hab- its of punctuaUty and order in the management of his concerns. The original name of his mother was Thankful Stevens, daugh- ter of Josiah Stevens, Esq. of Newport, N. H., for a number 2 10 MEMOIR. of years deacon of the church in that place. He was after- wards licensed to preach, and employed as a Missionary on the Isle of Shoals, where he died. His daughter, the mother of the subject of this memoir, was well educated, and is pos- sessed of an unusual share of tenderness of feeling, and of ma- ternal excellencies. These parents are both pious ; and Car- los, their first born, M'as early dedicated to God in baptism. The care of his education in his early years devolved prin- cipally on his mother. The following account of his childhood from her own pen may be read with interest. " As soon as he began to talk, I began to teach him to repeat the Lord's prayer, the Assembly's Catechism, and devotional Hymns. He was very active, and appeared much dehghted with receiving in- struction. He early showed a great fondness for books. When only two years old he would often ask me to instruct him. When I was engaged in necessaiy domestic avocations, and informed him that he must wait, he would stay by me, or follow me with his book in his hand until he had repeated his lesson. The winter after he was two years old, while sit- ting by liis father, and seeing him at work, after watching him a considerable time in silence, with great earnestness he ex- claimed, ' Papa, what are you doing ? Making all tilings out of nothing by the word of your power V He could read and spell correctly before he attended any school. He was healthy, active, persevering m every thing he did, whether at his lessons, work, or amusement." When he was about four years of age, his parents remov- ed to Orwell, Vt. where they still reside, and sustain with christian resignation, their bereavement of a son, who com- forted them in his childhood, and by his affectionate conduct, his distinguished talents and devotedness to the cause of Christ, gave indications of future usefulness most cheering to the pa- rental breast. The subject of this Memoir was, from his earliest infancy, amiable and lovely, dutiful to his parents, and affectionate to his younger brothers. Among his first efforts in the school room he gave indications of talents, capable of making rapid MEMOIR. I'l progress in knowledge. The writer of this Memoir has heard from the school companions of Mr. Wilcox, anecdotes of his childhood, when the little stripling took and retained a station at the head of the school, while his competitors were far his superiors in age. Until between the ninth and tenth year of his life, he had a good constitution, and was unusually active and efficient in af- fording that assistance to his father, which could be expected from such a youth. At this period he gave himself a wound in his knee with an axe, which was followed by consequences felt to the day of his death. By taking cold in his wounded limb, it was seized with a violent inflammation, and for ma- ny months his pain was intense. During the months and years of suffering that succeeded, he discovered a mildness of temper, maturity of reflection, and manliness of conduct, which made lasting impressions on the minds of those who saw him ; and one of his physi- cians, though he saw him only occasionally, was so interested in his demeanour and in the nobleness of mind which he ex- hibited, that he named his first son after this youth, who had so won his affections. Twenty years aftervvards, though he had removed into the western country, he could not speak of the scene which passed in the sick room of that httle suf- erer, without deep emotion. There was something so marked in his temper and manners, so mature and judicious in his conversation even in that early period of his life, that time could not efface the impression which had been made. The years of feebleness which followed, he spent in the pursuit of knowledge ; and under all his disadvantages, he made rapid and honourable progress. When he became able by the use of crutches to make his way to the school house, though often with extreme suffering, his place was generally at the head of his class. His inability to perform agricultural labours, and his attach- ment to books, which disease and infirmity rather increased than abated, determined his father to assist him in obtaining a public education. When between twelve and thirteen yeai's 12 MEMOIR. of age, he was sent to an Academy at Castleton, where he soon took among youth, who had enjoyed the best privileges, the same place that he had taken at the coniimon school. At fourteen, he acquitted himself with honor in an examination in all the studies which were required for admission into col- lege ; and but for his youth and feeble health, would have presented himself for admission. About this time he was afflicted with a cough and a hectic fever, which in the opin- ion of his friends threatened his speedy dissolution ; but in the summer following, his health was so far improved, and his desire to pursue his favourite employment, and to enter col- lege, so ardent, that his parents consented to allow him to re- view his preparatory studies. Accordingly, in September, previous to his fifteenth year, he was received a member of Middlebury College. This Institution was then in its infancy, but there was a spirit of enterprise in its officers and students, which rendered it on many accounts a peculiarly desirable place for youth to prepare themselves for public life. It was favourable to that aspiring, determined perseverance, by which self-made men rise above those who rely upon the celebrity of estab- lishments, libraries, and the literary renown of teachers. Here was nothing to foster the impression, that a diploma would be a passport to the high places of the earth ; but there was a consciousness, that reputation must stand upon indi- vidual enterprise and personal character. This gave an in- dependence to the character of the student, and in the pur- suit of his studies, he felt that the reputation of a youthful col- lege was to be raised by liis own. Such was the principle that operated upon the minds of the students of that Institution, and its influence on them was similar to its influence on the founders of our republic. They were roused to deeds of en- terprise, which men under other circumstances rarely at- tempt. While a member of College, Mr. Wilcox distinguished him- self in all the branches of study, but excelled principally in the languages and belles-lettres. His conduct was irreproach- MEMOIR. IS able, and though his constitution was very delicate, he was never willing to excuse himself from a lesson, or from a col- lege exercise. Every thing was performed with strict punc- tuality, and it is believed that while he was a member of col- lege, no censure was ever passed upon him. Early in his collegiate life, his composition began to be noticed for original- ity, neatness of expression, purity and elevation of style. During his junior year, he wrote a poem and pronounced it at a public exliibition. This was among the first efforts in this species of composition, that he had ever submitted to the eye of any of his friends. He graduated with the highest honors of college, and in a valedictory oration " On the reputation of greatness in the cause of humanity," showed himself capable of writing with distinguished excellence. He begins by saying, " It is hum- bling to the pride of man, to know that when he dies he may be mentioned no more. The heart is chilled at the re- flection that when its motion ceases, all its affections may be forgotten ; and the tongue falters to own, that when silenced in the grave, its accents may never be repeated. It would seem then, that no one susceptible of the blandishments of fame, no one alive to the laudable love of character, could rest contented with sporting awhile on the spot which gave him birth, and then disappearing forever, unknown and unlament- ed. It is affectation in man to pretend to disregard the es- teem of others. Self-approbation can seldom answer the de- mands of vanity, and virtue herself may taste with inward relish the honey of applause. Respectability in life, may be gained with little exertion, and friendship is often purchased with a toy. But the attention of the community, and the grat- itude of ages, can be won only by vigorous, and unceasing activity." He then points out some of the different fields in which the reputation of greatness may be acquired, and concludes with addresses to the president and officers of the college, and to his classmates. A few sentences from the last, are so char- acteristic that they may be interesting to the reader. 14 MEMOIR. " The meeting which we have never been able to contem- plate without emotion, has at length arrived. That moment, the anticipation of which has so embittered the draught of enjoyment, is none other than the present. Every thing be- speaks an interesting occasion. Else, why such nameless ex- pressions in the countenance, why such struggles in the heart ? Our circles Avere not wont to be overcast with such gloom. The agonizing solicitude betrayed in each feature, witnesses that this is a crisis of no common moment. In one word, and that big with meaning, we have assembled for the last time. " It would seem that some sequestered grove best befitted a scene like this. There, the enthusiasm of grief would repine under no restraint. There, nothing would check the effu- sions of the heart. Yet, before this assembly, the event lo- ses none of its solemnity. "We have all remarked, that the traveller, while ascending a hill, is generally busied in anticipating the prospect which the brow is to command. He sketches a valley in which he crowds together the epitome of every grace. In the back ground of his picture, he draws a villa with romantic environs. With an eye pursuing the path before him, eager to greet the rising spire, he hastens to the summit. But his scene, so love- ly, suddenly shrinks into a dreaiy waste. With a curiosity unabated, he speeds his way over the barren heath to the eminence beyond it. Here his ideal promises meet a second failure. Thus he follows this beauteous phantom, and thus it eludes his grasp. " This, my brethren, is the miniature of our journey through life. We have reached the first station whence the world, deformed as it is, instead of the comely creation of fancy, opens before us. Man chases some favourite show to the confines of the grave. He plays his part in some imaginary drama, till he passes from the theatre of life. The happiness of to-day is to dream of the happiness of to-morrow. " Yet the desert would be smoothed of half its ruggedness, were our road through it one and the same. But we are now MEMOIR. at the centre, whence all our paths proceed, continually diverg- ing. Were the ills of men seven-fold, were every tear mul- tiplied without end, still the worst could be endured were we not to be separated. — There is an hour in which man is him- self, and in which he couples himself with dearer selves, in which he holds sweet converse with those that are far away. It is the midnight watch when the hum of day hath ceased, and sleep fallen heavy on the lids of mortals. Then shall our spirits be commmgled, and scenes long past be revived. What time the temple of nature is lit up for her nightly orison, our widowed spirits shall pay their devotions at the tomb of bu- ried joys. " But we shall soon have other cause to mourn than mere separation. Our number must dwindle away by death. Tidings will soon reach us that a class-mate is gone. The Grand Archer may have already chosen the place to take his aim. Then must that eye so vivid, be covered with an im- pervious film. Do I gaze on the form which must soon be hid under the clods of the valley ? And can nothing avail ? No. The amenity of disposition, the fascination of address, never won the king of terrors from his cruel purpose. " Religion may rob the arrow of its poison, but she cannot evade its point. Some of us may be denied the sole comfort of dissolving nature, that of having our last wants relieved by the hand of a brother. Companions of my youth, ye inmates of my soul, how gladly would I fly to earth's utmost bounds to cheer the dying moments of one, to catch his last breath, and to plant the wild flower on his tomb. Should it be my unhappy lot to live when ye were all dead, I would visit this village and mark the place of each endearing incident. While watching for some well known face, I should weep to see none but strangers, and exclaiming, the world is to me but a wilderness, I would fall asleep to wake with you be- yond the sky. " 'Tis done, 'tis done. The tumult of passion is now a drea- ry calm ; yonder orb of day is shedding his last beams on our collected view ; but may our eternity be where God and the 16 MEMOIR. Lamb are the light thereof. A long farewell to this academic grove, a longer farewell to you. Yon bell shall assemble us no more ; but, O remember, our next meeting will be at the summons of the last trump, to rehearse to the Judge of the Universe the long lesson of life." It was soon after he entered college, that his attention was turned to the subject of personal religion. His native amiableness, his refined and delicate feelings, and his uniform- ly irreproachable conduct, had been such as might have seem- ed to many, satisfactory evidence that he needed no great change ; but when the Spirit of God visited his heart, it pro- duced the same impressions, uniformly produced in those who are led to Christ and fitted for heaven, — a deep sense of his own sinfulness. From that time till the day of his death, he viewed himself a helpless sinner, unworthy of any favour, and entirely dependent on the sovereign grace of God. The following letter, written soon after this change in his feel- ings, contains some particulars respecting his views of him- self and of divine things. Middlehury, Dec. 14, 1809. Honoured Parents, It is with a heart filled with gratitude to that Being who has supported my life, that I now write to you. It will un- doubtedly afford you some consolation to hear that I have some hope that I have experienced a change of heart, though I am not without many doubts and fears, lest it should prove a delusion. But I will relate to you some of my feeUngs. When this revival first began in Middlebury, I felt somewhat opposed to it, and indeed, I thought I would concern myself nothing about it, so I paid little regard to attending confer- ences and other exercises of public worship. I considered that it would intrude upon my classical studies at college. I felt desirous to obtain an immense stock of earthly knowl- edge, and my heart glowed with fei-vent anxiety for worldly honours and emoluments. But alas, they last but for a mo- ment and then vanish away. Though I sometimes thought of MEMOIR. 19' the importance of striving to obtain something which would exist beyond this life, as I knew for a certainty I must soon die and leave all my earthly knowledge, yet I was for having a more convenient opportunity. " Go thy way for this time," was the language of my impenitent heart. At times, I suf- fered my thoughts to roam on things concerning a future state. A heaven of eternal happiness, and a hell of eternal misery, would often be the subjects of my serious contempla- tion ; and though I had no sensible alarm, yet sometimes I thought I must attend to religion before it was too late. At other times, I thought I would delay repentance until old age. " I heard many solemn sermons, and very many warnings and invitations, but rejected them all. I continued in this condition until Friday, Dec. 1st, when I thought I would leave college and go home. Then the thought rushed into my mind, that perhaps I was going directly away from my eternal salvation, and that my conduct might so offend a just and holy God, that he would come out in judgment against me, and "swear that I should never enter into his rest ;" yet this thought I soon shook off, resolving to go home, provided I could get away. Accordingly, I went to Professor H . Scarce had I made my errand known to him, when he began to question me upon the subject of religion. He asked me whether I had attended to it or not. For a moment I stood speechless, thinking what reply to make. I answered him in the negative. He then conversed with me in a manner so affecting to my feelings, that words cannot express it. He seemed unwilling to let me go, until I had at- tended to the one thing needful. He proposed to let me re- turn home in a fortnight, if I would inform him in plain terms, that I had resolved to persist in the ways of sin, and at last go down to destruction. This seemed like an arrow that pierced into the very recesses of my soul. I returned to my room, and thought that from that time, I would seek for religion with an intense desire to obtain it. I took my Bible and turned to the 32d chapter of Deuteronomy, and the 1st chapter of Proverbs. I thought the 35th verse of the former, 3 18 MEMOIR. and the 25th of the latter, applied to my situation. I attend- ed a religious meeting in the college on Saturday evening, was much impressed with a sense of my own guilt, and won- dered at the mercy of God in sparing the life of such a sinner as I was. I admired that God had not cut me off, and assign- ed me a portion among devils and damned spirits. After the meeting was closed, I went into a class-mate's room, who had recently experienced religion. He seeing me look serious, said, ' what do you think of these things V I told him that it seemed to me the revival was about to close, and I was to be left. He conversed with me awhile, and then I retired. I attended meeting on the Sabbath, and a conference in the evening, at the Court-House. On Monday evening, I at- tended a meeting of youth, at a dwelling house in the village. While I was walking to it, I felt so impressed with a sense of sin, it seemed like a burden, and I could hardly support my- self under the heavy load. When I entered the room where the meeting was held, I found those who had assembled, were singing praises to God. I wished that I might be one of the happy number. I was sensible, that all that hindered me from it, was the opposition of my own heart. I was endeav- ouring to do something to merit salvation. This I found I could not do. The meeting was attended with great so- lemnity, such as I never before witnessed. After the close of the meeting, some of the students accompanied me to my room, conversed and prayed with me, but I was so over- whelmed with grief for my sin, which I had committed against my Maker, that I scarcely knew what was passmg around me. Afterwards, while I sat musing on my situation, it seem- ed plam to my mind that life and death were set before me. On the one hand, Clu'ist was inviting me to come to him that I might have hfe, on the other, the devil seemed to be tempting me. Late at night I went to bed, but not to sleep. 1 thought I could exclaim, ' The sorrows of hell compass- ed me about.' I spent the greatest part of the night in meditation ; sometimes I had half a thought to give up the subject and think no more about it : then this passage came to MEMOIR, 10 my mind, ' Remember Lot's wife.' I was in this situation, musing wiiat it was best to do, when this thought occurred to my mind, that all I had to do was to give up myself into the hands of God, and these lines expressed my feelings, * Here Lord I give myself away, 'Tis all that I can do.' I felt that I was willing to surrender myself into the hands of the Saviour, to humble myself at his feet, implore his pardon for my past offences, and solicit his protection for the future. I arose from my bed, and attended prayers in the chapel as usual, and for the fost time, I felt a heart to pray. My burden was gone. " I have enjoyed myself very well since, only I have had some dark hours, fearing lest my hope was not founded on a rock. I believe I can say as much as this, that every thing appears different to me : the word of God, religious worship, ~ christian people, religious conferences, and prayer, which before appeared to be gloomy, now appear quite the reverse. It now seems to me that if there is any happiness in this life, it is in living near to God. I have tried the pleasures and amusements of this world, and found them vain. There are some things which the natural heart calls happiness, but such as always leave a guilty conscience. I think I can enjoy more happiness, in one hour, in reading my Bible, and contem- plating the character of God, than in a whole Ufe of sirt and rebellion against him." As an exhibition of his ability to express his thoughts in sentences, this letter might not be deemed worthy of preser- vation ; but as containing his own views of himself, and of the change which he hoped God had wrought in him, it will be read with interest by all who value the exhibition of piety in others, or are conversant with their own hearts. From this time, a new direction was given to his mind, and he resolved on devoting liimself to the service of Christ, in the work of the ministry. After leaving college, Mr. Wilcox 2^ MEMOIR. spent part of a year in Georgia, with a maternal uncle : he then returned, and entered upon the study of theology, at the Institution in Andover, in the fall of 181-1. Through the delicacy of his health, he was unable during the severity of the w^inter months, to attend upon some of the public exerci- ses, yet he never neglected preparation for any of the requir- ed duties. In the spring after he entered the Institution, one of his classmates,* a very interesting and lovely youth, sickened and died. His class made choice of Mr. Wilcox to deliver an address on the occasion, and the manner in which he perform- ed this office, will long be z-emembered by all who heard him. The tenderness of feeling he exhibited, the chaste and eleva- ted style in which his Eulogy was written, and the eloquence with which it was pronounced, were such as to make it man- ifest that he possessed talents of superior order. While a member of the Institution, he had seasons of suffering from depression of spirits. They who were admitted to an intima- cy with him, thought much less of his dejection, than others who only knew that he chose to be retii-ed, that he was reserv- ed in conversation, and tliat the features of his face often bespoke something preying upon his mind. But when he was required to perform any duty that called forth his talents, there was no indication of neglect in his studies, or want of tone and strength in his intellectual powers. Two of the ex- ercises assigned him while at the Seminary, have appeared in the Christian Spectator.f But the fact must not be concealed, that he really suffered from depression of spirits. There was some things in con- nexion with these sufferings, eminently illustrative of his char- acter. While a member of college, he was " smit with the love of sacred song," and a propensity of heart more dearly cherished than any other, was to serve Christ by composing a lofty song of praise to him — " Benevolence" the theme. He ardently desired to engage in writing upon this favom-ite *Philanthropos Perry, t Vol. I. p. 613. Vol. II. p. 404. MEMOIR. 5« subject, as an employment most congenial to his feelings ; but there were formidable obstacles in the way. He was in debt to nearly the whole amount of his college bills. They who knew his trials on this account, have had seasons of de- pression too ; they have mingled tears, when they thought how much his delicate mind suffered, at times, from a burden of debt which he saw little prospect of discharging, while a love of the muses led him to cast many a wistful look to wards their enchanting bowers. The following extract from a letter written by him in a season of dejection, will best dis- close his trials. " I dread the sight of my pen and half written sermon. Sometimes I sit for whole days without advancing a single let- ter. I sit with my cheek leaning on the palm of my hand, and scarce a day passes in which I do not weep — walk my room with my hands clasped in anguish, and my eyes streaming with tears — sit for hours and gaze into the fire, or on vacan- cy, or out of the window, without noticing any particular ob- ject, or having any particular train of thought, but a deep feel- ing of indescribable wretchedness. " I have such a disheartening consciousness of mv unfitness for the ministrj", that I cannot engage in it. I have studied nothing but poetry, am fit for nothing but poetry. " I dare not look at the setting sun, the placid and beautiful moon, the mild planet of the west, the pure blue heavens, the white flying clouds, the lofty mountain with its waving for- ests, the valley with its green meadows and crystal streams : — I dare not listen to the sweet bird that comes to the tree be- fore my window, and sings from the fulness of its heart, pour- ing forth a stream of melody. "When the clouds gather round and shut out the beauties of the natural world, especially when the storm rages, and beats against my window, I seem ready to wish that they would re- main so forever. It suits the gloom of my soul, I feel a great relief, a burden taken off. And when the hour of sleep comes, and I wrap myself up in the drapery of my couch, I am al- most ready to wish that the sleep of the grave had come, or 22 MEMOIR. that I might never wake again. What will become of me ? The heart knoweth its own bitterness. " I spend my days in sighing, but no sigh heaves off its load from this o'erburdened breast. "My mind is unstrung, relaxed till it has almost lost the pow- er of reaction ; every little labour, seems an Herculean task, every little obstacle, a mountain of difficulty. I have lost all self-controul, all discipline of the thoughts and affections, and become the passive slave of circumstances. I feel borne along in despairing listlessness, conforming to the current in all its windings, and varieties of motion, without resolution enough to raise my head, and look about me, and see where I am ; or forward, to see whither I am going ; the roaring of a cataract before me, would rather lull me to a deeper sleep, than rouse me to a mighty effort for my escape from destruc- tion." This extract exhibits, at least, one of the causes of the con- flict which was passing in his mind, when to his friends, he was so evidently the subject of exquisite suffering. To those who are mere spectators of such a conflict as is rendered visible in the countenance, it undoubtedly appears a mark of imbecility ; but they may be incompetent judges in such a case. They, whose thoughts always flow in dull prose, know not the move- ments of a mind, under the conduct of the muse. One who had poetic reveries, and seasons of exquisite feeling, in which only the initiated can sympathize, but who was an entire stranger to that sweet rest of the soul which Mr. Wilcox en- joyed, has expressed something of this internal anguish, not indeed in his finest strains of poetry, yet in language which poets can understand. " When from the heart where sorrow sits, Her dusky shadow mounts too high, And o'er the changing aspect flits, In clouds that darken all the sky. Heed not the gloom ; they soon shall sink ; My thoughts their dungeon know too well, MEMOIR. 23 Back to my breast the captives shrink, And bleed within their silent cell." While at the Institution, as divine truth was unfolded to his mind, Mr. Wilcox had eminent christian enjoyment, inter- mingled with hours of conflict between his own inclination, and the advice of others. His inclination was very strong to devote himself to the ser- vice of Christ, in writing poetry. The friends to whom he disclosed his feelings, were almost unanimous in the opinion, that the cultivation of fine writing should be subordinate to his greater object, the work of the ministry. One, whose judg- ment he highly valued, and whose early death he deeply felt, wrote to him as follows : " I have no objections to your drinking occasionally at the fount of Hehcon, but I have great fears that you will tumble in and be drowned." Such were some of his sufferings, and such the causes ; but there is evidence that the soul had found its rest and was com- forted, as may be learned from the following letters. Andover, March 22d, 1815. Dear Parents, Your letter surprised as well as affected me, beyond any thing I ever experienced. What ! were all the family awa- ked from sleep with the expectation of seeing my beloved Mother breathe her last, and I still in bed ! O who can suffi- ciently admire that hand which restored you ? Affliction is not sent in vain. O the happiness of that soul, which has a refuge in the hour of death ! The world is poor indeed, for it cannot purchase a moment of comfort, when comfort is most needed. " If I should not visit Orwell within two or three years, I must expect to see it sadly changed ; many will be born, and many die. Gray hairs will drop away ; blooming youth will fade. Many faces I shall not see again, till I meet them at the dread judgment-day. Who knows, but one of my dear parents, or brothers, may be of the number. Let us trust in God, and then all will be well. u MEMOIR. " My health is extremely good. You never saw me as fleshy and ruddy as I am now. This I attribute to the mode- rate weather of past March, and likewise to my regular hours of exercise. Two or three times in the day I am in a washing sweat, and it would do you good to see me then. I am told by my fellow-students, that I have grown fleshy remarkably fast within a month ; and indeed I take some pleasure in looking at my face in a mirror, but I often check myself, with the thought that health is a vain thing for secu- rity. " I am delighted with the study of the Hebrew language. My class recite one day in Hebrew, and the next in Greek. Thus, we are reading the Bible in the words in which it was written. Oh ! there is no book like the Bible ! I am now reading the Psalms in Hebrew, and they are most sublime and beautiful, "In the following letter, is an exhibition of his fraternal affec- tion. Andover, August 17, 1815. Horace, My Dear Little Brother, "I thank you, that you remember brother Carlos, though he has been gone a long time, and a great way off". Alonzo, and Seneca and Stevens remember me too, 1 hope, though they do not or cannot write to me. I wish I could send you and my other little brothers, some more good books. But you must read those I sent to you, a great many times ; and you must pray to God, that He will make them do you much good, make you love him and obey all his commandments. You must mind your parents, and love them, for they love you, and work hard all the time for you. You must read the Bible of- ten, and ask your mother to tell you what you cannot under- stand. When you say the catechism, you must ask what it means, if you do not know. When I was a little boy, I used sometimes to dread the time when I was to say the catechism. Now I am very sorry ; and if you should live to be as old as I am, you will be sorry if you do not love to say the catechism. MEMOIR. 25 You must not play on the Sabbath, you must not look out of the window and be glad when the sun is down, that you may play. God will see you, and be very angry with you and all little boys, who do not love the Sabbath, and the Bible, and the catechism, and other good books, and their parents, and all good people. When you go to meeting, you must look at the minister and mind all he says. There is a pretty, lovely boy here, about as old as Stevens, who always looks at the minister, and when he comes home, can tell a great deal of what he said. Good bye, Horace. Carlos. Dear Parents, Andover, March 14, 1816. I have received your letter and the money. I have much to write in answer, for my heart is full. Whence have I de- served such kindness ? Surely, if we did but know it, we have no friends on earth like our parents. You heard that I was unwell : I am not ; I have had the best health all win- ter. Every day I work an hour and a half at the wood-pile, and walk half an hour besides. I never touch a book after breakfast, until I have laboured an hour ; so that the sweat runs off my face. Thus by exercise, my constitution is re- newed. So my dear father always told me, but like many other of liis precepts, I little regarded it. You say you have heard that I was dejected for want of mon- ey, &c. True, I have not been very high in spirits for some time, but the want of money is but a very small part of the cause. I have not been suffering for want of any thing. I have learnt a few things since I came to Andover, about the real value of money. In a letter from my mother, written last spring, soon after the sickness of herself and my brother, she says — *' Your honoured father is almost worn out with cares and hard labour." — This went to my heart. " Worn out with hard labour" — thought I, and for whom ? for me, me who never earned a cent for myself, and who am now living in ease, upon that property, which he has gained by a long course of industry and economy. The idea, that probably 4 36 MEMOIR. my dear father's days might be shortened by his exertions to support his children, and me in particular, who had been of less service to him, than any of them, sunk deep into my heart, and I have constantly kept it in mind since. It was then, I formed the resolution never to ask him for another cent of that property, which ought to be preserved to sup- port my parents in the decline of life, and to train up the younger children. I am now, thought I, better able to sup- port myself, than my parents are to support me — why should I trespass any more on their goodness ? The money you have now so kindly sent me, I thank you for, and I wish to con- sider it as borrowed. With regard to my support at this excellent Seminary, I can speak freely, and to your satisfaction. My board and washing bills, are paid out of the funds. Wood, candles, &c. we all have to find for ourselves. There is a society of la- dies in Boston, who furnish poor students with all the clothes they wish. And should I barely send in my name, and a list of the articles I wanted, I might have any thing free. But though I have been urged to do it, I have not ; for when I see so many around me, more needy than I, and far more likely to be useful ministers, I have not had the face to do it. The bare possibility, that I may not answer the expectations of benefactors, is more than I wish to endure. * * * I have no thought of leaving the Seminary, unless I should be sick, or some other reason persuade than want of support. The office of the ministry, looks too arduous and too sa- cred for me. Since I have been here, I have learned some of the trials and duties of a faithful minister. From these, I seem to shrink, and dread the responsibility of the station. I begin to find, that a minister has something more to do, than merely to enter the pulpit and pronounce a fine ser- mon. He is to watch and labour for souls in private, as well as in public ; to have an answer for every question of infi- del effrontery, or inquiring penitence. He is to look after the strayed ones of the flock ; to bind up the wounded, &c. Is he to do all this, or is it God through him ? MEMOIR. J87 Besides, it rings in my ears every day, that a man is not fit to be the spiritual guide of others, unless he be eminently pious himself. I dare not claim this character of eminent piety. No, I dare not, I have rather to fear and tremble, lest I have no piety at all. What then shall I do ? How- can I do the most good ? Heaven direct me. I would rather remain in a private, humble sphere, and do little good, than appear in public, and do much harm. It is my con- stant prayer, that I may be led in the path of duty. I hope it will be yours also, my dear parents. I have many, very many melancholy hours, in meditating on this subject. I can never be sufficiently thankful for the blessing o{ pious parents. Little children are apt to think it hard for parents to be always instructing them in religion, and restraining them from vanities ; but when they come to maturity, they will look back cmd bless them. Andover, May 30, 1816. My Dear Mother, You have been sick again it seems. I tremble when I think of your feeble health and my great distance from you. I may not even have time to hear that you are sick, before I hear that you are gone. I cannot come home in a moment, but if you, or my dear father, should be dangerously sick, I beg that you will let me know immediately, that I may fly to your arms with all possible speed. May heaven prepare us for the day of affliction, for come it must, sooner or later. Were there no hope of meeting friends in a happier world, I could almost wish to have no friends in this ; for the bit- terness of separation, and that forever, would be so much the more severe, as the friendship was more ardent. Perhaps there is no direct evidence from the scriptures, that friends will know each other in heaven, but there are circumstances, which render it in the highest degree proba- ble. The rich man in the parable is represented as knowing Lazarus and Abraham ; and surely if the inhabitants of the two states have knowledge of each other, those of each state 28 MEMOIR. separately may be supposed to know each other. We are naturally led by reason, to think that much of the misery of the wicked, will consist in mutual accusations — that the unfaithful parent will writhe with keenest anguish when reproached by the child as the author of his ruin — that the ungodly minister will feel the sharpest stings of remorse when his people shall rail at liim as the cause of their undoing. And if this be so, why may not much of the happiness of the blessed, consist in recounting the many instances of faithfulness in each other ? the child thank the parent for his godly example and pious instructions ? the church welcome their pastor and bid him rejoice in the fruit of all his labours of love ? How could such employment be inconsistent with God's being all in all. My health is excellent. I suppose you will think so, when I tell you that I walk ten miles every day, as steadily as the day comes. Four weeks of our six weeks' vacation have expired. I room at College and board one mile and a half off ; and I go and return at every meal, which makes nine miles. I visit the post-office, or the mineral spring we have here, once a day, which makes more than another mile. In- stead of feeling fatigued, I grow stronger and stronger, so that I verily believe I could walk home, after practising upon this plan a number of months. I long to see you all, and to enjoy again those pleasures that I found in rambling over your lovely farm. Believe me, you have a happy spot — a spot where I could almost wish to spend my days. The great and noisy world, you only hear about at a distance. You know little of the trials and temptations of public life. You have the Bible — you have the preaching of its holy truths — you have kind and pious friends and neighbours, and what more could you ex- pect in this vale of tears ? 1 almost, I do quite envy you the happiness of a retired life — a public station has no charms for your Carlos. MEMOIR. 29 Andover, August 5, 1816. My Dear Parents, i have been considerably unwell for a week or two, and have about concluded that it is best for me to comply with your request made last spring, when you heard that I was "depressed" and "outof heahh ;" that is to come home. Our present ferm is fast drawing to a close, six weeks only re- maining ; then comes a vacation of six weeks. The ex- pense of a journey home on horseback will be very little more than the expense of residing here. A jour- ney on horseback (if I can sit on a horse, for I have hardly tried since I left home) will be the very best thing for my health and spirits. Say, my beloved Parents, shall I again find a home under your generous roof .^^ Can I doubt it ? I feel like a pilgrim and a stranger on the earth ; and am sometimes ready, almost, to lay me down and die. I want very much to see my little brothers. I think 1 should delight to teach their young and tender minds to love their Creator and Redeemer ; to pray to him morning and evening ; to love their Parents and obey them in all things. I thank you, my Parents, a thousand times, for the religious instruction you gave me in childhood. It will never be for- gotten. One of the most wicked and abandoned men in our country, has been known to observe that had it not been for the religious principles instilled into his mind by his father, he should have been a downright atheist. Of so much im- portance is early instruction. How ought I to bless my God for pious parents. But I have reason to lament that I so misimproved these blessings. What have you seen, what has any body seen in my life, since I professed to love God supremely, that gave any evidence of my sincerity ? I may yet be deceived. " Ye shall know them by their fruits," says the blessed Saviour. Where are my fruits ? All my hope must be in the atonement of Christ. " Other refuge have J none." If I come home, I shall probably see you the last of next week. Do not expect me very strongly, for I may possibly, 30 MEMOIR. after all, be disappointed in my plan. If T do not come, then, you must not conclude me sick till you hear from me. I think I derive consolation from the reflection that you are daily praying for me ; and I am never on my knees without praying that you may live to see your prayers answered. Farewell. Conclude me safe, whether at home or abroad. Carlos. Andover, June 21, 1817. Honoured and Dear Parents, You will doubtless be surprised to see that I am again at Andover. I hasten to let you know the reasons and to give some account of my vacation. You already know the cause of my going to Connecticut. I spent three or four weeks with our friends in North Killingworth. A class-mate of mine came to Killingworth, and insisted on my spending a few weeks with him at his mother's house in Saybrook. I stayed with him till the close of the vacation, the twelfth of this month. By giving up study entirely, and passing the whole time in bodily exercise, I recovered my health so far as to deem it ex- pedient to return to this place, and try to stand it this sum- mer. I may be disappointed ; for my complaint has fre- quently disappeared during a vacation of activity, but return- ed with double violence upon being again shut up in a study. How it will be now, time only can determine. I am at pres- ent hardly fit for study, being very poor in flesh, and troubled with pain in my breast. Indeed I have long been convinced that hard study will never agree with my constitution. Look at my health since I first went to Castleton Academy. How often have I been apparently near the consumption with a cough. Every cold that I take, unless peculiar care be taken, will, as long as I am unhardened by exercise and constant ac- tivity, endanger my life. If I should enter the ministry, un- less my constitution should first undergo a great and radical change, I should not expect to live many years. My dear Parents, I had no idea of the labour of writing sermons until MEMOIR, 31 very lately. To write one sermon in a week is here thought to be doing extremely well. It would require harder study than I have been accustomed to, and than my present health would endure, to write, in one week such a sermon as would be expected from one who has enjoyed my advantages. I have seen so many lamentable effects from the bad health of clergy- men,that I dread them. I willgive you one example that I have seen this vacation. An excellent minister has a weak consti- tution, and is subject to many complaints that keep him al- most constantly indisposed. After hard labour in writing his sermons during the week, frequently, on the Sabbath, his health is so poor that he cannot preach more than half of the day. Monday morning he is seen riding out for his health. His people who are at work by the way-side, say, " Ah ! he is well enough to ride out and take his ease ; but he cannot preach — a fine story, &c." They think him not worthy of his hire ; and instead of treating him with tenderness and sympa- thy, even the members of his church talk together about him as though he were to be blamed — as though his sickness were all a whim, or a fit of spleen. In short, a minister must preach if he is able to be off his bed, or be charged with neglect of duty. Such treatment would throw a person of my feelino-s into the lowest state of dejection — it would kill me outright. I cannot think of it without tears. Several students who have completed their studies at this Seminary, have not ven- tured to take upon them the arduous work, the immense and responsible charge of the minister and pastor of a peo- ple, on account of their feeble health ; but have conscien- tiously gone into some other more active employment. I make these remarks with no direct reference to my case at present, but only to prepare your minds for what mio-ht happen. I think if I know my own heart, that I desire to hve to the glory of God, and the good of my fellow men. I wish to keep in mind the day of death and the awful scenes of eternity. What is there worth living for but reli- gion ! It is my present intention, if Providence permit, to stay 32 MEMOIR. here my time out, till the last of September ; and to make a trial at preaching as the Professors advise me. What destruction has death made in Orwell since I left it. I expect to have a solemn time if I ever live to enter your meeting house again. May God preserve my dear Parents and brothers, or prepare them for death. Your Carlos. When Mr. Wilcox appeared before the public as a preach- er, the expectations of those who had enjoyed the opportu- nity to appreciate his talents, were fully realized ; and they who had viewed him as subject to melancholy, and had form- ed their opmion from his enfeebled bodily constitution, were surprised at the elevated stand which he was enabled to take and maintain. In his sermons a classic purity of style was conspicuous. His thoughts were mature and elevated, adorned with elegance of diction, and in the delivery pro- nounced with eloquence. In his highest flights, no hearer was ever startled with a harsh or unintelligible word. Some passages may be faulty from a redundancy of words, and an exuberance of epithets, but w^hen they were delivered, the hearers had rather the impression, that the mind by which they were composed, was filled to overflowing with rich thoughts and sweet expressions, than labouring to attain them. These characteristics of his early attempts in wai- ting sermons and in preaching, did not vary essentially from those of his last. They were filled with poetic thoughts, yet the expressions and the collocation of words, were always pure and chaste prose ; and if any appearance of eftbrt is discernible in his composition, it is to come down from the poetic elevation in w hich his thoughts most naturally soared, and speak wdth the simplicity of a child in plain prose. It should however, be added, that it is not in the beauties of fine writing, that the chief merit of his sermons consists. They are plain and impressive exhibitions of the great truths of the gospel, and appeal to the conscience and the heart. After having finished the regular course of Theological MEMOIR. 63 studies at Andover, he chose to prolong his residence for a few months at that favoured place. In the spring of 1818, he returned to his father's house, where he spent a year. It was during tliis period, that he laid his plan for a Poem enti- tled the " Age of Benevolence." At the expiration of the year, his health being improved, he commenced preaching, and continued for about twelve months, failing scarcely a Sabbath. The first three months, he preached in Pittstown, N. Y. performing the various duties of a clergyman with great acceptance. He then visited the western part of Con- necticut, and preached in the towns of Huntington, New- Stratford Society^, now Monroe, Newtown and Norwalk. Extracts from some of his letters, written during this pe- riod, are submitted to the public. New-Stratford, in Huntington, Sept. 24, 1819. Having wandered from place to place without letters of introduction and without friends, in search of employment, till I had spent almost my last cent of money, I was under the necessity of stopping and of denying myself the pleasure of attending commencement. You recollect your promise of writing me at New-Haven, by that time. I requested a man from this town, who went to that place on the day after Commencement, to enquire at the Post-Office for letters. No letter there. The week following, I sent again and re- ceived the same intelligence. I conclude therefore if you wrote at all, you must have written by some person who ex- pected to see me in N. Haven. Be that as it may, I have not heard a whisper directly or indirectly from you since I left S . Nor do I expect to hear now till you know where I am. To give you this information is the object for which I have taken up my pen ; but since I have a large sheet before me, I may as well blot it over with something, as make you pay postage for white paper. After I parted with you at the division of the roads, the burden which I had felt all the morning, in consequence of being obliged once more to sally forth without any particular des« 5 34 MEMOIR. tination, and without any letter of recommendation or introduc- tion, literally to seek my fortune, was soon removed by that freedom from all restraint, which being left on a sudden to one's self gives to the bosom swelling with feelings long re- pressed. When I had got off my horse at a shaded rock by the way-side, about a quarter of a mile from the place of our parting, and given myself up to the luxury of weeping a while over my situation, I then mounted again and rode on, as con- tented and happy as if my way was clear before me. I arrived at L. an hour before sunset. Put up at Mr. C — ^'s, a good house — landlord pious. A gentleman mentioned at the table that L. ought to congratulate itself on being the birth-place of the prince of American poets. Upon hear- ing this speech, I, who had hitherto minded nobody but my- self and nothing but my plate, suddenly looked up, and en- tered into a long conversation with the author, on subjects relating to his singular speech. He said he had lately read a foreign Review, in which was a critique on Mr. P's poetry, containing much about there being no poets in this country, and then placing Mr. P. at the head of them, mentioning likewise that we had no divines of note, except Mr. C. &c. So Mr. Reviewer, whoever you are, it is very manifest what you are, and how much your opinion is worth on such subjects. After tea, I took a walk up the west side of the street running North. I met Mr. B. in company with an- other gentleman. We passed as near each other as possi- ble. He looked at me but did not recollect me, and I felt so much inclined to be alone, that I passed without introdu- cing myself I saw no more of him while in L. I continued to pace the side-walk to and fro, from one end of the street to the other. The evening was one well calculated to de- light the pensive mind. At sunset and after, the western sky was richly beautiful. L. is one of the most pleasant vil- lages in the country ; my walk was in the pleasantest part of it, the evening was one of the pleasantest in the year, and why should I go to my lodgings till the fear of being shut out of doors compelled me ? Next day I proceeded onward as MEMOIR. 3ft far as N., the day after to S. Mr. D. was still unable to preach and his pulpit unsupplied. I offered to preach a Sab- bath for him which was gladly accepted. I busied myself till Sabbath in reading the Christian Observer and Christian Spectator, with a design of comparing their merits in several particulars, and in reading Buchanan's Life, from which I hope to receive material benefit in some respects, especially from his maintaining while in college the spirit of devotion in a high degree, in the midst of the closest attention to mathe- mathical studies; and from the energy and perseverance with which he pursued every good object that came in his way till death. After having preached on the sabbath, the next day I rode to N. and called at the house where those who had supplied the pulpit had boarded. The man of the house, one of the Society's Committee, being absent from home, I conversed with his wife who is a very intelligent and interesting woman. She observed that they were a large people, that they were pretty particular, and expected something above mediocrity, that they were already divided in consequence of having several candidates, and one in par- ticular who came and offered to preach, thus pressing him- self into the pulpit uninvited, that Messrs. O. and H. had been recommended to them, and finally, that the Committee had written to Mr. S. to recommend some one from the next class, having understood that there were young men of talents in it. So you see I had got out of my latitude. I had nothing to do but to back out with as good a grace as I could, and be off with myself. Ah me ! I am in a strange land without a pass. " Be hushed my dark spirit, for wisdom condemns What the faint and the feeble deplore, Be firm as the rock of the ocean, that stems A thousand wild waves on the shore." On returning to S. I went five miles out of my way to visit G. It is indeed a delightful place, and I almost thought 36 MEMOIR. of settling down there and turning poet. I went so far as to enquire the price of board. I then turned my face northward again, deeming it high time to retreat into the woods and hide myself I came to this place and preached a Sabbath and received a request to continue three months. I consented out of necessity; and here I am, labouring at the rate of 350 dollars a year, when I am in debt 630, 100 of which must be paid in two months, and the remainder as fast as possible. At this rate, I may possibly be free from debt some three or four years hence, should providence spare my life and health and reason. As a man and his wife are but one, this letter must be con- sidered as addressed to both of you, one complex person. Again, If a man and wife make but one, then either of you alone is but half a one. Consequently a letter from either of you alone will be but half a letter. Therefore if either of you write alone, you must write twice to my once, other- wise I shall not consent to balance accounts. Yours with much respect and affection, C. W. Huntington, Nov. 2, 1819. Dear Brother and Sister, Your letter came to hand just in time to relieve me from the fear of being forgotten, and from the fear that all was not well with you. I am permitted to call you brother and sister. That word sister sounds very novel and sweet in my ear. I was never before permitted to call any one by the tender and endearing appellation. Permit me to congratulate you with all my heart on the birth of a young poetess. Does not the little stranger already begin to sing? Do not the bees begin to light on her lips to sip honey while she sleeps in the cradle ; as according to fable they did upon those of Pindar? Have you never yet dreamt, as Socrates did respecting his pupil Plato, that you had embraced a young swan, which nestled in your bosom till its feathers were full grown, and then stretching out its MEMOIR. 37 wings, soared to an immense height in the air, singing all the while with inexpressible sweetness? I begin to look back upon the period which I spent with you as a golden dream, too bright to be forgotten, and too happy to be remembered without pleasure, but too transient to be remembered without pain, "pleasant but mournful to the soul." I regret to hear that your trials continue. I hope that God will enable you to maintain your ground, and continue to blow not a "ram's horn," but the silver trumpet of the gospel, till the sound ring through all the rallies, and echo on the mountains, so long and so loud, as to wake the dry bones to life. Have you seen Mr. S — 's letters to Mr. C? They are ad- mirable. The spirit with which they are written is altogether new in the history of controversy. The book is in this re- spect, as well as in others, the best piece of controversial di- vinity that ever I read. My engagements in this place extend to the first Sabbath in Dec. inclusive. What will become of me then is uncer* tain. I trust the Lord will direct me, and provide for me. Yours most affectionately, C. W. Norioalk, January ^Q, 1820. 1 have very strong reasons for not settling in the min- istry at present. In the first place, I am in debt six hundred dollars ; and the experience of other ministers has convin- ced me that unless I pay the debt before I settle, I shall never pay it. In the second place, I grow more and more confirmed in the belief that I can do more good in some other capacity than that of a settled clergyman. I said the same, years ago, but was advised and urged to make the tri- al as fairly as practicable. I have now preached about a year, and performed all the duties of a settled clergyman, except that of administering the ordinances. I have preach- ed, and lectured, and visited ; but while I have endeavoured to feed others, I have been starving my own soul. When I 38 MEMOIR. hear others preach and pray, I am happy, I hope 1 am sometimes devout ; but when I preach and pray myself, I am neither devout nor happy. Solemn, alarming confes- sion ! What shall I do ? Where shall I go ? I have thought very seriously of v^^hat you said to me res- pecting a connexion with the Christian Spectator. The di- rection of my former studies and my present inclination, ap- pear in favour of such a connexion. But I know not wheth- er the thing can now be brought about. Let the subject rest for the present. I have my head full of a previous project, a project not just now started, but nearly completed. Now for a great secret. The year ending with March 1819, I spent at my father's house, exclusively employed in writing a didactic jJoem in the school of Young and Cowper. Now you may laugh at me, and pity me, and pray for me, but you must not advise me to give it up. Such advice will only distract me for a little while without persuading me. I have gone too far to go back. Five thousand lines are finished ; one thousand more are wanting to complete the plan. The subject is "The age of Benevolence ;" and you who know so well what is doing at the present day for the extension of Christ's kingdom, know the subject is a great and good one, and one that will do much towards saving the work from contempt. I have done nothing to it since last April, at which time I left it in its present state in order to pay some debts, that could remain unpaid no longer. I find that I can do nothing to it while 1 continue to perform all the various du- ties of preaching, lecturing, visiting, &c. I M^ant my time all to myself, that 1 may have my mind all to myself. I am now re- solved to devote five or six months to finishing, correcting, copying &c. &:c. that 1 may get the work oflf my hands. I want some place for utter seclusion. Where shall 1 find it ? Dare I ask for a home under your roof? I mean as a boarder, not as a beggar. Will it be convenient and agreeable ? Can I have a little lonely chamber ? Do write me a speedy answer to this singular request. Refusal will be less intolerable than suspense. I wish to know which way to turn. And now MEMOIR. ay since I have thus committed myself to your mercy, do not betray me nor despise me. It is not without a great strug- gle, that this secret is wrung from me. While I was with you I was a hundred times upon the very point of letting it out; but I had not resolution enough to meet the cold encourage- ment of mingled pity and affection. Remember me in those hours when a poor erring mortal most needs to be remember- ed. C. W. P. S. I shall probably repent that I have written tliis let- ter as soon as it is gone. Norwalk, March 1, 18'20. Your kind letter was indeed a reviving cordial to my droop- ing spirits. My health has been failing for some time past, and with it my mind has felt its usual sympathy. The palpi- tation of the heart, a complaint which has afflicted me, more or less, for four or five years, has increased during the past fall, and the present winter, to an alarming degree. I have long been accustomed to pass it off with a laugh, but it has been gain- ing ground so long that it has become no laughing matter. It was brought on at first, by the weak consumptive state of health, with which I was afflicted during the whole of my fii'st winter at Andover. Medicine appears to have no effect to- wards removing it. I have worn a strengthening plaster for a month or two, and have taken wine-bitters, prepared with various bracing ingredients. I have also taken the oxid of iron, together with various other infallible cures, but all to no purpose. Last week I was bled, because a young man in this place, who almost died with the same complaint, was cured by bleeding. But he was -a person quite fleshy and full of blood. The very reverse is the case with me. I had no blood to lose, and fainted away before half a pint had been taken from me. I continued to faint during the day, so soon as I attempted to sit up. My disorder serves to weaken me in several ways ; directly, by its violence, and indirectly, by in- juring my appetite and disturbing my sleep. I am troubled with it some days, almost incessantly, and on none, am I en- 40 MEMOIR. tirely free from it. It is much the most violent on the Sab- bath. When the hour for pubhc worship draws nigh, my trembling diffidence increases it to such a degree, as to pros- trate my strength, and render my task almost insupportable. I have not preached for six weeks past, without suffering the most violent palpitation, during the greater part of the exer- cises. Several times, I have felt as if I should fall down with faintness, even in time of prayer. It is very disagreea- ble, as well as painful to preach, when I feel so. Last Sab- bath I was not able to preach at all. My physicians advise me to give up preaching for the present. I have not written a sermon for ten weeks. If I preach any longer, I must write, but I cannot endure the labour of composing two sermons a week, without taking a great share of bodily exercise, and I cannot take any at all without bringing on my complaint. If I sit still, indigestion brings it on. Thus am I straitened on every side. But I hope that a little relaxation and systematic exercise, together with the opening spring, will enable me to study so much as not entirely to forget the use of my books and my pen. The beauties of your mountains on which I hope to take many a delightful ramble, and the beauties of your lakes and streams, together with the care of your garden ; and above all your own sweet company, will restore my health and spirits, if any thing can restore them. I hope to grasp your hand, ere this month is at an end. Pray that I may be directed, and healed, and supported by Him who do- eXh all things well. C. W. These letters have been inserted, because they contain more full disclosures than could otherwise have been made, of his plans and feelings at the time they were written. — Though he had disclosed his intention of devoting some time to the writing of poetry, to two of his most intimate college friends, as appears from their answers to his letters, it is be- lieved that this was the first time he definitely made known his design to write the " Age of Benevolence." He left Norwalk about the first of April, 1820, and through MEMOIR. 41 relaxation and exercise, attended by the blessing of Divine Providence, he gradually increased in strength, and obtained a temporary relief from the disease with which he was so se- verely afflicted. The two following years, with the exception of a few weeks, were employed at the house of a friend in Salisbury, Con. upon the above mentioned poem. On sitting down to this labour, he found it greater than he had anticipated, or at least we may draw this inference from the fact, that instead of getting it off his hands in a few months, only the first book was prepared to make its appearance after the lapse of two years. These years were not wasted m idle musings. His ha- bits of study were such as become every student. His time was carefully divided between close application, efficient exer- cise, and relaxation of mind by devotional and literary read- ing. He wrote and corrected with great care, and endeav- ored to add a definite number of lines every day. On some days he wrote many more than he proposed to himself as his task, and in the review he examined, and re-exammed, every word with nice discrimination. He seemed to find high enjoyment in social reading, inter- mingled with fi'ee conversation upon the merits of the book read, the signification and power of words, and the philoso- phy of language. The North American Review was a fa- vorite literary work. Foster's Essays, and Baxter's Saint's Rest were always on his table, and it is believed that scarce- ly a day passed in wliich he did not read some pages of one, or both of them. But the Bible was the book, upon the pages of which he delighted most to dwell. From all other books he would turn to this, with a glow of feeling, and with a cheerful expression, which made it manifest that he had chosen this for his heritage forever. These two years were spent in uniform cheerfulness. He lost no time "weather-bound," or suffering under mental de- pression. Like every other writer, he saw days in which, from some indescribable cause, his mind was less fitted for originating thought, yet those days were not spent in despair- 6 42 MEMOIR. ing complaints. They were employed in transcribing what he had previously corrected, or in select and judicious read- ing. He chose to see but little company, that he might pros- ecute his work without interruption: yet he evidently en- joyed society in a high degree, and was never more happy and eloquent, than when in the social circle he expressed his thoughts on literary subjects, or on practical religion. — His conversation was characterized by good sense, correct and dehcate taste, and ardent piety. Of himself he spoke little, and always with humility. Before strangers he was reserved, especially on every thing relative to his own em- ployment or feelings on the subject of poetry. Indeed, du- ring these two years, he was never known to exhibit a line of poetry, of his own composition, to his most intimate friends. He preached a few times, but never without suffering for a day or two, and sometimes for a week afterwards, with the palpitation of the heart. For a respite from study, he spent about ten weeks in the spring of 1821, at East-Haven, in the family of the late Dea. Morris. Of these days he often spoke as among the happiest in his life. The delightful scenery, the retirement, and the friends he there found, rendered them peculiarly exhilarating to his mind : and by that circle of friends, made happier by his company, he will never be forgotten. At the expiration of the second year, he had written, or rath- er re-written, as appears from his letter of Jan. 28, 1820, about nine thousand lines, and prepared the first book for the press. To the friends with whom he resided, he read the first book and part of the fourth, and what may be added as exhibiting a trait of his character, he began by reading a number of un- poetic lines from Cowper and Milton, which he had tran- scribed for that purpose. He read the first book to two other friends, and it is not known that any other ever saw or heard a fine of the production of these three years labours, until they saw the first part of his work from the press. The plan of publishing the first book by itself, was adopt- ed through the advice of one of the friends to whom he read MEMOIR. ♦S the manuscript, in whose judgment he placed great confi- dence, though all his other acquaintance, whom he is known to have consulted, thought it better to publish the whole at once. Had the state of his finances allowed him to have pubhshed the whole at his own expense, this course he would have preferred. It is deeply to be regretted, that the whole work, when thus prepared, or nearly so, for the pubhc, was not sent forth under the author's own care. The reception which the first book met with, ought not to have discouraged him. The thousand copies printed, found as ready sale as could have been expected, considering it was but a frag- ment. His own views and feelings, while his little work was in the press, and afterwards, are expressed in some of the fol- lowing letters to his friends. New-Haven, Ajiril 29, 1822. " O that mine enemy had written a book !" This is the saying of an author, who thought it right to hate his enemy and to wish him all manner of evil. You may think this a sad beginning. I have just returned to my room from the book-store, where I saw the first hundred out of my thou- sand copies brought in ; when lo ! and behold ! the three first copies which I laid my hands on, were bound all helter-skelter, the beginning in the middle, and the last end first. The book- seller snatched them up, and ran to the binders, then in came the binder, and we began to look them over one by one. — Soon there came in a man, and took up one and began to read. I trembled and hurried out of the house, but heard before I reached the door, the very comforting enquiry, — " WTio is this Carlos Wilcox ?" I will now go back to the beginning of my dealmgs with printers and booksellers, for as you perceive, I have begun this letter in the true epic style, that is, in the middle of my story. After I had recov- ered from the illness of which I informed you, I went to see Mr. C . He had too much work on hand to print my thing. I then went by the advice of Mr. F , to A. H. 44 MEMOIR. Maltby &, Co. and made a bargain for printing and doing up the work in the style in which you see it. This form was declared by every one, to be much more saleable than any other for a work of the kind and size. When I saw the printer's boy come into my room with the first proof sheet, I felt almost inclined to throw it into the fire at once, with- out looking at it ; so painful was my solicitude respecting the appearance of my ideas in print. My agitation, together with my familiar acquaintance with every line, rendered me quite unfit to do the business of correction. But the worst of all was to find in the second proof, after some dozen of sheets had been struck oflf, that the printer had spelt " plough," " plow," and not because it was so in the manuscript, but be- cause he thought it was sometimes spelt so, and would thus save turning up the end of the line. This you may well sup- pose was not very favourable for the palpitation of the heart. I went into the printer's office and had the press stopped for the correction of this error and several others. You know nothing about the pleasure of being in such a place, and hear-- ing your poetry groaning beneath the press, and chinking in the type-setter's fingers. You never thus listened to the mu- sic of your OM^n numbers. The Rev. Mr. S. has just called upon me and object- ed to the price of the poem ; and I have been to the book- seller, and altered it from thirty-seven and a half cents to twenty-five. About fifty had been sold, but the buyers of these are to receive back the difference. Many of my friends have come to me and remonstrated against the change in' the price. Mr. H tells me, it had been better to raise it to fifty. And Mr. D , who has some acquaintance with the book-selling business, says it will not sell half as well in the city, as it would at a higher price. In a multitude of coun- sellors there is . I can bear complaints about too low, but not about too high, so the price must stand at twenty-five, though it will leave me, even if the m^ioIc edition be sold, MEMOIR. 45 next to nothing, after deducting the expenses of printing, and the thirty-three and a third per cent of the bookseller. Yours affectionately, C. W. New-Haven, Maij 31, 1822. 1 have lately received a very interesting letter from my mother, from which I have the happiness to learn, that two of my brothers have lately become hopefully pious. My friend, I must preach the gospel, though 1 have much reason to believe that my health will fail, and my life be cut short. I shall endeavour to complete the " Age of Be- nevolence," but perhaps at the rate of one book in a year. For the present I must do nothing but write sermons. O, pray for me. I have not preached yet, but I expect to at- tempt next sabbath. Where I shall spend the summer, is uncertain. July 18. — If I can have my health, I must preach, or do something to enable me to pay my debts. I cannot write poetry while I am thus embarrassed. A young brother of mine has written, that he has begun to fit for college with a view to the ministry, and that our father has told him, that he must stop now, unless I can pay him very soon. He has written me a pleading letter, the thought of which, makes me weep. August 27. — Your letter I did not receive till this morning, in consequence of being absent for a week. To some part of your plan 1 have strong objections. 1 wish you not on any account, to collect your money with the expectation of loaning it to me. I thank you a thousand times for your of- fer, but I cannot consent to accept of it. 1 cannot, because if 1 should die before 1 became able to refund the loan, you might lose it ; whereas, if I should die without paying my fa- ther, the debt would be discharged by that event. At any rate, 1 cannot bring my feelings to accede to this part of your plan. With respect to "' The Book," you judge correctly in say- 46 MEMOIR. ing, that I shall not be able to do much towards it wliile engaged in preaching. I know very well that I shall not. The la- bour of preaching, with my palpitation of heart, produces such an exhaustion of strength and spirits, that to re-write an old sermon, or make out a new one, takes up the whole week, besides the many hours consumed by necessary and unnecessary interruptions. But as I have undertaken to preach again, I feel it my duty to continue, while my health will permit. The cold weather of winter, will perhaps put a stop to the business." New-Haven, Dec. 6, 1822. My Dear Brother Alonzo, I have been informed by a letter from H , that you have been dangerously sick, but are now on the recovery. I hope that this letter will find you quite well again. You are now, perhaps, better qualified to estimate aright the val- ue of an interest in the salvation of Christ, than ever you were. When you lay on a bed of anguish, and appeared to be near the eternal world, did not all beneath the sun seem less than nothing and vanity ? Did not the worth of the imperishable soul, then seem greater than that of the whole world ? Do not forget what you then thought of sin, of the vain amusements and vain emoluments of earth. Do not forget what you then thought of the friendship, the company, the conversation, and the immoralities of the wicked. Continue to estimate things as you then estimated them, and to feel respecting them as you then felt. I hope that God has brought you to love him, and will now giv^ you a heart to love him more fervently. Live near to God, my dear brother, and you will be happy here and hereafter. All things wall work together for your good, in life, in death, and in eternity. God has designed by this sickness to show you how frail you are, how entirely de- pendent on him. What is our hfe, but a vapour that appear- eth for a little while and then vanisheth away ? On Tues- day of this week, I saw a girl thirteen years old, breathe her last, in the midst of weeping parents and sisters. She prayed MEMOIR. 47 earnestly to Christ to have mercy on her, and on all around her. She prayed almost with her last breath, though in the greatest distress. It was to me a solemn, and I hope a profitable scene. Pray for me, write to me, and give me an account of your religious views and feelings. January 7, 1823. I have lately read Scott's Life, and I think it has done me good. It is truly a valuable book. It far exceeded my ex- pectations. What an example of strength of purpose, and in- defatigable industry ! Wliat self-denial and what singleness of aim ! What apostolic devotedness to the great work of the mmistry ! There is likewise, in my opinion, much evidence of a great and original mind, much more than in his Commen- tary. There is a vividness of conception and expression, which we do not find in any of his works before pubhshed. Pray for me, my friend, that I may possess, not the greatness of Dr. Scott, but some of his self-denial, industry and devot- edness. You probably expect me to say what I intend to do in re- gard to the poem. Why really I cannot tell. I do not give up the intention of finishing it, at some future period. The first book will soon be forgotten ; and let it. At some future period of my life, if it should be prolonged, and circum- stances should permit, I may re-write the first book, and finish the rest, and then send abroad a volume, instead of a primer pamphlet. Strafford, Feb. 16, 1823. My Dear Mother, By a letter from brother H. I hear that you are quite sick, and have been so for a considerable time. I have long waited in vain for a letter from you. Your sickness accounts for your silence. Were it not for the cold weather and un- pleasant travelling, I think I should immediately start for Or- well. As it is, I feel it my duty to wait, at least till I hear something further respecting you. In the mean time, I 48 MEMOIR. would gladly say something for your consolation, and some- thing to show that I tenderly love you, and pray for you dai- ly. You know well that the only source of true comfort, even in health, is the God and Father of our Lord Jesus Christ. He is the overflowing and inexhaustible fountain of light, and life, and joy, even in the vigour of our days,^and in the sunshine of worldly prosperity. What then must He be in our days of pain and affliction. In such seasons, the ques- tion may be asked with double force, " To whom shall we go but to Him V We need not go to any other. He is enough for the soul's eternal portion. If it be filled with all the ful- ness of God, it surely cannot want any thing more. Though your heart and flesh should fail, my dear mother, may God be the strength of your heart, and your portion forever. It is my continual and earnest prayer, that you may be speedily restored to health, that you may live to see all your children ornaments in the church and blessings to the world, and that you may enjoy an old age clearer than the noon day, with- out a cloud, bright with the visions of an approaching Heav- en. May God spare you, that you may recover strength, before you go hence to be here no more. But should it not be the will of Heaven to restore you to health, I trust you will have strength of faith to support you in the sinking hour of death, and brightness of hope to cheer you in its darkness. I have lately seen a copy of the last letter, that my dear friend, Levi Parsons, dictated to Mr. Fisk. It was written only three days before his death. At the close of the letter, he breathes out his soul in a strain like the following. ' My mortal frame grows weaker every hour, but my imperishable spirit becomes more and more vigorous. The world fades away and recedes from my view ; while heaven comes near- er and grows brighter. The world will soon vanish forever, and all will soon be heaven.' With such a view of the world of glory opened before liim, did this ethereal spirit bid fare- well to all below, clap his wings in triumph, and take its up- ward flight. I often think of him as walking in white among MEMOIR. 49 the glorified immortals, I often think of him in connexion with his favourite hymn, beginning, * When I can read my title clear To mansions in the skies, I'll bid farewell to every fear And wipe my weeping eyes.' I often think of him as among the ransomed of the Lord, who have returned from all their earthly wanderings, and come home to the heavenly Zion, with songs and everlasting joy upon their heads, and have obtained joy and gladness, where sorrow and sighing shall forever flee away ; where the Lamb, which is in the midst of the throne shall lead them to living fountains of water ; and where God himself, with his own right hand, shall wipe away all tears from their eyes, and fill their souls with his own fulness of purity and bliss. O, is it not enough, my dear mother, to die such a death as that of this dear servant of God, after having lived a life like his ? What more can we desire ? If we are thus pre- pared to leave the earth, in the high triumph of faith, or with the peace of humble and holy resignation, what matter is it, whether the summons for our departure come in youth, in middle life, or not till old age ? A few years, more or less than those appointed to us, in this world of darkness and sin, of sorrow and death, would hardly be remembered in that world where all is bright, and pure, and happy, and everlast- ing. While, therefore, I cease not to pray that you may be spared for the sake of your family and the church, I do not forget the more important petition, that you may abide in Christ while here, and that hereafter you may be a joint heir with him to an inheritance, incorruptible, undefiled, and that fadeth not away. I know that this has always been your prayer for me. Let it be so still. Pray also that 1 may have strength and grace to perform the duties of a faithful minis- ter of Jesus. This you have long done ; and with regard to strength of body at least, I feel confident that your prayer is answered. Ever since the date of my last letter, I have been 50 MEMOIR. able to preach twice on the Sabbath, and twice during the week. My health is now quite good, though I am obhged to be very cautious respecting my diet. — March 3, 1823. I received your last just as I had taken my pen to write a singing lecture to preach at Derby, from the follow ing text : " My heart is fixed, O God, my heart is fixed. I w ill sing and give praise." I suppose you will regard this coincidence as a providential intimation, that it is my duty to give up preach- ing, and go to sinking with a fixedness of heart. Your ad- vice accords with that of a man of no less note than Mr. F , who recently enquired of me when another number was coming out ; to which I gave answer that I did not know, as I felt it my duty to preach while I was able. His reply was in the following words : " Yours is a high kind of preach- ing ; you get at people that we preachers cannot reach. The amount of good that Cowper has done, and will do, is incal- culably more than he could have done as the minister of a sin- gle parish." Yes, added Br. B , who was standing by, " a thousand times." The truth, my friend, requires me to confess that your ad- vice and the opinion of these eminent christian friends, are pleasing enough to my heart. All my wishes, as well as my tastes, my studies, my habits of thinking, feeling, and acting, incline me to pursue the course recommended. I might mention others, who have concurred in the opinion which you have expressed on this subject. Even Mr. T., who is no great lover of poetry, as such, remarked to me some months ago, that he thought I could not do better than to continue wri- ting for the public ; and Mrs. T. added that she was afraid the Age of Benevolence would not come, if I became settled in the ministry. The news-papers, as you may have obsei-ved, have at various times said enough to encourage me to pro- ceed in my undertaking. I mention these things to convince you, that I have not hung up my harp in a pet of disappointed pride. I love it as well as ever I did ; and would continue MEMOIR. 61 to manifest my attachment as I have begun, if my conscience and the christian pubhc, instead of a few individuals, would bear me out in it. You may think that my conscience ought to operate in a different manner, in view of the tacit pledge of more books to come, given to the purchasers of the first. But if the first book alone is not worth twenty-five cents, I am sor- ry that any arguments of yours, should have prevailed on any person to purchase it. In saying this, I would not deny the greatness of my obligations to you , for all the pains you have taken to promote its circulation. For this I hope to be al- ways grateful. But will not all the reaction you speak of, pass by you and light on my single head ? If it will I shall be glad, for I have so many greater troubles, that this will scarcely be regarded. Some of these greater troubles are, my past neglect of theological studies for those merely lite- rary — my past and present unfitness of constitutional temper- ament for the active, and public duties of the ministry — my total destitution of books, and my debts, which will keep me thus destitute for years to come, so that I must make ser- mons entirely out of my own head, filled as it has long been, with only poetical images, instead of divine truth. Another tiling ; the few sermons that I have on hand, written for the most part, at leisure, and among commentaries, lexicons, and systems of divinity, have given me more reputation, than in my present circumstances, I can possibly support under the weight of labours devolving on a settled minister. At least, the effort necessary to support it, increased as it per- haps is by my authorship, will leave me no time to count syl- lables on my fingers, and will probably break down my health and spirits, which are now sufficiently low. But notwith- standing all the disheartening circumstances in my situation and prospects, I am fixed in my determination to preach the gospel, while God gives me strength. Here are Presbyterians, Episcopalians, Baptists, Metho- dists, Antinomians, Arminians, Triangulars, Hopkinsians, Universahsts, Socinians, and Nothingarians, huddled together ih one fomenting mass, in this little town, containing only 53 MEMOIR. 1600 souls. A few years ago, all these sects had their rep- resentatives in the congregational church, and many of them have to this day. 8ome of each are generally at meeting on the Sabbath, one half of the day, at least, provided it has not stormed for a week past, and does not look likely to storm for a week to come. It is unpleasant enough to preach to such a mixed audi- ence. But this is one of the trials, that I must endure with patience and fearlessness. Forget not to pray, that I may be supported, and guided by the Spirit of all Grace. Your friend and brother, C. W. Neic-Haven, May 28, 1823. With respect to my own affairs, I am to preach here one Sabbath more, and beyond that I have no definite plan. I hope that by next Nov. I shall have something in the shape of a home, of some kind or other. How it can be brought about, is more than I can possibly discover. I cannot de- scend to reason on the subject, and obtain the desired object by ordinary means ; I can only wish for it, and dream about it, and imagine it just at hand, and of course, it is likely to be as far from me as ever. Would that I could break through the enchantment of a fond imagination ! But 1 have not the strength, and health, and resolution to do it. I need the grace of God, I need the prayers of my friends, I need their sym- pathy and encouragement. Southbunj, Nov, 15, 1823. You have another daughter for me to name. Let me see, — Julia and Adeline. — What next ? Caroline ? No. That is too much like Adeline, to come next to it. We will lay that aside for the present. Shall it be Amelia ? No. That is too much like Julia, to come so near it. You have now one of two classes of pretty names, you want one of an- other class. Elvira and Almira come into a third class. In a fourth, may be included Charlotte, Antoinette, Juliet. But the last is too much like Julia. Thev would look and sound MEMOIR. 53^ sweetly together for twin sisters. Eniihj, Irene, Mart/, arc sweet names, belonging to no class. If I were to choose among all these smooth liquid names, perhaps I should say that Charlotte, will come in well after Julia and Adeline. So much for names. Yours, &c. C. W. This last paragraph has been transcribed from his letters, because it is an exemplification of the author's taste. He loved to dwell upon smooth, sweet-sounding words. New-Haven, June 18, 1823. Ten thousand thanks for your delightful letter. It was put into my hands by H , at a moment when I needed something to exhilarate my spirits. I had just been gazing in solitary pensiveness, over the beautiful elms of this city, as their thick and fresh foliage slept without motion in the light of a golden sun-set. I had looked till the city, with its deep green groves, was left in the shade, and only the spire of its loftiest tower, was shooting up into the region of brightness. I had watched the last beams, till they had climbed the glitter- ing pinnacle, and vanished in mid-air ; and with my eyes still fixed in their upward direction, and my head resting on my hand, as I sat alone at my window, I was musing on those bright visions of happiness, pursued by the imaginative youth, till they vanish in the clouds, and leave him to the dark reali- ties of the world below, — when I was waked from my reverie, by the arrival of your letter. I read it again and again, till I felt completely restored to the region of common sense, and common hfe — the world of living, and acting beings of flesh and blood. The account that you give of the state of things in your society, reminds me that I am in a world where some- thing must be done, besides musing, and dreaming. But with all your matter-of-fact plainness, you have, now and then, a touch of the romantic. " The little tumbler keeps its place on the mantle-piece, and frequently receives its portion of Scotch roses." This is to my liking. It is just as our friend Cowper would have written ; and therefore it is just as it should be. 54 MEMOIR. " Your flowers have come up ; but it is ten to one, if thej'' do not get choked with potatoes and mustard, they being staple commodities here." Well, let the flowers go ; for if they were good to make " nectar and cherubim broth," we, creatures of clay, must take up with potatoes and mustard. The flowers of poetry and fine sentiment are often choked to death by the eatables of this eating world. Southhury, Jan. 5, 1824. — After this long interval, I am going to fill out this sheet, instead of beginning with another, that you may see the attempt I made to answer your former letter. If I deserve no credit for this attempt, I deserve none for any thing ; for my life hitherto, has been spent in attempts that have come to nought — in beginnings with no endings. I live at present, by making resolutions of amendment, and trying with conscientious seriousness, and systematic indus- try, to put them in execution. But whether I shall succeed or not, is yet a matter of doubt. It must be determined by time and circumstances. You ask what I am doing at Southbury. Who told you that I am spending the winter here I know not, but I shall probably not do it, unless I conclude to spend my life here. About three weeks ago, I received an invitation to settle here, and I am to give an answer within three weeks more. Some say it is my duty to accept the invitation ; some say it is not ; so that, let me do which I may, I shall not do my ■duty, in the view of some, for I cannot conform to the opin- ion of both. I am in a great strait. May the divine Head of the Church direct me to such a decision, as shall most promote the interests of his kingdom. I think I feel willing to do what impartial judges might say I ought to do. But where shall such be found, who are at the same time suffi- ciently acquainted with my circumstances, and those of the people here 1 After all, I see not but that I must decide for myself, according to my own convictions of duty, in view of the heart-searching trial of the last day. I have an inclina- tion to stay here. 1 have been wandering to and fro, so long, that 1 am strongly averse to packing up my little all into my MEMOIR. 55 little trunk, and moving again, nobody knows where. This feeling, however, ought not to have much influence. But enough of this subject. Mention it not out of doors. You will know the result before many weeks are past. At a late minister's meeting in this region, I had the pleas- ure of seeing your old friend Mr. B. He appeared in fine health and spirits. He had just returned from a kind of missionary visit to B, and talked much of what revivals are doing to Socinianism. At the minister's meeting, a ser- mon was preached on the " year of the Lord's recompenses for the controversy of Zion." At the time for criticising the sermon, your friend became quite eloquent in his way. His whole face kindled to a glow, and his eye sparkled with the fire of genius ; as in speaking of the overturning and dashing together of nations in Europe and Asia, he remarked, that the Almighty will come in the day of his vengeance, and " break up old marble, the repose of princes," and sweep away his en- emies, and their refuges of lies with them, till the way is pre- pared for the universal estabhshment of his own kingdom of righteousness and peace. I have recently been to B, to attend the Installation of my right hand friend. Being sent for, once and again, to preach the sermon, I set off' in a chaise, and hurried along through snow drifts, and mud, and rain, but after all failed of getting there in season, in consequence of being turned back, by the rise of water in some of the streams, crossing the road. But I made a pleasant visit of several days. Mr. N,— ^- — was there, at work at his Hymn Book. He has a fund of knowl- edge, derived from his observation, compared with the word of God. This makes his conversation highly interesting and instructive to his christian friends, in whose society he appears to take as much real delight, as any man I ever saw. ' My health is good, except that I have something of the dyspepsy now and then, but not enough to make me see vis- ions of unearthly beings, and imagine that I converse with them face to face. You will understand this allusion, if you have seen the article on Swedenborgianism, in a late number 50 MEMOIR. of the Christian Spectator. I have just been conversing for two hours, with one of the converts to this system of fanati- cism. He knows that there is a God, because it has been revealed to him. Milhons of angels and spirits of departed men, are around him every day; and he sees them. It has been his great business and delight, for seven years, to talk and sing with them. He has conversed with all the kings of England, with all the great men of antiquity, that he has read of, and even w ith the giants of patriarchal times. The winged spirits of httle children, too, are among the multitude, and what is not at all strange, they sometimes read in Dil- worth's Spelling Book, in classes as at school. These spirits are all dressed in white, they come in rows as if strung on strings; and when they first come into sight, they generally repeat the Lord's prayer. They delight in prayer as much as we do, and he guesses much more. When I pray in the family, he interprets, or communicates my words to them, for which they seem very grateful, as the meaning comes very hard to them in consequence of passing through two. They visit him at night, and make his room as light as day; and what is odd enough, they often tuck up his bed, as no mortal ever tucked it up. Sometimes those appear who have been asleep so long that they have forgotten their own names ; and so he has to tell them. They often give liim a message to their relatives and neighbours, who are yet in the flesh; but he never delivers it, because he is afraid that people will think him insane, or under the influence of a diseased imagin- ation, which according to his frequent assurance, is in no de- gree the case. And the man really appears perfectly ration- al on every other subject, and very intelligent and pleasant withal. While conversing on this subject he appeared so sincere, and serious, that you could not have the heart to laugh in his face ; and as to reasoning with him, you might as well have reasoned with one of Ossian's ghosts, moving straight forward out of sight and out of hearing, in the midst of stormy clouds. The testimony of Moses and the prophets, is now superseded by that of millions risen from the dead. MEMOIR. 57 By the way, were not our first parents Swedenborgians? Our honourable friend Milton, who knew all about it, and was himself poetically a Swedenborgian, makes father Adam say to mother Eve, not only that, * Millions of spiritual creatures walk the earth Unseen, both when we wake and when we sleep,' but also, ' How often from the steep Of echoing hill or thicket, have we heard Celestial voices to the midnight air, Sole, or responsive each to other's note, Singing their great Creator.' This reference to Milton, puts to flight all these visions of "airy nothing," and brings to remembrance your kind wish, that I were with you again to read and comment. I wonder what Mr. T. finds to do this winter, now Mr. O. is gone. I suppose the people will not go forward and settle a minister Mobile Mr. O. is absent. If you don't take heed this engaging a supply for a year, will prepare the way for perpetual desolation. A kind remembrance to Mr. T. and his sisters, Maiy Anne, and little Charly. I spell Mary Anne wuth a final e, because it makes the word look more classical, and more like the name of a queen, a very good reason in these days of the universal reign of the Holy Alliance. Yours, &;c. C.W. Southhury, May 10, 1824. The sad intelligence in your letter came like a thunder- clap in a clear sky. I had not before heard a whisper re- specting your afflictions. I had supposed that you were all passing along, from one day to another, as pleasantly as ever. So little do we know, while we are happy ourselves, what absent friends may be enduring. It would seem as if this 58 MEMOIR. were no world to be merry in. Happy we may be : but om-s should be a sober happiness — a happiness consistent with re- flection, and prepared for son*owful tidings — a happiness, whose foundation is truth, whose source is God, and whose end is heaven. From what you say respecting yourself, and from what I heard last week in New-Haven, I conclude that you are now fast recovering. What you say of H — 's situation expresses all a mother's tender love and foreboding anxiety. It goes to my heart and thrills through my frame, to hear you say, "I feel a great and increasing solicitude for my poor H — : he seems to be restless and unhappy." There is something most deeply interesting in hidden sorrow — something that makes the most powerful appeal to our sympathies. Why that rest- lessness ? Why that sudden rising up and sitting down, — that walking the room with folded arms and eyes fixed on vacan- cy? Why that heaving sigh and that starting tear? Thou poor child of grief, there is a voice that is now calling in ac- cents of divine compassion, "Come unto me and I will give thee rest." O that word rest, how sweet and how full of mean- ing as it comes from the lips of the Redeemer! Here is rest from the burden of guilt, the annoyance of temptation, the fear of death, and the gnawings of the worm that never dies. Here is rest from the vexations and labours of the world, rest in the arms of infinite love, rest eternal in the paradise of God. Who that feels the need, can refuse to accept of it ? I rejoice to hear that you found such support and peace, when your heart and flesh so utterly failed, and left you pow- erless as an infant, in the hands of the great arbiter of life and death. What can you desire for your children, but that interest in a Saviour's mercy, wliich will yield them like sup- port and peace, when they too are brought into the deep, and troubled waters of affliction. What greater happiness can you wish for on earth, than to see them sitting down with you, at the table of a Redeemer, whose service is all their delight ? May this happiness soon be yours ; then the fears MEMOIR. ^ and sorrowings, that you speak of, will flee away, or lose all their gloom and bitterness. During the summer of 1824, Mr. Wilcox devoted his leis- ure hours to the composition of a poem, which he pronounced before the Society of *. B. K. at Yale College. This poem with some additions, the last literary labours of his life, is presented to the public in this volume. About this time he complied with an invitation to preach in the North Society of Hartford, as a candidate for settle- ment. In October, this newly organized church and society gave him a call to become their minister. The following brief extract from a letter written soon after, will show liis feelings on the occasion. Hartford, Oct. 5, 1824. Last Wednesday, I received a call from the North Church and Society to become their minister. Pray much for me, that I may not be deserted of God in this solemn crisis of my life. I feel that I am standing on delicate ground. Much is expected from me. A congregation is to be gathered, a church to be built up. Much is at stake. Who is sufficient for these things ? I need a great increase c^ grace. In December 1824, he was ordained, and we are to con- template him in a new and highly responsible station. From his first appearance among this people, as a spiritual guide and teacher, a cordial attachment commenced, which in- creased until his separation from them, and then was by no means diminished. In his intercourse with his people as a minister, he united faithfulness with the most delicate propriety. He was wel- comed in every family, as an intimate friend, in whom every heart felt interested, and reposed confidence, and all his con- versation was such as to secure respect and affection. No weak places were found in his character, nothing in his con- tiO MEMOIR. versation in the family, or social circle, to diminish the im- pressions made by his preaching. He was eminently happy in relation to the people of his charge ; he felt at home, and had all the tokens of kindness from them, that could render his labours pleasant, and encourage him to preach, with plain- ness, the great truths of revelation. The pressure of duties, and the deep interest which he felt in the performance of them, soon began to exhaust his strength and overpower his feeble constitution. Ilis letters, disclo- sing some of his feelings while a Pastor, and the trials which he endured and anticipated from his infirmities, will be read with interest. Hartford, January 20, 1825. Why is it that you are so often, and so severely chas- tised ? If the Lord chasteneth whom he loveth, does he not sometimes proportion the measure of his chastisement to that of his love ? If you will not allow that your great afflictions are proofs that God's love towards you is great, I trust that you will live to see them made the means of promoting your love to him, till it becomes great. What a vale of tears is ^his world ! I have thought much of this truth since my last visit to Vermont. For a day or two after I reached the town in which my parents reside, I felt such a weight upon my spirits, in view of the sad changes among the families of my acquaintance, during an absence of six years, that I could hardly be happy under my parental roof. Six heads of families had died out of the eight families nearest my fa- ther's. Besides these deaths, there had been others, and two others had been excommunicated from the church, and had broken the hearts of their Mddowed parents. Both of my parents had been brought apparently near to the borders of the grave ; and so had one of my brothers, but they were pre- served. Thus you see that your situation is not peculiar. You never thought that it Avas. You do not need the philosopher's consolation, that yours is the common lot of humanity. You MEMOIR. CI have comfort far above this. When you are in heaviness, you think upon God. What time you are afraid, you put your trust in him. lie will never leave you, I rejoice to hear that Mr. T has been preserved from the mental derangement, which he so much fears, whenever he becomes unusually ill. This must be a great blessing in the midst of all your afflictions, and the convalescence of H must be another ; another must be the attentions of the kindest of daughters and sisters. Thus there is many a drop of sweetness in your bitter cup. The gloom of your situation is cheered by many a ray of comfoit, shining directly from heaven, and by many more reflected from the earth around you. Why then may you not be happy. You are so, I trust, without any counsel or exhortation of mine, when I myself need support and consolation far above what I enjoy. I tremble at the step that I have taken in consenting to become a minister of the gospel in this city. There are al- ready moments wJien I feel as if I should, at no distant peri- od, sink under the weight of labours and trials that is coming upon me, and pressing every day more and more heavily. I know not what is before me, but I have reason to fear much evil from the state of my heart, and my sad want of ministe- rial qualifications in other respects. This is not affected hu- mility, nor is it real humility. It is no more nor less than a plain statement of the truth. My health is at present quite good, but the time to try it will come, when my present stock of sermons is gone. I must be up and doing. March 14, 1825. Of my own health, I can only say, that it is just good enough to enable me to drag along with my bur- den. But this burden is becoming heavier eveiy day ; and I fear it will ere long crush me. My stock of sermons runs low. To write new ones, as fast as I want them, or rather as fast as my people want them, draws prodigiously upon my strength. There are times when I walk my room, and in the anguish of my spirit cry out, "What shall I do ?" I have preached twice every Sabbath since I was settled, except one. I had more of my palpitation yesterday, than I have had be- 62 MEMOIR. fore for a year or two. This spring and summer will be the trying season with me. We have been hoping for a revival, and one or two have given some evidence of conversion, but now all are again as cold and lifeless as ever. Pray for us. O for a heart to take delight in my work. It is hard for a poet to love the labours of the muiistry. Mr. Wilcox was undoubtedly injudicious in expending his strength. His sermons were prepared with great care — not with too much, — for no minister ever preached too good a sermon ; but those of Mr. Wilcox were long, and the deep feeling w ith which they were delivered, almost uniformly ex- hausted him. He might not have been sufficiently attentive to regular exercise. When he exchanged with neighbour- ing clergymen, he generally preached his longest sermons in the pulpits of his brethren, and thus, instead of making liis ex- changes subsei-vient to relaxation, he more commonly return- ed with an entire prostration of his strength. Hartford, June 22, 1825. I am the most dilatory of all letter writers. No one else could let such letters as yours, lie unanswered for weeks and months together. It will hardly do for me to plead that I have been absent for several weeks, on a visit to New- York and Philadelphia, for I might have written you from both of those cities, and given you some account of the sublime, and beautiful, aud wonderful, that I heard and saw in the natural, the intellectual, and the moral world. But it is all gone like a dream when one awaketh. I have returned, and resumed my labours again, but with very little hope of being able to continue them long. My nights are sleepless, after preaching. My strength and my spirits fail ; and there are times when I am well nigh ready to give up the ministry, at once, and go on to a farm to get some har- dihood of constitution. I think it highly probable, that I shall have to come to this, at no very distant period. MEMOIR. 63 July 2. After a week's interruption, I sit down to add a lit- tle more to my journal of a letter. Last Sabbath I attempt- ed to preach, bnt after proceeding ten minutes, with my ser- mon, I was obliged to stop, to prevent fainting from the palpi- tation. I have studied none this week, and know not when I shall begin again. My people are urgent in their request, that I should journey for two or three weeks, and visit the Springs and the sea-side. I shall probably go somewhere, next week, in search of health, though 1 have no hope of deriving more than a temporary benefit, from a temporaiy suspension of the labours of the ministry. Preaching, and close study, are two just the worst things in the world for my complaint. In the summer of 1825, his health became so feeble that he was obliged to seek relaxation by leaving his charge. He was absent about two months, in which time he visited his pa- rents. This was his last interview with them. Some ex- tracts will now be made from his letters, disclosing distinctly his fears, his trials, and his hopes. Sept. 16, 1825. Yesterday I reached Hartford. To-day I have been visit- ing the sick and the afflicted ; and this evening, I am writing to you. I have lived so at random for the last two months^ in stages, and steam-boats, and hotels, and boarding-houses, without domestic order or quiet, not to say family religion, that I feel most unfit to enter at once into the spirit of my many, and arduous duties. Two months more, spent like the past, would ruin me. You may well think that I have but lit- tle piety, to bear so short a trial no better. And such is the fact. I have indeed but little, if I have even that. I hope my labours will soon be performed with a spirit more congenial than at present. Oct. 17. — A chief of the Sandwich Islands, says, when he receives a letter from his sister, he sits down alone and reads it, and it is just as if his sister whispered in his ear. Let me then whisper to you that 1 am almost discouraged, in regard 64 MEMOIR. to the " physical" state of my heart, after which you enquire. Though not as bad as its moral state, it is bad enough ; and what is W' orse, I see not that there is any prospect of its grow- ing better, while I continue to preach. I exert myself to keep up my spirits as well as I can. I tell no one around me the half that I suffer, for it would do no good. I am de- termined to hold out as long as I can, with all proper attention to diet, and exercise, and relaxation. My prospects are by no means flattering. 1 have frequently, for the last fortnight, when I have thought of them, felt a painful trembling ; and more than once the anguish of my spirit has been such as to wring from me the reluctant tear. This has been, when I have found myself dreading the labour of preaching, after be- ing exhausted with the labours of the study, during a week of more than ordinary business. I can study hard tlii'ough the week, or preach on the Sabbath, either of them alone ; but to do both, is more than I can bear without groaning, and com- ing frequently to the very verge of sinking. I know that I need a stronger faith, and a higher tone of piety. With these, I might preach with the palpitation, and suffer less from the exhaustion of animal spirits, if not of bodily strength. But I must speak of myself as / am, and not as what I might be in body, if I was what I ought to be in soul. What will become of me I know not. What shall I do ? Give up preaching, and have good health ? Or continue it, and live on, at this poor dying rate 1 Perhaps you w ill hardly dare to advise me. Who then will do it ? If I must decide en- tirely for myself, I shall take the latter course, and leave the event with the great Arbiter of life and death. Nov. 27, 1825. — I have been for the past week, more seri- ously sick than I have been for ten years. I preached half a day last Sabbath, and caught a cold which seemed to settle in the region of the heart, where there had been for some time so much unnatural muscular excitement. This produced great soreness, and frequently very intense pain, particularly when coughing. I must resort to some more efficient remedies, or I shall probably not be well very soon. May God be my re- MEMOIR. t)d fuge in this day of trouble. This morning, I told the physi- cian, that I had almost all the symptoms of passing by a slow fever into a decline. He made no reply, but set himself about writing a recipe. I have some serious fears as to the result of my sickness. I fear that I am neither ready nor willing to die. But why art thou cast down, O my soul ; why art thou disquieted within me ? Hope thou in God. Dec. 1. — Last night was the most comfortable of any since I was taken ill. I think myself decidedly on the gaining hand, in almost every respect. Bless the Lord, O my soul, and forget not all his benefits. I shall, in all probabihty, ask a dismission soon after I am able to get about again. I cannot think of rushing again into the labours, which will so certain- ly be followed by consequences like those which I am now suffering. I have now no remaining doubt, as to my inabil- ity to perform the duties of a settled minister. It is quite manifest, that the interests of my church and society have suffered, on account of my being absent so much, and giving up extra meetings. It is the complaint of every one, that the state of vital religion among us has long been very low. It is so in the other churches, as well as in mine ; and there- fore I am not regarded as particularly the guilty cause. Dec. 15. — Thus you see that my society are quite spirited, and are prosperous in a pecuniary respect. This will very much lessen the trial of leaving them. A trial it will be, in- deed, to leave my dear church and congregation, and leave the ministiy, and leave so delightful a situation as mine, and cast myself again upon the wide world, without employment, and without a home ; but I see not that I can avoid it. With- out employment, however, I will not be, if God has given me talents, that I can in any way use in his service. A great variety of talents is needed in this day of universal action and improvement. But I will say no more on this subject in this place, lest I expose my vanity. I hope you are very happy, without any thing to disquiet you. But you too must have your trials. It is no doubt best for us all, that we should find thorns enough on our pillow, to keep us from sleeping life 9 66 MEMOIR. away, and waking at last, unprepared for eternity. May your sorrows always be as few, and as light, as your spiritual safety and prosperity will permit. Jan. 31, 1826. — You see I have once more reached my home, if home there can be, without the pleasures, and en- dearing associations of domestic life. For just twenty years, I have been a sojourner in as many different towns ; and what wonder if I feel very much a citizen of the world ? I begin to feel somewhat sad, as I draw near to the time, when I am to undergo the last trial I shall make of my ability to endure the labours of a settled minister. But it is best to wait in silence for the issue. I hope God will prepare me for it, and glorify himself by it, whatever may become of me. March 4. — I have presented a communication to my soci- ety, the substance of which is, that I feel it my duty to resign my charge, believing that the circumstances of the society, and church connected with it, are such as to require much more labour for their best good, than I am able to perform. This communication was not written without many prayers and tears. Nor was it written without long and serious de- liberation. I have, however, been persuaded to suspend my request for a short indefinite period, to give time for further satisfaction in regard to my health, and, if necessary, to find a successor. I had no expectation of finding such unanimity in the wish for me to stay longer. My communication has call- ed forth a stronger expression of attachment, than I had sup- posed to have existed. To exhibit still more distinctly his motives, for requesting a dismission, the communication to which he refers is here inserted. To the North Ecclesiastical Society in Hartford, at their annual meeting March 1, 1826. Brethren and Friends, You are all aware of the feeble and precarious state of my health. During the year which is now brought to a close, I have been able to preach but just half of the Sabbaths, and to perform but very little labour bcsidei The nature of my MEMOIR. 63^ complaint is such, that there is no good reason to hope, that I shall be radically and permanently better, while I attempt to pursue the united labours of the study and the pulpit. I have myself no expectation, that if I remain your minister the next year, I shall be able to do any more, than I have done during the past. But to me it appears abundantly evident, that the circumstances of this new society, and of the church connected with it, absolutely require that much more should be done. I cannot then avoid the conclusion, that it is my duty to resign my charge. It seems to me a duty, which I owe to you, to your families, to the church, and the congre- gation of immortals that assemble with you in the house of God. It is affecting to think how little I have been able to do for the salvation of my people. Indeed the thought has been at times, and is now, too oppressive to be endured. It may perhaps be the opinion of some, that, while I am able to go through with the mere delivery of a sermon, I ought to continue the trial of my strength, in hope of its in- creasing. To me, however, it seems clear that the year and a half, which I have spent with you, has been a trial long enough, if not too long, for the best good of my people. I must also be permitted to say, that I prize your respect and affection too highly, to be willing to be almost a burden on your hands, till I lose or begin to lose both, especially when without their continuance I could neither be happy nor useful as your minister. Perhaps this communication may appear to be hasty. To explain this appearance, it is necessary to observe, that it did not occur to me, till the day before yesterday, that this meet- ing of the society was so early in the month. The subject of the communication has been one of daily thought and prayer for two months ; and this meeting has been expected as the proper time for it to be made public. I have been with you in weakness, and in fear, and in much trembling. And it was in my heart to live and die with you. But it seems the will of God that it shall not be so. In that will I would humbly acquiesce. (53 MEMOIR. It is therefore my sincere and earnest request, that you will unite with me in calling a council, to take into view the existing facts of the case, and to dissolve the relation between us, if they judge it best for the interests of the society and the church connected with it, and for the great cause of truth and righteousness, and the salvation of souls. Wishing that grace, mercy, and peace, from God the Fa- ther, and the Lord Jesus Christ, may be multiplied to you and yours continually, I subscribe myself. Your affectionate Pastor, Carlos Wilcox. March 28. What- a serious work is that of a minister of Christ ! Since writing the paragraph above, I have been to the bed-side of a dying parishioner. I had but just finished the last line, when my door opened suddenly, and I was re- quested to visit a lady immediately, who was but just alive. This was the first intimation I had received of her sickness. Through what a heart-rending scene have I passed since I began this letter, only an hour ago. I was then in a playful mood, though greatly fatigued. Now I feel a great heavi- ness of spirit, accompanied with the exhaustion of sympa- thetic grief This is the fifth time within a month, that a messenger has called me away from the study, or the social circle, to the bed-side of the dying. But I am too much de- pressed to dwell on these sad scenes. In several of them, however, there have been circumstances full of comfort. May 20. — I shall leave Hartford next week unless my people insist upon having a farewell sermon. I am very unwilling to preach one, as it can only awaken sympathies to be indulged to very little purpose. I find my interest in their welfare growing stronger, as I am about to leave them. To another correspondent he expressed his feelings with still more particularity. June 10. — You have heard that I am no longer minister of the North Church in Hartford. When the tie was cut, I felt MEMOIR. Wi such a shock as I never felt before. But I trust that all will be ordered well for me, and for this Church and Society. It has been a difficult thing to get away from tliis dear people ; and nothing but the strongest conviction of my inability to do what ought to be done for them, could have carried me through it. The Society voted, unanimously, to grant me leave of absence for a year, with a continuance of my sala- ry. But as I could give them no reason to hope, that" at the end of that period, 1 should return with health permanently established, I could not conscientiously accept of their pro- posal. After all this, a remonstrance, with thirty-five names, was laid before the Council, on the ground that they were willing to run the risk of the proposed trial of a year's ab- sence. I submitted it entirely to the Council to say what ought to be done, and they dismissed me. Something was said among my people about paying back to me the two hundred dollars which I gave to their funds, and the one hun- dred which I paid for supply of preaching in my sick- ness. But at length this course has been adopted ; to let my name stand on their records as giving the two hundred dollars, and to remunerate me, by a voluntary subscription, which has swelled into a present of five hundred dollars. What will now become of me, I cannot tell. I have some expectation of spending the summer at Newport, for the bene- fit of bathing in the surf, and enjoying the sea-breezes. Per- haps I may preach some, — perhaps I may write some poet- ry. But all is uncertain. I feel that I am once more afloat in the world, and the feeling is at times sufficiently uncomfort- able. I hope yet to do some good in the pulpit, and with my pen, if God spare my life ; but I never expect to be again so pleasantly situated as I have been in Hartford. June 20. — I am rejoiced to find that you remember me in my wanderings, and continue to take an interest in all my concerns. I hope you will not forget the dear people that I have left, and will not cease to pray, that they may not long be as sheep without a shepherd. As to myself, it is com- paratively of little consequence what becomes of me. I 70 MEMOIR. say not this because that I regret that I resigned my charge, though I may sometimes be made sad, by the thought that it should be necessary to do it. I say it not because I am un- happy on that account. I hope that in whatever situation I may be placed, m the providence of God, I may be able to look to him, as my chief portion, and be content. June 28, — And now that I have despatched my business, permit me to say, " Good morning to you, to the dear Anne, and A " I begin to grow quite impatient to hear from your family, and from the dear people that I have left. I have heard nothing from Hartford since my departure. 1 however expect to hear nothing till I write myself. Well, then, what shall I say ? Shall I begin with an account of the weather, which is always the first subject of conversation, the world over ? This cannot be interesting to you, except in its bearing on my health and spirits. The fortnight that I have spent here, has been almost all of it, too cold for my comfort. Several days have been passed by a good fire. For a week it has been rainy, and is now becoming some- what warmer. It has hitherto been too cold, to think of Newport air, or Newport beach and surf. But I am going down, on Saturday, and shall probably remain there for two or three months, if I receive any benefit to my health. You have probably heard of me by Dr. P , whom I saw in Providence. I hope you have not heard any thing bad respecting me. You must be very cautious about receiv- ing conjectures, and dreams, and such like shadowy things, for substantial matters of fact. Permit me, my dear friend, to take this opportunity to ex- press to you, and to Mrs. M and your family, my grate- ful sense of your kindness, which has been to me so great, and so constant. I shall ever take an interest in your wel- fare. May the best blessings of heaven be yours. Neicport, July 5. I have just seated myself in my new lodgings. My room is in the third story, and the south-west corner. The west MEMOIR. 7** window looks over the town, and the south commands an en- chanting view of the ocean, extending almost half around the horizon. I have been sitting for half an hour, with my eyes fixed on this circular expanse, admiring the beautiful blue, and the white sails moving over it. Fifteen or twenty are now in sight, scattered along the line where the sky and sea seem to meet. I have no reason yet to complain of fogs ; but the wind from the water is often too fresh for my comfort, and I fear for my health. The people here think a north wind the softest, and sweetest of all the airs of heaven. What a world of contradictions is this ? and what contradictory crea- tures are we that live in it. As long ago as the days of Hor- ace, the rich and the gay of the city were forever talking of the beauty of fields, and groves, and lakes, and mountains, and sighing to enjoy them ; while the poor, and plain people of the country were always admiring the palaces, and pomp of the city, and panting to live in the midst. And now the in- habitants of the sea-board are praising the air from the coun- try, and welcoming it, with great delight ; while those of the interior are quoting poetry about the cool breath of ocean ; and opening all their windows and doors to invite it in. As to my health, I am not yet satisfied about the effect of these winds and waves. One thing is certain, that from some cause or other, during several days, I have had a more violent pain in my breast than I ever felt before. It has left a very un- comfortable sensation of soreness. If I continue here, I am afraid I shall be obliged to leave this beautiful situation, and pleasant family, for a place less elevated and unconfined. Soon after the date of this, he wrote to another friend, and though the letters are similar, there is no impropriety in the insertion of both. Newjjort, July 13. You may wish to hear something about my present situa- tion and prospects. I have taken lodgings in a house more pleasantly situated than any other here. My room is in the south-west corner of the third story. My west window over- 72 MEMOIR. looks the town, the beautiful harbour, with its sails and steam- boats, its islands, and forts, and light-houses. My south win- dow commands a view of the blue rolling deep, extending al- most from east to west. Here are fifteen or twenty white sails almost always in sight from this same window. The ocean's dying roar sometimes comes to my ear. The dis- tance to the shore in a south direction is two or three miles ; to the long, beautiful beach, in an east direction, it is only three-fourths of a mile. The land of these shores and islands lies in smooth swells, and long drawn slopes, and is rich as a garden. As to my health, I must say, that I am not yet sat- isfied whether it will be best to spend the summer here. If I do, I fear I shall be obliged to leave my present lodgings for a situation less exposed to the sea-breezes, whifh are here so fresh even at noon, and frequently towards evening, that I must shut down my windows, or suffer for not doing it. Ei- ther these bracing winds, or bathing in the surf, or both, or something else, has given me, for several days past, a more vi- olent pain in my breast than I ever felt before. But I have less of my palpitation than usual. I must therefore stay here a while longer, at least, in order to make a faithful trial of this climate. I preached the last Sabbath, and have engaged to preach the next, if I am well enough. May the Lord bless you, and yours, abundantly, and continually. Newport, July 13, 1826. I thank you most sincerely for the intelligence with which your kind letter commences ; and I praise God for the work which is the subject of that intelligence. If M. has become indeed a christian, it is an event highly impor- tant to your family, as well as to herself. 1 pray God that it may be a great blessing to every member. How happy, beyond the common lot, must be that family, in which every member loves the Saviour. May you enjoy this happiness. May you enjoy it soon, and as long as shall be best for your eternal interests. It seems probable that Lazarus, and Ma- ry, and Martha, constituted a family, and they were all MEMOIR. TS the followers of Christ, and there Christ dehghted to dwell. May he dwell with you in Spirit, and shed abroad his love in every heart. You say that you lament that M cannot have my instructions in her present interesting state. I trust that she will have those w'hich shall be much better. The value, that you seem to set upon my instructions, makes me feel more deeply my insufficiency, and my unfaithfulness, as a minister of the gospel. It now appears to me, that 1 did ve- ry little, while in Hartford, to bring my hearers to a saving knowledge of the truth, as it is in Jesus. I sometimes won- der, that my dear people could bear with me as they did, in my coldness, as well as in my weakness. When I look back to the work that I was appointed to do among you, it seems as if I failed in every part of it. May the great Head of the Church, speedily send to you, not only a liealthier minister, but one far more spiritual and devoted. It is only by ofl'ering such a prayer, that I can show any of the gratitude which I feel towards my dear people, for their persevering kindness to me. My interest in the welfare of the church and society will continue, wherever my future lot may be cast. In this connexion, permit me to thank you, and all your family, for all your kindness, and theirs, when I have been sick, and when in health, when present, and when absent. May the Lord bless you richly, and continually. Worcester, July 18, 1826. You will perhaps wonder how it happens, that I am writing to you, from the middle of Massachusetts, instead of the south side of R. I. The case is just this : I found that the strong and damp sea-breezes of Newport, produced a stricture in my breast, attended with severe pain at times, and with constant soreness. I was obliged to rehnquish bathing in the surf, and at last to quit the town. I am now on a tour to the mountains of Vermont, and New Hampsliire. My route from Newport to Keene, and Bellow's-Falls, lies directly through Worcester. I shall probably travel up Con- necticut River, as far as Lancaster, then turn to the East, 10 74 MEMOIR. and climb the White Mountains, and thence proceed to the sea-coast, perhaps to Portland, perhaps through Concord and Andover, to Boston. I am resting at Worcester, for a few days, because I wish to get rid of all my soreness of lungs and throat, in this inland valley, before I expose myself to the evening air, in stage-coaches and on lofty mountains. Last evening I saw Mr. C. for a minute, while one carriage was unloaded, and another loaded. Of him, I made as many enquiries as the time allowed, respecting my dear people, and Hartford in general, and your family in particular. I am sor- ry to hear that you do not succeed in obtaining a permanent preacher. But I trust, God will provide one in his own best time. Respecting my health, I can only say, that I have had but little of my palpitation, this summer, as I have preached but very seldom, and studied none at all. What will become of me, I know not, but I will not murmur at the allotments of providence, for they are all wise, and good. May the Father of mercies grant to you, all that you need, for the present, and the future life. July 27. — I fear you think me foolishly, if not fatally in love wath the charms of poetry. You think me too much under the influence of the imagination, to be happy myself, or to make others happy. Perhaps I ought to reproach my- self for my attachment to ' harmonious numbers,' but it is in vain for me to conceal the fact, that this attachment is ungov- ernable, and that from it, I derive the most exquisite enjoy- ment. Of the tour to the White Mountains, to which reference is made in a preceding extract, the public have heard. To pre- serve a connected series of the leading incidents of his life from his own pen, the letter which has appeared in the pub- lic journals is reprinted in this connexion. MEMOIR. TO Hanover y {N. H.) Sept. % 1826. Dear Sir, — I have just returned from an excursion to the White Moun- tains, and shall now spend a day of rest in this village, in giv- ing you some account of the effects produced by the most destructive fall of rain ever Imown in that region. It hap- pened on the night of the '28th of August, which will be long remembered in this part of the country. I left Hanover on Saturday last, in company with two gen- tlemen of my acquaintance from the city of New- York, and rode as far as Haverhill, where we all spent the Sabbath. The road over which we passed was like a bed of ashes two or three inches deep ; and the country around us exhibited the usual effects of a long drought. The abundant rains that fell three weeks ago, over the Southern half of New- England, did not reach the upper part of the valley of Con- necticut River. On Monday morning it began to rain at Haverliill, and continued along our route for most of the day, but so moderately and at such intervals, that with the help of great coats and umbrellas we proceeded on our journey in an open wagon as far as Bethlehem, fifteen miles west of the White Mountains. As we approached the vicinity of the Mountains, the rain increased till it became a storm, and compelled us to stop about the middle of the afternoon. The storm continued most of the night ; but the next morning was clear and serene. The view from the hill of Bethlehem was extensive and delightful. In the Eastern horizon. Mount Washington, with the neighbouring peaks on the North and on the South, formed a grand outline far up m the blue sky. Two or three small fleecy clouds rested on its side, a little below its summit, while from behind this highest point of land in the United States East of the Mis- sissippi, the sun rolled up rejoicing in his strength and glory. We started off toward the object of our journey, with spirits greatly exhilarated by the beauty and grandeur of our pros- pect. As we hastened forward with our eyes fixed on the tops of the Mountains before us, little did we think of the 76 MEMOIR. scene of destruction around their base, on which the sun was now for the first time beginning to shine. In about half an hour we entered Breton Woods, an unincorporated tract of land covered with a primitive forest, extending on our road five miles to Rosebrook's Inn, and thence six miles to Craw- ford's, the establishment begun by Rosebrook's father, as de- scribed in the travels of Dr. Dwight. On entering this wil- derness we were struck with its universal stillness. From every leaf in its immense masses of fohage the rain hung in large glittering drops ; and the silver note of a single un- seen and unknown bird was the only sound that we could hear. After we had proceeded a mile or two the roaring of the Amonoosuck began to break in upon the stillness, and soon grew so loud as to excite our surprise. In consequence of coming to the river almost at right angles, and by a very narrow road, through trees and bushes very thick, we had no view of the water, till with a quick trot we had advanced upon the bridge too far to recede, when the sight that opened at once to the right hand and to the left, drew from all of us similar exclamations of astonishment and terror ; and we hurried over the trembling fabrick as fast as possible. After finding ourselves safe on the other side, we walked down to the brink ; and, though familiar with mountain scenery, we all confessed that we had never seen a mountain torrent be- fore. The water was as thick with earth as it could be, without being changed into mud. A man living near in a log hut showed us how high it was at day break. Though it had fallen six feet, he assured us that it M^as still ten feet above its ordinary level. To this add its ordinary depth of three or four feet, and here at day break was a body of water twenty feet deep, and sixty feet wide, moving with the rapidi- ty of a gale of wind, betw een steep banks covered with hem- locks and pines, and over a bed of large rocks, breaking its surface into billows like those of the ocean. After gazing a few moments on this sublime sight, we proceeded on our way, for the most part at some distance from the river, till we came to the farm of Rosehrooh, lying on its banks. We found his MEMOIR. Ti fields covered with water, and sand, and flood wood. His fen- ces and bridges were all swept away ; and the road was so blocked up with logs, that we had to wait for the labors of men and oxen, before we could get to his house. Here we were told that the river was never before known to bring down any considerable quantity of earth, and were pointed to bare spots on the sides of the White Mountains, never seen till that morning. As our road, for the remaining six miles, lay quite near the river and crossed many small tributary streams, we employed a man to accompany us with an axe. We were frequently obliged to remove trees from the road, to fill excavations, to mend and make bridges, or contrive to get our horses and wagon along separately. After toiling in this manner for half a day, we reached the end of our jour- ney, not however without being obliged to leave our wagon half a mile behind. In many places, in these six miles, the road and the whole adjacent woods, as it appeared from the marks on the trees, had been overflowed to the depth of ten feet. In one place the river, in consequence of some ob- struction at a remarkable fall, had been twenty feet higher than it was when we passed. We stopped to view the fall, which Dr. Dwight calls " beautiful." He says of it — '* The descent is from fifty to sixty feet, cut through a mass of stratified granite ; the sides of which appear as if they had been laid by a mason in a variety of fantastical forms ; be- traying, however, by their rude and wild aspect, the mas- terly hand of nature." This description is sufficiently cor- rect ; but the beauty of the fall was now lost in its sublimity. You have only to imagine the whole body of the Amonoosuck, as it appeared at the bridge which we crossed, now compres- sed to half of its width, and sent downward at an angle of 20 or 25 degrees between perpendicular walls of stone. On our arrival at Crawford's the appearance of his farm was like ' that of Rosebrook's, only much worse. Some of his sheep and cattle were lost ; and eight hundred bushels of oats were destroyed. Here we found five gentlemen, who gave us an interesting account of their unsuccessful attempt to ascend 78 MEMOIR, Mount Washington the preceding day. They went to the " Camp" at the foot of the mountain on Sabbath evening, and lodged there, with the intention of cHmbing the summit the next morning. But in the morning the mountains were en- veloped in thick clouds ; the rain began to fall, and increased till afternoon, when it came down in torrents. At five o'clock they proposed to spend another night at the camp, and let their guide return home for a fresh supply of provisions for the next day. But the impossibility of keeping a fire where every thing was so wet, and the advice of their guide, made them all conclude to i*eturn, though with great reluctance. No time was now to be lost, for they had seven miles to travel on foot, and six of them by a rugged path through a gloomy forest. They ran as fast as their circumstances would per- mit ; but the dark evergreens around them, and the black clouds above, made it night before they had gone half of the way. The rain poured down faster every moment ; and the little streams, which they had stepped across the evening before, must now be crossed by wading, or by cutting down trees for bridges, to which they were obliged to cling for life. In this way they reached the bridge over the Amonoosuck near Crawford's, just in time to pass it before it was carried down the current. On Wednesday, the weather being clear and beautiful, and the waters having subsided, six gentlemen, with a guide, went to Mount Washington, and one accompa- nied Mr. Crawford to the "Notch," from which nothing had yet been heard. We met again at evening, and related to each other what we had seen. The party who went to the Mountain were five hours in reaching the site of the camp, instead of three, the usual time. The path for nearly one- third of the distance was so much excavated, or covered with miry sand, or blocked up with flood wood, that they were obliged to grope their way through thickets almost im- penetrable, where one generation of trees after another had risen and fallen, and were now lying across each other in ev- ery direction, and in various stages of decay. The Camp it- self had been wholly swept away ; and the bed of the rivu- MEMOIR. 79 let by which it had stood, was now more than ten rods wide, and with banks from ten to fifteen feet high. Four or five other brooks w'ere passed, m hose beds were enlarged, some of them to twice the extent of this. In several, the water was now only three or four feet wide, w hile the bed of ten, fifteen or twenty rods in width, w^as covered for miles with stones from two to five feet in diameter, that had been rolled down the mountains, and through the forests, by thousands, bearing every thing before them. Not a tree, nor the root of a tree remained in their path. Immense piles of hemlocks and other trees with their limbs and bark entirely bruised oflf, were lodged all the way on both sides, as they had been driv- en in among the standing and half standing trees on the ' banks. While the party were climbing the Mountain, thirty " slides" were counted, some of which began near the line where the soil and vegetation terminate, and growing wader as they descended, were estimated to contain more than a hundred acres. These were all on the western side of the mountains. They were composed of the w^hole surface of the earth with all its growth of woods, and its loose rocks, to the depth of 15, 20, and 30 feet. And wherever the slides of the two projecting mountains met, forming a vast ravine, the depth was still greater. Such was the report which the party from the mountains gave. The intelligence which Mr. Crawford, and the gentle- man accompanying him, brought from the Notch, was of a more melancholy nature. The road, though a turnpike, was in such a state, that they were obliged to walk to the Notch House, lately kept by Mr. Willey, a distance of six miles. All the bridges over the Amonoosuck, five in number, those over the Saco, and those over the tributary streams of both, were gone. In some places the road was excavated to the depth of 15 and 20 feet; and in others it was covered with earth, and rocks, and trees, to as great a height. In the Notch, and along the deep defile below it, for a mile and a half, to the Notch House, and as far as could be seen beyond it, no appearance of the road, except in one place for two or 80 MEMOIR. three rods, could be discovered. The steep sides of the mountain, first on one hand, then on the other, and then on both, had shd down into this narrow passage, and formed a continued mass from one end to the other, so that a turnpike will probably not be made through it again very soon, if ever. The Notch House was found uninjured ; though the barn ad- joining it by a shed, was crushed ; and under its ruins were two dead horses. The house was entirely deserted; the beds were tumbled; their covering was turned down; and near them upon chairs and on the floor lay the wearing apparel of the several members of the family; while the money and the papers of Mr. Willey were lying in his open bar. From these circumstances it seemed almost certain, that the whole family were destroyed ; and it soon became quite so, by the arrival of a brother of Mr. Crawford from his father's, six miles far- ther East. From him we learnt that the valley of the Saco for many miles, presented an uninterrupted scene of desola- tion. The two Crawfords were the nearest neighbours of Willey. Two days had now elapsed since the storm, and nothing had been heard of his family in either direction. There was no longer any room to doubt that they had been alarmed by the noise of the destruction around them, had sprung from their beds, and fled naked from the house, and in the utter darlmess had been soon overtaken by the falling mountains and rushing torrents. The family \vhich is said to have been miable and respectable, consisted of nine persons, Mr. Wil- ley and his wife and five young children of theirs, with a hired man and boy. After the fallof a single slide last June, they were more ready to take the alarm, though they did not consider their situation dangerous, as none had ever been known to fall there previous to this. Whether more rain fell now than had ever been known to fall before in the same length of time, at least since the sides of the mountains were covered with so heavy a growth of woods, or whether the slides were produced by the falling of such a quantity of rain so suddenly, after the earth had been rendered light and loose by the long drought, 1 am utterly unable to say. All I know is, that at MEMOIR. 81 the close of a rainy day, the clouds seemed all to come to- gether over the White Mountains, and at midnight discharge their contents at once in a terrible burst of rain, which pro- duced the effects that have now been described. Why these effects were produced now, and never before, is known only to Him, who can rend the heavens when he will, and come down, and cause the mountains to flow down at his pres- ence. Yours, &c. Carlos Wilcox. Hanover, Sept. 4. — P. S. — We have just heard that the bodies of the three adults of Mr. Willey's family have been dug up, dreadfully mangled, from amid earth and rocks, about fifty rods from the house. We have also heard that many of the bridges and mills, on the streams running south from the White Mountains, and forming the several branches of the Merrimack, have been swept away, and that much other damage has been done in that direction. After having passed the summer of 1826, in various pla- ces, he visited Boston, and spent the autumn in that city, preaching almost every Sabbath. Near the close of the year, he received an invitation to supply the pulpit in Danbu- ry, Con. with which he complied. At this place he arrived some time in December. From Danbury he writes as fol- lows: Danhury, January 6, 1827. It gives me pleasure to be assured of your kind re- membrance, and that of your family. * * * * I shall think of my dear people all day, the second Sabbath of January, and while I thank God, that I am not in Mr. S 's place, I shall not forget to pray, that the events of that Sabbath, may issue in a union that shall be happy and lasting. You are kind enough to enquire about my situation, which I can truly say is more pleasant than I had expected. I board in the family of a very pleasant brother clergyman, 11 82 MEMOIR. who teaches the Academy here. Tell Mrs. M. that since so much has been said about my pleasant room in your house, she may know, that the one I am now in is more like that, than any other that ever fell to my lot in all my wanderings. It is quite as large ; has two windows towards the rising sun, and two towards the setting, and one toward the northern star. You see, then, that it is on the north end of the house ; and as it is on the lower floor, it is more like the one in which you are now living. My windows are surrounded with rose-bushes and lilacs. It will be a delightful room for summer, and is pleasant enough now. Do just come and see. I find some very intelligent and agreeable society here. # # * # * ]y[y health is pretty good for me. My ex- ercise is regular, as I have cut every stick of wood that I have burned. Your caution about multiplying my labours, is wor- thy of remembrance. I have, however, undertaken to attend one evening meeting in a week, in addition to my other labours. Danbury, March 3, 1827. You probably heard something of the state of my health a fortnight ago, by Mr. W * * * or from the note to Mr. H. Since that time, I have been much more seriously ill. My throat began to be inflamed about the middle of Januaiy and has been growing worse ever since. For four or five Sab- baths, I continued to preach, or to read half a sermon, in the morning, and the other half in the afternoon. This I was en- abled to do without much pain, by taking sugar wet with elixir, and warming my stockings, boots, socks, and standing on an oak plank well heated, and by tying a muffler round my neck. By these means, I was kept from coughing during the service. But I am now convinced, that I had better not have attempt- ed to preach. But who can tell always, whether a little ill- ness is likely to end in something serious ? Ulcers began to form in my throat three weeks ago, some have broken and healed up ; others have appeared in other places. By the MEMOIR. 83 application of blisters to my neck, and the use of a particular wash, the soreness in my throat has been rendered less, for a day or two ; but it has seemed to tend downwards to my breast and lungs, and it has become necessary to bleed me, and apply a bUster to my chest, &c. In this way my breast and lungs have been relieved, but the soreness has returned to my throat. It is with great difficulty and pain that I swal- low any thing. But nothing seems to contribute so much to irritate my throat, as my cough, which for some weeks has been very severe. It does not trouble me much in the day time, as I sit in my chair, and walk my room ; but for a fort- night, it has kept me awake more than half of every night upon an average. It is only from the influence of strong ano- dyne, that I can sleep at all. I have had night sweats, but they appear to have left me for the present. My fever is very slight as yet ; my appetite is not wholly gone, and my strength holds out remarkably well. I know not what is in store for me, in the providence of God ; and I desire to com- mit myself, with all my sicknesses, and all my interests, with all my hopes, and all my fears, into the hands of that Being, whose judgments are righteous, and whose tender mercies en- dure forever. I do not expect to be cured by medicine. If I can be kept along till the snow is gone, and the ground set- tled, and the weather becomes dry, and warm, it is the most that I can hope ; I may then recover. I have been confined to the house for about a fortnight, and expect to be for a month or six weeks to come. Tell Dr. C. that my physician often reminds me of him. His name is B*******. I have the utmost confidence in him. Danhury, March 10, 1827. Dear Madam, You have doubtless heard of my illness ; and if you have seen my letter to Mr. M. you have learnt all the particu- lars respecting its nature and progress, till the past week. If you have not seen that letter, I must beg leave to refer you to it, as I feel quite unable to go over this ground again. For 84 MEMOIR. a week past, my symptoms have worn, on the whole, a more favourable appearance ; and my friends here have not been so much alarmed for me, as they w ere for a fortnight before. I have, however, lost strength during the past week ; and my appetite is poorer than ever. This may be owing to the in- direct debility produced by medicine, and not by disease. I have been obliged to take so much anodyne, at night, to allay my cough, that it has left me too languid to hold up my head the next day. My cough is not so severe. Several of the ulcers in my throat are healed or healing, though others re- main as sore as ever. There is reason to hope that none have yet formed on my lungs, though those in my throat have shown a tendency to spread downward, when disturbed by external blisters and internal washes. But I have said enough on this subject to tire myself and you too. In all my weakness, I would wish to think more of that Almighty Being, who has sustained me to this hour, and who is ready to do all that for my relief, which he sees to be best. O for a child-like submission to his will ! There have been times, during the last three weeks, when it seem- ed to me, that the end of all my earthly wanderings was to be in this valley of Danbury. But I have now a prevailing hope, that a merciful God will spare me, that I may recover strength before I go hence to be here no more. We know not however, what a day may bring forth. Most sincerely do I rejoice, that you are so soon to have so good and ac- ceptable a minister of Christ, set over the dear church and people that I was once permitted to call mine. I trust in God, that he will come to you in the fulness of the blessing of the gospel of peace ; and that you will receive him with thanksgiving. May he have the affections, and prg^ers of all his people, to encourage him in his labours ; and may the good Spirit of God bless him with great and growing suc- cess. I have received an official letter, inviting me to Hartford, as one of the Council at Mr. S. 's Installation. You see from the feeble state of my health, that I must be denied this MEMOIR. 85 privilege. I shall be with you in spirit, and rejoice in your joy- But I must bring my letter to a close. It is twice as long as I expected it would be when I began it. My strength is quite exhausted ; and I can only add a request, that you will remember me affectionately to Mr. B. and other enquir- ing friends. The Lord be with you, and bless you, and yours. Danhury, April 21, 1827. When my last letter to Hartford was written, I was thought to be gaining quite fast. But soon afterwards, that is, about three weeks ago, I was brought down again by a very severe relapse. My throat, which had become almost well, was thrown into a state of the most burning, and dis- tressing inflammation, lasting day and night, for more than a fortnight. My cough became harder tlian ever. I have been much lower since the first of April, than before for ma- ny years. The burning inflammation in my throat is now somewhat less again, but the soreness is still so great, that I ^ am obliged to live on liquids. My cough is yet quite severe. I am wasted to a skeleton. Many of my friends here have very little hope of my recovery. I consider it quite doubtful myself, whether I ever see Hartford again. It is possible, that in the good providence of God, as the warm weather of May comes, I may be relieved of my disease, and blessed with returning strength. But 1 desire to feel that all is in good hands, and to pray that I may be resigned to the righteous and merciful will of my heavenly Father. Living or dying, may I be his. I have not strength to write any more. About the middle of May, his disease had made such pro- gress, and his strength was so far gone, that he relinquished . the hope of ever being restored to health, and began to ar- range his affairs with the expectation of speedy dissolution, and with entire composure, to anticipate the closing scene. He dictated three letters, one to his parents, and two to other 86 MEMOIR, friends, in which he expressed fully his apprehensions of im- mediate death ; and in his own affectionate and delicate man- ner, took his leave of them. In one he says — " My strength is almost gone, my days are numbered, and will soon be fin- ished.**** The world, with all its joys and sorrows, fades from my view. I must soon prove the reality of the great things of faith and eternity. The religion of Christ must be all in all to me now.**** "O what a glorious change, to leave this world and go into the presence of Christ ! O to become sinless, as well as hap- py and glorified, I desire to pray continually while I have breath, God be merciful to me a sinner. And now, my deai' friend, we must part. May you have much of the presence of yom- God and Saviour, may you see many good days on earth, while the sun is shining on my lone grave ; may your death be peaceful, whenever it come, and your immortality glorious ; may we meet in a better world? and together unite in singing the praises of the Redeemer."-^ To his parents, after mentioning the state of his health and his apprehension that his last sickness had come, and request- ing one of his brothers to visit him immediately, he dictated the following : " And now, my dear parents, what shall I say to you in conclusion ? I cannot say much, for you see I am so weak as to be obliged to employ the hand of a friend to write for me. First of all, then, let me thank you for all the kindness you have shown me in my past life. And let me beg of you to be earnest in prayer, that God would be merciful to me a sinner. Pray that I may have much of the presence of my God and Saviour, in my sickness. Pray that he may fit me for heaven, and take me to that blessed world, to behold his glory. And may the God of life and mercy support you under your trials and increasing infirmities — may he spare you many years, to be a bless ing to the family — may he increase your faith, and brighten your hope, and add to your joy, as the infirmities of age gather upon you — may your death be peaceful, and your eternity glorious. Do not fail to write nie immediately. Though I am in a land of comparative stran- MEMOIR. 87 gers, yet God has raised me up many friends, some one of whom I can employ to write to you, perhaps, every week. To my dear brothers, I liave much to say, would my strength permit, but I can merely direct them to the Saviour in their early days. O tell them to prepare for a sick bed in the morning of life. Tell them that the world all appears van- ity to me now. Tell them that the religion of Christ is the only satisfying portion of the soul. Tell them to make the Bible their daily companion, and the throne of grace the place of their daily resort. And may the God of mercy and grace, give them repentance and faith, preserve them amid the snares of a wicked world, make them ornaments in the church, and prepare them for a blessed immortality. I can add no more." Some of the expressions he used in conversation during his sickness have been preserved, and may with propriety be in- serted in this place. " Some have spoken of it as a mystery, that I should be sick and laid aside from my labours ; but it is no mystery to me : I am a great simier, and deserve the wrath of God now and forever." " If I have any evidence of piety, it is that I see more and more suitableness in the prayer of the Publican, to my wants ; God be merciful to me a sinner." " Do pray for me, my friends, pray much, that Christ may be with me and show me mercy, for never a poor sinner need- ed mercy more." On Monday, the 28th of May, he attempted to describe to his physician his sensations after taking some of his medicine ; his thoughts were somewhat incoherent : he said — " O I have no command of my thoughts on these subjects. God, Christ, Heaven, the pardon of sin, the pardon of sin, what themes are these !" " Pray that I may be entirely resigned to the will of the Lord, for his will is always good, always benevolent. But the most suitable prayer for me is, God be mercifnl to me a sin- ner." 88 MEMOIR. " Salvation : what wonders, what glories are contained in that one word ! Salvation, salvation from sin : No honor can be conferred upon a sinner like this." He was asked if he had any fears of death. He replied — " I ought to have fears ; my heart and life have been such — but I am by no means without hope, for * There is a fountain filled with blood, Drawn from Immanuel's veins, And sinners plunged beneath that flood, Lose all their guilty stains.' " I feel myself a poor guilty sinner ; but Jesus Clirist came into the world to save sinners, the chief of sinners." On Tuesday morning, the 29th, he said — " The Saviour ! O all heaven praises him, let the whole earth praise him, let all intelligent beings praise him. Eternity is too short to praise God and the Lamb." About 8 o'clock he began to converse with the friends who stood around him, and continued without much interruption to address them for nearly an hour. With the same propri- ety of expression, and delicate regard to their feelings, which he had ever been accustomed to manifest in health, he thank- ed them for all their kindness to him, bade them farewell, and sent messages to absent friends. He then with a distinct voice, repeated the following lines ; " Jesus, lover of my soul, Let me to thy bosom fly ; While the nearer waters roll, While the tempest still is high. Hide me, oh my Saviour, hide, Till the storm of life be past, Safe into the haven guide, O receive my soul at last. Other refuge have I none, Hangs my helpless soul on thee, MEMOIR. 89 Leave, ah leave me not alone, Still support and comfort me." " 1 am going fast, pray for me, that I may not be deceived in the hope of heaven." " I have some hope, all my hope is in the promises of God in Christ Jesus." These were the last words his lips uttered, and soon after he ceased to speak, he ceased to breathe. The kindness and attention shown to Mr. Wilcox, by the inhabitants of Danbury, will be gratefully remembered by his distant friends : but it was a dark and painful dispensation, which led him away from those friends, to languish and die among comparative strangers, while so many hearts would have rejoiced to minister to his comfort, in the last sinking hours ; and above all, when the tenderest of mothers, would have felt half the bitterness of that bitter cup removed, if her hands might have smoothed his dying pillow, and her lips re- ceived liis parting breath. The funeral was attended with great respect in Danbury, and there his body was first buried. But the people to whom he had sustained the relation of a pastor, desired to have his dust deposited with them and their children. Accordingly he was removed, and interred in the North cemetery, in Hart- ford, by the side of the Rev. Dr. Strong. In this notice of Mr. Wilcox, no attempt has been made to delineate, in a formal manner, his private character. But it is the recollection of his worth and loveliness in this respect, that will be last to fade from the memories of those who knew him intimately. The history of this beloved man, has shades of sadness, and lines of mystery thrown over it, which have been but imperfectly exhibited m this short sketch ; yet while darkness rests upon some of the dealings of divine providence with him, there is a bright side, and we may add his name, to a list of his own beloved friends, to whose memory he has paid a tribute in the following unfinished elegy. 12 90 MEMOIR. " Ye* were a group of stars collected hcre,t Some, mildly gloAving, others sparkling bright ; Here rising in a region calm and clear. Ye shone awhile with intermingled light ; Then parting, each pursuing his own flight O'er the wide hemisphere, ye singly shone ; But ere ye climbed to half your promised height, Ye sunk again with brightening glory round you thrown, Each left a brilliant track as each expired alone. And now, ye live, above the starry spheres. In sweet communion with the pure and blest ; Ye know no earthly change of hopes and fears, But all is one unbroken heaven of rest. An ocean, with no wave on all its breast. Ye dwell in love and feast upon high truth, And share, in that bright world beyond the tomb, Unwasting vigour, and unfading youth, A cherub's beauty and a seraph's bloom ; Ye err not, mourn not, fear no day of doom ; Within your breast there's nought to wake one sigh, Across your brow there comes no shade of gloom ; The tear is wiped forever from your eye, And all your souls are filled with rapture pure and high. The letters of Mr. Wilcox have disclosed something of his *' attachment to harmonious numbers," and this volume would be deficient, should it be published without containing some of his poetic productions. It is to be regretted that though he had written much, he had finished nothing, in this * Solomon M. Allen, Sylvester lismed, Alexander M. Fisher, Levi Parsons, Pliny Fisk, Joseph R. Andrus. f Andover Seminary. MEMOIR. 91 species of composition. But whatever there may be to crit- icise in the Fragments he has left, there certainly are proofs that his was a gifted mind. His poetic effusions are not common place. They are not dull prose, made duller still by the monotony of measured syllables. The living spirit of poetry inspired his numbers. He had that sympathy with nature which distinguishes the poet from other men, that deep and incommunicable feeling, which expatiates, and de- lights in her loneliest and loveliest scenes, investing with richer lustre, all her bright objects, and casting a deeper shade over every thing dark and mournful. These remarks are foun- ded not merely on what he has written, but on an intimate know- ledge of the man, his habits, and his favourite themes of con- versation. A common place book, found among his manu- scripts, is filled in considerable part, with an account of his little excursions for relaxation and exercise, and shows how his eyes and thoughts were employed during his solitary, or social rambles. It is filled with descriptions of a great va- riety of objects, so minute and graphic, that they cannot be read without a conviction, that he looked on nature, with an eye observant of all her varieties, and a heart alive to all her power. He seemed to have stored in this repository, every thing with which he met, that might ever be of use to him as a writer, and especially, as a writer of poetry. Peculiar- ities in the habits of any animal or plant, which he observed in his walks, or met with in his reading ; facts illustrating the workings of the human heart, the effects of the various pas- sions, of natural affection and of christian principle, are here noted down. And it was not merely from objects and facts which would strike an ordinary observer as worthy of special notice, that he collected hints and borrowed imagery to be wrought into the texture, or the ornaments of poetry ; but from things which by most, would have been passed as common and trivial, he gathered the elements of poetry, like the bee extracting honey from the unobtrusive as well as the more gaudy flowers. 93 MEMOIR. One who had known him long, and intimately, expressed himself thus in a letter to the writer of these remarks. ' I should call him a true poetical genius, and not a little acquainted with that sort of enthusiasm, and melancholy, and excitability, which sometimes attend men of genius. I used sometimes to blame him for his melancholy, and think him foolishly inclined to cherish and cultivate it. But I suppose it may be said of him, as has been said of those of like cast of mind, that he lived in a different sort of world from other men, and, perhaps there were more of certain kinds of satisfaction, covered up under his pensive moods, than is dreamt of in the philosophy of every man. His taste was refined, and delicate, almost too much so for him to write with ease to himself, and perhaps, sometimes leading him to undervalue the productions of his own mind. He had too much sensibility for his comfort, in a world where a man must be scratched every day of his life by some bramble ; but as giving a cast of delicacy to his character, and a kind of pathos to his thoughts, he had just about the right propor- tion.' The first eflfort of his pen in Poetry, which has been found among his papers, is a piece entitled " Fancy." It was writ- ten while a member of College, and spoken at an exhibition. It contains 616 lines. Another, without date, containing 410 lines, appears to have been written about the same period, under the title of the " Cottage in the West." These are written in rhyme, in an easy flowing manner, and many pas- sages are worthy of being preserved as specimens of youth- ful genius, and real poetry. An extract from the introduc- tion to the poem last named, is inserted. ****** How mildly the sun of the even, Smiles back on the dew-sprinkled thorn, Leaves blackness and storms in mid-heaven, But bends a bright bow round its morn. Thus age in the sun-set of time, MEMOIR. 93 Looks by the long blank of its noon, To the beauties that danced in its prime, To the rainbows that melted so soon. The " Age of Benevolence" was commenced about the year 1817, and the first Book was published in 1822. This ap- peared under some disadvantages. It was a part of a work, and many who might have been disposed to purchase the whole, did not choose to take this Fragment. Another disad- vantage was, that the Title had no appropriateness to the part which was published. The plan of the " Age of Benevolence," as nearly as can be collected from the unfinished fragments and from what is recollected in the conversation of its Au- thor, was as follows : 1st Book. Benevolence, the glory of Heaven. 2d " Benevolence on earth, a resemblance of Heaven. 3d " Need of Benevolence in our world. 4th. " Rewards of Benevolence. 5th. " Triumph of Benevolence. The outlines of this plan are announced in the beginning of the first Book ; Of true benevolence, its charms divine. With other motives to call forth its power, And its grand triumphs. The reader may be gratified in seeing something more of the plan of the " Age of Benevolence." To give a connected view of the Work, the Argument of each Book is presented, though left by the Author in an imperfect state. The Second, Third, and Fourth Books, are written in a fair hand, but as they have undergone several revisions, the last corrections of their Author could not, in many places be as- certained. As a specimen of his manner of correcting, the following line is given : " Nor what the pang of thy resistless dart." 94 MEMOIR. This has these words substituted for resistless. Nor what the pang of thy cold cruel dart. Nor what the pang of thy cold piercing dart. Nor what the pang of thine unerring dart. The reasons, which influenced the writer to reUnquish his plan of pubUsIiing the other Books, as was his intention when the First went to the press, are in part, expressed in his let- ters comprised in the Biographical Sketch. Others need not be stated. As copies of the First Book are not to be obtained, the edi- tion having all been sold, it has been thought desirable to preserve it in this Volume. A few Extracts from the other Books are also inserted, that the Author's plan, and what might have been expected had it been completed, may be more distinctly known. THE AGE OF BENEVOLENCE. AGE OF BENEVOLENCE. BOOK I. Benevolence the glory of Heaven. THE ARGUMENT. General subject proposed. Invocation. Subject of the first book. TJie Benevolence of God in the works of nature. Illustration from an example of vernal scenery. God's Benevolence, the theme of revelation. Its im- mediate exercise in his providence. Its higher glory in his moral govern- ment. Its highest in the work of redemption, and in the renovating effects of the preaching of the cross. Objection to the Divine Benevolence from the existence of sin. Another from future punishments. A third from the afflictions of the pious in this life. The happy tendency of these afflictions illustrated by the history of Orville and Charlotte, Importance of the doc- trine of God's Benevolence. A hymn of praise. The Benevolence of an- gels. That of saints in glory. BOOK II. Benevolence on earth the resemblance of Heaven. THE ARGUMENT. Contrast between this world and heaven. Nature of Benevolence: dis- tinct from constitutional kindness. Not kindled by natural religion. Im- planted by divine grace in the place of native selfishness. Its excellence. Its power illustrated by an example. A safe-guard from tempting passions. Its activity a cure for religious melancholy, 13 BOOK III. The need of Benevolence. THE ARGUMENT. Profanenese. Sabbath-breaking. Intemperance. Slavery. War. The Heathen. BOOK IV. The Rewards of Benevolence. THE ARGUMENT. The happiness flowing naturally from the exercise of Benevolence, al- ready sung, really a great reward. So is the sxiccess of benevolence, its happy effects on the world. But the design of this book is to treat more at large, of the absolute blessings promised by God, as the reward of well-do- ing. The body to share in the glory of heaven — its resurrection certain — a Spiritual body, incorruptible, glorious. Moral likeness. Freedom from Borrow. Happiness from various sources — society of angels, of each other — God and the Lamb the chief sources. All these enjoyments increasing, eter- nal. Resurrection, the time when they that have done good will be intro- duced to the consummation of all their glory — but the soul of each happy at death. Death of Horatio. Christian's great and sudden change, a mo- tive to activity in preparation. Negligence caused by unbelief. Faith in an invisible heaven reasonable. The effects of this faith, &c. THE AGE OF BENEVOLENCE. BOOK I. Of true benevolence, its charms divine. With other motives to call forth its power, And its grand triumphs, multiplied beyond All former bounds, in this its golden age, Humbly I sing, awed by the holy theme ; A theme exalted, though as yet unsung. In beauty rich, of inspiration full. And worthy of a nobler harp than that From which heroic strains sublimely sound. Thou who art only and supremelygood. Thee, thee alone, with trembling T invoke, From no pretended consciousness of need, And for no vain imaginary aid. Deign thou to smile upon my poor attempt To sing the glories of thy truth and love. Thyself and kingdom. With extended hand Bear me along ; surround me with thy light ; My heart enlarge and soften ; every power Make sacred for thyself; and let thy love Constrain me. Give me purity of aim. By selfishness untainted, lest my lips Thy truth profane. O make my whole intent, Thy glory to promote by doing good ; And, if successful, thine shall be the praise. 100 THE AGE OF If in the universe there be a world Uncursed by sin, beyond conception fair, Inhabited with intelligences pure, Of more exalted nature than our own. And perfect in enjoyment, what it is That forms their excellence and chief delight, Not one of human kind, without a soul Of its sublime capacity to rise Unmindful, and a heart to virtue dead, Can think it vain to know, or, knowing, fail To imitate. Of such a world so fair, Filled with inhabitants so pure and blest. And with the visible presence of the Source Of all existence, long have mortals heard ; And of each being in that happy world. From Him who sits on its eternal throne To him that holds the humblest station there, Love is the bliss, the glory doing good. Of God's benevolence, proof in his works From their beginning, and in all his ways. Illustrious shines. What motive, but desire To give felicity, called forth his might To build this fair creation ; to surround His dwelling in the immensity of space With orb encircling orb, to give to dust The happiness of life in countless forms Delightful, and to creatures rational His pure immortal nature to impart ? Was it his glory ? 'Twas his goodness still ; For both are one, inseparably one, God seeks not his, as men their glory seek ; From vain ambition. Earth and heaven sublime Were not created for the mere display Of power and skill immeasurably great ; Nor men and angels merely to admire The wondrous fabric, and its Author praise With lofty songs. The whole grand universe Is not an empty monument of fame ; Nor yet a monument, on a wide waste BENEVOLENCE. 101 Erected, for no purpose known to man. 'Tis not a pageant bright, o'er an expanse Illimitable, moving with vain pomp, In revolutions vain. The glory sought In its creation, is but that which flows From giving happiness with bounteous hand. Its Maker, full of goodness infinite, Self-moved, in acts beneficent poured forth Of his abundance, as the sun, all light And heat itself, cannot but shine and warm. On each created thing within his view, From the most humble to the most sublime, Man while yet sinless, in a' world prepared For happy innocence a fit abode. Beheld, in characters entire and bright, The impress of benevolence divine. And e'en apostate man, by reason led, Unaided reason, in a world defaced For his revolt, beholds remaining marks Of like benevolence, in mercy spared, When just had been a universal curse. Marks of its primitive glory he beholds Amid its desolations, as he views Among the ruins of a city, famed For ancient splendour, many a precious stone. And marble fragment beautifully wrought. He sees them in the grateful interchange Of day and night, and the propitious round Of seasons ; — in the growth of forests vast Where winter's cold requires the cheering flame. And, when these fail, in mines of fuel found Beneath earth's surface ; — in the countless streams That streak its map immense, so duly ranged, Like the thick branching fibres of a leaf. The less along the greater on each side. Watering the whole ; — in genial suns and rains. Combining their sweet influences, to crown The year with plenty ; — in the thousand plants Of healing virtue, of all various kinds, 102 THE AGE OF Growing at hand where human pain is felt ; — And in tlie powers by which each living thing, Down to the meanest and the most minute, Finds out its food, where'er its lot is cast, Provided there. From what but kindness flow These and like blessings ? Or if such be deemed Means requisite existence to prolong, E'en though unhappy, other proofs remain Of kindness, clear to reason's naked eye. Why this profusion in the fruits of earth, And sweet variety, so far beyond The mere supply of nature's simple wants ? Why not the fruit without the fragrant flower ? Or if the fragrance to its proper food Attract the wandering insect, why the hues, Their endless beautiful diversities. Enamelling the fields and verdant groves ? Why is man fitted to receive delight From aught that he beholds ? Why, in its use. Is not each sense an instrument of pain, Instead of pleasure 1 Why with objects fair Is the eye charmed, and with melodious sounds The listening ear ? Why at the frugal board, As at a banquet, is the taste regaled. When food as well might nourish, though devoid Of flavour, or unpleasant, and the love Of life instinctively constrain to eat ? 'Twas pure good-will, that for ungrateful man Enjoyment thus for its own sake prepared. Nor less apparent is the will to bless. In that delight inferior creatures feel ; The sporting insects, and the warbling birds, The bounding and the ruminating flocks, Yea, all the tribes, that walk, or swim, or fly. His providence the Lord of all extends O'er all his works, not merely to uphold, But to impart enjoyment to all ranks Of conscious being. This his kind extent, To unassisted reason, if not blind BENEVOLENCE. 103 From deep and wilful turpitude of heart, How brightly clear, when in some rural scene Blooming and sunny, fertile fields, green woods, Pure air and water, with fair creatures swarm. Seeming, in their exuberance of good. Too full of pleasure for a moment's rest ; And when this rural beauty and delight. Are heightened by some renovating change. From drought to showers, or from foul skies to fair ! The spring, made dreary by incessant rain. Was well nigh gone, and not a glimpse appeared Of vernal loveliness, but light-green turf Round the deep babbling fountain in the vale, Or by the rivulet on the hill-side, near Its cultivated base, fronting the south, Where in the first warm rays of March it sprung Amid dissolving snow : — save these mere specks Of earliest verdure, with a few pale flowers. In other years bright blowing soon as earth Unveils her face, and a faint vermil tinge On clumps of maple of the softer kind, Was nothing visible to give to May, Though far advanced, an aspect more like her's Than like November's universal gloom. All day beneath the sheltering hovel stood The drooping herd, or lingered near to ask The food of winter. A few lonely birds. Of those that in this northern clime remain Throughout the year, and in the dawn of spring, At pleasant noon, from their unknown retreat Come suddenly to view with lively notes. Or those that soonest to this clime return From warmer regions, in thick groves were seen, But with their feathers ruffled, and despoiled Of all their glossy lustre, sitting mute. Or only skipping, with a single chirp, In quest of food. Whene'er the heavy clouds. That half way down the mountain side oft hung, As if o'erloaded with their watery store, 1^4 THE AGE OF Were parted, though with motion unobserved, Through their dark opening, white with snow appeared Its lowest, e'en its cultivated, peaks. With sinking heart the husbandman surveyed The melancholy scene, and much his fears On famine dwelt ; when, suddenly awaked At the first glimpse of daylight, by the sound, Long time unheard, of cheerful martins, near His window, round their dwelling chirping quick, With spirits by hope enlivened up he sprung To look abroad, and to his joy beheld A sky without the remnant of a cloud. From gloom to gayety and beauty bright So rapid now the universal change. The rude survey it with delight refined, And e'en the thoughtless talk of thanks devout. Long swoln in drenching rain, seeds, germs, and buds, Start at the touch of vivifying beams. Moved by their secret force, the vital lymph Diffusive runs, and spreads o'er wood and field A flood of verdure. Clothed, in one short week. Is naked nature in her full attire. On the first morn, light as an open plain Is all the woodland, filled with sunbeams, poured Through the bare tops, on yellow leaves below, With strong reflection : on the last, 'tis dark With full-grown foliage, shading all within. In one short week the orchard buds and blooms ; And now, when steeped in dew or gentle showers, It yields the purest sweetness to the breeze. Or all the tranquil atmosphere perfumes. E'en from the juicy leaves, of sudden growth. And the rank grass of steaming ground, the air, Filled with a watery glimmering receives A grateful smell, exhaled by warming rays. Each day are heard, and almost every hour. New notes to swell the music of the groves. And soon the latest of the feathered train At evening twilight come ; — the lonely snipe. BENEVOLENCE. 105 O'er marshy fields, high in the dusky air, Invisible, but, with faint tremulous tones, Hovering or playing o'er the listener's head ; — And, in mid-air, the sportive night-hawk, seen Flying awhile at random, uttering oft A cheerful cry, attended with a shake Of level pinions, dark, but when upturned Against the brightness of the western sky. One white plume showing in the midst of each, Then far down diving with loud hollow sound ; — And, deep at first within the distant wood. The whip-poor-will, her name her only song. She, soon as children from the noisy sport Of hooping, laughing, talking with all tones. To hear the echoes of the empty barn. Are by her voice diverted, and held mute, Comes to the margin of the nearest grove ; And when the twilight deepened into night, Calls them within, close to the house she cornea, And on its dark side, haply on the step Of unfrequented door, lighting unseen. Breaks into strains articulate and clear. The closing sometimes quickened as in sport. Now, animate throughout, from morn to eve All harmony, activity, and joy, Is lovely nature, as in her blest prime. The robin to the garden, or green yard, Close to the door repairs to build again Within her wonted tree ; and at her work Seems doubly busy, for her past delay. Along the surface of the winding stream. Pursuing every turn, gay swallows skim ; Or round the borders of the spacious lawn Fly in repeated circles, rising o'er Hillock and fence, with motion serpentine, Easy and light. One snatches from the ground A downy feather, and then upward springs, Followed by others, but oft drops it soon, In playful mood, or from too slight a hold, 14 106 THE AGE OF When all at once dart at the falling prize. The flippant blackbird with light yellow crown, Hangs flattering in the air, and chatters thick Till her breath fail, when, breaking off", she drops On the next tree, and on its highest limb. Or some tall flag, and gently rocking, sits, Her strain repeating. With sonorous notes Of every tone, mixed in confusion sweet, All chanted in the fulness of delight, The forest rings : — where, far around enclosed With bushy sides, and covered high above With foliage thick, supported by bare trunks, Like pillars rising to support a roof, It seems a temple vast, the space within Rings loud and clear with thrilling melody. Apart, but near the choir, with voice distinct. The merry mocking-bird together links In one continued song their different notes, Adding new life and sweetness to them all. Hid under shrubs, the squirrel that in fields Frequents the stony wall and briery fence, Here chirps so shrill that human feet approach Unheard till just upon him, when with cries Sudden and sharp he darts to his retreat. Beneath the mossy hillock or aged tree ; But oft a moment after rcrappears. First peeping out, then starting forth at once With a courageous air, yet in his pranks Keeping a watchful eye, nor venturing far Till left unheeded. In rank pastures graze, Singly and mutely, the contented herd ; And on the upland rough the peaceful sheep ; Regardless of the frolic lambs, that, close Beside them, and before their faces prone, With many an antic leap, and butting feint, Try to provoke them to unite in sport. Or grant a look, till tired of vain attempts ; When, gathering in one company apart, All vigour and delight, away they run, Straight to the utmost corner of the field BENEVOLENCE. 107 The fence beside ; then, wheeling, disappear In some small sandy pit, then rise to view ; Or crowd together up the heap of earth Around some upturned root of fallen tree, And on its top a trembling moment stand, Then to the distant flock at once return. Exhilarated by the general joy. And the fair prospect of a fruitful year. The peasant, with light heart, and nimble step, His work pursues, as it were pastime sweet. With many a cheering word, his willing team. For labour fresh, he hastens to the field Ere morning lose its coolness ; but at eve When loosened from the plough and homeward turned, He follows slow and silent, stopping oft To mark the daily growth of tender grain And meadows of deep verdure, or to view His scattered flock and herd, of their own will Assembling for the night by various paths. The old now freely sporting with the young. Or labouring with uncouth attempts at sport. When so luxuriant, and so fair, is all Of vegetative growth, and on all sides Creatures so happy, single, and in groups, And countless multitudes, attract the eye. The thoughtfully observant, with no light But that reflected hence, if such there be Without that clearer light from heaven direct, Cannot o'erlook the goodness of the Power Invisible, that thus delights to bless. But why at nature gaze with pagan eyes. And only at her fairest happiest scenes, When revelation shines, and gilds the whole ? That God is good, and nothing does but good, Is the one truth of his whole written word. 'Tis the deep root, that to this tree of life All its vitality and beauty gives. Turn we again to nature, with the book Of inspiration open in our hands 108 THE AGE OF To be our guide, no longer need we seek For single tokens of Jehovah's love. All things declare it, and with accents loud Call for loud songs of gratitude and praise. The gifts of heaven, innumerable, descend On all the earth, silent, and uniform, Like dew distilling from a smiling sky, Or like the steady falling of a shower When the sun shines, and gilds the drops in air. And on the quivering leaves, and bending grass. Look where it may, the opened eye of faith Beholds the fulness of benevolence. And oft its overflowing, as in showers Falling on seas, on barren rocks and sands ; — In wholesome fruit within the wilderness, Growing each year, and perishing uncropt ; — In myriads of living atoms, found In every turf, and leaf, and breath of air, Too small indeed for unassisted sight, But not too small to feel the good they have. Nor yet unworthy care that knows no bound. Illumined by the rays of truth divine, The universe a lovely aspect wears, From its Creator's universal smile. About its vast circumference his arms In tender love are stretched, in one embrace The whole encircling, as the milky zone Surrounds the starry firmament immense. His six days' work completed, God ordained A day of rest ; but not from further care Of his creation rested he, concealed In a pavilion of impervious clouds, Nor, like a Hindoo deity, entranced Or sleeping on some consecrated height. Nor merely watching with all-seeing eye The movement of his works. His outstretched hand. When he had sent into the boundless void The rolling spheres, dropt not to let them find Their untried way, unguided, unsustained, BENEVOLENCE. And by the force of that first impulse run Their ceaseless round. No — had he thus withdrawn His active power immediate, from the worlds, Created by his might, and hid himself Above the highest, careless of them all, How in an instant had they burst their bond Of sweet attraction, flying all apart, Systems and constellations mingling wild. And far asunder vanished into nought. Like parted bubbles by the whirlwind driven ! Or how had they together rushed, and sunk, A mass of ruins, in a vortex, formed By their own motion, into the abyss ! Had he once turned his countenance away From this fair earth, and from these nether skies, And risen to show its light no more below, Darkness and chaos had returned amain, Closed in behind him even to his throne. And should he now depart, no long-fixed laws Could still preserve the spheres in harmony, And in accustomed orbits roll them on Through regions wide of unsubstantial air. As when the massy weights, that move the clock Of some superb cathedral, for its age And sanctity a venerable pile. By small disorder loosened from their hold, Run down at once, with sound of rushing wheels, While hands enormous, flying their wonted round. Seem to the thoughtful, gazing silently. Thus in a moment whirling months away. So this stupendous complicate machine Of suns and systems, wheeling round the skies, Were but the pressure of God's finger gone. Would on a sudden hasten to its end With tumult loud, cut short the reign of time. And spend its force till every motion ceased With deadened stop. Should the Most High let loose From his controlliiig grasp, the elements Of this calm globe, the sea would burst its bars. 109 110 THE AGE OF And deluge every land ; or furious winds, With earthquakes and volcanoes, rage and waste With universal sway. Or should he leave To work alone, what men call principles Of animal and vegetable life. How would the fields and forests, though arrayed In summer's gay profusion, all at once To wintry nakedness and gloom return, And every creature, though with vigour flushed Or pleasure, die as with a single stroke ! How desolate were nature, and how void Of every charm, how like a naked waste Of Africa, were not a present God Beheld employing, in its various scenes. His active might to animate and adorn ! What life and beauty, when in all that breathes, Or moves, or grows, his hand is viewed at work ! — When it is viewed unfolding every bud. Each blossom tinging, shaping every leaf. Wafting each cloud that passes o'er the sky, Rolling each billow, moving every wing That fans the air, and every warbling throat Heard in the tuneful woodlands. In the least, As well as in the greatest of his works, Is ever manifest his presence kind ; As well in swarms of glittering insects, seen Quick to and fro within a foot of air Dancing a merry hour, then seen no more, As in the systems of resplendent worlds Through time revolving in unbounded space. His eye, while comprehending in one view The whole creation, fixes full on me ; As on me shines the sun with his full blaze, While o'er the hemisphere he spreads the same. His hand, while holding oceans in its palm, And compassing the skies, surrounds my life, Guards the poor rush-light from the blast of death. O'er men and angels, and o'er all beside With understanding formed and moral sense. BENEVOLENCE. If other ranks there be, unknown on earth, Dominion absolute the King of heaven, In majesty maintains, but with a care «- And tenderness parental, clainnng nought But filial love, and that obedience, due To excellence and kindness infinite, Their gain to yield, their true felicity Unspeakable and endless. Here shines out Jehovah's glory, in his government Of countless beings to himself allied; Here in his moral kingdom, in its worth All computation of created powers Transcending far, as far as it transcends The universe of life irrational And senseless matter, made but for the use Of this superior universe of minds, And but for this preserved, ennobled thus With grandeur, and with beauty thus adorned. Through his intelligent creation reigns The eternal Sovereign, with supreme control O'er all events, all actions, and all hearts. In pure benevolence directing all. One object to accomplish, good immense, The best and greatest good by boundless power To be attained, ore'en to be conceived By the omniscient mind. For this he doomed Apostate angels to the pit of wo Interminable, and the faithful fixed In everlasting innocence and bliss On heavenly thrones. For this alone he rules Among the nations, here exalting one. And there another humbling to the dust ; Here sending peace, and there the scourge of war ; Here planting, and there rooting out from earth. O the consoling thought, that, from this world With violence covered, shaken by the tread Of giant conquerors stalking o'er its realms, The shock of armed hosts together dashed. The revolutions and the frequent fall Of mighty empires, whoso will, may lift 111 112 THE AGE OF His pained eye to heaven, and find relief In viewing there, high on a spotless throne, A God all goodness overruling all Himself to show, his glory to augment, And swell the tide of happiness and praise, To roll unmingled through eternity, And unrestrained, when earth has passed away ! But, far ahove all others, though sublime, One grand display of goodness infinite Rises to view, astonishes, attracts, Commands the admiration of high heaven. The gratitude of earth. All eyes at once To Calvary look, for this supreme display Of greatness and benevolence combined ; To man's redemption from the curse deserved Of death eternal, at the price of blood Poured from the wounds of God's expiring Son, Poured from his heart of overflowing love. Here all the glories of the Godhead meet. And in one splendid constellation shine ; Here with consummate harmony they blend Their various beauties, and together form A token of mercy, thrown across that cloud Suspended o'er the world, with vengeance charged, Threatening destruction. Wisdom, justice, power, All measureless, to this stupendous work The grandeur of divinity impart ; But love imparts the loveliness divine. Love, love unspeakable, pervades the whole, Throughout diflTusing its immortal charms. Love was its source in the eternal mind. And its accomplishment was wrought by love. Love made the covenant ere time began, And love fulfilled it at the destined hour. 'Twas love that wept, and agonized, and died ; That rose to intercede, and judge, and reign. 'Tis love unquenchable, its great design Pursuing still intently, that sends dow'n The gracious Spirit, to constrain, and fit. The guilty, proffered pardon to receive BENEVOLENCE. The lost, salvation ; and almighty love, Its work to finish, in despite of earth. Sin, death, and hell, combined for its defeat. Safely, triumphantly, to heaven conveys Trophies innumerable, there to shine Forever, to its everlasting praise. The bleeding cross, howe'er by thankless man Scorned as the monument of his deep guilt, His utter helplessness, ruin entire. Entire dependence on another's aid, Is yet the only monument that shows. In all the greatness of his high descent And destiny immortal, his true worth In Heaven's account. The cross, howe'er despised. And to a curse perverted by the blind, Is yet the only ladder to the skies. For men to climb, or angels to descend. Between this world and that of spirits blest. Glad intercourse, without the cross, were none. The earth, united by no golden chain Of mercy, to the realm of innocence. By none united to the throne above. Would run alone its melancholy course. By its Creator's never-changing frown Blasted throughout, presenting to the sight Of heaven's pure beings, keeping all aloof, A spectacle of horror unrelieved. Torn from the anchor.^ hope, a wreck immense,, With what rapidity and terrible force. Straight toward destruction would it drive along. From its whole surface sending to the skies The shrieks and wailings of despairing men ! Without the radiance of ethereal day. From the third heaven let down, a cheering stream. Through the one skylight opened by the cross. With what thick darkness were this dungeon filled,. That nothing could remove and none endure ! And live there those, within this heavenly light. Who, fond of darkness, madly shut their eyes» 15 113 114 THE AGE OF And grope, at every step, in painful doubt Which way to turn, though on the fatal brink ? As if upon a world of one long night A sun should rise, and its inhabitants, In wilful blindness, should still feel their way, Stumbling at noon. Is there, within this light, A single eye, that overlooks the cross, As fabled, or not needed ? Can there be An eye, that never watered it with tears Of penitence and love ? a stubborn knee. That never bowed before it ? or a hand That never clasped it with the energy Of hope, in that glad moment when it springs From deep despair ? O, can there be a heart, That never, at its foot, poured out itself In supplications, thanks, and humble vows Of unreserved devotedness till death ? Away with every refuge from the woes. Here and hereafter, but the bleeding cross ! Who flees to any other, for relief From conscious guilt, and misery, is undone ; Who leads to any other, them that wait His guidance, adds their ruin to his own. And on himself redoubled vengeance draws. Wo to the men who tear away the cross ! Sole prop and pillar of a sinking world. If its foundation by unhallowed hands Be undermined, what, what can give support ? But, hush, my fears ! it rests not on the sand ; The raging waves, that dash against its base, Sink harmless, after foaming out their shame : Quick, at the voice of the Almighty Word, Away they shrink, their shallowness betray. Stir up, and leave exposed to every eye. The foulness at the bottom ill concealed. From Calvary springs the only fount of life, Knowledge, and truth/'celestial. Whoso drinks Feels immortality begun within. And his dim vision cleared from every mist BENEVOLENCE. Of doubt and ignorance ; its virtues high He that contemns, is wholly dead at heart, And, in a maze of errors without end Bewildered, darkling winds his joyless way. Divine Redeemer, thou art truth itself; In thee are found its sum and living source, Its boundless and inestimable stores. They that forsake thee, that with hands profane From thee thy uncreated glory wrest, Thy independent throne, and in the pride Of false philosophy, refuse to sit Meek learners at thy feet, how fast they pass From one delusion to another worse. Gone, from the earliest hesitating thought Of leaving thee, well nigh beyond the hope Of restoration, as if left in turn ! One step from thee, thy Godhead, and thy cross Inseparable, and down a steep descent, Down, down they go, with bold and bolder strides, Till, all restraint thrown off, one desperate plunge Sink them below the light of truth and heaven, In the dread gulf of infidelity, The fatal gulf Between this rayless depth, And that celestial height, from which they leap Who once from thee depart, exists no ground On which to rest ; all is but empty air ; In which wide void each pause the falling make, Is but a transient hovering on the wing. Saviour of men, almighty as thou art, And infinite in mercy, to thy throne. Though human argument and friendship fail, Restore the wandering, there to kneel again In adoration, and repeat the praise Of thy divine perfections, once their song. Turn back the tide of error flowing wide. Bearing away the boundaries of truth For ages fixed, the enclo^re breaking down Of many a garden planted by thy hand. Laying it open to the world's wide waste. UH 116 THE AGE OF 'Tis when the cross is preached, and only then, That from the pulpit a mysterious power Goes forth to renovate the moral man. The cross imparts vitality divine, And energy omnipotent, to truth ; To its whole system, ineffectual else, Inanimate. He that, without it, wields The sacred sword, at best, in mock display, A useless weapon flourishes in its sheath ; None feel its edge, none fear it. Men there are, Men of illustrious name, that have employed Years in portraying to admiring crowds. In vivid colours, with the magic hand Of genius guided by refining taste, The loveliness of virtue, and of vice The hideous features, and in urging all. With eloquent tongue, to make the happy choice, And, at the end, with grief and self-reproach. Have looked around in vain for the reformed. On all the moral field within its reach. Their beautiful philosophy has fallen Powerless, as moonlight cold on the oold snow. Convinced at length of this its impotence. And taught divinely to proclaim instead Messiah crucified, on the same field With joy have they beheld an aspect new, From fruits abundant of immortal growth. When amid frozen seas, mountains of ice. And all the horrors of a polar clime, Moravia's humble but heroic sous The bold attempt began, truth to make known To the besotted Greenjander, and lead His feet into the path of virtue and life. They pointed to the heavens thick set with stars. All, to the least, twinkling with vivid beams, Presenting a whole living firmament Through the clear atmosphere, intensely cold, Of his long wintry night ; and to the sun, Duly returning to spread o'er his vales BENEVOLENCE. 117 A sudden, transitory, summer smile : — To these, and objects visible like these, His eye they long directed, and from them To their Creator laboured long to raise His grovelling thoughts, devotion to inspire. And teach obedience; while with stupid awe He gazed and listened, or with wonder wild, But still to vice remained a willing slave, Till, of success from efforts thus pursued Despairing, they conducted him at once A ruined wretch to Calvary, when with guilt He trembled at the sight, melted in love, '^ Shook off the long-fixed clinging habit of sin, And from his bestial degradation rose To intellectual and virtuous life. What though the cross, presented to the view With all the humbling but momentous truths Inscribed on it, offend tlie pride of man ? Shall it be hidden, or its truths effaced ? Shall dying men be pleased rather than saved 1 When one who traverses some polar waste, Feels the benumbing influence of the cold Steal o'er him in a grateful drowsiness, Too strong to be resisted, and repays With bitter words, while sinkihg in the snow, The efforts of his comrades to alarm And rouse him, or support and drag him on, Is it philanthrophy to please, or save ? Will not their hated care be recompensed, When, borne beyond the danger, and restored To feeling and to reason, he pours forth The weeping gratitude of a full heart 1 And will the kind severity, that seeks To rescue those seized by a lethargy, Ending, not broke, in ever-dying death, Receive a recompense of thanks less rich From the delivered ? Or the transient scoff Of those delivered never, can this pain Like their eternal curse, and that of Heaven, nS THE AGE OF For ministering an opiate to the soul, To gain its momentary favour here ? Cruel the tenderness, that whispers peace To men at war with their Redeemer, men Who scorn his clemency, and dare his wrath ! And O how false the friendship, that unites Preacher and hearer in the ruinous work Of mutual flattery ! — that together joins The sacred guide, and those who make him theirs, In travelling merrily on the high way Of sin and error, as the path to heaven. Praising its breadth and smoothness, each in turn Cheering and cheered, deceiving and deceived, Undoing and undone ! Learn'd he may be. And eloquent, who yet the name deserves Of a false teacher, false in head and heart ; But learning, with its boasted powers, arrayed Against the sweet simplicity of truth, And eloquence from counterfeited warmth, The painted passion of a mind at ease, How vain and pitiful in all their pride ! He is the true ambassador of Heaven, Whose learning is the knowledge of the truth, Whose eloquence is that of piety Enlightened and impassioned — now a flame Of pure devotion rising to the skies. And now a stream of pure benevolence Poured down on man. Of such the mighty theme, That takes supreme possession of the soul. The bosom swelling, glowing on the lips, Is Christ, the Lord of Life, dying to give Blest immortality to wretched foes ; Exchanging, in the plenitude of love. His own imperishable crown of light For man's mock diadem of wreathed thorns. The praise of angels for the scoff" of worms, The infinite beatitude of heaven For pain unutterable on the cross. In man's redemption what o'erwhelming proof BENEVOLENCE US Of God's benevolence ! From first to last 'Tis one stupendous scheme for doing good. 'Tis not the power and wisdom, though immense, But the unfathomable depth of love. In it disclosed, that makes it what it is, The hope of earth, the glory of the skies, Of both the wonder. Needless 'tis to seek Beyond it, for the excellence supreme Of heaven's Almighty, and his chief delight. But here, as if intent on robbing God Of goodness, in revenge for being compelled. Against the strongest wishes to confess E'en his existence, with a fiendlike joy The infidel exclaims, and thousands, wronged In their own view if ranked with him, repeat, With the same spirit the presumptuous cry. Why were men ruined only to be saved 1 Why all destroyed that part might be restored ? No answer needs perversion of the truth So wilful, and its authors look for none. Content with the relief of vented hate. With thoughts less impious, others fondly ask. Why was man suffered to destroy himself ? Why was there one by previous wickedness Prepared to tempt him to the fatal deed ? Slept the Most High, while Satan, full of guile. Lurked in the bowers of Eden, to seduce From their allegiance the first happy pair ? And after their revolt did he awake Like one surprised, and, not to be quite foiled By what was done and could not be undone, Resolve on their redemption as a shift. The best expedient of a straitened mind. An unforeseen dilemma to escape ? Or held he, when rebellion in the breasts Of angels rose, the reins of government With hand relaxed, till sin had worked its way Into the heart of heaven ? and then in wrath Resumed he them with more determined grasp. 120 THE AGE OF To drive it thence 1 Lacked he the knowledge, power, Or vigilance, its entrance to prevent ? If not, why left he, in the universe, One door unbarred, by which this enemy Could gain admission? Why not shut it out From his whole kingdom with a single word, As he excludes it now, and will henceforth. From all the heavenly regions ? Other cause Than his eternal will, acting in view Of good to be effected by its means Under his fullcontroul, is sought in vain By groping mortals. Of its origin. Its first conception in a heart upright. And in the power, too, of the Holy One, They nothing know, and nothing need to know, But that, created free, angels and men Fell from the height of rectitude and bliss Divinely pure, by their own willing act, Nor thwarted in the least God's perfect plan Unalterable, nor involved in guilt His character with theirs, A mystery this ! A truth to be believed, and not explained ! The proud demand of mortals, that its depths Be fathomed, and laid open to their view, To gain their faith, is vain impiety. 'Tis prompted by a wish to take the throne. And, knowing good and evil, be as gods. Rather should thanks be offered, that while here That only is revealed to claim their thoughts, Which leads to present duty, and prepares For an eternity of light and joy. It best befits them, with absorbing awe, Childlike simplicity of mind and heart, And meek dependence on the Spirit of truth For needful aid, to make it their employ To learn what their Creator has declared In his pure oracles, and that receive Without a doubt or murmur, nor inquire Beyond it for the secrets of his will. BENEVOLENCE. On many a sacred page resemblance clear Of that sublimer good, from sin controlled By God's benevolence to be secured To his great kingdom, shines in some event Of transient date. The picture is complete ; A hand divine has given, with matchless skill, The last bright touches ; and their beauty strikes More for the previous shades and darker ground. The whole transaction meets the view at once ; And, nothing doubting what part to ascribe To guilty men, what to their righteous King, We render homage, willing or constrained, To his transcendent grace, their wickedness Controlling, and directing to produce A tenfold blessing for the curse they meant : Their malice, burning only to destroy, He overrules in clemency to save. All darkness seems at first, and all along The following course ; but on the close is poured A flood of light, whose splendour, shining back O'er the past gloom, reveals to our dim eyes The golden thread of providence benign Through the dark tissue drawn, and brighter far Than if around it all had been as bright. Since, then, in the events of days and years Our faint and limited vision oft discerns Evil, as used by the all-wise Supreme, To greater good redounding, wherefore doubt The like result of that grand system, formed Of these combined, as ocean of its drops ? Will goodness infinite expend itself On these inferior parts, and leave the whole Without its care, to a disastrous fate ? If either, sure the former were o'erlooked By heaven's great Monarch. Of his kind regard Both, as they need, receiving, both e'en now Were seen to be o'erruled alike for good Were they alike complete, and brought within The sphere of vision now the lot of man. 16 121 1^ THE AGE OF Of God's whole plan, in its infinitude Of length and breadth, how little, in this state Of imperfection, can we mortals know ! What influence of great moment hid from us The part revealed may have beyond itself, On universal being, none can tell. In his obscure economy below, Designs the Governor of all may have, Of which no human mind has ever dreamed. Earth, with its mingled scenes of good and ill, Judgment and mercy, to the universe For which he acts, may bear, beside its known, Other relations, of extent immense, And infinite weight. Were myriads of stars Made but for nightly lamps to this one globe. When hung so high in the cerulean vault. That all the feeble scattered rays, prolonged Down to this depth, scarce make the darkness less 1- And when a single orb, low in the sky, Outshines them all ? If, rather, like our own, Suns to attendant spheres they kindly roll ; Rising and setting to give interchange Of light and darkness ; vallies, hills, and plains Clothing with yearly or perrennial fruits. And flowery verdure ; shine they not to bless Creatures of rational immortal kind. Throughout their wide dominion ? Or has God, All spirit and intelligence himself, And these esteeming infinitely best Of all his works, and when recorded stands His declaration, that he formed the earth To be inhabited, and not in vain, Built the whole fabric of celestial orbs But to exist a mass of matter void, A wilderness enormous, where are none Of the delightful sights and sounds of life. But awful silence, splendid barrenness And desolation ? Ill conceived of thee, Father of lights ! Thy wisdom prompts the thought BENEVOLENCE. 123 That here must be the populous abodes Of beings, formed to serve thee, and enjoy. These all, perhaps, are sinless, and now reap The fruits of their obedience ; — feel no pain And fear no evil ; in communion live With God and angels ; and, forever near The world of glory, bask in its full blaze. And he, in understanding, may not err. More than in heart, who oft, at peaceful eve. Looks on the sky as filled with peopled orbs. Whence universal hymns of praise ascend To the third heaven — till, earth and e'en himself Forgetting, living like a spirit free. In thoughts ethereal rapt, he seem to hear The distant melody. As in a day, When earth is darkened by thick stormy clouds. The sun, above those clouds, shines unobscured. Covering their restless waves with changing hues, Spangles, and rainbows ; and on high is nought But one immensity of radiance bright, Of clear and tranquil beauty one expanse ; So, in the intelligent creation, all Beyond this world and that of hell beneath. Beyond the gloom that overhangs this scene, All may be light, and purity, and peace, And perfect loveliness. This, and the world Infernal, may then, haply, be set forth Examples for the subjects of a realm Extended o'er the globes, the systems wide. Lighted by eighty millions of bright suns. Whose beams the telescope has brought to earth, And by those millions more, in the blue deep Yet undescried— examples for their good ; The one of justice, for their warning given ; The other of sweet mercy, for their faith. The Ruler of a kingdom thus immense In its extent, and weighty in its charge. Might deem it best that his whole character Be tried and proved ; that righteousness and grace, 124 THE AGE OF Seeming at variance, be together brought In union wonderful, and thus displayed, Before all eyes, in living monuments, Like other attributes in other works. But cease these fancies ! death may dissipate The whole at once, for a more glorious scene. To firmer ground I gladly turn for rest. Though on this theme, the wonder of the sage In every country, and the scoff of fools, In spite of reason and conjecture, much Remain unsolved, and must while time endures, Enough is seen in providence, and fixed By sacred promise, for unwavering trust. Till the full end, when vision will be full. Assured that sin the limit cannot pass Of Heaven's permission, that omnipotence Has bounded its proud waves, and that, at length, The eternal Being, who surveys the end From the beginning, will reveal its use. In that superior good, to be wrought out . From all its evil, wherefore should we scorn The wisdom bidding us our murmurs hush And vain alarms, renounce our arguments And fond surmises, and in silence wait Till the great terminating scene arrive ? Why should we be like savages untaught, Who, while the sun is shrouded in eclipse, Raise their tumultuous outcries, thence to drive The fancied monster, in their narrow view Extinguishing the luminary of day, When standing still an hour, with watching eye. Would show him moving onward as before. With lustre unimpaired ? Why should we fear The blotting or diminishing of the light Of heaven and earth, the glory of their King, Ere the result of what may seem awhile Mysterious interruption ? Why pronounce The scheme of providence in aught unwise Or undesirable, till it be known BENEVOLENCE. E'en to the end ? The end is coming on ; The issue of these mixed events below, The winding up of all terrestrial scenes ; The day of consummation ; — solemn close Of past eternity, of that to come Beginning grand ; — a common centre, both In one uniting, like a strait between Two shoreless oceans, at which all things meet, Their only passage ; — rendezvous sublime Of angels and of men, in that dead pause Between the old creation and the new, — What time harmonious orbs in stillness wait, Their changes broken, for Jehovah's voice To bid their moving concert be resumed ; — Of all things, great and small, evil and good, A full review, when the first heaven and earth Have pass'd away, and ere a second rise. The set time this to ope the sealed book Of providence, before assembled worlds. Come all and meditate the wondrous scenes, The joyful and the terrible, that pass In order, at the opening of each seal. See the disclosure, now, of hidden things In God's impartial plan ; of others, wrapt In dubious gloom the evolution full. See now the clearing up of time's dark day. The clouds dispersed, the elements at rest. And all more beautiful than ere the storm : The sun sends forth a brighter blaze of beams ; Glad nature rings with more melodious notes ; And sweeter smiles, with renovated charms. Beneath a purer and serener sky. Thus when this growing system is mature ; When it has reached its limits, and the day Set for the full review of its concerns Varied and countless, has arrived, and passed, Then shall the morning of eternity, Its inexpressible perfection show. 'Tis now like the creation in the midst 125 126 THE AGE OF Of that eventful week, in which the work Was in its progress under God's right hand, But half completed ; when illumined here, There darksome still ; exulting here with life, There wholly desolate ; here finely formed, And there yet shapeless. But, as at the end Of that grand period the Creator viewed. With infinite delight, his finished works, And their surpassing excellence pronounced. So shall it be at the concluding scene Of checkered time. Then, too, the morning stars Shall sing together ; the bright sons of God Shall shout for joy ; and heaven a loud response From all her ransomed multitudes resound. Now from all quarters of the universe. Streams of pure glory, due to Him who thus In the supremacy of goodness reigns. Come pouring into paradise, that vast And central ocean. At the gathering flood Transported gaze, they, who for this result Waited with humble confidence in time. Of the Most High, his various works and ways. Immeasurably more they now behold In one glad hour, than, in their mortal state, Imagination, though by faith enlarged. And purified by love, had e'er conceived. All former knowledge shrinks to nothing now. The wisest of astronomers, when a child, What knew he of the sun, and starry hosts 1 — Their revolution, distance, magnitude. And order intricate and yet complete ? What saw he in the lighted sky at eve, But twinkling sparks, as in the dusky air. Almost within the reach of his fond hands. Thrown upward in the wildness of delight ? A Newton in his infancy, is he. Who, while on earth, is future heir of heaven. Yet, when, in full maturity, he comes To his inheritance, he but begins BENEVOLENCE. 12T The glories of the Godhead to discern, And of a few know something ; destined thence To make sublime advances without end, In this the only knowledge of true worth. More of that universal government, Established and administered in love, He still discovers, after ages spent In contemplation on the wondrous theme. As up the heights of immortality He climbs unwearied, to his ravished eye The prospect larger grows on every side, The firmament swells upward and around. While its apparent splendours every hour In number and in brilliancy increase. Thus, in progression endless, toward the Source Of light, move onward all the saints above. With joyful ardour, never to be quenched. But where are now the men of stubborn heart, Who, all the season allotted to make peace With their Creator, placable though just. Stood out against him ? In what guise appear Before the last tribunal, they, who oft. Despising faith where comprehension fails. At reason's bar pronounced their Judge unjust, Because his footsteps were unsearchable. Now in the clouds, and now along the deep ? They stand convinced, appalled, and silently Await their doom. Now the rebellious words, Utter'd against the providence of Heaven, Whene'r it frown'd on them, or seem'd to frown, Like arrows impiously and vainly shot, By Thracians, at the lowering thundercloud When low and near, on their own heads return In righteous vengeance. Now in agony They own the justice of the Lord of all. While under its condemning power they sink To uttermost perdition, the desert Of unrepented sin, their destiny Ordained by thee, thou Arbiter supreme. 128 THE AGE OP The certainty, and rectitude, of this Thy dread decree, what mortal dare deny ? Great Lawgiver of all worHs, 'tis thine to fix The statutes of thy kingdom, and enforce Their due observance, by the penalty In thy unerring wisdom deem'd the best. No pleasure from the misery of his foes Can God derive ; His character and word Forbid, that, like a tyrant, he should feast Upon their torments. His benevolence, Shown in the blessings lavished on them here ; In that transcendent gift, forfeited heaven To purchase for them ; in the offer made Of pardon on repenting, made again Oft as rejected, with entreaties pressed And warnings merciful, forbids the thought. But from their punishment, in its effects Upon a government with wisdom planned, He does derive such pleasure as becomes A gracious Monarch, who the welfare loves Of his whole kingdom, more than that of those Who break its sacred laws, madly abuse All clemency, and enemies remain Incorrigible. 'Tis the general weal, That calls for vengeance on the rebel's head. Thus justice to benevolence is changed, And judgment into mercy. Hell is made The woful dungeon of the universe, Where universal foes, and only such. In sad imprisonment forever lie. Its depths were hollowed out, its gloomy walls Raised, for the peace of heaven ; and for the peace Of God's whole empire they remain, and will Until rebellion be no more a crime. Those everduring chains were forged in love Impartial ; perfect goodness binds them on, And turns the fatal key, that locks up all. Who enter once that dreadful gate, unlocked To none returning. To the inmost seat BENEVOLENCE. 139 Of feeling tortured by this thought, how writhe The guilty sufferers ! Could they but discern, On the white throne above, the slightest stain Of cruelty or injustice, 'twere enough To give them fortitude to bear the worst. But how can they be strong, in hand or heart, To suffer or resist, when they behold Benevolence and equity combined, In their eternal exile from the climes Of light and happiness ? How can they meet Love armed in the dread panoply of wrath, To take its righteous vengeance ? How endure From their Redeemer to receive their doom ? How can they stand before the Lamb incensed ? The meek, the spotless, self-devoted Lamb ? How will it give to their despair a sting Of keen and piercing agony, to think That He, who on the seat of judgment high, Arrayed in robes of majesty supreme, Sits to condemn them, is that Prince of Peace, Who once, in accents of compassion sweet, Of weeping condescension infinite. Pleaded for their acceptance of his love ! Ah me ! what bitterness, to drink, and drink Forever, of the cup of penal wrath Unmingled, from the hand that once held out The cup of free salvation ; from that hand, Which always gladly healed the broken heart, And bound up all its wounds ; from that same hand Once stretched upon the cross, streaming with blood ! If, in that great development to come. Of all things hidden, sin reflect no blame On heaven's high Ruler, then will misery none ; For, sin admitted, misery should ensue, Whither it goes should follow, where it dwells Should with it dwell, inseparably joined ; A world of guilt should be a world of pain. And if, from the insufferable woes Of an undone eternity, no cry 17 130 THE AGE OF Of just reproach ascend to heaven, then none From all the slight calamities of time - Can e'er ascend. But wherefore will not God, E'en now, from ills, on others brought, exempt The offspring of regenerating grace, The children of his love ? Imperfect yet, They need the chasteningsof paternal care, To save them from the wily blandishments Of error, and to win their hearts away From the polluting, ruining joys of earth. Though from its height of sole authority. O'er all the moving principles within. Sin be deposed, it struggles to regain Its lost dominion, till they half consent, When all their trust is not in borrowed might. To yield the conflict. Though his head be crushed, The serpent lives, and shows what spite he can. E'en till their sun go down. Not chastened then. No proof were given they were not past reform, And left as reprobate, to be prepared By mercies for an aggravated doom. See they not often now, and will they not Hereafter see, that when they murmured most They should have sung the highest notes of praise ? When from the skies they cast a look below, Methinks they will esteem their path too smooth And level, for transgressors bound to heaven. O, had it been a steeper, rougher ascent, Then had they risen more rapidly, and gained An exaltation of superior bliss ! Becomes it them, to eye with sad distrust, That hand of a compassionate Parent, laid Heavily on them, while for their support His other is extended underneath, And filled with richer blessings in reserve ? Should they not rather welcome the kind stroke, That humbles but to fit them for a throne ? Should they not even beg their heavenly Guide To bar up, or to plant with thorns, each path, BENEVOLENCE. However flowery, that would lead astray ; And to imbitter all forbidden fruit Soliciting their taste, however fair 1 Were not the world to them unlovely made, Heaven were forgotten, or without desire Remembered, and without foretasting faith. Like the thick grove, that only when deprived Of its gay foliage, through it shows, beyond, Green fields, the ocean, the resplendent sky, Earth must be stript of charms, to let them see The loveliness of paradise beyond, The vast bright prospect of eternity. Were nothing but enjoyment theirs below, Were all prosperity, their hearts were here, And here their portion. Were they undisturbed, Their day of trial were spent in fatal sleep. 'Tis when the world disowns them, turns them out From every resting place as none of hers, That they pursue with quick and vigorous step Their pilgrimage, and muse upon its end With panting hope and elevating joy. When by affliction purified, and weaned From sublunary toys, with what delight They cleave to Him in whose embrace is found The only rest, and welcome the approach Of that great change of being, to be passed Only to wing them for a speedy flight Into his unveiled presence, there to find Pleasures augmented by griefs left below ! There, long possessed, the due inheritance Of angels, whom no suffering ever reached, Is sweet indeed ; but, the reward of saints, Rest after toil, and after conflict peace. Light out of darkness, out of sorrow joy, Life from the grave, and paradise from earth. Nay, from the brink of hell, how passing sweet I There with what loveliness the spirit shines. When, through afflictions, from defilement deep Raised to angelic purity, from death 131 133 THE AGE OP To the perfection of celestial life ! So from the filthy bottom of the pool, Up through its waters, to the surface springs The lily, and there blooms a perfect flower, Of brilliant whiteness, beautifully pure. And what more lovely object here below. Or more exalted, than a mortal, weak And tender, looking upward in the midst Of painful visitations, with an eye By faith illumined, and a brow serene From heartfelt peace and acquiescence full In Heaven's high will ; and out of deep distress Rising invigorated, and prepared For generous deeds impossible before ? 'Tis resignation, so unfeigned, entire, And happy, by severe affliction proved. When nature in her tenderness resists. That shines the fairest victory of grace. In early wedlock joined, when all things wore An aspect bright with promised happiness, Orville and Charlotte were a pair beloved For intellectual and moral worth ; For knowledge, both the useful and refined. Taste uncorrupt, feeling benevolent. Sweetness of temper, gentleness of mien, And undissembled piety, the soul Of all their virtues. Undisturbed, awhile, In their felicity, they passed along. One in their studies, duties, pleasures pure, Guiding and guided each, blessing and blessed. Sweet intercourse between congenial minds ! And sweeter interchange of kindred hearts ! Together they with like devotion scanned The heavenly orbs, traversed the map of earth With equal skill, dwelt on her history With like astonishment at human crimes And God's forbearance, to exalted verse Gave vocal melody with equal gust. Nor did they for the fashionable muse BENEVOLENCE. The classic quite forsake. Nigh them they kepi The poet of humanity and truth, Of simple nature and religion pure, The lovely Cowper ; and, at every word Against his fame, felt wounded in a friend. Nor to the crowded shelf, to be forgot, Was Milton e'er removed ; — seraphic bard ! Sweetly sublime, in paradise above ! In paradise below, sublimely sweet ! There lofty numbers, and melifluous here, Grandeur and beauty every where, command Breathless attention, and within them wake Those finer strings, that, at the thrilling touch Of mighty genius, quiver with keen delight. Together over flowery fields and woods They rambled, in the not unuseful search Of plants to be inspected in each part. With nicety botanic ; nor e'en passed Unheeded any delicate shapely brake. Or tuft of moss, upon bleak mountain rocks, Like frostwork, fine, and white, and crumbling quick Beneath the foot ; on the low shady bank, Like velvet, green and soft, or like a grove Of pines inch-high, with noiseless pliancy All bending prostrate at the lightest tread, Or gentlest pressure of the stroking hand. Then with elastic liveliness again Rising unhurt. Not less in these minute. Than in the vast of the Creator's works. They loved to trace his hand, in every touch Inimitably fair. The house of want. Of ignorance, of mourning, of disease. Together oft they humbly cheered with alms, Instruction, sympathy, attendance kind. Each weekly and each daily season, made Sacred to acts of worship, with delight Duly observing, oft, at other limes. They knelt together in devotion sweet. As aught of signal interest called for thanks. 133 J "^4 THE AGE OF Or supplications of appropriate warmth ; And oft, at other times, together sung, Not unassisted by the solemn chord, Anthems of praise. Thus happily they lived. Till, in their arms, a second pleasant babe With a faint smile intelligent began To answer theirs, and with a brighter that Of its fond sister, standing by their side, With frequent kisses prattling in its face ; While in its features, with parental joy, And love connubial, they began to mark Theirs intermingled ; — when, with sudden stroke. The blooming infant faded, and expired. And soon its lonely sister, doubly dear Now in their grief, was in like manner torn From their united grasp. With patience far Beyond her years, the little sufferer bore Her sharp distemper, while she could behold Both parents by her side ; but, when from sleep Transient and troubled waking, wept aloud, As terrified, if either were not there. To hear their voices singing of the love Of her Redeemer, in her favourite hymn, And praying for his mercy, oft she asked With eagerness, and seemed the while at ease. When came the final struggle, with the look Of a grieved child, and with its mournful cry. But still with something of her wonted tone Of confidence in danger, as for help. She called on them, on both alternately, As if by turns expecting that relief From each the other had grown slow to yield ; At which their calmness, undisturbed till then, Gave way to agitation past control. A few heart-rending moments, and her voice Sunk to a weak and inarticulate moan. Then in a whisper ended ; and with that Her features grew composed and fixed in death ; At sight of which their lost tranquillity BENEVOLENCE. 135 At once returned. 'Twas evening ; and the lamp, Set near, shone full upon her placid face. Its snowy .white illuming, while they stood Gazing as on her loveliness in sleep, The enfeebled mother on the father's arm Heavily hanging, like the slender flower On its firm prop, when loaded down with rain Or morning dew ; and laying her pale cheek Upon his shoulder, with the simple air Of infant weakness and dependence sweet. Their lifeless child they tenderly bemoaned, Yet opened their sad hearts, and not in vain, To holy consolation from on high. With unrepining sorrow, they beheld That little cherished frame of beauteous clay Apparelled for the grave, and covered deep In its cold bosom. When, day after day. No cheering sound of playful childhood broke The stillness of their dwelling, and they felt The new uneasiness of empty arms, They sometimes wept together, but in tears Showed a submissive look, almost a smile. Now came the last and sorest in the train Of their afflictions, the dissolving blow To nature's first and most endearing ties. By her loved little ones, ere yet the turf Upon their graves its unsoiled green regained, Charlotte, the amiable wife was laid ; And thus the partner of her bosom left, To mourn in solitude the loss of all. By her bed side, with unremitted care, In all her painful sickness, day and night, He watched, anticipating every want, And sharing every pang. From a full heart, Now audibly, now silently he poured Incessant supplications for her life. Or happiness in death ; and when the hope Of her recovery failed, with gratitude He saw unshaken to the last, her trust I3C THE AGE OF In His compassion, whom in health she served With willing mind. Her end was full of peace, Fitting her uniform piety serene. 'Twas rather the deep humble calm of faith. Than her high triumph ; and resembled more The unnoticed setting of a clear day's sun, Than his admired departure in a blaze Of glory bursting from a clouded course. When from her burial to his home returned The broken-hearted Orville, and beheld Around all still, all desolate within, A feeling of his utter loneliness Rushed on his soul with overwhelming power. Entering his door ungreeted and unmet, Missing her face that always brightened quick At his approach, her voice that sweeter grew, On the first seat presented, down at once. As if all strength were in a moment gone. He sunk, dissolving in a flood of tears ; Then, rising suddenly, walked to and fro. And in impassioned accents mourned aloud. When at his table, in her wonted seat He first beheld another ; when he saw The last unfinished labours of her hand ; — Her needle, pen, and pencil, at his wish, Untouched remaining, just as left by her ; — And when he cast an eye upon her plants Perrenial, and her aromatic shrubs. In their neat vases, left unwatered long. Dropping untimely leaves and blighted buds ; His rising grief no effort could suppress. If in his house, through its disordered rooms, He wandered, or through alleys weedy grown In his neglected garden, or along The sylvan walks of her accustomed choice, At every step, some object called to mind Her worth, or her affection, and thus kept Opening afresh the wound within his breast. Yet though severely pained, he ne'er refused, BENEVOLENCE. In sullen or in passionate despair, The sympathy of friendship ; ne'er returned With coldness the warm pressure of the hand, Nor heard unmoved from undissembling lips Gentle condolence. E'en the pity shown By giddy youth, in checking their loud mirth While passing his lone dwelling, with an eye Turned toward it oft, attracted by the sight Of doors all closed and window curtains down, Touched him with grateful joy, while it awaked A sigh at the remembrance of his loss. But other consolation, far above Whate'er this world of vanity can yield, He needed, with etherial fervour sought, And in abundance found. So full his trust, So high his joy, in Him, whose government Is always equitable, always good, And to the penitent of human kind In all things merciful, that they who looked, At first, to see his tender nature sink. Ere long with admiration saw it changed To exalted firmness ; — not, indeed, his own ; Not the quick growth of philosophic pride, But of the infused virtue of that grace From heaven descending. In his grief, he seemed Like the young tree, bowed low, as from its top Some strong hand tears away the clinging vine. Breaks by degrees the innumerable ties Of branches and soft tendrils intertwined, But, when quite parted, rising, and, despoiled Of all its own with all its borrowed bloom, Standing, in naked loneliness, sublime. Thus stript, a solitary being, left To feel united to the earth no more By any outward bond, he looked on all That he possessed, once valued for the sake Of others dearer than himself, as now No longer his, to be enjoyed alone ; And with a richer treasure in his view, 18 137 138 THE AGE OF Restored it to the Giver, to augment The knowledge of his will, and of his grace The victories, among immortal men. Not in a fit of discontented gloom, But with the sober constancy of faith. He viewed himself thenceforth a stranger here, And looked on all the world, in all its charms, As nought to him, intent upon his home. And on whatever intervening means Might best and soonest fit him for its joys. By learning and meek piety prepared To be the messenger of truth and grace. Now doubly by affliction, and desire Benevolent kindled to a quenchless flame. And inly prompted by the Spirit divine Inhabiting his bosom, forth he went From all the abodes of elegance and ease, To publish in tVie wilderness, to men In mind and manners rude, dwelling in huts Uncouth and comfortless, the welcome words Of heavenly mercy, through the ransom high On Calvary paid. From hardships, that would once Have crushed him, gathering vigour in his course, Onward till death, in this angelic work. He pressed, with growing ardour and delight. When in the great assembly of the just. Walking in white, — his happy wife and babes. Beautiful cherubs, smiling at his side, — He meets with those by his exertion saved. Beholds their glory, hears their rapturous songs, And, forward looking with an angel's ken Along the vista of unlimited years, Contemplates their uninterrupted march In excellence and bliss, and in them views Immortal trophies of the Prince of Life, Forever yielding honour to the love Omnipotent of this his dearest friend, 'How will the day of his bereavement here, Like morning, break from its terrestial gloom, BENEVOLENCE. 139 And shine of all his days most luminous In heaven's reflected and concentred light ! And how will his unchanging confidence In God's mysterious goodness, with its fruits Of rich and lasting growth, the height sublime Of wisdom prove, and virtue, to the joy Triumphant of his never-ending life ! If such the future good, the giory bright. The bliss ineffable, of them that bear, With holy fortitude of heart, the ills Of vile mortality, and rise beneath The accumulated weight to higher deeds, Then let the deepest in affliction lift The drooping head, beneath the heaviest load, And, fired with hope, run with unfaltering step Their sublunary course. The woes of earth ' May thicken, and severer grow, till death ; But that last pang, like the last paroxysm Of some long painful dream, waking the soul To life and transport, makes amends at once For all past sufferings, in a moment all Forgotten in that plenitude of joy. And if so glorious be the end of faith, In that good providence, minutely employed On its possessor ; faith in God's kind care Of his great kingdom of victorious grace, With what transcendent glory will it reach Its consummation ! Of this last reward E'en now the frequent prelibation cheers The saddened spirit, when events within This rising kingdom, seeming for a while Disastrous, turn to unexpected good, In greatness and extent surpassing far The threatened ill. The good man, eminent In station and endowments, one to whom The virtuous of whole nations look with joy And expectation high, dies in the prime Of active excellence ; but soon, to calm The general grief, and all distrust reprove. 140 THE AGE OF From his removal are divinely wrought, And visibly to all, effects above The highest ever hoped from life prolonged. Few are the days, in which the friends of man, With looks of fearful sorrow, when they meet, Untimely and calamitous pronounce His early death. On all the darkness thick. Involving it at first, light shines anon, With added glory ; as when radiance bright. After the sun's departure in deep gloom. Suddenly shines on all the clouds of heaven. And adds a splendour richer than of day. In grand pre-eminence o'er every truth Rises the goodness, pure and measureless. Of that eternal Being, in whose hands Are all things, at his sole disposal held, And with a grasp that nothing can resist. No matter what is truth, if this be not ; All is forever lost ; despair like death Reigns, and a horror of great darkness spreads, O'er a lost universe. If this be truth. No matter what is not; all, all is safe ; The living light of hope creation cheers. This is enough for creatures of the dust To know of their great Maker ; of his will And providence, in all their mysteries. Let this suffice the wavering to confirm, To hush the murmuring, and the sinking raise ; To drive from every breast rebellious thoughts And sorrowful, and win the love supreme Of every heart, the confidence entire ; And into each infuse divine delight, Unmingled and unfailing as its source. Sublimer consolation heaven has none To give to mortals, no sublimer joy For angels, than from the assurance flows, That all is goodness in the government. And in the character, of Him who reigns Head over all things ; that his holiness BENEVOLENCE. Ts but benevolence kindled to a flame, Refining and consuming for like end, His wisdom but the knowledge and the will To make the height of happiness secure, His justice a wall of fire about his throne To guard it from defilement ruinous. His truth the immutability of grace. And his omnipotence the might of love. Great is thy goodness, Father of all life, Fount of all joy. Thou high and holy One, Whom not thy glorious sanctuary, heaven. Can e'er contain ; Spirit invisible. Whose omnipresence makes creation smile, Great is thy goodness, worthy of all praise From all thy works. Then let earth, air, and sea ; Nature, with every season in its turn ; The firmament, with its revolving fires ; And all things living ; join to give thee praise. Thou glorious sun, like thy Original, A vital influence to surrounding worlds Forever sending forth, yet always full ; And thou fair queen of night, o'er the pure sky, Amid thy glittering company of stars. Walking in brightness, praise the God above. Ocean, forever rolling to and fro In thy vast bed, o'er half the hollowed earth ; Grand theatre of wonders to all lands. And reservoir of blessings, sound his praise. Break forth into a shout of grateful joy. Ye mountains, covered with perennial green, And pouring crystal torrents down your sides ; Ye lofty forests, and ye humble groves ; Ye hills, and plains, and valleys, overspread With flocks and harvests. All ye feathered tribes, That, taught by your Creator, a safe retreat Find in the dead of winter, or enjoy Sweet summer all your days by changing clime. Warble to him all your melodious notes ; To him, who clothes you with your gay attire, And kindles in your fluttering breasts the glow 141 142 THE AGE OF Of love parental. Beasts, thai graze the fields, Or roam the woods, give honour to the Power, That makes you swift to flee, or strong to meet, The coming foe ; and rouses you to flight In harmless mirth, or sooths to pleasant rest. Shout to Jehovah with the voice of praise. Ye nations, all ye continents and isles. People of every tongue ; ye that within The verdant shade of palm and plantain sit. Feasting on their cool fruit, on torrid plains ; And ye that in the midst of pine-clad hills, In snowy regions, grateful vigour inhale From every breeze. Ye, that inhabit lands, Where science, liberty, and plenty dwell, Worship Jehovah in exalted strains. But ye, to whom redeeming mercy comes. With present peace, and promises sublime Of future crowns, and mansions in the skies, Imperishable, raise the loudest song. O, sing forever, with seraphic voice. To Him, whose immortality is yours, In the blest union of eternal love ! And join them, all ye winged hosts of heaven. That in your Maker's glory take delight ; And ye, too, all ye bright inhabitants Of starry worlds ; and let the universe, Above, below, around, be filled with praise. Though held thus long in contemplation sweet On heaven's high King, I may not leave his court Till I have marked the godlike myriads Of bright intelligences, that attend In state celestial, ranged in order round His throne adoring ; at his bidding fly, Swiftly and silently as beams of light. From world to world, to execute his will ; From their creation this their blest employ. And theirs for an eternity to come. Not from the need of their almighty Lord, To propagate the impulse of his hand Beyond its reach, serve they throughout his realm. BENEVOLENCE, Nor is his service deemed a menial task ; 'Tis their high privilege, their whole delight. Were they disbanded, and employed no more, Their hearts would pine as o'er departed bliss, Their station forfeited, their glory lost. On errand sent of love or righteous wrath. They oft appeared on earth, from that sad hour When cherubs stood to guard, with sword of flame. Fair paradise and its live-giving tree From all access of banished ruined man, To that most memorable day, when heaven Sent down the flower of her exulting hosts. To celebrate his birth in Bethlehem born. Him they acknowledged as their Sovereign still, Though clad in flesh, and to his human wants Administered while in the lonely wild, Strengthened his mortal frame when in the shades Of sad Gethsemane it almost sunk, Borne down by that insufferable load Of a world's guilt ; and legions, hovering near, Gazing with trembling wonder, waited leave To screen from danger his devoted head, And pour contempt and ruin on his foes. In shining garments mighty angels came, To ope the tomb, and hail their rising Lord ; And came again — let gently down to earth The golden cloud that bore him up the sky, And them who gazed of his last coming warned. That coming all his angels shall attend, The trump to sound, and gather his elect From the four winds, ere his avenging wrath Come on the world, and bury it in flames. Meanwhile they minister to saints below, The tempted to deliver, and to guide The wandering ; hope to whisper to the sad, And to the dying peace. Round the death bed They take their stand, with wings invisible And noiseless fan upon the burning brow The cooling air, and light the lifted eye With glimpses of celestial glory bright. 143 144 THE AGE OF They wait, with arms extended, to receive The liberated spirit, and up to climes Of immortality, their happy home, Bear it with the rapidity of thought. Benevolence reigns a passion in their breasts. While in the presence of their King they stand, Begirt to fly the moment when he bids. It spreads their pinions, quickens, and supports, And guides them far and wide, on every wind, Downward, and upward, and along the earth From land to land, wherever virtue dwells. Listening delighted, in assemblies, met To join entreaties for the coming quick Of the great kingdom of redeeming love. They mingle ; and in those of every name, Combined its promised welfare to promote. They cheer with glad attendance them that go, Life to the dying nations to proclaim ; And with the tidings of each penitent Hasten to heaven, to give new rapture there. And if o'er one regenerated soul They all rejoice, what shouts of joy, increased A thousand fold, shall burst from glowing lips, Ring round and round the everlasting hills, From choir to choir repeated long and loud. And swell the whole grand chorus of the skies. When in one day a nation shall be born ! A Gabriel's now is every humbler harp. And his attuned to notes unheard before. If angels bear a beggar to the skies, If they have borne home solitary saints. Amidst unholy millions well nigh lost, How will the air and heavens be all alive. With motion swifter than the lightning flash, From their ascending and descending bands. Meeting, and intermingling, night and day. When from each shore, and island of the sea. And mount, and vale, around the populous globe, Spirits regenerate shall depart each hour. In all a countless throng ! From heaven to earth BENEVOLENCE. 145 Pass and repass bright angels, in a train So constant, and so thick, they lighten up Another galaxy along the sky, A radiant pathway o'er the starry realm To realms of bliss. Behold the saints ascend, No longer one by one, and far apart ; They go in companies, they fly like clouds Of sunny whiteness, on a vernal day. Hurrying in thick succession o'er the heavens ; In one continual multitude they rise. Oft hovering for a moment, on their way. To clap their pinions with triumphant joy. Angels attend them ; angels, too, on watch, Look from the garnished battlements of heaven. Their coming to proclaim, soon as beheld, Far down, a living constellation, fast Ascending, widening, brightening, shedding light On the dim orbs that roll around its path. Their city's twelve transparent gates of pearl, Till this glad day all barred save one alone. Angels with joyful haste throw open wide. To let whole armies in ; and angels pour From each, to greet them, with endearing words, And smiles benignant ; and through dazzling ranks, Into the centre of their blest abode. Before that face whose glory is their sun, Conduct them, all, with tuneful voices loud, And the sweet symphony of golden harps, Uniting in hosannas to the Lamb. While thus with all the native sons of heaven. In their adoring acclamations, join Those ransomed from the earth, they feel the fire Of their benevolence, in its purity. Burning within, enkindling joy like theirs. And prompting to like action. Yes, the love Of giving and beholding happiness. First wakened in their hearts amid the sins. The griefs, and frailties, of mortality. When these remain no more to chill its zeal, 19 146 THE AGE OF BENEVOLENCE. Shall live, the bosom's sole inhabitant ; There reign, and to angelic fervour rise. Love is the only amaranthine flower, In this inclement world, this land of death. While faith and hope, are blasted in the grave, The wintry grave, with other flowers of time, Thou, sacred charity, shalt still survive, And in a soil and clime, where all is life, Shalt grow, and flourish, in eternal spring. And with unwasting sweetness fill the groves And vales of paradise. There all is love. In every happy breast, through every rank. E'en to the humblest ; love without a taint Of hidden selfishness, without a drop Of bitterness, from fear, or hope deferred. None pine with jealousy, at sight of bliss Their own transcending. To behold a crown Of fairer light than theirs, or hear a harp More tuneful, wakens discontent in none. But livelier joy. The happiness of each Is ever that of all. Love makes the heaven Of every bosom ; gives to every face Its winning beauty, to the cheek its bloom Unfading, to the lips their living glow. Its pure etherial lustre to the eye, And to the whole its everlasting smile. On all the multitudes, spread o'er the plains Of immortality, from his high throne The God of love, through the transparent cloud Of glory round him, cast^ a fixed look Of calm complacence, in their union sweet Rejoicing, in their charity sublime, In their consummate likeness to himself END OF BOOK I. THE AGE OF BENEVOLENCE. EXTRACTS FROM BOOK II. Descending to this sublunary orb, From the third heaven th' empyreal realm of love, Its native element, (sublimely pure. And all pervading) how am I thrown, As from the glowing centre of the sun, Down to earth's frozen and benighted pole. Will no kind visitant from heaven, reveal By what unerring sign apostate man May know himself preparing to regain Lost paradise, its innocence and bliss ? Tis nothing less than that same image lost. Effaced by sin, newstamp'd upon the soul. What else, but God's own likeness, could prepare Angel or man, his presence to enjoy ? What, but the temper of the heavenly world Could fit a being to be happy there ? This temper and that likeness meet in love. Love is the watch-word at the gate of heav'n. Religion comes to mortals richly fraught With this celestial grace, and scatters round Its heav'n-born fragrance in this distant soil, As spices, when exposed in foreign climes, Breathe out the native odours of their own. 148 THE AGE OF Time well employ'd is Satan's deadliest foe : It leaves no opening for the lurking fiend : Life it imparts to watchfulness and prayer, Statues, without it in tlie form of guards. The closet which the saint devotes to prayer, Is not his temple only, but his tower. Whither he runs for refuge, when attack'd, His armory, to which he soon retreats When danger warns, his weapons to select, And fit them on. He dares not stop to plead When taken by surprise and half o'ercome. That now to venture near the hallow'd place Were but profane ; a plea that marks a soul Glad to impose on conscience with a show Of humble veneration, to secure Present indulgence, which, when once enjoy'd, It means to mourn with floods of bitter tears. The tempter quits his vain pursuit and flies. When by the mounting suppliant drawn too near The upper world of purity and light. He loses sight of his intended prey. In that effulgence beaming from the throne Radiant with mercy. But devotion fails To succour and preserve the tempted soul, Whose time and talents rest or run to waste. Ne'er will the incense of the morn diffuse A salutary savour through the day. With charities and duties not well filled. These form the links of an electric chain That join the orisons of morn and eve, And propagate through all its several parts. While kept continuous, the etherial fire ; But if a break be found the fire is spent. Too long I've wandered, though by truth led on But still the strong enchantment which unmana BENEVOLENCE. 149 The pensive lovers of the calm sublime, And which, unbroke, upon the lap of ease Lays them to sleep, wrapt up in selfish gloom Unmindful of the claims of social life, Demands regard, ere yet I quite return. How rich in scenes that nurse in pensive souls A tenderness voluptuously soft. Till grown to indolent and morbid gloom. Fatal to active usefulness, to peace with heaven. Is nature's varied field. A mind in love With mournful musing, never turns in vain To nature for some dear congenial scene ; But scenes there are, so fraught with soothing power. They woo the pensive mind when unemployed. A sultry noon, not in the summer's prime When all is fresh with life, and youth, and bloom. But near its close when vegetation stops, And fruits mature, stand ripening in the sun. Sooths and enervates with its thousand charms, Its images of silence and of rest. The melancholy mind. The fields are still ; The husbandman has gone to his repast, And, that partaken, on the coolest side Of his abode, reclines, in sweet repose. Deep in the shaded stream the cattle stand, The flocks beside the fence, with heads all prone And panting quick. The fields for harvest ripe, No breezes bend in smooth and graceful waves, While with their motion, dim and bright by turns, The sun-shine seems to move ; nor e'en a breath Brushes along the surface with a shade. Fleeting and thin, like that of flying smoke. The slender stalks, their heavy bended heads Support as motionless, as oaks their tops. O'er all the woods the top-most leaves are still. E'en the wild poplar leaves, that, pendant hung By stems elastic, quiver at a breath. Rest in the general calm. The thistle down 1'>