LIBRARY OF THE THEOLOGICAL SEMINARY PRINCETON. N. J. PRESENTED BY Yale Divinity School Library BX 8495 .H38 P73 1883 Prentice, George, 1834- The life of Gilbert Haven [ Digitized by the Internet Archive in 2014 https://archive.org/details/lifeofgilberthavOOpren THE LIFE ^ ^ GILBERT HAYE^\ BISHOP OF THE ]I£THODIST EPISCOPAL CHrRCH. BY OEORG-E PRETsTTICE, D D., Professor in Wesleyan University. NEW YORK : PHILLIPS m and Uni- tarianism — The Return Fire — General Result — Pet Themes — A Journalis- tic Device — A Lively Paper — Illustrations of his Wit — " Brilliant but Use- less"— "All Head" — "Experience Telling" — "Poor Laird" — An Invi- tation Declined — His Criticism of Secular Journals — Lay Representation —Politics— " Herald" Criticised, but Successful— Call to the "Boston Traveller," and " The Independent " 334 CHAPTER XIX. HAVEN IN CONFERENCE. A Genial Critic— Position in Conference — Devotion to Christian Truth —Fidelity to Methodism— His Vivid Convictions— Relations with Re- formers—Administrative Ability— Quick Perception of Talent— Wide Acquaintance with Men— In the General Conference of 1868— Election to the Bishopric in 1872 — His Consecration j68 CHAPTER XX. BISHOP HAVEN, Abundance of Information — His Conferences — Traits as Presiding Bish- op— Successes and Mistakes — Prejudices against Him— His Preaching —At the Vineyard— His Wit Dreaded— His Use of It— His Aims in Cor- 1* lO Contents. respondence with Papers — Oratava — Three Sunsets — Accounts of Public Men — Sumner — Brownlow — Brother Tate — Rebuke of Popular Sins — Sermon at White Earth — Wrongs of the Indians — Their Piety — Divorce — The Sins of the Pacific Coast — The Utah Ulcer — New Baltimore — The Newest South — Sentiments of Southern Methodist Episcopalians — A No Caste Administration — Incidents — The Tinted Venuses — Letter to the *' Holston Methodist" — A Conference in a Tent — Governor Brown — A Southern Heart Touched — Hotel Experience — A Conductor's Rudeness — Dines with a Colored Gentleman in Atlanta — Echoes — The Renomination of Grant — His Courage, not Physical but Moral — Hotel Proscription — Danger of Violence — Newspaper Abuse — His Confidence in Grant's States- manship— More Hotel Proscription — Peremptory Conductor — Distrust of Hayes — The Chisholm Funeral — The Scene and the Preacher — Discourse — Education in the South — An Appeal — His Interest in the Schools — Boston University — Will of Isaac Rich — Trustee of Wesleyan University — Founds the Mexican Mission — Report of his Mexican Tour — Visits Li- beria— A Kruman — Trees — The Witch Home — Witch Detection — A Mod- ern Hero — The Negro in Liberia — Henry — The Conference — Compari- sons and Questions — Missionary Graves — Perils in the Wilderness. .. 380 CHAPTER XXI. FAILING HEALTH. Health— Perilous Daring— Perfect Health on the Coast— The Ice Bolt — General Condition— Resting— Clifton Rest— The End Near— Pacific Coast Trip— Last Conference— The Three Warnings— His Last Meeting with the Bishops— Home— Last Services— Sudden Illness— Public Sorrow and Prayer— Rapid Decline— Playfulness — The Vain Struggle— Reception I^ay — The Departure 486 CHAPTER XXn. THE MOURNING AND BURIAL. The General Sorrow — Action of his Associates — Funeral — The Throngs — Bishop Foster's Address — The Procession — Burial Service — Graduated with Honor 5*^ Illustrations* Portrait of Bishop Gilbert Haven Frontispiece. Birthplace of Bishop Gilbert Haven— Malden, Mass. .. Facing 15 Boarding House and Academy Buildings. Wilbraham, Mass " 27 Wesleyan University, Middletown, Conn " 51 Amenia Seminary, Amenia, N. Y " 79 Late Residence of Bishop Gilbert Haven, and Church FROM which he WAS BURIED — M ALDEN, MaSS ** 5H Con segno di vittoria incoronalo. —Dante, Inf., Can. IV, 54. LIFE OF GILBERT HAVEN. CHAPTER I. BEGINNINGS. Birth and Parentage — Home Life — Maiden and its Environments — Youthful Traits- First School and Teacher— The Mother's Influence— Miss Goodwin and Master Allard— Defense of a Negro Schoolmate— The Mother's Counsel— Public Sentiment concerning Colored People — Theodore Parker's Way— Gilbert Haven a Clerk— Makes Friends — Reading and Study. ILBERT HAVEN, JUN., the fifth of the ten chil- dren of Gilbert and Hannah Haven, was born at Maiden, Mass., September 19, 1821. The elder Gilbert Haven was born at Framingham, Mass., in 1 79 1, and the mother, Hannah Burrill, was born in 1789 at East Abington, now Rockland, in the same commonwealth. The parents were married in Boston September 5, 1811, by Rev. Charles Lowell, D.D., father of Lowell the poet. They were in humble worldly circumstances, but of hon- orable reputation. The large family which grew up around them was diligently trained in habits of piety and industry. The father retained any friends he had once gained. Like some of his ancestors, he was elect- ed to several minor offices by his townsmen. In later years he held a position in the Sub-treasury at Boston. Gilbert had a very high opinion of his father's personal 14 Life of Gilbert Haven. worth, and employed every suitable opportunity for showing his regard. The mother of our Gilbert Haven is a woman of un- usual good sense and unaffected piety. She was early noted for her great interest in public affairs, and as a reader of many books and periodicals, traits which she still exhibits in her ninety-sixth year. The Haven household was remarkable for the strong and tender affection of its members for each other. The marked respect and sincere affection shown by the entire circle of children for the father and mother prove how lovingly those parents had .done their own part. They had early become members of the Method- ist Episcopal Church in Maiden, and their intelligence and activity had rendered them useful members. The elder Haven was one of the most honored office-bearers in the local society, always wise in counsel and generous * The brothers and sisters of Gilbert Haven are : Sarah Oliver Haven, born June ii, 1812, now Mrs. Lemuel Cox. Elizabeth Coolidge Haven, born July 4, 18 14, died October 19, 1875, Hannah Burrill Haven, born September 13, 1816. Bethiah Gardner Haven, born January 4, 18 19, died December 27, 1839. Andrew Jackson Sprague Haven, born October 10, 1823, died March 12, 1834. Benjamin Franklin Haven, born March 4, 1826, died October 26, 1838. Wilbur Fisk Haven, born September 23, 1828, died March 11, 1872. Mary Burrill Haven, born September 21, 1830, died October 7, 1830. Anna Storer Haven, born March 31, 1832, died May 23, 1857. All this family of children, except the eldest, whose birthplace was Boston, w^ere born in Maiden. All that are dead died in Maiden, and all who live live in Maiden. Gilbert Haven's mother is proud of the fact that her own father, Burrill, served in the Revolutionary War. Beginnings. 15 in gifts. It is worthy of noting that all the children who grew to maturity became members of the same Church, and all who have died in adult years have died in the triumphs of the Gospel. Thus has the blessing of God long rested upon that devout household. Gilbert Haven was born in an old-fashioned two-story house, at the end of a lane leading from the foot of Waitt's Mount to a stream flowing from picturesque Spot Pond, and turning several water-wheels on its short journey to the sea. The house then stood close to the water's edge, the stream expanding there into a small pond, thickly beset with trees, in an exceedingly rural and romantic situa- tion ; and there it still stands in its beauty, save that the stream and pond have been filled up, trees and bushes cut down, and houses built all about them ; so that much of the former loveliness of the scene has been destroyed. Maiden lies about five miles due north of Boston, and has a very picturesque situation. Young Haven's eyes must have early grown familiar with the aspect of the distant capital city, surmounted by the swelling dome of the State House, and with nearer Charlestown, capped with the rounded crest of Bunker Hill. He had only to climb Waitt's Mount in order to extend his vision on the south-west to classic Cambridge, where stood Washington's temporary home, soon to become doubly dear to America as the home of the poet Long- fellow ; there, too, was the famous elm, whose boughs once shut in and overarched the cradle of the Nation : i6 Life of Gilbert Haven. " Never to see a nation born Hath been given to mortal man, Unless to those who on that summer morn Gazed silent when the great Virginian Unsheathed the sword, whose fatal flash Shot union through the incoherent clash Of our loose atoms, crystallizing them Around a single will's unpliant stem, And making purpose of emotion rash. Out of that scabbard sprang, as from its womb, Nebulous at first, but hardening to a star, Through mutual share of sunburst and of gloom. The common faith that makes us what we are." If he turned his inquisitive eyes southward they would range onward to well-famed Dorchester Heights. In his daily sports and hasty errands he could often see distinctly enough the spire of the old North Church, made famous by Longfellow and Paul Revere as the spot where the light of warning was flashed across the imperiled land : " He said to his friend, If the British march By land or sea from the town to-night. Hang a lantern aloft in the belfr>' arch Of the North Church tower as a signal light, One if by land, and two if by sea, And I on the opposite shore will be, Ready to ride and spread the alarm Through every Middlesex village and farm, For the country folk to be up and arm." Thus he could hardly set his foot outdoors without encountering some scene which recalled proud mem- ories of a still recent but immortal history. Nor could he visit many of the neighboring towns without coming Beginnings. i/ upon the theater of imperishable exploits or the haunts of heroic minds. His very surroundings soon taught him the high lesson that life comes to its best consecration only when turned to unselfish uses. The picturesque scenery which lay around his early home must have aroused his native sensibility for the beautiful in nature to an unusual degree, since we en- counter abundant traces of this sensibility in his earliest writings. While he was still an untraveled boy he used to conduct visitors to the long line of hills that rises eastwardly from Maiden, running northward toward Melrose, that they might drink in the varied glories of a vast panorama, composed of hills and vales, dotted far and near with smiling villages and majestic cities, and of the far-sweeping fields of ocean, bestrewn with sunny ships. He felt an intense pleasure in the delight which the sublime scene never failed to provoke. When he had visited Scotland, Spain, Italy, Greece, and Switz. erland he was still wont to say that five minutes from his mother's door stood a mount of vision which re- vealed a scene that might well hold its own among the most famous landscapes of the world. No man could think this opinion extravagant who had slowly turned his own eyes over that splendid array of beautiful views. The poet Lowell once declared of a similar landscape but a few miles distant, that Italy itself had nothing finer to offer. But while we have been looking around the region in which he was born, we have left the hapless babe just arrived there on September 19, 1821, quite to him- 1 8 Life of Gilbert Haven. self. His mother describes him as a vigorous child, energetically kicking, pushing, and driving, while yet in her lap and arms. He was named for his father, simply Gilbert Haven, while the other children rejoiced, some in two and some in three Christian names. Stoutly resenting at one period this parsimony toward himself, he wrote himself, and required others to write him, Gilbert R. Haven. When asked what the R. might mean, he said it might mean rex, rogue, or rascal ; but he finally returned to Gilbert Haven. From such accounts of his boyish days as have come to our knowledge, it may fairly be inferred that he had a far better and more comfortable time of it than his fond mother did during his boyhood. There was an intense fire and energy in his character which found vent in all sorts of childish escapades. He drove hoop, played marbles, fished, swam, skated, climbed trees, and snowballed with a spirit that sometimes imperiled life or limb. His was the gift of leadership even in such sports. Such a child inevitably gives the maternal heart many a startling anxiety and panic terror. Yet somehow the good providence of God keeps guard over such hare-brained heroes in all their perilous ways, and brings them but the more fully to man's estate for their vehement juvenile proceedings. If possible it would be most profitable to learn how much of the very best training of such boys for their later work comes from careful teachers and watchful parents, and how much from the severer but self-appointed tasks of childhood. The latter steady the nerves and string the muscles, Beginnings. 19 make ear and eye quick and wise, and gradually turn reckless daring into cool and alert vigilance, and they have the notable advantage of being the child's own work and exclusive responsibility. Perhaps Gilbert Haven owed more than most men do to such voluntary discipline. Throughout a long hfe Gilbert Haven did honor to his mother for the care and love which she unsparingly lavished upon him. Few men have ever held a mother in higher regard than he did his. A long series of letters to her show the unfailing tenderness of his affection for her and his interest in her welfare. How she gained her strong and permanent hold upon him is best revealed in the accounts which creep into his letters and journals of early scenes in his life in which hers was the central figure. As a specimen of many such pas- sages we produce one from a letter written home near the close of his college life : I am always homesick Sabbath nights, why I know not, unless the memories of olden days come rushing up more powerfully and vividly than at other times, the memory of remotest hours when all of us, from Sarah to the littlest, used to sit and sing with father, and, after he had gone to meeting, read the Bible (the first chapters of Proverbs for me) and pray with you. You don't know how deeply those hours and acts are impressed on my life. ... I have often wished that I could leap back with the other girls to those days of babyhood, and live and laugh away my days." Like other Massachusetts towns, Maiden had certain humble temples of learning which the law requires all children and youth to frequent. One of these stood 20 Life of Gilbert Haven. nearly opposite the present Methodist Episcopal Church. It was afterward known as the " old brick school-house," though it must have been nearly a " new brick school- house " when young Haven first entered it. When four or five years old he entered the lowest of the three graded schools taught there. His first school-teacher was a certain Miss Dexter. We know little of her, but doubtless she duly taught the bright-witted youngster his a b c's, and such other lore as suited his boyish capacity. There he probably heard the Bible read with reverence, and prayer offered in the terms known as the Lord's Prayer. Whether Miss Dexter ruled her humble kingdom through fear or kindness is unknown. With such devices for disturbing infant schools as the infant mind is so fertile in devising, it would be no wonder if she had ample chance for exercising all her Christian graces. Whether Gilbert Haven and ]\Iiss Dexter were sworn friends or sworn foes cannot now be told, nor can it be well conjectured without more testimony concern- ing that young lady. Miss Martha Goodwin was his next teacher. Of her only this is on record, that she afterward went to Tuscumbia, Alabama, as teacher, and there became wife to Rev. Chauncey Richardson. Whence we infer, if the Rev. Chauncey Richardson chose wisely, that Miss Goodwin was a pious person of good teaching abilities. This inference is inevitably shaded with some uncer- tainty, since we have no vouchers for 'Mr. Richardson's discretion, and a minister in love is as blind as any other mortal man. Beginnings. 21 In due time young Haven made his way to the highest school in the building and town, taught by Mr. Allard. Not very much is known about this gentle- man. Probably he was a teacher respectable for his knowledge and powers of communication. In his room occurred the far-heralded incident of young Haven's defense of the poor colored girl. Among Master AUard's pupils was one in such circumstances as to ^appeal strongly to his care and sympathy. She came from the poor-house to the school-house. Probably she had been used only to hard fare, poor raiment, and disagreeable companions. In New England people rarely come to the poor-house, unless they have been unusually unfortunate in business, vicious, or mentally weak. The child was probably there rather through such faults or misfortunes of her kindred than her own ; but, however there, her condition should have chal- lenged pity and respect. To complete her misery she was black ; her very hue was a sign that spoke against her as one of a servile race. Perhaps Master Allard found her an uneasy and troublesome pupil, for the black inmate of the poor- house may have been wonted to greater freedom in her movements than comported with good order in school. On one occasion he punished her with considerable severity. We do not know her offense, nor whether the teacher really was too severe. Little Gilbert Haven had witnessed the scene in a tumult of indignation ; he felt every swift blow as if its sting was piercing his own flesh, and he at least remembered the special misfor- 22 Life of Gilbert Haven. tunes of his hapless companion. Hence he lingered after school to fling at heedless Master Allard the taunting remark, If that girl had not been from the poor-house and black, you wouldn't have dared to whip her as you did." From childhood till the close of life he was fond of rehearsing to his mother, in her humble kitchen, the events of his daily life, and asking her advice about any thing which troubled or perplexed his mind. He, reported this incident to her at night, and awaited her comments with interest. She flashed out the honest and indignant declaration, ''Gilbert, that little black girl is just as good as you are, if she is black, and you ought to take her part." This authoritative confirmation of his own instinctive opinion relieved him of any rising doubts of the wisdom of his conduct in this particular case, and shed great light on his duty in similar matters of social wrong- doing. So vigorous was his protection of his little black schoolmate from the poor-house that she had a much easier lot under the changed circumstances, and the wit of the meaner and more careless lads avenged itself upon him by styling the new friend Gil Haven's wife." This incident and its accompanying lessons made a lasting impression on his mind. He used to say afterward that his mother and the Bible had made him an Abolitionist." Whether the taunt flung at Master Allard was merited or not, it was surely a high-hearted little champion of twelve that tossed it into the teeth of his own school- Beginnings. 23 master. Such a step shows not only a deep-rooted instinct for justice and a quick sympathy for the suffer- ing, but it shows further the high courage which always prompted Gilbert Haven to appeal to wrong-doers them- selves against their own wrong-doing. It should be borne in mind that this act had no prompter but the boy's own heart. The agitation con- cerning the negro and his rights had not yet gone abroad much, and people in general were apathetic about the topic. Within a year of this act of heroism another incident befell at Newton in the school of a now famous school-master, Theodore Parker, which deserves to be recited in order to illustrate the condition of the public sentiment of that day. Mr. Frothingham tells the story thus : A colored girl applied, and was admitted by the teacher without misgiving ; he knew no distinction of persons, but the parents of his other pupils did. They made objections, prophesying injury to the school, and the black inmate was dismissed. It was not a generous thing to do ; on the contrary, it was a shabby thing. The young man confessed it afterward with mortification, and made ample amends to her persecuted race ; but it was pardonable in a youth who had lived in the seclusion of thoughts, whose conscience had never been touched by the wrongs of the negro North or South, and who regarded race merely as he would have done any other dis- turbing element. This palliation must serve for Master Allard as well as Theodore Parker; but plainly Gilbert Haven was not of their kind. Another incident shows that boyish heedlessness sometimes prevailed over these nobler im- 24 Life of Gilbert Havex. pulses in such matters. As a respectable colored woman approached a group of boys, of whom Gilbert Haven was one, he cried out rudely, " Boys, I think there's going to be a shower ; I see a thunder-storm rising." The woman retorted, Gilbert, I never expected to hear any thing like that from you ! " " You never shall again, auntie," was his response ; a promise he sacredly kept. When, after his conversion, he was serving as clerk in a Boston store a companion sneeringly de- manded. Who was that nigger to whom you gave so much attention to-day " He answered gravely, ''She was my sister." This rapid intuitive perception of the practical bearing of his own oneness in Christ with all men on his conduct toward them was the key to his en- tire relation to all such social questions. His entire simplicity was perfect wisdom on such points. When young Haven had finished his studies with Master Allard, it seemed best that he should be put to some business whereby he could win his daily bread. Accordingly he became a clerk when he was fourteen years old, in the dry-goods store of Mr. James Richard- son, which stood then where the Maiden Town Hall now stands. Here he was remarkable not only for the steadiness with which he mastered the details of his business, but likewise for some things which rarely oc- cupy such clerks. He kept up an extensive course of reading. His books were always ready to be used whenever he found spare hours or moments on his hands. He sought the acquaintance of people who were reputed aristocratic or learned, that he might obtain Beginnings. 25 from them the books whose perusal he coveted. In this desultory manner he contrived to read a great many novels and books of travel, and some historical works of considerable scope. His natural power of making friends showed itself even in this early stage of his career. William H. Rich- ardson, a fellow-clerk in the establishment, remained one of Haven's staunchest friends until death ended their connection. He always found time to visit Haven in later years wherever he might chance to be appointed pastor. Getting off once at the railroad station in West- field, Mass., Mr. Richardson asked the driver who took him over to the parsonage whether he conducted many passengers there. That worthy promptly responded, " O yes, lots of them ! but most of 'em are niggers." Another lad in the same store was Joseph Ames. He was destined to become well known to the public after- ward as a portrait painter. It appears that young Ames had begun to practice his art in those early days on such subjects as offered. He painted two portraits of his companion in the store. One of these portraits is the picture of a chubby-cheeked, rosy-faced, red- haired boy by an unskilled beginner in the pictorial art ; the other is the portrait of Gilbert Haven in his ripe maturity, coming, when he was doing his best work as editor of " Zion's Herald," from the easel of an artist who had attained eminence in his profession. Mr. Ames was near the tragic end of his own life when the second portrait was executed. Between himself and Gilbert Haven there had been no intimacy, but each 3 26 Life of Gilbert Haven. had retained a kindly feeling for the other from the years of childhood and youth. Notwithstanding this portrait was not well liked by many of Bishop Haven's friends, it is the one which will be the favorite hereafter, since in it the subject saw his own most successful pre- sentment to the eye. The sister next older than Gilbert, Bethiah Gardner Haven, was a young lady of an intellectual turn of mind, who had given considerable attention to the study of French and Latin. One of her instructors in these tongues had been the Rev. Edward Otheman, now resid- ing in Chelsea, Mass. This sister had become an excel- lent scholar in these languages, and Gilbert put himself under her tuition. This is the first authentic sign we have encountered that the young Maiden clerk has as- pirations for something better than selling and buying to get gain as his earthly vocation. No very precise details are given in regard to his studies and reading of that date. The natural result of it soon appeared in the awakening of a strong desire in the ambitious youth for a better education than could be had in Maiden. And so it at last fell out that Gilbert Haven, with such an outfit as we have described, was enrolled in the spring of 1839 oi^e of the students of Wesleyan Academy, at Wilbraham, Mass. Boarding House, Wilbkaham Academy. Academy Building, Wileraham, Mass. School Life. CHAPTER II. SCHOOL LIFE. At Wilbraham— The School— His Studies- -Companions— Attitude toward Religion- Good Traits and Bad— Bethiah's Sickness— A Revival in School-Haven's Conversion- Joy and Fidelity— End of the Term- Happy Thanksgiving. ESLEYAN ACADEMY is one of the earliest ^ ^ and most successful academies established under the patronage of the Methodist Episcopal Church in the United States. Its name shows its ecclesiastical rela- tions. Wesley's well-known Kingswood School was its chief model, though that model had not been closely followed in details. It was always free from that multi- tude of rules which were so often found at Kingswood a sore burden to teachers and pupils alike. This change was the result in part of differences between the coun- tries in which the schools exist. While the English school was open from the begin- ning only for boys, the Wilbraham one was open to both sexes. This feature was probably taken from the public schools around it, where persons of either sex studied and taught together. Since this seminary served as a model for many others, it naturally claims the proud distinction of a position in the vanguard of the great movement which is now opening the doors of the most famous colleges of the land to women. The atmosphere of the school was deeply religious. 28 Life of Gilbert Haven. It was intended to develop piety as well as scholarship, and its work would have been deemed defective if either aim had been missed. Still, moral suasion w^as mainly employed for the attainment of the religious purposes of the school. The regulations only demanded daily attendance on morning and evening prayers in chapel, and on two church services of a Sunday. Those who desired could also attend Sunday-school, and a weekly class-meeting and prayer-meeting. Besides these, Sun- day morning prayer-meetings and meetings in private rooms for pious conversation were sometimes held by zealously religious students. The school was then new. It had not yet the advan- tages of spacious and well-kept grounds, large and fine buildings, ample libraries, cabinets and scientific appa- ratus, which have since been so munificently provided through the generosity of its patrons. Its internal organization was not then so complete nor its corps of instructors so large and efficient as at present. Yet it deservedly held a high position among institutions of its grade forty years ago. Such was the school in which Gilbert Haven was a pupil during the spring and fall terms of 1839. We have no very full accounts on which to found the story of his school-life at Wilbraham. Certain state- ments of his own, the clear recollections of several of his school-fellows, and some letters of that period from his own hand, are all the data that remain to us from that critical season. The books of the academy do not show what studies he pursued during those two School Life. 29 terms. We know from other sources that he studied French, and was counted proficient enough to give an address in that tongue in certain public exercises of his society, " The Union Philosophical," at the close of the fall term. Mrs. C. L. Rice, of Springfield, Massachu- setts, remembers him as one of the best declaimers in the school, with an easy and effective style of address. He was a ready debater, and warmed up when school topics were introduced, though he did not take a lead- ing part in his society. The only school composition of his preserved to these days, considers the fitness of certain limitations put upon the association of the sexes in the school. One of his letters says that the principal, Mr. Patten, had been talking to the students on that subject, but no good result had come of it. Haven was in favor of greater freedom. He always was, and hence reported some- what hotly in one of his letters home : " They talk of making some new rules, stricter than the old ' blue laws' of Connecticut." His natural liking for relief from all such restrictions shows itself in a letter wherein he serio-comically sets forth the advantages of having to care for a sick chum : " I don't have to get up for prayers and hardly to breakfast, so I get along first- rate. I also fare first-rate, having custards, pie, cake, lemonade, rum punch, etc." It seems, however, that young Haven was counted from the outset among the irreligious men of the school. His first letter home shows that he had accepted this position without much thought or compunction. He 30 Life of Gilbert Haven. says : " I have been listening for the last half hour to a long sermon on religion by one of the most pious stu- dents in the school, and I can't tell how much good it has done, perhaps some." The bare fact that he con- sented to be treated in this way shows the bent of his mind to carelessness and irreligion. He had not the fixed character which makes school-life morally safe. Of quick social feelings, eager for popularity, fond of easy pleasures, Gilbert Haven found his path beset with snares. Among his companions were some who com- bined good scholarship and showy personal qualities with freedom from moral restraints. With some of these he was hail-fellow well met. It admits of no doubt that young Haven's course at Wiibraham was for a time discreditable. Dr. Went- worth is correct in saying : *' He was for a brief season ' fast,' making associates of ' fast ' young men, making companions, says Dr. Rice, a schoolmate, of the best of the bad boys." This declaration is not only justified by what Haven himself wrote just after his conversion, when he might be suspected of unconscious exaggeration, but also by an entry made in his Journal during his pastor- ate at Wiibraham, in 1853 : "I have got back to an old home, the birth-place of my soul, of much of my mind, Wiibraham. Have enjoyed it some, though not so much as I might, had not the ghastly forms of boyish pleasure flitted before the memory, and a painful sense of loss marred the joyful one of gain." During this evil period he was making a sad record of irregularities and deficiencies in school, which taxed School- Life. 31 sorely the patient kindness of those who hoped better things for him. His own judgment, then and afterward, was that he had come to the verge of expulsion from school. He was characteristically frank in recognizing his own wickedness, and never tried to deck out his bad ways with any beautifying colors. But, of course, he was not wholly bad, nor was he entirely given over to bad companionships. His letters home 'show, even at the worst period, a very affectionate nature. His father and mother, brothers and sisters, are all remembered quite tenderly at the very moment that he was keeping back from them facts which would have aroused their worst fears. He went boldly with his comrades upon some of his most desperate deeds of impiety, when he must have been smarting keenly under the reproaches of that faithful home-god," his own conscience. While he was in this condition of growing wickedness and danger, word was brought him from home that his sister Bethiah was on the verge of death. The letter in which Gilbert acknowledges the receipt of these sorrow- ful tidings is filled with outbursts of intense grief. He sends words of tenderness and kisses of love to the dying girl. He confesses his evil ways, and promises to become a better boy, so that the hope of a future re-union may brighten her closing days. There is reason to fear that this penitence was only that sorrow of the world, which worketh death, since the duty of beginning the new life was not entered upon. He who adjourns duty to God insults his own conscience as well as the divine 32 Life of Gilbert Haven. authority, since the intent to repent to-morrow involves the purpose to sin to-day. In Gilbert Haven's case it did not check him even in the worst practices into which he had fallen. Whatever penitential moods he may have passed through his companions saw nothing but his wonted darintj in transgression. But God still had thoughts of mercy for the youth who seemed to be so recklessly throwing away his best opportunities, spiritual and intellectual. A religious revival, under the ministry of Rev. William Livesey, broke out in the town and school. Haven's attitude toward the movement at first was partly one of dislike but mainly of indifference. He went to the religious services held in the village church only when the preacher had the credit of being an eloquent speaker. Some of the ministers thus won their way through his ears to his heart. The following letter, with which he soon gladdened his troubled parents, tells the unex- pected story of his sudden conversion to Christ. W'e omit and abridge what requires it. The letter is not dated, but was written on October 21, 1839, ^^e third day after the memorable conversion it records. It is addressed to his " Ever dear parents," and after explain- ing the reason for writing again so soon, continues : I was afraid Bethiah might be taken suddenly away, and I never have the opportunity of informing her of the glorious news that I have some hopes of meeting her in heaven. ... I feel it my delight to tell her that I too can say, God is good. I know you will be surprised, aye, overwhelmed with astonishment and delight, to hear that the prodigal has returned 10 his Father's arms. But School Life. 33 I hope and trust that such is the case. I feel the blessed assurance of sins forgiven, that my sins, which were as scarlet, have become as white as snow through the blood of the Lamb. . . . Little did I think, and less did I care, that I should become a recipient ot these joys. . . . Wednesday afternoon I attended meeting, because I wished to hear the preacher, second to but one or two that I ever heard in delivery. . . . He preached a beautiful sermon, but I had no particular impressions at the time. His text was, " And they all with one consent began to mai Dr. Joseph Cummings, for many years Presi- dent of Wesleyan University, held this position from 1843 to 1846; Bishop Erastus Otis Haven became his successor in 1846, and continued principal until 1848; Bishop Gilbert Haven followed his cousin, and retained the office until 1851 ; in that year the office passed into the hands of Dr. John W. Beach, the actual President of Wesleyan University, who was to be followed by Bishop Cyrus David Foss. The fact that so many very able men have been connected with the school evinces its high character, and shows that Mr. Haven was now in- vited to a position where high ability, tact, and charac- ter would be needful for success. Few such schools can show a similar array of eminent names among their in- structors. Meantime the young teacher of Greek and German, all unconscious of the social and professional destinies impending over him under the sure hand of a loving God, was standing there in Amenia, on August 17, 1846, applying his own eyes to the novel scenes before him in order to reproduce them vividly in his Journal, not without some troublesome touches and flashes of home-sickness : Teacher and Prinxipal. 8i I am driven away from home scenes to engage in an entirely new business, in an entirely new region. Here I am, pushed down into this Sleepy Hollow, embosomed in high wheat and oat-crowned hills, resting in drowsy magnificence amid beauties of every natural order. The place is very pleasant, and little troubled by the vandal or connoisseur hand. It is engirt with high hills, which shut in the vision and contract it within limits so narrow that, to one used to the wider range of Middletown, it seems cell-like ; still it is pleasant. Rolling hills covered with vegetation, the loftiest peaks cultivated like a garden, tall forests and green meadows, make the scene very- delightful if it were only a little more active and prosperous. I have indulged in some home-sickness, the close stillness contrasting so greatly with the wide activity at home. Yet I think I shall get used to it. The school is pleasant, but rather small— about seventy-five. I have looked in on my numerous classes with much pleasure. The building is large, a hotel in the center of a little village, made up of little houses ; every thing on a diminutive scale, except the hills, the landscape, and the seminary. It is a delightful rolling country — meadows, hills, knolls, mountains crowned with grand forests, with wheat, corn, sheep, and pigs, and here and there a farm-house full of life and love. Such a retired place, a little baby of towns put out into the countr}^ to be brought up, I never got into. The papers of Air. Haven, dating from the days of his earher connection with the place, show that he had many and persistent doubts as to his probable relish for his ne>v style of existence. College life had been for him such a scene of almost unmingled pleasure and suc- cess that there was serious danger lest any exacting rou- tine of duty should prove irksome. Too clear-headed to suppose it possible to continue longer that care-free and merry period, he was so sensitive to any thing disa- greeable in his external world as to make the transition 4* 82 Life of Gilbert Haven. from one position to the other perilous. He put his own feeling as he looked out on the prospects before him in the seminary into Virgil's line : " Superanda fortuna omnis ferendo est." He speaks of his days as wanting the free, merry, and manifold delights he had known at Middletown, and gradually changing their brightness into the natural gloom of care-ridden earth." The six hours of teaching for five days in the week, the social demands which were made upon his time, the accumulation of work, and a certain want of strict order in his labors, made him feel somewhat overcrowded with employment and poor in time. Saturday was a free day ; but it was not so easy to take care of it ; for he says of one : I have spent the day amid old and new Blackwoods', Eras, Shakspeare, and Horace. Truly my leisure days pro- duce no more fruit than my busy ones, passing reck- lessly, with due regard to the present moment, but with supreme contempt for the future. So I go — lalnintur anni fugaces — but I heed them not." For some time the utmost he ventured to hope for was a warm after- glow of the lost splendors of his university career, with a diminished satisfaction in his crowding activities ; and once he thought he had reached that condition : The light of college bliss has faded into this twilight — a peaceful Indian summer after the intense heat of joy." But gradually there dawned upon him a hope of making the new life even superior to the old one. The first suggestion seems to have come from the better ac- Teacher and Principal. 83 quaintance he now gained with his cousin, E. O. Haven, and the deepening of his affection for Mr. W. M. In- graham. The former had not before this period been much within the reach of Gilbert's interest or sympathy. The two had seen little of one another, and that only in a cursory manner ; now for the first time they had the opportunity for such thorough knowledge of each other as served to turn a somewhat dim liking into strong and life-long affection. Mr. E. O. Haven had recently mar- ried a charming daughter of Rev. George Coles, of the New York Conference. The gifts of his new kins- woman in conversation, literary chitchat, and music made Cousin Gilbert's days brighter and less monoto- nous. He teased her for music, and was drawn out into many an hour of sportive badinage. He was immensely delighted one day on hearing that some bumpkin of the neighborhood had been making inquiries concerning Old Mr. Haven at the seminary, and his son the teacher." It is easy to fancy the filial sentiments which the waggish teacher must have addressed in lavish abun- dance to his new mother, who was several years younger than himself. If any body wishes to know what sort of a man Erastus Otis Haven was in those days of his unfolding powers he should study the papers of Bishop Gilbert Haven. Soon after his arrival in the seminary the Journal begins to be dotted with entries like this : Otis preached a beautiful sermon to-day on ' How shall we escape if we neglect so great salvation.' It was very solemn and effective." Records of walks in company with Otis 84 Life of Gilbert Haven. appear, telling where they went, and the main points of their talk along the roads and through the solemn old woods. There are frequent remarks that show a high estimate of his cousin's eminence as a scholar, brilliancy as a preacher or orator, and fine social gifts. In these natural and familiar reports of their relations with each other one comes gradually to a pretty distinct conception of the future Chancellor of the University of Michigan, and Bishop. It is noticeable that this is done slowly, one detail coming in here and another there, but evi- dently all together involved in Gilbert's notion of his beloved cousin. Take a sample : Enjoyed a vtry delightful conversation, fringed with very agreea- ble music, in Otis' room. Sister Anna read Evangeline. In the course of the evening we got to talking of emotions of sublimity. Underwood asserted that there is no sublimity equal to that of astronomy. Otis contended for the superiority of the imagination as a creative faculty over that function which explored creations, in producing emotions of sublimity. He talked long and eloquently or the theme, arguing subtilely and convincingly, and advancing many fresh and striking thoughts. The conversation was one of that ear- nest and yet social cast that keeps every body awake and interested, joined, of course, with the jesting and music which make our conver- sations so agreeable. When he hears that Otis is going to leave the sem- inary he gives vent to his feelings as follows : To add to my cup of bitterness, my Cousin Otis leaves also. A better man never wore earth about him. His body is almost translucent, so radiant is the inner fire ; he has active and very warm sympathies, keen and fine- ly trained intellect, abundant information and fluent Teacher and Principal. 85 expression, subtle and quaintest humor, and a fondness for acute reasoning and vigorous declamation. I am desperately sorry that he is going." And later he says: " Otis delivered his farewell speech Tuesday evening in great weakness of body. He came near fainting, and was so weak before and after it that he could not attend to his duties." As Mr. William M. Ingraham had been a classmate at Middletown, we have no accounts of the growth of their intimacy. The earliest records and letters show it to have been of long standing, and of the most delicate charac- ter. When he reaches Amenia Mr. Haven goes out to call on the Ingraham family, and is delighted with them all ; he at once fancies a strong resemblance between their mother and his own. The earliest mention of this friend in the Journal is pitched in this key : Last Saturday and Sunday I went with my bosom and brain friend, William M. Ingraham, to Poughkeepsie and La Grange. We took a delightful ride through a farming region to Mr. Jackson's, an uncle of his, with whom we spent the Sabbath. Their place is very fine ; large rolling farms, with shaggy hills covered with forests, meadows waving with grass and grain, fine horses cantering about the fields, the air full of life and song and fragrance. I was inocu- lated with the desire for a farmer's life, and vowed eternal devotion to its pursuits. We laid away the day in lavender, so delightfully did it glide past. ... At sunset we started for home, twenty-five miles away. "The moon was full and shining clearly," and the air so warm and balmy and cheerful, that I was almost tempted to pass the night outdoors. Mr. Haven's favorite and most frequent companion on such excursions and in his frequent rambles around 86 Life of Gilbert Haven. beautiful Amenia was this same friend of his heart. Their relation was touched off once for all in the earliest of his letters from Amenia to the family at Maiden : My old classmate and I go sauntering here and there, visiting his mother, eating his pears, and seeing his — I'll not say what — for Mrs. C. will be sending it back within a week, and put me in a beautiful predicament." When an illness forced Mr. Ingraham to give up teaching, his friend writes : I did feel bad to have him go, for he has been a connecting link between the present and the past, has kept the better features of college days ever before me, and afforded me rich pleasure inde- pendently of common memories. We have walked hundreds of miles in company, lain together hours upon hours beside brooks, or in solemn forests, and read and talked on every subject of a spiritual or intellectual character. The richness of his mind was but half disclosed at Middletown, and he has been constantly opening new mines, and disclosing yet purer and richer veins, or amassing from reading or reflection fresh treasures. Through him and Otis I have lost all yearnings for college life. What need of sighing.^ Could any place out of Eden afford more high and pure delight ? Two or three other times Mr. Ingraham was able to render brief additional services as teacher in the semi- nary, and it is fine to see what a delicious June-morning atmosphere floods the pathway of Gilbert Haven on each recurrence of such good fortune. Under date of June, 1849, says: " Underwood has gone, Ingraham is in his place. It was like getting the lost piece of gold back, worth calling in all the neighbors to assist my re- joicings." Of course, no place could long be dull for a man who Teacher and Principal. 87 had such an enviable faculty of turning any scene and any company to their highest uses. What he was doing with these chiefest friends he did in a large measure with all around him. Among the teachers of the sem- inary in those years were such men as Rev. Andrew J. Hunt, Mr. T. P. Underwood, Rev. G. G. Jones, Mr. J. E. Marsh, and Mr. Alexander Winchell, the well-known geologist : and nobody would be so sure as Mr. Haven to make them contribute as greatly to his own happi- ness as he would be sure of doing to theirs. Here is a specimen of a ramble with Hunt : This morning, the fairest spring has yet put on, with a cool north wind playing among the leaves, while a warm sun is looking with ardent fondness on the earth, made out-of-doors most enticing. Hunt and myself took advantage of it, wandered off into a nice shady grove, and laid off, I with Blackwood, and he with " Sartor Re- sartus." We had a delicious time, sweeter than music or the ringing of eagles to the ears of a miser. We wandered back again through most glorious scenery ; shaggy mountains, sunny vales, waving grain fields, creeping streamlets, all glowmg with sunlight : " What a day this is ! Hills and vales did openly Seem to heave and throb away At the sight of the great sky, And the silence, as it stood, In the glory's golden flood, Audibly did bud and bud." No doubt Mr. Haven was succeeding in his work as a teacher during this period, or his days would not have been so cheerful as they were ; but he does not dwell upon such topics enough to show what his strong and 88 Life of Gilbert Haven. Aveak points in teaching were. We see that the school was in a prosperous condition under the firm and wise guidance of Principal E. O. Haven. The variations of the patronage in numbers and character are noted, and likewise the distracting and evil influences sometimes felt there ; and one gladly notices that a high religious spirit prevails, often re-enforced by pervading revivals of religion. It is stated in general phrases that the usual examinations and exhibitions go off well;- but on two occasions something more definite is set down in the most impartial manner. In July, 1848, he says: ''The examination went off well. Brother Cummings was the principal examiner, though not properly on the com- mittee. They gave me some credit for the appearance of my classes, though they took the edge off some of it by suspicious remarks." A year later he writes: ''The examination was very good according to the opinion of the committee, of whom was Professor Smith of Wes- leyan University. Foss [William Jay, a younger broth- er of Bishop Foss,] gave a fine valedictory ; he is one of the most promising scholars I have seen." The best evidence of his high success as teacher is found in the fact that he was made principal when ill health forced his cousin Otis to resign the position, in 1848. W^hen the suggestion was made, Mr. Haven, while relishing the honor of such an offer within two years after his graduation, and conscious of the high dignity of the place, hesitated somewhat at assuming such re- sponsibilities, since it would detract from his ease and add to his cares. The Journal says, May 9, 1848 : Teacher and Principal. 89 To-day the trustees offered me the principalship. I accepted it for this time ; and, if I please and they also, for an indefinite time. I shrink from accepting the office. The burdens are great, the pleas- ures few. It confers some reputation, but is only useful as a pass- port, not as a permanency. I hope I shall do well in it, for my own sake, and for the school's sake. It will bring out what talents I possess. I feel stricken in heart while looking at it and the future. O may I ever apply to God for direction, and find safety and success through him ! Grief at the loss of my old associates wears away my soul. May God bless these old friends ! My shrinking at coming responsibilities deepens the gloom. Winchell is coming, and A. J. Hunt is to take Ingraham's place. Of course there could be nothing very novel or unex- pected in the work of his new office for Mr. Haven. He had seen the working of the school for two years in a subordinate position ; but he had been on such confidential terms with his cousin that he must have become familiar with all the details of its administration. His talents for business would find full play, and his tact in moving men with him would make admirable success possible. Young as he was, and without experi- ence in such business, he had the rare art of making every body about him work easily and with pleasure. He formed the most cordial relations with all the other teachers, and gave them all possible encouragement in their work. The attendance of students was unusually large during the years Mr. Haven was principal. More than one hundred were enrolled in the fall term of 1848. The next term the school was the largest that had then been known there — one hundred and eighty-three in all. Many applications were rejected for want of room. In 90 Life of Gilbert Haven. the winter term of 1850 the number of students was one hundred and seventy. The other terms of the year were always marked by a diminished school, though it was never small. His success was so marked that when he expressed a desire to lay down his duties, in 1850, the trustees resolutely set their faces against it, and in- creased his salary to secure his services for the future. Much of his skill lay in the power to create a genial atmosphere in the entire school. He writes to his cous- in Otis in the autumn of 1848 : I make out to replace you by new compeers as fine as fine can be after the perfect. We have quite social seasons, as merry as larks and grave as owls. I suspect the gladness diffused through our circle spreads to hearts beyond the charmed line, for the students appear as happy as the teachers. Every body seems to be in good- humor, and some take joyfully the spoiling of their rooms, which cannot be ascribed to any other cause than the central one ; all these satellites and planets lift their sides toward the sun, and are never in eclipse. Some are always in conjunction, not with the sun, but with each other. In speaking in these glowing terms of the condition and work of the school under Mr. Haven's management we do not affirm that he escaped all difficulties. He could not so rob students of their faults as to escape the burden of rebuking the evil, scolding the idle, and stimu- lating the lazy. Now and then he has to write some- thing like this: ''The last part of the term has been rather troublesome. Some troubles were generated con- cerning the exhibition and music, but all passed off pleasantly." Once it even taker this shape: "I have Teacher and Principal. 91 had to dismiss three boys for throwing a stove down stairs. It has given me lots of energy, and so has done me good like a medicine." Yet he was obliged to con- fess before long that this stimulus failed him : " Some troubles arose about the expelled boys. They dis- turbed me very much. I have been very anxious and care-worn, but feel better now." The prospects for the next term were not very flattering, and some thought the fault was his. Though he did not admit the justice of their blame, he suffered under it. His real piety shows its brightness at such times. No mention of his foes by name, no eagerness to vindicate himself to others, but merely a naked statement of the facts, and a prayer or two. I hope things will turn out well. I pray for wisdom, grace, and humility." Such things always left a shadow spread over the heart of Mr. Haven ; hence it is no surprise to find him writing a little afterward : I have felt very desponding most of the term. I hardly know why, but it is sadly so. O that I might find comfort in Christ ! " We gratefully record that these troubles crossed his path but rarely at Amenia, where he mostly found things congenial to his mind and heart. Concerning Mr. Haven's intellectual progress during his five years' residence in Amenia, it is impossible to give a very adequate account. His reading appears to have been as diversified as ever, but his accounts there- of become more meager. This is not to be taken as a proof that he read less, but rather that he grew to write less about reading in his Journal ; and the latter itself shows long fits of interruption in these years. He had 92 Life of Gilbert Haven. the wise habit of going more than once over books that fed his mind. He deemed Cousin, Jeremy Taylor, Shakspeare, and Emerson worthy of such distinction. He mentions perusing Dickens' Italy," The Tale of a Tub," Stevens' Greece and Russia," Southey's Poems, Thirlwall's " History of Greece," Shelley, Michelet's Roman Republic," and many articles from the English Reviews and the Bibliotheca Sacra. Any body who has had much intimacy with Mr. Haven must have been astonished at the wide range of his reading and the full- ness and freshness of his recollection of the matters it covered. It made him a delightful companion and talker, but was not one of his most commendable char- acteristics. In the way of classical study he did something more than respectable during the two years he was instructor in Greek and German. He taught a class in Cicero one term, read Horace entire, and remem- bered him pretty well, while the rest of his Latin grew dim after a while. He read twelve books of Ho- mer during the first term, and all of him the first year, lured on by the undecaying charm of that immortal verse. While at work on this task he notes down this fact : Had a curious dream last night of conversing with Homer. He appeared a bluff, hearty, sea-captain- ish old fellow, wearing no traces of his want and genius. He talked about his birthplace. It arose from reading Stevens' beautiful description of Scio, and from reading the blind old beggar." One spring vacation he read the last thirty pages of Plato's Gorgias, and thirty of the Teacher and Prinxipal. 93 tenth book of the Laws. Here again he does not give very exact or full accounts of his serious work. He always made the impression of having retained a con- siderable acquaintance with Greek to the end. He surely reread the Greek New Testament and all Homer more than once on the cars after he was made Bishop. He had secured considerable more knowledge of Ger- man than good students usually do when in college. He read a few plays of Schiller's and some miscel- laneous pieces. At the seminary he speaks of doing his usual German duties ; but whether he means private reading or preparation for his classes is not clear. What he does say about the study of German authors rather shows a purpose to master than any real mastery. In April, 1847, says : Tholuck has a splendid essay on the style of St. Paul, running somehow thus : " A page of supposed translation follows, as to which he afterward obtained fresh light, for he wrote in pencil at the bottom : " I had better have translated this into English, August 24, 1848." Yet later he observes: ''I have been trying for the last hour or two to probe the thick darkness which enclouds German, but without suc- cess." The last record the Journal yields on the topic is dated October 22, 1847: I have just closed Faust, after poring with strange fascination over its subtile and truthful pages. I find but little time to devote to it, so that my feelings cool down between the feast days ; but, even in my dim, dull translation, I cannot fail of falling under the all-subduing influence of Goethe's language. The far-reaching thoughts of Faust, his clear insight and expression of the harrowing 94 Life of Gilbert Haven. impulses of our manifold nature, the crafty and common address of the devil are real, fearfully real. It is easy to see that rare penetration in these remarks with which Mr. Haven was wont to touch the inmost essence of many a thing from which he was somehow excluded, as here by his ignorance of the language. He never grew at home in that. He once laughingly said that he made his last effort to speak German in Bremen at the Methodist Church or Mission Institute; Dr. Jacoby asked him if he could speak German. He responded cheerfully, " O yes, one small ! " {ein klein) In the way of devotional and theological literature he read Mellville's Sermons, Upham's Life of Faith," Southey's " Life of Wesley," Harris* " Preadamite Earth," Watson's Institutes," Channing's Works, Stuart on Channing, and Wesley's Sermons. His comments are worth noting for their unconventional freedom : Have commenced to-day the Institutes of Watson. He begins with a clear exposition of the character of a moral action and moral agent. And he contends that natural religion could neither have made known the law which moralizes the action nor have enforced its observance. He proves the weakness or insufficiency of human reason. . . . He makes out a strong case. Yet it seems to me that the pure reason, the inner sense, the intuitive faculties, do impart such knowledge immediately. Wesley in his sermons disappoints me. He is too superficial on great subjects. His sermon on the Trinity is a perfect sham. It is pretty plain that our young- school-master sees with his own eyes, and is not restr^-ined by the repute Teacher and Principal. 95 of great names from saying what they do see. About this time he began to study the Septuagint with care. If we ask how the inner hfe of the soul, rehgion in its strictest definition, was flourishing in Mr. Haven, his papers yield ample response. It will be remembered that one reason why he went to teaching was that he might have ample time for preparation for his profes- sion, and might maturely consider whether he was to enter the ministry. He was very faithful to the routine of daily religious observances all the time he was at Amenia ; he waited on God in all the ordinances of his house. The prevailing condition of his soul is best de- picted in his own words : Only on quiet, dreamy days, when thoughts of a better world come like a fire over the drowsy spirit, do I love to talk with myself in this Journal. To speak to these inner thoughts and ask them where they are traveling, " to look into my own soul and write " of its progress or regress in piety, purity, faith, or fear. O how dark is the sky too generally ! brightened by no sun, no moon, scarcely a star glimmer- ing through its gloom profound. But through this night of distrust, of unbelief, of sorrowful regrets, come some flashes of light. Some- times joy fills, or partly fills, the soul, directing it from its own black- ness and coldness to God, its light and life. . . . Theoretically and in sober thought I feel generally uncondemned. But this unbelief, this hardness, this coldness ; O that the spirit of Christ might con- svrme it utterly ! O that God may convert me deeply, wholly ! Noth- ing else will answer, will satisfy. May I know the truth of that say- ing, " Light is sown for the righteous, and gladness for the upright in heart." There Is no royal road to piety, and so Mr. Haven quite naturally fell into that which the psalmist had 96 Life of Gilbert Haven. taken many centuries since : As the hart panteth after the water brooks, so panteth my soul after thee, O God. My soul thirsteth for God, for the living God : when shall I come and appear before God?" This private Journal of Gilbert Haven, meant for no eye save his own and that of the Most Merciful, is in very many parts of it simply the outpourings of a soul that really panted for God. Yet this man was deemed by many a narrow, and by many a shallow mind, wanting in whole-hearted piety. His religious life in Amenia was greatly colored by the still unsettled question, whether he should enter the ministry. He talked the matter over with his friends, especially with his cousin Otis and Mr. W. M. Ingraham. The case was the harder to decide, because he never had a clear and conscious summons to the ministry as his sole permitted employment. He thought he might glorify God in law and statesmanship or in business. How could he do most for God and mankind? We have already seen that he sometimes coveted the field of law and politics as the best for him. The perusal of his papers shows a gradually developed conviction that duty would nevertheless take him into the pulpit ; and presently this appeared to him a far more solemn and weighty business than he had dreamed. Yet this change in his views did not enable him at once to re- solve the personal question. He patiently heard the opinions of others about the nature of a vocation to the ministry, but could form none for himself. In October, 1846, he writes : Teacher and Principal. 97 The Spirit of God has not yet moved upon the waters of nny soul. I exclude him by my coldness and negligence. I look onward with fear and hope, not trustfully. My greatest lack is faith ; am much disturbed about my duty — delay the performance of what may seem duty. I have tried my hand at writing sermons, but my heart is too black and distrustful. God give me grace and strength ! Tossed by so many conflicting hopes and fears, he resolved to attempt occasional preaching. His first ser- mon was delivered in the school chapel November i8, 1846. Here is his record of the occasion : Last Sunday I read a sermon in chapel on the text, " Light is sown for the righteous, and gladness for the upright in heart." Psa. xcvii, II. It was a great trial of spirit, and greatly, I fear, unsuc- cessful. O that I could rid myself of the fear and love of man's opinion ! God give me grace ! Yet he begins now to dread and beHeve that it may be his calling to preach the Gospel with no clearer voca- tion than he already has. Six months after this notion shapes itself thus : Am I not moving in as high, active, and beneficial a course as I can } Vain regrets produce nothing, it is true ; but vain ambition may destroy, which is worse. Let me wage my battle of life honor- ably here ; and if called, or if venturing uncalled, into a more active sphere, may God's grace and innate courage sustain me ! However, he was now fully bent on testing the matter by looking men in the face while he spoke to them in the name of God. In December, 1846, he preached again in some school-house, and a letter to his sister gives us a glimpse of the service : 5 98 Life of Gilbert Haven. Will it be written on my tombstone, Used up by not preaching ? Said preacher did try to talk in a school-house once this term. Words came fast enough, and appropriate enough, perhaps, but he was lamentably deficient in soul. I saw that he did not love to talk, although he rattled away ever so fluently. He is going to try again next Sunday in a little church at Lime Rock, ten miles away, Hope he'll feel better ; if not, I am afraid he will back out of his calling. The lightness of the tone here, notwithstanding the gravity of the topic, and his own absorbing interest in the religious settlement of it, is a characteristic touch in the story. Then as always he could pass from the most pathetic and solemn subjects to lightness and merriment without the least sense of jarring contrast. He contin- ued to speak in country school-houses and churches whenever a call reached him ; but his criticism on his own performances continued jealously severe. The ob- ject of his consuming scrutiny was not his literary quali- ties or defects in speaking, but the moral and spiritual character of his work. On May lo, 1848, he preached at Pine Plains on " Pray without ceasing," and on the next Sunday at Separate on " The greatest of these is charity." He remarks : The truth is, mf soul is not in the work. I do not love it as I ought. I shrink and stagger and dread every time I speak. I have no lack of words, of ideas, of easy and ready expression and gest- ure ; but I have no unction, not even the wicked one of ambition. I lack the desire, the strong endeavor, the earnest fullness of soul which is the base, shaft, and capital of every pillar of fame or good- ness left standing in the wastes of time. My soul is loosened in every muscle, paralyzed in every nerve, and I go puling and faint- hearted, when I should be animated with energy and life. O that Teacher and Prinxipal. 99 *' The star of the unconquered will Might rise within my breast ! Serene and resolute and still ; And calm and self-possessed." Still more do I pray that I may be swallowed up in God, filled with the inspiration and energy of the Holy Ghost. " My feeble mind sustain, By worldly thoughts oppressed, Appear and bid me turn again To my eternal rest." Through all these embarrassments his eye had be- come at last fixed on the ministry as his highest work. We have clear evidence of this in his seeking a local preacher's license of the Quarterly Conference on June 12, 1847: Went to Quarterly Conference to get a license. Felt very down- hearted and diffident. Was asked a few questions, and received. I felt it a ver>' solemn time, and though dreading, yet desiring the sacred duties I had drawn upon me. O for grace to perform them ! " God be merciful to me, and cause thy face to shine upon me ! " It would be needless to trace out all the changing phases of Mr. Haven's feelings in these initial stages of his ministry; they went on in the same general style already noted until he joined the New England Confer- ence, in 185 1. Yet it may be said in general terms that the drift of the entries in the Journal shows that he was gradually coming to a much better feeling in his pulpit services. Now we find such remarks as this : " Rode to Bangall and talked to the good and bad people there on * To you which believe He is precious.' Had a pretty loo Life of Gilbert Haven. good time — felt the preciousness of Christ, yet not as I wish." On Sunday, July 4, 1847, he opened another very important part of his work as a preacher of right- eousness in a sermon " On Christian Politics, comparing the Passover of the Israelites with the Independence of our Nation." Henceforth the notices of preaching are usually accompanied by the statement that he spoke "with some comfort," or "with some freedom," and sometimes he had a " real good time." His way had gradually cleared up before him as he went on in duty, and yet he had some temptations to recede as late as 1848, when he accepted the principalship at Amenia. He says : I love to preach usually, probably better than others like to hear. Yet I shrink from taking the title Rev. Some of my old college mates may attribute my call to a desire to secure such a berth as this, but nothing could be farther from the truth. Nothing but a most solemn conscientiousness and unwavering conviction of duty could have led me to the pulpit. And though I may never be a preacher, and may, perhaps, go back to merchandise, I should do so in violation of what I often feel urging me forward. It need not be said that the life at Amenia was not all of this high and heroic type. The Journal shows that in the main Mr. Haven's life was as exuberant in delights as ever. He had established there the habit, which clung to him throughout his life, of walking much in the open air, in order to work off any excess of animal spirits or strain of weary nerves. Few men can be so given to nocturnal rambles, or familiar with all the diversities of night-time scenery. He literally reveled Teacher and Prinxipal. lOI in it. The beautiful hills, vales, and forests of Amenia constantly invited such wanderings. Then, too, he had become acquainted with a young lady, whom he styled the Rose of the Sweet-scented Valley. His engage- ment to Miss Mary Ingraham took place on May 8, 1848. The engagement was kept secret from the town, and even confidential friends, as we shall presently see, knew of it only by vague rumor. One may fancy that the charmed lover could not well be very unhappy as he stole past field and wood to his charmer. Mr. Haven drew much delight from his vacation days in these years. These took him home to Maiden as often as he could manage it, since he was not one who cooled off in his old friendships as he took up new ones. His correspondence with the home circle was frequent, cordial, and interesting. Then he made use of these visits to hear preachers who were making a stir. In Boston he heard Bartol, Robbins, and Huntingdon. He also listened to Dr. Dewey, and was moved to read some of his sermons. His remarks about these show that his deep searchings of heart had given him a keener spiritual discernment : Find some rich passages and beautiful thoughts, and much good reasoning, though marred by a total ignorance of that experimental relig- ion he attempts to discuss." At home they sometimes complained that the old- time merry, light-hearted Gilbert had become a serious person ; but they were rather apt to have all the fun they wanted, after making such a suggestion. Here is one rather comical escapade: 102 Life of Gilbert Haven. I surprised the good folks by getting home at about twelve o'clock at night, having been detained on the route till ten o'clock, and obliged to walk out. I banged them up. Father came to the win- dow, and, after some conversation, refused me a lodging, because I would not give my name, telling me to go to a tavern or the poor- house. He shut the window so suddenly that I could not reveal myself. Creeping around I got into the back parlor window, crawled up stairs, and lay there till they came to the top for the purpose of coming down, when I sprang up and scattered them. Had a great laugh over it, and a small scolding. He always went to see and hear Brothers Rice and Cummings, if possible, for he then rated them among the ablest men in the Methodist Episcopal Church, and never varied from this opinion. He records several times the fact that he had passed delightful hours or evenings chatting with Mr. and Mrs. Rice or Mr. and Mrs. Cummings ; and once he spent the evening with the two families together, and pronounced the talk very rich ; a statement as probable as it is tantalizing in its vagueness. On one occasion he chanced on Brother Rice, and told him he was going to hear a certain Mr. Nichols preach. Whereupon he makes the verisimilar statement : " Brother Rice dissuaded me, and so I spent the time talking with him." In the summer of 1848 he writes : " Sunday I preached for Brother Rice in the morning, and for Brother Cummings in the P. at Chelsea. Had a moderate time, not excellent. The familiar countenances of some of the audience some- what confused me." Meanwhile he was conscious of a great interior Teacher and Principal. 103 change going on in his own character. The love for a free and careless life had lost its hold. He began to long to be about his life-work. He suspected that he had made a mistake in deferring so long entrance upon the regular pastoral work ; for he professed to have learned from much study of his own nature that he never could settle questions by merely thinking about them, while he always adjusted himself to the inevitable and irreparable, and that more time for thinking was only more room for irresolution. His religious feelings were heightened by the death of several choice friends, but especially by the end of Mr. George Ingraham, the father of his beautiful fiancee, and that of Miss Emily B. Hunt, and finally of Mr. George Ingraham, Jr. The father was not long ill. The elder Ingraham was conscious that life on earth was ending ; was resigned to the pleasure of God, and very affectionate in parting with his companion and children. The peace of his last hours made a great. impression on the future son-in-law. Miss Hunt was a sister of the Rev. Andrew J. Hunt, and of Rev. A. S. Hunt, D.D., now one of the secretaries of the American Bible Soci- ety. She had been one of Mr. Haven's warmest and most intimate friends in Amenia. She was taken ill in the autumn of 1850, and died on the i8th of the next February. The Journal says : She was very cheerful and playful through her sickness— perfectly resigned to the will of God, perfectly happy in view of death. The last days were especially full of the peace and joy of believing. On Sunday she began to fail rapidly, and then her soul displayed the 104 Life of Gilbert Haven. beauty of holiness, the power of Christ. While awake she talked in- cessantly of God and heaven, and always when she awoke from sleep, said first of all, " I am happy ;" made her brother sing her the most beautiful songs ; and said while lying in his arms, " The arms of faith and wings of love Shall bear me conqueror through." Tuesday morning she roused from a torpor, providentially, as it seemed, to talk with Rev. Andrew J. Hunt, who had arrived in the night. She talked freely with him about heaven ; was full of long- ing desires to go ; prayed for patience to wait the hour of her re- lease ; spoke of seeing many of her old associates, among them Mary Barber ; took messages to them from Andrew ; and, full of inexpressible delight, sprang from her earthly cell to the light and glory of eternal day. What an enviable death ! I tried to preach her funeral sermon from John xvii, 24 : " Father. I will that they also, whom thou hast given me, be with m.e where I am ; that they may behold my glory, which thou hast given me : for thou lovedst me before the foundation of the world." I found great difficulty in proceeding, and more than once thought I should have to give up ; but I was enabled with many tears to finish my task. It seemed lil