a 3 y^. 0^., LIBRARY OF THE Theological Seminary PRINCETON, N. J. Case, .^«^..Wk«««r:..r).H..- Shelf, i ( w" 7 Book, iio,-. i .\:;»!*;?^^p«f; 'j, ~^>d;' .-;.--- OB, THREE HUNDRED AJID FIFTY-TWO RELIGIOUS LETTERS; WRITTEN BETWEEN 1636 & 1661. BY THE LATE EMINENTLY PIOUS MR. SAMUEL RUTHERFORD, PROFESSOR OF DIVINITY A.T ST. ANDREWS. TO WHICH IS rREFIXED, A LIFE OF THE AUTHOR, INCLUDING HIS LAST -WORDS. FIRST AMERICAN, FROBI THE TWELFTH GLASGOW EDITION. NEW-YORK: G, k C. CARVILL, AND JOHN P. HAVEN, BROADWAV- S'eielU & Tucker, Printera, Janiaic?), « 1826. The writings of this eminently pious servant of Christ not being generally known in this country, the publisher offers the following recommendations to this work, from several of the most eminent Divines of our country — to which many others might have been added had it been deemed necessary. RECOMMENDATIONS. From the Rev. Samuel Blatchford, D. D. of Lansingburgh, Lansingburgh, 4th August, 1826. Mr. Henry C. Sleight, Sir — I am much pleased with your intention of publishing "Rutherford's Letters." It is a compilation highly spiritual • It exhibits to the taste of the believer that sweetness which flows from fellowship with the father and his Son Christ Jesus whilst it develops the character of that support and consolation which experimental religion affords to the people of God, who are faithful to their Master under the severest trials. Surely the Author of these Letters was animated with a glowing zeal for the glory of the Redeemer, and richly partook of the fullness which there is in Christ ; he is to be regarded as an eagle in its flight, piercing through the dark, impending clouds up to the very eye of the sun, and thence deriving light, vigour, and joy which the world could not give nor persecution suppress. Respectfully yours, Samuel Blatchford. From the Rev. Alex. Proudfit, D. D. of Salem, JV*. Y. My respected friend, I have recently been informed that you intend to republish the Letters of the great Samuel Rutherford, and very cordially recommend this design to the patronage of the religious pub- lic. The honourable appellation given to John the Baptist may, with much propriety, be applied to this champion for Divine truth, "he was a burning and a shining light," and multitudes, in almost every part of the protestant churches, during the period of two hundred years, " have been rejoicing in his light." His reputation as a scholar and divine is evi- dent from those distinguished, and very responsible stations which he was called to occupy in his own country, and in foreign coun- tries. These letters, which you are now proposing to reprint, cannot fail, in my opinion, to recommend themselves to the con- sciences and affections of all who are attached to evangelic truth, and aspire after holiness of heart, or ardently breathe after the fellowship of Jesus as their glory and joy. It has been fre- quently remarked that the choicest epistles of Paul were dated from the dungeon, and the most edifying discourses in divinity, both doctrinal and practical, were written while their authors were suffering in the fires of persecution, and probably it is no disadvantage (o this volume of Mr. Rutherford that it was chiefly composed during his imprisonment " for the testimony of Jesus." Although singularities of expression occasionally occur, and ow- ing to that revolution which every living language must be ex- pected to undergo in the lapse of two centuries, some words may be unintelligible to a modern English reader, yet for purity and solidity of matter; for an impressive exhibition of the Sa- viour in his suitableness and sufficiency ; for intense, elevated breathings of soul, after the pledges of his love, and for lively contemplations " of the glory to be revealed," perhapa few works of human composition surpass them. Indeed there is an unction about every thing written by this devoted servant of Christ which approaches nearer to the fervour of the sacred scriptures than almost any other uninspired writings with which I am acquainted. With great pleasure, therefore, I recommend these letters to the cordial reception of the friends of our common Lord, and that his blessing may abundantly accompany this, and every effort which is designed for the diffusion of his gospel in its purity, and for the advancement of his own glory, is the prayer of your servant, for Jesus' sake. Salem, August )6, 1826. Alex. Proudfit. From the Rev. Alex. Bullions, M. V. D. of Cambridge, JV*. Y, Cambridge, Aug. 19, 1826. I have just learned that you are publishing an edition of Rutherford's Letters. This work has ever been justly regarded by all thriving Christians as highly evangelical, and containing a rich treasure of the experience of a tried saint and minister of Christ, and breathing a rich unction of the Holy Ghost. This work is as scarce in America as it is valuable, and your republi- cation will confer a real favour on our churches. Wishing you much success in your undertaking, and pledging myself to pro- mote its circulation, I remain yours, Affectionately, Alex. Bullions, M. V. P. From the Rev. Richard Cecil's Works. Rutherford's Letters is one of my classics. Were truth the beam, I have no doubt, that if Homer and Virgil and Horace and all that the world hus agreed to idolize were weighed against that book, they would be lighter than vanity. He is a real original. There are in his Letters some inexpressibly forcible and arresting remonstrances with unconverted men. From the Afflicted Man's Companion. The Rev. Mr. rfalyburton, of St. Andrews, when on his death- bed, caused to be read to him, one of Mr. Rutherford's letters, viz. that to Mr. John Mein, and thereafter said, " That is a book I would commend to you all, there is more practical reli- gion in that letter, than in a book of a larger volume." LIFE OF THE AUTHOR. Mr. Samuel Rutherford, a gentleman by extraction, having spent some time at the grammar-school, went to the university of Edin- burgh, where he was so much admired for his pregnancy of parts, and deservedly looked upon as one from whom great tnings might be ex- pected, that in a short time, though then but very young, he was made professor of philosophy in that university. Some time after this he was called to be minister at Anwoth in the shire of Galloway, unto which charge he entered by means of the then viscount of Kenmuir, without any acknowledgment or engage- ment to the bishops. There he laboured with great diligence and success both night and day, rising usually by three o'clock in the morning, spending the whole time in reading, praying, writing, cate- chising, visiting, and other duties belonging to the ministerial pro- fession and employment. Here he wrote his Exercitationes de Gratia, &c. for which he was summoned as early as June, 1630, before the High Commission Court, but the weather was so tempestuous as to obstruct the passage of the archbishop of St. Andrews hither, and Mr. Colvill, one of the judges, having befriended him, the diet was deserted. About the same time his first wife died after a sore sickness of thirteen months, and he himself being so ill of a tertian fever for thirteen weeks, that then he could not preach on the sabbath day without great difficulty. Again in April 1634, he was threatened with another prosecution at the instance of the bishop of Galloway, before the High Commis- sion Court ; and neither were these threatenings all the reasons Mr. Rutherford had to lay his account with suffering : and as the Lord would not hide from his faithful servant Abraham things he was about to do, neither would he conceal from this son of Abraham what his purposes were concerning him ; in a letter to the provost's wife of Kirkcudbright, dated April 20, 1633, he says. Upon the 17th and 18th of August, he got a full answer of his Lord to be a graced minister, and a chosen arrow hid in his quiver.* Accordingly the thing he looked for came upon him, for he was again summoned before the High Commission Court for his non-conformity, his preaching against the five articles of Perth, and the fore-mentioned book, Exercitationes Apologeticce pro Divina Gratia, which book they alledged did reflect upon the church of Scotland ; but the truth was, says a late histori- an,! the argument of that book did cut the sinews of Arminianism, and galled the episcopal clergy to the very quick, and so bishop Syd- * See his Letters, Part III. Letter 27. 1 See Stevenson's History, Vol, 1. page 149. Rowe's History, page 295. 4 LIFE OF THE AUTHOR. reserf could endure him no longer. When he came before the Com- mission Court, he altogether declined them as a lawful judicatory, and would not give the chancellor, (being a clergyman,) and the bishops their titles, by lording of them ; yet some had the courage to befriend him, particularly the lord Lorn, afterwards the famous marquis of Ar- gyle, who did as much for him as was within his power to do ; but the bishop of Galloway threatening that if he got not his will of him, he would write to the king, it was carried against him ; and upon the 27th of July, 1636, he was discharged to exercise any part of his ministry within the kingdom of Scotland under pain of rebelhon, and ordered within six months to confine himself within the city of Aberdeen, &c. during the king's pleasure, which sentence he obeyed, and forthwith went toward the place of his confinement. From Aberdeen he wrote many of his famous letters, from which it is evident, that the consolation of the Holy Spirit did greatly abound with him in his sufferings ; yea, in one of these letters, he expresses this in the strongest terms, when he says, " I never knew before, that his love was in such a measure. If he leave me, he leaves me in pain, and sick of love, and yet my sickness is my life and health. I have a fire within me ; I defy all the devils in hell, and all the prelates in Scotland to cast water on it." Here he remained upwards of a year and a half, by which time he made the doctors of Aberdeen know that the Puritans, as they called them, were clergymen as well as they. But, upon notice that the private council had received in a declinature against the High Commission Court in the year 1638, he adventured to return back again to his flock at Anvvoth, where he again took great pains, both in public and in private amongst that people, who from all quarters resorted to his ministry, so that the whole country side might account themselves as his particular flock ; and it being then at the dawning of the reformation, found no small benefit by the ffospel, that part of the ancient prophecy being farther accomplished, For in the wilderness shall waters break out and streams in the desert, Isa. XXXV. 6. He was before that venerable assembly held at Glasgow in 1638, and gave an account of all these his former proceedings, with respect to his confinement, and the causes thereof. By them he was ap- pointed to be professor of divinity at St. Andrews, and colleague in the ministry with the worthy Mr. Blair, who was translated hither about the same time. And here God did again so second this his eminent and faithful servant, that by his indefatigable pains both in teaching in the schools and preaching in the congregation, that St. Andrews, the seat of the arch-bishop, and by that means the nursery of all superstition, error, and profaneness, soon became forthwith a Lebanon out of which were taken cedars, for building the house of the Lord, almost through the whole land ; many of whom were guided to heaven before himself, who received the spiritual life by his minis- try, and many others did walk in that light after him. And as he was mighty in the public parts of religion, so he was a Christian Reader, In each of these Epistles thou mayest perceive, how the Writer's heart is inflamed with a holy fire ; and how his soul ascends in the smoke : as snatched up to heaven, and caught up above all that is be- low God : O how much drops from his pen above the ordinary attain- ments and experience, even of such who seem to have out-run others ! So that in respect of us, this angel of the church speaks as one stand- ing already in the choir of angels, or as an angel come down from heaven among men, to give us some account of what they are doing above. And thus leaving thee to peruse what is made public for thy edification ; and to press this pomegranate and squeeze this grape ; and to suck till thou find thy soul refreshed with its spiced wine ; and wishing thee an experimental knowledge of that surpassing and in- conceivable sweetness which is in the fruition of God, and to be en- joyed in a fellowship with the Father, and with his Son Jesus Christ, and a full draught of these pure streams of solid joy and consolation, wherein the soul of this saint swimmed, and which run through these lines ; without which, while he speaks as coming forth out of the king's banqueting house, to persuade thee to go in thither, and feast and bathe thy soul in the same pure delights, and permanent plea- sures, whereon he fed, and which flow in upon the soul and overflow it, while the saint finds himself, with his Beloved's left hand under his head, and his right hand embracing him, he will be to thee a barba- rian. I shall only wish and beg ; that thou wouldest seriously seek of God, the same thing for him, who seeks this for thee, and hath this design in the pains taken in publishing these Letters, if thou be thereby provoked to seek till thou find ; this is that adequate recom- pense which he seeks, earnestly intreats, and expects, who is Thy soul's well-wisher and servant in Christ Jesus. NOTE. The Letters are divided into three parts : — Part First contains those which were written from Aberdeen, where he was confined by a sentence of the High Com- mission drawn forth against him, partly upon the account of declining them, partly upon the account of his Nonconformity. Parts Second and Third contain some which were written from Anwoth before he was, by the Prelates' persecution, thrust out of his ministry ; and others upon divers occasions afterward, from St. Andrews, London, &c. LETTERS. PART FIRST. LETTER I. To Mr. Robert Cuninghame, Minister of the Gospel at Holy wood, in Ireland, WELL-BELOVED AND REV. BROTHER, Grace, mercy, and peace, be to you : Upon acquaintance in Christ, I thought good, to take the opportunity of writing to you. Seeing it hath seemed good to the Lord of the harvest, to take the hooks out of our hands for a time, and so lay upon us a more honoura- ble service, even to suffer for his name ; it were good to comfort one another in writing. I have had a desire to see you in the face, yet now being the prisoner of Christ, it is taken away. I am greatly comforted to hear of your stately spirit, for your princely and royal Captain, Jesus Christ our Lord, and of the grace of God in the rest of our dear brethren with you. You have heard of my trouble I suppose. It hath pleased our sweet Lord Jesus, to let loose the malice of these interdicted lords in his house, to deprive me of my ministry at Anworth, and to confine me eightscore miles from thence to Aberdeen ; and also (which was not done to any be- fore) to inhibit me to speak at all in Jesus' name, within this kingdom, imder the pain of rebellion. The cause that ripened their hatred was ray book against the A-minians, whereof they accused me, those three days I appeared before them ; but let our crowned King in Zion reign ; by his grace the loss is theirs, the advantage is Christ's and truth's. Albeit this honest cross gained some ground on me by my heaviness, and inward challenges of conscience for a time were sharp, yet now for the encouragement of you all, I dare say it, and write it under my hand. Welcome, welcome, sivect, sweet cross of Christ. I verily think the chains of my Lord Jesus are all overlaid with pure gold, and that his cross is perfumed, and that it smelleth of Christ ; and that the vic- tory shall be by the blood of the Lamb, and by the word of his truth ; and that Christ lying on his back, in his weak servants and oppressed truth, shall ride over his enemies' bellies, and shall strike through kings in the day of his ivrath. It is time to laugh when he laugheth, and seeing he is now pleased to sit with wrongs for a time, it becometh us to be silent, until the Lord hath let the enemies enjoy their hungry, lean, and feckless paradise ; blessed are they who are content to take strokes with weeping Christ ; faith will trust the Lord, and is not hasty, nor head- strong ; neither is faith so timorous, as to flatter a tentation, or to bud and bribe the cross. It is Uttle up or little down that the Lamb and his followers can get no law-surety, nor truce with crosses ; it must be so, till we be up in our Father's house ; mv heart is woe 3 18 LETTER I. PART I. indeed for my mother church, that hath played the harlot with many lovers ; for her husband hath a mind to sell her for her horrible trans- gressions, and heavy will the hand of the Lord be upon this backsliding nation. The ways of our Zion mourn ; her gold is become dim, her white Nazarites are black like a coal ; how shall the children not weep, when the husband and the mother cannot agree ; yet I believe Scot- land's skies shall clear again, and that Christ shall build again the old waste places of Jacob, and that our dead and dry bones shall become an army of living men ; and that our Well-beloved may yet feed among the lilies, until the day break, and the shadows flee away. My deal" Brother, let us help one another with our prayers. Our King shall mow down his enemies, and shall come from Bozrah with his garments all dyed in blood, and for our consolation shall he appear, and call his wife Hephzibah, and his land Beulah ; for he will rejoice over us and marry us, and Scotland shall say. What have I to do any more with idols ? Only let us be faithful to him, that can ride through hell and death upon a windlestrae and his horse never stumble ; and Jet him make of me a bridge over a water, so that his high and holy name may be glorified in me : strokes with the sweet Mediator's hand, are very sweet ; he has always been sweet to my soul, but since I suffered for him, his breath hath a sweeter smell than before. Oh that every hair of my head, and every member, and every bone in my body, were a man to witness a fair confession for him, I would think all too little for him : when I look over beyond the line, and beyond death, to the laughing side of the world, I triumph, and ride upon the high places of Jacob, howbeit, otherwise I am a faint, dead-hearted, cowardly man, often borne down, and hungry in waiting for the mar- riage-supper of the Lamb ; nevertheless, I think it the Lord's wise love that feeds us with hunger, and makes us fat with wants and deser- tions. I know not my dear Brother, if our worthy brethren be gone to sea or not ; they are on my heart and in my prayers. If they be yet with you, salute my dear friend John Stuart ; my well-beloved brethren in the Lord, Mr. Blair, Mr. Hamilton, Mr. Livingston, and Mr. M'Cleland, and acquaint them with my troubles, and intreat them to pray for the poor afflicted prisoner of Christ ; they are dear to my soul ; I seek your prayers and theirs for my flock ; their remembrance breaks my heart : I desire to love that people, and others my dear ac- quaintance in Christ with love in God, and as God loveth them : I know that he who sent me to the West and South sends me also to the North : I will charge my soul to beUeve and to wait for him, and will follow his providence, and not go before it, nor stay behind it. Now, my dear brother, taking farewell in paper, I commend you all to the word of his grace, and to the work of his Spirit, to him who hold- eth the seven stars in his right hand, that you may be kept spotless till the day of Jesus our Lord. I am. Your Brother in Affliction, in our sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Fi-om Irving, being on my journey to Christ's palace in Aberdeen. August 4tii, lose. PART I. LETTER II. 19 LETTER ir. To his Parishioners. Dearly beloved and longed for in the Lord, my crown and my joy in the day of Christ ; grace be to you, and peace from God our Fa- ther, and our Lord Jesus Christ. I long exceedingly to know, if the oft spoken of match betwixt you and Christ holdeth ; and if you fol- low on to know the Lord. My day thoughts and my night thoughts are of you ; while ye sleep I am afraid of your souls, that they be off the rock ; next to my Lord Jesus and this fallen kirk, ye have the greatest share of my sorrow, and also of my joy ; ye are the matter of the tears, care, fear, and daily prayers of an oppressed prisoner of Christ. As I am in bonds for my high and lofty One, my royal and princely Master, my Lord Jesus ; so I am in bonds for you : for I should have sleeped in my warm nest, and kept the fat world in my arms, and the cords of my tabernacle should have been fastened more strongly, I might have sung an evangel of ease to my soul and you for a time with my brethren, the sons of my mother, that were angry at me, and have thrust me out of the vineyard, if I should have been broken, and drawn on to mire you the Lord's flock, and to cause you eat pastures trodden upon with men's feet, and to drink foul and muddy waters : but truly the Almighty was a terror to me, and his fear made me afraid. O my Lord judge if my ministry be not dear to me, but not so dear by many degrees as Christ Jesus my Lord God knoweth the sad and heavy sabbaths I have had, since I laid down at my Mas- ter's feet my two shepherd's staves, I have been often saying, as it is written, Lam. iii. 52, 53. ' My enemies chased me sore like a bird without cause : they have cut off my life in the dungeon, and cast a stone upon me :' for, next to Christ, I had but one joy, the apple of the eye of my delights to preach Christ my Lord, and tliey have vio- lently plucked that away from me, and it was to me like the poor man's one eye, and they have put out that eye, and quenched my light in the inheritance of the Lord ; but my eye is toward tlie Lord. I know I shall see the salvation of God, and that my hope shall not always be forgotten. And my sorrow shall want nothing to complete it, and to make me say. What availeth it me to live 1 If ye follow the voice of a stranger, of one that cometh into the sheep-fold not by Christ the door, but climbeth up another way. If the man build his hay and stubble upon the golden foundation, Christ Jesus, already laid among you, and ye follow him, 1 assure you, the man's work shall burn, and never bide God's fire, and ye and he both shall be in danger of ever- lasting burning, except ye repent. O if any pain, any sorrow, any Joss that I can suffer for Christ, and for you, were laid in pledge to buy Christ's love to you, and that I could lay my dearest joys next to Christ my Lord in the gap, betwLxt you and eternal destruction ! O if I had paper as broad as heaven and earth, and ink as the sea, and all the rivers and fountains of the earth, and were able to write the love, the worth, the excellency, the sweetness, and due praises of our dearest and fairest Well-beloved : and then if ye could read and un- derstand it ! What could I want, if my ministry among you should 20 LETTER II. PART I. make a marriage between the little bride in that bounds and the bride- groom ? O how rich a prisoner were I, if I could obtain of my Lord, before whom I stand for you, the salvation of you all ! O what a prey had I gotten, to have you catched in Christ's net ! O then I had cast out my Lord's lines and his net with a rich gain ! O then, well-wared pained breast and sore back, and crazed body, in speaking early and late to you ! My witness is above, your heaven would be two heavens to me, and the salvation of you all as two salvations to me ; I would subscribe a suspension, and a fristing of my heaven, for many hun- dred years, according to G od's good pleasure, if you were sure in the upper lodging, in our Father's house, before me. I take to witness heaven and earth against you, I take instruments in the hands of that sun and day-light that beheld us, and in the hands of the timber and walls of that kirk, if I drew not up a fair contract of marriage betwixt you and Christ, if I went not with offers betwixt the Bridegroom and you ; and your conscience did bear you witness, your mouths con- fessed, that there were many fair trysts and meetings drawn on be- twixt Christ and you at communion feasts, and other occasions ; there were bracelets, jewels, rings, and love-letters, sent to you by the Bridegroom ; it was told you what a fair dowry ye should have, and what a house your husband and ye should dwell in, and what was the Bridegroom's excellency, sweetness, might, power ; the eternity and glory of his kingdom, the exceeding deepness of his love, who sought his black wife through pain, fires, shame, death and the grave, and swimmed the salt sea for her, undergoing the curse of the law and then was made a curse for you, and ye then consented and said, Even so I take him. I counsel you, beware of the new and strange leaven of men's inventions, beside and against the word of God, contrair to the oath of this kirk, now coming among you ; I instructed you of the superstition and idolatry of kneeling in the instant of receiving the Lord's supper, and crossing in baptism, and the oberving of men's days without any warrant of Christ our perfect lawgiver ; countenance not the surplice, the attire of the mass priest, the garment of Baal's priests, the abominable bowing to altars of tree is coming upon you ; hate, and keep yourselves from idols ; forbear in any case to hear the reading of the new fatherless Service-book, full of gross heresies, popish and superstitious errors, without any warrant of Christ, tending to the overthrow of preaching : you owe no obedience to the bastard canons ; they are unlawful, blasphemous, and superstitious : all the ceremonies that lye in the Antichrist's foul womb, the wares of that great mother of fornications, the kirk of Rome, are to be refused ; ye see whether they lead you ; continue still in the doctrine which ye have received ; ye heard of me the whole counsel of God, sew no clouts upon Christ's robe ; take Christ in his rags and losses, and as perse- cuted by men, and be content to sigh and pant up the mountain, with Christ's cross on your back ; let me be reputed a false prophet, (and your conscience once said the contrair,) if your Lord Jesus shall not stand by you and maintain you, and maintain your cause against your enemies. 1 have heard, and my soul is grieved for it, that since my departure from you, many among you are turned back from the goo'd PART I. LETTER II. 21 old way, to the dog's vomit again ; let me speak to these men : it was not without God's special direction, that the first sentence that ever my mouth uttered to you was that of John ix. 39. ♦ And Jesus said, For judgment came I into the world, that they which see not might see, and they which see might be made blind.' It is possible, my first meeting and yours be, when we shall both stand before the dread- ful Judge of the world : and in the name and authority of the Son of God, my great King and Master, I write, by these presents, summons to these men, I arrest their souls and bodies to the day of our com- pearance ; their eternal damnation stands subscribed, and sealed in heaven, by the hand writing of the great Judge of quick and dead ; and I am ready to stand up, as a preaching witness against such to their face, that day, and to say Amen to their condemnation, except they repent. The vengeance of the gospel is heavier than the ven- geance of the law ; the Mediator's malediction and vengeance is twice vengeance, and that vengeance is the due portion of such men ; and there I leave them as bound men, ay, and while they repent and amend. You were witnesses how the Lord's day was spent while I was among you : O sacrilegious robber of God's day, what wilt thou answer the Almighty when he seeketh so many sabbaths back again from thee ? What will the curser, swearer, and blasphemer do, when his tongue shall be roasted in that broad and burning lake of fire and brimstone : and what will the drunkard do when tongue, lungs, and liver, bones, and all, shall boil and fry in a torturing fire 1 for he shall be far from his barrels of strong drink then, and there is not a cold well of water for him in hell. What shall be the case of the wretch, the covetous man, the oppressor, the deceiver, the earth worm, who can never get his womb full of clay, when in the day of Christ, gold and silver must lye burnt in ashes, and he must compear and answer his Judge, and quit his clayey and naughty heaven 1 V^ oe, woe, for evermore, be to the time-turning Atheist, that hath one God, and one religion for summer, and another God and another religion for winter, and the day of fanning, when Christ fanneth all that is in his barn floor ; who hath a conscience for every fair and market, and the soul of him runneth upon these oiled wheels, time, custom, the world, and com- mand of men : if the careless Atheist, and sleeping man, who edg- eth by all, with, God forgive our pastors if they lead us wrong, we must do as they command, and lay down his head upon time's bosom, and givoth his conscience to a deputy, and sleepeth so while the smoke of hell fire flee up in his throat, and cause him to start out of his doleful bed ! O if such a man would awake. Many woes are for the over-gilded and gold-plastered hypocrite. A heavy doom is for the liar and white-tongued flatterer ; and the flying book of God's fearful vengeance, twenty cubits long, and ten cubits broad, that goeth out from the face of God, shall enter into the house, and in upon the soul of him that stealeth and sweareth falsely by God's name, Zech. v. 2, 3. I denounce eternal burning, hotter than Sodom's flames, upon the men that boil in filthy lusts of fornication, adultery, incest, and the like wickedness, no room, no, not a foot breadth for such vile dogs within the clean Jerusalem. Many of you put off" all with tliis, 22 LETTER II. PART I. ' God forgive us, we know no better :' I renew my old answer, 2 Thess. i. the Judge is coming ' in flaming fire, with all his mighty an- gels, to render vengeance to all those that know not God and believe not.' I have often told you, security shall slay you : all men say they have faith, as many men and women now, as many saints in heaven ; and all believe, say ye, every foul dog is clean enough, and good enough for the clean and new Jerusalem above. Every man hath conversion and the new birth : but it is not leel come ; they had never a sick night for sin ; conversion came to them in a night-dream : In a word, hell will be empty at the day of Judgment, and heaven panged full ; alas ! it is neither easy nor ordinary to believe and to be saved : many must stand in the end at heaven's gates ; when they go to take out their faith, they take out a fair nothing, or as ye used to speak, a bleflume : O lamentable disappointment ! I pray you, I charge you in the name of Christ, make fast work of Christ and salvation. I know there are some believers among you, and I write to you, poor bro- ken hearted believers : all the comforts of Christ in the Old and New Testament are yours. O what a father and husband you have ! if I had pen and ink, and engine, to write of him ! Let heaven and earth be consolidate in massy and pure pold, it will not weigh the thousand part of Christ's love to a soul, even to me a poor prisoner : that is a massy and marvellous love : Men and angels, unite your force and strength in one ; ye shall not heave nor poise it off the ground ; ten thousand worlds, as many worlds as angels can number, and then as a new world of angels can multiply, would not all be the balk of a ba- lance to weigh Christ's excellency, sweetness and love : put ten earths in one, and let a rose grow greater than ten whole earths, or ten worlds, O what beauty would be in it, and what a smell would it cast, but a blast of the breath of that fairest rose in all God's paradise, even of Christ Jesus our Lord, one look of that fairest face would be infinite- ly, in beauty and smell, above all imaginable and created glory. I wonder that men can bide off Christ. I would esteem myself blessed, if I could make an open proclamation, and gather all the world, that are living upon the earth, Jew and Gentile, and all that shall be born till the blowing of Uie last trumpet, to flock round about Christ, and to stand looking, wondering, admiring, and adoring his beauty and sweetness ; for his fire is hotter than any other fire, his love sweeter than common love, his beauty surpasseth all other beauty. When I am heavy and sad, one of his love-looks would do me meikle world's good. O if ye would fall in love with him ! How blessed were I ! How glad would my soul be to help you to love him ! But amongst us all, we could not love him enough : he is the Son of the Father's love, and God's delight, the Father's love lyeth all upon him : O if all man- kind would fetch all their love, and lay it upon him. Invite him and take him home to your houses, in the exercise of prayer, morning and evening, as I often desired you, especially now, let him not want lodg- ing in your houses, nor lye in the fields, when he is shut out of pul- pits and kirks. If ye will be content to take heaven by violence, and the wind on your face, for Christ and his cross, I am here one who have some trial of Christ's cross : I can say, that Christ was ever PART I. LETTER II. 2'3 kind to me, but he overcometh himself, if I may speak so, in kindness while 1 suffer for him ; I give you my word it, Christ's cross is not so evil as they call it ; it is sweet, light, and comfortable ; I would not want the visitations of love, and the very breathings of Christ's mouth when he kisseth, and my Lord's delightsome smiles and love em- bracements, under my sufferings for him, for a mountain of gold, nor for all the honours, court, and grandeur of velvet kirkmen : Christ hath the yolk and heart of my love, ' I am my Beloved's, and my Well Beloved is mine.' O that ye were all hand-fastened to Christ ! O my dearly beloved in the Lord, I would I could change my voice and had a tongue tuned with the hand of my Lord, and had the art of speak- ing of Christ that I might paint out unto you the worth, and highness, and greatness, and excellency of that fairest and renowned Bride- groom ! I beseech you by the mercies of the Lord, by the sighs, tears, and heart's blood of our Lord Jesus, by the salvation of your poor and precious souls, set up the mountain, that ye and I may meet before the Lamb's throne, amongst the congregation of the first-born. Lord, grant that that may be the trysting-place, that ye and I may put up our hands together, and pluck, and eat the apples off the tree of life, and we may feast together, and drink together of that pure river of the water of life, that cometh out from under the throne of God, and from the Lamb. O how little is your hand-breadth and span-length of days here ! Your inch of time is less than when ye and I parted : eternity, eternity is coming, posting on with wings : then shall every man's blacks and whites be brought to light. O how light will your thoughts be of this fair-skinned but heart-rotten apple, the vain, vain, feckless world, when the worms shall make their houses in your eye holes, and shall eat off the flesh from the ball of your cheeks, and shall make that body a number of dry bones ! Think not the common way of serving God, as neighbours and others do, will bring you to heaven ; few, few are saved ; the devil's court is thick and many ; ho hath the greatest number of mankind for his vassals. I know this world is a forest of thorns in your way to heaven ; but you must through it ; acquaint yourselves with the Lord, hold fast Christ, hear his voice only, bless his name, sanctify and keep his day ; keep the new commandment, ' love one another ;' let the Holy Spirit dwell in your bodies, and be clean and holy ; love not the world, lie not, lovo and follow truth ; learn to know God ; keep in mind what I taught you ; for God will seek an account of it, when I am far from you ; abstain from all evil, and all appearance of evil ; follow good carefully, and seek peace, and follow after it ; honour your king, and pray for him ; remember me to God in your prayers, I do not forget you. I told you often, wliile I was with you, and now I write it again. Heavy, sad, and sore, is that stroke of the Lord's wrath that is coming upon Scotland ; wo, wo, wo to this harlot land ; for they shall take the cup of God's wrath from his hands, and drink, and spue, and fall, and not rise again. In, in, in with speed, to your strong hold, ye prisoners of hope, and hide you there, while the anger of the Lord pass : follow not the pastors of this land, for the sun is gone down upon them ; as the Lord hveth, they lead you from Christ, and from the good old wa}-; 24 LETTER 111. PART J. yet the Lord will keep the holy city, and make this withered kirk to bud again like a rose, and a field blessed of the Lord. The grace of the Lord Jesus Christ be with you all. The prayers and blessings of a prisoner of Christ, in bonds for him. and for you, be with you all, Amen. Your lawful and loving pastor, S. R. Aberdeen, July 14, 1637. LETTER in. To the Honourable, Reverend, and well-beloved Professors of Christ, and his Truth, in sincerity, in Ireland. Dearly beloved in our Lord, and partakers of the heavenly call- ing, Grace mercy and peace be to you, from God our father, and from our Lord Jesus Christ. I always, but most of all now in my bonds, most sweet bonds for Christ my Lord, rejoice to hear of your faith and love, and to hear that our King, our well-beloved, our Bridegi-oom, without tiring, stayeth still to woo you, as his wife ; and that persecu- tions, and mockings of sinners, have not chased away the wooer from the house. I persuade you in the Lord, the men of God, now scat- tered and driven from you, put you upon the right scent and pursuit of Christ ; and my salvation on it, if ten heavens were mine, if this way, this way that I now suffer for, this way that the world nicknameth and reproacheth, and no other way, be not the King's gate to heaven ; and I shall never see God's face, (and, alas, I were a beguiled wretch if it were so!) if this be not the only saving way to heaven. O that you would take a prisoner of Christ's word for it, nay, I know you have the greatest King's word for it, that it shall not be your ^visdom to seek out another Christ, another way of worshipping him, than is now savingly revealed to you. Therefore, though I never saw your faces, let me be pardoned to write to you, ye honourable persons, ye faithful pastors yet amongst the flocks, and ye sincere professors of Christ's truth, or any weak, tired strayers, who cast but half an eye after the Bridegroom, if possibly I could, by any weak experience, confirm and strengthen you in this good way, every where spoken against. I can with the greatest assurance, to the honour of our highest, and greatest, and dearest Lord, let it be spoken, assert though I be but a child in Christ, and scarce able to walk but by a hold, and the meanest, and less than the least of saints, that we do not come nigh by twenty degrees, to the due love and estimation of that fairest amongst the sons of men ; for if it were possible that heaven, yea, ten heavens, were laid in the balance with Christ, I would think the smell of his breath above them all : sure I am, he is the far best half of heaven ; yea, he is all heaven, and more than all heaven : and my testimony of him is, that ten lives of black sorrow, ten deaths, ten hells of pain, ten furnaces of brimstone, and all exquisite torments, were all too little for Christ, if our suffering could be a hire to buy him ; and therefore faint not in your sufferings and hazards for him. I proclaim and cry, hell, sorrow, and shame upon all lusts, upon all bv-lovers, that would take Christ's room over his head, in this little PART r. LETTER III. 25 inch of love, of these narrow souls of our's, that is due to sweetest Jesus. O highest, O fairest, O dearest Lord Jesus, take thine own from all bastard lovers. that we could wadset and sell all our part of time's glory, and time's good things, for a lease and tack of Christ for all eternity ! O how are we misled and mired with the love of things that are on this side of time, and on this side of death's water ! Where can we find a match to Christ, or an equal, or a better than he, among created things? Oh, this world is out of all conceit, and all love with our Beloved ! O that 1 could sell my laughter, joy, ease, and all for him ! and be content with a straw bed, and bread by weight, and water by measure, in the camp of our weeping Christ ! I know his sackcloth and ashes are better than the fool's laughter, which is hke the crackling of thorns under a pot. But alas ! we do not harden our faces against the cold north storms which blow upon Christ's fair face, we well love summer religion, and to be that which sin has made us, even as thin-skinned as if we were made of white paper, and would fain be carried to heaven in a close covered chariot, wishing from our hearts that Christ would give us surety, and his hand write, and his seal for nothing but a fair summer, until we be landed in at heaven's gates ; how many of us have been here deceived, and fainted in the day of trial ! amongst you there are some of this stamp. I shall be sorry if my acquaintance A. T. hath left you ; I will not be- lieve he dare stay from Christ's side. I desire that ye show him this from me ; for I loved him once in Christ, neither can I change my mind suddenly of him. But the truth is, that many of you, and too many also of your neighbour church of Scotland, have been like a tenant that sitteth meal-free, and knoweth not his holding while his rights be questioned ; and now I am persuaded, it will be asked at every one of us, on what terms we brook Christ ; for we have sittea long meal-free ; we found Christ without a wet foot ; and he, and his gospel, came upon small charges to our doors ; but now we must wet our feet to seek him : our evil manners, and the bad fashions of a people at ease, from our youth, and like Moab, not emptied from ves- sel to vessel, Jer. xlviii. 11, hath made us like standing waters, to gather a foul scum, and when we are jumbled our dregs come up, and are seen : many take but half a grip of Christ, and the wind bloweth them and Christ asunder ; indeed when the mast is broken and blown in the sea, it is an art then to swim upon Christ to dry land : it is even possible that the children of God in a hard trial, lay themseh es down, as hidden in the leevvard side of a bush while Christ their Master being taken, as Peter did ; and lurk there, while the storm be over- past ; all of us know the way to a whole skin ; and the singlest heart that is, hath a by-purse that will contain the denial of Christ, and a fearful backsliding. how rare a thing it is to be loyal and honest to Christ, when he hath a controversy with the shields of the earth. I wish all of you would consider, that this trial is from Christ, it is come upon you unbought ; indeed when we buy a temptation with our own money, no marvel that we be not easily free of it, and that God be not at our elbow to take it oft' our hand ;. this is Christ's ordi- nary house-fare that he makes use of, to try all' the vessels of his 4 26 LETTER III. PART I. house withal, and Christ now is about to bring his treasure out before sun and moon, and to tell his money, and in the telling to try what weight of gold, and what weight of watered copper is in his house. Do not now jouk, or bow, or yield to your adversa- ries in a hair-breadth: Christ and his truth will not divide; and his truth hath not latitude and breadth, that ye may take some of it, and leave other some of it ; nay, the gospel is like a small hair, that hath no breadth, and will not cleave in two : it is not possible to twist and compound a matter betwixt Christ and An- tichrist ; and therefore, ye must either be for Christ ; or ye must be against him. It was but man's wit, and the wit of Prelates and their godfather the Pope, (that man without law) to put Christ and his pre- rogatives royal, and his truth, or the smallest nail-breadth of his latter- will, in the new kalendar of indifferences ; and to make a blank of uninked paper, in Christ's testament that men fill up ; and to shuffle the truth, and matters they call indifferent, thorow other ; and spin both together, that Antichrist's wares may sell the better. This is but the device and forged dream of men, whose consciences are made of stoutness, and have a throat, that a graven image, greater than the bounds of the kirk-door, would get free passage into : I am sure, when Christ shall bring all out in our blacks and whites, at that day, when he shall cry down time, and the world, and when the glory of it shall lye in white ashes, like a May-flower cut down and having lost the blossom, there will be few, yea none, that dare make any point, that toucheth the worship and honour of our King and Law-giver, to be indifferent. O that this misled and blindfolded world would see, that Christ doth not rise and fall, stand or lye, by men's apprehen- sions ! What is Christ the lighter, that men do with him by open proclamation, as men do with clipped and light money? They are now crying down Christ some grain weights, and some pounds or shillings, and they will have him lie for a penny or a pound, for one, or for an hundred, according as the wind bloweth £v&m the east or from the west ; but the Lord hath weighed him, and balanced him already ; ' This is my beloved Son, in whom I am well pleased, hear ye him ;' his worth and his weight standeth still. It is our part to cry. Up, up with Christ, and down, down with all created glory before him. O that I could heighten him, and heighten his name, and heighten liis throne ! I know, and am persuaded, that Christ shall again be high and great, in this poor, withered, and sun-burnt kirk of Scotland ; and that the sparks of our fire shall flee over sea, and round about, to warm you and other sister-churches ; and that this taberna- cle of David's house that is fallen, even the son of David, his waste places shall be built again ; and I know the prison, crosses, persecu- tions, and trials of the two slain witnesses, that are now dead and buried. Rev. xi. and of the faithful professors, have a back-door and back-entry of escape ; and that death and hell, and the world, and tortures, shall all cleave and split in twain, and give us free passage and liberty to ^o through them toll-free, and we shall bring all God's good metal out of the furnace again, and leave behind us but our dross, and our scum ; we may then belbre-hand proclaim Christ to be victorious. He is crowned King in mount Zion ; God did put the PART I. LETTER III. 57 crown upon his bead, Psal. ii. and who dare take it off again 1 Out of question, he hath sore and grievous quarrels with his church ; and therefore he is called, Isa. xxxi. 9. ' He whose fire is in Zion, and whose furnace is in Jerusalem.' But when he hath performed his work on mount Zion, all Zion's haters shall be as the hungry and thirsty man, that dreams he is eating and drinking, and behold when he awakeneth, he is faint, and his soul empty : and this advantage we have also, that he will not bring before sun and moon all the infirmities of his wife ; it is the modesty of marriage-anger, or husband-wrath, that our sweet Lord Jesus will not come with chiding to the streets, to let all the world hear what is betwixt him and us ; his sweet glooms stay under roof, and that because he is God. Two special things ye are to mind: 1. Try and make sure your profession; that ye carry not empty lamps ; alas, security, security is the bane and the wreck of the most part of the world ! Oh, how many professors go with a golden lustre, and gold-like before men, who are but witnesses to our white skin, and yet are but bastard and base metal ! Consider how fair before the wind some do ply with up-sails and white, even to the nick of illuminations ? Heb. vi. 5. * And tasting of the heavenly gift ; and a share and part of the Holy Ghost ; and the tasting of the good word of God, and the powers of the world to come !' and yet this is but a false nick of renovation, and in a short time such are quickly broken upon the rocks, and never fetch the harbour, but are stranded in the bottom of hell. O make your havefi sure, and try how ye come by conversion ; that it be not stolen goods, in a white and well-lustred profession ! A white skin over old wounds maketh an undercoating conscience ; false under water not seen is dangerous, and that is a leak and rift in the bottom of an enlightened conscience, often falling, and sinning against light. Wo, wo is me that the holy profession of Christ is made a stage garment by many to bring home a vain fame ; and Christ is made to serve men's ends ; that is, as it were, to stop an oven with a king's robes. Know 2. Except men martyr and slay the body of sin in sanctified self-denial, they shall never be Christ's martyrs and faithful witnesses. Oh, if I could be master of that house idol, myself, my own, mine, my own will, wit, credit and ease ! How blessed were I ! but we have need to be re- deemed from ourselves, rather than from the devil and the world ! Learn to put out yourselves, and to put in Christ for yourselves ; I should make a sweet bartering and niffering, and to give old for new, if I could shufHe out self and substitute Christ my Lord in place of myself; to say. Not I, but Christ ; not my will, but Christ's ; not my ease, not my lust, not my fickless credit, but Christ, Christ. But alas ! in leaving ourselves, in setting Christ before our idol, self, we have yet a glaiked back-look to our old idol. wretched idol, my- self! When shall I see thee wholly decourted, and Christ wholly put in thy room t O if Christ, Christ had the full place and room of my- self! that all my aims, purposes, thoughts, and desires, would coast and land upon Christ, and not upon myself! and howbeit we cannot attain to this denial of me and mine : that we can say, I am not my- self, myself is not myself, mine own is no longer mine own ; yet 28 LETTER IV. PART I. our aiming at this in all we do shall be accepted : for, alas, I think I shall die, but minting and aiming to be a Christian ; it is not our com- fort, that Christ the Mediator of the new covenant is come betwixt God and us in the business, so that green and young heirs, the Hke of sinners, have now a tutor, that is God. — And now, God be thanked, our salvation is bottomed on Christ ; sure I am, the bottom shall never fall out of heaven and happiness to us ; I would give over the bargain a thousand times, were it not that Christ his free grace hath taken our salvation in hand. Pray, pray, and contend with the Lord, for your sister-church ; for it would appear, the Lord is about to ask for his scattered sheep, in the dark and cloudy day. that it would please our Lord to set up again David's old wasted and fallen taberna- cle in Scotland, that we might see the glory of the second temple in this land. O that my little heaven were wadset, to redeem the honour of my Lord Jesus among Jews and Gentiles. Let never dew lye upon my branches, and let my poor flower wither at the root, so being Christ were enthroned, and his glory advanced in all the world, and especially in these three kingdoms ; but I know he hath no need of me ; what can I add to him 1 but oh that he would cause his high and pure glory run through such a foul channel as I am ! and howbeit he hath caused the blossom fall off my one poor joy, that was on this side of heaven, even my liberty to preach Christ to his people, yet I am dead to that now, so being he would hew and carve glory for evermore, to my royal king, out of my silence and sufferings. Oh that I had my fill of his love ; but I know ill manners make an un- couth and strange Bridegroom. 1 entreat you earnestly for the aid of your prayers, for I forget not you ; and I salute with my soul in Christ, tlie faithful pastors, and honourable and worthy professors in that land. Now the God of peace, that brought again our Lord Je- sus from the dead, the great Shepherd of the sheep, by the blood of the everlasting covenant, make you perfect in every good work, to do his will ; working in you that which is well-pleasing in his sight. Grace, grace be with you. Your's in his sweetest Lord Jesus, S. R» Aberdeen, Feb. 4, 163S. LETTER IV. To the truly noble and elect Lady, my Lady Viscountess of Kenmure. yOBLE AND ELECT LADY, That honom- that I have prayed for these sixteen years, with sub- mission to my Lord's will, my kind Lord hath now bestowed upon me ; even to sutler for my royal and princely King Jesus, and for his kingly crown, and the fi eedom of his kingdom that his Father hath given him. The forbidden lords have sentenced me with deprivation, and confinement within the town of Aberdeen. I am charged in the king's name, to enter against the twentieth day of August next, and thereto remain during the king's pleasure, as they have given it out. Howbeit, Christ's green cross, newly laid upon me, be somewhat heavy, whil© I crdl to mind the many lair days, sweet and comfortable to my soul. PART I. LETTER IV. 29 and to the souls of many others, and how young ones in Christ are plucked from the breast, and the inheritance of God laid waste; yet that sweet smelled and perfumed cross of Christ is accompanied with sweet refreshment, with the kisses of a King, with the joy of the Holy Ghost, with faith that the Lord hears the sighing of a prisoner, with undoubted hope as sure as my Lord liveth, after this night to see day hght, and Christ's sky to clear up again upon me, and his poor kirk, and that in a strange land, amongst strange faces ; he will give favour in the eyes of men to his poor oppressed servant, who can not but love that lovely one, that princely one, Jesus the comforter of his soul. All Avould be well, if I were free of old challenges for guiltiness, and for neglect in my calling, and for speaking too little for my Well-beloved's crown, honour, and kingdom. Oh for a day in the assembly of the saints to advocate for King Jesus ! If my Lord go on now to quar- rels also. I die, I cannot endure it : but I look for peace from him : because he knoweth I can bear men's feud, but I cannot bear his feud. This is my only exercise, that I fear I have done little good in my ministry ; but 1 dare not but say, I loved the children of the wedding chamber, and prayed for, and desired the thriving of the marriage, and coming of his kingdom. I apprehend no less than a judgment upon Galloway ; and that the Lord shall visit this whole nation, for the quarrel of the covenant. But what can be laid upon me, or any the like of me, is too light for Christ; Christ can bear more, and would bear death and burning quick, in his weak servants, even for this ho- nourable cause that I now suffer for. Yet for all my complaints, and he knoweth that I dare not now dissemble, he was never sweeter and kinder than he is now ; one kiss now is sweeter than ten long since ; sweet, sweet is his cross ; hght, light and easy is his yoke. O what a sweet step were it up to my Father's house, through ten deaths, for the truth and cause of that unknown, and so not half well loved plant of renown, the man called the Branch, the chief among ten thousand, the fairest among the sons of men ! O what unseen joys, how many hidden heart-burnings of love are in the remnants of the sufierings of Christ ! My dear worthy Lady, I give it to your Ladyship under my hand, (my heart writing as well as my hand,) welcome, welcome, sweet, sweet, and glorious cross of Christ : welcome sweet Jesus, with thy light cross, thou hast now gained and gotten all my love from me, keep what thou hast gotten. Only, wo, wo is me, for my bereft flock, for the lambs of Jesus, that I fear I shall be fed with dry breasts ; but I spare now. Madam, I dare not promise to see your ladyship, because of the little time I have allotted me, and I propose to obey the king, who hath pov^er over my body ; and rebellion to kings is unbe- seeming I hrist's ministers. Be pleased to acquaint my Lady Mary with ifny case ; I expect your Ladyship and that good Lady will be mindfVil to God of the Lord's prisoner, not for my cause, but for the gospel's sake : Madam, bind me more, if more can be, to your La- dyship ; and write thanks to your brother, my Lord of Lome, for what he hath done for me a poor unknown stranger to his Lordship, I shall pray for him and his house while I live ; it is his honour to open his mouth in the streets for his wronged and oppressed blaster Chri-it 30 LETTER V. PART I. Jesus. Now, Madam, commending your Ladyship, and the sweet child to the tender mercies of mine own Lord Jesus, and his good ■will v/ho dwelt in the bush ; I rest, Your's in his own sweetest Lord Jesus, S. R. Edmburgh, July 28, 1636. LETTER V. To the same. MY VEUY HONOURABLE AND DEAR LADY, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I cannot forget your Lady- ship, and that sweet child. I desire to hear what the Lord is doing to you and him ; to write to me were charity ; 1 cannot but write to my friends, that Christ hath trysted me in Aberdeen ; and my adver- saries have sent me here to be feasted with love-banquets, with my royal, high, high, and princely King Jesus. Bladam, why should I smoother Christ's honesty 1 I dare not conceal his goodness to my soul ; he looked fram'd and uncouth-like upon me, when I came first here ; but I believe himself better than his looks ; I shall not again quarrel Christ for a gloom, now he hath taken the mask off his face, and saith. Kiss thy till ; and what can I have more, while I get great heaven in my little arms? O how sweet are the sufferings of Christ for Christ f God forgive them that raise an ill report upon the sweet cross of Christ : it is but our weak and dim eyes that look but to the black side, that makes us mistake : those who can take that crabbed tree handsomely upon their back, and fasten it on cannily, shall find it such a burden as wings unto a bird, or sails to a ship. Madam, rue not of your having chosen the better part ; upon my sal- vation, this is Christ's truth I now suffer for ; if I found but cold com- fort in my sufferings, I would not beguile others ; I would have told vou plainly ; but the truth is, Christ's crown, his sceptre, and the freedom of his kingdom, is that which is now called in question ; be- cause we will not allow that C hrist pays tribute, and be a vassal to the shields of the earth, therefore the sons of our mother are angry at us. But it becometh not Christ to hold any man's stirrup : it were a sweet and honourable death, to die for the honour of that royal and princely King Jesus ; this love is a mystery to the world ; I would not have believed that there was so much in Christ as there is ; Come and see, maketh Christ to be known in his excellency and glory. I wish all this nation knew how sweet his breath is ; it is little to see Christ in a book, as men do the world in a card ; they talk of Christ by the book, and the tongue, and no more, but to come nigh Christ, and hausse him, and embrace him, is another thing. Madam, 1 write to your honour, for your encouragement in that honourable profession Christ hath honoured you with ; ye have gotten the sunny side of the brae, and the best of Christ's good things ; he hath not given you the bas- tard's portion ; and howbeit ye get strokes and sour looks from your liOrd, yet believe his love more than your own feeling, for this world can take nothing from you that is truly yours, and death can do you no wrong ; your rock doth not ebb and flow, but your sea ; that which Christ hath said he will bide bv it ; he will be vour tutor ; you PART I. LETTER VI. 31 shall not get your charters of heaven to play you with ; it is good that ye have lost your credit with Christ, and that lord Freewill shall not be your tutor : Christ will lippen the taking of you to heaven, neither to yourself, nor any deputy, but only to himself; blessed be your tutor ; when your Head shall appear, your Bridegroom and Lord, your day shall then dawn, and it shall never have an afternoon, nor an evenino" shadow. Let your child be Christ's, let him stay beside you as the Lord's pledge, that you shall willingly render again, if God will. Ma- dam, I find folks here kind to me, but in the night, and under their breath ; my Master's cause may not come to the crown of the cause- way : others are kind according to their fashion ; many think me a strange man, and my cause not good ; but I care not much for man's thoughts or approbation ; I think no shame of the cross. The preach- ers of this town pretend great love, but the Prelates have added to the rest this gentle cruelty, (for so they think of it) to discharge me of the pulpits of this town. The people murmur, and cry out against it ; and to speak truly (howbeit Christ is most indulgent to me otherwise, yet) my silence on the Lord's day, keeps me from being exalted above measure, and from startling in the heat of my Lord's love. Some people affect me : for the which cause, I hear the preachers here pur- pose to have my confinement changed to another place ; so cold is nothern love : but Christ and I will bear it. I have wrestled long with this sad silence ; I said, what aileth Christ at my service t and my soul hath been at a pleading with Christ, and at yea and nay ; but I will yield to him, providing my suffering may preach more than my tongue did ; for I gave not Christ an inch, but for twice as good again; in a word, I am a fool, and he is God. I will hold my peace hereaf- ter. Let me hear from your Ladyship, and your dear child ; pray for a prisoner of Christ, who is mindful of your Ladyship. Remem- ber my obliged obedience to my good Lady Marr. Grace, grace be with you. I write, and pray blessings to your sweet child. Your's in all dutiful obedience in his only Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Nov, 22, 1636. LETTER VL To the same. MADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I received your Ladyship's letter, it refreshed me in my heaviness : the blessing and prayers of a prisoner of Christ come upon you. Since my coming thither, Gallo- way sent me not a line, except what my brother Earlstoun and his son did write ; I cannot get my papers transported : but. Madam, I want not kindness of one who hath the gate of it, Christ (if he had never done more for me since I was born) hath engaged my heart, and gained my blessing, in this house of my pilgrimage. It pleaseth my Well-beloved to dine with a poor prisoner, and the King's spikenard casteth a fragrant smell ; nothing grieveth me but that I eat my feasts alone, and that I cannot edify his saints : O that this nation knew what is betwixt him and me ; none would scar at the cross of Christ ! 32 LETTER VT. PART I. My silence eats me up ; but he hath told me he thanketh me no less, than if I were preaching daily : he sees how gladly I would be at it ; and therefore my wages are going to the fore up in heaven, as if I were still preaching Christ. Captains pay duly bedfast soldiers, how- beit they do not march nor carry armour ; ' Though Israel be not gathered, yet shall I be glorious in the eyes of my Lord, and my Lord shall be my strength,' Isai. xlix. 5, my garland. The banished minister (the term of Aberdeen) ashameth me not ; I have seen the white side of Christ's cross ; how lovely hath he been to his oppressed servant ! Psal. cxlvi. 7, 8, 9. ' The Lord executeth judgment for the op- pressed ; he giveth food to the hungry ; the Lord looseth the prisoner ; the Lord raiseth them that are bowed down : the Lord preserveth the stranger.' If it were come to exchanging of crosses I would not ex- change my cross with any : I am well pleased with Christ, and he with me ; I hope none shall hear us. It is true, for all this I get my meat with many strokes, and am seven times a-day up and down, and am often anxious and cast down for the case of my oppressed brother; yet I hope the Lord will be surety for his servant. But now, upon some weak, very weak, experience, I am come to love a rumbling and raging devil best : seeing we must have a devil to hold the saints wak- ing, I wish a cumbersome devil, rather than a secure and sleeping one. At my first coming hither, I took the dorts at Christ, and took up a stomach against him ; I said he had cast me over the dyke of the vineyard like a dry tree ; but it was his mercy, I see, that the fire did not burn the dry tree : and now, as if my Lord Jesus had done that fault and not I (who belied my Lord) he hath made the first mends, and he spake not one word against me ; but he hath come again and quickened my soul with his presence ; nay, now I think the very an- nuity and casualties of the cross of Christ Jesus, my Lord, and these comforts that accompany it, better than the world's set rent. how many rich off-fallings are in my King's house ! I am persuaded, and dare pawn my salvation on it, that it is Christ's truth I now suffer for ; I know his comforts are no dreams ; he would not put his seal on blank paper, nor deceive his afflicted ones that trust in him. Your Ladyship wrote to me that ye are an ill scholar ; Madam, ye must go in at heaven's gates, and your book in your hand, still learning ; you have had your large share of troubles, and a double portion ; but it saith, your Father counteth you not a bastard ; full begotten children are nurtured. Heb. xii. I long to hear of the child, I write the blessings of Christ's prisoner and the mercies of God to him ; let him be Christ's and yours betwixt you, but let Christ be whole play-ma- ker ; let him be the lender, and ye the borrower, not an owner. Ma- dam, it is not long since I did write to your Ladyship, that Christ is keeping mercy for you ; and I bide by it still, and now I write it under my hand ; love him dearly ; win in to see him; there is in him that which you never saw ; he is ay nigh, he is a tree of life, green and jblossoming, both summer and winter ; there is a nick in Christianity, 'to the which whosoever cometh, they see and feel more than others can do. I invite you of new to come to him ; Come and see, will speak better things of him, than I can do : come nearer will say PART I. LETTER VII. 33 much : God thought never this world a portion worthy of you : he would not even you to a gift of dirt and clay ; nay, he will not give you Esau's portion : but reserves the inheritance of Jacob for you ; are you not well married now t have you not a good husband now I My heart cannot express what sad nights I have for the virgin daugh- ter of my people ; wo is me, for our time is coming. Ezek. vii. 10. ' Behold the day, behold it is come, the morning hath gone forth, the rod hath blossomed, pride hath budded, violence is risen up in a rod of wickedness, the sun is gone down upon our prophets.' A dry wind upon Scotland, but neither to fan nor cleanse ; but out of all question when the Lord hath cut down his forest, the after growth of Lebanon shall flourish, ' They shall plant vines in our mountain, and a cloud shall yet fill the temple.' Now the blessing of our dearest Lord Jesus, and the blessing of him that is separate from his brethren, come upon you. Your's, at Aberdeen, the prisoner of Christ, S. R. LETTER YII. To the same. IMADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be to your Ladyship. I long to hear from you. I am here waiting if a good wind, long-looked for, shall at length blow in Christ's sails in this land : but I wonder if Jesus be not content to suffer more yet in his members and cause, and beauty of his house, rather than he should not be avenged upon this land. I hear many worthy men (who see more in the Lord's dealing, than I can take up with my dim sight) are of a contrary mind, and do believe the Lord is coming home again to his house in Scotland : I hope he is on his journey that way ; yet I look not but that he shall feed this land with their own blood, before he establish his throne amongst us. I know your honour is not looking after things hereaway ; ye have no great cause to think, that your stock and principal is under the roof of these visible heavens ; and I hope ye would think yourself a be- guiled and cozened soul, if it were so. I would be sorry to council your Ladyship to make a covenant with time, and this life ; but rather desire you to hold in fair generals, and afar off" from this ill-founded liaven, that is on this side of the water. It speaketh somewhat, when our Lord bloweth the bloom off our daft hopes in this life, and lop- peth the branches off our worldly joys well nigh the root, on purpose that they should not thrive. Lord spill my fool's heaven in this life, that I may be saved for ever. A forfeiture of the saint's part of the yolk and marrow of short laughing happiness worldly, is not such a real evil as our blinded eyes do conceive. I am thinking long now for some deliverance more than before ; but I know I am in an error : it is possible I am not come to that measure of trial, that the Lord is seeking in his work : if my friends in Galloway would effectually do for my deliverance, I would exceedingly rejoice ; but I know not but the Lord hath a way, whereof he will be the only reaper of praises. 5 34 LETTER Vlfl. PART I. Let me know, with the bearer, how the child is. The Lord be his tutor, and your only comforter. There is nothing here where I am, but profanity and atheism. Grace, grace be with your Ladyship. Your Ladyship's in all obliged obedience in Christ, S. R. Aberdeen, Feb. 13, 1637. LETTER VIIL To the same. Madam, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I would not omit the occasion to write to your Ladyship with the bearer. I am glad the child is well ; God's favour, even in the eyes of men, be seen upon him. I hope your Ladyship is thinking upon these sad and woful days wherein we now live ; when our Lord, in his righteous judgment, is sending the kirk the gate she is going, to Rome's brothel house, to seek a lover of her own, seeing she hath given up with Christ her husband. O what sweet comfort, what rich salvation is laid up for those, who had rather wash and roll their garments in their own blood, than break out from Christ by apostasy ! Keep yourself in the love of Christ, and stand far aback from the pollutions of the world : side not witli these times, and hold from coming nigh the signs of a conspiracy with those that are now come out against Christ ; that ye may be one kept for Christ only. I know your Ladyship thinketh upon this, and how you may be humbled for yourself and this backsliding land ; for I avouch, that wrath from the Lord is gone out against Scotland. I think ay the longer the better of my royal and worthy Master : he is become a new well-beloved to me now, in renewed consolations, by the presence of the Spirit of grace and glory. Christ's garments smell of the powder of the merchant, when he cometh out of his ivory chambers : O his perfumed face, his fair face, his lovely and kindly kisses, have made me a poor prisoner, see, there is more to be had of Christ in this life, than 1 believed. We think all is but a httle earnest, a four-hours, a small tasting, we have, or is to be had in this life, (which is true, compared with the inheritance;) but yet I know it is more, it is the kingdom of God within us. Wo, wo, is me, that I have not ten loves for that one Lord Jesus ; and "that love faileth, and drieth up in loving him ; and that I find no way to spend my love de- sires and the yolk of my heart, upon that fairest and dearest one ; I am far behind with my narrow heart. O how ebb a soul have I to take in Christ's love ! for let worlds be multiplied according to angels, understanding, in miUions, while they weary themselves ; these worlds would not contain the thousandth part of his love. O if I could yoke in amongst the thick of angels, and seraphims, and now glorified saints, and could raise a new love-song of Christ, before all the world ! I am pained with wondering at nevz-^opened treasures in Christ; if every finger, member, bone, and joint, were a torch burning in the hottest fire in hell, I would they could all send out love praises, high songs of praise for evermore, to that plant of renown, to that royal and high Prince, Jesus my Lord : but alas ! his love swelleth in nic, PART I. LETTER IX. 35 and findeth no vent ; alas ! what can a dumb prisoner do or say for him ! O for an engine to write a book of Christ and his love ; nay, I am left of him bound, and chained with his love, I cannot find a loosed soul to lift up his praises and give them out to others. But oh my daylight hath thick clouds ; I cannot shine in his praises. I am often like a ship plying about to seek the wind ; I sail at greai leisure, and cannot be blown upon that loveliest Lord : oh if I could turn my sails to Christ's right airth ; and that I had my heart's wishes of his love ! But I but marr his praises ; nay, I know no comparison of what Christ is, and what his worth is ; all the angels, and all the glorified, praise him not so much as in halves ; who can advance him or utter all his praises. I want nothing ; unknown faces favour me ; enemies must speak good of the truth ; my Master's cause purchaseth com- mendations. The hopes of m^ enlargement, from appearances, are cold : My faith hath no bed to sleep upon, but omnipotency. The good will of the Lord, and his sweetest presence, be with you and that child. Grace and peace be yours. Your Ladyship's in all duty in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER IX. To the same. Madam, Grace, mercy and peace be to your Ladyship. I would not omit to write a line with the Christian bearer, one in your Ladyship's own case, driven near to Christ, in and by her affliction. I wish that my friends in Galloway forget me not ; however it be, Christ is so good that I will have no other tutor, suppose I could have wail and choice of ten thousand beside. I think now five hundred heavy hearts for him too little. I wish Christ, now weeping, suffering, and contemned of men, were more dear and desirable to many souls than he is ; I am sure if the saints wanted Christ's cross, so profitable and so sweet, they might, for the gain and glory of it, wish it were lawful, either to buy or borrow his cross ; but it is a mercy that the saints have it laid to their hand for nothing ; for I know no sweeter way to heaven, than through free grace, and hard trials together ; and one on these cannot well want another. O that time would post faster, and hasten our looked-for communion with that fairest, fairest among the sons of men ! that the day would favour us and come, and put Christ and us in other's arm ! I am sure a few years will do our turn, and the soldier's hour-glass will soon run out. Madam, look to your lamp, and look for your Lord's coming, and let your heart dwell aloof from that child. Christ's jealousy will not admit two equal loves in your Ladyship's heart ; he must have one, and that the greatest ; a little one to a creature may, and must suffice a soul married to him. ' Your maker is your Husband.' Isa. liv. I would wish you well, and my obligations these many years by-gone speak no less to me ; but more I can neither wish nor pray, nor desire for to your Ladyship, than Christ singled and wailed out from all created good things ; or 36 LETTER X, XI. PART I. Christ, howbeit wet in his own blood, and wearing a crown of thorns. I am sure the saints, at their best, are but strangers to the weight and worth of the incomparable sweetness of Christ. He is so new, so fresh in excellency, every day of new, to those that search more and^ more in him, as if heaven could furnish us as many new Christs (if I may speak so) as there are days betwixt him and us, and yet he is one and the same. Oh, we love an unknown lover, when we love Christ ! Let me hear how the child is every way ; the prayers of a prisoner of Christ be upon him, Grace for evermore, even while glory perfect it, be with your Ladyship. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER X. To the same. Madam, Notwithstanding the great haste of the bearer, I would bless your Ladyship on paper, desiring, that since Christ hath ever envied that the world should have your love by him, that ye give yourself out for Christ, and that ye may be for no other. I know none worthy of you but Christ. Madam, I am either suffering for Christ, and this is either the sure and good way, or I have done with heaven, and will never see God's face (which, I bless him, cannot be.) I write my blessing to that sweet child that ye have borrowed from God ; he is no heritage to you, but a loan ; love him as folks do borrowed things. My heart is heavy for you. I'hey say the kirk of Christ hath neither son nor heir ; and therefore her enemies shall possess her ; but I know she is not that ill friended, her Husband is her heir, and she his heri- tage. If my Lord would be pleased I would desire some were dealt with, for my return to Anworth; but it' that never be, I thank God, Anworth is not heaven, preaching is not Christ, I hope to wait on. Let me hear how the child is, and your Ladyship's mind and hopes of him ; for it would ease my heart to know that he is well. I am in good terms with Christ ; but oh my guiUiness ! yet he bringeth not pleas betwixt him and me to the streets, and before the sun. Grace, grace lor ever more be with your Ladyship. Your Ladyship's, at all obedience m Christ, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER XL To the same. JVTADAM, Grace, mercy and peace to you : I am refreshed with your letters. The right hand of him, to whom belong the issues from death, hath been gracious to that sweet child ; I cannot, I will not forget him and your Ladyship in my prayers. Madam, for your own case, I love careful, and withal doing complaints of want of practice ; because I observe many, who think it holiness enough to complain and set PART I. LETTER Xl. 37 themselves at nothing, as if to say I am sick, would cure them ; they think complaints a good charm for guiltiness. I hope you are wrest- ling and strugling on, in this dead age, wherein folks have lost tongue and legs, and arms for Christ. I urge upon you, Madam, a nearer communion with Christ, and a growing communion. There are cur- tains to be drawn by, in Christ, that we never saw, and new foldings of love in him. I despair that ever I shall win to the far end of that love, there are so many plies in it. Therefore dig deep : and sweat, and labour, and take pains for him ; and set by so much time in the day for him as you can ; he will be won with labour, I, his exiled prisoner, sought him, and he hath rued upon me, and hath made a moan for me, as he doth for his own, Jer. xxxi. 20. Isa. xlv. 11. and I know not what to do with Christ, his love sur- rouudeth and surchargeth me. I am burdened with it, but how sweet and lovely is that burden ! I cannot keep it within me : I am so in love with his love, that if his love were not in heaven, I would be unwilling to go there. O what weighing and what telling is in Christ's love ! I fear nothing now so much as the laugh- ing of Christ's cross, and the love showers that accompany it. I wonder what he meaneth to put such a slave at the boardhead, at his own elbow. O that I should lay my black mouth to such a fair, fair, fair face as Christ ! but dare not refuse to be loved ; the cause is not in me why he hath looked upon me, and loved me ; for he got neither bud nor hire of me, it cost me nothing, it is good cheap love. O the many pound weights of his love, under which I am sweetly pressed ! Now, Madam, I persuade you, the greatest part but play with Chris- tianity, they put it by hand easily. I thought it had been an easy thing to be a Christian, and that to seek God had been at the next door ; but oh the windings, the turnings, the ups and the downs that he hath led me through ; and I see yet much way to the ford ; he speaketh with my reins in the night season ; and in the morning, when I awake, I find his love arrows, that he shot at me, sticking in my heart : who will help me to praise 1 who will come lift with me, and set on high his great love 1 and yet I find that a fire-flaught of challenges will come out at midsummer, and question me ; but it is only to keep a sinner in order. As for friends, I shall not think the world to be the world, if that well go not dry. I trust in God, to use the world as a canny or cunning master doth a knave-servant (at least God give me grace to do so) he giveth him no handling or credit, only he entrusteth him with common errands, wherein he cannot play the knave. I pray God, I may not give this world credit of my joys and comforts, and confidence : that were to put Christ out of his office : nay, I counsel you. Madam, from a little experi- ence, let Christ keep the great seal, and entrust him so, as to hing your vessels great and small, and pin your burdens upon the nail fast- ened in David's house, Isa. xxii. 23. Let me not be well, if ever they get the tutoring of my comforts : away, away with irresponsal tutors, that would play me a slip, and then Christ would laugh at me, and say, Well-wared, try again ere ye trust. Now wo is me, for my whorish mother, the chinch of Scotland ; oh who will bewail her ! 38 LETTER XII. PART I. Now the presence of the great angel of the covenant be with you and that sweet child. Your's, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 7, 1637. LETTER XIL To the same. MABAM, Upon the offered opportunity of this worthy bearer, 1 could not omit to answer the heads of your letter. 1st, I think not much to set down on paper some good things anent Christ, that sealed and holy thing ; and to feed my soul with raw wishes to be one with Christ ; for a wish is but broken and half love ; but verily to obey this. Come and see, is a harder matter 1 But oh, I have rather smoke than fire, and guessings rather than real assurances of him ; I have little or no- thing to say, but that I am as one who hath found favour in his eyes ; but there is some pinning and mismannered hunger, that maketh me miscal and nickname Christ as a changed Lord : but alas ! it is ill flitten. I cannot believe without a pledge, I cannot take God's word without a caution, as if Christ had lost and sold his credit, and were not in my books responsal and law-bidding : but this is my way ; for his way is, Eph. i. 13, 'After that ye believed, ye were sealed with the Holy Spirit of promise.' 2d, ye write that I am filled with knowledge, and stand not in need of these warnings ; but certainly my light is dim, when it cometh to handy grips ; and how many have full coffers, and yet empty bellies ! light, and the saving use of light, are far different. O what need then have I to have the ashes blown away from my dying-out fire ! I may be a bookman, and be an idiot and stark fool in Christ's way ? learning will not beguile Christ ; the bible beguiled the pharisees, and so may I be misled. Therefore, as night watches hold one another waking, by speaking to one another, so have we need to hold one another on foot : sleep stealeth away the light of watching, even the light that reproveth sleeping. I doubt not but more should fetch heaven, if they believed not heaven to be at the next door : the world's negative holiness, no adulterer, no murderer, no thief, no cozener, maketh men believe they are already glorified saints :^ but the 6th chapter to the Hebrews may affright us all, when we hear that nu^n may take of the gifts and common graces of the Holy Spirit, and a taste of the powers of the life to come, to hell with them : here is reprobate silver, which yet seemeth to have the King's image, and superscription upon it. 3d, I find you complaining of yourself, and it becometh a sinner so to do, I am not against that ; sense of death is a sib friend, and of kin and blood to life ; the more sense, the more life ; the more sense of sin, the less sin. I would love my pain, and soreness, and my wounds, howbeit these should bereave me of my night's sleep, better than my wounds without pain. how sweet a thing it is, to give Christ his handful of broken arms, and legs, and disjointed bones ! 4th, Be not afraid for little grace, Christ sovveth his living seed, and he will not loose his seed ; if he have the guiding PART I. LETTER XIlI. 39 of my stock and state, it shall not miscarry. Our spilt works, losses, deadness, coldness, wretchedness, are the ground which the good husbandman laboureth. 5th, Ye write that his compassions fail not, notwithstanding that your service to Christ miscanieth ; to the which I answer, God forbid that there were buying and selling, and blocking for as good a gain, betwixt Christ and us ; for then free grace might go play it, and a Saviour sing dumb, and Christ go and sleep ; but we go to heaven with light shoulders, and all the family ; and the vessels great and small that we have, are fastened upon the sure nail, Isa. xxii. 24. The only danger is, that we give grace more ado than God giveth it, that is, by turning his grace into wantonness. 6th, Ye write, few see your guiltiness, and you cannot be free with many, as with me : I answer, blessed be God, Christ and we are not heard before men's courts ; it is at home betwixt him and us, that pleas are taken away. Grace be with you. Your's, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XIII. To the same. >IADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be to your Ladyship : God be thanked ye are yet in possession of Christ and that sweet child. I pray God the former may be a sure heritage, and the latter a loan for your comfort, while ye do good to his poor afflicted, withered mount Sion : and who knoweth, but our Lord hath comforts laid up in store for her and you "? I am persuaded Christ hath bought you by the devil, and hell, and sin, that they have no claim to you ; and that is a rich and invaluable mercy. Long since ye were half challenging death's cold kindness, in being so slow and swier to come loose a tired prisoner : but ye stand in need of all the crosses, losses, changes, and sad hearts (hat befel you since that time. Christ knoweth the body of sin unsub- dued will take them all and more : we know that Paul had need of the devil's service, to buffet him ; and far more we. But my dear and honourable Lady, spend your sand-glass well ; I am sure you have law to raise a suspension against all that devils, men, friends, worlds, losses, hell or sin can decree against you. It is good your crosses will but convey you to heaven's gates : in can they not go, the gates shall be closed upon them, when ye shall be admitted to the throne. Time standeth not still, eternity is hard at our door, what is laid up for you? Therefore harden your face against the wind: and the Lamb your husband is making ready for you ; the Bride- groom would fain have that day, as gladly as your honour would wish to have it ; — he hath not forgotten you. I have heard a rumour of the P's purpose to banish me ; but let it come, if God so will ; the other side of the sea is my Father's ground as well as this side ; I owe bowing to God, but no servile bowing to crosses ; I have been but too soft in that : I am comforted that I am persuaded fully, that Christ is halver with me in this well borne and honest cross ; and if 40 LETTER XIV. PART I, he claim right to the best half of my troubles, as I know he doth to the whole, I shall remit over to Christ, what I shall do in this case : I know certainly my Lord Jesus will not mar nor spill my sufferings, he hath use for them in his house. what it worketh on me, to re- member that a stranger, who cometh not in by the door, shall build hay and stubble upon the golden foundation, I laid amongst that peo- ple at Anwoth ! But I know providence looketh not asquint, but looketh straight out, and through all men's darkness ; that I could wait upon the Lord ! I had but one eye, one joy, one delight, even to preach Christ ; and my mother's sons were angry at me, and have put out the poor man's one eye, and what have I behind 1 I am sure this sour world hath lost my heart deservedly, but oh that there were a days-man to lay his hands upon us both, and determine upon my part of it. Alas ! that innocent and lovely truth should be sold ! My tears are little worth, but yet this thing I weep ; I weep, alas ! that my fair and lovely Lord Jesus should be miskent in his own house ! It reckoneth little of five hundred the Uke of me ; yet the water goeth not over faith's breath, yet our King liveth. I write the prisoner's blessings ; the good-will, and long-lasting kindness, with the comforts of the very God of peace be to your Ladyship, and to your sweet child ; Grace, grace be with you. Your Honour's at all obedience, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7th, 1637. LETTER XIV. To the much honoured John Gordon of Cardoness, Elder. Much honoured and dearest in my Lord, grace, mercy, and peace be to you. My soul longeth exceedingly to hear how matters go betwixt you and Christ ; and whether or not there be any work of Christ in that parish, that will bide the trial of fire and water ; let me be weighed of my Lord in a just balance, if your souls lye not weighty upon me ; you go to bed and you rise with me ; thoughts of your soul, my dearest in our Lord, depart not from me in my sleep ; ye have a great part of my tears, sighs, supplications, and prayers : if I could buy your soul's salvation with any suffering whatsoever, and that ye and I might meet with joy up in the rainbow, when we shall stand before our Judge ! my Lord forbid, I have any hard thing to depone against you in that day ! O that he who quickeneth the dead, would give life to my sowing among you ! What joy is there, next to Christ, that standeth on this side of death, would comfort me more, than that the souls of that poor people were in safety, and beyond all hazard of losing ! Sir, shew the people this ; for when I write to you, I think I write to you all, old and young ; fulfil my joy, and seek the Lord ; sure I am, once I discovered my lovely, royal, princely Lord Jesus to you all ; wo, wo, wo shall be your part of it for evermore, if the gospel be not the savour of life unto life to you ; as many ser- mons as I preached, as many sentences as I uttered, as many points of dittay shall they be, when the Lord shall plead with the world, for PART 1. LETTER XIV. 41 the evil of their doings, Beheve me, I find heaven a city hard to he won ; ' The righteous will scarcely be saved ;' what violence of thronging will heaven take ! Alas ! I see many deceiving themselves ; for we will all to heaven ; now every foul dog with his foul feet will in at the nearest, to the new and clean Jerusalem ; all say they have faith, and the greatest part in the world know not, and will not con- sider, that a slip in the matter of their salvation, is the most pitiful slip that can be ; and that no loss is comparable to this loss. then see that there be not a loose pin in the work of your salvation ! for ye will not believe how quickly the Judge will come ; and for yourself, I know that death is waiting and hovering, and lingering at God's com- mand, that ye may be prepared. Then ye had need to stir your time, and to take eternity, and death, to your riper advisement ; a wrong step in going out of this life, in one property, is like the sin against the Holy Ghost, and can never be forgiven, because ye cannot come back again through the last water to mourn for it. I know your counts are many, and will take telling, and laying, and reckoning betwixt you and your Lord ; fit your counts and order them ; lose not the last play whatever ye do, for in that play with death your precious soul is the prize; for the Lord's sake spill not the play, and lose not such a treasure. Ye know, out of love I had to your soul, and out of desire I had to make an honest count for you, I testified my displeasure and disliking of your ways verv often, both in private and public ; I am not now a witness of your doings, but your Judge is always your witness. I beseech you by the mercies of God, by the salvation of your soul, by your com- forts when your eye-strings shall break, and the face wax pale, and the soul shall tremble to be out of the lodging of clay, and by your compearance before your awful Judge, after the sight of this letter, take a new course with your ways, and now in the end of your day make sure of heaven. Examine yourself if ye be in good earnest in Christ ; for some, Heb. vi. 4. ' are partakers of the Holy Ghost, and taste of the good word of God, and of the powers of the life to come,' and yet have no part in Christ at all. Many think they believe, but never tremble ; the devils are farther on than these, James ii. 10. JMake sure to yourselt' that ye are above ordinary professors ; tliU sixth part of your span- length and hand-breadth of your days is scarcely before you ; haste, haste, for the tide will not bide. Put Christ upon all your accounts, and your secrets. Better it is that you give him your counts, in this life, out of your own hand, than that after this life he take them from you. I never knew so well what sin was as since I came to Aberdeen, howbeit I was preaching of it to you. To feel the smoke of Hell's fire in the throat for half an hour ; to stand before a river of fire and brimstone broader than the earth : and to think to be bound hand and foot, and cast in the midst of it quick, and then to have God locking the prison-door, never to be opened for all eternity ; O how it will shake a conscience that hath any life in it ! I find the fruits of my pains to have Christ and that people once fairiv met, now meet mv soul in my sad hours ; and I rejoice that I gave fair warning of all the corruptions now entering in Christ's house ; and now many a sweet, soft kiss, many, perfumed, (i 42 LETTEll XIV. TART I. well-smelled kisses, and embracements, have I received of my royal master. He and I have had much love together. I have for the present a sick dvvining Hfe, with much pain, and much love-sickness for Christ : O what would I give to have a bed made to my wearied soul, in his bosom ! I would frist heaven for many years, to have my fill of Jesus in this life, and to have occasion to offer Christ to my people ; and to woo many people to Christ. I cannot tell you what sweet pain, and delightsome torments are in Christ's love ; I often challenge time that holdelh us sui.idry. I profess to you I have no rest, I have no ease, while I be over head and ears in love's ocean. If Christ's love, that fountain of delight, were laid as open to me as I would wish, O how would I drink, and drink abundantly ! O how drunken would this my soul be ! I half call his absence cruel, and the mask and veil on Christ's face, a cruel covering, that hideth such a fair face from a sick soul, I dare not challenge himself, but his absence is a mountain of iron upon my heavy heart. when will we meet ? how long is it to the dawning of the marriage day ! sweet Lord Jesus, take wide steps ; O my Lord, come over mountains at one stride ! O my Beloved, flee like a roe, or a young hart, on the moun- tains of separation ; O if he would fold the heavens together like an old cloak, and shovel time and days out of the way, and make ready in haste the lamb's wife for her husband ! Since he looked upon me, my heart is not mine own, he hath run av^'ay to heaven with it ; I know it was not for nothing that I spake so meikle good of Christ to you in public. O if the iieaven, and the heaven of heavens were paper, and sea ink, and the multitude of mountains pens of brass, and 1 able to write that paper, within and v.'ithout, full of the praises of my fairest, my dearest, my loveliest, my sweetest, my matchless, and mv most marrowless and marvellous Well-beloved ! Wo is me, I cannot set him out to men and angels. O there are few tongues to sing love songs of his incomparable excellency ! What can I, poor prisoner, do to exalt him 1 or what course can I take to extol my lofty, and lovely liOrd Jesus 1 I am put to my wit's end, how to get his name made great. Blessed they who would help me in this ! How sweet are Christ's back-parts 1 O what then is in his face? Tliese that see his face, how do they get their eye plucked off him again ? Look up to him and love him : love and live. It were life to me, if you would read this letter to that people, and if they did profit by it. if I could cause them die of love for Jesus ! I charge them by the salva- tion of their souls, to hang about Christ's neck, and take their fill of his love, and follow him, as I taught them. Part by no means with Christ ; hold fast what ye have received ; keep the truth once deli- vered ; if yc or that people quit it in an hair or in an hoof, ye break your conscience in twain ; and who then can mend it, and cast a knot on it 1 My dearest in the Lord, stand fast in Christ ; keep the faith ; contend for Christ ; wrestle for him, and take men's feud for God's iavour ; there is no comparison betwixt these. O that the Lord would fulfil my joy, and keep the young bride to Christ, that is at Anwoth. And nov/, whoever they be, that have returned to the old vomit since my departure, 1 bind upon their back, in my Master's PART I. LETTER XV. 4;> name and authority, the long-lasting weighty vengeance, and curse of God ; in my Lord's name, I give them a hlack, unmixed, pure wrath, which my master shall ratify and make good, when we stand together before him, except they timeously repent and turn to the Lord. And I write to thee, poor mourning and broken-hearted believer, be who thou will, of the free salvation ; Christ's sweet balm for thy wounds, O poor humble believer ; Christ's kisses for tb.y watery cheeks ; Christ's blood of atonement for thy guilty soul ; Christ's heaven lor thy poor soul, though once banished out of paradise : and my Master shall make good my word ere long. that people were wise ! < ) that people were wise ! that people would seek out Christ, and never rest while they find him, how shall my soul mourn in secret ! if my nine years pained head, and sore breast, and pained back, and grieved heart and private and public prayers to God, shall all be for nothing among that people ! Did my Lord Jesus send me but to sum- mon you before your Judge, and to leave you summons at your houses 1 Was I sent as a witness only to gather your dittays ? O may God forbid ! Often do I tell you of a fan of God's word to come among you, for the contempt of it ; I told you often of wrath, wrath from the Lord, to come upon Scotland ; and yet 1 bide hy my Mas- ter's word ; it is quickly coming, desolation for Scotland, because of the quarrel of a broken covenant. Now, worthy Sirs, my dear peo- ple, my joy, and my crown in the Lord, let him be your fear, seek the Lord, and his face — save your souls. Doves, flee to Christ's win- dows ; pray for me, and praise for rhe. The blessing of my God, the prayers and blessings of a poor prisoner, and your lawful pastor, be upon you. Your lawful and loving pastor, S. R. Aberdeen, June 16, 1C37. LETTER XV. To the Right Hoiiourable and Christian Lady, my Lady Boyd. Madam, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you, from God our Father, and from our Lord Jesus Christ. I cannot but thank your Ladyship, for your letter that hath refreshed my soul. I think myself many ways obliged to your Ladyship for your love to my afflicted brother, now embarked with me in that same cause. His Lord hath been pleased to put him on truth's side ; I hope your Ladyship will befriend him with your counsel and countenance in that country, where he is a stranger ; and your Ladyship needeth not fear but your kindness to his own shall be put up in Christ's accounts. Now, Madam, for your Ladyship's case I rejoice exceedingly, that the Father of lights hath made you see that there is a nick in Christianity, which ye contend to be at ; and that is, to quit the right eye, and the right hand, and to keep the Son of God : I hope your desire is to make him your gar- land, and your eye looketh up the mount, which certainly is nothing but the new creature. Fear not, Christ will not cast water upon yoiu- smoaking coal ; and then, who else dare do it if he say nay ? Be 44 LETTER AV PART I. sorry at corruption, and not secure ; that companion lay with you in your mother's womb, and was as early friends with you as the breatlx of life : and Christ will not have it otherwise ; for he dclighteth to take up fallen children, and to mend broken brows ; binding up of wounds is his ofiice, Isa. Ixi. — 1st. I am glad Christ will get em- ployment of his calling in you : many a whole soul is in heaven, which was sicker than ye are : he is content, ye lay broken arms and legs on his knee, that he may spelt them. — 2dly. hiding of his face is wise love ; his love is not fond, doating, and reasonless, to give your head no other pillow, while ye be in at heaven's gates, but to lye between his breasts, and lean upon his bosom : nay, his children must often have the frosty cold side of the hill, and set down both their bare feet among thorns : his love hath eyes, and in the mean time is looking on. Our pride must have winter weather to rot it. But 1 know Christ and ye shall not be heard ; ye will whisper it over betwixt yourselves, and agree again ; for the anchor-tow abideth fast within the vail ; the end of it is in Christ's ten fingers ; who dare pull if he hold ? I the Lord tliy God will hold thy right hand, saying, fear not, I will help thee. Isa. xli. 13. Fear not, Jacob. The seasick passenger shall come to land ; Christ will be the first that will meet you on the shore. I hope your Ladyship will keep the king's high- way : go on in the strength of the Lord in haste, as if ye had not lei- sure to speak to the inn-keepers by the way ; he is over beyond time on the other side of the water, who thinketh long for you. For my unfaithful self, Madam, I must say a word. At my first coming hither, the devil made many a black lie of my Lord Jesus, and said, the court was changed and he was angry, and would give an evil ser- vant his leave at mid-term ; but he gave me grace not to take my leave ; I resolved to bide summons, and sit, howbeit it was suggested and said, What should be done with a withered tree, but over the dyke with it 1 But now, now, I dare not, I dow not keep it up, who is feasted as his poor exiled prisoner ? I think shame of the board-head and the first mess, and the royal king's dining Hall, and that my black hand should come on such a ruler's table ; but I cannot mend it, Christ must have his will : only he paineth my soul so sometimes with his love, that I have been nigh to pass modesty, and to cry out ; he hath left a smoaking burning coal in my heart, and gone to the door himself and left me and it together ; yet it is not desertion : I know not what it is, but I was never so sick for him as now. I durst not challenge my Lord, if I got no more for heaven, it is a dawting cross. I know he hath other things to do than to play with me, and trundle an ai)ple with me, and that this feast will end. O for instru- ments in God's name, that this is he ! and that I may make use of it, when it may be, a near friend within me will say, and when it will be said by a challenging devil. Where is thy God i Since I know it will not last, I desire but to keep broken meat : but let no man after me slander Christ for his cross. The great Lord of the covenant, Avho brought from the dead the great shepherd of his sheep, by the blood of the eternal covenant, establish you, and keep you and your's to his appearance. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus. ,*^. R. Aberdeen, March 7lli, 1G37. TAUT I. LETTER XVI, XVII, 45 LETTER XVI. To jNIr. Alexander Henderson. >IV REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, I RECEIVED your letters ; they are apples of gold to me, for with my sweet feasts (and they are above the deserving of such a sinner, hi^h and out of measure) I have sadness to ballast me, and weight me a little. It is but his boundless wisdom who hath taken the tutorino- of his witless child ; and he knoweth to be drunken with comforts is not safest for our stomachs. However it be, the din and noise, and glooms of Christ's cross are weightier than itself, I protest to you, my witness is in heaven, I could wish many pound weights added to my cross, to know that by my sud'erings, Christ v.ere set forward in his kingly oflice in this land. Oh ! what is my skin to his glory ; or my losses, or my sad heart, to the apple of the eye of our Lord, and his beloved spouse, his precious truth, his royal privileges, the glory of manifested justice in giving of his foes a dash, the testimony of his faithful ser- vants, who do glorify him, when he rideth upon poor weak worms, and triumpheth in them 1 I desire you to pray, that I may come out of this furnace with honesty, and that I may leave Christ's truth no worse than I found it : and that this most honourable cause may neither be stained nor weakened. As for your case, my reverend and dearest brother, ye are the talking of the north and south : and looked to so, as if ye were all crystal glass : your mot^s and dust shall soon be pro- claimed, and trumpets blown at your slips : but I know ye have laid help upon one that is mighty. Intrust not your comforts to men's airy and frothy applause, neither lay your down-castings on the tongues of salt mockers and reproachers of godliness : as deceivers, and yet true ; as unknown, and yet still known. God hath called you to Christ's side, and the wind is now in Christ's face in this land ; and seeing ye are with him, ye cannot expect the lee-side, or the sunny side of the brae ; but I know ye have resolved to take Christ upon any terms whatsoever ; I hope ye do not rue, though your cause be hated, and that prejudices are taken up against it. The shields of the world think our Master cumbersome wares, and that he maketh too great din, and that his cords and yokes make blains and deep scores in their neck ; therefore they kick, they say — This man shall not reiga over us. Let us pray one for another ; he who hath made you a chosen arrow in his quiver, hide you in the hollow of his hand. I am, Your's in his sweetest Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 9th, 1637. LETTER XYIL To the Right Honourable my Lord Lowdon. ?.IY VERY NOELE AND HONOURABLE LORD, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I make bold to write to }our Lordship, that you may know the honourable cause ye are graced to profess, is Christ's own truth. Ye are many ways blessed of God, Mho hath taken upon you to come out to the streets with Christ on 46 LETTER XVII. PART I. your forehead, when so many are ashamed of him and hide him as it were, under their cloak, as if he were a stolen Christ. If this faithless generation, and especially the nobles of this kingdom, thought not Christ dear wares, and religion expensive, hazardous, and dangerous, they would not slip from this cause as they do, and stand looking on with their hands folded behind their back when lowns are running with the spoil of Zion on their back, and the boards of the Son of God's tabernacle. Law and justice are to be had to any, especially for mo- ney and moyen ; but Christ can get no law, good, cheap nor dear. It were the glory and honour of you, who are the nobles of this land, to plead for your wronged Bridegroom, and his oppressed Spouse, as far as zeal and standing law will go with you. Your ordinary logic from the event, that it will do no good to the cause, and therefore silence is best, till the Lord put to his own hand, is not, with reverence to your Lordship's learning, worth a straw : events are God's ; let us do and not plead against God's office, let him sit at his own helm, wh'o moderateth all events : it is not a good course to complain, that we cannot get a providence of gold, when our laziness, cold zeal, tempo- rizing, and faithless fearfulness spilleth God's providence. Your Lordship will pardon me : I am not of that mind, that tumults or arms is the way to put Christ on his throne: or that Christ will be served and truth vindicated only with the arm of flesh and blood : nay, Christ doth his turn with less din than with garments rolled in blood. But I would the zeal of God were in the nobles to do their part for Christ : and I must be pardoned to write to your Lordship this, I dow not, I dare not but speak to others what God hath done to the soul of his poor afflicted, exiled prisoner : his comfort is more than I ever knew before : he hath sealed the honourable cause I now suffer for, and I shall not believe that Christ will put his Amen and ring upon an imagi- nation ; he hath made all his promises good to me, and hath filled up all the blanks with his own hand ; I would not exchange my bonds with the plastered joy of this whole world : it hath pleased him to make a sinner, the like of me, an ordinary banqueter in his house of wine, with that royal, princely one, Christ Jesus. what weighing ! O what telling is in his love ! how sweet must he be, when that black and burdensome tree, his own cross, is so perfumed with joy and glad- ness ! O for h'jip to lift him up by praises on his royal throne ! I seek no more but that his name may be spread abroad in me, that meikle good may be spoken of Christ on my behalf; this being done, my losses, place, stipend, credit, ease, and liberty, shall all be made up to my full contentment and joy of heart. I will be confident your Lordship will go on in the strength of the Lord, and keep Christ and avouch him, that he may read your name publicly before men and angels. I will entreat your lordship to exhort and encourage that no- bleman, your chief, to do the same ; but I am wo, many of you find a new wisdom, which deserveth not such a name ; it were better that men should see that their wisdom be holy, and their holiness wise. I must be bold to desire your Lordship to add to your former favours to me, for the which your Lordship hath a prisoner's blessing and prayers, this, that ye would be pleased befriend my brother, now suffering for PART I. LETTER XVIII. 47 the same cause ; for he is to dwell nigh your Lordship's bounds • your Lordship's word and countenance may help him. Thus recom- mending your Lordship to the saving grace, and tender mercy of Christ Jesus our Lord, I rest. Your Lordship's obliged servant in Christ, S. R Aberdeen, March 9, 1637, LETTER XVIIL To Mr. William Dalglish, Minister of the Gospel. REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am well ; my Lord Jesus is kinder to me than ever he was ; it pleaseth him to dine and sup with his afflicted prisoner ; a King feasteth me, and his spikenard casteth a sweet smell. Put Christ's love to the trial, and put upon it our burdens, and then it will appear love indeed ; we employ not his love, and therefore we know it not. I verily count more of the suf- ferings of my Lord, than of this world's lustred and over-gilded glory. I dare not say but my Lord Jesus hath fully recompensed my sadness with his joys ; my losses with his own presence. I find it a sweet and rich thing to exchange my sorrows with Christ's joys, my afflic- tions with that sweet peace I have with himself. Brother this is his own truth I now suffer for ; he hath sealed my sufferings with his own comforts, and I know he will not put his seal upon blank paper : his seals are not dumb, nor delusive, to confirm imagination and lies. Go on, my dear brother, in the strength of the Lord, not fearing man that is a worm, nor the son of man that will die. Providence hath a thou- .sand keys to open a thousand sundry doors, for the deliverance of his own, when it is even come to a conclamatum est. Let us be faithful • and care for our own part, which is to do and suffer for him, and lay Christ's part on himself, and leave it there. Duties are ours, events are the Lord's : when our faith goeth to meddle with events, and to hold a court (if I may so speak) upon God's providence, and beginncth to say, How wilt thou do this and that ? we lose ground, we have nothing to do there, it is our part to let the Almighty exercise his own office" and steer his own helm ; there is nothing left us, but to see how we may be approved of him, and how we may roll the weight of our weak souls, in well doing, upon him who is God omnipotent : and when what we thus essay miscarrieth, it shall neither be our sin nor cross. Brother remember the Lord's word to Peter ; ' Simon, Lovest thou me ? Feed my sheep :' no greater testimony of our love to Christ can be, than to feed painfully and faithfully his lambs. I am in no bet- ter neighbourhood with the ministers here than before : they cannot endure that any speak of me, or to me. Thus I am, in the mean time, silent, which is my greatest grief. Dr. Baron hath disputed with me, especially about Arminian controversies, and for the ceremonies: three yokings laid him by ; and I have not been troubled with him since. Now he hath appointed a dispute before witnesses ; 1 trust Christ and truth shall do for themselves. T hope, brother, ve will 48 LETTER XIX. PART I. help iTiy people, and write to me what ye hear the Bishop is to do with them. Grace be with you. Your brother in bonds, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XIX. To Mr. Hugh M'Kail, Minister of the Gospel. REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, I BLESS you for your letter : he is come down as rain upon the mown grass, he hath revived my withered root, and he is the dew of herbs. I am most secure in this prison ; salvation is for walls in it, and what think ye of these walls ? he maketh the dry plant to bud as the lilly, and to blossom as Lebanon ; the great Husbandman's bless- ing cometh down upon the plants of righteousness. Who may say this, my dear brother, if I, his poor exiled stranger and prisoner, may not say it ? Howbeit all the world should be silent, I cannot hold my peace. O how many black counts hath Christ and I rounded over together in the house of my pilgrimage ! and how fat a portion he hath given to a hungry soul ! I had rather have Christ's four-hours, than have dinner and supper both in one from any other : his dealing, and the way of his judgments are past finding out. No preaching, no book, no learning could give me that, which I behoved to come and get in this town. But what of all this, if I were not misled and con- founded, and astonished how to be thankful, and how to get him praised for evermore ? And which is more, he hath been pleased to pain me with his love, and my pain groweth through want of real pos- session. Some have written to me, that I am possibly too joyful of the cross, but my joy overleapeth the cross, it is bounded, and termi- nates upon Christ. I know the sun will over-cloud and echpse, and I shall again be put to walk in the shadow : but Christ must be wel- come to come and go as he thinketh meet ; yet he would be more welcome to me, I trow, to come than to go : and I hope he pitieth and pardoneth me, in casting apples to me, at such a fainting time as this ; holy and blessed is his name. It was not my flattering of Christ, that drew a kiss from his mouth : but he would send me as a spy into this "ivilderness of sutfering, to see the land, and try the ford ; and I cannot make a lie of Christ's cross ; I can report nothing but good both of him and it, lest others should faint. I hope, when a change cometh, to cast anchor at midnight upon the Rock, which he hath taught me to know in this day-light, whither I may run, when I must say my les- son without book, and believe in the dark. I am sure it is sin to despise Christ's good meat, and not to eat when he saith, ' Eat O well-beloved, and drink abundantly.' If he bear me on his back, or carry me in his arms over this water : I hope for grace to set down my feet on dry ground, when the way is better : but this is slippery ground ; my Lord thought good 1 should go by and hold, and lean on my Well-beloved's shoulder ; it is good to be ever taking from him. I desire he may get the fruit of praises, for dawting and thus dandling me on his knee : and I may give my bond of thankfulness, so being t PART I. LETTER XX. 49 have Christ's back-bond again for my relief, that I shall he strengthen- ed by his powerful grace, to pay my vows to him. But truly I find we have the advantage of the brae upon our enemies ; we are more than conquerors, through him that loved us ; and tliey know not wherein our strength lyeth. Pray for me ; grace be with you. Your Brother in Christ, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XX. To my Lady Boyd. MADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be unto you. The Lord hath brought me to Aberdeen, where I see God in few. This town hath been advised upon of purpose for me ; it consisteth of Papists, or men of GaUio's naughty faith ; it is counted wisdom in the most, not to countenance a confined minister ! but I find Christ neither strange nor unkind; for I have found many faces smile upon me since I came hither. I am Iieavy and sad, considering what is betwixt the Lord and my soul, Avhich none seeth but he. I find men have mistaken me ; it would be no art, as I now see, to spin small and make hypocrisy seem a goodly web, and go through the market as a saint among men, and yet steal quietly to hell, without observation ; so easy is it to deceive men. I have disputed whether or no I ever knew any thing of Christianity, save the letters of that name. Men see but as men, and they call ten twenty, and twenty an hundred ; but, O ! to be approved of God in the heart, and in sincerity, is not an ordinary mercy. My neglects while I had a pulpit, and other things whereof I am ashamed to speak, meet me now, so as God maketh an honest cross my daily sorrow ; and, for fear of scandal and stumbling, I must hide this day of the law's pleading ; I know not, if this court kept within my soul, be fenced in Christ's name. If certainty of salvation were to be bought, God knoweth if I had ten earths, I would not prig with God hke a fool. I believed, under sufferings for Christ, that I myself should keep the key of Christ's treasures, and take out comforts, when I listed, and eat, and be fat : but I see now a sufferer for Christ will be made to know himself, and will be holden at the door, as well as another poor sinner ; and will be fain to eat with the children, and take the bye- board, and glad so. My blessing on the cross of Christ, that hath made me see this. Oh if we could take pains for the kingdom of heaven ! but we sit down upon some ordinary marks of God's chil- dren, thinking we have as much as will separate us from a reprobate, and thereupon we take the play, and cry, Holiday ; and thus the devil casteth water on our fire, and blunteth our zeal and care ; but I see heaven is not at the next door ; and I see, howbeit my challenges be many, I suffer for Christ and dare hazard my salvation upon it ; for sometimes my Lord cometh with a fair hour, and O but his love be sweet, delightful and comfortable ! Haifa kiss is sweet ; butourdoat- ing love will not be content of a right to Christ, unless we get pos 7 50 LETTER XXI. PART I. session ; like the man who will not be content of rights to bought land, except he get also the ridges and acres laid upon his back, to carry home with him. However it be, Christ is wise ; and we are fools to bebrowden and fond of a pawn in the loof of our hand ; living on trust by faith may well: content us. Madam, I know your Lady- ship knoweth this, and that made me bold to write of it, that others might reap somewhat by my bonds for the truth ; for I should desire, and aim at this, to have my Lord well spoken of and honoured, how- beit he should make nothing of me, but a bridge over a water. Thus recommending.your Ladyship, your son and children to his grace, who hath honoured you with a name and room among the living in Jerusa- lem, and wishing grace to be with your Ladyship, I rest, Your Ladyship's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XXL To Mr. David Dickson. REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be unto you. I find great men especially old friends, scar to speak for me ; but my kingly and royal Master bid- deth me try his moyen to the uttermost, and I shall find a friend at hand ; I still depend upon him ; his court is as before ; the prisoner is welcome to him ; the black crabbed tree of my Lord's cross, hath made Christ and my soul very entire ; he is my song in the night. I am often laid in the dust with challenges, and apprehensions of his anger ; and then, if a mountain of iron were laid upon me, I cannot be heavier ; and with much wrestling I win into the King's house of Avine, and for the most part, my life is joy, and such joy through his comforts, as I have been afraid to shame myself, and to cry out, for I can scarce bear what I get ; Christ giveth me a measure heaped up, pressed down, and running over. And, believe it, his love paineth more than prison and banishment. I cannot get the way of Christ's love. Had 1 known what he was keeping for me I would never have been so faint hearted. In my heaviest times, when all is lost, the memory of his love maketh me think Christ's glooms are but for the fashion ; I seek no more but a vent to my wine ; I am smothered and ready to burst for want of vent. Think not much of persecution ; it is before you ; but it is not as men conceive of it ; my sugared cross forceth me to say this to you, ye shall have wailed meat ; the sick child is oftentimes the spoiled child : ye shall command all the house. I hope ye help a tired prisoner to pray and praise ; had I but the an- nual of annual to give to my Lord Jesus, it should. ease my pain ; but, alas, I have nothing to pay, he will get nothing of poor me ; but I am .wo, I have not room enough in my heart for such a stranger. I am not cast down to go farther JVorth, I have good cause to work for my Master, for I am well paid before the hand ; I am not behind, howbeit I should not get one smile more till my feet be up within the King's dining hall. I have gone through yours upon the Covenant ; it hath edified my soul, and refreshed an hungry man: I judge it sharp. PART I. LETTER XXII. 51 sweet, quick and profound ; take me at my word, I fear it ^et no lod^-- ing in Scotland. The brethren of Ireland write not to me ; chide with them for that ; I am sure that I may give you and them a com- mission, and I will abide by it, that you tell my beloved, I am sick of love. I hope in God to leave some of my rust and superfluities in Aberdeen ; I cannot get an house in this town wherein to leave drink-silver in my Master's name, save one only ; there is no sale for Christ in the North ; he is like to lye long on my hand ere any ac- cept him. Grace be with you, Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus. S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XXIL To Mr. Matthew Mowat. REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, I AM a very far mistaken man ; if others knew, how poor my stock were, they would not think upon the like of me, but with compassion ; for I am as one kept under a strict tutor ; I would have more than my tutor alloweth upon me, but it is good tiiat a child's wit is not the rule which regulateth my Lord Jesus : Let him give what he will, it shall ay be above merit, and my ability to gain therewith. I would not wish a better stock, while heaven be my stock, than to live upon credit at Christ's hands, daily borrowing ; surely running-over love, that vast, huge, boundless love of Christ, that there is telling in for man and an- gel, is the only thing I fainest would be in hands with ; he knoweth I have httle but the love of that love ; and that I shall be happy, suppose I never get another heaven, but only an eternal lasting feast of that love ; but suppose my wishes were poor, he is not poor ; Christ all the seasons of the year is dropping sweetness ; if I had vessels I might fill them, but my old riven, and running out dish, even when I am at the well, can bring little away ; nothing but glory will make ti^ht and fast our leaking and rifty vessels. Alas, I have skailed more of Christ's grace, love, faith, humility, and godly sorrow, than I have brought with me. How little of the sea can a child carry in his hand ! as little do I take away of my great sea, my boundless and running over Christ Jesus. I have not lighted upon the right way of putting Christ to the bank, and making myself rich with him ; my misguiding and childish trafficking with that matchless pearl, that heaven's jewel, the jewel of the Father's delights hath put me to a great loss. O that he would take the loan of me, and my stock, and put his name in all my bonds, and serve himself heir to the poor mean portion I have, and be countable for the talent himself! Gladly would I put Christ in my room, to guide all ; and let me be but a servant to run errands, and do by his direction, let me be his interdicted heir. Lord Jesus work upon my minority, and let him win a pupil's blessing. how would I rejoice to have this work of my salvation legally fastened upon Christ ! A back-bond of my Lord Jesus, that it should be fortli- coming to the orphan, should be my happiness ; dependency on Christ were my surest way ; if Christ were my bottom I were sure enough. 52 LETTER XXII. PART I. I thought guiding of grace had been no art, I Ihought it would come of will ; but I would spill my own heaven yet, if I had not burdened Christ with all. I but lend my bare name to the sweet covenant ; Christ behind and before and on either side maketh all sure. God will not take an Arminian cautioner free-will, a weather-cock turning at a serpent's tongue, a tutor that couped our father Adam unto us, and brought down the house, and sold the land ; and sent the father and mother, and all the children through the earth, to beg their bread : nature in the gospel hath cracked credit. O well to my poor soul for evermore, that my Lord called grace to the council, and put Christ Jesus with free merits, and the blood of God, foremost in the chace, to draw sinners after a Ransomer ! what a sweet block was it, by way of buying and selling, to give and tell down a ransom for grace and glory to dyvours ! O would to my Lord I could cause paper and ink to speak the worth and excellency, the high and loud praises of a brother-ransomer ! O the Ransomer needs not my report ; but oh, if he would take it, and make use of it ! I should be happy ! if I had an errand to this world, but for some few years, to spread proclama- tions and outcries, and love-letters, of the highness (the highness for evermore) the glory (the glory for evermore) of the Ransomer, whose clothes were wet, and died in blood ; howbeit after I had done that, my soul and body should go back to the mother nothing, that their Creator brought them once out from, as from their beginning. But why should I pine away, and pain myself with wishes, and not believe rather, that Christ will hire such an outcast as I am, a masterless body, put out of the house be the sons of my mother, and give me employ- men and a calling, one way or other, to out Christ and his wares to country buyers, and propose Christ unto, and press him upon some poor souls, that fainer than their life would receive him? You com- plain heavily of your short-coming in practice, and venturing on suf- fering for Christ : you have many marrows. For the first, I would not put you off. a sense of wretchedness ; hold on, Christ never yet slew a sighing, groaning child ; more of that would make you won goods, and a meet prey for Christ. Alas ! I have too little of it, for venturing on suffering ; I had not so much free gear, when I came to Christ's camp, as to buy a sword ; a v.'onder that Christ should not laugh at such a soldier ; I am no better yet ; but faith liveth and spendeth upon our Captain's charges, who is able to pay for all : we need not pity him, he is rich enough. Ye desire me also not to mis- take Christ under a mask ; I bless you and thank God for it : but alas ! masked or bare-faced, kissing, or glooming, I mistake him : yea, I mistake him farthest when the mask is off; for then I play me with his sweetness ; I am like a child that hath a gilded book, that playeth with the ribbons, and the gilding, and the picture on the first page ; but readeth not the contents of it. Certainly if my desires to my Well-beloved were fulfilled, I could provoke devils, and crosses, and the world, and temptations to the field ; but oh my poor weakness makes me lye behind the bush and hide me. Remember my service and my blessing to my Lord ; I am mindful of him as I am able ; de- sire him from a juisoner, to come and visit my good master, and feel PART I. LETTER XXIII, XXIV. 53 but the smell of his love : It sets him well, howbeit he be young, to make Christ his garland ; I could not wish him in a better case, than in a fever of love-sickness for Christ. Remember my bonds. The Lord Jesus be with your spirit. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. AlerJeen, 1637. LETTER XXIIL To Willia-in Halliday. LOVING FRIEND, I RECEIVED your letter : I wish ye take pains for salvation ; mis- taken grace, and somewhat like conversion, which is not conversion, is the riaddest and most doleful thing in the world ; make sure of sal- vation, and lay the foundation sure, for many are beguiled ; put a low price upon tlie world's clay, put a high price upon Christ ; temptations will come, but if they be not made welcome by you, ye have the best of it ! be jealous over yourself and your own heart, and keep touches with God ; let him not have a faint and feeble soldier of you ; fear not to back Christ, for he will conquer and overcome : let no man scar at Christ, for I have no quarrels at his cross ; he and his cross are two good guests, and worth the lodging : men would fain have Christ good cheap, but the market will not come down ; acquaint yourself with prayer ; make Christ your Captain and your armour ; make conscience of sinning when no eye seetli you. Grace be with you. Your's in Christ Jesus, S. R. Aberdeeu. LETTER XXIY. To a Gentlewoman, after tlie death of her Iliisbund, DEAR AND LOVING SISTER, I KNOW you are minding your sweet country, and not taking your inns, the place of your banishment, for your home ; this life is not worthy to be the thatch or out-wall of your Lord Jesus' paradise, that he did sweat for to you, and that he keepeth for you ; and silly and sand-bhnd were our hope, if it could not look over the water to our best heritage, and if it stayed only at home about the doors of our clay house. I marvel not, my dear sister, that ye complain^ that ye come short of your old wrestlings, you had for a blessing, and that now you find it not so : children are but hired to learn their lesson, when they first go to school : and it is enough that these who run a race see the gold only at the starting-place ; and possibly they see little more of it, or nothing at all, till they win to the rink's-end, and get the gold in the loof of their hand. Our Lord maketh delicates and dainties of his sweet presence and love-visits to his own, but Christ's love under a vail is love ; if ye get Christ, howbeit not the sweet and pleasant way ye would have him, it is enough ; for the Well-beloved comcth not our M'ay, he must wail his own way himself. 54 LETTER XXV. PART I. For worldly things, seeing they are meadows and fair flowers in your way to heaven, a smell in the by-going is sufficient ; he that would reckon and tell all the stones in his way, in a journey of three or four hundred miles, and write up in his count-book all the herbs and the flowers growing in his way, might come short of his journey. You cannot stay in your inch of time to lose your day, seeing you are in haste, and the night and your afternoon will not bide you, in setting your heart on this vain world ; it were your wisdom to read your count-book, and to have in readiness your business, against the time you come to death's water-side. I know your lodging is taken ; your forerunner Christ hath not forgotten that, and therefore you must set yourself to one thing, which you cannot well want. In that our Lord took your husband to himself, I know it was that he might make room for himself; he cutteth off" your love to the creature, that ye might learn that God only is the right owner of your love, sorrow, loss, sad- ness, death, or the worst things that are, except sin ; but Christ know- eth well what to make of them, and can put his own in the cross's common, that we shall be obliged to affliction, and thank God, who learned us to make our acquaintance with such a rough companion, who can hale us to Christ. You must learn to make your evils your great good, and to spin out comforts, peace, joy, communion with Christ, out of your troubles, that are Christ's wooers, sent to speak for you to himself. It is easier to get good words, and a comfortable message from our Lord, even from such Serjeants, as divers tempta- tions. Thanks to God, for crosses. When we count and reckon our losses in seeking God, we find godliness is great gain. Great partners of a shipful of gold are glad to see the ship come to the harbour : surely we and our Lord Jesus together have a shipful of gold coming home, and our gold is in that ship. Some are so in love, or rather in lust with this life, that they sell their part of the ship, for a little thing : I would counsel you to buy hope, but sell it not, and give not away your crosses for nothing ; the inside of Christ's cross is white and joyful, and the far end of the black cross is a fair and glorious heaven of ease : and seeing Christ hath fastened heaven to the far end of the cross, and he will not loose the knot him- self, and none else can, (for when Christ casteth a knot, all the world cannot loose it,) let us then count it exceeding joy, when we fall into divers temptations. Thus recommending you to the tender mercy and grace of our Lord, I rest. Your Loving Brother, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XXV. To John Gordon of Cardoness, Younger. HONOURED AND DEAR BROTHER, I WROTE of late to you : multitudes of letters burden me now. I am refreshed with your letter. I exhort you in the bowels of Christ, set to work for your soul, and let these bear weight with you and pon- der them seriously : 1st. Weeping and gnashing ot teeth in utter PART I. LETTER XXVI. 55 darkness, or heaven's joy. 2d. Think what ye would give for an hour, when ye shall lye like dead, cold, blackened clay. 3d. There is sand in your glass yet, and your sun is not gone down. 4th. Con- sider what joy and peace is in Christ's service. 5th. Think what ad- vantage it will be, to have angels, the world, life and death, crosses, yea, and devils, all for you, as the king's Serjeants and servants to do your business. 6th. To have mercy on your seed, and a blessing on your house. 7th. To have true honour, and a name on earth that casts a sweet smell. 8th. How ye will rejoice when Christ layeth down your head under his chin, and betwixt his breasts, and drieth your face, and welcometh you to glory and happiness. 9th. Imagine what pain and torture is a guilty conscience ; what slavery to carry the devil's dishonest loads. 10th. Sin's joys are but night dreams, thoughts, vapours, imaginations, and shadows. 11th. What dignity it is to be a son of God. 12th. Dominion and mastery over tempta- tions, over the world and sin. 13th. That your enemies should be the tail, and you the head. — For your children, now at rest, I speak to you and your wife (and cause her read this.) 1st. I am witness for Barbara's glory in heaven. 2d. For the rest, I write it under my hand, there are days coming on Scotland, when barren wombs and dry breasts, and childless parents, shall be pronounced blessed : they are then in the lee of their harbour, ere the storm come on. 3d. They are not lost to you, that are laid up in Christ's treasury in heaven. 4th. At the resurrection ye shall meet with them ; there they are sent before, but not sent away. 5. Your Lord loveth you, who is homely to take and give, borrow and lend. 6th. Let not children be your idols ; for God will be jealous, and take away the idol, because he is greedy of your love wholly. I bless you, your wife and children. Grace for ever more be with you. Your Loving Pastor, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XXVL To John Gordon of Cardoness, Elder. HONOURED AND DEAREST IN THE LORD, I^OUR letter hath refreshed my soul. My joy is fulfilled, if Christ and ye be fast together : ye are my joy and crown ; ye know I have recommended his love to you. I defy the world, Satan, and sin. His love hath neither brim, nor bottom in it. My dearest in Christ, I write my soul's desire to you ; heaven is not at the next door ; I find Christianity a hard task : set to it in your evening ; we would all keep both Christ and our right eye, our right hand and foot ; but it will not do with us. I beseech you, by the mercies of God, and your com- pearance before Christ, look Christ's count-book and your own to- gether, and collation them : give the remnant of your time to your soul. This great idol-god, the world, will be lying in white ashes, on the day of your compearance; and why should night-dreams, and day- shadows, and water-froth, and May-flowers run away with your heart ? When we win to the water-side, and black death's river-brink. 56 LETTER XXVII. PART I. and put our foot in the boat, we shall laugh at our folly. Sir, I re- commend unto you the thoughts of death, and how ye could wish your soul to be, when ye shall lye cold, blue, ill smelling clay. For any hireling to be intruded, I, being the king's prisoner, cannot say much : but as God's minister, I desire you to read Acts i. 15, 16, to the end, and Acts vi. 2, 3, 4, 5, and ye shall find God's people should have a voice in chusing church-rulers and teachers. I shall be sorry, if wil lingly ye shall give away to his unlawful intrusion upon my labours : the only wise God direct you. God's grace be with you. Your Loving Pastor, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XXVIL To Earlstoun, Younger. MUCH-HONOURED AND WELL-BELOVED IN THE LORD, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. Yours letters give a dash to my laziness in writing. I must first tell you, there is not such a glassy, icy, and slippery piece of way betwixt you and heaven, as youth : I have experience to say with me here, and seal what I assert : the old ashes of the sins of my youth are now fire of sorrow to me : I have seen the devil, as it were, dead and buried, and yet rise again, and be a worse devil than ever he was. Therefore, my brother, be- ware of a green young devil, that hath never been buried : the devil in his flowers (I mean the hot fiery lusts and passions of youth) is much to be feared : better yoke with an old grey-haired, withered dry devil : for in youth he findeth dry sticks, and dry coals, and a hot hearth-stone ; and how soon can he with his flint cast fire, and, with his bellows, blow it up, and fire the house 1 Sanctified thoughts, thoughts made conscience of, and called in, and kept in awe, are green fuel that burn not, and are a water for Satan's coal. Yet I must tell you, the whole saints now triumphant in heaven, and standing be- fore the throne, are nothing but Christ's forlorn and beggarly dyvours. What are they but a pack of redeemed sinners ? but their redemption is not only past the seals, but completed ; and your's is on the wheels, and in doing : all Christ's good children go to heaven with a broken brow, and with a crooked leg. Christ hath an advantage of you, and I pray you let him have it, he shall find employment for his calling in you : if it were not with you as you write, grace should find no sale nor market in you ; but ye must be content to give Christ somewhat ado ; I am glad that he is employed that way ; let your bleeding soul and your sores be put in the hand of this expert Physician ; let young and strong corruptions, and his free grace, be yoked together, and let Christ and your sins deal in betwixt them. I will be loth to put you ofi' your fears, and your sense of deadness ; I wish it were more ; there be some wounds of that nature, that their bleeding should not be soon stopped : ye must take a house beside the Physician ; it shall be a miracle if ye be the first sick man he put away uncured, and worse than he found you. Nay, nay, Christ is honest, and in that, flyting free with sinners, John vi. 37. " ' And him that cometh unto me I will PART I. tETTEIl XXVII. Of in no wise cast out.' Take ye that : it cannot be presumption to take that as your own, when you find your wounds stound you : presump- tion is ever whole at the heart, and hath but the truant-sickness, and groaneth only for the fashion ; faith hath sense of sickness, and look- eth hke a friend to the promises ; and looking to Christ therein is glad to see a known face. Christ is as full a feast as ye can have to hun- ger. Nay, Christ, I say, is not a full man's leavings ; his mercy sends always a letter of defiance to all your sins, if there were ten thousand more of them. I grant you it is a hard matter for a poor hungry man to win his meat upon hidden Christ : for then the key of his pantry door, and of the house of wine is a seeking, and cannot be had ; but hunger must break through iron locks. I bemoan them not who can make a din, and all the fields ado, for a lost Saviour : ye must let him hear it, to say so, upon both sides of his head, v.hen he hideth him- self; it is not time then to be bird-mouth'd and patient. Christ is rare indeed, and a delicate to a sinner ; he is a miracle, and a world's wonder to a seeking and a weeping sinner ; but yet such a miracle as will be seen by them, who will come and see ; the seeker and sigher is at last a singer and enjoyer : nay, I have seen a dumb man get an alms from Christ. He that can tell his tale, and send such a letter to heaven as he hath sent to Aberdeen, it is very like he will come speed with Christ ; it bodeth God's mercy to complain heartily for sin. Let wrestling be with Christ, till he say, how is it, Sir, that I cannot be quit of your bills, and your mislearned cries? and then hope for Christ's blessing, and his blessing is better than other ten blessings. Think not shame because of your guiltiness : necessity must not blush to beg : it standeth you hard to want Christ : and therefore that which idle on-waiting cannot do, misnurtured crying and knocking will do. And for doubtings, because you are not as you were long- since with your Master, consider three things : 1st. What if Christ had such tottering thoughts of the bargain of the new covenant be- twixt you and him, as you have 1 2d. Your heart is not the compass Christ saileth by ; he will give you leave to sing as you please, but he will not dance to your daft spring. It is not referred to you and your thoughts what Christ will do with the charters betwixt you and him :■ your own misbelief hath torn them ; but he hath the principal in heaven with himself: your thoughts are no parts of the new cove- nant ; dreams change not Christ. 3d. Doubtings ai-e your sins, but they are Christ's drugs and ingredients, that the Physician maketh use of for the curing of your pride. Is it not suitable for a beggar to say at meat, God reward the winners ? for then he saith, he knoweth who beareth the charges of the house. It is also meet ye should know by experience that faith is not nature's ill-gotten bastard, but your Lord's free gift that lay in the womb of God's free grace ; praised be the winner. I may add, 4th. In the passing of your bill and your char- ters, when they went through the Mediator's great seal, and were concluded, faith's advice was not sought : faith hath not a vote be- side Christ's merits ; blood, blood, dear blood, that came from your cautioner's holy body, maketh that sure work. The use then which ye have of faith now (having already closed with Jesus Christ for ■8 58 LETTER XXVII. PART I. justification) is, to take out a copy of your pardon ; and so ye have peace with God upon the account of Christ : for, since faith appre- hendeth pardon, but never payeth a penny for it, no marvel that sal- vation doth not die and hve, ebb or flow with the working of faith. But, because it is your Lord's honour to beHeve his mercy and his fidelity, it is infinite goodness in our Lord, that misbelief giveth a dash to our Lord's glory, and not to our salvation. And so, whoever want, yea, howbeit God here bear with the want of what we are obli- ged to give him, even the glory of his grace by believing, yet a poor covenanted sinner wanteth not ; but if guiltiness were removed, doubtings would find no friend, nor life ; and yet faith is to believe the removal of guiltiness in Christ. A reason why ye get less now (as ye think) than before (as I take it) is, because, at our first con- version, our Lord putteth the meat in young children's mouths with his own hand ; but when we grow to some further perfection, we must take heaven by violence, and take by violence from Christ what we get ; and he can, and doth hold, because he will have us to draw. Remember, now ye must live upon violent plucking. Laziness is a greater fault now than long since ; we love always to have the pap in our mouth. Now for myself ; alas ! I am not the man I go for in this nation : men have not just weights to weigh me in. Oh, but I am a silly feckless body, and overgrown with weeds ; corruption is rank and fat in me. if I were answerable to this holy cause, and to that honourable Prince's love for whom I now suffer ! If Christ would refer the matter to me, (in his presence I speak it) I might think shame to vote my own salvation : 1 think Christ might say, Thinkest thou not shame to claim heaven, who dost so little for it ! I am very often so, that I know not whether I sink or swim in the wa- ter ; I find myself a bag of light froth ; I would bear no weight, (but vanity and nothings weigh in Christ's balance) if my Lord cast not in borrowed weight and metal, even Christ's righteousness, to weigh for me. The stock I have, is not mine own ; I am but the merchant that traffics with other folk's goods : if my creditor Christ would take from me what he hath lent, I would not long keep the causeway ; but Christ hath made it mine and his. I think it manhood to play the coward, and jouk in the lee-side of Christ ; and thus I am not only saved from my enemies, but I obtain the victory. I am so empty, that I think it were an alms-deed in Christ, if he would win a poor prisoner's blessing for evermore, and fill me with his love. I com- plain when Christ cometh, he cometh always to fetch fire, he is ever in haste, he may not tarry ; and poor I, a beggarly dyvour, get but a standing visit and a standing kiss, and but, How doest thou ? in the by-going. I dare not say he is lordly, because he is made a king now at the right hand of God ; or is grown miskenning and dry to his poor friends ; for he cannot make more of his kisses than they are worth ; but I think it my happiness to love the love of Christ ; and when he goeth away, the memory of his sweet presence is like a feast in a dear summer. I have comfort in this, that my soul desireth that every hour of my imprisonment were a company of heavenly tongues to praise him on my behalf; howbeit, my bonds were prolonged for PART I. LETTER XXVIII. 59 many hundred years. O that I could be the man who could procure my lord's glory to flow like a full sea, and blow like a mighty wind upon all the four airths of Scotland, England, and Ireland ! O if I could write a book of his praises ! O .fairest among the sons of men why stayest thou so long away ? O heavens, move fast ! O time, run^ run, and hasten the marriage-day ! for love is tormented with delays. angels, O seraphims who stand before him, O blessed spirits who now see his face, set him on high ! for when ye have worn your harps in his praises, all is too little, and is nothing, to cast the smell of the praise of that fair flower, that fragrant rose of Sharon, through many worlds ! Sir, take my hearty commendations to him, and tell him that 1 am sick of love. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, June 16, 1637. LETTER XXVIIL To his honoured and dear brother Alexander Gordon of Knockgray. DEAREST AND TRULY HONOURED BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I have seen no letter from you since I came to Aberdeen : I will not interpret it to be forgetful- ness. I am here in a fair prison. Christ is my sweet and honourable fellow-prisoner, and I his sad and joyful lord-prisoner, if I may speak so. I think this cross becometh me well, and is suitable to me in re- spect to my duty to suffer for Christ ; howbeit not in regard of my de- serving to be thus honoured. However it be, I see Christ is strong, even lying in the dust, in prison, and in banishment. Losses and disgraces are the wheels of Christ's triumphing chariot : in the suflTer- ings of his own saints, as he intendeth their good, so he intendeth his own glory, and that is the butt his arrows shoot at ; and Christ shooteth not at the rovers, he hitteth what he purposeth to hit : there- fore he doth make his own feckless and weak nothings, and those who are contempt of men, ' a new sharp threshing instrument having teeth, to thresh the mountains, and beat them small, and to make the hills as chaff", and to fan them,' Isaiah xli, 15, 16. What harder stuff", or harder grain for threshing out, than high and rocky mountains ; but the saints are God's threshing instruments to beat them all in chaff"; are we not God's leem vessels ! and yet when they cast us over an house we are not broken in shivers : we creep in under our Lord's wings in the great shower, and the water cannot go through these wings. It is folly then for men to say, this is not Christ's plea, he will lose the wedfee ; men are like to beguile him : that were indeed a strange play. Nay, I dare pledge my soul, and lay it in pawn on Christ's side of it, and be half-loser half-winner with my Master ! let fools laugh the fool's laughter, and scorn Christ, and bid the weeping captives in Babylon sing us one of the songs of Zion, play a spring to cheer up your sad-hearted God ; we may sing upon luck's head before-hand, even in our winter-storm, in the expectation of a summer sun at the turn of the year ; no created powers in hell, or out of hell, can mar our liord Jesus his music, nor spill our song of joy ; let us (J0 LETTER XXVIII. PART I. then be glad and rejoice in the salvation of our Lord : for faith had never yet cause to have wet cheeks, and hanging down brows, or to droop or die ; what can ail faith, seeing Christ sufTereth himself, with reverence to him be it spoken, to be commanded by it, and Christ commandeth all things. Faith may dance because Christ sings ; and we may come in the choir, and lift our hoarse and rough voices, and chirp and sing, and shout for joy with our Lord Jesus. We see oxen go to the shambles leaping and startling ; we see God's fed oxen, prepared for the day of slaughter, go dancing and singing down to tlie black chambers of hell ; and why should we go to heaven weeping, as if we were like to fall down through the earth for sorrow? If God were dead, if I may speak so, with reverence of him who liveth for ever and ever, and Christ buried, and rotten among the worms, we might have cause to look like dead folks : but * the Lord liveth, and blessed be the rock of our salvation.' Psalm xviii. 46. None have right to joy but we ; for joy is sown for us, and an ill summer or har- vest will not spoil the crop. The children of this world have much robbed joy that is not well come ; it is no good sport they laugh at : they steal joy, as it were, from God ; for he commandeth them to mourn and howl ; then let us claim our leel come and lawfully- conquished joy. My dear brother, I cannot but speak what I have felt ; seeing my Lord Jesus hath broken a box of spikenard upon the head of his poor prisoner, and it is hard to hide a sweet smell ; it is a pain to smother Christ's love ; it will be out whether we will or not. If we did but speak according to the matter, a cross for Christ should have another name ; yea, a cross, especially when he Cometh with his arms full of joys, is the happiest hard tree that ever was laid upon my weak shoulder. Christ and his cross to- gether are sweet company, and a blessed couple. My prison is my palace, my sorrow is with child of joy, my losses are rich losses, my pain easy pain, my heavy days are holy and happy days. I may tell a new tale of Christ to my friends. Oh if I could make a love- song of him, and could commend Christ, and tune his praises aright ! if I could set all tongues in Great Britain and Ireland to work, to help me to sing a new song of my Well-beloved ! if I could be a bridge over a water for my Lord Jesus to walk upon, and keep his feet dry ! if my poor bit heaven could go betwixt my Lord and blas- phemy, and dishonour ! upon condition he loved me. that my heart could say this word and abide by it for ever ! is it not great art and incomparable wisdom in my Lord, who can brmg forth such fair apples out of this crabbed tree of the cross 1 Nay, my Father's never- enough admired providence can make a fair feast out of a black devil ; nothing can come wrong to my Lord in his sweet working. I would even fall sound asleep in Christ's arms, and my sinful head on his holy breast, while he kisseth me ; were it not that often the wind turneth to the north, and whiles my sweet Lord Jesus is so, that he will neither give nor take, borrow nor lend with me, I complain he is not social ; 1 half call him proud and lordly of his company, and nice of his looks; which yet is not true. It would content me to give, howbeit he should not take ; I should be content to want his kisses at such times, pro- PART I. LETTER XXIX. Gl viding he would be content to come near hand, and take my wersh, dry, and feckless kisses ; but at that time he will not be entreated, but lets a poor soul stand still and knock, and never let on him that he heareth ; and then the old leavings and broken meat, and dry sighs, are greater cheer than I can tell ; all I have then is, that howbeit the law and wrath have gotten a decreet against me, I can yet hppen that meikle good in Christ, as to get a suspension, and to bring my cause in reasoning again before my Well-beloved. I desire but to be heard, and at last he is content to come and agree the matter with a fool, and forgive freely, because he is God. Oh, if men would glorify him, and taste of Christ's sweetness ! Brother, ye have need to be busy with Christ for this whorish kirk ; I fear least Christ cast water upon Scot- land's coal : nay, I know Christ and his wife will be heard, he will plead for the broken covenant. Arm you against that time. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R, Aberdeen, June 16, 1637, LETTER XXIX. To tlie Lady Kilconquhair. MISTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be to you ; I am glad to hear that you liave your face homewards towards your Father's house, now when so many are for a home nearer hand ; but your Lord calleth you to another life and glory than is to be found hereaway : and therefore I would counsel you to make sure the charters and rights which ye have to salvation. You came to this life about a necessary and weighty business, to tryst with Christ anent your precious soul, the eternal salvation of it : this is the most necessary business ye have ia this life ; and your other adoes, beside this, are but toys, and fea- thers, and dreams, and fancies : this is in the greatest haste, and should be done first. Means are used in the gospel to draw on a meeting betwixt Christ and you : if ye neglect your part of it, it is as if you would tear the contract before Christ's eyes, and give up the match, that there shall be no more communing of that business. I know other lowers beside Christ are in suit of you, and your soul wanteth not many wooers : but I pray you make a chaste virgin of your soul, and let it love but one ; most worthy is Christ alone of all your soul's love, howbeit your love were higher than the heaven, and deeper than the lowest of this earth, and broader than this world. Many, alas ; too many, make a common strumpet of their soul, for every lover that cometh to the house. Marriage with Christ would put your love and your heart by the gate out of the way, and out of the eye of all other unlawful suitors ; and then you had a ready answer for all others, I am already promised away to Christ, the match is concluded, my soul hath a husband already, and it cannot have two husbands. Oh, if the world did but know what a smell the ointments of Christ cast, and how ravishing his beauty is, even the beauty of the fairest of the sons of men, and how sweet and powerful his voice is, the voice of thnt one (j2 letter XXIX. PART I. Well-beloved ; certainly where Christ cometh he runneth away with the soul's love, so that they cannot command it. I would far rather look but through the hole of Christ's door, to see but the one half of his fairest and most comely face, (for he looketh like heaven) suppose I should never win in to see his excellency and glory to the full, than to enjoy the flower, the bloom, and chiefest excellency of the glory and riches of ten worlds. Lord send me for my part, but the meanest share of Christ that can be given to any of the in-dwellers of the new Jerusalem. But I know my Lord is no niggard ; he can, and it becometh him well to give more than my narrow soul can re- ceive. If there were ten thousand thousand millions of worlds, and as many heavens full of men and angels, Christ would not be pinched to supply all our wants, and to fill us all. Christ is a well of life, but who knoweth how deep it is to the bottom? This soul of ours hath love, and cannot but love some fair one : O what a fair one, what an only one, what an excellent, lovely, ravishing one is Jesus ! Put the beauty of ten thousand thousand worlds of paradises like the garden of Eden in one ; put all trees, all flowers, all smells, all co- lours, all tastes, all joys, all sweetness, all loveUness in one : O what a fair and excellent thing would that be ? And yet it should be less to that fair and dearest Well-beloved, Christ, than one drop of rain to the whole seas, rivers, lakes, and fountains of ten thousand earths. O but Christ is heaven's wonder, and earth's wonder! What marvel that his bride saith, Cant. v. 16. 'He is altogether lovely?' O that black souls will not come and fetch all their love to this fair one ! O if I could invite and persuade thousands, and ten thousand times ten thousand of Adam's sons, to flock about my Lord Jesus, and to come and take their fill of love ! O pity for evermore, that there should be such a one as Christ Jesus, so boundless, so bottomless, and so incom- parable in infinite excellency and sweetness, and so few to take him ! Oh, oh, ye poor dry and dead souls, why will ye not come hither with your tomb vessels, and your empty souls, to this huge, and fair, and deep, and sweet well of hfe ; and fill all your tomb vessels ? O that Christ should be so large in sweetness and worth, and we so narrow, so pinched, so ebb, and so void of all happiness, and yet men will not take him ! they lose their love miserably, who will not besto^v it upon this lovely One. Alas ! these five thousand years, Adam's fools, his waster heirs, have been wasting and lavishing out their love and their affections upon black lovers, and upon black harlots, upon bits of dead creatures, and broken idols, upon this and that feckless creature ; and have not brought their love and their heart to Jesus. O pity, that fairness hath so few lovers ! O wo, wo to the fools of this world, who run by Christ to other lovers ! Oh misery, misery, misery, that comeli- ness can scarce get three or four hearts in a town or country 1 O that there is so much spoken, and so much written, and so much thought of creature-vanity ; and so little spoken, so little written, so little thought of my great, and incomprehensible, and never-enough wondered at Lord Jesus ! Why should I not curse this forlorn, and wretched world, that suffereth my Lord Jesus to lye his alone ? damned souls ! O miskenning world ! O blind ! beggarly, and poor souls ! bewitched PART I. LETTER XXIX. 63 fools ! what aileth you at Christ, that you run so from him ? I dare not challenge providence, that there are so few buyers, and so little sale^or such an excellent one as Christ. O the depth, and O the height of my Lord's ways, that's past finding out ! but O if men would once be wise, and not fall so in love with their own hell, as to pass by Christ and misken him ! but let us come near, and fill ourselves with Christ, and let his friends drink, and be drunken, and satisfy our hollow and deep desires with Jesus. Oh come all and drink at this living well ; come, drink and live for evermore, come, drink and welcome ; wel- come, saith our fairest Bridegroom ; no man getteth Christ with ill will, no man cometh and is not welcome : no man cometh and rueth his voy- age : all men speak well of Christ, who have been at him ; men and angels who know him will say more than I do, and think more of him than they can say. if I were misted and bewildered in my Lord's love! O if I were fettered and chained to it ! O sweet pain, to be pained for a sight of him ! O living death ! O good death ! lovely death, to die for love of Jesus ! that I should have a sore heart and a pained soul, for the want of the love of this and that idol ! Wo, wo to the mistaking of my miscarrying heart, that gapeth and crieth for creatures, and is not pained and cutted, and tortured, and in sorrow for the want of a soul-fill of Christ ! Oh that thou wouldst come near, my Beloved ! my fairest one, why standeth thou afar ! come hither, that I may be satiated with thy excellent love : O for an union ! O for a fellowship with Jesus ! O that I could buy with a price that lovely One, suppose hell's torments for a while were the price ! I cannot believe but Christ will rue upon his pained lovers, and come and ease sick hearts who sigh and swoon for want of Christ ; who dow bide Christ's love to be nice 1 What heaven can there be liker to hell, than to lust, and grein and dwine, and fall aswoon for Christ's love, and to want it ? is not this hell, and heaven woven thorough other ? is not this pain and joy, sweetness and sadness to be in one web, the one the weft the other the warp ? therefore I would Christ would let us meet and join together, the soul and Christ in other's arms. what meet- ing is like this, to see blackness, and beauty, contemptibleness and glory, highness and baseness, even a soul and Christ kiss one another ! Nay, but when all is done I may be wearied in speaking and writing ; But O how far am I from the right expression of Christ or his love ? I can neither speak, nor write feeling, nor tasting, nor smelling ; come feel, and smell, and taste Christ and his love, and ye shall call it more than can be spoken ; to write how sweet the honey-comb is, is not so lovely as to eat and suck the honey-comb ; one night's rest in a bed of love with Christ, will say more than heart can think, or tongue can utter. Neither need we fear crosses, or sigh or be sad for any thing that is on this side of heaven, if we have Christ : our crosses will never draw blood of the joy of the Holy Ghost, and peace of con- science ; our joy is laid up in such a high place, as temptations can- not climb up to take it down ; this world may boast Christ, but they dare not strike ; or if they strike they break their arm in fetching a Ptroke upon a rock. that we could put our treasure in Christ's Itand, and give him our gold to keep, and our crown. Strive, mis- 64 LETTER XXX, XXXI. PART I. tress, to throng through the thorns of this Hfe, to be at Christ : lose not sight of him in this cloudy and dark day ; sleep with him in your heart in the night ; learn not at the world to serve Christ, but ask himself the way ; the world is a false copy, and a lying guide to fol- low. Remember my love to your husband ; I wish all to him I have written here. The sweet presence, the long-lasting good-will of our God, the warmly and lovely comforts of our Lord Jesus be with you. Help me his prisoner in your prayers : for I remember you. Your's, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Aug. 8, 1637. LETTER XXX. To the Lady Forret. WORTHY MISTRESS, Grace, mercy, and peace be unto you. I long to hear from you f I hear Christ hath been that kind as to visit you with sickness, and to bring you to the door of the grave : but ye found the door shut (blessed be his glorious name) until ye be riper for eternity ; he will have more service of you : and therefore he seeketh of you, that henceforth ye be honest to your new Husband, the Son of God. We have all idol-love, and are whorishly incHned to love other things be- side our Lord, and therefore our Lord hunteth for our love more ways than one or two. Oh that Christ had his own of us ! I know he will not want you, and that is a sweet wilfulness in his love ; and ye have as good cause on the other part to be headstrong and peremptory in your love to Christ, and not to part or divide your love betwixt him and the world : if it were more, it is little enough, yea, too little for Christ. I am now every way in good terms with Christ ; he hath set a banished prisoner as a seal on his heart, and as a bracelet on his arm ; that crabbed and black tree of the cross laugheth upon me now ; the alarming noise of the cross is worse than itself. I love Christ's glooms better than the world's worm-eaten joys. Oh if all the king- dom were as I am, except these bonds ! My loss is gain ; my sadness joyful ; my bonds, liberty ; my tears comfortable ; this world is not worth a drink of cold water. Oh but Christ's love casteth a great heat ; hell, and all the salt sea, and the rivers of the earth, cannot quench it. I remember you to God ; ye have the prayers of a priso- ner of Christ. Grace, be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 9, 1637. LETTER XXXL To the Lady Kaskiberry. MADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I long to hear how your Ladyship is. I know not how to requite your Ladyship's kindness ; but your love to the saints. Madam, is laid up in heaven : I know it is for your Well-beloved Christ's sake, that ye make his friends so dear PART I. LETTER XXXII, XXXIII. 65 to you, and concern yourself so much in them. I am in this house of pilgrimage, every way in good case ; Christ is most kind and loving to my soul. It pleaseth him to feast with his unseen consolations, a stranger, and an exiled prisoner : and I would not exchange my Lord Jesus, with all the comfort out of heaven : his yoke is easy, and his burden is hght. This is his truth I now suffer for ; for he hath sealed it with his blessed presence : I know Christ shall yet win the day, and gain the battle in Scotland. Grace be \vith you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 7, 1637. LETTER XXXIL To Mr. James Bruce, Minister of the Gospel. REVEREND AND WELL-BELOVED BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Upon the nearest acquaint- ance, that we are Father's children, I thought good to write to you. My case in my bonds, for the honour of my royal Prince and King Jesus, is as good as becometh the witness of such a Sovereign King. At my first coming hither, I was in great heaviness, wresthng with challenges, being burdened in heart (as I am yet) for my silent sab- baths, and for a bereft people, young ones, new-born, plucked from the breasts, and the children's table drawn. I thought I was a dry tree cast over the dyke of the vineyard : but my secret conceptions of Christ's love, at his sweet and long-desired return to my soul, were found to be a he of Christ's love, forged by the tempter, and my own heart, and I am persuaded it was so. Now there is greater peace and seciuity within than before, the court is raised and dismissed, for it was not fenced in God's name. I was far mistaken, who should have summoned Christ for unkindness ; misted faith, and my fever conceived amiss of him : now, now, he is pleased to feast a poor pri- soner, and to refresh me with joy unspeakable and glorious ; so as the Holy Spirit is witness, that my sufferings are for Christ's truth ; and God forbid I should deny the testimony of the Holy Spirit, and make him a false witness. Now I testify under my hand, out of some small experience, that Christ's cause (even with the cross,) is better than the king's crown ; and that his reproaches are sweet, his cross perfumed, the walls of my prison fair and large, my losses gain. I desire you, my dear brother, help me to praise, and remember me in your prayer to God. Grace, grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 14, 1637. LETTER XXXm. To the Lady Earlstoim. MISTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be to you : I long to hear how your soul prospereth. I exhort you to go on in your journey ; your day is short, and your afternoon sun will soon go down ; make an end of your 9 66 Better xxxiv. part i. accounts with your Lord ; for death and judgment are tides that bide no man ; salvation is supposed to be at the door, and Christianity is thought an easy task ; but I find it hard, and the way strait and nar- row, were it not that my guide is content to wait on me, and to care for a tired traveller. Hurt not your conscience with any known sin. Let your children be as so many flowers, borrowed from God : if the flowers die or wither, thank God for a summer's loan of them, and keep good neighbourhood, to borrow and lend with him. Set your heart upon heaven, and trouble not your spirit with this clay-idol of the world, which is but vanity, and hath but the lustre of the rain-bow in the air, which cometh and goeth with a flying March shower : clay is the idol of bastards, not the inheritance of the children. My Lord hath been pleased to make many unknown faces laugh upon me, and hath made me well content of a borrowed fire-side, and a bor- rowed bed ; I am feasted with the joys of the Holy Ghost, and my royal King beareth my charges honourably. I love the smell of Christ's sweet breath better than the world's gold. I would I had help to praise him. The great messenger of the covenant, the Son of God, establish you on your Rock, and keep you to the day of his coming. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 7, 1637. LETTER XXXI Y. To Carletoun. WORTHY AND MUCH HONOURED, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I received your letter Irom my brother, to which I now answer particularly. I confess two things of myself: 1st, Wo, wo is me that men should think there is any thing in me ! He is my witness, before whom I am as crystal, that the secret house-devils, that bear me too often company, that this sink of corruption which I find within, maketh me go with low sails ; and if others saw what I see, they would look by me, but not to me. 2d, I laiow this shower of his free grace behoved to be on me, otherways I would have withered. I know also that I have need of a buffeting tempter, that grace may be put to exercise, and I kept low. Worthy and dear brother in our Lord Jesus, I write that from my heart which ye now read. 1st, I vouch that Christ, and sweating and sighing un- der his cross, is sweeter to me by far than all the kingdoms in the world could possibly be. 2d, If you and my dearest acquaintance in Christ, reap any fruit by my suffering, let me be weighed in God's even balance, if my joy be not fulfilled. What am I to carry the marks of such a great King 1 But howbeit I am a sink and sinful mass, a wretched captive of sin, my Lord Jesus can hew heaven out of worse timber than I am, if worse can be. 3d. I now rejoice with joy unspeakable and glorious, that I never purposed to bring Christ, nor the least hoof or hair-breadth of truth under trysting : I desired to have and keep Christ all alone and that he should never rub clothes with that black skinned harlot of Rome. I am now fully paid home, PART I. LETTER XXXIV. 67 SO that nothing aileth me for the present but love-sickness for a real possession of my fairest Well-beloved : I would give him my bond under my faith and hand, to frist heaven an hundred years longer, so being he would lay his holy face to my sometimes wet cheeks. Oh who would not pity me, to know how fain I would have the Kino- shaking the tree of life upon me, or letting me into the well of life with my old dish, that I might be drunken with the fountain here in the house of my pilgrimage ! I cannot, nay, I would not be quit of Christ's love. He hath left the mark behind where he gripped : he goeth away, and leaveth me and his burning love to wrestle together, and I can scarce win my meat of his love, because of absence : my Lord giveth me but hungry half kisses, which serve to feed pain, and increase hunger, but do not satisfy my desires ; his dieting of my soul for this race maketh me lean. I have gotten the wail and choice of Christ's crosses, even the tythe and the flower of the gold of all crosses, to bear witness to the truth ; and herein find I liberty, joy, access, life, comfort, love, faith, submission, patience, and resolution to take delight in on-waiting ; and withal in my race he hath come near me, and let me see the gold and crown ; what then want I, but fruition and real enjoyment, which is reserved to my country 1 Let no man think he shall lose at Christ's hands in sufiering for him. 4th, for these present trials, they are most dangerous ; for people shall be stolen off their feet with well washen and white-skinned pretences of indifferency ; but it is the power of the great Antichrist working in this land. Wo, wo, wo be to apostate Scotland ; There is wrath and a cup of the red wine of the wrath of God Almighty in the Lord's hand, that they shall drink and spue, and fall and not rise again. The star called wormwood and gall, is fallen in the fountains, and rivers, and hath made them bitter ; the sword of the Lord is furbished against the idol-shepherds of the land ; women shall bless the barren womb and miscarrying breast ; all hearts shall be f*int, and all knees 5?hall tremble ; an end is coming ; the Leopard and the Lion shall M'atch over our cities ; houses great and fair shall be desolate without an inhabitant ; the Lord hath said, ' Pray not for this people, for I have taken my peace from them :' yet the Lord's third part shall come through the fire, as refined gold for the treasure of the Lord, and the outcasts of Scotland shall be gathered together again, and the wilder- ness shall blossom as the flower, and bud, and grow as the rose of Sharon, and great shall be the glory of the Lord upon Scotland. 5th, I am here assaulted with the learned and pregnant wits of this king- dom ; but, all honour be to my Lord, truth but laughs at bemisted and bhnd scribes, and disputers of this world : and God's wisdom confoundeth them, and Christ triumpheth in his own strong truth, that speaketh for itself. 6th, I doubt not but my Lord is preparing me for heavier trials ; I am most ready at the good pleasure of my Lord, in the strength of his grace, for any thing he shall be pleased to call me to ; neither shall the last black-faced messenger, death, be holden at the door, when it shall knock. If my Lord will take honour of the like of me, how glad and joyful shall my soul be! Let Christ come out with me to an hotter battle than this, and I shall fear no flesh. I 68 LETTER XXXV. PART I. know that my Master will win the day, and that he hath taken the ordering of my sufTerings in his own hand. 7th, As for my dehver- ance, that miscarrieth, I am here, by my Lord's grace, to lay my hand on my mouth, to be silent and wait on ; my Lord Jesus is on his journey for my deliverance ; 1 will not grudge that he runneth not so fast as I would have him ; on-waiting till the swelling rivers fall, and till my Lord arise as a mighty man after strong wine, shall be my best ; I have not yet resisted to blood. 8th, how often am I laid in the dust, and urged by the tempter, who can ride his own errands upon our lying apprehensions, to sin against the unchangeable love of my Lord ; when I think upon the sparrows and swallows, that build their nests in the kirk of Anwoth, and of my dumb sabbaths, my sorrowful bleared eyes look asquint upon Christ, and present him as angry. But in this trial all honour to our princely and royal King, faith saileth fair before the wind, with top-sail up, and carrieth the passenger through. I lay inhibitions upon my thoughts, that they receive no slanders of my only, only beloved ; let him even say out of his own mouth. There is no hope ; yet I will die in that sweet beguile. It is not so ; I shall see the salvation of God. Let me be deceived really, and never win to dry land ; it is my joy to believe under the water, and to die with faith in my hand gripping Christ ; let my conceptions of Christ's love go to the grave with me, and to hell with me, I may not, I dare not quit them. I hope to keep Christ's pawn ; if he never come to loose it, let him see to his own promise. I know, presump- tion, howbeit it be made of stoutness, Avill not thus be wilful in heavy trials. Now, my dearest in Christ, the great messenger of the co- venant, the only wise and all-sufficient Jehovah, estabUsh you to the end. I hear the Lord hath been at your house, and hath called home your vnfe to her rest. I know. Sir, ye see the Lord loosing the pins of your tabernacle, and wooing your love from this plaistered and over-gilded world, and calling upon you to be making yourself ready to go to your Father's country, which shall be a sweet fruit of that visi- tation. Ye know, to send the Comforter, was the King's word when he ascended on high : ye have claim to, and interest in, that pro- mise. Remember my love in Christ to your father ; shew him it is late and black night with him ; his long lying at the water-side, is that he may look his papers ere he take shipping, and be at a point for his last answer before his Judge and Lord. All love, all mercy, all grace, and peace, all multiplied saving consolations, all joy and faith in Christ, all stability, and confirming strength of grace, and the good-will of him that dwelt in the bush, be with you. Your unworthy Brother in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, June 15, 1637. LETTER XXXV. To Marion M'Naught. WORTHY AND DEAREST IN THE LORD, 1 EVER loved (since I knew you,) that little vineyard of the Lord's planting in Galloway, but now much more, since I have heard that he PART I. LETTER XXXV. C9 who hath his fire in Zion, and his furnace in Jerusalem, hath been pleased to set up a furnace amongst you with the first in this kingdom : he who maketh old things new, seeing Scotland an old drossy and rusted kirk, is beginning to make a new clean bride of her, and to bring a young chaste wife to himself out of the fire. This fire shall be quenched, so soon as Christ has brought a clean spouse through the fire ! Therefore, my dearly beloved in the Lord, fear not a worm : fear not worm Jacob ; Christ is in that plea, and shall win the plea ; charge an unbelieving heart, under the pain of treason against our great and royal King Jesus, to dependence by faith, and quiet on- waiting on our Lord : get you into your chambers, and shut the doors about you ; in, in with speed to your strong hold, ye prisoners of hope : ye doves, flee unto Christ's windows till the indignation be over, and the storm be past : glorify the Lord in your sufferings, and take his banner of love and spread over you ; others will follow you, if they see you strong in the Lord ; their courage shall take life from your Christian courage : look up and see who is coming, lift up your head, he is coming to save, in garments dyed in blood, and travelling in the greatness of his strength. I laugh, I smile, I leap for joy, to see Christ coming to save you so quickly. O such wide steps Christ taketh ! three or four hills are but a step to him ; he skippeth over the mountains. Christ hath set a battle betwixt his poor weak saints and his enemies ; he waileth the weapons for both parties, and saith to the enemies, take you a sword of steel, law, authority, parliaments, and ■kings upon your side, that is your armour ; and he saith, to his saints I give you a feckless tree-sword in your hand, and that is, suffering, receiving of strokes, spoiling of your goods ; and with your tree-sword ye shall get and gain the victory. Was not Christ dragged through the ditches of deep distresses and great straits 1 and yet Christ, who is your head, hath win through with his life, howbeit not with a whole skin. Ye are Christ's members, and he is drawing his members through the thorny hedge up to heaven after him : Christ one ^ay will not have so much as a pained toe ; but there are great pieces and portions of Christ's mystical body not yet within the gates of the great high city, the new Jerusalem : and the dragon will strike at Christ, so long as there is one bit or member of Christ's body out of heaven. I tell you, Christ will make new work out of old for-casten Scotland, and gather the old broken boards of his tabernacle, and pin them, and nail them together : but bills and supplications are up in heaven, Christ hath coffers full of them ; there is mercy on the other side of this his cross ; a good answer to all our bills is agreed upon. I must tell you what lovely Jesus, fair Jesus, King Jesus, hath done to my soul : sometimes he sendeth me out a standing drink, and whispereth a word through the wall ; and I am well content of kindness at the se- cond hand ; his bode is ever welcome to me, be what it will ; but at other times he will be messenger himself, and I get the cup of salva- tion out of his own hand, (he drinking to me) and we cannot rest till we be in other's arms ; and how sweet is a fresh kiss from his holy mouth ! his breathing that goeth before a kiss upon my poor soul, is sweet, and hath no fault, but that it is too short ; I am careless, and 70 LETTER XXXVI. PART I. stand not much on this, howbeit loins, and back, and slioulders, and head rive in pieces, in stepping up to my Father's house. I know my Lord can make long, and broad, and high, and deep glory to his name, out of this bit feckless body ; for Christ looketh not what stuff he maketh glory out of. My dearly beloved, ye have often refreshed me but this is put up in my Master's account ; ye have liim debtor for me : but if ye will do any thing for me, (as I know ye will) now in my extremity, tell all my dear friends, that a prisoner is fettered and chained in Christ's love, Lord, never loose the fetters ; and ye and they together take my heartiest commendations to my Lord Jesus, and thank him for a poor friend. I desire your husband to read this letter : I send him a prisoner's blessing ; I will be obliged to him if he will be willing to suffer for my dear Master ; suffering is the pro- fessor's golden garment ; there shall be no losses on Christ's side of it. Ye have been witnesses of much joy betwixt Christ and me at communion-feasts, the remembrance whereof (howbeit I be feasted in secret) holdeth my heart ; for I am put from the board head, and the King's first mess to his by-board, and his broken meat is sweet unto me. I thank my Lord for borrowed crumbs no less than when I was feasted at the communion-table tit Anworth and Kircudbright. Pray that I may get one day of Christ in public, as I have had long since, before my eyes be closed. O that my Master would take up house again, and lend me the keys of his wine-cellar again, and God send me borrowed drink till then ! Remember my love to Christ's kinsmen with you. I pray for Christ's Father's blessing to them all. Grace be with you ; a prisoner's blessing be with you : I write it, and abide by it, God shall be glorious in Marion M'Naught, when this stormy blast shall be over. woman, beloved of God, believe, rejoice, be strong in the Lord ! Grace is thy portion. Your Brother in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, June 15th, 1G37. LETTER XXXVL To John Gordon, at Kisco, in Galloway. JMY WORTHY AND DEAR BROTHER. MispEND not your short sand-glass, which runneth very fast ; seek your Lord in time. Let me obtain of you a letter under your hand, for a promise to God, by his grace to take a new course of walking with God : heaven is not at the next door ; I find it hard to be a Christian ; there is no little thrusting and thronging to thrust in at lieaven's gates ; it is a castle taken by force : ' Many shall strive to enter in, and shall not be able.' I beseech and obtest you in the Lord, make conscience of rash and passionate oaths, of raging and sudden avenging anger, of night-drinking, of needless companionry, of sab- bath-breaking, of hurting any under you by word or deed, of hating your very enemies. ' Except ye receive the kingdom of God as a little child (and be as meek and sober minded as a babe) ye cannot enter into the kingdom of God :' that is a word which should touch you near, and make you stoop and cast vourself down, and make PART I. LETTER XXXVII. 71 your great spirit fall. I know this will not be easily done, but I re- commend it to you, as you tender your part of the kingdom of hea- ven. Brother, I may from new experience, speak of Christ to you. O if ye saw in him what I see ! A river of God's unseen joys have flowed from bank to brae over my soul since I parted with you : I wish I wanted part, so being ye might have ! that your soul might be sick of love for Christ, or rather satiate with him : this clay idol, the world, would seem to you then not worth a fig ; time will eat you out of possession of it : when the eye-strings break, and the breath grow- eth cold, and the imprisoned soul looketh out of the windows of the clay house, ready to leap out into eternity, what would you then give for a lamp full of oil 1 seek it now, I desire you to correct and curb banning, swearing, lying, drinking ; sabbath-breaking, and idle spend- ing of the Lord's day in absence from the kirk, as far as your authority reacheth in that parish. I hear a man is to be thrust into that place, to the which I have God's right ; I know ye should have a voice by God's word in that. Acts i. 15, 16, to the end, and Acts vi. 3, 6. Ye would be loath that any prelate should put you out of your possession earthly, and this is your right. I write to your wife. Grace be with you. Your Loving Pastor, S. R, Aberdeen, March 14, 1637. LETTER XXXVII. To the Lady Halhill. DEAR AND CHRISTIAN LADY, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. I longed much to write to your Ladyship ; but now, the Lord offering a fit occasion, I would not omit to do it. I cannot but acquaint your Ladyship with the kind dealing of Christ to my soul, in this house of my pilgrimage, that your Ladyship may know that he is as good as he is called ; for at my first entry into this trial, (being casten down and troubled with chal- lenges and jealousies of his love, whose name and testimony I now bear in my bonds) I feared nothing more than that I was casten over the dyke of the vineyard, as a dry tree ; but, blessed be his great nniiie, the dry tree was in the fire and was not burnt, his dew came down and quickened the root of a withered plant ; and now he is come again with joy, and hath been pleased to feast his exiled and afllicted prisoner with the joy of his consolations : now I weep, but am not sad ; I am chastened but I die not ; I have loss, but I want nothing ; this water cannot drown me, this fire cannot burn me, because of the good-will of him that dwelt in the bush. The worst things of Christ, his reproaches, his cross, is better than Egypt's treasures. He hath opened his door, and taken into his house of wine a poor sinner, and hath left me so sick of love for my Lord Jesus, that if heaven were at my disposing, I would give it for Christ, and would not be content to go to heaven, except I were persuaded Christ were there ; I would not give nor exchange my bonds for the P. velvets ; nor my prison for their coaches ; nor my sighs for all the world's laughter : this clay- 72 LETTER XXXVIII. PART I. idol, the world, hath no great court in my soul : Christ hath come and run away to heaven with my heart and my love, so that neither heart nor love is mine ; I pray God, Christ may keep both without rever- sion. In my estimation, as I am now disposed, if my part of this world's clay were rouped and sold, I would think it dear of a drink of water. I see Christ's love is so kingly, that it will not abide a mar- row : it must have a throne all alone in the soul ; and I see apples be- guile children, howbeit they be worm-eaten : the moth-eaten plea- sures of this present world make children believe ten is a hundred, and yet all that are here are but shadows : if they would draw by the curtain that is hanged betwixt them and Christ, they should see them- selves fools who have so long miskenned the Son of God, I seek no more, next to heaven, but that he may be glorified in a prisoner of Christ ; and that in my behalf many would praise his high and glo- rious name who heareth the sighing of the prisoner. Remember my service to the Laird your husband, and to your son my acquaintance : I wish Christ had his young love, and that in the morning he would start to the gate, to. seek that which this world knoweth not, and therefore doth not seek it. The grace of our Lord Jesus Christ be with you. Your's, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R> Aberdeen, March 14, 1637. LETTER XXXVIIL To the Right Honourable my Lord Lindsay, RIGHT HONOURABLE AND MV VERY GOOD LORD, Grace, mercy, and peace be to your Lordship ; pardon my boldness to express myself to your Lordship at this so needful a time, when your wearied and friendless mother kirk is looking round about her, to see if any of her sons doth really bemoan her desolation : Therefore,, my dear and worthy Lord, I beseech you in the bowels of Christ, pity that widow-hke sister and spouse of Christ. I know, her husband is not dead, but he seemeth to be in another country, and seeth well, and beholdeth who are his true and tender-hearted friends, who dare ven- ture under the water to bring out to dry-land sinking truth, and who of the nobles will cast up their arm, to ward a blow off the crowned head of our royal Lawgiver who reigneth in Zion, who will plead and con- tend for Jacob, in the day of his controversy. It is now time, my worthy and noble Lord, for you who are the httle nurse-fathers (under our sovereign Prince) to put on courage for the Lord Jesus, and to take up a fallen orphan, speaking out of the dust, and to embrace in your arms Christ's bride : he hath no more in Scotland that is the de- light of his eyes, but that one little sister, whose breasts were once well-fashioned ; she once ravished her Well-beloved with her eyes, and overcame him with her beauty ; ' She looked forth as the morning, fair as the moon, clear as the sun, terrible as an army with banners : her stature was like the palm-tree, and her breasts like clusters of grapes, and she held the king in his galleries.' Cant. iv. 9. and vi. 10. and vii. 5, 7. But now the crown is fallen from her head, and her gold PART r. LETTER XXXVIII. /'J waxed dim, and our white Nazarites are become black as the coal. Blessed are they who will come out and help Christ against the mighty: The shields of the earth and the nobles are debtors to Christ for their honour, and should bring their glory and honour to the new Jerusalem : Rev. xxi. 24. Alas that great men should be so far from subjecting themselves to the sweet yoke of Christ, that they burst his bonds asunder, and think they dow not go on foot when Christ is on horseback, and that every nod of Christ, commanding as a king, is a load like a mountain of iron ; and therefore they say, This man shall not reigii over us, we must have another king than Christ in his own house. Therefore kneel to Christ, and kiss his Son, and let him have your Lordship's vote, as your alone law-giver. I am sure, when you leave the old waste inns, of this perishing life, and shall reckon with your host, and depart hence, and take shipping, and make over for eternity, which is the yonder side of time, and a sandglass of threescore short years is running out ; to look over your shoulder, then, to that which ye have done, spoken, and suffered for Christ, his dear bride, that he ransomed with that blood which is more precious than gold, and for truth, the freedom of Christ's kingdom : your accounts shall more sweetly smile and laugh upon you, than if you had two worlds of gold to leave to your posterity. O my dear Lord, consider that our Master, eternity, and judgment, and the last reckoning, will be upon us in the twinkling of an eye ; the blast o^ the last trumpet, now hard at hand, will cry down all acts of parliament, all the determinations of pre- tended assemblies, against Christ our law-giver : there will be shortly a proclamation by one standing in the clouds, that time shall be no more, and that courts with kings of clay shall be no more ; and prisons, confinements, forfeitures of nobles, wrath of kings, hazard of lands, •houses, and name, for Christ, shall be no more. This world's span- length of time is drawn now to less than half an inch, and to the point of the evening of the day of this old gray-hair'd world : and there- fore be fixed and fast for Christ and his truth for a time ; and fear not him whose life goeth out at his nostrils, who shall die as a man. I am persuaded Christ is responsal, and law-biding, to make recom- pense for any thing that is hazarded or given out for him : losses for Christ are but our goods given out in bank in Christ's hand. Kings earthly are well-favoured little clay gods, time's idols ; but a sight of our invisible King shall decry and darken all the glory of this world. At the day of Christ, truth shall be tmth, and not treason : alas ! it is pitiful, that silence, when the thatch of our Lord's house hath taken tire, is now the flower and bloom of court and state-wisdom ; and to cast a covering over a good profession, as if it blushed at light, is thought a canny and sure way through this life ; but the safest way, I am persuaded, is to lose and win with Christ, and to hazard fairly tor him ; for heaven is but a company of noble venturers for Christ. I dare hazard my soul, Christ shall grow green and blossom like the Rose of Sharon yet in Scotland : howbeit now his leaf seemeth to wither, and his root to dry up. Your noble ancestors have been en- rolled amongst the worthies of this nation, as the sure friends of the Bridegroom, and valiant for Christ : I hope you will follow on to come 10 74 LETTER XXXIX. PART I, to the streets for the same Lord. The world is still at yea and nay with Christ. It shall be your glory, and the sure foundation of your house, (now when houses are tumbling down, and birds building their nests, and thorns and briers are growing up, where nobles did spread a table) if you engage your estate and nobility for this noble King Jesus, with whom the created powers of the world are still in tops ; all the world shall fall before him, and, as God liveth, every arm lifted up to take the crown off his royal head, or that refuseth to hold it on his head, shall be broken from the shoulder blade : the eyes that behold Christ weep in sackcloth, and wallow in his blood, and will not help, even these eyes shall rot away in their eye-holes. if ye and the nobles of this land saw the beauty of that world's wonder, Jesus our King, and the glory of him who is angels' wonder, and heaven's wonder for excellency ! Oh what would men count of clay estates, of time-eaten life, of worm-eaten and moth-eaten worldly glory, in comparison of that fairest of God's creation, the Son of the Father's delights. I have but small experience of suffering for him ; but let my judge and witness in heaven lay my soul in the balance of justice, if I find not a young heaven, and a little paradise of glorious com- forts and soul-delighting love-kisses of Christ here beneath the moon, in suffering for him and his truth : and that the glory, joy, and peace, and fire of love, I thought had been kept while supper-time, when we shall get leisure to feast our fill upon Christ ; I have felt it in glorious beginnings in my bonds for this princely Lord Jesus. Oh ! it is my sorrow, my daily pain, that men will not come and see : I would not be ashamed to believe that it should be possible for any soul to think that he could be a loser for Christ, suppose he should lend Christ the lofdship of Lindsay, or some such great worldly estate. Therefore my worthy and dear Lord, set now your face against the opposite oU Jesus, and let your soul take courage to come under his banner, to appear as his soldier for him ; and the blessings of a falling kirk, the prayers of the prisoners of hope who wait for Zion's joy, and the good will of him who dwelt in the bush, and it burned not, shall be with you. To his saving grace I recommend your Lordship and youv house, and am still Christ's prisoner, and Your Lordship's obliged servant in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7th, 1637. LETTER XXXIX. To my Lord Boyd. jMV very honourable and good lord, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am glad to hear that you, in the morning of your short day, mind Christ ; and that you love the ho- nour of his crown and kingdom. I beseech your Lordship, begin now to frame your love, and to cast it in no mould but one, that it may be for Christ only ; for when your love is now in the framing and making, it will take best with Christ ; if any other than Jesus get a grip of it, when it is green and young, Christ will be an uncouth and strange world to you. Promise the lodging of your soul first away to Christ., PART I. LETTER XXXIX. ii> and stand by your first covenant, and keep to Jesus, that he may find you honest. It is easy to master an arrow, and to set it right, ere the string be drawn : but when once it is shot and in the air, and the flight begun, then ye have no more power to command it ; it were a blessed thing, if your love could now level only at Christ, that his foir face were the black of the mark ye shot at ; for when your love is loosed, and out of your grips, and in its motion to fetch home an idol, and hath taken a whorish gadding journey, to seek an unknown and strange lover, ye shall not then have power to call home the arrow, or to be master of your love ; and ye shall hardly give Christ what ye scarcely have yourself. I speak not this, as if youth itself could fetch heaven and Christ ; believe it, my Lord, it is hardly credible what a nest of dangerous temptations youth is ; how inconsiderate, foolish, proud, vain, heady, rash, profane, and careless of God, this piece of your life is ; so that the devil findeth in that age a garnished and well swept house, and seven devils worse than himself, for then afiections are on horseback, lofty and stirring ; then the old man hath blood, lust, much will, and little wit, and hands, feet, wanton eyes, profane ears, as his servants, and as king's officers at command, to come and go at his will ; then a green conscience is as supple as the twig of a young tree ; it is for every way, every religion, every lewd course pre- vaileth with it : and therefore, O what a sweet couple, what a glorious yoke are youth and grace, Christ and a young man ! This is a meeting not to be found in every town. None who have been at Christ can bring back to your Lordship a report answerable to his worth ; for Christ cannot be spoken of, or commended according to his worth : come and see, is the most faithful messenger to speak of him ; little persuasion would prevail where this were. It is impossible in the setting out of Christ's love, to lie and pass over truth's line : the dis- courses of angels, or love-books written by the congregation of sera- phims (all their wits being conjoined and melted into one) would for ever be in the nether side of truth, and plentifully declaring the thing as it is. The infiniteness, the boundlessness of that incomparable ex- cellency that is in Jesus, is a great word. God send me, if it were but the relics and leavings, or an ounce weight or two, of his matcii- less love ; and suppose I never got another heaven (provided this blessed fire was evermore burning) I could not but be happy for ever. Come hither, then, and give out your money wisely for bread ; come here, and bestow your love. I have cause to speak this, because ex- cept ye enjoy and possess Christ, ye will be a cold friend to his spouse; for it is love to the husband that causeth kindness to the wife. I dare swear it were a blessing to your house, the honor of your honour, the flower of your credit, now in your place, and as far as ye are able, to lend your hand to your weeping mother, even your oppressed and spoil- ed mother-kirk. If ye love her, and bestir yourself for her, and ha- zard the lordship of Boyd for the recovery of her vail, which thft smiting watchmen have taken from her, then surely her husband will scorn to sleep in your common or reverence. Bits of lordships are little to him, who hath many crowns on his head, and the kingdoms -of the Avorld in the hollow of his hand. Court, honour, glory, riclies. '6 LETTER XXXIX. PART I. stability of houses, favour of princes, are all on his finger ends. O what glory were it to lend your honour to Christ, and to his Jerusa- lem. Ye are one of Zion's born sons; your honourable and Christian parents would venture you upon Christ's errands : therefore I beseech you, by the mercies of God, by the death and wounds of Jesus, by the hope of your glorious inheritance, and by the comfort and hope of the joyful presence ye would have at the water side, when ye are putting your foot in the dark grave, take courage for Christ's, and the honour of his free kingdom ; for, howbeit ye be a young flower, and green before the sun, ye know not how soon d^,ath will cause you cast your bloom, and wither root, and branch, and leaves ; and therefore write up what ye have to do for Christ, and make a treasure of good works, and begin in time. By appearance ye have the advantage of the brae ; see what ye can do for C hrist, against these who are waiting while Christ's tabernacle fall, that they may run away with the boards thereof, and build their nests on Zion's ruins. They are blind who see not lowns now pulling up the steaks, and breaking the cords, and rending the curtains of Christ's sometimes beautiful tent in this land : Antichrist is lifting that tent up upon his shoulders, and going away with it ; and when Christ and the gospel are out of Scotland, dream not that your houses shall thrive, and that it shall go well with the nobles of the land. As the Lord liveth, the streams of your waters shall become pitch, and the dust of 'vour land brimstone, and your land shall become burning pitch, and the owl and the raven shall dwell in your houses : and where your tablo stood, there shall grow briers and nettles, Isa. xxxiv. 9, 11. The Lord gave Christ and his gospel as a pawn to Scotland ; the watch- men have fallen foul, and lost their part of the pawn ; and who seeth not, that God hath dried up their right eye, and their right arm, and hath broken the shepherds' staves, and men are treading in their hearts upon such unsavoury salt, that is good for nothing else ; If ye, the nobles, put away the pawn also, and refuse to plead the controver- sy of Zion with the professed enemies of Jesus, ye have done with it. Oh ! where is the courage and zeal of the ancient nobles of this land, who with their swords, and hazard of life, honour, and houses, brought Christ to our hands 1 and now the nobles cannot be but guilty of shouldering out Christ, and murdering of the souls of their posterity, if they shall hide themselves, and lurk in the lee-side of the hill, till the wind blow down the temple of God. It goeth now under the name of wisdom, for men to cast their cloak over Christ and their profes- sion, as if Christ were stolen goods, and durst not be avouched : though this be reputed a piece of policy, yet God esteemeth such men to be but state fools and court gouks, whatever they, or other heads of wit like to them, think of themselves, since their damnable silence is the ruin of Christ's kingdom. O but it be true honour and glory to be the fast friends of the Bridegroom, and to our own Christ's bleeding head, and his forsaken cause; and to contend legally, and in the wis- dom of God, for our sweet Lord Jesus, and his kingly crown. But I will believe your Lordship will take Christ's honour to heart, and be a mail in the streets (us the prophet speaketh) for the Lord and hh PART 1. LETTER XL. 77 truth. To his rich grace and sweet presence, and the everlasting con- solation of the promised Comforter, I recommend your Lordship, and am Your Lordship's in his sweet Lord Jesus. S. R, Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER XL. To my Lady Boyd. MY VERY HONOURABLE AND CHRISTIAN LADY, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. I received your letter, and am well pleased that your thoughts of Christ stay with you, and that your purpose still is, by all means, to take the kingdom of heaven by violence, which is no small conquest ; and it is a degree of watchful- ness and thankfulness also, to observe sleepiness and unthankfulness. We have all good cause to complain of false light, that playeth the thief, and stealeth away the lantern ; when it cometh to the practice of constant walking with God, our journey is ten times a day broken in ten pieces ; Christ getteth but only broken, and halfed, and tired work of us, and alas ! too often against the hair. I have been some- what nearer the Bridegroom ; but when I draw nigh and see my vile- ness, for shame I would be out of his presence again ; but yet desire of his soul-refreshing love putteth blushing me under an arrest. O what am I, so loathsome a burden of sin, to stand beside such a beau- tiful and holy Lord, such an high and lofty one, who inhabiteth eter- nity ! But, since it pleaseth Christ to condescend to such an one as me, let shamefacedness be laid aside, and lose itself in his condescend- ing love. I would heartily be content to keep a corner of the King'j^ hall ; Oh if I were at the yonder end of my weak desires ! then should I be where Christ, my Lord and Lover, lives and reigns ; there I should be everlastingly solaced with the sight of his face, and satisfied with the surpassing sweetness of his matchless love ; but truly now I stand in the nether side of my desires, and with a drooping head, and panting heart. I look up to fair Jesus standing afar off from us, while corrup- tion and death shall scour and refine the body of clay, and rot out the bones of the old man of sin. In the mean time, we are blessed in sending word to the Beloved, that we love to love him ; and till then there is joy in wooing, suiting, lying about his house, looking in at the windows, and sending a poor soul's groans and wishes through a hole of the door to Jesus, till God send a glad meeting : and blessed be God, that after a low ebb, and so sad a word. Lord Jesus it is long since I saw thee ; that even then, our wings are growing, and the absence of sweet Jesus breedeth a new fleece of desires and longings for him. I know no man hath a velvet cross, but the cross is made of that which God will have it. But verily, howbeit it be no warrantable market to buy a cross, yet I dare not say, O that I had liberty to sell Christ's cross, lest therewith also I should sell joy, comfort, sense of love, patience, and the kind visits of a Bridegroom : and therefore blessed be God, we get crosses unbought and good cheap. Sure I am, it were better to buv crosses for Christ tlian to sell them : howbeit nei- 78 LETTER XLI. PART I. ther be allowed to us. And for Christ's joyful coming and going, which your Ladyship speaketh of, I bear with it, as love can permit : it should be enough to me, if I were wise, that Christ will have joy and sorrow halvers of the life of the saints, and that each of them should have a share of our days : as the night and the day are kindly partners and halvers of time, and take it up betwixt them ; but if sorrow be the greediest halver of our days here, I know joy's day shall dawn, and do more than recompense all our sad hours. Let my Lord Jesus (since he will do so) weave my bit and span-length of time with white and black, well and wo, with the bridegroom's coming and his sad departure, as warp and woof in one web ; and let the rose be neighboured with the thorn ; yet hope, that maketh not ashamed, hath written a letter and lines of hope to the mourners in Zion, that it shall not be long so : when we are over the water, Christ shall cry down crosses, and up heaven for evermore ; and down hell, and down death, and down sin, and down sorrow ; and up glory, up life, up joy for evermore. In this hope I sleep quietly in Christ's bo- som till he come, who is not slack ; and would sleep so, were it not the noise of the devil, and sin's feet, and the cries of an unbelieving heart awaken me ; but, for the present, I have nothing whereof I can accuse Christ's cross. Oh if I could please myself in Christ only ! I hope, Madam, your sons will improve their power for Jesus ; for there is no danger, neither is there any question or justling betwixt Christ and authority, though our enemies falsely state the question, as if Christ and authority could not abide under one roof; the question only is betwixt Christ and men in authority. Authority is for and from Christ, and sib to him ; how then can he make a plea with it ? Nay, the truth is, worms and gods of clay are risen up against Christ. If the fruit of your Ladyship's womb be helpers of Christ, ye have good ground to rejoice in God. All your Ladyship can expect for your good will to me and my brother (a wronged stranger for Christ) is the prayers of a prisoner of Jesus, to whom I recommend your Ladyship, and house and children, and in Avhom I am, Madam, your Ladyship's in Christ, 8. R. Aberdeen, Sept. », 1637. LETTER XLI. To the Lady Culross. MADAM, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. 1 dare not say I wonder that ye have never written to me in my bonds, because I am not ignorant of the cause ; yet I could not but write to you. I know not whether joy or heaviness in my soul carrieth it away : sorrow, without any mixture of sweetness, hath not often love-thoughts of Christ ; but I see the devil can insinuate himself, and ride his errands upon the thoughts of a poor distressed prisoner. I am wo that I am making Christ my unfriend, by seeking pleas against him, because I am the first in the kingdom put to utter silence ; and because I cannot preach )ay Lord's righteousness in the great congregation. I am. notwith- PART I. LETTER XLI. 79 standing, the less solicitous how it go, if there be not wrath in my cup. But I know, I but claw my wounds when my Physician hath forbidden me : I would believe in the dark upon luck's head, and take my hazard -of Christ's good-will, and rest on this, that in my fever my Physician is at my bed-side, and that he sympathizeth with me when I sigh. My borrowed house, and another man's bed and fire-side, and other losses, have no room in my sorrow ; a greater heat to eat out a less fire, is a good remedy for some burning. I believe, when Christ draweth blood, he hath skill to cut the right vein ; and that he hath taken the whole ordering and disposing of my sufferings. Let liim tutor me, and tutor my crosses, as he thinketh good ; there is no danger nor hazard in following such a guide, howbeit he should lead me through hell, if I could put faith foremost, and fill the field with a quiet on-waiting, and believing to see the salvation of God. I. know Christ is not obliged to let me see both the sides of my cross, and turn it over and over that I may see all : my faith is richer to live upon credit, and Christ's borrowed money, than to have much on my liand. Alas ! I have forgotten that faith in times past hath stopped a leak in my crazed bark, and hath filled my sails with a fair wind. I see it a work of God that experiences are all lost, when summons of jmprobation, to prove our charters of Christ to be counterfeits, are raised against poor souls in their heavy trials ; but let me be a sinner, and, worse than the chief of sinners, yea, a guilty devil, I am sure my Well-beloved is God : and when I say Christ is God, and my Christ is G^d, I have said all things ; I can say no more. I would I could build as much on this, my Christ is God, as it would bear ; I might lay all the world upon it. I am sure, Christ untried, and untaken up in the power of his love, kindness, mercies, goodness, wisdom, long- suffering and greatness, is the rock that dim-sighted travellers dash their foot against, and so stumble fearfully. But my wounds are sorest, and pain me most, when I sin against his love and mercy : and if he would set me and my conscience by the ears together, 'and re- solve not to rid the plea, but let us deal it betwixt us, my spitting upon the fair face of Christ's love and mercies, by my jealousies, unbelief and doubting, would be enough to sink me. Oh, I am convinced ; O Lord, I stand dumb before thee for this ; let me be mine own judge in this, and I take a dreadful doom upon me for it ; for I still misbe- lieve, though I have seen that my Lord hath made my cross as if it were all crystal, so as I can see through it Christ's fair face and hea- ven, and that God hath honoured a lump of sinful flesh and blood, the like of me, to be Christ's honourable Lord prisoner. I ought to esteem the walls of the thieves-hole, (if I were shut up in it) or any stinking dungeon, all hung with tapestry, and most beautiful, for my Lord Jesus ; and yet I am not so shut up but that the sun shineth upon my prison, and the fair wide heaven is the covering of it. But my Lord in his sweet visits hath done more ; for he makes me find that he will be a confined prisoner with me : he lyeth down and riseth up with me : when I sigh he sigheth ; when I weep he suftereth with me ; and I confess here is the blessed issue of my sufferings already begun, that my heart is filled with hunger and desire to have 80 LETTER XLII. PARf I. him glorified in" my sufferings. Blessed ye of the Lord, Madam, if ye would help a poor dyvour, and cause others of your acquaintance in Christ help me to pay my debt of love, even real praises to Christ my Lord. Madam, let me charge you in the Lord, as ye will answer to him, help me in this duty, which he hath tied about my neck, with a chain of such singular expressions of his loving kindness, to set on high Christ, to hold in my honesty at his hands ; for I have nothing to give to him. that he would arrest and comprise my love and my heart for all ! I am a dyvour, who have no more free goods in the world for Christ, save that ; it is both the whole heritage I have, and all my moveables besides. Lord, give the thirsty man a drink. Oh to be over the ears in the well ! Oh to be swattering, and swim- ming over head and ears in Christ's love ! I would not have Christ's love entering in me, but I would enter into it, and be swallowed up of that love. But I see not myself here ; for I fear I make more of his love than of himself; whereas himself is far beyond and much bet- ter than his love. Oh if I had my sinful arms filled with that lovely one, Christ ! Blessed be my rich Lord Jesus, who sendeth not away beggars from his house with a toom dish ; he filleth the vessels of such as will come and seek ; we might beg ourselves rich, if we were wise, if we could but hold out our withered hands to Christ, and learn to suit and seek, ask and knock. I owe my salvation for Christ's glory, I owe it to Christ; and desire that my hell, yea, a new hell, seven times hotter by far than the old hell, might buy praises before men and angels to my Lord Jesus ; providing always I were free of Christ's hatred and displeasure. What am I, to be forfeited and sold in soul and body, to have my great and royal King set on high and extolled above all ? O if I knew how high to have him set, and all the world far, far beneath the soles of his feet ! Nay, I deserve not to be the matter of his praises, far less to be an agent in praising of him : but he can win his own glory out of me, and out of worse than I, if any such be, if it please his holy majesty so to do ; he knoweth that I am not now flattering him. Madam, let me have your prayers, as ye have the prayers and blessing of him that is separated from his brethren. Grace, grace be with you. Your own in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, June 15, 1637. , LETTER XLII. To the Earl of Cassils. MY VERY NOBLE AND HONOURABLE LORD, I MAKE bold, out of the honourable and Christian report I hear of your Lordship, having no other thing to say, but that which concern- eth the honourable cause which the Lord hath enabled your Lordship to profess, to write this, that it is your Lordship's crown, your glory, and your honour, to set your shoulder under the Lord's glory, now falling to the ground, and to back Christ now, when so many think it wisdom to let him fend for himself. The shields of the earth ever did, and do still believe that Christ is a cumbersome neighbour, and that it is a PART I. LETTER XLIII. 81 pain to hold up his yeas and nays ; they fear he take their cha- riots, and their crowns, and their honour from them ; but my Lord standeth in need of none of them all ; but it is your glory to own Christ and his buried truth ; for, let men say what they please, the plea with Zion's enemies, in this day of Jacob's trouble, is. If Christ should be King, and no mouth speak laws but his? It concerneth the apple of Christ's eye, and his royal privileges, what is now debated ; and Christ's kingly honour is come to yea and nay. But let me be pardoned, my dear and noble Lord, to beseech you by the mercies of God, by the comfort of the Spirit, by the wounds of your dear Saviour, by your compearance before the Judge of quick and dead, to stand for Christ, and to back him. Oh if the nobles had done their part, and been zealous for the Lord ! it had not been as it is now ; but men think it wisdom to stand beside Christ till his head be broken, and sing dumb. There is a time coming when Christ will have a thick court, and he will be the glory of Scotland ; and he will make a diadem, a garland, a seal upon his heart, and a ring upon his linger, of these who have avouched him before this faithless genera- tion ; howbeit, ere that come, wrath is ordained for tliis land. My Lord, I have cause to write this to your Lordship, for I dare not con- ceal his kindness to the soul -of an afflicted, exiled prisoner : who hath more cause to boast in the Lord than such a sinner as I, who am feasted with the consolations of Christ, and have no pain in my suffer- ings, but the pain of soul-sickness of love for Christ, and sorrow that I cannot help to sound aloud the praises of him who hath heard the sighing of the prisoner, and is content to lay the head of his oppressed servant in his bosom, under his chin, and let him feel the smell of his garments ? This I behoved to write, that your Lordship might know Christ is as good as he is called ; and to testify to your Lordship the cause your Lordship now professeth before the faithless world, is Christ's, and your Lordship shall have no shame of it. Grace be with you. Your Lordship's obliged servant, S. R. Abej-deen, March 13, 1637. LETTER XLIII. To the much Honoured John Osburn, Provost ol' Ayr. MUCH HONOURED SIR, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Upon our small acquaintance, and the good report I hear of you, I could not but write to you : I have nothing to say, but Christ, in that honourable place he hath put you in, hath intrusted you with a dear pledge, which is his own glory ; and hath armed you with his sword, to keep the pledge, and make a good account of it to God. Be not afraid of men ; your Master can mow down his enemies, and make withered hay of fair flowers ; your time will not be long ; after your afternoon will come your evening, and af- ter evening, night. Serve Christ, back him ; let his cause be your cause ; give not an hair-breadth of truth away ; for it is not yours, but God's. Then, since ye are going, take Christ's testificate with vou out of this life, Well done good and faithful servant. His well- 11 82 LETTER XLIV, XLV. PART I. done is worth a shipfiil of good days and earthly honours. I have cause to say this, because I find him Truth itself. In my sad days Christ laughcth cheerfully, and saith, All will be well. Would to God all this kingdom, and all that know God, knew what is betwixt Christ and me in this prison ; what kisses, embracements, and love commu- nions : I take his cross in my arms with joy, I bless it, I rejoice in it ; suffering for Christ is my garland. I would not exchange Christ for ten thousand worlds ! nay, if the comparison could stand, I would not exchange Christ with heaven. Sir, pray for me, and the prayers and blessing of a prisoner of Christ meet you in all your straits. Grace be with you. Your's in Christ Jesus his Lord, S. R. Aberdeen, March 14, 1637. LETTER XLIY. To Robert Gordon, Baillieof Ayr. ■WORTHY SIK, Grace, mercy and peace be to you : I long to hear from you on paper. Remember your Chief's speeches on his death bed : I pray you. Sir, sell all, and buy the pearl : time will cut you from this world's glory ; look what will do you good ; when your glass shall be run out, and let Christ's love bear most court in your soul, and that court will bear down the love of other things : Christ seeketh your help in your place, give him your hand. Who hath more cause to encourage others to own Christ than I have 1 for he hath made me sick of love, and left me in pain to wrestle with his love, and love is like to fall a swoon through his absence : I mean not that he defer- reth me, or that I am ebb of comforts ; but this is an uncouth pain. Oh that I had an heart and a love to render to him back again ! O if principalities and powers, thrones and dominions, and all the world, would help me to praise. Praise him in my behalf. Remember my love to your wife. I thank you most kindly for your love to my bro- ther. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S» R. Aberdeen, March 13, 1637. LETTER XLV. To John Kennedy, Baillie of Ayr. WORTHY SIR, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Your not writing to me cannot bind me up from remembering you now and then, that at least ye may be a witness and a third man to behold on paper what is betwixt Christ and me. I was in his eyes like a young orphan, wanting known parents, casten out in the open fields ; either Christ behoved to take me up, and to bring me home to his house and fire-side, else I had died in the fields ; and now I am homely with Christ's love, so that I think the house mine own, and the master of the house mine also. Christ enquired not, when he began to love me, whether I was fair, or black, or sun-burnt ! love taketh what it may have. He loved PART I. LETTER XLV. Ob me before this time, I know ; but now I have the flower of his love : his love is come to a fair bloom, like a young rose opened up out of the green leaves, and it casteth a strong and fragrant smell. I want nothing but ways of expressing Christ's love ; a full vessel would have a vent. if I could smoke out and cast out coals, to make a fire in many breasts of tliis land ! ! it is a pity that there were not many imprisoned for Christ, for no other purpose, but to write books and love-songs of the love of Christ. This love would keep all created tongues of men and angels in exercise, and busy night and day, to speak of it. Alas ! I can speak nothing of it, but wonder at three things in his love ; First, freedom. O that lumps of sin should get such love for nothing ! Secondly, The sweetness of his love. I give over either to speak or write of it ; but these that feel it, may bet- ter bear witness what it is : but it is so sweet, that, next to Christ him- self, nothing can match it. Nay, I think a soul could live eternaUy blessed only on Christ's love and feed upon no other thing, yea, when Christ in love giveth a blow, it doth a soul good ; and it is a kind of comfort and joy to it, to get a cuff with the lovely, sweet, and soft liand of Jesus. And, thirdly. What power and strength is in his love ! I am persuaded it can climb a steep hill, and hell upon its back ; and swim through water and not drown ; and sing in the fire, and find no pain ; and triumph in losses, prisons, sorrows, exile, disgrace, and laugh and rejoice in death. O for a year's lease of the sense of his love with- out a cloud to try what Christ is ! Oh for the coming of the Bride- groom ! Oh when will I see the Bridegroom and the Bride meet in the clouds, and kiss each other ! Oh when will we get our day and our heart's-fill of that love ! Oh if it were lawful to complain of the famine and want of the immediate vision of God ! O time, time, how dost thou torment the souls of those that would be swallowed up of Christ's love, because thou movest so slowly ! Oh if he would pity a poor prisoner, and blow love upon me, and give a prisoner a taste or draught of that sweetness, which is glory as it were begun to be a confirmation, that Christ and I shall have our fill of other for ever : come hither, O love of Christ, that I may once kiss thee before I die : what would I not give to have time, that lyeth betwixt Christ and me, taken out of the way, that we might once meet ? I cannot think but at the first sight I shall see of that most lovely and fairest face, love shall come out of his two eyes, and fill me with astonishment : I would but desire to stand at the outer side of the gates of the new Jerusalem, and look through a hole of the door, and see Clirist's face ; a borrowed vision in this life would be my borrowed and begun hea- ven, while the long long looked for day dawn. It is not for nothing that it is said. Col. i. 27, ' Christ in you the hope of glory.' 1 will be content of no pawn of heaven but Christ himself, for Christ possessed by faith here, is young heaven and glory in the bud ; if I had that pawn, I would bide horning and hell both, ere I gave it again. All we have here, is scarce the picture of glory ; should not we young chil- dren, long and look for the expiring of our minority ? It were good to be daily begging propines and love gifts, and the Bridegroom's fa- A ours : and, if we can do no more, seek crumbs, and hungry dinners 84 LETTER XLVI. TART I. of Christ's love, to keep the taste of heaven in our mouth, while sup- per-time. I know it is far after noon, and nigh the marriage-supper of the lamb ; the table is covered already. O Well beloved, run, run fast ! fair day, when wilt thou dawn ! shadows, flee away ! I think, hope and love woven through other make our absence from Christ spiritual torment ; it is a pain to wait on, but hope that maketh not ashamed svvalloweth up that pain. It is not unkindness that keepeth Christ and us so long asunder. What can I say to Christ's love ? I think more than I can say ; to consider, that when my Lord Jesus may take the air, if I may so speak and go abroad, yet he will be confined and keep the prison with me ; but in all this sweet commu- nion with him, what I am to be thanked for ? I am but a sufferer ; whether I will or not, he will be kind to me, as if he had defied my guiltiness to make him unkind ; so he beareth his love in on me. Here I die with wondering, that justice hindereth not love ; for there are none in hell, nor out of hell, more unworthy of Christ's love. Shame may confound and fear me, once to hold up my black mouth, to re- ceive one of Christ's undeserved kisses : if my inner-side were turned out, and all men saw my vileness, they would say to me. It is a shame for thee to stand still, while Christ kiss thee and embrace thee ; it would seem to become me rather to run away from his love, as asha- med at my own unworthiness ; nay I may think shame to take hea- ven, who have so highly provoked my Lord Jesus ; but seeing Christ's love will shame me, I am content to be ashamed. My desire is, that my Lord would give me broader and deeper thoughts, to feed myself with wondering at his love ; I would I could weigh it, but I have no balance for it. When I have worn my tongue to the stump, in praising of Christ, I have done nothing to him ; I must let him alone, for my withered arms will not go about his high, wide, long and broad love. AVhat remaineth then, but that my debt to the love of Christ lye un- paid for all eternity ? All that are in heaven are black-shamed with his love as well as I ; we must all be dyvours together ; and the blessings of that houseful, or heavenful of dyvours, shall rest for ever upon him. Oh if this land and nation would come and stand beside his inconceivable and glorious perfections, and look in, and love, and adore ! Would to God I could bring in many lovers to Christ's house! but this nation hath forsaken the fountain of living waters. Lord, cast not water on Scotland's coal. Wo, wo will be this land, because of the day of the Lord's fierce anger, that is so fast coming. Grace be with you. Your affectionate brother in our Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER XLVI. To the same. WORTHY AND DEAR BROTHER, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. I long to see you in this northern world on paper ; I know it is not forgetfulness that ye write not. I am every way in good case, both in soul and body : all honour PART I. LETTER XLVI. 85 and glory be to my Lord : I want nothing but a further revelation of the beauty of the unknown Son of God. Either I know not what Christianity is, or we have stinted a measure of so many ounce weights and no more, upon hoHness ; and there we are at a stay, drawing our breath all our life : a moderation in God's way, now, is much in request. I profess I have never taken pains to find out him whom my soul loveth ; there is a way yet of finding out Christ, that I have never lighted upon. O if I could find it out ! Alas how soon are we pleased with our own shadow in a glass ! It were good to be beginning in sad earnest to find out God, and to seek the right tread of Christ. Time, custom, and a good opinion of ourselves, our good meaning, and our lazy desires, our fair shews, and the world's glister- ing lustres, and these broad passments and buskings of religion, that bear bulk in the kirk, is that wherewith most satisfy themselves : but a watered bed with tears, a dry throat with praying, eyes as a fountain of tears for the sins of the land, is rare to be found among us. Oh if we could know the power of godliness ! This is one part of my case ; and another is, that I, like a fool, once summoned Christ for unkind- ness and complained of his fickleness and inconstancy, because he would have no more of my service nor preaching, and had casten me out of the inheritance of the Lord ; and now 1 confess this was but a bought plea, and I was a fool : yet he hath borne with me. I gave him a fair advantage against me, but love and mercy would not let him take it ; and the truth is, now he hath chided himself friends with me, and hath taken away the mask, and hath renewed his wonted favour in such a manner, that he hath paid me my hundred fold in this life, and one to the hundred. This prison is my banqueting house ; I am handled as softly and delicately as a dawted child ; I am nothing be- hind, I see, with Christ ; he can in a month make up a year's losses : and 1 write this to you that I may entreat, nay, adjure and charge you by the love of our Well-beloved, to help me to praise ; and to tell all your Christian acquaintance to help me ! for I am as deeply drowned in his debt as any dyvour can be : and yet in this fair sun-blink, I have something to keep me from starthng, or being exalted above measure ; his word is as fire shut up in my bowels, and I am weary with forbearing. The ministers in this town are saying they shall have my prison changed into less bounds, because they see God with me ; my mother hath born lue a man of contention, one that striveth with the whole earth. The late wrongs and oppressions done to my brother keep my sails low ; yet I defy crosses to embark me in sucii a plea against Christ as I was troubled with of late. I hope to over- hope and over-beHeve my troubles ; I have cause now to trust Christ's promise, more than his gloom. Remember my hearty affections to your wife. My soul is grieved for the success of our brethrens' jour- ney to New-England ; but God hath somewhat to reveal that we see not. Grace be with you. Pray for the prisoner. Your's in his only Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Jan. 1, 16;37. 86 LETTER XLVII. To Margaret Ballantine. MISTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be unto you. It is more than time that I should have written to you, but it is yet good time, if I could help your soul to mend your pace, and to go more swittly to your heavenly country : for truly ye have need to make all haste, because the inch of your day that remaineth will quickly slip away ; for whether we sleep or wake, our glass runneth, the tide bideth no man. Beware of a beguile in the matter of your salvation : wo, wo for evermore to them that lose that prize ; for what is behind, when the soul is once lost, but that sinners warm their bits of clay-houses at a fire of their own kindling, for a day or two, which doth rather suffocate with its smoke than warm them : and at length they lye down in sorrow, and are clothed with everlasting shame ! I would seek no further measure of faith to begin withal, than to believe really and steadfastly the doc- trine of God's justice, his all-devouring wrath and everlasting burning, where sinners are burnt, soul and body in a river and great lake of fire and brimstone ; then they would wish no more goods, but the thousandth part of a cold fountain-well to cool their tongue : they would then buy death, with enduring of pain and torment for as many years as God hath created drops of rain since the creation ; but there is no market of buying or selling life or death there ; Oh, alas ! the greatest part of the world run to the place of that torment rejoicing and dancing, eating, drinking, and sleeping. My counsel to you is, that ye start in time to be after Christ ; for if ye go quickly, Christ is not far before you, ye shall overtake him. O Lord God, what is so needful as this. Salvation, salvation 1 Fly upon this condemned and ~\_5 foolish world that would give so little for salvation ! Oh, if there were a free market of salvation proclaimed in that day when the trumpet of God shall awake the dead ; how many buyers would be then ! God send me no more happiness but that salvation which the blind world, \^y to their eternal wo, letteth slip through their fingers ; therefore look if ye can give out your money, (as Isaiah speaketh, chap. Iv. 2,) for bread, and lay Christ and his blood in wadset for heaven ; it is a dry and hungry child's part of goods that Esaus are hunting for here ; I see thousands following the chase, and in the pursuit of such things, while in the mean time they lose the blessing ; and when all is done, they have caught nothing to roast for supper but lye down hungry ; and besides they go to bed, when they die without a candle ; for God saith to them, ' This shall ye have at my hand, ye shall lye down in sorrow.' And truly this is as ill made a bed to lye upon as one could wish ; for he cannot sleep soundly, nor rest sweetly, who hath sorrow for his pillow. Rouse, rouse up, therefore, your soul, and ask how Christ and your soul met together ; 1 am sure they never got Christ who were not once sick at the yolk of the heart for him ; too, too many whole souls think they have met with Christ, who had never a wearied night for the want of him ; but alas, what richer are men, that they dreamed the last night they had much gold, and when they awoke TART I. LETTER XLVIII. 87 in the morning they found it was but a dream ? What are all the sin- ners in the world, in that day when heaven and earth shall go up in a flame of fire, but a number of beguiled dreamers ? Every one shall say of his hunting and his conquest, Behold it was a dream ; every man in that day will tell his dream. I beseech you in the Lord Jesus, beware, beware of unsound work, in the matter of your salvation : ye may not, ye cannot, ye dow not want Christ ; then after this day con- vene all your lovers before your soul, and give them their leave ; and strike hands with Christ, that thereafter there may be no happiness to you but Christ, no hunting for any thing but Christ, no bed at night, when death cometh, but Christ ; Christ, Christ, who but Christ 1 I know this much of Christ, he is not ill to be found, nor lordly of his love ; wo had been my part of it for evermore, if Christ had made a dainty of himself to me ; but God be thanked, I gave nothing for Christ ; and now, I protest before men and angels ; Christ cannot be sold, Christ cannot be weighed ; where would angels, or all the world find a balance to weigh him in ? All lovers blush when ye stand be- side Christ : wo upon all love but the love of Christ ; hunger, hunger for evermore, be upon all heaven but Christ ; shame, shame for ever- more, be upon all glory. I cry death upon all lives but the life of Christ. O what is it that holdeth us asunder ! that once we could have a fair meeting. Thus recommending Christ to you, and you to him for evermore I rest. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. E. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER XLVIIL To Janet Kennedy. LOVING AND DEAR SISTER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I received your letter : I know the savour of Christ in you (that the virgins love to follow) cannot be blown away with winds, either from hell, or the evil smelled air of this polluted world : sit far a back from the walls of this pest- house, even the pollutions of this defiling world. Keep your taste, your love and hope in heaven ; it is not good your love and your Lord should be in two sundry countries. Up, up after your Lover, that ye and he may be together. A King from heaven hath sent for you : by faith he sheweth you the New Jerusalem, and taketh you alongst in the Spirit, through all the ease rooms, and dwelling-houses in heaven, and saith. All these are thine, this palace is for thee and Christ : and if ye only had been the chosen of G^d, Christ would have built that one house for you and himself; now it is for you and many others also : take with you in your journey what ye may carry with you, your conscience, faith, hope, patience, meekness, goodness, brotherly kindness, for such wares as these are of great price in the high and new country whither ye go ; as for other things, that are but the world's vanity and trash, since they are but the house-sweepings, ye shall do best not to carry them with you ; ye found them here, leave them here, and let them keep the house. Your sun is well 88 LETTER XLIX. PART I. turned and low : be nigh your lodging against night. We go one and one out of this great market, till the town be empty, and the two lodgings, heaven and hell, be filled ; at length there will be nothing in the earth but toom walls and burnt ashes, and therefore it is best to make away. Antichrist and his master are busy to plenish hell, and to seduce many : and stars, great church lights, are falling from hea- ven, and many are misled and seduced, and make up with their faith, and sell their birth-rights, by their hungry-hunting for I know not what. Fasten your grips fast upon Christ. I verily esteem him the best aught that I have ; he is my second in prison : having him, though my cross were as heavy as ten mountains of iron, when he putteth his sweet shoulder under me and it, my cross is but a feather. I please myself in the choice of Christ ; he is my wail in heaven and earth: I rejoice that he is in heaven before me; God send a joyful meeting : and in the meantime, the traveller's charges for the way, I mean a burden of Christ's love to sweeten the journey and to encourage a breathless runner ; for when I lose breath, climbing up the moun- tain, he maketh new breath. Now the very God of peace establish you to the day of his appearance. Your's in his only Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 9, 1637. LETTER XLIX. To Margaret Reid. MY VERY DEAR AND WORTHY SISTER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Ye are truly blessed of the Lord, however a sour world gloom upon you, if ye continue in the faith grounded and settled, and be not moved away from the hope of the gospel. It is good there is a heaven, and it is not a night dream or a fancy : it is a wonder that men deny not that there is a heaven, as they deny there is a way to it but of men's making. You have learned of Christ that there is a heaven ; contend for it, and contend for Christ ; bear well and submissively the hard cross of this step- mother world, that God will not have to be your's. I confess it is hard, and 1 would I were able to ease you of your burden ; but believe me, this world (which the Lord will not have to be your's) is but the dross, the refuse and scorn of God's creation, the portion of the Lord's poor hired servants ; the moveables, not the heritage ; a hard bone casten to the dogs, holden out of the New Jerusalem, where- upon they rather break their teeth than satisfy their appetite : it is your Father's blessing, and Christ's birth-right, that our Lord is keep- ing for you ; and I persuade you, your seed also shall inherit the earth, (if that be good for them) for that is promised to them ; and God's bond is as good, and better, than if men would give every one of them a bond for a thousand thousands. Ere you was born, crosses in number, measure and weight were written for you, and your Lord will lead you through them : make Christ sure, and the bless- ings of the earth shall be at Christ's back. I see many professors for the fashion followeth on ; but they are professors of glass : I PART 1. LETTER L. 89 would cause a little knock of persecution ding them in twenty pieces, and so the world should laugh at the shivers. Therefore make fast work, see that Christ lay the ground stone of your profession ; for wind and rain, and speats will not wash away his building ; his works have no shorter date than to stand for evermore. I should twenty times have perished in my affliction, if I had not leaned my weak back, and laid my pressing burden both upon the stone, the foun- dation stone, the corner stone laid in Zion : and I desire never to rise off this stone. Now, the very God of peace confirm and estab- lish you unto the day of the blessed appearance of Christ Jesus. God be with you. Your's in his dearest Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen. LETTER L. To James Bautie. LOVING BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be unto you. I received your letter, and render you thanks for the same : but I have not time to answer all the heads of it, as the bearer can inform you. 1. Ye do well to take yourself at the right stot, when ye wrong Christ by doubting and mis- belief; for this is to nick-name Christ, and term him a liar, which being spoken to our Prince, would be hanging or beheading ; but Christ hangeth not always for treason : it is good that he may regis- trate a believer's bond a hundred times, and more than seven times a day have law against us, and yet he spareth us as a man doth his son that serveth him : no tender-hearted mother, who may have law to kill her sucking child, would put in execution that law. 2dly, For your failings, even when ye have a set tryst with Christ, and when ye have a fair seen advantage, by keeping your appointment with him, and salvation cometh to the very passing of the seals, I would say two things ; 1st, Concluded and sealed salvation may go through and be ended, suppose you write your name to the tail of the covenant with ink that can hardly be read : neither think I ever any man's salvation passed the seals, but there was an odd trick or slip, in less or more, upon the fool's part, who is infefted in heaven. In the most grave and serious work of our salvation, I think Christ had ever good cause to laugh at our silliness, and to put on us his merits, that we might bear weight. 2. It is a sweet law of the new covenant, and a privi- lege of the new burgh, that citizens pay according to their means ; for the new covenant saith not, so much obedience by ounce weights, and no less, under the pain of damnation : Christ taketh as poor men may give ; where there is a mean portion he is content with the less, if there be sincerity : broken sums and little feckless obedience will be pardoned, and hold the foot with him : know ye not that our kindly Lord retaineth his good old heart yet I He breaketh not a bruised reed, nor quencheth the smoking flax ; but if the wind blow he hold- eth his hand about it till it rise to a flame. The law cometh on with three yeses, with all the heart, with all the soul, and with all the whole strength ; and when would poor folks like you and me, furnish 12 90 LETTER I,. PART I, all these sums 'I It feareth me, (nay it is most certain) that if the pay- ment were to come out of our purse, when we should put our hand in our bag we would bring out the wind or worse : but the covenant seeketh not heap-mete, nor stented obedience as the condition of it, because forgiveness hath always place. Hence I draw this conclu- sion ; to think matters betwixt Christ and us go back for want of heaped measure, is a piece of old Adam's pride, who would either be at legal payment or nothing ; we would still have God in our com- mon, and buy his kindness with our merits ; for beggarly pride is devil's honesty, and blusheth to be in Christ's common, and scarce giveth God a grammercy, and a lifted cap, (except it be the Pharisee's unlucky God I thank thee) or a bowed knee to Christ ; it will only give a good day for a good day again, and if he dissemble his kind- ness, as it were, in jest, and seem to misken it, it in earnest spurneth with the heels, and snuffeth in the wind, and careth not much for Christ's kindness ; if he will not be friends, let him go, saith pride ; beware of this thief, when Christ offereth himself. 3. No marvel then of whisperings, whether you be in the covenant or not : for pride maketh loose work of the covenant of grace, and will not let Christ be full bargain-maker. To speak to you particularly and shortly : 1. All the truly regenerated cannot determinately tell you the mea- sure of their dejections, because Christ beginneth young with many, and stealeth into their heart, ere they wit of themselves, and becom- eth homely with them, with little din or noise. I grant many are bhnded, in rejoicing in a good cheap conversion, that never cost them a sick night ; Christ's physic wrought in a dream upon them ; but for that I would say, if other marks be found, that Christ is indeed come in, never make plea with him, because he will not answer. Lord Jesus how camest thou in ? whether in at door or window 1 Make him welcome since he is come. The wind bloweth where it listeth ; all the world's wit cannot perfectly render a reason, why the wind should be a month in the east, six weeks, possibly, in the west, and the space only of an afternoon in the south or north. Ye will not find out all the nicks and steps of Christ's way with a soul, do what ye can ; for sometimes he will come in stepping softly, like one walk- ing beside a sleepy person, and slip to the door, and let none know he was there. 2. Ye object. The truly regenerate should love God for himself; and ye fear that ye love him more for his benefits (as incite- ments and motives to love him) than for himself. I answer, To love God for himself as the last end, and also for his benefits, as incite- ments and motives to love him, may stand well together ; as a son loveth his mother, because she is his mother, howbeit she be poor ; and he loveth her for an apple also. I hope ye will not say, that benefits are the only reason and bottom of your love ; it seemeth there is a better foundation for it ; always, if a hole be in it, sew it up shortly. 3. Ye feel not such mourning in Christ's absence as ye would. I answer, That the regenerate mourn at all times, and all in a like measure for his absence, I deny : there are different degrees of mourning, less or more, as they have less or more love to him, and less or more sense of his absence. But, 1. Some thev must have. PART I. LETTER L. 91 2. Sometimes they miss not the Lord, and then they cannot mourn ; howbeit, it is not long so ; at least, it is not always so. 3. Ye chal- lenge yourself, that some truths find more credit with you than others. Ye do well, for God is true in the least, as well as in the greatest, and he must be so to you : ye must not call him true in the one page of the leaf, and false in the other ; for our Lord in all his writings never contradicted himself yet ; although the best of the regenerate have slipped here, always labour ye to hold your feet. 4. Comparing the estate of one truly regenerate, whose heart is a temple of the Holy Ghost, and your's, which is full of uncleanness and corruption, ye stand dumb and discouraged, and dare not sometimes call Christ heartsomely your own. I answer. The best regenerate have their defilements, and if I may speak so, their drafF-pock, that will clog be- hind them all their days ; and, wash as they will, there will be filth ia their bosom ; but let not this put you from the well. 2. I answer, Albeit there be some ounce weights of carnality and some squint look, or eye in our neck to an idol, yet love in its own measure may be found ; for glory must purify and perfect our love, it will never till then be absolutely pure ; yet if the idol reign, and have the whole of the heart, and the keys of the house, and Christ only be made an un- derling to run errands, all is not right, therefore examine well. 3. There is a two-fold discouragement ; one of unbelief, to conclude, and make doubt of the conclusion, for a mote in your eye, and a by- look to an idol ; this is ill. There is another discouragement of sor- row for sin, when ye find a by-look to an idol ; this is good, and mat- ter of thanksgiving : therefore examine here also. 5. The assur- ance of Jesus's love, ye say, would be the most comfortable news that ever ye heard. Answer, That may stop twenty holes, and loose many objections ; that love hath telling in it, I trow. Oh that ye knew and felt it, as I have done ! I wish you a share of my feast ; sweet, sweet hath it been to me. If my Lord had not given me this love, I would have fallen through the causeway of Aberdeen ere now ! but for you, hing on, your feast is not far off; ye shall be filled ere ye go ; there is as much in our Lord's pantry, as will satisfy all his chil- dren, and as much wine in his cellar as will quench all their thirst ; hunger on, for there is meat in hunger for Christ ; never go from him, but fash him (who yet is pleased with the importunity of hungry souls) with a dish full of hungry desires, till he fill you ; and if he delay, yet come not ye away, albeit ye should fall aswoon at his feet. 6. Ye crave my mind, whether sound comfort may be found in prayer, when conviction of a known idol is present. I answer, An idol, as an idol, cannot stand with sound comforts ; for that comfort that is gotten at Dagon's feet is a cheat or bleflume ; yet sound comfort, and conviction of an eye to an idol, may as well dwell together as tears and joy ; but let this do you no ill, I speak it for your encouragement, that ye may make the best out of your joys ye can, albeit you find them mixed with mutes. 2dly. Sole conviction, if alone, without re- morse and grief, is not enough ; therefore lend it a tear if ye would win at it. 7. Ye question, when ye win to more fervency sometimes with your neighbour in prayer, than when you are alone, whether 92 LETTER L. PART I, hypocrisy be in it or not ? I answer, If this be always, no question a spice of hypocrisy is in it, which would be taken heed to ; but possi- bly desertion may be in private, and presence in public, and then the case is clear. 2. A fit of applause may occasion, by accident, a rub- bing of a cold heart, and so heat and life may come ; but it is not the proper cause of that heat; hence God of his free grace will ride his errands upon our stinking corruption : but corruption is but a mere occasion and accident, as the playing on a pipe removed anger trom the prophet, and made him fitter to prophesy, 2 Kings iii. 15. 8. Ye complain of Christ's short visits, that he will not bear you company one night ; but when ye lye down warm at one night, ye rise cold at morning. Answer, I cannot blame you nor any other, that knoweth that sweet guest, to bemoan his withdrawings, and to be most desi- rous of his abode and company ; for he would captivate and engage the affection of any creature that saw his face ; since he looked on me, and gave me a sight of his fair love, he gained my heart wholly, and got away with it ; well, well, may he brook it ; he shall keep it long, ere I fetch it from him. But I shall tell you what ye should do ; treat him well, give him the chair and the board head, and make hinj welcome to the mean poition ye have ; a good supper and kind enter- tainment maketh the guests love the inns the better : yet sometimes Christ has an errand elsewhere, for mere trial ; and then, though ye give him king's cheer, he will away ; as is clear m desertions for mere trial, and not for sin. 9. Ye seek the difference betwixt the motions of the Spirit, in their least measure, and the natural joys of your own heart. Answer, As a man can tell, if he joy and deUght in his wife, as his wife ; or if he delight and joy in her for satifaction of his lust, but hating her person, and so loving her for her flesh, and not grieving when ill befalleth her ; so will a man's joy in God, and his whorisl) natural joy, be discovered ; if he sorry for any thing that rnay offend the Lord, it will speak the singleness of that love to him. 10. Ye ask the reason why sense overcometh faith. Answer, Be- cause sense is more natural, and near of kin to our selfish and soft nature. Ye ask, if faith in that case be sound 1 Answer, If it be chased away, it is neither sound nor unsound, because it is not faith ; but it might be, and was faith, before sense did blow out the act of believing. Lastly, ye ask what to do, when promises are born in upon you, and sense of impenitency, for sins of youth, hindereth application. I answer, if it be living sense, it may stand with appli- cation ; and in this case, put to your hand and eat your meat in God's name : if false, so that the sins of youth are not repented of, then, as faith and impenitency cannot stand together, so neither that sense and application can consist. Brother, excuse my brevity, for time straiten- eth me, that I get not my mind said in these things, but must refer that to a new occasion, if God offer it. Brother, pray for me. Grace be with you. Your's in his dearest I^ord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Ih:37. 93 LETTER LI. To John Stewart, Provost of Ayr, now in Ireland. MUCH HONOURED SIR, Grace, mercy, and peace be unto you. I long to hear from you, being now removed from my flock, and the prisoner of Christ at Aber- deen. I would not have you to think it strange, that your journey to New-England hath gotten such a dash : it indeed hath made my heart heavy ; yet I know it is no dumb providence, but a speaking one, whereby our Lord speaketh his mind to' you, though for the present ye do not well understand what he saith : however it be, he who sitteth upon the floods, hath shewn you his marvellous kindness in the great depths. I know your loss is great, and your hope gone against you ; but I entreat you, Sir, expound aright our Lord's laying all hindrances in the way. I persuade myself, your heart aimeth at the footsteps of the flock, to feed beside the shepherd's tents, and to dwell beside Him whom your soul loveth ; and that it is your desire to remain in the wilderness, where the woman is kept from the dragon : and this being you desire, remember that a poor prisoner of Christ said it to you, that, that miscarried journey is full of mercy and consolation to you ; which the Lord shall let you see in his own way ; wait on then, for he that believeth maketh not haste, Isaiah xxviii. 16. I hope, ye have been asking what the Lord meaneth, and what further may be his will, in ■ reference to your return. My dear brother, let God make of you what he will, he will end all with consolation, and shall make glory out of your sufferings ; and would you wish better work ? This water was in your way to heaven, and written in your Lord's book, ye be- hoved to cross it ; and therefore kiss his wise and unerring providence. Let not the censures of men, who see but the outside of things, and scarce well that, abate your courage and rejoicing in the Lord ; how- beit, your faith seeth but the black side of providence, yet it hath a better side, and God shall let you see it. Learn to beheve Christ better than his strokes, himself and his promises better than his glooms : dashes and disappointments are not canonic scripture ; fight- ing for the promised land, seemed to cry to God's promise. Thou liest. If our Lord ride upon straw, his horse shall neither stumble nor fall, Rom. vin. 23. For we know that all things work together for good to them that love God : ergo, shipwreck, losses, &c. work together for the good of them that love God : hence I infer, that losses, disap- pointments, ill tongues, loss of friends, houses, or country, are God's workmen, set on work to work out good to you, out of every thing that befalleth you. Let not the Lord's dealing seem harsh, rough, or imfatherly, because it is unpleasant : when the Lord's blessed will bloweth cross your desires, it is best, in humility, to strike sail to him, and to be wiUing to be led any way our Lord pleaseth. It is a point of denial of yourself, to be as if ye had not a will, but had made a free disposition of it to God, and had sold it over to him ; and to make use of his will for your own, is both true holiness, and your ease and peace : ye know not what the Lord is working out of this, but ye shall know it hereafter. And what 1 write to you, I write to your wife ; I compassionate her case, but intreat her not to fear or faint : 94 LETTER LI. PART I. this journey is a part of her wilderness to heaven and the promised land, and there are fewer miles behind ; it is nearer the dawning of the day to her, than when she went out of Scotland. 1 would be glad to hear that ye and she have comibrt and courage in the Lord. Now as concerning our kirk ; our service book is ordained, by open procla- mation and sound of trumpet to be read in all the kirks of this king- dom ; our prelates are to meet this month for it, and our canons, and for a reconciliation, betwixt us and the Lutherans. The professors of Aberdeen university are charged to draw up the articles of an uni- form confession ; but reconciliation with Popery is intended ; this is the day of Jacob's visitation ; the ways of Zion mourn, our gold is become dim, the sun is gone down upon our prophets. A dry wind, but neither to fan nor to cleanse, is coming upon this land : and all our ill is coming from the multiplied transgressions of this land, and from the friends and lovers of Babel among us, Jer. xxxi. 53. The violence done to me and my flesh be upon thee, Babylon, shall the inhabitants of Zion say, and my blood upon the inhabitants of (Jhal- dea, shall Jerusalem say. Now for myself: I was three days before the high commission, and accused of treason preached against our king ; a minister being witness, went well nigh to swear it ; God has saved me from their malice. 1st, They have deprived me of my ministry ; 2dly, Silenced me, that I exercise no part of the ministe- rial function within this kingdom, under the pain of rebellion ; 3dly, Confined my person within the town of Aberdeen, where 1 find the ministers working for my confiement in Caithness or Orkney, far from them ; because some people here willing to be edified, resort to me. At my first entry, I had heavy challenges within me, and a court fenced, but I hope not in Christ's name, wherein it was asserted, that my Lord would have no more of my service, and was tired of me : and, like a fool, I summoned Christ also for unkindness ; my soul fainted, and 1 refused comfort, and said, what ailed Christ at me ? for I desired to be faithtul in his house. Thus in my rovings and mis- takings, my Lord Jesus bestowed mercy on me, who am less than the least of all saints. I lay upon the dust, and bought a plea from Satan against Christ, and he was content to sell it : but at length Christ did shew himself friends with me, and in mercy pardoned and past my part of it, and only complained that a court should be holden in his bounds, without his own allowance. Now I pass from my compearance ; and as if Christ had done the fault, he hath made the mends, and returned to my soul ; so that now his poor prisoner feed- eth on the feasts of love. My adversaries know not what a courtier I am now with my Royal King, for whose crown 1 now suffer, it is but our soft and lazy flesh that hath raised an ill report of the cross of Christ ; O sweet, sweet is his yoke ! Christ's chains are of pure gold ; suflTerings for him are perfumed ; I would not give my weeping for the laughing of all the fourteen prelates, 1 would not exchange my sadness with the world's joy. lovely, lovely Jesus, how sweet must thy kisses be, when thy cross smelleth so sweetly ! if all the three kingdoms had part of my love-feast, and of ihe comfort of a dawted prisoner ! Dear brother, I charge you to praise for me, and PART I. LETTER LII. 95 seek help of our acquaintance there, to help me to praise. Why should I smother Christ's honesty to me ! my heart is taken up with this, that my silence and sufferings may preach. I beseech you in the bowels of Christ, to help me to praise. Remember my love to your wife, to Mr. Blair, and Mr. Livingston, and Mr. Cunningham. Let me hear from you, for I am anxious what to do : if I saw a call for New-England, I would follow it. Grace be with you. Your's, in our Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LIL To John Stewart, Provost of Ayr. MUCH HONOURED AND DEAREST IN CHRIST, Grace, mercy and peace from God our Father, and from our Lord Jesus Christ, be upon you. I expected the comfort of a letter to a prisoner from you, ere now. I am here, Sir, putting off a part of my inch of time ; and when 1 awake first in the morning, which is always with great heaviness and sadness, this question is brought to my mind ; Am I serving God or not ? Not that I doubt of the truth of this ho- nourable cause wherein I am engaged, I dare venture into eternity, and before my judge, that I now suffer for the truth : because that I cannot endure that my Master, who is a free born King should pay tribute to any of the shields or pot-sherds of the earth : that I could hold the crown upon my princely King's head with my sinful arm, howbeit it should be struck from me, in that service, from the shoulder blade ! but my closed mouth, my dumb sabbaths, the memory of my commu- nion with Christ, in many fair, fair days in Anwoth, whereas now my Master getteth no service of my tongue as then, hath almost broken my faith in two halves : yet in my deepest apprehensions of his anger, I see through a cloud that I am wrong ; and he, in love to my soul, hath taken up the controversy betwixt faith and apprehensions, and a decreet is past on Christ's side of it, and I subscribe the decreet. The Lord is equal in his ways, but my guiltiness often over-mastereth my believing. I have not been well known ; for except as to open out- breakings, I want nothing of what Judas and Cain had ; only he hath been pleased to prevent me in mercy, and to cast me into a fever of love for himself, and his absence maketh my fever most painful ; and beside he hath visited my soul and watered it with his comforts : but yet I have not what I would, the want of real and felt possession is my only death ; I know Christ pitieth me in this. The great men my friends, that did for me, are dried up, like winter brooks of water : all say, No dealing for that man ; his best will be, to be gone out of the kingdom. So I see they tire of me : but, believe me, I am most gladly content that Christ breaketh all my idols in pieces : it hath put a new edge upon my blunted love to Christ ; I see he is jealous of my love, and will have all to himself. In a word, these six things are my burden : 1. I am not in the vineyard as others are, it niay be, because Christ thinketh me a withered tree, not worth its room : but God for- bid. 2. Wo, wo, wo is coming upon my harlot mother, this apostate 96 LETTER LIII. PART I. kirk : the time is coming, when we shall wish for doves' wings, to fly and hide us : Oh for the desolation of this land ! 3. I see my dear Master, Christ, going his alone, as it were, mourning in sackcloth : his fainting friends fear that King Jesus shall lose the field : but he must carry the day. 4. My guiltiness and the sins of youth are come up against me, and they would come in the plea in my sufferings, as deserving causes in God's justice ; but I pray God, for Christ's sake, he never give them that room. Wo is me that I cannot get my royal, dreadful, mighty, and glorious Prince of the kings of the earth set on high. Sir, ye may help me and pity me in this, and bow your knee, and bless his name, and desire others to do it, that he hath been pleas- ed in my sufferings to make Atheists, Papists, and enemies about me, say. It is like, God is with this prisoner. Let hell and the powers of hell, I care not, be let loose against me to do their worst, so being Christ, and my Father and his Father be magnified in my sufferings. 5. Christ's love hath pained me : for howbeit his presence hath sha- med me, and drowned me in debt, yet he often goeth away when my love to him is burning ; he seemeth to look like a proud wooer, who will not look upon a poor match, who is dying of love : I will not say he is lordly ; but I know he is wise, in hiding himself from a child and a fool, who maketh an idol and a god of one of Christ's kisses, which is idolatry. I fear I adore his comforts more than himself, and that I love the apples of life better than the trees of life. Sir, write to me : commend me to your wife, mercy be her portion. Grace be with you. Your's in his dearest Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LIIL To the same. WORTHY AND DEARLY BELOVED IN OUR LORD, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I was refreshed and comforted with your letter ; what I wrote you for your comfort I do not remem- ber ; but I believe, love will prophecy homeward, as it would have it. I wish I could help you to praise his great and holy name, who keepeth the feet of his saints, and hath numbered all your goings. I know our dearest Lord will pardon and pass by our honest errors and mistakes, when we mind his honour : yet 1 know, none of you have seen the other half and the hidden side of your wonderful return home to us again. I am confident ye shall yet say, that God's mercy blew your sails back to Ireland again. Worthy and dear Sir, I cannot but give you an account of my present estate, that ye may go an errand for me to my high and Royal Master, of whom I boast all the day. I am as proud of his love, nay, I bless myself, and boast more of my present lot, as any poor man can be of an earthly king's court, or of a king- dom. First, I am very often turning both the sides of my cross, espe- cially my dumb and silent sabbaths ; not because I desire to find a cross or defect in my Lord's love, but because love is sick with fan- cies, and fear : whether or not the Lord hath a process leading against my guiltiness, that I have not vet well seen, I know not ; mv desire PART I. LETTER LIU. 97 is to ride fair, and not to spark dirt (if with reverence to liim, I may be permitted to make use of such a word,) in the face of my only Well- beloved ; but fear of guiltiness is a tale bearer betwixt me and Christ, and is still whispering ill tales of my Lord, to weaken my faith : I had rather a cloud went over my comforts by these messages, than that ray faith should be hurt : for, if my Lord get no wrong by me, verily I desire grace, not to care what become of me. I desire to give no faith, nor credit to my sorrow, that can make a lie of my friend Christ ; wo, wo be to them all, who speak ill of Christ. Hence these thoughts awake with me in the morning, and go to bed with me ; Oh what sweet service can a dumb body do in Christ's house ! Oh I think the word of God is imprisoned also ! Oh I am a dry tree ! Alas, I can neither plant nor water ! Oh if my Lord would make but dung of me, to fatten and make fertile his own corn ridges in mount Zion ! Oh if I might but speak to three or four herd-boys of my Worthy Master, I would be satisfied to be the meanest and most obscure of all the pas- tors in this land, and to live in any place, in any of Christ's basest out-houses ! but he saith, Sirrah, I will not send you, I have no er- rands for you there-avvay ; my desire to serve him is sick of jealousy, lest he be unwilling to employ me. Secondly, This is seconded by another ; Oh ! what have I done in Anwoth 1 The fair work that my Master began there, is like a bird dying in the shell : and what will I then have to shew of all my labour, in the day of my compearance before him, when the master of the vineyard calleth the labourers, and giveth them their hire ? Thirdly, But truly, when Christ's sweet wind is in the right airth, I repent, and I pray Christ to take the Jaw-bur- roughs of my quarrellous unbelieving sadness and «6orrow ; Lord re- buke them that put ill betwixt a poor servant like" me and his good master ; then I say, whether the black cross will or not, I must climb on hands and feet up to my Lord. I am now rueing from my heart, that I pleasured the law, my old dead husband, so far as to apprehend wrath in my sweet Lord Jesus ; I had far rather take a hire to plead for the grace of God, for I think myself Christ's sworn debtor. And the truth is, to speak of my Lord what I cannot deny, I am over head and ears drowned in many obligations to his love and mercy ; he handleth me sometimes so, that I am ashamed almost to seek more for a four-hours, but to live content, till the marriage-supper of the Lamb, with that which he giveth : but I know not how greedy and how ill to please love is ; for either my Lord Jesus hath taught me ill manners, not to be content with a seat, except my head lye in his bo- som, and except I be fed with the fatness of his house ; or else I am grown impatiently dainty, and ill to please, as if Christ were obliged, under this cross, to do no other thing but bear me in his arms, and as if I had claim by his merit for my suffering for him : but I wish he could give me grace to learn to go on my own feet, and to learn to want his comforts, and to give thanks and believe, when the sun is not in my firmament, and when my Well-beloved is from home, and gone another errand. O what sweet peace have I, when I find Christ holdeth and I draw, when I climb up, and he shutteth me down, when I embrace him, and he seemeth to loose the grips and flee away 13 9g LETTER I. IV. PART I, from rne ! I think there is even a sweet joy of faith and contentedness, and peace, in his very tempting unkindness, because my faith saith, Christ is not in sad earnest with me, but trying if I can be khid to his mask and clould that covereth him, as well as to his fair face. I bless his great name that I love his vail that goeth over his face, while God send better ; for faith can kiss God's tempting reproaches whea he nick-nameth a sinner, a dog, not worthy to eat bread with the chil- dren. I think it an honour that Christ niiscalleth me, and reproacheth me ; I will take that well of him, howbeit I would not bear it well, if another would be that homely ; but because I am his own (God be thanked) he may use me as he pleaseth ; I must say, the saints have a sweet life between them and Christ; there is much sweet solace of love between him and them, when he feedeth among the lillies, and Cometh into his garden, and maketh a feast of honey-combs, and drinketh his wine and his milk, and crieth, Eat, friends, drink, yea, drink abundantly, O Well-beloved. One hour of this labour is worth a shipful of world's drunken and muddy joy : nay, even the gate of heaven is the sunny side of the brae, and the very garden of the world ; for the men of this world have their own unchristened and profane crosses ; and wo be to them and their cursed crosses both ; for their ills are salted with God's vengeance, and our ills seasoned with our Father's blessing ; so they are no fools who choose Christ, and sell all things for him ; it is no child's market, nor a blind block ; we know \vell what we get and what we give. Now, for any resolution to go to any other kingdom, I dare not speak one word : my hopes of en- largement are cold, my hopes of re-entry to my Master's ill-dressed vineyard again a»e far colder : I have no seat for my faith to sit on, but bare omnipoteiicy, and God's holy arm and good-will ; here I de- sire to stay, and ride at anchor, and winter, till God send fair weather again, and be pleased to take home to his house my harlot-mother : Oh if her husband would be that kind, as to go and fetch her out of the brothel-house, and chase her lovers to the hills ! but there will be sad days ere it come to that. Remember my bonds. Grace be with you. Your's in our Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LIT. To the Lady Biisbie. WISTEESS, Although not acquaint, yet because we are Father's children, I thought good to write unto you : howbeit ray first discourse and com- muning with you of Christ be on paper: yet I have cause since I came hither to have no paper thoughts of him ; for in my sad days he has become the flower of my joys, and I but lye here living upon his love ; but cannot get so much of it as I fain would have ; not be- cause Christ's love is lordly, and looketh too high ; but because I have a narrow vessel to receive his love, and I look too low : but I give under mv own hand write to your testimonial of Christ and his PART I. LETTER LV. DO cross, that they are a sweet couple, and that Christ hath never yet been set in his own due chair of honour amongst us all. Oh, I know not where to set him ! O for a high seat to that royal princely one ! that my poor withered soul had once a running over flood of that love to put sap in my dry root, and that that flood would spring out to the tongue and pen, to utter great things to the high and due commendation of such a fair one ! holy, holy, holy one ! Alas there are too many dumb tongues in the world, and dry hearts, seeing there is employment in Christ for them all, and ten thousand worlds of men and angels more, to set on high, and exalt the greatest Prince of the kings of the earth. Woes me, that bits of living clay dare come out, to rush hard-heads with him ; and that my unkind mother, this harlot-kirk, hath given her sweet half-marrow such a meeting ; for this land hath given up with Christ, and the Lord is cutting Scotland in two halves, and sending the worst half, the harlot sister, over to Rome's brothel house, to get her fill of Egypt's love. I would my sufferings (nay, suppose I were burnt quick to ashes) might buy an agreement betwixt his fairest and sweetest love, and his gawdy lewd wife ; fain would 1 give Christ his welcome home to Scotland again if he would return. This is a black day, a day of clouds and darkness ; for the roof-tree of my Lord Jesus his fair temple has fallen, and Christ's back is toward Scotland. thrice blessed are they who could hold Christ with their tears and prayers ! I know ye will help to deal with him, for he shall return again to this land : the next day shall be Christ's, and there shall be a fair green young garden for Christ in this land, and God's summer-dew shall lye on it all the night, and we shall sing again our new marriage-song to our Bridegroom, concerning his vineyard : but who knoweth whether we shall hve and see it ? I hear the Lord is taking pains to afflict and dress you, as a fruitful vine for himself; grow and be green, and cast out your branches, and bring forth fruit ; fat and green, and fruitful may ye be, in the true and sappy root. Grace, grace, free grace be your portion. Hemember my bonds with prayers and praises. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus. »S. !»• Aberdeen, 1637, LETTER LV. To Ninian Mure. LOVING FRIEND, I RECEIVED your letter : I entreat you, now in the morning of your life, seek the Lord and his face : beware of the folly of dangerous youth, a perilous time for your soul ; love not the world ; keep faith and truth with all men, in your covenants and bargains : walk with God, for he seeth you : do nothing but that which ye may and would do if your eye-strings were breaking, and your breath growing cold. Ye heard the truth of God from me ; my dear heart, follow it, and forsake it not ; prize Christ and salvation above all the world : to live after the guise and course of the rest of tlie world, will not bring you to heaven ; without faith in Christ, and repentance, ye can- too LETTER LVI. PART I. not see God : take pains for salvation ; press forward toward the mark for the prize of the high calhng : if ye watch not against evils night and day, which beset you, ye will come behind : beware of lying, swearing, uncleanness, and the rest of the works of the flesh ; because for these things the wrath of God cometh upon the children of disobedience : how sweet soever they may seem for the present, yet the end of these courses is the eternal wrath of God, and utter darkness, where there is weeping and gnashing of teeth. Grace be w ith you. Your Loving Pastor, S. R. Aberdefn, 1637. LETTER LVL To Mr. Thomas Garveii. P.EVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am sorry that what joy and sorrow drew from my imprisoned pen, in my love-fits, hath made you and many of God's children believe, that there is something in a broken reed the like of me ; except that Christ's grace hath bought such a sold body, I know not what else any may think of me, or ex- pect from me. My stock is less (my Lord knoweth I speak truth) than many believe ; my empty sounds have promised too much : I would be glad to lie under Christ's feet, and keep and receive the ofF- iallings, or the old pieces of any grace, that fall from his sweet fin- gers to forlorn sinners. I lie often uncouth-like, looking in at the King's windows ; surely I am unworthy of a seat in the King's hall- floor : I but often look afar oft", both feared and framed-like, to that Ikirest face, fearing he bid me look away from him ; my guiltiness riseth up upon me, and I have no answer for it. I offered my tongue to Christ, and my pains in his house ; and what know I what itmean- eth, when Christ will not receive my poor propine 1 When love will not take, we expone, it will neither take nor give, borrow nor lend. Yet Christ hath another sea-compass he saileth by, than my short and raw thoughts : 1 leave this part of it to himself. I dare not expound his deahng, as sorrow and misbelief often dictateth to me : I look often with my bleared and blind eyes to my Lord's cross ; and when I look to the wrong side of his cross, I know I miss a step and shde : surely I see I have not legs of my own for carrying me to heaven ; I must go in at heaven's gates, borrowing strength from Christ. I am often thinking, O if he would but give me leave to love him, and if Christ would but open up his wares, and the infinite plies and wind- ings and corners of his soul-delighting love ; and let me see it, back- side and foreside ; and give me leave but to stand beside it, like an hungry man beside meat, to get my fill of wondering, as a preface to my fill of enjoying ! But verily, I think my foul eyes would defile his fair love to look to it ; either my hunger is over humble, if that may be said, or else 1 consider not what honour it is to get leave to love Christ. O that he would pity a prisoner, and let out a flood upon the dry ground ! It is nothing to him to fill the like of me ; one of his looks PART I. LETTER LVII. 101 would do me meikle world's good, and him no ill. I know I am not at a point yet with Christ's love, I am not yet fitted for so much as I would have of it ; my hope sitteth neighbour with meikle black hunger ; and certainly I can not but think, there is more of that love ordained for me than I yet comprehend, and I know not the weight of the pen- sion the king will give me ; I shall be glad if my hungry bill get leave to lie beside Christ, waiting on an answer. Now I would be full and rejoice if I got a poor man's alms of that sweetest love ; but I con- fidently believe there is a bed made for Christ and me, and that we shall take our fill of love in it ; and I often think when my joy is run out, and at the lowest ebb, that I would seek no more, but my rights past the King's great seal, and that these eyes of mine could see Christ's hand at the pen. If your Lord call you to suffering, be not dismayed ; there shall be a new allowance of the King for you when ye come to it : one of the softest pillows Christ hath is laid under his witnesses' head, though often they must set down their bare feet among thorns. He hath brought my poor soul to desire and wish, O that my ashes, and the powder I shall be dissolved into, had well tuned tongues to praise him. Thus in haste, desiring your prayers and praises, I recommend you to my sweet, sweet master, my honour- able Lord, of whom I hold all. Grace be %vith you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LVIL To Jane Brown. MISTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am glad that ye go on at Christ's back, in this dark and cloudy time ; it were good to sell other things for him ; for when all these days are over, we shall find it our advantage, that we have taken part with Christ. I confidently believe, his enemies shall be his footstool, and that he shall make green flow- ers dead withered hay, when the honour and glory shall fall off" them, like the bloom or flower of a green herb shaken with the wind. It were not wisdom for us to think that Christ and the gospel will come and sit down at our fire-side ; nay, but we must go out of our warm houses, and seek Christ and his gospel : it is not the sunny side of Christ that we must look to, and we must not forsake him for want of that ; but must set our face against what may befall us, in following on till he and we be through the briers and bushes on the dry ground. Our soft nature would be borne through the troubles of this miserable life, in Christ's arms ; and it is his wisdom, who knoweth our mould, that his children go wet-shod and cold-footed to heaven. O how sweet a thing were it for us to learn to make our burdens light, by framing our hearts to the burden, and making our Lord's will a law ! I find Christ and his cross not so ill to please, nor yet such troublesome guests as men call them ; nay, I think patience should make Christ's water good wine, and his dross good metal ; and we have cause to wait on ; for, ere it be long, our Master will be at us and bring this 102 LETTER LVIII. PART I. whole world out before the sun and day-light, ia their blacks and ■whites. Happy are they who are found watching ; our sand-glass is not so long as we need to weary ; time will eat away and root out our woes and sorrow ; our heaven is in the bud, and growing up to an harvest ; why then should we not follow on, seeing our span-length of time will come to an inch 1 Therefore I commend Christ to you as your last hving, and longest living husband, and the staff of your old age ; let him now have the rest of your days ; and think not much of a storm upon the ship that Christ saileth in ; there shall no passenger fall overboard, but the crazed ship and the sea-sick passengers shall come to land safe. I am in as sweet communion with Christ as a poor sinner can be ; and am only pained that he hath much beauty and fairness, and I little love ; he great power and mercy, and I little faith ; he much light, and I bleared eyes. Oh that I saw him in the sweetness of his love, and in his marriage-clothes, and were over head and ears in love with that princely one, Christ Jesus my Lord ! Alas, my riven dish, and running-out vessel can hold little of Christ Jesus. I have joy in this, that I would not refuse death, before I put Christ's lawful heritage in men's trysting ; and what know I, if they would have pleased both Christ and me? Alas, that this land hath put Christ to open rouping, and to an. Any man more bids ! Blessed are they who would hold the crown on his head, and buy Christ's honour with their own losses. I rejoice to hear your son John is coming to visit Christ, and taste of his love. I hope he shall not lose his pains, or rue of that choice. I had always (as I said often to you) a great love to dear Mr. John Brown, because I thought I saw Christ in him more than in his brethren ; fain would I write to him, to stand by my sweet Master ; and I wish ye would let him read my letter, and the joy I have, if he will appear for, and side with my Lord Jesus. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, March 13th, 1637. LETTER LVIIL To Jane Macmillan. LOVING SISTEH, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I cannot come to you, to give you my counsel ; and howbeit I would come, I cannot stay with you : but I beseech you to keep Christ, for 1 did what I could to put you within grips of him ; I told you Christ's testament and latter-will plainly, and I kept nothing back that my Lord gave me ; and I gave Christ to you with good will : I pray you make him your own, and go not from that truth I taught you in one hair-breadth ; that truth shall save you if ye follow it. Salvation is not an easy thing and soon got- ten ; I often told you few are saved and many damned ; I pray you make your poor soul sure of salvation, and make the seeking of hea- ven your daily task. If ye never had a sick night and a pained soul for sin, ye have not yet lighted upon Christ ; look to the right marks of having closed with Christ : if ye love him better than the world, PART T. LETTER LIX. 103 and would quit all the world for him, then that saith the work is sound. O if ye saw the beauty of Jesus, and felt the smell of his iove, you would run through fire and water to be at him ! God send you him. Pray for me, for I cannot forget you. Grace be with you. Your loving Pastor, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LIX. To the Lady Busbie. airSTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am glad to hear that Christ and ye are one, and that ye have made him your one thing ; when many are painfully toiled in seeking many things, and their many things are nothing. It is only best ye set yourself apart as a thing laid up and out of the gait, for Christ alone ; for ye are good for no other thing but Christ ; and he has been going about you these many years, by afflictions, to engage you to himself; it were a pity and a loss to say him nay. Verily I could wish that I could swim through hell ; and all the ill weather in the world, and Christ in my arms ; but it is my evil and folly, that except Christ come unsent for, I can not go to seek him : when he and I fall in reckoning, we are both behind, he in payment, and I in counting ; and so marches lie still unrid, and counts uncleared betwixt us. O that he would take his own blood for counts and miscounts, that I might be a free man, and none had any claim to me but only, only Jesus. I will think it no bondage to be rouped, comprised and possessed by Christ, as his bondman. Think well of the visitations of your Lord : for I find one thing, I saw not well before, that when the saints are under trials, and well iiumbled, little sins raise great cries and war-shouts in the conscience ; and in prosperity conscience is a Pope, to give dispensations, and let out and in, and give latitude and elbow-room to our heart. O how little care we for pardon at Christ's hand, when we make dispensa- tions ! and all is but children's play, till a cross without beget an hea- vier cross within, and then we play no longer with our idols. It is good still to be severe against ourselves ; for we but transform God's mercy into an idol, and an idol that hath a dispensation to give, for turning of the grace of God into wantonness. Happy are they who take up God, wrath, justice, and sin, as they are in themselves : for we have miscarrying light, that parteth with child, when we have good resolutions : but God be thanked, that salvation is not rolled upon our wheels. but Christ hath a saving eye ! Salvation is in his eye-lids ; when he first looked on me, I was saved ; it cost him but a look to make hell quit of me : merits, free merits, and the dear blood of God, was the best gait that ever we could have gotten out of hell ! what a sweet, O what a safe and sure way is it, to come out of hell leaning on a Saviour ! That Christ and a sinner should be one, and have heaven betwixt them, and be halvers of sal- vation, is the wonder of salvation. What more humble could love be ? and what an excellent smell doth Christ cast on his lower garden, 104 LETTER L\. PART I. where there grow but wild flowers, if we speak by way of compari- son : but there is nothing but perfect garden flowers in heaven, and the best plenishing that is there is Christ. We are all obliged to love heaven for Christ's sake : he graceth heaven, and all his Father's house with his presence : he is a Rose that beautifieth all the upper garden of God ; a leaf of that Rose of God for smell is worth a world : O that he would blow his smell upon a withered and dead soul ! let us then go on to meet with him, and to be filled with the sweetness of his love. Nothing will hold him from us ; he hath de- creed to put time, sin, hell, devils, men and death out of the way, and to rid the rough way betwixt us and him, that we may enjoy one another. It is strange and wonderful, that he would think long in heaven without us, and that he would have the company of sinners to solace and delight himself withal in heaven ; and now the supper is abiding us ; Christ the Bridegroom, with desire, is waiting on, till the bride, the Lamb's wife, be busked for the marriage, and the great hall be rid for the meeting of that joyful couple. O fools, what do we here ? and why sit we still ? why sleep we in the prison 1 were it not best to make us wings, to flee up to our blessed match, our marrow, and our fellow friends 1 I think, Mistress, ye are looking thereaway, and this is your second or third thought ; make forward, your guide waiteth on you. I cannot but bless you for your care and kindness to the saints. God give you to find mercy in that day of our Lord Je- sus, to whose grace I recommend you. Your's in our Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LX. To William Rigg, of Atheniie. MUCH HONOURED AND WORTHY SIR, Your letter full of complaints, bemoaning your guiltiness, halli humbled me ; but give me leave to say. Ye seem to be too far upon the law's side, ye will not gain much to be the law's advocate : I thought ye had not been the law's, but grace's man ; nevertheless, I am sure ye desire to take God's part against yourself; whatever your guiltiness be, yet when it falleth into the sea of God's mercy, it is but like a drop of blood fallen in the great ocean. There is nothing here to be done, but let Christ's doom light on the old man, and let him bear his condemnation, seeing in Christ he was condemned ; for the law hath but power over your worst half; let the blame therefore Jie where the blame should be, and let the new man be sure to say, I am comely as the tents of Kedar ; howbeit I be black and sun burnt, by sitting neighbour beside a body of sin. I seek no more here but room for grace's defence, and Christ's white throne, whereto a sin- ner, condemned by the law, may appeal : but the use that I make of it is, I am sorry that I am not so tender and thin-skinned, though I am sure Christ may find employment for his calling in me, if in any hving, seeing from my youth upward I have been making up the blackest process that any minister in the world, or any other can PART 1. LETTER LXl. 105 answer to ; and when I had done this, I painted a providence of my own, and wrote ease for myself, and a peaceable ministry, and the sun shining on me, till I should be in at heaven's gates ; such green and raw thoughts had I of God ! I thought also of a sleeping devil that would pass by the like of me, lying in muirs and out-fields ; so I bigged the gouk's nest, and dreamed of dying at ease, and living in a fool's paradise : but since I came hither, I am often so, as they would have much rhetorick that would persuade me, that Christ hath not written wrath on my dumb and silent sabbaths ; (which is a persecu- tion of the latest edition, being used against none in this land, that I can learn of, besides me ;) and often I lie under a non-entry, and would gladly sell all my joys to be confirmed King Jesus' free tenant, and to have sealed assurances ; but I see ol"ten blank papers. And my greatest desires are these two, 1. That Cluist would take me in hand to cure me, and undertake for a sick man : I know I should not die under his hand ; and yet in this, while I still doubt, I beheve, through a cloud, that sorrow, which hath no eyes, hath but put a veil on Christ's love. 2. It pleaseth him often since I came hither, to come with some short blinks of his sweet love ; and then, because I have none to help me to praise his love, and can do him no service in my own person, (as I once thought I did in his temple) I die witli wishes, and desire to take up house, and dwell at the well side, and^ to have him praised and set on high ; but alas ! what can the like of me do, to get a good name raised upon my Well-beloved liord Jesus, suppose I could desire to be suspended for ever for my part of heaven, for his glory ? I am sure if I could get my will of Christ's love, and could once be over head and ears in the believed, apprehended, and seen love of the Son of God, it were the fulfilling of the desires of the only happiness I would be at. But the truth is, I hinder my communion with him, because of want of both faith and repentance, and because I will make an idol of Christ's kisses. I will neither lead nor drive, except I see Christ's love run in my channel, and when I wait and look for him the upper way, I see his wisdom is pleased to play me a slip, and come the lower way : so that I have not the right art of guiding Christ ; for there is art and wisdom re- quired in guiding of Christ's love aright when we have gotten it. O how far are his ways above mine ! O how little of him do I see ! And when I am as dry as a burnt heath in a drouthy summer, and when my root is withered, howbeit, I think then, that I would drink a sea-full of Christ, ere ever I would let the cup go from my head ; yet I get nothing but delays, as if he would make hunger my daily food. I think myself also hungered of hunger ; the rich Lord Jesus satisfy a famished man. Grace be with you. Your own in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. LETTER LXL To his worthy and much honoured Friend, Fulk Elies. WORTHY AND MUCH HONOURED IN OUR LORD, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I am glad of our more than paper acquaintance : seeing we have one Father, it reckoneth the less lOG LETTEil LXi. PART I. though we never saw one another's face. I profess myself most vmworthy to follow the camp of such a worthy and renowned captain as Christ. Oh alas ! I have cause to be grieved, that men expect any thing of such a wretched man as I am : it is a wonder to me, if Christ can make any thing of my naughty, short and narrow love to him ; surely it is not worth the up-taking. 2. As for our lovely and beloved ctnirch in Ireland, my heart bleedeth for her desolation ; but I beheve our Lord is only lopping the vine trees, but not intending to cut them down, or root them out. It is true, seeing we are heart-athe- ists by nature, and cannot take providence aright, because we halt and crook ever since we fell, we dream of an halting providence, as if God's yard, whereby he measureth joy and sorrow to the sons of men, were crooked and unjust, because servants ride on horseback, and princes go on foot : but our Lord dealeth good and evil, and some one portion or other to both, by ounce-weights : and measureth them in a just and even balance. It is but folly to measure the gospel by summer or winter weather : the summer sun of the saints shineth not on them in this hfe. How should we have complained, if the Lord had turned the same providence that we now stomach at, upside down, and had ordered matters thus, that first the saints should have enjoyed heaven, glory, and ease, and then Methuselah's days of sor- row and daily miseries ? We would think a short heaven no heaven ; certainly his ways pass finding out. 3. Ye complain of the evil of heart-atheism : but it is to a greater atheist than any man can be, that ye write of that ; Oh, light findeth not that reverence and fear as a plant of God's setting should find in our soul ! How do we by nature, as others detain and captivate the truth of God in unrighteousness, and so make God's light a bound prisoner 1 and even when the pri- soner breaketh the jail, and cometh out, in belief of a Godhead, and in some practice of holy obedience, how often do we, of new, lay liands on the prisoner, and put our light again in fetters t Certainly there cometh a great mist and clouds from the lower part of our soul, our earthly aflections, to the higher part, which is our conscience, either natural or renewed ; a smoke in a lower house breaketh up, and defileth the house above : if we had more practice of obedience we should have more sound light. I think, lay aside all other guiltiness, this one, the violence done to God's candle in our soul, were a sufficient dittay against us ; for there is no helping of this but by striving to stand in awe of God's light ; lest light tell tales of us, we desire little to hear : but since it is not without God, that light sit- teth neighbour to will, (a lawless lord) no marvel that such a neigh- bour should leaven our judgment, and darken our light. I see there is a necessity that we protest against the doings of the old man, and raise up a party against our worst half to accuse, condemn, sentence, and with sorrow bemoan the dominion of sin's kingdom ; and withal make law, in the new covenant, against our guiltiness : for Christ once condemned sin in the flesh, and we are to condemn it over again : and if there had not been such a thing as the grace of Jesus, I should have long since given up with heaven, and with the expecta- tion to see God ; but grace, grace, free grace, the merits of Christ for PART r. LETTER LXII. 107 nothing, white and fair, and large Saviour-mercy (which is another sort of thing than creature-mercy, or law-mercy, yea, a thousand degrees above angel-mercy) hath been, and must be, the rock that we drowned souls must swim to. New washing, renewed application of purchased redemption, by that sacred blood that sealeth the free covenant, is a thing of daily and hourly use to a poor sinner. Till we be in heaven our issue of blood will not be quite dried up ; and therefore we must resolve to apply peace to our souls from the new and living way ; and Jesus who cleanseth and cureth the leprous soul, lovely Jesus, must be our song on this side of heaven's gates ; and even when we have won the castle, then must we eternally sing, Worthy, worthy is the Lamb, who hath saved us and washed us in hi.s own blood. I would counsel all the ransomed ones to learn this song, and to drink and be drunk with the love of Jesus. O fairest, O high^ est, O loveliest One, open the well ! O water the burnt and withered travellers with this love of thine ! I think it is possible on earth to build a young new Jerusalem, a little new heaven of this surpassing love. God, either send me more of this love, or take me quickly over the water, where I may be filled with his love : my softness can- not take with want : I profess I bear not hunger of Christ's love, fair : I know not if I play foul play with Christ, but I would have a link of that chain of his providence mended, in pinning and delaying the hun- gry on- waiters. For myself, I could wish that Clirist would let out upon me more of that love ; yet to say Christ is a niggard to me, I dare not ; and if I say, I have abundance of his love, I should lie. I am half straitened to complain, and cry, Lord Jesus, hold thy hand no longer. Worthy Sir, let me have your prayers in my bonds. Grace be with you. Yours, in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1G37. LETTER LXIL To James Lindsay. WEAR BROTHER, The constant and daily observing of God's going alongst with you, in his coming, going, ebbing, flowing, embracing, and kissing, gloom- ing and striking, giveth me (a witless and lazy observer of the Lord's way and working) an heavy stroke ; could I keep sight of him, and know when I want, and carry as became me in that condition, I would bless my case. But, 1. For desertions, I think them like lying lea of lean and weak land for some years, while it gather sap for a better crop. It is possible to gather gold, where it may be had, with moon liirht. Oh if I could but creep one foot, or half a foot nearer in to Jesus in such a dismal night as that, when he is away ! I should think it an happy absence. 2. If I knew the Beloved were only gone away for trial, and further humiliation, and not smoked out of the house with new provocations, I would forgive desertions, and hold my peace at his absence ; but Christ's bought absence (that I bought with my sin) is two running boils at once, one upon either sido ; and 108 LETTER LXIl. PART I. what side then can I He on ? 3. I know as night and shadows are good for flowers, and moon light and dews are better than a continual sun ; so is Christ's absence of special use, and it hath some nourish- ing virtue in it, and giveth sap to humility, and putteth an edge on hunger, and furnisheth a fair field to faith to put forth itself, and to exercise its fingers in gripping, it seelh not what. 4. It is mercy's Avonder, and grace's wonder, that Christ will lend a piece of the lodg- ing, and a black chamber beside himself, to our lusts ; and that he and such swine should keep house together in our soul ; for suppose they couch and contract themselves into little room when Christ Cometh in ; and seem to lie as dead under his feet, yet they often break out again ; and that a foot of the old man, or a leg or arm nailed to Christ's cross, looseth the nail or breaketh out again ; and ret Christ, beside this unruly and misnurtured neighbour, can still be making heaven in the saints, one way or other. May I not say. Lord Jesus, what dost thou here 1 Yet here he must be ; but I will not lose my feet to go on into this depth and wonder ; for free mercy and infi- nite merits, took a lodging to Christ and us, beside such a loathsome guest as sin. 5. Sanctification and mortification of our lusts, are the hardest part of Christianity. It is in a manner, as natural to us to leap when we see the new Jerusalem, as to laugh when we are tick- led : joy is not under command, or at our nod, when Christ kisseth : but how many of us would have Christ divided in two halves, that we might take the half of him only, and take his office, Jesus and salvation ! but Lord is a cumbersome word, and to obey and work out our own salvation, and to perfect hohness, is the cumbersome and stormy north side of Christ, and that we shew and shift. 6. For your question, The access that reprobates have to Christ (which is none at all, for to the Father in Christ neither can they, nor will they come, because Christ died not for them ; and yet by law, God and justice overtaketh them) I say, first, There are with you more worthy and learned than I am, Messrs. Dickson, Blair, and Hamilton, who can more fully satisfy you ; but I shall speak in brief what I think of it, in these assertions. First, All God's justice toward man and angels floweth from an act of absolute, sovereign free will of God, who is our Former and Potter, and we are but clay ; for if he had forbidden to eat of the rest of the trees of the garden of Eden, and commanded Adam to eat of the tree of knowledge of good and evil, that command no doubt had been as just as this ; Eat of all the trees, but not at all of the tree of knowledge of good and evil. The rea- son is, because his will is his justice, and he willeth not things with- out himself, because they are just : God needed not hunt sanctity, holiness, or righteousness from things without himself, and so not from the actions of men and angels ; because his will is essentially holy and just, and the prime rule of holiness and justice ; as the fir© is naturally light, and inclineth upward, and the earth heavy and in- clineth downward. The second assertion then is, that God saith to reprobates, Believe in Christ (who hath not died for your salvation) and ye shall be saved, is just and right ; because his eternal and essentially just will hath so enacted and decreed ; suppose natural PART 1. LETTER LXII. 109 reason speak against this, this is the deep and special mystery of the gospel. God hath obliged, hard and fast, all the reprobates of the visible church to beUeve this promise. He that believeth shall be saved : and yet, in God's decree and secret intention, there is no sal- vation at all decreed and intended to reprobates ; and yet the obhga- tion of God, being from his sovereign free will, is most just, as is said in the first assertion. Third assertion, The righteous Lord hath right over the reprobates and all reasonable creatures, that violate his commandments ; this is easy. Fourth assertion, The faith that God seeketh of reprobates, is, that they rely upon Christ, as despairing of their own righteousness, leaning wholly, and withal humbly, as weary and loaded, upon Christ as on the resting-stone laid in Zion ; but he seeketh not that, without being weary of their sin, they rely upon Christ, as mankind's Saviour ; for to rely on Christ, and not to be weary of sin, is presumption, not faith : faith is ever neighbour to a contrite spirit ; and it is impossible that faith can be, where there is not a casten down and contrite heart, in some measure, for sin : now it is certain, God commandeth no man to presume. Fifth assertion, Then reprobates are not absolutely obliged to believe that Christ died for them in particular ; for, in truth, neither reprobates nor others are obliged to believe a lie ; only they are obliged to believe Christ died for them, if they be first weary, burdened, sick, and condemned in their own consciences, and stricken dead and killed with the law's sentence, and have indeed embraced him as offered, which is a second and subsequent act of faith, following after a coming to him, and closing with him. Sixth assertion, Reprobates are not formally guilty of contempt of God, and misbelief, because they apply not Christ and the promises of the gospel to themselves in particular ; for so they should be guilty, because they believe not a lie, which God never obliged them to believe. Seventh assertion. Justice hath a right to punish reprobates, because out of pride of heart, confiding in their own righteousness, they rely not upon Christ, as a Saviour of all them that come to him ; this God may justly oblige them unto ; because in Adam they had perfect ability to do ; and men are guilty because they love their own inability, and rest upon themselves, and refuse to deny their own righteousness, and to take them to Christ, in whom there is righteousness for wearied sinners. Eighth assertion. It is one thing to rely, lean, and rest upon Christ, in humility and weariness of spirit, and denying our own righteousness, believing him \o be the only )ighteousness of wearied sinners ; and it is another thing to believe that Christ died for me, John, Thomas, Anna, upon an intention and decree to save us by name. For, 1st, The first goeth first, the latter is always after in due order. 2d, The first is faith, the second is a fruit of faith ; and, 3d, The first obligeth reprobates and all men in the visible kirk, the latter obligeth only the weary and laden, and so only the elect and effectually called of God. Ninth assertion, It is a vain order, I know not if Christ died for me, John, Thomas, Anna, by name ; and, therefore, I dare not rely on him. The reason is, because it is not faith, to believe God's intention and decree of elec- tion at the fir-st, ere ye be wearied : look first to your own intenfion 110 LETTER LXIII. PARTI. and soul ; if you find sin a burden, and can and do rest under that burden, upon Christ ; if this be once, now come and beheve in par- ticular, or apply by sense (for, in my judgment, it is a fruit of belief, not behef,) and feeling the good- will, intention, and gracious purpose of God anent your salvation : hence, because there is malice in repro- bates, and contempt of Christ, guilty they are, and justice hath law against them ; and, which is the mystery, they cannot come up to Christ, because he died not for them ; but their sin is, that they love their inability to come to Christ, and he who loveth his chains, deserv- eth chains. And thus in short, remember my bonds. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXIIL To tlie Earl of Cassils. MY VERY NOBLE AND HONOURABLE LORD, Grace, mercy, and peace be to your Lordship. Pardon me to express my earnest desire to your Lordship for Zion's sake, for whom we should not hold our peace. I know your Lordship will take my pleading on his behalf in the better part, because the necessity of a falling and weak church is urgent. I believe your Lordship is one of Zion's friends, and that by obligation ; for when the Lord shall count and write up the people, it shall be written, This man was born there. Therefore, because your Lordship is a born son of the house, I hope your desire is, that the beauty and glory of the Lord may dwell in the midst of the city, whereof your Lordship is a son. It must be, without all doubt, the greatest honour of your place and house, to kiss the Son of God, and for his sake to be kind to his oppressed and wronged Bride, who, now in the day of her desolation, beggeth help of you, that are the shields of the earth. I am sure many kings, princes, and nobles, in the day of Christ's second coming, would be glad to run errands for Christ, even bare-footed, through fire and water ; but in that day he will have none of their service. ISow he is asking, if your Lordship will help him against the mighty of the earth, when men are sitting their shoulders to Christ's fair and beauti- ful tent in this land, to loose its stakes, and break it down ; and cer- tainly such as are not with Christ, are against him : and blessed shall your Lordship be of the Lord, blessed shall your house and seed be, and blessed shall your honour be, if ye empawned and lay in Christ's hand, the earldom of Cassils (and it is but a shadow in comparison of the city made without hands) and lay it even at the stake, rather than Christ, and borne-down truth want a witness of you, against the apos- tacy of this land. Ye hold your lands of Christ, your charters are under his seal, and he who hath many crowns on his head, dealeth, cutteth, and carveth pieces of this clay heritage to men at his plea- sure. It is little your Ijordship hath to give iiim ; he will not sleep long in your common, but shall surely pay home your losses for his cause. It is but our bleared eyes that look through a false glass to this idol-god of clay, and think something of it ; they who are past PART I. LETTER LXIII. Ill with their last sentence to heaven or hell, and have made their reckon- ing, and departed out of this smoky inn, have now no other conceit of this world, but as a piece of beguiling well-lustred clay ; and how fast doth time, like a flood in motion, carry your Lordship out of it ! and is not eternity coming with wings 1 Court goeth not in heaven as it doth here. Our Lord, who hath all you, the nobles lying in the shell of his balance, esteemeth you accordingly as ye are the Bride- groom's friends or foes ; your honourable ancestors, with the hazard of their lives, brought Christ to our hands ; and it shall be cruelty to the posterity, if ye lose him to them. One of our tribes, licvi's sons, the watchmen, are fallen from the Lord, and have sold their mother, and their father also, and the Lord's truth, for their new velvet world, and their satin church. If ye, the nobles, play Christ a slip, now when his back is at the wall, if I may so speak, then may we say, that the Lord hath casten water upon Scotland's smoking coal ; but we hope better things of you. It is no wisdom, however it be the state-wisdom now in request, to be silent, when they are casting lots for a better thing than Christ's coat. All this land, and every man's part of the play for Christ, and tears of poor and friendless Zion, now going dool-like in sackcloth, are up in heaven before our Lord ; and there is no question, but our King and Lord shall be master of the field at length ; and we would all be glad to divide the spoil with Christ, and to ride in triumph with him ; but oh, how few will take a cold bed of straw in the camp with him ! How fain \yould men have a well-thatched house above their heads, all the way to heaven ! And many now would go to heaven the land way, for they love not to be sea-sick, riding up to Christ upon foot-mantles, and rattling coaches, and rubbing their velvet with the princes of the land in the highest seats. If this be the way Christ called strait and narrow, I quit all skill of the way to salvation. Are they not now rouping Christ and the gospel 1 have they not put our Lord Jesus to the market, and he who out-biddeth his fellow shall get himl O my dear and noble Lord, go on, howbeit the wind be in your face, to back our princely Captain ; be courageous for him ; fear not those who have no subscribed lease of days ; the worms shall eat kings ; let the Lord Jehovah be your fear ; and then, as the Lord liveth, the victory is your's. It is true, many are striking up a new way to heaven ; but my soul for their's, if they find it ; and if this be not the only way, whose end is Christ's Father's house ; and my weak experience, since the day I was first in bonds, hath confirmed me in the truth and assurance of this ; let doc- tors and learned men cry the contrair, I am persuaded this is the way. The bottom hath fallen out of both their wit and conscience at once ; their book hath beguiled them, for we have fallen upon the true Christ. I dare hazard, if I alone had ten souls, my salvation upon this stone, that many now break their bones upon. Let them take this fat world, O poor and hungry is their paradise ! Therefore let me intreat your Lordship, by your compearance before Christ, now while this piece of the afternoon of your day is before you (for ye know not when your sun will turn, and eternity shall benight you,) let your worldly glory, honour, and might, be for our Lord Jesus ; and to his rich 112 LETTER LXIV. PART 1. grace and tender mercy, and to the never-dying comforts of his gra- cious Spirit, I recommend your Lordship and noble house. Your Lordship's at all obedience, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 9, 1637. LETTER LXIV. To the Lady Largiiie. Mistress, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I hope ye know what condi- tions past betwixt Christ and you, at your first meeting ; ye remember, he said, your summer days would have clouds, and your rose a prickly thorn beside it ; Christ is unmixt in heaven, all sweetness and honey : here we have him with his thorny and rough cross ; yet I know no tree beareth sweeter fruit than Christ's cross, except I would raise a lying report on it. It is your part to take Christ, as he is to be had in this hfe ; sufferings are like a wood planted round about his house, ever door and window ; if we could hold fast our grips of him, the field were won. Yet a little while, and Christ shall triumph : give Christ his own short time, to spin out these two long threads of hea- ven and hell to all mankind, for certainly the thread will not break : and when he hath accomplished his work in Mount Zion, and hath refined his silver, he will bring new vessels out of the furnace, and plenish his house, and take up his house again. I counsel yoii to free yourself of clogging temptations, by overcoming some, and contemn- ing others, and watching over all ; abide true and loyal to Christ, for few now are fast to him ; they give Christ blank paper, for a bond of service and attendance, now when Christ hath most ado ; to waste a little blood with Christ, and to put our part of this drossy world in pawn over in his hand, as willing to quit it for him, is the safest cabi- net to keep the world in ; but those who would take the world and all their flitting on their back, and run away from Christ, they will fall by the way, and leave their burden behind them, and be taken captive themselves. Well were my soul, to have put all I have, hfe and soul, over in Christ's hands : let him be forthcoming for all. If any ask Jiow I do 1 I answer. None can be but well that are in Christ ; and if I were not so, my sufferings had melted me away in ashes and smoke ; I thank my Lord, that he hath something in me that this fire cannot consume. Remember my love to your husband, and shew him from me, I desire that he may set aside all things, and make sure Avork of salvation, that it be not a-seeking, when the sand-glass is run out, and time and eternity shall tryst together : there is no errand so weighty as this ; that he would take it to heart. Grace be with you. Your's in Christ Jesits his Lord* S. R. Aberdeen. PARTI. LETTER LXV, LXVl. 113 LETTER LXV. To the Lady Dungueigh. MISTRESS, I LONG to hear from you, and how you go on with Christ : I am sure that Christ and you once met : I pray you fasten your grips ; there is holding and drawing, and much sea-way to heaven, and we are often sea-sick ; but the voyage is so needful, that we must on any terms take shipping with Christ. I believe it is a good country we are going to, and there is ill lodging in this smoky house of the world, in which we are yet living. Oh that we should love smoke so well, and clay that holdeth our feet fast ! It were our happiness to follow on after Christ, and to anchor ourselves upon the rock, in the upper side of the vail. Christ and Satan are now drawing two parties ; and they are blind who see not Scotland divided in two camps, and Christ coming out with his white banner of love, and he hangeth that over the heads of his soldiers ; and the other captain, the dragon, is com- ing out with a great black flag, and crieth, The world, the world, ease, honour, and a whole skin, and a soft couch ; and there lye they, and leave Christ to fend for himself My counsel is, that ye come out and leave the multitude, and let Christ have your company ; let them take clay and this present world, who love it ; Christ is a more worthv and noble portion ; blessed are those who get him. It is good, ere the storm rise, to make ready all, and to be prepared to go to the camp with Christ, seeing he will not keep the house, nor sit at the fire-side with couchers. A shower for Christ is little enough. Oh, I find all too little for him ! Wo, wo, wo's me, that I have no propine for my Lord Jesus ; my love is so feckless, that it is a shame to offer it to him. Oh, if it were as broad as heaven, as deep as the sea, I would gladly bestow it upon him ! I persuade you, God is wringing grapes of red wine for Scotland, and this land shall drink, and spue, and fall. His enemies shall drink the thick of it, and the grounds of it ; but Scotland's withered tree shall blossom again, and Christ shall make a second marriage with her, and take home his wife out of the furnace ; but if our eyes shall see it, he knoweth who hath created time. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LXVL To Janet Mackullocli. LOVING SISTER, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Hold on your course, for, it may be, I will not soon see you : venture through the thick of all things after Christ, and lose not your Master, Christ, in the throng of this great market. Let Christ know how heavy, and how many a stone weight you and your cares, burdens, crosses, and sins are : let him bear all ; make the heritage sure to yourself: get charters and writs passed and through, and put on arms for the battle, and keep you fast by Christ, and then let the wind blow out of what airth it will, your soul will not be blown into the sea. I find Christ the most 15 114 LETTER LXVII. PART I, steady friend and companion in the world to nie now : the need and usefulness of Christ is seen best in trials. O if he be not well wor- thy of his room ! Lodge him in house and heart, and stir up your husband to seek the Lord : I wonder he hath never written to me : I do not forget him. I taught you the whole counsel of God, and delivered it to you : it will be enquired for at your hands ; have it in readiness against the time that the Lord ask for it ; make you ready to meet the Lord, and rest and sleep in the love of that fairest among the sons of men. Desire Christ's beauty ; give out all your love to him, and let none fall by ; learn in prayer to speak to him : help your mother's soul, and desire her, from me, to seek the Lord and his salvation ; it is not soon found ; many miss it. Grace be with you. Your loving pastor, S. R. Aberdeen, 1637. LETTER LXVIL To my Lord Craighall. M5f LORD, I CANNOT expound your Lordship's contrary tides, and these tenta- tions wherewith ye are assaulted, to be any other thing but Christ trying you, and saying unto you. And will ye also leave me 1 I am sure Christ hath a great advantage against you, if ye play foul play to him, in that the Holy Spirit hath done his part, in evidencing to your conscience, that this is the way of Christ, wherein ye shall have peace ; and the other, as sure as God liveth, the Antichrist's way : therefore, as ye fear God, fear your light, and stand in awe of a con- vincing conscience. It is far better for your Lordship to keep youv conscience, and to hazard in such an honourable cause, your place, tlian wilfully, and against your light, to come under guiltiness. Kings cannot heal broken consciences ; and when death and judg- ment shall comprise your soul, your counsellors and others cannot be cautioners to justice for you. Ere it be long, our Lord will put a final determination to acts of parliament, and men's laws, and will clear you before men and angels, of men's unjust sentences. Ye received honour, and place, and authority, and riches, and reputation from your Lord, to set forward and advance the liberties and freedom of Christ's kingdom. Men, whose consciences are made of stoutness, think little of such matters, which notwithstanding, encroach directly upon Christ's prerogative royal. So would men think it a hght mat- ter for Uzzah to put out his hand to hold the Lord's falling ark ; but it cost him his life. And who doubteth but a carnal friend will advise you to shut your window, and pray beneath your breath ; Ye make too great a din with your prayers ; so would a head-of-wit speak if ye were in Daniel's place ; but men's overgilded reasons will not help you when your conscience is hke to split with a double charge. Alas, alas ! when will this world learn to submit their wis- dom to the wisdom of God 1 I am sure, your Lordship hath found the truth ; go not then to search it over again, for it is ordinary for men to make doubts, when they have a mind to desert the truth. Kings PART I. LETTER LXVIII, LXIX. 115 are not their own men, their ways are in God's hand. I rejoice and am glad, that ye resolve to walk with Christ, howbeit his court be thin. Grace be with your Lordship. Your Lordship's in his sweet Master and Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXVIIL , * To William Rigg of Athernie. WORTHY AND MUCH HONOURED SIR, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. How sad a prisoner would I be, if I knew not that my Lord Jesus had the keys of the prison him- self, and that his death and blood hath bought a blessing to our crosses, as well as to ourselves 1 I am sure troubles have no prevail- ing rights over us, if they be but our Lord's Serjeants, to keep us in ward while we are in this side of heaven ; I am persuaded also, that they shall not go over the bound road, nor enter into heaven with us ; for they find no welcome there, where ' there is no more death, nei- ther sorrow, nor crying, neither any more pain ;' and therefore we shall leave them behind us. Oh if I could get as good a gait of sin, even this woful and wretched body of sin, as I get of Christ's cross ! Nay, indeed, I think the cross beareth both me and itself rather than I it, in comparison of the tyranny of the lawless flesh and wicked neighbour, that dwelleth beside Christ's new creature. But, Oh, this is that which presseth me down and paineth me ; Jesus Christ in his saints sitteth neigbour with an ill second, corruption, deadness, cold- ness, pride, lust, worldliness, self-love, security, falsehood, and a world of more the like, which I find in me, that are daily doing vio- lence to the new man. but we have cause to carry low sails, and to cleave fast to free grace, free, free grace ! Blessed be our Lord that ever that way was found out ; if my one foot were in heaven, and my soul half in, if free-will and corruption were absolute lords of me, I should never win wholly in. O but the sweet, new and living way, that Christ hath struck up to our home, be a safe way ! I find now presence and access a greater dainty than before ; but yet the Bride- groom looketh through the lattice, and through the hole of the door. O if he and I were on fair dry land together, on the other side of the water. Grace be with you. Your's, in his sweet Lord Jesus, ''^- R- Aberdeen, Sept. :10, 1637. LETTER LXIX. To the Lady Kilconquhair. MISTRESS, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I received your letter. I am heartily content, ye love and own this oppressed and wronged cause of Christ ; and that now, when so many are miscarried, ye are in any measure taken with the love of Jesus. Weary not, but come in, and see if there be not more in Christ than the tongue of men and angels 116 LETTER LXX. PART I. can express : if ye seek a way to heaven, the way is in him, or, he is it : what ye want is treasured up in Jesus, and he saith, all his are yours, even his kingdom, he is content to divide it betwixt him and you : yea, his throne and his glory, Luke xxii. 29, 30. John Xvii. 24. Rev. iii. 21. and therefore take pains to climb up that besieged house to Christ : for devils, men, and armies of temptations, are lying about the house, to hold out all that are out, and it is taken with violence : it is not a smooth and easy way, neither will your weather be fair and pleasant : but whosoever saw the invisible God, and the fair city, make no reckoning of losses or crosses. In ye must be, cost you what it will ; stand not for a price, and for all that ye have, to win the castle ; the rights to it are won to you, and it is disponed to you, in your Lord Jesus's testament ; and see what a fair legacy your dying friend Christ hath left you : and there wanteth nothing but possession. Then get up in the strength of the Lord ; get over the water to pos- sess that good land : it is better than a land of olives and wine-trees ; for the tree of life, that beareth twelve manner of fruits every month, is there before you ; and a pure river of life, clear as chrystal, proceeding out of the throne of God and of the Lamb, is there. Your time is short, therefore lose no time ; gracious and faithful is he who hath called you to his kingdom and glory. The city is yours by free conquest and by promise, and therefore let no uncouth lord-idol put you from your own. The devil hath cheated the simple heir of his paradise, and by enticing us to taste of the forbidden fruit, hath, as it were, brought us out of our kindly heritage ; but our Lord, Christ Jesus, hath done more than bought the devil by, for he hath redeemed the wadset, and made the poor heir free to the inheritance. If we knew the glory of our elder brother in heaven, we would long to be there to see him, and to get our fill of heaven ; we children think the earth a fair garden, but it is but God's out-field, and wild, cold barren ground ; all things are fading that are here : it is our happiness to make sure of Christ to ourselves. Thus remembering my love to your husband, and wishing to him what I write to you, I commit you to God's ten- der mercy. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 13, 1637. LETTER LXX. To the Lady Craighall. lIONOUrvABLE AND CHRISTIAN LADY, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. I cannot but write to your Ijadyship of the sweet and glorious terms I am in with the most joyful King that ever was, under this well-thriving, and prosperous cross ; it is my Lord's salvation, wrought by his own right hand, that the water doth not suffocate the breath of hope and joyful courage in the Lord Jesus ; for his own person is still in the camp with his poor soldier. I see the cross is tied with Christ's hand to the end of an honest pro- fession ; we are but fools to endeavour to loose Christ's knot. When I consider the comforts of God, I durst not consent to sell or wadset PART 1. LETTER LXXI. 117 my short life-rent of the cross of the Lord Jesus. I know that Christ bought with his own blood a right to sanctified and blessed crosses, in as far as they blow me over the water to my long desired home : and it were not good that Christ should be the buyer and I the seller. I know time and death shall take sufTermgs fairly off my hand ; I hope we shall have an honest parting at night, when this cold and frosty af- ternoon tide of my evil and rough day shall be over ; well is my soul of either sweet or sour, that Christ hath any part or portion in : if he be at the one end of it, it shall be well with me. I shall die ere I libel faults against Christ's cross ; it shall have my testimonial under my hand, as an honest and saving mean of Christ for mortification and faith's growth. I have a stronger assurance, since I came over Forth, of the excellency of Jesus than I had before. I am rather about him than in him, while I am absent from him in this house of clay ; but I would be in heaven for no other cause but to essay and try what boundless joy it must be to be over head and ears in my Well-beloved Christ's love. that fair one hath my heart for evermore ! but alas, it is too little for him ! if it were better and more worthy for his sake ! O if 1 might meet with him face to face on this side of eterni- ty, and might have leave to plead with him, that I am so hungered, and famished here, with the niggardly portion of his love that he giveth me ! that I might be carver and steward myself, at mine own will, of Christ's love ! if I may lawfully wish this, then would I enlarge my vessel (alas ! a narrow and ebb soul) and take in a sea of his love. My hunger, for it is hungry and lean, in believing that ever I shall be satisfied with that love ; so fain would I have what I know I cannot hold. Lord Jesus, delightest thou, to pine and torment poor souls with the want of thy incomparable love ? O if I durst call thy dis- pensation cruel ! I know thou thyself art mercy, without either brim or bottom : I know thou art a God bank-full of mercy and love, but oh, alas ! little of it cometh my way ; 1 die to look afar off to that love, because I can get but little of it ; but hope saith, This providence shall ere long look more favourably upon poor bodies, and me also. Grace be with your Ladyship's spirit. Your Ladyship's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. B. Aberdeen, Sept. 10, 16;i7. LETTER LXXL To Mr. James Hamilton, REVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, Peace be to you from God our Father, and from our Lord Jesus. I am laid low, when I remember what I am, and that my outside cast- eth such a lustre, when I find so little within. It is a wonder that Christ's glory is not defiled, running through such an unclean and im- pure channel ; but I see Christ will be Christ, in the dreg and refuse of men ; his art, his shining wisdom, his beauty speaketh loudest in blackness, weakness, deadness, yea, in nothing. I see nothing, no money, no worth, no good, no life, no deserving, is the ground that omnipotency delighteth to draw glory out of. O how sweet is the 118 LETTER LXXII. PART I. inner side of the walls of Christ's house, and a room beside himself! my distance from him maketh me sad. O that we were in other's arms ! O that the middle things betwixt us were removed ! I find it a difficult matter to keep all stots with Christ ; when he laugheth I scarce believe it, I would so fain have it true. But I am like a low man looking up to a high mountain, whom weariness and fainting overcometh. I would climb up, but 1 find that I do not advance in my journey as 1 would wish; yet I trust he shali take me home against night. I marvel not that Antichrist in his slaves is so busy ; but our crowned King seeth and beholdeth, and will arise for Zion's safety. I am exceedingly distracted with letters, and company that visit me ; what I can do, or time will permit, I shall not omit. Ex- cuse my brevity, for I am straitened. Remember the Lord's prisoner : I desire to be mindful of you. Grace, grace, be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXXIL To Mr. George Dunbar. REVEREND AND DEARLY BELOVED IN THE LORD, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. Because your words have strengthened many, I was silent, expecting some lines from you in my bonds ; and this is the cause why I wrote not to you, but now I am forced to break off and speak. I never believed, till now, that there was so much to be found in Christ, on this side of death and of heaven. O the ravishments of heavenly joy that may be had here, in the small gleamings and comforts that fall from Christ 1 What fools are we who know not, and consider not the weight and the telling that is in the very earnest penny, and the first fruits of our hoped for har- vest ! How sweet, how sweet is our infeftment ! what then must personal possession be ! I find that my Lord Jesus hath not mis- cooked or spilt this sweet cross ; he hath an eye on the fire and the melting gold, to separate the metal and the dross. O how much time would it take me to read my obligations to Jesus my Lord, who will neither have the faith of his own to be burnt to ashes, nor yet will have a poor believer in the fire to be half raw, like Ephraim's unturned cake ! this is the wisdom of him who hath his fire in Zion, and fur- nace in Jerusalem. I need not either bud or flatter temptations and crosses, nor strive to buy the devil, or this malicious world by, or re- deem their kindness with half a hair's breadth of truth : he, who is surety for his servant for good, doth powerfully overrule all that. I see my prison hath neither lock nor door ; 1 am free in my bonds, and my chains are made of rotten straw, they shall not bide one pull of faith. 1 am sure they are in hell who would exchange their torments with our crosses, supposing they should never be delivered, and give twenty thousand years torment to boot, to be in our bonds for ever ; and therefore we wrong Christ, who sigh, and fear, and doubt, and despond in them. Our sufferings are washen in Christ's blood, as well as our souls ; for Christ's merits brought a blessing to the crosses PART I. LETTER LXXIII. 119 of the sons of God ; and Jesus hath a back bond of all our tempta- tions, that the free- warders shall come out by law and justice, in respect of the infinite and great sum that the Redeemer paid. Our troubles owe us a free passage through them : devils and men, and crosses are our debtors, death and all storms are our debtors, to blow our poor tossed bark over the water fraught free, and to set the tra- vellers on their own known ground : therefore we shall die, and yet live. We are over the water, someway, already ; we are married, and our tocher good is paid ; we are already more than conquerors. If the devil and the world knew how the court with our Lord shall go, I am sure they would hire death to take us off their hand ; our suf- ferings are the only wreck and ruin of the black kingdom ; and yet a little, and the Antichrist must play himself with bones and slain bodies of the Lamb's followers ; but withal we stand with the hundred forty and four thousand, who are with the Lamb, upon the top of mount Zion ; Antichrist and his followers are down in the valley ground : Ave have the advantage of the hill ; our temptations are always beneath, our waters are beneath our breath ; as dying, and behold we live. I never heard before of a hving death, or a quick death but ours ; our death is not like the common death ; Christ's skill, his handy-work, and a new cast of Christ's admirable art, may be seen in our quick death. I bless the Lord, that all our troubles come through Christ's fingers, and that he casteth sugar among them, and casteth in some ounce weights of heaven, and of the spirit of glory, that resteth on suffering believers, in our cup, in which there is no taste of hell. My dear brother, ye know all these better than I ; 1 send water to the sea, to speak of these things to you ; but it easeth me, to desire you to help me to pay my tribute of praise to Jesus. what praises I owe him ! I would, I were in my free heritage, that 1 might begin to pay my debts to Jesus. I intreat for your prayers and praises. I forget not you. Your brother and fellow-sufferer, in and for Christ, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 17, 1637. LETTER LXXIII. To Mr. David Dickson. REVEREND AND WELL-BELOVED IN THE LORD, I BLESS the Lord, who hath so wonderfully stopped the on-going ol that lawless process against you. The Lord reigneth, and hath a saving eye upon you, and your ministry ; and therefore fear not what men can do. I bless the Lord, that the Irish ministers find employ- ment, and the professors comfort of their ministry. Beheve me, I durst not, as I am not disposed hold an honest brother out of the pul- pit ; I trust, the Lord shall guard you, and hide you in the shadow of his hand : I am not pleased with any that are against you in that. I see this, in prosperity men's conscience will not start at small sins ; but if some had been where I have been since I came from you, a little more would have caused their eyes water, and troubled their peace. O how ready are we to incline to the world's hand ! Our 120 LETTER LXXIV. PAKT I. arguments, being well examined, are often drawn from our skin : the whole skin, and a peaceable tabernacle, is a topic maxim in great re- quest in our logic. I find a little brairding of God's seed in this town, for the which the doctors have told me their mind, that they cannot bear with it, and have examined and threatened the people that haunt my company ; I fear I get not leave to winter here ; and whither I go I know not ; I am ready at the Lord's call. I would I could make acquaintance with Christ's cross, for I find comforts lye to and follow upon the cross. I suffer in my name, by them ; I take it as a part of the crucifying of the old man ; let them cut the throat of my credit, and do as they like best with it : when the wind of their calumnies hath blown away my good name from me, in the way to heaven, I know Christ will take my name out of the mire, and wash it, and restore it to me again. I would have a mind (if the Lord would be pleased to give me it,) to be a fool for Christ's sake. Some- times, while I have Christ in my arms, I fall asleep in the sweetness of his presence, and he, in my sleep stealeth away out of my arms ; and when I awake, I miss him. I am much comforted with my Lady Pitsligo, a good woman, and acquainted with God's ways. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R, Aberdeen, Sept. H, 1637. LETTER LXXIV. To the Right Honourable, my Lord Lowdon. JRIGHT HONOURABLE, Grace, mercy and peace be to your Lordship. I rejoice exceed- ingly, that I hear your Lordship hath a good mind to Christ, and his now Isorne-down truth. My very dear Lord, go on, in the strength of the Lord,to carry your honours and worldly glory to the new Jerusalema For this cause, your Lordship received these of the Lord ; this is a sure way for the estabhshment of your house, if ye be of those, who are willing, in your place, to build Zion's old waste places in Scotland. Your Lordship wanteth not God's and man's law both, now to como to the streets for Christ : and suppose the bastard laws of man were at^ainst you, it is an honest and zealous error, if here ye slip against a point or punctilio of standing policy : when your foot slippeth in such known ground, as is the royal prerogative of our high and most truly dread Sovereign, (who hath many crowns on his head,) and the liber- ties of his house, he will hold you up. Blessed shall they be, who take Babel's httle ones, and dash their heads against the stones : I wish your Lordship have a share of that blessing, with other worthy nobles in our land. It is true, it is now accounted wisdom for men to be partners in pulling up the stakes, and loosing the cords of the tent of Christ : but I am persuaded, that that wisdom is cried down in heaven, and shall never pass for true wisdom with the Lord, whose word crieth shame upon wit against Christ and truth : and accordingly, it shall prove shame and confusion of face in the end. Our Lord hath given your Lordship hght of a better stamp, and learning also, where- PART 1. LETTER LXXIV. 121 in ye are not behind the disnuter and the scribe. O what a blessed thing is it, to see nobihty, learning and sanctitication, all concur in one ! For these ye owe yourself to Christ and his kingdom : God hath be- wildered and bemisted the wit and the learning of the scribes and disputers of this time ; they look asquint to the Bible : this blinding and bemisting world blindfoldeth men's light, that they are afraid to see straight out before them : nay, their very light playeth the knave, or worse, to truth. Your Lordship knoweth, within a little while, policy against truth will blush, and the works of men shall burn up, even their spider's^-web, who spin out many hundred ells and webs of indifferences in the Lord's worship, more than ever Moses, who would have an hoof material, and Daniel, who would have a look out at a window, a matter of life and death, than ever, 1 say, these men of God dreamed of. Alas, that men dare shape, carve, cut, and clip our King's princely testament in length and breadth, and in all dimensions, answerable to the conception of such policy as a head of wit thinketh a safe and trim way of serving God ! how have men forgotten the Lord, that they dare go against even that truth, which once they preached themselves, howbeit their sermons now be as thin sown as strawberries, in a wood or wilderness 1 certainly the sweetest and safest course is, for this short time of the afternoon of this old and declining world, to stand for Jesus ; he hath said it, and it is our part to believe it, that ere it be long, time shall be no more, and the heaven ishall wax old, as a garment. Do we not see it already an old, holey, and thread-bare garment 1 Doth not cripple and lame nature tell us, that the Lord will fold up the old garment, and lay it aside : and the heavens shall be folded together as a scroll, and this pest house shall be burnt with fire, and that both plenishing and walls shall melt with fervent heat 1 for at the Lord's coming, he will do with this earth, as jnen do with a leper-house ; he will burn the walls with fire, and the plenishing of the house also, 2 Peter iii. 10, 12. My dear Lord, how shall ye rejoice in that day, to have Christ, angels, heaven, and your own conscience to smile upon you 1 I am persuaded, one sick night, through the terrors of the Almighty, would make men, whose con- science hath such a wide throat as an image hke a cathedral church would go down it, have other thoughts of Christ and his worship, than now they please themselves with. The scarcity of faith in the earth saith, We are hard upon the last nick of time : blessed are those who keep their garments clean against the Bridegroom's coming. There shall be spotted clothes, and many defiled garments, at his last coming; and therefore, few found worthy to walk with him in white. I am per- suaded, my Lord, this poor travailing woman, our pained church, is with child of victory, and shall bring forth a man child all lovely and glorious, that shall be caught up to God and his throne, howbeit the dragon, in his followers, be attending the child-birth pain, as an Egyp- tian midwife, to receive the birth and strangle it, Isa. xxix. 8. But they shall be disappointed who thirst for the destruction of Zion : they shall be as when a hungry man dreameth that he eateth ; but be- hold he awaketh, and his soul is empty ; or when a thirsty man drean>- «th that he drinketh ; but behold he awaketh, and is faint, and his soul 16 122 LETTER LXXV . PART I. is not satisfied : so shall it be, I say, with the multitude of all the na- tions that fight against mount Zion. Therefore the weak and feeble, those that are as signs and wonders in Israel, have chosen the best side, even the side that victory is upon ; and I think this is no evil policy. Verily, for myself I am so well pleased with Christ, and his noble and honest born cross, this cross that is come of Christ's house, and is of kin to himself, that I should weep, if it should come to niffering and bartering of lots and condition with those that are at ease in Zion ; I hold still my choice, and bless myself in it. I see and'I believe, there is salvation in this way, that is every where spoken against, I hope to go to eternity, and to venture on the last evil to the saints, even upon death, fully persuaded that this only, even this, is the saving way for "racked consciences, and for weary and loaden sinners, to find ease and peace for evermore into, and indeed it is not for any worldly respect that I speak so of it : the weather is not so hot, that I have great cause to startle in my prison, or to boast of that entertainment that my good friends, the prelates intend for me, which is banishment, if they shall obtain their desire, and effectuate what they design ; but let it come, I rue not that I made Christ my waile and my choice ; I think him aye the longer the better. My Lord, it shall be good service to God, to hold your noble friend and chief upon a good course for the truth of Christ. Now the very God of peace establish your Lordship in Christ Jesus unto the end. Your Lordship's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 10, 1637. LETTER LXXV. . , To the Laird of Gaitgirth. MUCK HONOURED SIR, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I can do uo more but thank you on paper, and remember you to him whom I serve, for kindness and care of a prisoner. I bless the Lord, the cause I suffer for need- eth not blush before kings : Christ's white, honest, and fair truth needeth neither to wax pale for fear, nor blush for shame. 1 bless the Lord, who hath graced you to own Christ now, when so many are afraid to profess him, and hide him, for fear they suffer loss by avouch- ing him. Alas ! that so many in these days are carried with the times ! as if their conscience rolled upon oiled wheels, so do they go any way the wind blows : and because Christ is not market sweet, men put him away from them. Worthy and much honoured Sir, go on to own Christ and his oppressed truth : the end of sufferings for the gospel, is rest and gladness. Light and joy is sown for the mourners in Zion, and the harvest (which is of God's making for time and man- ner) is near : crosses have right and claim to Christ in his members, till legs and arms, and whole mystical Christ be in heaven. There will be rain, and hail, and storm, in the saints' clouds, ever till God cleanse with fire the works of creation, and till he burn the botch house of heaven and earth, that men's sin hath subjected unto vanity. They are blessed who suffer and sin not, for suffering is the badge PART I. LETTER LXXVI. 123 that Christ hath put upon his followers : take what way we can to heaven, the way is hedged up with crosses, there is no way but to break through them ; wit and wiles, shifts and laws, will not find out a way about the cross of Christ, but we must through ; one thing, by experience, my Lord hath taught me, that the waters betwixt this and heaven may all be ridden, if we be well horsed, I mean, if we be in Christ ; and not one shall drown by the way, but such as love their own destruction. Oh, if we could wait on for a time, and believe in the dark the salvation of God ! At least we are to believe good of Christ, till he gives us the slip, (which is impossible) and to take his word for caution, that he shall fill up all the blanks in his promises, and give us what we want ; but to the unbeliever Christ's testament is white, blank, unwritten paper. Worthy and dear Sir, set your face to heaven and make you to stoop at all the low entries in the way ; that ye may receive the kingdom as a child ; without this, he that knew the way, said, there is no eutry in. O but Christ be willing to lead a poor sinner ! O what love my poor soul hath found in him, in the house of my pilgrimage ! Suppose love in heaven and earth were lost, I dare swear, it may be found in Christ. Now the very God of peace establish you, till the day of the glorious appearance of Christ. Your own in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXXVL To the Lady Gaitgirih. ."MUCH HONOURED AND CHRISTIAN LADY, Grace, mercy and peace be to you. I long to hear how it goeth with you and your children ; I exhort you, not to lose breath, nor to faint in your journey ; the way is not so long to your home as it was ; it will wear to one step or an inch at length, and ye shall come ere Ion" to be within your arm-length of the glorious crown. Your Lord Je- sus did sweat and pant, ere he got up that mount ; he was at. Father, save me, with it ; it was he who. Psalm xxii. 14. said, I am poured out like water ; all my bones are out of joint. Christ was as if they had broken him upon the wheel, My heart is like wax, it is melted in the midst of my bowels, ver. 15. My strength is dried up like a potsherd. I am sure, ye love the way the better, his holy feet trod it before you. Crosses have a smell of crossed and pained Christ. I beheve your Lord will not leave you to die your alone in the way. I know ye have sad hours, when the Comforter is hid under a vail, and when ye in- quire for him, and find but a toom nest ; this, I grant, is but a cold good-day, when the seeker misseth him whom the soul loveth ; but even his unkindness is kind, his absence lovely, his mask a sweet sight, till God send Christ himself in his own sweet presence : make his sweet comforts your own, and be not strange and shame-faced with Christ ; homely dealing is best for him, it is his liking. When your winter storms are over, the summer of your Lord shall come ; your sadness is with child of joy, he will do you good in the latter-end. Take no heavier lift of your children than your Lord alloweth ; give 124 LETTER LXXVlr. PART I. them room beside your heart, but not in the yolk of your heart, where Christ should be ; for then they are your idols, not your children : if your Lord take any of them home to his house, before the storm come on, take it well ; the owner of the orchard may take down two or three apples off his own trees, before mid-summer, and ere they get the harvest sun : and it would not be seemly that his servant, the gardener, should chide him for it ; let our Lord pluck his own fruit at any season he pleaseth : they are not lost to you, they are laid up so well, as that they are coffered in heaven, where our Lord's best jew- els lye : they are all free goods that are there, death can have no lav/ to arrest any thing that is within the walls of the new Jerusalem, All the saints, because of sin, are like old rusty horologies, that must be taken down, and the wheels scoured and mended, and set up again, in better case than before ; sin hath rusted both soul and body : our dear Lord, by death, taketh us down to scour the wheels of both, and to purge us perfectly from the root and remainder of sin ; and we shall be set up in better case than before. • Then pluck up your heart, hea- ven is yours, and that is a word few can say. Now, the great Shep* herd of the sheep, and the very God of peace, confirm and estabhsh you, to the day of the appearance of Christ our Lord. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R^ Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXXVIL To his Pieverend and very dear Brother, Mr. George Gillespie, MY VERY DEAR BROTHER, I RECEIVED yours. I am still with the Lord ; his cross hath done that which I thought impossible once; Christ keepeth tryst in the fire and water with his own, and cometh ere our breath go out, and ere our blood grow cold. Blessed are they, whose feet escape the great golden net that is now spread ; it is happiness to take the crabbed, rough, and poor side of Christ's world, which is a lease of crosses and losses for him ; for Christ's incomes and casualties that follow him are many, and it is not a little one, that a good conscience may be had in following him. This is true gain, and must be laboured for, and loved. Many give Christ for a shadow, because Christ was rather Reside their conscience, in a dead and reprobate light, than in their conscience. Let us therefore be ballasted with grace, that we be not blown over, and that we stagger not. Yet a little while, and Christ and his redeemed ones shall fill the field, and come out victorious ; Christ's glory of triumphing in Scotland is* yet in the bud, and in the birth, but the birth cannot prove an abortive. He shall not faint nor be discouraged, till he hath brought forth judgment unto victory. Let us still mind our covenant. And the verv God of peace be with you. Your Brother in Christ. ^. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 9, 1637. 125 LETTER LXXVIII. To Mr. Matthew Mowat. PvEVEREND AND DEAR BROTHER, I AM refreshed with your letters. I would take all well at my Lord's hands that he hath done, if I knew I could do my Lord any service in my suffering : suppose my Lord would make a stop hole of me, to fill a hole in the wall of his house, or a pinning in Zion's new work: for any place of trust in my Lord's house, as steward, or chamberlain, or the like, surely I think myself (my very dear brother, I speak not by any proud figure or trope) unworthy of it : nay, I am not worthy to stand behind the door ; if my head, and feet, and body were half out, half in, in Christ's house, so I saw the fair face of the Lord of the house, it would still my longing and love-sick desires. When I hear that the men of God are at work, and speaking in our Lord Jesus his name, I think myself but an out-cast or out-law, cha- sed from the city, to lye on the hills, and hve amongst the rocks and out-fields. O that I might but stand in Christ's out-house, or hold a candle in any low vault of his house ! But I know this is but the vapours that arise out of a quarrellous and unbelieving heart to darken the wisdom of God. And your fault is just tnine, that 1 cannot believe my Lord's bare and naked word. I must either have an apple to play me with, and shake hands with Christ, and have seal, caution, and witness to his word, or else I count myself loose ; how- beit, I have the word and faith of a King. Oh, I am made of unbe- lief, and cannot swim but where my feet may touch the ground ! Alas, Christ under my temptations is presented to me as lying waters, as a dyvour and a cousener ! We can make such a Christ, as temptations, casting us in a night-dream, do feign and devise, and temptations represent Christ ever unlike himself, and we in om- folly listen to the tempter. If I could minister one saving word to any, how glad would my soul be ! But I myself, which is the greatest evil, often mistake the cross of Christ ; for I know if we had wit, and knew well that ease slayeth us fools, we would desire a market where we might bar- ter or niffer our lazy ease with a profitable cross ; howbeit there be an outcast natural betwixt our desires and tribulation ; but some give a dear price and gold for physic, which they love not ; and buy sick- ness, howbeit they wish rather to have been whole than to be sick. But surely, brother, ye shall not have my advice, howbeit, alas ! I cannot follow it myself, to contend with the honest and faithful Lord of the house ; for, go he, or come he, he is aye gracious in his depart- ure : there are grace, and mercy, and loving kindness upon Christ's back parts ; and when he goeth away, the proportion of his face, the image of that fair Sun that stayeth in his eyes, senses and heart, after he is gone, leaveth a mass of love behind it in the heart. The sound of his knock at the door of his beloved, after he is gone and past, ieaveth a share of joy and sorrow both ; so we have something to feed upon till he return ; and he is more loved in his departure, and after he is gone, than before ; as the day in the declining of the sun, and towards the evening, is often most desired. And as for Christ's cross, f never received e^'il of it, but what was mine own making ; when I 126 LETTER LXXIX. PART 1. miscooked Christ's physic, no marvel that it hurt me ; for since it was on Christ's back, it hath always a sweet smell, and these 1600 years it keepeth the smell of Christ ; nay, it is older than that too, for it is a long time since Abel first handseled the cross, and had it laid upon his shoulder ; and down from him, all alongst to this very day, all the saints have known what it is. I am glad that Christ hath such a relation to this cross, and that it is called the cross of our Lord Jesus, Gal. vi. 14. his reproach, Heb. xiii. 13. as if Christ would claim it as his proper goods, and so it cometh in the reckoning among Christ's own property ; if it were simple evil, as sin is, Christ who is not the author nor owner of sin, would not own it. I wonder at the enemies of Christ, in whom malice hath run away with wit, and will is up, and wit down, that they would essay to lift up the stone laid in Zion ; surely it is not laid in such sinking ground as that they can raise it, or remove it ; for when we are in their belly, and they have swallowed us down, they will be sick, and spue us out again. I know Zion and her husband cannot both sleep at once ; I believe our Lord once again shall water with his dew the withered hill of Mount Zion in Scotland, and come down and make a new marriage again, as he did long since. Remember our covenant. Your excuse for your advice to me is needless : alas, many sit beside hght, as sick folks beside meat, and cannot make use of it. Grace be with you. Your brother in Christ, S, R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXXIX. To Mr. John Meine. DEAR BROTHER, I RECEIVED your letter. I cannot but testify under mine own hand, that Christ is still the longer the better, and that this time is the time of loves. When I have said all I can, others may begin and say, I have said nothing of him ; I never knew Christ to ebb or flow, wax or wane ; his winds turn not ; when he seemeth to change, it is but we who turn our wrong side to him, I never had a plea with him, in my hardest conflicts, but of mine own making. Oh that I could live in peace and good neighbourhood with such a second, and let him alone ! My unbelief made many black lies, but my recantation to Christ is not worth the hearing. Surely he hath borne with strange gades in me ; he knoweth my heart hath not natural wit to keep quarters with such a Saviour. Ye do well to fear your backsliding. I had stood sure, if I had in my youth borrowed Christ to be my bot- tom ; but he that beareth his own weight to heaven, shall not fail to sHp and sink. Ye had no need to be bare-footed among the thorns of this apostate generation, lest a stob stick up in your foot, and cause you to halt all your days. And think not Christ will do with you in the matter of suffering, as the pope doth in the matter of sin ; ye shall not find that Christ will sell a dispensation or give a dyvour's protec- tion against crosses ; crosses are proclaimed as common accidents to n]l the saints, and in them standeth a part of our communion with PART I. LETTER LXXX, LXXXI. 127 Christ ; but there lyeth a sweet casualty to the cross, even Christ's presence and his comforts, when they are sanctified. Remember my love to your father and mother. Grace be with you. Your's in his sweet Lord Jesus, S. R. Aberdeen, Sept. 7, 1637. LETTER LXXX. To John Fleming, Baillie of Leitli. MUCH HONOURED IN THE LORD, Grace, mercy, and peace be to you. I am still in good terms with Christ ; however my Lord's wind blow, I have the advantage of the calm and sunny side of Christ. Devils, and hell, and devils' servants, are all blown blind, in pursuing the Lord's little bride ; they shall be as a night dream, who fight against Mount Zion. Worthy Sir, I hope ye take to heart the worth of your calUng: this great fair and meeting of the people will skail, and the port is open for us ; as fast as time weareth out, we flee away : eternity is at our elbow. O how blessed are they, who in time, make Christ sure for themselves ! Salvation is a great errand, I find it hard