I i 4 * iW i W iii) Wi i| i (W d i i iim O M i t'i , iii. w ii fWin i nr it Class eS.^ MOS Book. ^MMf CopyrightN" /f07 COPYRIGHT DEPOSm The Misty Day Poems by LENORE CROUDACE San Francisco 1^07. |UB.^ABYofCONwih£SS| 'i Two Copies Heceived | 1 DEC. 12 i90f 1 Oopyrijnt Entry I OLASS ^ XXc, j-^u. 4 GOPY Be Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1907, by lyENORE Croudace, in the office of the I^ibrarian of Congress at Washington. Published by J. R. lyAFONTAiNE. San Francisco, Calif. CONTENTS PAGE The Misty Day 5 The Drop of Bi,ood in the Heart .... 8 The Asp . 10 Unadorned . . .13 Ten Sonnets 16—25 The Waii, of the Transports . . . . . .26 IviGHTS OF St. Vincent's 29 Betrayai, in Vain 32 The Actor's IvESSon 34 The Ocean's Repi.y 45 San Francisco Destroyed . . . . . . .47 Freedom Once More 51 In Humii^ity's Vai,e 53 Pi^anting the Fi,ag . 55 The Voice of the Infant Dead 58 The WEI.COME OF THE Fl^OWERS . . . . .61 Cowardice and Courage . . . . . . 65 Sentiment . 68 From Beyond the Tomb 71 The Wooing of the Urn 76 The Appeai, 79 The IvEap 83 The Vision of the Key .88 The Misty Day /jp|h, that my wish were charged with shot like a gun ^^ To hit that bird that sings in yonder tree, And send its aim direct like rays from the sun, That burn their way to diamond spray in the sea I But I have no weapon to pierce the fog and night, And only a dread full dimness in place of sight. One moment I feel it glow like flame of the day, This wish that flutters, burns and beats in my breast, All crimson, vermilion, elusive as a fay. And strange against the morn' in sapphire dressed. Then over me rolls the white, thick cloak of the haze, I can light no lamp to clear my misty daze. What is a wish that it leaps along my veins, A headless thing that plunges towards a brain. While on my spirit still its impulse gains A strength insisting, smarting like a pain? It strives and strives with all its tiny might To bring before my curtained gaze a light. THK MISTY DAY The fog is gray, the mist now black, now white, No sailor's lantern pierces this veil dense wound About my head, condemned the clouds to fight, But through the thickness comes a mournful sound, The fisher's horn that winds its dismal note Along the shore where swings in fright his boat. The bells that ring to save the ships out there. Scream out a music weird that tells no tale, And holds for melody's waiting ear, no air; Yet they draw my wish with them to play the gale. And still the mist is round my idiot sense To every call of love so darkly dense. Is it love that trembles mute and unobserved Its fragrance quivering on the choking breeze. While every other thought from it has swerved To make a royal way its heart to please? Oh wish, oh hope, oh light and life and love. Combine in one and soar the clouds above ! But the mist and haze and doubt roll on again, While still my wish in the void is keen and lone, A vibration voiceless sad, imprisoned, vain. Too uncertain e'en to cry aloud its moan. I am lost in the desolate dark of the long, long night. And love, too, perhaps, is lost on a distant height. THK MISTY DAY Oh, that my wish were an arrow gold, just tipped With an edge of steel to cut the toughest heart, I would send it flying swift until it ripped The veil from all the blinding fools that part. Dear love from love that dearer grows in might, When from its viev/ is shut God's holy light. Oh, Heaven of Heavens, if I could just once but see Behind the clouds, the mist, the fog and the fear. And all the anguish of suspense on me. And all the things without a meaning clear ! But I wander on with sightless eyes downcast. And never know if near me love has passed. THE DROP OF BLOOD IN THE HEART The Drop of Blood in the Heart ^he drop of blood too mucli that ripples red Along the life imprisoned in my veins, Has strayed from its wonted place within my head, And all my love of thought exhausted wanes. Where then has gone the tiny ruby globe? Is it in my fingers' strained and nervous grasp, That yearns to give to all the world a robe The bare and ugly spots of earth to clasp? Or is it in my feet that long to run, Ivike hoofs of flying steeds across the plain, To catch the fitful rays of revealing sun That through the prism of air forever strain? Is it fighting like a tiger in my jaw, Too violent to rest an instant calm, But strong of tooth just snarling at the door, Of speech that seeks in vain a soothing balm? I probe its hiding-place and know at last From one chance word a foe flings in my face, Just where the crimson globule now has cast Its might and where to find its bloody trace. THK DROP OF BIvOOD IN THK HE)ART She said: the one I loved the most, the least lyoved me, for he had sold me to the thieves, Betrayed me for the price of an idle feast. And turned hope's blossom shoot to withered leaves. For a moment darkness falls like death's own pall, The stab acute has touched the vital core. Oh, now I know where drops that red, red ball, — My heart is sinking in excess of gore. Did Desdemona feel a pain so sharp. When the Moor's black fingers crushed her slender throat? The organ strains and shrieks like a frenzied harp. Played by a storm whose winds on murder gloat. I smother and the voice has left my lips. How could you be so cruel, sweetheart mine. And give to my fond love of you such whips Of scorn, in stifling blood my name to sign? The clot has passed the frail, thin channel through, I am not dead, but wondering like a ghost Returned from death's black misty bourn, how you Could send the drop where it would hurt the most. 10 THE ASP The Asp ^ast year when I was dead, With icicles on my head, I looked with ghostly eyes from out my grave, Upon the living world, In folly's eddies hurled, Ivike tattered sea- weed in a slimy cave. I wake with summons sharp, Strong hands upon my harp Of being strike a chord that cleaves the air. Invisible waves disturbed, Enchanting sound uncurbed, Make melodies for which the angels care. Is this new life I feel, My heart's consent to steal. From the frozen waste of empty, barren days ? ** March on", out loud it cries, *'The howling winds arise. The pageant of throbbing millions waits your gaze. ' ' THK ASP 11 My nerves become an asp, With coils that long to clasp Around the tree of knowledge waving high, With gorgeous leaves immense. And foliage velvet dense, Into the zenith v/here the gods are nigh. This gift must come from thee, Ivike lightning it darts to me, My pulse inflaming with the thing called will, Old uses to despise, Dear freedom's hope to prize. The destroyers of the innocent to kill. It begs, nor rest, nor stop. Disdains the weakling's prop. Advancing like the river's endless flow, Or perfect circle round. The wisest to confound In efforts its beginning or end to know. If will and wish were one, My task would at once be done, I would send this jumping, electric force of mine. Across the sandy plains, Or where the sunset wanes. To reach its goal in that great heart of thine. 12 THK ASP Since barriers high are raised, And all our senses dazed, By gold that with deceit conspires to slay Kach cherished thrill we feel, We can but bravely deal The avenging blow on fate that blocks our way. Imprisoned in a cage, In helpless, hopeless rage. My will galvanic still can mock and scorn Frail men without an aim. To tjnranny still tame, Rambling indeterminate, forlorn. Intense, I plunge in vain. Repeat my wild refrain, That tingling life can not be meant to sting: Poor death is far too meek, In the asp a rebel seek. The serpent silent, wise, towards love to spring. UNADORNKD 13 Unadorned Jhen God in Nature speaks how speaks He best? In fragile flower rare that hangs its head ? In mighty winds that sweep from ocean's breast? Or in the jungle heat where wild beasts tread? The query of an idle dinner hour, From every guest a different answer drew, With reverent thoughts upraised one looked for Power, Another worshiped Light and varied hue. **You have not touched creation's loveliest work," One cried with eyes that swam in beauty's bath, * 'Where does the thought divine unquestioned lurk. To make from high to low a sunbeam's path?" V* Where speaks the voice like whirling spheres in rhyme, Our ears to soothe with tones of peace benign? A woman is the noblest work of Time, Without her aura, all other claims resign." At once like living mind the mirror gleamed. With pictures of the women seated there, Reflected bright and white their diamonds beamed. And flowers stirred the ripples of their hair. 14 UNADORNED The mirror begged from them an answering glance, No woman the challenge dared upright to meet, 'Till one applied unto herself the lance. And said: ''In us not God, but art, you greet." "No woman lives in Nature's pristine mold. We all are creature's of a later age. Seek not in us the curves and colors bold, That marked our kind before it knew the cage." But still the artist sought the human face. That would express God's highest gift to man. Felt sure that He would not His kind debase. And give unto the lower type the van. At last he found her stretched upon the sand, Of self unconscious gazing on the bay. Where restless rocked the boat her husband manned; The sinking sun cloud-dimned upon her lay. Like fine smoke tendrils curling as they please. Her midnight hair unknown to smoothing brush, Waved softly as a thought upon the breeze. While in her eyes one saw the lovelight rush. UNADORNED 15 Those orbs whose darkness seemed like purple night, Intense with Italy's three thousand years Of kindling sun, yet in their glances bright, Revealed but married love, above all fears. The contour of her perfect oval cheek, Bnough to drive a sculptor mad with joy. No praise or flattery had learned to seek. But softly bent upon her baby boy. A gown so cheap, almost a rag, it seemed. Could not conceal a Phidias line of breast, The column of her throat exposed just gleamed Ivike God's first dream of a cylinder as a rest. As the fisher-lad advanced to take his own. The artist withdrew, but praised his star That with loveliness as guide to him had shown, A face that art had never tried to mar. On tip-toe breathless as before a shrine. He left the hut that formed the Madonna's home. Praying she would never know her gift divine, Unmirrored beauty fit to adorn a dome. 16 WKIvI/, THKN TOMORROW Well, Then Tomorrow Jell, then, tomorrow, love, we meet again, These were the words my heart's hunger fed, When through the midnight maze your spirit led, A zephyr's murmur mid the graves of men, Whose fruitless lives but helped them on to die. The thought of you my every pulse inflames; Entangled deep in mystic doubt, yet aims My life towards you, and still, rapt sweet, I cry, * Oh give to me that fairy morrow's glow When every thunder-cloud of woe will fade Into the pageant of the sun you made By a fancy rare all conquering high and low. Always I sadly yearn towards that bright day. The hours like ice-bound ages pass away. THINE) EYKS 17 Thine Eyes Jjjow can I try to paint those eyes of thine? How put in words the splendor of their gleam ? I can but catch their beauty's magic beam, And whisper low their glory is divine. To liken them to jewels, oh, for shame ! What diamond ever could so burn and pierce Or radiate a brilliancy splendid fierce, Ivike unto a God-sent shaft of flame? The stars abashed in silence creep away, Their secret but dead nature's gaseous shimmer, A copy faint of the transendent glimmer. That in thine eyes makes endless burning day. Oh, lamps so strong and rare, will you not light The poor and stricken world to clearer sight? 18 CONTRAST Contrast ^ re many lives so chill and bare and drear, So starved for want of breezes from the sky, Compelled to live below with soul on high, As this cold heart of mine when none is near, To tell me that per chance you love me, dear, And that amid the waste-lands dark that lie In sickly swamps where marsh-birds feebly fly. One star of regal love can distance fear? Perhaps it is that duller looks the sod. And heavier is the weight of leaden cloud. By contrast with your power, rare and proud; Against the blaze of light, the shadows nod. But this I know to be forever true : My dreams, my hope, my life, are all for you. HALF A HEART 19 Half A Heart ^he world, a golden globe, in sunlight basks. Too dazzling bright for my poor tired eyes, And thought that diamonds' splendor still defies, When e'en their gleam each frightened moment masks. Yet, who am I that begs instead a heart, A wafted breath of love from o'er the mist Of courts and empires simply made to part From me the brow my soul has kissed ? Then must I share with throngs of battling men. And creeds and kingdoms wildly, sorely tossed, The love that clasped my being's tendrils when I saw you first and never dreamed the cost ? One-half your heart is better far than none. Come back, come back, you still will find me won. 20 DAMNATION Damnation ^hey tore me bleeding from yom- arms and cast My body on the jagged rocks below The cliff so high where I yearned with you to go, And left me there to breast the surf that past In blinding torrents of swirling spra3\ The waves of fur}^ bruised and stung my face, Nor could my utmost force against them brace; In brutal grip, I helpless, hopeless lay. Far out the sea shone calm and cool and deep, I stretched my arms to reach the death it held. Ten thousand giinning fiends my purpose felled. Denied to me the rest of that dark leap. And still I dreamed of bliss remote, yet near. While in the chaos dim, I saw the demons leer. THK RKVKAIvING 21 The Revealing JJJer face took on the look of one resigned To failure of the hope her ardor craved, For youth had slipped away down pathways lined With weeds that never once a flower, waved. Beyond dear death that flew from her swift chase Was it true there lay a Ressurrection land? When earth would not vouchsafe an instant* s grace Of yearning love sweet-faced with out-stretched hand, Were not the thoughts of Heaven a xnjth fine-spun, And woven of the frailest web of lies? Her heart close-guarded like a cloistered nun, Was a bird long dead that surely could not rise. But, oh, the fluttering of its trembling wings, When love at last revealed its lyric sings ! 22 A MKSSAGB A Message |h, why this sudden trembling of my frame, This quivering tug on heart and brain held high? As lightning flame God-sent from dusky sky To tell of wrath divine triumphant came, As magnet's pull on every bar of steel That helpless lies until the current burns Its way of life to atom's heart and turns To use the mass inert, e'vn so I feel A summons new my inmost being shake. I/ast night I dreamt that I had joined the dead, The somber sad dark spirits forward led, In mazes drear where throbs the eternal ache. But now revived I wake, the heavens appear. The glowing clouds have told me you are near. COMPROMISE 23 Compromise A sigh between the troubled dreams that mar The silence of the long, dark Stygian night ; A hope that gleams across a scene so far Removed from that dull sense called mortal sight, It scarcely seems a thing of earth at all. But rather some faint echo of a song Heard long ago, yet lost like an elfin call. That clings yet flies from memory's dirge of wrong: These were the things that stood to me for life. Filled up a place that love had never known, — The compromise aerial, light, whose knife Could cut aside the death-wings downward blown. Now through the ether rings a piercing shriek, Not compromise but love's own self to seek. 24 THK WHISPER OF HOPE) The Whisper of Hope J^fo-day it seems so strange I wished to die Ivast night when love had fled on ghostly wings And left me pinioned in the ice while things Of dark despair hov'ring made heart-drops sigh. Oh, now fond spirit voices pierce the blue, The shining cloudlets hold a message ripe Of rushing rain while larks with tiny pipe Taste first of heaven the fragant coming dew. Oh, let me not remember midnight's scream And terror wild of conquering, killing pain. The abyss so near I hardly could refrain From plunging deep into its lurid stream. But listening now I hear a whisper sweet Of rapture's music in thy soul to greet. UNRKQUITKD 25 Unrequited ^he velvet bloom that soft on lilies lies, The down that from the heart of flowers blows, . f> Is ne'er so sweet and warm as where she sows. With magic hand the seed of love that ties Karth's mystery to fhe soul of upper air. She sends a throb of fancy, winged, aflame. To every one who courts the breath of fame, In halls where music has the tongue of prayer; Nor ever deigns one instant to forget The friend who needs the balm of pulsing praise. The soothing touch that can the languished raise. In moments when the death-damps rigid set. Not once repaid for love so lavish, strong. She dies alone, away from light and song. 26 THE) WAIIv OF THE) TRANSPOS.TS The Wail of the Transports A nother regiment sailed to-day outbound, For distant ports half way the world around, Where ancient art and modern enterprise Meet in a novel tourney, bizarre, profound. The army transport, huge and white and STsdft, lyike a mighty swan, with skill the waves to lift, Swims through the Golden Gate with haughty mien. So sure of progress, queen of ocean *s drift. And on the land eclipsed and left behind, The tendrils of a thousand hearts must wind Their memories with the sadness of farewell. The mysteries of Time and Space unkind. A piece of a soldier's life is lived right here, The sea- wind high and City's hum both near, Another slice is given to the Gulf, Or to the sandy plains where Indians leer. Ivook, now, it is the Orient, beckoning strong, That takes our fighting men on voyages long, To whet their zest with Asia's fables rare, Or peer into a strange, forgotten wrong. THK WAIIy OF TH^ TRANSPORTS 27 And though the lovely ship on which they sail Steams out like Grecian warrior clad in mail, Oh, still she bears with her a sad refrain, Ivike the soughing night- winds' shrill and dreary wail. Will she return from the other side of the globe. Or will her soldiers don the Eastern robe. And lose themselves amid the mosques sublime. And find thenceforth their joy in history's probe? She has gone, has gone, has gone, the iDreakers cry. As her image sinks against the Western sky; Who knows what death awaits beyond the line, Where she disappears from every searching eye? Can a gunner give away and yet retain His heart's most subtle self, divining brain, Enthusiasm to bear his flag afar? Or must his friends lament the cruel drain? Absorbed in Duty's sultry tropic heat, Where Manila's drums so ceaseless, heavy beat. The warrior has not even time to think Of home abiding through the changes fleet. 28 THK WAIIv OF THE TRANSPORTS The years go on like tedious, sleepy snails, Working and waiting make such weary tales! No victory blushes on the tired brow Of the man who hopes and yearns till courage fails. Is it worse to march in swamps and Philippine rains, Doubting if one's racking mind is sane. Than to stay at home and pine for an absent friend, A clasp of hand that somehow soothes all pain ? Another regiment came in to-day; Smiling, dipping, dimpling in the bay, The transport hurried through the harbor gates, Then shrieked for home like a child that tires of play. Yellow, thin and gaunt, but ever gay. With foreign stride the soldiers make their way Among familiar scenes, now veiled and strange. At home, yet not at home, to their dismay. They come and go like ebb and flow of tide. These transports borne so far o'ver the ocean wide. The army moves, obedient ever on, And hearts from hearts obedient too, divide. WGHTS OF ST. VINCENT'S 29 Lights of St. Vincent's liwilight on land and sea and within the home, ® No cloud or sunset story in Heaven's dome; While Silence wed to mystery on the main Gives to quiet waves in evening's reign A peace that threatens with its sombre hue The eye that seeks in vain a tint of blue; And in my heart a twilight like a rage, A scream as if the dark would bring the wage Of sin and unknown monsters waiting still To avenge themselves on acquiescent will. Is life like this a twilight vague and long, Where nothingness is the enemy most strong To dull the mind with drug of sad despair, And lure the weakened will to the tiger's lair. Where a savage thirst of blood supplies a hope? Now dim forebodings in the conscience grope, As darker falls the twilight on the shore, And every little homestead shuts its door, For the "evening meal within, and fireside talk, And inner moments queer when fairies walk, 30 UGHTS OF ST. VINCKNT^S And thrust their tiny noses twixt your plate And you with presence strong as God-sent fate. Restless I m}^ face to the window-pane With hungry spirit the fading light-rays drain. Oh, the fear of the little sordid rooms, While night with blackening menace lower looms ! And the prayer for something large and strong and bright, For a serenade or a flash of lightning white, Or a heart that dangling on a quivering string Of telegraph wire, from misery takes its sting ! The blindest eyes that helpless stare on space, Are not the ones locked in a midnight case. But those which never find a meaning sweet In ugly things, or for themselves retreat From that they would not see, but ever dwell On the muddy basin of a flower-grown dell. For look, while yet the gloaming weighs me down. And all the world takes on an Autumn brown, A sudden brilliance glimmers in the calm, As if a spirit lent a friendly arm; Just the vesper light of the parish church, But twinkling through the dark their flood-beams search Into the last recess of my wounded soul. A thousand prayers their softened accents roll. From out the humble shrine that kneels to God, And from the open door, in silence odd. There come the clustering spirits of the good, IvIGHTS OF ST. VINCKNT'S 31 Whose uplifted thoughts become a gleaming wood Of lovelier trees than mortal eyes can find, No matter how their curious glances wind From darkness to light and back again in search Of something rare to view. St. Vincent's church Has caught from Heaven's own rays that gild the west, A charmed being with gauzy air- wings dressed. While lo! upon the summit of the cross That golden shines e'en in the sunset's loss, The evening star imprints its subtle kiss On sorrow's emblem thus touched to finer bliss Than simple rapture knows. As twilight falls To darker night, the home of God yet calls To smaller homes bereft of love divine. While in echo ever new the choirs combine To make the silence rich with music thought. As to the darkness dazzling light was brought. 32 BKTRAYAI, IN VAIN Betrayal in Vain ^ lone she drooped as a flower culled and left to die, When neither dew nor rain her stem to fill is nigh. Cascades that plash o'er barren rocks unseen must yearn The coy and brilliant tricks of the fountain's spray to learn. And so her soul that grew quite wild in mountain space Aspired the lineaments of human kind to trace. Untouched by gardener's hand her flower of being frail Sent out its shy perfume while blushed its petals pale. Her dreams now bent upon the magic thought of friend, A heart that answered roses to her cheek to lend. And then one came with footfalls soft as fluffy snow, And whispered with a silky voice : ' *I love you so. " With all its purr of soft melodious tones to woo A fainting heart, the voice no quivering answer drew. The human face still looked a fantasy of cloud, That dazzles and allures but wins no spirit proud. Her eyes that glowed like fireflies in dusky woods at night, Looked strange and far away as if devoid of earthly sight. BKTRAYAIv IN VAIN 33 At once a panther bold and timid doe she clnng To hope of love, yet from her all caressing flung. ''Come, place your head upon my breast," the tempter pressed, * 'Sleep as those who on a million feathers rest." That word's rare magic like the potion of a god, Would seduce a hero from battle to the land of Nod. A lonely bird exiled from nesting tree or mate, She listened, swayed, and seemed to run to meet her fate. The friend quite sure that sweetness is the best decoy, Now forward pounced to take his prize without alloy: ''No more you walk the desert stretch of blazing sand, You thirsty soul, we'll walk together, take my hand. "We'll seal our union with this kiss of living flame. And share forever side by side the joy of fame." With arms outstretched the embrace to snatch and to betray The willing slave, the friend strode out to meet his prey. He grasped but empty space, for she had gone like mist Absorbed into the ether there to make her tryst. The shy wild thing dissolved at touch of treacherous love, Kscaped like hydrogen from earth to the air above. 34 THK ACTOR'S IvKSSON The Actor's Lesson A tragedy in one act. Scene: Sea-beach garden of the Hotel I^enon, California. Characters: AivPHONSE, an actor ; FoRTico, a murderer; IvOi^iTA, a haughty Spanish woman; Ci^ingray, a lover. Ai^PHONSE: Was ever man so strangely placed as I, For inspiration longing on my knees, Bending every nerve for art's dear sake, While in my brain sits vacancy enthroned? My head seems empty as a rubber ball That pressed within the hand becomes as nought ; Or like a queerly fashioned marble dome So void it knows not even echo's song. Why ever did I woo the Tragic Muse, To be so spurned and left upon the strand, Where forsaken swains beat out their hearts in spleen? The sea- weed tangled with a broken spar, And lying dead and dank upon the beach, TH^ ACTOR'S lyKSSON 35 Perhaps can feel a mightier thrill than I, The drifting fragment of a fruitless hope ! To stand npon the stage like sculpture poised, Above a crowd in rapture so intense, They seem a unity of speechless praise. While the actor carries them to lofty flights Of emotion in the realm of living truth: — This dream, the beacon-light I strained to see Through all the cloudland of a youth ill-taught. Is now upon the troublous verge of day. Where the awaking mind sees things but as they are. Am I so thick art cannot pierce me through? Or is it true that art just filters life. That we proclaim no truth but that we feel. And senseless are to every throb not ours? Must every phrase that curves the actor's lips Come first from some live burning in the brain? I rave: dull failure should not make complaint; It is a nothingness, a silence, — death. The pure white sand that rims the ocean's edge, As perfect rest opposed to motion's heat. Might tempt a poet to a lofty strain. But I would scarcely gaze upon it twice; The drama has no need of Nature's play. And even scorns her loftiest appeal In color-painting against a sunset sky. It wants the human agony quite raw. 36 THK ACTOR'S lyKSSON If men are not too thin and peevish grown, To feel in this late day a pang sublime. (Knter L/olita at a little distance.) In other days that lovely woman there Would work mad passions of a jealous hate: To-day one notes the fashion of her gown. (to I/olita) Will you pardon me if I speak an honest mind, — You look so like a Juliet of the stage. Loi^iTA (frowning): Your honest mind has wandered far astray, For Juliet I hold in strict contempt. Ai^PHONSK: Why then the beauty of your Spanish face. Is not a clue to what you feel, but hides Instead a laughty heart that knows not love ; And to read aright the whims that turn your soul. The reader needs the key to your cryptogram ; Must translate the fire in your jetty eyes As inward ice, and give to youx oval cheek. The sharpened lines of angular disdain. I/OI,iTa: I think you challenge me to a painful choice, — Would compel an admission of sweet vanity, Or rank me with disappointed maids. Whose blood runs gall, whose lips spill acid bile. This much I will confess: I love not men. THK ACTOR'S IvKSSON 37 Ai^PHONSK: There is nc drama then; a sculptor's hope You perhaps may be, but you swim not in my ken. IvOI^ita: Not if men should love me? Ai^phonse: Without response? I have seen men rave before a Roman shrine Where the imaged Virgin stares with waxen eyes; I have seen them kiss in frenzied ecstacy The silent lips of a Madonna of the brush, — But that would only make a monologue. IvOI^iTa: How little you can read the human heart. If the only pang you give to it is love ! (Knter Fortico. Ivolita starts.) FoRTiCO: I thought to find my lady here aloue. Ai^phonsK: I interrupt? Oh, pardon me, I'll go! IvOWTA (to Alphonse) : I pray you stay awhile — I fear him so ! Fortico: I gain! You confess at last you have a fear? IvOiyiTA: Only fools can claim exemption from cold fright. The little-brained go strutting on their toes; 'They take a ship in a vengeful storm and smile; They sit upon a mammoth precipice, 38 THE) ACTOR'S IvE)SSON And cry: Behold! No harm can come to me ! A dwarf will freely play with a lion's tail And only start when he is in its jaws: While I,— FoRTiCo: While you have fear of a simple human man! And I have nought against you but your face. A duty hides within my twisted will To lop off all extremes. You are too fine ! You scarcely seem a thing of every day, But a being drifted from a rival sphere, Who aims to excel our planet's simple kind. Why here we try to be somewhat alike, No one should leap to overtop the rest. It is as if in music you had tried To invent a note one never heard before, Much higher up than any opera voice, Or any tone the nicest instrument Could sound. There competition cannot climb To follow you. Then must we drag you down. AiyPHONSK: Your argument is strange. What would you do? (Knter Clingray) Ci^ingray: Are you then so young you do not know his end? And have you never met his kind before? FoRTico: You see he does not know, — his eyes are blank. THE) ACTOR'S I^KSSON 39 IvOI^iTa: a midget who never knows what it is to fear, Who has never looked cold murder in the face, And called it by its name; who never fell Among a tribe of thieves who strangled him For the gold they knew not how to earn themselves, — Who never looked with smiling eyes alight Into the coffin waiting for his corpse ! May he learn like me what it is to have a gift That stirs such howling wolves of envy's tribe, They cannot rest until it is extinct! Cwngray: Ivolita! Your gift of eye and lip and hair But keep me kneeling at your feet in awe ! Ai^phonsk: I seem to probe a secret newly found, (to Fortico) Will you come this way and enlighten me still more? FoRXiCO: I think I see in you the proud extreme. Yes, I will walk with you. (l^xit Alphonse and Fortico) Ci^ingray: They love you both! IvOLITa: What right have you to ask? I choose my path. Cwngray: What right have I? You feign to be obtuse, Pretend you cannot read what my eyes proclaim In letters more distinct than the largest print 40 THK ACTOR^S LESSON That ever spelled a fact on a painted fence? You cannot see the ocean at your feet, Whose waves curl towards you with a caress profound: You cannot see the emerald of the hills, Or the shadow of the lighthouse on the sand. If you cannot see my consuming love for you. Ivook in my eyes and read the brain behind. Its every speck is a mirror of your face. If I walk across the woods and fields of grass, Kach twig and herb but shows your head divine. I tremble in the darkness of the night. For though black to every other sight. My eyes still see you near my troubled couch. If I bend upon a book you blur the page, Your haunting, heavenly eyes intruding there. Ivolita, this madness in my veins must cease, — When will you be my bride? LoIvITa: You should not ask. You know that I can never be your wife. Suppose I see your love? Why should I care? A fire is no novel sight to me. Nor does men's frenzy tempt me to a sigh, One never seeks so earnestly for ice As when an exile in a tropic-land; And I think I see in you the burning south That woes the glistening frost of an arctic heart. THE ACTOR'S IvKSSON 41 Cwngray: It is pretense, — your beauty gives the lie. If not my desperate self, — then some one else. See Fortico comes this way. (Enter Fortico and Alphonse. Alphonse stands at a little distance. Fortico approaches.) Cwngray: He must answer me. (To Fortico) Your brow takes on an ugly scowl. What now? Fortico: I thought to see you locked in an embrace. The languor of her eyes would tempt a saint, — And yet she stands defiant to a kiss ! Such resistance needs the avenging lash, — The woman claims she is too fine for love. And can like spirit, disembodied, fly. On top of adoration's very pulse I swear she shall not be too fine for us ! For locked within my arms, my lips on hers. She who spurned real love, shall touch with hate. (He advances to grasp her.) CIvINGRAy: No, no, if she is taken by assault. Give me the task. To persuasion deaf, she will yield To the pressure of my arms. lyolita, speak ! (He advances towards her, so that he and Fortico are both pressing within a few inches of her.) 42 THE) ACTOR'S IvKSSON lyOi^iTA: A moment wait: — if I were condemned to die, Like an ancient mart}^ tied to a burning stake, I should be given one last chance to speak. Perhaps I seem to you a fragile thing, Yet I am larger than a world of hate. I hate you, Fortico, for your envy base, And you wild Clingray for your passion bold. This hate is in me like a cosmic force: — We learn of growth from a modest buttercup. And light is signified in a firefly; — A baby lamb can speak of love divine, — And regal universal hate can speak In my poor woman's frame. It fills me now As if it would burst the tissue of my heart. Fortico: Ivolita, you are sublime ! Then kiss or die ! CI/INGRAy: The first kiss is mine ! Oh, woman of my dreams ! (They both advance to her and catch her in a double em^brace, which she resists violently with muffled cries. Alphonse aroused from his position as spectator, advances just as Ivolita gives a piercing shriek, and falls in an apparent faint.) AiyPHONSK: You cannot mean to play an earnest part, — You would not kiss a woman against her will ! This jest has gone too far, — she looks so pale ! I think she faints. (Clingray takes the limp figure of I/olita in his arms.) THK ACTOR'S IvE)SSON 48 Ci^ingray: Her breath seems almost gone ! FoRTico: Almost ! She is quite dead, my simple friends ! The wonder never ceases how men fall Into the traps I set. You know my game, — I am a murderer who goes unchecked. You are so weak, — you follow on my lead. Farewell. (Kxit Fortico.) CiyiNGRAY: Oh, merciful God, dare I call on Thee? It was love that stole from me my power of mind, — I could not think for the raging, howling flames That laved me from without and scorched within. In all the world there is no other maid To take her place. I killed the fairest thing The horried earth has known in this late day ! Ai^phonsk: I watched the play, — it seemed to me she died From rage, the anger breaking through her heart. Ci