m^, &f [p;^^%^<».'%''^'c> 0\ .^?sr. ^ T U.=M. I^DNITED STATES OF AMERICA.* IVY LEAVES. IVY LEAV ES ■^'/ BY MARY ELLEN ATKINSON. PHILADELPHIA: B. LIPPINCOTT & CO. 1870. Entered according to Act of Congress, in the year 1870, by J. B. LIPPINCOTT & CO., [n the Clerk's Office of the District Court of the United States for the Eastern District of Pennsylvania. CONTENTS. PAGE The Hermit of Mount Carmel 9 The Nixie 26 i^On the Mountain . -36 In the Field 49 By the River 55 Passing Away 63 Sunshine and Shadow 67 The Soul's Telegraph 70 Sabbath Bells 72 When Thou hast Shut Thy Door— Pray .... 74 Failure 76 Success 78 The Morning Cometh 80 The Knight of the Rosy Cross 81 ■Hope against Hope 82 Invocation ......... S;^ The Reply 85 The Stars 87 The Peace of God . . . . . . . .89 I* (V) yi CONTENTS. PAGE White Blossoms 93 Desmodia 94 Winter Dawn 9^ My Field 99 Help, Lord ! 102 The Return of the Birds I04 "Give Me Thy Heart" 106 " Give Ye Them to Eat " 108 Trust 109 Soul-Utterance iio npHIS Ivy grew upon the dear church-wall, Clung loving round its pillars, crept across The colored splendors of its window fair. And leaned where it could feel the organ thrill Which shook our hearts too with its harmony. This Ivy hung above the sacred porch And made the carven arches bright and fair "With little creeping sprays of tender green, A memory of summer in the snow, The joy of Christmas lingering -all the year. Under this Ivy I have entered in From all the tumult of the outer world Into the quiet of my Father's house, From all the heat and burden of the day, Into the joy of peace and holy rest. Under this Ivy I have passed again Out from the sacred stillness and the songs Of happy worship, to the work-day world, Refreshed and strengthened. For dear memory's sake I pluck these Ivy leaves to take with me. (vii) IVY LEAVES, mj lOTit 0f ll0Uttt Carmtl PROEM. THROUGH the unbounded realms of space, Dim-lighted by a million suns, This little world, our dwelling-place, Its never-ceasing spiral runs. Through those dim spaces infinite. The homes of planets, still and vast, A giant cone of deeper night. The shadow of the earth, is cast. Yet Science, with the mystic rod Placed by the Master in her hand. To measure all the works of God, His wonders, ever new and grand, (9) lo IVY LEAVES. Hath found the way to distant skies To count and weigh the worlds of light She knows how far earth's shadow lies Across the boundless void of night. Alas ! the deeper shade of sin Falls on us from the distant past, And none may know how deep and far Its dark and dreary night is cast. The throne of God itself may stand Alone unshadowed by the curse Which changes all the finite life Of his far-spreading universe. A lonely Eremite On Carmel's rocky height Sat watching from his solitary steep The purple evening vapors creep Around the silent circle of the sea, When suddenly He noticed where, beneath him in the bay, A heavy-freighted merchant-vessel lay ; Her sails were duly set. Her anchor weighed, and yet THE HERMIT OF MOUNT C ARM EL. n She never moved, but seemed to lie at rest With drooping flags, upon the water's breast. Whether it stirred the recollection Of foregone human toil and strife. Or seemed a sad and drear reflection Of his own inner life j — Whate'er the thought might be, 'twas one of pain ; And, turning from the darkening, misty main. The sighing forest, and the infinite skies. That seemed to haunt him with unnumbered eyes, He stooped to enter his dim cell again. When hark ! A rapturous song Wakes all the echoes of the slumbering dark : It floats along. Too glad for earth, yet too distinct for heaven, For it was never given To mortal man to hear The song of heaven so near, So loud and clear. Far in the sky the advent angels sang, ''Glory to God!" but this Just from the rocky height above him rang ; Yet earth hath no such bliss As flooded all the air with blessedness. 12 IVY LEAVES. Up the steep crag he sprang, Parting the dewy boughs with eager hands. Nor does he pause nor stop Till on the mountain-top, Breathless with wonder and surprise, he stands ; For on that lonely height An angel kneels, all clothed in dazzling light, From whose celestial heart and tongue is poured That wondrous song of rapture to the Lord. The Eremite stood still. While o'er him swept the stars in silent march, Rapt in celestial ecstasy, until The midnight blue had faded from heaven's arch. And crystal-clear it glowed with growing dawn. Earth woke with early morn. And bird and breeze and flower took up the lay That died upon the angel's lips away. Cleaving the air with pinion dazzling white. And floating robe of pure and lambent light, Not back to heaven again The seraph winged his thought-like flight. The wondering hermit saw his form alight Upon the low, surrounding plain ; The eyelids closed upon his dazzled sight. And when he looked again THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. 13 He saw a pilgrim, clad in sombre gown, Enter with eager step the distant town. ** What would he there?" the hermit questioned then. *^Why mingle with the sin-defiled, the low, The worthless and benighted sons of men, Alighting like a snow-white bird of God, Accustomed to the heights where splendors glow, Upon the muddy streets where few have trod Without defilement?" Then a memory came Of how the Son of God himself had brought Unto these earthly shores no vengeful flame. But deeds of mercy and of love had wrought Even unto death, and had not weary been Of serving men all lost in woe and sin. Is there, then, one thing nobler than to live In contemplation deep and thought sublime ? Can heaven itself no higher purpose give Than that which in the tasks of earth and time Is set before us? Hath the world above No other watchword tlian tliat scorned one, Love ? The question smote across his scheme of life, Were God's great plan and his indeed at strife ? O'erwrought with high emotion so intense. He sank upon the dewy ground, 2 14 /VV LEAVES. And heavy slumber drowned each weary sense, O'erflowing sight and sound With rest profound. The bird, and bee, and large -winged butterfly. And all the forest's little denizens, Were stirring round him as the hours stole by, And o'er his head the eagle from the fens Flew with full beak unto her eyrie high ; And at his feet the tinkling rivulet fell With fairy music down from ledge to ledge. Slow dropping o'er the gray rock's mossy edge, Sweet and monotonous as a silver bell. Whether he mused or slept he scarce could tell. But light shone on him from the central Throne ; Heaven's great, high wall of crystal shining through, And piercing yonder too close veil of blue Which hides the glory earth hath never known. Alas I what thoughts we think of heaven ! Blind children talking of the light; The deaf describing music's might ! Pray God that we may be forgiven That on our best conceptions of his bliss There ever doth remain The inevitable stain Of our hearts' dreary sin and narrowness. 5 THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. God hath not told us what shall be, Lest we, with our depraved and earth-born taste, Should turn aside from life's celestial tree To eat the poisoned fruits of earth's bleak waste, Sunk far too low to know one pure desire Till God himself hath taught us to aspire. We have no words with which to speak of heaven ; All language fails and breaks down utterly With such a stress upon it, as a wire Surcharged and broken with electric fire; Else had the few who have returned thence, given Some little glimpse of life beyond the sky, — For had they spoken, that much-longed-for lore Had echoed down the ages evermore. This lesson, if none else, the vision taught, That the celestial life was not the calm. Inert, inactive, cloistral life he thought, When fadeless poppies bloomed beside the palm. O life beyond the bounds of sense. Beyond the fretting links of time ! O life ! O fullest life ! intense. Unfettered, and sublime ! The happy souls who have gone hence Are altered less by the supernal grace And perfect beauty of each faultless face, J 5 /VV LEAVES. Than by the look of high intelligence Forever growing in their eyes, Brightened by gazing on those spheres of truth Whose slender crescent, seen in cloudy skies, Engaged the homage of their earthly youth. Here the faint spark Of heavenly life and love burns dim and dark, By heavy clouds oppressed. Smoke of self-worship, incense all unblest. But there the seraphs burn with pure desire, A clear celestial fire ; And there, upon the glassy sea. Stand God's swift messengers, alert with love. And girt with strength and tireless energy. For service in the worlds above Or worlds below, and there the archangels stand, God's trenchant weapons in their mailed right hand, Mighty to wrestle with his mighty foes. In those high spheres of soul-life none repose, For none are weary, but with ceaseless flight Their unencumbered minds upsoar Into the radiance of the Light of Light, From glory unto glory, evermore. THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. Behold ! The sea and sky are blent in sunset's gold, The level rays fill all the woods with light, And crown the hills with transient glory bright. Behold ! The clouds their blazoned banners wide unfold, And haste in shining cohorts to the west, Where rides their monarch to triumphant rest. Behold ! The splendor gilds old Carmel's summit bold ! And hark ! once more the angel anthem rings, " O glory, glory to the King of kings !" Then sleep removes her hand. That gentle hand, all cool with dews of balm, From off the hermit's eyelids, and the grand. Bright vision of the heavenly joy and calm. That glimpse of glory, too divine to last, Becomes a part of the receding past. To wake from such a dream To such reality — the angel there — Could hardly seem Like utter loss, and in an ecstasy He listens to the anthem thrilling The crystal air With wondrous melody. 17 1 8 IVY LEAVES. And to the grand words, filling His soul with great thoughts never known before, Until, like sound of waves along the shore. The last rich cadence dies. Breaking upon the golden strand of sunset skies. Then silence falls, And darkness closes round her dusky walls. And in heaven's arch the night Has set her steady cressets, all alight, And all night long the sentinel wind goes round That sacred peak, the angel's camping-ground. What converse hold they 'neath night's canopy, Angel and earth-child, till the break of day? What holy secrets of the upper sky Strike their strange music through life's lowly lay? What veiling clouds are thrust away To show the crystal steps whereby The strong, victorious soul may climb. Angel-encircled, to a life sublime ? A blessed night it was, of holy thought Lifted above all things of earth and time j No wonder that it wrought A change forever on the human heart Admitted to such sacred communings, Exalting it, as if on angel-wings. THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. 19 Into a higher range of life, apart From self and all its narrow interests. As the young eagles, from their native nests. Rise on some smnmer day, and fly Far through the radiant sky. And nevermore lie groveling there, — So to his soul was strong, new impulse given, Lifting it up into the calm, pure air, The sunlit atmosphere of heaven. Gone ! like a rich bell's chime Dying in utter silence ! he is gone ! And that high mount which with his brightness shone Like snowy peaks at sunrise, all aglow, Grew dark and lonely with the sudden woe Of desolation, and the hermit stood Bewildered with the sense of utter loss. Till sunrise lighted up the solemn wood, And shot its golden arrows far across The dim expanse of the mysterious sea. And then a slow, faint sunrise of the heart. Breaking through dreary fog of doubts and fears, Its trembling rays began to dart Into the gloom of half-forgotten years ; Until the dreary clouds were thrust apart. And God's forgiving smile was seen Beaming, like radiance from celestial spheres, 20 J^yy LEA vEs, On all the weary wandering that had been, And life that yet might be. And when he thought On all the angel's words that holy night, The mist of darkness melted from his sight : He saw how God, in wisest love, had planned His whole life for him — how before his way The ladder reaching unto heaven had stood, While he, in proud self-will, had turned away, To toil along the vain world's thorny sand, Tracking a lonely path with tears and blood ; Seeking for earth's great things and finding naught; Reaping sad failure from the barren strand Where he, with manhood's prime of strength, had wrought ; Letting God's opportunities pass by — Those heavenly tides which would have borne him on To honor, power, and immortality — Till strength had ebbed and aspiration gone. And o'er the mental light which God had given The shadow of hell's darkness crept, Till his life's angel, watching him from heaven, Had looked into the face of Christ, and wept ! "Yea, go !" said that divinest Voice, which oft Had faltered with a gush of pitying tears. In three and thirty toilsome earthly years, — THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CAR MEL. 21 *' Yea, go !" with words of blessing, uttered soft, Yet heard through all heaven's myriad harmonies; " Go teach him how, self's narrow cerements riven, His soul may broaden in the light of heaven. And rise, on love's strong pinions, to the skies." And should it be in vain, the tender love Which brooded from the upper realms o'er him? Could he reject the message from above. Which fain would link him with the cherubim By giving him their work, their love, their 'joy? How could he live again his barren life. After a glimpse of such divine employ, Or struggle on, with God's blest will at strife, And hear, through all, the fall of angel tears? No : life must change ! He must retrieve his wasted years, Must live for God and man, albeit strange To take the work so long refused, And bend his will to Christ's stern yoke, which pressed Hard on the stubborn shoulders, long unused To mild submission, ordered work and rest. Slow grew the ideal of a life of love. Fruitful for others, as was Christ's on earth. Within his mind. The live seed from above Sprang, like a nascent palm-tree, into birth, 22 ^^y LEA FES. Upbuilding, day by day, the gradual stem, To uphold, at length, a blossomy diadem. So bloomed his life at last in blessed flowers. The beauty of most loving thoughts and deeds, — Words, falling on the heart like sweet spring showers, And sympathies, like Gilead's soothing balm. To pour upon the wound that aches and bleeds. And still grief's restless murmurs into calm; — Tasks of benignant love to suffering man. Begun for him by angel-hands so well That oftentimes, distrustful, he began To question if his lowly work, which fell So far below it, could accepted be. But then God's voiceless answer came between His heart and cold despair, to heal and bless : God's answer — no mere words, but rich success And joy of heart ; and so he learned to lean Upon that kind encouragement, which still Quickened his failing strength, confirmed his waver- ing will. So died the discord from his heart at last. For it was tuned to Christ's, and evermore Chimed with the key-note of all harmony — All joy and blessing, present and to be. The old remorse and bitter hate were o'er, And peace encircled all the dreary past, 23 THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. And wrapped his weary soul in boundless rest Most still and blest. Until his soul's horizon suddenly Withdrew its earthly boundary, and lo ! He stood beside death's dark and narrow sea. And saw beyond the eternal glory glow. And soft and low, as floating from afar, Beyond the spaces round the morning star. And sweeter than the sweetest melodies That ever breathed beneath our cloudy skies. Clearer than flute or bird, A voice was heard, — *'Come in, thou blessed one ! Thy work is done ! Inherit all the joy prepared for thee. Come to thy home at last 1 Thy loving service past My heart accepts as rendered unto Me. Thou hast been faithful through earth's weary strife, Receive thy crown of life.'' 24 IVY LEAVES. EPILOGUE. The countless stars are censers swinging Before the great white central throne, Incense of prayers and praises bringing To Him who ruleth there alone. Oh, child of earth ! oh, fallen heart ! A grain of incense-dust thou art. Wilt thou refuse thy meed to bring Of lowly service to thy King? Life is a lyre of many strings ; The ages strike the solemn chords. Eternity sublimely sings The glory of the Lord of lords. Why wilt thou, O discordant heart. Break in on such sublime accord Or, silent, fail to bear thy part, While all things praise creation's Lord ? The Master-Poet builds his verse — All life its words, all love its rhyme ; His poem is the universe. The writing of his thought sublime. Attune to that grand rhythm thy life, O proud and wilful heart of man, Nor mar with petulance and strife The order of God's perfect plan. THE HERMIT OF MOUNT CARMEL. 25 O hark ! above the nearer din Of earthly discord hear it roll ! Above the moans of woe and sin, The primal music of the soul ! O hark again ! more deep than all, More full, and musical, and sweet. Richer than many waters' fall, Christ's voice, sublime and all-complete ! O Voice that woke creation's morn. Whose every utterance giveth life, Breathe Thou the word that ushers dawn. Speak peace across sin's stormy strife. Then unto Thee, Eternal King, From earth's low strand to heaven's bright shore, All hearts one strain sublime shall sing. All hallelujah, evermore ! 26 lyy LEA VES. %\t prit HE sat beside a willow-circled lake Which mirrored Scandinavia's steel-blue sky, So still, the brooding wild-duck in the brake Forgot to watch him with her jealous eye. But sat secure upon her secret nest, Content to feel the eggs beneath her breast. But he, poor sprite, to whom a heart was given To feel, a mind his destiny to know. Forlorn and sad beneath the sunny heaven. Was musing on his strange and hopeless woe. To be alone shut out, by Heaven's decree, From life's best boon of immortality. At length he spoke, nor noticed how the bird Darted out startled from the willow-shade ; So rapt in thought was he, he never heard The sudden whirring that her swift wings made. Nor steps of child just coming home from school, With naked feet on pebbles wet and cooL THE NIXIE. 27 *' No hope for me ; this is not life !" he cried. '' This is but dreary waiting for my death. No joy can ever reach my soul," he sighed, ^' For it is slain before it entereth. This thought debars all comfort from my heart, — In everlasting life I have no part." Ceasing, he suddenly became aware That by his side there stood a little child, A little girl, blue-eyed, with golden hair, Blown back in ringlets from her forehead mild, — A pretty childish form, and full of grace. With sweet, sad wonder in her gentle face. "Our good Lord gives eternal life," she said, " To all who ask it. Come and pray with me." He rose. With eager step the way she led Into the deeper wood, there bowed the knee. And prayed, in childlike trust, to One so near. So loving, that he could not fail to hear. " Dear heavenly Father, let us live with Thee Forever and forever, for the days, Unless they had no end, too short would be To see and know Thee, and to sing Thy praise. For Jesus' sake, the life eternal give. Forever and forever let us live !" 28 ^yy LEAVES. Then rising, ** I am glad," she said, '^ for now You need not be so sorry any more. Good-night !" He bent and kissed the upturned brow And then she vanished. Trunks of oak-trees hoar Hide her small form, as through the wood-paths dim She hastened, singing low some holy hymn. The long, long twilight deepened into night, And yet it was not dark, for all the sky Was gleaming with the brilliant northern light ; He watched the red and golden pennons fly. Sitting alone upon the grassy slope, Asking his heart this question, " May I hope?" A touch upon his shoulder. Lo, a form Beside him, clothed in raiment dazzling white ! The air around grew fragrant, light, and warm ; All things looked lovely in that presence bright. One could not fear nor sorrow, but rejoice. Hearing the music of that heavenly voice. *' Seek," said the angel, "one to whom belongs The gift divine of immortality, There may be one among those countless throngs, Willing to cede his endless life to thee." The mortal spirit looked his longing vast Into the eyes angelic ere they passed. THE NIXIE, 29 The angel paused, aiTd met the burning look Which fain would shape itself in words, but failed. The unasked question all his great heart shook, Till from his shuddering wings the glory paled. **I cannot cast the fair, immortal crown Which God has given, from my forehead down !" Tears of celestial pity filled his eyes. And tender benedictions softly fell From lips which trembled with deep sympathies, And glorious hopes Heaven had not bid him tell. Till, while his words' sweet music lingered on. As vanishes the rainbow, he was gone. And then began the search, from day to day, Among the human crowds which seem to hold God's peerless gift they cannot cast away As worth far less than earth's polluting gold. '^Are ye immortal?" wonderingly he cried. Some mocked, some laughed, one, startled, turned aside To pray and think upon the endless years His soul must live ; one answered boldly, '* No ! For death is death. Leave idle hopes and fears Of superstitious folly." ''But I k?iow,'' The sprite responded, all his soul's surprise. And almost anger, in his eager eyes, — 3* 30 ^yy LEAVES. " I know the life beyond the gat^of death. I have seen heaven and hell. I know what lies Beyond this realm of fleeting, mortal breath, The world of solemn, fixed realities." '' Dreams !" cried the infidel, and would have passed, But those beseeching accents held him fast : "Give unto me the immortality Which thus thou scornest. Sink to endless sleep. And yield the peerless privilege to me. The boon of endless life for aye to keep. My whole soul shudders on the fearful brink Of nothingness and death. I gaze and shrink !" Whether it were the horror in that look. Or quickened doubts, which never wholly slept, His nice-poised frame of specious reasoning shook. And o'er his heart a thrill of terror crept. *' Nay, get thee hence ! — Yet what a fool am I, A madman's vain petition to deny !" He hastened on his way, and tried again To balance in his reason's shaken scales The misty cobwebs of a sophist's brain Against the gold of truth, which still prevails. Unless the stubborn will perverts the beam. And makes the solid truth more light than error seem. THE NIXIE. 31 There was a grave, and one in weeds of woe Knelt weeping by the new-set burial-stone ; And now she called on him who slept below, And now she prayed for death, with bitter moan, And then she sobbing said, ''Ah, woe is me ! It had been surely better not to be !" Then spoke a voice beside her, '' Let it be As though thou hadst not been. Bestow, I pray, On me the being which oppresses thee ; Then mayst thou sleep the peaceful years away In endless, dreamless slumber, nor awake E'en when the resurrection morn shall break." *' No, no !" she cried, '' this one joy let me keep — The knowledge that we two shall meet again. No other charm hath death, no rest hath sleep. The only light of life and balm of pain." He looked on her, and wondered as he thought Of earth's Redeemer, that she named him not. And '' Strange !" he murmured, as he turned away, ' ' That these immortal hearts can sorrow thus O'er woes which are so transient — earthly day So brief, eternity so glorious ! They have as little reason to be sad As I can have, poor mortal, to be glad." 32 /FV LEAVES. There was a chamber where a sick man lay, And death stood watching; and the clock's slow beat Ticked his few moments one by one away. A dire disease had bound him hands and feet, And grim despair, with as tenacious hold. Held the lost spirit in its hideous fold. A stranger entered, stood beside the bed. And would have spoken ; but the sick man turned And cursed him, ere a single word he said. And in the look which in those dread eyes burned He read the soul, its guilt, remorse, and fears, Its speechless horror of the eternal years. And what he would have asked he uttered not. But spoke of One whose blessed touch, he said, Was antidote to sin and death. Ah, naught Availed his earnest words — the man was dead ! And he passed out into the sunny air. Still haunted by that look of wild despair. And it so haunted him he could not rest. But wandered full of musings to and fro ; And he returned at length, an unknown guest. Into that house of mourning and of woe. To look upon the dead, in hope that now Death's restful calm had settled on the brow. THE NIXIE. 33 Alas ! the soul in its departure found No light upon the dread unfathomed deep, And so no smile of peacefulness profound, As when God giveth his beloved sleep, Left its bright impress as the soul took flight, No dawning of the everlasting light. Poor seeker after life ! his heart did ache * With burden of a grief beyond his own, And he bethought him of his quiet lake. And hied to rest him there and think alone. And there came one who loved him, and he told Into her gentle ear his wanderings manifold. ** And now I thank my God !" she cried at length, " That He hath opened to my soul a way To bless thee, pouring all the boundless strength Of love into one gift to last for aye. Most gladly, my beloved, give I thee. Since God permits, my immortality!" And as he could not speak for tears, she said, " My life is but a taper's feeble spark ; Then let it light thy nobler lamp instead. Though this small flame expire in utter dark, Before the throne of God thy soul shall shine. And my soul live for evermore in thine. ' ' 34 IVY LEAVES. But then he spoke, his full heart running o'er, ** I bless, I bless thee ! Yet it cannot be ! How could I live upon the radiant shore Of deathless joy, forever missing thee In endless sorrow? Better dreamless sleep Than heart-sick loneliness for aye to keep. '' I cannot take thy gift ! my heart would break. I knew not until now how much the stress Of my desire for life was for thy sake. Love-prompted, and my dread of nothingness, By shrinking of my spirit from the thought Of losing thee or leaving thee, was wrought." Two loving hearts in generous rivalry Could neither yield its earnest resolute will : One pressing its sweet purpose eagerly, And one as constant in refusing still The self-forgetful gift of priceless life. Till Christ's voice reconciled the sinless strife. For then He came, the Lord of life, and said, '' My death hath purchased life for all — for thee. My servants are the living, not the dead. Behold, I give thee immortality !" Then, ere the happy soul could speak its praise, The vision vanished in the sunset's blaze. THE NIXIE. Then, taking his long-silent harp, he sang Such joyous and exultant grateful strains That all the glowing lake with music rang. And the woods listened, and the dewy plains. And passing angels lingered in their flight. With gladness deepening in their eyes of light. In the blank wall which shut his being up — Oblivion's prison — oped a golden gate. And showed an endless prospect, boundless hope. And joy and life inimitably great And ever-blessed. Well might praise o'erflow The heart which never hoped such bliss to know. And are such joys dissolved in common life ? Heaven's priceless pearls in this our human cup ? Such hope sublime should still care's, petty strife, Such rapturous knowledge lift our spirits up O'er earth's low clouds, to life serene and high, Worthy the heirs of immortality. 35 36 /l^y LEAVES. ®n \i UottntaiR. BENEATH the pines they sat that autumn day, » Upon the mountain, where beneath them rolled Unto the broad blue river, far away, A sea of tossing gold. A sea of maples, dotted here and there With hemlock green, or oak of russet brown. And in the distance, through the smoky air. Appeared the silent town. No sound, except of bells, could come so far. And they came sweet and low, too musical Upon the whisper of the woods to jar, Or voice of water-fall. They saw, beyond the gorgeous autumn trees, The white-winged vessels on the river's breast Glide to their place among the city's quays. As sea-birds to their nest. ON THE MOUNTAIN. 37 The pines' low music, like the distant song Of angels, filled the pauses of the woods, And farewell chirpings from the gathering throng Of the departing birds. They talked of life and all their former aims. Dwelt on each lofty dream and fair ideal. And then on duty and its urgent claims, The commonplace and real. *' How oft," they said, ** our projects brave and fair, And full, apparently, of lasting worth, Like rainbow-colored bubbles in the air, Break at the touch of earth ! ''And oft," they said, "although we seem so free To choose, to will, to do or to forbear, We meet resistless pressure, so that we Are baffled everywhere. '^A force as real and constant as the weight Of the invisible air, which naught can flee ; What shall we call it — Providence or fate ? God's will, or destiny?" She spoke, with glowing cheek and sparkling eye, Of all that she had hoped to be and do, 4 38 ^yy LEAVES. Her pure ambition and her purpose high, Her earnest strivings too. And then, with trembling lips and gathering tears, She told how she had failed in much she tried, And how the cherished plans of earlier years Had all been set aside. Not by the slackening of a feeble will. Not by dull languor had the plan been marred. But where her eager feet were pressing still She found the pathway barred, — Barred by the iron gates of circumstance. Hedged in by duty, till she felt that God Himself had closed the door, forbid advance In paths she would have trod. ''Until," she said, ''of all I hoped to be. All I was sure I should be, when the chains Which bound my early youth should set me free, Only the dream remains. " Though then I knew my will could have no scope For action 'nenth another's stern control, Yet Christ, I thought, in time will surely ope The prison of my soul. ON THE MOUNTAIN. 39 '' But still I find my purposes are crossed, My plans are thwarted, and the good I sought To do on earth, remains, like ripe seed lost. Only a barren thought. "And so, alas ! I have but spent my strength For naught, in vain, in spite of hope and prayer ; Have toiled in life's hard field, to reap at length Only such failure there !" There was no lack of tender sympathy In those calm eyes of his, whose steadfast gaze Dwelt on the mountains as he made reply, Grand in their purple haze. The mountains which beyond the river stood. With noble curves of outline, tender lights And shades, where knoll or dell or wood Varied their misty heights. "And is it not enough," he said, " for thee To recognize, in circumstance, that Hand ? Christ's ways with us are deep ; hereafter we Shall know and understand." "Yet Christ," she said, "who gave my higher powers. Would have me dare and do, enjoy, achieve ; 40 yrV LEAVES. lUit i)ctty cares fill U]) lilV's fleeting hours, — What leisure do they leave ** For asi)iration, work for God and man, For sealing heights of knowledge, thence to see Still more of God? I fail in all life's })lan For want of liberty." He answered slow, as one whom Christ had taught Slow lessons by the years that came and went; Up from his heart's deep well he drew the thought For her encouragement. *' Christ's richest gifts are twofold — first relief, 'i'hen blessing. From our hearts He takes the thorn And makes the rose of it. Out of our grief Our purest joy is born. ** l''rom out the ashes of oin* pleasures lost Sj)ring up the fragrant, sno^v-white flowers of peace; When hopes of hinnan rescue all are crossed, He brings his own release. " In his beloved hands dread death became The gate of blesseil life ; and thou shalt see 'J'hy bondage, touched by his transforming flame, Become thy liberty." ON THE MOUNTAIN. 41 He paused. *' But can this be on earth," she said, ** Or only when I tread the heavenly street? Will He take off, before He crowns my head. These fetters from my feet?" He answered, ''Let us hear the Master speak Through those who left the record in his word. — I walk at liberty, because I seek Thy blessed precepts. Lord. — *'And — where the Spirit of the Lord abides Is liberty ; — the glorious liberty Of sons of God. — Who in such words confides He cannot but be free. *' Easy the charm which breaks our chain. Each day We utter it, and yet the strife is o'er If we 'Thy will be done,' can truly say, — Then bondage is no more. "And blessed be his will, whose boundless love Hath promised all things ! Naught can come of ill. For all, till we are safe in heaven above. Shall work out blessing still. "Yea, every longing of the soul for rest. Each aspiration, all for which we pray. 42 IFV LEA VES. These will He give us when He sees it best, Or show his better way. *' O that my soul had wings ! we sighing cry. What wings? The dove's to hover round our nest On sweet love-errands ? Eagle-wings to fly To glory's mountain-crest ? *' Or angel-wings to speed on tasks of heaven? Ah, when God's work demands increase of powers, The wider range and freer flight are given, If such a task be ours. *' But wings to fly away and be at rest He giveth not, for whither should we go, Away from duty on an endless quest Across a sea of woe ? *' The fretting friction of our daily life. Heart-weariness with loving patience borne, The long endurance of the inward strife, The painful crown of thorn, ** Prepare the heart for God's own dwelling-place. Adorn with sacred loveliness his shrine. And brighten every inconspicuous grace. For God alone to shine. ON THE MOUNTAIN. 43 ''As Druid builders on the ancient plains, Stonehenge's giant circles stretching wide, Smoothed every massive block with toil and pains Upon the inner side, " In honor of the gods who dwelt within Beside the altar of their sacrifice, So must our secret souls be purged from sin For Christ's omniscient eyes. ''And He alone who only knoweth man. And knoweth life and what its changes teach, Is wise to choose and competent to plan The earthly path of each. " Perhaps, as once to David, so to thee He kindly saith, ' That this was in thine heart To do, is well, and yet it must not be, Beloved though thou art.' " Noble to human eyes appears the dream Of Christian life thine earnest heart had wrought : But wouldst thou follow Christ's or thine own scheme? Thine, or his perfect thought ? " I know thy -heart gives fullest answer, — ' His.' Look when the tracings of his finger run 44 /VV LEAVES. Through circumstance, this daily life which is, And which thou, blind, wouldst shun. *^ What is the fetter which hath galled thee so? See, it is but the Master's loving hand. Dost thou not welcome it ? Wouldst thou forego The dear, though hard command ? *' If thou art restive, it is but to bless. Its pressure grows so heavy. Only yield And it shall prove thy Saviour's kind caress. And all thy hurt is healed." She bowed her head upon her hands ; the tears Fell like the drops of summer's blessed rain, The weariness, the inward strife of years. The dull, heart-aching pain. Passed all away, as clouds disperse and flee At touch of sunshine, and aloud she thought, ' ' Hath Jesus been indeed so long with me And yet I knew him not ? '' Hath He indeed been ordering all my life. While I have spurned his plan, and sought my own? It never would have been, this sinful strife. If I his voice had known !" ON THE MOUNTAIN. 45 *' Yea, He knows that !" he answered. " Earth would be, In spite of sorrow, far too sweet a place For discipline, might we but always see The Master's loving face. ** O, when we look from realms of perfect light On all the path which so perplexed us here. When all the clouds and darkness of our night In glory disappear, ** How poor will seem the schemes we blindly made ! How wise and good Christ's plan for every soul ! Strange that we hesitate and are afraid To yield to his control ! " Not only must we learn to do, but bear; Not only act, but suffer ; firmly tread The lowly, thorn-strewn, weary pathway, where The Man of sorrows led. "Ah ! what are we, poor scholars in Christ's school. Who think to choose our lessons ? Let Him teach What pleaseth Him, all-wise to overrule The daily task of each." 46 ^yy LEA VES. ''But what," she questioned, "if He take the books From which He bid us study, all away, And we, with folded hands and puzzled looks. Sit idle all the day? *' What if the task He set, when but commenced. Be given to other hands, or laid aside, All paths to other labor closely fenced, Our prayer for work denied?" He answered gently, "Only heaven can show If work or waiting bring the best reward. Let us not choose, we only need to know The bidding of our Lord. " It may be that He lets our labor cease. And calls us from our active sphere apart, To talk with us in secret, breathe his peace. Console and cheer our heart. ' '■ It may be that his only word is ' Trust ! ' Be not found wanting if He try thee so. But answer, ' Lord, I know not what Thou dost. Nor do I ask to know.' "Ah, let us sit in silence at his feet. Intent to hear his words of wondrous grace. ON THE MOUNTAIN. 47 Rebuked like Martha by those accents sweet, Let us take Mary's place. " Dear friend, thy heart is sad and sorrowful Because the fabric which the slow years weave — Thy life — to thee looks narrow, coarse, and dull. Courage ! thou needst not grieve. ''When dipped in Jordan's wave, and sunned in light That knows no shading on the farther shore. Thy weft will shine all lustrous, pure, and white, Unstained for evermore. ''And God, whose wonderful eternity Knows neither past nor future, sees thee now. Crowned with the grand perfection that shall be, His glory round thy brow. " Why do we grieve, when neither change nor chance Can work us evil? Let us trust for time, Heirs of an infinite inheritance, A name and home sublime !" She raised her eyes and smiled, as one who saw Afar the dawn of perfect peace and rest Of freedom under Christ's most loving law, Of acquiescence blest. 48 /yy LEA VES. ''Master/' she prayed, ''increase our faith, that hence We lose, not sight of heavenly hills serene ; Faith, substance of things hoped, and evidence Of what is yet unseen !" IN THE FIELD. 49 |tt % |idi. Is this waste tangled wilderness The Master's field? This thorny fallow-ground, this barren place, Which naugfit, it seems, but poisonous weeds can yield ? Is this Thy field, O Lord ? and must we toil Year after year, in such a thankless soil ? Is this the nursery-ground of heaven ? Can plants of ours Grow up to vie with angel-growths, and even Adorn Christ's marriage-feast with fruit and flowers? Can harvests ripen here so rich and wide That Christ's vast longings will be satisfied? Desponding in the drought and heat, I hear a voice, Repeating with its heavenly accents sweet, The story how the earth shall yet rejoice When Christ shall reign, his blessed kingdom come. While angel-reapers sing the harvest-home. 50 IVY LEAVES. So be it, Lord ! Thy kingdom come ! I lift mine eyes, For, from the field that lay so waste and dumb, I hear the echoed prayer responsive rise, " Thy kingdom come." A countless multitude Is working with me in the desert rude. And for this blessed brotherhood Of all the saints. My prayers arise in love and gratitude. * When with discouragement my spirit faints, It is a joy to see God's work progress In better hands, to whom He gives success. Of all the precious gifts of heaven. So manifold. Which God in answer to my prayers hath given, Count I this greatest, that he hath enrolled My name among the laborers in his field. Though poor the harvest that my corner yield. When first I sought the healing touch Of Jesus' hand, " Grant this," I prayed, ''and nothing thenceforth much Can trouble me." I could not understand IN THE FIELD. What care or grief could reach a soul secure Of heaven, whose endless happiness was sure. He laid his hand, with smile divine, Upon my head, Answering, '' I ransom thee, and thou art mine." And I, who looked for rest, heard this instead, *' Go, work to-day," and then He set my feet Here, where I bear the burden and the heat. And now the early dews are dried, The songs are done Which morning birds poured forth on every side. My morning-glories shrivel in the sun. Yet angels sing above me as I toil. Plowing long furrows in the stony soiL I have this joy, that all the seed, The corn of heaven. Which for the sowing of the field I need, By Christ's own blessed hands to me is given, And precious are the sacred hours and dear When to supply my need He cometh near. And yet I sow in tears, for there The trodden way. 5t 52 IVV LEA FES. And here the rock, and here the thorns, prepare Sad faikire for my hope ; and sun by day And frost by night the tender shoot destroy ; Yet stands the promise, we shall reap in joy. Patience ! for first the blade will show Its living green, And then the bearded ear, and after grow The full ripe corn in summer days serene. Whether I wake, or sleep, and other hands Gather my harvest, yet the promise stands; Ah, can we gird with trust like this Our fainting heart ? May we all dreary doubt and fear dismiss. And bid our deep anxieties depart ? Shall those for whom we bear this load of care Be surely saved, in answer to our prayer? For there be those for whom we pray As never yet We prayed for our own souls, whom day by day We labor for, for whom we nightly wet Our pillow with our bitter, yearning tears ; Nor faith nor hope can still our aching fears. IN THE FIELD. 53 For so did Samuel pray for Saul With longing love. Day after day God heard his hot tears fall, And sent a message from the courts above, Not this — '^Thy heart's desire is granted thee!" But — " Weep not ; ask it not ; it cannot be." And yet we cannot surely tell That Samuel failed To win for him he loved so long and well Eternal blessing. If his prayer availed To wrest a victory from defeat so sore, It would be like God's ways. We know no more. We walk by faith, and not by sight ; Our eyes are sealed. We cry, but echo answers out of night. God's patient silence wraps our battle-field. Nor can we pierce, with subtlest human skill. The mystery of the triumphing of ill. Lo, in our sight the holy cross Shines all day long. Reminding us that all our pain and loss. Our labor, tears, and prayers, our strife with wrong, Were borne by Him, upon whose side to be. Whatever seems, is surely victory. 5* 54 IVY LEAVES. And doubtless we may trustfully Leave in his care, Whose heart is love and boundless sympathy, The souls for whom our life is toil and prayer. We keep the watch with Him ; we stand beside The cross whereon for them the Saviour died. Let us be patient. God hath sown The field we till With seeds of light and gladness for His own, An after-crop, to burst in bloom and fill The harvest-field with fragrant beauty when The sheaves are gathered in, but not till then. Let us rejoice — for He who sees The glorious end Of all the toil and care ; who mysteries That try our faith can wholly comprehend ; And who, to gain the harvest, bled and died, Shall in the reaping-time be satisfied. BY THE RIVER. 55 m tl]e Siber. YES, place me near the open window, where The cool and fragrant balm of summer air May breathe on me ; Whence I may watch again the river's flow, The river, whose bright changeful course I know From spring to sea. Think of its shining track from those high hills Where mountain mist its rocky fountains fills, O'er foamy fall, Down through the pasture-valleys, green and still, Through many a busy town with noisy mill. This, last of all. For here it spreads its gleaming silver wide, And cliff and forest end on either side In level lines; Beyond the jutting crags which guard the bay, And sandy ledges stretching far away, The ocean shines. 56 IVY LEAVES. How calm and smooth the river's tide ! The sails Glide slowly down, as slow the daylight fails. Far must they roam, They all are outward-bound ; but I, to-night. Behold my spirit's haven just in sight, My soul's sweet home. See ! just beyond the harbor's outer bar The beacon-light is burning like a star, With steady beam. And as my soul looks forth, with deep delight It sees hope's blessed beacon shining bright Across death's stream. And gazing thus, my thoughts have wandered back, With sad and joyful memories, o'er the track Of many years ; Not all their bitter sorrows to renew, Not all their hours of gladness to review, Their hopes and fears ; But to retrace my spirit's inner life, — Born amid grief, grown strong through toil and strife, And calm through pain, — From its first well-springs, trickling cool and clear. To these calm depths, whose placid currents near The boundless main. BV THE RIVER. 57 The voices of the past which call to me, The solemn echoes from the unknown sea, All whisper, ' ' Peace ! ' ' This heavenly peace which like a river flows And bathes my soul in its divine repose Till all cares cease. It is the Saviour's gift ; his words were true, *' Not as the world gives, give I unto you." In early life My soul went begging at its churlish gate. It flung me wealth, and fame, and gilded state. With care and strife. But still my hungry heart implored for aught To satisfy its longing. " There is naught," I cried, " in these. Of medicine for secret ache, of rest For weariness, of balm for wounded breast That prays for ease !" Thus at the world's broad gate my spirit cried And waited drearily, but none replied Nor gave to me. I found it had no power to heal or bless. And thus I learned its utter hoUowness And vanity. 58 IVY LEAVES. Then came an angel to me in disguise Whose name was Sorrow. Tender were his eyes Though harsh his hand. And slowly my reluctant soul he led Within the hearing of a Voice which said, With sweet command, ^' Come unto Me, and I will give you rest !" How could I but obey the kind behest ? And as I turned, Some door of heaven unbarred, to flood my way With glimpses of the everlasting day, Such glory burned. Then, in my gladness, ^''This is peace !" I said; But Life replied, ere many days had sped, *^Not peace, but hope !" For while I looked, the transient gleam was gone, As clouds across blue rifts are drifted on In heaven's gray cope. Ah, then I felt the galling chains of sin ! Ah, then I found that peace is hard to win, With such a foe ! But as I strove with evil, strength was given. And still my steady feet were turned toward heaven, Though faint and slow. BV THE RIVER. And thus I struggled on from day to day, Until I felt the hostile hosts give way. The pressure yield ; And then I knew a victory was won, And I had conquered peace at last upon Life's battle-field. Not that the strife was wholly ended yet, Nor triumph perfect. Death alone can set On mortal brow The victor's radiant crown. Yet peace within Is won by conquest over self and sin Ev'n here and now. " Is it not, then," you ask, '' the gift of Christ, His precious legacy, unearned, unpriced?" Yea, this we know ; But Christ's best gifts are not for him who stands Awaiting them with idle, outstretched hands, — He gives not so. He bought for us a field whereon to stand And fight life's battle under his command With woe and sin : He paid his life for power to bless, and thus His gift is, that 'tis possible for us To strive, and win. 59 6o ivy LEA VES. For when we strive, we win. O blest be He Who always giveth us the victory In faithful strife, And crowns the conquest with his holy peace. Whose early beams grow brighter and increase To endless life ! Peace hushed the murmurs of my soul's unrest, And silenced cares which fretted and distressed With weary woe \ I trod them underfoot, nor felt them more Than eagles feel the flinty pathway sore, Far, far below. As melodies from heavenly choirs drew near. Harsh discords died which long had pained my ear And vexed my soul ; And in their place the angel-music sweet Of peace with God and man, the days repeat. As swift they roll. And now, in tempest's roar, or earthquake's shock, My soul, in shelter of a steadfast Rock For safety hides ; And when the strife of tongues is raging loud, In the pavilion of God's curtaining cloud It calm abides. BY THE RIVER. 6 1 No more doth passion snatch my spirit's helm And steer where whirhng torrents overwhelm, As formerly ; Nor dull unrest with fever alternate, Nor gloom with fitful mirth, nor love and hate With apathy. But sacred calm and rest serene abide. And light no cloud of grief can dim or hide ; For sorrow now Is not a dreary fog of winter night, But dewy sunrise mist suffused with light And golden glow. To him who overcomes, the promises Are full of blessing, and I think that these, Rich as they are, Are meant for even me. Strange words from heaven, *' To him that overcometh shall be given The Morning-Star!" I know their meaning now. Before me lies The day, not dawned as yet, of upper skies. But night is past. I stand upon life's verge, and lo ! from far The blessed radiance of the Morning-Star Is o'er me cast. 6 62 IVY LEAVES. My skies are crystal-clear ; no cloud is there To mar the beauty of their twilight fair, Awaiting dawn. And pure and bright heaven's radiant herald gleams, While day draws nearer with celestial beams Of heavenly morn. I look across the narrow stream of death To that fair land no sorrow entereth ; Its sweet bells chime Their welcome to the happy pilgrim home. Lord Jesus, let thine angels haste to come, — I wait thy time ! PASSING AWAY. 63 passing ^tog. O RIVER of Time, how ceaselessly Thou flowest on to the boundless sea ! Whether upon thy sunny tide The sweet spring blossoms drop and glide, Or whether the dreary snowflakes only Fall in the winter cold and lonely ; Whether we wake or whether we sleep, Thou flowest on to eternity's deep. 'Twas long ago, in my life's sweet May, My childhood silently floated away. I hear the noon-bells distantly chime, And youth glides by on the stream of time. My days, the sunny or overcast, Are stealing away to the changeless past ; But I mark their flight with a smile of cheer, And not by a sigh or a falling tear. So often, so sadly, the people say, " Passing away, still passing away !" 64 ^^y LEAVES. That the words have borrowed a pensive tone, And a shade of sadness not their own ; And I fain would reclaim the notes again From their minor key on the lips of men, And make the refrain of my gladdest lay, ^' Passing away, ever passing away !" For what is the transient, and what will last ? What maketh its grave in the growing past ? And what lives on in the deathless spheres Where naught corrupts with the rust of years ? Doth time, who gathers our fairest flowers, Destroy no weeds in this world of ours ? What rises victorious o'er dull decay? And what is that which is passing away? Our time is flying, the years sweep by Like the flitting clouds in a breezy sky ; But time is a drop of the boundless sea Of an infinite eternity. As our seas are spanned by the arching skies, 'Neath the presence of God that ocean lies, And though tides may fall in life's shallow bay. Eternity's deep is not ebbing away. List to the words which the mourner saith, '* The lives we have loved are lost in death !" PASSING AWAY. 65 O tell him that Jesus hath brought to light A life not subject to mortal blight. We are not bubbles that shine and break On the river of time in the great world's wake. While immortality cannot decay, Our real life is not passing away. The trivial things of this earthly life, Its petty cares and its noise and strife ; Its riches that moth and rust can spoil ; Its fretting troubles and fruitless toil ; Its greater sorrows^, its woes and pain ; Its long despair and its hope in vain ; Its clouds of anguish and dark dismay, — These are the things that are passing away. While the summers flit over earth's green plain The roses die and the thorns remain, But the heart's sweet flowers know a better way, The blossoms live and the thorns decay ; And we know that beyond heaven's crystal wall No thorn can grow and no sweet rose fall. Thank God that all is not passing by. That our holiest treasures cannot die. While our heavenly Father's throne is sure, While eternal ages shall endure. 66 ^yy J^EA VES. We need not grieve for the joys of sense Which day after day are passing hence. Though the heavens depart, and this lower world Be taken away like a banner furled, Though the sun and the steady stars be gone, Our deathless happiness liveth on. As we climb heaven's stairway we need not grieve For the fine carved work of the step we leave. For brighter than all which has gone before Is the near approach to the Palace Door. And oh ! the joy as we enter in And find naught gone but the stain of sin, And know, as we look back over the way. That only the shadows were passing away. SUNSHINE AND SHADOW, 67 . T HE night had come ; the moonlight whitely lay Athwart the field where I had sowed all day Seed I should ne'er behold Waving its harvest gold. Naught even showed that seed was hidden there ; In pallid light lay furrows long and bare ; No blade, no leaf was seen, Signing its promise green. And on the shore the little shallop lay, Which in the morn must bear me far away. Where I might never know Whether the seed did grow. And if I wept, 'twas none but God could see How much the hope of harvest was to me. He sent his angel down. My trembling trust to crown. loo IVY LEAVES. His gentle angel led me by the hand, Until we stood upon the bare sown land, And then he turned and smiled With eyes serene and mild. *' Behold !" he said, " to still thy human fear. In one short hour will God unfold the year !" And as he spoke the word The barren clods were stirred. And tiny blades crept out into the light, And grew, and grew, before my wondering sight ; And then the ears were seen. Long-bearded, full, and green. And while I watched the waving grain, behold The heads bent down with weight of ripened gold. The angel said, ^' The Lord Shall give thee this reward. *' Fear not to get thee hence across the sea. In harvest-time I'll bind thy sheaves for thee. Thy field may ripen late. Fear not, but trust, and wait !" A little cloud sailed by and hid the moon, My angel comforter was gone too soon. MY FIELD. loi A tremor blurred the air, — Again my field lay bare ; Except that near me, close beside my feet. Remained one handful of the golden wheat ; God's token that for me Rich harvest yet should be. And in my bosom, cherished, loved, behold These precious ears of sacred harvest gold ! Such fruit my field shall bear, I leave it in God's care. lOZ /FF LEAVES. i%fflrH LORD, in thy house to-day I heard thy faithful children, humbly kneeling, Thy help from heaven pray, With voices tremulous with earnest feeling. *' O help us, grant thine aid, Work with us, Lord !" — they prayed. There were the sorely tried, Asking thy might against their fierce temptation ; Those who soul's food provide For others, seeking heavenly inspiration ; Souls overwhelmed with grief Imploring thy relief. There were thy workers brave, With high endeavor all their powers o'ertasking. Striving the lost to save. Strength from thine own almighty fullness asking ; Souls seeking light, perplexed With doubts, and sorely vexed. HELP, LORD! 103 My Lord, I dare not say '' Help me .f' No work my inert soul is doing ; Thine aid I dare not pray, My heart no great and noble aim pursuing ; Nor say, '^ Lord, work with me !" While my hands idle be. Yet, Lord, work in me ! Wake My drowsy spirit from its guilty sleeping. Let me thy hard plow take. Where worthier souls may follow, sowing, reaping. The will to work, I ask, E'en in the lowest task. Make me thy servant. Lord, Though but to wash the feet of those more holy. I ask not for reward. But only, through such work, however lowly, The right to look to Thee, And pray, " Lord, work with me !" I04 IVY LEAVES. %\t iletarn 0f % iiris. YONDER, in the meadows wet with rain, A little bird was singing A low, sweet, melancholy strain ; But little comfort bringing To my tired heart that listened, faint with pain. And I murmured, — all the sky is gray, The twilight falleth dreary ; One bird only trills its pensive lay From sodden fields, rain-weary. Even while he sings the pale light dies away. Then across the cloudy twilight sky. Too far for sound of singing, I saw a thousand song-birds fly. Their swift flight northward winging. And my heart said, — Spring is coming, by and by ! God has sent one little bird to sing In the twilight gray and dreary ; THE RETURN OF THE BIRDS. 105 But a thousand such are on the wing, Flying hither, blithe and cheery, Ah ! His summer yet its blessed joys shall bring. I shall surely hear their happy lays Usher in a better morning. God has birds enough, and sunny days, For another spring's adorning ! And the cloudy night grew bright with trust and praise. Io6 Il^y LEAVES. "iilrtlettelOTt." THE gracious Saviour spoke to me, a child, *' Give me thy heart," He said ; and as He spoke, He laid his hand upon my head and smiled, And all the loving heart within me woke. And I made answer gladly to his word, " My heart is thine ; I love thee, O my Lord !" Then He made glad my heart with heavenly love. For like a child I trusted all He said. And angels' food, sweet manna from above, Fell daily round me and my soul was fed. By day He led me, and my nightly rest Was taken, safe and peaceful, on his breast. But then He said again, with sadder tone, " Give me thy heart !" and heavy shadows fell, And winds grew sharp, and I was all alone ; His storms must prove my soul, I know full well. And I made answer bravely to his word, ** My heart is thine ! Thy will be done, my Lord !" GIVE ME THY HEART: 107 I could not know, except through sorrow's night, The glory of God's stars, nor that serene And tranquil radiance, sovereign peace, the light Which shines in darkness, with resplendent sheen Brightening the waves of trouble, nor how dear Christ's fellowship, when suffering brings it near. And yet, though firm I clung to Him through pain, *' Give me thy heart!" he pleaded with me still. I saw that though I served with hand and brain, My heart's deep love was lavished at my will. And so I answered meekly to his word, " My heart is thine ; take Thou and use it. Lord !" Since then it hath been given me much to love And much to be beloved ; and lo ! my Lord Hath won some souls thereby to look above. E'en unto Him, and healing balm hath poured Into some broken hearts that yearned for Him, Seeking with eyes tear-blinded, tired, and dim. If knights for love and loyalty have spread Their mantles in the way for queenly feet. Lord, I would bring where Thou and thine will tread. All that I have most costly or most sweet. Claim what Thou wilt, I answer to thy word, " My heart is thine — it waits thy will, my Lord !" io8 IVY LEAVES. '%M |e %\m t0 Mr DEAR LORD, behold this hungering multitude ! We looked to see thy heavenly manna sweet Fast falling round them in the desert rude, But lo ! this message, " Give ye them to eat !" How shall we give ? Our loaves are few and small, And great and many are the needs which press. Thy loving heart would grieve if one should fall Fainting with hunger in the wilderness. Lord, in thy sacred hands we lay our bread, Break Thou and give us for the multitude, So shall each craving soul be duly fed. For Thou wilt bless and multiply the food. TRUST. 109 tast. JESUS, my Lord, I know not where I go, For heavy fog hangs shroud -like o'er my way But Thou art at my side, and since I know That thy beloved eyes the path survey, Marking with smile serene its steep ascent. My soul lays down its care and its content. I strive no more to pierce the mist, nor trace The unknown pathway up the lone hill-side ; . I clasp thy hand, I look up in thy face, I see thy smile, and I am satisfied. I need not know, dear Master, what shall be^ Thou knowest, and my steps are safe with Thee. no IVY LEAVES. ^m\-Wmut MY voice is silent, yet my heart is full ; Thoughts crowd upon me^, sympathy burns deep, They yearn to find expression ; yet my lips Against my will their settled silence keep. Thou God of Nature, whose rejoicing birds Pour forth their gladness with the voice of song ; Give me too utterance ! touch these cold, dumb lips ! My silence does thy constant goodness wrong. Let the sealed fountains of my soul break forth ; Draw forth my life like sword from cumbering sheath ; Not to win laurels as a master-mind. Not to obtain the poet's myrtle wreath; But only that I be what Thou didst will, But only that I use what thou hast given. SOUL- UTTERANCE. 1 1 1 Lest pent streams waste, lest rust consume the blade, Lest fruitless die the gracious seed of heaven. Fain would I bear thy message, speak for Thee, Be thine interpreter to some who stand Deaf, blind, beneath thy temple's starry dome. Nor hear thy voice therein, nor see thy hand. Fain would I utter what my soul hath seen In blessed moments when the veil withdrawn Revealed the radiance of the farther-shore, The nameless brightness of the heavenly dawn. Fain w^ould I utter what my heart hath heard When waste and mountain all alone it trod. After the tempest, earthquake, fire, passed by, The accents of the ''still, small voice" of God. O wondrous gift which unto some is given To send their voice through every land and clime With swift electric touch from heart to heart Down all the listening centuries of time. Such gift I ask not ; but I pray that those Whose souls are strong to wield such bow and lance, 112 IVY LEAVES. May choose their weapons from God's armory, '^The arrows of the Lord's deliverance." And for myself but this — if word or thought Which might bear strength or peace to any soul, Lie useless dormant in my heart, — that I May utter it, and God its work control. , .i: <^i^ #