/ MEMOIRS OF m}t atfe OF STEPHEN CRISP, WITH SELECTIONS FROM HIS WORKS. BY SAMUEL TUKE. " Religion next to her o-wn light and energy on tbe minds of men, has aot a more popular argument in her favour than the lenience and constancy of her afflicted confessors." Besse. Y©3R3K: PRINTED ASD PCBLISHED BY W. ALEXANDER AND SON, CASTLEGATB J SOLD ALSO BY HARVEY AND DARTON, W. PHILLIPS, AND W. DARTON, LONDON ; AND CHRISTOPHER EEXTHAM, DUBLIN. 1824. € CONTENTS. Page. INTRODUCTION Letters from Stephen Crisp to several persons, and from J, Parnel, W. Penn, and others, to him 1 Journal written by himself 25 Review of his works, viz : No. I. A Word of Reproof to the Teachers of the World 109 II. A Description of the Church of Scotland 110 III. & IV. Letters to the Mayors of Colchester Ill V. An Epistle concerning the present and succeed ing Times. .. 117 VI. Some Harvest Meditations 122 VII. A Plain Pathway Opened 123 VIII. A Backslider Reproved 139 IX. A Letter from Germany to Friends 142 X. Glad Tidings to all the Mourners in Germany. . 143 XI . An Epistle to Friends in Colchester 146 XII. An Answer to T. Loddington 14TJ XIII. An Epistle to Friends 151 XIV. Translation of two Epistles to Friends at Am- sterdam 1 52 XV. Epistle on meeting at set Times ,.- 153 IV CONTENTS. XVI. An Alarm to Spiriitual Egypt 155 XVII. Address to the Magistrates of GroniDghen... 212 XVIII. Lamentation over Groninghen 215 XIX. Address to the Baptists in Holland 232 XX. Testimony concernng Edward Graunt 234 XXI. An Epistle when a Prisoner 235 XXII. Epistle to Friends 239 XXIII. in the North 244 XXIV. in the Eastern parts 247 XXV. Another Epistle to Friends 247 XXVI. To the Rulers and Inhabitants in the United Provinces 252 XXVII. Epistle to the Princess Elizabeth 271 XXVIII. to Friends at Ipswich 2S3 XXIX. of Tender Counsel and Advice ... 286 XXX. to Friends at Dantzick S07 XXXI. A Babylonish opposer of Truth reproved ... 313 XXXII. An Epistle to Friends in Norwich 314 XXXIII. in Amsterdam 317 XXXIV. A Faithful Warning and Exhortation ib XXXV. An Epistle to Friends 347 XXXVI. A Tender visitation to French Protestants . . 353 XXXVII. Epistle of Tender Love to all the Churches throughout the World 374 Extract from a Sermon 403 INTRODUCTION. When I undertook to make a selection from the Works of Stephen Crisp, it was my intention to prefix to it a Biographical Notice, drawn from the Journal which he has left of his own life, and from some other documents, in a si- milar manner to those Notices of members of the Society of Friends, which have been already presented to the public by my late revered Fa- ther. But on making the attempt, I found that there was little in the Journal which could with propriety be omited ; and that it was so excellent as a whole, and so characteristic of the simplicity, piety and talent of the Author, that it could not, with justice to him or to the reader, be curtailed or combined with any thing of my own. It is not unusual with those who write Memoirs of themselves, to dwell with too much, particularity on those events in their history which are of little interest toothers ; and the editors of such productions have more fre- a 3 Yl INTRODUCTION. quently to exercise a friendly discretion in the omission, than in the addition of circumstances,. But the sketch which Stephen Crisp has left of his long and laborious life, is chiefly the history of Ins religious course — of the means by which he was led to the knowledge of what he be- lieved to be Truth — and of the labours in which he was engaged for its promotion. He has not told us the name of his parents— the period of his birth — the manner of his educa-. tion, or given us any particulars of his family. Nor has he mentioned more than two of the occasions, on which he underwent im- prisonment or other sufferings, for his stead- fast adherence to the principles which he had embraced, and which he so zealously adyocated. There is here an indication of that truegreatness of mind, which distinguishes the Christian hero. He is engaged in a great and arduous conflict; and he forgets, in the importance and glory of his enterprise, the little incidents which affect chiefly his own case or distinction. In supplying, through this Introduction, a few of the particulars which he has omitted, I purpose to notice very briefly some of the principal incidents of his life, and to indulge in a few observations on his character and INTRODUCTION. Til writings, which have been suggested in." the course of the pleasant task, which I have beea induced to undertake. Stephen Crisp was born at Colchester, in the year 1628; where, by the incidental men- tion of his parents, at page 53 of his Journal, it appears they were living in the year 1C59. From the date of his wife's death, and the number of years which he mentions they had lived together, it is inferred that he married in the year 1648, at the- age of 20. It does not appear from his Journal, or any other source, whether he was brought up to or fol- lowed any business or profession. But from the time which he appears to have had in his youth for religious pursuits, and the almost entire devotion of his time to these objects, after he became a Minister of the Gospel, I am inclined to think that he had not any secu- The very feeling account which he has given of his own childhood, affords a striking instance of early religious impressions, not of a temporary kind, but exercising from year to year a strong influence on his conduct. The course of his reflections at a very early pe- Till INTRODUCTION. rlod of life, bespeaks an unusual developement of mind ; and, when only from ten to twelve years of age, he appears tohave entered with earnest- ness, into the religious discussions of the day. and he says, he went with " as much diligence and cheerfulness to the reading and hearing of sermons, as other children* went to their play and sportings." It is not certain in Avhat religious profession lie was educated ; but I incline to think, from his having mentioned that he found out the meetings of the Separatists when he was seven- teen, and from some other passages in his Jour- nal, that he was brought up in the profession of the established Church. As he approached to manhood, the love of pleasure appears to have obtained a tempo- rary and partial ascendancy over his mind ; but, during a considerable portion of this pe- riod, he seems to have devoted himself zea- lously to the improvement of his understand- ing, by reading, and by the observation of men and things. For a time, however, he says, that he took pleasure in the company of the wicked, and, in many things, became like INTRODUCTION. IX them ; but, during this time, the Spirit of Christ struggled within him, which preserved him from many of the gross evils in which his companions indulged. And, after two or three years continuance in this state, he was brought deeply to mourn that slavery and captivity of sin, under which he laboured ; and was made willing to do any thing which would enable him to overcome evil. Under these feelings, he appears to have joined the Baptists; and though, for a short time, he was again drawn into evil company, he soon returned to his religious pursuits ; and I ap- prehend it was at this time that be became a teacher of a separate congregation, as noticed in the testimony respecting him of Colchester Monthly Meeting. He still found that he wanted a power which was not to be obtained by the compliauce with any outward forms, or by the mere performance of religious rites. There is a lively description of his state at this time, in a Sermon delivered by him in the year 1688 :— X INTRODUCTION. " I had fasted and prayed in my younger years, and spent time in bearing, reading-, and meditation, and did all in my own power to mend my state, but I could not mend it ; and as I grew up in years, sin and corruption more prevailed, and I came so far as to believe that there was no help, and that if God did not help me, I was undone to all eternity. I many times wished that I had never been born ; I went to ministers and meetings, and to all sorts of separate people, and to all manner of ordinances, and to all kinds of means, to mend this bad heart of mine; to see if I could ob- tain a power that would get me victory over my corruptions ; but my arm was never so long as to reach thereunto. It was far out of my power and reach." — See page 426. He was under these impressions when James Parnel visited Colchester in 1655. Stephen Crisp was then twenty seven years of age. Of the effect of this young man's preaching upon him, and of the influence of the principles he was then led to imbibe, with the various and deep conflicts into which his mind was intro- duced, his own Journal furnishes a very strik- ing and affecting relation. INTRODUCTION. XI I insert among the Letters at the close of this introduction, one, of which the original is at Colchester, from James Parnel to his convert. It is a remarkable circumstance "which I may be allowed here to mention, that the Society in the counties of Cambridge, Essex, Suffolk, and Norfolk, was first raised and became very numerous, principally through the labours of three instruments, James Parnel, William Caton, and George Whitehead, neither of whom had attained the age of twenty years. Despised and persecuted as were the peo- ple who held the principles which Stephen Crisp had now embraced, he appears not to have hesitated in his choice of them, as soon as he believed them to be con- sistent with truth, and calculated to promote his progress in righteousness. And from this period to that of his death, the steadfastness of his character was remarkable ; and no doubt appears to have arisen in his mind as to the correctness of theprinciples of the Society of Friends, to which he had then attached himself. XII INTRODUCTION. For a few years, lie appears to have been diligently engaged in the affairs of the Society, in and about his native place ; but, though much occupied in private ministrations both spiritual and temporal, it does not appear that he acted in the capacity of a public Minister of the Gospel until the year 1659, about four years after his convincement. At this period he believed it his duty to visit Scotland, to bear ■witness, as he says, "to the Name of the Lord to that high professing nation." From this commencement of his public la- bours, he was engaged, with but little inter- mission, in the great work to which he had been called ; and he was soon not be- hind the chief labourers of that active day, in endeavouring to spread the know- ledge of Christ, and of that redemption from the power of sin in this life, which is alone to be attained by an experimental acquaintance with his Spirit. He was eminently useful in strengthening and confirming the infant Society. He ap- pears to have visited the meetings of Friends in every part of the nation ; and the interest INTRODUCTION. Xlll which he took in the welfare of each particu- lar part — the discernment and judgment with which he was favoured — and the spirit of meekness and Christian charity which accom- panied his zeal, led him to be very highly esteemed, and looked upon as a Father in the Church. His Epistles, some of which are ad- dressed to particular places or districts, and others to Friends in general, a very small part indeed of which have been printed, strikingly exhibit him in this pastoral character ; and there was perhaps, with the exception of George Fox, no individual who had upon him a greater share of the weight and charge of the the New Society than Stephen Crisp.* The cause in which he had embarked, and the course of his labours, exposed him to considerable sufferings. Joseph Pes&e mentions him, amongst many others, as being imprisoned in Essex, between the years 1656 and 1659. In the course of his journey into Scotland, whilst engaged in prayer in the meeting at York, he was violently pull- ed down, and haled out into the street by the Mayor of the city. See the Letters, page 6 to 2t. b AIV INTRODUCTION. It appears from his Description of the Church of Scotland, "that he received many gross insults during the course of his public ministrations in that country ; and he particu- larly mentions the behaviour of the people of Dalkeith, where, he says, " had not the soldiers appeared as a stop to their murderous pur- poses against him, their works of mischief had more appeared." In this year 1659 persecution against the So- ciety ran very high, and the treatment of those who were imprisoned was so cruel, that many died in consequence of it. A remarkable in- stance of Christian feeling was afforded on this occasion, by the brethren who were at large. A paper was addressed to the Parliament, signed by 1 (30 Friends, of whom Stephen Crisp was one, imploring that they might be allowed to take lac places of their friends, in the filthy holes and dungeons where they were perishing ! In the following year, on a visit to Friends in {he North of England, he was imprisoned in the County of Durham, in consequence of being at a meeting at Norton, and, on the well known ground of a scruple against oaths, re- fusing to iake the oath of allegiance and supre- macy ; and in the same year he appears, with INTRODUCTION. XV many others, to have been very inhumanly treated at Cambridge, by a mob of students and others, who attacked them whilst meeting in their own "hired house for the purpose of wor- ship. On this occasion an address was pre- sented to King Charles II. signed by 29 of the chief sufferers, among whom is to be ob- served the name of Stephen Crisp.* * The foUow«ng extract fnoffi this document may serve to show the spirit of the times : and may also serve to stimulate our gratitude for the privileges which the Society has now long enjoyed, under the government and legislature of this country, and for the altered tone of feeling towards the Society, which prevades the public mind. *' On the second day of the 5th month, as we were gathering together to a general Meeting, at the usual place there being our own hired house, a tumult of scholars, lewd women, townsmen, and boys, gathered also about the meeting-place; not content with the former injuries, insolencies, and indignities, acted and expressed toward the Lamb's followers, about a month before, neither ashamed nor afraid to do the same things again, though the Heads and Governors both of Town and University were made acquainted with the former riot, but rather encouraged, in that their t'e- served punishment was delayed. Some of them, prepared with excess of drink, that they might forget all humanity, and shew no mercy, suffered none to pass them without some abuse or other ; stopping and thrusting us to and fro, throwing some down, or throwing dirt or filth upon their elothes, or in their faces ; and also beating some hack again, and not suffering them to go into the Meeting, mingling much scoffing, reviling, and threatening, with the rest of their mis-usages ; and not ceasing there, b 2 x *l INTRODUCTION. In the year 1661, Stephen Crisp was taken from a meeting which he was attending in a private house at Harwich, and committed to prison, the Justice writing his mittimus before lie had taken his examination. In the follow- ing year the Major of Colchester broke up a meeting at which Stephen Crisp was present, and committed him to prison. In 1663 lie was again imprisoned at Colchester, during which he wrote two letters to the Mayor fell upon us in our peaceable meeting, as we were waiting upon the Lord in fear, striking at those they could reach, flinging at others, and making an hideous noise, with scoffing, laughing, railing, shouting, knocking, drumming upon the boards, and sometimes throwing wildfire and gunpowder into the meeting, to drown the sound of that which was spoken to us in the name of the Lord; and continually exercising them- selves in one act of mischief or other, to make a disturbance, and weary us out of the place. And when they saw they could not do it by all those means, they brake and battered down the doors and walls next the street, with bolt hammers and other engines ; and though we reminded them of the King's declaration, wherein he promised liberty to tender con- sciences, at his first coming into England, and shewed them the unlawfulness of their doings, assaulting, breaking in upon us, and beating us in our own hired house, they called us rebels, and pretended the King's order for what they did ; and ran violently upon us, and used us as if our lives were all at their mercies, haling, thrusting us out, and striking both men and women, (though not lifting up a hand against them,) INTRODUCTION". XYil of that town, from which extracts will be found in this volume ; and as it appears that, at the time of the letter which is placed first in the collection of his works, he had been forty-eight weeks in confinement, and the latter is evidently addressed to a new Mayor, there is little doubt that this imprisonment was for more than a year. In the year 1868 he was imprisoned at Ipswich; the occasion or duration I cannot ascertain. One of his most ■without any pity or respect to age or other condition, with clubs, great splinters, and pieces of the doors, and other tim- ber. And though tbey that entered the house beat us with so much cruelty, yet would not their Outguard let us pass, till they also had satisfied their bloody minds in beating us again, so that very many of us were sorely hurt and bruised. Twenty-two had their bloodshed: and one so lamed that he was left behind, unable to walk abroad ; and a woman almost killed by their cruel usage. And besides this, some of us lost our hats, and many of us had our clothes rent, and much be* spattered and bedaubed ; and yet our persecutors were not sa- tisfied with all this. When they had driven us from the house, and cleared the streets of us, they returned and quite battered down the rest of the walls and bays on each side of the meet- ing-house, next two entries, and laid it all open to the streets ; then sought and hunted up and down the meeting- house again for us; and them they lighted on did very much abuse ; and assaulted an Alderman's house where some of us lodged, and beat the man of the house at his own door, and departed not so long as it was light." Bes&e vol. i. p. 86. b3 XVlll INTRODUCTION. valuable Tracts the "Plain Pathway Opened/' is dated from the County Gaol at that place. In 1670 he was taken at a meeting at Horsley-down,* in London, and fined 201. which was most probably obtained by dis- traint, as it does not appear that he went to prison on the occasion. In the early periods of the Society, there was a considerable number of persons who had embraced its principles, in the United Pro- vinces,and in some parts of Germany. William Ames, William Caton and John Higgins had been chiefly instrumental in planting the So- ciety there ; but the watering of it devolved for many years upon Stephen Crisp. And he was eminently instrumental in confirming and increasing the Society in those parts, during the severe persecutions which attended its professors in almost every place.§ * The Meeting-house at this place was shortly after pulled down by order of the King [Charles II.] in Council! ! ^ Meetings appear to have been established at Dantzick, Embden, Hamburgh, Cresheim near Worms,- Amsterdam, Rotterdam, Gonda, Hoorne, Leyden, Alckmaer, &c. INTRODUCTION. XlX He visited the Low Countries, first in the year 1663 ; a second time in 1697, when, in company with Josiah Coale r he says, they spent about three months in visiting the Churches. It is probable that, during this journey, he was at most if not all the places on the Continent where Friends were settled. During each of the years from 1669 to 1674 inclusive, he spent a considerable time in visit- ing various parts of the United Provinces, and some places in Germany, where a consi- derable number of persons were suffering per- secution for their adherence to the principles of Friends. In his visit in 1669, he was able to speak freely in public, in the Low Dutch language. He was engaged in the establish- ment of Meetings for Discipline ; and he ob- serves, that he found at that time the care of the Churches in those parts particularly laid upon him. From the period of his first visit in 1663, to the last in 1685, he visited the United Provinces thirteen or fourteen times. And in the interval of those visits he kept up, by writing, a frequent correspondence with the Friends in those parts, much to their satisfaction and edification; as appears by letters from William Caton and others, XX INTRODUCTION. addressed to Stephen Crisp, the origi- nals of some of which are yet pre- served. It is worthy of observation, that, though he repeatedly visited the places where persecu- tion was the hottest ; had intercourse with those who were in prison ; and expostulated boldly,* in persou and by letters, with Ma- gistrates and other persons in authority ; he does not appear to have received any personal injury, or to have been imprisoned, in the course of his foreign labours. In several in- stances, he was successful in obtaining a re- laxation of those edicts under which his friends suffered so severely ; and he appears, in most, if not in all instances, to have commanded the respectful attention of those whom he addressed. His ' Address to the Magistrates of Gronin- ghen," his " Lamentation over that City," and his " Address to the Inhabitants of Holland," from which considerable extracts will appear * See his own Journal, pages 64. 68. 72. 73. 83, &c. and Nos. 17. 18. 26. of his Works. INTRODUCTION. XXI in this volume, prove how well qualified he was to defend the principles of religious liberty, and how just were his views in regard to the true interests of nations. On several trying occasions in the early pe- riod of the Society in England, he took an important part, and particularly on the occa- sion of an opposition which arose about the year 1C80, to the establishment of the Discipline, or of any forms or order in the Society.* Several of the printed Epistles, from which extracts are made in this volume, refer to this occasion; and that entitled, " An Epistle of Tender Love and Brotherly Advice to all the Churches of Christ," contains an in- teresting account of the establishment of the Discipline ; and very ably exposes that dispo- sition which, under the pretence of higher spirituality, disdains all regulations, and con- tends for that independence in society, which Robert Barclay has justly said is a contradic- tion in terms. * It was in reference to this occurrence, that William Penn wrote his" Liberty Spiritual," and Robert Barclay his mas- terly book, " The Anarchy of the Ranters." XXU INTRODUCTION. Stephen Crisp was far from confining his la- bours in this cause to his printed Epistles. He visited many of the places where opposition prevailed, and laboured with affectionate earnestness, in public and private, to restore those who had wandered, and to stop the pro- gress of the evil; and some remakable in- stances of reclaiming those who had been led astray, were the fruits of his labours, and of those of his fellow helpers. Although he mentions in his journal, that in the Autumn of the year 1676, he finds him- self less able to travel than he had been before ; yet it appears to have led to very little inter- mission of his religious labours; for he says he passed that winter in visiting the churches in Essex and Suffolk, and being sometimes in London. The manner in which he mentions the death of his wife, in 1683, is very instructive. Great as was the trial, he dwells less upon the privation he was then called to bear, than on the mercy of God, which had allowed her to continue so long with him, 35 years, and to be so great a comfort to him in all his afflictions. It is evident by a passage in his Journal, page 56. INTRODUCTION. XX1I1 that they had children ; but whether any of them were living at this time, I cannot as- certain. His second marriage, which took place in the year 1685, appears to have been the source of much comfort to him during the two years which his second wife was permitted to live with him; and her death in 1687, when his bodily infirmities were increasing, afforded a fresh proof of that patient resignation to the Divine will, of which he was so remark- able an example. Neither afflictions nor the decay of strength, could separate him from that love of God in Christ Jesus which had prompted his arduous labours. His" zeal was unabated, but his services were, from this pe- riod, chiefly devoted to the city of London, and his own neighbourhood. John Field, who wrote a Preface to the -Works of Stephen Crisp, says, that "Although in the latter part of his time he was unable to travel much, yet was he very diligent in frequenting Meetings, and preaching the Gospel therein ; and to exhort friends to brotherly love, pro- voking to good works, and pressing them to diligence, and an exemplary conversation; and XXIV INTRODUCTION. to train up their youth and children in that "way of plainness and simplicity, that became the humble disciples of our Lord Jesus Christ." It appears that he was in London, in the latter part of 1688, during the time of the great revolution of Government. Sewel mentions that, in this year, when King James was anxious to bring the Roman Catholics into power, and with that view encouraged the appointment of Dissenters to the office of magistrate, an offer of this appointment was made to Stephen Crisp, which he refused. From this proposal we may perhaps infer, that be was in easy circum- stances, and generally esteemed. The instructive Journal of Stephen Crisp closes with the year 1G89, in which he again visited London, and exerted himself with others to obtain the suspension of the penal laws, by which the Society had suffered such severe persecution. In the years 1690 and 1691, he spent consi- derable time in London ; and it is evident from some of his Sermons preached in these years, and which were taken down and afterwards published, that his mental powers were in no INTRODUCTION. XXV degree enfeebled. In 1692 he again visited London, to return no more. John Field gives the following account of his peaceful and tri- umphant close : " On the 24th of the 6th month, 1692, being under much bodily weakness and pain, he was visited b j his ancient friend and brother Geo. Whitehead ; who gave this account of the same, as the substance of some words spoke by Stephen Crisp, viz. ' I see an end of mortality, yet can- not come at it. I desire the Lord to deliver me out of this troublesome or painful body. If He will but say the word, it is done ; yet there is no cloud in my way. I have a full assurance of my peace with God in Christ Jesus ; my integrity and uprightness of heart are known to the Lord, and I have peace and justification in Jesus Christ, who made me so, (that is, upright to God.) Dear George, I can live and die with thee; and my dear love is with thee, and to all the faithful in the Church of God.' " On the 27tb, being the day before his de- parture, Stephen Crisp said, ; I hope lam ga- thering,' (as his expression was understood,) ' I hope, I hope ;' being then scarcely able to speak SXV1 INTRODUCTION. out his words. G. W. near parting from him, asked him, Dear Stephen, wouldst thou any thing to friends V After some pause, Stephen Crisp gave his answer, viz. 'Remember my dear love in Jesus Christ to all friends.' departed this life, and died in the Lord, at .Wandsworth, in Surry, about six miles from London, to which place he was carried for the sake of the air, from the house of William Crouch, in London, in a litter, to W. C's house there. And being very weak, was accom- panied by several friends on foot with the litter, lest there should be any want of assistance. { " And after his decease, his body was brought to Grace-church Street Meeting- house, in London, where, on the one and thir- tieth, a great number of Friends and others met to accompany his corpse to the ground ; and many living testimonies were borne there, by faithful brethren, unto the Truth. And then his body was borne on the shoulders of his friends and brethren that loved him for Truth's sake, unto the burying ground at Bunhill fields, and there interred. And seve- INTRODUCTION. XXV11 ral testimonies were also borne there at the grave to the Truth, for the sake of those that yet remain ; and that all might love and live in that which makes lovely and living unto G&bd and in his sight ; and persevere in dili- gence and faithfulness in the Lord's work and service, and keep to that power, and under the government of that Spirit, which only is sufficient to enable us to follow the steps of them that followed Christ ; and that we might run our race with cheerfulness, finish our course with joy, lay down our heads in peace, rest with the Lord for ever, and have a place in that kingdom which will never fade away." The reader of the Journal of S. Crisp, and of the selection of his Works here presented to the public, will not require much aid in form- ing a correct view of his character; but the following extracts from the Testimony of the Friends of Colchester, given after his decease, contains some particulars relative to him which are not to be obtained from the other sources already mentioned ; and being drawn by those who knew him intimately, can hardly fail to be agreeable to the reader who c 2 XXVUl INTRODUCTION. lias become interested in the subject of these Memoirs. "He bad," says this Testimony, "a large understanding given to him, not only in spi- ritual, but also in temporal things, by which he was very serviceable to many widows and fatherless, and others, as divers can testify, be- ing very ready and free to assist them ; and as he had freely received, did freely give ; and was therein not only serviceable to Friends, but also to others of his neighbours. " He was zealously and conscientiously af- fected for the peace and prosperity of Friends in every place ; and for that cause diligently laboured amongst them. And when he was not able to travel much by reason of his dis- tempers, as in former days, he continued chiefly in this town of Colchester, and in the city of London, in the Lord's work and service, as long as strength and ability of body lasted. "He was of a constant, firm, bold mind and spirit, against all those that secretly or openly sought occasion to make rents and divisions among us in the churches of Christ; INTRODUCTION* XXlX and laboured diligently to preserve the simple- hearted from being betrayed by their snares and cunning insinuations ; exhorting them, as did the Apostle, to mark those that cause divisions, and to avoid them, and to keep in the unity of the Spirit, and in the sense of the Grace received ; that all might grow up in it, into a further discerning of the myste- rious workings of the enemy that goes round about, and tries every way, to see whom he might devour. " He had a gift of utterance beyond many, was sound in judgment and doctrine, and very convincing to the understandings of many that heard him; for which cause, his testi- mony was affecting to many that were not of us, who would come to hear him when he was with us. And he would often call to people to come and try the sufficiency of the grace of God ; that a measure of it was committed to them, and whether it was not able to save from sin, yea, to the utmost, all such as re- ceived and obeyed it. He divided the word aright, and turned many from darkness to light. Many mourners have been comforted by him, and many tender-hearted helped, through their inward exercises and conflicts of c 3 XXX iNrilOBUCTION. spirit, and he has been a strength to them in their spiritual warfare ; but his testimony was as a sharp two-edged sword, to the rebellious, obdurate, and hard-hearted, to the piercing through them many a time : and his very out* ward countenance hath sometimes struck to the hearts of some, as some have since con- fessed. And some that have gotten into a spirit of enmity, have been made, through the power that did accompany him, to come and acknowledge the hurt which that spirit had done them, and that the Lord was with him. "And at taking his last farewell, when be was about to leave us, he was, for several meetings before his departure, mightily opened in his spirit, in our public meetings, desiring to be clear of the blood of all, (as he several times of late said he was,) labouring to speak to the states of all, and also to Friends services to which they were called in their day : to keep Truth's testimony clear from all unrighte- ous actions, that might be committed by those that lived not in that they made profession of, and to set judgment over them; saying, if we ceased to separate between the precious and the vile, the vile would over-run us. Also he took notice of, and rejoiced in, the love and IJfTRODUCTIOy, XXXI unity that had been, and was among us, ex- horting and counselling of us to be and con- tinue in the same mind, keeping the unity of the Spirit in the bond of peace. " He was beloved of his friends, his towns- men and neighbours, and left or had not many enemies, at least more than apostates and false professors of the Truth; who forsaking and turning their backs on God, no wonder such are envious, and opposcrs of his servants, " He was very tender and helpful to divers, who have been of late called forth into a public testimony, and into the same work wherein he was himself employed by his great Lord and Master, Christ Jesus ; being very tender and ready to help forward that which he found to come from the motion of the Seed of Life in any, and would speak a word in season to such. And his last testi- mony in our Yearly Meeting on that account, is worthy of remembrance. "And in his last being among us, he would be very weighty in his visits in our private families, and much and often dropping some weighty discourse among us, for our edifica- tion, furtherance, and growth in the Truth. XXX11 INTRODUCTION. "For all which works' sake, he was much esteemed, and was worthy of double honour; and we doubt not but is clothed with a large share of that honour, glory, and immortality with our God, which is the portion of all those that faithfully serve and honour the Lord in their day, as he did." The principal Works of Stephen Crisp, with his journal and some other Manuscripts, were collected and published in the year 1694. There were prefixed to the collection, a Pre- face by John Field, Testimonies of Colchester Meeting, of the Second-day Morning Meeting in London, and of the Yearly Meeting of Am- sterdam. Several of the pieces in this collec- tion have been separately printed and exten- sively circulated, especially the "Plain Path- way Opened," and the "Advice to Friends, re- specting the present and succeeding Times:" and the whole collection has been lately re- printed in America. It is not to be supposed that all that is valuable in the writings of Stephen Crisp, is given in the selection contained in this volume. The design has not been to take all which A\as in itself valuable, but that which was likely to be interesting to readers in general of the INTRODUCTION. XXX111 Society of Friends, and thereby to attract the attention of our younger members to those substantial Truths of which we are making a profession, and which appear to be so clearly stated and ably supported, in the works of this Author. If I am not misled by a certain affection for the writers of the period in which Stephen Crisp lived, the reader of the selections which are here presented to him, will not find him a dry or uninteresting writer. He speaks on the most important topics which can engage human attention ; and to the ear which is open to hear, he will not, I believe, fail to speak in- structively and consolingly ; nor will he be found without much of that simple eloquence, which flows from a clear and lively mind, firmly persuaded of the matters which he de- clares, and affectionately earnest to impress them upon those whom he addresses. There is very little quaintness in his style ; and, though not laboured, it has much of the ner- vous force which marked the best productions of that day. His writings bespeak talents, and a turn of mind which might have rendered him conspicuous in the ranks of polemical learn- ing, and might have led him to honourable dis^ .tinction in the world \ but like many others xxxiv introduction; his contemporaries, not less favoured than himself with natural understanding, he chose the way which was every where spoken against; and despised the shame connected with the new profession. It is observable that Stephen Crisp rarely touches upon points of mere speculative theo- logy. His great aim appears to have been to bring those whom he addressed, to the con- sideration of their own actual state, and to point out to them the Spirit of Christ as the enlight- ener of the conscience ; by their co-operation with which, they would be enabled to subdue the corrupt inclinations of the natural mind — be redeemed from actual sin in this life — and derive a well grounded hope of being made par- takers of that precious atonement, purchased for us by the outward sacrifice of Jesus Christ. They who differ from him in sentiment and external practices, will not fail to perceive, in the whole course of his life and labours, that his religion produced, in an eminent degree, those genuine fruits, the love of God and of his neighbour, on which, our Saviour said, " hang all the law and the prophets." This feature of love, earnestly seeking the spiritual good of others, though often united with very INTRODUCTION. XXXV plain and forcible reproof, is not less conspi- cuous in his private letters ; of which many are preserved, and of which a specimen is given in the close of this Introduction, with some others addressed to himself. Whilst speaking of his Works, it may be proper to mention, that about two years after StephenCrisp's decease, a volume of Discourses, said to have been delivered by him at various times in London, was published, and had an extensive sale. The Preface stated that they had been taken down in short hand by a per- son not connected with the Society, who attended the Meetings where they were deli- vered. He invites any who are dissatisfi- ed with their genuineness, to call upon him, and state their objections ; and in a future vo- lume he repeats the invitation, and states that no one has yet expressed to him any doubt of the correctness of the Discourses. Many edi- tions of them have been printed * ; and it seems fairly presumable, that, if their genuine- ness had been doubted by the Society at the time of their appearance, there would have been then a public disavowal of them. The * A new edition of the whole of the Sermons, 32 in number, has lately been published by W. Alexander and Son, York, XXXVI INTRODUCTION. reader of the Sermons who is acquainted with Stephen Crisp's writings will not, I think fail, to observe a striking accordance between them, both in matter and style. In these observations on the genuineness of the Sermons, it is not intended to convey a sen- timent in favour of the practice of taking down the discourses of our ministers. But these having been taken down by a person not of our society, who did not consider the practice improper ; their preservation seems to afford a valuable testimony to the Truths most surely believed and taught by the Society, in the earliest times ; and it is rendered the more important from the attempts which have been made to misrepresent the views of the early friends, as to some fumdamental points of Christian doctrine. A copious extract from one Sermon, which is stated to have been preached by Stephen Crisp, in the year 16S8, is inserted in this selection. I am aware that it would not be difficult to find in the works of Stephen Crisp, and those of many of his contemporaries, passages which, if written in the present day, would be consi- dered as indicating a want of Christian charity. INTRODUCTION. XXXVH But in judging the conduct of men of other times, it is material to take into account the circumstances by which they were sur- rounded. The Society of Friends arose during a period "which w ill ever be remarkable in the religious history of England. Notwithstanding the time which Protestantism had then prevailed, much of the bigotry and intolerance of Popery remained ; and we had a licentious Court, and a superstitious People. The light of a better day was just breaking in upon the country ; and though there probably were among all classes individuals whose eyes were more fully opened, the greater number appeared, like the man in the Gospel whose sight had been partially restored, only to see "men as trees walking/' Great religious inquiry and agitation prevailed ; and men were run- ning from one form and doctrine to another, and contending for the various schemes to which they attached themselves, with that dogmatic violence which is so frequently the attendant of imperfect knowledge. Some, however, could find no rest in these speculations, and were led to see the irt- d XXXVI INTRODUCTION. reader of the Sermons who is acquainted with Stephen Crisp's writings will not, I think fail, to observe a striking accordance between them, both in matter and style. In these observations on the genuineness of the Sermons, it is not intended to convey a sen- timent in favour of the practice oftaking down the discourses of our ministers. But these having been taken down by a person not of our society, who did not consider the practice improper ; their preservation seems to afford a valuable testimony to the Truths most surely believed and taught by the Society, in the earliest times ; and it is rendered the more important from the attempts which have been made to misrepresent the views of the early friends, as to some fumdamental points of Christian doctrine. A copious extract from one Sermon, which is stated to have been preached by Stephen Crisp, in the year 1688, is inserted in this selection. I am aware that it would not be difficult to find in the works of Stephen Crisp, and those of many of his contemporaries, passages which, if written in the present day, would be consi- dered as indicating a want of Christian charity. INTRODUCTION. XXXV11 But in judging the conduct of men of other times, it is material to take into account the circumstances by which they were sur- rounded. The Society of Friends arose during a period which will ever be remarkable in the religious history of England. Notwithstanding the time which Protestantism had then prevailed, much of the bigotry and intolerance of Popery remained ; and we had a licentious Court, and a superstitious People. The light of a better day was just breaking in upon the country ; and though there probably were among all classes individuals whose eyes were more fully opened, the greater number appeared, like the man in the Gospel whose sight had been partially restored, only to see "men as trees walking." Great religious inquiry and agitation prevailed ; and men were run- ning from one form and doctrine to another, and contending for the various schemes to which they attached themselves, with that dogmatic violence which is so frequently the attendant of imperfect knowledge. Some, however, could find no rest in these speculations, and were led to sec the in- d XXXV111 INTRODUCTION. sufficiency of all outward rites and ceremo- nies — that the great doctrine of the Gospel is the regeneration of the human heart ; and that the only means and way to attain to it, is that light or grace which, comes by Jesus Christy and which sanctifies, purifies, and brings to Him, by whom alone the entrance is minis- tered into the heavenly kingdom. (See "page 337.) Amongst those who adopted these sim- ple views of the nature of Christianity, the Society of Friends were at least conspicuous ; and they were of course very obnoxious to all who were placing dependance upon external rites, or, who were supporting religious insti- tutions, as the mere instruments of secular advantages. Even persons of piety, who were attached to the ceremonials of their respective churches, viewed the Quakers as a set of dan- gerous innovators, and as the enemies of reli- gion. Nor were the zeal and plainness with which they thought it right to expose what i they esteemed the corruptions of the Christian church, calculated to allay that asperity of feeling which was every where excited against them. It was the un&appiness of that day, that good men did not know one another. It was not, INTRODUCTION. XXXIX like the present, a time of ease and concord ; it was a daj of struggle and conflict. So im- perfectly was the right of religious liberty then understood, that whilst each party contended for its own right of judging, each also, when it obtained power, denied the right to others.* A considerable degree of enthusiasm was engendered ; the strongest passions of men were called into action ; and the strength of those who were engaged seemed proportioned to the occasion. The early Friends were certainly not ex- empt from the influence of surrounding objects and circumstances. Their view of the standard of Christian requirements was far beyond that of the day in which they lived; and, fully persuaded of its correctness, and of the omnipotence of Truth, they evidently ex- pected that it would very speedily expel error * Bishop Taylor's " Liberty of Prophesying," and Lockes' Letters on Toleration, both of which appeared at this period, prove how superior were those great men to the prevailing sentiments of the age ; but, influential as were their works, I cannot but attribute the rapidprogress of light upon the subject of religious liberty, in a great degree, to the persisting demand made for it, by the Society of Friends. And it is deserving of notice, that when the Society came to have considerable power, in Pennsylvania, the rights of conscience were fully recognized, and extended to all. d 2 Xl INTRODUCTION. and corruption, and establish its own gentle dominion in the earth. Man's expectations of results, are as hasty as his life is short ; and even the apostles of our Lord appear to have fallen into this error of hasty anticipation, in regard to the progress which the religion of their Divine Master should make in the world. But He to whom a thousand years are as one day, directs the course of events by laws according with His own infinite goodness. If then, whilst the views of the Society in re- gard to War, to Oaths, to the union of secular and religious matters, and to the simple nature of Christianity, thus exposed them to persecu- tion and proscription from the various parties, who were struggling in that day for political and religious ascendency ; it would be sur- prising indeed, if their history afforded no instances of indiscretion or enthusiasm.* But * A man may be said to be enthusiastic whenever bis feelings mislead his jndgment. It is observable, that there is nothing which the World more easily forgives than errors of this kind, with one exception, and that is in regard to religion. A man may be an enthusiastic soldier — an enthusiastic poet — an enthusiastic lover — and may carry his enthusiasm on all these points to- very absurd lengths, without offence to the world : but he whose love for his Maker and Redeemer INTRODUCTION. Xli they sustained their Testimonies with a noble constancy ; their religion, in an eminent degree, bore the fruits of love to God and love to men ; and he that has well studied their character, and has a mind capable of estimating moral excellence, will not judge them by the oc- casional asperities of manner, so common in the controversial writings of that age, or by some acts in their history, which we at this day may deem unjustifiable; and overlook those labours of love, those fights of affliction, those sufferings unto death for the testimony of a good conscience, and that forgiveness of the grossest injuries, which are inscribed on almost every page of their early history.* Liberality of absorbs his soul, and, who, acting upon an imperfect judg- ment, is led to any erroneous views or expectation, commits, in the Court of the World, the sin unpardonable. There is, let it be remembered, such a thing as too little, as well as too much zeal ; and it is worthy of remark, that where religious enthusiasm is so severely censured, religious indifferency does not rank in the catalogue of offences. * It may not be improper to mention herea single instance out of many, which might be adduced of Christian meekness. On one occasion, when the Meeting at Colchester was broken up by troopers with swords and great clubs, whilst a trooper was beating one of the sufferers with his sword, the blade coming out of the hilt and falling to the ground, the friend took it up and gave it to the soldier again, saying : " I will give it thee up again. I desire the Lord may not lay this day's work to thy charge." xlii INTRODUCTION-. feeling has indeed made a great progress since the period we are speaking of ; yet, much as we rejoice in the change, we cannot esteem the candour and courtesy which now prevail among the various professors of the Christian name, as affording so strong an evidence of that " Faith which worketh by love," as were the labours, the patience, and the forgiving temper, excmplied in the conduct of our early Friends. We are not indeed to forget that the Epis- copal Churches of England, Ireland and Scot- land boasted, about that time, some of the most illustrious names in the galaxy of Christian Worthies — Usher, and Beveridge, and Leigh- ton, and Taylor, and Cudworth, and Tillotson ; nor must we forget the not less excellent names of Owen and Baxter. If we add to these the names of Fox, and Barclay, and Penn, and Crisp, some would probably startle at the alli- ance ; but we trust all these Worthies have long since forgotten their earthly discrepancies, and learned to tune their harps together, to the praise of their common Redeemer — hymning, u Him first — Him last — Him midst, and without end." ERRATA. In page 252, No. 26. Instead of " From the Original Manuscript of a Bookin Dutch" read " From the Original Manuscript of a Book Translated into Dutch. LETTERS. The originals of the following letters are in the -collection of Manuscripts belonging to Colchester Meeting. My friend James Barker, of that place, to whom 1 am indebted for a diligent search among those records of the olden times, very justly observes, in a letter relative to Stephen Crisp, that "his written remains evince him to have been a man very actively engaged in promulgating the doctrines of Truth, under circumstances of great outward opposition, persecution, a^d, at times, personal danger — in keep- ing up an extensive correspondence with the early and distinguished instruments in the same gi'eat cause — that he watched over them and the general affairs of the Society with an anxious solicitude and vigilance ; and endeavoured, wherever danger ap- peared, to encourage, to caution, to warn, as the circumstances which gave occasion to his concern required; and it is equally evident that he possessed a corresponding influence, esteem, and love, in the minds of his Friends." The first letter which I shall give, is from James Parnel, to Stephen Crisp, which must have been writen in the year 1Q55. Though the phraseology is peculiar, the sentiments are im- portant and interesting Friend, In that stand, and unto it keep thy mind, which lets, thee see thy foes to be of thy own A 2 LETTERS. house : thine imagination is an enemy ; thjr wisdom is an enemy ; that which hath been tby darling is now thy greatest enemy ; there- fore now sacrifice up thy darling, and give up unto the death, that the just may be raised to life, and the righteous Seed may be brought forth to reign, and be thy head, and so will the head of the serpent be bruised. And this, in thy measure, thou comest to read, as in the light thou dwellest low, which manifests unto thee thy condition; for whatsoever makes manifest is light ; and that is the eye which must be kept open, which, in the children of the world, the god of the world blinds ; by this the children of the Light the god of the world see, and so the tempter is known, re- sisted, and denied. So with this eye set thy watch constant ; and let not the fool's eye wander abroad, which draws out the wander- ing mind after the visible objects ; but stand in the warfare, not giving place to the enemy nor his delusions ; but be content to become a fool, that all selfish thoughts may be judged ; and wisdom thou wilt receive from Him that giveth liberally, and upbraideth not, to dis- cern and know the enemy's wiles s for in the cross to thy will and hasty mind ? the gift of God is received ; therefore, it is said, he that believeth maketh not haste ; be not. therefore s LETTER'S. 3 ■weary of the yoke ; for in faith it is made easy, and the impatient nature crucified, and patience hath its perfect work. Therefore be still in the measure of light which exerciseth thy mind unto God, and will nothing ; but let thoughts be judged, and the power of God work, that He may be seen to be all. And by this alone principle thou mayest be led and acted forth in the cross unto the carnal, and the denial of self, in par- ticular and in general ; and weigh not what is displeased, when God is pleased, for then thou givest no just occasion, but the enmity is in the world. But that which leads to walk towards God in faithfulness, that also leads thee to walk towards man with a conscience void of offence.; so to that keep thy mind, and be not hasty to know any thing beyond thy measure; for there Eve lost her paradise : but lie down in the will of God, and wait upon his teaching, that He may be thy Head ; and so thou wilt find the way of peace, and dwell in unity with the faithful, though of the world thou be hated: for in God is peace and well-being. James Parnel. a 2 4 LETTERS. From S. Crisp to J. R, Fni end John R I am sorry I have the present occasion of writing to thee, and would have foreborne, if a necessity had not been upon me for the Truth's sake, and for thine ; for I have a deep sense of thy danger, and that thou art in the way to dishonour thy testimony ; for I am in- formed by several who love thee well, that they believe thou art run into about three hundred pounds debt, to set thyself up as a public shop-keeper. Whether they Lave dealt will thee about it or no, I know not % but alas, John ! what is (he rise and spring of this, and what will the issue be? Sink down into that which gives a discerning, and thou wilt find a secret mistrust, mixed with an earthly lust, and a crafty carrying it on, under, a shew of Truth : that thereby some other things propounded, might the better proceed, or be carried on, to (he making t elf somebody; and this ground is cursed for ever, and so will the fruit be. O! consider, is this tilting thyself fir thy testimony, and the keeping thyself from entanglements in thy warfare I Or is it not rather a making use of the Name of the Lord, and of Truth, to plunder others by fair means (or words), to get a visible estate into thy hand ; and then thou may be plundered of it by foul means. It is an easy matter to preach and incur fines, when thou knows others' goods must bear the loss ; thou art on the surest side, and then if it be taken away, at last a whining complaint of suffering for Truth's sake, must serve instead of paying thy debts, as it hath done too many already. Dear John, I wish thou would yet take my counsel, and send every friend their goods home, with the money for what thou hast sold of theirs, and take thee to thy employment where God blessed thee, and in which thou grew up ; and stand ready at the Lord's call, that if he please to make any public use of thee in his church, thou may be free from worldly entanglements; and if not, be content with thy daily bread, both inwardly and out- wardly ; and seek to adorn the Gospel thou hast preached, by a holy, simple, and righte- ous conversation ; without which, preaching,, believing, and profession, and all the highest terras men can imagine, are all in vain, ami mil end with an evil savour. a 3. LETTERS. I have written these things, in love to thee and the precious Truth, in which my life stands, although it is often bowed down, to see so many abuse the profession of the holy Truth; serving themselves thereupon, and not caring to keep up the reputation of it ; but venturing the glory of God, the reputation of his people, yea, and their own souls also, for the reaching af(er their earthly and corruptible ends and purposes, -which they have pro- pounded to themselves. I might enlarge, to shew the many evil consequences attending this practice, but hope by what I have written thou wilt consider the rest, and still account me thy friend in the Truth, S. CRISP. TkelZth of (he Qffi Month, 1678. From Stephen Crisp to William Perm*. Dearly beloved in the Lord I My soul salutes thee, in the fellowship of that life that reigns over death and darkness, in which is the kingdom we seek ; and nothing enters this kingdom, but what is born of this LETTERS, life immortal ; and that we may be kept in it to the end of oar days, is the humble prayer of thy true. and real friend and brother, in this heavenly relation, in which thou may feel my iegrity in a few words. in Dear William, I have had a great exercise of spirit concerning thee, which none knows but the Lord ; fur my spirit hath been much bowed into thy concern, and difficulty of thy present circumstance ; and I have had a sense of the various spirits, and intricate cares, and multiplicity of affairs, and they of various kinds, which daily attend thee, enough to drink up thy spirit, and tire thy soul ; and which, if it is not kept to the inexhaustible Fountain, may be dried up. And this I must tell thee, which thou alio knows, that the highest capacity of natural wit and parts, will not, and Cannot, perform what thou hast to do, viz. to propagate and advance the interest and profit of the government and plantation; and at the same time to give the interest of Truth, and testimony of the holy name of God, its due preference in all things : for to make the wilderness sing forth the praise of God, is a skill beyond the wisdom of this •world. It is greatly in man's power to make- 8 LETTERS. a wilderness into fruitful fields, according to tbe common course of God's providence, who gives wisdom and strength to be industrious ; but then, how he who is the Creator, may have his due honour and service thereby, is only taught by his Spirit, in them who singly wait upon Him. There is a wisdom in government that hath respect to its own preservation, by setting up what is profitable to it, and suppressing what may be a detriment; and this is the image of the true wisdom ; but the substance is the birth, which is heavenly, which reigns in the Father's kingdom till all is subdued, and then gives it up to Him whose it is. There is a power on earth, that is of God, by which princes declare justice, this is the image; and there is a power which is heavenly, in which the Prince of Peace, the Lord of Lords, doth reign in an everlasting kingdom, and this is the substance. By this power is the spiritual wickedness in high places brought down ; be that is a true delegate in this power, can do great things for God's glory, and shall have his reward, and shall be a judge of the tribes; and whosoever else pretend to judgment wiil seek themselves ; beware of them ; the tim^s, Iettehs. 9 ere perilous. All men pretending to be be- lievers, have not faith in the Lord Jesus ; thou hast a good comprehension of things, wait also to receive a sound judgment of men. I hope thou mil bear this my style of "writing to thee,- my spirit is under great weight at the writing hereof, and much 1 have in my heart, because I love thee much. I cannot w«ite much at present, but to lettuce know I very kindly received thy letter, and was glad to hear from thee, and always shall; and my prayer io God is for thee, and you all, that you may be kept in the Lord's pure and holy way ; and above all for thee, dear W, P. whose feet are upon a mountain, by which the eves of many arc upon thee : the Lord furnish thee with wisdom, courage, and a sound judgment ; prefer the Lord's interest; and He will make thy way prosperous. For my part, I have not been at London since the last Yearly Meeting, till now. I was last year at the Yearly Meeting at Am- sterdam, and there taken with a fit of the Stone; it lasted three weeks; and in the winter follow- ing, it pleased the Lord to call from me my dear wife. As to my body, I grow very crazy 10 LETTERS. and weakly ; can neither ride, nor very well go on foot. A mile is a great journey for me ; but am in good courage and confidence con- cerning the main business 1 am continued for, namely, for the service of my God and his dear people. Our country, at and about Colchester, is very quiet; while other meet- ings are laid by for fear, ours is continued by faithfulness, and is exceeding large, and pretty many lately convinced, to my great comfort. Our dear friend Gertruyd continues at my house yet, and is a careful nurse to me. I know her dear love is to thee ; and many times have I heard breathing desires go forth. of her to the Lord on thy behalf, from a weighty sense of the concern that is upon thee. She is at Colchester, but intends to come up to the Yearly Meeting. Well, dear William, I might write long ere all were written that lives in my heart towards thee; buiyin summa,I\ovethee well, and salute thee dearly in that which is unchangeable, in which I remain Thy true friend, S. CRISP. London, 4th of the 3rd Month. 1684. LETTERS. II From William Penn to Stephen Crisp. Dear S. Crisp, My dear and lasting love in the Lord's everlasting Truth reaches to thee ; with whom is my fellowship in the Gospel of peace, that is more dear and precious to my soul, than all the treasures and pleasures of this world. For when a few years are come, we shall all go the way whence we shall never return. And that we may unweariedly serve the Lord in our day and place, and, in the end, enjoy a portion with the blessed that are at rest, is the breathing of my soul. Stephen, we know one another, and I need not say much to thee ; but this I will say, thy parting dwells with me, or rather thy love at my parting. How innocent, how tender, how like the little child that hath no guile ! The Lord will bless that ground. I have also a letter from thee, which comforted me ; for many are my trials, yet not more than my supplies, from my Heavenly Father, whose glory I seek, and the renown of his blessed Name. And truly, Stephen, there is work enough, and here is room to work in : surely God will come in for a share in this planting 12 LETTERS. work, and that leaven shall leaven the lump in time. I do not believe the Lord's providence had run this way towards me, but that He has a heavenly end and service in it: so with him I leave all, and myself, and thee, and his dear people, and blessed Name in the earth. God Almighty, immortal and eternal, be with us ; that in the body, and out of the body, we may be his for ever ! I am, in the ancient dear fellowship, thy faithful friend and brother, WILLIAM PENN. My love dearly to friends, especially ia folland, Co in the Lord. From Stephen Q isp, to a Friend unknown. Dearly Beloved, In the Lord, my soul salutes thee, as one who is brought into my remembrance, by that spirit that doth often bow me to thy burdens, which, I know, are not a few r . LETTERS. 13 Dear heart, it is nothing but the day that expels the night, and the day star brings the hope thereof : therefore, my dear friend, for as much as it hath pleased God to cause this star to appear, and that thou knowest thine eye hath seen it; be not discouraged because of clouds, but know that the day is at hand. And as concerning all Satan's buffetings, know and consider, that though they are never so many and strong ; yet they are but like the waves of the sea, and they are limited. Feel thou an habitation in that which limits them, and rest in patience ; and possess thy soul in that, and it will be well in the end : if there were no trials there would not be so much need of patience. Dear heart, feel my love, which is beyond words. So, with my dear love to thy husband, M. and Anna, &c. I rest thy true friend, S. CRISP. From, Stephen Crisp to J. 1. Dear Friend J. T. It hath been some time in my heart to visit thee with a few lines, to express that true love B 14 LETTERS. that I have had to thee ever since I knew thee ; which love hath been the cause of my dealing so truly and plainly with thee from- time to time ; for 1 have always had an eye and desire to thy preservation in that Truth of which thou wert convinced. And I have always taken notice, that thy progress in the Truth hath beei made harder and more diffi- cult to thee, than it is to many, by reason of thy natural temper, which is forward and unstable, and hath been mixed with a zeal to get forward and to attain to high things; whereby the enemy, sometimes, hath taken his advantage upon thee to thy hurt. And then the tender love of God hath again visited thee, and shewed thee thy hurt; and thou hast been sensible that the Lord's hand hath been over thee for good ; and this hath broken and melted for a season : but the enemy, who is always on his watch, hath sought, even out of that tenderness, to lift up thy mind into the conceit of some great attainments again; and the;, the former tenderness hath been, as it were, shut up and closed ; so that neither tlie true working of that power, nor the love and tender counsel of thy friends and brethren, could be discerned for a time ; which hath been a grief and exercise to us, the Lord BETTERS. 15 knoweth. Yet, notwithstanding, the love we have borne to thee hath not ceased ; but for my part, I can truly say, that, from time to time, I have had an inward travail upon my spirit how to do thee good, and I thank God my labour of love hath not been in vain to thee ward. Dear Jacob, I was exceedingly refreshed In the account I received from dear G. D. that thou wert open-hearted to friends, and that a tender love was in thy heart, working thee into more unity than formerly. Well ? dear friend, nothing saves us but love, for God is Love ; and nothing redeems us but righteous judgment administered in that love: and where this love is retained in the heart, and this pure judgment dwelt in, such must needs have fellowship one with another; for there all are kept meek and humble, and they have nothing nor an > body to exalt, but only by the Name in which they find the salvation. Now, dear Jacob, let me tell thee, I do not believe that'all thy temptations are over- passed, or that thy enemy hath given over his seeking to winnow thee ; and therefore^ m2 16 LETTERS. there is a great necessity for thee to keep upon thy watch ; and when thou feels most of the inflowings of joy, then to be most low, and careful to keep thy heart open to the Lord and to his people ; and so shalt thou retain that which is given thee: whereas, if thou give way to that which leads into exaltation and much talking, thou may talk it away, and then be dry and empty in thyself. The nature of the true Seed is, first to take a deep root downward, and then to bring forth its fruit upward. Therefore, let thy soul affect the inward, invisible rooting and growth of Truth, more than the outward appearance ; for where there is an inward growth to God ward, it is seen and discerned by the spiritual eye that God hath opened in his children ; by which we do appear lovely, amiable, and comfortable to each other ; and in this it is that the lasting fellowship stands. For if I speak with the tongue of men and angels, and want this, the life of the Seed will be bur- thened and oppressed in them in whom it is risen ; though others, whose life stands in the affection, may be greatly joyed and lifted up thereby: but this will never bring to God> nor add any to the body of Christ, nor edify his Church. Therefore I have always found LETT EH S. IT it safe, to keep something in the storehouse for ray own food; and to break only that bread to others that was given me for that purpose. And the same that I have learned by experience declare I unto thee, because I love thee; and I hope thou wilt be sensible of my love, and receive these lines as a token of it ; and remember my dear love to thy w fe and daughter. Tell her, I am giad to hear good news of her, and, if thou writes to me, let me hear how it goes with he She - now come to years of understanding, and knows the leadings of the Light in her own conscience, what she may do and speak, and what not; and as she is obedient thereunto, she will find peace in her own bosom, be a comfort to you, and will appear lovely to all her friends. So no more, but my true and unfeigned love to you all. I rest thy friend in truth, STEPHEN CRISP. From William Caton, to Stephen Crisp. Amsterdam, 9th of lit h Mo. 1662, Dear Brother, With the salutation of dear and tender iove -do I dearly salute thee, having a sense upoa 18 LETTERS. my spirit, of the joy and delight, which thy soul hath in the work of our Heavenly Father, in which we have been exercised for some years ; and for as much as the Lord hath made it prosperous and successful in our hands, therefore can we rejoice in the fruit of our labour, even as I perceive thy soul doth. Thine dated the 20th of 10th month, I have received ; and thou may be assured it was glad tidings to me, to hear of the prosperity of my Father's work, in our native country, in such a season as this, wherein the faith and patience of many of the Lord's chosen ones is tried, through their great tribulation; which, I hope, in the Lord's due time, will be brought to a period. In the mean time, my soul re- joices in their faithfulness and stability ; and it is a matter of joy to me to perceive they are, in theijr trials, like unto mount Zion, which cannot be moved. O ! what cause have we to praise and mag- nify the Lord, who, through his eternal power, bath brought such wonderful things to pass 5 which we have been eye witnesses of ! there- fore let us declare them freely to the sons of mes, that thereby we may shew forth the LETTERS. W praise of the God of our salvation, who is making up his jewels in this his day : yea, the fan is in his hand ; and He will, without doubt, thoroughly purge bis floor ; — the chaff, that will He consume, and the wheat shall be gathered into his garner ; and we, together with the rest of his reapers, whom He hath sent forth, shall see the travail of our souls, and be perfectly satisfied in the will and work of the Most High ; who is Lord of Lords, and King of Kings, God over all, blessed forever- more ! Friends were glad to perceive the continu- ance of thy determination about thy coming over; and I hope will be more glad when they see thee. It is likely the number of Friends here, may be less than thou mayest expect ; nevertheless I hope there will be re- freshment to be found for thee when thou comest, in some who long to see the time of thy coming ; yet I think it will not be good coming till the ice be more dissolved ; which I hope will be shortly, if this thaw continues. It was refreshment to me to hear of thy refresh- ment with the dear brethren whom thou met accidentally at the Meeting thou wrote of ; and it was glad tidings to me, to hear of the SO LETTERS. effectual door opened in the places where thou hast been ; which I know was also matter of refreshment to thy soul. Things here with us are pretty well and still at present, as in reference to the Truth ; and our little small meetings continue pretty peaceable for the most part ; and the good- ness and loving-kindness of the Most High is very large unto us ; for which we have cause to praise the Name of the Lord, so long as we have a being. Remember my dear love to thy wife, and to our dear and faithful friends in and about Colchester and elsewhere. The dear love of my dear wife, though thou art outwardly un- known to her, is to thee; and so is the love of our dear sister Gertrie and her husband. This is the substance of what I think at present to communicate to thee, hoping to see thee here shortly, if the Lord permit. Farewell. Thy dear brother in that which many waters cannot quench, WILLIAM CATON. LETTERS. 21 Extracts from a Letter fiom William Caton to Stephen Crisp. Amsterdam, the 1st of 5th Mo. 1664. « S. C. And my dear Brother. "In the bowels of endeared love, do I dearly salute thee and thy fellow prisoners; as also the rest of Friends, of whose faith and pati- ence, fidelity and constancy, health and wel- fare in the Lord, I am right glad to hear ; the more at this day, because Satan, in and with his instruments, is exceeding busy to move the righteous from their stability? and to be- tray the simple from their simplicity, and to terrify the upright in heart with his raging cruelty. But of a truth the Lord is good to Israel, and rich in mercy unto all his chosen." " Thy large and acceptable letter, dear Stephen, I have finally received, after much expectation ; but am now well satisfied with the reason thou hast given, wherefore it came no sooner., I perceive Friends' exercise there, through the severity of the unreason- able and ungodly, is not yet at an end. Well, if it yet be longer perpetuated for the further purifying and trying of the Lord's chosen, I 22 LETTERS. Lope it will tend to the glory of God, and to the furthering of their salvation." " Thy letter came so well furnished with remarkable passages, I thought it therefore expedient to translate the substance thereof; accordingly I did, with passages out of the other letters, to the end that Friends in other parts might understand the same so much bet- ter, as now I know they will ; it being commu- nicated to them in their own language." <; I was glad to hear that you had now and then some liberty, notwithstanding the Mayor's severity." " This day there hath been a man at our house, who is one of the brethren in Hungary, of whom I suppose thou hast heard, who hath escaped with his lite, and is freed out of those parts ; who gives a very sad relation of the de- plorable state of that country, and the parts where the wars are. The greatest part of the brethren are ruined, several of them kill- ed, others taken and carrried away captives by the Tartarians, with their wives and little ones. It seems the Tartarians, who assist the Turks, that broke in upon them in that part LETTERS. 23 of the country, were exceeding barbarous, yea> "worse than the Turks themselves ; and there, fore was the misery which came upon the country, and the inhabitants thereof, the greater. As for the Turks, they seem to pre- vail much, and to have brought the Christians' army (so called) into great straits already ; and as to outward appearance are like to overcome much of that dark country, where the Emperor hath kept his seat; so that it is thought that both lie and his nobles will be forced to flee, as well as the poor and ignoble. The sense of the Turks thus prevailing, brings dread and fear upon many, who know not a refuge in the Lord ; but as to us who have felt and known the arm of the Almighty, we can acquiesce and rest satisfied in the will of our God, in whose hand we are. And as to us, who are given up to suffer according to the will of God, it is little whether we suffer by the Turks or the Tartar Christians, that are in the Turkish nature, by whom we sutler daily; but blessed be the Lord, in that He doth not forsake us, nor leave us comfortless in our suffering ; and therefore is it so much the more easy to us." The following Extracts from a Letter ■written by Robert Barrow, may serve to show the place which Stephen Crisp held in the estimation of tiis Society, in his declining- years. It was addressed to him and George Whitehead. King's Well, near Aberdeen, \5th o/Utli Mo. 1691. " My dear Brethren, being formerly, in my travels and proceedings upon Truth's con- cerns, used to write to dear G. F. who hath finished his day in peace and heavenly re- nown : and believing that the same God of end- less mercy hath made you rich partakers of the same universal grace, that he had, with an universal eve over all the Church ;" "so this is to let you know that. I have been throughout the most part of this nation, to visit Friends and Meetings tisercin ; and, blessed be the Lord ! I find things generally well, in unity and good order, which makes Friends travail both easy and comfortable. And about Aber- deen and somewhat Northward of it, there is a fine openness, many of late convinced, and hopeful to continue. And though I am but a weak instrument, and have no fellow traveller, nor outward companions, yet, blessed be the Lord ! I have had a very comfortable journey; and though it is the winter season, that I have sometimes travelled before day, and after, yet the Lord hath given me health in ail weather." " So, my dear Friends, let your prayers be to God for me, lhati may abide in God's fear, and stand in his counsel." THE LIFE OF STEPHEN CRISP, ^ITI^e AN ACCOUNT OP HIS CoNVINCEMENT, TRAVELS, LA- BOURS, and Sufferings, in and for the Truth. Written by Himself. O ! all ye saints, and all ye inhabitants of the earth, let the name of Jehovah be famous among you, for there is no God like unto Him; and let his mercies and judgments be remembered and recorded from generation to generation: for infinite is his goodness; and his loving kindness unspeakable. And although no man can fully recount his loving- kindness to him reached out, yet let all men testify of his goodness, and declare of his mercies, by which He is engaging the sons of men to Himself, and winning and gathering again the scattered to the true rest. And there- fore well said David, " I will remember the years of the right hand of the Most High; I will remember the works of the Lord : surely I will remember his wonders of old. I will 26 THE LIFE OF meditate of all thy works, I will talk of thy doings." Psalm lxxvii. 10-12. And who can feel his goodness, and partake of his love, but it will constrain a testimony to Him? And in the sweet remembrance of his manifold, innumerable mercies, I am even overcome. For my whole life hath been as a continued series of mercy and goodness ; and, all my days, hath He been my Upholder: when I knew Him not, He was nigh unto me; yea, when I rebelled against Him, He ceased not to be gracious ; His covenant stood with his seed Christ : and for His sake He spared me. His long-suffering and patience was extended towards me ; else I had been cut off in the days of my gainsaying. But O ! well may I say, He is a God gracious and merciful, long- suffering and patient, full of compassion. O ! let this his Name be proclaimed to the ends of the earth; and let the ears of the heathen be opened to hear the sound of his praise. And surely the Lord hath had an eye of tender compassion upon me, from the day that he formed me, and hath appointed me to his praise, and to witness forth his goodness ; for so soon as I can remember, and so soon as I was capable of understanding, he made me to understand that which consented not to STEPHEN CRISP. 27 any evil, but stood in my soul as a witness against all evil; and manifested that I should not lye, nor steal, nor be stubborn, nor be disobedient, but should behave myself in meekness and quietness ; and set truth before me, as that which was better than falsehood ; and this same witness, even in the days of my childhood, ministered peace and boldness unto me, when I hearkened to the counsel of it; but there was a contrary nature and seed in me, that was of this world, and not of God; which inclined unto evil, and unto the way and manner ol this evil world, as most of all suiting the carnal mind; and an eye began to open in me that saw what was acceptable •with man, rather than what was well pleasing to God. And that eye being daily ministered unto by the various objects and examples of vanity, a delight sprung up in that which was evil; and my senses became exercised with vanity, by which the pure seed became oppressed and grieved from day to day, and began to cry out against me ; and condemnation began to be stirred up in me ; and fear entered, where before no fear was, and (he pure innocency ■was lost. And then, having at any time done c2 28 THE LIFE OF or spoken any evil, then the light, or pure principle in me, would manifest it to me, and shew me, that I ought not so to have done ; and I felt condemnation, which how to escape I knew not. But then the evil spirit that led to transgress, would always stand ready to help in this need; and sometimes stirred up the subtilty in me, to plead a reason for what I had done, or a provocation, or a good intent, or else to deny, or at least to mitigate the evil of my deed ; and so to stop the mouth of the witness of God, and to see if I could escape the condemnation of the witness of God, and procure my own peace. But alas ! this was a miserable help ; for the light would often shine through all this, and quell my reason- ings; and shew me, when I was but a child, that in the pure reason that is from God, there is no reason for any evil, let provocations, temptations, or examples be what they can. or will; and so was I often stripped from all my reasoning and coverings. And then I learned another way to get ease from the judgment, and that when I was very young, about seven or eight years old : I would use, when judgment overtook me for evil, to yield that it was so, and therefore thought I must do something to please Goa STEPHEN CRISP. 29 again; and so, hereupon, I learned to pray, and to weep in secret, and to covenant with God for more watchfulness; and so then I thought, for a season, I was as one unburthened from my weight. Yet this best state was ac- companied with many doubtings and ques- tionings, whether my evils were blotted out, or not ; especially when I saw that I was again overtaken by the evil spirit, and led into evil thoughts, words, or actions; for the witness cried, even then, to have my whole mind given up to the Lord ; and that in thought, word, and deed, I should serve Him ; but I knew not that it was from God. Yet this I knew, that I wanted power to answer the requirings of that in me, which witnesseth against evil in me; and this I lamented day and night. And when I was about nine or ten years old, I sought the power of God with great diligence and earnestness, with strong cries and tears ; and if I had had the whole world I would have given it, to have kaown how to obtain power over my corruptions. And when I saw the carelessness of other children, and their profaneness, and that they did not, that I could discern, think of God, nor were in trouble^ though they were far more c3 30 THE LIFE OP ■wicked than I, in their speech and actions; Ah Lord! thought I, what will become of these ? seeing so heavy a hand is upon me, I can find neither peace, nor assurance of thy love. Then the enemy would tempt me to rest, and be quiet, in that it was better with me than with others; and my reason wrought strongly to make up a peace to myself herein. But the pure witness followed me, and left rac not, but pursued me night and day, and broke my peace faster than I could make it up ; for my mind was in my own works, and I could see no further. I heard talk of a Christ and Saviour, but O ! thought I, that I knew Him. My ear was lent to the discourses and dispu- tations of the times, which were very many; and one while I let in one thing, and another while another. Sometimes I heard men dis- pute, That God sees no sin in his people ; then I said, Surely I am none of them ; for He marlceth all my transgressions. Otherwhile, men talked of an election and a reprobation of persons before time; and that I considered diligently, and thought, if that were so, and I STEPHEN CBI&P. SI could get so many signs and marks of an elect soul, as might bring me to quiet, then I would keep it; and not be so tossed as I had been. Then I grew a very diligent hearer and re- garder of the best ministers, as they were re- puted ; and went with as much diligence and cheerfulness to reading, and to hearing ser- mons, as other children went to their play and sportings. And when I heard any one treat upon that point of election, and how a man might know if lie were elect; and would lay down signs of a true believer, and signs of an elect soul, then I would try myself in their measure, and weigh myself in their balance, and so ga- ther up a little peace to myself, rinding such things in me as they spoke of for signs; as, a desire against sin, — a loathing myself for sin, — a love to them that were counted the best people, — a longing to be rid of sin, $c. But, alas! here was yet but the blind leading my poor blind soul. This was not the balance of the sanctuary; and when I had gotten a little peace and quietness, and thought to hold it, alas ! it would soon be shattered and broken ; and when God's pure witness arose in me, that I must be weighed in the true balance, O ! then I found I was much too light ; then an- 32 THE LIFE OF guish would again kindle in me, and a cry was in me : O! whither shall J go ? and what shall I do ? that 1 might come to a settled state, before I go hence and be seen no more. In this woful condition, the thoughts of death would bring a dread over soul and body ; and trembling and horror were often upon me, fearing that I was set apart for a vessel of wrath for ever, and must bear the fiery indignation of God for ever. And oh! that word, for ever, would often be terrible to me, but how to prevent it I knew not ; for now I began to perceive my own insufficiency, and my want of God's power, and that it Mas not in my own power to keep myself out of sin, and that the wages of it was death ; so that I was in a great strait, sometimes thinking I had better give over seeking, and sometimes thinking, If I perish I had better perish seek- ing ; and here the good got the upper hand for a season, and I became a diligent seeker, and prayer, and mourner, and would often find out the most secret fields and unusual places, there to pour out my complaints to the Lord. When I was but about twelve years old, my general and constant cry was after the power by which I might overcome corruptions; and STEPHEN CRISP. 55 although I heard the teachers of those times daily saying, "None could live -without sin," and heard the doctrine of perfection holden as a dangerous error, }et that did not abate ray- cry : though indeed it did often -weaken my belief of obtaining; and so made my prayer almost faithless, and hence without success, But I knew that without the power of God I must perish, let them say what they could : and I could not reckon myself saved while I was captivated with the corrupt and rebellious nature, let them all say what they could ; for I remembered the words of Christ, He that com- mitteth sin, is the servant of sin; and that f knew was I, In this iron furnace I toiled and laboured, and none knew my sorrows and griefs, which at times were almost intolerable, that I wished I had never been born, or that my end might be like the beasts of the field ; for I counted them happy, since they had no such bitter combat here as I had, nor should endure that hereafter, which I feared I must endure after all : for I did see my misery, but I saw no way to escape. Then I thought I had best not keep my misery so close, but disclose it to some that, may be, might help me ; but well might I say, miserable comforters I found them all to 34 THE LIFE OF be; for then they would bid me apply the promises by faith, and suck comfort out of the Scriptures; and tell me of the apostle's state mentioned in the 1th of the Romans, and tell me it was so with him, and yet he was a servant of Jesus Christ ; and such like deceitful daubings as they had daubed them- selves with, in like manner dealt they with me; not considering that the apostle called that a wretched and an undelivered state, as I might well do mine. But all these ihings took but little place in me; my wound remained unhealed, and He that wounded me, and was able to have healed me, was nigh me, and I knew Him not; for I went groping in that dark and dismal night of darkness, seeking the living among the dead, as many more did ; but it was so dark, that we that did so, could not see one another. And as for the priests and professors of those times, the most of them would boast of expe- riences, and of the seal, and of assurances of the love of God, and what comfort they enjoyed by thinking or meditating on the suffering of Christ for their sins, &c. Alas! thought I, I could think of these things as well as you; but my wound still remains freshj and I see that I am as one of the cruci- STEPHEN CRISP. 35 fiers, while I love sin, for which He died ; and my soul longed after some other kind of knowledge of Him, than that which was to be attained by reading; for I saw that the worst, as well as the best, could attain to that; and I durst not lean upon them so much as I had done. Then I began to be somewhat more loosened in my mind from the priests, (though I left them not wholly,) but now began to find out the meetings of those then called Separatists, and to hear their gifted men, so called, whose doctrine I took notice, savoured more of zeal and fervency, than most of the priests' did; neither did I see them so covetous to make a gain of preaching, not yet being come to see how they coveted greatness and applause of men; but I was often affected with their preachings, though still the former bond was upon me, and they jet strengthened it: to wit, that if I were not elected, I could not be saved ; and how I might know, no man could tell me to my satisfaction. So the fear of this would often dash my comfort; and then I began to take notice of the loose walking of such Separatists, yea, even of the teachers among them; that they were not yet redeemed 26 THE LIFE OF from foolish jesting, from idle words, from anger and passion; but sometimes broke out brother against brother, and so ran out to parties, and to breaches and schisms, and rending their churches, which they often both built and pulled down ^ith their own hands. I also saw how inconstant they were, some- times letting in one doctrine, sometimes ano- ther, tossed with winds. But not a word could I hear how I might obtain power over sin. Over some sins and some lusts I had obtained it, but over all I had not ; and nothing else would satisfy me. Then I began, when I was about seventeen or eighteen yesrs of age, to seek yet further; and hearing of a people that held forth, The death of Christ for all men, I went to hear them; and after some time I came to see that there was more light, and clearer understand- ing the Scriptures among them, than among the former: so I began to be conversant with them, and frequent in their meetings, and came to be established in their belief: That there was a dear Son of hope, and may or means of salvation prepared for all people, and none positively, by any eternal decree, ex- cluded, as by name or person, but as unbeliev- STEPHEN CRISP. 37 crs and disobedient. This ministered comfort awhile; and I set myself to believe, and to get faith in Christ, and to reckon myself a believer ; and found it a hard word, even too hard for me, though I cried aloud many times to have my unbelief helped; yet when I saw- sin prevail over me, Alas! said I, where is that faith that purifieth the heart, and giveth. victory ? mine is not such. Then would the pure witness of God, arise and testify against me for my sin; and the more my understanding was enlarged, the sharper was my judgment; and now it grew so sharp, that I knew not how to endure it so well as I had done in my childhood; but the rou^h and rebellious nature being now ^rown strong, and I in the prime and strength of my youth, and seeing how others spent their time in pleasures and vanity, a secret lust and desire kindled in me to partake of their cup; yet for a time I was kept in, as with a bit; and rather took delight to take notice of the varieties of wits and inventions, that had been in foretime, which I found by books, being much given to reading ; and so I gathered many sayings and sentences of wise philosophers D 38 THE LIFE OF and sages, and in part obtained the knowledge of many ages gone before me. These things I thought were as an ornament, lifting me for discourse, and for the company of wise men. And, alas ! all this while self stood uncrucified, and all that was gotten was but sacrificed and offered up for the obtain- ing a reputation to self, which should have been kept in the cross; yet this served me awhile to feed that unwearied, searching, seeking soul of mine withal ; and many things that I met with became as a life unto it for a season; and I began to bless myself, that my time was no worse spent. And, in this time I found two drawings, one strong drawing and inducement was into the world, wholly to give myself up to the pleasures, delights, and vanities of it; and another drawing was unto godliness, watchfulness, seriousness, &c. And I, poor man, knew not what to do, as to religion. I felt a religious inclination in me, as I had done from a child ; and could have been well content to have taken up some form of reli- gion, but was sore discouraged, because I could see none of them hold forth that which STEPHEN CRISP. 39 I wanted, either in their life or doctrine, to wit, power over corruptions; without which I knew religion would be in vain, and not answer the end for which I should take it up. So I desisted from taking up any form, and kept in the wild field of this world, and wandered up and down, sometimes to one sort of people, sometimes to another; taking a sharp inspec- tion into their lives and doctrines, though I confess I left my own garden undressed, until many noisome weeds overgrew it. Thus I began to lose my tenderness of conscience which I had had, and began to take pleasure in the company of the wicked; and in many things to become like them, and came to be captivated more than ever, with mirth and jollity, and oft would sing when I had cause to howl and mourn. I also fell to gaming and pastime, and presumed upon the mercy of God, and had a secret belief, That God would one day manifest his power, and bring me out of this slate: therefore I had often a dread upon me, of running so far into wickedness, as some others did ; and was kept from many gross evils that my companions ran into: and herein was the infinite goodness of the Lord manifest, which, when I came to see it with a true eye, broke my heart; yea, my heart and soul j)2 40 THE LIFE