1. ERNARD (ARPENTER^ LIBRARY OF CONGRESS. ^S/fl.. ®jf8jt. (%jjrig(ft Ifa* Sheif..*.C£.4 5 UNITED STATES OF AMERICA. LIBER AMORIS LIBER AMORIS BEING THE BOOK OF LOVE OF BROTHER AURELIUS BY / HENRY BERNARD CARPENTER » i 1 mi son un che quando Amore spira noto, ed a quel modo Che detta dentro vo significando. , 0KNM h. ^^jfc % * BOSTON TICK NOR AND COMPANY 1887 Tf> /a jry Copyright, 1886, By Henry Bernard Carpenter. ^J # rights reserved. ^Intijersttg 19rcss: John Wilson and Son, Cambridge. " Behold the Book of Love" said then the seer; " Take it and hold it warm within thy robe Near thy hearfsptdses. On its leaves each day Great Love's invisible finger creeping soft And slow, as with a su?ibea?n shall inscribe All things whatever in his name thoti doest. For whatsoever through Lovers eye we see, Or through Love's ear we hear, or in Lovers heart Conceive or purpose, whether in thought or act, — Endures and is imperishable and true, Growing within us toward that greater self, Which lives and is eteimal as the heavens. All else is but the shadow of a shade, A s7noke when the fire dies, a thing of nought. Baseless and blind as a poor idiofs drea7n. Know, therefore, that whatever in ptire Love Thou doest is straightway writ within this book. Look to V. For when Love comes, He opens this, Andfro?n this reads to every soul its doom." CONTENTS. ♦ Page Wind-Song 11 Part One 21 Moon-Song 65 Part Two 73 Star-Song 199 Part Three 211 Dawn-Song 277 Part Pour 285 Eeferenda 314 WIND-SONG. LIBER AM0R1S. WIND-SONG. From wintry realms where the wizard Sleep Folds his dream-flocks by the dawnless deep ; From the frost-flowered meadows Whence trooping like shadows At their father's call they southward creep ; From the caves of the North Mid the Night's dominions, I come tempesting forth On mine ice-ribbed pinions, And the snows are my robe, and the frost is my crown, and the clouds are my minions. With my clarion winds the sea is whirled, And churned like milk, or in mist-wreaths curled ; Where thought never wandered I spread my storm-standard, 12 LIBER AMORIS. Unquivering my blasts on the groaning world* And when I low-breathe My wind-voices choral, I draw from their sheath In hues bright and floral My star-blinding beams and my tlmnderless flashes of falchions auroral. The hoar-lipped sea to my sword's white scar Writhes upward and gnaws his prison bar, Till spent with his plunging He sleeps in his dungeon, Laid low with my winds and weary of war. Then I ply my swift scourge, And his face pale and ashen From verge to dim verge Wears a God's form and fashion ; As peace that mounts into pain, and pain into Love's purer passion. ^ Men trace to their cradles and beds of birth My three brother winds that walk the earth. The West from quick Ocean Draws mind and motion ; LIBER AMORIS. 13 The East whets his tongue with sharp Alpine mirth ; The South leaves his home In spiced undulation, And the ships shear the foam Round his kingdom and nation ; But none ever dare to lay bare the cold lair of my dark generation. For my cradle is laid on the frost's white throne ; J T is a sea of glass, where the God unknown, Unveiling his terror, Breathes close to the mirror, And straight I come forth, but never alone ; But with shapes of strange fear, And shadows pursuing, With hopes of sad cheer That wail their undoing, — Dark-mantled in death, girt with moans of remorse, and - wide-winged with black ruin. And I bring Earth-Mother unnumbered ills In my steel-blue chain that cuts and kills, When my cruel weather Draws tight in its tether 14 LIBER AMORIS. Her veins that flow thro' the hearts of the hills ; And I quell the last songs Which the wood-minstrels taught her, And the gifts which by throngs Gold autumn kings brought her, Till she waits, as one chidden, my bidding, and sinks as a lamb at the slaughter. And her body's grace lies dead and bare With rending of raiment and ruin of hair, And her autumn's rich fancies Are steeped in death-trances, Nor beauty, nor motion, nor voice is there. Down streamlet and wood Fails her faint pulse's quiver, And back sinks her blood, Without dream of endeavor, Through her fingers and frost-fettered feet and her sealed lids that slumber for ever. At her seeming life my sword thrusts keen, Till the Form turns pale and gaunt and lean ; But wherever I enter, I drive to its centre LIBER AM ORIS. 15 And strengthen and kindle the Soul unseen. When I crush the bright grape, Of the wine I am keeper ; When I hide the loved shape, 'T is that Love may lie deeper ; What my death-sickle reaps, it bears hence to be gar- nered as gold for the weeper. When I ruin beneath, I open above Clear fields where man in his thought may rove. There my north-stars burning Pay back with their yearning His centuries' gaze of longing and love. There I scale my sky-towers, And rend with my paean November's cloud-powers Lead-sceptred, lethsean, And I shed the star-shine from its shrine down the stairs of my pure empyrean. By the drooping hearth fire winter-proof Men sit and hear on the shuddering roof My foot-fall's thunder, And then they wonder, 16 LIBER AM ORIS. Weaving warm thoughts through the flame's red woof, What my wind-spirit saith Through nights in December, When the brand with loose breath I unrobe and dismember, Or when, as a tree sheds its leaves, I toss the last showers of each ember. Then I bring a voice for those lofty moods Which come as the speech of solitudes, When memories assemble Or dim hopes tremble, And a speechless pain on the spirit broods. As a song-robe wrought By a hand in lute-playing, Which clothes a sweet thought Beyond our speech straying ; So I draw forth the secrets of sorrow and clothe them in many a dark saying. Yea, I am the voice of those iron Gods Whom Darkness rears in the North's abodes, Whose strength is in sorrow, Who build for to-morrow, LIBER AM ORIS. 17 And lay for the Fates their predestined roads. Through niy tones hoarse and stern Beats a heart that is tender, And my death-phantoms burn Into angels of splendor, Black-robed by old Night, but bright with the might of the stars that attend her. I, the Lord of the hosts of all clouds set free, I, the symbol and voice of eternity, — Ere my voyage is ended And I have descended, Through surging salt mists, on the midland sea, — From this high convent-tower, My midnight mansion, Will touch Night's black flower Into starry expansion, As a winter-dark chestnut, spring-smitten, ascends into star-flowers branching. Now southward my frozen terrors burn Through these rust-brown val]ej r s of bleak Auvergne, And I pause, as I chant them My many-toned anthem 2 18 LIBER AMORIS. In keys oft varied ; for now I yearn, Like a mother's voice lost In a child-soothing ditty, Now I shout like a host That slays without pity, Till the warder aghast peers down from the crown of this storm-shaken city : Where an old man's fancy weaves and unweaves A pale thin bower of memory's leaves, As I lull with low dirges His heart's faint surges, Till they heave as light as a child's heart heaves, And through seas of calm Sleep Which mists now encumber, His dreams, as they creep, Furl their sails bright and sombre, Whilst I with my finger of silence unbind the light seal of his slumber. PART ONE. Sleep, Sleep, sweet Sleep, father of Life and Death, Thy twin-born children ; source and end of all ; Heaven's porter, who with bright smooth key of gold Warm from the breast of God's dumb daughter Peace, Openest through darkness for world- wearied man A door to fields of light and starry streams, Where he may greet his dead whom he deems lost, And in one minute taste eternity ; — Sweet Sleep, dear easeful nurse of toil and woe, Who gatherest all thy children, one by one, Whether in earth or sky or soundless sea In thy warm folds of painless lullabies, And layest them soft upon the knees of God, 22 LIBER AMORIS. Yet comest never near God's hands or eves, For God, He only, slumbers not, nor sleeps ; Dear Sleep, upon whose heart, the home of dreams, Life wakes and wonders, weeps and sinks to rest ; — Pass from me now and leave me as thou wilt, Short are thy visits to an old man's eyes Even such as mine, that wake and watch the dark Long ere these ears can bless the bird of dawn. Ay, leave me as thou wilt, but leave not those My brethren, breathers of the pale pure peace And cloistered stillness of these abbey walls ; Where every cell that holds the slumberer now Is as a bridal bower of quiet bliss, And the hushed vow T that sank in sudden sleep, Soaring again, finds on the topmost stair Of supplication trances turned to truth, And wins in dreams the wished shrine of Love. And, since pure wishes are as strong as prayers And often more avail, bringing a boon, LIBER AMORIS. 23 So leave not, Sleep, those clustered homes below, That seem to rise like a slow-climbing prayer Toward one high thought, — this peaceful citadel, Their central spirit and overshadowing shield. Scatter thy dews of health on each cold hearth And the tired hand that soon must wake its fires, On the sad heart self-exiled, on the soul That lives alone ; still with thy starlit smile Spread thy soft fingers, dipped in spells of night, O'er smokeless housetops, mute unanswering doors, And shadowy streets, that lie within the unbound And breathless girdle of their walls and towers. Peace be on all, but most of all on thee, My brother Basil, seated by me here, Feeding the watchfires of this winter hearth, And the low lamp of my fast-fading thoughts With all thy nameless numberless arts of love, In listening look and speech-inviting smile And glance more eloquent than most men's words. 24 LIBER AMORIS. Peace, Peace ! So soft a word must surely win Its prayer, and fill with peace the breather's lips. Such prayer now rises visiting the seat Of Him, the Father-Priest of all his worlds, Prom me, Aurelius, abbot of this house, — While now the storm-spent north-wind bows his head Before a hushing hand, and slow there comes A trance of silence on the midnight sky, Strewn with unruddered wrecks of cloud that ride In anguish o'er the unnavigable air. For never have I known, since I was monk, A watch so dark and terrible as this. With what wild clamor the career of night Wheeled in mid course round the black turning-point And shouted onward for the morning's goal. What wrath was in the tempest. How yon hills Quailed at his coming, when his trumpet-blast Of resurrection shrouded their brown ribs With shreds of snowy flesh. How he roared by With titan step and breath of boreal song LIBER AMOEIS. 25 To the Balearic isles, where the south sea Fled from the mower, as with swift scythe-sweep He sheared its blown and bowing meadow of waves. Sayest that I slumbered ? When my senses drooped, Then was I most awake. The Soul within Enfolded with the curtains of light sleep Still kept her power of audience, and I heard Voices like those that wait upon our life Nearing its mortal passage. Oh that I Could tell thee all the sounds that came and went, When the rough north-wind opened every stop And the stored thunder stormed his thousand pipes ! What memories of his own dark northern land Then came ; what lamentations and farewells, Tones of despair, entreaties, cries of Love In fruitless vigil by the sepulchre, What thoughts that ask unanswerable things And still stand begging at Life's door, what dooms Dark as the last unreadable decree 26 LIBER AMORIS. Straight from the court of Death, what coming feet Down Griefs long-closed forgotten corridors. And here and there sweet cadences of sound Sighed, Come away; then died and rose again In whispers, Come away ; and yet once more The words returned, as in a litany, With slow reiteration, Come away. Sit near me, Basil, lay thy hand in mine, That hand, the faithful herald of thy heart, That heart, which to my spirit's every touch Has rung true answers through these twoscore years. For thou wert once an instrument wherefrom I drew sweet pastime in thine earlier days, When first I taught thee, and with fostering thought Wooed step by step thy half-born thoughts to light. But now the plaything is become a prop On which to stay my death-descending steps. As we have seen some shepherd of our hills Go forth with carols to the rising sun, LIBER AMORIS. 27 Tossing his pastoral rod with un tired hand ; But when the vesper-bell slow rings him home, That day-worn shepherd leans upon the staff, And stooping sunward from his lofty rock Surveys his one world's dear familiar face, Old sunset hills and valleys dipped in shade. Even such a staff, Basil, art thou to me, Now lingering on the borders of the night That calls me homeward. Leaning on thee thus, Would I look back, and, summoning one by one My wandering thoughts, would fold them in green rest, A slow-returning, silver-fleeced flock Of pasturing fancies fresh with sorrow's dew, — Thus gazing down long valleys lost in mist Would I raise up, albeit with wildered sense, One thought which once was king of many more, A vision lost beneath a visioned earth, A dream within a dream, a trance of tears. 28 LIBER AMORIS. See, Basil, see within this fire before us The gate of beauty to my land of dreams, Opening its heart of hospitable warmth To greet us. Once it might have seemed to me The still sad glow of autumn's yellow woods, The ruins of a sunset, the rich grave Where daylight smiles most beautiful in death. To suchlike shapings from the forge of thought My firstborn poet-fancies might have come In the more vacant moods when I was young And sought the luxury of half -tasted grief. These things have been. But Sorrow since has come Near me. Her gorgeous shadow in which I dreamed Has grown into a substance in myself, Her apparitions wear an actual shape, And I am now the thing which then I saw. The fire is now a fire, and through its path I see three figures walking, like the three Whom crowned Chaldrea with his baffled eyes Saw walking scatheless through the sevenfold flame ; LIBER AMORIS. 29 The first in black, the second in sad grey, The third in spotless white. The first one goes Softly, with folded listless hands, dropped low, And eyes bent earthward, as a man that mourns. The second with his clasped hands at the waist Looks forward eagerly ; the third with hands Crossed on his breast converses with the stars. So move they ; till, behold, one comes to these Who seems the Son of God, and is a God, Clad in wrought gold ; who coming brings a book Saying to them, Write, and straight each in his turn Writes, and gives back the volume to that God, Who goes his way. Then those in white and grey Depart through fiery walks of lacing light And disappear, while one remains alone. Draw near, thou form in black, that hangest thy head And goest softly and lookest what thou art ; — The scholar and the weaver of warm rhymes, The lutanist and the lover, — draw thou near, Ay nearer yet, that I may re-peruse 30 LIBER AM ORIS. That face long-buried from my sight, and tell Thy tale to him who listens at my side. 'T is gone. A sigh of air flutters across The bedded sparks and sleep of glowing brands, And the face vanishes ; but the name shall live Of him, who dying left me Love's bright book, Who died that I might come within these walls, Without whose death I had not lived till now, — ■ Dorian, Provencal Dorian, the son Of old Sir Dorian, heir of Chateau d'Or. There is a corner of the green glad earth On which the times have laid down more than once Their weight of blessing. Thither came great Tyre Folding her feet in purple. There the Greek Brought his bright gods, and planted the fire-seed Of his republics, while his daughter spake Of Chios and her lost Ionian home In such sweet-vowelled words, ye sure had said, The Muses were come down from Helicon LIBER AMORIS. 31 And danced upon her tongue. The Eoman there, Speaking his name in marble and wrought stone, Unveiled the graven code on his clear shield And with his spear wrote " Victory " in the dust Where fell the glorious Gael, and called that land, — Provincia. There came Love, a mightier lord, Following his servant Law, and at Love's word The broad Arabian stars loosed their first songs, When rising from Granada, they looked warm Above the cold Sierras and came near, Burning the Gothic dark with amorous light. And there came Venus, a poor exiled queen, In sackcloth and with ashes on her head, Ashamed and sad, out of her orient isles, Seeking on sunset shores a sweeter fruit Than that gold apple's, won and lost too soon. 'T was there she called new children round her state. Where the grey olive dropped upon her head The crown and unction of a deathless reign. 32 LIBER AMORIS. In a green covert of this pleasant land Was Dorian born and bred. Full fifty years Have flowed away to the returnless deep, Since I saw Dorian's shadow cross the sward That sloped through flowering terraces from the walls Of Chateau d'Or. A happy haunt it was Of holy sounds and healing shadows, made For love and labor and deep pastoral peace. In the bright languor of its air none knew Which were the sweeter task, — to w\ake or sleep. There morning came like noon, and when noon came, It seemed that morn were walking in her sleep Asking for afternoon through every nook Of noon's deserted world. A screen of pines With kindly gloom, like Life's presageful thoughts, Softened the north's drear message as it came, And broke it to the meadows, where they slept Lost in long slumbrous waves of green and grey, Shadowed and sunned, serenely spreading, rimmed With little distant hills, which always looked LIBER AMORIS. 33 As if they said, Behind us there are others Greater than we. Here Dorian first drew breath, Such breath as makes the man. For many are born, Never to live, forgetting that man's life Begins not at his birth, but from that hour When Love's most holy spirit stamps the soul, And makes it current coin through all his realms. Then, as his childhood woke and looked abroad, A sense of wonder and worship and strange awe Came o'er him, and a love unspeakable. In him Love's kingdom had begun, and earth Was full of godlike Presences and Powers And sentinel Shapes that watched in all deep shades And spake in twilights. Much he loved sad things, But never was he sad before men ? s eyes. What if he sought out blithe and playful ways And gay resorts, yet sadness wore for him A beauty and a greatness else unknown. " For all sad things are great and beautiful, And great things still are sad," he used to say; 3 34 LIBER AMORIS. " Deep places gather darkness, and high hills Wear heavy-laden crowns of sorrowing cloud. Therefore Lord Love hath Suffering for his squire, And Sorrow and Love go alway hand in hand. This day Love leads out Sorrow, and on the next Sorrow leads Love, and schools men out of hate." Not least in prowess and martial exercise ; Yet these he honored not, save as their use Should yield his body a vassal to his will, And make each sense an altar, by whose light Nature and he might meet and mate each other. "For Love," said he, "is genius that can draw Whatever is best within us to wed fast AVhatever is best and loveliest under heaven." Sweet as the dawn of spring-time was the boy To brave Sir Dorian, lord of Chateau d'Or. Yea, since that hour when first the rosy bud Was laid on his faint hands, and smiled, still warm From its dead mother's kiss, how dear to him ! LIBER AMORIS. 35 Dear as a jewel of price, the one thing saved By a wrecked merchant from his treasure-ship That founders in mid-sea. Oh ! nevermore Eode forth Sir Dorian by fair lady's side, For gentle pastime or for tournament, Since the dark moment when he knelt and wailed O'er the dead face, and cried : " Love ! my Lord Whom I have served so well, since here thou hast torn Thy dedicated image from its base, I raise to thee none else, and thus I lock Thy temple-doors for ever." So he lived. And when he saw his son going forth full oft To dance and song and pastoral festival, And the morn's musing and the noonday dream, Then w T ould he stay him in the pictured hall, And point to the long sword and battered shield And sun-stained banner which his grandsire bore At Ascalon and Damascus, and would say ; " Take thy great-grandsire's arms, and go for me Forth to the tilting-field and tournament, 36 LIBER AM0B1S. And quit thee bravely in thy father's name. And then would Dorian answer, smiling sad ; " Forbear, sweet father ; with thy leave to-day This pipe shall be my sword, this lute my shield, And love my banner above me." 'Neath these arms And 'gainst the wainscot wall, stood two great chests Of timbered oak, brass-bound, that overflowed With gold and silver vessels, and on these, Caskets of moonstone and green malachite, Stored with all precious stones, haled by the hand Of that great-grandsire from the Syrian tents. To which his father pointing, pleaded still ; " If not his arms, then take his spoils, my son, And reign in Venice 'mid her merchant-kings. Sunlight is more than moonlight, speech than song, Labor than love. What profit is in love ? " To whom young Dorian, bowing reverently, Gave gentle answer : " Hear me, most sweet father. What need of riches, when the world is ours, When day and night, the regal sun and moon LIBER AMORIS. 37 Shower gold and silver from their treasuries, When every evening opens o'er this earth Her sky's blue casket-lid warm-lined with gems ? " So passed his boyhood, and that season came When artist Nature pauses in her task, Uncertain whether she will keep the Boy A little longer, or with livelier touch Make no delay, but fashion forth the Man. And when his father saw him often pace The jasmine-braided gallery round the court In mood more serious and on speechless thoughts Intent, or murmuring to himself the words That bring, like cataracts or the stormy sea, Echoes of old forgotten oracles Heard once, when the great Gods were here on earth ; — Then would he say : " Now shall fair knowledge fill This void thin-peopled by distempering dreams. Dorian shall hence to Padua, and come back A steady studious heir to these my walls, 38 LIBER AM OR IS. Which long shall hold our name through years to come, Unravished by the Church-wolf's greedy maw That gulps down all. No fear that he shall be A cleric, for he likes not over- well Crosier and shaven crown and holy Church." So vowed this gentle knight, so in his prayers Turned he toward Padua, mother and nurse of arts, From day to day, from month to lingering month, Till Dorian's travelling steps had passed behind Cold eastern Alp and the great Apennine, "Whose olive-wingfed feet send streams of oil To feed the lamps that unextinguished burn Over Saint Antony's blameless bed of dust. Who knows not Padua, Petrarch's Padua, Saint Antony's shrine, and Livy's sepulchre, And the last anchorage for Antenor's fleet, When Helen's beauty burned the towers of Troy ? Who knows not how the heavenward angels once Waited for Giotto, while his pencil caught LIBER AMORIS. 39 And laid their passing shadows on the wall ? Who knows not how the Suabian bugle blew Its third great blast through all the German land, Till Rhine and Tiber and far Jordan heard And flowed in homage at their Frederick's feet ? Then Brenta's river heard, and Padua drew The breath imperial through her failing pulse, And Learning rose in Frederick's name, and paced The cloistral shadows dear to Learning's eyes, And liquid stairs, o'erwhispered by her feet, And rained her pearls upon the sunny heads That flowed like yellow leaves borne by strong winds Out of the northern land. Even such a wind Brought Dorian his first friendship and his doom. Of all that flew from the four-quartered heavens To Padua's halls, none came of note and plume Stronger and swifter and with stormier flight, Than the young broods that clamored from the North With voices like their cradle-winds, and words 40 LIBER AMOEIS. Eough as the hoarse gurge of their groaning seas. Soon every glooming length of colonnade And pillared aisle and painted roof had learned The tongue that rings within the Italian ear Like a tempestuous music stern and sweet, An iron clapper in a golden bell. Hither, among the rest, came a strong youth Whose name was Rupert, a poor armourer's son, Bred near a castled rock in Allemaine, Sick of the clays of dull apprenticeship Which made him master of his father's craft, But left him slave of unfulfilled desires And hopes that died, and rose, and died again. For often as he fashioned with his father, Conrad de Lindenwald, hauberk or helm Or cuisse or vantbrace, had he said within ; " Perish your weapons with you, ye that fight ; The sword sows but the sword, force reaps but force. But whoso sways the consciences of men Is more than man and likest unto God. LIBER AMORIS. 41 Not force, but power, shall sway the human will, For power is lordship and true sovereignty. Such armour would I forge as should re-clothe And curb the intractable world with inward law. God's priesthood is such power ; — that will I seek." Eager, adventurous, formed for highest ends And bent on high achievement, Eupert came ; Keen as a goshawk, patient as a steer, And poor as a poor church-fed mouse, he came To toil at Padua's university ; Where Dorian, then a scholar of two years, Beheld him, loved him, and was straight his friend. And now the college seasons gliding by, Thrice had their yearly feast of love been spread, Thrice had they dressed in summer leaves and flowers The shapeless image of time's terminal stone. And often had the aspiring arduous heart Of Rupert failed, and he with famished scrip And starving hope had bent his laggard steps 42 LIBER A1I0RIS. Back to his Northland valley dark with firs, Had not quick Dorian held his friend's poor hand To make it rich by the full gift within, And richer still without by kiss and tear And supplication, whilst he strove and sued ; " Stay, stay, my Eupert; wherefore wouldst thou go Thus early from me in our budding spring, Ere the fresh-flowering incense on Love's bough Can break into bright song of summer birds, And thence to fruitage sweet to thee and me ? Where are the vows, the promises, that made Thee mine, and all that I inherit thine ? Thine, therefore, even as mine, is this poor key That opens for us twain the golden gate To Padua's faery gardens, where all trees Of knowledge ripen with each chauging moon. Why thrust aside with no unworthy hand Gifts that still come as gifts to all that breathe ? Has Life yet sounded her retreat ? Do swords And dragons' teeth flame round the Hesperian fruit, LIBER AMORIS. 43 Or drive thee from its banquet ? Do not Gods Still sing thee to their feast, saying, ' Come up hither' ? When the tides thunder ' Forward ! ' why turn back ? On that sad morning when thou leftest home, Thou didst kneel soft beside thy mother's grave, And madest her name thy last beatitude. Thy father's lifted hands and the wet lips Of thy sweet sister blest thy parting steps, And men from tilth and garden dropped their tasks To walk long leagues and bring thee on thy way. Wilt thou go back to witnesses like these, The living and the dead, — with empty hands And pledges unredeemed, a graduate In nothing but in broken promises, In vows abandoned and in prayers that mock The listening hosts of heaven ? Didst thou not give Thyself to God, and ask but one bright chance ? And see ! the long-sought happy chance is here, And thou wilt turn thy back on such a field, 44 LIBER AMORIS. On God, on friendship, on thy nobler self, To leave the ploughshare, like a stranded keel, Dead in the fruitless furrows of thy life ! " Musing a while, then Rupert gloomily said ; " I owe not anything, nor would 1 hold Save what my own right hand shall win for me." As an eaves-building martin darts away From her unfinished nest, that she may bring Some few slight straws or twist of tufted wool, To line a love-bed that shall keep her brood ; So back flew Dorian to renew his plea, Ee-lining it with warm and chance-throw T n waif Of reasoning that might stay his wavering friend ; " In this one thing, my Eupert, art thou lacking. Purely to give and purely to receive, Ask for the selfsame spirit. Wherefore love Is no less needed in the hands that take Than in the hands that minister the gift. LIBER AM0B1S. 45 But thou, — thou prizest more what thou niayest win With thy unweaponed power than what the hearts Of Gods might bleed to thee. A crown may bribe, A kiss will never buy thee. There, it grows, The love of power, but not the love of love, Through those dark-tangled shadows of thy thoughts, Where the sharp fingers of pinched poverty Set deep the rooted bane of paltry cares, From which I now would free thee, knowing well That thou art formed by many a master-stroke Grandly for good or evil. Nay, sweet Rupert, But take, I pray thee, that which is thine own ; Not I, but some kind deity makes it thine. And know thou this, that he who will not stoop To take the fruit ripe-fallen at his feet To-day, will on the morrow breathless leap And tear the unwilling apple from the bough, Unkind to himself and that which lianas above. And yet how knowest thou, brother, if mine eyes 46 LIBER AMOBIS. May not win back for me in years unborn Far more than this poor little that I give ? What large repayment and rich recompense Shall then be Dorian's, when his life-worn feet Tread the last wintering slope of leafless days, And he perchance athirst for southern draughts Of charmed ambrosial air shall light upon Some incense-breathing isle or summer bay Or soft Sicilian shore, and find thee there, Between deep-violet hills and opal floors Of evening water, on a marble seat Cooled with the tender dusk of sycamores, In the red shadow of thy cardinal's hat ; Audi coming he will lay his hand in thine And look with tears in thy slow-questioning eyes, Saying, ' Knowest thou thy friend ? ' Then thou wilt look, And all at oiice dim memories will flow back Moistening thine eyelids with a yearning love, Till thou shalt turn away, lest those around LIBER AMOBIS. 47 Should mark thy changing cheek. There will I sit Near thee, and, mute with joy, will gaze at thee, While on thy lip some ripe great word shall wait To fall amid the pause of lighter talk, Like heavier fruit that drops through gossiping leaves Of orchard trees in autumn afternoons. And when we are left alone, thou wilt come near, Forgetting all thy pomp, and wilt embrace me, And weeping ask me, ' Dorian, sweet my friend, Tell me thy heart's least wish, and I am thine To do it for thee to my uttermost.' Then will I answer, and utter all my heart, And kneel and lay my face between thy hands, And tell thee all my sorrow and all my care, The sobbed confessions of the o'erburthened soul. And I will hear in thine absolving word A deeper voice, and find beneath thy robe A man's heart and a man's hand, and in these That mightier hand and heart, that wipes the tears And rolls away the burthens of the world." 48 LIBER A3I0EIS. Such plea was Dorian's in his last appeal To Eupert, and with such plea he prevailed. And though in thought he shaped no baseless dream, Yet little knew he what their ends should be. Ah me ! and little know we, any of us, Of that which shall be, when on heights of morn We shape and sing toward heaven our crown of towers. And while we yet are singing, comes a gloom And a red hand strikes through our roof of stars And hurls us down 'mid showers of rafter-sparks To utter darkness, bidding us there begin And thence build slowly, strongly, even as He Who ever layeth his lowest palace-beams Deep in dark waters. So it was with these, Yoke-fellows twain, whom time came now to loose, Sweet-harnessed in Love's chariot of three years. Yet fain had Dorian tarried, while his friend Ean the full-rounded academic race And won its goal ; when suddenly from the North Came hot on flying hoof to Eupert's hand LIBER AMORIS. 49 A summons from his village lord and liege, The Baron of Engelstein ; a message drear Of double darkness, like a thunder-cloud Black on both sides with midnight, which spake thus ; " Eupert de Linden wald, — thy sire is dead. Count thyself henceforth as mine armourer, And hie thee hither. And make thou no delay ; I hold thy sister in my hands for pledge." Then rose they both together and weeping went Forth of old Padua. To Verona's walls They came, with purpose there to part, and pass Each to his home. But he of Chateau d'Or, Who knew that farewell words are alway sad, Wherever spoken, and most in stranger lands, Where least we are loved and known, begged of his friend As a last boon, that he would ride with him Back to Provence, and tarry at least a day Under the rooftree of his father's house. 50 LIBER AMORIS. " For there," said he, " that sweetest-bitterest word ' Farewell ' may part with half its sting, when dipped In the honey-word of ' home.' Thence will we waft thee Swift-spurred and mounted on our best of steeds Home to thy village sovran and liege-lord. So shalt thou reach him sooner than with staff And pained steps from these Verona gates." This said, they pricked their fiery westward way Down the long sunset of the Lombard plains, And passed the Ehone, whose purple-veined life Threads the warm side of the Provencal land, And on by sylvan lodge and court and grange They flew to Chateau d'Or. With what a cry Of self-renouncing ecstasy Dorian leaped Straight from the saddle to his father's arms. Nor less than as a newborn son came he, Eupert de Lindenwald, to the clasp and kiss Of the brave knight. Such power there is in Love To make the distant near, the several one, LIBER AM ORIS. 51 And wind through labyrinthine shades of death Touches of subtle-fingered threads, whereby The darkened spirit feels toward that far light In which the fatherless may find a father. But what lives more forlorn and fatherless Than he who, turning bitterly on his heart Unnested of its hopes, broods there alone, Eef using comfort and that baby hope Which then comes when its mother hope departs ? The leopard springs but once upon its prey, And failing springs not thither again, but hoards His fiercer fang-fires for the next he meets. Such now was Eupert even in Chateau cl'Or, Even where a father s and a brothers love Lit their untiring and alternate fires Like interchange of sunlight and of stars. Love with his beauty and gladness, rural-rich, Came near and touched him, but he saw them not. He saw^ not when the merry-making swains 52 LIBER AMORIS. Brought mime and masque, or reeled on frolic foot To pipe and viol and droning cornkmuse. He saw not when the cotters' brown red cheeks Thronged blushing round the gates and bending brought Heart-homage and lip-service and warm tears. He saw not when their May-sweet maidens came Bringing him fresh-culled cresses and white curds And amber honey fragrant of the fig, With coronals of little flowers, that hid Their wood-born kisses for the taintless feet Of snowy girlhood. None of these he saw, Save with such smiles as, darker far than frowns, Shine dead as sunlight on a barren moor. But when on the last morning Dorian heaved The heavy stubbornness of those huge lids That held the household treasures, and set free Their gleam that sent its brief, unfruitful summer Up the smooth wainscot panels, then the soul Of the grave Northman flashed, and all at once LIBER AM ORIS. 5 ', His thwarted passion couched for its new spring. " gold and silver," he cried, " and precious stones, Eare dust outshaken from the skirts of Ind ! strong divinities of the world ! your might Is more than bannered armies, and your swords Sharper than tempered steel. All power is yours. For gold is kingship, gold is liberty. Love brings not gold or silver ; but where gold Eeigns, there poor Love leads in his rosy boys With all their kissing comforts and warm smiles, Throning us happier than the painless gods. Sayest thou, poor idle, envious heart, that gold Is the dark root of all our evil here ? Gold was man's primal paradise, and when gold Failed him, then preyed man on his brother's blood, And still will prey thereon. Gold was in truth The world's beginning, gold must be its end. Back to such gold beginnings man must go Ere the white marriage-morn of earth and sky Can break with its long thousand years of love. 54 LIBER AMORIS. Give me an age of gold ; that age alone Leads back our centuries to the years of God." Whereat the hand of Dorian dipping low Into a jewel-casket, to take thence Its purest morning-star, was quick withdrawn And raised as if in protest, while he spake ; " Nay, but I jest not : Choose before thou goest Between these two, — an idol or a God, Thy God and mine, the God above all others. There is no God but Love, who leads the stars And sows whatever is of light and life And beauty through these acres of the world. And such a deity thou exchangest now For emptiness and a small ounce of gold That leaves thee poorly rich in life's last hour, Forsaken, lost, cast forth to utter death, Heartless and disinherited of hope. Oh ! yet remember, how the Paduan Saint Once preaching pointed to the rich man's bier, LIBER AMORIS. 55 Saying, c "Where your treasure is, your heart is also." Yon greedy heart that never sighed for heaven, Eeturns not to its God even through the grave. Not in the coffin here, but there at home In his stuffed coffer lies that dead man's heart.' And so they went to the usurer's house, and found In its own money- chest the usurer's heart, One knot of shrivelled canker-eaten roots, Bloodless and hard and yellow as its gold. And back they came to search the soulless dead, And probed the vacant chamber, where the stilled Life-pulses should have slept, but nothing was Save a cold, heartless void. Eupert, Eupert ! Take back those thoughts of thine, and for love's sake Have courage, rise and be thyself again. Give me thy pledge, and on thy hand wear this, Wherewith I wed thee now with changeless love." He said, and stooping to the casket, drew From its dim night what seemed its morning-star, 56 LIBER AM ORIS. A magic circlet of warm gold, wherefrom A rainbow-colored gem rayed forth a dawn Of light, for which Aurora might have stayed The Day's steep horses, while she bound its fire In the far-flowing billows of tossed hair Above the sunrise of her calm pure brow. Down in a ghostly glen of Jinnestan An elfin maid had wept it, and the tear, Her last-born perfect tear, of many shed Imperfect in their love, had sent her free From her swart starless cavern of slow pains, Where she had penanced, all for lack of love Through six lone cycles, till the seventh brought Love perfect, and therewith this perfect tear ; In whose pure light she saw the long-sought hues Of half-remembered rainbow and sun-woofs Of waterfall, about whose feet she had played, Once happy in child-happiness, when hope Shone unfulfilled, and love as yet unripe Came sweet, and then turned bitter on her lips. LIBER AMORIS. 57 There in the nether night of that dark den A holy dervish, planet-led, had found This love-created wonder, and on its face Had wrought Love's nameless name for talisman, And circumscribed it with strange spells of might, And so came back breathless, forespent, and pale, Up from the terror of that underworld. But ever afterwards, by night or day, Sleeping or waking, he still saw and heard The mooned eyes of demons, and deep groan And hollow sound of hellward-opening doors, With, voices and whatever else brings fear. Such was this diamond, and so won ; which now Dorian drew forth from out its hiding-place For Eupert's hand. And sure if Love himself, Wishing to show us how pure love is born, Could will back from his sweetly -kingdom'd worlds His circumfusfed and confineless soul, And lock it up in one small prisoning stone, 58 LIBER AM ORIS. He never could have chosen a nest so sweet, A birth or bringing forth so like himself. Then swore they friendship and eternal love, And gave each other a parchment roll, well stored With chosen words writ fair in black and red, The testament of two consenting souls. And each one crowned his brother with a hat Decked with a heart of gold and fresh love-flowers. Thereto Sir Dorian added as his gifts A charm-engraven sword, whose hilt was bright With sun-showered chrysolites and rubies jed, Sweet as the death-drops from Adonis' side, And, — for he saw that Eupert needs must go,— A swift steed black and beautiful as night, Which mounting he spurred forth toward Allemaine. Here would I gladly pause, my Brother Basil, And rein the forward stepping of my speech, LIBER AMOBIS. 59 To take new breath for more which thou wouldst learn And I would ease my heart in telling thee. For know this in good sooth, that old Aurelius Would not be visiting with his latest words Thy patient ear, while the Night's passing-bell Tolls out the death of this her firstborn hour, Nor would I now look back on fifty years, A watcher from these monastery walls, Had not the sad-starred life of Dorian sunk Into a midnight dark and wild as this, — A midnight which brought forth a morn to me. Throw on fresh wood ; the fire burns low ; here lie Grey beds of sparkless dust, and there the flame Unravels its last threads of flickering light From round the black bones of this dying hearth. Heap high the crackling billets, till each log Bursts into fiery foliage and brings back Out of the glimmering dusk this antique room With its quaint furnishing and the marble front 60 LIBER AMORIS. Of this high carven mantel, whose white squares Glow, like the summer skies, with blue and gold. There, Basil, it is done. And see, the Moon Sails upward from the South through refluent surge Of cloud, and gains the midnoon of her night, While yon wide-windowed space dilates and shrinks, As the slant flood of beams dawns up or dies, Or dawns again through its black-branching stems And rich-stained oriel, where the stricken Christ Bows mute unmurmuring to the scourge and thorn. Now comes a gloom across the glass, and see, His body darkens down and seems to droop In mortal anguish, and his thorns grow sharp. Now from the shuddering masses of torn cloud A white fire grows and lightens o'er the panes, And the pale body kindles, and the thorns Break into snowy roses round his head. And listen, Basil, to the sky's deep peace That breathes as though afraid of its own breath. By this the ravening North-wind has hewn out, LIBER AMORIS. 61 As with a woodman's axe, a sun-broad path For the fair Moon to walk in, and by this Out of her backward-flowing forest-world Of intertangled cloud, and cloudlike leaves And cloudborn bowers of dissolving shade, She lifts her argent forehead to the heavens, And looks abroad in love, and shines alone. Hark ! how her lunar soul melts forth in sound, And all the silence overflows with song Inaudible, but haply heard by thee. MOON-SONG. MOON-SONG. Now the day's red-tressed lion Lies asleep, while starred Orion Shouts, and I the spotless Dian Lead iny snowy fawns abroad, — ■ Calm Desire, the soul's defender, Silent Memories sad and tender, With unspoken vows that render Man for every chance a god, And there walks in midst thereof, Crowned with godlight from above, Stoled with starry-tissued splendor, thought's bright Love unawed. [blender, Of thy months the slow allotter, I arise, Earth, my daughter, As a snow-flower from the w x ater Of the South 's ensilvered sea, 5 66 LIBER A3I0BIS. And I soar with breathless going, Holy seedlight o'er thee sowing, Which the Sun, thy sire, bestowing Showers from radiant hands on me, Like a precious ointment poured On a bride's brow by her lord, Till his glory purer growing and o'erflowing Streams to thee. sweet Earth ! behold thy mother, Like whose love there is none other, In whose smile each strong star-brother Veils his light and voice divine ; Up this milk-white highway wheeling, See, I send my pearl-dawn stealing, And their diamond-dust concealing, Sun and system cease to shine ; On their orbs I rain my showers Soft as dew on day-sick flowers, But with none I mix my feeling, deeply healing, As with thine. When thy father's day-smiles dwindle, I, thy mother, rise and kindle LIBER AMORIS. 67 Bright threads round my swelling spindle, And I watch and weave o'er thee Noiseless nets of light unshaken, In whose listless toils are taken Dreams, that call on Dreams to waken Sweetest elfin shapes that be; Then the soul through magic sleep Onward sails from deep to deep, And the unharbored heart forsaken, wellnigh breaking, Rests in me. Lo ! the sun exacts each morrow Tribute from thy fire-fed furrow, Wealth for warmth which thou dost borrow, Gold fruit for his gold light sown ; Freer than the monrs commander, Light unharvested I squander, Beams that ever fruitless wander, Born of love, and all thine own. Child, I nurse thee for no boot, — Wine or flower or fragrant root ; Lighting thee with spirit fonder, I dart yonder Love alone. 68 LIBER AMORIS. When the sun's light loosens, beaming, Half his sheaf of shafts up streaming, Home flies Love with all his dreaming ; But my light when reared above, — Be it shield or crescent sabre, — Calls on Love to sweetly neighbor Listening maid and whispering day -boor While he soothes his moaning dove. Sunlight lures, like golden fleece, Eastward : mine is westward peace ; His a trumpet, mine a tabor ; his for labor, Mine for love. Is all work a claim to lordship ? When did wealth and all its worship Fire thee to a sense of earthship, Kindle thee to vernal birth ? Therefore from my hills' white highlands, Meres and vision-peopled islands, Wells and streams of lunar silence, I bring powers of purer worth, And I wind within the springs Of man's higher imaginings LIBER AMORIS. G9 Spells of holy peace, till thy lands are as my lands, Daughter Earth. Here sits Love in silent musing, Bright with dark threads interfusing, Weaving webs for poets' choosing Through my darkly-silvering shell. Here my moon-maids, none deny it, Feast in philosophic quiet, Festal, free from terrene riot, Bound their cups of hydromel ; Where, by rainbow-tangled stream Droning downward in a dream, They drink peace, and at my fiat, sweetly sigh it Down Night's dell. Hark ! what new song stirs my planet ? Whence these odorous airs that fan it Bound my ribs of gold and granite And my forehead pure and white ? Like a sheep before her shearer I wax faint, as they come clearer From my Titan brothers nearer, Minstrel stars of mastering might. 70 LIBER AMORIS. sweet child, one parting kiss, — 'T is thy mother's ; and know this, Of thy moans there comes no hearer ever dearer, — So, Good-night ! Back through these cloud-woven valleys Now I seek my shadowy palace, Where each nymph her comrade rallies, Filling founts of morn for me. Thence all lights of Love's own legion Through my silver-sapphired region Soon shall throng at my decision, And the stars shall shrink to see Me with newly-nectared urn Rise again, and break and burn Thy dark nights with dawns Elysian, rich in vision, Child, for thee. PART TWO. II. " Moon of the South, white-breasted bird of peace, Why like a dove down-sliding on slow wing In short and timorous flight, lea vest thou thus The silent heavens that wait upon thy voice, As August woods wait on their last bird's note ? Why hastenest thou to hide thy face and quench Thy faint song in the deserts of the dark ? Is thy pale light less lovely and are thy gleams Less pure in their divineness than the Sun's, Thy brother and thy bridegroom and thy lord, That thou shouldst come in visitation thus, Ah me ! thus brief ? The Sun draws forth his light To show us all things rather than himself, 74 LIBER AMORIS. And showing men his gifts he kindles them To gainful paths o'erblown with blinding dust, And leads them morn by morn in murmuring throngs To the fierce onset of the field and street, Crying, ' Work, Work,' till w T ork and ownership Grow the chief end and happiness of man. But when thou risest, nothing in heaven and earth Is seen or heard saving thyself alone. The world fomets itself and feels but thee, And day's sharp sword creeps back into its sheath, And its loud trumpet falters, when thou comest With looks of truce, and sweetly sunderest men With silver-sceptred silence. Oh ! thy light Was never lifted as a fiery flag For hosts to shout by. How can armed men flash Their orphan-making swords in thy meek face ? When catch they fire enough from thy mild eyes To light one death-star on the bickering points Of battle-bringing spears ? For such as these Thy reconciling day of lesser light LIBER AJIOBIS. 75 Was never born. Thou bringest just light enough To show two happy lovers the one face That each has pined for through the weary noon, Just light enough to draw two parted souls Within the hearing of one little sigh, Just light enough to point the shortest way Through envious distance to the dewy nest Where kisses meet and mix and multiply. Just light enough for this. For thou art Love, The love that living only for love's sake v Asks nothing but to live, and be itself, And do its own dear will. And yet, sweet Moon, Sweet maiden-mother, if thy light indeed Be love, why changest thou from day to day, Oh constant only in thy changefulness ? Is it that thou wouldst say to those on earth ; ' I change not ; 't is vour shadow of change on me That changes. I am but your dial hung On the blue walls of these unchanging heavens, Who by my slow mutations monish you 76 LIBER AMOR IS. Of man's half-love and mutability ' ? Moon ; Mother, my maiden queen, Thou art the woman and the womanly In these wide heavens ; thou art the light wherethrough All fiery lights and loves come purified Into the lives of men ; thou art love in part, And therefore thou remainest not, but hidest Thy near and narrower light, that so our thoughts May pass beyond the One, and rise and reach The Many, and so climb up to fruitfuller boughs Of Life's ascending tree, till through its leaves We look, and lo ! a sky bent o'er the sky, A spring beyond the spring, Gods above Gods, Life endless, and the innumerable stars." Soothing his heart with such soliloquies, In the calm ebbing of a moon like this Now westering into darkness, Dorian went, Eiding alone under great wayside oaks, Whose black bulks, pillar-like, propped a broad shade, LIBER AMORIS. 77 That whispered scarce one secret of their lives Of ancient leafiness to him who passed Beneath them, lost in solitary thought. Southward he rode through a rare night in spring, Southward he rode toward beautiful Beaucaire And Bomalin's castle-walls. Why rode he thither ? Why spurred he always forward, far in front Of those that followed him ? And with what vows Unheard, whose only tongue was the few tears That rose but fell not ? This I now would tell thee. Ten times the Moon had bent her bow in heaven Since Eupert rode away from Chateau d'Or, And more than ten times ten had Dorian winged His drooping day-dreams through the misty North After his friend, lonmnq; exceedingly 7 o o o J To see his face again. For Dorian's soul Was womanlike in all things, and his love Grew as a maiden's for the one strong man, Whose heart she will not lose for earth or heaven. 78 LIBER AMORIS. In vain he forged a thousand little links From all home-keeping duties that might chain His vagrant thoughts. In vain, with morn's fresh hour, On tasks of self-appointed stewardship, Guessing his father's wishes, he went forth Among the sheepcotes and the delvers' toils, Or on through orchard-lawns and oliveyards And couchlike meadows, where the kine stood cool, Knee-deep in the still stream beneath the boughs Of some broad beech. In vain, when Evening rose Proclaiming peace in name of all her stars, Turned he again and sat in the great light Of the hall's fagot-fire, and read aloud Some poet's rolling verse, or touched the harp And sang his father's secret sorrow away. 'T was all alike in vain. Still round him grew That subtle spiritual overshadowing, The unreal sadness nursed within the thoughts, Itself a thought and feeling, such as oft O'erclouds the springtide splendors of our youth. LIBER AMOBIS. 79 Whether this come by Nature's kindly law Tempering the too-much glory of Life's great morn, Lest it should blind and blast us ; or, if one May make conjecture of high Wisdom's ways, This is that merciful foretaste of the wells Of bitterness, ere that we stoop and drink What else must be a sharp soul-killing draught. Be these things, Brother Basil, as they may, Such nameless woe now came on Dorian's soul, No self-begotten grief, sprung from the void Of wanton discontent, but something shaped Far hence, and hither brought by God's own breath. Even as a seaborn mist from off the sea Gathers and darkens down a shore at noon We know not how, and creeping inland sleeps On the sad fields that never gave it birth. Soon out of such dim vapor-laden moods Came love, which long had lain deep in his soul Like a soft babe asleep. As yet he loved not, But only longed to love, and ever sought 80 LIBER AMOBIS. Something to love. Such now was Dorian Swayed softly forward on the stream that sways The world. For we must love, or else we die. All this his father saw, then begged of him, As of his dear, his only son, that he Would take the vows of knighthood, and ride forth, And kindle afresh the faded fire of fame And honors of their half-forgotten house. So Dorian rose and did his fathers will. And when he heard that round about Beaucaire And up at Eomalin, there were soon to be A three days' tourney and a tilt of song, And after these a session of Love's court, He took his father's squire with mounted men, And forth they set, a gallant company. So came it, on this breathless night in spring Dorian went riding down to Eomalin. And as he rode, he watched the skies like leaves LIBER AMORIS. 81 Above him open and shut, as 't were the book Of Love in man's own life. For first he saw The moon's bright body drop into the grave Of darkness and then crumble into stars, And so come back in starlight. Then the stars Grew larger and came nearer one another, And coming nearer, all their diamond fires Melted in one great diamond of the dawn. Calm in a sea of wonder-working lights Of morn, like a fair isle, the castle lay, A sheaf of towers, and every tower stood out Eose-red in daybreak, where the walls between Were lost in liquid shadows cold and grey. Far off, through miles of morning air it came So near, that Dorian thought he almost heard The tread of warder and the trumpet-call Blown from the battlements. In proud array Thither they galloped, knight and squire and men. The great sun rose ; the world awoke ; the bird 82 LIBER AMORIS. Piped from the tree ; man's foot was in the field. And on they passed to Eomalin's castle-gates. And when they came, the green wide space before The gateway was thick-sown with festal throngs, Gay as a garden of flowers in sweet mid-June, And there were tents and great pavilions topped With tall red staves, whose pennons coiled and shook Like fiery flying serpents down the breeze. Near these a fair new tiltyard had been ploughed By chosen milkwhite steers, that well had graced The board of Jove, when his high godhead stooped To feast with mortal men. All the ploughed space, Twelve acres wide and more, was planted close With largess of gold coin, soon to shine forth In harvest for the ploughers. Round about, From bar and baluster and circling seat Grew a deep murmur, as of honey-bees Through w^oody dells in spring ; and heralds went And came in figured coats of gold, and squires LIBEli AMORIS. 83 In silken scarf and vest, or now a page, With girlish face, fair hair, and lissom limb, Or troubadour with slow caressing hand, That lingering up the lutestring spilled some drops Of his love-lay long treasured. And with these Were tender tearful maidens many a one, And many a lovelorn man, and some that loved, And ladies lily-necked who laughed and leaned Across the crimson cloth that overflowed The balconies, while now and then a knight Came near with helm in hand, and bowed the knee, And begged with yearning look a blessing bright From the starred eyes of dame and damosel. But Dorian came not near ; he begged no boon, He bound no lady's favor on his helm, Rich glove or broidered sleeve. From none he sought A smile, or some more precious gift of grace, 84 LIBER AMORIS. Such as the gentle give unto the strong, Making them stronger. Pale with anxious fears, He waited in the press of new-made knights Beyond the tiltyard gate, and felt in truth How oftentimes in life we are loneliest When we are least alone. Far off the sea Loomed southward, like a bed of burning blue, Smoothed by the seamaids with their silken spread Of wavy tresses, whereon Venus lay With flowerlike feet and sunlit sides of snow. So Dorian deemed, and straight he prayed to God, Asking that from that day and through all years He might serve Love, and serving win Love's crown. Then seemed it, Venus rose from off the sea, Her faithless, fluctuant sea, and with sweet strength She came to him, growing heavenlier as she came. And when the trumpet sounded, in he rode Through the dropped barriers past the balconies, Clad in black armour, bearing a small shield Heart-shaped, and all of azure. On it gleamed LIBER AMORIS. 85 A sinking crescent moon, whose horns, upturned, Shed heavenward from between them silver seeds Of stars unnumbered, and the stars in turn Waned upward to a seven-rayed morning star. Close to the shield's gold rim this legend ran, Amor omnia vineit Such was the device. Then all men wondered who this black knight was, And named him there, The Knight of the Morning Star. And brightly did the Morning Star all day Eise through the dust of onset and the shock Of shivered spear-shafts. Whether on foot or horse, With staff or truncheon, blade or bickering lance, Alone or in the thick of knights he rode, Still was he foremost, not so much by force Of bulk and thew, or cunning turns of hand, As by a swift and supple-sinewed strength' And springing spirit, that stirred the lookers-on, Till from all sides, like showers on summer leaves 86 LIBER AMORIS, With thunders following, came the clap of hands And the long clamor of their stormy praise. Nor less pre-eminent rose he in the strife Of strings, and the twin birth of voice and verse. For when on the fourth day they brought their harps And psalteries, and the flowers of sound took shape, Like God's light, at a moment's word, he rose When his turn came, and played and sang, and all Praised much his song. For Dorian once had caught A wild sad music from old Carolan, — Carolan, a minstrel from the Land of Ire, Poor, blind, and old, a wanderer of the world, Who oft had sojourned in his father's halls, And taught him in his boyhood how 7 to play On that sad harp of his, which ancient grief And love had strung with wind and fire and tears, And filled with sounds of showers and sobbing seas And wailing waters of the darkening West. Thus Dorian sang, — not like those mimicking jays LIBER AMORIS. 87 "Who flaunt them in a patchwork of worn words And cast-off jewels and tawdry shreds of speech, Oerdropped with perfumes pressed from flowers long dead. He sang out from his soul what he found there ; He sang of Love and Life and Sorrow and Death, Of Knowledge and of sweet Philosophy ; He sang how Love is mightiest of all these, The author and end of all things, God's great Son. He sang of one, a maiden beautiful, "Whom he had never seen save in his dream. He sang how a poor knight had loved her long, How he had loved her unto death, and died, And how they two were buried in one grave. 'And all they listened with wide lips and eyes, And when he ceased, they still sat listening all. Oh ! who then of the hushed throngs gathered there, But answered that to Dorian should be given The golden violet and the Poet's crown ? 88 LIBER AMORIS. So he, about whose neck but yestereve The baldric had been slung and victor sword Of that year's knighthood, felt on his new brow The laurel chaplet bright with amaranth blooms. But how shall amaranth blooms, and laurel leaves, And gold enamelled violet, and swift sword With subtle -traceried baldric, slake the soul That thirsts for life, more life, and life through love ? Meanwhile the promise of night had fallen from heaven In sweet surprise of stars, and the great hall Within the castle had convened its guests, The lords and ladies of the Court of Love, Its servants and its vassals. The grey walls Bloomed forth, like some dark forest in strange flowers With arras, looms of Ypres, and brocade, With shields and banneroles blazoned with such dyes As autumn or bright evening lends the world. Torches and triple crowns of twinkling lights LIBER A310BTS. 89 Bemocked the midnight skies. At the upper end, On her high dais-throne sat the fair queen, Love's chosen queen, the Lady Blanchelvs, — A pale imperial face and dovelike eyes, That still seemed sad with sweet remembered pain. A little cap of velvet poppy-red, Fringed with rare pearls, enthralled her back-bound weight Of ebon hair. A stole of snowy whiteness, Forth-creeping from a crimson bodice, flowed Down to her silver-slippered feet, and back From off her small pure shoulders fell a robe Of saffron-colored samite, like a cloud Of summer gold. Behind her and o'erhead Bose a broad sapphire canopy of state, Fretted with amber. Near, a silver lamp Fed with most fragrant oils above her drooped, And from her left hand drooped a woven wreath Of myrtle and young roses of the prime. So sat the Ladv Countess Blanchelvs 90 LIBER AMORIS. And listened, while a service of sweet sounds From voice and murmuring harp and soft citole Grew up and died like a fine fragrance. Then A glittering herald came, and stood, and made His clear- voiced proclamation ; " Hear, hear ! Know all ye present that this Court of Love Is duly opened." And forthwith a scribe Rose in his place with scroll in hand, and called ; " Let young Sir Dorian first stand forth and say Wherefore he seeketh to be one of us. What hope, or grief, or love-thought leads him hither ? Is his heart pure ? And can he take these vows Upon him, swearing fealty to our laws ? " And Dorian stood before the queen and spake ; " If ye shall judge me worthy, gracious queen, Ladies and lords, to take your holy vows And be Love's vassal, sure I am that He Who led me hither, will lead me to life's end. No blossomed hope, no withered vow, no thorn LIBER AJ10BIS. 91 Of spurned affection, bring I here to-night, No hate, sprung of false fancy, no black dream Of traitorous kiss that sears both lip and soul. For though Love's war rings round me, Love as yet Holds but the suburbs of my soul. As one Who am not even a novice in your church, Unchristened and uncatechised I come. But wherefore come I, know this simple cause, And solve my dream. Such dreams are oft from God. 'T is scarce a twelvemonth since I bade farewell To one, my comrade of collegiate years, My first friend, in whose friendship love grew strong. Three days he tarried in my father's house And then departed. On that day at eve, Alone I wandered whither fancy led. And as I strayed through lawn and grove, or stepped Out of the moon's white glory, and sank again Into the gloom of woodland ; line by line, Across the tablet of the dusk, there grew 92 LIBER AMORIS. The face clear-featured of this late-gone friend, Eising before me as one newly dead, Whom thought decks in all virtues. Oh ! he looked Like the strong morning sun, — a power full-sphered For knowledge and for action ; no gay god Of gold and ivory soothed with flute and lyre, But like some iron-moulded man, whom Thor Himself might well have hammered out with storms And clothed in cloud and lightning. Such seemed lie, And each remembered word of his seemed part Of what he was ; as thus, when he w^ould say That man's chief end on earth should ever be To know and do, and by such steps to climb Into the clefts of power. Thus in mine eyes He shone above me, and he looked so large Through the warm clinging mists of memory, High, unattainable as the sun in heaven. Then wearied I sank down, and leaned against The many-centuried trunk of a huge tree ; And slumbering there I dreamed, and in my dream LIBER AMORIS. 93 I saw the round great moon sail slowly down Like to a silver galley, in whose arched stern, As in a fanlike shell, two figures couched, Each with his hand upon the helm. The one Was pale and cold, clothed in a lucent veil Sprinkled with stellar lights ; the other showed A body naked, all of ruddy flame, And on his brow burned the sole star of morn. The first said ; ' I am Thought ; and but for me This mate of mine would perish self-consumed.' But the other, kindling, answered ; ' I am Love ; He cannot leave me, or he dies for cold.' Then both cried ; ( Seeing thou must sail with us, Choose, therefore, which of us shall hold this helm.' And I chose him whose body was all flame, Who, beckoning, took the helm, and I awoke." Sir Dorian ended. Whereupon the queen Sent forth her soft command that he should go Out of the hall of audience, while her court 94 LIBER AMORIS. Conferred in gentle parle and brief debate. This done, the young knight stood a second time Before the queen ; and when great silence came On seat and stall, she raised her eyes and spake ; " Thrice happy must we deem his lot, fair Sir, Who not alone with lance and touch of harp Can clear a wide way through the mouths of men For his young name, but who can also choose By his sole self such guides to lordliest life, As thou. For as our dreams are, such are we. Our dreams are but the mirrors of ourselves ; We shape in thought what soon we dress in deeds. And what we daily do within the heart We grow to be. Our visions are ourselves. But touching those two shapes which thou didst see, Be this the interpretation, these the thoughts Which Heaven perchance would send thee. Not the sun, LIBER AMORIS. 95 Not such as thou didst vision forth thy friend, Not Knowledge, nor high Action, as men hold, Nor Power drawn out through these, is Life's chief crown. Love's rainbow-sweep o'erarches loftier things Than aught we know or do. Oh ! what is Knowledge But fruitless garnered grain within the mind, Unless wrought out into some pleasant food For Thought to feed on ? Lo, all Knowledge dies, But Thought abides eternal. What we know, We never truly know till it be brought Within us, born as 't were a second time And imaged in ourselves. Then, even as sunlight Comes purer back in moonlight, so with man Knowledge reflected is Philosophy. Yea, and as Thought is always more than Knowledge, So is Love higher than work and all things done. For, whom w r e love we labor for, and whom We labor for we learn at last to love. Some souls are moonlike, others like the sun, 96 LIBER AMOBIS. And every life and shape that dawns on earth Is but the shadow of some mightier life That shines elsewhere for ever. Dost thou say, Thy friend did seem the sun ? Ah ! surely then Thy soul, Sir Dorian, hadst thou known thyself, Was liker to the moon, which stooping low Came near thee on that night, as though she sought To find in thee some reflex of herself. But further, when thou chosest Love o'er Thought As holder of Life's helm, I thus would warn thee. Say not with many who come hither ; ' Love Must live for his own sake, and so be served.' Hear me, Sir Dorian : If the love within thee, However holy, live for its own sake More than for those it loves, oh then farewell Love's triumph over death, farewell Love's last Fidelity made mightier by despair, Farewell the faith that follows its lost star Down through hell's whirlpools and great gulfs of night ! LIBER AMORIS. 97 Love living for himself is but a dead Kingdomless God shorn of his deity. If those we love be less than Love, what follows ? One dies, we say ; and soon another is sought To serve as fuel to the hungry flame That recks not how it feedeth, so it live. Therefore our court ordains that every one, Swearing allegiance to its laws, shall link His love and thought to one sweet name, which he Shall cherish unprofaned, and so make known Before us, ere a year has run its round. Love must bind Thought in links of gold, and Thought Must call up every Dream of glorious wing To build about that name, and shrine it close With hallowing splendor, till its sound has grown Like God's voice in the soul. Thus loving one Thou mayest love many, and rise toward Life's new morn. Such haply was the meaning of thy shield And the blue changing sky portrayed therein. 98 LIBER AMORIS. But now go forth ; no longer needst thou stay ; Go, and God speed thee ! More if thou wouldst know, Or if my farewell words might lay one law On thy departing steps, this shalt thou do ; Take thou the travelling staff and black rough robe And leathern girdle such as pilgrims wear, And steer thy footsteps to Thuringia's land. There in its forest border thou shalt find The dweller of an ancient hermitage, The slow-paced shadow of its shades, a man Of power and ministering gentleness, Of holy heat, but calm persistent strength, Grave-tongued and of most comfortable words ; A searcher of all secrets, a deep seer Through the star-motioned mazes of men's lives. A gift he hath of prophecy, and he knows The heart of Love. His thoughts are God's. But now Before thou goest, kneel and swear ; then rise Love's bondsman and a vassal of his court." LIBER AMORIS. 99 So Dorian knelt and took Love's vow, and kissed Christ's holy book ; then rose and rode away. Hast thou not, Basil, often called on faith To flatter fancy when she sweetly told, How somewhere in this earth, beyond the din Of traffickers and courtiers, there lives yet Some isle or valley or woodland wilderness, Eich in the relics of that innocent age "When men were more like Gods, and Gods like men, And when Gods walked with men, nor sat aloof Looking at earth as at an alien star, But came so near, that stream and plant and bird, Beast, Man, and God, all felt, in woe or weal, In strength or sickness, one inseparate life ? In such a land, and deep within the bourn Of its life-teeming, self-sequestered shades, Did Dorian stay his steps. It was a place 100 LIBER AMORIS. Of verdurous glades, the realm of sheep and deer And squirrels and all gentle birds and beasts, And great oaks girt with mistletoe, whose growths Had long outrun the pruning hands of Time, Their ancient forester, who slept in peace Beneath them ; and their arms, old as the heavens, Seemed holding up each star in its bright place, While, shod with moss, their feet were footstool'd on The dark roots of the world. And there were dells Deep-gloomed, and oozy grots where goat-foot shapes Sprawled out their shaggy strength and dozed and dropped Their half-blown reed-notes down their mossy beards. And there were thickets thronged with phantom fears, And hollow places haunted by grey dreams And aspirations of half-shapen lives, And lairs, from out of which seemed issuing LIBER AMORIS. 101 Existences, Events, and Hours unborn With Prophecies of yet unhistoriecl years And all beginnings of strange things to come. Passing through these as through a vestibule Dim-lighted, he sank down into a lawn Columned on either side with double rank Of giant elms, that mingling in the midst Wrought high a leafy minster-gloom with boughs Upspringing in steep fountains of green spray. There at the farther end, reared altar-wise, Gleamed a small temple-front ; and from before it A pebble-fretted stream through the mid lawn Pan murmuring like a clear small harp, or fell In a flute's falling tone. And here were swells Of fresh turf tapestried with primroses And violets, — the innocent bridal beds Of elves and fays on sweet midsummers night, Now near at hand. And here grew purple bells To ring the faery chimes when they were wed, 102 LIBER AMORIS. And yellow cup-like flowers to glad their feast With holy dew, the vintage of the stars. " This is in sooth the place, and these the shades, And yonder his retreat of whom she spake," Said Dorian ; and with lifted hands he knelt, And kneeling prayed ; " Love, most mighty Lord, King of all mysteries, maker of the morn ! Grant me such favor in thy sight this day That I may glean from off thy prophet's lips The wisdom leading to eternal peace." Scarce had he said, when from a neighboring lodge Half hid in leaves a white-haired senior stepped. Close-girt in crimson cassock, he drew near. His hoary locks were ivy-bound, his face Was full of deity ; who came and spake ; " Lo, I am he thou seekest. Follow me To where yon temple-whiteness calls my feet. There tarry awhile, and I will speak with thee." And Dorian rose and followed him, and came LIBER AMORIS. 103 To where the temple-whiteness nestling gleamed Against a darkening wall of shade, that rose Behind it as a rood-screen. Coming there, He saw how all the sylvan lawns were strewn With little companies that walked apart Or waited or sat silent on the grass. And some were calm and free, some wondrous sad ; Others were sorrowful exceedingly, And others looked unutterable prayers Toward Death, who answered them and said, "I come.'' Basil ! 't would have wrung thy heart with ruth To hear them weep. Of such there were full many ; Tor more than we take note of droop and die Daily for some poor drops of common love. And far beyond the places where these mourned He spied through browner shades and silences A nook of greenery, where the birch sighed slow Her requiem of falling leaves, while earth Like a kind mother folded back full oft 104 LIBER AM ORIS. Her robe of grass and whispered, " Child, thou art tired ; Lie down and dream awhile. In such a spot It were no death to die." But now a sound Called back his wandering glances to the shrine Out of whose dimness there rose, prelude-like, A slow-aspiring incense of soft song From sweetly-wedded voices ; and that seer, With sable pall about his shoulders thrown, And chalice in his hands, down-stepping came To some wiio waited on the lowest stair, Kneeling in supplication, and he spake ; And he made answer in rough organ-tones, As though the crashing seas he late had sailed Still spake in his deep accents ; " I had hoped To bow these knees ere~ now beneath the feet Of Christ's great Yicar, and to hear his lips Pronounce the final pardon. But what then ? LIBER AMORIS. 251 What words did ever fan the fireless flax To living flame again ? I need not thee, Nor any of thy sort, save for such balm As this my child may afterward enjoy From thought of this thy coming here to-night." Whereto I made reply, imploring him To make a last confession of his sin, Whatever it might be ; I was as God, To bring him there the promise of God's peace. He answered ; " For the unpardonable sin There is no pardon : that thou knowest well." And then he fetched a heavy sigh, that spake A heart o'erlabored with its ghostly pangs ; And his lost soul seemed as a sinking bark That heaves in anguish, toiling toward the shore. I, waiting till the spasm had spent its force, Sought, in the calm that followed, how I might Come near his soul's distress, beseeching him To tell me his offence ; " And where is he," 252 LIBER AMORIS. Said I, "whose widest wanderings ever found A path that passed beyond the rounding rim Of the great Mercy throned above us all ? " To which the man made answer ; " Murder done, And done as this hand did it, may not kneel Before life-giving God, or sue his grace, But waits for ever in the outer dark, Unpenanced and unpardoned. Not those drops Outsweated by the brow of Christ, or drawn From his spear- wounded heart, can still the voice Of that pure blood wherewith I have stained this earth." He ceased, and soon his thoughts were lost again In audible communion with himself ; " Oh, if it had been ye, mine enemies, Whose hearts my slaughtering sword had riven in twain, There had been hope. Oh, had it been but ye, Ye who so oft have struck me in the strife LIBER AMORTS. 253 And shouldering madness of the market-place, Ye who have overreached and undermined And dug about me, compassing my fall, Ye who have strewn my prosperous path with stones, "Who scorpion-like have fastened on the heel That passing spurned or dazzled you ; or ye, Ye who could mock me when the tender flowers Of home dropt into darkness one by one, And all my wealth, as golden quicksands, failed And melted fast beneath my sinking steps, As low and lower I sank toward my despair, — Oh, if it had been ye at whose curs'd lives That sword of mine had thrust, there had been room For hope of pardon ; for w here deep-sown wrongs Spring up toward heaven in harvests of revenge, And hate engenders hate, there still is hope That God may light the soul's repentant showers With some faint rainbow of absolving grace. But it was none of these whom then I smote, Then in the self-made madness of my soul; 254 LIBER AMORIS. But it was thou, my friend, my foremost friend, Thou for whose heart I pledged a brother's heart, And for a brothers won a lover's love, Who didst me never a wrong, but wert as he Of whose love long ago one weeping sang And said ; ' Thy love to me was wonderful, Passing sweet woman's love.' Ev'n him I slew, — And all for nothing, save some flying gleams Of power and place and a few grains of gold, And such accursfed creeds as lead poor men To deem they render service to high God, To Christ, and holy Church, by deeds like mine ! Oh, lost, lost, lost beyond all hope is he Who parts with Love as lodestar of his life ! Who craves no Knowledge save what leads to power! Who, when he can not quench the light without, Then frames an inner darkness for his soul, That he may freely do whate'er he will, Unchastened by self-blame ! O'er such there falls The night to which no daylight ever dawns." LIBER AMORIS. 255 I said within me ; ' Could I now unweave This one tyrannic woe, and draw his mind To break each smaller separate thread in turn, I might release him ; as the conqueror once Who crossed the impassable river which he clave In many a sluicfed stream.' With such intent Once more I turned me to that suffering soul, And prayed him earnestly, whilst thought and speech, Those mint-marks of man's nature, yet remained, That he would briefly bring in order forth Such thoughts as were the fuel to his pain. What, Basil, wouldst thou think if in some mart Of foreign folk a stranger held thy sleeve And told thee there thy never-uttered love And secrets of thy soul ? Wouldst not thou feel Like him who, hearing suddenly in the streets Some sweet familiar music long unheard, Turns in his musings tearfully toward the past ? Even so, my Basil, was it then with me, 256 LIBER AMORIS. As there T sat and listened through the night To that strange story, his, and also mine, — His tale of anguish, and my dream of love. Line after line, the picture of my past Gleamed through time's mists in many-colored lights, Like the rich-windowed West when daylight dies, — Those first fresh Paduan mornings ; that sworn faith Of the two plighted brothers at the feast Where great Apollo sang; that sacrament Of fire and bread and sleep which ever binds The guest to him who hosts him ; then that oath, That talisman and testamental gem Of Love's own presence ; last of all, that love Which she, the valley rose, had breathed on both, Blending all three in one. And then he told How he had soon forsaken Love, and sought Knowledge,. but Knowledge only that should lead To Action, that through these he might attain To Power and sovereign sway o'er mortal men ; How Love then rose and left him, and went forth LIBER AMOEIS. 257 Weeping, and from that moment life's wide ways Grew narrower, darkening on to fields of death; How the death-doing deed, which Satan's self Had scorned to do, was done in Christ's dear name ; How the gold, ravished from the friend he slew, Cancelled his exile's curse in the far North Whither he fled, and touched with blissful warmth And opened for him all the Norway shores And arctic isles and treasures of the frost, As on through nightless days and dayless nights, A trader then, he coursed o'er seas and snows, Bound on his perilous paths of merchandise. And then he told me how long years went by Unblest by love's warm light, till one came near Who seemed a spirit sent down to earth from heaven, Soft as a meteor of the boreal morn ; How in some sort he loved her, looked on her, And^felt he needed some one for a home. And so he married her, — as thousands more Who leave Love's altar, heedless of the truth 17 258 LIBEE AMOBIS. That Nature made not woman for the man, But man for woman. So he brought her home, Holding that God framed woman but for this, — To wed and weave and work and bring forth babes And serve the one whom marriage makes her lord. Soon was all labor and but little love ; And she, soft-framed for love, and seeking such, Pined inwardly with uncomplaining looks. And every new-born boy, of six that came, Grew as the pale flowers in a sunless place Which droop for want of warmth and wooing winds And kisses of the sun ; till one by one They died, and after many years there came This last, a daughter, whom her mother mamed Una, — " My only one," she used to say, " My one, my only one, my last one left Of all my little love-created flowers, My death-belated lambs who lost their way Down the dim pastures where T soon shall come." And so she pined for lack of love, and died. LIBER AMOEIS. 259 And when she died, above her grave soon sprang The black and bitter fruit of loveless years. Not the fruit only was he called to taste, But a dark death-wine pressed from out that fruit Such as he drained to its last bitter lees. For his love-lacking usage of his kin Passed out into the world, and now returned To bring him Love's revenges, and to prove That ofttimes lack-love is the heir of hate. So what he first had meted out to men, Men measured now to him. Oh, how they danced Over his downfall when at last it came ! But he, as a lone lion stands at bay, Stood there defiant, nor to man or God Looked he for love or mercy in his need. Had he not met the justice that he gave ? Who shows not mercy, let him look for none. For pity or pardon why look up to God ? Is not God always just so much to man As men are to each other ? " Yet for her, 260 LIBER AMORIS. For her dear sak:e," he said, "am I now come Thus far toward Rome ; for I had hoped to hear The last absolving word from God's high priest, And haply find some holy haven there For my poor homeless Una. Mother-like, Though but in thought a child, how has she watched My every step, look, breath, and brought me hither, Her heart a soaring pillar of gentle fire, Her speech my hourly manna. One by one, Dire need has taken from our sorrowing sight Trinket and treasured symbol of past years, — Yea, such necessity three days ago Stripped the last sun-drops from yon jewelled hilt. But she, though hope may pass, and all things fail, Yet fails she never. Oh, God grant thee, child, His peace, — the peace that never can be mine ! " With claspt hands, claspt yet closer to my breast, As though I would gird-in this bursting frame, I listened ; then my eyes declining slow LIBER AMORIS. 261 From the carved ceiling to the floor, I marked The unjewelled sword that hung against the wall, My father's parting gift. Then mightily I cried in silence to the silent God, Asking that I might someway save this soul Through Love's own power ; but first that I myself Might rise and touch and taste the perfect gift Of Love in mine own spirit. Turning round, I looked upon his face. I knew him then, I saw him as he was. Great Death stood near, And all things now seemed nothing. Love alone Eemained. Upraising slow his dying hand, "This hand," he cried, "this curs' d hand took his life ! Come, Death, and stamp these fingers into dust . . . Their deed can never die. My soul is lost, — Oh, lost, for ever lost ! " And the hand fell ; And falling, lo, its finger-gem outflashed A light that spake the present talisman Of Love, who outlives all things ; and I thought ; ' Who keeps Love's symbols, Love shall keep him still.' 262 LIBER AMOBIS. Then, drawing nearer to his side, I said ; " It had been well if this thy failing strength Could have sustained thee till thine ears had heard The pardon thou desiredst. But behold, That door is shut. Are all doors therefore closed ? Look up; for though all lights on earth go out, The stars are overhead. Why may not I, I who am come as courier of high Love, Bring thee the sentence which thy soul would hear ? Upon this head of mine and on this heart Have not the ordaining hands been long since laid ? I also may absolve thee." Whereto he ; " I need nor thee, nor any of thy kind, To tell me that, which a far holier voice Than thine or any priest's on earth must breathe In this mine ear." "And wdiose," I said, " whose voice Is holier than that God's whose voice I am, — Whose mouthpiece are all those that speak the truth?" "Nay, nay," he answered sternly ; "one alone LIBER AMORIS. 263 Can speak the pardon, — he whose voice and face Are far from where I speak, and farther yet From the drear night whereto I soon descend, My last abode for ever." " Oh, what if he," I answered, " what if he should now return From the bright isles beyond the mists of death To tell thee that his only woe is this, That thou dost travail with a w T eary load, Which he w^ould die again to lift from thee, — Say, wouldst thou then receive the pardoning word, And be at rest, and go this night to sleep In the deep peace that broods above the stars ?" And he, with that cold smile incredulous Which brought him back yet clearer than before ; " The dead return not ever ; and if he could, He whom I slew, — of this I am full sure, That violated love, though strong as his, Could not but start aghast and shrink aw T ay Far from the presence of a soul like mine." " Listen," I said ; " I bring thee news from heaven. 264 LIBER AMORIS. He whom that hand of thine once felled to the earth, Restored in spirit is waiting at thy side To tell thee thou art pardoned ; he is here. Dost see him by thy bed ? " Then he to me ; " Now verily thou liest, thou false priest. Hence, hence ! Go crave that pardon from thy God Which thou wouldst palm on me ! " " Ev'n while we speak," I answered, " thou mayst see his pale grey shade Beside thy couch, ay, near enough to touch That hand, once raised against him, which yet wears The testament and talisman he gave thee. Himself now speaks to thee. Hearst not his voice, Ev'n now pronouncing pardon ? " And the man, With slow void looks cast round him to the right, Turned his eyes farther away from where I sat, Answering, " I hear no voice on earth but thine Pronouncing pardon." " Hearing mine," said I, " Thou hearest Dorian's voice ; for I am he." LIBER AMOBIS. 265 What followed those last words, oh, who can tell ? With one wild cry he hurled him from that bed And claspt my knees, and was as one disarmed In mortal fight who holds his enemy's feet And looks entreaties for his life, and hangs 'Twixt love and terror, gratitude and awe. So Eupert held my knees, like one who clings To what he fears, and shrinks from what he loves. And there he knelt, nor any word he spake But " Dorian! Dorian ! " clinging close to me. Then silence passed, and poured itself in showers Of a most healing grief ; and he and I Embraced and wept, and those around us wept. Oh, there are moments in man's mortal years When for an instant that which long has lain Beyond our reach is on a sudden found In things of smallest compass, and we hold The unbounded shut in one small minute's space, 266 LIBER AMORIS. And worlds within the hollow of our hand, — A world of music in one word of love, A world of love in one quick wordless look, A world of thought in one translucent phrase, A world of memory in one mournful chord, A world of sorrow in one little song. Such moments are man's holiest, — the divine And first-sown seeds of Love's eternity. And such were those last moments when I sat Beside my long-lost friend, soft-laid again In what no longer was his lair of death, But now his bed of glory. Life, all life, Its terrors and its tumults and its tears, Its hopes, its agonies and its ecstasies, Its nights of sorrow and its dawns of joy, Its visionary raptures and its dull, Death-darkened hours, its longings, losses, gains, Curses and cries and lamentations loud, Sins, frenzies, and despairs, the monstrous births Of thought and action groping for the light, LIBER AMORIS. 267 The false, the true, the night's red underworld Of nadir darkness, and the zenith stars Lost in their spheral music beating time To every heart that hates or loves or mourns, — These now were one, and I was one with these, And these with me through Love's transfusing power That passed upon me then. There as we sat, — My brother and I, my brother made anew, My brother thrice made mine, for ever mine, Made one and equal with me through Love's might, — We felt all space was ours, all time was ours ; We were as those that reign above the worlds ; And in our souls we saw the light round which All multiformal things grow uniform, The many sing as one. And we were one, Calm-seated in the heaven that overflows With the world's music of perpetual peace. Then, as the night grew darker toward the morn, And on from year to year our thoughts flew back, 268 LIBER AMORIS. As birds from land to land, and his brief speech Came brief and briefer with his sinking strength, He oftentimes would turn to me and say ; " Sweet brother, if an angel sent from God Had brought me word, I scarce had then believed That thou couldst thus forgive, or I receive What I disdained to take, as undeserved. But now, behold, I take, and take with love Grown larger, what thou givest, and ask but Heaven And Heaven's long summer to bring forth to thee My riper love for recompense." And I; " Though I had given thee all things, yet must Love Still count me as thy debtor whilst I live. Live, and owe nothing ! What does Love not owe ? Poor bankrupt Love, who would, but can not pay For each day's feast, nay, hath not wherewithal To fee the servitors of his hourly wine, So pawns his diadem, and at last himself, LIBER AMORIS. 269 And hugs the debtor's manacle, and so reigns, A splendid spendthrift and a beggar king. But he who loves not, owes not anything. So saith he to his thoughts, w^hich slowly turn Deathward, and straight he dies within himself, Disfranchised from the commonwealth of worlds. And such, sweet Eupert, is the crowning truth Which thou and this rememberable night Have brought me. Now I know that ev'n when Love Has lavished all things from his treasury, Yet hath he ever something to bestow. Forgiveness is Love's gift when nought remains For even Love to give. Oh, I have known Full many who, like Gods, shower on the world Their largess ; yet if thou shalt search their heart Forgiveness is that last long-hoarded coin Which they withhold, though giving all besides. Till we have reached far down and brought up this Out of that secret coffer kept for self, We love not as He loves who leads the stars. 270 LIBER AMORIS. Nay, but I know not if the God unseen Makes not this thing a part of those fine bonds Whereby He binds us closer to Himself, Loving not only for the gifts He gives, But for the sins He pardons. dear heart, 'Fore God I speak the truth ; I love thee more For that which I forgive, than if such things Had never been. I owe thee more, dear Eupert, Than this my pardon or absolving word Can e'er repay. Through thee, in part through thee, My love has been made perfect." Hearing this, With either hand in Una's and in mine, He raised his eyes toward heaven, and answering said; " Love, thou hast conquered. At thy feet I lie. Now lift me from the dust into thy throne Of pure unpassing peace. I left thy light, I broke thy covenant and forsook thy ways, I sinned, I strayed from thee, I turned aside LIBER AMORIS. 271 From following thy broad footprints, I pursued But Knowledge and high Action and the paths That lead to Power supreme. My life is passed, — A broken plan, a failure, a defeat. But by thy might, Love, I rise again, Reconquering what I lost, — a realm within, And this dear hand and presence, and a heart That never left thy light. Two parted streams, Re-mingling, now we move toward thy deep sea. The memory of thy powder which followed me, The hope that, if I kept this charmful spell To life's last day, I might at last be saved, The spell fast bound upon this sinning hand, Were thine, and now have brought me back to thee." Thus as I sat beside him, soul with soul, Mingling in love and silence, I did feel As I have felt full oft at eventide When summer wanes, and autumn, as a king, Waits on the dreaming threshold of the woods 272 LIBER AMORIS. To robe himself in pomp of saddest gold, And those two lights, disparted for a day, Meet for one short calm hour and mix their beams ; Till the sun saith, ' Thy softer might prevails/ And solar strength dies out in lunar love, With Love's one star to bless them. So he passed Out of these shadows to the perfect light ; And when he passed, we could not think it death, So gentle and so lovely was his sleep. Long o'er the father's face the daughter wept, Close-couching to his side, and whispering him Such secret love-words as a maiden's breath Sighs in her lover's ear when none are nigh. And then she came to me, and held and kissed My hands, and laid her head upon my knees, And spake her sorrow. "Thou art all I have," She said. " Oh. nearer now than flesh and blood, LIBER AMORIS. 273 And henceforth as my father ! " Soon we rose ; And, with her arm en wound with mine, we passed Slow through the sleeping streets, until we reached The mansion of the sisters of Saint Claire, Whose door fell back on ready noiseless hinge, Turning the outer darkness into light. And in that light my new child found a home. But look, my Basil, how yon window's width, Which waits for the first kiss of coming day, Shows its faint outline clear, and yet more clear, As the black marble of the solid dark Breaks in evanishing veins of white and grey. A stillness comes ; the world in worship kneels, And on its breathless prayer all-breathless falls The daybreak's benediction. Let me taste This sacrament of silence, brief, but sweet, And listen what my last dawn sings to me. 18 DAWN-SONG. DAWN-SONG. Hark, through the dark, far away, Clarion-voiced as a watchman's warning, Calls the loud bird of day On Mother Night for the birth of Morning ; And the East, that deathlike lay, Shakes his raven locks into grey, Ere they bloom into golden flowers inurning The sun's risen ray. And the daybreak's fountain is stirred In streaks that curdle to silver whiteness, And the morn's creating word Warms the heart of the dark to dreams of lightness. From the hill-crests bleak and bared Ebbs the night like a hope deferred, And my formless form through its darkling brightness Comes felt but unheard. 278 " LIBER AMOBIS. Pure as the wreathen dews Upshowered through the air with might and motion, When a gold-plumed eagle unmews His sea-sprayed wings o'er the dawn-red ocean, — I soar, and my wan cheek woos The roses that morning strews, Till my face, as a nun's in her rapt devotion, Glows warm with life's hues. Through hollows, o'er heights afar, The ghosts of grey fears in their flight are taken. Star fading fast upon star, As leaves from the forest of heaven are shaken, And the Day-God leads with his car All shapes that beautiful are, As he heaves to the hymn, which his harpstrings waken, His hall's cloudy bar. Over roses in Eden blown, The amber spoke of the smooth wheel flashes, Upbearing his chariot-throne, And the day's red wine on my feet he dashes From his cup bright with beryl stone, Till I burn from sandal to zone, LIBER AMORIS.. 279 And from under my feet, as sparks from their ashes. My da wnli glit is strown. Oh, think how in life's young dawn Such lights were the robes that I came arrayed in, When close in Love's bower withdrawn Thy heart wooed the rosebud heart of a maiden, Till thy looks turned pale and wan Toward my light, w T here it faintly shone, And she sighed to thee sad in her soul love-laden ; " Why wilt thou be gone ? " Is it day ? Or the slow up-rise Of the Moon that fans the white dawn above her ? Or Night with her mj^riad eyes To shine on the love-bound feet of the lover ? Or a lonely meteor that flies From its homeless immensities ? Or the last low smile on the clouds that cover The Sun where he lies ? " Look forth, O man ! it is day. Thy tears w T ere the seed for the light thou reapest, 280 LIBER AMORIS. For just before morning's ray The flood of the dark flows alway the deepest. Arise ! Oh, wherefore delay ? Why cleaveth thy soul to the clay ? Awake, arouse thee, thou that sleepest ! — Arise, come away. Where now is that bower whose leaves Once thrilled with the song of thy love-bird singing ? Why dwell in a nest that unweaves All hues of thy faith and fancy's bringing ? No shelter, no song it now gives But the crash as of dry dead leaves, While beneath bare boughs, with their dark sighs ringing, Thy soul droops and grieves. Why stay where the nightly fear Still whispers thee close with its awful, Whither ? Why tarry while year after year Unclothes thy house for the winter's weather ? While each star seems a falling tear For a star just laid on its bier, And the earth grows old, and the skies they wither, — Why tarriest thou here ? LIBER AMORIS. 281 And thy world becomes less thine own, And thou, as a traveller lost, belated, Hearest naught but the night-wind's moan, Where once at thine ear every love-sound waited ; And thy voice learneth griefs own tone, And thou gropest with tears and groan Through the gathering dark for the light uncreated, — Alone, all alone. Here the truths which men sought to prove Drop sweet to the lips in their full revealing From the boughs of Life's Tree, which move Through shadow of dreams into whispers of healing, And the Beauty toward which they strove Fills my world and the shapes thereof, And the stars are its thoughts, and the moon is its feeling, And the heaven is its love. And here is thy life's lost prize In the bowers whose emerald shades enshrine her 5 And oft as for thee she sighs, Her lute's low plaint sinks faint in its minor, And the April flows from those eyes Which are doors into Paradise, 282 LIBER A3I0EIS. Where, behind my dawn, like a dawn diviner, Thy dear Lady lies. Yea, behind this daybreak move The flowering dawn of a rich to-morrow And hours thou dreamest not of, Whose feet, set free from their wintering furrow, Shall lead, with light from above, To thy soul, as its brooding dove, Thy Lady of Comfort, thy Lady of Sorrow, Thy Lady of Love. Come hither ; why wouldst thou stay, These shores of the rose and the myrtle scorning ? Come hither ; wherefore delay To take Life's crown for thy soul's adorning ? Oh, hear what my dawn-voices say ! Oh, hear us, the children of Day, Whose feet are the light, and whose eyes are the morning ! Come away, come away ! PART FOUR. IV. Dawn, in whose smile the daystar only is left Of all the fading star-flowers of Night's crown, Grey borderer on the bounds of Truth and Dream, — Dreams pure as truths, and truths as fair as dreams, — How oft have I from this high convent tower Watched thee advance as though thou wert God's self, No divine Being as men oft misname him, But the perpetual divine Becoming, — Opening, like Life's illimitable flower, Light into larger light along these skies, Whilst from these skies, that loomed like misted hills, Morn broke in voiceless cataracts of white light Earthward, and slow the new-made earth came forth 286 LIBER A3I0BIS. Fresh from the lifted signet-ring of Night. Now Love's one star with self-surrendering love Fades as an unfed lamp and dies in day. Dear is the morning light of youth, and dear The scarce articulate speech of coining spring, And dear the firstborn glances that reveal A maiden's long-sought sweetness. Dear as these, As youth and spring and love, was thy first light That broke around me on that Christmas morn, When, once more seated by this fading fire, I found myself enfolded in such thoughts As Memory gives to Love to keep Love warm. The night had passed, and something said within ; ' The morning, lo, the morning is at hand.' I could not pray. Why ask for anything When everything in heaven and earth w^as mine, And I had seen her face and felt her love, — Her face and love, so like, so near to hers Who was my star in Paradise ? Now, Lord, Speak but the word, and bid me pass in peace. LIBER AMORIS. 287 And then, but not till then, I understood Why my unanswered prayer so long had knocked At every gate of God's death-chartered city, Praying that He would summon from among Those golden-tressfed Dreams that wait on Sleep Some clear-eyed Vision, child of Night or Day, To lead me till I came beneath the trees Where my lost Lady sits beside the well In whose pure deeps the pure may look on God. Oh, w r hy in dreams and trances had mine eyes Not seen my heart's desire ? Why had my soul Thus vainly ventured heavenward ? Love is sight ; 'T is only Love that sees. But perfect Love Is perfect vision, seeing into God. Thus as I sat before this dying hearth I thought how many a night with rush of wing My spirit had risen at the mighty sound Of some great sentence read, and I had soared, Circling from height to far ethereal height, 288 LIBER AMORIS. Toward highest heaven, blindly beating up Into its terrible brightness, seeing naught, But hearing only voices in deep talk, Like trumpets in the thunder. There I failed ; For strength to soar gives not the power to see. And then I thought of that my hideous dream, To which my own heart had unbarred the gates. And so I journeyed back by paths of thought To that deep source of all our sin and woe, — Love's incompleteness. Then I knelt and prayed That Love would lead me into larger light ; And even if he should lead me to no light, But into deeper dark, that I might go, Knowing that long ere light or dark were born, Love was, and though these perished, still should be. While thus I prayed, there passed upon my soul What seemed no common sleep, nor ev'n the trance Wherein the spirit sees, but looses not Its mortal moorings to its mould of dust. LIBER AMORTS. 289 It was no vision, 't was a passing forth Of mine own self beyond these bars of flesh To where my spirit soon shall make its home. For in all dreams whereof I ever told thee, Love not being perfect, part of self remained, And barred the pathway to what lay beyond. But in this last the whole of self went forth. Oh, never may I tell thee all I felt, Nor what in those brief moments I became ! I died ; and in my dying I beheld Beside me a fair shadow of myself That seemed to wait for me. I saw no more. Then headlong through the unfathomable abyss I sank, and seemed to sink for evermore, Until I faded back, dissolved and lost In the outer darkness where life's nothings lie. Then in a moment rising from the smoke And drift of all that once had borne my name, I found me on the brink of a pure flood, 19 290 LIBER AMORIS. Whose breathless mirror yielded to my gaze Myself now clothed upon with form and face Of that same shadow I had seen in death, — Another self, the same, yet not the same, But larger, lovelier, loftier than before. Again I stood upon that ledge of rock, Now raised to more ethereal altitude, And the same valley lengthened out through leagues Of light before me as I looked abroad. I saw no altar, heard no ruining stream Eoar down betwixt the cliff-sides bleached and bare ; But as a ship's keel sheers to right and left The steep smooth surge, so now each wall of rock Fell back in billowy greenness, and between A river of crystal clearness flowed and wound And widened upward to a lake that lay, Bound with a circlet of white strand, and strewn With blossoming island-bowers. Above them rose A mighty Mount, from whose far-folded heights LIBER AMORIS. 291 A dawn behind a slow-increasing dawn Seemed always coming, and from out its peaks, The home of holiest Gods, strange voices came, And murmured mystic words oracular, And thunderings and soft lightnings. On its brow And shoulders of imperial amethyst Lay seven great moonlike stars ; and now they slept, Dropping their dreams on men, or now, awake, Loosed some new thought in sevenfold music, heard Bound all that hillside crossed with silver threads Of streams unnumbered. Every thread of sound, A sweetly-separate chord, told its own joy To its own dell and overhanging bower, Or hurried down to join with choral shout The multitudinous anthem heard from far. But neither by the brink of that clear flood, Nor in those island-bowers, nor on that Mount, Saw I the visioned face which long I sought Sorrowing ; nor yet in stream or tuneful star 292 LIBER AMOBIS. Heard I that voice which, had I lain long dead, Yet hearing I had lived. Oh, what to me, Oh, Basil, what to any soul that lives, Are streams or stars or voices of the world, Or dawns of light on light, or tongues of Gods, Or gifts of sevenfold strength, or perfect Power, Without the presence of the face we love ? Even so felt I in that high-visioned hour : Without her, morn and noon with all their gold Were black as nether night. Again I looked To left of that great Hill, and there I saw A land warm-drenched with sunlight as with wine, A land of valleys that withdrew to hear Their own idyllic chant of brook and bower ; Mounts of .transfiguration, up whose slopes The voice of shepherdess and shepherd's reed Breathed slow the brooding heart in deep content ; Elysian meadows flowered with asphodel LIBER AJIOBIS. 293 And greened with the moist griefs that overflowed April's half-open eyes ; and woodland walks Warm with the feet of pastoral fantasies. But none of these could hold me. Soul and sense Still hungering passed them sorrowfully by, As to the right I turned where the great Hill Sank inward, cape on cape, with lessening shores Toward a great sea. On its horizon lay A night of wintry clouds and cold blue wreaths Now pierced with arrowy splendors of the morn. And through the nearer spaces of the sea What looked like barks of Ophir went and came, Each steered by a calm Dream whom men call Death. Some went, light-laden with a slumbering freight Of spirits, pale, unchapleted, unclothed, And seemed as those who had no country : these Sailed out of sight through doors of morn, and went Where they must wander for a little space, Wearing their robe of dust and mask of tears. 294 LIBER AMORIS. And other barks there were, which, passing these, Grew out of distance, growing like a light On the sea's verge, where one by one they rose, Each a fair-voyaged argo, on whose deck, Bright-vestured in the light of their new day, Were homeless, home-returning pilgrim souls, Ee-orient spirits like fair-stationed Gods, That from the dawn's bright gateway sailed and sang, Sending before them tidings of their freight Of life-balms and love-dedicated spice, Which they had sought and brought through perilous seas From sorrow-laden forelands, drear with loss, Black reefs of pain and dolorous shores of death. All these, and more I saw; but what I sought With tears, T found not, saw not anywhere. Then all the beauty faded, all the light Grew dark about me, and my spirit waxed Heavy with hopeless sorrow. And as a sheep LIBEB AMOBIS. 295 Eeft of her yeanling comes upon a place Wherefrom she thought full sure her lost lamb called, And coming finds it empty ; so I stood And gazed and grieved with grief wellnigh to death, Till toward that death which I so late had passed, My thoughts went darkening backward. Grieving thus, I turned to look my last, when straight in front, In the green bosom of the Hill, I spied A temple pure as the inmost light of heaven, That shone with pillared front and sculptures fair, Like a white-blossoming star of coming eve. Beneath, in loftily-shaded lawns there walked All who had loved the highest, all who had loved Much, and for Love's sake suffered much, and all Who had scorned themselves that they might serve dear Love, And go where Love should lead them, — Seers divine And Sages who had taught us, Poets crowned 296 LIBER AMORIS. With slow calm looks and high thoughts that flowed forth In full-mouthed music as they spake and moved Majestic. O'er them watched a citadel White with its temple, named the Beautiful, Bloodless in ritual and in memory, Save that within its innermost sanctuary The names of all who had died for Love's pure sake, And chiefly Christ's, our sweet and blessed King, Were kept in Love's rich book and blazoned there, With act and word and thought, in characters Of light, amid art's heavenliest imageries. There to the temple, with sweet-fingered lutes, Eapt eyes, and hymning voices, moved a band Of women ever beautiful and young, Bearing in chalices of fine wrought gold Spice and sweet wine and amaranthine flowers. A steam of precious gums, sighing to heaven Immeasurable sweetness, trembled slow From off an altar, fed with holy breath LIBER AMORIS. 297 Of low-sung litanies and answering sound Of flutes and harps that passioned back their prayer. And leading these with prayer-uplifted hands, White-stoled and brow-bound with the bud and blush Of love-warm roses, there I saw her stand, The apple of Love's eye, the taintless core Of Love's own heart, — ■ my Lady, lost Eoselle. She, when the prayer was ended, with a voice Which her hand followed, and deep-languaged look, Sang ; and her sisters ever and anon Took the song's burden from her as it fell, Sending soft answers back from lip and string, Deep intonations, sweetness mixed with awe, Like the slow roll of thunder in mountains heard Through sultry summer-noons. And thus to me, Fair as the light that leads the rising day, And turning toward me, sang my morning star. 298 LIBER AMORIS. Here where the violet's eye grows pale for love Of the young tree that shrouds her, where the tree Yearns all noon for the star half-seen above, — We wait for thee. Where dreams and visitations wait for flight, Where baby soul-buds drop down goldenly, To sail Time's wastes and break through birth to light, We wait for thee. Here suns and moons and great stars, rounding slow, Lead us from thought to thought, from sea to sea. From life to life man's generations flow r : We wait for thee. As ocean-drops, updrawn through infinite air, Fall on far hillsides, jewels bright to see, So rise thy tears, a crown for thee to wear. We wait for thee. Sayest thou, Earth's life alone is incomplete? Or sayest, None sorrow through the world but we ? Here too are voids, and here the vacant seat. We wait for thee. LIBER AMOBIS. 299 Now thou descendest toward the water's edge, Now thy lamp fails, and round thee drearily The surf-mists burn from rock and roaring ledge. We wait for thee. Why tarriest thou ? Why linger the slow wheels Of thy soul's chariot ? Wouldst thou not be free To taste Love's lips and loose their crimson seals ? We wait for thee. " I wait for thee." Oh, were not those my words To her, my Lady, when I waited once And watched for every crescent moon that filled Her cup with silver wine of monthly light ? " I wait for thee." Oh, there are words, good Basil, Words we have spoken on earth, which grow to be Songs that shall greet us at the gates of heaven. Then sight and hearing failed ; I knew no more. A bright cloud rose, the music sank, and I Died back into this body I had left Here seated senseless by this sinking fire. Far other notes now wooed mv waking ear 300 LIBER AMORIS. Than those first sword-like sounds that clave my soul Asunder when I started from that dream Of darkness, drowned in mists and moans of hell. Hard by yon casement as I stood and looked Downward upon the dawning streets beneath, Uprose the matin melodies and the chant Of singing men and maidens, winding slow, A rising river of music, sw^eet and deep, Till Silence as she lingered on the air Forgot that she was silence, and caught up The ascending psalm which told that Christ was born. The air was full of angels. Bastioned gate, Turret and rampire, belfry and steep roof, Smoked with the golden vapors mystical Outstreaming from bright shapes that waited there. And all the valley -hollows and the hills Above the valleys quickened into light, Full-filled with shadowy forms and such sweet sounds As never I had heard the like before. LIBER AMORIS. 301 And thou rememberest, Basil, how when lauds Were ended, and I entered this same room, Thou didst come hither privily, and didst say- That some among our brethren fain would know Through thee if God had shown me anything, By voice or vision, on that Christmas morn. " For surely," said they all, " our abbot's face Betokeneth something. Hath he seen at dawn A vision of God's angels ? If so be, He verily wrongs us if lie give us not Some little taste of that which the dear Lord Has brought in such full measure to his lips." And then I answered thee, that when the hour Was fully come, I would impart to thee, And through thee to my brethren, whatsoe'er Might ground them deeper in the peace of God, Or build them higher in love. For well thou knowest That these our high-built walls o'erflow not ever With froth and vapor of vociferous talk, The shallow, babbling streams of shallow minds, — 302 LIBER AMORIS. Not when in playful converse we may pace These sunny cloisters at the close of day And take our sport, nor when the reader leaves The lectern and descends unto his place And beechwood platter at our midday meal, Nor when we ease with interlude of smiles Our eyelids journeying through the parchment page At morning-tide. Not that our brethren go From hour to hour with beastlike muzzled mouths, As those who dare not speak lest they should err In speaking. Neither sharpen we our tongues On the cold whetstone of smooth circling phrase To point a ready foil for personal thrusts. Our talk has always been of thoughts and things, Not oft of others, never of ourselves. All through that Christmas morning here I sat And heard the festival sounds from street and lane Beneath me, and low answers from this hill Which drew about its forehead, hour by hour, LIBER AMORIS. 303 Some garland of new song, and fed my heart With harmonies unheard, and sat with you, Whose names I scarce could whisper to myself, — Piupert, Eoselle and Una, — musing oft On the last boon and benison sent from God Through the dark morning of the day of Christ. And as whene'er we see some gift of love, The giver and the gift seem always one, So through the day did all things grow more dear, And all things now seemed love-gifts from a God. In the far sweep of backward-looking faith I thought I saw, on the fair slopes of heaven, Love dying down to one small seed of fire, Self-buried in its furrow, where it slept ; And then an even-blowing wind of life Outf aimed it from the furrow, and it fell Deep in a maiden's bosom while she prayed. And there it slumbered, fed with silver peace, Till from the cloisters of her virgin frame One came, and that was Christ, — the travelling tent 304 LIBER AMORIS. For pilgrim Love, who more than once had come To earth in such disguise, and still would come And die and hide himself and come again. And then I thought that He whom we name God Was not perhaps some unit of cold thought Such as Greek sages gave to Christian saints, A primal number, lone, creationless ; But now He came to me, as oft before, The everlasting Twofold, ever one, The man and woman still inseparable. And as the absolute can never live Without its relative ; as silent space Knows nothing, never sees or hears itself Without time's measuring music ; as cold form Lies blind and blank till color comes with kiss And warmth outpoured upon it, such as once Elisha poured upon the lifeless child, — So God was now no longer unto me A lonely masculine might above the worlds, LIBER AM0R1S. 305 But as the man and woman, twofold life, Its married Law and Love, and these were one. And from their wedded love sprang forth a child, Their first-begotten son, whose name was Love, — Love their great heir, the lord of life and death, The holder of the keys to all we know And all the secrets of the unsearchable, The chalice-bearer of the worlds' life- wine, Bringer of light and steersman of the stars. On many a love-hewn highway like to this, Half faith, half fancy, such as poets choose, I went that Christmas morn, and since have gone. But say not, Basil, that I told thee such ; For every thought is not for every ear, And in a world where weakness needs must be, It is the unwise, but not the worst of men, Who do the worst ; till one would almost say, Old father Satan and his scapegoat sons Work far less mischief than the weak of wit. 20 306 LIBER AMORIS. Basil, my end draws near. Thou sure wilt say, ' Brother, why bendest thou thy passionate gaze Again and yet again thus yearningly Toward the fast-fading forms of yesterday ? ' J T is sweet. And this, besides, is Nature's law. As man fares nearer to the day of death, And feels the neighboring splendors of death's light That blanch his brows and blind his eyes, she sends Her angel, Memory, to turn him round And lure his hopeless looks from years to come, And wills that he look backward, lest that light Should blind him wholly. So with backward looks And walking backwards, man goes forth from life. And looking back on this brief tract of years, This tale told in the night, I now perceive What scarce-discernible consistencies And little concords mix in one man's life To mould it into unity with itself And bind its first beginning to its end. LIBER AMORIS. 307 fair blue shield, bedight with crescent moon And crumbling stars and planet of the morn, Which I uplifted to my comrades' cheer In Bomaiin's tiltyard on that day in June ! Thy narrow field of blue comes back this night Tn yon broad buckler of unbounded sky, Which thrice has stooped to greet us with its love, Thrice lighted and thrice lifted into songs Which we have heard in silence. fair Night, Now folding up thy star-book, scriptured thick With silver signs and parables unsealed Of truth which, opening, shall redeem the world ! Thy triple changing lights bring back to me The three chief mile-marks of my life ; thy songs Have led my thoughts from love to loftier love. And he, Love's pilgrim, who came first in black Through these bright embers, lays aside that black, The north- wind's dress of darkness, — he who came In grey, and then in white, now comes at last 308 LIBER AMORIS. In Love's completeness, clad in cloth of gold. The volume, which I sought but could not find, Searching the woodlands all that summer noon, Is now come back to me in worth and weight Eicher than heretofore ; and what of worth Love there has written, I have shown it thee, Unclasping and unfolding to thy sight All deeds, all words, all thoughts, not such as I, But such as Love himself has traced therein. For be it known, my brother, that man's heart Is the great Book of Love, — the Book of Life, The scroll of doom, where each one finds at last His sentence, and the immutable decree Of life or death, his heaven, or else his hell. Brother, I die. Ev'n while I speak I hear Along Life's corridors the coming feet, — I feel Death's groping fingers, I await His rending of the veil of this weak flesh, That shall let loose the morning light, while I LIBER AMORIS. 309 Pass far within the holiest place and meet My crowned love face to face. Look, Basil, look On this low hearth-fire, dying as I die ; See its last tongue of flame, that slowly spires Upward, and seems a monumental light Unquenchable, lifting its ensign high Above the grey dust of each buried spark. Oh, tarry a moment till I take from thee A prophesying symbol of the day, Whose dawn already whitens through yon East ! The Hour is coming — hear ye not her feet Falling in sweet sphere-thunder down the stairs Of Love's warm sky ? — when this our holy Church Shall melt away in ever-widening walls, And be for all mankind, and in its place A mightier church shall come, whose covenant word Shall be the deeds of love. Not Credo then, — Amo shall be the password through its gates. 310 LIBER AMORIS. Man shall not ask his brother any more, " Believest thou ? " but * Lovest thou ? " till all Shall answer at God's altar, " Lord, I love.'* For Hope may anchor. Faith may steer, but Love, Great Love alone, is captain of the soul. But I grow cold. Come nearer, brother Basil ; Come, fold me in thine arms, and hold me close, And let me take one last look in thine eyes And hear thee say ' Farewell ' before I go. The flagging spirit of this last weak flame Drops lower, and dies along the hearth. And see How Day draws forth his ploughshare on the Night, Furrowing the dark, and the dun fields of death Grow red with broad-sown lights that spring and burst In buds of fire, and Morning's passion-flowers Unfold through the bright gardens of the Dawn. They bow, they tremble to the waking wind, Which heaves on high the streaming vapor-drifts, And great God comes, the Lord of lights. Afar LIBER AMORIS. 311 On azure floor-work flash his feet of gold. A low wind breathes, and with the rising wind What voices call me ! Hear'st thou not their song ? " We wait for thee, we wait for thee." Again I hear them, and my cold veins creep and flow Like frozen currents touched with Life's new spring, Or new-born streams that tremble for the sea. And hark ! above those voices, like a light Above the light, I hear her voice, — 't is she, — " Aurelius, ho, Aurelius ! " and once more, "Aurelius, ho, Aurelius, come away!" Quick, brother Basil, hold me ! Haste ! I fall. Death — God — Eoselle ! I come, I come, I come ! REFERENDA. REFERENDA. P. 39. Who knows not hoiv the Saabian bugle blew. Cf. Dante, Paradiso, iii. 118. " Quest' e la luce della gran Gostanza, Che del secondo vento di Soave Genero il terzo, e 1' ultima possanza." P. 79. As yet he loved not. Cf. S. Augustine, Confessions, book iii. c. 1. " Nondum amabam, et amare amabam. . . . Quaerebam quod ama- rein, amans amare. . . . Amare et amari mihi dulce erat." P. 120. Tlie Lady of Comfort Cf. Gesta Romanorum, Tale lxiii. (Swan's tr. ). "The Emperor Vespasian had a daughter called Aglaes, whose love- liness was greater than that of all other women. It happened that as she stood opposite to him on a certain occasion, he considered her very at- tentively, and then addressed her as follows : c My beloved daughter, thy beauty merits a loftier title than thou hast yet received. I will change thy name ; henceforward, be thou called The Lady of Comfort, in sign that whosoever looks upon thee in sorrow may depart in joy.' . . . But a certain knight, who dwelt in some remote country, came to the gate of the palace, and when she was called, the knight accosted her in these words : ' Fair damsel, thou hast been called the Lady of Comfort, because every one who enters thy presence sorrowful returns contented and happy.' " 316 REFERENDA. P. 134. Roselle. Cf. Chaucer, The Court of Love. " For all here bewtie stode in Rosiall, She seemed lich a thyng celestiall." " And softly thanne her coloure gan appeire, As rose so rede, throughoute her visage alle, Wherefore me thynke it is according here, That she of right be cleped Rosyall." "And eke my lady Rosyall the shene, Which hath in comforte set myne harte, I wene." P. 159. Already France Has raised the Cross against them. Cf. Guizot, History of France, chap, xviii. "The King- ship in France." Michelet, History of France, chap. vii. P. 240. Oh, how shall I admire, laugh, sing, and dance. Cf. Tertullian, De Spectaculis, c. xxx. " Quale autem spectaculum in proximo est adventus Domini ! . . . Quae tunc spectaculi latitudo ! Quid admirer ? quid rideam ? Ubi gau- deam, ubi exsultem, spectans tot ac tantos reges . . . item praesides, persecutores dominici nominis, ssevioribus quam ipsi contra christianos ssevierunt, flammis insultantibus liquescentes ? " Aug. 15, 1885. Nov. 17, 1886. 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