Book. (3 %^ 1 ^ Copyright N? GOEmiGHT DEPOSrr. IN THE GRAY and OTHER POEMS BY JOHN W. COSTELLO BOSTON ROXBURGH PUBLISHING COMPANY INC. -^'S^" Copyrighted, 1917 By JOHN W. COSTELLO All Rights Reserved APR 18 1918 OciA ::;J(i47 ^ c I CONTENTS PAGE In The Gray 9 The Freshman 93 Satan's Review 96 Offero The Giant 103 The Quadroon 119 The Reign of Cads 121 Mexico's Ailment 125 A Prayer 127 The Wise Crow 128 The Heiress 130 The Abbott of Padua 131 The Recluse 137 The Oak 139 The Pessimist 140 Thankful 141 A Slander 142 The Sport of Kings 143 The Chicago Girl 145 The Titanic 147 The Cubist 150 A Trip 152 Unrest 153 A Tortoise 155 Know Ye 157 The Bear 161 A Modern Diogenes 163 Won With Roses 168 A Modern Venus . 170 The Suffragette 171 The Oriental Bubble 174 Some Seeds 176 Theresa's Complaint 179 A Fairy 204 A Supplicant 206 A Multimillionaire's Death 207 IN THE GRAY IN THE GRAY My youth beside the Tennessee, Was like its rippling wave, as free, As free to revel, romp and roam. As any bubble in its foam; As free to follow wide and far. To demons as where angels are. But passing few are e'er defiled Among the crags of mountains wild; And fewer still to evil turn Where parents watchful hearthfires burn. II The grassy vales whereon we played. Were soft as silk on velvet laid, And stretched beside the winding streams,- The borderland of happy dreams. IN THE GRAY Bordering this the woodland knolls, In rich luxuriant verdure rolls; And spreading far o'er hill and vale, On lofty knoll and hidden dale, Hides every rent and scar of time, Except the sawmills' dust and grime. And higher still the barren peak. In silent splendor wild and bleak. Rears upward in gigantic form Its miser head above the storm. Ill The rude companions of my youth Were rich in virtue, faith and truth. And like the totem in the snow. Revealed their full ancestral show. In fault and folly, sin and crime, Of pensive age and youthful prime. We lived and loved in sinless ease, A simple life, not hard to please: Our wants were such as life commands. With naught of wealth or style's demands; And all our efforts bent in toil, Were spent in service in the soil. 10 IN THE GRAY IV My home of logs was rudely built With every door and wall atilt; The plumbline here was seldom known By architect on building stone. The rents with mud were plastered well; The floor was scraped with sand and shell; The roof was thatched with blue-joint grass From deep ravine or mountain pass; The chimney seemed as if it grew, A pile of rocks around a flue, With mammoth base and walls so thick, With here and there a sun dried brick. The sun it seemed shone every day, To lighten toil and brighten play; And then the angel of the night, A spendthrift was with mellow light: So day was bright as day could be, And night from murky darkness free. The clouds that rolled above our heads. Were like the vapor heather sheds, II IN THE GRAY And brought such gentle soothing rains, As spread luxuriance o'er the plains. VI Our lives were spent in happy glee And from the torrid temper free, With all of life to us a joy. Unmixed with passions base alloy; And not a fume of jealous hate E'er passed within our outside gate. We heard of life and love the best. And gossip gave eternal rest; Our playmates all were such as we. From envy, lust and hatred free. From selfishness and northern strife. And screed that taught not love and life. VII Along the streams plantations spread Like those by famed Euphrates fed. Of richness such as modern eye Could not in rustic grandeur spy. In architecture rude but grand, By neither Goth nor Grecian planned, 12 IN THE GRAY With spreading porch on every side, With doors for strangers open wide, The mansion in its splendor stood. Surrounded by the native wood. VIII Along the roads and shady lanes, Beside the brooks and grassy plains, And even in the belt of wood. The negroes happy cabins stood. Their music pealed above the free. Their laughter filled the day with glee; Their cares were simple, far and few. They only craved for what they knew; And simple too in style and taste. With needs of life to use and waste. IX When to our town one spring there came A cultured comely northern dame. Of angel figure and fairy face, Without a shadow or a trace Of want or fear, or toil or care, And just as pure as mountain air. 13 IN THE GRAY My life to her was there resigned, To her was given my dreamy mind, The moment when my tireless eye Her graceful form did first espy; My love for her was keenly set The time when first our eyes had met; And never till my dying day. Shall that first impress fade away. And Mary Preston was her name, Of Irish parentage she came. Was born amid the northern wild, A strong frontiersman's second child. Her brother's name was Bob, she said. And like herself was northern bred; And spirited and strong was he As any son of toil could be; And like the wilderness as true As any flower that in it grew. XI This maiden to her uncle came — His brother's child, she bore his name — 14 tN THE GRAY To grasp again the family chain, Those brothers to unite again, If not in flesh, with kindred ties Like those that bind in paradise: The band of love by nature given To bind us here to ours in heaven, And quicken in the flesh and blood The sacred flame of brotherhood. XII Those brothers through their toils and tears, Had never met for thirty years; And seldom from each other heard. Save by some passing stranger's word. John in his native state remained, But George ambitious northward strained. Pushed forward in the savage plains. In hot pursuit of worldly gains; And after thirty years of toil, In timber tract and in the soil, He sent his Mary South to see The kin he left in Tennessee. IS IN THE GRAY XIII So thus she found in narrow range, Her father's kin with little change; And simple as the southern life, Without a feud or note of strife. With faith as simple, kind and true. As that the first Apostles knew; Unchanged by creeds by doctrines wrought. Nor marred by learning's higher thought; Unchanged the custom, style and dress Of boorish prig or fair mistress. The only innovations known, Were by the foriegn travelers shown; And "poor white trash" and colored maids Who fell for those emblazoned braids. Were ridiculed for miles around. As freakish prudes of mind unsound. As aping in their rustic pride The whims of those more citified, — A crime in rural highlands known. Against tradition's sacred tone. XIV At church one eve in rustic pride. Kind fortune placed me at her side; i6 IN THE GRAY Where through the service long I sat, Observing her from shoes to hat; Unmindful of the holy word Which bounded from my ears unheard; Unmindful of the blessing given With grace and strength direct from heaven; Unmindful of the pious prayer, Beseeching heaven our trials to bear. The only object I could see Was she who seated next to me, Observed in glance and look and song, With senses verved and spirit strong, The blessing, prayer and sacred word, As if the first she ever heard Of Him, the Master spirit born. Like us, to give life's night a morn. XV The service o'er, she homeward turned, And then, ah me! with joy I learned That she like me should journey till We passed the woods and old saw mill. Together on this lonely road. We walked and talked of things abroad, 17 IN THE GRAY Of things quite common here and there, Of things much talked of everywhere, — The weather, wind and early frost. And what the careless planters lost, — We talked of everything but love, The only passion from above. Yet felt we much the sacred fiame, As both our hearts were just the same; For parting at her uncle's gate. With the excuse of being late, The hand she gave I gently pressed, And felt with joy my own carressed; Then passed she through the door from sight. With just a smiling, sweet "Good night." XVI Next night obeying my prompting heart, My errant fancy bade me start O'er many a rugged, tractless mile, To her dear uncle's domicile; Where to my joy she was alone. With every charm to beauty known. Upon her radiant form and face, To give them strength and power and grace. l8 IN THE GRA Y Awkward was I a rustic boor, At home among the riant poor; Before her angel presence shy, Not knowing what word or phrase to try. But she was born mankind to please. And soon my mind had set at ease; For like a gracious princess free To rule my thoughts whate'er they be. She lead me to her northern home, And opened wide her family tome. Of Brother Robert most she talked. As he in paths of angels walked. For he was mirrored in her eyes As one who lived in Paradise; As through his brief career he rose. Blessed by success and free from woes; Who in the starlight's frosty glare. Unarmed subdued a prowling bear; Or when the wolves the fold beset With foaming jaws the sheep to get, How brother Robert club in hand, Like Sampson on his native strand, Th'invading host with ease withstood. And stretched them in their sweltering blood. 19 IN THE GRAY XVII The things of which he was afraid, Were habits which mankind degrade; The stimulants of youthful blood, Which mislead promise from the bud. And change the heart of peace from grace, Grave early wrinkles o'er the face. And shape its victims for despair To grind and burden down with care. He loved to hunt the woodland game. The fawn and surly cub to tame; The forest's fiercest to subdue With gentleness and vigor too. When recreant of wood or field. To kinder treatment would not yield. She urged me northward him to meet Among his pets in his retreat; And vowed that friendly clasp so dear, Would e'er be mine at Ligonier, If I should journey north to see The proud oifspring of Tennessee. XVIII A custom much enjoyed by all. Our weekly meet, from early fall, 20 IN THE GRAY Throughout the winter chill and gray. Till Spring was well advanced in May, Together brought the youths and maids From planters' homes and mountain glades, In merry glee to dance and sing, With hearts as boyant as the spring. Our Minstrel, colored, old and blind, But quick of wit and keen of mind, The banjo played when one he had; Or in his gaudy raiment clad. Hummed with his lips in such a way, As baffled instrument to play. Like a zephyr the reeds among. The longed for tone fell from his tongue; And like the ricebird on the wing. He struck such notes as divas sing. He was beloved by all who heard His mimicry of woodland bird. And dearer still to those who knew The high ideals that in him grew. Though black his skin his soul was white, And always found in heaven's sight. 21 IN THE GRAY XIX Among the rustic youths and maids Of leisure life and various trades, We met again by rural chance, And joined together in the dance. The schottish, waltz, and maiden-steal. The slow quadrille, Virginia reel. Were danced by us to minstrel tone. As light as if our steps were blown By fairy wings across the floor. With here and there a touch-no more. XX Her partner I throughout the dance. And laughed we at our queer romance. And wondered if like stories true. Our own would end as novels do. I told her that I only knew For her my heart strings tighter drew. And placed me at her feet a slave. With just a single boon to crave. "And what is it.^" she quickly asked, "Since your bare soul you have unmasked, 22 IN THE GRAY Let me but hear your suppliant prayer, And all the hopes your fortunes share, And I, perchance, responsive may Grant all requests for which you pray." "'Tis yours," I said, "to hold the line. And draw my heart and soul to thine; For in my manner thou canst see That I am spent in pleasing thee." "Granted," she said, "whate'er thou ask, To grant such is an easy task." And laughing at my awkward way, "Those little things for which you pray. Like rhododendrons bloom in May, Are just the same throughout the year. When all the rest are brown and sere." XXI That evening on our homeward road, I did my burdened heart unload; And heard tripped from her northern tongue. In accents sweet as ever rung From music tone or siren voice. The words confessing me her choice. We loitered on our onward way, Until the mountain peaks were gray 23 IN THE GRAY With springtime's clear, ambrosial dawn, And distant stars were spent and gone; And talked we much of prospects dear To both our hearts the coming year. XXII The laurel and rhododendrons grew Beside the lawn the distance through, That brought us to her uncle's door. Where parted we so oft before; We said good night and kissed good-bye, With tears a few and much of sigh; For knew we well the coming day, Would see her on her homeward way; And from the distance perhaps she Would seldom think again of me. 'Twas thus I mused, while to my breast, Her gentle form I lightly pressed. And on her lips my last farewell Had left a ransomed soul as well. XXIII The days that followed lonely were, Lonely because I longed for her; 24 IN THE GRA Y I watched the mails in hopes to see The message from her home to me; And like the doomed in barren wild. Who heard the codes against him piled, Longed for a joy, a hope to see, A message that would set him free. So I a morose lover let My churlish nature firmly set. And saw through glasses dim the years Ahead all stained with blood and tears. Nor change it could I at my will, As hope and heaven were wanting still; And queer it was in gloom to brood. For one who knew not solitude. And queerer still to be alone With friends my infancy had known; But such was fast within my range, And I its prisoner could not change. But why I took such gloomy view, I could not answer, nor could you; For from the heavens through distance blind, Comes influence to mortal mind, And in the future perhaps we Shall all her myriad motives see. ^S IN THE GRAY XXIV At length the longed for message came, That set my heart and soul aflame, So tender, kind and trusting true. Profuse as ever lover knew; And yet reserved as maiden coy Will never write her deepest joy. I wrote her daily of my dreams, So filled with love's effulgent streams. That like the vineyard in the mould, A single seed grew hundred fold; And husbandries successful tales, Like minnows grew to monster whales. The origin of master men. Who rose to fortune, power and fame. The starting place, where to begin. That I might emulate each name. And make a fortune large and great Around my fanciful estate, Enmeshed me in ambition's web, From whence my languid life did ebb. A wild ambition in me grew. To strive for what is gained by few: The world's pleasure, power and fame, Retainers of the honored name, 26 IN THE GRAY Should all be mine when dreams come true, To share with her my fortunes drew; Her way to joy and comfort pave, Her life from struggling hardship save. XXV While I my airy castles built, A monstrous change came o'er the land; The people rose and stood atilt With pistol, gun or sword in hand; And like a flame the scourge of war Drove through our peaceful homes its car; And mustered from their peace the men, To fight, some rule of state to win. From every home the youths came forth. To slay their brothers in the north; And why from such a peaceful life There rose such hateful, dreadful strife, I did not know nor know I yet. Why North and South in combat met. Except that ranters seeking fame. Around our people fanned a flame. The nation seemed to fall in blight, A rock blown up by dynamite: 27 IN THE GRAY Each segment flew apart alone Whichever way the force had blown. My native taste, my Tennessee, Debated long where she should be; And twixt the nation and the state, She with her sisters joined their fate; And swung into the southern cause, To get the eagle's quills, — or claws. XXVI Recruiting now the task became. For those who skilled in fields of fame. Proffered their skill the youth to train. Teach him to love the game of kings. And rise triumphant o'er the strain, Where loud the martial clarion rings; His fellow man with joy to smite. For facing such as he In fight; Or stricken like a hero fall And perish in the angry brawl. Our God's command "Thou shalt not kill!" By Glory's slaves unheeded still. Throughout this wanton world is lost, Man on the tempest wildly tossed, — 28 IN THE GRAY The flotsam of our modern wars, A sacrifice to heathen Mars. XXVII So richly dressed in Southern gray, I stood as proud as bloom in May; And was pronounced by old and young, A knight as grand as e'er was sung To fame by minstrel's deathless lay, For spreading slaughter in his day. Beneath the soothing southern sun, Our martial training was begun: We marched upon the village street Until our burning, blistered feet Were caloused, scarred and weather worn, And by our footwear rudely torn. With guns we mountain lads had skill. And every shot was sure to kill^; For we were trained from childhood on In ways that fields of fame are won; And longed we for a chance to show Our sires our way to strike a blow. 29 IN THE GRA Y XXVIII Nor had we long to wait in vain, As soon our classic martial strain Convoyed us to a trysting ground, Where implements of war were found; And armed like Dame Fortune's knight, I sallied forth to join the fight. The bands where'er I turned mine eye, Were like the sirens standing by; Dispensing music and such strains As lifted souls above their plains. To higher realms, to glory's call, Where man forsakes his God to fall Before some Astorath of chance; And worship blindly each advance Of pagan power and heathen rule, Nor ever dream himself a fool. XXIX My heart was with the northern maid, And e'er for her and hers I prayed; But worst of all our stormy gale Shut off from me our northern mail, 30 IN THE CRAY And left me lonely in the storm, Without a word from her to warm My soul to higher, holier things, Where fond affection ever clings. Her silence led me to believe, That such as she would ne'er deceive; For such import her message bore, — The last from her, the one before The North and South connection broke, And strove to land a crushing stroke Upon each other in the fight. Or nobly perish "For the right." Throughout the toilsome march I thought Of her, and when I bravely fought Amid the shot and bursting shell, I prayed for her and hers as well As for myself, that God might save Us all from war's neglected grave. XXX Through dale and swamp our marches led, And everywhere our heroes bled; Contesting bravely northern claims On southern fields beside the James; 31 IN THE GRAY Defeated here, victorious there, We learned our ups and downs to bear. We learned the strength of freeborn men On every field we struggled in; And felt beneath the southern pines. An empire's puls-e along our lines. Beating like the upbraiding sea, Against our dire extremity; But like the hidden ghost of chance. We bravely checked its fierce advance; And forced our northern foes to flee To soil they blessed themselves as free. XXXI We saw their mighty captains fail, And heard their baflled chieftains rail. When northern son met southern sire, And fell before his withering fire; As onward rushing through the flood Of carnage in fraternal blood. We pressed through northern soil our way. And hoped when like a stag at bay. She'd see her error, sue for peace. And from our grasp seek her release. 32 IN THE GRAY XXXII A cry there came from out the west, That our brave brothers sorely pressed, Were beaten down and forced to yield On many a well contested field; And that a western warrior rose, Like Mountain peak above the snows, Where all could view him near and far, The grandest figure of the war. Our western lines he hammered down, And captured many a southern town. And spread dismay where'er 'twas known, A murmur like his name was blown. And yet none suffered from his hand, None ever felt his battle brand; For large was he of heart and mind. And strove for every woe to find A remedy which might allay Its pangs and urge the scar away. The northern press in wild acclaim. Put forth this famous hero's name, — The only one which all could see. To match Napoleanic Lee; And crush the southern spirit out. By quick defeat and utter rout. 33 IN THE GRAY XXXIII The northern leaders rose and fell Like rockets or an opera belle; In all absorbing light they rose, And spread around diffusing glows; Then from their lofty zenith turned, As if by chance they lately learned That far beneath their talents lay; And they the victims and the prey Of wild ambition's reckless flight. Must fall from some tremendous height; And down they came in blackened smoke,- Of war and fame the jeer and joke. XXXIV We welcomed in the highest glee. This northern brave to match our Lee; And well we knew the northern fan Could never match us man to man; But soon we learned like men to feel His worth against our southern steel. When through the Wilderness he pressed In spite of us his northern crest. 34 IN THE GRAY We struggled through the vineclad trees, As orderly as honey bees; Or through the swamps we rode and fell Like fireflies in a lowland dell; Hidden in underbrush awhile, Emerging thence in single file. From whole platoons to draw the fire, Or force some scared brigade retire. Through tangled shrubs and gnarled vines. Those great commanders drew their lines; And in the thicket and the gloom. Many a hero found his tomb; For matchless skill was here unknown. Nor strategy by either shown. Till in the silence of the night. Unnoticed from the Union Right, Its cavalry in circling sweep. In solid columns long and deep. Stole to our commissary rude, And captured our supply of food. XXXV Courageously in bitter fight, It faced us e'en in broad day light; 35 IN THE GRAY It wrecked our forts and spiked our guns, And slay our noblest southern sons, — The gallant Stuart and his command, — For naught against it could withstand. Its leader being no less a man Than Grant's ideal, Sheridan, The Julius Caesar of the North, From war and statecraft issued forth; Within whose brain was framed the scheme That strangled our heroic dream. XXXVI On many a battle field I served. And ne'er from simple duty swerved; I learned the trumpet blast of wars, And wore upon my breast its scars. My boon companion sank to rest In battle heat and o'er his breast, I crossed his hands, and closed his eyes After the glaze of death's disguise. My heart grew caloused at the sights Which filled my grewsome days and nights; No tear had I, the founts were dry, When death and anguish did I spy; 36 IN THE GRAY And often when the fight was spent, The graves we made mid merriment; And jested which was next to fall The victim of some cannpn ball. But at Cold Harbor's wild retreat, A sight I saw from anger's heat. Which made my blood run cold and chill, My heart like frightened doe stand still: Two aged men in deadly grasp, — So nearly dead that to unclasp Their dying hold upon each other, They vainly strove to get another, So fierce, untamed and wild they fought, Not like men but as demons ought. XXXVII The blue was next the bloody clay. On top of him our strenuous gray. They fought within the throes of death. And each one begged another breath To enable him his foe to rend. Before he reached his tragic end. I pulled them loose and on the clay Whereon their broken figures lay. 37 IN THE GRAY My neighbor Preston I beheld, With all his wild ambition quelled; In that delirium sinking low, To promised land of joy or woe; Wavering twixt war's smoke and fire, Where lies our bubble of desire. His foe who scarce a yard away, Was struggling to resume the fray. With angry move of eye and hand. Strained fiercely o'er the bloody sand; Surveyed me with an ominous glance That pierced my spirit like a lance. When o'er his breast I ran my eyes, I saw to my supreme surprise. Bearing his name a little note, Fastened upon his outer coat; It read, "George Preston, Ligonier." There rose into my eyes a tear. Those brothers to themselves unknown. Had jfought unto death's parting groan. XXXVIII I bent above George Preston's form, And rubbed his hands to make them warm; 38 IN THE GRAY I strove to whisper in his ear, The tiame I loved, his daughter dear; I strove to make him understand. His brother lay beyond his hand. My words and pleas could not recall His spirit from its morbid thrall; No move of fight, he seemed to sink From life to the eternal brink. Where every labored breath might yield His soul upon that crimson field. I turned to John in my dismay. But he had gently passed away. So then for George I strove in vain, To comfort him and ease his pain. That he at last might understand The heart of him who held his hand; That I might write my sweet heart fair, His death struggle and latest care. Concealing of the tragic part, The features that would break her heart. But rigid all his limbs became, And trembling horror shook his frame; A ghastly stare rose in his eyes. So passed he off beyond the skies. 39 IN THE GRAY XXXIX I coffined up his broken form, So fresh from conflict's seething storm, And sent it to his family home, Where it might find mid peace a tomb. A note I pinned upon its breast, — A wierd note to his home addressed, Explaining why my southern hand Prepared this sire for northern land; Omitting on the note howe'er, My love for Mary and my prayer, That she a line to me might write. Forgetful of the wrong or right Of the fierce struggle in which we Forgot to preach fraternity. I also mentioned all details To her should go by earliest mails; And freely felt, no thought amiss. That surely she'd respond to this. XL At dead of night the Union lines. Drawn up beneath the Blue Ridge Pines, 40 IN THE GRAY With sentries set to catch a foe, If one should chance to hither go; I through the darkened shadow crossed, To mail a note at any cost- I sent the note to Ligonier, Directed to my Mary dear, Telling her all I dared to tell Of how her noble father fell. And begging if she loved me still. To write to me at Shattuck's Mill; Then to my own command returned Before the morning campfires burned. XLI But e'er the longed for letter came. The Union forces strove to tame Our haughty hearts and check our pride, By every means to war allied: Our forests, towns and hills they swept With hordes like those that Xerxes kept Around his friends, his foes to awe. While making all accept his law. To Richmond's forts they drove us fast, And round our lines securely cast IN THE GRAY A loop of siege our strength to try, And force us yield our cause or die. So as a last resort to save The cause we served so true and brave, From wreckage such as now we faced, Brave Jubal Early's course was traced; And in his corps my lot I found, Again to try for northern ground. XLII So as the birds in early spring. Try on the breeze their northern wing, Our small command o'er hill and dale, Swept northward like a desert gale. Planting in northern hearts a fear; Leaving in southern eyes a tear; For well our friends knew why we went. And northern foemen what it meant. If we should battle past their forts. And terrify their northern ports. Around their lines our onward force Mapped out a broad victorious course; Defeating on our forward way, The forces left to guard the day. 42 IN THE GRA Y The Capital we terrified, Spread fear through all the country side, From Washington to Buffalo Which had no force to strike a blow. On northern soil we entered far, Taxed our unwilling hosts for war; We brought the Union standard down In many a country place and town; And mirrored in our shaping eye, The early prize of victory. XLIII But as the eagle on the crags, Where overweening fancy guides. The herdsman's lowly cottage nags, While its circuitous pinions glides To catch a fowl, a lamb, a child. Then wing to its aerie wild. It seldom wins the prize it sought; But often to destruction brought. Lives long enough for vain regret. Before the sun of life has set. And we more prone to understand. On easy pinions scourged the land. 43 IN THE GRAY Hoping by this to force the fray, And draw from Richmond Grant's array; But trouble brooding hatched for us, In demon style a tangled muss Of airy schemes all come to naught. And all with hapless troubles fraught. For Grant, that wary silent man. Sent forth his peerless Sheridan, Who all our Shenandoah razed, And all our hogs and cattle braised. His slow fed cavalry to feed. And strip us of our greatest need. XLIV I never shall forget the day, We strove to check the onward way. Of that ambitious army corps. Which seemed to prosper in the roar Of deafening cannon and to thrive Where battles' fiercest chariots drive. With Sheridan in chief command Of this superb, equipped array. It strove to check the conquest planned By Early and to hold at bay. 44 IN THE GRAY In Richmond's forts, our gallant Lee, And make him bend the southern knee. 'Twas on the Shenandoah's side. We struck to check the northern stride. And force with strength of men and fire, The Union Army to retire. The air was filled with dreamy smoke. When through our famished lines it broke. And bore us forward o'er the plain Like wreckage on the surging main. Yet we escaped through smoke and rain, To meet our valient foe again : On southern soil again to meet, And drain the dregs of fresh defeat; As famished we, our land laid waste. With naught of food supply a taste. XLV But not a thought of war had I, Save rather win than have to fly! On lovlier scenes my inward eye Did many a cherished fancy spy. It mirrored Mary Preston true To me and to the Union Blue, 45 IN THE GRAY Although for years I had not heard From her a message, scroll or word; I yet believed in her as when I was her choice of southern men. To be her lover, hero, all That maiden heart might choose to call. But Fisher's Hill changed plans about, And Winchester became a rout; Our scattered army strove in vain. To reunite our corps again; But Sheridan was at his best, And never would from battle rest; Until our forces o'er the land. Obeyed the beck of his command. Far eastward from the fighting ground, Like flying hare before the hound, I rested after days of strife. With just enough of hope and life. To think of Mary Preston's name And wonder if a message came. To buoy my spirit, strength and will, From her to me at Shattuck's Mill. 46 IN THE GRAY XLI So o'er the hills my way I beat, Awed not by hardship, toil or heat. Cheered on by happy birds and flowers Which had their native joyful bowers In grass and thicket, shrub and dell, With love and peace their symphony; Their songs ter^ sang in every cell, That woodland overspread for me. To hide me from the light of day, — From northern eyes my southern gray; And aid me in my enterprise. Which had its source beyond the skies; For Love to them is God'fe command, And they obey its precept grand. XLVII At Shattuck's Mill I found no word. No message from my Mary heard; So more depressed than e'er before, I sought to join my army corps; But found where'er I turned my eye, Destruction's specter standing by; 47 IN THE CRA Y For smoke and ashes filled the air; And midnight with the burning glare Of homes and towns as bright as day, Lit up my trackless homeward way. XLVIII Crossing a ridge I thought secure, As every dell and knoll were hid, My only fear was to endure The food I found the Shrubs amid: The brier peeled was savory. The young acorn delightful food To one whose feats of bravery Surpassed his mates in hardihood; So I of such a trip was proud; Success or death was what I vowed. But on the summit of the hill, A challenge made my heart stand still; And right brfore me stood a man From the command of Sheridan, Who levelled at my breast his gun. And swore he'd shoot me if I'd run. I clearly saw through the moonlight. His face was firm and filled with fight. 48 IN THE GRAY So like a flash my fancy flew, And in its mirror pictures drew Of me so many miles away From Early's shattered Southern Gray. I knew I never could explain To loyal friends my cause again, So quick as thought my pistol drew, And through his breast its contents flew. XLIX He griping fiercely forward fell. Clutching the grass of southern dell; His conqueror I bent o'er his frame. Saw on his dying breast his name, "Robert Preston, of Lingonier." And I his murderer standing near! My senses swam. Could this be true, That I my Mary's brother slew.^^ I strove to cheer his dying hour. By every method in my power; But naught to consciousness could bring The mind already on the wing To Stygian waters far away. From scenes of earth and human fray, 49 IN THE GRAY His soul had passed; I closed his eyes, And watched the gray mist 'round me rise; Not caring what was held for me, By fortune, war or gallows tree. For all that life held dear was lost; And longer life should pay the cost; For Mary Preston ne'er would wed The man that struck her brother dead. So all impulsive as a boy. Thought here my life I should destroy; But as I mused, in thunders fell The summons of a sentinel. Attracted to the desperate spot, By my pathetic, fatal shot. I surrendered, nor little cared If foul or fair my fortmnes fared; And to the night guard's solemn tent, My captive steps were thither bent; My captor passed, no sign or word That eye had seen or ear had heard, Escaped him as he faced the night, And brought me to the night guard's light; SO IN THE GRAY But like a seneschal of old, With mien as stern and face as cold, Delivered me as captive found Trespassing on forbidden ground. So in a prison tent I lay, Bewildered in my dire dismay; And pondered like a soul condemned, Before the Stygian wave was stemmed; And wondered how the fates designed Preston brothers such end should find; And I should strike in deadly blare. The only life I longed to spare. Before me sat the midnight guard, A rhyming like a bedlam bard. Singing his own distich of song. Holding the accents loud and long; And straining the climax at the close, In dulcet triumph through his nose. Yet kind he was and genial too, And light of heart and brave and true. As any youth in Union Blue. LI I wondered what the dawn would bring Against my lawless wandering: SI IN THE GRAY As war prisoner, I'd better fare, It was my hope, nor did I care, Except for those I'd leave behind, What charge against me they might find. I could not sleep, and musing still, I met the morning damp and chill. My guard with me his blanket shared. Nor foodnor drink nor humor spared, And like the prima donna thrush. That dignifies each shrub and bush, Whereon she perches, with her throat. Dropping in love the jealous note. So he made me his special care. To share his all, save hope and prayer, For him my open heart in turn. Did every boyish fancy burn. Revealed its past, its joys and woes. How love in early triumph rose. Till grim despair, death or disgrace Was now what stared me in the face. LIT He told me when he'd gain release. Through battles won or early peace, 52 IN THE GRAY The world's most charming maid he'd wed, Nor think again of martial tread, That peace to him would mean so much, A friend's dispute he would not touch; But live and love as Christian should And serve mankind by doing good. LIII My open heart I then revealed. And not a word or thought concealed. I told how Mary Preston came Into my life a living flame, Burned every boyish love away. Gave me a more ambitious day; That since the war's outbreak no word From my dear Mary had I heard. Of my letter from Shattuck's Mill, My hope that she might answer still, The change of war, my long delay. Defeat, disaster and dismay, I told as friend might talk to friend, Without reward or hope to bend This soldier's will to serve my end; I told my woes from Fishers Hill, O'er hill and dale to Shattuck's Mill; 53 IN THE GRAY Of how I strove a word to hear From my beloved Mary dear; Of how augmented was my care, When I received no message there. LIV I then told how the sentinel, Her dear beloved brother fell; And through my tears in deep despair, I told him of my wish and prayer. E'en though it were an easy task, That clemency I would not ask; That death to me was dearer far Than scenes of hatred, lust and war; That all I lived for now was lost. And all I hoped for tempest tossed. So from the wreckage of the night. My life was foundered, sunk from sight, A blackened hulk beneath the wave. Disgraced in death and in the grave. LV His glistening tears he brushed away. And peered around to sTce if day 54 IN THE GRAY Was dawning in the eastern sky, Or shivering sentry standing by. "The way to Richmond lies ahead. No sentry guards the river bed; And I must leave you for an hour In this sequestered lonely bower. Trusting of course to find you when I to this place return again." Then pausing at the door, he said, "The price of blood is on your head, At dawn three guards for you shall be So closely set you cannot flee; And ere the sun to-night goes down Behind yon spires of neighbor town. The world will know your crime, your doom; Yon stagnant marsh shall be your tomb." LVI He took a pail and passed from sight Into the darkness of the night. I took the hint yet dared not flee And doom a soul as brave as he; I pondered in my lonefin-ess, My life, my love, my keen distress; 55 IN THE GRAY Yet scarce divined a higher law, Administered without a flaw, My mind to earth was firmly set; My hope my Mary strove to get, Though in my heart I firmly knew, That I with life and earth was through. Oft heavenward I turned my mind. But could not keep it there resigned; For Mary Preston's image fair Was all I saw when wrapt in prayer; And all that heaven meant for me, Was Mary for eternity; And loss of her I knew full well. Would grieve me worse than fire of Hell. LVII An hour or more had passed away, Ere mountain peaks announced the day By lustrous specters on each one. The lowering light from rising sun. And ere the darkness left the vale. My guard returned with empty pail. And seemed astonished me to find Where he had left me so resigned. S6 IN THE GRAY "If your Mary you value dear, I should not now have found you here; Your name to us Is still unknown, Your secret lives with you alone; Your Mary dear should never know The hand that laid her brother low; I strove to save your lawless head For better days," he calmly said. Somewhat unmoved, I made reply, "My lone desire now is to die. Nor would I for my ransom give The paltry begger doomed to live; As every hope whereon my eye Had sought repose in days gone by. From me forever disappeared. And left my conscience galled and seared. Beyond the healing art of balm, — Too seared to wear its erstwhile calm, When Robert Preston by my hand, Was felled upon the bloody sand." LVIII So with the rising of the sun. Three guards arrived instead of one; 57 IN THE GRAY I saw through this the meaning far, A prisoner I but not of war. Some graver sharge against me set, — A cobweb like a tangled net, To me enmesh and hold me fast, While robes of crime were o'er me cast. I was undressed from foot to head; My clothes were searched, my letters read. An ancient letter brown with age. My Mary's best and latest page, I begged them leave me, that alone Would every slight of theirs atone. They heeded not my vain request. But wrapt the letter with the rest. To be against me used that day. When my faithful southern gray Should wrap a felon such as I Accused of being a southern spy. LVIX I heard the charge and knew full well, No friend of mine the truth could tell; As none my secret heard or knew, And strong the case against me grew; S8 IN THE GRAY So guarded, waiting in suspense, I calmly mused on my defense. But like my prayer my Mary rose Above my crowding list of woes; And in my vision lived and reigned. The queen who all rny homage gained. LX Nor had I long to meditate On ills of life or strokes of fate. For ere the sun was half way high Upon the cloudless eastern sky, I was requested to appear Before the martial court and clear From every crime and charge my name. Or suffer obloquy and shame. My guards arrayed me in my gray. And with me straightway marched away. To where the martial court was met To hear my cause and judgement set; If evidence should favor me, To set me in their judgment free; And if no voice sustained my lot. My fate consigned me to be shot. S9 IN THE GRAY LXI The court convened; the advocate, The crimes against me did relate, In tones vociferous and loud. As if to win the yaupish crowd. Attracted by the morning cry Against the captive southern spy. In thunder tones he wrapped my name Round every crime and curse and shame, Practiced only where angels fell, By such as I, a Fiend from Hell. Then staring through his tear dimmed eyes, He wept o'er souls in Paradise; Called them hither to testify If he could in his statements lie; Called Robert Preston from the Styx His judgement sdal on me to fix; Then asked the court to sentence me To rifle squad or gallows tree. LXII I then was asked my cause to state, My northern mission to relate, 60 IN THE GRAY And all my wanderings to explain, Since my command could not regain Its shattered columns in the flight From Winchester's disastrous fight. But since the advocate's tirade, Against my charcater was made, I felt the truth the name would sear Of my beloved Mary dear; Or make my tale an artful lie, If she my story should deny; So I resolved my doom to face And keep her free from my disgrace. LXIII As one who knows himself condemned, Without a purse or loyal friend. Of every fact to save him trimmed, I bravely faced my tragic end. I calmly rose to state my case, Looked my accuser in the face. Though inward quaking, boldly said, "Since the adviser of this court Condemns me and demands my head, Before a word of bad import. 6i IN THE GRAY By worthy witness testified, Is lodged against my lonely side; I justly fear the truth might be Driven to scorn by such as he. With scarce another day to life, A lie I dare not, shall not give. Pronounce my doom the worst you can, And I shall meet it like a man!" LXIV The advocate rose up again. Somewhat amazed, with hand on chin, And said more calmly than before, "The crimes against you shall be more Than I expressed, and well sustained By witnesses herein retained, Your misdemeanors to relate And fix on you your tardy fate." LXV The testimony then was heard; Against me rang each cutting word; Accused I was of every act. Alone committed, or in pact 62 IN THE GRAY With outlaws from the roaming wild, 'Gainst man or woman, home or child; They proved against me in their ire, The work of wind and rain and fire; And strove on me the cause to place For each disaster and disgrace, Besmirching them to outward eyes, From lawless pranks and revelries. LXVI When they concluded, I arose, Refused my conscience to disclose. And with my summed up courage high. Denounced their tales as perjury; But still refused 'gainst such as they, A word in my defence to say. "A court permitting taks," I said, "As gross as those agaiust my head, By my accusers launched anew, Munchausen would believe as true, I must regret to leave this strife. Which is my latest act of life. Without a trial fair and free To measure my extremity; 63 IN THE GRAY To scan my steps and judgement set Against the act which I regret; And which perhaps might justify That guilt upon my head should lie. But in this court such calloused men Are met to judge another's sin, I must deny myself and you, To offer up my story true." LXVII Their verdict came without surprise, That I be shot before sunrise. At daybreak on the following day, And buried in my southern gray; And half the time to me they gave. To make my coffin, dig my grave. And letters to my friends to write Of my despair and hopeless plight. The other half by them consigned, Should make me to my fate re/signed, Forgetful of each curse and care. Devote my latest hour to prayer. A chaplain if desired should be With their instructions sent to me 64 IN THE GRA Y To help me in my trying hour, Resign the world and all its power; Whose service should be freely given, To lead my soul from earth to heaven. LXVIII The advocate pronounced my doom, Consigned me to the silent room; But ere his last word uttered fell, A man arose my tale to tell : The guard who strove to set me free, Espoused my cause and faithfully My tale to them did there relate. And begged them change my doom or wait For an appeal to Washington, Which by him straightway was begun. LXVIX The court rebuked him for his part, But could not change his honest heart; Nor by its orders stop his tongue Which through the crowded court room rung: He charged the court my tale to hear And baseless crimes against me clear; 6s IN THE GRAY Their futile charges off me take, Delete their briefs for justice sake. He then related word for word The simple honest tale he heard From my own lips the night before, While he and I recounted o'er Our disappointments and desires, In happy days when love admires. He told how conscience racked my brain, Since I had Robert Preston slain. That I had hoped ere long to die And end my hours of misery; That in this cause I had no fear. And death to me was doubly dear; That of the judgements they might give, The worst was dooming me to live. He begged them take my case in hand, With agents such as they command. And search through every path they knew. And prove my story false or true. They ridiculed his brave appeal. And on their verdict set their seal; And I condemned was led away To where my new born troubles lay, — The sturdy highland coffin pine. The grave ridge rising in a line. 66 IN THE GRAY LXX Much guarded at this grewsome task, I labored well nor deigned unmask My cautious spirit to their view, Lest they should deem my heart untrue. I dug my grave, my cofhn made. While silently the while I prayed. Nor offered to my guards a thought Of higher life through sorrow brought, That might lead us to understand. And take each other by the hand. LXXI But turning at my task my eye. My reckless, lounging guards did spy: Naught should I fear from their attacks, As toward my labor were their backs; So far away their guns were stacked. They could not reach them if attacked. "The way to Richmond lies ahead. No sentry guards the river's bed!" Instantaneous as a flash. Did through my thought creations crash. 67 IN THE GRAY But that was all I did not fly, A man I lived, a man would die. I knew the guards meant I should be Far on my homeward way and free: For oft my work they'd ridicule. Condemned and doomed me as a fool, When in the distance far away. No guarded coffin for me lay. Their jests and jeers I understood, — I knew they meant for me but good. And still I toiled, my duty done, Was my reward at set of sun. LXXII Just at sunset the death guard came. With smile as kind and manner tame As was my guard of night before, And led me through the prison door. Where earth's last day should dawn for me, Mid terrors of eternity. No sense of mine could guard my mind; My thoughts like echoes unconfined. At random flew from child to man. And mirrored every hope and plan 68 IN THE GRAY That marked my boyhood youth and prime, From dreams of love to battle grime. Again my Mary Preston rose Im memory above my woes, And gave me in my dreams so brief. My only glitter of relief, — A star illuminating night, And making all around it bright. And more than that the daily press. On my romance laid rigid stress; Through north and south my guard's vain plea In my defense spread far for me; And gave me e'en in northern eye, A gleam of kindled sympathy. LXXIII The chaplain with the darkness came. My scattered senses to reclaim; And lead me from the scenes of war, Where seraphs and where angels are. His kindly manner, gentle ways. Soon raised my soul from battles' blaze. To holier thoughts and higher things Than man's despair and envy's flings. 69 IN THE GRAY With him in solemn prayer I knelt, Until my mind more peaceful felt; He then to me his heart revealed In visions from the battle field: The awful carnage wrought by man, To force upon his kind some plan Or selfish scheme of little worth, Or take from him his share of earth. Then turning to my case he said, "Your guard at risk of fame and head. Your case to every power has brought. That could relieve the judgment sought; Though much chagrined, at loss perplexed, To Sheridan he's going next. With what result we soon shall know, As Sheridan can mercy show; He is as brave in heart as mind, And cowards only are unkind." LXXIV A lover's tale however told. Commands among the brave and bold, A vision like a gleam of light Upon a murkey road at night; 70 IN THE GRAY And leads them in their sympathy, To serve his cause whate'er it be. LXXV Ere midnight came the loyal guard Arrived to tell of his reward, That Sheridan my tale had heard, Had listened to it every word, While servants of the state and press Let business wait for his address; Then sending forth a rnandate bold. Ordered the program to withold. Of executing me before A verdict fair was passed and o'er; Then issued forth beneath his seal To Washington his brave appeal; And then to him he laughing said, "Fear nothing for that youngster's head! For what you seek you're sure to gain. As none to Lincoln plead in vain; He's pardoned every class of crime. To doom a lover in his prime. For such a deed as you relate. Would break his heart and crush his fate. 71 IN THE GRAY To morrow morning early he Some weighty questions has with me; So the brave lover must appear And tell his tale to him right here." LXXVI It cheered me much such faith to find Among my fellows for mankind; And more than all for me distressed, A worthy youth my story pressed; A pleasure too was mine to know Such service was from worthy foe. My hope to better fate resigned, Rose slowly o'er my reason blind: At first a dreamlike, dawning bliss, So far its rays appeared amiss. Among the terrors crowding fast Upon the day designed my last; But larger grew and brighter far. Each ended in a separate star, So bright and lustrous in its zone, That all was light and clearly shone; That victory would set me free. If mercy could through justice see. 72 IN THE GRAY LXXVII The chaplain prayed for my success, And parting gave me a caress As gentle as a lover kind, On sweet-heart's lips could ever find; He told me rise above the clod And put my prayerful trust in God, As he who seeth through the mind, Could change the hearts of human kind, And to me peaceful solace bring. And from my soul depression fling. As quickly as a ray of light Makes all the darkness round it bright. LXXVIII The dawn designed to be my last. Rose through the darkness fair and fast; And with it rose my spirits clear. Above distraction, doubt and fear; And bravely with the rising sun. My cholors vanished, every one, — Except that Robert Preston's name Blackened my whole career with shame; 73 IN THE GRAY And left my heart amid distress, The empty sheath of nothingness: For every eye that gazed on me, I felt my blackened soul could see; And every lip that moved in thought. My secret and my sentence sought. But rapturous eyes that o'er me rove. Could only see desparing love; And anxious lips moved to impart The secrets of a lover's heart. LXXIX To Sheridan my anxious feet Careered along the weary street. In haste my doubtful fate to try, A game of chance with destiny. The great commander's fame I feared; My courage sank when him I neared; And confidence forsook my veins When doom of death or prison chains, Before me in a vision rose. To clog the channels of repose. For Robert Preston's death to me, Doomed me to the gallows tree. 74 IN THE GRAY Not to the rifle squads desire, To murder me with coward fire. LXXX The great of mind are great of heart, Resolved to do for God their part. And do it well, whate'er it be. Despite opinions offered free. And held aloft by man or press. As what should be, mankind to bless. He greeted me with cordial clasp. With kind caresses in his grasp. And smiling told me live in cheer As hope for me was dawning clear. LXXXI An adjutant who standing by, Observed my entrance with a sigh; Offered without request a word, — A comrade's tale he overheard, — That Mary Preston would appear. To deck her murdered brother's bier; And mark his grave till better days, 75 IN THE GRAY On North and South should brightly blaze; Then his remains when discords cease, In Ligonier should rest in peace, Away from conflict's jealous din. Among the ashes of his kin: That she my tale could verify. Or all the fabric brand a lie; And from the fetid atmosphere Such sentiments and notions clear. LXXXII The name of Mary Preston turned To flames the blaze that slowly burned; And fanned the slow consuming fire That scorched my heart with bright desire. My strength forsook me at her name, And palzied trembling shook my frame; Into the nearest seat I sank, With breath as fast and eyes as blank. As one o'ercome by shock or blow. From current fierce or savage throw. My scattered wits refused to act; My dext'rous tongue forgot its tact; And perspiration damp and cold. Enveloped me with dripping hold. 76 IN THE GRAY For Mary Preston to deny And brand my roving tale a lie, Would crush me like the fiercest doom, Within the shadow of the tomb. And yet from her dead brother's breast, Where fond her last caress was pressed. Could she the blood red hand defend. That brought him to his tragic end? The bloody years that passed between. Since her sweet form I last had seen. Might all her love for me have stilled. Her heart with northern lovers filled. I could not face her as I stood. The man who shed her brother's blood; I feared her more than death and hell, And yet I loved her just as well. So in my anguish many a tear Was sacrificed for love and fear; But hope was gone and deep despair Seemed round me groping everywhere. So with the crowding rise of thought, I meekly asked that I be shot. 77 IN THE GRA Y LXXXJII But outside cheering ringing loud, Indulged by all the soldiers proud, Proclaimed some worthy chief of state. Arrived upon some mission great. 'Twas Lincoln, smiling, tall, serene, Shambling in gait, awkward in mien. Straight to Sheridan's tent he came. With clasp of hand and call of name. And merited but kindly praise For checking Early's lupine ways. "A prisoner this.^ " at me he said, As gently on my anxious head. His kindly hand he gently pressed; Then passed along with smile and jest. To join the waiting warrior throng. In settling issues weak and strong. LXXXIV My eyes rose quick to Sheridan, Who promptly to his chief began, "This Southern boy by sentries caught. Was doomed this morning to be shot; 78 IN THE GRAY Convicted by the martial court, Of being a spy within our fort; And to his guard a tale he told, Of such devotion as of old. Would such defenders to him bring As counselled with the court and king. So to your clemency I must, This lover's last appeal entrust." LXXXV Taking the papers to him passed, My final word, perhaps my last, He glanced them o'er then sternly said, "Such sentiments by lovers fed. Destroy our dicipline and press Upon our ranks its keen distress. When courts are rudely thrust aside, To save some wretched felon's pride." My courage sank till in his eye A flashing twinkle I did spy. But why he should be so severe. To me was neither dense nor clear; Nor could I readily divine From his cold visage glance or sign, 79 IN THE GRAY That sympathy might indicate, Or fellow feeling in my fate. Then turning in a kindly way, He gazed upon my southern gray. And earnestly requested me To tell my tale whate'er it be. LXXXVI So like a soldier proud I rose; My northern mission to disclose; And every fact therein to state, Some cherished fancies to relate; For now I felt since truth was out, To leave no further room for doubt: To tell it all whate'er it be, Nor ask my peers for clemency; But face conditions like a man Who nothing feared. I thus began: "Since to your northern soil I came, (The South's by right and yours by claim) The keenest reverence I felt For rugged hills and woodland belt. Which from your tents stretch proud and free Like those I loved in Tennessee. 80 IN THE GRAY LXXXVII "For to my sacred thoughts they cling, And to my mind fond memories bring, Of one across the stormy years, That drenched our soil with blood and tears; Who like the fairy in disguise, Or angel straight from paradise, Entered my life my hopes to share. And stripped it from the bleak and bare. Gave me ambition great and high. For southern wealth and fame to try. Our troth was plighted ere the day, This angel beauty went away To Ligonier to serve and toil, In kitchen, barnyard — and soil. LXXXVIII "Her letters to me came at first, Till South Carolina's bubble burst, And plunged us in this dreadful war. To win a crown or wear its scar. So with the stoppage of the mail, Our intercourse was doomed to fail. 8i IN THE GRAY Since then no line from her I heard, No message, nor from friend a word, Through every avenue I sought. With Union prisoners, soldiers brought Within our ranks; and tried in vain By mail to hear from her again. LXXXIX "I closed her dying father's eyes At Cold Harbor, and in disguise, Among my friends, his body sent To Ligonier for interment. Of this event to her I wrote, The letter mailed from Shattuck's Mill, And hoped at least an answering note. Since Union troops paroled it still. But Early's Raid and Sheridan Upset my well directed plan, And kept me in the valley fight. Till scattered were we all in flight. XC "Over this western ridge I fled As rifle balls whizzed past my head, 82 IN THE GRAY Pursued by Union Cavalry, Until there came the thought to me, That Shattuck's Mill a day ahead, Some hope upon my love might shed. So to the Mill I hastened on, And found from her no message, none! XCI "Then East and South I turned my way, To join again my comrades gray; And keep away from scouring trains. That swept like vultures o'er the plains. By day in cave or ditch I slept. By night through talngled glades I crept; Till on this lonely northern mere, I met the fate that brought me here. That northern sentry me did get Has caused me nothing of regret. But on yon ridge's barren head, I shot brave Robert Preston dead; My Mary's brother! such a crime Condemns me through all future time; And for his murder I should die. But do not shoot me as a spy! 83 IN THE GRAY XCII "My life is wrecked and my despair Finds not among mankind a share, As my ideals now are gone, And I must live this life alone. I cannot Mary Preston meet. This side of Heaven's Judgement seat; She cannot think me as of yore. Since by my hand her brother's gore, Upon yon sunbrowned hill was shed. 'Twas I who struck her brother dead! XCIII "A lonely life from her apart, Bereft of passions of the heart. As empty as a vacant room. And haunted by the shape of doom, Which o'er me hangs where'er I go, Reminding of impending woe. Is my sad lot if you should give A verdict dooming me to live. It is not death but life I fear, A life without my Mary dear. 84 IN THE GRAY So for my crimes my life should be Forfeited on the gallows tree." XCIV The rugged lines in Lincoln's face Wore disappointment's puzzling trace; I clearly saw my truthful plea Was not to him what it should be. So like a toiler craving rest, I felt whate'er was done was best; And trusting in a quick reply, Condemning me to live or die, I little cared which one he said, As each was as the other — dead. I sought upon his tragic face. Some sentiment or hope to trace, While o'er his eyes he held his hand. As if my sentence to command From conscious thought so long impressed. It did not mingle with the rest. Though harsh, I feared, his judgment dealt. Some sympathy for me he felt. As o'er his furrowed face there crossed Some kindly gleams by pity tossed; 85 IN THE GRAY Then full on me he turned his gaze, From head to foot in divers ways, My rrwanner, dress and face to scan. Then turned his eyes to Sheridan. "This lover is a noble youth. And sure I am he told the truth." So then to me he calmly said, "The judge's power in me I dread, Fearing the guilty might escape If charity my judgment shape; Fearing to doom the innocent. If moved by code or precedent. This case is sui generis too! Let Mary Preston sentence you." xcv Beside me loose a curtain hung, Of weathered canvas loosely flung Across the tent's most slanting side, Some secret of the camp to hide. So at his words an aide arose And drew the curtain to dicslose To my full view the fairest scene, My longing eyes had ever seen, — 86 IN THE GRAY My Mary Preston from the bier Of her beloved brother dear; Brought forth by guards to testify, My tale to vouch for or deny. Me thought she never looked so fair, As rising slowly from her chair, She glanced at me, at Lincoln next; What wonder that she seemed perplexed! She forward stepped, her swimming eyes. Bedewed by clinging memories; And like a queen with gentle stride, She soon was standing by my side. Through tears a smile swept o'er her face, Then disappeared and left no trace In the short glance she cast on me, Of friendliness or sympathy. XCVI My reeling senses swam around. In phantasy as in a swound. Were tumbling, tossing like a stream. And all to me shaped as a dream. "Now Mary," quoth the President, "You heard the tale of this young man; That justice might be his we sent 87 IN THE GRAY For you to justify or ban His well directed narrative. 'Tis yours, young maid, his life to give, And bid him in your mercy live; Failing in this, the court's decree, — That he must executed be. — Shall be enforced ere set of sun, (Ere now the gallows is begun;) So now to you I him resign. To punish him by jail or fine; Or send him to the gallows tree, — His fate is yours whate'er it be." XCVH Her eyes were flooded o'er with tears, Her hands were trembling from her fears; She clenched them close upon her breast, And to the chief her words adressed: "For years I've known and loved this youth, And sure to you he told the truth; I know full well he'd rather die. Than gain his freedom by a lie. He served my loving father's end, His body home to me did send. IN THE GRAY Two letters I from Shattuck's Mill, From him received, and wonder still Why those I wrote to him were lost. When Union armies held the post. Each month to Shattuck's Mill I wrote My broken heart's despairing note, And wondered why no answer came. Unless his fate had been the same As those who in some battle fell. With none their tragic end to tell; And in the trenches moulder low. Forgotten till doom's trumpet blow. I feared him lost, for him I wept, And deeply in my memory kept His image sacred and alone, To time's restoring balm unknown. XCVIII "My brother Robert loved him well. From tales to him that I did tell. If those two youths could interchange Their confidence at closer range, Without a thought of war's wierd way. Neither would the other slay. 89 IN THE GRA Y Such accidents belong to war, Nor should they leave on peace their scar. My brother's challenge in this strife Meant his or else his foeman's life. So I regret my brother dear. But love for me that placed him here, My heart for him rules o'er my will, I loved him once, I love him still; And since his life you trust to me. My verdict is that he be free." XCIX Turning on me her lustrous eyes And stretching forth her trembling hand, ''Can you," she said, "those memories Your life deplores yet understand; Each happening to justify Without remorse, without a sigh. And face the future heart as free. As was your wont in Tennessee?" 90 IN THE GRAY Her outstretched hand I quickly grasped, And felt my own as tightly clasped. "My dread of life, my dear," said I, "No longer on my heart does lie; For with your presence disappeared The comtumely sorrow feared. And joy has banished all my pain. By this sweet glance from you again." ' CI Music without a minor strain. Is like a desert beaten plain; And life withot a pain or tear. Is like an autumn bleak and sere. So rising o'er my dark despair. With Love's bright blossoms everywhere. With blooms of joy on plants of shame, Across my glowing fancy came; And future hopes with brighter skies, I saw in Mary Preston's eyes. 91 IN THE GRAY CII This love which came my life to bless, Grew sacred in forgiveness; Than she who gave me right to live, Mortal could not more forgive. And we who sinners' paths have trod. Must some day ask for more from God. If so let love blaze forth the way, As love shall not be turned away. 92 THE FRESHMAN With manners quite sagacious, And hair somewhat setacious, And ears like open oysters, Most firmly attached, He ambled into college, In search he said of knowledge. And every wing of sentiment. Its incubators hatched. He was suddenly elated, By an order promulgated From the journalistic quarters Of our worthy president. That a birch of strength and season, Should be used to bring to reason. The athletic pigskin kicker. And the Latin impotent. How he laughed upon beholding. Through the tapestries unfolding. Of the dingy little chapel, The executive retired! 93 IN THE GRAY What a dried up little figure, Than a three cent piece no bigger, And yet he dares to threaten Like a paragraph inspired! With a roar of riant laughter, In the chapel two weeks after, In the midst of prayer he trifled With the censored college yell. But his trusty friends betrayed him. And refused therein to aid him. In the prayerful silence left him Screaming out such words as — well! The president o'er his glasses, Glanced around among his classes. Till at length his eyes upon him Rested like a burning coal; While his hand he moved sedately. Four young giants strong and stately, Pounced upon the lawless ruffian. And bandaged up his jowl. Now he sees the path of error. And around it walks in terror, 94 THE FRESHMAN Most fearful of the prestige A little man can wield; And even in the tussle, No more he boasts of muscle, But struggles for such armor As a classic college shield. 95 SATAN'S REVIEW The Devil got up in the morning And examined his dart and spear, Then the point of his caudal arrow, And his hoofs like a mountain deer; Like a youth he looked in his mirror. And grimaced like a maid grown old. At the fangs and the horns adorning His features as yellow as gold. Then with an aspect ferocious, He glanced 'round the borders of Hell, Majestically strode to his table And summoned his aids with his bell. The surface of Hell like a river Where placid serenity stands. At once was a tossing and foaming With imps to obey his commands. They came from the flame effervescent, And ran to his parlor of state, With news of the difficult vigils That kept them out early and late. 96 SATAN'S REVIEW In anger he raged at their conduct, As each in his turn did relate, — Then told them to lead not to follow. The angry procession of Hate. From Earth came the minions he summoned, From vigils both stormy and gay. Who told of the law-making bodies They served through the previous day: Of clergyman lured to support them, And statesmen held fast in their snare. Like Ixion bound everlasting To the dominant wheel of his glare. They told how fast virtue they tempted. And where maiden purity fled; They told how the aureoled leaders Were dooming the people they led. By preaching their gospel of hatred Of those who had drifted astray; They told that the mission of Jesus Could nowhere be found in their way; They told how his Majesty's papers Were sowing the best sectional seeds, By raising a doubt and suspicion Against the Lord's holiest creeds; 97 IN THE GRAY That only a few hateful decades, With such basal reading could pass, Ere his Majesty's merciless butchers Would murder that innocent class. That nowhere throughout their dominions. Would preacher, uplifter or saint Disgrace his exalted position, By touching the stain or the taint; They told where the church they had shackled With fetters of silver and gold, — The pomp of a prince for the parson. The power of the press for his fold. They told how the hatred of party Kept parsons divided in twain. How hatred of creed was advancing To conflicts benevolent strain; They lauded proud Caste as their bulwark. Entrenched in the bastion of hate; But deplored the school situation For teaching the freedom of fate. They deplored the statesman progressive, The broad-minded clergyman too; They told of his majesty's subjects Who strayed from the blessings he strew, — 98 SATAN'S REVIEW How some were converted by justice, And others in prison immured; How some had grown tired of the bauble,- The fortune by birth they secured. He railed like a tyro at Quitter, For showing to the public his hand. And swore he would frustrate his efforts To live like a prince in the land; He cried as he strove through his anger, "The wretch that I nursed like a child, Betrayes me in hope of promotion. Like them of the savage and wild! "And Blast with his eight publications. Who once was my favorite pet. To think of the good he'd accomplish If he were but true to me yet! A war he might coax up like Ranter, O those were the glorious days. When hatred sent souls by the thousands To fan to a fury its blaze! "That imp of perfection the teacher! Has fought me since first he drew breath, I'll conquer him yet or I'll perish, And chide his theatrical death. 99 IN THE GRAY There are Honor, Candor and Justice, Who owe me nor dollars nor fame, Go blast them with falsehood and malace, And blacken each luminous name. "Laud my subserviant senators, And stint not the least in your praise; They serve me the best of my children, And cover with glory my days; Give each one a ranch in Nebraska, Some stock in a prosperous road, — For they ^re the truest of servants. To carry so much of my load. "As I through the Party of Lincoln, Have spread out my meshes of Graft, His proud ruling queen of the ocean. My skill has hewed down to a raft; So through her much vaulted protection. My choicest opinions shall glide. And those who essay to oppose us. Straight into a panic shall ride. "And I from the Four Hundred's virtues Have a modern Babylon made: Such vices as fled from the sun-light. No longer need hide in the shade. 100 SATAN'S REVIEW Yet the loom of the forth coming ages Some tanglesome problems shall weave; But I with my subsidized teachers, Each net-work of logic shall cleave. "Bring Discord and Strife my best wishes,- I never need fear them astray, And Old Gossip too, ever loyal. For fanning a fraternal fray; To No-Hell the best of my church men, Who preaches and writes like myself, Convey the approval of mankind, And send him for service my elf. "Remember me kindly to judges, Who serve in the Federal Courts, In accord they act on suggestion. And man me the stanchest of forts; Put imps in their service as bailiffs. Their officers criminal men. The godly drag down by your warrants. And make them respect even sin. Strew flowers in the pathway of Doubter, And burden his mind with such dreams, As burden the soul with race hatred. His tongue with subserviant themes : lOI IN THE GRAY Not yet in all things has he served me, But such careful grooming, you know. Will make him respect my dominion. And praise it and bless its bright glow. To clergymen blocking my pathway. Who preach of the Love and the Lord, Give them each day such temptations. As conquer the sage and the bard: Them from their exalted position, A scandal would draw like a charm, — Once fallen! their labors would perish. And save my dominion from harm. To Bigot be kind in your mission. Be careful and cause him no pain. Deplore not his peevish discourses. Nor frustrate his efforts at gain; Give freedom to all his base judgements, Support his desires as of worth: His expressions are all my opinions. His body my mansion on earth. IW OFFERO THE GIANT A giant there was in the days of old, Of powerful presence and stature bold, Who like the rest of the sons of men, Was reared in a house and not in a den. The persons he met with in daily life, Obeyed the commands of fear and of strife; As each one passed him on his service bent, All serving the master of Discontent. Offero, the giant, looked on the while. And studied mankind with a doubtful smile; While each of the servants who passed along, Made much of his master in praise and song; And each one declared from his humble sphere That earth held only his master in fear. Offero conscious of his powerful strength, Resolved to achieve greater things at length, Resolved to attach himself to a lord More powerful than they the servants adored. 103 IN THE GRAY The country he traveled from shore to shore, To find the ruler those masters slaved for; To a prince's castle at length he came, With a base of rock and a crown of frame. Which stood on the brow of a lordly hill. Commanding tithes from the sea and till. II The prince he toiled for like a vassal free. The bond to sever if they'd disagree; He toiled in gardens mid the growing grain Arijd piled the harvest on the level plain; From their mountain fastness he loosened rocks And squared and shaped them into building blocks; The towering forest fell before his axe. And boulders sundered with a thousand cracks. Beneath the thunder of his mighty maul. Which shook the earth like earthquake in its fall. It chanced one night he heard the prince com- plain About his tributes to the king's domain: 104 OFFERO THE GIANT Of tithes and tariffs he expressed a fear His envoy's message could gain the royal ear. Offero noticed and the driving doubt Crept through his thoughts crowding all others out. So he asked the prince if he feared the king. "Alas!" quoth the prince, "to him tithes I bring, I serve him daily with my mind and hand, And now, woe's me! he threatens my com- mand." "Well," quoth Offero, "if this king thou dread And thou quakest in fear for thy royal head, More powerful than thou must this ruler be, So him shall I serve instead of thee." Ill So over the desert again he sped In search of the king whom the princes dread. He came to the castle and broad estate Where lived the monarch whose word was fate. lOS IN THE GRAY "O king," quoth he, when the ruler appeared, "Art thou the master whose power is feared By servants and masters and princes all, Who serve and obey thee whatever thy call?" "My word," quoth the king, "throughout all the earth. Is dreaded by princes whatever their birth. Nor how lofty their station, my command, Before me bareheaded makes all of them stand stand." "Then," answered Offero, "thee shall I serve, For thee shall my judgment be on the verve; My strength bear thy burdens distant and near. For thou art the master princes doth fear." Through divers labors the proud king he served, And ne'er from the pathway of duty swerved, Till doubt spread round him its devouring flame. 1 06 OFFERO THE GIANT When the king at the mention of Satan's name, Crossed himself quickly and trembled from fear, As if a conquering army stood near. Offero saw with apparent surprise. That even this King was cloaked in disguise. At length he ventured a question to ask, — "Who is this Satan aiid what is his task? Why dost thou dread him if thou art so strong.^ Why dost thou tremble when he comes along? Methinks this Satan thy master must be. So him shall I serve instead of thee." IV Again he wandered till at last he came To Satan's castle on the mount of Fame, And lounging round it in the noonday shade. Were gorgeous splendor and its cavalcade: Men immaculately dressed, foul of tongue, Ballads of the viscious were by them sung; 107 IN THE GRAY They judged unfortunates in divers ways, For only Satan had a word of praise; They cherished hatred of the race and creed, Condemned the one with whom they disagreed; For only they were to perfection next, Sustained their wrongs by twisted Bible text. Their lack of charity to justify And make the Truth less potent than a lie; They talked of goodness and of goodly things, Of ethics fitted for the courts of kings, Condemned the trifler for delay and doubt, Assured the deist that science bore them out; Hell they ridiculed as a crazy dream, — A zealot's offspring, a fanciful theme. — Their women were masculine, pompous, bold. Were necklaced with diamonds, jewelled with gold, The season's fairest blossoms in their hair. The parts of their bodies which were not bare. Were covered with gauze so light and so thin, That to look upon them was mortal sin. They talked of conduct and etiquette made And praised the hero with the gory blade; io8 OFFERO THE GIANT Virtue they lauded as luminous, bright, Yet courted pastimes in the lusty night. A social leader was their cultured queen, Of such refinement and such judgment keen. That all the rest to emulate her style, .Aped her fashions, habits, conduct and smile. Position pompous was the life desired. As each to some proud leadership aspired: They had clubs, politics and games of chance, And displayed their charms in the mazy dance. On pleasure and control their aim was bent, And chided humbled rivals' discontent. Each lived and loved his Majesty to please, And rounded nicely out a life of ease. Charity they practised in a showy way, But would give only what they Spared away; By long continued practises they came To play successfully the manly game. Could sntoke and gamble, guide a launch at sea And do man's pastimes just as well as he. One day a galaxy supreme and grand. Of women beautiful and men as bland 109 IN THE GRAY As pride and passion could commingled make, Resolved to jourtiey for the pleasure's sake. Ahead rode Satan uniformed and crowned, Behind the subjects true and faithful found, Throughout the nations they careened in sport, And gifted monarchs trembled in their court, To see such power throughout the empires dawn — Pleasure made a king, honest toil a pawn. It pleased Oflero Satan's power to see. Kings, princes, masters all on bended knee; And in his heart a certain pride he felt When kings and princes with his master dealt. To a famous city one day they came: The design! its conquest in Satan's name. And as they marched through the principal street. Their splendor pronounced them the earth's elite; And as they ventured toward the city square. An impious challenge was standing there. For right before them in the market moss. Was standing the emblem, — a granite cross. 110 OFFERO THE GIANT "Cursed be those monks!" qouth Satan in disgust, "Must my adherents by their promised trust, Defeated, baffled and converted be?" In rage he fumed at this extremity And turned to leave by a less traveled road, As crestfallen as if lashed by a goad. Offero pitied his dejected look And offered to search each vale, cave and nook, Those monks to find and before him to bring, For offending his majesty the king. "Alas!" qouth Satan, "'Tis not them I fear, But their Master who always lingers near*" Quoth Offero, "That Master will I bring And compel him acknowledge thee, O King!" "Too great his power," qouth Satan with a sigh. He guides the Earthquake, lets the lightning fly; Sweeps the earth with tornadoes in their flight, And lashes billows up to mountain height." Ill IN THE GRAY "Then," quoth OflFero, "Thou fearest Him I see; So Him shall I toil for instead of thee." Satan angered saw Offero depart, But saved his legions from a change of heart; Back home he led them without further loss, Avoiding places where he saw the Cross. OflFero imaged in his mind the king. Possessed of forces that could Satan sting, As he journeyed the Monk's abode to find And list his services for all mankind. The monks he found a digging in the mould, Not as prospectors for the haughty gold. But toilers in a vegetable field, Producing harvests in abundant yield; Their converts with them sweating in the sun Struggling with burdens their approval won. "Where are the monks .^" Offero thundered loud, Hoping to meet great kings or princes proud. 112 OFFERO THE GIANT *'At thy service," the abbott meekly said, Let fall his spade and gently raised his head, Surveyed the giant, "What wouldst thou with me, What service master can we render thee?" Offero viewed him with dismay and doubt. How such as he could Satan put to rout. And asked him fiercely in commanding tone, To lead him promptly to his proud King's throne! "To meet my King," the abbott meekly said, "One must upon the bread of Life be fed. He must for others make a sacrifice. Abandon folly and its kindred vice. Uplift the wretched an>d support the poor. Keep for his enemies an open door." "That shall I do," Offero answered low, "Now be my guide, thy Master to me show." "Nay," quoth the monk, "thy service first must be. Thy heart must change before my Lord thou'lt see. Long years must thou serve him in divers ways, Before thou'lt merit his support and praise; 113 IN THE GRAY Great glory and promotion shall be thine If in His service thou increase His vine." "Which vine?" quoth OfFero, gazing at the grapes, "The black or green, the smooth or gnarled shapes." "O," quoth the monk, "Thou canst not under- ^ f;: stand Till first thou serve Him with thy heart and hand." "Assign me a task that I may begin As serve Him I shall, His promises to win." "Now shall we grant thee the request thou ask, In our King's service a most difficult task, Methinks thy figure and commanding form Art well adapted to defy the storm; So over at the ford the cataract Leaps high in fury oft in tryst or pact With rising flood or melancholy breeze, Engulfs our people in those swollen seas. Methinks that thou couldst pilot them across And save our people from untimely loss." 114 OFFERO THE GIANT Offero sanctioned and stationed at the ford, Commenced his labor for his King and Lord; His service lengthened into days, months, years. Through grimy toil and tragedy and tears; The lives he saved, entrusted to his care, And crossed the ford in stormy flood and fair. The years had graven furrows in his cheek And stole the vigor that his youth did seek, The hair once black and curly in its strength, Grew white in service of unequalled length. But best of all a change within his soul. Made Faith the anchor of his heart's control; Time had taught him each hidden light to find Within the myriad chambers of his mind. Praises fell lightly as a thing apart, — He served all mankind with an open heart; Mankind he served his better self to raise, And hoped thereby to win his Master's praise. It chanced one night in darkness wild and rain. With roaring thunder and a hurricane, A voice he heard from one within the night, — A plaintive voice imploring aid and light. — A lone child in storm and darkness lost. Beset by dangers and by terrors crossed. IIS IN THE CRAY Besought Offero save him from the storm, To cross the ford to shelter safe and warm. Upon his shoulders he placed the pleading child, Breasted the waters and storm fierce and wild; But ere the center of the ford was gained. Above the rocks the dreadful torrent strained; Breast high in surging insolence the flood. In seething wave against his pathway stood. From cliff to crag the lightning flashed and leaped And drowning darkness was around him heaped; The thunder rocked the world in its sound, And falling torrents surged and foamed around. Such storm the ford had never known before, With wind and wave and thunder's dreadful roar. As onward he pressed in danger and dread. The child grew heavier; and his trembling tread Pressed from their moorings the earth-bound rocks With weight and force that all creation mocks. Ii6 OFFERO THE GIANT So heavy grew the child a single feather On his shoulder laid would plunge together To the seething foam the giant and child, Where angry waters in confusion piled. With powerful energy he struggled on, Until at last the distant port was won; As he entered the erstwhile darksome room, Windowless, black, and lonely as the tomb. The child now lighter grown, upon the floor He placed, while lights unseen by him before, Of mellowed brilliance, soothing to the eye, From neither wick nor fagot he could spy. From nowhere, everywhere, lit up the room. Dispelling every trace of shade or gloom. Offero wondered while around he gazed, Surprised at the scene his earth bound vision dazed; Forgetful of the child arrayed in white. O'er whom was shed the soul inspiring light; In perfect manhood there he stood full grown, King from the universe's greatest Throne; As if divining from his mind the thought. Said, "Lo! Oifero what thou long hast sought Since service claimed thee at this dangerous ford, To meet and serve thy Master and thy Lord, 117 IN THE GRAY To thee is granted and thy meed shall be Henceforth in Paradise along with me." The morning dawned forgetful of the night, And hundreds gathered at the ford in fright, To view the wreckage of the dreadful storm Or save some belated traveler from harm. The ford was peaceful as in perfect calm. Was low and quiet with a growing palm, — Offero's staif to all the place well known, — Beside th